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PROLOGUE

Bright Vachirawit-Chivaaree – a Music, Performing Arts, and Communications freshman in Webster University Bangkok -Thailand – was standing near the entrance of the gym, looking for a perfect spot when somebody accidentally tripped and he landed on that person. He was about to curse that said person, but immediately stiffened and changed his mind by looking at the person with awe - white, porcelain skin that you can immediately see the red blush; plump-pink-glossy lips; those cute, round, doe eyes where you can see yourself melting just by staring at those; and scarlet red tinted ears that indicates the person was shy and embarrassed at the same time.

"Oh my god! I am so, sorry! I was not paying attention and I was in a hurry -" Bright couldn't explain what he was feeling. He went out of his daydream when the person below him poked his face.
"... Hello? I really need to go because P'Godt is already calling me and I am so dead if I will not go now. Can you please get off of me?"

"I'm sorry." Bright said as he stood up immediately. He gave his hand and helped the person who was struggling to get up. He was relieved because not many students saw the incident happened a while ago.

"Thank you, and I'm sorry. I really need to go!" The person shouted while running towards the backstage, hand waving goodbye.

'Wow! What a great way to start the school year' Bright thought internally, while a smile crept on his lips and started walking to the bleachers.

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CHAPTER 1

Bright's POV

I looked out the window as the sky was gloomy in an early afternoon, drizzling outside. I rubbed my face with my hands, thinking what my father told me beforehand.

I went out of musings when I noticed that the taxi had already arrived at the dormitory building near my university.

"That would be 249 bhat, sir."

"Here, you can keep the change." As I handed the driver 250 bhat. I went out of the taxi and got my big and heavy luggage, with 2 backpacks and my guitar out of the trunk.

'Fuck! This shit is heavy. I shouldn't have brought it all at the same time.' I cursed at himself.

"Would you like a hand, sir?" The security guard offered.

"If it is not a bother, that would be great. Thank you." I shyly smiled because of my embarrassing situation. The guard hurriedly stepped down on his post and took the luggage and my other backpack.

"Do you already have the key to your room?" Asked the kind guard, whose name is 'Anuchit S.' in his tag.

"Yes. I got it last week when I came here to look into available rooms." I replied, going to the elevator.

We got out on the elevator as we stopped on the eighth floor. My room was on the far-end in right side.

'RM 809'

I slid in the keycard to open my room. We went inside and settled my things in the mini-living room. I look back towards Mr. Anuchit and wai'ed at him.

"Thank you so much for the help. I hope I was not of a big trouble." Mr. Anuchit smiled and pat my shoulder.

"Don't worry about that. Glad to help. Don't hesitate to approach me if you need something." He went out of my room, smiling before playfully saluting at me.

I looked at my things and started to unpack.

It was already 6pm when I finished unpacking. I grabbed my keycard and wallet, then went down of my dorm and went to a near diner to eat an early dinner. As I was waiting for my food, I called my parents to inform that I am already settled and is going to eat dinner.

Exactly after the call ended, my food arrived.

It was chilly outside when I went out of the diner. I hugged my not-so-muscular body to have body heat and ran towards my dorm building.

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*Bzzt *Bzzt *Bzzt

I woke up to the buzzing of my phone. I looked at the time and it was already 8:23am. The buzzing continued. I checked out who messaged me.

From: Joss Way-Ar

Joss: Hey, Bright!

Joss: You up for a boxing session this afternoon?

Joss: Just some drill before you officially go into being a freshman.

Joss: What do u say?

I squinted my eyes to read and digest what the message was about.

I rolled and lay on my stomach to respond in his messages.

To: Joss Way-Ar

Bright: Yeah, sure.

Bright: Just text me what time this afternoon.

I got off the bed, yawned and stretched as I start my day. I brushed my teeth and ate my breakfast before going on a late-morning-jog. It's a Saturday and two days to go before the first day of the university year.

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I arrived at the 'Elite Boxing Club', where Joss was already dressed up and ready for warm-up.

I went in the locker room and immediately dress up for the session. As I was done, I joined Joss in his warm-ups before going into proper session.

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"Man, you’re getting good." Joss exclaimed as he drank from his water jug. We just finished our 5th round in boxing.

"You're not so bad yourself." I said, as I sat down on the bench panting and also drank from my water jug.

"Pfft, please... Don't flatter yourself. You still haven't mastered the techniques I taught you." Joss pointed out and he sat next to me.

"Then I guess, you're a terrible mentor." I looked at him and suddenly smacked my head. I touched the part where he smacked and glared at him.

"Don't put the blame on me. You are a bad student." He stood up and walked away. He suddenly stopped and looked back at me saying, "We'll have another session someday. And next time, bring Foie and Gunsmile." He smiled and walked in the shower room.

I am happy I get to be in the same university with my friends, although different departments.

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Krist's POV

*knock *knock *knock

"Young master? Everything is ready outside. Madam and Master are waiting for you downstairs." Nanna informed me while standing at the door.

"Okay, nanna. I'll be down in a moment." I said and smiled at her before closing the door and went downstairs. Nanny Kumphat. She was my nanny ever since I can remember. She is like my second mother. I owe her for giving me a great childhood. Even though my parents also loved and spoiled me, nanna was there when my parents go to work. She was there when I scraped my knee, when I got my tooth out, when I cut my finger when I cooked my parents' favorite dishes on their anniversary, when I first sneaked out in the middle of the night to eat junk foods and a lot more memorable thing.

So, that's how pampered I am. But not all the time. You see, she also taught me things that I will forever treasure.

She was the one who taught me to be strong, be brave and stand up when I am wronged. Taught me to be kind and respectful to everyone who earns it, regardless their age. Taught me to cook, do the laundry, and other household chores, because even if I am born with a silver spoon, I should know the basics of being independent because it is not all the time people will help me or do things for me.

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"Now, don't hesitate to call mom and dad, or even nanna if you need something or someone to talk to. Anything and everything you need, just tell us, okay?" She told me as she hugged me tightly and pepper-kissed my face. My sweet and ever-loving mom, everyone. None other than, Chamar Nantana Janruechai, aka, "Queen of Cosmetics" as she is always the number 1 in the Cosmetics Business. Happily married to her, as she called it, "soulmate", Jack Chaiyuth Sangpotirat. My caring and supportive father. CEO and owner of the biggest business in Thailand, JCS & Co.

He may be tough and intimidating outside, but he is very soft inside. Total opposite of my mother who looks very soft and shy, but she really is a tough and dedicated woman. Well, she is the boss in the house.

"Come on now, dear. It is time for him to go. He will be late if we delay him more." My dad said while tugging my mom, who is still very much hugging me.

"Mom... This isn't the first I will be gone and go to college. I am in my 2nd year. And there will another 2 years to do this again. You should be used to it by now." I told her while hugging her back and kissed her temple.

Dad approached and hugged us both making it as a family hug. After a moment, we broke the hug as mom said, "I know that... But that doesn't mean I won't miss you. You know you are my ball of sunshine when I am down. You are always there for me, for us, to light up our gloomy day and cheer us up. I love you always, my sun." She sobbed as I wiped her tears away from her face.

"Mom! I am just going to college. I am not going far away nor getting married!" I told her because she was being ridiculous. "I mean, my university is only 3 hours away from here. I will visit here if I can, ok? I promise." I held out my pinky finger for her to seal my promise.

"I'll be going now mom, dad. Okay? Be safe and take care both of you. I'll call you as soon as I settled in my dorm." I told them and then I approached Nanna and hugged her.

"Nanna, please look after them. You know how workaholic they are. And also, take care, nanna. I want you to be healthy as a horse when I come back, or when I graduate someday." She laughed and smacked my back before breaking the hug.

"Even if you don't to tell me that, I would still take care both of them, and also myself. And besides, I am always healthy. I can even kick your butt out of here if I wanted to." She said while trying to jokingly kick my butt.

"Young master, your bags are all set. We should be heading out now if you wanted to settle in early." Mr. Pakorn, our chauffeur, informed us. And then went to the driver seat, waiting for me to go. "I love you, both. I'll call you when I already settled in, okay?" I kissed their cheeks and hugged them one more time before going inside the passenger seat.

I waved them goodbye as we went of the mansion's gate and I let out a sigh of relief. ‘Finally! I get to be free again! Bangkok, here I come!’

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Bright's POV

Hot air brushed my face, wiped the sweat trickling down on my forehead, and let out a big breath.

Standing near the entrance gate of Webster University, as I am gathering my shit up.

I was taken aback when someone smacked my left shoulder. I turned around and saw a grinning Foei and an about-to-cry Gunsmile.

"Bright, baby! I've missed you during summer break! Facetime isn't enough~" Gunsmile ran towards me with tear-stricken face while tightly hugging me, like his life depended on it. I quickly pushed him away when he started to kiss my neck.

"What the hell, Gunsmile! You know I hate that kind of skin-ship." I yelled, wiping his saliva-kisses on my neck.

"Come on, Bright! Cut him some slack. He really missed you. He was wailing all throughout the ride from our dorm." Foei said with a little sympathetic tone while side-hugging Gunsmile, who was pouting.

I cleared my throat and looked away. "Let's go! Freshman Orientation's going to be held at the gym. We better hurry up to save our seats.” They wounded their arms on my shoulder as we walked along the pavement towards the gym.

“Man! There will be a lot of hot chicks there." Gunsmile giggly said.

Foei and Gunsmile are the only people who can tolerate my personality. We've met in high school when I transferred in 8th grade. They were my seatmates. At first, I didn't really want anyone to bother befriending me. I was good alone. But these two are too persistent in my liking. They followed me everywhere I go and talk to me even if I ignore them. Until a particular incident happened.

I was walking towards a convenience store when suddenly, a group of bulky and muscular gangsters stopped me and asked for my wallet. Of course, I refused. I was ready to defend myself when the leader was about to hit me, but somebody kicked the guy at his right side. I was about to look at the person who kicked the guy, but the fight is already happening. So, I helped out. I kicked and punched. I was ready to punch another guy when Foei grabbed my hand and ran fast, with Gunsmile following us at the back.

We ran through alleyways I didn't know. We stopped in a very secluded part of the alleyway, panting and laughing at our faces with blue and purple bruises, cut-lips, and broken noses.

That's the first time I have friends who stuck with me, and I didn't regret to be friends them. Don't tell them that, though.

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Krist's POV

My hair whipping back and forth as I was playing the drums. We are practicing for the Freshman Orientation to introduce our Music Organization. As the Vice President of the said Org., it is also my responsibility to present the great and excellent talents our organization have. It will be a waste if not showcased.

"We'll take 15, guys." P'Guy, our vocalist announced. Everyone dispersed and sat down to take a rest, drink refreshments, or simply scrolling through their phones. As for me, "Can I go out? I want to drink my chocomilk. Please, Phi'~" I pouted and made puppy eyes. I mean, no one can refuse my puppy eyes.

P'Guy stared at me, while hesitating to allow me or not. "Fine! Fine! Just hurry up. You have... exactly 14 minutes to come back here." P'Guy looked at his watch and told me.

I grinned and ran fast out of the backstage. ‘My beloved chocomilk, I'm coming!’

"Nong Krist, kha! P'Godt is looking for you. He's at the technicals." I stopped my tracks as P'Air screamed.

"I will be there, Phi'! Just need my daily dose of chocomilk! I'm going now!" I shouted, waved my hand, and ran fast to come back on the clock.

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Bright's POV

We were about to arrive at the gym when Gunsmile's stomach grumbled loudly, making other students look at him funnily and snickered.

He chuckled shyly and touched his nape, for he was embarrassed. "I am kinda hungry. I didn't have my breakfast because I woke up late–" Gunsmiled rambled while looking down, shifting his foot.

"Fine. I'll save you guys’ seats. Just call me when you've arrived." I looked at my watch then to them. "It's still early. Maybe there are still many available seats."

"We'll be back in no time. Come! Come! I'm not joking when I said 'I'm hungry'." Gunsmile said while pulling Foei out of the hallway.

I was still standing near the entrance of the gym, looking for a perfect spot when somebody accidentally tripped and I landed on that person. I was about to curse that person, only to be stiffened and change my mind just by looking at the person with awe - white, porcelain skin that you can immediately see the red blush; plump-pink-glossy lips; those cute, round, doe eyes wherein you can see yourself melting just by staring at those; and scarlet red tinted ears that indicates that the person was shy and embarrassed at the same time.

"Oh my god! I am so, sorry! I was not paying attention and I was in a hurry -" I couldn't explain what I was feeling. Just staring at the person, and lips moving. I went out of my daydream when the person below me poked my face.

"... Hello? I really need to go because P'Godt is already calling me and I am so dead if I will not go now. Can you please get off of me?" the person pleaded with his round, doe eyes.

"I'm sorry." I said as I stood up immediately. I gave my hand and helped the person who was struggling to get up. I was relieved because not many students saw the incident happened a while ago.

"Thank you, and I'm sorry. I really need to go!" The guy shouted as he was running towards the backstage, waving his hand goodbye.

'Wow! What a great way to start the school year…' I thought internally, while a smile crept on my lips and started walking to the bleachers.

I sat down and quickly frown when I realized I just checked that guy out. I furrowed my brows when I thought that the guy, I just bumped on to was cute. ‘But you can’t deny he was cute, though…’
“Yeah… Too cute to be a guy.” I whispered to myself.

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CHAPTER 2

Krist's POV

Heart beating fast, my hands on my knees while panting and heaving when I came back at the backstage.

I calmed myself down while putting my right hand on my heart.

"Where have you been?! P'Godt has been looking for you! Come now, or else the beast will be awakened!" P'Air screamed at me frantically, grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the tech. room, where P'Godt was waiting.

"I'm sorry na, Phi'~" I apologized as we arrived.

"Yeah, yeah, save your reasons to P'Godt." She said and pushed me in.

"P'Godt! I am so, sorry I was late. I bumped into someone running here that's why I was late and my back still hurts..." I reasoned while holding the pained part on my back.

"You should've run faster. We don't have all day and we only have an hour and a half 'till the orientation starts." He said calmly as he was getting ready the sound and lights. P'Godt looked at me and sighed. He went near me, brushed my bangs out of my forehead, and wiped the sweat going down.

"Next time, bring a handkerchief with you. You still have chocomilk stains on your mouth." He said while wiping the stains at the corner of my lips.

"There. I want you to direct here for a while, while I go the org. room, if there are any trouble or things needed." He said while dusting my uniform and fixed my crooked tie. "I'll be back in a while." And he went out.

I was left there, still dumbfounded. P'Godt is very confusing sometimes. He would be mean to me when I am with somebody, but becomes calm and soft when we're alone. Is this a benefit of being his Vice Pres. of the Org.?

I shrugged my thoughts out when P'Amph went inside and asked me what to do with the sounds.

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Bright's POV

I sat on the right-side bleachers of the gym, near the stage. I stared at the door where the guy ran into. While waiting for Foei and Gunsmile, I smirked and thought what happened earlier.

Suddenly, my phone rang as Foei called me, and accepted it.

"We're almost there." Foei informed me.

"I'm the only guy here. Right side bleachers, near the stage." I told him and looked at the entrance of the gym.

They ran fast towards me, grinning widely while holding paper bags of snacks, like kids racing on who is faster than the other.

"Great choice to be in this spot. I can look for hot chicks in here." Gunsmile said, with his forefinger on his chin.

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Students, staffs, professors, and even some high-ranked administrators of the university are gathered in the gym. I was beginning to sweat due to the crowd getting bigger.

"WELCOME, FRESHMEN STUDENTS! BATCH 2017! It is a very hot day, isn't it? I apologize because of my hotness." The student MC started, fanning himself with his hand, while the student body begins to clap, howl and cheer.

"Yes! The energy is on top! I hope that energy will last until the end of the school year..." The students 'awwed’' and began chatting.

"As we begin this orientation, let's give a round of applause to the department head of Music, Performing Arts, and Communications. To the most gorgeous, Mrs. Neungjai Weerayut, for her opening speech." The MC said as he handed the podium to the department head.

While the department head was talking, I sneakily looked around the gym if I can spot that cute guy I bumped into. I stop myself and thought,
‘Why am I looking for him?!’
‘Because he needs to apologize… and you want to see him again.’  My subconscious mind argues. ‘And because he’s cute.’  I snapped back into reality when the MC talked.

"Thank you very much for that motivating speech, Mrs. Weerayut." I absentmindedly clapped as she ended her speech, still glancing around.

The MC was still introducing the faculty members and professors when Foei poked my arm to get my attention.

"What?" I asked. "Which club will you join?" He asked me curiously. "I haven't decided yet." I told him as I looked again at the stage.

This time, it was Gunsmile who nudged me and asked, "What about the cooking club? You know, at least you'll learn to cook for yourself and not depend on diners, fast-foods, and restaurants." He said, while munching on his chips.

I was about to retort when a band was playing my most-listened-song-of-the-month. I looked at the stage, and I froze. He's there, at the stage, playing drums like he owns the crowd.

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Krist's POV

My band is on stand-by here on the backstage as P'Koo, just finished introducing the staffs and professors.

"Without further ado, please give it up to the greatest band on our department, SUN ST.!" P'Koo energetically introduced our band.

"Hands in, everybody." P'Guy said as we put our hands on the center.

"Let's rock the stage and enjoy!" We raised our hands and shouted as we encouraged each other then went out on the stage.

I immediately went to the drum set and prepare. P'Guy as the main vocalist and guitarist, Pod as the second lead guitarist, Toptap in keyboard, and Bas in his bass guitar.

I raised my drumsticks as cue and, "one, two, three, four..."

*NOW PLAYING: อีกไม่นาน นานแค่ไหน - GetsunovaxThreeManDown

Being here on stage, brings an overwhelming feeling of freedom and happiness that I can't explain. Banging my head as the chorus of the song played. The feeling of my sweaty hands, gripping the drumsticks as I played, flipped my hair on the side and grinned widely as the second chorus is approaching.

Strands of hair on my forehead sticked due to sweating. When the bridge of the song was about to end, I threw one drumstick on the air and successfully caught it.

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"Thank you, thank you! We hoped you enjoyed our songs!" P'Guy bowed and thanked the crowd, who screamed and cheered.

"Indeed, a very promising performance, SUN ST." P'Koo said as he approached us while getting in line on the front.

P'Guy chuckled and started to introduce himself. "My name is Guy Sivakorn, a 4th year in music department in MPAC." (Music, Performing Arts, and Communications)

He gave the mic to Bas, "Bas Suradej, a 2nd year student, Communications department." Bas shyly smiled.

"Toptap Jirakit, 2nd year, belonged in the Performing Arts department." He smiled widely as Mike, his boyfriend and my best friend, who's at the center of the gym cheered and gave a big arm-heart. I puffed out some air and rolled my eyes. 'Ugh! What a show-off.' I thought.

"I am Pod Suphakorn, 2nd year student in Communications department." He smiled widely and the girls started screaming. That isn't surprising though, he is one of the hottest guys in our university.

I touched my now reddish-ear and shyly smiled, as I received the mic. "The name is Krist Perawat, 2nd year, and a student in Music department." I shyly said and looked at my feet when I finished introducing myself.

I love to play music on stage and share my talent to everybody, but the only thing I don't like, is to be the center of attention.

"SUN ST. band, everyone!" P'Koo introduced our band once again.

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Bright's POV

'He's ethereal.’' I thought. 'I can't stop staring at him. He looks so cute.’

Banging his head as he enjoyed playing, flipped his bangs on the side, strands of hair sticked on his forehead because of the sweat, then he smiled widely.

‘I want to pinch his chubby cheeks and touch his dimples when he smiles. His glossy and plump lips that I want to bite. Skin so white, that you can see his blushes due to the heat. I can’t get my eyes off of him, protect him like he is the most fragile person.' I smiled when he caught the drumstick on the air and continued playing.

I am still confused why I am thinking about these things. I haven't had these thoughts of liking someone – and to a guy. I mean, I don’t have against same-sex relationships, I respect them as an individual and as a human being. There’s nothing wrong with loving who you want. Love is love, it is just on the same gender, but it is still love. ‘But that doesn’t mean I am into guys, right? Does it make me… gay?!’

I look – alright, check out, other guys around me. ‘Nope. No, no, no… This is insane!’  I shuddered and shake my head to brush away the thoughts that’s creeping inside me being with another guy. It’s not me. I look at him again on the stage playing. ‘But in him... Just one look and he's the only person I focus on.’

My inner musings were interrupted when the crowd shouted, 'More! More! More!'

Even Foei and Gunsmile enjoyed the show. I sigh in relief then genuinely smiled, for the first time after –

Gunsmile suddenly shook me and said, "Oh gosh! My baby Bright is smiling! Is it the end if the world?! I don't want to die yet. I haven't found my 'the one'!" while clinging to me like a koala.

Foei caught Gunsmile as I pushed him away, straightened my shirt, and glared at him. Why do I have a friend like him? Can I slap him back-to-back if he doesn't stop teasing me?

I looked at the stage and face back at them.

"I think I know what club I am going to join." I smirked.

"...We hoped you enjoyed our songs." The vocalist started and the crowd goes, "YEEEESSSS..." enthusiastically.

"Indeed, a very promising performance, SUN ST." The MC said, as he approached them.

I looked at the drummer once again. They formed a line in front and they introduced themselves.

The vocalist chuckled and continued, "My name is Guy Sivakorn, a 4th year in music department in MPAC."

He passed the mic to the small guy. "Bas Suradej, a 2nd year student, Communications department." The small guy shyly smiled.

"Toptap Jirakit, 2nd year, belonged in the Performing Arts department." He smiled widely when a guy at the center of the crowd cheered and gave a big arm-heart.

"I am Pod Suphakorn, 2nd year student in Communications department." He smiled widely and the girls started screaming. He passed the mic to the most awaited person I want to know, which I don’t know why. ‘Confusing? Tell me about it.’

He touched his scarlet-tinted ear and shyly smiled as he received the mic. "The name is Krist Perawat, 2nd year, and a student in Music department." He shyly said and looked at his feet when he was done introducing himself.

The crowd hooted and cheered for them as they went to the backstage.

"Krist... Perawat?" I softly whispered his name. 'Cute name. Like him.'  I smiled to myself. I looked again at the backstage door if he happens to go out.

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Krist's POV

I just stepped out of the backstage door when Mike pushed me and the others aside, to go and hug his boyfriend.

"My sweety, Toptap! You were so awesome and adorable up there! I want to pinch these munchy cheeks of yours..." Mike pinched Toptap's cheeks and coo at him. "I am so proud of you, my baby boo~!" Mike continued as he kissed Toptap, who in return with eyes wide and have a very visible red blush.

I grossly shuddered at the live show. "Respect to the single community, and please..." I went towards them and broke them apart. "…there!" I dusted my hands and went ahead of them to the org. room, leaving them chuckling and followed behind.

I opened the room and dropped my tired body to the nearest sofa, laying on my stomach. "Awhh... My back hurts again..." I whined and touched my lower back. ‘I should've been more careful, than trip on to somebody. Clumsy ass!’ I internally scolded myself.

The hall was getting loud as the other members of the org went in the room chatting, laughing, and some girls are squealing loudly. I sat up straight to give space for the others to sit. P’Godt was the last one to enter and closed the doors. We tuned down as he clapped his hands loudly to get our attention.

“I am happy and so proud to all of you, who managed to pull out the orientation in a short time. To the sound and lighting technicians, to the student staffs, and to our performers. I deeply, thank you guys for making it possible. Your hard works are paid-off. Therefore, I could say, the event was a success! A round of applause to all of you.” We cheered and hooted on our success.

“Okay, okay…” we quiet down as he continued. “We already showcased our org through the orientation, all we need to do next is to find potential members who are willing, skilled, and earned to be part of this family. We’ll hold auditions next month, after we settled in our org funds and remaining works.” He looked around and stopped as he saw me. “Krist, can you stay for a while? I have something to discuss with you.” He said with his usual poker face.

“Okay, P’Godt.” As I nodded at him.

“The rest of you, you can go.” He said, as he went to his desk at the corner of the room.

“We’ll be going now, Krist.” Bas waved his hand ‘good bye’ and went out. “You still have your pepper spray, right? Be careful on your way back.” Toptap pat my back and smiled at me as he walked out, grabbed Mike’s hand, who is waiting for him outside.

“Bye. I’ll see you tomorrow!” I waved goodbye.

‘It’s been a long day! I just want to roll on my bed and sleep.’

“KRIST!” I quickly stood up and walked towards P’Godt when he screamed my name.

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CHAPTER 3

Bright's POV

Loud chattering is heard inside the cafeteria as students from the orientation swarmed the food stalls. It was almost six in the evening when we arrived here. Luckily, there was one more table available at the far-end corner. I hurriedly walked towards the table and call dibs on it when a drink was put on the table.

I looked at the person but I was engulfed into a bear hug.

"Bright! I can't believe I get to see you here! I thought you would be in Harvard, Yale, or in any university abroad." As she broke the hug and looked at me.

"Gigie...! I don't know you would also be here." I said, shocked, and still in a trance of what happened.

"How come you're here? I thought your father declared that you would be studying abroad? Did you finally have the guts to rebel?!" She excitedly asked me with sparkle in her eyes.

I looked away and cleared my throat. "Anyway, let me reserve this table. I'm with my friends. They are still ordering." I said, still not looking at her.

"Friends? You mean…wait, Foei and Gunsmile are also here? Wow!" Surprise visible in her face and smiled. "Treat them well. They stuck with you and your hot-tempered, rude ass." She said and smacked my head.

"GIGIE~!"

We looked at Gunsmile who ran fast towards us while holding our drinks. He quickly put the drinks on the table and hugged Gigie, rocking her side-to-side.

With Foei following behind, he put down the food on the table and hugged Gigie next.

"I am so happy you both are also here!" She excitedly said.

"This is a great reunion and all, but can we sit down now? I'm famished." I sat down and started to eat the rice and curry they ordered for me.

They also sat down and chatted away. They would include me in their conversations, but I was not that interested.

I met Gigie through Foei and Gunsmile in high school. I wouldn't say we're close, but we're friends. I don't hate her nor dislike her. When I first met Gigie, Foei and Gunsmile tried to put us up on a blind date. I tried to make it through the date, but that's just it. We don't like each other that way so, we ended it nicely and remained friends.

"I didn't know you would study here. What course did you get in to?" Foei asked Gigie as he stuff chicken into his mouth.

"Well, I am proud to say that I got into College of Architecture and Design." She smiled happily and drank from her iced coffee.

"What about you guys? Are you in the same college faculty?" She asked.

"Yes, but different departments. You see, Foei here, is the only one from the Performing Arts, while Bright and yours truly, in Music department." Gunsmile said and proudly smacked his chest with his hand.

"Foei... Performing Arts? Really?" Gigie questioningly looked at Foei as she can't believe him.

"You really have no trust in me, do you?" Foei asked, eyes starting to water with trembling lips.

"No! No! That's not what I meant. I mean, I just thought you would be in a different department..." She held Foei's hand as she whispered the last part.

I just shook my head in their antics and continued to drink.

Foei wiped his eyes and continued to stuff food in his mouth, leaving Gigie confused.

"Oh! My apologies, Gigie. That was called 'acting'." Foei said as a matter-of-factly and raised his eyebrow.

Gunsmile just laughed while Gigie removed her hand and glared at Foei, who is still busy eating.

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Dim lights were seen outside the cafeteria when we went out. It was already half-past six in the evening. Students are still inside the campus, either complying their remaining requirements, go to the cafeteria to eat dinner, or do their club/org activities.

We dropped Gigie into her dorm building.

"It has been great meeting you guys. Unexpectedly." Gigie said as she started to hug us one by one. "Chat me if you guys want to hang out some time." She winked and head towards the door. She looked back and waved us goodbye.

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Foei and Gunsmile rode a taxi going to their dorm building after they dropped me in mine.

"Good evening, sir. Had a pleasant day?" Mr. Anuchit, the security guard, asked and smiled.

I looked at him, "It was..." I stopped and absentmindedly smiled as I thought of the cute guy earlier. His doe eyes, chubby cheeks, cute dimples, plump lips, and red-tinted ears. I snapped out of my thought when Anuchit chuckled.

"I'd say, you had a very interesting day." He said and grinned widely, showing his white teeth.

I just looked down so he cannot see the blush, which I know is visible, when I am teased.

I awkwardly smiled at him and hurriedly went inside. 'Why do I have to blush every time I think of him. He's a guy, for pete's sake!’

“You think I didn’t know that, dumbass?!” I scold myself as I went inside the elevator.

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Krist's POV

It was already quarter-past six in the evening when P'Godt and I finished discussing on what to prepare for the auditions next month. It is better to prepare earlier than cram when the deadline is approaching.

I messaged Mike if he and Toptap had eaten already, but they had a romantic date in their favorite restaurant, 6 blocks away from the university. They said I can join them if I want to, but I politely declined. I mean, I don't want to impose them and besides, it's their date. I don't want to eat being their third-wheel while looking at them being all lovey-dovey in front of my food. I shivered just the thought of them.

I called Bas if he hasn’t eaten yet, but he went home because his mom cooked his favorite dishes. Lucky bastard.

Lastly, I called Pod if he was available but luck isn't on my side. He was on middle of a reunion dinner with his high school buddies and he can't cancel. He said he was sorry and will make it to me, which I declined and told him I was fine.

I would have called Janhae, but I think, she is still settling down on her dorm room. She just recently moved and there are still things left and needed to unpack. We could have helped her yesterday, but she all declined and says she has hired helpers to give her a hand.

I sighed loudly as I pocketed my phone and walked towards the cafeteria. It was still early in the evening so a lot of students are having their dinners. I went to my favorite drinking stall first to order my chocomilk and went beside the next stall to order my dinner, which is non-spicy chicken curry. I can't really handle spicy food. It doesn't suit my taste. As I got my order, I walked straight ahead and sat at the far end-corner of the cafeteria. I hurriedly ate my food because I am not used in eating alone.

