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Shadows on the Trail

Summary:

At the age of fourteen, Josephine Harper fled her homestead, leaving behind a dark past and a trail of secrets in her wake. For two years, she survived alone in the unforgiving wilderness.

But fate had other plans for Jo when she crossed paths with the infamous Van der Linde gang. Saved from certain demise by Dutch Van der Linde and his band of outlaws, she found herself thrust into a world of danger, adventure and camaraderie.

Now, at twenty-eight, Josephine’s past comes back to haunt her, threatening to unravel the carefully constructed web of lies and half-truths she’s built to protect herself. As the gang rides again, old wounds are reopened, and Jo is forced to confront the demons she thought she had left behind.
In the midst of it all, she finds solace in the company of her longtime friend, Arthur Morgan. But as their bond deepens and feelings begin to blossom between them, Josephine is torn between her desire for honesty and the fear of losing the one person she’s ever truly cared for.

As the lines between loyalty and betrayal blur, Jo must navigate the treacherous waters of love and deception, knowing that the truth has the power to both destroy her and set her free.

Notes:

Hi ! Welcome again for yet another story. Sorry for those of you I kept waiting as I had announced this story months ago on Tumblr.

Usually I put a link with a playlist on Spotify, didn't made one this time but if you're interested don't hesitate to tell me and I'd make one !
Let's get on with the story then.

Chapter 1: The Past Comes Calling

Summary:

Josephine’s past haunts her as she and the gang escape a daring bank robbery. A familiar face resurfaces.

Chapter Text

The world had been unkind to Josephine Harper. From a young age, she'd learned to fend for herself, her heart a barren landscape scarred by neglect. She'd weathered storms of loneliness, her spirit battered but unbroken. Now, at the age of twenty-eight, she was a survivor, her eyes holding a depth of experience far beyond her years.

 

Before the Van der Linde gang, there was only the harsh reality of the open road. A mere sixteen when Dutch found her, she was a ghost haunting the edges of society, a shadow cast by misfortune. He offered her a flicker of warmth in the endless winter of her life.

 

Under their tutelage, she transformed from a frightened waif into a hardened survivor. She learned the language of steel, the rhythm of the horse beneath her, and the art of deception. Loyalty, a rare commodity in her world, blossomed for this unlikely family.

Years of riding, robbing, and running had forged her into the woman she was now. And now, Valentine was their next target.

 

Dawn was a bruised eye opening over Valentine, its sleepy indifference shattered by a deafening roar. The bank erupted in a spray of brick and smoke. Jo’s heart, a wild stallion, pounded in her chest. Beside her, Karen’s face was a mask of cold determination. Arthur, Bill, and Lenny were shadows moving with lethal grace. This was their symphony, chaos their conductor.

 

The town was a waking nightmare. Gunfire painted the air with crimson streaks, and fear was the only currency. Jo’s senses honed in. The crackle of flames, the thud of boots, the sharp intake of breath – a cacophony of survival. Arthur’s voice, a whip cracking through the storm, urged them forward.

They stormed the bank, a tide against the fortress. Bullets kissed the walls, a frantic ballet of defiance. Inside, the world was a panicked carnival. People, like frightened deer, collided with furniture. Jo, a predator in this chaos, moved with a cold efficiency. The safe yielded to her touch, its secrets unlocked by practiced fingers. Karen, her guardian angel, watched their backs, her eyes twin hawks scanning the shadows.

 

The first wave of lawmen hit Valentine like a tidal wave. Their shouts were swallowed by the thunder of gunfire, but their desperate urgency was clear in the way they fumbled for cover. The air crackled with the electricity of fear, and the smell of cordite hung heavy.

Lenny, a coiled spring of tension, found his rhythm. The sharp crack-crack of his rifle echoed through the chaos as he picked off lawmen with chilling efficiency. Each hit was a domino, sending the remaining officers into a frenzy of panic. "Keep ‘em off us, Lenny!” Arthur yelled over the din, his voice a gritty command.

"You got it, Arthur!" Lenny replied, his focus unwavering.

Arthur and Bill stood back-to-back, their bodies weaving and dodging through the hail of bullets. “Watch your six!” Arthur barked, his eyes scanning the crowd for new threats. Bill nodded, his face a mask of grim determination.

 

Inside the bank, Jo and Karen worked like a well-oiled machine. Bags filled with stolen cash bulged under their arms. "We're almost done here!" Karen shouted, her voice strained. Jo nodded, her hands moving with a blur of speed. A bullet shattered the glass counter in front of them, sending shards flying. "Damn it!" Karen cursed, her eyes darting around the room.

The standoff was a deadly dance. The air was thick with the smell of gunpowder and fear. Arthur's voice cut through the chaos. "We hold 'em off a little longer, we're golden!"

"Easier said than done," Bill replied, his breath coming in ragged gasps.

Suddenly, a voice boomed over the chaos. "This is the law! You're surrounded! Surrender now!"

Karen's jaw clenched. "Surrender? And give up all this pretty paper?" she scoffed, her voice dripping with sarcasm. Jo grinned, a spark of defiance in her eyes. "Not a chance in hell," she replied as her grip tightened on her revolver and she moved back toward the main room of the bank. She positioned herself beside Arthur, her back pressed against his as they faced the oncoming threat together.

 

The lawmen burst through the shattered entrance like a hungry pack. Their faces were a grim mask of determination, but their eyes held a flicker of fear. Arthur and the gang met their charge with a wall of steel. Guns roared, and the air crackled with the energy of life and death.

Jo and Arthur fought side by side, their movements a deadly ballet of instinct and training. Bullets whizzed past, kicking up chips of plaster. "Watch your back!" Arthur shouted, his voice barely audible over the din. Jo nodded, her eyes locked onto a target. The crack of her revolver echoed in the chaos.

"Nice shot!" Arthur yelled, a grin splitting his face. For a brief moment, the world narrowed to just the two of them, a deadly partnership against overwhelming odds.

Karen held the line at the entrance, her figure a defiant statue amidst the storm. Each shot was a controlled explosion, sending lawmen reeling. "Don't let 'em in!" she shouted, her voice a battle cry.

The gang fought as one, a brotherhood forged in fire. Their trust was as solid as the bank's walls. Lenny's rifle cracked like thunder, while Bill's knife flashed with deadly precision.

As the last echoes of gunfire faded, a heavy silence descended. The bank was a graveyard of fallen men, and the gang stood victorious. Their breaths came in ragged gasps, but their eyes burned with adrenaline.

Arthur grinned, a wolfish satisfaction in his eyes. "We did it, boys and girls," he said, his voice thick with pride. "Time to hit the road."

With bags bulging with stolen wealth, the gang poured out of the bank. The fresh air was a sweet relief, and the sunlight felt like a warm embrace. Horses were saddled and ready, their breath misting in the cold morning air.

 

"Well, would you look at that," Bill Williamson remarked, a satisfied grin spreading across his face as he surveyed the scene before them. "Easy money, indeed."

Arthur nodded, a rare smile tugging at his lips. "We earned it," he replied, his eyes scanning the town one last time.

Karen pulled down her neckerchief, revealing a face flushed with adrenaline. "Hell of a morning's work," she said, her voice hoarse with excitement. Jo simply nodded in agreement, her focus already on their escape.

The gang erupted from Valentine, a cloud of dust billowing behind them. Their horses, eager to leave the chaos behind, surged forward. Arthur, mounted on his sleek, reverse-dapple black thoroughbred, Atlas, led the way. Bill's sorrel, Brown Jack, matched his rider's boisterous spirit. Karen's sturdy Nokota, Old Belle, carried her with surefooted grace. Lenny's smaller, agile Maggie kept pace effortlessly. And Jo, astride her reliable palomino Quarter Horse, Daisy, brought up the rear.

As they rode, the wind whipped through their hair, carrying the scent of gunpowder and fear. Arthur glanced back at the town, a flicker of concern in his eyes. "Keep your eyes peeled," he warned, his voice cutting through the wind. The others nodded, their attention focused on the road ahead.

Jo, her gaze sharp, scanned their surroundings for any potential threats. "You got it, cowboy," she replied, her voice steady despite the adrenaline coursing through her veins.

 

Arthur led the gang on a winding path, avoiding the main roads. His eyes scanned the horizon for any sign of pursuit, a constant tension in his shoulders. The others followed, their own senses on high alert.

After what felt like hours, Arthur raised a hand, signaling a halt. The gang reined in their horses, breathing heavily from the exertion. "We'll split up here," Arthur announced, his voice low and clear. He divided the spoils, a methodical efficiency in his movements. A portion was set aside for the camp, the rest divided evenly among the gang.

"Bill, Karen, you take the west. Lenny, head east. Jo, you stay with me. We'll circle back to camp," he ordered.

Murmurs of agreement rippled through the group. With a final glance at each other, they spurred their horses in different directions. Dust kicked up in their wake as they disappeared into the vast expanse of the wilderness.

 

As the others vanished into the distance, a comfortable silence settled between Arthur and Jo. The setting sun cast long shadows, stretching across the prairie like an artist’s brushstroke. Arthur's gaze lingered on Jo for a moment, a complex emotion flickering in his eyes.

"Actually," Arthur began, his voice low but resolute, "we ain't going back to camp just yet."

Jo raised an eyebrow, a mischievous glint dancing in her eyes. "Oh? Planning on a detour to rob another bank?" she snorted, a playful smirk playing on her lips.

Arthur chuckled, shaking his head at her jest. "Not this time, Trouble," he replied, his tone indulgent. "Got some unfinished business to take care of at the Downes Ranch."

Jo's smirk widened into a forced grin, her eyes flickering with irritation rather than amusement. "Ah, so we're playing debt collector now, are we?" she quipped, her tone light but edged with a hint of annoyance and begrudging acceptance.

Arthur nodded, a wry smile tugging at the corners of his lips. "Seems that way," he replied, his gaze flickering towards the horizon. "Come on, let's go."

“I hate those…” With a playful roll of her eyes, Jo spurred her horse forward, falling into step beside Arthur as they set off towards the Downes Ranch. As they rode, the tension from the heist began to dissipate, replaced by a casual camaraderie. They exchanged lighthearted banter, their laughter echoing across the open plain. For a brief moment, it was easy to forget the dangers that lurked just beyond the horizon.

 


 

The Downes ranch was a sorry sight, a crumbling testament to neglect. A chill ran down Jo's spine as they dismounted, a sense of foreboding settling over her.

Arthur knocked on the weathered door, his knuckles echoing in the still afternoon. Silence greeted them, a heavy, oppressive silence. He knocked again, louder this time. Still, nothing.

Jo's gaze scanned the deserted property. A shiver ran down her spine. "Something's not right," she murmured, her voice barely audible.

Arthur nodded, his face etched with concern. "Let's check the barn," he suggested, his voice low.

As they rounded the corner of the house, two riders appeared on the horizon. Their figures were dark silhouettes against the setting sun, but their approach was swift and determined.

Jo’s heart pounded in her ears. Her hand instinctively reached for the revolver at her hip. "We've got company," she said, her voice barely a whisper.

Arthur's eyes narrowed as he assessed the approaching riders. One was larger, his posture that of a seasoned fighter. The other was smaller, but there was a dangerous edge to his movements. "Bounty hunters," Arthur muttered, his fist clenching.

 

Before they could react, the bounty hunters spurred their horses forward, closing the distance with alarming speed. Arthur and Jo exchanged a tense glance, knowing they had no choice but to flee.

“Let’s move!” Arthur’s voice was low but urgent as he swung onto Atlas’ back.

Jo didn’t need to be told twice. Her heart pounded as she leapt onto Daisy, and they both kicked their horses into a full gallop, leaving a cloud of dust in their wake. The bounty hunters were close behind, their shouts slicing through the stillness of the evening.

Hooves pounded against the dry earth, the sound a relentless drumbeat in Jo’s ears. The open plain stretched out before them, but the bounty hunters were relentless, their pursuit narrowing the gap with every stride. Wind whipped across Jo’s face, stinging her eyes, while her long, blonde hair escaped her deep brown cowboy hat, thrashing wildly in the wind.

 

The bounty hunters were gaining on them, their relentless pursuit a growing menace. Arthur's face was a mask of grim determination, his eyes fixed on the horizon. Jo's heart pounded in her chest, a mix of fear and adrenaline fueling her every move.

A quick glance over her shoulder made Jo’s heart skip. The smaller bounty hunter—there was something unsettlingly familiar about him, but before she could place it, Arthur’s voice cut through her thoughts.

"We can't outrun them forever," Arthur shouted, his voice barely audible over the wind.

Jo nodded, her breath coming in ragged gasps. She scanned the landscape, searching for a way out. A narrow ravine appeared in the distance, a glimmer of hope in the desperate situation.

Without hesitation, she urged Daisy towards the ravine. The ground beneath them turned rocky and uneven, but Jo’s skill as a rider kept them steady. Arthur followed, his horse's hooves pounding against the unforgiving terrain.

 

The bounty hunters were right behind them, their shouts echoing through the ravine. The rocky walls seemed to close in, amplifying the chaos. Jo's blood pounded in her ears, but she refused to give in to fear. She focused on Daisy, her faithful companion, and the narrow path ahead.

As they plunged deeper into the ravine, the bounty hunters' progress slowed. Their horses struggled with the uneven ground, giving Jo and Arthur a precious advantage. A surge of adrenaline coursed through Jo's veins. "We're losin’em!" she shouted, her voice filled with triumph.

Just as they seemed to be gaining ground, a gunshot rang out. A bullet whizzed past Jo's head, kicking up dust in its wake. She ducked instinctively, her heart pounding in her chest.

"You okay?" Arthur shouted, his voice filled with concern.

Jo nodded, her hands trembling slightly. She glanced back at the bounty hunters, her eyes narrowing. The smaller one was aiming again.

With a quick movement, Jo drew her revolver. She took aim and fired, the shot echoing through the ravine. She was unstoppable, a force of nature in her own right, and nothing would stand in their way. The bounty hunter's horse reared, throwing him off balance. Jo and Arthur seized the opportunity, urging their horses forward, putting as much distance as possible between them and their pursuers.

 

The ravine opened up into a small clearing, bathed in the golden light of the setting sun. They pulled their horses to a halt, breathing heavily. The sound of the bounty hunters' pursuit faded into the distance.

"We lost them," Arthur said, relief washing over his face.

Jo nodded, her heart still pounding. She slid off Daisy and collapsed onto the soft grass, her legs trembling. Arthur joined her, his arm around her shoulders in a comforting gesture.

"You did good out there," he said, his voice gentle.

Jo managed a weak smile. "Thanks," she replied, her voice barely a whisper.

 

They sat in silence for a few moments, the only sound the gentle rustling of the wind through the grass. The sun was beginning to set, casting long shadows across the land.

 

"We should get goin’," Arthur said finally, breaking the silence. "It's getting late."

Jo nodded, standing up and brushing the dirt off her clothes. They mounted their horses and rode on, the setting sun casting a warm glow on their faces.

The wind carried the faint scent of pine, a welcome change from the acrid smell of gunpowder. Jo glanced at Arthur, his profile etched against the fading light. There was a quiet determination in his eyes, a contrast to the recklessness she'd seen earlier.

 

"We should be getting close to camp," she said, breaking the silence.

Arthur nodded, his gaze scanning the horizon. "Yeah, not too much further."

As they rode, the weight of the day began to settle over them. The adrenaline rush from the chase had faded, replaced by a sense of exhaustion. Jo's muscles ached, and her hands were stiff from gripping the reins.

 

Finally, the familiar sight of Clemens Point came into view. Smoke curled lazily from the campfires, and the sounds of laughter and conversation carried on the wind. A wave of relief washed over Jo as they rode into the clearing.

The camp was a bustling hive of activity. Hosea sat near the campfire, his weathered face illuminated by the dancing flames as he mended a worn leather glove. Beside him, Charles was sharpening his hunting knife, the rhythmic strokes of the whetstone a soothing counterpoint to the crackling fire.

Across the camp, Lenny and Sean were engaged in a heated game of poker, their faces a mask of concentration. A half-empty bottle of whiskey sat between them, a testament to their competitive spirit.

Karen, Tilly and Mary-Beth were gathered around a makeshift washbasin, their laughter as clear as the running water. Abigail sat nearby, her attention divided between her infant son, Jack, and a half-finished quilt.

Javier was strumming his guitar, his fingers dancing across the strings. His soulful melody filled the air, a comforting counterpoint to the day's chaos.

Kieran tended to the horses, his gentle hands soothing the animals as he murmured soft words of comfort to them.

 

As Arthur and Jo rode into camp, everyone's eyes turned towards them. A chorus of greetings erupted, breaking the peaceful ambiance.

"Welcome back, you two!" Hosea called out, his voice filled with relief. "We were starting to worry."

"We're fine, Hosea," Arthur replied, dismounting his horse. "Just a little excitement on the way back."

Jo nodded, handing the reins to Kieran. Not many trusted him, while they had their own reasons as to why, Jo entrusted him well enough to take care of her horse. She stretched her arms, feeling the tension in her muscles begin to ease.

"You look like you could use a hot meal," Mary-Beth said, her eyes filled with concern. "I'll get you something to eat."

"Thanks, Mary-Beth," Jo replied gratefully.

 

As they settled around the campfire, the gang shared stories and laughter. John recounted a humorous tale about a run-in with a particularly stubborn grizzly bear, while Dutch reminisced about his younger days as a prospector.

Jo and Arthur listened, their weariness slowly melting away. The warmth of the campfire and the camaraderie of their friends created a sense of peace and belonging.

The night deepened, the warmth of the campfire and the camaraderie of her friends filled Jo with a rare sense of peace. Yet, a nagging emptiness gnawed at her. She longed for something more than just the warmth of the fire.

With a quiet sigh, Jo excused herself, heading towards the supply wagon. She grabbed a beer, the cool metal a welcome contrast to the heat of the day. The soft crunch of gravel beneath her boots was a soothing rhythm as she wandered towards the edge of camp.

 

Daisy lingered by a nearby tree, her head lowered, munching on hay. Jo approached her gently, running a hand along the horse's soft mane. The familiar scent of leather and horse mingled with the cool night air, grounding her amidst the lingering adrenaline of the day's events.

Lost in thought, she didn't notice Hosea approaching until his voice broke through her reverie. "You're awful quiet tonight, dear," he said, his voice carrying a gentle concern.

Jo turned to face him, taking a sip of her beer. "Just thinkin’," she replied, her voice vague.

"Something on your mind?" Hosea pressed gently.

Jo hesitated, "I dunno, Hosea." She confessed, her voice low. "There were those bounty hunters after us today... and that—I swear I recognized one of 'em but can't say from damnit where..."

Hosea nodded understandingly. "Sometimes our minds play tricks on us, especially in high-stress situations," he said. "But if you think there's more to it, we should keep our eyes open. Can't hurt to be a little extra cautious."

Jo appreciated his concern. "Thanks, Hosea," she said, her voice filled with gratitude.

They stood in companionable silence for a moment, the only sound the soft rustle of the trees and the distant murmur of the camp.

With a final pat on Daisy’s neck, Jo straightened up, a sense of calm washing over her. “Guess I should try to get some rest. Tomorrow’s another day, after all,” she said, her voice a soft counterpoint to the crackling campfire.

Hosea nodded, his expression warm and understanding. “Good idea, Jo. Sleep well.”

 

As she retreated to her tent, the tranquility of the camp seemed to amplify the turmoil within her. The canvas walls closed in, and the night's silence pressed against her ears. For a moment, Hosea’s words offered a comforting shield, but they were quickly overwhelmed by the relentless replay of the day’s events.

 

The camaraderie around the campfire, the shared laughter - it all felt like a distant memory now. In their place was a cold dread, a gnawing uncertainty. The image of the bounty hunter, a faceless specter, haunted her thoughts. Who was he? What did he want? The questions echoed in the darkness, relentless and unanswered.

 

Fear nibbled at the edges of her courage. The safety of the camp, once a comforting cocoon, now felt like a fragile illusion. She was a lone wolf, trapped in a pack, her past threatening to shatter the fragile peace.

 

Chapter 2: A Dangerous Game

Summary:

Arthur and Josephine successfully pull off a daring heist, their adrenaline-fueled escape leading them to a local saloon for a well-deserved celebration.

Chapter Text

The first light of dawn seeped into Arthur's tent, painting the canvas in soft hues of pink and gold. He stretched, groaning as his muscles protested the unfamiliar comfort of a mattress. Swinging his legs over the side, he pulled on his boots and stepped out into the cool morning air.

The camp was stirring, a lazy hum of morning activity beginning to replace the quietude of night. Smoke curled lazily from the campfire, mingling with the crisp morning air. Arthur ran a hand through his thick beard, the coarse stubble scratching his jaw. He poured himself a much-needed cup of coffee, the bitter aroma a welcome contrast to the sweet morning light.

 

Lenny and Bill, their eyes still heavy with sleep, were on guard duty, their silhouettes sharp against the rising sun. Hosea sat at a nearby table, his intense gaze focused on the pages of his journal. A flicker of concern crossed his face as he glanced up, his eyes lingering on Arthur for a moment before returning to the page. Dutch was nearby, a plume of smoke curling from his expensive cigar, his eyes closed in apparent relaxation.

And then there was Jo. She was already on her feet, her movements efficient as she carried a sack of supplies towards Pearson's wagon. Her face, pale in the morning light, bore the marks of a restless night. Despite the shadows under her eyes, she was undeniably beautiful, a wildflower blooming against the harsh backdrop of their lives.

Arthur paused, his gaze lingering on Jo, her face etched with lines of fatigue. He'd known her for years, had seen her grow from a scared young girl into a hardened survivor. He'd watched her endure the harsh realities of their life together, the constant danger, the uncertainty.

He filled a tin cup with coffee, the dark liquid steaming in the cool morning air. 

A flicker of guilt passed through him. Though it wasn't his decision to bring her into the gang, he felt a sense of responsibility for her well-being. Had they done the right thing by letting her join them? Was he protecting her, or leading her further into harm's way?

He walked up to her and handed her the coffee, his fingers lingering on the rim of the cup. "Troubled sleep?" he asked, his voice barely a whisper.

Jo nodded, her gaze fixed on the ground.

Arthur wanted to ask her what was wrong, to offer comfort and support. But he knew she wasn't ready to talk. He'd learned that over the years. Sometimes, the best thing to do was to be there, quietly, offering a listening ear without demanding answers.

He watched her take a sip of coffee, her eyes closed in a moment of respite. “What gave me away?” she asks, a hint of a smile playing on her lips.

Arthur grinned. “Yer early delightful personality,” he teased, but his eyes held a genuine concern. 

Jo forced a laugh, the sound brittle in the morning air. "Very funny," she retorted, her gaze darting away.

Arthur's eyes held hers for a moment longer, a silent question in his gaze. "So?" he prompted, his voice low.

She took a deep breath, the tension in her shoulders evident. "Yeah, troubled sleep. You could say that," she replied, the words a mere whisper against the morning sounds.

Arthur studied her for a moment, his brows knitting together. "Wanna talk about it?" he asked, his voice gentle yet probing.

Jo shook her head, a small, tight smile on her lips. "Not much to say," she replied, her tone flat, though Arthur could sense the weight of unspoken thoughts behind her words.

He nodded, deciding not to push further. "Well, drink up. Day's only gonna get tougher from here," he said, a hint of humor in his voice, though his eyes never left her face.

Jo took a sip of the coffee, the warmth of it seeping into her, grounding her in the moment. "Thanks, Arthur," she said, her voice softening. She appreciated his concern, even if she wasn’t ready to share what had kept her awake. She glanced around the camp, the familiar sights and sounds of their morning routine providing a small measure of comfort.

 

As they stood there, the camp continued to come alive. Pearson was already grumbling about the state of his supplies, fussing over his cooking pot as he prepared breakfast for the gang. Sean and Karen stumbled out of their respective tents, Sean rubbing his eyes and muttering about needing a proper Irish breakfast while Karen shot him an amused look.

"Morning, Arthur. Jo," Hosea called from his spot at the table, closing his journal and standing up to join them. "You both look like you could use a bit more sleep."

Arthur chuckled, but Jo simply shrugged. "Guess we can sleep when we’re dead," she said with a half-hearted smirk.

"Let’s hope that’s not anytime soon," Hosea replied with a wink, though his eyes flicked to Arthur, as if asking him to keep an eye on her.

 

Dutch, having finished his cigar, approached with his usual air of confidence. "We’ve got a busy day ahead, folks. Rhodes isn’t too far, and I expect everyone to be on their best behavior when we head into town later." His gaze swept over the group, landing briefly on Jo, who gave a nod in acknowledgment.

As Dutch walked away to confer with Hosea, Arthur turned back to Jo. "You sure you're alright?"

Jo sighed, the weight of her sleepless night still pressing on her. "I'll be fine, Arthur," she said, trying to sound convincing. "I just need to keep busy."

Arthur gave her a long look, clearly not entirely convinced, but he knew better than to push her when she wasn’t ready to talk. Instead, he shifted gears. "Well, in that case, why don't we take a look at the lead I got from Trelawny?"

Jo raised an eyebrow, curiosity piqued. "What’s it about?"

Arthur reached into his satchel, pulling out a folded piece of paper. "Got a letter from him the other day. Says there’s a place near Van Horn, some big house that’s supposed to be empty for the moment. Could be worth our while."

Jo took the paper from him, unfolding it to scan Trelawny’s neat handwriting. "A big house, huh? Sounds like it could be a good haul. What’s the catch?"

Arthur shrugged, taking another sip of his coffee. "Trelawny didn’t mention one, but with him, there’s always something he’s not saying. Figure we go have a look, see if it’s worth our time."

Jo nodded, her mind already starting to work through the possibilities. A robbery like that could bring in a decent score, enough to help keep the camp running smoothly for a while. It would also give her something to focus on, something to keep her mind off the unease that had settled in her gut. "Alright," she said, folding the paper and handing it back to Arthur. "Let’s check it out. When do you wanna head out?"

“Figured we could leave now if you're ready. It's a long way from here to Van Horn, even if we head out now, we'd probably get there around the end of the day. We’d likely spend the night there and head back tomorrow," Arthur replied, tucking the paper back into his satchel.

Jo nodded again, feeling a slight spark of excitement. This was what she needed—a distraction, something to throw herself into. 

"Sounds good to me. I’ll get my things ready."

Arthur gave her a small smile, relieved to see a bit of her usual spark returning. "Good. I’ll meet you by the horses in a bit."

 


 

The sun was sinking low on the horizon by the time Arthur and Jo neared Van Horn. The sky had turned a dusky shade of purple, streaked with fiery reds and oranges, as the last light of day began to fade. The air was cooler now, carrying with it the faint scent of the sea from the nearby coast, and the distant sounds of waves crashing against the shore mingled with the rustle of leaves in the evening breeze.

Their horses, Atlas and Daisy, moved at a steady pace, their hooves crunching softly on the dirt road. Arthur led the way, his eyes scanning the terrain ahead, while Jo kept a watchful eye on their surroundings, the tension from earlier still lingering in the back of her mind.

As they crested a small hill, Van Horn came into view—a collection of weathered buildings huddled together near the coast, the town’s lighthouse casting a faint glow in the growing darkness. The house Trelawny had mentioned was just outside of town, a sprawling structure partially hidden by trees, its silhouette barely visible against the darkening sky.

 

Arthur pulled Atlas to a halt, motioning for Jo to do the same. "There it is," he said quietly, nodding towards the distant house. "Doesn’t look like there’s anyone home, but we’ll need to get closer to be sure."

Jo squinted at the house, her sharp eyes picking out the details in the fading light. "Looks abandoned enough," she agreed, though her hand instinctively drifted to the revolver at her hip. "But let’s not take any chances."

Arthur nodded, his expression serious. "We’ll tie the horses up here and approach on foot. If things look clear, we’ll make our move. If not…"

"We’ll deal with it," Jo finished, a determined edge in her voice.

Arthur gave her a small, approving nod. "Exactly. Let’s get this done."

They dismounted quietly, leading their horses to a cluster of trees where they could tether them out of sight. The two moved with practiced efficiency, their footsteps barely making a sound as they began their careful approach towards the house, the thrill of the impending heist sharpening their senses.

 

The house was massive, its dark silhouette looming against the twilight sky as Arthur and Jo approached. Despite the quiet, it was clear that this was no abandoned property. The grounds were well-kept, with a few lanterns left burning near the front porch, casting a warm, inviting glow. The grandeur of the place was undeniable, even in the fading light. The sounds of the town faded into the background, leaving only the soft rustling of leaves and the occasional call of a night bird.

“Place like this… ain’t exactly what I expected,” Jo murmured, her voice low. She eyed the house with a mix of suspicion and intrigue. “Trelawny might’ve left out a few details.”

Arthur grunted in agreement. “Wouldn’t be the first time. But if it’s empty like he said, we might just be in for a good haul. We’ll have to be quick, though. No telling when the owners might come back.”

 

He tried the front door, and to their surprise, it creaked open easily. They exchanged a glance, then stepped inside, moving cautiously through the entryway. The interior was just as grand as the exterior, with high ceilings and polished wood floors. A large chandelier hung overhead, its crystals glinting faintly in the dim light.

 

As Jo entered the house, a strange sense of familiarity settled over her. The grand staircase, the high ceilings, the ornate moldings—it all reminded her, unsettlingly, of her childhood home. The same dark wood paneling lined the walls, and the large, arched windows let in the fading evening light just as she remembered. It was eerie, like stepping back into a memory she had long tried to forget. 

She remembered the night her father had come home drunk, his anger a storm that had raged through the house. She had hidden in the library, her heart pounding with fear as she listened to the screams and the shattering of glass.

A shiver ran down her spine as she moved through the house, the familiarity of it all casting a shadow over her thoughts. It was as if the house itself was watching her, judging her, reminding her of who she used to be and who she was now. She shook her head, trying to push the memories aside, but they clung to her, whispering in the corners of her mind.

The resemblance was too strong to ignore, and it made her feel uneasy, as though the house was some kind of trap, pulling her back into a past she had no intention of revisiting. The same kind of old, heavy silence hung in the air, the same kind that had filled her childhood home after her parents had been done arguing—when the house had felt more like a cage than a home.

The weight of it pressed down on her chest, making it hard to breathe for a moment. But she wasn’t the person she used to be. Not anymore.

She shook her head sharply, as if to clear away the ghosts of her past, and forced a smirk onto her lips. “Fancy place,” Jo muttered, her eyes scanning the opulent surroundings. “Rich folk never seem to know what to do with all their money.”

Arthur chuckled under his breath. “Guess that’s where we come in.”

 

They split up to cover more ground, agreeing to meet back in the entryway if either of them found anything worth taking. Jo moved down a hallway to the left, her footsteps muffled by the plush carpet underfoot. The first room she entered appeared to be a library, the walls lined with shelves full of leather-bound books. A quick glance around told her there was nothing of immediate value—just a few ornate bookends and a dusty globe that looked like it hadn’t been touched in years.

Moving on, she came to what seemed to be a study. The desk was cluttered with papers, and a large map of the region hung on the wall behind it. She rifled through the drawers, finding little more than stationery and some old letters. Her frustration grew with each passing minute—so far, this place was all show and no substance.

 

Arthur, meanwhile, was making his way through a series of interconnected rooms on the other side of the house. He found a formal dining room, complete with a long, polished table and a set of fine china displayed in a glass cabinet. A quick inspection revealed little of interest, though he pocketed a silver candlestick for good measure.

He scaled the excessively extravagant staircase to the landing. At the top, he noted five doors to choose from and, knowing that there wasn’t much time to consider his options, got to searching through them as quickly and quietly as possible. He grabbed whatever he could — trinkets on shelves, bottles of unopened bourbon and rum, loose change, money clips, jewelry — and stuffed it into the bag he carried over his shoulder. In a room he assumed to be an office, he searched through the desk drawers and found some more money, along with bonds in relation to livestock and a couple of business related letters. He noted details they could use for possible future robbers if needs be, and found himself grinning at the possibilities. They had really struck gold with this lead.

After going through a study, a fancy bathroom, and a bedroom, he eventually arrived at the master bedroom. He worked his way through the cozy room, going through drawers, wardrobes, and cupboards in search of anything useful. An extensive jewelry collection had him grinning like a moron, as well as a number of Cuban cigars. 

 

Jo’s search took her into what looked like a parlor. A large, ornate cabinet caught her eye, and she couldn’t resist the urge to see what was inside. The doors swung open to reveal rows of bottles, each filled with amber liquid that glowed in the dim light. Jo grinned, recognizing the labels on some of the finer spirits. “Well, well,” she murmured, pulling out a bottle of what appeared to be aged whiskey. “At least these folks have good taste.”

A sudden noise made her jump. She spun around, the bottle nearly slipping from her grasp. There, in the doorway, stood Arthur, a smirk playing on his lips. “Well, don’t tell Karen or McGuire that,” he joked. “Or we’ll never get to taste it ourselves.”

"You scared the life outta me!" she exclaimed, her hand flying to her chest.

"Sorry ‘bout that," he chuckled, "didn't mean to startle you." He stepped into the room, his eyes scanning the cabinet. "Nice haul, there."

There was a short silence between them before she spoke, though her tone had shifted slightly from its previously jesting manner. “I, eh… meant t’say to you. Thanks for askin’ me to come along on this job.” As she spoke, a wave of relief washed over her. She had been feeling so lost and alone lately, and this heist had given her a sense of purpose. It was a distraction, a way to escape from her own thoughts. And now, she was starting to realize that she wasn't alone. She had friends, people who cared about her.

He turned his attention away from the cabinet he was ransacking to look at her. She had her eyes fixed on a fancy painting before she met his gaze.

“Don’t mention it,” he replied. “I knew you’d be a helpful set of hands for it.” He gave her his best attempt at a smile and went back to searching in the other piece of furniture he had yet to empty. Though he felt her eyes on him, he kept busy, cursing himself for being so awkward when it came to conversing with women in most regards. He hoped he at least hadn’t made himself look like a fool. Really he just hoped that she did feel a bit better.

 

Having cleared the room, they quickly headed down the stairs with their bags weighing heavily on their shoulders. 

Just as they reached the bottom step, a sharp creak echoed through the house. Their hearts pounded in their chests as they exchanged a panicked glance. 

Awh shit —!” Before Arthur could comprehend any plan of action, the front door rattled as a key announced the return of the house’s occupants.

They were currently standing in the center of the front hall, completely out in the open and resembling sitting ducks.

 

Without warning he grabbed Jo by the arm and pulled her into the darkened corner beneath the staircase. He found himself shielding her frame as she was pressed into the wall, and a look of surprise covering her face. At that moment, the door opened with an ominous creak. She looked up at him with wide eyes, but he merely placed a finger on his own lips. Choosing not to risk having a peak just yet in case it compromised them, Arthur placed his hands on the wall either side of her as they squeezed themselves into the safety of the darkness.

Jo found herself pressed tightly against Arthur, their bodies barely fitting in the cramped space. She could feel his breath against her hair, the warmth of his chest against her back. Her heart pounded in her chest, both from the close call and the unexpected proximity. She could feel every inch of him, his presence overwhelming in the confined space. A wave of fear washed over her, but she forced herself to stay calm. She knew that if she panicked, it would only make things worse.

Footsteps sounded on the wooden flooring and Arthur used them to judge just how near or far the man was. 

Arthur’s hand rested lightly on her waist, his grip firm but not uncomfortable. “Stay quiet,” he whispered, his breath hot against her ear. The sound of his voice sent a shiver down her spine, and she nodded, too aware of how close they were.

The voices outside grew louder as the owners moved through the house, their footsteps echoing in the silence. Jo held her breath, praying they wouldn’t come into the parlor. The air in the wardrobe was stifling with the scent of old wood mingling with the faint smell of Arthur’s leather coat. 

 

After what felt like an eternity, the voices began to fade as the owners moved deeper into the house. Arthur’s grip on her waist relaxed slightly, but he didn’t let go. Jo felt a strange mix of relief and tension, unsure whether she wanted to move or stay right where she was.

Finally, Arthur leaned closer, his lips brushing against her ear as he whispered, “They’re headed upstairs. We’ll make a break for it as soon as they’re out of earshot.”

Jo nodded again, her mind racing. Every inch of her body was hyper-aware of his presence, the way they were pressed together in the darkness. She could hear his heartbeat, steady and strong, and for a moment, she wondered if he could feel hers, too.

They waited in tense silence until the sound of footsteps faded completely. Arthur took a step back from her and heaved out a relieved sigh, just as she did the same. He attempted to clear a lump that had formed in his throat, hyper aware that he just all but shoved a young lady — his friend no less — into a dark corner in an unfamiliar house and forced his way into her personal space. He probably made her severely uncomfortable in the brief moment that the husband had returned. They didn’t speak, didn’t dare make a sound as they slipped out into the night and hurried to where their horses were tied.

 

As soon as they were safely outside, Jo let out a breath she hadn’t realized she’d been holding. “That was close,” she mused, glancing back at the house. “We would’ve been done for if you hadn’t’ve pulled us under here.”

He was quick to wave off her thanks. “I think we’re in the clear now at least. Sorry for uh, manhandlin’ you.”

She let out an amused chuckle at his apology, causing him to frown. “You’re grand. If you hadn’t manhandled me, we’d probably be fleein’ from the law right now. I’d rather you did it again instead of leavin’ me to get caught.”

“Okay. Just wanted to make sure.”

She placed a gentle hand on his bicep and gave it a reassuring squeeze before releasing him again. “For future reference, I’d much rather you reef me under a staircase than leave me to fend off some rich bloke who has an unhealthy obsession with overpriced gin.”

He chuckled awkwardly and fixed his eyes on his boots. “Duly noted, Trouble.”

Arthur mounted Atlas, his movements smooth and practiced. “Let’s get out of here before they realize what’s missing.” 

Jo nodded, swinging up onto Daisy. Her heart was still racing, and she wasn’t sure if it was from the close call or the way Arthur had held her in that wardrobe. Either way, she pushed the thought aside, focusing instead on the need to get far away from this place.

Arthur breathed in deep as they left the uneasy atmosphere in the house behind. The cool air filled his lungs, relaxing his heart that was still beating irregularly after their close encounter.

Close in every sense of the word.

 


 

As they rode into Van Horn, the dimly lit town was quiet, with only the distant murmur of voices and the occasional bark of a dog breaking the silence. They made their way to the saloon, a weathered building with a flickering sign that barely illuminated the entrance.

 

Inside, the saloon was alive with the low hum of conversation, the clinking of glasses, and the soft strains of a piano. It was busy with poker players, raucous buddies, and working girls. The scent of tobacco smoke and spilled beer hung heavy in the air. Arthur and Jo found a table in the corner, away from prying eyes but close enough to the bar to catch the attention of the barkeep.

Arthur signaled for two drinks, and the barkeep nodded, quickly pouring two shots of whiskey before bringing them over along with two steaming bowls of stew. The food was simple, but after the adrenaline of the night, it was just what they needed.

Arthur lifted his glass, a rare grin spreading across his face. "To a job well done and another day above ground."

Jo clinked her glass against his, a smirk tugging at her lips. "And to those poor folks whose bad timing kept things interesting."

Arthur chuckled, the sound deep and genuine. "Wouldn’t be any fun if it was too easy."

 

They ate in companionable silence for a while, the warmth of the food and the strong whiskey easing the tension of the night. The close call at the house lingered in the back of their minds, but the camaraderie between them kept the mood light.

As Jo took a sip of her drink, she leaned back in her chair, her eyes scanning the room. “I’ll tell ya, Arthur,” she said, her voice low, “I could get used to this. Good company, good whiskey, and easy money.”

A bittersweet smile played on her lips. She knew that this lifestyle was dangerous, that it could end at any moment. But for now, she was enjoying the ride. She was with her friend, doing what she loved, and she was alive

But deep down, she couldn't shake the feeling that this wasn't the life she was meant to live. She yearned for something more, something stable and meaningful.

Arthur nodded, his eyes on the half-empty glass in front of him. “Ain’t nothing wrong with enjoying it while it lasts, Jo. But you know as well as I do, it never lasts long.”

Jo shrugged, taking another sip. “Maybe not, but that’s what makes it all the more worth it. You gotta grab the good times while you can.”

Arthur tilted his head, considering her words. “Reckon you’re right about that.”

 

They lapsed into silence again, the comfortable kind that only good friends could share. The saloon around them hummed with life, but in their little corner, it was just the two of them, enjoying the brief respite before the next storm.

As the night wore on, they ordered another round, the alcohol doing its job in washing away the lingering tension. For a while, they were just two friends, celebrating a victory in a world that rarely allowed for such moments.

The night deepened and the drinks kept coming. Jo's initial smirk had faded, replaced by a more somber expression as she stared into her glass, the amber liquid swirling in the dim light. Arthur noticed the change in her demeanor, but he said nothing, simply matching her pace, drink for drink. The two of them sat in a companionable silence, but there was a tension in the air, a heaviness that neither could quite shake.

 

Jo lifted her glass and downed the last of her whiskey, the burn a welcome distraction from the thoughts that churned in her mind. The house, with its eerie resemblance to her childhood home, had stirred memories she’d long tried to bury. Memories she wasn’t ready to face. As she poured herself another drink, her hands trembled slightly, betraying the calm facade she tried to maintain. 

A wave of sadness washed over her, a familiar feeling that she had tried to bury deep within herself. She had been trying to forget the past, to move on with her life, but the house had brought it all back.

Arthur’s eyes flicked to her hands, then back to her face. He could see something was bothering her, something more than just the adrenaline of the job. He watched her for a moment before speaking. “You alright, Jo?”

She glanced up at him, forcing a smile that didn’t quite reach her eyes. “Yeah, I’m fine. Just… thinkin’ about my mother.”

Arthur’s brow furrowed at her words. He’d known Jo for a while, long enough to notice she rarely spoke about her past, especially not about her family. He took a slow sip of his drink, considering his next words carefully. “You never talk much ‘bout yer parents.”

Jo’s gaze dropped to her glass, her fingers tracing the rim as she avoided Arthur’s eyes. She took a deep breath, steeling herself for what she was about to say. “My mother was sick when I was eight,” she began, her voice steady, but there was a tightness in it, a tension that Arthur couldn’t miss. “She died quickly. My father? Couldn’t bear it.”

The lie slipped out so smoothly, she almost believed it herself. But as soon as the words left her lips, the alcohol began to cloud her mind, making everything feel lighter. Jo leaned back in her chair and let out a loud, tipsy laugh, shaking her head as if to dismiss the heaviness of her words. “God, I’m sorry. Here I am ruining our fun night with a sad story,” she said, her cheeks flushed and her smile wide. “What a downer, huh?”

Arthur chuckled, shaking his head. “It’s alright. We can have fun and talk about heavy things. Ain’t life just a big ol’ mess of both?”

Jo nodded, her laughter bubbling up again as she raised her glass in a toast. “To life! The good, the bad, and the whiskey!” She clinked her glass against Arthur’s, and they both took generous swigs, the whiskey warming them from the inside out.

Arthur leaned back in his chair, a grin plastered on his face as he watched her. The tension from earlier had melted away, replaced by the easy camaraderie they shared on their best days. Jo’s cheeks were flushed, her eyes bright with laughter, and Arthur couldn’t help but think that this was how he liked to see her—free, unburdened, if only for a little while.

 

Chapter 3: Uncharted Territory

Summary:

Arthur wakes up alone, the events of the previous night with Josephine a blur. In camp, he encounters a tense atmosphere and a sense of impending danger.

Chapter Text

Maybe, just maybe, they had too much to drink tonight.

They were definitely drunk. 

After a few too many drinks, they had been both asked to leave the saloon, or rather forcibly dragged out of it by two-three patrons.

 

Her vision swam as she stared at the dimly lit room they had somehow managed to stumble into, her fingers idly tracing her mother’s necklace. The walls, rough-hewn and lined with faded wallpaper, seemed to shift and sway as she tried to focus. A large, worn bed sat in the middle of the room, its lumpy mattress looking more inviting by the second. In the corner, an old wooden dresser leaned slightly to one side, its drawers partially open, revealing crumpled linens within. A single oil lamp flickered on a small bedside table, casting long, dancing shadows across the walls.

 

Jo blinked, trying to make sense of their situation. “Well,” she slurred, her voice thick with alcohol, “looks like we got the last room in town.”

Arthur, equally inebriated, leaned heavily against the doorframe, a lopsided grin on his face. “Ain’t much, but it’ll do,” he muttered, his words nearly tripping over each other. He pushed off from the door, swaying slightly as he made his way to the bed. “Least it’s got a roof.”

Jo nodded, her head feeling like it was filled with cotton. She glanced around the room again, her gaze landing on the bed, then back at Arthur. “We, uh… we gotta share, huh?”

Arthur chuckled, the sound low and rumbling in his chest. “Seems like it.” He plopped down on the edge of the bed, the mattress creaking under his weight. “Ain’t the first time we’ve had to bunk together.”

“Yeah, but…” Jo trailed off, suddenly feeling self-conscious despite the fog of alcohol clouding her mind. 

They were friends, sure, but this was different. Still, it wasn’t like they had any other options. She sighed, the tension easing slightly as she stumbled toward the bed. “Guess it’s better than sleepin’ on the floor.”

Arthur watched her with a lazy, half-lidded gaze, his smile softening. “You worried I’ll steal the covers or somethin’?” he teased, his voice tinged with amusement.

She laughed, the sound a little too loud in the quiet room. “You better not, cowboy. I’ll kick you outta bed if you do.”

He grinned, kicking off his boots and leaning back on the bed, propping himself up on one elbow. “You’re welcome to try.”

Jo rolled her eyes, though the gesture lost some of its impact with the way she swayed on her feet. She kicked off her own boots, her fingers fumbling with the laces as she tried to maintain her balance. Finally, she managed to free her feet and collapsed onto the bed beside Arthur, her head spinning from the sudden motion.

The bed was small, barely enough room for the two of them, but the warmth of the blankets and the lingering buzz of alcohol made her care less. She stared up at the ceiling, trying to ignore how close they were, the heat radiating off Arthur’s body only inches from hers.

 

For a few moments, silence settled over them, broken only by the distant sounds of the town outside and the creaking of the old bed. Jo turned her head slightly, her gaze falling on Arthur, aware of every inch of space— or lack thereof —between them. His eyes were closed, his breathing slow and steady, but there was something in the way he laid there, so close, that made her heart skip a beat. Maybe it was the alcohol or the lingering adrenaline from the day, but before she knew it, she’d shifted closer, her arm brushing against his.

Arthur’s eyes opened, his blue gaze locking onto hers in the dim light. He didn’t say anything, just watched her with a look that was both questioning and knowing. The tension between them crackled like a live wire, and Jo found herself holding her breath, waiting for him to make the next move.

He did.

Without a word, Arthur reached out, his hand gently cupping the side of her face. The roughness of his palm against her skin sent a shiver down her spine. He pulled her closer, so close that she could feel the warmth of his breath against her lips. And then, in the quiet of the small room, with only the flickering lamp as a witness, he kissed her.

 

It was slow at first, almost hesitant, as if they were both testing the waters. But then something shifted, and the kiss deepened, all of the unspoken tension and unacknowledged feelings pouring into that one moment. Jo responded in kind, her hands tangling in his shirt as she pulled him closer, the world outside the room fading into nothingness.

Arthur broke the kiss first, his forehead resting against hers as they both tried to catch their breath. “Jo…” he started, but whatever he was going to say was lost as she kissed him again, harder this time, more insistent.

He responded in kind, his hands moving down her back, tracing the curve of her spine with a touch that sent shivers through her body. Jo’s fingers fumbled with the buttons of his shirt, their movements clumsy from both alcohol and the intensity of the moment. When she finally managed to undo the buttons, she pushed the fabric aside, her hands exploring the hard planes of his chest. His skin was warm, the muscles beneath it firm and solid.

Arthur’s hands roamed as well, his fingers slipping under the hem of her shirt, the calloused pads brushing against the softness of her skin. Each touch seemed to ignite something within her, a fire that burned hotter with every passing second. He pulled her closer, their bodies pressing together, the heat between them growing as the last remnants of restraint slipped away.

Jo let out a soft moan as Arthur’s lips found her neck, his breath hot against her skin. He kissed a trail down her throat, each press of his lips making her head spin, the alcohol and desire mingling in a heady mix that left her feeling lightheaded and breathless, as he descended lower and lower. She arched into him, her hands gripping his shoulders as if to ground herself, but it only seemed to pull them closer, the air between them charged with a tension that was impossible to ignore.

 

Arthur shifted, rolling them over so that he hovered above her, his weight a comforting pressure that made her feel safe and wanted all at once. He paused for a moment, his eyes searching hers as if to make sure she was still with him, still wanting this as much as he did. Jo answered by pulling him down to her, their lips crashing together in a kiss that was all fire and desperation.

His hands moved down her sides, taking her shirt with them, until it was tossed carelessly to the floor. Her skin prickled with the cool air, but Arthur’s touch quickly chased away the chill, his hands leaving trails of warmth wherever they roamed. She tugged at his shirt, wanting to feel him against her, needing the connection that was quickly becoming a lifeline in the swirling sea of emotions.

When his shirt finally joined hers on the floor, Arthur pressed himself against her, his bare chest against hers, the sensation sending a thrill through her entire body. They fit together perfectly, the lines of his body matching hers in a way that felt both new and familiar all at once. His lips found hers again, this time softer, more tender, but no less intense.

Jo’s hands roamed over his back, feeling the muscles shift under his skin as he moved against her. Each kiss, each touch, seemed to fan the flames higher, until she thought she might burn up from the heat of it all. She had never felt anything like this before, this overwhelming need that seemed to consume her, leaving no room for doubt or fear, only the raw, unfiltered desire that pulsed between them.

Arthur’s lips left hers, trailing down her neck, over her collarbone, and lower still, until she thought she might explode from the sheer intensity of it all. Every kiss, every caress, sent sparks shooting through her veins, until she was a trembling mess beneath him, her breath coming in ragged gasps as she tried to keep up with the sensations overwhelming her.

She could feel the roughness of his hands against her skin, the way he seemed to know exactly where to touch, how to move, to drive her wild. It was almost too much, too intense, but she didn’t want it to stop. Not now. Not ever .

 

As the night wore on, they lost themselves in each other, the outside world forgotten as they explored the boundaries of their friendship in a way neither had ever imagined. There was no room for second thoughts or regrets, only the shared need that drove them forward, each touch and kiss a promise that they wouldn’t be alone tonight.

When they finally collapsed together, exhausted and spent, their bodies still intertwined, Jo laid there for a moment, her head resting on Arthur’s chest. She could hear his heart pounding, matching the rhythm of her own, and for a brief moment, everything felt right. They had crossed a line, one they couldn’t uncross, but right now, with the warmth of his body against hers, she didn’t care.

 


 

Jo stirred, the hazy remnants of sleep slowly giving way to reality as she blinked against the bright morning sunlight streaming through the window. Her head throbbed, a dull ache that pulsed behind her eyes, but it wasn’t the headache that jolted her fully awake. 

It was the warmth of another body beside her, the steady rise and fall of a familiar chest beneath her hand. 

That was the first thing she noticed.

She blinked, her gaze focusing on the sight before her. 

The second thing she noticed was that Arthur laid next to her, still asleep, his face peaceful in the soft morning light. The memories of the night before came rushing back in a chaotic swirl—laughter, drinks, heated kisses, and the feeling of his hands on her skin, his body pressed against hers.

And finally as her breath caught in her throat,  she noticed them both tangled in the rumpled bed sheets, their clothes scattered haphazardly on the floor. Naked .

She was naked, her body pressed against his. 

The reality of what they had done hit her like a punch to the gut. They had crossed a line, one she had never thought they would. Her heart pounded in her chest, a mix of emotions churning in her stomach—regret, confusion, but also a lingering warmth, a secret part of her that couldn’t deny how much she had enjoyed the night.

But as she laid there, staring at Arthur’s sleeping form, a sense of panic began to creep in. This wasn’t supposed to happen. They were friends—best friends. She couldn’t let this complicate things, couldn’t let it ruin the bond they had. And what if he regretted it? What if he saw it as a mistake? The thought was unbearable.

Careful not to wake him, Jo slowly disentangled herself from the sheets, wincing as the mattress creaked beneath her. Her heart raced as she quietly slipped out of bed, her bare feet hitting the cold wooden floor. She quickly gathered her clothes, pulling them on with trembling hands, every movement filled with a sense of urgency. She needed to get out of there before he woke up, before he could say anything that would make this more real, more complicated.

Once dressed, Jo cast one last glance at Arthur. He was still asleep, his brow furrowed slightly as if he was already beginning to stir. She hesitated for a moment, a wave of guilt washing over her as she realized she was leaving him to wake up alone, to face the aftermath of their night together by himself. But she couldn’t stay. Not now. Not when everything felt so confusing, so uncertain.

Without another thought, she turned and slipped out of the room, her footsteps silent as she made her way down the hallway and out of the hotel. The cool morning air hit her like a slap, the brightness of the day a stark contrast to the warmth and intimacy of the night before. She took a deep breath, trying to steady herself, to push down the emotions threatening to overwhelm her.

 

As she walked away from the hotel and toward her horse still tethered in front of the saloon, the events of the night replayed in her mind. She couldn’t help but smile, despite the turmoil she felt, as she remembered the way he had touched her, the way he had made her feel. 

But that smile quickly faded as reality set in again. 

This couldn’t happen again. They had a job to do, a life that didn’t allow for complications like this. 

She would have to face Arthur eventually, but for now, she just needed to clear her head, to figure out how to deal with the mess they had made of things.

 


 

Arthur woke with a pounding headache, his mouth dry and his body aching. He groaned, rolling over and burying his face in the pillow as the midday sun filtered weakly through the curtains, casting a dull light across the room. He stirred, the pounding in his head making it hard to think straight. The familiar bite of a hangover clawed at his temples, and for a moment, he just laid there, eyes closed, trying to piece together the events of the previous night.

But as he shifted, the sheets rustling beneath him, memories began to surface—memories of Jo, her laughter, her touch, and the way they’d both given in to the pull between them. His eyes snapped open, the reality of what had happened hitting him like a freight train. He had slept with her, hadn't he?

He turned his head to the side, expecting to see her still lying there beside him, but the space where she had been was empty, the sheets cool to the touch. Panic flared in his chest as he sat up, his head spinning. She was gone.

Arthur quickly scanned the room, his clothes still strewn about haphazardly, a reminder of the night they had shared. He rubbed a hand over his face, trying to clear the fog from his mind as he swung his legs over the side of the bed and stood up. The room tilted slightly as he moved, the hangover making it hard to focus, but he pushed through it, hastily pulling on his clothes.

Once dressed, he grabbed his hat and gun belt, strapping it on with practiced ease. He needed to find Jo, to talk to her, to make sure she was alright. But as he looked around the room, it was clear she had left hours ago, leaving no trace behind except the faint memory of her warmth beside him.

 

Arthur made his way downstairs, his boots heavy on the wooden steps as he descended to the hotel’s main floor. The clerk at the counter glanced up as he approached, a knowing look in his eyes.

“Morning,” Arthur greeted, his voice rough from sleep and the lingering effects of the alcohol.

“Afternoon, more like,” the man replied with a smirk. “Can I help you with somethin’, mister?”

Arthur ignored the jab, getting straight to the point. “The woman I was with last night… you seen her this mornin’?”

The man nodded. “Yeah, she left early. Seemed in a bit of a rush too. Didn’t say much, just paid the bills and was out the door.”

Arthur’s stomach sank. She’d left without a word, without even waking him. He nodded, forcing a casual tone. “Thanks.”

The man shrugged and went back to his business, leaving Arthur standing there, trying to make sense of what to do next. Jo had clearly wanted to put distance between them, but why? 

He could guess well enough—what they’d done had probably spooked her, made her question everything between them. Hell, it was making him question things too.

But one thing was clear: he had to find her. And there was only one place where she would’ve gone—back to camp.

 

Arthur stepped out of the hotel, the bright sunlight causing him to wince as it hit his eyes. He mounted Atlas, his trusty stallion, and turned him in the direction of Clemens Point. The ride back would take a few hours, maybe less if he pushed Atlas to a gallop, but he wasn’t in any mood to rush. He needed time to think, to figure out what the hell he was going to say to Jo when he saw her again.

As he rode, the landscape of Roanoke Ridge stretched out before him, the rolling hills and dense trees offering some comfort as he tried to piece together his jumbled thoughts. The farther he got from Van Horn, the more the reality of what had happened sank in. He and Jo had crossed a line, one they couldn’t easily step back from. But what worried him more was the fear that she might regret it, that she might pull away from him because of it, that it would sever their friendship.

The thought made his chest tighten, a knot of anxiety forming in his gut. Arthur wasn’t good with words, and he wasn’t good with feelings either, but he knew he couldn’t just let this fester. He had to find Jo, had to talk to her and figure out where they stood now.

He needed to figure out what to feel about this too. 

As the hours passed and the familiar sight of Clemens Point came into view, Arthur’s resolve hardened. Whatever was going on in Jo’s head, he needed to know. He couldn’t let what happened last night ruin the bond they had—couldn’t let it drive a wedge between them.

With a deep breath, he urged Atlas forward, the camp growing larger with each passing moment. 

 

Arthur rode into camp and the familiar sights and sounds of Clemens Point greeted him. The camp was alive with activity, the gang going about their usual business. Before he could get too far, Sean, who was on guard duty near the entrance, spotted him and let out a loud, cheerful exclamation. "Arthur! Ya're back!"

Arthur glanced over at Sean, who was grinning from ear to ear like a kid who’d just found a pot of gold. Sean was always like an annoying little brother to him—full of energy and mischief, but with a good heart buried somewhere underneath all that bravado.

“Sean,” Arthur greeted as he dismounted Atlas, patting the stallion’s neck to calm him after the long ride. “Good to see ya. You know where Jo’s at?”

Sean’s grin faltered slightly, and he shrugged, scratching the back of his head, his hat falling lightly onto his forehead. “Can’t say I do. Haven’t seen her since you two left for that job yesterday. Figured she’d be back with you.”

Arthur frowned, he’d hoped Jo would’ve returned to camp, but it seemed she was still keeping her distance. Before he could dwell too much on that, Sean’s curiosity got the better of him. “So, how’d it go, then? That job you two were on?” Sean asked, his eyes gleaming with interest. “Anythin’ exciting happen? Did ya get into any trouble? Or was it just an easy in and out?”

Arthur let out a small huff of amusement at Sean’s eagerness, leading Atlas toward the hitching post. “Easy enough. Found a place up near Van Horn, got what we came for. Had a close call with the owners comin’ back early, but we managed.”

Sean followed after him, still buzzing with questions. “Ah, sounds like a good bit of fun! Bet you both got a nice haul outta that one, eh? Did ya rough up any of them rich folk while ya were at it?”

Arthur couldn’t help but smirk at Sean’s excitement, but his thoughts were still on Jo. “Didn’t need to. They were too drunk to even notice us leavin’.”

Sean chuckled, giving Arthur a playful nudge with his elbow. “Well, that’s a shame. Could’ve had a bit of fun with that! But, I suppose it’s better when things go smooth, right?”

Arthur nodded, though his mind was elsewhere. “Yeah, smooth.” He paused for a moment, securing Atlas before turning back to Sean. “If you see Jo, let her know I’m lookin’ for her, alright?”

Sean nodded, though the playful glint in his eye remained. “Aye, I’ll keep an eye out. Though, somethin’ tells me she’s probably just hidin’ from all the rest of us. Can’t say I blame her, eh?”

Arthur gave him a strained smile, patting Sean on the shoulder before heading toward the main part of camp. “Thanks, Sean.”

As he walked away, Sean called after him, “No problem, Arthur! And hey, if ya ever need a partner for your next job, you know where to find me!”

Arthur raised a hand in acknowledgment, but his mind was already back on Jo. He needed to find her, to talk to her, to figure out what was going on in her head after last night. 

 

Arthur continued through the camp, his boots crunching on the dirt as he made his way toward Dutch’s tent. His mind was still preoccupied with thoughts of Jo, but he knew Dutch might have some idea of where she’d gone or at least some words of advice. As he approached the center of camp, he spotted Charles emerging from the outskirts, carrying a bundle of firewood on his shoulder.

“Hey, Arthur,” Charles greeted him with a nod, his calm, steady demeanor a welcome sight.

“Charles,” Arthur replied, pausing briefly. “Good job finding this spot.”

Charles gave a modest shrug, setting the firewood down near the campfire. “You found it too,” he answered, his tone even.

Arthur shook his head, a small smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. “Wouldn’t have if you hadn’t talked me into it,” he admitted as he continued toward Dutch’s tent.

Charles offered a faint smile in return, appreciating the acknowledgment but not one to dwell on praise.

As Arthur approached Dutch’s tent, he noticed Micah sitting on a wooden chair just outside, meticulously cleaning his revolver with an oiled rag. The glint of the polished metal caught the morning light, and Arthur’s eyes narrowed slightly at the sight of the man.

“Micah…” Arthur greeted, his tone curt, not bothering to hide his lack of enthusiasm.

Micah didn’t immediately respond, instead taking his time to finish wiping down the barrel of his gun. Finally, he looked up at Arthur, a smirk playing on his lips. “Blessed are the peacemakers,” Micah began, his voice dripping with sarcasm, “for they shall be called…”

But Arthur wasn’t in the mood for Micah’s nonsense. He turned away, already scanning the camp for someone more useful, when he spotted Molly walking by, her steps brisk and her expression stormy.

“Hey, Molly!” Arthur called out, trying to get her attention. “Where’s Dutch?”

Molly didn’t break her stride, her irritation evident in the way she huffed and waved her hands in the air dismissively. She didn’t even bother to turn around, just shrugged in response as if to say she couldn’t care less where Dutch was. Her figure quickly disappeared down the path toward the lake, leaving Arthur standing there, more irritated than before.

Micah chuckled softly behind him, but Arthur ignored it, his patience wearing thin. Micah watched Arthur turn back toward him, his smirk never wavering. “Well…” Micah drawled, taking his time as he leaned back in his chair, the wood creaking under his weight, “however it goes.”

Arthur eyed him warily, his patience already thin. “I’m not sure that line of thought serves you or me very well,” he replied, his tone even, but with an underlying edge.

Micah let out a dry chuckle, spinning his revolver deftly in his hand before holstering it. “Well, that’s because, cowpoke, you are a man of profoundly limited intelligence,” he said, leaning back further, as if savoring the words.

“No doubt,” Arthur shot back, his voice laced with sarcasm, though he wasn’t about to get into it with Micah after such a hangover.

“While you and the old man have been running around,” Micah began, his tone shifting to something more pointed, “digging us even deeper into shit, old Mr. Pearson might have gone and lightened the load a little.”

Arthur’s brow furrowed as he processed Micah’s cryptic words. “Pearson!” Micah called out, raising his voice to get the camp’s butcher’s attention. Then, with a sly grin, he looked back at Arthur. “Ain’t you curious?”

Arthur’s eyes narrowed, but before he could respond, he spotted Dutch striding into camp with Pearson in tow. “I guess,” Arthur muttered, distracted now by the sight of Dutch and the camp cook, Pearson.

 

All thoughts of finding Jo vanished, at least for the moment. Whatever was going on, it seemed to be worth paying attention to.

 

Chapter 4: A Serendipitous Meeting

Summary:

Josephine, haunted by the events of the previous night, faces a new set of challenges as she attempts to return to camp.

Chapter Text

It should have been a simple day.

After a complicated night.

Jo had planned to spend the day investigating the bounty hunters who had pursued her and Arthur at Mr. Downes' ranch. It was supposed to help clear her head, keep her busy so she wouldn’t dwell on what they had done. But nothing went the way she'd wanted.

 

First of all, Jo couldn’t find anything about the bounty hunters. No leads, no whispers in the saloons, nothing. It was like they’d vanished into thin air. Secondly, getting into Valentine undetected by the police proved far more complicated than she’d anticipated. The town was still on high alert after the recent bank robbery. Here again, she was still hungover and her ideas were perhaps not the wisest, her thoughts sluggish and muddled, making her usual sharp instincts dull.

 

That’s why she was currently galloping out of Valentine at full speed, a pair of lawmen hot on her heels. The pounding of her horse’s hooves matched the frantic beat of her heart. She could hear the shouts of the lawmen behind her, the barking of orders, and the unmistakable crack of a rifle shot ringing out over the din. The locals weren’t about to forget her face after the robbery.

Cursing under her breath, Jo urged Daisy to go faster, her heart racing as she maneuvered through the dense trees and rocky terrain. The wind whipped through her hair, and the sound of the river rushing somewhere below told her she was heading straight for a dead end.

But there was no turning back now.

As she approached the cliff’s edge, the sound of the lawmen grew louder, closer. Jo’s mind raced. She didn’t have much time to make a decision. With a quick, determined breath, she pulled on the reins, bringing her mare to a sudden stop. She dismounted in one swift motion, her boots hitting the ground hard as she looked over the cliff’s edge. The river below was fast and unforgiving, but it was her only option.

“Sorry, girl,” Jo whispered, giving Daisy a quick pat on the neck. The horse whinnied softly, as if understanding the gravity of the situation. Jo didn’t have time for second thoughts. She took a few steps back, bracing herself.

Without another moment’s hesitation, she ran toward the edge and leaped, gunshots echoing around, the wind rushing past her as she plunged into the river below. The cold water engulfed her instantly, the shock of it taking her breath away. She fought against the current, trying to keep her head above water as she was swept downstream. Behind her, she heard the lawmen shouting, but their voices grew distant as the river carried her away.

It wasn’t long before the adrenaline began to fade, and the full weight of her situation settled in. Luckily, she knew how to swim and wasn’t one to be afraid of water. 

 

Jo’s body was tossed and turned by the fierce current, water rushing over her head as she tried to find her bearings. She fought to keep her head above the churning surface, coughing and sputtering as icy cold water filled her lungs. Her arms flailed, desperate for something—anything—to grab onto.

The cold seeped into her bones, making her muscles stiff and uncooperative.

She was disoriented, the rushing water and the swirling landscape making it impossible to tell where she was heading. All she could do was keep fighting, keep pushing forward, hoping the river would eventually calm enough for her to find an escape.

Finally, after what felt like an eternity, the river's fury began to subside. The current lessened, and Jo spotted a cluster of rocks jutting out along the riverbank. Gritting her teeth, she used the last of her strength to swim toward them, kicking hard against the current.

With a final burst of energy, she reached out and grabbed onto a jagged rock. Her fingers scraped against the rough surface, but she held on tight, using it to pull herself closer to the shore. Bit by bit, she dragged herself onto the bank, collapsing onto the damp ground, gasping for air. Her chest heaved with each ragged breath, her entire body trembling from the cold and the effort of her escape.

For a long moment, she laid there, drenched and exhausted, the sound of the rushing river fading into the background as she caught her breath. Her clothes clung to her, soaked and heavy, her damp honey-blond hair plastered to her face. She pushed herself up onto her elbows, her head spinning from the ordeal. Slowly, she sat up, her body protesting with every movement.

 

That’s when she felt it—a sharp, stinging pain in her arm. Jo winced and instinctively reached for it. Her fingers brushed against something warm and wet, and when she looked down, she saw it: blood. It wasn’t a deep wound, but a bullet must have grazed her during the chase.

“Damn it,” she muttered, her voice hoarse from the cold. She gingerly touched the wound, hissing at the sharp pain that radiated through her arm.

The cut was shallow but long, tracing a red line along her upper arm. The bleeding wasn’t severe, but it still needed to be treated. She couldn’t afford an infection out here, in the middle of nowhere.

 

Sighing, she took stock of her situation. The river had swept her far from the lawmen, and for now, she was safe. But she was alone, wet, and injured. With a grimace, she pulled herself to her feet, swaying slightly as the blood rushed from her head. She needed to bandage her arm.

Jo looked down at her already torn clothes. With a sharp tug, she ripped a strip of fabric from the hem of her shirt. Biting her lip against the pain, she wrapped the cloth tightly around the wound, tying it off with a firm knot. The makeshift bandage would have to do for now.

“There,” she muttered, flexing her fingers gingerly to make sure the blood flow wasn’t cut off. “Good enough.” She glanced up at the sky, seeing the sun beginning to sink lower toward the horizon. She needed to find shelter soon, somewhere to dry off and rest before nightfall.

 

Brushing the wet hair from her face, Jo took a deep breath, steeling herself for whatever came next. This day had gone sideways in every possible way. And yet, there was a part of her—some small, stubborn part—that couldn’t help but find the dark humor in it all.

“Hell of a day,” she murmured to herself with a bitter laugh. She picked a direction and started walking, hoping the river hadn’t carried her too far from civilization.

 

The road ahead was uncertain, but she had no choice but to keep moving. That’s what she’d always done. What she’d always been good at. 

 


 

The first light of dawn crept over the horizon, casting a soft, golden hue over the landscape. Jo stirred awake, the warmth of the small fire she had built last night now just a faint glow of embers. She had walked until she couldn’t anymore, her body drained of all energy, and finally found a small, sheltered spot under a cluster of trees. There, she’d made a fire to dry herself out and keep the cold at bay, before eventually succumbing to exhaustion.

 

She sat up slowly, wincing as the stiffness in her muscles reminded her of the previous day’s ordeal. Her makeshift bandage was still holding, though it was stained with dried blood and dirt. The wound throbbed dully, but it wasn’t as painful as it had been. Jo flexed her arm gently, testing the range of motion. She’d be alright, though she knew she’d need to clean and properly dress the wound soon.

The air was cool, crisp with the freshness of morning, and Jo took a deep breath, filling her lungs with it. For a moment, she just sat there, letting the quiet of the early hour wash over her. But she couldn’t linger. She had to find her steed.

“Alright, girl,” Jo muttered to herself as she pushed herself to her feet, brushing off her pants. “Time to find you.”

She scanned the area, looking for any sign of her horse. Daisy was smart; she’d likely have followed the river, but in this dense forest, it could still take some time to track her down. Jo gathered herself, kicking dirt over the last embers of her fire, and began to search.

 

The sun had fully risen now, casting long shadows between the trees, and she could hear the faint sounds of the forest coming to life around her. Birds chirped overhead, and somewhere in the distance, she heard the rustling of a small animal in the undergrowth.

After a good walk, Jo heard a whinny nearby. Her heart lifted as she quickened her pace, pushing through a thicket of bushes until she finally saw her horse. Daisy was standing in a small clearing, grazing on the dewy grass, her coat glistening in the morning light. Jo felt a wave of relief wash over her at the sight.

“There you are, girl,” Jo said with a smile, her voice soft as she approached. Daisy lifted her head, ears flicking forward at the sound of Jo’s voice, and let out a welcoming snort.

 

“Quite a day, isn’t it?” 

Jo nearly jumped out of her skin, her hand instinctively reaching for her revolver as she whipped around to see where the voice had come from. Her heart pounded in her chest as she spotted a man standing just beyond Daisy, partially obscured by the horse’s large frame. He had a friendly smile on his face, completely oblivious to the fact that he had just startled her half to death.

The man was standing behind a large, old-fashioned camera standing on a stand. He looked up from adjusting the lens, tipping his hat to her in greeting. “Apologies, I didn’t mean to startle you, miss,” he said, his tone warm and polite.

Jo relaxed her grip on the revolver, though she didn’t let go of it completely. 

"What a country," the stranger said, looking around the clearing with a mix of admiration and exasperation, his hands resting on his hips. "I'm working on a project. Photography," he added, adjusting the angle of his camera.

"Yeah, I guessed that bit," Jo responded, her eyes still on the man, watching his every move.

"Of course," he chuckled at her words, unfazed by her wariness. "Wildlife, that's my thing... or at least, that's what I want to be my thing." He started pacing in front of his camera, counting steps to find the perfect position, muttering to himself, "If I have to take another picture of a grumpy house frau, or some pompous middle-class burgher, I will feed myself to the lions."

Jo couldn’t help but crack a smile at his frustration. The man was clearly passionate about his work, even if it didn’t always go as planned.

 

Deeming he found the perfect spot, he stopped abruptly and pointed to the ground. "Stand here," he instructed, his tone more commanding than requesting.

"Here?" Jo asked, raising an eyebrow as she walked up to the spot he’d indicated, her steps cautious.

"Just..." Albert adjusted her position slightly, moving her by the shoulders with gentle but precise hands until he was finally content. "There," he said with satisfaction, stepping back to admire his handiwork. He then extended his hand to her, "Albert Mason."

Jo hesitated for a brief moment before shaking his hand. "Josephine Harper," she introduced herself, using her full name, though she wasn’t sure why she did. Maybe it was the man’s earnestness, or perhaps it was the odd situation she found herself in.

"Josephine," Albert repeated, testing the name on his tongue. "A fine name for a fine subject. Now, if you could just stay right there, I’ll take the shot."

Jo blinked, surprised. "You want to take a picture of me?"

Albert smiled warmly, adjusting his camera. "Why not? You’ve got that rugged, untamed look about you—suits the wilderness perfectly. Plus, it’s not often I come across someone who looks so… fitting for the landscape."

Jo shifted uncomfortably. "I’m not really the picture-taking type."

"Nonsense," Albert said, waving off her protests. "It’ll be quick. Just stay right there with your horse. The two of you make quite the pair."

Jo sighed but didn’t argue further. She stood beside Daisy, her hand resting on the horse’s neck, fingers gently combing through the mane. Daisy nickered softly, leaning into Jo’s touch. The idea of her picture being taken felt strange—exposing, even—but there was something about the way Albert spoke about the land, about capturing the essence of it, that made her curious. Maybe there was more to this photography thing than she’d given it credit for.

 

As Albert adjusted his camera, he started explaining, "I’m trying to find and capture images of our great predators before our greatest predators kill them all and stick them on some clubhouse wall."

"Well, good luck with that," Jo said, her focus drifting back to Daisy as she continued to stroke the horse's mane.

"Yes, not the easiest," Albert admitted with a sigh, preparing to take the picture. "But, well, I love a challenge."

The camera clicked, the sound of the shutter echoing in the clearing as Albert captured the moment. Jo and Daisy stood still, the image of the two of them frozen in time by the photographer's lens.

Albert straightened up, stepping back from the camera with a satisfied grin. "The trick," he began to explain, "is to leave a big load of meat and relax, and pray they don't mistake me for lunch."

Just as he finished speaking, a coyote appeared from the edge of the clearing, its eyes locked on Albert’s bag. The animal approached cautiously, sniffing at the bag before quickly grabbing it in its jaws and darting away.

"Oh! Good heavens. My bag, that thing is robbing me!" Albert exclaimed in disbelief, watching as the coyote made off with his belongings.

Without hesitation, Jo bolted after the coyote. "Damn it," she muttered under her breath as she sprinted through the underbrush, determined to catch up with the animal. The chase wasn’t easy—the coyote was quick and agile, darting between trees and over rocks. But Jo was relentless, her boots pounding the ground as she closed the distance.

 

After a few tense moments, the coyote, perhaps realizing it was being pursued, dropped the bag from its mouth and took off into the woods. Jo skidded to a halt and quickly retrieved the bag, breathing heavily from the run. She checked it over to make sure it was intact before starting the walk back to the clearing.

 

"I got your bag," Jo said as she returned, holding up the bag for Albert to see.

"Oh, thank you, thank you, miss!" Albert said, rushing over to her, his face a mix of relief and gratitude as he took the bag from her hands.

"Bag full of meat tends to attract animals like that coyote," Jo remarked with a small smirk.

"You are a kind lady," Albert began, tapping her shoulder in a gesture of appreciation. "The bag also had a lot of supplies. You've saved me days," he said, opening the bag to check for any missing items. "I can't thank you enough. I'm... I'm... Thank you."

"Don't worry about it," Jo assured him, brushing off his thanks with a casual wave of her hand.

Albert gave her a nod, clearly pleased with how the encounter had gone. "Well, Josephine, it was a pleasure. I wish you the best on your travels."

Jo gave a small nod in return. "And good luck with your predators. Hope you get your picture before they get you."

Albert laughed as he slung his camera bag over his shoulder. "That’s the plan." With that, he tipped his hat and began walking back into the woods, leaving Jo and Daisy alone in the clearing once more.

Jo watched him go, shaking her head slightly at the unexpected encounter. People sure were strange sometimes.

She patted Daisy’s neck, feeling the warmth of the horse’s coat under her hand. "Come on, girl," she said softly. "Let’s get out of here."

 


 

Jo rode steadily, the rhythmic clopping of Daisy’s hooves the only sound breaking the stillness of the late afternoon. The sun had dipped lower in the sky, casting long shadows across the landscape as she made her way back to Clemens Point. It was a long journey, and though she was eager to return, she knew Daisy needed a rest, and so did she.

Finding a secluded spot by a small creek, Jo dismounted and set up a modest camp. She started a small fire, the crackling flames offering some comfort against the approaching evening chill. Pulling out a piece of dried meat from her saddlebag, she sat down on a fallen log, the firelight casting flickering shadows across her face.

As she chewed the tough meat, her thoughts drifted back to the night she’d spent with Arthur. The memory was vivid, but it felt distant, like a dream she wasn’t sure she’d really had. The regret was gnawing at her, but it was mixed with something else—something she wasn’t ready to name. She shook her head, trying to push the thoughts away, but they clung to her like the smoke from the fire.

She couldn’t afford to be distracted, not now, not with everything that was happening. But it was hard not to be. The encounter with the bounty hunters, the constant need to watch her back, and now this... mistake with Arthur. It was all becoming too much. Her mind started to drift further, back to memories she had long buried, memories of her childhood, of the pain she had tried so hard to forget.

The crackling of the fire brought her back to the present. Jo stared into the flames, her hands tightening around the piece of dried meat. She wanted to scream, to let out all the frustration and confusion building up inside her, but she knew it wouldn’t help. Not out here, alone in the wilderness. But something had to give.

 

Suddenly, the distant howl of a wolf echoed through the trees, sending a shiver down Jo’s spine. The sound was haunting, lonely—much like how she felt. Her breath hitched, and she felt her chest tighten as old wounds, both physical and emotional, surfaced.

She stood abruptly, tossing the unfinished meat into the fire. She couldn’t sit still any longer, couldn’t keep running from the thoughts that had been chasing her all day. The howl of the wolf resonated in her ears, a chilling reminder of the dangers that lurked both outside and within.

Jo turned her back on the fire, her eyes scanning the darkening forest. The memories she had fought so hard to suppress came rushing back, like a flood she could no longer hold back. She clenched her fists, feeling the sting of her nails digging into her palms.

 

And that’s when she knew—she couldn’t escape it any longer. The past was catching up to her, whether she wanted it to or not.

Chapter 5: A River Runs Through It

Summary:

Jo finally comes back to camp, only to discover what happened during her absence.

Chapter Text

The late afternoon sun cast long shadows across the fields, turning the sky into a canvas of deep oranges and reds. Eleven-year-old Josephine Harper crouched behind the weathered barn, her breath coming in quick, shallow gasps. She could hear the wind rustling through the tall grass, the distant calls of birds as they settled in for the night—but over it all, she could hear the unmistakable sound of her father’s voice, rough and slurred, calling out her name.

“You get back here right now, you little wretch!”

His words were thick with alcohol, each syllable dripping with anger. Josephine pressed herself tighter against the wooden wall of the barn, trying to make herself as small as possible. She knew better than to answer. She’d learned long ago that when he was like this, it was safer to stay hidden.

 

The sound of boots crunching on gravel grew louder, closer. Josephine’s heart pounded in her chest as she peeked around the corner, catching a glimpse of her father’s silhouette against the setting sun. He was stumbling, swaying slightly as he walked, the half-empty bottle dangling from his hand.

“Come out, girl,” he growled, his voice low and menacing. “I know you’re out here somewhere.”

Josephine pulled back, pressing herself against the rough wood. She squeezed her eyes shut, willing herself to be invisible, to be anywhere but here. She had to be careful, had to stay hidden until he gave up, until the drink pulled him under and he stumbled back to the house. But she knew from experience that could take hours, and sometimes, he didn’t give up.

The barn door creaked open, and Josephine’s eyes flew open in panic. She could hear him inside now, the sound of things being shoved aside, tossed to the floor as he searched for her. Her pulse raced as she realized how close he was, just a few feet away, separated by nothing more than a thin wall of wood.

 

Suddenly, there was a loud crash, and Josephine jumped, her hand flying to her mouth to stifle a gasp. He had knocked over something heavy—an old tool chest, maybe. The clang of metal echoed through the still air, followed by a string of curses that made Josephine’s blood run cold.

“Where the hell are you?” he snarled, his voice thick with frustration.

Josephine’s mind raced. She couldn’t stay here much longer; he was too close. If he found her, she knew what would happen. 

She had to run. But where? The open fields offered no cover, and if she made a dash for the woods, he’d see her for sure. Her only chance was to wait until he was in the barn, then slip around the back and head for the river. It was risky, but it was the only plan she had.

 

The sound of the barn door slamming shut jolted Josephine into action. She took a deep breath, her small body trembling as she prepared to move. She could hear him cursing under his breath, the heavy thud of his boots as he kicked aside tools and barrels. Now or never.

With a silent prayer, Josephine bolted from her hiding place, her feet barely making a sound as she ran around the side of the barn. She kept low, her eyes locked on the path that led down to the river. It wasn’t far, just a few hundred yards, but every step felt like an eternity.

She was almost there, just a few more steps, when she heard the barn door fly open again. Her father’s voice rang out, loud and furious.

She didn’t dare look back. Her legs burned as she pushed herself harder, the riverbank coming into view. She could hear him behind her now, his heavy footsteps pounding the earth, getting closer and closer.

The river was there, just ahead, its waters dark and fast. Without thinking, Josephine gathered all her strength, preparing to leap into the icy water and let the current carry her far away from him, from the terror that clung to her every thought.

But just as she pushed off the ground, a strong hand grabbed the back of her dress, yanking her back with a force that sent her crashing to the ground. The impact knocked the wind out of her, and before she could even attempt to scramble to her feet, her father was on her, his breath hot and foul against her ear.

 

“You think you can run from me, girl?” he hissed, his voice dripping with venom. “You’ll never escape. You’re mine, and you’ll pay for this—every last bit of it.”

 


 

The landscape of the camp's outskirts came into view, and Jo felt a mix of relief and apprehension. She wasn’t sure how she’d face Arthur, or even if she should. Jo rode back to camp, the morning sun casting a warm glow over the landscape as she urged Daisy into a steady trot. The familiar sounds of the camp came into earshot—voices, the crackle of a distant fire, the faint clatter of pots and pans. She was almost home.

As she approached the camp, Jo noticed Mary-Beth sitting by the edge of the camp, her face creased with worry. The young woman looked up, her expression brightening slightly when she saw Jo, but the concern didn’t fully leave her eyes.

"Jo!" Mary-Beth called out, standing up and hurrying over. "Thank goodness you’re back! I was startin’ to get worried."

Jo dismounted, patting Daisy’s neck before turning to face Mary-Beth. "I’m fine," she replied, though her voice was a bit strained. "Just took a little longer than expected."

Mary-Beth gave her a quick once-over, noting the wrinkled clothes and the weary look in Jo’s eyes. "You look like you been through hell. But it’s not just you I’ve been worried about..." she trailed off, glancing over her shoulder. 

Jo felt a knot form in her stomach. "What’s wrong?" she asked, her voice tense.

Mary-Beth hesitated. "Arthur came back yesterday... he was hurt pretty bad. Said he had a run-in with the O’Driscolls."

Jo’s heart skipped a beat, a rush of guilt and concern flooding through her. Colm and Dutch had an old grudge, and she was well aware of it. "Is he alright?"

"I think so, but... he didn’t say much about it. Dutch and Hosea were with him when he got back. They’ve been pretty tight-lipped about the whole thing," Mary-Beth explained, her brow furrowing. "I wanted to help, but they sent me away. They said it was best to leave it to them."

Jo clenched her jaw, her mind racing. She had left Arthur behind after that night, and now he’d been wounded. The guilt gnawed at her, but she couldn’t let it show. "Where is he now?"

"In his tent, Miss Grimshaw’s taking care of him," Mary-Beth admitted, her voice softening. "He’s been resting, I think. But if you want to know more, you should talk to Dutch or Hosea. They’d know more about what happened."

Jo nodded, trying to keep her emotions in check. "Thanks, Mary-Beth. I’ll go find ‘em."

Mary-Beth gave her a small, sympathetic smile. "I’m sure he’ll be alright, Jo. Arthur’s tough."

Jo forced a smile in return, though her mind was already elsewhere. "Yeah, he is. I’ll check in with him after I talk to Dutch."

Mary-Beth nodded, reaching out to give Jo’s arm a comforting squeeze. "Take care of yourself too, okay?"

"I will," Jo promised, though the words felt hollow. She watched as Mary-Beth returned to her seat, picking up her book with a distracted air, before turning her attention to the task at hand.

With a deep breath, Jo began to make her way through the camp, her eyes scanning the familiar faces around her.

She strode through the camp, her shoulders back and the weight of her worry and guilt pressing down on her. She needed answers, and she knew exactly where to get them. As she approached, she noticed Dutch wasn’t alone. Hosea and Micah were standing nearby, engaged in what seemed like a serious discussion. Their conversation came to an abrupt halt when they saw her approaching.

Dutch, always quick to regain his composure, offered her a smile that didn’t quite reach his eyes. "Well, well, look who’s back. We were starting to wonder if you’d gotten lost out there."

Micah's lips curled into a dismissive sneer as Jo approached them, his eyes scanning her from head to toe with a mixture of contempt and disdain.

“I bet she’s been out having adventures without us.” Hosea teased, a playful smile on his face. 

His gaze, however, immediately went to her arm, his sharp eyes catching the piece of fabric she had used to cover her wound. The cloth was stained with dried blood, a telltale sign that she hadn’t taken proper care of it. "What happened to your arm?" he asked, concern evident in his tone.

Jo glanced down at her arm, then back at the trio, brushing off the injury. “It’s nothing. Just a graze. I’ll be fine.” She quickly changed the subject, her voice tight with worry. “What happened to Arthur?”

 

The atmosphere grew tense as Hosea exchanged a glance with Dutch. 

Micah leaned back against a post, his usual smirk replaced with a more serious expression, though it didn’t quite reach his eyes.

Hosea was the first to speak, his voice steady but tinged with the frustration that often accompanied dealing with Dutch’s plans. “Colm O’Driscoll reached out, said he wanted a parley with Dutch. Thought we could settle things once and for all. Micah and Dutch went to meet him. Arthur’s was on the lookout, making sure it goes smoothly.”

“But of course, it was a trap,” Dutch interjected, his tone bitter. 

Hosea, not one to let things slide, cut in, his tone sharp. "I warned you it would be a trap. But no one listened to me."

Dutch shot Hosea a look, but continued, his voice lower now, as if the admission pained him. "The O’Driscolls must’ve found Arthur while he was on uphill. Captured him."

Jo felt a cold dread settle in her stomach. "Captured?" she repeated, the word tasting bitter on her tongue.

Dutch nodded, the weight of the situation clear in his eyes. "He managed to come back on his own after a whole day. Barely said a word about it."

Hosea stepped in again, his voice softer this time, tinged with the worry that Jo had come to associate with the man who was often the group’s moral compass. "Arthur said it was all a setup. Colm wanted to lure Dutch out so he could hand him over to the Pinkertons." Dutch’s expression darkened at the thought, but he remained silent, letting the gravity of the situation sink in.

Jo felt a wave of nausea at the thought of what Arthur must have gone through, the guilt gnawing at her even more. "And where is he now?" she asked, her voice quieter than before.

Hosea sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. "He’s resting, trying to recover. It’s going to take time."

Jo nodded, her jaw clenched as she absorbed the information. She felt an overwhelming urge to go to Arthur, to see for herself that he was alright. "I need to see him."

Dutch held up a hand, as if to stop her. "Give him some time, Jo. He’s been through hell. The last thing he needs is more questions."

Jo’s eyes flicked to Hosea, who gave her a sympathetic look. "You’ll see him soon enough," Hosea assured her. "But first, you need to take care of that arm. We can’t have you falling apart too."

She glanced down at her arm, realizing that the dried blood had started to crack. Reluctantly, she nodded. "Fine. But I ain’t waiting long."

Dutch gave her a nod of approval, while Micah watched with an amused glint in his eye, though he wisely kept his mouth shut. Jo turned on her heel, her thoughts still racing, but she knew she couldn’t face Arthur in this state. Before she headed anywhere near him, she needed to tend to her arm. The makeshift bandage had done little more than keep the wound from getting worse, and now it was time to deal with it properly.

 

Making her way over to Pearson’s wagon, she scanned the supplies until she found a half-full bottle of alcohol. She grabbed it and nodded in Pearson’s direction, though he seemed too busy with his usual camp duties to notice. Bottle in hand, Jo walked down towards the lake, her boots crunching softly on the path until she found an old tree trunk near the water’s edge.

Sitting down, she took a deep breath, feeling the tension still coursing through her body. The cool air from the lake did little to soothe her nerves. She carefully unwound the piece of fabric from around her arm, grimacing as the dried blood tugged at her skin. The wound wasn’t deep, but it was ugly—an angry red gash where the bullet had grazed her, surrounded by dried blood and dirt. It had scabbed over in some places, but the whole thing was inflamed, clearly in need of cleaning.

She gritted her teeth, gripping the bottle tightly as she tugged the cork off with her teeth. The smell of alcohol filled the air, sharp and biting. With one last steadying breath, Jo tipped the bottle over and poured the liquid directly onto the wound.

"Goddamn it," she hissed, her entire body tensing as the alcohol stung like fire. The pain shot up her arm, making her eyes water, but she kept going, watching as the liquid washed away the dirt and blood, leaving the wound clean but raw. The alcohol dripped down her skin, pooling at her elbow before soaking into the dirt below.

 

For a moment, she just sat there, her chest rising and falling heavily as she waited for the pain to subside. Slowly, it dulled to a throb, manageable now that the worst of it had passed.

She set the bottle down beside her and reached for a clean piece of cloth from her pocket. She tore a strip off with her teeth, wrapping it carefully around her arm, securing it tight enough to stop any more dirt from getting in. The fabric was rough against her skin, but it would hold.

Jo leaned back slightly, staring out over the water, feeling a strange sense of calm despite everything that had happened. The lake was still, the surface barely rippling, and for a moment, it felt like she was miles away from camp, from Dutch’s schemes, from Arthur and everything that had happened between them.

 

But the peace never lasted long.

 


 

A few hours later, Jo found herself standing outside Arthur's tent, the fading light of the late afternoon casting long shadows across the camp. She had no idea what to expect, only that she needed to see him, to make sure he was all right—or at least as all right as someone could be after what he had been through.

Taking a deep breath, she stepped inside the tent.

 

The sight that greeted her made her heart clench. Arthur was laying in his cot, his chest rising and falling with labored breaths. His face was bruised and swollen, one eye nearly shut, and his hair stuck to his forehead, damp with sweat. His left shoulder was heavily bandaged, the fabric stained with blood. He looked far worse than she had imagined.

Susan sat in the corner, quietly embroidering, her needlework steady despite the tension in the air. She glanced up when Jo entered but said nothing at first, her expression unreadable.

Jo took a hesitant step forward, her voice barely above a whisper. "How is he?"

Susan paused, her needle hovering over the fabric for a moment before she answered. "He’ll live." Her tone was calm, though there was an edge of concern in it. "Got shot in the shoulder. Damn fool cauterized the wound himself.” She scoffed, “Used a candle." 

Jo winced at the thought, imagining the pain Arthur must have endured. Her eyes flicked back to him, watching as his chest heaved with shallow breaths, his body utterly still except for the slight tremble that ran through him from time to time.

“He’s tough,” Susan continued, setting her embroidery down on her lap. "Always has been. But that doesn’t make him invincible." There was a hint of bitterness in her voice, as if she were frustrated with Arthur for always throwing himself into danger.

Jo stepped closer to the cot, feeling the weight of guilt settle in her chest. She shouldn’t have left him. If she’d been there, maybe things would’ve turned out differently.

"Does he... does he know what happened?" she asked, her voice tight.

Susan sighed softly. "He was half-conscious when he came back. Told us about Colm’s plan. After that, he’s been in and out. Mostly out. We gave him alcohol for the pain, but it’s the fever we’re watching now."

Jo nodded, feeling a cold dread creep up her spine. 

She moved closer to Arthur’s bedside, her hand reaching out as if to touch him but stopping short.

Hearing her voice, Arthur stirred in his feverish state, his brow furrowing as if he were trying to focus on something just beyond his reach. His lips moved slightly before a faint sound escaped. “Jo...” His voice was weak, hoarse, barely audible, but it made Jo’s breath hitch.

Susan glanced over, her eyebrows raised, but Jo quickly stepped forward. “I’ll watch him for a while,” she said quietly. “You should get some rest.”

She hesitated for a moment, her eyes flicking between Jo and Arthur, but eventually nodded. “If he gets worse, you let me know,” she said, gathering her things before heading out of the tent.

As soon as Miss Grimshaw was gone, Jo sat down beside the cot, her gaze fixed on Arthur’s face. His chest rose and fell unevenly, and his skin glistened with sweat. She couldn’t stand seeing him like this—so vulnerable, so unlike the strong, capable man she knew. Her heart ached with a mixture of guilt and something deeper, something she wasn’t ready to face.

 

She reached out and gently took his hand, her fingers curling around his, giving him a reassuring squeeze. “I’m here,” she whispered, her voice soft, soothing.

His eyes fluttered open, though they were unfocused, dazed with fever. He stared up at her, his lips parting slightly as if he were trying to say something but couldn’t quite form the words. Jo reached up, brushing his damp hair back from his forehead, her hand lingering for a moment. His skin was burning hot under her touch, far too hot.

“You’re burning up,” she muttered, glancing around the tent. She spotted a bucket of water beside the cot, a cloth draped over the edge. Without wasting a moment, she grabbed the cloth, soaking it in the cool water before wringing it out. Gently, she dabbed the cloth across Arthur’s forehead, trying to bring his fever down.

Arthur stirred again, his gaze drifting toward her, though it was clear he wasn’t fully present. His eyes were glassy, unfocused, but then he whispered, his voice barely more than a breath, “Yer... beautiful...”

Jo froze for a moment, her hand stilling as she looked at him in surprise. His words, spoken in the haze of fever, felt raw, unguarded. She swallowed hard, unsure of how to respond, but then she continued her task, gently wiping his brow with the wet cloth.

“You don’t know what you’re sayin’,” she murmured softly, more to herself than to him. But her heart ached at the vulnerability in his voice nonetheless, in the way he looked at her as if she were the only thing anchoring him to the world.

She kept her hand on his forehead, her fingers brushing through his damp hair again, her touch gentle, soothing. “Just rest,” she whispered. “You’ll be all right.”

Jo continued to dab Arthur's forehead, her movements slow and deliberate. His fever showed no sign of breaking, and the heat radiating off his body worried her. She glanced down at him again, watching the way his chest heaved with each labored breath, the furrow in his brow deepening as if he were fighting something in his fevered dreams.

“Oh, Arthur…” she whispered, her voice barely above a breath as she kept running the damp cloth along his skin, cooling his face and neck. The quiet of the tent wrapped around them, broken only by his heavy breathing and the occasional rustle of the canvas in the wind outside. She felt a weight settle in her chest as she thought about the man before her, the guilt of the night they had spent together gnawing at her, mixing with the concern she felt for his well-being.

His hand twitched, and his eyes fluttered open again, locking onto her with a glazed intensity. “Jo…” he muttered again, this time his voice weaker, as though he were trying to pull her back into his dreams. “Don’t... leave…”

“I ain’t going anywhere,” she reassured him, squeezing his hand gently, hoping her words could reach him through the fever. “’m right here. Just sleep.”

Her thumb traced over the back of his hand absentmindedly, her thoughts a million miles away. 

 


 

Arthur drifted in and out of consciousness, his body burning with fever, the wound in his shoulder pulsing like a distant drumbeat. The faces around him blurred—Jo’s voice was a murmur, and her gentle hands felt like they belonged to someone far away. He blinked, and suddenly, he wasn’t in Clemens Point anymore.

The world shifted.

He was standing in a field, golden under a soft afternoon sun. The wind was gentle, carrying the sound of laughter—small, joyous laughter that tugged at something deep inside him. Arthur’s breath caught as he turned toward the sound.

 

Isaac ?”

 

There, by the edge of the trees, was a boy—no older than four, with dark hair and eyes full of life. Isaac was chasing a butterfly, his little legs stumbling over the grass, his giggles echoing through the air. Arthur’s heart twisted painfully, a lump forming in his throat.

“Isaac!” he called out, his voice hoarse, but the boy didn’t seem to hear him.

Arthur tried to move, but his legs felt like lead. No matter how hard he pushed, he couldn’t get closer. He was stuck, rooted to the ground as he watched his son play, just out of reach.

 

Suddenly, the bright sun dimmed, and a cold shadow crept over the field. Isaac’s laughter faded, replaced by the distant, chilling sound of gunshots. The sky darkened, clouds rolling in like a storm ready to break.

“No…” Arthur whispered, his heart pounding. “Not again…”

The scene shifted, warped. Isaac was gone, replaced by something darker. The field turned to barren land, and in the distance, he saw the burned-out shell of the homestead where it all ended—the place where Isaac and his mother were killed.

Arthur's chest tightened, the weight of guilt suffocating him. He stumbled forward, desperate to reach the house, to undo what had already been done, but his body wouldn't cooperate. His legs buckled, and he fell to his knees, the ground cold beneath him.

Then, from the shadows, a figure emerged.

It was Isaac again, but this time, the boy wasn’t laughing. His face was pale, eyes wide with a silent question. " Why didn’t you save me, Pa? "

The words hit Arthur like a punch to the gut. His vision swam, tears mixing with sweat on his feverish brow. “I tried,” he croaked, voice breaking. “God, I tried…”

But the boy only stared, the question hanging in the air like a noose tightening around his heart. The world around them spun faster, the wind howling now, whipping through the air, dragging the memory deeper into the darkness.

Arthur felt himself slipping, the weight of everything pressing down on him, pulling him into the abyss. Isaac’s voice echoed in his mind, the question gnawing at his soul even as the vision began to fade, the real world pulling him back.

 

Arthur… Arthur!”

 

He blinked, gasping, and the golden field melted away. Jo’s face swam into focus, her hand resting gently on his forehead, her eyes filled with concern. He was back in Clemens Point, but the ache in his chest remained. The fever still held him in its grip, but the memory—Isaac’s memory—refused to leave.

Arthur’s eyes fluttered shut again, but this time, he welcomed the darkness. 

 

It was better than facing his ghosts.

 

Chapter 6: A Debt to Pay

Summary:

Leopold Strauss seeks Jo for a job.

Chapter Text

Two weeks had passed since Arthur stumbled back into camp, wounded and feverish. The fever had long since broken, but his recovery was slow. He was awake more often now, though still exhausted, and most of the time, his mind drifted in and out of focus. Miss Grimshaw and Josephine had taken turns caring for him, but he was barely aware of who was at his side, too tired to fully grasp his surroundings.

