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"You're staring again, Sebastian"

To his credit, Ominis had waited a long while before calling him out this time. Somehow he could always sense when he was staring, which was rather inconvenient for him lately. Sebastian had gotten this idea into his head that he just couldn't shake out, and so he found himself constantly ogling Ominis out, debating if he should say something or not. He knew that Ominis didn't always think his ideas were good, well… most of the time he did call them stupid… So he knew he needed to play it just right if he was going to get him to agree to it.

Basically, it had recently gotten into his mind the desire to kiss. It wasn't really about Ominis, of course not… it was just that he was curious of how it would feel like to do it. He hadn't had the opportunity yet with a girl and so he thought that maybe they could try it out together, as… practice one could say. They did do everything together after all so why not this? In a friendly way of course.

So he decided to just go for it and casually ask him. What was the worst that could happen anyway? He could just say no and be done with it.

"Hey Om?" He casually asked.

"Yes, Sebastian?" His voice did have a little bit of annoyance in it… probably due to all his staring.

"I was thinking…" he continued.

"Oh no…" Ominis muttered under his breath.

"Neither of us has kissed someone yet… Right?" He carefully set the topic.

"Right…? So?" Always so skeptical, his dearest friend… but no matter.

"So I was thinking… I wouldn't want to make a fool out of myself… once I got the opportunity to kiss a girl." He casually added.

"I suppose that's a valid concern" At least there was no longer annoyance in his tone. Definitely a good sign.

"Sooo… I thought that maybe… we could help each other out, you know?" He timidly uttered.

"I'm not sure I do actually" Right… there was that skepticism again. Hmmm…
He needed to be carefull with his next words.

"Well you know, like practice! With each other… as friends! of course." He couldn't help holding his breath, waiting for his reply.

"What?" Ominis attention was now fully on Sebastian. Ok don't panic… there's definitely a hint of consideration in his eyes. I mean… He hasn't said it's stupid yet. That was good! He supposed…

"I mean, we could help each other learn how to do it properly… and practice! so that we're ready, when the actual time comes." He was rambling a bit now. Definitely not a good sign. Yet Ominis remained quiet. His face only revealed a soft frown as if he was intently going over it in his head. So of course he simply kept going.

"Like, we're best friends, and we trust each other, right? So we wouldn't judge, if we were bad… and that way we could help each other get better!" Well… he didn't think there was more to say so he just kept looking at Ominis, trying to figure out what exactly he could be thinking. He was beginning to feel a little anxious when he finally replied.

"I suppose… that does make sense." Oh Merlin! Is he actually saying yes?! I mean… of course, why wouldn't he? After all, they would be just doing it as friends only. As a simple learning exercise….

"I guess I wouldn't want to make a fool of myself either…." He was clearly self-conscious now in something that apparently hadn't even crossed his mind before. Sebastian felt just a little bit bad about bringing him this new concern… but no matter! Because that's what the practicing was for!

"Right! That's what I'm saying! So… Do you want to try it?" He was getting rather excited now, this idea had been plaguing him for days and now he would finally get to do it.

"Ummm… sure, but how would we do this?"
Ominis was still looking somehow uneasy with the whole situation, but if he was willing to try, he would make sure to make it worth his time.

"I'm not sure, really… But I suppose I could start by giving you a kiss? And then you can tell me how it was?" He really wasn't sure, he hadn't thought that far ahead honestly. He had focused all his planning into getting Ominis to just agree to it.

"Okay" Ominis said and then he awkwardly shifted himself on the couch so he was now completely facing Sebastian. He then simply waited for whatever it was that his friend would do next. His face still showing some kind of uncertainty

"Okay then…" He couldn't believe he was actually about to kiss his best friend. This was his idea after all, yet he was beginning to feel a strange fluttering inside his stomach that he couldn't quite place, surely it was just the nerves, he didn't want to be bad at it after all, even if it was the whole point of the situation.

He realized he was stalling now, so he just shut his mind off and just sort of went for it.
He crassly pecked his lips against Ominis' in such a quick and harsh way that felt like more of a tiny punch rather than what he thought a kiss should actually be…

"What the hell was that?!" Ominis exclaimed, looking annoyed again. He clearly was also expecting something softer…

"Im sorry! I panicked! Isn't that what this is for?! I thought we weren't supposed to judge each other…" Clearly this wasn't how he thought it would be at first either…

"You're right, I'm sorry Sebastian. Please… do try again. Softer this time, if you will" Ok… he could definitely do that. So he popped the tension on his neck and stretched his shoulders a bit trying to relax himself so he could try again, properly this time.

"Okay…" So he leaned again towards Ominis' lips, very very slowly this time and almost without moving his lips at all, he simply pressed them against his friend's. This time he lingered for a few seconds as he took in the softness and warmth that the other lips offered. He then parted and asked "Well?"

"Well… It was definitely softer this time, but I think there's supposed to be some kind of… movement involved? I mean I have never actually seen people kiss so I could be wrong… but from what I've had the misfortune to hear, it does seem there should be something more going on…" Well… he should have known Ominis would simply call it as it is, no sparing of his feelings of course. He was somehow regretting ever asking, could he really be this bad?!

"Here, let me try" Ominis was now somehow taking control and a tiny part within Sebastian was instantly snapping into obedience. Interesting, he thought, but he quietly answered with a mumbled word of compliance and braced himself for Ominis approach. He then stared as his friend's hand ever so softly traced the length of his arm until he reached his neck and stopped by his jaw, then with a quick and featherly caress he checked for the position of Sebastian's lips as he slowly pressed their lips together again.

Of course he was the better kisser… Sebastian thought with a bit of annoyance, but it was quickly erased with the soft movements that his lips where doing against his. He couldn't help but reciprocate the action. It just somehow felt right now, much more natural. There was that small jealousy again but he decided that instead of wallowing in it he would just have to show him next how much better he could actually do it.

"So… how was it?" Ominis softly asked, clearly self-conscious again. All his envious feelings now out the window as he looked at his friend's concerned face.

"That was actually quite nice, seems you're a natural Ominis" Yes… he decided he would instead be proud, this was his best friend after all, and he knew he'd made the right choice when he saw his face light up, there was now a slight blush on his face and a cute tiny smile. "Thanks… I suppose." He said in a small voice. And he couldn't help but smile back.

"See? This is why I knew this was a great idea!" It was Sebastian's turn now, and he knew he could definitely do better. So he asked him "Can I try again?"

"Of course, we are practicing after all" Ominis was back to his confident self again. So he decided to grab onto his shoulders this time, so he could get more leverage or something… and once again closed the gap, this time emulating what Ominis had just done, but bigger. So he moved his lips with rougher and quicker motions, slightly opening his mouth so he could take in more of his friend's lips between his. He wanted to show him how good he could do it, better even, but as he thought about it more as he did it, he suddenly started clashing their teeth together.

"Ouch!" Ominis had instantly parted the kiss at their impact. "Do you pretend to leave me toothless Sebastian?!" He was clearly upset again but definitely not more than he was with himself. What the hell was wrong with him?! He'd come into this expecting praise and a chance to boast about how naturally gifted he was. Yet somehow he was doing absolutely everything wrong!

"I'm sorry! I really don't know what's wrong with me! Why the hell can't I do this right?!" He was so frustrated now that he was just about to run out of the undercroft. But then Ominis gently put his hand on his arm.

"No, I'm sorry, again… for losing my temper, you just caught me off guard is all." Again he was apologizing to him, as if he hadn't actually almost cracked his teeth off… well maybe he was exaggerating a bit, but still…"

"I think you're overthinking this Sebastian, you need to just feel it. Let your instincts tell you what to do instead of trying to think about it." Well that did make sense… and of course Ominis was good at it then… after all, he was all about feeling.

"Here, try again… just, dont think about it, okay? Just try and listen to what your body is telling you to do" He was always so wise… leave it to his best friend to now be giving him advise about his own damn idea. But he knew he was right and he desperately needed this to go well this time. So he took a deep breath, followed by some more stretching, and finally a huge exhale.

"Fine…" So once again, he steadied himself with his friend's shoulders and slowly made his approach. He willed himself to stop thinking completely, and that's when he noticed that fluttering again, it felt somehow strange but exciting at the same time, so he did as he was told and allowed his body to make the choices, and as he finally connected their lips he was once again noticing how nice and soft and warm it all was.

He began to move then just as Ominis had before, but instead of trying to do more, he simply let himself get lost in the motions. This is really nice… he thought and he couldn't help the soft sigh of pleasure that escaped him. And as they kept at it for a bit, his body now somehow urged him to use his tongue, so just as he was told to do he simply obliged. So he slightly opened his mouth more and used his tongue to taste Ominis lower lip. Oh Merlin, he tasted really good, he thought. But his friend clearly startled by it quickly broke the kiss again.

"What was that…?" Ominis face was now blushing and he looked a bit nervous. But Sebastian had already had a sample and now wanted to taste the cake, as one could say….

"Sorry… I just… felt like doing that and you told me to not think and just feel and listen to my body! so I did that…" Sebastian was now getting self-conscious again. That had felt really good to him and he was sure he was doing it right this time, so why was Ominis stopping him again…

"Oh! Of course… that was nice! Just took me by surprise and I ummm… It's okay, you can try that again… I'll be prepared this time." Ominis was still blushing and clearly second guessing himself too. But he'd also said it was nice! So they were on the right track after all.

"Okay… so I'm going to do that again with my tongue. Do you think you could do it too? I think it would make it nicer perhaps? I mean we can try it and if we don't like it we'll just stop. It that okay?" He was slightly nervous again as he really wanted Ominis to go along with this, his curiosity was almost unbearable now as he wondered how his tongue would feel against his friend's.

" Sure, I'll give it a try" Great! He thought, so now to actually do it. His confidence was strong again and this time as he began the kiss, almost immediately he started to use his tongue against his friends lips. He was sure he felt him shiver a bit, maybe he was nervous about how to do it. So Sebastian separated just enough so he could guide Ominis a bit.

"Open your mouth a bit Om, yeah, just like that, now rest your tongue on your lower lip. Perfect! Now I'm going to use my tongue too, okay?" He felt his friend softly nod and so he closed that small distance once again, immediately connecting their tongues together. Oh Merlin… his tongue was simply divine. He proceeded to kiss him while alternating on softly pushing his own tongue into Ominis mouth, where his was now obediently reciprocating his movements.

This is incredible! Sebastian now felt completely lost in the kiss, Ominis taste was making him dizzy with pleasure and as he allowed the warmth in his body to take over, he found himself opening his lips more and almost fully pushing his tongue into his friend's mouth. He instantly heard the choked moan that Ominis released into his own. He needed more but first he would make sure his friend was okay. So he broke the kiss just a little bit again.

"How does it feel, Om? Was that good?" Ominis didn't reply right away so he separated a bit more so he could look into his face. To his surprise he looked absolutely undone. His blush now almost crimson, his eyes now hooded and his mouth still open from their kiss, the wetness on his lips was almost making Sebastian go for it again. But Ominis had managed to regain some senses by now so he gave him his answer.

"Yes… that was… quite pleasant. I… think we should try it again… you know, for practice…" he was almost mumbling, his words broken by his uneven breaths. But he had said he wanted more… so of course Sebastian would be a good friend and oblige.

"All right, I want you to open your mouth bigger this time, can you do that for me Om? And this time you try pushing your tongue into my mouth, okay? Would you like to try that?" His friend just nodded again, clearly still lost inside his own mind. So he grabbed onto the sides of his face this time and angled himself just right so their mouths could now completely open for the other's.

And just as he was told, Ominis pushed his tongue deep into Sebastian's mouth and once again neither could help the moans that they released into the other's mouth. They kept doing it, now alternating though all the previously rehearsed movements. Sebastian was now incredibly proud of himself. His idea had been brilliant after all, and he couldn't help but gloat about it.

"Aren't… you glad… my idea… was so… damn… good?" He couldn't help smiling a bit against his lips as he mumbled in between their kisses.

"Just… shut up… Sebastian." Was all his friend said as he continued to eagerly feast on Sebastian's lips. Oh what a wonderful idea it had been at last. He was beyond ecstatic now. The excitement coursing through his body, pleading for more and more. So they kept at it for a long while and Sebastian prayed that Ominis would want to keep practicing in the future. It had been quite the successful experience after all, or at least he thought, so he would definitely keep his hopes up. And at the end of the day, he was sure they both knew, that it was indeed, always smart to be prepared.

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It was nighttime and Sebastian was already tucked and ready for sleep. All the boys in the dorm would usually close their privacy curtains while they slept, so he always felt at peace in his own little cocoon of warmth. As expected, Sebastian was no stranger to the art of self-pleasure, especially inside the security of his own bed and he suspected it was probably common practice among his dorm mates, hence the silent agreement with the curtains. He was also glad there was no actual need to discuss the matter further…

He would usually think of the normal stuff… like girls and their skirts, though he especially liked picturing bums. He supposed it was normal at least. He still hadn't actually been close with one, even though he had been practicing his kissing with Ominis for some months now. But he didn't mind, since he quite liked their current arrangement, he found it rather pleasant and he would always look forward to their daily sessions.

But, there was this thing though.
Ever since they had begun their… practices, he had found his thoughts at night drifting towards the kissing, instead of the usual skirts and what nots… It wasn't that he was thinking about his friend though… it was just the activity he liked, of course. So lately he would find himself indulging in those thoughts as he found his almost nightly release. However, this was starting to bring new ideas into his head… dangerous ideas, he thought.

He knew by now that the trust between him and Ominis was as deep as it gets. And he loved doing most things together anyway, they were inseparable after all. So as he touched himself tonight he couldn't help but wonder if they could perhaps share this too… the kissing had turned out to be a great idea, so why not this?