As I got inside my dorm room, I put my chocomilk on the fridge then directly slumped my tired and aching body on to the bed.

'Ugh! I need a massage... or spa... or anything to soothe this aching body...'

My alarm rang at 8 in the evening. I forced my body to stand up. I got my towel and clothes and went to the bathroom and freshen up.

I went out of the bathroom, drying my hair with a towel and got a chocomilk from the fridge.

'Aah... The only medicine that I need.' I thought when I sipped the beverage that touched my tongue.

I went and sat on my bed, my head on the headboard, sipping on my drink, and grabbed my glasses and phone. I scrolled through Instagram and saw pictures from the event earlier. Students praising our performance, lots of pictures of Pod and P'Guy with the hashtag #SUNST.hotties. Then there's us – Bas, Toptap and me with the hashtag #SUNST.cutieboos, with bear emojis.

I scrolled further until I saw a familiar guy on a post.

Likes: 29.6k    Comments: 34.1k   Shares: 16.8k

@itsmekatttt0320: Is it just me, or this freshman is super-hot? 🔥 If there's someone who knew him, please comment below. Juseyo~ Keomapda~! 🙏

#FreshmanHottieInUniv

I stared at the photo if it was surely him. Wow! It was only the orientation yet, he's popular already. I looked at the comments if somebody knew him but unfortunately, there was none. 'Maybe I'll meet him someday and I'll properly apologize for my clumsy ass.'

I liked and saved some of our pictures before I got up, threw the plastic cup on the trash bin, went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and went to bed. I have a rather busy day the next day and I can't afford to lose my sleep.

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Bright's POV

Walking towards the campus with the sun wide out but chilly air, kicking small rocks on my way, while playing with the sling on my bag. It's early in the morning but there are already students inside the university.

I passed by the Performing Arts building when I started to notice the other students, mostly girls, stare, whispering something, and point at me. Some even started to smile and giggle, looking at me. Well, I couldn't care less. If they will not approach and bother me, I'm good. I took my time to go to my first class as it was still early.

I was about to go inside the room, when I heard someone strumming a guitar, singing with the most angelic and soothing voice I've heard, in the opposite room.

*NOW PLAYING: คนไม่จำเป็น - Getsunova

Curiosity kills the cat, so I slowly sneak in to the room to peak who's inside. To my surprise, it was that cute drummer from the orientation who bumped into me. I leaned on the door frame, tilted my head, smiling while looking at him. Playing in his heart's content, he smiles, closed his eyes, singing the song like it is the only thing that matters in the moment. He suddenly stopped and slowly looked my way with wide eyes. I quickly straightened my posture and fixed my shirt. I couldn't handle the uncomfortable silence so I cleared my throat and started to talk.

"Uhh... Nice voice." 'Nice voice? Really!? How lame are you?'  To say I was embarrassed is an understatement.

He shyly chuckled, touched his reddened ears and muttered, "Thanks..." was enough to feel the unexplainable tingles on my stomach. ‘Why am I always feeling unexplainable things when he is involved?!’

I nodded and was about to go out when he stopped me.

"Wait!" He got up, put down his guitar on one of the chairs, walked towards me and stopped 2 feet away.

"Uhh... I'm sorry but, uhm..." He looked down, scratched his nose, then touched his nape and continued, "I would like to properly apologize about what happened in the gym the other day." He said while glancing up at me and quickly looked down when our eyes met. 'How cute.'

I look away, a smile crept on my face. The thundering heartbeats on my chest wouldn't calm down if I keep staring at him. ‘What the fuck’s happening to me?!’

I cleared my throat, looked at him again when I regained my composure.

"Don't worry about it. It was an accident. It can happen to anybody." I assured him.

He looks up and relief visible on his face. He smiled widely, with his perfect small, white teeth, dimples on both sides of his cheeks, and crinkled eyes hiding from his bangs.

"Thank you so much! I thought I have to buy you a meal for me to convince you to forgive me." He excitedly said while holding my wrist.

My stomach my was doing somersaults. I don't know what to say. I think my brain just short-circuited. So, I just stood there, glancing at his hand, holding my now very white wrist, because of his grip. ‘Why are you doing this to me?’

"I… uhhh… I…" I gulped as I started to stutter. I slowly removed my left hand and caressed the part where he gripped.

I sneakily glanced at him and gulped, "I... uhm... A... A meal would be nice...?" I said, unsure if he would accept.

"Oh. I thought, you already forgive me so I think, I don't have to treat you." His tone crestfallen, as he didn't expect the response.

"No! No. It's not that." I immediately denied. I brushed my hair up and looked at him. "A meal is great, don't worry. Nothing fancy, just casual." ‘Are you fucking sure you’re up for that?! You can’t even talk straight when he’s near you, and now a meal?! With him?!’

He nodded and took out his phone. "When and where do you want to go? Do you want to go tonight? Or maybe tomorrow? We can go lunch if you prefer that way. Can I have your IG account, or you prefer LINE?" He asked hurriedly, that I couldn't get what he was saying. He looked up at me, waiting for me to answer.

My head tilted, brows furrowed, lips slightly parted, confusion written all over my face, with question marks flying around me.

He sighed and take out his hand with an open palm.

"Just give me your phone." He spoke.

I slowly took out my phone, still confused, and he quickly snatched my phone, typed away and returned to me when his phone rang.

"There. I already saved my number and we already followed each other in IG and LINE. If you also want to, I can also add you on Facebook, if you have one." He smiled and went to get his guitar and bag.

He passed by me and about to go out when he stopped and looked back at me. "Just message me ahead of time if you want to have your 'apology meal'." He pats my shoulder and swiftly went out of the door. ‘What was that? What just happened?’  I asked, still baffled.

I look at my phone and smiled, his name and number plastered on the screen. Frowning, after I realized when I just stood here, feeling like a school girl who’s talking to the guy she liked. “Ugh!” I facepalmed myself of how dorky and stupid I was. I groaned as I rubbed my face with my hand. “Stupid! Idiot! Motherfucker!” I muttered to myself.

Exactly the bell rang indicating that the first class will begin. I hurriedly went to the opposite door and looked for a vacant seat. I sat at the second to the last row, second column from the left, facing the lecturer.

I went in early but I was almost late. And I thanked God I wasn’t. Next time, no distractions. i looked around when I didn’t see Gunsmile. ‘Where the fuck was that bastard?!’

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Krist's POV

The bell rang exactly at half-past five in the afternoon, implying that it was the end of my last class.

"Everyone! Just to remind you that your activity next week will be a ballad song that you originally compose." Ms. Shelby announced to the class before going out.

Putting away my things into the bag, my phone lit up with a message from P'Godt.

From: Pres. P'Godt

P'Godt: Krist, don't forget we'll have a briefing this 6pm with the other officers regarding the upcoming Music Org. auditions. I want you here earlier.

Quickly responded, 'Noted, Phi.', before rushing out the door to the meeting room

The hallway going to the Org room was barely empty, as students was still having their classes, so I arrived there earlier than I expected. P'Godt, P'Guy, and P'Air was already inside, so I quickly went to a vacant seat beside P'Guy. Not any longer when P'Than and P'Dech went inside and Pod followed behind.

Yes. The 'Oh-so-hot' Pod is also an officer. He's the PIO. P'Godt the president, P'Air was the Secretary, P'Guy as the Finance Manager or let's just say, the Treasurer, P'Than as the Auditor, P'Dech as the Tech. Director, and yours truly, the 'ever-responsible' VP.

Without delay, P'Godt straightly went to start our briefing.

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CHAPTER 4

Krist's POV

"First thing next week when the creatives group finalizes the posters, we'll post the posters on every announcement and bulletin boards, and we'll have our shifts in flying out posters. The more students audition, the better. We'll not settle for less this year. This is open for all MPAC students so, we'll be scattered all around our faculty. I think that's all. You can all go."

It was already dark outside when we finished. I can't wait to drink my chocomilk.

"Krist, they're already at the shabu-shabu nearby. Janhae's also there." Pod said draping his arm on my shoulder.

"You know that I am not your walking cane, and your arm's heavy." I scoffed as he gets my bag from my shoulder and swings it in his.

"We'll go to the cafeteria first. I want to buy chocomilk before going there." I looked at him and pouted.

"Even if you won't pout, I will still go with you. Now, come on. It's getting late." Pod said as he pushed me in front, his hands both on my shoulders.

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Pod and I went to the stall to buy chocomilk before meeting with our friends

"Phi, khrap. My usual, please. Thank you." I said excitedly, while paying her. I suddenly flinched when some girls nearby squealed loudly.

The girls inside started chattering loudly, making the whole cafeteria noisy.

"Oh my god! It's that guy from the freshman orientation!" Short-haired girl spoke.

"He's so hot, damn! I bet there would be six-pack abs underneath that shirt." Purred the wavy-haired girl.

"I wish he doesn't have a girlfriend, yet. Everyone would be heartbroken if that happens." Said the braces girl.

I was about to look at the person when Pod grabbed my arm and chocomilk then went out of the cafeteria.

Wind flipping my hair up, as the night breeze brushed my face.

"Pod, why did we suddenly get out?" I asked, confused.

He looked at me and said, "Because it was getting crowded, your chocomilk was already done, our friends waiting, and I'm starving." While hailing a cab and quickly pushed me inside, him following behind.

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We arrived at the shabu-shabu place in no time. Pod already paid the driver and went straight to the place, with me following behind him, still holding my wrist like I am a kid who will be easily lost.

As we went inside, chattering, utensils clanking, smoke everywhere, and the food smells so good, that I touched my tummy with my free hand when I felt my stomach growling.

"Pod! Krist! Here!" We whipped our heads to the left when we heard Janhae's loud voice and saw her waving her hand. Pod and I smiled, then he held my wrist tightly, when I was about to pull my wrist from his grip. I look around the place when I felt people staring and whispering, looking at Pod’s hand gripping my wrist. I furrowed my brows, confused as to why people are looking at us weirdly. I just brushed it off and followed Pod silently as we went to our table.

Mike, Toptap, Bas, and Janhae were already seated. They already ordered for us so we can eat immediately. Pod put both our bags down and pulled a chair for me beside Mike and he sat in front of me, beside Jan.

Janhae is the only girl in our group and in a different faculty.

I met Janhae when Mike and I were in our first year highschool. She was the popular 'It-Girl' that everybody loves. She is tall, slender, beautiful, wavy hair, bow-lips and screams 'Angel-from-heaven'.

But looks can be very deceiving. You see, she's a devil incarnate and nope, not figuratively, but literally. She looks kind and innocent on the outside, but she can manipulate and control you with her evil ways with that face. I, for one, was a victim. Even Mike.

We wouldn't go down memory lane with her evilness so, no. Not going to share. But even if she is like that, she is always confident, true to herself, would fight for you, and is very faithful. Yes, she is one of a kind.

After Janhae, we met Bas on the 3rd year of high school when he transferred to our school. We found him on an empty room, sobbing on the floor, hair disheveled, bruised left cheek, broken nose, and three buttons up missing.

We helped him out and went to the nearest hospital. Mike asked him what happened and he just looked down, afraid of being judged. Janhae knelt in front of Bas, cupped both his cheeks and asked, looking directly into his eyes, "Bas, tell us what happened, or I swear to God--" she stopped when Bas hugged her and cried loudly on her shoulder. She pats his back and whispered calming words in his ears. Mike and I looked at each other, then hugged both of them.

When Bas was calm enough, we broke the hug, he was still sobbing, wiping furiously the tears still flowing from his eyes. I gave him a bottle of water to calm him down.

"I... I don't k-know them..." he whispered lowly while looking down. He looked up at us, cleared his throat, then spoke more clearly, "I was just going to the restroom when somebody pushed me inside the classroom. They were five guys. I asked them what they want, when suddenly the guy from the middle pulled my collar and shouted that they despised faggots like me..." he whispered the last few sentences.

"What?! Just because of that, they beat the shit out of you?!" Janhae asked, infuriate. I, was also, speechless that there are still people with that kind of mindset in this modern time. Things change and evolve over time.

"Describe these guys and leave everything to us. We'll handle it." Janhae stood up, her hands on her slim waist, clicking her shoes on the floor, waiting for Bas to describe them.

Bas described them one-by-one, until we got a picture of who the offenders were.

Janhae didn't say anything when Bas was done talking, so I looked at her, she was grinning evilly with glint of mischievous eyes. I just facepalmed myself to hide the frightened feeling.

The next day, those guys were transferred to another school. If I knew better, they can't walk properly for the next two-three months, tops.

We met Pod and Toptap when we enrolled here in the university. Pod and Toptap are friends. I study in the Music department, Mike in Performing arts, Bas in Communications, and Janhae in Faculty of Architecture and Design. Mike and Toptap are block mates, so they have most of their classes together, wherein their love story blooms. I feel like gagging just by thinking about them. Pod and Bas have classes together. We became close when we auditioned for the Music Org. except Mike and Janhae.

So yeah, that's the story of how our gang began.

I snapped out of my flashback when Janhae forces a meat into my mouth. So, I opened my mouth to accept it. I smiled as a thank you.

"We're here to catch up, not to daydream about fairies and wizards in a musical play" she sassily said as she continued to eat. Leaving them laughing at me, who is visibly blushing as my face heated up when I'm embarrassed.

"You don't have to point it out, you know." I scoffed and picked a piece of meat. As they laughed out more. I looked at them and smiled. I am glad that they are part of my life.

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Bright's POV

Exactly seven in the evening when we were dismissed with our last class. I turned to Gunsmile to tell him to message Foei that we’re having our dinner at the cafeteria.

“Already on it. He says he’s already there and food’s waiting for us. Come on! I am already famished with all the lectures we had thw whole day.” Gunsmile basically rambled and walked faster. The hallways were already dark with dim lights around.

As we arrived at the entrance of the cafeteria, I winced when girls started to squeal loudly. I looked around when I spotted Foei waving at us. I fastened my pace towards him, following Gunsmile behind and sat beside Foei with Gunsmile in front of us. I put down my bag and began to scoop rice when Gunsmile and Foei looked at each other, then stared slyly at me. I slowly put down my spoon and look at them.

"What?" I asked them blankly. I am also starving but they didn't start to eat yet.

"Hello to you, too. Mr. Popular~" Foei teasingly said.

I rolled my eyes and about to smack his head when Gunsmile held my hand, also smiling slyly at me.

I scoffed and took my spoon again eat. They also started to eat while poorly sneaking glances at me. I sighed and swallowed the food.

"Tell us, how does it feel to be Mr. Popular?" Foei asked, and winked at me.

"What the hell are you talking about?" I glared at him at his silly question.

"You don't know?! How could you not know? You were all over IG since the freshman orientation." Gunsmile said, getting his phone out, scrolling and put the phone near my face. I leaned back to see clearly what they were talking about.

"Oh. That explains this morning. So?" I asked, whipped his phone away from me, and continued to eat.

"So?" "This morning?" They both asked the same time.

I stared at them blankly, then resume to eat. They look at each other then also continue to eat.

“So, that explains why you were on your phone the whole day and why you were late in our first class?” I asked Gunsmile. He sheepishly smiled and looked at Foei beside me. I was also thankful earlier that he wasn’t present at that time so I get to talk to the cute drummer and also have his number.

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We went our separate ways when they dropped me at my dorm, since my dorm is closer to the university. I went inside the dorm building when I noticed that it was not Anuchit's shift tonight.

I went out the elevator and walked towards my door, slid my keycard and went inside. I put down my bag on the sofa and went straight to the bedroom. I got my clothes and went to the shower to freshen up. I sighed and relaxed when the warm water hits my face. It was a very long day and I needed this.

Thinking of what happened earlier. I could say that I am attracted to him, romantically, which is unexplainable. I've never thought that I am into guys, not until he came into the picture. Okay, not 'guys' in general, just him in particular.

But why him? Why does it have to be a guy? There are a lot of girls – cute girls, sexy girls, hot girls, and even all of those mentioned – why him?!

I close my eyes and start to imagine him in my mind to at least answer some of these questions lingering in my head as to why I am this attracted to him, and why only him.

Well for one, he is cute – like extremely cute – too cute for a guy. He has this smile that can light up your gloomy day. His dimples peeking on each side of his cheeks. Porcelain-skin glowing that complements his scar on his right cheek. Hazelnut, doe, round orbs. Sharp, pointy nose. Prominent jaw. And his lips… his luscious lips that is very inviting. ‘Okay now, we’re getting off topic.’

Well, he’s also shy, innocent and acts like a kid sometimes, smart, kind, has a very beautiful and soothing voice I’ve ever heard, he also likes music, he plays drums like a rockstar and it is damn hot! ‘Great! Now, I am starting to get hard. Fuck!’

But it still doesn't explain why it is just him. He’s not the only person who could do all those things! ‘Yeah, but he is the only person with all those things.’

This is getting complicated. If I am into him, that means there is a possibility that I could like other guys, right? But it is disgusting and gross when I think of other guys.

Alright, what about my friends?

There is Foei – smaller than me in at least a couple of inches, tanned skin, facial beard all over, well-built and muscular, more mature among us three, papa bear among the group, can be sneaky, funny and slow at times.

Then, there is Gunsmile – taller than Foei but I am taller than him for a centimeter, white-skinned, lean but muscly. Witty, too witty at his own good. He may be the goofball of the group but don't let that confuse you, it's just his facade.

They are both loving and caring in their own ways. I like them. But not in the way that I would want to kiss them like P'Krist – ‘wait, kiss?! Yuck! No! Now, where did that come from?! I don't want to kiss my friends! I rarely even hug them, and to kiss them?!’

I didn't say I don't want to kiss P'Krist - his pinkish, plump, glossy lips, like inviting me to bite them – ‘Okay, hold up... Mind out of the gutter.’

My friends and P'Krist are different. I like my friends, platonically. I like P'Krist, romantically. ‘Wow. Okay so, I just really confirmed to myself that I like him, and let's say I make move, do I have a chance? Does he even like guys? Will he even like me?’

‘Ugh! This is fucking confusing.’ My head is spinning and is aching with these thoughts going in my head.

When the water turned cold, I hurriedly finished and brushed my teeth.

I went out, drying my hair with a towel and sat on my desk to check out the upcoming deadlines if I missed something or not. I glance on my laptop, hesitating to open it. I turned and quickly opened my laptop, in hoping not to stall, clicking on Google and search:

I’m a guy but I only like a particular guy.

I scrolled down, reading any possible answers on my situation. All of the answers that people responded on a certain site are almost identical. With a guy liking a guy, probably gay. A guy or girl liking both guy and girl, bisexual. A girl liking girl, lesbian. But there is this one particular sentence caught my attention. I clicked the site.

“It doesn’t matter whether if you are a man or a woman, trans, lesbian or gay – if you like someone, just that particular person, regardless of their gender, you may be pansexual. Pansexual means people may refer to themselves as gender-blind, asserting that gender and sex are not determining factors in their romantic or sexual attraction to others, that is according to Wikipedia.

This may not be applicable to others, but I think it is the safest way to identify yourself if you are still confused. Don’t rush in to things. It will come in to you in the right time. Although, genders are not the bases if we love someone. Love comes in unexpected places in unexpected times. We cannot control nor predict how we love, or who we love. It just happens. Love works in mysterious ways.

To the person reading this, I wish you happiness, to you and the person you love at this moment. There may be obstacles and difficulties in this generation with close-minded people and society. No matter what happens, protect and cherish your love one and your relationship. And for those who are still seeking for their other halves, I hope you’ll find your love someday.”

I closed my laptop when I finished reading the article. I exasperatedly sigh and rub my face with the towel. ‘Me…? Pansexual?’ I couldn’t deny what I just read. It makes sense with what I am encountering right now.

I hanged my towel when I feel my hair was dry enough, I turned off the light and turned on the night lamp. I dropped my body on the bed, bouncing, lying on my stomach then groaned loudly.

I took out my phone and hovered on P’Krist's number, contemplating whether to message him or not. I bit lower lip when I clicked his IG account. I can't help but to smile. I scrolled through his posts when I come up a picture of him and a beautiful girl, clinging on him, both of them smiling at the camera.

I don't know why but I felt something I can't describe on my chest.

I closed the app and lie on my back, arm on my forehead, eyes staring at the dimly lit ceiling, thinking of a certain person why I feel things when I see him, when he touched me, or just even think of him. But that picture of him with that girl brings another uncomfortable feeling in me that I just can't simply explain. My head is starting to ache with all the things I discovered today about myself and it is tiring. I sighed loudly, closed my eyes to sleep.

'Tomorrow will be another day.'

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CHAPTER 5

Krist's POV

It has been a week since that day when I met Bright. Yes. I already know his name. I mean, he is all over social media with fan girls and stuff. The guy got some potential girls lining up for him.

I am in the cafeteria with Pod, Bas, Mike, and Toptap.

They were laughing at something Mike said when a message popped out of my phone.

From: Bright🌞

Bright🌞: Hi, P'Krist. It's me, Bright. If you still remember me. I was wondering if the meal you offered is still up. I guess a casual dinner would be nice. You choose the time and place. Just message me if you've decided already. Thanks. :)

I didn't know I smiled when Bas pinched my cheeks and grinned at me.

"Who's that? Who message you that you look like a creep, smiling to yourself, when we called you many times?" Bas said, still pinching my cheeks, which starting to hurt.

I removed his hands and massaged my pained cheeks. I glared at him and said, "No one." I stick out my tongue and replied an 'Okay' to Bright, quickly put my phone to my pocket and continue to eat.

"Oh ho... Somebody texted Krist and we don't know who? Hmm... that's suspicious." Mike said, while putting his finger in his chin and looks up, like he is thinking deeply.

I rolled up my eyes when they started to discuss who I am changing messages with. I mean, am I not allowed to have someone text me without them knowing who it is?

"Just stop! Really guys, it's no one. You don't have to bother." I said sternly looking at them.

"Okay, okay. It's nothing." Pod said, while ruffling my hair. I smiled at him thankfully, then fixed my hair. I looked at the others and point my fork to them. "Be like Pod. He's understanding."

"More like he's under you. Whipped ass." Mike whispered something but I didn't clearly hear what he said. "Ow!" He yelped and caressed the side of his stomach when Pod elbowed him and glared.

I looked at them confused, but Pod just smiled at me and Mike forcedly smiled. I just shrug then continue to eat. I thought about the meal so I am thinking when and where we would eat dinner with Bright.

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Bright's POV

We are at a crowded fast-food chain, because Gunsmile was craving for a big-ass burger and fries. Foei on the other hand want some burritos and pizza. I just had chicken wings and some onion rings.

They were bickering about the difference between hamburger and chicken sandwich. I just shake my head and munch on my onion rings, when I realized I haven't messaged P'Krist about the meal, yet. I was hesitating if the offer was still available or not. So, I just held on to phone, watching it from time-to-time.

When I got the courage, I messaged him quickly, without thinking much, and hit send. I put down my phone and hurriedly dip my chicken wing and ate it. Chewing it slowly when my phone pinged. I swallowed and looked at the message, I bit my lower lip when a smile was forming on my lips, when the message read, ‘Okay’.

“You know, you can smile if you’re really happy.” Foei said while chewing on his pizza.

“Oohhh… So, someone is making you happy~” Gunsmile teasingly smiled at me, wiggling his eyebrows.

“Who says I’m happy?” I blankly asked them.

I put my phone in my pocket and continue to much on my food, ignoring the two. I look at my watch, lunchbreak was almost over.

“We better hurry up. First class is going to start soon.” I said, cleaning my hands with table napkin and wiped my mouth, with them doing the same thing.

Loud honking of cars, people walking and running to their destinations, typical busy streets in Bangkok. Luckily, the traffic moved on as we went inside a cab, going to the university.

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A quarter to four in the afternoon when Gunsmile and I went to the cafeteria to kill some time before the next class starts, and also because he was hungry.

“Bright, what do you want?” Gunsmile asked me while browsing through the stall’s menu.

“Milkshake is fine.” I said, looking for a table. Gunsmile held my arm and opened his palm.

“Money down.” Wiggling his fingers.

“Pay for me.” Quickly turned around before he could ask me again, when I felt something cold splashed on me. Large dark-brown stain in the middle of my shirt, cold and sticky.

I was about to scold the offender, but then I saw his face. Shocked, wide, glossy eyes – as he was about to cry, mouth open apart, half-chocomilk in his hand, some dripping down to the floor.

“P-P’Krist…” I stuttered, looking at him, helpless.

“Bright? What’s going on?” Gunsmile asked as he scanned at the situation.

“I am so, sorry, Bright! Again!” P’Krist said as he got a handkerchief from his pocket and tried to wipe the stains from my shirt and arms.

People are starting to gather round and whisper about the incident. I turned to Gunsmile and said, “I’ll meet you at class later.” I didn’t bother to wait for his reply. I grabbed P’Krist’s wrist and dragged him out of the cafeteria, away from people’s prying eyes.

We were walking towards my dorm building when he suddenly asked. “B-Bright? Wh-Where are you t-taking me?” Looking back at him, his eyes, worried.

I chuckled as we went inside the building, him following behind, still holding his wrist.

Thank heavens! There weren’t many people inside the building.

We were silent the whole way to my dorm room. My heart was beating so fast and loud when we arrived at my door, scared that he could hear it. I slid my keycard, opened my door and went inside, grabbing him.

“Why did you bring me here?” He asked as I put down my bag, my back facing him.

“I’m sorry that I brought you here. This was the only place I could think of that is safe, away from prying eyes and rumors spreading. Besides, I needed to change.” I turn to face him. “Sit down, make yourself comfortable.” I quickly went to the closet, got some clothes, then went in the bathroom.

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Feeling refreshed, wearing gray shirt and black sweatpants, I got out of the bathroom when a soothing voice filled my room, accompanied with a guitar. I went out and the scene before me, amazed me. P’Krist on my sofa, in his white wife-beater and black pants, strumming the guitar, closing his eyes, feeling the song that I haven’t heard before.

My heart beating fast, tingles in my stomach, my pants tighten forming a tent, feeling hot and embarrassed.

“Bright!”

I quickly hid my tent with my hands in front of it.

“Huh?” I answered, still in a haze.

“I said, I didn’t know you could play. I thought you’re more into acting or modelling, since you’re a performing arts student, right?” he asked, still holding onto the guitar.

“Actually, I’m from the Music department, music major.” I said, slowly calming myself, sat on the sofa in front of P’Krist, throw pillow on my lap.

“Really?! So, you’re a junior of mine… I wouldn’t know if you didn’t tell me. With your face, your build, your aura, the number of followers you have, anyone can tell that you belong to the performing arts department.” he said, skeptical.

I smiled and leaned back. “Yeah, I get that a lot.”

“You should audition for the music org! We’re having auditions for those MPAC students who are willing to be part of the org, who wants to present and showcase their musical talents.” He said enthusiastically.

“I was planning to. With a friend of mine, also from the music department.” I thought of Gunsmile, whom I left behind in the cafeteria. I’ll just message him later.

“The audition’s in two weeks. You still have time to prepare. I could help you with the song selection. Do you already have a song in mind?” He asked.

“No… It’s okay, Phi’. I think I can manage.” I declined, waving my hands.

He pouted and turned towards the guitar and play.

The atmosphere was chill and relaxed, him playing and humming. I, on the other hand, checking him out from his straight, hazelnut, brown hair, covering his eyes; shaped, dark eyebrows; long eyelashes emphasized as he was closing his eyes; long, pointy nose; chubby, cute cheeks, accented with a near-invisible scar on his right cheek; pink, plump, glossy lips; sharp, prominent jawline; milky-white neck, veins visible; arms not-so-muscular, but muscles are there; and his long hands, expertly strumming my guitar.

I went out of my stupor, wiped the beads of sweat forming on my forehead, and put pressure on the throw pillow on my lap as my hard-on was getting hard more.

P’Krist suddenly stop playing and turned to me. “Don’t you have class?” He asked as he looked at his watch. “It’s 4:56pm. I thought you still have your last class.”

“N-no… I, uh... I d-don’t think s-so…” I stammered, denying. I quickly took my phone out and messaged Gunsmile.

To: Gun😊

Bright: I don’t think I can go to class. Can you give me your notes later? I’ll explain. Got to go. Don’t call.

Immediately hit the send button and put down the phone. P’Krist eyed me suspiciously for a moment, then continue to play.

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Krist's POV

Music filled the room with me playing. Bright in front of me, typing away fast on his phone and quickly put down after. I look at him skeptically, but he was saying nothing so, I just shrugged it off and continue to strum.

I don’t know how many minutes passed by when I remembered why I was here and in this situation. I slowly put the guitar on its stand beside and turn to Bright in front.

“Bright?” I called, embarrassed to look at him.

“Yes, P’Krist?”

“I w-would like to a-apologize of what happened earlier and also the incident at the gym. I would like to apologize for being a klutz and caused you so much trouble. I’m sorry.” My head bowed down and hands clasped together.

“No. Don’t worry about it.” He said, shaking his head and waving his hands. “All of it was purely an accident and I didn’t blame you for that, and it can happen to anyone. Be happy that it was me and not somebody else.” I smiled at him.

I diverted my gaze outside the window. Purple and orange hue painted on the sky, street lights starting to light up. I look at my watch, eighteen minutes past six in the evening.

“How about that meal I owe you?” I asked.

He pursed his lips and slightly nodded. I put on my shirt and stood up. “Come on! We could have an early dinner.”

Bright stood up, still holding the throw pillow. “Let me change first.”

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CHAPTER 6

Krist's POV

Gleaming lights, pop music heard on the speakers, people walking aimlessly, typical occurrence inside a mall.

“So, where do you want to eat? Do you prefer something?” I asked Bright.

“Anywhere you want, I’m good.” Him looking around.

“Are you sure? This is the meal that I owed you for giving you so much trouble. So, it is only right you pick where you like to eat.” Walking slowly, looking for restaurants.

“P’Krist, what about there?” he asked, pointing a restaurant with his lips. I smiled and nodded. I grabbed his arm, walked towards the Chinese restaurant he chose. “Let’s go!”

