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Raphael's 15

Raphael lay back on his bed on December 21 with his hands clasped behind his head and a dreamy expression on his face as he thought about his crush. He loved everything about Don: his slim tea green figure, his reddish brown eyes, his gap tooth, his adorable little tail that untucked when he was totally relaxed, his firm ass, his toned legs and his gentle, easy nature that was the opposite of his. Don could soothe Raphael like nobody else with just one word, unlike Leo, who drove Raphael insane with his pomposity. Don never made Raphael feel like he was stupid or a brute or that he and his opinions were worthless. He always knew what to say when Raphael had a bad day. He knew when to leave Raphael alone, unlike Leo, who was always up his shell about something. Donnie was goodness personified and never raised his voice. He made Raphael want to be a better turtle and he made him feel things he'd never thought he'd feel: love and happiness, as well as warmth pooling in his groin whenever Don was around.

His hormones aside, Raphael mostly wanted to take Don in his arms, hug, kiss him and to tell him what he meant to him. He'd been tempted many times when they'd worked together on mechanics, which was a mutual interest, but he'd frozen every time he'd tried to confess his feelings.

Raphael had had the same feelings for Leo a few years prior, but he'd also been unable to tell him, because he'd thought that Leo would never return the same feelings. Leo was the perfect son, unlike him and while Donnie was also perfection, he seemed to enjoy Raphael's company, which Leo didn't. Leo seemed to find Raphael's presence an annoyance, so the temperamental turtle no longer spent time with him and rather spent it with Donnie. Leo was gorgeous with his mesmerizing cobalt blue eyes, leaf green slender frame, cute butt and incredible legs, but he was out of reach and too self-righteous. Donnie was down-to-earth and attainable.

Raphael had been in love with Donnie for about six months now. He knew he had to confess his feelings, but how? He wasn't good with words. Actions were more his thing. He had to do something, but what? He couldn't ask Mikey for advice, because he'd scoff and endlessly mock him, the macho turtle for falling in love. He couldn't ask his dad, because it'd lead to another uncomfortable talk about sex, so his only options were either April or Casey.

No. Scratch Casey. He was a Neanderthal about emotions and love. The poor guy had hit on April and tried to woo her by asking her to a wrestling match, so he wasn't the best person to ask.

Raphael wanted to tell Donnie the next day and who knows if everything went well, maybe he'd have some fun in the bedroom with his new mate at Christmas? That'd be the best Christmas present. He smiled at the idea.

Then he remembered that April was away and would only be back on Christmas Eve, which meant Leo was the only one he could ask.

It was 10 p.m., but he knew Leo would be awake. He rarely went to bed before midnight, because he was usually waiting up for Raphael and meditating.

The green eyed turtle scowled. Asking Leo would be humiliating, especially if he laughed at him, but there was no one else he could ask, so he had to ignore his ego and suck it up.

Raphael got up, went to Leo's room, knocked on the door and said, "Fearless, it's me. Can we talk?"
"I'm kind of busy, Raph."
"Too busy for your favorite little brother? Open the damn door or I'll kick it down."
"Since you ask so nicely," Leo said dryly. "I'll open it."

Leo opened the door and Raphael entered the room.

"You're not my favorite little brother. I don't have favorites, Raph," Leo said.
"Whatever. I need some advice."
"What kind of advice?"
"Uh, love," a blushing Raphael said.
"My hotheaded brother's in love. Wow," Leo teased. "Who's the lucky girl?
"I need your help. Stop poking fun at me. It's hard enough asking you without being mocked," Raphael snapped, his green eyes blazing.
"All right. What do you want?"
"How do you woo someone?"
"You take them on dates and buy them gifts and stuff. Compliment them and do things for them. Flowers and gifts are always winners. Make them meals. Do things from the heart. Tell them how much they mean to you and never treat them badly when you have their heart. Respect them, cherish them and love them. I think it's great you're in love, Raph, and I hope you meet someone who fills you with joy and gives you the love you deserve. You think you're not worthy of affection, but you are. You're so very deserving and anyone who has your heart is extremely blessed. I think you're incredible. I'm so happy for you and hope it works out," Leo said in a voice that was a strange mixture of elation and sadness.

Raphael's plastron swelled with pride. Leo had said he was incredible. Was he flirting? And his tone sounded disappointed. Why? It wasn't like Leo liked him more than a brother, so Raphael shoved the flirting idea to the back of his mind.

"Thanks, Leo," Raphael said. "You've helped me think of ideas. I know exactly how to woo Donnie now."
"Yeah? Donnie, huh?" Leo said, trying to hide the pain in his voice.
"Yeah," Raphael said, his green eyes shining with happiness as an idea hit him. "Thanks, Leo. I also hope you meet someone. You can be a big pain in the shell, but you're also pretty cool sometimes and deserve love. I'm gonna knock Donnie's shell off. I'll make him a romantic meal, compliment him and tell him how I feel. Hey. Can I ask you if I need more help?"
"Sure, Raph," Leo said, trying not to cry.

Raphael didn't see the gloomy expression on Leo's face when he turned around and left the room and he didn't see Leo collapse on his bed in a flood of tears.

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Raphael woke up early the next morning and went to the kitchen.

Leo was sitting at the table and drinking his tea.

Raphael began to prepare Donnie's coffee and said breezily, "Morning, Leo. You look buggered. Didn't sleep?"
"I'm fine," Leo lied. "You seem chipper."
"Yeah. I have a feeling Christmas will be extra special this year," Raphael said and winked.
"I'm happy for you, Raph," Leo lied.

Donnie entered the room and said, "Hi, guys."
"Hey, Donnie," Raphael said as he poured Donnie's brewed coffee into a cup and then stared at him adoringly. "I made your coffee."
"Thanks, Raph. You're a lifesaver," Donnie said as he accepted the coffee. "What would I do without you? You're the best. Hey, Leo. You don't look so hot. Bad night?"

"I'm fine," Leo hissed as he stood. "I'm gonna meditate. I'll see you later," he added and left the room.

"What's his problem, Raph?" Donnie said. "It's not like Leo to be crabby, even if he had a bad night."
"Leo's probably pissed that he lost one of his boring books or something. He'll get over it. I wanna ask you something."
"What? I need to go to the lab in a minute. I'm way behind with my work."
"Do you wanna spend time with me later?"
"I'm not sure I can. Sorry. I'm so behind and April's coming over to watch movies."
"I thought she was only coming here on Christmas Eve."
"Plans change. I'll see what I can do. I want to make sure the thing I'm working on is finished by Christmas. It's a secret, so I can't tell you what it is."
"You're working on something? You're in love, huh?"
Donnie smiled and said, "I am."
"Do I know the person?"
"Yes," Donnie said and smiled mysteriously. He placed a hand on Raphael's shoulder, which sent a shiver down his spine and said, "I have to go, Raphie. Thanks for the coffee. You're really sweet when you want to be, you know. I like that."
A blushing Raphael's plastron swelled at the words. "It's nothing." 

Donnie called me Raphie and sweet. He likes me more than a brother. It's obvious. I'll tell him how I feel and then I'll cook for him.

"Hey, Raph, I appreciate what you do. Thank you," Donnie said.
"Only a pleasure, Donnie."

An excited Raphael thought about Donnie and their conversation. I think he's making me something for Christmas. Wow. Donnie also likes me, but why did Leo act so weird? Stupid Fearless is probably jealous. Yeah. That's it. Typical Leo. He's never happy for anyone else.

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Leo's heart had broken when he'd seen the loving looks that Raphael had cast at Donnie and he'd made a decision. He couldn't stay in the lair and see his crush hook up with someone else. It'd be too painful.

Leo knocked on Splinter's door and said, "Sensei, can we talk, please?"
"Come in, Leonardo."
Leo entered the room and said, "I need to talk to you."
"What is the matter, Leonardo?" the aged rat said. "You look distressed."
"I am. It's about Raphael."
"What about him? Is he sick?"
"He's love-sick, Sensei."
"My son, that is good, is it not? I do not understand."
"It is and it isn't. Raph's in love with Donnie. I'm happy for him, but I'm heartbroken. I've always liked Raph and now I can never tell him."
"Does Donatello feel the same way about Raphael?"
"I'm convinced he does. They spend so much time together and Donnie often tells me how wonderful Raph is."
"Perhaps there is another reason why Donatello mentions Raphael's attributes. Not because he is interested in Raphael himself, but so that you will consider Raphael as a mate."
"I sincerely doubt that, Sensei. I believe Donnie feels the same way about Raph. I can't be here if they're a couple, because it'd be too painful. I'm asking permission to go away for an extended period of time. I hope my love for Raph will diminish to that of brotherly affection only and I'll be able to be happy for them. I also feel I haven't been as good a leader as I can be. Send me to the Ancient One and I can hone my skills. Maybe two years away. That'll be sufficient."
"Who will lead the team?"
"Raph can lead in my absence. It's not forever, Sensei. Please. I need to get away," Leo beseeched.
"Very well, Leonardo. I will make preparations with the Ancient One and you will leave shortly after Christmas."
"Thank you, Sensei," Leo said and bowed.

Leo left Splinter's room, lowered his head and collided with Raphael, who was on his way to Donnie's lab.

"Whoa, Fearless. Watch where you're going!" the red clad turtle said irritably.

Leo said nothing, strode to his bedroom and banged the door so hard behind him that it nearly fell off its hinges.

Raphael blinked in surprise. Leo was pissy, but not that pissy that he'd slam his door. He was the master of self-control and never did that.

What the hell's upset Fearless so much?

He decided to give Leo space and to talk to him later that day after he'd spoken to Donnie.

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The past few days had been exceptionally busy for Karai. She’d baked up a storm, set up her Christmas tree and decorations in her new apartment, finished all her Christmas shopping and transformed her apartment into a cozy love nest, which also included a love seat. She’d also gone to town buying gifts for her secret crush. She knew he’d love the fancy new gym equipment, the red leather jacket and matching gloves, red helmet and the cute his and hers matching red silk robes she’d found in Japan when she’d visited there two weeks prior. He’d also love her lingerie collection, which included everything from bustiers to teddies to thongs and she had a wonderful toy box containing a variety of sex toys that included dildos, whips, chains and her personal favorite the cock destroyer, which was a rather lethal cock ring with spikes. She had a feeling Raphael was into BDSM and that he was kinky. She couldn’t wait to show him everything. He’d be one happy and satisfied boy.

She imagined Raphael’s thick and huge purple rod plowing into her and she felt herself grow wet. He was probably a virgin and would be a bit nervous, but she’d coax him and praise him. He'd calm down and do what she’d craved for months ever since she’d accidentally walked in on him when he’d been in the bathroom.

The moron had left the door open. Needing a pee, she’d walked in and seen him naked and frantically masturbating. His eyes had been closed as he'd pumped his gigantic engorged cock and moaned something she couldn’t make out. She’d quietly left without him realizing her presence, but the image had been imprinted on her psyche. Raphael was a gorgeous specimen. He had mesmerizing green eyes, a ripped body, a firm ass and stunning legs. She’d also seen his tail once when he’d casually untucked it when they’d watched movies. He’d sat next to Leo and she’d been on the opposite couch, but had seen it. It was short, very cute and it'd wagged a little before Raphael had tucked it away. Karai couldn’t wait to touch it and to play with it. She knew it was one of the erogenous zones a turtle had. The others being their dicks, slits and plastrons.

Karai had no doubt that Raphael would be an incredible lover when he'd gained more experience. She wasn't sure about long term plans, because she wasn't positive that they’d work out, but she damn well wanted to try. They had similar personalities, but they could make it work if they communicated and there was love, right?

Raphael isn't the brightest spark, but I don't want him for his intelligence. I want to see how the sex goes and then the other pieces will fall into place. Isn't that how it always goes?

Raphael would live with her. Screw what his pesky brothers thought. They’d be together 24/7 and she’d be his universe. Just like he’d be hers. They'd play, date and have fun without his brothers’ interference or maybe she and Raphael would move to Japan and have kids. She adored kids and she knew she’d be a great mom. Raphael would be a wonderful daddy. He was gruff, but he was a softy beneath his gruff exterior. She’d seen flashes of it when his brothers had been injured and when Chompy had been sick. Raphael had never left his brothers’ or Chompy’s bedsides until they’d recovered.

Raphael was a bit arrogant, sarcastic and he could be a live wire, but Karai knew that was due to his insecurity. He felt like he was worthless and didn’t deserve love. She’d prove him wrong and would shower him with so much affection that he’d never look back. He'd be reassured, love her back and their sex would be mind-blowing. Karai couldn’t wait any longer to reveal her feelings. He must feel the same way. How could he not? She was beautiful, had all the right parts and…

Her thoughts were interrupted by her ringing cell. She glanced at the caller ID and saw in surprise that it was Raphael. He never called her, so something had to be up.

“The guys okay, Raph?” she said, trying not to let her nervousness at hearing his voice show in hers.
“Yeah.”
“What’s up?”
“Can I pop around? I kinda need some advice.”
“Now?”
“Bad time?”
“No. I was just washing my hair. Sure. I’ll…”
“You don’t have to look smart for me. I’ll be there in a few.“

Karai mentally cursed as the line went dead. Shit. He’s coming over. I was going to tell him how I felt at Christmas, but today, the twenty first will have to do.

She went to her bedroom and ensured that she looked breathtaking. Operation seduce Raphael was in progress.

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Karai was in her bedroom when Raphael leaped in through the open window and nearly scared her out of her wits.

“Geez, Raphael. Give a girl a heart attack, why don’t you?” she said snappily.
Raphael sat on her bed, eyed her fur coat and boots and said, “Going out?”
“No. I’m cold, so I wanted to stay warm,” Karai said in an odd purring tone and looked at Raphael intently.
Her gaze unsettled him. He cleared his throat and said, "I need advice.”
“What advice?”
“I asked Leo for help earlier, but he was very vague. The guy isn't exactly an expert in the love department.”
“You’re in love?”
“Sure am. Have been for months.”
“Me too.”
“Uh, cool.”
“I bet you’re really cold and need some warming up,” Karai said seductively, stepping closer.
“Huh? What are you talking about?”
“Come on, Raphael. Even you can’t be that dense,” Karai said as she removed her fur coat, which revealed a figure hugging red teddy that made Raphael’s eyes nearly pop out of his head.
“Uh, K-Karai…” Raphael stammered.

Karai launched herself at him and aggressively kissed him while undressing him and then throwing his trench coat on the floor.

Raphael was frozen in shock as she continued kissing him. Her hands moved down between his legs, stroked and touched him everywhere she could. He recovered when her hands settled on his tail and gave it a playful tug. He shoved her off him. Then he rubbed the lipstick off his mouth with the back of his hand as he glared at her.

“What the fuck, Karai?” he demanded furiously, his green eyes blazing. He quickly dressed and added, “Have you lost your mind?”
“I know you like me, Raphael! That’s why I dressed up for you and I got my apartment ready for you. It’ll be our love nest. We can be mates, have babies and…”
“Babies? You're a delusional and psycho bitch!” Raphael spat. “I don’t want babies, least of all with you! I’m fucking gay. I came over to ask what to get… Forget it!” Raphael hissed.
“You’re not gay, Raphael. You love me,” Karai said and stepped closer. She aggressively kissed him again and wrapped her arms around him.
Raphael’s face darkened, he shoved her away so hard that she fell back onto the bed and yelled, “You're a crazy bitch! Don’t come near me again or I'll…”
Karai smiled and said, “I know you’re playing hard to get, Raphael, but I’ll win your heart, you’ll lose your virginity to me and we’ll have adorable babies!”
“GET SOME FREAKING HELP, YOU DELUSIONAL PSYCHO! I'M NOT FUCKING INTERESTED IN YOU AND IF YOU COME NEAR THE LAIR I’LL…”
“You’re a pretty boy, Raphael, and I can make you happy. Stop being silly and come to bed.”
“Batshit crazy bitch! I’m warning you. Stay away from me!” Raphael roared and leapt out the window.

Karai grinned. He’s playing hard to get, but I will win his heart and we’ll be together eternally. Just wait and see. I’ll visit him tomorrow and bring him a special gift. He’ll love the sex toys. I can’t wait to show him.

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Raphael arrived home and almost collided with Leo, who’d left his room to brew some tea.

“Whoa, Raph!” Leo said, holding up a hand. “What’s the urgency and why do you smell of...? Is that perfume?” He sniffed the air and said, “Is that lipstick on your cheeks?”

Raphael mentally swore. Fuck. Now I'll be grilled by Fearless. As if things weren’t bad enough. He was about to growl and snap that it wasn’t Leo’s business when his eyes fell on Donnie and April sitting on the couch together. They were holding hands and making out. Raphael felt like he’d been kicked in the guts and his heart shattered into a million pieces. He clenched his fists and closed his eyes and there was a mixture of jealousy, rage and sorrow etched on his handsome face.

Raphael recovered himself and said, "You know this is a public place. Get a room!”
Donnie and April looked up. The blushing genius said, "Sorry, guys. We got carried away. We’ll go to my room. Come on, April.”

“You been together long?” Raphael asked, trying not to sound jealous.
“Six weeks,” April said as she stared adoringly at Donnie.
“I see,” Raphael said and his eyes shone as an idea hit him. He grabbed Leo’s hand, planted a kiss on a stunned Leo’s cheek and said, “A few weeks longer than Fearless and I. We hooked up a month ago. It was pretty romantic, wasn’t it, my love? You wrote me a poem and declared your love. It was kinda sudden, but so right, right, Fearless?” Raphael said as he stared at his brother pleadingly.

Leo understood. Raphael was hurting and he hoped to make Donnie jealous by saying he was with Leo. The leader thought the plan wouldn’t work, because Donnie was so besotted, but he didn’t want to upset his little brother and make him look like an idiot and liar.

Leo smiled, kissed Raphael’s hand and said, “That’s right, my takara.”
Raphael smiled and said, "Angel, you're a dream come true and I love you so much."
"I love you too."

“That’s so wonderful,” April gushed. “We can double date. I’m so thrilled for you guys. Aw. You're such a handsome couple. How come you never told us you were an item before?”

“Yeah,” Donnie said. “I’m delighted for you guys and have no doubt you’ll have a fantastic life together. Probably the same reason as us, April. We’re private people, but we couldn’t control ourselves tonight. Anyway, I’m thrilled that Leo and Raph have finally confessed their feelings. I always thought the tension between them was due to sexual frustration and chemistry.”

Raphael wanted to punch his genius brother for saying that. Sexual frustration and chemistry between him and Fearless? As if.

Leo smiled and said, “You’re absolutely right. It just took us a while to figure that out. Takara, why don’t we have a quick shower before bed? Night, April and Donnie. Have fun.”

“Night, guys,” April and Donnie said in unison.

“Have fun,” Donnie said and winked.

Leo dragged Raphael to the bathroom and shut the door behind him.

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“Thanks, Leo,” Raphael said as he turned his back and then undressed. “I appreciate what you did.”
“No problem. What are brothers for?”
Raphael turned on the faucet, closed the shower curtain and said, “You can stay there.”
“Now you don’t want me to see you, huh?” Leo teased, trying to cover up his awkwardness. He hadn’t been alone with Raphael in the bathroom since they were kids.
"Very funny. We’re pretending to be a couple, Leo, so you don’t have to see me naked. This is until Donnie realizes what a mistake he’s making and gets with me. How he can fancy that bitch is beyond me,” Raphael hissed as he soaped himself.
“April’s not a bitch, Raph. She’s sweet and caring.”
“Whatever. I’m a better fit for Donnie. Why can’t he see that?”
“He’s in love.”
“It’s lust, not love and it’ll never last. He’ll see we’re made for each other.”
“What will you do if that doesn’t happen?”
“Stop being a pessimist. It’ll happen. I’m sexy and I’d be better in bed than April.”
“You’re also male and…”
“Shut up, Leo. You're such a downer.”
“I’m a realist. Your plan might fail and then what? Will you still continue the charade?”
“It'll work,” Raphael snapped.
“Do you want to tell me what happened and why you smelled of perfume?” Leo asked, changing the subject.
"Karai has this weird idea that I’m in love with her and she tried to seduce me. Why would I want that skank? I’m gay and even if I weren’t, she isn't the kinda girl I’d pick. I’d want someone decent, affectionate and sweet. It was horrible. She kissed me, pushed me back on her bed, undressed me and was touching me. I hated it! She stole my first kiss and it was awful. Hey. This charade will kill two birds with one stone. She’ll back off and I’ll get Donnie. I’m such a genius.”
“Nothing like self-praise,” Leo said dryly.
“What about you, Fearless? Do you like anyone?” Raphael asked, turning off the faucet and opening the shower curtain. “Keep your back turned, Leo. Don’t look,” Raphael said as he reached for his red towel on the rail.
“I did, but he didn’t feel the same way.”
“That sucks, man,” Raphael said as he wrapped the towel around himself. “Wait. You're gay? Golden boy likes guys? Wow. I’m shocked. I always thought you'd like chicks.”
"No.”
“Well, chin up, Fearless. The right guy will come along. You just gotta be patient.”
“I suppose. Are you finished?”
“Yep,” Raphael said and picked up his gear. “I’m going to bed. I’ll see you in the morning.”
“Our story will be more believable if we share the same room.”
Raphael whirled around and said, “Us share a room?”
“That’s right. You can remain dressed and I’ll do the same if it makes you feel less uncomfortable.”
“You're also a genius, Leo,” Raphael said happily. “I’ll see you in a few. I wanna get a few things.”

Leo dragged a hand down his face as he watched his brother head to his room. What the hell am I doing? I love him and it’s not pretend to me, but it’s all pretend to him, so I’m letting myself in for heartache. Still, I’ll be gone in a few days, so I can do it for Raph until I leave and pretend it’s also a game on my part, right?

XXXX

Ten minutes later, Leo was in bed when he saw Raphael enter the room. The hothead wore red boxers and carried his red pillow and a small suitcase.

