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"Fuck!" Porchay exclaimed, surprised and shocked by the email he just received.
"OH GOD... OHM!!!!!"
Porchay's ear bleeding screech blasted through his whole bedroom. His best friend; Ohm, who visited for a study hang-out covered both of his ears, he ducked his head on the table which was full of piled papers and notebooks, and then sighed.
'Here we go again.' Ohm mumbled to himself as if he's been in this exact scenario for a hundred times already.
"Let me guess, it's about WIK again?" Porchay nodded eagerly to his best friend as he placed his hands over his left chest, feeling his fast heart beat. His hands were trembling and his gaze was stuck on his phone which he dropped on the table- the email he just received waving proudly at him.
"Ohm... Ohm... I w-won..." Porchay stumbles on his words which earned a concerned look from his best friend.
"Won on what?"
"P'WIK!"
"You won, P'WIK?"
"No! But I hope so, one day!" Porchay chuckled. Winning WIK; his favorite singer, his inspiration in music, and the most handsome man Porchay has ever laid eyes on- does winning WIK means being in a romantic relationship with him? Because if it is, then that's really winning in life!
"Porchay! Enough with day dreaming tell me what you won!"
Chay pushes his phone towards his best friend, letting Ohm read the email that made him lose his mind.
With a wide smile and shining eyes, he was waiting for Ohm's reaction. And heck, his best friend's reaction did not disappoint him.
"What the actual fuck, Porchay Kittisawat!? A video call fan sign event for WIK's 2nd album?"
Porchay proudly and excitedly nodded. "Yes! And that's a 90 seconds video call!" He almost screamed. Just having WIK's album already feels fulfilling, but winning a fan sign event and having a chance to talk to WIK through a video call is lottery luck! And he's feeling overly lucky right now, he must've saved hundreds of cats from his past life!
What will he do when it's his turn to talk to WIK?
What should he say? Should he prepare a speech and cheat notes?
What should he wear? Should he go all blingy or just a casual outfit?
Should he wear make-up? He should, right? He needs to look presentable in front of his idol, crush, and the man of his dreams.
Should he set up a screen recording on his phone early on or when they notify him for his turn?
Should he fix his WIK wall and use it as his backdrop?
Should he ask questions or maybe request WIK to do some cute stuff?
His birthday is still half a year away, but should he ask for a birthday greeting from WIK?
Maybe a good luck for his exams and some encouraging words for his college life?
What should he do?
Porchay doesn't know. It's his first time joining a video call fan sign raffle, and he did not even expect to win.
Now he's panicking. It will happen in 3 days. Yes, he still has 3 days to get everything he needs ready. The outfit, the makeup, his back drop, and his speech.
"PORCHAY!!!" Porchay was pulled out of his internal turmoil when Ohm threw a throw pillow at him, hitting his face perfectly.
"OHM!" Ohm laughed loudly and it roared inside Porchay's bed room. Porchay on the other hand is frowning on his best friend, slowly grabbing the pillow closest to him, and planning his revenge. Which he failed btw, because Ohm has already stood from his seat.
His best friend is standing and looking at his WIK wall. "You've been his fan for so long, Chay. You deserve this." Ohm turns and faces him, there's a smile on his best friend's face, a genuine one.
"Thank you, Ohm!" Porchay stood and threw himself to his best friend, giving Ohm a tight hug. "You are the bestest best friend I ever had. Thank you for supporting me with everything."
"You mean tolerating you with your WIK obsession?"
"Fuck off!"
The study hang-out ended up with Ohm listening to his best friend's non-stop rambling about WIK and on how excited and nervous he is for the fan sign event.
Kinn and Porsche arrived home when Ohm was about to leave, they exchanged hi and how are you before they both went to their offices to continue working.
Ohm left just after dinner. They ate awkwardly, especially with Ohm still not comfortable being surrounded by armed bodyguards.
• • • • • • • • • •
The next 3 days all Porchay did was to walk around his room: finding the best spot for the video call, ransacking his closet to find the best outfit, and trying on different make up styles. He has also decided to tell WIK how much he loves his music and how much he idolizes the singer. Porchay decided not to request some cute gesture from WIK; he knows WIK doesn't like acting cute.
The day of the video call fan sign event came in no time.
Porchay is wearing his favorite brown sweater; underneath it is a white polo, with its collar peeking out. He wore light make up, just enough to highlight his features, and a little bit of blush to give color on his face, he also put on one layer of mascara to highlight his long lashes and eyes. His speech is written on a piece of paper that is stuck beside his phone stand in front of him.
He draped a black cloth on his wall for his backdrop; he decided not to use his WIK wall as his backdrop at the last minute. Porchay thought he didn't want WIK to see him as some obsessed fan.
He's ready!
Fuck... Fuck, no! He isn't!
His hands were shaking, his heart was beating hard. The event started 30 minutes ago and he's just waiting for his turn.
He's fixing his clothes. He's running his fingers through his curls. He's checking his overall appearance if he's good enough to face WIK and make a good impression.
“WIK will be here in a minute.”
A staff member suddenly spoke which shocked Porchay.
Chay shifted on his chair, fixed his posture, and looked at himself in the mirror placed beside his phone on the tripod.
Kim on the other hand is already on the screen just seconds after the staff talked to Porchay. He can see Porchay fixing his loose and bouncy curls and watches how this fan tries to calm himself down. Kim can see him checking himself out to what he assumes is a mirror beside the fan.
Without noticing Kim is already smiling on his own, he placed his chin on his hand with his elbow resting on the table as he stared at the phone screen in front of him. He looks cute he thought to himself.
