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“Im pregnant” izuku says, gripping the positive test result, he doesn't understand, was the condom broken?

“Oh–that's good isn't it?” bakugou asked, finally looking up from his papers from the ongoing mission
“..good?”

Bakugou put his glasses down
“Yeah, a brat would do us good anyways”
“But im not ready for kids” izuku says

“We did everything we needed to do! Heavy doses of birth control and you wear a condom, we make sure we have sex outside of heats and ruts I just dont /know/”

He was just 23! His life had just started he can't get pregnant!
“Deku-Deku look” his cheeks were squished

“We dont have to have a brat if you dont want to, we’re still young. I just suggested it since you're quirkless and spend all day in the house–”
“/Working/” izuku says, gritting his teeth

“Yeah, working but it's still here right?”
“Well, I could pass these quirkless traits to her can't I?”

Bakugou frowns
“Are you looking for any excuse not to have her?”
“How can I not?! It's a new life! A life im not ready for!”

//Breathe// he commands and izuku’s body forcefully takes a deep breath and exhales
“You dont have to make excuses for something you dont want, big shit like this is not something we can comprise for, its yes or no”

Izuku shook his head
“I–but you said you wouldn't mind”
“I can take care of the food or clean around, we can make a schedule on things, this is not something only one person can do”

Izuku runs his hand through his hair
He doesn't want kids and the kitchen schedule is so heavy they sometimes only see each other once in two months but if bakugou is willing to make sacrifices, why shouldn't he?

He shouldn't be selfish

“Think about it, yeah? The last thing we want is a kid when you're not ready for” bakugou says, going back to his desk to focus on his work
Izuku absent mildly stares at the floor

Maybe his mother will know what to say.

He has his eyes opened for 5 hours just thinking, would life be better with a child? Their relationship is healthy but would a kid make it better?

What is he thinking? Kids dont magically make things better, they shouldn't be used to fix things, and they aren't glue

Izuku turns his head to face his sleeping mate
But kacchan would be happy and the two could spend more time together

Izuku taps himself and lets out a shaky sigh as he goes to the bathroom
This is scary, everything is

He knows about their inner omegas influencing decisions more than the other may realize so what if all of his thoughts are influenced by his omega whose instinct is to love having babies

They're not the ones that will deal with the after, just the happy scenting
But what if this is what they need? A change that will reinforce their bond as they will go through the struggle together

**
Izuku grips his pajamas as he stares at the two older omegas in front of him

“So–im pregnant” izuku says but they dont seem to react too much about it which kind of irked izuku
Shouldn't they be happy? Concerned he’s too young?

“About time” mitsuki says and inko nods, with a smile on her face
“About..time..? Im 23, and a few years ago I became old enough to drink, I dont think im ready for a baby”

“Do what your heart tells you” inko says as she takes a sip of her tea, humming at the good taste

That is not what he wants to hear, what sort of advice is that? Listen to your heart? Hearts dont have to change diapers, stay late at night, they dont have suffered those 9 months of pain

“Im pretty sure my heart is my omega–”
“You should start drinking tea more, its good for the baby–” inko suggests

"Mom!"

It's like she already made up her mind and it was making izuku uncomfortable, they're not listening to him, they're not worried about /him/

“But I haven't decided if I want it or not! That's why I called you two!”

Mitsuki sighs
“I dont see why you're struggling with this, you both–or more like only /you/ are financially stable, and young, get it done now so you can be free later”

“Kids aren't something that easy! You dont have kids as a task you have them because you love them”

“We do love you” mitsuki  says

“But you're not getting rid of it are you? If you tried so hard to not have a baby but then you somehow had it must be a sign!” inko sets the tea down to hold his hands

“Izuku, the baby in your stomach fought so hard to be alive, it has a good future ahead of them”

“But what about my future? This isn't 18 years only I have to constantly help them as a parent does!” he was getting restless, the thing inside of him isn't even alive yet they are thinking of it. What about him?

“What if I hate them? What if they make me miserable?”

They laugh
“Your motherly instincts will kick in soon, there is no such thing as hating your child, if you dont like them you're not good enough, but my son didn't marry a good for nothing did he?” mitsuki asks and izuku doesn't know what to make of it

Izuku brings his knees closer to his chest and he hugs his legs
“I just dont feel ready for a child”

“But what will everyone think if you abort it? The shame?” Inko asked
“Only us will know” izuku suggested

“My child, this isn't something you can hide, you're the number one hero’s mate, everyone will be on you”
Or more like these two won't be able to keep quiet about it

“I raised my son to be a gentleman, he will help you with the brat, you have nothing to worry about. Be a good omega and make him happy. You want to make my katsuki happy dont you?”

Izuku breathes
“Yeah”

“Not to be rude izuku but he married you even after being quirkless”
Inko nodded as if mitsuki just ignored izuku’s achievement and made being quirkless the big thing that ever defined him. She was the one that saw him cry from the stress, that stayed late to study, that he proved to himself why he should be at the top

“I graduated at the top of UA, I've put countless villains in jail, I’ve saved countless of hero's lives by analyzing the villain's quirks–”
“Sure” she shrugs

“But things like these shouldn't matter to us”
“It matters to me” izuku says, gritting his teeth

“Izuku” Inko scolds him and izuku shrinks

“Im a hero just like kacchan, he fell in love, courted me, married me not out of pity but because he saw me as equal, as her mother you'd know he’s better than the traditional alphas”

She rolls her eyes, setting the undrunk tea on the coffee table

“You called us to help you, we’re giving you an answer. You may get rid of them but you dont know if it’ll mess up your body forever and you know how much katsuki wants to be a father”

Izukus breath hitches

“So you either do it now or you disappoint him”
“Mom–”
“Mitsuki is right, he’s being incredibly kind to you, he’ll help you and both of you can go back to living your happy years in a few years”

Izuku looks down at his stomach
He has so many things he wants to do but..since he's young he won't lose too much of his life would he?

And he would get helped by everyone so he wouldn't be alone

Izuku squeezes his lower lip in between his fingers and starts mumbling, not noticing the two omegas smirking at each other

And if the news got a track that he got an abortion everyone would also pile on kacchan and his career can be in ruins
All he worked for, all gone

“..o-okay” izuku finally said and the omegas clapped, the mood instantly changing

They got off the sofa and went to izuku from side to side, they rubbed his shoulders and praised him
But in the back of his mind, he couldn't help but feel something is off

Because as the two were talking, they were staring at his stomach and not into his eyes

**

“Im keeping the child” izuku admits and bakugou stops singing papers, it has been a few months since he decided to bring work home so he could hit the bed far earlier than taking a cab

He could have dinner and sleep in his house rather than eat cold food and the hard beds at the agency

“You're sure?” bakugou crawled to him on the bed
“Yeah, I talked with my mom and aunty”

Bakugou scowled at that
“I know how my hag is, you sure she didn't force you?”

