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Rain doesn't remember falling asleep, let alone falling asleep in this, albeit to his own dismay, rather comfy bed.

No, currently, Rain doesn't remember a thing from last night. Which is why, when he opens his eyes and looks to the side he makes a sound of surprise, his heart suddenly moving to his throat.

Lying next to him, in all his beautiful shirtless glory, is P'Phayu. His best friend's older brother and main object of every wet dream he had lately.

Feeling heat rushing to his cheeks he gets into seating position and as he stares at Phayu's sleeping form, he tries to make sense of how he found himself in this situation, pout gracing his lips.

He gets too caught up in his trying to remember he doesn't notice a pair of sharp eyes staring at him amusingly.

It's only when he hears a low chuckle coming from the man next to him that he gets pulled out of his thoughts.

Startled, he flails with his arms, moving to the side, and he would've fallen from the bed were it not for a pair of strong, warm, arms wrapping themselves around his waist.

"Careful, cute boy. You wouldn't want to hurt yourself by falling off the bed now would you."

A voice whisperes into his ear, hot breath caressing his skin and Rain shivers.

"P...P'Phayu...what..."

he starts to say but is interrupted by yet another chuckle from Phayu.

Phayu who is still holding on to his waist.

The heat from his body and his warm breath, tickling the shell of his ear, makes it hard for Rain to remember what he wanted to say next.

"What happened last night?"

Phayu finishes for him, his grip still firm around him.

Rain, not daring to turn his head, just nods.

"What do you think happened, cute boy?"
Phayu asks again without answering.

This time Rain turns his head to look at him. It turns out it was a big mistake. His seniors face is so close he can see his own reflection staring back at him in his dark orbs.

Rain swallows hard, licking his dry lips.
Phayu's gaze follows the movement as Rain bites his lower lip in concentration.

There are arms tightening around his waist, no doubt leaving light bruises on his skin, but Rain is too caught up in rummaging his brain, trying to remember, to pay it any mind.

Yesterday, Sky and his other friends surprised Rain with a night out at a bar near their campus for his birthday.
Birthday he totally forgot about being too immersed in his studies and finishing up his project.
He remembers Sig teasing him for his choice of outfit, which was mind you not that awful as he made it out to be.
There was singing and dancing and delicious food.
He remembers having a couple of drinks and that's where his memory starts to get fuzzy. There was a cake, and a feel of a warm body by his side, and Sky's surprised shout of " I can't believe you made it brother..." and then...and then…

Rain's cheeks heat as he remembers feeding P'Phayu cake with his fingers, remembers the heat of wet mouth around his fingers as Phayu licked them clean and a low throaty whisper of "let's get you home" and then…

Rain gasps in mortification as reality of what might have happened next hits him.

He swallows hard, willing his racing heart to calm down.

"Did...did we have sex last night."

He finally manages to say, looking anywhere but Phayu.

He can feel warm fingers tracing his sides and coming to rest against his thighs.

His bare thighs he notices only now, as the warmth of Phayu's fingers as they gently caress his skin leave goosebumps in their wake.

Phayu watches him with a grin on his face before leaning in to again whisper against his ear.

" Do you feel sore?"

He asks and Rain's brain short circuits, his cheeks flaming.

"Is he sore?" He tries to wiggle but Phayu's hold on his thighs is making it hard to do so.

He is sure he is not sore.
In confusion, he voices as much

"No, but what does being sore has to do with anything."

Faster than he can blink he finds himself on his back, his hands pinned above his head, as Phayu's strong body hovers above him. Bracketing his thighs with his own.

His loose hair, like a silky curtain, frames his face. Rain finds himself being unable to look away.
Their gazes meet and Rain notices Phayu's eyes are shining with something unfamiliar to him. He swallows hard.

Leaning in, Phayu again whispers into his ear and at this point the goosebumps covering his skin feel like a permanent thing.

"Then, there's your answer. You'd have no doubt when I make you mine cause you'd feel me for days."

Rain lets out a breath he's been holding, then another one as he feels himself getting hot all over.

Phayu lifts his head, looking at him with that same intense look in his eyes from before. But then there are wrinkles forming around his eyes as he starts to grin, then smile and laugh that throaty laugh of his.

And Rain is confused. His breaths coming out short.

Until he is not and realization hits him.

His cheeks heat even more in embarrassment.

"You are mean P'Phayu." Rain whines.

Struggling to free his arms from Phayu's hold he wiggles his body but to no avail.

On top of being hot all over he is starting to sweat now from the effort.

Rain pouts at still laughing Phayu and then he finally feels his hold letting loose as Phayu lets him go and sits beside him again.

The absence of warmth hits Rain like a bucket of cold water but he won't be deterred from what he is planning to do next.

Sitting up, he grabs the nearby pillow and starts hitting Phayu with it.

"Aiii you bastard."

He shouts as he attacks him again and again. All the while Phayu laughs through it all.

At this point Rain was sure Phayu knows about his massive crush on him.
That's why he teased him like this.

"So mean."

Rain whines and finally stops hitting Phayu with a pillow.

"So easy to tease nong."

Phayu retorts back.

Then adds...

"You know you look cute when pouting right?"

At this point Rain is both embarrassed and frustrated.
He is sure steam is coming out of his ears and mouth from how hot he is.

He hits Phayu one last time with his hand and burrows himself in the covers, wishing the earth would open up and swallow him whole.

"I'll tell Sky about this, you'll hear from him."

Rain mumbles.

Phayu's chuckle is his only answer.

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Rain knew he wouldn't be able to avoid Phayu forever.

It was already bad enough that Sky started to question him about why he isn't coming by his house anymore.

All his bravado about how he was gonna tell P'Phayu to Sky vanished the moment he first saw his friend after that day.

He was tired of making excuses and lying to him.

And truth be told, Rain himself wasn't even sure why he is acting like this, why just the thought of seeing Phayu again is making him want to hide.

It's not like something actually happened that day. Yet he gets hot all over in embarrassment just recalling that day.

"You'd have no doubt when I make you mine cause you'd feel me for days."

It's been little over a week yet Rain can still feel the press of Phayu's body on his, or hear the way his voice sounded when he said those...those words.

