Archive of Our Own ^beta

Chapter Text

Loving him was easy. Too easy. Chan was his leader, bandmate, and Aussie bro. His family. And the one he was madly in love with. Felix didn't mean to fall in love. For the sudden bloom of flowers to form in his chest. 

It wasn't fair. 

None of this was fair. 

The day he realized what had happened broke him completely, coughing up a petal after the concert. After breaking down seeing Stays and having Chan hold him all the way to the hotel was the final thing for the bluebells to push their way into his chest. That night he was hunched over the sink trying to get out what he was phlegm. Oh, how he wished it was just phlegm. Instead when he looked down were 3 delicate blue petals 

Collapsing to the floor he couldn't stop the sobs wracking through his now damaged chest. He was so glad at this stop of the tour he has his own room. And from there on out he requested his own room until the end of the tour. He didn't know how would deal with one of his members walking in on him crying himself to sleep or with him hunched over the toilet coughing up bluebells. 

Finding out the meaning of the flowers that had been infesting his lungs felt like a punch to the gut. 

Everlasting love

He laughed, a sick, broken laugh when he looked it up

It was cruel. It was cold

It was unfair. 

What was more unfair was Minho letting himself into his hotel room whilst they were in Paris. The older was smiling brightly, holding a bag of various pastries to share with Felix, worried about the other dancer. Minho was good at reading the others, knowing when they were sad, anxious, or angry. And he had watched Felix mope around for too long. Watched him put on a fake smile around them all before excusing himself back to his own room. 

Minho swore to himself he was going to figure out what was wrong with their Bokkie. Getting various sweet treats he remembered the younger raving about the last time he came to Paris with Hyunjin, as well as some other pastries he couldn’t help but buy. He knew Felix couldn’t deny him, he also knew the younger wouldn’t mind him letting himself in.

However When the dancer let himself in, he wasn’t met with Felix in the room, relaxing and playing games on his switch like he told him and the others, he was going to do. He was met with an empty room and bed. 

It was silent except for the sound of gagging and sobbing. 

Minho’s eyes widened a little. Felix didn’t mention he felt sick. He put down the bag on the bed before heading to the bathroom. The door thankfully wasn’t locked, nor was it shut fully so all it took was a light push for him to see the scene in front of him.

Felix was curled up on the floor, soft sobs escaping his lips as he cried. What shocked him more was the blue petals on the toilet seat and the floor next to the younger. He felt his heart break. 

Felix had hanahaki. Felix was sick

He was practically dying 

“Oh Lixie” he whispered as he knelt down next to him, gently running his hand over his back “Shh sweetie it’s only me,” he said as Felix jumped in panic. 

“H-hyung you’re not meant to be here” The younger gasped out, eyes filled with terror. No one was meant to know. 

“I’m here now. Let me clean you up” Minho said, ignoring how freaked out Felix was, not mentioning the hanahaki yet. He stood up and grabbed a washcloth, wetting it with warm water before carefully cleaning up Felix’s face. He then picked up all the petals and put them in the toilet before flushing them away. “Come on.. let's cuddle,” he said as he easily lifted the other up. 

Felix was getting lighter he noted. He hated that he could easily tell. 

Once they were all snuggled under the covers Minho spoke again, voice soft “...Who is it sweetheart” he said, gently running his fingers through his hair “There's no point in lying . I saw the petals. And no. I’m not mad or upset because you hid it. I understand I promise” he said, holding him closer.  

It took a while before Felix had the confidence to speak, hesitant to tell the other. But he trusted him with his life. There was no point in hiding it now. Minho had seen the petals. Sighing, Felix spoke “It’s hyung…Chan hyung” he whispered. 

The elder dancer hummed with a nod “Truthfully. I’m not that surprised. Sometimes the way you look at him. Made me think you were already together” he admitted, before sighing “Why haven’t you told anyone? Why haven’t you told him?”

