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Dahyun wakes up at the sudden feel of Mina's weight and warmth leaving her shoulder, looking around, everyone was dead a sleep, once she stood up she noticed a bright light coming from the kitchen.
Her stomach growled a bit, and by chance she saw one of her chocolate bar lying around the living room, it wasn't exactly the best idea to eat chocolate so early in the 'morning', but screw it, Mina liked her baby fat.
As she made her way into the kitchen, she could her Mina's soft voice whispering words that she was uncapable to understand, she was too far away and Mina always tended to spoke really softly. But, what surprised her was hearing another familiar voice, and true enough she found Chaeyoung and Mina having a little conversation. How ironic, out of all the people to find at 3am in the morning, it was the two people she didn't want to see together.
The accident with Chaeyoung prior to coming in here, and Mina's insecurities over their relationship... Dahyun would like to say that she had completely moved on from Chaeyoung but was that really the case?
" ...something to say to me? "
That phrase caught her attention back from thinking land. It wasn't exactly nice to spy on people but somehow Dahyun froze at the door as she tried to over-hear their convo.
" What? why? " Dahyun could hear Chaeyoung's voice shaking.
" I'm not blind or just really naive like Dahyun. Something changed, right? " Dahyun frowned, sure she was naive but...
" H-huh... I'm not following you. "
A glass thud, Mina probably put down her drink.
" Ok then, let me get straight to the point... you got your memories back, haven't you? "
Huh?
Dahyun unciously let go of her chocolate bar, making the other two ladies notice her presence, and once she came out of her hiding spot she faced a sad looking Mina and Chaeyoung with a panic expression on her face.
" What... do you mean...? "
Dahyun laughed, but it was the broken sort of laugh, she looked straight into Chaeyoung's eyes " You gained your memories back? "
" N-no. I don't know why she said that. " the girl avoided her eyes and looked away. It was Chaeyoung indeed. Whenever the girl is nervous, she would avoid looking at someone's eyes directly.
" I think I should leave you two to sort this out alone. " Mina sighed and sat up.
" Wait Mina. Don't misunderstand anything. " Dahyun grabbed her by the wrist.
" I know. I trust you. " Mina smiled, but pain was showing all over her face " Whatever you decide... it's okay. I'll understand. " she placed a soft kiss on Dahyun's cheek and slowly left the kitchen, heading towards her and Dahyun's room, but not before stopping in her tracks and saying " I'll sleep in Jihyo's room tonight. "
After Mina left, there was long silence, Dahyun was processing the events that were quickly flashing right before her eyes " S-so... tell me truth. Do you remember everything? "
" I'll make you remember again... "
" Huh? "
" Your promise. That if I ever lost my memories, you would make me remember again. " she finally looked back at the girl she loved " I guess it was just something you said at the spur of the moment since we were watching a movie about a girl with amnesia. "
" The vow. " Dahyun quietly said, remembering said film.
Chaeyoung barely nodded.
" You know, I thought that once we saw each other again and you remembered everything, we would have a lot to talk about. But right now, I feel like my mind is blank. " the older of the two chuckled.
" I-... "
" Chaeng. " Dahyun interrupted her, biting her lip " I'm sorry... for not searching for you, for not being there when you needed me the most even though you didn't remember me. "
It felt like such a long time, using that nickname, being at ease (sort of) with Chaeyoung, or well... Nana?
The latter mimicked her movements, except a tear fell from her eye “ I'm too late right? I've remembered too late. "
" Chaeyoung... "
" You're not denying it. " Chaeyoung chuckles, her voice was trembling.
Don't be selfish. Dahyun has been repeating that phrase in her mind. Her hand wanted to reach out to Chaeyoung. Reach out to a girl that has been the biggest part of her life and that she had missed for such a long time.
But being selfish had a price, and that was the possibility of losing someone who she deeply cared about, Mina.
" We should go to sleep. " Chaeyoung said, her tone exhausted, as she started to walk away like Mina did a few moments ago.
A dash.
A selfish heart.
Longing, missing, pain.
Chaeyoung.
She's here. Right now.
Dahyun let her selfishness take the best of her as she tightly wrapped her arms around Chaeyoung's waist.