“Just a few things,” Raphael said as he set his case down on the floor. “I’ll pack them away in the morning. I’m exhausted. You'd better not steal the covers.”
Leo pulled the covers back and said, “I don’t. Mikey always did, as I recall and I relied on you for heat. You were always so warm.”
“Whatever,” Raphael said, climbing into bed and then pulling the covers over himself. “This is weird.”
“What is?” Leo asked as he tried not to tremble. He was so nervous with Raphael in such close proximity and he could smell Raphael’s intense musk scent that was mixed with gasoline, grease, motor oil and sweat. It was intoxicating and…
“Why are you nervous?”
“I’m not.”
“You're trembling.”
“I’m fine.”
“You aren't aroused, are you?”
“Huh?” Leo said in astonishment.
"We're mates outside the bedroom, Leo, but we’re just brothers here and I don’t wanna smell your arousal or see you naked, okay?”
“I get the message, Raphael.”
“Wonderful. There won’t be any screwing either.”
“I said I got the message, Raph,” Leo said testily.
“Cool. Anyway, sharing a bed with you is kinda strange. I hope you don’t mind, but I snore.”
Leo shrugged and said, “I’m an early riser. I’ll try not to wake you.”
“Thanks. This room is sparse. Do you mind if I bring more of my stuff in here, like my weights and so on, so I can make it more like home?”
“How long are you planning on staying?”
“I reckon our plan will work in a week tops, but I wanna make it feel like also my place."
“Fine. Any other requests?”
“I wanna redecorate and hang some posters. The walls are kinda bare and I don’t like that painting,” Raphael said and pointed at a bearded Japanese warrior who was grinning maliciously as he held a severed head. “I don’t care if he’s your idol. He gives me the creeps and I feel like he’s watching me. I’ll bring Chompy, of course. He was asleep when I went to my room, so I didn’t wake him, but I’ll bring him tomorrow. Can I get rid of the painting now?”
“If you want,” Leo said, trying not to show his exasperation.
“Cool." Raphael jumped out of bed, took down the painting and placed it on the desk. “That goes to the dojo tomorrow. I only want happy things in here.”

Leo sighed. His brother was demanding for someone who was only pretending to be his lover and Chompy would also be a handful. He’d hardly get any rest.

“Anything else?” Leo asked.
“Let's paint the walls cream or beige. White’s boring and maybe we can change the bedding," Raphael said as he climbed into bed.
“It’s not necessary if it’s only for a few days!” Leo protested. “Honestly, you’re acting more like a chick wanting to decorate her boyfriend’s bachelor pad to make it more like her home than you are pretending to like me.”
"Whatever. I wanna feel like at home. What’s so wrong with that? It’ll make it more believable if we do that.”
“Fine. Go ahead, Raph. Anyway, you'll have Donnie in a few days and I won’t be here, so I don’t care.”
“What do you mean?”
“I talked to Sensei and I’m leaving shortly after Christmas.”
“Why would you wanna leave? Don’t we matter to you?”
“I need to find myself. I’m not as good a leader as I can be and I have some personal shit to deal with.”
“Wow. You said shit,” Raphael mocked. “Your halo’s going…”
“Don’t ridicule me!” Leo snapped. “I have stuff I’m dealing with and I need to leave.”
“But that’s BS. You're a good leader and a good brother. You can’t. We need you. Hey. Is it because of that guy that you're leaving? I can knock some sense into him if it is. Is it Mikey?”
“What?”
“Let’s be honest, Leo. Humans don’t dig us, so you have to like Donnie, Mikey or me. I know it isn't Donnie or me, so it has to be Mikey. Do you want me to talk to the knucklehead and knock some sense into him?”
Leo’s eyes widened in horror. "No!”
“Why not? Are you just gonna walk away and let the person you love be with someone else?”
“That’s exactly what I’m gonna do. Leave Mikey alone. He’s happy and that’s all that matters to me.”
“You're so noble, Fearless,” Raphael said, still determined to talk to Mikey.
“It’s not about being noble, Raph. You set someone free when you love someone and if they don't feel the same way...”
“And they come back to you if they love you. I know that quote, but whoever said it is dumb, Leo. You fight for someone if you love them and you don't give up. I think you're stupid, but whatever. It’s your life. I think you're making a mistake by walking away and leaving. I’ll miss you.”
“You will?” Leo said in surprise.
“Of course. Youre my big brother and it’ll mean I’m leader now. Thanks a heap for that. Now I’ll have less time to myself. You're so selfish, Leo.”
"No, Raph. I’m not and I wish you understood," Leo said miserably.

Not wanting to talk anymore, Raphael turned his shell on his brother and tears filled his eyes to his immense surprise.

Why am I sad? Fearless is leaving. I should be glad he is. He’ll be off my shell, but I feel… I don’t love Leo, do I? No. I love Donnie. Leo can’t go. He has to stay. Leaving shortly after Christmas is too soon for our plan to work. We need longer, because Donnie’s in the honeymoon period with April. I need Leo here for three more weeks and Donnie will be mine. I gotta convince Leo to stay longer. I’ll get sick or something and Leo will be wracked with guilt and will postpone his trip.

Raphael fell asleep and was unaware of his brother silently crying next to him.

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Mikey slipped out of the lair at 11 p.m. and ran through the tunnels until he came to the manhole that wasn’t far from his destination. He went up the ladder, lifted the manhole cover, climbed out and ran to the house on the corner.

Knocking twice on the door, he said, “It’s me.”

Casey opened the door seconds later, dragged Mikey inside, closed the door and smashed his lips onto Mikey’s in a spine-tingling kiss as he wrapped his arms around him.

Mikey churred in appreciation as hands roamed everywhere they could reach and clothing was quickly shed.

Still kissing, they moved to the black haired teen’s bedroom and Casey placed Mikey onto the bed and looked at him lovingly.

Casey broke the kiss and said, “I missed you, Mikey.”
“So did I. Fuck me.”
Casey chuckled and said, “You don’t have to ask me twice. Man, you’re an eager turtle, aren’t you?”
“Hurry. We only have a few hours before I need to get home and I want to make the most of it. Your dad’s not here, is he?”
“No. At his girlfriend’s.”

Casey crawled between Mikey’s legs and licked his slit until he dropped down with a low growl. His eight-inch semi-erect cock's tip oozed precum. He stuck two fingers into Mikey’s slit to prep him and his own cock throbbed with desire.

He felt blessed. Mikey was adorable with his blue eyes, freckles, muscular body, toned legs, firm butt and he had the cutest tail. He also loved Mikey's intense musk scent and the fact that he had the sweetest temperament. He was kind, affectionate, he gave as much as he took, was passionate, loyal, understanding and never made Casey feel like he was worthless. Mikey made Casey feel like he was special and deserving of love. He’d never felt that way, having always had a tumultuous relationship with his live wire, alcoholic and brutal dad who often beat him, especially when he was drunk. Casey had never known his mom. She'd died of a heroin overdose when he was a month old and she was twenty. His dad never spoke about her and all Casey had of her were two photos of her as a younger woman and her engagement ring.

Judging Mikey ready, Casey lined his dick up at Mikey’s entrance, thrust into him and pounded away. He soon formed a steady rhythm and made Mikey churr from the pleasure and fist the bedsheets.

They'd met a year earlier, had been lovers for two months and had lost their virginity to each other. It'd been love at first sight, but they'd kept their feelings hidden, because they'd been too shy to say anything. Mikey had plucked up the courage one day and had asked to talk to Casey alone. He’d then told him how he felt. Leo knew about them and was cool with it, but the other brothers didn’t. They hoped to tell Donnie and Raphael at Christmas.

Casey accelerated the pace and his eyes were hooded with desire as he watched and listened to his churring mate. He thought Mikey was the most perfect being he’d ever known. He was a turtle, but he didn’t see that when he was with Mikey. He saw him for who he was and not what he was. Mikey was a teenager like him and the missing piece. His ying to his yang and his everything. He couldn’t imagine being without him.

Casey thrust harder and deeper and a deep churr roared from Mikey’s chest.

The black haired teen studied his mate and thought Mikey’s noises were adorable. He loved pulling them out of him and knowing that only he was able to do that.

Casey was a bit worried about what Donnie and Raphael would think about their union, but Mikey had assured him that they would be fine with it, because Casey was like family and loved by them and they would do anything to make Mikey happy. They'd accept it if Mikey loved Casey. Mikey had also reasoned that Donnie had April. Unbeknownst to them, Donnie had seem them kiss and he was going to ensure that Leo and Raphael got together, because he reasoned that everyone wouldn't meddle in his life if they had mates.

A few minutes later, Mikey said, “I’m gonna cum! Fuck! Fuck! Casey!”

Mikey climaxed and sprayed his lover with his creamy and ropey essence.

“Mikey!” Casey yelled when he came and deposited his seed deep into his lover.

Casey pulled out, kissed Mikey’s lips, lay down and pulled Mikey close to bask in the afterglow. He’d never loved snuggling before, because he'd thought it was silly and girly, but he loved it now that he was with Mikey. Sex was always fantastic, but cuddling with Mikey was also wonderful. Mikey made him feel okay to tune into his softer side and to be more open with his feelings, instead of always bottling them in. He felt warm and gooey, a pulling in his chest and butterflies whenever he was around Mikey and he was positive their love would last forever.

Basking in the afterglow, Mikey said, “I love you so much, Case.”
“Love you too, honey.”
“Being with you has brought purpose to my life and I know we’ll always be together, unless…”
“Unless what, Mikey?”
“You couldn’t handle my secret.”
“What secret? You’re alarming me. Did you cheat?”
“Of course not, but I’ve been feeling sick and throwing up a lot for a few weeks. I think I’m gravid, Case, and if I am that means…”
“We’ll be parents,” Casey said in amazement. “Are you sure? I thought you were a male. How can you lay eggs?”
“I believe I’m intersex if that’s the case. I’ve kept my condition a secret from everyone. I wanted to tell you, but I was so afraid you’d hate me and would leave me and…” Tears filled Mikey’s eyes and he said, “I understand if you don’t want this. It’s a lot and I…”
“Are you kidding me?” Casey said and smiled. “It’s a shock, Mikey, but I want the babies and I want you. I’ll never stop wanting you.”
“Really?” Mikey said and beamed through his tears.
“Absolutely. I know it’ll be challenging, but we’ll get through it together.”
“Maybe you can move in with me. I’ll talk to Sensei. Would you?”
“I’d go anywhere with you, Mikey,” Casey said and kissed him. “Our babies are gonna be so cute, especially if they take after you. I’m such a lucky guy.”
“I could burst with joy,” Mikey said happily and kissed him. “I never dreamed I’d find love and would be a dad.”
“Me either. You complete me, Mikey, and I’d be nothing without you.”
“Ditto. You’re my dream come true and I more than love you. I adore you and I always will.”

Casey tenderly kissed him, rested his head on Mikey’s plastron and inhaled his musky scent. They soon fell asleep and both were confident that they’d have a long and terrific life together.

Mikey rose at 4 a.m. Casey’s dad sometimes returned home earlier than expected and he didn’t want him to see him, so he’d leave. He quickly dressed, smiled at his sleeping lover, left and headed home. He was elated that Casey had been thrilled with his news. He wasn’t sure how his family would take it, but they’d have to accept it, because he wasn’t going to give his baby or Casey up.

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Raphael got up to pee just after 4:15 and was on his way to the bathroom, when he collided with Mikey, who’d arrived home and who was heading to bed.

“Where the heck have you been, Mikey?” Raphael demanded.
“Out. I don’t have to tell you where,” Mikey said evenly. “Step aside, Raph. I won’t let you intimidate me.”

Raphael sniffed the air.

Mikey froze, sensing that his secret was about to be revealed. He’d wanted to tell them at Christmas, but Raphael had to spoil his plans like he always did!

“Why do you smell of Casey?” Raphael hissed, his green eyes flinty. “Are you banging him?”
“Not your business, Raph. Focus on your own life,” Mikey said frostily.

Raphael’s blood boiled, his eyes whitened, he raised his fist and landed a right hook to an unprepared Mikey’s jaw, which sent him sprawling to the ground and holding his aching jaw.

“What the hell, Raph?” Mikey shouted. “Are you crazy? Rhetorical question. You’re insane!”
“That’s for breaking Leo’s heart,” Raphael raged, his green eyes flashing. “How could you fucking cheat on such a kind and loving person like Leo with Casey of all people? You're a fucking asshole, Mikey!"

Mikey suddenly understood. Raphael thought that he and Leo had hooked up. Where had he gotten that ridiculous idea from? He and Leo had never been anything other than brotherly.

“Leo’s…”

Anger contorted Raphael's face as he punched Mikey again.

“You have the wrong end of the stick, Raph,” Mikey said.
“I don’t think so. You fucking cheated on Leo with Casey and broke his heart. How could you be such a callous prick?” Raphael yelled and kicked his brother hard in the ribs.
Mikey grunted in pain and said, “Raph, you’re wrong. Stop!”

“What the hell’s going on here?” Leo demanded furiously, entering the room. "I heard raised voices." Taking in a sobbing Mikey, who was holding his side as pain coursed through him, Leo said, “Mikey, what the heck happened? Raph?”
“I’ll tell you what, Leo,” Raphael said. “I taught the bastard a lesson for breaking your heart. He’s been messing around with Casey! I know we have our difficulties, Leo, but I still watch out for you and I’ll defend you. You know that. No one hurts my big bro and gets away with it…”
Leo’s eyes widened in horror and he said, “You’re wrong, Raph. He never cheated and he and I were never together. He’s been with Casey for two months and they’re madly in love.”

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Mikey suddenly emitted a bloodcurdling scream and clutched his stomach as tears streamed down his cheeks.

“Get Donnie,” Mikey wept. “I think I’m having a miscarriage.”

“Baby?” Leo and Raphael said in stunned unison?”

“NOW!” Mikey roared. “Get him. My sweet baby, please hold on.”

“I’ll stay with Mikey, Raph,” Leo said, rushing to Mikey’s side and grabbing his hand. “You get Donnie.”
"I'm on it. Mikey, I'm sorry, bro. I…"
“Now, Raphael!” Leo said in his most authoritative tone and Raphael left the room.

“Sh, Mikey,” Leo said. “You and your baby are gonna be okay. I promise. Donnie will ensure it. How far along are you? I thought you were a boy.”
“I’m intersex. A few weeks. I told Casey tonight and he was stoked. We both are….” Mikey shrieked as a stab of pain hit him. Leo saw blood between his legs.
“Try to stay calm, Mikey,” Leo said, trying not to panic, because he knew he had to be strong for his little brother. He stroked Mikey’s face and said, “Donnie will be here soon. Breathe. Everything’s gonna be fine.”
“It hurts, Leo!” Mikey wailed. “Make it stop, please. I can’t bear it. Do whatever you can to save the baby.”

Donnie appeared with Raphael and April and said, “We need to get him to the infirmary fast. Hopefully, we’re not too late.”

Leo nodded and he and Raphael picked a sobbing Mikey up and carried him into the infirmary.

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Mikey lay on a stretcher and sobbed uncontrollably as he held his stomach.

Donnie said, “Raph, get cloths. Leo, stay with Mikey, okay?”
“No,” Mikey said sharply. “I don’t want Raphael here. He’s the reason I’m this way and he’s to blame if my baby dies. I only want you and Leo here.”

“I’ll be outside,” Raphael said sadly. “I’m really sorry, Mikey. I thought you hurt Leo. You know I’m protective of him and that I sometimes get the wrong end…”
“FUCKING GET OUT!” Mikey yelled, his face darkening. “I hate you!”

A guilt-ridden Raphael silently left with slumped shoulders and was followed by April.

Leo fetched a damp cloth and dabbed Mikey’s forehead.

“How are you feeling, Mikey?” Donnie asked.
“How's my baby? I need to know. ARGH!” Mikey screamed.
Donnie peered between Mikey’s legs, looked at the blood loss and said miserably, "Mikey, you’re having a miscarriage. I need you to push. I’m sorry, but there’s nothing else I can do. You have to push.”

“I’m here, Mikey,” Leo said gently and gripped his hand. “You can do this, my brave brother. I’m here for you. I love you. It’s…”

“My baby’s dead?” Mikey wept. “No! That can’t be true. You have to do something…You’re making this up, right? The baby’s fine and I…”
“Mikey,” Donnie said softly. “I’m not kidding. You need to push. I’m sorry.”
“I want my baby,” Mikey cried. “I want my baby. It’s all Raphael’s fault. Casey and I were so… Oh, Casey. He needs to know.”

“I’ll get Casey,” Leo said. “But you need to push, Mikey. You can do it. I got you. You’re not alone.”

Mikey nodded glumly, pushed and let out an anguished cry. His heart was shattered. He’d so looked forward to his kid and now the baby was dead. It was all Raphael’s fault and he’d never forgive him. Raphael was a murderer.

Mikey pushed for twenty excruciating minutes and then a large white mass exited his body.

“It’s out,” Donnie said. “I’m so sorry, Mikey. I know you’d have been a fantastic dad.”
“I’m sorry, Mikey,” Leo said, patting his shoulder. “I agree. You’d have been terrific. We're here for you and we’ll all get through this.”

Mikey gazed at the mass in a mixture of disbelief, grief, shock and rage. His baby was dead and there was nothing he could do.

“I want to be alone,” Mikey said in a broken voice, his gaze not leaving the mass.
“I don’t think you should be, Mikey,” Donnie said. “You’ve just experienced a traumatic event. You need someone with you.”
“I said I want to be alone!” Mikey shouted, picking up the vase on the nightstand. “Get out, both of you. I want to be alone with my baby!”
“We need to discuss funeral arrangements when you’re ready and I need to check your other injuries…”
“I SAID GET THE FUCK OUT! LEAVE ME AND MY BABY ALONE! YOU’RE NOT TAKING HIM!” Mikey said and threw the vase, which narrowly missed Donnie, crashed into the wall and smashed into smithereens.

“I’ll check on you later,” Leo said. “I love you, Mikey.”
“OUT!”

Leo and Donnie left the room.

A traumatized and heartsore Mikey said as tears rolled down his cheeks, “I’m so sorry, my precious baby. Daddy loves you and will never forget you. I love you so much. I always will and I’ll get justice for you. I promise, my sweet baby. Raphael will pay.”

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Raphael and April had barely spoken and had hovered in the passage outside the infirmary. He was too wrapped up in his thoughts. She was a bundle of nervous energy and was continuously pacing to the point of irritating him, but he’d resisted the desire to snap. He’d already hurt Mikey and possibly caused a miscarriage. He didn’t want to hurt anyone else.

Don and Leo appeared.

Raphael looked up and asked hopefully, “Is Mikey okay?”
“No,” Donnie said. “I’m afraid not. He miscarried the baby and he won’t let me examine his other injuries. I have to! He won’t let anyone touch him.”
“He miscarried?” Raphael said in horror, his green eyes wide.

“That’s right,” Leo said sadly. “He was a few weeks along. The baby’s on the stretcher with him. I need to call Casey. Poor Mikey.”
“It’s my fault,” Raphael said despondently. “I caused him to die. I’m such an asshole. I…”

“You are!" April yelled, her blue eyes flashing. “Poor Mikey. Now he may never be a dad. You should be ashamed of yourself, Raphael.”
“Raph didn’t know that Mikey was gravid,” Leo said. “He wouldn’t have hurt him if he’d known. You know he loves Mikey. He was jealous and honestly believed that Mikey had cheated on me and that Mikey was competition. I know it’s nuts, because I’m with Raph and I love him, but…”
“Leo, it’s sweet of you to take your mate’s side,” April said sarcastically. “But nothing excuses his behavior. He must have been extremely brutal to have caused a miscarriage. I wouldn’t forgive him if I were Mikey. Raphael deserves seppuku. That's if he’s not banished from the clan for his despicable actions.”

“SILENCE!” A male voice boomed.

Everyone turned around to see Splinter tapping his cane on the ground. His expression was stern and his brown eyes flashed.

“What is going on? I get up to get water and find you arguing like kindergarten kids," Splinter said heatedly.
“I’m sure Raphael can fill you in, Sensei!” April hissed. “Isn’t that right, Raphael?”

“Raph already feels like shit. He doesn’t need you attacking him as well,” Leo said furiously as he grabbed Raphael’s hand. “It was a horrible tragedy and Raph regrets it. Look at the pain on his face. He’s suffering.”
“Cry me a river, Leo,” April said irately. “It’s nothing compared to what Mikey’s going through.”

“I’m also sorry for Mikey,” Donnie said. “But arguing about who’s to blame won't help the situation, April.”
“So you’re taking Raphael’s side, Donnie?” April demanded acidly.

“SILENCE!” Splinter roared. “Raphael, what happened?”
Raphael squeezed Leo’s hand, thanking him for his support. Then he rubbed the back of his neck and said, “I lost my temper, because I thought Mikey had cheated on Leo and could be potential completion. I mean, want Leo back. Leo and I've been together for a while and I’m still insecure about things. I attacked Mikey and I’m so sorry. I wouldn't have if I’d known he was gravid,” Raphael wailed. “I love the kid, even though he ticks me off. You know I do. I love all my bros. They’re my universe. Mikey suffered a miscarriage. It’s my fault. I’m so sorry, Sensei.” He bowed his head and said, “I deserve seppuku. My actions have been dishonorable and I’ll understand if you order that. My only request is that I get one last night with Leo.”
Splinter blinked in surprise and said, “You and Leonardo are a couple?”
“Yep. For a while now and we’re happy. I’m so sorry, Sensei. I know I don’t deserve forgiveness.”
“I need to meditate on things. Leonardo, I would like you to join me.”

“Hai, Sensei," Leo said.

“Is that it?” April snapped. “You’re going to meditate while Mikey mourns the loss of his child?”
Splinter bristled and said firmly, “I am the clan leader and patriarch. You are merely dating Donatello, Miss O’Neil. I think you have overstepped your place in this family. I do not have to explain my actions to you and it is not your place to question me. It is not your business and it is a family affair. Please remember that. Leonardo, you will come with me. Raphael, you will go to your bedroom and remain there…”

April whirled on Donnie and shouted, “Are you going to let him talk to me that way? I’m your damn girlfriend and he’s telling me this isn’t my business. Of course it is. I love Mikey and…”
“Dad’s right. I know you love Mikey, but Dad doesn’t have to explain himself to you. He wouldn’t have to, even if we were married.”
“You’re a wimp, Donnie!” April seethed and removed her promise ring. She threw it at him and said, “You’re such a wuss for always letting your dad tell you what to do and for never sticking up for me. I’m done.”

April glowered at them all and stalked out of the lair.

A tearful Donnie watched her leave and misery was etched on his face.

“I’m sorry, Donnie,” Raphael said.
“It's not your fault, Raph. Anyway, the priority is Mikey.”