We went inside the restaurant and was welcomed by a waiter. He led us to a 2-sitter table near the glass window, viewing the people walking around.

Bright ordered a spicy meatball noodle with two mantou. I chose a mild-spicy noodles with three dumplings on the side.

“Any drinks, sir?” The waiter asked. I glance at Bright for him to order first.

“Just an iced-tea for me.” Bright said and looked at the waiter. He smirked, moved his tightened jaw. I also turned to the waiter, but I was stunned when the waiter smiled and winked at me. I closed and slowly gave him the menu and awkwardly smiled back at him.

“The same for me. Thanks.” He bowed and walked away.

I glance at Bright again. Eyes glowering outside, brows furrowed, jaws clenching. I held his fisted hands, knuckles turning white.

“Hey, are you okay?” I asked him, worried. It was like he was ready to explode any second. He took a deep breath and exhaled. “I’m fine.” He said and stare at our now intertwined hands. He smiled widely at me so, I had to gaze away from his intense stares, feeling myself heat up.

I jumped in my seat and took my hand from Bright when the waiter loudly cleared his throat, announcing that he arrived. He put down our orders. “Enjoy.” He blandly said and walked away. ‘Oh…kay...? What was his problem?’

Bright chuckled at me. I realized that he can see the confusion written on my face. “Don’t worry about it.” He assured. He gave me chopsticks and we started to eat.

It was comfortable having Bright. It wasn't awkward nor bad. I didn't expect we'll have a good time. "Do you want to go back now, or do you still want to do something?" Bright asked as we got out of the restaurant.

"Hmm..." I tilted my head, thinking. "I'm craving for something... sweet." I glance at him as he looks at me. "What do you have in mind?" He asked. "Can we have ice cream? I've been craving for ice cream for the last two days." I pouted. "Okay. I can eat some ice cream."

We walked to an ice cream parlor and went to the counter.

"Hi! I'll have a chocomilk flavored ice cream and he'll have..." I looked back at Bright, who's scanning through the menu. "I'll have the coffee almond crumbles." He ordered. "That'll be 70 baht, sir." The cashier spoke.

I was about to hand the bank notes when Bright beat me to it. "I'll pay for it. I was the one who wanted to eat it." I argued. "Yeah, but you already paid for the meal. Let me at least pay for the ice cream. It's not that big of a deal." He shrugged and put his hands in his pockets.

I scoffed. "1 chocomilk ice cream and 1 coffee almond crumbles." The cashier announced as we received the ice cream. I smiled excitedly. "Thank you!" I scooped and bite at the cold dessert. If it's not a drink, a dessert will do.

We were wandering around the mall while eating our ice cream. I stopped on my tracks when I felt Bright halted.

"Why? Why did we stop?" I looked at him and stopped. He got a paper napkin and I leaned back when he wiped some excess ice cream on my lips. I felt my face heat up. He chuckled at me while wiping at my face. "You eat like a kid." I snorted and pouted at him, continuing to enjoy my ice cream.

8:36pm was read on the big clock in the mall as we went outside when Bright asked.

"Are you done? I'll throw it away." Pertaining to the ice cream cups. I nodded and handed him the empty cup and spoon.

"I'll drop you to your dorm, can you hail a cab while I throw this away?" He asked. I glared at him. ‘What does he think of me? A child?’

"I'm a grown-up and yes, I can hail a cab, alright. I'm even older than you." I spoke. He ruffled my hair and jogged towards the trash bin, while I hail a cab. A cab halted in front of me, went inside and told my address, just as when Bright was done and went inside the cab also.

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"I thought we were going to your dorm? Why are we back here at my dorm building?" Bright asked, confused. I just ignored him and handed the driver the money and went out with Bright following behind.

"P'Krist? Did you forget something from my dorm room?" I just rolled my eyes and greeted Mr. Anuchit a ‘good evening’ and went straight inside, to the elevator. "Phi', can you wait for me? You're walking too fast." Bright jogged following behind me. I punched the 'up' button and went inside when the elevator door opens.

"What? You're not going up?" I asked Bright, who just stood there at the door, still confused at the situation. I just want to laugh at him for being so clueless. He immediately went in and I pushed the '8th floor'. I glanced at Bright who was silent at the moment.

The elevator dings when we arrived. I got out and went straight to my dorm room, on the far-end left side of the elevator. Bright was still following behind me.

"Don't tell me, this is your dorm room?" He asked pointing at my door, shock is written on his face as we were in front of it.

'RM 801'

"Bingo!" I exclaimed. I slid in my keycard and opened it wide. "Come inside." I invited him.

He slowly went in, eyes wandering around my room. "I didn't know we were in the same dorm building. You could have at least told me... or gave me a clue or something." He grumbled and sat on one of my sofas.

"Comfortable much, are we?" I raised my brow at him. "Yes... I'm full, I'm tired, I'm confused, and still in a trance, digesting what is happening." He said as he leaned back and rest his head on the back of the sofa.

I laughed at him. "For a bright guy like you, you're kind of slow. No pun intended." I told him and opened the fridge to get water bottles. I threw one to Bright and opened the other one and drink it.

"You can chill in here for the time being or you can go back to your room." I told him.

"Nah, let me rest here for a bit. My feet are tired from walking around..." Bright pouted. "Awwee… I didn't know you can pout." I teased him and laugh. He rubbed his face with his hands and looked away.

"Fine, fine. I'll just wash up and change. Make yourself at home." I quickly went inside my room and went to the closet, then to the bathroom.

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*NOW PLAYING: Hurts so Good by Astrid S.

Bright was playing with my guitar when I went out of my room.

"When it hurts, when it hurts so good.

Do you take it? Do you break it off?

When it hurts, when it hurts so good.

Can you say it? Can you say it,

your love is like,

Na-na-na-na-na

Your love is like, na-na-na-na"

He smiled at me when I sat beside him on the couch and sang along with him.

"Wide awake through the daylights,

When you hold me,

Like we're runnin' in yellow line.

Reach for you when my hands tied,

Are we dancing?

Like we're burning in paradise..."

We stared at each other while singing the bridge of the song. I was in the moment, with him glowing while singing. We continued to sing the last part of the song, when I noticed that he stopped playing the guitar, his face a few inches away from mine, getting closer as I felt his breath on my lips.

I don't know what happened but my eyes widen when I felt a soft pair of warm lips attached to mine. Shock was an understatement. My heart beats so loud and fast that I was going to hyperventilate.

His eyes closed as he kissed me. I clutched my hands on the hem of Bright's shirt, as I didn't know what to do. He put his right hand on my left cheek and I suddenly closed my eyes when I felt his lips move on mine.

He nibbled on my lower lip and bit on it, making me gasp and slid his tongue inside my mouth. I just followed what he was doing. It wasn't my first kiss, but it was my first make-out! And it's with a guy! Not just with any guy, but with one of the hottest guys!

His hand that was on my cheek was now on my nape as he deepened the kiss and moaned. My hands were now on Bright's chest, clutching on his shirt, either to push away or pull for more.

We tilted our heads and continue to make out. He slowly lay me on the couch, and he started to give me open-mouthed kisses on my cheek, jaw, then to my neck. I feel so hot and I am getting a hard-on which I didn't know that I can be turned on by a guy.

His hands on my waist and I moaned when I felt him licked on my collarbone. His hands roam around my torso and stopped when his fingers touched my hard nipples. He looked at me, lust-hooded eyes, lips parted, panting heavily. I felt butterflies on my stomach when I look at him like that. I didn’t know what possessed me when I pulled him up and kissed him hard. My hands on his nape then on his hair, gripping and locking it.

He was about to raise my shirt up when my phone rang. We stopped and sat up straight. Him, wide eyes, hair disheveled, breathing heavily, red cheeks, sweating profusely, and a very visible boner.

My phone stopped ringing. We stared at each other. He was about to say something when my phone rang again. I turned down the call and looked at Bright.

He brushed his hair and rubbed his face. "I know I should apologize of what I did. P'Krist I'm sorry of what happened, but I didn't regret that I did it. I apologize that I caught you off-guard. I should've at least asked for your permission, before I did that. But I also would like to apologize that I didn't regret that I did that, because I kind of liked it... I understand that you don't want to talk to me after this. I'm so, sorry, P'Krist..." His voice cracked as he apologized, hands clasped together.

A lump was stuck in my throat. I look down and cleared my throat. "I'm not saying that I tolerate what you did, I... I was also surprised, of what happened... but, it wasn't entirely your fault. I didn't stop you when it... happened." My voice low when I said the last word, looking at him at the corner of my eye.

"But still... if I haven't done it in the first place, we would still be fine, we'll still be okay. You don't have to be awkward around me..." He said lowly as he bowed down his head.

He looked at me with seriousness and whispered, "I think I like you, P'Krist."

Okay...

‘Wait, what?!’

I whipped my head at him. "What?! You like me? Like a guy liking a girl? That kind of 'like'?" I asked him with a raised voice.

He nodded slowly. Okay, that escalated quickly. I mean, I just met the guy and now he likes me? I know, he already had his mouth on my mouth. But it was like a spur of the moment. ‘Oh, shut up! I know, I liked it, too. Don't rub it on my face.’

"Maybe you're mistaken, or just confused?" I asked as I stood up, pacing around the room. "Why would you like me? I mean, I'm a nobody, I'm not that smart, I drink chocomilk on a daily basis, I don't eat spicy food, and yes, I admit I act like a kid sometimes, and most especially, I'm a guy." I explained.

"Didn't you think I didn’t know that? I can like who I want. Nobody has a say on that. I like you because you are you. I also can't explain why I feel this way towards you. I haven't felt like this on anybody except you. This is the first time I feel like this. The fast heart beats, the tingles on my stomach, the smiles creeping on my lips, the blushes I feel every time I see you." Bright stood up and face me.

"Why me? You're you, one of the hottest and popular guys on campus, everybody wants you. You can even pick one from them and you wouldn't have a sweat in getting them." I said and massages my temple.

"Why not you? I like you because my heart beats for you and stomach does this fluttering inside for you. No one else." He walks towards me as he held my hand and lift my chin up. He stares at me while saying, "I like you, P'Krist. I know it's too sudden for you, even for me but, I know what I feel. It's the first time I felt this way and it's with a guy. Although, I am happy that it's you." He smiled and kissed the back of hand. "If I ask for a chance to be with you, would you let me?" He asked, his eyes sincere, waiting for an answer.

I open, then close my mouth. I don't know what to say. I'm speechless, like literally. "I can wait if you can't answer right now." He said as he put down my hands. "I think I'll go now. I'm sorry again, P'Krist. And I'll wait." He kissed my forehead and walked out the door. "Good night, love." He said as he closes the door.

I touched the part on my forehead where he kissed. I felt my face heat up when I remembered what happened earlier. I couldn't help but smile, which I don't know why. I quickly frowned and slump back on the couch.

Okay, now... ‘What was that? What the fuck was that? I can't even think that I just cussed in my mind and I rarely swear.’

I slap my own head for thinking these thoughts. I admit it was hot, the atmosphere was hot, I felt hot, Bright was hot.

‘Oh god...!’

I rubbed my cheeks with my hands when I felt them heat up. I turned the AC temp. lower when I was beginning to feel hot again.

‘How did this happen? One time we were just having fun then the next second, we were sucking our mouths like sucking our souls. And I can't believe that I responded, much more enjoyed it!’

I grab my hair and start pulling it. This is messed up. The situation's messed up. I am messed up. I closed my eyes and then I saw his face, telling straight into my eyes that he likes me.

"I like you, P'Krist..."

He confessed. He fucking confessed that he likes me! The worst part is, I feel giddy and excited. Giddy and excited! Not grossed out and disgusted by it! Surprised and shocked, but they are given with the situation I am in. ‘What am I going to do?!’

‘Does that mean I also like him? But that doesn't make any sense!’

“I'm a guy!” I screamed at no one in my room.

‘Well, no shit, sherlock! We already established that part earlier when said he's a guy and I'm also a guy but he still likes me.’

I haven't really thought about someone liking me, much less being with me. I mean, I'm just... me. There's nothing special about me. I don't stand out in a crowd, although there are girls approach me in some time but it doesn’t count because they are girls. The person who asked me out is a guy! A man! A human being with the same anatomy as mine!

Okay, this is getting crazy. I’m arguing with myself.

I sit right up when I remembered he told me he will for my answer. Now, how will I answer him if I am still confused about these!

It’s not that I don’t like him. I am just… I am still conflicted, about this, about everything. I don’t hate it if I am gay, bisexual, or any sexuality that I am categorize in. I know there are a lot of people who are in a same-sex relationship. I even have friends who are in a same-sex relationship, and one of them is my oh-so-loving best friend. So, I have nothing against those. I have enough guys in my life, which I am close with and whom I treasure, but I don’t have a single romantic I feelings for them. They are like my brothers, my extended family. It is gross just to even think about them in that way.

What I am debating about, is myself and how I will identify whether if I am gay or just plainly confused. I admit I do get attracted to guys in a certain way because I know how to appreciate of one’s beauty, but not to the extent wherein I get excited or get flutters in my stomach – not until the kiss happened a while ago.

To think about it, I don’t hate the idea of him being with me, of us dating. He’s handsome, charming, kind, I am comfortable with him, although he treats me like a child sometimes, and he’s hot!

I pressed my hands on my cheeks when it is starting to heat up again. I groaned in my misery. ‘I bet I already look like a tomato right now.’

I blame Bright, his stupid confessions, and his enticing lips! His very talented, soft, warm lips… ‘Fuck! I am doomed.’

I yelped when my phone rang. I looked at the caller, contemplating to answer when it flashes 'Mike' on the screen. A few seconds of thinking, I answered him, immediately putting away the phone from my ear when Mike shouted.

"Thank God… KRIST! WHY DIDN'T YOU ANSWER MY CALLS!!!"

"I'm not deaf, you asshole. Can't you talk like a normal person?" I scolded Mike.

"I was scared cause you didn't answer me the first time I called you. Where are you? You weren't here when we ate. We messaged you and you still haven't read it. It's already 10:24 in the evening. No news from you, not even a single message from you. Even Pod didn't know where you were. Are you okay? Are you stuck somewhere? Are you being kidnapped?! Do you know the kidnappers?! How much is the ransom?! Oh my god, Krist! Answer me!" Mike asked so many unbelievable questions.

"Don't be so dramatic. I'm fine. I already had dinner and I'm at my dorm room." I said and slumped my body on my bed, lying on my back, staring at ceiling.

"KRIST! Are you listening to me?" Mike is still on the other line.

"Can you call some other time? I'm tired and sleepy. I'll tell you when we meet. Night." I ended the call not waiting for his reply, and put my phone on the nightstand.

I yawned and slowly close my eyes.

'A lot happened today. I'm sleepy. Let me sleep.'

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CHAPTER 7

Bright's POV

'I'm a jerk, an asshole, a fucking bastard. Ugh! You can't just keep your mouth to yourself, do you?! You scared the shit out of P'Krist, you fucker! Now, he won't talk to you anymore. Great job at moving slowly.'

I gripped my hair and scolded myself when I arrived at my dorm room. I took a deep breath to calm down. 'Fuck! I'm still having a boner.'

"Ugh! Why does he have to be so cute and handsome when he sang with me?! Now this fucker wouldn't calm down." I looked down at my hard-on, who is still very much awake.

'I need a very cold shower.'

I went in the shower and stripped all my clothes. I shivered when the cold water cascaded down on my body. I waited for my dick to limp down, when it didn't. It's still pretty much standing. I held on to the tiled wall when I hold the shaft of my dick, slowly stroking it, tried thinking of girls. But it did nothing. I thought of what happened earlier at the other dorm, when my dick twitched at the memory.

'Oh god, why?! I don't want to disrespect him by thinking of him while I'm masturbating!'  I cried on my head. But I also need to sleep. It was almost eleven in the evening and I have early classes tomorrow.

'I am really sorry, P'Krist. Please forgive me.' I chanted on my head as I started to stroke my shaft slowly, thinking about earlier. 'Oh fuck! His lust-hooded eyes looking at me; his milky-white, veiny neck that I bit and suck; his glossy, plump, pink lips that I kissed. I wonder how does it feel when his lips are sucking my -- oh fucker, I'm almost...'

I stroked fast when I felt the familiar coil in my stomach and released the very frustrated and turned-on cum, slowly washed away by the water.

I pound my head on the tiled wall and closed my eyes. "I'm fucked up." I whispered helplessly at myself.

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The gym was crowded as students are practicing for their auditions. Yep! It's already the D-Day for the auditions. Yep! It's been two weeks since that whole fiasco at the dorm.

I didn't meet P'Krist after that. This will be the first time in two weeks, although we message a lot. Okay... I message him a lot and he reply most of the time. We were awkward the first four days of chatting but it came comfortable on the fifth day, which I was very thankful for.

Yes, I'm still waiting for his answer if I ever have a chance to be with him. He's the only person that I really felt like this. I wouldn't say I'm gay, I look at other guys to check them out if I was really attracted to guys but, no. I would just cringe and shudder at the thought of liking other guys. It is just P'Krist.

I've done my research and I read an article that maybe I am pansexual, I like a person – regardless of their gender – because I don't want to waste P'Krist's time when he decides to be with me. Which I'm still hoping that he'll give me a chance to prove myself that I am genuinely serious and sincere about my feelings for him.

"Bright! We are still a number away until our turn. Let's have a drink first." Gunsmile is with me to audition.

I look back at the stage and smile when P'Krist was setting up the drumset on the stage. He wiped his forehead with his hand. 'He's such a beauty. So sexy, just by wiping that sweat off. I couldn't get enough of it.'

Gunsmile snapped his fingers in front me. "Earth to Bright! Let's go!"

We arrived at the cafeteria, which was surprisingly barely empty. Gunsmile went to buy water. I went to the other stall and ordered. "One iced chocolate drink." I look up and saw a familiar drink. I smirked and ordered one, also.

"Gunsmile, you can go ahead. I'm still waiting for my drink." I told Gunsmile drinking water beside me.

"Are you sure? You know we came together, so it's also better if we go back together." He spoke.

"It's okay. Just save me a seat beside you when you get there. Hurry up if you don't want to stand up all throughout the day." I shooed him away.

"Okay, I'll go. Just hurry up, too." He ran back to the gym.

"Here are your drinks, sir." The woman said, handing me my drinks. "Thanks." I walked out and went straight to the backstage door at the gym.

I was looking around to find P'Krist. "Excuse me, is P'Krist here?" I asked a tall, lanky guy who happened to walk in front of me.

He eyed me and smiled, fanning himself as he flirtatiously winks at me. I smiled at him awkwardly, still waiting for him to answer.

"Ai'Krist! Some hottie is asking for you! Come here, quick!" The guy screamed.

"What hot guy, P'Ter?" He asked the guy when he stood beside him. Then he looked at me, wide-eyes, blinking fast.

"Br-Bright? H-How did c-come you're he-here...?" He asked, stuttering.

The guy eyed us, like there is something going on between us, which we have, but he doesn't need to know that.

I quickly shoved him the chocomilk in his hands, my hands also trembling. 'What? I'm nervous, and shy, and I still feel the fast heart beats in my chest.'

"I... uhhh.... I saw you on stage. You were sweating and stressed. I-I feel like I need to give you your daily boost. I hope you'll have a great day." He smiled shyly, blush forming on his cheeks. "Thank you, Bright. You really didn't have to." He said as he sipped on his drink.

The guy cleared his throat to tell us that he was still there. He looked at me with raised brow. I glance at P'Krist who was happily drinking.

"I've got to go, Phi'. Bye." I ran out and went inside the gym, looking for Gunsmile. If that guy wasn't there, I would've kissed P'Krist on his reddened cheeks. 'So cute!' I smiled at my thought.

"Bright! In here!" I saw Gunsmile, waving his hand. I jogged towards him. The people inside the gym, mostly ladies, squealed suddenly.

"Where were you? You were out for a long time that I thought you were going to ditch me, were you?" He asked as we sat down on the seats he saved.

"No. I was just caught up with something. I'm sorry." I wai'ed at him, that I am really sorry.

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Bright's POV

"Next! Chanagun, Gunsmile." The guy on the middle of the table announced. Gunsmile stood up and fixed his shirt. He gripped my shoulders and, "Wish me luck." As he got up in stage.

 *NOW PLAYING: ไมมทางออก - GUNSMILE CHANAGUN

Gunsmile was singing and playing his guitar. Gone was the teasing and playful Gunsmile. I smiled because I was proud at him, for doing what he wanted to do.

Gunsmile is one of those people that when he wants something, he will do anything to get it. By hook, or by crook. He’s lucky enough he got supportive parents, that’s why he has the freedom to do what he wants. The also good thing about that is that, he knows what’s good for himself and what’s not.

Being a successful singer and composer is one of those goals he wants to achieve. He once told us that his parents’ wishes him to become an engineer someday. He tried to like the idea of being an engineer to make his parents happy and proud, but it wasn’t him. He told his parents of wanting to become a musician, that music is his life. But if his parents wouldn’t like and support him of what he wants, he’ll understand. He’ll just work part-time to sustain his school fees to study music, if possible. But one day, he was surprised by his parents. They gave him the MPAC admission form here in Webster University. He was overwhelmed that his parents love and care for him so much that they would do anything for him to be happy.

And now, we’re here. Him, on the stage, playing like he’s having his own concert. ‘Psh~! Show-off.’

When Gunsmile was done, judges were nodding their heads but pokerfaced, including P'Krist, who was very handsome in his serious face, with him wearing his glasses.

"Next! Vachirawit, Bright." The girl next to P'Krist announced.

I was next in line after Gunsmile so I was also nervous, but I wanted to calm my nerves because P'Krist was also one of the panelists.

I walked up to the stage, sat on the stool in front of them, eyed them one-by-one and lastly looked at P'Krist. I smiled warmly at him, who in return, pursed his lips and stared at me, eyes saying, 'Stop it or else.'

I straightened up, because I want to look good and confident when I sing because I chose this song to dedicate this for him.

I started to strum.

*NOW PLAYING: Bubbly by Colbie Cailat

“I've been awake for a while now

You've got me feeling like a child now

'Cause every time I see your bubbly face

I get the tingles in a silly place

It starts in my toes and I crinkle my nose

Wherever it goes, I always know

That you make me smile, please stay for a while now

Just take your time, wherever you go”

I thought of P’Krist when I chose this song. The first time I’ve saw P’Krist when he bumped in to me, these were the things that I felt. Being with him, made me feel some things I haven’t felt before. His innocence and bubbly personality make me want to protect him, hold him tight in my arms, kiss him senseless, to be with him. He makes me happy in ways that I can’t think of.

“It starts in my soul and I lose all control

When you kiss my nose, the feeling shows

'Cause you make me smile, baby, just take your time now

Holding me tight

Wherever, wherever, wherever you go

Wherever, wherever, wherever you go

Wherever you go, I always know

'Cause you make me smile, even just for a while”

Throughout the entire song, I just ogled at P'Krist, who's blushing furiously, bit his lower lip, head bowed down, but he's looking at me, bangs covering his hooded eyes.

I couldn’t help but smile at the end of the song. The girl beside P’Krist and the guy who I asked earlier, squealed not-so-discreetly. The guy at the middle coughed loudly, then turned to talk to P’Krist, who was nodding obliviously at the guy talking, obviously not listening.

I stood up when the person next to me was called up. I went to Gunsmile downstairs and sat beside him. I grabbed my drink and sip from it feeling the cold beverage in my throat.

“So…” Gunsmile started. I look at him blandly. ‘What is it this time? I know he has something to tease.’

“It was the cute guy who poured chocomilk on you on the cafeteria when you went AWOL, is the sole reason why you agreed to audition to the music org., even though you were hesitating in the first place.” He gave me a thumbs up. “Nice move, though.” He said as he pats my shoulder. I look at him blankly, then smiled at P’Krist on stage.

“Come on, Bright! It’s the first time and the first person who stole your attention. Be it a girl, a guy, lesbian, transgender or gay, I don’t care because it’s your life. All I care is that, as long as they make you happy and they love you, the way you love them. It’s good to see you in love. Though, it’s not a very nice sight.” Gunsmile crinkled his nose. I glance at him, my heart swell with happiness when he said those. I do care when my friends support me of what I do, what I want, and who I like. I may not show it openly, but I do care. They are like my family, more so than my blood-related so-called ‘Family’.

I smiled at him and grip his shoulder. “Thank you, Gun. It means a lot to me.” My voice low, barely whispered as I thanked him. He pouted and hugged me tightly. He sobbed and said, “My big boy is a man now. You’ll start having romantic dates. I’m so proud of you…”

I pushed him back when I felt him kissed my cheeks. I glared at him and wiped my cheeks. “You don’t have to kiss me. The hug was enough and I appreciate it. Now, move away.” I shooed him away, giving a little space between us.

“But on a serious note, when will you tell Foei? He would sulk if he will hear this through me.” Scrolling through his phone as he said it.

“I will. When everything’s going to be okay. As of now, just shut your blabber mouth, okay?” Giving him a death glare.

He zipped his mouth using his fingers and throws the imaginary key. I nodded and look at the stage where P’Krist was, as he quickly gazed away from me when we stared at each other for a moment. I chuckled at him. ‘Ghaaad… why is he so cute?! I’ll die early because of a heart attack!’

I glance at Gunsmile when he made gagging noises, like he was vomiting. I smacked his back for overacting. He coughed loudly. “Ehem! Whipped ass! Ehem!”

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Krist’s POV

"I think that was it? Okay! That's a wrap people!" Pod announced and clapped his hands. I stood up from my seat and stretching the kinks in my body and hips, for sitting too long.

"Krist?" P'Godt jerked his head towards the people below. I nodded and took the mic from P'Air.

I tap on the mic if it was working. "Hello, mic test 1, 2, 3... okay." I cleared my throat at the side, away from the mic. "Good afternoon to all auditionees. We would just post on the official bulletin board of Music org., between the Music Department room and Music Org room, the people who passed or accepted to be in the Music Org." I roam my eyes around and quickly look away when I my gaze landed on Bright near the stage. "You all did a great job! That's all. Thank you for coming." I hurriedly said and went back. I stiffly walked towards the backstage and exhaled loudly. I took my things then stopped when my phone vibrated. I took it out, it was a message from Bright.

From: Bright🌞

Bright🌞: Can I sleep beside you tonight?

You sound like my lullaby, your voice lulling me to sleep 😉💞

I bit my lower lip because I can't help but to smile at his message. 'Tch! Cheesy bastard. Where did he get that pick-up line? Tumblr?'

My phone vibrated again when another message from Bright popped out.

Bright🌞: Actually, I wanted to take you out to dinner. If that's okay with you? 🙏💘

I was going to respond on his message when somebody hugged me from the back. I quickly lock my phone and put it in my pocket. I turned on my shoulder and I saw Mike with a sly grin. 'Ugh... What now?'

"Who were you texting? Is it the same person that always message you? Who's the unlucky girl?" He bombarded me with absurd questions. I wiggled out from his tight hug and face him.

"No one and still none of your business." Mike scoffed. "Hmph! Stingy. You know, you're being secretive these days." He pointed out. We stared at each other for a moment. He sighed when he can't get me to say anything.

"Anyway... The guys are already outside. Let's go!" He said and grabbed me but I stood on my ground, hesitating how to politely decline them, without any suspicions.

"What? They are already waiting outside. Did you forget something?" He looks at me, confused.

I chewed on my lips when I slowly remove my hand from his grasp. "I, uhhh... I have an appointment beforehand... I can't go with you tonight. I'm sorry." I awkwardly laugh whether to myself or the reason I gave him. Either way, I hope he'll believe me.

He looks at me doubtful. "Really? Where, who and why?" He crossed his arms, waiting for an answer. "Just some school stuff. Nothing interesting." I didn't meet his eyes when I told him the lie.

"Why does it feel that you're lying to me..." Mike spoke, scrutinizing my every movement. "Lie? Why would I lie to you? I have school stuff to be taken care of. It just conflicted with our scheduled dinner, and I'm sorry. I'll make it up to guys, I promise." I said, raised my right hand and cross my heart, while the other had my fingers crossed at my back.

"Fine. Next time, tell us beforehand." He said as he walks away then turned back at me with his two-finger-eye sign saying, "I'm watching you." I gulped hard and chuckled awkwardly. When he was a bit far away, I got my phone and replied to Bright.

To: Bright🌞

Yeah, sure. Casual dinner is great, too. Do you have a place in mind?

I hit send and took off, out of the backstage gym.

Meanwhile...

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CHAPTER 8

Mike's POV

There was something fishy the way Krist was acting. "Mike! Where's Krist? Is he not inside?" Pod asked when he didn't saw Krist behind me as I got out of the backstage door.

"He said he got some school stuff to work on that he can't join us for dinner." I told them.

"Is it okay if we go now? I'm starting to get hungry." Bas said and touched his tummy.

"Or... Why don't we follow Krist? I bet that school work crap is just an alibi. Come on! It will be fun hiding and tailing behind him." Janhae said giggling from excitement.

"Is it okay, though? I mean, maybe he's just not ready to tell us what's going with him yet, that he wants to solve it on his own..." My ever-soft-and-considerate boyfriend to the rescue.

"Sweety, this is Krist we're talking about. He is like an open book. One look and you'll know. He was skeptical lying, in front of me." I told my sweet Toptap, hugging him from his side.

"I'm with Janhae with this one." Pod said, eagerness in his eyes. ‘Psh. Love can make you do crazy things, and can make you crazy.’

"I want to know what's going with him so, yeah. I'm on board." I high-five with Janhae and look at my boyfriend, who was hesitating with Bas.

We hid behind the tall bushes when Krist went out of the backstage door, smiling widely. I really wonder what it is that he lied to my face just to avoid going with us, his friends.