“I can't. I can’t tell anyone. Especially not him. I can't hurt him. I know it’ll hurt him. Him being the reason I’m sick”

“You are just sowing the seeds of your own destruction” Minho whispered softly as he held Felix in his arms 

“What’s that supposed to mean?” he murmured, curling against the older 

“It means you trying your hardest for hyung not to find out so he isn’t hurting will only hurt him more. You not telling him until….until it’s too late so it doesn’t hurt him will hurt him too baby” Minho’s voice was soft, with no ounce of a patronizing tone in his voice, just warmth, and worry. 

Felix sighed softly “I know…I’m being dumb but I can’t tell him Min. I can’t see him break. I can’t be the reason for that” he shook his head. He expected Minho to argue with him, tell him he was being stupid, and tell him he needed to tell Chan. But that never came. The older just nodded and held him closer. Telling him it was going to be okay and he knew Felix was doing his best

—   —   —   —   —   —

Despite Felix trying his best for the past months, using his back as an excuse to not do vigorous choreography during the concerts, not exerting himself, and checking up with doctors at every stop of the tour. He was trying his best from keeping this from Chan

Yet it didn’t stop the disease from progressing. 

It didn’t stop the oncoming coughing fit in the practice room. 

Didn’t stop the flowers from pushing their way up his throat onto the cold wooden flooring

Didn’t stop the darkness that took over Felix’s vision 

And it certainly didn’t stop Chan from running over to cradle Felix’s body. 

The others rushed to their side. 

Apart from Minho who let his tears fall, a knowing look on his face as he called 999.

Chapter Text

Tick

Tock 

Minho was seated by Felix’s bedside, forehead against Felix’s smaller hand as he waited for him to wake up. Waiting felt like an eternity and he was sure the clock was going to drive him insane 

It had only been a few hours.

Yet it felt like days.

Tick

Tock 

The Dancer sighed softly and sat himself up. “I should have told them” he murmured to himself, glancing at the glass wall. He watched how Chan spoke to the doctors, the rest stood behind just listening like lost puppies. 

He guessed that’s how they all felt. Like lost puppies not knowing what to do. Just completely lost in what to do in a situation like the one they have been thrown into. 

He watched how they all walked in, frowns on their faces as they looked at the sleeping figure of Felix. Minho was about to ask what the doctor said, about how Felix's condition was. Yet as soon as they were all in the room it was like a damn had broken and they all started speaking. 

“Why didn’t he tell us”

Tick

“Who caused this to happen? Lix never mentioned anything”

Tick

“Why was he stupid enough to let this get bad”

Tick. Tick. Tick

“He should have got the sur-”

Tick Tick Tick Tick Tick TickTick Tick Tick Tick Tick TickTickTickTickTickTickTick

“Can you all shut the fuck up and can someone fucking take those batteries out of that clock before I lose my goddamn mind. Please! “ Minho’s voice cut them all off, the sound of the chair scraping against the floor alongside it where the dancer stood up quickly

The others fell silent, watching Minho pace around the room as he started to speak again 

“Would any of you really tell the rest of us you’re dying? Could you casually mention it in a conversation? Would you have liked him to put it in a fucking text? ‘Morning guys, I’ve made breakfast but oh also I’m dying. I fell in love and I’m dying. Is that what you wanted?” Minho’s voice got more erratic, more strained as he spoke, the tears he had been trying to hold back this entire time had finally breached the dam. 

“Minho hyung-” Seungmin tried to intervene. 

“No! Don’t you fucking dare interrupt me!. How can you stand there and speak like that? Call him stupid?! Do you think he wanted this? You think he wants to be coughing up petals?” Minho finally let out a gut-wrenching sob, tears slipping down his cheeks. 

"D-do you know why people don't get the surgery?" He hiccuped, staring at them all with a hard stare despite the fact he couldn’t stop crying now. 

The rest of them frowned and shook their heads. 

