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Have you ever been to a movie with someone you like so damn much, and you can't show it? Worst, you can let that person knows it?
Welcome to my life.
I'm Moonbin, just adult enough to know what I want and who I want. Also, adult enough to understand it's not a good idea. Not here, not now. Why did I fell in love with my best friend when he's not interested in guys ? I guess he's cute and dreamy. He's tall but somehow fragile. I guess I like him because he is kinda feminine? I don't know, I try to make it easier for my brain. I never thought I would like guys.
Anyhow, every Friday, Eunwoo and I go to see a movie. He suggested a romantic movie tonight, I winced first as I wasn't sure it was a good idea. I mean, two guys going to a romantic movie... No? Is it just me? People will talk, no?
Okay, maybe it's just me.
The movie was cute. Eunwoo smiled like a child next to me. I knew he would like that. Under that cute face was an eternal romantic. If only were were a girl, if only I would fit his standard — then I would make him so happy.
At the end of the movie, we walked home, we had mask on our face, of course. Otherwise, people could notice us. We talked about the movie and stuff in general. At some point, Eunwoo asked me this question.
-Why aren't you with a girl Binnie?
I sighed. I smiled at him, somehow ashamed.
-I'm just not interested right now. Why aren't you? You're popular right now. You should have someone.
My heart was hurting while looking at him. He was strangely serious.
-Should I?
I smiled more trying to look like a puppy. I'm not sure if it looked fake or not, but my heart was dying. I never saw Eunwoo with a girlfriend — but I knew he had before, when he was younger. We are busy, it's difficult to see someone when you are an idol.
But he was really popular right now. Like, you have no idea. Every time we go on TV show with other idol, girl asked him out or ask for him phone number. But he always refused.
-What if I'm already interested in someone?
My heart died more. Oh. So he liked someone. Of course, he would. He's a man, a full-grown adult. He can love whoever he wants. But a part of me shout “why not me?”
-Then you should tell her. I'm sure she likes you.
Eunwoo looked away a moment. Was he thinking about her? How he would confess? Maybe.
-I don't know, I think it's too dangerous.
I frowned, then laughed.
-Are you serious? How can you say something like that when every woman in Korea is at your feet? It's too dangerous my butt. You have a 100% chance it goes as you wish.
Eunwoo stayed silent and serious while looking at me. I sighed. Right, he was too intelligent for his own good. He's thinking too much. Every possible scenario.
-Stop thinking and act. You won't be gorgeous all your life — oh wait, maybe. With that face of yours.
I laughed loudly as I saw my friend blushing. I knew he would react like this. He is always blushing when I tell him he's beautiful or gorgeous. Probably because he doesn't like it — coming from me.
Eunwoo looked around, then stop moving. He slowly grabbed my wrist, bringing me somewhere more silent with nobody around.
-H-how do... I.... You know.
He was still touching me. I didn't say much as Eunwoo was always affectionate to me and the others. Plus, I liked it.
-What? You never confess to a girl? Didn't you told me you had girlfriend before?
He looked away, biting his lips.
-I... I did. But I never had to... People come to me, usually.
I smiled, what would I give to have that face and those opportunities.
-Did she told you she liked you?
-No. Not clearly. I'm not sure.
I looked away. Why was I doing that already? Why was I helping him to get a girl? Then it will hurt me...
-Do I know her?
Eunwoo winced. I knew that face. She's probably someone near of us. Someone I know.
-Who is it? You can't stay silent now. Tell me, I'll help you.
-I can't.
-Why?
I frowned.
-It's not my sister, is it?
I quickly pushed him, playing around. He laughed amused.
-No, I wouldn't do that to you, Binnie.
-You better. Even if she has the same gene as me, she's off limit.
Eunwoo smiled, looking shy at me.
-Just tell her, hyung. Nothing wrong will happen. I guaranty you.
-But, what do I say? I- I like you? I kept dr-dreaming about you? I'm lost.
I smiled sadly at my friend. Eunwoo had rarely trouble speaking. He must like her a lot if he was acting like this.
-Yes.
Eunwoo looked at the floor, kept silent a moment, then looked at me seriously.
