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“ God ! I can’t believe you did that!” your best friend cried once exiting the store. You exhaled loudly in relief as she threw her hands up in exasperation. “I don’t see the big deal Ami, you’ve been saying I should meet new people since I moved here . ” She pouted and puffed out her cheeks eliciting a laugh from you. “Yeah but not.. Him . ”
You looked over in confusion eliciting a sigh.
She scrunched her face and muttered “‘ Totty’ is not the best kind of person.” Venom dripped from his name when it left her mouth. Usually Ami was cute and cheery so seeing her upset or even angry was a drastic change that put you on edge.
“What’s wrong with him?” “What’s not?!” She rubbed her temples before continuing. “He’s a neet to begin and he’s a.. a..” Why the hell wouldn’t she just say it?! Was he a murderer or something?!
“He’s a fuckboi!”
A beat of silence filled the air before you burst into laughter. “That’s.. That’s it?” “What do you mean that’s it!! I had to cuss..” She continued to pout before shoving your bags back into your arms.
“If it’s not that big of a deal, you can carry your own bags!.. I mean seriously! We go out to shop and hangout for the first time in what? 2 months? And you can’t stop yourself from getting in trouble.. And with Todomatsu no less!” You noted his real name silently.
“I doubt you were listening to me earlier but he’s seriously bad news! He acts all cute but he’s evil! Evil I tell you!”
You zoned out until she stopped ranting which she finished with a “hmph!” and crossed arms. It was possible you were best friends with a child.
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Once home you flopped on your bed, exhausted. The various shopping bags you had accumulated throughout the day had been abandoned the second you walked into your apartment.
Staring at the ceiling you thought about the day’s events and winced. Shoving your phone at someones dick definitely was not the smoothest thing you’d ever done… Did it really matter though if Todomatsu was as bad of a person as Ami said? You shook your head to clear your thoughts. It shouldn’t matter if some guy was gonna text you anyways. You hadn’t moved to Japan for a relationship. You’d had enough trauma from those to last a lifetime.
You continued to stare at the whirly patterns above you before rolling onto your side. With a feign of acceptance you decided to wait and see… And purposely ignore the fact that you might have forgotten to get his number, so you didn’t have a choice in the matter anyway. Wonderful.
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Sitting around his brothers, he lazily blew a bubble before drawing it back into his mouth with a soft ‘pop’. Already irritated from the summer heat he grumpily scrolled through his phone and seemingly dead convos. Nothing to do, no one to talk to, everyone on social media was being sickeningly cute with their significant others. Who needed a steady relationship when you can be single and do as you please? Dating? Marriage?! How unnecessary.
He shuddered before thinking to himself about how he had dozens of people just waiting for the word from him to hook up or go out. He was a wanted item! At least that’s what he told himself.
After texting a few people but being turned down from lack of time, he suddenly remembered the incident from the other day. He recalled how they seemed pretty cute.. Even with their phone angled at his crotch. Aaand it had been a few days since then so he wouldn’t seem desperate if he texted them.. Right?
Worst case scenario they don’t reply, best case scenario he could get a date or two and maybe even a hookup if he thought they were good enough.
Opening his messages he leisurely typed in their number.
Totty 2:47 PM
Hi! (o´ω｀o)
Easy, simple, not hard to reply to at all. It was foolproof.
But then an hour ticked by. Then another. Aaand another.. He was getting more and more fed up, who the hell did they think they were?! He was never left on delivered for hours on end! Never! He heatedly opened their contact page and scrolled down to the ‘block contact’ button when he got a notification.
xxx-xxxx 7:13 PM
Hey.. Who’s this?
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Despite debating still blocking them, he backed off and eventually replied
Totty 7:32 PM
Totty ! From Lush.. idk if u point ur camera at people’s dicks often but i’m that guy ! ●︿●
xxx-xxxx 7:34 PM
Oh my God. I’m still so sorry for that!
He cringed on the recollection of that day but luckily enough their guilt from it served as a perfect opening.
Totty: 7:37 PM
it’s fine ! well it will be if u tell me ur name~
xxx-xxxx 7:38 PM
Oh! it’s _____ ______!
Totty 7:39 PM
ahh, that’s cute ______-chan (●´ω｀●) i’m going to call u sylv tho.. if that’s ok?
Sylv 7:40 PM
Sylv??
Totty 7:42 PM
yep ! bc that’s the pokemon that brought us together ! and plus sylveons r cute.. like u ! :3c
He rolled his eyes and clicked out to text another possible hookup. It was just too easy. They’d either get flustered but gradually warm up to him until they were alone or they’d flirt back which would speed up the process even faster. He proudly remembered being called ‘master of the human heart’ and smirked.