Splinter nodded and said, “I am sorry about Miss O'Neil. We will discuss that later, but Michelangelo is the priority right now. I want you to be with him, Donatello. Who is the father of Michelangelo’s baby?”
“Casey,” Leo said. “I’m supposed to call him.
“Call him. Then join me in the dojo. Raphael, you will stay in your bedroom until I summon you.”

“Hai, Sensei," Raphael said.

Raphael watched the others go to their various destinations. Then he went into his room, curled up into a ball in bed and wept bitterly.

I’m so sorry, Mikey. I hope you forgive me. I deserve seppuku. I'll take it like a man if Dad tells me he agrees. I’m a murderer and nothing will ever wipe the blood off my hands.

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Leo dialed Casey’s number and said, “Casey, I need you to come here pronto. Mikey needs you.”
“What happened, Leo?” Casey asked worriedly.
“I don’t want to discuss it over the phone.”
“Something happened to the baby, right? How’s Mikey?”
“I’m so sorry…”
Casey emitted an anguished wail and said, “I’m on my way. Tell Mikey I love him.” Then the line went dead.

Leo thought about Casey and Mikey and all that had happened. Poor Mikey and Casey. Casey’s gonna go mental when he learns that Raph caused the miscarriage. Shit. Christmas is supposed to be about love and joy, but it’s bringing heartache and tragedy. And what if Sensei agrees with Raph? We can’t lose our brother. I can’t lose him. I know he did a shitty thing, but his death won’t change anything. He’s still our brother and we need him. It's time to face the music and to see what Sensei thinks.

A dejected Leo went to the dojo.

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Splinter was sitting on the tatami mat.

“Sit down, Leonardo," Splinter said. Leo sat on the mat and waited for his dad to speak. “How long have you and Raphael been mates?”
“We aren’t really. It’s a charade. Raph likes Donnie and wanted to pretend to be with me to make Don jealous. I suppose that’s over now, because April’s gone and life can return to normal or whatever normal is. I helped him, because I didn’t want him to look foolish and like a liar in front of April and Don when he said we were dating. No harm was caused. Raph can move in on Donnie and I can leave as planned.”
“So you went ahead with the charade, even though it hurt you. That says a lot about your character, Leonardo. You are always noble and looking out for your family, even at the cost of your happiness.”
“It’s no big deal.”
“But it is not a charade to you, is it?”
“No,” a blushing Leo said. “My feelings for Raph are strong, but he’ll never feel the same way. He’s crazy about Don. It doesn’t matter. I’ll be gone soon and I'm positive my time away will lessen my feelings for him."
“Fetch Raphael. I have made a decision.”
“You aren't going to agree to what he said, are you?” Leo asked fearfully.
“Now, Leonardo."
"Yes, Sensei," Leo said and left the room.

Splinter thought about his eldest son. I do not want Leonardo to leave. I have a plan. I hope it works and convinces Leonardo to stay indefinitely.

Leo arrived a few minutes later with a frightened-looking Raphael.

“Kneel Raphael and Leonardo,” Splinter said.
“I accept whatever punishment you dish out, Dad,” Raphael said bravely as he knelt before Splinter and lowered his head. Leo did the same. “I killed Mikey’s baby and the only fitting punishment is death. I…”
“Silence, Raphael. I want you both to look at me."

His sons raised their heads.

“Dad, please don’t let Raph commit seppuku. Let me. I’ll take his…” Leo said.
“Silence, Leonardo,” Splinter said. “It is noble of you to take your brother’s place, but I do not want death. I have a different punishment in mind. Raphael, your brother has informed me that you have feelings for Donatello and are pretending to be mates with Leonardo to make him jealous.”

“Yeah, but we don’t have to do that anymore, Sensei," Raphael said. "April’s outta the picture, so I can woo Donnie. Hear that, Fearless? Donnie and I'll be bonded when you return from your trip.”
“Leonardo is not leaving yet, Raphael. I have been informed that the Ancient One has plans and will not be able to help Leonardo until February at the earliest. Now for your punishment. You will carry on your charade with Leonardo, you will share a room together…”
"What the hell?” Raphael roared, his green eyes flashing. “I told you I like Donnie, Sensei!”
“Raphael, be quiet. You will eat your meals together, train together and you will spend all of your free time together.”
“What a fucking bunch of crap!” Raphael hissed. “I'd have preferred seppuku! I don’t love Fearless. Why do I have to spend all of my time with him? Shit. Life isn't fucking fair. Fearless, why aren't you complaining? It isn't like you dig me either!”

“I respect your decision, Sensei,” Leonardo said and bowed his head.

“Language, Raphael!” Splinter said sternly. “A tragedy happened and my heart breaks for Michelangelo, but I do not think it warrants your death. You are dismissed. I hope your mate can drum some…”
“He's not my damn mate,” Raphael snapped. “How long do I have to spend time with him?”
“For as long as I wish."
“But, Sensei,” Raphael said, throwing himself at Splinter’s feet. “Leo’s a snooze fest. I’ll be bored shitless. All he does is meditate and read his damn war books. Please don’t make me be with him. He’s an uptight…”
“You might find there is more to your brother than you think. Please stop groveling. It is not dignified behavior.”
“Like what?” Raphael demanded as he raised his head. “I wanna be with Donnie. Sensei... Fearless, say something, besides agreeing with Dad!”
“You will share Leonardo’s room and you will also meditate with him. Your brother is a fine warrior and…”
“Boring,” Raphael said heatedly as he sat back on his heels. “Dad, this is a lame punishment. I’d rather…”
“There is no topside for six months. You are dismissed,” Splinter said and closed his eyes, which signaled the end of the conversation.

Raphael stood, stormed out of the room and to the room he shared with Leo and then slammed the door behind him.

Leo sighed and said, “Thank you for not letting seppuku be carried out, Dad, but Raph won't handle his punishment very well. Expect arguing.”
“I am positive he will not, but I do not care. He is lucky that I am a benevolent sensei. Others would not have been as lenient. Good luck, my son.”
“Dad, do you have an ulterior motive with the punishment?”
“Not at all,” Splinter lied. “I merely hope that some of your attributes rub off on Raphael.”
“How long is the punishment for?”
“Like I told Raphael, for as long as I wish.“
"Oh. Well, being around Raph will be tough, but I’m sure I can keep my feelings to myself. I have done for years. It’s not like he’ll ever like me back.”
“You are dismissed.”
“Hai, Sensei," Leo said, bowing and then leaving the dojo.

Splinter smiled inwardly as he thought about his plan. I believe Raphael will love Leonardo for real when he spends time with him and that Leonardo will then not want to leave. And with Raphael in close proximity all the time, I believe Leonardo will not be able to hold his feelings back either. They will be mates for real and will have a long and happy future together.

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Leo found Raphael packing his things away in the closet in the bedroom.

“Can you believe it, Fearless?” Raphael said irately. “Donnie’s single and we still gotta do the damn charade! It fucking blows. Fuck it. Now I gotta spend all of my time with you. Dullsville.”
“I’m sorry I’m so boring, Raph,” Leo said sarcastically. “And that you hate spending time with me. It won’t be easy for me with your bitching either. You whine about everything incessantly.”
“Because I have reason to moan. At least Donnie does something. All you do is meditate.”
“That’s not all I do. I also enjoy kanji, tending my bonsai, reading…”
“Yawn.”
“You’re not exactly fun either. All you do is lift weights, bitch and work on your bike.”
“Hey, hey!” Raphael said crossly and climbed into bed. “There’s more to me than that and you make me sound like a drama queen.”
“If the shoe fits. The punishment will end soon and then…”
“Not soon enough,” Raphael huffed. “Just my luck. Donnie’s single and I still gotta be with you. What’s Sensei trying to achieve? He'd better not think I’d fall for you. You aren't my type. Donnie…”
“I get Donnie ticks your boxes,” Leo snapped. “You don’t have to keep reminding me and how awful I am.”
“Jealous?” Raphael said and smirked.
“Hardly,” Leo said and climbed into bed. “You’re not my type either. You’re brash, rude, sarcastic, temperamental…”
“There’s more to me than that. I have a tender side.”
“Really? Could have fooled me. Why don’t you show it if you have one?”
“Why don’t you express your feelings?” Raphael retorted. “Why do you always repress them like an uptight chick?”
“You first.”
"Maybe I’m scared that people will think I’m weak and unmanly if I show it.”
“Me too. I’m the leader. I’m not supposed to. I have to be cool, calm and collected. I can’t let my feelings cloud my judgement. It could spell trouble in battle.”
“And your hormones. You also repress them. I sometimes think you're a hundred and one instead of a sixteen-year-old. Sheesh.”
“I often think you’re just a brute,” Leo said tersely.
“I'm not. Look, how about I’ll show you a little of my tender side, seeing that we’re still doing this charade? And you'll show your emotions more and let your guard down. I don’t wanna just bicker with you, because it’ll be unpleasant.”
“You never had problems with arguing before.”
“Yeah, but I could go to my room. We’re stuck together for goodness knows how long. The least we can do is try to get along. I’m willing. What about you?”
“Okay.”
“Cool. Hey. How’s Mikey doing?”
“Not good. Donnie’s with him. Casey’s on his way.”
“Do you think he’ll ever forgive me?” Raphael asked sadly.
“Mikey doesn't bear grudges, but this… I have no idea.”
“I should have died. I killed his baby. I’m an asshole,” Raphael said despondently.
Leo placed a hand on his arm and said, “Raph, you didn’t know that Mikey was gravid and you were sort of being protective of me. It was a tragic accident.”
"Still,” Raphael said, tears in his eyes. “I killed the baby, Leo. I’m a monster. I don’t think I can ever forgive myself.”
“You’re not a monster,” Leo said, removing his hand and squeezing Raphael’s hand. “It was a tragedy. It’s gut-wrenching and we’re all very sad, but we don't consider you a monster. We love you and we always will.”
“Mikey doesn't and Casey will also hate me. He has every right. I took away his chance to be a dad. I’d be mad if someone did that to me. Not that I'm gonna be a dad, but… Leo, what am I gonna do? I love Mikey and I’m sorry. I wish I could take back what I did and make it better,” Raphael said desolately.
Leo looked at his inconsolable brother and said, “There’s nothing you can do, but wait and give Mikey space until he’s ready to talk. He might find it in his heart to forgive you, but you have to let him be. He’s a wreck understandably.”
“You're right. Do you hate me?”
"I'm saddened by what happened, but I don’t hate you. How could I? You’re my little brother and I’ll always love you. It’s a terrible tragedy, Raph. We’ll get through it and I hope you can forgive yourself in time.”
“Thank you. I appreciate it. It’s almost Christmas and I fucking spoiled it. Mikey was so looking forward to it and…”
Leo took Raphael's hand and kissed it, making him blush and said, “Stop beating yourself up. We’ll get through this. Have faith…”
“Why did you kiss me?” Raphael demanded, pulling his hand away.
“I was trying to comfort you. That’s all.”
“That'd better be all, because I still love Donnie and only want him. Leo, we may share a room and spend time together, but I’ll never love you the way you want, so forget any ideas about being with me if you have any."
“I assure you, I don’t have any. I was trying to be a big brother, Raph. That’s all. I’m sorry.”
“This touchy-feely thing isn't me either. You can say things without touching. Keep your paws and lips to yourself, okay?”
“I bet you wouldn’t have a problem if Donnie did that,” Leo said jealously.
“'Of course not, because I love him.”
“He’ll never love you. He’s straight.”
“Bah. I can turn him. One night with me and he’ll forget all about women. You sound bitter and jealous, Fearless.”
“I’m not. I was…” Leo said and lay down.
“Anyway, it's pointless if you are. I love Donnie and I’m still gonna woo him. He’ll come around and we'll have the best life together. You'll see. I’ll tell him my feelings at breakfast. I'll ask him out, tell him this was all a game and that I gotta do it as punishment for a while longer. Then we can be proper mates and become bonded.”

A gloomy and tearful Leo turned his shell on his brother.

I can’t do this charade any longer. It’s killing me. I have to leave. I love Raph so much, but all he has is utter contempt for me. I can’t stand listening to how wonderful Donnie is and that they’re gonna have an awesome future together. I can’t stand being in the same room as Raph and not being able to hold him and to kiss him. I wish he’d tell me he loved me, but I know that'll never happen. I'll leave as soon as Mikey's better and will forge my own path.

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Casey arrived at the lair, made a beeline for the infirmary and blinked back tears as he thought about his cherished mate and the anguish he must be feeling.

He entered the infirmary and saw Mikey sitting upright on the stretcher and staring at a white mass in front of him.

The eggs. Our eggs. Oh, my beloved Mikey.

A despondent looking Donnie stood nearby. He glanced up and seeing Casey said, “Mikey, Casey’s here.”

Mikey said nothing, his gaze still transfixed on the mass.

“I’ll let you talk,” Donnie said. “I’m outside if you need me," he added as he patted Casey's shoulder and then left the room.

Casey felt awkward and at a loss for words. Something he’d never felt around Mikey before. They’d always been relaxed around each other and able to talk about anything, but this was a different ball game. Grief did that. It made things hard, tragic and unbearably awkward. Casey remembered the root canal he’d had the previous year, which had been awful, but this…this was significantly worse. A tooth was easy to deal with, but a miscarriage was a different story. Some people never dealt with it and it sometimes lead to the dissolution of marriages. The couples being unable to cope with their grief, which eventually tore them apart. His own grief was raw, but it must be tenfold worse for Mikey, who’d carried their baby and who only mere hours before had lovingly stroked his belly and declared how thrilled he was to soon become a daddy.

Casey felt like there was a great void between him and Mikey and that nothing he could do or say would bridge the gap, but he’d fucking try. He’d do anything to get Mikey to talk and to smile. They had to communicate and be there for each other. They needed each other more than anything now and needed to deal with it together.

Casey cleared his throat as he sat on the edge of the stretcher and tried to hug Mikey, but he pulled away, his gaze still on the white mass.

“Mikey, we gotta talk,” Casey said despondently. “Baby, please.”
“There’s nothing to discuss. I want to be alone with our baby, whom Raphael murdered.”
“Raph what?” Casey said as he blinked in confusion.
“He caused my miscarriage by kicking me when he assumed I cheated on Leo. Raphael must die for his sins. The baby deserves justice.”
“Whoa. What?”
“I want you to kill Raphael. I don’t care if he’s your pal. He must die!” Mikey said coldly, his gaze shifting to meet Casey’s. “You’ll kill him if you love me. An eye for an eye. It’s the only way Raphael can atone. His life for my baby’s.”
“Mikey, I understand you’re traumatized, but Raph’s your brother. I can’t do that. Revenge isn’t the answer, my love. This isn’t you. You aren’t a vengeful person. Come now. We’ll get through this together. We’ll fix….”
“Fix?” Mikey shouted, his blue eyes blazing and clenching his fists as his shoulders shook with rage. “Nothing can fix this, Casey. Nothing can bring our baby back. Revenge may not be the answer, but it’ll fucking make me feel better. He killed our sweet baby. Don’t you fucking care? Why aren’t you pissed? Or maybe you didn’t really want the baby and are happy he’s gone.”

Casey’s blood boiled at the insult and he took a deep breath to calm himself down. Mikey had been through hell and snapping at him would only worsen things. That’s the last thing Mikey needed. He needed love, comfort and tenderness.

Casey held up his hands in a soothing gesture and said, “Mikey, I wanted the baby and I’m also devastated, but murdering Raph’s not the solution. You know that deep down. I know you want to lash out at someone, so lash out at me. I can take it. Punch me and yell at me if you need to.”
“Why are you so fucking protective of Raphael? Do you love him?” Mikey said jealously.
“I’ve never liked Raph that way. Baby, it's only ever been you!” Casey said and grabbed Mikey’s wrists. He kissed them and said, "I swear on my life. I’m mad and I’m heartbroken, but I know revenge isn’t the solution. It was a tragic accident due to miscommunication. Communication and love will help us through this and we’ll have tons more babies when you’re ready. Baby, I love you so much and seeing you this way pains me. My sweet, loveable Mikey, you mean the world to me. Let me in and let's deal with it together. So many couples break up when this happens and I don’t want that to happen to us. I don’t want to lose you.”
“I love you too. I was so excited,” Mikey said, tears filling his blue eyes. “Now there’s nothing. What if we never have more babies?”
“We will my life. I promise. Even if we adopt. Dry your tears. Things are gonna be all right,” Casey said and pulled Mikey into a hug.

A tearful Mikey allowed himself to be hugged. Casey and I’ll get through this, but I won’t allow Raphael to get away with this. I will avenge my baby’s death somehow.

Casey also cried and his tears intermingled with Mikey’s. They held each other tightly, cocooning themselves in their love and tried to comfort each other.

Mikey raised his head and whispered, “I won’t kill him, but I doubt I’ll ever forgive him. How could I? I know they say hatred gnaws at you like cancer and forgiveness is good for the soul, but I can’t forgive him. I doubt I ever will. I loathe Raphael. I fucking despise him. I’ve always been the gentlest brother, but this experience makes me want to rip Raphael’s head off! I want to inflict pain on him and make him suffer like I’m suffering. Do you understand?”
“I do. It’s understandable you feel that way. I’m also distraught, but violence isn’t…”
“I know, but what if there was a way of making Raphael pay without resorting to violence. Would you do it, knowing it'd make me happy?”
“No. Mikey, I love you, but I don’t believe that’s the right path to follow. It’s natural you can’t forgive Raph now. The pain’s too fresh, but it’s possible you could someday. You’re brothers, after all. He loves you and you love him. He's still family and my friend. I’m furious, but I’m praying that I can find it in my heart to forgive him, because I know that I need to. Hatred's a horrible thing to carry around and is like a millstone weighing you down. I don’t want or need that and you don't either. Pray with me. I find that helps when dealing with difficult situations. Come with me to church. We’ll go now. Get your disguise.”
“I’d rather be here with you and maybe you have a point. I’ll try to forgive Raphael,” Mikey lied, still determined to make his brother’s life hell. “But all I want right now is you. I love you so much. We need to bury the baby.”
Casey lifted Mikey's chin, kissed his lips and said, “We will. We’ll have a special ceremony and bury him in my garden outside my bedroom window. I’ll erect a small headstone with their name and say that it was a cat or dog who’d died, so it won’t arouse suspicion in my dad.”
“I’d like that,” Mikey murmured, his eyes brimming with fresh tears. “What would you have named our baby?”
“Jacinda for a girl and Nathan for a boy.”
“I love those,” Mikey sniffed. “I like Esmeralda and Luke.”
“Terrific. We’ll name them Jacinda and Luke then. How’s that?”
“Perfect,” Mikey choked out.

Casey kissed him again.

Mikey thought about his temperamental brother. Raphael will fucking pay. Making him suffer will be a pleasure.

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April called from the entrance of the lair, “Hello?”
Don went to her and said, “What do you want?”
“To apologize. I love you and I was out of line, Donnie,” April choked out.
“You were and it’s not the first time. You have to understand… I can’t do this anymore. I’m fed up of fighting about my family. It’s clear you despise them. I can’t be with someone who does…”
“I’m pregnant,” April lied, fearing that she was going to lose him.
The color drained from Don’s face and he stammered, “W-what? H-how?”
“You know how, silly boy. It’s yours and I’m five weeks pregnant. I hadn’t been feeling well. I did a pregnancy test and it was blue. I’m stoked, aren’t you? You said you wanted kids.”
“Uh, yes. Give me a moment to digest this,” Don said as he plonked down on a couch.

April's pregnant. Shit. I can’t dump her now. I’ll look like an asshole. I have to stay with her. Maybe things will change. She said she’s sorry, right? I’ll try with her again for the baby’s sake.

“You’re not happy, Donnie?” April asked, her eyes filling with tears. “I hoped you’d be. That’s okay. I can raise the baby on my own. We’ll be fine. I’m sorry for bothering you.”
Donnie stood, cupped her face, kissed her tears away and said, “No, baby. We’ll raise the baby together. I love you and I couldn’t be happier.”

The genius bent down, wrapped his arms around her and passionately kissed her.

April eagerly returned the kiss and inwardly beamed that her plan had worked. Now I really have to get pregnant.

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Raphael went to the kitchen to grab something to eat a couple of hours later. Leo was meditating in the dojo. The green eyed turtle was astounded to see April sitting at the kitchen table with Donnie.

“She’s back, egghead?” Raphael said, failing to hide his dismay. “I thought the bitch was gone for good!”
Donnie’s face darkened and he growled, “Don’t talk about my baby’s mom and my bride-to-be like that, Raphael!"
“Huh?” Raphael said and blinked in confusion. “Baby? I don’t understand.”

“Let me explain,” April said snidely. “Couples fuck and the woman becomes pregnant when the male fertilizes her egg. I’m a few weeks along and we’re so happy. You’re going to be an uncle, Raphael.”

Hurt, disbelief and rage flashed on the volatile turtle’s face.

Unable to contain his escalating temper, Raphael yelled, “Have you fucking lost your mind, Donnie? I thought you liked me. You said...”
“Come again?” Don said in amazement. “Us? Are you smoking something, Raph?”

“Must be,” April said. “Because Donnie’s never had the hots for you, Raphael. He’s straight and loves me.”

“You said you were building something for the person you love, Donnie,” Raphael said, blinking back tears. “And that you'd give it to them at Christmas.”
“Yes, but it wasn’t for you, Raph. I’ve never felt more than brotherly love for you and I never will. I’m sorry. Aren’t you with Leo anyway? I’m confused.”
“Yeah. I am. I just thought you liked me.”
“No. I wish you and Leo well. No hard feelings?”
"None,” Raphael said as his world crumbled and his heart shattered. He feigned nonchalance and said, “I gotta do something. Bye.”

Raphael left the kitchen and dissolved into tears as he thought about his conversation with Donnie. He rushed to his room and hoped no one had seen him break down.

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Leo had left the dojo and was sitting on his bed and reading a book, when the door opened and Raphael barged into the room.

Leo glanced up and taking in his miserable-looking brother said, “What happened, Raph?”
“Fuck off!" Raphael snarled. “I don’t wanna talk about it.”
Leo stood up, went over to him and said, “You told Donnie and it went badly, right?”
“I fucking said I don’t wanna talk about it,” Raphael growled. “Leave me the fuck alone. I don't wanna hear you gloat.”
“Why would I gloat, least of all when you’re hurting? You’re my baby brother,” Leo said and wrapped his arms around him.