-I... I like you. A lot.
He stayed still. I blinked as my heart started to race. My head knew he was practicing but my heart was hoping so bad it was true.
As Eunwoo stayed silent, I finally smile, trying to make him feel comfortable.
-It will be fine.
Eunwoo blinked, then looked away.
-Tell her the next time you see her okay?
He finally smiled, but somehow it was different. Almost as he was sad. Maybe he was afraid? Afraid of telling her he liked her? I don't understand that man. If it was me, I would use that privilege a LOT.
We walked home, Eunwoo kept silent. I pushed him gently at home, smiling at him.
He stayed still a moment, then talked back.
-What do I do if the person is not interested?
-She will. And if she says no, she's the one loosing. I would stop the relation with her if it hurts too much. But you'll be fine. Don't worry.
I touched his shoulder.
-Are you that worried?
-N-No.. I need to sleep. I'll just... Yeah.
Eunwoo walked to our shared bedroom. I took off my shoes and went to the living room. He was acting strange, but it was late. Maybe it's just that.
Next morning, I woke up alone in the bedroom. I'm used to this, Eunwoo wake up early.
I walked to the kitchen like a zombie, only to find Sanha trying to cook something.
-What are you doing? Why aren't you eating hyung's food?
Eunwoo usually prepared a meal for all of us.
Sanha looked at me, frowning.
-There's nothing. I have to go to school. Hyung, can you prepare me something? I don't know what I did but the rice it... Doesn't look good.
I looked at his bowl. The rice was full of water and as red as Eunwoo's lips.
I laughed.
-You know I can't cook Sanha. Just take a lunch in the fridge for today. You'll be fine.
He stormed out of the dorm when he saw the time. I looked around, surprised that Eunwoo didn't cook anything. I mean, it's not his job of course. But he usually does it every morning. I started to wonder where he was and noticed his shoes weren't there.
I guess he's away to his solo activity. Maybe he had commercial or a TV show I didn't know? Remember I told you he was popular? Well he goes everywhere too. Every TV show ask for him. Every radio show too. They all want a piece of the gorgeous Cha Eunwoo.
I'm truly happy for him, but I wished I had more contract too. How can I impress him when I'm second after him?
At noon, our manager called me.
-Have you see Eunwoo this morning?
I frowned. It was a strange question.
-No, why?
-He was supposed to be here an hour ago. Did you guys fought?
-What? No, no we didn't. Everything's the same. What do you mean he's not there?
-He is usually so punctual. I didn't want to worry but as you, his best friend, don't know where he is... And he doesn't answer his own cellphone.
Moonbin started to worry, a lot. What if something had happened to his Eunwoo? What if he was hurt? I don't even want to think about it.
-I'll go around and look for him. If I find him, I'll let you know.
-Thank you Moonbin.
I searched for him all day long. I called him maybe 150 times. Every time I reached the voicemail.
-Hyung, where are you? We are worried. Heck I worry. Are you okay? Please call me back, okay? As soon as you hear my message. Right now.
At 8PM I wanted to cry as we still didn't have news from him. Jinjin, Rocky, MJ and Sanha helped us too as soon as they knew about Eunwoo disappearance.
At 11PM, Eunwoo opened our front door, walked silently to our bedroom and closed the door. He seemed darker than usual. We all stayed silent as we were astonished by his attitude. Why did he ignore us all day long? I called our manager to tell him he was back.
Jinjin asked me to go talk to Eunwoo, as I was the closest to him. I sighed.
I opened the door, then closed it back behind me.
Eunwoo was on his back, eyes closed, arms crossed. He seemed tired, somehow sad and moody.
-Hyung, did... Did you get my phone calls? We looked for you all day long.
I walked closer to him. He hid his eyes while frowning.
-Let me alone please Binnie.
I stayed still. Why was he like that? He was usually so cheerful. Something must have happened.
Oh. Yesterday he told me he might... Oh.
-Did she refused to go out with you?
Eunwoo turned around, facing the wall.
So that's why. She said no to my Eunwoo? What a bitch.
-She doesn't deserve you hyung. You're too perfect-
He cut me.
