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Light knew there was something off and tantalisingly different about L the instant he'd first met him. He had intrigued him immediately and curiosity was Light Yagami’s kryptonite.

The first time Light had felt physically attracted to L was when they had played Tennis and he'd seen a flash of L’s belly as he served a shot. Who was actually that pale? His skin was a shocking white, shade made even more prominent by the dark shock of his black hair and the deep grey of his eyes. Light really wasn't sure if he was disturbed by L's appearance or fascinated by it. L was something of an anomaly. Light and dark mixed up as one. Light had never been so taken with someone's appearance before. L was beautiful and he was obscene both at the same time. His fascination grew and grew until L had dominated a part of his brain and set up home within it. 

The God of the New World had always considered himself to be Asexual, and above such cravings of the flesh, but L made him realise that wasn't the case at all. L made him want and ache and cry out and L was his .

Paired with his fascinating monochrome colouring was a mind so formidable it made Light want to tear open his head and dissect that brilliant brain over and over again. Light knew he wasn't gay. Men didn't interest him and women certainly didn't either but L?

L sparked up every synapse in his body. L got his nerves sparking beautifully. L was like a rush of the most potent narcotic straight to the vein. All L had to do was see through his plans, make a brilliant deduction and Light was throbbing in his pants. He loved L’s brain almost as much as he loved his body.

One day they'd been fighting (as they so often did) and Light had snapped. The tension between them was at boiling point by that stage and he'd grabbed L hard and kissed him so roughly he'd made L’s lip bleed. 

L had kissed him back harder and they'd stumbled to the bedroom, the game between them shifting into yet another form as they pushed each other to the brink of pleasure and pain…

L was his drug of choice and he knew full well he was addicted by now. 

And this was why Light couldn't kill him. Not even to eliminate his rival and pave the way for his plans to save humanity. 

Not killing L was the harder option but it was the only one left to him. He knew L's name, Misa had found it out for him weeks ago, but Light also knew if he eliminated L the only person truly worthy of his regard, of his time and energy, would be gone. He'd gotten rid of Misa and Rem as soon as he'd found out L's name. It had been laughably easy and he needed to secure L's safety from them.

It was lonely at the top and he wanted L to stand with him. L and Kira were meant to be one, he was certain of it. 

With those thoughts in mind, Light straightened his spine and waited for L to emerge from the shower. Tonight all of their cards would be laid on the table. Light had planned what he was going to do and L would, at long last, have last confession.

There would be room in his new world for L and Kira. He would make room. 

L came out from the bathroom, a towel slung haphazardly around his hips with his wet hair dripping down his face and chest. On anyone else such a thing would be unattractive, Light thought, if you washed your hair you should have the sense to dry it. But then, L was expecting him to do that. It was just something they'd begun one night after Light got frustrated at L's wet hair soaking into his pillow. They'd already started fucking before the hair drying thing and yet the latter felt far more intimate…

“Sit, Ryuzaki” 

L's lips quirked into a smile as he crossed the room to sit by Light's feet. He had already brought a spare towel for Light to dry his hair. 

Light towelled the dark strands roughly, his thoughts splintering into a hundred different directions. How to bring it up? He didn't want L to spout percentages that were pointless. He didn't want L to kneel before him and proclaim him his God. He just wanted L to smile and acknowledge him as his equal. He wanted L in his bed, in his mind and in the dark places only the two of them could walk together. 

“You're thinking very hard and if you carry on rubbing my head like that you may end up inadvertently scalping me” L pointed out after a few more seconds, “Will Light-Kun tell me what's bothering him?”

Light stilled his movements and leaned down to press a lingering kiss to the white skin of L's neck, “If I told you what I was thinking would you believe me?” 

L smiled, “Probably not but I'm open to being pleasantly surprised” 

Light resumed drying L's hair, gentler this time, “How many cases have you solved, L?”

L leaned his back against Light's knees and considered. 3000 something? “A lot” he replied vaguely , “And it's Ryuzaki, not L” he corrected, almost as an afterthought. 

“It's not Ryuzaki though, is it?” Light returned, “I know your real name. I've known it for weeks . Misa told me it before she met her tragic end”

L remained still. His name was his only shield…he closed his eyes as he felt Light's fingers card through the damp strands of his hair. 

