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"so... You've really outdone yourself, huh?"
Cathy's voice came out a bit softer than expected, as she looked the room in front of her, heart beating slightly faster than usual.
When she told her girlfriend she wanted to give sex a try, she'd imagined something special, sure, Jane wasn't really the type to avoid big gestures, and making her safe food, the least fancy thing ever, for their fancy dinner, well... That should've kind of given it away, but...
Still, Jane really did do her best to make sure the moment would've lingered.
The room was warm, cleaner then she ever saw it, the lights dimmed, just as she liked... Well, actually, the lights weren't there at all.
Instead of the usual warm light given by the recently changed lightbulb, the room was illuminated by numerous candles, all placed in the room's most fireproof angles, giving the space a soft smell of wax, that immediately made the woman's nerves relax a little.
Was that... Jazz music in the background?
When had Jane asked Alexa to play jazz music?
Catherine felt her cheeks flush as she looked at her girlfriend, her apprehensive expression not completely distinguishable in the soft light of the candles.
"Do you... Like it?"
Cathy felt herself smile softly as she leaned in, leaving a gentle peck on her lips.
"You did great"
A sheepish smile painted itself on her girlfriend's lips, her cheeks flushing red, as she closed the distance between the two of them once again.
The kiss was sweet, it was warm, and... Something else.
Catherine wouldn't have been able to perfectly place it, she knew her girlfriend was attracted to her, but...
To realize she wanted her, to feel it... That was different.
The kiss wasn't particularly long, or heated, but it was followed by a second one.
And then a third one.
A number of soft kisses Catherine didn't really bother to count, each bringing them closer, Jane's hands tentatively touching her sides, holding them lightly, as she gently rocked the two of them like they were dancing.
Nothing was really bringing the two of them closer to the actual act of, well, having sex, but, honestly, Cathy couldn't find herself to mind.
If she could, she would've crystallized the moment in the string of time, just so that she could keep it like that forever, staying in the warm embrace of the one she loved, as they had that little waltz to jazz music she couldn't really recognize, her long fingers perfect to old her like that.
Her lips as perfect as DaVinci's Monna Lisa.
Didn't really matter if that was the prelude to something else, she... It was enough already.
Fuck having sex and knowing what it felt like, this...
This was already perfect.
...
For her, at least.
"Jane..."
After a few more moments of kissing, despite herself, the shorter woman detached herself, the blonde's fingers tightening ever so slightly as she did so, pressing her forehead to hers.
"Yeah...?"
Cathy took a deep breath, the hands thrown over the woman's shoulders holding each other, as she spoke softly.
"Do you want to... Do it?"
Jane was quiet for a few moments, her eyes staring in Cathy's, who could only look back for a split second, before looking away, focusing on the red of her cheeks.
To be honest, Catherine had never been great at reading people, not real ones at least, but... Jane?
Over the years, she'd learned to read Jane.
Maybe she didn't get every state or change of her features, but she could understand her touch.
She knew it, when Jane wanted something more, something she couldn't get from her.
And, just like that, she knew Jane was holding back right now too, waiting.
Catherine wasn't sure why, but she wanted to believe her girlfriend was waiting for her, trying to make her comfortable, not wanting to rush things.
After all, Cathy didn't like sex.
Actually, according to stereotypes, she should've been deeply uncomfortable around it, the sole thought should've made her recoil in repulsion.
And while, well, that wasn't true... Catherine was still asexual.
And someone who never had sex in her life.
Sometimes, a lot of times, she felt like she didn't deserve her girlfriend.
Jane pressed her lips tight, her hot breath, as she took a deep one, crushing against her lips, giving her goosebumps.
... Huh.
...
Interesting.
"... yeah"
Her tone was barely above a whisper.
"Do you?"
Did she?
Cathy thought she did.
Not really out of a need or anything, just... Morbid curiosity, she guessed?
After all, Jane seemed to like sex, she tended to look a lot more relaxed when coming home after one of her hangouts with Anna, and it was... Intimate?
She wanted to be intimate with Jane in the way her girlfriend would've wanted them to be, see if the hype really lived up to it.
Jane was a beautiful woman, and...
Catherine took a deep breath.
"Yeah"
The blonde nodded, detaching herself from Cathy's body, the woman already longing for her presence and body warmth against her skin.
Jane took her hand, guiding her to the bed, Catherine's mind passively acknowledging the presence of what she guessed were plastic rose petals on the floor.
That... Would've taken a while to clean up.
Jane had worked hard for it, though, so she didn't say anything.
They sat on the bed, looking at each other.
It was a matter of seconds.
Jane's eyes slipped on Catherine's lips.
They started kissing.
It was different this time, more messy, one of those kisses that made the room's temperature rise of a few degrees.
Her heart, now, was certainly beating fast.
Very fast.
It could've as well jumped out of her chest, for how hard It was banging against her ribs, breath growing more and more erratic, as her lungs burned, begging for air.