He often wondered if Ominis would be pleasuring himself too in the bed next to his. He tried to imagine how he might do it, what he liked and also how often he indulged himself. Curiosity was always his biggest issue after all. He also was starting to wonder what it would feel like to be actually touched by someone else. He was used to his own hands, he really liked them. But he couldn't help his excitement at imagining something new.

He was aware now that there was only one possible path to trace from here. And as always it would most definitely involve his bestest friend. He was giddy now thinking of the new possibilities and so as he chased his release tonight, he started to meticulously plan how he would approach the subject with Ominis tomorrow. Each resolved idea getting him closer and closer. And as he finally decided on the best course of action, he had to actually cover his mouth with his free hand to muffle the almost Eurekan cry that escaped him along with his sweet sweet release.

Tomorrow would be a good day, he satedly thought, and quickly drifted into a placid slumber.

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The next day during their classes, Sebastian had been unable to stop thinking about his new brilliantly formulated plan, and he kept counting the minutes until he could meet up with Ominis in the Undercroft for their usual after school activities. It was becoming unbearable, and as the last class was dismissed, he all but grabbed Ominis hand and without explanation, he simply dragged him towards their secret place.

By now, he knew poor Ominis was used to the sudden bursts that Sebastian would once in a while have, he knew not to argue until he was actually faced with whatever his new idea was. Then it could go either way, but at least Sebastian would be happy he got the opportunity to try. So once they reached the undercroft he knew he shouldn't sound so eager, if this was to work out. So instead, he chose to mask his suddenness as the need for an urgent practice session. Ominis was almost always happy to oblige him with those anyway.

So without saying much else, they went straight to the couch. His master plan, now fully in motion. He knew that they would both usually end up quite riled up after they kissed. It was only a natural response of their bodies to their activity after all. But last night he had concluded that the best time to ask him would be while he was in that particular state. Get him while he wants it, he'd thought. It was brilliant really.

They proceeded to go about the kissing as usual, several minutes passing, until their bodies were now demanding for more. They would usually stop at that point since it was all just about the kissing. Most times they would simply bid each other good night after and in the case of Sebastian, he would go straight to deal with his newly hard situation. But since they had started rather early today, it was one of the times where they had to pretend everything was normal as they went about their other 'less pleasant' after school activities.

So as they finally separated and were left panting, Ominis as per usual, had gone straight to reading a book, and so, Sebastian pretended to do the same. His plan was going smoothly for now. He couldn't help but steal covert glances at his friend, waiting for the perfect way to begin. Anxiety was finally catching up with him now but then Ominis as usual decided to intervene.

"You're staring Sebastian… what is it?"

"Oh! Ehmm… sorry. It's nothing!" Damn! He was messing it up, he needed to regroup and calm the hell down.

He then decided to casually lounge on the couch, sideways facing Ominis now. His arm propped on the back rest and his head resting on his hand. His other hand, still casually holding his book. He was unable to not stare now and as he saw Ominis patience almost about to burst, he quickly sprung into action.

"Hey Om?"

"Yes, Sebastian?" He could tell he almost pushed him a little too far with his gawking…

"I was just wondering… well, we can ask each other anything right?" He carefully began.

"I suppose." Ominis was slightly less annoyed but now there was a sliver of uncertainty in his tone.

"Well, umm… do you touch yourself?" He knew he needed to be more direct but he would see how he reacted first.

"What do you mean Sebastian…" Ominis was clearly very self-conscious now but surprised at the same time. Of course he knew what he meant, but he supposed it was his attempt at giving him a chance to back off from the topic. Heh sorry Om, no luck for you there.

"Well you know… like in bed, at night, when you're all alone." He tried to keep his tone as casual as possible, but his nerves were starting to betray him a little.

"I ahh… well, I suppose… Yes, I sometimes… do that." Okay this was a little bit funny now, he could see how red Ominis had become. He always enjoyed pushing his buttons like this.

"There's really no need to be shy with me Ominis… I was just curious you know… I do it too. I suppose it's normal right?" He needed to make him relax now, open up to him, make it so that it wasn't such a taboo subject.

"Right…" Ominis' reply was still a bit unsure, but he seemed to be more receptive now. That was good!

"Do you do it often? I'm not sure why but… I suppose I've found myself doing it most nights lately… how about you?"

"Why exactly is it that you're so curious about this Sebastian?" He was clearly trying to change the subject, probably feeling too exposed or something.

"Well… you're my best friend. I thought we could talk about anything, without judging you know?" He tried the guilt approach now. He knew Ominis had a soft spot for his hurt puppy voice. He waited now patiently as he could almost hear his friend's mind falling into compliance.

"Fine Sebastian." He said with a reluctant sigh. "I'll indulge you." Yes! It always worked, he smugly thought.

"Yes, I do enjoy those nightly activities and yes, I have too found myself requiring that relief rather frequently as of late. Anything else you'd have me share?" He didn't mind the posh tone he gave him, he actually liked it quite a bit, he was now smirking deviously at his dear friend.

"Well then! If you're willing to share… I was wondering one more thing." For some reason he started sweating a bit at the thought of asking this now, he wasn't sure why, maybe it had to do with what he expected him to answer.

"I was just curious about ummm… what is it that you think about, while… doing it." He was having a hard time looking at his friend now. His face was lowered and he kept stealing short glances through his eyebrows. Why was he this nervous now? He thought this was supposed to be fun…

"Damn you Sebastian and your bloody curiosity." It seemed Ominis had annoyingly surrendered now to the awkwardness of the conversation and was beyond caring about the impropriety of it all. He then proceeded to release a huge sigh before continuing.

"If you must know, I usually envision someone touching me, my body I mean, not necessarily that specific area, though it's usually very included. I like to imagine certain sounds being voiced, and there's also a very distinct scent that brings great pleasure to my senses."

Wow, he was a little impressed now. It amazed Sebastian how it was that Ominis could be talking about such debauched things yet be able to say them with such grace and panache. It almost made him laugh a bit at his own general crassness. He also noticed his answer was quite detailed but at the same time rather vague… He now desperately needed to know if those imaginings ever included their kissing. It couldn't be just him, right?

"And ummm…. Do you ever think about our kissing? You know, like just the activity of course." He was definitely a bit sweaty now. Why was this bothering him so much?! He could see a bit of a blush in Ominis now and what he thought was a hint of fear in his eyes that was quickly erased as he composed himself before uttering his response.

"Yes. I do think about the kissing too." His tone sounded a bit more vulnerable now and it somehow stirred something inside Sebastian that he quickly decided to dismiss. He had to go back to his plan now. The first part had basically been a success and now he needed to get on with it.

"Do you ever wonder what it would feel like? To have someone else touch you, I mean…" he tried to sound calm and detached again but the reality of the situation was now slowly creeping inside him. He kept idly playing with a loose string coming out of the cushion's seam, unable to meet his friends' unseeing eyes, even though Ominis focus was on the darkness in front of them.

"I think you're smart enough to already know the answer to that particular question, Sebastian." Okay he knew that was probably a stupid question, but he needed to somehow make him think about it at the present time.

"Well… I was thinking…" He knew it was time to take the plunge, he had done all the steps correctly and now it was time to find out if it would work.

"Here we go again…" He swore he heard Ominis say that under his breath but decided to pay no mind and simply go on.

"I'd say the kissing idea turned out quite nicely right?" Ominis was silently waiting now. His face didn't betray any emotion yet. Maybe a slight exhaustion?

"And so I was thinking… we could maybe… help each other out?" Ominis was still not moving at all, which was making Sebastian sweat even more.

"I mean, we both would like to know what it would feel like… and since you're my best friend, and we trust each other… Maybe we could try this out together too?" He didn't think there was more to say, so he simply went quiet now, almost losing it at how impassive Ominis' face still looked. He was almost about to say 'just forget about it' and pretend it never happened, but just as fast as he was opening his mouth, he went ahead and closed it at his friend's words.

"Are you asking me to allow you to pleasure me, and then for me to 'return the favor' after? Is that it, Sebastian?" Ominis' tone was as stone-cold and sharp as his face now looked.

Sebastian didn't know how to react to that. Was Ominis mad at him? Did he think it was just disgusting and was appalled by him even suggesting it? Would he decide he wanted to stop hanging out together?! He was clearly starting to slowly panic and regret was now clawing at his insides, making him want to throw up.

How could he have been this stupid?! What the hell was he thinking?! Of course Ominis would be repulsed by the idea! Why wouldn't he?! He was such an idiot. He felt this deep ache now inside his chest, was he having a bloody heart attack now? What the hell was this!? He was just about to stand and leave but then he heard him.

"Okay" Ominis face was no longer devoid of emotion. It had now in fact quite a deeper one that Sebastian wasn't sure he'd ever seen on him before. He also wasn't exactly sure what he had heard him say, he had been so lost inside himself that he felt a bit disoriented now.

"What?" It was all Sebastian managed to say.

"I said okay, Sebastian. I'd like for us to try that." His tone was extremely soft now, and he could have sworn he sounded almost…sad? His face was also quite peaceful if you took a quick glance, but as he studied it further he noticed he had a small sweet smile on his lips but his eyes were still somehow lost in a certain melancholy?

"I uhh… okay then, if it's something that you'd like…" Sebastian softly answered. What was going on? He had what he wanted. He should be jumping of excitement now, yet somehow he wasn't feeling it anymore. His plan had worked after all, but somehow there were too many strange emotions plaguing him now, as he was sure they were plaguing his friend too. He had been eager to try it out as soon as he'd agreed, but he was just not hard anymore. It was like he was extra soft even…

What now? He thought. He was just blank. His plans had not foreseen this at all. And for some reason his mind was also refusing to work for him. He had absolutely no idea what to do. He didn't even want to look at Ominis, as there was something tuging at his heart again, somehow trying to tell him that he had really fucked up, big time. Had he hurt him somehow? But in what way? He really couldn't understand anything at all. And then he felt Ominis' hand.

"So… is this something you would like to try right now?" He was stunned to find his friend's hand on his leg. He dared look at Ominis and saw he was facing him now, and his face had a playful half smirk plastered on. There was no trace left of the previous expression that had tormented him. And then Ominis had the audacity to slowly move his hand higher up his leg, almost reaching his private area.

He was unable to resist now the heat that instantly filled him again. And he felt his excitement about what he'd accomplished slowly but steadily returning to him.

"Come here you idiot." Ominis voice was now laced with something sweet and devious and all Sebastian could do was obey. His head was still dizzy from all that had just transpired, but as his best friend's lips reached his, all his worries quickly melted away. He forgot what had happened just a moment ago. All the pain and uncertainty long gone by now. And as he felt his friend's hand finally reach his now painfully hard member, he knew he had succeeded again, that he had everything he wanted.

So he allowed himself to get completely lost in Ominis' hands and lips. He couldn't believe how incredibly good it felt. It wasn't that he was doing something extraordinary, it was simply because it was his friend's hand doing it… or rather a different hand than his own he quickly corrected in his mind. And as Ominis finally grabbed him skin to skin, he knew he wouldn't last long.

He kept repeating in soft unintelligible mumbles how amazing it felt and gave Ominis sweet praises in between his kisses. And as he finally reached his newly heavenly bliss, he couldn't help, that in the aftermath of his pleasure, all he wanted to do was gaze at Ominis' beautifly flustered face. And as he allowed himself to slowly get lost in his perfect moonlight eyes, ever so slightly, and just for a second, he remembered.

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He still found himself reminiscing about that first time Sebastian had touched him. It wasn't because of the sexual release that it brought, but rather because it had surprised him deeply, that Sebastian had actually paid attention to what he'd told him before.

It was the intimacy that he had craved for so long. He hadn't just touched his manhood. No… he had touched him. As softly as he had always imagined it would be. He had also remembered about the sounds, so as he kissed his neck, he kept voicing into his ear the sweetest words he'd ever heard him say and emitting the most exquisite sounds he ever dared to imagine. And what was simply the butter embracing him whole, even if it wasn't intentional, was that he could actually lose himself in his favorite scent in the world.

Of course he was in love with him, deeply. He had suspected it since before their ridiculous first kiss. But after that first time that their tongues had blissfully met, he just simply knew.

And it hurt. It hurt him so bad that after months… months for Merlin's sake! Sebastian would still call their joinings "practices". He had hoped for a while that he would eventually realize he probably loved him too. That in the heat of their moments he would maybe want more and as they naturally explored new levels of intimacy that maybe, just maybe, Sebastian would finally say the words he longed to hear.

He had hoped. And he decided that at least it was something, that sharing kisses with him was better than nothing, and he surely thought it meant that in the end, if he was patient with him, it would all work itself out. He had waited, patiently. And then Sebastian had gone and opened his damned mouth again.

And it hit him… hard. What he was asking of him now, that new level of intimacy he had hoped they would someday reach, was being offered to him now as a mere object of sexual release. It felt as if Sebastian had brutally shoved his hand inside his chest, grabbed his aching, longing heart, and simply squeezed it dry of everything that he had held on to all this time.

Sebastian wanted to use him. To make him his toy, all in pursuit of his own personal gratification. Offering him to 'return the favor' after he was done, as if the act itself was nothing more than a flick of the wrist. He wanted to shout at him, hit him with his raw fists. Ask him, how was it possible to do such things as if they were nothing?! Meant nothing?!

But then he'd realized something. Perhaps it wasn't like that after all… maybe he wanted the same as him, felt the same, but simply didn't know how to go about it, how to let himself feel it. Maybe he was simply lost in his own feelings, and in his very, no… extremely confused mind. It could be that the reason he kept playing it casual was that deep down he was afraid of it too. Of what it entailed. To be in love with his best friend.