We slowly went out and follow not-so-closely behind him. He was walking, typing on his phone, smiling like an idiot. He turned to the right hallway and jogged towards the exit of the university. We look at each other and nod. Discreetly following behind him, people are looking and snickering at us. I look around to see if someone is waiting for Krist. He was walking too fast, wide paced. We can't keep up with him with all the people also walking around, bumping with each other.

I look in front, then I lost him. "Where did he go? Where did he turn? Mike?" Pod asked frantic that we lost Krist in the midst of the crowd. I grip my hair and turned to my boyfriend for a hug and comfort. "I lost him." I told Toptap sadly. He rubbed my back and whisper sweet nothings in my ear until I calmed down.

"UGH! How did he do that? Did he notice us following him?" Janhae was also grumpy.

We were still looking around. If we’re lucky enough, we’ll spot Krist in the crowd. But unfortunately, we’re not. Even Bas and Toptap are also looking through the sea of people.

Don’t get us wrong. Krist is an adult, yes. He can decide what he wants and what he does. But Krist is someone so innocent, that you might think he’s a child, with the way his mind thinks and the way he acts. He’s like an open-book. One tiny expression from him, then you’ll know what’s going on with that pretty brain of his. I, for one, his brother since I can remember, knows him at the back of my hand. When I say he lied to me, no doubt that he really lied to me. Which I don’t understand why would he do that when in fact, he can tell me anything that’s going on with him. I’m protective of him like that because he is, my brother. I can tell the others are also protective of him.

Pod on the other hand, well he’s crazy. Crazy in love. It wasn’t obvious at first, I mean, who would think one of the hottest guys in the faculty will be into boys? No judgement, just surprised. Pod is one tall, white-skinned, bulky, muscular guy. I’ve noticed he is more attentive and protective of Krist than any of us. Yeah, the double standard he is. I caught him staring, drooling even, at Krist who was innocently focused on writing his notes, tip of the tongue peeking. I have to snap my fingers in front of his face just to come to his senses. He even once took a sneaky picture of Krist, who was, again, innocently sipping his chocomilk, lips smiling, dimples popping on each side. Yep! He is THAT crazy. Crazy, stupidly, in love. But I wouldn’t say he is obsessed, but he is one very protective motherfucker.

"You know what? We'll just confront him tomorrow. Let's go! I'm also starving." Janhae walked away clinging at Bas, who was happy we're going to eat. Pod pats my back, dismay all over his face and followed behind Janhae and Bas, dragging his feet. Toptap held my hand and intertwined our fingers, also following behind them.

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Bright's POV

"Gunsmile, can we raincheck? I've got something to do. Just tell Foei I'm busy and I'm sorry. I promise next time." I told Gunsmile, strapping my guitar bag and ready to go.

Gunsmile clicked his tongue. "Something to do or someone to do?" He squinted his eyes. I rolled my eyes. "No, just a casual dinner, and no, you can't go with us. He still doesn't even know that you knew. I don't want to scare him more."

He nodded. "Okay, Mr. Romantic. I'll just think of something believable to tell Foei. Ugh! He'll be so heartbroken when he knows that you ditched him for a date." He said clutching his heart. I smacked his head. "Don't tell him yet. I will tell him when the right time comes. Just shush."

He caressed his head, mouth lope-sided and nose crinkled. "Alright, alright! Have fun on your date, my big boy!" I immediately walk away when he was about to hug me again. I just waved my hand, back facing him.

I took out my phone when it pinged. It was a message from P'Krist that he was heading to his dorm to change before going out.

To: Mì Amoùr 🌹

Just message me when you're done. I'll be waiting downstairs at the lobby. Take care, love. 😘

I hit send and jog towards the exit.

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Sitting on the sofa at the lobby in our dorm room, head down, anxiously tapping my foot, watching my watch slowly ticking away, hands sweating. Anybody can tell that I'm nervous the way I'm behaving.

"Nervous?" I look up to see who asked. Mr. Anuchit hand me a bottle of water. I accepted it and drank it empty. He pats my shoulder and crouch down to whisper at me. "Tip on your first date: Make the person comfortable, then everything will go well." He winked then straighten up. He walks back to his post and playfully salute at me. I smiled thankfully and wai'ed at him.

"Hey, Bright!" I stood up, fixed my shirt and dust my pants. P'Krist walk up to me and I was mesmerized. Hair fixed at the side, bright-yellow collared shirt, black khaki shorts, and brown loafers. To top it all off, two earrings pierced at his left ear. 'Damn! He looks hot.'

I look at myself with brown leather jacket, black shirt, navy blue pants, and black rubber shoes. I look plain beside him.

"Let's go! I'm actually hungry already. Hehe..." He shyly chuckled and scratched his nape. 'Ugh! So cute! I just want to kiss him here and now.'

I shake my head to stop my imagination. I smiled at him and led him towards my bike. Yes, I have a bike but I rarely use it because university's just three minutes away by foot. I just use this when I go to the Elite Club for some boxing sessions, when Foei or Gunsmile wants to go somewhere far, or just to ride alone somewhere pleasant. Gunsmile and Foei also have their own bikes.

"Wow! I didn't know you can drive! And with a big bike!" He exclaimed as we were near where I parked my bike. I chuckled at his unbelievable expression. "Yeah. Got this bad boy when I turned 18. This has been my ride ever since." I got the spare helmet and put it on his head and lock it. I look at him if the helmet was in place, but he was staring at me, still smiling excitedly, knowing he get to ride a bike. I also put on my helmet and sat on the bike. P'Krist quickly sat down behind me, hands on my shoulder. He suddenly stiffened when I grab his hands and put it on my stomach, his arms around my waist, hugging me.

"Is this necessary?" He asked on my left ear. I turned on my left shoulder and face him. "It's okay of you don't want to, but I'm afraid you'll fall down if you won't hold on tight to me." I gripped his clasped hands on my stomach. I ignored the flutters in my stomach.

It was getting dark, 5:50 pm on the clock. I turned on the engine and started to drive towards our destination.

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We are 40 minutes away from the city. 80 kph, wind blowing hard, beaming street lights, streets barely empty. My face heat up when I'm conscious that P'Krist is riding the bike with me, hands still tightly holding on my stomach, like back-hugging me, away from the city, just the two of us. I wish I could stop the time and live in this moment.

I turn to the right and stop at the diner that Gunsmile, Foei, and I frequently go when we want to eat our comfort food. I park my bike at the side and took off my helmet, while P'Krist is doing the same. He handed me the helmet and look up to read the signage.

"Food Lab...?" He squinted his eyes to read, then head turned to me, raises his brow, asking me if, I was sure. "We travelled 24.8 kilometers away from Bangkok to eat here?" I shrugged and grabs his hand, and walk towards the diner.

The bell rings as we went inside. You can count the people inside as it was barely empty. I glance at P'Krist at the back, just like a child who was roaming his eyes around, familiarizing the environment. I can't help but chuckle at the scene. I headed towards our usual booth near the glass window.

"Nong Bright! The usual, I presume?" Woman on her early thirties approached our booth. P'Mai asked as she look at me, then to P'Krist. "Where's the classic duo? Foei and Gunsmile? Are they not with you?" I smiled and shook my head.

She jerks her head towards P'Krist then mouthed, "Who's he?" I glance at P'Krist who was busy looking at the menu, pouting and focusing on what to order. I smiled widely and look at P'Mai.

"He is my date." I jumped on my sit when the utensils on the table suddenly fell down.

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" P'Krist repeatedly apologized, while putting away the utensils. He glared at me with gritted teeth. I just awkwardly smiled at him. 'Way to go in making him comfortable, fucker! Now, you're just scaring him!'

P'Mai coughed loudly to get our attention. "So, what do this lovely man wants to have?" P'Mai asked, blinking her eyes, smiling wide.

"I-I'll have this, a burrito with..." he squinted his eyes and leaned forward on the menu. "...is this mozzarella sticks with sour cream dip?" He asked turning to P'Mai. "Yes, cutie-pie. But you can also swap the food pairings if you don't like the original pairings." P'Mai said as she pointed on the menu. P'Krist nodded, still browsing through the menu.

"What about you, Bright? What will you pick?" P'Krist asked. "Oh! He has his usual when he comes here. He'll always have the Spicy Turkish Shawarma with Dynamite on the side and Garlic Sauce as dip." P'Mai said, happily talks to P'Krist.

I snorted. "I can tell him what's my usual here, you know?"

"So, you'll still have your usual?" P'Mai asked me impatiently, tapping her pen on her little notepad. I just nodded.

"What about you, sweety? What would you prefer?" P'Mai asked P'Krist, still smiling at him. "I'll still have the burrito but I'll have the potato crisscross on the side and taco dip. Hehe..." He shyly smiled wide, his eyes crinkled, dimples popping on each side.

P'Mai loudly sighed at the sight in front of her. I mean, I would, too. But I'm planning to have this sight in front of me for a long time.

"One Burrito with potato crisscross and taco dip for this cutie here..." P'Mai smiled at P'Krist, who smiled back at her. "... and the usual for the other one." She blandly said. I scoffed at her double standard. "Can't you be more gleeful at saying my order, also?" She looks at me up and down, mockingly smiled, then walked away.

P'Krist just laughed and faced me. "So, you've been hanging out here with your friends. Why did you bring me here? Maybe your friends will not like it that you brought me here."

"My friends will understand. If we feel like the world is against us, having a bad day or week, or just stressed with some things, we come here every now and then to eat our comfort food. You already knew my comfort food when I'm not myself. Foei and Gunsmile also have their own comfort foods. And besides, we made a promise that if ever we'll date someone, like seriously date someone, we would bring them here." I held his hands on the table and look him straight in the eyes. 'Wait. I can't be straight when I look at him in his eyes.'

He smiled at me and intertwined our fingers. "How did you find this place, by the way? No offense, but the exterior design isn't that catchy." I chuckled at the memory on how and why we ended up here.

"I don't want to bore you with the story..." I shook my head.

"Come on! I want to know." He wiggled my hands. "Fine." I gave up. "But if I bore you with my story, don't say I didn't warn you." He eagerly nods.

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CHAPTER 9

Flashback

Water dripping down fast on my now very soaked shirt, large strides walking aimlessly, wiping furiously the water on my wet face, if it's the rain or my tears - I don't know.

I came home earlier from school, only to meet my parents - who are rarely home - seriousness filled the living room. I can't help but to feel anxious on what's going to happen next. I put down my bag on one of the sofas and slowly approached them, lost in their thoughts.

"Mom? Dad? What's going on?" I asked. They both look at my way then look at each other and nodded. I was also confused as to why they are acting this way. My mom walked towards me and let me sit beside her, holding my hands.

"Bright, dear..." She started, caressing my hands. "Your father and I decided that after you graduate in high school, you would be attending Stanford University abroad. You'll be studying business to be able to help your brother in the company." She continued. "We already have the documents processed--"

I stopped listening to her the moment she mentioned I'll be away, far away from home. I couldn't breathe, my heart was clenching at the thought of leaving Thailand, my only home. I looked at her, dismay on my face.

"Mom! Dad! Why did you decide for me? It's my life, I decide what I want! I don't want to leave. I don't want to be away, alone in a foreign country. No..." I took back my hand from her, shaking my head. "You could at least consult me first if I was okay with it or not. P'Earth is already handling the company as is. You already forced him to take the position, even if he also wanted something for his life. It is enough you destroyed his dream to be in the army, now you also wanted to interfere in mine, too! I also have my own plans for MY future--"

"What plans? To be a musician and all?" My father interrupted, mocking me. "You can't use your guitar when you're in the real world. You are a Chivaaree, my son, also the next heir to Charms Intls. & Co., worth millions of dollars. You need not to throw it away for some music."

I look at my father, my eyes starting to water, but I didn't let it flow down. I blinked many times to control my tears. "Easy for you to say, you don't have a life of your own. You were grandfather's puppet that's why you're in that position. If you have the chance to choose your own life before, you would choose to be yourself. I know you also loved music. You stopped to love it when grandfather broke your first guitar in front of other people on your 21st birthday." He looked at me, surprised for a moment, then go back to being nonchalant. I scoffed at him. I turned to my mother, who looked torn at the situation.

"Mom? Don't I have a say on this? This is still my life, my future we're talking about here. I should be the one to decide how I want my future to be..." She looked away when I begged for my freedom of choice. I look at my dad when he didn't say anything.

I took a deep breath and loudly huffed. I turn away. I heard my parents calling my name but I didn't dare to look back when my tears are starting to trickle down. Thunderclaps were heard as I went out of the gate. Water started pouring continuously from the gray, gloomy sky - reflecting of what I feel at the moment - lost, devastated, hatred, and other emotions I couldn't identify.

I was soaking wet when I realized I was very far away from the city. The rain starting to slowly drizzle, I looked around and came to realize I was alone, soaking wet in an unfamiliar place outside the city. I whipped my head back when someone honked behind me. I wiped my face with my hand and squinted my eyes to see clearly who honked. When suddenly I was engulfed with a hug, then some sobbing was heard next, even though I'm soaking wet. It was Gunsmile crying on my shoulder. Foei also looked relieved and hugged me. Both hugging me tightly. I couldn't help but also felt relieved and happy that my two friends found me. I cried loudly and hard, tightly hugging them, grasping on their shirts- like I'm grasping for my life to be fine. It was the first time I cried in front of other people, but I was very thankful and blessed that it was them.

I laughed, still tears flowing down my eyes, when I heard them also crying loudly at my expense. We broke down the hug and they wiped my tears, and I, wiping theirs. Foei and I laughed loud when Gunsmile's stomach loudly growl, breaking the devastating moment.

I look at them - hair disheveled, puffy eyes, red nose, trembling lips, shirt wet due to my soaked shirt. "You both look like a mess." I commented with a hoarse voice. Gunsmile hiccupped and said, "You're the one to talk."

We laughed at our appearances. Foei went to his bike and brought out spare clothes. "Here. Change to something dry so you won't get sick." Handing me the clothes. "What about you? Your shirt's also wet." He turned to Gunsmile who also went to his bike and gave Foei a spare shirt.

"We can change there at that diner." He said while pointing at our left side using his lips. "Yes! Food! Let's change quickly so we can stuff some food into our stomach." Gunsmile enthusiastically said as he ran towards the diner, Foei and I following behind.

Flashback Ended

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"So... you three discovered this diner when you ran away from your house? Accidentally?" He unbelievably asked while puffing his cheeks. I chuckled at him and pinched his chubby cheeks. "Pretty much it." I said and took back my hands when he smacked both. He caressed his reddened cheeks, pouting.

"Here are your orders..." P'Mai put down our orders one-by-one. "Wow!" P'Krist exclaimed looking wide eyes at his food. "I didn't know these would be a lot." He looked at P'Mai with gleeful eyes. "Enjoy your food, boys... and your date." She smiled wide and winked. I shook my head and P'Krist was becoming redder for blushing furiously.

He took his burrito and made a big bite. "Hmmm..." He moaned, closing his eyes, chewing slowly, some sauce on the corner of his lips. I took my thumb out and wiped the sauce on his lips and lick it from my thumb. 'Sweet.' I smirked. He didn't notice what I did as he was focused on his food. He swallowed and said, "This is so amazing! It's very delicious, I couldn't particularly point out the flavor that exploded inside my mouth." He nodded his head as an approval.

"Now, I get it why you three would come here. I would, too! If this is the reward to have to travel far, then Yes, I do!" He took a bite again, takes a crisscross and dip it, then put it in his mouth, combining the burrito and crisscross. "Hmmm...!" He moaned again, only this time, looking at me wide eyes, smiling from ear-to-ear, satisfied with the food.

"Now, this will also be my comfort food. I can't get these foods anywhere but here." He looked at me worried and asked, "Your friends wouldn't mind that I also like it here, right? They wouldn't accuse me of stealing their favorite diner, right?"

I chuckled and put down my shawarma and wiped my mouth with a table napkin. I shook my head 'No'. "Whenever you feel the need to eat your comfort food, you can always tell me. I'll be the one to take you here." He smiled, thankful. We continue to eat our food.

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Krist’s POV

'Burrrrrp!' I quickly covered my mouth. "Excuse me. I'm sorry." Humiliated that I burped loud enough, the next booth heard and glanced at me. I wai'ed at them to apologize.

"I'm so full. I feel like I can't eat till tomorrow." I said as I leaned back then rubbed and looked at my tummy. Bright reached his hand across with a table napkin, wiped the corners of mouth and chin. "Do you want to go now?" Bright asked, wiping his hands with the table napkin he used.

"We have 17 minutes till 9 pm. What do you have in mind?" As I look at my watch.

"Do you have a curfew or something...?" He asked.

"Hmm... No. I don't think so..." I looked at him, puzzled.

He smirked and slid out of the booth, stood beside me and held out his hand. "Come, I want to show you something." I took his hand and stood up. "Where?"

"P'Mai! We'll be going now. We'll be back some other time with the duo." Bright waved at P'Mai at the counter while going out the door.

"Say 'Hello!' to them for me! Enjoy your night boys..." P'Mai waved at us and I waved back, smiled thankfully at her.

We went out, chilly wind brushed through our faces. "Here." Bright put on my helmet then he wore his and ride on the bike. Again, he put both my hands on his stomach.

"Hold on tight." He said through his helmet. I clasped my hands when he dashes through the dimly lit road.

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Around 25 minutes, we stopped at a very dark, secluded place. Bright turned off the engine and took off his helmet, so did I. I blinked repeatedly and squinted my eyes to adjust my vision. I look around the place; a little foggy, only light comes from the moon, a huge boulder near a tree on the left side -- until I realized we are at a cliff. I trembled, aware that I am in a high place. I don't fancy high places.

I look at Bright in front of me and all my uneasiness was gone. Moonlight shining across his face, his eyes gazing up the sky. He turned to me and smiled blissfully. My heart skipped a beat with his satisfied smile. I absentmindedly smiled back at him. He held my hand and intertwined our fingers while going to the boulder. He dusted some parts and pulled me to sit beside him.

He gave me his leather jacket when I unconsciously wrap my arms around my body due to the cold air. He leaned back, his arms supporting him. He sighed loudly and smiled.

"Do you know constellations?" He asked. "Not all but, yeah. I know some." I said nodding. He pointed at the sky. "That one is The Archer. I only knew that one with the famous Orion's Belt." He chuckled. I also looked at the sky full of stars. I pointed up and yelled excitedly, "The Big Dipper!" I stopped and slowly retracts my hand for I was not sure. "... I think? Hehehe..." I shyly chuckled.

I look beyond the cliff and saw the city lights down below - colorful lights, shining and shimmering through the darkness, faint sounds of the busy city streets of Bangkok.

I glance at him, noticing that he only has a shirt with him. Slowly scooting closely to him, I carefully drape the half part of the jacket at his other side. He whipped his head to look at me, startled. His face was centimeters away from me, his nose slightly touched mine.

My heart fluttered. 'He looks so stunning.' I pecked his lips briefly and look at the sky again, feeling my face and body heat up, doing things I don't normally do. It was unexpected.

*NOW PLAYING: A Sky Full of Stars by Coldplay

I hummed and started to sing, just savoring the moment.

"Cause your sky, cause your sky full of stars

I'm gonna give you, my heart."

I glance at him to the side and smiled faintly.

Bright continued to sing the next lines, smiling at me.

"Cause your sky, cause your sky full of stars

Cause you light up the path."

"I don't care, go on and tear me apart

I don't care if you do

Oh-Oh-oohhh..."

I sang with him until the chorus ended, staring at each other.

"Cause in a sky, in a sky full of stars

I think I see you

Oh-oh-oohhhh..."

We slowly leaned in. He hovered on my lips, breathing hard, looking at me asking for my permission. I smirked at him and closed the gap. The kiss was slow, passionate, feeling the serene moment.

We broke the kiss when we needed to breathe. We leaned on each other's foreheads, closed eyes, smiling. I open then close my mouth, unsure on how to deliver good news to him.

"Bright?" I called him. He opened his eyes, meeting mine. "I- uhhh… I think, I'm re-ready..." I glance at him nervously. "I'm ready to give us a ch-chance..." My face heating up, I bit my lip, look down then at the space in front of me.

His warm hands cupped both my cheeks to face him, my eyes wide and startled. He kissed me deep and said, "This is one of the best nights of my life." Smiling, he whispered on my face. I hugged him, shy because I literally don't know what to say. He hugged me back tightly. I can feel his fast and thundering heartbeats on my chest. He thanked me then continuously kissed my hair and my cheek. I just laughed at him.

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CHAPTER 10

Bright's POV

I can't stop smiling widely. Like literally. My jaw is aching but still can't stop smiling. My heart flutters, butterflies swarming in my stomach, and thankfully the not-so-visible-erection.

Driving through the dark road going back to Bangkok, P'Krist hugging tightly on my back. Although he's wearing my jacket, the cold and shivering air didn't bother me a bit, his warm hug from the back is enough to give me body heat. I swerved to the left when we were near at our dorm building.

We got off the bike as I turned the engine off and took our helmets off. I took P'Krist's hand, who's hand is very warm in my touch, and walked towards the entrance. It was 28 minutes past 10 in the evening when we stepped inside the lobby. Khun Anuchit just winked at me when we were waiting for the elevator, I smiled at him and glance at P'Krist who also looks at Khun Anuchit that waves at us. The elevator opens and we went inside.

Still holding his hand tightly, I look at our reflection in front, he's looking at our intertwined hands - I can see his faint blush on his cheeks. He jumped when the elevator dings. I chuckled at him and drags him towards his dorm room.

In front of his door, I slowly faced him, still clasping our hands. "I had a really great time, P'Krist. Hell! I couldn't even describe how I feel right now. You and me. Us... being together. I feel like I'm in a dream that I don't want to wake up. I feel like I am in cloud nine that --" I stopped rambling when he tiptoed and kissed me on my lips. When he was about to pull away, I held his nape to deepen the kiss. He moaned when I bit his lower lip.

We gasped as we broke the kiss, leaning on each other's foreheads. "Do you believe it now?" He asked, gasping. "You are not dreaming, neither do I." He looked at me, cupped my cheeks and smiled. "I also can't believe I'm dating you, Bright. I didn't expect you, of all people, would like someone like me."

He stepped back and held my hands. "But I have to request something from you." His eyes quivering, from warm to cold fingers fidgeting on my hands. "Hey, you can tell me anything. What is it?" I asked him as he was hesitating to tell me. "I don't want people to know about this relationship until we are both ready, I am ready." He looked at me, his eyes pleading. "Is that okay...?"

I was gaping at him when he asked me that. "Are you... Are you embarrassed of us? Of me?" I held his hand tightly while looking straight in his eyes. He quickly hugged me, "No! No, it's not because of that!" He grabbed my hand and took me inside his room. He paced inside the room when he got inside.

"Can you explain what you want to happen to us? To our relationship if you just want it to be a secret?" I asked when he was still pacing and didn't acknowledge me standing there, waiting for him to at least say words, reasons why he wanted that. He stopped and looked at me. He sighed loudly and brushed back his fixed hair.

"It is not what you think, okay? I just... I'm not really an expert in this field, as you noticed. This is my first time being in a relationship." He starts to explain. "To a guy? Because you don't have to worry, this, too, is my first relationship with a guy and I'm still --" He cut me off. "Bright. This is my first relationship. Literally." I tilted my head, confused. He sighs loudly. "I… uhhh... I haven't dated ever since... ever?" He scratched his nape as he looks down. "And I didn't know that I prefer guys than girls for a partner." He looked down again when his eyes landed on mine.

I walked towards him then hugs him. He stiffened for a moment then he relaxes and buried his face on the crook of my neck. "I understand, Phi'." I assured him, rubbing his back. "I also didn't know that I could be attracted to you, a guy." He hugged me tightly. "But you're the only guy that I like, that I want."

I leaned back and look at him. "I did my research and thought about this over and over again, to be sure what I felt for you because I don't want to waste your time when you give me a chance. I really like you, P'Krist. The whole you. And before you ask me, this is also not experimental nor a phase, as they call it. I checked out other guys just to see if I am attracted to guys generally but I would just cringe even at the thought of liking other guys." I shushed him with my finger when he was about to say something. "And even though this is my first time having a boyfriend, I wouldn't exchange it for anything because the only person that I like is you, P'Krist." I kiss him tenderly, to assure him that I am sincerely genuine of my feelings for him.

"I am sorry if you felt that way." He says as we broke the kiss. "I just don't want others to know yet. People are quick to judge, generally. I don't want them to attack us personally just because we're together." He stops and turn away from me. "And besides, I don't want your swooning fangirls attacking me just because I stole you from them." He huffed as he said those words.

I laughed at him and hugged him from behind. I kissed his ears, who are starting to redden due to sudden skin-ship. "Again, you don't have to worry about that." Rocking him side-to-side. "Even though their eyes are on me, my eyes are solely gazing at you, my sun, Mi amour..." He chuckled and turn to me. "But I still want it to keep it hidden." He leaned his head on my chest. "I haven't told my friends yet, even my parents don't know... Oh god! How will I break this news to them..." He paced again. I held him in place to stop him. "Don't think about it too much right now. We are still figuring things out and we will tell them soon enough, okay?" I convince him so that he could calm down. "I will tell them soon I promise... But is it okay to give me some time?" He looks up, glassy eyes, lips pouting. 'UGH! How can I refuse him when he is being like this?!'

I hug him tight and he wrap his arms on my waist. "To make you feel better, I also haven't told my friends yet neither does my family have any idea about me, liking a guy... A guy who is very cute, adorable, handsome, kind, shy, gentle, respectful, --" He scoffed in my ear. "Flattering and praising me doesn't change my mind." I chuckled and strokes his hair. "I know love... I just want to make feel better and let you know how I see you..." I drag him towards to the sofa and let him sit on the armrest. Standing while stroking his hair, him sitting and pouting.

"I'm sorry if I gave you that impression of being embarrassed to be in a relationship with you. I just want us to be able to enjoy being with you without the other people lurking and talking about us. I want this just to be about us for the moment until we are ready..." He said as he fidgets on the hem of my shirt. I held his hands and intertwined. "I'm also sorry I left you with that expression. I just... I just want the people to know that you are with me, I belong to you, to let people know that you're taken by me..." I kissed his temple. "I am happy and proud that you are with me. Hell! I'm still overwhelmed! I still can't believe you agreed to be with me, that you gave me a chance to prove myself that I'm really into you, that I like you." I look at him into his eyes. "Thank you, P'Krist... You don't know how happy I am. Thank you, mi amour..."

He smiled and hugged me tight. "I am happy, too." He looks up to me and said, "I... I like you, too." And quickly hid his face on my chest, where my heart is drumming loudly. I bet it could be heard in the entire silent room. I cupped his cheeks to face me and kissed him feverishly. 'God! What did I do to deserve this man in front of me?'

We broke the kiss and groaned when my phone buzzed in my pocket. He looked away and coughed. His cheeks blushing, red ears, him biting his lower lip. I can't help but to smile, but I need to kill this person who disturbed the moment. I unlocked my phone to see Gunsmile's messages.

From: Gun😊

Gun😊 : Hey, Bright!

Gun😊 : How did it go?

Gun😊 : Was it a success? Does he like you, too?

Gun😊 : Or you got dumped?  Don't worry, man. If you didn't get him, I'll help you... I mean, it's your first time so I understand if you chickened out or he doesn't like you that way.

Gun😊 : Call me if you need something... or me. Anything...

Gun😊 : Bright? You there?

Gun😊 : The message says 'Read' but you're not replying. Are you okay?

I read all his messages, who sounds like a lunatic in loose. 'How do I kill a friend?!'  I appreciate him worrying about me, but I can handle my situation well... I think. I look at P'Krist who is also peeking at my phone. 'SHIT!'

"Phi'... It's not what you think!" I said and pocketed my phone. "You friend knows?" He asked. I sighed. This was going well until that fucker messaged me. "Yes, he knew. Though, I didn't tell him. He kind of... Well, he kind of discovered it himself." I told him. "How?" He asked, whispering. "Earlier, after we auditioned. I was kind of in a reverie - looking at you on the stage with your glasses and pokerfaced, biting your lip when you're thinking deeply - He observed my behavior then he followed where my eyes were looking, then he figured it out when I didn't falter my gaze on you and I obliviously smiled, which I don't do on a normal basis. He put two-and-two together and BAM! He asked me about you and how I feel about you." I explained.

"He isn't mad at you, right? For liking a guy? Me, specifically?" He asked, looking down. "Why would he be mad at me? Especially at you? You are amazing, in any way possible." I kissed his cheeks. "And besides, even if I don't tell him anything, he can quickly catch up. He may be goofy and insane most of the times, but he is witty. Too witty that you can't see because of his overall appearance and how he acts. But don't worry about him, mi amour... He promised that he would not tell anyone so don't worry about it, okay?" He slowly nods and looks at me. "So... one friend down and many more to go. Ugh!" He groaned and pound his head on my chest. I chuckled and kissed his head.

"You have nothing to worry about, love. I accept your request of keeping it hidden as of now, until you're ready to tell our friends about us... Well, except Gunsmile." He hugged me tight. "Thank you, Bright..."

'Can I say I love him? Or is it too early for that? Maybe if he is comfortable enough and our friends know, maybe I can tell him that I love him.'

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Krist's POV

Feeling refreshed as I walked out of the bathroom, drying my hair with a towel. I sat on the edge of the bed, pondering what the hell happened tonight and how I am going to break the news to my friends and my family.

"UGH! Now what?" I groaned as I slump back on my bed. I sit up when someone pounds on my door. I look at the time, "11:49pm... Who the hell would come at this hour? It couldn't be Bright, he just left a while ago--" I jumped back when the pounding continued. I stood up and went to the door to open it only to find....

“What have you been doing, that you wouldn’t open your door?” Mike nags as he passes through me to go inside my room. “Welcome to my humble abode. To what do I the pleasure of your unexpected visit at this fucking hour?!” I chided back at him as I slam my door close. “Do you know what time it is? You’re waking up my neighbors, you asshole! I don’t want the manager to throw me out in my own building for being loud.” I sat back down on the sofa next to him. “Can you tell me what the fuck are you doing here? I was going to sleep when you’re pounding on my door.”

