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"You know you look scared shitless. Right?"

Jungkook smiled as he bit his lip, trying to relax as he picks up his ID from the Nurses desk, sweating under his shirt, trying to pin his ID on with a shaky hand and introduce himself as a competent adult, failing fast.

"That obvious? sorry, first day nerves, I’ll be good" He says as he feels his throat go dry and a nervous cough makes it worse.
"Ok. calm, please? If they sense you are a soft target some of these people will eat you alive for the fun of it. Follow me, let's get you changed"
Jungkook follows the Nurse to the locker room, another person is getting changed in there and as she walks in he seems to deliberately leave his tunic off. 
When he does put his shirt on he looks like he's trying to compete in the TikTok Olympics, sliding fingers down his own small but there abs.
The nurse looks puzzled and cringes as she turns to Jungkook 
"This is Li Jae, he works on section1... For now. Please don't learn from Jae"
He pulls a pretend hurt face 
"I show you what you could have had and you treat me like that?" Jae says, winking at Jungkook, who can’t help but pull a disgusted face for a second.
The nurse huffs and rolls her eyes
"Pathetic, I'll report you for sexual misconduct. don't make me file it again this year" 
she addresses Jae sternly then smiles gently at Jungkook
"Please leave any personal items in your locker and get changed and meet me back at the nurses station, ok? Nothing in your pockets that can be utilised by a client" 
She leaves Jungkook to get changed into his light pink tunic
"you'll get used to the colours. Different roles. Different coloured tunics and you are light pink so you are a trainee nurse?"
Jungkook nods "mnm, I was placed here by uni, 2 years placement here then graduate.hopefully, You?"
Jae bends down and tucks his phone in his sock "I've been here 5 years. Started as a trainee but had to leave uni and they kept me on here as an orderly, a favour to my family more than anything, but they still use me for nurses duties, I don't mind. Moneys ok"

He says all this as he tucks and hides various items in his clothing. Smokes in the waistband. Lighter in his other sock. Small snacks in pockets. Lots of sweet snacks.
Jungkook smiles politely as he puts all his stuff in his locker,  Keeping one item on him, the necklace his father gave him that he never takes off, tucking it safely under his tunic. The Silver link chain is barely visible.
He takes a drink of water and has one last mental talk to himself in his head to prepare, But his nerves are all over his face, his hairline wet with sweat.
"I'll come by and see you later. you'll be on section 2 for the first two weeks to follow the more experienced team, proper wacko’s on that floor though some pretty ones. I like to visit, You know, I doubt they keep you on 2. They like to have more experienced people working with them"

Jae winks again at Jungkook and right then Jungkook decides he is not someone he wants near him. 
Something felt off.  Some bratty ego issue.

Jungkook heads back to the nurses station at the front of the building. 

He stands and looks at the control centre for all floors. CCTV in every room, down every corridor. Screens stay static for 2 minutes then change, Some use motion detectors.
Feeling slightly overwhelmed as he takes in the many new faces and the size of the facility 
The building they are in is a massive sprawling mansion with roof turrets and balconies. Garden grounds that go on forever.
The place looks like someone had been asked to create a movie version of an asylum, gothic and foreboding, Long dark corridors with endless dorms and private rooms.
The ground floor was given over to therapy rooms, offices and recreation rooms.
The noises coming from the rooms range from laughs to shouts to angry rants as people try to be heard or understood or left alone.
Jungkook given a quick tour before he is asked to report to section 2
Shown the elevator that looks old and creaky but the building has 2 sets of stairs. 
One main set and the old service stairs, Only staff are allowed to use the service stairs. Clients (or patients) Arent allowed in the areas without CCTV coverage. And that meant the staff facilities and service stairs at the far end of the building.
Jungkook would be required to stay over when on a three day rota. He would work straight through on call even when asleep.

After waiting around for someone to tell him what next the friendly nurse from earlier finally shows up
"Ah sorry, we had an emergency. Always something to mess up plans here, I'm going on my lunch 3 hours late but if you could take the service stairs and head up to the second floor please? Meet YeonNim and shadow her"
She nods over towards the door with the stairs and Jungkook nods 
"Thank you, I'll do my best and learn well"  He bows as he leaves and opens the door leading to the stairs. 
Like he has stepped into a different world. The untouched, less clinical area showed this used to be an old family home maybe, Wooden stairs and dank looking yellow wallpaper with pink flowers covered the walls everywhere.
Badly lit and dramatically opposite to the other side of the door. All bright strip lighting and tiled floors.
Jungkook blew out air as he looked around a little. Hearing creaks of floorboards like the place was haunted. 
He stands there for a minute to get his bearings and puts his chin length hair up in a loose bun. Out of his eyes.
Feeling calmer he starts to walk the flights of stairs up to the second floor. 
Carpets on the stairs feeling nice under his feet. Feels less medical and scary.
He hears an angry voice above him, One man telling whoever to fuck off away from him and then a door closing.
Jungkook on the second floor, standing for a minute to catch his breath, sees doors on either side of a small hallway. Storage boxes in the opposite corner on the left with the staff room facilities door next to them and the other side the door for section2.
As he starts to open the door to the clients side he feels a strange sensation on his neck that he doesn’t register as pain at first but then a fast burning feeling mixed with being jerked backwards hard. Slamming the door back shut as his legs get lifted from under him.
Not able to right himself he fell back into whatever it was that pulled him and then he felt the arm come across his chest and around his neck and the air was trapped in him.  It felt like a giant had him in a painful bear hug.
Unable to breathe in or out. Just panicking and he knows he should be fighting back but for some reason, his brain uses his energy to try and see what it is that's hurting him as his hands try to pry open the hold around him he strains to look around.
Then he hears a loud alarm sound. A massive noise that makes him jump but the person that's got him in a death grip keeps on holding him and swings him from side to side like a ragdoll.

He feels another set of hands on him. Trying to pull him away 

"Let him down, please listen to me. I need you to put him down for me? Put him fucking down." The voice firm but trying to stay friendly.
Jungkook's vision was going red as he heard the voice angrily demanding again and the last thing he saw before he passed out was a beautiful Angel standing over him as they managed to push the attacker away and kicking out to keep him away.

An Angel making Jungkook’s last thoughts be this is how I die?

After a few seconds, Jungkook’s oxygen was normal and he came around to see the Beautiful Angel being manhandled and thrown against the wall in between the doors, placed in an arm lock and dragged out through the client doors under protests and shouts and more kicking.
Being walked along with his arms held behind him and lifted up to control him with his feet now off the floor.
Jungkook glimpses him being taken into the first room on the left as the door closes.
His homemade angel wings on the floor by Jungkook's head. The other person that had grabbed Jungkook by his necklace was nowhere to be seen.

Senior Nurse Yeon was helping Jungkook to his feet. 
"So.. you're the newbie? I prefer my trainees to last longer than 38 minutes usually but that's what you get when you meet Park Jimin"
"Park Jimin? he's the maniac that strangled me?" 
"First lesson, When a client has mental health issues we refrain from such derogatory terminology like maniac, but yes Park Jimin is indeed … unique"
"And the man with the angel wings that helped me? Can I thank him?"
"What? No, you mean? Ohh …. Flip"  the nurse looks peeved as she passes Jungkook a bottle of water as she holds the door open for them to go onto the section.

As Jungkook passes Park Jimin's room he holds his hand up and Jimin holds his middle finger up and scrunches his face at him.
"Come with me, show me which one it was that grabbed you" the nurse points through other room windows as everyones now been placed on lockdown and Jungkook eventually sees the man that attacked him
"Definitely him. His arms even have bruises from where we tried to pull him away." Nurse Yeon opens his door and two orderlies enter with her.
"Jeon, you can head to the desk, please. We’ll be there once we talk to Ben"

Jungkook still has Park Jimin's wings in his hands and wants to give them back. He walks the opposite way to the desk and stands in front of Jimin's door. 
The wings he holds are made of patterned net, cute looking. Bits of fluffy ribbons have been glued around the edges and some sequins glued on them in heart shapes. The hook over the arms with strings glued on.
All in all they look insane to Jungkook, but kind of cute.
An oblong window built into the door allows you to see the entire room and Jungkook stands looking through it silently for a moment. The man is laying on top of his bed. Legs crossed and foot tapping angrily, arms up over his face.
Jungkook looks around his private room, a window with wire on the outside to keep people from throwing stuff. Simple items all around. A few pictures on one wall. Romantic looking hand drawn art, he sees a desk with all the craft items he would need for the angel wings on them,  the only messy part of the whole room.
He knocks the door and watches as Jimin slowly moves his arms, Looks over to the door, curls his lip slightly and puts his arms back over his face
"Little asshole" Jungkook mumbles and knocks again firmer.
Jimin lifts his head and widens his eyes to say "WHAT" with silence and Jungkook slams his wings on the window and points at them. Lips pursed. Head sideways and getting angry.
All he wants to do is say thank you and give the damn wings back why is this kid making it hard.
Jimin looks confused "you've got the fucking keys, asshole, you want me to magic the door open?"
Jungkook finally gets it. Forcing his stance to become apologetic instantly 
"Sorry, sorry, I didn't think. I just started. I have no keys to open it" Jungkook pats his pockets to emphasise this and Jimin smiles at how dumb they are both being
"Yeah ok I get it, stop feeling yourself up" Jimin slides off his bed, tripping slightly on his slippers as he makes his way to the door.
"They locked us in. I'll be here all night now because of you" Jimin points to the floor "Push my wings through"
He kneels down and waits for Jungkook who keeps standing so he can see Jimin through the glass.
"I'll explain to Nurse Yeon, Thank you for helping me, Not sure what happened, Who is he?"
"I didn't do it to help you, Idiot. Pass me my wings"
"Woahh, the fuck is that attitude for? I'm saying thank you and sorry here. I'll sort it and they'll unlock your door, right?"
"you've worked here for an hour and you already know everything? Amazing. I didn't help you, I needed him to stop because it's waffles and ice cream for pudding tonight as our treat for the day and now I don't get it and that pisses me off. I helped Ben because he can't help being a fucking idiot but you should be able to help it because you are a nurse. So push my wings under the door and then fuck off, ok? Pudding fucker"

Jungkook smiles "Pudding fucker?" He sighs and bends down to push the wings under the door gap, smiling a little at the name.
Jungkook slips his fingers under the door to see if it will fit and as the first angel wing starts to slip under Jungkook sees Jimin's little fingers under the door frame and it makes him smile again "Pudding fucker" shaking his head gently as Jimin pulls all the wings through.

"Jimin thanks you, he said Goodbye, pudding fucker?" 
Jimin's voice is slightly higher, taking Jungkook by surprise 

"Jungkook? The desk is this way" Nurse Yeon calls down to him as the orderlies appear to be taking Ben away. He seems a lot calmer and smiles nicely at Jungkook as he looks behind him and walks to the elevator.

Jungkook walks forwards trying to explain "Can Park Jimin come out? He helped me, he didn't attack me. It was the other one… other person, Ben?"
"Yeah Ben explained, He thought you were sent to kill him by his father, he's going to spend some time on the assessment section, Park Jimin can't come out though until they all calm down. tomorrow"
"So… He.. he doesn't get pudding? I know it sounds dumb but he's really bothered about it" Jungkook says feeling sheepish
"it's not dumb, it's good information to have. Lets go to the desk, ok? I wanna show you some folders on our clients and patients "

Nurse Yeon grabs a handful of folders from a tall filing cabinet and points to a quiet area
"Sit? I'll speak to you informally?" 
Jungkook nods and sits but he's being distracted by Clients talking and shouting to each other from their locked rooms. 

"Right, this is Ben’s information. What we treat him for, He has several diagnoses including paranoia, which is what you met earlier. He fixates on certain issues and his most common trigger is strangers, which was our fault letting you come here alone. He isn't usually dangerous at all but when he's triggered he believes his own father is sending assassins, Ninja’s usually, to kill him. His father owns a fishing boat and treats his son beautifully. Always standing by him. He is counted as a patient in private as the state pays for his treatments here. Other people are clients that seek out the help themselves and of course we have some with benefactors that take care of them from a distance, that includes Park Jimin he is a client although he is being kept indefinitely for now"

She hands Jungkook Jimin's folder, thicker than some and he flicks through it without really taking notice.
She continues
"Jimin has been treated for some time now quite successfully for dissociative disorders but his other disorders are what keep him here. He handles the dissociative disorder well and it seems, some of his alters are happy to settle into their own world and leave Jimin to drive. He's a good case study I think? Consider it anyway. He isn't violent to others usually and likes to keep his distance emotionally, although people have asked to study him and he has refused, he isn’t easy but we think it would help both of you"
Jungkook looks a little shell shocked, a lot of information to take in already and this is only 2 people down 

"Am I allowed to take his folder home to study?" he asks, his eyes getting wider at the idea of trying to understand all this information as he once again flicks through the endless pages.
"If he agrees, better to ask him to gain trust. Then yes you can have access to all you need on digital files but all clients notes are available if you deal with them."
Jungkook stutters "o..ok… ok" still unsure of everything.

"Hey, Puddin’ fucker? You there?Did you tell Mother?"  

Jungkook hears Jimin call him and he looks at Nurse Yeon a little embarrassed but he smiles
"Already got a cute pet name for me, so proud day for us all"  Jungkook smiles a little. Still embarrassed and continues   "He means that it wasn’t his fault, he helped me not attacked me."
"Yeah we're aware but they will be punished for any misconduct on my station. They know this. They were well aware Ben was off the section and walking around on the service stairs. that's how he knew to help you there so they need to learn"
"He seems very pissed off about his pudding?"
"Ah, yeah. good lesson for you about Jimin" she opens his folder and points to his history. Paper looks old and well thumbed through

"He was severely neglected and abused as a child. Deliberately Malnourished with visible signs that seem to have been ignored by all adults around him. He was basically tortured with food as well as everything else, This makes him a little obsessed with food. A little selfish and basically one of the only things I have ever seen him angry at others about. He can't help it. But he will calm down from this tantrum soon enough. Sometimes lets his Dysregulation out of hand, though we work on it,"
“Dysregulation? Ahh errr… emotional regulation disorder? Yes? Sorry I try to recall everything but .. brain” Jungook taps his forehead as he explains trying to take all the information isn't always easy for him.
Jungkook looks back at Jimin's room, seeing his fingers under the door frame. Like he's playing and clawing it gently. Fingers tapping and moving fast.
"There’s up to 9 clients in this section. despite who we suggest you concentrate your learning on you must help all that need your care. Lets get your keys sorted? I'm going home soon but you have another 3 hours today? Till 7 pm?"

Jungkook nods and they pick up the files and walk back to the desk, given his keys and needed codes.

"they will be quiet unless they want to test you a little. they are a good bunch. very misunderstood." Yeon says as she prepares to leave.
He grabs Jimin's file to read more as he finally waves goodbye to Nurse Yeon and he goes to sit on the floor next to Jimin's door as he watches her leave and the section is quiet.
Back against the wall and legs outstretched in front of him. Closed folder on his lap

"Park Jimin?" He taps the door gently and hears a giggle inside the room and Jimin’s fingers appear at the bottom of the door again, like they play a game of hide and seek and he giggles more.
"Jimin? Can I read your case file? Is that ok?"
Silence for a moment but the fingers under the door frame all disappear. 
Quiet and Jungkook doesn't want to push it 
"Jimin said yes, for a price maybe?" Jungkook sighs. The fact is he can just take the folder and read it all right now but he senses that won't work well with Jimin.
"What price?" 
"Firstly, He wants you to play with me" Jimin's fingers appear under the door again and flick in and out of view.

Jungkook confused "Play how? I can't open the door"
"You are who? Why won't you play with me?" the voice asks so sweetly.
Something clicking in Jungkook's mind he says gently  "ahh"  this is one of the alters maybe? 
"Is it rude if I call you an alter? Are you one of Jimin's alters?" 
Again silence from the other side of the door
Fingers appear again whipping around fast and Jungkook starts to tap them as they appear, Hoping this is the game. Finger door whack-a-mole.
Moving to sit in front of the door with his knees crossed so he can see Jimin’s fingers.
More giggling from the other side of the door and more fingers, Jungkook snatching at them and tapping and even giggling himself as he hears the laughing from the other side of the door when Jungkook misses or the squeals when Jungkook taps his finger.

and then he gets one and keeps hold of it, all the fingers freeze and then all pull away.
"I played, can I read the file now?"
"What’s your name? Pudding fucker?"

"Jungkook is my name. Not Puddin’ fucker. Only Jimin should call me that I think. Ok?  Is Jimin there? Can I talk to him please?"

"You haven't asked my name, Do you not care for me? You played but do not care for me? I am not an alternative. I am me."

Jungkook felt bad. Knowing this was a learning curve. Never having met anybody with DIDS before but really hoping he doesn't just become hated by them all for rudeness.
"Sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings,  may I know your name please? Who am I talking to?"
"All the fuss over a name, My name. Who I am. Me?  but I am Kitten,  Not very original, I know. Will you laugh at me? I am Kitten and that's that. Am I cute? They pet me so I am cute? Yes? Jimin will be here in a while. You played with my paws, I made you happy? I think I did, gentle paws. Meoww" 
Kitten gives a tiny mew at the end of his words. So many questions on meeting this new person but Jungkook isn’t sure which are rhetorical or which he should answer. Panicking a little. So badly hoping he doesn’t fuck this up.
It goes quiet again and Jungkook considers going against staff advicand opening Jimin's door to see if Kitten is ok, but he sits and waits. 
He sees a finger poke under the door again and it has ’bye’ written on the fingertip. Jungkook taps it gently.

"Jungkook's a nice name. Rolls off my tongue" Jungkook hears a lower voice. Slightly husky. Slight Busan accent.
Jungkook asks "Jimin?" 
"Yeah.. Thank you.. For playing with Kitten, I guess you're trained to put up with all sorts of us"
"No… you're my first… I mean first person … alters … sorry. Making a bad deal of this. I've been taught this a little in uni but this is my first time seeing it. Talking to you, may I read your case file now?"

"Do you have to? Once you read it you'll be just like every other person in here that treats me like all the others"
"Treat you how?"
"Like I am unclean, My mind is unclean and broken. And my body is unclean and my skin is unclean" Jimin says, a touch of defeat in his voice like he has been here a million times and knows the routine as dehumanising.
"You know I don't need permission, Right?" Jungkook says, despite everything he can’t help but say it.
"I do know that, But… Jungkook, you don't seem like the others? I think anyway, So I ask, can you not read the files? At least not yet?”
 Jimin's voice is so calming and gentle. Not pleading but asking so earnestly. Jungkook agrees like he is under a spell.
"Ok, for now. I Promise you." Jungkook says
And he sees the tip of Jimin's pinky poke out under the door
"Swear" 
Jungkook sees this little finger poke out and smiles, rolling his eyes a little “being adorable is it, Park Jimin?” noting this like its a win. Learning how to understand Jimin’s needs and how he needs things to flow to feel comfortable.
Jungkook pinky swears as much as he can under a door frame.
"Jungkook? Can you come help with the food cart please?" an orderly shouts out and Jungkook stands up
"See you later, Jiminssi, thank you for saving me earlier. Even if it was for food"
As they both stand up Jungkook turns to see Jimin stand in front of him on the other side of the locked door

His eyes are bright and have a glint in them that Jungkook didn't notice earlier. The eye smile he gives forces Jungkook to take notice.
The red and black thin striped t-shirt looks tiny but fits him so well and his black hoodie that zips at the front is undone and hanging off one shoulder, his black jeans with holes in the thigh and knee hang loosely around his hips but again, fit him so well. His angelic blonde hair with small waves top his look and framed his sweet, slightly fuller cheeks face perfectly.

Jungkook lifts his hand to say bye and Jimin does the same, all the time holding something in his fist tightly, opening it when he sees Jungkook has walked off and Jimin tenderly fingers Jungkook's silver necklace in his palm that Ben ripped from him earlier.

Smiling to himself as he clasps it tightly again and holds it to his heart as he spins around and falls on his bed.

"Jungkook, it'll do you no good to sit and give all your attention to one client. Rumours start that way of favouritism and although you will get favourites it's best not make it obvious, it makes it harder for them. Help me pass through their food trays please?"
Jungkook looks at the orderly he helps. Older gentleman. Seems friendly enough and he is right what he says, Jungkook takes it under consideration.
He looks on the food trays, rice and kimchi stew, no pudding on these ones but the trays underneath have some on.
"Who’s are those trays? With the waffles?"
"Ours" the orderly says "We sit at the rec tables  over there and eat instead of going all the way downstairs of an evening, you've got one too" 
"Ah, thank you" Jungkook says and as the orderly moves to the door behind him Jungkook quickly swaps his food tray with one he holds for Jimin and walks to Jimin's door
By the bottom of the door frame there’s a hinged flap that can be opened it creates a space of about 4 inches

Jungkook knocks first before he opens the flap
"Jimin? Puddin’ fucker brings you a gift to say thanks" He slides the tray into Jimins room and feels Jimin pull it from the other side
"For free? Junggukkah? You just give this to me? it's mine?" Jimin says in a thoughtful voice.
Jungkook was confused by his reaction "Ye, free. dinners are included, right? The pudding is yours from me"
Still confused he straightens up to move to the next door and glimpses Jimin still sitting on his floor staring at the tray.
Jungkook moving backwards and forwards to give the dinner trays to all clients, taking Jimin's folder and reluctantly placing it back in the filing cabinet.
First day over with. 

7 pm and most clients settle into boredom after being locked in. a few come to their windows to see who Jungkook is as he walks past them.
Not staying here this week he heads for the service stairs and passes Jimin's room. Jimin sits at his desk writing, oblivious to Jungkook watching him for a few minutes as he writes in his handover diary.

Jungkook stared a little to long, a million thoughts running through his mind and every single one of them was about Park Jimin.
Snapping out of it with a head shake he finally leaves the section.

As he makes his way to the borrowed car he uses, Jae stands at the bottom of the large steps that lead up to the clinic and shouts over to Jungkook
"Can I get a lift into town?" 
Jungkook unlocks his car door and nods "ye" as he gets in. Jae runs over and a weird smell enters the car with him
"The fuck is that smell?" 
"Ah, I paid a visit to a friend before we came out. She has OCD and rubs lotion on herself constantly. it's her lavender cream, you'll get used to all this...newness".
Jungkook not quite understanding what Jae was admitting, having never crossed his mind that it happens as he answers 
"Ye. might take a while. Section 2 is… intense " Jungkook says as he recalls his terrible first day, being attacked and looking like an idiot for everyone to laugh at behind his back. Brilliant.
"Haa , yeah I heard about your problem, you know if you wanna, you can make life hard for Ben? Make him understand you aren’t a pushover. He needs special treatment, withhold food and free time. Stop his father visting"

Jungkook gets what he means and asks "you do that? To the clients?"
Jae answers hurriedly "no, noo, man. no , am just saying if YOU wanted to you could"
Jungkook ignores him. He sees now why he gets a terrible vibe from Jae. because he is an asshole. Plain and simple.
"I'll drop you here.I go this other way now" Jungkook says stopping just at the edge of town, Just wanting this asshole to move away from him.

Driving on he puts his music on loud and just thinks how he can work with Jimin. How will he say yes to being his subject if he won’t even let him read his file?
Entering his tiny home on his landlady's roof he needs to contact his professor and ask If he can get Jimin to say yes, how best to deal with him? More context on his disorders. Wishing he had read his file. But messaging his professor and asking him to cite papers and books for him to read up on child neglect plus abuse effects in adults.
Tired and needing a shower he ignores everything and falls flat on his beanbag.
Where he falls asleep instantly.

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Jimin woke up to the usual sound of his room neighbour masturbating hard. Every morning he has to listen to this bullshit. Claiming it's part of his illness but surely he can do it quietly like everybody else?

Jimin bangs on the wall 

"Asshole. Shut the fuck up, your hand ain't that good"

He gets silence back finally and looks at his phone, 5.13 am. why the fuck is he starting so early.

Jimin tries to go back to sleep but then he hears voices. Hushed whispers next door and it all becomes clear.

Sometimes… sometimes the people that are meant to be the caregivers, The people that are meant to give a fuck and protect, are the ones treating people like their own personal toys, and this place was no different.

Jimin knows Jae's hushed voice anywhere. Making him shudder. Remembering Jae’s power games with him. Hating himself a little more, if that was possible.

But Jimin's neighbour does this out of some misguided idea of love, Of adulation. He believes the bullshit Jae says to him to keep him pliable, not listening when everyone told him Jae does this very day with many.

Jimin felt sorry for him, trying to speak to him before without letting him know the facts he couldn’t give. 

Leave him to it. Hard lesson to learn but he will.

So instead of sleeping, Jimin rings his bell to be let out to wash up, maybe go the gym room for an hour. 

A man’s voice asks over the room intercom “whats up?”

“I want out, I want to pee and go the gym before it fills up.” Jimin says as he looks to the cam by the door

“It’s too early, Park” the orderly answers.

“Not for everyone, I assume you have cameras switched on there. Huh?” 

He stares up at the camera in the corner and points at his neighbour's room

He hears the click of his door being unlocked remotely and flips his middle finger at the camera in the corner.

Jimin sees Ben’s door open, hoping he has been removed for assessment. He was the most trigger-violent client. He's probably been moved to a silent room for contemplation and medicine review.

 He often felt scared of him but refuses to show it. Sometimes when he felt immense danger an alter would front, Keep Jimin safe.

The orderly comes out from the desk as Jimin comes out of the section's overly bright and cheerful washrooms. The idea is if it looks like a fairy tale they would be less likely to harm themselves in there when alone.

"Jae was meant to help me tray up the food before his shift," she says hopping from one foot to the next like she is worried as she knows he takes too long.

 Jimin nods down to his neighbour's room and the second orderly just freezes, unsure if Jimin knows what's happening she just looks dumb.

"You not going to get him? didn't think so" Jimin walks off. Pissed off at yet another day on this section of shit.

"I'm going to the gym if you care. Wanna mark that off in the book? Visit from Jae at 5am and Jimin went to the gym. Want me to write it for you?"

She looks angrier now and Jimin gets why Jae gets away with his shit. These assholes would rather see him as crazy, but the man that uses mental health as his sexual tool, that's acceptable, amazing.

Fuck her.

Always on their own side.

Jimin uses the client stairs and heads to the gym on the ground floor, he likes to get there early before it fills up with gossips and hook ups.

Despite the smell of sweat in there it was sometimes the only way some sections were able to meet up with the opposite sex, so little romances happening on the treadmill were cute to watch.

Jimin never had that issue. No one here excited him. He wasn’t touch phobic but would often rather chop his own hands off than have anybody in his space.

Made him itchy to have people near. Kitten sometimes wanted to be petted but Jimin would often bargain with him to stay back and go play with the others back there instead.

They call it not emotionally available and physically he would have to explain certain aspects of his body and he really couldn’t be bothered with it.

He wore his usual red and black striped t-shirt with his black jeans and a hoodie. No matter how hot he got he always wore this. His entire wardrobe was just this. 

4 t-shirts the same, 3 pairs of black jeans, 3 hoodies. All identical to each other. 

No need to be frivolous with clothing. 

By 6 am Jimin was sitting at the Gym doors waiting for the Nurse to open them for him as requested. As she hunted for where her keys were, he put his headphones in. 

closes his eyes and drifts off slightly leaning his back against the doors.

As he relaxed into the tunes he felt a gentle tap on his shoulder that makes him jump ten foot in the air

"Fuckkkkk"  Jimin grabs his chest as he looks up, seeing Jungkook's face looking worried, holding his hands up defensively repeating 

"sorry… sorry"

Jimin takes his headphones out, smiling 

"You can't to that here, you moron"

"Yeah ok. I get it, sorry. I wanted to check if you was ok? Why are you asleep here?" 

Jungkook says with an innocent looking wide eyed face

Jimin starts to stand up and holds one finger at the notice above the door "GYM"

"But the nurse takes her time with the key, do you have your keys? You might have it there. Can I check?"

Jungkook takes his keys off his belt loop and hands them to Jimin not even thinking

"Ok rule one, newboy, don't hand your keys to the crazies. Except me, ok?"

Jungkook looks a little worried 

"Ah fuck, yeah. Yeah. you're right. Gimme them, also stop using derogatory terms"

"No and No" is all Jimin says and he starts to look for the gym key. Ignoring everything Jungkook said.

"Got it, thank you" Jimin finally hands the keys back and enters. Shutting the door behind him without giving Jungkook a chance to follow.

He knows Jungkook just wants to get close to study him. Use him, He’s seen this shit before even if he is cute his charms won't work here.

He's not an exceptional case but Dissociative disorders are usually female patients, Jungkook still has no idea of anything else in his file.

Jimin knows his study would help Jungkook pass kind of easy. It would receive a lot of kudos for getting Jimin to talk. Maybe He can use it as a bargaining tool. For food? Make sure he never runs out? 

FUCK no. not that. Don’t do that. Unlearning how to use people in a stable environment was not an easy lesson but Jimin was trying. It’s the only way he can escape the assholes here that really want to use and abuse him.

But the idea of actually helping Jeon Jungkook makes him feel a kind of way, like it would be nice to take care of someone else for once.  

Maybe.

Jimin goes to the treadmill, putting it on a low setting. Gentle stroll for a minute as he sorts his music out. 

Headphones back in and he brings the speed up. Jogging gently.

Jungkook walks in and sees the headphones. So doesn't approach yet. He just sits on the adjustable bench behind Jimin. Watching him move.

Still 30 minutes till his own shift starts but he does want to speak to Jimin about his decision.

Watching him run, He must be so hot in the jeans and hoodie, visible sweat patches already appearing on his back and in his hair. Drips hanging off the end of his bleached hair hitting his shoulders and back.

Jungkook calls his name to test. Still no response. 

Another Staff member comes in and starts to use the rowing machine in between eating and on his phone.

Jimin's head turns slightly. He seems distracted, he looks straight ahead again and still doesn't hear Jungkook call as he's so distracted.

He thinks he is imagining it. What the fuck is that smell? He knows it. He knows it too well, but here it mixes with the lingering sweat and equipment oil smell and a new sweeter scent of peonies and it's hard to pin down.

He looks to his side to see who has come in and sees the staff member he doesn't know laughing on his phone.

Why does he smell so wrong? what the fuck is it?

His run picks up speed without him realising it. His mind so clouded it only felt the tension building in his body.

He looks over again as the man takes a bite of his food and Jimin feels the power of it hit him all at once. All too sudden.

The smell was warm Bungeoppang, the little carp treats, in the man’s hand and as Jimin's brain finally understood exactly what it was.

sending him automatically into battle stations.

The food his parents had teased him with most as a child. That caused him so much anguish, not usually a threat here as he knows where all the stalls are and how he might come into contact with the trigger but fuck.. Right here? Right here in this shithole place? No stall around for miles.

His brain filled with every chemical it could to help Jimin, forcing him to overload and crumple. 

Brain so helpful. Fuck you, brain.

Jimin hit the front of the treadmill first with his chest making a loud thud sound that made the staff member on the phone jump but still not move.

Jungkook however was already running to catch Jimin.

 Jimin’s head hit the front bar next for a second as he was caught by Jungkook who scooped him up so his entire body and swept it aside to clear the treadmill.

Holding him in his arms as Jimin looked dazed "Jungkookah? The fish?"

Jungkook looked puzzled, thinking Jimin had some kind of heat stroke and was talking nonsense.

He looked at his face, pale and sweating hard and a bump appeared above his eye.

"I'm going to take your hoodie off, Jimin, you're too hot"

"No. don't. Just let me down, please? Let me sit down?"

Jungkook looked around. What fish? Ahhh, the food? Shit. it finally hit him, this food must be a trigger somehow.

Noting it all down mentally so at some point he can write about it privately tonight.

He puts Jimin down on the bench where he was sitting and Jimin holds his side like he's going to throw up, as a nurse comes in after hearing the commotion. 

The other staff member still on his call openly cursing them all for being so loud and calling them crazy bitches through his gritted teeth.

"Jungkook? I'm gonna throw up" Jimin says as he reaches for Jungkook's sleeve

"Anyway you can aim it at him?" Jungkook smiles and Jimin finally smiles back a little 

"Just point me. I'll take care of the rest"

30 seconds later a man runs out of the gym with his trainers covered in another mans vomit, scorn on his face and calling everybody here "fucking assholes" 

Jimin's laugh in the gym radiates out and Jungkook smiles at him, getting a little lost in the happy things Jimin brings him. 

Jimin's laugh.

"Hey. Clean it up" 

an orderly walks in handing Jungkook the mop and towels and Jimin smiles sweetly at him as he says 

"yeah, No, because concussion is always treated by cleaning up vomit. Thanks" 

Jungkook waves the orderly away with his hand and starts to clean up the mess for Jimin, not that much there really. Most of it on the Other persons sneakers.

All taken care of easily. Jungkook’s least favourite part of his job if he’s honest. Bodily fluids often used as weapons on other wards he shadowed but cleaning this up with Jimin didn’t bother him one bit. 

"Throw the fish away please?" Jimin asks Jungkook sincerely with his eyes tightly shut.

Jungkook looks around for it. Found it with it’s half-eaten bean paste spilling out a little. Tail in a puddle of sick. Jungkook picks it out with his fingers and takes it to the window and punts it out as far as he can. Hearing it thud as it hits a car and a woman shouting ‘son of a bitch’ loudly.

Closing the window fast making big guilty eyes at Jimin as he creeps away from the crime scene. Smiling again.

"Let me check you over, we need some cream for that bruise anyway. Where’s the medical unit?" Jungkook says as he walks Jimin out of the gym. 

Feeling the sweat soaked clothes as he takes his elbow

"Wait. you're gonna catch the flu in that hoodie. Come get mine"

They head off to the locker room that Jimin is seriously not allowed in but Jungkook doesn't know and Jimin doesn't tell him. Just enjoying following Jungkook around.

Only a few doors down from the gym but Jimin was so excited to walk next to Jungkook and for a second he pretended in his own mind that this was ok. That he was a nurse here like Jungkook and this was all ok. 