A staff member catches Kim's attention by showing a last 30 seconds placard. Did he just stare at a fan for 1 whole minute? Yes, he did.
Kim coughed to get Porchay's attention to which he succeeded when Porchay jumped on his chair with the sudden noise that surprised him. Porchay turned his head, finally facing his phone's camera, shocked written all over his face.
Kim chuckled a little bit loud, but his chuckles died down when he got a glimpse of the most beautiful pair of eyes he has ever seen. He stares straight at them, they look pretty. Those doe eyes look so expressive. Kim can see how those big orbs shine while they look at him, he can see how it flashes embarrassment which was quickly replaced by excitement.
"P'WIK!" Porchay exclaimed when he noticed his idol already staring at him.
"Sorry, times up." A staff suddenly butted in, covering the camera in front of WIK with a piece of paper which made Porchay sighed. His lips pursed in a pout.
"Oh..." Chay mumbled after. "I haven't talked to P'WIK yet." he continued while staring at the now white screen.
He waited for this moment, he prayed for this. But everything came crashing down just because he's busy checking himself out in front of his mirror. He wasted this once in a lifetime moment to talk to WIK.
Kim heard it, he heard Porchay's voice turn from cheerful to downhearted, and if Kim is being honest- he hated it. He hated how he only had a small glimpse of those beautiful eyes before they turned dejected. He hated how he clearly heard Porchay's voice turn sad, and it broke him.
Kim glared at his staff, the one glare he only uses when facing his family's rival gangs. He snatched the paper covering his camera away, crumpled it, and threw it to God's know where. It shocked his staff, it's the first time they saw the artist this scary. WIK is always calm and cheerful, but this one- it's Kimhan, which the staff doesn't know exists.
"Hi! Porchay, right?"
Porchay must've been imagining things because why is he hearing WIK's voice again when the video call already ended.
The call ended right? It should be, the staff ended it.
But he's heard WIK's chuckles again.
He lifted his head from looking down and there he saw WIK, smiling at him and playfully raising his brows. "Let's start over?" WIK asked.
"Really?" he still has that little pout on his lips and his voice is small and Kim finds it cute. "Yes, we can start the timer again." Kim's voice is calming and it did calm Porchay.
His staffs are confused though, he looked so mad and scary just seconds ago but now he's looking like a little lovesick male lead in a teenage drama. One of them scoffs as she restarted the 90 seconds timer.
"Hi." WIK started, his smile was wide, like he's excited to talk to Porchay- which surprises Chay.
"H-hello, P'WIK." Chay stuttered in his words, he's looking straight to his phone's camera; he can't look at the screen because he can feel WIK staring intensely at him.
"Porchay, right?"
"Y-yes." He mindlessly answered... "Oh, how did you know my name, P'WIK?'' He hasn't said his name, right? Porchay hasn't introduced himself yet.
"Your Line account says 'Porchay' is this wrong?"
God, right! Was he expecting some fairy tale moment right there? "That's correct, Phi."
Porchay then decided to look at the screen. Fuck, why is WIK leaning close to the camera!? Why is WIK acting like he's not wearing an earphone that he needs to lean close to the phone to hear him. Why!? Why is WIK smiling like that at him? Why is he staring intensely at him? Why is WIK chuckling? And why is Porchay's heart beating way faster than before, like it's about to jump out of his chest?
Then their eyes met, and Porchay held his breath. "You really have mesmerizing eyes, Porchay." Did WIK's voice go an octave lower? It did!
Porchay blinks his eyes confusedly and he's sure he saw WIK smirk a little. He heard the staff say he only has 30 seconds left, and he's not going to let himself lose another chance! He fixed his posture, took a deep breath, and a small encouraging nod for himself before he started talking- Telling WIK everything he wanted to say, and everything he rehearsed.
"P'WIK, I'm a huge fan! I've liked you since you started uploading song covers on Youtube." Porchay talked fast, like he's rapping his way through the last 30 seconds. "You inspire me so much and make me love music more than I already do." He explained his head nodding as he talked, and his eyes... they're shining and Kim is entranced by them. "I wish to meet you someday, P'WIK. I wanted to see you perform and hear you sing live. I hope one day I get to experience being in the crowd of one of your shows." Porchay now has both his hands clasped close to his chest, his eyes looking at Kim as they shine, like they shone only for one person- only for WIK. "I also hope you keep making music, P'WIK. You're an inspiration. I hope you always do what makes you happy." He let out another breath after his complete declaration of love for the artist he respected so much.
Kim... Kim is in trance. His eyes are both focused on Porchay's orbs, not letting them out of his glance. He went back on leaning his chin on his hand as his elbow rested on the table, by this position he could stare at Porchay's face, especially his eyes properly. He's quiet after Porchay talks, he didn't react at all- he was just looking at Chay's orbs.
It made Porchay feel awkward and anxious. His eyes kept blinking, making his long lashes flutter, confused as to why WIK was staring at his eyes. And those fluttering of lashes made no changes; in fact, Porchay felt WIK's stares went more intense than before. He saw WIK gulped, good that means the screen or the call didn't freeze.
"Uhh...” Porchay awkwardly waves his hand in front of the camera. "P'WIK?" He called for his idol's name, which didn't change anything.
"WIK, times up!" One of the staff said rather loudly, they probably notice how WIK is staring at the fan. One of them has a placard that says We're 3 minutes behind schedule already. End the call!