" I've missed you, so... so bad. "
" This was going to happen eventually... you knew that Mina, don't be this sad. " Mina murmured to herself, but the pain in her heart said otherwise
" Was it? "
A voice from her left. It was Nayeon, who apparently assisted to the whole scene. The girl abruptly grabbed her by the wrist and made her enter the room.
Mina looked around the room, a bit taken aback, apparently, she and Jeongyeon moved, and the latter was already dead asleep in the bed.
" Mina... why are you doing this to yourself? " Nayeon, who was uncapable to understand let out a frustrated groan.
" The most obvious reason would be because I love her. And you and I both know how much she loved Chaeyoung. But I have another reason... " Mina sighed.
" You see, if Chaeyoung was to regain her memories, I've always wondered if Dahyun would still choose me over her. Even if she kept reassuring me and telling me that she loves me, even though I accepted all of those kind words, my selfish side just wouldn't completely trust her words... " Mina combed her hair back " Hey, Nayeon... I'm the worst, right? The one thing that a relationship needs the most is trust, and I can't even do that... Dahyun keeps saying that I'm a nice person but if she knew about this side... "
" You're just searching for an excuse to back out Mina. "
" Maybe I am. "
" Maybe my ass, you just are. Haven't you experienced losing Dahyun already? Do you really want that to happen again because you pushed those two together? I know Dahyun by now. She confides a lot on what people tell her, so if you, her girlfriend who she trusts, tells her that maybe she might still have feelings for Nana, then she's going to second guess her feelings for you. "
" Doesn't that confirm what I just said then? That she still loves Chaeyoung? "
" Of course she does, she's her first love and she's been in love with her for so long. But god damn it Mina, give yourself credit too! Dahyun has tried dating countless of people but nothing ever lasted long or even started with those people, while with you... she's happy. She's the happiest I've ever seen her. "
Mina bit her lip, no words were coming out of her mouth, she couldn't think of something to say back, so Nayeon just hugged her and whispered something in her ear " This is not a korean drama, you don't have to think ' if I love her I should let her go ' think about your own feelings too. Do you not love Dahyun? Then don't let someone else snatch her from you. "
Mina nods, her hands automatically move around Nayeon's back, reciprocating the hug the older girl gave her " Thank you... "
Her original plan was to sleep at Jihyo's room, but her feet moved towards her and Dahyun's room. Once she opened the door, she couldn't find anyone inside, her girlfriend was probably still talking to Nana.
A sudden feeling of anxiousness devoured her. But she decided to brush it off and lay on the bed " ...don't leave me... " she whispered to herself as she put her two arms in front of her face to cover herself from the moonlight. Mina's heart kept aching, what Nayeon said to her was right, the pain of losing Dahyun once again was too much for her to handle, but something about not pushing her towards Chaeyoung didn't feel right either.
As she was about to drown in the darkness, she hears a click and the door creaks slowly.
" ...Mina? " it was Dahyun.
Mina froze on the spot, the first thing she could think about was pretending to be asleep, and luckily, Dahyun bought it. The younger made her way towards their bed, as Mina got more nervous as time passed, she could her the girl changing her clothes and slowly lying down beside her. Dahyun's arm made its way around Mina's belly.
She loved embraces, but something about this embrace made her feel uneasy, especially after Dahyun murmured something very softly.
" I'm sorry... "
What did she mean?
Unconsciously, or maybe out of fear, Mina's hands made their way up to Dahyun's. Feeling that soft skin under her palm, treasuring the feeling to herself for as long as she could, as they both drifted to sleep.
Dahyun wakes up in an empty bed. No trace of Mina. She immediately stands up and starts looking around the house " Mina?! "
She knew she didn't image it yesterday, the older girl was pretending to be asleep, and probably heard her saying sorry and misunderstood.
" Dahyun? "
The said girl immediately turned around, only to find Jihyo looking at her puzzled " What are you yelling Mina's name at 7 in the morning for? "
" I woke up and she's gone! "
" Ok, chill, chill. She's in the kitchen I saw her earlier. " Jihyo walked closer and placed a hand in Dahyun's shoulder " Is something going on between you too? "
Dahyun reluctantly nodded " Kind of...? " the older smiled and dragged her over to her room. Dahyun was glad Jihyo was here, out of all the people, she would probably be the only one without a biased opinion, because as much as she loved Nayeon she knew that the girl was in favour of Mina. So, she tells her every single detail.