-Binnie, please. Stop. I want to stay alone for now. Just leave.
I sighed.
-Just know that I'm here for you.
I walked away as he wasn't talking anymore. My blood was boiling. How can someone refuse Eunwoo's love? He's such a perfect man.
The four others looked at me when I got out. I can't tell them, it's Eunwoo's privacy.
-What is wrong?
-Where was he?
-So?
They all talked at the same time. I pushed them gently.
-He'll be okay.
The manager opened the front door, looking as worried as I was few minutes ago.
Jinjin told him Eunwoo was in his room. He got inside and closed the door.
We heard the manager speaking for a while, telling him he shouldn't disappear and contractual stuff.
I felt bad for my friend. He probably had the worst day of his life.
I went to bed later that night. Eunwoo was still looking at the wall — either sleeping or ignoring me. I guess I understand him. I hope tomorrow will be better.
It wasn't. Eunwoo started to ignore me. Like, really me. He talked to everybody else, but when I talked, he stopped talking or changed room. It hurt me, of course. Why was he acting like that?
Jinjin asked me if I did something to him. I wasn't able to answer his question. I don't think I did. Did I?
He ignored me for two weeks. My mood went down quickly as my best friend wasn't talking to me and I didn't know why. I asked him if he wanted to go see a movie on one Friday. He frowned so much, I didn't wait for an answer and went away.
Next Sunday we had a fan meeting. I was worried he would act like this with me in front of the fans. They would notice something was wrong and rumors would start. It might affect Eunwoo's popularity.
I sat in our bus first, waiting for the others to join us. We usually sit at the same place and Eunwoo was next to me. I was happy I could be near of him, even if it was only for few minutes.
MJ and Rocky sat at the back as usual. Jinjin at the front. Two places left.
I saw Eunwoo walking to the bus, looking at the floor. We walked inside and quickly sat next to Jinjin.
My heart hurt even more. Why was he acting like this? Did he know it hurt me?
Sanha appeared, frowning.
-Hyung, you took my place. I'm usually next to Jinjin hyung.
Eunwoo didn't look at him, keep looking at the floor. Jinjin sighed.
-Just sit with Binnie for today okay?
Sanha grunted and sat next to me. It wasn't the best trip ever as Sanha was saying how much he disliked his place. But worst was the feeling my heart and head was feeling. It felt like I was abandoned by my lover. Even if he wasn't.
I really wonder what I did so wrong. Is it because I told him to confess? Is it something else? I don't remember what else I said. Is Eunwoo that childish? It's not my fault if a girl rejected you.
At destination, Sanha got off first, followed by MJ and Rocky. Eunwoo got off, followed by Jinjin who took his arm. I took my time to get off as I wasn't really in the mood for anything.
Jinjin grabbed my wrist and bring me next to Eunwoo.
-Look, I don't know what happened between you two. But I can't let you act this way in front of the fans. They will notice it. Talk, fake it, act it, I don't care. Just be as usual or more. I don't want a negative attitude there understood?
Eunwoo said yes in a second. I stayed silent. He wanted us to fake it? How about I act usually? Eunwoo's was acting weird — not me.
-Binnie, will you be okay or not?
Jinjin was looking at me seriously. I sighed.
-Yes, of course.
The first part of the fan meeting is talking. We have a script — we usually say the same kind of things every time. It's easier and safer too. Today of all day, I was quite happy about it.
At some point Eunwoo and I will have to be more touchy. Jinjin asked who we would like if we were a girl. Usually Eunwoo answer “all of Astro” while I say “him”. Then Eunwoo touch my hand.
I know it's stupid, but every time my heart become crazy.
Jinjin finally asked his question. MJ and Rocky said each other name at the same time, the fans goes crazy. Jinjin asked the question to Sanha, he said nobody was good enough for him. Jinjin then pouted.
Jinjin looked at Eunwoo.
-How about you, Eunwoo-ah?
Eunwoo blushed a little while looking at the floor.
Oh, right, he's an actor. He's acting.
He looked at me, smiling softly.
-Binnie.