Mike glared and scoffed as he pulled out his phone. I can feel that he is angry at me for something, but I don’t know what I did and I have problems of my own that I wanted to solve. He shoved his phone on my face and showed me the group chat. I read the messages my friends exchanged when I was with Bright earlier.

“Oh.” I look at him and chuckled shyly.

“Oh? Oh?! OH?! What the fuck does that even mean, Krist?! You don’t say, ‘Oh.’ You need to fucking explain where were you that you refused, no… it was the first time ever you refused to eat with us and I fucking know you don’t like eating alone. We waited for you to at least read our chats for two hours. Two fucking hours, Krist! Pod was in rage and was ready to get the whole search party just to look for you and your missing ass!” He covered my mouth with his finger when I was about to say something.

“No. You explain later when I am done ranting about your carelessness today, which was unacceptable, and you left me with no news from you. Do you know how worried and frustrated I was?!” He removed his finger from my mouth and continued to talk. “We didn’t have any idea where to look for you. We’ve searched everywhere in campus and even here in your dorm building. We went to the mall and even in the streets in Bangkok, and you were nowhere in sight!”

Mike looks down and started to sob. I quickly hugged him from the side and rubs his arm. Now I feel guilty and ashamed of myself. I got carried away of my situation earlier that it slipped my mind to check my phone, which I turned silent when I went to meet Bright downstairs earlier. “You were nowhere to be seen, Krist. I thought something have happened to you when you weren’t reading our messages. I thought I could have lost you. I know you’re an adult and can make your own decisions, but you could have just at least given us, or me, a heads-up of what you were doing, where you were, or who you with. I know how paranoid I sound, but that is what I am feeling.” Mike said, wiping his tears with the back of his hand, slowly calming down.

I stood up and went to the fridge and got a bottle of water to give to Mike. He took the bottle and drank it empty. I sat down again and rubbed his back. “I’m sorry…” I said, like a whisper. I feel guilty and regretful. Mike looked at me, glaring. “I know, I know. ‘Sorry’ cannot cover up of what I have done. I am apologizing for my careless behavior and for not giving you, or the guys, any updates of my whereabouts. I admit it is my fault. I am sorry… sincerely apologizing of what I have caused you.” I put my hands together and wai’ed him at my utmost apology and shamelessness.

He took my hands down and cupped my cheeks to look at him. “Next time, at least give me a message or any heads up you can give, when something like this happens again.” Mike said and I nodded and bit my lips to stop trembling. He wiped the tears I didn’t know flowed on my cheeks using his thumbs. “Or better yet, no more next time. I’m sticking to you everywhere and anytime, whether you like it or not.”

I hugged him back when Mike gave me a bone-crushing hug. “Thank God, you’re okay. Safe and sound. I was so worried that I was going crazy. Even Toptap cannot console me with anything. I was so lost. Bas was on the verge of crying with me. Janhae and Pod were the ones who were in rage ready to go heaven and hell just to look for you.” He smacked my back and chuckled. “You should have seen them together. It was a sight to behold.” I also chuckled when I imagined Jan and Pod like that.

It is really the first time they reacted like this. I was never reckless in my life. I know they are protective of me; I mean, I am also protective of them. I treat them like a family. But I never would have thought that they would go all berserk just for me, I didn’t know they were this protective of me. I am glad I have friends like them. Now I feel bad, really bad that I treated them like this. I really need to apologize to them, like big time. ‘Ghaaad! Can’t this day get any worse?’

The silence between us broke when Mike’s phone suddenly rang. “Toptap’s calling me. I think he’ll be asking me if I have any news about you.” He said, his voice raspy from crying earlier. “Answer him. Tell him I’ll talk to them tomorrow. It’s late. You should head back now. Maybe Toptap’s worried about you right now. It’s almost midnight.” The ringing stopped. We stood up and went to the door. Mike turned to me and again, hugged me tightly. “Please don’t do that again. I don’t know what I’m going to do if that happens again.” I hugged him back and rubs his back as he was trembling. “Again, I am sorry. I’m sorry for my recklessness and stupid behavior today. I hope you can forgive me, and you need not to worry anymore, okay?”

We broke the hug then his phone rang again. “You really need to answer that or else you would be sleeping on the couch. You don’t want that, do you?” I chuckled at him when he panicked at what I said. “Shit! I really need to go! Please close and lock your door.” He said as he waves his hand and rushes through the elevator. I laughed at him then close and lock the door, like he said.

I crawled to my bed and hugged my ‘Kevin’ minion stuffed toy, thinking how I will console and let my friends forgive me. They are not easy to please. ‘Ugh! Need help! S.O.S.!’  

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CHAPTER 11

Foei’s POV

Munching on my food while looking back and forth on Bright and Gunsmile whispering on God-knows-what. We are inside the cafeteria, eating our supposedly ‘lunch’, when it turns into a shushing game for the both of them. I glared at them that maybe they will feel somebody is watching them and they are not alone. ‘Hey, motherfuckers! You have another friend in front of you, who is sulking because you are leaving him behind with the juicy details!’  I scoffed at my thought. Yes, I admit, I am sulking. It is like they are having secrets and they wouldn’t share it with me. So much for being friends.

‘BANG!’ Bright and Gunsmile jumped and yelped as I loudly smacked the table with my hand. “I’ve had enough!” I screamed at them, not too loud for the whole cafeteria to hear. They look at each other, then at me. “Gunsmile?” I called. He looks at me nervously, and elbowed Bright, like asking for help.

Bright gestured and whispered, ‘what?’ at Gunsmile, then again, they are whispering and bickering who would talk to me. I sighed loudly that they halted and behaved in front of me. “I’m not mad. I am just feeling a little left-out. All throughout lunch, you were just whispering and bickering about something and I have no clue what it is. It doesn’t feel good when you’re lost and little left-out.” I explained while playing my food with the fork.

They look at each other, then Bright cleared his throat. “I… I have th-this news that I am n-not sure how t-to o-open up or h-how to tell you ab-about it…” Bright said, stuttering, eyes looking everywhere except me. I look at Gunsmile, my eyes asking if he knows something and if he could explain it to me in simpler terms, because I am still quite confused. He immediately looks down when his gaze met mine, also fidgeting. “Okay, what’s with these two? Is it that hard for them to tell me what’s going on?’

“Bright?” I called Bright again as the other wouldn’t budge from my glare. Bright looks at me, eyes full of worry. ‘Wow… This must be something huge.’ I sighed loudly again, disappointed, that they couldn’t trust me enough to tell them what was bothering them. After everything we have gone through together. “Fine. I wouldn’t pry too much. I will just be waiting until you two would be ready to talk to me and open up what’s bothering you both.” I told them, assuring that I am fine. Although I am still a little affected and sulky that they left me out.

“It is really not big of an issue. Just some small misunderstanding. Not to worry about it, Foei.” Bright assured but his face and tone tell me otherwise. Gunsmile nudge at his side with creased brows and glaring eyes.

“We both know it IS a big deal and he has the right to know what the hell’s going on. You promised me that you would be the one to tell him if everything goes right. This is the only chance I am giving you to tell him straight from your mouth, or else I am getting that imaginary key I threw out that zipped my mouth and tell him right here, right now what the fuck is going on.” Gunsmile straightly said, annoyance visible on his tone. This is getting heated up.

Gunsmile warned and pointed his forefinger towards Bright, who just leaned back, afraid of the former. “And you know that I am not kidding around. Now, spill.” He said as he put down his finger and jerked his towards me.

This is really getting interesting. I am anxiously tapping my feet while looking at Bright with anticipation. “You know I am always ready with anything.” I grinned at them. Bright just sighed, defeated.

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Pod’s POV

Sitting, fidgeting on my foot, anxiously waiting on Krist to speak up. It’s been exactly 8 minutes since we finished our very quiet and intense lunch in the Communications department cafeteria. Mike and Krist on the opposite side of the table while Janhae, Bas, Toptap, and I on the other side. I am on the verge of flipping this table if Toptap was just not holding my wrist under the table. Janhae is not different from me. I know she is about to blow up but Bas is also calming her down. The students passing by our table either hurriedly walks away or avoids it. I don’t blame them. You can feel the icy-cold aura around our table. Krist in front is fidgeting on his fingers, sweating profusely, uneasily sitting, and stealing glances at us.

You might be thinking that we are over-reacting. I can tell you that we aren’t, for this is the first time that ever happened after a year of being with them. We are this protective of him, shielding him from this cruel world. Okay, I am protective of him. He is like a child; his innocence is like a child. I don’t know how many hungry wolves I already kept him from. From harmless flirting that he would obliviously think of it as a polite way to converse, to aggressive obsession where he would have to hide behind us.

There’s even this one time we were in the hallways going to the cafeteria, a girl struts confidently towards us and then swiftly grabs Krist’s collars and kissed him on his lips. We were all shocked until when he suddenly pushed the girl away then ran and hid behind between me and Toptap. The girl was about to approach him again when Janhae blocked her with Mike and Bas. It was a very memorable and chaotic scene. After that, we are always vigilant of the surroundings if ever another cuckoo would come near us.

I went out of my stupor when Mike cleared his throat loudly to get our attention. He looks at my hand on the table, and that’s when I realized I fisted my hand too much that my nails marked my palm. I glance at Krist then looked away when he looks at me worried.

We jumped in surprise when Janhae suddenly slammed her hands on the table. “I’ve had enough! We’re not here to stare at each other and not say anything!” I rarely see Janhae blow up like that, that’s why it still scares me a bit. She looks towards Krist who had his head down. “And you, young man? Don’t you have anything to say?” He slowly put his hands together and wai’ed at us still looking down.

“I am sorry…” He apologized. He slowly looks up and looks at us individually. “I’m sorry I troubled you with my recklessness yesterday. I apologize for my careless behavior. I am sorry if I worried you all. It is not intention to let you feel that way. I apologize that all I could say right now is sorry.” We all just sighed loudly, while Janhae on the other hand just scoffed and looked away, still looked a little angry but who could be mad at Krist for a long time. Even I, on the edge of grabbing him then talk to him alone and scold him. But I know I couldn’t do that.

I stood up and sat beside Krist then hugs him, and hugs me back in return. “I’m sorry I made you worried yesterday.” He whispered to me. I just hummed and rubs his back. “You know I can’t stay mad at you for a long time. But please next time, refrain from doing that if possible.” I broke the hug and caress his right cheek with my thumb, where his faint scar is found. “We know you are capable of handling yourself and have the freedom of your choice. But we, as your friends, are also worried about your safety so we need to know your whereabouts. Nosy and protective as you call it, but we are your friends. I hope you will be responsible enough to tell us next time.” He nods vigorously.

Bas stood up and hugs Krist from behind, followed by Toptap and Mike. I look at Janhae who was hesitating either to stand up or to just sit and mope. She looks at me and I cock my eyebrow at her. She rolled her eyes then stood up. She quickly went to Krist and hugs him tightly. "Don't you ever do that again or I am going to lock you up in my dungeon!" She threatened Krist. "Krist broke the hug and asked Jan, "You have a dungeon?!", eyes sparkling with excitement.

The cold aura was broken into a joyous one, when all of us laughed at what Krist said. He looked at us, confused why we were laughing. "What? Why?” He looks at Janhae again, tilting his head with still confused expression. I just ruffled his hair as we just chuckled at him for being adorably cute. The bell rang indicating that lunch was over.

“Pod, let’s go. I don’t want to be late in this class. You know how she hates late students in her class.” Bas said as he swings his backpack and drums his hands on the table, hurrying me up. I stood up and we bid goodbye at each other and go to our respective classes. I glance back at Krist who was shaking Janhae, still asking about her ‘dungeon’. I smiled to myself.

“You know, if you like him that much, you can ask him out.” I whip my face, looks down at Bas as he nonchalantly said that. “Wh-What do you m-mean…?” I stuttered, like there was a lump stuck in my throat. Bas just snorted, went inside the room and quickly sat down, with me sitting beside him. He leaned to me and whispered, “You’re being too obvious and I’m not the only one who noticed that you like Krist.” I was about to ask again when he quickly sat straight when our professor went inside and started to call us individually for attendance. ‘Fuck! Who else knew? How did they notice it? Am I really that obvious? Maybe I’m a little thankful that Krist is innocent and oblivious with things like these or else I am fucked up.’ I groaned and smack my head on my desk.

“…Suphakorn? Is Pod not around?”

“Present, ma’am!” I quickly raised my hand when Bas nudged me at my left arm. “You can skip my class if your mind is somewhere else.” Prof. Mayeena, our strict 50-something professor, as she tilted her glasses down and scrutinizes me above her tilted glasses. I just embarrassingly smiled. She clicked her tongue then continued on her roll-call. “Suradej, Bas.”

“Here, ma’am!” Bas answered also raising his hand. I gave Bas the stinky eye and he just shrugged and smiled. ‘Cheeky bastard.’ I sighed and rest my head on my hands.

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Toptap’s POV

Walking through the corridors with Mike holding onto my arm. “So? Did he tell you why was he MIA the whole afternoon till night yesterday?” I asked as I leaned in to him. I halted as he stopped in his tracks. He whipped his face to me, wide eyes. “Shit! He really just got away! Ugh! Damn that innocent little fucker! Damn that fucking dungeon!” Mike groaned as he leaned back his head while he brushed his hair with his hands. ‘Damn! He looks hot doing that.’ I grabbed his hand and drags him to the nearest male restroom. “Baby? Where are we going? We have class in 15 minutes.” Mike asked, blindly following me.

We went inside a cubicle and locked it. I turned to him. He was staring at me, eyes wide and lips apart. I smirked and slowly steps closer to him. I glanced at his now disheveled hair then to his dry lips. I unconsciously lick my lips. I slowly grip his hair and forcedly bent his head back exposing his tanned, veiny neck, his adam’s apple bobbed up and down as he visibly gulped. I slowly leaned into his neck and licked the base of his neck, to his jaw, then to his earlobe and bit it. I can feel him shiver at my touch. I smirked. After 8 months of dating, I still have this effect on him.

“We have class in 12 minutes. If you have something naughty in mind, please let’s make it quick. Don’t leave me with a hard-on because I can’t concentrate in class. I will just daydream about you riding –” I kissed his dry lips and licks it. “Your lips were dry. It needs to be wet.” His eyes glints with excitement then he kisses me fervently. I snake my hands to his ass and squeezed it. He moaned in my lips then I slid my tongue inside, exploring his mouth. “9 minutes left.” Mike reminded. “Just shut up…”

I kneeled and hurriedly unbuckled his belt and unzipped his pants. I pulled down his pants with his boxers. I gulped at his dick, proudly standing up in front of me. “Like what you see?” Mike asked, smirking. I may have seen, sucked and rode his dick many times, but I still get surprised at how big he is. I lick the tip, pre-cum oozing out. “Fuck!” Mike cussed as he held onto the tiled wall for support. I suck on the head, then slowly swallowing his whole dick in to my mouth. I bob my head up and down, then looks up at him. His lust-filled eyes looking at me, biting his lower lip to refrain from moaning. I am so turned on that I deep-throat him, my nose near his navel. I relax my throat and breathe through my nose.

“Fuck, baby! You like that? Swallowing daddy’s dick, huh?” I hummed and his dick twitched inside my mouth as he gripped his hands on my hair. I let go of his dick with a pop. I lick from the base of his dick to the tip then swallowed it again. I hurriedly bobbed my head fast as he was getting closer. I let out my also hard and angry cock out of the confines and strokes it while sucking my boyfriend’s dick.

“Yes, yes, baby… That’s it. Suck daddy like that. Make daddy proud.” This dirty talk is making me turned on more. I stroke faster and held on Mike’s hips to suck faster on his huge dick. “I’m close, baby… Yes, yes… Fuck!” Mike cussed then pants as he cum inside my mouth, swallowing clean all his seeds. I also cummed on my hand, right after him, dripping on my hand.

Mike bent down and kisses me passionately. He broke the kiss then helped me got up. He got some tissues to clean and fix ourselves, not leaving any evidences behind. I peeked outside the cubicle then slowly went out when there was no one in sight. We walked out of the restroom heading to our class and sat down like nothing happened. “That was the quickest quickie we had.” He whispered. I looked at my watch then leaned to him. “We just got here before time. We still have a minute till our professor will come in.”

“What were you thinking that you just hurriedly grabbed me and did that?” He asked curiously. “Not that I am complaining, it was hot as fuck! You are hot as fuck.” I just shrugged then leaned to his ear and whispered, “You look hot when you’re distressed then you just have to grab and brushed your hair with your hands like that in the middle of the hallways. If we just didn’t have any class, we would be in our room right now. Your hands tied on the bed posts with me, riding you, daddy, to oblivion.” I sat straight when our professor arrived. I glance at my boyfriend who was in a daze. I chuckled and elbowed him before he could go down to something more dirty thoughts. He just gulped hard, trying to concentrate on the lecture in front.

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CHAPTER 12

Krist’s POV

Running fast to my dorm building in a very hot afternoon, greeted Anuchit in the entrance then pushed the ‘up’ button on the elevator eagerly. I quickly went inside when it opened then pushed the button to my floor. Nervously tapping my right foot, biting my lower lip, wiped the sweat trickling down on my forehead with my hand, then gripped tightly on the sling of my backpack. I hurriedly went out of the elevator when it opens then rushed towards in front of my dorm room. Stopping, stood in front, calming myself before slowly entering my room.

"Hey, mom! Surprised and unexpected to see you here. What brings you to come here in my dorm? We could've met in a restaurant or somewhere else..." I carefully asked after I hugged and kissed her cheek. "I got some business to attend to nearby." She said as she sat down, comfortably leaned back and crossed her legs. I nod my head in understanding.

I went to the fridge and browse if I have something to offer. "Do you want to drink something, mom? I have water, some bottled green tea, and well of course, chocomilk. What do you prefer?"

"Water is fine, darling." She responded. I got a bottle water and got a glass. Poured the cold water then gave it to her. She quickly sipped on the cold beverage then put if down on the coffee table. I sat down beside her, waiting.

"So? What's the real reason you're here? You don't visit me unless it is an emergency, family-related or something business-related." I curiously asked. My last class of the day just dismissed when a message pops on my phone.

From: MommaBoo💓

MommaBoo💓: Krist, darling. I'm here in your dorm room. When your class ends, come meet me afterwards. I miss you na~ 😘

I just put away my things quickly then ran hurriedly going here. I was going to message Bright if he wants to hang-out after class. 'Shit! Does she know about us, that's why she's here? But we haven't met again after last night.' My heart was beating fast with the scenario playing in my head. She places her hand on my fidgeting one, and went out of my thoughts.

My mom glances then turned her body to face me. "Actually, your cousin from New York will come home next month." She started. "Which cousin, mom? You know I am really not that acquainted to any cousins outside the country, except for family gatherings." I confusingly asked.

"Your baby cousin from New York, Tu. She's coming home here. She will be here for good after graduating high school there. She's looking for a great quality university to enroll. I suggested your university. She will be admitting in business, though." She rubs her thumb on my hand, soothing me. "You remember her, right? Uncle Thiwat's daughter?"

"Oh! Baby Tunie? She's already going to college?" I asked surprisingly. Tu is a cousin from my paternal side. Her father, Uncle Thiwat, is my father's 1st cousin. So that makes us 2nd cousins. I think she has an older brother with a 5-year age gap, P'Luke, who is already working in their company.

I still remember every summer we would go to our private villa in Pattaya for family gatherings. We even invite Mike's and P'Apple's families. We still have those gatherings but it is different when it is incomplete. Then I seldom go now because of school and university stuff. Talk about being a college student. I miss those times.

“You, told me she will come home next month, but it is still in the middle of the first semester. Where will she stay and how long will she stay here?" I asked my mom. I mean, I can offer her a room here in my dorm building. "Don't worry about that. She will be staying with her brother. They have a condo nearby." She assured.

"P'Luke is also coming?" I jittered. It's not that I don't like P'Luke, but he is somewhat strict and too formal, when we only have a 3-year age gap. That's why it is shocking he would be coming here with Tu, when he could just continue to handle their business there.

"I heard from Thiwat that Luke would be meeting someone for business-related. He didn't really elaborate that part. He just asked to assure his children would be safe and comfortable staying here." Mom said, and I just nod my head in understanding.

"So, you, coming here, is related to them? You went to their supposedly place to stay for the time being?" I asked. Mom just grinned then cups my cheeks with her hands. "No doubt you are my son. You catch on quickly, honey." I smiled when she praised me then she kissed my forehead. She stared at me, scrutinizing me in her eyes. I chuckled nervously while sitting uneasily. "Is there something you want to say to me?" She asked and raised her eyebrow. I shook my head 'no', her hands still on my cheeks.

"You can tell me anything, Krist. I am your mother. You know very well that I love you. If there is something bothering you, you don't hesitate to tell me. I am always here for you, okay?" Mom convincingly said that I almost gave in when she hugs me tightly. "I am fine, mom. Nothing's bothering me." I kissed her cheek to ensure her.

“I must be going now. Pakorn is waiting downstairs.” She said as we got up then we went to the door. She kissed my cheek and caressed it, smiling. “Visit home some time, darling. They missed you, too. I love you, my sunshine.” I returned her smile. “I love you too, mom. Tell dad I’ve missed him, too. And nanna, also. Give them my regards.” Mon nodded and went out as we bid goodbye. I closed my door when she went inside the elevator. I, then, leaned my head, pound my head on it.

I'm still not ready. It's too soon to tell her. I am still worried and scared if I tell my parents, or my family, that I am dating someone, a guy for that matter. I don’t know how they will react to that news. Their only child, dating a guy. ‘Ugh!’ I don’t know what to do. I also haven’t told my friends anything, yet. I will, someday. I know they will be supportive, but I don't know how to tell them. It was good that I dodged them earlier at the cafeteria, but it will not take long that they will corner and ask me about it.

I shrieked when someone suddenly knocks on the door. I look through the peephole to see who was on the other side of the door. I quickly opened it and grabs the person then quickly closed it. I stiffened when the person suddenly turned me around and hugs me. I relaxed in the embrace and hugs back tightly, seeking comfort.

“Are you okay?” Bright asked as he kissed the top of my head. I just nodded and put my face in the crook of his neck, sniffing his scent.

“I’ve messaged you many times, but you didn’t read any of those. I was worried that something happened to you. I was in front of my door when a woman went out of your room.” I look up to him and kissed his chin. “It was my mom. She was in the area, so she visits me for a bit.” He nods, his mouth formed an ‘O’ in understanding.

I chuckled as he hugs me more. “Don’t be jealous, na~” I pouted and he pecks me on my lips. Bright broke the hug and grabs my hand as he led me to the sofa. “I messaged you if you want to hang out in my room for a bit, or maybe you want to go somewhere else. But you haven’t read any of those so, I came here to ask you personally. What do you think?” Stroking my hair while I’m leaning into him on his chest. “We’re already here, and we’re already hanging out.” I turned to him, my sight directly at his chin. “Why? Is there something you want to do?” I asked.

Bright just hugged me tightly, again. ‘Please don’t tempt me, Phi. I am barely on the edge.’ He kisses my hair and murmured under his breath. “What do you mean, Bright? What did I do?” I asked him, confused why he is accusing me of something I know nothing about. “Nothing, Phi’. Just… Just let me hug you. I just missed you...” I smiled and hugs him back. “I missed you, too”

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Bas’s POV

“Bas! Wait up! Hey!” Walking fast, looks at my shoulder, afraid that she would catch up to me. Not until I collapsed on to a wall and landed on my butt. “Ow!” I groaned in pain and touched my head where it hurts. “Are you okay?” The person asked and held out a hand to help me stand up. “I thought I bumped into a wall. I’m sorry for crashing in to you. I wasn’t looking in front of me – “

“Bas! Please talk to me!” The girl shouted on the hallways, students looking at her weirdly.

‘Shit!’ I look up to the person then gripped on the person’s waist and hid behind. “Please! Help me hide!” The person grabbed my hands that were on the waist and drags me inside an empty room. Quickly closes the door as the girl ran past the door we went, still shouting for me. I sighed loudly in relief and leaned on to the wall. I jump back when the person who helped me suddenly brushes the strands on my hair sideways, staring at my forehead. “Does it still hurt?” the person worriedly asked. I absentmindedly shook my head, looking up at the person’s face with fascination.

Dark-browned hair; tanned skin; dark, almond, worried orbs; long, pointy nose; chapped, thin lips but still inviting; prominent, sharp jaw. I look away when I think I stared at the person for too long, but my eyes just landed on the person’s manly chest. He’s too tall. “Th-Thank you, kind sir. For helping me.” I wai’ed at him as he wai’ed back. Fully looking at him, a six-feet tall lad, wearing a black shirt inside a denim jacket, paired with faded ripped jeans and black sneakers. A little too small compared to him, the top of my head is leveled at his broad shoulders. He may not be a student here.

“Excuse me, sir? I don’t mean to pry, but are you lost?” I asked, looking up at him. He smiled, showing his white teeth and a dimple peek at his cheeks. “That, I am. Kind of looking for my friends here. They are in the same faculty, though the other one is in a different department.” He explained.

“Which department are your friends, sir? Maybe I can help you.” I smiled a little as I offered. He waves his hands ‘no’ and chuckled. “Please, I am no ‘sir’. The name is Joss, Joss Way-ar.” He held out his hand for a hand shake. I slowly accepted his hand and shook it. “If I remember correctly, the girl screamed ‘Bas’, which I guess is your name.” I scratched my nose and nodded. “Yep. That’s me. The name’s Bas Suradej. I am sorry for troubling you, though.” I look down, embarrassed. “No worries, Bas. Glad I could help.” He smiled, looking down at me. I gaze away when he looks directly in my eyes.

“But first, we should get out of here. It is a little stuffy inside.” I opened the door and slowly peeked my head outside, looking left, then right. When I think the coast was clear, I stepped out of the room, with Joss following behind me.

“What department am I in?” He asked, looking around. “You are in my department, Communications Department.” I replied. “That’s why I didn’t see them around here. I’ve been searching for them in the wrong building.” He shook his head in disappointment then brushed his hair back. I stared at him mesmerized.

“So… which building is the Music and Performing Arts department?” He asked, his hair now disheveled, looking down at me. I slowly pointed the building next to mine. “Th-that is the Music Department then th-the other one, on the other side is the Performing Arts.” I stuttered, not looking him.

“Would you accompany me to find my friends? If that’s not a hassle for you. I’m scared if I get lost again in an unknown place.” He awkwardly smiled. I smiled back and nodded at him. “Sure.” We slowly walked towards the next building, which is the Music department. “My class ended a while ago, when that girl starts following and screaming my name. Girls are kind of scary, I tell you.” I shivered at the thought and at the scene earlier. He chuckled then he suddenly swept and protectively hugged me when a student ran fast passing us by, almost knocking me out.

“I’m sorry!” The student apologized still hurriedly running away, voice fading. I touch the left part of my chest where my heart is beating wildly, whether to the shock or because of the sudden skin-ship. “Why are students nowadays are being careless?” Joss clicked his tongue then looks at me. “Are you okay? I’m sorry I took you by surprise. if I didn’t, you would be on your ass the second time.” He said as he let go of me, then started to walk through the Music department’s building.

“Thank you, again, Joss. For helping me.” I shyly thanked him. “No biggie. I should also be thanking you. You are helping me not to be lost in this jungle of students. If it wasn’t for you, I would be just roaming around your building. So, I am also thanking you, for sparing your time to help me.”

“Then let’s just call this even, deal?” I take my hand out to seal the deal as we stopped in a wide, empty hallway. “Or I could take you out for coffee some time?” Joss took my hand with a firm grip then shook it. “A-are you as-asking me out?” I asked stuttering and blushing, astounded that he casually pops that question, like he does it usually. He pulled me towards him then leaned on me, while I leaned back when his face is inches away from mine.

He smirked then stood straight up and ruffles my hair. “Come on. We don’t have all day now, do we?” I gape at him as he walks through the hallways, still dumbfounded. “J-Joss! Wait up!” I called and ran towards him. “You really have long legs. I can’t easily catch up.” I said, panting as I walk beside him. He just chuckles.

The bell rang indicating that the class dismissed. The students swarming out of their classroom, walking or running through the hallways. Most of the students are eyeing the person beside me, who is very striking and eye-catching due to his height peeking through the crowd, looking around. While I, on the hand, is sticking to his side, afraid to get bumped again by students rushing through the hallways.

“Joss?!”

“Bas?!”

I look up when someone called my name and saw Krist with two other freshmen. One who is very tall, lean but muscular, is very popular and named as the Campus Hottie since the orientation. The other one is one tall lanky, white-skinned guy. Contrasting to my friend in between them, who is a foot smaller than them, and is wide-eyed, shocked. I look at the people beside him then back to him. My mouth hangs open, and is ready to interrogate him on why was he with them in the first place. It is likely they are in the middle of a heated discussion. He visibly gulped hard and shyly waves at me and chuckled.

“Bright! Gunsmile! There you are. I’ve been looking for you like forever.” Joss went to them and hugged both of the tall guys. Meanwhile, Krist moves away, avoiding the small reunion, then walks towards me with his head hangs low. I turn to him, crosses my arms on my chest and raised my eyebrow when he glances at me.

He sighed then looks at me. “I know, I know. I will have to explain myself to you.” I was about to say something when he cut me. “And I know this isn’t the only thing I will have to clarify to you and the gang. But don’t expect me to tell them about this, so please… Don’t tell them a single word about this. Please na, Bas?” He tugs on my shirt and pouted. I just rolled my eyes and merely nodded. It is true, no one can refuse him when he does that. He clings on my arm as he thanked me. “Thank you na, Bas! You are an angel!” He may be taller than me a couple of inches but I still patted his head when he put his head on my shoulder.