Sylv 7:46 PM
I’m not going to lie to you.. I didn’t answer when you first reached out because I heard you were a fuckboi and are just going to use me. If that’s what you’re planning I’d appreciate if you didn’t respond. I don’t have time for games.
His eyes widened in surprise. Well this was definitely new. ‘Of course Ami would warn them,’ he thought to himself. She was a failed hookup in the past and was butthurt about it. He shook his head and smiled. Whatever, that wouldn’t stop him. If anything, it made this game even more fun than before.
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Clicking your phone off so you could try to sleep, your mind wandered to Totty. Ami had warned you and said he was a bad person but he had been adorably sweet and even pretty flirty. He hadn’t been a bad person, surely you would’ve picked up on it by now if he was..
You didn’t know what it was but he was incredibly easy to talk to and fun to mess around with. It had been such a short amount of time, only two weeks , but you found yourself trusting him deeply and even sharing some things you hadn’t even told Ami. You secretly hoped that didn’t make you a bad friend and brushed it off. Surely she’d be happy that you found someone you could grow so close to.
Despite being close however, you hadn’t hung out or in his view, gone on a date, since the day you’d met. He’d asked you out on various occasions but you turned him down, repeatedly making up excuses which you were sure he knew were such. He would ask why but you avoided the question just like you avoided meeting him again.
You told him many things, but why you were evading him seemed a bit too personal even then. At least you thought so until he exploded in frustration and demanded an answer. It made you uncomfortable that he was forcing it out of you but he countered your refusal by saying how he deserved that much considering how you had been adamantly steering clear of him. You were flooded with guilt and uneasiness but… Maybe he was right . Maybe you should tell him.
You opened your phone and clicked into totty’s convo but froze. The blinking line and empty textbox glared brightly in your eyes, screaming to say something, anything, but also taunting you. Would you confess? Could you confess?
What would you even say? Where would you begin?
It all started with my first relationship--
No. No no no. That was all wrong.
Their name was--
No.. That wasn’t right either.
When I was younger, I struggled a lot with trusting people too easily and being too forgiving. I was naive and dumb. People loved to take advantage of that… Of me. One day someone who I thought ‘loved’ me made a move even though I said no at first.. I kept saying it over and over and over and ove r
You choked back a sob on the memory and wiped the tears from your eyes to ease the blurriness of your phone screen. Never again. You just wanted to forget. But you had to relive it. You had to tell him.. He deserved that much. And so you continued.
They thought I was just being shy or playing hard to get but once they started actually getting annoyed or even angry and telling me I was being a bad person, even threatening to dump me! I.. I gave up. I let them do what they wanted. It hurt so badly… I felt broken and when I went home I found I hated the skin I was in. I hated myself. I was heartbroken.
They texted me that night saying ‘I love you.’ but it didn’t feel right. It felt cold. I felt.. empty. They used me time and time again and I let them. Im worhtlses used uo garbag e im a scferwu p a mes--
You stopped, drawing your knees to your chest before letting out a wail of pain. You were wounded and broken and ruined. What would anyone ever see in that?
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Sylv 12:16 AM
I’m just being dumb, haha… Sorry.
Totty 12:18 AM
ur not dumb at all.. do u wanna tell me what’s really wrong tho?
Todomatsu had watched as the bubble with three dots appeared then disappeared repeatedly until they sent that short text. It was obviously more than what they wanted to let on. Sure, he was doing this for fun, but he had to admit his curiosity was piqued. “I mean.. Why else would I want to know?”
Their speech bubble continued to waver before eventually being replaced with
Sylv 12:20 AM
Bad relationships in the past, don’t really wanna talk about it. I guess I’m just happy you’re different from the rest. I have a lot of faith in you... In us.
He felt himself blush at their last statement. They were being so honest and they seemed to care so.. Deeply for him.
Why?
Why was he even still talking to them? If anyone else had led him on this long, he would’ve stopped talking to them long ago. What was he doing?! He was letting himself get attached when he knew full well that letting people in just ends in heartbreak! And they seemed to know from past experience as well.. So why? What were either of them doing?!
He cursed at himself and his mistakes. It was too late now however, he had spent much too long on them to not get any reward. It didn’t matter what it took, he would get something from them in the end. And if they thought the two of them were ‘close’? That was their own fault.
Totty 12:22 AM
ofc .. i’d never hurt u sylv-chan -w-
With that, he clicked off his phone and rolled onto his back to peer into the darkness above him. Their lack of a reply told him they had fallen asleep already but weirdly enough?
He found he couldn’t sleep that night.