I frowned. I looked at Jinjin whom was also frowning. Why did he change his script?
-How about you Binnie?
-E-Eunwoo hyung.
My voice was almost mute, less enthusiastic than usual.
The fans shouted.
My heart was racing as usual.
Eunwoo is such a good actor, it looks so real. When he blush, the way he smiled at me, it makes me feel so strange.
-Another couple in Astro?
Jinjin shouted with the fan. Eunwoo took my hand gently. It felt softer than usually. More shy?
He kept my hand for a while. I stayed still, trying to smile. It was difficult to forget how Eunwoo acted toward me the last two weeks.
Maybe he was okay now? Maybe it why he's okay with holding my hand?
The fans asked us questions, and every time someone mentioned me, Eunwoo smiled at me or hold my hand. My heart wasn't sure he liked that. Was he trying to hurt me or what? Making dreaming smile like that for me...
The fan meeting ended. I thought it might be okay with Eunwoo — but I was wrong.
He became cold and distant the second we were alone.
Arrived at home, I was already moody because of Eunwoo. I ignored him and walked in the kitchen. He went to our bedroom, staying alone without eating. If he can ignore me, I can too, right?
At 11PM, I walked to my bedroom, hoping Eunwoo would be sleeping. He wasn't, he was reading a book. I quickly went to my bed, looking at my phone.
When I closed it, without thinking I talked.
-Good night hyung, sweet dreams to you.
I bit my lips. Why did I talk? He didn't answer. Of course. I sighed as I tried to fall asleep.
I didn't know Eunwoo was crying silently under his book.
Next week was as usual. I woke up alone in my room, I go to the studio to practice and getting in shape. Eunwoo talked to the others, but still ignored me. I don't know what to do honestly. It hurt me every time I look at him.
Next Saturday, we had a TV show recording.
I tried to be as cheerful as usual, but it was really difficult.
Eunwoo came next to me the second we started filming, smiling like a child. I looked away, unable to act in front of him. My head was telling me it was okay, but my heart was slowly crying. It felt like someone stabbed me in the chest every time Eunwoo's eyes were on me.
Sanha and Jinjin joked around, goofing. Eunwoo laughed loudly, pushing me gently. I instantly frowned at him. He stopped smiling at the same moment.
Jinjin noticed my actions and punched me.
-Keep your emotions.
I closed my eyes. I didn't want to. I want my friend back. I dislike when he acted around me. When he's fake.
Eunwoo talked to me softly. It was the first time in a month he spoke to me. Worst, he did it while hugging my left arm.
-Cheer up Binnie. You know I dislike when you're like that. Please be nice to me.
I frowned and pushed him.
Jinjin asked to stop the TV show. It was a good thing that it was a small recording for a web episode and not a live TV show. Or else I would be fucked.
I lost my temper.
And it became worst few seconds after.
Eunwoo talked, again, so softly.
-Sorry. I don't know what I thought.
-Are you serious? Are you serious right now? How can you tell me to cheer up when you're the reason I feel down? How can you act so fucking fake around me?
Rocky quickly noticed how angry I was becoming and took my wrist to bring my away from Eunwoo.
I quickly walked back to Eunwoo, pushing Rocky away. I was seeing red.
-Do you know how I felt that past month? No, because you're ignoring me. I don't know what I did to you hyung but I don't deserve this. Not from my best friend. Are you even my best friend anyway? Are you disgusted by me or what? I feel like I'm something you dislike every time you glance at my direction.
MJ and Rocky looked at each other a moment.
-Let's take five guys okay? Asked MJ.
MJ took Eunwoo's arm while Rocky tried to grab me. I closed my eyes as I had no other choice than to follow them.
MJ talked to Eunwoo a moment, then Eunwoo quickly walked away. MJ said yes to Rocky, while sighing.
I looked away, I didn't understand anything about Eunwoo anyway. Why bother.
Rocky and MJ looked at me with sad eyes. I looked away.
-Thanks, I already feel bad, you just made it worst. I went too far, is that it?
My head was hurting from all those stupids situations.
MJ spoke softly, making sure only Rocky and I were listening.