I look at Joss talking to his friends when my eyes landed on a certain scrutinizing one. I unconsciously shivered at his gaze. I slowly retract my arm where Krist was clinging, then the guy looks at Joss again. “Why were you with them? You don’t have the same classes with them.” Krist scratches his nape, avoiding my eyes. “I-I don’t know wh-what you’re talking a-about…” I groaned.

“Come on, Krist! We both know what I am talking about. You are smart. Don’t play dumb with me. I’m not Pod, so you can’t get away with it.” He sighed in defeat then looks at me, eagerness in his eyes. “If I tell you, promise me you can’t tell the other guys about this yet. Promise me, Bas.” He held out his pinky.

“Not even Mike?” I asked in disbelief, linking my pinky in his to seal the promise. He shook his head. “Nope. Not even Mike. You’re the only one I am going to tell and this will be the first and last. So, you should listen carefully when I say this.” I leaned to him when his mouth is near my ears, whispering the sentence I couldn’t believe, not even in a million years. “WHAT?!” Krist quickly covered my mouth, shushing me.

Students walks by, looking at us weirdly. I tap his hand that is on my mouth. He slowly withdraws his hand as I calm myself with the news I just heard firsthand. “What do you mean you are dating Bright?! That Bright? The campus hottie Bright?” He shyly smiled, blushing through his chubby cheeks, dimples peeking at his right cheek. ‘That’s why he was looking me like that.’ I snorted at my thought.

“Bas! Come. Meet my friends.” Joss called and signaled me to join them. Slowly walking to them, with Krist beside me. I look that Bright guy, still looking at me like a threat. I rolled my eyes and cocked an eyebrow at him. He quickly gaze his way to Krist, where a small smile is seen. I groaned internally. ‘Ugh! Another whipped ass for my friend.’

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CHAPTER 13

Gunsmile’s POV

"Hurry up, Bright! Don't be such a slowpoke!" I jump eagerly in place, waiting for Bright in his dorm lobby. "Calm your tits, Gun!" The latter strutting like he is in a runway, fixing his collar. "We don't have all day, and we have a class in about 10 minutes." I enlightened him. "I'm here, aren't I?" He scoffed as we went out of the building, walking towards the university. Foei is already at the university because he has an early class. Unlike us, our class will start at 9 am and it is already 8:53 am, which leaves us 7 minutes till class starts.

We hurried our pace and went directly inside our respective lecture hall and sat at the middle part. Timing, the bell rang and the professor walks in. 'Phew! That was close!' Bright nudged me at the side. "See? I told you we can make it." He bragged as he smirks. "And please, let's not do it again. I don't want to be pressured in going to class just because I am running late." I scolded him. He just shrugged and turned in front.

"Class, turn to page 156. Today, we will tackle the Ethics and Morality of Human Acts..."

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When Bright and I went out of the lecture hall after class, he hurriedly went to the classroom five doors away from ours. He stood there, rocking his feet back and forth, waiting for someone as people inside starts to get out. Students, mostly girls, getting out starts to whisper and squeal staring at Bright, who in return, is eagerly peeking inside the room. I facepalmed myself at him for being too obvious, which I thought they are making this 'relationship' secret.

Bright's face lightens up – smiled widely, sparkling eyes, staring solely on the milky-white, adorably, cute guy, talking to the professor inside. He glances at our way when he was done talking with the professor, eyes wide, surprised. Bright just gave a small wave to the cute guy, who was now cutely glaring at him.

When the classroom was already empty, the guy walks towards us, still glaring at Bright, who was still smiling. "What are you doing here?! Do you want to get caught? There will be a lot of rumors spreading with you just coming here! What were you thinking?!" The guy reprimanded Bright, then he looks at me with curiosity. He jerked his head towards me and asked Bright. "Is he your friend? The one that know about... you know?" He whispered, shying away, hiding from me.

I saluted at him. "The name is Gunsmile, Gunsmile Chanagun. I auditioned with Bright in the music org last week, Friday. And yes, I know about you two, so you don't have to be shy and awkward around me. I'm cool." I said and I brushed my hair back and smiled at him. He just cutely nods then glared at Bright again.

"Aww, Phi'! You know I can't help it. I haven't seen you for the last two days." I almost gagged at him when Bright suddenly whined and pouted. 'Wow! What a sight to behold!'

"We message each other every time, isn't it enough?" P'Krist asked, tilting his head, worried. Bright just smiled. "You know very well that everything about you is enough, but I still want to see you." I rolled my eyes. 'Where does this come from? This is not my friend! What the fuck happened to him?  My friend isn't sappy like this guy over here!' I cleared my throat loudly to let them know I am still here. Alive, still breathing, nearly going to choke because of this sappy asshole.

"Let's go! We can't hover around here in the hallways." P'Krist led the way, when I suddenly spot a very familiar tall guy amongst the crowd, with also a cutie beside him, sticking at his hip.

"Joss?!" Bright and I called in surprise.

"Bas?!" P'Krist called, who I think is also the cute one beside Joss.

I can tell that P'Krist is visibly shaking beside me. I know Bright can also feel him, looking P'Krist with worried eyes.

"Bright! Gunsmile! There you are. I've been looking for you like forever." Joss said as he hugged both Bright and I. I saw P'Krist walks towards his friend, who crosses his arms, looking mad at P'Krist. Joss broke the hug and smiles widely. "I've been looking for you guys almost an hour. The stupid part is that I looked for you in the wrong department." He laughed and shook his head in embarrassment. "Which department were you looking from?" I asked.

"The Communications department, the one next to this. I know. How dumb of me, why didn't I just ask some student where, blah, blah. But don't worry because accidently, somebody crashed on my back while avoiding some cuckoo girl. I helped him get away from that student and in return he helps me look for you." Joss explained.

Joss was still narrating what happened to him earlier when I glance at Bright. He was furiously eyeing the other cute guy, who patted P'Krist's head. I look at Joss again, trying to listen at him.

"... I want you guys to meet the guy who helped me in my misery earlier." He turned around and called the cute guy to come at us.

"Bas! Come. Meet my friends." The cute guy named Bas turned to us. His eyes look at P'Krist then at Joss, hesitating. Slowly walking towards us, with P'Krist beside him. He looks at Bright then cocks an eyebrow. 'Wow! Another sassy one.'  Bas stood beside Joss and wai'ed at us. Bright and I returned the greeting also with a wai.

"Hello. My name is Bas Suradej. Krist's friend. It is nice to meet you." He really emphasized the word 'friend' while glaring at Bright, while the latter just nodded. P'Krist, who stood beside P’Bas, also glared at Bright who is mouthing words at him. I look at them back and forth bickering. I cleared my throat and waves at P’Bas.

"Hi. I am Gunsmile. I am a friend of Joss, who you helped in finding us, which you did a very great job. I am also a friend of this guy, who you've been glaring at for the last 5 minutes you've met." He gaped at me, stunned at how I introduced myself. Bright snorted at me then looks at P’Bas. He just nodded and said his name, "Bright."

P’Bas just rolled his eyes and scoffed. There was a moment with awkward silence when P'Krist suddenly chuckled shyly. "Joss, right?" Joss smiled at P'Krist and nodded. "Hello! My name is Krist Perawat. I am friends with Bas since high school." P'Krist introduced himself, smiling widely and waves at Joss. I stumbled back when Bright suddenly pulled P'Krist to stand beside him. I rolled my eyes, P’Bas scoffed, while Joss raises his hands up and laughed.

P'Krist just scowled again at Bright, who was about to break a smile. "Do you have classes after?" Joss asked us. I look at my watch and shook my head 'no'. P'Krist and P’Bas also shook their heads. Joss smiled widely. "How about we continue this at a cafe nearby? Come on!"

Joss pulled P’Bas and walks beside him. Leaving us three following them behind with P'Krist between us, who was mumbling while shaking his head. "This is bad. This is very bad. This is just a nightmare. Please, let this be just a nightmare..." I glance at Bright who is enjoying his boyfriend's distress and misery.

I look in front, eyes couldn't believe when Joss leaned and whispered to the poor cute guy. I rubbed my eyes if I was seeing things. Joss laughed and drapes his arm on P’Bas's shoulder when the latter shoved his shoulders and pouted at the other side. 'God? I think this is a sign to give me my own person. I don't want to be a fifth wheel with them. The pain is excruciating.'

We went out of the university and crossed the road to go to a cafe two blocks away. I walk ahead of Bright and P'Krist as I tap Joss's shoulder. He looks back, eyes asking why. I showed him my phone with Foei's number in it. "Do I call him and meet with us at the cafe?" I asked. P’Bas innocently looks at us, curious.

Joss nodded. "Just message him. He doesn't have class right now, right?" I shook my head. I immediately message Foie.

To: FoeiPatPatPatara 🥸

Gun😊 : FOEI!!! WHERE ARE YOU?! COME QUICK HERE AT COFFEE BEAN AND SAVE ME FROM THIS MISERY! PLEASE SAVE ME FROM BEING A 5^TH WHEEL! I AM BEGGING YOU!!! 😭🙏

I quickly hit send as we entered the cafe. "We'll look for a table, Joss. You can order for us." P’Bas offered as he pulled P'Krist from Bright's side. He cocked an eyebrow which Bright just sighed and lead Joss towards the counter.  "What would you want, P’Bas? P'Krist?" I asked. I mean, those two didn't even bother asking them what they want. P’Bas was about to say their order when Bright suddenly butts in.

"I know what P'Krist wants. I am ordering for him." Bright said blankly but winked at P'Krist, which it didn't go unnoticed by P’Bas.

"Bas? Java Chip Macchiato is the one you want, right?" Joss asked softly at the smaller cute guy, who just slowly nods. The two cute ones went to find a table. Us, on the other hand, went in line in front of the counter.

Now, I really need Foei here. 'Where the fuck is this bastard when I needed him?!' The cafe bell rang as a panting Foei went inside and frantically look around and spotted me. Large strides coming to me as he engulfed me with a hug. The people inside the cafe looks at us, some are weird, some are smiling and giggling. I immediately pushed Foei, his eyes asking me why. I pulled him beside me, with Joss and Bright in front of the line.

"I read your message when I went out of the classroom. I ran fast coming here, saying you need saving from being a what? Fifth wheel? What the fuck do you mean by that?" I shushed him when he said it in a loud whisper. "You'll see when we get to sit down." He looks at me and nods in understanding.

"Welcome to Coffee Bean! What would you like to order?" The cashier asks, looking between Foei and I. "I'll just have a Mocha Frappe." I said, then the cashier looks her way at Foei. "I'll have the Red Velvet frappe." He smiled to the cashier, who bit her lower lip, preventing a smile. I rolled my eyes and groaned internally. 'Ugh! Not you, too! Please spare me from this misery!'

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Bright’s POV

Balancing the tray in my hands with beverages and pastries, slowly walking towards the table reserved for us near the floor-to-ceiling window. I carefully put the tray on the table and slid beside P’Krist, who was whispering and bickering to his well, I would say sassy, but that description is an understatement for his friend.

“Phi’? Here is your chocomilk and strawberry shortcake.” He turned to me and smiled cutely with his dimple peeking on his right cheek, as I whispered to him. “Thank you, Bright!” He immediately sips on his beverage and moaned as he licks his lips. I unconsciously gulped at the sight in front of me. I went out of my thoughts when his friend loudly cleared his throat, furrowed brows while glaring at me. I mockingly smiled at him when Joss sat in front of him and gave him his foods.

“Bas, here’s your Java Chip Macchiato and I also got you Choco-filled Madeleines. I don’t know which cake you preferred so I just got these instead. It’s fine, right?” Joss said as he sat down and places the food in front of P’Bas. “Thank you, Joss. You didn’t have to, you know?” The latter scratched his cheek as he replied.

I snorted internally when P’Bas shyly smiled at Joss, who smiled at him and ruffles his hair.

"...how could you do that to me?! You shouldn't leave me alone, Foei! I thought we're in this together?!"

"What do you mean leave you alone? I'm not going anywhere, you dimwit!"

I waved my hand towards Foei and Gunsmile, who were arguing walking to our table. Foei sat beside Joss, while Gunsmile sat beside him and in front of me.

"I just saw you flirted with the cashier! If you get to date her, then I'll be left as the only single person in our group and I don't like it! I also need to find my own so I wouldn't be the only one left single!"

He huffed as he said the last word then turned to his food and harshly ate his chocolate chip muffin, with angry eyes and creased forehead while crouching.

I look at Foei, raising my brows asking why was our goofball sulking. He just sighed loudly and starts to drink his beverage.

"Hey, Gunsmile! Why are you looking like an old man carrying the burden of the world? Cheer up, man!" Joss said as he smacks Gunsmile's back. I gulped hard when Gunsmile slowly turns to Joss still with his scowling face.

Foei leaned back to avoid the rage coming from Gunsmile. He rarely does this so I am still finding a way to diffuse the tension. I slowly reach to his arm and pat it slowly. He glanced at me at the corner of his eye. He sighed defeatedly and slumps back on to his chair.

"I'm sorry I ruined the mood. Just don't mind me. I'll be quiet now.” He said, his head down, while Foei slightly rubs his back to comfort him in his little moping. I turned to my left and faced P’Krist when he tugged my sleeve. “What’s wrong with him?” His doe-eyes asking curiously. “Nothing to worry about, Phi’. Just a little misunderstanding between them.” He nods, understanding, while protruding his lower lip. I turned my face away because I can feel my face heat up with him looking so innocent.

Foei suddenly cleared his throat loudly and smiled widely at the person in front of him, which happens to be my boyfriend. Foei held out his hand above the table to P’Krist. I glared at him when I noticed my boyfriend who was helpless at my friend’s meaningful wicked smile.

“Hello, P’Krist! It is nice to finally put a face, which is a very cute one, as the only person who caught our stone-hearted friend here. The name’s Foei. Foei Patara, and it is very lovely to meet you, Phi’!” he shook my boyfriend’s hand enthusiastically while the latter just awkwardly smiled and looks at me for help. I pulled their hands apart when he scoffed and mumbled. “Tch! Possessive much, are we? OW!” He glared at me in disbelief when I smacked his head while Gunsmile and Joss just laughed.

“This another cutie here, is also Krist’s friend, Bas. Bas, this is Foei, another friend of ours. He may look old, but he is still a freshman so, don’t confuse yourself why he would address you as ‘phi’.” We burst out laughing when Foei punched Joss’s arm with the latter’s impromptu introduction.

“Hello, Foei! My name’s Bas, Bas Suradej. And for the record, you don’t look old. You may look mature in your age, but you look really handsome. I’m not kidding and I rarely give compliments to people who I just met. You can ask Krist.” P’Bas said, eating his Madelaine elegantly while P’Krist just smiled and nods cutely.

Gunsmile suddenly whistled and pats Foei back, encouraging him. I bit my lower lip to suppress the chuckle when I saw Joss gaping at the sassy friend. Foei on the hand, had his hands on his cheeks, caressing them. “I think I’m blushing. Gun, are my blushes visible?” He turned to Gunsmile, the latter inspects his face and nods. “I rarely get compliments, and with that of a guy! To top it all off, I fucking blushed and my stomach fluttered!” Foei gasps and covered his mouth with one hand and the other to his left chest.

“Hey, Bas! What about me? Am I not handsome in your eyes?” Joss accused the sassy friend, sulking. P’Bas chuckled and pinched Joss’s cheek. “You know very well that you’re handsome. Just not the same vibe. You are more of a Hottie Style, while Foei is more of a Bad-Boy Style. Bright is more of a Boy-Next-Door Style and the other one is more of a… ‘Chandler Style’.”

“Chandler Style? What’s that?” Gunsmile asked as he was pertained as this ‘Chandler Style’. I leaned in to listen as I was also curious what it was.

“You don’t watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S.? Chandler, you know? Chandler Bing…?” My friends and I shook our heads, still no clue. P’Krist giggled while P’Bas groaned and leaned his head back. “I don’t want to explain anymore. You can search it on the net if you are that curious.”  He said and returned to his food.

“What is Chandler Style, Phi’?” I turned to P’krist, whispered my question, not to poke the annoyed friend. He smiled and stops drinking.

“Chandler Bing is a character in an american sit-com called FRIENDS. He is the goofball and the sarcastic one among the 6 friends. He is also a hopeless romantic, which he found his love with Monica, one of his friends and his best friend’s sister. Although Chandler felt like he is not that attractive compared to his other friends due to his insecurity with his awkwardness being in front of pretty and hot girls, his sarcasm and silliness sometimes has its perks to either bring home one, or get slapped at. Being the goofball and silly one with his sarcastic comments on the show makes him witty, unique, and loveable as a character. I, for one, also love his character. He is also my favorite.” P’Krist smiled at his last sentence. I wish I was with the Chandler Style. I want to be P’Krist’s style!

“Why are you pouting? Did something upset you?” P’Krist held my face with his right hand. I didn’t know I unconsciously pouted with my pondering. I sighed and look straight in his eyes. “Phi’, are you really alright? I mean, both my friends already knows that we are dating, though I gave you my word that we would keep this a secret for the time being until you’re ready. I’m sorry I didn’t keep my word.” I apologized sincerely, feeling guilty. He smiled and shook his head.

“Bright. You don’t have to apologize. I know how sorry you feel right now and I’m assuring you that it’s okay. Your friends already know, Bas already knows and I’m also planning to tell the rest of my gang someday. You know things like these are unavoidable. Besides, it was a stupid request anyway. Although, we still won’t announce it publicly, yet. Close friends can know even families… if that’s okay with you?” P’Krsit slowly asked, unsure. I smiled and ruffled his hair, looking adorably cute. I nodded and returned his smile. “Of course, Phi’. You know I’m just waiting for your signal.”

We sat straight, startled when Gunsmile suddenly talked.

“Hey, lovebirds! You know there are also other people in this table, right? Please respect.” Glowering at Gunsmile. My friends laughed, while P’Bas rolled his eyes but the corner of lips slightly smirked. P’Krist on the other hand just lowered his head, shying away from the teasing, holding my left hand, our fingers intertwining.

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Chapter Text

CHAPTER 14

Mike’s POV

"Where's Bas, Pod? Didn't you two have classes together?" I asked as I sat down at our table, with my baby beside me. "What about Krist, Mike? Where is he? Is he not with you?" I furrowed my brows, baffled. "I thought he's already with Bas, which I thought was with you."

"We went straight here after our last class for the morning." Toptap said.

"Hey, guys!" Janhae greeted, suddenly halted and looked around our table. She counted with her fingers then, "Where are the two kids? Shouldn't they be here by now?" Pod just groaned and pulled out his phone and called somebody, maybe Bas or Krist.

"Hey! Did you guys wait too long? Oh! I didn't notice you called, Pod." Bas gleefully greeted us as he sat down, with Krist following behind, visibly fidgeting slowly sitting down beside Bas.

"Where have you been, Bas?" Pod slowly asked. Bas just shrugged, "I went to get Krist in his building so we could come here together. We're here, aren't we? What's the big deal, Pod?" Asked Bas nonchalantly. Pod suddenly stood up but Janhae was fast enough to hold his shoulders and let him sit back down.

Krist just awkwardly chuckles to ease the tension. Bas quickly talked when Krist was about to stand up, "You should get your food already. Krist and I are still full so we--"

"What do you mean, full? You already ate without us?" I asked in disbelief. I mean, we always eat lunch together, also Bas is acting suspiciously. I know there's something going on.

Krist chuckled forcibly and nudged Bas at his side. "Well, we were already starving and we can't wait for you guys anymore. So, we ate ahead." Bas explained.

"Baby, I'll go get our food with Jan and Pod while you sit here with the kids. Don't be harsh with them. Talk to them calmly, ok?" Toptap said as he pinched my cheek and stood up, dragging Jan and Pod to the stalls. I turn to face the naughty kids at my side, who were whispering, obviously arguing at something. I leaned in to eavesdrop.

"... you said that we're full. We could just eat at least a little to lessen the suspicion. Mike is already scrutinizing my movements ever since. If we had classes together, you know he wouldn't leave me alone!"

"But I can't eat another bite, Krist! Joss already gave me too much food that I have to force myself to eat all the madeleines. Didn't Bright gave you two and a half slices of strawberry shortcake? Aren't you full because of that?"

"Yes, I am full! I can even barely sip water and I think anytime my tummy will burst out! Ugh! I hate this! But I'm afraid, Bas. You know that I don’t want to lie to them--"

"You don’t want to lie to us but you're having a hushed secret conversation with Bas. You don't even talk to me anything anymore, Krist. Gee! Thanks, man!" I said and stood up to walk away. I am hurt, jealous, frustrated, helpless, and feelings I can't describe at the moment. I was nearing the cafeteria exit door when I was suddenly turned and drags back to our table by Bas.

"Stop being such a dramatic baby! Would you just sit and calm your ass down?! We will tell you some time but not now. Just... wait, ok? Just shut up and act normal." Bas said as he sat down. Looking closely, he was also sweating than normal, wiping his hands on his black trousers, nervously gulping. Alright, then. I'll just wait, but I will not wait that long. My patience is running down with these kids.

I went out of my thoughts when I felt something cold on my right cheek. "Love? Are you okay? Penny for your thoughts?" Toptap said as he put down the food in front of us and our drinks. I smiled at him. "I love you so much, my Toptap. Always remember that, okay?" I kissed his blushing cheek. He punched my arm and bit his lip to restrain his smile. "I know. I love you, too. Now, eat. It seems like you're thinking too much." I nodded and had my first bite.

I look at Bas and Krist who were now on their phones. The former can't stop smiling, while the latter pursed his lips to refrain himself from smiling. I just shook my head and turned to my boyfriend and smiled. I am thankful at Toptap for everything. He's my own personal anchor, he keeps me on the ground, keeping me sane at times.

All of us were startled when Pod drops his tray of food on the table, with a scowl on his face. Janhae on the other hand, also with a frown. ‘What's with these friends of mine who's like holding the world's problems? ‘

I turned to my boyfriend and asks, "What happened to them? Did something happen at the stall?" Toptap sighs. "Well, they were arguing because Pod wanted to confront the kids about earlier. But Janhae told him that they will tell us when they want to and we will not force them, which I agreed to Jan. Yet, Pod was still adamant in pressing them to tell us. Good thing Jan is intimidating enough to stop Pod. Worse, he saw Krist on his phone the past few minutes with a small giggle and smile, with Bas also smiling wide. That explains the face."

‘Ahhh... I think the whipped tiger is jealous on who was on the other side of Krist's phone.' The owner looks like having the time of his day.

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The whole lunch was silent, except from the background sound of the other people inside the cafeteria. But at least we got through it, with Pod and Jan, who could explode any second like a time bomb. When the bell rang for the next class, Pod suddenly stood up with his tray with Jan following behind, still with the scowl on their faces. I heard Bas sighed loudly and muttered a quick goodbye to us then stared at me, his eyes saying, 'will explain later', then hurriedly followed behind Pod.

Krist, on the other hand, is gripping his phone tightly. He jumped on his seat, scared written on face, when I turned to him and cleared my throat. "Hey... Don't scare the kid, Mike." Toptap said behind me, tugging the hem of my shirt.

"I am not, love. Why would he be scared? He didn't do anything to be scared of me. Am I right, Krist?" I eyed him. Tugging his lower lip, sweating hands, and slowly nods his head, avoiding eye contact.

“I uhh… I, I got to go… Class. Hehe.” He hurriedly said while standing up and nervously chuckled. “Krist! Krist! Message me, you asshole!” He turned and wai’ed before dashing out of the cafeteria, leaving Toptap and I looking at him, lost in the sea of people.

“Come on, love. We also have classes to attend to. We’ll deal with them later.” Toptap nodded. We stood up and went out to go to class. ‘Patience, Mike. They’ll tell you someday like they promised. Patience…’ I convinced myself to assure and calm myself from the stress building inside me because of those reckless kids.

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Janhae’s POV

“Yes.”

“Everything.”

“Send it to me after class…”

“Make sure not to leave any single detail…”

“Transaction is still the same.”

“Okay.”

“Thanks…”

I ended the call and smiled wickedly at my reflection on the mirror. Good thing I’m the only one inside the girl’s restroom or else, if anyone could see me, they would think I am plotting a murder in my mind. Well technically not a murder, but just running a little background check on the guys Krist and Bas ate with on the coffee shop. ‘Those cunning, little kids. They need to be punished for being reckless and secretive. And this isn’t the first time Krist did this. I’ll make sure he’ll learn his lesson this time.’

How I knew about it?

Earlier, my class before lunch was cancelled so, my girl-friends offered to go to a certain restaurant 2 blocks away from the university. Walking along the sidewalk, I saw in a certain coffee shop near the restaurant my friend recommended were the two mindless kids, who were animatedly bickering, like in a heated discussion. They were near the window so my instinct was to wave at them to notice me and surprise them. It turns out, it was the opposite. I saw a handsome man sat beside Krist, brought him his food, and the latter smiled widely, while Bas rolled his eyes. When another bulky, also handsome man sat beside Bas, who instantly smiled shyly at the former. ‘Okay… This is getting interesting.’  I gaze away from the lovely sight when Sandy called me.

“Jannie! What are you doing? Let’s go! We were already going in when I didn’t notice you weren’t following behind. Are you okay? It seems like you just saw a ghost or something.” Sandy links her arm pulling me.

I smiled at her and shake my head. She pulled me towards the resto and looked at them once again, with two other guys sat with them. So, there are four guys ate with them that we didn't know who they were. Three guys. I know the guy who sat beside Krist. He is famous for he is one of the Campus Hotties. He got famous overnight after the freshman orientation. I just forgot his name.

"Sandy! Jan! Where were you? We're waiting for you both before we order." Lara said while skimming through the menu. I sat down in front of Pim. "Jan, water. Drink it. You are sweating." Pim offered. I smiled as I thanked her. My appetite was fading away so, I just ordered a light meal, which got me shocking faces by my friends.

"I'm fine. Just a little under the weather. Please don't mind me. I'm good." They nodded as I assured them, still hesitant. Our food arrived minutes after.

They were discussing the group project in our Urban Planning Design when I asked them about that guy. "Hey, sorry to interrupt. Random but quick question, who was that Campus Hottie that got famous overnight in IG?"

They all looked at me like I’ve grown another head. “What? Just curious, okay?” I shrugged.

“You don’t know him? Girl, he was all over IG. There was even this one time when he got splashed by a drink, a chocomilk to be exact. People inside the MPAC cafeteria was waiting for him to lash out on the owner…” Sandy tattled beside me.

“Oh, yeah! I remember that incident. A friend of mine who was there was also dumbfounded when that hottie suddenly drags the offender out of the crowd and the cafeteria. The people didn’t get to see the face of the offender because his back was facing the watchers. It was gossip-worthy on campus but the friend he was with was adamant on not spreading the incident any further.” Pim chimed in with her news.

I nodded my head, but I still didn’t get the name. “So, who is it? There was no name mentioned.”

“His name’s Bright, Bright Vachirawit. IG username I think was @.BrightVC.” I quickly opened my phone then went to Instagram and searched for his IG. I scrolled through until I saw the other three guys who was with them. ‘Gotcha!’ I smiled to myself when Sandy nudged me with her elbow. I looked at them when they were all looking at me. “What?”

“Why were you asking about him suddenly? Are you sure it’s just curiosity?” Pim asked. I laughed at her question. I covered my mouth with my hand and just nod my head. “Really. I am just plainly curious, that’s all.” I looked at my watch and noticed it was nearing lunch time. Timing, we were about to go also.

“Would you go to the coffee shop next door? I heard they have the very soothing beverages and scrumptious pastries. Who’s in?” Lara said with excitement.

“I’m in!” “Me, too!” Sandy and Pim agreed.

“I’m sorry, you guys… I have to raincheck. I already have plans. Another time, yeah?” I am sincerely apologetic, but I really need to hurry up and go there before those kids arrive earlier than me. I gave them quick goodbye hugs. “We’ll see each other next class.”

I waved at them then hurried my pace to the university.

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Which, I am right. Mike, Toptap, and Pod were already there, wherein the kids were still nowhere to be found. I smirk internally when the said kids arrived not much later. I quickly hold on to Pod when he was about to stand and lash out on the kids. Good thing Toptap brought Pod and I to the stalls.

"Why can't we just ask them where they were?! Bas and I part ways, when I was called into the Music org. I haven't seen him right after our last class dismissed, and it was a couple of hours ago! Krist on the other hand, has been very silent and secretive these days. Why can't we just corner and ask them to spill the truth?!" Pod lashed out when I looked at him with fierce eyes.

"And then what? Scare the shit out of them because of your impulsiveness? It clearly shows that they're still not fine to tell us with anything. Don’t force them, be patient. We know in no time, Krist will be the one to tell us. You know damn well that he can't keep his mind and mouth shut when there is something bothering him." I told him still looking through his eyes.

Pod and I are still glaring at each other, when he closed his eyes and sighed loudly to calm himself. I smiled internally when I won the argument. Toptap pats my shoulder and smiled at me, thanking for calming Pod. But the scowl on Pod's face came back when we got to our table, when he saw Krist giggling on his phone while Bas was smiling widely, also on his phone.

'Why can't they just be discreet about it?! Now, Pod is on the verge of lashing out again. Ugh! I really hate dramas.'

Good thing I ate a little at the resto so, I get to eat my usual amount of meal. When the bell rang for the next class, Pod stood up with his tray while I followed behind him. Pace quickened to my faculty's building, didn't even bother to bid them goodbye, well due to some reasons and I was also on a hurry, which leads us here in the girl's restroom in my faculty building.

I went out of my stupor when my phone rang. I answered Pim, who called that the professor's already there. The grin didn't leave my face even when I got out of the restroom. Can't wait for my classes to end.

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After class ended, I immediately bid goodbyes to my friends and hurriedly went to my dorm. As I arrived, a package was given to me by the receptionist. Quickly entering my dorm room and closed the door. I sat down on the couch in my mini-Living room. Opening the package that had the ‘CONFIDENTIAL’ stamp on.