" No way... Chaeyoung got her memory back... "
" Yeah... and I don't know what got into me when I hugged her out of nowhere yesterday. " Dahyun sighed.
The older leaned back on the wall and stared emptily at her childhood friend. Dahyun knew that look, she was looking for an answer out of her.
" Seeing how you were yelling Mina's name just a few minutes ago I would say that you've already made a decision. But then I have to eat my words back because you're asking me for an advice and also because of what you did yesterday... "
" I thought I finally made up my mind though... "
" Listen, you're thinking all of this because once you'll actually make a decision it's going to hurt someone. But, if you've come this far, you will HAVE TO hurt someone. The more time you'll take to decide the more it'll hurt. " Jihyo ruffled Dahyun's hair " For all of you. " she made sure to emphasize.
" But when I chose Mina that time... don't you think I've already made up a decision? "
Jihyo nods " Yes. But we must consider that Chaeyoung was not Chaeyoung. Now your first love, or well, your long time awaited love is finally back and pulling the strings of your heart as she wishes. Kind of. "
" Then what do I do? "
" I can't tell you what to do. " Jihyo giggles " But. I'll tell you a way that I heard to figure out how to know if you like someone. "
The older girl stands up and signals Dahyun to close her eyes, which the younger does without protesting.
" Imagine. When you find a rainbow, a shooting star, a cafe you like, a four-leaf clover, or a beautiful sunset... Those small things in everyday life... when you encounter those small happiness or luck, who is the very first person you want to tell that to? "
" ...I see. " Dahyun smiles " Okay. "
" Hey, don't trust that 100% though. Now go and help your current girlfriend make breakfast. "
Dahyun closes her eyes as she walks down the stairs, the image of the girl clear and vivid in her mind. The search for the final answer could've been so simple.
She sees the two together in the kitchen, Mina was preparing some bacon and eggs for everyone while Chaeyoung as her usual 'I only love vegetables' self was preparing some sort of weird green thing with the blender.
" Morning. " Dahyun said, a bit hesitant when the two immediately turned her way simultaneously.
" Good morning. " said Chaeyoung, a bright smile on her face.
" Hey... " said Mina, who on the contrary had her classic forced a smile.
Dahyun scratches her head " Right, umh... I'm gonna go and... wake up... the others... "
As soon as Dahyun set foot into Nayeon's room, said girl got up from the bed and locked the door. What's up with people and locking her inside of their room anyways?
" So. " the older starts off.
" So... " Dahyun trailed off.
" Oh don't get all mysterious with me, Mina told me everything that happened last night! Or well... sort of. "
" If you already know everything then what do you want from me now. " the younger sighs.
" Your decision. Are you going to keep dating Mina or are you going to date Chaeyoung after all? "
Dahyun smiles and unlocks the door " I can't tell you yet. You'll see. "
Hot springs.
The sole reason the group came here. But unfortunately, the level of enjoyment wasn't the one it was supposed to be. The only ones who were probably enjoying the warm and good for your skin water were probably Sana, Jeongyeon and Momo, whom were completely oblivious to the whole Mina-Dahyun-Chaeyoung situation that was going on.
Mina and Dahyun remained awkward, they were still standing next to each other in the relaxing water, but only because they didn't want it to be awkward for the others... except, the way they acted had the opposite effect.
" What a nice view. " Sana grinned as she looked at every girl one by one and finally got in herself. Before her girlfriend would say anything though, it was like her mind already knew what to say " But you're the best view I could have. "
" I would like to disagree. My girlfriend clearly has the… biggest heart. " Nayeon grins and gropes Jeongyeon's breast in front of everyone.
" W-what are you doing! " Jeongyeon almost falls back into the water, her face clearly flushed, but not because of the heat in the room.
" If we're talking about breast me and Momo are clearly the best though. " Jihyo puffed up her chest proudly while Momo paid no attention whatsoever and enjoyed the hot springs with eyes closed.