In all the times he has been here Jimin has only been in here maybe twice?

  Each time usually to escape someone and not staying in past a minute.

just to avoid. 

Jungkook's locker is at the far end. Hidden by other lockers in the middle and a bench, Jimin sits on the bench. A little hyper at the possibility of being caught in here. The room is bright and strangely airy. A light blue look all over it. Fresher looking than other facilities 

He enjoys it though for some reason. Though not sure why. His eyes sparkle and he gently sucks both his lips in as he looks around the room like he is quietly holding his breath as his eyes look big. Hoping he doesn’t blurt out how much he isn't allowed in here.

Jungkook goes through his already messy locker. Two days is all it takes. 

He finds a t-shirt and Hoodie in his gym bag and hands them to Jimin

"Put these on, They won't fit but they are dry at least"

Jimin stares at them a little confused that they aren’t his clothes. Why is he handing him a black t-shirt and not his striped one? Not really understanding the concept.

"These aren’t mine. it's not red and black" he hands them back to Jungkook who just pushes them back to Jimin without question.

"I said put them on, for once don’t argue with me." 

Jimin's head cocks to the side a little. And a small frown appears on his swollen eyebrow that reminds him of the small amount of pain he is in from it.

He stands back up and does as he’s asked

He strips off his own t-shirt and hoodie at the same time. Pulling them over his torso. forgetting what was underneath for the briefest of seconds that he felt totally normal.

Jungkook caught a glimpse before he deliberately turned away, fresh scars and bruises mixed with old scars create a pallet of colours on his skin that Jungkook confusingly wants to see for longer to take them all in. realising it shouldn’t capture his mind like this. Feeling bad that he had that sexual thought but he wants to touch them. Every bit of scar and colour. He wants to trace his fingers across them.

Jimin's head appeared out the top of Jungkook's t-shirt with a pop.

Looking so utterly cute just putting Jungkook's clothes on that Jungkook put the skin touching aside easily. Disarmed by the adorable.

A little bigger than his own clothes. Not much but on Jimin's svelt body they looked much bigger as they hung baggy.

“See? Easy and you haven't caught a fever. Let's go take care of your face”

“Well that seems mean but ok” Jimin says smiling at his own depreciative joke, causing Jungkook to grimace with how shit the joke was.

The whole thing took maybe 3 minutes and Jungkook and Jimin left the locker room together and walked off towards the elevator

"Thanks…for these clothes…  just until I go back upstairs, you don't need to check me though. I'm not concussed I think. It was the bread he held. It affected me a little,  I feel much better now"

"OK. bread made that happen?" Jungkook says bluntly, hoping to find a way to get Jimin to talk.

"I dun wanna explain, ok? Puddin’ fucker?"

Jungkook smiles "How can you still call me that after I gave you my own waffles? Means boys are mean, Huh?" 

He laughs a little and Jimin pouts, thinking

"Ok… Puddin" Jimin answers so happily as Nurse Yeon walks past

"Morning Jimin. You have an appointment for assessment at 10.30 am, correct? You should probably move on"

Jimin's top lip curls as he says "Ye". 

He looks away from Jungkook feeling anxious that his fun was intruded on, walking off before he says something dumb.

And then he turns, can't help himself

"You know… SOMETIMES ... Just sometimes, Nurse Yeon, it's ok not to remind me every 30 FUCKING seconds that I am here and failing, you understand me? Maybe when you see someone smiling you could try not to fucking steal it, see you later, Puddin fucker" Jimin tugs the sleeve of Jungkook’s hoodie as he passes him in a blink and you miss it move.

The lift dings like a final fuck you and Jimin gets on it. Doors close and he finally breathes as he watches Jungkook's flustered face through the small window. 

Feeling a little brave today. Enjoying it.

Jungkook turns to Yeon

 "errrr. I'm not sure how to react to that so I'm also going to leave I think" 

He turns hoping he can escape quickly when he gets the "lets talk" grab of his elbow leading him outside.

"you're not here to be his friend, you understand that? But also he hasn’t actually had a single friend since he arrived here so honestly, I'm not sure how to advise on this. don't expect too much I guess? Keep it professional, we’ve already lost staff members due to … friendliness, We’ll consult with his doctor today and see if this is beneficial to Jimin"

"I'm trying to ask him to be my subject, I know there’s a danger here but I think I… we ... I think we can handle it. And If I can't, I'll back off from the subject when i get assigned a section anyway? Maybe I can actually make a difference to him? it's why I wanted this course. To help and make a difference to people. Maybe I can help the subject as he helps me?"

Jungkook saying this but he already feels like a fraud saying the word subject when all he wants to say is Jimin.

it's true these few short times with Jimin he does already look forward to seeing his little face smile large at him. No other client really making an impact on him as much as he hates to admit it.

Jungkook doesn't find it easy making friends either.

Chronic shyness as a kid and not the easiest start in life made him less approachable maybe? Either way kids tended to stay away from him. 

He had one close friend since he started uni and that's it.

It can't be that bad being friends with a client rather than a patient? A client is here of free will rather than court appointed.

"Think about it, Kid. I don't want your entire time here to be wasted by a soured friendship or worse. he's in here for a reason. Always remember that. I don't want you accused of nonsense" 

Nurse Yeon says. She likes Jungkook. he can tell. 

She treats him with a fond respect already.

"Thanks, I'll promise to keep it all in mind. If I feel I am detrimental to his mental health I'll stop gently. Scouts honour"

Yeon stands up and squishes Jungkook's shoulder as she passes and heads back inside. Being grabbed and hugged as she walks by clients. 

Jimin watches them from his window. He likes Yeon. he regrets not controlling himself. Possibly now making Jungkook back off too.

And then Jungkook looks up directly at his room and window and sees Jimin staring at him as his body is pressed up against the window and he smiles.

They both smile.

Beautiful happy smiles that should be seen. Should be noticed. 

Jungkook makes his way inside. Being told to take himself on a tour to get to know where everything is.

He goes to section 2 just to check in on Jimin's bruised face. Remembering he walked off without treatment earlier. Grabbing the bruise cream from the nurses first aid kit.

He takes the service stairs leading more or less directly to Jimin's room and as he opens the door he hears Jimin's voice gently humming to himself, like a lullabye. A mellow tune that his voice allows out like it hugs you and keeps you safe. Such a pretty calming sound.

He doesn't want to disturb him so lets the stairs door close softly and walks past his door.

"Please, don't do that? Just come in? Don’t just walk by." 

Jungkook steps backwards "You talking to me?"

"Ah a split personality joke so soon, how fun"

"Noo, noo, sor…" Jungkook sees Jimin laugh at him "Little asshole"

"How do you know?" another funny from Jimin and he laughs now as he sits on his window seat.

Jungkook looks down the corridor for some reason only he knows and walks in.

"whatcha doing?" he asks as he walks a little nervously around

He hadn’t been in here before just looking through the window. Felt odd to be in the fishbowl.

He walks over to Jimin's desk "may I?" he says and points at the seat, picking up a pen and diary as he sits, placing them on the messy desk where he tries to clear a space for them.

"I nearly broke my neck earlier to see you outside. I was worried Yeon was going to kick you out after hearing me call you puddin, I am sorry. I can’t control some things, You know?" 

Jimin sits cross-legged still in Jungkook's clothes, hoodie far too big and it gives him sweater paws with his fingers peeking out at the bottom of the cuffs, he pulls the hood up and doesn't realise he visibly inhales Jungkook's scent.

"How do I smell?" Jungkook asked in all seriousness. 

"Haaa. sorry? I just..” Jimin can’t make any excuses like he normally would. Might as well just answer  “well, you smell nice, flowers or fruit? Sweet smell. peonies? What is it?"

"My natural scent" Jungkook keeps a straight face for a moment but then smiles again saying 

"Washing powder, I'm going to wash your clothes in my locker so you'll have the scent too tomorrow"

Jimin's eyes light up "so I'll smell like you? Like both the same?"

This feeling of belonging and being the same as Jungkook excites him

"That excites me a little, why?" He asks genuinely wanting an answer

Jungkook thinks for a second then answers carefully

"Dunno, being accepted maybe? Like a bond? Not sure"

"Mhm, could be. Yeah, could be I just really like how you smell, Puddin’ fucker"

Jungkook shakes his head with a  smile on his lips, He stands and waves the cream as he takes the top off and squeezes a small amount on his little finger.

"Could be, Could be, you gonna talk to me about this morning at any point? You know I have some facts on you without reading your file. Right?"

Jungkook walks over to stand in front of Jimin and he tentatively puts the cream on Jimin’s bruise. Smearing it and taking longer than really needed to rub it in with his thumb, his fingers linger in Jimin’s hair.

"you'd be a shit nurse if you didn't I guess" Jimin answers as he looks up at Jungkook standing so close their knees are touching

"Trainee nurse" Jungkook corrects him, holding up his finger in a scolding way. Playfully so, but he steps back to the desk and out of Jimin’s space.

"What do you know?" Jimin tucks his arms inside Jungkook's hoodie and brings his knees up and tucks his legs in there too. Like a shell being created.

"You sure you want me to say? You ok hearing it?" 

Jimin nodded from under the hood, taking the hoodie toggle and sucking the end of it without thinking.

"Ok. I know you had a cruel childhood. I know your parents neglected, physically and mentally abused you to extremes, I know that you have DIDS though I'm still unsure how many alters or who they are. I know you have triggers after seeing you this morning, I see you have emotional control disorders and a lot of other stuff I would just be guessing. but…I also know you are thoughtful and sweet and honest."

Jimin's face changes to quizzical, wondering why Jungkook is saying these things he tries to stop him

"No, Noo. you don't have to say such things.. it's ok.. I Know.. what I am and who I am.. You never have to lie with me. Ok?" Jimin's face looks hurt as he says it. 

"Jimin. I won't lie to you, but that means I won't always say what you want to hear but I promise I won't lie so let me finish?.... You seem caring and funny and your smile… is just … wow" 

Jimin's eyes shine " I… My smile? Me? I'm funny and sweet?.. You know this is me. Jimin, right? Not Kitten?"

Jimin really asking the question 

"I don't know what that means to be honest, Why would I say that to Kitten and not to Jimin?" Jungkook says frowning with his eyes piercing through Jimin's thoughts 

"I mean.. Kitten … he's the one that needs attention… care? I'm not any of those things"

"No, Jimin… I mean you. I see these things in you, I think you make me smile a lot in a short time of knowing you, In different circumstances, we could be friends"

"Oh… yeah, Of course. Understood."  Jimin says trying to hide his disappointment, not in these circumstances then? Not Jimin as he is and he won't change or get better so… never?  Never be friends.

"You look sad, what did I say that hurt you? Talk to me?" Jungkook asks, hating that Jimin's smile has gone to be replaced by a face holding in tears.

"Well, so… you can't be my friend now? In these circumstances? If I wanted? You and me can't be friends? Because I am me? Fundamentally not worth it.?" 

Jimin's face flushed from holding in his emotions.

"I did say that didn't I? I … can I be totally honest?"  

Jimin nods to Jungkook and expects the worst as he starts to suck on the hoodie’s sleeve as he pulls it over the top of his thumb as her listens.

"I don't really know how to be a friend … what do I do with friends? How do I make them and keep them? I've got one friend and he is only there because he refuses to leave. I don't necessarily mean your circumstances, Jiminah, I don't consider myself whole or without faults… I think that's what I meant"

Jungkook looks stunned that he just said all that out loud. Hearing it makes him jolt a bit. Wondering who should actually be in this place.

But Jimin is smiling "so both idiots? Can we try at least? I've never really had a real friend, you seem like you need someone too, can we try? For both of us? Am I asking wrong?"

"Well isn't this sweet? It's good to have friends in here. Huh, Jimin? I'm a little sad you said you've never had a friend though"

Jae stands in the doorway and as his foot’s about to come in, Jimin jumps up panicked. Trying to shut his door on Jae to keep him away

"Out! You get out. You are not allowed in here. I've told you already. Fucking out, that smell. You disgusting filth" Jimin’s face scrunches up in anger and utter disgust.

Jimin instantly high on the aggravated scale, He looks to Jungkook to do something.

Jae steps back out of the room in the doorway. Teasing Jimin by reaching his arm in the room and saying

 "now what?" Jae behaves like a kid and Jungkook walks towards him with his hands up saying

"you're acting like a three year old child not staff. What are you doing? you're agitating him deliberately, Jae. back off"

Jungkook blocks the door with his body and Jae stands back 

"I was joking. It was a joke…. Whats wrong with you? Jimin knows I only have special friends here. And he hasn’t been special for a long time, or not Jimin? Who was it I used to be friend with in there? Huh? So easy to forget."

Jimin turns away and faces the window. Shame radiating from every pore.

His breathing short and angry.

"Jae, I  have no idea what the fuck is wrong with you but you're acting like a spoilt jealous kid right now over a client? Have you been fucking with these clients? The patients?"

"Forget it, perks of the job is the friendships, isn't that what i just interrupted here?"

"you're suggesting after a day and half that I am abusing my position with clients?"

Jungkook gets angry and raises his voice a little. Making nurse Yeon come down the hallway.

"Oh, Jae. how did I sense you would be irritating somebody? Go to your section or I'll have you on report again and third times a charm for finally getting you out of here, right?"

Jae backs off as he says "I'll speak to you later. Jimin, ok? If friends are what you need"

Jungkook looks at Nurse Yeon like what the fuck is happening and she shakes her head to him.

"Get Jimin ready for assessment please once he is calm. I've got this"

She follows Jae to the staff facilities and Jungkook isn't sure what the fuck to do.

A mild panic rising in his chest, he turns to Jimin.

"You ok? I'm not sure again what he's on about but do you need to tell me something? If he's abused his position I can help sort it. Make him move on"

At this being said Jimin's room neighbour finally shows himself from his room where he's been listening to Jae.

"Why didn't you tell me you were with him? Why weren’t you honest, Jimin? I spoke to you about him all the time and you've just been making fun of me?"

The kid saying it is maybe 18 years old. Slightly plump male. Jimin likes him . He is harmless but they aren’t friends. But Jimin had tried to explain what a sleaze Jae really was.

The kid just wouldn’t listen and now he's only hearing what he wants and somehow this is Jimin's fault.

"Hyun? Listen? I tried…. Not now…. I tried to talk to you and explain what a terrible person he is… You wont listen, your fault. Get out my room, Not now, I said"

Hyun turns and stomps off. 

"You need to watch him, ok? Put him on watch? Hyun is dangerous to himself" Jimin says

"Ok… you wanna talk to me though?"

"No, someone wants to come front and I don't want them to, I keep telling them not now but they have a ticket. Can you leave me to deal with this. You go sort Hyun?"

Jungkook grips the back of Jimin's chair for a second in tension. Not even sure why he is so angry. He knew Jae was a prick. Why is he so mad about it all.

But he doesn't want to delay Jimin's progress in trying to keep front and in control so he walks to the nurses desk and explains the situation there about Hyun being upset. He wants to talk to Yeon before he mentions Jae being the cause.

He sits waiting for Yeon or Jimin to come out first. Staring down the long corridor that seems endless right now.

Why the fuck is he so annoyed by all this? His brain melting slightly, feeling unnecessary pressure.

Saying "Jimin" out loud under his breath he needs to make sure he's ok. it's been ten minutes and he wants to know he is calmer.

He walks down to his room and knocks on the door frame but doesn't enter.

"Jimin? Can we talk? Are you ok?" 

"Jimin is fine. he's just taking a minute to calm himself. I'm Do-yun. Nice to meet you. You can come in for a minute. Leave your sneakers out there though."

Jungkook walks in. sneakers left at the door and Do-Yun walks towards him 

"Take a seat a minute, Jimin won't be long. I don't think he's happy you came back but you can sort that out yourselves, I wanted to say hello yesterday but Kitten kept taking my ticket to come out so none of us could come out"

Jungkook puzzles "Ticket? You guys take tickets and wait? Like... like a meat counter?"

He smiles and Do-yun does too and despite this being Jimin’s body and Jimin’s face it’s different. It’s a different smile, polite but distant. More pleasing rather than real and it falls off his face fast

"exactly like that. We had to work out a system for being fair to each other. We are here to look after Jimin after all so we had to work it out for him. We try not to push to the front if possible anymore."

"You came because of Jae? I'm going to deal with it. You don't need to worry about Jimin with that"

"You… has Jimin told you? Jae. what he did? Does?"

Jungkook shakes his head "No, are you allowed to tell me?"

"I could"

"Can I wait for Jimin to tell me?"

"Yes, but I doubt he will be able to without Kwang stopping him" Do-yun answers

"Kwang? Why? … I mean… Kwang has more power than you and Jimin?"

"Not power but Kwang Keeps records straight. Keeps knowledge in compartments for us, and he likes to keep some more… difficult stuff quietly with him. He looks after the dark."

"Can I meet Kwang?" Jungkook asks not sure where he's going with it.

"No, Kwang doesn't do that. he's always busy, yes? Ok? Can you go now? Jimin wants to…"

Do-yun goes quiet and his head turns to the left. 

Nothing noticeable to anybody but in that second Jimin fronted and took charge again.

"Jungkook? I asked you to say away a while" Jimin sighs gently as he says it  "but i am glad you didn't"  His head leans to the side 

                                                                     “I'm getting so tired. Jungkookah"

On saying this Jimin’s face is his own again, more relaxed than Do-Yun and when he says ‘Jungkookah’ his lips glisten and pout lingers creating a feeling in Jungkook instantly.

Jungkook feels what it is his mind has been confused about. 

He feels care towards Jimin that goes beyond his job,  Jungkook steps forward fully intending to pull Jimin in for a hug, to make him feel comfort and the care he has for him.

He stops himself sharply. Intrusive actions that he’d regret if he scared Jimin.

He has to try so hard to hold himself back from holding him tightly.

  Trying to stay professional for both their sakes.

"I wanna help you, Jimin, forget the study, Ok? I'm going to help you however you need me to, Just tell me what you need from me?"

Jimin stands still in front of Jungkook but he feels a longing for something he’s never had, He can't quite name it but for once he wished someone was in his space.

“Help me, Gukkie, I just want to be well” is all Jimin can say. Not even slightly remembering if he had ever said that to another human being, not even when he was a child. His look towards Jungkook is one of fragility. Rarely seen.

Jungkook breaks the building tension between them, the feeling of being needed like this so alien, making him fumble his words and thoughts a little.

"I’m here now, I’ve got this, You… I've got you,  Can you get ready for the assessment? do you want me to sit it out today? Jiminah? It’s going to be Ok, we’ll be ok. I promise"

and as simply as that Jimin felt he could be more than his sickness, disorders and issues, hearing Jungkook like he understood what he needed made his self click together. Like all snapped into place, but then another thought breaks through to the front.

“I’m … I’m scared… worried? That what you’ll hear will make you no longer want to care.  they want me to be honest which I am, I have no reason to lie or hide but in front of you I’m not sure, You know? I want to be special but that makes it too real? Scared.” Jimin speaks as he thinks. Trying to declutter his brain    “But i’d like to try with you?” Jimin adds

Jungkook tried not to look too happy but he was, as he nodded, a feeling of satisfaction at being so trusted washed over him.

“You need a minute? Do you just go there or do you need to gather things or what? I have no idea, i've never sat in an assessment like this with a client present”

“No, just come with me. May I keep your clothes on? Is that too weird? The smell is very nice and it makes me feel calm I think.” Jimin says as he sniffs the sweater paws he has over his fingers.

“It’s ok but how will you explain it? They will notice they aren't yours?” 

“It’s ok. We did nothing wrong. Leave it to me” Jimin says as he leads Jungkook to the meeting room a little further down the hallway. Next to the office.

The meeting room is designed for comfort. to get people to talk. There's a table that can be moved easily to both create and then remove a barrier between them and they.

The room is a light yellow colour with pastel coloured cushions all around a giant beanbag in one corner. 6 comfortable chairs line two walls. That have now been set up for 3 people. Jimin pulling out another chair and put it near his own.

Theres a fancy coffee machine on the window ledge that Jimin makes two fresh lattes for him and Jungkook and they sit there.

“Is it ok if i record on my phone, Jimin?” Jungkook asks permission and Jimin sits in his chair and grabs a cushion to hug as he nods

“Whatever you wish” as Jimin says it Nurse Yeon and the facilities director Lee walk in.

“Trainee nurse, Jeon Jungkook” Jungkook stood up and bowed to the director, Still a licensed psychiatrist, although his techniques had come into question a lot recently.

“Ahh Jungkoooook, Yes i picked your application out myself, you wrote some interesting essays in University about care and healing that I liked. Happy to have you onboard. I take it our Jimin will be your study? I was hoping he would allow this. Very beneficial for you both, I feel.”

“Since when have I allowed anybody to study me?” Jimin says sulkily. 

Director Lee Ignores Jimin’s sulk with a little laugh.

“Right, let's get on with it today shall we? This assessment is our monthly meeting to find Park Jimin’s status and progress and to decide a possible yes for the weekend pass you asked for. I have discussed this with your benefactor and he proposes you need to give a specific reason for your pass and that you have a chaperone at all times you are out of the facility and as usual, you are not allowed contact with him outside. No turning up at his building… If we do let you.” 

Nurse Yeon starts to write stuff down and Jimin starts to look a little more agitated as he nibbles the sleeve of Jungkook’s hoodie without thinking.

“What did you write?” Jimin asks as he sits up higher in his seat trying to read her notes.

“I wrote that I don’t think it is a good idea yet for you to go out, I think you show an increased chance recently of maybe doing yourself more damage out there if things don’t go well”

Director Lee nods and runs his chubby fingers across his stubble. Making a loud weird scraping noise in the room made both Jungkook and Jimin pull exactly the same disgusted face.

“I asked because I wish to go see a performance that I won’t get to see again. A dancer that retires after that weekend and I would dearly love to see him once more. I can take anybody you choose as my chaperone but please don’t deny me this. There's no reason for me to be… emotionally unstable. I don’t leave to go and see my unc… benefactor. I go to see this last performance of someone I admire. So please. Let me go? Please? I haven’t had any outbursts. Any problems have not been caused by me, but from me protecting … others,  Please Nurse Yeon? Please don’t block this.” 

“And earlier? With Jae?” Nurse Yeon says as director Lee’s head whips around to see her face. A deep sigh from him as soon as Jae's name is mentioned.

“Explain what happened with him?” Lee asked and Jungkook spoke up

“Jae intruded on me asking Jimin to let me study him. I am not entirely sure why Jae is allowed free movement across this facility as he seems to be a well-known predator that is overlooked for reasons I can’t understand, Jimin defended himself against that and reinforced his boundaries.”

Lee looked once more at Yeon and then back to Jimin.

“Jimin?” Lee waited for a response and got nothing but a hard glare.

“Do-Yun?” Lee asked when he saw the features on his face visibly tighten and Do-Yun nodded. 

“I’ve asked that You let only Jimin front in these sessions. It’s important he knows every detail. Please allow Jimin to come forward?” Yeon asked.

“Jungkook said accurately about Jae and I would also like to know why he is allowed to prowl this building so freely. How many times do we have to tell you he is hurting people? I am amazed that this assemblyman’s son is tolerated, Just how much does he donate to keep the lecherous animal in the position?”  

The secret was out that Jae was kept here to keep him away from the wider society, basically a patient without being told,  he picks up a wage. Disgusting but common place for these unwanted children of such distinguished gentlemen.

“Do-Yun? Please. The more you front the more I can’t help Jimin.  Please?”

Do-Yun looks to the left and Jimin is again present. Instantly going back to biting Jungkook’s sleeve. The grey material is even darker where he’s soaked it through with his own saliva. 

Ignoring the Jae issue the way it has been ignored for so long, just a panicked look between the director and the head nurse and then disdain on their faces like they hated it just as much as everyone else.

“Ok, so we will decide about the weekend and let you know if we find a suitable chaperone and we feel it will help you then I say yes.” Lee smiled as he saw a small smile on Jimin’s face

 “Now let's discuss where we were last time? You are eating to the diet we settled on? You have on different clothes. That's a positive step isn’t it?” 

Jimin takes out the hoodie sleeve he’s now sucked and nibbled a tiny hole into, Finding himself quickly checking Jungkook’s face before he answers.

Like a little visual check if he’s still here but also fuck, now he knows more and more what makes Jimin ashamed to be him.

Jimin slows himself down before he answers. Considering every answer he gives from now on 

“Ye. I’m not stealing or hoarding food. I haven't purged in over two months. I am controlling it. My clothes got wet. I borrowed these” Jimin answers through the sleeve that covers half of his face, not obvious to them but to Jungkook he knows Jimin is breathing him in.

“Are you controlling it by anything else taking it’s place? Calorie bulimia exercising? or any self-harming? Are you filling out the diary for your system? Asked them to stop harming you?” 

Jimin's eyes look sideways quickly towards Jungkook. Like he wanted to make sure Jungkook hadn’t heard that but obviously he had and it made Jimin feel so sad that everything he hates about himself is just being laid out bare in front of this beautiful human.

“No, I'm running a normal amount to stay fit and self-harming is under control I believe according to Do-Yun. though I thought we agreed not to call it that? I'm not hurting myself. He is”

 Jimin lies for the first time and he isn't good at it. Shifting in his seat and giving a little cough to gently clear his throat,  his eyes rolled a few times like they try to find a comfortable place in his head.

Jungkook had seen his torso earlier that day with its obvious lines of recut skin. Scars being cut fresh over and over again, bruises coloured old and new.

Wonder if he should say so but stay quiet until he can ask Jimin alone.

“Ok, but controlling your control is part of the issue. It takes so much energy to control these impulses eventually your mind will not be able to balance itself. You understand? We need to work purely on the self-harm in the next session next week” Lee says knowing Jimin’s concerned face,

“Jimin leave us to discuss the weekend pass?” Lee says like it's nothing. Like it means nothing when it means the world to Jimin.

He looks at them all one by one and nods. Pretty sure he doesn’t get to go out for his weekend. Only securing one pass in the entire time he was here. Already feeling disappointed.

Jungkook starts to stand only to have Lee motion him to sit back down.

Jimin takes his drink with him in its carry out cup, he stands up and leaves without saying a word. But feeling weird he just leaves Jungkook to sit there without him. Already the line between nurse and client was so blurred to him.

He sat outside on the floor. Leaning up the wall and every so often he can hear voices slightly raise from both Yeon and Jungkook.

After 45 minutes Jungkook came out. Putting his phone in his pocket he sees Jimin curled up asleep on the floor. Looking around to see the rest of the section moving around them normally. Ignoring him here.

He squats down next to Jimin “Jimin? let's go to your room? You need to sleep” placing his hand on Jimin’s hip. Thumb rubbing tenderly across his hip bone over his jeans.

Jimin’s eyes open like he has been asleep for hours. He looks up at Jungkook and smiles. Deciding even if he doesn’t get to go out, at least he will get to see Jungkook’s face.

Jimin places his hand on Jungkook's knee as he pulls himself up off the floor. Jungkook gently takes his hand off his leg as he smiles and they both stand and start walking.

Jimin flops on his bed as Jungkook sits by his window. 

“If you go to sleep right now how will I tell you that you get to go out for your weekend next month?”

Jimin’s eyes open instantly and wide, he looks over at Jungkook and smiles so big his eyes close again and he can’t hide how incredibly happy he is.

Tears sting him so easily as their warmth rolls down his face 

“Jungkookah? You talked them into it? I can go? Friday to Sunday? From here?” Jimin’s voice becomes so breathless as he reaches the end and he can’t hide how happy he feels at this simple information. You get to go out.

“Friday evening you can leave here but they want to track you using your phone. So you need to give them permission to install that ok? But yes. You can go Friday evening to Sunday morning but Jimin… for me, for now, No more cuts or bruises”

“Does Yeon Chaperone me? She did last time”

“Oh? Did you want her to?  Not me?” Jungkook asks 

“You? I get to go out with you? Me and you? To see Haneul dance?”

“Is that ok? It fits with part of my course. The care in society I can write about that and accompany you and I get to assess you as my first solo assessment. And then I will be assessed. So yeah ...saying assessed a lot but yeah…. Assessed ” 

Jungkook himself was excited about this. Being given opportunities he shouldn’t have yet maybe but Lee was decisive if nothing else and seemed to put a lot of effort into Jungkook even without Jungkook knowing it.

All they had to do was both behave and be perfect for the next three weeks until the performance. somehow.

Jimin gets up and jumps up and down on the floor. Happiest Jimin has felt in so long and it radiates from him. Filling up the entire room with the happiest noises.

“Not now, Please? Let me?” Jimin said and Jungkook knew that look meant he was inside himself. Asking to be left alone.

Jimin stopped Jumping, crouched down and his head went slightly sideways

“I’m the cutest though? I’m the cute for you? “ Kitten asked as he licked the edge of his wrist and started to preen himself by rubbing his licked wrist over his nose and cheek.

“Kitten? You are adorable but Kitten? I think Jimin is the cutest, I don’t want to upset you at all but Jimin is my cute. Can he come back?”

“He’s peeking at us. He heard you say that and now shy. So? Play with me? Let's play? I’ll be good, I can make you wings like Jiminies?” Kitten asks as he sits on the floor and bats a piece of ribbon that hangs down from Jimin’s desk.

“Kitten? Can you let me have Jimin back and I’ll play with you afterwards?” Jungkook asks. Trying to fight the urge to play with Kitten when they are so adorable.

“Jimin peeks but I think he wants you to like me? Jiminie thinks it's better If I am cute then you have reason to be happy.  yes? No? Jimin? I can’t say it right. Kitten can’t say it right. Proper.“

“Please ask Jimin to come back for me?” Jungkook asks gently.

“Jimin peeks at you.” Kitten says and then crouches back down on his heels with a slight shake of his head.

“Jungkookah? You didn’t want to play with Kitten? He wanted to make you feel happy”

Jungkook smiled as it made so much sense to him.

“Jimin, Kitten doesn’t have to come out to make me happy. Ok? You make me happy. I want to celebrate you going out with You. If possible? I don’t want to hold anyone back or hide anybody but if you are letting them drive because you think I would rather have Kittens cute or Do-Yuns smarts you are wrong. You are more than cute and smart enough for me. Please stay”

Jimin looked a little stunned “I don’t think I’ve ever been enough for anybody, ever” He says as his face shows he is genuinely trying to think if he had. 

“I have to go sort out the client's food list for the day and the meds. I’ll try and say goodbye before my shift ends. but if not I will see you in 2 days” Jungkook says as he makes his way to the corridor.

“Why not tomorrow? Gukkie? Have I done something? We won’t go out anymore?” Jimin looked so instantly sad with huge tear-filled eyes staring up at  Jungkook that his heart dropped into his stomach

“Hey… no.. not a bad thing, It’s my work schedule. I can’t work every day. I work 3 days straight  72hours shift when I come back. I have to have a break before that shift. Don’t think bad things. I’ll be here and nothing’s gonna stop us going out, cheer up, buttercup” As Jungkook says it he boops the end of Jimin’s nose and it feels like a wall has dropped. That boop was so familiar as it crossed every line.

Jimin’s sad face turned to happy ridiculously fast. His smile forced his cheeks to look like a hamster hiding food with how happy he felt.

Jungkook can’t help but say in his head ‘so fucking pretty.’ He should have just said it out loud because his face had it written all over it.

“We have to behave very well now, don’t we, Jungkookah? So they don’t make us stop being friends?” Jimin says it as he sits back on his bed. Legs crossed and back straight.

“Hmm yeah. Confusing isn’t it? I should just say stay out of trouble and that should be it but it feels… too simple.”

“Ok, Puddin’ fucker. Go to work and then go home and then come back in two days and we play our game of normalcy for them” Jimin looks down at his covers as he fingers the edge of it and pulls at the loose cotton hanging from it

“but we aren’t are we?” Jimin looks back up to Jungkook standing halfway out of his doorway.

“Aren’t what?” Jungkook asks as he looks out of the door. Self aware now despite not really knowing why.

“We aren’t normal, I like you. Jungkookah, Just so you know. I, Jimin, I like you”

Jungkook looks out down the corridor but as the words Jimin said slowly hit him he looks back inside Jimin’s room.

Staring at Jimin’s perfectly beautiful face looking so meaningfully at him. Waiting for an answer.

Jungkook shakes his head but his face looks instantly guilty “No…we…we aren’t normal, Thankfully. Keep your head down for me? I’ll be back with you in two days.”

“Hmm,  head down? that's my intention” Jimin says in a clunky flirting way and giggles to himself as he falls backwards onto the bed and put his arms over his face, To embarrassed to show himself but smiling despite it.

Jungkook bites his bottom lip, shaking his head like a giddy kid.

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Jungkook came back two days later with his duffle bag, ready for his three day shift and the first smile he sees is Jimin’s making Jungkook take a deep breath in to control himself from picking Jimin up and hugging him tightly.

Jimin holds his hand up and says a tiny shy “Hi” as he heads back into his room as his cheeks burn from both shyness at his own feelings and Jungkook looking so fucking hot. Even in a tunic.

But he knows Jungkook will follow him in there.

.Jungkook put his bag on the floor in the long corridor outside of Jimin’s room and waved at the other clients. Most happy to see him. He followed Jimin into his room where he hears

“I missed you so much, Kkyu”  in Jimin’s low Busan.

He says it as he sits at his desk. A mirror on his wall that's usually turned towards the wall,  but now aimed at the door so he can see who comes in behind him.

Jungkook walked behind him and squeezed his shoulder “Never knew two days could last so long, Missed you too”

Yeon’s voice forced Jungkook to step back quickly “ahh the wanderer returns. Ready for your first 72 shift? You know you have more clients here than this one. Right?”  she teases but some truth in it.

Jungkook fumbled a bit then remembered and relaxed himself and laughed at her joke. Trying his best to be ‘normal’  

“I know, ahh but I had a  hoodie for Jimin I promised him.” He picked his bag up and took out Jimin’s washing. His t shirt and hoodie wrapped and almost hidden inside another old hoodie of Jungkook’s not washed. He handed them to Jimin.

