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"I wonder why Chuuya-kun's the only one who calls Dazai-kun with his first name .."

"Well, aren't they childhood friends ?"

"No, they're too close, more than needed ."

"It's kinda suspicious, i mean .. that 'kind' of suspicious .."

"No way ! There is no way Dazai-kun swings that way !!"

"Eeegh stop talking about that, it's disgusting .."

"Right ?? Just the thought of it made me want to puke .."

... it was when Chuuya overheard this talk between some of his female classmates that he decided he will never call Dazai 'Osamu' again ... what he didn't know is that he was about to ruin the plan Dazai was working so hard for since they became high schoolers.

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'Seven times .. he just needs to say my name seven more times and i-'

"DAZAI !"

Dazai's thoughts were interrupted by his crush's voice, he quickly looked up, hazel eyes meeting blue ones he wished he could drown in.

"What's with you ?? I called you several times with no answer, looks like you're planning a murder with that face, you creep ."

"What does Chibi want from me anyway ?"

"Stop calling me 'Chibi' !"

Chuuya took his schoolbag with him heading out of the empty classroom except the two of them.

"Did you forget that we have Art class next ?"

"I did-"

The brunet quickly went after him internally chuckling at how short Chuuya is compared to him, part of his mind still processing their previous talk till it realized something 'W-wait ..'

"Wait, Chuuya ... did you just call me with my last name ?"

"Yeah, something wrong with that ?"

"Of course ! It- sounds weird with your voice ..."

"Well then get used to it because that's how i'll be calling you from now on ."

"Wait- what ?!"

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'He wasn't joking ...' Dazai thought as he remembered each time Chuuya called him during the day 'Even in his messages ...' he thought again as he re read the text Chuuya just sent him "Oy Dazai, did you find the solution for that Maths task ??"

Dazai drew his gaze from his phone to his note book, one where he wrote 'Chuuya' for each time Chuuya called him 'Osamu' since he started counting, he was already at 993 times 'Only 7 times left .. only 7 !!'

He leaned back on his bed, wondering what he should do 'It doesn't matter how .. i need to make him say my name !'

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"How dare you leave me on 'seen', waste of space ?!"

Chuuya was way too energitic in the morning but today, Dazai was no different, he had a goal after all.

"People say good morning first .. you didn't find how to solve that task ??"

"You found how ?"

"Stop asking stupid questions, Chuuya ."

"Then show me how !! I mean explain it to me, don't just give me the solution ."

"I can do that but first .. say my first name ."

"What- why ??"

"Because i want to~"

"You-"

Chuuya's first reflex was to look around to make sure no one hears him then he looked down at the brunet, annoyed but he still gave up since he needed to know the solution after he spent almost a sleepless night without figuring it out.

"Explain the solution to me already, O .. Osamu .."

Dazai didn't miss how Chuuya said his name in a whisper, as if afraid that someone might hear him but he made no comment, he was busy explaining the solution to his crush then quickly going to write the 994th 'Chuuya' in his note book.

Unfortunately, he was only able to get one 'Osamu' out of the other's mouth during the day, he had to be more perseverant in the next ones.

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In their last class, Dazai who sat behind Chuuya staring at his ginger hair wishing he could ruffle it kept wondering how to get at least one more 'Osamu' out of him since he wasn't able to during the whole day, but the second he saw Chuuya resting his head on his desk to sleep because of the boring Philosophy class, he knew this was his chance.

He kept praying Chuuya wouldn't wake up when the bell rings and it looks like the gods loved him as his prayers were heard. 

He declined his classmates's suggestion to go to a karaoke without a second thought then waited till everyone left before he slowly takes off Chuuya's choker, hides it, watches Chuuya's sleeping face for a while wishing he could kiss those tender lips someday before he wakes him up.

"Aah .. i overslept ..."

"You're lucky the teacher didn't notice you, are you not sleeping enough ?"

"Yeah, too busy studying, i won't let you outdo me without fighting back ."

'He's cute ..' Dazai thought at the redhead talking while rubbing his still sleepy eyes and fixing his hair before he stands up with his schoolbag on his shoulder suddenly noticing what was missing as he brushed his neck.

"Where .. where is it ??"

"You mean this ?"

With the choker in his hand and his signature smirk on his face, Chuuya knew Dazai wasn't ready to give it back easily.

"Give it back !"