Chaeyoung was still washing herself, apparently it was a japanese tradition to wash yourself first and then go to the hot springs, she really became a japanese person, even though she regained her memories, parts of her changed for good.
Once she finished, the little girl didn't hesitate and sat directly next to Dahyun, an inch closer and the sides of their bodies would be touching. As much as it could be considered delightful, sitting in between Mina and Chaeyoung wasn't exactly Dahyun's cup of tea for now.
Nana was a rather reserved girl, but Chaeyoung... she was one that went straight to the point with her flirting. Dahyun clearly remembers it.
A sigh escaped her lips as she side-eyed Mina. whom was quietly playing with the water, making circles with it or lightly pouring it on her knees4. Then Chaeyoung, who was just relaxing like her step-sister, without a care in the world and like this discomfort could only be felt by Dahyun.
" You three are awfully quiet, are you okay? " Jeongyeon managed to escape the hands of Nayeon and sat in front of Dahyun.
Awfully awkward. Dahyun had wanted to say.
" I'm enjoying the water. " Chaeyoung smiled.
Mina looked at Dahyun for a second (probably the 2nd time in the whole day) before turning back at Jeongyeon " Me too. "
Dahyun coughed, the level of uncomfortable kept raising as she shifted her position " ...yep. "
Two hours of torture. The three of them were next to each other the whole time but none dared to speak at the other. Instead, a few words were exchanged with their friends.
Nayeon stretched her arms in the air " It was a good little vacation. "
" Thank you for inviting us. " Jihyo smiled at Jeongyeon.
" No problem. I'm glad you all enjoyed it! "
" I'm going to miss living in a mansion. " said Sana as she tearfully looked at the beautiful Yoo's mansion.
Jeongyeon stepped forward " Don't worry, since we're all friends now, every now and then we can go to my parent's houses all over South Korea! "
" We're looking forward to it. " Tzuyu smiled.
Dahyun loaded her car with her and Nayeon's luggage. She was going to go back separately from the others with her car, and while she was at it, Nayeon took the chance to put her luggage in so that she didn't have to carry anything.
" You might as well come with me. " Dahyun sighed as she loaded the final luggage.
" I see you basically 24 hours a day Dahyun. I'd like to stay with Jeong a bit longer... " Nayeon blushed " I know, take Mina with you! So that you won't be lonely! "
Dahyun's eyes widened, she stood there for a few seconds and looked at her girlfriend " Umh... if you want to... "
Mina avoided her gaze and lightly shook her head " It's okay. It'd be a waste of my train ticket... take Nana with you, she doesn't have the ticket. "
Nayeon looked at Mina with a frustrated look that said ' I gave you the perfect chance and you toss it at Chaeyoung!? '
" I'll take the offer... less money to spend. " Chaeyoung smiled, stepping forward with her stuff and helping Dahyun load it in her car.
Jihyo walked closer to Dahyun, and with a concerned tone she asked " Are you going to be okay? " the younger merely nodded, not convincing her friend at all.
" Ok if it gets awkward just laugh a bit, not too much, and try to switch topics. "
Easier to say than to do. Once everyone went ahead and she and Chaeyoung were alone in that tiny space that is her car, she wanted to curse the fact that she had arrived late and had to come with the car.
" You know... "
Dahyun tried to be as cool as possible, but the nervousness showed in her cracking voice " Y-yeah? "
" I've figured, once you knew that I got my memories back, you would have a lot of question... and I would too. So, what's up with this silence? " Chaeyoung lets out a soft chuckle.
Dahyun coughs " Well, there's a series of circumstances that make this awkwardness inevitable don't you think? "
Chaeyoung remains silent for a few seconds before turning her head and looking at the older " Lots of them. Then, should we play the question game? Me first. "
" Who told you that you can be first? " Dahyun chuckles, remembering how good old Chaeyoung was always ‘on the top’.
She smiles " I did. Ok, can you do me a favor? "
Dahyun snorts " That's a question? "
" Yes. I answered yours right now, so answer mine. " there was this seriousness in her voice, that suddenly made Dahyun feel uneasy.