“36% of people feel like a shell. They know they’re missing something. Someone. They just can’t pinpoint it . That isn’t the only thing! 57% forget the person entirely! Every memory? Gone. Not just the memories that caused them to love the person. No. Every Fucking Memory! Wanna know the kicker?” Minho asked, a bitter laugh escaping his lips, not giving the others time to intervene before he spoke again “Over half the people who get the surgery Kill themselves! Do you want that?! Regardless of what happens, we have a high fucking chance of losing him…..Of losing Felix”
Saying those words made everything even more real for the dancer, he let out pained noise as he sank to the floor, tears streaming down his cheeks as he sobbed.

"Shh jagi. It's going to be okay" Jisung slowly approached, like you would do with an injured animal, crouching down to his boyfriend's level before wrapping his arms around Minho "I've got you jagiya" he whispered, his own tears starting to fall 

Chan watched. Watching how his team and his family broke at Minho's words. After a while, he took a deep breath before speaking "Guys. You should head home. And yes I know, you want to be here for when Lix wakes up but we don't want to overwhelm him right?" He pointed out in a soft voice 

Jeongin sniffled softly and was the first to speak “Hyung is right. Plus he'll let us know when Lixie wakes up" he said softly. The others were hesitant but they all eventually agreed, slowly leaving the room and hospital. 

—   —   —

Chan let out a shaky sigh as he sat down on the chair where Minho was sitting after watching the others go. 

"How didn't I notice? How did he get this sick without me realising" He thought, running his fingers through his hair 

He wasn't sure how long he was sitting there, his thoughts festering, blaming himself. But when he slowly felt the bed shift it was already dark in the room. 

He sat himself up properly and took Felix's hand gently "Hey Lix. Good to see you're finally awake," he said softly, watching how the blond looked around the room with wide eyes. 

"I'm at a hospital….fuck" the other spoke, voice hoarse, more gravely than usual. 

Chan just nodded, squeezing his hand "You passed out this morning…you were coughing and you just collapsed" he explained, keeping his voice calm and slow "You ...you also coughed up petals…we uh. We know about the hanahaki" he spoke slowly. 

He watched how Felix's eyes grew double in size before he slumped in defeat "No one was meant to find out. I tried so hard to hide it from you" he whimpered. 

The older frowned, his heart breaking into a million tiny pieces. Why would Felix try to hide this? Did he want them all to find him dead one day? The thought alone made him feel sick.

Finding Felix alone, on the floor, eyes emotionless as the vines and petals had breached through, finally taking over his body. The dark green vines were covered in blood as they pushed past his cold and blue lips. No more shine to Felix’s skin, just dull and pale which was tainted by the blood.

He quickly shook his head, trying to get that image away from his head. He couldn't think about that. That was never happening. He was not letting Felix die. 

"Lixie, please. Why can't you get the surgery? We'll look after you. Make sure you're okay. I promise" he said squeezing his hand gently 

"Because I can't forget you" Felix whispered sadly 

Chan froze and looked at Felix with wide eyes “Lix…no” he said slowly. He was killing Felix. This was his fault. This wasn’t fair. None of this was fair. 

Felix was his home. 

It wasn’t like Chan had never had a crush on Felix before. He was absolutely smitten when they were trainees and just after debut but it was a fleeting crush. Nothing like the younger Aussie was going through. 

Maybe…..

Maybe Chan could fall for him? That would work right? 

The hanahaki vines usually die when the host knows their love falls for them back. 

" Maybe if I fall in love I can save him"  

His thoughts were interrupted by the sound of Felix coughing, the younger male's entire body wracked with each cough. The sound was wet and guttural. It broke Chan as all he could do was gently rub Felix's back 

“I’ll fix this Lixie. I promise I'll fix it. We aren’t losing you” Chan whispered softly, the hint of determination in his voice.