“L Lawliet” Light's voice was soft and gentle, his breath ghosting against his ear, “It's a pretty name. I like it”

L swallowed, his heart rate increasing as he wondered if his name had already been written down…he needed to say something but, for the first time ever, he wasn't sure what to say.

What was there to say? He knew Light had killed Misa and the Shinigami Rem. It was too much of a coincidence that they'd died just days after they'd taken Higuchi into custody…

It had come to an end. He'd seen the change in Light the instant he'd touched the Death Note in the helicopter. It was over…

He didn't want it to be over. Not really. But games had to come to an end, didn't they? And it really had been fun he just hadn't planned on falling in love in the process. 

“Tell me” was what L said when words finally came to him, “Tell me, Light”

He had to know. If he was going to die, so be it, but he'd hear those words first.

Light let out a soft sigh and pressed another little kiss to L's cheek this time. L wasn't religious but he was reminded of Judas kissing Christ… he shivered.

“I am Kira” 

L's eyelids fluttered closed, the truth hitting him in a heady burst. He had known it all along, of course, but for Light to confess it, To finally hear those words he'd been so eagerly waiting to hear fall from those lips…

“I know” L whispered in reply, “And I've always known” he felt Light's lips curl Into a smile against his cheek, “Have you written my name down yet? When am I to die?”

Light wrapped his arms around L's shoulders and pulled him back against his knees. He hunched over him and hurried his face into the juncture between neck and shoulder. He inhaled the scent of citrus shower gel and L's skin. 

“I asked a question” L pointed out, his eyes still closed as he sat motionless in Light's arms.

“Hmm, You do that a lot” Light pointed out, remaining relaxed and comfortable as he continued to breath L in, “That's nothing new, L”

This time, L didn't bother to correct Light. That was redundant now and his shield had been shattered. He wasn't one for wasting his time or energy and Light knew that. 

“I haven't written your name down” Light replied after a few moments, pulling away from L and resuming drying his hair as if he hadn't just confessed to being the World's most prolific serial killer, “I can't write it down. You should know that by now. You aren't going to die, L Lawliet” 

L frowned, eyebrows furrowing. What did Light mean he couldn't write it down? Of course he could…unless…

L bit his lip but was unable to suppress the low chuckle of amusement that spilled out of him. They'd both fallen into the same trap? L appreciated irony and this was about as ironic as it got.

“Oh. I get it. You have feelings for me so you can't kill me. I'm correct, aren't I?” The last question was more like a statement and Light had to smirk at it.

“You have feelings for me too” Light challenged, “So now you have your confession what are you going to do with it? Arrest me? Sentence me to death? No, you will do neither of those things” Light tossed the towel towards the general direction of the laundry hamper and helped L to his feet. 

They stared at one another, amber and grey, Kira and L. Neither would let up an inch. It was a perfect stalemate between equals.

“You're going to let me get away with it” Light continued, his voice soft but so very loud in L’s ears, “because everything I feel for you, you feel for me . You'd be bored without me, L, and you never took the Kira case to bring justice to the world. You did it because Kira fascinated you and you wanted the challenge”

L didn't bother to deny it, they both knew that was true.

“What we have is the closest thing to love either of us are going to feel and We're obsessed with one another. The world needs Kira but it also needs L. We need one another and we get what we want” Light murmured, toying with a strand of dark hair, eyes challenging L to deny it, “We were both playing a game with one another when we went to bed together. The rules changed, that's all. Now neither of us has to lose”

L leaned forward and pressed his lips against Light's. Light smiled into the kiss and cupped L’ head, curling his fingers into the nape of his neck and sighing as he felt L's mouth open under his.

The kiss grew steadily heated until they were all but devouring one another, hands grasping and mouths chasing one anothers. L was making soft panting noises and Light moaned in response, his cock firming and lengthening as he pressed their groins together.

“Mmm” L pressed back, his head tipping back as Light freed his mouth to bite down on his throat. 

Everything descended into pure animalistic need from there. Light yanked the towel away from his hips and walked them backwards towards the bed. 