As he and Yeon walked out he could hear Jimin deeply breathing in. Knowing it’s his hoodie he holds close to his face and inhales him through.

For the next three days they all eat breakfast together. Jimin chose for the first time to eat in front of others. Something he never felt comfortable doing. But eating as he sits close to Jungkook comes easily, making it less about food and more about being social.

At one point Jungkook felt Jimin’s foot briefly on top of his own sandal, just letting him know he was there as he looked and saw a smirk on Jimin’s lips despite not looking up. Just a simple connection that lasted less than a heartbeat but to Jimin it meant everything, letting another human know you like them, never having felt that before he wanted to devour the feeling, to eat it up and have it fill him and stay there. Make him plump on the need.

On the second night the section got asked to return to their rooms early. Around 6pm. Everyone looking around to see who fucked up. The one for all and all for one rule meaning one person fucked it up for everyone else so easily but something was different. As they entered their rooms they heard Jungkook shout 

“No ones in trouble, I promise. Give me 10 minutes and then you can come out and be pleased I think” 

Jimin stands in his doorway looking at Jungkook who smiles back at him so reassuringly that Jimin had no problem standing back and shutting his door. Everything was perfectly ok and Jungkook let him know it with one smile.

Lights went dim and excited voices from Yeon and Jungkook and 2 orderlies could be heard asking directions “Put that over there please?” “here is good” until after fifteen minutes all their doors unlocked, everyone stepped out one by one with loud coo’s and some little claps of excitement, being directed to the rec area that normally has the tv on a random channel but now has a karaoke machine linked to it. 

Lights flicker like starlight all over the ceiling and walls and galaxies like the milky way shine and swirl and change colours on the ceiling. 

Food laid out on trays on some tables. Soft drinks and no alcohol beer and wine on other tables.  A few of the safer clients from other floors come through the doors and a small contained party is happening.

Jimin is missing, Jungkook notices quickly as he stares at his doorway he sees Jimin peeping around the edge looking unsure if he can come out but Jungkook can’t escape to go see him yet.

Yeon notices his absence after twenty minutes and asks Jungkook to go make sure he is ok.

Jimin peeps out of his doorway and beckons Jungkook who was walking to him anyway.

“Whats wrong. Honey? You don’t want to sing?” Jungkook stands in the doorway expecting nothing but seeing Jimin right now was intensely overwhelming.

Not his usual red and black t shirt hoodie combo but expensive looking black trousers and a slim fitting white shirt tucked in with a belt with gold buckles, his hair is off his face and it just frames how handsome he truly is with his honey coloured skin and perfectly juicy lips. Eyes so gentle and sultry all at once. 

“Hyung? You are fucking exquiste” 

Jungkook says not even caring who heard him. Not a care in the world just the thought he wanted this person to love him as much as he started to feel love for him.

“Exquisite? Hyung? I've never been exquisite or Hyung or ... Well ...anything, but before I walk out there do I look ok? I don’t want people to laugh at me but I felt I should look nice..for you… all this effort you gave us..I wanted to give you effort too”

“This is for me? I honestly don’t deserve someone as good as you, Jiminah. You are exquisite. You are so beautiful like a dream”

Jimin got shy. His face flushed as he says “Jungkookahh” and smiled happily like he can’t help it  “I know we can’t date. I know we are being smart but for tonight. Somehow, Be mine?”

“Jiminah…If I am anyone's, ever, I am yours”

Jungkook says as Jimin walks closer and Jungkook holds his arm out for Jimin to take his elbow and walk out there together. It might be the only time they get to touch all night… all week or year but for one night. Be Mine was real.

They walk down the corridor with no shame and Jungkook takes Jimin to a table where the drinks are and pours him a no-alcohol glass of sparkling wine, they can feel people looking at them and Jimin takes the drink and nods gently at Jungkook. giving him the message to move along now. Go do your job. Both smiling and maybe Jungkook stared a little too long at Jimin’s lips as he took his first sip of wine. His tongue licked the flavour off them. Jungkook wished he could taste him so much. 

The energy it takes to keep himself away from Jimin is tremendous.

They all sing and pick songs and entertain each other, by 10 pm it gets quieter and low-key songs are played as they start to clean up to wind people down.

Ben puts his favourite song on Jungkook's phone and walks over to the table that Jimin sits on the edge of. Laughing with Yeon he stops when he notices Ben and smiles sweetly at him.

“Jiminie? Can I take this dance? Would he mind?” Ben asks and although he doesn’t say Jungkook by name they all know he means him.

“I’d like that Ben, thank you. “ Jimin says so sweetly Yeon feels her heart with how touching it all is

Ben leads Jimin out to the middle of the recreation room floor. Galaxies swirl above him and his 6’4” frame drowns Jimin as he takes his hands and holds them as they sway together.

Jungkook stands still and smiles. Seeing how kind Jimin really is as he leads the shy Ben to dance with him. 

Ben obviously not used to moving with another as Jimin takes his hands and puts them on his shoulders and they dance so comfortably that Ben rests his head on top of Jimin’s head and closes his eyes. Spinning slowly and tenderly together with Bens massive head resting there. 

The song ends and Ben pats Jimin’s head and says thank you as he says goodnight and goes to his room.

Jimin sits back on the table edge where he was, Jungkook with empty cardboard plates puts them in the bin sack and stands next to Jimin as they all talk of how lovely the night was. Everyone had fun and relaxed.

Yeon sits on the table opposite them as she speaks and the few people left sit with Yeon and listen 

“ Jungkook? I am truly speechless with how happy you have made so many people. Such a good idea” 

Jungkook waves her off and gets shy, sitting back on the table edge with Jimin, Where they sit has the wall tightly behind them and everyone that was still awake was cleaning up and busy and that is when Jungkook felt Jimin’s fingers on his spine. 

He felt them pitter pat slowly under his t-shirt. Felt Jimin’s fingers on his skin and as they swept secretly along his body. Following his curves and slowly moving in circles. Feeling his nails drag intimately against him, he coughs a little and gulps harder. His breath gets patchy with how tight it pulls his chest in and the feeling of massive pure excitement filled his every reason to be alive.

Feeling Jimin’s soft fingers on him. With people still talking to them in front with no fucking clue blows Jungkooks mind to the point he can’t move his head or his body. Trying so hard not to get hard and failing. That tingling feeling in his dick added another level of excitement, Adjusting his t-shirt and hunched slightly. Hoping it covers him as Yeon and an orderly talks about future dates for them to have dinners or events. 

But all Jungkook can think of is Jimin.

And all Jimin wants to think of is Jungkook.

Yeon stands and yawns, “Ok now. Time for sleep for you guys please? Let us finish here” she speaks to the 3 clients including Jimin that stand around talking and finishing their drinks. None of them protests. Not even Jimin.

Jimin feels so undeniably satisfied that he ran his fingers over Jungkook's skin. He felt undeniably happy that he felt Jungkook shiver at his touch.

Nothing could steal this feeling. Best to leave now to make sure. 

This feeling was his. He made Jungkook feel like that. He did and he loved it. It made him feel more than perfect. 

Jimin separated himself from Jungkook’s side. Where their hips had been touching and even the smallest things meant the biggest thrill.

“Goodnight everyone, thank you for today... You made us all feel… Human? You know? Real? Thank you.” Jimin walks off and Jungkook is left to consider his fingers that he can still feel up and down his spine.

After that night time goes by for them both in a flurry of Jungkook learning and trying to keep himself calm and not flirt. Sometimes Jimin reminds Jungkook that the section has other clients on it as he teases him. Both make sure they don’t run away with their urges which grow more encompassing every day.

Jimin seemed so stable it was noted more and more the positive influence Jungkook had on not just him, but the entire section.

Fitting in easily. 

Jimin proud of him, but also finds it so hard to contain his admiration and desires to any alone time they have, which is always brief. Yeon not letting them settle for long if she can help it so the most they can do sometimes is secretly hold fingers under a table for a second.

They talk when they can about not fucking each other up. Not ruining everything and playing by the rules until Jimin is released. But every day it becomes harder and harder. Each of them admitted they feel tied to each other. Like an instant knot. A bind they can’t escape even if they wanted to. Red strings turn into glue and glue gives way to cement until they can’t be separated.

But rules are there to protect everyone. Jimin and Jungkook alike.

More days pass and Jimin finds any excuse he can to talk to Jungkook but both trying their hardest to not be so obvious, to not tease or flirt but the staring? They can’t help it. 

It feels like everytime Jungkook looks up Jimin is there. Smiling or laughing with a client. Hearing his laugh, Jungkook takes the sweetest noise and replays it in his head so much he can barely hear everyone else talking.

Jungkook is trying to be smart about it but his crush on Jimin keeps trying to get him caught and lose his position daily.

Few instances happened with Jae being warned to stay away. Not allowed in section 2 at all for any reason. Hyun moved to a different clinic for a while to recover unhindered. 

So the main reason for discontent was removed and the ward was peaceful, a kind family feeling developing between them all. Jungkook even took family photos of them all posing and pinned them to the wall. Leaving an instant camera out for people to take their own and pin up.

Only one lockdown in 3 weeks and then not serious .. all out again after 40 minutes.

This day started as any other. Jimin strained his neck to see Jungkook arrive for his morning shift. Watched him park the car and eat an energy bar as he walks then waited for him to start morning rounds with Nurse Yeon.

Nurse Yeon starts at 8am as she hands out meds with Jungkook helping to hand out the doses and ask if they need anything that day from town or the chemists, keeping a list on his phone as he chats with a client who asks for smokes.

Not really worrying about Yeon.

As she walked into Jimin's room the atmosphere changed, Jungkook could hear stern voices instantly as he stood outside keeping watch of the meds trolley, Meant to stay here in case of distractions used by others that want to take the drugs from the cart but he knew Jimin would not be involved in that and then the alarm went off. He locked the drug cart fast.

A high-pitched whirring sound sends most of the patients into their rooms for safety and the light above Jimin’s door flashes.

Jungkook ran into the room to find Yeon pinning Jimin on the floor with a finger in his mouth and Jimin fighting her to get off him. 

Jimin could easily have hurt her to get free but it wasn’t him and he squirmed and threatened instead for her to get the fuck off.

Jungkook wasn’t sure who or how to help first. Seeing Yeon trying to get something from Jimin’s mouth

“YeonNim? Whats happening?”

 Yeon shouted “he’s swallowing something, it’s metal” fearing a blade or something else he can use to harm himself.

Jungkook judged the situation as fast as he had been trained to do.

He separated Yeon from Jimin by lifting her up and back behind him and pulling Jimin to sit up. 

He sat opposite him and Jungkook held out his hand in front of Jimin’s mouth as they both sat there listening to the alarm go off and Yeon's breath so loud.

Her saying “that won’t fucking work”

“Spit it” Jungkook says and he thrusts his hand a little in front of Jimin again, Jimin's eyes pleading for him to not but giving in and spitting the metal object out of his mouth.

A silver chain with a tiny burning sun pendant slips out and falls into Jungkook’s palm.

Jungkook’s chain he lost on his first day.

Jimin looked so guilty as his eyes met Jungkook’s and his look turned to fear at the idea of losing it.

“It’s mine” Jimin finally said as Jungkook pokes his finger at the silver chain that his father had given him when he had first gotten sick. Jungkook’s hand closed and he held the chain tightly.

“You aren’t allowed jewellery without permission, Park. did you steal this? Where is it from?” Yeon asks as she starts to look around Jimin’s room. Intrusively lifting his private items and looking inside everything she can.

“You’ve been keeping this safe? In your mouth?” Jungkook says as his hand rests on Jimin’s knee as they still sit in front of each other.

“YeonNim, can you turn the alarm off please?”Jungkook asks and as she pokes her head out of the room Jungkook mouths ‘Don’t worry’ to Jimin.

“He probably thought we would confiscate it and it looks meaningful to me. Almost like someone he cared about gave it to him. I see no harm in him apologising for breaking the rules but keeping the necklace.” 

Jungkook sounded so confident in his words that Yeon didn’t even question it as she turned to Jimin and nodded as she brushed her uniform off from the floor fibres. Knowing she could have handled it better from the start too

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to hide it. I just wanted to keep it safe.. With me. Forever”

Jungkook took the necklace and dried it in his t-shirt and then stood in front of Jimin and put his chain around Jimin’s neck and secured it.

“All good. Keep it safe, It means a lot I’m sure” he says as he pulls the chain down and touches the sun charm, patting it with a smile as he remembers his father.

“I’m going to put you on lockdown for 2 hours. Jimin. You need to remember to hand things over and not fight. Ok?” Yeon says as she ushers Jungkook out of the room. Locking Jimin in.

“Weird. He hasn’t mentioned missing breakfast. Maybe a turning point? Put it in his notes Please, Jungkookah?”

Jimin watches Jungkook through the door window as he touches the chain that he has kept safe in his tight fist or mouth since it was ripped off Jungkook's neck on his first day. He isn’t sure how it took them this long to find it but he felt better now he could openly wear it. Though explaining to Jungkook might be an issue he would deal with later because all he thinks of now is how he felt Jungkook’s breath on his lips as they stood so close when he fastened the necklace.

One more day and they can talk openly at least for one night. Jimin can’t hide how much it means to him even when being punished. 

He sits on the floor by his window. Flimsy chicken wire over the window stops them from throwing stuff at each other but he can fully open the window and when people aren't looking he sits on the sprawling balcony that is outside of all their windows on that side, full of old leaves and dead plants in old crumbling pots. Jimin liked to sit there at night and quietly think as he wonders at the starry sky. He wishes he could just go and sit there now but they would all freak if they knew he did that.

He hums to himself as he touches the necklace with the gentlest touch. Delicate fingers trying to remember every detail as the fresh breeze hits his skin.

So happy. He can’t remember ever feeling this complete or hopeful. So In love. 

Jungkook looks for a quiet place where he can update Jimin’s notes. Taking his ipad he sits in the stairwell, Not wanting to go into staff quarters. Jae still had access to section 2’s staff area where the shower rooms were. Best to not risk it today. So close to seeing Jimin outside of this place. So close.

As he sits he can hear Humming. Not sure if its his phone, maybe YT plays or an alarm. No. but he knows the sound. The sweet sound and he says outloud “Jimin” and sniggers a little to himself thinking he goes crazy like Jimin is all he can see or think of but then he hears

“Yes?” 

 And Jungkook looks around behind him. Over the stairs. trying to find Jimin.

saying again out loud “what the fuck?” and hearing Jimin giggle and say “Look down, you loser” Jungkook sees a finger wiggle through the air vent at the bottom of the wall. The wall the stairwell shared with Jimin’s room.

Jungkook grabs the tip and holds it, making Jimin giggle more and more 

“Jimin?” Jungkook wants to check normally hearing Kitten laugh this much, Loving it was Jimin. 

“Ye, Gukkie, Is this what it's come to now. Us holding fingers through holes?”

Jungkook giggles too as he explains “I was updating your notes. Seems we had a breakthrough today”

“Oh yeah? Do explain, my sexy Puddin' fucker?” Jimin kept his finger there as Jungkook changed the subject 

“Ohh no no no. let's talk first about you keeping my necklace safe, I thought Ben had thrown it away. And you had it all this time.. In your mouth?”

“When you say it like that it sounds weird, I just wanted to keep it for a while. I would give it back eventually. Maybe” Jimin lay down next to the air vent. Talking in a lower voice that Jungkook enjoyed hearing. Jimin’s sleepy voice was so sexy to him. Everytime he got to hear it his cock would tighten slightly. Just one of those things that makes him happy. 

“Where's it from? Can I keep it for now?” Jimin asks as he lies on his back. Crossing his one leg over the other to block the view of the camera slightly so they didn’t think he was talking to himself.

“Aishh, you really wanna know?” Jungkook answers quietly. 

“Please. Baby? I do want to know” Pet names became so easy to say and mean. Endearments everywhere including puddin fucker.

“My dad gave it me. He got sick my last year of high school and he had worn the chain since he was a kid and he bought the sun charm from some cheap market stall because he remembered when i was little I had cried when he told me the sun dies eventually, so he wanted me to have a sun that never dies. Always my own personal sun right here, he passed not long after”

“Jungkookah? Take it back. I’m so sorry. I would never have done that if I'd known. I would never have taken it from you. I am so sorry.” Jimin sounds so genuinely remorseful, his voice quivers though he controls his emotion.

“No. I can’t think of a better place to see it… now when I look at you I am reminded of two people I care about most and thats so much better than having it on me and becoming blind to it. This is what I want. I want to look at you as my burning sun. It’s what feels right.”

Jimin touches the sun charm and smiles a little “thank you for trusting me then” Jimin says thoughtfully “wait”

Jimin goes quiet as Jungkook waits for him. Hearing some slight rustling from Jimin’s room and then hears him sit back down at the vent. Jimin’s fingers poke through. Holding something in between two of them as they stretch out

“Take it?” Jimin says and he feels Jungkook take the earring he holds out. 

“For me?” Jungkook says as he pokes the tiny ear rings in his palm, a small stud made of silver of a half moon, Jungkook checks his ear and finds a free piercing and pokes the moon earring through it.

“You give me the sun I’ll give you the moon” Jimin says as he settles back onto the floor.

More finger touching through the air vent. Tender touches. Before Jungkook goes back to updating Jimin’s notes.

“May I ask a favour, Gukkie? Can you wash something for me? So.. so I can have that smell back?” Jungkook stopped typing and looked up without question he said “aye, Leave my hoodie by your door. I’ll grab it before I leave” 

“Where do you live? I Imagine it to be untidy. Like your locker was that day. Is it untidy?” Jimin says as he fingers the air vent a little more. Feeling Jungkook hold his finger tip again. Exciting him so much it made his belly flip with a hundred pretty butterflies and a little sweet hard intake of air made a little noise that Jimin closed his lips tightly to hold in.

“I live above my landlady's house. The roof. Its quite big and colourful because she likes to grow flowers. So they are everywhere outside. It’s not messy anymore. I had to learn how to not be so messy. I sit most nights I am there and just watched the sky go by. I have a friend that comes by sometimes to drink beers and eat chicken”

“Ah it sounds so nice. I will get to see it? The weekend? Am I allowed?” 

“Yeah you are. I already asked. I have to show you have a place to sleep there thats safe and no triggers which I have already. So you can stay there in a separate room. I’ll take the lounge. Ok?”

“Thats allowed? Thats really allowed? Gukkie? What If i get scared and need to sleep with you? Is that allowed?”

“Nope. if you get scared you have to be scared alone until I wake up in the morning.” Jungkook said and Jimin can hear he smiles as he says it.

“Asshole” Jimin says “what was my breakthrough? Am I allowed to know it?” Jimin asked, remembering why Jungkook was sitting here in the first place.

“You got locked up today. There was no tantrum about food, did you realise it even?” Jungkook asked through the wall, he moved to sit sideways so he can see Jimin’s shadow move and see his chubby finger poke through the vent. Now touching his trousers sweetly, holding between two fingers.

“Oh? Ohhhh I didn’t care did I? Wow… that's the first time I think ever. Wow, fucking wow? Gukkie. That's a good thing right? None of us even thought it possible. I am just…. Wow” Jimin stopped playing with Jungkook’s trousers and sat up a little shocked at himself.

“I want to hug you so much right now” Jimin says. Not sure if he's happy or sad, mostly shocked. Mostly he just wanted to be held.

“Later” is all Jungkook says as he stands up and says loudly “just passing through huh, Jae”  as Jae walks with his towel heading to the showers.

“I know it was you that fucked this up for me here, Jeon. My dads a very powerful man. You think nothing will come of this? You and that fucking freak in there are fucked.” Jungkook’s face goes instantly red and angry at Jae’s words.

The air around him feels so hot it feels like it will burn his skin off and he can’t hide his reaction.

“Fuck off, Jae. you are a useless human. Literally no use to anybody, not even yourself. You call Jimin the freak but you prey on vulnerable people,  I can study Jimin all day long and he’ll be helped and healthy. Something you could never do for anybody.”

“Ok, study him? I studied him. I studied him good. Ask who Midnight is or have you already met him? He was my special friend. Amazing what freaks will do for a tiny bit of rice and seaweed. A fucking chocolate bar would send him into overdrive. Whatever I wanted and all it cost was a cheap bit of chocolate or an extra serving.” 

Yeon came out of the doors instantly. Seeing Jungkook about to punch Jae as he held him over the stair rail. Anger on his face ripping through his brain.

“You need to fucking leave. You need to fucking leave you hear me? Or I'll throw you in with the savage on the 3rd floor with no emergency button. I mean it Jae. you no longer have free rule in this building. I’ll take you to the press. International if I have to.”

Yeon grabs Jungkook’s arm to calm him. Pulling Jae up from the peril he was in but he is too stupid to understand it.

“This another one of your bitches, Jungkook? I never touched the staff. Maybe I should have if they are so hard up for it”

Yeon slapped Jae hard across his smug face “Get your fucking shit and get out of my building.” finally the smile fell of his face 

“You’re serious? You want to fight me? I’ll have you both fucking fired and my playground handed back to me by teatime.”

Another slap. Harder this time. Echoing loudly.  Yeon with the angriest face.

Jae storms off. Missing stairs as he jump down them. Cursing at everyone as he marches past them.

Jungkook has his hands on his hips as he tries to control his breathing, Yeon laughs a little to herself like she can’t believe what she just finally did.

“Jesus, we are in so much trouble” she finally says

“We were together the whole time and we saw nothing, He lies. How did you know he was here?” Jungkook asks. Picking his ipad up and seeing Jimin's shadow moving a little.

“Jimin pressed the intercom and told me luckily. That stuff he said about Jimin. It’s in his file. Have you not read it yet? Still waiting for permission?”

Jungkook’s friendliness changed as soon as he heard that.

“You all knew it was that deep? That he was abusing Jimin like that and he was still here? How the fuck can you live with yourself?”

“In an ideal world. Huh, Jungkookah? In an ideal world all evil would be punished but it gets complicated. Jimin isn’t a patient here. He’s a client. Technically he can walk out of here whenever he likes. It’s only his uncle that demand he stays here to hide the family secret. That's what we are.. Still even now. A hiding place for so many ashamed of their loving relatives. Ashamed of their DNA. Jimin needs help there's no denying that but he isn’t a danger to his own life anymore and has not been for a long time. But still his uncle demands he stays. Pays for him to stay with extras and Jae was brushed under a very expensive rug.  A very luxurious expensive rug, and I hate that I am part of this but I do no good outside of it. At least here I can help even if only a small amount. I try at least and yes i fucking hate it.”

Yeon wipes tears silently away from her face and regains her composure.

“Sorry. I am sorry.” 

“Fuck sorry.  Fuck all of you that did this to them.” Jungkook walks off down the stairs. As much to escape and get some air as to make sure that creep had gone.

And Jimin sat and cried. Cried his heart out at his dirty secret being known by Jungkook. Cried for everytime Jae used him or anybody else and made him feel helpless and out of control. Tears falling as hard as they should.

Yeon unlocked his door “are you ok? You want to talk?” She asked. Genuinely caring. She always had. Being placed in a hard situation, Jimin didn’t feel any malice towards her. Knowing it best that you have to do what you have to to survive. A thought process he knows only too well.

“I’m ok. I’ll calm myself in a minute. Jungkook knows about Midnight? He may as well read my file now. Let him know when you see him. Ok?” 

“You let him know. He’s going to need to work through some stuff himself isn’t it? Your weekend pass starts tomorrow night. If he can’t go, I will. Ok? At least you have that to look forwards to”

“Ok I’ll talk to him and ask if he still wants to study me. It got... complicated. So easy when I could hide my worst fears.  Now I just feel like I’ve let him down.”

Yeon grabs something off a cart as it passes and hands the packets to Jimin. Wrapped pancakes and syrup pouches. Chocolate spreads in small pots.  A handful to make him happy.

“Go eat your breakfast and be strong, Jungkook is a professional. he will understand that maybe his subject isn’t as straight cut as he thought but he’ll understand. He’s a kind soul. We would never have exposed you to him if we didn’t believe he was made for this”

Jimin’s brow creases a little at hearing they picked him for this... For what? But he nods as he puts Jungkook’s hoodie on. Pulling the hood up and trying to get that tiny bit of scent that was left on it.

Yeon leaves and Jimin looks out of the doorway. Sighing so loud like his entire body made the noise. The thought of Jungkook knowing about Midnight gnaws at him. Assuming Jungkook stops liking him instantly. Like the shine had fallen off him. Knowing Jungkook will hate him now.

He wants fresh air but doesn't want to bump into Jungkook or worse, Jae. Jimin decides to make a bad move as he opens his window and unpins the chicken wire. Climbing out on the balcony and repining the wire. Managing to close the window down a little so it isn’t fully open and telling everyone he is out there.

As he sits on the messy floor he can see through the railings. He can see Jungkook sitting by the stupidly large fountain that runs all day and is silent all night.

Jimin doesn’t realise Jungkook hasn’t taken his eyes off his room and watched him sneak out and sit down.

Jungkook stands up and looks how he can get to that balcony without others seeing him. He just needs to talk to Jimin without others interrupting him. 

As he looks around he sees his best way. On top of an old outhouse building that leads up to some ivy being trained to climb the walls. Using a trellis to climb to the 2nd floor he climbs over the balcony and gets on his hands and knees.

Crawling through the dirt and bird crap and old plants and leaves and mud he makes his way to Jimin. Avoiding people's windows and presses himself tightly to not be seen.

Jimin thought he had just gone inside and would probably hear him in his room any minute. What he didn’t expect was Jungkook to be crawling toward him like a dirty spiderman, causing Jimin to smile even though his brain really just wants to cry but Jungkook looked so fucking cute.

“What kind of superhero are you? Crapman?” Jimin says in wonder at this man making his way nearer and nearer covered in dirt. 

“The kind that is obviously trying to get sacked” he whispers back and as he finally reaches Jimin he looks so incredibly undeniably happy, they both do. Like it’s automatic to feel this in each other's sphere. 

Jungkook pulls Jimin to him and they hug so very tightly for the first time, Jimin can’t believe how lucky he is to feel this overwhelming kindness after Jae’s cruel words.

“You’re hugging me?” Jimin asked dumbfounded “I thought you would dump me”

“I wish I never had to stop” Jungkook answers as his hand holds the back of Jimin’s head to his chest and his other hand is wrapped around his waist. Fingers digging into him like he holds him so tightly.

“It changes nothing, Hyung”

“Midnight, Jungkookah. I want to explain Please? I’ll feel better if I do” Jimin says. Instantly feeling safe enough to talk truthfully. 

“You don’t have to explain anything to me, I understand it I think without words”

“Jungkook” Do-Yun says as he pushes Jungkook off him and sits back against the wall. 

“If Jimin talks to you about Midnight, Kwang won’t like it. He can’t hear him but he can hear me, I can’t stop Kwang from hurting Jimin sometimes and that's how Jimin gets pain on his belly….” 

Instantly Do-Yun turns to the left and he’s gone but Jungkook really isn’t sure who is sitting next to him right now.

Not Jimin’s face. Not his soft features or his soft gentle eyes. Something fierce like an angry ocean sits with him. Someone he hasn’t met before.

“Jeon Jungkook? Don’t force Jimin to tell you our secrets, The dark is an endless place that I can keep him in forever if I choose to. Do you want me to keep Jimin there?” 

Jungkook shakes his head In wonder at who he was talking to and then it clicked.

“Kwang? Is? Are you Kwang?” Jungkook asked so shocked that he meets him.

“I hate being out here. It smells weird and everybody looks de-formed, so do not make me stay out for long. I do not make threats that I do not keep, If Jimin wants to talk of such things there will be repercussions. I shall inform Do-Yun to keep me informed”

“Kwang? Can you hear Jimin when he speaks? Do-Yun tells you everything? You hurt Jimin? You are responsible for his cuts and bruises?” 

“Making me talk for longer? Do you think that is wise? I do not have to hear Park Jimin to know what he says. Do-Yun knows his place. Yes I take charge of Jimin’s punishment for placing us in danger. He has to learn and that is sometimes not easy. I do not like to do it either but Do-Yun has to learn to keep them in order or I will, I have other work to do. My job is to keep an entire world from crashing into the sky.” 

“Kwang? Can you stop, please? Just for a short while? So I can see If I can get him out of here? It’s impossible if he has fresh wounds.”

“What makes you think we want to get out of here?” Kwang answers he turns to look at Jungkook in the fresh daylight but his face couldn’t be darker. His eyes have sunken in and his brow seems lower. Like he stares from under his eyelids and Jungkook feels a definite chill from him. A real menace to Jimin, possibly both of them.

But he has to try and fight for Jimin.

“Let Jimin come out with me. Just once. I won't take him off you. But let him come out with me in peace this weekend. We won’t discuss leaving here again”

“Bargaining with me? Now we can be on the same level. Ok, deal, take Jimin for the weekend with no interference but If Do-Yun tells me any talk of leaving this comfort for good and I will keep Jimin here with me… in the dark. Understood, Jeon Jungkook?”

A cough happens and the menace of Kwang has gone. Jimins handsome face is untwisted and faultless in its beauty returns. Unaware he has even been gone. 

“Jimin?” Jungkook asks just to be sure. Sometimes Kitten likes to pretend to be Jimin but he always gives it away when he asks for belly rubs. 

“Yeah of course, Did i drift off?” Jimin says as he snuggles into Jungkook’s body that sits so close next to him.

Jungkook knows it’s so dumb but Jimin holding him feels so fucking good, not even sexual just so warm and perfect.

Jimin speaks fast, When he speaks about his system he always does.  He wants Jungkook to understand.

“I’ve never met Midnight, I…” Jungkook interrupts Jimin quickly. Feeling the menace of Kwangs words. 

“Jimin, I don’t think some want you to talk to me about Midnight. You may get in trouble”

 “Ah… Do-yun said so? I can whisper He doesn’t have to hear me,  I need to tell you this. You are so important to me. Gukkie, I want you to know. But Midnight…I had no idea he existed for so long until I kept finding food, Hidden in my room and I didn’t know how or why and it kept happening and then Jae told me. He asked for Midnight instead of me because I wouldn’t let him touch me. Fucker dangled a chocolate bar infront of me like it would make Midnight jump out in 3D.” 

“You have no idea? That can happen?” Jungkook asks.

“Yeah, I think theres 2 that I haven't met, It could be more. Midnight and Kwang. No ones met Kwang though. He doesn’t front, Do-Yun told me. Kitten is scared of him a lot though so sometimes I know that he is near us when Kitten hides or cries but Do-Yun told us Kwang keeps order, keeps us safe.”

Jungkook won’t cause Jimin more problems by saying he met Kwang, 

It wont help him in anyway 

“So Jae forced himself on you and they did nothing for so long? Thats… what kind of place is this? How is it so corrupt?”

“Not me, on Midnight, although I feel shame about it but I never actually did that. As far as I know Jae has never touched me but others. I stand up for others. This place? I think they see a few bad apples as ok so long as they can treat the majority well. You know? Like a misguided sacrificial belief”

“Can you keep Midnight away from me? Is that possible? I don’t want to meet him, I want you, I’ll look out for all of you. I’ll protect you all but I want you. Understood? We’ve got better things than Jae to think of. You ready for our weekend escape? My lil study buddy” 

Jungkook pokes Jimin’s side with is elbow teasingly 

“I can try to keep him from you. I’ll speak to Do-Yunah, I’m so fucking excited. Just to get out of here with you and I never thought you would ever like someone like me and tomorrow it’s just us, I can’t wait. I asked my uncle for the tickets but he said no so I’ll just get them when we get there. It shouldn’t be sold out. As far as he knows I was refused travel and can’t leave, Lee and Yeon play along to help me. Us. They like you too hmm? Uncle thinks I will show up at his work and embarrass his shareholders.” 

Jimin sounds so excited like a child at christmas, barely able to contain himself.

“Yeah, Lee wants me to stay here and maybe take a role on staff after I finish Uni for good.He already wants me to stay on section 2. Are you sure you are ok at my place? I can rent you a hotel for 2 nights instead” 

“No , Please Gukkie. I want some comfort. Home comfort. I miss being in a home no matter how fucking awful it is” Implying he even misses his parents home.

“one day then. It’s a date.. I mean.. Not a date but you know…” Jungkook looks down at Jimin snuggled into his side 

“Fuck it. It’s a date” Jungkook laughed a little and Jimin smiled as they sat there. Both staring out from the dirty balcony in a place they shouldn’t be.

They jump from one conversation to another as they try to fit in months worth of conversation in these few stolen minutes together. Used to the flow of their private talks now they don’t get confused anymore.

“Can you play with Kitten a little inside? He’s been peeking around at you for so long it hurts my eyes now” Jimin asks giggling a little as he pops up to stealthily remove the chicken wire pins again and slips inside followed by Jungkook who goes to the desk and takes some ribbon to play with.

Jimin crouches down and Kitten arrives. Smiling eyes nearly closed with his full fat cheeks looking so cute as he preens himself for a second by licking the side of his hand and rubbing it over his nose until the ribbon Jungkook trails catch his eye and he stalks it like it’s prey

As Jungkook drags it along the floor, Kitten scrambles to get it. Using his paws to clasp the material as it slips through. Giggling and rolling around as Jungkook starts to tickle his belly.  Moving his hand fast as Kitten tries to catch his fingers. Both laugh for maybe 5 minutes before Yeon looks around the door frame, watching for a moment as Kitten giggles and his eyes dart so fast to keep up with the ribbon 

“Kitten? Can I borrow Jungkookah, please?” Yeon nods at Jungkook and says “Ben” and walks out. Jungkook says sorry and strokes Kitten's nose up and down a little along the bridge as he purrs and rubs his head across Jungkook’s hand. 

“Tell Jimin I’ll be back for the hoodie, Ok. kitten?” 

“Me-ow” Kitten says and holds a paw up to say goodbye.

Jungkook walks to the rec tables where others had been doing crafts, to help with Ben who was in the middle of a triggered episode.  Holding another patient by his hair and refusing to let go.