"When you say my name six times~"

"I'm not doing it this time so give it to me already !"

Chuuya was about to reach it till Dazai decided to lift his arm internally chuckling at his petit crush trying to reach it.

"You can just take it, well that is, if you can, Chibi~"

"I will call you with your name when you stop calling me 'Chibi' !"

"Okay then i won't call you 'Chibi' anymore so just say my name ."

Chuuya was taken aback, Dazai being this serious was such a rare sight, he decided he would just give up this time as they were on their own even though he didn't want to say it.

"Give back my choker, Osamu .."

"Can i .. put it on you ?"

Dazai didn't wait for Chuuya's reply to go behind him taking his silence as a yes, he put the choker on his neck brushing his skin and hair a little with the tip of his fingers but this wasn't enough, this could never be enough ! At that moment, he would give anything just to be able to pull him to his embrace.

"Why are you so obsessed with me calling you with your first name ?"

"Why are you so against calling me with my first name ?"

"Don't answer my question with another question !"

Chuuya bit his bottom lip at the brunet not saying a word as they walked down the empty hallways, it's not like he could ever tell him the reason.

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At lunch time in the next day, Chuuya kept glancing at the brunet then at what he brought in his schoolbag before he frowns at Dazai's sudden smirk.

"Leave me alone !! I won't let you take my bento today !!"

"But yours is the most delicious~ i even thought of getting the keys to the rooftop from Odasaku so that we can eat there ."

"Really ??"

Chuuya's blue eyes brightened, he fell for it. Dazai had a constant grin on his face happy that he will get to spend sometime with his crush on their own as they walked together in the hallways till two girls stopped him asking him if he could accompagny them.

The second Chuuya noticed the shy girl in the back the girls pointed at, he knew what this was about. He didn't wait to head to the rooftop on his own without saying a word to the brunet.

He used the keys Dazai left with him when they were in the classroom to open the door to the rooftop then he went behind the small building there sitting on the ground.

He looked at what he brought with him again then sighed opening his bento 'If he says yes then at least everyone will know he is 'normal' .'

"You didn't wait for me ?? Chuuya's so mean !!"

Chuuya almost had a heart attack at the brunet suddenly talking then joining him sitting way too close for his liking.

"What are you doing here ??!"

"It was my idea to come here if you forgot .."

Dazai zoomed on one of the meatballs in Chuuya's bento and quickly aimed for it with his mouth but Chuuya had the reflex to pull it away thus letting Dazai's face fall on his lap making him shiver and Dazai purposely left his face there.

"Gimme !"

"No !"

The brunet looked up at him with a pout then got a little confused at Chuuya looking away then down at him then away again to hide his pink cheeks.

"Get off me !"

Dazai got a little annoyed at the redhead pushing him away till he noticed what he was pushing against his chest at the same time.

"Just so that you stop taking mine !"

He went back to finish his food trying his best to calm his fast beating heart taking a while to check on Dazai and ask if he liked it but all he found was a sobbing mackerel there.

"W-why the heck are you crying ??!"

"I ... i have never been shown this type of kindness .. Chuuya !!!"

Chuuya sure had a hard time pushing the other who was dying to hug him off him then he just watched him eat the bento he prepared for him suddenly saying his thoughts outloud.

"Did that girl .. confess to you ?"

"Mmh ."

Dazai was too busy enjoying the food to talk properly but he did stop eating at Chuuya's next question, he didn't expect him to ask it and now didn't know how he should take this.

"What did you say ?"

"I will tell you if you say my first name 5 or .. well, let's say 3 times ."

"You're back at that ?"

Chuuya pouted a little but quickly sighed, his curiosity won over his dignity this time, he sure felt stupid when saying 'Osamu' three times but he needed to know.

"What do you think my answer was ?"

"Hmm .. yes ?"

"Why would i say yes ?"

"Well .. isn't she just your type ? Small and cute and all ..."

'You are also small and cute ...' Dazai thought, part of him still wondering why he wanted to know 'Maybe .. i have a chance ..'

"I rejected her ."

"You did ?"

Chuuya felt as if he just got rid of a big weight on his heart but he tried his best not to make it obvious, he knew how sharp the brunet was. They didn't get to talk further about this at the bell ringing but right when they reached the door of the roof, Dazai turned to face his crush standing between him and the door.

"Won't you tell me why you suddenly stopped calling me with my first name when this is what you have done since i've known you ?"