WIK frowns at his staff, there's nothing wrong with him, and he’s just hypnotized by those Bambi-like eyes. Kim loves staring at them, they look so expressive. He loves drowning in them; he wouldn't mind suffocating as long as it's with Porchay's eyes.
Another staff member held her hand and crossed them in an X sign, which got Kim's attention and he hated it. He looked up to his staff and glared at them. Slowly his staff put the placard down, the other put her hands down, and they all shut their lips on a thin line.
"What is it again, Porchay?" Kim brings his full attention back to Porchay who is now just staring confusedly at the camera.
Porchay shook his head. He said everything he wanted to say. "Nothing, P'WIK." he mumbles. "Uhh, I think my time is over?" his words ended up as a question to which Kim immediately answered with "No, it's okay. Keep talking."
"Eh?" Porchay tilted his head a bit, like a cat curiously watching his owner. And Kim... Kim chuckled to that. He's been chuckling way too much during Porchay's time, it's very out of character for WIK, but he doesn't mind- Kim doesn't care.
"Keep talking while I sign your album." That's when Porchay noticed the pen in WIK's hand.
But Porchay doesn't know what to talk with anymore. He doesn't know what to say, should he just watch his idol sign for his album?
"Keep talking, Porchay. I like hearing your voice."
It's not only Porchay who let out a gasp but Kim's whole team too. Why is WIK flirting with a fan is what his manager thought.
"Uhh... I don't know what to say anymore, P'WIK."
"Hmm? What do you want me to write on your album?"
"Anything is okay, Phi."
Then they both went silent. Kim writing on Chay's album and Chay watching Kim.
When Kim finishes writing and signing on Porchay's album, he blows on it, drying the ink down. He glanced up to once again get lost in Porchay's eyes. "I hope to meet you one day, Porchay." He smiled at Porchay. "Thank you for all of your kind words. I'm glad I get to inspire you with music."
"Thank you, P'WIK! This video call event means so much to me!"
Kim nodded at him. He stares for another 10 - 20 seconds at Porchay's eyes, memorizing them and keeping note of every emotion he sees in those eyes.
"See you soon, Porchay!'
"Thank you, P'WIK!"
• • • • • • • • • •
The following day Porchay woke up with a huge smile on his face. He's in a good mood and no one can change that.
He woke up a bit late, past lunch to be exact. He slept around midnight recalling everything that happened on the video call because you know... He forgot to record the call!
Yes, he just found out that he did not click the screen recording from his phone after WIK ended the video call.
But that's fine. It's okay. He'll get to meet WIK again, he can feel it.
He walked down to the dining hall and didn't expect his brother and Kinn to be there. They should be in their office at this time of the day, attending meetings after meetings.
"Porchay!"
"Hia?"
Porsche looks mad. He looks at Porchay seriously while Kinn tries to calm him down beside him.
"Can you tell me why my bank statement says I spent a hundred freaking thousand baht 3 weeks ago?"
Porchay gulp. He walked closer to his brother, sat in front of Porsche and said "Uhh... Hia. You said I can use your card anytime." He nervously reasoned.
Porsche nodded, because he really did say that. "I did. I said that." Porsche's teeth were clenched. "But I didn't say you can spend 100,000 baht in one day!"
"But Hia, it's really important!"
"What did you even buy with that huge amount of money!?"
Porchay glanced at Kinn who was also waiting for his answer. "I bought WIK albums." He mumbled quietly.
"WIK albums? How many did you buy?"
"I don't know, Hia." He shook his head, because Porchay really didn't know how many albums he bought. "I just checked out as many albums as I can."
"Porchay, why do you need that many albums?"
"Because it will give me a lot of entries for P'WIK's fan sign event."
Porsche sighed, but Kinn chuckled. Kinn knows how much his boyfriend's little brother idolizes his brother. But what he didn't know is Porchay's desperation for his brother's autograph.
"Chay, you know you can just tell me if you want Kim's autograph, right? I can get it for you."
"I know P'Kinn, and I also know that you and P'WIK aren't really on good terms."
"Chay, did you even win the raffle?" Porsche asked his brother. "Please, tell me you did."
Porchay's eyes suddenly shine, his smile wide reaching his doe eyes, and he looks excited. "I DID, HIA!!! I TALKED TO P'WIK YESTERDAY THROUGH A VIDEO CALL!"
Kinn chuckled with how fast Chay's mood changes. He leaned closer to his boyfriend and whispered. "He looks so happy."
"Yea? I guess those hundreds of thousands of money is worth it?"
"IT WAS WORTH IT, HIA!" Porchay heard his brother's whisper and answered the question by himself.
"Okay. Okay! If it's worth it, then it is. But Porchay, if you will use my card I want you to tell me first, especially if you'll spend that much money."
"Okay, Hia! Thank you so much, you're the best!"
Porchay nodded earnestly, he stood from his chair and hops towards his brother, launching himself to Porsche.
"By the way, Chay. We will have a family dinner this Saturday with Vegas and Macau. I'll try my best to convince Kim to join."
Porchay just nodded to Kinn before untangling himself from his Hia.
The family dinner came in no time. Vegas, Pete, and Macau arrived in the afternoon. He spent time playing mobile games with Macau, whom he became close with when he moved in at the compound.
Kinn called him over when it's almost time for dinner. They both walk towards the entrance of the mansion. "P'Kinn, are we still waiting for someone? Everyone is in the dining hall already." Chay confusedly asked the head of the main family.
"Kim will come." Kinn said.
"P'WIK WILL COME!?" Porchay exclaimed.