“He has a knife? I saw it up his sleeve. He has a knife for me” Ben says as he tightens his grip on the other patient's hair. 

Causing pain as he twists it and the poor target starts to cry as he pats his sleeves saying “Benny? Look? Nothing”

Jungkook holding his hands out in front of him “Ben, Let's talk shall we? Can we go somewhere quieter? Just you and me and talk? Do-ya says he has no Knife and I believe him. Can we talk about it?”

“You want to talk to me? You fucking pricks want to talk to me? Want to make me feel better? More meds? More meds for me because I’m a fucking idiot, more meds” 

“We can discuss your meds. We can talk about anything you like. Ben? Just Let go of his hair and come away from here. Me and you. Let's go and grab a drink. What would you like to drink? Some juice? Sprite?” 

Jungkook slowly moves towards Ben, as he was trained to do. Trying to get all his attention and take it off the clump of hair he grips.

“I want a beer. A fucking beer. Is that so hard? One beer to enjoy in front of the tv?” Ben says but he seems to be calming down. His grip loosens and his hostage runs from him to Yeon.

“Ok. beer. Let's go” Ben says as he walks toward Jungkook. Towering over him and everyone else in this unit Jungkook wasn’t easily intimidated but Ben was made like a mountain and as he got to Jungkook he grabbed him instead.

Holding Jungkook around his neck with one arm Ben walks forward causing Jungkook to walk forward too although really if he didn’t use his legs he would still move forward.

Jungkook pauses his reactions as he knows he could easily take Ben down eventually but not without hurting him and in the middle of an episode it really wasn’t fair to do that.

“Ben, Please. let's walk together like adults. You don’t need to carry me, I want a beer too.” Jungkook tried his hardest to take charge of the situation. 

“I don’t drink. Let's go, I want to leave like Jimin” Ben answers bluntly. No feeling was detected in his voice. Like a robot had taken over.

As they walk down the long corridor Jungkook starts to panic a little bit as his airways start to tighten up with the power of Ben's forearm pressed around his neck.

The panic rises more when he sees Jimin step out of his room wearing angel wings. A small crowd gathers behind Jungkook. Trying not to make the situation more volatile, Yeon starts to quietly lead people to their rooms to be locked in.

“Benjamin, where are you taking my baby?” Jimin asks Ben and he stands still.

“JungkookSsi is your baby, Angel?” Ben asks as he loosens his grip but still holds Jungkook captive.

“He is my angel baby and you need to give him back to me. Do you know how sad I will be If I don’t have my baby? Do you want to make the Angel so sad?” 

Ben was muttering to himself as he kept looking at a passed-out Jungkook, who passed the point he could help himself, under his arm and then back at Angel Jimin who doesn’t let himself have any facial expression. Ben finds them confusing.

Jimin doesn’t look in Bens eyes. Knowing he hates it, Knowing how to treat Ben after being unit buddies for so long. As all things, it was pretty easy to help him and calm it if you know how. 

Within seconds of this whole event happening, Ben was calmed by Jimin.

“Ok. take the Baby JungkookSsi back. Sorry, Angel. Sorry. I’ll go to sleep now.”

Ben lets Jungkook go and his body flops to the floor, Limited air for so long but it takes all of Jimin’s strength not to run to him.

Instead he has to step over Jungkooks body on the floor trying to get air in He takes hold of Ben's hand and they walk off into Ben's room.  Jimin settles him in his bed before closing his door gently as he backs out of the room. The electronic lock clicked instantly.

“Everyone lockdown. Inside now.” the unit orderly says as she starts to usher people into their rooms. 

Jimin walks past her to Jungkook whos being helped by Yeon. Jimin kneels down next to Jungkook and strokes his hair gently.

“Gukkie? You Ok? Don’t be scared anymore” Jungkooks eyes start to regain focus and he holds Jimin's shoulder as he kneels down and squeezes it gently. 

“Room now. Lockdown” The orderly states as she gets closer to Jimin. He’s the only client left outside of his room and he looks around in disbelief that she asks him to go 

“No. fuck off” Jimin says as he sits down next to Jungkook on the floor. Not even looking at the orderly.

“Park Jimin. Room now. Do as you are told” she says again this time snatching Jimin up by his arm.

Jimin shook her off and sat back down “ I said fuck off. Now fuck off” 

Yeon sighs “Jimin. for now, do as you are asked, please? We can sort out the rest when everyone is calmer, I won’t keep you in for long. We need to assess Ben and have him safe too.”

“For the second time, I am going to help this one and be locked up for it? I said fuck off and i meant fuck off” Jimin sits with his arms folded across his chest. No way he was going to move.

Jungkook looks at Yeon and the orderly. Hiding his true thoughts he says 

 “Jiminie? Thank you for saving me, But for now? please? Go in your room. I’ll come and see you when my shift ends.” Jungkook says clearly and then a muffled voice at the end says “trust me?” more of a question than demand  but Jimin couldn’t process it

And Jimin feels it like a stab in the heart, here? In front of all these people, he closes him down and makes him feel worthless. Jungkook out of everyone in the entire fucking world. Why isn’t he telling them to back off? Why tell Jimin to?

All Jimin can think of is why he trusted him. Why did he bother to trust anybody? Let down every fucking time. Let down and starved in every way possible. Every . fucking . Time . 

Jimin’s mind is in a free fall. 

A dead man's drop without a parachute. Going to hit the floor hard. Going to crash into the floor and all because he cared.

Jimin slipped away like a flower in the shade. Do-Yun fronting and thanking everybody for their time. Bowing as he left. Smiling at Jungkook so politely.

Getting to Jimin’s room he turns and gives his final bow and steps inside.

The hour's pass and Jimin slips back as the core, sitting quietly and staring at the door, he sees Jungkook leave the unit without saying goodbye. Nobody came to talk to him and nobody came to let him out. The anger welling up inside him seems to eat at Jimin only. 

But something inside him was being fed well. Jimin had the feeling something was loving this, Feeding off his anguish and thoughts, being proven right maybe?

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By 2 am Jimin had been let out to go to the bathroom once. 

Do-yun fronted, refusing to talk to anybody or let them talk to Jimin, Being told Jimin’s weekend pass was revoked after this outburst.

Do-Yun ignored everyone's stares after being given the news as he made his way back to Jimin’s room.

Writing the revoked news in their diary for Jimin to read before he sat down in case he wasn’t coconscious.

Sitting back underneath the window where Jimin had been sitting for hours. Just staring at the door as he leans up the wall.

Jimin fronted as soon as Do-Yun heard the click of the lock again and true safety was around him.

He’d heard the orderly telling Do-Yun the pass was cancelled. Jimin wasn’t shocked. As nice as the idea was, he never expected to actually be able to leave. Knowing something would fuck it up.

So he went back to his deeper thoughts. Intrusive obsessing energy stealing truth bending thoughts, 

Disgusted and angry and not really understanding why Jungkook has treated him so badly and let him feel so shit in front of everyone, he didn’t even say goodbye like he said he would. Not even walking past the room Jungkook took the elevator at the other end. 

Jimin clutches his hair in his fingers as he thinks. Two bundles held tightly and got tighter the more upset he felt.

To be somebody's person you have to stand up for them, right? You are meant to look out for them and take care of them like Jimin had to Jungkook, right?

He replays the whole thing over and over until his mind is stretched so thin that it's all he can think of.

Trying to work out where he went wrong, How he can make it better. Ways to find Jungkook and explain but explain what? What has he done? Had he embarrassed him by helping with Ben? Maybe it was that. Not that. Jungkook would be proud. Was it because he had stepped over him to help Ben? Fuck knows. 

His brain turns to noodles as it weaves and ties itself up into teeny tiny tight little knots and there's so many of them they all tangle up and distort and become one massive ball of hopelessness.

No rest, just constant overthinking until he growls with angry frustration.

intermingled with the occasional but brief comforting thought of feeling Jungkook’s arms around him on the balcony, but now even that was making him angry.

Why did he let him touch him? Put that thought in his head that everything could be made ok in those arms. If he had those arms around him making him safe and untouchable and wanted.

More growls.

Jimin was confused and scared, so scared he would never see Jeon Jungkook again. Even as his nurse. Jungkook would be so sick of his shit and all the nonsense that came with him.

Really not understanding anything except how sad he felt. He understood sadness having felt it so often it brought its own comfort to him.

He carried on staring at the locked door. Wishing it would set on fire and burn through. To just not be locked in. Just hated the door was there at all.

By 2.30 am Jimin was yawning but still refusing to sleep. Staring like he can force Jungkook to come through that locked door and explain himself. Working out exactly what he would say to him. How stern and angry he would be and make Jungkook realise he hurt him so badly as he turns his back on him and yells at him to leave. Going over and over his plan. Willing him to somehow hear him and feel him.

And then he did feel it, the thing that made him jump out of his fucking skin with a  yelp was Jungkook’s fingers touching his hair through the open window

Expecting a spider, not a human hand.

“Jungkookie?” as Jimin moved his body to look behind him he saw Jungkook falling through his open window over the top of him. Chicken wire bends around his body as he lands on the floor trying not to kick Jimin’s body as he fell on his back. 

Jimin squealed he was so fucking happy.  Jumping on top of Jungkook with his legs on either side, Jimin bent down, and planted so many tiny kisses on Jungkooks face whispering “thank you” over and over. So many Jungkook couldn’t have kept count. 

Such delicate little touches with his soft lips as Jungkook’s arms wrap around Jimin's waist and he holds him there enjoying this attention.

Jimin finally stops drowning Jungkook in kisses and sits up. Finding Jungkook's hands and holding them in his own. Fingers entwined in each other, it felt like the biggest blanket of calm had been placed around them both. 

“I was going to fight you if you came near me, but this? Only you could make me feel anything different than anger right now. Only you, Gukkie”

Jimin giggled a little. Thinking only a minute ago all his anger and thoughts.

“Wrestling is fighting, this counts. Don’t feel bad” Jungkook says as he clutches Jimin’s hands tighter and waves them. Making Jimin laugh and Jungkook smiled so hard hearing it. Only a few hours but he had missed that noise so much.

“Jiminah. Grab some stuff. Let's go. I’ll take you to mine until we can sort this out but this place isn't right. I can’t stand them withdrawing your weekend pass because you stood up for me and yourself or Ben putting you in danger and I need you above everyone to be safe. Let's go. Bring your angel wings, we might need them.”

Jimin packs some stuff in the same bags he used the first day he was sent here. All his clothes and diaries and craft-making stuff.

All fit in the same bag, making Jimin a little sad saying out loud “Two years and nothing changed, the same going out as coming in”

“You’ve got me. I don’t fit in a bag. What more do you need?” Jungkook smiles at Jimin as he opens the window wider and waits for Jimin to throw his bag out there.

Jimin was brought here with that same bag two years ago and told it was his own free will to be here, As they locked him in a soft room as the tranquilisers started to wear off. 

His uncle demanded through donations and funding withdrawal threats that Jimin be kept here. For long-term assessments. For his own good.

Ideally, until the gossip columnist receives his payment and drops his threatened article.

Jimin has one leg out of the window looking up at the camera

“Gukkie? They see us?  Are you sure? What about Uni? I can’t let you do this.” 

Jimin stares at Jungkook in the darkness of the room, stepping back in.

silence in the entire unit creating such feelings of them and us. Only them awake. Only them alive right now. Just them two versus the world. 

Jungkook stops keeping watch at the door and moves to Jimin. 

Taking his chin in his thumb and finger. Holding him gently to look up at him “cameras don’t matter. I’m going to take care of us. I don’t care about Uni. I’ll work anywhere. I’ll do anything, come with me? Let me take care of you as you take care of me?”

Jungkook bites his bottom lip. Finding loose skin to nervously wait for Jimin to respond.

And he does.

Jimin holds onto Jungkook by pinching his sleeves so he can tiptoe up to him and as Jungkook goes to speak Jimin quietens him by kissing his lips for the first time. 

Jimin keeps his eyes open for a second to make sure Jungkook is ok as their lips touch and when he feels the softness of Jungkook kissing him back his eyes close with no choice. The taste of Jungkook is everything Jimin had been imagining in this darkened room every night since he met him.

Warm soft lips, as Jimin's lips first touched, were slightly open and closed delicately as he kissed, both of them hearing the most beautiful noise between them in this dead silence of a room. Just them.

Jungkook seemed scared to move from the kiss in case he destroyed the feeling but he wanted to hold Jimin so tightly that he lifted him up, Jimin wrapped his legs around his hips as Jungkook walked forward, holding Jimin under his ass as he pushed him against the door. Not hard. Just in place and Jungkook takes over the pace of the kiss.

Jimin felt his lips part and Jungkook’s tongue gently lick over his top lip, Jimin tasting his saliva instantly making his taste buds come alive like it tasted colours. Each lick created another colour until Jimin’s mind was bursting with brightness.

  Tasting Jungkook, making his senses spiral and so eager to get more his own tongue finds its way into Jungkook's mouth causing them to instantly pick up the pace as he holds Jungkook’s face to his.

They twist their tongues around each other and Jungkook still lifting Jimin up but takes one hand and his fingers move through Jimin’s hair, moving to his cheeks, then moving to his lips as they kiss, his fingers need to touch the perfect lips that kiss his,

like he needs to make sure it is real.

Jimin felt his hand on his skin. Feeling his fingers in his hair and Jungkook’s nails dragging down his back until he again puts both hands around his ass.

They kiss so wildly that they forget all around them and where they are or why they have ended up like this. Just their purest thoughts for each other. Nobody else matters. Nobody can feel how they feel.

Jimin pulls away to breathe first. A spit trail ties them as it glistens in the moonlight that shines through the window that becomes their escape route, still feeling Jungkook’s warm breath on his wet lips.

“Gukkie? Are you sure? You really want me? And this?” 

“Jiminah? I can’t imagine my life without you in it. I can’t think of a time when I didn’t want you or think about you or need you. All that you are doesn’t scare me. I’ll take all the sadness and every bit of happiness gladly so long as it’s me and you. My worst days with you still outshine my best days without you. I promise. If it’s you and me then it’s you and fucking me. Nothing can stop that. Are you ready? We have a weekend to enjoy.”

Jimin’s dewy-eyed smile finds Jungkook’s heart and he nods as he understands as Jungkook puts him down. Jimin takes a last look around this room that's been a comfortable prison for so long now and they run.

Jungkook led the way down the balcony, carrying Jimin’s bag on his back as he quietly showed him where to hold and what to stand on.

As he jumped down from the small building and their last obstacle together Jungkook caught Jimin as he took that last leap down and swung him around. Adrenalin sprints through their veins together as it hits them, they are free.

Finally, Jungkook lets Jimin down.

Jimin held his hand out and Jungkook held it tightly, they entwined their fingers as they started their escape.

They can’t help but giggle as they run and look back as gentle rain falls around them and the glow of street lamps light their way.

“Gukkie? I’m so fucking happy i could die right now and not care” Jimin says as they slow down to a fast walk and Jungkook once again pulls Jimin in to kiss him as he keeps walking. Holding Jimin by his waist as his feet trip up on his converse. Skipping along.

“No dying allowed ever, ever, immortal. ok?”

“oK, Boss” Jimin says, pretending to salute. 

As Jungkook makes a call to his friend he wipes the rain from Jimin’s face as they stand still, Glowing in the street lights, his blonde hair has raindrops gathering at the tips before they fall onto his cheeks and his lips slightly shiver as the rain wets his skin.

Jungkook felt overpowered by how handsome Jimin is. Realising he hasn’t seen him in different lights or this air or outside that place at all and it intrigues him how their future will be full of seeing Jimin like new. Finally being able to know who he is.

Jungkook stands behind Jimin and back hugs him. Hunching over him slightly to protect him from the rain that falls a little harder. Making Jimin swap and back hug Jungkook instead 

“Let Hyung keep you safe and dry” Jimin says as he wraps his arms tighter over Jungkook’s shoulders. Although slightly smaller framed than Jungkook he can still keep him dry.

A few moments later Jungkook’s best friend pulls up. 

A plump man with a bad haircut in joggers and a loose t-shirt, so cute looking he could be a living teddy bear. Big round eyes and bread cheeks. Adorable. He’s eating snickers as he stops and they jump in the back seat.

Jungkook takes the snickers and takes a bite and gives the rest to Jimin.

“Jimin, Jonjo. Jonjo…. Jimin”  Jungkook said as he got in the back seat with Jimin and wrapped his arms around him as Jimin melted into his side like he was made to fit there.

“Do I even want to know why I am collecting you two at 3 am and Jimin has a bag? Or shall we just find somewhere open late and get some food?”

“FOOOOOD” Jimin splutters shooting snickers bits at the back of Jonjo’s head and then remembers he has to control it and says to a shocked Jonjo “food” in a much quieter gentler voice with a cute smile and Jungkook laughs as he shouts “FOOOOOOOOD” and Jonjo jumps out of his skin again

“Why scare me? Let's go eat. I take it we should eat back at yours? Ahh, I know where will be open. That dive bar… It will have noodles, soju and chicken to take out.” 

10 minutes later Jimin is hanging from Jonjo’s car window eating chicken and shouting. Yelling how happy he is. How he is Jungkook’s. How they can’t stop them. 

The wind flaps him in the face as he smiles so broadly and he shouts more and more as he nibbles the fried chicken. Like he is drunk on nothing but freedom.

Jungkook is sitting with his hand holding Jimin’s waistband to make sure he doesn’t slip as he listens to how excited he is.

Jonjo keeps trying to drive but looking behind to Jungkook to get him in

“Baby? Come back in before JJ has a heart attack, please?”

Jimin falls back into the car and takes another piece of chicken. Sucking every bit off the wing, leaving only a bone. Jungkook took the bone off Jimin and with nowhere else to put it he pops it in his pocket.

Finally pulling up outside of Jungkook’s place.

Jimin sat looking out of the car window. Night time is still around them but he can see the flowers and the colours and he wants to cry with how happy he is. How fucking pretty it all is.

Feeling so much blood pumping around his body as it hits him he isn’t in a clinic. For the first time in so many years he wasn’t in a clinic.

He runs up and walks back down and runs back up the stairs and slides down the bannister and Jungkook and JJ stare at him. Jungkook lightly sucking his bottom lip as he looks and JJ hits him in his chest to snap out of it.

“He’ll wake the whole neighbourhood up”

Jungkook understands and takes Jimin’s bag. Asked JJ to carry the huge bag of chicken and beer they have.

They all walk back up the stairs together. Excited giggles and squeals from Jimin as he notices different things. Like the landlady's tiny fairies she hides in plant pots. Jimin is transfixed by one in particular that sits on the plant pot edge looking like it sulks.

Jungkook finally opens his front door and Jimin walks in first. Takes a deep breath as he does, Saying “MMMMMmmmm Gukkie!” as he smells Jungkook in there, everything makes him so happy.

“You wanna tell me what's happening?” Jonjo asks again at the sight of this grown man so excited just to walk upstairs.

Jungkook flopped onto the beanbag on the floor and grabbed more chicken out to eat.

JJ just gets giggles back as Jungkook pulls Jimin down to sit on his lap and has to fight Jimin off a few times when he tries to sneakily eat Jungkook’s fried chicken. Every time he gets caught Jungkook rolls his eyes and moves his food away silently even though Jimin has a chicken breast in his hand.

Jungkook feels Jimin’s legs come up higher like he crouches on his lap and knows Kitten is here as he climbs off his lap and puts the chicken on the table.

Explaining this to his friend will be hard work and he isn’t sure just to keep quiet but instantly his mind changes to why should they be ashamed? Nothing Jimin could do would make him feel ashamed.

“Jonjo. Meet Kitten” Jungkook says and Kitten looks at Jonjo quizzically and Jonjo looks at Jungkook just as quizzically.

Kitten slowly makes his way to Jonjo. Sniffing as he moves. Sitting for a second before he took the last step and just glared into Jonjo’s soul. Like all asshole cats do.  

Kitten obviously comes out to check on Jonjo and the surroundings. Kitten was often the assessor to make sure, despite Jimin saying he was ok that he really was. No danger is detected when Kitten can relax and play. Do-Yun was happy to let Kitten take this role.

‘Kitten is part of Jimin’s system and lives with Jimin’s found family. Jimin has Multiple personality traits or disasso…” 

“Eyeyey I know what DIDs is. We were in the same classes. Oh wait.. Jimin is a patient?” Jonjo asks as he flaps his hand to Jungkook to both shut up but also answer.

“It’s a long story. He isn’t a patient. He's a private client and that's different apparently.  Paid for by a relative that I guess tries to keep Jimin silent. hidden"

“Ah oki. So probably nothing to worry about if a rich angry relative knows Jimin escaped and threatens his livelihood. Simple, yeah…This is fine” Jonjo said sarcastically.

“If we just keep quiet he won’t bother to look I think. We can just disappear maybe”

Jonjo nods and notices Kitten staring at his belly when he moves.

Kitten moves forward and pokes Jonjo’s belly. Sees it wibble wobble and giggles so much he can hardly breathe with how lovely it looks to him as it ripples under his shirt. He keeps prodding Jonjo as Jungkook tries to talk to him like Kitten finds a hidden toy under Jonjo’s shirt.

More prodding and Jonjo tries to Hold Kitten's paw still in his hand but Kitten just looks at him with bewilderment and prods with his other paw. More giggles until Kitten is laughing hysterically to himself. Curled up by Jonjo’s legs as he sits on the floor by the table and Kitten keeps prodding and batting his tummy.

“Kookah.. Please? Your friend?” Jonjo says as he tries to hold Kitten's paws still without hurting him. Making Kitten meow in a tiny protest taking Jonjo by surprise.

“Ok, well you are the cutest… Ok. honey… You win... Cutie… But stop prodding me. I know I jiggle. I am self conscious of it.” Jonjo pats Kittens head and stops as he looks at Jungkook to help him.

Kitten prods again and laughs and bats Jonjos belly more and more, a little mew now and then as he looks at Jungkook as if to say have you seen this? It’s great! 

“Kitten? Is it OK if Jimin comes out for a little while please? I need to show him something.”

Kitten laughs and says “Oki, I live here now Junggukie? yes.” In the cutest way possible and nods his head a little with a shake as he crouches down and Jimin’s back and smiles.

“Kitten behaved? I heard him laughing a lot. I was worried he had seen someone fall off a chair”  Jimin says as he smiles politely at Jonjo but moves back away from him with a frown.

“Kitten sat with Jonjossi?” He whispered to Jungkook “He blocked me seeing I could just hear him.”

“Aye. he liked his wobbly belly a lot” Jungkook said 

JJ sighed deeply and eye rolled to the ceiling hard.

“Sorry, Jonjo, He doesn’t mean to be rude. He has no idea of body image or being rude or anything bad. He saw you I guess just for what you are. Cuddly loveliness” 

Jonjo smiled loudly despite himself. Repeating “Cuddly loveliness?” so happily as he had never been told that before. 

“I asked for you to come out. sorry. I forgot to show you something I planned for Saturday”  Jungkook remembered excitedly his plans “Jonjo wait here a few minutes?” 

Jonjo nods and helps himself to another beer and watches tv, Prodding his own tummy for a second to see it ripple and Pulling his t-shirt baggy.

Jungkook takes Jimin’s hand and leads him to the closed bedroom door.

“Ok. close your eyes, ok? Don't open until I say. Is that ok?”

Jimin nods and closes his eyes. His lips licked and sparkling and juicy and for a second Jungkook gets lost in looking at them in this peaceful time.

Remembering He finally opens the bedroom door and walks Jimin in.

“Ok. remember I said it was a date? And then I thought for a date we need good clothes and remember once when we danced to that group in the suits? And they all looked so hot. And I wanted us to look hotter. So… open your eyes.”

Jimin opened his eyes and stared at two tuxedos hanging up. Two black tuxedos with their untied bowties hanging over the shoulder. Two white crisp shirts hang inside the suits and the ticket for the last performance sits in each of their handkerchief pockets.

Jimin gulps. Lost for words for a second as he thinks how beautiful Jungkook will look in his suit.

“We wear them to the performance? Together? Kkyu?” Jimin melts before Jungkook’s eyes as Jimin takes his hand and holds it between both of his.

“You are so overwhelming and thoughtful, I can't believe you thought like this about us and made this happen, Gukkie? It’s too perfect, isn’t it? It’s too beautiful of you”

“I promise I’ll do anything to keep you happy. This is the first in a long and happy future. If You’ll let me?” Jungkook moves into Jimin’s space and caresses his ear lobe as he rests his hand on his shoulder.

Jimin gulps down his emotions, eyes sparking brightly as he stares into Jungkook’s eyes. His voice in a low whisper so only they hear it

“Gukkah, No one has ever… ever wanted me to be anything let alone theirs and the first time it happens for me it’s with someone so special as you? How have I been so lucky? After all this time It's Like you are my prize finally for having a shit life. Does it work that way? Am I allowed to be happy now?”

Jungkook kisses Jimin’s lips so sweetly. Delicate as always in his he shows his care.

“You're so happy? You feel it? We can do this, Jiminie. Me and you can make this the happiest life ever.”

Jungkook doesn’t know why but tears start to flood his eyes and he tries to look away but some fall down his cheeks and then before he can stop it an endless flow drops from his eyes.

“Jungkookah? Why? It’s ok. I’m sorry? Shall I get kitten? Gukkie. Sorry. I’m sorry. No tears. My baby? No tears, It's ok? Are you sad? Gukkie?”

Jungkook sits on his bed and Jimin stands in front of him wiping his tears with Jungkook’s own hoodie with his sweater paws.

“I can’t understand people that treated you so badly when all I want to do is treat you like a king, Like a priceless find that makes me want to cherish you. I don’t get it. I don’t understand them”

Jimin sits next to Jungkook on the edge of the bed, able to take charge of the conversation after years of thinking about it every day

“think logically, Kkyu. That's exactly why you don’t understand. That's why you want to give and feel care or be cherished or maybe loved. Because you aren’t them, You can never understand what they did, and neither should you. Their cruelty… I can tell you every day the bits I remember or the bits Do-Yun told me about but I can never explain how two people met and became what they became.”

Jimin thinks for a second. Deep in his own head. Answering questions in his mind but all answers lead to the same thing.

“You can read my file” Jimin says “it won’t help you understand them but now it’s us you might see things you need to know about me, But. right now… Gukkie? can we go back out because I think Jonjo is going to eat all My chicken” Jimin frowned deeply as he says it. The genuine fear that Jonjo eats his food creates an uncomfortable feeling he used to get a lot when first in a clinic. 

Jungkook smiled. Endeared to this Jimin so much to this warrior of food. 

“I heard him say he was going to take some home with him, in his pockets” Jungkook said teasing Jimin with the straightest face ever

“THAT MOTHER FUCKER” Jimin shouted out and Jungkook laughed so hard he fell of the edge of the bed and hit the floor, his one hand sticking up trying to hold onto Jimin’s leg to stop him running in to hunt through Jonjo’s pockets.

“You tease me? You teaseee me?” Jimin moaned cutely as he fell on top of Jungkook's lap. Both sitting on the floor laughing.

“Aye, But look at that face when it gets teased. It’s so incredibly sweet I want to lick it.” 

“Lick me?” Jimin said. No longer laughing.

“Well…ye” Jungkook stops laughing too and gets so flustered he can’t look Jimin in the eye.

Jungkook clears his throat 

“Jonjo... Food. shall we?” 

Jimin nods and looks down and smiles to himself.  Understanding there's nothing to stop them from being with each other, Only themselves and makes him radiate with how sexy and in control it makes him feel. 

Finally, a person who is his? Not kittens or Midnights but his? Wants him for him. It feels so good to honestly believe someone wants him for himself for once. 

Jungkook heads back out but sees Jonjo really has eaten all the food.

Jimin looked around the table. Looking in the empty chicken bag. Looked at the plates like it might have gone invisible. Perplexed as he looks to Jungkook to help him.

Jimin’s confusion turns to understanding as he looks at Jungkook and starts to cry a little. Tiny sobs at first.  The more he sees the food has gone the more he can’t quite stop himself and his sobs turn to stifled breaths but then he just can’t hold back anymore and loud wailing starts as Jimin points at his empty plate that just has chicken bones left on it.

Jonjo has a mouthful of noodles that he swallows so fast not even knowing why. He stares at Jimin and then back at Jungkook. Unsure of what's happening.

Muttering to himself that he's sorry but he has no idea why as Jimin cries so loudly.

“Wait… Jimin? Look?” Jungkook calls Jimin over to the kitchen counter and Jimin walks over still crying and staring between Jonjo and the empty food cartons. Huge tears falling from his face over the food he had taken. 

As he walks he mutters all the things he had planned as he still sobbed and cried.

 “I would have … eaten some more… and then...*sob sob*... I would  *sob*... Have.. wrapped... Some… *sob sob sniff*. Chicken… and saved it. *sob* ... For when I ...woke up... And it tasted… So good and…” 

He stands still for a second and stares hard at Jonjo before Jungkook calls him again to bring him out of the spiral he’s on the edge of.

more tears fall that can’t be stopped.

Until Jungkook opens his cupboards and fridge. Opened them all up and leaves the doors open. Showed Jimin all the foods Jungkook had deliberately been buying for them for the last two weeks. Stocking up for Jimin.

“Look Jiminie?” Jimin shuts up. Little hiccups escaping without his control as he walks towards the fridge and sees all the foods piled up. His fingers reach in there and as he looks in the cupboard he fingers the packets of fresh vegetables and noodles and kimchi and sweets. Endless sweets and the cupboards are full of snacks and rice and noodles. So many snacks Jimin smiles at how much Jungkook thought all of this out. 

Everything he does makes Jimin fall harder.

Felt so understood for possibly the first time ever. 

Jungkook made even his deepest fears seem harmless.

“All mine. Gukkie? All for me?” Jimin said as Jonjo stood up looking so shocked at everything he just witnessed. 

Feeling sorry for Jimin who's obviously been through so much. Jungkook was right to protect him, but he wishes he had spoken or even been pre-warned so he didn't fuck up like he just did but even Jonjo noticed this bond was different. It stood out as special. 

Delicately woven from tiny strands of all the good Jungkook is and all the care Jimin needs.

“All yours. My darling. All for you.” Jungkook said as his phone started to ring. 

“Ah, so it starts,” Jimin said as Jungkook took his phone and stared at the screen for a long second before answering, Jimin keeps touching the packets. Counting what he has and puts small packets of stuff in his jeans pocket. Listening to Jungkook on the phone.

“Hello? YeonNim? No, I haven't seen him. I'm not at work today. Ohhh ..the camera? Disconnected? Weird… no I didn’t notice when I checked… Oki? Ask them to check the gym maybe? I’m going back to sleep if you don’t mind. My day off means I can finally sleep in” 

Jungkook holds the phone away from his face and covers the mics on it. Pulling his lips into his mouth like he just told the worst lie and it hits him why he lied.

Going back to the call “Yeah. no problem, I’ll call if I hear anything but I doubt I will. We fell out just before I left yesterday.” Jungkook looks at Jimin and smiles. It finally makes sense to Jimin why Jungkook treated him like that.

He ends the call and triple-checks that the call is actually ended. Before he speaks and when he does speak his voice is oddly high-pitched as he says

“Oh fuck mee. Fuck.. Fuck… ok... Ok... I got this... I’m off work for 3 days anyway so... Yeah. this is ok... Right, you two? ... this is ok? Right?”

Jungkook looks at Jimin and Jonjo, desperately trying to force them into calming his nerves.

“You handled that so well, My baby. You did so well. They would never think I am here. Never” Jimin smiles as positively as he can and Jonjo nods and points at Jimin and says “yes” and that was it.

“Great… ok.. Ok.. I’m so tired all of a sudden. I need to sleep. JJ sleep here?” Jonjo nods and is already pulling out the mattress roll and blankets from the cupboard. Jungkook takes Jimin’s hand and leads him to his bedroom

“Goodnight, JJ. sorry about crying. Just.. don’t eat my food.. Ok? Ever again.. Never?” Jimin smiled so sweetly as Jonjo let the chicken wing he had been holding in his hand now fall to the floor by his foot, hoping Jimin didn’t see it.

Jungkook pulled Jimin into the room and Jimin closed the door.

“You can take the bed. I’ll sleep on the floor here.” Jungkook says but as Jimin says “No, you can share the bed with me” Jungkook answers “ok” too fast like he was hoping those words would be said.

Jungkook goes to his drawer and pulls out boxers, he takes some out for Jimin and holds them up, Jimin shakes his head as he drinks from a bottle of water, after saying “I don’t wear clothes to sleep”

Jungkook nods saying “I just wear shorts. Is that ok? I can wear more if you want me to?”

The daylight starts to come through the edges of the pulled curtains and Jungkook tucks them in so it goes darker again as he strips off his clothes. His body is exposed for Jimin to see and he hears a loud gulp behind him as he takes off his jeans and puts on clean shorts.

He lies back on the bed. Waiting for Jimin to get undressed too, Jimin sits in the edge of the bed making crinkling noises under his hoodie.

“Baby? You have food under your shirt?” Jungkook asked gently

Jimin answers quietly “Errr…. Just in case.. Just some cheese and some dumplings and some Gimbap. Should i put them back? Sorry”

“No, It’s ok. It’s good to have bedroom snacks, right? It’s ok. Come to bed”

Jimin sighs happily. He starts to undress properly and stands before Jungkook in the darkened room. Naked as he looks down at his own body. Touching his scars and fresh cuts, some of them he sees for the first time himself.

“The cuts and things? Most of them I'm not actually sure where I got them or why sometimes, I’m not avoiding anything I just honestly don’t know. They just are there sometimes when I wake up but no one knows why, the older scars are from my parents and some surgeries I had to repair bones that healed badly and caused more pain. You can talk to me about them I don’t mind but If I can’t answer then I’m sorry. Sometimes… Someone… doesn’t want me to say too much, Just in case. He protects us” 

Jimin answers everything Jungkook was thinking as he climbed into bed. Naked and so comfortable despite the conversation.