One of Jane's hands was on her arm, gently squeezing it from over the button up's texture, but the one Catherine couldn't ignore was the left hand.
It was sitting on her tight, dangerously high, even though she was still wearing her deep blue jeans.
A few more kisses.
Then they separated, Jane looking at her with parted lips, as Catherine caught her breath.
"Can I... Go further on?"
She nodded.
"Are you sure?"
"... Yeah"
Jane nodded, getting close to her once again, their breaths mixing, as she added something, whispering.
"If anything feels uncomfortable, or overwhelming... Please, tell me"
And, though none else was there with them, Catherine couldn't help but whisper too.
"Okay"
They started kissing again, Jane's tongue brushing against her lips.
Okay... Okay, she knew what that meant.
French kissing.
She'd read that, in... Almost every work of fiction she had to proofread, to be honest.
The woman parted her lips, shivers running down her spine, as she felt her girlfriend's tongue sliding into her mouth, immediately touching hers, brushing itself against it.
It was... A weird feeling.
Catherine wouldn't have been quite sure how to describe it, like... It was... Gross, but also... Kind of arousing?
All she could hear was the blood running in her ears,her heart beating even faster, as she noticed a warm feeling slowly settling in her lower belly, her clothes starting to feel... Uncomfortable, in a way.
Was it always that hot in there?
She gripped at Jane's left arm, maybe a bit tighter than she'd expected doing.
Her girlfriend immediately stopped kissing, breath a bit heavy and cheeks flushed red; a concerned look was plastered on her face, jaw only slightly clenched in a way Cathy couldn't miss.
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah, I..."
What?
Catherine took a deep breath, nodding, her whole body feeling as if on fire.
"Can I go on?"
God bless Jane's good soul.
Catherine wasn't gonna finish that sentence.
She nodded for what felt like the undredth time that hour, her hand slightly loosening its grip on Jane's arm.
"Yeah... Please, do"
Her voice sounded a bit more... Husky.
Yeah, that was the right word.
Jane gave her a peck on the cheek, letting herself smile a little.
Then her lips moved lower.
First to her jaw.
Then to her neck.
It was... Fine, Jane had already kissed Catherine on the neck before and the opposite was also true, but... That didn't make it any less staggering, when it felt so... She wasn't sure intense was the right word.
It sent chills down her spine, though, and that was... Nice.
She liked getting kissed on the neck, it felt intimate.
Now, as Jane peppered her neck of feather like kisses, it also felt suggestive.
"Cathy..."
"... Yeah?"
Even she was surprised by how actually hoarse her voice sounded.
Jane only stopped for a second, before placing her lips back on her neck, her teeth grasping at the sensible skin.
Catherine let out a yelp, making Jane's eyes widen.
"Sorry"
"It's okay"
"Too much?"
"Too much"
Catherine didn't like getting bitten.
"Can I unbotton your shirt?"
"... Yeah"
Yeah... Yeah, that was okay.
It was Jane, she... She'd seen Cathy naked, though, well... The context was pretty different from that one.
Catherine found herself gulping, as her girlfriend started unbottoning the shirt, extending her lips' conquers to her collarbone, which only made the uncomfortable warmth in the woman's abdomen grow, as she stroke her girlfriend's blonde locks, eyes slightly closed, as her shirt fell behind her.
"Jane... Can you take your shirt away too?"
She... Was okay with being naked, but she didn't want to be the only one.
Jane stopped kissing her collarbone, looking at her for a few moments, her stare so soft Catherine felt as if she was getting hugged.
She nodded.
"Sure..."
And she did.
The woman unbottoned her blouse, letting it slide down her arms, as Catherine got to see the entirety of the woman's body.
Jane had been gaining some weight lately and it showed; the tummy rolls of her stomach making her look softer, more...
Catherine wanted to touch her.
She cleared her voice, tentatively extending her hand.
"... Can I?"
The woman nodded, suddently a bit sheepish, as her girlfriend caresses her sides, and then her stomach, her sight lingering for just one second too long on the way too fancy bra.
Jane, for the night, has kind of overdressed, making herself look a whole new kind of beautiful for what, at the end of the day, was a date at home; Cathy had jokingly teased her about it, when she'd gotten home.
...
She loved her.
"I love you"
Jane's smile immediately became ten times brighter as she said so, her lips crashing into Cathy's and making both of them fall with their backs on the mattress, the blonde woman on top, as she peppered her whole face with kisses, taking a laugh out of her.
"I love you too"
"Jane-"
"I love you, I love you, I love you!"
"Jane, you're tickling me!"
They laughed for another few moments, before remembering what they were doing, Jane's smile getting softer until it disappeared.
So did Cathy's.
Both of them were breathing heavily, still recovering from that sudden love attack.
"Are you sure you..."