Reading what was on the papers, I smiled at myself. ‘Interesting…’

I would give Krist and Bas an applause for getting loaded fishes out in the sea. I think I know why would they hide this from us. I mean, if both or either of them is dating one of these boys – it will be chaos. One, Pod would be enraged by this news due to his feelings for Krist. Second, I doubt Krist will ever come out and tell everybody he is dating one of the campus hotties. Third, it is big news for them that Krist is dating a guy, when in fact, he was head over heels on their childhood friend. Maybe he got over it and moved on, or got swayed by this Bright. I mean, who wouldn’t? He is good-looking and hot, but still, not my type. Flipping through the pages, I realized that they are not mere ordinary students. They have solid family backgrounds, like us.

I put down the papers on the coffee table and leaned back on the couch. Thinking, how did they meet? Is it through business deals? Some charity galas? A mutual friend? Some cliché scenes where they bumped and it was love at first sight? I doubt the last one.

I shook my head and went to the bathroom to freshen up. I’ll think about that problem later. I still have plates to draft.

CONFIDENTIAL CITIZEN’S PROFILE

CITIZEN’S PROFILE

Name: Bright Vachirawit Chivaaree

Sex: Male

Birth Date: December 27, 1997

Age: 20 years old

Height: 1.84 m

Weight: 73kg

Blood Type: AB+

Nationality: Thai

ID No.: 1 6046 85100 06 5

Permanent Address: Mueang Nakhon Pathom District, Thailand
Current Address: 254 Phaya Thai Rd, Wang Mai, Pathum Wan District, Bangkok 10330, Thailand

Father: Chet Sanukchet Chivaaree (Charms Intls. & Co.)
Mother: Prim Prudence Niyumsil
Sibling/s: Earth Pirapat Watthanasetsiri

Marital Status: Single

Social Media:
Instagram - @.BrightVC
Facebook – Bright Vachirawit
Twitter - @.BrightVC
Email – [email protected]

Shoe Size: 11/12 US

Waistline: 32”

Education:
- Triam Udom Suksa School
- Nawaminthrachinuthit Bodindecha School
- Suankularb Wittayalai School
- Webster University Bangkok -Thailand
     - (Music, Performing Arts, Communications Faculty; Music Major)

Favorite Foods: Steak, Sushi, Spicy foods, egg tarts, cheese tarts
Dislike Foods: Vegetables but he’s fine with salad
                        : something that makes him feels ‘yuck’ like squid
                        : green tea, raisins, bubble tea, durians, dried fruit
Favorite Soccer club: Manchester United
Favorite color: Blue and Black
Skills: Sing, guitar, bass drums, keyboard
Hobbies: Music, Photography, Soccer, Big Bikes, Muay Thai

CITIZEN’S PROFILE

Name: Foei Patara Eksangkul

Sex: Male

Birth Date: May 10, 1997

Age: 20 years old

Height: 1.76 m

Weight: 64kg

Blood Type: A+

Nationality: Thai

ID No.: 1 5635 01760 48 2

Permanent Address: Kanniwet Village, Bang Khae Nuea, Lang Song, Bangkok 10160, Thailand
Current Address: 58 Soi Rong Mueang 3, Rong Muang, Pathum Wan District, Bangkok 10330, Thailand

Father: Time Viravan Eksangkul
Mother: Nena Suttatip Petchsuk
Sibling/s: -none-

Marital Status: Single

Social Media:
Instagram - @..foeiifoeiiPatme
Facebook – Foei Patara
Twitter - @..foeiifoeiiPatme
Email – [email protected]

Shoe Size: 10/11 US

Waistline: 30”

Education:
- Bodindecha (Sing Singhaseni) School
- Suankularb Wittayalai School
- Webster University Bangkok -Thailand
     - (Music, Performing Arts, Communications Faculty; Performing Arts Major)

Favorite Foods: Healthy foods, More on Leafy vegetables
Dislike Foods: too much carbs
                      : fatty foods
Favorite Soccer club: Manchester United
Favorite color: Brown and White
Skills: Rap, Guitar, Act, Cooking
Hobbies: Paint, Big Bikes, Soccer, Muay Thai, Swimming, Surfing

CITIZEN’S PROFILE

Name: Gunsmile Chanagun Arpornsutinan

Sex: Male

Birth Date: March 3, 1997

Age: 20 years old

Height: 1.82 m

Weight: 69kg

Blood Type: A+

Nationality: Thai

ID No.: 1 9345 02203 05 7

Permanent Address: Kasithon Village, Bang Phai, Bang Khae, Bangkok 10160, Thailand
Current Address: 58 Soi Rong Mueang 3, Rong Muang, Pathum Wan District, Bangkok 10330, Thailand

Father: Tex Vittiwat Arpornsutinan
Mother: Fern Veerakan Chumpoo
Sibling/s: -none-

Marital Status: Single

Social Media:
Instagram - @_gunsssmile_303
Facebook – Gunsmile Chanagun
Twitter - @_gunsssmile_303
Email – [email protected]

Shoe Size: 11/12 US

Waistline: 32”

Education:
- Bodindecha (Sing Singhaseni) School
- Suankularb Wittayalai School
- Webster University Bangkok -Thailand     - (Music, Performing Arts, Communications Faculty; Music Major)

Favorite Foods: Burgers, Fries, more likely fast-foods
Dislike Foods: Bitter and bland foods
Favorite Soccer club: Manchester United
Favorite color: Green, Purple, Black, and Peach
Skills: Sing, Guitar, Bass, Keyboard
Hobbies: Soccer, Muay Thai, Tattoo, Big Bikes

CITIZEN’S PROFILE

Name: Joss Way-Ar Sangngern

Sex: Male

Birth Date: March 8, 1993

Age: 24 years old

Height: 1.90 m

Weight: 81kg

Blood Type: B+

Nationality: Thai

ID No.: 2 4290 88000 23 2

Permanent Address: Thung Song, Nakhon Si Thammarat, Thailand
Current Address: 380 Sukhumvit 71 Rd, Khlong Tan Nuea, Watthana, Bangkok 10110, Thailand

Father: Reth Chakorn Sangngern
Mother:  Amm Jirapreeya Arkomdhon
Sibling/s: -none-

Marital Status: Single

Social Media:
Instagram - @Way_arJoss08
Facebook – Joss Way-Ar
Twitter - @Way_arJoss08
Email – [email protected]

Shoe Size: 11/12 US

Waistline: 32”

Education:
- Sarasas Witaed Saimai School
- Traill International School
- Chulalongkorn University
     - (Music, Performing Arts, Communications Faculty; Communications Major)
            - (Graduate Batch 2016)

Favorite Foods: Thai delicacies
Dislike Foods: Unknown foods
Favorite Soccer club: Manchester United
Favorite color: Black and White
Skills: Sing, Guitar, Act, Disc Jockey, Taekwondo, Krav Maga
Hobbies: Soccer, Big Bikes, Muay Thai, Swimming, Air Soft

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CHAPTER 15

Krist's POV

"Thank you all for coming and once again, congratulations to all new members of our music org!" Howls and cheers were heard inside the org room as P'Godt ended his speech.

I look at the guy at the corner table with his friend, checking if he was still listening. But to my surprise, he was staring at me intently, in which I lowered down my gaze.

But that didn't take long as I whipped my head back up, when P'Godt suddenly called me.

"Krist? Do you have anything to add?" He asked, his eyes saying that I should at least say something to the new members. I slowly stood up and looked around. I really don't like to talk in front of many people, much less to those who are new to me.

I smiled at them then looked back at P'Godt, asking some help, but he just stared back at me. I gulped and chuckled nervously in front.

"Well, uhmmm... First of all, congratulations again to all of you, for being part of this org, this family. If you are troubled or you need to ask something, you shouldn't hesitate to go to your senior members. We are happy to help you. Some may look intimidating and unapproachable, but they are also willing to lend you a hand when you need one."

I look around and I see unknown faces looking at me, waiting for me to continue. Then I saw Pod mouthing, telling me to go on and made an 'ok' sign.

"A-Another thing is, we have an outing, or more like a Team Building Outing, for newer members to be acquainted more to the older members. We will have it next weekend. More details will be posted on our board, maybe tomorrow. I think that's all for this afternoon... right, Pres?"

I look at P'Godt, asking if that was all. He looked away quickly, cleared his throat after nodding at me. I smiled widely then clapped my hands, thinking of eating after this meeting.

"Well, I think that's it guys! I hope we'll all be good friends. Ang again, congratulations and welcome! You can all go. Be safe going out!" People cheering inside while slowly dispersing.

I hurriedly packed my things and ready to leave when two people suddenly called me almost the same time.

"P'Krist!"

"Krist."

I look up to see Bright and his friend, then P'Godt. Both looking at each other, surprised. Our heads went to the other person who called me.

"Krist! Let's go. They're all waiting outside." Pod said as he jogged towards me then slung his arm around my shoulder. Pod looked at them fiercely, while P'Godt and Bright both looked at Pod then at his arm on my shoulder.

I don't why the tension between the three was so thick, I can't even cut it with a knife. I cleared my throat and turned to P'Godt.

"Is there something you want to say, Phi'?"

Hesitating to talk, he sighed and just looks at me with his famous poker face. "Don't forget about the final details for the outing. That's all." He said, then quickly turned around and went to his table.

"Uhmm, Bright? I think we should also go." I look at Bright, who didn't even budge when Gunsmile was tugging his shirt, still glaring at the arm on my shoulder.

"Is there something you need, nong?" Pod asked Bright, who now looked at Pod. He looked at me briefly and smiled a little, then looked at Pod again. "Nothing Phi'. I was just going to ask him about something. I don't remember anymore. Maybe, some other time. I apologize." He said, still smiling.

"Hey, B-Bright wait -" He and Gunsmile wai'ed at us then left, not giving me a glance, then just disappeared out the door.

"I didn't know you knew him. How did you know each other..."

I felt a little down and was about to tear up when he didn't even let me speak. I almost forgot that Pod was with me. He gripped my shoulder and looked at me. I quickly look away when a tear was going to escape.

"Krist? Are you okay? Hey, look at me." Pod tried to touch my cheeks when I look at him and smiled. "I'm fine, Pod. Let's go! They must be waiting long now. I'm also starving."

Quickly taking my bag, walking past him, quickly out the door.

"Krist, wait!" Pod called, following behind me.

I know, how petty of me. I was the one who told Bright not to tell them yet, for I was not ready, but when he looked at me like that - like I was just a senior to him, an acquaintance, a friend - it didn't sit right in my heart and my stomach churned. I want to call him and hug him right now, tell him that I still like him and him telling me the same thing.

I was almost drowned in my thoughts, when I was suddenly grabbed by the arm. I look at person who grabbed me, but was engulfed with a hug. I just hugged back and silently sobbed.

"Shh... Krist? Why are crying? Are you okay? Did something happen, honey?" Toptap asked as he caressed my hair and rubbed my back. I just let out the sadness I felt, to ease the aching and tinge of pain in my heart.

I don't know how many minutes passed by, I realized I still needed to message Bright. I slowly broke the hug then Toptap took out his hanky and wiped my face.

"You big baby... You know you can't just walk around with a hazy mind or else you get lost, be in trouble, or worse, kidnap you. You're lucky it was us you passed by, which you didn't even noticed." He said, putting the hanky on my nose then I blew on it.

"Calm down, Krist. Here. Good thing you have water with you. Drink, so you won't be dehydrated." I focused on the water bottle, my vision still blurry with all the sweat and tears still in there.

"Are you okay now? Or you still need some time?" He asked slowly. I shook my head. Toptap took my hand and rubs his thumb on it. "I don't know what happened or what you were thinking earlier that made you this upset, always know that you are not alone in this okay? I am here... Mike, Bas, Jan, and Pod. We are always here. You are surrounded with people who loves you dearly." He said as he fixes my hair and shirt.

"I-I'm so-sorry..." I sniffed and hiccupped the words I said. I look at him. "I'm sorry... I know you have a lot of questions, but for now, I still can't answer you right at this moment. Can you give me time to think things? Is it okay?" I really don't know but I still can't tell them, not in this state though.

He smiled warmly and nodded as he caressed my hair. I smiled back and hugged him again. "You know, raising a big baby is really difficult. I didn't know being friends with you guys, is like signing a contract to babysit you and Bas." I bit his shoulder as he laughed.

"Ow! Ow! I'm sorry! Ow!" He laughed. "See?! A baby throwing tantrums." He suddenly dashed away to our other friends not far from us, with me following behind.

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Bright's POV

I groaned out loud as I stood up when someone decided to knock continuously on my door at an un-godly hour.

"What?!" I whisperedly scream when I jerked open the door only to find P'Krist in his yellow robe gaping at my disheveled, unstable state.

I was going to let him in as he cutely waved his hand and smiled, dimples popping, when I remembered why I was sulking at him. I was going to close the door when he stopped it with his hand pressing on the door.

"Bright, please! I-I can explain! Just let me in, please..." He asked, his eyes going to water anytime. I looked away and huffed a breath. 'What? I can't be mad at him. He's too cute!'

I gestured him to come inside and slowly went into the sofa. "Sit." He turned to me and spread his arms wide, like waiting for me to hug him. I stared at him, hesitating to just let it go - well it was just a petty jealousy in my part, but whatever - or to sulk more. I was going to go with the latter choice but I saw his watery eyes. I quickly engulfed him with a very tight hug.

"I'm sorry-" His voice croaked.

"Shh.. It's okay. I was just being petty. I'm sorry, too."

Shushing him as he still continually sobbed on my chest. Caressing his hair and back to soothe him, starting to relax on my arms.

"Feeling better?" He nodded meekly.

"What were you going to ask earlier?" He softly asks as he propped his chin on my chest and his red, doe, misty eyes looking at me. I sighed and kissed both his eyes then look at him.

"Well... I was just going to invite you to dinner with Gunsmile and Foei, just to celebrate a little achievement from us... You know, being accepted from the music org." I cupped his face and pinch his chubby, blushing cheeks. 'How can he still be cute and beautiful when he just literally finished crying?'

"Or you could've just texted me, you know. I would go with you in other way I can." I chuckled as he pouted.

"I know... I know that. It's just... It was something of a personal celebration that's why I also wanted to invite you personally." I said as I was caressing his cheeks with my thumb.

"Are we good now? Are you not mad at me anymore?" P'Krist asked, his eyes starting to water again. I smiled wide and kissed him to assure that it's fine and was already over it.

"I was not mad... and we're good now. I'm really sorry, but it was just very petty of me to be jealous of them. I know, I know... I should know better because I'm your boyfriend. But that doesn't mean I don't get jealous from other guys who are practically glued to your hips. And don't get me started when you smile at them brightly. God, I just want to drag you away from them and lock you somewhere, where they can't see you anymore. Do you know how tempting it is to do that?" I huffed after I ranted. 'What? You can't blame me! Have you seen him? He's so innocent and cute and charming and all. Ugh!'

"Now you know how I feel most of the times when your fangirls are swooning on your snobbish attitude. I mean, I don't get why they think that's hot when you're basically just rude to them. And I did not mean that I tolerate that kind of behavior." He huffed on my chest.

"Let's just don't think about it too much. I like you, Bright. I chose you to be with me, didn't I? You get this one thing straight in your head: You don't have any competition from other people because it is you who I like and in a relationship with. I'm happy that you get jealous but it isn't a reason to be mad at. Instead, we can talk it out and soothe things between us. I admit I was hurt when you avoided me earlier, but I know it's my fault because I was the one who wanted this relationship to be kept hidden until I'm ready. And again, I'm sorry. I promise to take care of it sooner. Can you bear with me?"

I smiled at him and his cute, innocent face. I bumped my nose against his then nodded 'yes'. I mean, we've gotten this far and I, for one, wouldn't give him up just because of that. Though I don't like it a little bit, but it's him. I squeezed him tightly and kissed his cheeks. 'Sigh... Anything for you my innocent, baby.'

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"Bright!"

I jumped on my seat when Foei screamed my name. 'Seriously, dude. I'm right next to you.' I covered my ears as I glared at him. "You don't have to shout on my ear. I'm right beside you, you dimwit!"

"I wouldn't have to scream on your ear, if you just paid attention when I first called your name. Been calling you for seven times already." He deadpans.

"Are you okay? What were you thinking about? Was it P'Krist? Did he break up with your dumbass?" Gunsmile continuously asked.

I flicked his forehead with all the absurd questions. I huffed and slumped on my chair. "No. And if he wants that, I wouldn't let that happen. Not now, not ever." I unconsciously smiled at the memory of him, his cute and puffy face and doe eyes. 'Ghaaad... I miss him already!'

"Stop pouting, you fool! You can message P'Krist if you're missing him that much. It's not like he's on the other side of the globe." As Foei smacked my arm.

"I know that! But I can't help it. I haven't spent time with him for a week that's why I'm missing him. He's been with his friends all the time and when he tries to get out, one of them has to hold him down. Even P'Bas can't help him." I smack my head on the table with a loud thud.

'Tch! I want to kill these two, laughing at my expense.' I look up to them, their shoulders shaking, eyes crinkled, mouths hidden behind their hands.

We were startled when a guy suddenly sits beside Gunsmile, ducking his head, as if he's on a secret look-out. He looked at us only to find P'Bas.

"Phi', what are you--" Gunsmile was cut-off when P'Bas hissed at us, glaring.

"Shush! This is going to be quick, so listen here. I'm going to distract my friends, then you, Bright, will take Krist somewhere reachable but not near in sight. I don't want my friend to be cornered when obviously he's still not ready." He looks at me, his eyes telling me that he trusts me. "I'll get him after 5 minutes. No more, no less. Exactly at 5 minutes. You hear me?"

I smiled widely and nodded. "Thank you so much, Phi'! I owe you one."

Then he looked at my friends and pointed at them. "And you two, you will be with me as their look-out. Capichè?"

The two eagerly nodded their head whilst smiling. I shake my head. "This is a secret mission, Foei! We should do our best. Fighting!" Gunsmile enthusiastically said.

"Will you keep it down? My friends know that I'm here. Looking for a table is my excuse to talk to you." P'Bas shushed the giddy Gunsmile.

P'Bas looks at me and said, "They will be here in about few minutes. I'll just give you a signal of when you'll go out, okay?"

"Yes, phi'..." I grinned. 'Can't wait.'

P'Bas then stood up and sat to a long table, 3 tables from ours.

Just like P'Bas said, after a few minutes, P'Krist and his friends went inside the cafeteria and went to P'Bas, waving at them. P'Krist slightly gaze at me and waved his hand cutely and mouthed, "Hi."

I also discreetly waved at him and mouthed, "Miss you." to which his eyes widen and glanced away as he blushes pink. I look at P'Bas again as he signed for me to walk out of the cafeteria with Foei and Gunsmile. Standing up, once again looking at P'Krist.

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CHAPTER 16

Bas’s POV

I noticed that Bright and his friends went out of the cafeteria, I stood up and hauled Krist up.

"Where are you going, Bas? Why would you bring Krist with you?" Podd asked, his eyes glaring. 'Ugh! When does he stop being possessive of Krist when in fact, he doesn't have the guts to confess first!' I breathed in and out, then looked at him.

"Since I was the only one who came here and reserved this table to wait for your lazy asses, I need to go number 2 and I need Krist to accompany me, since he will be there if I needed something. You go eat first. We'll eat after I finish. We won't be long and I need to go. Come on, Krist!"

"I'll go with--" Podd was about to stand up and follow when Janhae held his arm and motioned him to sit back down.

"Go now, Bas. We'll eat first. Don't be long, okay?" Toptap said as he also stood up with Mike and went to the stalls.

Hurriedly went out of the cafeteria dragging Krist with me, I spot the freshmen under a huge tree, far from sight but not that far from the cafeteria. Running towards them, Krist suddenly asks, "Where are we going, Bas? This isn't the way to the comfort room."

"Just come with me and thank me later, okay?" I smiled at his confused face. 'This better be worth it.'

"Hey! Here's Krist. And 5 minutes on the clock." I shoved Krist towards Bright, who immediately caught him. They look at each other and smiled, forgetting other people around them. 'Tch! How whipped is this guy for my friend?'

I turn and went with Gunsmile and Foei, not that far from them. 'Now, I've done my thing to keep Krist from sulking... for now.'

"Ehem!"

I look up and my eyes widen in horror when I see Janhae in front of me, smirking, eyes staring and arms crossed. I nervously chuckled when she eyed the two guys on my right side, who, in fact, are scared of their wits because of this intimidating friend of mine.

"Obviously, this isn't the men's bathroom, and I didn't see you going number two." She smiled mockingly as she caught me lying.

"W-well.. I uh...--"

"--Or is it Krist going number two?" She asked, cutting me off, clearly, she knows something.

I stood up straight, crossing my arms and also glaring at her, mirroring her posture. "I know you know something that's why you're this calm. So? Come on, ask. I know there are a lot of questions in your head right now."

Her stare turned into an amused one as she laughed. 'Okay...? I know she was crazy, but I didn't know she was this crazy.'

"Oh Bas, honey!" She exclaimed as she wipes the tears on her eyes. She then clears her throat and calms herself. "I'm sorry, but I think I know more than you do. And by the way, I think they lack one guy. Joss, is it? Joss... Way-ar? Ring any bell?" She smirked at me as she flipped her hair.

"Oh, wait! He already graduated. My bad, I forgot." She chuckled evilly. 'Okay, now I'm getting scared and nervous. How did she know? Were we not careful enough?'

"Don't worry, Bas. I'm on your side." She walks towards me as she pats my head. "Time is ticking. 3 minutes already passed by. And you boys..." She turned on my right where Foei and Gunsmile are holding each other, gaping at my friend. She may be my friend, but she still scares me sometimes, just like now.

"Stop scaring the guys, Jan. They mean no harm."

"Oh, I know they mean no harm. I mean, look at them they are so cute, holding one another." She said as she pinches both Foei's and Gunsmile's cheek. I even heard a whimper from one of them.

Janhae turned to me and smirked. "Let's talk some time Bas and bring Krist with you, okay?" I unconsciously nod at her. "Call Krist, now. I'll go first. Bye boys... See you around!"

She said as she waves her hand while walking towards the cafeteria.

'Shit! We're doomed, aren't we?'

I look back at Bright and Krist. They are still hugging and talking. 'Could you please take your hands off of each other?! You're in a public place for pete's sake!'

"P'Bas...?"

"What?!"

Both flinched as I screamed. I breathed in and out to calm myself. I look at them, still clutching. "Yes? What is it?"

"Uhmm... 5 minutes is about to end. Do we tell them now?" Foei asked.

I sighed loudly then nodded as my response.

Both guys scrammed to get the lovebirds, as I'm standing still on my place, contemplating on how I will tell Krist that Janhae found out, or tell Janhae on why we're hiding them this kind of thing from them. I groaned out loud and stomp my feet. 'It gets really frustrating! Why can't we just tell everyone what is going on so no more secrets and mission impossible for me! Ugh!'

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Janhae's POV

'Oh my...! It was fun riling up Bas for a moment. Now, this is where the show starts.' Smirking as I thought to myself, walking towards our table in the cafeteria. Now, here's the uneasy tiger waiting for Bas and Krist to come back. 'If he just confessed earlier than that freshman, then maybe he'll get a chance, but no... just cowardly looking at the cute, naive turtle, who by the way, doesn't have any clue that someone is ready to devour him.'

I plop down next to Podd as I smack his shoulder. "Would you stop fidgeting on your seat? Or do you also need to go to the toilet?" I reprimanded him to stop.

"You know that's not the case." He spoke. At least he stopped.

"It’s just been, what? 5 minutes? Would you be done in that amount of time?" I asked, raising an eyebrow.

He groaned as he ducks his head down. "But why does he have to bring Krist with him?" He whined. 'Gawd... Why are my friends such babies?! I didn't sign up for this!"

"Look." I turn to him and said, "Bas is not feeling well and he needs a friend to accompany him if the situation gets worst. Do you get me?"

He sighed then nodded, silently continue eating. Not long after, the kids got back, already with their lunch tray.

"Hey, Bas. Feeling better now?" Toptap asked.

Bas suddenly stopped his spoon midway, mouth wide open. He cleared his throat and nodded. "Yeah... just a minor stomachache. No need to worry." He nervously chuckled as he eats.

"That's good. Because if it gets worse, you'll have to skip our org meeting this afternoon. Was it scheduled this afternoon, Krist?" Toptap queried.

Krist nodded his head. "Yeah. I posted the memo on the board and on our page. I think P'Godt already finalized the new group bands. But I'm not really sure so, we'll still see. He didn't really tell me much, but I think that will be it."

I watch Krist, scrutinizing his behavior. 'Hmm... He didn't stutter nor has been feeling down after meeting with his secret man. In fact, it's like he's being reborn, with all the positive things going on his way. Ugh... Inspired much? Can't he at least be subtle about it? I can feel Podd's slight frown from here, looking at Krist.'

"You will be regrouped again? But why? What if you won't be in the same group? Then you will have different practice schedules, or new friends to hang-out with, or what if there is only one who will be in a different band group?!" Mike whined and ranted.

Toptap glared at his boyfriend that is clinging to him. "Just like Krist said, maybe that's not the case. But we'll still see."

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Toptap's POV

"I'll be regrouping you."

Loud gasps and several confused and shock faces were heard and seen inside the org room as P'Godt announced the unexpected – expected – news.

"Wow. Surprise, surprise... Not!" Bas hissed and ranted beside me, so low that only Krist and I can hear.

"Before you all complain, this isn't a new thing to music org. Every year, senior members graduate so new members are added. Because of that, we regroup our bands so that you can all mingle and jam with one another, get to know the other members. And please, senior members, give the new ones, warm welcomes from you." P'Godt reprimanded after he explains the situation.

He holds up a paper, "This right here, is the list of new bands that are regrouped. Please be mindful that who you are with, be respectful towards one another. I don't want anyone of you calling me because of some misunderstandings and petty fights. Understood?"

"Yes..." Responded lifelessly, obvious that most didn't want to accept the sudden changes.

"Am I understood?!" All of us flinched as P'Godt screamed.

"YES!" Responded loudly.

"Now, here are the new groups..." P'Godt announced the group bands one after another.

'Oh hell,no... No, no, no...! Why am I the only one in a different band group?! Can't I stay with my old band members? Now I know what Mike felt earlier, and much worse. Oh, fuck it!' I fumed on my mind.

"You can now go and meet your new members per group. And again, be nice to one another. That's all." P'Godt dismissed us as he went with Krist and his new group. In fact, Pod, Bas, and Krist, are with P’Godt and a freshman, who is very familiar.

“Hey, Toptap!” I look back to see P’Guy pats my shoulder. I sighed heavily. At least I still have P’Guy. I went to my group members. We're forming the armchairs in a small circle so we could clearly look and talk to one another. We also have a freshman in our group.

"Hello everyone, I am Guy Sivakorn. I'm a 4th year. This one here is Lee Thanat, then TopTap Jirakit, and Sing Harit." P'Guy started.

"Hello! I'm Lee Thanat, I'm in my 3rd year. I play bass, guitar, and I can also sing." P'Lee introduced himself as he was sitting beside P'Guy.

"Well, hello. I am Toptap Jirakit. I'm a sophomore and I play piano and keyboard." I introduced myself.

"I'm Sing Harit and I'm happy to be grouped with you guys! I'm also in my 2nd year." Sing enthusiastically introduced himself.

We all looked at the freshman in front of us, shyly smiling and wai'ed at us, greeting.

"Don't be shy, na~ We are not going to bite your head off-- Ow! What? What did I do?" Sing pouted while caressing his head when P'Guy smacked it.

"Then stop saying ridiculous things and scaring the guy. Can't you see he's nervous enough?" P'Guy reprimanded Sing.

"I'm sorry, phi'. Hey, freshman! You can start anytime now. Hihihi~" Sing giggled when he avoided P'Lee's smack.

"Hello, Phi's... My name is Gunsmile Chanagun. I'm a freshman in MPAC, Music major. I can sing, can also play guitar and piano." The freshman wai'ed, greeting us.

"So, P'Guy... Do we assign ourselves, or you would take the honor of doing that for us?" Sing asked, his head tilting playfully. P'Guy just sighed deeply and nodded.

"I'll just assign, if that's okay with all of you."

"Yes, phi'."

"Sure, phi'."

"Okay~! Thank you, phi'!"

"Assign what, phi'?"

We all look at the freshman. Sing abruptly put his arm around the freshman's shoulder as he leaned on to him. I just rolled my eyes at his antics.

"You see, kid. P'Guy here, can see one's potential and talent. It was a great help when you told us what you can do. I know whatever P'Guy will assign you, you can do it and you will do it. There is no one who can decline P'Guy... except a certain sophomore who's very cute and handsome." Sing nodded his head, like he is realizing something.

The freshman has confusion written all over his face, looking at Sing. While P'Lee and I are shaking our heads, chuckling at the scene.

"Is it you, phi'?" The freshman asked.

Sing rolled his eyes as he slumped down on the armchair he sat on. He huffed as he said, "I wish..." We laughed at Sing when he said that.

"How I wish I get to be Krist even for just a day. He's a music genius, you know what I mean? He can play almost all types of musical instruments. Hell, he can even sing and rap! He can catch your attention with just him smiling and he can make people mesmerize with his voice. And don't get me started when he pouts, and those puppy eyes he makes when he wants something. Even if he is just sitting, sipping on his choco drink, people would be swooning on his cute face. Even P'Godt, Pod, you, you, you, the girls and even guys swoon over him. I want to experience that too, even just for a day... Ow! What did I say wrong this time? You all know it's true! Ow! Stop hitting me!"

Sing defended himself with his arms as P'Guy, P'Lee, and I, hit him altogether. We stopped after a while, laughing at Sing when he was fixing his hair. Then the freshman suddenly murmured beside me, that my ears perked at what he said.

"P'Krist? All people are whipped at him? Bright is enough, please. I can't handle his possessiveness anymore."

