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Y/N is a normal teenager who prefers to stay unnoticed. She could fit in easily, but her wish is to stay away from anyone. She had friends, but lost them by time. Those friends only stayed around to get something, when she was no use to them anymore, the friendships ended. She always thinks that there is only one reason why and she started to think that the reason must be that she is not pretty enough. There are just too many days on which she is reminded that she is not as beautiful as the other girls around her. It was not true, but she starts to believe the voice inside her head more each day. Every girl she compares herself to, every single female body seems to be prettier than she could ever be. That she never had a boyfriend in her life, is like a quite agreeing to her thoughts. It was not painful to be the ghost of the school, it was much more painful to her when she lost her father over a year ago. She remembers it clearly as it just had happened yesterday.
It was Friday night, her father told her to go out and to have fun. Even if she would just watch a movie, she should enjoy her youth as long as she has it. She lied to him, telling him that the there was no good movie to see in the cinema at the moment. She hugged him and kissed his cheek before she went to her bed room to be alone. She took her headphones from her pillow and turned the music on. Loud music was the silent scream she could not voice. Music was her escape, no matter how bad any kind of situation was, music saved her and took her into another world. She lied there sometimes for hours with closed eyes. As usually she had turned off the bed room light. But that was different that night. Without a warning her door was swung open and the light from the other room shined into hers. Her mother was standing in the door. At first, she thought she might have forgotten a house chore she was supposed to do, but then she saw the tears. She took her headphones down to hear what her mother had to say. But she was not speaking, she was screaming. She yelled at her, she yelled that she was screaming for her for the last five minutes. Next thing that happened was her mother running to the living room. Y/N did not know what to do, her father sitting there with his hand on his chest, painfully speaking to someone on the phone. One sentence she will never forget that her mother said to her, ‘How can you ignore your father’s screams?’. Her mother meant that even a neighbor was standing in front of the door and that the neighbor meant that he knocked at the door. She felt bad for ignoring her father’s screaming and apologized a dozen times. When her father hung up the phone, he said to his wife that they should get to the hospital right away. He did not say what it was, he only said they should drive off right away. Y/N remembers taking her father’s hand and starting to cry that she does feel sorry for not hearing. Her father only told her to stay calm, nothing happened. Everything will turn out alright. She should not forget to lock the door when they left. He kissed her forehead one last time and left. Her mother not even spending a second to look at her. She was too worried what might be wrong with her husband. Y/N did not know at that time that this was the last time she would see her father alive. That this was the last time she touched his hand, the last time she would hear his voice. Her mother returned the next morning with a friend who worked in the hospital as a nurse. She could not answer the questions Y/N had, every single time she said ‘dad’, it broke her mother’s heart even more. Her mother’s friend explained to her after she took care of her mother, that he won’t return. On the way to the hospital, her father had a heart attack. She had called for medical help as soon as she stepped into the building. A doctor was taking him immediately away from her to treat him, but he had a second heart attack not even long after his medical treatment. This time he did not make it. That was the day her world broke apart. Nothing was as painful as losing him. It took a few months for her mother to get back on her feet. In Y/N’ eyes, her mother was moving on to quickly, but her mother assured her, that she’s doing better.
A few weeks ago, her mother asked her if it was okay for Y/N if she would date someone again. She only wanted her mother to be happy again, that is why she helped her as often as she could. Of course, she would have nothing against it, since it makes her happy. She taught herself to cook and to bake, so her mother would have less work to do. She also took more and more house chores when her mother told her she needs to take a second job, since she does not earn enough money to pay the bills. Y/N’s birthday was a normal day, no birthday cake and no gifts, not even a happy birthday. Her mother was not at home all evening, she started her third job and was more exhausted than ever. She did not even try to cook herself something to eat, she only went to bed and used her headphones. The new guy on her mother’s side, is a work mate of hers. He was nothing like her father. It was not possible to compare them. She had a weird feeling around him, something about him seems fake. He was nice and tried his best to make her accept him as the new man on her mother’s side, but something told her that he something bad on him. When he changed his job, he moved into another city. They were still meeting at least every weekend, sometimes her mother even stayed during the week at his place or he stayed at her place.