Izukus eyes widened
“No! I dont–she just made me see things”
“What things?” he pressed

“That we would be great parents and im just scared to take the next step”

He sighs before smiling, ruffling izukus hair
“Okay then. You know this will be a big thing for us dont you? But we’ll go through this shit together”

TBC

Chapter Text

“This is good for the /child/”
“You should wear that for the /child/”

Child this. Child that

His working outs went from 10 hours to /five/ which would be okay if his job was stressful or needed to do a physical job but all izuku does is type on his keyboard. Kacchan was busy as ever but his excuse was he had to make enough for the child

“You're gaining weight” inko says
“That's because im pregnant–”
“No no, your arms are thicker, maybe you should walk around a bit” she gives him a soft smile

“I've heard exercise is good for the baby” mitsuki agrees

“Sometimes I can't even get out of bed” he awkwardly chuckles

“I used to go the gym with katsuki, you shouldn't have that many excuses”

Izuku flinched at the hard-line and stared at his mother

“Mom, you said your pregnancy was really bad and dad used to bring you food into bed–”
“But that was years ago izuku!” she shushes him and izuku rolled his eyes

“I can bring some medicine for you to make the pains go away and you could go on a walk”
“Isn't that illegal? You shouldn't be using other peoples medicine-”
“No! Not at all! Im a nurse I know exactly what you need”

Izuku fidgets

“And you sure there aren't any side effects?”
“I would never hurt my son” inko says softly

*

Izuku thinks his mother lied to his face

Or he will give her the benefit of doubt and say after her 30+ years of medicine she didn't know how much pain this is giving him

And he knew pregnancy makes people cranky but he thinks the meds are making him even more annoying. It hurts to walk and the bottom of his feet feel like needles

Or is just the world getting stupider?

“Im just saying! Pick the things on the floor!” izuku said, panting heavily his stomach is too big for someone his size, luckily the ray only shows one

But this is what happens when you have a prime’s child

“And I said im fucking sorry!” bakugou barked back, he had open wounds and cuts as he had just come back from patrol and izuku would felt a bit bad about making his injured husband do something for him but HES PREGNANT

“Geez! Maybe I shouldn't come here often if you're going to get like this” bakugou grits out and izuku rolls his eyes

“What happened to the I love yous? The I’ll try? I still have to make the food and clean when I can barely stand up!”

“Im busy! If its costs you too much energy fucking ask my mom or yours or hire a maid”
“Didn't you say you're working hard for money, why would we waste it?”
“So I wouldn't have to hear you complain about shit, oh my belly stomach, oh get me food, kacchan this kacchan that! Im fucking tired too!”

Izuku clenches his shirt

“You're the one that made me–”

“No–no you dont fucking get to tell me that when I asked you if you were sure about this, you dont get to rope me into this”
“Rope you into this?! You agreed you'd help me! Im sorry if I get pregnant tendencies while fucking pregnant!” izuku yelled, pheromones running wild

“Im in pain, I can't eat the food we have at home, every day I look at my scars and I cry for hours and then it makes me throw up again. Im not sorry that I ask you to get me food at 3 am from the other side of the city when you knew! You knew I would get like this and yet you still took jobs that tired you out even though being a parent should make you tired already” izuku cries and bakugou freezes

He slowly walks up to his mate and hugs him, being very careful of the bump

“Im sorry–fuck im so sorry deku” bakugou whispered and izuku nodded, hugging back

“I will be better, it's soon to the due date anyways so im going to fully lessen my schedule”
He nods again

“I will be out tomorrow to get it fixed with jeanist, if you need anything just call me okay?” bakugou asked
“Doesn't matter if it's to eat your tacos with ice cream from that one specific ice cream shop I will get it and im not going to complain about doing my job”

“Thank you kacchan” izuku murmured
“Dont mention it”

*

But how unlucky it was that tomorrow was his due date, and bakugou wasn't there

With a large groan, he called mitsuki, they talked that she would contact everyone for izuku so all he had to worry about was making sure the pregnancy went okay

She is the one that's supposed to make sure to bring bags and any necessities after the birth

“Im on my way, you can do this izuku” mitsuki says before hanging up and izuku lets out another painful cry at the contraction and he calls the ambulance

But it's okay, people are coming to see him after this traumatic event. His friends, his family

He won't be alone after this

Except he was

He screamed as he held into the nurse's hand, everything was so painful but he didn't want more scars on his stomach

He passed out a few times from how painful it was as if his mind was trying to shield him from how traumatic it was

But then

He was born, a healthy boy

Katsumi

He was alone for hours after everything was cleared. He didn't bring his phone or clothes with him

He was dissociating as he stared at a wall with his name on it and 10 faces for his pain

He gave birth, alone

He is alone

Did mitsuki call and nobody answer?
Did they not/want/ to go to the hospital? Found it a bother

The nurse hands him to him before exiting as izuku can't help but stares at it with so much–hate

Izuku looks down at the child, when are the butterflies supposed to hit?

When is it supposed to feel all of this, the months of pain, the puking, the mixed emotions, and the nasty foods he mixed were worth it

When can he love this child?

His breathing was uneven and rough, his arms were shaking

He was alone with this…/thing/

“Come on–do something!” he barked and it seems that shocked the child and it started crying

“...no–no oh come on” he hissed as he shook the baby but it was hard and probably made them more agitated

He pressed a button and called for a nurse

“Oh boy–what a trouble maker hm?” she whispered to the pup as she hushed his cries and rocked him softly

In a few minutes, he fell asleep again

“Dont worry, the first time is always the hardest, especially since you're..alone” she coughs

“My mate is coming, he’s busy” izuku quickly said, not knowing if to disclose his hero status whispering to not wake him up again

In some part of his brain, he hoped that it was something /absolutely/ crucial, that a building was collapsing and he was saving everyone instead of being in an agency filing for paperwork

He couldn't believe he wished his mate is being forcefully held back rather than not going to HIS OWN CHILDS BIRTH
That he will run into these doors in a few minutes crying and begging for forgiveness

Anything to stop making him feel like he has less priority over some papers

She gave him a face of ‘I've heard that a lot’ but professionally didn't say much about it

“Do you have any questions or concerns?”

“..when will I love them? I dont know–you just seem to know about kids more than me and im wondering if im doing something wrong?”
“Oh hun” she shook her head

“It's called  'baby blues' and these feelings will go away in a week or so” she excused herself and izuku was left alone with /it/

He turned his head to the clear crib

“I hate you” he whispered as tears dripped down

“And I feel horrible for saying this to a baby that was just born, to someone that has nothing to do with my decisions but /fuck/” Izuku hissed before crying, the heart machine getting a bit faster

“Why–oh god why did I do this–” he cries

“Kacchan? M-mom? Someone please–”

TBC

Chapter Text

Izuku stopped crying at the 9 hours of being alone, the TV played a show but it has long become background noise

He either stared at a wall or stared as this thing cried over and over until the nurse heard the crying through the door and did everything

The child does not want to feed through him maybe it could sense being unloved, otherwise, its health was amazing

Izuku is happy though, he has heard stories of them bitting hard and painful so he doesn't mind using a sucker and feeding through a small bottle

Of course, the nurse did that too

Izuku has only held his child twice and  other time it was a worker with gloves and a medical scent

After 24 hours, he was out

Nobody came to visit and he had to push his weak legs to walk outside with a baby in the carrier

He was calling everyone

Aizawa, Yagi, mitsuki, his mom

Kacchan

But nobody responded

Luckily he brought his phone to pay for a cab and drove to his house, absently staring at the outside

It was a grey day, threatening to rain at any time

Maybe it was now or ever though, he could switch the route and leave the child for adoption

But as he was thinking the car arrived at his house and helped drop everything

Just like the nurse he also gave him eyes of pity

Without saying a word the newborn in his arms, leaving the hospital, not having anyone to help him get home

It told a story of abandonment

The house was empty when he got there, the same way he had left it days ago

Should it bring him comfort that bakugou wasn't here either?