Every now and then, Arthur would get up to stretch his legs or catch some fresh air by the lake, though his walks were brief and labored. During those rare moments, Jo was never around. Perhaps she couldn’t bear seeing him like this, weakened and vulnerable, a far cry from the strong man she had always known?

But it never stopped her from being there for him through small gestures when he wasn’t awake—bringing a blanket, fetching a hot meal, changing sheets, washing his clothes. Like she was doing right now. The familiar sound of bubbling stew filled the air as Jo stood by the cauldron, pouring some into a bowl for Arthur. It had become her routine. She wasn’t sure why she kept at it, but it made her feel…useful.

 

“Hey there, Blondie,” came a drawling voice from behind.

Jo tensed slightly, not turning around immediately. She didn’t need to see him to know it was Micah. “Micah,” she greeted, her voice cool, dismissive even.

Micah, always persistent, sidled up next to her, watching as she ladled the stew. “Busy as ever, I see,” he smirked, leaning in a little too close for comfort. “What’s the deal? All this fussin’ over ol’ Arthur… Ya sweet on him or somethin’?”

Jo shot him a cold glance, her hands steady as she finished pouring the stew. “Ain’t your business. But no. Arthur’s my friend.”

Micah chuckled, clearly not satisfied with her answer. “Friend, huh? Well, you sure take care of him like he’s more than that.” His voice dipped lower, taunting. “Come on now, you look at Morgan like you’d lay down and die for him.”

Jo paused, gripping the bowl of stew a little tighter. She glanced up at Micah, her expression shifting to something colder, more pointed. “Maybe I would. What of it?”

Micah raised an eyebrow, caught off guard.

Jo stepped closer, her voice low but dripping with warning. “You lay a finger on him, Micah, and you'll be the one lyin' six feet under. Got it?”

She didn’t wait for a response. Instead, she turned on her heel, stew in hand, leaving him standing by the cauldron as she walked towards Arthur’s tent.

 

Jo pushed aside the flap of Arthur’s tent, letting a streak of sunlight filter through as she entered. The sight of him, still deeply asleep, brought a knot to her chest. He looked slightly better now—the fever had left him, but the exhaustion still clung to him like a heavy cloak. His face, though still slightly bruised and gaunt, was peaceful in sleep. She placed the bowl of stew carefully on a small crate beside his bed, making as little noise as possible, then straightened up and left the tent.

Stepping outside, she squinted in the bright early morning light. The air was thick with the smell of pine and wood smoke, mingling with the camp’s stew pot. She walked to the outskirts of camp, her boots crunching on the dry earth, until she found a familiar tree where she could lean back and let herself breathe. Lighting a cigarette, she took a deep drag, the sharp taste filling her lungs, and exhaled slowly, watching the smoke spiral upward into the branches above.

After a few minutes of silence, she heard footsteps. John emerged from the path leading out of camp, his casual swagger unmistakable. “Hey,” he greeted, with a grin. “Thought I’d find you out here.”

She smiled faintly and took another puff. “Just thinkin’.”

John leaned against the tree beside her, crossing his arms. "You’ve been doing a lot of that lately. Hell, I thought I was supposed to be the brooding one.”

She raised an eyebrow but didn’t respond right away. He wasn’t usually the observant type, but John had his moments. “Just tired, I guess.”

He nodded, though his eyes said he wasn’t buying it. “Sure. You been lookin’ after Arthur a lot.”

Jo shrugged, her gaze drifting away. “Someone has to.”

John took that in, crossing his arms. "Yeah, but... don’t let it wear you down. Ain’t much good to anyone if you’re runnin’ yourself ragged.”

She snorted softly, taking another drag from her cigarette. "That supposed to be advice?"

John grinned slightly. "Maybe."

Jo huffed a quiet laugh, but the tension still hung over her. John noticed, glancing at her with a curious squint. He had an annoying habit of picking up on things, even when she didn’t want him to. Despite his best efforts to play dumb, John wasn’t as oblivious as he let on. He gave her a sideways look.

“Somethin' you wanna talk about? Or you just gonna keep starin' holes in the sky?” he asked, his tone easy, but his gaze sharp.

Jo shifted uncomfortably, biting the inside of her cheek before sighing. “That night… after the robbery.” She looked down, flicking the ash from her cigarette. “Me and Arthur... we got drunk and things got... really outta hand.”

John raised an eyebrow but didn’t say anything, letting her continue.

“I thought it was just... a mistake,” Jo muttered. “But now, I dunno. I kinda liked it, but now everything’s weird. And since I left him alone after that night, I can’t help but feel like this—what happened to him—is somehow my fault.”

John stayed quiet for a moment, his brow furrowing slightly as he listened, thinking through her words. When he finally spoke, his voice was softer, more reflective than usual. "You and Arthur always had somethin’ special. Hell, I remember when we were younger, the two of you always ran off together and left me behind.” He chuckled, though the sound was dry, laced with a touch of nostalgia.

“But look, Jo, Arthur’s a grown man. Ain’t no way this is all on you. What happened... well, that’s between the both of you. But I know one thing, you gotta stop thinkin’ it’s all your fault. That’s somethin’ you’re gonna have to figure out for yourself.”

Before Jo could say more, the soft crunch of gravel underfoot caught her attention. Strauss appeared, his familiar round glasses catching the glint of the fading afternoon light. He clutched his ledger tightly under his arm, the scent of ink and paper lingering as he approached.

"Miss Harper," Strauss greeted, his thick accent unmistakable, though formal as ever. He adjusted his glasses and peered over them, his face set in its usual calculating expression. “Sorry to intrude, but it’s about the Downes...”

Jo’s jaw tensed slightly at the mention, her previous conversation with John already taking a toll on her mood. “What about ‘em?” she asked, her voice edged with reluctance.

Strauss gave a curt nod, flipping open one of his ledgers. “The debt remains unpaid, and given the circumstances, I thought it prudent to remind you. As always, we must keep the books balanced.”

She sighed, she didn’t enjoy this part of camp life, going after debtors, especially ones like the Downes family. It always left a bitter taste. But it was a job, and one she’d take on, even if begrudgingly.

Jo stubbed out her cigarette against the tree bark and pushed off the trunk. “I’ll take care of it,” she muttered, her tone resigned. 

Strauss gave a curt nod and walked off, leaving her and John in an awkward silence. She took a deep breath, letting the cool forest air clear her head. “Thanks, John,” she said quietly before heading back toward camp. The conversation with Arthur would have to wait. 

 


 

It was a long way to the Downes’ Ranch, located near Valentine, and Jo knew it would likely take half a day to reach it and another half to come back. The thought of spending an entire day traveling, especially for a damn debt, didn’t sit well with her. She never understood why Dutch continued to lend money to desperate people who could never pay it back. All it left them with was nothing but bruises after an encounter with Arthur most of the time—or corpses if Micah was the one sent to collect. It was a cycle of violence that only bred resentment.

No, she didn’t feel like spending the day on the road. Instead, she had readied Daisy, saddling her up with the bare essentials and making her way to Rhodes. There, she bought a ticket at the train station, her heart heavy with the dread of what was to come. Loading Daisy into the wagon designated for animals, she settled in with the third-class travelers, their chatter and laughter seeming distant as her mind wandered.

 

Upon arriving in Valentine, Jo wasted no time unloading Daisy. She didn’t want to linger in that damn town, especially with the memories of the last time she was there fresh in her mind. 

Riding toward the ranch, the whole landscape was bathed in the warm glow of the sun. She could still see Arthur’s face as they searched for Mr. Downes and had found nothing but an empty house and a growing sense of unease. 

The wind whispered through the grass, a haunting reminder of the past. She hoped she would have better luck this time. As she approached the ranch, the familiar sight of the weathered farmhouse came into view, standing stubbornly against the rolling hills.

With a deep breath, she steeled herself for whatever awaited her. The feeling of unease settled in her stomach, but she pushed it aside. There was work to be done, and she wouldn’t shy away from it now.

As Jo entered the property, the air was thick with tension. The worn-down house, once a sign of hope and hard work, now looked frail and broken, just like the family that lived inside. She spotted a woman by the side of the house—most likely Mrs. Downes—loading a small cart with what little they had left. Jo kept riding toward them until she reached the path leading to the house and stopped Daisy before dismounting. The crunch of her boots on the dry earth seemed louder than usual, each step feeling heavier as she approached.

“My husband’s not even cold in the ground, and you’ve come back here,” Mrs. Downes said, her voice sharp as a blade, not even sparing a glance in Jo’s direction. She lifted a heavy bag into the cart with a strength that spoke more of grief than anger. “I nearly paid off what was owed.”

Jo froze for a moment, her expression unreadable. So, Mr. Downes was dead? Since when? The news hit her harder than she expected. She hadn’t known, but something in her heart twisted uncomfortably at the revelation. She felt sorry for the woman, for her son—now forced to leave their ranch because they most likely couldn’t afford it anymore. Not that they ever really could.

But she couldn’t let it show. She couldn’t afford to. As much as it stung to come here demanding money from people who clearly needed it to survive, the gang needed it too. Dutch always said they couldn’t allow debtors to think they could run off without paying. Not with the Pinkertons breathing down their necks and every bounty hunter in the territory looking for them.

So Jo put on the mask she had perfected over the years, locking away the ache in her chest. Her voice was cold, her face impassive as she played her part. “Your husband knew the rules when he took that money.” She stood tall, arms crossed, hiding any trace of sympathy she might’ve felt. “Now, I’m really sorry about the way things turned out, but he had a choice. Ain’t my fault about the way the world is.”

Mrs. Downes let out a bitter laugh, hollow and filled with grief, as she ascended the porch stairs, taking another bag from her son’s trembling hands. Her voice wavered, but her words cut deep. “He didn’t have a choice. He was good, and he did good. There wasn’t no choice in that. And you’ve as good as killed him yourself and don’t kid yourself.” Her gaze pierced right through Jo, full of disgust, eyes burning with unshed tears. “You had a choice.”

The accusation hung in the air like smoke, thick and suffocating. Jo would be lying if she said those words didn’t hurt her. Deep down, they struck a chord she had buried a long time ago. The truth of it was undeniable. She did have a choice, and yet here she was, collecting debts from widows and orphans. But she couldn’t afford to let that truth surface, not now. She forced herself to remain indifferent, her face a mask of stone as she stared down Mrs. Downes.

“You speak as if killing were something I cared about,” Jo replied, her voice low, almost a whisper, but with an edge that could cut.

Mrs. Downes shook her head, her voice barely more than a tremble. “You ever wonder about eternity? You should.”

The words hit Jo like a slap, but she didn’t flinch. She clenched her jaw and looked away, trying to ignore the guilt rising in her throat. Instead, she pushed it down with a bitter chuckle. “I hope it’s hot and terrible, Mrs. Downes,” she muttered, her voice full of dark humor. “Otherwise, I’ll feel I’ve been sold a false bill of goods.” She stepped closer, her presence looming, casting a shadow over the grieving woman and her son. “Now, please… get me that money.”

Jo watched as Mrs. Downes disappeared inside, leaving her son to step out onto the porch. He was tall for his age, but still a boy, his face twisted with disdain as he looked at her.

“Don’t look at me like that, kid,” Jo said, her voice firm but not without a hint of weariness. “Ain’t my fault your father made a bad choice.”

The boy’s expression didn’t soften. “He was trying to help his family. There’s no bad choice in that.”

Jo couldn’t help but let out a soft sigh, shaking her head slightly. “And I’m tryin’ to help mine.” She paused, studying his face for a moment, before speaking again, her voice a little softer. “Listen, be a good kid for your mother, alright? Help her, protect her, and try not to end up like me. You hear?”

The boy’s eyes flickered with something—maybe understanding, maybe defiance—but he didn’t say anything. Jo gave a small nod, as if that was answer enough.

A moment later, Mrs. Downes returned, her face as tight and drawn as before, but her hands clutching the money. She handed it over without a word, her gaze cold and distant.

Jo took it, slipping it into her coat pocket before giving them both a nod. “Good day,” she said quietly, before turning and walking back toward Daisy.

Mounting up, she cast one last glance at the house, the weight of the situation pressing on her, but she shook it off. There was no room for regret in this world. Not if you wanted to survive. With a nudge to Daisy’s sides, she rode off, leaving the Downes’ Ranch behind her.

Jo rode back to Valentine with a heaviness in her chest, the echo of the Downes’ words lingering in her mind. The closer she got to the town, the more she welcomed the sound of her horse’s hooves on the dirt, anything to drown out the uneasy feeling that gnawed at her. Once she arrived, she didn’t waste any time. Valentine was no place she wanted to linger, not after what had gone down there. She made her way straight to the train station, handing over the fare and watching as Daisy was loaded onto the train. Jo boarded with the third-class passengers, finding a seat by the window. The familiar jolt of the train pulling out of the station was a relief—a chance to leave behind the weight of that ranch, at least for now.

 

She kept her gaze on the passing landscape, the train gently rocking as it made its way toward Rhodes. The open fields and scattered trees blurred by, but her mind was elsewhere, still caught up in the harshness of the debt collection she had just handled for the Downes. Edith and her son’s faces lingered in her thoughts—how hollow their eyes looked. It never got any easier, not that she’d admit it to anyone. She shifted slightly in her seat, letting out a quiet sigh.

The quiet was suddenly broken by the sound of someone sitting across from her. Her eyes flicked to the side for a brief moment, catching sight of a man before turning back to the window. She felt the weight of his stare, though. Not in the way that made her bristle, not a threat—yet—but enough to pull her attention away from her thoughts.

She quirked an eyebrow and turned to meet his gaze. “Can I help you?”

The man blinked, almost like he hadn’t expected her to confront him so directly. “Um, no, but can I help you? You seem… shaken up.”

Jo shifted in her seat, her expression turning into a practiced mask of indifference. She wasn’t in the mood for small talk, especially not from strangers. “Reckon it’s pretty normal to get nervous when someone you don’t know’s chasing you down the road,” she said, her voice edged with forced casualness.

The man raised his hands in a mock surrender, a sheepish smile tugging at his lips. “Fair enough. I realize now how that must’ve looked. You just... keep runnin’ away from me.”

Jo narrowed her eyes, not fully amused by his attempt at lightening the mood. “Most people would take that as a hint.”

There was a pause, the silence hanging between them before the man let out a soft chuckle. His smile was sheepish, almost boyish. “Yeah, guess I deserved that.”

He chuckled softly, but there was something uneasy in the way he kept looking at her, as if searching for something beyond her hardened exterior. Jo shifted uncomfortably, her gaze flicking back to the landscape, silently willing him to lose interest.

But then, his next words sliced through the air, shattering her composure.

Sarah .”

It took a moment for it to register, but when it did, her breath hitched. A cold wave of panic washed over her, freezing her in place. Sarah. That name—it hadn’t touched her ears in years, not since she had been fourteen. No one here knew it. No one was supposed to know it.

Her heart pounded painfully in her chest as she snapped her gaze to the man, her pulse roaring in her ears. The landscape outside seemed to blur into nothingness as dread clawed at the back of her mind.

“Sarah,” the man repeated, softer this time, as if coaxing her back to a memory she’d long buried. His eyes bore into hers, and for the first time in years, she felt cornered. Exposed.

Her old life. Her past. Had it finally caught up with her?

No… It’s– This wasn’t happening.

Chapter 7: Caught in the Act

Summary:

Arthur finally wakes up and he sees something he doesn't like.

Chapter Text

Arthur’s eyes fluttered open slowly, his senses gradually returning to him. The familiar smells of camp—wood smoke, leather, and stale coffee—greeted him as he blinked and took in his surroundings. The inside of his tent felt oddly foreign after being lost in a feverish haze for what felt like an eternity. His cot creaked as he shifted slightly, testing the stiffness in his limbs. He groaned softly, the ache in his body a reminder of just how far he had to go in his recovery.

As his vision cleared, he noticed Mrs. Grimshaw sitting in a corner, quietly embroidering, though her watchful gaze never strayed far from him. She glanced up, her stern expression softening ever so slightly when she saw him fully awake.

“Finally decided to join the living, have you?” she remarked, her voice as sharp as ever but laced with a hint of relief.

Arthur gave a weak grunt, attempting to push himself up on his elbows. “Reckon so… feels like I’ve been half-dead for a while.”

“You’ve been worse,” Grimshaw replied dryly, setting her embroidery down and standing up to inspect him closer. “Still look like hell, though.”

Arthur managed a half-smile. “Appreciate the honesty.”

She crossed her arms and regarded him for a moment, as if sizing him up to make sure he really was on the mend. “You should get yourself cleaned up, Morgan. A proper bath in Rhodes would do you good.”

Arthur’s brows furrowed. “Rhodes?”

Grimshaw nodded. “You’ve been laid up long enough. Might as well wash off the grime of your misery. Go on, it'll make you feel halfway human again.”

Mrs. Grimshaw gave Arthur a pointed look before turning to leave the tent, her skirts swishing as she moved. “I’ll leave you to it, but don’t dawdle. You’ve been smellin’ ripe for too long, son.”

As she exited, Arthur sat up fully, groaning as he swung his legs over the side of the cot. Every joint felt stiff, his muscles protesting the movement after so many days of disuse. Slowly, he dressed, the motions sluggish but familiar, each layer of clothing bringing him back to himself. He tugged on his boots last, giving them a hard stomp to make sure they still fit right.

When he finally stepped outside his tent, the golden hues of the late afternoon bathed the camp in a warm, mellow light. Arthur stretched, his limbs creaking in response, and let out a deep breath as he inhaled the crisp air. The fresh breeze was invigorating, a far cry from the stuffy confines of his tent. He glanced around, taking in the sight of the camp—people milling about, the clink of tools and pots, the low murmur of conversation.

As he stood there, his gaze met John’s from across the camp. John, who had been tending to his horse, raised a brow when he noticed Arthur was up and about. A faint smirk tugged at the corner of his mouth as he approached.

“Well, well,” John said, his voice laced with sarcasm. “Look who decided to rise from the dead. You sure you ain’t a ghost?”

Arthur snorted. “Would’ve been quieter if I was.”

John chuckled, giving Arthur a once-over. “You look like hell, but better than you did last week. Feelin’ any better?”

Arthur rubbed the back of his neck, still working out the soreness. “Gettin’ there. Thought I was gonna rot in that damn cot.”

John crossed his arms, leaning slightly against a nearby post. “Well, at least you’re up now. We were startin’ to think you’d never get off your ass.”

Arthur gave him a tired smirk. “Thought you’d be enjoyin’ the peace and quiet.”

“Yeah, maybe. But Grimshaw’s been fillin’ the silence with her barkin’ orders, so it’s been more like a trade-off.”

Arthur chuckled, though the movement made his chest ache. "Reckon that’s a fair price."

John paused, his tone softening slightly as he shifted his stance. “You should take it easy for a while. Don’t need to be doin' anything stupid too soon.”

Arthur gave him a look, though the concern didn’t go unnoticed. “Don’t worry, Marston. Ain’t plannin’ on doin’ anything too stupid... yet.”

“Yeah, well, with you, it’s only a matter of time,” John quipped, though there was a touch of fondness beneath the teasing.

“So, you really gonna drag yourself all the way to Rhodes on your own?” John raised an eyebrow, a faint smirk playing on his lips.

Arthur shrugged, but the strain in his movements was evident. “Hell, I’ve done worse.”

“Yeah, but usually you ain’t just crawled out of bed after nearly dyin’,” John shot back. “Grimshaw’ll have your head if you collapse halfway there.”

Arthur snorted, though he knew John was right. Before he could argue, Mrs. Grimshaw herself reappeared, having likely overheard them from across the camp. She approached with the same no-nonsense expression she always wore.

“You ain’t going anywhere on your own, Mr. Morgan,” she said bluntly, folding her arms. “You can barely stand without wincing like an old man. You wanna go to Rhodes, fine, but you’re not goin’ by yourself.”

Arthur opened his mouth to protest, but before he could say anything, Mrs. Grimshaw continued, “Sadie’s headin’ there anyway. She’s got some errands to run. You two can go together.”

John snickered, earning a glare from Grimshaw. “What?” he said innocently. “Just sounds like you’ve got everything all figured out.”

Grimshaw turned back to Arthur, her eyes narrowing. “I don’t care what either of you think. If you want to go, you’re ridin’ with Mrs. Adler. She’s more capable than most of you lot when it comes to keepin’ someone out of trouble anyway.”

Arthur sighed, knowing it was pointless to argue. “Fine, I’ll go with her.”

Just as he spoke, Sadie appeared near the campfire, glancing their way as she poured herself some coffee. Arthur raised a hand to get her attention.

“Looks like we’re takin’ a trip to Rhodes,” Arthur called out, his voice tired but laced with humor.

Mrs. Adler raised an eyebrow as she approached, catching onto the conversation immediately. “Is that so?” she said, her tone teasing. “And who decided that?”

“Grimshaw, mostly,” Arthur replied with a shrug.

Sadie’s eyes flicked to Mrs. Grimshaw, who gave her a stern nod of approval. “Well, if you’re headin’ to Rhodes, I could use the company. Got some things to take care of anyway,” she said with a small smile. “You up for it?”

Arthur smirked, though it didn’t fully hide the exhaustion in his face. “Reckon I’ll manage.”

“Good,” Sadie said. “But don’t slow me down too much.”

Arthur gave her a look of mock offense, but deep down, he was glad he wouldn’t be making the trip alone.

 


 

Arthur entered the Rhodes hotel with a slow gait, his limbs still stiff and sore from his recent ordeal. The cool air of the evening followed him in, mixing with the warm light from the lobby’s lamps. The hotel clerk, a balding man with a graying mustache, looked up from his desk as Arthur approached, nodding in acknowledgment.

"Evenin’," Arthur greeted with a grunt, leaning on the counter. "Need a bath."

The clerk gave a thin smile. "Of course, sir. That'll be fifty cents for a regular bath. But, for a small supplement, we offer assistance from one of the girls."

Arthur hesitated, his blue eyes clouding for a moment. The idea of someone seeing him in this state—a man barely held together, wounded, exhausted—wasn’t appealing. Then again, the thought of not having to strain his battered body further had its own appeal. After a second of deliberation, he fished out a few coins from his satchel and slid them across the counter.

"Yeah, sure," he muttered. "Have someone help."

The clerk nodded and rang a small bell. A minute later, a young woman with dark hair tied back in a loose bun appeared from the hallway. She flashed a polite smile at Arthur and motioned for him to follow.

The bathhouse was simple—wooden walls lined with hooks for clothes, a tub already filled with steaming water. Arthur let out a breath, already feeling some relief at the sight of it. He began to undress, his movements slow and deliberate, wincing as he stretched his sore shoulder.

As he sank into the water, the warmth enveloping him, he couldn’t help but close his eyes for a moment, letting out a small groan as the heat worked on his muscles. The girl gently rolled up her sleeves, preparing to scrub his back, her movements careful but practiced.

“You just relax, sir,” she said, her voice soft. “I’ll take care of the rest.”

Arthur gave a noncommittal grunt, focusing on the feeling of the water and the gentle touch of the girl as she worked.

Arthur shifted slightly in the tub, the warm water swirling around him as the girl worked the cloth over his back. The steam rose in gentle curls, softening the stiffness in his body, but his mind remained restless. He tried to focus on the sensation of being bathed, the methodical rhythm of the girl's hands scrubbing his skin, but thoughts of the past few weeks refused to let go.

He couldn’t help but think of her .

That night had been a blur of laughter, whiskey, and fleeting touches. He remembered her, how the two of them, drunk and reckless, had staggered back from a successful robbery. It was supposed to be a celebration—a moment of triumph amid the chaos of their lives. But the way she’d looked at him, with those striking hazel eyes that cut through his defenses... it had stirred something deep inside. They had crossed a line, one he hadn’t even realized was there until it was too late.

He wasn’t sure how to feel about it now. He liked Jo—hell, he respected her. She was tough, resilient, not one to back down from anything. But what they’d done, what they’d shared that night—it wasn’t just drunken foolishness. At least, not entirely. There was something more, something that scared him as much as it intrigued him. He wasn’t good at this sort of thing. Hell, he wasn’t good at much when it came to people.

The girl gently dipped the cloth into the water, wringing it out before running it over his arms. He sighed, trying to ease back into the moment, but then his mind wandered further.

The O’Driscolls.

That damn ambush.

He'd been reckless. Taken the bait like a fool and paid for it with bullets and bruises. Colm O'Driscoll had nearly killed him—twice, if you counted what happened back in that snowy mountain. And for what? A truce? A lie wrapped up in promises that meant nothing.

His shoulder ached at the thought, the wound still tender despite the weeks of healing. If not for Mrs. Grimshaw and Jo... Jo had been there, hadn't she? Even when she couldn't bear to be around him while he was conscious, she’d helped in other ways. He tried to remember flashes of her presence—her voice in the distance, the soft rustle of blankets she’d left behind. Even now, in the warmth of the bath, he could feel her hand on his forehead, pushing his damp hair back.

He could almost feel it—her touch, more careful, a bit rough around the edges but familiar. The way she’d brushed his hair back from his forehead when he was fevered and broken. The sensation was vivid in his mind, the imagined weight of her hands tracing over his shoulders, down his arms. For a moment, he let himself believe it was her tending to him now, easing the soreness from his body, the gentle scrape of her calloused fingers against his skin.

He exhaled, his eyes closing completely as his mind betrayed him, pulling him deeper into the fantasy. What would it be like if she were here, washing away the grime and the guilt? He imagined her leaning over the tub, her face focused but soft in the candlelight, the warmth of her breath mixing with the steam as she silently worked. Jo was no stranger to hardship, no stranger to the things that weighed on a man’s soul, and somehow that made the thought of her being here with him feel...right.

But just as quickly, guilt crept in.

What the hell was he doing, thinking like that? She wasn’t here, she never would be. Jo didn’t belong in this part of his life—this vulnerable part, the one that needed care, needed comfort. She was better than that. Stronger. She’d never look at him like this, not after what happened between them. Not after the mess he’d made.

Arthur blinked and opened his eyes again, reality crashing back in. The girl washing him was just that—a girl, a stranger doing her job, not Jo. His mind had played a trick on him, and now he felt a strange, aching emptiness.

His body may have been on the mend, but his mind... it was far from it.

The girl paused, her hands still for a moment. "You alright, mister?" she asked quietly, her tone cautious.

Arthur blinked again, realizing he’d been gripping the edge of the tub. He exhaled slowly, easing his grip and shaking off the thoughts that weighed him down. "Yeah," he muttered, his voice gruff. "Just a lot on my mind, is all."

She nodded, offering a faint smile, then resumed her work, scrubbing at the dirt and grime of the trail.

Arthur stared at the water, now tinged brown from the dust of the past weeks. The bath was supposed to be a reprieve, a chance to relax, to recover. But the weight of everything pressed too hard against him—the mistakes, the regrets, the things unsaid. He closed his eyes again, willing himself to focus on the present, just for a little while longer.

"That should do it," the girl said softly, stepping back as she finished. "Water’s gettin’ cold anyway."

Arthur nodded, sitting up in the tub and reaching for the towel nearby. He thanked her with a low grunt, drying himself off and dressing slowly. As the steam faded and the cool air of the hotel room pressed against his skin, he couldn't help but feel like the bath had only scrubbed away the dirt, leaving everything else right where it was.

 

Arthur stepped out of the hotel as nightfall settled over Rhodes, the last remnants of sunlight fading into a dim glow on the horizon. The air was thick with the familiar scent of dirt and heat, mixed with the faint smell of wood smoke from the few chimneys still billowing into the sky. Rhodes had always felt quieter than Valentine, more orderly somehow, but no less suffocating. Where Valentine was all chaos and noise, Rhodes hid its trouble beneath a polite façade, the kind of place that smiled in your face while something darker simmered just beneath the surface.

He stood on the wooden planks of the hotel’s porch for a moment, taking it all in. The town wasn’t large, just a handful of buildings neatly arranged around a main street. The general store stood nearby, a couple of wagons parked out front, and across from it, the sheriff’s office—far too quiet for a place with so many secrets. Beyond that, the Rhodes Saloon, its windows open, letting out the sound of laughter and clinking glasses, though the noise seemed distant in the evening air. People milled about, but it wasn’t bustling like Valentine. It was a strange kind of calm, like the eye of a storm.

Arthur’s gaze wandered as he adjusted his hat, squinting through the fading light. That’s when he spotted her—Sadie, standing near the saloon, looking like she was either waiting on someone or spoiling for trouble, and with Sadie, it could be both. But it wasn’t just her that caught his eye. Behind her, tethered to the post outside the saloon, was a familiar sight—Daisy.

His heart skipped a beat.

Jo was here.

Of all places, she was in Rhodes. The image of her horse, standing tall and calm as ever, pulled at something deep inside him. His thoughts flashed back to their last moments together, the drunken night they’d shared, and everything that had come after. He hadn’t seen her since—at least, not really. She’d been avoiding him, or maybe he’d been avoiding her, he wasn’t sure anymore. But seeing her horse now, just there, stirred a rush of feelings that he hadn’t quite managed to bury.

Arthur's chest tightened with a mix of emotions he didn't know what to do with. Was she here for business, or had she come to Rhodes for something else? Was she thinking about him, about what happened between them, or had she moved on already, like nothing had changed? He wasn’t sure if he wanted to go in there and find out. Part of him was tempted to turn around and just head the other way. Let her be.

But another part of him—one he couldn’t quite ignore—was drawn to that saloon like it held the answers to all the things that had been weighing him down.

Arthur wandered over toward Sadie, catching her attention as she glanced up from inspecting her saddle.

"Cleaned up nice, I see," she remarked with a smirk.

"Somethin' like that," Arthur replied with a slight chuckle. They stood in comfortable silence for a beat before Sadie’s gaze shifted past him. Her brow furrowed in thought, and she gestured toward the saloon.

“Ain’t that Jo’s horse over there?”

Arthur followed her line of sight, his eyes landing on the familiar silhouette of Daisy, tethered outside the saloon. 

“Yeah... reckon it is,” he muttered, his gaze lingering a moment longer than necessary, then he turned back to Sadie.

“You reckon she’s here on some errand?” she asked, glancing between him and the saloon.

“Maybe,” Arthur replied, though a knot was forming in his gut. He couldn't shake the feeling that something was off.

Sadie narrowed her eyes at him. “You gonna check on her or what?”

Arthur let out a sigh, rubbing his neck. “Reckon I should.”

Sadie gave him a shrug. “Up to you. I’ll be here.”

With another glance toward Daisy, Arthur headed for the saloon. The evening crowd had already settled in, the dim light inside flickering against the worn wood as he pushed open the door. The thick scent of tobacco and alcohol clung to the air, a haze of smoke hanging over the dimly lit room. As his eyes adjusted to the dim light, Arthur spotted the usual crowd—rough men nursing whiskey, a few card players huddled in a corner, and the piano man playing some ragged tune no one was paying attention to. He took a step toward the bar but stopped dead in his tracks.

She was seated at a small table, laughing at something a man across from her had said. Arthur’s boots slowed, the half-smile that had been creeping across his face fading in an instant.

He didn’t know who the fella was. Didn’t matter. The way he leaned in, a little too close, made Arthur’s gut twist. Jo looked comfortable, relaxed, her posture loose as she chuckled at something the man said. Her laugh—the one that usually brought a warmth to Arthur’s chest—felt like a slap now.

Arthur’s jaw tightened as he stood there, watching from across the room, his hand hovering just above his gun belt out of habit. The stranger was leaning forward, his eyes never leaving Jo, saying something that made her laugh again. The sound rang out across the saloon, but this time it grated against Arthur’s nerves.

What the hell was she doin’ here with him?

Jo wasn’t his. Hell, she could sit with whoever she wanted. But the sight of her with this stranger—it dug under his skin like a thorn he couldn’t pull out. His chest tightened, and that familiar, protective instinct flared up, the one that made him want to march over there and drag her out of the saloon himself. But he couldn’t. He shouldn’t .

His fingers flexed at his side, itching for something to do—anything to stop the burning sensation in his chest. It was ridiculous, this whole thing. She was her own woman, and he had no right to interfere. But God, seeing her with another man, the way she laughed at his words, like she didn’t have a care in the world, it stirred something deep in him he wasn’t ready to face.

The barkeep caught his eye, nodding toward him. “What’ll it be?”

Arthur’s mouth opened to respond, but no words came out. He glanced back at Jo one last time, her head tilted toward the man as if she were listening intently to whatever nonsense he was saying. Arthur’s stomach twisted painfully, and suddenly, the thought of a drink didn’t seem so appealing.

Without a word, Arthur turned on his heel and pushed his way back through the saloon doors. The cool night air hit his face as he stepped outside, but it did little to soothe the bitter edge of what he was feeling. He took a deep breath, forcing the knot in his chest to loosen as he stared down the dusty road ahead.

It was better this way. If he stayed, he knew his temper would get the better of him, and the last thing he needed was to make a fool of himself in front of her. Jo didn’t owe him anything, least of all an explanation. But damn if it didn’t hurt more than he cared to admit.

He muttered a curse under his breath and headed toward Atlas, trying to shake the image of her laughing with that stranger, knowing it would stick with him far longer than he wanted it to.

When he reached Sadie, she was still securing her things, glancing over at him with a questioning look.

“Let’s go,” Arthur muttered, his voice rough, almost as if he was trying to push the words through clenched teeth.

“Haven’t seen her?” Sadie asked, eyeing him closely.

Arthur looked away, tugging on the reins. “Seen plenty enough.”

With a final glance at the saloon, Arthur mounted his horse with a grunt. Sadie didn’t press him further, but there was a knowing look in her eyes. Without another word, they set off, the sounds of Rhodes fading behind them as they rode out into the gathering dusk, but the image of Jo’s laughter stayed with Arthur, gnawing at him all the way back to camp.

 

Chapter 8: The Bitter Taste of Jealousy

Summary:

Trelawny comes to camp with a job offer.

Chapter Text

The dawn was just breaking as Jo returned to camp, the early morning light casting a pale glow across the quiet camp. The faintest orange touched the tops of the trees, and only a few camp members stirred, slowly rising from their tents or beginning their morning chores. Jo made her way to the campfire, its embers still crackling as a welcoming warmth filled the early chill.

She poured herself a cup of coffee, taking a moment to savor the steam rising from the tin cup, feeling it ease the exhaustion that clung to her. As she settled on a nearby crate, Lenny appeared from behind the wagon, stifling a yawn and blinking against the early light.

“Jo, you back already?” he asked, sounding genuinely surprised.

“Couldn’t stand the idea of another minute in Rhodes,” she replied with a hint of a grin, taking a sip of the strong coffee.

Lenny chuckled, nodding as he poured his own cup. “You won’t hear any arguments from me on that one. Ain’t much more to that place than heat and headaches.”

Just as Lenny settled down with his coffee, Hosea strolled over, stretching his back and rubbing the sleep from his eyes. He offered a warm smile as he approached, looking from Jo to Lenny.

“Well, what do we have here? You two are up bright and early. Or maybe just up late?” he teased, his voice carrying that familiar, gentle humor.

Jo gave a small chuckle, holding her cup between her hands. “Early, surprisingly,” she replied. 

Late more like, if one considers not sleeping at all. But she wasn't about to reveal that. Jo took a steadying sip of her coffee, feeling the warmth settle into her. She forced a calm exterior, though her mind was still replaying yesterday's encounter. Seeing Ben—no, Benjamin —after all those years had been the last thing she’d expected. The boy who used to be a constant in her early life was now a man, his easy smile and familiar eyes layered with an unexpected charm that left her more rattled than she cared to admit.

"Figured it was about time I came home,” she said lightly, forcing a smile.

Jo downed the last of her coffee, letting the bitter taste linger before rising to her feet. She tucked the empty cup by her side and made her way to the camp funds chest, dropping in the bundle from the Downes' debt with a decisive clink. At least that part of the job was over.

As she turned, her gaze landed on Arthur, standing outside his tent, stretching his arms and rolling his shoulders. Relief flooded her; after everything he’d been through, seeing him back on his feet brought her a comfort she hadn’t realized she was holding her breath for. She made her way over, a small smile on her face, glad to catch him alone.

But as she neared, he turned, his usual easy expression replaced with something colder, distant.

“Mornin’, Arthur,” she greeted, hoping to shake him out of it. “Lookin’ better already.”

He nodded curtly. “Mornin’,” he replied, his tone stiff.

Jo paused, thrown by his unusual mood. She’d expected a quick smile, maybe a bit of small talk, but he was already looking off toward the horses, dismissing her as if she’d merely wandered by. A twinge of confusion settled in her chest, mingled with an unexpected sting.

“Somethin’ wrong?” she asked, keeping her tone light, though her mind drifted back to that night after the robbery. Maybe he was regretting it, she thought, or maybe it was the way she’d left him afterward. She shifted on her feet, trying not to let her concern show. “If I did somethin’, you could just—”

“Nah, just been busy,” he cut in, voice hardening, though he still didn’t look at her. “Ain’t no need for you to check up on me.”

Stung, she gave a short nod, retreating a step. “Alright then… if that’s what you want.”

Arthur finally glanced at her, but there was a shadow there she didn’t understand, something guarded and sharp. Without another word, she turned, feeling a strange ache as she walked away, wondering if it was the night they’d spent together or something else entirely that was keeping him so far from her now.

Arthur headed over to Atlas, giving the big horse a firm pat along the neck. He muttered a few calming words, his touch easing the tension in his hands if not in his mind. He noticed Kieran loitering nearby, keeping to his usual quiet corner by the horses, and gave him a quick nod. Kieran straightened, nodding back in his hesitant way, as if half afraid of interrupting Arthur’s brooding.

Arthur gave Atlas’s mane one final pat, mumbling reassurances to the horse. He noticed John’s approach by the horses, his usual laid-back posture undercut by the determined look in his eyes.

“Had a feeling you’d end up here, talkin' to him,” John said, nodding toward Atlas. “Didn’t peg you as someone to take things out on the folks lookin' after you, though. Hell of a way to thank her, Morgan.”

Arthur’s brow creased, and he shrugged dismissively. “If you got somethin’ to say, spit it out.”

John crossed his arms, giving Arthur a steady look. “I’m just saying, Jo’s been puttin’ in more time than anyone, lookin' after you. You wouldn’t know, though, would you?”

Arthur’s jaw tightened, glancing away. “Reckon I’ll thank her properly when I get around to it.”

“No, I reckon you won’t,” John shot back, voice firm. “You don’t see it, do you? She feels bad, Arthur. Feels like what happened to you is her fault. You think dismissing her like that’s fair, after what she’s been through?”

Arthur clenched his fists, his eyes hardening. “Whatever she told you... that’s between her and me. You mind your own, Marston. Ain’t none of your business.”

John let out a bitter laugh. “You think it’s not? She told me ‘cause she needed to talk to someone. And I reckon she told me because she thought you might feel somethin' too. So maybe you sort out whatever’s goin' on in that head of yours, before it ends up worse than it already is.”

Arthur gritted his teeth. “Maybe you oughta worry more ‘bout that family of yours, and less ‘bout somethin' you don’t understand.”

John’s mouth set in a hard line. “Fine,” he said shortly, voice simmering. “You’re right. I’ll stick to my own family. And you can keep breakin’ your own.”

Arthur shrugged off the comment, but a flicker of hurt crossed his face as John turned and strode away, leaving Arthur with a bristling sense of guilt and more to think about than he wanted.

Around the same time, the rhythmic clopping of hooves echoed from beyond the camp’s edge, accompanied by the unmistakable, theatrical flourish of Josiah Trelawny’s voice carrying over the morning.

“Ladies and gentlemen, you’ll never believe the misadventures I’ve endured to bring you fine folk a golden opportunity!”

Josiah rode into camp atop his appaloosa, Gwydion, his posture as proud as a stage performer’s, his slicked-back hair and carefully groomed mustache looking untouched by the journey. He doffed his hat in a grand gesture, sweeping it through the air as he looked around at his audience.

“Ah, Arthur! Just the man I hoped to see,” he exclaimed with the enthusiasm of someone greeting an old friend after years apart.

Sliding off his horse with effortless grace, he dusted off his coat and tucked his hat under one arm. Trelawny’s gaze then began darting around the camp, his expression one of focused determination. “Now, where is Miss Harper?” he inquired, tilting his head dramatically. “Surely she hasn’t wandered too far? I’ve got a proposition for the two of you that’s simply too good to ignore.”

Arthur, still brooding from the morning’s events, crossed his arms and narrowed his eyes. “Trelawny, if you’ve got some scheme, you might as well just spill it.”

Josiah smirked, undeterred by Arthur’s gruffness. “All in due time, my friend. But this particular venture requires a touch of subtlety, a pinch of charm, and—dare I say—an exquisite blend of skill and wit. I could hardly think of a better pair than you and Miss Harper for the task.”

Arthur’s jaw tightened at the mention of Jo. “She’s around,” he muttered, jerking his head in the general direction of the camp. “Don’t know if she’ll be keen on your ‘opportunity,’ though.”

“Ah, Arthur,” Trelawny said with a knowing grin, placing a hand over his chest in mock offense. “You wound me! I assure you, this is no run-of-the-mill errand. This is a job worthy of our talents.” He paused, raising a hand to his brow as if scanning the horizon. “Now, where is she? Shall we fetch her together? Or do you think she’ll respond better to my charm if I find her myself?”

Arthur sighed, clearly unamused, but gestured for Trelawny to follow. “C’mon, let’s get this over with. But if she throws you out, don’t say I didn’t warn you.”

As Arthur and Trelawny strolled through camp, the latter adjusted his coat, his gait as jaunty as ever. He glanced sideways at Arthur, who walked with his usual deliberate pace, hands resting on his gun belt.

“How did things go with that little tip I sent your way a while back? The house, remember? Lovely place, tucked away in the woods?"

Arthur shot him a sidelong glance, his face a thundercloud of irritation. "Oh, you mean the house that was supposed to be empty? The one that wasn't ?"

Josiah winced theatrically, placing a hand over his heart. "Oh dear. Not the smooth sailing I anticipated, then?"

Arthur scoffed, shaking his head. "Yeah, smooth sailin'. Just me, Jo, and the damn owner coming back. Nearly turned into a shootout." His tone carried a sharp edge, and he kicked a small rock out of his path. "Would’ve been nice if your information was, y’know, accurate ."

Trelawny clucked his tongue, looking genuinely pained for a moment—though, with Trelawny, it was hard to tell where sincerity ended and dramatics began. "Arthur, you wound me. I only pass along the most reliable intelligence I can find! Unforeseen circumstances do occur from time to time."

Arthur let out a dry laugh, one entirely devoid of humor. "Unforeseen, huh? Maybe next time, foresee ‘em a little better."

They walked in silence for a few moments before Josiah attempted to recover. "Well," he said brightly, "the important thing is, you made it out alive. And from what I hear, you and Miss Harper make quite the formidable team."

Arthur’s jaw tightened, and he kept his gaze fixed ahead. "Yeah, a real blessin'," he muttered under his breath, though the tone suggested otherwise.

Josiah, sensing the sour mood lingering, opted not to push further.

As they approached the lake, Arthur spotted Jo standing near the shore, her boots set aside on the grass. Her bare feet were submerged in the shallow water, her posture relaxed as she let the morning sunlight warm her skin. The serene scene made Arthur pause for a moment, though he’d never admit to it.

Trelawny, however, had no hesitation. His face lit up in delight as if he'd stumbled upon a rare treasure. “Ah, Miss Harper!” he exclaimed, quickening his step. “Such a vision this fine morning! You brighten the very air around you.”

Jo turned her head at the sound of his voice, smiling faintly when she saw the two men approaching. “Josiah,” she greeted, her tone even, ignoring Arthur who stood next to Trelawny on purpose. “What brings you here so early?”

Trelawny strode up to her with his usual theatrical flair as she stepped out of the water. He took her hand before she could react, lifting it with a flourish. “Only my keen sense of opportunity, dear lady. I couldn’t resist gracing you with my presence.” He pressed a light kiss to her knuckles, his eyes twinkling with charm.

Jo chuckled softly, shaking her head but letting him have his moment. “You’re nothing if not consistent,” she replied, amused.

Arthur, standing a few steps back, clenched his jaw slightly. His gaze flickered between Jo’s laugh and the smug glint in Trelawny’s eye.

“Miss Harper, you do realize that laughter like yours could drive a man to poetry,” Trelawny added smoothly, stepping back with a mock bow. “I’d recite some now, but alas, I fear it’d pale next to your radiance.”

Jo rolled her eyes, though her smile lingered. “And to think I was just enjoying the peace and quiet.”

Arthur cleared his throat, stepping forward. “You done, Trelawny? Or are we waitin’ for the whole damn lake to swoon?”

Trelawny turned to Arthur with a sly grin. “Ah, Arthur. Always the realist. You’ll forgive me for bringing a bit of light-heartedness to the day.” He gestured grandly toward the lake. “But, alas, duty calls. I’ve come to enlist the help of two of the gang’s finest.”

Jo arched a brow, crossing her arms. “And what exactly are you roping us into?”

“A stagecoach robbery,” Trelawny began, his tone shifting into that of a storyteller. “A fine specimen of a coach, brimming with valuable goods. I’ve done my research, of course, and this time…” He glanced at Arthur with a playful smirk. “I assure you, there should be no complications.”

Arthur grunted, his irritation barely masked. “We’ll see about that.”

Trelawny, unperturbed, turned back to Jo. “Now, Miss Harper, I trust you’ll be the voice of reason. A duo like you and Arthur—why, it’s practically destiny.”

Jo smirked faintly, tilting her head. “I’ll consider it,” she said, glancing at Arthur. “If he’s not going to keep sulking, that is.”

Arthur scowled but said nothing, his focus already shifting toward the lake as if it held all the answers. Trelawny chuckled to himself, clearly enjoying the interplay between the two. "Excellent," he declared. "I'll be waiting for your decision. But do let’s not take too long—opportunity, as they say, waits for no one."

 

It didn’t take long for Jo to make up her mind. The promise of action and distraction from her thoughts was too tempting to resist. Soon, she was mounting her horse alongside Arthur and Trelawny, ready to ride toward the river road through Siltwater Strand.

The morning sun filtered through the trees as they rode, casting golden light over the winding path. Jo found herself riding beside Trelawny, who, true to form, had already begun weaving his usual web of charming banter.

“So, Miss Harper,” he said with a grin, his voice rich and theatrical, “tell me—what draws a lady of your evident talents into such a peculiar life? Surely you’ve had more refined suitors than those you find among this lot.” He gestured vaguely toward Arthur, who rode a few paces ahead, silently brooding.

Jo chuckled, playing along. “Oh, countless suitors,” she replied dryly, her tone dripping with mock seriousness. “But I find there’s something irresistibly… thrilling about this peculiar life, as you call it.”

“Ah,” Trelawny said, nodding as if he’d uncovered some great truth. “A woman of daring and mystery. Truly a rare gem.” He tipped his hat dramatically.

Jo let out a light laugh, tossing a glance toward Arthur. His shoulders were stiff, his eyes fixed firmly on the road ahead. She couldn’t help but notice how his grip on the reins tightened whenever Trelawny’s voice carried over.

Leaning slightly toward Trelawny, she added, “Though I must admit, it’s not the life itself—it’s the company that keeps it interesting.”

Arthur’s horse shifted slightly beneath him as if sensing its rider’s tension. “Y’gonna talk the whole way, or do we get a moment of peace?” Arthur muttered over his shoulder, his voice low and curt.

Jo smirked, clearly enjoying his reaction. “Oh, lighten up, Arthur,” she called. “Not all of us enjoy riding in silence.”

Trelawny chuckled, clearly pleased with himself. “Arthur, my friend, you ought to appreciate such lively company. Life is dull without a bit of conversation, wouldn’t you agree?”

Arthur didn’t respond, keeping his gaze forward and his jaw set. Jo exchanged a knowing glance with Trelawny, who raised a brow as if to say he’s making this too easy.

The rest of the ride was filled with more of Trelawny’s stories—most of which were undoubtedly exaggerated—and Jo’s playful responses. She wasn’t oblivious to Arthur’s growing frustration. In fact, she leaned into it, testing just how far she could push.

By the time they reached the turnoff toward the river road, Arthur’s mood had soured even further. But Jo couldn’t help but feel a small flicker of satisfaction. If Arthur didn’t like other men talking to her, well, that was his problem, wasn’t it?

The plan was simple enough: Trelawny and Jo would play the distraction, stopping the stagecoach with one of Trelawny’s elaborate performances while Arthur stayed back, unseen, to pick the lock on the strongbox and collect the valuables inside. Simple plans, Arthur reminded himself, rarely stayed that way.

From the cover of some brush, Arthur watched as Josiah and Jo flagged down the coach. Trelawny's voice carried over the road, full of theatrical urgency. He gestured wildly, spinning a tale about a stranded wagon and a desperate need for assistance. Jo stood at his side, her expression a perfect blend of despair and concern. Her talents in all their glory.

The driver slowed the coach to a stop, and Arthur crept from his hiding spot, keeping low as he approached the back. His movements were quick and deliberate, the lock picks sliding into place as he worked on the strongbox. The faint sound of the coachman and guards chatting with Trelawny and Jo reached him, but his focus remained on the lock. With a soft click, the strongbox yielded.

Arthur began to grab the contents—a stack of bonds, some jewelry, and a pouch of coins—when he heard it. A sudden shift in tone from the guards, followed by a sharp command: “Hey! What’s he doing back there?”

Arthur swore under his breath, spinning around just as one of the guards came barreling toward him, rifle in hand. The man barely had time to raise it before Arthur's revolver barked, dropping him in the dirt.

Another guard jumped down from the coach, firing a shotgun blast that forced Arthur to dive behind the rear wheel for cover. The report of Jo’s pistol joined the fray, followed by Trelawny’s louder, more sporadic shots—likely aimed more to distract than to hit anything.

Arthur peeked out, squeezing off a shot that hit the guard in the shoulder, sending him sprawling. 

“Damn it,” Arthur muttered, his revolver cracking again as another man on horseback charged at him. The rider slumped from his saddle, but not before firing a wild shot that nearly grazed Arthur’s arm.

It was over in moments, the last shot ringing in Arthur’s ears as the dust settled around him, the smell of gunpowder still sharp in the air. His heart was pounding, his hands still firm on his revolver, scanning for any remaining threats. He holstered it with a sharp exhale, shaking off the adrenaline.

Then he saw her.

Jo was lying on the ground, unmoving, her hat a few feet away and a dark smear of dirt on her cheek. Arthur’s chest tightened as he rushed toward her, the loot, the coach, everything else forgotten in an instant.

“Jo!” His voice cracked, rough with panic as he dropped to his knees beside her. His hands hovered over her, not knowing where to start. “Shit, shit... You’re hit? Jo, dammit, talk to me!”

She stayed still for just a beat longer before cracking open one eye and smirking up at him. “Gotcha.”

Arthur froze, his wide-eyed worry twisting into something sharper. “Gotcha?” he repeated, his voice low and dangerous.

Jo pushed herself up to sit, brushing dirt off her sleeves. “Relax, Arthur. I’m fine.”

“Fine?” Arthur barked, his voice rising as his worry turned into fury. “You were layin’ there like you were done for! Jesus, woman, you don’t play around with somethin’ like that!”

She didn’t smile. “You’re yellin’,” she stated very calmly, eating up his reaction.

“Of course I’m yellin’! Was yellin’ at you when you were pretendin’ to be dead on the ground, takin’ ten years of my life,” he snapped, his face going red at the cheeks. “I thought—” He shot her a sharp look that almost alarmed her. “Don’t ever do that to me again, ya hear? I’m too old and could’ve died of a heart attack.”

Fuck, he’d really been worried. She loved it. She loved it so much she snorted. “I would say claiming you’re too old is a bit debatable, don’t you think?”

The outlaw tilted his head up and cursed something low. “You were brought to this planet to give me an ulcer, weren’t you?”

“It’s only fair after what you did this morning,” she said nonchalantly, crossing her arms.

Arthur stiffened, his frown deepening. “What I did this mornin’?”

Jo cocked a brow, tilting her head with exaggerated patience. “Don’t play dumb, Arthur. You all but barked at me when I tried to talk to you.”

His jaw tightened, but he said nothing.

“Cold shoulder, biting remarks... you’ve got quite the arsenal,” she added, her tone teasing, though her eyes betrayed a flicker of something more serious. “What’s your problem, anyway?”

Arthur sighed heavily, looking away as he adjusted his hat. “Ain’t got no problem.”

“Sure doesn’t seem that way,” Jo replied, her voice dropping a little. “One second, you’re knockin’ on death’s door, and I’m the one lookin’ after you. The next, you can barely stand to be near me.” She studied him for a moment, her arms still crossed. “If I didn’t know better, I’d think you were mad about somethin’. Did I do something wrong?”

“I ain’t mad,” Arthur muttered, a little too quickly.

“Hmm,” Jo hummed skeptically. “Could’ve fooled me.”

Arthur’s lips pressed into a thin line, his gaze flickering toward her before darting away again. “Ain’t nothin’ to talk about.”

Jo sighed, her earlier amusement dimming. “Fine, keep your secrets, Morgan. But don’t go actin’ like I’m the one causin’ trouble when you’re the one sulkin’ like a wet cat.”

She didn’t wait for his reply. Turning sharply on her heel, she let out a short whistle, and her horse trotted over obediently. Jo swung herself up into the saddle with ease, brushing off the dust on her pants before nudging her horse forward.

“See you back at camp,” she called over her shoulder, her tone light but distant. She didn’t glance back, didn’t care whether Arthur was following or not.

Arthur stayed where he was, watching her ride off, his jaw tight and his chest heavy. He reached up to adjust his hat, muttering something under his breath, but whatever words came to mind didn’t make it out.

“You’ve got quite the charm with the ladies, my friend,” came Josiah’s smooth voice from behind him, his tone dripping with theatrical amusement.

Arthur shot him a sharp look. “Not now, Trelawny.”

Josiah chuckled, unbothered. “Oh, come now, Arthur. Surely you don’t think I’d let that little exchange pass without comment.” He strolled closer, hands clasped behind his back, his grin as sly as ever. “It’s an art, you know—talking to women. One you’ve apparently yet to master.”

Arthur groaned, rubbing the bridge of his nose. “Don’t you have somethin’ better to do?”

“Not at the moment, no,” Josiah replied cheerfully. “But don’t worry, Arthur. I’m sure Miss Harper will forgive your... unique approach. Eventually.”

Arthur didn’t respond, merely muttered something under his breath as he headed toward his horse, leaving Trelawny to chuckle to himself.

Chapter 9: Disturbing the Peace

Summary:

Tensions ease as Arthur and Josephine finally begin to open up.

Chapter Text

The midday sun was high in the sky, its heat beating down on the dirt road winding through the woods. Jo had kept her pace steady, her horse plodding along as if sharing her mood—calm on the surface but restless underneath. She wasn’t in any hurry to get back to camp, dreading the usual buzz of voices and prying eyes.

The sound of hoofbeats rushing up behind her broke her reverie. Jo frowned, glancing over her shoulder just as Arthur’s horse pulled up alongside hers. Before she could react, he reined in sharply, his horse skidding into her path, forcing her to stop.

“Arthur, what the hell–” she started, tugging her reins to steady her horse, who huffed and shifted under her.

Arthur didn’t answer right away. His gaze locked on hers, his expression shadowed by something unreadable. “We need to talk,” he said, his voice low.

Jo raised an eyebrow, her irritation simmering. “ Oh , now you wanna talk? Could’ve fooled me with the way you’ve been actin’ all morning.”

He ignored her jab. “I saw you last night.”

Jo blinked, thrown off by the comment. “What about last night?”

“At the saloon,” Arthur clarified. “Saw you with that man.”

Her expression hardened slightly. “And? You were at the saloon too, so what’s your point?”

Arthur hesitated, his jaw tightening. “Who’s he anyway?”

Jo sighed, her fingers twitching on the reins. “No one.” She glanced away, her voice steady but distant. 

Arthur’s gaze didn’t waver. “Really?”

“Yeah,” she said firmly, meeting his eyes again. “He’s nobody.”

Arthur grunted, his tone stiff. “Seemed like you two had a lot to catch up on.”

Jo tilted her head, her eyes narrowing. “What’re you gettin’ at, Arthur? You think I owe you an explanation for havin’ a conversation?”

“Ain’t what I’m sayin’,” he muttered, though his voice carried an edge.

“Then what’re you sayin’?” she pressed irritatedly, leaning forward slightly in her saddle.

Arthur let out a sharp breath, looking away briefly before locking eyes with her again. “I don’t know, alright? Just didn’t sit right, seein’ you like that.”

Jo stared at him, a mix of irritation and disbelief flashing across her face. “You’re somethin’ else, Morgan,” she muttered, shaking her head. “If you’ve got somethin’ to say, just say it. Otherwise, don’t waste my time.”

Arthur opened his mouth, but the words seemed to catch in his throat. Finally, he shook his head. “Forget it.”

Jo’s frustration bubbled over before she could stop herself. “Why do you always have to be so goddamn stubborn, Arthur? Just say what you mean for once!”

Arthur’s brows furrowed, his face tightening at the jab. He’d been trying—hell, he’d been more open with her than with anyone else—but it never seemed enough. “Don’t know what you want me to say, Jo. Thought I was doin’ just that.”

“Well, you ain’t!” she snapped, her voice louder than she intended. “You’re just—ugh, forget it.” She looked away, anger and regret colliding in her chest.

Arthur’s lips pressed into a thin line, his jaw ticking. “Ain’t just me that’s stubborn,” he muttered.

The words stung more than they should have, not because they weren’t true, but because they hit the nerve she tried so hard to bury. Her defenses shot up. “You don’t know the first thing about me, Arthur.”

His eyes flashed with something unspoken, something deeper. “Maybe not. Maybe you ain’t letting anyone know.”

That did it. She recoiled, her earlier anger replaced by a pang of guilt so sharp it left her breathless. The words she spat at him moments ago seemed to echo back, mocking her.

Jo’s gaze dropped to her hands on the reins, her knuckles white from gripping too hard. She swallowed the lump in her throat and spoke before she could stop herself. “Sorry,” she murmured, so quiet it was almost lost in the breeze.

Arthur glanced at her, the single word ringing louder in his mind than anything else she could’ve said. Sorry . It looped endlessly in his head.

Jo was sorry for snapping at him, sorry for opening up, sorry for letting him see the cracks in the armor she worked so hard to keep intact. But all Arthur could see when he looked at her was a girl who wanted to be loved.

And he couldn’t love her.
He didn’t know how to love himself.

Jo felt the weight of his silence and hated herself for causing it. She’d spent so long building walls that even the thought of someone peeking over them sent her into defense mode. She was so determined to never let another man hurt her that she went and did the hurting instead.

She’d taken the excellent, top-notch, exceptionally fucking splendid boy and ruined him.

Her chest tightened, and she forced herself to meet his gaze again, the regret swimming in her hazel eyes as raw as the tension between them. “I didn’t mean it,” she whispered, her voice trembling.

Arthur gave a small, almost imperceptible nod, but he didn’t say anything. He didn’t need to. His silence spoke volumes, both forgiving and condemning in equal measure.

They rode on in quiet, the distance between them feeling both immeasurable and impossibly small. For a moment, neither dared to speak again, both too lost in their own tangled emotions to find the right words.

The silence between them stretched like the plains they rode across, only the soft clop of hooves breaking the tension. Arthur’s gaze flicked toward Jo as she rode beside him, her posture stiff and unreadable. 

He cleared his throat, his voice gruff when he finally spoke. “’Bout that night… in Van Horn.”

Jo’s hands tightened on the reins, her stomach twisting at the mention of it. “What about it?” she asked, feigning nonchalance, though her heart was already pounding.

Arthur hesitated, his jaw working as he searched for the right words. “I… I been thinkin’ on it. On us, I guess.”

Jo’s pulse quickened at his admission, though she kept her face turned toward the horizon. “What’s there to think about? We were drunk. It happened. End of story.”

Her words were sharp, a defensive edge lacing her tone. But deep down, she felt the sting of her own dismissal. She wasn’t ready to admit how much it had been gnawing at her.

Arthur sighed, his shoulders sagging. He glanced at her again, the midday sun catching her just right—turning strands of her blonde hair into threads of gold, glowing like the halo of someone far too good for the life they led. Her silhouette, sharp against the bright horizon, might’ve looked hardened to anyone else—strong shoulders, chin held high, always carrying that stubborn fire in her stance. But Arthur knew better. Beneath that tough exterior was a softness few ever got to see, a woman who’d held herself together far too long, like porcelain forced to be steel. His gaze lingered, tracing the curve of her face down to her lips—soft and full, the kind that could hush a man’s anger with a single word or steal his breath with a smile. He looked away quickly, his chest tightening as the thought struck him.

Had that man in Rhodes seen this side of her? The one Arthur wasn’t sure he had a right to see? Did she smile for him, tell him things she wouldn’t dare say to Arthur? That idea bit at him like the cold wind rolling across the plains, stirring something raw in his chest—something that felt an awful lot like jealousy. He clenched his jaw, the bitter thought sticking to him like mud. He had no right to feel this way—no reason to.

And yet, no matter how hard he tried, he couldn’t shake it.

“If it’s the end of the story, why’ve we been actin’ like strangers since then?”

The question hit her like a blow to the chest. Jo bit her lip, her resolve cracking. “I don’t know,” she admitted softly, her voice barely audible over the sound of the horses.

Arthur slowed his horse slightly, forcing her to glance his way. His eyes were steady, searching hers for something—anything—that could explain the knot in his chest. “I don’t regret it,” he said, his voice low but earnest.

Jo’s breath caught. She hadn’t expected that. She didn’t know what she’d expected, but it wasn’t this. Her gaze darted to the ground, her chest tightening as a mix of relief and fear coursed through her.

“Well, maybe I do,” she said quietly, though her words lacked conviction.

Arthur’s brows furrowed, a flicker of hurt crossing his face. “Why?”

“Because it’s complicated,” Jo said, her voice rising slightly. “Because I can’t figure out what I feel, and I don’t want to ruin what we have. You’re… you’re my friend, Arthur. One of the only people I trust.”

Friend. The word hung in the air, sour and stifling. Arthur nodded slowly, though the knot in his chest only tightened. He wanted to say something, anything, to break through the wall she was building between them. But what could he say? That he wasn’t good enough for her, even if he wanted to be? That the idea of her trusting someone else made his blood boil?

Arthur looked away, his jaw clenching. “Same here. But that don’t mean I ain’t been wonderin’ what it all meant.”

Jo’s heart ached at the vulnerability in his tone. She hated how much she wanted to reach out to him, to smooth the lines of worry from his face. But instead, she crossed her arms over her chest, as if trying to shield herself from her own emotions. “It didn’t have to mean anything,” she said, though the words tasted bitter.

Arthur’s lips pressed into a thin line. He didn’t believe her, not entirely. “That what you really want? For it to mean nothin’?”

Jo’s gaze snapped to his, her eyes wide and conflicted. “I don’t know what I want, Arthur. I’ve spent my whole damn life not knowin’. But I know I don’t wanna lose you...”

Her voice cracked on the last word, and Arthur felt his chest tighten. He hadn’t realized how much he needed to hear her say that—how much he’d needed reassurance that this thing between them hadn’t destroyed their bond.

“You ain’t losin’ me,” he said softly, the words carrying more weight than he intended. “But… I dunno what I want either.”

Jo nodded, her throat tight. She didn’t trust herself to speak, afraid that whatever she said next might unravel everything they were trying so hard to hold together.

They rode on in silence for a while, the tension between them easing, though it didn’t disappear entirely. Arthur’s thoughts drifted back to Rhodes, to the man Jo had gone to see. He hated himself for wanting to ask more, for needing to know if that man had any claim on her heart. But the words caught in his throat, tangled up with his own insecurities.

Who was he? An old friend? A lover? That last thought made Arthur’s stomach twist uncomfortably. He hated himself for even thinking it, for feeling that familiar burn of jealousy. She didn’t owe him any explanations. Hell, she didn’t owe him anything. But the idea of her with someone else—it stuck like a thorn under his skin.

As the tension began to ease, Jo couldn’t tell if she felt reassured or more adrift than before. Arthur, for his part, didn’t dare dig deeper into his emotions—he wasn’t ready to face whatever was stirring beneath the surface.

For now, it was enough for both of them, even if neither truly believed it.

 


 

Jo’s horse clattered into camp, the familiar sights and sounds of Clemens Point greeting her like a reluctant embrace. Arthur had split off a ways back, muttering something about hunting near the tree line to keep the gang fed. The weight of the conversation with Arthur still clung to her like damp clothes, but she pushed it aside. She needed to keep busy, keep her hands occupied. Thinking too much had always been her undoing.

Sliding off Daisy, Jo felt her boots sink into the dry dirt. She reached for the small fox she’d tied to her saddle, its limp body still warm but already stiffening. “Sorry, little guy,” she muttered under her breath, running a thumb over the russet fur before she made her way toward Pearson’s station.

The cook was hunched over his makeshift workbench, humming something low and tuneless. The moment he saw her approaching with the fox, his brows rose in surprise.

“Well, look at you, bringin’ me a gift,” Pearson said, his voice tinged with sarcasm as he set down the knife he’d been sharpening. “What’s this, charity? Or did Daisy here have herself a little accident?”

Jo smirked faintly, the corners of her mouth barely lifting. “She stepped on it. Poor thing didn’t stand a chance. Figured you might be able to save some of the meat.”

Pearson examined the fox, turning it over in his hands. “Not much here, but beggars can’t be choosers. It’ll make a stew… if you don’t mind it lean.”

“Better than air,” Jo replied, leaning her weight against the workbench as Pearson set to work. She crossed her arms, the familiar smell of salt pork and grease mingling with the tang of earth.

“Thanks,” he muttered, not looking up as he began skinning the animal with practiced efficiency. “Went into town earlier, y’know, for groceries. Mail too.”

Pearson wiped his hands on a rag, glancing at Jo as if he’d suddenly remembered something. “Oh, almost forgot. Got a letter for you, too.”

Jo’s chest tightened. “A letter? For me?”

She hadn’t received anything in ages—not since the gang had moved south. Not that she expected to. Her old life had no reason to follow her here, not if she had anything to say about it.

“Yeah,” Pearson said, motioning vaguely toward camp. “Dropped it on your cot. Funny thing, though—the name on it ain’t Jo. Says Sarah. That one of your aliases or somethin’?”

Jo froze. The word hit her like a slap, reverberating through her chest. Sarah . It had been years since she’d heard it spoken aloud, years since anyone had associated it with her.

Her palms went clammy, and suddenly it felt like every pair of eyes in camp was drilling into her, even though Pearson was the only one there. “Oh,” she managed to stammer, her voice higher than she intended. “Y-Yeah. Yeah, that’s… that’s just a fake name I use sometimes.”

Pearson squinted at her, his knife pausing mid-slice. “Huh. Like Tacitus Kilgore, then? Guess it makes sense, always good to have a backup. Just surprised it’s somethin’ as normal as Sarah. I’d have guessed you’d pick somethin’ a little flashier. Like, I don’t know, Clementine or Scarlett.”

Jo let out a strained laugh, the sound sharp and hollow in her ears. “Yeah, well… can’t all be creative geniuses like you, Pearson.”

He chuckled, seemingly satisfied, and went back to his work. “Fair enough. Anyway, it’s on your bed. Probably nothin’, but you might want to check it before someone else gets nosy.”

“Right,” Jo said, the word barely audible. “Thanks.”

She turned away quickly, her boots crunching against the dirt as she walked toward her tent. Each step felt like dragging a weight behind her, her mind racing with a flood of panic and self-recrimination. You idiot, Sarah. You absolute idiot. How could you let this happen?

By the time she reached her tent, her hands were trembling. She ducked inside, letting the flap fall shut behind her, and spotted the envelope right away, sitting innocently on her bedroll. The name scrawled across the front— Sarah —might as well have been written in blood.

She sank onto the edge of the bed, staring at the letter as if it might bite her. The lies she’d built her life around felt more fragile than ever, like a house of cards teetering on collapse. Pearson’s casual observation had cracked something open inside her, a suffocating awareness of just how fake she had become.

Sarah .

It wasn’t just a name. It was everything she’d run from, everything she swore she’d never go back to. And now it was here, sitting in her lap, daring her to acknowledge it.

Jo pressed her palms against her knees, trying to steady her breathing. She told herself she’d done the right thing—she’d survived. But in this moment, with her real name staring back at her, she felt like the most dishonest person alive.

Her fingers trembled as she picked up the enveloppe, the paper crinkling faintly in her grip. She flipped it over and slipped her thumb under the seal, hesitating before tearing it open. The folded note inside was hastily written, the letters uneven and smudged in places.

Sarah,

I’m in Rhodes. Meet me at the train depot as soon as you can.

Please. It’s important.

-Ben

Jo stared at the words, her heart pounding in her chest. There wasn’t much to them—no explanation, no niceties, just a plea. But she could feel the urgency in the messy scrawl, the way his pen must’ve scraped across the paper in haste.

Her stomach twisted. What could he possibly want? What could be so important that he’d reach out like this, after all these years? And why now, of all times, when her life was already teetering on the edge?

For a moment, she considered crumpling the letter, pretending it never arrived. But she knew that wouldn’t stop him. Ben wasn’t the kind of man to let things go once he’d set his mind to them.

Jo sighed, folding the letter and tucking it into the pocket of her coat. She felt like she was being pulled in two directions, the part of her that wanted to run forward clashing with the part that wanted to run away.

She left her tent with her jaw tight and her steps purposeful, though her hands still betrayed her, twitching slightly as they reached for Daisy's reins. She mounted her horse without a word, nudging her forward into a steady trot that carried her away from the camp and toward the shadowy trails weaving through the trees.

The letter felt heavier in her pocket with every passing step of Daisy's hooves. Her mind was a blur of questions and doubts, but she pushed them aside, focusing instead on the path ahead.

The air was heavy with the midday sun, filtering through the trees, casting dappled shadows along the trail. She tightened her coat around herself, the letter in her pocket pressing against her side like a thorn.

Her mind swirled with unanswered questions, but the steady rhythm of Daisy’s hooves offered a brief reprieve. That reprieve was short-lived, however, as the sound of another horse cut through the quiet.

Chapter 10: Ancient feud

Summary:

A short walk in a pretty town.

Chapter Text

Jo slowed Daisy as the rider came into view—Sean, perched on his horse with the familiar cocky tilt of his hat.

“Fancy seein’ ya out ‘ere, Jo!” Sean called out, his grin wide and mischievous. “Ya runnin’ away or jus’ takin’ the scenic route?”

Jo eased her horse closer, falling into step beside him. “Sean. Where’re you off to?”

“Rhodes,” he said, dragging out the name with a theatrical sigh. “Meetin’ up wi’ Bill an’ Micah. Bill has us on some security plan for the Grays.”

Jo snorted, the corner of her mouth quirking up despite the weight she carried. “Sure you up for it?”

“Up for it?” Sean’s eyes widened in mock offense. “Are ye questionin’ my abilities? I’ll ‘ave ye know I’m the finest bloody shot in this outfit!”

Jo raised an eyebrow. “Sure you are. I’m sure everyone says so.”

“They do!” Sean insisted, puffing his chest out. “Well, everyone who counts anyway. Arthur might say otherwise, but that’s ‘cause he’s a dour bastard and jealous o’ me natural charm.”

Jo laughed, shaking her head. “Jealous, huh? I’ll have to ask him about that.”

“Don’t bother. He’ll only sulk,” Sean replied, smirking. “But enough about me. What’re you doin’ ridin’ out ‘ere? Not like ye to be takin’ trips for the fun of it.”

Jo hesitated, gripping the reins a little tighter. “Business,” she said after a beat. “Figured I’d head to Rhodes too—Dutch mentioned something about supplies.”

Sean squinted at her for a moment, then shrugged. “Fair enough. Well, two’s better than one, eh? Let’s ride t’gether. I’ll keep ya entertained wi’ me wit and charm.”

Jo rolled her eyes, but she was grateful for the excuse to keep things casual. “If you can manage to keep your charm under control.”

“Oh, yer in for a treat, Blondie,” Sean teased, urging his horse to match pace with hers.

As they rode side by side, Sean’s chatter filled the air, his jokes and exaggerated stories a welcome distraction. 

Jo found herself relaxing despite the storm of emotions still lurking at the back of her mind. Sean was easy company, his constant banter and unapologetic enthusiasm a welcome distraction.

He had fallen into whistling some jaunty Irish tune, his carefree demeanor almost infectious. For a brief moment, Jo forgot about the weight of the letter tucked away in her pocket.

She glanced over at him, raising an eyebrow. “How come you never seem affected by what’s happenin’ round us?”

Sean turned to her, his expression momentarily thoughtful. “Ah, I dunno…” He shrugged, the movement loose and unbothered. “Guess I’m jus’ bein’ hopeful. They say nothin' lasts forever, not even the bad things. Tha's why I reckon it’s important to appreciate the good while we’ve got it. Ye know?”

Jo tilted her head, a teasing grin tugging at her lips. “Like you ‘nd Karen, for example?”

Sean’s face immediately brightened, his chest puffing up with pride. “Ah, now that’s different! Karen’s the best damn thing that’s ever happened to me.”

Jo smirked. “You’re practically a lovesick pup when she’s around. Surprised she hasn’t run you ragged yet.”

“She’s got me wrapped ‘round her finger, sure enough,” Sean admitted with a laugh, not the least bit ashamed. “But let me tell ye, Blondie, there’s nothin’ wrong with lettin’ someone like Karen have her way. She’s fierce, she’s brilliant, and she’s got a knack for makin’ a fella feel like a king.”

“Even when she’s throwin’ bottles at your head?” Jo quipped, recalling a particularly rowdy evening.

“Ah, ye don’t understand the passion, Jo.” Sean’s grin widened, his eyes alight. “That’s just Karen’s way of keepin’ me on my toes. Keeps things excitin’, ye know?”

Jo shook her head, her smirk softening. “I suppose you’re right,” she said, her gaze fixed on the trail ahead.

“’Course I’m right!” Sean grinned. “Life’s too short for all this broodin’ and second-guessin’. Ye find somethin’ good, ye hold on to it.”

His words struck a chord, leaving Jo momentarily quiet. She wanted to believe him, to let herself grab onto something good without the fear of losing it—or ruining it. But it wasn’t that simple, not for her.

“Thanks, Sean,” she murmured, her voice quieter now.

“Don’t mention it. Now, let’s pick up the pace—don’t want Micah whinin’ about me bein’ late,” he said, spurring his horse forward.

Jo followed, her heart a little lighter, even as her thoughts threatened to drag her back down.

The dusty streets of Rhodes came into view as they rode in, but the usual bustle seemed muted. A few townsfolk wandered about, their movements sluggish under the oppressive midday sun. Even the saloon, typically lively with laughter and shouts, had only a couple of horses tethered outside.

Sean tugged his horse to a stop, breaking the silence with his easy grin. “Yer more’n welcome t’join in, if ye fancy it. Me, Bill, and Micah—we’re just havin’ a chat at the saloon. Though fair warnin’, it’ll probably turn into Bill drinkin’ under the table.”

Jo smirked, shaking her head lightly. “Temptin’, Sean, but I’ve got somethin’ to take care of first.”

“Ah, whatever shady business ye’re up to, don’t let it take all day,” Sean teased, wagging a finger at her. “The drinks won’t last forever, Blondie.”

“Once I’m done, I’ll think about it,” she replied, her tone light but evasive.

Sean laughed, tipping his hat to her. “Fair enough. Try not t’get into too much trouble, eh?”

“No promises.”

With that, they parted ways, Sean heading toward the main street while Jo veered toward the train depot. The quietness of the town began to creep in, the absence of the usual noise settling like a suffocating shroud over the streets, as if the town itself was holding its breath.

The depot was nearly deserted, save for the clerk behind the counter and the faint sound of boots against the wooden platform. Even the hiss of the train engine in the distance felt subdued, adding to the eerie stillness. Jo dismounted her horse, tying it loosely to a post before stepping up onto the platform.

Her fingers instinctively reached for the necklace around her neck, the one that had belonged to her mother. The familiar weight of the pendant against her palm was grounding, a small act of comfort when her nerves threatened to take over. The hurried tone of Ben's letter replayed in her mind as she tried to steady herself.

Jo entered the train depot with a deep sight, her boots clicking softly against the wooden floorboards as her eyes scanned the small interior. Her breath hitched when she spotted him leaning casually against the counter, arms crossed over his chest. Ben. He looked just as she remembered him from the train, only less disheveled, his dark hair neatly combed back and his suit freshly pressed. Despite the years that had passed, there was a familiarity about him that sent her stomach into knots.

He noticed her immediately, his lips curving into an easy, boyish grin. “Sarah,” he greeted, the sound of her real name making her pulse quicken. No one here called her that, and it felt like a crack in the wall she had so carefully built around herself.

Jo’s jaw tightened, but she forced herself to keep her expression neutral. “It’s Jo,” she corrected firmly, stepping closer. “Why the letter, Ben?” She didn’t bother with pleasantries; she wasn’t in the mood for them. The anxiety that had been simmering since she read his message was now bubbling to the surface, threatening to spill over.

His grin faltered, and he shifted awkwardly, scratching the back of his neck. “You never were one for small talk,” he muttered with a faint chuckle. His eyes darted around the depot, and he leaned in slightly, lowering his voice. “Let’s take this outside. Too many ears here.”

Jo hesitated for a moment but eventually nodded, following him out of the depot and into the quiet street. He gestured toward a narrow alleyway tucked between two buildings. Jo raised a brow but didn’t argue, trailing behind him with her arms crossed tightly over her chest.

The alley was dim and secluded, away from the prying eyes of the townsfolk. Ben stopped and turned to face her, his expression suddenly serious. He shifted uncomfortably, his eyes flicking to the ground before meeting Jo’s. “I didn’t just happen to be on that train,” he started, his voice tinged with guilt. “I’ve been searching for you, Sarah— Jo , whatever you go by now. And the people you’ve fallen in with.”

Jo arched a brow, the corner of her mouth twitching upward in a sardonic smile. “Y’ain’t the first,” she said dryly, crossing her arms. “The Pinkertons’ve been on our tail for months. You’ll have to try harder’n that if you wanna scare me.”

Ben frowned, shaking his head. “I’m not with the Pinkertons,” he clarified, then hesitated. “But I do have an associate—someone who’s more determined than I’d like. He ain’t about to give up anytime soon.”

Jo didn’t flinch, didn’t let her expression falter. She’d learned long ago how to wear a mask of indifference, even when her stomach twisted with unease. “Alright,” she said coolly, “then why’d you come to me with this? You tryin’ to warn me, or are you the one I need to be worried ‘bout?”

“Neither,” Ben said quickly, stepping closer. His voice dropped to a near-whisper. “I don’t wanna hurt you, Jo. Hell, I’d never do that. But this... this is different. The man I’m workin’ with—he’s got a wanted poster of you and the rest of your gang. And Jo, it ain’t just the usual aliases. There’s one with your real name on it.”

Her blood turned to ice. “What?” The word came out sharper than she intended.

Ben nodded grimly. “Murder,” he said softly, watching her closely, “They’re sayin’ you killed your folks.”

Jo’s mask cracked, just for a moment. Her hands clenched into fists at her sides, and she felt her breath hitch. She tried to summon her usual bravado, but the sheer weight of what Ben had just said pressed down on her like a boulder. “That’s ridiculous,” she said, though her voice trembled slightly. “That ain’t true, an’ you know it.”

“I know that,” Ben said firmly, his voice laced with conviction. “I told you—I’m on your side. I’d never turn you in, not for all the money in the world. You’re my friend, Jo. Always have been.”

She wanted to believe him, wanted to trust that the boy she once knew still existed beneath the sharp suit and steady gaze. But trust didn’t come easy—not anymore. “So why tell me?” she demanded. “If y’ain’t here to collect a bounty, then why bother?”

Ben exhaled slowly, as though weighing his words. “Because you need to know how serious this is. If this poster’s made it to Rhodes, it’ll spread further, fast. And my associate? He’s like a bloodhound. If he can’t find you here, he’ll keep sniffin’ till he does. I can try to mislead him, buy you an’ your friends some time, but Jo...” He trailed off, his expression heavy. “It might be best if y’all leave. Head to another state—hell, another country, if you can.”

Jo swallowed hard, her hand instinctively moving to the necklace around her neck. The familiar touch grounded her, if only slightly. “An’ what about you?” she asked, her voice quieter now. “What happens if he figures out you’re leadin’ him astray?”

Ben smiled faintly, though it didn’t reach his eyes. “Don’t worry ‘bout me. I’ve handled worse. Just... take care of yourself, alright? An’ think ‘bout what I said. You’ve got a good group there. Don’t let ‘em get caught ‘cause you’re too proud to run.”

Jo stared at him for a long moment, the weight of his words sinkin’ in. There was no easy answer, no simple solution. But one thing was clear: the life she’d fought so hard to rebuild was once again hanging by a thread.

Jo stood in the shadow of the alley, her grip tightening on her mother’s necklace as Ben’s words sank in. It was like her chest had caved in, leaving her struggling to breathe. A bounty poster with her real name. Murder. She felt sick.

Ben was still speaking, his voice low and urgent, but it was muffled in her ears, as though she were underwater. She had always known there was danger. The gang lived in the crosshairs of the law; that was their reality. But this? This was personal. This was her past, clawing its way out of the grave to destroy everything she’d built.

Ben’s hand rested lightly on her arm, snapping her back to the present. “Jo?”

She blinked at him, her pulse pounding in her ears. “I heard you,” she said, though her voice wavered. “It’s just… a lot to take in.”

He nodded, sympathy etched across his face. “I get it. Look, I’ll do what I can to throw my associate off the scent. But you’ve gotta be careful. If he catches even a whiff of your trail, it’s over. You and the gang need to move.”

Jo scoffed, a bitter sound escaping her lips. “You think it’s that easy? Tellin’ them we gotta pack up and leave without a damn good reason?” She shook her head. “They’ll wanna know why. And if I tell ‘em about you, they’ll think I’ve been leadin’ ‘em into a trap. They already look sideways at anyone they can’t pin down.”

Ben hesitated, then sighed. “You don’t have to tell ‘em about me,” he said carefully. “Say it’s the heat from the bounty posters. That’s reason enough, ain’t it?”

Jo hesitated, her hand reflexively rising to the necklace again. The gang already knew they were wanted. That was nothing new. But the idea of revealing that her real name was on one of those posters, alongside a crime she’d never committed? That was a different beast altogether. If they found out, questions would follow. Hard ones. Ones she wasn’t sure she could answer without the truth spilling out.

And the truth was a noose tightening around her throat.

“They’ll ask why my real name’s on it,” she muttered, more to herself than to Ben. “They’ll ask how I know about it. And if I’m not honest, they’ll think I’m hidin’ somethin’ worse.”

“So be honest,” Ben said, his tone cautious. “Tell them about the poster, not me. You found it somewhere—in town, maybe. Play dumb if you have to. Just don’t wait too long. The longer you sit on this, the more suspicious it’ll seem.”

Jo’s jaw tightened. She hated the idea of lying, but the truth felt like a death sentence. And what if Dutch—or worse, Micah—started poking holes in her story? Suspicion was a wildfire in the gang. It spread fast and burned everything in its path.

Ben’s eyes softened. “I’m not tryin’ to make this harder for you, Jo. But you’ve gotta think about what’s best for everyone. If you don’t act, it’ll cost you more than you can afford.”

She stared at him, her mind racing. He was right. If she didn’t move fast, the noose would tighten around all of them. But how could she ask them to trust her when she couldn’t even trust herself to hold it together?

“Alright,” she said finally, her voice barely above a whisper. “I’ll figure somethin’ out.”

Ben nodded, though his expression remained grim. “You’d better. I’ll keep my associate off your trail as long as I can, but don’t waste the chance.”

Jo watched him turn and walk away, his figure disappearing out of view. For a moment, she stayed frozen, her feet rooted to the spot. 

Jo leaned against the wall in the narrow alley, her hands gripping her knees as she willed her breathing to slow. She couldn’t afford to unravel now, not when so much was at stake.

After a moment, she straightened, rolling her shoulders back and setting her jaw. She adjusted her hat, gave her face a quick swipe with her hands, and stepped out into the main street.

The sun was lower in the sky now, casting long shadows across Rhodes. It wasn’t hard to spot them—Sean, Micah, and Bill, strutting toward the saloon with their usual swagger. But what caught her off guard was the fourth figure trailing slightly behind them.

Arthur.

Jo froze mid-step, her stomach twisting in a way she hated to admit. She hadn’t expected to see him, not here, not now. He looked better than the last time she’d seen him—still not his full self, but stronger. The sight brought a mix of emotions crashing over her: relief, guilt, and something softer she refused to name.

She shook her head sharply, forcing herself forward. She didn’t have time for this.

As she neared, Micah’s voice carried over the din of the street, sharp and smug as always.

“Dutch said we was to keep on dealin’ with them until we finds this gold,” Micah explained to Arthur, gesturing with his hand like he was some grand strategist.

Jo finally catched up to the group. “Mighty generous of Dutch, sendin’ y’all out t’ charm the fine folks of Rhodes,” she drawled, her Southern lilt smooth but edged.

Sean turned, his face lighting up. “There she is! We was wonderin’ if ye’d changed yer mind.”

“‘Course not,” she said, slipping into step beside him. Her eyes flicked to Arthur briefly, but she kept her expression neutral. “Figured I’d find y’all causin’ trouble before I got the chance.”

Arthur glanced her way, his blue eyes sharp but unreadable. “Didn’t think you’d be one t’ join up with this lot.”

Jo shrugged. “Guess there’s a first time for everythin’.”

Micah shot her a sidelong glance, his lips curling into a smirk. “Blondie’s always full’a surprises, ain’t she?”

Jo’s gaze snapped to him, her voice dropping an octave. “Don’t push it, Micah.”

“Alright, alright.” Micah raised his hands in mock surrender, though his grin only widened.

“Let’s get on with it, then,” Arthur muttered, clearly unimpressed with the exchange.

The group continued toward the saloon, Jo falling in step just beside Sean. Her mind churned, not with whatever scheme they were off to execute, but with Ben’s words still echoing in her head. The wanted poster, the bounty, the gang’s growing unease… and Arthur. Always Arthur, lingering at the edges of her thoughts, no matter how hard she tried to push him away.

This was going to be one hell of a day.

“They say there was some big misunderstanding about them horses,” Bill said, glancing over his shoulder at Arthur.

“And… what about burning their fields?” Sean added, a grin tugging at his lips, clearly enjoying the memory.

“They don’t know we had anything to do with that,” Micah said, his tone dripping with smug confidence.

“Oh, that so?” Arthur’s voice was steeped in sarcasm, his gaze fixed ahead as if he could see straight through Micah’s bravado.

“Yeah,” Bill replied, turning to Arthur as they walked. “They think it was the Braithwaites.”

Jo let out a short laugh, shaking her head as she adjusted her hat against the glaring afternoon sun. “Ain’t that convenient,” she drawled, her voice laced with mockery. “We set their place ablaze, and they’re pointin’ fingers at their neighbors. Guess ignorance really is bliss.”

Arthur glanced her way, a faint flicker of amusement in his eyes, but he said nothing, his expression guarded as always.

“Sure,” Sean said cheerfully, brushing dust from his shirt. “Long as they ain’t pointin’ fingers at us, I’d call it a win.”

“Sure,” Jo replied, though her tone was drier than the dust under their boots. “Until they ain’t as ignorant no more. Then what?”

Her words hung in the air, heavy as the heat pressing down on the streets of Rhodes. The group walked on, their boots scuffing against the dry earth, and for a brief moment, none of them said a word.

Arthur’s jaw tightened ever so slightly, his thoughts clearly running deeper than the surface conversation. Sean glanced her way, his grin faltering, though he quickly masked it with his usual devil-may-care expression. Micah just scoffed, as if her worries were beneath him, and Bill stayed silent, his shoulders stiffening as though her words carried more weight than he cared to admit.

Jo's eyes swept over the saloon ahead, its creaking sign swaying in the slight breeze. It felt like they were walking into yet another powder keg.

“Listen, I know these Gray boys a bit now. This is on the level,” Bill said, his voice carrying that familiar mix of assurance and stubbornness as he tried to defend their dealings.

Arthur, however, wasn’t buying it. His steps grew heavier, boots crunching against the dirt road with more force than necessary. “We’re stuck in the middle of some ancient feud,” he started, his voice tight with annoyance that quickly edged toward anger. “But instead of playing both sides, we’re being used by both of ‘em.” His words bit harder, his voice rising slightly as his frustration boiled over.

Bill turned his head slightly, defensive as ever, and muttered, “They were saying that Catherine Braithwaites—”

“Hey, hold up,” Arthur interrupted sharply, his hand moving instinctively toward the revolver at his hip.

The shift in his tone froze Jo mid-step. Her sharp eyes swept across the street, scanning the seemingly quiet town. A few townsfolk loitered near the general store, their movements casual but not enough to lower her guard. She noticed one man near the post office, standing too still to be just another local enjoying the day. He wasn’t watching them, not directly, but the way his head tilted slightly in their direction sent a prickle down her spine.

Without a word, Jo quickened her pace, drifting subtly toward Sean, who was already trailing slightly ahead.

“This don’t feel right,” Arthur muttered through gritted teeth, his voice low but firm as his gaze darted around the street, searching for the source of the unease prickling at his senses.

Sean, ever the contrarian, turned with his rifle slung lazily over his shoulder. “Now it don’t feel right?” he shot back, his tone dripping with sarcasm. “I could’a told you that—”

The sharp crack of a gunshot cut him off mid-sentence.

Jo’s world seemed to slow to a crawl as Sean’s head snapped back violently, blood spraying in a grotesque arc across her face and clothes. Her body locked up, her breath catching in her throat as warm droplets splattered her cheek, mingling with the dust on her skin.

Sean crumpled to the ground beside her, lifeless.

For a split second, Jo couldn’t move. Her hands trembled, hovering in the air as her mind struggled to process the sudden, brutal loss.

“Shit!” one of the boys shouted, though Jo couldn’t tell who.

The street erupted in chaos as more gunshots rang out, echoing off the wooden storefronts. Men emerged from the shadows, rifles and pistols aimed squarely at their group. Smoke and dust filled the air as bullets splintered wood and shattered glass, a cacophony of violence consuming the town.

Chapter 11: The Lake's Reflection

Summary:

Arthur has a voyeurism problem.

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

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Arthur was fuming. 

Their supposed job in Rhodes had been a complete disaster—an ambush they never saw coming that cost them Sean. And now, all Arthur could see was red.

All of this could’ve been prevented if only he’d been more careful, more vigilant. He replayed the moment over and over in his mind: Sean turning to quip something smart, only for the bullet to take him before he could even finish the thought. It was a damn mess, and Arthur hated himself for not being able to stop it.

Sean was like an annoying little brother to him—a pain in the ass most days, sure, but he’d done his best to look out for him regardless. Now, all those times Arthur had barked at him, told him off, or knocked his antics down a peg felt like heavy stones in his gut. He should’ve said something kinder. He should’ve... He shoved the thought aside, but it stuck like a thorn in his mind.

By the time they got back to camp, the mood was suffocating. Karen was inconsolable, her cries loud and raw, echoing through the clearing like a mourning dove’s lament. The others had tried to comfort her, but there was no fixing this kind of grief. And Arthur? He couldn’t stand hearing it anymore.

He grabbed a bottle of whiskey from the stash and retreated to the outskirts of camp, his boots heavy on the path to the dock by the lake. The setting sun painted the sky in shades of blood and fire, but Arthur barely noticed. He sat down heavily at the edge of the dock, the wood creaking beneath him as he let his legs dangle over the water.

The lake was still, its surface like glass, reflecting the fiery sky and the dark silhouette of the trees. Arthur stared at it, bottle in hand, but he didn’t drink. Not yet. His mind churned too much for the alcohol to drown anything out just yet.

He exhaled sharply, dragging a hand over his face. The weight of his guilt felt unbearable, like it was pressing the air right out of his lungs. Arthur leaned forward, elbows resting on his knees as he stared out at the water. The lake was still, its surface unbroken except for the faint ripples where the dock’s posts met the water. He barely noticed the world around him, lost in his thoughts, anger, and guilt.

Further down the shoreline, Jo knelt by the water’s edge, hidden behind a stand of trees. She had come here as soon as they returned to camp, unwilling to let Karen—or anyone else—see the state she was in.

Sean’s blood was everywhere. It had soaked into her shirt, her arms, her face, even her hair. The metallic scent clung to her like a curse, sharp and suffocating. She dropped to her knees, her movements mechanical as she plunged her hands into the cold water, scrubbing at her forearms with a desperate urgency.

No matter how much she scrubbed, the sensation wouldn’t go away. It was as if her skin had absorbed the blood, staining her down to her soul. Her hands trembled as she worked, her mind numb to everything except the memory of Sean’s blood spraying across her when the bullet struck.

She paused, breath hitching, and ran her forearm across her brow to wipe away the sweat. The instant she did, she felt the sticky smear on her skin and froze.

Jo leaned forward, her breath shallow, and gazed at the water’s surface. Her reflection stared back, fragmented by ripples, but unmistakable. Blood streaked her face like war paint, dried in messy smears across her brow, her temple, her cheek. Her hair clumped in places where the red had dried and darkened.

For a moment, she didn’t recognize herself.

Jo sat back on her legs, her gaze fixed on the broken image in the water. Her reflection was a stranger, a ghost marked by blood. Her hands curled into fists, and her jaw tightened. She couldn’t stand the feeling any longer—the sticky, suffocating weight of it clinging to her skin.

Pushing herself to her feet, she turned toward her satchel lying a few steps away on the rocky shore. She dug into it with trembling hands and pulled out a small bar of soap, its edges worn smooth from use. It wasn’t much, but it would have to do.

Jo exhaled sharply and leaned down, tugging at her boots. She slipped each one off and set them neatly to the side, her movements were quiet but deliberate, as though she were trying to hold herself together with every small act. Next came her jeans. She unfastened the buttons with careful precision, letting the fabric slide down her legs and pooling at her feet. She stepped out of them, pausing briefly as if to steady herself, before folding them and setting them on top of her boots. Her shirt came last, her fingers working quickly to undo the buttons. She slipped it from her shoulders, revealing pale skin marked by streaks of dried blood and faint scars, memories of past fights and narrow escapes. Jo hesitated for a moment, her arms hanging at her sides, her body bared to the sunset and the stillness of the lake.

Arthur watched from the dock, unable to tear his eyes away. He shouldn’t have stayed—should’ve turned his back the moment he’d realized she was there. But something rooted him to the spot, his gaze drawn to her in spite of himself. He was entirely absorbed in contemplation of her. How pretty she seemed to him, lighted up by the rays of the setting sun. 

Her movements were graceful, even now, carrying an unspoken strength that Arthur couldn’t look away from. She was scarred, bloodied, and yet... there was something hauntingly captivating in the way she carried herself, as though the weight of everything hadn’t yet managed to crush her.

The sunset painted the lake in hues of gold and amber, the soft light glinting off the ripples as Jo stepped forward. The cold water lapped at her ankles, making her pause for a moment. She shivered but pressed on, the ripples widening with each step.

Arthur’s gaze followed her, drinking in every detail. Her bare skin caught the evening light, the curves of her body illuminated like a living sculpture. The gentle slope of her shoulders, the soft curve of her breasts, the dip of her waist, and the swell of her hips—all of it drew his attention in a way that felt almost reverent. Her body was marked by scars and streaks of dried blood, but it didn’t diminish her beauty; it only added to the depth of who she was.

This didn’t feel anything like the night they’d shared in Van Horn. That had been reckless and blurred by drink, a haze of passion and mistakes. But this? This felt intimate in a way that left him breathless. She wasn’t even aware of his presence, yet the moment felt more vulnerable than anything they’d shared before.

Needless to say that his pants were growing tighter the longer he watched her.

Jo reached up, her fingers finding the long braid over her shoulder. Slowly, she began to undo it, her fingers working through the twists until her hair spilled free. Blonde waves, streaked with dried crimson, cascaded down her back, catching the warm light of the setting sun.

Arthur’s chest tightened as he watched her run her fingers through the loosened strands, wincing as she hit tangles. She ducked her head then, letting the water take her hair, rinsing it clean. The sight of her standing there, her silhouette framed by the soft glow of the sunset, was almost too much.

She looked radiant and unbreakable, yet achingly human all at once. Watching her felt like witnessing something sacred—something he had no right to see but couldn’t bring himself to turn away from.

The water was cool, lapping just beneath her breasts, where her skin prickled in reaction to the chill. Her breath hitched, but she paid it no mind, focusing instead on rinsing the blood and grime from her hair. In one swift motion, Jo dipped beneath the water’s surface, letting the cool lake envelop her entirely. For a moment, the world above vanished into muted stillness. The tension in her shoulders eased as the lake cradled her, the weight of the day momentarily forgotten in the embrace of the water.

When she resurfaced, droplets cascaded down her face, clinging to her lashes and cheeks. Her chest rose sharply with the inhale that followed, her mouth slightly parted, catching her breath. Slowly, she lifted her hands, smoothing them along her skin to wipe away the water. Her palms swept from her jawline, over her cheeks, and up to her forehead, her fingertips catching stray strands of hair as she pushed them back.

Her wet hair slicked back against her scalp, revealing her sharp features and flushed skin. Water trickled in rivulets over her shoulders and down her chest, catching the fading light and shimmering like liquid gold. Jo’s breaths came in slow, deliberate rhythms now, the cool air mingling with the residual warmth of the sunset on her skin.

Arthur’s eyes stayed locked on her as she moved through the water, the ripples around her softening into stillness. He tried to convince himself that he wasn’t staring, that he wasn’t indulging in something he shouldn’t. But the truth gnawed at him, raw and persistent. He wondered whether this pull he felt toward her was merely carnal—a reaction to her bare skin gleaming in the sunset, the graceful curve of her back as she worked through her hair—or if it ran deeper.

The question had lingered in the back of his mind for some time now, growing louder with every passing day. Was it just her beauty that captivated him, or was it the way she carried herself, scarred but unbroken, that made her impossible to ignore? He didn’t know, and that uncertainty twisted his insides in ways he didn’t want to admit.

But one thing he couldn’t deny—even if it felt inappropriate, even if it stirred guilt deep in his chest—was that it was a damn pleasing sight to see her like this. Not just because of her body, though that alone was enough to make his pulse race. It was something else entirely. The way she moved, deliberate and unhurried, spoke of a quiet strength. She didn’t let the weight of the world crush her, even when it seemed hell-bent on trying.

Arthur’s gaze flicked down to the dock beneath his feet, his jaw clenching as he fought the urge to look again. The conflict within him was almost unbearable—this desire to keep her in his sight, to hold onto this fleeting moment, warring with the shame of it all.

