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Luz is swiftie, she loves Taylor Swift, she forced Dean and Sam to listen to all her albums and learn the lyrics, they pretend they hate him but whenever they can they sing Taylor's songs with Luz because they know that makes her happy and they like it see her laugh

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When Luz is very stressed or very frustrated, she begins to ramble in Latin as she gets lost in her head, she ends up speaking a mixture of Latin, Spanish, English and Japanese, it lasts for a while until she calms down and speaks English again.

Dean and Sam just sat waiting while Bobby translated for them what Luz was saying.

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At Luz and Amity's wedding, both at the ceremony and at the reception, there was a row of chairs and a table without any guests.

Throughout the wedding, Luz did not let anyone sit in those places.

When Dean asked why, Luz replied that those places were already taken...at least in a spiritual way.

Each of those places was for a family member he had before he ended up on the boiling islands.

One seat was for her beloved Uncle Bobby, to be more precise the one next to the aisle, Luz thought that she probably would have loved to see her walk down the aisle.

The two places with Bobby were one for Ellen and the other for Jo because she knew that Ellen would not have liked to be separated from her daughter.

next to Jo were Ash and Pamela

She put Ash next to Jo since she thought they would like to live together because from the memories she has as a child they were always good friends

Next to Pamela he put a seat for Charlie, because he knew that she probably would have liked to hear about his experiences as a psychic, he thought that they probably would have gotten along well.

A place for the kind lady who took care of her many times as a child and taught her to play the piano, Mrs. Becker

And the last two places at the table were one for her birth mother, Camila Noceda, whom she never got to know but would have loved for her to be there that day.

and one for Dean and Sam's mother, who, although she didn't know her, knew that Dean and Sam would probably find it a nice gesture if she were present.

He sat her next to her mother because she thought they might like to talk about the few memories they had of her and her siblings when they were babies.

By the time Luz finished exploding, Dean was looking at her with a smile and his eyes crystallized by unshed tears.

Luz returned the watery smile

speaking with melancholy in his voice

"I love the family I have now, but they were all my family too and I will never stop loving them."

"I know they're not really here but…they deserved to have a place, because I know they would have loved to be here," he finished explaining to Dean

her brother approached her giving her a side hug

I look at her with loving eyes before saying with a smile on my face

"Yes, they certainly would have."

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Ok, please tell me I'm not the only one who has noticed Luz's problems with food.

That is, it is something that is shown to us quite frequently.

Luz doesn't eat when she is stressed

and if he does it, it is very difficult for him to do it, sometimes only eating a couple of bites.

Please tell me that it's not just me who's seen the signs.

People with eating disorders often use overeating or not eating to cope with traumatic experiences or in other words when they feel that their life is a disaster and they don't know how to deal with it, they seek the comfort that killing themselves offers. hunger or vomiting

It is also mainly due to self-esteem problems, feelings of anger or guilt, need for approval, fear of abandonment.

We are told several times that Luz stops eating when her life gets complicated and it is obvious that she does not know how to deal with it.

After the time loop, after Lilith tortures her, when Lisa and Dean break up, when Belos tries to petrify Eda

another factor of this is the family

In one of the comments the author mentions that one of Bobby's punishments for Luz was to prohibit her from eating junk food, which actually seems quite harmless.

but my parents used to do the same with me and according to my psychology that is the reason why I feel that in order to eat it I must earn it.

It's a little complicated to explain apart from the fact that I feel like I'm doing something wrong if I eat junk food without feeling like I deserve it.

Like I said, maybe I have my own eating disorder on my mind a lot.

I'm 16 years old. I got into this somewhere between the ages of 10 and 12.

I'm still in recovery mostly from bulimia, it's a complicated process so I'm sorry if none of this makes sense.