-I know you didn't want to be mean. I'm sure Eunwoo didn't want to neither. Please talk to each other.
I coughed.
-Even if I wanted, he doesn't want to. Didn't you notice?
-Yes. Yes we did. And it's the reason you should talk. You make it so much worse than it is.
-Worse than what? I don't want to lose my friend but guys, I'm not even sure he wants to be my friend anymore.
MJ sighed.
-He want. Please. Go talk to him. He's outside.
I walked slowly to the exit while MJ and Rocky walked closer to each other.
I opened the door, grunting. I hated when people told me what to do. But I hated even more being in that situation. I wished everything was back to normal. I wished Eunwoo was fine with me.
I looked around, Eunwoo wasn't there. Nice. Now I'm looking for someone that doesn't even want to speak to me. Why did I listen to MJ again?
I kicked a rock on the floor. It bounced to my left, next to a garbage bin. My heart sank went I saw him.
I froze.
Eunwoo was sat down, hands in front of his eyes. His face was red and wet, he was crying. So much.
Why was he crying? Wasn't he the one being me to me? Why was I feeling bad again? Fuck. I can't stay still. I love than man. Fuck.
Eunwoo never cried. Why?
I walked next to him, then sat down too. When he noticed me, he tried to stop crying but was unable to stop the tears. Instead, he hid himself even more.
-H-hyung...
My voice was cracking a little. It was a difficult sight.
-Please leave me alone.
-No... Hyung. Please don't cry. It hurts me when you're hurt.
He cried even more.
-Please...
I stayed still, waiting for him to be better.
-Even if you say you want me to go away. Even if you hate me. Even if you want to be alone. I'll stay here. Something must me very wrong. I never saw you like that.
Eunwoo tried to stood up but almost felt down. He tried to walk away but I stop him.
-Hyung, please. Stay with me, let me be your friend.
-I-I can't.
No. Enough is enough. Why was he acting like that?
-Yes you can. Nothing stop you from being my friend. We were for so many years. It's not because a girl broke your heart that it will change.
-Yes. YOU told me. YOU told me I should stop it. But it hurt even more. I can't even control it.
I blinked.
What? I told him? What?
-What are you talking about?
-Please don't make me say it again. I-I can't.
-I never told you should stop our friendship. It doesn't make sense.
I sighed, then hugged him.
-Why would I want to stop your friendship. You're the best thing in my life hyung.
Eunwoo hugged me strongly. I felt few tears rolling down my shoulder.
-Please be happy, hyung.
-I don't know how anymore.
My heart was hurting every time he said stuff like that. I felt like tearing up too. Who did that to him, seriously. That girl is crazy. Eunwoo's perfect. So perfect. Okay, he has flaws. But to me... He's perfect.
Eunwoo was still in my arms. I caressed his back gently.
-Wanna go and drink with me? You can tell me everything there.
-We can't we are recording, remember?
-Oh... Right. How about after?
I pushed my friend a little, smiling. Trying to cheer him up. His make up was everywhere. I've seen a better side of him, that's for sure. But somehow it made my heart race a bit more. He looked so innocent. I loved that man more than I could ever admit.
-Why are you doing this to me?
Tears appeared again near his eyes. I wipe them with my thumbs. I froze. That was too much, was it? Eunwoo will think it's weird.
-What do you mean? I asked.
-You are hurting me. Every single time. Please stop if...
He looked away, closing his eyes.
-Whatever. Let's just go inside.
-Hyung, you can't go on camera like that.
-I'll put make up.
And he did. He smiled a lot after, it was fake, but less fake. MJ winked at me. I raised an eyebrow.
After an hour of recording, Rocky talked to me silently while the other had their make up done.
-So did you guys talk?
-I guess? Why do you care?
Rocky frowned at me.
-What?
-You didn't talk.
-Of course we did. We talked of stuff and other. I think things will be fine. Thanks for worrying.
-You didn't talk. Aish. Such kids.
The others came back on the set and Rocky went away from me. What did he mean? We talked. Eunwoo cried. He doesn't make sense.
When it was done, I quickly ran to Eunwoo, smiling. He looked at me, surprised.
