Now my anxiety is triggered because your anxiety is triggered and we’re both stressed and that’s just not OK. I mean I’m glad you’re able to channel it in a healthy way and like make it part of your creative process! That is awesome and makes feel a little less awkward! No but really - it’s cool. And omg please move on! I’m still unpacking and I can’t tell you if we’re on the same page because I’m no longer sure what page I’M on anymore since I’m one of those people that is so painfully susceptible to influence that I can never truly know my own mind. BUT ITS FINE. I am an over thinker and that is perfectly OK!
OMG, I read this and laughed out loud in the middle of it because your anxiety is so adorable. I'm sorry! I HAVE moved on!! HIGH FIVE! I think this is awesome. IRL, part the work I do is with communities of color and it involves difficult conversations constantly. The other week, one of my awesome colleagues said something that made me spontaneously start crying at work because I was mad (THAT BITCH) because she was saying I was problematic and wasn't doing enough about it. I wanted to be like, HEY, I WRITE GAME OF THRONES FANFIC ABOUT PEOPLE OF COLOR, OKAY? (No, jk, I would die!!!) But really, the point in sharing that is that difficult conversations and checking each other is totally a huge part of my life and beyond being NBD, it's also like, SO IMPORTANT to be brave enough to do with others. So I really appreciate you for this. THANK YOU! Also, I think anxiety often serves us, and it has made you very thoughtful, intelligent, and empathetic. So that's why I think this little flare-up is adorable. KEEP IT UP!!!!
Girl, I don't want to be a major creeper, but I think about you sometimes! There's absolutely no pressure to respond to me, but I remember that this is our last convo together (a slight disagreement about anxiety), after having a lot of great convos together. I hope everything is going well for you! And I hope that I didn't say anything to offend. (That's what I wonder sometimes!) Hope you are great!
I have typed up so many replies to this, so many times over the years, every one of them has felt more inadequate and awkward with the passage of time. I’m really sorry. For everything. Believe it or not, I’ve been lurking on and off like the creeper that I am for years, re-reading your old fics for comfort and delighting in updates to your newer work. The Mother has been a revelation. Just beautiful. I hope you are happy and doing well.
Oh wow! I'm so glad and happy to hear from you and I'm glad you're okay! And I'm very touched that you are still reading my stories. No apologies necessary at all. Thank you so much for reaching out and saying hello. It made my freaking day! ❤️❤️❤️❤️ Happy holidays!
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