After realizing that Phayu was just teasing him he felt so embarrassed that the moment Phayu got out of the room and into a bathroom, Rain grabbed the first pants he saw neatly stacked into the little closet and sneakily ran out of the apartement. Hoping to all there is that Phayu won't go after him and has kept avoiding him ever since.

But as it turns out, Rain realized belatedly that that might have not been the best choice he'd made.

The curiosity about what actually happened that night and why he ended up only wearing his boxers and Phayu's shirt ate at him.

But confronting Phayu and asking him about it was not an option now. Rain was not sure if he was ready for any more teasing.

He was not ready to make a fool out of himself for nth time since he met this infuriating and gorgeous and mean man.

So that's why now as he sits at the table with his codeline members, he is trying with all his might not to turn his head to the side and look at the cause of all his problems lately.

When Phayu came in rolling with the storm raging outside, Rain was shocked. He knew Phayu was also an architecture student once but he never expected to see him here.

He quickly averts his gaze as the rest of his codline members start to fawn over him, flocking him like a pack of hungry wolves the moment he steps a foot into a bar, eager to get a piece of his attention.

Rain starts to feel anxious. He doesn't know what to do. He was not ready to talk to him yet but not acknowledging him would be rude.

So when Phayu passes by his table not even sparing him a glance Rain is shocked once again.
Shock quickly turns into a sense of relief and then a feeling of disappointment comes.

He was the one who avoided him the whole week so why was he disappointed now that Phyu didn't even spare him a glance?
His emotions are all over the place and Rain is tired of feeling like this, yet he knows it is all his doing.

If only he would stop acting like a fool and get over himself and talk to him again just like before then it would all be good and he would not feel like he will explode with all these warring emotions inside of him.

Taking a deep breath, Rain rubbs at his brows. He feels defeated. He is glad that everyone is focusing their attention on Phayu because right now he is not sure if he would be able to keep a smiling face on if one of the members asks him something.

He really wants to go home but excusing himself now would be rude and he doesn't want to leave a bad impression on his seniors.

So as the evening passes he tries to join in light conversations the people sitting at his table are having all the while sneaking in little glances towards where Phayu is seated at his own table despite his previous resolve not to look at him.

He hates himself for how weak he is when it comes to this man. He is sure Phayu sees him as nothing more than his brother's best friend, sees him only as his nong.

Yet Rain is here inconspicuously sneaking in glances at him like some love sick teeneger.

In the end, he is no different from all these other people who were just hours ago flocking Phayu like vultures.

But who can blame him right? When he looks so gorgeous in his white shirt with his hair pulled up and the necklace dangling around his neck swaying with every move he makes as he reaches across the table to get himself a drink.

Taking a big breath, Rain looks at his watch and seeing how it has already passed two hours as he came, he finds it a good time to leave without it not looking rude.

He stands slowly and excuses himself wai-ing politely to his seniors and makes his way towards the exit. All the while he has to restrain himself from glancing one last time at Phayu.

Once outside, he quickly rushes through rain, still falling hard, towards his car.

When he gets inside he sits there for a couple of minutes just breathing in and clearing his mind.

He is fine. He tells himself.

Everythings gonna be better once he wakes up tomorrow with a clear head.

And maybe then he will be braver and finally find the courage to talk to Phayu, if Phayu would even want to talk to him that is.

Putting a key in ignition he turns it to start the car when it gives a slight jolt and then stops altogether.

Rain groans in frustration. He really has no luck today.

He tries a couple more times to start the car but to no avail.

This time he groans and hits his head against the steering wheel which in turn activates the horn and he yelps in pain as he rubbes at his hurting forehead.

He is doomed.

Who does he call in these situations?

The only thing he knows how to fix on a car is to change the tire and that's all thanks to Phayu.

Rain groans again for the hundredth time today.

Phayu, Phayu, Phayu.

He should stop thinking about Phayu. And start thinking about what to do.

He doesn't have a mechanic's number and it's already almost midnight and it's pouring buckets outside.

Would anyone even be willing to come out during this weather just to tow a car?

He can't call his mom and dad since they are not in Bangkok.

Sky!

He could call Sky to come and pick him up and leave the car here at the parking lot until tomorrow.

Right, that seems like a good plan, Rain finally concludes and reaches for his phone.

But before he could as much as get it out of his pocket there's a knock on his window and Rain startles.

Phayu is standing there, in all his beautiful glory.

Despite the rain droplets rolling down the window glass he can still see his sharp eyes staring at him intently.

Rain breaks from his shock and hesitatingly rolls the window down.

Droplets of rain immediately rush in and pelter his face.

There's no avoiding P'Phayu now.

They just stare at each other for a moment. And it's awkward and Rain wants to crawl out of his skin and hide.

How can he confront him now after week of avoiding him?

What would he even say?

His heart starts to beat in tandem with rain pelting the car.

The air is charged with tension.

Until Phayu breaks the silence and Rain has never been more thankful for anything in his life as he is right now.

"What's the metter, rude boy."

Rain is so caught up in his head, having missed talking to him and hearing his voice that it takes him a moment to realize what Phayu said.

Rude? Rain's temper rises and he lifts his head.

Rude, yes he knows avoiding him was rude but what else was he supposed to do.

And talking about rudeness, he was not the only one who was being rude.

What about Phayu's behavior today? Not even sparing him a glance.

Now Rain is certain the steam is coming out of his ears.

He is staring daggers at him now, all the previous anxiety thrown to the wind.

And he knows Phayu knows he is pissed for being called rude.

Phayu rises his perfect dark brow in a challenge.

Rain follows the rain sliding down his perfectly sculpted face towards his lips where amusing smirk is gracing them.

He wants to scream, bite, punch.

But before he can so much as open his mouth he is interrupted by Phayu.

"There you are." He says and leans in to look at him directly.

Rain is stunned speechless. And thoroughly confused.

What does that even mean?

"I heard the car horn and went to check in just to see it came from my little rude nong's car."

Phayu say's changing the conversation to the matter at hand and Rain bites down his anger.

"Hello to you too, Phi."

He can't help but say which earns him a warning glare from Phayu, but he ignores him.

" My car won't start "

He just says simply. He wouldn't be able to explain anything more anyways as he has no clue about cars.