Wait, he wasn't ready! He's wearing an old flannel shirt with a worn out white tank top inside. He didn't wash his hair today!
Kinn seemingly knows what is running in Porchay's mind and said "You look fine, Chay. You're good."
"P'Kinn, I didn't wash my hair today! And P'WIK is coming home!"
"Chay, how many times do I have to tell you that you can call him Kim."
"But he didn't say it himself, so I'll continue calling him WIK until he says so."
Before Kinn can answer, a black Maserati is parked in front of them. Kim gets out of his car with a frown on his face.
"Kinn, I told you I don't want to attend any family dinner. Stop making Tankhun call me every goddamn hour!"
Kinn scoffed at his brother. "Hi to you too, Kimhan."
Kim was about to cuss at Kinn when he saw those same exact Bambi eyes that have kept him awake for days now.
"Bambi" he mumbled to himself, soft like a whisper. He was looking at Porchay who was awkwardly smiling at him.
"Kim, this is Porchay. Porsche's brother that I told you about. He's a huge fan of yours!" Kinn said as he crossed his arms over his chest. "I keep telling you to meet him but you always refuse! He's moved in at the mansion for months now."
Just like from the video call event, Kim was staring intensely at him, his eyes glued on Porchay's doe orbs.
"Anyway, Kim! I have a very funny story about your recent album fan sign event."
"P'KINN! NOOO~"
Kim frowns when Porchay child-like whines at his older brother, with Kinn laughing at Porchay. Kim tilted his head as he raised his brow at the scene in front of him.
"Okay. Kim, I'll tell you later at dinner."
"That's the worst, P'Kinn! Everyone is there!"
Kinn just shrugged his shoulders before leaving Kim and Porchay alone.
Kim glances back at Porchay from watching his brother's leaving figure. He mumbled another Bambi
"Huh?"
Porchay isn't sure if he heard Kim call him Bambi clearly earlier but now he is. He heard him call him Bambi for the 2nd time, but he shook his head and told himself to just ignore it. Maybe he's really just hearing things.
"P'WIK." Chay tried calling Kim to catch his attention, which was already at him. "I... uhm... I don't think you remember me, but I talked to you few days ago at---"
"Porchay." Kim cut him off and said his name. "I remember you, Porchay." I remember those eyes vividly he wanted to add, but he didn't. He didn't want to sound stalker-ish to a fan.
"You remember me? Really?" Excitement is written on Chay's face when Kim nodded at him.
"I do. And you can just call me Kim."
"P'Kim" Chay mumbled, testing how Kim's real name rolls beautifully through his lips. "Then, you can call me Chay."
Kim nodded at him; he walked closer to Chay before smiling at him. "Let's go? I bet the whole family is already famished."
"Ah yes! Of course."
When both of them arrive at the dining hall, Kinn is already narrating what happened a few days before. How Porsche scolded Chay for using his card, spending hundreds of thousands for Kim's albums. Everyone looks like they're enjoying the story when Porsche even added the fact that he bought hundreds of albums just to get Kim's autograph.
Porchay stepped back and slightly hid behind Kim. He felt embarrassed that his WIK fan boy life is currently the main topic of the family.
"It’s okay, Porchay." He heard Kim mumble close to him. He lifted his head to look at Kim who was already looking at his eyes. "It's fine. I find it cute."
Porchay pursed his lips. "It's not." He rebutted.
Kim chuckled at him, those chuckles that melted his embarrassment away. Kim guided him towards the two empty chairs; he pulled one for Porchay to sit on before sitting on his own.
The rest of the night surprisingly went well. There's no frown on Kim's face and he's conversing freely with his brothers and cousins.
That surprises the whole family, flabbergasted in Tankhun's words.
All throughout the dinner Kim is also making sure that Porchay doesn't feel left out, he includes Porchay to their conversation as much as possible, which the younger felt thankful for.
The day ended with Kim only saying his goodbye and a good night to Porchay, ignoring his family until his car leaves the compound.
Kim: Nice to see you again, Porchay. I told you we'll meet again one day. Good night.
Porchay received a message from an unknown number, though he already has some idea who the mystery texter is, he still needed to make sure.
Chay: I'm sorry but you are?
Kim: My bad. This is Kim.
Chay: P'Kim! How did you get my number?
Kim: From the fan sign?
Chay: You got my number from my fan sign application?
Kim: Yes. Why? Is there a problem with that?
Chay: Do you always get your fan's number from the fan sign application?
Kim: No. Just your number.
Chay: Oh? Okay. Its fine, I guess? But you could've asked me earlier.
Kim: I already have your number though.
I have it right after the video call.
Chay: Isn't that illegal?
Kim: I guess so.
Chay: P'Kim! Getting someone's personal information without their knowledge is illegal!
Kim: I don't care. At least I got your number.
Then what took you so long to message me? Porchay whined after reading Kim's last message. He's on his bed, rolling over everytime Kim sends his reply.
Porchay ended that night after exchanging good nights and sweet dreams with his music inspiration. Porchay slept with a huge smile on his face after texting with Kim until past midnight.
• • • • • • • • • •
The following days Kim has been seen in the compound far more frequently than he should.
"Kimmy! You're here again!" Tankhun criticizes his brother. As much as he loves seeing his baby brother home, it's suspicious to him how Kim always comes over.
"I'm bored in my apartment." Kim flatly answered.
"You've been bored in your apartment for weeks now! Tell me what you want! Are you spying on someone from the mansion?" Khun frowns on Kim, his eyes fiercely judging his baby brother.