Raphael’s natural instinct was to pull away, because he detested close intimacy, but he didn’t pull away. He allowed his brother, who’d always been able to soothe him, to comfort him and he openly cried on his shoulder. His sobs wracked his body and pierced Leo’s heart. Leo hated seeing his brothers, especially Raphael in distress.

Raphael thought about Leo and his unwillingness to pull away from him. Why don't I wanna pull away? I usually do. Leo’s strong musk suddenly filled his nostrils. That's why. Leo’s scent and his presence. They always calmed me when I was a kid. They’re doing that now and I feel safe, warmed, loved and a yearning in my groin. Fuck. Why? Does it mean I’m attracted to Leo? I fucking love Donnie and I will win him. He doesn't want April and is only with her because of the baby. He wants me. I’ll make him so insane with jealousy that he’ll realize that and want me. I could never love Fearless. He’s so boring, but maybe I can use Fearless to win the genius.

Raphael raised his head and kissed his brother's lips.

Leo’s eyes widened and he said, “Ra…”
“Hush, Fearless,” Raphael said, trailing a hand down Leo’s plastron and making him shiver.

Raphael nibbled Leo’s lower lip, thrust his tongue into his mouth and thought that he tasted like mint.

It must be all the green tea he drinks. It's exotic and surprisingly delicious. I like it, but that's not why I’m doing this. I wanna make Donnie riled. That’s all. Fearless also smells enticing and I can smell his arousal. Fuck. Raph, focus. This is about getting Donnie to love you, not pleasing Leo.

Stunned by the kiss, Leo tried to pull away, but Raphael yanked his mask tails and pulled him closer.

Then gazing into Leo’s mesmerizing blue eyes, Raphael ran a hand over his body. He settled it on Leo’s tail and playfully tugged it.

A startled Leo squawked.

Raphael wanted to guffaw at it, but he knew that’d kill the mood, so he pressed his plastron against Leo’s, which created a wonderful, sensual friction and caused deep churrs to roar from their chests. An embarrassed Raphael flushed. He’d never thought he could make those noises, but now wasn’t the time to dwell on that. He had to conquer Leo.

Look on the bright side. It may be with Leo, but at least I won’t be a virgin anymore.

A flustered and equally mortified Leo tried to pull away, but Raphael quickly captured his lips in a sweet and tender kiss. Turned on and with heat pooling in his groin, Leo returned the kiss. Their tongues twined together as Leo’s hand explored Raphael’s body. He settled it on Raphael’s rump and gave it a loving squeeze.

Raphael emitted an unmanly squeak of surprise.

Leo thought about his volatile brother. Raph’s a good kisser and tender. I thought he’d be fiercer. This is good, but we should stop. He’s probably only doing this to spite Don. I wish he wanted to for real. I should, but I can’t tear myself away. So much for being Mr. In Control, but then I was never able to refuse him anything.

Raphael poured all his passion and soul into the kiss as he thought about Leo. Leo’s a great kisser. I never thought he would be. If things were different, maybe we’d… No. This is about winning Donnie. I'll seduce Fearless, fuck him and let Donnie see the love bites and smell our lovemaking. Leo had better not think he’s topping, because I sure as hell am not bottoming.

Raphael suddenly pounced on his brother and pushed him back onto the bed. He planted little kisses down Leo’s plastron and kneed his legs apart, but Leo was having none of that.

Leo frowned. I’m not bottoming. Raph started this game. He can.

He flipped them so that he was astride his brother, who struggled futilely when Leo pinned him down.

Rage was written over Raphael's face as he glowered at his big brother.

“Let me fucking go!” Raphael snapped. “This isn't funny, Leo.”
“But you were fine with screwing me, right? Settle down, Raph. This’ll be fun. You want this, right? To pay Donnie back? That’s what this is about, right? You don’t love me.”
An ashamed Raphael’s cheeks flamed and he said, “Yeah. I admit it. Let me go and we’ll never talk about it again.”

Leo lowered his head and nipped Raphael’s collarbone.

The green eyed turtle shrieked in astonishment, but Leo ignored him and stroked his slit.

“I don’t wanna,” Raphael said in dismay and tried to wriggle away, but Leo’s hold was firm. “Stop that. I don’t want this.”
Leo swiped a long lick across Raphael’s neck, which made him shiver and said, “I know you do, Raphie. You want this so badly. Come out and play.”
Raphael pressed his tail as closely as he could against his body and said, “Let me fucking go now, Leo, and I won’t tell Dad you tried to rape your little bro.”
“Rape?” Leo said in disbelief. “This isn’t rape. You wanted sex. You’re just sore that I'm topping and that you’re the damn uke. You’ll get what you want. We’ll screw. You can try and make Donnie jealous, but it’ll only happen if I top. Do you understand?”
“Fuck you,” Raphael hissed.
“Tick-tock.”

A despondent Raphael thought about his situation. I don’t have much of a choice. Ignore your pride, Raph, and let Leo have his way. You'll still get Donnie.

“Fine,” Raphael said through clenched teeth. “You win, Fearless.” He untucked his tail, parted his legs and said, “Go easy. This is my first time.”
“Mine too,” Leo said. He nipped all over Raphael’s body, leaving multiple red marks he knew would be visible. Love bites that mean he’s mine and I claimed him.

Raphael groaned and warmth pooled in his groin again as Leo’s leathery tongue licked its way down his plastron.

That's kinda nice, but I’m gonna pretend that it’s with Donnie. Fuck Fearless and fuck him for manipulating me. I won't let him think I like this.

Leo opened a dresser and took out a bottle of lube.

Raphael’s eyes widened in amazement. He hadn’t expected Leo to have that.

“How come you have that, Leo?” Raphael asked.
Leo shrugged and said, “I thought I might have a shot with Karai. She seemed to like me.”
“Haha. That psycho prefers yours truly, but you can…”

Raphael’s words trailed off when Leo stroked his slit. He hummed in appreciation as the soft cartilage in his slit parted and his semi-erect cock, which leaked precum dropped down into Leo’s waiting hands.

“You’re huge,” Leo purred. “I think you're seven inches.”
“Ten at full mast. Get this over with.”
“So impatient and needy. You sure you’re not a girl?”
“Leo, stop being a fucking prick and get on with it.”
“Keep your shell on,” Leo said and squeezed some lube onto a finger. Then he inserted it into Raphael’s hole.

Stunned by the sudden penetration in his rear and by the strange feeling, Raphael hissed and glared at his brother.

Bastard. I don’t like that.

Leo gently moved his finger in and out of Raphael. His finger soon hit Raphael’s prostate, causing him to churr from the pleasurable sensation.

Raphael rocked back and forth on Leo’s finger and closed his eyes. I like this. It feels incredible.

Leo removed his finger.

Raphael was disgusted with himself when he whined at the sudden loss of warmth.

A beaming Leo pressed his face against Raphael’s and said, “Miss me, huh? I'm gonna fill you up with my seed. You smell terrific, Raphie. I love your scent and you’re gorgeous beneath me. That's where you belong.”
“Fuck you, Splinter junior,” Raphael yelled, his green eyes flashing. “Just wait until…”

Raphael’s words trailed off as Leo thrust his eight-inch cock into him.

The temperamental turtle stifled a scream at the burning sensation, because he didn't want to give his brother the satisfaction of knowing he was in agony.

“You’re so tight. Am I hurting you?” Leo asked, his voice laced with concern.
“What? Tough me hurt by your small dick? Hardly,” Raphael scoffed. “Come on, Fearless. I’m ready if you think you can plow me, assuming you aren't afraid. Maybe you have doubts about how good you'll be. I can take whatever you can dish out.”
Leo smiled and said, “If you say so.”

Leo thrust in and out and soon formed a steady rhythm.

Pain soon turned to pleasure for a flushing Raphael as Leo repeatedly stabbed his prostate. He fisted the bedsheets, threw his head back in ecstasy and churred. His hole gradually widened to accommodate Leo’s girth.

Leo looked at his flushed brother. He's so beautiful. If only he really loved me. I’d give anything for that, but it won’t happen. I’ll soon be elsewhere and Donnie will maybe accept Raph. I mustn’t forget that.

Leo kissed his brother and said, “You’re so amazing and perfect, Raph. You’re…”
“You're making my shell itch with the sappiness. Just fuck me.”
“As you wish.”

Leo thrust in even harder and deeper and churred, feeling like he was on cloud nine.

I love being with him. It feels so right and like we were made for each other. I love his sexy noises, cute little tail, butt and his stunning green eyes. I love everything about him, even his cockiness. He’s sheer perfection.

Raphael growled lowly, reached up and dug his blunt nails into Leo’s arms as they continued their lovemaking and rocked as one.

Leo’s tender and such a giving lover. Fuck. This is heavenly. I wanna cum so badly. I feel fucking fantastic. Who’d have thought my first time would be with Leo? Isn't life unpredictable?

Leo pumped Raphael’s cock and it wasn’t long with the double stimulation, before Raphael climaxed with a loud growl. He splattered his sticky seed across his plastron and over Leo's fingers.

Leo came soon after with a loud churr and filled his brother with his essence. Some of it leaked from Raphael’s hole and dripped onto the bedsheet. Then a panting Leo pulled out and flopped down beside his brother.

“Donnie will be jealous now,” Raphael said smugly as he tried to ignore his sore ass and tail. “You'll see.”
“I hope you’re right.”
“I’m always right. Hey, Fearless, you nailed me good.”
“I hope I didn’t hurt you.”
“Turn around. I wanna talk.”

The last thing Leo wanted to do was talk. He wanted to sleep and to forget he’d allowed himself to fuck his brother when he knew it wouldn’t go anywhere. He’d lost control and he was revolted with himself. Leo turned around and was amazed to see Raphael reaching for him.

“Couples snuggle in the afterglow of sex,” Raphael explained as he looked at Leo’s astonished face.
“We aren’t a couple and you don’t snuggle.”
“I know, but I wanna,” Raphael said shyly. “Please.”

Leo sighed, cuddled with Raphael and wished a hole would swallow him up. Being so close with him was incredible, but at the same time he wished he was somewhere else, because it wasn’t love. It’d just been sex and a ploy of Raphael’s to get who he wanted. Donnie. Leo felt cheapened, but wasn’t it his fault? He could have stopped it, but he’d willingly bedded him and had taken the lead. He sucked as both a brother and a leader. He’d been mad at his brother for being manipulative, but he was worse, wasn’t he? He should have…

Raphael affectionately nuzzled Leo’s cheek with his beak.

The stunned leader stared open-mouthed at his brother. Raphael hadn’t been so loving since he was a kid and only reluctantly accepted hugs once in a blue moon. Is he sick?

“Thank you, Fearless,” Raphael said and smiled. Not a smirk, but a genuine smile that caused butterflies in Leo’s stomach. “I liked it and I know it’ll make Donnie crazy about me. He’ll flip when he sees my bites.”
“Sure.”
“You were kinda good. I’m sorry I insulted your virility and stamina. Want another round? I’ve recovered.”
“I’m tired, Raph.”
“Maybe later?”
“Like me, huh? You like your big brother stuffing you good?” Leo teased.
“Later isn't good enough,” Raphael said with a smirk.

Raphael rolled onto his brother and pinned him down.

Leo tried to break free, but Raphael nipped his collarbone, asserting dominance.

“No. It’s my turn to top," Raphael said. "Don’t fret, Leo. It’ll only sting for a minute and then you'll be in heaven.”
“Raph,” Leo said fearfully. “I don’t want…”
“You scared? I took it and didn’t whinge. Surely a noble and fearless warrior like you can.”
“I’m not scared. It’s…”
“You have a virgin hole, huh? I also did. I can be tender and gentle, so you don't have to worry. I'll make you see stars.”

Raphael licked his plastron, causing him to groan. Then Raphael turned his attention to Leo’s slit and rubbed it. He grinned when the leader dropped down and saw that his nine-inch cock was slick with precum.

Raphael licked the shaft, making Leo shiver. Then he lined his cock up at Leo’s entrance and said, “I’m going in. Brace yourself.”

Unable to stop himself, Leo whined as Raphael thrust his cock into him. It burned like hell and he hated it.

“You sore, Fearless?” Raphael asked anxiously.
Leo gritted his teeth and muttered, “Fine. Just stings.”
“It’ll stop soon. Relax and let yourself go. I promise I’ll be gentle. I'm not a savage. Well, not always.”

Raphael gently thrust in and out, soon formed a steady rhythm and repeatedly stabbed Leo’s prostate.

The leaf green turtle churred, his lips parted and his cheeks flushed as pleasure coursed through him. Raph’s cock hurt at first, but now it feels wonderful inside me. I like it.

Raphael thought about his brother. Leo looks so cute. Fuck. Did I say cute? This is just sex and meant to get Donnie, Raph. Don’t fall for Leo. He doesn't like you. Remember that.

Raphael pumped Leo’s cock and gave a final thrust into him.

Leo climaxed first with a loud churr and splattered his cum across his plastron.

Raphael came with a loud growl a minute later and shot his essence deep into his brother. Then spent, he pulled out, rolled off his brother and lay down.

“You okay, Fearless?” Raphael said breathlessly.
“Fine.” I’m not fine. I fucked my brother. Not once, but twice. We can’t do it again. Maybe I can ask Dad to let me leave sooner. How am I supposed to hide my feelings after this? I have to try. I can’t leave now. Mikey needs me. I’m so…

Raphael said as he turned around, “Look at me.”
“Why?”
“Just do it.”
Leo sighed and turned around. “Happy now?”
“Yeah. Sex makes you glow, Leo. You look soft and beautiful. I like it.”
“Are you sick, Raph? You said something sweet.”
“Maybe you're rubbing off on me,” Raphael said and chuckled. “I’m serious. Anyway, I liked the sex and I hope I didn’t hurt you too much.”
“I’m fine. I want…”
“We have to keep fucking. This can’t be a one-time thing, because Donnie won’t believe us if it is. We have a date tonight and then fucking, okay?”
“Ever to the point.”
“I did say date. I didn't just say fucking. I can be romantic, because we have to have romance and not just fucking to make it believable.”
“You’re right,” Leo said and yawned. His butt and tail hurt, but he forced himself to ignore it.
“Cuddle me. I need your scent all over me, so Donnie can smell you.”

Leo thought about all that had happened. I hate this, but I also love being with him. Fuck. I shouldn't have agreed to the stupid charade. Way to go, Leo! You always get yourself into trouble. I’m gonna talk to Dad and ask his advice about this.

A beaming Raphael wrapped his arms around his brother.

Donnie will be all over me when he finds out we banged. Then we’re gonna have a bonding ceremony and we’ll be happy forever. Fuck April. I bet that bitch isn't even pregnant and is trying to trap him. I'll look into that and try to get a sample of her DNA to check.

Raphael soon fell into a deep slumber and was unaware of his big brother's inner struggle.

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Splinter was reading a book in his room when an idea struck him. One he was convinced would keep Leo and Raphael together for good. He’d stress that was his wish and order and being the devotes sons they were, they’d honor it. He’d offer a clause too, but he didn’t think that’d happen. Beaming, he penned a letter and informed the Ancient One of his plans.

XXXX

Leo woke up a while later and found he was still snuggled up to Raphael. The thick, cloying, intense scent of their lovemaking permeated the room and Raphael’s intoxicating scent filled his nostrils. Cuddling with him was comforting and heaven, but it shouldn’t have happened, because he should have resisted his brother and his urges.

Some ninja and big brother I am. It’d have been different if the sex had been a way of showing our love for each other, but it wasn't. It was just sex for Raphael, meaningless, a tool to try and get Don to see what was missing and to make him jealous. That’s all. I knew that was the case, but I still went ahead with it and in the process, I caused myself more heartache and despair.

Leo had loved the sex. It’d been incredible and he’d felt a closeness to his brother that he hadn’t felt in years. It was real love mixed with burning passion for Leo, but he knew that wasn’t the case for Raphael. He had to leave. It hurt that he had his brother, but he didn’t really have him. Not his genuine and pure love. He’d never have it, no matter what he did. He had to leave before his disconsolation totally consumed him. Leo stifled a sob and blinked back tears at the thought. He loved his family so much and hated leaving them, but what choice did he have? A tear rolled down his cheek.

Green eyes flickered open and Raphael said as he took in Leo’s miserable expression, “Why are you crying?”
“I’m not,” Leo fiercely denied.
“BS. Why?”
“You wouldn’t understand, Raph.”
“Try me. I can be a good listener.”
“You don’t do feelings.”
“Not usually, but I told you I’d try to be more open with you and you said you'd be the same.”
Leo sucked in a deep breath and said, “I don’t know how to begin.”
“Just say how you feel.”
“Conflicted, torn, anguished, inconsolable, heartsick, restless.”
“Yeah. You mentioned that you love someone, but he doesn't feel the same way. Why are you still mourning that dick who doesn't know how lucky he is that someone like you would want him? Forget him and move on, Leo. You're only causing yourself pain if you don’t. Hey. How about I blow you? It’ll take your mind off the dickwad.”
The thought of Raphael sucking him off was very tempting, but Leo shook his head. “No. That’s not exactly what I want.”
Green eyes widened in surprise. “You don’t want me to suck you off to make you feel better? I thought guys liked blowjobs.”
“I do want it, but I don’t want you to do it to make me feel better. I want you to do it, because you want to.”
“I wouldn’t have offered if I didn’t wanna,” Raphael said and frowned. “It’ll make you feel better, forget about that dipshit guy and you gotta admit the sex was awesome. I’m dynamite in bed.”
“Nothing like self-praise, huh?” Leo said sarcastically.
Raphael smirked and said, “You know I was amazing. I plowed your ass good. It’s almost as if my rod was made for your tight hole, Fearless. We both know it," Raphael said huskily, looking intently into Leo’s eyes and lazily running a hand down his plastron, which caused a tingle down his spine.
“Anyone could walk in here,” Leo protested, ignoring the warmth pooling in his groin and his uncomfortably tight shell as his dick strained to be released. “We need to get up…”
Raphael leant closer, his face inches from his brother’s and sniffed the air. He grinned and said, “I smell your arousal. You want me, don’t you? You wanna be trapped underneath me with my dick rammed into your ass. You're an Omega, Fearless, not the Alpha you claim to be. Am I right? You wanna be dominated by me! You aren't going anywhere until I say so. No one’s gonna walk in here.”

Leo’s senses swam as Raphael’s spicy and alluring scent filled his nostrils and his resolve crumbled. Some master of control he was. His brother uttered a few seductive words and he was putty in his hands. Fuck. He shivered, a move his brother immediately noticed.

“Nervous, Fearless? It's not like you to be so shy,” Raphael teased as he slipped a hand between his brother’s legs. “Like that, huh?” Raphael added and tugged his tail.
Leo emitted a startled whine and said, “Enough, Raphael!”
“That was an undignified reaction,” Raphael said and chuckled. “You aren't so high and mighty now, are you, golden boy?”

Raphael rolled onto his brother and pinned his hands down. Then he swiped a long lick across Leo’s neck. His eyes lit up when Leo groaned and tilted his neck to one side, which gave him better access.

“Hmm. You taste sensational, Leo,” Raphael purred as he kneed Leo’s legs apart. “You're a hot piece of tail.”
“Raphael, stop poking fun at me,” Leo said, struggling to move.
“Oh, but you like poking, bro!” Raphael exclaimed, his eyes sparkling with merriment. “And I’m gonna poke you good. Be a good boy and lie back for me.”

Leo’s resolve to resist crumbled again. Who was he kidding? He wanted his brother to screw him, to dominate him, to pleasure him. Okay, it wasn’t love, but he was still going to get fucked by his dream guy, wasn’t he?

The next thing Leo felt was his brother’s head between his legs and his leathery tongue licking his slit.

“Fuck,” Leo moaned as he dropped down. His cock oozed precum.

Not using any lube, Raphael slowly slid his dick into his brother.

Leo tensed at the sudden intrusion.

“Relax, Leo,” Raphael whispered. “Let yourself go, okay? It’ll be better for both of us if you do. Damn it. You're still so tight. Let go of your control.”
“It’s just sex to you, isn’t it?”
“Huh?”
“This, us. Do you feel anything at all?”
“I'm not heartless,” Raphael said and frowned. “I have feelings. You're killing my libido. Let’s… Look, you're pining over that twit and I’m mooning over Donnie. This’ll distract us for a while.”
“Maybe I don’t want for a while.”
Raphael pulled his dick out of his brother, narrowed his eyes and said, “Thanks for ruining my mood. You always have to talk and make things more complicated, instead of just having fun and being spontaneous. What the hell do you mean?”
“Nothing.”
A frustrated Raphael growled and then said, “No. You don’t spoil my mood and then say it’s nothing. What the fuck do you mean, Leo?”
“Nothing, I assure you. We really need to get up…” Leo tried to sit up, but Raphael pressed him down.
“What did you mean?” Raphael hissed. “Be honest. We said we’d be open with each other.”
“Sex isn’t mechanical and meaningless to me. It’s a demonstration of true and pure love between two people and two hearts and bodies uniting to become one. Peoples’ feelings are sometimes hurt when they play with fire and the same feelings aren’t returned. Sex isn’t meant to be a distraction. It’s meant to be beautiful and…”

Leo expected his brother to scoff at how sentimental he was and to say that he was thinking too much. It was a charade, after all and sex was just a means of making the farce more believable.

Raphael nodded and said, “You're right, but it wasn’t exactly meaningless for me, Leo. I’m helping you forget that douche. That makes me feel better and you're gonna help me win Donnie, so it's all good, right? Plus, the sex really was heavenly. I feel like I know you a bit better and we’ve even been able to talk without coming to blows. So it's not been bad.”
“Okay. Hypothetical. Let’s say you and Donnie never happened. What would you do?”
“I suppose you and I'd have a friends with benefits thing until we found someone more suitable for us.”
“But I’d be away overseas.”
Raphael shrugged. “Then I’d go with you. Someone's gotta keep you in line, Fearless, so you know your place,” he said and chuckled. “What about you? What if you and that guy never happen?”
“I guess the same thing. Are you gonna get off me now?”
“Not a chance. Seeing as we’re being honest, what attracts you to that bonehead you like?”
“His swagger, confidence, charm, his dazzling eyes. They’re mesmerizing. I could drown in them forever. He’s noble, affectionate, loyal, sexy as all hell. His body is gorgeous and his muscles are huge. He’s perfectly crafted. I could bounce quarters off his ass and he makes me swoon whenever I see him. I’m in awe of him and he’s just… Words don’t adequately describe him.”
“Hmm. Sounds a lot like me,” Raphael kidded. “Fearless, I give you such a hard time, but you're actually a terrific guy.”
"I am?"
“Yeah. You deserve the moon, Leo, and you have beautiful eyes. They’re as stunning as the ocean.”
Leo blushed and said, “You're trying to suck up to me, so you can have your way with me.”
“Suck?” Raphael said and smirked. “I can do that really well. Let me pleasure you.”