" Ok... what favor? "
" Would you like to go on a date with me? "
Maybe because it was out of nowhere and it was the last thing that would've crossed Dahyun's mind, but the proposal almost made the two of them get into a car accident. Dahyun stopped the car and blinked a few times before looking at the younger with widened eyes. " W-what? "
" A-answer me... " Chaeyoung gulps, her voice betraying her, she wanted to sound cool but it only came out as an insecure cry " Cause, you know, theorically, we still didn't break up so I'm still your girlfriend. Even though you also have Mina. "
" Umh... well... I ... " saying that her heart was beating was putting it lightly, the idea of going on a date with Chaeyoung was both exciting and frightening. And Dahyun didn't know if she could handle it right now. But all it took, was Chaeyoung's sincere eyes, and Dahyun couldn't have possibly said no anymore. " Okay... "
Of course the date was going to be the usual one that they would go on when they were still together. Same mall, same places... same Chaeyoung? No, time changed them, even though Chaeyoung might've been in coma while Nana was still out there, when Chaeyoung actually woke up, the two had somehow merged their personalities.
But it was still fun. It was still hanging out with Chaeyoung, the one she loved years ago. The adrenaline in her heart revived once again, as Chaeyoung played the infamous DDR game with such sparkle in her eyes, genuinely having a good time and forgetting for a moment what happened between the two of them.
Chaeyoung showed her a peace sign with a grin as she finally managed to beat her score on the top 5 ranking while Dahyun just whined because of how much of a show off the younger girl was.
After the games, it was time for singing. Finally, the two were singing in sync once again, perfectly knowing how to divide their parts, sometimes screaming when they couldn't reach the higher notes, constant hair flipping left and right and then... the sad songs. The part that Dahyun wanted to avoid.
" You know this song? " Chaeyoung searched something on the karaoke machine and looked at Dahyun. Yes. She knew the song.
" Sing it with me...? " a broken smile, it hurt Dahyun.
" Of course. " Dahyun pressed her lips together and grabbed the mic.
Chaeyoung nodded " I'll start. "
The things that I'm saying right now,
isn't me asking for us to begin again.
I just recalled my remaining memories of you, that's all.
Chaeyoung probably memorized the song, as instead of looking at the monitor, her eyes were fixed on Dahyun. As if directly talking to her through the song.
How you would tell me you loved me without missing a single day,
you'd say it before I went to bed, and as soon as I woke up.
Dahyun recalled the countless nights they peacefully slept together, the moment all the sleeping over started, the movies they watched, all of the clothes that she kept in a box, locked away in her house because she was too afraid to throw away everything that reminded her of Chaeyoung, the moment Chaeyoung had confessed her feelings on that rainy day, their first kiss...
I'm just going to say my thoughts.
You were beautiful.
Your gaze, when you looked at me
your voice, when you said my name
All of that. All of that, to me, was beautiful.
The feeling was mutual. Chaeyoung had been one of the most important person in Dahyun's boring life. She gave her the initial start to be the better self that she needed, but fate was unfair. Dahyun couldn't help but blame herself for it, if she had just fought... then... things would've turned out differently.
The feeling I'd get, where I wanted nothing more
the moments only you could give me.
All of that, even though it's passed...
you were so beautiful.
Tears. No words, just tears that slowly escaped from her eyes as she stood there helpless, watching Chaeyoung break down as her voice betrayed her forced smiling face. One wrong move and everything could change.
Now for you too,
what's left of me must just be memories.
For you, I bet no matter what I say,
it will be things that have already flown behind you.
You would always think of me first every single time,
the you, that would say 'thank you' and 'sorry' even if it wasn't a big deal
Chaeyoung stopped, her voice cracking way too much, making her unable to sing as well as her ' I'm okay don't worry about me ' mask that she had put on the whole time during this date. Dahyun decided to continue the song, as it was a feeling she could relate to.
You were beautiful.
Your gaze, when you looked at me.
Your voice, when you said my name.
All of that, to me, was beautiful.
The feeling I'd get, where I wanted nothing more.
The moments only you could give me.
All of that... even though it's passed,
you were so beautiful.