"I said I'm just bored from my apart---"
Kim's head immediately turned when he heard Porchay's voice going to the garden. "Hia, I'll play in the garden. Don't disturb me!" Kim saw Porchay walking, almost jogging away from his brother while carrying his guitar.
And Kim followed right after, leaving his brother in the living room. Tankhun's voice echoed through the whole floor. "KIMMY! OH GOSH! I KNOW WHY YOU'RE ALWAYS HERE! I NOW KNOW WHO YOU ARE SPYING! KIMMM!!! KIMMY, YOU HAVE A CRUSH!!!! YOU LIKE MY BABY MUNCHKIN!!!"
Kim bluntly ignored his oldest brother's accusation. He followed Porchay through the garden until he saw him sitting comfortably on the grass. His guitar on his lap as he strums a very familiar tune.
Porchay is playing one of Kim's songs that he's been practicing. He locked himself inside his suite for weeks to focus on mastering the song. Why Don't You Stay, his favorite WIK song.
When he finished playing the song he heard someone clapping behind him, and when he turned around he saw Kim. Proudly looking at him as he claps his hands. "You did well, Chay."
"P'Kim! How did you..."
"Saw you walking towards the garden with your guitar so I followed you." Kim walked towards Chay, stood in front of Porchay for a second before sitting down beside the younger.
"This is embarrassing, P'Kim!"
"It's not."
"It is! The singer himself heard me play his own song."
"And I told you that you did well."
"I did not" Chay mumbled with a pout.
"You played well, Chay. It's not embarrassing but something you should be proud of."
Kim noticed that Chay's head was hanging low, he's looking at his own hands and there he noticed the multiple cuts on Porchay's fingers. "I practiced for a long time. I locked myself in my room for weeks, so that Porsche would not disturb me." He can clearly hear Porchay's voice, though he's whispering his words.
That's why I can't see you around every time I visit here. You locked yourself in your suite. Kim thought to himself while watching Porchay play with his bruised fingers.
"Are you going to play this somewhere?"
"No." Porchay shook his head. "I just really wanted to learn how to play this song with my guitar."
Kim, without noticing his movements, has already reached for Porchay's hand, running his fingers softly at every cut on Chay's fingers. "Is it your favorite song?" He asked where Porchay nodded.
"You sounded good while playing. I can hear you humming the lyrics too and you sound amazing." Porchay lifted his head and looked at Kim. The older one is smiling at him, warm and comforting. "Your efforts are surely not wasted, Porchay."
"I did well?"
Kim chuckled. Porchay looks like a kid fishing for compliments right now. His doe eyes, big and expressive looking straight through Kim's own dark orbs. "You did, Chay. Keep it up!" He complimented him once again, but this time Kim has his hand on Chay's loose curls and messily ruffles them. Damn, they feel so soft between his fingers.
And Porchay felt happy. He felt seen. He felt appreciated. His music inspiration, his idol, his... well... crush keeps on complimenting him. That felt surreal for him.
And suddenly Kim keeps coming over at the compound every day, looking for Porchay, and teaching him the chords of all his songs.
Kim attends all the family dinners and never misses a single one. He's always seated beside Porchay, and Tankhun always has his scrutinizing eyes towards them- Kim just roll his eyes at his oldest brother.
Kim and Porchay never miss a chance to text and call each other every chance they get. Video calls are done whenever Kim is out of the country.
They both grow closer and closer to each other. Spending time with music and playing their instruments. Kim sometimes helps Porchay with his projects, knowing the younger one studies music in uni.
They both grow inseparable, like twins attached to each other's hips. If there's Porchay, there should be Kim. They became a pair, partners, a team you can't separate.
And as time goes by, it's not just Tankhun who's watching the two's every move.
Porsche keeps an eye on Kim and Chay when they run to the garden to play their guitars.
Kinn asks the guards around the mansion if it's not only him who saw his brother smiling whenever he visits the house.
Even Vegas notices how his cousin isn't as grumpy as before.
Macau can even tease his cousin without fearing for his life. Well, except when he gets overly touchy with Porchay, which happened one time. One time he almost lost his right hand with how tight Kim was gripping on his wrist.
Pete, who has been quiet every dinner, is now gossiping with Arm and Pol with how the deadliest Theerapanyakul doesn't seem deadly anymore. Not with the way he talks, nor the way he moves.
And Tankhun... The proudest of them all for figuring out Kim's little crush on Porchay at the very start. The one who silently watches over the two. The one who teases Kim before he leaves the mansion. The one who annoyingly pushes Kim to make a move on Porchay.
When Kim finally accepted the fact that he just doesn't have a little crush on Porchay but he actually and already likes him, he decided to drive to the mansion and confess right away. He's not wasting any more time. He likes Porchay and he wants Porchay.
But until he reached the compound Porchay still hadn't replied to his messages, not even answering his calls.
"Arm. Do you know where Porchay is?"
"He's in his suite, Khun Kim."
"Is he okay? He's not answering my calls."
"Ah. I heard Khun Porchay has exams next week. He might be reviewing right now."
Kim nodded before dismissing the bodyguard. Porchay's suite is on the 7th floor of the compound, the same floor where his own suite is located.
He stood outside Porchay's room, the one adjacent to his own. He knocked once... twice... until he knocked on the door a bit hard and louder. When Porchay still hasn't answered, Kim tries his luck on turning the knob and it surprises him when the door opens. Why is Porchay not locking his room's door? No matter how many bodyguards they have, it's still not safe leaving his room unlocked.
Kim stepped inside while calling Chay's name, hoping to hear the younger's voice this time around, but no one answered.