That at least he was out there rather than being in his comfortable bed so he is suffering a bit

Izuku set the carrier on the floor as he dragged his feet for a shower after many days without it, yes he showered in the hospital but it wasn't the same as his own home

He was inside for 40 minutes, sometimes asking himself if the child was okay being left there but at the same time he did not care

Once out he put the child on the sofa and sat next to it

Maybe–everyone didn't know he gave birth

That Mitsuki said the due date was another day and out of respect they didn't contact him

So he waited

*

The first person to call was his mother

“Izuku?”

“I gave birth” izuku rasped out, staring at the window

He expected her exited squeals

“Oh congrats sweetie!” inko said through the phone

“You didn't go to the hospital or visit me mom, nobody did”

There were a couple of silent seconds

“You see..the hospital got busy”

Izuku swallowed thickly as he rubbed his face

“Months and months saying you'd support me and you couldn't even visit me? They would've understood! This is supposed to be important!”

“There will be other times,” She said quickly
“Next time you need me I’ll be there for you, im sorry nobody visited you”

Izuku took a shaky breath

“I need you, mom”

“Oh..im sorry you see im still at work”
“Dont–” izuku interrupted

“Don't even try okay? Im done. The only reason why I had them in the first place was that you promised you would help me but im alone and lost!”
“If you knew you wouldn't love your child you shouldn't have given birth to them, that was a selfish thing to do”

“Well–well fuck you!” izuku cursed out

“Izuku!”
“No! The only place you’ll ever see them is in pictures!”

“Im their grandma I can see them whenever I please-”

Izuku hangs up and throws his phone onto the sofa, the kid started crying at the yelling and izuku rolled his eyes

He was angry, but he knew none of it was the baby's fault but only him to blame, but it still didn't feel right! He was left alone, ignored, and thrown aside the moment he needed help

So then he called Mitsuki

The one that was /supposed/ to call everyone, to make sure she bought the posters and get well balloons

The one izuku entrusted won't make him feel the way he’s feeling right now

She answers fairly quickly

“Hey, how did the birth go?” she asks, there was rustling in the background of her line

“You weren't here, nobody was”

“Well, you gave birth at a horrible time,” She says

“Well I can't choose when I can pop a baby out”
“Language, I don't like your tone midoriya”

“My /tone/ is because you didn't go through what you promised. Does anyone know what happened to me? What I've been doing? You're telling me that for around 3 days everyone was so busy to not even send me a congrats message?” he asks

“Kid–”
“Maybe you didn't tell anyone, I knew you always hated me but why would you make me go through that? I dont want my child, I do not know what im going to do with him”

“Wait–think this through–katsuki-”

“He's not here, is he? I Don't even know where he is. What should he get a say when he wasn't even holding my hands while my pelvis was being stretched like 30%? And just like my mother, you're not allowed to see him either”

The last sentence made her finally react with curse words and insults

“You think you're too good for him?! You should be grateful he gives you a room!”

“If you excuse me, I earn more than katsuki sometimes, and way more than you,” izuku says through gritted teeth

“And all I do is stare at the screen”

“I was able to afford the hospital costs by myself, I didn't need the son you kept boasting about how you raised right and would stay by my side, goodbye” he hangs up and blocks her number

Where is Kacch-katsuki anyways?

He calmed down the child, mimicking the way the nurse did with him

His touch was cynical and cold, but it doesn't matter as long as it gets the job done

Maybe he should go out to find him? If he’s patrolling he can't be too far out

Unless he decided to go into a mission knowing full well his mate’s due date was soon

But he at least holds a little bit of hope for him

Once the child was fed through a bottle he then  burped him and changed the thing so it wouldn't die from the cold streets and set out

He should probably not be walking as much as he's doing it, just a few hours ago his legs were trembling like a newborn lamb

But with a determined look, he set out to walk around, plus a new breeze in a familiar neighborhood wouldn't be bad

It's weird, he still hasn't called jeanist, his boss

He hopes Mitsuki could've at least done that for him, izuku has been secretly working since the due date just to earn enough in case anything happened

He doesn't know why he's so set on trying to find bakugou
Maybe his omega craves any comfort now that it saw everyone else as strangers

And he can't help but think that maybe it was wrong

That in the midst of his trying to get a paternity leave a horrible thing happened but the alpha still prayed to had made it in time

His breath became rough and he needed to sit soon but he still wanted to find the person that saw him as a human all of those years ago, that arrived at the horrible times of the night because izuku texted him he was sad

That stared into his eyes and smiled at him

That promised him they would have a happy ending to their life

Izuku grips the handle and it seems there was a cluster of people surrounding something, izuku pushed and pushed, he was successful as nobody would dare to hurt someone with a baby, and in the middle of it all it was him

Katsuki

He was waving and cursing people off, with scars on his body and grime but he still pushed through

“Kacch–”
“Dynamight! We love you!” girls waved at him and bakugou gave them /those/ eyes

And oh

/Oh/

Those red eyes shifted quickly when the scent of mint and milk hit his nostrils hit his nose and saw his mate and child

But izuku looked so fucking heartbroken

Izuku dropped his umbrella and ran off into the crowd

Why?!
Why!

Why does he have to suffer? Why does the guy he thought was different just the fucking same!

Of course, bakugou would choose the hero's life over his, would choose to save lives rather than attend his son's birth

Would rather be with fame and pretty girls than with /him/

And this is not the kid's fault, not at all

The kid just made him see who people truly are! Liars and abusers

People who pressure you and squeeze you until you have nothing else to give

Izuku stopped running, the child was crying and struggling against the straps

The boy stared at an open box on the sidewalk and then down at the kid

He should shouldn't he?

Leave this thing behind?

TBC

Chapter Text

Izuku grumbled something as he closed the door behind him, the child was very much there in his carrier

He scared himself, to think of making a child go through this to just—put it on the ground and leave it in the rain and the cold

He may not be attached but that doesn't mean he should leave a child alone this way

He bathed it with warm water and dressed him in enough layers to not get cold

The omega heard the door unlock and he tensed up, still choosing to cover himself and walk back to the hallway where katsuki was taking off his clothes

“Hey,” he said
“Sorry I couldn't go”

Sorry, I couldn't go to the birth of your child.

“You missed me giving birth, do you have any idea how I feel right now?” he hissed

“Angry, pissed, disappointed?” he looked and sounded sad

But not sad enough, well he thinks nothing katsuki feel will ever be close to what he felt today and the past days

“I almost left it behind”

“...it? Huh?” then it clicked

“You almost left Katsumi behind?” he took a step forward

“Not—not a simple how are you, hows your body, it's fucked up!" Izuku glared at his mate

"You entered through those doors and you didn't even ask me how I am and how I feel. I feel horrible! Neglected! I feel like I want to die ever since I gave birth to him and the only thing you've asked was how could I not love him?!”