Chapter Text

It had been a few weeks since Felix was in the hospital. Since they discharged him, and practically gave him his death sentence 

6 months

Not even a full year.

6 fucking months

_ _ _

When they told him, Felix didn’t even react. Not a tear, not a word. Yet he felt like every bone in his body was breaking, felt like his heart was being ripped from his chest cavity. He was screaming. Screaming in agony. In pain. In anger. Yet. Yet he didn’t move a muscle. 

He pretended he had accepted it. Accepted his impending death. It was only when he got home and sat in the shower, as the hot water sprayed above him, was when he finally cracked. It started slow, small droplets of tears merging amongst the water, soft whimpers stifled by his hand. Yet as time went on soft whimpers soon turned into full blown sobs between his cries. He was shaking, body aching. He coughed a little and brought up petals which only sent him over the edge. Felix had started screaming, a raw broken scream pushed past his lips.

He wasn't sure how long he was wailing, before the water was mysteriously turned off and Jisung was suddenly wrapped around him from behind, gently rocking him as he screamed and cried “I’ve got you Lix. Hyung has you” he whispered in his ear. This only made the younger cry harder. Jisung never called himself hyung unless Felix or the others of the maknae line were seriously upset. Felix's sobs and cries got cut off nut heavy coughs, hands automatically removing themselves from his own hair to grip on to the bath handles as he coughed, his body tensing up as he tried to bring up the petals. 

"I…I ca..I can't….breathe" he had choked out which panicked Jisung to his core and he started to pat his back in attempts to help 

"Come on Lixie. You can breathe. Big cough for me okay. Really big cough now. Please" Jisung's voice was almost begging.

"C-can't" he sobbed, body shaking as he tried to cough, instead starting to heave and gasp. This wasn't meant to happen; he had 6 months! He wasn't meant to die now. 

It felt like hours for Jisung, carefully patting Felix's back and trying to reassure him he could cough, he could breathe. In reality, it was merely 30 seconds before the younger finally started coughing. It sounded horrendous. Felix finally coughed up a bunch of whole bluebells mixed with mucus. If Jisung looked really close he could see the red tinge of blood. He carefully adjusted Felix into his arms and hugged him tightly, rocking him in his arms as they silently cried together. 

He remembers hearing the others shuffle in and take care of him. As well as Jisung. Minho had slowly led his boyfriend into their room. He distinctly remembers the soft sobs coming from his hyungs but he tried to shut it out as he was carried back to his own room. He wasn't sure if it was Chan or Changbin, too exhausted, and overwhelmed to pay attention to anything. 

___   ___   ___   ___

That was a month ago, now Felix was sitting watching the others dance with a fond smile on his face, the doctors said dance practice would have to stop but all of them knew their bokkie was stubborn. Minho had tried to talk him out of coming, telling him to relax. To not exert himself. Yet he knew he wasn't winning that argument. "You can't say no to a dead man hyung" The youngest dancer had said. Minho had frozen and just frowned before nodding, letting the younger clamber into the car with them. 

“Okay you need to put more emphasis on this move Bin” Felix spoke as he stood up, walking over to the others and showed him what he meant. It was nice to dance. He didn't have any parts in the songs anymore. He had made the others promise to continue going. For each other. For stay. And most importantly for him. Him dying wasn't ending Stray Kids. 

"Come on Changbin hyung this isn't even thay hard" he laughed fondly and attempted to show him again. In the corner of his eye he could see Chan watching them, a sort of sad yer fond smile on his face. It made his chest ache, it felt like the vines were burying their way deeper into his chest cavity every time he saw the older one watching him. 

It was a couple hours later when Felix finally felt the exhaustion kick in. Much sooner than it used too. Silently, he moved away from the group and laid down. The others didn't comment on it, watching as they practiced. This wasn't the first time Felix had pushed his limit and needed to sit down

Dance practice continued on through out the day, others slowly disbursing to other schedules or going off to get food and drinks. The leader stayed in the studio, glancing over to the sleeping Felix before he slowly approached. He quietly sat himself on the floor next go the couch, watching him for a moment 

Chan reached out and gently ran his fingers through Felix's hair, watching how peaceful the other Aussie looked. He looked beautiful. 