Phayu hums and leans in to look at the dashboard startling Rain.

After he is done looking at it he turns his head to look at him.

Their faces are so close Rain can feel his warm breath on his face.

After staring at each other for what felt like ages but were probably mere seconds, Phayu tells Rain to open the hood and without saying anything else he retrieves.

Rain lets out a breath he wasn't even aware he was holding. And does as Phayu told him.

He watches as Phayu lifts the hood up and as much as Phayu can be infuriating, Rain doesn't want him to get sick because of him. Standing out in all that rain.

So he quickly grabs the yellow umbrella he keeps in the backseat of his car and quickly gets out making sure he closes the window completely.

He comes to Phayu's side and holds the umbrella for him as he is looking over his car.

When Phayu notices him he turns his head and is looking at him with an expression Rain can't quite decipher.

"Your boiler's leaking. The starter dynamo sound indicates that there is something wrong.
You can either leave your car here or call the tow service though.. "

Phayu stops and turns to look around.

"...judging by the state of the streets I doubt anyone would be willing to go out on this weather just to tow your car "

Phayu braces his hands on the car and looks at him.

Rain already assumed so but hearing it from someone else just made it even more clear to him what he has to do.

Asking anything else from Phayu would be too much.

It turns out he will really have to call Sky to come pick him up. He wouldn't be surprised if he doesn't pick up his call, though. After all Rain did, he kinda deserves it.

He slumps his shoulders, defeated.
He reaches for his phone when Phayu speaks again.

"Lock your car and come with me."

Rain looks at him and says

"Why? You helped me enough. I don't want to bother you anymore then I already have Phi. You can go, I'll call Sky to pick me up."

At that, Rain sees Phayu clenching his jaw.
He steps out from under an umbrella, closes the hood and gets the key and Rain's bag from where it is thrown over his seat and then locks the car.

It all happens so fast Rain has no time to react and then he is being pulled by his arm towards Phayu's bike.

"Don't you think it's time for us to talk naughty boy?"

Phayu says as he dislodges Rain's umbrella from his grasp and closes it, putting it to the side and grabbing the spear helmet he keeps stashed in his bike.

Rain's heart is in his throat. As much as he is not mentally ready for the conversation with Phayu, he knew this day would come sooner than later.

So he doesn't fight it when Phayu puts the helmet on his head and gently tucks in his stray wet hair.

He then reaches behind Rain putting his bag on his back for him as well.

Suddenly Rain feels all his fight from earlier draining away completely, being washed by the falling rain.

He feels emotionally drained and when Phayu squeezes his shoulders in assurance, Rain lets out a breath.

"All right Phi."

He says, and follows Phayu as he sits on his bike.

Once Rain is seated as well, Phayu reaches behind and takes Rain's hands, putting them around his middle.

He leans his cheek against Phayu's wet back.

The fabric of his jacket, cold to the touch, grounds his wandering thoughts.

In any other circumstances Rain might have find the feeling of cold against his skin jarring, but here, now, as the warmth of Phayu's body slowly starts to replace the cold, he doesn't mind it at all.

As Phayu starts his bike and they slowly head down the flooded roads of Bangkok, Rain wonders if he'll ever have the strength to tell Phayu how he feels.

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Rain is glad Phayu decided to take them to his apartment above his twin brother's garage instead of taking them to their parents house. He doesn't think he's ready to face Sky yet. Not before he sorts his feelings regarding Phayu first.

So when they stopped in front of the office building where Phayu has his apartment, and Phayu ushered him inside, telling him to go upstairs and take a warm shower, Rain obliged without any complaints.

Since Phayu wasn't there to give him something to change into, having yet not come from parking his bike, Rain decides to take some clothes himself.

After he was done picking up the first pair of sweatpants he saw, a t-shirt along with some boxers, he hurries into a bathroom.

He didn't realize how cold he was until he started to peel off his rain soaked clothes.

He knew he couldn't stay in a bathroom forever even though he tried to prolong the inevitable by standing under the hot shower, he knew he had to get dry and dress up.

Once he was done he looked at himself in a mirror.

"It's gonna be ok" he murmurs to himself and steps out of the bathroom.

He was rubbing at his hair just to have something to do otherwise he might vibrate out of his skin from how nervous he was.

Phayu was standing by his bed, staring out into the lights of the city as rain gently danced against the big glass windows.

He already changed into dry clothes. The gray sweats and black sleeveless shirt.

His arms are crossed over his chest and Rain can't help but admire the way his muscles look as the rain sliding down the windows throws dancing shadows against his skin.

Rain is not sure if Phayu heard him come out but he slowly approaches him, not trusting his voice enough to call his name, and when he is close enough to touch him Phayu turns around.

Rain stops abruptly and the towel slides out of his fingers and it would fall onto the ground but Phayu catches it.

"Why so skittish, cute boy"

Phayu chuckles and the air around them suddenly feels lighter.

"Let me help you dry your hair, come sit down on the bed."

"Ok, Phi."

Rain says and does as instructed.

Sitting this close to him makes Rain nervous but he can do it.

Phayu gently starts to rub his hair in circular motions and Rain relaxes a little bit under his touch.

He wants to say something, anything, to break the silence but words seem to be stuck in his throat.

He is starting to become anxious again.
Picking up at the seam of his pants as he tries to calm himself.

The longer the silence stretches the more apprehensive he gets.

But then Phayu stops drying his hair and the towel is replaced by his fingers as they gently rub at his scalp.

Goosebumps erupt all over his skin starting from his neck and he shivers closing his eyes.

"Rain…"

He hears him say and then there's a hot breath against the shell of his ear as Phayu leans in closer.

"Why are you avoiding me?"

The cat is finally out of the bag.

Rain opens his eyes, taking a deep breath.

"I don't really know, Phi."

He says honestly.

Because he was embarrassed after that night after making a fool out of himself?

Because he has all these feelings for this man yet no courage to tell him.

Maybe both, and it all eventually became too overwhelming.

So avoiding him seemed like the best option. At that time, that is.

Because as it turned out, it wasn't the best thing to do.

All it did was make him hurt people around him.