Izuku raised his voice

He was done, tired

He saw his worth now, how nobody cares

Large gloved hands cup his shoulders

“Mom didn't call me” he whispered and izuku pushed the alpha away but he wasn't bulging

“How are you, izuku”

Finally, someone asked

Someone fucking asked, maybe because he expects the bare minimum he hugged the alpha close and cried in his arms

“Im ugly,” he said

“Im disgusting, my lower half is a mess, im tired, icky, I had /nobody/in that room, nobody katsuki”

He can't forget it too, how he looked at the other woman while patrolling

Cant for how it felt when there was nobody but nurses and doctors in that room

“I almost put the child in a cardboard box”

Katsuki froze

“But I couldn't, no matter how much I hate katsumi I would never do that to a child”

Katsuki lays izuku down on the couch, grabbing a pillow to rest it on his head

“Is it supposed to feel like this? I hate him, I hate that child that had nothing to do with anything”

Katsuki hummed as he was on his knees to remain at eye level with izuku, not that he knew the child was safe, he could focus on his mate

“I think—that if shit didn't go as bad as it did, you would at least not hate him,” he said truthfully

“If mom or any friends of ours, if our mentors, bosses, /me/were there with you, at every stage, it would've been better”

Yeah, he can agree with him on that

“And im sorry, I /really/ am deku. I was waiting for that call that never came just to see you—”

“If you had to choose between me or him, which one would you stay with”

Izuku closed his eyes, not wanting to see the face katsuki is making when he asked that question

He expected to choose katsumi, after all, it's their child even if they haven't met

“You,” bakugou says and izukus eyes widened

“I would always choose you, no matter what our parents say or the fucking world, I would always choose you”

Izuku sobbed again, hiccuping as he covered his face

He's a horrible omega, a horrible dam

Katsuki placed his hand on Izuku's stomach, patting him softly, letting him cry it all out

**

The omega lay limp on the couch, sleeping. He had deep eyebags and his body looked worn

Small cries were coming off from the room and katsukis breath hitched

He would finally see his child

His alpha despised him for missing something as important as this! The weight of regret settled heavily in his chest, and deep sadness washed over him.

His life as a hero had always demanded sacrifices, but he never imagined he would miss/this/. Maybe if he wasn't working so hard he wouldn't have had to had depended on his mother for her calls

His job was important, of course, but the thought of not being there for Deku when he needed him the most tore at his soul. He had failed as a partner and as a father at that moment, and it pained him to admit it.

Bakugou clenched his fists, feeling the anger directed towards himself boiling within him as he walked to the room his child was crying in.

The fact that izuku thought about leaving them behind because he had literary no-one.

He berated himself he knew Deku understood the demands of his job, but it didn't make it any easier for him to accept his absence.

They had overcome so many obstacles, but this was one he couldn't forgive himself for.

Tears welled up in his eyes, a mixture of frustration, guilt, and sorrow as he opened the door, he was already melting when he saw tiny hands raising, wanting to be picked

He felt the weight of his mistake bearing down on him, suffocating his spirit. He loved his mate with every fiber of his being, and he loved their child even before they had taken their first breath.

And yet, he had let them down.

Katsumi has also already gone through so much, he hopes he and izuku can never forgive him for missing this

He stared in awe at his child with round eyes and red pupils and softly picked him up

“Hey” he whispered as his child stared at him with curiosity, probably already knowing that his sire

“Hey baby” he repeated

“You hungry? Is that why you're crying?” he asked as he walked back into the kitchen with the child in his hands

He prepared the bottle as he rocked his child softly, something he seemed to appreciate before going back to the nursery and sitting on the rocking chair, cradling his baby in his arms.

The room was bathed in a soft, warm glow, creating a serene ambiance. He held Katsumi close, their little head nestled against his chest, feeling the rise and fall of their tiny breaths.

With gentle precision, Bakugou reached for the bottle, ensuring the formula was warmed to the perfect temperature. As he positioned the bottle near his baby's mouth, their eyes locked, their connection deepening with each passing moment.

Sadly a bond bigger than the one formed by izuku

The baby's small lips pursed around the nipple, as they began to suckle.

Katsuki's heart swelled with a mixture of tenderness and pride. The rhythmic sounds of sucking filled the air.

With a steady hand, Bakugou supported the weight of the bottle, angling it just right to ensure a smooth flow of milk. He monitored the feeding closely, observing the pup’s cues and adjusting as needed

As the baby drank, Bakugou's gaze never wavered. He studied the rise and fall of their tiny chest, the peaceful expression that graced their face

Occasionally, as the baby paused to catch their breath, Katsuki would stroke their back in a gentle, circular motion. It was a soothing gesture, a way to offer reassurance and comfort.

As Katsumi was full Bakugou carefully removed the bottle from the baby's mouth. He cradled him close.

If only he wasn't a piece of shit that left izuku alone, if he had done  better maybe the three would be here right now, or at least things would've been different

He knows he told izuku he would choose him every time but now—fuck now he doesn't think he can

That was before he met his child

The baby instantly warmed up to his alpha and the bond that was created

He can't, he just can't choose izuku anymore

If the omega tells him to choose between him or Katsumi, he has to choose his pup that's not a week old

But he hopes, he prays the omega will warm up the same way he just warmed up with the child

He begs the fucking gods up there for izuku to forgive his mate and stay close to them

He knows its selfish and he would never force izuku to stay or tolerate Katsumi

But can you blame him for wanting a family?
Maybe with therapy, away from their parents, everything will be better

They should move to another place where they don't know where they live and bond closer now that katsuki took parental leave

The child babbled as he tried to reach for katsukis face and the blond allowed it, scenting his pup

But if izuku wants to leave Katsumi, bakugou has no choice but to stay with the child

*

Izuku woke up feeling numb, yet it was a feeling he had for a while, not from the moment his child was born, nor from everyone that stopped visiting him, it started before that

When he realized what society will always think of him, as nothing but a birth giver, a child maker, once that child is seen to the public he won't be known as the quirk specialist that won many awards, that saved countless lives. He will be known as katsumi’s mom or katsukis husband

In a few years, if his son ever becomes someone great, izuku won't be in the picture. Omegas never are

So of course he's jealous. Of course, he has some sort of jealousy because this thing that he gave birth to will be loved and adored, and izuku will be thrown in the garbage unless he gets pregnant again

He blinked out of his daydream once he realized he had been staring at a ceiling for a while

Izuku knows he should be happy, happy this thing will have an easier life once he gets a good quirk and becomes an alpha too

But he worked so hard for this, why, why does he get to suffer?

He stood up, clutching his stomach. Now he regrets the way he ran on the rain pumped by adrenaline. He limped to the kitchen, grabbing a few medicines given by the doctor and drinking them on the floor

He really shouldn't have run

His head was in pain, he felt like puking

“Kacchan” he called out, but at this point, he should expect nobody to come to him, even his mate

He knew he was in the house from the way his hero boots lay in front of the door, maybe he passed out, maybe he was taking care of the child

Or maybe, he’s not as important

“Deku?”

Izuku answered by letting out another sharp cry, curling in on himself

TBC

Chapter Text

“Shit,” Katsuki said with wide eyes, quickly pressing a button for emergencies. Almost all heroes had one as they tended to come to the house rather than the hospital if it was too far away

There was a pool of blood oozing on the floor and a faint cry from the nursery

“Shut up!” izuku barked, quickly regretting it when the pain got worse

***

“Luckily just a few internal tears, the previous doctors didn't…do a good job im afraid.”

“But he’s safe, right?” Katsuki pressed, holding onto izukus hand.

Katsumi was in their home in the care of Kirishima

Izuku kept begging them not to call their parents, so he didn't

“Yes, just a few more days here that's all, it's a miracle your running didn't tear it sooner,” he said and the two sighed in relief
“The womb would heal just right too, im guessing that was what worried you too youngsters the most” he laughed and izukus's face fell

He felt like dying, he thought he was going to bleed to death and this is what this guy is worried about? About having another fucking child?!

“I could've seen my mate die in my arms,” katsuki said lowly, his grip on izuku tightened

“And you're telling me his womb is okay? Why the fuck would I care about that?”