He let out a slow breath, his hand rubbing at the back of his neck as he forced himself to think of anything else. Sean’s face flashed in his mind—his crooked grin, the way he’d light up a room with his mischief. And now Sean was gone, leaving an emptiness that couldn’t be filled. Arthur’s chest tightened, the weight of the day crashing down on him all at once.

What was he doing? Jo deserved better than to be ogled like this, even if she didn’t know he was there. She deserved better than a man like him, broken and hollow, full of guilt he couldn’t shake.

Arthur’s fists curled against his thighs, and with one last glance at her figure in the water, he made his decision. He stood, his boots making a soft creak against the planks, and turned away. The image of her stayed with him, though—burned into his mind like a brand.

As he straightened, a quiet grunt escaped him, and his hand dropped instinctively to adjust the tightening discomfort between his legs. He muttered a curse under his breath, his jaw tightening as he forced himself to focus on the path ahead. “Get a grip, Morgan,” he growled lowly, though the memory of her silhouette lingered stubbornly in his mind.

He walked back toward camp, his shoulders heavy, his thoughts a tangled mess. He wasn’t sure what to make of this pull she had on him, or whether he even had the right to feel it. All he knew was that it left him restless, chasing answers he didn’t think he’d ever find.

 


 

The air hung heavy, carrying with it an unspoken grief that seemed to settle over the camp like a suffocating blanket. Conversations were sparse and subdued, the usual camaraderie dulled to mere murmurs. The faint strumming of Javier’s guitar filled the silence, its mournful melody blending with the soft crackling of the campfire. Even the horses seemed restless, their occasional snorts punctuating the stillness.

Jo lingered for a moment by the dying fire, her arms crossed tightly over her chest as though to shield herself from more than just the chill. The atmosphere pressed on her, and after a few moments, she decided she’d had enough. Turning on her heel, she made her way to her tent, her boots crunching softly against the dirt.

Inside the canvas walls, the world seemed even smaller, quieter. She sank onto her cot, the weight of the day settling on her shoulders like lead. Her fingers brushed absentmindedly against the coarse fabric of the blanket as her thoughts spiraled into the murky depths of her mind.

Her gaze drifted to her hands, calloused and lined with faint scars, each mark a testament to choices made—some necessary, others reckless. If her younger self could see her now, Jo wondered, would she recoil in shame? Would the girl she’d been last year... two years ago... recognize the woman she’d become? The one who believed the world held possibilities, who hadn’t yet learned how heavy a revolver could feel when its weight carried the burden of survival.

Her chest tightened as her mind veered toward Sean. She didn’t cry. She couldn’t—not here, not now. Her grief was a quiet, stubborn thing, like the slow bleeding of an unstitched wound. No sobs or wails, just a suffocating ache that curled around her lungs, refusing to let go.

What had brought them to this point? The choices they’d made, the lies they’d spun to survive—were they all just steps leading to this tragedy? Sean was gone, and the blame felt like a stone in her gut, heavy and immovable.

Her life felt like a patchwork of remorse—wrong turns and mistakes stitched together into a map that only led backward. And yet, there was no going back, no undoing what had been done.

Jo exhaled shakily, leaning forward with her elbows on her knees, her hands clasped together tightly as though in silent prayer. Not for forgiveness—she doubted she deserved it—but for clarity. For something to make sense amidst the chaos.

Jo stretched out on her cot, pulling the blanket over herself with a sigh. She closed her eyes, willing for sleep to come, to take her far away from the day’s events. But the quiet was too loud—Javier’s guitar had faded, leaving only the occasional crackle of the fire and the faint rustle of the camp.

Her mind wouldn’t quiet, thoughts churning endlessly. Every time she closed her eyes, she saw Sean—his carefree grin, the way he’d ribbed her just that morning, the sound of his voice echoing in her ears. And then the blood. So much blood.

She turned onto her side, then onto her back, and then back again, the cot creaking softly beneath her. The heaviness in her chest wouldn’t ease, and the blanket felt suffocating.

Finally, with an exasperated sigh, Jo tossed the blanket aside and swung her legs over the edge of the cot. Her bare feet touched the cool ground as she sat there for a moment, her head in her hands. She couldn’t stay in here. The tent felt too small, too stifling.

Pushing herself to her feet, she reached for her jacket and pulled it on over her clothes. The soft cotton of her breezy blouse shifted against her shoulders, its delicate straps barely keeping it in place. Her loose-fitting, knee-length trousers, still damp in places from her earlier wash in the lake, clung slightly to her legs as she moved. They weren’t much protection against the night air, but she hadn’t bothered to change into anything warmer. 

The jacket hung open as she stepped outside, the night air hitting her like a balm, cool and crisp against her flushed skin. Her hair, left untied, cascaded in fine blonde strands down her back, reaching just past her lower back, almost grazing the top of her hips with every step. She took a deep breath, her shoulders rising and falling as she let it out slowly.

The camp was still and quiet. Most had turned in for the night, their tents dark and silent. Only the faint embers of the campfire remained, casting a dim orange glow over the clearing. Jo crossed her arms, hugging herself against the chill, and wandered a few steps away from her tent.

Above her, the stars stretched endlessly, pinpricks of light scattered across the vast expanse of darkness. She tilted her head back, gazing up at them, their distant brilliance both comforting and overwhelming. It made her feel small, yet somehow grounded—part of something far greater than herself. The heaviness in her chest hadn’t eased, but at least out here, she could breathe.

Jo lowered her gaze from the stars, her arms still crossed against the chill, when a faint glow caught her attention near the lake’s shore. It was the smolder of a cigarette, the orange ember briefly brightening before dimming again. Someone else was awake, unable to sleep either, though she couldn’t make out who it was at first.

The figure sat with their back to the camp, facing the lake. They were sitting on a large fallen tree trunk, leaning slightly forward. Jo took a few tentative steps closer, her eyes adjusting to the dim light of the moon reflecting off the water. As she neared, recognition dawned—those sandy brown locks, untamed and falling loosely around his face, gave him away immediately.

Arthur .

His broad shoulders slumped, and even from behind, she could sense the weight he was carrying. The cigarette in his hand burned steadily, a thin trail of smoke curling upward and dissipating into the cool night air.

“Can’t sleep either?” Jo asked softly as she approached, her voice carrying just enough to reach him without startling him.

Arthur turned his head slightly, just enough to glance at her over his shoulder, his expression shadowed in the moonlight. He took a slow drag from his cigarette, exhaling a thin stream of smoke before speaking.

“Reckon it’s not the kinda night for sleep,” he replied, his voice low and gravelly, heavy with weariness.

Jo nodded, stepping closer to the tree trunk. Without a word, Arthur shifted to make space beside him. She hesitated for a moment, then sat down, folding her legs beneath her and pulling her jacket tighter around her shoulders.

She let out a soft sigh, her gaze drifting to the lake where the water lapped gently against the shore. “It’s been… a hell of a day,” she said quietly, more to herself than to him.

Arthur didn’t reply immediately. His eyes stayed on the water, the cigarette burning down between his fingers. After a long pause, he finally muttered, “Hell of a day don’t even cover it.”

Silence fell around them, thick and weighted, broken only by the soft crackle of Arthur’s cigarette and the faint ripple of the lake. Jo turned her head slowly, her gaze drifting to him. Her eyes caught on the faint smear of blood trailing down his forearm, stark against his skin in the moonlight.

“Did you clean that?” she asked, nodding toward Arthur’s forearm, where dried blood stained the fabric of his shirt.

Arthur glanced at the graze, then back at the lake. He shrugged, taking another drag from his cigarette.

Jo frowned, her lips pressing into a firm line. “Figures,” she muttered. Her tone left no room for debate. Standing abruptly, she dusted her hands against her trousers.

“What’re you doin’?” Arthur asked, though his voice lacked conviction.

“I’ll clean it,” she declared, already heading toward her tent.

“Jo, it’s nothin’. Ain’t worth—”

“Stay here,” she interrupted, her tone brooking no argument.

Arthur watched her retreating figure, the soft rustle of her bare feets the only sound accompanying the crackling fire in the distance. He shook his head and mumbled under his breath, “Damn stubborn woman.” Yet deep down, a quieter thought tugged at him—a thought he couldn’t quite ignore. It felt good. Warm, even. To be fussed over like that. To matter, even in such a small way.

She returned moments later, her arms full with a bottle of alcohol, a cloth, and some bandages. Jo didn’t waste time. She crouched beside him, pouring the alcohol onto the cloth as if by force of habit.

Arthur watched her, silent and still. She worked with a quiet determination, not even flinching at the pungent smell of the alcohol. When she pressed the cloth to his wound, the sharp sting made him tense, but he didn’t make a sound. His gaze stayed on her, studying the faint crease of concentration on her brow, the set of her jaw, the way her fingers moved with care but confidence.

“What you thinkin’ ’bout?” he asked after a long silence, his voice softer than before.

Jo didn’t pause in her work, her hands steady as she cleaned around the graze. "Sometimes I wonder how different life would've been if Dutch and Hosea hadn't found me," she replied, her tone almost too casual for the weight of the words.

Arthur’s brows furrowed, his gaze narrowing as he studied her face. He hadn’t expected something so candid. “Yeah?”

She nodded, her expression unreadable. “I wonder if… it’d have been better, or worse. If I’d have turned out the same. If I’d even still be around.”

Arthur blinked, surprised by her answer. “And… what d’ya reckon it would’ve been like?” he prompted, his voice low, almost hesitant. 

Jo dabbed at the wound one last time before setting the cloth aside. She didn’t look at him right away, her gaze fixed on the makeshift bandage in her hands. “Dunno,” she admitted after a moment, her voice quieter now. “Probably dead in some ditch somewhere. Or married off to some man twice my age who’d’ve worked me into the ground.”

Arthur’s jaw tightened at her words, a pang of anger flaring in his chest—not at her, but at the thought of her being trapped in such a life. “That ain’t no kinda life for anyone,” he said, his tone gruff.

Jo finally looked up at him, a small, tired smile tugging at her lips. “Yeah, well… that’s kinda what I was raised for, actually,” she said lightly, but her eyes betrayed the heaviness of her thoughts.

Arthur’s brows furrowed slightly as he flicked away the remnants of his cigarette. “Never talk much ’bout your parents, I reckon,” he said, his tone cautious, testing the waters.

Jo didn’t respond right away. She finished wrapping the bandage around his arm, tying it off with a neat knot before sitting back. Her posture shifted subtly, her shoulders curling inward as though she were trying to shield herself. “I don’t like talkin’ about ’em,” she said, her voice clipped but not unkind.

Arthur studied her for a moment, his blue eyes searching her face for something— anything —she might give him. “Why?” he asked softly, his curiosity unrelenting. For all the years he’d known her, she’d never once mentioned her family, not even in passing.

Jo’s jaw tightened, and she dropped her gaze to her hands, which fidgeted restlessly in her lap. The silence stretched between them, heavy and charged. 

After what felt like an eternity, she let out a slow breath. “’Cause there ain’t much to say,” she admitted quietly, her tone laced with bitterness. “My ma died when I was young, my father followed suit, and I found myself all alone…”

A small silence settled between them, broken only by the faint crackling of the campfire in the distance. Arthur waited, sensing there was more she hadn’t said.

Jo took a slow breath, her fingers fidgeting slightly in her lap. “My father wanted a boy. I was a girl. He tried to make me his son. Never worked.”

Arthur tilted his head, offering a small, sympathetic smile. “Your childhood must’ve been wild,” he said, trying to lighten the mood.

Jo coughed awkwardly, her expression hardening. Oh yeah, starvation, abusive father, and homelessness. So wild.

Her nose crinkled, a bitter edge creeping into her voice. “Still feel his fists on me. Still feel the impact of him slammin’ my head into a wall, or crunchin’ my fingers in a door, or just railin’ on me until I blacked out.”

Arthur’s faint smile vanished instantly. His hand froze mid-motion as he reached for his cigarette case again, his blue eyes wide with shock and anger.

He didn’t know what to say, and for a moment, the words he might’ve offered caught in his throat. Finally, he managed, “Jo… I—”

“Don’t,” she cut him off, shaking her head. “It’s over now. I survived, didn’t I?” Her tone was matter-of-fact, but there was a weight behind it, the kind of resignation born from years of burying the pain.

Arthur nodded slowly, his jaw tightening as he fought to swallow the mix of emotions surging inside him. Rage at the man who’d done this to her. Sadness for the girl she’d been. And admiration for the woman she’d become.

“You did more than survive,” he murmured finally, his voice barely above a whisper.

Jo glanced at him then, her lips twitching into the faintest of smiles. “Guess I did.”

The silence stretched between them again, but it wasn’t uncomfortable. It was the kind of silence that said all the things words couldn’t, the kind that spoke of shared understanding and unspoken respect.

She leaned back slightly, her gaze settling on Arthur as the quiet stretched on. Then, with a faint quirk of her lips, she broke the silence. “Since I’ve answered your question, it’s up to you to answer mine. A truth for a truth.”

Arthur glanced at her warily, his brows knitting together. “Reckon that’s fair,” he said, though his tone carried a touch of hesitation. “What do you wanna know?”

She took a breath, watching him closely. “Who’s Isaac ?”

Notes:

Actually had to cut in half this one, otherwise it would've been almost 9k long.
Second part is coming very soon ;)

Chapter 12: A Moment of Weakness

Summary:

Arthur and Jo's conversation takes a interesting turn.

Chapter Text

Arthur stiffened immediately, the name hitting him like a punch to the gut. His jaw clenched, and he shifted uncomfortably on the log, his gaze darting toward her briefly before fixing on the dark expanse of the lake.

She glanced at him from time to time, watching as he stared into the darkness, lost in thought. It had been weeks since his fever had broken, but the memory of those days still lingered in her mind. She had watched over him, listened to him mumble in his delirium, whispering things she couldn’t understand—until one name had stuck out. She hadn’t asked about it then. It wasn’t her place, and she wasn’t sure if he even remembered saying it. But curiosity had gnawed at her ever since, and now, after revealing something about her past, she thought it was only fair to ask something in return.

Jo noticed the change in him and softened her tone. “You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to,” she added quickly, her voice barely above a whisper.

He didn’t respond right away. Instead, he stared into the darkness, his fingers idly tracing the edge of his knee. After a long moment, he asked, his voice low and tinged with tension, “Where’d you hear that name?”

“You said it,” she answered softly, angling her head to get a better look at him. “When you had your fever after getting shot. I didn’t know if it was real or just something from a dream, but… you kept mumblin’ it.”

Arthur exhaled sharply, rubbing the back of his neck as if trying to ease some invisible weight pressing down on him. “I… didn’t know I’d said anythin’,” he muttered, almost to himself.

There was a long, heavy silence between them. Jo watched his profile, the way his face hardened, the subtle shift in his posture. She could see the walls going up—the same walls he always built around himself when something hurt too much. She waited, giving him space. She didn’t push, didn’t pry further. Arthur’s shoulders sagged slightly, and he let out a slow breath. He leaned forward, elbows resting on his knees, and stared down at the ground for a moment. The silence stretched on, and Jo started to wonder if she’d made a mistake bringing it up.

But then, in a voice quieter and rougher than usual, Arthur spoke.

“Isaac was… he was my son.”

Jo’s breath caught, her heart sinking as the words settled between them. “Arthur…” she started, her voice trembling slightly, but he shook his head.

“Don’t,” he interrupted, his tone firm but not harsh. “I don’t talk ’bout it much. Don’t… even think ’bout it if I can help it.”

He paused, his gaze still fixed on the lake. The muscles in his jaw worked as he wrestled with the pain that came with saying the words out loud. “I had him with a woman… Eliza. Didn’t live with ’em, but I’d visit when I could, bring ’em money. Tried to do right by ’em, even if it wasn’t much.”

Jo nodded faintly, her chest tightening at the vulnerability in his voice.

“One day, I rode out there, like I always did.” His voice cracked slightly, and he cleared his throat. “Found out they’d been killed. For a few dollars I left behind for ’em. Guess I thought I was helpin’. Thought I was protectin’ ’em by stayin’ away.”

The bitterness in his tone was unmistakable, and Jo could see the self-recrimination etched across his face.

“You couldn’t have known,” she said softly, her words gentle but firm. “You did what you thought was best.”

Arthur finally turned to look at her, his blue eyes shadowed with grief and regret. “Did I?” he asked, his voice barely audible.

Jo didn’t have an answer for that, and maybe he didn’t expect one. Instead, she reached out and rested a hand on his forearm, her touch light but grounding. “You loved him, Arthur. That counts for somethin’.”

He nodded faintly, his gaze dropping to the ground. “Sometimes I wonder if it’s all I got left. Just tryin’ to love the people I care about while I still can.”

Jo squeezed his arm gently, offering what little comfort she could. “That ain’t nothin’, Arthur,” she said quietly. Jo didn’t know what else to say, so she simply sat there with him, her hand still resting on his arm, offering the only comfort she could. She could feel the weight of his grief, the way it hung in the air between them, thick and suffocating. But she didn’t pull away. She stayed, offering him her silent support, knowing that sometimes, words weren’t enough.

The silence stretched on, but it wasn’t uncomfortable. It was heavy, yes, but there was a quiet understanding between them, a bond forged in the shared weight of their pasts. Arthur had opened up to her in a way she hadn’t expected, and in that moment, she saw a side of him that very few ever did—a man who had loved and lost, who carried his pain with him like a burden he couldn’t shake.

Jo’s thoughts began to drift, her mind circling back to the chaos of the day. The memory of Sean’s lifeless body falling to the ground replayed in her head, vivid and unrelenting. She shuddered, her breath hitching as she realized just how close she had been.

It could’ve been her.

She had been standing just a step away from him. If Sean hadn’t moved, if the timing had been even slightly different… She swallowed hard, the weight of it pressing against her chest. It could’ve been her lying there in the dirt, blood pooling beneath her.

The thought made her stomach twist.

If that had been her, what would she have left behind? What would she have missed? Her mind conjured images of the camp, of Lenny’s laugh, Hosea’s knowing smiles, Abigail’s sharp wit. Of the way Jack lit up when he caught a butterfly, of John and his begrudging attempts to get along with her.

And Arthur.

She would’ve missed this moment, sitting beside him, breathing in the cool night air, hearing the low murmur of his voice.

It made her regret some choices, wish for more time to change others. But there was one she knew she’d regret for the rest of her life if she didn’t do anything about it—no matter how much it troubled her.

Jo looked at Arthur again, only to find that he was already watching her.

Her heart thudded loudly in her chest, and she swore he could hear it. For a moment, she froze, the intensity of his gaze rooting her in place. His blue eyes seemed deeper than the lake before them, as if he were searching for something in her that he couldn’t quite name.

She opened her mouth to say something, but the words wouldn’t come. They caught in her throat, tangled up in everything she felt but didn’t understand.

Arthur didn’t know how long he’d been looking at her. Maybe it had been seconds, or maybe the better part of an eternity. It didn’t matter. What did matter was the unsettling, impossible realization that had crept into his mind. He’d lost track of time. He’d forgotten the day’s hardships, the sorrow, the anger. The only thing stuck in his head was her.

The way the late-afternoon sun had glinted off the water as she washed herself in the lake. The sight of her unguarded, wiping droplets from her arms. The damp strands of hair clinging to her behind.

And–

And–

Good God in heaven, he wanted to kiss Josephine Harper.

Josephine Harper!

He might as well have said he wanted to kiss his sister. If he had one, that was.

Except–

He stole another glance at her, the moonlight catching the delicate features of her face. Her loose cotton blouse clung to her frame in the breeze, the straps thin against her shoulders. The jacket she’d thrown on was open, barely concealing her form. Her trousers, just as loose-fitting, shifted with the faintest movements, brushing against her bare knees. Her hair, untied and catching the silvery light, tumbled down her back in fine, golden strands, swaying gently with each shift of her body. It fell so far down it nearly kissed the curve of her hips, a sight that made it impossible to look away.

She looked uncommonly fetching, and for the life of him, he couldn’t fathom how he hadn’t noticed it earlier.

She caught him looking, her brows raising slightly in question. Arthur cleared his throat and quickly turned his gaze back to the lake, heat creeping up his neck.

“Arthur?” His name was a mere whisper on her lips, her eyes were quite adorably blinking and befuddled, and how was it he’d never noticed what an intriguing shade of green they were? Almost gold near the pupil. He’d never seen anything like it, and yet it wasn’t as if he hadn’t seen her a hundred times before. How had he never noticed the way her gaze seemed to pull him in, like the first light of dawn cutting through the mist?

Arthur’s stomach twisted, and he stood abruptly, the movement more awkward than he intended. Best to put some distance between them—get a little air between their eyes. Things were simpler when they weren’t quite so close.

She stood, too.

Damn it.

“Arthur?” she asked again, her voice just loud enough to carry between them. “Can I ask ya a favor?”

Something deep in his gut churned uneasily, a primal warning telling him that whatever she wanted from him was bound to go sideways. But then again, he’d never been known for his sense of self-preservation.

“Of course,” he heard himself say, the words spilling out before he could stop them.

She hesitated, lips parting slightly. For the briefest of moments, he thought she was leaning toward him, and his pulse quickened in response. But she stopped short, her lips forming a word instead of a kiss.

“Would…”

His chest tightened. W always looked like a kiss.

“Would you kiss me?”

“What?” The word came out sharper than he meant, his voice cracking as if he hadn’t spoken in hours, aware that he was blinking rapidly. 

Her face turned a deeper shade of crimson than he’d thought humanly possible, and she turned away. “Never mind,” she mumbled. “Forget it.” 

And Arthur thought that was a very good idea. 

But then, just when he’d thought that his world might resume its normal course, or at least that he’d be able to pretend it had, she whirled back around, her eyes alight with a passionate fire that astonished him. “No, I ain’t gonna forget it,” she cried out. “I’ve spent my life forgetting things, not saying ‘em, never telling no one what I really want.” 

Arthur tried to say something, but it was clear to him that his throat had begun to close. Any minute now he’d be dead. He was sure of it. 

“It don’t need to mean nothing,” she said. “I promise you, it don’t need to mean nothing, and I’d never expect anything from you because of it, but I could’ve died, and–” 

“What?” he rasped, finally finding his voice.

She took another step, her eyes huge, pleading, and brimming with emotion that made his knees feel like they might give out. He could feel his resolve melting away. 

“‘M twenty-eight, Arthur,” she said, and there was something heartbreakingly raw in the way she said it. “We’re outlaws. Any of us could die any damn day, and I don’t wanna go without having kissed you one last time.”

Arthur felt like the world had shifted on its axis, like the stars above them had rearranged themselves into some strange and unfamiliar pattern.

He couldn’t move, couldn’t think, couldn’t even breathe properly.

Because the only thought rattling around in his head was that Josephine Harper had just asked him to kiss her.

And for the life of him, he couldn’t figure out why the hell he was still standing there, doing nothing.

He knew he knew how to speak; he was fairly certain he’d been perfectly articulate just minutes earlier. But now he didn’t seem able to form a word. 

And Jo kept talking.

Her cheeks were flushed, but it wasn’t just from the cold night air. There was something electric about her, her passion radiating through every word. Her lips moved quickly, forming sentences that hit him like punches to the gut, but all he could focus on was wondering what those lips might feel like on his skin. On his neck. His shoulder. And—damn it—other places he really shouldn’t be thinking about.

“We’re outlaws,” she said, her voice trembling with conviction. “And we don’t know where we’re gonna be in a year. Hell, in a week. I could die tomorrow, and–”

“You ain’t gonna die tomorrow!” he blurted out, the words tumbling from his mouth before he could think better of them.

“But I could! I could, and it would kill me, because–” 

“You’d already be dead,” he muttered, his voice sounding distant to his own ears, as if someone else were speaking for him.

“I don’t wanna die without having been kissed one last time,” she finished, her voice cracking on the last few words.

Arthur could think of a hundred reasons—maybe more—why kissing Josephine Harper was the worst idea he’d ever had. The biggest one, of course, being that he actually wanted to do it. Wanted it so badly it made his chest ache.

He opened his mouth, hoping to form some kind of protest, but nothing came out. Just a hollow exhale, as though the air itself was fleeing his lungs, leaving him stranded.

And then, Jo did the one thing that could break his resolve in an instant. She looked up at him, deeply into his eyes, and uttered one, simple word. 

“Please.”

And he had a bad, bad feeling that if this girl used the word please , he would give her anything she wanted. 

He was done for, lost to her in a way that no amount of self-control could save him from. There was something in her gaze that shattered his defenses, something raw and pleading and achingly vulnerable. It wasn’t heartbreak or embarrassment that fueled her words—it was need. A deep, soulful hunger that she was laying bare before him, trusting him to handle it gently.

And Arthur Morgan had never been trusted like this before.

It humbled him.

It terrified him.

It made him want her more than anything he’d ever wanted in his life.

His heart thundered in his chest as he stared at her, at this woman who had somehow become so much more than a companion or a friend. She glowed in the firelight, her loose cotton blouse slipping off one shoulder, her jacket hanging open, her bare feet dusted with dirt and grass.

How had he never noticed before? How had he looked at her so many times and never seen this?

She was a goddess. A siren.

And Arthur Morgan was hers to command.

“Arthur?” she whispered again, her voice barely more than a breath.

He didn’t answer her, at least not with words. Instead, he stepped forward—just enough so that when he reached out and tilted her chin up with his fingers, her lips were mere inches from his.

Their breaths mingled in the cool night air, but everything between them burned hot. His touch was featherlight, yet it made her tremble beneath him. Or was that him trembling? Arthur couldn’t tell, and it didn’t much matter.

He’d always fancied himself the type to have something clever to say, even in moments like this. A quip, a tease, some devil-may-care remark to lighten the mood. But as he leaned in, closing the tiny distance between them, he realized words wouldn’t come.

There were no words for this.

No words for the way the world seemed to tilt off its axis as he kissed her.

And so, standing under a blanket of stars in their camp at Clemens Point, Arthur Morgan kissed Josephine Harper.

It wasn’t what he expected. But it was glorious.

His lips touched hers softly at first, not because he was trying to be gentle, although if he’d had the presence of mind to think about such things, it probably would have occurred to him that this was their first real kiss, no booze involved, and it ought to be reverent and beautiful and all the things a girl dreams about as she’s lying in bed at night even if he doubted Jo was that kind of girl. 

But in all truth, none of that was on Arthur’s mind. In fact, he was thinking of quite little. His kiss was soft and gentle because he was still so surprised that he was kissing her. He’d known her for years, had never even thought about touching his lips to hers. And now he couldn’t have let her go if the fires of hell were licking his toes. He could barely believe what he was doing– or that he wanted to do it so damned much. 

It wasn’t rushed or desperate. It wasn’t a kiss born from anger or grief or some fleeting moment of passion. No, this kiss was something else entirely. It was deliberate. Measured. A slow unraveling.

And as his lips moved softly against hers, Arthur realized something else—he’d been wrong about every other kiss he’d ever had.

This was what a kiss was supposed to feel like.

Jo was still, her breath hitching against his as her hands hesitantly found his chest. He could feel the thrum of her pulse in the faint press of her fingertips, and it nearly undid him. His mouth grew more insistent, and his tongue darted forward, nudging her until her lips parted. His tongue brushed against hers, and the soft, startled sound she made was nearly his undoing. She was sweet and a little tart from the beer, and she was clearly as intoxicating as fine whisky, because Arthur was starting to doubt his ability to remain on his feet. 

He shifted, tilting his head just enough to explore more of her mouth. The soft scrape of his stubble against her skin sent a shiver racing through her, and he felt her fists tighten in the fabric of his shirt.

Arthur’s hands slid down her back, his fingers spreading wide against the thin cotton of her blouse. She was warm—so warm—and he wanted to memorize the shape of her beneath his palms. He pulled her closer, their bodies flush now, every point of contact igniting something primal in him.

He wanted her.

No, he needed her.

The realization hit him like a freight train, leaving him breathless and overwhelmed. But there was something tender in the way she responded, something that grounded him even as he felt like he was falling.

Her hands slid up to his shoulders, then into his hair, her fingers tangling in the thick, unruly strands. She kissed him back with a softness that nearly brought him to his knees.

For the first time in years, Arthur Morgan felt whole. He was growing hard, and he wanted her– dear God, how he wanted her. 

He moved his hand along the length of her–slowly, so as not to frighten her. She was wild, fierce, and untamed, just as he’d always thought a woman should be. Her lips flared, and her bottom was perfect, and her breast… good God, her breasts felt good pressing against his chest. His palms itched to cup them, but he forced his hands to remain where they were, rather enjoyably on her derriere, so it really wasn’t that much of a sacrifice. Beside the fact that he really shouldn’t be groping a lady’s breasts in the middle of the night, he had a rather painful suspicion that if he touched her in that way, he would lose himself completely. 

He broke the kiss just long enough to rest his forehead against hers, his breath coming in uneven pants. Her cheeks were flushed, her lips swollen, and the sight of her like this—beautiful and utterly undone—was enough to make him feel like the luckiest man alive.

“Jo…” His voice was hoarse, thick with emotion he couldn’t name. He hadn’t meant to say her name, but it fell from his lips like a prayer.

She looked up at him with wide eyes, her fingers still tangled in his hair. For a moment, she seemed just as stunned as he was, as if neither of them could quite believe what had just happened.

He wanted to kiss her again, to keep her in his arms for as long as she’d let him. But he forced himself to pause, to give her the chance to pull away if she wanted to.

Slowly, tentatively, she lifted one of her hands to his face. Her fingers trailed lightly over his cheek, skimming along the line of his jaw until they fell away. “Thank you,” she whispered. 

Thank you? 

He went still.

It was exactly the wrong thing to say. He didn’t want to be thanked for his kiss. 

It made him feel guilty. 

And shallow. 

As if it had been something done out of pity. And the worst part was he knew that if all this had come to pass only a few months earlier, it would have been out of pity. 

What the hell did that say about him?

“Don’t thank me,” he said gruffly, showing himself backward until they were no longer touching. 

“But–”

“I said don’t,” he repeated harshly, turning away as if he couldn’t bear the sight of her, when the truth was that he couldn’t quite bear himself. 

And the damndest thing was–he wasn’t sure why. This desperate, gnawing feeling– was it guilt? Because he shouldn’t have kissed her? Because he shouldn’t have liked it?

“Arthur,” she said, “don’t be angry at yourself.” 

“I ain’t,” he snapped.

“I asked you to kiss me. I practically forced you–” 

Now, there was a surefire way to make a man feel manly. “You ain’t forcin’ me,” he bit off. 

“No, but–” 

“Damn it, Jo, enough!” 

The words came out louder than he intended, and Jo flinched, her eyes widening. He saw the flicker of hurt before she masked it, her expression closing off.

Arthur swore under his breath. He looked down at her hands. They were shaking. He closed his eyes in agony. Why why why was he being such an ass?

“Jo…” he began, his voice softer now, almost pleading.

“No, it’s fine,” she said, her words rushed. “You don’t have to say nothing.” 

“No, I should.” 

“I really wish ya wouldn’t.”

And now she looked so quietly dignified. Which made him feel even worse. She was standing there, hugging herself, her eyes downward– not quite on the ground, but not on his face.

She thought he’d kissed her out of pity. 

And maybe—maybe some part of him wanted her to think that. Because if she believed it, then maybe he could, too. Maybe he could convince himself that this burning need inside him was something fleeting, something he could bury and forget, something that couldn’t possibly be more.

“I should go,” he said, the words quiet, and yet still too loud in the silent night. 

Jo didn’t stop him. She didn’t say a word.

He motioned to his tent. “I should go,” he said again, even as his feet refused to move. 

She nodded. 

“I didn’t—” he started, then faltered. His throat felt dry, his words clumsy. Instead, he settled on a quiet, “Thank you.”

For what, he wasn’t sure. For taking care of him, maybe. For trusting him, even when he didn’t deserve it. For this brief, bittersweet moment they’d shared.

Jo watched as he hesitated, his broad shoulders tense, his head slightly bowed. Arthur Morgan, a man so solid and unyielding in the face of chaos, now seemed to teeter on an invisible edge. Her heart ached at the sight.

“You don’t have to leave,” she said softly, her voice a fragile thread of hope.

Arthur froze. He didn’t turn around, didn’t answer her right away. The silence stretched taut between them, heavy with the weight of all the words left unsaid.

“Think I do,” he muttered, his voice low and gruff.

Jo’s lips parted, a protest poised on the tip of her tongue, but she stopped herself. Instead, she stepped forward, closing the space between them. Her footsteps were light, barely audible, yet Arthur flinched when he felt her presence so close behind him.

“Arthur,” she said, her tone firmer now. She reached out, her fingers brushing his arm. “Don’t walk away like this.”

He turned to her then, slowly, like a man bracing himself for a blow. His blue eyes met hers, and she could see the storm raging behind them. Regret. Longing. Fear .

“I don’t know what the hell I’m doin’, Jo,” he admitted, his voice breaking on her name. “I don’t know what you want from me.”

She swallowed hard, her throat tightening as his words struck a chord deep within her. “I don’t want nothing from you, Arthur. I just…” She hesitated, searching for the right words, something to ease the turmoil she could see etched into every line of his face. “I just don’t want you to think this was meaningless.”

He stared at her, his jaw tightening. “Maybe it was,” he said finally, though the words sounded hollow even to his own ears.

Her breath hitched, and for a moment, she felt as though the air had been stolen from her. But she didn’t flinch, didn’t shy away. Instead, she stepped closer, her hand rising to rest gently against his chest.

“Then why’re you still here?” she asked quietly, her gaze never wavering from his.

Arthur didn’t answer. He couldn’t. Because the truth—the truth that was clawing its way to the surface—was that he didn’t want to leave.

Jo’s fingers curled slightly against the fabric of his shirt, her touch grounding him in a way he hadn’t expected. “If you think this is a mistake, fine,” she said, her voice steady despite the tremor in her hands. “But don’t walk away without tellin’ me why.”

Arthur’s shoulders slumped, the fight draining out of him. He lifted a hand, brushing a strand of hair from her face with surprising tenderness. “I ain’t good at this, Jo,” he confessed, his voice rough with emotion. “Never have been.”

“Neither am I,” she admitted, a small, bittersweet smile tugging at her lips. “But maybe… Maybe we can figure it out together.”

His thumb lingered on her cheek, tracing a path that sent a shiver down her spine. For a moment, he just looked at her, as if committing her face to memory.

“I don’t want to hurt you,” he said finally, the words so soft they were barely audible.

“You won’t,” she promised, though they both knew it wasn’t a promise she could keep.

Arthur let out a shaky breath, his hand falling away from her face. “I should still go,” he said, though his feet remained rooted to the ground.

Jo nodded, her eyes shining with unshed tears. “If that’s what you think is best,” she said, her voice trembling slightly.

He lingered for a moment longer, his heart warring with his head. And then, with a quiet, almost pained, “Goodnight, Jo,” he turned and walked away.

Jo stood there in the silence that followed, her arms wrapped around herself as if to hold the pieces of her heart together.

“Goodnight, Arthur,” she whispered to the empty night.

Jo stood near the lake, the stillness of the night wrapping around her like a shroud. She thought she was alone, her mind replaying the kiss, Arthur’s touch, and the way he’d walked away without a word.

Micah leaned against a tree, his grin as slimy as ever. “Where’s my kiss, Blondie?” he drawled with a snarl.

She stiffened, her shoulders squaring as she turned sharply, spotting Micah emerging from the darkness, his grin crooked and leering.

For a heartbeat, her breath caught—less from fear, more from sheer irritation at the sight of him. But Jo quickly recovered, her glare like a spark ready to ignite. She took a step forward, her hands loose but ready at her sides, her tone steady and biting. “Try that, Micah, and you’ll be kissing the dirt instead.”

Micah hesitated, the grin faltering just enough for her to know she’d struck a nerve.

Chapter 13: The Hunter Becomes the Hunted

Summary:

Sadie and Jo teams up to go after some O'Driscolls, but it doesn't go as planned.

Chapter Text

When Jo awoke the next morning, still groggy from the fitful sleep she'd managed after the events of the previous day, she already felt exhausted. Her body ached, though she wasn’t sure if it was from the physical toll of the failed job they’d done or the emotional weight of the night before.

She pushed through the lingering fatigue, swinging her legs over the side of her cot with a groan. The air in the tent was cool, and she shivered slightly as she reached for her clothes. She dressed quickly, opting for her usual dark jeans and a long-sleeve cotton shirt, rolling the sleeves up to her elbows. The familiar weight of her hat settled over her messy hair, providing a small comfort as she prepared herself for another day in camp.

Stepping out of the tent, she was greeted by the first rays of dawn creeping over the horizon, painting the sky in hues of orange and pink. The camp was still quiet, the usual hum of morning activity not yet in full swing. She made her way toward the coffee pot, craving the warmth and bitterness to shake off the lingering haze in her mind.

As she passed by the row of tethered horses, her eyes immediately caught the missing horse. Atlas wasn’t there.

Arthur must’ve left early for a job. The thought came easily enough, but it didn’t silence the small, nagging voice in her head. Or maybe he didn’t want to see her today after what happened last night. Her stomach churned at the possibility, and she couldn’t stop the wave of self-recrimination that followed. She felt so foolish for asking such a thing of him.

Why had she done it? Was it the emotion of the day, the exhaustion? She had no answers, only the persistent ache of regret that clung to her like a second skin. She couldn’t shake the thought that he must have kissed her out of pity. Maybe he even regretted it. Or both.

Yet, try as she might to cling to the shame, there was another truth that refused to be silenced. She’d loved it—every second of it. The memory of his lips on hers, the way he’d held her like she was something precious, was burned into her mind. But that only made it worse. Because now she knew what it felt like, and she was terrified it would never happen again.

Foolish. That’s what she was. Utterly foolish.

Jo carried on, pouring herself a much-needed cup of coffee. The steam wafted up, tickling her nose as she made her way to the poker table. She sat down with a weary sigh, taking her first sip. The bitterness didn’t bother her—it was almost comforting.

Her moment of solitude didn’t last long, though. She spotted Sadie Adler approaching.

Jo tilted her head slightly, curious. She could count on one hand the number of times they’d spoken. It wasn’t that they didn’t like each other, but their paths rarely crossed. When Sadie had first arrived at camp, she’d been withdrawn, consumed by grief after losing her husband to the O’Driscolls. And Jo, with her own responsibilities and distractions, hadn’t made much of an effort either.

Still, Sadie looked better now—her shoulders straighter, her eyes less haunted. Jo took it as a good sign.

"Mind if I sit?" Sadie asked, nodding toward the table.

"No, go ahead," Jo said, gesturing to the empty chair. Her voice softened, unusual for her, but Sadie seemed… different. Stronger, maybe.

Sadie eased into the seat, but her tension was hard to miss.

"What’s up?" Jo asked gently. It wasn’t like her to sugarcoat things, but there was something about Sadie’s expression that made her tread carefully.

“D’you know where Mr. Morgan is?” Sadie asked, her voice tinged with unease.

“Arthur?” Jo hesitated, her grip tightening on her mug. “Ehm, no. I don’t. Can I help you with anythin’?”

Sadie hesitated, her gaze shifting away before meeting Jo’s again. “Actually, yeah, you can.”

Jo leaned forward slightly, her curiosity piqued. “Alright. What’s goin’ on?”

Sadie took a breath, her tone sharpening. “I was in Rhodes a couple days ago. Heard some folks talkin’. Seems there’s some O’Driscolls not far from Dewberry Creek. Hangin’ around like they own the place.”

Jo frowned, her stomach twisting at the mention of the gang. The hatred between the Van der Linde’s and the O’Driscolls ran deep.

“They’re part of the ones that… that ruined my life,” Sadie continued, her voice tight with anger. “Killed my husband, burned my home. I can’t just sit here, Jo. I can’t. I need to do somethin’ about it.”

Jo nodded slowly, her mind racing. She knew Sadie’s pain, at least in part. That kind of loss changed a person.

“I’ll help you,” Jo said firmly.

Sadie blinked, her jaw tightening in gratitude. “You sure?”

Jo gave a quick shrug, standing up and downing the rest of her coffee. “Hell, why not? Could use the distraction.”

From the kiss. From Sean’s death. From everything that was clawing at her mind.

Sadie stood too, determination etched across her face. “Then let’s go.”

 


 

The morning sun was warm against their backs as Jo and Sadie rode side by side, their horses moving at an easy pace. The path to Dewberry Creek wound through quiet woods, with only the rustle of leaves and the occasional bird breaking the stillness.

Sadie broke the silence first. “You ever been out this way before?”

Jo nodded, her eyes scanning the trees. “Couple times. Not much out here but trouble, though.” She glanced over at Sadie. “Guess that’s what we’re lookin’ for today.”

Sadie smirked faintly. “Ain’t that the truth.”

They fell quiet for a moment, the clip-clop of their horses’ hooves filling the gap. Then Sadie turned her head slightly toward Jo, a curious glint in her eye. “Can I ask you somethin’?”

Jo arched an eyebrow. “Shoot.”

“It’s about you and Arthur,” Sadie said, her tone careful but direct. “What’s the deal there?”

Jo stiffened in her saddle, her grip on the reins tightening for just a second. “What d’you mean by that?”

Sadie shrugged, though her gaze remained sharp. “I mean, y’all are close. Anyone can see that. Just… hard to tell if it’s ‘cause you’re good friends or...”

Jo stared ahead, stunned by the question. Her thoughts tumbled over one another, searching for a clear answer. Finally, she sighed. “We’re friends. At least… that’s what I think.” It was really hard to know where she stood with Arthur, the impression of taking one step forward towards him and then three back. Especially after last night.

Sadie tilted her head, studying Jo’s profile. “That what you want? Just to be friends?”

Jo hesitated, her pulse quickening. She didn’t know how to answer that—not to Sadie, and not even to herself. “I don’t really know what I want,” she admitted, her voice quieter than usual. “But Arthur and I… it’s complicated. We’ve known each other for a long time. He’s… he’s important to me.”

Sadie nodded, seeming to accept that.

Jo was grateful for the shift in topic when she asked, “What about you? How you feelin’ these days?”

Sadie’s expression darkened, her jaw clenching as she looked straight ahead. “Empty,” she said flatly. “Full of rage. Hatred.” She paused, gripping the reins tighter. “I wake up every day and feel like there’s a hole inside me where my life used to be. And it’s all because of them O’Driscolls.”

Jo’s heart twisted at the raw pain in Sadie’s voice. “That ain’t easy to carry,” she said softly.

Sadie nodded, her lips pressing into a thin line. “It ain’t. But it’s all I got right now. The hate keeps me goin’. Gives me a reason to get up in the mornin’.”

Jo didn’t argue. Sometimes, revenge was all a person had to hold onto, and she wasn’t about to tell Sadie to let go of it.

The girls continued to ride at an easy pace, their horses' hooves crunching softly against the dirt path, when the stillness ahead made Jo’s stomach drop.

Four men, mounted and unmoving, blocked the road just ahead. Their horses pawed the ground restlessly, but the men themselves sat with eerie calm, their eyes trained on the women.

“Shit,” Jo muttered, her fingers instinctively tightening around Daisy’s reins.

Sadie looked over her shoulder, and her face hardened. “We got more behind us.”

Jo twisted in her saddle, spotting the glint of sunlight on rifle barrels in the distance. Three more riders had appeared, cutting off their retreat.

“Damn it,” Jo hissed, her heart pounding.

The man in front, his face weathered and scarred, tipped his hat in mockery. “Well, well. Look what we got here, boys. Couple of strays from Dutch’s little flock.”

Sadie’s hand drifted toward the pistol at her hip. “Think they’ll shut up if I put a bullet between their eyes?” she muttered under her breath.

Jo’s gaze darted to the side, the dense thicket of trees and brush offering the only way out. “We’re cut off. Gotta push through,” she said quietly, leaning toward Sadie. They had neither the element of surprise nor the upper hand, making retreat their only sensible option.

Sadie nodded, her expression grim. “Ready when you are.”

“Now!” Jo barked, jerking Daisy’s reins and spurring her into a sharp turn toward the treeline.

The O’Driscolls shouted in alarm as both women veered off the path, their horses tearing through the underbrush. Gunfire erupted, bullets slicing through the air around them. Jo fired blindly over her shoulder, hearing Sadie’s revolver bark in tandem.

“Keep riding!” Sadie shouted, her voice sharp over the chaos.

Jo gritted her teeth, urging Daisy to go faster. But the O’Driscolls weren’t giving up. Hoofbeats thundered behind them, closing the distance.

A shot rang out, louder than the rest, and Jo felt Daisy stumble beneath her.

“No!” she screamed as the mare let out a gut-wrenching, pained cry, her legs buckling and sending them both crashing to the ground. Jo had no time to react as the earth came up fast, the impact jarring every bone in her body. Daisy’s lifeless body slammed down on top of her, pinning her legs beneath its weight as she cried out in pain.

Jo’s breath left her in a ragged gasp, pain exploding through her limbs as she clawed at the dirt. Hot tears stung her eyes as she twisted and squirmed, trying to free herself. “Daisy!” she rasped, her voice cracking as the realization set in—her horse, her companion, was gone.

“Jo!” Sadie’s voice cut through the haze of panic. She had yanked Bob to a sharp stop, her wide eyes darting toward Jo’s struggling form beneath Daisy’s fallen body.

“Go!” Jo shouted, her voice raw with desperation. “Get out of here! Warn the others!”

Sadie hesitated, her jaw clenched in defiance, her eyes blazing with conflict. “I ain’t leavin’ you!”

“Sadie, goddammit!” Jo screamed, her voice breaking. “You’ve got to go! Now!”

Sadie’s face twisted in anguish, her lips trembling with the weight of the decision. Finally, she gave a sharp nod. “You better stay alive, Jo!” she yelled, spurring Bob forward and disappearing into the shadows of the trees.

“Leave her, we got one already,” one of the O’Driscolls barked, and the others didn’t bother chasing after Sadie.

Jo gritted her teeth, her fingers digging into the dirt as she pushed and squirmed, her hot tears mixing with the sweat and grime on her face. Her breaths came in shallow gasps, her voice trembling as she cursed under her breath. Daisy’s body was impossibly heavy, a dead weight crushing her legs and rendering her movements useless. She let out a guttural grunt of effort, her muscles straining and trembling, but it was no use. She couldn’t budge the horse.

“Well, ain’t this a sight,” a voice drawled, sharp and mocking.

Jo snapped her head up, her chest heaving as some of the O’Driscolls dismounted and closed in.

“Look at her squirm,” another one chuckled, his voice dripping with cruelty. “Bet Dutch don’t care half as much about you as you think he does.”

“Go to hell,” Jo spat, her voice trembling with fury even as her body betrayed her, pinned and helpless.

As the men closed in on her, Jo’s mind raced. She had no way out. But she wouldn’t go down without a fight.

From beneath the dead weight of Daisy, Jo managed to grab her gun, her fingers slick with sweat. Without hesitation, she fired twice, her aim unsteady but desperate. Both shots rang out, one hitting its mark, sending an O’Driscoll falling off his horse with a thud, lifeless before he hit the ground. The second went wide, but it didn’t matter. One less O’Driscoll, at least.

But her gun clicked empty.

She threw it toward them, the useless weapon landing in the dirt with a dull thud. Her chest heaved with rapid breaths, sweat stinging her eyes, the pain from her trapped position overwhelming her.

The tallest of the group, a broad-shouldered man with a cruel grin, crouched beside her, his shadow looming. “Cute, but ain’t gonna save ya.”

He reached down, his rough hand clamping onto her shoulder, hauling her out from under Daisy with a brutal yank. Jo screamed as the pain in her legs flared, sending fiery jolts up her spine.

Before she could catch her breath, the man raised the butt of his rifle and brought it down hard against her temple.

Jo’s world spun, her vision blurring into darkness. Then, everything went black.

 


 

Arthur rode into Emerald Station just as the morning mist began to burn off, the cool air still clinging to his skin. His thoughts wandered, no matter how hard he tried to push them aside.

The feel of her lips, the weight of her words, the strange tension that hung between them like a storm about to break—it gnawed at him. Damn it all, he thought. He needed a distraction, something to clear his head.

He found it in the form of a bounty poster pinned to the wall outside the stationmaster’s office. Some two-bit outlaw, nothing too exciting, but enough to keep his hands busy.

The job itself had been easy. The target—a wiry man with a forgettable face—hadn’t put up much of a fight. Arthur had tracked him to a run-down shack a few miles east of the station. A quick scuffle, a couple of bruises, and the man was tied up on the back of his horse before noon.

Now, standing at Emerald Station, Arthur handed the outlaw over to a government agent waiting by the platform. The agent, a stiff-looking man in a clean black coat, gave Arthur a polite nod as he passed over the bounty money.

“Good work,” the agent said. “Feller’s been wanted for a while. Figured he’d bolt clear out of the state by now.”

Arthur tucked the cash into his satchel with a grunt. “Didn’t seem smart enough for that. Barely put up a fight.”

The agent chuckled. “Guess not. We could use more folks like you out here. If you’re interested, we’ve got a few more posters over there. Take a look.”

Arthur nodded, tipping his hat as the agent hauled the bounty off toward the train platform.

Curiosity got the better of him, and he made his way around the building to where three posters were pinned to a weathered board. He scanned the first two—a cattle rustler and a gang member—before his eyes caught on the third.

Arthur blinked, his eyes narrowing as he leaned in closer. The drawing wasn’t much—old and faded, with lines that looked hastily sketched. But something about it tugged at the edge of his memory.

The sharp set of the jaw, the arch of the brows—it reminded him of someone, though the features were softer, younger. He frowned, staring harder at the name beneath the sketch.

"Sarah Wightman…"

The man wasted no time interrupting his thoughts. "Wanted for murder, if you can believe it. We hardly ever get bounties for womenfolk, but it seems like this one ain't from 'round here. Nobody seems to recognize her, and the fact that drawin' ain't too good ‘n old doesn't help much neither."

The agent continued, lowering his voice slightly. “They’ve got her pegged for murder—more than one, from what I hear. Some in these parts, some further south. No one’s got proof she did ’em all, but folks’ve been talking. Bounty’s up to a thousand dollars if you’re interested.”

Arthur let out a low whistle, keeping his tone casual. “Hell of a price.”

The agent shrugged. “Reckon she’s a slippery one. Could be long gone by now, but you never know. Every now and then, someone’ll catch wind of her. Figured it’s worth putting her face up, just in case.”

Arthur nodded slowly, his gaze drifting back to the poster. It didn’t make sense. The resemblance was faint, but the thought wouldn’t leave him alone. It reminded him of someone… or someone who might’ve been, years ago.

But Jo never talked about her past. Not much, anyway.

“Sarah Wightman,” he muttered under his breath, turning the name over in his mind. It wasn’t her. Couldn’t be.

Couldn’t it?

Arthur stared at the poster again, his eyes narrowing. The list of murders didn’t sit right with him—too many, too scattered. And the drawing? It looked like a girl barely out of her childhood, soft-faced and younger than Jo ever was when they met.

It didn’t make sense.

Sure, the resemblance was there—faint, but enough to tug at the back of his mind like a splinter he couldn’t ignore. And the name… Sarah Wightman. He couldn’t recall Jo ever mentioning anything like that, but then again, she never talked much about her past.

Arthur’s brow furrowed as he carefully ripped the poster from the board. Folding it neatly, he tucked it into his satchel, the weight of it settling alongside his growing unease.

He’d ask her about it. Later.

Right now, he needed to get back to camp. Maybe seeing Jo in person would clear his head, or at least help him figure out what the hell he was supposed to make of this as well as the little moment they shared last night.

Climbing into the saddle, he gave Atlas a quick pat on the neck and steered him toward the road. The sun was higher now, burning away the lingering haze of morning. Arthur adjusted his hat, casting a shadow over his face, and kicked Atlas into a steady trot.

 


 

Jo woke slowly, her head throbbing in time with the dull ache in her leg. The harsh afternoon sun beat down on her skin, making her feel like she was burning from the inside out. She squinted against the bright light, blinking rapidly as she tried to make sense of her surroundings.

Where the hell was she?

She could make out the thick trees and tangled bushes around her, the dense forest almost suffocating her. One thing was certain, this was not Dewberry Creek. Her senses crawled back sluggishly, like a drunk fumbling for balance. She tried to sit up, only to realize her wrists were bound high above her head, tied to a wooden post behind her back. The post pressed uncomfortably against her shoulders as she knelt on the hard ground, her legs folded beneath her. Her ankles were bound tightly to the post as well, the coarse rope digging into her skin. The position forced her to stay upright, her knees aching from the unyielding dirt beneath them.

The post itself was in the heart of the O’Driscolls’ camp, hidden among the shadows of the forest, but she could hear the crackling of a nearby fire. The heat from the flames stung against her skin, mixing with the intensity of the sun. The rough rope bit into her skin, each movement sending fresh jolts of pain up her arms. Her legs were stretched out in front of her, the left one still throbbing from Daisy’s fall.

Memory returned in sharp, unwelcome flashes: Daisy’s dying scream, the weight of her horse pinning her, Sadie’s frantic face, and then—the O’Driscolls.

Her stomach turned, but she bit down the panic. They’d knocked her out, clearly. She didn’t know how long she’d been unconscious—hours, maybe, judging by the angle of the sun. Not days, she hoped.

Jo took a moment to look around, trying to get her bearings, but the pain in her head made it hard to focus. Through the haze, she counted at least twenty O’Driscolls scattered around the camp. Some were sitting by the fire, sharpening knives or passing bottles between them. Others were walking in and out of makeshift tents, or lounging near the edges of the clearing. It looked like they were scattered across the camp, but there could be more hidden in the trees, waiting.

She grimaced, wishing she had the chance to make a break for it. Her eyes scanned further, catching glimpses of her belongings strewn about. Her guns were propped carelessly against a nearby tree, their holsters dangling loosely. Her belt, the one with her knife and other tools, was tossed onto the ground next to a couple of O'Driscolls who were arguing. Even her saddlebags—where she had stashed some cash, a few personal items, and extra ammunition—were visible, sitting casually beside a campfire, as if they hadn’t a care in the world.

Her gaze shifted again, noting their sloppy, disorganized nature—guns lying too close to the campfire, scattered bags of stolen goods, a few men gambling nearby. 

She tested her restraints again, twisting her wrists despite the burn. The ropes didn’t budge, the fibers scratching her skin raw. She let out a frustrated grunt, tugging harder until her breath came short from the exertion.

“Well, look who’s awake,” a gruff voice drawled.

Jo snapped her head toward the sound, grimacing as pain flared in her skull. Two O’Driscolls emerged from the shadows of the camp, their expressions a mixture of smug satisfaction and barely contained malice.

“Well, well,” the broader one sneered, crossing his arms. “Dutch’s little golden girl, all trussed up like a prize hog.”

“Not lookin’ so tough now, huh?” the other added, a wiry man with a cruel smile.

Jo’s lip curled. “Yeah? Tough enough to bite yer damn tongue off if you get any closer.”

The wiry man laughed, a sharp, grating sound. “Feisty. I like that.”

“Fuck off,” Jo snapped, baring her teeth.

The broader one stepped forward, grabbing a fistful of her hair and yanking her head back. Jo hissed through gritted teeth, refusing to give him the satisfaction of a scream.

“Keep talkin’, sweetheart,” he growled, his breath reeking of stale tobacco. “See where it gets ya.”

“Probably somewhere better than where you’re goin’ when this all turns around,” Jo spat, glaring up at him. “What, you think Dutch ain’t gonna come for me? You think Arthur won’t?”

The mention of Arthur’s name sparked a flicker of something in the man’s eyes—recognition, maybe annoyance.

“Arthur Morgan,” the wiry one mused. “Bet he’s cryin’ over his precious little girl right now.”

Jo smirked, despite the pounding in her head. “You’re scared of him, ain’t ya? You should.”

The broad man slapped her, hard, sending her head snapping to the side. Stars exploded in her vision, but she clenched her jaw and forced herself to look back at him, defiance burning in her eyes.

“You shut that mouth,” he snarled.

“You’re gonna need to do better than that if you want me to,” she shot back, her voice sharp despite the sting on her cheek.

The wiry man let out a low whistle. “This one’s got a death wish.”

“Nah,” the broad one replied with a smirk. “She’s just stallin’. Hopin’ Dutch or Morgan’ll come gallopin’ in to save her.”

Jo didn’t respond, but the flicker of doubt in her chest must have shown in her eyes.

“Colm’ll be here tomorrow,” the wiry one added, his grin widening. “Bet he’ll love hearin’ what we caught. Dutch’s girl. And Morgan’s little plaything, no less.”

Jo’s blood ran cold, but she forced a mocking smile. “Better hope he’s in a good mood then. Not sure I’d wanna be you if he ain’t.”

Her captors exchanged a look, their smirks faltering for a fraction of a second before hardening again.

“Enjoy your last few hours, sweetheart,” the broad one said, his voice dripping with menace. “Colm’s gonna make sure they’re memorable.” He sneered, shaking his head. “I don’t wanna hear no more from her. Shut her up.”

Without hesitation, the wiry man stepped forward, grabbed her chin, and tried to yank her face toward him. But Jo moved just in time, sinking her teeth into his hand, biting down hard.

He let out a noise of pain, falling back and clutching his hand to his chest, his face contorted with rage. “You little—”

Before she could do anything else, the broad one backhanded her across the face. Her head jerked to the side, the force of the blow making her see stars. The pain from that strike melded with the others, everything becoming a blur of pain and anger.

The wiry man hissed, but before Jo could recover, he stepped up again, now holding a cloth in his hands. He shoved it against her mouth, tying it tightly behind her head, so securely that she couldn’t move her jaw to get a word out. The cloth was dirty, rough against her skin, and it muffled the sound of her furious grunts as she glared at them.

“Quiet now, sweetheart,” the broad one sneered. “Wouldn’t want you to get yourself in more trouble.”

Jo clenched her jaw, her fists still trembling with anger as the men turned and walked away. Her body ached, her wrists raw from the ropes and the fabric pressing into her mouth.

For the first time since waking up, she felt fear creep in, cold and unrelenting. But she swallowed it down, lifting her head to glare after them.

She wasn’t done fighting. Not yet.

Chapter 14: A Knight in Shining Spurs

Summary:

Arthur goes to find Jo.

Chapter Text

Arthur arrived back at camp, his horse's hooves kicking up dust as he dismounted and tethered the reins to a post. The sun hung high in the sky, beating down relentlessly, the heat of the afternoon settling like a heavy blanket over the camp. Sweat clung to his skin, and even the breeze, when it came, carried a warm, dry edge. The familiar sight of the tents and campfire should have been a relief, a signal that he could finally rest, but something wasn’t right.

Even before he could glance around properly, the sound of raised voices near Dutch’s tent caught his attention. A crowd had gathered, and Sadie’s unmistakable, furious tone rose above the rest.

Arthur furrowed his brow. This wasn’t the usual camp squabble.

He adjusted his hat and grabbed the small pouch of bounty money from his saddlebag. His original plan had been to hand it over to the camp funds and spend the rest of the day avoiding Dutch’s sermons and Pearson’s gripes, but the tension in the air tugged him toward the commotion.

As he approached, the words became clearer, and they stopped him dead in his tracks.

“It’s the damn O’Driscolls! She told me it was dangerous—damn it, she warned me! But I didn’t listen…” Sadie’s voice cracked, a rare break in her usual composure.

Arthur froze, his grip tightening on the bag in his hand. His stomach twisted before he quickened his pace toward Dutch’s tent.

Sadie was pacing back and forth, her face flushed with anger and fear, while the others stood around her—Hosea, Charles, even John, all looking grim.

“Sadie,” Arthur said sharply, his voice cutting through the din. “What’s goin’ on?”

Sadie spun on her heel, her eyes wide and wild. “It’s Jo! She’s gone!”

Arthur’s heart stopped. “Gone? What do you mean, ‘gone’?”

“They took her, Arthur!” Sadie snapped, her hands clenched into fists. “Those bastards ambushed us—O’Driscolls! We were ridin’ to Dewberry Creek, and they just... they blocked the damn path. We tried to run, but they shot her horse, and—”

Arthur felt like the ground had shifted beneath him. “Daisy’s dead?” he asked numbly.

Sadie nodded, her voice cracking again. “Yeah. Jo was pinned under her. I—I wanted to help her, but she told me to go! Said I had to warn the rest of you!”

Arthur’s jaw tightened as a wave of emotions crashed over him. Jo. Taken by the O’Driscolls. Alone with those animals.

His mind raced with images—her defiance, her sharp wit, her stubborn streak. She could hold her own in a fight, no doubt, but against the likes of them?

He swallowed hard, shoving aside the image of her lying helpless and surrounded.

“Where?” he demanded, his voice low and dangerous.

“I don’t know,” Sadie admitted, her voice trembling. “I barely got outta there myself. They didn’t follow me—they just... they wanted her.”

Arthur’s chest tightened, a feeling he didn’t fully understand taking hold of him. It wasn’t just anger. It wasn’t just worry. It was something deeper, something that cut through his usual stoicism like a knife.

Jo.

The thought of her—fierce, unyielding Jo—at the mercy of the O’Driscolls made his blood run cold. She wasn’t just some member of the gang. She wasn’t just someone he rode alongside on jobs.

She was Jo.

He thought of the night before, of the moment they’d shared that he hadn’t been able to stop replaying in his head all day. He’d been so caught up in his own confusion, so unsure of what it meant or how to feel about it. But now, faced with the reality of losing her, it all seemed so damn clear.

He couldn’t lose her. Not her .

“I’m goin’ after her,” Arthur said, his voice firm.

“I’m comin’ with you,” Sadie declared immediately, stepping closer. Her voice wavered, but her resolve was clear. “I shouldn’t have left her. I know she told me to, but damn it, I can’t just sit here.”

Arthur hesitated, glancing at her. Sadie was clearly shaken, the guilt written all over her face. “Alright,” he muttered. “You can lead us to where it happened. That’s somethin’, at least.”

Before Sadie could respond, Dutch’s booming voice rang out from behind them.

“This is exactly what they want!” he said, striding toward them with his arms outstretched, his presence commanding as ever. “They’ve got her, Arthur. They know she’s with us. This ain’t about her. This is about us. About me. Colm’s got her sittin’ there, danglin’ like bait on a hook, just waitin’ for us to come runnin’.”

Arthur’s fists clenched. “So what? We just leave her with those bastards?” he snapped, his voice low and dangerous.

“Arthur—”

“No, Dutch.” Arthur stepped closer, his glare locking with Dutch’s. “She’s one of us. I’m not leavin’ her there to die just because Colm wants to play his damn games.”

Dutch’s jaw tightened, but before he could fire back, Hosea stepped in, his voice calm and measured.

“Dutch, he’s right,” Hosea said, his sharp gaze flicking between the two men. “But you’re also right. Colm’s expectin’ us to come stormin’ in. That’s why you can’t go. If you walk into this, you’ll be playin’ right into his hands, and Jo will pay the price for it.”

Dutch scowled, visibly wrestling with his pride and the truth in Hosea’s words.

“I’ll go,” Charles said, stepping forward. His quiet confidence was unshakable, as always. “If they’re nearby, I’ll find the trail. We’ll bring her back.”

Before Arthur could respond, another voice cut in.

“I’ll go too,” John said, stepping up. His face was set with determination, his eyes burning with the same protective fire Arthur had seen so many times before. “She’s family. You need another gun.”

Dutch turned to him sharply, his expression softening just enough to make his next words sting. “No, John. You stay here.”

“What?” John protested, his voice rising. “You’re just gonna send them off without—”

“We need to keep the camp safe,” Dutch interrupted, his tone firm but laced with a faint undertone of persuasion. “If Colm’s got her, he’s probably got more men out there. You think they won’t come sniffin’ around here while we’re distracted? You stay. We Guard the camp. That’s an order.”

John’s jaw tightened, his fists clenching at his sides. “Dutch, she’s—”

“She’s family to all of us,” Dutch cut in smoothly, placing a hand on John’s shoulder. “But we need you here. If Colm comes for the rest of us, we’ll need every gun ready.”

John’s shoulders slumped slightly, the conflict clear in his expression. Finally, with a reluctant nod, he stepped back. “Fine,” he muttered, though the word sounded more like a growl.

Arthur glanced at John, seeing the guilt and frustration in his eyes. “We’ll bring her back,” Arthur said firmly, as much a promise to John as it was to himself.

Dutch let out a frustrated sigh, running a hand through his hair. “Get her and get back. I won’t lose more people to Colm O’Driscoll and his damn vendetta.”

Arthur almost smirked at the irony, but his focus was elsewhere. He turned back to Sadie. “Get your horse. We’re leavin’ now.”

As Sadie hurried off, Dutch muttered bitterly, “Colm just keeps pushin’. He’ll get what’s comin’ to him soon enough.”

Arthur ignored the comment, his jaw set as he mounted his horse. Charles joined him, his expression grim but steady.

“You ready for this?” Arthur asked Charles.

“Always,” Charles replied.

Moments later, Sadie returned, already atop Bob. Her face was hardened with determination, though Arthur could still see the guilt lingering in her eyes.

“We’ll find her,” she said, almost as if reassuring herself.

Arthur nodded, gripping the reins tightly. “Let’s ride.”

As they set out, the tension in camp hung heavy behind them. Dutch stood near the campfire, his gaze distant, while John watched them leave, his hands clenched into fists.

They had to get her back. Whatever it took.

 


 

The heat was suffocating, pressing down on Jo like a weight she couldn’t shrug off. Her throat was raw, every shallow breath scraping like sandpaper, and her lips were split and dry, bleeding faintly from the relentless assault of the sun. The ropes around her wrists felt like firebrands, cutting deeper into her skin with every small, involuntary twitch. Her shoulders burned from being pulled back against the wooden post, the unnatural angle knotting her muscles and sending sharp jolts of pain through her arms.

Her knees throbbed from the unyielding ground beneath them, the dirt rough and unrelenting against her skin. The ropes around her ankles dug deeper with each slight shift, binding her firmly to the post and leaving her legs cramped and useless.

The gag made it all worse. The filthy cloth soaked up what little moisture she might have had left, leaving her mouth parched and her tongue feeling like a dry lump of lead. She tried to swallow, but her throat closed on the effort, the act more painful than it was worth.

Sweat dripped down her temple, stinging her eyes as she forced her eyes open against the blazing sun overhead. Time had blurred into an agonizing haze, each moment dragging endlessly into the next. Hours had passed—she knew that much. Days? She couldn’t be sure anymore.

The faint sound of boots crunching against the dirt caught her attention. Her heart thudded, not in fear, but in a weary, simmering defiance. One of the O’Driscolls strolled into view, his grin as filthy as his face. His sweat-streaked shirt clung to his chest, and the stench of unwashed skin wafted toward her, sour and vile. 

“Well, ain’t you a sight,” he said, crouching down just out of reach. His tone dripped with mockery, every word meant to dig under her skin. Tearing off a piece of jerky with his teeth, he chewed obnoxiously loud, the wet sound making her stomach churn.

Jo stared at him, her chest heaving with slow, labored breaths. Her glare was sharp, her eyes burning with hatred even as her body trembled from exhaustion.

“Bet you’re thirsty,” he said, smirking as he pulled a dented canteen from his belt. He shook it, the sound of water sloshing inside teasing her cruelly.

Her throat tightened reflexively, a pang of desperation shooting through her. She hated the instinctive reaction, but her body betrayed her.

“Want some?” he asked, dangling the canteen just out of reach. His grin widened when her glare intensified.

Her defiance only amused him. Laughing, he unscrewed the cap with a deliberate slowness, savoring her helplessness. “Here you go.”

But instead of offering her the water, he tipped the canteen downward, spilling its contents onto the parched earth at her feet. The liquid soaked into the dirt instantly, leaving only a dark stain behind.

Jo’s stomach clenched with rage and a bitter, gnawing desperation.

“Oops,” he said, mock innocence dripping from his voice. “Guess I’m clumsy.”

Her raw wrists jerked instinctively against the ropes, her muscles straining against the bonds as a muffled grunt escaped her gag. Tears of frustration pricked at her eyes, but she forced them down, turning the pain into smoldering anger.

He loomed closer, his grin as sharp as a blade. “Colm’ll be here soon,” he said, his voice low and menacing. “Bet he’s gonna have all kinds o’ fun with you.”

Jo didn’t flinch. She locked her gaze with his, her expression unyielding, though every word he spoke made her stomach churn.

He snorted at her silence, taking another bite of jerky before straightening and walking off, his laughter echoing in the still, sweltering air.

Jo’s body sagged against the post, her head pounding in time with the relentless sun above. Her skin burned, her wrists throbbed, and her dry, aching throat begged for relief. She squeezed her eyes shut, trying to block it all out, but it was no use.

Her thoughts drifted back to camp, to the faces she knew so well. Would they come for her?

She wasn’t sure if she had the strength to hope, but the stubborn fire in her chest refused to go out. If nothing else, she’d make sure the O’Driscolls didn’t forget her, no matter what it cost.

 


 

Arthur’s stomach churned as they rode, his grip on the reins tighter than usual. His mind was racing with possibilities—none of them good. Knowing Jo, she wouldn’t have gone quietly. She never did. That thought gave him a small flicker of hope but also terrified him. If she’d put up a fight, that might’ve only made things worse.

“She’s tough,” Sadie said, as if reading his thoughts. “Don’t you go thinkin’ otherwise.”

Arthur nodded, but the worry gnawed at him. “Tough don’t mean invincible,” he muttered.

Sadie led them through the trees, her eyes scanning the ground and surrounding area for familiar landmarks. Charles rode beside them, his expression calm but focused.

“This is where it started,” Sadie said, slowing Bob to a halt. She pointed toward a clearing. “Just there. That’s where they came at us.”

Arthur’s gaze followed her gesture, and his stomach twisted as they rode closer.

Daisy’s lifeless body lay on the ground, surrounded by a few scavenger birds. The poor mare was already starting to look worse for wear, her coat dull and her once-bright eyes glazed over.

Arthur dismounted first, shooing the birds away with a sharp wave of his hand. The sight of Daisy, still saddled, made his chest ache.

“Poor thing,” Sadie murmured, dismounting and kneeling beside the horse.

“She loved that horse,” Charles added, his voice low and somber as he dismounted as well.

Arthur crouched beside Daisy, his hand brushing over her lifeless flank. “Dammit,” he muttered under his breath. Charles stood a moment later, scanning the ground with sharp eyes. “Tracks are still fresh,” he said, stepping forward and crouching low to inspect the dirt.

Arthur straightened, his heart pounding. “What do ya see?”

Charles pointed to a set of hoofprints and boot marks. “They went west. Looks like… six, maybe seven of ’em. She was still alive when they left. Dragged her.”

Charles continued following the tracks, his sharp eyes scanning every detail on the ground. The sun was creeping higher, and the air felt heavier with each passing hour.

“They’re fresh but not too fresh,” Charles said after a moment, gesturing toward the hoofprints and marks of dragged boots. “Few hours ahead of us, maybe. Bet they ain’t moving anymore.”

Arthur frowned. “What makes you say that?”

Charles pointed to the tracks again. “The way they fan out here. They stopped riding together—spread out like they’re covering ground. And look at this.” He crouched, pointing at an indentation in the dirt. “More prints, all clustered. They must have a hideout nearby.”

Sadie exhaled sharply, her hand twitching toward her revolver. “Damn O’Driscolls. They’ve been crawlin’ all over the place lately. If they’re settin’ up shop somewhere, we’ve gotta root ’em out. And fast.”

Arthur nodded, his jaw tightening. “Jo’s in there. We’ll get her back, but we ain’t doin’ nothin’ stupid. If we go in guns blazin’, they’ll use her as a shield—or worse.”

Charles stood, brushing dirt off his hands. “We’ll need to be smart about this. If it’s a camp, there’ll be guards. And who knows how many are inside?”

Arthur adjusted his hat, his eyes narrowing. “We’ll figure it out when we get there. Just point the way, and we’ll find a way in without puttin’ her at risk.”

Charles gave him a look of approval but said nothing, mounting Taima. Sadie followed suit, her face set in grim determination.

Arthur mounted up as well, gripping the reins tightly.

 

The sun had dipped lower in the sky, its blazing heat fading as shadows stretched longer over the landscape. The coolness of the evening began to creep in, a stark contrast to the oppressive heat they had endured all day. Arthur, Charles, and Sadie rode in silence, the only sounds being the rhythmic thuds of hooves on dirt and the occasional rustle of leaves in the breeze.

“Getting close now,” Charles murmured as the tracks tightened, merging into a single trail that wound toward a patch of dense trees.

It wasn’t long before the faint mingling of voices reached their ears, carried on the wind. Arthur raised a hand, signaling the others to stop.

“Dismount here,” Charles said quietly, already slipping off Taima. They tethered their mounts to a tree in the shadows, careful not to make any noise.

Arthur adjusted his hat and followed Charles and Sadie toward a small hill overlooking the O’Driscolls’ camp. Crouching low, they crept up the slope until the camp came into view. 

Charles pulled out his binoculars and scanned the scene. After a moment, he passed them to Arthur, who snatched them quickly, his jaw tight. A few tents were scattered around a central fire, smoke curling lazily into the darkening sky. The O’Driscolls were gathered near the flames, some eating, some drinking, their laughter carrying in the stillness of the evening.

Arthur’s heart pounded as he looked through the binoculars, his only focus being Jo. He swept the scene frantically until his eyes landed on her. His breath hitched.

She was tied to a wooden post near the edge of the camp, her arms bound tightly above her head. She sat on her knees, forced upright by the way her ankles were tied to the post, one on each side. Her head hung low, her hair matted and disheveled, and though Arthur couldn’t see her face, the sag of her body told him enough.

“Damn it, Jo…” he muttered under his breath, his knuckles whitening as he gripped the binoculars.

Movement caught his eye. One of the O’Driscolls approached her, a cruel grin on his face as he crouched in front of her. He yanked the cloth from her mouth, tossing it aside before grabbing her jaw roughly and forcing her head up.

Arthur’s teeth clenched, and a growl rose in his throat.

“Arthur? Arthur—wait!” Charles whispered sharply, reaching for his arm. But it was too late.

Arthur was already moving, slipping silently down the hill, using the trees and shadows as cover. Sadie and Charles exchanged a quick look, then followed without hesitation, staying low and keeping their movements quiet.

In the camp, the O’Driscoll sneered at Jo, his grip tightening on her jaw.

“That’s for shooting one of my boys earlier,” he snarled before slapping her hard across the face. Jo’s head snapped to the side, her cheek stinging as blood pooled in her mouth.

Slowly, she turned back to him, a malicious smile curling her lips. “That all you got?” she rasped before spitting the blood at his face.

The man’s face twisted in fury, and he raised his hand to strike again.

But before he could, the swift whistle of a throwing blade cut through the air. The blade embedded itself in his skull with a sickening thud. His body crumpled lifelessly to the ground in front of Jo, his blood pooling at her knees.

Jo flinched, her breath hitching as she realized what was happening.

A split second later, all hell broke loose.

The O'Driscolls scrambled for their weapons, shouting in confusion as gunfire erupted from the trees. Arthur, Sadie, and Charles moved like predators, darting between the shadows and picking their shots with precision.

Arthur squeezed the trigger of his revolver, dropping the nearest O’Driscoll before he had a chance to shout a warning. Sadie, perched behind a tree for cover, let out a sharp yell as her rifle barked, the bullet catching another square in the chest and sending him crashing into the campfire. Sparks flew into the air as his body rolled, and the camp was thrown into chaos.

Charles shifted to higher ground, his bow in hand. He loosed an arrow with deadly precision, the shaft sinking into an O'Driscoll’s neck. The man clutched his throat, gurgling as he fell.

“They’re in the trees! Spread out!” one of the O’Driscolls bellowed, waving his hand toward the wooded area.

Arthur ducked as a bullet whizzed past his head, striking the tree behind him. He fired back, hitting his attacker in the shoulder before finishing him off with a second shot to the head.

“Keep the pressure on ‘em!” Sadie hollered, reloading her rifle with quick, practiced movements. She took aim at a man trying to flank their position and pulled the trigger, the shot ringing out loud in the fading light.

The O’Driscolls weren’t going down easy. Some of them had regrouped, moving with the kind of discipline that came from years of fighting dirty. Two of them charged straight for Charles’s position, revolvers blazing.

Charles dropped one with a perfectly aimed arrow to the gut, but the second was too close. The man tackled him, sending them both rolling down the slope.

Arthur caught sight of the scuffle and turned, firing at the O’Driscoll wrestling with Charles. The man’s head snapped back as the bullet found its mark, and Charles scrambled to his feet, breathing hard.

“Thanks,” Charles grunted, wiping dirt from his hands as he grabbed his dropped bow.

“Don’t mention it,” Arthur replied, already turning back to the fight.

A shout from Sadie drew Arthur’s attention. Two more O’Driscolls had broken through their line, charging toward her position with knives in hand. Sadie fired her rifle, but she missed the first shot, and they were closing fast.

“Sadie, behind ya!” Arthur barked, raising his revolver.

Sadie spun, but before she could react, the first man lunged at her. She ducked under his swing and slammed the butt of her rifle into his gut, sending him stumbling back. The second man was on her heels, but Arthur’s shot took him in the leg, dropping him to the ground. Sadie finished him off with a sharp kick to the head before shooting the first man in the chest.

“You alright?” Arthur called out, wiping sweat from his brow.

“Fine,” she snapped, reloading her rifle. “Keep shootin’, Morgan!”

The O'Driscolls were regrouping, firing wildly toward the trees as they yelled curses and threats. Arthur pressed forward, ducking and weaving between cover as bullets kicked up dirt around him.

Charles, now with his repeater, picked off another man trying to flee toward the horses. “They’re gettin’ desperate,” he called out.

Arthur didn’t reply, his focus razor-sharp as he spotted one O’Driscoll crouching behind a barrel, taking aim at Sadie. Arthur’s shot shattered the barrel, and the man fell back, clutching his bleeding side.

“Push ‘em!” Arthur growled, advancing further into the camp. The numbers were thinning now, but the fight was still far from over.

Suddenly, one of the O’Driscolls charged at him from the side, a knife glinting in the fading light. Arthur turned just in time, catching the man’s arm before the blade could find his chest. They struggled, the O’Driscoll snarling as he pushed harder.

“Come on, you bastard,” Arthur growled through gritted teeth before delivering a solid punch to the man’s jaw. The O’Driscoll staggered back, and Arthur shot him point-blank, sending him crumpling to the ground.

The fight raged on, gunfire echoing through the trees as the trio picked off the remaining O’Driscolls one by one. By the time the last shot rang out, the camp was eerily silent, save for the crackling fire and the labored breathing of Arthur, Sadie, and Charles.

Arthur stood amidst the chaos, his revolver still smoking. His eyes swept the camp, finally landing on Jo’s bound and battered form. His boots crunched against the dirt as he strode toward her. She was still slumped against the wooden post, her blouse torn and stained, revealing the bruises and cuts marking her skin. Arthur’s jaw clenched at the sight of her motionless form.

“Charles, check the bodies. Sadie, get the horses,” Arthur ordered gruffly, not even turning to see if they complied. His focus was entirely on Jo.

Crouching beside her, he pulled his knife and quickly began cutting through the ropes binding her. The coarse fibers had dug deep into her skin, leaving raw, angry marks. As soon as the ropes snapped free, her arms fell limply to her sides, and her body pitched forward.

“Whoa, easy there,” Arthur murmured, catching her just before she hit the ground. Her weight was light in his strong arms, and her skin felt cold to the touch. She was shivering, her lips pale and dry, and her breaths shallow.

Arthur shrugged off his jacket without hesitation, draping it over her trembling shoulders. It engulfed her, but it was warm. Jo stirred faintly, her head lolling weakly against him.

“Jo? Hey, you with me?” he asked, his voice low but insistent.

Her eyelids fluttered open, and she blinked up at him, her gaze glassy and unfocused. “Arthur…” she croaked, her voice barely above a whisper.

“You’re a damn fool,” he said, his tone rough but his grip gentle as he pulled her closer. “You and Sadie both, runnin’ off like that. What were you thinkin’?”

Jo tried to answer, but her throat was too dry. Her lips moved, but no sound came out.

Arthur sighed heavily, his expression softening as he took in her condition. “Trouble,” he muttered, using the nickname he always reserved for her. “You never do make things easy, do you?”

Jo’s lips twitched, almost forming a faint smile, but the effort seemed too much.

Arthur shifted his weight, glancing down at her legs. They were scraped and bruised, one noticeably swollen. He guessed it was from being pinned under her horse.

“Can you walk?” he asked, his voice softer now.

Jo hummed and tried to move, but as soon as she shifted, a sharp gasp escaped her lips. Her legs wobbled uselessly, and she slumped back against him.

“Didn’t think so,” Arthur muttered under his breath.

Without another word, he scooped her up into his arms, lifting her bridal style. She was light as a feather, and the way her head rested against his chest stirred something deep in his chest—something he didn’t have time to unpack right now. But it also felt like she belonged there, in his arms, as if she had been made for this.

Jo shivered again, curling instinctively into the warmth of his jacket as he carried her back toward the horses. Sadie was already there, leading Atlas and the other mounts toward the camp’s edge.

“Got the horses,” Sadie said quickly, her voice tinged with guilt. Her eyes darted to Jo, and her expression softened. “She alright?”

“She’ll be fine,” Arthur replied shortly, though his tone was clipped more from worry than anger.

Charles appeared, carrying a few weapons, a sack he’d looted from the O’Driscolls and Jo’s belongings that he found around. “Tracks’re clear for now,” he said. “We need to move before more show up.”

Arthur nodded, carefully maneuvering Jo toward Atlas. He set her sideways in front of the saddle, her legs dangling over one side. She clung weakly to his jacket draped around her, her fingers curling into the fabric.

“You just hang on,” Arthur said quietly, his tone gentler now. He climbed into the saddle behind her, wrapping one arm securely around her waist to keep her steady.

Sadie and Charles mounted their horses, and the group rode off into the night. The air was cooler now, the oppressive heat of the day replaced by a biting chill. Jo burrowed into Arthur’s jacket, her face half-hidden against his chest.

The steady rhythm of Atlas’s hooves against the dirt filled the silence as they rode through the darkened landscape. Arthur kept one arm firmly around Jo’s waist, his eyes scanning their surroundings for any signs of movement. The tension in his shoulders hadn’t eased since they’d left the O’Driscoll camp, his mind still reeling from the events of the evening.

Jo, nestled against his chest, stirred weakly. Her body ached, her wrists throbbed, and her head felt like it was stuffed with cotton. But despite the pain, she was painfully aware of Arthur’s arm around her and the way his jacket smelled faintly of leather, tobacco, and something distinctly him.

Summoning what little strength she had, Jo tilted her head upward. Her eyes took in his profile, illuminated faintly by the moonlight filtering through the trees. His face was set in a grim mask, lips pressed into a thin line, and his brows furrowed in a way that deepened the lines on his forehead. It wasn’t anger—it was something heavier, something raw.

For the first time, Jo saw it: Arthur had been worried. Not just worried—shaken.

Her throat tightened, though she wasn’t sure if it was from the dryness or the weight of the realization. His eyes darted down to her briefly before returning to the path ahead. She wanted to ask him why he looked at her like that—like she’d almost slipped away from him—but the words wouldn’t come. Instead, she let her head rest against his chest once more, her heart pounding faintly in her ears.

Arthur’s grip around her waist tightened ever so slightly, as if to remind himself that she was still there, still breathing.

Chapter 15: Beyond Denial

Summary:

The aftermath of the O'Driscoll attack.

Notes:

Hey everyone! I’m posting this chapter just before heading off on a two-week vacation, where I likely won’t be writing or posting. Since I’ll be away, I wanted to share this one before I leave tomorrow!

I also want to take a moment to thank each and every one of you who has given this story a chance. Your support, your reads, and especially your kind comments mean the world to me. Knowing that people are enjoying this story and these characters makes writing all the more rewarding. I appreciate you all so much! ❤️

See you in a couple of weeks!

Chapter Text

Jo stirred awake, her body sinking into the thin mattress beneath her. For a moment, she remained still, blinking sluggishly as her eyes adjusted to the daylight seeping through the canvas. Her muscles felt heavy, and the dull, persistent ache in her leg flared as she shifted slightly.

She groaned softly, bringing a hand to her forehead. The warmth of the midday sun filtered through the tent, heavy and almost stifling, leaving no doubt that it was much later than her usual waking hour. But after yesterday’s ordeal, indulging in a few extra hours of rest hardly felt like a luxury—it was a necessity.

The events of the day before began to creep into her mind—vivid flashes of the O’Driscolls’ sneers, the suffocating heat of the forest, and the sharp pain of Daisy’s weight pinning her to the ground.

She closed her eyes tightly, willing herself to remember more. The next thing she could recall was the feeling of being hoisted onto Atlas, Arthur’s voice a low murmur as he reassured her. The steady rhythm of the horse’s gait and the warmth of Arthur’s arm keeping her steady... and then, nothing. The rest was a blur. How she’d made it back to camp, how she ended up in her cot, who changed her—it was a mystery.

Jo sat up slowly, wincing as a sharp jolt of pain shot through her leg. She glanced down at the dark, angry bruise that sprawled across her thigh, its deep blue and purple tones stark against her skin. It was a brutal reminder of what had transpired, and she didn’t need to look further to feel the soreness that radiated through her entire body, but she was lucky nothing was broken to begin with. 

With a resolute breath, she swung her legs over the side of the cot, bracing herself as her feet touched the ground. The sharp twinge in her leg made her suck in a breath, but she forced herself upright, determined not to let it keep her down.

As she shuffled toward her small collection of clothes, she wondered again how she’d made it back to her tent. Had Arthur carried her? Or maybe Charles? She shook her head, dismissing the thoughts. It didn’t really matter now—she was alive, and that was enough.

Dressing proved to be a challenge, every movement tugging at sore muscles and raw skin, but she managed to tug on a simple blouse and trousers. By the time she had her boots on, a faint sheen of sweat had formed on her brow.

Stepping out of the tent, Jo squinted against the midday sun. The heat was oppressive, the air thick and still, carrying the faint scent of coffee and campfire smoke. Her eyes scanned the camp, taking in the familiar sights: Tilly and Mary-Beth chatting near the fire, Uncle snoring away on a crate, and Charles sharpening his knife nearby.

She leaned lightly against the wooden post near her tent, brushing her hands against her trousers as she steadied herself. The day stretched before her, long and sweltering. Today, she decided, would be a slow day. A quiet day.

She deserved it.

Charles glanced up from his spot by the fire, his knife pausing mid-sharpen as his sharp eyes caught sight of her. A faint smile tugged at the corner of his lips, his expression unreadable save for a slight tilt of his head.

"Look who’s up," he said evenly, his voice carrying a quiet warmth. "Was starting to think you’d sleep the whole day."

Jo chuckled lightly, though the effort made her wince. "Guess I needed it," she replied, her voice hoarse but steady. She pushed herself off the post and began to make her way toward him, her steps uneven, her limp pronounced. Each movement sent a dull ache through her leg, but she pressed on until she reached the empty chair across from him.

With a huff of exertion, Jo let her body fall into the chair, leaning back and exhaling heavily. The wooden frame creaked under her as she stretched her leg out slightly, trying to ease the strain on it.

"How’re you feeling?" Charles asked, resuming his work on the blade but keeping his gaze on her from time to time.

"Fine," she replied quickly, brushing the question off with a casual wave of her hand. "Just a little sore. Nothing I can’t handle."

Charles arched a skeptical brow. "The way you limp says otherwise."

Jo smirked faintly, shaking her head. "That’s the least of my worries, believe me."

Charles hummed, unconvinced but wise enough not to press further.

"Still," she added after a moment, her tone softening, "thank you. For yesterday. If it weren’t for you, Arthur, and Sadie…" She trailed off, the weight of her gratitude hanging in the air.

Charles paused, his knife still in his hand, and gave her a small, reassuring smile. "You don’t need to thank me, Jo. We weren’t about to leave you with them."

"I know," she replied, her voice quieter now. She glanced down at her hands, idly picking at the fabric of her trousers. "But still. You came for me. That means something."

"That’s right," he said firmly. Then, with a faint grin, he added, "So don’t go getting yourself into trouble again, alright? You’ve given Arthur enough to stress over."

Jo snorted at that, the sound breaking into a laugh that surprised even her. "Trouble’s my middle name, didn’t you know?"

Charles shook his head, chuckling softly. "You and him both."

Had Arthur been that worried? Jo’s thoughts lingered on the way his face had hardened last night, the way his arms had held her steady on the ride back. It was a rare side of him—one she wasn’t entirely sure how to process. She stared at the fire, her mind trailing off into the possibilities of what his worry might mean when another voice pulled her back to reality.

"Jo," Sadie called out, her tone gentler than usual.

Jo lifted her head to see Sadie approaching, her usual swagger slightly muted. Sadie didn’t sit, opting instead to stand a few feet away, her hands resting on her hips as she took in Jo’s disheveled but recovering state.

"How ya feelin’?" Sadie asked, her sharp eyes scanning Jo’s face and the faint discoloration on her cheek.

Jo sat up straighter, ignoring the twinge in her leg. "I’ve been worse," she replied with a faint smirk. "Still standin’, more or less."

Sadie let out a soft snort but didn’t smile, her expression shifting to something more serious. After a beat of hesitation, she spoke again. "I never really thanked ya for tryin’ to help me yesterday. And I’m sorry that you got hurt. That wasn’t supposed to happen."

The sincerity in her voice wasn’t something Jo often heard from Sadie. She could tell this wasn’t easy for the woman, but the effort didn’t go unnoticed. Jo reached out, placing a hand on Sadie’s arm reassuringly, her touch grounding.

"I’d do it again if it meant helping you get justice for your husband," Jo said, her voice steady, her gaze locking with Sadie’s.

Sadie blinked, clearly caught off guard by the conviction in Jo’s words. Her lips parted slightly as if to respond, but for a moment, no words came. Jo watched as something flickered in Sadie’s sharp eyes—a mix of gratitude, vulnerability, and resolve.

Finally, Sadie nodded, her voice quiet but firm. "Thank you, Jo."

Jo offered her a small smile, her hand giving Sadie’s arm a gentle squeeze before pulling back. "Don’t mention it. I’m just glad you’re alright."

Sadie glanced away for a moment, as if gathering herself, before straightening and flashing Jo a faint but genuine smile. "You take it easy today, alright? Ain’t nobody gonna blame ya for sittin’ out a bit."

Jo chuckled softly. "I’ll think about it."

With one last look, Sadie turned and strode off toward the horses, leaving Jo with a lingering warmth in her chest. For all the chaos they’d been through, it was moments like this—small but meaningful—that made it all worthwhile.

Jo’s eyes lingered on the horses, her gaze settling on their tethered forms. Her heart clenched painfully when the realization struck again—she’d never see Daisy again. The thought hit her like a physical blow. She’d had that horse for years, through countless miles and memories. The freedom she felt when riding Daisy, galloping so fast it felt like flying, her blonde hair whipping in the wind as she laughed without care—it was gone now.

She swallowed hard, her throat tightening as tears threatened to rise. Jo quickly averted her gaze, sucking in a large breath to steel herself. 

Pushing the ache in her chest aside, Jo stood, her leg protesting with a sharp throb as she rose to her feet. She clenched her jaw against the pain, steadying herself before glancing around camp. She needed to find Arthur. It was only fair to thank him, too.

Her eyes scanned the camp, but he was nowhere in sight. Still, he had to be here; Atlas was tethered with the other horses. That meant Arthur hadn’t gone far.

Turning her head toward Charles, who was finishing his work sharpening his knife, she called out, "You know where Arthur is?"

Charles glanced up from his blade, his expression as calm and measured as ever. He nodded toward Dutch’s tent. "Last time I saw him, he was near Dutch’s tent."

"Thanks," Jo replied, offering a faint smile of gratitude before straightening up. Her leg screamed in protest, but she ignored it, focusing on her next steps.

Jo began her slow trek toward Dutch’s tent, limping slightly but determined to get there. 

As she approached Dutch’s tent, the open flap revealed it was empty. Her brows furrowed in confusion, but the faint murmur of voices carried from behind it, drawing her attention. She moved around the side of the tent, her steps uneven, until her eyes landed on the trio near the shoreline. Dutch, Hosea, and Arthur stood in a loose circle, their conversation seemingly serious.

She continued toward them as best she could, gritting her teeth against the ache in her leg. Her approach didn’t go unnoticed; one by one, they turned toward her.

Hosea’s face softened with something akin to pity as his eyes dropped briefly to her limp, his expression gentle and understanding. Arthur, on the other hand, looked visibly relieved to see her up and about, though the faint furrow in his brow betrayed his lingering worry. Dutch’s expression, however, remained as enigmatic as ever. If she had to guess, he still hadn’t fully digested what the O’Driscolls had done—not just taking her but the sheer boldness of the act.

“Gentlemen,” she greeted, her voice steady despite the discomfort that radiated from her every step. She refused to let it show on her face.

Arthur shifted slightly, his gaze lingering on her for a moment longer than the others, as if assessing how well she was holding up. Hosea offered a kind smile in return, his hands clasping behind his back.

“Jo,” Dutch said, his tone unreadable as he inclined his head toward her. “You should be resting.”

“I’ll rest when I’ll be dead,” she replied lightly, though the effort it had taken to cross the camp still weighed on her. “Figured I’d thank Arthur properly while I had the chance.”

Arthur tilted his head slightly at her words, his lips parting as if to speak, but Dutch interjected. “What happened yesterday…” His voice trailed off as he glanced toward the horizon. “It’s a reminder. Of what we’re up against.”

Jo didn’t miss the flicker of something dark in Dutch’s eyes before he turned his attention back to her. She stood a little straighter, determined not to seem fragile despite the soreness in her body.

“Those damn O’Driscolls, always looking for ways to sink lower. Kidnapping one of ours? Torturing her? This isn’t just another skirmish—this is a declaration,” Dutch began, his voice heavy with indignation as his hands gestured animatedly.

Jo’s jaw tightened at his words, but she kept quiet. She didn’t need to hear this—she’d lived it.

“Dutch,” Hosea interrupted gently but firmly, his calm voice cutting through Dutch’s tirade. “Ranting won’t fix anything. What’s done is done.”

Dutch shot Hosea a look, his mouth opening as if to argue, but Hosea’s steady gaze didn’t waver. After a beat, Dutch sighed, letting his hands fall to his sides. He straightened his jacket, “But mark my words, this isn’t over.” He shot a glance at Jo, his expression a mix of unreadable emotions, before turning toward camp.

Hosea, however, lingered. With a subtle motion, he signaled Dutch to go on without him. Dutch hesitated, his eyes flicking briefly to Arthur and Jo, then nodded and walked off, leaving the two of them with Hosea.

Before Hosea followed, he stepped closer to Jo. His hand settled lightly on her shoulder, the warmth of his touch drawing her attention. She turned to face him, “I’m glad you’re alright,” he said softly, his voice carrying the weight of genuine care.

Jo’s throat tightened, and for a moment, she didn’t know what to say. Instead, she managed a small nod, offering him a faint but appreciative smile.

Hosea patted her shoulder once more before stepping back, giving Arthur a knowing look before he departed, leaving them alone by the shoreline.

The silence stretched between them as they stood by the shoreline, the gentle lapping of the water against the rocks filling the space. Neither spoke at first, as if waiting for the other to break the quiet.

When they finally did, it was in unison.

“Thank you for—”
“How you feelin’?”

Both stopped, their words colliding mid-sentence, and their eyes met. Jo’s lips quirked up in a faint smile, while Arthur let out a soft chuckle, rubbing the back of his neck.

Jo spoke first, her voice soft but steady. “‘M okay. Thank you for coming for me.”

Arthur's jaw tightened, and for a moment, he looked as though he wanted to say more, but he settled on the simplest truth. “I’ll always come for you, Jo.” His voice was rough, like the words clawed their way out. “Always.”

Her chest warmed at the raw sincerity in his tone, her gaze lingering on his face. Despite the stoic expression he tried to maintain, his eyes betrayed him, filled with concern and relief.

A question burned on Arthur’s lips, twisting inside him until it couldn’t be contained. He didn’t want to pry, didn’t want to make her relive it, but he also knew he wouldn’t be able to sleep until he asked. His hand shifted to the brim of his hat, tugging at it nervously as his eyes flicked to the ground.

“Did they—” His voice was cautious, barely more than a murmur.

“No, they didn’t.” Jo’s answer was firm, cutting through the tension like a knife.

Arthur exhaled a breath he didn’t realize he’d been holding, his shoulders sagging with relief. His hand moved back to his side, curling into a loose fist as he glanced out at the water, unable to meet her eyes just yet. “I’m glad,” he said quietly, the words carrying the weight of a man who’d been tormented by every worst possibility.

The silence between them stretched for a moment, broken only by the soft lapping of water against the shoreline. Jo shifted uneasily, her fingers nervously fiddling with the frayed hem of her shirt. 

“’Bout the other night…” she began cautiously, her voice barely above a whisper.

Arthur’s gaze flicked to her, his brow furrowing slightly, but he didn’t interrupt.

Jo swallowed, her eyes fixed on the ground in front of her. “I wanted to say I’m sorry for askin’ such a thing out of you. I dunno what came over me…” Her voice wavered, and she still didn’t dare look at him, terrified of losing her resolve—or worse, losing herself in his eyes.

Arthur shifted his stance, the leather of his boots creaking softly as he crossed his arms. His voice, when it came, was low and measured. “You don’t gotta apologize for that, Jo.”

She shook her head, letting out a shaky breath. “I do. It wasn’t fair. I—I put you in a position you didn’t ask for. It was selfish of me.”

Arthur’s jaw worked for a moment, his thoughts churning. He unfolded his arms, letting one hand rest on his belt. “It ain’t selfish to wanna feel somethin’ good in a world like this,” he said finally, his tone softer now. “I ain’t mad about it, Jo. Just… surprised, I guess.”

Her head shot up at his words, her wide eyes meeting his for a brief second before she quickly looked away again, her cheeks warming. “Surprised?”

“Yeah.” He rubbed the back of his neck, his voice carrying a trace of vulnerability. “Didn’t think someone like you’d ever… y’know, look at me that way.”

Jo’s breath caught, her hands tightening on her shirt’s hem. “Arthur…” she started, but her words stuck in her throat.

Jo’s fingers stilled against her shirt as Arthur’s words hung in the air. She dared to glance at him again, her chest tightening when she noticed the genuine uncertainty in his eyes. It wasn’t like Arthur to let his guard down so easily, but here he stood, waiting for her response as though her opinion mattered more than she thought it did.

“You don’t see yourself the way others do,” she murmured, her voice steadying as she spoke.

Arthur’s brow furrowed. “What’s that supposed to mean?”

Jo hesitated, choosing her words carefully. “You carry this… weight. Like you think you’re only what this life made you, but you ain’t. You’re loyal, kind—even when you don’t wanna be.” She managed a faint smile, her eyes meeting his. “You care about people more than you’ll admit. And you’ve done more for me than I ever thought I deserved.”