Suddenly, Rain is overcome with a need to tell Phayu everything. To spill his little heart out.

He wants to tell him everything so damn much he starts to shake with need.

Because, if he doesn't tell him now he may never get another chance to do so.

He may never feel brave like this again.

So heartbreak be damned.

He can vaguely feel Phayu's fingers still gently massaging his scalp, his neck. But he feels lightheaded, like he is floating.

Why is it suddenly so stuffy inside his chest?

Distantly, he can hear a voice saying something.

Is someone calling his name?

He is not sure.

All he is sure of is he needs to get the stuffy feeling in his chest to go away.

He needs to…

"Rain…"

Someone's calling him but it's so, so hard to turn his head towards the source of the sound.

His hands move to his chest.
He needs to get these layers off.

Everything feels too suffocating.

He starts to claw with his fingers at his chest.

Then, gentle hands take hold of his own frantic ones and suddenly he can feel his floating mind being anchored.

There is a heat coming off of someone, something, somewhere to his left.

And that voice, he can hear it clearer now.
Calling his name again.

It's familiar and soothing, and Rain never wants it to stop calling him.

"You are ok Rain. It's ok."

It says and the fog in Rain's mind starts to lift.
Distantly he is aware of turning his head. And looking at a pair of dark eyes, eyes he remembers always looking fierce but now are soft and full of concerne.

He knows those eyes.

"P-Phi?"

He asks timidly, unsure of anything.

And then there are strong arms pulling him somewhere and he follows without thought.

"It's me, sweet boy. It's ok"

Voice whispers into his ear. And he finally becomes aware of his own body, the floaty feeling having completely gone away.

It's his Phi.

"P'Phayu."

He says as if confirming for himself even though he knows that the hands gently rubbing at his back as he is straddling the warm body could belong to no one but his Phi.

Suddenly Rain is aware of everything.

Of the way his chest is pressed against Phayu's. Of his hand gently rubbing at his back and patting his hair.

Aware of how his face is pressed into the crevice of Phayu's neck and how his hands clutch at Phayu's shoulders.

Rain doesn't know how long they'd been like this. Soaking in each other's warmth.

"Are you feeling better now? Let me look at you"

Phayu says starting to pull away but Rain tightens his hold on him, not ready to let go of yet.

So he clings onto him tighter, burying his face into his neck harder.

Phayu chuckles and Rain can feel the vibrations against his body.

" I would never thought my cute boy would be this clingy after having panic attack"

Phayu chuckles again.

Panic attack? Is that what it was?

It's scary and he hopes he never has to experience it ever again.

"Rain."

"Yes Phi"

Rain manages to whisper against Phayu's neck. He suddenly feels really tired.

"You know you can tell me anything, tell Sky anything. You don't have to be afraid.
I never want you to feel scared to say things to me."

Rain knows that. But what he wants to tell him, it's not easy.

But he has to do it.

Gathering a little courage that's still left in his exhausted body he finally spills his heart out

"I really like you Phi."

He whispers it then…

"I…

I…. think I am in love with you Phi,
and I don't know what to do."

The silence that follows makes his heart drop but it's ok. He will be ok. He has to.

"But it's ok Phi."

Rain continues,

"I never expected anything from you. I just wanted to let you know because carrying all this inside was becoming suffocating."

He can feel his heart beating fast.

" You probably already knew how I felt, right. Please don't hate me."

The walls he had put up finally came crumbling down and he feels tears slide down his face.

That's when Phayu pulls away and makes him face him.

Rain can't bring himself to meet his gaze.

He feels so pathetic and closes his eyes in vain attempt to stop the tears from falling.

He feels Phayu's fingers as he gently wipes his tears as they silently fall.

He wishes Phayu would not be this gentle with him. It's making everything so much harder.

"Look at me Rain"

Phayu says, lifting his chin up.

When their eyes meet Phayu's gaze is so soft.

"Why would I hate you cute boy?"

Today, when you came out of your car, holding that umbrella for me, I was reminded of the first time we met.
Do you remember it, Rain?"

Rain is still crying and he is sure the snot is gathering at the edge of his nostrils

And he is also confused.

Confused because why is he asking him this now?

Of course he remembers.

He would never forget that day as long as he lives.

"Yes, I rememberb Phi. "

Rain answers sniffling, and a fond memory starts to play in his mind like a movie he watched a hundred times. And he throws himself into it.

"My car broke. And it was raining. And I was panicking because I didn't know what to do then suddenly you were there, like some knight in shining armor and I was so happy someone was willing to help me. You told me to open the hood. And I… I just couldn't stand there and watch you getting all soaked by rain so I grabbed my umbrella and l held it for you along with your helmet. Then you removed your mask and I embarrassed myself by blurting out how handsome you are. But you were ok by it and accepted my compliment.
You called the tow service for me and offered to drive me home but I said I wasn't on my way home but you still insisted to drop me off to where I was going.

It was to Sky's house. I told you an address and you laughed out loud for some reason and I was confused but didn't ask you anything about it and then you led me to your bike and we were off."

This is where Rain stops his little reminiscing to chuckle remembering the rest. He could see Phayu looking at him with a smile to match his own on his face.

"You were so mean for that Phi"

Rain whines before continuing.

" When we reached the house, I was surprised you were following me towards the door but I didn't question it again and when Sky opened the door and exclaimed "Brother" and threw himself at your arms, I got such a big whiplash and was so confused.

When you two broke off your hug you laughed at me pinching my nose calling me "stupid boy" and I was so angry I almost threw a punch at you right then and there.

Then when Sky realized what was going on and that I was thoroughly confused he started to laugh as well."

Phayu chuckles this time and interrupts his storytelling.

"Don't laugh Phiii."

Rain whines smacking his shoulder.

"I was so embarrassed. I knew Sky for almost a year already, he became my best friend, and I knew he has older twin brothers, and I met Saifa but I never paid attention to pictures in your parents house. Since you were away and I never saw you I assumed you looked like Saifa. So can you blame me for not knowing."

"You both had a good laugh then didn't you. That was the first time you teased me and you never stopped teasing me after that"

Rain pouts, crossing his arms.

"But why are you bringing this up now Phi?"