“Because your mate is an omega,” he said as if Izuku wasn't there

“Im sure that's what worried you the most—”

A glare by the alpha made the beta doctor gulp
“I see, you two have your first child to–to worry about, silly me…Haha I remember when I had my first child I didn't even—”

“OUT” Izuku raised his voice, his small omega fangs showed

He hated this, he hated everything!

With a shaky nod, he scrambled out, leaving the two alone

“I shouldn't have run trying to find you,” Izuku said, scratching his hair and having to take deep breaths

“Deku—”

“But how couldn't I? I spent one of my most traumatizing times, alone.” he lets his hand run down his head
“I spent it all alone, with this /thing/”

“That thing is Katsumi. That is your son”

Izuku turns his head to face katsuki
“...Are you really doing this to me right now?” he whispered

“Calling it a thing aint gonna help shit either”
“It's helping me! I don't want to see him as my son, I don't want to put something that made me go through so much as something I need to love. I don't have to love him!” he barked

“I shouldn't have gone after you, after anybody! If so my wounds wouldnt have opened and I wouldnt be in this mess” he said, his hands were shaking

“Maybe I would had enough strength to truly leave him”

Katsuki let go of izukus hand as he stood up
“It's not his fault. Katsumi didn't ask to be born” he said and izuku gritted his teeth

“Why, why can nobody understand him?

“Kacchan”
“What?”

“If I died—”
“Dont do this, dont say shit like this”

“If I had died in your arms would've you cared?”
“What are you saying?” bakugou looked at him with disbelief

“I bet everyone would've been happy! Happy they dont have to see my face again, maybe sad that I couldn't pump out one or two more…! I bet everyone would've been more worried about how /katsumi/would've felt when he was grown. I need you there at the hospital, and you weren't there”

“...You need time alone,” the blond said, heading outside

“Is that what you're going to say after I told you this? After I told you how IM feeling?! Katsuki!”

“Im not getting rid of katsumi!” The alpha turned back to face his mate

“We—I imprinted on him while you were passed out. He was hungry so I fed him and now I can't get rid of my child, I just fucking can't”
“So you rather get rid of me?” izuku whispered

“No! No…deku” Katsuki hurried back to the edge of the bed

“It doesn't have to be this way”

“Then what's the other way? There is no other choice. I can't, I /won't/ fit into this family thing. I hate that child but I dont want them to be neglected or abused by me.”

“Then let's fucking find common ground”

Common ground? If one thing Izuku had learned from this is that there is no common ground in taking care of a living thing.

“I did that for nine months. And that common ground was always me having to accept everything bad and get nothing in return.” Izuku crossed his arms

“I gave birth to him because our ‘common ground’ was that I was going to be helped through the way, that I would have someone in that room holding my hand. Did I? Did I do Katsuki?”
Bakugou swallowed hard

“So what if your mom didn't call, It was stupid of you to leave when I was so close to my due date. And then YOU said you would choose me yesterday, that was a lie too. How many lies do you think I can handle? How many nights of hating myself do you think I can take before I leave you?”

He doesn't need bakugou, he doesn't need anyone

He can get a house the same size in the same fancy skyscraper.

“This is me telling you right in the face. Me or that child. Me, your mate who was raised alongside you, who works with you, who shares your dreams. Or them, someone that doesn't have to remember us, someone we could give a good home to before we part ways”

Izuku could see the way bakugous gritted his teeth, he was thinking

Thinking how could he have both things he loved and showing izuku that he simply would never be enough

“You too get out,” Izuku said, gripping the bedsheets

“I didn't even say—”
“It's clear to me you dont want to leave Katsumi, good, great!” he said sarcastically

“I dont care”

Bakugou couldn't say anything

He couldn't point out how it wasn't fair he wasn't given enough time for anything, but at the same time he wasn't stupid enough to not notice the irony

“So leave and get me back when the doctors give me my leave, or dont. I dont expect anyone to save me anymore,” he said with a helpless shrug

“Deku”
“I’ll file for a divorce, we’ll split our things—”

His red eyes widened
“Dont! Why does it have to end this way?!”
“It didn't. That's the fun part of this” izuku spat

“I would've lived under that shitty common ground years later if you had been there. That's how simple it was, that's how stupid I used to be. Now get out. I dont feel comfortable having you here”
Having someone who prefers a child over someone he spent his whole life with, he doesn't feel safe

He doesn't want to imagine a future with someone like him

“...what about your mom?”

Izuku flinched
“I don't want to see my mom, I don't want to see anyone. If I go back to that house and find here there I swear you will never see me again!” he points and Katsuki sighed, nodding

From now on things will go his way. His body is ruined because he settled for less he won't let that happen again

“At least stay till you find a place”

Izuku rolled his eyes
“Okay. it’ll give me time to pack my things too” his observant eyes didn't miss the ways katsukis face hardened

“...Are you really going to do this?”
“I have nothing to lose anymore katsuki” izuku whispered

Doesn't have a mom, doesn't have his mate, doesn't have friends

“I lost it all the moment I realized how truly alone I was”

***

The ride was quiet, but what else would they talk about?

How did his ex–mate choose a newborn child over him? How he’s willing to break his relationship with someone he’s been with since childhood?

How nobody in this world will ever see worth in him but just as an omega that can give birth

“I told our parents about…this”

Izuku took a shaky breath, of course, he did

“How much?”

“Enough” Katsuki answers

Well, enough or a lot. It didn't matter. He would be hated anyway.

“They won't visit until you say so—”

“Until I leave the house” Izuku mumbles

“...right”

“I also told jeanist and he will send you gifts soon, and said sorry for missing it and hopes you get better and to not worry about the job”

“I can start tomorrow. I don't need to do walking to do my job”

“Right, but Katsumi–”

Izuku stared at him

“What about him?” Izuku asked, sounding amused

“I won't be here and I can't hire a nanny by the company overnight—”

“Oh, oh, you want me to take care of a child I dont want because you can't take one day off work?”

“Deku! It's just for one day!”

“Exactly! It's one day, one! You can miss work for one day”

“I can't! There's more criminals coming out and they need as many heroes as possible”

“God—why did I marry you?” Izuku whispered and Katsuki stared in shock when they stopped at a red light

“Why did I marry someone that would put his job on top of everything else? Literary missed the birth of your son to be a hero and now you can't even take a day off?”

Katsuki gritted its teeth

“I dont know why you can't just…for one day, take care of him”

“Because I wanted to get rid of him! Don't you get it?” izuku raised his voice and instantly regretted it as his stomach started to hurt again

“You heard the doctor saying I couldn't go too hard on my body and you can't take a day off? I dont even need a quirk to see the future when I can see exactly who you are now and what you will do. You will keep missing every single important thing to be a hero”

“That's not true”

“It is! Or better yet if it's an alpha you all will be there with katsumi, yet if he’s an omega you will always find time to ‘miss’ it”

“Why would you say something like that?”

“Because it happened to me, all the time, And dont you dare to say it's not true when I had to live through it. There is a reason why my mom has more photos of you than with me, why every recording of a play it's you being filmed and me in the background. Even my mom missed my own important dates to attend yours.”

“To when /I/ was giving birth, then you chose katsumi over me, and now you want me to do a lot of physical work to care about him for a day. And who knows, you might even go missing even more than a day if ‘things get busy’—”

“Fine! I got it, I’ll stay”

“I dont care what you do katsuki. I really dont, You promised me you would always choose me, and you didn't. So I dont believe a word you say anymore”

Katsuki knew if he did leave Izuku with the child he would do the bare minimum for it. And why shouldn't he? He doesn't want it and prefers putting it up for adoption.