-Yes?
-Aren't we going out and drink?
-I never said yes.
-Are you joking me?
I pushed him gently.
-You are coming with me. Whatever if you want or not.
He came with me, but I felt he was stressed out a little. I bought few bottles of soju. He gasped.
-Do you want to get drunk?
-If it's what you need to get normal with me, then yes.
Eunwoo frowned.
-I can't drink too much.
-What are you saying? Here take your shot with me.
We drank a lot. I mostly pour him drinks after drinks. After a while, I felt dizzy but I knew I had a better alcohol tolerance. Eunwoo was smiling alone while looking at the table. His cheeks were full pink.
-You're such a cute pie.
Eunwoo looked at me seriously.
-What?
Oh fuck, did I say that loud? I tried to brush it off.
-What? I didn't speak.
He frowned. I'm not sure he believed me.
-So... Hm... How about you tell me how it went with that girl.
Eunwoo chuckled.
-Is it that funny?
-Are you playing with me?
-Ani. I'm really interested.
-I think he wasn't interested.
I raised my eyebrows then laughed. Did he say he? Yes, he did a mistake here.
-She. SHE. Be careful, I could have misunderstood.
-Ani. He. It's really HE.
I stayed still, unable to process.
My heart started to race.
-You like guys?
He closed his eyes, then smiled.
-No. Just... Him. He's special. So damn special.
And the race stopped. I can stop hoping now, he'll never be interested in me.
-Oh. Okay.
Eunwoo looked at me, seriously.
-Do you have a problem with that?
-Ani, ani. Of course not. You are free to like whoever you want. You know I don't really care.
Eunwoo looked at his drink while mumbling.
-The thing is that... I've tried to ignore h-him... And it just make it worst. I don't know what to do anymore. How can I make someone loves me Binnie? I wish it was simple.
-Well, if you find out, tell me. I wished I knew how too.
-I hate myself. I was so mean.
I caressed his hand gently. He looked at me, blushing.
-Don't. He doesn't deserve you. I'm sure you'll find someone better one day.
-But I don't want to.
I sighed. Why was he so blind. He just felt in love with the wrong person. If he felt in love with me I would make him the happiest person on earth.
-Believe me, other people near you likes and loves you.
-But not the person I want, Binnie.
I closed my eyes.
-I understand.
I looked around. There was nobody in that club. We were almost alone.
-Who is it anyway?
Eunwoo blinked.
-Tell me. I'll punch him for you. He's such a dork, missing out the best man available.
Eunwoo blushed. I blushed. Woops. Too many drinks.
He looked around a moment.
-I... I drank too much. We should stop it's dangerous. I... I'll do something stupid.
-No, it's fine. I won't tell anyone. I'm fine with it, really.
He had no idea how fine I was with the idea he might like guys. Even if he wasn't saying man in general, it was a better chance than zero.
-I... I can't. I'm too afraid.
He looked away, blushing even more.
-Why are you afraid? I hope you're not afraid of me? Because I really don't care. Man, woman, they are all the same. I like them both. So I get it.
Woops.
Eunwoo looked at me surprised.
-You... You liked guys too?
I quickly blushed. Stupid alcohol, he was right. We drank too much. It was a dangerous game.
-Well I... I can like some guys... If... If we have a mutual something...
I tried to play it safe, but I felt I sounded weird. Eunwoo was still looking at me seriously.
-I thought you disliked the idea. I thought you were disgusted by...
-Us?
I raised an eyebrow. He kept looking at me seriously while mumbling.
-Us...
I chuckled at his attitude.
-I'm okay with it. I had crushes but nothing ever happened.
-Oh...
Why was he blushing like that? Oh, right because I just said out loud that I had no sexual activity with a man. Oh well, where can I hide forever now? I quickly tried to make it better, becoming red too.
-I did with girls... Just... Anyway... Aish... I should stay quiet.
Eunwoo laughed at me. That made me smile.
-I miss that smile. Please stay like this forever.
Eunwoo smiled shyly.
-Binnie... You sound like you are flirting with me.
-Hm? Maybe I'm too drunk.