L kissed him fiercely, not letting up for a second even as Light caged him to the bed and fumbled with his slacks to free his cock. 

“Aaahh” 

Light closed his eyes in pleasure as he rubbed himself against L, L's nails digging into the skin of his shoulder blades with each jerk of their hips.

“Yess” L hissed, eyes rolling as Light rolled their hips together. He grabbed Light's flexing ass and pulled him to him, not getting enough even as Light gave him exactly what he needed, “More”

Light groaned and took L's mouth again, hips stuttering as they began to weep precome against one another, easing their movements. 

They remained locked together, bodies moving sinuously against one another as their pleasure grew. The bed creaked as Light splayed a hand against the headboard to steady himself. Light groaned as he felt L clutch at his ass and fucked against him harder. 

“Fuck, Light, more” L gasped, his body straining towards release with each drag of their cocks.  

“Gonna come” Light rasped, shifting one of L's legs to wrap around his waist in a mimicry of the sex they both knew they'd be having later, “Come for me, L”

“Mmppf!” L surged against Light and Light chuckled breathlessly as he felt L begin to spurt against him. Light shuddered and followed suit, his breath leaving him in ragged gasps as he took them both in hand and pumped them through their pleasure. He watched the thick strips of white spurt out onto L's twitching belly and wanted nothing more than to lick them up.

And so, he did because Light always did what he wanted. Light caught his breath and leaned down, licking away the mess as L twitched and sighed beneath him. 

L watched Light lick his belly with rapt fascination before reaching to tug at his hair and lift his head. Light's pupils were blown, L thought, as he gazed at his lover. Light had never looked so much like Kira before…

He'd never wanted Light as desperately as he did in that moment. He pulled Light up to him and kissed him, moaning at the taste of themselves on his tongue. 

Light was right. There was no way he was giving this up. He was too selfish. Light was his…

“Pin Kira on Higuchi” Light growled softly when L released him, “Be mine and I'll be yours. Win with me” 

L touched Light’s cheek, Kira ’s cheek, and smiled at him. “Okay” he whispered, shifting beneath Light as he felt him begin to harden again, “Already?”

Light snorted in amusement, one hand already fumbling under the pillow for the tube of lube he knew he'd find there. “You do this to me so take responsibility”

L arched an eyebrow. “Is that an order… Kami ?”

Light groaned and crushed their mouths together, his hardening cock rubbing demandingly against L’s stirring flesh. 

“If it was an order, would you spread your legs and let me fuck you?” Light panted against L's mouth, slicking up his fingers. That would be pretty fucking hot…

“No, I don't take orders from you, Light” L admitted with a laugh, “I'm also an atheist. I don't believe in any god including you . But if you do want to play that game then fine, I'll indulge you and that God kink of yours…” L spread his legs, “Please, Kami, fuck me” he whined breathily, “Fuck me with that divinely big cock of yours and make me atone for all my sins. I've been such a naughty Detective trying to catch you all these months and now I'm at your mercy” L's eyes were glittering with amusement and Light laughed in delight, genuine delight, and kissed L again. 

“It's a good thing Kira loves L to tolerate such blasphemy” Light whispered, skimming a hand down L's belly and sighing as he reached his hole. He pressed a slick finger inside, groaning at the tight heat clenching around him. 

“Does he now?” L said In his normal voice, dark eyes drinking in Light's face. Light always frowned as he worked him open and he never rushed no matter how playful they later got. Now that he was truly looking for it, the answer to one of his questions was written plainly on Light's face. Light did love him. His breath hitched as Light pressed another finger into him. 

“He does. And L loves Kira too” Light stated, his eyes burning as he gazed at him intently, “Doesn't he?”

L bit back a gasp as Light twisted his fingers. Light would have to do better than that if he wanted a confession. 

“Doesn't he?” Light repeated, pressing in deep and scraping just the tips of his fingernails against the spongy gland he knew he'd find. He twirled his fingers, smirking as L tensed and shuddered beneath him. 

L spasmed in his arms, “Yes” he hissed, the honesty feeling heavy on his tongue, but Light had earned it, “Damn you, yes I love you. Now stop playing around and fuck me already” L demanded, head tipped nack to tempt Light with his throat. 