When they got home Izuku went straight to the couch and laid down, exhaling as he could finally relax

Katsumi started crying from his nursery but he wasnt going to move one bit

It was a new day still, and early

Maybe he should have a day for himself

God that sounds amazing. So good that he completely tuned the cries of the child out

When was the last time he took a break? When he wasn't fed random pills that made his life miserable?

Or maybe he should wait until he moves out and everything is unpacked knowing he has nothing to worry about

He’ll wait, he thinks

The couch is very comfortable. And just like that, he fell asleep. Better than being awake really, than knowing he has to see an unwanted child

Chapter Text

Katsuki stared at him as he rocked Katsumi in his hands, once he felt someone hugging him his cries instantly died, suckling on his pacifier

He was wrong, he admits it

He knows he should've been there for izukus due date, he knows he shouldn't have bonded with a child his mate didn't want and he knows he should taken a paternity leave days ago

But izuku knew the consequences of his job. Even while dating he told him he may miss a shit ton of important days yet he said it over and over and it was okay and he didn't mind

Then again, it's not like he was fucking overseas or something, he just—he was patrolling right there!

Katsumi babbles, trying to reach for Katsuki’s nose and the alpha sighs, sitting down on another sofa in front of izuku and letting him crawl over

He already suffered enough, both of them

He doesn't want to be what izuku claims he is, he knows he would never find something more important than his…son

Yet he tried to do that now, didn't he?
Well, maybe not fucking now as a baby but later on! He means later on, obviously. And his second gender won't have anything to do with it. He will promise himself that

Yet…he didn't keep any of izukus promises

Can he really trust himself?

Well, he’s a hero

There has to be a thing he needs to trust on

It seems he got tired of wandering and touching katsuki so he plopped down on his chest, staring at izuku who was a few feet away from them

“That's your mom” katsuki said, pointing at izuku as his other hand tapped the baby's back

His instincts probably kicked in now that izuku didn't smell threatening. Well ‘threat’. A child cant tell whenever something is a threat or telling you to back off this young, both scents sound the same

But now that he was calm and in a place he knew izukus scent calmed down

“Ah” katsumi said, jumping a bit in katsukis chest

He yearned for his dam, katsuki knew that

But he couldn't bring him to him, izuku was not comfortable with it

Some might say to do it anyway, maybe he will bond if they snuggle but again—it wouldn't be fair. The divide isn't hurting his child, yet. So he shouldn't force a bond, besides, izuku would probably not want to see him

Instead, katsuki stood up and grabbed a shirt from the closet and wrapped it around Katsumi who seemed to find comfort in and snuggle

Now that he had both of his parent's scents he could finally calm down

“Im sorry” he mumbles as he kisses the baby’s forehead

“Sorry for having to make you go through so much shit already”

**

“I found a place,” izuku said

It's been a few days since he had to go to the hospital for an emergency and izuku’s better

Well, body-wise

Mentally katsuki could tell he’s been declining yet the omega doesn't accept any help, like making an appointment for therapy

Maybe it is because he’s always hugging Katsumi and in a way the child feels like a barrier, a stop to talking about anything. As if it's the child's fault he can't get help

And izuku knows it isn't, he knows the pup shouldn't be blamed for anything. It's not his fault he didn't get an abortion, not his fault nobody came to cheer him on when he needed it

But he can lie and say he doesn't hate Katsumi because of it

“Oh—that fast?”

“Mhm,” izuku said, making sure everything that was his was taken and boxed away. He also made sure to leave scented animals for the child, he’s not a monster

“Got a moving company too…”
He trails off, sighing

“It doesn't have to be this way—”
“I made my choice, katsuki. Im going too easy on you and you know that. Missing on my most important date when I needed you just like that…! You better be happy im even talking to you”

Izuku looks at Katsumi with sad eyes

No, no it wouldn't have ended this way, but it's everyone's fault it led to it. He should be happy though, that he gets to leave this early before he’s old and sad

Everyone would be happy too

**

“Yes and leave it there, please” izuku points at the floor, and the beta workers nod, putting the couch in front of the TV

Izuku got his apartment and he couldn't be happier, he cut off contact with everyone but his boss

He knows it was selfish for him, probably

Yet again none of this would happened if they had just treated him like a human being

He’ll be okay, he still needs to go to the doctor for his checks and takes a few pills but that is just something that happens after you give birth
He doesn't need therapy, he's okay!

The last things were put inside and the men left, leaving him alone in this new house

He sat down on his only piece of furniture that wasn't filled with boxes and looked at the ceiling

He wonders how is katsuki going to handle it now. He wanted to be a father so much, probably well, especially since his parents were set on knowing what was so good for them

Well, it's not even 6 pm, might as well start unpacking everything. It wasn't much since they split everything

He opened the figures and merch boxes first, things he held dear as some were the first things he managed to buy early in his career

It was hard for omegas to even get a job this high up. Of course, he wanted to buy something that meant a lot to him

Yet others were gifts from katsuki and he doesn't know why he kept them, it would just make him remember what they had before it all

The good memories

They all say there is no such thing as simpler times, but back then it really was simple. Just them two working together, staying late watching shows, everything was bound to crash down

One by one he puts the figures on the glass shelves, cleaning some while he was at it

He tries not to remember the history of it all

When katsuki courted him, said they would be equals through and through.

What the point of mopping around anyway, he already suffered enough and he can bet Mitsuki is wishing for the bad news

Wishing izuku would lose it all so he could go back to him, to depend on her son

He’s going to work hard, to never depend on anyone again

He will never feel the same way he felt in that hospital room

**
Four years passed

Katsuki kept being the number one hero and izuku became the head of the quirk specialist job, the first omega to even get that high in that field

He could at least thank jeanist for the bare minimum of equality

Who would've thought when you dont have a child you produce better work

Katsuki and he barely talk and he doesn't lie when he says they've only talked about work-related issues. Neither of them tries to drift off the conversation besides small talk so people dont get suspicious of them

Their rings are gone and katsuki gets asked if he has a mate more than ever but he just tells them it is none of their business

He knows soon the child’s second gender and quirk will be revealed and in all honestly he does wish they were an alpha and had a powerful quirk

They dont deserve to suffer the way he did, no matter how much hurt they caused to his body

They, it. He's doing everything but using their name.

Izuku had fallen into a repetitive schedule of getting home and doing everything work-related for a few hours before going to eat and watching TV until it was time to sleep

Yet one day that schedule was broken when bakugou called him

Because of course, he cut off contact with everyone but him

Was it for work?

He knows being the head of it all means heroes would call you in the dead of night to ask about certain villains they were fighting

Yet katsuki wasn't on the schedule today, because today is Katsumi's birthday

“Dynamight—”

“They left him”

Izuku sat up from the couch, he always knew katsuki was never one to speak in full sentences but he had missed so much from his life that this felt too random for him to put the pieces together

“Huh? Who?”

“Katsumi’s birthday. They all /left/ when his results came in”

Izuku’s eyes widened

“Your mother, my parents, our relatives. They all left. He’s heartbroken and crying and I dont know what the fuck to do. He’s struggling to breathe and his eyes are hazy!”

