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2025-10-02
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Back to that time, that summer day when I fell in love with you

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Rain makes you emotional.
Even it makes you get in your thoughts, sometimes.
A short fic, about the time after the movie.

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DISCLAIMER: This is my first fic. And I am NOT good at writing , so I think I might let you down. But... I also hope you enjoy this. Special thanks to APXGP discord server. You guys give me courage... you are the best!!!
Beta read by : Leonora_Acker (thank you so much!)
Title from Song Calc.
lyrics by Jimmythumb-P -translated in english byまど＠実写リロ

Chapter 1: downpour

Chapter Text

“Heavy rainfall is expected across the United Kingdom starting today. In particular, Surrey is forecast to see the heaviest downpour…"

Awakened by the sound of the television, Sonny stared blankly at the screen. The weather forecaster’s words went on, but his ears had stopped at the part about the storm. Lately, he’d been spacing out a lot. Whenever talk of F1 came up, or Apex GP, or even just a passing mention of Surrey, his attention seemed to snag on it. He thought to himself, I’ve gone completely mad.With that, he turned the TV off with the remote and lay back down on the bed. Sleep was unlikely, but unless he pretended, he felt he couldn’t endure these emotions. He hadn't felt like this since he was young, and that was way far back into the past.

Youth, adolescence—that time had passed long ago. And with it, he'd thought, his most reckless impulses and immature emotions, namely love. Back in highschool, he had felt his own kinds of “love.” Of course, it had never been pure or eternal. Usually, it began when the other confessed first, and then fizzled out. Or else it ended with both of them exhausted, leaving behind only bitterness.

That kind of love was tedious. Human desire naturally chases pleasure, and if it brought no joy and only pain, what was the point? So in his life, love had never been serious. He would enjoy it for a while, and when he grew bored, he’d simply let go first. Then both could walk away without deep wounds. Or so he thought. At least, until he stumbled upon love in Apex.

At first, he hadn’t liked her. When Ruben told her to treat him like the plauge and avoid him,, he had thought, If only he’d said that to me instead. To him, she was just another person on the team. When she criticized him at every turn, he found her annoying. But… somehow, that annoyance wasn’t entirely unpleasant. That was the problem. Even when she rejected him, it didn’t wound him. Strangely, he felt drawn in. He found her accent attractive. Her eyes sparkled like some unnamed gem. And when his thoughts piled up and reached their end, he realized the truth: he loved her.

Once he realized it, everything felt easy. He only needed to tell her how he felt. Even if she pushed him away, it didn’t matter. One day he would reach her, as long as he kept at it. Like a drizzle soaking through clothes, he thought he could slowly seep into her heart. But drizzle that soaks clothes also seeps beneath the fabric. He was seeping into her as well. And at last, when they became lovers, he could finally bare his thoughts to one woman. To him, Kate was like a dock that appeared before a storm-battered ship, a place to rest. Just her understanding—something he had never once felt before—was enough to make it feel like he had found a home.

But when he finally began to soar, he left her. As he always did, because he had won. There was no longer any reason to stay. Yet when he said his final goodbye, his chest tightened. A casual farewell wouldn’t come. For the first time, he gave her a heartfelt parting and kissed her. In that moment, he almost wished the night would stop there forever. But he left, and as planned, began anew in Baja. In his last race, the one he had wanted, he felt the soaring sensation he had craved. He was living within the things he had always desired. - So why did it feel so hollow?

He had never known such longing before. Perhaps what he left behind on that road wasn’t only Kate. Perhaps he had left his whole heart there. Slowly, he was coming to accept that. He missed her achingly. That country road where he first saw her. The tasteless beer they shared. The night view of Las Vegas they took in together. The way her smile gradually changed. The embrace they shared in victory. All of it seeped painfully into his memory, like wounds drenched in rain.

Sonny closed his eyes in surrender. Even with his eyes shut, that summer shimmered like a heat haze. Outside, the rain was pouring down in torrents.