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If you will ask Yeonjun what is the dumbest thing he did, his answer will be falling in love with your younger cousin friend. 

The first time he met the boy, he can't take his eyes off of him. Beautiful is not enough to describe the younger man. He remember how he always lift the boy when they were young. He is so small compare to him. He love how they fit so well. Like their body is made to each other. Even though they are three years apart, the older man didn't find it hard to be close to him. 

"hyungiee'' 

Yeonjun felt a body behind him followed by a hand on his tummy, rubbing it. Just kai and his hobby to touch his friends stomach. 
He remember that one time when kai said he like his belly shaped the most. Yeonjun tried to hide his smile and the redness of his cheeks by laughing and changing the topic but clearly he loves the attention. It's the last thing he thought before going to dreamland. 

He's used to it by now. Before, he will blush whenever the younger got closed to him. For 4 years, who wouldn't get used to by experiencing it that long. 

"Hyungg'' Kai whinned. 

"Kai, i'm busy go disturbed others. Disturb beomgyu'' Yeonjun said, eyes at the book on his hand. 

"Hyung do you want me to get headlock by taehyun? I already experienced it on soobin hyung'' Kai reasoned. 

"Why do you think i wouldn't do that too?'' 

"Obviously, because you love me so much'' There's a hint of confidence in the man voice and even yeonjun don't want to admit it just sigh and get back on what he is doing. What can he do, the younger has that power to him. Looking back yeonjun can't imagine how he grow from a baby to a giant. He is much taller than him now, much broader and much stronger which, yeonjun, of course find hot but won't admit it. The hell, the younger can even lift him. He wouldn't be suprise when he suddenly, out of nowhere, get lifted by him. No matter how kai appearance changed, yeonjun still babied him and the latter loves it too. 

Yeonjun tried to keep his distance before but kai didn't let him. He have his way to him. Even though he want to get away, there is this imaginary string that always pulls him back to him. 

"Hyungggg''Kai keep pestering him. Yeonjun have a quiz later so he's trying to review now than get a zero. 

"Yah, your bag, i can't sit'' The newly arrived, choi soobin said. 

"Soobin hyung!''Kai who just said that soobin traumatized him(the headlock) is now giving his hyung a hug and rubbing his belly. The no.1 in the rank. Soobin who is in good mood hug the younger in return. 

"If you're just gonna be beomgyu and taehyun who act so lovey dovey please get out of my face. I witness enough of the two, not you too'' Yeonjun said in a monotone voice. 

"You're just jealous of us, you old man'' Beomgyu gave him a teasing smile. 

The couple who is quite the whole time speak up. Taehyun, sitting beside beomgyu, take beomgyu hand and kiss it, then look at the three, teasing them. 

"I'm happy to the both of you but at the second thought, if i'm gonna see this everyday, i might puke''

"Don't worry soobin hyung i'm here'' Then wink at the older. 

"Now i become a fifth wheel'' Yeonjun said in i'm-so-done tone. 

"You should find a boyfriend then, what about that one who always with you. I think his name is wooyou-'' 

"He can't, yeonjun hyung is too focused on his dance and studies. He doesn't have time for that'' Kai cut him off without a second thought. He's rumbling right now, he even did his hand thing whenever he's explaining something. 

There's a silence after he said it. A two confused face, a amused one and a shocked one. Kai and taehyun eyes met. There's a playfulness on taehyun eyes that didn't go unnotice by kai. He asked him innocently by larging his eyes but the other man just shrugged. 

The moment  yeonjun class ended he goes straight to the Studio to practice. He spend most of the day practicing and perfecting his moves. One thing about him is, he is perfectionist. He will not stop until he feel satisfied. He is so passionate on dancing that some people admire him. They even gave him a title and have a fan club. Yeonjun made his posed when it mark the ending. He panted. Eyes on himself in the mirror. He heard a clap in the distance. 