He welcomed himself inside, his eyes checking each corner and seeing the full view of Porchay's room.
That's when he noticed one corner of Porchay's room full of his pictures. There were photos of him from different magazines. Some hang on a thin rope and others are even framed.
He was checking each and every picture when Porchay's surprised gasp got his attention.
"P'Kim! What are you doing here?"
"Bambi!"
Bambi... Kim started openly call Porchay that nickname after the first time he heard the younger one play the guitar at the garden.
"I was texting and calling you but you're not answering."
Porchay, who just came from the bathroom with his hair still damp, ran towards his WIK wall and pulled Kim away from the display.
"My phone is on silent, I was reviewing for the finals."
"Are you done reviewing now?"
Porchay shook his head as an answer; he pulled Kim towards the small couch in his little living room. On the coffee table are his books, notebooks, and his laptop.
"Bambi, about those--"
"P'Kim, no! It's embarrassing!"
"They're not. It's cute though."
"No, it's not." Porchay pulls Kim away from his WIK wall when the older keeps staring at it. "Stop looking at it. It's embarrassing, P'Kim."
Kim can hear the pout in Chay's sulking voice. He chuckled before giving Porchay's WIK walls a last glance. He sat beside Chay, poking the younger's pout while he continued chuckling. "I told you it's cute. It's creative!"
"Hush! P'Kim, I'll start reviewing again. Don't disturb me." Chay has his right pointy finger on Kim's lips, hushing him down while frowning. Kim can only nod at Chay.
Porchay then opened his laptop and started reviewing; fully ignoring Kim who was just inches away from him.
Kim sat there, politely following Chay's instruction on not disturbing him.
But it's been almost 2 hours and Porchay hasn't glance at Kim, not even once, since he started reading his books and cross checking information in his laptop.
And being Kim who just realized his feelings for Porchay, felt needy for his Bambi's attention. Kim moved closer, leaned his head on Chay's shoulder, and mumbled. "I like you, Bambi."
Porchay surely heard it, with Kim's head leaning on his shoulder, he surely heard it right and clear.
He halted whatever he's writing in his notebook, closed his laptop, and turned his body to face Kim.
"You what?"
Kim now leaning his forehead on Chay's shoulder once again confesses. "I like you."
"You're joking, P'Kim!" Porchay shook his head and playfully flicked on Kim's forehead. "Stop teasing me."
"I really like you, Chay. I came here to confess but you're ignoring me."
"I'm not ignoring you!" Porchay hysterically disagreed with what Kim said. "I was reviewing!"
"That's the same thing."
"P'Kim, you're the one making fun of me."
Kim lifted his head from Chay's shoulder, a frown visible on his face. "I'm not making fun of you, not even teasing you. I am confessing, Bambi!"
"How can you... Since when?"
"I just realize that it's not just a simple crush but I really do feel something romantically towards you before I get here." Kim explained, now facing Porchay, finally those eyes are on him again. "I drove here to confess. On second thought, I feel like I liked you from the very start. Ask Tankhun, he knows everything."
"From the very start, meaning?"
"From the fan sign event."
"Now you're really joking, Kim."
"Bambi, I am not joking!"
"How can you like me when we only talked for a few minutes?"
"Your eyes are pretty."
"Kim, be serious, please."
Kim stares in Chay's eyes, he's seeing how Porchay looked confused but there's a glint of happiness shining on his doe orbs.
"Your eyes are so pretty. I'm sure they're the reason why I like you now." Kim explained. "Wait. No, I might be in love with you Bambi."
"Oh shut up! You just said you like me moments ago, and now you're saying you're in love with me?"
"Bambi..." Kim sighed, he once again leaned his head on Chay's shoulder, his arms slowly snake around the younger's waist. "Please bear with me, Bambi. I have never confessed to anyone before. I haven't liked anyone before you. The feeling of liking someone and falling in love is very new to me. If I can't express myself and my words well, please, bear with me." Kim said sincerely. His voice is calm, but there's a tiny bit of nervousness evident in his voice that Porchay noticed. Kim's arms around his waist tightened after he said those words. Kim also nuzzles his head more between the crook of Chay's neck and shoulder.
"Do you really mean it?"
Kim didn't answer verbally but he nodded.
"You really like me?"
Another nod from Kim.
"You really think you're falling in love with me?"
And another nod.
Seconds later Kim can feel Chay's arms around his own waist. Chay hugging him back and Chay leaning his head on top of Kim's. "I like you, P'Kim." Porchay confesses. "I like you since you complimented me that one time you caught me playing your song in the garden."
Kim lifted his head from Chay's shoulder. "You like WIK." He looks into Chay's eyes but all he sees are adoration and sincerity. "What about Kim and Kimhan?"
Porchay chuckled at his question; Kim looks like a kid in front of him right now. "I like every part of you, P'Kim. I like every version of you."
• • • • • • • • • •
Since then their closeness grew tighter. They became more touchy towards each other. More clingy, and more... sweet.
"Porchay Kittisawat, tell me the truth, what's going on between you Kim?"
Porsche finally gets the chance to corner his brother.
He saw Kim and Chay turn from just being playful to intimate. How Kim always has his hand on Porchay's leg every family dinner. How Porchay leans close to Kim when he laughs. How Kim smiles at Chay full of adoration. How Porchay bats his lashes at Kim and how Kim gulp every time Chay does that to him.
Everyone in the family knows it's not just friendship or little crushes anymore. It's way more intimate, serious, and deep.
"Hia."