So he had reluctantly decided to be patient again. He told himself that perhaps with this new level of intimacy he would finally be able to realize his feelings. He knew he shouldn't push him, even if Sebastian had his boisterous exterior, Ominis knew that underneath it all he was raw, sensitive and exposed. So he would wait for him, encouraging him with his own love. He would try to show him how good it would be, to let himself be loved.

So he decided that day that he would make love to him, in whatever way he could. In whatever form that Sebastian would allow. So he had shoved his pain once again deep into his heart, and let his fierce, undying love take hold of it.

And it had been wonderful, Sebastian's ecstasy had stirred something within him he had not yet felt before, that he couldn't even have imagined really. And as if that was not enough, he felt like Sebastian had made love to him too, even if he didn't acknowledge it as such. He felt his heart beating with contentment. And he dared let hope once again take control of his soul.

But just as fast as it all had happened, so did things steadily begin to crumble.

Before, when it was just the kisses, Sebastian would be even more enthralled with Ominis. He couldn't seem to stay away and he would demand constant attention and affection in his own way. He also had never before even looked at another person in a wanting way, even if he would occasionally throw comments at him about his hopes to soon find a girl to do stuff with, it had never felt serious to him. It had always sounded like an empty excuse to pretend that he wasn't actually completely smitten with his male best friend.

Ominis knew it was taboo in their society. Even if perhaps it wasn't illegal as it was in the muggle world. Couples like them would usually face heavy discrimination and he was absolutely certain his family would kill him if they knew. So of course he would never actually push Sebastian into it, not unless he expressed his desire to go forth that path with him.

He knew they would have to keep it hidden as they had done so lately. Maybe until they were old enough to be able to stand against his family and strong enough to be able to ignore the judging eyes. He knew by now that all he needed in his life was Sebastian, that he would live forever blessed if they could only spend eternity loving each other. But he knew that if Sebastian ever wanted something different, a more conventional life that took him from his embrace, that he would let him go, even if it tore him apart.

He hoped that day would never come. And as they shared more and more loving kisses together, he had allowed himself to forget that possibility filled with darkness. But as the boundary between their souls was pushed yet again, it was all slowly but steadily coming back to him.

For some unknown reason, he had noticed Sebastian ever so slightly pulling away from him. Ever since that first night of shared rapture. Even when they had kept doing it as they had with the kisses, he now noticed a distance being placed in between them by Sebastian. He had also stopped talking emptily about his 'girl crushes' and was now actually doing something about it. He would now catch him shamelessly flirting his way on the halls, day after day, getting worse and worse. And it bloody hurt.

Why when they were now in a much deeper level of intimacy, did Sebastian pull further away each day? It wasn't that he was simply starting to ignore him or pulling back on their shared private activities. No… He had no problem indulging in those, more even than before. But it was the emotional part, their friendship bond that had made them share everything before, the laughter and the pain and whatever the hell they were thinking about. What had kept them talking for hours, their bickering and their banter. It was all slowly fading away, and he had no idea what to do.

He started to feel lost and scared and angry and sad. He wanted Sebastian so badly still that he pushed through all of it, convincing himself that it was just a momentary thing that it would soon be as it was before. He even realized he missed the part where they would just kiss and be friends. As if it was now a long lost golden age that he had not known to cherish while it lasted.

He started to withdraw deeper into his burning, aching heart and the longer it went on for, the lonelier he felt. And then, Sebastian had gone and opened his god damned mouth yet again.

And he was so parched for attention… for love, that he simply and quietly went along with it. And then when it was all finally over, he cried.

Sebastian had wanted to explore something new, clearly bored with their now usual entanglements. This time he wanted to taste. And he no longer felt like having to convince Ominis with his well planned out manipulations. No… this time he had simply said he wanted to do it, right in the heat of the moment. And when Ominis, lost in his pleasure, had simply nodded to what sounded like something that would feel really really good, Sebastian just went ahead and took it.

He'd used this mouth on Ominis' aching need and made him see stars for the first time in his life. The feeling had been so good, so intimate, that his heart once again dared beat with hope of something more. And just as he was almost about to kiss Sebastian, hug him and tell him how much he loved him, he heard his voice, like a bitter cruel joke that the universe had clearly decided to play on him.

"Woah, that was nice." He heard him slightly chuckle. "Can't wait for you to give me one."

And just like that, he wanted to die.
He prayed to the heavens to die right that damned second. And so before things were forever tainted further, he quickly told Sebastian he wasn't feeling well and miraculously dragged himself out of the undercroft. He had no idea how he managed to hold on to his pieces long enough to collapse into the safety of his bed. And then, with the last of his strength, he hastily casted a silencing spell around him and sobbed.

He cried until he was completely dry, and he begged to whatever entity that ruled this god forsaken world to take him away, to grant him the sweet release of oblivion. And after what felt like hours of unending, harrowing despair, he was finally allowed to pass out from his now cold and empty heart.

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He had woken up angry.

Angry at Sebastian, for being able to use him in such a way and play with his feelings. Angry at the world for cursing him with being in love with the bloody halfwit. But most of all, he was angry at himself, for allowing it to ever get that far.

He had avoided Sebastian like the plague that day, and in their shared clases, when he just had to endure his proximity, he had chosen to simply blatantly ignore him.
He counted the hours until he could retreat into the Undercroft and he prayed that Sebastian would have the sense to know that he needed his space to be alone.

After what felt like a tortuous eternity, he finally found himself sitting on the same couch where just last night his whole world had completely been shattered. He couldn't help the single tear that flowed down his cheek but he had had enough after last night. He would not. cry. again.

He tried to busy himself with reading some papers regarding some assignment they'd been given during class, but it all just seemed trivial to him now. He didn't care at this moment about his future, his prospects. He felt like he had lost the only thing he had actually ever wanted. So he simply resolved himself to go through the motions and hope that maybe one day he could actually somehow heal.

He was beginning to relax, now that it seemed like Sebastian had actually gained some sense and decided to stay away. But just as he had leaned back into the couch and was now walking the line between dreams and reality, he was crudly brought back by the sharp sound of the gate.

He sighed but didn't move from his position, though he now gripped the back of the couch with his hand over his head as if he needed something to tie him to this world. He heard Sebastian's slow approach and felt his weight shift the couch under him.

He didn't say anything and neither did Sebastian, but he could feel the tension between them, ready to snap at any moment of hesitance. He was almost considering drifting back into sleep when Sebastian couldn't take the silence anymore.

"Tell me why you're mad."

Sebastian's words were neither angry or remorseful, they just sounded slightly… desperate? But Ominis just didn't have the strength yet to try and say anything, so he simply remained as he was.

"I'm not a legilimens you know?" The desperation was more obvious now and it stirred just a little something inside his cold, broken heart. So he sighed this time.

"Please just say something." Now he sounded sad. Sad and desperate, and a very tiny spark tried to resuscitate his still dead heart.

But he would not say anything yet. And he would not open his eyes, even if it didn't make a difference to him, he knew it did for Sebastian.

He felt him shift on the couch now, he somehow felt he had imitated his 'relaxed' pose. And then there were only their breaths echoing through the darkness of the too large chamber.

Minutes passed, maybe even an hour, and as he found himself once again at the edge of consciousness, he felt the couch shifting yet again and the warmth of Sebastian's body now too close to him. He waited to find out what he would do next and was almost getting annoyed by his staring when he heard his sad and desperate voice once again.

"Ominis…" It was only a whisper but it was enough for him to slowly open his eyes. Offering him an opening to perhaps try and explain himself.

And he clearly took the hint, but instead of words, he used the only other outlet he seemed to possess to express his emotions. He'd leaned into Ominis' neck and placed a soft, tender kiss on his skin. And for a second Ominis almost gave into it again, but the hardness of his heart forbade it, so he simply used his words.

"Don't." His tone was as cold and empty as he felt.

But Sebastian chose to ignore him, yet again pushing at his boundaries, as he pressed himself closer to Ominis' body, one hand desperately gripping his shirt and placed another kiss upon his neck.

"I SAID, DON'T." His tone was harsh and loud now, the anger had swiftly been brought back as he now shifted forward in his seat, pushing Sebastian away from him.

Under his rage he was able to sense now how wounded Sebastian seemed. The rejection apparently getting to him. Good, let him suffer. He deserved to suffer, at least a glimps of what he'd caused him to. And felt him remain silent, shocked, almost petrified as he stared at him from his side.

"I'm done, Sebastian." He would grant him this last kindness, the gift of informing him how things would be from now on. So there would be no uncertainty, no lingering unanswered questions.

"I'm done…" Ominis softly repeated, but for himself this time. An acknowledgment he too needed in order to move forward.

"What…?"

Sebastian sounded broken now for some reason. Was it really so horrible for him to lose his boy toy? Did he truly think at some point that things could go on like that forever?

"I won't allow you to use me anymore, Sebastian. And I don't know if there's even any friendship left for us to pretend to save." As soon as he said it he felt his heart twist inside him. A knot in his throat now choked him mercilessly. Perhaps his heart wasn't as dead as he thought after all… still, it didn't matter anymore.

"I… I don't know what's going on Om. Please… just talk to me."

He could almost hear the tears in his voice, broken, scared and confused. Did he really not know yet? Was he truly so unaware of everything and anyone beyond himself? Merlin… did he perhaps actually not know what was going on?

"How can you sound so confused when it's you who has done everything you can to keep hurting me?" He felt himself getting angry again.

He didn't want to have to talk about it, he didn't want to explain it to him because it would only force him to face it again, their impending, doomed reality. But Sebastian had chosen to remain quiet and that was all that was necessary to tilt him over the edge.

"Are you really going to sit there and pretend that you have absolutely no bloody idea what's been going on?!" He could feel himself almost shouting now.

"What you have kept doing to me all these blasted months?! It's been more than a year Sebastian!"

"What…" still broken, still confused.

"STOP. SAYING. THAT!" He just cut him off. Swiftly standing to get some damned distance between them. Why was he doing this to him?! Why couldn't he have simply left him alone until he was cold and dead enough to disappear into the walls of this god forsaken place! Why… he just wanted, needed… oblivion.

"I'm sorry…" And now the bastard had the audacity to try and break his heart again with his cursed ignorance and sadness.

"For what exactly, Sebastian?"

He felt like being mean now. He wanted to hurt him further with his poisoned words.

"Do you even know what you're apologizing for? Or are you truly just a bloody wanker playing with his damned cock?!"

He almost regretted the crassnes of his own words but he couldn't help himself anymore. He was done with everything.

"What the hell are you talking about!? If you didn't want my damned cock, then there was nothing forcing you to fucking play with it!"

Well now he was mad too. Very well, they could both play this game now on even grounds.

"You truly are just clueless aren't you? Poor little Sebastian Sallow, the village's idiot just wallowing in ignorant bliss."

He knew he was crossing a line now but he really, really wanted to hurt him. He was a Gaunt after all… even if he would despise himself later for it.

"And I suppose you are just the poor blind tortured child, who's so above everyone else with his high and mightiness that he simply can't spare a moment of his precious time to actually say what he bloody thinks!"

Well… Sebastian could certainly hold his own against his own unnecessary meanness. But he also knew they were both actually right. It seemed like Sebastian really wanted them to be able to openly talk about what was going on. Because despite his stupidity, for some reason, it seemed like he really wasn't actually trying to hurt him. Even if he had, he hadn't meant to and he clearly was devastated by his pain. And as for himself, he knew he was in fact being high and mighty, refusing to talk when he was pleading with him to have an open and sincere discussion.

But he couldn't help that he was still mad, and hurt, so he decided he would at least be honest and reasonable with his words… Perhaps it was indeed time for the truth to be fully laid before them. Freeing and harrowing just the same.

"I loved you Sebastian."

He would go straight to the point. No more hiding. No more misunderstanding. And no more pretending. He could feel Sebastian now frozen in place, in front of him and just a few feet away.

"And you simply used me and pushed our friendship away…"

His words felt like they echoed eternally on the empty and cold walls. There was still no sound from Sebastian, so he continued.

"I loved you and gave you everything I was… but you chose to take my body and throw the feeling aside… As if it was somehow really that simple to separate the body from its soul."

He didn't believe there was anything left to say, but if he still needed more, he would certainly obliged, as he always seemed to do with him.

"And last night, you took the last piece that was left of my heart, the last piece that was so freely and lovingly offered to you, and you squished the life out of it in one single motion, as if it was the easiest thing in the world and turned it all to ash."

He was back to feeling cold and empty. He was back to wishing he would simply fade into the darkness around. And then he heard Sebastian's single tear hit the ground.

"I didn't know…" he said, barely loud enough that he could just about hear him.

"Right."

"I just…I didn't … know."

He sounded so genuinely hurt and confused that Ominis could almost feel pity for him.

"You need to be more specific, Sebastian. What exactly was it that you didn't know?"

He would give him this kindness too, he would help him navigate the situation.

"But… we're both… men."

Well, there it was. The bloody idiot. He definitely pitied him now, oh his blasted ignorant heaven, did his denial truly run that deep? Ominis just couldn't help the amused scoff that left his mouth before he answered Sebastian's moronic statement.

"That certainly didn't stop you last night from putting my balls inside your mouth."

He was sharp and cold as ice now. Oh what he would have given to see his deeply confounded face.

"Or did you think that because we were both men, that we were somehow exempted from the pesky intrusion of feelings? Free to enjoy the carnal pleasures of this world together, without the need for actual intimacy?"

It was starting to anger him again, how quiet Sebastian remained, he supposed the gears in his head were turning like never before, so he gave him a bit more time to think it through.

"Well… it seems it was actually that way for you, as you were more than happy to come to me for your release, only to leave me once you were done."