“Why couldn’t I have fallen for you before all of this” He murmured "I'll love you Lixie. I promise" 

“Hyung?” Minho’s voice made the leader jump, his head snapping to look at the younger who had been watching him silently

"I…hey Min" Chan sighed softly 

"What are you doing? If he wakes up seeing you doing that it'll just set off the hanahaki again. I don't understand why you've been so close to him lately. It hurts him" Minho frowned at him 

The eldest frowned back at him "I just….I always leave before he wakes up" he murmured and glanced down to Felix again. This was routine. Whenever the younger would fall asleep, whether that be in the dance studio, on the couch, or in his room; Chan was there gently petting his hair and watching him. It wasn't particularly new. He was sure he'd done it with at least one of the members once before. 

"And what happens the day he wakes up seeing you sat there caressing his hair? You'll make those damn vines crush his lungs" he hissed quietly "You're killing him. you know it and i know it. Stop torturing him" he glared a little. 

Chan felt his heart crumble yet he felt anger bubble up in his chest. He took a shaky breathe and stood up to be face to face with the dancer "I'm trying to fix this. I'm not giving up on him." He snarled "You think I want this either? I am the reason Lix is going to fucking die. I'm the reason for his pain. I'm going to have to tell his mother I did this too him!" Chan's voice was hard but Minho could tell he was trying not to cry. 

The leader ran his fingers through his hair before speaking again "I am going to love him Minho. I am going to fucking fall in love with him. I've liked him before I can do it again. I'm not losing him. And god forbid I do….I hope the vines grow in my chest and take me too. I will follow him." 

Minho's breathe hitched at Chan's words, staring at him for a moment not knowing what to say. The Dancer wanted to be angry, to yell, and to hit. But he just didn't have it in him. 

"Please….just don't fail. I care bare to lose you both" he said quietly before turning on his heals walking away. Leaving Chan stood there in silence, looking at his own feet. 

'Why is everything so cruel' he thought as he sat back on the floor near the couch. Felis still asleep. Or so he thought. 

Chapter Text

Felix lay there frozen as he listened to the two eldest speak? Argue? He wasn't sure nor did he care. He couldn't get Chan's words out of his head

'I'm going to fall in love with him Minho'

His chest ached, throat burning as he stopped himself from throwing up the bile and petals that threatened their way up his throat. He wasn’t letting Chan know he was awake, let him know he heard everything. Nor was he going to hurt the elder more.
Felix lay there silently, enduring Chan whispering soft promises as he stroked through his hair. It felt like he was laying there for hours until they all decided to head down to the canteen.
“Should we wake him?” It was Seungmin’s voice
“Leave him be, he needs the rest. We all hear him at night coughing” Changbin spoke softly and he felt the rapper's hand gently stroke his cheek. Felix couldn’t stop himself from leaning into the touch a little before it wasn’t there anymore.
He heard the footsteps soon disappear and he was alone. He stayed still for a moment in case any of them came back claiming they forgot something. As soon as he was in the clear he scrambled up and ran to the trash can so he could cough up the petals, gagging as a few clumped together in his throat. He cried softly as he inevitably threw up the rest of them as well as the remains of his breakfast.
Felix shakily stood himself back up, grabbing a water bottle and downing the whole thing before he laid himself back on the couch. This time he actually fell asleep, curled up under the blankets
_ _ _

Felix sighed softly as he looked at the calendar.

August

At least 2 more months until the inevitable

2 more months until October. When they said it was likely for the vines to crush his lungs.