"Not our yeonjunie slaying again'' The man said as he approach him. He gave him a bottle of water which yeonjun take. 

"You're early'' He drank the water. 

"San still have a class so he made me go first'' 

"Is this the moves again after that?'' He said as he show him the moves. He looked at yeonjun, waiting to his response. Yeonjun said it's not and showed it to him. The two keep practicing, not that long, San, their other friend come too. It's already dark outside when they started to wrap the things. 

"Guys do you want to eat at-'' 

"Yeonjunie someone is here for you!'' He heard his friend, wooyoung shout. 

Yeonjun is not expecting a visitor. He come to the door where his friend is. The moment he come there he saw a person who have a big smile plastered on their face.

"What the hell are you doing here?'' 

"Can't i just miss my hyung'' He wink and give him a flying kiss. 

The older made a disgusted expression and the other man just laugh. So hard, yeonjun probably think someone will get mad or get scared because who laugh like that.  It sound so creepy. Though there's  only one person who will find it cute. 

"Beomgyu for my sanity, stop doing that'' He hold his temple. 

"Not because you can't wink, you want other people to not do it'' 

"Correction, just you, and i can wink'' He tried to close his other eye, ''I can even wink with both of my eyes'' Now, he close and open both of his eyes. 

"That's not winking, That's blinking. Even i can do that'' Beomgyu said and proceed to blink. 

"You must be honored having the same talent as me'' 

"Wow, your confidence'' Beomgyu can't stop himself from clapping. "Ah! I almost forgot, let's go hyung. We can't be late'' he dragged the confused yeonjun. 

--

The two breathless man halted their steps when they are infront of their destination. They knock on the door. Who got opened by huening kai. Without thinking twice, they push the man and walk passed by him. 

They got into the living room. Soobin and taehyun, sitting on the floor playing some games look at them with confused eyes. The poor man, who they pushed earlier close the door and sit on the couch. 

"I thought the food already arrived'' Beomgyu huffed. He sit beside taehyun. 

"Yah what do you think of us? Some monster that inhale food?'' Soobin said with a offended look. 

"Aren't we all?'' Yeonjun sit beside kai who rub his belly the moment he got close. 

"Fair point'' Taehyun commented.  

The two play more games. Beomgyu got bored waiting for the food decided to join them. The oldest and the youngest stayed on their position. Being cuddled after a long day is not bad, yeonjun reasoned. 

"Hyung, you smell so good'' Kai said out of nowhere as he bury his head more on yeonjun neck. Yeonjun can feel the breath of the younger man on his neck. 

Calm down. 

Calm the fuck down. 

Yeonjun tried to squirmed because he can't let the younger man feel his heartbeat! There's a time kai will get him caught off guard, the belly rubs and hugs are fine but saying those words and suddenly doing that, he might just kill him then. 

"Okay, first of all eww'' 

Yeonjun look at beomgyu who said those comments. He feel like all his blood come up on his face when he saw that everyone is looking at him一them. 

"Why though it seems like the title got pass down on me'' Soobin mumbled. 

"Stupid soobin hyung. It's always been you'' Taehyun said. 

But yeonjun and kai didn't heard what they're saying.

"Can you please raise your voice because i can't hear it. You three look suspicious murmuring there''

"We're not murmuring, your hearing is just bad. Sign of aging'' Beomgyu teased. He really knows how to get on yeonjun radar. 

"Kai-yah let go of me so i can kill that brat right there'' Yeonjun get up just to get pull down again. He felt two arms and legs wrap around him like some octopus. 

"Nope, you can't get up. You're my hostage for today'' 

Yeonjun who is shocked by the sudden movement doesn't know what to react. Beomgyu gave him a wicked smile and god knows how yeonjun want to pinch and pull that mouth of his. Yeonjun didn't try to get out of the younger man hold because the man didn't give him a chance to. So he stay still. 