Her relationship with Chaeyoung was one of the best thing that ever happened in her life. It wasn't perfect. It didn't turn out exactly how they wanted it to, but it was still something Dahyun will always be eternally grateful for. She will always be grateful that she experienced love with such an amazing person like Chaeyoung.
Even now, I sometimes have thoughts about you.
" Should I try calling her? "
Even though I think this again with difficulty,
baby I know, it's already over.
No matter how badly I want it,
you're already something that's passed and ended.
And part of me knows, that it was all just like a movie.
Their story was like a movie. bur unfortunately, the genre had changed to tragic by the end.
Even though Chaeyoung was still trying to keep her feelings in check, they never failed to keep the eye contact throughout the whole song. Dahyun threw away every barrier she had built out of fear and walked closer, grabbing Chaeyoung's hand and tightly intertwining their fingers together while both of their eyes were filled with sadness. Their actions spoke louder than words, louder than the song itself. It was time to sing together, once again, maybe for the last time.
Your eyes. The last time that you ever looked at me.
Your voice, when you said to be well.
All of it.
Even all of that to me, was beautiful.
The tears that you showed me,
every single moment I had with you.
All of it, even though it's passed,
was so beautiful.
The song stopped. Only the sound of their unstable breaths was left. They gazed at each other for a few seconds before their hands moved automatically for an embrace.
" Thank you for everything... and... I'm sorry. " Dahyun snuggled closer, the fear of actually losing Chaeyoung forever after the date ends was beyond heartbreaking. This time, once they let go, it was for real.
" Silly... what are you sorry about. I loved everything, every single moment I spent with you. " even though technically, Chaeyoung was the one getting turned down, she was the one comforting Dahyun with soft strokes on her back.
" If only... I didn't break the promise, this wouldn't have h-happened... "
Chaeyoung chuckles " There are no WHAT IFS anymore... Dubu. The one who you're dreaming to spend your future with... isn't me anymore. But you know, you didn't break your promise. "
" What do you mean? "
" Your promise said that if I ever forgot about you, you would make me fall in love with you again. And I did. Nana was in love with you. "
Dahyun tightened the embrace even more, making Chaeyoung probably have a hard time breathing, but the latter didn't complain, she took it all. " What the hell... " she couldn't help but laugh "I love you, Chaeng. "
The younger nodded " Me too, Dubu. A lot. "
Dahyun pulls away and leaned forward, letting their foreheads touch as she closed her eyes " Even though this wasn't the happy ending we wished for years ago... and maybe saying these things isn't helping any of us... I feel like I must say it. "
She sighs, closing Chaeyoung's hands in between hers as if heating them " Right now, and most likely for a very long time, my heart is going to be with Mina. But, I will always love you Son Chaeyoung. You were my first, true, magical love. The one I always dreamed for. I will never forget us, and I hope you never will too. "
" You don't have to say it. Of course, I will never forget about us... " Chaeyoung smiles, and Dahyun finally lets out a smile too.
" Me and you... what we had... it's always going to be Unforgettable. "
Dahyun approaches her carefully " It is. " and plants a soft kiss on Chaeyoung's mole. " It always will be. "
Chaeyoung POV
It’s not the best feeling in the world, letting go of someone you still love so much, but what could’ve she done? Dahyun’s heart already had someone else in it, and forcing her way through it wasn’t exactly the best thing to do to either Dahyun or Mina, or even herself.
If there’s one thing she’s happy about though, is that at least she managed say goodbye to her with a smile, without crying in front of her, she really wished that Dahyun’s last memory of her would be beautiful and not her snotty face crying like a little baby.
The ride home was still awfully awkward, but at the same time a peacefulness surrounded that tiny little space in the car. Everything had been said, and small talks would only ruin the atmosphere.
Once they reached her home, she knew that the moment Dahyun would go back in her car was probably the last she would see of her in months or heck, even years depending on how long it will take to move on from her.
Chaeyoung slowly got off the car, expecting Dahyun to just say goodbye inside the car, but instead, the older got out of the car too, embracing her tightly.
You’re always so unfair… How am I supposed to get over you? Chaeyoung had thought in her mind.
“So… see you soon?” the older said the moment she pulled away.