2 more months to Minho’s birthday

Until Chans’s

And those 2 months he was spending at home with his parents He hadn’t told them about the disease yet. Felix knew he should have told them as soon as he found out, and saw the first petal but he just couldn’t. How could he call his mother who was 4243 miles away and explain he was dying? He didn't want that and he wasn't going to keep them oblivious either.
Telling the company was easy enough, his managers and the staff were heartbroken but they simply nodded and started on an announcement for Felix's departure. That he would be going home to rest due to health reasons. It was set to be released as soon as he was back in Australia

Felix wished he could be honest with Stay, however, he knew this would cause too much uproar, and potential hate towards the members, towards himself.
So his flight was that evening, and the only people he hadn't told were the other members. He couldn’t do it, he already hurt them so much. His original plan when he first found out when he was sick was to have no one know until he was gone. So his plan now was for him to be gone before anyone could stop him.
The Aussie sat at his desk and looked at all the letters in front of him. One for each of them. One for each of his beloved members. He sighed sadly and grabbed one of them randomly and started checking it.
Of course, he'd grab Chan's subconsciously

~Chan~

I'll be home when you read this. I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I couldn't see any more tears from you all. I've hurt you more than enough now. I promise i will call when i’m there. When you guys get back from practice i’ll probably be already on the flight
Hyung, please don't blame yourself. This isn't your fault and never was.
I heard you and Minho hyung that day. You promised him you'd love me….if that is such a task I am unsure if I want it. Nor do I want you to suffer.

Please Miss Me.

But please don't die for me.
I know you promised to never leave me behind. This time I think you have to. Please leave me behind. I'll be there at the finish line but you still have so much of this race to go.
The others can't lose you, stay can't lose you.
Channie you need to promise me you won't let the group fall apart. You need to promise me you'll stay alive for me.
I wish this didn't happen. I wish we had a happy ending, yet I don't regret it for a second. Seeing you in this light was beautiful. You were bright before but by god, you shine more than the sun.
Come find me in due time yeah? I'll be here whenever that time is.
You are my rock.
My world
I love you so much Christopher Bahng.
It was an honor loving you.
Goodbye
-Lixie

Wet droplets soon covered the paper, tears sliding from Felix's paler cheeks onto his letter. He cried softly and hugged his knees to his chest as he stared at the suitcases in the corner of his room. He was really doing this, leaving the others.

It took him a moment to collect himself before he grabbed all the letters, going to each of the others' rooms and placing them on their beds. He couldn’t stop himself sobbing as he got to Minho’s room, seeing the picture on the olders bedside table was a picture of them both from the set of “Time out” They both looked so happy. His best friend carrying him across the beach. He remembered how Minho would threaten to run into the ocean and throw him in depose the older not knowing how to swim himself.
He wished he could go back in time

The pain in his heart was more obvious than the dull ache in his lungs. Truth be told Felix could barely feel the searing pain he felt when he even saw Chan's name. Yet too worked up he didn't let that sit in his mind, it didn't click for him….

Maybe Chan's plan is working.

Chapter Text

“I’m exhausted” Jeongin groaned softly as they walked into the dorm, collapsing on the couch, eyes closing for a moment before yelping as he was shoved off of the comfort of the seat, he glared as he looked up at the perpetrator who pushed him, Minho, who was just grinning.

“Go get changed, even better shower, you’re getting sweat all over the couch” he motioned for him to go to his room. The younger huffed and rolled his eyes before he hauled himself off of the cold wood floor before he headed to his room. He didn’t notice anything different until he saw the white object? on his black sheets. Raising his brows he reached out to grab the now-identifiable envelope, he was confused but opened it regardless. He scanned it before his heart fell to his stomach and ran back out to where the others were talking 

“Hyungs” he whimpered softly, tears already in his eyes as he stood there. The others rushed over with wide eyes

“Innie? Baby what’s wrong” Chan said pulling the younger into his arms straight away, who started crying softly as he was held but pulled back to speak.

“It’s Felix…..he’s gone. He left” he choked out, waving the letter a little. 