Yeonjun just watch his other three idiots friends play with a smile on his face. Having them like this, he couldn't ask for more. They're like a family to him now. Even though they always tease him and mention his age, he know it's just their way of showing love to him. They even made him believe that he's that old, when to be honest he is just a 23 years old college student. 

He's contented. Him being with them.  

The sound of the doorbell got their attention. Taehyun is the one who open the door and received the food. He put down it on the table and start to arrange it. The other two go up and get some utensils. 

"Okay let's eat'' 

"You three go first, kai fell asleep'' Yeonjun said while looking at the man beside him. 

The other three didn't ask him because they know the answer. That he will wait for the younger. 

Yeonjun study his face. From his eyes to his nose to his mouth, he really does look like an angel. He removed the strand of hair that get on the younger face. He stopped when he heard the man mumble something and change the position. He smile when he saw a frowned on the younger face. He hug him and closed his eyes too. 

Yep, he's already content. 

-- 

"I like you'' 

The man who is taller than him by inch said looking directly into his eyes. 

Yeonjun was about to meet his friends on their usual place when this man, if he remember, his classmate on one of his class, asked him for his time and yeonjun as a good person agreed.  

That's the story behind why are they here right now on rooftop. Yeonjun think that the man really have some important thing to say. He want to say earlier why it need to be on rooftop, like can't he say it to him now? He's too tired to walk but he keep it to himself. 

And now going back. 

This is not suprised on yeonjun, being confess at, so a usual routine, yeonjun said his script that he made. 

"Oh, thank you but i can't return your feelings. You see, i don't know you that well except us being classmates'' He smile and was about to leave when, 

"Then go out with me'' The man suddenly said. 

"Ah, i think you didn't get what i mean'' Yeonjun smile awkwardly to him. 

"Go out with me so that we can get closer. You said you don't know me that well aside from being us being classmates. A date wouldn't hurt to try don't you think'' The man has a serious face while saying that. 

Yeonjun scanned the man face. 

"How can i know if you are not some creep, you might even do something to me because as i said i don't know you'' Yeonjun didn't filter his words. Well he's always been like this to people he is not that closed. 

"Kim lee jae, 23 years old. I hate going into horror houses, movies that have sad endings, bitter things. I like kids, sweet things, singing, dancing and you'' 

Yeonjun think the end didn't really have to be like that. He can't help himself to mused a smile. The man got his interest, atleast he knows he is not the most cringey person. 

"Saying that wouldn't make me agree to go out with you'' 

"Damn, i thought i got you'' Jae said as he scratch his head, ''They said you like those things'' he mumbled. 

Yeonjun want to ask who but just shrugged it off. 

"Umm, if i say i will treat you mint choco would you say yes?'' 

Yeonjun walk to the door, ''You need to try more than that'' and he left. 

It's not like if he get to know the man he can return his feelings to him, maybe if doesn't love this one person and he have a point, he doesn't have a time for that. Yeonjun is humming while going into where his friends at. He spot them on a tree. Beomgyu is playing some song with his guitar.

"What's up, you miss me? Your amazing hyung is here!'' He shouted and put his bag down. 

"Your late, that's new'' Soobin commented.

Yeonjun swallow the bread before speaking, ''Well your hyung is famous what can you say'' he has a smug on his face while saying that. 

"Someone confess to you again?'' Kai ask. 

"Yes'' he confirmed, ''I rejected him but he is persistent and oh do you know, he made a pick up line. I'm holding my laugh when i heard that'' Yeonjun happily tell them. 

"By what i heard this man got your interest, am i right?'' Soobin stated. 

Taehyun watch them silenty, yeonjun face to his bestfriend, hueningkai reaction. A little addition of fuel into the fire wouldn't hurt that much. 

"So you like him now?'' Taehyun watch kai as he said those words. 

"Now i want to meet this person who got your interest'' His boyfriend said. 

Nice one. 

Kai who is quite the whole time have a emotionless expression. Yeonjun just laugh. His eyes caught the younger eyes. His smile falter a little. 