Now, Y/N was waiting in front of her school to be picked by her mom and her boyfriend. She walked up and down the parking lot but they did not appear. After thirty minutes she decides to walk home since she has missed the bus already. She was walking for at least fifteen minutes before a car pulled over next to her. “Y/N. There you are! I told you to wait at the parking lot.”, her mother says. “Get in. We have a reservation.” Y/N only nods and gets into the car. It was his car and it was an expensive one. She took her book out and started to read. He only says that she is really such a good girl and that her mother raised her well. She does not react to his words and starts to study. “Sweetheart, we are here.” Y/N picks out of the window to see that they have arrived at an expensive sushi restaurant.
“Are my clothes fine enough?” Y/N says as she looks up and down her school uniform. “I think I am not dressed good enough for a place like this.”
“No, you look alright. It belongs to a friend of mine. He won’t mind that one guest does not dress up super chic.” He answers as he puts his arm around her mother, Y/N followed them right behind. They seat was placed near the windows. The restaurant was very pretty, but it looked more expensive from the outside than from the inside. When she looks outside, she can see a group of boys. It seemed like they would be waiting for someone, one of them stares at his phone most of the time. When she looks at their school uniform, she can see that they are from another school. One of them has such a beautiful face, it makes her feel weird. Her stomach seems to jump, just by looking at him. When she noticed that the other boys noticed her starring, they pushed that one boy she was staring at to turn to her. Immediately her face starts to blush and she takes one of the menu cards to hide her face with. “Are you alright?”
“Uhm, yeah. I just would like to know what to order before a waiter appears.” Her mother starts to laugh.
“Honey, we already ordered for you.” She takes the menu card from her. “My little dreamer. I thought you are not interested in boys yet?”
“Which boys?”
“Those boys.” She points her finger in the direction of the door. Y/N turns to see what her mother was talking about. Now, she wanted a black hole to appear underneath her to take her down. The boys from before were smiling at her before they took a table near her. The boys were sitting on a table from which perspective they could watch her, but she could not see them. “Does my daughter become a woman now?”, her mother says with a wink. Y/N shakes her head.
“No, I am not. I don’t have the time.”
“Good girl. You are really smart. I knew you know that boys are disgusting, childish and just a heavy stone on your feet when they are teenagers.”, he jokes. Thankfully for her, the sushi was brought to their table and this conversation ended. They started to eat as the waitress brings a glass of coke. “We did not order coke.”
“I am sorry. But one of the boys said he pays for it, it is for the young lady on your table.” Now, there was no way to hide how red her face has become.
“Can you tell them, thanks? I do not really know how to handle... You know?”, the waiter starts to grin and says that he will do so. Her mother mocked her with face expressions before they continued to eat their food.
“Sweetheart, there was a reason why we decided to talk with you in the restaurant and not at home. There is an important reason.”
“I guess it has something to do with the ring on your finger?”
“Yeah.” Her mother laughs as she shows her the ring.
“Beautiful.”, she gets up to hug her mom.
“I am so happy for you.” Her mother and her fiancé start to exchange looks. She goes back to her seat when she turns her eyes back to her mother. “What’s wrong?”
“We will move together.” She waited for Y/N’s reaction. As there was no reaction she continues. “Which means you will change the school after summer.”
“So, my next year in another school, huh? What about the wedding, next year?”
“You are right about the school. The school ends next week but you still have the summer to say goodbye to everyone before we leave.”, her mother explains. “But you are wrong about the wedding. We will marry during this summer. We don’t want to wait, you know?”
“I guess I understand.” She takes a sip from her coke. “I am just a little nervous if I have to change the school.”
“Don’t worry about that. We picked a good school for you together. Those boys are already wearing the school uniform of your new school. So, you already know some people, at least from seeing. Did you see the tall one with the bright shoulders?” Y/N nods. “I already informed myself a bit about the students at that school, he has been the elected representative of the student of their school for the last three years." ‘Great, now they know as the strange starring girl from the restaurant. It will be a disaster if they remember me.’, she thought.
“Did you guys find a place already?”
“Yes, and you will love it. Your room will be bigger and it is in general a bigger apartment.”, her mother tries to cheer her up. “Do you want us to get you some ice cream? I am sorry if you feel overwhelmed, but I decided it was time for our next step.” Y/N smiles and tries to assure that it was okay for her. She had nothing that would hold her here and maybe it would be good to have a change.