Chaeyoung didn’t respond, she only smiled softly, probably making Dahyun understand that ‘soon’ was going to be in a long time.
Dahyun bit her lip and smiled back, that beautiful eyesmile mixed with a gentle expression showing on her face. Chaeyoung took a mental photo of this moment.
“Oh, that’s right. I wanted to show you one last thing.” Dahyun took out her phone and walked closer “Remember this?”
Chaeyoung looked carefully, only to find a music folder called ‘ChaengMusic’, now the tears were really hard to actually keep inside of her eyes.
“You kept those?” she chuckled, it was kind of absurd but it was one of the reasons she loved Dahyun so much, she was weird.
“Well…they’re good songs. I really like them but I guess that keeping this folder is weird… right? I even kept our photos together, though not on my cellphone.”
“It’s kind of weird. Doesn’t Mina get mad at you?”
Dahyun shakes her head “She tells me it’s a good thing to keep the good memories of your previous relationships, it means that you’re still on good terms or anything. It’s precious memories.”
“She’s really a good girl isn’t she…” Chaeyoung smiles while seeing the sparkle in Dahyun’s eyes once the name Mina came out of her mouth. Yep, it’s really game over for me.
“She is.”
“You should delete the folder but keep the songs, if you like them.”
“I guess I should do that.”
Suddenly, the gate opens and a Momo in pigiama comes out of it “I knew I heard some talking outside…” the girl looked at both of them with sleepy and confused eyes.
“Well then. I’ve got to go.” Dahyun sighs “See you soon, hopefully. Nana, Momo.”
And off she went, probably to Mina. Chaeyoung didn’t bother with whatever questions her older sister was asking right now, she watched Dahyun’s car go until she couldn’t see a trace of it anymore and went back inside with her sister.
She just sat on her bed without moving a single muscle, trying to process and take in everything that happened in a mere spawn of a day.
Momo came in while knocking and sat next to her “What happened? You’re sad…”
“I’m not sad. I’m just… thinking.”
Her older sister started to stroke her hair gently “But you’re crying Nanacchi…”
“W-what are you talking about” she laughed while touching her face, only to find her fingertips wet “What’s this… I-…”
“Sh… it’s okay. Let it all out, your big sis is here.” Momo enveloped Chaeyoung in a hug while patting her head and caressing her back.
“I really loved her sis. I still do.” Chaeyoung finally broke down, not being able to keep her façade anymore, her heart hurting so much that she felt like something would come out of her stomach, that she would throw out the dinner she didn’t eat yet.
But thankfully, she now had two big sisters who were going to be there for her.
After the emotional roller coaster, Dahyun was finally feeling peaceful, a huge weight was finally off her shoulder. Even though it hurt a lot more than having no closure at all, this whole date was for the best for both of them.
She took Chaeyoung home with her car, and though the confused looks from Momo that said ' Where have you been up until now? ' were obvious, Dahyun had more important priorities right now than to answer Nana's sister.
As soon as she got in the car, she knew who the first person she should tell everything that happened was. Myoui Mina. The girl who appeared in her thoughts when Jihyo had suggested her a way to realize her feelings.
Dahyun quickly drove to Mina's house, only to meet her mother by the door.
" Oh, Dahyun-san. If you're searching for Mina she went out 10 minutes ago. "
Dahyun quickly bows " Thank you, mam. I'm sorry for intruding at such a late hour... also, do know where she might be headed to? "
Mina's mom shakes her head " I'm afraid not, she only said she was going out for a bit, but she didn't mention where... and she went outside before I could stop her. You know her, she's never selfish so when she requests stuff from me I can't help but let her do it. "
" Yes... she's never selfish. " Dahyun sighs " Thank you. I'll see you next time, please say to mr. Myoui that I said hello. "
" Of course. Be careful out there, and... take care of my daughter. "
" I will. "
There were countless of places Mina could be right now. But Dahyun knew just where to find her. She had mentioned this place long ago, saying that it was a place where she could think in peace.
And once she arrived, there she was, swinging around in the park a few blocks away from her house.
“Having fun?” Dahyun approaches Mina carefully and sits on the swing next to her.