He hated the emptiness he was left with each time, that place and time where they were supposed to rejoice in their closeness, he would simply and carelessly run away from. How far would he have pushed? How much would he have simply taken?

"What would have been next Sebastian? Once you grew tired of this newfound experience. Would you have asked to fuck me? Just so you could pretend that it meant absolutely nothing while you went and chased some skirts?"

He couldn't deny that that hurt him too. That Sebastian seemed to find such repulsion in the idea of finding love with his male friend that he would rather try and find it somewhere else with a woman, any woman for that matter. Like their love would simply be better than his, just because he wasn't one.

And it hurt him that it was so easy for him. To love Sebastian with all his soul yet somehow he wasn't able to even face the idea of it. Choosing to pretend it wasn't even possible.

"I didn't know…" he heard him say once again. Soft and broken.

But he remembered then that first time they had gone further, how he was sure he felt Sebastian loved him just as deeply as he did him. How in that one night he had honestly believed with all his heart that they had in fact made love, and not just the physical act of release. He had felt his love, so deeply, so raw, that it had taken hold of his hope through all that came after, allowing him to endure, to be patient.

And he realized that that hold was somehow still there even now. Even after everything. That under his now statue of a heart, there was still a soft steady beating that threatened to break it all apart once again.

"I… I'm…I didn't…" Broken. Sad. And alone.

And so he thought back to that night, to the way Sebastian had kissed him and whispered love into his ear, the way he'd been soft, and kind and warm, and how after, in the calmness of their heavenly bliss, he had actually felt Sebastian's fear, witnessed it taking hold of his heart and how he just decided to push it deep within, hidden but rooted to his core. And just the same, he remembered how he'd chosen to ignore what he'd learned, to only hold on to the memory of the perfection from moments before.

How deep down, he'd always known of that fear, that it was the reason Sebastian slowly drifted away from him. Afraid that if they continued their close and comfortable relationship the way it was, that he would be forced to face his inevitable feelings. That he was scared it would be wrong, rejected. That he was scared of the future it would bring them, scared of the unknown and the intensity of it all.

And that in spite of his fear, he was unable to stay away from the desires that plagued him, from craving that same intimacy that Ominis himself so desperately wanted. So he had retorted to the only thing he thought to do, the only way he knew how to show him his heart, not out of malice, or out of disgust, but rather plain and unforgiving fear. To love and be loved. And then Ominis knew he had made the wrong choice too.

He could feel the gnawing regret now sipping its way into his heart, filling it once more with emotions. Because he now knew that if he had actually paid attention to the truth of that day, he would have heard his cry for help. The words underneath his kisses, the plea for Ominis to tell him that it was simply okay. That what he felt was okay. And to reassure him he felt it too. That he most certainly wasn't alone. That it was in fact, allowed and that he wanted it too, more than anything in the world.

Because he knew that underneath his boisterous self, Sebastian was after all, truly soft and broken and insecure. And he should have known better than to assume he would have known he loved him back. And as he felt the despair of it all overfill his now bursting heart, he let it all go, and decided to once again choose love.

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"I didn't know…"

But he did. Deep down he did. So all he could muster was to repeat it over and over. Not to actually tell Ominis, not to excuse himself. No… he said it because he had to convince himself that he didn't. That he didn't just cause all this horrible pain because he just wasn't able to face the truth. But he knew. And he was so afraid to admit it.

He knew there was something else beneath it all. He knew that everytime they kissed it was heaven to him. He knew that all he truly wanted to do was be with Ominis, make him smile, watch him talk and simply be there with him. And he'd seen it. The pain, the longing. He knew he saw it all. Since that first night he decided to take it further. When he first touched Ominis in ways he'd never done before. He knew he loved him, more than anything in the world. And when he saw the way Ominis contemplated him back, he was scared. That it was actually real.

So why if he knew it all… why did he not know? What did he not know? … if it was possible? Did he not believe it? Or he didn't want to believe it? And why… He had told Ominis they were both men… because it was the truth, they shouldn't feel this way, act this way with the other. It wasn't actually natural… that's what everyone else would say. That's what everyone else thought. And so it must be the truth, right? So if it wasn't natural, if it wasn't okay… then what was he? What were they?

He couldn't face those questions, not really… so he chose to ignore, to pretend. To act what he was supposed to be, because if he didn't, then what would that mean?

But he just couldn't stay away. Not when it was paradise. Not when their shared rapture kept him alive, kept him strong enough to pretend the rest of the way. So he would only allow himself to show him what was underneath in the only way he knew he could. Not with his words, but with his being.

He had thought that maybe that was all they needed. It was okay if it was just about pleasure. He could be a pervert he'd thought, but what would it make him if he also made his heart true with his words?

So he pretended, and he was so scared of the truth that he actually believed his own lie. He'd buried it so deep, so he would never have to face it again. That decision that he now knew was his doom. Because he had decided not to think about what the consequences of his actions would actually be. He, in his own selfishness, didn't stop to think what pain he could be causing his dearest and most important friend.

No… he took and took, and didn't stop to think. And now he knew…

He'd said he loved him… even in all that pain. Ominis had loved him, and given him all. And what did he give in return?

He couldn't help but cry now… what was left anyway? Ominis had given him his heart, his soul, his body, and what had he given him? He'd wanted to think that it wasn't like that, that Ominis couldn't possibly feel those things for Sebastian. Because what would the odds be that two best friends would have been made wrong? Because he was now sure that at least he was. So how could it be possible that both of them would be this way? Cursed and damaged. Castaways of the world.

But then why did it have to feel so damned right?! Why would the only happiness in his god forsaken life come from loving his best friend?! Why was he cursed with such a cruel thing?!

But then, Ominis had said it so easily… told him as if it was the most natural thing in the world, for him to be in love with his best friend. He'd said it as if it was right, and good, and pure. As if they weren't breaking the laws of the universe by feeling that way. He'd said it with conviction, and with passion. And what had he done?

He wanted to die. The hurt on Ominis face… on his voice, in his beautiful eyes… in the way he had crumbled into his own being. It broke Sebastian. How had he been able to do such an unforgiving thing?...

He then thought about last night, when he had taken yet again. But he couldn't help himself, he wanted, no… needed more of Ominis, he was desperate and so he did the only thing that he knew how to do. And made love to him, so passionately… he'd wanted Ominis inside him, taste him deeply, profoundly, he craved him with every inch of his being, and then when Sebastian had finally given him all the love he could and when he'd devoured his essence with such devotion, he had gazed into his moonlight eyes… and he'd seen the stars inside. And he knew what Ominis was about to do, to say. He'd know it because it was what he desperately wanted to do too.

And then he had panicked. Because the second Ominis said it, it would be real, it would be true, and then what would they be in this world? So he pretended again, and he said such a hurtful thing… and he had instantly felt regret, and gone after him in the night, to find him in his bed, encased and alone... And how he could feel his pain behind the curtains and how he'd almost desperately crawled inside them to embrace him and tell him the truth…

But then their roommates had comed in… and he was once again consumed by his fear. So he had chosen to lie awake in bed and convince himself he'd never actually seen those perfectly beautiful stars…

"I'm sorry…" And he deeply, truly was. For everything… for his stupidity, and his fear and his neglect. For all his shortcomings and single mindedness. But most of all… he was sorry for ever being able to hurt his best friend by denying him the love he most profoundly deserved.

"I'm sorry… I'm so sorry…" He couldn't hold himself any longer so he simply crumbled to his knees, and all he could do was repeat it over and over… "I'm sorry… I'm sorry… I'm sorry…" like a whisper of the wind against the darkness of the world.

And then he'd felt warmth surrounding him, he was enveloped by the most wonderful tenderness of this world. And as he kept repeating his mantra of regret, he remembered Ominis words. He'd said he loved him, past tense. And the thought almost broke his soul apart. But he needed to know, he needed to be sure, so he could take one road or the other from here. So he used what was left of him and asked in whispers.

"You said loved…" He had to take a steading breath to continue. "So you don't anymore…"

Somehow that was what made sense to him… what he expected now, so it came out like a statement rather than the question he held on to in his heart. Because there were only two options for him now, for what his life would be from now on… and it all depended on that answer. And there was silence for a moment, but he felt the warmth around him tighten.

"You hurt me Sebastian." Then silence again. But the embrace was still strong, unwavering.

"But I dont think I'd ever be able to stop loving you even if I wished it so, even if it kept breaking my heart over and over again." The embrace was even tighter now, unyielding.

"I think…" There was a small silence. "It's simply part of who I am now."

And so he sobbed. And all the while, the tender warmth kept his pieces from scattering away into the nothingness beyond. Steading him… guiding him… until bit by bit, he finally let it all go. All his fears and all his insecurities.

He finally allowed himself to openly stare into the brightness of their truth. To let it claim him whole… devour his flesh and then feast on his soul, all so he could build himself back up, replacing his foundations with love this time, with all the good things he had carelessly dismissed before. And once he was certain that the weight of the world would not crush him again, he dared to voice his most profound secret, his deeply guarded treasure. The one that belonged in its entirety to Ominis. His everlasting and allconsuming truth.

"I love you too."

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"I'm sorry too…"

And he really really was… after all, he had wanted Sebastian to suffer with his words, but then, he hadn't realized just how deep his pain already was. So just as he knew it would, regret was now starting to gnaw him whole.

"No, don't…" Sebastian had stopped crying a while ago, but they had stayed like that, embracing each other on the stone cold ground of the Undercroft, not daring to move in case they would suddenly crumble apart.

"I don't deserve it…"

"No Sebastian, you do. I… shouldn't have said those horrible things to you." He buried his face on his neck, breathing him in.

"And I should have listened better, to what you were silently telling me with every kiss." It was something that could only be heard by a heart after all, and he felt like his had failed him. He had never felt so disabled as he did right now. He felt truly blind, in every way.

"I'm sorry… maybe… if I were able to see… I could have perhaps…"

"No!" Sebastian cut him off. "Don't you dare say that. Never… please…" he had tightened his hold. Soon after, Ominis started to notice the pain on his knees and the numbness from the cold and stillness they had been in.

"Here… let's go to the couch." He got himself and Sebastian to their feet and somehow guided them both to lay together on the much more welcoming surface.

He held Sebastian close to his heart, allowing himself to get lost in his soft and wavy hair. And they stayed like that for a while, until Sebastian's voice filled his senses again.

"Ominis…" He sounded so tired, his heart clenched a little.

"Yes love?" It felt so natural to call him that. Like his lips had been made to whisper those words to him every day… he was his love after all… He felt Sebastian's hand grip his shirt tighter.

"You called me love…" His voice was almost wishful and bewildered, like it had been such an incredible thing for him to hear.

"Of course love…" He said with a smile, burying himself deeper into his hair as Sebastian tangled himself further within his embrace. "Rest now… I'm here."

"Thank you…" Sebastian's voice almost a blur now. And then they softly drifted together into a perfectly warm dream.

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It was the first time they had slept together in each other's arms. And despite the harrowing event that had been yesterday, they dreamed of heaven and a future.

He was slowly coming into his senses now, taking their current sleeping arrangement in. His focus went straight to Sebastian's steady breathing against his chest and his natural scent enveloping him gently. Soon enough, he found his thoughts drifting to last night's revelation.

He had finally said it… the words he'd longed to hear for so long… and as soon as the beautiful sound had reached Ominis ears it was like the weight of all that he had endured had lifted from his shoulders. It wasn't that he would somehow forget or suddenly erase all that had happened, all the pain he'd felt. But it was like somehow it had all been worth it…

They had both made mistakes… and neither was perfect, but they were just human after all and had done the best they could at the time. And now… he knew that if they simply loved each other with everything they were, there would be nothing they wouldn't be able to face together and emerge stronger on the other side.

But first they needed to say it all… lay everything out there, and swear to each other and themselves that they would never hide from the other again, they would say it all… even if it hurt sometimes.

The silence somehow didn't feel so jarring anymore, but rather like the calmness of the sea after a storm had passed. Lulling them softly back to shore. And now that it felt safe again, they would tread together the way back home.

"Good morning love." He softly whispered to Sebastian while lovingly stroking his hair. Ever so gently coaxing him back from his slumber. Thank Merlin it was a Saturday so they could simply stay like this all day if they so wished it.

"You said it again…" Sebastian mumbled against his chest. Ominis couldn't help the light chuckle that escaped him.

"Do you like it?" He was still caressing his hair, he loved the feeling of his silky locks running through his fingers.

"I love it..." Sebastian held him tighter again, and his heart filled with warmth. He realized how much he loved the puddle that was Sebastian while waking up.

It felt like a dream. Like they were still inside this bubble of time and space where only the present moment existed, where they could forget about the past, the pain, and the uncertainty of the future.

He knew they would have to wake up at some point. Go back to talking about what happened, what they both felt. Finally, have a thorough and honest conversation with each other. But he would make this moment last as long as he could. Savoring its easiness to the last possible drop. Just the two of them, raw and untainted… just for a bit longer.

But then the unfairness of it all. The irony behind such things… because now that he had though about it, the bubble had swiftly been popped, and the mist, the only remnant that was now proof it ever existed, was now too, softly dissipating away.

"I think we should talk now…" He laid a tender kiss on Sebastian's crown and gently separated himself enough so he could hold his face in front of his. Because even if he couldn't see him, there was still something very intimate about being face to face.

He could sense the defeat in his lover's body as he slowly adjusted himself for the upcoming situation.

"I'm afraid…" Sebastian whispered. Simple and to the point. "I'm afraid of what it means to love you, and for you to love me back… for what it makes us... what… place we have in this world."

He sounded so defeated about it… so sad and alone… It made him almost cry thinking about how he might be feeling.