“I was wondering. The newer ones? The cuts? Do-Yun doesn’t know where they are from either? But he keeps the accurate records? So he should know?” 

Jungkook knows what he is pushing for. He wants Do-Yun to be honest about Kwang. That Jimin is often punished without even realising it, but the cuts and bruises do keep Jimin in line. Do-Yun told Jimin once that he feels the pain for them all and this makes Jimin not want to cause anyone else pain and so.. Jimin is a good boy. Easy control.

“Hmm? I’ll ask him in the diary,” Jimin says as he lies flat on his back next to Jungkook. Both lie like stiff boards next to each other.

But their arms touch and it's warm and pleasant feeling and as Jimin is loving the closeness he feels Jungkooks little finger link his own and they lie there holding hands that way. Both smiling in the dark like idiots in new love.

Jimin speaks first. Feeling like he has to control this before it gets stolen from him.

“We.. I .. Don’t want to do that… sex? … just yet, Gukkie. Is that Ok? Can we wait?” Jimin says a little afraid Midnight fronts any minute he whispers like he hopes none of his alters hear him 

“Please don’t fuck midnight or Kitten? Just me? Please just me? Make love to just me? Ok? I know you probably won’t want to wait for me but, please?”

Jimin’s fear right now is Midnight blocking him out as he does and stealing his special moment with Jungkook.

Jungkook whispers back. Hoping the others are asleep too

“Jimin, I’m .... a virgin. I don’t want my first time to be with someone I don’t love like Midnight. I want you so much, I want you to be my first but it has to be YOU. Not anyone else. I’m gonna wait for you and only you.”

Jungkook understood straight away that he needs to make him feel secure saying

“Tomorrow I’ll ask if I can use a safe word for them all to leave us for private time. Like I’ll work it out with Do-Yun and Kitten to help me.” 

Jimin rolls over and tenderly touches Jungkook’s face “I know this will sound like a lie but I’m a virgin. I’ve never…done that… Or anything, If it’s going to be anybody then it's going to be you. You’re my person, Gukkie, I can feel it so much. Me and you versus everything.” 

Jungkook plants a kiss on Jimin’s lips and feels him smile as he does, we are allowed to... Like.. touch? Hug and kiss or wait too?” Jungkook asks, realising he just kissed without checking.

Jimin nods and says “You can touch me, Baby”. But seems distracted a little now.

He goes to pull Jimin in to snuggle down but Jimin’s neck tightens like he is straining to listen and he whispers “Is he in the cupboard, Gukkah? Will he leave me any food?”

Jungkook smiles sweetly “Baby. Listen ok. I promise you I will find you food even if I have to hunt down the burger myself  You will always have good. Please don’t worry if somebody shares our food, I will never let you be hungry, Let Jonjo eat as he needs, it's ok. I swear” 

Jungkook presses Jimin’s head gently back onto the pillow for comfort and strokes his hair. Jimin was still trying to hear if his food was being taken for a minute until the feeling of being petted made him forget his woe and his body physically relaxed under Jungkook’s touch.

“This is why Kitten likes to be petted? Feels so nice. Kitten was right” Jimin snuggles into Jungkook more and more. Feels his skin on his own and it feels so extremely right.

Feels like he is drifting off on a cloud as he is held in Jungkook’s arms, tiredness he didn’t realise was stacking up hitting him like he hasn’t slept in years. Maybe he hasn’t properly. Maybe now, Tonight he can finally sleep peacefully for the first time in his life.

“Thank you, Gukkie. Thank you for caring about me” Jimin says as he snuggles onto Jungkook’s chest. His head was buried in a beautiful place that had that familiar scent. That Gukkie smell that makes Jimin feel so secure and sleep was so near and easy for once.

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Jungkook was woken up at 11 am by Jimin sitting up in bed, biting his nails and making a loud clicking noise, staring at a large pile of food on the pc desk in front of them.

Jungkook reached up with blurry eyes and held Jimin’s fingers in his own to stop him from biting.

“Baby? Did you sleep at all? Why are you awake?” Jungkook asked as he moved his head onto Jimin’s lap from the pillow and Jimin started to gently stroke his hair.

“Gukkie? Did Jonjo like me? I think he hated me. I didn’t mean to be so weird around him and I was and now he won’t want me with you, I know I made bad jokes yesterday about being sick and I cried like an idiot, he’ll hate me. Can you ask him now?  I don’t want him to hate me…Gukkie?” 

Jimin’s eyes look worried and round and his skin looks pale like he hasn’t slept for long.

“Jonjo? It doesn’t go that deep, If he likes you he likes you, believe me. I watched him walk out of his own birthday dinner before because two people turned up that bullied him in year 3. He doesn’t hold back. If he felt anything bad I would have had a WhatsApp by now telling me to stop, look…nothing” 

Jungkook held his phone up to show his screen and there it was…

An outstanding WhatsApp from Jonjo.

Jimin saw it first and screwed his mouth up and rolled his eyes as he pointed. Falling down into the bed and holding the covers over his head.

“Oh, what the fuck?” Jungkook said as he did a double take at his phone. 

reading the message.

Calling out 

“JJ, Dude? come here?” Jonjo came to the door and opened it a tiny amount to poke his head in.

“Tell Jimin the WhatsApp you sent me,” Jungkook asked as he tried to pull the covers from Jimin’s head. Jimin gripping on for dear life.

“Kookie?” Jonjo laughed a little embarrassed “why?... you don’t want me to say it? Outloud?” 

Jonjo was begging with his puppy dog eyes for Jungkook to just shut up and stop embarrassing him but ended up in a grimace as Jungkook gave his own puppy dog eyes to say ‘Please?’

One big huge sigh and Jonjo says out loud as he stares at the edge of the bedroom door he grips 

“I asked If Jimin was still asleep so I can go for a…. Dump… fuck you, Jungkookah”

Jonjo ran out of the room and Jungkook heard him flop on the floor and turn the tv up loud in a mini tantrum.

Jungkook found a tiny crack in the armour made of covers and stuck the phone in with the msgs from Jonjo showing. 

‘Kitten is soo cute. How so cute?’ another msg last night from a drunken Jonjo.

“He likes Kitten? Not me?” Jimin asks as he pokes his head back out.

“No, Jimin,  He likes you. I promise and no he can’t date Kitten” Jungkook says laughing but the idea never struck him before that could easily happen.

“How odd? I never thought of Kitten dating. He isn’t sexual in any way as far as I know. Kitten hasn’t been sexual with you. Right? I can’t stand it if he is”

“Nope. Innocent and just wants to play or be petted. Never sex.” Jungkook answers. 

Finding it so interesting that Jimin might be jealous of an alter, that these complications have to be worked out by the system that runs and keeps Jimin going.

“How do you work out the system? How do you communicate and work out issues?” Jungkook asks as he takes Jimin’s water bottle and finishes the whole drink.

“We write it down if we don’t speak. The first specialist that figured it was DID made me write down like a diary because of the amnesia I was experiencing, I had no idea anyone was fronting or taking over but he made all of us do it when they appeared and that's how I found out Kitten was here because Kitten had to learn to read and write before he could read the diary so Do-Yun taught him.”  

Jimin actually smiled like he was fond of the memory

“Before Kitten had kept quiet but I always knew he was peeking, Like I would get tired when I was a kid and not know why but it was because Kitten wanted to front with me coconscious but he was shy so he kept sneaking around in there. And then, eventually when I knew most of who was here with me Do-Yun built us a house to all live together but there's a dark bit that I can’t keep lit and that fucking annoys me so much but it’s like even if its a torch someone blows it out. Just like a candle, the fucker blows it out. Do-Yun said not to worry, though.” 

Jimin speaks so quietly and fast like he has to speak that way in case someone blocks him and he doesn’t get to say it all.

And honestly the last thing Jungkook wants after sleeping late and waking up early is the deepest talk but this is all so new to him he can’t help but want to know all of it. But now, as will happen often, Jimin realises he has been taking a lot of Jungkook's energy and he feels instant guilt and slows down and stops talking, feeling close to Do-Yun asking to front but not wanting that.

Smiling instead freaks Jungkook out for a second until he gets it, he knows Jimin needs the subject changed.

Whispering “they need you to be quiet?”  Jimin nods so Jungkook speaks normally on the next question

“You need a drink? Did you grab any of your meds or do we have to find some?” 

“I have water. I just was taking a small dose of Prozac for the eating thing but I don’t think I need it… Do you? I haven't purged or gorged in particular recently. I’m not hoarding …so much. It’s worked to teach my impulses to be kinder I think? they lowered the dose because they thought so.”

Jungkook looks up at the pile of food Jimin has taken from the cupboards and fridge when everyone else was asleep like a squirrel hides nuts.

“Maybe? I can always go to work and pretend to look for you and grab it? That makes sense. I would look for you. I think, Jonjo can stay here with you if you're worried?”

“Noo, Gukkie! We go out tonight. It’s our first date. Please don’t go there, don’t leave me today. Call Yeon-Ssi and ask but no. don’t go. Not today?”

Jimin demanding as he asks is energy Jungkook is now used to. It used to be a problem when they first met. Jungkook feeling like Jimin demanded rudely or inappropriately but it was never that. It’s always a mixture of mild panic at the loss of familiarity or a definite need for comfort.

Jungkook moves off Jimin's chest and swaps to hold Jimin on his.

“I’ll stay, it’s ok. Tonight is going to be so special. How long have you followed this dancer?”

“He’s a friend, Gukkie, least was, I used to train with him in Busan before he became famous. But obviously, he doesn’t really know me and I left when I was put into the clinic and now I just know him from afar. So since I was maybe 9 years old maybe I knew him” 

Jimin answers as his lips brush up against Jungkook’s chest as he speaks, making Jungkook hear the words but not take them in for a second as he's lost in the feeling.

“He has no idea you have DID? Or he knows?” Jungkook asks after a long pause he can’t explain.

“How was he meant to know when I didn’t know, I only found out because I kept waking up in odd places. At first they thought it was epilepsy or temporary amnesia. But then Do-Yun finally appeared when I was with my dietician to suggest they stop me drinking soda because it gave him headaches and they referred me to a specialist and my uncle had no choice but to let them assess me and Bingo… after only 17 years of looking they found DID.” 

“You had no clue? They just took over?” 

Like a uniform he wears, Jimin’s voice goes to his whisper

“Aye, just… they would have been doing it since I was a little because big chunks of my childhood until I was taken away from them were missing. I can’t remember ever going to school or learning but I read and write, I couldn’t remember some of their… stuff… they did until I had counselling and then it all was said by them. My system became more obvious, before some would lie and still say they were me and some alters even went to the dark to stay that couldn’t be controlled by Do-Yun or Kwang or if they scared Kitten. And now through a lot of bargaining and talking, I can live pretty normal. Apart from being kept in there, If I mess up, You know?”

Jungkooks thumb rubs across Jimin’s back as he talks. Listening to him from the point of a nurse all this time and now being able to listen as a friend or lover hits so different.  He wants to know it all but wants to give so much comfort. Hugging him close as he speaks is something he's wanted to do for so long and now he finally can. He is cherishing every second of it. Despite the topic. The fact he can hold Jimin means everything to him.

He sees his necklace glint around Jimin’s neck and the sun made a slight indent on Jimin's collar bone where he slept on it. Jungkook running his finger over it and put the chain straight.

“You want it back. Gukkie?” Jimin asked already pulling the chain around so he can undo it for Jungkook.

Jungkook stopped his fingers working and put the chain straight again.

“No, I can’t think of a better place for my necklace to be. It means a lot to me and you get that. So keep it safe for me” Jungkook looks up to keep his senses limited and not get caught up in the emotions he feels.

“Tell me about it again?” Jimin asks so sweetly as he holds the sun pendant in his fingers.  Feeling the marks with his thumb.

“My dad gave it to me to think of him if ever found things hard. If I needed my dad I am meant to hold this and think of him”

“You were close?” Jimin asks, sitting up, looking for his water Jungkook finished.

Jungkook leaned over the edge of the bed and found the closed water bottle he had in here. Loosening the lid for Jimin and passing it to him.

“Ye we are close, Dad died when I was in high school. He gave me this when he was close to the end. He put it on me and looked proud of me and told me he was always going to be where I needed him. Two days later he passed on.” Jungkook says as he puts the sun with his fingers like he says hello.

“Take it back Gukkie, please? I don’t deserve to wear it. Take it” Jimin tries again to remove it as he sees the look of love in Jungkook’s eyes when he speaks of his Dad and again Jungkook stops him. 

“Jiminah. If my dad was here he would adore you so much. He would love how funny and sweet you are and how smart you are and how much you look after me. My dad would be your dad and he would look after us both and now he will. So keep it close and safe but now you have me and my dad protecting you. Understand? You are my family.”

“Fuck” Jimin says as he buries his head in Jungkooks chest. His arms clumsily make their way around Jungkook's neck and he slides onto his lap and they hold each other tightly as they both try not to be emotional.

“I’ll keep us all safe. Kkyu. me, you and the whole fucking family. All safe.” Jimin says as he keeps holding so tightly.

The door flies open and Jonjo comes running in and flings himself on the bed

“Me.. me I am family too.” 

Jungkook bats Jonjo off Jimin’s naked back so he falls next to them on the bed, His small red eyes streaming tears and his nose running as he says 

“Sorry I wasn't listening. I was coming in to ask about breakfast but then you both started talking and it's so sad and sweet and I can’t help it. I am so in love with this whole weird fucking thing and just take care of each other and me and each other. But mostly me” Jonjo so dramatic makes Jungkook laugh as he slaps his cute belly making Jonjo curl up and Jimin smacks his ass as he does.

“Food” Jimin says as he tries to push Jonjo’s massive ass away from him and lands on him instead. Hugging him as his long-lost brother comes home. A natural happy them.

“Ok. Jonjo put the rice on. Let's cook up some pork and watch some bad tv before we get ready to go out.” 

Jimin gets up and puts his jeans on with Jungkook’s t-shirt and grabs a hoodie off the back of the bedroom door. Smelling the sleeve without realising he does but feeling that swoon happen when Jungkook’s scent hits him.

Jonjo all but falls off the bed as he follows and Jungkook can hear them both bickering sweetly about how to cook rice. Jimin wanted to make extra just in case. Jungkook shouts “make him extra” and Jonjo shakes his head as he throws another cup full of rice in as he mutters and stink eyes Jimin.

Jungkook moves to sit on top of the bed and checks his emails on his phone. Seeing one from Yeon he opens it to be confronted by Jimin’s medical notes and psychiatric notes. Shaking his head saying “ well played” as his eyes roll.

Jimin said he can read them but he was sort of hoping he wouldn’t have to. Blindly and idiotically ignoring the massive issues that could so easily pop up.

He downloads and opens the documents. Seeing it's been separated into columns and groups. Shocking him a little at seeing notes like this.

Headers with separate tabs for his Alters - tabs for diagnosis of eating disorders. Sleeping disorders, social anxiety and self-harm, depression, all the meds he had been given to try. All the therapy he has been sent to. Some are written and badly translated from Chinese, and lots are in English.  A tab filled with videos of Jimin in various sessions. talking to an unseen man.

Jungkook’s mind filled instantly with how do you take care of someone with this array of needs, as much as he says me and you, he knows he can’t keep Jimin safe on his own because once he reads it all it becomes so real that he might not be able to cope as much as he wishes he could.

He looks up at Jimin and Jonjo giggling with each other and feels so guilty he opens a tab knowing his fear of not being good enough to help Jimin will no longer be a thought but a fact.

He pops one earbud in and plays the shortest of the videos. Two minutes long halfway in the list. 

Jimin looks younger and tired. beyond skinny. bones protruding from his elbows and collar bone, his hands sinewy, he sips diet coke as he talks, sitting in a chair and complains about the light is so bright.

"Why did you request to speak today?" the unseen man's voice asks. Jimin tuts and his eyes roll. Jungkook isn't sure if it even is Jimin. maybe an Alter. his face seems too strained. 

"I was lonely? Sometimes this is the only time people speak to me. even your one question is more than anybody has spoken to me in a week in here, except to say pills or drink. I'm fucking lonely and I'm scared and no one will tell me anything and you all keep talking to the wrong person. and I'm fucking lonely and I'm tired and it's exhausting feeding so many in my family and I give them all they can eat to stay alive but I'm not getting anything" Jimin starts to whisper "Doctor? can I get out, please? Please? let me just go outside. I don't know why I am here. I haven't done anything wrong to anybody. I just want to sleep and please stop talking to the wrong people about me. I don't know how to not feel lonely. I don't know how to do it. do I have to die to feel something? should I give in to them? Do I have to die? I will if it stops it, I can die. "

Jimin put his head down on the table in front of him and he starts to gently weep, his shoulders moving with every sob. nobody goes to comfort him. no words are given to tell him it will be ok. he is just left to cry and seek comfort in that brightly lit room from himself as the man that asks the question adjust the light to shine more in the centre.

Jungkook takes his earbud out quickly, unable to see Jimin so weak and in such pain. wishing he hadn't watched.

Shaking his head as he opens the Alters tabs. gulping back his own sadness.

reading how Kitten was Jimin's first Alter to present during the time he was abused, Often Kitten would front silently for Jimin. Take his place to try and please the people that were beasts to them.  He takes a role of assessing to make sure Alters are safe to present openly if needed. Jimin is always somewhat coconscious with Kitten, sometimes he can see fully what Kitten does. Sometimes he can just hear or feel what Kitten does but always some open channel.

Jimin’s parents actually bought a cat, they fed it and petted it and loved it as another way of showing Jimin he wasn’t worth anything. Never letting Jimin touch the cat in case he made it dirty with his unwashed hands, He wasn’t bathed or cleaned for months on end, even when he was finally sent to school. though taking him out to homeschool happened quite frequently.  But doctors believe copying the cat was how Kitten was Born. to protect Jimin and feel the comfort his parent's cat had felt. 

Do-Yun was always an adult, at least a child's idea of an adult. Always a 30-year-old male that was a librarian and a voice of reason. Though Often when the system need to punish Jimin, Do-Yun was actually the one that took the punishment. Then relaying to Jimin the pain he went through in quiet whispers so Jimin learnt not to cause that problem again, the problem often to just be quiet and not tell people their secrets, Jimin is not always coconscious with Do-Yun but Do-Yun is always allowed to be with Jimin if he is needed.

Midnight is a sexually active food hoarder and became separated from the system as much as he possibly can, choosing to look after only himself anyway possible. Midnight was often the reason Jimin would find himself in great danger. Sometimes waking from an amnesia bout with no idea who was next to him. Often blocking Jimin out 100% so Jimin has no idea what actions he has taken or where or with who. Though Midnight is often dealt with harshly when found by Kwang.

And Kwang - the keeper of them all. The one that keeps them safe, all decisions run through Kwang. He keeps the system safe and the banished to the dark. He runs the punishments and the freedoms, he holds all the keys to every lock but sees all humans including Jimin as deformed monsters. Deformed that smell vile and make his stomach turn when he does front. Jimin is never aware Kwang has fronted. And has never met him. Only Do-yun has access to Kwang and keeps him informed. Kwang is the keeper of the dark. Jimin often described a feeling of loneliness and darkness and this is when Kwang was believed to have fronted for any length of time. Kwang makes no sign he has fronted. He has no visual tick which means he can lie and say he is Jimin very easily if you do not know what he looks like.

And then more tabs on the physical and mental abuse. Jungkook hears Jimin giggle and doesn’t want to carry on reading. Huge guilt pangs hit him so much as he listens to them laugh more and more 

He looks up at the bedroom door and straight into the lounge/kitchen. Seeing Jimin sitting on the kitchen counter and Jonjo doing shitty magic tricks, Jimin explains how he did them every time like that's what he thinks magic tricks are for. To explain them. Making Jungkook smile but making Jonjo exasperated saying “Just enjoy the magic. Don’t work it out”

His finger hovers over the notes to keep looking and he quickly closes them again. 

Feeling guilty he nearly read them all. Surely he doesn’t need to know what those monsters did to their child? How will it help Jimin to know it?

He looked out again to see Jonjo being terrorised by Jimin on his back trying to reach over him to get to a Hotteok Jonjo had warmed up and was trying to eat. 

. 

Jungkook laughed as he jumped up and grabbed Jimin off him.

Jimin looking up at the ceiling and not making eye contact 

“Say sorry” Jungkook says smiling at Jimin

Jonjo says tentatively “I’m..sorry?” and both Jungkook and Jimin looked at him with a confused smile and a frown.

“You’re an idiot, JJ. so funny.” 

Jungkook phoned work and pretended to ask about Jimin. Has he been found yet? Blahblahblah putting on a spectacular act.

Jungkook asked Jimin to replace all the food back in the cupboards that he put in the bedroom and afterwards, the three of them sat watching anime and laughing. Imitating the anime voices and actions like kids.

Jonjo left at about 4 pm as Jimin and Jungkook started to get ready for their date.

Jimin so excited he hums the entire time he styles his hair but screams loud for Jungkook not to see him yet whenever Jungkook tries to walk in the bathroom.

Jimin takes his time to get dressed. Enjoying the feel of the new clothes on his skin. Not even considering it wasn’t his usual uniform of striped t-shirt and jeans. His hair styled off his face with a slight curl to his blonde hair and some lip colour and eye make up he was nearly ready by 6 pm.

His tux jacket out in the lounge disappointed him a little that Jungkook doesn’t get to see him fully dressed but he was so excited about seeing what Jungkook looked like he started to really not care about himself.

“Deep breath. Deep breath. Stay calm and no running. Jungkook keeps us safe. Keeps me safe. No need to run.” Jimin says his little calming words as he flicks his trouser out of the back of his new shiny brogues and he takes his last deep breath and walks out to Jungkook.

His chin wobbles without any chance to stop it. Jungkook looked so very handsome and pretty and beautiful. 

Strands of dark hair with a natural curl are tied back with a single ribbon hanging down a little, with freshly shaved sides.

His Tuxedo fitted like it had been hand made, every inch made him stand out in a perfect mix of classically sexy.

So breathtaking as Jimin is lost for words. Just his hand touches his heart like he physically felt the pride of this man being his.

“Jeon Jungkook? You’re mine?” Jimin says out loud before he realises his words escaped him. Always going to be shocked this man was here for him.

Jungkook smiled as he held Jimin’s Tuxedo jacket out for him

“You’re beautiful and I am yours” Jungkook said as he helped Jimin on with his jacket. 

The two men stand in silence as Jungkook buttons Jimin’s tuxedo up and lifts the burning sun over the top of his collar so he can see it. Jimin lost in his boyfriend's face.

his heart swells so much he honestly feels it misses a beat for him. 

Jungkook says “what's that?” and as Jimin looked down to where Jungkook pointed he booped his nose and grinned so hard at Jimin. 

Jimin's tears make way for pure happiness. And then Jungkook says again 

“I mean it. Look down, My Hyung”

And when Jimin does some red and black colours catch his eye. Jungkook had made one of his old comfort t-shirts into little pocket squares for them both, black and red striped t-shirt folded up into a fan that Jungkook places his own matching one in his handkerchief pocket.

Jimin’s face lit up as he gingerly touched the material. The comfort it gave him was immediate and his face couldn’t stop him from smiling so fucking brightly like he would never stop. 

Jimin so completely overwhelmed with every feeling he’s ever had being stamped on by one feeling standing on top of them all, crushing them down.

“Is it too soon to tell you how much I love you even if I know I love you? Is it too early? Kkyu?” 

Jimin gently touches the pocket square next to his breast and Jungkook scoops him up without fail.

“You say you love me if you mean it. If you feel it and mean it then say it because I know I love you”

Jungkook says as he kisses Jimin's lips. The sweetest kiss you could ever feel. Everything he ever felt in that one kiss.

“I love you, Kkyu, me. Park Jimin. I love you”

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They sat in the darkened theatre, Music playing so gently as Jimin watched his old friend talk about his last dance. Describing his climb to lead dancer status. Telling hard stories of how he trained until his feet bled and how his inspirations had started young and kept him moving. 

And as he spoke Jimin sat holding Jungkook's hand in the darkness, smiling and filling up with tears at all the right places. Places he had learnt as social cues but sometimes Jimin wanted to cry loudly at the happy bits and smile at the heartache. ways of how he sees things obscured some days.

And as the man he definitely loved held his hand and let his fingers move over his skin like he felt the finest silk, Jimin was locked into Haneul’s story. Talking of his best friend when he started dancing. A strange child that changed his mind a lot and demanded that Haneul must never ever give up. That he must always dance through the pain and always be himself, Haneul openly wept as he spoke of his beloved friend that was taken from him one day never to return but influenced him so deeply that this entire last performance was dedicated to him and Haneul admitted he always knew his last performance as a professional dancer would always be dedicated to the one person that kept him dancing ...Park Jimin.

Jimin bit his thumbnail and Jungkook tenderly stopped him but Jimin turned to face Jungkook as tears fell from his eyelashes. Tears he tried to keep quiet and even when he closed his eyes so tightly they fell all around him. Like drowning in the words they held him up and Jimin took a deep breath as he once again took Jungkook's hand and without realising Jimin held Jungkook’s fathers necklace in his fingertips. feeling a great comfort all around him. Jungkook wiped his tears away for him with a tissue and held his hand back. Feeling so undeniably proud of him as he brought his hand up to his lips and sweetly kissed it once.

As Haneul started the dance they watched together as Jimin inhaled at every turn and leap and exhaled at every landing, sometimes gripping Jungkook’s fingers tightly. 

Every cascading hand movement or twist of his fingers Jimin noted and copied in tiny as he sat there, transfixed.

Every bit of Haneul’s body thought of as a tool to express himself and the music he was given, connecting to Jimin in such a noticeable way Jungkook wondered If Jimin could move that way.

Jungkook started to just watch Jimin. Mesmerised by his face enjoying this moment of his life. Feeling proud he is here to see it. 

Feeling this enormous need to love him and be loved by him in every way they could.

He stares and takes him in like he sees him for the first time again. An angel with broken home made wings that can so easily be fixed with the right care.

Jimin feels his stare and nods at him to turn his head and once Jungkook did. Jimin stared at Jungkook instead.

14 minutes later and the performance was complete. Jimin sat quietly as people around him started to leave and Haneul himself sat on the edge of the low set stage. Eye-level with everyone as they left or walked towards him but he was obviously distracted.

Jimin and Jungkook sat in their seats still. Talking to each other, lost in their own world that was slowly turning from little to huge between them and as Jungkook giggled at something Jimin whispered to him about needing to pee but not wanting to let go of Jungkook’s hand they both heard a loud booming voice

“Park Jimin?” 

Jimin looked at Jungkook and said “baby, did you hear that too or is it one of mine?” 

“I heard it” Jungkook says as he stands and guides Jimin to stand up too. 

Pointing him towards the stage, A packed audience that was fawning over Haneul or waiting patiently to leave turned to see Jimin. 

Haneul looked so touched to see his old friend he stood still but stared at Jimin as if he’d just found his brother, Jimin smiling back at him as he clung to Jungkook's hand.

Jungkook started to walk forward and the captive audience carved a parting for them. Each vying to see this dancer's inspiration and finding this blonde-headed man so ethereal he glows under the spotlights as he and Jungkook walk to Haneul.

Jungkook presents Jimin as the greatest prize and Haneul bows to Jungkook and grabs Jimin in his arms and hugs him.

Repeating “where did you go, Hyung?” over and over like he can’t believe he has him here.

After a few minutes of intimacy, Jimin looks to his left and Jungkook knows Do-Yun was here for part of that encounter, maybe checking the situation or maybe he’d missed Haneul too.

Jimin introduces Jungkook as his boyfriend and explains although they are quite new to each other they are ridiculously lousy with love. Making Haneul clasp his heart and say “Of course, you are loved. My beloved Hyung. How could you not be?”

“Let's get a drink? I have to catch a flight to London at 5 am. I need to stay awake. Want to keep me company you two?” Jimin looks to Jungkook who nods ok and as Haneuls PA brings him his stuff they all move to the hotel bar next door.

Sitting comfortably. Jungkook told to talk casually too. They all talked about old times for those two. Jungkook sipped his wine, listening.

“Has he told you how we met?” Haneul already laughing as he remembers and Jimin looks a little confused.

“I told him. At dance practice.” Jimin answered. 

“Ohh, Darling? dance practice… Jimin bit me. See? This scar on my arm? The fucker bit me and wouldn’t let go.” Jungkook looked at Jimin laughing but was also shocked. Quite a different story but Jimin obviously wasn’t present for that first meeting and he looked bewildered by this memory.

“I bit you? I made that scar?” Jimin said and laughed “Fuck, I’m so sorry.”

“How do you not remember? It was all because I ate the last gyoza on the plate. Jimin was so angry I thought he would eat me. He bit me and wouldn’t stop until his uncle made him let go.”

Jimin looked a little uncomfortable but decides not to cloud this meeting with an explanation. It probably wasn’t him he met for the first time. It was probably a long darkened alter that did that. So Jimin decided to just laugh instead. Pretending he now remembered but Jungkook could see he didn’t, he reached out and took Jimin’s hand. Feeling Jimin squeeze him back.

“We should get going. Jiminah? We have that appointment tomorrow” Jungkook lied and Jimin nodded happily. 

“Hanny? I missed you. I’m so very pleased you seem so happy. Thank you for being my friend.” Jimin said as he stood up and held his arms out for a hug. Haneul stands and holds his friend as he looks and smiles at Jungkook.

“I’ll just quickly go to the bathroom if that's ok? We can walk home from here. Yes?” Jimin says and Jungkook nodded. The walk was along the river. Quite romantic in places.

Haneul smiled politely at Jungkook, like he now sized him up

“I can take care of Jimin, you know? If you guys need help? I can take him to the UK with me and find treatments to finally cure his illness” 

“You know he has DID?” Jungkook asks. Shocked at his prodding and reminding Jimin of things he can’t possibly remember if he knew all along he has this, Jungkook is now a little pissed off.

“His uncle told me when they put him in the clinic. I stayed in touch with his family. It’s his uncle's tv company I go to take charge of in London, I did want to stay in touch with Jimin, to visit him and such but well? People lose touch, you know? I thought maybe Jimin would grow out of it as we got older.”

“You always knew and didn’t once visit him? You didn't write to him or even try? You left him to rot? I’m sure it was inconvenient to see him today. Makes your story about your influence a little harder to recount.” 

Jungkook was so angry on Jimin's behalf but knows this is impossible for Jimin to know and destroy his happy memory and snaps himself out of it. 

Whispering to Haneul “keep your fucking mouth closed” as he pretended to hug him and Haneul smiled as they parted. Giving Jimin one last hug and bidding them both farewell. Jungkook watched as Hanuel’s smile left his face so fast and he took his phone out even quicker. Not knowing who he contacts but knowing it can’t be good he holds Jimin’s hand as he leads him to walk faster.

“Jungkookah? Are we in trouble?” Jimin asked, Not really understanding what is happening around him but feeling danger.

“No, Sorry, baby. I just don’t like his vibe, You’ve done nothing wrong, we’re ok. Let's go home,” Jungkook hails a taxi that passes, ushering Jimin into it and checking behind him as he gets in himself, hoping he is forgiven for white lies.

Jimin yawns and slips into his favourite place, at Jungkook's side. snuggled into him.

“I don’t care if I am in trouble, Gukkie. Not anymore. But Haneul? he’s turned into an insufferable idiot instead of the terrible suck-up he used to be. His vibe is off. Do-Yun said he is a prick and not to be trusted still. Who retires from something they are meant to love so young?” Jimin said through another yawn as his eyes started to close and Jungkook held him close.

They reach Jungkook's place and Jonjo is drinking a beer on the stairs leading up there. Normally he would have just gone inside and waited. Not tonight though.

He smiles at Jimin’s tired face and starts to ask Jungkook to come and talk to him. Cut off before he can even finish saying Jungkook’s name, receiving a stern nod instead as Jungkook unlocks his door and he walks Jimin to the bedroom.

“Sleep a little. Baby. I’m going to have a drink with JJ and tell him about our date, Ok? Get snuggled in” Jimin flops happily on the bed even though he knows something isn’t right he feels exhausted and it’s clouding his mind, he kicks his trousers off and starts to undo his shirt but the sleep battle was lost and he snores gently within seconds with his shirt halfway undone.

“I had a visit,” Jonjo said as he passed Jungkook a beer.

“The clinic?” Jungkook asked with a frown.

“I wish. You wish also. Jungkook have you any idea who his uncle actually is? The power he has? Jimin is his legal heir. Did you know?”

“Heir to what? Jungkook asks completely unaware of Jimin’s uncle.

“PNI? You don’t know? Jimin is a fucking chaebol. A fucking heir to his uncle's fortune PNI? Park Nam Industries. I had a visit from some suit telling me I have to sign a non-disclosure agreement or I would be sued before I even ‘sold’ a story.”

“How can Jimin be part of that? How an Heir?  I don’t get it. Why keep him locked up? They did nothing? I knew his uncle had money now, I don’t get it, JJ? Did Jimin's parents live far away from the rest?” Jungkook’s mind asking so many questions until Jonjo opens them both another beer

“I dug around after they followed and warned me. I looked into it all. Listen. His parents were real monsters. The real deal. They weren't some poor family that couldn’t afford a kid or some family that had no way out. They were actual monsters that had a child and deliberately hurt him every second of his life. They tortured him every time he breathed, starved and beat him. kept him like an animal, worse than in fact. and his family did nothing. They claimed they didn’t notice. They even lived in the same mansion for some of the time and still said they didn’t notice. The police wanted the entire family to be charged with neglect. All of them. From top to bottom. Jungkook this is so big and wild”

“This is why it was all hidden? Even when Jae was being a prick, even then they were too scared of being found out to step in?”

“These people aren't playing, they want Jimin silenced and I would guess you too”

“Gukkie? I woke up and you weren't there. Are you eating?” Jimin asks as he walks out of the front door to see Jungkook and Jonjo sitting with beers on the low table. Jimin joins them in his dress shirt , the sleeves slightly too long and covering his hands, Jimin sits on the table and takes Jungkook’s beer and Jonjo without words hands Jimin a packet of pringles he had in his bag. Jimin smiled as he opened them.