Summer went by so quickly, it did not feel like she would miss her old place as she takes the last pieces to put them into one of the boxes. She would for sure not miss anyone from school and she would also not miss anything within this town. “You’ve got everything?”, her mother asks. She only smiles and puts the last box in the back of the car. For the last time she looks up to her previous home and takes a deep breath. “Oh sweetheart. You can visit this town whenever you like, you know?” Her mother still believed her when she said she had friends, but she never noticed that she was barely outside. She smiles at her mother and gets into the passenger seat. She pulls the window down to feel the wind in her face. It feels like a new start, not just the family life but for her personally too. They arrived on Sunday evening which was the night before her new school year would have started. She does not even take a look at her new bed room, she goes directly to the bathroom to take a shower. She places her school uniform on her desk with barely open eyes. All she wanted and needed was some good sleep. When she switched the light off, she remembered that she did not clean everything from the floor, some boxes must still be around her. Just in case to not kick against those boxes she turns the light on one more time. She tries to scan the room before she turns it off again. Slowly she makes it to her bed, she snuggles into her blanket before she finally falls asleep.
The sun started to greet her through the window in the morning as her alarm goes on. Sleeping is one of the nicest things for her to do. She took her clothes from her desk and goes directly to the bathroom to get ready. She styled her hair at least three times before she decides to go with a straight hair look. She was not a huge fan of makeup, but her mother bought for Y/N her first makeup and it would make her happy to see her use it. She takes the mascara out of her new makeup bag and puts it on her lashes. As she left the bathroom ready for school, a nice smell of fresh cooked breakfast started to come from the kitchen. She rushes into her bedroom to get her bag and fills it with the most important things quickly and runs to the kitchen.
“Slowly. Honey, take it slow! There is enough food. I will pack you something for school, okay?”, Y/N hugs her mother tight. “You are really looking forward to school, huh?”
“I am just happy. You look so happy too. When did we have a warm breakfast like that the last time?”
“I only made some eggs and toast. Don’t pretend like it was something you never had.”
“I don’t, but when dad died, we barely had enough food.” Y/N explains while she looks around to find some muffins in the oven. “We only ate cold food or something that we could eat at least for two days from.”
“Don’t worry. We will not end up like that again. I promise you that.” Y/N takes a plate to place a toast and an egg on top of it. The smell of the muffins in the oven, it smells so delicious. “I already got a call this morning.”
“A call?”, Y/N repeats with a mouth full of food.
“I have a new job. I will start next week.” Y/N swallows her food down in one go.
“I thought he said he does not want you to overwork yourself again? Is it part time?”
“Yes. We can talk about this later because I only work when you are in school.” Y/N starts to clap her hands in joy. As she finished her breakfast, her mother took the dirty plate from her. “Go, don’t be late on your first day.” She hugs her mother one more time before she grabs her bag and makes her way to school. The school was only thirty minutes of walking and as she was already to early anyway, so decides to take the walk to free her mind a little. The neighborhood looks expensive but beautiful. She arrives way too early, twenty minutes before her school would even start. To her surprise the school door was not closed so she walks in. She looks around inside the building, she tries to memorize where which class is on which floor is. Her face was definitely giving away that she is the new one in school, but she did not care. This school looks much better than the old one.
“Don’t use this kind of face around here. I will show you everything you need to know.”, a voice behind her says. She turns around to see the boy from the restaurant in front of her. “Hey, I am Kim Seokjin. Just call me Jin.” She only looks at him without saying a word. “So, what have you seen or not seen yet?”
“I know who you are.” He looks surprised at her. “Sorry. That came off wrong. I mean your name was on the school website. I have just arrived actually.” A smile grows in his face.
“Well, I can show you around.”
“Sounds great.”
“Do you know someone around here?”
“No. I have never been in this town before. I don’t know anyone.”
“Well, if you want to, I can pick you up from your class room and introduce you to my friends. If it is okay for you, I mean they are only boys. We do not have girls as our friends yet, you could be our first.”, he winks.
“Uh, that’s why you are asking?” Jin nods. “That is not a problem at all. I prefer male friends over female ones anytime.” He looked a bit stunned at her. “That means less drama and more time to study. By the way my name is Y/L/N Y/N.”