Rain asks, all the lightness and laughter in his voice from moments ago replaced by uncertainty again as he is brought to the present and remembers what he just did.

Phayu still hasn't said anything regarding his confession and Rain is again starting to feel anxious.

Did he make a fool of himself again? Maybe he should've kept his stupid mouth shut and kept his feelings to himself.

Lost in his thoughts, he doesn't feel Phayu's hands moving from his back to his sides.

But then Phayu's hands tighten against his waist and he becomes aware of everything.

Gets reminded of the position they are in.

How he is straddling his lap while Phayu sits at the edge of the bed.

He can feel the warmth of Phayu's thighs against his backside through the thin material of his pants.

Feel the hardness of his muscles under his fingertips where he yet again clutches at his shoulders.

He swallows hard.

Heat rushes through his body and concentrates in the tips of his ears where he feels them burn with rushing blood as they are no doubt red.

"You- you can let go of me now Phi. I feel fine now."

He says weakly grabbing hold of Phayu's wrists
on both sides of his hips.

To dislodge them. To press them harder against his skin.

He doesn't know.

He feels heady.

Heady with… with something.

He is not sure anymore as all he feels is the searing warmth of Phayu's palms as they tighten around his hips.

"You asked me why I brought this up."

Phayu says, looking at him intently as if trying to tell him something with his eyes alone.

And Rain wiggles under the heat of that intense stare. But he can't bring himself to look away.

"I brought it up as an answer to your sweet confesion."

Now Rain is even more confused than he already was.

Why does his Phi have to be so difficult to understand sometimes?

"I don't understand Phi?"

Is Phayu teasing him again?

If so, Rain is not sure how much of it he can take anymore.

He just wants a clean answer for once.

"What kind of an answer is that Phi?"

Rain can't stop the whine in his voice.

He doesn't realize he is pouting until he feels Phayu's fingers at his lips, gently touching them.

"So cute." He hears Phayu mumble as he smiles, staring at his lips.

Rain swallows hard.

" You are confusing me Phi. Are you teasing me again?"

Phayu lifts his gaze and there is a serious look on his face.

"I am not teasing you right now, Rain."

And I am sorry if my teasing in the past ever caused you discomfort.

"But…" he stops and smiles.

"I'll never be sorry for teasing you Rain"

Rain furrows his brows. He wants to scream. Why does he have to be so difficult? First he is sorry then he is not. Rain really feels like screaming.

But before Rain can open his mouth Phayu continues.

"I just can't help it."

"I can't help but tease the person I like."

And for a moment everything stops for Rain.

There is a sound of his heart beating hard against his chest ringing in his ears.
And Rain feels like he might faint as his head spins.

What is P'Phayu saying? He likes to tease the person he likes?"

"I can see the little wheels in your head spinning Rain."

Phayu comments with a chuckle, no doubt seeing his confused face.

Then Phayu says the words he always wanted to hear but only dared to believe in his dreams.

"I like you Rain."
I liked you from the moment I saw you holding that umbrella for me all those months ago.

I teased you mercilessly to see if you can handle it and you did not disappoint.

I know I am not an easy person to be around but I just loved the way you bit back every time I would tease you."

If only I knew how much you were struggling with your own feelings, I would have done something sooner.

But I wasn't ready.

I needed to be sure you would not run away no matter how mercilessly I teased you.

I never want to be a source of discomfort for you and I want you to know you can always come to me and tell me everything."

Hearing Phayu telling him all this makes him feel like crying again.

It doesn't feel real.

It's like he is here yet so far away.

He will soon wake up and realize it was all just a big beautiful dream.

But as Phayu leans in and Rain feels his hot breath against his neck, ghosting against his skin, Rain knows this is real.

The touch of Phayu's lips against his pulse is real as he whispers the words that make his heart tremble.

"I think I am in love with you too."

Rain inhales deeply, his lips parting and Phayu uses that moment to swipe his thumb against his bottom lip.

Rain is trembling now, too overwhelmed he barely hears Phayu as he says

"I really want to Kiss you, Rain."

And Rain realizes Phayu is getting closer to him, their noses touching and their breaths mingling.

And all Rain can do is exhale a soft, needy
"Please" as he feels himself float in anticipation.

"Please what Rain, I need you to use your words darling." He feels the feather light touch of Phayu's lips on his as he speaks.

"Please, you can kiss me. Please Phi."

The moment the words leave his mouth Phayu's lips move and he is kissing Rain.

And it's like nothing he ever experienced before.

Phayu's lips are sweet and gentle as they glide over his.

Every nerve ending on Rain's body is alive sending shivers through his body.

Phayu's hands move from his hips and they travel up over his torso and then he feels them on his neck. Holding him in place while Phayu explores the deeps and swells of his lips.

Rain feels so hot and heady with need.

Phayu's hand moves up and into his hair. His fingers splaying and clutching at it as he deepens the kiss and Rain can't stop a moan coming out at the sensation.

His mouth opens and Phayu swipes his tongue over his gums before thrusting it inside.

And Rain clutches at Phayus shirt, needing to do something with his hands. Then moves them around his neck as he starts to move his tongue in tandem with Phayus.

Their noses brushing every time they change the angle of the kiss.

Rain is drunk on the feeling.

He feels so good he doesn't want it to stop.

There is an audible pop of their lips parting as they separate to take a breath.

Rain's head moves with the motion and were it not for Phayu's hand on his nape he would fall backwards.

He is floating and his body doesn't feel like his own.

"Too much too soon hmmm, cute boy?"

He hears Phayu whisper as he leans his forehead against Rains collarbones inhaling deeply.

"Yeah I think so."

He says all breathy.

Phayu's fingers rub soothing circles in the hair at the nape of his neck.

He feels so hot and tries to move when he feels it.

Phayu's hardness is pressing against his ass cheeks and as Phayu lets out a low groan, Rain gasps and blushes.

Suddenly he is aware of his own hardness too as it presses against the fabric of his underwear.

"Phi"

He whispers and moves his head to rest on Phayu's shoulder.

Phayu gently rubs at his back.

"It's ok sweet boy"

"I don't know what to do about this. I'm sorry."

He has never been kissed before until now, let alone had experience when things like this happen.