Light immediately bent his head to suck at the offered skin, positioning himself. “I'm looking forward to playing more games with you, L. In fact, I'm never going to stop playing them”

L smiled shakily when Light pushed inside of him.

Neither was he…

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Since they'd reached their understanding, things were really rather domestic between Kira, aspiring God of the New World and L, the World's Greatest Detective. Or domestic as things could be, considering their lives and hobbies of murdering ‘criminals’ and solving crimes respectively as well as their new found penchant for BDSM and power play...

For example, it was a Friday night and rather than going to a bar like most 22 year olds they were instead in their kitchen making dinner together. 

Well, Light was. L was mainly stirring things and looking around blankly at the cooking utensils and brushing Light off when he tried to kiss him.

“What do I do with this?” L asked, holding up a courgette and frowning at it. Light was on a crusade to get him to eat more vegetables. He had to admit it was working. Light's cooking was fantastic and he hid them skillfully.

Light smirked, “Well, L, it's either chop it up so it goes in the stir fry or use it as a dildo and put it up your ass. They seem to be the most common uses for them” Light was teasing (mostly) but in all honesty he wouldn't be adverse to seeing such a thing…

Ryuk, who was lounging on the sofa enjoying his bowl of crisp, red apples, looked at the pair of humans with wide eyes. He did not want to know that!

L's eyebrows furrowed. People did that with vegetables? L hastily put the courgette down. “Never mind. I'm just going to get another drink. You're being quite perverted today, Light, which is ironic since you always call me a pervert” L commented as he yanked open the fridge door to get a bottle of chilled, sweet white wine. Light was on edge and L had to hide a smile, knowing full well he was the cause of it.

Light smiled flatly. He was actually horny as hell and had been all day and L, the bastard, knew it. He had been for the last 3 damn days, actually!

He put the stirfry on a low simmer, deciding he and L would have some fun in the kitchen of a different kind before they ate because damn it he needed to fuck L's ass. 3 days was too long and the game they were playing with one another had him at breaking point. If it meant fucking L then he just might have to throw in the towel on this one (just this once…)

Perhaps the breaking point was knowing L had the audacity to deny him and then wear those tight, black jeans that did things to him.

“I was just expanding your knowledge” Light replied with a nonchalant shrug, watching from the corner of his eye as L poured them a glass of wine, “Do you know what Matsuda asked me today, L?”

L sighed and perched himself on a stool at the breakfast bar, “Do I want to know? It's Matsuda” L laughed, taking a small sip of wine.

Since he'd officially disbanded the Task Force and The Kira case, the Rookie cop had been keeping in touch with Light, something they both found amusing. They'd joked they'd adopted a pet Matsuda. 

“He asked did I feel, and I quote, ‘Kirary’ today?” Light scoffed, “He thinks since we told the Task Force Kira's powers transfers from person to person I might become Kira again and is keeping watch on my Kiraish tendencies”

L smiled blandly. “Fancy that. Well, Light, do you feel Kirary today?” he asked, eyes sparkling with amusement. 

They'd decided, mutually, to inform the Task Force that Light had been Kira and hadn't been in control of his actions since the power passed between people and took control of them. They'd used the Death Note to extract a confession from Higuchi before killing him.

With such ‘proof’ The NCPO had had no choice but to declare the Kira case unsolvable, even for L, and live with the fear of the supernatural power and judgement of multiple Kiras’s (even if in reality it was just Light Yagami all along)

“You know, L” Light smirked darkly, “I kind of do. I feel Kirary everyday, actually”

Ryuk groaned and turned a page in his magazine. Haunting Light and L certainly wasn't boring but sometimes he was really so done with their shit. Would it kill them to just be normal and stop playing their games for five damn minutes? The Shinigami realised that yes, probably, it would.

L snorted, “I suppose it's the whole killing people thing day in and day out that makes you a bit Kirary isn't it?” He asked, only partly teasing. It was still taking some adjusting. Of course, he'd looked the other way from things before and would never call himself a paragon of true unbiased justice, but Light's kill count was getting a bit out of hand now…L knew it was linked to sexual frustration. 