Something's off. 

"Nah i don't like the man. Come on let's eat'' Eyes on hueningkai as he said those words. 

-- 

Yeonjun think it's becoming a thing now that he will get interrupt after his class. 

"Kai-yah, you need to let go of my hand it starting to hurt'' He said. 

The moment yeonjun step out on his room, there's already a hand that pulling him. He almost smack the person if he didn't saw that it was hueningkai. They stop walking. Huening kai let go of the older hand. Yeonjun look at his hand and saw a redness. Kai who is watching him, become guilty the moment he realize he just hurt his hyung. 

"Ah一sorry yeonjun hyung'' He want to hug his hyung but he's scared, what if he hurt him again? The younger don't even know what he's thinking, pulling his hyung to whatever place. 

"Don't be mad at me hyung'' Shoulders down, avoiding the older eyes. Too scared to see what expression the other have. 

Yeonjun look at the sad figure infront of him. He sigh, ''You baby, come here'' He open his arms, waiting for the younger body to collide with him. Yeonjun didn't wait that long because the moment he open his arms, there's already kai hugging him. 

"Now what is this big baby thinking about? Care to share?'' He said as he pat the other back. He heard a muffled voice. 

"You know i can't understand what you're saying'' Yeonjun laughed. He want to see the younger man face, he was about to step back but the younger hold on him is firm that made him unable to do what he want. 

"Five......five more minutes'' 

That's all it took for yeonjun to finally broke a smile on his face. 

Adorable

"Yeonjun'' 

Yeonjun look at the man infront of him. It's the man who confessed to him last tuesday, Lee jae, from what he remember. Huening kai is the one who broke the hug. 

"Can we talk?'' Lee jae asked. 

Yeonjun look at his watch. He still have some free time, ''Sure, what is it?'' 

"Just us two'' Lee jae look at the man beside yeonjun. Hueningkai who's beside him have a serious face. 

"Can you not tell it here?'' Yeonjun spoke. 

"It's fine hyung. My class is almost starting too'' Back the happy kai again. Yeonjun released a relief sigh. Kai being emotionless really give him chills. 

Yeonjun only reply with a nodded. The younger man rub his belly and kiss him on the cheek before he leave. Leaving the poor man, blushing. 

Yeonjun heard lee jae faked a cough. 

"Now i know why you always reject those people一i mean us, cause basically i'm one of them. You already have your eyes to someone'' 

Yeonjun face hardened. Gone with the smile he has earlier. 

"You don't know what you are talking about'' he warned. 

No one can't know those feelings that he has. There's already a bunch of scenarios yeonjun imagine when kai and his friends know that he love kai. It can ruin their friendships and yeonjun don't want that. He's already content on what it is right now, that's why he doesn't bother to say his feelings out loud. He can just love the younger from a distance. And eventually this feelings of him will stop too. Hopefully. 

"It's clear to me, that you like him. You like hueningkai'' 

"I don't like him-'' 

"Dumb for me to use the word 'like'. You don't like him,'' 

"Yes, that's right i don't like h一'' 

"You love him'' 

That made yeonjun shut his mouth. Is he that obvious? For someone like lee jae, for the first time, he just met hueningkai and yet he already look through him. Then what about his friends? Beomgyu, soobin, taehyun? Did they notice it too?.....what about him? No, he don't. Because if he notice, he will confront him and avoid him. 

But what if they do? What will he do? 

Saying it out love wouldn't hurt right? He already said to himself that he will move on. Maybe at least he can say his feelings out loud, at least he can shout to the world that he fell in love with him. That those 4 years that he love the man are not in vain. Because loving someone in silence hurts so much. You want to tell them you love them but choose not to because you are afraid of the results that didn't even exist. Yes, yeonjun, the one who rejected so many people on his school is afraid of rejection. 

