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A VERY IMPORTANT PSA!
Regarding ALL of my Thor/Avenger fics.
Alright, let’s just get it out there, folks. Perhaps around October, a little before then, I had once more been getting more persisting comments and yet another IM from three consistent sources asking I update these damn fics. And at that time, that was the last fucking straw. That was it; those persisting comments broke me. I had at the time planned to give out a PSA telling people that these fics would be dead entirely (or in this case, given entirely to LokiTheAssassin13). Because of those persisting comments, ESPECIALLY from particularly three sources, had entirely killed off any and all affection I had for those fandoms, and thus, the plots died.
I was sick and tired of these comments, blocking those I could on FF, even one that crossed onto DeviantART to bother me. AO3, sadly, does not have a blocking application, so all I could do was try and ignore these idiots.
In this PSA, I was even going to name names. I was so fucking spiteful, angry and just TIRED of it. I already felt guilty enough as it was that I hadn’t updated these stories in literal years, and there have been so many wonderful, supporting readers for them too. But it was no longer a comfort to me to have these good comments outweighing the bad. I wanted it to die and stay dead so I could get some peace of mind again. I even planned to possibly adopt those fics out to others who could complete them.
But, after discussing with a friend, I decided to hold off, maintain radio silence to truly consider things. And today, I finally decided to go an alternative route.
You see, the reason my fics – not just these ones, but ALL of them – have been so dead for so long is because of a combination of school and work. It was a lot easier doing fics when I was just going to school, or just working and not doing both at once. But it became impossible to do one or the other, especially when I got into classes requiring a gross amount of reading, complete with inconsiderate teachers who seemed to think that their students had NO other classes, jobs or life outside their subjects. I actually had a very recent, very serious burnout, and thank the gods that my boss is so damn considerate and understanding. He gave me as much time as I needed off work so I could catch up in classes I was very close to doing less than ideal in, catch up on sleep I absolutely NEEDED, and just generally get back to a healthier mindset. I returned to work on a MUCH more sensible schedule, and I’m doing much, much better, but I’m still too busy to do anything other than dedicate 99% of my life to school and work, and the remaining 1% to making sure the 99% doesn’t kill me.
And not long after, I sat down with my mom and an academic advisor. We crunched the numbers, and we found that the next coming semester may in fact possibly be my last. I have perhaps the next semester left, or one and a half semesters left and then I’m done. In which case, I’ll just be working so I can save up enough to start my own life, go to a trade school (because fuck universities, seriously), and really and truly start my independent life.
Six months, perhaps nine, and then everything with school will be done. Meaning I will have time for fanfiction again, something I have missed so much, and long to continue. I know after so long, especially in my RotG fandom, fans have gone and the fandoms are drying up. Even the Marvel fandom has likely experienced this, but at this point, I don’t care about the view count. I just want to finish what I started and ENJOY IT.
That said, no, my Avenger/Thor fics will not be updated just yet. No, I am not completely killing them off or adopting them out. I will keep them, and when I finally graduate, I will look back on them and see if I can continue them. I’m almost 90% sure I can and will once I have school completely cleared off my plate, but I make no promises.
So the gist of the situation is this: I will NOT update these fics just yet. Not until I graduate and have school done and over with, and I’m left with just working as much as I can and move onto trade school. Other fics that are not Thor/Avenger have a CHANCE to update before the new year, but again, no promises.
Guys, I’m not going to lie. My Thor/Avenger fics are on seriously thin ice now. I’m not giving any more chances after this. You want to bother me and demand an update? Fine, go ahead. If I can, I’ll block you. If not, fine. But that’s it. I’m shutting shit down. I’m not even going to adopt plots out. No, what I will do is take these fics down, maybe give enough warning for people to save them to docs for personal reading, but that’s it. If from then to now I get at least 5 more messages demanding “update please” or “please update” or any other bullshit remotely close to it, these fics are gone. Six to nine months of either silence or HELPFUL reviews. If you like the fic and want to comment, great! I’d love to hear it! If you just want to badger me, please see your ass right out the door. I don’t fucking care if you are a fucking 12 year old or have some kind of language barrier as an excuse, you’ve gotten NUMEROUS warnings and understood them, but continued to persist.
I have all of your interactions with me screencapped and saved. If you are one of these persisting, sniveling little shits with truly nothing better going on in their lives than a fucking FANFICTION, I have plenty of spiteful initiative to out you publicly.
So there you have it. I have ultimately decided not to delete and adopt out anything, but I do ask for just one more stretch of patience. You all have no idea how much I used to love these stories, but after so much time and so much insensitive persisting, I’ve practically fallen out of love with them, and have even grown to resent them on numerous levels. I think I can recover and even grow to like them again once school is finished, but until then, please, please just bear with me a bit longer. I won’t ask readers to stick around – I don’t blame you in the slightest if you want to move onto other fics. I’m honestly shocked I still get such encouraging comments and reviews on these, despite how long it’s been and the bullshit its bred.
This is why I wanted to give my GOOD and ENCOURAGING readers this. I don’t want to be such a spiteful bitch and take this away from you just because of a tiny handful of childish shitheads. Tempting as it is, I’ve ultimately decided to take the high road and just hope it’s enough, and that for once these assholes will get a clue.
If not…then I can only apologize. I can’t make empty promises anymore, and if my last promise has to be putting these stories in a digital paper shredder, then that’s what I’ll do.
This is the absolute last and final warning to those of you who have been trying to get an update out of me, who have IMed and followed me onto DA for your ridiculous and rather pathetic need for a fanfiction update. I will out you, I will plaster your user names and messages all over the place, and whatever happens, happens. I’ll sleep perfectly fine at night regardless. Hell, people can go into the comment and review boxes right now if they want to find you – it’s not hard in all honesty.
I guess that’s all I can say on the matter now. Nine months is all I ask, perhaps ten if it comes down to it; the hope is that by next fall I’ll be back in the fanfiction seat at the absolute latest. But once I finish school, I’m very sure I will be able to come back and start an actual update schedule. But until then, I ask one of two things: be respectful or fuck right off. If you do not want to stick around that long, I honestly and truly do not blame you, and I’m sorry I let you down. If you do intent to stick around…I hardly know what else to say other than thank you and that I do not deserve such loyal readers. If you are thinking of leaving another insensitive, two-liner review asking I update…I gave you fair warning. Enough said.
Until then…well, just for now, this will be goodbye. I want to try and get in one update for one of my RotG fics before the new year, but this will be more of a hopeful goal than a plan.
Be kind to your own readers, and be kind to other writers. We don’t get paid for this, and we’re growing and evolving every day in our lives. Once our priority plates are clear enough, then we can get back to fics. Otherwise, don’t ask writers to meet your demands; the world doesn’t revolve around you, and honestly, just what does it say about you to be so thirsty for a fanfiction? If you’re so desperate for fics, get off your ass and write your own. Work for it just like a real writer.
Till next time, folks, I will see you then, and I hope I will get to see familiar and welcome readers.
~Sumi