Eunwoo smiled awkwardly. He felt shy — that was sure.
-Do you know who's the man I liked for so many years?
My heart sank. Years. How can I win over that?
-No.
-You're not joking or playing dumb right?
I frowned.
-Are you saying I'm dumb?
Eunwoo chuckled again.
-No.
I bit my lips. I was curious but at the same time I felt good not knowing who was his crush. After all, it won't be me.
-So?
-I confessed to him.
-Okay. And?
-I thought he was rejecting me. But maybe he didn't understand.
-Okay. So? Tell him again then.
Eunwoo smiled shyly even more, he was so damn cute.
-What should I say to make it clear?
-I don't know. Just say the truth. Keep saying it if you aren't sure he understood. But don't be mad at me after if it doesn't work.
-Okay.
I smiled at him. I opened a new bottle of soju (my head needed it), but Eunwoo stopped me.
-I like you.
My head was spinning a little, so was my heart. Oh. Right, he's practicing. I smiled, taking the bottle again.
He stopped me again.
-I. Like. You.
I smiled at him.
-You're getting good at it. But stop practicing and tell him, not me.
He chuckled.
-It become easier every time I say it.
-Okay, good for you.
I took the bottle, he stopped me again. I frowned.
-Yah!
Eunwoo laughed.
-You are so thick, it's crazy.
-Look who's talking.
I grunted. He chuckled again.
-Binnie. I like you.
I blinked.
-What?
-I said I liked you. Moon Bin.
My heart stopped for a moment.
I dropped the bottle on the table. It broke down and a lot of soju went everywhere. I looked around, afraid of what I just did.
Eunwoo stood up as a lot of the drink went in his direction. Quickly a waitress came to wash up the mess.
He was red, so was I. I paid at the bar, and we quickly went out, saying sorry to everybody.
We walked silently without talking. My heart was skipping beat from time to time. Did... Eunwoo confessed to me? Am I dreaming?
I looked at him. He was looking at the floor, hands in his pocket.
-Aish. I'm such a bad guy. Am I?
He looked at me silently.
Who am I to keep him like that? He just told me he liked me. I like him too, but he doesn't know. He probably feels really bad.
-D-don't worry. I'm okay. I guess I thought it would be different his time.
I blinked.
-This time?
Eunwoo sighed.
-Last time you acted like you didn't know I was talking to you.
-But I didn't know.
I gasped.
It was me.
I told him to stop the relationship with the girl if it didn't work. I'm the reason we both felt bad.
-Hyung, I'm so sorry.
-No, it's me. Just keep it to yourself.
I looked around, not a cat in sight.
-Stop that, will you? I told you I wished you were smiling all the time. Now that I know that you like me, I'll make sure you do.
He looked at me. As he was about to say something, I kissed him quickly. A small peck. Just enough to make him flush.
I also flushed, of course. We both smiled, while looking away.
-B-but...
I stopped him again with a kiss. But this time it was longer, and gentle. He sighed.
-Well if you want me to smile... You found a good way.
-Did I?
-Hm-hm...
He bit his lips. I kissed him on his cheeks, then on his nose.
-I need to kiss you everywhere. I need to do it now before you come back on your words.
My new boyfriend frowned.
-I won't do that. I liked you for years. I would be stupid to do so.
-Years?
-Yeah... Is it okay?
I chuckled.
-Since when?
-Aren't you too much?
-No~ just tell me.
-The first time I saw you. You were dancing and goofing around.
-We were teenager back then.
-Well, we were teenager one and two years ago... It's not fair.
We chuckled.
-Hyung.
-Hm?
-You know I also like you right? My kisses... You understood ?
He laughed loudly, pushed me then hugged me. His arms on my shoulder, mine on his hips. We looked at each other eyes for a moment.
-I think I always knew.
I gasped.
-What? You're lying. You thought I disliked you few minutes ago.
-It wasn't true. I was acting.
-Stop lying to me, cute pie.
Eunwoo smiled, amused.
So this is how my best friend became my boyfriend.
Like they say, you can't make an omelet without breaking eggs.
Or in that case, you can't have a boyfriend before breaking up with your best friend.