"So what? So what if i love him? So what if i love my friend? I love hueningkai" He didn't know that saying those words could lift up the heavy feeling he didn't know he have. Maybe because he sugarcoat his words so much, making himself believe that he is fine on what it is right now. That he is content. But deep inside him, he knows that there's more. 

Beomgyu is not a coward he is. 

"Giving up is only applicable to those who tried'' 

Is beomgyu really the one who he is saying those words for?

Saying those words to beomgyu that he wanted to hear someone saying it to him. 

"Then that's it. I respect your choice. I can't forced myself to you when i know there's already a person occupying those space in your heart'' The man smile to him. 

"Why?''

Yeonjun don't understand. 

"Because 'like' and 'love' are different thing. I just like you  because of your talent and looks. You also look fun to be with. But you, you love him. You love him to the point it's fine even if he'll be with someone else as long as you see that he is happy一that's what i think. You also have this fond eyes whenever you look at him and i know that look well, i always saw my sister and her lover look at each other that way'' 

"How?'' 

"Like if hueningkai do the most silly and stupidest thing in the world you will still stay by his side'' 

"That's all i want to say. I hope you will realize what you want soon'' 

"But i will stop loving him now though'' Yeonjun blurted out. 

"Having these feelings for 4 years are hard you know. I didn't think you'll be the one who will caught me'' he laughed, ''But i guess it's finally time to let go of this feelings'' Yeonjun said it. The words thats been stuck on his throat for years now. 

Lee jae gave him a smile, ''It's up to you'' and he left. 

-- 

Yeonjun is silenty reading on the library. He wants to be alone right now. Being surrounded with many people doesn't help him, so he's here. He know that library is not occupied with many people and it's quite. Perfect place for him to think. 

He didn't sit on the chair. He's on the end, sitting on the floor, back on the bookshelves. 

Yeonjun almost throw the book when he heard his phone ring. He looks at the caller ID, it's soobin. He answered it. 

"What is it?'' 

"Hyung you need to come here quickly!'' He took the phone far away from his ear. Soobin scream will be the death of him. 

"Why? What happened?'' There's a hint of worry in yeonjun's voice. 

A slight pause from the other line. 
"It's about kai, just, come here quickly in my house'' 

The moment he heard kai name. He's already sprinting to leave. He can hear the shouts of the Librarian and some teachers but he didn't stop. 

Nothing's more important now than to come to soobin place and see what happened to kai. He got in soobin place in less than 15 minutes. He hurriedly opened the door, in his luck it's not locked. He walked towards the living room only to see a three man standing and one man lying on the floor. 

He catch his breath the moment he got close to them, ''What-huff- the fuck happened?'' He looked at the three with a confuse face. 

The three can't look directly to him. The couple made soobin to tell  what happened. 

"Ah ummm he's already like that when we get here'' Soobin scratched his head. 

Yeonjun scanned the younger. He look if he have some wound but thankfully he doesn't have but he reek of alcohol. Yeonjun scrunch his nose. 

"Ah, hyung we're gonna go now. We just called you to take care of him'' 

"Yeah byee'' 

They didn't give him a chance to talk. He only heard the door closing. He sighs, he put the younger man arm into his shoulder and tried to get him up. Yeonjun is a tall person, everyone knows it but because he is  surrounded by more tall people he looks so small. Just like now, yeonjun trying to get the tall younger drunk man into the couch. His first choice is the bedroom, however, because he can't lift him that long he just go with the couch. 

Yeonjun put kai foot on the couch to not give the younger a discomfort. He also take some of soobin clothes and change him. It's a good thing that the two physique are the same it didn't make him that long to find a change of clothes. 

After he changed the younger. Yeonjun decided to make a hungover soup. 

---- 

Yeonjun is too focused on what he is doing that he didn't notice the young man staring at him. He took some bowl and almost break it when he saw kai sitting on the island chair, watching him.

"Shit!'' He cursed as he touch his chest. 