"Yeah"
Jane nodded, her long fingers caressing the woman's stomach, making her shiver every time, her lips lightly kissing her neck, as she slowly opened her jeans, taking so much time it was obvious how extra sure she wanted to be.
She stopped for a moment, just the needed time to go and slide the clothing piece, plus her underwear, out of the way.
...
So... That was it?
Now it happened?
It was... Weird, to be naked like this, like... Laying down, as her girlfriend laid right next, calmly massaging her lower abdomen, looking at her attentively.
She felt vulnerable.
Catherine wasn't sure if she liked the sensation.
"I'm gonna touch you now..."
The woman nodded, taking a deep breath.
Was it normal to be scared?
"You can say no at any moment, I'll stop"
"I know"
Jane touched her.
It was a light touch, where her clitoris was... Wait, uh... Fanfiction usually gave it a fancy name, something like bud, or heat.
Well, heat was kinda accurate for the temperature she was feeling.
Still, Jane touched it.
Catherine, for the first few moments felt as if paralized, the tension killing her.
She took a deep breath.
It was... Fine?
Yeah, that...
A quiet gasp escaped Catherine's parted lips, as Jane massaged it, holding herself up with her elbow, as she left a sweet peck on her mouth.
That... It wasn't that different from when she did it by herself, not physically, at least, it... Yeah.
Catherine wouldn't have described it as great, but not even bad.
Her breathing had become faster, though, her heart beating like crazy, as the heat in her body all but stopped growing, getting more and more unbearable.
"I'm gonna go in, okay?"
Cathy nodded, making Jane press her lips tight.
"Can you say it, please?"
She gave Catherine a peck on the cheek, her soft lips feeling like solid heaven on her face.
"I... Wanna hear you say you're okay with this"
"I-"
Catherine felt herself blushing furiously.
"Yes... You can, well..."
She cleared her voice, uncomfortably squirming.
"You can go in"
Jane pressed another soft kiss on her lips.
"I love you"
Then, two fingers slides in.
They did so slowly, but the woman couldn't help but gasp loudly enough she feared she'd broken some sort of spell casted between the two of them, her lover's name on her lips.
Jane took a deep breath, looking at her.
"Do you need some time?"
"No, I... You can go"
The woman nodded, slowly starting to move her fingers in a tame rhythm, Catherine's breath hitching in her throat as she did so, words long dead inside of her, choked by the sensation.
Again... She wouldn't have described it as either good or bad.
But she was enjoying it.
She...
Jane waited a bit more, before speeding up a bit, the pace getting just fast enough for her to still be enjoying herself, the heat in her stomach a ticking bomb waiting to be released.
"Oh-"
"Are you-"
"Fuck- yeah, I- uh-"
She didn't finish.
Jane seemed to understand.
This kept on going for a bit, waves of pleasure washing over the woman, more intense every time they arrive.
"Jane, I-"
"Are you getting close?"
Honestly... She wasn't sure.
She believed it, though.
So she nodded, a choked gasp managing to get out of her otherways closed throat, lips parted, as the bomb's ticking became increasingly evident to her.
Just a bit more.
Just a bit more.
Just a bit-
A wave of pleasure, stronger than the others.
Catherine already did know how having an orgasm felt, still...
...
It felt good to have one with Jane.
The blonde peppered her cheeks with soft kisses, gradually slowing down as she rode off the high, her breath feeling heavy, heart still beating like a hammer in her ears.
That was...
She didn't know how that was.
And she didn't get to think for too long, when Jane pulled her close, holding her tight to herself.
Catherine instinctively nuzzled her head under her girlfriend's chin, the sole contact relaxing as she sighed in contempt.
"You did great, Cathy... So great..."
Jane scratched her scalp softly, as the woman slowly tried to catch her breath, face pressed against her neck.
"You didn't..."
"No, I did not"
"Would you like me to..."
Jane clicked her tongue, the sound vaguely reminding her of Catalina's grounding stim.
"No... I didn't get an orgasm, but I'm glad you did"
Catherine couldn't help but feel a sting of guilt.
She... She knew the theory, like, hell, she'd purchased the pocket size edition of the kamasutra to read, so that she could've pleased her girlfriend, and...
...
She found herself wanting no more of that.
"But-"
"Cathy... It's okay, I'm sure you would be great, but... Think about resting for now, okay?"
Jane placed a kiss on the crown of her head, her long skirt's fabric brushing against her bare legs.
"If when you wake up you'll still feel like it, we'll do it, okay?"
That... Seemed reasonable.
...
She actually did want to sleep a bit, she... She had a long day.
Like, with the work, and Katherine calling to schedule a hangout, and scheduling a date with the hairdresser...
She... They probably needed to wash up.
...
She was probably pretty gross...
Yeah...
Catherine took a deep breath, holding herself tighter to Jane's body.
Just...
Just a few more minutes.
Then she would've done it.
...
The jazz music was soothing.
...
...
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