TBC

Chapter Text

This happened to him years ago

“Shit im sorry, Im going to the hospital, I dont know why I called when I know you dont want anything to do with this—”
“Bring katsumi here”

He doesn't believe he just said that but he knows /exactly/ how that child is feeling

“The hospital would just make him panic more, listen to me katsuki. Bring him here”
And he hung up, hoping that enough of an incentive to get moving

His heart was racing, why did he say that without thinking?

He’s never invited anyone to his home. /Nobody/

Yet now he’s letting his child and ex-husband whom he cut contact with two years ago as his first guests

When izuku was four he had a cake and a few gifts on the table. Everyone was cheering for him until his letter was opened and it read quirkless omega

He always knew there was discrimination towards the quirkless yet he was just a child, it didn't fully sink in until he experienced it all firsthand

The way he was moved away from the cake and his mother apologized to everyone

She apologized to them just because he was born this way

In the same way, a mother would apologize if their child was misbehaving but izuku was just existing

As if it's his fault like he chose this

He cried and cried as everyone was leaving, taking their gifts back saying an omega shouldn't be playing with these things

Even his cake was given away, the image of all might was cut for the guests to take as inko held his child back

She told him too much sugar was bad for an omega, so he shouldn't have any

He didn't know he had suppressed that memory until he felt cold drips of his tears hit his hands and thighs

He found himself in the middle of a small panic attack

He doesn't think how he just kept moving on after that

Can you imagine it? Your parent holding you back and they take everything from you

He takes a shaky breath

Yet he remembers the next day katsuki handed him a small plastic container

“I know you didn't get to eat any” is all he mumbled and izuku got the hint

Katsuki saved up for the cake so he could get to taste it too

At that time when he realized katsuki was meant to be a hero

/At that time/

**

He opens the doors when he hears those fast rapid knocks and he sees a distressed katsuki, holding his crying child

Katsumi looked red, sniffling into his sire's shoulder

“Come in,” izuku said and katsuki quickly did so.

He had never seen katsuki so…desperate, at least he looks like he still cares about his child despite the results, and at least he stays a hero when it comes to that

His scent was distressed and izuku pointed at the couch, going to the kitchen to make them a glass of water, he didn't have any plastic cup a child could use

Katsumi wailed, crying as much as his small lungs could let him yet he still breathed when it was needed so he wasnt going to make himself pass out

“So everyone just…left?” izuku asked and katsuki nodded

“Exactly what happened at your birthday”

He remembered it too

He gets the cup from izukus hand
“Katsu, here, drink some water,” the alpha says, trying to turn the child around but he doesn't budge

“They used to take care of him when I went out on patrols and missions, he sees them as their grandparents so for them to just—”
He looked pissed, angry

He looked like he wanted to kill yet the touches for his child were soft

Izuku hummed, going back to the kitchen and grabbing a cupcake he  had on the fridge and sighed in relief when he saw he still had tiny candles saved from the birthday cakes he bought himself

He doesn't know why he’s trying so much for a child, at best he should just stay there until he calms down yet he’s doing all of this

Maybe because he knows exactly what it feels that he’s going to try to make it an okay experience even though he’s a random person in the kid's eyes

He puts the candle on the icing and sits back on the couch, he edges the food closer to katsuki and with his free hand he manages to set the candle on fire with just his thumbs

“Look Katsumi, a cupcake for your birthday”

The child sniffles, slowly turning back to face izuku. His red eyes stared at the small flame

“Happy birthday to you” izuku starts and katsuki follows, both singing to him

“Happy birthday to you, Katsumi” they finish

“Blow on it” Katsuki urged him and the child did, smiling a little bit when the two adults cheered to him

He coughed before turning his face back to face katsuki
“Youre still my child, still my pup” he whispered into Katsumi and he sniffled, nodding

He looked sure of it, like no matter what happened he would stay as his child
Izuku was taking back a bit, hugging his sofa cushion

In the end, /somehow/ he married a decent guy

No, he is not going to praise katsuki for doing the bare minimum of being a good and accepting father

Still, in a world where sometimes parents of quirkless or omega children are paid off to give them away and to ‘try again’

Yet the blond looked like he rather die than do that

“What's going to happen now” izuku mumbled
“What's going to happen is that my parents and your mother will never set foot at my house. Neither are the people that I thought were my friends” he spat, urging the child to at least take the cupcake and eat it a bit

“I dont care if people tell me to—” he stopped himself

No, he couldn't say in front of his child how people were going to start to ask him and tell him to ‘try again’ with another new omega

He’s not going to show him the truth of how cruel people who are hungry with power can be

“....How about you put him to sleep? He can use my bed” izuku said, standing up
“... You sure?” he asked, skeptically

Izuku shrugged, sure this is the most they talked in years and izuku doesn't have a relationship with his son but that doesn't mean he can't offer him a temporary bed

“Papa” katsumi whispered

“Go to sleep, we're going to do grownup talk,” he says, leaning down to kiss his son's forehead and tuck himn into izukus bedsheet

“Papa” he weakly calls out and katsuki turns back
“No bedtime story today pup–”

“No—I I'm sorry..for being an omega”
Both of their eyes widened

In less than a second he ran to his pup, hugging him tight

“It's not your fault, /not your fault/” he repeats over and over as he mutters into his child's face, hugging him tight

Izuku was good at reading katsuki and it didn't tell him much to know he was /pissed/

Oh he wanted to burn the whole world for having his child think of him this way, a four-year-old should not be apologizing for being an omega

“Never /ever/ apologize for this. You hear me?” he asked, cupping his pups cheeks

He looked so drained that he was practically falling asleep in katsukis hands

“Otay” he mumbled, slowly lying back in the bed

Katsuki stayed there for a few more minutes as he watched his pups breathe even out

Izuku decided to prepare them two a tea to calm their nerves for tonight

As the bag was mixing with the water Katsuki finally came out from the room, softly closing the door

“This day is shit—thank you for taking us in,” he said earnestly

He looked tired too

He takes a sip of his drink more worried about gripping it too tight that it would break the cup

“Dont worry about it. You ran to the first omega you knew, still…kind of sad this is how I know about the state of the child”
His child to be exact but katsuki doesn't even bother correcting him, doesn't try to make izuku change the way he addresses Katsumi to make it seem closer when they are not

To izuku, the child is not his and to the child, izuku is just a stranger

“Yeah,” he said with a sigh, leaning back against the sofa with a breath, letting it sink in
“When I imprinted on that child, I swore to protect him, to care for him, and today from now on I dont think I will be able to do it” he breathed out

“No amount of money and connections will ever make them free from assholes that want to think omegas are property, no matter how many campaigns and programs I start”
That right, izuku thought

Bakugou had been in various forms of campaigns to lessen the gap between omegas and alphas but of course, that would take years. Nevertheless, it was evident that his support and ratings among omegas had increased due to his efforts, even if he had lost some support from betas and alphas.

“He’s going go through his whole life suffering, how can a parent live with that?”

Izuku doesn't know, as someone who has lived through worse he could sympathize with Katsumi but not with katsuki

“Just—stay there with him,” izuku says

"When the world turns its back on him, you'll show him that you'll be there for him. That's all he needs. I knew I needed that when I felt the same thing,"

Katsuki nods
“Yeah”

Of course, it would only get harder from here, Katsumi's body will start changing into an omega through the months, and because he’s still a child he will need nests more than ever instead of making his own

At a young age, they are encouraged to start learning how to do them but they still depend on their omega dam for the nest to rest on

Katsuki is an alpha, he’s done izuku’s nests here and there but nothing compares to one made by an omega and this can bring some issues with his son

Izuku looks around before sighing, he’s going to do this? He told himself he would not get attached nor get anywhere near this child’s life

It brought him a lot of anxiety and PTSD even if the child had nothing to do with it

“...If you need me for any omega-related issues, give me a call”

TBC

Chapter Text

Those red eyes widened

"/Only/ for when there are issues about his second gender. Not when you need a babysitter, or when you need a dam for him or a mate—"

"I'm not that shameless," Katsuki replied
"You can be," Izuku retorted.