Arthur looked away, his jaw tightening as if her words were something he didn’t know how to accept. He shifted his weight, staring at the rippling water, and when he spoke, his voice was quieter. “I’ve done things, Jo. Things I ain’t proud of. Reckon if you knew half of it, you wouldn’t…” He trailed off, unable to finish the thought.

Jo stepped closer, her hand hovering for a moment before she placed it lightly on his arm. “You think I haven’t done things too? Ain’t none of us are clean, Arthur. But that doesn’t mean we can’t… find something good in all this mess.”

Her words hit something deep within him, and he turned his gaze back to her. For a moment, they just stood there, the space between them charged with an unspoken understanding.

“Jo,” he started, his voice low and a little rough.

“Yes?”

Arthur hesitated again, as if weighing whether to say what he wanted. He opened his mouth, his expression conflicted.

“Arthur Morgan!”

Both of them turned to see Miss Grimshaw marching toward them, her hands on her hips, her expression as stern as ever.

Arthur sighed, his shoulders slumping slightly. “What now?”

“You’ve been loafing around long enough,” she barked. “There’s firewood that needs chopping, and I don’t see anyone else doin’ it.”

Jo pressed her lips together, trying to stifle a laugh as Arthur shot her a wry look.

“Guess duty calls,” he muttered, tipping his hat to Jo. “You take it easy, alright? No more wanderin’ off and gettin’ into trouble.”

“I make no promises,” she teased, her smile softening. “But thanks, Arthur.”

He gave her one last look before trudging off toward camp, his grumbling faintly audible as Grimshaw followed, her sharp tone scolding him all the way as if he was a teenage boy all over again. Jo watched him go, her chest feeling a little lighter despite the ache in her body. Whatever Arthur had been about to say would have to wait, but she couldn’t help the small smile that lingered on her lips.

 


 

Later in the afternoon, Jo decided to pull her own weight around camp. It was her way of shaking off the haze of yesterday, keeping herself busy so her mind wouldn’t wander where it didn’t need to go. She found herself sitting on a crate near Pearson’s wagon, a plate in front of her and a pile of corn to peel. Her hands worked methodically, the rhythmic motion of stripping the husks strangely soothing.

From where she sat, Jo had a clear view of Arthur on the outskirts of camp, chopping firewood. His strong, deliberate movements were mesmerizing, each swing precise, each log splitting cleanly. She didn’t even realize how long she’d been watching until a familiar voice broke her reverie.

“Hey, gal.”

Jo blinked, turning her head to see Abigail approaching with a soft smile. She carried Jack’s small knitted sweater, needle and thread in hand, and settled herself on another crate across from Jo.

“Feels like we haven’t talked in ages,” Jo said, a hint of warmth returning to her voice. “How’re you?”

Abigail scoffed lightly, threading her needle with ease. “I should be askin’ you that. But fine, besides Marston bein’ a pain in my ass.”

Jo chuckled softly, shaking her head. “What’s he done now?”

Abigail sighed, setting the needle to work on a tear in Jack’s sleeve. “It ain’t just one thing, you know? He’s always off somewhere. Ridin’ around, actin’ like Jack don’t need him to be here. I keep tryin’ to tell him—our boy looks up to him, whether he deserves it or not. He needs his pa around. Not just stories about what trouble he’s got himself into.”

Jo’s hands paused mid-peel, her brow furrowing. “Jack’s a good kid, Abigail. You’ve done an amazing job with him. But I get it—it ain’t fair for you to do it all on your own.”

“That’s what I’m sayin’,” Abigail replied, her voice taut with frustration. “I know this life ain’t easy, but he could try. Try harder, at least. Jack’s not gonna be a kid forever. One day, he’ll stop waitin’ for John to show him how to be a man.”

Jo looked at Abigail for a moment, seeing the pain and exhaustion in her eyes. “You ever tell him all that? Really tell him?”

Abigail huffed, looking up from her mending. “I’ve tried, but you know the man. Gets all defensive, says he’s doin’ the best he can. And maybe he is, but it sure as hell don’t feel like it.”

Jo reached across the space between them, her hand briefly brushing Abigail’s arm. “He’s lucky you stick by him, Abigail. And Jack is very lucky to have you. Just don’t let John get away with takin’ you for granted.”

Abigail’s lips quirked up, though her eyes shone with unspoken emotion. “Enough about me,” she said, waving a hand as if brushing her own problems aside. “What about you?”

Jo shrugged, her fingers deftly peeling another ear of corn. “Oh, you know. Been busy as usual.” She kept her tone light, downplaying the bruises that still ached and the lingering weight of everything that had happened lately—especially with Arthur.

Abigail arched a brow, clearly not buying it, but before she could press, the sound of footsteps approached.

“There you are!” Mary-Beth’s voice rang out, relief plain in her tone. Jo barely had time to look up before Mary-Beth wrapped her arms around her, holding her tight.

“Easy, Mary-Beth,” Jo said with a soft laugh, though the hug warmed her.

“You scared us, Jo,” Mary-Beth murmured, pulling back just enough to look at her. “I’m so glad you’re all right.”

“Me too,” Tilly chimed in, coming to stand beside Abigail. She gave Jo a warm smile before picking up a potato from the pile and a knife from her pocket. “Mind if we help?”

“Please do,” Jo replied, motioning to the food spread before them. “I could use all the help I can get.”

Mary-Beth sat beside Jo, taking a small pile of carrots to peel. “It feels like forever since we all got to sit like this.”

“Because it has been,” Abigail said, her hands still working on Jack’s sweater.

The group fell into easy conversation, their voices blending as they talked about everything from camp gossip to lighthearted memories. Tilly teased Abigail about something John had said earlier, which earned a laugh from Mary-Beth, and Jo added her own quips where she could.

But every so often, Jo’s focus shifted. Her eyes drifted toward the outskirts of camp, where Arthur was chopping firewood. His movements were precise, his shoulders broad under the weight of his work. She quickly turned her gaze back to the task in front of her, forcing herself to stay in the moment.

The conversation flowed easily among the group, laughter and light teasing mingling with the rhythmic sound of peeling and chopping. Jo found herself smiling as Tilly recounted a tale about Jack’s latest adventure near camp, and Mary-Beth added her thoughts on how boys always managed to find the most trouble.

Then, from the corner of her eye, Jo caught movement. Arthur stood a short distance away, setting the axe down for a moment. He reached behind his neck, tugging his shirt up and over his head in one fluid motion.

Her fingers stilled on the corn she was peeling.

There he was, bare-chested , his muscles flexing as he wiped a bead of sweat from his brow. The sun glinted off his skin, highlighting the scars and strength that marked him. His chest rose and fell steadily, and he picked up the axe again, rolling his shoulders before striking the next piece of wood.

“Jo?”

Tilly’s voice snapped her out of her daze. Jo blinked, realizing the group had gone silent, all three women now staring at her with various expressions of amusement and curiosity.

“What?” she asked, trying—and failing—to sound casual.

Mary-Beth’s lips curved into a sly smile. “Oh, nothing. Just noticin’ how quiet you got all of a sudden.”

Abigail smirked, leaning forward slightly. “You were starin’, sweetie. Don’t even try to deny it.”

Jo’s cheeks flushed a deep crimson. “I was not,” she protested, though the words lacked conviction.

“Sure you weren’t,” Tilly said, her tone dripping with playful sarcasm. “But if you were, well… who could blame you?” She glanced in Arthur’s direction and gave a low whistle. “Man’s built like a damn bear.”

Jo’s eyes widened as she processed Tilly’s comment, her lips parting in shock. “Tilly!” she exclaimed, scandalized, her voice sharp enough to draw a few chuckles from the others. “Can we not do this right now?”

But the teasing atmosphere was relentless. Mary-Beth, ever the romantic and unable to resist an opening, gasped dramatically, her excitement practically radiating. She leaned forward, her eyes sparkling. “Oh my God,” she said, her voice filled with delight. “You’re fallin’ for him, aren’t you?”

Jo’s head snapped up, her mouth falling open in utter disbelief. “What?” she sputtered, the denial tumbling from her lips before she could even process the accusation. “I ain’t ,” she insisted, her words coming out far too quickly and far too forcefully to be convincing. 

Her face flushed crimson, a warmth creeping up her neck and spreading to her cheeks. She tried desperately to keep a straight face, but the treacherous blush gave her away. “I ain’t,” she repeated, though it sounded weaker this time, less like a declaration and more like an attempt to convince herself.

The girls exchanged knowing glances, their smiles widening as if they’d uncovered the world’s greatest secret.

Abigail tilted her head, her grin teasing. “You can keep sayin’ that, but you ain’t foolin’ anyone here, hon.”

Jo’s mouth opened, then closed. She searched for something to say, something to deflect, but nothing came. The girls were watching her expectantly, and the harder she tried to deny it, the more ridiculous she felt. Deep down, she knew they were right. Maybe she had been thinking about him a little too much lately. Maybe her heart did skip a beat whenever she saw him around camp, even though she tried her best to ignore it.

But admitting it in front of them? Hell no.

Tilly chuckled, leaning back slightly. “Ain’t nothin’ wrong with it, you know. Arthur’s a good man… plus, he’s always been kinda sweet on you.”

Jo felt her heart betray her with a little flutter at Tilly’s words. She shifted uncomfortably on the crate, trying to keep her composure. “He ain’t sweet on me,” she mumbled, though the warmth creeping into her cheeks told a different story.

Mary-Beth wasn’t about to let it slide. “Oh, come on,” she said, a dreamy look crossing her face. “You’ve seen the way he looks at you sometimes. Like you’re the only person in the whole camp.”

Jo’s eyes dropped to her hands, now nervously fiddling with the vegetable skin in front of her. She tried to focus, to keep herself grounded, but the smile threatening to break free betrayed her. She hated how easily they could pick her apart—hated even more how right they were. And yet, the thought of Arthur looking at her like that made her feel a warmth she hadn’t known she needed. Maybe it wasn’t so bad after all.

Abigail let out a soft, knowing laugh. “You might as well stop fightin’ it, Jo. The two of you’s are like a couple of magnets, always pullin’ toward each other whether you want to or not.”

Jo sighed dramatically, though the corners of her mouth betrayed her as they curled into a small, reluctant smile. “Y’all are impossible,” she muttered, shaking her head.

The girls erupted into laughter, their voices carrying across the camp. Jo rolled her eyes, but she couldn’t stop the grin that spread across her face. It was moments like this, surrounded by their easy banter and camaraderie, that made everything feel a little less heavy.

Her gaze wandered again, drawn almost unconsciously to Arthur’s form in the distance. As he worked, she couldn’t help but think—maybe she was falling for him. Hell, maybe she already had.

And somehow, that didn’t seem so terrifying after all.

Chapter 16: Into the Swamp

Summary:

Moving to Shady Belle.

Notes:

I’m back from vacation! ✨ I had an amazing time, but I also missed working on this story, so as a little “I’m back” gift, I’m treating you all to a double update! 🎉 Hope you enjoy, and I can’t wait to hear what you think! 💛

Chapter Text

“Well, ain’t this cozy,” Micah drawled, his tone dripping with condescension as he swaggered toward them. His smirk was as unpleasant as ever, souring the mood in an instant.  “Y’all havin’ a little tea party while the rest of us are pullin’ our weight? Or is this just what womenfolk do—laugh and gossip instead of workin’?”

Abigail’s smile vanished. Rising abruptly, she brushed off her skirt, her posture tense. “I’ve got better things to do than listen to this,” she muttered, biting her tongue as she turned away. “I’m goin’ to check on Jack.”

Tilly and Mary-Beth exchanged glances, their irritation clear, but before either could speak, Jo set down the corn she’d been peeling and fixed Micah with a withering scowl.

“You know, Micah,” she began, her voice low but sharp, “if you spent half as much time actually workin’ as you do runnin’ your filthy mouth, this camp might actually run smooth for once.”

Micah chuckled, a dark sound that grated against her nerves. He leaned in slightly, his eyes narrowing with malicious amusement. “What’s it to you, Blondie? Think you’re some kinda saint around here?”

Jo didn’t flinch. Instead, she rose to her feet slowly, ignoring the dull ache in her leg, her jaw tight with defiance. “Think you’d better shut your mouth before you embarrass yourself even more,” she said, her voice cutting like ice.

From his spot by the woodpile, the rhythmic thud of Arthur’s axe against the logs faltered as he caught sight of the confrontation. Jo’s clenched fists, Micah’s smug grin—it was a powder keg ready to blow. Arthur’s gut churned with irritation. This situation was bound to escalate. And with the way Micah liked to stir trouble, it wasn’t going to end without someone losing their temper.

Tossing the axe aside, he strode toward them, his boots crunching against the dirt. His piercing blue eyes locked onto Micah, brimming with restrained fury. He didn’t have to say a word at first; the weight of his presence was enough to make Micah stiffen.

Micah’s sneer faltered as he turned to face Arthur fully. “What’s the matter, Morgan? Don’t trust your little friend to fight her own battles?” 

Micah shifted his weight, his lips curling in a sneer as he turned to face Arthur.

Arthur’s voice, calm and low, cut through the air with quiet authority. “You walk away, Micah. Now.” It was the kind of voice that didn’t need to raise in volume to command attention.

For a moment, Micah hesitated, his eyes darting between Jo’s glare and Arthur’s unyielding stance. Then, as if fueled by spite, he took a step forward, his posture daring.

Before the situation could explode, a sharp, frantic voice rang out across the camp, slicing through the tension like a knife.

“Jack!” Abigail’s voice trembled with fear, loud enough to turn heads. “Jack! Where’s my son?”

​​For a while, the camp was a flurry of frantic movement. People scrambled in all directions, calling Jack’s name, checking behind wagons and tents, their voices echoing through the trees. Abigail’s desperation cut through the chaos, her voice raw and cracking as she shouted for her son.

Near Dutch’s tent, a group began to gather—Kieran shifting awkwardly on his feet, Strauss muttering to himself, Jo standing off to the side, her expression a carefully controlled mask of worry, even Molly was there. Dutch, raised his hands, his voice commanding.

“Calm down. Everybody, just relax. We are doing all we can,” Dutch said, his tone smooth but edged with irritation.

Arthur arrived, his expression already grim, and Dutch turned to him, his voice sharpening. “Arthur, have you seen that boy, Jack?”

“No.” Arthur barely had time to get the word out before Abigail stormed forward, her face pale, her eyes blazing with fear.

“Where’s my goddamn son?” she demanded, her voice trembling but forceful. “Where is he? Where’s my son?”

She came to a halt in front of Dutch and Arthur, her chest heaving as tears welled in her eyes. “They took him, didn’t they? They took my son!”

Jo approached cautiously, placing a steadying hand on Abigail’s shoulder. “We’ll find him,” Jo murmured, her voice soft but firm. The gesture earned her a quick, grateful glance from Abigail, but it did little to ease the woman’s panic.

Arthur’s jaw tightened as he took a step closer, his voice calm but laced with concern. “Who took him?”

The question hung in the air for a moment before Hosea appeared on the outskirts of camp, his usually steady demeanor replaced by one of urgency. He was out of breath, his face drawn as he pointed toward the horizon.

“We think the Braithwaite woman took him,” Hosea said, his voice grave. He paused to catch his breath before adding, “Kieran saw a couple of fellers, said they sounded like Braithwaite boys.”

Dutch’s expression darkened, his charming façade slipping as the weight of the accusation settled over him. Arthur’s hands clenched into fists at his sides, his eyes flicking to Abigail, who was on the verge of breaking.

Jo, still at Abigail’s side, rubbed a hand gently across her back, trying to soothe her as best as she could. But Abigail was trembling, her composure cracking with each passing second.

“Where’s my son?” Abigail choked out, her voice rising in both anger and despair. Tears streamed down her face as a sob escaped her lips, her words stuttering. “If anything... Where is my son, Dutch van der Linde?”

“We will find him,” Dutch said sternly, his voice carrying the unshakable authority he so often wielded. “We will bring him back to you, and we will kill any fool that had the temerity to touch one hair on that boy’s head.”

John approached, his usual air of indifference replaced by something closer to dread. Though distant with Jack, even he seemed shaken by the boy’s disappearance.

“Abigail, you have my word,” Dutch promised, placing a firm hand on her shoulder.

“Just get me back my son,” Abigail pleaded, her voice breaking under the weight of her fear.

Dutch gave a sharp nod, his gaze flicking to Arthur and John before turning toward the tethered horses. “I will get that boy back, so help me God,” he swore, his tone almost a growl.

Jo stepped away from Abigail, her eyes narrowing as she followed the men’s determined strides. Her gaze flicked to the side, catching sight of Micah lounging at the table, utterly unconcerned. The sight made her stomach churn, but before she could dwell on it, Bill called out.

“Dutch! We just heard about Jack. You need some extra guns?”

Bill jogged toward them, Charles, Lenny, and Javier close behind.

“Yeah, why not?” Dutch replied, reaching for his horse.

Arthur mounted Atlas with ease, the tension in his shoulders evident as he secured his rifle. But then he paused, catching sight of Jo following after them.

He frowned deeply, his voice firm. “I hope you ain’t thinkin’ of coming along, ‘cause you ain’t.”

“What? Bu—” Jo started to protest, but Arthur cut her off sharply.

“No.” His tone brooked no argument, his piercing gaze locking onto hers.

Jo froze, her face flushing with a mix of frustration and embarrassment. She knew, deep down, that he was right—she wasn’t in any condition to handle herself in a fight, not after yesterday. But hearing him command her so sternly made her blood boil.

“You ain’t the boss of me, Arthur Morgan,” she shot back, her hands curling into fists.

Dutch turned to them, his patience clearly wearing thin. “No, but you’re not coming,” he said firmly, his tone leaving no room for argument. “End of the discussion.”

Jo opened her mouth to argue again but stopped when Dutch turned away, already dismissing her as he addressed the rest of the group.

“Micah! Kieran! Anyone strange turns up, you kill ’em!” Dutch barked, pointing toward them. “Rest of you, let’s ride!”

With that, the group mounted their horses, and without another word, they rode out in a cloud of dust—Dutch, Hosea, John, Bill, Charles, Javier, Lenny, and Arthur disappearing into the distance.

Jo stood frozen, her fists clenched at her sides as she watched them go. The fading sound of hoofbeats left her feeling hollow and helpless. She let out a frustrated sigh, casting one more glare at Micah, who still sat unmoved at the table, his smirk faint but present.

For a moment, she just stood there, her chest tight and her heart racing with worry for Jack and anger at being left behind. But deep down, she knew they were right. All she could do now was wait—and hope they’d bring the boy back safely.

 


 

Night had fallen, casting the camp in a muted gloom broken only by the flicker of the campfire. Abigail’s cries cut through the silence, raw and heart-wrenching. Jo sat by her, her hands loosely clasped in her lap, at a loss for words to offer any real comfort. Still, she chose to stay, her presence a silent reassurance.

“I can’t lose him,” Abigail choked out, her voice trembling. “I can’t—”

“You won’t,” Jo said softly, her voice steady despite the unease roiling in her chest. “They’ll bring him back. Arthur, Dutch… all of them. They’ll make sure of it.”

Abigail turned her tear-streaked face toward her, her eyes searching Jo’s for reassurance. Jo didn’t flinch, even though she wasn’t sure if her words were more for Abigail’s sake or her own.

Not far off, Sadie Adler sat in a chair, her rifle resting across her lap as she methodically cleaned the barrel. Her expression was grim, her lips pressed into a tight line. Every so often, her gaze flicked toward the darkness beyond the firelight, as if daring anyone to try their luck against her tonight.

By the fire, Tilly and Mary-Beth huddled close together, their faces etched with worry. Tilly occasionally glanced over at Abigail, her eyes soft with empathy, while Mary-Beth’s fingers worried the hem of her skirt, a nervous habit she couldn’t seem to shake.

Karen sat just a few feet away on a log, her figure slouched, a bottle of whiskey resting by her boots. She’d been quieter than usual, her usual biting humor replaced by a haunted look in her eyes. Though she hadn’t spoken much since Sean’s death, she still lingered near the others.

Further out, Susan Grimshaw moved with purpose, busying herself with chores that didn’t need doing. She scrubbed a washboard with unnecessary force, muttering under her breath every so often, as though she were trying to drown out her own thoughts.

Jo reached over, gently placing her hand on Abigail’s trembling one. “He’s tough, you know,” Jo murmured. “Jack’s a smart kid. He’ll hold on till they get to him.”

Abigail nodded faintly, though her tears didn’t stop. “It’s just… he’s just a boy,” she whispered, her voice breaking. “He shouldn’t have to go through this.”

Jo’s throat tightened. “None of us should,” she said quietly, her gaze drifting toward the fire where the others sat. She caught Sadie’s eyes for a brief moment, a silent exchange passing between them.

Sadie nodded slightly, her hands still moving over her rifle. “They’ll pay for what they’ve done,” she said aloud, her voice steady and sharp as steel.

Karen raised her bottle in a half-hearted toast. “Damn right they will,” she muttered before taking a swig.

 


 

The hours dragged on painfully, each second stretching like an eternity. The fire had burned lower, its warmth flickering faintly against the night as the girls huddled closer together. Jo brought a blanket and carefully draped it over Abigail’s trembling shoulders. Abigail didn’t say anything—just clutched the blanket tightly, her eyes fixed on the darkness beyond the camp, waiting, hoping.

When the echo of hooves broke through the stillness, all their heads snapped toward the path. Abigail shot to her feet instantly, her blanket falling forgotten to the ground. Jo followed behind her, her heart pounding as she scanned the returning riders. The sight of them—Dutch, Arthur, John, Hosea, and the others—was both a relief and a gut-wrenching blow.

Jack wasn’t with them.

Jo’s eyes darted to Arthur, searching his face for any sign of hope. He met her gaze, but the shake of his head and the grim set of his features said everything she needed to know. 

Abigail didn’t wait. She ran straight for Dutch, her voice trembling with desperation. “Did you find him? Please, tell me you found him.”

Dutch slid off The Count, his movements unnervingly calm. He landed gracefully, stepping toward Abigail with an unreadable expression. His hands came to her shoulders, steady and firm, as he gently led her a few steps away from the group. Jo strained to hear, but Dutch’s voice was low, his words meant only for Abigail.

The soft, choked sound of Abigail’s cry broke through the night, and Jo’s stomach twisted. Dutch immediately wrapped his arms around her, pulling her into a fatherly embrace. He murmured something else, his hand smoothing over her hair as she clung to him, her sobs muffled against his chest.

John slipped in then, his face tight with guilt and worry. He hesitated for a moment before reaching for Abigail, carefully taking her away from Dutch. She leaned into him at first, her fingers clutching his shirt.

But it didn’t last.

Abigail suddenly pulled away, her hands balled into fists as she shouted something unintelligible in John’s direction, her voice cracking with anger and anguish. Her words tumbled over each other, too frantic and broken to make sense. John stood frozen, his hands half-raised as if to stop her, but he didn’t know how.

When Abigail turned and stormed off into the shadows, John stayed rooted to the spot, rubbing a hand across his forehead. For a moment, he looked utterly lost, his shoulders sagging under the weight of her fury and his own regret.

Finally, with a deep sigh, he turned and reluctantly followed after her, his boots dragging slightly against the dirt as he disappeared into the night.

Jo lingered where she stood, her hands clenched at her sides as she watched the scene unfold. Her chest felt heavy, a sinking feeling settling deep in her gut.

Arthur dismounted Atlas with a quiet grunt, his rifle slung over his shoulder. Jo glanced at him, but he didn’t meet her eyes this time.

He took a deep breath, his shoulders heavy as he broke the silence. “He wasn’t with ’em,” Arthur said, his voice low and laced with something akin to sadness—or maybe it was guilt.

Jo’s chest tightened at his words, her heart sinking further. She didn’t say anything, waiting for him to continue.

“Some men came,” Arthur went on, his tone darkening with restrained anger. “Took the kid to some feller named Bronte. Apparently, he holed up in Saint Denis.”

Jo nodded stiffly, her arms crossing over her chest. “Figures,” she muttered, her voice clipped.

Arthur’s eyes flicked to her at that, catching the bitterness in her tone. “What’s that supposed to mean?”

Jo shrugged, her gaze darting to the side. “Nothin’.” Her voice was calm, but the tight set of her jaw betrayed her.

Arthur sighed, shifting his weight. “Jo, if you got somethin’ to say, just say it.”

She let out a dry laugh, shaking her head. “It’s nothin’, Arthur. You were clear enough earlier.” Her eyes finally met his, and though her tone was measured, there was no mistaking the frustration simmering beneath her words.

Arthur frowned, his brows knitting together. “Clear enough ‘bout what?”

“About where I stand,” Jo said simply, her voice low but firm. “You didn’t want me there. I got the message loud and clear.”

His face softened, his shoulders sagging slightly. “It wasn’t about you, Jo. I needed to make sure—”

“Yeah, I know. Needed to make sure I didn’t get in the way, or maybe it’s just ‘cause I’m a woman,” she interrupted, her lips curling into a bitter smile. “Don’t worry, Arthur. I know my place.”

Arthur’s frown deepened as he took a step closer, his voice quieter now. “That ain’t what I meant, and you know it,” but Jo held her ground, her gaze unwavering as she stood tall in front of him. “I don’t need your pity, and I don’t need your protection,” she added, her voice low and cold.

She held his gaze for a moment longer, then exhaled sharply, shaking her head. “Doesn’t matter now.” Her voice cracked slightly at the end, and she quickly looked away. “The kid’s still out there, and that’s what matters. Not this.”

Without giving him a chance to respond, she turned on her heel and strode toward her tent, her mood sour. Arthur watched her go, the weight of her words settling heavily in his chest as he rubbed a hand over his face, muttering a curse under his breath.

Once inside, she yanked the curtain shut, muttering under her breath as she began to unbutton her shirt, eager to get out of her day’s clothes and into something more comfortable.

The sound of heavy boots crunching the dirt outside made her pause, and before she could say anything, Arthur ducked inside without so much as a knock.

“Now that ain’t fair,” he started, his tone gruff but not unkind. “I was—”

“Arthur!” Jo snapped, spinning around and clutching her half-buttoned shirt to her chest. “I’m changin’!”

Arthur raised a brow, clearly unbothered, and leaned casually against the entrance with his arms crossed. A smirk tugged at the corner of his mouth. “Nothin’ I haven’t seen before,” he drawled, his voice dripping with sarcasm.

Jo froze, her face heating as her mind leapt to that night in Van Horn. “Really?” she hissed, her glare sharp enough to cut. “You just had to bring that up?”

Arthur’s smirk deepened, but he said nothing. He let her draw her own conclusion, though in truth, another memory flickered in his mind—one she had no idea about. The image of her in the lake, sunlight glinting off the water and her naked form, had been impossible to forget. If she only knew…

Jo huffed, snapping him out of his thoughts as she planted a hand on her hip, glaring at him “Real mature, Mr. Morgan. Really.”

He shrugged, not bothering to hide the amusement in his eyes before he let out a quiet huff, but his smile faded quickly as he straightened up. “Look,” he began, his voice softer now, “I didn’t mean to make you feel like you didn’t belong. I know you can hold your own, Jo. Hell, better than half the men in this camp.”

“Then what was it, huh?” she shot back, her grip on her shirt loosening slightly. “You just didn’t want me there?”

Arthur’s eyes softened as he shook his head. “I didn’t want you hurtin’ yourself worse. You’re still healin’, and you know it. Ain’t no shame in that.”

Jo hesitated, her expression wavering as she searched his face. “You could’ve said that instead of barkin’ orders at me like I’m some damn child.”

Arthur rubbed the back of his neck, clearly uncomfortable. “I ain’t always good with words, Jo. You know that. T’was about keepin’ you safe and if that means pissin’ you off, then so be it.”

She sighed, finally pulling her shirt back on properly and turning away to adjust the buttons. “You’ve got a funny way of showin’ you care, Arthur Morgan. Feels more like you’re bossin’ me around than anything else.”

Arthur frowned, the weight of her words clear on his face. “Maybe I am bossin’ you around,” he admitted. “But only ‘cause I can’t stand the thought of somethin’ happenin’ to you, alright? We both know you’ve been through enough already.”

Jo stilled for a moment, her fingers pausing mid-button. When she finally turned to look at him, her expression had softened, though there was still a hint of stubbornness in her eyes. “You don’t need to protect me, Arthur. I ain’t some damsel in distress.”

Arthur nodded slightly, his voice quieter now. “I know you ain’t. But that don’t mean I’m gonna stop tryin’.”

“Yeah, I know.”

They stood there in silence for a moment before Jo turned fully to face him, her hand still resting on her hip. “But next time, maybe don’t barge in when I’m half-dressed.”

Arthur gave her a faint, almost boyish grin, tipping his hat as he stepped back toward the entrance. “I’ll keep that in mind, Trouble.”

As he disappeared outside, Jo couldn’t help the small smile that tugged at her lips, though she quickly shook her head, muttering, “That man’s gonna be the death of me.”

 


 

The next day took a rather interesting turn when a pair of Pinkerton agents showed up at camp, their sharp suits and smug expressions a stark contrast to the rugged group of outlaws they were confronting. They came with threats, offering Dutch a deal: his freedom in exchange for the rest of the gang.

Naturally, the offer wasn’t met with civility. Every member of the camp stood their ground, bristling with defiance. Guns were visible, hands rested on holsters, and the tension crackled like a dry branch underfoot. It became clear to the Pinkertons that they wouldn’t get what they wanted without bloodshed—not today, anyway. So, with a few scathing remarks, they left, their retreat more a promise than a surrender.

But the visit rattled the gang. Would they come back with more men? Would they strike when the gang was least prepared? The questions loomed, and Dutch made the call to leave Clemens Point behind.

They packed up their lives once more, loading wagons with supplies and belongings, and headed farther south than they’d planned. Their destination: Shady Belle, an old, dilapidated plantation house deep in the swamps of Bayou Nwa. It wasn’t exactly a paradise, nestled between the Kamassa River and where it fed into the Lannahechee River, but it was secluded enough to serve as a refuge for a while.

Lenny and Arthur had dealt with the place before, having driven off the previous occupants during a dispute not too long ago. Whether those occupants had returned or not, Dutch wasn’t taking any chances. He sent Arthur and John ahead to clear the place out while the rest of the gang packed up camp.

The ride to Shady Belle was quiet at first, save for the rhythmic clop of hooves on dirt. But it wasn’t long before John spoke up, his voice laced with frustration and doubt. “Feels like all we’ve been doin’ lately is killin’ folk. For what, Arthur? Jack’s still missin’, and Dutch... he’s just leadin’ us deeper into the mud.”

Arthur didn’t argue. John’s words had weight—truth he didn’t feel like denying. “It’s a goddamn mess, I won’t lie,” Arthur admitted, adjusting the rifle on his saddle. “But what choice do we got? We move on, try to make the best of it, and hope it’s enough.”

John shook his head, a grimace pulling at his features. He didn’t reply, but the silence that followed was heavy with unspoken doubts.

By the time they reached Shady Belle, it was clear their troubles weren’t over. A few of the old tenants had decided to come back, and they weren’t keen on sharing the place. Arthur and John handled it quickly, sending bodies to the gators in the murky waters nearby—a grim but practical solution.

Jo didn’t have a choice but to ride on one of the wagons, wedged between crates and supplies, her mood souring with every bump along the trail. She couldn’t remember the last time she’d been forced off her horse like this. The separation wasn’t just inconvenient—it was unsettling. Her horse was more than transportation; it was her freedom, her escape when camp life got too stifling. Now, stuck on this slow-moving wagon, she felt like a bird whose wings had been clipped.

As the wagon jostled over uneven terrain, Jo’s hands tightened on the edge of the seat. She could see the other riders ahead—Javier, Lenny, Charles, and the rest—all moving easily on horseback, and it only deepened the ache of being grounded like this. She muttered under her breath, cursing her leg for its betrayal and the gods above for making the world so damn cruel.

Some rode near the front, glancing back at her now and then. She caught them a few times, but she didn’t return their looks. The last thing she wanted was their pity—or worse, to offer her some well-meaning reassurance she didn’t ask for.

When they arrived, it was hard not to feel a small sense of relief. Shady Belle wasn’t much, but it was better than the tents they’d grown accustomed to. The two-story house, though weathered and crumbling in places, offered a roof and a semblance of shelter. Dutch claimed the largest bedroom upstairs for himself and Molly, while other rooms were divvied up—John took one, and Arthur another that led out onto a balcony overlooking the rest of the camp.

The rest of the gang set up their tents along one side of the house, the swampy air thick with humidity and the constant hum of insects. It wasn’t ideal—far from it—but it was an upgrade. For now, at least, they had a roof over their heads.

Meanwhile, Dutch and Arthur had already disappeared together, heading to Saint Denis. The city loomed close by, its distant lights visible through the murky haze of the swamp as night approached. They didn’t tell anyone much, just that they needed to get information about Bronte and secure a foothold in the city. Typical Dutch—always on the move, always with a plan.

Jo helped Mary-Beth with her tent, her hands working mechanically as her thoughts strayed. She couldn’t help but think back to Clemens Point, to the conversation by the shoreline. Arthur had been about to say something, hadn’t he? Something important, maybe even something about… them. But then everything went to hell with Jack, and whatever it was, it was left unsaid.

Would they ever get the chance to finish that conversation? Or had the moment passed them by, like so many others in this life they led? Jo shook her head, trying to focus, but the question lingered, a stubborn weight in the back of her mind.

Even so, the swamp had a way of seeping into the soul. The air was stifling, the nights unnervingly quiet save for the distant croak of frogs and the splash of something larger moving in the water. As Jo wandered through the camp that first night, she couldn’t shake the feeling that they’d traded one hell for another.

Chapter 17: Into the Lion's Den

Summary:

Jo makes herself a new friend while Arthur searches for Jack.

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

Arthur was unsettled.

Dutch’s latest notion of potentially leaving the country weighed heavily on his mind. Crossing the ocean, starting fresh somewhere foreign—it wasn’t in their usual plan. Hell, it wasn’t in any plan Dutch had talked about before. And yet, Dutch made it sound like the only way forward, like the gang’s survival depended on it.

Still, Arthur trusted him. Always had. Even when the cracks started showing, even when Dutch’s schemes grew riskier and his charm thinner, Arthur had remained loyal. He questioned him, sure—he wasn’t blind—but he’d follow Dutch anywhere, even if it meant leaving the United States behind.

But before they could dream of faraway shores, they needed money. More money than ever before, Dutch had said. And that much Arthur could agree with. They couldn’t move, couldn’t breathe without it. And if earning that meant putting his own wants and needs aside? Well, that wasn’t anything new. That was how deep his loyalty ran.

Saint Denis was a world away from the swamps of Shady Belle or the rolling hills of Lemoyne. A repellent place, Arthur thought. Chimneys belched thick black smoke into the already polluted sky, while the air seemed to hum with the constant grind of machinery and the chatter of city life. It was too loud, too crowded, and too unnatural for his liking.

But it was also where Jack was. Somewhere in this sprawling, suffocating maze of brick and stone, Bronte had the boy.

Arthur and Dutch moved through the city’s streets like shadows, careful and quiet. The name "Bronte" came with a certain weight, as they quickly learned. Those who heard it stiffened, some shaking their heads, others outright refusing to answer their questions. No one seemed eager to talk about him, and that only made the task more difficult.

“He’s got this whole damn city under his thumb,” Arthur muttered after yet another dead end.

Dutch, ever the optimist, clapped him on the shoulder. “That just means we need to tread carefully, Arthur. But we’ll get him. Mark my words, we’ll get Jack back.”

Arthur nodded, but unease churned in his gut. The city felt like a trap, every corner hiding another potential danger. He glanced up at the towering buildings around them, the iron balconies and flickering street lamps. How could anyone live here? Let alone keep a child safe?

Still, he pushed those thoughts aside. He had to focus. They couldn’t afford to mess this up—not with Jack’s life at stake.

 


 

One thing was clear to Jo—even if it pained her to admit it—without a horse, she was stuck in camp, reduced to chores and menial tasks. The freedom she was used to, the independence her horse had always given her, was gone, and it was starting to gnaw at her. Being tied to one place like this didn’t sit right with her, and the fact that she couldn’t just go where she pleased wasn’t something she could tolerate for long.

So, she’d made up her mind that morning: it was going to change.

Saint Denis wasn’t far, and she could make the trip on foot. She’d find the stables, look over what they had, and buy herself a new horse. It wouldn’t be Daisy, not even close—but a decent horse, something to get her moving again, would have to do. She’d saved enough to afford something practical, even if she wasn’t expecting anything special.

She could’ve asked someone else to give her a ride into the city—Lenny, maybe, or Charles—but she didn’t want to. Walking there would give her time to think, and more importantly, it would strengthen her leg. The bruise on her thigh still lingered, a stubborn thing, dark purple fading into mottled greens and yellows beneath the fabric of her pants. It ached when she moved too quickly or put too much weight on it, but she refused to let it slow her down. Not anymore.

Jo wasn’t one for pity, least of all from herself. She tugged on her boots, grabbed her satchel, and threw one last glance at the camp behind her before heading out.

As she followed the road to Saint Denis, the heat of the day was starting to rise, the sun beating down mercilessly. She passed by Caliga Hall, its sprawling fields stretching out in either direction, the estate’s grand house just visible beyond the distant tree line. She didn’t linger on the sight—her mind was set on her destination—until a commotion near the fence line drew her attention.

A man stood near the road, grappling with a horse that seemed determined to fight him every step of the way. The mare was breathtaking—a sleek black Arabian, her coat shimmering like polished obsidian in the sunlight. She moved with a feral grace, her hooves digging into the dirt as she reared and tossed her head, her long, flowing mane whipping through the air like storm clouds in motion.

What struck Jo most, though, were the mare’s eyes. They were dark and bright all at once, like the still surface of a deep lake catching the first rays of dawn, full of untamed fire and defiance. Between her flared nostrils, a small patch of pinkish skin stood out against the inky black of her muzzle, softening her fierce appearance just slightly. The contrast was striking, giving her a uniquely regal yet rebellious look.

She was stunning, a picture of power and defiance, but it was clear that neither her beauty nor her spirit was appreciated by the man holding her reins.

“Damn animal!” he shouted, his frustration boiling over as the mare yanked her head back, nearly dragging him off his feet.

Jo paused, watching the scene unfold. She could see the problem plain as day—the man was all fear and anger, his grip too tight and his movements too aggressive. The mare wasn’t misbehaving for no reason; she was scared, confused, and reacting to the tension in her handler.

“Need a hand?” Jo called, her voice cutting through the chaos.

The man snapped his head up, blinking at her as though he hadn’t realized he had an audience. “You any good with horses?” he asked gruffly, straightening his hat.

Jo didn’t answer immediately. Instead, she approached slowly, her movements deliberate and her voice soft as she murmured to the mare. The horse’s ears flicked toward her, still agitated but curious.

“She’s nervous,” Jo said, keeping her tone even. “You’re yankin’ on her like that, and she thinks she’s got somethin’ to be afraid of. Loosen your grip and let her breathe.”

The man huffed, his expression skeptical, but he loosened his hold as she suggested. Jo stepped closer, reaching out carefully to touch the mare’s neck. The horse shied at first, but Jo didn’t pull back. She kept her hand steady, her touch light but firm, and after a few moments, the mare began to calm.

“She’s got fire in her,” Jo said quietly, running her hand along the horse’s sleek coat. The mare’s muscles quivered beneath her touch, every inch of her radiating energy and potential. “This one doesn’t take kindly to fear. You show her you’re afraid, and she’ll make sure you regret it.”

“You good with ’em, ma’am,” the man admitted grudgingly, tipping his hat back to wipe the sweat from his brow. The man let out a long sigh, rubbing the back of his neck. “Bought her for my wife,” he admitted, his voice weary. “Figured she’d want somethin’ fancy, y’know? But turns out my wife don’t want nothin’ to do with her. Says she’s too wild, and now she’s my problem.”

Jo raised an eyebrow, her hand never leaving the mare’s neck. “She ain’t a problem,” she said. “She’s just... particular.”

The man laughed bitterly. “Particular, huh? I’ve tried everything I can think of, and she won’t listen to a damn thing I say. Hell, I was just on my way to the stables in Saint Denis to sell her off. But... I’ll tell you what. You seem to know what you’re doin’, and she seems to like you. If you want her, she’s yours. No charge. Just take her off my hands before she kills me.”

Jo blinked, surprised by the offer. She looked at the mare, whose fiery eyes had softened slightly under her care, and then back at the man. “You sure?”

“Ma’am, I’ve never been more sure of anything,” he said, tossing her the reins.

Jo caught them easily, a small smile tugging at the corners of her lips. She turned back to the mare, who snorted and stamped her hoof but didn’t pull away.

“Alright then,” Jo murmured. “Looks like it’s you and me now, girl.”

She led the mare away from the man, her heart lighter than it had been in days. This horse wasn’t Daisy—no horse ever could be—but she was magnificent, and Jo could already feel the beginnings of a bond forming between them.

As Jo led the mare away from Caliga Hall, she couldn’t help but admire her new companion’s striking features. The sleek black coat gleamed under the midday sun, and a small white patch shaped like a delicate diamond adorned her forehead, standing out vividly against her dark coloring.

The mare walked beside her with a restless energy, ears swiveling in every direction and tail swishing sharply. She was alert, a creature of pure spirit, and Jo felt a strange mix of pride and apprehension as she glanced at the reins in her hand.

This horse wasn’t Daisy. That much was clear. Daisy had been steady, dependable, and comforting in her simplicity. This one was... unpredictable. Fierce. She radiated the kind of power that demanded respect. Jo could already tell that this new mare wasn’t the type to forgive a misstep easily.

Her grip tightened slightly on the reins as her thoughts drifted to Daisy. The saddle she’d brought with her to camp was Daisy’s, but the idea of using it on this horse felt wrong. It wasn’t just the size—this mare was slimmer, her frame more delicate than Daisy’s sturdy build—but something about it didn’t sit right in her chest. That saddle had been a piece of her old friend, and the thought of seeing it on another horse made her stomach twist.

No, this one needed her own gear, something that matched her unique temperament and frame.

Jo adjusted the reins and continued toward Saint Denis, the mare’s hooves clicking steadily against the dirt road. She wasn’t about to ride her bareback—who knew how the mare might react? It was better to lead her for now, get her used to walking together, and take it one step at a time.

The sprawling city loomed closer, its smoke-stained skyline a sharp contrast to the rolling green fields of the countryside. Jo wasn’t fond of cities, and Saint Denis was no exception. The crowds, the noise, the grime—it all set her teeth on edge. But it was the closest place to find what she needed.

Once they entered the city limits, the mare grew agitated, tossing her head and snorting at the unfamiliar sights and sounds. Jo murmured soft reassurances, her hand brushing the horse’s neck to keep her calm.

The stables were bustling with activity when they arrived, the smell of hay and leather mixing with the less pleasant stench of manure and sweat. Jo approached the counter, the mare standing restlessly at her side, her dark eyes watching everything around her.

“I need a saddle,” Jo said to the stable hand, her tone firm. “Somethin’ light but strong, and a bridle to match.”

The stable hand gave a low whistle as he looked the mare over. “That’s a fine Arabian you’ve got there, ma’am. She’s got fire in her, don’t she?”

Jo smirked faintly. “She does. Which is why I need gear that won’t let me down.”

The stable hand nodded and disappeared into the back, returning moments later with a few options. Jo took her time inspecting each piece, running her fingers over the leather to test its quality. She eventually settled on a sleek black saddle with intricate stitching, light enough not to weigh the mare down but sturdy enough for long rides.

The bridle was simple but elegant, a perfect match for the saddle, and Jo made sure to add a saddle blanket that would provide some comfort for the mare’s sensitive back. She also picked up a set of brushes, hoof picks, and a few other necessities.

By the time they left the stables, the mare was outfitted in her new gear, the black leather and silver accents complementing her striking appearance. Jo couldn’t help but feel a small swell of satisfaction as she adjusted the stirrups and checked the straps. The mare tossed her head as though approving of the choice.

The return to Shady Belle turned into an eventful ride. What had started as a peaceful walk turned into something else entirely the moment Jo swung herself into the saddle.

The mare had seemed calm while being led, but as soon as Jo’s weight settled on her back, the storm brewing inside the horse broke loose. The Arabian reared, hooves pawing at the air, and let out a piercing whinny that echoed through the trees. Jo gripped the reins tightly, her knees pressing against the horse’s sides as she tried to keep her balance.

“Easy, girl! Easy!” she shouted, her voice firm but calm.

The mare didn’t listen. She bucked and twisted, as if trying to throw Jo off, her wild spirit refusing to be tamed. Jo’s heart raced, but she didn’t let go, her hands steady as she pulled the reins just enough to guide the horse without forcing her.

“C’mon now,” Jo muttered, her voice softening. “I know you’re better than this. Let’s figure it out, huh?”

For what felt like an eternity, the mare continued her defiant dance, but slowly, ever so slowly, she began to settle. Her snorts grew quieter, her movements less frantic, and eventually, she stood still, her dark eyes watching Jo intently.

“That’s it,” Jo said, a small smile breaking across her face as she leaned forward to pat the horse’s neck. “You’re a little devil, ain’t you?”

The rest of the ride wasn’t exactly smooth, but Jo could feel a change in the mare’s demeanor. The horse was still spirited, but there was a mutual understanding forming between them—a bond built on respect. By the time they approached Shady Belle, Jo felt more connected to her new companion than she had expected.

As they trotted into camp, Lenny was the first to notice them. He straightened from where he had been sitting on a crate near the gate, his mouth falling open.

“Well, damn!” he whistled, a grin spreading across his face. “Jo, where in the hell did you find a horse like that?”

Jo smirked as she dismounted, her legs a little shaky from the ride but her confidence intact. She gave the mare a quick pat before turning to Lenny. “Caliga Hall. Let’s just say she wasn’t exactly loved there. Figured I’d give her a chance.”

Javier wandered over, his arms crossed as he eyed the horse with a critical gaze. He tilted his head slightly, his thick accent adding an extra flair to his words.

“Jo, that’s not a horse,” he said, a small smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. “That’s a demon, no? She looks like she could kill a man just by lookin’ at him.”

The mare's ears flattened sharply against her head as if she’d understood Javier’s comment and didn’t take kindly to it. Her dark eyes, already intense, seemed to narrow with something close to indignation.

Jo chuckled softly, placing a reassuring hand on the horse’s neck. “Now, now, girl,” she murmured, her voice calm but with a knowing edge. “Don’t let him get to you.”

With that gentle pat, her ears lifted slightly, though they didn’t fully settle. Her expressive eyes shifted toward Jo, as if waiting for further reassurance.

Javier’s gaze lingered on the mare. “She’s got fire, I’ll give you that. Be careful, amiga. A horse like that, she’ll test you every step of the way.”

“She already has,” Jo said with a smirk, leading the mare toward a shaded spot to tie her up. “But I think we’ll be just fine.”

Lenny, still marveling at the horse, followed after Jo as she began tethering her. “You named her, or what?” he asked, his tone full of curiosity.

Jo paused, glancing back at the mare. The horse’s dark eyes met hers, full of spirit and a quiet strength that reminded her of something—of a place, a moment in her past.

“Laramie,” Jo said after a moment.

Lenny tilted his head. “Laramie? What’s that?”

“It’s a place,” Jo replied simply, turning her attention back to the mare.

“A place? Where?”

“Wyoming,” she answered, her tone firm, discouraging further questions.

Lenny frowned, clearly unsatisfied. “Why name her after that?”

Jo shook her head, her expression hardening slightly. “Does it matter? That’s her name.”

Lenny opened his mouth as if to press her further but thought better of it. Instead, he let out a soft chuckle and nodded. “Alright, alright. Laramie it is. It suits her.”

Javier, leaning casually against a nearby post, smirked. “Maybe the name suits her, but that attitude? That’s all you, Jo. Stubborn as hell.”

Jo rolled her eyes, brushing off the comment as she began untacking the mare and brushing her down. The day had been long, but as she worked, she couldn’t help but feel a strange comfort in the presence of her new companion. Laramie may have been a wild spirit, but in her, Jo saw a reflection of herself—a survivor, full of fire and grit, ready to face whatever came next.

 


 

For the rest of the day, Jo helped around as did everyone else, ensuring Shady Belle became as close to a proper camp as it could be. The creaky floors of the old mansion were swept out, lanterns were hung, and wagons were positioned strategically to form a barrier against unwelcome visitors. Even so, Jo’s attention frequently drifted to the camp’s entrance. Every now and then, she’d glance up from whatever task she was handling, her eyes narrowing as she watched for any sign of Dutch, Arthur, and John’s return.

At some point earlier in the late afternoon, Dutch had come back. He hadn’t stayed long—just enough time to gather John and leave again as quickly as he’d arrived. The way he’d moved, sharp and urgent, left an unsettling buzz in the air. Jo hadn’t asked where they were headed. She knew better than to question Dutch, but the pit in her stomach tightened regardless. Whatever it was, it was important enough to pull John away, and that wasn’t something that happened lightly.

 


 

“Hey, they’re back! I think I see Jack!” Bill’s voice rang out from where he stood guard, breaking the too-loud quietness that had fallen over camp.

At the same time, Dutch called out for Abigail from atop his horse, his booming voice carrying across the night air. Everyone stopped what they were doing. Javier’s guitar went silent, the melancholic strum of strings halting mid-note. Abigail stood up so quickly her chair toppled over, and she bolted toward the approaching riders, paying no mind to the horses still moving in.

“Jack!” Abigail’s voice cracked, trembling with relief.

Abigail sank to her knees, pulling Jack into her arms and holding him as if she’d never let him go again. The sight brought warmth to Jo’s chest. It was bittersweet, though, watching Abigail’s tears of joy while John hovered in the background, hesitant and unsure. He kept his distance, his boots planted like he wasn’t sure if he was welcome. It wasn’t until a long moment passed—and perhaps a nudge from Hosea—that John finally stepped forward to join his family.

The camp came alive with celebration. People gathered around the fire, Javier’s guitar picking up again, this time in a lively, cheerful rhythm. He began to sing in his deep, lilting tone, and the sound of laughter followed.

Jo stood near the crate of beer bottles, a smile tugging at her lips as she watched the group finally relax and revel in the reunion. But her smile faltered when her gaze drifted past the flames to a figure standing away from it all.

Arthur.

He lingered near the broken dock on the other side of camp, the faint glow of a cigarette illuminating his silhouette. His broad shoulders were hunched slightly, his head low, as if he were weighed down by something only he could carry.

Jo pulled two bottles of beer from the crate and started toward him. Each step was deliberate, her boots crunching softly against the dirt, but Arthur didn’t turn. He stayed fixed in his place, staring out toward the murky waters of the swamp.

Arthur turned at the sound of approaching boots, his shoulders stiff at first but easing the moment he saw Jo in the faint light of the moon. She held out one of the bottles of beer, and he took it without a word, his fingers brushing against hers briefly.

“Figured you could use one,” she said quietly, her tone cutting through the distant hum of the camp’s celebrations.

Arthur glanced at the beer, then back at her before taking the bottle from her. “Thanks,” he muttered, his voice low and rough, like gravel underfoot. He flicked the cigarette into the dirt and took a long swig from the bottle.

She leaned against the rickety railing of the dock, the wood creaking under her weight. “You ain’t much for celebratin’, huh?”

Jo took a seat on the edge of the dock, her legs dangling over the water, the wood creaking faintly under her weight. She tipped the bottle to her lips, taking a long sip before glancing back at Arthur, who remained standing, his gaze fixed on the ground.

“You just gonna stand there, or you gonna sit?” she asked, raising an eyebrow.

Arthur exhaled a faint chuckle and finally lowered himself beside her, his long legs stretching out in front of him. For a while, they drank in silence, the occasional ripple of water breaking the stillness between them.

It was Jo who broke it first. “You alright?” she asked, her voice softer now, more careful.

Arthur turned the bottle in his hands, staring at it as if it held answers. “Reckon I should be,” he said after a moment. “Boy’s back, Abigail’s happy, John’s… tryin’. It’s what matters, right?”

“Doesn’t answer my question,” Jo pointed out, her head tilting slightly.

Arthur sighed, leaning forward to rest his forearms on his knees. “Ain’t much to say. Just been thinkin’… about things.” His words trailed off, and he glanced at her, his blue eyes catching the faint glow of the lanterns in camp.

Jo raised an eyebrow, waiting. “Things like?”

“Like you,” he said finally, though the words came out hesitant, almost unsure. He looked away quickly, as though afraid of her reaction.

Jo blinked, caught off guard by the bluntness of it. “Me?”

Arthur gave a faint nod, scratching the back of his neck. “I just… you been on my mind, is all. I reckon I owe you a proper answer to what you asked the other day. Miss Grimshaw, she… well, she interrupted, and I didn’t get the chance.”

Jo’s grip on the bottle tightened slightly. “And what were you gonna say?”

Arthur hesitated, clearly trying to find the right words. “I care about you, Jo,” he admitted, his voice quieter now, almost as if he didn’t want to be overheard, even out here. “More than I probably should. And I… I just wanted you to know that. Didn’t wanna leave it unsaid.”

Jo’s chest tightened at his words. She turned her gaze to the water, her throat suddenly dry despite the beer. “Arthur…”

“Now, I ain’t expectin’ anything from you,” he added quickly, as if to shield himself. “Just… needed you to know. That’s all.”

For a moment, the only sound was the soft lapping of the water against the dock. Jo swallowed hard, her mind racing, but when she finally looked back at him, there was a softness in her expression.

“You’re a damn fool, Arthur Morgan,” she said quietly, a faint smile tugging at her lips.

Arthur blinked, his brow furrowing. “What’s that supposed to mean?”

Jo leaned back, tipping the bottle to her lips again. “It means… I don’t know what to do with you,” she admitted. “But I guess I care too.”

Arthur’s lips twitched into a faint, lopsided smile, and he raised his bottle slightly. “Guess that’s somethin’, then.”

Jo clinked her bottle against his, a soft laugh escaping her. “Yeah, I guess it is.”

The tension between them eased, replaced by a quiet understanding. They sat there for a while longer, the camp’s laughter and music fading into the background, their silence companionable this time.

Notes:

Since this chapter introduces Jo’s new horse, I thought it’d be nice to give you all a little visual! 🐴 I’ve uploaded the link of a photo of a mare that closely resembles Laramie, so you can get a better idea of what she looks like. Hope you enjoyed the chapter 💛

here's the link : https://images.app.goo.gl/UjYGQSJGCZN5bHBQ9

Chapter 18: Close, But Not Quite

Summary:

Arthur keeps getting interrupted

Chapter Text

The air was heavy with summer heat, the kind that clung to your skin and made everything feel slow and unbearable. But she wasn’t thinking about the heat. She wasn’t thinking about anything, really, except the burning sting of fresh tears on her cheeks and the ache in her chest that wouldn’t go away.

She curled herself tighter in the small hollow beneath the crooked willow tree, her knees pulled to her chest. It wasn’t much of a hiding spot, but it was far enough from the house to feel safe. Far enough to block out the shouting, the crashing, the sound of her mother crying… and worse, the sound of her father’s voice.

She pressed her hands over her ears, trying to block out the echoes of his words, the cruel sneer in them that made her stomach twist. But it was no use. The sounds lived in her head now, taunting her no matter how far she ran.

“Sarah?”

The voice startled her, soft but familiar, and she dropped her hands, blinking through her tears. Ben stood a few feet away, his brow furrowed with concern. He was barefoot, his pants rolled up to his knees, and there was a smudge of dirt on his cheek like he’d been playing outside before he found her.

“Go away, Ben,” she said, her voice trembling as she quickly wiped at her face. She didn’t want him to see her like this, weak and broken.

But Ben didn’t move. Instead, he crouched down, his hands resting on his knees as he studied her like he always did, like she was a puzzle he wanted to solve. “You’ve been cryin’,” he said simply.

“No, I haven’t.”

“You’re a bad liar,” he said with a small, knowing smile. Then his expression softened. “What happened?”

She looked away, shaking her head. “Nothing. Just go home, Ben. I don’t need you here.”

Ben didn’t leave, of course. He never did. Instead, he sat down beside her, close enough that their shoulders almost touched, but not quite. “You don’t have to tell me,” he said quietly, staring out at the field in front of them. “But I’m not leavin’. Not until you stop lookin’ like the sky’s fallin’.”

For a long moment, she didn’t say anything. She just stared at the ground, her fingers tugging at the loose threads on the hem of her dress. But eventually, the weight of it all became too much, and the words spilled out before she could stop them.

“He… he hurt her again,” she whispered, her voice breaking. “And it’s my fault.”

Ben’s head whipped toward her, his brown eyes narrowing. “Your fault? How’s it your fault, Sarah?”

“I didn’t do what he said,” she admitted, her voice barely audible. “And now she’s payin’ for it.”

Ben shook his head, his expression fierce. “It ain’t your fault. None of it. You hear me?”

She didn’t answer, her tears falling silently now. She felt Ben’s hand on hers, warm and steady, and she looked up to see him watching her with a determination that seemed far too strong for someone their age.

“You’re gonna get out of here someday,” he said firmly. “And so’s your ma. You’re not gonna let him keep hurtin’ you. I know it.”

She wanted to believe him. God, she wanted to. But all she could do was nod, letting him hold her hand as the sun dipped lower in the sky, painting the fields in gold.

Ben always had a way of making her believe, even when everything seemed hopeless.

But he couldn't have known he was wrong .

 


 

The mid-morning sun filtered through the trees, casting soft shadows across the camp. Jo stood near the makeshift hitching post, brushing down Laramie’s sleek coat. The mare shifted occasionally, her ears flicking forward and back as if listening to the quiet sounds of camp life. Jo hummed under her breath, a calming tune she wasn’t even aware she was singing as she worked, the rhythm of the brush against Laramie’s coat steady and soothing.

“Didn’t get a good look at her last night,” came Arthur’s low drawl from behind her.

Jo glanced over her shoulder to see him walking toward her, his hands stuffed in his pockets. He looked better than he had weeks ago—more color to his face, less of that weariness that had seemed to weigh on him. He carried a quiet curiosity as he approached, his gaze fixed on the mare.

“She’s a fine one,” he said, sitting down on a nearby crate with a grunt, resting his forearms on his knees.

“Yeah, she is,” Jo said, turning back to Laramie. “Though she’s got the temperament of a devil.”

Arthur chuckled softly, pulling a cigarette from his pocket. “Seems to suit you just fine then.”

Jo smirked but didn’t respond, focusing on untangling a stubborn knot in Laramie’s mane.

“How’d you end up with her?” Arthur asked, lighting the cigarette and watching the way Jo moved, steady and sure.

Jo paused for a moment, her hand resting on Laramie’s neck. “Someone thought I needed a new horse,” she said simply, her tone unreadable.

Arthur raised an eyebrow, exhaling a stream of smoke. “Someone, huh? Must’ve thought highly of you to give ya a horse like this.”

“Or they just wanted to get rid of her before she killed ‘em,” Jo said dryly, though there was a hint of amusement in her voice.

Arthur chuckled again, shaking his head. “What’s her name?”

Jo hesitated for a moment, glancing at Laramie as if the mare might answer for herself. “Laramie,” she said finally.

Arthur froze mid-drag, his brow furrowing slightly. “Laramie?” he repeated, a thoughtful look crossing his face. “Ain’t that where…” He trailed off, his voice softening as he pieced it together.

Jo nodded, her movements slowing as she brushed Laramie’s flank. “Yeah,” she said quietly. “That’s where I met Dutch and Hosea. And you.”

Arthur didn’t say anything for a moment, his gaze distant as if he was remembering that time too. Finally, he shook his head, a faint smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. “Hell of a place to meet, huh?”

Jo shrugged. “It was… somethin’, that’s for sure.”

Arthur studied her for a moment, his cigarette burning between his fingers. “Why’d you name her after Laramie?”

Jo’s hand stilled for just a moment before she resumed brushing. “It just felt right,” she said simply, her voice steady but guarded.

Arthur seemed to understand that was all he was going to get, so he didn’t press further. Instead, he leaned back slightly on the crate, watching as Jo continued her work. The sunlight filtered through the trees, catching the highlights in her hair and the sleek shine of Laramie’s coat. For a moment, it was quiet, save for the sound of the brush running through the mare’s mane and the occasional creak of the camp settling around them.

But then, Arthur stood up, taking a step closer. Jo noticed the movement but didn’t turn, her focus still on Laramie. He lingered at her side, his presence warm and steady.

“We’ve come a long way since Laramie,” he said softly, his voice barely above a murmur.

Jo finally glanced at him, her lips parting as if to respond, but no words came. Instead, Arthur reached out, his rough hand brushing against hers as she held the brush. His touch was hesitant, as if unsure whether to follow through, but he left his hand there, lightly resting against hers.

Jo’s heart thudded in her chest, the quiet moment between them stretching just a little too long. She glanced down at their hands and then back up at him, her expression unreadable but her cheeks just the faintest shade warmer.

Whatever might have been said or done next was cut short by the sound of sharp, purposeful footsteps heading their way.

“Mr. Morgan!” Miss Grimshaw’s voice rang out, cutting through the quiet like a blade.

Arthur sighed heavily, his hand retreating as quickly as it had come. Jo straightened, her lips pressing into a thin line as she turned back to Laramie, her movements a little tenser than before.

Not again , they both thought at the same time, their expressions almost mirroring each other’s annoyance. It was as if Susan Grimshaw had a sixth sense for interrupting them at the worst possible moments.

“Mr. Morgan, we have a problem, a real problem,” Miss Grimshaw’s voice cut through the quiet, her tone as sharp as ever. She looked fuming, her hands on her hips, but the tension in her expression told Jo this wasn’t just a complaint about chores.

Arthur turned to her, already exasperated. “What now?”

“It’s Tilly,” Grimshaw said, checking her revolver as she spoke.

“What?” Arthur’s tone shifted immediately, his shoulders stiffening.

“She’s been taken by them Foreman brothers she used to run with.” Susan’s eyes flicked between them. “Come along!”

“The Foreman brothers?” Jo asked, stepping closer, her voice laced with both confusion and concern.

“What the hell are they doin’ here?” Arthur added as he followed Susan.

“Well, I don’t know what they’ve been doing here,” Susan snapped, “but I can tell you what they’re going to be doing here. Dying.”

Arthur hesitated, his gaze lingering on Jo as he readied himself to follow Susan.

“Need me?” she asked, tilting her head slightly.

Arthur blinked, caught off guard. “What?”

She smirked, folding her arms. “I mean, d’you need me to come with you?”

For a moment, he looked like he was considering it, but then he shook his head. “Nah, you ain’t gotta. Me and Grimshaw’ll handle it.”

Jo nodded, but something in her expression made him pause. He shifted on his feet, running a hand over his beard as if debating something.

Then, as if mustering every ounce of courage he had, Arthur took a step closer and leaned down, pressing a firm but brief kiss against her cheek.

Jo froze.

The warmth of his lips lingered on her skin, and before she could even process it, Arthur was already pulling away, clearing his throat as if nothing had happened.

“Right,” he said, voice a little rougher than before. “I’ll see you later.”

And with that, he turned, heading toward his tent to gather his things.

Jo stood there, feeling the heat creep up her neck and into her face. Slowly, almost instinctively, she raised a hand to her cheek, fingertips brushing the spot where he’d kissed her. Her skin burned, and her heart was hammering against her ribs.

Cheeky bastard. Doing that just before leaving.

She quickly glanced around, making sure no one had seen, before exhaling sharply and dropping her hand.

By the time Arthur was saddling up with Susan, Jo was composed again—mostly.

“Be careful,” she said, her voice casual, as if the past few minutes hadn’t happened.

Arthur paused, looking at her over his shoulder. A slow smirk tugged at the corner of his mouth.

“Careful, darlin’,” he drawled, eyes twinkling with mischief. “You almost look as if you care.”

Then, the bastard had the audacity to wink before kicking the reins forward, the cart leaving with Susan before Jo could come up with a good retort.

She huffed, shaking her head as she turned back toward camp, but she couldn’t stop the small, stupid smile that pulled at her lips.

With Arthur and Susan gone, camp slowly returned to a sense of normalcy. Well, as normal as things could be. People were still in good spirits after Jack’s return, the air lighter than it had been in days.

It was almost midday, the sun hanging high above the trees, casting dappled light over Shady Belle. Jo had just finished brushing Laramie and was about to find something to occupy herself with when she spotted Jack sitting alone near the steps of the house.

Abigail was off speaking with John—something that, given their history, was rare enough to make Jo pause. She figured it was best to leave them to it.

Jack sat on the concrete steps, idly tracing patterns in the dust with a stick, his small brows furrowed in concentration. He looked deep in thought, the kind of serious look only a child could wear, as if the weight of the world rested on his little shoulders.

Jo hesitated. She wasn’t always the best with kids, never quite knowing what to say or do. But Jack was different. He wasn’t just some kid—he was family, in a way.

She sighed and walked over, stepping lightly so as not to startle him. “What’s got you thinkin’ so hard, huh?”

Jack looked up, his face brightening when he saw her. “Auntie Jo!”

That alone made her heart soften. She sat down beside him, resting her arms on her knees. “So? What’s on your mind, kiddo?”

Jack hesitated, glancing down at the dusty lines he’d drawn. “Do you think Uncle Arthur will be okay?”

Jo wasn’t surprised by the question, but it still tugged at something deep inside her. Jack adored Arthur—looked up to him like a hero, like a father should be. And she knew what it felt like to be a child, scared of losing someone.

She reached out, ruffling his unruly hair. “’Course he will,” she said, keeping her voice steady. “Ain’t no one better in a fight than your Uncle Arthur. And Miss Grimshaw’s with him. You think anyone’s stupid enough to cross her?”

Jack giggled, shaking his head. “No way.”

“Exactly.” She smiled, nudging his shoulder. “They’ll be back before you know it.”

Jack seemed to accept that, but after a moment, his small fingers fidgeted with the hem of his shirt. “Mama was real scared when I was gone,” he admitted quietly.

Jo exhaled, her chest tightening at the memory of Abigail’s desperate, tear-streaked face. “Yeah… we all were.”

Jack looked at her then, eyes wide and sincere. “Were you scared too?”

Jo wasn’t one to talk about her feelings—least of all with a child. But lying to Jack felt wrong.

“Yeah, kid,” she admitted, keeping her voice gentle. “I was scared. We all love you, y’know? You’re part of this family.”

Jack beamed at that, the kind of pure, unfiltered joy only a child could have. He shifted closer and, without warning, threw his little arms around Jo in a tight hug.

She stiffened for just a second—affection wasn’t something she was used to—but slowly, she let herself relax, wrapping an arm around him in return.

“Love you, Auntie Jo,” he mumbled against her shoulder.

Something warm and unfamiliar bloomed in her chest, and before she could overthink it, she pressed a light kiss to the top of his head.

“Love ya too, kid.”

They stayed like that for a moment before Jack pulled back, smiling up at her. 

“You eaten yet?” she asked, tilting her head.

Jack hesitated, then shook his head.

Jo sighed, standing up and offering him her hand. “Come on, let’s fix that.”

Jack grinned, taking her hand without hesitation as they walked toward Pearson’s wagon.

As they passed through camp, Jo’s eyes flicked toward Abigail and John. They were still talking, voices low, and for once, there wasn’t any yelling. That had to be a good sign.

Maybe, just maybe, things were starting to look up.

 


 

Jo had stayed with Jack while he ate, keeping him company until Abigail came back to take over. With one last ruffle of Jack’s hair, she left them to it and headed toward the horses, figuring she might as well make herself useful.

As she went about feeding them, she realized she hadn’t seen Kieran since Jack’s party. That was odd—he rarely left camp, and when he did, it was never for long. She frowned, briefly considering asking someone if they’d seen him, but ultimately shrugged it off. Maybe he’d just been keeping to himself.

She didn’t dwell on it much longer, because the distant sound of wagon wheels crunching against the dirt caught her attention. Jo turned her head just as Arthur and Susan rolled back into camp, a familiar figure sitting behind them in the wagon.

Tilly.

Safe.

Jo let out a quiet breath of relief, watching as camp stirred to life around them, people rushing over to meet the returning party. She moved to join them, her eyes flicking first to Arthur, then to Tilly, trying to gauge how bad things had gotten.

As the wagon rolled to a stop, Susan climbed out first, muttering something under her breath about “damn sons of bitches” while Arthur stayed up front, watching as Tilly hopped down on her own.

The moment her boots hit the ground, she was met with an embrace from Mary-Beth, who had rushed over, eyes wide with worry.

“Tilly, are you alright?”

“I’m fine,” Tilly assured her, but there was a tightness in her voice, a flicker of something unsettled in her eyes. “Really, I am.”

Jo crossed her arms as she approached, glancing toward Arthur, who finally swung down from the wagon, rolling out his shoulders. His hat was pulled low, shadowing his face, but she still caught the way his jaw was set tight.

“Was it bad?” she asked, keeping her voice low.

Arthur exhaled through his nose. “They got what they deserved.”

Jo didn’t press further. That meant it had been bad. But Tilly was back, and that’s what mattered.

Behind them, Susan was still fuming, pacing near the wagon with her arms crossed. “I swear to God, if another damn rat from our past crawls outta the gutter lookin’ to cause trouble—”

“I can handle myself, Miss Grimshaw,” Tilly interrupted, straightening her back. “I’m not scared of them.”

Susan sighed heavily but didn’t argue. She just muttered something about keeping their eyes open before striding off, no doubt looking for something—or someone—to bark orders at.

Jo watched her go before shifting her focus back to Tilly. The younger woman’s usual fire was still there, but there was an edge to it now, something sharpened by whatever had happened out there.

Mary-Beth quickly led Tilly away, murmuring something about getting her cleaned up, leaving the rest of the camp to settle back into its usual rhythm. Jo turned back toward Arthur, arms still crossed, as he leaned lazily against the wagon, rolling himself a cigarette. His eyes flicked to hers, and there it was—that damn smirk of his.

“Don’t suppose you missed me, huh?” he teased.

Jo scoffed. “You was only gone half the damn day, cowboy.”

Arthur chuckled, shaking his head as he sealed his cigarette. “So that’s a no, then.”

Jo scoffed but didn't take the bait. Instead, she took a step closer, eyeing him up and down. He looked tired, a little rougher than when he left, but still standing. That was enough.

Arthur exhaled a slow stream of smoke, watching her through half-lidded eyes. "You keep lookin’ at me like that, Trouble, I'm gonna start thinkin’ you actually care."

Jo huffed, tilting her chin up. "Careful, Morgan, you almost sound like you want me to."

Arthur smirked, the cigarette hanging loosely from his lips. "Maybe I do."

That caught her off guard for half a second—just long enough for him to notice. And damn it all, he looked real pleased with himself about it.

Arthur shifted slightly, like he was debating something, then took a small step closer. His hand twitched at his side, as if he might reach for her—but before he could, a voice cut through the moment like a dull knife.

"How've you been, Arthur?"

Arthur's jaw clenched, and Jo nearly groaned out loud.

Had everyone made it their goddamn mission to interrupt them?

Arthur exhaled sharply, tilting his head back in exasperation before turning to face Reverend Swanson, who stood a few paces away, looking more sober than usual.

"Been fine," Arthur grumbled, rubbing a hand over his face. He shot Jo a glance, as if to say, Of course, right?

Jo just smirked, crossing her arms as she whispered. "Reckon you ain't got a moment's peace today."

Arthur sighed. "Ain't that the damn truth."

He took a reluctant step back, his fingers brushing against Jo’s for half a second before the moment slipped away entirely.

She felt the loss more than she cared to admit.

Jo turned away, deciding she’d leave Arthur to whatever conversation Swanson was about to drag him into. She had enough of people cutting in on whatever the hell this thing between her and Arthur was supposed to be. If she couldn’t get a moment alone with him, she might as well get back to doing something useful.

Arthur, however, didn’t seem quite as ready to move on.

As Swanson started rambling about whatever it was he needed to say, Arthur’s gaze trailed after Jo, watching the sway of her hips as she walked away. Not that he meant to stare—well, maybe a little. Damn woman had a way of making it real difficult not to.

"Arthur?" Swanson’s voice cut through his thoughts, and Arthur blinked, reluctantly dragging his eyes away from Jo and back to the Reverend.

"Huh? Yeah, yeah, I’m listenin’," Arthur muttered, though he sure as hell wasn’t.

Swanson squinted at him like he wasn’t convinced, but Arthur just sighed, rubbing his chin.

"I was sayin'," Reverend started over, "met a monk in Saint Denis the other day... kindly fellow took me back to my days in college."

"Is there any purpose to this conversation, Reverend?" Arthur asked, already eager to end it so he could do something else. Or rather, see someone else. A certain someone, perhaps, who happened to have long blonde hair, soft full lips and—oh, hell, he really shouldn't be thinkin’ about that now.

"Not really, but... he said the strangest things about all manner of bad things happening in town."

"Bad things happening in a city... who would have thought it possible?" Arthur said dryly.

"Yes. Well, maybe if you're there, you could have a chat with him. He's hanging outside about the marketplace, collecting alms for the poor."

"Sounds thrillin’," Arthur muttered with a sigh.

Now, where the hell had she gone to?

It didn't take long to spot her, already busy with something—as usual. She was by the hitching posts, checking over Laramie’s tack. The mare shifted beneath her hands but settled as Jo murmured something under her breath, running a palm down her sleek neck. Arthur took a moment, just watching her, the way the light caught in her hair, the way she bit her lip in concentration.

Swanson was still droning on about something, but Arthur had already stopped listening. With a dismissive grunt, he clapped the reverend on the shoulder—enough to make the man stumble slightly—and strode away before he could get roped into more pointless conversation.

Jo glanced up as he approached, her expression unreadable at first, but when she noticed it was him, her lips twitched, as if she were already preparing some sharp remark.

“Busy?” Arthur asked, leaning a little against one of the wooden posts, arms folded.

“Depends,” Jo answered, finishing up with Laramie’s saddle and stepping back to give the horse a once-over. “You here to distract me, or you actually got something useful to say?”

Arthur huffed a small laugh, shaking his head. “Depends on what you count as useful.” He let the words settle between them for a second, watching her reaction before continuing. “Was thinkin’ of headin’ into Saint Denis. Reverend says there’s some monk collectin’ alms in the market, talkin’ about bad things happenin’.”

Jo raised an eyebrow at him. “And you care about what some monk’s sayin’ because…?”

“I don’t,” Arthur admitted with a smirk. “But I figured if I gotta go listen to some preachin’, might as well have some decent company.”

Jo exhaled through her nose, a breath of something like amusement passing over her lips. “And you reckon I’m decent company?”

Arthur tilted his head, giving her a look. “I reckon you’re tolerable at best.”

Jo scoffed, shaking her head, but he caught the hint of a smile she was trying to hide. She turned slightly, adjusting her belt, like she was considering it.

“Fine,” she said eventually, feigning reluctance. “But if this monk starts tryin’ to convert me, I’m blaming you.” As she spoke, she reached out and tapped a finger against his chest for emphasis. But before she could pull away, Arthur caught her hand in his, his grip warm and steady.

“Wouldn’t have it any other way, Trouble,” he murmured, bringing her hand up to his lips and pressing a slow, teasing kiss to her knuckles.

Jo felt a sudden heat rush up her neck, but she scoffed, yanking her hand back with an exaggerated roll of her eyes—more to hide the way her heart had just skipped a damn beat than anything else.

That cheeky bastard.

Arthur grinned, stepping back as she grabbed her hat and settled it on her head.

And with that, they saddled up, riding off toward Saint Denis, finally alone—or at least, as alone as two outlaws could be in a city teeming with trouble.

Chapter 19: City of Saints and Sinners

Summary:

Jo and Arthur helps a brother in need.

Chapter Text

Saint Denis unfolded before them like a living, breathing thing—loud, busy, and stifling with the heat rising off the cobblestone streets. The rhythmic clatter of carriage wheels mixed with the distant shrill of a steamboat horn, while street vendors hollered their wares to passersby. The city had its own pulse, one that neither Jo nor Arthur particularly cared for, but they had business here, so they pressed on.

Brother Dorkins wasn’t hard to find. The monk was standing near the marketplace, speaking to a small gathering of people, his voice calm and even despite the chaos of the city around him. He recognized them before they even had the chance to speak, smiling warmly as they approached.

"Ah, you must be Arthur," he said. "And you, Miss…?"

"Jo’s fine," she replied, glancing briefly at Arthur. He was already shifting impatiently beside her, clearly not interested in pleasantries.

Brother Dorkins didn’t seem to mind. "I appreciate you both coming. There is… a troubling matter I was hoping you could look into."

He explained, in that same gentle but insistent tone, that there was a French pawnbroker running a shop in town. The man had a reputation for shady dealings, but more concerning were the whispers of something far worse—human trafficking. Slavery.

Arthur had scoffed at that, shaking his head. "Slavery? It’s 1899, brother."

"Indeed," Brother Dorkins said, "which makes it all the more disgraceful that it still lingers in the shadows."

Neither Jo nor Arthur had put much stock in the claim at first. It sounded like nonsense, the kind of thing that belonged to an uglier past, not the present day. But the monk seemed convinced, and that was enough to get them moving.

The pawnbroker’s shop was nestled between two other businesses, its windows dirty, its wooden sign barely legible from years of wear. Inside, the air was thick with dust and the stale scent of old things—books, trinkets, stolen jewelry, all piled onto shelves in careless disarray. The pawnbroker himself was a wiry man with slicked-back hair and sharp, watchful eyes. He put on a smile when they walked in, but it never quite reached his face.

Arthur played it cool, asking about a valuable watch, but Jo could see the tension in his shoulders, the way he was already itching to be done with this. She took the chance to slip toward the back of the shop, past a curtain that separated the storefront from whatever was hidden behind.

It didn’t take long to find it.

A locked door behind a bookshelf. A few harsh words and a quick threat from Arthur, and the pawnbroker caved, stammering excuses as he fumbled for the key. When they descended into the basement, the stench of mildew hit them first. Then they saw the chains.

Two men, bound and shackled, barely more than skin and bone. Their eyes were wide with fear as Jo and Arthur stepped closer, the reality of it settling like a heavy stone in Jo’s stomach.

She’d seen a lot of things in her life, but this… this was something else.

Arthur crouched down, voice low as he spoke to them. "We’re gettin’ you out of here."

And they did. The pawnbroker could shout all the excuses he wanted—claim he wasn’t responsible, that he was just doing what he was paid to do—but Arthur had made sure the bastard wouldn’t be running his business anymore.

When they emerged from the basement, Brother Dorkins was waiting outside. He looked heartbroken at the sight of the two men, murmuring soft reassurances as he led them away. Before he left, he turned back to Arthur and Jo.

"You have done a great kindness today," he said. "If ever you find yourself in need of peace, our church is always open to you. The old church on Gaspar Street in St. Frances."

Arthur gave a noncommittal nod, and Jo just let out a breath.

Neither of them had much interest in religion, but they had done what they came to do. And after that?

They walked in silence for a while, the weight of what they’d just seen clinging to them. It was strange—Jo had seen plenty of cruelty in her life, had done her fair share of wrong, but there was something about seeing men locked in chains like that… it made her stomach churn.

Maybe that was why, when they passed by a saloon, she suddenly veered toward the door.

Arthur raised an eyebrow. "What, you thirsty?"

Jo shot him a look. "After all that? You’re damn right I am."

Arthur huffed a laugh, shaking his head as he followed her inside.

 


 

The saloon was dimly lit, filled with the hum of conversation and the clinking of glasses. The bartender gave them a once-over as they approached the counter, but said nothing as Arthur tossed a few coins down.

"Two beers," he said, voice gruff.

A minute later, Jo was wrapping her fingers around a cold bottle, tipping it back for a long drink. The bitterness was welcome, grounding her in a way that words couldn’t.

Arthur leaned against the counter beside her, his own bottle half-raised, but he was watching her instead of drinking. "Y’know," he mused, "for someone who don’t like sittin’ around saloons, you sure do know when to pick a drink."

Jo snorted. "Just means I got good instincts."

Arthur smirked, finally taking a sip of his beer. They stood there for a while, the silence between them no longer heavy, just… easy. It was always like that with him. She never felt like she had to fill the quiet, never had to pretend to be anything she wasn’t.

After a while, she tilted her head toward him. "So, you still wanna check out that church? See what the fuss is all about?"

Arthur glanced at her, then sighed. "Guess we might as well. Ain’t got much else planned."

Jo smirked. "Look at you, all eager for a spiritual awakening."

Arthur scoffed. "Don’t push your luck."

She laughed, tossing back the rest of her beer before setting the empty bottle down on the counter. "Come on then, let’s go find our holy enlightenment or whatever."

Arthur chuckled, finishing his drink and tossing the bartender another coin before following her out the door.

 


 

The old church sat at the far end of the street, tucked away behind a few crumbling brick buildings. The structure itself had seen better days—the white paint that once covered the wooden walls was peeling, faded to a dull gray in places where the elements had worn it down. The steeple leaned slightly to one side, and the bell hanging in the tower looked rusted, as if it hadn’t been rung in years. The place had a quiet, humble charm, but it was clear money was tight.

As Arthur and Jo approached, they spotted Brother Dorkins seated on a weathered bench near the front steps, a book open in his lap. A few feet away, a nun knelt beside three young boys, guiding them through the words in a small, tattered book. One of the boys—scrawny, with a mess of dark curls—seemed to struggle, his finger trailing over the page slowly, his lips moving as he tried to sound out each word. The other two boys sat quietly, waiting their turn, while the nun offered patient encouragement.

Brother Dorkins must have caught sight of them first, as he suddenly shut his book and stood, calling out toward the nun.

“Sister! My friends, Mr. Morgan and Jo,” he announced with enthusiasm.

The nun looked up, her eyes lighting up as she stood and dusted off her habit. She approached them quickly, a warm smile spreading across her face.

“Oh, sir, miss,” she greeted, shaking Arthur’s hand first, then Jo’s. “Brother Dorkins told me about the wonderful things you did.”

Arthur huffed, shifting his weight as he muttered, “Oh, he talks a lot of nonsense.”

Jo couldn’t quite tell if he was being sarcastic or if he genuinely meant it, but either way, she reached out and gave his arm a light tap in chastisement. He shot her a sidelong look, half amused, half exasperated, before adding, “No offense.”

“None taken. None taken at all,” Brother Dorkins reassured, his smile unwavering.

As they exchanged pleasantries, Jo caught a flicker of movement out of the corner of her eye. One of the boys, the same one who had been struggling with his reading, had edged away from the group. His eyes darted between the adults, his fingers twitching at his sides, as if debating something. That was when Jo noticed the small wooden crucifix lying on the steps beside the nun’s book.

Before she could say anything, the boy snatched it up and took off down the street.

Brother Dorkins reacted instantly, raising a hand as he called after him. “Hey, stop!”

The boy didn’t even hesitate. Barefoot and nimble, he dashed through the street, weaving between passersby with practiced ease.

“These kids,” Arthur muttered under his breath, already moving. “They’re the worst.”

Jo was already a step ahead of him, her boots kicking up dust as she took off after the boy.

From behind, they heard the Sister’s panicked voice. “Don’t hurt him, please!”

Jo barely registered it as she ran. The kid was fast—too fast for his size—but she wasn’t about to let him slip away.

Arthur, a few paces behind her, let out a grunt as he picked up the pace. “We go to help the church, and now we’re chasin’ down thieves? What kinda twisted sense does that make?”

Jo only smirked, dodging around a startled pedestrian as they pursued their target. “Guess you’ll have to take it up with the Lord, cowboy.”

Arthur huffed, shaking his head as they kept running, weaving through the bustling streets of Saint Denis in pursuit of the runaway thief.

They rounded a corner sharply, their boots skidding slightly on the uneven stone street as they caught sight of a commotion just ahead.

"You little bastards—!"

A man had the boy by the collar of his shirt, shaking him roughly. The kid thrashed, trying to wriggle free, but the man's grip was firm. He looked to be in his forties, with a thick mustache and the kind of sun-weathered face that spoke of years working outdoors. His brown coat was a little too nice for a common laborer, but not fine enough for a wealthy gentleman—someone caught in the middle, probably a merchant or a foreman.

"Get off me!" the boy yelped, kicking at the man’s shin.

"Where's my watch, you little weasel?" the man barked, his fingers tightening around the boy’s collar.

Jo slowed from a run to a brisk walk, her breath steadying as she closed the distance between them. The boy struggled, his arms flailing as he protested.

"I don’t know nothin’ about no damn watch!"

"Last Saturday, I saw you steal—"

"Hey!" Jo’s sharp voice cut through the air, drawing the man’s attention as she stepped closer. "Leave the boy alone."

The man barely spared her a glance before sneering. "Stay out of this, woman."

Arthur was beside her in an instant, his imposing frame casting a long shadow over the man. His blue eyes flicked over him with a lazy sort of menace, one that promised trouble if pushed.

"Careful," Arthur warned, his voice calm but edged with steel.

The man scoffed but loosened his grip slightly. "What’s it to do with you?"

As he spoke, the boy twisted just enough for the crucifix to slip from his grip, the small wooden piece clattering to the ground between them.

Arthur barely spared it a glance, keeping his gaze locked on the man. His voice dropped lower, quieter, but no less threatening.

"I can hit a lot harder than you. I promise you that."

The man hesitated, swallowing hard as he finally seemed to reconsider his options. He wasn’t small, but he was no fool either—Arthur looked like the kind of man who had been in his fair share of fights and walked away from all of them.

"Alright, forget it," the man muttered, releasing the kid’s collar with a shove. "Little shit ain’t even worth my time."

With that, he turned and stomped off, muttering curses under his breath.

The boy, freed from the man’s grasp, wasted no time. He shot Arthur and Jo a quick, breathless "Thanks!" before scrambling away, disappearing into the winding streets of Saint Denis.

Jo sighed, watching him go before crouching down to pick up the fallen crucifix. She dusted it off gently with her fingers before handing it to Arthur.

"Here," she said, placing it in his palm.

Arthur barely noticed as their fingers brushed when Jo placed the crucifix in his palm—or at least, that’s what he told himself. In truth, it was like a spark shot straight through him, quick and unexpected. It was barely anything—just a light, fleeting touch—but for a second, he was aware of the warmth of her skin, the softness of her fingers against his rough, calloused ones.

He shouldn’t be thinking about it.

Shouldn’t be noticing.

And yet, he lingered, just for a second too long, before slipping the small wooden cross into his satchel. He cleared his throat, hoping Jo hadn’t caught on to the momentary lapse in his composure.

"We should bring it back to ‘em," Jo said, exhaling as she glanced at him.

Arthur gave a small nod, keeping his response short. "Yeah."

He set off at an easy stride, hoping that walking would clear his damn head. Jo fell into step beside him, unaware of the effect she had on him—or if she was, she didn’t let it show. Arthur kept his gaze ahead, trying to focus on the streets of Saint Denis instead of the lingering warmth in his palm. The city was still lively despite the late afternoon sun dipping lower, the streets humming with the chatter of people, the clatter of carriages, and the occasional shouts of vendors.

Then, a voice called out from the side of the road.

"Hey, you want some company, mister?"

The sultry tone was unmistakably directed at Arthur. He didn’t even slow down, let alone turn his head. His answer was immediate, gruff, and dismissive.

"No."

Jo smirked a little, amused at how little effort he put into rejection.

But the woman was persistent. "You sure?"

Jo suddenly had the distinct and unpleasant impression of being invisible, as if she weren’t standing right beside Arthur. She had half a mind to make herself known, stepping slightly away from Arthur with a pointed look.

"Hey," she started, a sharp edge creeping into her voice, but then—she got a good look at the woman.

The familiarity hit her all at once.

She knew this woman.

The cheap dress, the tired eyes, the face too worn for someone her age—it all clicked together in an instant.

"I know you…" Jo muttered, eyes narrowing. She had seen this woman before, not in the city, but somewhere else entirely.

Then it hit her like a brick to the chest.

"Mrs. Downes?"

The name left her lips before she could even think, her voice betraying her shock.

Arthur, who had been only half-paying attention, came to an abrupt halt. He turned his head slightly, looking from Jo to the woman with vague curiosity. He didn’t recognize her. Not in the slightest.

But Mrs. Downes?

The moment she heard her name, she paled.

"Oh, no," she whispered, her eyes darting around like a trapped animal. "Not you."

She took a shaky step backward, panic settling over her features. "Get away."

"How—? I mean—" Jo started, just as lost as Mrs. Downes was. Her mind scrambled to make sense of what she was seeing.

What the hell was she doing here?

Why was she—?

Before Jo could say another word, Mrs. Downes turned sharply and raised her voice.

"Help! They’re bothering me!"

Jo barely had time to react before the woman’s panicked cries cut through the busy street. A policeman passing nearby turned his head at once.

"Someone help me!"

Arthur saw where this was heading immediately, and he didn’t wait for the law to start asking questions.

"Shit," he muttered, then grabbed Jo’s hand without hesitation.

She barely had time to react before he was pulling her forward, leading her straight into an alleyway. They moved fast, Arthur weaving through crates and barrels, Jo keeping up with quick, practiced steps.

Behind them, the policeman shouted. "Hey! Stop right there!"

Neither of them had any intention of stopping.

They scrambled through the narrow passage, emerging into the bustling marketplace. People barely had time to react as the two of them pushed past carts and vendors, dodging through the crowd. A man yelled as Arthur knocked over a basket of fruit, oranges rolling across the cobblestone.

Jo risked a glance over her shoulder.

The lawman was still on their tail, pushing through the crowded street after them.

"Come on," Arthur urged, leading her across the road, narrowly avoiding a horse-drawn carriage. The driver shouted something colorful after them, but neither Jo nor Arthur paid it any mind as they ducked into another alleyway.

Jo huffed, a mix of breathless adrenaline and exasperation. "You got a plan, cowboy?"

"Workin’ on it," Arthur gritted out, his grip on her hand firm as they kept running.

The narrow alleyways of Saint Denis twisted around them like a labyrinth. Every turn they took seemed to lead them back to where they started, the gas lamps flickering against the brick walls, the sound of boots echoing against the cobblestones. The law was still searching for them, but running in circles wouldn’t do them any good. They had to stop, to lay low.

Arthur came to a sharp halt in the shadow of a darkened alleyway, his grip tightening around Jo’s wrist as he pulled her with him.

She barely had time to register what was happening before her back hit the wall, the cold stone seeping through her shirt. Arthur was right in front of her, his body shielding hers, arms braced against the wall on either side of her head.

They were both panting from all that running, their breath mingling in the narrow space between them.

Jo looked up at him, her chest rising and falling, and realized just how close he was.

Arthur’s gaze flickered across her face, taking in every detail—the flushed heat on her cheeks, the wild strands of hair escaping from beneath her hat, the way her lips were slightly parted as she caught her breath. His eyes lingered there for just a second too long before meeting hers again.

And Jo?

She stared into his eyes, those impossibly deep blues she could get lost in for hours.

Her heart pounded, but she wasn’t sure if it was from the chase or from the way he was looking at her now, as if she were the only thing in the world worth looking at.

Then, a smirk tugged at the corner of her lips.

“Feels like a déjà vu.”

Arthur blinked, then let out a low, breathy chuckle, a little rough, a little embarrassed—but there was something else there too. Amusement. Maybe even something dangerously close to fondness.

He shook his head slightly, a smirk of his own forming, as he recalled that night near Van Horn—their little scuffle, how he had cornered her against a wall to keep them hidden from prying eyes.

“You ain’t wrong,” he muttered, voice dipping into something warm and teasing.

For a moment, neither of them moved.

But then, the sound of voices nearby reminded them why they were there.

Arthur finally stepped back, clearing his throat, rubbing the back of his neck as if shaking off whatever had just passed between them. He almost looked sorry for it. Almost.

Jo didn’t say anything, just gave him that knowing little smirk before pushing off the wall.

The moment had passed, but it still lingered between them as they started making their way back toward the church.

The streets of Saint Denis were still alive with people despite the approaching evening. The scent of tobacco and liquor mixed with the distant hum of music from saloons. As they walked, Jo suddenly reached out, her fingers brushing against Arthur’s before curling around his hand.

Arthur glanced down at their joined hands, surprised by the sudden contact, then turned his head toward her.

Jo said nothing.

She wasn’t even looking at him. Her eyes stayed fixed on the street ahead, as if she hadn’t just done something so bold.

But there was a small smile on her lips.

Arthur didn’t let go.

He relished in the feeling of her hand in his—small but strong, warm against his calloused palm. He held onto it, not gripping, just… holding. Like it was the most natural thing in the world.

They walked like that for a while, the silence between them comfortable.

Then, Arthur broke it.

“How’d you know that woman?”

Jo’s smile faded slightly, replaced by something more solemn. She sighed through her nose, her grip on his hand tightening ever so slightly.

“Strauss sent me after her husband a while ago,” she admitted, voice quieter than before. “To collect a debt.”

Arthur didn’t say anything, just listened.

“He was already dead by the time I got there,” she continued. “Found her and her boy instead.”

Arthur frowned. He didn’t remember much about the Downes family, just that they had both been sent to their ranch, after the bank robbery in Valentine, and it had turned sour with the bounty hunters chasing after them. He was usually too busy with other jobs to pay attention to who Strauss was sending where.

“I hated every second of it,” Jo muttered, and Arthur felt her fingers tense slightly in his. “Threatenin’ people who got nothin’. Takin’ from folks who barely got scraps to eat… It’s horrible.”

Arthur looked at her then, really looked at her.

She wasn’t just saying that to sound good.

She meant it.

The weight of it settled in his chest.

After a long moment, he gave her hand a gentle squeeze.

Jo finally glanced at him, her expression softer now, something unspoken passing between them.

Arthur didn’t have to say anything.

She already knew he understood.

Jo felt the warmth of Arthur’s hand still lingering in hers even as they walked in silence. It was a simple thing, really, holding hands. But it was the kind of thing they didn’t do. Not normally. Not when they spent so much time pretending things were simple between them when they weren’t.

Arthur had never been the type for small affections, and neither had Jo. Not in front of people. Not even in private, really.

But right now?

She liked it. Liked the way his thumb rested against the side of her palm, liked the way his grip wasn’t too tight or too loose, just steady. Just there.

Arthur’s fingers curled slightly, like he was debating something in his head.

Jo hummed, amused, squeezing his hand just briefly before relaxing her grip again.

Arthur didn’t let go.

She should’ve pulled away. She knew that.

Instead, she let her fingers rest against his palm a little longer, let herself enjoy this small moment—one of the few they had where it didn’t feel like the weight of everything around them was pressing down on their shoulders.

But eventually, as the church came into view, she let go.

Arthur hesitated for half a second before his hand fell away too.

They both straightened up, suddenly all business again, but Jo didn’t miss the flicker of something across Arthur’s face—a slight reluctance, maybe. Or maybe she was just imagining things.

Ahead of them, Sister Calderón was deep in conversation with a priest when she noticed them approaching. Her face immediately brightened.

“Mr. Morgan! Miss Jo!”

Both Arthur and Jo tensed slightly, still standing just a little too close together after having let go of each other’s hand.

Jo tucked her hands behind her back as Arthur cleared his throat, both of them a little embarrassed, though they wouldn’t admit it.

Sister Calderón’s smile deepened with something knowing.

Arthur reached into his satchel, pulling out the crucifix. “Sister, we got your cross.”

The old woman gasped, touching her hand to her chest before gently taking it from him.

“You didn’t!”

Arthur gave a dismissive shake of his head. “No, we did.”

The sister held the cross delicately in her wrinkled hand, looking at it like it was the most precious thing in the world.

“I hope the boy…” she began, voice laced with concern.

“The boy’s fine,” Jo reassured her with a soft smile.

Arthur, never one to leave things too sentimental, shrugged. “Physically, yeah. But mentally? He’s a piece of work. But hell, who am I to say?”

Jo chuckled beside him, shaking her head.

Sister Calderón looked between the two of them, the fondness in her eyes unmistakable.

“Brother Dorkins was right about you both,” she said, smiling warmly. “You are the most wonderful couple.”

Jo stiffened. Arthur’s entire frame went rigid beside her.

At the same time, they both blurted out, “No, we ain’t—”

Jo’s face burned with embarrassment, and Arthur looked downright uncomfortable, shifting on his feet like he wanted to escape.

Which was true. They weren’t a couple. Not really.

Sister Calderón merely chuckled, undeterred by their protests, and pulled Jo into a warm hug. Jo, still flustered, hesitated before returning it.

Then the sister turned to Arthur.

Arthur Morgan was not a man accustomed to being hugged, especially not by nuns.

He stood stiffly as Sister Calderón wrapped her arms around him, his arms hovering awkwardly at his sides, clearly unsure of what to do.

She pulled back, smiling knowingly as she winked at them both. “I see good things in your future.”

Arthur looked like he had no idea how to respond to that, so he simply muttered, “Uh… right. Thanks, Sister.”

The old nun laughed before gently running her fingers over the crucifix again.

“My mother gave this to me, just before she passed,” she explained, her voice softer now. “It means the world to me.”

Arthur and Jo both nodded in understanding.

“Thank you, truly,” she added, sincerity thick in her voice.

They wished her well before stepping away from the church, heading back toward the streets of Saint Denis.

The moment they were out of earshot, Jo glanced at Arthur, teasing glint in her eyes.

“The most wonderful couple, huh?”

Arthur groaned. “Don’t start.”

Jo just laughed, her hand brushing against his again—just for a moment.

As they stepped out into the street, Jo let out a sharp whistle, followed by Arthur’s lower, drawn-out call. Within moments, the familiar sound of hooves against cobblestone reached them.

Laramie arrived first, the sleek Arabian mare weaving through the crowd with an air of practiced ease, ears flicking forward the moment she spotted Jo. Not far behind, Altas emerged from between two carriages, his heavier steps distinct against the city’s din.

Jo ran a hand along Laramie’s neck, murmuring something under her breath as she prepared to mount up. But just as she reached for the saddle, she felt Arthur’s hands on her waist. His hands were warm and steady as they found her waist, his grip firm but careful.

Before Jo could react, he lifted her effortlessly onto Laramie’s back, his touch lingering for just a second longer than necessary before he stepped back.

The gesture took her by surprise—not because it was gallant, but because it was him. Arthur, who was so often gruff and unbothered, who rarely extended himself in ways that could be seen as soft, was now standing there rubbing the back of his neck, his face half-hidden by the brim of his hat.

If she hadn’t known better, she’d swear he was blushing.

Jo blinked down at him, her fingers grazing the saddle horn as she processed what had just happened. Then, slowly, a smile pulled at her lips.

Laramie shifted beneath her, tossing her head as if amused by the pause.

Jo didn’t let the moment pass.

Leaning slightly in the saddle, she reached down, hooking two fingers under the brim of his hat and tilting it up just enough to see him clearly.