There was a knock on the door.

Raphael grunted in frustration.

“Who is it?” Leo asked.
“Meet me in the dojo,” Splinter said.

“We’ll be right there,” Raphael said. He rolled off Leo, stood and quickly dressed. “What do you think he wants, Leo?”
“No idea,” Leo said as he stood up. He dressed and left the room with Raphael.

XXXX

The brothers bowed when they entered the dojo.

“Kneel, my sons," Splinter said.

The brothers knelt down, looked up at their dad and sensed he was going to tell them something important.

“I want you to do something important for me,” Splinter said. “I am probably not long for this world and it will gladden my heart.”
“What is it, Dad?” Raphael asked.
“You are already spending much time together. I heard the ecstatic cries from your bedroom.”

Leo and Raphael blushed profusely, mortified their dad had heard them.

“I’m sorry, Dad,” Leo began.
Splinter waved a hand dismissively and said, “It is natural you would be sexually curious and that you want to fulfil certain desires, but those desires should be met when the relationship is a more permanent one. You are living as lovers, but I want you to take the next step and to solidify the relationship.”

“What the fucking hell!” Raphael said furiously. “Dad, you can’t be suggesting I marry Leo. This is only meant to be a charade and to spend time with Leo as a punishment, not to be his lifelong mate.”
“Raphael, language,” Splinter said sternly. “It is my desire and my order. You will be bonded and you will have your bonding ceremony tomorrow.”
“BUT I LOVE DONNIE! YOU CAN’T DO THIS!” Raphael exploded as his shoulders shook with rage, his green eyes blazed and he clenched his fists. “I DON’T LOVE LEO! YOU CAN’T MAKE ME! LEO DOESN'T LOVE ME EITHER! THIS IS WRONG!”
Splinter’s eyes flashed dangerously and he slapped Raphael's face. The hothead glared at him defiantly. “Raphael, remember your place. I am your father and sensei. You do not speak to me that way. You will adhere to my order. There is a clause.”

Leo's heart hammered, but he said nothing. Married to Raphael? What? What about leaving? How could he marry someone who didn’t love him? How could Sensei think of such a thing? He’d clearly lost his marbles. He had to think of a way to stop this.

“Dad, you can’t make us do that. Raph doesn’t love me," Leo said.
“What’s the clause?” Raphael demanded.

“I have something I want to get off my chest,” the old rat said. “I hope this will make you two fall in love for real and for Leonardo to remain at home. The thought of him leaving fills me with the utmost sadness and despair.”
“The clause,” Raphael repeated.
“Be patient, Raphael!” Splinter said irately.

Splinter opened his mouth to speak. His sons looked up at him, their hearts pounding, their hands clammy and their mouths dry. Whatever he was going to say was definitely a game changer and they both yearned to know what it was.

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“Raphael, the clause is that you can dissolve the union if you do not fall for Leonardo in six months,” Splinter said. “But you will be faithful to each other during that period and you will not act on your feelings for Donatello or tell him how you feel about him. You will spend the majority of your time with Leonardo and you will be an attentive and loving mate like he will be to you. Leonardo, you requested to leave. That is denied at the moment, but you may leave and do as you wish if your union with Raphael is dissolved.”
“Is that all? I don’t fall for Leo in six months?” Raphael said. “Wow. That’s easy, Dad. I can do that and I’ll pass with flying colors. Then I’ll have Donnie and the life I want. I thought the clause would be a much tougher one, but that’s a piece of cake. Hear that, Fearless? We’ll be rid of each other in six months’ time. The countdown’s on. Hey. Why did Fearless request to leave? Why would he wanna leave us?”

The thought of spending the next six months with his crush both exhilarated and saddened Leo. It’d be bittersweet having Raphael so close, but not really having him the way he wanted, which was body, heart and soul. It'd be meaningless to Raphael, a means to an end and punishment. It wasn't because he wanted to spend time with Leo, but because he was forced to. Raphael would ultimately leave him and he’d be alone, because there was no way the alluring, sexy hothead could fall for a boring drip like himself. Leo thought he wasn’t special and Raphael certainly hammered that home every opportunity he got, but his dad had laid down the law and they had to obey it.

“Is that all, Dad?” Leo asked, feigning nonchalance.
“Hey. Answer the question, Leo,” Raphael demanded, his green eyes boring into Leo’s.
“I told you why I wanted to leave, Raph. Dad, is that all?”

“I’m moving the ceremony up to four p.m. today,” Splinter said. “Why wait? I will officiate. You can wear the kimonos I bought you for Christmas last year. Do not be late.”
“But we don’t have rings or anything," Raphael said. "You need those to make it a proper ceremony.”
“Sometimes all you need is in your heart. I will see you then. Write your speeches.”
“This is bullshit!” Raphael hissed. “Look, I get it’s six months, Sensei, and I can do that, but why can’t it be six months of living together? Why does it have to be bonded? Why does it have to be official? It’s kinda making a mockery outta marriage by going through it all when you don’t love the person. Leo doesn't love me and I don’t love him the way it should be to be married.”
“You made a mockery out of love by pretending to be together,” Splinter said evenly. “It is not any different, Raphael. You just will not be living in sin. Who knows, you may actually grow to love Leonardo?”
“The hell I will. I’ll never love Leo. I’ll do this to prove you wrong and so that I can have Donnie, but I vow I’ll never love Leo. You can’t make me and he doesn't love me either. He’s fixated on another guy. This isn't fair, Sensei. How can you make us do something we don’t wanna do?”
“Ensure you write convincing and loving speeches,” Splinter said, ignoring Raphael’s outburst. “You still want people to believe you are in love and to make Donatello jealous, right? You will spend your honeymoon at the farmhouse. It will just be the two of you for a whole week, so you can get to know and appreciate each other more in a more intimate setting. Make the most of your alone time. Stop scowling, Raphael. It is not a death sentence. Leonardo is a catch.”
“Not in my eyes. He’s a spaz. It isn't fair,” Raphael whined and stamped his foot in fury. “It’s hell. Leo always thinks he knows everything and that he’s the boss. It'll be shit.”

“You aren’t exactly easy either, Raph,” Leo retorted. “You bitch about everything and you never listen to a word I say. The only time you’re quiet is in bed when I’m rammed into you.” Realizing what he’d said, an embarrassed Leo clamped a hand over his mouth.
“Yeah? I seem to remember you liked me fucking you and you being an uke,” Raphael fired back. “So much for the leader, huh?”

“Enough!” Splinter said firmly. “I will see you at four. Raphael, lose the attitude and remember that Leonardo is your leader, regardless of your feelings for him. He deserves respect," Splinter said and left the dojo.

“You aren't the boss in the bedroom. I am, Leo,” Raphael said. “I proved it.”
“Sure you did,” Leo said, rolling his eyes. “Look, I know you don’t want this. I don’t…”
“You could have said something about the guy you like. Dad wouldn't have said we had to get married then.”
“It’s pointless. That guy doesn’t like me. You can’t make someone like you if they don’t.”
“But I’m forced into a marriage with you, who I don’t like beyond brotherly affection. How’s that fair, Leo? You know what? Let me talk to that dickwad you like and I'll beat sense into him.”
“It’ll never work. Forget it.”
“I have ways and means of making people see sense,” Raphael said as he cracked his knuckles.
“No. I like him, but I neglected to say he’s married.”
“Couples break up all the time. I’ll pay him a house call.”
“No! You can’t break up their marriage. He has a family. No, Raph. I won’t let you. I’m sorry this has to happen, but I can’t do that to his family. His kid’s only two-months-old.”
“Why did you screw a married man in the first place, Fearless? That's not like you.”
“We didn’t exactly screw. I fell in love with him when I saw him on TV,” Leo lied.
“Holy shit. You're telling me you're in love with a celeb? That’s the guy who’s a dick and who doesn't like you? No wonder. He doesn't even know you exist and to think I actually got mad and offended for you. Geez. You're a nerd, Leo. Lucky me got the jackpot, huh? The only saving grace is that you're good in bed. That was a shock. I didn’t think you would be.”
“Yes. I fell in love with a celeb. It’s not abnormal. You’ve crushed on a couple.”
“Yeah, but I didn’t think I stood a chance. Leo, you're priceless.”
“I’m glad you find me amusing. Raph, I don’t want to marry you either. You’re not a barrel of laughs and easy to get on with, but I’ll suck it up. It’s only six months. Then we’re free.”
“Hmm. Suck? You'll be doing that all right.”
“I’ll make a concession, so it won’t be total hell for you. You can lead in the bedroom. You like control. I’ll let you lead, but I want to top sometimes.”
“How generous,” Raphael scoffed. “I suppose that’s the least you can do and it’ll stop us from having boring sex. I’m innovative. I have a lot of ideas we can try.”
“All right. I’m gonna get ready for the ceremony. Raph, I want you to know that I’ll treat you with love and respect while we're married and you’ll never lack for anything. I’ll try to be your anchor when you’re feeling lost and be all you need.”
“You'll never be all I want and need, Leo,” Raphael said coldly. “It’s a charade. The sex will be fun, but that’s all we have to make the arrangement bearable. We have nothing else in common. You know that. We’ll be free in six months' time. You'll hopefully meet a real and decent guy and I’ll have Donnie.”
Leo plastered a smile on his face as his heart shattered at the harsh words and he said, “Yeah. I guess you’re right. It’s just sex and we’ll never really love each other more than brothers.”
“It’s great sex, but that’s all it is. Don’t ever think it’s more than that, because it's not never will be.”
“What if you fell in love with me?”
“That won't happen, Leo, so it's pointless hypothesizing.”
“But what if it did? Would you still leave me just to make a point to Dad?”
“No. I’d love you and would treat you with respect, love, adoration and everything you deserve and more. I’d try to be all you need and to be there for you, especially when you feel crappy and doubt yourself. You do that so much, but you shouldn’t. You're a heck of a guy. I say mean shit that you don’t deserve. You aren't a spaz or a drip. You're kind, sweet, loving and everything pure, but you're not suited for me. That’s what I really mean and I'm not suited for you. I’m brash, rude, sarcastic, irritable, temperamental. I’d make you unhappy and I can’t be what you need and deserve. You deserve better. It’s different with Donnie, because I feel a connection with him. I don’t feel…”
“How can you know if you don’t give us a chance?”
“Huh?”
“We’re both thrown into this marriage. Neither of us wants it, but what’s the harm in actually treating it like we do, loving each other like happily married couples do and making the most of our union, instead of hating every nanosecond of it? We can still split up in six months' time if you want to. Let me be what you need and want during those six months. Make a real go of things. What do you say?”

Raphael stared at him like he’d grown a third head and hooted with laughter.

“Make a go of things, Leo?” Raphael scoffed. “Really? No. I’m in it for six months. I’ll act sweet and loving in public if I have to, but in reality, it’s an arrangement and sex. You know that’s the best thing for us both. We could never make each other happy. Not in all the ways that matter. Why bother trying?”
“I guess you’re right. It was just a thought. I’ll see you at the ceremony.”
“Why do you wanna make a go of things so badly?” Raphael asked. “It’s just an arrangement to you too. It's not like you dig me."

Leo didn’t answer and walked out of the room.

Raphael thought about their conversation. He doesn't like me, does he?

He instantly dismissed the thought as absurd and headed to his room to wash and to get ready for the ceremony.

XXXX

Mikey and Casey were sitting on one of the living room couches just before 4 p.m. The sea green turtle was feeling a bit better, but he still loathed his green eyed brother.

Donnie and April sat on the opposite couch.

Splinter impatiently waited for the lovers to arrive, his tail swishing from side to side. He wore a purple kimono and two lockets were in his obi. One was silver with a ruby stone set in the center and the other was silver with a sapphire stone set in the center. He’d bought them for his sons for this Christmas, but now he planned on giving them to use instead of rings.

Leo had been told by Splinter to wear Raphael’s favorite color and that Raphael would wear his, which would symbolize their union.

Leo arrived in a red kimono and said, “I’m here, Dad.”
“I see. You look dashing, Leonardo.”
“Thank you, Dad.”

“It is rather sudden, isn’t it?” Donnie asked. “Dad said you’re having a bonding ceremony.”
“It doesn’t seem sudden to us,” Leo said. “It feels right, so we went for it.”

“I love weddings,” April enthused. “I hope you and Raph will be happy forever, Leo.”

Raphael arrived wearing a blue kimono and a frown marred his handsome features when he saw the object of his affection. He quickly masked it and joined his dad and Leo. Resentment surged through him at being forced to go through the ceremony.

I wish I was marrying Donnie. I don’t wanna do this. Whoa. Leo looks kinda cute. Sexy. That kimono brings out his beautiful eyes. No. I mustn’t think that. This is just a sham for six months. That’s all.

Leo studied his soon-to-be husband. He looks so gorgeous and is my dream guy. I can’t believe I’m gonna marry him. I wish he’d love me for real. I hope he will. I’d give anything for that to happen.

“Now that we are all here,” Splinter said and smiled. “The ceremony can commence. We are gathered here today to witness the union of Leonardo and Raphael. Love is rare to find and when it happens, it should be held onto and treasured. Love is not jealous or unkind. It is pure, noble and everything good. It does not know sin or resentment. The odds of two mutants finding love was against them, but they have found it with each other. That has gladdened my heart, although it was initially a surprise, because I wish nothing more than for my beautiful sons to be happy. So be it if it is with each other. I hope their union will be a joyous one for many years to come.”

“Hey, guys,” Karai said as she entered the lair. Her eyes landed on Leo and Raphael. “What’s going on here? Why are they wearing kimonos and going through some kind of ceremony?”
“Seat yourself down and shut up,” Raphael snapped. “It’s my wedding, Karai.”
“Your wedding, but you love me, Raphael!”
“The hell I do. I love Leo and we’re getting married.”
“You can’t,” Karai screamed. “You said you loved me.”
“I never did. I love Leo and I’m marrying him. Stop making a fool of yourself. It was all in your head.”
“You’ll be sorry for lying to me, Raphael!” Karai shouted, her eyes flashing. “I’ll get my revenge.”
“Whatever, you batshit crazy witch. Donnie, show her out.”

Donnie picked a ranting Karai up and tossed her out into the sewers. Then he closed the entrance door and locked it.

“What was that about, Raphael?” Splinter asked.
“The woman thought I loved her, which is crazy, because you know I love Leo and that my heart belongs to him. Can we move on now?”

“All right,” Splinter said and cleared his throat. “I have long thought that Leonardo and Raphael are two sides of the same coin. They are both passionate, dedicated, loyal warriors and I am glad they have found love and comfort in each other. I have no doubt that they will weather whatever storms they face together and that their love will burn as brightly as the stars. They will be each other’s anchors and oasis through the tough times and they will love passionately, honestly and fiercely. They are perfect for each other in every way. Michelangelo once said like cheese belongs with pizza. That describes them to a T. I am grateful I can officiate this ceremony and witness my sons in holy matrimony. It makes me tear up and reminds me of my own wedding day. I hope you will be as happy as Tang Shen and I were and that you produce multiple offspring.”

That was said in jest, because Splinter knew that Leo and Raphael were males and couldn’t have babies.

Leo teared up at the heartfelt words and said, “Thanks, Dad. That means so much. We are grateful and happy to stand before you all, so you can witness our love and commitment to each other.”

Raphael swallowed a lump in his throat and blinked back tears at the words, even though he’d vowed in his room not to get emotional and had told himself it was a fake ceremony and meaningless to him.

“Dad, we can’t have babies,” Raphael said.
“I know, my son,” Splinter said. “It is just something people say at weddings. Anyway, moving on. Leonardo, did you write your vows?”

“I did, Dad,” Leo said.
“Then take Raphael’s hands and tell him," Splinter said.

Leo took Raphael’s hands in his and said, “Raphael, I swear to love you, honor you and to treasure you all my life. I’d do anything for you, even sacrificing my life, because you are the most important person to me. I never dreamed I’d find someone as amazing as you. I am so honored and grateful to be your husband and I’ll show that every day in every way I can. You never have to doubt my love, because as long as there's a river searching for an endless sea, I will always love you faithfully. Aishiteru.”

Raphael wanted to roll his eyes at the cheesy words, but he couldn’t. They were simple, perfect, sweet and heartfelt, which was just like Leo. What the hell could he say? Ditto? That was all he’d written down in the room, but he couldn’t utter that now. He had to make the wedding look real and genuine, so he had to say similar words. He looked deep in his heart as everyone looked at him expectantly.

“Leonardo,” Raphael said. “Our union came as a complete surprise. I never expected to fall for a bossy, uptight, boring guy like you…”
“Raphael!” Splinter hissed. “Do not fuck this up.” The old rat never swore, so Raphael knew he was dead serious.
“Let me rephrase that,” Raphael said quickly and looked intently into Leo’s eyes. “Leonardo, I’ve always been in love with you, but I never thought you'd feel the same way, so I was blown away when you said you did. I still am every moment I’m with you. I’m truly lucky to have someone as incredible, pure, funny, genuine and honest as you. I couldn’t have asked for a better boyfriend and I’m honored you're now my husband. I look forward to sharing the rest of my life with you. I swear I’ll be faithful, honest, loyal and dedicated to you until my dying breath. Leonardo, I love you body, heart and soul forever. Aishiteru.”

“This is so beautiful,” Donnie whispered and kissed April’s hand. “I can’t wait until we tie the knot, babe.”

Raphael saw that and jealousy surged through him, but he pretended he hadn’t seen and focused on his husband. His husband. How strange it felt to call Leo that.

“That was wonderful,” Splinter said and looked at his sons.

Leo’s eyes brimmed with tears and he noticed that Raphael was furiously blinking his own back. How typical of Raphael to feign he didn’t care. Maybe he really didn’t, but his vows had been so beautiful. It was easy to get swept away by them.

I wish Raph really felt that way.

Splinter produced the necklaces and said, “Raphael, this necklace with the ruby stone is a symbol of your union with Leonardo. I’ll say the until death part and then you will place the necklace on him.”
“Yes, Dad,” Raphael said, taking the necklace.

“Leonardo,” Splinter said. “Do you promise to honor, cherish, love, comfort and care for Raphael in sickness and in health until death do you part?”
“I do.”

Raphael placed the necklace around Leo's neck and Leo’s eyes shone with happiness. He couldn’t help himself. He was married to his dream guy, Raphael, even if it was temporary.

“Leonardo,” Splinter said, handing him the necklace with the sapphire stone. “This is also a symbol of the deep love that you and Raphael share for each other. Raphael, do you promise to honor, cherish, love, comfort and care for Leonardo in sickness and in health until death do you part?”
“I do,” Raphael said.

Leo placed the necklace around Raphael's neck.

Splinter smiled and said, “I pronounce you married, Mr. and Mr. Hamato. You may kiss.”

Raphael cupped his husband’s face, wrapped his arms around him and passionately kissed him.

Not used to public displays of affection, Leo blushed.

“Yay. Way to go, guys!” Donnie cheered.
“Congrats, guys,” April said.

“Congrats,” Mikey said. “I’m gonna lie down," he added and left the room.
“I’m happy for you guys. Congrats. I'm gonna join Mikey," Casey said and went after his mate.

“I’m gonna make dinner,” Donnie said. “Come on April. I’m so happy for you, Leo and Raph and if you guys do want babies, we can talk about it in my lab. We could clone one through DNA or something.”
“I shall retire to my room until dinner,” Splinter said and kissed his sons’ cheeks. “Congrats, my sons. I hope your union is a long and happy one," he added and went to his room.

“Babies,” Raphael said and snorted contemptuously. “Really? I don’t want babies. I’m a damn guy. Do I look like I wanna carry babies? Do you, Fearless? You'd carry them if we had any. I’m the Alpha, damn it. Babies are tons of work. Shit diapers and all that."
“Of course not. It’d complicate things,” Leo lied. “Your vows were special. Did you mean them?”
“You know I didn’t. Did you?”
“No.”
“Well, husband, I'm getting outta this get-up. Man, calling you that feels strange.”
“I feel the same way. It was a lovely ceremony.”
“For a fake one, you mean?”
“No. It was lovely and you looked sexy.”
Raphael rolled his eyes and said, “Are you trying to get up my shell, Leo?”
“Why can’t I pay my husband a compliment without expecting anything? I wasn't. You looked sexy and you are sexy.”
“Thanks. You looked cute. Now we’ve complimented each other, I’m gonna get outta this get-up. Are you coming to christen the bed again now that we’re married?”
“No. I have meditating…”
“Meditating on my wedding night? Fuck you, Leo,” Raphael snarled. “I wanna get laid and we’re gonna fuck. You can meditate tomorrow or whenever.”
“Whatever you want, Raph.”
“That sounds so selfish. I'm not trying to be. I just wanna christen the bed. I have an itch and I need it scratched.”
“Grr! You’re insufferable!” Leo growled, his temper rising.
“You're my husband and you're supposed to make me feel good. You promised in front of our family, didn't you? Now you want me to be celibate, huh?”
“You want to be fucked, you got it, Raphael!” Leo growled.

Leo charged at his husband, knocked him to the ground and winded him. Then he applied pressure points to Raphael, which paralyzed him. He picked Raphael up and carried him to the bedroom.

XXXX

Leo placed Raphael onto the bed and said, “You want to be fucked. We’ll fuck.”
“Hmm. I like this, Leo,” an unafraid Raphael said. “Come on, Fearless. Show your dark side. I can take it and I want it.”

Leo undressed Raphael, spread his legs apart, lined his dick up at Raphael’s entrance and thrust into him with no lube, making him grunt.

“Am I hurting you, husband?” Leo asked.
“No. Fuck me hard,” Raphael said. “I want it. I deserve it. I was a bad boy for riling you.”

Leo fucked him hard and deep and their churrs reverberated throughout the lair.

They soon came with loud churrs.

Leo emptied his seed deep into his new husband, pulled out, flopped down beside his husband and affectionately nuzzled his beak with his own.