"No slick until they turn 18, so worry about the pads for later. And if it happens earlier, it's nothing to worry about," Izuku instructed, standing up and leaving his half-drunk tea on the table in the middle of the living room. 

"It's the body mostly cleaning itself, but still—"

"I know, I know," Katsuki said, shaking his head. "I did my research on omegas thanks to the projects I'm in, can't be funding an organization for omegas in need and not know a few things"

Izuku snorted, shaking his head.
"I should go. I have to tuck him into his actual bed and get him ready for school tomorrow. That shit is going to be another hell," he added, placing the empty cup on the same spot as Izuku's cups. He then went back to Izuku's room.

After a few seconds, he emerged with his pup on his big shoulders, sleeping like a log.

Both looked like they wanted to say something to each other but held their tongues, just letting Izuku open the door for him. 

At this moment, Katsuki couldn't help but think of the other life he could've had if he had pushed to stay beside him

"...See you," the blond says, giving him a small nod as he walks out from the apartment clicking the elevator button at the end of the hallway.

Izuku shuts the door behind him and sighs, trying to calm his racing heart.
Don't be mistaken, it's not from falling in love with Katsuki, no 'badum'

As he showed before, this was still a big issue for him, a trauma he didn't know he had until he felt like he relived through it.

But at least Katsumi has his father, a sire that will love him through thick and thin, a support Izuku never had from anyone when he was young—except younger Katsuki.

But back then, although the friend was appreciated, he needed a parent he could cry to.

Instead, he was telling all his problems to an alpha who was the total opposite of him, and he felt so alone. 

Maybe he should join the campaigns too, instead of watching from afar. He knows omegas need support, support he never got.

He puts the cups in the sink and fills them with water before turning off all the lights and jumping into bed. Tried to ignore the new soft smell his blankets had acquired of milk and his omega preened before it quickly quieted, just like his mind.

He slept well that night, even if today was one of the worst days he had in years.

**

Izuku woke up with various missed calls from Jeanists yet the moment he tried to answer his call was denied

Being sent a message
'Check the TV' 

Groggily and confused he forced his body to the living room to turn on the news

"And today on the news...! Mitsuki Bakugou, the head CEO of the Dynamight clothing brand, and Masaru Bakugou, the head of the photography group, as well as other heroes and important executives, are in hot water after a video was leaked of them calling four-year-old names as they left his birthday because he was an omega," the news anchor reported.

Izuku's heart sank

"Of course, we know Dynamight has been a big supporter of omega rights for years. Now they are being threatened with losing their jobs and ruining any future careers. Some people call him careless for making one of his companies lose stocks this fast, but others praise him for being so head-on for his family, even garnering the attention of very 'conservative' families. More news coming in at 10 AM," the anchor continued.

...Huhh

“...Huh…?!” Izuku was born and raised alongside Katsuki; he thought he knew everything about him. Then he missed his due date at the hospital, choosing work

But he just didn't believe that Katsuki would be willing to do this for his son!
At this point, he's sabotaging his job, the same job he had picked over Izuku

Sure, it's horrible that everyone around you walked away from your party, but it's also unexpected!

Then again, it's Katsuki. He's brash, and when he wants to do something, he does it.

Maybe this also hurts him, to know that if Katsuki really wanted to, he could've visited the hospital.

Why should he care again? It's been four years; he thought he moved on from this.

He shouldn't feel sour that he loved a guy who chose his job over him and his child.

Oh

Now he sees why he thought it was unexpected. Because Katsuki abandoned them back in the hospital, he kind of expected the same thing to have happened now.

He thought he would've pushed the situation under the rug, gotten himself another mate, and had another child who was a beta at best.

But no, instead, he's willing to take this risk because of his son. Did it take losing his first-ever mate to know what he must do to protect?

It's reminiscent of those men who see how messed up the world is once they have a daughter.

But oh well, he's not angry that Katsuki decided to do this. If anything, he wishes Mitsuki, Masaru, and everyone involved very good karma. /He hopes they lose it all. /

After that traumatic experience, they put him through, they deserve it. That level of pain—even though he had forgotten some of it, was so traumatic that even his mind made it hazy to protect himself from the pain.

He looks down to see his hands shaking and takes a few steps back until he slumps on the sofa, taking deep breaths. 

He thought he had moved on. It's been years, so why is he still shaking like a baby deer?

He has everything he ever wanted now. He’s alone in his apartment, and it's so peaceful and beautiful up here in the highest buildings.

Sure, he didn't go to therapy or anything, but he didn't need to! He’s fine here, his collection of figures grows, and... and suddenly, he feels tears running down his face, and he doesn't know why. 

He was okay here, with everything he wanted. Besides, he had always been alone, so what is the difference now?

Okay, maybe he has some unhealed trauma from that experience, but it's nothing going outside and walking can't fix. 

What's the point of talking to a therapist? All they are going to do is think about others' actions and how they made them feel, and that's it! 

So what if he had wished that someone went through those doors that weren't the nurses and doctors? What if they had held his hand and told him he was a darn good omega after what he was made to go through? Instead, he had nobody. 

Everything was cold, their touches were cynical.

He takes another couple of shaky breaths to calm down. Through the years, he did realize something, or well… something he had to tell himself multiple times: Katsumi is not the one to blame and never will be. 

Every year that passes and he’s away from his mother, it sinks in even further that everyone but that child was to blame.

Who knows, maybe he should've fought more to not be as persuaded as he was. He should've talked to other people—the list goes on. There are so many what-ifs and buts, but the end is the same: Katsumi is not at fault.

He looks at the phone on his coffee table when he gets a message and leans closer, going to the end of the sofa to look. 

It was a text from Katsuki.

[Can you take care of Katsumi for a day?] is all he asked, and Izuku scoffed. Who does he think he is? Katsuki is a hero, earning millions doing missions and even more if he does his photoshoots.

His fingers were left shaking as he typed out his response. 

[No]

He wonders what his mother must've felt like when she saw Izukus's test results, pure utter embarrassment that her son didn't have a quirk, nor was he a beta to at least have some chance at being a member of society. 

In her eyes, he was screwed from the very beginning, something to marry off.

And now, Katsuki is asking him to take care of Katsumi. It's too much. It's reopening old wounds he's desperately tried to heal. He can't do it.

[And don't involve me in this,] he types out firmly,
[I helped you yesterday because I knew what it was like to have people walk out on my birthday, but that's how far I'm willing to go. If you can't respect that, then I will block your number.]

He looked to see katsuki had replied with an [Okay, I understand] and left it at that

But still, izuku didn't feel like he was doing the right thing

And he /shouldn't/ but still

Even if he doesn't consider Katsumi as his son some part of him sees him as the younger version of him

He sees bits and pieces of himself in Katsumi

And sure katsuki may be there to support him and burn anyone who wronged him it still doesn't change the fact that he is still alone

No friends, no mother, no grandparents, nobody

He sighs

Is he going to do this?