He feels Phayu's fingers on his face as he gently lifts his head and caresses his cheeks.

"It's ok, cute boy. Phi will teach you."

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Rain feels like he is floating.

He is vaguely aware of being lifted up by a pair of strong arms and then gently being put down.

The slow motion makes his clothed erection rub against Phayu's strong body and he gasps.

When his bare feet touch the ground his legs shake, like they are made of jelly, and he feels like he might fall if he takes even one step.

"I got you "

Phayu says seeing how Rain sways and puts his hands on his waist, steadying him.

He then takes his hand in his, intertwining their fingers, and leads him towards the left side of the bed.

Rain follows without saying anything.

Just kissing him made him feel like he was high. He can only imagine with nervous anticipation all that he will feel as Phayu shows him more.

His hand fits perfectly in Phayu's and he is overcome with giddiness.

Phayu really said those words to him!?

His hand is warm and a little callused and Rain never wants to let go of it.

But once they stand by the bedside, Phayu lets go of his hand and Rain misses it already.

He turns him by the shoulders and then holds his face in his palms, rubbing at his flushed skin with his thumbs and presses their foreheads together.

"Are you sure about this sweet boy?"

Phayu asks him and there is softness to his voice. Rain has to close his eyes to stop himself from crying.

If this is really a dream he never wants it to end.

Ran was never sure about anything more in his life as he is about this.

He might be nervous and inexperienced. And it might be too much too soon but he wants this. He really really wants this.

He wants to feel Phayu's hands on his body. His lips kissing him in places no one ever touched.

Wants to touch him in return, feel his strong body tremble because he is making him feel good.

He has shamesly dreamt about his Phi, touching him, making love to him.

"I trust you Phi."

Rain whispers his answer.

And then there is a feather light touch of Phayu's lips on his forehead.

A whispered

"Thank you "

against his skin as Phayu moves him again.

"Such a good boy."

Phayu praises as he makes Rain sit at the edge of the bed while he positions the pillows.

And Rain is vibrating out of his skin.
The praise unlocking a cage full of butterflies in his chest.

Then Phayu is climbing onto the bed,
his back leaning against the headboard and he motions for Rain to follow.

He fits perfectly between Phayu's spread legs where he sits with his back to Phayu's chest.

The warmth seeping off of Phayu's body makes him feel all warm and fuzzy and soft.

He can feel Phayu's strong heart beating against his back. It matches his own.

As he leans into the warmth, he lets his head fall on Phayu's shoulder.

Phayu's strong arms come around his stomach and hug him, enveloping him further into his warmth.

He is surrounded with Phayu's intoxicating scent and he might get high on it as he inhales deeply letting it consume his senses.

Phayu nuzzles his face into Rain's neck, mouthing at it. And starts licking at his hot skin.

Rain gasps loudly as goosebumps erupt all over his skin.

The feel of his tongue as it leaves a wet trail, making its way toward his ear, makes him bite his lip to stop himself from moaning out his name.

"You taste so good, Rain."

Phayu says, his hot breath tickling the hair behind his ear.

"Just like I imagined you would."

Rain stops breathing for a moment as the words Phayu just said register in his hazy mind.

P'Phayu imagined how he would taste!?

"I dreamed about tasting you so many times just to wake up all hot and hard with you nowhere in sight."

Now Rain is sure his heart stopped beating for a second.

What- what is P'Phayu saying…

Phayu desloges his arms where they are holding Rain around his stomach and puts them on his hips.

Rain's breath hitches as Phayu suddenly presses him harder against his body and he feels his hardness against his backside.

He hears Phayu groan and as little hot breaths hit Rain's ear as Phayu breathes hard against it.

He wants so badly to see his face.

But before he can so much as lift his head, where it still rests against Phayu's shoulder, let alone turn it to the side, Phayu is mouthing at his ear again.

"The things you make me want to do to you nong."

Phayu says and bites hard at his earlobe and Rain gasps, not able to keep his voice down as he whimpers Phayu's name.

His hard cock twitches in his underwear and he lifts his hand and presses it against his mouth to stop any more sounds from coming out.

He feels so embarrassed. Phayu didn't even touch him there yet he is all dripping wet already.

"Won't do cute boy"

Phayu says as he gets a hold of his hand and puts it down, holding it by his side.

" Now tell me, did you dream about me too?"

Rain lets out another embarrassing sound as Phayu licks at the still throbbing spot on his ear.

His voice. The way it sounds. It's sinful.

It's all Rain can think about at the moment,he forgets Phayu asked him a question.

Phayu bites again, this time harder and Rain yelps, in pain, in pleasure he doesn't know anymore.

All he knows is he doesn't want Phayu to stop whatever he is doing.

"Answer me Rain."

He hears him say through the deafening sound of his beating heart.

He licks at the spot again, taking the earlobe in his mouth and sucking on it hard.

His right hand lets go of Rain's arm where it held it pinned by his side, and moves it slowly towards his neck.

Rain gasps again, closing his eyes as hot palm grazes his hard nipple through the thin material of his shirt and it shoots sparks of pleasure down his spine.

"God, you are so sensitive Rain."

Phayu says and leans his head against Rain's hair, breathing in deeply.

His hand rests gently on Rain's neck and after a moment Rain feels his head being turned to the left and then Phayu is kissing him again.

The angle is awkward with Rain's head still lying on Phayu's shoulder, but Rain loves it.

Loves the way Phayu plays with his tongue.

Loves how it's wet and a little bit dirty with spit all over their lips.

Loves the way Phayu licks away the excess saliva under his lips as if he is parched and needs it to survive.

Phayu breaks the kiss and when Rain opens his eyes he is met with Phayu's hooded gaze.

Phayu's lips are shiny with spit and so red and he is looking at Rain like he is gonna eat him alive.

Rain swallows hard, licking his lips and he sees Phayu's eyes following the movement.

"Answer me Rain."

Phayu says again and Rain tries to remember what the question was as he is locked in place by the intense look in Phayu's eyes.

His eyes are as dark as the stormy night sky outside.

He tries to look away as he remembers, his cheeks heating.

Only for Phayu's fingers to bring his face to look at him again.