Raphael said breathlessly, “That was fucking amazing.” His paralysis had worn off. He nuzzled Leo's beak with his own and said, “You dominating me that way was really hot.”
“I was an asshole. I only did it, because I was angry.”
“Maybe, but I liked it. It was spicy. Leo, you should let that side of you show more often. I like it and I liked being your Omega. I’ll mostly lead in the bedroom, but I have no qualms being your Omega sometimes.”

Leo said nothing. He was ashamed of himself, because he’d lost control. Some leader and husband he was for hurting his mate that way and without lube. He was a sadist, even if Raphael was okay with it. It went against his values and his ninja code. He had to leave.

“I was thinking something,” Raphael said and stifled a yawn.
“What, Raph?”
“You probably hate yourself, because of what you did, but you shouldn’t. I wanted it, Leo. It doesn't make you dishonorable. It’s what we both wanted, so it’s okay. It was consensual. We can try all kinda things and as long as it's consensual, it’s okay. Couples experiment, so stop beating yourself up.”
“Okay, Raph.”
“Don’t even think of bolting. We’re both in it for six months and it's not fair if you leave, because then I won’t be able to prove Dad wrong.”
“Raph, I won’t leave, but I want you to do something for me.”
“What?”
“I was lying. I want a kid and if you…if you left I’d like a reminder of you and the special times we had. The memories wouldn’t be enough. I want a kid. You’d be with Donnie anyway and you wouldn’t have to care for it. I would. What do you say?”

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“Fucking no!” Raphael snapped. “I won't give you a kid, Leo. It'd complicate matters even more. Maybe that’s what you want, so it’ll be harder for me to leave, huh?”
“You won’t have to care for it. I promise. I will. I thought it’d be nice to have a reminder of my husband.”
“You have memories, which are enough. Kids are gross, demanding, they suck the soul outta you…”
“Really? Is that why I sometimes catch you gazing into space when you see a baby on TV? Because you loathe them?”
“Okay. You got me. Maybe a kid's not so bad, but I’d want one with Donnie, not you.”
“Don’t you think you owe me one after going through this charade with you?”
“Owe you? You don’t have a baby with someone, because you owe them something, Leo,” Raphael hissed as he jabbed his finger into Leo’s plastron. “You have a baby with someone, because you wanna. I don’t wanna. That’s final. If you want a baby so badly, you can clone yourself, but fucking leave my DNA alone. Don’t even think about using it.”
“Would having a kid with me be so terrible?”
“Yeah, because we’d be eternally bound and I’d look like a slime bucket if I didn’t want anything to do with it.”
“What if you loved me? Would you have a baby with me?”
“Man, you love hypothesizing. I'd consider it if I loved you, but you'd go through the pregnancy or we’d ask Donnie to clone our DNA or something. I’m an Alpha and there's no way in hell that I’d endure pregnancy, the backache, cramps, vomiting and so on. You could handle that better and you're the girl in this marriage, so it makes sense that you'd carry the brat.”
“I’m the girl? Your shrieks weren’t exactly manly when I tapped your ass.”
“Whatever, Leo.”
“Is that your best comeback? ‘Whatever, Leo?' You’re losing your touch with snarky comments.”
“I don’t wanna fight,” Raphael said and clasped his hands behind his head. “I said I’d consider a kid if I loved you, but the subject’s done until then.”
“I think a kid would be nice. We could teach it everything we know and it would be a lasting legacy of our love. Maybe it’d have a family of its own someday. Wouldn’t you like our clan expanding and knowing that it won't only be us four?”
“What for? So it can go through the same shit we do, hated by the humans, called a freak and unable to live a normal life? Don’t tell me that it may have the same rights as humans someday. That won't happen. All it’ll have is a life in the damp and smelly sewers like we do. That's not a life. It deserves better. We do too.”
“You’re such a downer, Raph.”
“I’m a realist, Leo. Life isn't all unicorns and roses, you know. Surely you know that. Having a kid, even if we badly wanted one would be selfish, because we couldn’t give it everything it deserved.”
“It sounds like you’ve thought about having kids before. You’re right about the cons, but the pros far outweigh them. We’d have a kid we’d be able to love and who could continue our legacy. I think that’s wonderful and I think you’d make a fantastic dad. You act tough, but you have a heart of gold and you’re sweet, loving, gentle and…”
“You're making my shell itch with the sappiness. Stop. Fine. You know me. No one knows me better than you. I have thought about kids. I wouldn’t mind a kid, but I’d only have one if we were in love or if I was with Donnie. I’d want the kid to be the product of a happy marriage, not a result of an obligation or something. Kids deserve to have two parents in a loving and stable marriage. We’ll have a kid if I love you. You can clone yourself if I don't.”
“I can work with that, I guess. What would you name the kid?”
“Sheesh, Leo. Leave the subject alone,” Raphael said irritably. “You really know how to drag it out, don’t you?”
“Humor me.”
“I kinda like Mia and Leo.”
“Leo? You’d name a son after me?”
“Don’t get an ego over it. It’s just some people call the eldest boy after the dad, so it makes sense. My name’s shit, so yours makes sense.”
“Your name’s not shit, Raphael. Do you know what it means? It means God has healed. Raphael wasn’t just a painter. He was one of the Archangels. How special is that? I love your name. It suits you. I’d name a kid after you.”
“Suits me how?”
“You’re special, brave, tender, gentle, honest, sexy. That’s what the name Raphael conjures up for me.”
“You just wanna tap my ass again,” Raphael said mischievously, trying to ignore the swelling in his heart at those words. He’d longed to hear them for many years and now he had. Too bad it was too late, because he was in love with Donnie.
“No. I rarely say things I don’t mean. You’re terrific, Raph. Donnie’s lucky to have your love. I'd give anything to have that deep love.”
“You'll find that, Leo. Any guy would be lucky to have you. You're dynamite and so precious. I wanna tell you something."

There was a knock on the door.

“My sons,” Splinter said. “We have a surprise visitor. Please report to the living room.”

“I’ll tell you later, Leo,” Raphael said. He sprang out of bed and donned his kimono.
“I guess,” Leo said as he got up and then donned his kimono.

They headed to the living room.

XXXX

Leo and Raphael were stunned to find the Ancient One in the living room. He sat on a couch next to April and Donnie and stood when the newly married couple entered the room.

Mikey, Casey and Splinter sat on the opposite couch.

“I believe congratulations is in order,” the Ancient One said, extending a hand. “Congrats, Leonardo and Raphael. I wish you a long and happy marriage.”
“Thank you,” Raphael said and shook his hand. Then he bowed.

“Thank you,” Leo said, shaking his hand and then bowing. “We appreciate it.”
“The Ancient One arrived unexpectedly,” Splinter said. “He has some news he wishes to tell us, but he wanted us all to be present.”

“That’s right,” the Ancient One said. “I learned about your marriage when I arrived. It isn’t good news, my friends. I am dying. I was diagnosed with terminal liver cancer in Japan two days ago. I have a good friend who has a jet and he flew me here, so I could say my farewells. Do not be sad, my friends. I have lived a long and happy life and I am ready to depart this world. Yoshi has invited me to spend Christmas here and to stay for as long as I like. I appreciate it, but I’m only staying for a few days. I have a lot to do back in Japan with regards to settling my affairs.”
“I'm so sorry,” Leo said. “Let me know if there's anything I can do."
“That’s very kind, Leonardo. There is something I’d like to do. Yoshi has long been a good friend and I would like to extend final blessings to his cherished sons and their partners. That would give me much happiness and that is all I require. Well, that and tea. That’s about all I can manage.”

“I’m sorry,” Raphael said. “That sounds lame. I’m so sad you're sick and that I can’t help after all you've done for us. I feel so helpless. I think we all do.”
“Ah, Raphael-san,” the Ancient One said and placed a hand on his arm. “I am fine and have accepted it. Do not grieve and stress. It is life and I am ready to leave it. I would like to bestow the blessings now.”

“Are you sure this cannot wait until tomorrow?” Splinter asked. “You had a long flight and need rest.”
“I am not tired, Yoshi,” the Ancient One said. “And who knows, I may die tonight? I would like to do it now, so that I know it is done. Donatello and Miss O'Neil, please kneel.”

Don and April knelt before the Ancient One, who placed hands on their shoulders and muttered a string of Japanese words. The family recognized that it was an ancient blessing about love, happiness and prosperity.

The Ancient One smiled when he’d finished and then asked Mikey and Casey to kneel before him. They did and he also blessed them.

It was now Leo and Raphael’s turn to kneel.

The married couple knelt before the Ancient One.

The Ancient One placed his hand in Raphael’s kimono and rubbed his flat plastron as he muttered a string of Japanese words. The startled green eyed turtle flinched. The old man spoke quickly, so only Splinter understood what he was saying.

“Hey. What the hell do you think you're doing?” Raphael demanded, his green eyes flinty. “Are you trying to cop a feel? Back off.”

The Ancient One ignored the outburst and continued stroking Raphael’s plastron.

Raphael glowered and yelled, “Back off. That’s private, you perve.”
The Ancient One smiled, removed his hand and said, “All done. I shall retire now. I hope your blessings all come true.”
“What did you do to me?” Raphael asked. “Why did you touch me and not the others? Do you have a crush on me?”

“Raphael,” Splinter said sternly. “Do not be rude. He merely blessed you.”
“He struck his hand down my kimono, Dad! He didn’t do that to the others. Why? What have you done? Dad, what did he do?”
“He blessed you, Raphael. That is all.”
“He molested me. Leo, you're my husband. You saw him do it. Leo, say something.”

“Raphael, all I did was wish you the same things as your brothers,” the Ancient One said. “With a twist. You have so much fire in you. I did another blessing, which was that you’d mellow a little. I did nothing wrong. I assure you, I am no pervert.”
“You are. You touched my plastron,” Raphael roared. “I think you did something to me. What is it? Answer me.”
“I wished you happiness, health, wealth, love and to mellow,” the Ancient One said. “That’s all. I shall retire to my room. Good night and thank you, Yoshi.”

“I shall escort you to your room,” Splinter said and he and the Ancient One left the room.

“You’re overreacting, Raph,” Donnie said. “Come on, April. Dinner’s ready.”
“Yeah, Raph. He just blessed you,” Casey said.

Casey, Mikey, Donnie and April headed to the kitchen.

“I still think he did something to me, Leo,” Raphael said.
“Like what? He only blessed you. You think he turned you into a chick or something? You look the same to me. You're overreacting, like Donnie said."

Raphael suddenly felt hot and a strong desire to be claimed, rutted and marked by his mate right there on the living room floor.

“I feel weird, Leo,” Raphael said, discarding his kimono and his cheeks reddening. “Hot, hormonal. I need you so badly and inside me right now. I need my Alpha, my mate, my husband.”
“What the hell’s wrong with you?” Leo said in astonishment. “This is a public place, Raph. We can’t screw in the living room.”
Raphael wagged his tail teasingly and said, “But I need you, Leo. Don’t refuse me.”

The sight of Raphael’s enticing tail on display for him made Leo's shell feel embarrassingly tight.

“I can see you're caving, Leo, my Alpha. I need you,” Raphael said as he lay on the floor and then parted his legs wide. “I know you want me just as badly. Hey, Leo, I don’t wanna dominate anymore. I wanna be your Omega. I was born to be that.”

What the hell? Did I say I don’t wanna dominate anymore? I’m a dominant guy, so why do I only wanna bottom? It doesn't make sense, unless that’s what the Ancient One did to me. I wanna say that I wanna dominate, but all I can say is the opposite.

Leo tried to resist him, but the sight of his husband’s gorgeous body on display for him and his green eyes burning with lust made it impossible and he found himself dropping down.

“That’s it, Leo,” Raphael praised. “Claim me. Fuck me good. I’m yours and you belong in me.”

Leo stuck a finger into his husband’s puckered hole to prep him. Then he thrust his rod into Raphael, making him groan, arch his back and rake his nails down Leo’s arms.

“That’s it, Leo!” Raphael churred. “That’s what I need. Yes!” Raphael yelled as Leo hit his sweet spot. “So good, my Alpha! Fuck!”

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Meanwhile, Splinter and the Ancient One were in the latter’s bedroom, which was a spare bedroom that was used for guests.

“What exactly did you do to Raphael?” Splinter asked. “I can hear my sons in the living room. It is revolting and they should be ashamed of it happening in public. Did you turn Raphael into a nymphomaniac or something?”
“They’re only doing what’s natural, my friend,” the Ancient One said. “I apologize if it is obscene, but I will explain. I have turned Raphael into an uke, a submissive with no aggression in him whatsoever. He will live to serve his husband and to obey his every demand. There will be no more tantrums. Raphael is as meek as a lamb now. He will also listen to you. It is not terrible. You have long complained about what a difficult child he is. Now he will be as obedient as a puppy. Do you approve?”
“I can live with that. What else did you do?”
“He is also a nymphomaniac with one thing on his mind, which is breeding with his Alpha. He sees Leonardo as his Alpha and his protector. He knows he's the submissive and his job is to please his husband. Raphael wants sex all the time and I’m sure Leonardo will be satisfied with that. They are young and horny with rampant hormones. We were young once, Yoshi, so we can’t frown upon that. We had the same urges.”
“Breeding? But they cannot have babies. They are males,” Splinter said in amazement and raised a brow.
“Ah. I turned Raphael intersex. He has his penis and testes, but he also has ovaries and an oviduct, which means there’ll be young soon. That should please you. You wished the couple to remain together and what better way to cement their bond than children? What do you think?”
“I can learn to like the changes if they stay together, but I dislike them fornicating in the living room or anywhere else that is public.”
“Sorry. Raphael will take whatever he can wherever if he's in the mood. You have to deal with it. That’s one con of the blessing. You now have a meek, nymphomaniac son who’ll bear young and who'll live with Leonardo forever. You get what you want. That’s all that matters, Yoshi. Your sons will never leave you.”
“I suppose I can leave the room if it happens. Good work, my friend. How long will Raphael’s nymphomaniac status last?”
“For life, which means lots of babies. I hope Leonardo has lots of stamina. I reckon the way they’re going at it now, that there will be babies before the end of next year. Don’t inform them. They’ll soon find out when Raphael’s gravid. I also blessed Donatello and April. She wasn’t pregnant, but she soon will be. Michelangelo will also bear young before long. You will have tons of grandchildren, my friend.”
“Thank you. Do you want me to bring you some dinner?”
“No, thank you. I shall rest and see you later.”
“Very well. Good night, my friend. Sleep well.”
“Thank you, Yoshi."

Splinter left the room and headed to the living room.

XXXX

Splinter saw Leo and Raphael still in the throes of lovemaking. They were churring loudly and were so wrapped up in themselves that they didn't know the rat was there. A disgusted Splinter grimaced.

“Do not mind me,” Splinter said sardonically. “I just live here.”
A blushing Leo immediately climbed off his husband and said sheepishly, “I’m sorry. We got carried away. It won’t happen again, Dad.”
“I hope not. I get you are married and in love, but others do not want to see this! Confine it to your room.”

“I’m sorry, Dad,” Raphael said meekly as he stood up and reached for Leo’s hand. “I didn’t mean to. I suddenly needed Leo. Please don’t be mad at us. It won’t happen again. I promise.”

The old Raphael would have defied his dad and told him he could do what he wanted now that he was married, but this one was polite and apologetic, which pleased Splinter.

“I will let this slide, as long as it does not reoccur,” Splinter said. “Shower and then join us in the kitchen for dinner.”
Raphael nodded and said, “Come on, Leo.”

The married couple headed to the bathroom.

XXXX

Raphael closed the bathroom door and the warm feeling came over him again.

“Leo, I need you,” Raphael said. “I'm horny again.”
“Again?” Leo said in surprise.
“Uh huh. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, but I need you all the time. I want you so much. I need your seed inside me. I need to mate, to breed with you. I need your cock inside me.”
“Breed? We can’t breed, Raph! We’re guys.”
“I know, but I need you inside me. Only you can satisfy me, Leo,” Raphael said as he stared intently into Leo’s eyes. “I know you want me."

Leo’s shell felt embarrassingly tight again and he dropped down with a low growl.

“Lie down, Raphael,” Leo ordered. “Lie down and part your legs.”
Raphael lay down, parted his legs and said huskily, “Claim me, my Alpha, my husband. Fill me with your seed.”

Leo prepped him by sticking a finger into his puckered hole. Then Leo thrust his cock deep into his husband.

“I'm gonna pound you good,” Leo whispered and thrust even deeper.

Raphael churred loudly as Leo stabbed his sweet spot and he saw stars.

This is heaven. Making love to my Alpha. My husband, my babies’ daddy. Babies? What the fuck? I can’t have babies. I’m a guy, aren't I? Then why do I feel so weird, like I’m fucking for another purpose? A purpose of extending our family. Is that what the Ancient One did to me? Did he make me want that and turn me into a chick? No. Of course he didn’t. All he did was bless Leo and make me… Wow. That feels good. This is heaven. Leo.

Leo came, deposited his seed deep into his husband, pulled out and flopped down beside his mate with a contented sigh.

Raphael climaxed with a loud growl, pulled his husband close and nuzzled his beak with his own.

“You’re insatiable,” Leo said breathlessly. “I don’t know what’s come over you, Raph. I hope I can keep up.”
“I don’t know, but I’m gonna ask the Ancient One when he wakes up. All I wanna do is fuck and I don’t wanna fight. I wanna love you, Leo, like you deserve and be cocooned in your love. Do you think I’m a chick now and that’s why I wanna fuck all the time, because I’m trying to make babies?”
“Don’t be silly. You have a dick. Maybe it’s mating season.”
“That’s spring and autumn, not winter. I think he turned me into a nympho. That's not so bad, except I don’t wanna top. Don’t you think that’s weird?”
“Not really,” Leo said and stifled a yawn. “You said you wanted to be my Omega earlier. You worry too much. You like sex. That's all and it is fantastic between us. You couldn’t get enough of it earlier.”
“Yeah, but I’ve wanted it twice in ten minutes. Isn't that a bit much?”

Leo had said nothing, because he’d fallen asleep on the bathroom floor.

“Leo, wake up! You can’t sleep here. Leo!” Raphael said.

Getting no response and too drained to move himself, Raphael snuggled up to his husband and closed his eyes.

Maybe I worry too much. Leo’s right. Nothing is wrong and it was a blessing. I just find it odd that he stroked my plastron and nobody else's. It was as if he were wishing me to fall gravid. Crazy, because I'm a guy, have a dick and that can't happen. I don't have female parts and I can't lay eggs. Leo's right. The sex with my Alpha, my husband is fucking mind-blowing. Man, calling Leo my husband still feels odd. I never thought I'd marry him. Life is so fucking strange sometimes.

Exhausted after his long and eventful day, Raphael drifted off to sleep.

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Leo and Raphael made love six times that evening. The ex-hothead’s libido was out of control. They finally fell asleep at 3 a.m. with their bodies tangled together and the evidence and scent of their lovemaking staining the sheets and permeating the air respectively.

A knackered Leo extricated himself from his mate just after five, got up, took a long, hot shower and padded into the dojo to meditate and to get away from his lover. The sex had been demanding and passionate. He'd enjoyed it, but he doubted he’d maintain his stamina with his nymphomaniac uke husband, because it was exhausting.

Leo sat on the tatami mat, rubbed his bleary eyes and groaned when he heard familiar footsteps.

“Hey, hon,” Raphael said cheerfully. He held a tray on which were cups of tea and a large plate of cinnamon buns, which were Leo’s favorite.
“Raph, you made breakfast?” Leo said in amazement when Raphael placed the tray on the ground and sat on the floor. “But you don’t drink tea.”
“I'll like it if it's good enough for my husband,” Raphael said and sipped his tea. “How about we do something fun later? I’ll bake chocolate cupcakes and we can scarf them and watch Space Heroes. I love that cartoon.”
Leo raised an eyeridge and said, “Are you sick? You want to bake and watch Space Heroes. You hate cooking and baking and you said the show's trash.”
“Did I? I was wrong. I wanna cook, bake and be the perfect husband. You deserve that,” Raphael said huskily and placed his hand on Leo’s plastron, sending a shiver down his spine. “I wanna make you happy, babe, and I’ll do anything you want.”
“Uh, if you really want to, but don’t blame me if you find the show boring.”
“How would it be boring? I’ll be watching it with you. You could even make cricket exciting, Leo. Just your presence makes me happy. I’m a lucky guy to have you as my mate. Eat your breakfast. The buns are getting cold.”

Leo chewed a bun.Raph’s so nice. I kind of like it, but I hope his nymphomania doesn’t start.

Raphael tenderly gazed at his mate. I’m gonna be the best husband and spoil him. Only his needs matter.

“Hey, babe, what do you think about me cross dressing? Would you like it?” Raphael asked.

Leo nearly choked on his bun. Did I really hear him say that? Raph cross dressing, like wearing a dress or something? First, he makes me tea, offers to bake and cook and now he wants to dress up as a woman.

“Raph, you’re a guy,” Leo said. “And you pride yourself on your masculinity and Alpha status. Why would you want to do that?”
“I don’t know. I have a strange desire to dress up for you and to look sexy. Don’t you want that?”
“Sweetheart, you are sexy. You don’t have to dress up as a chick for me. I'd have married a chick if I wanted one.”
“But some of the lingerie looks really lovely, Leo.”
“Raph, are you ill? Do you want Donnie to examine you?”
“Why do you think that? I was just trying to be nice,” Raphael sniffed.
“Baby, tea and buns is really thoughtful, but lingerie is a different story. I don’t want a chick. I want you, my love. You’re more than enough.”
“And our babies,” Raphael said and patted his plastron. “I wanna lay your eggs.”
“You were dead set against it yesterday,” Leo said as he quirked an eyeridge. “Why the change of heart?”
“I wanna make you happy. A baby would do that. Let's talk to Donnie and see if he can help us."
“Are you sure, Raph, because if we do, there’s no going back?”
“Of course I’m sure, babe. I want your young and I’d be the best mommy.”
“Mommy?”
“Well, duh. I’d lay eggs, so I’m the mommy and you're my Alpha and the daddy,” Raphael said and rolled his green eyes as if Leo was being stupid.
“Um, you know what? Why don’t we wait a while and see if you’re really on board.”
“But I am on board.”
“I want to wait. I think we should. We only just got married.”
“All right, my love,” Raphael said agreeably. “We’ll do what you want.”
“Raph, that’s not what a marriage is about. It’s about equality.”
“Nah,” Raphael said as he nuzzled his husband's beak with his own. “The Alpha’s boss and makes the decisions. The Omega takes care of the Alpha and the young and is more than content with that. I am. I’m so unbelievably lucky and grateful to have you as my Alpha.”
“Are you sure?”
“Uh huh, my great, big stud. You're so amazing, Leo. How could I have wanted someone else? I was so blind not to see how special you are. Mmmm. I wanna eat you up now, but I can't, because I have things to do. I’ll see you later, my babe.”
“Uh, sure, Raph. Thanks for breakfast.”
“That was just a starter,” Raphael said and pecked his lips. “I’ll make something else and use Mikey’s recipe books," Raphael said and left the room.

