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How long has it been since

The time long past of regrets

I had your trust

I shattered that trust

You may have been a shadow

But I was more of a shadow

Hiding the truth from innocent you

I learned that you had more light in your heart

Than I could ever have in my own

This pain is like a eternal twilight

Pain eternally intertwined deep in my soul 

I don't know how you could forgive me

I don’t want you to forgive me

I had your trust

I shattered that trust

I dare not leave my room

I dare not let the 3 see my pain

I need no sympathy

No empathy 

For I could not do so for you

I treated you worse than anyone could

When I betrayed you

The red one whines at the door

The blue one shouts

The green tells me that it's okay 

Even if it's not okay

I can’t tell them why

But i'm sure even they learned why

Why I dare not leave this room

They know how close I once was to you

Or at least I think they do

I can’t think straight like I once could

So much for being the smart one

I’m more like the evil one

I keep telling myself it was for the best

That I did it for my friends and country

But in the end it's never enough

What I have done still repeats in my mind

I had your trust

I shattered that trust

Just like the mirror

The mirror that shattered to nothing

And you were gone

Gone the moment the mirror shattered

You did it for us

You helped us 

Yet all I did was watch 

Without a word 

You gave us hope

Only for you to lose all hope yourself

I had your trust

I shattered that trust

Like the mirror that's no more 

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Why did you trust me so much

Why did you show such weakness

You went to far

I wanted you to hate me at the start

Yet you gave me so much love

Making it that much harder to betray you’

I felt so loved

I was the center of your world

It was more than I could have ever wished for

This is too much for me

I have no idea how I betrayed you at all

When I became so close to you

I want to feel your arms wrapped around me 

I want you to hold me close

Yet I know that is not to be

Oh curse the fate of being a hero

I truly wished to stay on your side

I wanted nothing more

I want to feel your breath as you whisper in my ear

The gentle words of longing 

Whisper in my ear one more time

Let me feel your arms around my waist 

Please forgive me for what I have done

You were supposed to hate me

I wasn't meant to become close to you

When I betrayed you 

It was not meant to hurt me 

Nor was it meant to hurt you

 emotionally at the least I mean

I hate myself now because of what I have done to you

It was not meant for me to hate myself

Your supposed to hate me

Always to hate me

Hate me in the past

Hate me in the present

Hate me in the future 

That was how it was and how it is meant to be

I know it’s a evil desire 

But here I am wishing for your warm embrace again

Here I am longing your touch

Wishing you were by my side

The light will not hurt you again

So please  forgive me my precious shadow

Come back to me

Take your hand in mine

Dance with me in the moonlight

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Hey now hey now what are you up to today

I am I am one of 5

Don’t question this logic

It is just how it is

I drew a sword

Yes I drew a sword

And now there is many of me

Each of them different from the other

Wearing many colors

Purple

Blue

Red

Black

Green

We all go hand in hand

Poughting 

Fighting 

Singing

Laughing

Giggling

In the end we are the same

We were once linked as one

We didn't get along

But now we can’t be separated

Brains

Brawns

Kindness

Mischief

leading

We each have our own qualities

That make us who we are

Reading

Battling

Hugging

Pranking

helping

Each an individual

It is almost hard to believe we were once the same

Just don’t forget I can never hate you

I love you all even if we fight a lot

Your the best family a guy could ask for

Each with our negatives and positives

Vio put down the book

Blue stop yelling

Red your acting like a little kid

Shadow that’s not helping

What am I going to do with you all

This house is never quiet

But most of us don’t mind

I guess we should quiet down a bit though

We are interrupting Vio’s reading

 Now vio is staring us down

With that icy glare

Yikes get away!

Hey now hey now

Now's not the time

We are all individual

Not the same anymore

And that way it shall stay

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Ten seconds

Just ten seconds and I am alive

Ten seconds down a waterfall

Ten seconds and you land next to me

Just ten seconds and I am by your side

This is all happening too fast

No longer does my mind keep up with this pace

Ten seconds and I fall for you

Ten seconds and no longer I want to be a hero

Looking into those eyes of mischief 

I decide to join you in your deeds

Just ten seconds that's all it takes

To make me wish we had a different fate

Couldn't these ten seconds gone any other way

Ten seconds and I want you closer

Ten seconds and I am fooling you

You think he has died

You bring me closer to your side 

Thanks to the ten seconds that passed 

Ten seconds to long I look into your eyes

Ten seconds I am fully in your grasp 

Ten seconds and now I am yours 

Ten seconds and you are mine

Ten seconds I think otherwise 

And so the mistake is made

Ten seconds I shatter it all

Ten seconds was all it took

All it took to try and break the mirror 

And now I regret it all

For I lost a love

That lasted only ten seconds 

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I hate you

I despise you

I care for you

I need you

I don't know what to say anymore

Now that you betrayed be 

You laughed with me

You made plans with me

You tried to kill me

You betrayed me 

I believed you to be my precious flower

My Violet

Why Violet?