Arthur’s blue eyes flickered up to meet hers, wary but undeniably soft.

For a moment, they just stared at each other.

Then, before she could talk herself out of it, Jo leaned forward, closing the space between them.

The kiss was barely a breath—a fleeting press of her lips against his cheek, warm and deliberate. His stubble was rough against her skin, the scent of tobacco and leather filling her senses.

She felt him still beneath her touch.

And for a split second, she almost thought he might turn his head—

But she didn’t wait to find out.

Before anything else could happen, Jo straightened, nudging Laramie forward into a slow trot. The mare moved as if smug, her ears flicking back as though she, too, understood exactly what her rider had done.

Arthur didn’t move at first.

He stood there, rooted to the spot, blinking after her with a look of almost-boyish bewilderment, his fingers flexing slightly at his sides.

Then, shaking his head to himself, he mounted Altas in one smooth motion, catching up to ride alongside her.

As he caught up, falling into stride beside her, Jo didn’t look at him—not directly. But there was something unmistakable in the way her lips stayed slightly curled, in the way she sat a little taller in the saddle.

Neither of them spoke.

But something hung in the air between them—something unspoken, something that had always been there, lurking beneath their teasing and bickering and stolen glances.

Jo kept her eyes on the road ahead, but the small smile on her lips never faded.

Arthur exhaled through his nose, adjusting his hat even though she’d already set it right.

This wasn’t the first time they’d toed this line.

And somehow, he had a feeling it wouldn’t be the last.

Chapter 20: No More Pretending

Summary:

The Mayor's Party in Saint Denis.

Notes:

Hey everyone! I just wanted to say a huge thank you for all your support and enthusiasm—it truly means the world to me. Going forward, I’m going to try to stick to a posting schedule of every three days, so you won’t have to wait too long for the next chapter! Of course, life happens, but I’ll do my best to keep things consistent.

Hope you enjoy the chapter, and as always, I love hearing your thoughts! 😊

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The morning had settled into a slow, sticky rhythm, the kind that only the swamps of Lemoyne could provide. Even in the early hours, the air was thick, clinging to the skin with a damp warmth that promised another sweltering day ahead. A thin mist still curled along the edges of the trees, lingering over the murky waters beyond camp, but the sun had already begun its steady ascent, burning it away inch by inch.

Jo was minding her own business, sitting near the dying embers of last night’s fire, a tin cup of coffee cradled in her hands. It wasn’t the best brew she’d ever had—probably had been sitting over the flames too long—but it was coffee, and that was enough.

Earlier, she had caught sight of Arthur and Hosea talking a little ways off, their conversation low but weighted. Dutch had joined them a few minutes later, his usual air of importance surrounding him like an invisible mantle. Whatever they were discussing, it hadn’t been anything thrilling—at least, not for Arthur. The look on his face when Dutch spoke had been one of reluctant understanding, maybe even quiet frustration. But who was she to judge?

She didn’t dwell on it too long, returning her focus to her coffee, swirling the last bit at the bottom of the cup when a shadow fell over her.

Jo lifted her gaze, arching a brow as Arthur stood before her, arms crossed, looking like he was about to ask her for a kidney.

“I need to ask ya a favor,” he said, his voice that familiar gravelly drawl.

Jo took a slow sip, dragging it out before finally answering, “Well, now. Ain’t that somethin’.” She set her cup down and placed a hand over her heart, dramatically batting her lashes. Then, in a gruff, exaggerated impression of him, she said, “Mornin’, Jo. How are ya this fine day, Jo? Hope ya slept well, Jo.”

Arthur rolled his eyes, though the corner of his mouth twitched in amusement. “Alright, alright. Mornin’, Jo,” he said, voice dripping with exaggerated politeness. “How are ya this fine day, Jo? Hope ya slept well, Jo.”

Jo smirked, satisfied, and leaned back in her chair. “See? Wasn’t so hard, was it?”

Arthur let out a soft huff, shaking his head before getting back to business. “Look, there’s some fancy party in Saint Denis tonight. At the mayor’s house.”

Jo narrowed her eyes, already feeling where this was going.

“Bronte’s gonna be there,” he continued, “and Dutch wants me there. And…” He shifted his weight slightly, rubbing at the back of his neck. “I want ya there with me.”

Jo snorted, shaking her head before he could even finish. “Me? In a dress?” She chuckled, setting her cup down beside her. “Ain’t happenin’.”

Arthur pressed his lips together, like he expected that answer but wasn’t gonna accept it.

“C’mon,” he drawled, leaning his weight against the back of the chair beside her. “I ain’t sure I can survive this night without ya by my side, Trouble.”

Jo gave him a look, unconvinced. “You? Not survivin’ a party? What, too many folks with manners? Too much polite conversation?”

Arthur sighed, tilting his head slightly. “Somethin’ like that.”

Jo shook her head, amused. She could tell he was trying to make this sound casual, but there was something else there—something in the way he asked her, in the way his eyes lingered just a little longer than usual.

She exhaled, rubbing at her jaw in thought. “I ain’t promisin’ I won’t start some trouble,” she warned, giving him a side glance.

Arthur smirked. “Wouldn’t have asked ya if I thought otherwise.”

Jo huffed a soft laugh, tilting her head back toward the sky as if already regretting her decision. “Alright, fine,” she muttered. “But you owe me for this.”

Arthur chuckled, pushing off the chair and stretching his arms behind his head. “Guess I better find a way to repay ya then.”

Jo scoffed, shaking her head, knowing full well this was gonna be a night to remember.

 


 

The afternoon in Saint Denis was a restless one, the city alive with its usual bustle, but for once, the Van der Linde men weren’t moving through it like outlaws. No, today they were playing the part of high society—or at least trying to.

Dutch, Hosea, Bill and Arthur had spent the better part of the day preparing for the mayor’s gala, their usual rugged appearances exchanged for something far more polished. The tailors in town had their hands full, fitting tuxedos, adjusting lapels, and ensuring their clients looked presentable enough to mingle among the wealthy. Afterward came haircuts, beards trimmed or shaved entirely, followed by long-overdue baths.

Arthur, against his usual preference for a bit of scruff, had shaved, leaving only a faint shadow of stubble. He hadn't been clean-shaven in a long while, and it felt strange, but if he had to wear a damn tuxedo, he might as well go all the way.

Meanwhile, Jo was privately regretting ever agreeing to Arthur’s request. She wasn’t one for fancy parties, much less dressing up for them. But she had given her word, and so, she found herself standing in front of a mirror, slipping into a dress that felt entirely too elegant for someone like her. She had washed up, her skin free of the usual dust and sweat of camp life, and her hair was carefully done—more effort than she had put into it in years.

By the time the sun had begun to set, casting golden light over the city, they were all ready. One by one, they arrived in front of the mayor’s grand estate, where the evening’s festivities would soon begin. The air was thick with the scent of expensive perfume, cigar smoke, and freshly cut grass, the sounds of music and conversation already drifting from within.

The rhythmic click of Jo’s heels against the concrete signaled her arrival before she even spoke. The men—Dutch, Hosea, Bill, and Arthur—stood in front of the mayor’s grand estate, their conversation halting as they turned one by one. First Dutch, his sharp eyes widening ever so slightly in pleasant surprise. Then Hosea, who raised his brows and let out an approving chuckle. Bill, for once, was at a loss for words, blinking as if he wasn’t sure this was the same Jo he was used to seeing in trousers and a gun belt.

And then, finally, Arthur turned.

The moment he laid eyes on her, he forgot how to breathe.

Jo was radiant. Resplendent. She moved with an elegance he’d never quite seen before, wrapped in a soft blue gown that fit her like a second skin, hugging her curves in all the right places. The neckline, cut just low enough to tease, offered the barest hint of her chest, enough to steal his thoughts clean away. Her golden hair was pinned atop her head, a few loose curls framing her face, accentuating the delicate slope of her neck and shoulders. Dangling earrings shimmered under the streetlamps, drawing his gaze as she approached with a soft smile.

Her eyes immediately found Arthur, dressed impeccably in a suit that hugged his broad shoulders and lean physique. The dark fabric of the tuxedo contrasted sharply against his sun-kissed skin, highlighting the powerful lines of his frame. It was a striking departure from his usual worn cowboy attire, but it suited him in a way she hadn’t anticipated. The usual roughness that defined his look—the rugged hat, the boots caked in dust, the well-worn leather—was absent, and in their place, a polished yet still undeniably masculine presence stood before her.

She swallowed, her heart giving a strange, unexpected jolt as she took in how handsome he looked. His jaw was sharp and strong, his eyes just as intense as ever, but there was something about the suit that made him appear... different. He wasn’t just Arthur anymore, the wild cowboy she knew. No, in that moment, he had an almost magnetic allure, a quiet confidence she hadn’t seen before.

“Gentlemen,” she greeted smoothly, her voice carrying a warmth that made them all stand a little straighter.

Dutch was the first to recover, letting out a low whistle. “Well, now, I do believe Saint Denis has gained itself a true diamond this evening.”

Hosea, ever the gentleman, dipped his head. “I’d say we should be honored to have such fine company tonight.”

Even Bill, still looking dumbstruck, muttered, “Damn,” under his breath, though he quickly cleared his throat and looked away as if embarrassed.

The men turned toward the gate, moving ahead toward the entrance, leaving Arthur standing in front of Jo. He was still at a loss for words, his throat suddenly dry, his hands twitching at his sides as if unsure what to do with them.

She tilted her head slightly, amusement dancing in her eyes.

“Arthur?”

He blinked, finally snapping out of it. Clearing his throat, he shifted on his feet before managing, “Uh—You look... You’re beautiful, Jo.” His voice came out quieter than he intended, rough around the edges.

A smirk tugged at the corner of her lips. “You ain’t so bad yourself,” she replied, eyes sweeping over him in his tuxedo before reaching out, her fingers brushing along his clean-shaven jaw. “Miss the stubble, though.”

Arthur barely had time to react before she was stepping past him, joining the others.

He exhaled sharply, as if releasing the breath he’d been holding since the moment he saw her, and ran a hand over his face before trailing after her, suddenly grateful for the cool night air.

Dutch stepped forward, ever the picture of charm, and handed over the invitation with a smooth smile. The man at the gate examined it briefly before nodding in approval.

Dutch took a step forward, but the doorman lifted a hand to stop them.

"I'm afraid the mayor does not allow guns at official functions after last year's incident," the man explained, his tone polite but firm.

Dutch let out a short chuckle, shaking his head as if the very idea amused him. He reached into his coat and pulled out his sidearm, placing it into the offered chest.

Hosea followed suit, slipping his gun from its holster and setting it down with a small sigh. Bill grumbled under his breath but did as he was told.

Arthur, however, hesitated. His fingers tightened around his gun for a moment before finally—reluctantly—placing it in the chest with a heavy thud.

They all stepped forward, only for the doorman to halt them again.

"You too, miss," he said, turning his expectant gaze on Jo.

The men, already a few steps ahead, turned back around at once. Dutch raised an eyebrow, Bill smirked slightly, and Arthur narrowed his eyes at the doorman.

Jo stared at the man with a look that could’ve burned a hole straight through his skull.

But she conceded, bending slightly and hiking the skirt of her dress up to her knee, revealing the revolver strapped to her calf.

The moment the hem of her dress lifted, the men promptly averted their eyes, looking anywhere but at her exposed leg. Even Bill had the decency to clear his throat and glance away.

The doorman, however, didn’t even blink.

Jo pulled the revolver from the strap and dropped it loudly into the chest, stepping forward once again.

But just as she did, the man lifted a hand to stop her once more.

Arthur took an instinctive step forward, his jaw tightening, ready to put an end to this nonsense. But before he could do anything, he felt a firm grip on his arm.

Hosea.

Arthur glanced at him, but the older man merely gave him a small, knowing shake of the head. He’d known Arthur long enough to predict exactly how he was going to react.

Meanwhile, the doorman raised an eyebrow at Jo, clearly unconvinced.

Jo’s deadpan expression only deepened.

She huffed a sharp breath through her nose, clearly fed up, before bending once again—this time with zero care for modesty—and hiking up her skirt higher to retrieve yet another revolver from her other calf, followed by a large knife.

The doorman let out a low whistle but said nothing as she deposited them into the chest with a loud clatter.

Only when she was finally unarmed did he grin and gesture them forward.

"Luca here will take you to Mr. Bronte," he announced, stepping aside. “I believe he is expecting you.”

Jo shot him one last glare before stepping past him, her irritation still simmering beneath her composed exterior.

Arthur trailed behind, shaking his head slightly, a smirk tugging at the corner of his lips despite himself.

As they stepped forward, Luca fell into idle chatter with Dutch, who walked ahead with an air of ease, engaging in the conversation with his usual charm. Hosea and Bill followed closely behind, their expressions more guarded but not unwelcoming.

Jo and Arthur, however, lingered a little behind, their pace slower as they ascended the stone steps leading up to the grand entrance.

Arthur, glancing sideways at Jo, smirked. "Jesus, woman. Just how many weapons do you usually carry?"

Jo chuckled softly, shrugging one shoulder. "Still got one left," she admitted. "But if that bastard had found it, I would've punched him in the face."

Arthur nearly choked on air.

His smirk faltered for just a second as his mind—against his better judgment—tried to figure out exactly where she could've hidden that last weapon. Heat crept up his neck at the thought, and he quickly shook it from his head, clearing his throat. Jesus, Morgan, get a hold of yourself.

Instead, he offered his arm.

Jo hesitated, blinking in slight surprise, before her lips curled in a small, almost shy smile. A hint of pink dusted her cheeks as she looped her arm through his, letting their bodies inch closer as they stepped inside.

The warmth of her pressed against him, the soft rustling of her dress, the faint scent of her perfume—it was enough to make Arthur momentarily forget where they were.

But only for a moment.

As they were led through the grand entrance hall and up a sweeping staircase, Arthur’s focus hardened. He didn’t trust Bronte, not one damn bit.

He leaned in slightly, lowering his voice just for Jo to hear.

"Stay close," he murmured, his tone edged with quiet warning. "I don’t trust this Bronte."

Jo cast him a side glance, her amusement from before fading into something more serious.

"Wasn't plannin’ on wanderin’ off," she replied just as quietly, her fingers subconsciously tightening around his arm.

Arthur gave her a small nod, eyes scanning the lavish surroundings as they continued forward, stepping deeper into the lion’s den.

"Hosea, Bill, you join the party. We'll meet you out back after we pay our respect to signor Bronte." 

Hosea and Bill parted ways without much fuss, Hosea throwing one last glance over his shoulder as he said, "We’ll meet you back on the balcony when you're done."

Jo, still clinging to Arthur’s arm, looked up at him, waiting for some indication of where she was supposed to go. Hosea and Bill had been given their instructions, but no one had said a word about her.

Arthur met her gaze and, with the smallest shake of his head, wordlessly told her what she needed to know—she was staying with him.

She gave a short nod, understanding without argument. If he wasn’t about to let her out of his sight, well, she wasn’t about to leave it either.

Luca led them up another staircase, this one smaller than the grand one they’d taken before. They moved through a mezzanine, the sound of the party below echoing up through the open space. Then, Luca reached a set of polished double doors, pushing them open to reveal a grand balcony.

It overlooked the entire garden below, where well-dressed guests mingled, glasses of champagne glittering in the light of the chandeliers hanging from the trees. Music played from an ensemble tucked away in the corner, the sound of violins floating into the warm, humid air of the Saint Denis night.

And standing in the middle of it all, like a spider at the center of his web, was Angelo Bronte.

"Ah, the angry cowboys, you've arrived..."

Bronte’s voice carried an air of mockery, his words dripping with amusement. He stepped forward, dressed sharply, his every movement oozing with self-importance.

Jo felt her stomach tighten. She hadn’t even properly met the man, and already, she could tell Arthur was right not to trust him.

He was a sinister thing, cruel and calculating, his polished exterior concealing something far uglier beneath. The way he looked at them—at her—sent a shiver down her spine.

Her fingers instinctively curled tighter around Arthur’s arm.

Bronte, of course, seemed unbothered, too busy speaking in what Jo guessed was Italian, a language neither she nor the others understood. His tone was casual, but there was something pointed in his words, something knowing.

She didn’t like it.

She didn’t like him.

Arthur didn’t either. She could feel it in the way his body tensed next to her.

Dutch, however, remained as cool as ever, a pleasant smile fixed on his lips as he greeted the man, slipping effortlessly into his silver-tongued ways.

But Jo wasn’t fooled.

And neither was Arthur.

"This is quite a party you've invited us to," Dutch said smoothly, shaking Bronte’s hand with that ever-present, charismatic ease.

"Yes, quite something," Bronte replied, though his interest in Dutch was fleeting. His gaze drifted, dark eyes settling instead on Jo as she approached, still arm-in-arm with Arthur. A slow, knowing smile stretched across his lips.

"Although, I must say… it just got much more interesting."

Jo barely concealed her discomfort, keeping her expression composed even as her stomach twisted.

Arthur, on the other hand, was far less composed. His body stiffened beside her, and though he said nothing, the look in his eyes—sharp, narrowed, brimming with warning—spoke volumes.

Bronte, entirely unbothered, took a step closer.

"And who might you be, bella ?" he asked, voice rich with an accent that turned the words velvety and smooth.

Jo hesitated, glancing toward Arthur briefly before forcing a polite smile onto her lips. "Josephine."

"Josephine," Bronte repeated, as if tasting the name on his tongue, savoring it. Then, before she could react, he reached for her hand, lifting it to his lips and pressing a kiss to the back of it.

Arthur had to let go of her arm then, though he did so with obvious reluctance, his fingers twitching at his side as he glared silently at the man.

Bronte chuckled, as if Arthur’s glare amused him rather than unsettled him.

"A woman as stunning as you, in the company of such men…" he tutted, shaking his head as if it were a shameful thing. "It hardly seems fitting."

Arthur exhaled harshly through his nose, and Jo knew if Bronte kept running his mouth, it wouldn’t be long before Arthur lost whatever remained of his patience.

"Well," Jo said, forcing a small laugh, "I suppose I enjoy the company of the unfitting."

Bronte smirked. "A shame, truly."

Then, before either she or Arthur could react, Bronte slid his arm around her waist and gently guided her toward the balcony railing.

Arthur shifted on his feet as if he might step forward, but Dutch subtly placed a hand on his shoulder, keeping him in place.

"Let her," Dutch murmured under his breath, his tone deceptively calm. "She can handle herself."

Arthur clenched his jaw, but didn’t argue.

Jo, meanwhile, was doing everything in her power not to recoil from Bronte’s touch. His hand rested firmly at her waist, fingers pressing lightly into the fabric of her dress. It wasn’t necessarily inappropriate, but it was too familiar—too bold.

She allowed him to lead her, standing beside him at the railing, looking out over the garden.

"You see, bella," Bronte began, voice smooth, "I host these gatherings for men of great power, influence, and wealth. The kind of men who shape the world while others simply live in it."

He waved a hand toward the crowd below, as if every guest was of the utmost importance.

"These men," he continued, "they do not take kindly to your kind. Cowboys, outlaws…" He clicked his tongue. "It is a world that no longer belongs to you. And yet, here you all are, pretending you still matter."

Jo’s smile remained, but inside, she bristled.

She knew what he was doing.

Every word was meant to undermine them, to remind them of their place, of how small and insignificant they were compared to men like him.

So she simply hummed, tilting her head as if considering his words. "And yet," she mused, "we’re the ones you invited."

Bronte chuckled at that, dark and amused. "That, bella, is because even dead men deserve a last supper."

Jo turned her head toward Bronte then, finally giving him her full attention.

He was so damn smug. Smug and powerful, and worst of all, he knew it. That infuriating smirk, the way he spoke as if they were already beaten, as if they were nothing more than dirt beneath his polished shoes.

But Jo?

She’d dealt with men like him before. Men who thought wealth made them untouchable, who mistook cruelty for strength.

She smiled—a slow, amused smile that didn’t quite reach her eyes.

"Dead men deserve a last supper, huh?" she echoed, swirling the wine in her glass. "Funny."

Bronte arched a brow.

"See, where I come from," she continued, her tone light, easy, "a man with your kind of money would know better than to run his mouth to the ones servin’ the damn meal."

His smirk faltered ever so slightly.

Jo took a casual step away from him, just enough to remove his arm from her waist, and turned to face him fully. Her expression was unreadable, her eyes gleaming with something dangerously close to amusement.

"Because the way I see it, Signor Bronte," she continued, voice still as smooth as silk, "you didn’t invite us here out of the kindness of your heart. No, see, you need somethin’ from us." She gestured vaguely between herself, Dutch, and Arthur. "And for a man who claims our kind don’t belong in this world no more, you sure are awful keen on keepin’ us close."

Bronte’s lips parted slightly, but Jo didn’t give him a chance to speak.

"Now, I could stand here, act all flattered by your little speech, pretend I don’t know exactly what you’re tryin’ to do. But let’s not waste each other’s time." She tilted her head, voice dropping just enough to turn her next words into a sharpened blade.

"You need us more than we need you."

Silence.

Bronte’s expression remained carefully composed, but the glint of amusement in his eyes had cooled into something else—something more calculating.

Jo smiled sweetly.

Then she turned on her heel, stepping away from the balcony, brushing past Arthur as she did.

"You comin’?" she murmured to him, as if the entire conversation had been nothing more than idle chatter.

Arthur was staring at her. Not at Bronte, not at Dutch— her .

And hell, if she didn’t just knock the damn breath out of his lungs.

He blinked, barely registering the way Dutch was grinning with pride, or the way Bronte exhaled sharply through his nose, unimpressed but clearly caught off guard.

Arthur didn’t give a damn about either of them.

Instead, he fell into step beside Jo, shaking his head with a quiet chuckle.

"Damn, Darlin’," he muttered under his breath, just for her. " Remind me never to piss you off. "

As Arthur made his way down the staircase, Jo followed closely behind, her hand gliding lightly along the banister. Dutch stayed behind with Bronte, no doubt to smooth over whatever ruffled feathers she’d left in her wake. Not that she regretted a damn thing she’d said.

They stepped through a set of open doors leading to a balcony overlooking the garden. The air was thick with the scent of cigars, expensive perfume, and whatever flowery nonsense the mayor had planted down below. Laughter and conversation drifted from clusters of guests dressed in their finest, sipping champagne and indulging in polite gossip.

Hosea and Bill were already there, waiting. Bill looked like he’d rather be anywhere else, while Hosea, ever the social man, had a glass of champagne in hand and a knowing gleam in his eye as he took them both in.

“Enjoying the party, you two?” he asked with a smirk.

Arthur rolled his shoulders. “Somethin’ like that.”

Before Jo could say anything, Dutch appeared behind them.

“Gentlemen…” He clapped his hands together, smiling as if they were all just another group of esteemed guests rather than a band of outlaws looking to take advantage of the city’s elite. “Let’s go ingratiate ourselves.”

He turned to Arthur first.

“Go find the mayor if you can, and stay outta trouble. And steal nothing —unless it’s information.”

Arthur huffed but nodded.

Dutch’s attention shifted to Hosea. “Hosea, you go find us a place to rob.”

Hosea grinned, lifting his glass slightly before heading off into the crowd.

Dutch then turned to Bill. “Bill, go make us some new friends.”

Bill grumbled something under his breath but stalked off regardless, likely toward the nearest group of men who looked like they could be won over with talk of guns and drinking.

Jo adjusted the bracelet on her wrist, already prepared to follow Arthur when—

“Miss Harper, a word, please.”

She froze, blinking up at Dutch as he stepped closer.

Arthur had taken no more than two steps forward when he hesitated, glancing back at her. Their eyes met, a silent question passing between them.

Jo gave him the smallest nod.

Arthur exhaled through his nose and muttered, “Won’t be far,” before finally disappearing into the crowd.

Jo turned back to Dutch, swallowing lightly. His expression was unreadable, though there was something almost amused in the way he regarded her.

“This about what I said to Bronte?” she asked, voice quieter now that it was just the two of them. “’M really sorry, Dutch, but that man—”

Jo swallowed her words as Dutch placed a firm but reassuring hand on her shoulder. His expression was unreadable for a moment, his sharp blue eyes studying her closely, as if weighing whether or not to scold her. She held her breath, waiting for the inevitable.

And then—Dutch chuckled.

Not the amused kind of chuckle like Hosea’s, or even the quiet, entertained one Arthur sometimes let slip when she teased him. No, this was something different—something calculating, intrigued.

"Now, now, Miss Harper," Dutch said smoothly, tilting his head. "No need to apologize. In fact…" He squeezed her shoulder lightly. "I do believe our dear Signor Bronte rather enjoyed your little display."

Jo blinked, caught off guard. That hadn’t been the response she was expecting.

Dutch let go of her shoulder, clasping his hands together as he glanced toward the crowd beyond the balcony. "If there’s one thing men like him respect, it’s confidence. Strength. A woman who doesn’t cower or simper at his words? Oh, that’s fascinating to a man like Bronte." He shot her a smirk. "And I daresay, my dear, you’ve just made yourself very interesting in his eyes."

Jo frowned. "That ain't exactly comforting."

Dutch chuckled again. "It ain’t meant to be, darling. Just means we have something to work with. See, Bronte thinks himself above us. But now?" His smirk widened. "Now, he knows we’re not so easily swayed. That you are not so easily swayed.”

Jo shifted on her heels, arms crossing over her chest as she eyed Dutch warily. “So what, you expect me to play along now? Keep Bronte entertained just ‘cause he finds me ‘fascinating’?”

Dutch exhaled a quiet laugh through his nose, his smirk never faltering. “Oh, Miss Harper, don’t sell yourself short. You think you’re just entertainment to a man like that? No, no…” He leaned in slightly, voice lowering just for her. “You’re leverage.”

Jo’s stomach twisted at that. She didn’t like being called that—being seen as that.

Dutch straightened, smoothing his jacket. “Now, I ain’t sayin’ you gotta go flirtin’ with the bastard. But a woman who can hold her own, keep him on his toes? That’s valuable to us. And if he’s paying attention to you…” He spread his hands out in a knowing gesture. “Well, then he ain’t paying attention to what we’re really here for, is he?”

Jo narrowed her eyes. “And what are we really here for?”

Dutch only smiled. “Why, to make new friends, of course.”

She scoffed, shaking her head. “Yeah. Friends.”

Dutch reached out again, this time tapping a light finger under her chin, like she was some prized chess piece he had just placed on the board. “Just be your usual, sharp-tongued self, Miss Harper. That alone seems to be enough to rattle men like Bronte.”

She swallowed, unsure if that was a compliment or a warning. Maybe both.

“So what? You want me to go back up there, bat my lashes and let him talk down to me some more?”

Dutch chuckled, shaking his head. “No, no. If I sent you back, he’d know I was using you. Bronte ain’t a fool, sweetheart. No, I need you down here, makin’ your presence known, letting him want to keep an eye on you.”

Jo exhaled slowly, glancing around the glittering party. The idea of being some pawn in Dutch’s game made her stomach turn, but she also knew better than to argue. He was playing Bronte just as much as Bronte was playing them , and she was just another piece on the board.

Dutch gave her shoulder a pat before letting go, his expression warm but firm. “Now, why don’t you go find Arthur? Make sure he don’t embarrass himself in front of the mayor.”

Jo clenched her jaw but nodded, stepping away from Dutch with a tight smile. She turned on her heel, scanning the crowd for Arthur, her mind still turning over Dutch’s words.

Jo let out a soft breath as she weaved through the glittering crowd, her gaze locked onto Arthur. He was guiding a man—likely a drunkard—to the far end of the backyard, his grip firm but not forceful. She smirked slightly. Even at a high-class gathering, Arthur still found himself wrangling troublemakers.

She slowed her steps, waiting as Arthur turned back. His sharp eyes scanned the party before settling on her. For a moment, he simply looked, his expression unreadable. Then, with the subtlest motion—a small nod—he beckoned her forward before rejoining the group of men he had been conversing with earlier.

By the time she reached them, Arthur was shaking hands with someone, his posture straighter than usual, his manner almost… polite. It took Jo a second to recognize the well-dressed man before him.

“Ah, thank you Monsieur” the man spoke with a thick French accent, his tone carrying the confidence of someone who was used to being the most important man in any room.

Jo nearly stopped in her tracks. Henri Lemieux. The Mayor of Saint Denis.

Arthur, catching her approach from the corner of his eye, turned slightly and offered his arm. Without missing a beat, Jo stepped into place beside him, resting her hand lightly on his forearm as she smiled at the men before her.

The Mayor’s gaze flickered to her, his curiosity piqued. “And who is this lovely lady?”

Jo answered by leaning in and pressing a lingering kiss to Arthur’s cheek. She felt the briefest stiffening of his shoulders before he relaxed, playing along.

“Oh, just someone keeping this one in check,” she teased, letting her fingers skim down his arm before meeting the Mayor’s eyes with a perfectly poised smile.

Arthur gave her a sidelong glance but said nothing.

Henri Lemieux chuckled, seemingly amused. “I hope you’re both enjoying my party.” His arms spread slightly as he took in the grand display before them. “The city is horribly in debt, but we can still put on a good show.”

Henri Lemieux let out a satisfied sigh, glancing over his shoulder as his attention was drawn elsewhere. “Well, I must attend to my guests,” he said smoothly, offering a small bow of his head. The men with him murmured their polite goodbyes before slipping away, leaving Jo and Arthur alone on the edge of the party.

Arthur exhaled through his nose, shifting his weight. His eyes flickered toward her before he smirked.

“So,” he drawled, tilting his head slightly. “Didn’t take you for the affectionate type.”

Jo arched a brow, feigning innocence. “What, can’t a girl show a little appreciation for her date?”

Arthur scoffed, shaking his head. “Right. ‘Appreciation.’” His tone was amused, but there was something else in it too—something unreadable. He rubbed his jaw absently before his expression turned more serious. “What did Dutch want?”

Jo hesitated. She could still hear Dutch’s voice in her head, that knowing tone of his. Bronte likes you. Keep him entertained. Keep him talking.

The truth curled at the edge of her tongue, but she bit it back.

She wasn’t about to tell Arthur what Dutch really wanted. It wasn’t his problem to fix, and she sure as hell didn’t need him fretting over her like she was some delicate thing. She was a big girl—had been for a long time. She could handle herself.

So instead, she gave a casual shrug. “Nothin’ important,” she said simply, forcing a smile. “Don’t worry.”

Arthur frowned. He clearly didn’t buy it, but after a moment, he let it go. “Alright,” he muttered, though the doubt remained in his eyes.

Before either of them could say anything more, a sharp whistle cut through the air, followed by the crackling boom of fireworks erupting above them. The night sky burst into brilliant colors—gold, crimson, sapphire—painting the garden in a dazzling glow. The crowd gasped in delight, some clapping, others raising their glasses in appreciation of the spectacle.

Jo, however, flinched at the sudden noise. It wasn’t much—just a slight jolt, her breath catching for half a second—but Arthur noticed. His eyes flicked toward her, his expression softening. Without thinking, he placed a steadying hand at the small of her back, the warmth of his palm grounding her.

She didn’t pull away.

For a moment, neither of them spoke, watching the sky in silence. Arthur’s hand remained where it was, solid and reassuring. Jo let herself lean into it—just a little.

The fireworks painted the night sky in bursts of color, gold and crimson flickering against the deep blue. The sound of the explosions echoed across the garden, but Jo hardly noticed now. She had startled at first, but with Arthur’s hand still resting against the small of her back, she found herself grounded—secure.

For a rare moment, she allowed herself to just be. No gang business, no Bronte, no scheming. Just the fireworks, the warmth of Arthur beside her, and the way the night air felt softer than usual.

Arthur hadn’t moved his hand, and she hadn’t made him. If anything, she let herself lean into him, pressing her side lightly against his. It was natural—effortless, like she belonged there. He was solid, warm, the scent of his cologne mixing with the night breeze.

Arthur didn’t pull away. Instead, he shifted just slightly, enough to close the space between them. His fingers flexed once at her back, like he had noticed the closeness but wasn’t quite sure what to do with it.

They stood like that for a while, both watching the fireworks in rare, unspoken understanding. It wasn’t often they got moments like this—where the world around them slowed down, where they weren’t just outlaws trying to survive another day.

A particularly bright firework bloomed above them, casting a golden light over their faces. Jo glanced up at Arthur then, catching the way his gaze lingered on the sky. His expression was softer than usual, a quiet appreciation in his features that she didn’t often get to see.

The moment shattered like glass beneath a boot as a servant brushed past Jo, startling her just enough to pull her from the warmth of Arthur’s side. He moved swiftly, head low, but not low enough to escape their notice. The way he walked—purposeful, almost nervous—sent a ripple of tension through the air.

Arthur’s eyes followed the man as he weaved toward the mayor, catching only a sliver of the exchange. Cornwall. That was all it took to put him back on edge.

Jo had caught it too, her body straightening beside him. Any remnants of the peaceful moment they had shared evaporated, replaced by something sharper.

Then came Dutch, appearing behind them like a ghost, his voice a hushed demand. "Did he just say something about Cornwall?"

"Yes," Arthur muttered, jaw tight.

Dutch barely hesitated before pressing them further. "Find out what."

And just like that, the weight of reality came crashing back down. The fireworks still burst above them, the guests still laughed and drank and celebrated, but for Arthur and Jo, the night had taken a different turn.

They moved without a word, slipping through the crowd with ease, their steps light and deliberate. Arthur took the lead, his posture shifting into something familiar—watchful, predatory. Jo followed suit, her fingers brushing lightly at the fabric of her dress, adjusting it as if that would make her feel more prepared.

They trailed the servant through the garden, past clusters of guests too deep in their own conversations to notice them. The man disappeared through a side door of the manor, and without hesitation, they quickened their pace, blending into the shadows cast by the grand estate.

The house was alive with muffled voices and the clinking of glasses from the party outside, but Jo and Arthur moved through it like ghosts, their footsteps silent against the polished floors. The servant they trailed carried himself with authority, his sharp tone cutting through the air as he barked orders at others in passing. He wasn’t just another worker—he was someone in charge. A head servant, most likely. Someone entrusted with more than just pouring drinks and clearing plates.

They followed him up the same narrow staircase they had taken earlier when they had met Bronte. The climb was careful, measured, their ears tuned to every creak of the wood beneath their steps.

At the top of the stairs, they stopped just short of the corner, pressing themselves into the shadows. From their vantage point, they had a clear view of what was likely the mayor’s office.

The servant stepped inside, leaving the door open behind him. Jo and Arthur peered through the crack between the door and the frame, watching as he crossed the room with purpose. He reached the mayor’s desk, pulled a key from his coat, and unlocked the bottom drawer. A paper—something important, no doubt—was slipped inside before the drawer was locked once again.

Then, without hesitation, the servant exited through a side door, disappearing into another part of the house.

They waited for the sound of his footsteps to fade before slipping inside.

Arthur stayed by the door, keeping watch, while Jo went straight for the desk. The locked drawer wasn’t about to open on its own, and she wasn’t about to waste time looking for another way.

With ease, she lifted one leg onto the desk, hiking her skirt up high enough to reveal the sheath strapped to the top of her thigh. Arthur caught a glimpse of smooth skin before he realized just how much she was revealing.

His face burned instantly, and he immediately turned his head, clearing his throat sharply. " Jesus , woman." His voice was gruff, edged with something he wasn’t about to acknowledge.

Jo smirked, her fingers deftly unfastening the knife from its strap. "Thought it was nothin’ you hadn’t seen before?" she teased, throwing his own words right back at him.

Arthur exhaled through his nose, shaking his head. "T’was different," he muttered, still stubbornly keeping his gaze elsewhere.

Her quiet, smug laughter filled the space between them before she got back to work, slipping the blade beneath the drawer’s latch and using it as a lever. A little pressure, a soft snap, and the lock gave way.

Inside, the paper sat right where the servant had left it, the words Top Secret standing out in bold print.

Jo pulled it free, rolling it carefully before strapping her knife back into place and smoothing down her dress. She handed the document over to Arthur, who took it quickly, his eyes scanning the page.

They had what they needed. Now, they just had to get out of there.

They acted like lost guests as they wandered back downstairs, their steps measured and unhurried, blending in seamlessly with the lingering crowd. By the time they reached the lower balcony, Dutch was already there, leaning against the railing, his eyes scanning the party below.

"Find anything?" he inquired the moment Arthur and Jo approached.

Arthur didn’t answer, just tapped the breast pocket of his jacket where the folded paper sat.

Dutch’s expression barely shifted, but the flicker of satisfaction in his eyes told them he was pleased enough.

Nearly a second later, Bill stomped onto the balcony, grumbling under his breath. "Nothin'… this town is a damn waste of time."

"Maybe not." Hosea, who followed right behind, placed a hand on Bill’s shoulder to halt him. He nodded toward Arthur and Jo, who both shared a knowing, almost malicious smile.

"Gentlemen, lady, I think we're done here," Hosea announced. He turned on his heel and strode back into the house, Dutch and Bill following behind. Arthur and Jo trailed just behind them.

As they walked toward the entrance, Dutch shot a glance back at Hosea. "What did you find out?"

Hosea barely broke stride. "There's plenty of money movin’ through here, of course, and I think I found out how we can grab some of it. A big bank. A real one, I mean—but not yet."

Dutch’s interest sharpened. "A city bank?"

"Maybe," Hosea admitted, adjusting his coat. "And a stuffed one. If we're gonna leave, that could be the one thing we need."

Dutch hummed in consideration before shifting topics. "Bronte mentioned a Trolley Station… apparently, there's some high-stakes poker game too. Could be worth looking into."

By the time they reached the entrance, the servants had their weapons ready for them, handing each of them back their holsters and belts. As the others moved toward their horses, Jo suddenly reached out, catching Arthur’s arm.

He stopped, turning toward her. The look in her eyes was clear, pleading almost—she wanted to talk. Privately.

Arthur exhaled, glancing at the others before calling out, "Go on ahead, we'll follow."

Dutch gave him a brief look but didn’t question it. He simply nodded, mounting his horse alongside Hosea and Bill. Within moments, they were riding off into the dark, leaving Jo and Arthur behind in the glow of the party lights.

They strolled side by side through the dimly lit streets of Saint Denis, their boots tapping softly against the cobblestone. The distant hum of conversation and laughter from the mayor’s party faded behind them, replaced by the occasional clatter of carriage wheels and the muffled voices of late-night wanderers. Gas lamps cast a warm, flickering glow on the damp streets, their golden light reflecting off puddles left behind by the evening’s humidity. In the distance, the faint strains of music drifted from a saloon, blending with the rhythmic creak of a passing trolley.

Arthur cast a sidelong glance at Jo, his brow furrowed. "So? Somethin’ wrong?"

Jo hesitated, her steps slowing until she finally halted. Arthur took another step before realizing she had stopped, then turned to face her.

He studied her for a moment, searching her expression. "Well?"

Jo exhaled sharply, looking away for a second before forcing herself to meet his gaze. "I just—" She cut herself off, shaking her head as if frustrated with herself. "I can't keep goin’ like this."

Arthur’s frown deepened. "Like what?"

She sighed, crossing her arms over her chest. "Like… this," she gestured vaguely between them. "The teasin’, the flirtin’—" She trailed off, her voice quieter now. "I just don't know where we stand. What are we?"

Arthur’s lips parted slightly, but no words came out right away. His expression shifted, guarded, as if he hadn't expected her to say it out loud.

A sudden night breeze swept through, cool against her bare arms. She shivered and instinctively hugged herself, rubbing at the skin. Arthur noticed immediately. Without a word, he shrugged off his tuxedo jacket and draped it over her shoulders.

The warmth of it was instant, chased by the familiar scent of him—tobacco, a hint of whiskey, and whatever soap he had used. Jo froze for a second, feeling the weight of the fabric settle around her, before her fingers clutched at the lapels.

Arthur cleared his throat, looking off into the distance. "That better?"

Jo glanced up at him, something unreadable in her eyes. "Yeah," she murmured. "Thanks."

The air between them was thick with unspoken words, tension coiling tight like a spring waiting to snap. Jo still clutched his jacket around her, grounding herself in its warmth, in his warmth. Arthur was watching her, waiting, his jaw tight as if bracing for whatever came next. She could feel the weight of his gaze, searching hers, as if trying to find something—an answer, permission, or maybe just the courage to do what neither of them had been brave enough to admit until now.

Jo swallowed hard, her fingers fidgeting with the lapel. "Arthur…" she hesitated, but she knew she had to say it. If not now, then when? "This… this thing between us—" she gestured between them, her voice raw with frustration, maybe even desperation. 

"Jo," he murmured, almost like a confession.

She swallowed her previous words, her fingers still curled into the fabric of his jacket around her shoulders. "Yeah?"

Arthur didn’t answer right away. Instead, he stepped closer. It was subtle, just a shift in the space between them, but it was enough to make Jo’s breath catch. His hand came up, rough fingers brushing a stray lock of hair from her face, tucking it behind her ear. It lingered there, his thumb grazing her cheek, slow and deliberate.

Jo leaned into the touch before she even realized she had moved.

Her breath caught when he tilted her chin up, leveling her gaze with his. The warmth in his blue eyes made her chest tighten.

"This ain't just in my head, is it?" he asked, voice low, careful.

Jo’s lips parted, a denial on the tip of her tongue—but she couldn’t say it. Not when he was looking at her like that. Not when she knew damn well she felt the same way.

"No," she admitted, just as quiet. "It ain't."

Arthur exhaled sharply, his fingers still hovering at Jo’s chin, like he was trying to stop himself from crossing a line they couldn’t take back. His gaze flickered to her lips, then back to her eyes, and for a moment, he just stared at her, his expression torn between restraint and something deeper.

"You got no idea how bad I wanna kiss you right now," he admitted, voice low and rough.

Jo’s breath hitched. His eyes were dark with want—hungry, but hesitant, like he was giving her a chance to walk away before he did something reckless.

She didn’t want to walk away.

"Then what the hell are you waitin’ for, cowboy?"

Arthur’s grip on her tightened, but just as he started to pull her in, something flickered across his face—doubt, hesitation, that damn self-loathing he carried like a weight on his shoulders. His jaw tensed, and his fingers twitched slightly against her skin.

"I ain’t worth it, darlin’," he murmured, his voice quieter now, almost regretful.

Jo stilled, staring at him for a beat. And then, without a moment’s hesitation, she reached up, fingers grazing his jaw before settling against his cheek, grounding him. Her voice was steady, unwavering.

"That’s for me to decide."

Whatever restraint Arthur had left shattered in that instant.

He pulled her toward him, closing the distance in one smooth motion.

The first touch of his lips was firm but careful, like he was testing the waters, making sure she wouldn’t push him away. But Jo didn’t pull back—she leaned in, pressing herself against him, hands curling into the fabric of his shirt.

Arthur groaned softly, the sound rumbling deep in his chest, and then his grip tightened, his other hand finding her waist as he kissed her again, slower this time—like he was savoring the moment, memorizing the way she felt against him.

Weeks, maybe months, of tension had built up to this. The teasing, the stolen glances, the times they came close but never crossed the line. Half of him still wanted to hold back, to guard himself, to not let her in too deep. But the other half—the half that ached for her every time she walked away—was falling willingly.

And for once, Arthur didn’t fight it.

When they finally broke apart, Jo barely had time to catch her breath before Arthur rested his forehead against hers, his fingers still curled at her waist like he wasn’t ready to let go.

She smirked, her lips still tingling. "That answer your question?"

Arthur chuckled, low and warm. "Yeah," he murmured, his thumb grazing her chin. "Think it does."

Chapter 21: All In

Summary:

Some apparently high stakes poker game on a riverboat.

Chapter Text

Arthur returned to Shady Belle under the cover of night, his horse’s hooves muffled by the damp earth. The faint glow of the oil lamps inside the house flickered against the broken windows, casting eerie shadows along the warped wood of the walls. He was bone-tired, his body aching from the day’s troubles—helping Eagle Flies steal those damn papers had been more of a mess than he’d anticipated. The boy had fire in him, but fire alone wouldn’t win a war.

Arthur dismounted, exhaling a breath that fogged in the cool night air. He’d meant to go straight to bed, but his boots felt heavier with each step toward the house, his mind clouded with thoughts he didn’t have the strength to untangle tonight. And as he passed through the darkened halls of Shady Belle, another thought weighed on him—he hadn’t seen Jo all day. Hadn’t had the chance since the Mayor’s party. 

It hadn’t been intentional, just bad timing. He had left early, gone before she had even woken up, and by the time he was back, the house was silent. Maybe she was already asleep, maybe she had waited up for him. Either way, he'd missed her, and the realization left a hollow feeling in his chest.

The gang slept soundly, unaware of the weight pressing against him.

Tomorrow would bring more trouble—it always did.

 


 

Morning crept in slow over Shady Belle, sunlight filtering through the tangle of trees, casting long golden streaks across the damp earth. A breeze rolled in off the river, cool and carrying the scent of water and fresh grass. The gang was just starting to stir, voices low and movements lazy as another day began.

Jo stood near the chuck wagon, her brow furrowed in frustration as she wrestled with a stubborn jar. Her fingers strained against the lid, knuckles white with effort. The more she twisted, the more the damn thing refused to budge.

Arthur, leaning against the crumbling wall of the house, watched the scene unfold with quiet amusement. He didn’t say anything. Just waited.

Jo huffed, adjusting her grip and trying again. “Damn thing…” she muttered under her breath. “Would you open for— fucks —” She twisted harder, her face scrunching up in concentration. The lid didn’t give—not even a little.

Arthur exhaled a slow breath, shaking his head.

Jo muttered another string of curses under her breath before stomping across the yard, jar in hand. She stopped in front of Arthur, her expression an adorable mix of irritation and reluctant defeat. Wordlessly, she shoved the jar toward him, her narrowed eyes daring him to say something about it.

Arthur smirked but kept his mouth shut. He took the jar, gave it one firm twist, and—pop—the lid came off without a fight.

Jo stared at it for a second, then at him. Her lips pursed.

Arthur handed the jar back, his expression unreadable, though Jo could sense the smugness beneath the surface.

“I loosened it,” she declared, crossing her arms.

Arthur’s mouth twitched. “’Course ya did.”

Jo narrowed her eyes, tilting her chin up slightly. “You wouldn’t’ve been able to open it without my help.”

Arthur tilted his head slightly, watching her with that slow, knowing grin of his. “Didn’t think otherwise.”

Satisfied, Jo snatched the jar back with maybe a little more force than necessary, turning on her heel to walk away. Arthur chuckled, shaking his head, but his eyes lingered.

Damn.

The sway of her hips, the way those worn-out jeans clung to her—it was enough to make a man lose his train of thought. And that hair, long and golden, catching the morning light just right. Christ. He knew exactly how soft it would feel tangled in his fingers.

Arthur swallowed, rolling his shoulders and clearing his throat like it would somehow shake the thought loose.

Jo glanced back at him then, a half-smile playing at her lips, as if she knew exactly where his mind had wandered.

Arthur straightened, rubbing the back of his neck, suddenly feeling a little too warm for the cool morning air.

Yeah. He wasn’t fooling anyone. Least of all himself.

Jo had just reached the supply crates when she heard the familiar sound of boots crunching on dirt behind her. She knew exactly who it was, but she kept her back to him, focused on prying open the crate with the tip of her knife.

“Y’know,” Arthur drawled, stepping up beside her, “seems like a man oughta get some kinda reward for savin’ a lady in distress.”

Jo let out a breath through her nose, unimpressed. “Oh? And what exactly d’you think you deserve?”

Arthur smirked. “Dunno. Somethin’ sweet, maybe.”

She scoffed, finally looking at him with a raised brow. “Sweet? You want me to bake you a pie, Mr. Morgan?”

He chuckled, tilting his head slightly. “Weren’t thinkin’ of pie.”

Jo rolled her eyes, but before she could fire off another remark, Arthur took a step closer. One of his hands found her waist, fingers curling just enough to make her breath hitch. Then, with the ease of a man who had spent far too long wanting to touch her, he turned her so she faced him.

Their eyes met, the teasing edge between them softening into something quieter. Arthur dipped his head slightly, his grip firm but not demanding, giving her the chance to pull away if she wanted. She didn’t.

Jo’s hands landed lightly on his chest, fingertips brushing the fabric of his shirt. A smirk tugged at her lips. “So, this is what you were after?”

Arthur huffed a quiet laugh. “Maybe.” His gaze flicked down to her mouth. “Somethin’ wrong with that?”

Jo tilted her chin up, just enough to challenge him. “Guess that depends,” she murmured, her breath warm against his.

Arthur had every intention of kissing her right then and there. But—

“Ahem.”

Arthur tensed slightly, his grip loosening as he turned his head.

Hosea stood a few steps away, hands clasped neatly behind his back, his expression one of amusement—eyes twinkling, lips curled into a knowing smile.

“Hope I’m not interrupting anything,” Hosea said, the faintest trace of a smirk on his face.

Jo exhaled sharply, stepping back from Arthur with an exasperated huff. “Would it matter if you were?”

Hosea chuckled. “Not really.” Then, shifting his gaze to Arthur, he added, “But I do have a little job you two might want to hear about.”

Arthur rubbed the back of his neck, clearing his throat. “We talkin’ work or trouble?”

Hosea’s grin widened. “Bit of both, I imagine.” His smirk didn’t fade as he stepped closer, hands still tucked behind his back like a man about to deal out some fine wisdom.

“There’s a high-stakes poker game happening tonight,” he began, his voice smooth and easy. “One of the riverboats. Rich men, lots of money, lots of drinks. And thanks to some careful planning between Strauss, Trelawny, and myself, we’ve got a way in.”

Arthur shifted, rubbing his jaw. “Lemme guess—I gotta meet Trelawny first.”

“Smart man,” Hosea dipped his chin in approval. “He’ll be in Saint Denis. You’ll meet him before the game to get the finer details.”

Arthur grunted in acknowledgment, but Jo wasn’t satisfied. She tilted her head slightly, brow raised. “And me?”

Hosea smiled like he had been waiting for the question. “Well, when it comes to cards, everyone knows who the best is.”

Arthur snorted. “Ain’t me, that’s for damn sure.”

Jo shot him a look, then turned back to Hosea, interest piqued.

“Counting cards, swapping out jacks for aces, reading a man’s tell—you’ve got a gift, Jo,” Hosea continued, his tone as warm as it was persuasive. “And we’d be damn fools not to use it.”

Jo smirked slightly, the barest flicker of pride creeping in. “So I get a seat at the table, then?”

Hosea exhaled through his nose, and before he even spoke, Jo’s stomach twisted.

“…No women allowed, huh?”

“Not to play ,” Hosea admitted. And then, with that familiar, infuriating twinkle in his eye, he added, “But they do encourage working girls to cozy up to the men at the table.”

The moment stretched thin. A lone bird called from the trees, the wind catching the branches above, making them sway with a slow creak.

Jo stared at him, her face unreadable. Arthur made a noise in his throat, shifting beside her.

Hosea, unfazed, carried on. “You know how it is—drunk men like to show off, talk too much. A pretty girl at their side, whispering the right words, could do a lot to sway a game in our favor.”

Jo inhaled deeply, resisting the urge to pinch the bridge of her nose.

“Oh, hell no,” she said flatly. “I am not dressing up like some poor sap’s distraction while he pisses away his inheritance.”

Hosea remained infuriatingly calm. “It’s just an act. You sit beside the right man, feed him a little charm, watch his hand—”

“No.”

Hosea raised a brow. “Not even if the man you’re cozying up to is Arthur ?”

Jo opened her mouth—stopped.

Arthur, who had been silent up until now, straightened slightly. “…Wait, what?”

Hosea’s smirk widened. “Oh, come now. You two can play a part, can’t you? Arthur will be sitting at the table. You’ll be right there with him, keeping his spirits up, helping him win.” He made a vague gesture at Arthur. “Just pretend to be sweet on him. Shouldn’t be too hard.”

Arthur let out a short, amused breath, glancing at Jo. “Yeah, sweetheart. Shouldn’t be too hard.”

Jo turned toward him, slow as a brewing storm, her eyes narrowing to slits.

“Don’t push it, Morgan.

Arthur grinned, tipping his head slightly, as if challenging her to stay mad.

Hosea, clearly pleased with himself, clapped his hands together once. “Wonderful. Now, we’ll be needing something appropriate for you to wear, Jo. Something eye-catching.”

Jo groaned, dragging a hand down her face. “I hate this already.”

Arthur smirked, arms folding across his broad chest. “Yeah, but you’re gonna look real nice doin’ it.”

She shot him a glare. Arthur just kept grinning.

Jo pinched the bridge of her nose, exhaling sharply. “You owe me for this, Hosea.”

Hosea chuckled, utterly unbothered by her irritation. “Oh, you’ll be thanking me by the time we walk away from that table with our pockets full.”

Arthur scoffed, adjusting his hat. “Our pockets? Thought you were sittin’ this one out.”

Hosea merely grinned, offering Jo a parting wink before strolling off, leaving her standing there with a sinking feeling in her gut.

She muttered a curse under her breath, rolling her shoulders before turning on Arthur.

“If you laugh, I will gut you.”

Arthur, who was grinning, wiped the smirk off his face and held up his hands in surrender. “Ain’t laughin’.”

Jo narrowed her eyes. “You’re thinking about it.”

“Thinkin’ about how I get to watch you get all dolled up for once? Yeah, maybe.”

Jo groaned, throwing her head back dramatically. “Oh, for God’s sake.”

Arthur chuckled, stepping closer, lowering his voice just enough that it sent a shiver down her spine. “C’mon, Trouble. Admit it—you like a little attention.”

She turned to him, jabbing a finger at his chest. “I like attention when I earn it. Not when I gotta bat my lashes and giggle at some bastard’s full house .”

Arthur caught her wrist before she could pull away, his grip firm but easy. “Guess I’ll just have to make it worth your while, then.”

Jo arched a brow. “You plannin’ to bribe me, Mr. Morgan?”

Arthur leaned in slightly, his voice dipping into something slower, rougher. “Somethin’ like that.”

Jo hated that her pulse kicked up a notch. She hated that he knew it, too.

Before she could come up with a retort, Hosea’s voice rang from across camp. “Karen! See if you’ve got anything in your trunk that’d fit Jo, will you?”

Karen, seated on a crate and halfway through a drink, smirked. “Something scandalous, I take it?”

“Something proper ,” Jo snapped before Hosea could answer.

Karen just grinned wider. “Oh, sweetheart, if you’re tryin’ to play the part of a high-class riverboat darling, you better hope I have something scandalous .”

Jo let out a slow, suffering exhale, already regretting everything .

Arthur, of course, was still grinning.

“You keep smiling like that, I will trip you on your way to that poker table,” Jo muttered, spinning on her heel and marching off toward Karen’s wagon.

Arthur let out a low chuckle, watching her go.

“This is gonna be fun.”

 


 

The moment their horses reached the city, Jo veered off without much of a word. “I got some things to take care of,” she said simply, already shifting in her saddle. “I’ll meet you later.”

Arthur gave a small nod, not pressing for details. If she needed his help, she’d say so—or maybe not, since this was Jo. Either way, he let her go, watching as she guided Laramie through the crowded streets before disappearing into the flow of people and carriages.

Trelawny was waiting at their usual spot, perched against a lamppost with an easy smile, looking every bit as comfortable in the grand city as a man of his supposed stature ought to. He greeted Arthur warmly, leading him down the streets toward a tailor’s shop. As they walked, he explained the finer details of the job.

The plan was simple. Arthur would play the role of a wealthy new-money fool—some oil and cattle baron’s son, rolling into Saint Denis with pockets full and a taste for expensive whiskey. His only task was to play cards and win, a feat made considerably easier with a certain advantage at the table. A bit of showmanship, a bit of indulgence, and an eventual, graceful exit with the winnings.

Trelawny assured him it was nothing he hadn’t done before. A gentleman’s con, hardly the rough-and-tumble affairs Arthur was used to. There were guards, of course—men hired to ensure the rich stayed rich—but nothing Javier couldn’t handle, should things take a turn. He’d be on the boat, too, playing his own role in the scheme.

Arthur let Trelawny do the talking as they arrived at the tailor’s. The place smelled of fine leather and fresh linens, a world away from the dust and sweat of camp. A suited man with a waxed mustache and an ever-present measuring tape set to work at once, sizing him up, picking out an outfit befitting a man of wealth. Arthur had little say in the matter, nor did he much care, as long as it fit and wasn’t too ridiculous.

Next was the barber. Trelawny insisted—said no self-respecting man of high status would show up looking like a cattle rustler. Arthur relented, sitting through the trim with an air of mild irritation, watching as strands of his hair fell away under the barber’s careful work.

By the time they were through, the sun had dipped lower, casting Saint Denis in warm gold. Arthur adjusted his cuffs, rolling his shoulders, the tailored suit sitting stiff against his frame. He still looked like himself, albeit shinier, cleaner, a version of Arthur Morgan built for high society rather than the open trail.

Trelawny appraised him with a smirk. “Now that is a man who looks ready to take the city for all it’s worth.”

Arthur grunted, checking his reflection in the mirror one last time before stepping outside. The streets bustled, the city alive with the hum of evening business. The riverboat wasn’t far now, and somewhere in the crowd, Jo was handling her own affairs.

Arthur knew where to find her. She’d mentioned Doyle’s Tavern before they split ways, and sure enough, when he reached the saloon, her horse was still tied out front. He lingered for a second, giving Laramie a glance before stepping up onto the wooden porch, the noise from inside spilling out into the streets.

It was late enough that the place was lively, filled with the usual drunks, gamblers, and city folk drowning their troubles in alcohol. Arthur scanned the crowd, eyes moving past the clusters of men hunched over their drinks, past the servers weaving through tables, past the idle smoke curling up to the ceiling—until he found her.

Jo was near the bar, leaning against it in casual conversation. But it wasn’t just her that caught his eye. It was the man standing across from her.

Arthur’s stomach twisted with a familiar unease. Him.

It struck him like a cold slap—the same bastard from Rhodes. Ben.

The one Jo had dismissed as no one.

He felt something ugly curl in his chest, a slow, burning thing that he wasn’t proud of but couldn’t quite shake. A feeling he hadn’t let himself name last time, but now it settled in, heavy and bitter.

He glanced down at himself, taking in the worn leather jacket, the boots scuffed from miles on the road, the dust clinging to the folds of his clothes. Even cleaned up from earlier, even with a suit waiting for him, he still looked like he’d just crawled out of the mud.

And compared to the man Jo was speaking to—the well-dressed, smooth-talking stranger—Arthur felt every inch of the outlaw he was.

He wasn’t the kind of man a woman like her should want.

And maybe she’d finally realized it.

Hell, she should realize it.

He clenched his jaw, shifting his weight as a bitter thought took root. He had no right to be angry. No right to expect anything from her. He’d spent most of his life keeping people at arm’s length, convincing himself he didn’t deserve softness, that love—real, honest love—wasn’t meant for a man like him.

And yet, standing there, watching her with someone else, all he could think was that maybe he’d been right all along.

Arthur didn’t mean to stare, but he couldn’t help himself. He told himself it was nothing—just a damn conversation, just two people talking. But then Ben touched her.

A casual thing, really. A hand on her shoulder, a slight lean-in, the kind of gesture that didn’t mean much to most. But to Arthur?

Oh, it burned.

It burned so deep in his gut it felt like it might consume him whole, leaving nothing behind but embers and the ugly truth of his own feelings. He was sure it could set him ablaze the longer he stood there, watching.

The hushed whispers. The soft look in Jo’s eyes.

It was enough to make his stomach turn.

“Sneaky little rat,” Arthur grumbled under his breath, shifting his weight, jaw tightening. He knew the type. Knew what men did when they wanted a woman’s attention. Playing off nostalgia, reeling her in with sweet words and old memories, hoping she’d take the bait.

It made Arthur sick.

Because he knew Jo. Knew the way she softened when she let someone in, the way her guard slipped just enough to let them close.

And that bastard was sitting right in front of her, soaking up that warmth while Arthur stood out here, gnawing on his own jealousy like a damn fool.

He scuffed his boot against the ground, jaw clenched so tight it ached. He should leave. Turn around, walk back to docks, focus on the job.

He should.

But then Jo laughed.

Soft, genuine. A sound he hadn’t heard in days.

And that was it.

Arthur turned, shoving through the saloon doors without thinking. The scent of liquor and tobacco curled thick in the air as he cut through the crowd, his steps heavy, purposeful. He didn’t stop at the bar, didn’t hesitate. He walked straight up to where they sat, eyes locked on Ben.

Ben barely had time to register him before Arthur grabbed him by the collar and yanked him up from his seat.

The scrape of the chair against the floor was drowned out by the collective gasp from nearby patrons.

Ben staggered back, blinking in shock. But Arthur wasn’t done. He shoved him toward the exit, pushing him through the doors and out onto the wooden porch.

Jo’s voice rang behind him— Arthur, stop! —but it barely registered.

Ben caught himself, straightening, his expression shifting from confusion to something sharper. “The hell’s wrong with you?”

Arthur didn’t answer. He just looked at him.

And whatever Ben saw in his eyes made him set his jaw.

“You got a problem, friend?” Ben asked, squaring his shoulders.

Arthur scoffed. “Ain’t your friend.”

Ben’s lips pressed together, his gaze flicking to Jo before settling back on Arthur. “Right. Should’ve figured.”

Arthur stepped forward, slow and deliberate, his voice low and steady. “Touch her again, and I’ll cut your goddamn hand off.”

Jo stormed through the doors, eyes flashing with fury. “Arthur, what the hell is wrong with you?!

Arthur didn’t look at her.

Ben exhaled sharply, running a hand through his hair. “Arthur?” He repeated the name like he knew it, like it meant something. Why was Ben saying Arthur’s name like that? Like he’s heard her say it before? She never told him about Arthur. 

And then—

It clicked.

That night in Rhodes. It had been one of her naked truths. 

His eyes darted to Jo. 

This is Arthur?” A pause. A knowing, disbelieving laugh. “The one you drunk -fucked?”

Arthur barely registered Jo’s sharp inhale.

Red.

All he saw was red.

The world blurred into motion before his mind could catch up. His fist connected with Ben’s jaw, the satisfying crack of knuckle against bone barely making a dent in the wildfire rage roaring through him.

Ben didn’t just take the hit—he fought back. Hard.

He slammed Arthur against the wall, but Arthur retaliated instantly, shoving his forearm into Ben’s throat, pinning him there with sheer force.

The only thing that stopped him from beating him into the ground was Jo’s voice—panicked, desperate.

STOP!

The saloon doors burst open, two men rushing in to separate them. Arthur felt himself being yanked back, his chest rising and falling with heavy breaths, fists still clenched at his sides.

Ben wiped blood from his mouth, still looking at Jo.

And the weight of his words still hung thick in the air.

Arthur didn’t dare look at her.

Because if he did, he wasn’t sure what he’d see.

And he wasn’t sure he could take it.

Ben wiped at the blood trickling from his lip, rolling his jaw experimentally. Jo’s blood burned as she crouched beside Ben, checking for injuries, though she already knew Arthur had pulled his punches—if he hadn't, Ben wouldn’t still be smirking.

“You alright?” she asked, her voice clipped.

Ben winced, rolling his jaw. “Yeah, yeah. Didn’t know you kept such charming company.”

Jo shot him a warning look before inspecting his collar, where Arthur had grabbed him. The fabric was wrinkled, but his throat didn’t look bruised. That was a small relief.

Arthur, however, was fuming .

His breaths were heavy, his hands still clenched at his sides, the veins in his forearms pulsing beneath his rolled-up sleeves. But more than that—more than the anger still curling in his gut—was the way Jo went to Ben first .

Not him.

Not even a damn glance in his direction.

She was mad .

Not worried about him , but mad at him.

And that did something even worse to Arthur than the jealousy already eating him alive.

Ben, still seated on the wooden planks, tilted his head slightly to look past Jo, locking eyes with Arthur. And then—

That smirk .

That smug, cocky little upturn of his lips that made Arthur want to slam him into the ground all over again.

“Bastard’s got a hell of a right hook.” Ben smirked, shaking his head.

Jo pressed her lips together, anger tightening her chest. She didn’t even spare Arthur a glance—not yet. Not when she was too furious to trust herself.

Ben’s smirk widened. “Didn’t know you cared that much, sweetheart.”

That did it.

Jo’s hand shot out, gripping his jaw hard enough to make him flinch. “And you ,” she snapped, voice low, “oughta know when to keep your damn mouth shut.”

Ben raised his hands in surrender, still grinning, but it didn’t reach his eyes this time. Jo let go, rising to her feet, her fury now set on the man standing a few feet away.

Arthur was watching her, shoulders squared, fists still clenched. He looked… well, she wasn’t sure. Angry? Jealous? Hurt?

Not her problem.

Jo stormed toward him, her boots hitting the wooden planks hard. “What the hell was that?”

Arthur didn’t answer, just held her gaze with that same infuriating calm.

Her hands curled into fists. “You had no right, Arthur. None.”

He scoffed, shaking his head. “Didn’t seem like you were doin’ much about it.”

Jo’s breath caught. She knew what he was implying. Knew he thought he was stepping in for her. And that? That pissed her off even more.

Her voice dropped, low and sharp. “You think I needed you to handle it?”

Arthur exhaled, slow. “No,” he muttered, “but you weren’t gonna.”

Jo let out a bitter laugh. “Oh, so you know what I’m gonna do now?” She stepped closer, fury burning in her chest. “You think you got some say in my business?”

Arthur’s jaw tensed, his fingers flexing. “I didn’t like the way he was talkin’.”

“You don’t have to like it,” she snapped. “You don’t get to decide what I put up with.”

Arthur finally looked away, exhaling through his nose. “Fine,” he muttered, “do whatever the hell you want.”

Jo’s anger flared hotter. He always did this—walled himself off, acted like nothing mattered when they both damn well knew it did.

She huffed, shaking her head. “Unbelievable,” she muttered, turning away—

“Yeah?” Arthur called after her, voice sharp. “You runnin’ off back to him, then?”

Jo froze.

Her fists clenched at her sides, and for a second, she saw red.

Ben, still behind them, chuckled.

Jo whirled around, eyes burning. “ You ,” she snapped, pointing at Ben, “shut your damn mouth before I shut it for you.”

Ben held up his hands again, grin faltering. “Alright, alright.”

Arthur just stared at her, unreadable.

Jo took a breath, steadying herself. “I don’t need you to fight for me, Arthur,” she said, voice firm. “And I sure as hell don’t need your permission to talk to whoever I damn well please.”

Arthur didn’t answer. Just held her gaze like he was searching for something in it.

Jo scoffed, shaking her head, and turned on her heel.

This time, Arthur didn’t stop her.

Ben leaned back, rubbing his jaw with a lopsided grin. “You sure got him all wound up, didn’t you?” he mused.

Jo crossed her arms, staring him down. “I don’t know what the hell you were tryin’ to do, but don’t ever start something like that again.”

Ben raised an eyebrow. “Oh, c’mon, sweetheart—”

Jo stepped closer, her voice dropping. “I mean it, Ben. I don’t need you poking at him, and I sure as hell don’t need either of you makin’ a damn mess before I got a job to do.” She exhaled sharply, shaking her head. “And stop callin’ me sweetheart.”

He chuckled, but it faded when she didn’t look amused. Jo let out a sharp breath and stepped back, straightening her coat. “I didn’t come here for this. I had business with you, and now it’s done.”

Jo turned on her heel and left, her frustration barely contained.

As she reached the meeting point, Arthur was already there, adjusting his coat. He had changed his clothes. He didn’t look at her. Didn’t say a word.

Fine. That was fine.

They had a job to do.

Whatever mess was between them would have to wait.

 


 

Jo approached the docks with a steady stride, her jaw still tight from the confrontation with Arthur. The anger simmered beneath her skin, but she wasn’t about to let it get in the way of the job. She had agreed to this, after all. Now she had to deal with it.

Arthur stood near the water with Javier, Strauss, and Trelawny, all of them waiting in the cool night air. Jo barely spared them a glance, her focus on the looming riverboat.

“Well, there she is,” Trelawny greeted, ever the showman. “I was beginning to think you’d gotten lost.”

Jo wasn’t in the mood. She adjusted the strap of her bag and fixed him with a look. “You got my way in or not?”

Trelawny smirked, but Javier spoke up instead. “Yeah. Just follow the working girls on board, get changed, and blend in. We’ll be inside soon enough.”

Jo nodded, then—reluctantly—glanced at Arthur. He wasn’t looking at her, instead focusing on the boat as he adjusted his coat. Fine. That was fine.

Without another word, Jo turned and walked toward the group of women waiting to board, slipping into their midst. She kept her head down, blending in as best she could. The last thing she needed was someone noticing she didn’t belong.

Jo found a quiet corner, away from prying eyes, and yanked open her bag. She pulled out the dress Karen had secured for her—if you could even call it that.

The deep red fabric was soft but thin, clinging in all the wrong places. The bodice was structured with a tight corset, the kind that forced her ribs in and stole her breath. She scowled at it. Damn thing looked like it was designed to break a woman rather than dress her.

Muttering a curse, she loosened the laces as much as she dared before forcing it over her head. The moment it settled around her torso, she felt the restriction—like a snake coiling around her ribs. She inhaled carefully, already regretting this.

The skirt, if you could even call it that, was cut high on one side, revealing most of her thigh. One wrong step, and she’d be showing more than she’d like. She pulled at the fabric, trying to adjust it, but there was nothing to be done. The slit was intentional, meant to entice.

And the shoes—hell, they were worse than the dress. Little heeled things, strappy and delicate, meant for walking in smooth ballrooms, not sneaking onto a damn riverboat to rob the place.

Jo rolled her shoulders, trying to ignore the way she felt half-exposed.

This wasn’t the first time she’d dressed up for a job, but it sure as hell didn’t make it any easier. She wasn’t like the other girls boarding tonight. She didn’t know how to sway her hips just right, how to bat her lashes to draw a man in. At least, that’s what she thought.

She exhaled sharply, shoving her usual clothes back into her bag and tucking it somewhere safe.

She had a job to do.

Still, she couldn’t help but scowl as she adjusted the corset again. If Arthur saw her like this, he’d have something smart to say.

Not that she cared.

Not at all.

She forced the thought from her mind, took one last steadying breath, and stepped out to blend in with the other women. The lights from the chandeliers cast a golden glow over everything—elegant, refined, the kind of place she never belonged in.

The air smelled of expensive cigars, perfume, and whiskey. Laughter and conversation swirled around her as men in fine suits and women in silk dresses moved through the space.

She adjusted the bodice of her dress for what felt like the hundredth time, scowling when the corset refused to give her even an inch of comfort.

Then, she saw him.

Arthur was already at the poker table, seated with a handful of well-dressed men. His hat was gone, and his usual rugged look had been cleaned up just enough to make him look like he belonged here. His expression was unreadable—calm, collected, like he wasn’t fuming at her just moments ago.

But when his gaze lifted and found her, that calm cracked.

Jo saw it in the way his fingers twitched slightly against his cards. The way his jaw tensed.

She held his stare, lifting a brow like she dared him to say something.

Arthur didn’t, but the way his eyes raked over her—over the damn dress—spoke loud enough.

Jo squared her shoulders and moved closer, settling herself near his side as if she had every right to be there.

One of the men at the table glanced at her, then at Arthur. “That your girl for the evening, Callahan?” he asked with a smirk.

Jo forced a sweet, practiced smile and leaned in just slightly, like any good working girl would. “That depends,” she said smoothly, “is he winnin’?”

The men laughed, and Arthur, to his credit, didn’t react. But Jo saw the flicker of something in his eyes—annoyance? Jealousy? She didn’t care.

She wasn’t here for him.

She was here for the job.

Still, when she leaned against his chair, letting her fingers trail lightly over the back, she knew damn well what she was doing.

Arthur exhaled sharply through his nose, adjusting his grip on his cards.

“Hope you’re a lucky man, Callahan,” one of the players said, tossing his chips in.

Arthur didn’t take his eyes off his hand. “Yeah,” he muttered, voice low. “Hope so.”

Jo smirked, but only for a second.

Arthur wasn’t a stranger to poker, but this wasn’t the kind of game played in backwater saloons with half-drunk ranchers. These men were seasoned gamblers, the kind who knew how to bluff without breaking a sweat, who could read a man’s tell in the twitch of a finger.

Jo leaned in closer, her lips just brushing the shell of his ear, a ghost of a touch that sent a shiver down his spine. To anyone watching, it looked as though she was whispering something flirtatious, a little teasing to keep her gentleman entertained.

But in reality, her voice was sharp, precise. “The one on your left, he’s got a weak hand, but he’s tryin’ to bluff his way through.”

Arthur didn’t so much as glance at her, his expression remaining impassive as he considered his cards.

The dealer burned a card and flipped the turn—a seven of hearts. Arthur already had a pair of tens in his hand, and with the king and five of spades, along with a jack of hearts on the table, his chances were getting better.

Jo let her fingers ghost over his forearm, her voice dropping to a low, honeyed murmur. “Check. Make him think you’re unsure.”

Arthur exhaled slowly, tapping his knuckles against the table. The player across from him—a wiry man with slicked-back hair and too many rings on his fingers—narrowed his eyes before tossing in a few more chips.

Jo giggled softly, letting her fingers trace the edge of Arthur’s sleeve as though she were simply toying with him. Her smile was all charm, her eyes heavy-lidded, but beneath the act, her gaze flickered to the table, assessing the game like a hunter sizing up prey.

The river card came—a ten of hearts.

Arthur had three of a kind now. A solid hand, but not unbeatable.

Jo shifted slightly, her thigh brushing against his. She could feel the tension in him, the way his muscles coiled tight under his coat, the way his fingers flexed just slightly before settling again.

She tilted her head, pressing closer, her lips barely moving as she spoke. “Raise. Not too much, but enough to make ‘em nervous.”

Arthur did just that, sliding a neat stack of chips forward. The others hesitated. The man with the rings drummed his fingers against the felt, his gaze flicking between Arthur and the pot.

One by one, the players folded, until only one remained. The man across from Arthur called, tossing in the matching amount.

The final reveal.

Arthur laid his cards down—three tens.

His opponent’s eye twitched just slightly as he flipped his cards—a pair of jacks.

Arthur won.

Jo leaned in again, a slow, delighted laugh spilling from her lips as she let her fingers trail up his arm. “Well, look at that,” she purred for show, her voice dipped in syrupy sweetness. “My lucky man.”

Arthur didn’t look at her, but she could feel the heat of his gaze, the way his jaw ticked.

He knew what she was doing.

And she knew damn well that it was working.

The poker table was thinning out. Some men left with tight jaws and empty pockets, while others, having lost gracefully, tipped their hats and stepped away with forced smiles. But one remained. A man in a finely pressed suit, his mustache well-groomed, his eyes sharp as a blade. He was older, but not frail—he had the look of a man who was used to winning.

Arthur studied him quietly, his fingers drumming against the felt. The man had lost a good chunk of his money already, but he wasn’t done. Not yet. There was something about him—the way he leaned back, assessing, the way his fingers tapped against the table in a rhythm that suggested he was thinking—plotting.

Then the man smirked, betting on a valuable object. Stating it was in a safe upstairs.

A Reutlinger pocket watch. A damn fine one, too. 

Arthur barely twitched. But Jo, who had been watching everything from her place beside him, knew better. She saw the way his fingers flexed slightly, the way his body shifted just a fraction forward. He wanted it.

“Too good to pass up, huh?” she murmured, her voice barely above a whisper.

Arthur didn’t answer. He just nodded once, pushing forward a matching bet.

The cards were dealt.

Arthur’s fingers brushed against his, flipping them up slightly so only he and Jo could see. A pair of kings. A strong start.

The flop came—a nine of diamonds, a six of spades, and another king. Three of a kind.

Jo’s fingers traced along the edge of his sleeve, her touch featherlight. “Play it cool,” she whispered, her lips barely moving. “He’s the type that don’t like to lose. And he sure as hell don’t like to be played.”

Then, in a move that surprised even her, Arthur’s arm wrapped around her waist—not rough, not demanding, but firm. Before she could react, he was pulling her onto his lap.

Jo nearly stiffened. Nearly. But she caught herself.

There was no force behind it, no expectation. Just part of the act. She knew that. Still, it didn’t stop the way her pulse jumped.

She felt the warmth of his body through the layers of fabric, the solid weight of his arm resting against her hip.

For a moment, she wondered if this was him pushing the act further, making it believable—or if he just wanted her closer.

Two could play at that game.

Jo let out a soft, teasing hum, tilting her head as she ran her fingers through his hair. It was still damp from earlier, combed back neatly, but under her touch, some strands fell loose, framing his face in a way that made him look less like the gunslinger she knew and more like—

No.

She pushed that thought aside, focusing instead on the game.

The turn was dealt—queen of diamonds.

The man across from them barely moved. He didn’t smile. He didn’t frown. But Jo saw the way his knuckles tightened just slightly around his cards.

Arthur had a flush draw now. But he needed that final diamond.

Jo traced the back of his neck lightly, keeping up the act, but lowered her voice just enough for him to hear. “Call. He’s waiting for you to raise.”

Arthur grunted softly, barely a sound, before flicking a few more chips forward, meeting the bet.

The final card—the river—was an ace of diamonds.

A flush. A damn good one.

Jo’s fingers, which had been absentmindedly tracing patterns on his shoulder, stilled for half a second. Then, she recovered, letting out a slow, sultry laugh, playing her part.

Arthur had won.

His thumb, which had been resting against her thigh, moved slightly. Not enough to be noticed by anyone watching, but enough for her to feel it.

It was a touch of acknowledgment. Of understanding.

She felt her stomach tighten.

They had argued before the job, and it hadn’t been small. She was still mad. And maybe he was, too.

But right now, in this moment, she couldn’t tell where the act ended and where something else—something unspoken—began.

Across the table, the man exhaled slowly, setting his cards down with a tight jaw. A queen and an ace. A weaker two pair.

Arthur laid his own cards down with quiet finality.

A king-high flush.

Jo let out a delighted laugh, playing her role, her fingers grazing down Arthur’s chest as she pressed closer, her lips just brushing his ear.

“My Mr. Callahan,” she purred, “You sure do have a way with the cards.”

Arthur didn’t say anything. But she could feel his heartbeat, steady and strong, beneath her palm.

And for the first time since they last spoke, she wondered if she’d really convinced herself this was all just an act.

The game was over. Arthur collected his winnings, pocketing what remained of the chips with a calm indifference that made it seem as if he hadn’t just walked away with a small fortune. He leaned back, exhaling through his nose, like he’d had his fun for the night.

Then, as if on cue, a well-dressed butler approached. “Sir, if you’d like to secure your winnings for the night, we have a private safe upstairs for our esteemed guests.”

Arthur barely flicked his gaze upward, playing his part. He took one last sip of his drink, then, with a lazy smirk, pushed himself to his feet. Jo, still perched on his lap, slid off smoothly, and he caught the briefest flicker of relief in her eyes.

She wanted space.

He gave it to her.

As he stood, an armed guard stepped forward for security—a man with slicked-back hair and a well-groomed mustache. Only, Arthur recognized him immediately. Javier, dressed in a polished uniform, with a rifle strapped to his back, looking every bit the hired muscle.

The act was flawless.

Arthur stretched his arms, rolling his shoulders like he was settling in for a stroll. Then, as he adjusted his coat, he cast one last look at Jo.

“Don’t have too much fun without me, sweetheart,” he drawled, his voice thick with amusement—though whether it was entirely an act, he wasn’t sure.

Jo shot him a look, her lips curving into a smirk that didn’t quite reach her eyes. “Wouldn’t dream of it.”

Then, just like that, Arthur was led away, disappearing up the grand staircase with the butler and Javier trailing behind him.

Jo exhaled slowly.

The moment Arthur was out of sight, she turned toward the bar, weaving through the room, ignoring the lingering eyes of a few players who had watched her all night.

She needed a drink.

She slid onto a stool, the rich scent of liquor heavy in the air, and tapped her fingers against the bar top.

“Whiskey,” she said. “Neat.”

The bartender, a gruff-looking man with tired eyes, poured her a glass without question. She took it, sipping slowly, letting the burn settle in her throat.

Now, all she had to do was blend in. Mingle.

And endure.

 


 

Upstairs, Arthur played along as the butler led him to a lavishly decorated office, where the safe was kept. The room smelled of cigar smoke and expensive cologne, the walls lined with ornate bookshelves.

The butler, oblivious, gestured toward the safe. “If you’d like to—”

Arthur didn’t give him the chance to finish.

A sharp, brutal swing of his pistol’s handle struck the man at the base of his skull. He crumpled without a sound.

Javier let out a low whistle. “Damn. You don’t waste time.”

“Shut up and help me,” Arthur muttered, crouching in front of the safe.

He made quick work of it, cracking the lock with skilled fingers. Inside, stacks of cash, bonds, and loose valuables gleamed under the low light. And the pocket watch. 

He took everything.

With a practiced ease, Arthur shoved the contents into a satchel, slung it over his shoulder, and wiped his hands on his coat. Then, without so much as a glance at the unconscious butler, he turned to Javier.

“Let’s get the hell outta here.”

 


 

As Arthur descended the grand staircase, his pockets considerably heavier, he scanned the floor for Trelawny. The conman was supposed to be in position by the bar, waiting for the right moment to slip away unnoticed. But before Arthur spotted him, his gaze landed on Jo.

She wasn’t at the bar.

She was still at one of the poker tables, sitting close beside an older gentleman—one of the wealthier players from earlier. He had thinning white hair, deep wrinkles, and a fine silk vest stretched over his rounded belly. The way he leaned toward Jo, his bony fingers grazing her back as he chuckled at something she’d said, made Arthur’s stomach twist.

Jo, for her part, played along.

She had a coy smile on her lips, fingers tapping idly against the poker chips in front of her. But Arthur could see the way she held herself—poised, yet stiff. The slight tension in her shoulders, the careful control in her laughter. She hated this.

Arthur moved before he thought better of it.

“To the bar, señor!” he declared, his voice carrying over the noise of the room.

Javier, ever the performer, straightened beside him, nodding in agreement. “I hope you had fun, sir.”

Arthur made his way toward the bar, forcing himself not to look back at Jo. He’d seen enough—her sitting at the poker table, that old bastard’s hand lingering a little too long on her waist. It made his blood heat in a way he didn’t care to acknowledge, but he couldn’t do a damn thing about it. This was the job, and he couldn’t afford to break character.

So he went to the bar, where Trelawny was already engaged in what seemed to be a lively discussion with the wealthy man Arthur had beaten out of his pocket watch.

“There he is!” the man barked the moment Arthur stepped up. His face was flushed with drink and bruised ego, and he jabbed a finger in Arthur’s direction. “This son of a bitch right here—”

Arthur raised his hands, smirking. “Now, don’t be a sore loser, friend.”

The man sneered. “There’s somethin’ I don’t like about the pair of you.”

Trelawny, seated between them, merely sighed and stood, adjusting his cuffs with theatrical annoyance. “There’s plenty I don’t like about you,” he quipped, “but I have the good manners to keep my mouth shut.”

Arthur huffed out a quiet laugh, but the moment was short-lived.

Because that’s when the trouble started.

A man stumbled in from one of the side rooms—barefoot, still in his union suit, clutching at a bleeding head wound. His wild eyes darted around before locking onto Arthur and Trelawny.

“There he is!” the man shouted. “Shoot that man!”

For a split second, everything was still.

Then—

A gunshot rang out.

Javier, quick as ever, turned and fired on the nearest guard before they could even reach for their weapon. Then, without missing a beat, he grabbed the fallen guard’s rifle and tossed it toward Arthur.

Arthur caught it, barely ducking behind the bar as bullets started flying.

Patrons screamed, tables overturned, and chaos erupted in the saloon. Arthur fired over the bar, dropping another guard before taking cover again.

“Come on, Arthur! We gotta get out of here!” Javier shouted as he fired another shot, keeping the guards at bay.

Across the room, Jo had already moved.

The second the first shot rang out, she acted on instinct. She tipped over the poker table in front of her, using it as cover while reaching under her skirt, where a small revolver was strapped tightly to her thigh.

Of course she had a weapon.

She’d never go anywhere unarmed, especially not a place like this.

Unstrapping the revolver in a practiced motion, she cocked it, peering over the edge of the table.

A guard rushed toward the stairs, likely to call for reinforcements. Jo took him out with a single shot to the back. The force of it sent him tumbling down the steps, crashing onto the marble floor with a sickening thud.

Another guard, having spotted her, turned his gun in her direction.

She was faster.

A sharp crack echoed as her bullet hit him in the chest, sending him staggering backward before collapsing onto one of the poker tables.

Arthur, reloading behind the bar, caught sight of her through the fray. She was in her element, crouched low, her revolver steady as she picked her shots carefully. Even in the chaos, there was something fiercely controlled about her—Jo was never reckless, only efficient.

He cursed under his breath.

They needed to get out of here before the whole damn boat turned against them.

Gunfire echoed through the riverboat, mixing with the frantic screams of patrons scrambling for cover. Arthur ducked behind the bar, reloading with practiced speed before popping up to fire again. Another guard dropped.

“We gotta move!” Javier barked, already clearing a path toward the exit.

Arthur fired one last shot before turning, his eyes immediately searching the room. His instincts were sharp, honed by years of surviving in chaos like this—and those instincts told him to make damn sure Jo was following before he so much as thought about running.

His gaze locked onto her. She was still crouched behind the overturned poker table, her revolver clutched tight. Smoke curled from the barrel as she reloaded. Another body lay slumped nearby, another guard she had taken down.

“Jo!” Arthur barked.

She glanced up, eyes meeting his, and in that moment, he saw what she already knew—there were too many of them. More guards were storming in from the far end of the saloon, and their window for escape was shrinking fast.

No more time to fight.

Only time to run.

Jo bolted toward him, her heels skidding against the polished floor. Arthur grabbed her wrist as she reached him, his grip firm but not forceful, like he needed to feel her solid and real for just a second before moving forward. Then they ran.

Javier led the way, shoving past terrified guests who cowered in the hallway. Arthur kept his rifle raised, covering their backs as they barreled toward the boat’s rear deck. The doors burst open, revealing the open air, the dark expanse of the Lannahechee River stretching beneath them. The distant glow of Saint Denis flickered on the horizon, but between them and the shore was nothing but deep, black water.

“Only one way out,” Javier said, already swinging himself over the railing. He flashed them a grin. “See you in hell, amigos.”

And then he was gone.

Arthur turned back just in time to see Jo grip the railing, hesitating for the briefest second.

"Go!" he urged.

She inhaled sharply, then pushed off.

Arthur followed.

The wind roared in his ears during the fall, and then—

Cold.

The river swallowed him whole.

Arthur kicked hard, forcing himself back up, breaking through the surface with a sharp gasp. He wiped the water from his face, shaking off the sting of the impact before glancing around, searching the dark waves.

Javier surfaced a few feet away, coughing and grinning. “Well, that was refreshing.”

Arthur ignored him. His chest tightened as his gaze darted across the river, scanning for Jo.

Nothing.

The water was shifting, moving, endless in every direction—

But she wasn’t there.

A sharp, cold panic clawed up his throat. Jo knew how to swim, she was a good swimmer.

“Jo?” he shouted, turning in the water, his heart hammering.

No answer.

His pulse spiked.

She had jumped right before him. He should’ve seen her by now. She was a good swimmer. But the river was dark, the current strong, and she—

Arthur took a breath and dove.

The world turned silent, nothing but black water surrounding him. His eyes burned as he forced them open, scanning desperately. Then—movement. A shape beneath him, limbs tangled in heavy fabric, struggling but sinking fast.

Jo.

Arthur surged downward, closing the distance in a few powerful strokes. Her skirt had wrapped around her legs, dragging her down, and her corset—damn thing must’ve been squeezing the air right out of her lungs, restraining her. He grabbed her, locking an arm around her waist, and kicked upward with everything he had.

They broke the surface hard.

Jo gasped violently, choking on a mouthful of water.

“I got you,” Arthur said, his grip unyielding as she coughed, sucking in sharp, frantic breaths. Her fingers clutched at his arm, her panic clear even through the haze of exhaustion.

Her corset. It was still too tight.

Arthur wasted no time. “Hold still.”

She barely had the energy to respond before she felt his knife slip between the laces at her back. A single, swift movement—then relief. The corset loosened, and Jo inhaled a ragged, desperate breath, the restriction finally gone and leaving it floating behind.

“Kick, Jo,” Arthur urged, his voice rough but firm. “I ain’t draggin’ your ass all the way to shore.”

She did. Weakly at first, but then stronger, pushing through the exhaustion, the weight, the cold.

The shore loomed closer. Her boots scraped against solid ground.

Javier was already there, standing at the river’s edge, shaking water from his clothes. “You two took your sweet time.”

Arthur ignored him, hauling Jo onto the riverbank. The moment they were out of the water, she collapsed onto the grass, coughing hard, her chest rising and falling with deep, shuddering breaths.

Arthur knelt beside her, dripping wet, his breathing heavy. He dragged a hand down his face, shaking off some of the water before glancing at her.

“You alright?”

Jo rolled onto her back, staring up at the stars, her body still trembling from exertion.

“I think,” she rasped, “I’m gonna kill whoever invented corsets.”

Arthur let out a short, breathless laugh, shaking his head. “Fair enough.”

Javier smirked. “Well, señorita, if it makes you feel better, you look—”

Arthur shot him a look.

Javier held up his hands. “Never mind.”

Jo groaned, rolling onto her side. “Let’s just get the hell out of here.”

Arthur stood, offering her a hand. She took it, her grip firm despite the exhaustion.

The night was quiet. Too quiet after everything that had happened.

The five of them—Arthur, Jo, Javier, Strauss and Trelawny—had trudged through the outskirts of Saint Denis, soaked to the bone, avoiding the main roads until they reached a safe enough distance from the chaos they’d left behind.

Trelawny, ever the gentleman, bid them farewell with his usual flair, tipping a nonexistent hat as he disappeared into the shadows. Javier and Strauss had already split off earlier, leaving just the two of them.

Now, Arthur and Jo walked in silence.

The streets were mostly empty at this hour, save for the occasional lamplight spilling from windows and the distant sounds of revelry deeper in the city. Their boots left wet prints on the cobblestones, water dripping from their clothes, their skin still chilled from the river.

Arthur had been quiet the entire way. Too quiet.

Jo wasn’t sure what to say. She wasn’t even sure if she wanted to say anything. They were both exhausted, still rattled from the fight, from the escape—

From each other.

But then, as they rounded a corner into a quieter street, Arthur finally spoke.

“Well, that went smooth.”

His tone was dry, flat.

Jo sighed, shaking her head. “You call that smooth?”

“Well, we didn’t die, did we?” He glanced at her, his expression unreadable. “Though, you sure tried your damndest.”

She stopped walking. “Arthur—”

“You weren’t comin’ back up.” His voice was quieter this time, rougher. He wasn’t looking at her now, just staring off down the street. “For a second, I thought—”

He shook his head, exhaling sharply. “Never mind.”

Jo swallowed, guilt curling in her stomach. She had scared him. And Arthur Morgan wasn’t an easy man to scare.

She could’ve left it at that, let the silence settle again.

But then Arthur, stubborn as always, pushed further.

“So, that fella,” he said, too casually. “Ben.”

Jo stiffened.

Arthur let out a short, humorless chuckle. “Y’know, just a couple weeks ago, you told me he was ‘no one.’ And yet, there he was. With you.” He glanced at her then, sharp blue eyes pinning her in place. “So tell me, Jo. Who the hell is he?”

She hesitated, knowing this was less about Ben and more about everything between them.

Finally, she sighed. “He was my friend. From… before .”

Arthur didn’t say anything, but she could feel the weight of his gaze, waiting for more.

So she gave it to him.

“I met him when I was young. He was one of the only good things I had back then,” she admitted. “When things were bad, he was there. When I had no one else, he was there.”

Arthur’s jaw tightened. “And now he’s here again.”

“He’s not—” Jo sighed, running a hand through her damp hair. “It’s not what you think, Arthur.”

He let out a breath, shaking his head. “Ain’t it?”

The silence stretched between them, heavy, thick with things unsaid. Then, after a moment, Arthur scoffed, rubbing a hand over his face.

“Look,” he muttered, “I got no right to be mad. Maybe I shouldn’t’ve said a damn thing back there.”

Jo frowned. “Arthur—”

“But,” he went on, voice rough, “if you’ve changed your mind—about any of this, about me—then just say so.”

Jo’s breath hitched.

Arthur let out a dry, bitter chuckle. “I’d understand. Hell, I’d probably be relieved. ‘Cause I—” He exhaled sharply, finally looking at her. “I ain’t worth it, Jo. You know that. I ain’t deserving of—”

“Arthur.”

She stepped closer. He tensed but didn’t move away.

“Stop,” she said softly.

And then, before he could argue, she reached up and cupped his face, her hands gentle, fingers brushing against the rough stubble of his jaw.

Arthur stilled.

His breath caught, blue eyes flickering with something raw, something vulnerable.

Jo tilted his face slightly, forcing him to meet her gaze.

“You don’t get to decide what I think you deserve,” she murmured.

Arthur swallowed hard, his hands clenching into fists at his sides.

Jo offered a small, tired smile. “And for the record, I haven’t changed my mind.”

Arthur didn’t say anything at first, just stared at her, as if trying to figure out if she really meant it.

Then, slowly, something in his expression softened.

“…Alright,” he murmured, voice barely above a whisper.

Jo let out a breath she hadn’t realized she’d been holding.

But then she straightened, her hands slipping away as her expression hardened just slightly.

“But you listen to me, Arthur Morgan,” she said, voice quieter now, but firm. “I can handle my own business. I don’t need you interfering. Not with this.”

Arthur’s brows furrowed, and for a second, she thought he might argue.

Instead, he sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. “Yeah, I figured you’d say somethin’ like that.”

Jo smirked. “Then you should’ve kept your mouth shut.”

Arthur scoffed, shaking his head. “Yeah, well. Ain’t my strong suit.”

She let out a soft chuckle, and for a moment, the air between them shifted. The tension from before—sharp and crackling—melted into something quieter, something heavier.

Neither of them moved.

Neither of them spoke.

Jo could still feel the warmth of Arthur’s skin beneath her fingertips, the roughness of his stubble where she had touched his face. And even though her hands had fallen away, the space between them still felt impossibly small.

Arthur’s gaze flickered to her lips. Just for a second.

Jo noticed.

Her breath hitched, her pulse quickening, but she didn’t pull away. She didn’t say a damn thing.

Neither did Arthur.

Jo’s breath was still uneven, the night’s events weighing on her, soaking into her bones. The cold air bit at her damp skin, and her thin, clinging shirt did nothing to shield her from it. She folded her arms over her chest, trying to shake the lingering chill, but Arthur had already noticed.

His gaze flickered downward.

Just for a second.

But it was long enough.

The dim moonlight wasn’t kind enough to hide the way her soaked shirt clung to every curve, the fabric stretched thin, translucent in places. And her skin—flushed from the cold, from the adrenaline, from the way he had just touched her—only made matters worse.

Arthur swallowed hard.

Shit.

He dragged his gaze back to her face, jaw tightening, but the damage was already done. His blood ran hotter, his pulse pounding in his ears. It was damn near impossible not to notice, not to think about how soft she must be beneath the wet fabric, how easy it would be to reach out and—

No.

He clenched his fists at his sides, as if that would stop the thoughts clawing at the edges of his mind.

Jo must have caught the flicker of something in his expression, because she smirked, tilting her head slightly.

Arthur exhaled sharply through his nose, shaking his head. “You’re gonna be the death of me, woman.”

Her smirk widened, but she didn’t tease him further. She just stood there, staring up at him, waiting.

And Arthur… well, Arthur was a damn fool to think he could keep resisting her.

So he gave in.

And without warning, he stepped forward.

The movement was sudden, almost rough, like he had finally reached his limit, like something inside him had snapped.

Jo barely had time to react before his hands were on her—one curling around the back of her neck, the other gripping her waist, pulling her in. His fingers dug into the damp fabric of her shirt, like he was grounding himself, making sure she was really there.

And then he kissed her.

It wasn’t gentle.

It wasn’t hesitant.

It was hungry.

His lips crashed against hers, desperate and demanding, like he had been holding himself back for too damn long and couldn’t do it a second more. Jo gasped against his mouth, her fingers instinctively gripping the front of his soaked shirt, curling into the fabric to keep herself steady.

Arthur tasted like whiskey and river water, like smoke and something distinctly him.

She let him take what he wanted.

And then she kissed him back just as fiercely.

A soft groan rumbled from his chest when she pushed up on her toes, pressing closer, her body molding against his. Arthur responded instantly, his grip tightening, his fingers tangling in her wet hair, tugging just enough to make her gasp again.

The kiss deepened.

God, it was messy, breathless, more raw emotion than anything else. A battle neither of them wanted to win.

Arthur pulled back just enough to breathe, resting his forehead against hers. His breath was ragged, hot against her lips. “Damn it, Jo…”

She swallowed hard, her heart pounding, her own breathing just as uneven.

He didn’t finish whatever he was about to say.

And she didn’t make him.

Instead, she brushed her thumb over the rough line of his jaw, tilting his face slightly so he had no choice but to look at her.

“Shut up, Arthur,” she whispered.

Then she kissed him again.

Chapter 22: Under His Gaze

Summary:

Jo and Arthur finally give in to their feelings.

Notes:

Hey everyone! Just a quick content warning for this chapter—The first part of chapter 22 contains sexually explicit content. If that’s not your thing or you’d rather skip it, feel free to do so! As always, I hope you enjoy the story, and I love hearing your thoughts. 😊

Chapter Text

They stumbled into Arthur’s bedroom at Shady Belle, dripping wet, their breaths uneven, their hands refusing to let go of each other. The old floorboards creaked beneath their hurried steps, but neither paid any mind to the state of the house or the damp trail they left behind. They had barely made it through the door before Arthur kicked it shut, his mouth already crashing against hers, swallowing whatever sharp remark she had left for him.

Jo barely had time to process it before she was pressed against the wooden wall, Arthur’s body flush against hers, his weight grounding her. His hands were rough, calloused from years of holding the reins and pulling triggers, but they were surprisingly gentle as they cradled her face, his thumbs brushing against her cheekbones. She could taste the river on his lips, mixed with whiskey and something undeniably Arthur. It was intoxicating. He was intoxicating. 

Fear had a taste. Acidic, burnt metal. It numbed her tongue. Not just her tongue, but her entire being. 

She was so, so scared. 

But yet, so… consumed by him. 

Their clothes clung to them, soaked through, heavy and cold—but the heat between them burned hotter than anything else. Jo gasped as Arthur's hands moved, one sliding down her waist, fingers finding the ties of the shirt under the corset he had cut open earlier. The fabric was sheer, clinging to her skin, exposing every curve, every shiver. He hesitated for just a breath, his eyes dark as they flickered down her body, taking in how the damp fabric outlined her breasts.