There's no escaping Phayu's captivating gaze, Rain realizes and so he gathers all his remaining courage and whispers, his voice shaking slightly.

"Yes Phi. I've dreamed of you too."

Phayu is still looking at him with that intense stare and then he is kissing him again and Rain feels drunk with it.

"Tell me what me in your dreams did, Rain."

Phayu says in between kisses.

He moves his lips to his neck again and Rain can feel his fingers moving his oversized shirt down his shoulder and then his lips are kissing it.

"You are not fair Phi… ahh-"

He moans as Phayu bites at his shoulder, licking at it afterwards.

" I..I feel so shy Phi I..I can't…."

How can Phayu expect him to say it? He already feels so embarrassed just by him knowing he dreamt of him.

He lets out a whiney sound in the form of his name and Phayu chuckles.

"Now I'm curious."

Rain hears him say.

" Let me help you show me then hmm."

Rain gulps. He is not sure what Phayu means but then he feels his hands move until they reach his waistband and Rain gasps as his warm fingers touch the newly exposed silver of skin on his hips.

And Rain watches, transfixed, as Phayu's fingers slowly disappear under his shirt.

He feels them moving over his belly and then they stop hair's breadth away from his chest, and his hard nipples.

And Rain breathes in anticipation, his heart beating violently against his ribcage.

"Did me in your dreams touch you here naughty boy? Did I play with your perky little nipples until you begged me for more."

Phayu asks, and Rain feels heady with need.
He needs Phayu to do something, anything. To stop teasing him and just touch him already.

And as if hearing his thoughts, Phayu finally puts his hands on his chest, kneading at the skin there and rubbing at his sensitive nipples.

Rain shudders, his body jerking slightly at the touch and he moans, loud and needy as Phayu pinches one nipple then the other.

He feels himself twitch in his pants, his hard cock straining against his underwear.

He wants more. He needs it.

"You are so damn sensitive Rain."

Phayu says again in wonder.

"I bet I can make you come just by touching your chest."

Yes please, Rain thinks.
He wants Phayu to make him fall apart.

"So needy." Phayu breaths across his neck.

And Rain realizes he said it aloud.

"Please, P'Phayu ahh-
please."

His head is spinning and his hands grab Phayu's where they are still rubbing at his chest.

"Was it my hands or my mouth on your chest that made you come in your dream, I wonder?"

"Or maybe-"

Phayu stops his movement on his chest and drags his hands down slowly, Rain's fingers still clutching at his wrists.

He stops at the edge of his pants.

And Rain watches with anticipation as they ghost over his clothed bulge.

" - I used my mouth here first."

Phayu's wicked mouth says as he presses his palm down, cupping him over his pants.

And Rain lets out a whiny moan as a myriad of different sensations course through his body.

"The sounds you make Rain, god you are driving me insane."

Phayu groans out as Rain feels his hips roll against his backside.

He needs Phayu to do something. Anything.

As if hearing his thoughts Phayu retrieves his hand.

He puts Rains hands on his thighs on both sides and Rain is confused but then Phayu is telling him to lift his hips.

And Rain does as his Phi told him, just for him to slide down his pants and underwear in one swift movement.

Rain can feel Phayu's intense stare over his shoulder as he feels him watch his nakedness.

Rain gulps. He feels embarrassed. No one has ever seen him like this.

His cock is hard, the head so read as precome leaks out.

He automatically reaches out to cover himself but Phayu is faster, grabbing a hold of his hands and pinning them.

"That want do cute boy. Let me see you."

You are already so wet."

He hears him say and then, without warning his hands are on him and Rain moans, his hips automatically bucking as Phayu takes him in his hand.

No one except himself has ever touched him there before.

The glide of Phayu's palm as he works him up sends pleasant tingles down his body.

He feels more precum coming out as Phayu thumbs at his head, his nails dragging over the slit, spreading the liquid around.

He can't help but watch.

The image of Phayu's big hand moving down his cock and Phayu's hot breath against his ear as words after words of praises come out of his mouth are driving him insane.

He feels himself getting closer and closer to the edge.

His toes curl in the sheets and his hands clutch at Phayu's thighs.

"Phi I am close ahh-"

Rain moans as Phayu moves his hand harder, faster.

His breaths are coming out in short bursts of ohh-s and ahh-s.

He feels Phayu's face beside his as he watches and Rain so desperately wants to see his expression.

A bead of sweat slides down Phayu's face and drops down on Rain's exposed collarbones.

Rain feels so hot he can't take it anymore. He is close, so so close.

He writhes in Phayu's hold and reaches for Phayu's hand.

"I'm close ahh.
Please P'Phayu."

He begs.

"You are such a good boy, Rain. So pretty."

Phayu says and brings Rain's face in for a kiss.
Biting and licking at his lips as he slows down the movement of his hand.

"Look at you, begging me to make you come."

The slow lazy movements, Phayu's hoarse voice as he whispers against his ear and Phayu's ever present hardness against his backside drive Rain crazy.

His dreams and fantasies fade in comparison to this.

There's just one thing missing.

"Phi-ahh…"

Rain calls his name and turns his head up to look at Phayu. He needs to tell him.

But Phayu is looking down at his own hand where it still works over Rain's cock slowly.

And the expression on his face, the way his lips are parted as he breathes out, his half lidded eyes and beads of sweat glistening on his forehead and above his lips.

Beautiful, Rain thinks and with shaky fingers he touches a little mole above his upper lip.

That's when Phayu looks at him and his hand slows down to a stop.

"I really want to touch you too Phi…"

He finally says.

"I want to make you feel good too. Feeling you hard behind me drives me crazy Phi… Please "

At his words Phayu smiles wickedly and Rain swallows hard.

"Such a good boy, using your words so well."

Phayu squeezes his cock hard and gives it a lazy tug, then another as he kisses him hungrily, and Rain's hand moves up and he twists his fingers in Phayu's hair pressing harder into the kiss.

Phayu's hands are on his hips now and he can feel their bodies shifting and suddenly he no longer has his back pressed against his chest.

He is facing Phyu now, straddling his hips and he can feel his clothed hardness rubbing between his ass cheeks as Phayu starts moving his hips, his hands still on Rain holding him in place.