Mina side-eyed her and sighed “I don’t know how to express how I’m actually feeling right now… I’m sorry.”
“What are you all sorry for? I’m the one who should apologize.”
“…Because you’re leaving me?” Mina was always one to have a lower tone of voice, but right at this moment, her voice was at the lowest Dahyun has ever heard.
“So… you think I’d come all the way here and search for you just to break up?”
“You’re a kind girl, you wouldn’t want to do this over a phone call. “
“I guess.” Dahyun starts to slowly swing back and forth “Hey, Mina.”
A mere hum was the response she gained.
“Do you regret falling in love with me?”
“Strangely enough, even though you might leave me right now, I don’t regret it… not one bit.”
“…I’m glad.” Dahyun smiles to herself “You know… right after you guys went back, I went on a date with Chaeyoung.”
Dahyun turns to look at the older, who merely nodded without meeting her eyes.
“And… I had lots of fun, it was like I was transported back to the past me.”
Still not response, not that she could blame Mina for it.
“After the date was done, I told her… that I love you, Mina.”
Said girl finally looked at Dahyun, eyes confused, going back and forth between the ground and Dahyun’s face. “And?”
“I’m not breaking up with you.” Dahyun smiles bitterly “But it seemed to me like you were ready to break up with me just now.”
“Can you blame me for that… I’ve been so insecure all this time and now all of a sudden you tell me you went on a date with her. I literally felt like I couldn’t breathe anymore by how tense I was getting. I thought I was ready but fear overstruck me, I thought ‘I don’t want to lose her’ countless times but I felt that it was selfish, even talking to you about it the other day felt wrong...”
Dahyun gets up from the swings and envelops Mina’s head in her chest “Please, be selfish. In a relationship, it’s okay to spoil each other sometimes. And if your ‘being selfish’ is for me to tell you how much I love you, then I’ll spoil you every day.”
“Even though I’m annoying?”
“You’re not annoying at all.”
“Even though you’re already doing so much for me?”
“Not more than what you’re already doing for me.”
“Even if… you love her?”
“That’s right. I loved her. Past tense.”
“You still do.”
“But it’s not the same kind of love I have for you.”
“How is it different?”
Dahyun pulls out from the hug and pecks Mina on the lips “Because with you, I want to kiss you, to hug you, to hold hands in public, cook your favorite meals, make you smile and laugh until you cry, wake up in the bed to see your sleeping face first thing in the morning and so much more… I want you to feel like me, like how being with you makes me feel like I’m on top of the world.”
“H-how am I supposed to react to that?” Mina looks down and blushes.
“Let’s start by saying those three famous words.” The younger grins.
“S-stop teasing me!” Mina gets up and grabs Dahyun by the collar, planting a kiss on Dahyun’s lips “…I love you. “
Dahyun embraces her everything, a huge smile on her face “Me too, I love you Mina.”
A lot of months had passed since then, Dahyun’s relationship with Mina had only strengthened more. They didn’t see each other every day due to their works, but whenever they had free time the two made sure to make time for each other while still keeping contacts with their friends.
Jihyo had happily gotten married, it sorts of made Dahyun felt sad, seeing someone who was always like a sister to her, walk in there and getting ‘taken away’ by her husband. Nonetheless, Jihyo’s smile was one of the biggest she had ever since, so Dahyun happily gave them her blessings.
Both Sana&Tzuyu and Nayeon&Jeongyeon were still dating, though the latter of the couple broke up at some point only to get back a few days later, but that’s another story.
And for Chaeyoung… they really never see each other ever since that day, the ‘see you soon’ was probably not going to happen that soon, but she didn’t fault the girl for that, it was understandable. Chaeyoung even went all way over to Japan with Momo to avoid Dahyun and get over her.
“Dahyunie~” Mina hugged her from behind “Lost in thoughts?”
Dahyun hums in response and kisses Mina’s forehead.
“Something you can’t tell me?”
“No, I was just thinking that time passes really fast.” Dahyun gets up and stretches “Shall we go on a date today?”
Mina shows her gummy smile, and with pure excitement exclaims “Sure!”
“Sure!”
Mina shows her gummy smile, and with pure excitement exclaims “Sure!”