"Yah, talk when you're already up. You're giving me a heart attack'' He hissed. 

"Why did you even drink when you can't hold your liquor. Next time drink only the amount you can take. I thought something happened to you when soobin call-'' Yeonjun bump his head into the young man chin. 

"Ah'' Holding the swollen forehead. He frowned. He was about to talk when he saw how the younger look at him. 

When they are standing this close yeonjun can't help to feel intimidated and small, apparently yeonjun called him giant for a reason. It reminds him how tall the younger grows. It feels like it's just yesterday when kai is over his shoulder when they were young.  

"Even in my dreams you're here with me hyung'' He felt the cold hands of the younger in his cheeks. 

Dreams? Is he thinking that this is dream right now? 

"This is not a d-'' 

"You're still pretty even here......so pretty''

Okay, yeonjun blushed when he heard it. Huening kai has been calling him pretty not so long ago. And that doesn't help yeonjun to do his plan to move on when the younger is making him fall for him even more. 

"Kai-ya let me get you a water to sober you a little'' 

"No! Don't go'' He hug the older so tight yeonjun think he will get crush,  ''Don't leave me.....'' 

I'm not planning to leave you, but my feelings will. 

"Hyungie is here, i will never leave you'' 

"Really?'' 

"I swear, so you can let go of me now'' He pushed the man slightly. The hand that holding him slide off, yeonjun missed the warmth of the younger touch. 

"You should eat the soup i mad-'' 

"Sleepy'' 

Oh 

"Then what do you want me to do?'' He asked softly. 

"Let's sleep....together'' 

"Let me just turn off the stove then'' Yeonjun turn his back to him and do what he needs to do. As he do that, kai didn't left his side. He's tugging the end of yeonjun shirt like a child. He held yeonjun like he will vanish anytime. 

They stayed on soobin room. He's hugging the younger. Caging him in his arms, humming a sound to make the younger fall asleep. 

"You're not.....'' 

"Going to choose him, right hyung?'' 

"hmm?'' 

"You love me right?'' The younger played on his hair. 

The question made the older caught off guard, ''Of course, i love you, you're like a brother to me'' liar. 

They're not looking to each other but they can feel each other heart beat. The younger can feel that the older got tensed because of his question. 

"Not that'' He traced his neck. 

Huening kai actions made something inside of him explode. Why is he being like this? What does he mean not that? 

"What do you mean kai-ya?'' He look down to meet by the younger face, staring g at him. He didn't even notice when or where the younger started watching him. 

"You'' 

"You love me'' He said. 

Yeonjun watch his face. He doesn't look like his joking, his expression is genuine like he's saying a matter of fact, which is true. 

"No'' Yeonjun answered so fast. He can't know and even if he knew he will never admit it. If he didn't then he don't. 

"Why are you lying hyung? Can you please drop the act'' 

"I'm not lying'' He said slowly, wanting the younger to understand what he meant.

"Then why you have that look? Why do you look so scared? If you're not lying why are you gripping my shirt so hard that i think it will tear'' So many whys and it make yeonjun head hurt. 

He doesn't want it to be like this. 

"You're only hurting yourself, why can't you just admit it?'' 

"Admit what? I don't need to admit anything to you'' 

"Admit that you love me!'' 

"I don't, okay! I don't see you like that'' He put a distance between them. 

"You're a big liar hyung, you're a coward'' 

"I'm not-'' 

"You are a coward'' 

"I hate you hyung'' 

Oh

He hate him, he can't blame him, even he, himself hates him too. He's right. He's lying, he's a coward but can't he be like that? He's just a human. Being a coward is tiring sometimes, he tried to stop himself from falling to the younger, he smile and look at him like a normal friend would do. He hide his feelings that long, he think he needs some rewards. They can award him with best in acting and best of all fools一if that kind of award exist. 

Silence engulfed them. Leaving the unsaid words floating in the moment. 