"It's okay Sebastian…" He gently stroked his hair again. "I'm scared too… of the future and what will happen once we are thrown into the world to fend for ourselves." He closed his eyes and pressed their foreheads together, breathing each other in.

"But we are not alone now… and as long as we are together… I truly believe that everything will be alright." He took a deep breath. "Even if there are harder times ahead, I'll be glad to face them all with you by my side."

"You dont think its wrong? For us to be this way…" His voice still so raw and uncertain.

"No. It could never be wrong, not when it is the only thing in my life that makes absolute sense to me. I truly believe it Sebastian, and if others wish us death because of it, then to hell with them… for I am never letting you go now. Not as long as you love me back."

He hugged Sebastian tightly. He felt a new sense of determination fill his soul, he would protect and he would cherish and make sure that this love they had would only grow and strengthen itself. Because even if the world was perhaps not ready for them, they were ready for each other and no one would take that away from them.

"I love you more than anything in this world, Sebastian." He whispered into his ear, his hand back to caresing him. "And I forgive you for everything, if you promise me to never hide yourself from me again… from now on… we do this together, no more secrets, no more pretending… not while we are here in the safety of our world."

He felt Sebastian's silent tears soak into his shirt.

"I promise" His voice now full of conviction too. "You are my world Ominis…" Sebastian's hands were gripping the back of his shirt tightly, pulling him even closer. "I love you so so much..."

He couldn't help smiling, they had somehow finally arrived, safe and renewed. And now they would build their sanctuary together, just the two of them…

"Kiss me Sebastian…"

And he did. Their lips joined for the first time in absolute understanding and complete devotion for the other. Softly yet full of passion and unrelenting yearning, to finally give themselves completely, relinquishing every last piece of fear or uncertainty. So that only they remained. Consumed by the fires of their passion.

And it was finally heaven. To give themselves fully to the other, body and soul, nothing left to taint their bond. And as they came up for air, only separating enough to breath, he felt a shiver run through his body.

"Now… before we continue…" Sebastian sensually whispered against his lips. His body now reacting strongly to the heat of their embrace. But then just as fast, he felt the coldness of the room sip between them as Sebastian untangled himself to get up.

"Can we please just go to a bloody bathroom? I think I might just die from pee poisoning." There he was… his strong and charismatic Sebastian, the one that never failed to amuse him.

"You truly are an idiot Sebastian…" He couldn't hold in the burst of laughter that overcame him.

"Yes… but I'm your idiot" He could hear the cocky grin in his mouth. And felt so glad to have him back to his regular self. "you're stuck with me now"

Ominis softly chuckled and smiled, the world somehow feeling normal again. He knew they were both changed after this, but he believed with all his heart that it was completely for the better.

"One can only be so lucky…"

And he thanked the gods for their kindness, for giving him Sebastian, to love and be loved by him. It was truly as lucky as he could have ever gotten. Them... together at last, against this usually dark and unforgiving world… No…he would never let go, as long as he lived. Because he knew, with every inch of his being, that he had finally found his true home.

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It was the Yule ball and their time at Hogwarts was fast approaching its end. During last year's ball, they had unfortunately been in that rough time of uncertainty, both choosing not to participate in it and instead hanging out in the Undercroft while engaging in their more pleasurable activities.

But this year, their last chance, they both wanted to share the experience together so they had showed up to the ball, as best friends to the outside world, and just when they had basked enough in the grandioseness of it all, Sebastian had softly whispered to Ominis to meet him in their place in a bit. Then he had swiftly made his exit, leaving Ominis to count the seconds before he could leave without it being suspicious.

He had to admit that even if it made him sad that they could not share that moment as any other couple would, he still somehow enjoyed the thrill of the forbidden, of having to sneak around to engage in such sinful and glorious acts of love. So as he waited patiently, the anxiety of the situation was starting to rile him up. Once he thought it was enough… he swiftly got up and made his way to Sebastian.

And then his heart had completely melted…

As soon as he opened the gates he heard soft music fill the usually silent room. There was also a pulsating warmth in the air that was laced with love filled magic. It somehow felt like stepping into a different world. One that perhaps had always been there while they shared each other's company. And then he heard Sebastian approaching him, gently taking his fingers in his, like a proper gentleman.

"Would you grant me the incredible honor of allowing me to lead you through this dance?" And then Sebastian softly laid a kiss upon his knuckles. He felt at the edge of fainting, his heart pounding so strongly in his chest, completely lost in the intensity of his own feelings.

"Yes…" Was all he could manage to choke out and then let himself be led into the heart of if all.

Ever the gentleman, he felt Sebastian make a proper courtesy bow. He then took his right hand and laid it gently on his shoulder, then put his own around Ominis, firmly resting on his back, pulling him closer. Then proceeded to slowly lead him with their remaining clasped hands.

Ominis had been forced to learn proper ballroom etiquette while young so he knew how to dance and how to behave, but it had always been him on the leading side and always just a mechanically rehearsed set of movements to emulate. But now… finding himself on the other end of the situation, somehow allowed him to let it all go and simply sway in harmony to Sebastian's sure steps.

It felt like a dream, one he hadn't even thought to imagine before and as they gently glided along the now warm and cozy place, Sebastian began to describe to him, in soft whispers against his ear, what was going on around them.

As it turned out, Sebastian had conjured an alarming amount of candles which were now floating around and above them, imitating in some precarious but incredibly sweet way the great hall where everyone else was dancing the night away now. Not that it made a difference to Ominis but he still could somehow feel the magic around them, comforting and full of love.

He'd also managed to steal a gramophone which was now playing an assortment of waltzes and ballads which somehow always knew what tune to play next to make it as romantic as possible.

Ominis was simply speechless, completely entranced by the perfect gift that Sebastian had given him, no… them. A memory that would last forever in their hearts as a celebration of their shared love and devotion. He couldn't believe how he had comed up with this and made it all a reality without him noticing anything at all. Somehow he always amazed him one way or the other.

After a long while they had stopped dancing around and were now gently swaying in each other's embrace.

"I didn't know you had it in you Sebastian." Ominis couldn't help the blush and proud smile on his lips at the thought of how romantic his best friend and lover was being.

"What can I say… I'm a man of many talents." Sebastian's aloof yet smug tone made him chuckle lightly.

"That you are." He nuzzled his face into Sebastian's neck, breathing him in.

"Do you like it?" His tone was so soft as he whispered into Ominis ear.

"So very much."

It was all he could muster to say as he felt his heart once again about to burst with happiness. He then sensed a shift in Sebastian's demeanor, like he suddenly felt vulnerable and filled with a caring kind of passion.

"I'll do it all for you Ominis…" Sebastian's voice was so incredibly tender… "I'll build you a home… next to the sea, so you can hear the ocean every day, and it will be on top of a little hill, so no one can ever bother us… where we will be free to live our life together." His heart was starting to clench… his emotions betraying him.

"And there will be a tree overlooking the shore, where I will build us a cozy bench so we can experience the sunset together every day if it pleases us… where you can feel the warmth of the sun on your face and the breeze of the ocean enveloping you. And maybe we'll even tend a little garden right next to our house, so we can make things grow together…"

He couldn't help the tears or the tiny sobbs that escaped his lips as he held dearly onto Sebastian and his promise of the future. He couldn't help but crave it with all his being now, that future where there was only everlasting love. A future that Sebastian was so freely offering to him if he accepted. It was a promise now, deep within their souls.

"I'll give you everything Ominis… if you'll let me."

The warmth was now too much, too consuming on his mere mortal flesh and after thoroughly nodding into Sebastian's neck, he took his lips with his own and kissed him with the passion of all that he could imagine for their future together.

The kiss was so intense and it lasted for a while before they separated for breath and resumed their gentle sway.

"I love you Sebastian…"

"I love you Ominis…"

And they swayed for a while longer, absolutely and profoundly rejoicing in their wonderful shared love.

…..

"You know Ominis…" They were still gently swaying to the music of the gramophone, but he could detect a hint of mischief in Sebastian's tone now.

"Hmmm?" He lazily hummed in return.

"There's something I've been thinking about…" Aloof and wicked.

"Oh?"

He was almost sure what this would be about and he had to admit he'd been waiting for it for quite some time now. "Do tell Sebastian?"

"Well… you see…" He playfully began. "There's this thing… I've been meaning to try." Sebastian's voice now seductively playing in his ear, while one of his hands made its way dangerously low on his back.

"Hmmm… and what would that be love?" He said, feigning innocence with his tone. Completely sure of what he actually meant.

"I want… to know what it would feel like… to be inside of you." Sebastian's tone was husky now and he began to nip at his ear with his teeth, driving Ominis completely insane.

"You're going to have to be more specific Sebastian, since you've already been inside my mouth quite a bit." He was breathless but would draw this out as much as he could.

He had been hoping this day would come soon, dreaming about it even, he wanted it to be perfect, but he also had wanted them to play this game, so he had patiently waited for Sebastian to begin this very same conversation. He'd even made a small bet with himself regarding how long it would take Sebastian to finally cave, and he had been surprised that it had actually taken him this long. But then again… it seemed he had it all planned out after all.

Sebastian wickedly chuckled into his ear before beginning to descend even lower with his hand, slowly dragging on the anticipation.

"I want to be inside of you… right… here."

His hand now directly over Ominis most intimate part, as close as the tight clothes would allow. He couldn't help the breathy moan that escaped him at the idea of Sebastian touching him there.

"That sounds a little dangerous Sebastian…" He managed to say while gulping the sea of saliva now pooling in his mouth.

"Don't worry love… I've done my research." He squeezed his arse mercilessly, then letting go to soothe it with soft movements.

"And I promise I'll be gentle…" He gave another nip to his ear. "Unless you ask me not to… in which case I will certainly oblige."

Ominis couldn't take it anymore, the arousal was so much that he had to hold on to him for stability. Sebastian's low seductive voice in his ear was so erotic that he couldn't even think how to respond anymore. And then he licked the contour of his ear, devastatingly finishing him off from any remaining self control. He relented the victory completely to Sebastian now, utterly defeated under his touch.

"Well then…" He felt like a blabbering mess, trying to say something smart or seductive in return, but he was just beyond everything now, so he just went to the point. "Lead the way."

He heard Sebastian's low laugh, clearly amused with the effect he'd had on him. And then reluctantly felt his body mourn the loss of contact as he was pulled by his hand towards what Sebastian had planned.

"Here…" He gently guided Ominis onto a huge and soft bed. He then neatly removed his shoes and felt his way around, settling himself in the middle. He sat in a lounging position now facing Sebastian.

"A bed?" He asked, a little surprised, but definitely not complaining. It felt wonderful beneath him.

"Well… not that I was assuming or anything… but I wanted this night to be really special, so I learned to conjure one too." Sebastian said as he removed his shoes and made his way to Ominis in the middle. "And even if you weren't ready for this…" He was now back to whispering in his ear. Gently nudging him to lay on his back. "I still wanted us to spend the night together in the comforts of a proper bed."

Their lips met swiftly into another fiery kiss, as they slowly began to remove the other's clothes, savoring the anticipation of the moment while desperately needing to feel the other's skin on their own.

"You have no idea how long I've wanted this." Ominis said while Sebastian explored the plains of his neck with his tongue.

"You're so delicious Ominis… I just want to eat you whole." He bit gently into his neck. "Will you let me?" His voice was so full of want and coercing honey.

"I'm yours Sebastian… you may do as you please with me." And he meant it, he would let him do anything to his body, the depth of his arousal was so consuming that he would gladly relent to his every whim.

"Mmmm… Such a good boy Ominis… that's exactly what I wanted to hear." Sebastian's mouth and hands were almost at his manhood now, but instead of going for it, he traced his groin with his mouth while gently parting his legs. The anticipation was killing him now, he needed some sort of release. Then he softly heard Sebestian mutter some spells and just as fast there was now a slick finger prodding his innermost area.

"Ahh!" He gasped, his breathing extremely labored now. He had never felt anything like it before. It was exciting and so delicious at the same time and he needed more. But Sebastian was just toying with his entrance, driving him mad.

"Mmmm… Sebastian… Please…" He was mewling and desperately grinding his hips trying to get more contact.

"Please what love? Does it feel that good? You're making such lovely sounds…" His voice was dark but playful and it made him insane.

"I need more… please!" He felt pathetic, begging for pleasure, but just the same, he somehow enjoyed it so damn much.

"If you're asking that nicely…" Sebastian's finger now slid slowly but fully inside him in one long motion. "I'm happy to oblige."

"Ahhh! F-Fuck!" It was too good and too much… he could feel himself dripping into his stomach, and then Sebastian began to pull it softly out, just so he could again push it all the way in. He kept repeating that movement, gently curving it inside to apply just the right amount of pressure to a spot that was making Ominis simply cease to exist.

"Mmnggh… Sebastian! I'm… I'm going to…" he was almost about to burst with pleasure but then his lover removed his finger completely, denying him his sweet sweet release. He was just about to complain when he felt Sebastian's hot breath in his ear.

"We can't have you cumming just yet love… the best part hasn't even begun." Sebastian licked along his jaw, then his lips, completely devouring his mouth.

Ominis was desperately grabbing him trying to get closer so he could grind against his body, needing the contact so damn much. And thankfully Sebastian obliged, and after a few thrusts into his hips, he took both their lengths in his hand, and started stroking them together with long and firm motions.

He couldn't help the desperate moans that escaped him into his lover's mouth and Sebastian was certainly glad to drink them all in.

"Mmmhh.. do you even know what you do to me?" His teeth now gently pulled his lower lip. "I love seeing you so undone Ominis… It's taking all my self control not to just fuck you mercilessly into the bed right now…" Sebastian's tongue was now back into his mouth, so deep he could have choked and be glad about it.