“Why so serious? What is it? I am in trouble aren't I?” Jimin asked. Still eating and drinking.

Jungkook decided to tell Jimin. To keep this from him treats him like a child or someone incapable of making decisions. Jimin was neither.

“Your uncles law firm found Jonjo and asked him to sign an NDA”

“Ah.. them? Fucking pricks aren’t they, JJ? I hope they didn’t scare you, I’ll fight them for you if we need” Jimin says smiling. Still eating pringles like what he was told was normal.

“Will they find us and make me sign one. Or take you from me?” Jungkook says

“You already signed one,  When you signed your work contract. It was a standard clause on there.”

“The fuck?” Jungkook said and JJ and Jimin looked at him like he’s insane.

“It’s standard, what if some celebrity needed treatment and you didn’t sign that? It’s standard contract, Kook”

“How much are you worth?” JJ asks as his hand is smacked away from the pringles he bought and he just looks at Jimin eating his food and licks his lips hungrily. 

“Me personally? I have properties so I guess… maybe… 360 million us dollars? Ish. I mean it’s not cash. Like I can’t just go to the shops and buy a mars bar but I can own 17 buildings facing central park or 7 along the Han river.  You know. So really I might as well own nothing.”

Jungkook opens his mouth like a goldfish, no idea what to say really and JJ laughs so much and snatches the pringles off Jimin saying 

“Buy your fucking own” 

Jimin trying to snatch them back and the two fought gently over the packet until they ended up scattered on the floor. 

Jimin shouted “DON’T WASTE FUCKING FOOD, JJ!”  and sat on the floor in his large shirt eating floor chips.

JJ joined him with Jungkook still so confused by life.

“I bought you a cheap tux and all this time you own 24 buildings”

“not 24 I own more I just don’t have my portfolio with me but also. baby, If those buildings meant anything to me I would still give them up one by one just to wear any cheap suit you give me.” 

JJ makes pretend too sweet vomit noises and Jimin stamps on the chips in his bare feet as he stands up.  A sweet innocent look on his face as he walks back inside.

“Hmmm. I am both impressed and a little scared.” Jungkook says as he pulls JJ to stand up. “Sleep here?”

“You think I want to be alone ever again?” JJ says as he beats Jungkook to go back inside the apartment.

“You think I put on weight?” Jimin asked Before Jungkook had even locked the front door. Jungkook answered absentmindedly “I don’t care what you weigh, be as big as a boat I’m still gonna adore you regardless”

“I’m... like a boat? I’m bigger?” Jimin said a little sad. Jungkook shook his head “no baby, You haven't put on any weight”

“So I was a boat when you met me and still am? If you want to call me fat just say it. Just call me it. Don’t make it cute so I can understand. I’m a fucking grown man. I get words. I understand how eating works” 

Jimin was shocked at his own outburst. Looking around for an easy way out. A fast way to hide. He runs off to the bedroom.

embarrassed. 

Jungkook came in seconds later with some water and a hug.

Holding Jimin in his arms he stayed quiet and just let Jimin soak up his care for a minute.

“You know I am sorry I was so flippant? I should listen to you instead of Just answering you. Sorry. I know we have to treat each other in a special way. that's what I took on and so did you, forgive me?” Jungkook buried his head in Jimin's shoulder and neck and waits to here if he’s forgiven

“Forgiven,” Jimin says as he ran his fingers through Jungkook's hair.

“Why am I wasting time feeding these tiny niggles? Feeling this doubt when I just got you?” Jimin asked  “Spicy noodles?” Jimin says out of nowhere and walks off from Jungkook. Leaving him literally with his head still bent in the position it was when it was snuggled into Jimin’s body.

Hearing Jimin shout “yahhhhh, NOODLESSS” and JJ saying “You’re welcome little prince”

Jungkook walks back out to see Jimin fill a bowl up and walk off to the sofa, eating as Jungkook and JJ talked and ate at the kitchen counter. Jimin finished too fast neither had a clue he’d even started.

Jimin glugging a bottle of diet Coke just as fast. Eating more noodles. Eating more than his share as Jungkook fills his bowl up with half of his own.

Jungkook and JJ talking more about what they would do with that much money, apparently they would both buy an island asJimin snacked on whatever he had near.

And then quiet.

“I’m going back to sleep, Gukkie. Night, JJ” Jimin holds one hand up and goes to the bathroom to wash up. 

JJ stared at Jungkook like ‘dude wtf?’ his eyes big and urgent.

“What? What did I miss? What?” Jungkook said smiling and not getting anything

“I read his file. You left it open in your downloads on your ipad”

Jungkook’s mouth screws up into an angry pout “Invasion of both our privacy there, one reason why I shouldn’t kick you out?”

“Dude? What did I specialise in?”

“Eating disorders and body dysmorphia,” Jungkook says even more confused and getting angrier that JJ doesn’t get to the fucking point.

“Read his file. I beg you, if not to make it easier on yourself then to help him. Read it, please? Coke? Coke is a catalyst for him. He uses it to purge easier and faster. We’ve just watched someone a foot shorter than me eat all our food and drink a bottle of coke and you don’t fucking question it? Are you fucking blinded? If you love him then help him better”

JJ says it as he grabs his bag “I’m going. Talk to him.”

“Dude?” Jungkook says as JJ unlocks the door and leaves.

Jungkook looked around the quiet room. Biting his bottom lip in worry and nerves and hating what he was about to do. Throwing the tea towel he used to dry their bowls up with on the side he goes to the bathroom door and sits down at it. Listening for a few seconds then knocking gently.

“Jiminah? Can you unlock the door?”

Quiet from inside but hurried movement and the toilet flushing but no door opening.

“Jiminah?” Jungkook asks again. A little sadder now as he understands all too clearly.

“I’m… ok Jungkookah. Just washing. I’ll be out in a minute” Jimin says but clearly he is holding back tears.

“Park Jimin’s dietary requirements - ….”

“Baby… stop? Please… I get it” Jimin says, sounding close. Obviously sitting on the floor on the other side of the door.

“Sorry … Park Jimin has agreed to no more carbonated drinks as well as measured out portions of food until he feels able to….”

“Gukkie… I get it, I’m sorry. Ok. just… I’m ashamed enough … can you just help me?” 

“Open sesame,” Jungkook says. Falls back within seconds as Jimin stands with the open door above him.

“Come here?” Jungkook says pulling on the hem of the white crisp wrong-sized shirt so Jimin sits down with him in the doorway.

Sitting opposite each other with their backs leaning on the door frame.

Jimin looking ashamed has his knees pulled up and his arms resting on top. His mouth pressed on his wrist as he muttered his words.

“We won’t solve this with shame, so none of that. What made that happen? The stress of this? No meds? What was it?”

“It tasted good.” is all Jimin says. 

Tasting good wasn’t even on Jungkook’s radar “It tasted good?”

Jimin sat up straight. Crossed is legs and raised his eyebrows as he spoke

“It tasted so fucking good and I wanted to taste it so much just as much as possible but then the full feeling and I knew I shouldn’t have eaten so much so… but I wanted more …yeah.. Then the rest”

“You understand this perfectly. The more you eat the more full you get the more full you get the more you hate that you ate so much until the vicious circle is complete” 

“Aye, I get it. I did it.” Jimin sighs and rubs his hand through his hair “ so meds and diet plan tomorrow? I was dumb for thinking I could just be normal”

Jungkook pulls Jimin onto his lap, Jimin avoiding eye contact and looking down at his legs, but deep little sighs keep falling from his mouth until he says “sorry Gukkie, I’ve go this. I don’t want this to be me. Tomorrow, Ok?”

Jungkook kisses his nose “Ok. diet plan we can work out with JJ and meds I can go and get tomorrow morning. No harm. You’ve got this and I’m completely struck by how proud you make me feel. And it did taste fucking good”

Jimin still ashamed but his eyes light up for Jungkook and then brood again when the failure he feels hits him again.

“I spoilt our date” 

“Never” Jungkook says as he shakes his head too fast. His eyes moving fast making Jimin giggle at how funny it looked. Like a big dog. 

Jungkook smiling that he’s made Jimin giggle. Always feels like he’s won when he hears it. 

“What ya laughing at?” Jungkook asks as he crosses his eyes over and Jimin copies him and does the same saying “No. Nothing.. Everythings fine” as they both cross over their eyes and laugh with each other. Ending in tickles from both of them and pokes until they are rolling around the floor with each other screaming and laughing. 

“I love this so much. You... this” Jimin says as they lie next to each other on the lounge floor. legs and arms spread wide, just their fingers from one hand fidgeting with each others.

“Also spreading out. I can’t do this in my room. I can’t even tell you the last time I wasn't tiny. Tiny and fitted into a tiny room and here with you we can both stretch and still not touch the walls. Thats fucking amazing, Gukkie. That feels amazing”

Jungkook’s eyes smile before his mouth does as he rolls onto his side to look at his boyfriend. 

Forgetting the small amazements Jimin has everytime he notes something he hasn't been able to do in forever are so cute.

Also noting to himself no alters have come out since the Haneul meeting. Not saying anything but feeling accomplished that maybe Jimin feels so real and comfortable no one has had to front to keep him going. 

“It’s late, my baby” Jimin says as he gazes at Jungkook gazing at him, reaching out to brush his cheek with the back of his fingers.

“Let’s sleep? Tomorrow I’ll help sort out what we need. What you need” 

“Hmm. carry me? Like a prince with broken legs?” Jimin giggles as he holds his two arms out in front of him. Still lying on his back

Jungkook gets up and lifts Jimin up by his arms and straight over his shoulder in a fireman's lift. Not quite what Jimin asked for but as he’s there he takes the opportunity to bite Jungkook’s ass cheek and grip it tightly as he walks.

Jungkook throws Jimin on the bed and jumps on top of him biting him back and sucking his neck. Moving all over his body nibbling him until he hears Jimin's laughs have become moans and Jungkook wants to stop but those moans are so pretty he needs some more. Just a few more.

Moving to Jimin's neck he kisses and bites. One harder bite as his hips dig into Jimin's hips and he can feel Jimin got just as hard as he has. More sweet sweet moans but then he realises Jimin isn’t stopping him and he stops himself.

“Jimin? Jimin is it… You?” Jimin lies on the bed chewing the inside of his mouth. Aggravated more than anything.

“If you want the little virgin I'll get him but tell me you don’t like me more? Tell me you don’t want to fuck me more?” Jimin's voice is deeper and slower with a heavy vocal fry. Not Jimin’s voice. Not even Jimin’s face.

“Midnight?” Jungkook looked genuinely horrified at what he had just done  “I don’t want to fuck you at all. I don’t love you. I love Jimin. Don’t ever steal my time with Jimin again. You understand me? I’ll tell Kwang without remorse if you do” 

“Fucking virgins” is all Jungkook hears as Jimin coughs a little and asks why Jungkook stopped.

“Gukkie? I liked it. Why did you stop? Are you ok?” Jimin reaches out for Jungkook and back hugs him.

“Don’t worry Please but Midnight came to say hi. I told him to leave, baby, can I ask to speak to Do-Yun privately? Is that ok If I do that?” 

“Now? You want a meeting now? He’ll be sleeping now I guess? Midnight? What's he like? He blocks me completely, I have no idea. What does he look like?” 

“Well right now he looks turned on and angry” Jungkook says as he taps Jimin’s hands that are wrapped around him. 

“But… Gukkie? It was my ... pleasure. It was me you heard moan and .. my … hard on? You felt on yours. That was me. When did midnight come?”

“That was yours? You wanted me too?” Jungkook said kind of too happy. 

“Yeah. it felt so good, you biting me felt sexy, you know?”

“I know” Jungkook laughed as he adjusted his own cock where the pre cum was sticking on his trousers and skin.

Jimin’s head turned to the left and Do-yun nodded and smiled a greeting as he moved back from Jungkook’s back and sat on the edge of the bed.

“Jeon? Whats wrong? Jimin wanted me to talk to you? What’s wrong with him? I was reading to Kitten. Was a nice night mostly. We heard Jiminie laugh a lot, We’re glad you spoke to him. Was kind.” 

Jungkook held a hand up to say hello, a little embarrassed of what he was about to say. Feeling like he talks to an elder 

“Do-Yunssi, can you do something about Midnight? Or talk to Kwang for me, please? He’s an issue to mine and Jiminies relationship if he keeps trying to steal our time together”

“He came out? Tonight? He didn’t ask for a ticket, Kwang will not like that at all. Midnight will be in a lot of trouble for that. Sorry Jungkookah. Let me just... Think”

Do-yun goes quiet for a moment as if frozen, Jungkook doesn’t disturb him.

“Jimin is going to play with Kitten for a while in the house. can you whisper for us?” Do-Yun asks and Jungkook nods.

“Midnight will not disturb you and Jimin ever again. Never doubt Jimin is with you. Midnight is… banished.”

Jungkook whispers “kwang?” 

He gets a slow nod back 

“why are you helping me?” 

“All I do is care for others. I care for Jimin and Jimin only. I let others care for him and I give out the Law of us. Midnight was a direct result of needing care at a certain point in time. He is no longer family and seemed to want to focus on himself and that can’t and won’t happen. Midnight will not bother Jimin and put our core in such danger anymore”

Jungkook nods. understanding the words Kwang says so perfectly. 

“Thank you, Kwang” Jungkook says “One more thing?” 

Kwang nods slowly with his eyes so narrow 

“Can… when we are... Intimate? Can you block everyone? Can you trust me enough to let us be intimate alone? No peeking. No switching? Anyone? Is that even possible?” Jungkook was embarrassed discussing his future sex life.

Kwang’s eyes narrow impossibly more and he makes a “hmmm” sound

“We help each other. We aren’t perverts, you will be given ...space” 

“Thank you” Jungkook says and Jimin answers sweetly “sure”  and smiles 

“You spoke with Do-Yun?”

“Yeah. he’s happy for us to continue. Being intimate won’t be an issue anymore. No midnight”

“But midnight is part of us. Is he ok?”

Jungkook smiled weakly but still smiled. Not wanting to worry Jimin with the possible truth that won’t help in any way.

“He’s safe. No darkness. Just on a timeout. He’s been told to let you be in control of your sexuality. You are in control from now on”

Jimin hugs Jungkook again. Back hug as his legs wrap around his front and his feet bury themselves in his groin area and he holds on so tightly.

“Sleep time” Jungkook says 

Jimin lies back down and Jungkook turns out the light, spooning Jimin like they should have been doing their entire lives.

“I’m sorry nothing is simple or easy,” Jimin said as he kissed Jungkook's wrist that hold him

“I love you is the easiest and simplest thing in this entire world, Jiminah, Don’t give up on me.”

Jimin smiled and laid more delicate sweet kisses on Jungkook’s hands and fingers

“Never giving up.”

Chapter Text

“Junggukie? gukkieee? Time to wake up. Work today. Time to wake up” Jimin stands next to the bed with a small tray overfilled with pancakes and cereal and a single flower he asked the landlady if he could take.

“Jimin? What time is it? Did I miss my alarm?” Jungkook says a little startled with a frown that disappears as soon as he sees the breakfast.

“For me? You were so quiet. This is so sweet” Jungkook says as he sits up. Frowning still at the idea of tasty food more than sleep loss now as he takes the tray and sits it on his lap.

Jungkook pats the bed next to him “Let's eat together?” Jungkook is still a little anxious about Jimin’s eating. Hoping he can copy his dietary plan from the unit's kitchen list today. And try to get his Prozac so Jimin can have some backup instead of going cold turkey.

Jimin sits facing Jungkook in his borrowed boxer shorts and white t shirt. 

Jungkook takes his phone and takes the cutest picture of Jimin about to eat a pancake covered in blueberries and cream. Mouth open so wide. Fingertips covered in cream.

“I can’t get over how handsome and cute and pretty and adorable and smart and funny and mine you are. This happy shouldn’t be allowed.” Jungkook says as he looks at the picture he took and smiles at it, his finger tracing over Jimin’s face.

“Eat. stop it and eat. I’m sitting right here. Not in a picture” Jimin laughs as he picks up a pancake and holds it out to Jungkook. Not even thinking how he shares the food or that Jungkook might eat the last one. Feeling a real feeling like he has softened even in these few days. 

“Jungkookah? I’d give you my last food. I’d give you my last crumb, You know? I’ll give you anything. So eat. Ok? I need you well fed to face them today, Do you tell them the truth? That I am here?”

Jungkook’s head is cocked to the side. All this information to take in. the fact Jimin would give him his final anything means so much to him. His inside voice is screaming with how utterly he loves Jimin.

“I was going to talk with you before work. JJ comes to look out for you today if that's ok? He can help work out foods also. I’ll try and copy your diet but he can help a lot. He’s one of the smartest people I know. He flies through his courses. Is that OK? And work? I guess Yeon knows already, I can be honest I think and see what they say? You think?” 

Jungkook asks as he holds his pancake. Still not eaten a thing yet. 

“Yeah… JJ but he has to promise not to date Kitten, please? Can you make that solid? Kitten doesn’t want that. Just belly rubs. And yes. Tell them. we might as well face it? You know? Face it and they can’t force me. Not now you know so much. Yeon will hate me though.” 

Jimin looks a little sad at the idea. Despite her being his keeper he does respect her and understand her and she is kind and usually fair to everyone and now he feels like he has let her down and stolen Jungkook, Ruining his life, maybe.

“I see that face. Now you stop it, I’ll handle this and what I can’t handle we can sort out together. We haven’t done anything wrong, this isn’t even about being in love with someone. This is about your care and the fact I believe you are being hidden rather than helped, give me those lips”

Jimin pulls a duck face with his pout. But Jungkook’s last words make his eyes glint with hearing it. Give me those lips! Jimin’s brain goes into overload when hearing these simple words. He’d been replaying their first kiss over and over until he has to snap himself out of it. First kiss with Jungkook becomes his new obsession.

“When you kissed me I felt like every nerve in my body was trembling. That it was bouncing off me. Too exciting.” Jimin says as he leans forward over the breakfast tray. Kissing Jungkook’s lips tenderly. Pulling away only to feel Jungkook’s hand on the back of his head. Finger in his hair. Keeping him there.

“Gukkie? The food?” Jungkook hears Jimins stifled words he just ate and takes the tray without breaking away and moves it to their side, pulling Jimin onto his lap now he’s made space and Jimin fits in there perfectly. Long legs tucked in either side of Jungkook's thighs and his hands fall naturally in place. One around Jungkook’s neck and the other resting on his shoulder front.

Jungkook starts to say words in between kissing that seem to get wilder and desperately hectic the more Jimin slightly adjusts his height on his lap.

“I”... Love… You” Jungkook’s words in between breaths and lips and he feels his spit around Jimin’s mouth and his tongue licks at Jimin’s lips and when Jimin opens his mouth a small amount Jungkook’s tongue slips in so he can taste him. 

The taste he would swear is addictive. Jimin’s tongue overlapping his own and twisting around. Not expertly. Not like he is trying to be this sexy or perfect but every move he makes with Jungkook feels so right. Every tongue probe into each other and every flip or flick and definitely every lick. Jimin sucks Jungkook’s tongue randomly for a second at a time and Jungkook feeling his teeth hit Jimin’s a couple of times and that just makes them both smile but they never stop kissing. Varying the demand, but not letting each other go.

“Gukkie? Bite me again, Please?”  Jungkook lightly moves Jimin’s head slightly so he can bite his skin on his neck and again the moans Jimin gave him before filled the room even though done so quietly.

“Baby? What time is it? I can’t get so hyped up before work, I won’t be able to think all day” Jungkook says pulling away from the bites before it gets too much for either of them to stop.

“ it’s blue balls o’clock.” Jimin giggles then answers seriously “well I wanted to wake you up nicely and I was too excited to sleep properly so… it’s about 2 am”

Jungkook looks so puzzled. “2 am? It’s 2 am now? Hyung? We’ve been asleep for about 2 hours. I don’t start work till 10 am… I’m just… what?” Jungkook looks at Jimin’s face. Too excited to even take in what's wrong.

“I can’t get used to just walking around. I can make coffee at 11pm. You know? 11 pm I can use the kettle to make coffee and you fall asleep so fast and I wanted to sleep but Gukkie? I can move. You know I want for a walk earlier. No one stopped me or asked me anything. I wore shorts and a hoodie and slides and no one questioned me. This freedom is just so much and I havent had it in soo long.”

“Jiminah? How long did your uncle have you in there?” Jungkook growing concerned with this excitement.

“This one or the ones before?” 

“Baby? Just how many places… clinics has your uncle paid for you to be in?”

“Our place I have been there for two years. The one in china I was there for five I think and the one in near Busan I was there for five on and off at the start, since I was a kid”

“For… this? For depression, anxiety and OCD? All those years? He’s kept you hidden so easily? Wow”

“I've never been diagnosed with OCD. but it does feel like they just gave up adding to the list after a while.” Jimin smiles a little.

“I see, that's not in your notes though?” Jungkook questions him

“I don’t know. I doubt it, uncle’s team always just said they would send the notes on later. I doubt unless I mentioned it if it got questioned. Why do we always stop the sexiness? I get turned on and then taken out of it.”

Jungkook knows Jimin is right, thinking about it.

“I… maybe… Unconsciously use other stuff to distract me so I don’t go too far too fast and fuck it up?” 

“I am the distraction, I just wanna kiss. I won't push it. Just a little more and then I’ll sleep. So.. Hold me. Press me to you?”

Jimin lifted himself up but still on Jungkook's lap but now his pelvis was on Jungkook’s chest and he was slightly higher as he felt Jungkook's arms wrap tightly around his ass and top of his thighs.  Pulling him back into him tightly.

“Good. Now, take one hand and place it on my nape and use it to pull my lips to yours.”

Jungkook does as he asked and their lips stay still and touch. Jungkook feels Jimin’s lips brush his own so gently as he speaks again.

“Take your perfect tongue and lick between my lips. First my top lip. Then my bottom. Then press until I let you in, close your eyes and when you kiss me move your hands over me. Under my clothes. Feel me”

“Just a kiss?” Jungkook asks. Still, their lips touched but Jungkook’s eyes closed as he listened to Jimin's instructions.

“Just a kiss. I do want to be with you. But I want it to be so special. So do as I say and kiss me. Give me that tongue to taste.”

“You are so sexy. Jiminah”

“Shut up and kiss me” Jimin barely got the last word out before he felt Jungkook's tongue on his lip. Wetting him softly. Top lip first. Licking it like he touches the most fragile art, delicate as he sucks slightly. Moving to the bottom lip. Just as full and tasty but tastier. Going back to the top for a second to make sure but very much tasting Jimin more on his bottom lip. His licks take every bit of the taste like he feeds on it.

Pushing through the small opening, Jungkook’s hands move under Jimin’s t-shirt. Both hands on his skin and feeling his fingers dig into his skin as they drag up then slowly back down. Forced Jimin’s back to involuntarily arch and pull away from the kiss as his moan left his mouth.

 Jungkook feeling his cock semi-hard and he’s kind of glad Jimin isn’t sitting on top of him as he kneels over him still because when he hears that moan his cock jumps and fills up more and more.

Jimin’s hands move to Jungkook’s hair. Gripping it lightly in his right hand as he feels Jungkook’s tongue slide around his own and he wishes he could fuck him, that he could just do it and give it. Wanting to feel Jungkook hard inside him. His thoughts take him away from this kiss as he imagines being fucked.

More kissing as Jimin sits down, relaxing more into it, he feels Jungkook's cock. Fully erect. full and hard and feeling so much bigger than he thought it would be. Jimin can’t help but reach down between them as he still kisses and holds the cock in his hand. Feeling the boxer shorts material slide over the top as he runs his hand up and down the length feeling Jungkook grip his elbows like he wants to stop him but the feeling is too good.

Jimin keeps kissing as his back arches his hips off Jungkook’s hard-on. Jungkook moved his hands again. Now pulling Jimin's shorts down a little so he can feel his ass. So he can hold his one ass cheek in a grip that gets stronger every time Jimin reaches his tip until Jungkook can’t take anymore and both his hands slip to his side as Jimin works his cock as he kisses him.

“Kkyu? Can I make you cum ?” Jungkook hearing Kkyu with his eyes closed he can picture Jimim’s mouth and face as he says it. That pout so pretty for him.

His breathes short and quick as he’s asked and he nods and keeps his hands at his sides as Jimin pulls Jungkook’s boxer shorts down and his cock flips out. Jimin sitting a little more on his thighs but leaning forward so he can kiss Jungkook’s neck. Kissing and using his tongue to lick him hard. Digging his tongue in on his neck as he takes his cock and starts to move his hand over the tip and back down. Like he would his own.  

Feeling Jungkook brings his own hand up to his mouth for a second he licks his palm until it is soaking and without moving Jimin’s hand he wets his own cock. Saliva covers it as he feels Jimin’s hand giving him pleasure. For a second holding his own hand over the top of Jimin’s just to feel him closer, his thighs parting a little. Forcing Jimin to fall down a little too. 

Jimin uses his other hand to lift Jungkook’s t-shirt. Seeing his body all for him and laying kisses on his skin. Jungkook reacts perfectly with every kiss he feels it so intimate it makes him buzz inside. Joining the feeling of his cock being teased so well. Jimin’s fingers moving over his cock like rain, covering every bit and drenching his tip in his need to cum.

Up and over. Back down again. More pressure on the tip. . Jimin spits in his own hand and uses it to wet his cock more and his hand moves faster as he grips tighter. Forcing Jungkook to sit up more and know that he is so close, wishing he could tell Jimin he is close but not sure what sound he will make. 

Any that have escaped so far have been whimpers almost as his cock is teased and felt.

Then Jimin pulls his ace and Jungkook has no choice but to moan loud. Not a whimper but a drawn out moan as he felt his nipple being licked and sucked in turn and he can’t help but hold Jimin’s head so his mouth stays on his nipple because it’s directly connected to his cock and the heat he feels in his stomach that’s making his toes tight and his hands into fists as his cum finally jumps from his body in spurts that land on his stomach but also dribble down to cover Jimin’s hand that lets Jungkook push into him more and pull of it until every last drop has left him and lies around them everywhere.

Jungkook’s breath changes to deep and slow as he takes the feeling in.

his body rushes with the feeling of satisfaction.

He pulls Jimin up so his head is resting on Jungkook’s shoulder and neck. Another place Jimin fits perfectly.

Jimin still holding his cock but not near the tip. The shaft still in his hand and his fingers still covered in cum as he listens to Jungkook gulp and control his air.

“I didn’t realise how much I needed that. So much… cum” Jungkook says and Jimin can hear the smile on his face

“That was so sexy. Your nipples are so sensitive?” 

Jimin asked. Pulling away and looking for a roll of tissue he bought in here yesterday. Ripping pieces off and handing them to Jungkook and wiping the cum off his own fingers.

“Ye, you’ll learn these things about me, what makes me cum in an instant like that.” Jungkook laughs nervously but also flirting still.

Jimin starts to kiss his face. Having not cum himself he’s still a little clingy and needy and he kisses and wishes he could cum too but doesn’t know how to say it. Feeling Jungkook must be tired now and happy to sleep.

“Tell me? Don’t tease, tell me” Jimin whines a little. 

Jungkook takes a deep breath and points at a place on his face “Kiss me here?”

Jimin does. Followed by Jungkook pointing at more little spots on his face and neck saying “Kiss me here” . Jimin does. Lingering with slightly open lips on some kisses. Ending in a sweet suck. More kisses until he is nuzzling Jungkook’s neck and Jungkook pulls him on to his lap again. Jimin hopes so much this means he gets to cum too. 

Not able to contain his semi that Jungkook accidentally brushes over as his hands move along Jimin's skin on his back and down his shorts again

“Did you think I would neglect you? What I get you get” 

Jungkook says as Jimin's breathing gets deeper, understanding Jungkook's grazing of his cock is his tease and every time he does it now Jimin’s body lifts up like he desperately wants him to notice how hard he is for him.

Jungkook takes off Jimin's t-shirt. Seeing no new cuts or bruising as he kisses his collar bones and kisses his warm milky skin, Looks like cream has poured over honey and it makes Jungkook want to drink him in.

Lifting Jimin up with one arm and laying him down on the bed, Jungkook easily switched places and put himself between Jimin’s thighs. Jimin's cock so hard that the slightest pressure creates a deep feeling for him

“Kkyu? Tell me what you meant? What makes you cum fast?” Jimin asks as his fingers dig into Jungkook’s back as he starts to move his lips down over Jimin's naked torso. Not letting his cock breath. Constantly adding and releasing pressure on it until Jimin wraps his legs loosely around his ass like he holds him in place and his hips start to move into Jungkook more until they both dry hump each other in waves. Jimin whimpers into Jungkook’s shoulder as he nuzzles

“When I cum. Thinking about us. Thinking about burying my cock so deep in you, I think about pulling out and watching as my thick cum clings to your skin around your hole. Some falling inside you. So thick as it falls down your skin, and your cum in my fingers. I cum thinking about yours leaking from my fingers as you moan. I think I've cum now just thinking of you losing it for me twice a day since we met. I want to cum as you touch yourself, I want to see you covered in me, using my juice as your lube”

Jimin giggles a little at how sweet it sounds “I’ve never heard another person say cum so much before in my life” Jimin giggles again “And now? When I cum now will you watch it? Do you want to see it?”

“Yes” Jungkook responds truthfully. Removing Jimin’s shorts as he listens to his breaths getting quicker and going back to moving on top of him. Jimin’s hard-on pressing across Jungkook’s own cock that starts to fill for him again.

Letting Jimin take control of the pace by using his legs he has wrapped around Jungkook again and his hands pressing on the small of his back and top of his ass, pushing him into Jimin so much that even on the push out Jimin still clings like he needs it to be constant.

Jungkook finds Jimin’s lips in their frenzy of pelvis and hips moving and intently feels Jimin’s tongue in his mouth. Searching him harder and flicking over his own tongue deeper. Pushing into each other as their cocks do, matching the pressure as much as they can with Jungkook’s hand on Jimin’s left hip bone as he pushes himself more and more onto him. Grinding down by using his thighs and eating up every moan Jimin gives him, 

feeling Jimin get so carried away as he grips Jungkook’s ass harder. Digging his fingers in and pulling him harder into him

“Are you close?” Jungkook whispers and Jimin’s eyes are half closed and looking so sultry that Jungkook can see it without words. 

Swapping himself to lean next to Jimin’s naked perfect body Jungkook starts to pump his cock as Jimin’s body buckles and arches under his touch. Watched as his fingers bunch up the cover and gripped hard and his thighs pull tightly into each other. Jungkook can see he will cum any second.

Jimin wanted to carry on with Jungkook on top but he knows he can’t stop the feeling in his stomach that's tightening his muscles and tightening the grip he now has on Jungkook, not even sure where he holds him but feeling his skin being gripped as Jimin's body gives him what he needs and his words 

“Kkyu. now... I need it now” 

as his words turn to moans and every time his cum spurts his moan matches in an “erh urggg” noise that takes Jungkook by surprise with how loud and sweet it sounded, so close to what he imagined all those times

And then forgetting everything when he watched Jimin’s cum rise, then fall and hit his own belly. 

Creating a clear pool with a thicker liquid in the centre that started the trail of cum that started farther away and now got closer until the last drop slipped down his cock and Jungkook took that cum and licked it off his fingers as Jimin's half-closed eyes watched. Jimin smiled a little as he reached up and touched the back of Jungkook’s neck, showing him he's satisfied.

Jimin moves to his side. His hard-on not subsiding as he starts to whisper to Jungkook as they both lie facing each other “I love you, Kkyu” 

“I love you” Jungkook says placing the food tray on the floor and pulling the covers up over them both and moving to hold Jimin tightly to him.

“I’ll cook breakfast in the morning, Ok? But not for 5 hours. Please sleep with me?” Jungkook says sweeping loose hairs from Jimin’s face in the darkness.

More strokes and Jimin doesn’t answer but his gentle sleeping breaths do.

Jungkooks satisfied breath followed him into their dreams.

Chapter Text

Jonjo woke the lovers up at 9.30, both sleeping through the alarm and his phone calls and barely waking when he ran into the bedroom thinking something awful had happened to them both.

“pricks, Try answering the phone next time, Jungkookah, you’re gonna be late”

JJ says it as he pulls tissue off his sneaker bottom. Loses balance and grabs at it a few times and then furrows his brow as he sees a collection of tissues around the darkened room and it hits him what he's trying to take off.

“I’ll be... Out here… Burning all my clothes... And eyeballs.” He says as he aimed himself for the kitchen sink.

“Good morning. Future husband” Jungkook said as he holds Jimin tight to his body and feels Jimin’s leg slip over him and a murmur into his chest “Good morning Mr Park” Jimin responds 

“Well, we can discuss the names at a later date. I need to get up. This morning was so special to me, It meant a lot to be with you like that” 

“With me? I went straight to sleep, baby” Jimin says then instantly says “aishhh, sorry bad joke” But he laughs so much Jungkook smacks his ass hard. One loud slap as he shouts “yahhhhhhh”

“Kiss it... KISS IT BETTER” Jimin shouted rolling onto his stomach and pointing at his ass cheek. Jungkook smiling gets on all fours over the top of Jimin and does just that. Kisses his cheek. All the red slap marks kissed and every inch kissed, followed by a long deep bite into the flesh of the othe r cheek

“That's so I get to kiss it better later” Jungkook says jumping up with his hard-on flapping about “you better hide that. If Kitten sees it he’ll think it's a toy to bat around” 

Jimin does a bad cat impression batting Jungkook’s hard-on from side to side as they both giggle with each other.

Jungkooks laugh stops as Jimin gently kisses the tip of his hard cock. Seeing his lips turn into a pout as he sucked gently and he kept kissing it. 

Jungkook leant back and closed his bedroom door shut. Jimin holding Jungkook’s cock with both hands as he looks up at him, looking for a guide to let him know he likes it. Feeling Jungkook's fingers in his hair, caressing his shoulders and then back to his hair.