His jaw clenched, nostrils flaring as he fought against whatever restraint he had left. “Damn it, Jo…”

She swallowed hard, her chest rising and falling against his. “Don’t stop.”

That was all it took. His lips found hers again, hungrier this time, his hands gripping her hips as he pushed her toward the bed. They barely made it before she tugged at his shirt, her fingers fumbling with the buttons in frustration before she simply gave up and pulled it open, sending buttons scattering to the floor. He huffed a rough laugh against her mouth before shrugging it off entirely, and she let her hands roam—over his shoulders, across his chest, feeling every ridge of muscle, every scar.

Arthur wasn’t gentle when he pulled her onto his lap, sitting at the edge of the bed. His hands skimmed up her thighs, pushing her soaked skirt up as he did, until his fingers met bare skin. He groaned against her mouth, and she took the opportunity to bite his bottom lip, tugging just enough to make him growl low in his throat. His fingers dug into her, a silent warning, and she smirked against his lips.

“You tryin’ to tease me, woman?”

“Wouldn’t dream of it,” she murmured, but the way her hands traced the lines of his stomach said otherwise.

Arthur didn’t give her a chance to play coy. In one swift motion, he flipped her onto her back, pressing her into the mattress as he hovered above her, his weight supported by his forearms. He took in the sight of her, damp hair splayed out, lips swollen from his kisses, chest rising and falling beneath the sheer fabric that did little to conceal the effect he had on her.

His hand found her jaw, thumb grazing over her lower lip as his eyes searched hers. “Tell me to stop, and I will.”

Jo swallowed hard, her fingers threading through his hair as she pulled him closer. “Arthur,” she whispered, her breath warm against his lips, “I ain’t tellin’ you to stop.”

That was all he needed.

Their lips met again, and this time, there was no hesitation, no second-guessing. They had fought, they had argued, but in this moment, there was only them—raw, desperate, and completely lost in each other. They had spent too long dancing around whatever was between them, denying what they wanted. But not tonight. Tonight, they were all in.

Arthur’s breath was heavy against her skin, warm despite the chill still clinging to their soaked clothes. His fingers, rough and sure, trailed down her side, grasping the hem of her damp shirt. He peeled the fabric away, slow enough to make her shiver, but he wasn’t teasing—not this time. His hands trembled slightly as he bared her inch by inch, exposing slick, goose-pimpled skin to the air between them. 

Jo felt his gaze rake over her, the heat in his eyes making her skin burn hotter than any fire ever could. The thin, soaked material had left nothing to the imagination, but now, with nothing between them, the weight of his stare made her breath hitch. 

His jaw tensed, his throat bobbing as he swallowed thickly.

She reached for him, fingers curling around the waistband of his soaked pants. “Ain’t fair if I’m the only one losin’ layers,” she murmured, her voice lower, huskier. 

Arthur exhaled a sharp breath, a chuckle laced with something darker. “Reckon you’re right.”

He pushed himself up just enough to yank at the buckle, the leather slick beneath his fingers as he unfastened it. Jo helped, their hands tangling together in a rush to rid him of the last barrier between them. When the pants hit the floor with a heavy thud, she ran her hands along his hips, pulling him back toward her.

The feel of him—solid, warm, undeniably Arthur—sent a new kind of heat coursing through her veins. He kissed her again, slower this time, as if memorizing every curve, every gasp. Jo melted into it, into him, letting the fire between them consume everything else. 

Tonight, nothing else mattered. Only this. Only them .

Arthur wasn’t the only one enjoying himself either – gentle, breathy gasps and low stifled whines that were unable to be contained, started to fall from Jo’s lips. It was music to Arthur’s ears, and a feast for his eyes as he examined her expression. The way her eyes were closed, lashes casting a gentle shadow over her cheek, her head angled back ever so slightly, yet still not being quite enough to hide the deep shade of crimson that plagued her features. His eyes darkened with a mixture of cockiness and lust. This was going to be good. He thought, already envisioning the sweet expressions and sounds the blonde would be struggling to withhold from him.

“I really hope you can keep quiet, Trouble…” He smirked against her ear, nipping it ever so lightly before returning to his quiet, prickly kisses.

Jo scoffed. “Course I can.. You’s the one who’s been groanin’ in my ear.” Her words were quiet and firm, but held no real venom. Of course, she did have one thing on her mind preoccupying her – keeping quiet. She didn’t want to alert the others that were sleeping so soundly only a door away from the pair of them. Saying that their crew was tight-knit was an understatement; Right now, the meaning was literal… though, despite her anxieties, something about it was exhilarating…The thought of being caught at any moment, having to keep it down… It turned Jo on more than she’d like to admit.

But she didn’t need to admit it.

Not when she felt the hand occupying her thigh, now inching towards her dampened folds.

Her breath hitched and her teeth clamped down on her tongue, trying to stifle any noise that threatened to spill out as Arthur’s fingers found themselves gently caressing over her slit. Jo held her breath, then shakily exhaled, body arching against his hand ever so slightly. Her flushed cheeks only seemed to deepen impossibly. 

Arthur seemed to take great enjoyment over how flustered Josephine was getting from what he could see, albeit the dim lighting was obscuring his vision slightly. Seeing how she was trying so hard to keep herself composed, even as his fingers traced along the delicate outlines of her pussy, was invigorating. He wanted to really challenge her composure now.

Continuing from where he left off, his lips continued their quiet assault against her neck, the soft flesh there already reddening – love bites and bruises forming in his wake. He may have gone overboard, he thought… but the thought evaporated as she let out a quiet moan.

While his lips busied themself, Arthur’s right hand remained splayed across Jo’s chest, keeping her close and keeping her warm as he explored the flesh there, his other hand cupping her growingly needy sex, eager fingers parting dampened folds and trying to pry sweet sounds from her lips. He knew he had to be careful. The last thing they needed were some of the others waking up - Dutch… Abigail... John..? Any of them, they’d never hear the end of it, and as the proclaimed ‘golden son', Arthur wasn’t particularly interested in getting tangled up with any drama within the group, let alone making it – especially if John found out, he knew he would never hear the end of it. 

With a gentle flick of his ring and forefinger, Arthur parted her lower lips once more – his middle finger sliding down between her folds and letting her slick – warm and wet – coat his fingertips. Another low groan emanated from him, smirking against the outer shell of her ear and teasingly curling a single digit inwards as if he were about to slip it inside. Though, just as his finger inched in towards her aching heat, he drew back with a low murmur into her ear while his finger came back up to encircle her swollen bundle of nerves, applying a gentle, but pleasant pressure. He was testing the waters until he found a pressure that made the woman under him squirm.

The stubble of his beard gently scraped down along her neck once more as he planted a wet kiss just below her earlobe, where he had left several scattered bite marks.

Arthur’s right hand, still greedily splayed over her chest, tightened. He smirked a little, his breath hot against Jo’s ear, sticking close to her so he could hear every little sound that dared spill from those full lips of hers. She was squirming – writhing. And Arthur was drinking it all in, his other hand still teasing her clit in gentle, slow circles. He could feel the subtle movements of her legs under him, the incessant shifting and subtle rocking of her hips as they ground up to meet his fingers. She was getting impatient. And luckily for Jo, Arthur was equally as impatient.

His movements were gentle– languid, taking his time to warm Jo up to the sensation. Then he added another, Jo’s aching depths greedily taking his fingers up to the first knuckle. Of course, Arthur couldn’t help but curl his fingers upwards, eager to find Jo’s sweet spot, and determined to make her lose herself. He wanted nothing more than to assuage the burning desire within her. He was definitely the right man for the job. It was just a matter of finding what made her tick.

Jo’s lower abdomen tensed, her hips jolting upwards once more, then quivering back down to the covers of Arthur’s cot. He didn’t miss the way her warm, velvety walls clenched around his thick, calloused fingers, drawing him deeper and deeper as if wordlessly pleading for him to continue. She was quiet. Arthur admired that, though his desire to see her sing out so sweetly for him was slowly overcoming his already less than appropriate thoughts. He could tell she was struggling, just a little, but she was going well, he thought.

Or, at least she was. 

Until Arthur’s fingers inched just that little bit higher.

Jo cried out, her knees buckling, back arching beneath fabric. Arthur could’ve sworn he had seen her eyes fluttering and rolling back in delight. As beautiful and as satisfying as it was to see the blonde no longer able to contain herself, the last thing the pair needed was to get caught. She deserved better than that.

“You’re going to get us caught, crying out like that, Trouble… You make it hard to keep my hands to myself...” He murmured, his voice barely audible, though filled with ardour. “Save those pretty screams for another time, yeah?”

Under normal circumstances, Jo would have defensively quipped back at him, but she couldn’t find the words even if she wanted to – not with the pleasure she was feeling in that moment. The woman was seeing stars. She didn’t have the inclination, nor coherent thought to retaliate. All she could muster was a weak and wanton whine.

Arthur was only teasing of course, wanting to rile up this easily-flustered woman, though there was some genuine hope that perhaps she would indulge him again and take him up on the offer. He had an undeniable hunger towards the idea – a yearning that wouldn’t go away so easily. He wouldn’t overstep, of course. Though, something in her whine told him that he wouldn’t be.

His thumb tenderly rubbed against the contours of her breast, an attempt to ease her back into a state of quiet pleasure. Though, he definitely was enjoying Jo’s unbridled delectation. Her sweet cries continued to spill divinely from her lips while his other hand was still busying itself, the languid movements of his fingers curling up into that spot that had driven Jo crazy just moments ago. Her walls were velvety – soft, wet and welcoming – and Arthur couldn’t get enough. He wasn’t going to stop until his hand was utterly drenched in this sweet woman’s essence. Just the thought of watching her come undone was enough to stir the arousal already building within his loins.

He needed to see her squirm.

And that’s exactly what he got.

With a swift flick of his fingers, he drove them upwards into her silky depths, a renewed fervor overcoming his movements. It was risky, but he needed this – knew she wanted this too. His fingers curled and plunged deep. His pace had quickened and his fingertips drove directly into the woman’s sweet spot, repeatedly.

Jo bristled, her abdomen feeling impossibly tight. Her throat bobbed, her head angled back leaning against the bed– face slick with sweat. A shaky breath left her lips, then a drawn-out groan through her teeth quickly followed. This man was going to be the death of her. The knot tightened, the pressure within her burgeoning to an unbearable tension yearning to be released. Her thighs tremored, knees buckling inwards as an instinct to try and close her legs to receive just a little extra friction between her and his fingers.

The padding of his thumb, rough and calloused, prodded against her clit, his movements slow but unyielding, while the two fingers eagerly exploring her channel scissored in and out, curled adroit and upwards. Arthur, now whispering incoherent words of encouragement to the woman currently melting in his hands like putty, kept her on the edge for just a little while longer, articulating his fingers in practised bursts until he was ready to give her what she wanted.

Grunting into her ear, Arthur muttered something that made Jo writhe. Her mind was so hazy with her own pleasure that she almost missed it, the way his voice dropped lower into her ear, accent thick and husky, sent her into a frenzy. Those words were all Jo needed to be sent over the edge. She was going to explode.

And explode she did.

With a sudden jut of her hips upwards, Jo’s orgasm washed over her in intensive waves, crashing against her again and again— making her entire body tremble from head to toe. The woman arched, writhed, walls clamping down onto Arthur’s already dampened fingers as if trying to draw him in deeper like an unyielding vice. She was coming undone. She was unravelling before his eyes.

Her moans fell into the man’s ear while he cradled her body close to his, easing her through her earth-shattering climax. Her eyes fluttered, rolling back in carnal bliss, then squeezing shut as the shockwaves jolted her body in sporadic bursts. She felt pure, deepening whirlpools of pleasure, swirling through her consciousness.

She felt as though she were losing her mind, swearing it had gone blank for a moment as a flash of white crossed her vision. The woman’s chest heaved, her body heated, ruffled and glistening with the sweat of their combined fervour.

Arthur couldn’t help the grin beginning to form on his face as he moved her further on the bed. She didn’t care that her legs fell open for him, only cared that he was here, above her.

He lowered himself to the cradle of her thighs, and his eyes were so wide she could see the whites around them. He opened his mouth, but she didn’t want to hear the words, didn’t want to hear if she was sure about this or whatever he’d been about to say. 

She wanted this. 

She framed his face in her hands and kissed him savagely, her tongue scraping over his teeth as she ground their mouths together. 

The tip of his cock nudged at her entrance, slipping in the slickness there, and he reached down to guide himself in. 

At Arthur’s first prod into her body, fire erupted within her. She panted into his mouth, nipping at his bottom lip as he eased himself in. Just an inch.

He halted. He was large enough that the stretching was edged in the sweetest pain. 

Arthur’s gaze flickered between her eyes, back and forth, searching. Like he was looking for something—doubt, regret, a reason to pull away. His breath was steady but uneven, his fingers still ghosting over her skin as if bracing for her to change her mind.

But Jo didn’t.

She held his gaze, unwavering, letting him see whatever it was he needed to find. And when his eyes softened—when the tension in his jaw eased just slightly, like he had found his answer—Jo knew he wasn’t just looking anymore.

He was letting himself believe it.

His hips flexed, and he slid another inch—then retreated nearly to her edge.

Their breathing synced, and Jo stilled beneath him, a feeling of utter calm, utter fullness spreading through her as his hips moved again, and he pushed back in, farther this time. Arthur held her gaze through each thrust, each retreat. They said nothing, only shared breaths and kisses from time to time.

He pulled outward again, the movement long enough this time that she knew he was nearly all the way in. He halted, his cock barely inside her and studied her face. 

Arthur’s gaze darkened, heavy-lidded, tracing over her face like he was drinking her in. Jo’s eyes mirrored the heat in his, her breath coming slower, shallower, as if caught in the pull between them. 

There was fire between them, slow-burning and all-consuming. 

Arthur leaned down to kiss her. And as his tongue slid into her mouth, he thrust home in a final push. 

Jo moaned as he slammed to the hilt, and the impact of him hit her, stretched her, and she couldn’t breathe fast enough. Arthur withdrew again, and slammed back into her. 

He groaned this time, and the sound was her undoing. She wrapped her legs around his back and lifted her hips to meet his. He sank even deeper, and she dug her nails into his shoulders. 

Gods—nothing had ever felt so good, so full, so burning with pleasure. Nothing had ever felt like this. 

For a moment, she looked between their bodies to where his cock plunged into her, gleaming with her that she tightened around him, her release already building.

He felt her inner muscles squeeze him harder and growled, “Fuck, Jo.”

And she liked seeing him undone enough that she did it again, clenching on him just as he seated himself fully. He arched into it, fingers digging into the bed.

His restraint shattered. Arthur pounded into her, a hand moving from her hip to her hair, his other hand drifted between her legs. 

The silken touch had her erupting.

Her end came even stronger than the last, leaving her vision white and her back arching.

Arthur’s head tilted down close to her ear, moaning and groaning quietly.

Just for her. Only for her.

Each push and pull of his hips dragged Jo deeper through her orgasm until she was left shaking and gasping. His thrusts grew erratic and she could feel how tightly his muscles had coiled. With a deep groan, Arthur pulled out of her and rutted into his hand until his orgasm hit him and he came, painting her belly with thick ropes and drops of white.

He collapsed then, body layering over hers comfortably. Jo’s hands found his back and she pulled him close, turning her head to kiss him. Arthur’s hands curled around her and Josephine felt so safe suddenly. Safe and comfortable and floaty.

A soft, content sigh left her lips at the warmth that coursed through her and she dropped her head against the pillow, closing her eyes and savoring the afterglow.

“You okay?” Arthur asked, concerned, his voice a bit husky with a breathy lilt to it. “Was it…”

“No, Arthur. It was perfect,” Jo laughed, opening her eyes and gazing up at him. A smirk curled over her lips and she pecked his lips. “For such an old man, you still got it.”

Arthur shook his head and chuckled. He looked as if he was going to say something, but the words fizzled on his lips and she watched him gaze down at her, his expression changing into something soft. Something deeply admiring and open. He looked deep in thought, and she felt his fingers come up, stroking and cradling her cheek tenderly.

Jo stayed the night. He didn’t have to ask her to, and she didn’t need to reassure him she was. She simply curled up with him under the covers, their bare skin touching, his arms wrapped tightly around her, his hands tracing delicate patterns along her spine, as if handling fragile glass.

She wasn’t. Jo was anything but fragile. And yet, in this moment, Arthur treated her like she was something precious, something worth holding onto.

He murmured soft words against her ear, half-whispered confessions between lazy kisses to her shoulder. His voice was low, rough with exhaustion, but still carrying a tenderness that made her breath hitch. She laughed at something he said, the sound light and breathless, and he swore right then and there he’d do anything to make her laugh like that again.

The moonlight streamed in through the thin curtains, its pale glow catching the strong lines of his face, the tired yet contented curve of his mouth. Jo found herself memorizing every detail—how the light softened the sharp angles of his jaw, how his hair was still slightly damp, curling at the ends against the pillow.

Arthur let out a slow breath, his fingers trailing lazily along the bare skin of her back. He felt warm, solid beneath her touch, his body relaxed in a way she wasn’t sure she’d ever seen before.

Jo traced the ridges of an old scar across his ribs, following the shape of it absentmindedly. “Never figured you’d be this soft,” she muttered, her voice laced with quiet amusement.

Arthur huffed a tired chuckle. “Don’t go spreadin’ that ‘round.”

She smirked, but the warmth in his tone made her chest tighten. There was something else behind it, something unsaid. She knew it, could feel it in the way his hand lingered at the small of her back, how his thumb brushed slow circles against her skin.

After a beat of silence, he sighed, his voice dropping low. “Damn near drove me crazy, y’know.”

She tilted her head, brows furrowing. “What did?”

His fingers trailed up, tucking a stray strand of hair behind her ear. “Wantin’ you. Tryin’ to act like I didn’t.”

Jo stilled, her breath catching for just a second. She kept her voice steady when she replied, though. “You did a piss-poor job of it.”

Arthur chuckled, shaking his head. “That obvious?”

“Painfully.”

She felt him smile against her temple, the warmth of it bleeding into her skin. A silence stretched between them, but it wasn’t uncomfortable. Just heavy. Settling.

Arthur shifted slightly, his grip tightening as if afraid to let go, even in sleep. “Ain’t had somethin’ like this before,” he admitted gruffly.

She swallowed, her fingers stilling for a moment against his skin before she pressed her palm flat over his heart. She didn’t know what to say, didn’t know how to put into words what hearing that did to her. So she didn’t. Instead, she pressed a lingering kiss to his chest, right where she felt the steady rhythm of his heartbeat.

Her eyes traced over his face, counting the freckles dusting his nose and cheeks. She had no idea why she did that, only that she wanted to commit them to memory.

Arthur hummed sleepily, his hand sliding up to cradle the back of her neck. “You okay?”

Jo only nodded, nestling closer until her forehead rested against his. “I like this.”

His lips curved. “Yeah?”

She breathed out a soft sigh. “Yeah.”

And that was all either of them needed.

As the hours passed, they drifted between quiet conversation and long stretches of silence, where only the sound of their breaths filled the space between them. His fingers were always moving, grazing her bare shoulder, smoothing over her hip, tucking a stray strand of hair behind her ear. Every so often, he would press a slow, lingering kiss to her forehead, her temple, the corner of her mouth—each one a silent promise.

Eventually, the pull of sleep grew heavier, and Arthur’s arms tightened around her. He tucked her beneath his chin, his breath warm against her hair, and for the first time in a long while, Jo let herself rest without fear.

No nightmares. No ghosts of the past clawing at her. Just warmth. Just Arthur.

 


 

Jo stirred, warmth pressing against her back, the golden light of morning filtering through the thin curtains. The air smelled like him—smoke and leather and something faintly sweet beneath it.

She turned her head, her cheek brushing against his shoulder, and found Arthur already looking at her. His hair was a mess, his face soft with sleep, and for the first time, he looked… peaceful. His arm was still draped around her, like he hadn’t let go all night.

He smiled.

A slow, lazy thing.

Jo felt something tighten in her chest.

She’d never woken up beside him before. Never seen him like this—unguarded, quiet. She was used to him sharp and restless, always on edge, always carrying the weight of something. But right now?

Right now, he looked just about perfect.

Arthur stretched, one arm reaching for her, his voice rough with sleep. “Com’here.”

She didn’t hesitate. Crawled into his arms and pressed herself close, tucking her head beneath his chin. His grip was firm, grounding, like he had no intention of letting her go. He pressed a kiss to the top of her head, murmuring, “Mornin’ , sweetheart .”

Jo let out a breath she hadn’t realized she was holding. She smiled into his skin. “I like that,” she admitted softly. “I like it when ya call me sweetheart.”

Arthur chuckled, a deep, quiet sound in his chest. She could feel it vibrate through her. He rolled onto his back, stretching both arms out at his sides with a satisfied groan.

“Damn,” he muttered, eyes still closed, a lopsided grin tugging at his lips. “Ain’t slept that good in my whole damn life.”

Jo propped herself up on one elbow, watching him. The way the light caught on the faint scruff along his jaw. The dimples in his cheeks when he smiled. The broad stretch of his chest, bare and solid beneath her fingers.

God, he looked good like this.

“You slept a long time.”

She furrowed her brows. “Why didn’t you wake me?”

He shrugged. “Didn’t want to. You looked peaceful.” His fingers brushed over her cheek, tucking a stray strand of hair behind her ear. “Figure we don’t get nights like that too often.”

Jo exhaled, pressing her face into the pillow for a second before turning back to him. “How long?”

Arthur smirked. “It’s late. Already ten-thirty.”

She blinked. “What?”

Arthur chuckled, his fingers tracing idle circles along her shoulder. “Slept straight through. Didn’t even twitch.”

Jo groaned, rubbing her face. “I don’t sleep that long.”

“You did.”

“Shit.”

Arthur let out a slow whistle, teasing. “You gonna be alright, sleepin’ past dawn for once?”

She smirked, reaching over to swat at his chest. “Shut up.”

Arthur caught her hand before she could pull it back, lacing his fingers with hers. He brought it to his lips, pressing a slow kiss against her knuckles.

She laughed, shaking her head. For once, neither of them was in a hurry to be anywhere.

His gaze softened as he studied her, his voice quieter this time. “No nightmares.”

Jo hesitated. That realization hadn’t hit her yet. She exhaled slowly, her fingers still curled where they had landed against him. “Can’t remember the last time that happened.”

Arthur hummed, thoughtful. Her fingers moved again, this time tracing the slope of his nose, slightly crooked from years of being broken and reset by hand.

“Maybe you should sleep on me more often,” he murmured.

She scoffed, rolling her eyes even as her lips twitched. “I’m sure you want the bed back to yourself.”

Arthur didn’t smile this time. His eyes darkened, something unreadable flickering beneath the surface—something raw. It was the same look he got before a fight, when he was at his most dangerous, when something inside him pulled tight and restless. A wild thing barely kept in check.

“Not even close,” he murmured, voice rough at the edges. His fingers trailed down her arm, his grip tightening just slightly. “Ain’t never let anyone sleep in this bed before.”

Jo stirred against the sheets, stretching with a quiet hum as sleep slowly loosened its hold on her. The sunlight was warmer now, streaming through the curtains in soft golden slants. She blinked the haze from her eyes, only to find Arthur already watching her.

His head rested on his hand, elbow propped against the mattress. He looked impossibly comfortable, like he’d been there for a while. His other hand was tracing slow patterns along her shoulder, his touch light and absentminded.

She gave him a sleepy smirk. “What?”

Arthur grinned. “Ain’t every day I wake up to you lookin’ that peaceful.”

Jo huffed a quiet laugh, burying her face against the pillow. “Guess I should sleep in more.”

“Wouldn’t complain.” His fingers lingered against her skin, thoughtful. “Hold still a minute.”

She raised a brow at him. “Why?”

Arthur pushed himself up, leaning over to the side of the bed where his satchel sat on the floor. “Think I wanna draw you.”

Jo blinked, still a little foggy with sleep. “Draw me?”

He just nodded, rubbing the sleep from his own eyes as he reached for his journal. “Been meanin’ to for a while.”

The admission made her stomach flip in a way she didn’t quite expect. She hesitated, lips parting slightly, but Arthur had already moved on, digging through his bag with a small frown.

“Damn pen’s buried in here somewhere,” he muttered.

Jo sighed, stretching before rolling onto her side. “I’ll find it.”

Arthur didn’t argue, just settled back against the pillows while she reached for his satchel, pulling it onto the bed. She found his journal first—leather-bound, edges worn from years of use. She placed it beside him before returning her hand to the bag, fingers brushing past spare bullets, a stray cigarette—

She didn’t mean to pull it out. Didn’t even know she’d grabbed it until her eyes landed on the large, rough-edged paper.

Her breath caught.

A wanted poster.

Her wanted poster.

It was old, yellowed from time, but the face staring back at her was unmistakable. A younger version of herself, sharper, wilder.

Her blood ran cold.

“Find it?” Arthur’s voice was lazy, unaware, as he flipped open his journal.

Jo swallowed, fingers tightening around the paper before she shoved it back into the bag. She forced her voice to stay level. “Not yet.”

She rummaged a little longer, finally grasping the pen and pulling it free. When she turned back, Arthur was watching her, brows raised.

“You alright?”

Jo hesitated for only a breath. Then she gave him a smirk, twirling the pen between her fingers. “Yeah. Here.”

Arthur took it without question, flipping to a blank page. But his gaze flickered back to the satchel.

“What else was in there?” he asked absently.

She almost told him nothing. Almost let it go.

But that would make him suspicious.

So, instead, she reached back in and pulled the poster out with a casual shrug, unfolding it as if she was just now taking a good look. “This,” she said, holding it up. “Found it buried under all your junk.”

Arthur’s eyes landed on the poster, and something in his expression softened.

“Ah. That thing.” He exhaled a small laugh, rubbing the back of his neck. “Picked it up a while back. Saw it in Emerald Station. Thought she looked a hell of a lot like you.”

Jo forced a chuckle. “You serious?”

“Swear it.” Arthur smirked. “Damn near spooked me.”

Jo shook her head, pretending to study the poster. The name on it—Sarah—burned in her vision. She let out a low whistle. “Well, ain’t me. Never been to New Mexico in my life.”

Arthur nodded, already flipping a page in his journal. “Figured it wasn’t. Just thought it was funny.”

And just like that, it was gone. He believed her.

Jo folded the poster back up, setting it aside as if it was nothing. As if her heart wasn’t still hammering against her ribs.

Arthur’s hand brushed against her arm. “You gonna let me draw you or what?”

She exhaled, forcing herself to relax. “You sure you’re up for the challenge?”

Arthur grinned. “Always.”

So she let him.

Let him sketch her like she was something soft and untouchable. Let him look at her with that same quiet trust that had always been there, that steady, unshaken faith in her.

And it made her stomach twist.

Because the lie had slipped out too easily.

Because Arthur had believed her without hesitation.

Because she knew— God, she knew —when the truth finally came to light, it would gut him.

And she would have no one to blame but herself.

Chapter 23: No Safe Haven

Summary:

Jo wrestles with the urge to confess a buried truth.

Chapter Text

Some might say that chopping firewood for the past twenty minutes would be exhausting. Unfortunately for Jo, Arthur didn’t seem tired at all. And worse—he still had plenty of energy left to be a pain in the ass.

She had been staring, and she knew it. So when he set the axe down and turned, she snatched up the nearest thing she could find—a book—before he caught her.

“How’s the read?” he drawled, his voice thick with amusement.

Jo forced herself to keep her eyes on the page, angling the book just enough to block her view of him. “It’s... real interestin’,” she muttered, hoping he wouldn’t notice the slight delay in her response.

Hard to focus, though, when his shirt was damp and clinging to him in a way that made it painfully obvious just how solid he was.

Not that she was looking.

Arthur didn’t buy it for a second. He lingered a moment, gaze steady, before heading toward the washing area. “Sure seems that way,” he mused. Then, just as he rolled up his sleeves and reached for the water bucket, he added, real casual, “By the way, sweetheart , book’s upside down.”

Jo froze.

Her stomach dropped. Heat crept up her neck.

She slammed the hardcover shut with more force than necessary, glaring at his back as he chuckled under his breath.

Arthur made his way toward the house, his boots kicking up dust along the worn path. The late morning heat was already settling in, making the air thick and sluggish. A change of shirt sounded like a damn good idea.

As he approached the house, he spotted Sadie Adler sitting on a bench near the entrance, her posture relaxed but her hands busy. A whetstone scraped against steel in rhythmic strokes as she sharpened her knife, the blade catching the sunlight with each pass. Her sleeves were rolled up, exposing lean, tanned arms that spoke of hard work and a readiness for trouble.

Arthur slowed his steps. “How you doin’, Mrs. Adler?”

Sadie glanced up, her eyes sharp but not unkind. “How’re you?”

Arthur shifted, then lowered himself onto the bench beside her. The wood creaked under his weight as he leaned forward, elbows resting on his knees.

“Been quite a journey since I… well, since I joined you fellers,” she mused, inspecting the edge of her knife before giving it another scrape with the whetstone.

Arthur let out a breath, watching dust swirl in the air where the sun hit the ground. “Yeah…” he exhaled.

Sadie’s lips quirked. “And now you and Dutch have joined high society? My lord above.” Her chuckle was dry, laced with amusement and disbelief.

Arthur huffed, shaking his head. “Yeah, it seems so…” He ran a hand through his hair, the strands still damp with sweat.

Sadie tilted her head, turning the blade in her hands to examine her work. “I think my days in polite society are over.”

Arthur glanced at her, then straightened up a little. “Well, I just saw Bill Williamson at a party at the Saint Denis’ mayor’s house.”

Sadie blinked, then barked out a laugh, the sound loud and unapologetic.

Arthur smirked. “If he can do it, anyone can.”

Sadie shook her head, still grinning, but her expression sobered as she leaned in slightly. “You get any leads?”

Arthur nodded, the easy humor slipping from his face. “Yeah, I think so—”

Before he could say more, Dutch’s voice cut through the moment, smooth and commanding.

“You know so, Arthur Morgan.”

Arthur looked up just as Dutch strode toward the house, his pace steady, his presence demanding attention.

“Come on, we need to talk,” Dutch added, barely slowing as he reached the door.

Arthur sighed and pushed himself to his feet. He had half a mind to tell Dutch to slow the hell down, but that wasn’t how things worked.

Dutch turned slightly, pausing at the threshold as he looked past Arthur to Sadie. “Mrs. Adler, will you excuse us?”

Sadie didn’t move right away. Instead, she leaned back against the bench, tilting her chin up slightly. “When you gonna let me come robbin’ with you, Dutch?”

Arthur glanced at her, half-expecting Dutch to brush her off.

Dutch, however, grinned. “My Lord, few more like her, we could take over the whole world.”

And with that, he disappeared inside.

Arthur shot Sadie a look—part amused, part exasperated—but she only smirked, twirling her knife once before going back to sharpening.

With a shake of his head, Arthur followed Dutch inside, already bracing himself for whatever came next.

 


 

Jo remained near the gazebo, her book still in hand, though she hadn’t turned a page in quite some time. Her fingers traced absent patterns over the worn cover, her mind far from the words printed inside. Instead, it was consumed by the memory of last night—the way Arthur’s hands had felt on her skin, the way he had whispered her name like it was something sacred, the way she had melted beneath him without hesitation.

It had been good. More than good. But despite the lingering warmth, the pleasure that still clung to her bones, it wasn’t just the night itself that haunted her.

It was the wanted poster.

The sight of her own face, her name—her real name—staring back at her from the folds of Arthur’s satchel had made her blood run cold. It had stolen the breath from her lungs faster than any gun pressed to her ribs ever could.

She should have been relieved. He had believed her lie without question, hadn’t he? Arthur, the man who could smell deceit from a mile away, who could read people as easily as the back of his hand—he hadn’t suspected a damn thing. She had brushed past it, smiled, laughed even, and Arthur had smiled back.

So why did she feel like she was drowning?

She rubbed at her temple, exhaling sharply. It wasn’t guilt, was it? She had been lying for years; it had become second nature, a necessity for survival. And yet, something about this—about lying to him—felt heavier. More suffocating. Maybe because, for the first time in a long time, she had wanted someone to know her.

Maybe she should confess.

The thought sent a jolt of unease down her spine. Would it make a difference? Would saying it out loud lessen the weight pressing against her chest, stop the endless cycle of thoughts that refused to let her be?

Maybe.

But to whom?

Certainly not Arthur. She wouldn’t be able to stand the look in his eyes, the shift in his voice, the crack in whatever trust they had built. No, she wouldn’t risk that.

Not Ben, either. She had already lied to him once, and the idea of doing it again, of twisting the truth further, felt wrong.

Dutch? The thought alone made her stomach churn. She had no idea how he would react, and that terrified her more than anything.

That left Hosea.

Hosea, who had been the closest thing to a father since the gang had taken her in. Who had always offered wisdom without judgment, guidance without force. If anyone would understand, it would be him.

But even then, the idea of confessing felt like stepping off a ledge, unsure if there would be ground beneath her feet or a drop into nothingness.

Lost in thought, she didn’t notice the approaching footsteps until a familiar voice broke through the haze.

“Well, mornin’, Jo.”

Jo’s head snapped up, her heart lurching in her chest as she turned toward the sound. Abigail stood a few feet away, Jack in tow, holding his hand as he rubbed at his eyes.

Jo cleared her throat, forcing herself to sit up straighter. “Abigail,” she greeted, ignoring the way her voice came out a little too high.

The woman eyed her with a knowing smirk, arms crossing over her chest. “Didn’t mean to interrupt ya, but I was just wonderin’—” she glanced down at Jack for a brief moment before continuing, “—what in the hell was all that noise last night?”

Jo felt the blood drain from her face. Then, just as quickly, it rushed back tenfold, setting her skin on fire.

Abigail smirked wider, leaning in just a fraction. “Sounded like someone was havin’ themselves a real good time.”

Jo’s mouth opened, but no words came out—just an unintelligible noise caught between a gasp and a strangled cough. She shot a quick, horrified glance at Jack, who was too busy rubbing sleep from his eyes to be paying attention.

Her hands flew to her lap, gripping her book as if it could somehow shield her from the moment. “I—I don’t—”

“Oh, no need to explain,” Abigail drawled, thoroughly enjoying herself. “Just thought I’d check, seein’ as you were makin’ quite the racket.”

Jo had never blushed this hard in her life.

Abigail let out a laugh at Jo’s expression, reaching out to give her a light tap on the shoulder. “Oh, I’m just messin’ with you, hon,” she said, still grinning. “Ain’t none of my business what you get up to.”

Jo exhaled sharply, trying to shake off the mortification burning through her. “You nearly killed me, Abigail.”

“That so?” Abigail chuckled, settling onto the bench beside her. “I swear, you look just about ready to pass out.”

Jo ran a hand over her face, still too flustered to meet Abigail’s gaze. “I don’t know what you’re talkin’ about,” she muttered.

Before Abigail could reply, Jack tugged at Jo’s sleeve, his small voice cutting through the conversation. “Can I sit with you, Auntie Jo?”

Jo blinked, still recovering from her embarrassment, but when she looked down at him—those big, expectant eyes staring up at her—she felt her heart soften.

“‘Course you can, kid,” she murmured, setting her book aside and opening her arms.

Jack wasted no time clambering onto her lap, nestling against her with the easy trust only a child could have. Jo instinctively wrapped an arm around him, holding him close as he rested his head against her shoulder.

Abigail watched the interaction with a small smile, her teasing momentarily forgotten. “He’s taken quite a liking to you, y’know.”

Jo glanced down at Jack, brushing a hand over his unruly curls. “He’s a good boy,” she said softly. 

“Well, if you ever get tired of ridin’ around with these fools, you’d make a fine nanny.”

Jo scoffed at Abigail’s remark, shaking her head. “Oh, don’t even joke about that. Ain’t no way I’d be good at that.”

Abigail smirked. “You do just fine with Jack.”

“That’s different,” Jo muttered, looking down at the boy in her lap. He was easy. Sweet. But most kids? She never knew what to do with them. Never had the patience.

Before Abigail could tease her further, the sound of approaching hooves reached their ears. A slow, deliberate gait, like whoever was riding in had no reason to rush. Jo’s brows furrowed as she turned toward the entrance of camp, a strange unease settling in her chest.

Then she saw it.

The blood drained from her face.

At the same time, on the other side of the house, a scream of horror cut through the morning air.

Mary-Beth.

"It's Kieran!" she shrieked.

Jo’s body locked up. Her breath hitched, her stomach turned ice cold.

Not far from Mary-Beth, Strauss stood frozen, his face drained of all color, eyes wide with pure dread.

And he had a very good reason to.

Because what was left of Kieran Duffy sat atop a horse—his headless body propped stiffly in the saddle, and in his lap, his own severed head, hands still gripping it as if cradling something precious. Ropes kept his body upright, holding together the grotesque display.

For a long, awful moment, no one moved. No one breathed.

Then—

"Everybody take cover!" Dutch’s roar shattered the silence.

The world erupted into chaos.

Gunfire exploded from the tree line. Horses shrieked. People screamed. The air filled with the sickening sounds of bullets ripping through canvas, shattering crates, splintering wood.

Gunfire erupted from every direction. The sharp cracks of rifles, the deafening blasts of revolvers, the screams of gang members and O’Driscolls alike—all of it blurred into a single, chaotic storm.

Jo’s first instinct wasn’t to fight. It was to protect.

Jack. Abigail.

The nearest cover was a stack of grain sacks, hastily piled up and reinforced with wooden planks. Not perfect, but it would have to do.

“Come on!” Jo shouted, already moving, yanking Abigail’s arm with one hand while clutching Jack tightly to her chest with the other.

Bullets tore through the air around them, kicking up dirt, punching through canvas tents, splintering wood. Jack was trembling in her arms, small fingers clutching desperately at her shirt. Jo ran, heart hammering, instincts screaming. A sharp whistle of a bullet barely missed her ear.

They reached the sacks, and Jo practically threw herself behind them, crouching low as she handed Jack off to Abigail. Abigail pulled him close, arms wrapped protectively around his small frame.

Jo turned back, drawing her revolvers in one smooth motion. It was all she had on her, and it would have to be enough.

Gunfire erupted from the house, and she risked a glance up.

Dutch and Arthur were on the first-floor balcony, rifles raised, firing down at the O’Driscolls pouring into camp. Arthur’s expression was cold, focused, the set of his jaw rigid as he reloaded with practiced ease before firing again.

Jo snapped her attention back to the tree line. More men were charging in, some on horseback, others on foot.

The gang’s horses, panicked by the noise and bloodshed, were breaking loose, bolting in every direction.

Jo grit her teeth, lifting both revolvers, firing off quick, precise shots. One man fell from his saddle. Another collapsed mid-charge.

Then—

“Jack, no!”

Abigail’s scream cut through the chaos.

Jo’s head snapped around, breath catching in her throat.

Jack was running.

Out in the open, small legs moving as fast as they could toward the house.

A single bullet, and he’d be gone.

Jo barely had time to react before she saw a figure sprinting toward him.

John.

He came barreling out of the house, moving faster than she’d ever seen him, arms pumping, boots kicking up dirt.

A gunshot rang out, missing him by inches.

Arthur fired from above, covering him.

John didn’t stop. He reached Jack, grabbed him up in his arms, and continued charging toward where Jo and Abigail were.

Jo fired wildly at the tree line, desperation tightening her chest.

John slid behind the sacks, panting hard, Jack clutched against him.

Abigail was already reaching for her son, sobs of relief breaking through her ragged breathing.

John took up position beside Jo, reloading his revolver with practiced efficiency. The air was thick with the acrid scent of gunpowder, the deafening cracks of gunfire mingling with shouts and cries of pain. Jo barely registered John’s presence, her focus trained on the O’Driscolls emerging from the tree line, their figures shifting in and out of the smoke curling around camp.

“Women and children, inside! Rest of you, hold your ground!”

Dutch’s voice cut through the fray, sharp and commanding.

From above, Arthur continued firing, but as soon as Dutch gave the order, he fell back, ducking inside to ensure everyone got to safety. He muttered under his breath as he descended the stairs, anger vibrating through every word.

“Goddamn crap… Colm O’Damn Driscoll.”

The name alone sent a fresh surge of hatred boiling in his chest.

Colm had taken so much from them.

Annabelle had died because of them.

They got him.

They had tried to take Jo away from them, from him .

And now Kieran.

Arthur clenched his jaw, fury bleeding into every step as he moved through the house. He wouldn’t let this stand. They had to pay.

Simon Pearson and Molly O’Shea stumbled in from the back door, their faces pale, shock making them slow and unsteady. Pearson slammed the door shut behind them.

“Hold in here,” Arthur ordered. “And stay away from the windows.”

He didn’t wait to see if they listened. He was already moving.

The sound of gunfire outside was relentless.

Arthur ran down the hallway, boots thudding heavily against the wooden floor, shouldering through the double doors at the entrance. He barely slowed as he barked orders, his voice carrying over the chaos.

“Get inside, fast!”

People scrambled past him, fear etched into their faces. Strauss rushed through first, his usual composure shattered. Mary-Beth followed, eyes wide with horror.

“Come on, quick!” Arthur urged, voice sharp with urgency.

Abigail hauled Jack inside, holding him tight, her expression fierce and protective. Behind her, Mrs. Grimshaw followed, her usual steel shaken but intact.

As the last of them crossed the threshold, Arthur planted his feet at the entrance, scanning the camp for any stragglers. He wasn’t leaving anyone behind.

“Don’t let anyone back through that door!” he barked before turning and sprinting back toward the fight.

Jo and John were still holding the line, Charles on the other side, firing with steady precision.

Arthur slid into position next to Charles, raising his rifle, eyes burning with purpose.

Gunfire rang out in every direction, bullets whizzing past them as Arthur took down an O’Driscoll mid-charge, the man’s body toppling from his horse with a sickening thud. Another quick shot—another body hitting the dirt.

He barely had time to reload before John shouted, urgency sharp in his voice, “We’re getting overwhelmed! Fall back to the house!”

A large wagon rolled into view, packed with O’Driscoll men, their guns already blazing.

“Shit,” Arthur hissed under his breath.

John broke into a sprint, and Arthur fired off rounds to cover him, hitting one man in the chest, another in the shoulder. The gunman tumbled backward off the wagon, but more took his place.

Charles ran after John, and Arthur followed, firing one last shot before ducking into the house. The moment they were inside, Arthur threw his weight against the double doors, pushing them shut. The thundering of hooves and hollering voices outside sent a spike of urgency through him.

“Help me with this!” he grunted, shoving a large wooden cabinet across the doors. John and Charles joined him, straining against the weight.

The heavy piece of furniture scraped against the floor, finally blocking the entrance. It wouldn’t hold forever, but it would slow them down.

Dutch strode toward them, ever the commander even in chaos.

“Get these windows covered quickly,” he ordered. “John, you take the windows over there.” He motioned toward what had once been the dining room.

“Charles, you take the side door there.” Dutch pointed toward the entrance Pearson and Molly had stumbled through earlier.

Arthur was already moving, knowing what needed to be done, but Dutch turned to him regardless.

“Arthur, you take the windows in the back… go.”

Arthur didn’t hesitate, striding toward the rear of the house. The dimly lit room had once been a kitchen, though now it was barren, stripped of any signs of comfort or use. The only thing it offered was a clear view of the back of the house.

Arthur raised the butt of his revolver and smashed the nearest window, shards of glass falling onto the wooden floor. It gave him a better angle, a clean line of sight.

More O’Driscolls were circling around the house, looking for another way in.

Arthur exhaled sharply, steadying his grip on his gun.

If they wanted inside, they were going to have to fight their way through him first.

As Arthur continued to fire out the broken window, he called out over the deafening gunfire, “Is everyone accounted for?”

From the next room, John answered, though hesitation weighed in his voice. “I think…”

Arthur’s jaw clenched. That wasn’t good enough. “Hey! I said, ‘is everyone accounted for?’” he barked, sharp and demanding. This wasn’t the time for uncertainty. He wasn’t about to lose another member of his family to those dogs.

John let out a frustrated huff, still firing. “I don’t know! I think!”

That answer did little to settle Arthur’s nerves. His eyes darted around the house, catching glimpses of the others taking cover, returning fire, shouting orders. Dutch was near the front, hollering commands. Charles was holding the side door. John was still at his post. Abigail, Jack, and the others were safe inside.

But then it hit him. A blonde haired woman was missing. 

Jo.

She wasn’t inside.

She wasn’t with him, with John, or Charles. She wasn’t in front of the house either, not where the gang had made their retreat.

His heart kicked against his ribs. He trusted her skills, but this fight wasn’t just against one or two men—it was an ambush. The O’Driscolls came prepared, outnumbering them, surrounding them.

Where the hell was she?

Before he could demand an answer from anyone, a scream tore through the chaos.

A woman’s scream.

Sadie’s.

Arthur’s blood ran cold.

He didn’t wait. Didn’t think. He jumped from the window and bolted toward the rear of the house, gun in hand, ready to kill whoever was hurting her—or anyone else.

 


 

Jo was positioned on the side of the house, where the land sloped toward the swamp, shrouded in thick mist and tangled roots. The humid air clung to her skin, mixing with the sweat beading at her temple, but she barely noticed. She was crouched low behind a crate, her revolvers barking fire as she cut down the O’Driscolls one after another, her face set in a mask of cold, merciless fury.

The bastards had the audacity to come here, after slaughtering Kieran, to storm their home—her home.

Her hands were steady, her aim precise. A man charged through the murky water, gun raised, but before he could take a shot, she put a bullet right between his eyes. His body crumpled into the swamp with a wet splash, swallowed by the reeds.

Another one came up behind him—this one on horseback. He barely had time to register her presence before she fired again, striking him in the chest. He toppled backward, boots slipping from the stirrups, hitting the ground with a lifeless thud. The horse, now riderless, whinnied and galloped off into the trees.

Jo exhaled sharply, eyes darting for the next target. The fight around her raged on, bullets whizzing through the air, distant shouts and pained cries echoing from both sides. Somewhere outside the house, she could hear Arthur yelling, but she had no time to listen. Another man was coming, moving along the tree line, trying to get a shot on her.

She fired. Missed.

Fired again. He dropped.

She barely had a moment to breathe before she turned, snapping her gun up to another approaching figure—click.

No shot.

Her brow furrowed. She flicked her wrist, shaking the gun as if that would make a bullet appear—click, click.

Nothing.

Empty.

Jo glanced down, her chest rising and falling with exertion. She holstered the useless revolvers and reached to her belt for more bullets—only to find none.

Shit.

She patted her pockets, her coat—nothing.

Her ammunition was gone.

Her other weapons? In Arthur’s bedroom. In her tent. Both completely out of reach.

Fucking great.

Her teeth clenched as she looked up. O’Driscolls were still coming, and she was too far from the house to make a run for it without getting cut down.

All she had left was her knife.

She exhaled, slow and controlled, before drawing it from its sheath. The blade gleamed under the sunlight, sharp as a viper’s fang.

If they wanted a fight, she’d give them one.

Jo scrambled to her feet, abandoning the crate and darting toward the nearest tree. She had to move. Had to think. Had to—

A body slammed into her from the side, knocking the air from her lungs. She hit the ground hard, the damp earth pressing into her back. Her knife was still clutched tightly in her hand, but her grip faltered for a split second as she took in the man above her.

An O’Driscoll.

A broad-shouldered bastard with a wild grin and blood-streaked knuckles. His breath reeked of whiskey, and his eyes gleamed with malice as he took in her face, leering like he'd just struck gold.

“Well, well… what do we got here?”

Jo didn’t waste time with words. She swung.

Her knife sliced through the air, forcing the bastard to rear back with a curse. It gave her just enough time to roll out from under him and lurch to her feet.

He was fast—too fast.

He came at her again, throwing a wild punch. She ducked, countering with a sharp slash toward his ribs, but he twisted at the last second, avoiding the blade. They circled each other, breathing hard, the gunfire around them fading into background noise.

He lunged.

She sidestepped, slashing out again, aiming for his throat—but he caught her wrist in a vice grip.

"Not so fast, sweetheart," he sneered.

Jo snarled, trying to rip free, but he was strong. Too strong. He yanked her arm, pulling her forward, and drove his fist into her face.

Pain exploded across her cheekbone as her head snapped to the side. The taste of copper filled her mouth.

Before she could recover, he wrenched the knife from her hand and shoved her back, sending her crashing to the ground.

Grunting, she tried to scramble up, but he was on her again, pinning her with his weight. His knee pressed into her stomach, knocking the wind out of her. He leaned in close, breath hot against her face, and with a sick grin, he dragged the tip of her own knife along her cheek.

She hissed as the blade bit into her skin, leaving a stinging, shallow cut. Warm blood trickled down her face.

“Got one!” the bastard hollered, turning his head slightly toward the trees.

Heavy boots thundered toward them. More O’Driscolls.

Three men dropped to their knees beside her, one grabbing her arms and pinning them down, the others seizing her kicking legs. Jo bucked, snarling, fighting tooth and nail, but the weight of four men was too much.

“Lemme go, you sons of bitches!” she spat, thrashing against them, but they only laughed.

“She’s a feisty one,” one of them sneered. “Ain’t she, Sam?”

The one holding the knife—Sam, apparently—chuckled darkly. “Yeah, she is.” He pressed the cold steel just beneath her chin, tilting her head up slightly. “Might just have to break that spirit o’ yours.”

Jo’s blood ran cold, but she didn’t stop struggling.

Jo thrashed, but the bastards held firm. The one on her legs dug his knee into her thigh, grinding it in hard enough to bruise. The other wrenched her arms back at an unnatural angle, straining her shoulders until pain flared white-hot through her body.

Sam, the bastard with the knife, tilted his head, amusement flickering in his eyes as he watched her struggle.

“Damn, she’s a wildcat,” he mused. “Y’know, I always heard Van der Linde had some pretty little things in his gang.” He pressed the flat of the blade against her throat, not cutting, but enough to make her pulse hammer against the steel. “Didn’t expect one to put up this much of a fight, though you escaped our brothers last time.”

Jo bared her teeth, breathing hard through her nose. “Let me go,” she growled, voice laced with venom.

Sam only chuckled. “What d’you boys think?” he asked over his shoulder. “Should we keep her for a bit, or just put her down like the dog she is?”

The men holding her laughed.

“Ah, but she’s a looker, Sam,” one said. “Ain’t no harm in havin’ a little fun first—”

Jo didn’t let him finish.

With all the strength she had left, she wrenched one of her legs free and kicked up—hard. Her boot connected with his ribs, knocking the air from his lungs. He grunted, loosening his hold just enough.

Jo took her chance.

She bucked her hips violently, twisting her body to throw off the bastard pinning her arms. She almost got free—almost—

Until Sam grabbed her by the throat and slammed her head back into the ground.

A sharp crack rang out as her skull struck a root beneath the dirt.

White-hot pain exploded behind her eyes. Her vision blurred, black spots clouding the edges. A faint ringing filled her ears, drowning out the gunfire, the laughter, the sick amusement in Sam’s voice as he clicked his tongue.

“See, now you just pissed me off,” he muttered.

Chapter 24: The Devil at the Door

Summary:

The fight rages on, forcing Jo and the gang to fight for survival.

Chapter Text

Gunfire still erupted all around, the chaos of battle drowning out everything but instinct. Arthur fired beside Sadie, the two of them holding their ground near the rear of the house. He barely had a second to glance sideways before he caught sight of Charles hurling himself out of a window, landing directly onto an O’Driscoll with a forceful war cry.

And then—

A scream.

Not just any scream.

A voice he knew too well, one that had kept him awake at night, lingering in his thoughts like a damn ghost. The voice of the woman who drove him crazy in more ways than one. The woman whose touch still burned on his skin, whose eyes—hell, those damn eyes—had him wondering if maybe, just maybe, there was something more for him out there.

Jo.

Arthur’s head snapped toward the sound, eyes scanning frantically. In the distance, past the tree line, he saw them—three, no, four O’Driscolls, clustered together, struggling with something. With someone.

His stomach dropped.

And then he saw her.

Jo, pinned to the dirt, thrashing, fighting like hell—but outnumbered. A broad-shouldered bastard loomed over her, belt unfastened, his filthy hands reaching—

Arthur didn’t think. He didn’t hesitate.

A blinding fury unlike anything he’d ever felt before surged through him, hotter than any rage, any hatred he’d held for the O’Driscolls before. It wasn’t just anger—it was something primal, something deeper, something personal .

How dare they?

How dare they touch her?

His Jo. His woman .

His gun was already up before the thought even finished.

BANG .

The man above her crumpled instantly, a clean shot between the eyes.

BANG .

The bastard pinning her arms took a bullet straight to the skull, dropping lifelessly onto the dirt.

Arthur was already running.

The moment Jo’s arms were free, she reacted—fast as lightning, her fist flying upward and crack —she decked the bastard on her leg, sending him reeling.

Arthur slammed full-speed into the last one, tackling him like a damn bull and sending them both crashing into the dirt with bone-jarring force.

The fight wasn’t over yet.

But hell if Arthur was gonna let a single one of those bastards live after what they’d tried to do.

Arthur barely registered the weight of the O’Driscoll beneath him as his fist slammed into the bastard’s jaw, the sickening crack of bone beneath his knuckles only fueling the fire burning inside him. The man grunted, dazed, but Arthur didn’t let up. He grabbed a fistful of the bastard’s collar and landed another devastating blow, sending blood splattering onto the dirt.

“Piece of shit,” Arthur growled, seething, before he drove his fist one last time into the man’s face, knocking him out cold.

He stood, breathing hard, eyes already searching for the last one—the one Jo had punched.

He was ready.

But then—he didn’t need to be.

Jo was already standing over the man.

Her knife—bloodied.

The man—dead.

Arthur exhaled sharply, his chest rising and falling as he took her in. Her stance was unwavering, her fingers still clutching the handle of her knife in a vice grip. But her body heaved with each breath, and as his eyes flickered to her face, he saw them—hot, burning tears, trickling down her cheeks, cutting through the dirt and blood smeared across her skin.

Jo wasn’t crying from fear.

She was crying from rage.

From fury. From hate. From the sheer exhaustion of it all.

Arthur knew that feeling too damn well.

Their eyes met.

For a moment, the battlefield around them faded into nothing—just the two of them, locked in that shared storm of emotions, both still lost in the adrenaline, the fury, the relief that they were still standing. That they had survived.

Arthur’s gaze flickered down just slightly—to her cheek.

A cut. Fresh. Blood trickling from it.

A sharp, burning anger shot through him once more, fiercer than before.

The gunfire had begun to subside, but it didn’t matter. Nothing did.

Before he even knew what he was doing, Arthur crossed the space between them in a heartbeat, his calloused hands cupping her face, his thumbs brushing over her skin with a gentleness that contradicted the wild fury still burning inside him. His eyes darted between hers, searching, desperate—making sure she was really here, really with him.

Jo barely gave him a chance to say a word before she moved.

She closed the distance between them, her arms swinging up around his neck, her body pressing against his, needing— needing —his warmth, his presence, him .

Arthur barely had time to register it before his arms wrapped tightly around her, pulling her close, holding her like he never wanted to let go.

She had to stand on her toes to fully reach him, and even then, she was still smaller, still felt like she could disappear in his grasp—but Arthur wasn’t about to let that happen.

He held her.

Grounded her.

Kept her here.

With him.

Where she belonged.

 


 

Their moment, though sweet, was short-lived, for their camp was in desperate need of cleaning.

It took time—dragging bodies through the muck, retrieving spooked horses, kicking spent shells and splintered wood aside. Blood soaked into the earth, turning dirt to something darker, something sticky. The smell of death lingered, thick and suffocating, mixing with the swamp’s natural rot.

No one spoke much. There wasn’t much to say.

But at the end of it, everyone was still breathing.

Everyone except Kieran.

His name sat heavy in Jo’s chest, an ache she couldn’t quite shake.

They had buried him not too far away. The thought made her stomach turn. He hadn’t deserved that. He had been a good kid, soft-spoken, skittish but loyal. And now he was just... gone. 

Another loss among many.

The camp had settled into a restless stillness as night fell. Lanterns burned low, casting long shadows across the tents. No one had the energy to play cards, to drink, to fill the space with idle conversation.

Very few even touched the stew Pearson had made.

Jo hadn’t eaten at all.

Arthur had stayed close to her for a long while, the weight of his presence as an anchor, as a reminder that she was still here—that she was still Jo and not just a name on a wanted poster waiting to be found.

But then Dutch had called for him, and Arthur had left her side.

And now, Jo sat alone, her thoughts spiraling.

She had tried not to think about it.

Tried.

Tried to focus on Kieran, on the bloodshed, on how many bodies they’d left for the swamp. But it still crept in, curling around her ribs, sinking into her chest like a slow, gnawing sickness.

The wanted poster.

Her name. Her face.

Her past chasing her down like a wolf catching the scent of blood.

It had been easy to ignore it for a time—easier when there were bullets flying, when her knife was sinking into flesh, when she was clawing and fighting for her life. But now?

Now there was nothing left to fight but the truth.

And if things kept going like this, she wasn’t sure she’d be able to hide it much longer.

Her fingers twitched in her lap.

She needed to talk to someone.

Not just anyone.

Her eyes flicked toward his tent. His lantern was still lit, the canvas walls glowing soft and golden in the darkness.

He was still awake.

Good.

Or maybe not.

Her stomach clenched. Her hands curled into fists against her thighs.

She knew Hosea. He was sharp—sharper than most of the gang, sharper than Dutch even, though he rarely showed it. He read people like books, peeled them open page by page until all their secrets lay bare before him.

If she spoke to him, he would know.

And yet…

She was tired.

Not just the kind of tired that a good night’s sleep could fix, but something deeper, something that sat in her bones. She was tired of carrying this weight alone.

She had to talk to someone.

She had to.

Taking a slow, steady breath, Jo stood, forcing her legs to move even as doubt clawed at her mind.

She walked toward Hosea’s tent.

And then—

She stopped.

Hesitated.

Her boots had barely scuffed against the dirt when her resolve wavered, her fingers twitching at her sides.

What if this was a mistake?

What if she told him, and everything changed?

What if he looked at her differently?

She swallowed hard, staring at the closed tent flap, her heartbeat a dull, steady thud in her ears.

She wasn’t ready for that.

Maybe she never would be.

But before she could turn back, before she could disappear into the shadows of camp and pretend she had never even thought about this—

A voice called from inside.

“Jo?”

Hosea.

Gentle.

Expectant.

Like he already knew she was there.

Her breath caught in her throat.

And then, before she could talk herself out of it, she stepped forward and pulled back the tent flap.

Jo stood just inside the tent, feeling smaller than she had in a long time. The space smelled of old books and pipe smoke, comfort wrapped in familiarity, and yet her stomach twisted into knots.

Hosea sat at his small, makeshift desk, peering at her over the rim of his glasses. He didn’t look surprised to see her, just… patient. Expecting. He set aside the book in his hands, folding it shut with a quiet thump .

She swallowed hard. The words wouldn’t come.

Say it.

But it was easier to stand there, to let the silence stretch, to pretend she hadn’t just made the decision to unearth something she had buried deep.

His eyes softened, his hands folding atop the desk as he leaned forward just slightly, an invitation rather than a demand. “Jo?”

She licked her lips, shifted on her feet. “Things are—” A pause. Her throat felt tight, her voice raw. “Things are bad again.”

Hosea exhaled through his nose, slow and knowing. He said nothing, waiting.

Jo clenched her jaw, her gaze darting to the lantern flickering between them. Shadows danced across the tent walls. Her own shadow seemed too tall, looming like some ghost of herself that she could never escape.

Her hands balled into fists.

“I made a mess of things,” she muttered.

He hummed, thoughtful. “And what kind of mess are we talkin’ about?”

Jo hesitated.

Her lips parted, but the words caught. Her mind screamed at her to turn back.

But she couldn’t.

Not anymore.

So she sat down, feeling the weight of it all press against her shoulders, and she did the one thing she swore she’d never do.

She told him.

Everything.

From the beginning.

She recounted all the things she had endured as a child, the things she never spoke of, not even to herself. The years of suffering, of running, of hiding. The things done to her. The things she had done in return. She left nothing out. Not her real name, not the lies she had told, not the moment she had first met Hosea and Dutch as a desperate, half-wild girl of sixteen.

She admitted she had lied to them.

She told him about the wanted posters. About her face, her name, her past clawing its way back to her after all this time.

And as she spoke, shame crawled up her spine like a cold hand, whispering that this was a mistake. That he would hate her for it. That he would look at her like the world always had—like she was dirty , wrong , something to be used and discarded.

But Hosea never interrupted.

He never recoiled.

He just listened.

And when she finally fell silent, her breath unsteady, her throat raw, her eyes brimming with tears, she dared to look up at him.

And what she saw there wasn’t judgment.

It wasn’t disgust.

It was sorrow.

And something else.

Understanding.

Hosea sat back in his chair, exhaling slowly. His fingers drummed against the worn wood of the desk before curling into a loose fist, as if he had to physically stop himself from reaching for something—comfort, maybe, or some way to fix what had already been done. But there was no fixing the past.

His eyes, usually sharp with amusement or quiet calculation, were heavy with something else now. Grief, perhaps. Not just for what she had told him, but for the girl she had been. The girl she had never gotten to be.

No child should have to endure what she did.

He shook his head slightly, more to himself than anything. “Oh, Jo…” His voice was quiet, careful. It carried the weight of everything she had just confessed, but not an ounce of judgment. Just sadness. Maybe even guilt—guilt for never knowing, never seeing past the walls she had built.

Jo had braced herself for a reaction, for anything —for disgust, for anger, even for him to dismiss it like it wasn’t worth mourning. But not this. Not the sorrow in his expression, the raw ache in his voice.

“I don’t even know what to say,” he admitted after a long pause, his fingers rubbing against his temple. “Not because I don’t care—I do. God, Jo, I do. But because… there ain’t nothin’ I can say to make it right.” He let out a heavy breath. “And that kills me.”

Jo’s throat tightened. She had thought speaking it aloud would make her feel lighter, but she only felt raw, like an old wound had been split open and left bleeding.

Hosea studied her, his gaze searching. “You carried all this… all these years? Alone?”

She couldn’t look at him when she nodded.

He cursed softly under his breath, shaking his head again. “No wonder you’re always so damn stubborn.”

A small, humorless huff of laughter escaped her, but it died just as quickly.

Hosea leaned forward then, resting his elbows on the desk, hands clasped together. “I won’t pretend I understand it all. Won’t pretend I could understand what it’s like, because I don’t. But I know what it means to run from a past that won’t stay buried.” His voice turned quieter, thoughtful. “And I know the kind of strength it takes to survive it.”

Jo swallowed hard.

He let out another long breath, rubbing his chin as if turning something over in his mind. Then, with a wry, tired smile, he said, “I always knew you were tough, Jo. But now I know why .”

Jo blinked, stunned by the sincerity of it. She had expected him to look at her differently, and he did—but not in the way she feared. There was no revulsion, no rejection.

Just Hosea.

Just understanding.

And for the first time in a long while, she didn’t feel so alone.

Jo hesitated, staring at the worn floorboards beneath her feet as if the right words might be carved into the grain. Her fingers twitched against her knees, restless, unsure. Then, in a quiet, unsteady voice, she asked,

“Ain’t—ain’t you disappointed? Angry?” Her throat was tight, the weight of her own words pressing down on her. “That I lied? For so long?”

Hosea exhaled softly, pushing himself up from his chair. He took his time, his movements slow, deliberate, as he walked toward her. When she finally dared to look up, she found no anger in his face. No disappointment. Only warmth.

“Jo,” he murmured, his voice as steady as ever. “I ain’t mad at you. And I sure as hell ain’t disappointed.” He rested a hand on the back of the chair beside her, leaning just slightly. “We all got ghosts we’d rather keep buried. Secrets we’re too damn scared to say out loud. You had your reasons.” He gave her a small, knowing look. “And if I were in your shoes, I reckon I’d have done the same.”

Jo bit the inside of her cheek, trying to keep the emotion at bay. But it was no use. The knot in her chest tightened, her breath hitched, and before she could stop herself, the tears began to fall.

Hosea’s expression softened further, his brows knitting together in quiet sorrow. “I’m sorry, Jo,” he said, and though it wasn’t his fault, she knew he meant it. “For all of it. For what happened to you. For what you had to survive. No child should go through that.”

A sharp, broken sob tore from her throat as she all but crumbled forward, seeking the warmth of his presence, his steadiness. She wrapped her arms around him, clinging to him like he was the only solid thing in a world that had never stopped shifting beneath her feet.

Hosea stilled, surprised at first—but only for a second. Then, wordlessly, he closed his arms around her, one hand coming up to the back of her head, his thumb tracing a slow, soothing pattern along her shoulder. A silent promise that she was safe.

Jo’s breath shuddered against his chest. Between soft, hiccupped sobs, she managed to whisper, “I wish—” another shaky breath, “I wish you was my dad.”

Hosea closed his eyes briefly, something deep and aching settling in his chest. He wished that too. If only so she wouldn’t have had to suffer the way she had. If only so she could have had the kind of childhood she deserved.

His hold on her tightened just slightly, protective, reassuring. “Oh, dear…” he murmured, pressing a steady hand against her back. “If I could go back… if I could change it all for you, I would.”

Jo only gripped him tighter, burying herself in the quiet comfort he offered. And Hosea, without hesitation, held her right back.

The world outside their embrace remained still, untouched by the weight of their moment. The campfire crackled softly in the distance, its glow flickering against the canvas of the tent, casting shadows that swayed like ghosts in the night.

As they held onto each other, the scene seemed to pull away, as if watching from afar—the two figures in quiet solace, framed against the dim lantern light. Beyond them, the moon hung high in the sky, silver and luminous, surrounded by the soft glimmer of stars. The air was cool, the night gentle, offering a rare peace amidst the chaos of their lives.

Jo had finally spoken. Finally let someone in. And though the weight of her past still clung to her, she had relieved some of it. Just a little. Enough to breathe easier. Someone had believed her. Had understood.

But unbeknownst to her, they had not been alone.

A figure lingered in the shadows beyond the tent, just beyond the reach of light. Far enough to remain unseen, yet close enough to hear every word spoken in confidence. A quiet observer, prying into what was never meant to be known.

And now, they knew everything .

 


 

The world around her was wrong. Twisted.

Jo ran, her boots slamming against the uneven ground, but no matter how fast she moved, she wasn’t getting anywhere. The trees stretched too tall, their branches gnarled and skeletal, clawing at the darkened sky. The air was thick, heavy, like molasses clinging to her skin, suffocating her with every breath. Shadows slithered at the edges of her vision, shifting, whispering, taunting.

Her name.
They were calling her name.

Soft at first, like a breeze through the trees. Then louder. Closer. The voices of the dead. Voices she thought she had buried long ago.

"Sarah… Sarah… Sarah…"

She shook her head violently. No. That wasn’t her name anymore. That girl was gone. Gone.

A crack of twigs behind her sent her spinning around. Nothing. Just endless dark, stretching in every direction. The path beneath her feet curled and twisted like a living thing, leading her in circles. No matter where she turned, she was trapped in this nightmarish maze.

And then—

A figure.

Her breath hitched. Relief crashed into her, overpowering the dread. Arthur.

"There you are,” she breathed, exhaling like she had been holding it in for hours. She stepped toward him, hands shaking at her sides. “I’ve been lookin’ everywhere for you.” Another shaky breath. “You scared me.”

He didn’t respond.

Arthur stood still, half-hidden in the dark, his broad shoulders rigid, his hat casting a shadow over his face. His gun belt rested heavy on his hips, his holster undone. His hands flexed at his sides, fingers twitching like they ached to reach for something.

"Hey… what’s the matte—"

“I know what you did.”

The words slithered out slow. Heavy. Accusatory.

Her blood turned to ice.

“What— what d’you mean?”

Arthur lifted his head, and when their eyes finally met, her stomach twisted. There was no warmth in his gaze, none of the softness she had grown to cherish. His face was like stone, expression unreadable, save for the deep betrayal in those blue depths.

"Don’t make this harder than it has to be," he muttered.

Jo took a step back. Her breath came quicker now, shallow, sharp. She barely felt the way her fingers curled into fists.

“What’re you doing with that?” Her voice wavered. She hadn’t even noticed the blade in his hand until now.

A long, sharp hunting knife.

“What are you gonna do?”

Arthur took a step forward. Her feet refused to move.

“You stood by my side,” he said, his voice quiet but full of something awful. “All the while you had blood on your hands.”

"I don’t know what you think I did, but… Come on, it’s me.” She took another step back, panic crawling up her throat. “We’re a team, remember? No matter what, we can—we can get through thi—"

The knife plunged into her stomach.

Jo gasped, a choked, gurgling sound escaping her lips. Her hands shot up to clutch at him, but he stepped back, letting her crumple to her knees.

The pain was excruciating. Hot and deep, burning through her insides like fire. She gasped for breath, but nothing came, only the thick taste of copper on her tongue.

Arthur loomed over her, his expression never changing.

"We are through."

Jo tried to speak, to plead, but all that came out was a wet, strangled sound as she collapsed onto the dirt. Darkness swallowed her whole.

 


 

Jo shot up from her cot, her chest heaving, cold sweat clinging to her skin. Her breath came in ragged gasps, fingers trembling as they clawed at the blanket tangled around her legs. The dream still clung to her, suffocating, the phantom pain of the knife in her gut making her press a hand there as if to stop nonexistent bleeding.

It was just a nightmare.

Just a goddamn nightmare.

She exhaled, long and shaky, trying to calm the erratic beat of her heart. Unloading her burden to Hosea had helped—God, it had helped—but it had also added another problem to the ever-growing pile. She had stayed with him for a while, talking, grounding herself in the warmth of his understanding presence before retreating to her tent for the night.

Falling asleep had been easier than she thought. She should’ve known better.

The nightmare had been proof enough.

Jo scrubbed a hand down her face, blinking against the darkness. The camp was quiet, save for the occasional crackle of the dying fire and the distant sounds of the swamps. Cicadas hummed, the faint croak of a bullfrog somewhere near the water’s edge. It was peaceful, but her mind was anything but.

Her heart pounded in her chest, deafening against the eerie silence of camp. She sat frozen, staring into the darkness, her hands trembling as she pressed them against her lap. Her body ached from the tension, her muscles still locked in that moment of terror.

She wasn’t in the woods. She wasn’t lost. Arthur hadn’t turned on her. He hadn’t—

Jo squeezed her eyes shut, willing away the lingering horror. But the image wouldn’t fade. Arthur’s cold, unrelenting stare. The way he had spoken to her like it meant nothing. The betrayal in his voice, sharp as the knife he had driven into her.

She dragged a shaking hand down her face and let out a shaky breath. Her cot suddenly felt suffocating, the air inside her tent thick and stale. She needed to move. She needed air.

Throwing off the blanket, Jo swung her legs over the side and forced herself up. The swamp air greeted her as she stepped outside, thick with humidity but cool enough to send a shiver through her sweat-dampened skin. The camp was eerily quiet, save for the distant croak of frogs and the rustling of unseen creatures in the brush. Normally, these sounds were a comfort, a reminder that she was never truly alone out here. But tonight, they only unsettled her further.

Her hand drifted to her stomach, to the place where Arthur’s blade had buried itself in her dream. She pressed against it lightly, reassuring herself that there still was no wound, no blood, no betrayal. It wasn’t real. It wasn’t real.

But the fear was.

Her eyes flickered across the camp, drawn instinctively to the first-floor balcony, where Arthur’s bedroom was. A part of her longed for his presence, his warmth, the comfort of hearing his voice. But another part of her—one she wasn’t sure she could ignore—knew that going to him now, after that nightmare, wasn’t the answer. The image of him standing over her, distant and merciless, was still too fresh.

Her gaze shifted toward Hosea’s tent. He had listened to her earlier, had believed her. Maybe she could wake him, tell him about the dream, let him soothe the lingering dread clawing at her chest. But no, she had already burdened him enough for one night. He deserved his rest.

So instead, Jo stood there beneath the night sky, her arms wrapping around herself as she stared up at the stars. They twinkled above her, distant and unmoving, unaware of the turmoil churning inside her.

She had finally told someone the truth. Unloaded her burden, if only a little. And yet, in doing so, she had only made her fears more real.

Because now, there was no more denying it.

If Arthur ever found out the truth, what then? Would he look at her the way he had in her nightmare? With disgust? With cold, unwavering judgment?

Would he—

She exhaled sharply, cutting the thought off before it could take root.

Jo stayed outside a while longer, listening to the world around her, trying to convince herself that she was safe.

But the unease never left her.

Chapter 25: A Wanted Woman

Summary:

Jo’s carefully guarded past unravels.

Notes:

This chapter really gets into the thick of things—starting with the long-awaited reveal of Jo’s past. It’s something that has been building up for a while, and now the truth is finally coming to light. From here on, the stakes are only getting higher. Buckle up, because things are about to get intense!

Chapter Text

The night was suffocatingly quiet, the air thick with an unnatural stillness that made every creak of the house seem deafening. Outside, thunder rumbled in the distance, rolling through the valley like a beast stirring in its sleep. Fourteen-year-old Sarah Wightman lay curled up in her ornate canopy bed, the heavy silk drapes around it failing to offer any sense of security. Her fingers clutched at the embroidered edge of her blanket, heart pounding in her ears as she stared at the gilded ceiling above. The chandeliers in the hallway had long been dimmed, the once-glowing gas lamps now casting long, eerie shadows through the open doorway of her room.

She knew something was wrong. She could feel it in the pit of her stomach—a gnawing fear that kept her wide awake, even as the warmth of the summer night left her skin damp with sweat. The Wightman estate, grand and elegant, had never felt more like a prison.

Then, the crash came. A door being thrown open downstairs, shaking the very foundation of the house. She jolted upright, gripping her blanket like a lifeline. Then came the voice—her father’s. Slurred, enraged, filled with a drunken fury that turned her veins to ice.

“Where are you? You can’t hide from me!” Henry Wightman’s voice echoed up the grand staircase, booming off the lavish wallpaper and crystal fixtures.

Sarah froze. It had gotten worse since the accident at the mine— his mine. The family had always been wealthy, powerful, untouchable. But one mistake, one failure, had sent everything spiraling. And her father—once a man of confidence and command—had been reduced to this. A monster fueled by anger and liquor, lashing out at anything, anyone , who dared to breathe in his presence. He was no longer the man who once lifted her onto his shoulders and spoke of adventure. Now, he was a monster. And she knew exactly what came next.

The sound of his boots on the stairs made her stomach churn. Each step was a drumbeat of impending doom. He was coming. He always came for her, after he was done with—

A scream.

Sarah’s eyes flew open.

Her mother.

A high, piercing wail of terror split the night. Then another, raw and desperate.

Sarah bolted upright, her tiny hands shaking as she flung the blanket off her legs. Her feet hit the cold wooden floor, her breath coming in short, panicked gasps. Do something. Go help her. Don’t just sit here.

She took one step forward—

Then, the scream cut off.

Silence.

A sickening, suffocating silence.

Sarah’s blood turned to ice. Her hand hovered over the doorknob, her fingers trembling. A voice, low and menacing, slithered through the quiet.

Then— thud .

The unmistakable sound of something heavy hitting the floor.

Her mother’s weak, choked sobs followed.

Sarah bit down on a whimper. She pressed herself against the door, her heart slamming against her ribs.

“No, please, please—” her mother’s voice cracked, barely more than a whisper.

Glass shattered.

Another thud .

A strangled, gasping noise—then nothing.

Her mother was quiet now.

Too quiet.

Her father’s ragged breathing was the only sound left in the house. It was uneven, like he was standing over something— someone .

Sarah squeezed her hands over her ears, trying to block it out, trying to pretend she was anywhere but here.

Then, the footsteps changed course.

Coming up the stairs.

Coming for her.

She stumbled backward, her pulse a frantic drum. Her mind screamed at her to hide, to run, but her legs refused to move.

The door to her room exploded open.

It slammed against the wall with enough force to rattle the oil lamp on her nightstand. Her father stood in the doorway, silhouetted by the dim flicker of lantern light from the hall. His face was a twisted mask of fury, his eyes bloodshot and wild.

“There you are,” he growled.

Sarah couldn’t breathe.

He stepped forward, his shadow swallowing her whole.

She stumbled back, shaking her head, pressing herself against the farthest wall. No. Please, not again. Not tonight.

But he was already upon her. His hand lashed out, fingers digging into her thin arm like a vice.

“Please—”

The plea barely left her lips before he yanked her forward, hard enough to make her knees buckle. His breath reeked of whiskey, sickly sweet and suffocating as he snarled into her face.

“This is all your fault,” he hissed. His grip tightened until she whimpered in pain. “If it wasn’t for you— none of this would’ve happened.”

Sarah gasped, her mind reeling, her mother’s crumpled form flashing behind her eyes.

No.

No, he was wrong.

She hadn’t done anything.

She hadn’t—

His grip shifted, dragging her toward the bed as he started to unfast his pants. 

Not again.

Not again.

A surge of terror and adrenaline flooded her veins.

Sarah twisted, yanking with all the strength her small body could muster. It wasn’t enough. He was too strong.

“Let—go—”

She flailed, kicked, dug her nails into his skin. But he barely seemed to notice.

Her foot knocked into the nightstand, toppling the oil lamp. Glass shattered, the flame sputtering out. Darkness swallowed the room.

She couldn’t see.

Couldn’t breathe.

Then—

“Stop it!”

A voice.

A sudden flash of movement.

Her mother, bloodied and desperate, threw herself between them, shoving Sarah back.

Sarah stumbled, nearly falling. She blinked through the dark, trying to make out the blurry silhouette of her mother, standing against the monster she had once loved.

Her father turned on her mother, breathing hard, his rage shifting like a storm changing course.

Sarah saw the moment he snapped.

She barely had time to scream before he grabbed her mother by the arm, dragging her out of the room.

“No—NO!”

She lunged forward, but the door slammed in her face.

A lock clicked.

Sarah pounded against the wood, her small fists useless against the barrier.

“Mama!”

Her screams went unanswered.

Downstairs, the nightmare continued.

And all Sarah Wightman could do was listen.

Sarah's hands trembled as she rattled the door handle, heart hammering so hard she thought it might shatter her ribs. Locked . The heavy iron key was likely still in the lock on the other side—her father never wasted time fumbling with it when he was in a drunken rage.

Tears burned her eyes, but she forced them back. Think . She couldn't afford to cry. Not now. Not with her mother downstairs, alone with him.

Her gaze flicked around the dimly lit bedroom, searching. Her father had taken anything she could use as a weapon long ago, but he couldn’t take her mind.

Then, she saw it.

The old vanity dresser against the far wall, its wood polished to a deep mahogany sheen, with a small mirror perched on top. Next to it, the window—too high and too dangerous to climb out of, but maybe…

Sarah darted to the vanity, gripping its delicate frame. Her fingers found the smooth porcelain of her mother’s old perfume bottle, a gift from Paris, still full of rose-scented liquid. She grabbed it, moving quickly.

She rushed back to the door and knelt down, pressing her ear against it. The hallway was silent. That was worse. 

Swallowing her fear, she tipped the perfume bottle upside down, dribbling the oil-like liquid into the thin gap between the door and the frame, right where the lock mechanism sat. Her fingers trembled as she did it, but she forced herself to focus.

When the wood had soaked enough of the perfume, she set the bottle aside and stood, backing up toward the vanity again. One deep breath. Two. Then she grabbed the heavy, silver-framed mirror, lifted it with all her strength—

And threw it at the door.

The impact was deafening. Glass exploded across the room in a violent burst of shards, the sound echoing through the house. The door groaned under the impact, the lock rattling violently in place. Sarah didn’t hesitate. She lunged forward and threw her shoulder into the door with everything she had.

Once. Twice—

The third time, the wood splintered, and the door swung open.

She stumbled into the hallway, breathless, shards of glass crunching beneath her bare feet. The scent of whiskey and smoke was thick in the air. The house—once a grand display of wealth, with its high ceilings, gilded wallpaper, and crystal chandeliers—felt suffocating, its lavishness a cruel contrast to the horror unfolding within its walls.

Then she heard it.

The ragged, choking sob of her mother.

Sarah didn’t think. She ran .

“Stop it!”

Her scream tore through the air as she threw herself at her father’s arm, clawing at him with every ounce of strength her small frame could muster. “You’re gonna kill her! Leave her alone!

He barely acknowledged her, shaking her off like an insect.

On the ground, her mother gasped, her body trembling as she struggled to breathe. Sarah’s heart clenched at the sight. Her mother was so tired. So weak. She can’t take much more.

“Leave her alone!”

She lunged again, desperate. Her fingers dug into his sleeve, yanking, clawing, but it only made him angrier.

Henry Wightman’s face twisted in fury as he released his grip on his wife’s throat. She collapsed to the floor in a heap, coughing, barely able to lift her head.

Sarah had no time to react before his hand slammed into her chest, sending her flying backward.

Pain exploded through her spine as she hit the wall, her breath leaving her in a choked gasp. For a moment, the world swam—her vision blurred, her ears rang—but through it all, she could still hear her mother.

“Hey… It’s gonna be okay,” she whispered, barely above a breath.

But it wasn’t.

Sarah saw it before it happened.

Her father turned, stepping over her as if she were nothing, his focus now entirely on her mother.

Sarah watched in horror as he straddled her, wrapping his calloused hands around her fragile throat once more.

“No—”

Her mother clawed weakly at his wrists, her breath hitching, her legs kicking against the polished marble floors. He squeezed . Her eyes bulged. Her body convulsed.

And then, in one final act of brutality, Henry lifted her and slammed her head against the floor.

The sound was sickening. A wet, heavy crack that echoed through the grand room, louder than the storm outside.

Sarah froze.

Her mother lay motionless, her head tilted at an unnatural angle. A pool of blood spread beneath her dark hair, seeping into the expensive rug.

Sarah’s world collapsed.

“No…”

The word barely left her lips before her knees buckled, the weight of it all crushing her.

She had done everything. Everything .

She had obeyed. She had let him do whatever he wanted, however much it hurt, however much she wanted to disappear. She had traded herself to protect the only person who had ever loved her. She had let him rape her over and over, beat her unconscious… all to protect her mother. 

And it had meant nothing .

Her stomach twisted. Her chest ached as she struggled to breathe past the sobs ripping from her throat.

“You promised ,” she choked.

Her father barely looked at her.

He just wiped the blood from his hands, sighing like she was nothing more than an inconvenience.

Sarah’s body moved before her mind caught up.

She lunged.

Her fists pounded against his chest, small but fueled by a rage so deep it burned. “You promised! You promised !” She beat against him, over and over, her voice breaking with every syllable.

He grabbed her wrists, shoving her back.

“You said if I did what you wanted, you wouldn’t hurt her!” Her vision blurred with tears. “You promised !”

Henry Wightman didn’t even blink.

He turned his back on her.

That was his mistake.

Sarah saw it. The knife. The one the cook must have had used to prepare dinner, now discarded near the blood-stained floor.

Her fingers closed around the handle.

The first stab was instinct. A blind, primal act of survival.

The second was revenge.

The third was hatred.

Then she lost count.

She didn’t stop. Couldn’t stop. She plunged the blade into him again and again, the wet sound of flesh tearing filling the suffocating silence. Blood sprayed across her nightgown, her hands, her face. She felt it soak into her skin, warm and thick, but she didn’t care.

A gurgled gasp.

Her father staggered, turning to her at last. His eyes were wide—shocked. As if it had never once occurred to him that she would fight back.

That she was strong enough to end him.

Sarah twisted the knife one last time.

Henry Wightman collapsed.

His body hit the floor beside her mother’s, blood pooling beneath him in thick, crimson waves.

The knife slipped from her fingers.

Her hands shook violently as she looked down at them, coated in red.

She couldn’t breathe.

She collapsed to her knees, her body convulsing with silent sobs. Her mother’s empty eyes stared at the ceiling.

Sarah let out a broken, animalistic wail.

She cried until her throat was raw.

She cried until the sun rose, and the girl she had once been was buried beneath the weight of it all.

When she finally stood, there was no Sarah Wightman anymore.

There was only Jo .

 


 

Night hadn’t been kind to her. Neither had her memories.

Jo sat hunched over, elbows resting on her knees, staring at her own reflection in the small, cracked mirror she carried. The dim morning light filtering through the tent cast a pallid glow over her face, highlighting the deep, bruised shadows under her eyes—somewhere between purple and dark blue, like the aftermath of a fight she hadn’t physically endured.

Her gaze trailed lower, to the long, thin cut running across her cheek. It had begun to heal, but the skin was still raw, the edges slightly inflamed. A fresh mark to add to the collection, another thing to remind her of everything that had happened. She ran her fingers over it absentmindedly, feeling the sting beneath her touch. It hadn’t hurt much at the time—adrenaline had seen to that—but now, in the quiet of the morning, it ached.

She looked awful.

Her fingers tightened around the mirror for a moment before she set it down, reaching instead for the basin of water beside her cot. She cupped the cool liquid in her hands and splashed it over her face, letting the shock of it chase away the remnants of the night before. It didn’t help much. The weight of her thoughts clung to her like damp clothes, suffocating, inescapable.

With a sharp exhale, she grabbed her tin cup and poured herself a generous serving of coffee. She downed it in one go, barely registering the bitter taste before pouring herself another. The second cup went just as fast. If she drank enough of it, maybe she’d stop feeling like she’d been up all night, staring at the ghosts of her past.

She needed to get out of here.

The camp, the familiar voices, the quiet concern—she wasn’t in the mood for any of it. Not this morning.

Tugging on her coat, she pushed herself to her feet and stepped away from the campfire, blinking against the daylight. The camp was already alive with movement, but she kept her head down, avoiding the wandering gazes of those who might ask where she was off to.

Saint Denis.

It wasn’t the best place to clear her mind, but at least it was loud enough to drown out her thoughts. Even if it was still midday, too early for a drink, she figured she’d earned one.

After the night she’d had, she deserved it.

 


 

The heavy scent of whiskey, stale beer, and tobacco clung to the air of Doyle’s Tavern, a far cry from the polished grandeur of the larger saloons Saint Denis had to offer. Here, the floors were uneven, the walls were darkened with age and smoke, and the patrons kept to themselves, drinking away troubles they wouldn’t dare share with anyone else. It suited Jo just fine.

She sat at the bar, her hat low over her eyes, fingers wrapped around a glass that had been filled and emptied more times than she cared to count. The whiskey burned on the way down, warming her chest but doing little to ease the weight in her mind. It wasn’t enough to drown out everything, but it was enough to dull the sharpest edges.

The bartender, a burly man with a grizzled beard and a sharp eye, wiped down the counter near her. “You sure you don’t wanna slow down there, miss?” he asked, not unkindly.

Jo smirked faintly, lifting her empty glass. “Why? You afraid I’ll drink the place dry?”

He gave her a knowing look. “Ain’t my whiskey I’m worried about.”

She chuckled, shaking her head, but didn’t argue. Maybe she had enough. The whiskey hadn’t given her the peace she wanted, just made her limbs a little heavier, her thoughts a little slower. And the longer she sat here, the more she started thinking about getting back to camp.

With a sigh, she tossed a few coins onto the counter, pushed her chair back, and grabbed her coat. “’Preciate it,” she muttered before stepping outside.

The streets of Saint Denis bustled with life—merchants peddling their goods, carriages rolling past, the distant clatter of a passing trolley. Jo moved through the crowd, her steps steady despite the drinks settling in her veins. She wasn’t drunk—just numb enough to stop thinking too hard.

She turned a corner, not paying much mind to the path ahead, when she collided with someone.

Hard.

The force knocked her back a step, and she instinctively reached out to steady herself. “Shit—my fault,” she muttered, looking up. “Didn’t see you th—”

Her breath caught in her throat.

The man standing before her was no stranger.

He was tall, broad-shouldered, with a face carved from stone—sharp, weathered features and cold, calculating eyes. A man who exuded danger in the way he stood, in the way he looked at her now, as if he’d been expecting this very moment.

She knew him.

Knew exactly who he was.

A bounty hunter. One she’d seen before, back when she’d gone to the Downes ranch after the Valentine bank job. A man Ben had warned her about.

The haze of whiskey vanished in an instant.

Her body went rigid, every muscle tensing as her mind raced through the worst possibilities. The city around her faded, the sounds of Saint Denis dulling under the sharp, deafening pulse of her own heartbeat.

She took a step back, pulse hammering against her ribs. Her mind screamed at her to move, to run, to disappear into the crowd before—

A hand shot out.

Before she could turn, his fingers clamped around her wrist, vise-like and unrelenting.

Jo barely had time to react before the world tilted, before the ground felt suddenly too far beneath her feet, before she realized—

She was caught.

Jo’s heart slammed against her ribs as the bounty hunter’s grip tightened around her arm, yanking her roughly off balance. The street around them blurred, her mind racing, pulse hammering in her ears. She’d been so stupid—so damn careless.

Bumping into him like that… she might as well have handed herself over on a silver plate.

"Well, well," the man drawled, his voice thick with amusement. "Ain't this somethin'. Almost feels like fate, don’t it?"

She struggled, trying to wrench herself free, but his grip was ironclad.

"Let me go," she snapped, her voice colder now, her panic shoved deep beneath layers of defiance.

The bounty hunter only chuckled, tightening his hold as he all but dragged her toward the alleyway. “Now why would I go and do that, Blondie?” His grin stretched, his face a sickening mix of smug satisfaction. “Not after all the trouble your friend went through to lead me to you.”

Jo stiffened.

Ben?

Her blood ran cold.

"What?" Her voice was hoarse, barely above a whisper.

The bounty hunter yanked her forward, out of sight of the bustling streets. “Oh yeah. You didn’t think I found you all on my own, did you? That train ride o’ yours made it easy enough for ol’ Benny to track you down. And damn, did he do a good job.”

Jo's stomach twisted.

No. No, that wasn’t possible.

Ben wouldn’t—

Would he?

She had spent years running. Years making sure no one could ever find her. And yet, somehow, he had. He had recognized her in an instant, called her by a name she hadn’t heard in years, the name she had buried beneath the life she had built.

And now, here she was. Caught.

She clenched her jaw, refusing to let the bounty hunter see even a flicker of doubt.

"You're lying," she said evenly.

He snorted. "Am I?"

He didn’t give her time to think. The world tilted as he shoved her forward, and she stumbled, catching herself just before her knees hit the ground. She barely had time to take in her surroundings before he was on her again, dragging her inside a run-down shack outside of the city.

His and Ben’s hideout presumably.

The air was thick with stale tobacco and whiskey, the scent clawing at her senses as she took in the dimly lit room. A table sat in the center, scattered with playing cards and an open bottle, a half-smoked cigarette left to burn itself out in the ashtray.

The bounty hunter shoved her into a chair, pulling out a length of rope from his belt.

Jo jerked away, her pulse spiking. "Touch me with that, and I’ll rip your throat out," she hissed.

The bastard only chuckled. "Feisty. But we both know you ain’t goin’ nowhere."

He tied her hands anyway, binding them tight enough to sting, the coarse fibers digging into her skin. Jo swallowed back her anger, her mind racing for an escape.

She had to stay calm.

Had to think.

Had to—

The door creaked open.

And then, there he was.

Ben.

His face paled the moment he saw her, his usual easy charm stripped away in an instant. His green eyes, so familiar yet so foreign now, widened with something close to horror.

"Shit," he muttered under his breath.

Jo saw it then. The flicker of something in his gaze—guilt.

He hadn’t planned this.

But he didn’t say a word to confirm it.

Instead, he schooled his expression, stepping further inside, his face unreadable.

"Didn't think you'd catch her so fast," he said, his tone almost too casual, too controlled.

The bounty hunter laughed. "Damn near walked right into me. Like she wanted to be caught."

Ben glanced at Jo, his jaw tightening.

She met his gaze, searching for answers.

And for the first time in years, she wasn’t sure if she could trust him.

 


 

Arthur returned to camp with the slow, unhurried movements of a man who had spent the day working but didn’t quite feel tired yet. His horse let out a small huff as he dismounted, and he patted its neck before giving his jeans a few quick claps to rid them of dust. The trip had been a good one—Albert Mason was an odd sort, but he had a way of making a man feel useful. He’d never had much interest in photography—seemed like a waste of time, standing around, waiting for the perfect shot—but there was something oddly charming about Albert Mason’s relentless dedication to his craft. The man had an eye for things Arthur barely noticed.

Arthur had saved him from being a wolf’s dinner the first time, and today, he’d wrangled some wild horses for the man’s camera. Not the kind of work he was used to, but Mason’s enthusiasm had been something else entirely. It was almost… contagious.

Straightening, Arthur let his gaze sweep across camp, as he often did upon returning. The usual rustling of the gang filled the air—the clang of Pearson’s pots, the occasional snort from the horses, and the low murmur of conversation. But something was missing. Or rather, someone.

Laramie wasn’t among the camp’s horses.

He frowned. Jo was gone.

Jo’s absence sent an uneasy ripple through his chest. He turned, scanning the camp with mild interest at first, but as he found no sign of her, that small unease settled a little deeper.

He crossed paths with Lenny near the supply wagon, who looked up from whatever he was doing when Arthur approached.

“Hey, you seen Jo?” Arthur asked, his tone casual.

Lenny shrugged. “Yeah, left earlier. Looked like she was in a rush to get outta here.”

Arthur exhaled through his nose, a slow, deliberate breath as he mulled over that piece of information. That wasn’t like her. Jo could slip in and out of camp without a word if she wanted, but rushing… that was different.

His first instinct was to saddle back up and find her. Maybe she’d gone to stretch her legs, clear her mind—he knew better than most how those dark thoughts could linger. But the last time he had went after her, it hadn’t ended well. The memory of their conversation, or rather, the way she had shut him out, still lingered like an unhealed wound.

“Alright,” Arthur muttered, more to himself than Lenny. “Thanks.”

Lenny nodded before returning to his work, and Arthur walked deeper into camp, his mind still occupied with Jo’s absence.

She needed her space. If she wanted to talk, she would.

That’s what he told himself, anyway.

His fingers found his satchel, and almost absently, he reached for his journal.

Earlier, before parting ways with Albert Mason, Arthur had taken an interest in the man’s work. It was only natural to want to know if the man was at least talented, if all the hassle was worth it. Mason had been eager to share, flipping through his carefully stored photographs with a kind of wonder that Arthur found amusing. One had been of the wolves Arthur had scared off—sharp-eyed, deadly creatures caught mid-motion. But the second… the second had taken him by surprise.

A woman, captured in stillness.

Blonde hair, light and wispy in the photograph’s lighting. A familiar figure standing next to a well-groomed mare. Jo and Daisy. 

Arthur hadn’t been able to hide his recognition.

“You know her?” Albert had asked, curiosity laced in his tone.

Arthur had only hummed in response, looking at the image longer than he should have.

Albert had smiled knowingly. “She was quite kind to me, you know. Helped me with a rather unfortunate coyote situation. Quite the capable woman.”

Arthur had smirked at that, shaking his head. “That she is.”

And now, the photograph was his.

He carefully tucked it between the pages of his journal, pressing the cover shut as if that alone could hide the warmth in his chest. He wasn’t sure why he’d taken it, why he felt the need to keep it. Maybe it was because she never let anyone look too closely at her. Maybe because, in this frozen moment of time, Jo looked peaceful. There was a stillness in the image that Arthur rarely saw in her—calm, almost weightless. A softness she didn’t often let people see.

And now, he had the damn thing hidden in his journal like some fool with a secret.

Arthur exhaled, shaking his head at himself.

Wherever she was, he hoped she was safe.

 


 

Jo sat stiffly in the chair, her wrists burning against the rope, her mind screaming at her to move, to fight, to do something —but she couldn't. 

Not with Ben standing there, staring at her like he didn’t expect to see her here.

Like he hadn’t led her here.

Because that’s what happened, wasn’t it? The bounty hunter’s words echoed in her head, each one digging into her ribs like a knife.

"You didn’t think I found you all on my own, did you? That train ride o’ yours made it easy enough for ol’ Benny to track you down. And damn, did he do a good job.”

She swallowed against the bitter taste rising in her throat.

Ben had warned her about the bounty hunter. Told her to be careful. But all along, he had been setting her up, leading her straight into the hands of the man who would drag her back to wherever the hell they meant to take her.

Goddamn liar.

And here she had been, still thinking about him like some fool .

The bounty hunter dropped into a chair opposite her, grinning as he propped his boots up on the table, knocking over the whiskey bottle in the process. The liquid dripped onto the wooden floorboards, soaking into the cracks.

Jo barely blinked.

"Not so chatty now, huh?" the man mused, tipping his chair back. "Not much of a surprise. Most folks don’t got much to say when they’re sittin’ in their own grave."

Jo kept her face blank. She wasn’t giving this bastard the satisfaction.

But that only seemed to amuse him more.

He sighed, shaking his head. "Y’know, when I first got your name, I thought no way —not a girl. But damn, you proved me wrong." He smirked. "You know how many folks wanna see you swing?"

Jo's stomach curled, but she kept her expression steady.

"You got a list long as the damn state, sweetheart. Multiple counts of robbery, extortion, blackmail—" He ticked them off on his fingers like he was listing groceries. "—assault, arson, fraud, murder —" His grin widened when he saw the flicker in her eyes. "Oh yeah, let’s talk about the murderin’ part."

Jo said nothing.

He leaned forward now, boots dropping from the table, voice lowering like he was about to share a secret.

"You ever think about how many bodies you left behind? How many sons? Daughters? You ever think about the lives you ruined ?"

Jo’s throat tightened.

"Bet you ain’t never even counted, have you?" His smirk curled into something crueler. "Bet you don’t even remember their faces."

She clenched her jaw, refusing to look away, refusing to let the weight of his words sink into her bones.

But they did.

They always did.

The Downes boy’s face flashed in her mind first. The way his hands had curled into fists when she stood over his mother, watching her crumble beneath the weight of debt. Watching as he saw her as the villain.

Then there were the men she had shot in the streets, the ones who never even saw it coming. The ones who screamed. The ones who didn’t get a chance to.

Blood on her hands. Blood she never bothered to wash.

She had always told herself it was just the way things were. Just the way the world worked.

But then why did it feel like she was drowning now?

"Maybe," the bounty hunter went on, "you do remember. Maybe you wake up at night seein’ ‘em all. Maybe they whisper to you, tellin’ you it’s your turn next."

Jo finally looked away, her jaw locking so tightly it ached.

The bastard laughed. "That’s what I thought."

She hated how her heart pounded against her ribs, how the words made her stomach twist, how he —a man who had no right to judge her—made her feel like she was staring into an open grave.

Maybe she had been running from this for too long.

And now, it had finally caught up.

"Quit messin’ with her head," Ben's voice cut in suddenly, sharp and controlled.

Jo snapped her eyes back up to him, but he wasn’t looking at her.

He was looking at the bounty hunter.

The other man scoffed. "C’mon, don’t tell me you feel bad for her . You should hate her more than anyone, Ben. After all, wasn’t she supposed to be your problem first?"