"Please Sebastian… just do it, fuck me… please. I've craved it for so long…" Ominis began licking and nipping his neck now, and Sebastian's stroking hand went back to his entrance now. Only this time he pushed in two fingers, slowly wiggling and pushing until they were completely inside him again.

"Oohh fuuckk!" Ominis was losing his mind, groaning deeply, the pleasure too much.

"Mmmm" Sebastian groaned huskily. "I love it when you curse like that Om… always such a proper gentleman, yet my fingers make you forget all your manners… tsk, tsk… simply delicious." He had just kept the fingers fully in, to allow him to adjust but at the same time making sure he wouldn't come too close to his climax this time. It was too good and too much at the same time. He was a whimpering mess by now.

"You're being so good love… Do you think you're ready for me now?" And just as he was getting used to the stretch, Sebastian removed the fingers and shifted on top of him.

He felt then the tip of Sebastian's slick cock prodding him, ever so slowly pushing in until the tip was fully inside him. His moans were now echoing through the chamber and he was desperately grabbing the sheets with one hand and his hair with the other, so completely lost in the new overwhelming sensation.

"Ahhh f-fuck! You're so tight Ominis! You're gonna make me cum so damn fast…" Sebastian's voice was so heavy with lust that Ominis cock just couldn't help twitch with the anticipation of it all.

Then Sebastian began to thrust ever so gently, pushing just a little further in with each sway of his hips. They were both moaning and sweating profusely with the intensity of the situation and then just as Sebastian was bottoming out he leaned into Ominis and kissed him deeply as he pushed that last time, now completely inside of him. He felt so full and the overwhelming pleasure was just the best thing he'd felt in his life.

"I love you so damn much Ominis" He said breathless into his ear. Ominis was clawing at Sebastian's body, so close to him, yet he somehow needed to feel their skins fuse with each other. Desperately needing more and more contact.

"I love you too Sebastian, I love you so much." He was a muttering puddle, completely lost in the closeness of their bodies and their souls.

They were both panting heavily into the other's ear. He could feel Sebastian's cock twitching with pleasure inside him driving him mad with need.

"Ahhhh hell Ominis! you're almost milking my cock with your ass!" He felt Sebastian softly bite his neck. "Nnghh you're so tight I could come any second…Ahhh fuck!" He was clearly losing it too, the new sensations becoming too overwhelmingly delicious.

"Please Sebastian, just fuck me please!" He needed to feel the friction, now that he had fully adjusted to the new and bigger intrusion deep within him. He was desperately trying to grind his hips to find it.

"Mmmm your wish is my command love…" And then he began to move in slow and long thrusts, finishing them off with a slightly stronger push, just deliciously slow enough for them to fully savor the new feeling. They were both moaning and panting in the other's ear, just completely consumed in this new realm of pleasure.

"Faster Sebastian, please!" He wanted more. Somehow he needed Sebastian to pound him hard and mercilessly, just let himself feel completely his, thoroughly under his control.

Sebastian happily responded to his plea and began thrusting hard and fast, the sound of flesh against flesh was absolutely obscene. He took Ominis mouth again, kissing him desperately, clearly needing as many points of contact as possible. Their embrace so tight and deep. The closeness of their bodies was allowing just enough friction on his extremely hard cock that he felt himself quickly approaching his climax, he was already leaking so much into his stomach and that provided him with enough lubrication to make it even more stimulating. He knew he could have finished with just the penetration alone but the friction on his length made him simply reach it so much sooner.

"Nnnmgg Sebastian!! I'm gonna… Aahhhngg!!" He came so hard like never before in his life. The intensity of his release almost made him cry, it was like heaven took over his whole body and all that existed was pure unrelenting pleasure. And as he came, Sebastian's thrusts became even harder and more irregular. He also felt his cock becoming impossibly hard inside him, and then he felt the warmth of Sebastian's cum filling him completely as he was finishing riding his own glorious orgasm.

"Ohhh Fuuckk!!!" Sebastian came so hard too, releasing a huge, deep groan of satisfaction. He kept moaning breathlessly as he gave his last shaky and profound thrusts, spilling everything he had in him to the last drop.

They felt utterly depleted of all their life essence, now absolutely lost in the mind numbing bliss that came from their gut wrenching ecstasies. Sebastian had collapsed on top of Ominis, somehow trying to hold his weight with his elbows so as to not crush him, but the exhaustion was slowly defeating him. They had remained joined, breathing each other in, until Sebastian couldn't take the exhaustion anymore and simply collapsed next to Ominis in the bed.

"That was incredible…" Sebastian breathed out. Both still heavily panting while coming down from their daze.

"Definitely the best thing I've ever experienced in my entire life." Ominis mumbled, entangling himself in Sebastian's embrace.

They stayed like that for a moment, simply enjoying the calmness after their shared frenzied passion, completely lost in their love for the other. Then Sebastian tentatively spoke.

"Was it really that good?" There was clearly a note of curiosity in his voice. And somehow also a little self-consciousness.

"Yes." Was all Ominis could manage in his post-climax bliss. He felt Sebastian shift a little and hold him tighter.

"Would you maybe be willing to… Ummm… do it the other way around… next time?" Sebastian sounded somehow anxious and his voice a little shaky, was he trying to say he wanted himself to be fucked next time? Why would he be so self conscious about it after ramming him into the mattress? Ominis shifted so he was now face to face with him.

"Are you asking me to fuck you next time?" He asked him softly but he couldn't help the slight teasing tone that came out of him.

"Ummm… yes." He could feel his gaze everywhere except on his face. He was now highly amused by how nervous he was, clearly wanting it but for some reason shying away. He chuckled lovingly at him.

"I would love to, Sebastian." He then placed a tender kiss on his lips.

"Please never feel like you can't be vulnerable with me." He stroked his silky wavy hair, just as he knew Sebastian loved. "I will never judge you and I will always do everything in my power to give you anything you may desire." He now kissed his brow, somehow trying to send all the love he felt for him through the kiss.

"I love you Ominis, with everything I am." Sebastian gently caressed his back, still embracing him closely, and Ominis could hear the tender smile on his words.

"And I you Sebastian, more than I could ever hope to describe."

They held each other firmly, a promise of their undying love for each other. And as they found themselves slowly drifting into a heavenly slumber, Ominis couldn't help how his mind wandered back, to all the incredible moments they had shared together. Every touch and kiss, every laugh and tear. All they overcame that brought them to this very moment, all their banter and bickering, and their adventures, both innocent and wicked.
Even before they became lovers, how they had shared every moment, their hopes and their dreams, and how they had filled each other's voids simply by being next to one another. How incredibly lucky he felt for having Sebastian suddenly approach him that very first day of school, insisting on being his friend, as if he had somehow instantly known that they would be each other's worlds. He thanked every possible god out there for the life that he'd been given, only because it had led him to that precise amazing moment, and to every moment they had shared since.

And as he was crossing the gentle threshold into the realm of dreams, he found himself in a state of absolute contentment. The image of everything that Sebastian was to him shining bright in his mind, and just like that, he couldn't help but lovingly mumble into his lover's steady breaths.

"...My best friend."

And then he smiled.

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Sebastian had woken up eager.

His thoughts immediately focused on his lover, still sleeping soundly, completely naked and entangled with him. Merlin… the sounds Ominis had made last night… He was just baffled. He'd never before been so thoroughly undone, it had clearly been just a whole other level of pleasure. Not that he didn't enjoy his side of the situation just as much… it had been incredible. But damn… Ominis had just lost it.

While he did his research in preparation for the big moment, he had found this really inconspicuous looking book in the restricted section that had turned out to be the holy grail of sex and its variations, with a very interesting section with just the information he required.

He had read how very pleasurable the experience could be for a man. He had been a bit wary though, but after seeing it in action yesterday… Curiosity had instantly taken over his mind, it was after all his biggest issue… And if he was being honest with himself, he was kind of a hedonist too… so of course he needed to try it out.

It had also given him some spark of hope knowing that if it was, after all, thoroughly described and explained in a book, it couldn't be that strange… maybe they weren't as alone as he used to think. But anyways, lest he digress… The book did say it was quite the experience.

So after witnessing the intensity in which Ominis came, he just needed to experience it for himself. You know… for science! Was it really that incredible? Maybe it had been just that his fucking had been otherwordly and that was what elicited Ominis response… he did like the idea of that and he found himself smugly grinning at the thought. But no matter! Because now the idea had consumed him entirely, so he was definitely once again a man on a mission.

He wanted to do it right though, so he would wait a little bit before nudging Ominis into it. After last night they definitely needed a huge breakfast and a nice hot shower, maybe even a bit of sunbathing around the grounds if the day happened to be nice… perhaps even lunch first. But then they would probably be done early enough to catch dinner and he did kinda like the idea of maybe just going to sleep after it like last night…

Fine, he would wait the whole damn day. He wasn't known for his patience but he had certainly pulled it off waiting for the Yule Ball's romantic setting to do it for Ominis… So yes, he would wait.

He felt Ominis stirring in his arms, just starting to wake up. So he gently caressed his skin to ease him into the world of the living, very very gently. Ominis could be very scary when bothered out of his sleep.

"Good morning love…" Sebastian cooed at him.

"Hmnnmgg…" Ominis just grunted and buried himself in Sebastian's chest.

Oh he was so cute! He couldn't help grinning like an idiot and snuggling him in his arms. He really loved him more than he ever thought possible… How did he get this lucky?! He started to plant soft kisses to Ominis head, slowly adjusting himself as he went so he could finally reach his face to pepper it with even more loving kisses.

Ominis then resumed his grunting as he tried to move away from Sebastian's love pestering.

"So help me Sebastian, If you don't let me sleep in bloody peace, I will smack you." His voice was still full of sleep, heh… it was so damn cute, he thought. Plus he loved it so much when Ominis was bossy… kind of got him going if he was being honest. And then his mind drifted to dangerous places with that smacking threat… Well. He was definitely giddy now.

He did think it best to have Ominis in a good mood today so he simply let him rest a little longer, he could use a bit of snuggling too… So he readjusted himself to have him cuddling back into his chest and softly allowed himself to drift off while gently caressing his hair. After all… he did have big plans for the day.

…

Everything had gone nicely so far, they did end up taking a nice stroll through the grounds and then they had cozied up a bit in front of the fireplace at the library, each enjoying their own bit of light reading while waiting for dinner. It had been really a nice day, but now that they were going back to the Undercroft his anxiety was once again taking hold of him…

He hadn't really thought much about how to approach this with Ominis, choosing to instead not think about it during the day so the waiting wouldn't be so tortuous. And so as they lazily walked next to each other towards their sanctuary, his brain was just ramming on trying to find the best scenario to make it work.

He was running out of time though as they made their descent, opening the gate to their lair. Oh Merlin… what should he do… wha-.

As soon as they were inside, Ominis had pushed him back against the wall, pressing their bodies together. His elegant hands firmly grabbing his hips, holding him in place. A gasp escaped him and suddenly he didn't know what the hell to do with his own hands. Then with a deep and calm voice, laced with devious intent, Ominis spoke into his ear.

"Do not think I have forgotten Sebastian, about what you so kindly asked me to do to you last night." Ominis hands gripped him tighter and then he nipped at his ear.

Oh fuck… Sebastian felt lusting shivers run all through his body. He was suddenly so hard and he just couldn't find something to say or do. He felt like a bloody mess, so he just stayed there under Ominis' commanding presence.

"So… what do you say, Sebastian?" He toyed the edge of his ear with his teeth. "Will you be a good boy and let me have my way with you?" Ominis then sucked on his earlobe and he almost dropped to his knees.

His hands now desperately grabbing at the wall behind him to help steady himself and all he could manage in his state of absolute daze was to eagerly nod.

"Hmmm perfect. Now remember, you asked for this Sebastian. But perhaps I'll have to punish you a bit first for your incessant pestering this morning." Ominis began licking and biting at his neck and his hands possessively roamed his body.

"Do you think you deserve to be punished? I wouldn't think it past you to have done it on purpose, just so you could get me in the mood." Sebastian swallowed hard, still trying to find his words. "So? What do you have to say for yourself?" The dominance in Ominis' voice was just too much. His cock aching with anticipation.

"I deserve it." He managed to choke out. Just as Ominis turned him around to face the wall and pressed himself back to him. He grabbed Sebastian's hands and pinned them tightly on top of his head with only one of his, while the other kept touching his body.

"Hmmm that's what I thought… Very well then." He could feel Ominis hardness grinding against his ass and it was making him sweat with need. But then he suddenly found himself ripped of all the warmth.

"On your knees then." The order made him instantly turn around and drop. He was completely and gladly at Ominis' mercy.

With their time together, especially after their big fight, they had begun to more openly explore and experiment with what they liked when tangling in the sheets. And one of the things they had interestingly discovered was that Sebastian would instantly crumble to Ominis whenever he took the lead or gave him specific directions. He just had that deep urge to please him, almost like a need. So they had decided to explore that further and realized it made for some very satisfying experiences…

While being intimate, they would usually simply fall to their most common rhythm which was just them answering to their own fervent desire for the other, giving and receiving without much further play to it. And then, there were those times when Sebastian would just be too horny and just ravage Ominis however he felt like in the moment. But still… quite basic really and just raw.

But the thing was… after they had opened that door for more active play and this new dynamic had been discovered, this natural commanding nature that Ominis usually had with others during his daily life, began to surface every once in a while during their romantic encounters… especially on days Sebastian had managed to annoy him a little too much…

Ominis would just get this urge to submit Sebastian to his will, and for some reason… Sebastian loved every goddamn second of it. Bending completely as soon as he saw that spark on Ominis' eyes, that meant he was in that mood. Even to the point where he would sometimes purposely provoke him to get him there. It was just absolutely delicious to him.