Light gave a small shrug and shot L a sultry smile, “Well, I've been feeling bored and we haven't had time to do much together lately with the caseloads we've been getting” Light crossed the kitchen to where L sat and took a sip of his own wine, “I suppose if I was distracted I could tone down my Kiraish tendencies” Light smiled at L slyly, “Can you think of any ways to distract me, L?”

L arched an eyebrow. He could think of several but the real question was was Light worthy of it? He'd been something of a tyrant the last few days, deliberately pretending (continuously) he wasn't paying attention to what L had said and it was a pet peeve of his and one of the few things that got under his skin.

In response, L had unleashed full fledged bratting and refused every kiss and touch Light tried to give him, was extra annoying and disruptive wherever possible. 

L knew exactly what he was doing, how to bring Light to his knees. Withholding sex or physical affection from Light was like starving a fire of oxygen and then suddenly opening a door. Light would blaze and burn up for him and he found he did rather enjoy the power he had in their relationship.

Light might think he was in charge considering he was a top and a Dominant but L knew that was very much not the case at all. Even if he ended up on his knees he would be in control, just as always - As now evidenced by Light's current state of sexual frustration caused by himself for his own amusement. 

“I suppose I could consider distracting you” L said slowly, “If you can think of a compelling argument as to why I should drape myself over the breakfast bar and let you fuck me?”

Ryuk groaned and pulled on a pair of headphones. He did not want to hear that. He settled in to watching a true crime podcast and soon found himself utterly engrossed, not paying attention to his annoying humans in the slightest.

They were bound to take it to the bedroom, surely. They wouldn't do the humping thing in the kitchen. Food was made there. Apples were stored in the fridge there!

Light's mouth went dry and he grabbed L, hands encircling his hips.

“If we don't have sex soon I am going to go insane. And you love my brain, so imagine me being insane? I'm Kira. An insane Kira just wouldn't be interesting would it? Plus, you know damn well I will make you come repeatedly and I will fuck you within an inch of your life…”

L smiled a little smugly. Light was pressing their hips together and he could feel how hard Light was…

“Hmm. That is pretty compelling” L leaned in and teased Light by brushing his lips across his, “Tell me I've won and I will get on my knees and suck that big dick of yours so hard” L leaned in and gently nipped at Light's fleshy lower lip in a deliberate tease. 

Light's eyelids flickered as arousal shot through him at the words. 

Still… conceding the win…

Was it worth conceding the game just this once?

L's smile was sly as he pressed their bodies again, chest to chest and cock to cock. “Is that a no?” He cooed, going in for the kill and tugging Light's head down by his hair to breathe into his ear, “That's a shame, Kami...” he bit down on the sensitive lobe

Hard.

Light gulped. Fuck it. He'd get L back later.

He grabbed L's head and glared at him hotly. “You win. I love you, you bastard and I need you. So shut up and get down on your knees now ”

L's smile was smug, “So glad you've seen sense and conceded, Darling” L purred, “You do that shit of pretending you wasn't listening again and you will go an entire week without getting your dick wet”

Light shuddered. There was no way L would do that to him. L liked the feeling of his cock up his ass too much to last that long. L needed his cock like he needed sugar. He was addicted to it.

“Knees” Light growled. 

L's eyes never left his as he sank gracefully to his knees, jagged, dark bangs obscuring his eyes. Light immediately reached out to sweep them aside and entangle his fingers in his hair.

“You're a bastard” Light hissed, one hand shakily undoing his flies to free his throbbing cock.

L had the audacity to tilt his head and raise an eyebrow at him, as if to say ‘Yes, and? ’

“I'm your bastard, Kami-Sama” L clarified as Light succeeded in pulling his very hard, very purple erection from the confines of his slacks.

Light's eyes gleamed red at that, a possessive, dark smile on his face. “Oh yes you are. Now open your mouth for Kira, you fucking slut ”

L's eyes sparkled in amusement. Oh he'd really pushed all of Light's buttons hadn't he? He opened his mouth, eyes flashing with challenge. 

‘Give me it as hard as you can, Kira’

Ryuk, blissfully unaware of proceedings, was engrossed as he sunk deeper into the true crime podcast. So enthralled was he, he completely missed Light Yagami hissing loudly and sinking deeper into L Lawliet’s mouth.