“This is ok? If I kiss it?” Jimin asks in between more tender tiny kisses 

“I’ve never felt anything like it before” Jungkook answers between gulps like he tries to control his voice.

“You want me to stop?” Jimin asks. Still kissing as he looks up at Jungkook standing in front of him.

“Never stop” is all he hears as he presses Jungkook’s cock to his own stomach with his right hand and buries his head in his balls and cock, licking and so delicately sucking on his balls, every move he makes is tender and searching for everything he wishes he had done to him when he thinks about it.

Jungkook’s balls so wet with saliva that when Jimin holds them both in one hand it feels warm and slick, holding them a little tighter so they stay still as he takes Jungkook’s cock tip and licks all over it. Hearing his breath stop for a second. Knowing he holds his breath at the feeling he’s giving him.

More licks as Jimin moves up and down the length, spit on his chin and lips and Jungkook’s cock making tiny squelch noises and as Jimin releases Jungkook’s balls Jungkook can’t help but moan out louder than he wanted but it felt like more blood rushed to his groin that he could take and it all tingled and felt heavy like it all pulses at once.

“Jiminah?” Jungkook says as he takes Jimin’s chin in his hand. Needing to make sure it’s him and Jimin nods as he keeps staring at his eyes as he takes him fully in his mouth, causing Jungkook’s legs to nearly buckle he has to hold onto Jimin’s shoulder with his other hand as his cock gets worked so sweetly he can’t understand how Jimin has such a tender touch even when doing this.

Jungkook kept his hand on Jimin’s chin without thinking but now he feels him gulp and his jaw moving as he licks and sucks his cock the entire length briefly then back to the tip. Licking and flicking his tongue across it all the time Jungkook can feel every muscle working in his jaw to make it happen. Turning him on so much that he can’t believe how good it all feels.

Jimin picks up the pace. Using both his hands to hold still as he creates a tighter seal on Jungkook's cock using his tongue flat on the underside and his lip on the top to make the seal tighter and tighter as he moves his head maybe 2 inches down the cock, over the tip fully then maybe an inch down the shaft. Over and over until he could feel Jungkook starting to fuck his mouth a little. Not aggressively. Not desperately. Just gently as his hand still held his chin. Jimin lets the seal break with a small pop as he licks and sucks together. Knowing Jungkook needs his pace to pick up

Jimin saying in his morning voice “Cum for me, I want to feel it on my tongue”

Jungkook's eyes rolled and he bit his lip hard as Jimin grabbed his ass and started to use it to move on his cock a little faster. A little harder as he licks and sucks. Less delicate and more needy of Jungkook’s approval in his cum.

“You’re doing so good for me. Jiminah, Making me cum on your tongue.” Jungkook says as Jimin tastes it. 

Tastes and feels his mouth get warmer and wetter and he knows his tongue is covered in Jungkook’s juice. Knows as he kicks he is using Jungkook’s own cum to lick him more. Sucking it all down and gulping loudly as Jungkook thrusts one last time deeper into Jimin’s mouth. Hitting the back of his throat for a second.

Jungkook’s fingers grip into Jimin’s shoulder leaving tiny bruises instantly as he stands there feeling his orgasm ripple around his body still. Pulses happening in waves as he swallows hard.

Jimin about to put his cock out, Jungkook looks down at him on his knees before him 

“Slowly take my cock out and stick your tongue out, please?” Jungkook asks as Jimin does as he's asked.

Jimin opened his mouth and let Jungkook’s cock slide over his tongue as he took it out. On his knees still with his tongue sticking out as Jungkook looked down at his saliva mixed with cum, spit so clear and cum so milky. Seeing them mix together and cling to the inside of Jimin’s cheeks. On his tongue in a puddle, over Jimin’s lips, making them glisten as one corner starts to dribble a little. Jungkook watches silently after taking a deep breath and wipes the dribble with his thumb.

“It’s exactly how I pictured it. Better. I loved that so much” Jungkook says. Leaning down and kissed Jimin’s tongue as he lifts him up. Jimin’s legs wrap around Jungkook’s hips as they kiss deeply. Jimin so turned on by what they just did that he moans at every lick.

“Can I cum? Do we have time?” Jimin asks into the kiss and Jungkook lays him down on the bed.

“Touch yourself for me? Let me see how you cum thinking about me” Jungkook says as he lies down next to Jimin. Wetting his fingers he tweaks Jimin’s left nipple. Hearing a deep intake of air that lets him know he wants it. Holding his nipple between his thumb and finger as his index finger rubs over it. Watching his spit form a spit trail around it. Hearing Jimin moan into his own arms that he held over his face as his hips rise and his back arches off the bed.

“I want to watch. I used to cum thinking about watching you cum alone without knowing I was there. I would think about your naked body twisting in your own hands and saying my name as you cum hard without knowing I watch you, Give me that, Let me see it.”

“You really thought about me as much as i thought about you? I never thought about a real person before. Always faceless, until you.”

Another moan from Jimin as his nipple gets pinched and his cock jumps so much it stands up proud for a second before it falls back down and makes a thud sound on his stomach, reminding him it was there. He takes his own cock and starts to give Jungkook what he wants. 

At first keeping one arm over his face as he touched his cock to cover any embarrassment to doing this kind of stuff for the first time and then because he needed something to stifle his whimpers as he worked his cock so well. Jungkook looked under his mattress and pulled out his lube, pouring a small amount on Jimin’s cock. Watching as it made every bit of him sparkle in the raw sunlight, hearing it make louder noises as Jimin could move faster.

Jimin saying “Gukkie? Pour more? On ..on my balls… hole?”  

as Jimin says it his lips stick to his arm and as he feels the lube cover his balls and feels Jungkook soak his hole, his lips drag along his own skin as he gets so lost in the feeling of another's hands on him.

Jungkook’s fingers linger on his rim and Jimin doesn’t stop him. Wishes he would just go further.  Go inside. Fuck him. 

Jimin move onto Jungkook’s finger that taps at his hole. As his hand stops touching his cock and he holds Jungkook’s hand in that place instead. Gently but definitely letting him know he wants it, Feeling Jungkook press firmer on his rim. Pressing like he sees how strong it is. Jimin uses his heels to move himself onto the finger until Jungkook’s tip was poking just inside.

Jimin moved his hand away and Jungkook took a deep breath as he used his fingers either side to press and manipulate Jimin’s rim as he softly moved deeper inside him. His finger inside Jimin’s hole and Jimin saying “Kkyu” so sweetly as his legs opened wider for him.

“When I can and I’m alone, I finger myself. I fuck my own fingers as I think about you fucking me hard. Can I fuck your fingers? Can you fuck me with it? More fingers? Three?” Jimin’s whispers are so sexy as he asks for what he wants. Jungkook more turned on every second.

He Pours more lube on his fingers and Jimin’s hole and moves his one finger. Feeling Jimin move his hips with him as he does. Letting his index finger move slowly and gently inside Jimin’s hole too. Feeling fuller Jimin’s eyes close and breath deepens as he moves his body on Jungkook’s fingers. Fucking them without touchng his own cock. Just feeling his fingers in him about two inches deep. Stretching his hole as his hips rise and fall.

“One more, Please?” Jimin moans and he feels Jungkook’s fingers fill him up. 

Stretched out and fucked. Jimin whimpers and moans and says Jungkook’s name as he hooks one leg over Jungkooks legs and his fingers  fuck him as he watches Jimin’s stomach muscles tighten and release everytime he fucks him. Stretching his hole more and more as he goes deeper until Jimin can’t stop fucking. The feeling in his body overwhelms him as the deep feeling builds.

But wanting more.

“Can we make love? Kkyu?” Jimin asks as he turns his head to the side and peeks out at Jungkooks face.

“You wanted it special” Jungkook says with is eyes so big like he can’t believe this is happening.

“It’s you. Gukkie. It is special and I’m so ready, Please?” 

Jungkook looks scared, as scared as Jimin looked. That kind of scared of not knowing how the fuck to do something but needing to do it. Needing it. That physical sensation, the deeper connection they are convinced they will gain from it. Needed it.

Jimin feels for Jungkook's cock. Harder than it was when he cum. Rock solid and eager to fuck him. He doesn’t move from the position he is in with one leg over Jungkook's thighs as he is on his side but that position changes as Jimin's ass presses Jungkook to lie flatter.

“Tease me” Jungkook whispers as he feels Jimin take his cock and run it on his rim. Feels him press it to his gaping hole and feels it get warm with lube and Jimin.

“Baby? Look there, is that ok?” Jungkook asks, pointing at the full length mirror in front of them on the wall. Their naked bodies into each others and Jimin's hole on show for them both to see.

“We look so good together” Jimin says as he rubs his hole over Jungkook’s cock. Using his thighs and hips to move in waves. Up and down, Jimin with one arm around Jungkook’s shoulder. Using it to help him move.

“Now?” Jungkook says in a voice Jimin hadn’t heard before. Kind of eager but blind. Like he has no clue.

“Now, fuck me.” Jimin says as he stays still for a moment and let Jungkook take over. Feeling his cock press at his rim. Trying to understand the give that's needed even though it gapes slightly after the fingers

Jimin helps and presses Jungkook's cock against himself. Kind of flipping him inside. Like he pressed the middle and the tip had no choice but to follow and then it filled him and Jimin froze at the feeling.

His eyes large as he finds Jungkook’s hand underneath him and holds it so tightly, both staying still for a minute.

“It’s so big in me. It feels so big, bigger than our fingers” Jimin utters to no one really. Just out loud as he grips Jungkook’s shoulder and hand.

“Can you go on top of me?” Jimin asks a silent Jungkook. Silent as he tries to figure out how not to cum fast and how to stop being so scared.

“Aye” is all Jungkook says as he scoops himself under Jimins legs as he splits them wider and moves in between them. Finally on top of Jimin. Both staring at each other, Until Jimin wrapped one leg around Jungkook's thigh. Pulling him in a little and making him push deeper into Jimin. Making them both breathe deeply and Jimin to moan more. Jungkook feeling Jimin’s hole quiver slightly around his cock, he goes deeper. Until he is balls deep and it feels so warm as he starts to move a little like he works it out.

He catches Jimin’s eye and they both laugh a little. It became so intense so quickly like they forgot they were here together as they lay in this warm bed.

Jimin kisses Jungkook’s lips. Feels the familiar urgency Jungkook brings to their kisses when he wants to taste Jimin and within seconds they forget they are fucking and kiss so perfectly like it cured all their fears. Jimin moaned into Jungkook’s mouth as Jungkook instinctively started to move his hips. Not pulling out too far but grinding himself into Jimin, using his hips to move as they kiss and Jimin’s moans get more frequent until he is scratching at Jungkook’s skin on his arm as they kiss and fuck.

Moving into each other and feeling the connection they want finally.  Jimin grips Jungkook’s cock inside him and he moves himself in a roll as he feels Jungkook’s weight on him start to relax more, and they grind each other, getting faster and faster.

Jimin takes his own cock and holds it tightly between them. Feeling his cum building with every push and shove he feels into his body. Finally mouthing and nuzzling Jungkook’s shoulder as his noises got louder the more fucked he got.

“I love it, Kkyu. feels so good. I love it, I need to …cum”  Jimin gripped Jungkooks shoulder harder as he pushed himself down into the bed and Jungkook pushed himself into him. grinding him harder and harder. With his hips whipped into him as he pushed himself as deep as he can go. Feeling his own cum so close everytime Jimin says his name until he feels the wetness between them as Jimin’s cum leaks over his own stomach and chest and Jungkook can’t stop himself from following. So turned on like he can’t get any higher. His own noises sound like he growls with the push out of his body.

“Fuck” Jimin says as he feels the warmth inside him and his own cum on their bodies between them.

“That was special I think,” Jimin says with his eyes so wide and his lips pout so much Jungkook can see them without even opening his eyes.

“I can’t talk, I can’t words,” Jungkook says as sweat pours from his body onto Jimin’s skin. Falling down onto him like he can’t move.

“I don’t care what anybody says. Even if we did that wrong it was right” Jimin hears Jungkook’s words in his ear.

“You’re late anyway, you may as well stay with me now? Here” Jimin says as Jungkook lifts himself up and finally slowly pulls out. Putting a towel under Jimin and wiping himself.

“Baby” is all Jungkook needs to say.

“You have to go, I know, I know” Jimin says as he watches Jungkook wrap a towel around himself to go shower.

“Not too sure I can let you out looking so sexy. What if you meet a handsome doctor and run off” 

“Director lee? He had his chance, you’re safe, For today” Jungkook teases and smiles as he walks off to the bathroom and Jimin gets dressed in joggers and a hoodie after he wipes himself down.

And goes to sit with JJ who’s already in the fridge looking at what he can cook them with his noise-cancelling headphones in. taking them out when he sees Jungkook walking past.

Jimin keeps kicking the fridge door shut like he wants JJ to get out of there. JJ gets pissed off but keeps opening the door again, eyes rolling he finally asks

“You wanna tell me what you want and I’ll cook it and then we can talk about your food and then we can watch some films because I had my Netflix taken off me by my ex-girlfriend”  

JJ says as Jimin peeks over the top of the fridge door and points at bacon and eggs and bread 

“Toasted, Please. You had a girlfriend. Do you have sex? If you do it right it feels good? Can you do it wrong?” 

Jimin says it so sweetly Jonjo has no idea how to react and just says in a faded voice.

“...sooo…toasted”  

Jungkook walks out the bathroom fully dressed with a towel drying his hair. Standing still for a second, he catches the last of the conversation and shakes his head.  

Already past 10 am. late but he’s still not sure if he goes at all. Feels weird making love and then leaving. Feels weird leaving Jimin at all.

But he knows he has to face it at some point. Might as well get it done.

 He says bye to JJ and scoops Jimin up in his arms as he gathers his bag and phone and Jimin clings on to him as they walk 

“I’ll call you. I finish at 8pm. I’ll be back by 9, JJ stays here so no pissing him off too much, be careful who you open the door to and If you call and I can’t pick up straight away do not panic… OK? Love you”

“OK so. Leave the door open. Make JJ go home and call you incessantly. Got it.

Love you too. This morning was beautiful. You know? ” Jimin says like he is somehow high on them.

Jungkook goes to answer but shakes his head instead as he puts Jimin back on the floor after a peck on his lips, If he doesn’t go now he never will.

Jimin watched him from the stairs get into JJ’s shitheap of a car and drive off 

“He’ll be ok. You think? At work? They will fire him. You think? How do I get Prozac without a doctor? Will Yeon give it? What if he sees Ben? Or my Uncle? Shall I just go with him?” Jimin is already working his way into a panic attack in 30 seconds of absence.

“Jiminssi. Sit down with me. Let's eat this and then I’d like to go over your notes together. We can work out some plans. And yeah he’ll be ok. He’s good at handling himself”   

This made Jimin raise his eyebrows a little and he sent a text to Jungkook straight away

‘ Jonjo said you are good

 at handling yourself,

 You are better at handling me.

 Come home soon. I miss your touch

 and I want to cum again.’

Jungkook's phone reads the message out loud as he drives and he shakes his head again and sticks his tongue in the side of his mouth followed by adjusting himself as memories of this morning flood back.

Losing your virginity before work isn’t standard maybe but it was fucking good, wanting to get back to Jimin as soon as possible like a cork had been popped, now it’s out it can’t be put back in.

As he pulls up in front of the clinic he sits and stares. Resting his mouth on the steering wheel as he stares under his eyes at the people milling around, unaware he is watching them all. All being treated so kindly makes him angrier. Chewing the inside of his mouth now. Every bit of loose skin bitten off as he thinks

he heard the knock on the window taking him out of his thoughts.

Yeon stands there with her red hoodie pulled up, she knocks again mouthing ‘open, you prick’ and Jungkook leans across the piece of shit car to open her side as she slides in.

“I know what you’re goin….” Jungkook starts and stop when little smacks start to hit his body. Defending himself as she slaps at him repeatedly.

“Aishhhh, Jungkookah, why have you come in? You could have fucking called me, why would you take him like that in the night? His uncle wanted to press kidnap charges. Fucking ridiculous. Here. take these. Jimin’s meds. Lee’s given you a 6 month supply and this prescription but those assholes are here and now you have to face them and why didn’t you fucking call me?” 

Yeon is out of breath as she empties her pockets of meds and throws them under her seat.

“I am so confused right now” Jungkook said with his face creased so much and his eyes as round as they can go as he questioned every decision he has ever made “You would have helped us? You are helping us?” he says as she puts her hood back up and opens the door.

“Of course we are. We’ve been trying to legitimately get Jimin out of here since he first came. We got his notes and they were utter bullshit. Lee had already asked around for help.” 

She speaks as she starts to walk. Not waiting for Jungkook to catch up so easily.

“We saw it on day one. Jimin never reacts to people the way he did to you, We saw a way for him to finally get actual help instead of having our hands tied. So go in there. Face whats there and then fucking leave. Go back to Jimin and fucking leave this madness here”

“Who's in there, Yeon?” Jungkook says as he locks the car and follows her up the stairs quickly. Moving like spies.

“Uncle Parks law firm apparently. Since you left they have camped here. The rude fuckers.”

Yeon leads Jungkook to director Lee’s office. Walking him in and standing behind him as Uncle Park's lawyers and doctors and secretaries all crowd around the desk in front of Jungkook. 

Seven men. All dressed the same. All with the same pinched-up angry faces.

“You may leave now, Aunty,” One of the suits says to Yeon and she corrects them “Head nurse Yeon. thank you. Jungkookah, I’ll be on section 2 waiting to see you leave” she rolls her eyes at the men in suits and gives a slightly disgusted look to Lee.

“We understand you have concerns about Park Jimin’s treatment in this clinic. This is something personal to the Park family that you were inappropriately inserting yourself into.” 

the suit says and Jungkook can’t tell who even just spoke. No expression on any of their faces.

“Do I get to talk? You are the ones that treated him unfairly, I give zero fucks about exposing anybody so you can stick your NDA’s up your arses, you can sue me until you are blue in the face but I will not stand by and watch as you hide another human being because he holds the truth of Park past.” 

One of them that was standing behind the others steps forward like a ferocious rat and speaks without thinking it seems, Just letting their collective anger show through this one asshole.

“We can jail you. We can disappear you. Who looks after your damaged piece of ass then? Do you not understand this, you little cocksucker? This isn’t about fucking image. This is about billions upon billions of every currency you can fucking imagine. You think one Park Jimin is worth any of that? He’s kept here for treatment he so badly needs at the request of our doctors. You can sue them too if you like? Sue everyone, see how well that works out for you”

Jungkook stands back up, shaking his head as his phone keeps ringing

“What do you actually want? You know I didn’t kidnap Jimin and you know he doesn’t need to be here. No bullshit. Just let him go. He’s happy with me, he is no threat to PNI, the only danger he is ever in is when you put him in these places time after time. Just leave us alone. I can take care of him”

Another suit steps forward holding a phone as he speaks to Jungkook “take care of him until the videos and the pictures and the diaries and the entire reason you take him becomes so apparent, we know your long game, Jeon Jungkook. You come from shit and you’ll go back to shit.” 

the sneer on the assholes face like he just won something annoys Jungkook more.

“My game? My game didn’t leave a kid to be abused by his rich parents. My game didn’t fuck him over so much he can’t eat properly or sleep properly or understand a world past these walls. My game didn’t deliberately bully and harm a baby till he was eight years old as his ENTIRE fucking family stood by too rich to do anything… My game wasn’t to buy a cat and feed it better than they ever fed their child. That wasn’t my game, that was your client's game. Do you understand me? You want an NDA on that? The fact one of the richest families stood by and watched a kid nearly die at the hands of his own parents? Fuck you all. Fuck you all in hell, My long game is to take care of the person you try to kill. Fuck your game.”

Director Lee stands up sharply as the suit on the phone mutters “do it. Go” with Lee holding his hands up moving himself to Jungkook’s side of the table.

“Gentlemen? This is getting out of hand. This isn’t the outcome I was promised. I was told Park Jimin would be taken care of and it’s my medical opinion Jeon Jungkook is that safety. I will sign anything to secure that.”

“And your funding? You will turn your back on that and where do your other patients go? Wonder the street because one person can’t keep his fucking life in line?”

Lee looks at Jungkook who seems to finally get it. Giving a small tight lipped understanding smile to Lee.

“Jimin is staying with me. I’ll fight you anyway you like. I’ll fight you fucking all.”

Jungkook slams the chair he was gripping back into the desk as the suits all stare at him with no emotion, forcing Jungkook to frown for a second. 

Somethings not right.

Lee takes him by his elbow and leads him out and his phone won’t stop fucking ringing and his mind is going to explode so much he feels the pressure everywhere on his body. A pressing like it tries to grind him into the ground.

“Lee. I can feel every bit of power they have. I can feel it.”  

“Go home. I’ll take care of what I can here. Take Jimin somewhere for a short while? Busan maybe. Somewhere he knows.”

Lee pushes Jungkook out of the building almost and his phone rings again on the stairs outside. As Jungkook looks he sees JJ’s car with the window smashed in, obviously ransacked but no idea why. As he got to the car he looked under the seat to find Jimin’s meds still there.

What the fuck did they want? Or just to be pricks?

Phone again and this time Jungkook answers to a frantic JJ straight away as he gets in the car

“I’m sorry. Kookah.. Sorry… they just… They took him. Jungkookah!… they fucking took him. They came in and they took him.” 

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Jungkook is so angry he grips the steering wheel like his fingers will snap it in half. Trying to breathe but holding his breath at the same time, stepping back out of the car. His eyes like fire with so much anger he’s never felt before as he runs back up the steps to the entrance and gets bounced back down by more assholes in suits. Landing flat on the steps he jumps up with no effort and runs at them again.

“Is he here? Did you bring him here? LEE? Yeon? Lee? Fuck. fuck. He needs me… Jimin needs me” followed by a smaller voice. A defeated voice that's so final and so battered

“I.. I. need him” 

One more attempt and another push down the steps and another fall without trying to save himself. This time sitting on the last step. holding his head in his hands. breathing close to forcing him to black out. 

He sits there cursing them all and himself, something in him still not believing this is happening, how can they just take a grown man away.

He feels his arm being pulled up by the elbow and sees the red hoodie again as Yeon picks him up to walk fast and they both keep moving straight to the car.

She gets in first with no words and locks her door. Jungkook follows with one last look at the people gathering at the steps. Deciding what to do with him, should he cause more trouble.

He drives off in silence. Broken by Yeon finally saying “Jungkook?” 

“Don’t say it” Jungkook answers solemnly as he drives without taking his eyes off the road for even a second. He focused and tried to ignore his heartbeat.

“Jungkookah? If you know what I am going to say then you know that it's the right thing to do”

“You want me to give up and let it be? Right? Like people have done to him his whole life.” Jungkook finally looks at Yeon. it lasts for barely a second but she feels it so deeply she wishes she could cry for him.

 His eyes dark are bloodshot. Pain radiates from every muscle in his body. Feeling everything Jimin felt Jungkook would swear if he could take that pain away he would. He would take it and keep Jimin safe and happy and loved and Yeon can see that but she has to try.

“You’ve just been told they snatched a grown man from another grown man's house. They don’t give a fuck who they fight or why. It might be his only option now to just behave, They won’t give in. they don’t see him as human at all. Just … just an issue. But maybe it’s better than him constantly running for the rest of his life. Not even you can keep him safe from them. it could be kinder to walk away. Jimin’s mind can’t handle that much constant tension and trauma”

Jungkook shakes his head but again more silence as he pulls up outside his place. His landlady and Jonjo stand on the pavement outside. Jonjo looks battered with blood on his face and hands.

As soon as he sees Jungkook his face crumpled into tears. Spit fills his mouth as he opens it and cries loudly as he says sorry over and over and Jungkook holds him tightly as Jonjo looks like he will fall.

Still looking terrified and ashamed he lost Jimin to them.

The landlady explaining as best she can.

“They came to me first and I told them I had never heard of you two but then Jonjo came to ask for milk and it all went so fast. They’ve hurt Jonjo so much, he fought them. He kicked and punched and bit and they just outnumbered him and kept him down. Jiminie came out and did the same but.. Jungkookah? They beat him so much. He refused to stop fighting and they hit him until he couldn’t even be awake. Jonjo had to watch it all as he tried. I called the police but they said they were busy and to call back later. What is that? Call back later. Someone has just been stolen”

Jungkook nodded at his landlady and thanked her. Assuring her he would sort it and be safe, asking her to go back inside. As he asked Yeon to help him get JJ upstairs.

As they help JJ, Jungkook says one last thing

“You still think he is better with me walking away?” Yeon purses her lips like she can’t argue anymore

Yeon grabs what she needs to help clean up JJ as Jungkook gathers addresses of all possible places they could have taken Jimin.

“Fuck… China… Jimin said they took him to China before.”

“Twice, They took him from our clinic too. We had to beg for him to be returned” Yeon recalls. Guessing they are about to take him there again. Seems to be their go-to place to escape everything.

“Mm Yeah Look on my phone. I saved the search I did on his uncle. He has connections in China and London, One place in particular, the region he invests a lot of money in even now. I assume they have a clinic there? Check it.” 

JJ winces as Yeon presses gauze to his cut lip to stop the bleeding.

“I’ll phone Lee.” Yeon says and leaves the room to sit outside in the light rain as she calls.

Jungkook can hear half of the conversation as he paces backwards and forwards. JJ tried to ask him questions to be quieted down with a hand.

“Because it went wrong? WE are responsible. I did think that, I did believe that but, respectfully, Oppa, we were dead fucking wrong. They can't escape… to where? We could … should... Have treated him how we thought he was, someone that needed protection from them…. No, I won’t stop, Not himself, He didn’t need protecting from himself, Oppa? We made this worse…and now it’s fucking on us and we have to do something. Help Jeon, I mean it. I’ll go to the press this time. I’ll do it.” 

Yeon stood up from the stairs she had been sheltering from the rain on, but now she stood in full pelt of the rain hitting her body like she didn't register it.

“Please? I don’t ask much from you... From us... But Please let's make this right if we can”  Yeon's voice turns tender and pleading. Speaking to her lover, not her boss.

Jungkook understanding more and more the depths of this whole situation, he moves to the front door. Holding it open as he stares at Yeon to come inside.

“Lee calls back, He’s finding out as much as he can but God knows what or how long. But we won’t give up now. I promise.”

Jungkook nods. Forgiving Yeon and Lee as much as he can right now.

“Yahh, I can’t just sit here blind. I need to do something.” Jungkook picks up JJ’s car keys and walks out. 

Sitting in the car for a minute so he can think.

“Think… think… where are you, Jiminah? Where are you, my baby?” Jungkook swallows hard as his brain fogs and he goes blank. 

An irritation born of so many things that it becomes a whole new emotion, anxiety, empathy, loss and fear that take over and finally his fog lifts for a moment as he hears the car door open and JJ slips in the passenger seat.

“Yeon waits for Lee. he picks her up to go find information. I’ll go with you” Jonjo says confidently as he sits in his own passenger seat. In his own car.

Jungkook slams his hands flat on the steering wheel 

“We go the airport. That fuck is bound to have a private plane, right? I tried his phone again. Still off, But I can feel it. I can feel it, I swear. He’s there. They send him to china again.”

Jungkook drives off faster than he should. JJ gripping his seatbelt in his hand to get some comfort. Taking only minutes to get to the airport that should have taken half an hour easily.

“We need to find the private entrance, do they go straight out to the plane or go through customs or what? What do they do?” Jungkook says as he pulls the car over and stares at JJ for answers

“Oo ohhhh call that man?... the one from new years… the man… the one you kissed at 12.. That man for fucks sake” JJ’s hands flap wildly as he tries to make them both remember 

“Ohhhh…. Ewwww” Jungkook says remembering his drunken kiss with Hong last new years, as he searches through his phone numbers he sees Hongs number that he put in himself ‘BigBadHyung’ and Jungkook’s skin crawls remembering him.

“I hate this. I hated him touch…. Hii Hong…Hy…Hyung… It’s Jeon Jungkook..errr..remember me?” Jungkook’s face scrunches up in embarrassment as he remembers Hongs hands all over him that night but Jungkook was so drunk he just accepted it as at least he wasn’t alone that night but it makes all kinds of ew’s happen now.

“Yeah… the tongue sucker… forgot you called me that… hmmm Dude. you still work at the airport?” 

Jungkook makes throw-up motions as he listens as he gets visible Ick all over his face 

“ Yeah dude... Listen I can’t reminisce right now but I need to ask…. Yeah…. Yeah… another day… hmm Dude? Dude? Do private jets need to go through customs or can they drive straight onto the tarmac? Not international. But not sure. Money money... Like Richie rich money… Ok. I’ll look for it. Ok… no, No thank you. I don’t want to. But thank you… no.. dude, that's… gross.”

Jungkook ends the call and pulls a stink face as he says “ north gates. They can go straight onto the hanger. Private take off. He’s here, JJ. I know it.”

Jungkook finds the private gate and pulls up a little away from it. “Park somewhere safe and come back, Ok?” Jungkook says as he ties his sneaker laces tighter and pulls his hood up. Putting on a mask so only his eyes are visible.

“Good luck” JJ says as he pulls away and tries to find somewhere to park.

Jungkook looks for a way in without setting off alarms. Seeing a delivery truck arriving at the gates waiting to go in he runs up behind it and climbs onto the roof of the truck. Laying low and breathing fast “ what the fuck am I doing? What the fuck am I doing? Fuck fuck fuck” he keeps repeating over and over under his breath as the automated gates open slowly and the food truck pulls in. Jungkook lies flat waiting until he feels safe to climb down and run off to the nearest hanger to hide and look around. 

The hanger he runs into for smaller private planes is empty of people but full of junk and he finds it easy to move and hide to look around and out at the vast runaways and other hangers. 

One caught his eye immediately, two black sedans parked up with airline staff talking to people through the window, Jungkook can’t see anybody and they aren't wearing suits like Uncle’s men all seemed to, so he keeps looking around. He looks back at it again and as he squinted his eyes to see it all better he felt a harsh grip on his shoulder, forcing Jungkook to freeze for a second before flipping the arm off and grabbing a gas can and swinging it at the person that grabbed him. Jungkook made the loudest grunting noise that echoed across the runways in between the hangers as he swung and then saw JJ’s stupid big smile.

“Fucking prick. Fucking actual fucking prick” Jungkook says falling to the floor and sitting down again out of the way of anyone that could see him, pulling a smiling JJ down by his hips and hearing a small yelp from JJ as he hit the floor

“They here?” JJ asked trying to see outside again and having his head pulled back down by his ears with Jungkook holding them both tight.

“Can you stop, is this anytime for you to be you? And no he isn’t here, yet… maybe they come by later. We need to know flight times. Can we find that? Private flight times booked?”

JJ again looks up over the top of the giant oil barrels they hide behind and he notices something hanging for the car window across the runway.

Sitting back down and looking confused a little.

“So remember when you said I should stay away from Kitty and I did but when you left today I might have played boo with him for a little while as we ate and….”

“If you’ve touched Kitten I will never forgive you. You understand me?” Jungkook says both pouting and frowning at his friends words 

“No I promised but this might be worse...for you… I played boo by taking your small furry printed blanket? The one with the rabbit on that you think we don’t  know about and that's what I threw on Kitty’s head to play boo with and well…”

“My blanket? You…touched my blanket?  fuckers. Well what? Spit it out, Jonjo for fucks sake”

“Well… Your comfort blankie is hanging out of the window of that car.”

Jungkook looks so shocked he does a double take at JJ and then peeps his head over the top of the barrel and then back to JJ. his eyes go HUGE when he sees his rabbit blanket gently flying from the Sedan's barely open window.

“It’s him? It’s Jimin. I told you. I said it.” Jungkook sits back down. Smiling but also nerves coming through

“What now? I can’t just walk over and take him. Can I? Also, can we stop calling it a blankie? It’s just a nice feeling blanket” 

Jungkook looks around trying to grasp some way to get Jimin away from there, His brain working in overdrive as he races through possible ways to get to his Jiminah.

He scrambles around on his hands and knees trying to find anything. Anything he can use to create a distraction.

“Ahhhh Jonjo! This” Jungkook says pulling some khaki-coloured material from a step and throwing it at JJ. who caught it with his face.

“put that on, go to the plane and say it can’t take off. Carry this toolbox.. Ok? Ok?” Jungkook smiles so convincingly calmly that JJ starts to put the greasy oil-covered jumpsuit on without question at first then it hit him

“Wait? No? Wait? They beat us up... Like all of us. Three people they beat up and that's just today and you want me to go over in quite frankly dick revealing too small overalls and just say they can’t fly?” 

JJ is saying no but still trying to squeeze his bigger self into a smaller self clothing. He stands up and Jungkook takes the overalls off his arms and shoulders and ties them around his waist. 

“That's better. You look good” Jungkook’s voice goes higher in an obvious lie and JJ smiles for a second and then it drops and he gulps.

Jungkook watches to try to count his many people they have to deal with. Counting only 4 so far including the two drivers.

“Ok go.” Jungkook says thrusting the toolbox at JJ’s chest. JJ snatches it from him and says “NO”  but feeling Jungkook is pushing him out of the hanger’s open shutters and the last step that puts him out in the open Jungkook shoves JJ so much he basically runs out of there as Jungkook hides and makes his way out of a side door to try and sneak up on the cars.

Running fast in short bursts. Hiding behind every object he can find to hide that he is getting closer and closer to the rabbit blanket holding Jimin. 

Biting his lip as he goes with his eyes so large and round as he bounces around like a spiderman in heat, nervous breathing and sweat dripping from his hair.

Jimin sits in the air-conditioned car and still sweats as he holds the corner of Jungkook's blanket from the window. Wondering how long it will be before he gets caught and punished and prays to himself that he doesn’t get blocked out by his system, knowing he is in control, though he feels safe. 

Even seeing the guns and stun guns his uncle's security team are allowed to carry doesn’t scare him since he heard it. Echoing.