Ben didn’t flinch. "Yeah, well, she ain't your problem now either."

The bounty hunter grinned. "Ain’t she? Then what’s she doin’ tied up in our hideout?"

Jo barely breathed.

Ben looked at her then, his expression unreadable.

And for the first time since bumping into the bounty hunter, she wasn’t sure if she had misjudged him—or if he had betrayed her in a way she would never be able to forgive.

The bastard finally gave his name.

Ben muttered it under his breath as he stood stiffly near the door, watching as the man— Carson —grabbed Jo by the chin, tilting her face up with enough force to make her wince.

"You’re a lot smaller than I expected," Carson muttered, his voice laced with amusement. "All them stories make you sound like some kinda beast, but look at you. Just a little thing. Ain't that somethin’?"

Jo jerked her head away, fire flashing in her eyes, but the ropes held her still.

Carson chuckled, enjoying this. "Bet you think you’re gonna get outta this, huh?" He ran a thumb over the cut on her cheek, the one still healing from the O’Driscoll’s assault. "Bet you think you're gonna weasel your way out, same as always."

Jo bared her teeth at him. "Touch me again, and I’ll show you how small I ain’t ."

Carson grinned. And then he struck her.

The crack of his palm against her face echoed through the room, snapping her head to the side.

Ben tensed, his fingers curling into fists.

Jo stilled for a moment, blinking through the sharp sting that spread across her cheek. Then, slowly, she turned her gaze back to Carson, eyes blazing, lips curled into a smirk.

"That the best you got?" she sneered.

Carson laughed, shaking his head. "Damn, you really are somethin'."

Ben couldn't look away.

Couldn’t ignore the way she held her ground, how she refused to break.

And suddenly, it hit him—this was wrong .

What the hell was he doing?

He had spent years making sure her tracks were covered, throwing hunters off her trail, keeping him —Carson—away from her.

Only to let her walk right into this mess because he had been too damn slow to stop it.

Carson let go of her, rolling his shoulders with a sigh. "Damn, I need a drink," he muttered, reaching for the whiskey bottle. "Or maybe another few."

Jo exhaled sharply through her nose, flexing her fingers against the rope binding her wrists.

Ben clenched his jaw. He had to fix this.

Had to fix her .

And soon, the opportunity came.

Carson downed a few more drinks, growing sloppier with each gulp, until finally, he shoved himself to his feet with a groan. "Gonna take a piss," he muttered, stumbling toward the door.

The moment it shut behind him, Ben moved.

Jo tensed as he crouched beside her, pulling his knife from his belt.

"What the hell are you doin’?" she snapped, her voice low but sharp.

"Shut up and hold still," Ben muttered, working on the ropes.

Jo yanked her arms back as much as she could, glaring at him. "Don't touch me."

Ben sighed. "Jo—"

"Don't Jo me!" she hissed. "You— you goddamn liar, you—"

She cut herself off, her voice trembling with fury.

Ben met her eyes, knowing what she was about to say.

"I trusted you."

And goddamn, did it hurt .

"Just let me fix this," he muttered, cutting through the first binding.

Jo shook her head, rage and betrayal burning in her gaze. " Fix it? You did this!"

"I didn’t—" Ben stopped himself, exhaling sharply. " I didn’t bring you here, Jo."

She scoffed. "Oh yeah? Then how the hell did Carson know exactly where to find me? You think I’m that stupid?"

Ben clenched his teeth, slicing through another rope. "I didn’t tell him, I swear—"

"You swear?" she bit out. "Oh, well, in that case, let’s all just hold hands and pretend that makes it better!"

"Would you shut the hell up and let me get you out of here ?"

Jo's lips pressed into a thin line, her chest rising and falling sharply.

The last rope fell away, and she immediately yanked her arms back, rubbing at the raw skin on her wrists.

Ben sat back on his heels, watching her carefully.

Her hands trembled, but she forced them to still.

Her face was unreadable.

Then, finally, she whispered, "I trusted you."

Ben swallowed hard, the weight of those words heavier than any bullet.

"I know," he murmured.

And he wasn’t sure if he’d ever get that trust back.

Ben's hands moved quickly as he stuffed some supplies into a small satchel, his mind already working through the plan. He could send Jo out through the back and have her circle around to get her horse. If she kept low, she could slip away unnoticed. Carson was drunk and sluggish—if they were fast, they could pull this off.

Jo was still rubbing at her wrists, her expression unreadable, but the tension in her shoulders hadn’t eased. The fight hadn't left her yet. She was still pissed at him, and rightfully so.

"Head straight for Laramie," Ben murmured, keeping his voice low. "She’s probably tied up out back, ain't no way Carson would leave a horse like that far. Get to her and ride hard. You hear me?"

Jo looked at him, frowning slightly. "And what about you?"

Ben glanced at her but kept his hands busy, adjusting his gun belt. "I'll make up somethin’."

Jo let out a humorless laugh. "Yeah? And he’s just gonna believe you?"

"I’ll figure it out," Ben muttered, avoiding her eyes.

Jo scoffed. "That's a load of shit."

Ben sighed, running a hand through his hair. "Jo—"

"Come with me."

His hand froze.

Slowly, he turned to her.

Jo was staring at him, arms crossed, expression still guarded but… there was something else there. A flicker of the past, of the boy he used to be, the one she used to know.

Ben hesitated.

She stepped closer, voice softer but no less firm. "You really think he's gonna let you walk away from this? He knows you've been covering for me. He ain't stupid."

He swallowed. " I can handle him."

Jo scoffed again. "Like hell you can. You're comin’ with me."

Ben clenched his jaw. He wasn't sure if she was saying it because she still cared or because she just didn’t want to owe him anything. Either way, time was slipping.

They had to move.

He exhaled sharply and gave her a nod. " Fine. "

Jo didn't waste another second. She turned toward the back door, and Ben grabbed his rifle, slinging it over his shoulder before following her into the night.

They moved fast, keeping to the shadows. Laramie was right where Ben expected—tied up near the side of the shack, shifting anxiously as Jo approached.

Jo barely had time to unfasten Laramie's reins before she heard the unmistakable slam of a door behind her.

"You sons of bitches!"

Her head snapped toward the sound. Carson stood in the distance, his stance unsteady, his gun already drawn.

Jo's stomach clenched.

"Dead or alive," he spat, eyes locked on her as he raised his gun.

It all happened in a breath.

The crack of the gunshot rang through the night—

—and suddenly, Ben slammed into her, shoving her out of the way.

Jo stumbled back, her boots skidding against the dirt as she hit the ground hard.

Ben crumpled beside her.

For a second, she couldn’t move, couldn’t breathe. Then her eyes found him, and the breath she'd lost came back as a strangled gasp.

Ben was clutching his chest, blood already seeping through his fingers.

Jo’s hands shook as she crawled toward him. " Ben— "

Her hand hovered over him, frozen mid-air, useless.

She didn’t know where to touch, what to press, how to help .

Her mouth opened, but nothing came out.

Nothing but a tear that fell from her cheek, landing on the bloodstained fabric of his shirt.

Ben groaned, a weak smirk playing at his lips despite the pain. " Dumbass … that was meant for you."

Jo's breath hitched. "Why the hell—"

"Don't look at me like that," he muttered, wincing. 

Jo sucked in a trembling breath, shaking her head. "Get up," she sobbed, hands grasping at Ben’s shoulders. " Get up. "

She pulled, tried to haul him up, but his body was too heavy, slick with blood.

Ben groaned, his arms barely moving before giving out beneath him.

"You're too heavy," she pleaded, voice raw with desperation. "I can't—he's comin’—"

"Go , " Ben groaned, head lolling back.

Jo gritted her teeth, ignoring him as she yanked at his arm again. "No, come on," she choked out. 

A sharp cry tore from him as she tried again, his entire body tensing with pain. " Go! " he barked, a desperate command. 

She stilled, her breath coming in short, uneven gasps. "I can’t," she whispered, voice breaking. " I can’t. "

Ben grunted, his hands slick with his own blood, but he lifted them anyway—reaching for her.

His fingers brushed against her jaw, then cupped her face, smearing warmth across her cheek.

Jo didn’t stop him.

Didn’t move when he leaned in, his lips brushing hers so lightly, she almost didn’t feel it. Almost.

His breathing was ragged against her skin. " I always loved you, " he murmured, voice hoarse, his thumb sweeping over the tear that slipped free. "Ever since we were kids."

Jo sucked in a sharp breath, another tear falling.

"Now , go, " he whispered.

She swallowed hard, looking away—looking anywhere but at him—until her gaze landed on Carson.

Still standing there.

Still watching.

His gun now pointed directly at her.

A hot surge of fury burned through her veins, mixing with the grief that threatened to crush her chest.

Her hands curled into fists.

Then, she turned back to Ben, her face crumbling.

He gave her a faint smirk, eyes already dimming.

Jo clenched her jaw, then pushed herself up, staggering backward, heart hammering against her ribs.

She hesitated—just for a second.

Then she ran.

She ran.

Ran like hell, like her life depended on it—because it did.

The world blurred around her, branches whipping against her arms as she tore through the trees. Her lungs burned, every breath raw and ragged, but she didn’t stop. She couldn’t stop.

Ben’s face flashed in her mind, his empty gaze staring back at her, his bloodied hands lifting toward her one last time. She squeezed her eyes shut, but it didn’t help. The images wouldn’t leave.

I always loved you…

A sob tore from her throat.

She swiped at her face with her forearm, trying to erase the endless stream of tears, but more took their place, hot and relentless.

A shot rang out behind her.

She didn’t know if it was meant for her or if Carson was just reminding her he was still there.

Either way, she ran faster.

Her boots pounded against the earth, her entire body light as she sprinted between the trees. She focused on nothing but getting away, on keeping her feet moving—until she crashed into something solid.

Someone.

Strong arms wrapped around her before she could react.

" NO! " Jo screamed, panic surging through her like wildfire. She fought— God, she fought—twisting, kicking, clawing, anything to break free. "Don’t touch me!"

She felt trapped, caged all over again.

"Get off me!" Her voice cracked, desperation leaking into her words as she struggled. "Please —please! " She sobbed, fists slamming against the figure, trying to make him let go. "Let me go!"

" Jo! " The voice was rough, urgent. Hands caught her wrists, stopping her frantic blows. "It’s me!"

She froze.

"Jo, it’s me, " the voice said again, softer this time, steadying her with a firm shake.

Her breath hitched.

She blinked up, vision blurred by tears, barely able to make out the face before her.

Arthur.

Arthur, staring at her with wide, worried eyes.

Never had he seen her like this. Never had he seen her this scared, this afraid.

He took her in, gaze flicking over her body—the blood smeared on her hands, the leaves tangled in her hair, the sheer panic twisting her face. His brows furrowed, confusion and concern battling for space in his expression.

"I thought—" she choked out, the words broken, breathless.

Then she threw her arms around him.

Arthur barely had time to react before she was pressing herself against him, gripping the back of his shirt like she’d disappear if she let go.

His arms wrapped around her, strong and secure, one hand cradling the back of her head as he held her close. "It’s me," he murmured again, his voice grounding, anchoring her. "I got you."

She buried her face in his chest, breathing him in, her body shaking against his. He felt warm and familiar. He felt solid and safe. She wanted to cling to his shirt, bury her face into the warm curve of his neck, and never let go.

Arthur swayed her gently, a slow, soothing motion meant to calm. He could feel her breathing begin to slow, her fists unclenching against his back.

But when he pulled away, when he went to brush her hair from her face, his hand came back red.

His breath caught.

Jo froze.

Her gaze dropped to her hands, to the blood smeared across her fingers, her palms.

Arthur’s expression darkened, any softness in his eyes vanishing in an instant.

His jaw tightened. "What happened?" he seethed.

Jo didn't answer. She just stared at her hands, her breath coming in short, uneven gasps.

Arthur’s question hung in the air like a threat. His fingers twitched at his sides, itching to grab his gun, to do something . But she just stood there, trembling, looking at her own hands like she didn't recognize them.

"Jo," he tried again, voice low, barely holding back the anger bubbling beneath. "What the hell happened?"

She swallowed hard, chest rising and falling as if she couldn’t get enough air. "We we gotta go," she rasped finally, glancing over her shoulder.

Arthur followed her gaze toward the darkness of the trees. There was something out there. Someone.

His grip on her tightened instinctively. "Who’s after you?"

" Please, " she begged, yanking at his arm. "We have to go!"

It was the desperation in her voice that got him moving.

He pulled her along, keeping a firm hand on her back as they hurried toward where his horse was. His mind worked fast, trying to put the pieces together—she was covered in blood, she was running from someone , and she was scared out of her damn mind. That alone was enough to make his stomach turn.

Never had he seen her like this.

Never had he seen Jo —fierce, stubborn, sharp-tongued Jo—look so utterly terrified.

They reached his horse, and Arthur helped her up without question. He’d ask later. He’d get the full story later. Right now, all he cared about was getting her the hell out of there.

He climbed into the saddle behind her, his arms securing her in place as he kicked his horse into motion.

Behind them, somewhere in the trees, a shadow moved.

Arthur knew it wasn’t over. Not yet.

But for now, he wasn’t leaving her side.

Chapter 26: What Remains

Chapter Text

Since Ben’s death, not once had Arthur let Jo sleep alone.

Not because he wanted to keep her close—though deep down, he did. God, he did. But because he couldn’t bear the thought of her lying awake by herself, drowning in grief with no one to pull her out of it.

So every little thing she owned, from the spare shirt she never wore to the pistol she kept too close at night, had been moved into Arthur’s bedroom.

Every time she woke up silently crying, he was there.
Every time a nightmare clawed its way through her sleep, he was there.
Every single time she needed him—whether she asked for it or not—he was there.

And still, Arthur had never seen her like this.

Never saw her eyes so hollow, so empty. Never saw her movements so slow, like every step was a weight too heavy to carry. Jo had always been the strong one, the sharp-tongued girl who grew into a fierce woman, standing tall against the worst life could throw at her. But now? Now, she looked like she might crumble if the wind blew too hard.

Arthur knew loss better than most. He knew what it felt like to carry the weight of someone who wasn’t coming back. But watching Jo wither away, watching her retreat into herself, was something he didn’t know how to fix.

Telling Arthur had been harder than she thought. The words felt like broken glass in her throat, each one cutting deeper as she forced them out. Her voice wavered, thick with grief, and no matter how hard she tried to keep herself together, the tears still came—slow at first, then relentless, slipping down her cheeks, dripping onto her hands where they clenched in her lap.

But she didn’t stop. She carried on, because she had to.

She told him everything. How Ben had saved her life. How he had thrown himself into the fire without hesitation, shielding her from the bullet meant for her. How he had grabbed her, shoved her away with what little strength he had left, his blood already spilling onto the ground. How he had looked at her, breath ragged, pain clouding his eyes, and told her to go.

Told her to save herself.

Arthur didn’t interrupt. He just sat there, quiet, listening. She didn’t know if it was because he didn’t know what to say, or if he was too busy piecing together his own thoughts, but his silence felt heavier than words ever could. She could feel his gaze on her—steady, unyielding, but full of something else too. Something she couldn’t bear to look at.

Pity? Understanding? Guilt?

She swallowed hard, her chest tight, her lungs barely able to drag in air past the weight pressing down on her.

She had tried to go back for Ben’s body.

Arthur had fought her on it, told her it was too dangerous, that it wouldn’t change anything. That it would only make things worse. But in the end, he went with her. He’d have followed her anywhere she asked, thrown himself into the wild if she wanted him to.

But there was nothing. No body. No grave to dig. Not even a single trace of blood in the dirt.

It was like Ben had never existed at all.

And that—somehow—made it worse.

She had spent her whole life fighting, clawing her way through the dirt, refusing to let the world take anything else from her. And yet, she hadn’t been able to save him. Hadn’t been able to do a damn thing but watch as the only piece of her past worth holding onto was ripped away.

Watching Jo struggle against something she couldn’t fight, something she couldn’t punch or shoot or stare down, was killing him slowly. He didn’t know how to help. Didn’t know what to say or do.

It was difficult.

It was unbearable.

And Arthur Morgan had never felt more goddamn helpless in his life.

Just like the flower Arthur kept on his desk—the dried-up bloom that had once been his mother’s favorite—Jo was slowly withering.

She barely spoke. Barely ate. The fire in her eyes, the sharpness of her tongue, the unshakable woman who could hold her own in a world that had tried to break her a thousand times over—it was all slipping away.

Jo was stuck in a loop. Drowning in everything she had ever done, every decision that had led her to this moment. Every cruel act. Every crime. Every mistake that chipped away at her soul. People deserved love, happiness, peace. But not her. That’s what she told herself. That’s what she forced herself to believe.

Maybe she was a sadist, punishing herself for every sin she carried.

Or maybe, in the deepest part of her soul, she was searching for something—some lesson, some reason, something to justify all this suffering.

She had tied an anchor around her ankle. And yet, she was still breathing.

There had to be a reason for that.

Otherwise… why was she not drowning?

Arthur saw it. He saw it all.

And he didn’t know what the hell to do about it.

During the nights, he stayed by her side, but during the days, he had no choice but to leave her behind. The gang was spiraling, their cases worsening, and Dutch had them tangled up with Bronte—bastard, playing them like fools, promising riches that never came.

The supposed trolley station full of cash? Turned out to be a goddamn setup.

Arthur was out there, fighting to keep them all afloat, but Jo… Jo was slipping further under, and he couldn’t be there to pull her back every second of the day.

And that tore at him worse than any bullet ever could.

Because whether she believed it or not—whether she saw it or not—Josephine Harper deserved to live.

And Arthur Morgan wasn’t about to let her drown.

She tried to keep moving, tried to keep herself together, but her mind had turned against her.

She wasn’t just mourning Ben. She was mourning everything—every choice she had made, every life she had taken, every sin that had brought her here.

Some nights, she found herself staring at the ceiling of Arthur’s room, too tired to sleep, too hollow to cry. Other nights, she dreamed of things she didn’t want to remember—faces of the dead, blood on her hands, the weight of her past pressing down on her chest like a stone.

And Ben.

Always Ben.

She could still feel the warmth of his hand on her cheek, the ghost of his lips against hers, the way his voice had broken when he told her to run.

Now, go.

She should’ve stayed. Should’ve fought harder, should’ve done something, anything—

But what difference did it make? She’d spent her whole life fighting, and for what? To lose the only good thing she ever had from her past?

She hadn’t even realized how much he meant to her. Hadn’t understood, not really. She thought whatever they had was just some childish thing, just memories of a boy who once made her laugh, who once made her feel like she wasn’t doomed to rot in the dirt like her father.

But now she saw it.

Saw every time he told her he liked her when they were kids. Saw every time he stayed by her side when no one else did.

And suddenly, she was a child again.

 


 

She was twelve. He was fifteen. They sat by the riverbank, the late afternoon sun dipping low, spilling golden streaks over the rippling water. The cicadas hummed in the trees, their endless song weaving through the lazy warmth of summer. A light breeze stirred the grass, carrying the scent of damp earth and river water.

Sarah sat with her knees pulled to her chest, arms wrapped tight around them, her chin resting against the fabric of her dress. She stared ahead, eyes unfocused, watching the way the sunlight danced on the water’s surface. She wasn’t really there , not in the way Ben was—skipping rocks like nothing was wrong, like she hadn’t shown up with a bruised wrist hidden beneath her sleeve.

Ben, though—Ben noticed everything.

He stood beside her, a smooth rock in hand, turning it over between his fingers. His jaw was set, his brows furrowed in concentration as he pulled his arm back and let the stone fly. It skidded across the surface once, twice, three times before sinking into the depths.

“Your Pa’s an asshole,” he muttered, already reaching for another rock.

Sarah didn’t flinch. She just kept watching the water. She knew it. So did everyone else. But no one ever said it out loud.

Ben, though? He never held his tongue.

“You know,” he went on, rolling the next stone in his palm, “when I get older, I’m gonna save you from him.”

Sarah exhaled, slow and tired. “Oh yeah?”

“Yeah.”

He said it like a promise. Like something already decided. Like the sky was blue, and the river was cold, and one day, Benjamin Carter was going to come and take her away.

Sarah huffed, kicking at a loose pebble near her foot. “And then what?”

“Then,” Ben smirked, flicking his wrist as he sent another stone skipping across the river, “I’ll marry you.”

Sarah snorted, finally glancing at him. He was grinning, but there was something soft about it, something serious beneath all his usual bravado.

“That so?” she challenged.

Ben just shrugged, stuffing his hands in his pockets. “Well… somebody’s gotta love ya, Sarah.”

She kicked at his ankle, but she was smiling. Just a little.

 


 

The memory shattered, leaving her breathless, raw.

Ben had loved her. He always had. And she—

God, she’d been so blind.

She sat at the campfire, staring blankly at the flames. Her hands were limp in her lap, her body drained, and she barely registered the voices around her until someone nudged her arm.

“You gotta eat, Jo,” Mary-Beth’s voice was soft, cautious. “You haven’t eaten much lately.”

Jo blinked, her stomach twisting at the thought of food.

“Ain’t hungry,” she muttered.

Mary-Beth sighed. “Jo—”

“I said I ain’t hungry.” Her voice came out sharper than she intended, and guilt followed immediately after.

Mary-Beth didn’t push. She just reached over, squeezing Jo’s arm before quietly standing and walking away.

Jo exhaled slowly, rubbing her hands over her face, her breath shaky.

She was slipping.

And for the first time in her life, she wasn’t sure she wanted to hold on anymore.

Arthur had seen Jo go through a lot. He’d seen her angry, seen her ruthless, seen her so goddamn stubborn he thought he might strangle her himself.

But he had never seen her like this.

Never seen her this quiet.

This… empty.

She barely spoke. She barely slept. And every time she thought no one was looking, her face twisted into something hollow, something lost.

She wasn’t eating either. Abigail had tried. So had Tilly. Even Sadie had all but thrown a plate at her once, barking at her to “quit actin’ like a damn ghost and eat somethin’.”

It didn’t work.

Nothing worked.

And Arthur didn’t know how to fix it.

He understood loss better than anyone. But watching Jo waste away, watching her drag herself through the days like she had nothing left to live for—

Hell, maybe she really thought that.

And that scared him more than anything.

 


 

The room was thick with warmth, heavy with exhaustion.

Arthur barely remembered getting into bed. He’d spent the past day wading through the goddamn swamps of Lemoyne, nearly getting torn apart by a monster of a gator— the bullgator, Thomas had called it. And as if that wasn’t enough, he’d spent the evening with Dutch, listening to him spit out half-truths and doubts, his faith in Arthur hanging by a thread.

After everything—everything—he’d done for the gang, for Dutch, giving all but twenty years of his life to him, Dutch still doubted him.

That thought gnawed at Arthur worse than the gator ever could.

It sat heavy in his chest, right alongside the weight of everything else. The deaths. The law closing in. The way Jo had barely touched her food in days, shrinking into herself, her grief hollowing her out.

Arthur had too much weighing on his mind, too much dragging him down. But none of it mattered when Jo curled up beside him.

But she wasn’t resting. Not really.

Somewhere in the depths of sleep, she felt it—fingers, soft and warm, running through her hair. A voice humming a lullaby just beneath the edge of her consciousness. The golden glow of the sun filtered over her skin, wrapping her in the kind of warmth she hadn’t felt in years.

She stirred, head resting against something solid and familiar. A lap. A hand smoothing down her hair, combing through the strands with slow, gentle movements. A touch filled with love.

Jo blinked, stirring as her senses adjusted.

Then she saw her.

Her mother.

Beaming at her, looking just as she had all those years ago—her soft features untouched by time, her kind eyes full of warmth. She hadn’t aged, hadn’t changed. She was the same.

But Jo… Jo had grown.

She wasn’t a little girl anymore. She was a woman, hardened by the world, by pain, by loss.

But none of that seemed to matter.

Because her mother was here.

“Mama?” Jo’s voice wavered, but even her own words sounded distant, strange, like they were spoken through water.

“Oh, my darling girl,” her mother said, voice a sweet melody of love and sorrow.

A tear slipped down Jo’s cheek, but she didn’t move to wipe it away.

Her mother was here.

And for a moment, she let herself sink into it.

Let herself believe it.

The warmth. The light. The love.

The peace.

But then—

The light shifted.

Darkness bled into the edges of the dream.

Her mother’s soft hands trembled, her smile faltered. Jo’s stomach twisted, a sense of dread sinking into her bones.

Then the blood appeared.

It seeped through the fabric of her mother’s dress, blooming like a cruel flower across her chest. It dripped from her fingers, from her lips, from her hair. The warmth disappeared. The sunlight faded.

Then she heard it—her own voice, cracking with anguish.

“How could you do that?! Why would you do that?!”

Her mother’s tear-filled eyes held hers.

“You were in trouble,” she whispered. “I was protecting you.”

Jo shook her head, stumbling backward. “No—”

She knew this scene.

Knew those words.

Because they weren’t just her mother’s.

They were his .

“How could you do that?! Why would you do that?!”

Her voice tore through the dream, pain and betrayal cracking through every syllable. She could see him now, bloodied hands clutching his chest, Ben’s eyes wide with heartbreak.

Jo staggered back.

“You were in trouble and…” His breath hitched, his lungs tightening. “I was protecting you…”

The world around her collapsed.

Jo woke with a gasp, her chest heaving as cold sweat clung to her skin.

She shot up, wild-eyed, her body trembling from the nightmare’s grip.

The room was dark. The air was thick with warmth.

A strong arm tightened around her waist.

“Hey, hey,” Arthur’s voice was thick with sleep, rough and low, but laced with concern as he pulled her back against him. “You’re alright. You’re alright, darlin’.”

Jo’s breath came ragged, her hands clutching the fabric of the shirt she wore—Arthur’s shirt. It was too big on her, the sleeves hanging loose, the fabric carrying his warmth, his scent. Her fingers twisted into it, gripping tight as if holding onto him could steady the storm inside her. The cotton clung to her damp skin, sticking to her like it was the only thing keeping her from unraveling.

Arthur’s warmth wrapped around her, his bare chest pressed firm against her back, solid and steady, keeping her from falling apart.

She buried her face against him, her breath shuddering as his calloused hand slid up her back, rubbing slow, comforting circles.

“You’re okay,” he murmured, voice softer now. “I got you.”

Jo swallowed hard, closing her eyes as she let the steady rhythm of his heartbeat guide her back to reality.

He was here.

He was warm.

And she was safe.

 


 

The late afternoon sun hung low in the sky, spilling golden light across Shady Belle. The camp was quiet, save for the occasional murmur of conversation and the distant clang of Pearson’s knife against the cutting board.

Jo sat alone, away from the others, leaning against the trunk of a large oak tree near the edge of camp. The grass beneath her was soft, warm from the sun, but she barely registered it. Her thoughts were distant, tangled in the past, lost somewhere between regret and exhaustion.

Laramie stood beside her, ears twitching as she grazed lazily on the grass. The mare had been back for a week now, and Jo still hadn’t found the words to properly thank Arthur. She didn’t think she could.

She hadn’t seen life— really seen it—since Ben’s death. But the moment Arthur had walked into camp, leading Laramie by the reins, something inside her had flickered back to life.

It was just for a second.

But for a second, she had felt something again.

Arthur had been watching from afar, arms crossed as he leaned against the post near the gang’s wagons. He wasn’t sure what had drawn him here—maybe habit, maybe instinct—but he found himself doing this a lot lately. Keeping an eye on her. Watching over her, even when she didn’t ask him to.

Not that she ever would.

She knew he was there. Had to. He wasn’t exactly subtle. But she never turned to acknowledge him. Never asked him to come closer.

Maybe she felt like a burden. Maybe she thought she had to shoulder all this pain alone.

Arthur understood that feeling better than anyone.

Laramie shifted, her tail swishing as she let out a long breath, and then, with a heavy thud , she folded her legs beneath her and laid down in the grass beside Jo.

Arthur’s brows furrowed slightly.

That horse had been a real bitch to get back. Mean as hell, too. She bit, she kicked, she damn near murdered anyone who got too close—himself included. It had taken everything in him to keep her under control during the ride back.

And yet…

She had never so much as pinned her ears at Jo.

Jo scooted a little closer, reaching out to untangle a knot in Laramie’s mane. Her fingers worked with a slow, practiced ease, smoothing the tangles, brushing away bits of dried leaves. Every so often, she ran a hand down the mare’s forehead, gentle and careful.

Laramie let out another slow exhale.

Then, to Arthur’s surprise, the mare shifted forward—pressing her head into Jo’s lap.

Jo froze.

Her hand hung midair, hovering just above Laramie’s head, fingers curled slightly as if unsure whether to pull back or continue.

Arthur held his breath, watching from where he stood, watching the way Jo's entire body seemed to hesitate. Like she didn’t expect it. Like she wasn’t sure she deserved it.

Slowly, carefully, Jo let her hand rest on Laramie’s head.

She didn’t speak, but the tension in her shoulders eased just the slightest bit. She traced slow, absentminded strokes down Laramie’s forehead, her fingers sinking into the dark fur between the mare’s ears.

Then, something happened.

Something Arthur hadn’t seen in a long time.

Jo’s face softened.

Her hardened, hollow expression melted, just for a moment, just long enough for her lips to curve into the ghost of a smile. It was small—barely there—but it was real .

And in that golden light, the way it bathed her face, how strands of her hair caught in the soft breeze, lifting and falling like silk spun from the sun itself. There was something so alive about her in this moment—just a glimpse of the woman she had been before the weight of grief had settled over her like a storm cloud.

And that smile—small as it was—felt like the first crack of sunlight breaking through.

Arthur swallowed, something heavy pressing against his ribs.

He sat on the porch of Shady Belle, his arms resting on his knees, watching the camp go about its business. The sun had started dipping low, casting the land in deep oranges and soft golds, but his thoughts were heavy—darker than the coming night.

He had spent most of his life doing what he thought was right. What Dutch told him was right. But lately, things had been shifting, and it left him feeling like the ground beneath him was crumbling away.

And then there was her .

Jo.

He had never seen her like this before. Not just sad. Not just grieving. She looked lost .

And Arthur didn’t know how to bring her back.

“Boy, you keep frowning like that, you’ll age worse than me.”

Arthur blinked, turning his head to see Hosea stepping onto the porch, moving slower than he used to. His usual sharp gaze softened just a little as he lowered himself onto the step beside Arthur.

“Something on your mind?” Hosea asked, already knowing the answer.

“You don’t wanna hear it.” 

He had too much on his plate. 

Arthur exhaled through his nose, shaking his head. Too much on his plate —that was an understatement. His mind was a storm he couldn’t quiet. Dutch’s doubts and increasingly erratic behavior, Jo... and Bronte. Especially Bronte. 

Arthur had seen men die in ugly ways before, had been the cause of it more times than he cared to count. But this? Watching Dutch drown the man before tossing the body to the gators—it made Arthur’s blood run cold. That wasn’t Dutch. That wasn’t the man who had raised him, who had preached about loyalty, about being better than the bastards they fought against. Dutch hadn’t even twitched . No hesitation, no flicker of doubt in his eyes—just cold certainty, like it was nothing, like Bronte’s life hadn’t even mattered. And in that moment, Arthur swore he didn’t recognize him. That unsettled him more than anything. That wasn’t how things were supposed to end. A clean death—that’s what Arthur had been taught. Even for the bad ones, a bullet, maybe a knife if it came to that, but not whatever that was.

Bronte’s death still sat heavy on his conscience, his blood washing away in the bayou but lingering in Arthur’s mind. And Jo… Jo was a whole different weight, one he couldn’t begin to make sense of. He didn’t know how to fix any of it, didn’t know if he even could.

“That bad, huh?” Hosea chuckled dryly before leaning back, his hands folded over his stomach. He let the silence stretch a moment before speaking again. “She’s hurting.”

Arthur knew he wasn’t asking.

“Yeah,” Arthur muttered.

“You feel helpless.”

Arthur frowned. “Don’t like not knowin’ how to fix things.”

Hosea hummed in understanding. “You can’t fix grief, son.”

Arthur clenched his jaw. He knew that. He’d been carrying his own share of it for years, but knowing didn’t make it easier.

“I just…” Arthur hesitated, then scrubbed a hand down his face, frustrated. “I keep thinkin’ I should be doin’ more . I ain’t never seen her like this, Hosea. She ain’t talkin’, she ain’t eatin’ much. It’s like she’s here, but she ain’t.”

Hosea nodded slowly, thoughtful. “I’ve seen people drown in their grief. It’s a dangerous thing.”

Arthur swallowed. That was what worried him most.

“She trusts you,” Hosea continued, his voice gentler now. “She may not say as much, but she does . I’ve seen it. And you know how rare that is.”

Arthur shook his head slightly, rubbing his knuckles together. “I don’t even know if it matters.”

“It does ,” Hosea said firmly. “Even if she won’t admit it, even if she keeps pushing forward like it don’t hurt… You being here? That matters more than you know.”

Arthur stared at the ground, absorbing the words. Hosea didn’t lie to him. Not about things like this.

“She’ll find her way back,” Hosea murmured. “She just needs time. And she needs someone who ain’t gonna let her get lost.”

Arthur nodded slowly. He wasn’t much for words, wasn’t much for knowing how to comfort, but he could do that.

He could be there.

She wasn’t blind to the way Arthur watched her.

From the porch, from across the camp, from wherever he happened to be.

He never said anything. Never pushed her to talk. But he was there.

Always there.

Jo sat in the grass, Laramie’s head resting in her lap, the soft sounds of camp life filtering through the air. She wasn’t sure how long she had been sitting there—long enough for the sun to start dipping below the trees, long enough for the fire to start crackling.

She kept her hands busy, fingers absently working through the knots in Laramie’s mane. The mare huffed against her thigh, a slow, warm breath that tickled her skin.

And somewhere in the distance, she felt him .

Arthur.

She didn’t have to look to know he was watching her.

He had been doing that a lot lately.

At first, she didn’t know what to make of it.

She had spent so much of her life being looked at . Her father, watching her every move, waiting for the moment she would step out of line. Strangers, sizing her up, trying to pick apart the pieces of her that they could use for themselves. Dutch, with all his grand speeches, watching them all with that ever-calculating glint in his eye.

But Arthur’s gaze was different.

It wasn’t expectant or demanding or searching for some hidden weakness.

It was steady. Sure.

She let out a slow breath, and for the first time in days, she noticed it—that quiet warmth, settling deep inside her chest, curling around her ribs like something she wasn’t sure she was allowed to hold onto.

He cared.

Not just in the way he looked at her.

But in the way he stayed.

And Jo, despite everything, found herself holding onto that warmth like a lifeline.

Because the doubt was creeping in now, faster than before, swallowing up the certainty she had once held so tightly.

At first, it had just been grief.

That made sense.

Losing Ben, losing the only piece of her past that still felt good, still felt real , had shattered something inside her.

But now—now it was something worse.

It was doubt .

And doubt was a dangerous thing.

She had always told herself that what they did, what she did, was necessary. That the Van der Linde gang was more than just outlaws—they were family . That the blood she spilled had purpose . That the pain she caused was justified .

But what if it wasn’t?

What if Dutch was wrong?

What if she was wrong?

She had spent years convincing herself that there was no other way. That people like her didn’t get to have peace, didn’t get to choose another path.

But hadn’t Ben tried?

He wasn’t supposed to be part of this life. He hadn’t been like her—another lost soul, another outlaw doomed to die with blood on his hands. He had been better. He had believed in something. Believed in her , even when she gave him every reason not to.

And yet… she had still dragged him into the dark.

He could have had a different life. He should have.

And now, because of her, he was dead.

Because of this life , he was dead.

So what the hell was she still doing here?

She stared down at the dirt beneath her boots, arms wrapped tightly around herself, the weight of it all pressing down on her, suffocating.

She thought about Mrs. Downes, about that boy with the hollow stare.

She thought about all the faces she had forced herself to forget.

The lives she had ruined.

The ones she had ended .

God, what if they weren’t the good ones?

What if they were just thieves and killers and liars?

What if there was no redemption?

The thought curled inside her like rot.

She wanted to believe in Dutch’s promises.

She wanted to believe there was a future waiting for them beyond the next job, the next heist, the next goddamn lie .

But she couldn’t .

Not anymore.

Maybe it was time to leave.

Maybe it was time to stop pretending this life was ever meant for her.

But where the hell would she go ?

There was no place for her outside of this gang, outside of this life. Ben had been her last tie to something different, and now he was gone.

So what was left?

Nothing.

She was trapped.

But she sat down all the same and admired the view.

Because somehow, life was as cynical as she was.

Life rewarded bad behavior.

Maybe that’s why she became who she was now.

Because nice people never got very far.

And once upon a time, she was too nice.

And life never rewarded her for it.

It spat in her face.

Her fingers twitched slightly against Laramie’s mane.

A movement in the distance caught her eye, and she glanced up, her gaze locking onto Arthur’s from across the camp.

He was still watching her.

Still there .

And for the first time in a long, long while—

She didn’t feel quite so alone.

Laramie let out a low, contented huff, nuzzling further into her lap, and Jo exhaled.

The sun was warm. The air smelled of pine and horses and woodsmoke.

And though the weight of grief still pressed against her ribs, suffocating and all-consuming—

Something cracked through it.

Something small.

Something quiet.

But it was there.

A breath.

A moment.

A reminder that maybe—just maybe—she wasn’t entirely lost yet.

Not as long as there was someone willing to stand there and watch over her.

And as Arthur lingered, as steady as the earth beneath her, Jo closed her eyes.

Maybe she could hold onto this.

Just for a little while.

Chapter 27: What Was Never Mine

Chapter Text

The days passed in a slow, hazy blur. The weight of grief still clung to Jo like damp clothes after a storm, but the suffocating pressure had eased just enough for her to breathe. She still felt hollow, still felt like a part of her had been buried alongside Ben—even if there was no grave to mark his absence—but she was moving again. Eating more. Sleeping without waking up gasping for air. It wasn’t much, but it was something.

Dutch had been scarce for a while, tangled up in whatever game he was playing with Angelo Bronte. But with the Italian dead and the bank job looming, Dutch was around camp more, keeping a watchful eye on his people.

And today, it seemed, he had turned his attention to her.

“Josephine.”

She tensed at the sound of her name.

She turned at the sound of his voice, finding him standing near the steps of Shady Belle’s porch, his usual easy charm painted across his face. That careful blend of warmth and authority, like a father figure who always knew best. The same look that could make a man feel like he belonged or make him question if he ever did at all.

“Dutch.” Jo acknowledged him with a nod, adjusting the reins in her hands as she finished tying Laramie to a post. The mare huffed, flicking her ears, but Jo gave her a slow pat, grounding herself in the rhythmic motion.

Dutch took a few slow steps forward, hands tucked behind his back. He studied her for a moment, as if assessing something unseen. “You’ve been quiet.”

Jo huffed a humorless breath, crossing her arms. “Didn’t realize I was supposed to be putting on a show.”

Dutch let out a low chuckle, shaking his head. “Now, now, there’s no need for that. I only mean to say… I see you. And I know loss.” His voice softened just enough to sound genuine, though with Dutch, sincerity was always a tricky thing to pin down. “I know what it does to a person.”

Jo’s jaw tightened. She glanced away, toward the trees at the camp’s edge, before finally exhaling. “Yeah. Guess you do.”

Dutch hummed in agreement, stepping closer. “And I also know that when we suffer, when we lose, we must find meaning in it. Otherwise, what was it all for?” He tilted his head, watching her carefully. “You still believe in us, don’t you?”

Jo looked at him then, really looked at him. There was a time when she would have answered without hesitation. A time when Dutch’s words would have filled her with purpose, would have reminded her that this life, this family, was all she had.

But that certainty had been slipping. And Dutch, sharp as ever, must have sensed it.

She forced a small smirk, tilting her head. “You doubt me, Dutch?”

“Never, darlin’,” he said smoothly. “Just making sure you don’t doubt yourself.”

She studied him for a moment, searching for any crack in his carefully laid mask. But Dutch Van der Linde was nothing if not practiced in the art of persuasion. And despite the lingering unease in her gut, she nodded.

“I’m here, ain’t I?”

Dutch smiled, satisfied. “That you are.”

But as he clapped her on the shoulder and sauntered off, Jo couldn’t shake the feeling that she had just been tested.

And she wasn’t sure if she had passed or failed.

As he reached the steps of the porch, Dutch turned back, that glint in his eye sharper than before.

“Oh, and Jo,” he drawled, his voice casual but laced with something heavier, “don’t think I haven’t noticed what’s been goin’ on between you and Arthur.”

Jo’s stomach twisted, but she kept her expression neutral.

Dutch chuckled, tilting his head slightly as if amused. “I see more than folks think.” He let the words settle, then turned and walked away, leaving Jo alone with the weight of his meaning.

She exhaled, her hand tightening into fist before loosening.

Dutch saw everything.

And that was always a dangerous thing.

Jo was still staring after Dutch long after he’d sauntered off, his words lingering in her mind like a slow-burning fuse. She wasn’t sure what unsettled her more—his talk of family and loyalty or the way he so easily saw through her and Arthur.

She didn’t have time to dwell on it.

“I’d ask what he wanted, but I reckon I already know.”

Jo turned to find Hosea approaching, his usual easy smile in place, though there was something more thoughtful beneath it. He stopped beside her, glancing out over the camp before returning his gaze to her.

“You’ve been sittin’ on the sidelines long enough,” he said. “Time to get back in the saddle.”

Jo arched a brow. “That so?”

Hosea nodded. “Dutch is set on this Saint Denis bank job, and we need eyes on the place. Someone to scope it out, get a feel for security, the people inside, the layout.” He gave her a knowing look. “And you got a knack for not gettin’ caught.”

Jo considered that. “So we really doin’ this?”

“Looks that way,” Hosea said, watching her closely. “You up for it?”

She let out a slow breath. Getting back into the thick of things was inevitable. Maybe it was better this way—better to move, to focus on something other than the mess in her head.

“Yeah,” she said finally. “I’m in.”

Hosea grinned. “Good. But you’ll have to dress for the part.”

Jo frowned. “What part?”

Hosea’s grin widened.

Next thing she knew, Hosea was dragging her toward the gang’s trunk of disguises, rummaging through fabrics and coats until he pulled out something that made her stomach drop.

A dress.

Not just any dress, but a proper lady’s dress—one meant for high society, complete with a stiff collar, long sleeves, and a bodice that felt more like a cage than clothing. The dark fabric was thick and heavy, itching where it clung to her arms, and when she tugged at the collar, it was so tight it felt like she was being hanged for her crimes.

To make matters worse, Hosea had made her sit long enough for Tilly and Mary-Beth to do her hair, twisting it into some proper arrangement instead of letting it fall loose and wild. A ridiculous little hat had been pinned in place, tilting just slightly on her head, and when she caught her reflection in the murky glass of a nearby window, she barely recognized herself.

She looked like some kind of lady, she supposed. How women were expected to dress in society. Prim. Restrained. Not a single inch of skin showing past the stiff fabric.

She hated every damn part of it.

But at least it gave her something else to focus on.

By the time she stepped outside, Hosea was waiting by the horses, his expression full of barely contained amusement. Jo scowled, yanking at the collar again.

“I hate this,” she muttered.

“You look lovely,” Hosea said, all charm.

“I look ridiculous .”

Hosea simply smiled. “You look like you belong in Saint Denis. That’s the point.”

Jo grumbled something under her breath and stalked toward Laramie, adjusting her gloves as she went. But when she tried to mount, the damn dress got in the way. She struggled for a moment, her movements stiff and awkward, until finally she snapped.

“How’m I supposed to ride with that?” she barked, throwing her hands in the air and glaring at the layers of fabric like they had personally wronged her.

Hosea watched with clear amusement. “Carefully.”

Jo let out a frustrated groan before yanking up the skirts just enough to maneuver herself into the saddle. The dress bunched uncomfortably, the fabric pulling in ways it shouldn’t, but she finally settled with a glare and an exasperated sigh.

Hosea chuckled, tipping his hat. “You clean up real nice, Jo.”

She shot him a glare. “Shut up.”

 


 

Saint Denis had a way of swallowing people whole. It was a city that never stopped moving—carriages clattered over cobblestone streets, their wheels kicking up dust and horse dung. Steam hissed from sewer grates, mixing with the acrid stink of coal smoke and river rot, the scent of fresh bread and tobacco shops doing little to mask it. The voices of a hundred lives overlapped in a chaotic symphony—street vendors hawking their goods, men in fine suits debating politics, women in silks and pearls chattering behind lace gloves.

But Jo moved through it all with practiced ease, her posture straight, her steps measured, each glance carefully placed. Her dress—itchy, stiff, and altogether infuriating —at least served its purpose. No one gave her a second look. Just another lady out for an afternoon stroll.

The layers of cloth weighed her down, the tight bodice forcing her to take smaller breaths, but it didn’t matter. It was just another costume, another role to slip into.

Hosea had taught her well.

The bank loomed ahead, its stone façade grand and imposing. Gold-lettered signs gleamed above the entrance, polished glass doors reflecting the bustling street. Men in tailored coats walked in and out with an air of importance, clerks and businessmen hurrying past without so much as a glance in her direction.

Two guards posted outside, rifles shouldered but grips relaxed. The kind of men who were used to standing still for long hours, too comfortable in their routines. One of them—a mustached fellow with a lazy gaze—kept shifting his weight from foot to foot, impatient. Bored. 

Inside, the bank smelled of ink and paper, of polished wood and perfume too strong for the heat outside. A massive chandelier hung overhead, casting warm golden light onto the marble floors. The place had an air of wealth, of security, but Jo knew better.

Nothing was truly secure.

She played her part well. A lady of means, perhaps waiting for her husband, or maybe a widow tending to her late father’s finances. She took her time, her gaze sweeping over every detail as she pretended to admire the grand architecture.

The clerks—five in total—were stationed behind mahogany counters, their hands quick as they shuffled papers and counted bills. The younger ones seemed eager, their eyes sharp and alert, while an older man—likely the head clerk—barely spared anyone a glance, too caught up in his work.

A pair of guards stood near the vault entrance, their expressions blank, but their hands twitched toward their weapons at every loud noise. Not seasoned, then. Nervous. That could be useful.

A heavy ring of keys dangled from a banker’s belt as he moved between desks, his posture stiff, his gait even. He was important—maybe the one in charge of securing the money.

Scoping a place wasn’t just about looking —it was about seeing . The flow of people, the way doors opened and closed, the habits of the men guarding the wealth of Saint Denis’ elite.

She turned toward a teller, offering a polite nod. “Excuse me,” she murmured, soft and unassuming. “I was wondering if you handle estate accounts here?”

The man—young, clean-shaven, eager to be of service—straightened, offering a courteous smile. “Of course, madam. Would you like to speak with our manager?”

She waved a hand, feigning indecision. “Oh, no, not today. I was just curious. My late uncle, God rest his soul, always spoke highly of your bank.”

The teller puffed up slightly at that. “Well, we do take great pride in our work, ma’am. If you ever require assistance, please don’t hesitate.”

She gave a small, grateful smile. “I’ll keep that in mind.”

With that, she turned, taking slow, measured steps toward the exit. She didn’t rush. Rushing got people noticed.

She walked out the door as if she had all the time in the world, the warm afternoon air wrapping around her as the city swallowed her whole once again.

She kept walking, her pace unhurried, her role still intact. Even beyond the bank’s doors, she was still the woman she was pretending to be—poised, respectable, just another face in the city. It was second nature now. That was the trouble with being a con artist. Sometimes, the act stuck longer than you meant it to.

She turned onto a quieter street, the noise of carriages and merchants dulling to a distant hum. The air here was different, heavy with the scent of burning incense instead of smoke and filth. The Church of the Holy Blessed Virgin stood tall ahead, its stone façade softened by the afternoon light.

And that’s when she saw her.

Sister Calderón.

She stood near the entrance of the church, speaking with a group of children, her warm smile as gentle as Jo remembered. It had been weeks since she and Arthur had helped retrieve the sister’s stolen cross. Jo hadn’t thought much of it then—just another job, another favor for someone who couldn’t fight their own battles. But now, seeing her again, something shifted in Jo’s chest.

A weight she hadn’t realized she was carrying pressed harder against her ribs.

She should leave. She should turn around, untie Laramie, and ride back to camp like none of this had ever crossed her mind.

But her feet had other ideas.

Before she even understood why, her legs carried her forward, her steps slow but certain, leading her toward the church.

Maybe it was the heavy silence that followed her everywhere these days. Maybe it was the feeling of being watched—not by the gang, not by Dutch, but by the ghosts she couldn’t shake.

Or maybe—just maybe—she was looking for something she didn’t know how to name.

Jo hesitated just outside the church steps, a strange tightness settling in her chest. Up close, the scent of burning wax and old stone filled the air, mixing with the distant murmur of a choir inside.

Sister Calderón was finishing her conversation with the children when she finally noticed Jo. Her warm eyes flicked over her, kind but briefly puzzled, before realization settled in.

“Señorita Harper?”

Jo offered a small, somewhat sheepish nod.

The sister’s face lit up with recognition. “Ah! I did not recognize you.” She gestured toward Jo’s attire with a soft chuckle. “You look… different.”

Jo smirked dryly, tugging at the stiff collar. “Don’t remind me.”

Sister Calderón chuckled, clasping her hands together. “It is good to see you again.”

“You too, Sister.” Jo shifted, glancing toward the open church doors. She hadn’t stepped foot in a church in years. Not since she was a child. Not since prayers had become empty words and faith had given way to survival.

“Is Mr. Morgan not with you?” Sister Calderón asked, tilting her head.

Jo exhaled through her nose, shaking her head. “No, not this time.”

They fell into easy conversation, nothing heavy at first—how the city had been, how the sister had been keeping herself busy, the children she looked after. But Jo was barely listening. Her mind was too full, the weight of the past weeks pressing down on her.

Sister Calderón seemed to notice. She studied Jo for a long moment before speaking again, her voice soft. “You have something on your heart, dear child.”

Jo swallowed, eyes flicking away. “You could say that.”

The sister didn’t push. She simply waited.

And somehow, that made it worse.

Jo let out a slow breath, fingers flexing at her sides. “D’you think… people like me can change?” The words felt foreign coming out of her mouth.

Sister Calderón’s expression didn’t shift. She remained steady, patient. “I believe change is always possible. But it is not always easy.”

Jo scoffed, shaking her head. “No, it ain’t.”

“Are you looking for redemption, Jo?”

Jo stiffened. That word. Redemption. It felt too grand, too distant.

“I dunno,” she admitted. “I just… I’ve done things, Sister. A lot of things I ain’t proud of.” She let out a dry, humorless chuckle. “And I keep tellin’ myself there’s no changin’ what I am. That this is just… who I was always meant to be.”

“But you are questioning it now.”

Jo’s jaw tightened. “Guess I am.”

The sister studied her carefully before speaking. “The past cannot be undone, child. But the future… that is still yours to shape.”

Jo chewed on that, her mind whirling, but it was the next question that caught her off guard.

“What is it that you are afraid of?”

Jo opened her mouth, then closed it.

She wasn’t sure.

Or maybe she was.

Her hands curled into fists at her sides. “I think I’m losin’ faith in what I’ve been fightin’ for. In the people I thought I trusted. And I think—” She swallowed hard. “I think I wanna believe there’s somethin’ else out there.”

Sister Calderón nodded slowly, letting Jo’s words settle between them. “And what of Mr. Morgan?”

Jo blinked, caught off guard. “What about him?”

The sister smiled knowingly. “You speak of doubt and fear, but when I mention him, your heart speaks differently.”

Jo frowned, shaking her head. “I don’t—” She stopped.

Because suddenly, it hit her.

Not all at once, but in pieces—soft and creeping, like warmth spreading through her chest.

It was in the way she felt when she was with him, how the weight of the world seemed a little lighter when he was near. The way she found herself waiting for his voice, for the rumble of his laughter, for the quiet moments when neither of them had to say a damn thing to understand each other. It was in the way her heart had started to recognize his presence before her mind even caught up, in the safety she felt when his shadow stretched beside hers.

She thought of the way he looked at her, not just when they were talking, but in those in-between moments—when he thought she wasn’t paying attention. Thought of the way his hand lingered on her back just a second longer than it needed to, or how he had this way of pulling her closer without even trying.

But more than that, she thought of the darkness.

The days after Ben’s death, when grief clawed its way up her throat, choking her with guilt. When the weight of everything threatened to bury her, Arthur had been there. Not with empty words or hollow reassurances, but with a steady presence, quiet and unwavering. He had been the one to pull her out of the nightmare when it gripped her too tight, the one to sit beside her in silence when she couldn’t find the strength to speak.

And before that—when those O’Driscolls had ambushed them at Shady Belle, when they would’ve put a bullet in her skull if he hadn’t come tearing through them like the wrath of God. And a few weeks ago, near Dewberry Creek, when they were going to hand her over to Colm, he had come for her.

He had always been there for her.

Again and again, no matter how much trouble she found herself in. No matter how many times she pushed, he never walked away.

And then, like a bullet to the gut—sharp and undeniable—she realized it.

She loved him.

She loved Arthur Morgan.

The truth of it nearly knocked the breath out of her.

She had spent so much time second-guessing, convincing herself that whatever they had was complicated, that it was uncertain. But it wasn’t. Not really.

She loved him.

She must have looked completely dumbstruck because Sister Calderón chuckled, gentle and knowing. “Love, Josephine, is often the greatest proof that we are not beyond saving.”

Jo let out a slow breath, her heart pounding.

She didn’t know what to say.

For the first time in a long time, words failed her.

And yet… for the first time in a long time, she didn’t feel so lost.

As they walked, their conversation ebbed and flowed, winding through quiet streets lined with wrought-iron balconies and the scent of fresh bread drifting from a nearby bakery. The din of the city still surrounded them, but in this pocket of warmth and dappled sunlight, it felt distant.

Eventually, they came to a stop at a small bench tucked along the street. Sister Calderón sat first, folding her hands neatly in her lap. Jo hesitated only a moment before following suit.

The hat was the first thing to go.

She plucked the damn thing off her head and set it beside her, shaking out her hair with a quiet sigh. A soft breeze carried through the street, catching strands of it, lifting and playing with them like the wind had fingers of its own. She tilted her head back, letting the golden afternoon light spill across her face, the warmth soaking into her skin.

Like a lizard in the sun, she relished it.

Her eyes fluttered shut, and before she even realized she was speaking, the words slipped past her lips, barely more than a breath.

“Think I do.”

Beside her, Sister Calderón hummed in quiet understanding. “You do what, child?”

Jo opened her eyes just slightly, squinting against the sunlight. “Love him.”

She said it like a simple truth, one she had known all along but never let herself say out loud.

Her throat felt tight. “I don’t think I’ll ever love no one but him, Sister.”

She wasn’t looking at Sister Calderón when she said it, wasn’t even sure she had the courage to. But the nun didn’t need to see her eyes to hear the truth in her voice.

The old woman chuckled softly, and a warm, wrinkled hand gently tapped the back of Jo’s. “Well then, how lucky you are to love someone for a lifetime,” she murmured.

Jo exhaled, long and slow. A lifetime.

The thought terrified her.

But maybe, just maybe, it didn’t have to.

Jo stayed like that for a moment, her face turned to the sun, the warmth seeping into her skin like it might reach somewhere deeper, somewhere untouched by the cold weight she’d been carrying.

Sister Calderón didn’t rush her. She simply sat, hands folded in her lap, watching the world go by with the kind of patience only the wise and the holy seemed to possess.

Eventually, Jo shifted, running a hand over her face before glancing at the sister. “Guess I oughta be headin’ back.”

Sister Calderón nodded. “Of course.” But as Jo moved to stand, she reached out, gently catching her wrist. Jo paused, looking down at the older woman.

“Whatever path you choose, Josephine,” the sister said, her voice soft but steady, “do not let it be guided by fear.”

Jo swallowed, something thick settling in her throat. “Yeah.” She nodded once, shifting her weight. “I’ll try.”

The nun smiled, a knowing little thing, as if she already saw the answer Jo hadn’t quite reached yet.

Jo picked up the hat, turning it over in her hands before setting it on her head with a grimace. “Still hate this damn thing.”

Sister Calderón chuckled. “Then take it off.”

Jo smirked faintly but left it where it was, tipping it slightly in farewell.

Then, without another word, she turned and walked away, leaving the sister and the quiet little bench behind.

Her heart was still heavy, but something about it felt different now. Not lighter, exactly.

Just… understood.

 


 

The streets of Saint Denis had a way of making a person feel small. Buildings stretched high, their iron balconies casting jagged shadows against the cobblestone below. The gas lamps flickered despite the late afternoon sun, their glow weak against the golden light spilling across the city. Carriages rattled past, the clatter of hooves echoing between stone walls, blending with the hum of conversation, the sharp calls of merchants, the distant music spilling from an open saloon door.

Jo barely heard any of it.

Her thoughts were still tangled in her conversation with Sister Calderón, still looping around the weight of her own realization, still trying to make sense of the quiet certainty that had settled in her chest.

She loved Arthur Morgan.

The thought sat heavy in her ribs, both comforting and terrifying. And for the first time in what felt like forever, she had let herself hope—hope that maybe, just maybe, this life had more to offer her than running, than blood, than regrets that piled higher than she could count.

But hope was a fickle thing.

And it shattered the second she saw him.

Arthur.

She had only caught him in the corner of her eye at first, just another figure moving through the busy streets, but something—instinct, familiarity, something deep in her bones—made her turn.

And there he was.

Walking just a few paces ahead, his broad frame unmistakable even in the city crowd. The worn blue of his shirt, the way he carried himself, the easy confidence in his stride—she knew him too well, too intimately, to mistake him for anyone else.

But it wasn’t just him.

A woman was beside him, dressed neat and proper in a fine dress that hugged her in ways Jo’s stiff fabric never could. Brown curls framed her delicate features, her hands gloved in pristine white, not a speck of dirt on her.

Mary .

Jo stopped in her tracks.

Her breath hitched, something twisting sharp and ugly in her chest as she watched them. They weren’t arm in arm, but they were close , speaking quietly as they weaved through the crowd.

Jo knew that look on Arthur’s face.

The way his brow furrowed, the soft pull of his mouth as if he were listening intently, as if whatever Mary was saying mattered more than anything else in the world. His posture wasn’t stiff like it usually was when he was on edge. It wasn’t guarded, like it was when he was waiting for a fight. No—this was something else.

Something gentler.

Something Jo had only seen in the rarest, quietest moments between them.

And for the first time in a long while, Jo felt like an outsider.

Her hands curled into fists, fingernails pressing into her palms.

So that’s how it is.

Had she been a fool?

Had she really let herself believe she was the only woman in Arthur Morgan’s mind? That she meant more to him than just some fleeting warmth in the middle of a cruel world?

Because Arthur had never said he loved her. Not once. Not even after all they’d been through.

Not after he held her through her grief. Not after he stayed by her side, every damn night, after Ben’s death. Not even after she had let him in, let herself trust him, let herself love him.

He had never said it.

And now, standing there, staring at him beside her , Jo felt like a goddamn idiot for ever thinking he would.

Maybe she was just another distraction.

Maybe she was just something to pass the time while he waited for this —for Mary. For the woman he had once wanted to marry, the one he had written letters to, the one who fit into a world he never quite did.

Jo swallowed hard, something bitter rising in her throat.

She could almost laugh at herself.

Stupid. How stupid of her to think she could ever come first in someone’s heart. How stupid to believe she was enough.

A carriage rattled past, its wheels splashing through a shallow puddle, the water reflecting the golden sky like molten glass.

Jo exhaled sharply.

She had seen enough.

Without another glance, she turned on her heel and strode toward the alley where she had left Laramie, her boots striking hard against the cobblestone. The city stretched on behind her, the weight in her chest growing heavier with every step.

She needed to get out of here.

Back to camp. Back to where she belonged .

Because whatever warmth she had felt earlier, whatever hope had started to bloom inside her—it had no place in this world.

Not for her.

Not for someone like Josephine Harper.

The ride back to camp was a blur.

Jo barely registered the city slipping away behind her, the grand streets of Saint Denis giving way to the thick, suffocating swamps of Lemoyne. The sun was sinking lower now, stretching shadows long across the marsh, turning the waters to molten gold. Cicadas droned in the thick air, their hum grating against her already frayed nerves.

But Jo barely heard them.

Her thoughts were loud—too loud, hammering against the inside of her skull like fists against a locked door.

Arthur and Mary.

Arthur, standing so damn close to her.

Arthur, looking at her like she mattered.

The same way he’d looked at Jo.

Her fingers clenched tight around Laramie’s reins, her jaw set, her chest burning with something ugly and tangled and too goddamn painful to name.

By the time she stormed into camp, she was seething.

She barely acknowledged the others, ignoring the flickering lanterns, the murmured voices, the curious glances thrown her way. She tore across the yard, her boots kicking up dirt, and made straight for the house.

The dress— this damn dress —felt like it was suffocating her.

The high collar, the stiff sleeves, the way the fabric clung to her like a second skin—she needed it off now .

She shoved open the bedroom door and nearly ripped the buttons off in her haste, peeling the suffocating layers from her body. The moment she was free of it, she yanked on her usual clothes with a fury that matched the storm inside her—fitted black jeans, shirt, boots, her brown hat. Clothes that felt like her . Clothes that didn’t make her feel like some fool playing dress-up in a life that wasn’t hers.

She barely had time to breathe before a knock sounded against the door.

Jo tensed.

“You decent?”

Jo exhaled sharply. “Yeah.”

The door creaked open, and Hosea stepped inside, moving with that same unshakable calm he always carried. His eyes flicked to the discarded dress on the floor before landing on her.

“How’d it go?”

Jo pulled at the cuffs of her sleeves, not meeting his gaze. “Fine.”

Hosea arched a brow. “Fine?”

She gave a curt nod, walking over to grab her gun belt. “Yeah. Scoped the place out.”

Hosea leaned against the doorframe, arms crossed. “And?”

Jo inhaled sharply, forcing herself to focus. The bank. The job. That’s what matters. Not Arthur. Not—

Her jaw clenched.

“Five clerks, two security doors, vault in the back with two guards stationed nearby,” she listed off, her tone clipped. “Head clerk’s an older fella, doesn’t pay much attention. The keys are on one of the bankers—stiff posture, probably the one in charge of keepin’ things locked up.”

Hosea nodded, clearly pleased. “Good. Arthur’ll want to—”

Jo let out a sharp, bitter scoff before she could stop herself.

Hosea’s brows lifted slightly. “What?”

Jo turned, shoving her arms through her coat sleeves with more force than necessary. “Nothin’.”

Hosea hummed, unconvinced. “Something happened?”

Jo tightened her jaw. She hadn’t planned to tell him. But the anger inside her was too sharp, too bitter to keep locked behind her teeth.

She gritted her teeth. “Saw him .”

Hosea tilted his head slightly. “Him?”

She exhaled through her nose. “Arthur.”

Something flickered in Hosea’s expression, but he kept his voice neutral. “And?”

Jo bit the inside of her cheek. She could leave it there. Let him assume whatever he wanted. But no—she wanted him to know.

“He wasn’t alone,” she muttered darkly, voice dipping low.

Hosea watched her carefully. “Who was he with?”

Jo didn’t answer right away. She adjusted her gun belt, pretending to fix the buckle, but the movement was too quick, too aggressive.

And then, in a voice thick with something bitter and unspoken, she all but spat the name.

Mary.

Hosea exhaled slowly, as if he had expected as much.

Jo let out a short, humorless laugh, shaking her head. “Ain’t that somethin’? Guess it don’t matter what I thought, huh? Should’ve known better.”

Hosea studied her for a long moment before speaking. “Jo—”

“No,” she snapped, her patience fraying at the edges. “I’ve had enough of hearin’ about Arthur damn Morgan.”

Hosea lifted his hands slightly, a gesture of peace. “I’m sure it’s not–.”

But the restraint in his voice only made something snap inside her.

“Stop pretendin’ like you care, Hosea,” she spat, her anger spilling out before she could stop it. “You ain’t my father.”

The words hit the air like a gunshot.

Silence.

Something flickered in Hosea’s expression—something she didn’t like.

Hurt.

Disappointment.

He let out a quiet sigh, his voice lower now.

“You’re right,” he said, softer than before. “I’m not.”

The moment the words left him, Jo felt the weight of them like a fist to the ribs.

She should apologize. She should apologize.

But the words sat heavy on her tongue, tangled with everything else inside her.

So instead, she turned on her heel and stormed out.

She barely registered the others as she stomped through camp, heading straight for the broken dock at the edge of the property.

The wood creaked beneath her boots, but she didn’t stop. She made her way to the very end, past the rotting planks, past the tangled reeds growing through the cracks, and sank onto one of the beams, her arms resting on her knees.

The water stretched out before her, dark and endless, swallowing the last of the daylight as the sky faded to deep indigo.

Jo clenched her jaw, staring at the rippling surface, watching as fireflies flickered above the reeds.

She didn’t know how long she sat there.

Didn’t know how much time had passed.

But she felt it.

The anger. The betrayal. The aching, twisting mess inside her.

Because no matter how much she wanted to pretend she didn’t care—

She did.

And that was the worst part of it all.

 


 

The scent of stew and roasting meat drifted through the humid night air, mixing with the distant murmur of voices and the occasional clatter of tin plates. The others were gathered around the campfire, eating, talking, living.

Jo sat alone.

She kept her eyes on the water, watching as the moonlight skimmed across the rippling surface. The broken dock beneath her creaked whenever she shifted, the warped wood rough under her fingertips.

She heard the footsteps before she saw him.

His stride was slow, deliberate—not the kind of approach that expected conversation, just the kind that let you know someone was there.

“Look who’s back,” he murmured as he came to a stop beside her.

Jo huffed a quiet breath, shaking her head slightly. “That obvious?”

Javier lowered himself onto the dock beside her, one knee bent, his elbow resting loosely against it. “You’re the only one sittin’ in the dark while the rest of ‘em are eatin’, chica .” He nodded toward the campfire in the distance. “So yeah, it’s obvious.”

Jo didn’t have an answer for that.

He glanced at her, studying her with that same sharp, knowing gaze he always had. “You look awful sad.”

Jo sighed, running her fingers over a knot in the wood. “Yeah,” she admitted, her voice low. “I am.”

Javier shifted, stretching his legs out in front of him. “How come?”

She hesitated, her eyes locked on the black water lapping gently at the posts beneath them. She hadn’t planned to tell anyone. But Javier wasn’t the type to pry, and maybe that was why the words came easier than she expected.

“Just lost the one thing I’ve spent my entire life fightin’ for.” Her voice was quiet, distant. “I’m wonderin’ what else it’s gonna cost me.”

Javier exhaled through his nose, thoughtful. “That’s the way of things, hermosa ,” he said after a moment. “You keep fightin’ long enough, one day you wake up and wonder if you even got anything left to fight for.”

Jo’s jaw tensed.

She wanted to argue. Wanted to tell him that she knew what she had been fighting for—her place, her survival, something that had felt like home.

But did she?

Because what good was a home when you weren’t sure if you belonged in it anymore?

She swallowed, her throat thick.

Her fingers twitched against the wood, restless. “…D’you know any sad songs?”

Javier let out a small huff of laughter. “Most people say it’s all I know.”

A faint, tired smile tugged at Jo’s lips, fleeting but real. She turned her head slightly, just enough to glance at him. “Would you play one for me?”

Javier didn’t answer right away. He studied her for a moment, then gave a small nod.

“Si,” he murmured. “I can do that.”

He reached for the worn guitar slung over his back, shifting slightly as he settled it against his knee. His fingers found the strings without thought, calloused hands coaxing out a slow, sorrowful melody that drifted into the night air.

Jo didn’t look at him. She just listened.

The campfire still burned in the distance, flickering against the silhouettes of the gang—Hosea speaking low to Dutch, Charles methodically cleaning his plate, Bill already on his second helping of stew. Life went on. The world kept turning.

And yet, here she sat, a thousand miles away despite barely being a few feet from them.

Javier played on, his quiet song curling around the edges of her thoughts, settling into the spaces left hollow by doubt and regret.

Arthur wasn’t looking for her.

Hell, he wasn’t even sure why he had wandered toward the docks in the first place. Maybe it was habit, maybe it was something else. But as he stepped around the side of the house, away from the fire and the voices and the weight of Dutch’s expectations, his eyes caught a familiar figure sitting at the edge of the dock.

Jo.

His breath hitched—just a little, just enough for him to feel it.

But she wasn’t alone.

Javier sat beside her, his guitar resting against his knee, fingers coaxing out a slow, mournful tune that drifted into the night air.

Arthur stopped where he stood, hidden by the shadows of the porch. He didn’t move. Didn’t call out.

Didn’t interrupt.

Jo was staring at the water, her arms resting on her knees, her hat tilted just enough for him to see the way the firelight from camp caught in the loose strands of her hair. She looked… tired. Not just in the way someone looked after a long ride, but in the way someone looked when they were carrying too much.

And yet, for the first time all evening, she wasn’t alone in it.

Arthur swallowed, his jaw tightening as Javier spoke, his voice low, easy.

Hermosa, ” he murmured, barely audible over the quiet hum of the night. “You think too much.”

Jo huffed softly, shaking her head. “Ain’t that what you do when you’ve got too much on your mind?”

Javier plucked at the strings again, the notes curling slow and steady into the air. “Maybe.” 

Jo didn’t answer.

She just closed her eyes, the faintest trace of a smile—tired, barely there—ghosting over her lips as the song played on.

And Arthur felt something twist deep in his chest.

He wasn’t sure what it was.

Maybe jealousy.

Maybe regret.

Maybe something worse.

Because for all the time he had spent by her side these past few weeks—for all the nights he had held her as she fell apart, for all the moments he had tried to help her breathe through the weight of it— he had never seen her look like that.

Never seen her settle like that, like the storm in her chest had quieted, even if just for a little while.

And it made him wonder—

Maybe she had finally opened her eyes.

Maybe she had realized that whatever the hell they had between them wasn’t meant to be, that she had been a fool to ever let herself get tangled up in him .

Maybe she was better off with someone else, someone like Javier.

Or maybe…

Maybe she had never really loved him at all.

Arthur exhaled, slow and quiet, before turning away.

He didn’t have the right to pull her back.

Not now. Not anymore.

Chapter 28: Dead Men and Gold

Chapter Text

It felt strange, not sleeping beside Arthur.

For weeks, his bed had been hers just as much as it was his—warmth shared between tangled sheets, his steady presence grounding her in the nights where grief clawed its way through her ribs. And yet, last night, she hadn’t gone to him.

Couldn’t.

The image of him with Mary was still burned into her mind, no matter how much she tried to shove it down, push it away, act like it hadn’t cut her deep.

So she avoided him.

She had spent most of the morning keeping herself busy—sharpening her knives, brushing down Laramie, making sure her rifle was cleaned and loaded. She hadn’t spoken much to the others, hadn’t joined them for breakfast, just let herself fade into the background while camp buzzed with anticipation.

Today was the day.

The bank heist.

A job so big Dutch had been dreaming of it since the moment they set foot in Saint Denis, promising it would be the one , the final step toward the freedom he kept dangling in front of them like a carrot on a stick.

Jo should have been focused.

But her mind was elsewhere.

And then, of all the damn things, Arthur sought her out.

She felt him before she saw him—that weight in the air, that shift in the space around her. He always carried himself like a man used to walking unnoticed, but Jo had spent too much time memorizing his presence to miss it now.

She was crouched near her tent, securing her gun belt when his shadow loomed over her.

“You avoidin’ me?”

Jo stiffened, but didn’t look up. “Ain’t got time for this, Morgan.”

Arthur let out a slow breath, shifting his weight. “Didn’t see you last night.”

“Yeah, well,” she said, standing up and brushing the dirt off her hands, “I ain’t your keeper, am I?”

Arthur frowned. “Ain’t what I meant.”

Jo turned then, finally meeting his gaze. His expression was unreadable, but there was something behind those blue eyes—something she wasn’t sure if she wanted to pick apart.

“We got a job today,” she reminded him, voice flat. “Bigger things to worry about.”

Arthur didn’t budge. “Jo—”

“What?”

“You gonna talk to me or you just gonna keep pretendin’ like nothin’s wrong?”

That got her.

A sharp breath pushed past her lips, and she rolled her shoulders back, leveling him with a look. “ What do you wanna talk about, Arthur?” she asked, voice tight. “How ‘bout the fact that you’s the one who came lookin’ for me , when we got a bank to rob?”

Arthur exhaled, rubbing a hand over his jaw. “Just noticed you weren’t where you usually were, is all.”

Jo huffed a bitter laugh. “That ain’t really my problem, is it?”

Arthur’s jaw tightened. “Maybe you should go with Javier then?”

Jo’s eyes snapped to his, a sharp, humorless grin twisting at her lips.

Javier? ” she repeated, her voice laced with disbelief. “Oh, that’s rich comin’ from you , Morgan.”

Arthur’s brows pulled together. “What’s that supposed to mean?”

Jo scoffed, shaking her head. “Don’t play dumb.”

Arthur studied her for a moment, his expression shifting, and then—

“Saw you with Mary.

Arthur froze.

“Oh.”

Jo crossed her arms, her chin lifting just slightly. “Yeah. Oh.

He opened his mouth, then closed it.

Jo let the silence stretch for a second, watching him fumble for words, before she shook her head, her voice dipping low. “Guess that explains why you came sniffin’ around here, huh?”

“Jo—” Arthur ran a hand down his face. “That ain’t what you think.”

Jo’s throat tightened. She let out a slow, humorless breath. “Ain’t it?”

Arthur held her gaze, something hard but unreadable behind his eyes. “No. It ain’t.”

Jo clenched her jaw, her fingers twitching at her sides.

She wanted to believe him.

But that picture was still fresh in her head—him standing beside her , close enough to touch, close enough that Jo had felt like she was standing outside of something she didn’t belong to.

Arthur must’ve seen it on her face, because he let out a heavy sigh, shaking his head. “You really think I been playin’ you this whole time?”

Jo swallowed, but her voice came out even. “Ain’t your business what I think.”

Arthur’s gaze flickered—just for a second, just enough for her to see something pass through it.

And suddenly, she wasn’t sure she wanted to hear whatever excuse he had.

Not today. Not now .

She shook her head, stepping back. “Forget it,” she muttered, turning on her heel. “I got better things to do.”

Arthur didn’t stop her.

But he sure as hell didn’t look happy about it.

Jo turned to walk away, but Arthur’s voice stopped her.

“Wait.”

She hesitated, her fists clenching at her sides. Every part of her told her to keep walking, to let this go, to bury the hurt so deep it wouldn’t matter anymore.

But something in his tone—steady, but weighted —made her pause.

She turned just enough to glance at him over her shoulder, watching as he reached into his coat pocket. When his hand came back, it wasn’t empty.

A folded piece of paper.

He held it out to her. “Read it.”

Jo’s eyes flicked between him and the paper, distrust creeping into her chest. “What’ that?”

Arthur exhaled through his nose. “Letter from Mary.”

That caught her off guard.

She eyed him warily, then slowly reached out, plucking it from his grasp. The paper was soft, slightly crumpled, worn from being handled.

Unfolding it, she let her eyes skim over the neat handwriting, the carefully penned words.

 

My Dear Arthur, 

I hope this letter finds you well. I wanted to thank you for your help with Jamie. He and Daddy are still arguing but I understand that Jamie is thinking about going back to college. Whatever happens, I believe you saved his life and we are all truly grateful. 

Oh Arthur, I have made such a mess of my life, time and again. Why can I not change and be the woman I want to be? Why couldn’t you change and be a man and put down all those fantasies that shroud your judgement?

Life is very confusing and I see now that I am not very good at it. I am afraid we have got ourselves into another mess. It’s not my fault but I need your help. I’m staying at the Hotel Grand in Saint Denis. Oh Arthur, I know it is wrong to ask you, but I have nobody else and for what we once had together, I beg of you, even though I am ashamed to do so.

Yours, 

Mary.

 

Jo’s grip tightened. Her pulse pounded louder in her ears the further she read.

A request. A plea.

Mary asking Arthur to meet her.

She looked up at him then, something sharp curling in her chest.

“And?” she asked, her voice flat.

Arthur met her gaze, his expression unreadable for a long moment. Then, he sighed, rubbing a hand over his jaw. “I went to help her.”

Jo scoffed, shaking her head, looking away. Of course he did.

“But that ain’t all.”

She crossed her arms, tilting her head, waiting.

Arthur inhaled deeply, his hands settling on his belt. “I told her not to write to me again.” His voice was firm, certain. “Told her I couldn’t help her no more. That I was done livin’ in the past.”

Jo stared at him, searching for something in his expression. But Arthur didn’t look away.

His throat bobbed slightly before he spoke again, quieter this time.

“Told her I was happy.”

Jo’s breath caught.

Arthur shifted, looking at her like he was waiting for her to understand, to let the words sink in. And then—

“With you .”

Silence stretched between them.

The sounds of camp felt distant—the clatter of plates, the murmur of voices, the occasional laugh floating from the fire.

Jo’s fingers tightened around the letter.

She had spent the whole night, the whole morning, convincing herself she had been a fool. That she had let herself believe something that was never real.

And now, here he was.

Arthur Morgan, looking at her like she was the only thing that mattered.

Like she had always mattered.

Her chest ached.

She swallowed, eyes flicking to the letter once more before slowly, carefully, folding it back up.

Then, without a word, she held it out to him.

Arthur took it, his fingers brushing against hers for half a second before she pulled away.

Jo exhaled sharply, running a hand through her hair, her voice quieter now. “This don’t mean I forgive you.”

Arthur gave a slow nod, tucking the letter back into his coat. “Ain’t askin’ you to.”

Jo hesitated, her fingers curling slightly at her sides. Then, finally, she sighed. “C’mon, Morgan,” she muttered, stepping past him. “We got a bank to rob.”

Arthur huffed out something that almost sounded like a laugh, shaking his head as he fell into step beside her.

The fight wasn’t over.

But maybe—just maybe—they had taken a step forward.

 


 

The air was thick with anticipation, heavy with the scent of gun oil and fresh leather.

Everything was set.

The gang stood gathered near the horses, dressed for the part—Dutch and Hosea in their fine suits, John, Charles, Lenny and Arthur looking just polished enough to pass for respectable men, Bill and Micah checking their weapons with barely concealed excitement.

And Jo—

Jo was yet again shoved into another damn dress.

This one was worse than the last. Stiff, formal, dark blue with a corset laced so tight she was certain she’d pass out before they even stepped foot in the bank. The high collar pressed against her throat, and the fabric was heavy despite the humidity hanging thick in the air.

A businesswoman , they called it. An important lady, here to handle her late father’s estate. A role. A ruse.

A goddamn nuisance .

She adjusted the gloves on her hands, grumbling under her breath as she made her way toward Laramie, eager to be done with this already. But before she could reach her horse, a voice cut through the din.

Low. Drawling. Oily as ever.

“Well, well,” Micah sneered, stepping into her path like he had all the time in the world. “Ain’t you look real pretty, sweetheart.”

Jo barely managed to keep from scowling. “Micah,” she said flatly, making to step around him.

But he moved too, blocking her way.

Her patience thinned. “Get outta my way.”

Micah smirked, tilting his head. “Relax, darlin’. Just wanted a quick word ‘fore we all go riskin’ our necks.” His voice dipped lower, his grin turning razor-sharp. “Wouldn’t want you messin’ this up like you messed up your poor friend’s life, now would we?”

Jo’s entire body went rigid.

It was like the air had been sucked clean out of her lungs.

The mention of Ben was enough to strike her still, to freeze her to the spot in a way Micah must have noticed, because his grin only widened.

Her nails dug into the fabric of her gloves. Anger burned at the edges of her vision, sharp and crackling like a wildfire, but beneath it—beneath it was something else.

Something cold.

Something hollow.

Because Ben was still a fresh wound, and no matter how much she wanted to shove it all down, it still ached.

Micah leaned in, voice dropping just for her. “So, do us all a favor, sweetheart— keep your head down today. I’d hate to see you ruin another man’s life.”

Jo clenched her fists, her breath sharp through her teeth—

And then another voice cut through.

“Micah.”

Low. Dangerous.

Arthur.

Jo blinked, barely registering him moving up beside her, stepping just close enough that his presence was something solid at her back. She didn’t turn, but she felt him.

Felt the quiet fury rolling off of him in waves.

Micah straightened, glancing at Arthur with mock innocence. “What’s the matter, cowpoke? Just havin’ a friendly little chat.”

Arthur’s face was unreadable. His hands hung loose at his sides, but Jo knew better. He wasn’t relaxed.

Not one bit.

“You keep messin’ with her head,” Arthur said, voice low, steady, like a loaded gun with the safety off, “and I will put you in the ground.”

The air between them stretched tight, thick enough to choke on.

Micah’s smirk faltered—just a flicker, just a hair of hesitation before he let out a short, humorless chuckle. “Relax, Morgan,” he muttered, lifting his hands in mock surrender. “No need to get all bent outta shape.”

He stepped back, but the look in his eye lingered, something glinting beneath the surface like a blade hidden in a boot.

Then, with a lazy tip of his hat, he turned and strode toward his horse.

Arthur didn’t move. Not right away.

He was still watching Micah, his jaw set, his shoulders tense, his fingers twitching slightly—like he was still deciding whether or not to put a bullet in the bastard.

Jo's heart warmed at his words, feeling the force behind them. She had no doubt he would do as he said. But she needed to clarify something. “You don’t have to protect me.”

Arthur’s gaze flicked down to her then, brows furrowing slightly.

She met his stare, tilting her chin up. “Just ‘cause I’m a woman doesn’t mean I can’t protect myself.”

Arthur held her gaze for a long moment before he exhaled slowly, shaking his head.

“I ain’t protectin’ you ‘cause you’re a woman,” he murmured.

His voice was lower now, softer, like the edge of a knife dulled by careful hands.

Then, he took a step closer, just enough that she had to tilt her head back slightly to look up at him.

“I’m protectin’ you ‘cause you’re my woman.”

Jo’s breath caught.

Her mouth opened slightly, her thoughts screeching to a halt, her heart slamming against her ribs with enough force to make her dizzy.

Holy. Shit.

Arthur just called her his woman.

His. Woman.

Jo blinked, completely, utterly stunned.

Arthur, for his part, didn’t seem to realize the effect his words had. Or if he did, he wasn’t showing it. He simply gave her one last look before turning and making his way to his horse.

Jo stayed rooted to the spot, her entire brain short-circuiting.

Then, after a beat, she exhaled sharply and muttered under her breath, “Jesus Christ, Morgan.”

And with that, she finally pulled herself together and strode toward Laramie.

The heist was about to begin.

And if she survived the damn thing, she was absolutely going to make Arthur regret making her heart damn near explode.

Jo exhaled sharply before turning on her heel, following after Arthur toward the horses. The gang was already mounting up, voices rising in the thick evening air, the tension of what they were about to do settling over them like the heavy humidity before a storm.

She was still fuming—mostly at herself, partly at Arthur, and entirely at the goddamn dress.

The stiff fabric tangled around her legs as she reached Laramie, and she had to gather the damn thing just to get enough movement to lift her boot into the stirrup.

Only for the dress to pull too tight.

She scowled. This goddamn, son-of-a—

Behind her, Arthur chuckled.

Jo froze, her entire body going stiff.

Oh. Oh, he did not just—

Her glare snapped to him, but he had the nerve to look innocent, as if he hadn’t just enjoyed watching her struggle.

She opened her mouth, but before she could get a word out, his hands were on her waist.

Warm. Solid. Effortless.

Jo barely had time to react before Arthur lifted her up like she weighed nothing and settled her onto Laramie’s back with a practiced ease that absolutely did not make her stomach do a damn thing.

Nope.

No fluttering. No warmth crawling up her neck. None.

…She was blushing.

Arthur, still at her side, adjusted Laramie’s bridle with a little too much ease, his face unreadable—but she saw it. The faintest twitch of his lips. The amusement in his damn eyes.

He was waiting for it.

Waiting for a thank you.

Jo lifted her chin, squared her shoulders, and pointedly did not give him the satisfaction.

Instead, she scoffed, adjusting her gloves with an exaggerated air of nonchalance. “If I wanted to be manhandled, Morgan, I’d ask.”

Arthur huffed a quiet laugh under his breath, shaking his head as he turned away. “Sure you would, sweetheart.”

Jo hated how her stomach flipped at the damn drawl in his voice.

She grumbled something under her breath and looked ahead just in time to see Hosea pulling himself up onto the driver’s seat of the stagecoach, Abigail settling beside him, the picture of a refined lady, even in disguise.

Arthur swung onto Atlas with practiced ease, his movements fluid, natural.

Hosea let out a satisfied breath, settling into the reins before casting a wry look at the group. “So,” he mused, “we rob ourselves a bank, and within six weeks we’re livin’ life anew in a tropical idyll, spendin’ the last of our days as banana farmers?”

Jo snorted, shaking her head. Dutch’s damn paradise.

Arthur only huffed, rolling his shoulders, and John muttered something about mangos.

Hosea, ever the showman, straightened in his seat, voice lifting just slightly as he declared—

“Well, let’s get out of this godforsaken place and go rob ourselves a bank!”

A chorus of cheers followed, boots nudging against flanks, and just like that, the gang surged forward, hooves pounding against the dirt as they rode out of Shady Belle.

Toward Saint Denis.

Toward whatever awaited them next.

 


 

The city smelled of wealth.

Even beneath the ever-present grime of Saint Denis—the coal smoke, the stench of the river, the damp heat clinging to the stone streets—there was something clean about this part of town. Polished brass signs gleamed under the gaslights, gentlemen in tailored coats strolled past with canes they didn’t need, and carriages rattled over the cobblestones, their drivers watching the world from their high perches like kings of their own little empires.

And at the center of it all stood the Lemoyne National Bank.

The building loomed tall, its white stone facade pristine, its grand pillars framing the polished glass doors like the entrance to a temple. Money flowed through this place like a second bloodstream, feeding the rich, feeding the powerful.

And now, it was about to feed them.

The plan was simple.

Hosea and Abigail would draw out the police, setting off a distraction across town, forcing every available lawman to turn their attention elsewhere.

John and Lenny would secure the front doors—fast, efficient, keeping anyone from running out into the streets.

Javier would cover the side exit, making sure no guards or panicked civilians slipped out the back.

Bill, Micah, and Charles would control the crowd, keeping them in line, keeping them quiet.

And Dutch, Arthur, and Jo?

They’d handle the bank manager.

They’d get to the vault.

They’d walk out of here rich .

One last time.

That was the promise. That was the plan.

If everything went right .

Jo sat stiff-backed atop Laramie, her hands light on the reins as she stared at the bank’s grand entrance. Her breath was steady, but she could feel it—that electric charge in the air, the weight pressing against her ribs, the tension coiled in her gut like a spring wound too tight.

Last one, Jo. Just one more.

The others gathered around her, their movements deliberate, measured. Dutch adjusted the cuffs of his jacket, a gloved hand smoothing down the fine lapels of his coat as he took in the street with the cool ease of a man who thought he belonged anywhere.

Arthur sat atop Atlas, his usual slouched posture unchanged, but his fingers tapped idly against his saddle horn, his eyes sharp.

Micah was grinning, already restless, his knee bouncing slightly as he rolled his shoulders. 

“Let’s get this show on the road,” he muttered, adjusting the bandolier slung across his chest.

Dutch didn’t respond.

Not yet.

They dismounted, hitching their horses along the street, moving slow, unhurried, like any other group of businessfolk going about their day. They spread out just enough to keep from drawing attention—Micah, Bill, and Charles lingering near a shop window, Lenny and John standing close to the steps, waiting.

Jo adjusted the cuffs of her damn dress, resisting the urge to roll her shoulders against the tight fabric. The high collar pressed against her throat, and she had to bite back a scowl at the absurdity of it.

She didn’t belong in this.

Didn’t belong in a world where women wore corsets and spoke in soft voices and counted coins behind ledgers.

But today, for this job, she would pretend.

The city moved around them, unaware of what was about to unfold. A young man polished his watch near a newspaper stand. A woman in a deep-red dress stepped from a carriage, a lace fan fluttering in her gloved hand. A lawman stood at the corner, his thumbs hooked into his belt, his eyes scanning the street with the relaxed air of a man who had nothing to worry about.

They were waiting.

Waiting for the signal.

The sun pressed heavy against them, the heat of the afternoon weighing down on their shoulders, and still, they waited.

Then—

BOOM.

The explosion rocked through the streets like a thunderclap, shaking the ground beneath their boots.

The city froze.

Every head turned toward the distant plume of smoke curling into the sky, just beyond the rooftops. A heartbeat of silence followed—just long enough for realization to set in—before the streets erupted.

People shouted, carriages veered, shopkeepers abandoned their posts, rushing to see what had happened.

And the lawmen?

They ran.

Just as planned.

Dutch grinned. “Alright, boys and girls—time to work.”

And just like that—

They moved.

Jo’s pulse pounded as she strode up the steps, her boots quick and deliberate beneath the heavy drape of her skirts. John and Lenny were already in position, stepping into place as she, Arthur, and Dutch pushed through the grand doors, the air inside cool against her heated skin.

It smelled like ink and old money.

The heavy tick of the gilded clock on the wall filled the silence as the tellers glanced up, their practiced smiles faltering at the sight of them.

For a moment, everything was still.

And then—

“Ladies and gentlemen, this is a hold up!”

Dutch’s voice rang through the grand hall, smooth as ever, filling the vaulted ceilings with a presence that couldn’t be ignored.

The bank froze.

For a long moment, there was only the sound of the gilded clock ticking above the teller booths, the faint shuffle of feet as people processed the words—really processed them.

And then, chaos.

Women screamed. Men flinched. Some dove for cover, while others stood rooted in place, wide-eyed and trembling.

“Now, now,” Dutch continued, stepping forward with the confident ease of a man who owned the room. “Don’t do nothin’ stupid.”

The polished floors reflected the light from the grand chandeliers above, the walls lined with dark mahogany, the brass fixtures gleaming. It was a place built for money—built to house the wealth of the men who never thought it could be taken from them.

Until today.

Lenny and John shoved the tellers toward the back, Javier already moving to secure the side door. Bill corralled the customers, forcing them into a back room with Charles keeping a sharp eye.

Jo stood near Arthur, one hand resting lightly on the revolver strapped beneath her damn dress she was forced to wear. Her pulse was steady, her breaths even—her body humming with tension but controlled, sharp as a blade waiting to strike.

This wasn’t her first heist.

But it was the biggest.

She could feel it—something beneath the surface, that electric weight in the air, the knowledge that after this, everything would change.

A sharp voice snapped her from her thoughts.

“Who do you think you are?!”

The head manager.

Jo turned her head, her eyes locking onto the source of the voice—a man dressed too fine for a job that had him handling money rather than owning it. His thick, groomed mustache twitched as he glared at them, puffing up his chest like a peacock trying to make itself bigger in the face of a predator.

Arthur stepped closer, raising his gun.

“I’d be real careful ‘bout what comes outta your mouth next,” Arthur drawled, voice low and sharp.

The manager swallowed.

Jo caught movement from the corner of her eye—Micah, standing off to the side, his grin stretching too wide, his shoulders shaking just slightly as he chuckled.

The sound grated on Jo’s nerves like nails on glass.

Of course he was enjoying this.

Of course he thrived in this kind of moment—when people cowered, when fear filled the air like smoke.

Jo didn’t say anything. But she hated it.

Dutch, as always, took control. “Okay, now then,” he announced, clasping his hands together. “Arthur, would you please have Señor Bank Manager here open up the vault?”

Arthur didn’t hesitate.

His gun nudged against the manager’s ribs, forcing him to turn, his face pale as he stumbled toward the heavy steel door at the back of the bank.

Bill shoved the last of the customers into the back room, slamming the door shut, cutting off the muffled cries inside.

Jo followed close behind Arthur, her boots clicking against the marble floor as they reached the vault.

The manager’s hands shook as he fumbled with the lock, sweat beading on his brow. “P-please, I—”

Arthur wasn’t in the mood. He grabbed the man by the back of the collar, giving him a rough shove forward. “Open it. Now.

With trembling fingers, the manager turned the lock, twisting it with a soft click . The heavy door groaned as it swung open, revealing the dark interior of the vault.

Jo stepped inside behind Arthur, the scent of aged paper and ink filling the enclosed space. Stacks of bonds. Bills. A lifetime’s worth of wealth hoarded behind steel and stone.

But there was one problem.

The safe.

It sat at the back of the vault, locked tight.

Arthur exhaled sharply, rolling his shoulders as he turned back toward the manager. “Combination.”

The man hesitated.

Wrong move.

Bill grabbed him by the collar, yanking him back. “You best start talkin’, or I start breakin’ bones.”

The manager sputtered, his eyes darting wildly around the room before finally, breathlessly, he spoke.

Nineteen .”

Arthur’s fingers found the dial, turning it smoothly.

Seventy-two.

The second click sounded, sharp in the silence.

Jo’s breath felt heavy in her chest.

Fifty-four.

Arthur twisted the dial one last time—

And bingo .

The safe swung open.

Inside, neatly stacked piles of bills gleamed under the dim light, bound in crisp paper bands, the numbers printed bold and thick.

Arthur wasted no time. The moment the safe swung open, he grabbed a handful of the neatly stacked bills, stuffing them into his satchel without hesitation.

Jo followed suit, her gloved fingers sweeping over the crisp paper, shoving handfuls of wealth into the bag slung over her shoulder.

They worked in tandem, movements sharp, efficient—except for the fact that the air between them was thick .

Arthur finally broke the silence, his voice edged but still steady. “Take those bonds, too.”

Jo snatched them up, but not without muttering, “ Oh, so now you givin’ me orders?”

Arthur shot her a look, his brow furrowing. “We ain’t doin’ this now.”

Jo let out a sharp, humorless breath, shoving another bundle of cash into her bag. “Right. ‘Course not. Wouldn’t wanna distract you, wouldn’t wanna take up too much of your precious time.”

Arthur exhaled sharply through his nose. “Jesus, Jo.”

“What?” she bit, still stuffing money into her satchel. “Ain’t my fault you were too busy courtin’ Mary to notice I was there.”

Arthur’s fingers paused for half a second before he shook his head, jaw tight. “Ain’t what happened.”

Jo let out a dry laugh. “Sure looked like it.”

Arthur grabbed another stack of bills, shoving them into his bag a little harder than necessary. “Damn it, Jo—”

“Now ain’t the time for sweet talk,” John’s voice called from outside the vault, cutting through their heated whispering like a dull knife.

Both Arthur and Jo turned their heads toward the door, unison in their movements, their glares locking onto the source of the very poorly timed remark.

And at the exact same time—

“Shut up, John!”

John blinked.

Then huffed a laugh, shaking his head as he leaned against the vault’s doorframe. “Damn. Ain’t often you two agree on somethin’.”

Arthur let out a low growl under his breath and turned back to the safe. “Jo, keep loadin’ up.”

Jo gave John one last glare before yanking a few more bonds from the shelf, muttering under her breath, “ Bossy son of a bitch.

Arthur huffed. “ Difficult woman.

Dutch, watching from the door, smirked. “You two gonna shoot each other, or are we robbin’ this bank?”

Neither of them answered.

They just worked faster, hands moving through the stacks of bills, the weight of what they weren’t saying still heavy between them.

Outside the vault, the sounds of the heist carried on—Dutch’s commanding voice, Bill barking orders, the muffled cries of the manager as Micah likely roughed him up a little more than necessary.

We got trouble!

John’s voice rang sharp through the air, all trace of smugness gone.

Arthur and Jo jerked toward the vault entrance, their hands immediately finding their weapons.

“Think we got a problem out here!” John called again.

Jo exchanged a glance with Arthur—no more bitter remarks, no more distractions. This was bad.

They shoved the last of the money into their bags and rushed out of the vault, boots pounding against the polished floors as they joined Dutch and John near the windows facing the street.

The sight outside made Jo’s stomach drop.

The bank was surrounded.

Pinkertons. Lawmen. Dozens of them, rifles at the ready, lining the street like vultures waiting to pick apart a fresh corpse.

And at the center of it all— Mr. Milton .

Jo’s grip on her gun tightened.

He stood with that damn smug confidence, his suit pristine, his expression unreadable—but there was something in his stance, something too sure.

Then—

Dutch, get out here!

Mr. Milton’s voice cut through the tense silence like a blade.

But it was what he did next that made Jo’s blood turn to ice.

Because he wasn’t alone.

He yanked someone forward—someone they knew.

Someone they loved.

Hosea.

Jo’s breath hitched.

Arthur’s hands curled into fists at his sides, his entire body going rigid beside her.

Hosea was kneeling in the dirt, a gun pressed against his head. He was slightly disheveled, his expression calm but resigned—too calm.

Like he knew .

Like he had already accepted whatever was about to happen.

Jo froze.

Arthur’s blood boiled.

Mr. Milton’s voice rang out again. “ Get out here now!

From inside the bank, Dutch’s voice was steady— too steady.

“Mr. Milton,” he called, “let my friend go, or folks... they are gonna get shot unnecessarily.”

Milton laughed. A short, bitter sound.

“Your friend ?” he mocked. “Ha. Why would I do that?”

Jo’s fingers twitched on her revolver. She could see it—the way Hosea knelt in the dirt, how he barely even struggled, how he wasn’t begging.

Hosea never begged.

Dutch stepped closer to the window, voice dipping lower. “Come on, Milton.”

Milton shook his head. “It’s over. No more bargains. No more deals.”

Jo’s pulse was roaring in her ears.

This wasn’t right.

This wasn’t how it was supposed to go .

Inside the bank, every single gun was drawn, pointed outward. Outside, lawmen and Pinkertons alike mirrored them, fingers tight on triggers, waiting for a single misstep.

Dutch’s patience wavered. “Mr. Milton, this is America . You can always cut a deal.”

Milton smirked. “I’ve given you enough chances.”

Then—

He pushed Hosea forward.

Hosea stumbled, letting out a grunt, catching himself with a shaky step.

One.

Two.

Then he stopped .

Turned.

Faced them all, his expression gentle even now.

And in a single, awful second—

Milton raised his pistol and fired .

BANG.

Blood sprayed from Hosea’s chest, dark and vivid against his white shirt.

For a moment, everything stopped .

Then—

NO!

Jo’s scream ripped through the air, her rage and grief exploding at the same time.

She moved before she could think, her body surging forward, her feet barely touching the ground—

But strong arms wrapped around her waist, holding her back.

Let me go! ” she snarled, thrashing , her fingers clawing at Arthur’s grip.

Arthur didn’t let go.

Didn’t budge.

His arms locked around her, holding her tight, his own breath ragged against her ear. “Stop!” His voice was rough, cracking under the weight of his own rage. “Jo, stop!

But she couldn’t .

She had to get to Hosea.

Had to help him.

But he was—he was—

Hosea collapsed onto the dirt, grunting, his hand pressing against his chest, trying to hold in the blood spilling from between his fingers.