"What?!" I screamed obliviously, that my bandmates look at me weirdly. I smile at them sheepishly and wave my hands nothing. P'Lee was about to ask what, when P'Godt announced that we should be passing our band name with the members' name and roles in the band.

P'Guy clapped his hands. "Okay! This is what we're going to do. Toptap obviously plays the keyboard so, you'll be that. Sing, you'll be playing the drums. Don't! I know you can play drums. Lee, you'll be the lead guitarist, I will play the bass, and our freshman here, Gunsmile is it?"

Gunsmile smiled and nodded.

"Yes, Gunsmile here would be our vocalist. We'll change from time to time to experience more. So, any arguments? Not accepting any arguments from you." P'Guy said, pointedly looking at Sing, who is gaping at P'Guy.

"Phi'! You haven't heard what I'm going to say, yet!"

"Shush! Nothing good comes from that mouth of yours. No more? Okay. I'll pass this to Godt." P'Guy was about to stand up when P'Lee asked, "What about our band name, P'Guy?"

"Please submit your band name and members now! You can go after you've submitted." P'Godt announced again.

P'Guy sat back and scribbled something on the paper then hastily stood up, passing our paper.

"What did you put there, phi'?" I asked curiously.

"We'll talk about that later. We've already secured our roles in our band. As of now, let's leave it that way." P'Guy giggled evilly.

I wonder what he wrote on the paper for our band name.

"Share us your contact details so that we could make our own group chat." P'Lee said, taking our phones out.

Notifications are heard after sharing one's contacts.

"We'll see each other sometime. Just message on our group chat. And Sing, please... don't send unnecessary messages?" P'Guy sighed for the nth time that hour alone.

"Awh, phi'! You know I don't do that--" Sing said defensively. When P'Guy, P'Lee, and I look at him, not believing a word he said.

"-all the time..." He added.

We stood up, laughing at him as he is moping about our group chat, even the freshman is already laughing with us.

What could that freshman have murmured, meant? Sigh... I hope this goes well. Fingers crossed.

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CHAPTER 17

Mike's POV

Waiting on the bench outside, near the music org room, students are already filing out one-by-one. Standing up as I spot my baby boo went out of the door. Hurriedly strapping my bag, going to him. I also see Krist, that looks gloomy, followed by Podd and Bas, who's scowling. 'Why are they looking like that, like they're having a heated fight inside? Did something happen? Even my baby does not look good.'

"What happened to you?" I asked them. Bas looks at me with his scowling face, next to him is Pod, also with the same expression.

Bas points at me, still with his brows furrowed. "Not a word." As he huffs, stomping his foot while dragging Krist out, who also looks like a kid being scolded for eating sweets without permission.

"What's wrong with them?" My Toptap asks. 'Oh, I thought they were in a meeting? How come he doesn't know what happened?'

"I should be the one asking that. I was not there when things happened. Pod, what happened? Why were they behaving like that? Did something happen at the meeting?"

Podd inhaled then exhaled deeply while closing his eyes, maybe calming his nerves. 'Now, what really happened inside? I need the deets!'

"Just don't ask me. I'm really not in the mood to recollect what happened earlier. Please excuse me, I still have other business to attend to. Later, guys." Podd said, walking away, leaving Toptap and I dumbfounded.

"Okay, what’s with the attitude? Bitchy much?" I scoffed at their behavior. I look at my baby beside me, also with a distress face.

"Baby, what's wrong? What happened inside in your meeting?" I asked, cupping his face. He pouts and sighs.

"It happened, baby. P'Godt regrouped us again, and I'm in a different group now. Good thing P'Guy is still with me, though. Then P'Lee and Sing is with us, too, and a freshman. Although it isn't really that bad, it's not that great either. So, yeah. That's what happened in mine." He sighed looking at me.

He raised his brows, with a baffled face, "I don't know why they were like that either. I was also upset with the new arrangement but, I don't have any other choice. Maybe they were also unhappy."

I kissed his pouting lips. "Maybe. So, you really don't have any idea what happened to those bitchy friends of ours?" I asked, holding his hand, walking through the hallway, going out.

Toptap shook his head. "Nope. I mean, I don't get why would they be upset. They're in one group, unlike me. They even have P'Godt and also a freshman in their band."

Rubbing my thumb on Toptap's hand, telling him that I'm still here for him. He looks at me and I smiled at him widely, returning his smile.

"You know next time, please don't say something or anything so tactless for that matter. You kind of jinxed us of what happened earlier. If maybe, you didn't mention about regrouping, then maybe it won't happen." My baby said as he pats my cheek and walks ahead of me.

I was left there dumbfounded. I went out of my thoughts when Toptap laughed loudly. "Baby! You know that's not what I wanted to happen! I was just thinking of possibilities so that we would know what to do when that possibility happens. Just like this! At least you get to prepare yourself for any inevitable things." I said, catching up to him.

He kissed my cheek and smiled. "I know, you little overthinker. Thank you, for always being there for me. I love you, my baby boo."

"I love you too, my baby boo! And yes, I'm your little overthinker." I proudly said, winking at him.

Toptap lightly pushed me, shying away as I notice he begins to blush. 'Ugh! My heart! I think it's going to explode because of his cuteness!'

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Bas's POV

'How does being discreet, going to be a hard thing to do for those sappy little motherfuckers, who by the way, are eye-fucking the entire group meeting, with not just me as an audience, but THREE of us! And you know what's worse? Please! Ask me! Even if you don't ask, I'll tell you. That's right! None other than Podd and P'Godt! I know Podd has been having this intense crush on Krist since our freshman year, but too coward to confess. Well, P'Godt on the other hand, I thought it was just a special treatment because Krist is our VP in the music org. But nooo... He does that fucking special treatment is because he also has these special feelings for my friend, who all of you knows that my friend is one dense piece of shit when it comes to people who likes him, unless being confessed head-on and personally. That's how he can identify and differentiate being friendly and flirting with him. Ugh! So much stress!'  

I massage my temple as I ranted inside my head because obviously, I can't scold this fucker, sitting far away from me. I look at him, side-eyed. I furrowed my brows more when he sighed loudly for the nth time.

'What could he be sighing for, right now? I should be the one sighing loudly with all the drama unfolded earlier!' He sighed again and I can't help it that I turned to him. "Oh, for fuck's sake, Krist! Stop sighing! I'm the one who should be stressed here, while you're here, slumped, moping like some kid who didn't get his favorite candy in the candy shop!"

He flinched when I suddenly screamed at him. He lowered down his head and was about sigh again when I held both his shoulders and turn his body to look at me. "What do you want to do, now? It seems like Podd has already an idea that you like someone, and a guy for that matter." I said, tapping my foot anxiously.

Krist looks at me and asked, “Wait, don't tell me Podd's homophobic? I don't like that kind of people." His voice low, getting worked up.

I rolled my eyes. "No, you idiot! I thought you're keeping your relationship a secret and yet, you both were so obvious like the daylight, that even the group next to ours can see you and Bright were flirting and eye-fucking. Krist! You know he is the most sought out hottie in the campus this year. Everyone, and I mean, every student with eyes and ears, can see and hear you both. Do you understand what I am trying to say?!" I asked shaking him, to juggle his mind, maybe to let him see the obvious reasons.

"I can't help it, okay?" He whined, rolling back his head. "He was so dreamy earlier and it also didn't help that I felt excited and giddy that we would be in one band and then make music together and have more time with him! You know what I mean?! I get to be with him without hiding anything!" Krist enthusiastically said, with his eyes sparkling, his cheeks slowly blushing.

I look at him in disbelief. 'That's what he's been thinking the entire time? I can't believe this kid. Here I am stressing over his secret love life, while he's thinking of exposing it to the whole campus, heck! To the whole world if that's not obvious enough!'

"So, what you're trying to say is that you're ready to tell, not just our friends, but also the whole campus that you are dating Bright? Not just any student, but Bright Vahirawit Chivaaree, the campus hottie? Is that what you want? Because, hell! We could call our friends right now and tell them what's going on with your exciting love life." I told him, exasperated of the drama and my head is aching with all the things unfolded that are hard to grasp as of the moment.

That's when Krist went out of his daydream and his eyes widen with horror as he is digesting what I just suggested. He slowly shook his head then shakes it faster while closing his eyes, chanting no's.

"What are you afraid of, Krist? You know well that our friends will accept you for who you are. Nobody is going to judge you. We love you.” I held his hands as he was fidgeting.

"You know dating with the same sex is not a problem. Mike is dating Toptap and we accepted them because they love and make each other happy. If loving Bright makes you happy, then who are we to stop you? Always choose your happiness first than the judgement of others. You're not alone, Krist. I support you with your decision. But right now, you really need to decide." I cup his cheek with my hand, reassuring him.

He looks down as he whispers, "Then, help me."

I raise my brows, making him say it loudly and make him continue what he was going to say. "Help you with what exactly?" He cleared his throat then looks at me, eyes determined.

"Help me. Help me to keep it a secret as long as I tell you, that we're ready to come out then we'll tell them ourselves. Can you help me?"

I smiled at him as his determination is oozing and I'm proud of him. I nodded and said, "Yes, I'll help you."

He smiled widely then hugged me tight. I also returned his hug and whispered to him, "One more thing. Jan knows you're dating Bright."

Krist abruptly broke the hug, holding my shoulders, his horrified eyes widen and mouth gaping.

"WHAT?!"

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Bright's POV

"Hey, man. I heard that your boyfriend is quite popular and a music genius for that matter." Gunsmile suddenly said while walking out the org room.

"I know he's popular and a music genius. What's your point, Gunsmile?"

I look at him confused why he suddenly told me that.

He sighed then pats my back. "Just so you know, if you think you're popular, he's five times more popular than you. Better protect and tell other people that he's taken or else..."

"Or else what?" I asked him, annoyed.

"Or else other people will snatch him away from you. You're not the only one that fancies him."

I scoffed. "I don't just fancy him. I love P'Krist. It's him or no one."

Gunsmile scoffed and shrugs. "Yeah, sure. Just giving you a heads up."

“What do you mean, Gusnmile? Is there someone who tries to woo P’Krist?”

We halted at the hallway when he turns to me.

“I’m not scaring you or anything, Bright. As a supportive and loving friend of yours, I’m just giving you a heads up, a warning, that you’re not the only one that likes - or loves, just like you said - your P’Krist. A lot of people are looking up at him. I know P’Krist is oblivious with all of these, I think that’s why his friends are with him all the time. Just think about it, Bright. I know Foei would agree with me with this one. We support you and your relationship. You love him, right? Then take a step forward. Just a friendly advice.” He said as he pats my shoulder.

I look at him confused as he walks fast before me. I was about to catch up to him when my phone rings. Irritated looking for my phone when it stopped ringing. I immediately look at the caller when it ringed again and saw my mom calling.

"Mom? Why the sudden call? Did something happen?" I anxiously asked. I heard a low chuckle on the other side of the line and that's when I sigh of relief.

"Nothing happened, son. Just checking if you're okay. You haven't called lately. Just worried how you're doing. Can't a mother worry about her son?" I rolled my eyes at her question.

"I didn't mean it that way. I'm sorry. I'm fine, don't worry about me here. People don't bother me here, except you know, Foei and Gunsmile." I smiled just thinking of the crazy duo, walking through the park benches near the org room.

"That's good to hear, Bright. At least you're having fun and you're loving it there. Don't forget about your folks here, alright? We may not be the best, but you know we're always doing what we think is best for you. You know that, right?" Mom said as her voice became low and soft.

I silently clicked my tongue when a sudden rough moment came back between my parents and I. I sighed as I sat down, leaning my head on my right hand, as my left holding the phone on my ear.

"I-I know, mom. Uhm... how's d-dad?" I cleared my throat asking that question.

"He's fine, though he's been pressuring your brother with the business. I wish there's something I could help, but you know, business isn't my strongest asset." I could hear mom sighed.

"I know you're calling me about something, mom. What is it?"

"How can you tell, dear?"

“You sound anxious. Is everything really alright?”

A soft chuckle was heard on the other line. “It’s fine, really. Can I request something from you, Bright?” Her voice getting softer.

“I’ll try if I can do it. Cannot promise you anything ahead. What is it, mom?”

“Can you go home this next weekend?”

‘I wonder what this is about. I don’t remember any special occasion on that weekend either. It’s not like she would be hesitant to tell me anything, but I’ll never know if I won’t go so— ‘

“Sure, mom. What time? I’ll try to free my sched that weekend.”

“Perfect! Be here at lunch by then, okay? I miss you, my boy. Keep safe, Bright. Mommy loves you so much, okay?”

“Come on, mom! I’m not a kid anymore, and I love you, too. Bye!” I quickly ended the call before she could talk.

Sighing, I smack my head on the bench table, creating a loud thud.

Thinking back to what Gunsmile said about P’Krist, what did he mean about that?

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Podd’s POV

‘I don’t understand. I really do not understand a thing. How can it be? How did it even happen?! Didn’t I protect him enough that, that freshman got close to him? Too close for my liking. Ugh! Worst thing, they were flirting in front of us! Though, not really that open but if observed closely, it is clear they were flirting. I didn’t even have any idea that he also sways that way! I was very cautious to him, slowly and steadily warming in his heart, but just got beaten by that freshman?!’

I stopped at a secluded alley a little far from the university, knowing not one of my friends followed me behind.

“AAAAAAAHHHHH—”

“You know you shouldn’t scream in places like this. It disturbs other people who are near the vicinity.”

I immediately stopped as I widen my eyes with the familiarity of the voice. ‘No… I know that voice very well. But it can’t be. Shouldn’t he be out of the country for his business? Why the fuck is he here?!’

Slowly turning my head, looking over at my shoulder to look at the person behind me, with his chocolate-colored, three-piece-neat-Armani suit; shiny, black, leather shoes; auburn black, combed hair; standing too formal, clearly not dressed for a place like this. Again, what the fucking fuck is he doing here?!

He softly chuckled as he slowly took off his sunglasses, if I know a very expensive sunglasses, as he looks at me.

I cleared my throat as I slowly turned my body around to fully face him, while he’s slowly walking to me. Stepping back one step at a time as he is also stepping towards me. He stopped as I was already glued to the wall.

“Stop! What is it that you want? Shouldn’t you be out of the country? New York or Switzerland, perhaps? Why the fuck are you here anyway!?” Panicking as his face is near mine, closing my eyes shut, my hands on his chest, stopping his advances. ‘It’s not like I like to touch him, but I have no other choice!’

Slowly opening my left eye when I heard him laugh as he makes distance between us. I huffed and straighten the strap of my bag when he still didn’t stop laughing.

“I’m going now.”

“No, wait. I’m sorry. I’m stopping, just don’t go yet.” He said, still laughing in between.

I sighed again. “To what do I owe this presence of yours? Wait, don’t tell me you were following behind me? Okay, that’s just borderline creepy. I didn’t know you would stoop that low, phi’.”

He looks at me confused at first, then morphed into shock then hurt. “What?! It was just a coincidence that I was going to your university, which I didn’t know at first until you walked out of the main gate, okay?”

I raised my brow, not believing at him a bit. He sighed.

“I’m telling the truth, Podd. You know I’m not the type to lie, especially to you. It was just pure coincidence. My brother’s also studying at the same university you are at. It just happens I was going in, when I saw you in rage and fuming going out. I know your temper and how hot-headed you are, so I followed you here. And please, don’t call me a stalker. You know me very well that I am not, Podd.”

I look at him straight in his eyes, well, trying to intimidate him, but we both know I can’t. I slowly nodded, accepting his reason. He smiled widely, showing his perfect, white teeth.

“Let me ask you again, why are you here, phi’? Didn’t you just said you were going to your brother?” Leaning on to the wall next to me, watching him as he smiled then bowed his head.

“Always so curious. I forgot how of a busybody you are.” He chuckled as I scoffed.

“Yes, I was going to my brother, but just like I said, I saw you. It’s been years since we last saw each other and I was also curious about you. And I’m glad I saw you and even get to talk to you.”

“Well, too bad, I’m not. After this, I hope I don’t get to see you again. I’m really going. I wish I could say it was nice meeting you, but I also don’t like lying, so… Goodbye.” About to walk out when his arm stopped me, his hand on the wall.

“Ohh, that’s bad, because as long as I’m still here in Thailand, we’ll get to see each other, whether you like it or not.” He mischievously smirked.

“I said fuck off, P’Earth. Don’t follow me.” I duck my head under his arm then walked out the alley. Turning my head, sneakily looking at my shoulder, there he is, as he already put his sunglasses back on. He waves at me, grinning at my way. Snapped my head at front as I walk faster.

‘Why do I have to see him today? Of all the days, why today?! This is the worst of them all!’

I thought as I’m grumbling all the way to my dorm building.

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CHAPTER 18

Krist's POV

"KRIST PERAWAT!"

I bolted up on my seat when someone screamed my name.

"I'm awake, and definitely not sleeping!" I said as I blink my blurry eyes, still with a hazy mind, trying to focus the person in front of me, which I assumed who called my name.

As my sight becomes clearer, the person that’s standing in front of me is tapping his shoe, crossing his arms, with an unimpressed face.

"Hehe~ Yes, prof?"

Prof. Nont just sighed and turned his back on me as he went in front of the class again.

"Next time, I will not tolerate sleeping students inside my class. Even if you are one of the top students in our department. This will be my last warning, Khun Krist Perawat, and I mean it.

Again! Your midterm exams or recitals for this semester will be in less than three months. I hope you'll prepare something that will worth your grades. Krist Perawat, in my office after class. Class dismissed!"

I close my eyes and groaned as I smack my head on my desk creating an audible thud.

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Dragging my feet, walking in to my dorm building's lobby as I deeply sighed, head looking down.

"Phi'? Are you okay? What happened?"

I look up as I saw Bright stood up straight from sitting on one of the sofas. Pacing fast to him as he engulfed me in a bear hug and squeezed me tight. I relieved a sigh, being comfortable in his arms.

He kissed the top of my head and asked me what happened.

"I slept." I said and pouted, my chin resting on his chest.

"Prof. Nont's class really bored you, that you slept?" He chuckled as he caresses his thumb on my cheeks.

"Come on. Let me help you to relieve your stress." Bright said, his voice raspy.

"Are you okay? Are you not feeling well? You sound like you're having a cold." I asked worriedly then touched his forehead and mine to compare our temperature, because he really sounds like he is not feeling well.

He groaned then suddenly laughed. I look at him confused why he suddenly laughed like a madman, and in the middle of the lobby, looking around and saw Khun Anuchit's shoulder shaking as he is trying to mask his laughs.

"Nothing, phi'. Let's just go." He said, shaking his head and grabbed my wrist, him leading us out.

"Bright, wait! Where are you taking me?" He looked back at me and smirked, getting inside the elevator and pressed our floor button.

"Let’s go anywhere and do what you want. But first, let’s change. Okay?” He ruffled my hair and smiled. I grinned widely at him and nodded. ‘Ohhh… this is going to be fun!’

“No backsies? Anywhere and anything I want?” I look at him expectantly, as his eyes are now reluctant at his offer. “Let’s seal it with a handshake.” I grabbed his hand, forced him to seal the deal. I’m already laughing evilly in my mind, even though I know it is very obvious of my wide, excited grin plastered on my face.

Before he could say anything, I bolted out on the elevator as it dings and opens. “We’ll meet at the lobby in 15 minutes! Don’t be late!” I said to Bright as I was running towards my room. I heard him shout back, “See ‘ya!” as I closed my door. ‘Now, time to change. Mwahaha! Can’t wait!’

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“Why didn’t we just use my bike for transportation? And out of all the choices there are, you picked a train. A very congested, over-populated – busy people tightly pressed in a small tube – train. Were you planning to torture me? Because I would say, a job very well done.”

I giggled at Bright complaining and ranting behind me. Like any other gentlemen, or just men at general, standing on the middle part holding onto the designated hanging holder. Obviously, I don't know what it's called because this is my first riding a train so, yeah. I already give the impression of how ignorant I am with these types of things so, I want to check some on my bucket list, starting with riding a train.

The train halted at its next station. Some people went out, yet a lot of them came in.

I flinched when an arm suddenly snakes on my waist so, I look back to call Bright for help when I saw his face inches from mine; sweats dropping from his creased forehead and his cheeks reddened due to the hot temperature. I feel bad now. I could see he is pretty uncomfortable with all the people pushing to get out and getting in. He grunted when hard pushes were thrown at our way that there was no space left between us.

His chest is tightly pressed against my back, his breathing audible near my sensitive ear.

"I really hope these people will stop pushing, or else- Fuck!" He suddenly groaned, and his heavy breathing.

"P'Krist, I apologize in advance if... if you feel uhm... something. I really can't help it. I'm really sorry." His voice sounded restricted with all his heavy breathing that I really can't understand what he was trying to say.

I just heard Bright apologizing near my ear telling me about feeling something which I don't kn–

My eyes widen with the realization of what he was talking about, with something hard and poking near my butt. I whip my head back looking at him, asking if that's what he meant of feeling something.

"Is that your dick poking at my ass right now?" I hissed at his face as he bit his lower lip and slowly nodded. He moaned loudly on my ear, gripping his hand on my waist, when the people at the back starting to push again.

“I am fighting for my life here. Why did he even decided to ride a train? And on rush hours where most transportations are occupied?! Fucking hell, that feels so good!"

Bright is hissing and ranting even if he is whispering, but unfortunately, his mouth is near my ear, which is very sensitive so, I heard his words clearly now. Even his subtle moans, grunts, and heavy breathing.

I don't know why, but the way his breaths brushing through my very sensitive ear, his hand still gripping tightly on my waist, and of course the main show: his hard, twitching dick rubbing and poking against my ass - getting me feeling very hot, my stomach flipping inside and my heart beating hard inside my chest.

‘Holy fucking shit! My dick is also starting to get hard with all of these happening so fast. Perfect! Now, he is sniffing my hair. Fucking great! Why did I choose the train again? This was not on the plan!’

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Bright’s POV

Passing through the sea of people also going out of the train as I’m holding P’Krist’s hand tightly.

‘Thank God, it was the longest 20 minutes of my life. I would have to say, that was the most intense and strength-consuming that had happened to me. I tell you; I was barely holding on to a thread of control.’

As we got out of the station, the gold and orange hue of the sky starts to darken as it was nearing 6 in the evening. We hailed a cab to drive near the Hua Hin Night Market. As we seated, I haven’t looked at P’Krist once, since the incident at the train.

‘News flash: It didn’t come down as I thought it would when we got out. It is still proudly up, until now. And I can’t for the love of the gods out there, I’ve noticed P’Krist not so subtly looking at me, with his sweaty, blushing face.’

“Stop squirming, w-would you? I-It is normal f-for men to uh— to feel that w-way when in a… what do call it? Yes! Compromising situation. I’m a guy, too, Bright. You don’t have to uh— be e-embarrassed about uhm… it.” Says the one who’s still stealing glances at me, blushing and sweating too much that is now looking like a freshly washed tomato.

After a moment of silence…

“I was hard, too, you know? You wouldn’t know that because—”

“I can only drop you off here. That will be 185 baht.”

P’Krist quickly paid the driver and went out as I was still dumbfounded with what I heard from him.

“Bright? Aren’t you coming? Hurry up, slowpoke!”

As I went out of the cab, I saw P’Krist staring at the mob of people, walking around aimlessly at the busy streets in the Night Market here in Hua Hin. He suddenly whips his head at me with his excited smile that illuminates up the evening, brighter than most lights in here.

I smiled back then held his hand, intertwined tightly.

“Let’s go?”

He nodded still excited as we started to walk around, going from stall-to-stall, trying and eating different types of street foods, browsing unusual kinds of accessories and such.

“Bright! There’s a small stage at the center. Maybe someone will perform. Come on, let’s watch!” he grabs my hand as we pass through and stops not three meters away from the mini-stage.

Looking at the note on the side, “Phi, I think it’s an open mic kind of—”

I look up on the stage and there I saw P’Krist, sitting on the stool, with a guitar on his hand and lap, strumming.

Looking around and noticed little by little people are stopping and looking to my phi’ on stage. I look back at him with his sweet smile, his dimples peeking, as he started to close his eyes and hum.

*NOW PLAYING: Dandelion - Ruth B. (Acoustic Vers.)

Maybe, it's the way you say my name

Maybe, it's the way you play your game

But it's so good, I've never known anybody like you

But it's so good, I've never dreamed of nobody like you

And I've heard of a love that comes once in a lifetime

And I'm pretty sure that you are that love of mine.

I had no idea that as he began to sing, my heart would begin to beat faster and louder, like if it was acting independently and wanting to go up to P'Krist and hold him. Even though there were many onlookers who came to see and listen to my phi' sing, it still felt like the first time he played in my dorm room, just the two of us savoring the moment. I can only see him and hear him above my heartbeat, which is much louder.

Podd’s POV

'Cause I'm in a field of dandelions

Wishing on every one that you'll be mine, mine

And I see forever in your eyes

I feel okay when I see you smile, smile

Wishing on dandelions all of the time

Praying to God that one day you'll be mine

Wishing on dandelions all of the time, all of the time

Zooming in, on Krist's face while looking at my phone. Innocent, exuberant smile while facing the camera. His adorable dimple and crinkling of the eyes. Who could resist falling in love with someone like him? He is incredibly simple to adore. ‘Do I truly love him? Or is it just to fill this void in this heart of mine?’

I shut my eyes and ponder on earlier.

‘I am aware that I have moved on. He moved on from me to focus on his business. I wasn't worthy of taking a risk on and fighting for. He's here now. What for? I was alright before.’

Looking up at the moon, which was shining brightly in the pitch-black night sky, I heaved a loud sigh.

‘Why did you even come back, P’Earth?’

Bright’s POV

I think that you are the one for me

'Cause it gets so hard to breathe

When you're looking at me, I've never felt so alive and free

When you're looking at me, I've never felt so happy

And I've heard of a love that comes once in a lifetime

And I'm pretty sure that you are that love of mine

His hazelnut orbs met my darker ones. I’ve never felt like this before, not to anyone, but just to him. The lyrics pierced through my heart and soul. As he sang those lyrics, he stared at me, like he is staring in to my soul, telling me that he’s happy that he is with me.

‘Oh, P’Krist! If you only know what I’m feeling right now, we wouldn’t be right here as we would be somewhere just the two of us.’

I have never dreamed or even thought that I will be in a relationship, much less in love, and that of a guy. My sweet, innocent, ball of sunshine, cute, adorable, and other words that describes my wonderful man. My once boring and uneventful life, became interesting, lively, and happy again because of him.

‘Yes, love. You are my only and always will be that love of mine. I am always yours, phi’. I love you, my P’Krist.’

Godt’s POV

'Cause I'm in a field of dandelions

Wishing on every one that you'll be mine, mine

And I see forever in your eyes

I feel okay, when I see you smile, smile

Wishing on dandelions all of the time

Praying to God that one day you'll be mine

Wishing on dandelions all of the time, all of the time

Walking out the org. room, I noticed a picture frame with the current org. officers. Particularly, a certain face that caught me off-guard the first time I saw that cute smile. I chuckled unconsciously as I caress my thumb on his smiling face against the glass.

I know I’m too late to tell him how I feel, but I wish him the best and his happiness.

‘You will be my forever ‘what if’, Krist.’

Stepping back as I decided to just move on and love him from afar. Went out the room and locked the door, leaving my unrequited feelings for him and will start to move forward from now on. But as of now, my feelings are still here.

‘Someday, I’ll find someone. Someday…’

Krist’s POV

Dandelion, into the wind you go

Won't you let my darling know?

Dandelion, into the wind you go

Won't you let my darling know that?

I didn’t plan to sing this specific song but when Bright looked at me with his loving and sincere eyes, I just started to close my eyes and hummed the melody. But now, even though it is very crowded, all I can see is him, standing with his signature smirk and eyes lighting up, looking at me. I can’t help but to dedicate this song to him.

I know I lack so much in this relationship, but not even once did Bright made me feel any guilt. He did all the things that makes me comfortable. Even though sometimes I seem whiny and throws tantrums, he is there to pacify and gives me what I want, even I didn’t say anything. He is willing to do and give everything for me. I am so blessed and thankful that he loves me. I promised myself to love this man unconditionally, just like him loving me, reciprocating what he has done for me.

‘Don’t worry, Bright. I will always love you as long as you love me. I may be slow in terms of our relationship, but I will do everything I can for you. I love you, Bright.’

Earth’s POV

I'm in a field of dandelions

Wishing on every one that you'll be mine, mine

And I see forever in your eyes

I feel okay when I see you smile, smile

Wishing on dandelions all of the time

Praying to God that one day you'll be mine

Wishing on dandelions all of the time, all of the time

Looking through the city lights in my floor to ceiling window from my office, musing through my head with a lot of 'what ifs', if Podd and I didn't break up or I even pursued my dream to be in the army.

Straight up drank the scotch, the bitterness and cold went pass my throat, sighing.

Still hoping, wishing, that he will be mine even after all these are happening, that even with all the struggles and problems we'll be facing, I want him to be with me always, just like the old times.

Old times that I'm re-living just to keep me going in my life. But seeing him happy and smiling, that's all I ever wanted for him. Even if I'm not the reason of his smiles anymore.

‘But I always wish, I’m one of the reasons and the receiving end of your smiles, Podd. I’m still waiting for you to come back, my love.’

Bas’s POV

Seeing him even in his stoic and strict aura, he still helps other people and cutely smiles at them shying away from thanking him. For the past 2 years since I saw him the first time, the only difference, I was the receiving end of his help and smiles. His charming and cute smile was - is the reason for this unrequited love of mine. 

"Bas! Are you okay? I've been calling you, but you suddenly zoned out." He asked, with his sparkling eyes staring at me.

I nodded and smiled my widest. "I'm good, P'Godt. I'm sorry, I was just thinking of something. Let's go?" I sheepishly smiled then turned my back at him, with him following behind me.

I'm in a field of dandelions

Wishing on every one that you'll be mine, mine…