"Maybe you're right. I'm a coward but it's not only that. I'm a fool too. I'm a liar who keep saying to myself that i am fine the way things are. I'm a fucking loser who fell in love with someone i know i can't have. Someone that's so close yet so far. I'm a selfish person who only think for himself. I'm one of the people who fell in love to their friends...'' 

"I love you, but don't you worry. These feelings will be gone soon'' Yeonjun almost choked at the end but thankfully he held it well. He done it. He ruined their friendship. Loving him was so easy but it's so hard to forget him. 

"I...need to go'' Yeonjun get up, it breaks yeonjun heart when the younger just let him. So this is really it. He made a sad smile and leave the room. The tears that he has been holding, start to fall. So this is what rejections feel like. He wipe his tears and wear his shoes. As he open the door he heard a sound of hasty footsteps. The door that is not yet halfway open got closed making a loud bam and startling yeonjun. Yeonjun turned to face the cause of his fast heartbeat only to meet with the younger who is breathing heavily, he watched as his shoulder go up and down. 

"Who gave you permission to stop loving me?'' He panted. Huening kai fix his posture. Firmly standing hands both sides of the older, caging him.  

"You didn't hear my reply yet so why are you already leaving?'' 

Why is he so cruel. He don't need to hear it because he already know the answer. What's the point of hearing it out loud if the answer is still the same. Or the younger want to slap it in his face that he don't like一love him. 

"I already got it kai, you don't need to make it hard to me more'' He quavered.

"I don't think you know hyung. Know what?'' 

"That...'' Yeonjun can't find the urge to say it out loud. 

"What hyung?'' 

"That...that you're rejecting me'' 

"If i'm rejecting you, why am i here stopping you from leaving?'' He took a step forward, ''If i'm rejecting you, why do i feel possessive when you said you will stop loving me. Why?'' He stop talking when they are only an inch apart. 

Yeonjun eyes almost popped out in his eyes because of the younger words. 

"I-'' 

"Don't talk'' He put his finger into yeonjun mouth, ''please, please just listen to me'' 

"I didn't know i have these feelings just two days ago when taehyun talked to me. I'm just in denial and keep it to myself, maybe because i always look up to you as my hyung, someone dear to me. But i didn't notice how possessive i am to you whenever someone confess to you and you, giving them your attention. Loving you is not hard hyung. It's so easy to love you like it's the most normal thing for me. I thought it's just a dream but when i saw you leaving, you, facing back to me, slowly walking away. It's like i got splashed by a cold bucket of water. I thought that i'm losing you for real and it scares me. I will sound selfish right now but i didn't give you a permission to stop loving me. I'm the one you have feelings to, i'm the one who will decide if you can stop loving me. And no i'm not rejecting you. Hell, my mind goes blank when you said you love me cause you feel the same too but the end really ruined it'' Kai look at the older infront of him. 

There's a tear that fell into yeonjun eyes, ''You don't need to lie kai, i understand. So please don't give me any linger of hope'' 

"I love you, i love you, i love you and i will say it all over again for you to understand cause you deserve to know'' He put his hand onto his neck, ''How dare you hyung to say that my feelings are not real'' 

Yeonjun stared at him. It felt heaven to hear those words. Words that he wanted to hear are now saying back to him. Things that he never thought would becoming true. "It's unfair. It take me for years to say how i feel and yet you.....'' you're brave. Not a coward like me, ''I don't know w-what to-'' Yeonjun stammers when kai closed their distance. Their lips are almost touching. Blood came rushing into the older ears because of the sudden movement. 

 His eyes looking directly to the younger. It felt like forever but it only took 1 minute before the younger move, ''I'm not gonna kiss you hyung. I will wait for you to make the first move'' He wink at yeonjun and open the door for him, ''See you tomorrow yeonjun-ah'' 

The older don't have the time to react when he got pushed and called only by his name. When he look back the closed door greet him. 