And Rain watches as his hard cock rubs at Phayu's shirt, leaving wet patches of come all over it with every move.

"You are driving me insane, Rain."

Phayu says and Rain lifts his gaze.

He really wants to touch Phayu, his body, his cock, everything.

He can feel him so warm and hard against him he wants to feel it in his hand, in his mouth, in him.

"Can you teach me Phi. Can you teach me how to make you feel good too?"

Rain finally says biting his lip, and Phayu groans, throwing his head back as he presses Rain's body down on him harder.

"God, Rain."

Phayu greets out between his teeth rubbing himself harder against Rain's ass.

And Rain leans in feeling brave and slowly licks at Phayu's exposed neck and bites at it like Phayu did his ear.

Phayu's fingers tighten on his hips. It's bruising and Rain loves it so much.

Then Phayu is looking at him and Rain kisses him.

The kiss is wet and messy and Rain tangles his hands in Phayu's hair at his nape.

And Phayu's hands are pressing him down even harder. And as they move to Rain's naked butt and knead at the flesh, Rain moans into the kiss and Phayu swallows the sound down pressing his mouth harder.

When they part for breath they are both breathing hard.

Phayu's pupils are blown wide, and so so dark Rain wants to drown in them.

Then Phayu is moving him down a little and takes his hand in his.

Now, as he no longer sits with his ass pressed against his hard erection, he can see it straining against Phayu's pants.

And he watches transfixed as Phayu positions his hand on his stomach above the waistband of his pants and leaves it there.

"Go on Rain, take them off for me."

He says and Rain moves his hand as if possessed and takes hold of the fabric moving it down as he wiggles backwards and then it is off and only Phayu's dark underwear is on the way now.

"You are doing so well Rain."

Phayu praises and it only spurs Rain on.

"So big"

He mumbls, and touches the wet patch on his boxers. And he hears Phayu moan.

"Curious?"

Phayu asks with a teasing tone in his voice but he is breathing hard and Rain wants to hear him moan again.

So he presses again, this time harder and he feels it twitch as Phayu moans again.

"Rain- ahh…-haa"

Rain moves his hands to the band of his boxers and he pulls them down and Phayus cock sprangs free and bounces.

He is so, so big.

"Doing so good, Rain."

Phayu praises him.

And Rain watches, transfixed, and slowly touches the head of Phayus cock and it twitches again, leaking more precome.

He licks his lips.

"Did you dream of this, sweet boy. Of touching me, going down on me hmm."

Phayu asks.

God yes he did. He did and it turned him on every time. Just like it turns him on now.

So so much.

And he wants to do something about it but seeing it playing up in his dreams and actually doing it are two different things and Rain is not sure if he will make his Phi feel good.

"Phi- can you show me what to do to make you feel good."

He says and finaly looks up at Phayu.

Phayu smiles at him and Rain melts.

He takes his hand in his and kisses his fingers.

"Of course I can, I told you Phi will teach you everything."

And so he moves Rain's hand and places it on his cock and Rain's hand trembles as he touches the bot flesh and wraps his fingers around him.

It's so hot and so hard to the touch.

Then Phayu starts to move their hands and Rain feels warm skin sliding against his fingers spreading the wetness as he moves their hands up and down his length.

" That's it good boy."

Phayu coos and releases his hold on Rain's hand. And Rain continues on his own.

He tries doing the things he saw Phayu do to him.

Rubbing his fingers over his slit and smearing precome then slowly draging his hand down.

He speeds up his movements and through the haze in his mind he hears Phayu's low moans.

His own dick throbs painfully where it lays abandoned against his legs.

He lifts his eyes to look at Phayu and he looks so beautiful. Panting hard with his head thrown back. With his hair all messy from Rain's hands and his eyes closed.

He made him look like this?

"Am I doing alright Phi."

He asks and Phayu looks at him.

"You are doing amazing. Making your Phi feel so good."

Rain shivers at his words.

Then Phayu pulls him closer startling him and Rain has to brace his hands on Phayu's shoulders.

In this new position their cocks are pressed together and Rain gasps as he feels Phayu's warm fingers taking them both in his hand.

"Move your hips Rain "

Phayu says as he starts moving his own and Rain does as he is told.

"Such a good boy, listening to your Phi well "

Rain is panting so hard now. Looking down at where their lengths slide against each other as Phayu's big hands hold them pressed together.

Rain's never seen anything hotter in his life.

"Kiss me Phi."

Rain says and leans in and Phayu meets him halfway, their hips stuttering, slowing down a little as they kiss.

"I'm so close."

Phayu pants against his lips and gives him a sweet pack on the cheek before putting his forehead on Rain's shoulder.

"Me too Phi."

Rain moans out as Phayu starts to move his hand again frantically.

He is trembling so much from the feeling, his hips stop moving all together and he can only gasp and moan as Phayu works them both hard.

He feels so hot, so high.

"P'Phayu I'm- I'm…"

He feels his core tightening. And he grabs Phayu's forearms for purchase as he feels his balls draw and then he is coming. His throbbing cock spurting out ribbons of come all over Phayus cock and his hand.

He is breathing so hard moaning out Phayu's name as pleasure he never felt before courses through his body.

"That's it good boy, so beautiful."

He hears Phayu say and as he looks down he sees Phayu smearing his still hard cock with Rain's come and Rain lets out a sound between a moan and a groan at the sight.

It's so dirty and so hot Rain can't look away.

Then Phayu lets go of both of their cocks and starts jerking himself.

Still trembling, Rain reaches with his arm and curiously touches Phayu's red slit with his finger.

"God Rain."

Phayu moans and then he is coming. Spilling all over Rain's spent cock.

And then they are kissing, not caring about the mess between them as they cling to each other.

Phayu's hands are all over Rain's back, sliding up and down as they kiss. And Rain's are in Phayu's hair, gripping hard at the bun letting his hair loose.

When their emotions calm down and the kiss turns slow and chaste with Phayu leaving little packs all over Rain's lips and face, Rain giggles.

He feels so happy.

Phayu smiles at him nuzzling his cheek.

"Am I dreaming?"

Rain asks himself, not realizing he said it out loud.

"Not a dream, cute boy.
Now that you are finally mine, I am never letting you go.