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I lost him. It was the black day and immediately when Liam came to my house, with tears in his eyes, I knew that there was something wrong.
'What happened?' I asked Liam.
'Harry, just... just take a seat okay?' He said calm, but I could see the panic in his eyes.
'Li, what's wrong? ' He nodded his head and we walked to the couch. We both toke a seat and then he told me.
'Harry, Louis was in an accident. A car accident.' I looked him into his eyes, he wasn't joking. He was serious. 'Oh my God. Is he alright? In which hospital is he? Does his mother know?' I asked curiously. I was in panic.
'Harry.... Louis didn't make it.' After Liam's words my tears just came and I couldn't stop them. I really didn't know what to do at that moment and Liam was just there. Cuddling me, trying to comfort me. Saying sweet things, but it didn't help.
After an hour, I spend it crying on the couch, I just stood up and throw everything away. The candles on the table, the flowers Louis bought me yesterday. Liam tried to calm me down, but at that moment, no one could calm me down. Everybody was just there, but I didn't felt the warmth, I didn't felt anything at all.
That night all of mine and Louis friends were sleeping in me, and Louis room. Stan, Niall, Liam en Zayn, they were all there, but also then, I didn't felt the warmth of being friends. It was just me and no one else. When I was crying a little I just laid my head down on Louis' pillow. It felt like he was there, like he was just late from work or something. But he wasn't. I could never see him coming home again.
And that's how ended the black day. Just in a sea of tears, with Louis pillow in my arms, on the bed we shared. And I'm gonna express my feelings, and explain what happened after this, but before I can tell you that, I have to start from the beginning.
Harry Styles