"Don't think of lying to me, Porchay. I have eyes! I can see you and Kim and everything you both do."
"P'Kim and I... Uhm... We're in love?"
"In love?"
"Yea, but we're not yet together"
"With all your disgusting display of affection, you both are still not together!?"
"P'Kim hasn't asked me to be his boyfriend yet."
"WHAT!?!?! KIMMY HASN'T ASKED YOU TO BE BOYFRIENDS YET????"
Tankhun's amplified scream fills the whole piano room where Porsche cornered Chay.
"P'Khun, I was waiting for him to ask me. But it's been months since we both confessed to each other."
"Goodness gracious! What kind of baby brother do I have!?"
Tankhun marches out of the piano room and asked Pol for his phone when he reached his suite.
He dialed his baby brother's phone and was surprised when Kim answered just after the 3rd ring.
"Khun..."
"Kimmy! You haven't asked Chaychay to be your boyfriend?"
"Not yet."
"But whyyy! What's taking you so long?"
"I was waiting for the right time, okay. Probably during the release of my next album."
"That's next week, Kim! Make sure that Chaychay is already your boyfriend by the next family dinner or else I will disown you!"
And he didn't wait for Kim to answer, Tankhun dropped the call and flop on his bed dramatically.
• • • • • • • • • •
On the day WIK's new album release, he has a very packed schedule. Interviews in the morning, the live press conference and the official release by the afternoon, and the first batch of video call fan sign event by the evening.
He didn't have a chance to check on his phone until he's back in his apartment 30 minutes past midnight.
The first message he checks were texts from Porchay.
Chay: Congratulations, P'Kim! The new album is so good, as expected from my favorite artist.
I heard you still have a few schedules left today. Please, don't forget to drink a lot of water, P'Kim. Eat! If not on time, then just eat whenever you can. Don't let this day pass without you having any proper meal, ok? I'm proud of you!
Message me when you reached home.
~~~
There's a wide smile on his face while reading Porchay's messages for him.
He quickly type on his phone to reply to his Bambi.
Kim: I just reached home, Bambi.
Chay: Video call, please
Kim wasted no time and immediately called Porchay.
But what surprises Kim was the moment Porchay answered the video call, he felt a sudden surge of déjà vu in his body.
Porchay is facing the camera, a black back drop behind him, and he's wearing the same exact clothes he wore on his first video call event with WIK.
"Hi! What's your name?"
Porchay cheerfully asked, he's holding a pen and a what looks like DIY album.
Kim quicky catches on with what Porchay is playing. He knows what his Bambi is doing; some fans did this to him earlier, a reverse fan sign where the fan pretends to be the artist. It's a trend, Kim guessed. But he smiled and chuckled at Porchay while the younger is looking at him and waiting for him to introduce himself.
"P'Chay, my name is Kim. I'm a big fan!" He matched the energy from Chay's, making his voice a bit thinner and high pitch.
"Hello, Kim! Is this your first time winning the fan sign?"
"Yes, P'Chay! I bought a lot of your albums. I spent my 3 months worth of allowance to join the raffle."
Porchay laughs at the way Kim is making his voice thinner and thinner everytime he speaks.
"Congratulations on winning then, Kim."
"Thank you P'Chayyy" Kim extending the letter Y on Chay's name like how some of his fans do with his name.
Porchay is scribbling on the DIY album, Kim can't see it clearly but it looks like Chay is really signing an album.
And then he thought... this is the right moment. This is the best time to ask the question he's been meaning to ask.
The perfect moment to officially be each other's boyfriend.
"P'Chay.. I have a question to ask."
Kim started, Porchay continuously scribble on his makeshift album but still nodded his head.
"Can you be my boyfriend, Bambi?" Kim's voice became serious and not the high pitched one anymore.
He's nervously waiting for Porchay's answer but the younger one was so focused on whatever he's scribbling on the album. "Yes, of course! I'll be your boyfri- WHAT!?" Porchay's eyes widen when he realized Kim's question. He lifted his head and looks straight to Kim who is grinning at him.
"P'Kim!!! I can't lose my character!" Chay whined.
"Hmm? Answer me first, Bambi." Kim teases him, Porchay is clearly sulking that Kim busted him out of his character but Kim can see him trying to stop himself from smiling. "Will you be my boyfriend, P'Chay?"
Porchay laughed at the way Kim once again did his high pitched voice on his last sentence. Chay then shows his diy album to the camera and shows Kim the big Yes written at the center of the album which he mindlessly wrote when Kim asked him the first time as he's fully immersed in his character.
"Really?" Kim excitedly asked.
Porchay nodded at Kim and winked before mouthing 'yes'
"I can't believe you really mess up my own video call fan sign event, which is exclusive for you!"
"Bambi, what's even in that album?"
"Come here if you want to find out" Porchay teases his now boyfriend while waving the album in his hand.
"Okay, I'll be there in 20!"
"Be careful, please drive safe!"
Porchay said before ending the call.
In less than 20 minutes he already heard knocks on his suite's door.
He walked over the door and unlocked it, finally facing his boyfriend. He launches himself to Kim and wrapping his arms around his boyfriend's neck.
"Hi, Bambi." Kim greeted him between chuckles. Kim has his arms tightly wrapped around Chay's waist to support his boyfriend's full weight on him.
"P'Kiiiim~"
"Hmm?"
Porchay pulled his boyfriend inside his room. Guided him towards his mini living room where he did his set up for his own video call event with Kim.
They both sat down before Porchay handed the DIY album to Kim.