Minho grabbed the letter and frowned as he read it quietly before he began reading it out loud. 

“ To our Baby Bread IN

Hyung is so sorry he is leaving without saying goodbye, i just couldn’t bare to see all of your sad faces anymore. 

I needed to go home, back to Australia. I wish i could have stayed longer but i don’t want anyone to see me worse than i am—especially our sweet maknae. 

I’ve left Bbokari for you, since you always steal the thing anyway so now he is officially yours. 

God, i remember the first time we met, you were so small and so shy. You had the cutest smiles too, all teeth. You’re braces were just too cute. You grew up so well you know. We somehow raised a pretty decent man. 

I’m going to miss seeing you grow and flourish but i promise i’ll always be watching yeah. I’ll always be watching out for you and protecting you. 

Ps. Tell Seungminnie you like him. He likes you back. Don’t let each other suffer like i am
Please

You’re favourite Hyung

Lixie”

Minho finished reading and chuckled wetly to himself, wiping his eyes“I feel like i shouldn’t have read the PS bit out loud” he sniffled, trying to make light of the situation a little despite his breaking heart.

Everyone was silent for a while, trying to collect their thoughts before Chan spoke “I need to go to Australia….I can’t let him die. Not when i know i am falling for him” he said softly. The others stared at him with wide eyes, it made sense. He had only really told Minho his plan and even then it was out of a fit of rage.

“You…You’re falling for him?” Hyunjin said eyes even wider, watching now Chan nodded slowly. There was another moment of silence before he nodded and began speaking again “Well go! Minho. Call the company, we’ll book your tickets. Go pack your bags now!” He instructed everyone and ran to get his laptop.

Chan stared at them in shock before Minho mouthed ‘go’ as he was on the phone. He nodded and rushed to start packing a bag. He paused as he saw the letter on his bed, frowning at it. Slowly he reached for it, opening it up and reading it. He felt like his heart was ripped out of his chest.

Loving Felix wasn’t a task, it was easy.
Fuck it was so easy.

The way he smiled so brightly when he danced around with Hyunjin.
The way he scrunched up his nose whenever he couldn’t figure out a word in English or Korean.
The way his freckles looked like constellations in the night sky.

Chan loved all of him. He had always loved His Felix. Maybe not in the way he needed at first but now…..now he was falling. It was like he had jumped from a plane with no parachute, it was terrifying. Yet it was exhilarating, the feeling of love.

He set the letter down and wiped his eyes, even more, determined to tell Felix, to show him he was falling, how leaving him now was a mistake. All he needed was some more time. He knew this crush would soon be enough for the hanahaki to leave.
Soon the eldest was walking out of his bedroom, suitcase in one hand and his passport in the other, he stared at the others expectantly, nerves clear on his features.

“Okay everything has been sorted out, Our managers are more than on board with you going to Felix. They were all apparently in tears at the idea of not seeing him again. Hyunjin is just printing out your ticket.” Minho said with a soft smile.

“I feel like i’m in one of those cheesy romcoms Hyunjin loves to watch” Chan laughed, rubbing the back of his neck, a nervous habit.

Minho laughed fondly “Just…you need to bring him back Channie….You love him. You just need to love him enough for the disease to realize this okay. You have such a big heart,” he said softly before hugging him tightly “Please bring Lixie home,” he said, desperation clear in his voice

Chan nodded and hugged him back tightly, they’d been doing this more lately. Hugging. Minho wasn’t the most affectionate person in the group, his ways of showing love were his teasing, his cooking and his reassurances. But recently the second eldest had craved more affection from everyone not just his boyfriend. “I’ll bring him back Min. I promise” he said softly before he pulled back just as Hyunjin came back with the documents

“Your flight is in 2 hours so we need to get you to the airport,” He said grabbing the older males bag “Let's go”

“Mission save Felix is a go” Seungmin grinned