He snatched up another apple and frowned as he realised his bowl was empty. He'd finish his last apple and get more. Hopefully Light and L would have taken their shit to the bedroom by then. 

Light, as L had expected, was holding nothing back. His fingers dug into his skull as he rammed his mouth with forceful, unrelenting thrusts. 

L took every single one with ease, even if his eyes were watering. 

“God fucking damn” Light gasped, his head thrown back as he teetered on the edge of release already. He was pent up and the way L was taking every single lunge into his mouth and throat so perfectly was making his toes curl and his blood roar in his ears. He wasn't sure if he could bring himself to withdraw to make good on the promise of fucking L over the counter now. He'd have to do that later.

L seemed to know just how close to the edge Light was because he hummed, his dark eyes boring into Light's own as Light let out a strangled gasp, hips faltered and thrusts stuttering as the vibrations flung him over the edge.

L, obviously, couldn't smile but if he could he'd be grinning. Light was crying out, hips jerking and the sheer amount of come he was shooting down his throat was downright impressive. 

‘Wow, you really have been pent up, Light’ L thought, neatly swallowing every single spurt. 

Light was physically trembling as ur chased his ebbing orgasm, shaky hips giving a few weak thrusts as he finished. 

Light had died and gone to heaven. He had never come as ferociously hard or as fast as that. If that was the price of losing a game every now and then it was a price he was more than willing to pay. 

L closed his eyes in contentment as the gripping fingers suddenly became soft, petting through his hair. The growls of ‘whore’ and ‘slut’ became cooed whispers of adoration. Light was calling him his precious one, praising how good he'd been…

L drifted, mouth remained locked around the softening flesh in his mouth as Light's praise, Kira's praise made him melt... 

Light regained his breath and continued to pet L and indulge his cock-warming, eyes slipping closed in absolute bliss. This was one of the best parts of L's submissiveness and their dynamic. He adored it when L went off to that floaty place, eyes hazy and soft, and suckled gently at his cock he held so wonderfully in his mouth.

This was never a game. Light and L had too much respect for each other when it came to this. 

Light let out a soft sigh and closed his eyes. L could have him in his mouth as long as he liked, he wouldn't move until L did.

“Seriously? Right in front of my apples?” 

The shriek was enough to bring L back from bliss and he cracked open an eye to see Ryuk stomping his feet and gesturing wildly to the fruit bowl that was sat just to L's left.

Light raised an imperious eyebrow at the Shinigami, looking very much affronted that their cock-warming session had been interrupted.

“What?” Light asked blankly. So what he was standing in the kitchen with his cock in L's mouth. What was the big deal?

Ryuk stomped his foot again, “Right in front of my APPLES, Light?!" 

Despite being on his knees with a mouthful of cock, L managed to raise his eyes and share a look with Light. 

Light sighed and ran a hand through his hair. “Ryuk, can you not?” He asked, reaching and grabbing the basket of apples before shoving them at the Shinigami, “Here.Take them and make yourself scarce, L and I are busy"

Ryuk clutched the large basket to his chest protectively, bulbous eyes scanning his precious fruit in case any suspicious white, sticky fluid had sullied them.

They didn't deserve that!

L made a soft noise and sat back, releasing Light's cock from his mouth with a wet pop.

Light groaned, feeling himself twitch and begin to harden at the sultry look in L's hazy eyes. He knew they weren't quite finished yet. 

“Ryuk” L said, finally lifting his eyes to the aghast Shinigami. “If you don't want your apples witnessing any more obscene displays I suggest you rescue them and go somewhere else”

Ryuk gulped, clutched his apples tighter to his chest and fled.

Fuck those pair of bastards, he thought as he heard the moans and sighs start again from the kitchen. At first he'd thought it had been fun giving Yagami his notebook but ever since he and L had started-

“Ahh! Yes, Light, right there!”

-this, he'd found the fun and entertainment had been mixed up with frustration at their antics. They just never let up! 

“L! Fuck, take my cock, you slut, take it!”

Ryuk's wings drooped. There was nothing to be done. Even this was better than that shit hole Shinigami realm-

“Fuck me Harder, damn it, is that all you got, Kira?”

Barely…