A baffled Leo thought about his husband. What the hell’s wrong with him? He’s so charming, patient, kind, agreeable and willing to listen to me. I kind of like him this way, though. I’ll take it while it lasts.

XXXX

Raphael whistled as he got down recipe books from the kitchen shelf and then began preparing breakfast. He settled on waffles, chicken and bacon and his chocolate cupcakes were in the oven.

“Mmm. Something smells good in here,” Donnie commented as he entered the kitchen a little after six.” His eyes widened in astonishment when he saw Raphael at the stove. “You’re cooking, Raph?”
“Yep. I wanna be a great husband to my babe. What better way to spoil him than by cooking and baking? Leo’s the most incredible person.”
“That’s sweet. I’m happy for you guys,” Donnie said as he brewed his coffee.

Raphael looked at Donnie, but he no longer desired him. All he saw was his brother and all he felt was brotherly affection for him, because all he yearned for now was Leo.

“Thank you, Donnie,” Raphael said and beamed. “I'm so lucky to have my soulmate. I hope you and April are as happy as we are. Hey. I was thinking. You can help us have a baby, right?”
“I could if you’re both serious."
Raphael rubbed his flat belly and said, “I wanna have Leo’s babies soon. I’m meant to be a mommy.”
Donnie stared at him like he’d grown a second head and said, “You want to be a mommy? Raph, you’re a macho guy.”
“Nah. I’m Leo’s Omega. He’s the Alpha and a stud at that. I can’t keep my paws off him. We made love six times last night and it was fantastic. He pounded me into the bed and I still have his seed inside me. He’s so manly and his cock inside me feels so right.”
Donnie nearly choked on his coffee at the crass words and said, “Since when are you an uke? I always figured you’d be the Alpha.”
“I know, right? But I'm not and letting Leo take the lead in everything is magnificent. He’s boss. I’m getting lingerie later, so we can have some fun in the bedroom. Do you think April could get it for me?”
“I, uh, can ask her if you’re serious, but…”
“I am. Hey. I haven't been nice to you lately, have I? I'm sorry about that.” The timer went off for the cupcakes. Raphael took them out of the oven and said triumphantly, “My first batch and they’re perfect like my husband.”
“I’m thrilled for you,” Donnie said, feeling awkward. His brother was acting weird and he had no idea why. Perhaps the Ancient One had done something to him.
“Yeah. You gotta wait until the rest come for breakfast. How’s Mikey?”
“I don’t know. I haven’t seen him since last night.”
“Poor guy. I was such a tool to him. I’ll make him an awesome meal and maybe he’ll forgive me.”
"Raph, I think it’d take more than a meal to do that.”
“I’ll do whatever it takes. Well, except sex. Only Leo gets that privilege. Donnie, I had the biggest crush on you, but now all I feel is lust and love for Leo. I’m so glad, because Leo’s sensational and you don’t measure up to him."
“You did?” Donnie said in surprise.
“Uh huh, but now all I feel is brotherly love.”
“I’m relieved to hear that,” Donnie said and sipped his coffee. “It means we don’t have to have an awkward conversation.”
“Hey. What can I do to spice things up in bed? What do you think Leo would like? Do you think he’d like BDSM and stuff?”
“The best person to ask is Leo.”
“Of course. I hope he plugs my hole soon. I feel empty without him.”
“Raph, are you okay?”
“Why does everyone keep asking me that? I feel amazing. Do you know what the best feeling is? Leo fucking me hard. He’s dynamite in bed.”
A revolted Donnie dropped his cup, which spilled coffee on the table, spat out his coffee and said, “Raph…”
“You know what? Leo thinks I’m cute and sweet. I like him calling me that. I’m his cherub, peach blossom, sugar and so much more and he’s my baby, my angel. I blew him last night. He tastes of mint. I could suck him forever.”
“Raph, there’s such a thing as oversharing. I don’t want to know what you do with Leo,” Donnie said snappily.
“I was just being friendly.”
“That’s oversharing, okay?”
“Okay. Sorry. I’m so thrilled about things that I wanna tell everyone.”
“Get a journal,” Donnie muttered.
“I'm sorry I offended you, bro. Why don’t we hang out later and watch your tech shows? They’re so cool.”
“You hate those.”
“Nah. I like them and it’d give me an idea what to buy Leo for his birthday. Are we on?”
“Sure. I just have to see if I'm free.”
“Neat Don’t even think about doing the chores. I have them and Leo’s covered. Then I can bake and cook and make sure my room is also super clean. Our linen needs washing too.”
“I can imagine,” Donnie said and wrinkled his beak in disgust.
“Hey. You messed your coffee. I’ll make you a fresh pot and then I'll clean up the mess."
“Thanks. Raph, why are you so nice?” Donnie asked.
“Because it’s better than being a dick," Raphael said as he brewed a fresh pot. "Do you hate it?”
“No. It’s just so strange.”
“Get used to it, bro. It’s the new and improved Raph.”

Don pondered on what Raphael had said. I guess it’s better than his old brutal self, but I wish he’d stop sharing his sex life. It’s gross.

XXXX

The family, sans Mikey and Casey, who were in their rooms, had a pleasant breakfast together a while later.

“This is so yummy, Raph,” Leo enthused. “Thank you.”
“Anything for you, sugar dumpling,” Raphael said as he looked adoringly into his husband’s eyes. “There’s more if you want.”

The Ancient One smiled to himself. Raphael’s much nicer. I like it. His bad temper and aggression are gone. Only tenderness and love remain, especially for his mate.

Donnie frowned. I want to barf. I like Raph sweet, but he’s actually nauseating now.

“Hey, Raph,” April said. “Are we cool?”
“Of course we are. Why wouldn’t we be? You're like my sister and I’m super happy for you and Donnie. I think you'll be an excellent mommy.”
“Thank you, but why are you so nice to me? You hated me yesterday.”
“That was because I was jealous you were with Donnie and I lusted after him, but now I only see him as a brother and I adore Leo. I'm not angry. All I feel is love and peace. My Leo did that,” Raphael said and kissed his blushing husband’s lips. "Leo's the bomb."
“I’m glad. I like the new you. I hope you stay this way.”

“Me too,” Donnie said. “Raph even offered to do all our chores.”
“And he wants to watch Space Heroes,” Leo said. “I like the new calmer Raph.”

"Leo, I’m happy you do, sweetheart, because I’d do anything for you,” Raphael said and kissed his mate’s lips again.
“Raphael, my son,” Splinter said. “Are you all right?”
“I’m fine, Dad, and I feel light and free now that the aggro’s gone. I'm deliriously happy and it’s all thanks to my sweetheart. Leo’s a dream come true. Is everyone done? Good? Then I’ll clear the plates and wash up. Leo, darling, bring me the sheets, so that I can start the washing soon.”

Leo studied his husband. Something about Raph doesn’t feel right. I don’t get the sudden personality change, but I won't question it. I’ve put up with fifteen years of tension, bitterness and conflict and I like the new pleasant Raph. I hope he doesn’t revert to his old disagreeable self.

XXXX

Raphael did all the chores. It took him a long time, especially as he needed love from his husband a few times, but he smiled when it was all finished. The lair looks so clean now. I did a wonderful job.

He watched Donnie’s show with him and April at eleven and then a soap with his dad. Stuff he never did and mocked.

Raphael baked and cooked all afternoon and beamed with immense satisfaction when his family tucked into it all at dinner. He’d made roast chicken and vegetables and a chocolate log.

“Raph, you’re becoming quite the cook,” Leo said happily and ate another slice of chocolate log. “Keep this up and I’ll become fat.”
“I’d still love you, babe."

“Do you want to bash the Purple Dragons later, Raph?” Casey asked from his seat next to Mikey.
“Nah. That’s dull. I don’t wanna fight. I wanna cuddle with my love,” Raphael said and nuzzled Leo’s beak with his own. “I’m done bashing goons. You go if you want.”
“But…”
“No buts. My place is by Leo’s side and I promised him we’d watch TV together.”
“Uh, fine, I guess, but if you change your mind…”
“I never will. I’m done with that shit. My life is with Leo and making him happy. I’ll wash up and do the dishes. Leo, are you done, my baby?”

“Yes, my love,” Leo said and inwardly smiled, glad Raphael wouldn't be out on the streets anymore and fight.

Splinter beamed inwardly. I love the change in my son. Long may it reign.

Raphael cleared and washed the dishes. Then he and the family went to the living room to watch TV.

XXXX

Raphael snuggled with Leo on a couch, had his arms wrapped around him and watched Space Heroes, the show he’d loathed, but now enthusiastically watched.

Leo looks so gorgeous. I’m honored to be his. This show’s kinda cool.

They watched six episodes of Space Heroes. Then the family went to bed, leaving Leo and Raphael alone.

“I love this,” Raphael said as he placed a hand on his mate’s knee.
“Aren’t you bored?” Leo said. “We’ve seen six episodes."
“Nah. Let’s watch them and then watch them again tomorrow, babe. You love them and I love them, because you do.”
“Raph, we can watch something else. What would you like to watch?”
“I don’t know. What do you wanna watch?”
"How about the documentary on Japanese mythology? It’s been on the DVR for ages and I keep meaning to watch it.”
“Perfect.”
“No.”
“What do you mean no?”
“You hate that and find it boring.”
“Nonsense. I love it. I was just pretending I didn't. I wanna watch it with you, babe.”
“Raph, you’ve been so nice today. I like it, but it's not you. Where’s the guy I fell in love with? The old pissed off Raph.”
“You hate all I do for you, huh?” Raphael sniffed, his green eyes brimming with tears. “I just wanna make you happy, Leo.”
“You do, but you don’t have to be someone else. Be yourself.”
“But I am being myself. I can’t be nasty, Leo. It's not me.”
Steeling himself, Leo slapped his mate's face and said, “Knock it off, Raph, okay?”
Raphael’s eyes widened in shock, he rubbed his smarting cheek as tears streamed down his cheeks and said tearfully, “You hit me, baby. Why?”
“Hit me back. Go on, Raph. I hit you and I shouldn’t have.”
“I don’t wanna,” Raphael wept. “Leo, I love you. Why did you do that? All I’ve done is be kind and loving to you. I cooked your meals, did the chores and have been a dutiful and sweet mate. How could you do that to me?”

Leo reflected on how his brother used to be.The old Raph would have smacked me hard, taught me a lesson. and fought back. Who the hell is this?

“I’m sorry, hon,” Leo said and folded him into an embrace. “I was testing something out, Raph. Please forgive me. It won’t happen again. You did nothing wrong.”
“So you don’t hate me?”
“I couldn’t hate you, Raph. It’s…”
“What, babe?”
“Nothing,” Leo lied and kissed his cheek. “Please forgive me.”
“Of course,” Raphael said and nuzzled Leo’s beak with his own. “I’m glad you don’t hate me. I couldn’t bear it.”

Leo decided he'd had enough of this new Raphael. I'm taking him to Donnie tomorrow to find out why he's had such a drastic personality change. I want my old Raph back, even if he was feisty, a firecracker and tested my patience. The new Raph is too sickly sweet and nice.

Leo said, “How about bed, my love?”
“Yeah,” Raphael agreed. “I’m tired, hon.”

Leo sighed as he lead his mate to their bedroom. Donnie might have the answers I need.

XXXX

Leo entered the bedroom with Raphael, but any thoughts of him sleeping went out of the window when Raphael locked the door, threw himself onto the bed, parted his legs and declared he was horny.

Unable to control his own urges, Leo climbed onto his mate and thrust his dick into him. It's gonna be a long, long night. Maybe I’ve been changed too. I had better self-control before. What the shell’s going on?

Leo thrust in and out of his mate and it wasn’t long before they climaxed. Their bodies were slick with their essence and sweat.

Leo pulled out, flopped down, tugged his mate close and said, “I love you, Raphie.”
“Love you more,” Raphael said and kissed his lips. “I'll be a better mate, so I never disappoint you.”
“You don’t. Do you think something happened to you to make you so pleasant?”
“Uh huh. Your love,” Raphael said, his green eyes shining as he lovingly gazed into Leo’s eyes. “That’s what love does, Leo.”
“But even couples argue. We don’t.”
“Life’s too short to argue, babe, and I don’t wanna. Good night, babe. Aishiteru,” Raphael said, lying down and closing his eyes.
“Aishiteru,” Leo said and closed his eyes.

Leo thought about Donnie. Donnie will have the answers I need. Hopefully, he can change Raph back, because as sweet as he is, I can't handle the nymphomania and nice act for the rest of my life. I loved the old Raph for who he was. Every part of him, even when he was a jerk and I wouldn’t have wanted to change a thing about him.

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Raphael woke up at 3:30 a.m. the next day and gazed at his sleeping husband as his heart swelled with love for him.

Leo's the most amazing guy. I’m so blessed to have him. I’m gonna find a bakery and get him chocolate cake or something.

He donned his gear and weapons, slipped on his trench coat and fedora, took one last look at his mate and left the room.

XXXX

No one was about, so Raphael was able to leave the lair undetected. He made his way to a manhole near one of his family’s favorite bakeries, climbed the ladder, lifted the manhole cover and climbed out into the crisp morning air.

XXXX

It was pitch dark and bitterly cold, so Raphael wrapped the coat tighter around himself and hurried to his destination. The staff at the bakery would arrive at 4:10, so he didn’t have that much time to get what he wanted.

He salivated at the prospects of what he could get for his family. Definitely chocolate cake for Leo. Mikey loved blackcurrant cheesecake. Donnie had a preference for pecan tarts and Splinter loved lemon meringue. As for Raphael, he couldn’t get enough of their raspberry and chocolate cake. It was strange, because he wasn’t that keen on raspberries, but the mixture was dynamite.

Maybe I’ll get some cinnamon and pumpkin pie too. I’m starving.

XXXX

Karai was sitting on a rooftop with Hun, when she saw Raphael, whose face had been lit up by a streetlamp through her binoculars on the street. She and Hun had been there all night on a stakeout, which had been an utter disaster. The person they were supposed to have been monitoring, who was a well-known gangster named Vinnie Pesci hadn’t turned up at his place. Karai and Hun had been about to call it a night.

“Interesting,” Karai said. “He’s alone. I want him. You have the tranquilizer darts, right, Hun?”
“Yeah, but why do you want him? He’s a repulsive freak.”
“That’s none of your business,” Karai snapped. “You’re not paid to question me. Do as I say.”

Hun fired a tranquilizer dart, which hit Raphael in his left leg and made him shriek in astonishment.

Karai and Hun jumped down from the rooftop and approached their prey who'd ripped the dart from his leg, who was hissing in pain and who was trying not to topple over.

But it was useless, because the drug soon took affect. Raphael crumpled to the ground and his eyes closed.

“Great work, Hun,” Karai said and smiled. “Bring him to the compound. Dad’s away for a few months, so I’m in total control.”
“What do you want with this beast?”
“That’s my concern. Do as I ask or I’ll make your life extremely unpleasant,” Karai said heatedly, her dark eyes flashing. “Take off his trench coat and fedora. They’re not needed.”

Hun removed Raphael’s clothing and lifted the Turtle into his strong arms.

Karai beamed triumphantly as she and Hun headed to Shredder’s compound. I have him and I'll never let him go! He is the best Christmas present. My Raphael, the father of my babies and my soulmate. I love him so much and we’re going to have a fabulous life together.

XXXX

Karai and Hun arrived at the compound and took Raphael into the lab where Baxter was hard at work on one of his experiments. An unfortunate human was about to be mutated into a bat for Shredder’s super mutant army.

The petrified human was wailing and clearly in great distress, but he was ignored.

“I have Raphael, Baxter,” Karai said. “And I need your help. I want you to create a formula to eradicate his memories, so he’ll be more amenable to me and my charms.”
“Why do you want him? Are you in love with him?” Baxter asked and snickered. “You clearly have no taste.”
“Perhaps I am and perhaps I’m not. I want you to do it. You will with no more questions. You will also not breathe a word to my father about this. Do as I say and your salary will be tripled.”
“Your wish is my command. I already have that potion,” Baxter said, going to his desk and picking up a vial of pink liquid. He handed the vial to Karai and said, “I don’t care what you do with the creature. I just wish I could be there to see it shatter.”
“Excellent. I’ll wire your money to you in the morning. Have a lovely rest of the day. Come along, Hun.”

Karai grinned as she and Hun headed to her room. I can’t wait to bear his babies.

XXXX

Hun bound Raphael to Karai’s bed with the bed sheets.

“I’ll leave you alone, Karai,” Hun said.
“Yes. I can take things from here. Not a word to my father. Raphael is my business. I will inform Father when I’m ready.”
“Right, but if you think that freak will ever love you, then you’re dead wrong. He hates you. They all do.”
“Baxter’s potion will change that. Leave. I want you to get the jet ready for tomorrow night. I want to go to Japan for a few months to enjoy some quality time with my husband…”
“Husband?” Hun said and laughed. “You really do want this genetic mistake. I can’t understand it, but I can say it won’t end well. His brothers will come for him and there’ll be hell to pay. Your head will roll.”
“Not if we’re in Japan. They’ll never know, unless someone tells them. You wouldn’t do that, would you now?”
“Of course not. I despise the freaks. Do what you want. I’ll get the jet ready and see you tomorrow. Night.”
“Give me your knife. I’ll return it later.”

Hun handed her the knife he kept in his obi and then he left the room.

A groggy Raphael stirred and blinked. The last thing he remembered was being hit by a tranquilizer dart. Who would do that and why?

He glanced around the room and his eyes landed on a grinning Karai, who stood by his bed. The pink vial was on the dresser.

“Karai?” Raphael said in amazement. “W-where am I?”
“It’s me, handsome,” Karai purred as she trailed a hand down his plastron, making him shiver. “You’re with me and you’re safe from your horrible family who keep trying to break us up.”
“N-not true,” Raphael said and tried to move, only to find that he was unable to. “Let me go and stop lying. Let me go back to my husband. I love Leo so much. I gotta get back to him. He must be outta his mind with worry.”
“You don’t belong to them anymore, Raphael,” Karai said, brandishing the knife. “You’re mine.”
“You don’t have to tie me up and be mean,” a terrified Raphael wept. “I’ll do what you want. Then you can let me go home. Stop this, please. I don’t like being tied up. I’m scared.”
“You don’t get to bargain. I call the shots here. Stop being a baby. What happened to the warrior Raphael? You’re a sniveling drip. Stop it!”
“I don’t know. I can’t be mean anymore. I don’t wanna be. I wanna make everyone happy and see their eyes light up. Isn't that what life’s about? Making people smile? Please let me go. I want my Leo. I miss him so much,” Raphael sobbed. “Have a heart. We just got married and we wanna be together forever and…”
“Wow. You really had a personality change. It's sudden, but I can work with it,” Karai said and cut away his elbow pads, knee pads and his hand wrappings.

She removed his weapons and necklace and placed them in the dresser.

“You won’t need these, Raphael,” Karai said. “You don’t need to fight or wear clothes anymore. I like you nude, but you can wear a kimono in public. I’ll take care of you.”
“I want Leo. You're mean,” Raphael bawled. “Why? I've done nothing to you. That necklace was symbolic of Leo and my love. I want it back!”
“What a baby,” Karai said and cut away his belt. “Better. We’re nearly done.”

She threw everything she'd removed into the waste paper basket by the bed.

Only his mask remained.

“Please let me go,” Raphael begged as tears spilled down his cheeks. “I won’t tell anyone what you did. Please, Karai.”
She held the back of his head and said, “Don’t move your head.” Then she cut away the mask and watched it flutter to the ground.
“My m-mask,” Raphael said wretchedly as his heart shattered. Never had he been so exposed and vulnerable before to someone outside his family and he hated it with every fiber of his being.

Now he was just a defenceless, broken and naked Turtle who was at Karai’s mercy.

He wanted to rant, scream and to call her names, but all he could do was sob like a baby. Why? He’d been tougher before. Why was he so pathetic? That wasn’t him, was it? Karai had even said he’d been a warrior, so why couldn’t he retaliate? He needed Leo to protect him. Where was Leo? Would he find him? Leo had to, because he couldn’t help himself. He didn’t know how to anymore.

Karai grinned.He fell wonderfully. Isn’t it incredible what one small action can do? He’s broken and mine to do with as I please.

“You're an evil lady,” Raphael said miserably. “Leo’s gonna fuck you up.”
“Sure he will,” Karai said sarcastically. “He’ll have to find us first and we’re on the move. Leo won’t have a clue where we are. This is what’s going to happen, Raphael. We’re going to be husband and wife and have a family. You’ll be well cared for in every way. I love you so much. I always have. You have nothing to worry about,” she added and caressed his cheek with her long red nail. “My beautiful Raphael.”
“I don’t want that. I want my Leo. He’ll find me and so will my other brothers. You'll never win and I'll never love you. You can’t make me. I’ll never stop loving Leo. Leo, please find me. I wanna go home!”
“You’ll soon have no memories of them. You'll only have memories of me, your loving wife. Do not worry, Raphael. I will always love and protect you, baby.”
“You're crazy and you can’t make me forget my Leo and family.”

Karai emptied the vial onto Raphael and waited.

Memories of Leo, Splinter and of his brothers flashed through Raphael’s mind as the serum took effect and altered his mind forever, unless his brothers found him and found a cure. Soon they were dust and every memory had been eradicated.

His mind was effectively blank and he was now only loyal to one person: his wife, Karai.

Raphael blinked.

“Hey there, sweetheart,” Karai said. “Did you have a lovely sleep?”
“Sleep?” Raphael asked.
“Yes. You’ve been out for ten hours. Poor baby. You must have been exhausted after all the fun we had. That’s why you’re tied up, baby. We love kinky sex, Raphael. You know who I am, right?”
“My wife, Karai?”
“That’s right, snookums. We had a bonding ceremony six months ago, but I think we should have a recommitment ceremony when we land in Japan. What do you think?”
“Yeah. I want that. I wanna make you happy, because you're an angel and you do so much for me.”