"What- why are you bringing this up ?"

Chuuya ignored his question walking to the door but Dazai moved making it obvious that he won't let him leave unless he answers his question.

"How about you ? Why won't you tell me why you're so obsessed with making me say your name ?"

"Exactly because you don't want to say it ."

"I just-"

Chuuya hesitated, but Dazai's serious look turning to a glare now told him that he better be honest.

"I just .. don't want some stupid rumors to start spreading .."

"What kind of rumors ?"

"As in .. us being too close ..."

"So you're afraid others may think that you're gay ?"

"No ! I don't care what they think about me .."

"So you are afraid they might think I am gay ?"

"I mean .. you're the popular one ..."

"I don't care what they think of me ."

"But .. they might mistake your sexuality .."

"Mistake ?? Why ?? Who said i don't swing that way ?"

"You do ?!"

Dazai chuckled at Chuuya's shocked face, deep inside truly getting insecure at this point, he had to clear this out.

"What if i did ? Would you think that's weird or .. disgusting ..."

"I would never ! Dazai will always be Dazai for me, but others are homophobs and-"

"Then if you don't mind that .. and at the same time you know i don't care what all of them think, why won't you say my name or no- scream it so that everyone in the courtyard hears you .."

"What-"

Chuuya followed him with his gaze as Dazai walked past him heading to the edge the roof then turning to face him, he knew how crazy he was but he still shivered, a little frightened of what might happen.

"I told you i won't say it especially for others to hear and we actually .. should also keep our distance from each other for a while .. even if we don't care others do and if they start some rumors we will never hear the end of them ..."

As if Dazai didn't hear him at all, he got closer to the edge till the iron borders touched his thighs, he was willing to get that 'Osamu' out of him, no matter what at this point.

"If you don't say it i will throw myself to the yard ."

"What- stop joking around and let's go to the class-"

"If you don't say it in three seconds i will throw myself ."

"The hell are you-"

"Three ."

"Dazai, you-"

"Two ."

"I said-"

"One ."

Chuuya didn't figure how serious Dazai was till he noticed his feet that didn't touch the ground anymore and just as it should be, he was way too late to stop him from falling but Dazai didn't regret, he at least got that 'Osamu' he wanted to hear so bad from a frightened Chuuya '999 ... only 1 left ...'

In fact, all what Dazai got after that was a broken arm, a broken leg, a broken neck, a month at home, an angry teacher since the responsibility fell on Oda who gave them the keys -even though he did take care of him when he stayed at home- and a crush who wouldn't talk to him anymore.

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When he was back to school, he found that they changed places as they were in a new semester, Chuuya was sitting in the opposite side of the classroom now ..

Everyone was around him, asking him what happened and how he was now since he still had his arm cast. Of course, he lied saying that he just tripped but his eyes were on his crush who acted like he wasn't there at all.

When the classes ended, Chuuya was the first one who walked out of the classroom hoping his classmates will keep Dazai behind but once he was in the train station, Dazai was also there, standing right beside him just like many of their other classmates.

"Won't you say my name one last time ?"

"..."

"If you don't i will throw myself when the train comes ."

Chuuya looked up at him enraged, he bit on his bottom lip so hard he didn't know how it didn't bleed yet but he didn't reply, this time he just made sure to keep an eye on the brunet since he knew what he was capable of.

He wasn't wrong unlike last time since once they heard the train getting closer, Dazai took a step forward and he was really about to throw himself if it wasn't Chuuya who quickly pulled him back till he fell on the ground and this time, he didn't hesitate to get on his lap and give him the punch he deserved.

"What the fuck is wrong with you, Osamu ?! Are you crazy ?!!"

Dazai forgot everyone else around them, some were getting into the train, others were standing there watching the whole scene while he lifted his unbroken arm resting his hand on Chuuya's cheek, finally smiling, his most genuine smile.

"Yes i am crazy, everything is wrong with me and i also am in love with you, Chuuya ."

... and he didn't wait to finally kiss those soft, tender lips not minding everyone around them or Chuuya's shocked face or their fast beating hearts that might give in at any moment.

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After he was done writing the 1000th Chuuya in his note book, Dazai leaned back on his chair with a constant grin on his face as he was about to set his new goal.

"1000 more times of him saying my name and i will confess again !"

... since even though his feelings were reciprocated, Chuuya was so angry at that moment that he ended up rejecting him.