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Jason doesn’t go to school the day after Chrissy breaks out, and his parents don’t expect him to. His father calls the school before he goes to the office, and his mother dabs fresh iodine on the cuts on his face, and makes banana pancakes with blueberries even though Jason is, for once, really not hungry. At least his little brothers can benefit while he forces himself to eat, because he needs the energy. There’s no question about the game tonight, of course he’s going to that, but he just cannot deal with all the staring today.
Patrick knows to collect his homework, and everyone knows that he just can’t take listening to the whispers and rumors all day, about Chrissy breaking out. Holy crow, it’s so weird to hear and think that term about his girlfriend. It’s his turn to clear the table, but Mark takes it without question, letting Jason go upstairs to his room to think. He’s really not sure if it’s a favor.
In a house this big, having his own room is a premium that Jason fully appreciates, even if it is just a tiny little garret. He’s tucked up in the attic, where he can shut the door behind him and flop on the bed to stare up at the ceiling in peace. His girlfriend had an Alpha breakout yesterday. He wishes he could think about something else for five minutes, but there’s no way. Breaking out means an Alpha going crazy from hormones and really acting out in some big way, usually violent or sexual, and the thing is that Chrissy has always been so mild.
Some of the other guys who aren’t total hypocrites about waiting for marriage have had a lot of trouble with wild girls, but not Jason. Pretty much only Betas do that anymore, anyway, even the religious ones, but Ronny Smith had had to drop Matilda Swinson because her entire good-girl thing really had just been an act.
It’s not like Jason doesn’t have… urges, but it’s important to have principles, too. Chrissy had always been happy to stop at second base (for both of them, and it’s so weird to shiver at the memory of her little hands on his chest when he’s so miserable and she hates him now) and that had been fine, Jason rock hard in the cloud of her perfume but disciplined enough not to push for more. Fuck, that perfume probably had Alpha pheromones in it, no matter what kind of medications people take, that stuff is almost impossible to cover, especially in such an intimate moment and oh no, does this mean Jason’s bent?
Alphas and Omegas can’t help their nature even if it is just a little more sinful than everyone else’s, maybe, but being bent is definitely a sin. At least all that bastard Eddie Munson has ever done is annoy him and make him sneeze. He was such a prick about it when Coach sent Jason to ask him to join the team, back in sophomore year… pheromones are probably all that Chrissy sees in him.
Oh no, Jason must be bent, if he’s thinking about whether or not he’d take her back if she came to her senses and dropped Munson. She’s an Alpha, she told him straight out that it doesn’t matter how much she acts like a Beta, and that she’s not planning on getting anything cut off. And he knows now that that’s fucked up to say. She’s just now found a whole new part of herself, shoved aside, hidden, something her own mother lied to her about for her entire life… no. If she doesn’t feel horror and disgust, but relief that everything finally makes sense? Who the fuck is Jason to say otherwise? How dare he even suggest taking that from her? He’s such a piece of shit.
And he wants to be mad at Chrissy, but it’s not her fault. He’s really pissed at her stupid fucking parents. What the fuck. Alpha females are kind of weird, sure, but there’s a couple on the cheerleading squad with Chrissy! A female Alpha was Valedictorian last year, it’s seriously not a big deal. Not nearly as weird as being a male Omega, sent off to a boarding school to make sure none of the normal boys got his nasty paws on you. Except for guys like Munson… Ugh, this whole thing would be better if he wasn’t so creepy. Pulling vulnerable freshmen deeper into antisocial activities. ‘Lost little sheepies,’ indeed. More than anything, more than he’s mad at anyone, more than he’s humiliated, even more than he’s lonely and depressed, he really, really just wants Chrissy to be safe. That's all that's worth praying for at this point.