He was still programmed to agree to every request, even though his mind had been erased.

“You already do, Raphael,” Karai said and smiled. “I’m so lucky to be your wife. Do you know who Leonardo, Donatello and Michelangelo are?”
“No. Should I? I’m a lucky guy. Man, you're gorgeous. How'd I get so lucky to land you?”
“Nope. Fate brought us together,” Karai said, undressing and climbing astride him. “My exquisite Raphael. You’re so manly and muscular. I’m in awe of you,” she added as she rubbed her chest against his. Her boobs were tantalizingly close to his mouth. “You’re perfection personified, Raphael. I love you so much. Make love to me, baby. I need you inside me and I need your strength and warmth.”
“Mmmm. You smell so good,” Raphael said, his shell embarrassingly tight from her close proximity. Her perfume filled his nostrils. “Is that a new perfume?”
“It’s the one you love. Chanel No. 5. I’ll untie you, baby, but I want you so badly. I’ve been waiting forever for you to wake up, so please give me what I need.”
“You know I will. I could never refuse you, sweetheart. Why would I wanna when you make me so unbelievably happy? I was lost and a walking corpse until I met you. You give me a reason to wake up every morning. I’m nothing without you. You're my rock, my heart, my soulmate, Karai. I’m honored to be your husband and I have no doubt we're gonna be together forever.”
“Babies too. You want them, don’t you?” Karai said and stroked his slit. “You want to make me happier, Raphael, don’t you?”
“I want tons of kids with you,” Raphael said and groaned at the sensation. “I know you'll be a sensational mommy.”
“Then let’s get busy making them,” Karai said. “Drop down, baby, and fill your wife with your manly seed. Let her know how much you love and desire her.”

She continued caressing his slit.

He soon dropped down with a low growl. His ten-inch purple cock was semi-erect and precum glistened on the head.

“It’s gorgeous,” Karai said and kissed his cock. “Perfect like you, baby. Give me babies, Raphael.”
“I will.”

She untied him, got off him and beamed inwardly. Having him obey her every command was fantastic. He was the perfect husband and lover and she would never let him go.

Raphael pushed her down, spread her legs apart, lowered himself between her thighs and lapped her vagina. His leathery tongue dipped between her satiny folds and made her fist the sheets and moan in ecstasy. Her nails raked down his arms and drew blood, but he didn’t care. All that mattered was making his wife happy and giving her all she wanted.

Karai moaned with pleasure when he sucked her clit. I have dreamed of this for so long. This is heaven. He is unbelievable. I always thought he would be, but he is surpassing my wildest dreams. My Raphael. My beast.

Raphael eagerly swallowed her juices. I have to make her happy. That’s my function. I never wanna let her down. She deserves the moon. She tastes like honey. I’ll never get tired of her sweet nectar. Man, I can’t believe this stunning woman is mine. She could have had anyone, but she chose me. I’ll never take her for granted.

“Argh, Raphael. Yes!” she said and groaned. “That’s it. Fuck. Don’t stop, my love.”

He stopped licking her sopping vagina, turned his attention to her heaving breasts and listened to her moans. Knowing that he was the one who made her emit them was a turn on. Her boobs were small, petite and perfect like her. Raphael rolled one between his fingers and marveled when the delicate bud swelled.

She looked at his muscular frame and was still blown away that this beautiful being was hers. He was beautiful with his stunning green eyes, handsome face, bulging muscles, toned and powerful legs and strong thighs. He was like a Greek god. Hers for all eternity. She was thrilled they were both virgins. He'd obviously been with Leo, but he was technically a virgin, because he hadn’t been with a woman. She was his first and his last, like he was her first and last. Anyway, he didn’t know who Leo was now. All he knew was her and he clearly wanted her as much as she did him, judging by the heavy scent of arousal he exuded. His scent was musk, which was mixed with gasoline, grease, motor oil and sweat. It was an odd mix, but so intoxicating. She would never tire of it or of him.

He leant down and nipped her collarbone, causing her to tilt her head to one side and to give him better access. His throbbing cock pressed against her vagina, causing her to grow even wetter.

“I need you,” she whispered as he alternately bit and licked her neck, leaving red and angry marks. Bite marks, which were his way of claiming her and of letting the world know that she was his. Bites that would last for a long time, but she didn’t care. He was hers and she didn’t care who knew. That wasn't quite true. She did care that Shredder would throw a tantrum, so she’d keep them a secret until she was pregnant. He wouldn’t be mad then, because there would be someone to carry on the Oroku legacy. That’s what he’d always wanted, so he would soon calm down, he would welcome Raphael and he’d treat him as the son he’d always wanted.

And if Shredder didn’t, she would go somewhere else with her husband and babies and start a new life.

“I love you,” Raphael said, raising his head and locking eyes with hers. His burned with intense desire for her. Her juices shone on his lips and his glorious cock was shamelessly on display.

She knew she was like a stuck record, but she couldn’t get over how beautiful he was. To think she’d mocked him and called him a freak. How wrong she’d been. He was the perfect blend of beast and man and he was all hers.

“I love you so much, Raphael. Claim me,” Karai purred.

Raphael positioned himself against her and she eagerly shifted to accommodate him.

“How badly do you want me?” Raphael asked huskily as he rubbed the head of his cock against her clit.
“Fucking badly. I need you, Raphael. Fuck me. Make me yours.”

Raphael’s magnificent cock sheathed itself to the hilt. Her vaginal walls clung to him and pain like nothing she'd experienced before, coursed through her.

He’d clearly hit her hymen. Fuck. It felt like a red poker was inside her.

“Argh!” she screamed.
He paused and said as his eyes clouded with concern, “You okay?”
“I’m fine. Keep going. It’s just I’ve never had anyone as big as you before. Please continue.”
“I am huge,” he said cockily. “I’ll be gentler, babe. I'd never do anything to hurt you.”

He cupped her hips and set the pace and her pain vanished when her hymen was completely broken.

Pleasure coursed through her as they rocked against each other.

He churred loudly as he sped up his thrusting in and out of her.

Her nails dug into his arms and drew more blood, but he didn’t care. He was lost in the pleasure and that was all that mattered to him.

The scent of sex was heady and their cries rose in volume.

Karai smiled inwardly. I have never been so happy before. He makes me feel things I thought I wouldn’t: love, hope and overwhelming joy. I am so lucky to be his.

She was close to cumming now and she gasped when his thrusting sped up even more.

He was probably close too.

“Fuck!” Raphael bellowed. “NGGH! I’m gonna cum!”

Raphael swore again and she could feel him expand inside her. Then he growled and his body stilled.

Her womb was filled with his seed and that’s when she went over the edge.

“YES, RAPHAEL! FUCK!” she yelled.

Ecstasy came in hot and sensational waves. She'd never felt so alive before. Her first time. Twenty-five now, she hadn’t been like her school friends who’d lost their virginity at sixteen and even younger. She’d wanted to wait. Raphael had been more than worth it. He was her dream come true in every way.

Karai clenched and milked Raphael of every drop. They shuddered as they whispered promises of love and eternal devotion.

Panting heavily, he slowly pulled his still leaking cock out of her.

A small amount of blood dribbled down her legs, but it didn’t bother her. She was elated that she was no longer a virgin and that she’d lost her virginity to the man of her dreams. She’d also taken his.

Karai tenderly gazed at him. I love him so much. I already feel so empty without him. He belongs in me. He knows it too.

Some of Raphael’s cum dripped onto her stomach. She touched it and licked it.

“I love your taste, Raphael,” Karai said. “Salty, spicy and intense.”
“Heh,” Raphael said and chuckled. “Did I do okay? Why are you bleeding? Did I hurt you?”
“It’s nothing, baby. I'll take me a while to get used to your massive rod, but I will. I love you. Come here. I want to snuggle. You were mind-blowing. Thank you.”

He flopped down beside her and wrapped his arms around her.

“I have a question. Why can’t I remember our wedding, Karai?” Raphael asked.
“You were in a boating accident and hit your head hard, causing retrograde amnesia. It took you a while to even remember me, but you soon did. You'll remember it in time.”
“Do you have pics?”
“No. It was a small bonding ceremony and we didn’t take pics. Why are you asking? Do you think I’d lie about our wedding?”
“No. It’s just something that crossed my mind. Forget it. I know you'd never deceive me.”
“Besides, we’ll soon have a bigger ceremony in Japan. We’ll take photos and it’ll be more memorable. I would never lie to you, Raphael. You are my heart and my everything. Lying to you would be like lying to myself.”
“I trust you implicitly,” Raphael said and reached up and kissed her lips. “Thank you for all you do, angel. I love you to the moon and back.”
“Love you more, my handsome husband.”
“You complete me, my beautiful wife. Night, baby.”
“Night, honey,” Karai said and reached up and kissed his lips.

They lay down again and wrapped their arms around each other.

Raphael closed his eyes and was soon fast asleep and softly snoring.

A triumphant Karai listened to her mate's snoring. I have Raphael and his heart. I’ll never give him up and I’ll kill anyone who tries to separate us. He’s mine forever.

Chapter Text

When Leo woke at five and didn’t see his husband beside him, he wasn’t concerned, figuring that Raphael was probably up early to bake or something. He got up and did his morning meditation with Splinter, however when Raphael wasn’t at breakfast and Leo saw that his phone was still on the bedside table, that’s when he became anxious. Raphael very rarely missed breakfast and always took his phone with him.

“Have any of you seen Raph?” Leo asked.
“Nope,” Donnie replied. “Not since yesterday and apart from his strange behavior of being nice all the time, he seemed fine. Why?”
“Same here. We went to bed and when I woke, he wasn’t there. That didn’t bug me, but him missing breakfast is unusual. I think something has happened to him.”
“Did he take his phone?”
“Nope.”
“Odd, but maybe he thought he wouldn’t be out long and didn’t need it.”
“I have told him to always take his phone.”
“No offense, Leo, but he doesn’t always listen to you.”
“I know. So, we can’t track his phone. What do we do?”

“We wait until it’s dark and then we go out looking for answers,” April said. “Try not to worry, Leo. Maybe he’ll return shortly and was unable to get home earlier.”
"But it’s daytime! People could see Raph and he could be captured by crazy scientists,” Leo said hysterically. “How am I supposed to be calm? Think how you’d feel if it were Donnie. You’d be climbing the walls.”
“Donnie wouldn’t be stupid to go out during the day,” April retorted. “He knows better. Leo, I know it’s hard, but we can’t do anything until this evening. Why don’t you go meditate or something in the meantime?”
“I’m going out to look for him,” Leo said as he pushed his chair back and then stood up.

“Leonardo, you will not,” Splinter said as he entered the kitchen. He’d heard the last part of the conversation. “It is too dangerous. We will look for Raphael when it is dark. Come with me. I will make you some tea and then we will meditate. A calm and clear mind will find solutions to a problem faster than a clouded one.”
“Yes, Dad,” Leo said as he and Splinter left the kitchen and then went to the dojo.

XXXX

Leo thought about his mate as he got into the lotus position on the tatami mat in the dojo.

Where are you, Raph? Are you okay? Please come home. I love you so much. I’m going to try and contact you on the astral plane.

To his immense frustration, he was unable to make contact, but he vowed he would not stop trying and he would never rest util Raphael was home safe and in his arms.

XXX

Meanwhile, Karai and Raphael were basking in the afterglow of another few rounds of lovemaking. She trailed a hand down his plastron and gazed adoringly at her sleeping husband, who had one leg draped over her.

I love him so much. We belong together. Not him and Leonardo. I know he and I are going to Japan, but I worry that those pesky brothers of his will somehow track us down. I have to use his niceness to my advantage and eliminate that threat. I know. It’s evil, but it’ll work and even if he snaps out of everything, he’ll never leave me, because he’ll feel immense guilt at all he’s done and know he has nowhere else to go, especially if I’m pregnant. He’s honorable and would never leave his children.

Sensing her looking at him, Raphael opened his eyes and said, “Hi.”
“Hi, babe. You sleep okay?” Karai asked as she stroked his face.
“Yeah. You?”
“Like a baby. I'm so happy. All my life I’ve been miserable and then you came along and changed my world. Never leave me, Raphael. I would fall apart without you.”
“Why would I wanna? We're soulmates. You complete me.”
“We are. You really love me and would do anything for me, huh?”
“Course. Why?” Raphael asked as he gazed at her intently.
“We are leaving tonight at ten, but I want you to do me a favour before that.”
“Anything. Name it.”
“I know of this mutant family, who kill and harm everything in sight. The leader brutalized a friend of mine,” Karai said, choking back a sob as tears rolled down her cheeks. She had learned to cry at will from watching videos online when she had contemplated being an actress.
“I’m sorry, babe. So, what do you want me to do?” Raphael asked as he gently caressed her face.
“I want you to plant a bomb in the sewers near where they stay. I will give you directions.”
“But that’ll wipe them out,” Raphael said, his eyes wide in horror at the thought. “I know they’re bad, but is that really the answer?”
“YES!” Karai said in a tone so harsh he flinched. “It is the only answer and if you love me, you will do that, Raphael. If you don’t, you can leave right now. Choice is yours.”

Raphael weighed up his options. I can’t kill anyone. It’s wrong, whatever they did, but I don’t wanna lose her either. I love her with all my heart and wanna be with her forever. Oh, sewer apples. What do I do? Then an idea hit him. Maybe he could do as she asked with a twist and still keep her. She'd never know, would she?

“Well,” Karai demanded as she sat up.
“I’ll do it,” Raphael said. “They deserve no mercy.”
“Excellent decision,” Karai said as she climbed astride him. “You aren’t just a hunk of meat and sex on legs. You do have brains. I’m impressed.”
“Huh?” Raphael said and blinked in confusion.
“Nothing. Lie back and enjoy, Raphael. I’m going to ride you like a bronco. I love being dominant and I think you will have fun. Have you ever been ridden before?”
“No. I don’t think so. You were my first.”
“And your last. You will never have anyone else but me,” she said as she began to ride him.

Watching her boobs bobbing up as she rode him and seeing the love in her eyes for him, Raphael was transfixed and all he could focus on was the moment and how special she made him feel.

This gorgeous woman could have anyone, but she wants me. I am so lucky. I will do all I can to make her happy.

Karai leaned forward and said, “Always look at me, precious. If you don’t, it’s disrespectful and I’ll be mad. You don’t want that. Trust me.”

Raphael nodded and maintained his gaze.

Karai lay on Raphael, kissed him, gently and slowly moved and stroked his tail, making him churr loudly.

They rocked like that for a long time.

Raphael thought about his wife as he stared into her dark eyes. She is freaking amazing. I’m so grateful and blessed to have her. I will never take her for granted.

Karai bounced faster and harder, knowing it would soon send him over the edge.

“Argh!” Raphael cried as he shut his eyes and as pleasure coursed through him.

“I knew you’d love this,” Karai said and grinned impishly. “For someone who was always macho, you sure love being an uke, Raphael. Maybe that was just for show and your authentic self is a weak drip. I love it.”
“Huh?”
“Nothing,” she said and then slammed herself onto his dick. “Open your damn eyes and look at me.“

Raphael did as he was told and churred even louder as his pleasure intensified.

Karai wriggled and turned around so that her ass was in his face. Then she ground it against his face.

“I wanna cum,” Raphael said. “Ngh!”
“Not until I say so, Raphael,” Karai said firmly. “I’m in charge and you listen to me. Keep it in and lick my ass.”

Knowing it was fruitless to argue and too brainwashed and sweet to do so anyway, he licked her ass, which made her groan.

She turned around again, bounced harder and faster on his dick and played with his tail.

That dual stimulation finally sent him over the edge and he could no longer keep it in.

“Karai,” he yelled as he flooded her insides with his creamy, sticky and thick cum. “I love you!”

Karai came with a cry and threw her head back in ecstasy. They had mated successfully again and she had a feeling that she would soon be pregnant. She rode out the orgasm and then got off and lay down beside him.

Tugging him close, she said, “I love you too. You were magnificent, Raphael. I have no doubt we’ll soon be parents.”
“Hope so,” Raphael said breathlessly, coming down from his high. “Hey. I was wondering. How old am I?”
“You’re twenty-two. Why?”
“When I look in the mirror, I don’t think I look that old and looking at you, you gotta be mid-twenties at least."
“I’m not old!” she spat. “What the heck does that matter?”
“Because if you’re twenty-something and I'm not, we can’t be together yet. I’d be a minor and that's wrong."
“You’re fucking twenty-two. What reason would I have to lie?”
“Okay. If you say so, then I am that age. I mean, I know nothing about anything and you know best. Where did I come from?”
“I told you I rescued you from abusive people. Isn't my word good enough?”
“It’s not that. My mind feels like it’s, uh, blank, apart from knowledge of you. I just wonder about stuff."
“It’s the trauma, Raphael. You blocked it out after I rescued you. You were hated and hurt. I love you and am good to you. Isn’t that all that matters? Let the past be the past."
“Who hurt me?"
“Drop it, Raphael, or no nookie.”
“Yes, babe,” Raphael said and then closed his eyes.

Raphael thought about the conversation with his wife. Karai knows best. She wouldn’t lie to me. I should forget it and just focus on her. I will.

XXXX

Later that day, Raphael donned a disguise and armed with a map to the lair and the bomb in his rucksack, he set off a little after 7:30. It was pitch dark and freezing and he tugged the coat closer to his chest to keep warm.

Raphael lifted the manhole cover, climbed down the ladder and then began the trek to the lair. He reached the entrance within forty minutes. Pressed for time, he quickly attached the bomb to a sewer pipe nearby and set the timer to go off in four hours' time. Then in block letters he penned a note and attached it to the pipe.

"These are the instructions to stop the bomb. I never wanted to do this and was forced."

His job done, Raphael ran through the sewers, climbed up the ladder and out into the crisp air and returned to Karai.

XXXX

“Were you successful?” Karai asked.

“Yep,” Raphael said. “They’ll soon be toast.”
“Well done, husband,” Karai said and then kissed him passionately. “I’m so proud of you. We’ll celebrate on the jet.”

Raphael thought about his actions as he returned the kiss. I feel guilty for lying to her, but I know I did the right thing. Vengeance is never the answer.

XXXX

Leo, Donnie and April went home from looking for Raphael at 10 p.m., because April had twisted her ankle and Donnie wanted to check it over.

Hearing a ticking noise when they were almost home, Leo said, “What’s that?”
“Sounds like a clock,” Donnie said as he gazed around for the source of it. His eyes then landed on what looked like a bomb attached to a sewer pipe. “No. It’s a bomb.”
“A bomb?”

“Yeah,” April said when she saw it. “And there’s a note. Look. Weird. The person who set it up left instructions for us how to deactivate it. Why would they do that? It doesn’t make sense.”

“It does!” Leo and Donnie said in unison as they studied the note.

“Why?” April asked in confusion.
“Because both Donnie and I know that handwriting,” Leo said. “It’s Raph’s. He was here, set the bomb up and then hoping to save us, told us how to deactivate it. He’s alive and was forced to do that, because the people holding him knew that he wouldn’t disobey, because he couldn’t disobey even if he wanted to.”

“Yet, somehow he managed to fight it and disobeyed,” Donnie said as he deactivated the bomb. “We are lucky. If this had blown, we’ll all be in smithereens. We have so many enemies. We don’t even know where to start.”
“What about Karai?” April asked. “She freaked out when you and Raphael tied the knot, Leo.”

“Nah. She was hurt, but would never do that," Leo said. "She's not bitter. Look how kind she is to us. She hasn't even told Shredder where we stay and has helped us many times."
“A woman scorned and all, Leo," April said. "I’m telling you she has Raph and that she probably ordered him to kill us as twisted proof of her love or something.”
“You watch too many movies,” Leo said as he rolled his eyes. “Karai was mad, but she’ll get over it.”

“I’m with April,” Donnie said. “She’s got him. Every second we waste arguing means one more he’s with her and goodness knows what she’s making him do.”
“I can guess,” April said dryly. “Sick woman! And she's at least twenty-two! He's a kid!"
“I don’t wanna know!” Leo hissed, his stomach lurching as he realized what April meant. “We’ll try to find one of Shredder’s men and ask them. April, you stay here. Me and Donnie will go and we’ll stay in touch. I still think she didn’t take him, but I couldn’t live with myself if you’d been right and we lost the chance to get him back.”

“Call the Mutanimals,” April said. “It could get messy and you need their help.”
“Will do,” Leo said and then he and Donnie went topside and looked for any signs of Shredder’s henchmen.

Leo thought about his mate. Raph, hold on. I will find you and bring you home. I love you and I’ll never stop looking for you.

XXXX

Raphael and Karai boarded the jet a little before ten and sank into their seats.

“Not long, baby, and we’ll soon be in Japan,” Karai said excitedly, her eyes shining with happiness.
“Yeah.”
“You don’t seem happy, Raphael?”
“I am,” Raphael said as he experienced a weird feeling of regret, sorrow and a sense that he was leaving something important behind.
“Then show it now!” she said irately.
“Yes, babe.”

The jet took off and began its ascent. The journey would take around fourteen hours.

Raphael watched the ground until he could no longer see it. His wife was sipping champagne and prattling on about the fantastic life they would have together.

“Raphael, are you listening?” Karai said. “Repeat what I said.”
“You were, uh, talking about bougainvilleas?”
“What? No. Where on earth did you get that stupid idea?” Karai snapped as she glared at him.
“Dunno. It just came to me. You like bougainvilleas.”
“I sure don't. I love roses! Pay attention. I hate being ignored,” Karai said furiously as she sank her nails into his arm, making him wince.
“Yes, honey. It won’t happen again.”

Karai resumed her chattering.

Raphael sighed. Why did I think that? If she doesn’t like bougainvilleas, then who does and why is my brain such a blank? It’s like the only person and life I’ve ever known is Karai and being with her. Is that true? Is it also true that she rescued me? A name popped into his head unexpectedly. Who the hell is Leo? Is he the one who likes bougainvilleas? I wanna ask, but I don’t wanna upset her and lose her. I love her. Maybe it’s best that I drop it. After all, if she rescued me like she said did, why would I wanna know anything about that past life? I got an incredible one with her and should count my lucky stars. I'm gonna focus on that and her.