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Yeonjun walk to his house mind wandering somewhere else. His problems are how he is gonna act towards the younger tomorrow. Now that he confess and unexpectedly the younger have the same feelings as him. Choi yeonjun is having a crisis. A big one. He don't remember how he even changed his clothes and shower. His mind is already on what will happen tomorrow. 

Yeonjun look to his right and left. Crouching to the trash bin infront of him. When he didn't see the younger he run towards his room. He made up his mind yesterday and came up with a conclusion. That is to avoid the younger. If he don't see him or the other way around he don't have a problem. 

He's still embarrassed on what happened yesterday. And kai lips even though they didn't kiss but almost kiss, that is enough to make the older lose his mind. He always flirt fist but got flustered when they flirt back. It's even more big because Huening kai is the one we're talking about. The 4 years unrequited crush一crush of his is flirting to him. He should be celebrating because his love can now be reciprocate but he can't find himself to do it. He didn't even imagine that this day would come. 

"The fuck are doing?'' 

"Ah!'' Yeonjun shrieked. 

"Woah, relax'' Beomgyu said. 

He glared at the man beside him. He look left and right before looking at him. He cough, ''What are you doing here?'' Eyes still looking at the hallway. 

"Nothing, i just saw you looking suspicious that's why i came. What are you even hiding from? Wait一are we having an action film here?'' He look left and right and go beside yeonjun who give him a weird look, "You, i'm hiding from you'' Yeonjun said and left him. 

The day is going fine without him seeing the younger man. It looks like the fate is on his side. The prayer he did paid off. Yeonjun bumped into someone when he was walking, he looks up and saw lee jae, ''Oh''. 

He doesn't know why he asked the man to talk but here they are. 

"So, what happend between you two?'' 

He didn't expect that he will be the one who will bring up that, ''He loves me too. He feel the same way.'' 

"Then why do you have that look?'' 

"Huh?'' He asked. 

"You look perplexed rather than being happy'' 

"Ah'', yeonjun release a amused laugh. How can he tell so much?, ''You know if you just didn't say you give up one me, i'll kick you right now because of creeping me out'' 

"Touched''  He replied. 

"Maybe because i never imagine that this day will com-'' 

"Or you are scared on what will happen next'' Lee jae cut him off. 

''Can you please let me finish?'' He glare at him and received only a smile.

"I just feel embarrassed. Why am i telling you this? We're not even friends'' He whine. 

"Duh, we're close. You rejected me and i know your secret. See we are close in a weirdy way'' He chuckled, "I think the answers are the one whose coming to you'' He stand up. Yeonjun followed his eyes. There he saw the one who he is avoiding for the whole day is walking towards their spot. 

"Yeonjun hyung'' Kai said the moment he got close. He looked at lee jae who only waved at him and walked away. 

"I-ah umm'' he piped. 

"I almost thought i get dumped even though we are not yet on that stage'' He sit beside him, ''Why are avoiding me when you just said you love me last night'' 

"I..i'm embarrassed...?'' 

"Yah hyung me too!'' He suddenly shout, ''Guess we are really made to each other'' Yeonjun didn't know if he will get cringe or laugh but because it's kai he chuckled. 

"You laughed at last'' There's  a relief on his voice that didn't go unnoticed by yeonjun. 

"Hyung go on a date with me''

Yeonjun eyes widened. Did he hear it right? He cheeks turned to red. It suddenly feels hot. Kai focus his eyes to him. The corners of his mouth turned up. 

"I'm not asking you but based on your expression right now i'll take that as a yes'' 

With the blinding light, the scenery infront of him look so magical. Huening kai hair got blowned out because of the wind making his beautiful forehead more visible that made something in his heart skip a beat. 

"You stare to me like you want to kiss me hyung'' 

"And what if i am?'' 

"It's good that the feeling is mutual but i want our first kiss to be romantic'' 

He close their distance. Yeonjun breath hitched, ''You still owe me a kiss hyung''