“Nice name for a nice lady. Okay let’s check your schedule for today.” Jin shows her as much as he could in the short time they had left. As there were in front of her class room for the first class, a familiar face seems to appear. “Oh, are you also having history class in this room?” He points to the door.
“Yeah, I do.” He looks at her and starts to smile. “Oh, the sushi girl is in my class?”
“Did you just call me sush-”, Jin interrupts her.
“You do not have any respect for others, don’t you?” Jin’s argument was not wrong, but then she remembered where she has seen the other one before. Those two where at the sushi restaurant when she saw the one boy.
“Of course, I know politeness. Hello dear, I am Jungkook and this is Yugyeom.”
“Please be kind to Y/N. She will be eating lunch with us later.” Jin says goodbye to them and walks off. Jungkook opens the door for her and rushes in right after her.
“No need to rush, Kook. The school is not over that soon.”, Yugyeom says as he shakes his head.
“We need to find a place with her in the middle.” They find a place with three empty chairs but apparently one place was already taken and Y/N gets up immediately. “Where are you going?”
“This place is already taken, you two can sit together. I will find a place to sit.” Two rows behind them are two sits left to take. Each table had four chairs next to each other. Between those and the other four sits was a possibility to walk between the tables. Yugyeom immediately turns to their class mates in the row behind them to exchange the seats to sit closer to her. After a few minutes they agreed to exchange. “I will not get rid of you two, huh?”, she says with a grin in her face.
“Nope. You won’t.”, Jungkook assures. Yugyeom hits Jungkook on his shoulder. “Ouch?”
“Where’s Bhuwakul? Have you seen him?” Jungkook shakes his head. “I hope he is only late. I really thought we would stay in the same class together again.” The school bell starts to ring and a teacher starts to come in. The teacher looked like one of those teachers who were strict but also those who made their bad jokes every now and then. Everything has become quiet immediately until the door got opened with a sudden move.
“I am so sorry. I was...” The boy looks as he just finished a marathon. “I...”
“Nice to see some students do not change over the summer. Mr. Kunpimook, take a sit and be quiet.”
“Thank you, sir.” He starts to look around until he sees Jungkook and Yugyeom hiding their smiles behind their hands. “Really childish to laugh about that.”, he whispers. When he sits down, he does not spare a look at her. “Guys! Stop laughing it is not funny.”
“What’s funny is, that you did not see our new girl. Even though you see every girl within a second.” He looks confused about what Yugyeom just told him. He starts to point at Y/N. “Her name is Y/N. Jin said she will hang out with us at lunch.”
“Oh, sorry. Yeah, you heard my name. Just call me BamBam.” As she tries to answer him, he showed her a sign to give him something. “I told you my name, now I give you my number.” She is stunned by what he just said to her. Her phone was already in her hands, so she gives him the phone but to her surprise Jungkook and Yugyeom take her phone too to give her their numbers. “If something is wrong, just let us know. I guess we will be project partners then since Kook and Yugyeom work as partners all the time.”
“Are the four in the back also paying attention or do I need to write down that you four are not here?” They mumble their apologies and try to focus on class. “Ms. Y/L/N, I have seen your grades. They were very well. I expect you to continue your studies as you did in your old school?” She only nods as he starts his class. ‘If they are friends of this boy at the restaurant, will he also be at lunch?”, she asks herself. She starts to blush and hears someone breathing hard for holding back a laughter. When she looks to her left, she can see BamBam points at her.
“What?”
“Nothing.” he starts to look at another direction before Yugyeom, who sits in front of her turns to him. He leans a bit forward before he looks at her one more time. “Someone is having a crush. Look at her face!”
“BamBam, shut your mouth before the teacher looks in our direction again.”, she whispers.
“I cannot wait to figure out who it is.” He shakes his head. “I like you already. I think we will become good friends.”, he smiles as he takes his notebook out to take some notes. When he looks to her side one more time, he sees the many notes she has taken already. “Do you need that many notes?”
“Well, if you are my partner for future projects and you were already late on our first day of school, I guess the most work will be on me.” He looked at her with a funny face. She holds her hand in front of her mouth and tries to keep her eyes on her notebook. The rest of the class will for sure not be boring.