Why did you try to break the mirror

Why did you pretend to be my friend 

You were my first friend 

You were my last friend

I can never trust again

I can never smile again

I gave you everything

You took everything 

My Violet

Why Violet?

Was it because i'm evil

Because im no good 

If so why couldn't I

Why didn't you believe I 

That I can change

From evil to good

Darkness to light 

I know im a shadow

I know your a being of light 

If that was why 

Then I will change

I will break the mirror 

I will go against the darkness

Not against the light

Maybe you will still hate me

Maybe you won't care

But I will do what I can 

My Violet

Why Violet? 

Do you hate me

Do you despise me

Do you care for me

Do you need me 

I just don't know anymore

Before you left me

Before you betrayed me

I could have sworn 

That you were happier 

Than you ever were

With the 3

Our nights were filled with gentle words

Our days filled with laughter 

Now I feel so empty inside

Now that you betrayed me

Was everything you did

Everything you said

About how you care for me

A lie

Did you hate me

Do you hate me

Why did you leave

My Violet

Why Violet?

I broke the mirror

Are you happy now

Do you care about me again

Im dieing now 

Im afraid its time to say goodbye 

The mirror was my source of life

So now that it is shattered  

So shall I 

Don’t cry for me

It was fun while it lasted

Goodbye my Violet

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I know I have a lot to work on
I know I only cause problems 
But I can’t help it you see
Everything makes me so angry
So I lash out on everyone
I did not ask for this portion of the personality
It’s just what I was given
But I suppose I have hope if you stay with me
For your sweetness makes up for my cruelty 
Though I may never admit it out loud I know I am happy for you
To be so cheerful and carefree
To be able to love everyone despite the flaws
The world needs more people like you
So please little red riding hood boy 
Continue to try and sweeten the world
Continue to make people smile around you
Don’t let me the blue wolf ruin you
Go on without me 
Skip and sing like you always do
Continue to be blind to the world around you
We need more people like you
I wish you could sweeten me like you sweeten the world
But I am already too far gone
My heart is full of hate 
And that is fate
Sweeten this broken world little red
Don’t pay so much attention to me alone 
The world needs you little red
Don’t worry I will continue to watch over you from afar 
 Maybe I have been sweetened by you
Even if only a little 

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You left this world

The world you saved 

No one seems to care but I

Everyone ignores who the true hero is

Everyone ignores that the hero is you

With great determination I take every book I know

Every book I know on dark magic and dark world

I make sacrifices 

I toss everything aside

I will make everyone understand

I will do it all for you

If I have to I will use these books to curse them till they do

This is the demon in me speaking 

I will give up my own title of a hero for you

After all I never believed I deserved that title from the start

Not without you at the very least

With a knife and book in hand I close the door to my room

Turn out the lights and sit on the floor

Open to the page I deem will work

I get to work on the next spell

I cut my wrist pour the blood onto the floor

Gently I use my blood to make a circle 

With the dark worlds language written in a pattern of sorts dead center

This is the demon in me speaking 

I glance at the book again 

I start speaking the chant

Shuddering as blood pours down my hand

This is all for you dear

My head starts to feel light as I lose more blood

I finish the chant and look ahead

‘Only to see I have failed again 

But I won’t give up

I will find another

Even if it kills me

This is the demon in me speaking 

The 3 don’t know of my deeds

They are thinking I’m just reading

Though which is partly true

They don’t know the full truth

Nor will I ever tell them the full truth

No one is aloud in this room 

Not on my dead body

Never will they see

The blood that coats the walls

The crimson stained floor

My eternally pained expression 

Not to ever know that have yet to rest

I only let the bags under my eyes grow

And they will never know

Never at least not till the day you return

This is the demon in me speaking 

This demon I have become

Or possibly the demon I have always been

Cares for nothing more but your return

Now then shall I try again?