Kim checks the album. He sees the big Yes at the center, Porchay's sign at the bottom left and a message beside it.
"Your boyfriend loves singing your songs." Kim reads what Porchay wrote. He looks at Porchay confusedly.
"That album has a CD inside, it's playable." Porchay explained. He shows Kim how to open his DIY album and shows his boyfriend the CD inside. "It's my covers of all your songs."
Kim's eyes widen in excitement, he pulled Porchay for a tight hug and nuzzles his face on Chay's loose curls. Kim loves Porchay's voice, he loves hearing the younger sing. But Porchay covering and singing his own songs makes him feel so happy. It makes him feel high, like he's enjoying a nice walk on the cloud and feeling the soft airy texture under his feet. "God, I love you so much Bambi." He mumbled.
Porchay's laughing, not expecting this kind of reaction for Kim. He loves it though. He love how Kim hugs him, how his boyfriend nuzzles on his hair, and how Kim tells him he loves him. "I love you, P'Kim. I love you so much."
"I'll play this every day, Bambi. I swear, I will!"
Porchay shyly snuggles closer to Kim's chest, hiding his already flushed red cheeks.
"I love you" Kim once again declared his love for Chay. "I love you so much."
"More than you love my eyes?"
"What? Bambi, your eyes are a part of you, of course I love you including specially your eyes."
"Hmm? But I remember P'Kinn said you refuse to meet me before."
"Don't listen to Kinn, he's lying."
"P'Kinn said he always invite you to family dinners to introduce his boyfriend's little brother to you but you always say no you keep saying you're busy".
"Kinn is a liar. Don't mind him." They both chuckled as how Kim keeps in dismissing the conversion and calling his brother a liar
Chay lifted his head from snuggling on Kim's chest, looks at him and asked "Why do you love calling me 'Bambi'? I remember you calling me Bambi twice when we first met in person, when P'Kinn and I waited for you. You whispered Bambi while looking at me, I thought it was just a random word but you said it again after P'Kinn left, then you started freely calling me that when he started getting closer."
"Hmm? Have you read the message I wrote on the album?"
"The album?"
"Yes, Bambi! The album you won for the fan sign."
"Oh my gosh, P'Kim! I totally forgot about those!"
"You what?" Kim laughed hard at Porchay. His boyfriend forgot the hundreds of albums he ordered.
"It slipped my mind. I didn't know if they arrived already or not."
"Bambi it's been more than 6 months, I'm sure those albums are already delivered. They might be in one of the storage rooms in the basement."
"P'Kim! Oh my God, my signed album!"
Kim gets his phone from his pocket, dialed Arm's number; hoping the bodyguard is still awake.
"Khun Kim?"
"Arm, I'm sorry for calling you this late but I need you to find the packages that was delivered here 6 months ago from my studio's address. Porchay ordered hundreds of albums and one of them is signed. I need that signed album here in Chay's suite."
"Copy, Khun Kim."
Kim ended the call and faces Chay once more. He pulled his boyfriend closer to his chest, wrapping his arms around Chay's waist again.
"I love you" he mumbled.
"That's the 4th time."
"And? I'll keep telling you how much I love you over and over again, until you get tired of it."
"As if I'll get tired of hearing it."
"Bambi!"
Kim cupped Chay's face with both of his hands, stares at those beautiful pair of eyes that he fell in love with the first time he saw them. Kim leans closer and closer until his lips hover on Chay's eyes.
Porchay closes his eyes, waiting for whatever Kim is planning to do. He felt Kim's soft lips on his eyelids. "I love you" and another peck on his nose "I love you, Bambi." and another on his right cheek "I love you, Chay." on his left cheek "I love you, P'Chay" they both chuckled at that.
Kim smiled at Chay, that smile he hasn't seen before. It's the kind of smile from Kim that is exclusive for him- for Porchay only. Fuck, it's making him fall in love more on his boyfriend. "I love you, Porchay." Kim said before leaning towards Chay's lips. Kim's lips brushing lightly on Chay's before he dived in. Kissing Porchay feels very electrifying. Kim can feel voltages of electricity running through his vein the moment their lips met. The kiss was slow. They were taking their time, feeling each other's soft lips, and tasting each other's sweet breath.
Porchay has his arms around Kim's neck, deepening their kiss, and pulling Kim closer to him. Kim responded with the same amount of urgency. His one hand cups on Chay's right cheek while the other is on Chay's nape; tangling his finger through those soft curls.
Before Kim lose control, Arm knocked on the door; making both of them let go of each other, both panting for air.
"Khun Kim, the signed album is here."
Kim gives a chaste peck on Chay's lips before he stood and get the album from Arm.
He handed it to his boyfriend and sat back beside Porchay. "I can't believe I forgot about this!"
"Read the message I wrote, Bambi."
"Your eyes are very pretty, Porchay. You're like a Bambi looking at me, your eyes shines, and I love how they shine for me. Can I call you that, Bambi? I hope to meet you soon. I will meet you soon, Porchay." Porchay read what Kim wrote, word by word.
"Wait, you mean Bambi like the cartoon deer Bambi?"
Kim nodded at him. "You're like that Bambi. Your eyes are intense brown, big, and they sparkle."
"You're really obsessed with my eyes, P'Kim."
"That I will not deny, Bambi."
"Should I thank my eyes then? For enchanting the one and only WIK?"
"You should! I love looking at your eyes, Bambi. They're very pretty. They're expressive. Very alluring too."
"Obsessed!!!" Porchay teased him.
"I am indeed obsessed with your eyes, Bambi. Damn, those eyes!"