He heard that grunt .. that sweet noise he’s heard before from Jungkook the last time he felt perfectly safe and he heard it here again. He knows it.

He knew he would find him, an unwavering belief that Jungkook wouldn’t let him go made him smile to himself through his fat cut lip and bruised skin.

When he heard that life giving noise he fed Jungkook’s blanket through the window as slowly as he could. JJ showed him the blanket this morning and Jimin instantly smelling how gorgeous it was. Jungkook’s scent all over it. Barely washed but often held and even through his bloodied nose he could happily smell his man.

And now he engaged the one guard that was sitting with him in the back of the luxury car. 

Jimin casually flirts to disarm him, who laps it up like a hungry tiger.

Jimin’s only mission; to fucking escape before they take him away never to be found again. He admitted he would do anything to survive right now.

“Why would somebody as warm and handsome as you do this terrible job? My uncle can’t pay that much right, Honey?” Jimin says. Using his eyes to smile despite how painful it all feels.

“Hinky, My name is Hinky not Honey. Your uncle pays well but I do enjoy…Benefits if... Offered” 

Hinky makes himself a little more comfortable as he sits next to Jimin. Pulling his trousers a little at the thighs to loosen them and release his member a little, unbuttoning his jacket and loosening his holster.

distracted by Jimin more and more as Jimin watches in every mirror around the car how close Jungkook gets to him. Making it easier to flirt just to make sure his man isn’t seen.

“You’ll have to clean me up… a bath maybe, when we land? Where do we go this time, Honey? Will you stay with me? My personal… carer?” Jimin rests his hand on Hinkys thigh, watching as Hinky moves his tongue over his teeth and the tip touching his lip. Imagining what he could do to Jimin as he answers “China. We fly in 30 minutes, Once your uncle arrives”

Jimin sees Jungkook disappear directly behind the car they are in and he removes his hand instantly with a smile “ah, my uncle. Good. I do hope he travels with us, would be nice to see him after all this time” 

Jimin looks away out of the window, ignoring Hinky breathing on his neck and sees the mechanic that walks closer to them, 

Blinking as he recognises Jonjo and the whole plan clicks in his head and how completely dumb it is and he giggles a little to himself before he feels a little lightheaded and feels Kitten peeking. Trying to see his friend, JJ.

Jimin struggling to keep control but knows it is essential, creating an inner dialogue with his system to Please be helpful Please not now. Kitten behave.

JJ stands in front of the cars. Nervously. Hoping they don’t recognise him from the beating he took. His hair under a cap and his face covered in a greasy mask he gestures for them to undo the window and holds his toolbox up.

“Last … ermmm last minute checks.. I was ordered by ….” JJ mutters a name fast and moves towards the plane as people get out of the car next to Jimin, His ex-Chinese doctor steps out looking puzzled with another bodyguard looking around trying to find out what's happening. 

JJ realised they miscounted and the cars held more than they thought.

Bodyguards speak to each other quickly as they assess everything and JJ moves to the aeroplane pretending to check it. Kicking tires like he would a car. Feeling like a dick but ignoring all questions as he walks around. Looked back nervously at the back of the car to see if Jungkook had made a move yet.

JJ accidentally flips a panel up and by chance it makes him look like he knows what he's doing. He randomly pulls at wires and smells inside the panel for no reason. 

“Can you go and find out what's happening, Please, Honey?” Jimin says. Again turning his charm toward the easily manipulated ego.

“I was told not to leave you” Hinky says as he buttons his jacket back up, obviously thinking he should go outside and deal with the manly issue at hand.

“I will be here waiting for you. The sooner we go the sooner we land..together” 

Hinky looks out of the window, asking the driver to open the door and steps out. Leaving Jimin alone finally but still unable to open the door from this side.

JJ points and tuts loudly saying “If you’d have flown today your… funderbrinks...  would have snapped causing this bird to fall out of the sky... Like weeeee”

JJ drops his spanner on the floor loudly, creating the diversion Jungkook needed to open the door to the Sedan and guide Jimin out. Both slipping to the back and Jungkook pointing where he wants them to run to first, Jungkook reaching across the seats and snatching his rabbit blankie up fast and scrunching it into his hoodie as he scrunches his lips up, still not believing Jimin had his blankie in the first place.

JJ drops another spanner on the floor after he taps on some valve that instantly started to leak thick black oil and he said

“Aighhhh, told ya, let me go get my boss to double check my work ok.. We all got a chain of command huh. Big guy… Huh?” JJ says accidentally touching Hinkys pecs and putting dirt on his white shirt.

JJ leaving everything and going the opposite of Jungkook.

Jungkook and Jimin run to the hanger hand in hand as fast as they can. Not looking behind them. Just running as JJ starts running to the gates that automatically open when they sense a car. 

 JJ sighing saying “fucking really? I’m plump, not car”  as Jungkook and Jimin come running out after him. 

The three of them run down the embankment that leads to a small river and JJ directs them to his parked car if they follow the water line.

Followed by Hinky in the car, leaving the doctor there to explain to Jimin’s uncle who turned up within minutes of them escaping.

They got to JJ’s car out of breath and wet from the river. JJ driving as Jungkook and Jimin sat in the backseat cooing over each other, checking every bit they can see and Jungkook kissing Jimin’s bruises and pouring water into his hands so he can wet Jimin’s face and remove some of the dried blood by his eye

“How did you know? I can’t believe you found me, Gukkie, I can’t believe it” Jimin says as he crawls over to Jungkook’s side and sits on his lap. Jungkook held him with his hands wrapped around his ass.

“I was there too, by the way” JJ says but is ignored as Jimin and Jungkook kiss and he catches Jungkook’s eye in the mirror as he is showered in kisses 

As Jimin kisses his face over and over “and you risked everything for me”

“I was there too, you know,” JJ says again. Huffing more and more as he does.

“And you could have been so injured by them all but for me, you came and got me, like magic. Like magic, you saved me, like my angel” More kisses and finally, Jimin kisses Jungkook’s lip’s and they stay there for a moment kissing passionately as JJ has to listen to their sloppy sexy noises.

“I was also an angel... Just saying” JJ says as he flicks the rearview mirror so he can’t see them anymore and drives. Feeling Jimins arms around his neck and a kiss being planted on his head.

“You are also my angel and Kittens too” Jimin says as Jungkook leans forward and wraps his arms around JJ’s neck too, kissing the same place as Jimin saying “Mine too. No teasing”

They both sit back down and put their seat belts back on and JJ smiles so broadly his entire top set of teeth can be seen.

Then he pulls over and stops the engine.

Turning around in his seat “real talk. Where now? Your uncles not gonna stop this and we already took a beating today so now where? This will never stop. Right? We need to work something out with your uncle. Try and reason with him. Somehow”

As JJ says the last word Jungkook sees his friend’s head go one way as his body seemed to go the other way. A loud yell that none of them knew where it came from as broken smashed glass flew in all directions covered their bodies in tiny painful cuts

The car spins around on the spot at first then slides across the road so fast as it gets slammed by uncle Park's armoured Sedan.

Missing other cars narrowly as Jungkook reaches out to grab JJ and pull him to them to hold him safely as he was being held by Jimin. All three clinging on and trying to protect each other but JJ had taken his seat belt off to turn and talk to them and now his hefty body was flailing around like a giant weapon inside the car. Legs and arms hit Jimin and Jungkook hard as the energy hitting the car dissipates.

Stunned in a smoking car, Jungkook tries to focus on Jimin who’s passed out, the seatbelt holding him too tightly across his chest keeps him upright. Saving his life probably but causing him to be incapacitated now and then the door opens and Hinky reaches in. 

Jungkook holds his hand over Jimin's seat belt clip to try and stop Hinky from undoing it but his hand gets slapped away every time he tries as his own body starts to hurt with every movement.

Jimin comes around and starts to panic and fight as much as he can.

His face so terrified as he finds Jungkook’s eyes and sees he is just as terrified. Scaring them both so much, not scared of the situation but of them being separated again.

Jimin starts to shout 

“NO no no no no no, Please. no, Please, Please, let me stay.” 

Simple words but that's all he can say as he clings to Jungkook’s hoodie. Reaching inside to grab hold of him harder but Hinky releases his fingers one by one and Jimin is ripped from Jungkook as he scrambles to hold onto him still, Jungkook's face purple with a mix of pain and energy he needs to try and fight, his teeth clenched so tightly. Spit flies out of his mouth as he breathes hard to try and get air.

He watches helplessly as Jimin’s fingers are prized from everything he grips to stay with him.

Fingers clinging to anything to stop him being taken. Nails ripping as he claws to stay with Jungkook.

One last plea and Jungkook’s heart breaks 

“Don’t let them keep me. Gukkie”

Jungkook fight to move harder but the seatbelt holds him in tight and he can't get free, he looks down to see what traps his legs and he can’t get JJ off him no matter what, his legs under his dead weight and he can’t move fast enough to stop any of this

“Fuckkkk ... Jimin... JIMIN? Fuckkk. Jimin? Jimin fight…  fight them… I’ll find you.” 

Jungkook’s words turn into a loud scream that rips through the car and forces Jimin to know he is being taken. That He can’t be saved this time

Jungkook screams as he watches the last bit of Jimin disappear from him, thrown in a different car and he can’t help but cry as his life is taken and driven away.

Breathing too tight. Feeling like his ribs are broken as he feels the car move and Jimin’s uncle has sat next to him in the backseat.

“Your cars going to explode. Do you understand? We’re going to help you out and we are going to place your bodies on the side of the road and we are taking my nephew to a different clinic but understand this?

You keep fucking with my family and testing my patience I am going to get tired of your shit the same way I am tired of his.

Grow up, Jeon, Jimin is receiving treatment for issues your dick can not cure. The sicker he is the better. I can prove in court he can’t possibly inherit the family business as the eldest grandchild. Passing it to my sons. This order should be passed within two years.

If the little weirdo is still alive you are welcome to come and pick up the shell and take it anywhere your romantic little heart wants to… but I warn you. The More shit you give me, the more shit I give him. He’s better off dead to me. Understood? If not for his grandparents I would have buried him a long time ago. See you in two years, Kid”

Jimin's uncle gets out of the car. handed a handkerchief he uses it to wipe his hands and dust down his suit then flicks his hand to signal they should get them two out as he gets in a different car.

Jungkook has a plan to jump up as soon as they undo his belt. They seem to know this as he is punched straight in the face knocking him unconscious instantly. 

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Jungkook wakes up and knows he is alone. He feels it as he tries to look around but the big thick neck brace he has on stops him from moving his head. 

His eyes start to focus. Obviously, he was in a hospital.

Looking up at the ceiling he can’t stop the pool of warm tears that have threatened to fall since the second he opened his eyes and they fall down his face with gentle sobs. The feeling of missing Jimin hitting too hard.

Wiping the tears away his little sobs were muffled by his own hand over his mouth.

The door opens and Jonjo walks in holding cold drinks in his hands and some sandwiches, throwing them on the bed as he sees Jungkook is awake and he gets too excited. 

Hugging Jungkook then hearing him saying ouch and pulling away just as fast.

“Why erm….” Jungkooks throat goes dry and JJ opens a can of lemonade and passes it to him.

“You’ve been out cold for three days. I've been wetting your mouth regular” JJ says getting a “Hmm gross” from Jungkook before he smiles.

“Thank you for taking care of me… and Jimin and Kitten. All you did. Thank you, JJ” Jungkook finally says

He reaches the velcro strap on the neck brace and removes it himself

 “I don’t have a neck injury, lets go?” Jungkook tries to get out of bed not realising the pain he will be in with his ribs but finding out quickly as he leans forward and they hurt him so bad his eyes clenched tightly shut as he grips his pain.

“Ok. let's stay here one more day…. I take it Jimin is in china? Gone?”

“Not china. But gone yeah, apparently his private jet was destroyed by a clumsy mechanic pulling out wires. Lee had time to got hold of Uncle and explained all the evidence he had himself. He convinced him if nothing else that Jimin stays in korea. We just aren’t allowed to know where.”

“Jimins here somewhere? Where, JJ? We need to find him and make sure he is ok” Jungkook again tries to stand up but this time manages it and looks around for his stuff.

“Kookie. I’m going to say this only once but no, I’ve lost my car. You’ve lost your job, we’ve both lost a friend and nearly died and It is time we understood true love doesn’t mean you get to interfere in his life anymore. We… you need to back off, for now. Let Lee and Yeon do whatever they can. Let us sort out ourselves but for now, for a short time. We need to step back.”

“Nope” Jungkook says as he starts to get dressed in his own clothes. Struggling and holding his t-shirt out for JJ to help.

“Nope? Thats it? I worked that whole speech in my head for 3 days and you wake up and say ‘Nope’” JJ says Nope in a whiney voice and Jungkook rolls his eyes.

“I’ll get you a car. I’ll sort out my work and I will find Jimin. So yeah…. Nope. help or don’t, you’ve done enough for us and I thank you but still nope. I’m gonna get him back”

Jungkook walks out of the hospital room. Checking both ways before he moves. Seems this will be normal now to always look over his shoulder.

“JJ?” Jungkook shouts and JJ comes out of the room holding all the food he has just bought.

“Your place?” JJ says

“My place” Jungkook answers as they leave the hospital completely. 

“Jimin’s going to be so hungry” is all JJ says sadly as they hop in a taxi.

“He can order food, I put all the apps on his …. Phone. That we can trace because I have him connected to my find my phone app.”

Jungkook smiles as he presses the corner of his phone to his lips. It didn’t work last time but this time after a short while surely they will let Jimin keep his phone?

Just a waiting game. 

And he does. Jungkook waits

Every day he woke up and tried to first find Jimin’s phone and secondly to leave Jimin a message

 “Don’t give up, Baby, I’ll find you, I love you, Jiminah”

The seasons passed so quietly but every day and every night Jungkook tried to find Jimin, using the app. He left messages on every forum he could think of just trying to let Jimin know he will come for him. not to give up or in.

JJ moved in with Jungkook. At first to make sure he washed and woke up. Some days Jungkook wanted to just sleep endlessly but JJ kept him moving and sorted out Uni but now he lived with Jungkook because they needed each other. Jungkook and his loyal best friend. Partners in crime.

One day 398 Jungkook crossed it off his calendar like he did every day he waited. Waking up his routine now was Pee. message Park Jimin. Check all news outlets to make sure Jimin wasn’t mentioned. Check the app and eat breakfast with JJ.

Waking up earlier than usual his phone vibrated on his chest where he dropped it last night when he fell asleep.

Someone had left him a message. An untraceable message service and as he called it he expected debt collectors or something shit

“Jiminah misses you Jeon Jungkook, He is safe with me but he does miss you” and then the message ended.

Jungkook jumped up. Over excited like a giant kid, waking JJ up and forcing him to listen

Immediately trying Jimin's phone but it’s still off and Jungkook has to replay the strangers voice over and over.

Breaking down the message and repeating it to annoyance to a tired JJ

“And what does he mean he’s ok with me? What the fuck does that mean? Ok with me? He was fucking ok with me. This mother fucker.”

Jungkook’s tongue is so deep into his cheek JJ thinks he will stick like it if he keeps doing it. Jungkook using his tongue to search for any loose skin so he can nervously bite and tongue at it until his mouth is sore.

“It don't mean anything. It just means he’s safe. That he’s missing you. Why would the stranger say that if he didn’t miss you? Hmmm? If they were together? Would you leave a message for your boyfriends ex saying he missed him?”’

“ I’m not his ex. I’m Jimin’s boyfriend. He’s still mine…. But, yeah but… I cared for him and I got him. What if someone else has? What if he was so lonely he… gave himself… what if he loves this stranger? And I've looked for him for over a year and all this time he’s been sleeping with a stranger that he's ok with? What the fuck?”

JJ cook’s them both eggs and turns them over in the pan as he absentmindedly says “well he wouldn’t be a stranger to Jimin would he, dumbass?  To Jimin he’s quite close isn’t he?”

“JJ! Fuck man… what the fuck?” Jungkook’s tongue nearly pops through his cheek skin as he walks off and slams his bathroom door shut, hearing JJ say “I didn’t mean anything just… not stranger, Not… “ 

JJ sighs. His foot spent most of its time in his mouth lately. Always saying the wrong thing. But honestly it was fucking tiring walking on so many eggshells.

He sits at the table and makes a sandwich with the eggs. About to eat it when it's snatched from his hands by Jungkook ripping it in half and taking his half.

“Jimin would take your eyes out for far less” He laughed as he picked up his backpack “can you do me a favour? Keep checking Jimin's phone for me. Just call it? Can you grab me tonight after my shift?”

“On my day off you want me to drive there anyway?” sighing JJ.

Both work at Lee’s clinic. Yeon became officially married to Lee in a shock move no one saw coming after only 14 years of dating.

Funding from PNI carried on which made Jungkook mad everytime he switched on one of their machines, using it as their charity push still plus Lee demanded Jungkook keep his place. At least until his uni course finished.

And every day Jungkook has gone to work after nightmares in his sleep about Jimin and wondering if he's alive or sad. Missing everything about his first love. 

Not once feeling that string binding them is a bother. Not once. Just knowing he is his and tied.

This wednesday would be like any other. Yeon would hand over running the floor to Jungkook who would spend his day trying to ignore his thoughts and help others.

One case he was given was a kid that self harmed since he was eight. Jungkook helped him and learnt so much from him that he became his study for his last case here. Being graded on a lot of the work he does with him, Including the sign Jimin taught him, sometimes Jimin couldn’t or didn’t want to let anyone know he felt close to harm or felt especially bad. So he and Jungkook made a smiley face that could be turned upside down into a sad face. All Jimin had to do was turn the face whichever way he needed Jungkook to notice. Special care given if he needed it but without massive interventions. Discreet and helpful and now it helps this kid to communicate. 

1pm and his shift starts. Yeon looking excited for her time off, Jungkook teases her about how happy she is as she hands over the running. Even scruffing up Jungkook’s hair as she walks past him to leave

“Some days are better than others. Right Jungkookie? And I feel time is near… Err shoe shopping. I better go” Yeon says and smiles.

He frowns for a second as he takes in the words. Some days are better than others. True. he smiles and nods and checks through the notes of everyone's night with the talkative nosy orderly standing next to him

“How can she be so excited at buying shoes? Time is near? What does it even mean?” Jungkook smiles and wonders outloud.

“YeonNim? She goes to otterbrook clinic” She says matter-of-factly and continues to talk when she sees Jungkook's disbelieving face. Like he makes fun of her for making shit up. 

“I thought.. Well.. we thought... The orderlies .. that she was maybe seeing someone else? You know 14 years to get married is extreme. So I checked her expenses. She gets paid for spending the afternoon at Otterbrook clinic and Lee, Though I can’t find it. I wanted to see if they needed more people? Extra money and well we can all do with…..”

Jungkook cuts her off by walking away. He’d stopped listening, already on his phone 

“JJ. cover me? My shift. Cover me? Now? Thank you”

Jungkook asks another nurse to run the floor for twenty minutes and he leaves fast.

Hoping Yeon takes her time leaving and he was right. He can just see her putting on her coat in Lee’s office.

As Jungkook waits by the steps JJ pulls up. Jungkook shooing him to park in the visitors car park. Jungkook running over as JJ gets out loudly huffing and puffing.

“I promise I’ll make it up to you, JJ… let me have the car please?”

“Fuck Jungkook? Please don’t kill my car? Please? Saving for this took me a year. Please?” JJ says it as he hands over the keys but looks at Jungkook strangely.

“I KNOW THAT LOOK…. What is it? Did he answer the phone? Where is he?”

Jungkook smiles so happily “You ever heard of the Otterbrook clinic?” 

“No, sounds foriegn, Is it… wait? Is Jimin there? Where. Usa? Uk? Are you leaving?”

“I have no idea where it is” as he says as he watches Yeon walking to her car “But I know a woman that does”  Jungkook gets in the car and puts the window down.

“Theres a bag full of snacks in the glove compartment. Tell Jimin he can eat what he wants but you have to replace it. ok? “

Jungkook can’t help but laugh. How he got stuck in the middle of their food battle is beyond him but he loves them both so much it makes him want to burst.

“Thank’s JJ, I’ll find Kitten and Jimin”

“Tell Kitten I love him. Please? That I miss him. I miss his belly.” JJ shouts a little too loudly.

Jungkook tails Yeon for 45 minutes. Staying a few cars behind when he could. Banking on her nervous driving to keep her mind from recognising him as she drove.

Pulling up eventually as a mansion in a quiet area on the edge of the woods.

Jungkook parks a little out of the way as he goes into spiderman mode again. Only for Jimin.

Jumping the fence behind a tree. Hoping to gain cover. 

He bounces along. Jumping and hiding and dodging. Trying to get a signal on his phone so he can google where the fuck he is. Eventually getting enough bars to be able to, he lay down next to a huge ancient-looking tree, finding out he is indeed at Park's residence. 

“Otterbrook indeed. Clever fuckers. Clever fucking fuckers.”  registering it privately as a clinic, One of Jimin’s uncle's homes now collecting benefits and tax breaks.

Jungkook peeps up at the massive house, watching as Yeon walks in through a private door at the side.

He looks up at the home. Huge windows and trellis with red roses grow over the front. Such an easy way to gain entry.

He watches for any movement. To see Yeon walk by any windows, seeing a window open and a curtain swiped back. 

Has to be it. Has to be Jimin’s room.

One last look and a message sent to JJ to show where he is. Just in case but no idea if it actually gets sent.

And he climbs. He climbs the house to the first-floor balcony like he did all that time ago when he first hugged Jimin. The warm memories coming back. remembering every bit of how perfect Jimin fit him and he needs those hugs again. Desperate to feel him in his arms. To hear his name being said from those lips.

Climbing over the long balcony that split into 5 equal lengths. Divided by more trellis.

He sits for a moment until he hears a tv and water and a familiar voice asking for a bag.

Oblivious to Yeon shaking her head as she gently closes her window whispering “About time”

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Jimin lies in his bath. Warm milky coloured water was all around him. Dripping from his hair, a towel is under his neck for comfort as he watches the small tv in the corner of the room, so relaxed as he lies back.

“Honey? Can you bring the bag please?” Jimin lifts one leg out of the bath to a cascade of water all around him. Stretching it out as Hinky walks in.

“You’ll get cramp and drown. Here's your bag” Hinky sits on the edge of the bath, His joggers getting slightly wet as he watches some of the tv show with Jimin.

“You’ve made me wet now, I need to strip off, You want me to shampoo your hair?” Hinky asks as he stands.

“No, thank you, Honey, I’m going to watch this show a little and relax in these salts. Muscles still ache so much after last night.”

“I told you not to push it too far. I thought you would bang me through the floor at one point” Hinky giggled and walked back to the master bedroom, closing the bathroom door, Leaving Jimin to watch tv and hold his bag. 

A clear plastic zip lock bag in his hands as he opens it he inhales deeply as he lifts his leg again and starts to caress his thigh

“Jungkookah” He closes his eyes as he whispers his lovers name. Hoping one day it travels to his ears like the sweetest music but right now he hears a sullen “what?” 

Jimin’s eyebrows furrow and as he opens his eyes he looks up and around slowly. He can’t have? Has Jungkook moved into his system? Is he here in him to keep forever? 

Jimin sits up in his bath and whispers it again “Jungkook?” 

“I said what?” Jungkook answers. Standing in front of the open window.

“PUDDIN' FUCKER!” Jimin shouts out as he jumps out of the bath in such shock he nearly falls as he stumbles to lock his bathroom door fast.

Hinky hearing the commotion, knocks on the door gently “Jiminah? You ok? Why did you lock the door? What do you need? Pudding?”

Jungkook starts to answer “Who the fuck i….” Jimin covers his mouth in a kiss, he stops speaking instantly and looks just as shocked as Jimin was. Both big-eyed and shocked faces.

 Neither believes the other is standing here.

Jimin kisses Jungkook like his life depends on him pressing every bit of his lips against his. 

The noises are loud as Jimin feels instantly nourished in a way food never could. That feeling of being complete hits him so happily he can’t stand it and wants to yelp and scream to express his energy.

“I knew you would find me. I knew it Gukkie. I fucking knew it,” Jimin says as he wraps his naked wet legs around Jungkook’s waist and Jungkook falls backwards into the door as he holds them both up, feeling himself soaking from Jimin’s bathwater

“I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you” Jimin kisses Jungkook more and more until their tongues meet each other after all this time but naturally they kiss each other so familiar and perfectly Jimin can’t breathe with how good it all is. Everything felt so perfect.

“You taste the same, Kkyu”  Jimin says as his body presses Jungkook’s and his hands run through his hair wildly like the excitement of an animal, His legs tightening around him. Both holding and grabbing where they can

“I can’t believe I found you... I looked everywhere, Hyung, everywhere. I love you. I said I'd find you, I still love you so much. nothing changes….nothing changes”

The door knocks again and Jimin looks angelic as he listens to Hinky talk. Feeling Jungkook’s hands on his naked wet skin. Feeling him grab his ass tight and push him onto him. Kissing more and more like he needs to answer but things are just more important as his cock goes hard and it prods into Jungkook’s stomach and Jimin nuzzles his face deeply across and into Jungkook’s chest, shoulders and neck. Wiping his face and feeling the comfort of him pass through his entire body

“Jiminah? I’m coming in” Hinky says and Jimin tries to say “no, its all ok” but it comes out like the deepest sex moan he could ever had made and it shocks Jimin and Jungkook.

“I’m a little turned on. Sorry. Not helpful” Jimin whispers to Jungkook as he nuzzles his neck and bites it so hard. Jungkook's own moan loud as his body hits the shelving behind him and his legs stretch out with the bite hitting him in his spot so easily.

 Hinky could walk in here with an axe and Jungkook still couldn’t stop himself.

“I missed you so much, baby.” Jungkook says one last time as Hinky crashes through the door and stares at two grown men. One naked with just a necklace on. One dressed like a nurse, dry humping each other up a wall.

“I… Not trouble? I? Jiminah?” Hinky looks from one to the other. Looking for answers but finding non except they look good together entwined.

“Honey?” Jimin says and smiles sheepishly as Jungkook finally puts Jimin down and lunges to punch Hinky.

Jungkook being knocked out instantly when he slipped on the wet floor and fell back on his head.

Jimin’s sassy face sucked in cheeks pout and deep sigh letting Hinky know all he needs to know.

“so….Honey meet my boyfriend. Jeon Jungkook” Jimin giggles as he bends down to help Jungkook up.

After a few minutes of shouting and Jimin putting a robe on and Yeon laughing at the sight of them all, Jungkook finally stopped looking so pale and dizzy.

Yeon comes in with some ice compresses and lays it on Jungkook's head.

“Are you fucking insane? Who runs my floor” Yeon asks as soon as he comes around and he winces at the harshness

“JJ. sorry YeonNim, I just... Jiminie” 

Jungkook says and he looks at Jimin,  as he sits on the edge of his bed. Staring at Jungkook.

Then Jungkook saw Hinky and felt the need to attack him but had no idea why.

“So you are the wonderful Jungkookah? You were right, Jimin, he is all you said he was”

“Right? I told you, perfection”

“I’m so very confused” Jungkook said as Yeon panicked a little “We should get him to hospital now for checks. We can’t treat him here. Hes concussed”

“Noo. I mean.. All this. What the fuck? I thought you were in China or at least at a clinic hidden away but you're here? And looking so well. And why are you with Hinky? When we said we would be in love. And why was you banging him into the floor when I am here. And why are you calling him honey?”

“Ahh I see. Honey? Let's go eat breakfast. Leave Jiminah to talk?” Hinky smiled and as they got to the bedroom door he took one last look

“I get why you waited, Jiminah. I get why you needed to get better so desperately” 

He closed the door and Yeon took his arm and they went to eat.

“Did JJ send me some snacks, Jungkookah? Kitten missed him playing”

“Yeah they are in the car…. Wait.. not important. What the fuck is happening. Jimin? Are we done? You don't want me? You … you didn’t wait for me?”

Jungkook sits up in Jimin’s bed. The ice pack on the table next to him

“Hinky is my personal protection, We call him Honey as a joke. I can explain later but in this time he has become very special to me. To each other. He looks after me well. Gukkie, He has my uncle's ear. He sees him as a good son, so a lot of my all be it limited still freedom is thanks to him  But… no we aren't now and have never been together. I’m not sure what you heard but…”

“Bring me my bag darling am too achy to move blahblah fucking blah. salts” Jungkook imitates Jimin’s voice unkindly. 

Jimin purses his smiling lips together as he walks into the bathroom and back out again. Holding the zip lock bag and throws it at Jungkook.

“Open it, loser” Jungkook looks at it. Something crushed up so small it fits in this bag and he pulls whatever it is out.

Rabbit blanket.

“What you walked in on was errrrr  quiet time?... personal…. quiet..time? “ Jungkook frowns “No, what do you mean. Why is blanket here in a bag? I lost him that day in the crash.. the fire, What?”

Jungkook looks like he is performing maths puzzles to a crowd as he tries to work it out

“Fuck… Jungkookah... I smell you on the blanket and I… you know? .. do that thing… to myself”

“oH.. Ohhh… you was about to… with Hinky out there. In your bathwater? You was going to smell me and cum?”

“Well, all the romance has certainly left that but yes. I was going to do exactly that. Me and Hinky aren’t now and never have been. I love you, you fucking idiot. banging him from throwing and aching is from tae-kwon-do practice. I do it to relax.” Jimin looks so shy having to admit his favourite pastime is to sniff Jungkooks scent and cum.

“Sorry. You can do it now if you like. I can stay quiet in the corner” Jungkook giggles and grabs Jimin onto his lap. Poking him and tickling him as he teases.

“You look so well, baby, maybe they were right to separate us. If this is how well you do without me”

Jungkook looks a little sad at that realisation.

“Yes and no” Jimin says and Jungkook looks away. Sad to hear he’s right.  Jimin holds his chin to bring his face to his so he can look him in the eye.

“Yes as in I couldn’t go on as I was. Uncle was destroying me for paranoid scared reasons and it wasn’t until Lee got deeply involved that uncle understood I wasn't a threat. I was a kid that needed family to finally step up. And he kind of did. We still hate each other, don't get me wrong. I hope he dies in a pan-fire but… uncle now gets it. Although he is still ashamed, the vicious circle he created  made him fear me.”

“Yeah.. I should have done more. Helped more. I was too selfish with wanting you” Jungkook feels Jimin's hands slip around his neck. Massaging him as he says this.

“You saved me. Jungkookie. You saved me and without you making people notice what and who I was I would have died in there alone and no one would have cared. Just an inevitable end to a neglected life. You saved me and I owe you my life,I owe you every life I have left. I owe it to you.”

Jungkook’s chin stars to give away his emotions as he looks away again. Making a slight laugh at how dumb he feels to cry like this.

“I couldn’t ever love you how I wanted if I was still that kid. That malnourished neglected beaten kid. Thats not who I wanted to be anymore. I wanted to be stronger and happier and give you that for saving me. I want you to have the best of me every day. Kkyu. and they helped me. Yeon and Lee looked after me and made me fight for it, they wouldn’t let me give up if I wanted you I had to earn it. The right meds. The right words and love and care. And I want to give it to you. If you still want me?”

“If I still want you? Jimin this is the answer to every prayer I asked every night for over a year.  I want us so much. I want to run with you not run away. Just always together. Run to better places. Better things”

“And JJ… and Hinky, Oh and I got a puppy…. Shes called Jeonssi, Like Beyonce but you” Jimin giggled at his own joke

“Bring me the puppy! Did Yeon do this deliberately today? Something feels set up” Jungkook asks as he leans his forehead on Jimin's chest.

“I was meant to see you next week but Do-Yun kept trying to call you. He was too excited. I guess Yeon thought he spoils it. So yeah probably she did.”

“IT WAS DO-YUN” Jungkook shouted as he slapped his own head recalling the phone message.

“So your uncle was more fucked up than any of us could ever be?”

“I never wanted the family legacy. I’m happy with my world, Now he gets it, he leaves me alone to get well. And Lee and Yeon worked so hard with me. They never gave up on us. Everytime I could have walked away they dragged me back to own it and be better. If I want it, work for it. And I wanted it so much. Just to wake up and know who I am and not be scared. Just to wake up. The system worked even harder. Do-Yun and even Kwang worked so hard to keep order and help me. The Threat I used to feel that called them out became less frequent until now they know if they front it’s pleasant. Not fear. I even got to meet Kwang and thank him. He really likes you. huh? I couldn’t be yours and fight back. I had to be mine to give to you. Or at least for us to be each other's person, understood?” Jimin gave a wink and smiled.

“How will we ever explain Hinky to JJ though? Let alone the puppy. Call her? Can I meet her?”

“They’ll have to go into therapy, Yessss, she's so cute, Gukkie and she has that tenacious cuteness that you have and when I saw her I said she has your vibe and I needed her so I adopted her and she's soo cute. I love her so much. Even Kitten plays with her. They run around for so long it makes me tired. Wait. Let me go get my tiny baby"

Jungkook waited patiently on the bed. Feeling so much better and brighter. Everything made sense somehow. Having to let go to get what you need sometimes. Holding so tightly blinds everyone.

Jungkook heard Jimin singing a little. His perfect voiced angel. His perfect boyfriend 

With his Perfect giant long-haired german shepherd in his arms.

“Baby? This is little Jeonssi? The one that reminded you of me? This is your little baby?”

“Yesssss” Jeonssi got excited and started to kick away from Jimin and ran at Jungkook at such speed he held his arms out but was drowned in the biggest dog he had ever seen in his life licking his face and dabbing her head down as she toys with him. Instant connection as he plays with her and strokes her long fur.

“Then she's now our baby, Ok, Hyung?” 

“Yes” Jimin shouted again as he high-fived Jeonssi and she jumped around and barked as bedclothes got tangled around her giant paws and she knocked Jimin onto the bed and licked his face.

Laughing so much as Jungkook tickles them both.

One big happy found family. 

Jonjo. Kitten. Jimin, Jungkook. Jeonssi. Do-Yun, Kwang. the foundest family that ever lived.