And now here they were… and the fact that Ominis had wanted to take this first from him in this way was just making him lose his mind with lust. So, as the very bad boy that he was, he would eagerly take his punishment now… Oh how it got him going to just think of the possibilities…

"Very good Sebastian… I do love it when you drop that fast." Ominis was petting his hair with one hand while the other touched his chin, and gently but firmly nudged it upwards so he would look at him.

Ominis' thumb then began to trace his bottom lip, coercing his mouth to open just so he could get his finger inside. Sebastian loved it so much whenever he would do that to him, so he eagerly runned his tongue all over while he looked at Ominis' lustful face.

He then watched him undo his pants with his free hand and take his long and pale cock in it, lazily giving it a few long loose strokes.

"Now love… you know how this goes, right? You have to open your mouth bigger now… that's it." Ominis kept his fingers in his mouth so he could sense exactly what Sebastian was doing. "Now take out that smart tongue of yours just like you know how. Hmmm… very good."

Sebastian knew what was coming next and his own hardness was just twitching with need inside his tight pants. He then watched as Ominis brought his delicious length and softly introduced it in his gaping and watering mouth, gliding all the way back through his tongue. Neither could help the breathy groans at the contact. And once Ominis was as deep as he could Sebastian began to suck on it, slowly savoring the wetness that had already come out of him.

"Ahhh… such a good boy Sebastian, you do it so well." He kept a firm but gentle grab on his hair as he slowly fucked his mouth. "Always eager to please…" Ominis was now moaning more intensely. But then he removed his cock completely from Sebastian's mouth and he let out a soft whimper of complaint. He just loved having his mouth filled.

"Now now, Sebastian… are you really going to complain? Perhaps I need to remind you a little harder that this is supposed to be your punishment." He said while holding his chin up again. He then tugged his length back into his pants.

"Get up and go to the bed." Ominis neutral voice ordered Sebastian, as he began to undo his tie and take of his vest.

"Now take off all your clothes." Sebastian was quick to follow, all while looking at Ominis taking his time undoing his collar buttons. Then neatly placed everything on a chair. He remained in his trousers and loose dress shirt while Sebastian was now stark naked and all his clothes were on a messy pile on the floor.

"Tks… always so messy Sebastian… must I punish you for that too? You certainly must be doing it on purpose." Ominis released a soft sigh of frustration.

"On the bed. Now." His voice was full of that posh commanding nature of his. "On your hands and knees Sebastian."

He swiftly obeyed. His own cock now stiffly hanging between his legs, almost bopping with excitement as he felt the bed shift behind him and then Ominis' strong delicate hand caress his bum.

"Now love… I do believe some teasing is in order first, since you so enjoyed making me beg last night… " His hand was softly making circles on his ass cheek, gently squeezing every few swirls. He then remembered he hadn't yet taught Ominis the cleansing and lubrication charms so he snapped out of his daze for a moment to point it out.

"Wait Om! I have to teach you the charms." He was beginning to sit up but he felt Ominis hand push him back down by his nape. Then his warm breath on his ear accompanied by a soft snort.

"Oh please, Sebastian… I've known those spells for years now. I would even bet I know a few more that you have yet to discover." Ominis softly chuckled in his ear. "Did you truly believe you were the only one to find that lovely book? You forget I know the restricted section just as well as you do… I'm just better at covering my tracks." He could hear his smugness just as he felt a sting on his ass as Ominis smacked it and then squeezed it lovingly.

"Now… be a good boy again and stay still. Got it?"

He simply nodded eagerly. He was very intrigued now… what the hell else did Ominis know that he didn't?! Merlin… it did things to him picturing Ominis sneaking in to read that blessed sex book and who knows what others. Oh Salazar… the things he wanted him to do to his body. His mind was running wild with fantasies.

He then heard the spells being swiftly muttered and just as fast the finger now softly caressing his entrance. Oh Merlin… that contact alone was spurring him on as never before. The anticipation was eating at him so he started to move his hips to try and get more, but then Ominis removed the contact completely.

"Ah, ah, Sebastian. What did I just say?" His hand was back at his nape, his hold a bit stronger now. "If you can't follow orders I will be forced to tie you up. Or is that what you actually want? You dirty dirty boy…" His voice was a bit threatening now but he knew Ominis would never actually hurt him or do something against his will. They had built that trust up and it never faltered. By now this was all part of the game and he loved it so much.

"No, I promise I'll be good." He softly answered him. There was something he liked about having to stay still without the restraints, like a play on his discipline and restraint… he always failed after a while though.

"If you insist…" He could hear the smirk on his lips… "there's actually this variation of the lubrication spell I found a few days ago… and I've been meaning to try it out, so will you let me experiment on you Sebastian?" He began to leave wet kisses on his neck, making him even harder with desire. "It's supposed to be a rather interesting experience… and I do know you enjoy those quite a bit." He bit gently and then sucked leaving a soft mark.

"I'd like that very much." Sebastian answered breathely, he loved experimenting so much.

"Very well then, remember to stay still." Ominis emphasized those last two words in his ear and his cock gave a huge spasm under him.

Ominis was back at his backside now and then he felt his hand and the tip of his wand softly touching his tight hole. He was so damn eager now, and then Ominis muttered the spell. He suddenly felt a warm and thick substance begin to fill him up softly. The sensation was just so unlike any other thing he'd ever felt that he just couldn't help the moaning gasps and heavy breathing that took over him, it was somehow so arousing, it made him think of how Ominis' cum could maybe feel inside of him and his thought just turned to complete mush.

"So? Did you enjoy it love?" Ominis asked him while greedily stroking his behind.

"Very much." He managed to choke out and heard the soft wicked laugh coming out of Ominis.

"Good."

Then he mercilessly introduced his index finger in one long swift motion until it was fully inside him. Ominis groaned deeply with arousal at the act but Sebastian had released a huge deep primal moan and his knees and arms failed him. He collapsed face first into the bed, but kept his ass still sticking up, not wanting to lose the glorious contact now deep inside him.

"Mmmm that was very good Sebastian, though you disobeyed me by moving." Ominis voice was laced with lust. He then gave a wiggle to his finger eliciting more of those delicious moans from Sebastian.

Sebastian didn't know what to say, his brain just wasn't working anymore, so he just laid there drooling slightly. He then heard Ominis mutter another charm and felt his wrists come together in a tight but comfortable hold, pinned now on his back. So he had no other choice but to remain in the position he was in now. His ass completely opened for Ominis to do as he pleased.

"Much better, don't you think? Now you just have to take it like a good and obedient boy."

That thought alone was now making his neglected length drip with desire. He wanted nothing more than to be thoroughly used by Ominis for his own pleasure and needs. He began to finger him now and he understood the sounds that had come out of Ominis last night.

He then introduced another one and he became a whimpering sack, unable to do anything else than drool and moan and ask the gods for forgiveness for his sins.

Ominis kept muterring soft praises and caresing his ass with his free hand while the other fucked his now looser hole with long and deep movements. He then became aware of his untouched cock and his need suddenly turned to desperation. He needed it touched. So damn much.

He also remembered that Ominis was still clothed and he took a peak at him only to see his gloriously aroused face and the huge strain inside his pants. He knew Ominis somehow enjoyed it, the whole anticipation of building up his arousal until he just couldn't take it any longer, but since he had a lot of self restraint, he could go at it for hours if he deemed it necessary to revel in Sebastian's inability to wait.

Then as if Ominis had read his mind and wanted to reward him, he felt his hand grab his stone hard length and give it a few longs and lazy strokes, twisting just right at the tip. He moaned so hard and began to slightly shake. Just a few more strokes and he would come, but he knew Ominis would probably remove the contact before that.

But then he kept going. His strokes now became more determined and delicious while his fingers kept working at his inside. The pleasure was too much and he deliriously allowed himself to relax into his now impending climax. He then felt Ominis mouth place sloppy wet kisses to his back and he came so hard that he blacked out for just a second. He spilled everything he had in wave after wave of pleasure which Ominis expertly stroked out of him until he felt like passing out.

"Fuck…" he groaned as Ominis removed his fingers, spelling them clean.

"Tsk… look at the mess you made Sebastian." Ominis placed his drenched hand in front of his mouth. He was so spent but seeing his cum on those long, pale fingers sent a wild flicker back to his now softening situation.

"Be a darling now and clean up after yourself please." He couldn't help how eager he was to do it. So he licked it all clean, playing with Ominis' fingers inside his mouth, sucking every last drop from them, and felt shivers of ecstasy as Ominis caressed his hair while humming in pleasure to what he was doing.

He wondered then what had just happened… he was sure Ominis wanted to fuck him properly, so why had he let him cum then? And then as if he was a bloody legilimens, Ominis answered his unspoken question.

"Oh love… I'm not done with you just yet." There was that wicked smile back on his face. "This night is just beginning." Ominis let out a dark chuckle that made Sebastian whimper at the thought.

Ominis then lifted his limp body, forcing him to sit back on his knees. His legs still open and hands still tied. And then he watched as Ominis proceeded to neatly remove the rest of his clothes, placing them on top of the previously discarded ones.

Then without saying anything he came back to the bed and kneeled in front of him. He then gently grabbed his chin and nudged his mouth open, then introduced his now drenched hard cock fully into his mouth.
He hummed in approval as Sebastian instantly began to eagerly suck and twirl his tongue around it just like he knew Ominis loved. He then watched him fondle his own tight balls and his mouth began to water even more.

"You are behaving so well Sebastian." Ominis was now moaning and stroking his hair avidly. "Do you think you deserve a reward?" He nodded and hummed eagerly while he kept his mouth full, he was so hard again with the anticipation, plus Ominis cock on his mouth always got him going.

"Mmmm so good… Very well then." Ominis pulled out of his mouth and released his hands, then gently nudged him to lie on his back on the bed. Then started to roam his body with his hands, insatiably touching everything he pleased and then began to stroke him too. Sebastian was softly humming with pleasure at the contact and then Ominis took him in his mouth and he began to moan again.

It felt so good but then he just manhandled him again to turn him into his stomach and without warning he felt Ominis large cock softly prodding his entrance. He was on top of him kissing at his neck while he kept slowly pushing deeper with each thrust and all Sebastian could do was whimper helplessly.

"Fuck Sebastian… you are so damn tight that you're making me curse." His voice was strained with desire. "I may have to punish you again for eliciting such profanities from me." He was halfway in now and Sebastian was already losing it, he wanted him to be completely inside him so he began to push back with his hips to help the situation.

"I said, don't. move. Sebastian." His voice was dark and dangerous and he had grabbed him by his nape again, harder this time, and he kept the grip now as he then finished pushing in the rest of the way with just one long movement, both releasing huge deep groans of pleasure.

They stayed like that for a moment, panting hard as they adjusted to the new sensations. And then Ominis just began to roll his hips trying to push even deeper into Sebastian.

"Nnngg… it feels so amazing love… being inside you like this…" Ominis had suddenly broken character from his commanding self, fully pressing himself against Sebastian's back, his face nuzzling into Sebastian's neck and hair, placing passionate kisses everywhere he could reach. Ominis hands caressing his body and holding him tightly against him. It felt like heaven to Sebastian and he only wished he was facing him so he could also hold him strongly against himself, softly touching him too.

They stayed like that for a moment, deeply enjoying the contact and connection until Ominis began to grow desperate with need and lifted himself up enough so he could now pull almost all the way out just to slowly push it all the way back in. It was so amazing and he kept at it, each thrust growing somehow harder than the other. He was now thoroughly using him to chase his own pleasure and Sebastian loved it too much.

"Mmmm… Sebastian…" his voice was breathy with need. "You're taking it so well love…" his thrusts harder and faster. "Do you like having my cock inside of you?" He was beginning to regain his dominant persona, his voice darker and his grip tight against his hip.

"I love it so much." Sebastian choked out in between his groans.

"Such a good boy Sebastian… I love it when you please me like this." Ominis had begun to grunt now as he pounded into him mercilessly. The sound of their flesh smacking each other was now lulling Sebastian into his second release. He loved so much the feel of Ominis inside him. Each time he was as deep as he could get Sebastian would fill so full and cuddled in his warmth, he knew he was completely his, body and soul and it made him feel so good inside.

"Aren't you glad I made you come before doing this? Now I get to enjoy you for longer." He kept thrusting but now he would linger more on the inside each time, rolling his hips to get even more friction which in turn would also make him grind against the mattress and get some release in his own straining hardness.

"Please Ominis… I'll be good… would you touch me, please?" He begged him now, he needed some more contact in order to reach his release.

"Hmmm… touch you where love?" He cooed at him in a wicked voice.

"My cock! Please! I'll do anything…" He could feel himself constantly on the edge now, unable to cross it without that further bit of stimulation.

"It's so delicious hearing you beg Sebastian
.. specially when it's because of my cock inside your tight and sweet hole." He gave his bum a squeeze and then pulled out completely. He felt so empty and gave a soft cry of frustration.

"You need to push your hips up love, so I may reach you down there." Ominis instructed and he immediately did as he was told. Then he felt Ominis trace his hands from the back of his knees, through his bum and then all the way up his back, feeling the shape of him, seeing him and then went back down but now gliding down his chest, skipping his dripping cock and continuing down his legs, then as he reached the knees again he pushed them to open further. His hands then went straight to his ass cheeks and spread them wide, slightly massaging them. He needed him back in now, he needed to be touched so he begged again.

"So impatient Sebastian… but if you insist on cutting this short, I will be forced to use you again once you cum, even if you ask me to stop."

"Yes Ominis! Please! Just do it, I'll be yours to play with all night if you want!" He had to actively stop his hand from reaching himself because he knew that would mean more punishment and he just needed to cum right. now.

Ominis released a sigh and then finally grabbed his stone hard member and stroked him thoroughly. He released a huge moan of relief now that he had finally gotten the friction he needed.

"You're mine Sebastian…" Ominis said as he slowly introduced himself back into him. He was so close to cumming now that he was full again. "And I will have my way with you as I please." He began his attack again, pounding him into the bed.

"Oh fuck!!" He was panting so hard now. "I'm yours Ominis! Ahhhgggg! I'm all yours!!" He cried from the intense pleasure as he felt his impending orgasm. And as Ominis felt with his hands how he was getting even harder in preparation, he let out his own deep moan and bit into Sebastian's shoulder. His movements became even more eager and as Sebastian though about Ominis spilling himself inside him he couldn't help the way his own ecstasy overtook him.

"Ominis!!" He screamed as his cock spasmed with each wave of his sweet release. Ominis grunts then turned into a huge moan too as he also reached his peak, burying himself as deep as he could as he filled Sebastian completely with his hot seed.

"Ohhh fuuuck…" Sebastian groaned as he felt each wave of Ominis cum inside him, the feeling of satisfaction was so profound as he was still coming out of his own high that he almost came a third time just at the thought of what had just happened.

Ominis collapsed on top of him, breathing raggedly into his neck, and they stayed like that for a moment in absolute blissful silence. Only once the initial intensity of the exhaustion had passed, Ominis pulled out his softening length and with his finger swiftly pushed back inside Sebastian the bit of cum that tried to get out. Then slowly fingered him again.

"Nnngggg… Ominis please…" He groaned. "Stop… I'm too sensitive…" It felt good though, the overstimulation and he found his hips somehow moving again, chasing the pleasure. Ominis just chuckled darkly.

"This is your own doing Sebastian…" He could hear the smug smile on his voice. "I told you I would use you again once you came, even if you begged me to stop." His finger never stopped moving and he was now grinding the bed along it. "Though it seems your body likes it a little too much…" He heard Ominis release a sweet laugh. "So stop complaining love and let me use you as I please."

He knew Ominis was right, he loved it too much and he would definitely let him do anything and everything he wanted. So he simply closed his eyes and relaxed once again into Ominis' devilishly heavenly touch and hummed in pleasure at the thought of going at it until they both dropped from exhaustion.

If he where to die like this, he would be glad about it really… drifting into oblivion under the strongest pleasure in life… not bad, he thought… And he then smiled blissfully at the thought of the possibilities now ahead of them.

Yes… He chuckled. It would most definitely be a long night.

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Sebastian was finishing up gathering some fresh vegetables from their garden, the sun was beginning to get to him though so he proceeded to grab the herbs he was missing quickly and wipe the sweat now forming across his brow.

He'd promised Ominis he would make his favorite tomato soup for dinner, but then he had been distracted with trying out a new bread recipe he had come up with. So he ended up leaving it to the last minute to gather everything up, leaving him at the mercy of the unforgiving afternoon sun. Ominis would soon return home from his job, so he really needed to get going on it.

He began to walk back to their house but just as he was about to enter he paused at the threshold and gazed at the ocean that could be seen from the top of the hill. He inhaled deeply, feeling the cool breeze envelop his senses and he couldn't help but reminisce.

He thought back to the moment after they had just graduated… They were sitting together on a ledge overlooking the black lake at sunset. Ominis holding the letter he'd received from his family the day before, now crumpled in his hand. He simply sat there with a deep and solemn expression plaguing his features, definitely lost within his thoughts. Sebastian had then softly caressed his cheek, and Ominis had instantly leaned into the touch. He knew well what was on his mind and it made his heart ache. But he would never let anything hurt him… ever again.

He had made arrangements. They were to stay in a little one room cottage in Upper Hogsmeade, where he had secured himself a job as an apprentice baker. He knew Ominis had his heart set on becoming a charms professor someday, so he wanted to make sure to provide for him until he would be able to get his license and secure the job. He knew he would have no trouble though, as he had graduated top of the class and was even able to cast silent spells wandless.

He couldn't help smiling with pride thinking of how amazing Ominis was. He always surprised him with new skills, he'd recently even taken to creating and modifying spells. He gave a soft snort at the thought of his last creation.

Of course it hadn't taken him long to get the job. Professor Ronan had been thinking about retiring soon, so he agreed to tutor Ominis two years after they had graduated. So from then on, he would spend his days at Hogwarts learning the trade, which had allowed Sebastian the time to make true his promise.

Of course he had meant it. From the moment he'd seen that hill overlooking the ocean during one of his exploration adventures. He had seen it then, their future. He never before believed much in divination and always kind of gave Seers the side eye… but never after that day.

He wasn't sure if it had actually been some kind of vision, but it had been clear enough that it engraved itself deep within his heart, and so he had bided his time until he could make that dream their reality. He'd been so eager to share it with Ominis that he had given him a small description of it during their Yule Ball moment, just enough so they could dream together.

They had never dared talk about it again though, just trying to move forward in whichever way they could at the present time, but he knew they both held on to that image with all their hearts.

He had wanted it to be a surprise too, so once Ominis was preoccupied with his new apprenticeship, he got to work on the house and everything else he had promised.

Since he had to keep working his own job too and keep the whole thing a secret, it had taken him almost a year to finish everything, but once he was done and looked back at it, he knew it had truly been a vision of their future, as it was exactly what he had seen all those years ago. He felt proud of his achievement and tears came flowing down his face. He couldn't wait to bring Ominis and show him their dream.

He had realized with the years that he was a hopeless romantic. Thankfully it was springtime so that very next day he had prepared an assortment of their prefered finger foods and paired it with their absolute favorite wine, and with a huge cozy blanket he had taken Ominis on a picnic.

The day had been exquisite, warm and soft. He'd told Ominis he wanted to have it in this lovely hill he knew by the ocean. So they had lazily laid there all afternoon, hand feeding each other and drinking to their heart's content. And once they had been full and giddy, they stayed there basking in the sweetness of the calm, kissing and holding each other close.

They spend the hours in harmonic bliss and just as the day was beginning to cool as the sun approached its setting, Ominis let out a huge sigh as he softly ran his fingers through Sebastian's hair. He looked at him expectantly and saw a soft smile on his lips.

"I wish we could do this everyday." He had such longing in his eyes. "This is a wonderful place Sebastian, I'm so glad you found it… we should come again sometime." Ominis voice was sweet, he laid a kiss on Sebastian's brow. He'd been waiting for this moment, he knew Ominis would eventually say something like that so he smiled and took his hand, giving it a soft loving kiss.

"I'm so glad you said that." He whispered into his hand and then ushered him up. "Come here." He walked him a few steps up the hill, just a minute's walk. And then placed his hand gently on the door's threshold.

"Use your wand love." Ominis looked confused but somehow there was a tiny spark in his eyes at the feel of the soft wood on his palm. He hadn't been using his wand to guide himself today since Sebastian had been leading him closely. And so he hadn't really noticed the cozy house that was sitting further behind them just at the top of the hill.

And as soon as the red pulse enveloped their surroundings he gasped and his lips began to quiver. Almost instantly tears began to flow freely down his face, as Sebastian now wrapped himself onto his back, holding him in a loving embrace.

"I always keep my promises Ominis" He whispered into his ear and nuzzled his face on his neck. Ominis was still speechless, weeping softly.

"It's home… if you still want it." Sebastian tightened his embrace just a bit more.

"I…" His voice was soft and shaky. Then he suddenly turned around and hugged Sebastian so hard that he left him airless. And he cried unrestrainedly for a minute before he spoke again.

"You made it real…" Ominis whispered as they held each other tightly.

"I will give you the world, love… just to see your smile."

Ominis scoffed at him, separating himself enough to be face to face.

"All I've ever wanted is you Sebastian."

They had kissed the rest of the light away, and once the darkness and cold had made them aware of it, they had gone inside to the already equipped home, lighting up the fire and making love in front of it until they could no longer fight the sleep away.

Sebastian smiled fondly at the thought of that night… their first night in their forever home. How many years ago was it now? 6 or 7? Merlin… they were almost 30 now, he chuckled. He then took one last glance into the horizon and went inside to begin cooking. He had already dawdled enough and he wanted to finish before Ominis arrived from Hogwarts.

Just as he was done placing it all in the pot to begin his stirring he felt Ominis approach and hug him from behind.

"You're early." Sebastian said, hugging his arms with his free one as he kept stirring. He then felt kisses on his neck and tilted his head to make room for more.

"Actually, you are late Sebastian." Ominis gave a soft laugh against his neck.

Merlin… it seemed he had really lost track of time! He looked out the window and saw the sun approaching its slow descent.

"Oh… Sorry love…" He winced at his own mistake, thankfully the soup didn't require that much more time so he left it to simmer while he went to prepare the rest of their meal. They would be having beef today too, which he just needed to grill on the stove so it would be quick… And for dessert, some new pastries he'd brought back from his bakery in town.

Ominis had taken to setting the table before going to freshen up, leaving Sebastian alone with his thoughts once again. And the truth was he was nervous now… it was a special day after all and he wanted it to be perfect, yet as normal as he could. So once he was done cooking and had everything on the table, he went on to freshen up too, passing by Ominis now lounging on the couch waiting for him with a glass of wine.

His heart began to race again at the image of him so casual and domestic. He washed himself a bit and then changed into casual but fresh clothes and swiftly picked up the small velvety bag from the back of his nightstand and shoved it inside his pocket. Palming it after to make sure it was secured.

They proceeded to eat and talk about their day, laughing and bantering as always, and once they were full and giddy, he took Ominis by the hand and guided him outside towards their bench under their tree. The sunset in full bloom before them as the soft breeze from the ocean lulled them to take a seat. And as they leaned against each other, faring the day away, Sebastian's hand softly tightened against Ominis'.

"I thank the heavens everyday for allowing me to fall in love with my best friend, and for him to love me back." Sebastian said in a warm voice, and a tender smile while gazing at the colors in the sky. He then turned his head to look at Ominis. His eyes reflecting the oranges and pinks surrounding them, mixed with their natural misty sky blue, as if they were heaven itself.

"And I know deep within my heart, that I will be the happiest man alive if I just get to spend the rest of my days with you." Sebastian said, lost in his eyes.

Ominis was now facing him too and there was a sweet but deep look upon him as if he was touched by the words but trying to understand what had elicited them. After all, they would usually come out here to enjoy the sunset together.

"I know we can't… properly display our love for each other, as regular couples do…" He said now with a bit of a heavy heart. "But I want to show you… just how much this means to me."

It did pain them that they could only truly be themselves in the comfort of their home. It wasn't that they were alone though… With the years, they had managed to find a family of friends that accepted them as they were, loved them as they did them… and they realized the world perhaps wasn't as cold and lonely as they had first imagined it would be.

However they still had to be careful with the rest of it, and they would never be able to be properly acknowledged by the world as a marriage… but Sebastian wanted it more than anything. To make their bond oficial even if it was just between them, a secret promise within their souls, just as they had once held the promise of the life they now shared.

So he then reached into his pocket, taking out the tiny bag and softly placed it inside Ominis' hand, closing it around it with his own.

He saw the hint of realization light up Ominis' eyes as he felt the contents of the bag. Carefully untying the knot on it and letting the matching silver rings fall into the palm of his hand. He slowly traced them with his fingers, making sure he was right about what it was and then his hand curled around them as he pressed it hard against his heart.

He cried softly from the intensity of his emotions while Sebastian held him strongly within his arms, tears threatening to fall from his eyes as well. Until Ominis finally managed to steady himself in order to speak.

"I love you Sebastian… and I'll wear this ring proudly for the rest of my life." He was almost laughing now with excitement and absolute joy and Sebastian couldn't help but match his energy and lovingly laugh too.

He then helped Ominis put on his ring and they did the same together for his own, sealing the ordeal with a deep and passionate kiss.

"You're my world Ominis, I will love you forever and a day." He whispered to him with a smile while they breathed each other in. Their foreheads resting together and their noses cradling each other.

They stayed like that, in a state of absolute content, once again embracing their promise of the rest of their lives together. And only once the line that divided the sky from the ocean was blurred, they made their way together back into their home.

He knew he was truly at peace with it… with them having their own slice of heaven, their sanctuary in their home. That only they would know the actual weight behind the rings they now wore. Their absolute promise to each other.

Forever and a day…. He liked the ring of it, and he smiled to himself as he closed the door behind him, eager to consummate their promise with their absolute favorite activity of them all.

He then thought about how far they'd come since that first time they'd kiss. He felt so silly thinking about it, but it had been the beginning of their love story… No, that was not true… he realized it had began way before. That first day he saw Ominis in the great hall at Hogwarts, sitting in front of him at the table after just being sorted. How everyone else looked at him warily, the heir of Slytherin, but not Sebastian… No, he could only see the depth behind his eyes.

A spark of recognition flared within him now as he recalled that memory again for the first time in so many years… And he realized how he'd seen it there too, within his eyes. Their future together, this moment they had just shared, a vision that had played for him inside Ominis' moonlight eyes… of course he hadn't understood it back then, but now… oh how lovely to remember. To know that they had been destined from that very first day.

His bestest friend in the world… he felt a tear fall from his eye at the realization. And he knew they would be okay. Just them, together, at last. Two best friends and soulmates, in their very own secret slice of heaven… he prefered it this way really, so no one would ever mess them up. He let out a soft chuckle of happiness, now reaching out to Ominis waiting for him in front of the kindled fireplace.

Yes, they would do just fine… He smiled again. After all… best friends don't just kiss and tell.

And then they kissed for the millionth time.