Jo’s vision blurred with red.

Arthur’s grip only tightened, his own body shaking with barely contained fury.

Because he wanted to kill Milton just as badly as she did.

Jo struggled, her teeth clenched, her heart pounding so violently it hurt. “Arthur, let me go!

You’ll die out there! ” Arthur barked, his grip unrelenting. “Jo, damn it!

Her breath was wild, erratic, her entire body vibrating with the need to do something.

To shoot.

To save Hosea.

But there was nothing she could do.

Nothing but watch.

Watch as Hosea withered in the dirt, his face pale, his breaths ragged.

Watch as Dutch froze, his hands shaking at his sides, his confidence crumbling in front of them all.

Watch as Mr. Milton smiled, pleased, because he had just ripped the heart out of the Van der Linde gang—

And there wasn’t a damn thing they could do about it.

Hosea’s blood pooled beneath him, dark and spreading, soaking into the dirt like the earth itself was mourning him.

Jo stilled in Arthur’s arms, her body going slack.

Not from defeat—no, never defeat —but from something far worse.

Regret.

The last words she had spoken to him, sharp and cruel, rang through her skull like a church bell tolling in the distance.

Stop pretendin’ like you care, Hosea. You ain’t my father!

She had meant it in the moment. Had wanted to wound him.

And now—

She would never take it back.

Never tell him she was sorry.

Never hear his voice again.

Jo’s hands trembled, her breath shallow and broken, her fingers still curled tight into Arthur’s coat. She wasn’t struggling anymore. Wasn’t fighting against him.

She was just… there .

Arthur felt it the second the fight drained out of her. His grip loosened—slow at first, then fully, his arms falling away as he let her go.

But there was no time to speak.

No time to mourn.

Because in the split of a second—

All hell broke loose.

The first shot fired, and then—

Gunfire erupted.

Dutch roared something, but it was lost in the deafening sound of bullets tearing through the air.

Glass exploded from the front windows as bullets slammed into them, shattering into a thousand deadly shards.

Jo barely had time to breathe before—

Arthur moved.

Before she even realized what was happening, he was grabbing her again, this time shoving her back as his body curled around hers, shielding her as jagged shards rained down around them.

Glass bit into his coat as he pressed her against the heavy stone pillar by the window.

A sharp sting nicked Jo’s cheek, but she barely registered it.

Her breath hitched, her hands splayed against Arthur’s chest, the weight of him a solid wall between her and the chaos outside.

Then—

Arthur jerked back, his revolver drawn in an instant, returning fire through the broken window.

Jo sucked in a sharp breath, her fingers twitching for her own gun as her mind snapped back into focus.

Move, Harper. Move.

She ripped her revolver from its holster, rolling to the side, using the heavy desk for cover as bullets whizzed through the air.

Outside, the street was an explosion of violence—lawmen and Pinkertons ducking behind carriages, their muzzles flashing bright against the evening haze.

And in the middle of it all—

Hosea lay still in the dirt.

Jo clenched her jaw so hard it hurt.

This wasn’t just a bank robbery anymore.

This was vengeance .

“For Hosea !” Dutch bellowed, his pistol blazing through the smoke.

Jo didn’t hesitate.

She rose from cover, aimed, and fired.

And outside, a Pinkerton fell.

The heist had failed.

But the battle had just begun.

Gunfire kept coming, relentless and deafening. The sharp scent of smoke and gunpowder filled the air, mingling with the metallic tang of blood.

They were outnumbered.

From his cover behind the front desk, Arthur fired shot after shot, taking down a Pinkerton behind a tipped-over carriage, another lawman near the bank steps. But more kept coming, boots pounding against the cobblestone outside, voices barking orders over the chaos.

“There’s no way we’re getting out that door,” Dutch growled, gesturing toward the entrance they had come through.

Arthur didn’t need to look to know he was right. They’d be torn apart the second they stepped outside.

“Take this.”

Arthur turned just in time to catch the sticks of dynamite Dutch tossed his way.

“Blow a hole through that wall.”

Arthur didn’t hesitate. He sprinted toward the far side of the bank, his boots kicking up dust and shattered glass. He wedged the dynamite into the base of the wall.

“Dynamite! Stay down!”

He ran back toward cover just as he fired a shot at the dynamite, and then—

Boom.

The explosion shook the walls, splinters of wood and chunks of stone raining down as dust filled the air. Jo barely registered Dutch’s command through the ringing in her ears.

“Arthur, climb up to the roof and cover us!”

Arthur coughed against the thick smoke, shoving his revolver back into its holster. He scrambled through the gaping hole in the wall, stepping over rubble and ducking outside. The alley was tight, a narrow strip of stone between the bank and the next building.

A ladder leaned haphazardly against the side of the bank.

Arthur grabbed it, barely thinking as he climbed, his limbs moving on instinct, pulling himself higher and higher until his boots hit solid rooftop.

And that’s when it hit him.

This was a goddamn disaster.

His breath came sharp, his mind reeling as he crouched behind the raised edge of the roof, his rifle already in his hands. This was supposed to be their last job, their way out, their ticket to freedom.

Instead, Hosea was dead.

His body still lay in the street below, the blood pooling beneath him, his white shirt dark with the stain of it.

Arthur swallowed against the lump in his throat, anger and grief twisting in his gut. They killed him . Milton, those bastards in their fine suits with their badges and their damn authority.

Arthur clenched his jaw and fired.

A Pinkerton behind a wagon went down first, a bullet straight through his chest. Another lawman near the alley barely had time to raise his rifle before Arthur put a hole through his head.

Boots clattered against the rooftop behind him.

“Oh my God… come on!”

Arthur turned to see Javier scrambling toward him, ducking behind cover, breathless from the climb.

Arthur didn’t stop firing. “Where is everybody? What’s goin’ on down there?”

Javier wiped the sweat from his brow, catching his breath. “We lost control of the bank. The others are trying to hold them off.”

Arthur exhaled through his nose. 

“Okay…” He turned back, scanning the street. His gaze locked onto a man setting up a Gatling gun near the alley.

Not a chance.

Arthur steadied his rifle, exhaled, and pulled the trigger. The man’s head snapped back, his body crumpling before he could even fire a shot.

Moments later, more movement behind him—Micah, followed by Lenny, then Dutch.

Dutch was breathless as he approached, his face flushed from exertion.

“We lost John…”

Arthur turned to him sharply, heart kicking against his ribs. “Killed?”

Dutch shook his head, his hands on his knees. “Arrested… I couldn’t help.”

Arthur barely suppressed a curse. As much as he liked to give John hell, he damn sure didn’t want to lose him.

“Well, we better go or we’ll be next,” Arthur muttered.

And then he saw her.

Jo’s head emerged from the ladder, but her movements were slow, strained. He caught sight of her hands gripping the top rung, her knuckles white as she struggled to pull herself up—

Because of the dress.

Arthur cursed under his breath.

Without thinking, he stepped forward, reached down, and grabbed her by the shoulders.

Jo let out a sharp breath as Arthur lifted her up the last few steps, his grip strong, steady, setting her feet safely on the rooftop.

Jo sucked in sharp, shallow breaths, her chest heaving as she tore at the damn dress, ripping at the fabric like it had personally wronged her.

The material shredded under her grip—first at the skirts, tearing them up to her knees to free her legs, then at the suffocating high collar, yanking it open so she could breathe. The corset dug into her ribs, but there was no time to rip it off completely.

Her fingers shook, whether from adrenaline or fury, she didn’t know.

Across from her, Arthur was just as breathless, his gun still clutched tight in his grip as he turned to Dutch.

“I reckon me and Lenny try and find a way across the roofs, if you’ll cover us,” he said, his voice rough.

Dutch didn’t hesitate. “Sure, sure, go on!”

Lenny ran, Arthur close behind, boots pounding against the rooftops as the others continued to fire down into the streets.

The city was a war zone. Smoke curled into the air, the thick scent of gunpowder stinging Jo’s nose.

They just needed to get out.

“We can get across here!” Lenny yelled, his voice barely cutting through the chaos.

Arthur followed him, scanning the rooftops, his heart hammering against his ribs—

And then the door burst open. Two lawmen charged onto the rooftop.

Arthur reacted on instinct, firing before they could raise their weapons. One of them went down immediately, blood splattering against the wall—

But the second fired first.

And Lenny—

Lenny jerked, a sharp, pained noise ripping from his throat as the bullet tore into him. His body staggered forward, knees buckling, and then—

He collapsed.

“No! Lenny!” Arthur’s voice roared across the rooftops, raw and filled with a fury that burned straight through his bones.

He fired again—killed the bastard responsible—but it didn’t matter.

Lenny was already on the ground, his body still, his breaths shallow.

Hearing Arthur’s rage, Jo turned.

And the moment her eyes landed on Lenny, bleeding out on the rooftop, a choked sound escaped her throat. Her hand flew to her mouth, muffling the cry threatening to break loose.

No. Not Lenny.

Not him .

First Hosea.

Then Lenny.

And John, taken away in chains.

This job was a goddamn massacre.

Arthur was already beside him, his hands hovering uselessly over Lenny’s blood-soaked shirt.

“Lenny—” Arthur muttered, but there was no saving him, he was already gone.

Arthur gritted his teeth so hard his jaw ached. He had seen this before. Too many times .

And every single time, it felt like a knife twisting deeper.

Dutch ran past them, barely sparing Lenny a glance. “We can’t stop now, or we’re all dead!”

Micah and Bill didn’t even look .

Charles turned, his gaze lingering, his expression pained , but there was nothing he could do.

Javier hesitated, eyes darting toward Lenny, but he forced himself to move , to follow Dutch.

Jo clenched her fists. How could they just leave him?

Arthur’s breaths were ragged, his fingers curled tight into fists, his whole body wound so tight Jo thought he might explode.

She placed a hand on his shoulder. “Arthur—”

He flinched. Not away from her, but at the sheer helplessness of it all.

Jo swallowed against the tightness in her throat. “We gotta go.”

Arthur’s hands shook. He felt something inside him snap.

Jo’s fingers curled around his arm, trying to pry him away. “Arthur—”

Dutch’s voice rang from ahead. “We’re gonna have to jump! Go!”

Arthur’s head snapped up, his eyes locking onto the gap between rooftops.

Jump.

His body moved before his mind caught up.

Jo ran beside him, breathless, her ripped skirts whipping against her legs as she pushed herself forward.

The first jump was short—her boots hit solid stone with ease—but the next—

The next was bigger.

Too big.

Arthur saw it before she did.

“Jo—”

Her legs pushed off—but it wasn’t enough.

Her foot missed the edge.

For a single, terrifying second, she started to fall—

Arthur grabbed her.

His hand snatched her wrist just in time, fingers locking tight as he hauled her up.

Jo gasped as she landed hard against him, her palms slamming into his chest.

Arthur held her for a second longer than necessary, his breathing rough, his fingers still curled tight around her arms.

Her wide eyes met his.

“You good?” His voice was raw, strained.

Jo swallowed, nodding. “Yeah.”

Arthur didn’t hesitate. He grabbed her hand, his grip firm.

“Stick with me.”

Jo tightened her fingers around his, her chest still heaving.

They ran.

Jumping from rooftop to rooftop, the city burning beneath them, the weight of their losses dragging behind them like ghosts.

And Arthur—

Arthur wasn’t losing anyone else.

Not today.

Chapter 29: To the Ends of the Earth

Chapter Text

Their lungs burned.

The rooftops stretched on forever, each jump more desperate than the last, their boots scraping against worn brick and loose shingles. Below, the streets roiled with lawmen and Pinkertons, their shouts rising like a swarm of angry hornets.

Jo’s legs screamed with every stride, her breath coming in sharp, ragged pulls. Her torn dress snapped behind her like a battle flag, catching on the wind as she sprinted after Arthur.

Then—

“Arthur… Arthur!”

Dutch’s voice rang out ahead, raw with exhaustion.

Jo’s head snapped up just in time to see him shoving aside warped planks covering a window in the side of an abandoned building.

“We can get in here,” he called, bracing the opening.

Arthur didn’t hesitate. He crouched low, ducking through the narrow gap and vanishing into the dim interior. The air inside was thick—stale, heavy with dust—but it was cover.

Dutch followed a second later, landing hard, his breath ragged.

Bill was next, shoving his rifle through first before hauling himself inside with a grunt. His boots hit the floor with a heavy thud, his whole body shaking with exertion.

"I don't believe it," Dutch muttered, pacing, his hands braced against his hips.

Arthur had no patience left for pacing. No patience left at all. 

He turned sharply, his voice biting. "They knew we were comin’."

The fury in his gut had been a slow burn since the second Hosea fell. Since Lenny’s body hit the roof. Since John was dragged away in chains.

Micah climbed through next, his boots clapping against the wood.

Arthur’s glare snapped to him, his blood boiling. "Just like your ferry job in Blackwater." He pointed a finger straight at him, unyielding.

Micah stiffened, his hackles rising instantly. "Ain’t nothin’ like that."

Arthur took a step closer, his fingers twitching at his side.

"Oh, ain’t it?" His voice was dangerously low now, raw and cutting. "Then tell me why we’re standin’ here, half our people dead or captured, huh?"

Micah scoffed, rolling his shoulders like none of it mattered. "Maybe we got sloppy. Maybe someone else screwed up. But it weren’t me."

Arthur’s lip curled. He was ready to snap back, to bury his fists into Micah’s face if that’s what it took—

But movement behind them broke the moment.

Charles was climbing through the window, his breath heavy, his muscles taut as he shook out his hands. Then Jo.

Charles reached for her first, steady as ever, but her damn dress caught on the wooden frame.

Arthur exhaled sharply through his nose and stepped forward without thinking, gripping her waist and lifting her down the rest of the way.

Her fingers clutched his arms for balance before her boots hit the floor.

Arthur barely registered the way her breath shuddered in her chest, or the way she wobbled slightly before regaining her footing. His hands fell away just as Javier clambered in last, his movements slower, more breathless.

Dutch, already moving again, grabbed the plank and shoved it back over the window, sealing them inside.

 


 

The room was small and smelled of dust and old wood.

It wasn’t much, just an empty space in an abandoned building, but it was shelter. For now.

Bill let himself slide down the wall with a heavy grunt, hitting the wooden floor with no grace whatsoever. He ran a hand over his face, sweat slicking his skin, before exhaling sharply through his nose.

“Well… what now?” His voice was rough, tinged with anger and exhaustion.

Dutch was the last to step inside, his movements slower than usual. He shut the door behind him with a dull click before pressing his back against it, chest still rising and falling from their escape.

“I don’t know…”

He let the words sit there, heavy in the air, before shaking his head.

“I don’t,” he admitted, rubbing a hand over his jaw. “This whole damn town is filled with cops.”

No one responded.

They were all catching their breath, settling into whatever place they could find in the dimly lit room.

Charles sank onto a rickety wooden chair, his elbows resting on his knees, his dark eyes unreadable.

Javier eased down beside Bill, rubbing at his ribs where he’d taken a hard landing during their escape.

Micah leaned lazily against a stack of old wooden planks, but there was a sharpness in his eyes, something too calm, too at ease after the mess they had just barely crawled out of.

Jo sat opposite him, on the ground, hugging her knees to her chest. Her arms were tight around herself, her face impassive, but her eyes— her eyes burned .

Arthur stood near the window, his body still wired with tension. His fingers twitched at his side, his breath still too fast, his jaw clenched tight.

This wasn’t supposed to happen.

This was supposed to be the last job. The last goddamn job .

Instead, they were bleeding, broken, and down two good men.

Arthur turned, his anger spilling over. “Well, how long we gonna stay here?” His voice was sharp, his arms jerking as he gestured to the boarded-up windows, to the dusty floor beneath their feet. “A-a few hours?”

Dutch didn’t answer right away. He was pacing now, rubbing his chin, his mind already spinning another solution, another way out.

“We get back to camp, they’re gonna get every last one of us.” He shook his head. “I know they’re gonna be watchin’ the roads.”

Arthur exhaled sharply, running a hand over his face. Of course they are.

Dutch stopped pacing. His shoulders squared, his gaze lifted.

“I got it…”

Everyone looked up.

Dutch’s voice held that tone again—that same unwavering certainty, that same smooth confidence that had led them through every scrape, every heist, every near-death escape.

“A boat.”

Silence.

Arthur turned away from the window just enough to look at him, his brows furrowed.

Dutch looked at them all now, his brown eyes sharp, alight with that visionary’s fire.

“We stay here till nightfall,” he explained, his voice growing steadier, stronger. “Then we sneak on down to the docks. We get ourselves outta here.”

“Yeah, but where ?” Bill grumbled, shifting where he sat.

Dutch didn’t answer immediately. Instead, he stepped toward Charles, tapping his shoulder.

Charles barely hesitated before standing, relinquishing the chair without a word.

Dutch took the seat.

Like a king lowering himself onto a throne.

“Any place’ll do,” he said as he leaned back, his voice almost casual. “That’s all I got. We leave, we lie low, we come back for the rest in a few weeks.”

No one spoke.

The silence was thick, heavy, stretching between them like a noose tightening around their throats.

Jo’s fingers curled against her sleeves.

Charles stood rigid, arms crossed.

Javier frowned, his brows furrowed.

Micah said nothing.

Bill only huffed.

Arthur?

Arthur clenched his jaw, his stomach turning as he looked at Dutch, at everyone, at what they had left.

This was it.

This was their future now—running, always running , burying their dead and carrying on like it hadn’t happened, like it hadn’t ripped them apart.

Dutch was already making plans for tomorrow, already spinning his next grand idea , already looking at the horizon instead of the bodies they’d left behind.

Arthur turned back to the window, his fingers tightening against the ledge.

This wasn’t the first time things had gone south.

This wasn’t the first time Dutch had asked them to trust him.

But something felt different now.

Something felt off .

Arthur exhaled through his nose. “I’m guessin’ it’s that… or we die out there right now.”

His voice was reluctant.

But it was the truth.

Dutch seized on it.

“Exactly!” He sprang up from the chair, his voice commanding again. “Now everybody, calm down .”

Arthur just let out a slow breath and sank down beneath the window, his legs stretched out, one arm resting on his knee. He wasn’t far from where Jo sat, their bodies mirroring each other—exhausted, shoulders heavy with the weight of what they’d just survived.

Dutch sat back down, rubbing his hands together, looking at them all like he was trying to convince them, to rekindle whatever faith had burned down to embers in the last few hours.

“I mean…” his voice softened slightly, his tone edged with something unreadable. “Look at us.”

Arthur didn’t .

He already knew what he’d see.

A gang without its leader.

A house without its foundation.

A family with two empty seats at the table.

And for the first time, Arthur wasn’t sure if they’d ever make it back.

 


 

A few hours later, night had fallen.

The rain came steady now, relentless, a curtain of cold water pouring from the heavens, drumming against rooftops and turning the dirt-stained streets into rivers of mud. The alleyways had become dark, slick paths, glistening under the dim glow of gas lamps.

It should have washed the blood away.

It didn’t.

Saint Denis still reeked of gunpowder and death, of loss—of a job gone so wrong that Jo wasn’t sure what was left to salvage. The storm could not cleanse the stench of it, nor drown out the echoes of gunfire that still rang in her ears.

They moved like ghosts through the streets, shadows swallowed by the downpour.

Dutch led, his coat soaked through, his shoulders rigid with purpose. Arthur covered the rear, every step measured, his breath slow and controlled, but Jo could see the tension in his frame—the way his fingers hovered near the worn grip of his revolver.

Every footstep felt too loud. Every shift of cargo, every distant voice another threat.

They had to reach the docks.

Had to get away from this godforsaken city that had taken too much from them.

Jo kept her head low, rain trailing in cold rivulets down the nape of her neck. Her boots slipped against the slick stone, her dress clinging to her legs, heavy and ruined. The storm pressed in from all sides, thick, suffocating, the streets too quiet in a way that set her nerves on edge. She could feel eyes in the dark—watching, waiting.

Dutch raised a hand, signaling them to halt.

Up ahead, a wagon was stationed at the mouth of an intersection. Its driver sat hunched, speaking in low tones with two uniformed guards, their figures cast long by the sickly glow of a streetlamp. The rain hit the cobblestones in a steady hiss, pooling in the cracks, gleaming like fresh-spilled ink.

No way forward.

Arthur and Dutch exchanged a glance, a silent conversation passing between them—one built on years of running, of knowing what had to be done.

Arthur moved first.

He slipped ahead, keeping to the buildings, his broad frame blending into the downpour. Silent. Invisible. He stopped just beyond the wagon, lowered his head slightly—

And whistled.

Low. Sharp.

The guards tensed.

One turned, hand drifting toward his revolver. "What was that?"

Arthur was already gone.

He melted into the shadows, boots light against the stone as he slipped back to the others, rain dripping from the brim of his hat.

It worked.

The guards stepped away from the wagon, scanning the alley, their hands hovering near their belts.

The path was clear.

They moved swiftly, darting past the wagon while the guards remained distracted, their boots skimming through puddles, bodies hunched against the storm.

The scent of the bay grew stronger with every step—the briny tang thick in the air, mingling with the rot of old wood and stagnant water. They could hear the harbor now, the soft groan of ships swaying with the current, the occasional clang of rigging against masts.

And then—

"Hey! Who goes there?"

The voice cut through the storm, sharp and commanding.

Four guards.

Too many to slip past.

Dutch swore under his breath.

Jo’s stomach lurched.

They were so close.

Then—

Charles stepped forward.

Jo’s breath caught.

She didn’t need to hear him speak to know what he was about to do.

“I’ll draw them away,” Charles murmured, his voice steady, his hands adjusting the soaked fabric of his coat.

Arthur turned to him, shaking his head sharply. "Like hell you will."

“They need to be gone, or we’re dead before we reach the docks,” Charles said simply.

And then, before anyone could stop him, he moved.

Jo barely had time to breathe before Charles broke into a run, his boots splashing through puddles, his heavy footfalls deliberately loud against the flooded street.

“There! Get him!”

The guards took the bait immediately.

Voices rose, boots pounded against stone, shouts echoed through the night as they gave chase.

Jo’s hands curled into fists, her nails biting into her palms.

Charles had done what none of them could bring themselves to do.

Thrown himself to the wolves so they could escape.

And not for the first time.

Charles had always been the one to step into the fire, to stand between them and death without hesitation. But it didn’t make it any easier to watch.

Her throat was tight, the ache behind her ribs sharp as Dutch motioned for them to move.

They ran.

The docks loomed ahead—weathered planks slick with rain, crates stacked high, ropes swaying with the wind. Their boots clattered against the wooden boards, their breath harsh and uneven, their bodies aching with exhaustion.

Then—

The boat.

A hulking shadow in the water, its massive frame rocking with the tide, its smokestacks billowing in the storm. Crewmen shouted orders, their voices barely carrying over the wind, their hands busy tying off lines and securing cargo.

No one was looking.

One by one, they climbed up the side, fingers gripping wet wood, muscles straining as they hauled themselves onto the deck.

No one spoke.

Not as they slipped through the narrow passageways.

Not as they buried themselves among the crates, their bodies trembling from the cold, their minds reeling from everything they had left behind.

The ship moved out before dawn.

And Saint Denis—

Saint Denis, with its dead in the streets and its blood in the gutters—

Faded into the horizon behind them.

 


 

The ship rocked gently beneath them, a slow, rhythmic sway that never quite settled.

It had been a day, maybe more—Jo had lost track of time.

They were still on the boat, still moving further and further away from everything . Saint Denis, the Pinkertons, Hosea’s lifeless body in the street, Lenny bleeding out on the rooftop—it was all somewhere behind them now, swallowed by the vast, endless stretch of the ocean.

Dutch had worked things out with the captain, his silver tongue and some gold ensuring they could stay on board without trouble.

At least, for now.

But no one was celebrating.

Some of them stayed together, keeping close, barely talking. There was nothing to say.

Arthur had disappeared.

Jo had seen him step out onto the dock, his shoulders stiff, his head low, the weight of everything pressing heavy on his frame.

He had gone to grieve.

Jo wasn’t sure if she should follow.

Instead, she moved through the narrow corridors of the ship, her bare feet quiet against the wooden planks, the scent of salt thick in the air.

She wasn’t looking for anything in particular—just away from everything else.

Then, she found it.

An empty storage room, crates stacked against the walls, the stale scent of burlap sacks filling the dimly lit space. But what caught her eye wasn’t the crates—it was what had been left behind.

Clothes.

Sailors’ clothes.

Jo exhaled slowly, her fingers trailing over a discarded white shirt, the fabric soft and worn from use. It was too big, but that hardly mattered.

Anything was better than the damn dress.

Without hesitation, she pulled it from the pile, grabbing a pair of navy pants, a bit loose but manageable.

She didn’t waste time.

She unfastened the last of the godforsaken corset, letting it fall away as she shimmied out of the torn, useless remains of the dress. The cool air against her skin was a relief, like she was finally peeling off the last reminder of the nightmare she had just lived through.

The shirt was oversized, but the fabric was light, soft, the sleeves billowing slightly as she rolled them up. The pants sat low on her hips, a bit baggy, but they would do.

Finally, finally , she reached for her hair.

She pulled out the last of the pins, her fingers threading through the strands, shaking them loose.

The tension in her scalp eased as her hair fell, untamed, flowing past her shoulder blade, freed from the tight, headache-inducing style she had been forced into.

Jo exhaled, slow and deep, bracing her hands on the wooden crate beside her.

The boat swayed beneath her, and for the first time since they set foot in that damn bank, she breathed .

She wasn’t sure what came next.

But at least, for this moment—

She was herself again.

 


 

Days had passed.

How many, Jo wasn’t sure.

Time had blurred into an endless stretch of blue—the sky, the sea, the sun beating down on them relentlessly, burning their skin, leaving them drained and restless.

The boat creaked beneath them, rocking in its steady rhythm, the waves lapping against the hull in a sound that had become too familiar.

They hadn’t spoken much.

Not since the bank.

Not since Hosea . Since Lenny .

Jo sat cross-legged on the deck, arms draped lazily over her knees, her face turned slightly away from the sun—but it didn’t help. Her skin burned, pink and raw, the fair complexion she was born with offering little defense against the unforgiving rays.

Arthur wasn’t much better off.

He sat against a large crate, arms folded, without his usual hat to shield his eyes. His face had turned red over the last few days, the sun relentless against him, making his blue eyes seem almost brighter whenever he looked up.

Which, right now, he was doing—watching Dutch with a look that hovered somewhere between skepticism and exhaustion.

“What’re we gonna do in Cuba, Dutch?”

Bill’s voice cut through the thick air as he leaned against the boat’s edge, sweat dampening his collar.

Dutch exhaled slowly, cigarette smoke curling past his lips before the wind stole it away.

“Hold up for a while,” he muttered, taking another drag. “Then hurry back… gather up the rest of our family.”

Jo almost scoffed at the word.

Family.

She had barely spoken to Arthur since they boarded the ship, had barely spoken to anyone beyond what was necessary. The loss was too fresh, too raw, and the bitterness in her chest hadn’t settled.

Dutch, though—Dutch kept talking .

“At least we got some money now,” he continued, looking out over the water. “Money and loyalty.”

Arthur huffed softly.

Jo glanced at him, watching as his lips pressed together, his jaw ticking slightly as he stared up at Dutch from where he sat.

He didn’t believe him.

Not anymore.

Not after everything .

Dutch might still talk like he had all the answers, but Arthur had stopped listening.

“With that,” Dutch finished, flicking the ash from his cigarette, “you can do whatever you please.”

Bill leaned forward slightly, frowning. “So you reckon they’ll follow us to Cuba?”

Dutch let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “Like Colonel Waxman on a jolly? I highly doubt it.” He turned then, looking at them all now instead of the ocean. “I reckon we hold ourselves to ourselves, and this is done and dusted.”

Arthur finally spoke, his voice low and gravelly from days of silence.

“Let’s hope so.”

The words were empty.

No real belief behind them—just something to say to fill the space.

The boat rocked again, the waves slightly stronger than before. Jo rubbed a hand over her arm, still feeling the heat of the sun sinking into her skin, still hearing the lie in Dutch’s words rattling around her skull.

But before anyone could say anything more—

Micah interrupted.

“I ain’t no sailor, but uh…” He tipped his chin toward the horizon, squinting at something in the distance. “That cloud look like good news to you?”

Jo’s stomach turned.

Arthur lifted his head fully now, and one by one, everyone else followed Micah’s gaze.

A heavy silence settled over them.

Dark. Towering. Thick.

A storm cloud as black as ink loomed in the distance, swallowing the horizon, moving fast .

It was too big , too angry —lightning flickered somewhere deep inside it, illuminating the rolling clouds like something alive .

Jo swallowed.

As much as she hated to admit it—

Micah was right.

That cloud looked like no good news.

And deep down, she had the awful, creeping feeling that the worst was still yet to come.

 


 

"Wake up."

The words were distant at first, breaking through the haze of exhaustion like a hand reaching through fog.

Then louder.

" Everybody, wake up! Wake up! "

Arthur's eyes snapped open.

The world lurched.

His body jerked forward as the boat tilted sharply beneath him, the wooden frame of the bunk pressing against his ribs.

"Come on, Arthur!"

Dutch's voice was urgent, cutting through the creaking of the ship, the distant roar of something far worse.

A hand grabbed his shoulder, shaking him roughly.

"Arthur, Arthur! Wake up!"

Arthur sat up fast, his pulse hammering. " Why? What’s goin’ on?"

Dutch let go of him, already moving, his voice strained with something dangerously close to panic. "I don’t know, but we are getting off this boat ."

Arthur barely had time to breathe before the boat rocked violently again, sending his stomach lurching.

Shit.

The ship was being tossed in every direction, groaning as if it was about to splinter apart.

His senses caught up all at once—the cold, the thick humidity pressing against his skin, the suffocating scent of saltwater.

Then came the sound.

Not just the wind— the storm .

A relentless, roaring wall of wind and crashing waves slamming against the hull, so loud it rattled his bones.

Arthur staggered to his feet, bracing himself as the boat pitched violently to one side, the entire world tilting beneath him.

Dutch grabbed his arm, yanking him forward. " Come on! "

Arthur forced himself upright, every step a battle against the shifting floor beneath him. The sleeping quarters were a mess—bunks creaking, belongings scattered, the other men scrambling to their feet, some already moving toward the ladder leading up to the deck.

His mind was moving a million miles an hour.

What the hell happened?

Had the storm caught up to them? Was the ship sinking? How bad was it? Where the hell was Jo ?

Dutch shoved past Bill on the ladder. "Would you get a move on, you sleepy bastards?! "

Arthur wiped at his face, barely keeping his balance as the ship rocked again, his fingers gripping the bunk frame to steady himself.

Dutch turned back, motioning for Arthur to move. "You go on ahead. I'll be right behind you."

Dutch didn't argue, just climbed, disappearing up onto the deck.

Arthur turned, scanning the room one last time.

Most of the men were already moving, pushing past one another, some still disoriented, scrambling to grab anything before they abandoned ship.

Arthur exhaled sharply.

" Jesus. "

He needed to move.

Now.

He stepped toward the ladder, bracing himself—because whatever was waiting for them above wasn’t going to be good.

And deep down, he already knew .

This was only the beginning.

Arthur climbed the ladder last, his boots slipping slightly on the slick metal rungs as he hauled himself up onto the next level.

The moment he stepped onto solid ground, he staggered.

The boat rocked violently, pitching to one side, forcing him into an awkward, stumbling step as he tried to steady himself against the cold metal walls.

Ahead of him, the others weren’t faring much better.

Micah led the way, followed by Javier, then Bill, Dutch, and finally Arthur, all of them struggling to walk straight as the storm outside raged against the ship.

The corridor was long, dimly lit by flickering overhead lights, the metal walls groaning under the strain of the sea.

Then—

A sharp lurch.

The ship veered hard in the opposite direction, and before Arthur could brace himself, a deafening crash echoed through the corridor.

Arthur’s head snapped up just in time to see it—

Large cargo crates, stacked precariously against the wall, suddenly toppled forward.

Straight toward him.

"Shit!"

Arthur barely had time to react before instinct kicked in. His boots slipped as he lost balance, his back hitting the floor hard just as the heavy crates slammed down in front of him with a thunderous crash.

Wood splintered. Metal clanked. The sheer weight of them shook the floor beneath him.

Arthur groaned, pushing himself up on his elbows, his pulse hammering. If he had been a second slower…

"Dutch…" Arthur gritted out, still catching his breath.

There was no response.

"Dutch!" His voice rose over the incessant alarm blaring from somewhere in the ship.

Finally, from the other side of the crates—

"I'm okay!" Dutch called back, his voice muffled by the thick cargo between them. "You?"

Arthur exhaled sharply, rolling onto his knees before forcing himself upright. "Yeah."

But as soon as he pressed his hands against the crates, testing their weight—he knew.

They weren’t moving.

Arthur set his jaw, pushed harder, but the damn things wouldn’t budge.

"This ain't moving," Dutch muttered from the other side, coming to the same conclusion.

"No." Arthur huffed out a frustrated breath, stepping back. "Yeah, you go on ahead. I’ll try and find another way."

Dutch hesitated. "Oh, goddammit! "

Arthur turned, the only path left stretching out in front of him, the metal floor slick with seawater that had begun seeping in through the lower decks.

The storm wasn’t letting up.

The ship wasn’t going to last.

And Arthur—

Arthur needed to move.

He barely managed to haul himself onto the upper deck, boots slipping against the soaked metal as the storm howled around him.

The moment he stepped out, he realized—

This was worse than he thought.

Fire burned across parts of the deck, the flames licking at the wooden railings, their orange glow swallowed instantly by the wind and rain.

Sailors scrambled, some screaming orders that were lost in the roar of the storm, some abandoning ship, pushing past one another in blind panic. A man slipped and fell hard against the deck, only to be trampled as another shoved past him, desperate to reach the edge.

Arthur braced himself against the railing, his heart pounding as he scanned the scene.

Then he saw them.

Dutch, clinging to a wooden plank out in the ocean, waves thrashing around him. Bill, Micah, and Javier were there too, all calling out to him, their voices barely reaching through the storm.

Arthur’s stomach twisted.

The only problem was—

Jo wasn’t with them.

He swore under his breath, eyes darting across the deck.

She had been sleeping in different quarters than the men, he knew that much, but where the hell was she? Had she already jumped? Had she found something to cling to?

He had to hope so.

Because now—

Everyone was jumping.

Arthur’s breath came sharp, his chest heaving as he turned toward the edge, the wind whipping against his face. He could barely see anything beyond the rain and smoke, the ocean churning below, swallowing bodies and debris alike.

He hesitated—just for a second.

“Dutch!” He yelled as loud as he could, but his voice was ripped away by the wind.

The next moment, Dutch and the others disappeared beneath a towering wave, vanishing from his sight.

Arthur cursed.

He had no choice now.

He ran, pushing himself forward, his boots slipping as he launched himself off the deck—

And into the abyss.

The water hit like a wall of ice, knocking the air from his lungs. The storm roared above him, but beneath the surface, everything was muffled, the sound twisting into something deep and warped.

The waves dragged him down, the force of them pulling him under, spinning him in the dark.

His chest burned.

He kicked hard, his arms pushing against the weight of the ocean as he fought his way up, toward the surface, toward the light, toward air .

The darkness pressed in.

His limbs felt heavy.

And then—

Everything went black.

 


 

Arthur woke with his face pressed against wet sand.

His body felt heavy, like the ocean itself had settled into his bones, weighing him down, refusing to let him move. His lungs burned, his throat raw, the taste of salt thick on his tongue.

Then—

His body convulsed as he coughed, sharp and ragged, forcing out seawater in harsh, painful retches. His ribs ached with every movement, his entire body screaming from the abuse of the storm.

For a moment, all he could do was breathe —sharp, shallow, desperate breaths, his chest heaving as the heat of the sun pressed down on him.

Where the hell was he?

His vision was blurred, the world spinning as he forced himself to turn over, the bright sky blinding him. His skin burned, his clothes stuck to him, damp and heavy. He could feel sand between his fingers, clinging to his arms, his legs, his bare feet.

Bare feet.

Arthur lifted his head slightly, blinking through the haze, glancing down at himself.

His shoes were gone.

His coat—his weapons —gone.

All he had left were his soaked pants, the straps of his suspenders clinging to his skin, and his not-so-white-anymore shirt, stained with seawater and sand, the sleeves rolled to his elbows.

He swallowed against the dryness in his throat, his head pounding as he took in his surroundings.

The beach stretched long and empty, the sand too white, almost blinding under the ruthless sun.

Waves lapped at the shore, gentler now, rolling in with a steady rhythm, but the scent of salt and seaweed clung thick in the air, a constant reminder of what had brought him here.

Debris was scattered along the coastline—splintered wood, barrels, pieces of rope, remnants of the ship he had been on.

But no signs of Dutch.

No signs of Jo .

No signs of anyone .

Arthur’s gut twisted.

His arms shook as he pushed himself up, gritting his teeth as his body protested. His legs felt like lead, unsteady beneath him as he staggered to his feet, nearly toppling over as the ground swayed beneath him.

Or maybe it was just him.

The heat pressed down on him like a smothering hand, the air thick, humid, wrong. This wasn’t like anything he’d ever felt before—not the dry heat of New Austin, not the bitter cold of the Grizzlies.

This place was different.

Tall palm trees swayed in the distance, their leaves rustling in the strangely still air. Thick vegetation stretched beyond the beach, dense and untamed, the deep green of the jungle contrasting harshly with the brightness of the sand.

He didn’t know this land.

Didn’t recognize the sounds—the distant calls of birds he’d never heard before, the hum of insects hidden within the trees.

Arthur’s breath came shaky as he wiped a hand down his face, his fingers trembling.

What if he was alone?

What if the others hadn’t made it?

What if Jo hadn’t made it?

His stomach twisted, a sharp, gut-wrenchin g feeling rising in his chest.

He should’ve tried to find her on the ship. Should’ve gone looking for her instead of jumping.

What if she’d been trapped somewhere, unable to get out? What if she’d gone down with the boat, her lungs filling with water, her body sinking deeper and deeper until—

Arthur clenched his jaw tight.

No.

No.

He refused to believe that.

But what if she was somewhere else, washed up on some other shore, alone? What if he never saw her again? Never saw any of them again?

What if this was it?

What if he was never getting off this godforsaken island?

His knees buckled.

Arthur dropped down, barely catching himself as the weight of everything hit him all at once.

The shipwreck.

Hosea’s death .

Lenny, bleeding on the rooftop.

John, arrested .

And now this—alone, stranded on some damn island with no way of knowing if the others were alive or dead.

His hands curled into fists, fingers digging into the wet sand.

He had survived.

But what if it didn’t matter?

Arthur squeezed his eyes shut for a long moment, his breathing uneven, his entire body trembling from exhaustion, from dehydration, from the sheer weight pressing down on his chest.

But then—

He forced himself up.

Slow, shaky, but he stood.

Because he couldn’t just sit here.

He had to move.

Had to find them.

Had to find someone .

So he walked.

Every step unsteady, his bare feet sinking into the sand, the harsh sun beating down on his burned skin. His head pounded, his vision still hazy, but he walked.

And walked.

And walked.

The island stretched on before him, endless, and every step forward felt like sinking deeper into hopelessness.

But Arthur kept going.

Because there was nothing else to do.

Arthur walked.

He didn’t know for how long.

The sun beat down on him, merciless, searing his already burned skin, making his damp clothes cling uncomfortably to his body. His shirt, still stiff with salt, had dried in uneven patches, his pants heavy from seawater, the sand clinging to every inch of him.

His feet ached.

The sand beneath him was hot, each step sinking slightly, forcing his already heavy limbs to work harder just to move forward.

But he didn’t stop.

He couldn’t stop.

His mind drifted, lost between exhaustion and the gnawing, gut-wrenching fear that had settled deep in his chest.

Jo.

Where was she?

Had she made it?

Was she somewhere on this godforsaken island, just as lost as he was? Or had she…

Arthur clenched his jaw, pushing the thought away before it could take root.

He walked.

And walked.

And walked.

Until his body could take no more.

His legs buckled, his balance giving way beneath him. This time, he fell completely, hitting the sand with a dull, lifeless thud.

He lay there, his cheek pressing against the sunbaked shore, his body too drained to even try to move.

And for the first time since waking up here, he wondered if he should even bother.

Maybe this was it.

Maybe he’d rot here, alone, never seeing home again.

Never seeing her again.

The thought choked him more than the seawater had.

He could still see Jo’s face in his mind—the soft curves, the slight furrow of her brows when she was lost in thought, the mischievous glint in her eyes when she was teasing him.

Her hair.

He always had a weakness for it—long, golden strands that had a way of catching the light, that he had tangled his fingers in more times than he could count.

And her smile.

That damn soft, knowing smile she had when she looked at him sometimes, like she saw straight through him.

And her lips—

How good they tasted.

How many times had he kissed her, drawn her close, breathed her in like she was the only thing anchoring him to this damn world?

Would he ever taste them again?

Would he ever see her again?

His breath came shaky, his arms limp at his sides.

A deep, consuming feeling of failure settled into his bones, sinking into him like a weight he couldn’t shake.

He had failed her.

Failed all of them.

Hosea. Lenny. John. And now Jo?

He was weak.

If he could, he’d stay here. Let the sun take him, let the sand bury him, let the sea wash over him until there was nothing left.

But he couldn’t .

Not yet.

Not when there was still the smallest chance that she was alive.

With a breath that tasted of salt and regret, Arthur pressed his palms into the sand and pushed himself up.

His limbs screamed in protest, his legs barely holding him steady as he forced himself upright once more.

Then, he walked.

Slow, staggering steps.

One foot in front of the other.

Again.

And again.

The island stretched before him, seemingly endless, each step feeling more hopeless than the last.

But then—

The land began to rise.

Arthur forced himself up the incline, his breathing labored, his vision still blurred at the edges. The sand gave way to patches of rough earth, and before long, he reached the top of a small hill overlooking the beach.

He stopped.

And for the first time, he saw just how big this place was.

The island stretched before him, vast and unknowable, thick jungle covering the land beyond the shore. The trees were tall, their leaves huge and dense, casting deep shadows across the terrain. Vines hung from branches, thick undergrowth swallowing the ground, and somewhere in the distance, he could hear the calls of animals—birds, maybe. Something else.

This wasn’t like any place he had ever seen before.

And if Jo and the others had made it here…

How the hell was he supposed to find them?

Arthur swallowed hard, staring at the immensity of the island before him.

He had never felt so small.

But even as exhaustion clawed at him, as doubt whispered in his mind, he took another step forward.

Because he had to.

One foot in front of the other, the humid air weighing on him, the heat pressing down like a smothering hand.

His body ached, his throat was raw, and his legs threatened to give out beneath him, but he kept moving.

Because in the distance—

Smoke .

A thin, wavering column rising into the sky, curling against the bright blue like a beacon.

He squinted, his vision still blurred at the edges, the exhaustion twisting his senses.

It had to be a hallucination.

It had to be.

Because there—right there near the fire—

Dutch.

Sitting.

Arthur blinked.

The sight was wrong, his mind barely able to process it. The last time he had seen Dutch, he was disappearing beneath a wave. The storm had swallowed them whole, had tossed them God knows where , and yet—

He was right there .

Arthur staggered forward, his lips parting, his voice cracking from disuse.

“Dut... Dutch…” His throat burned, his words barely a rasp. “Dutch… Boys…”

Dutch’s head snapped toward him, his expression flickering between disbelief and relief.

“You’re alive,” Dutch murmured, his voice quiet, almost dazed, as if he himself couldn’t believe it. His face—tired, his clothes torn and weathered—was the most human Arthur had seen him in a long time.

Arthur knew then.

This wasn’t a hallucination.

“Arthur…”

Dutch stood, and before Arthur could react, all of them were moving.

Javier.

Bill.

Even Micah.

They rushed toward him, their faces lined with exhaustion but their relief undeniable.

“You’re… You’re alive!” Dutch exclaimed, reaching him first, his hands gripping Arthur’s arms to steady him.

Arthur swayed, his body barely holding up, but then Javier was there, his hand firm against his back.

“It’s a miracle,” Dutch breathed, shaking his head. “A goddamn miracle.”

Arthur exhaled sharply, his chest aching as he let them guide him toward the fire.

They hurried him to sit, settling him on the ground near the flames, where the shadow of a tree finally shielded him from the relentless sun.

Water was shoved into his hands.

And dear God did he need it.

The first sip burned, his throat grating against the sensation, but he didn’t care. He drank greedily, the water cool against his overheated skin, his body soaking up the relief of it.

His muscles trembled, his limbs useless, his breath still too shaky, but for the first time since waking up on that damned beach—

He wasn’t alone.

His fingers curled around the flask, the weight of it solid in his hands.

And then—

Jo.

The thought hit him like a hammer, his stomach tightening as his head jerked up.

He scanned their faces, his breath catching, looking past Dutch, past Javier, past Bill—

She wasn’t there.

She wasn’t there .

His throat tightened, his fingers digging into the flask.

“Jo?” His voice was rough, cracking slightly as he forced the name out.

Silence.

The air shifted.

Arthur’s gut sank as the tension settled around them, thick and unspoken.

No one answered him.

Dutch glanced at Javier.

Javier looked at Bill.

Bill pressed his lips together.

Even Micah—who usually had something damn smug to say—remained silent, his expression unreadable.

Arthur felt the answer before Dutch even spoke.

Dutch cleared his throat, shifting slightly before shaking his head.

No one had seen her.

Arthur’s grip tightened around the flask, his pulse pounding in his ears.

He had wanted to feel relief.

Had needed to believe that maybe, just maybe, they had all made it out.

But now—

Now, the weight in his chest only grew heavier.

Because she was still out there.

Or worse—

She wasn’t.

Arthur exhaled sharply, his fingers curling into the fabric of his damp shirt. His body still ached from exhaustion, his muscles tight and sore, but there was no time to sit in it.

Jo was still out there.

And standing around wondering about it wasn’t going to do a damn thing.

So instead—

He forced himself to move, rolling his shoulders as he pushed up from the ground. His legs still felt unsteady, the heat pressing down on him like a goddamn anvil, but he squared his stance, hands settling onto his hips.

"So... where the hell are we?"

Dutch turned to him, taking a slow step closer, his expression unreadable.

"We are on the island of Guarma," he said, his voice carrying a touch of importance, like the name meant something. "Javier asked the locals. It’s an old sugar plantation island. Second island east of Cuba."

Arthur’s brows lifted slightly. He let out a dry, humorless huff, glancing out at the thick jungle surrounding them, the distant sound of waves crashing against the shore.

"Is it anywhere near Australia or Tahiti?"

Dutch smirked at the comment but barely held onto it, waving a hand in the air. "It’s on the way, I guess…"

Arthur shook his head, rubbing a hand over his jaw.

"So... what next?" he asked, daring to hope that for once, just once , Dutch had a plan.

Instead—

"I don’t know," Dutch admitted.

Arthur’s lips parted, his stomach twisting with something sharp and unsettling.

Dutch always had an answer.

Even when it was bullshit, he had something.

Before Arthur could push him further, movement from the jungle cut through the moment—

And then—

Rifles.

Three armed men emerged from the thick greenery, their uniforms blue, their weapons raised without hesitation.

Arthur’s hands twitched toward his belt—except his guns were gone.

Dutch barely flinched. Instead, he lifted his hands in the air, his mouth already curling into that easy, charming smile.

"Well," he murmured, his voice steady, "next, I guess we’re gonna get shot."

One of the men barked something in Spanish—an order.

And before anyone could even blink, more soldiers stepped out from the sides, their rifles trained directly at them.

They were surrounded.

Completely, hopelessly outgunned.

And next thing they knew—

Cold iron snapped around their waist, the heavy weight of chains pressing against their already sore body.

Arthur glanced down, his jaw clenching as the chains tightened, linking him to the others—Bill, Micah, Javier, Dutch.

Their ankles too.

A chain gang.

Dutch, ever the talker, tried to diffuse the situation.

​​The man in charge, seated atop a mule, barely blinked. He wasn’t buying it.

"Let’s go!" he ordered, his voice clipped, full of authority. "We got another group rounded up down the way."

Arthur exhaled through his nose as the soldiers motioned them forward, forcing them to walk.

Rifles at their backs.

Nowhere to run.

Dutch, unwilling to let it go, glanced up at the man on the mule.

"I don’t get your drift, mister, uh?"

The man barely turned his head, taking a second before answering.

"Levi Simon." Simon’s gaze flickered toward them, his expression unreadable. "Senior Overseer for Alberto Fussar."

Arthur’s brow twitched.

He knew that name.

Fussar.

The name rang like a bell in his memory.

The mayor’s party in Saint Denis.

Arthur had seen Fussar there—draped in fine white and gold, talking in hushed voices with rich men who liked to pretend their hands weren’t dirty.

And now they were in his territory.

Great.

Levi Simon, clearly taking some pleasure in their discomfort, continued. "We run the third most productive sugar plantation in the Northern Caribbean."

Arthur’s lips pressed into a thin line.

So they were prisoners of rich slavers.

And Jo was still missing.

This was turning into one hell of a nightmare .

 


 

The march hadn’t lasted long.

The moment Arthur and the others were marched forward in their chains, forced to join a line of criminals and unfortunate souls who had found themselves on the wrong side of the island’s so-called law, everything shifted.

Gunfire erupted, sudden and deafening.

But it wasn’t aimed at them.

Chaos followed instantly. The soldiers who had been dragging them to God-knows-where found themselves under attack, bullets tearing through their ranks before they could react.

Arthur didn’t hesitate.

The moment he spotted an opening, his instincts kicked in, his hands reaching fast and snatching the keys off a fallen guard. His fingers worked quickly, metal scraping against metal, until—

The chains fell away.

The others weren’t far behind, their bindings hitting the dirt as they freed themselves.

They had barely gotten their breath back when more soldiers arrived, pouring in from the jungle. Their relief was short-lived.

Arthur spun, his eyes darting toward the voice that suddenly boomed through the gunfire.

A man—broad-shouldered, dark-skinned, his movements sharp and confident—motioned for them to follow. His French accent cut through the air, his command clear.

Arthur didn’t think twice.

They ran.

The jungle swallowed them whole, thick with tangled roots and towering palm trees, the damp heat clinging to their skin. The air was alive with gunfire, shouts of soldiers clashing against the calls of unseen birds in the canopy above.

Then—

Javier fell.

Arthur barely had time to turn before he saw the blood spreading across Javier’s leg, the torn fabric of his pants drenched with it.

He tried to move toward him, but Javier was already shaking his head, gritting his teeth through the pain, waving them off.

“Go,” he rasped, voice tight with pain.

They hesitated—just for a second.

Then they ran.

The jungle blurred around them, the branches clawing at their arms, their legs burning as they pushed forward, forward, forward .

Only four of them left now.

Arthur.

Bill.

Micah.

Dutch.

They emerged into a clearing, a stretch of ancient ruins standing against the green, vines twisting through crumbling stone. Their mysterious savior was already moving, pulling hidden weapons from a cache within the ruins, tossing them each a gun.

Arthur caught his rifle out of the air, gripping it tight.

Then, they fought.

Bullets ripped through the air, tearing into the soldiers who had pursued them, cutting them down before they could even take cover.

Arthur fired without hesitation, his shots deadly and precise, his breath sharp and controlled.

One by one, the soldiers fell, their bodies hitting the dirt, their cries lost in the echo of gunfire.

And then—

Silence.

Smoke curled from the barrels of their guns, the acrid scent of spent ammunition mixing with the thick humidity of the jungle.

It was over.

For now.

Their savior, still standing strong, turned to them with the sharp, assessing eyes of a man who had seen too much war and knew when an opportunity presented itself.

Hercule Fontaine.

That was his name.

And Fussar—the man who ruled this island with an iron grip—was their new enemy .

A tyrant, driven by greed, by power. A man with no shame in working men to their graves, his sugar plantations built on the backs of suffering and chains.

Leon, the man with Hercule, spoke of rebellion—of the workers who had escaped Fussar’s grasp, now hunted through the jungle like animals.

Arthur listened, his fingers still curled around his revolver, his heart still racing from the fight.

Hercule could be useful.

He had connections, ways to get things on and off the island, slipping through the cracks of Fussar’s control like a ghost in his own domain.

And he had a proposition.

Help Leon.

Help the people who were being hunted, give them a chance to fight back—and in return, Hercule would help them.

It was a deal Dutch had no choice but to consider.

Because as much as Arthur wanted to storm through the island and tear it apart looking for Jo—

They weren't getting off this rock without help.

And Hercule Fontaine?

He was the only chance they had.

 


 

The morning air was thick with humidity, the sun climbing steadily over the horizon, its golden light stretching long over the jungle. Most of the others were still asleep, their exhaustion keeping them pressed to the ground in the small camp Hercule had offered them.

Arthur, though—

Arthur couldn’t sleep.

Rest had done little to ease the tightness in his chest, the constant churn of his thoughts. His body felt marginally better after a few hours off his feet, after drinking as much water as he could get his hands on, but his mind—

His mind was restless.

So, he walked.

Maybe it would clear his head. Maybe the movement would shake something loose, some answer, some solution—anything that could help him figure out what the hell to do next.

His boots pressed deep into the jungle floor, damp leaves and thick mud clinging to him as he moved, weaving between the tall, ancient trees. His fingers twitched at his sides, missing the weight of his gun belt, his holster empty, no weapons save for the rifle Hercule had given him the night before.

He didn’t know how long he walked for.

Long enough that the jungle began to thin, the scent of salt drifting heavier in the air.

By the time he emerged from the trees, the sound of waves reached him first, rolling softly onto the shore. The beach stretched out before him, untouched save for the footprints of seabirds scuttling along the sand, the tide washing away any sign of what had come before.

Arthur moved toward the edge of the water, stopping just before the tide could lap at his shoes he found.

He exhaled, slow and deep, his hands settling on his hips as he looked out at the horizon.

The ocean stretched wide and endless , as if mocking him, as if to remind him just how far he was from home.

He had been so sure for so long that Dutch had a plan, that there was something to all this, that the gang would make it through.

He had been so sure that he was making the right choices.

But now?

Now, he didn’t know how the hell he’d ended up here.

Shipwrecked. Stranded.

Hosea— dead .

Lenny— dead .

John— captured .

Jo—

His throat tightened.

He swallowed thickly, dragging a hand down his face, exhaustion clinging to him despite the rest he’d gotten.

What if he never found her?

What if she hadn’t made it?

The thought unraveled something inside him, pulling at the frayed edges of his control, twisting a knife deeper into a wound that refused to close.

Arthur clenched his jaw, forcing himself to focus on the waves, on the way they crested and rolled, moving in a rhythm that had existed long before him and would continue long after he was gone.

He had to keep moving.

Had to—

A flash of light.

Arthur’s brows pulled together.

Something—half-buried in the sand, caught in the sunlight just enough to reflect back at him.

His boots pressed into the damp shore as he stepped toward it, his heartbeat picking up without him fully understanding why.

He crouched, fingers brushing away the sand, freeing the small object from where it had been swallowed by the island.

And the moment he saw it—

His breath caught.

The thin, delicate chain lay tangled in his palm, grains of sand clinging to its metal links. The pendant, small and familiar, was cool against his fingers, solid despite the storm that had nearly swallowed it whole.

Jo’s necklace.

She never took it off.

His fingers tightened around it, his mind racing.

She had made it.

She had been here.

The relief that slammed into him was so sudden, so visceral, that his chest ached with it.

She was alive .

At least, she had been alive long enough to wash up here.

Arthur turned his head sharply, scanning the shore, his eyes searching for any other sign—footprints, broken branches, something that could tell him where she went.

The beach was empty.

She was still out there.

Alone.

His fingers curled tight around the necklace, his pulse thudding hard in his ears. 

It didn’t matter how big this island was.

It didn’t matter how much danger she might be in.

She was alive.

Arthur exhaled through his nose, shoving the necklace deep into his pocket, his grip lingering on it for just a second longer.

It wasn’t a matter of how he would give it back to her.

It was a matter of when .

Because no matter what it took—

He was going to find her.

Before Fussar’s men did.

Chapter 30: Not Broken Yet

Chapter Text

The first thing she felt was heat. Heavy and relentless, it pressed against her skin, sinking deep into her bones like she had been left too close to a fire. Her body ached in ways she didn’t know were possible, muscles stiff and sore from the violent thrashing of the ocean. Every breath scraped against her raw throat, thick with the taste of salt.

The crash of waves rolled in somewhere nearby, the steady rhythm pulling her back to consciousness, though it felt like dragging herself from the bottom of a deep well.

The grainy texture of sand clung to her cheek. The scent of the sea hung thick in the air, mingling with the damp earthiness of the jungle beyond. Slowly, painfully, she cracked her eyes open.

Sunlight blinded her. A burning white glare that made her vision swim.

And then—

A shadow.

Boots.

Black and polished, planted firmly in the sand just in front of her.

Her breath hitched, her pulse kicking up sluggishly as her mind struggled to catch up. She was not alone.

With effort, she turned her head, blinking against the haze, forcing her body to obey as she took in the figure looming above her. A man, standing tall in a crisp blue uniform, the leather strap of his rifle slung across his chest. His lips moved as he spoke, the words sharp and clipped. She couldn’t make them out, but the sound of them—fast, commanding—made something uneasy coil in her stomach.

Spanish.

Another voice answered, followed by the crunch of sand under approaching footsteps.

Before she could even begin to understand what was happening, hands seized her from either side, rough fingers locking beneath her arms.

Panic flared.

She gasped, jerking instinctively, but her body was too heavy, her limbs weak from exhaustion.

Someone barked another order, louder this time.

She was dragged upright, her bare feet slipping in the sand, legs trembling as she struggled to stay standing. The world tilted violently, the sharp movement sending nausea rolling through her stomach.

Her mind fought to make sense of it. Who were these men? Where was she? How had she ended up here?

The soldier in front of her stepped closer. His grip was iron as he took hold of her chin, forcing her head up so he could get a better look at her.

She bared her teeth at him, wild and defiant, but the fight in her was little more than an empty threat.

They weren’t afraid of her.

And that—more than anything—made her afraid of them.

Still, she struggled, twisting her shoulders, wrenching against their hold. But she had nothing left.

In the scuffle, she didn’t notice the chain slipping from her neck.

Didn’t feel it come undone, the clasp giving way as it was pulled loose.

Didn’t see it fall, landing soundlessly in the sand at her feet, quickly lost in the churned-up earth.

She only knew that she had lost.

The hands on her tightened, dragging her forward.

And no matter how much she fought, she wasn’t going anywhere.

 


 

The first time she met Dutch and Hosea, Jo had a rifle trained on them.

She had been sixteen, half-starved and running on nothing but instinct , hiding out in the Wyoming wilderness, not far from Fort Laramie but a millions miles away from her home, where the trees stretched tall and the cold crept in at night like a ghost pressing against her skin.

She had changed her name, had tried to start anew, and had survived two years alone

And she had every intention of keeping it that way.

Then came the sound of horses, hooves crunching through the snow-dusted earth, the faint murmur of men’s voices carrying through the trees.

Jo had been crouched behind the undergrowth, her breath slow and steady, her hands tight around the well-worn rifle she had taken off a man who had tried to corner her months ago.

Two riders came into view, moving slow, deliberate, their eyes sweeping the land like they were looking for something.

One of them—tall, broad-shouldered, with slicked-back black hair and a neatly groomed mustache—sat upright in the saddle like a man who thought the whole world was his for the taking.

The other—leaner, older, his graying beard and sharp eyes giving him the air of a man who had seen it all—was watching the trees like he could feel her staring.

She didn’t know them.

Didn’t trust them.

But the way they moved—calm, unhurried—was different from the usual men she had seen wandering these woods.

They weren’t lost.

They weren’t hunting.

They were searching.

For what, she didn’t know.

Jo had them in her sight before they even knew she was there, the cold bite of the rifle steady against her shoulder.

She could’ve taken the shot.

Could’ve disappeared again, vanishing like she always did.

But something in her hesitated.

And that hesitation cost her.

Because before she could make a decision, the older man— Hosea , as she would later come to know—tilted his head ever so slightly.

And then—

“I’d lower that rifle If I were you, missy,” he called, his voice carrying easily through the trees. “Ain’t polite to go shootin’ men before they’ve had a chance to introduce themselves.”

Jo’s breath caught.

The other one— Dutch —chuckled, but didn’t turn his head.

They hadn’t seen her.

But they knew she was there.

And somehow, that was more unsettling than if they had spotted her outright.

She didn’t lower the rifle.

Didn’t say a word.

Hosea sighed like a man who had dealt with this before, reaching slowly into his coat and pulling out a small bundle wrapped in cloth.

“Got some food here,” he said, his tone easy, nonchalant, like they were discussing the weather. “Figure if you don’t put a hole through us, you might wanna come down and have a bite.”

Jo’s stomach twisted painfully.

It had been days since she’d eaten anything more than scraps.

But she didn’t trust anyone.

Didn’t need anyone.

And yet…

Somehow, against all logic, she found herself stepping forward.

It was the beginning of everything .

Jo had been with the gang barely two weeks before she met Arthur Morgan.

She had spent most of that time watching , listening , keeping to herself when she could—because if there was one thing she had learned in her years alone, it was that keeping your head down kept you alive .

The Van der Linde gang was unlike anything she had expected.

Loud. Chaotic. Close in a way that made her feel like she was trespassing on something she didn’t fully understand.

Hosea had been kind. Dutch had been intrigued . Susan had taken her under her wing. The others had been a mix—some welcoming, some wary.

And then there was Arthur Morgan.

She had heard his name before she saw him.

Arthur this. Arthur that.

Dutch trusted him. Hosea relied on him. The others seemed to orbit him in some way, even when he wasn’t around.

Which was why she was surprised that it took so long to meet him.

He had been away on a job, apparently, off somewhere doing whatever it was that Dutch’s golden son did.

When he finally rode into camp, Jo barely spared him a glance.

She had been busy, her sleeves rolled up, hands wrist-deep in water as she scrubbed bloodstains out of a shirt. Not her blood. Not her shirt.

She only noticed him because the entire damn camp seemed to react to his arrival.

Laughter. Voices calling out his name. The easy way he greeted them back, his deep, gravelly drawl carrying easily over the noise.

Jo looked up just in time to see him swing off his horse, his broad frame moving like he belonged , like he had done this a thousand times before .

And maybe he had.

Arthur Morgan was built for this life.

Taller than most, strong , shoulders broad from years of work. His hair was a little longer than she expected, the sun catching strands of it as he pushed his hat back.

The others greeted him like family .

Jo turned back to her work, rolling her eyes at whatever easy joke he had thrown at someone.

She had just about managed to ignore him when—

“Who the hell’s this?”

The voice came from behind her, low and unimpressed.

Jo stilled, her grip tightening slightly on the wet fabric in her hands before she turned her head.

Arthur was standing a few feet away, looking directly at her.

She noticed immediately that his expression wasn’t friendly.

Jo met his gaze evenly, barely keeping herself from scowling.

Before she could open her mouth, Dutch clapped a hand on Arthur’s shoulder, grinning.

“Arthur, son, meet Josephine Harper,” Dutch said smoothly. “Newest addition to our little group.”

Arthur didn’t smile.

Didn’t say welcome , or nice to meet you , or any of the things a man with manners might’ve said.

Instead—

“You sure ‘bout that?”

Jo blinked.

Arthur barely even looked at her now, his gaze moving back to Dutch like she wasn’t even standing right there.

Her fingers curled into fists.

Dutch just laughed, waving a hand. “Come on, now. You don’t even know the girl.”

“Yeah, well,” Arthur muttered, glancing at her again, this time with scrutiny. “I know trouble when I see it.”

Jo’s jaw tensed.

She pushed herself up from where she had been crouched, brushing damp hands against her pants as she turned to fully face him.

“Funny,” she said flatly. “I was just thinkin’ the same thing.”

Arthur’s brows raised slightly, like he hadn’t expected her to talk back.

But Jo wasn’t some kid fresh off the farm.

She had fought for everything she had, for every breath, for every day she had survived.

She wasn’t about to be dismissed by some cowboy with a bad attitude.

“Mm,” Arthur grunted after a long pause, clearly unimpressed.

And just like that, he turned and walked away.

Jo exhaled sharply, setting her hands on her hips, glaring at his retreating form.

Asshole.

Dutch, still amused, nudged her shoulder. “Don’t take it personally, miss. Arthur’s slow to warm up to people.”

Jo scoffed. “That supposed to make me feel better?”

Dutch only chuckled, patting her on the back before heading off to talk to someone else.

Jo turned her attention back to her work, dipping the shirt back into the water, but—

Damn it, she was seething.

Arthur Morgan didn’t know a damn thing about her, but he had already decided she wasn’t worth his time.

That was fine.

She didn’t think much of him either.

And if she never had to speak to him again?

Even better.

Of course—

That wouldn’t be how things turned out.

Not at all.

 


 

Jo hit the ground hard.

The force of the shove sent her to her hands and knees, her palms scraping against rough stone as she caught herself just in time to keep from collapsing completely. Her muscles ached, screaming in protest as she tried to push up, but exhaustion kept her pinned for a moment, her limbs trembling from the effort of simply staying upright.

Behind her, boots scuffed against the floor, heavy and deliberate. The door slammed shut, the sharp clang of metal striking metal echoing through the enclosed space. A lock slid into place.

She didn’t need to turn around to know she was trapped.

Jaw tight, she exhaled sharply through her nose and pressed a hand to the wall, using it as leverage as she forced herself to her feet. The room swayed around her before settling into focus—four walls of dull stone, no windows, no furniture. Just heat, thick and stifling, pressing in from all sides. The air smelled of damp earth and dust, heavy with something stale, as if this place hadn’t seen fresh air in years.

A prison.

Her fingers twitched at her sides. She turned, scanning the space for anything that might be useful. A loose stone, a rusted nail, anything at all.

Nothing.

She dragged a hand over her face, wiping away the mix of salt, sweat, and sand clinging to her skin. Every inch of her felt weighed down, her clothes still damp from the ocean, the fabric stiff with dried seawater. Her limbs throbbed with exhaustion, her head heavy, but her mind was still sharp enough to grasp one thing clearly.

She had no idea where she was.

The last thing she remembered was the ship—the deck tilting, the roar of the storm, the sea swallowing her whole. Now she was here, locked in some godforsaken room on an island she didn’t recognize, surrounded by men who didn’t speak her language.

And she wasn’t sure if anyone else had made it out alive.

Her stomach twisted, the weight of uncertainty settling deep in her chest. The others could have drowned. Arthur could have drowned. Maybe she was the only one left.

The thought was enough to make her want to tear the whole place apart, but before she could do anything at all, the door groaned open.

She turned just as a man stepped inside.

His movements were slow, deliberate, carrying the weight of someone who believed he had complete control over the room before he even crossed the threshold. He wasn’t dressed like a soldier. His coat was finer, black with gold trim, the buttons polished to a shine. Beneath it, the crisp white of his shirt stood out against the deep tan of his skin, the collar left open just enough to suggest the heat didn’t bother him as much as it did everyone else.

His mustache was neatly trimmed. His dark hair combed back with precision. He carried himself like a man used to giving orders and having them followed without question.

Jo didn’t move.

Her muscles ached to tense, to prepare for whatever was coming, but she forced herself to stay steady. She had dealt with men like him before. The kind who saw power as something they could wrap around their fingers, something they could wield like a weapon. The kind who looked at people and saw things to be used, owned, or broken.

His gaze dragged over her slowly, assessing.

She met it with sharp defiance, saying nothing, giving nothing.

A slow smirk curled at the edge of his lips.

"Bienvenida a Guarma."

The words were smooth, practiced, carrying the easy confidence of someone who had said them many times before.

Welcome to Guarma.

Her stomach turned.

Wherever she was, it was about to get a whole lot worse.

Fussar didn’t speak right away.

He took his time, watching her with the kind of patience that made Jo’s skin crawl, his sharp eyes studying every inch of her like she was some puzzle he was already figuring out how to take apart.

Jo didn’t look away.

Didn’t let herself shrink under the weight of his scrutiny.

Her body ached, every muscle sore and tight from exhaustion. She was dehydrated, her throat dry as dust, lips cracked from the heat, but she refused to let it show. The moment he saw weakness, he’d use it against her.

Footsteps echoed against the stone as another man entered the room.

He was broad, thick in the shoulders, his uniform stretched tight across his chest. Not a soldier—an enforcer , the kind of man who did the work his superiors didn’t want to dirty their hands with. His boots scuffed against the floor as he came to stand just behind Fussar, his expression unreadable but his posture too relaxed. Like he was waiting for an excuse to use his fists.

Fussar let the silence stretch a little longer before finally speaking.

“You are not one of mine.” His voice was smooth, laced with something almost amused. “Not a worker. Not a soldier. So tell me, who are you?

Jo shifted her weight slightly, keeping herself steady. The headache pounding behind her eyes made it hard to think, but she still had enough fire in her to resist.

She tilted her head, arching a brow. “Hell of a welcome for someone just washing up on your shores.”

The enforcer moved before she could react.

A fist drove into her stomach, knocking the air from her lungs in one sharp burst. Her knees nearly gave out, her body folding forward instinctively, but she caught herself before she could collapse completely.

Her hands curled into fists, nails biting into her palms as she straightened.

Fussar sighed, shaking his head like he was disappointed.

“I will not ask again,” he said, voice calm, as if he had all the time in the world. “Who are you? Why are you on my island?”

Jo swallowed, her throat burning, each breath scraping against the rawness left behind by the seawater. The thirst was unbearable now, a deep ache in her chest, but she forced herself to focus.

She had two choices.

Tell him the ship she was on sank. Play dumb, act like some lost soul who had no idea where she was, just another unfortunate body the ocean had spit out.

Or say nothing .

She glanced at the enforcer, at the way his weight shifted slightly forward, his stance loose but ready, like he was already waiting to strike again.

Then she looked back at Fussar.

And said nothing.

His smirk returned, slow and knowing, like he had expected that answer.

He exhaled through his nose, then turned his head slightly.

The enforcer hit her again, a quick, sharp blow to the ribs this time. Jo bit down on the inside of her cheek, forcing herself not to react, not to give them the satisfaction of hearing her grunt in pain.

Fussar studied her for a moment longer, then took a slow step forward.

“You are stubborn,” he mused. “That is not always a good thing.”

She stared back at him, jaw tight, breathing through the sharp ache spreading through her side.

Then—

He reached into his coat, pulled something out.

A flask.

He turned it slightly, let the light catch against the metal before twisting off the cap. The scent of water—clean, fresh—hit her immediately, the sound of liquid sloshing inside the only thing she could focus on for a moment.

Her body begged for it.

Her throat tightened involuntarily, and she had to fight the instinct to step forward, to reach for it.

Fussar noticed.

His smirk widened slightly.

Slowly, deliberately, he lifted the flask and took a long drink.

Jo kept her expression neutral, but something dark coiled low in her stomach.

Fussar lowered the flask, glancing down at it before shifting his gaze back to her.

“Perhaps some generosity is in order,” he murmured, swishing the water inside. “For someone in such… unfortunate circumstances.”

Then he held the flask out, just a little.

An offer.

Her lips parted slightly, the ache in her throat nearly unbearable now.

But there was a price to taking it. There was always a price.

Fussar tilted his head slightly. “Tell me, who are you?

Jo’s nails dug into her palms.

The water was right there .

And she refused to take it.

Fussar watched her closely, his amusement growing with every second she didn’t answer.

She knew this game. Had seen men like him play it before, wielding power not with a gun, not with fists, but with something far crueler— patience .

The waiting was the worst part.

The moment stretched thin, his offer still lingering between them, heavy and unspoken.

Then, slowly, he withdrew the flask.

"You are not stupid," he said, swirling the water absently, watching as she tracked the movement despite herself. "So why do something so foolish?"

Jo clenched her jaw, refusing to answer.

Another sharp sigh left him, this one edged with something more like disappointment. "You are making this difficult for yourself." He turned slightly, shifting his attention to the enforcer beside him. "Perhaps she needs more incentive."

Jo knew what was coming before the man even moved.

She braced herself, weight shifting slightly, body tightening just before the fist drove into her stomach again.

The impact sent her staggering back, her back colliding with the stone wall behind her. The ache spread deep, a sharp pulse that made her ribs throb, but she gritted her teeth and stayed standing .

Fussar smiled, slow and satisfied.

"Tell me, who are you ?" he asked again, quieter this time, like he already knew the answer wouldn’t come.

Jo lifted her chin.

"Go to hell."

She saw the next strike coming, the way the enforcer shifted his stance, the slight twist of his shoulder before his fist came flying.

But this time, she moved.

It wasn’t smart.

It wasn’t planned.

Her body acted before her mind could catch up.

The moment Fussar turned his head, the briefest flicker of distraction in his gaze, Jo lunged.

Her hands shot forward, fingers curling like claws as she went for his throat.

She almost reached him.

Almost.

Pain exploded at her scalp. A sharp, searing burn as her head snapped backward. A ragged gasp tore from her throat, her body jerking with the force of it.

The enforcer’s grip was merciless, his fist tangled in her hair as he yanked her off her feet, dragging her backward like a wild animal on a leash. The breath was ripped from her lungs as he spun her, then slammed her hard against the stone wall.

A cry caught at the back of her throat, teeth jarring together on impact. Pain lanced through her spine, her shoulder blades scraping raw against the rough surface.

Fussar chuckled, adjusting his coat, entirely unbothered.

"Ah," he mused, stepping closer, watching her with something between amusement and curiosity. "There it is."

Jo’s breath came sharp, her chest rising and falling fast. She could still feel the enforcer’s grip in her hair, the sting lingering like fire across her scalp, but she didn’t let herself flinch.

Fussar exhaled through his nose, rubbing his chin thoughtfully.

"Yes," he murmured. "I think I know what to do with you."

His gaze flicked back to the enforcer, his next words coming with the ease of someone giving an order as simple as fetching a drink.

"Send her to the camp. We'll see how long you'll last, Chica ."

The grip on her arm tightened.

Jo’s stomach turned.

She didn’t know what camp he meant, but judging by the smug look on his face, it wasn’t a place anyone came back from whole.

Fussar gave her one last glance, as if to make sure she understood her mistake, before turning and walking toward the door.

He didn’t bother looking back.

The enforcer pulled her forward, his grip ironclad.

Jo dug her heels into the stone, her muscles screaming in protest, but it didn’t matter.

She had lost this fight.

But she’d be damned if she lost the next one.

 


 

The sun was merciless.

It pressed down from above like a solid weight, smothering everything beneath its relentless heat. The air itself felt thick, heavy with the scent of sweat, damp earth, and sugarcane. The fields stretched endlessly, rows upon rows of tall, green stalks swaying in the faintest breeze—not nearly enough to bring relief.

Jo’s shirt clung to her back, soaked through with sweat, her hair plastered to her skin. Her hands were raw, blistered from gripping the dull machete she had been given, its rusted blade barely slicing through the thick cane. Her arms trembled with every swing. Every motion felt slower than the last.

The iron shackles around her ankles chafed with every step, the short length of chain between them rattling as she moved. It was just long enough for her to walk, to work, but not to run. That was the point. No one here was meant to run.

The plantation was alive with movement.

Dozens of men and women, backs bent, swinging their machetes through the cane with slow, weary strokes. Some had chains like hers, others didn’t—but all bore the same vacant, hollow-eyed exhaustion that came from being worked to the brink of collapse.

Guards paced along the edge of the fields, rifles slung lazily over their shoulders, whips coiled at their belts. The sun gleamed off the gold buttons of their uniforms, their crisp blue coats too clean for men who did this kind of work.

They didn’t lift a finger.

Didn’t have to.

The whip did all the work for them.

Jo’s arms burned. Her throat was raw, her lips cracked from dehydration. It had been hours since she’d been thrown into this hell, and not a single drop of water had touched her lips. Her stomach twisted, aching with something deeper than hunger.

A grunt of effort sounded beside her.

She turned her head slightly, enough to see the man to her right—a worker, maybe in his fifties, his dark skin gleaming with sweat. He swayed slightly where he stood, his machete slipping from his grip.

He barely had time to reach for it before his knees buckled.

He went down hard.

Jo dropped her own blade without thinking.

The man barely had time to catch his breath before boots thundered through the field, kicking up dust and crushed cane. One of the overseers—stocky, mean-faced—strode forward, his whip already uncoiling.

Jo stepped in front of the man before she had time to think better of it.

“Don’t,” she rasped, her voice hoarse, barely there.

The overseer barely slowed.

His eyes locked onto her, dark with something that wasn’t anger—something worse.

He smiled.

Like he had been waiting for an excuse.

The whip cracked.

Jo barely registered the sound before fire erupted across her back.

Her body jerked forward, pain exploding through her nerves. The force of it sent her to her knees, the impact jarring through her already aching bones.

She clenched her teeth hard, breathing ragged, swallowing down the sound of pain before it could escape.

The whip lashed out again.

Another line of fire across her shoulder blades, searing deep, tearing through the thin fabric of her shirt.

She didn’t scream.

Wouldn’t give them that.

She forced herself back up, her vision swimming, her limbs shaking beneath her. The world tilted for a moment, black spots creeping at the edges of her sight.

The overseer tilted his head, watching her.

Then, with a slow, deliberate movement, he stepped back.

“Keep working,” he ordered.

Jo didn’t move. Not yet.

The man she had stepped in for was already struggling to his feet, his breath ragged, his hands shaking.

She glanced at him once, just to make sure he was standing, before she reached down and picked up her machete again.

Her hands felt weaker now, her grip unsteady.

But she didn’t stop.

She swung the blade.

The cane fell.

The sun burned overhead.

And the chains rattled with every step.

Time lost meaning.

The hours stretched, uncounted, measured only by the weight of the sun pressing down on her back and the number of times her machete hit the stalks of cane. Each swing felt heavier than the last, her arms screaming with every motion. The world around her blurred into a haze of green and gold, sweat stinging her eyes, her breath shallow and ragged.

The wounds on her back throbbed in time with her heartbeat, a steady pulse of pain that hadn’t dulled in the slightest. The fabric of her shirt clung to her skin, damp with sweat and streaked with blood where the whip had torn into her. Every shift of her shoulders sent a fresh wave of pain rolling through her, but she forced herself to keep moving.

Stopping wasn’t an option.

The crack of a whip rang out somewhere behind her, followed by a choked-off cry.

Someone else had fallen.

Jo kept her head down.

Not again.

She couldn’t afford to step in a second time. The first mistake had already cost her too much. The guards were watching her now. She could feel it—the weight of their stares, the way they lingered whenever they passed by, waiting to see if she would do something stupid again.

She swallowed hard, her throat dry as dust.

The need for water was a dull, relentless ache. She didn’t know how much longer she could go without it.

The others worked in silence. No one spoke, no one dared to look at each other for too long. Conversations weren’t forbidden, but they were dangerous. Talking made you noticeable. Being noticeable got you killed.

The man she had protected earlier was still beside her, his swings slower now, more deliberate. She didn’t know his name. Hadn’t asked. He hadn’t thanked her.

Didn’t need to.

They weren’t friends. They weren’t allies. They were just trying to survive the day.

The sun shifted in the sky, lowering inch by inch, turning the light golden as it stretched through the stalks of cane. How long had it been? Six hours? Eight? More?

Her arms trembled as she lifted the machete again, her body working on nothing but instinct now.

A sharp whistle cut through the air.

She stopped mid-swing, barely catching herself before she lost her balance.

The guards were calling them in.

Finally.

Jo let the machete drop from her grip, her fingers stiff from overuse, her knuckles aching. Her entire body felt wrong, overheated and heavy, her movements sluggish as she forced herself to turn toward the sound.

The workers gathered slowly, their steps uneven, some stumbling more than walking. The chains around their ankles clinked together with each step, the sound low and constant.

Jo moved with them.

Her feet dragged in the dirt, her vision swimming for a brief second before settling.

The guards stood waiting near the edge of the fields, rifles resting lazily in their hands. One of them, a man with a thick mustache and a permanent scowl, counted as the workers passed by, his lips moving in a slow, deliberate rhythm.

Jo felt his gaze pass over her, then move on.

Good.

She didn’t want to stand out any more than she already had.

The group was led toward a cluster of small, crude buildings just beyond the fields. The structures were simple—wood and stone slapped together with little care, barely standing. This was where they were kept. Not homes, not even proper shelters. 

One of the guards barked something in Spanish, motioning for them to move faster.

Jo didn’t react. Didn’t acknowledge him.

She didn’t have the energy for it.

Her thoughts drifted, slipping past the haze of exhaustion.

Had the others made it?

Arthur. Dutch. Javier. Bill. Didn’t really care for Micah.

She hadn’t seen them since the storm. Didn’t know if they had washed up on this same island or if the ocean had taken them for good.

The last image she had of Arthur was burned into her mind—the chaos on the ship, the wind ripping through the sails, the deck splitting apart beneath her feet.

She should have looked for him.

Should have fought harder to stay with them.

But none of that mattered now.

What mattered was getting out of this place.

She wouldn’t die here.

Not in these fields, not under the crack of a whip, not as a nameless worker beneath the Caribbean sun.

She was going to survive.

And if Arthur was out there—

She was going to find him.

 


 

The bread was stale.

It crumbled in her hands as she tore a piece off, dry and tasteless, the kind that had been left in the heat too long, turning tough and brittle. It scraped against her teeth, sitting like a rock in her stomach as she forced herself to swallow.

She didn’t complain.

Didn’t even hesitate.

Food was food.

The water was warm, tinged with the metallic taste of whatever container it had been sitting in for too long. It did little to soothe the raw ache in her throat, but at least it was something.

The workers sat in clusters, their movements slow, their voices barely more than murmurs in the dim light of the camp. No one had the energy for conversation.

Jo sat, her back far from any surface of the makeshift shacks, legs stretched out, the bread resting in her palm. She could feel every beat of her heart pulsing in the open wounds across her back, a dull, throbbing ache that made it hard to sit still. The cold of the night was setting in now, creeping into her bones, clashing harshly against the heat she had been forced to endure all day.

Her body wasn’t sure what to do with it.

She exhaled slowly, watching as the warmth of her breath curled into the night air.

A shadow shifted nearby.

She caught the movement from the corner of her eye, her muscles tensing instinctively, but she didn’t reach for the rusted machete they had taken from her earlier. If someone wanted a fight, she’d give them one, but right now, she didn’t have it in her to throw the first punch.

The man she had defended earlier sat down beside her.

He moved stiffly, wincing slightly as he adjusted his position, the chains at his ankles clinking together. He didn’t look at her right away. Just reached for his bread, tearing off a piece, taking his time chewing before finally speaking.

“You shouldn’t have done that,” he muttered. His voice was low, rough, like someone who had spent years swallowing down whatever words weren’t worth saying.

Jo shifted slightly, biting back a grimace as her back protested. “Yeah, well,” she said, picking at the bread in her hands. “Didn’t sit right, lettin’ them beat a man while he’s already down.”

A quiet huff left him, something between amusement and disbelief. He finally turned his head, his dark eyes studying her beneath furrowed brows. “They’ll remember you now.”

“Let ‘em.”

The man shook his head, but there was something almost appreciative in the way he looked at her now.

They ate in silence after that, neither of them in the mood for more words.

The night stretched on, the wind picking up slightly, rustling through the nearby stalks of cane. Somewhere in the distance, an animal let out a cry, something sharp and hollow, fading into the darkness.

Jo rested her head against the wall, staring up at the sky.

The stars were bright, stretching across the horizon in a way that would have been beautiful if she weren’t seeing them from behind iron chains.

Her body ached. Her head felt too heavy for her shoulders.

But she wasn’t dead.

Not yet.

And as long as she was breathing, she was going to find a way out of this place.

 


 

The morning began with fists.

They had dragged her from the shack before the sun had even fully risen, the cold still clinging to the air, biting against her skin. She hadn’t fought them. Not because she was afraid—fear had left her a long time ago—but because she had nothing left to give.

She had expected another round with Fussar.

Expected the same questions, the same game of patience, the same offer of water dangled just out of reach.

Instead, it had been different men this time.

Soldiers.

They weren’t there to talk.

Their orders were clear—beat her until she spoke.

But Jo had nothing to say.

She took the hits in silence, let them knock her to the floor, tasting iron as her lip split open, feeling the bruises bloom beneath her skin.

It ended the same way it had the night before.

With nothing.

They got tired of her silence before she did, dragging her out into the sun once again, tossing her back into the fields like she was just another tool to be used until she broke.

By the time she reached her row, the others were already working.

She picked up her machete with fingers that barely curled, her knuckles swollen and stiff. The blade felt heavier today. Everything did.

The cane stood tall around her, endless, stretching beyond what her eyes could see.

She swung.

The stalks fell.

Her movements were sluggish. Slower than the day before.

It didn’t take long for them to notice.

Boots crunched against the dirt, approaching her from behind.

She clenched her jaw.

It was the same overseer as yesterday, the one who had taken too much pleasure in watching her writhe beneath the crack of his whip. He stepped into her peripheral, his rifle slung casually over his shoulder, his posture too relaxed, like he had been waiting for this.

“Vas demasiado lento,” he said, shaking his head.

Too slow.

Jo didn’t look at him. Didn’t stop moving.

She swung again.

The blade sliced through the cane, the stalk falling, but not fast enough.

She barely registered the first strike before pain exploded across her back.

Her body arched forward, her breath catching in her throat. The wounds from yesterday tore open fresh, the sting of sweat and sun biting into the exposed flesh.

The second strike came before she could catch her breath.

Fabric ripped.

The once-white shirt she had woken up in on the ship was nothing more than a filthy, tattered rag hanging off her shoulders, now torn further apart, strips of cloth clinging uselessly to her skin.

The pain was worse than before.

Her knees almost buckled. Almost.

She forced herself to stay standing, forced her grip to remain tight around the handle of the machete, even as her hands trembled.

The overseer chuckled, satisfied, and walked off.

Jo let out a slow breath through her nose, waiting for the sting to settle into something more bearable.

Then—

She swung the blade again.

Jo kept swinging.

Her body had long since stopped working on its own. Now, it was all willpower. Muscle memory and sheer stubbornness were the only things keeping her going.

Her hands barely gripped the machete. Her arms burned, her shoulders stiff from the pain that coiled through her back, every motion tearing at the wounds left behind by the whip. The heat pressed in from all sides, thick and suffocating, weighing down on her like a smothering blanket.

She swayed slightly on her feet.

The next swing didn’t cut through the cane properly. The blade lodged itself in the stalk instead of slicing clean, and she had to yank it out, her arms trembling with the effort.

Her vision blurred at the edges.

Keep going.

Her fingers slipped.

The machete tumbled from her grasp, hitting the dirt with a dull thud.

Jo stared at it, her mind struggling to catch up. She tried to bend down, to pick it back up, but her knees locked up, her legs refusing to move.

A shuffling sound reached her ears, the footsteps of the other workers slowing around her. No one spoke, but she could feel their eyes on her, could sense their silent warning.

A shadow stretched across the dirt beside her.

Then came the voice.

Sharp. Expectant.

“Levántalo.”

Pick it up.

Jo clenched her jaw, forcing herself to breathe evenly through the haze of exhaustion.

She bent down, reached for the handle—

Her fingers brushed the worn grip—

The whip cracked.

She barely heard it before the pain ripped through her.

A sharp cry tore from her throat as fire erupted across her back, her legs giving out beneath her. She hit the ground, dirt kicking up around her, the pain too much this time, too deep, her nerves screaming in protest.

She tried to move.

Tried to push herself up, to lift her head, to do anything but lay there in the dust like an animal waiting to die.

Her body wouldn’t listen.

Boots appeared beside her, the overseer’s stance casual, his shadow casting over her like he had all the time in the world.

She heard the shifting of weight, the slow creak of leather. The whip curling back again.

A hand grabbed the front of her shirt, yanking her up before the next strike could land.

She barely registered it, barely felt the hands that locked around her shoulders, barely noticed the soldiers hauling her away as her head lolled forward, her vision swimming with black spots.

She wasn’t walking—she was being dragged.

Their grips dug into her arms, fingers bruising into her skin as they hauled her toward the center of camp, her feet barely skimming the ground. Her body swung limply between them, her mind heavy, exhaustion crushing down on her.

The heat grew stronger.

Blinding light stretched over the dirt as the fields gave way to open ground.

And then—

The cage.

It loomed ahead, iron bars glinting in the sun, a crude structure sitting in the middle of camp, its purpose clear— punishment, suffering, humiliation .

There were two.

One was already occupied.

The soldiers didn’t slow.

They reached the cage and threw her inside.

Jo hit the ground hard.

The metal door clanged shut behind her, the lock sliding into place with a finality that rang through her bones.

The sun bore down mercilessly, heat curling against the bars, turning them into something like a furnace.

She lay there, cheek pressed against the dirt, her breath coming in short, uneven gasps.

Jo barely had the strength to turn her head.

She wasn’t sure if she had the strength to survive the next beating.

But she was sure of one thing.

She wasn’t dying here.

Not in this place.

Not like this.

The man in the other cage shifted, dragging himself closer to the bars, his movements stiff and heavy. His arm braced against the metal, his dark eyes locked onto her, filled with something between disbelief and relief.

Hermosa …?”

Jo’s breath caught.

She knew that voice.

Low, rough with exhaustion, but still threaded with something warm beneath the rasp.

Jo forced her eyes open, her body protesting the effort. The sun was blinding, turning the iron bars around her into molten streaks of light. She squinted against the glare, blinking past the haze of heat and pain.

It took a second—her mind sluggish, her body slow to respond—but then it clicked.

“Javier?”

She pushed herself up on weak arms, her body screaming at her to stay down. She didn’t listen.

Javier exhaled sharply, shaking his head. “Dios mío… it is you.”

She could see it now—the dried blood on his leg, the way he held himself carefully, favoring one side. He looked like hell, but he was alive.

And for the first time in days, Jo felt something other than exhaustion.

Something other than pain.

Relief.

A short, breathless laugh escaped her, too weak to hold much sound. “You look like shit,” she murmured.

Javier smirked, resting his head against the bars. “ Mierda … look who’s talking.”

She huffed, pressing a hand against her ribs as she shifted to a more comfortable position—not that comfort existed in a place like this. But the pain in her back was easier to ignore now, just for a moment.

They were quiet for a second, just breathing, letting the reality settle.

Then—

“The others?” she asked, voice barely above a whisper.

Javier’s expression softened slightly. “They made it.”

Jo swallowed, her throat still aching from dehydration, but she barely noticed it now. “Arthur?”

“He’s alive.”

The tension in her chest loosened just a fraction. She let her head fall back against the bars, closing her eyes for a second, exhaling slowly.

Arthur was alive .

Dutch. Bill. Micah. They were all alive.

They were here .

Somewhere on this godforsaken island.

Javier shifted again, adjusting his leg with a wince. “We got captured same day I was shot. Been here since.”

“How long?”

Javier frowned slightly, thinking. “Two days? Three?” He shook his head. “Hard to tell.”

Jo’s hands curled into fists against the dirt floor, her nails pressing into her palms.

The others had made it .

That meant there was still hope.

Arthur was out there.

And if there was one thing she knew about Arthur Morgan, it was that he didn’t let the people he cared about rot in a place like this.

He would come.

She just had to hold on .

Chapter 31: Hell Hath No Fury

Chapter Text

Arthur had always trusted Dutch.

For years, it had been easy. Dutch had a vision, a way with words, a promise that if they stuck together, if they fought hard enough, they would carve out something better. He had built them a home, a family, a purpose.

But now?

Arthur wasn’t so sure.

His doubts had started as a whisper, a nagging voice in the back of his mind, easy enough to push away. But since Bronte’s death, since the bank job went to hell, that whisper had turned into something louder—something impossible to ignore.

Dutch had always been a gambler, but lately, his bets felt reckless.

First, there had been the bank job. Arthur couldn’t pin that failure entirely on Dutch—the law had been closing in for weeks—but the choices he had made afterward? Those were harder to justify.

Then there was the boat, the storm, the godforsaken island they were stranded on now.

And now, after all of that, Dutch wanted to go back to Saint Denis?

Arthur clenched his jaw, his fingers tightening around the stock of his rifle as he walked.

They’d barely made it out of that city alive. Every lawman, every Pinkerton in the damn country would be waiting for them. Going back meant suicide. It meant seeing every last one of them hanged or gunned down like animals in the street.

And then there was Gloria.

Arthur hadn’t forgotten the way Dutch had killed that poor woman, hadn’t forgotten the casual coldness of it. She had helped them—for a price, sure, but that wasn’t new. They had paid off folks before. Dutch could have left her be. Could have walked away.

But instead, he had strangled her like it meant nothing.

And Arthur had watched.

Had stood there, blood drying on his knuckles, the scent of death thick in the humid air, and realized, for the first time, that Dutch might not be the man he thought he was.

He must have gone mad.

How else could Arthur explain this?

The killings, the reckless decisions, the way Dutch spoke of survival while leading them straight into danger.

For years, Arthur had believed in him. Had followed him without question.

But now?

Now, for the first time, Arthur didn’t know if he could.

Whether Dutch could see the shift in him, Arthur had no idea.

But he knew one thing for certain.

This wasn’t the Dutch he had once admired.

And Arthur wasn’t sure if he could keep pretending otherwise.

 


 

Arthur crouched low, the damp earth pressing against his knee as he peered through the jungle’s thick foliage. The humid air clung to his skin, thick and suffocating, the scent of damp earth and rotting vegetation filling his lungs with every slow breath. Sweat dripped from his brow, but he paid it no mind. His hands were steady on his rifle, his sharp gaze scanning the camp sprawled out below them.

The place was a goddamn hellhole.

Rows of makeshift shacks stood crooked and uneven, their walls built from warped wood and rusted metal. The workers— prisoners —moved in sluggish lines, hacking away at the fields with dull machetes under the relentless sun. The overseers stalked among them, rifles slung over their shoulders, whips coiled at their belts, their blue uniforms too crisp, too clean, for the filth they presided over.

Arthur’s stomach twisted. He had seen places like this before—places where men were worked to the bone, beaten into submission, left to rot. But knowing Javier was down there made it worse.

Dutch shifted beside him, pointing his finger. "There," he murmured.

Arthur followed his line of sight, his gut tightening at the sight of the cage near the center of the camp.

Javier slumped against the bars, his injured leg stretched out in front of him, his face set in an expression of pain even in rest. His arms hung limp at his sides, his shirt soaked with sweat, streaked with blood and dirt.

Arthur let out a slow breath through his nose.

“He don’t look too good,” he muttered.

Dutch shook his head slightly. "He’s alive. That’s all that matters.”

Arthur grunted in response, about to shift his focus back to the rest of the camp—

Then he saw it .

A second cage.

Arthur’s frown deepened as he turned his attention to it. At first, he could only make out a shape, a hunched figure curled into itself, barely moving. His breath slowed, something cold curling in his stomach.

The way they sat, slumped against the bars, unmoving.

The way their frame was too small to be another man.

Arthur’s heart kicked against his ribs.

No.

It couldn’t be—

A gust of wind stirred the clearing, lifting strands of tangled golden hair just enough for him to see.

Arthur’s stomach dropped.

Jo.

She was alive.

He hadn’t allowed himself to hope—not really. After the storm, after she’d disappeared into the raging sea, he had told himself it was likely she hadn’t made it. The odds were too slim, the waters too unforgiving. Then he had found her necklace, but even there he didn’t allow himself to hope that much. But seeing her now, after days of uncertainty, hit him harder than he was prepared for.

Relief punched through him, so fierce it nearly stole his breath.

But it was short-lived.

Because the moment he took in the rest of her, that relief twisted into something darker.

She was battered, her skin pallid beneath the streaks of grime. Her clothes, once light-colored, were torn and darkened with dirt, hanging off her frame like it barely fit anymore.

And then there were the wounds.

The way she sat hunched forward, as if even the act of breathing was too much. The bruises littering her exposed skin, the angry red welts peeking from beneath the torn fabric at her back—

Arthur clenched his jaw so tight it ached.

He knew what caused those marks.

Some bastard had whipped her.

He had seen men beaten before, had seen lash marks on prisoners, on slaves, on enemies—but never on her. And the sight of them, of what they had done to her, filled him with a kind of rage that threatened to consume him whole.

They had tried to break her.

And maybe, for the first time, they had come close.

Arthur swallowed hard, his fists clenching. His breath came slower now, heavier, barely controlled as fury settled into his bones.

Whoever had done this—whoever had dared lay a hand on her—was already dead.

They just didn’t know it yet.

Arthur’s breath was still coming heavy as he stared at Jo’s battered form, his knuckles white against the wood of his rifle. His pulse pounded in his ears, drowning out everything but the sight of her, curled up against the bars of that damn cage like a ghost of herself.

Caged like an animal in the dirt, like she was nothing, like she wasn’t Jo—wasn’t the woman who had fought beside him , who had never let herself be broken, who had always stood tall .

Then—

Dutch shifted beside him.

Arthur didn’t look at him right away, but he felt it—the way Dutch had gone still, the way the weight of what they were seeing settled over them both like a thick fog.

Dutch exhaled through his nose, his lips pressing into a thin line. “Well, I’ll be damned.”

Arthur finally turned, just enough to catch the expression flickering across Dutch’s face. His brows were furrowed, his eyes narrowed with something unreadable. Not quite shock—Dutch didn’t shock easy—but something close.

Jo being here was unexpected.

Dutch had written her off.

Arthur could see it in the way his jaw worked, the way he tilted his head just slightly.

But now that she was here, now that he was looking at her, Dutch’s mind was already working.

Arthur could practically hear the wheels turning, the pieces shifting into place.

“We’ll get ‘em both,” Dutch murmured, but there was a coldness to his tone, a calculation buried beneath the words.

Arthur didn’t like it.

Didn’t trust it.

But he kept his mouth shut.

For now.

Dutch turned his gaze back to the camp, scanning the guards, the way they moved. The layout. They were outnumbered, but that was nothing new.

Arthur let out a slow breath, forcing himself to focus. They couldn’t afford hesitation, couldn’t afford a single damn mistake.

“What’s the plan?” Arthur asked, his voice quieter now, but firm.

Dutch was already shifting his weight, crouching lower in the brush as he studied the camp. “They ain’t expecting trouble. Security’s light on that side near the supply crates.” He nodded toward the far end of the clearing, where stacks of wooden boxes sat near a line of drying clothes, the guards stationed in more casual positions. “All we need is a little distraction.”

Arthur frowned, following Dutch’s gaze. “You thinkin’ what I think you’re thinkin’?”

Dutch smirked. “Oh, I do hope so, son.”

Arthur sighed, already bracing himself. “And how do you wanna play it?”

 


 

Arthur moved like a shadow through the darkened refinery, his boots silent against the worn wooden planks of the floor. The air inside was thick, cloying with the scent of molasses and burnt sugar, the heat from the nearby furnace radiating through the walls. Dutch crept beside him, leading the way, his movements fluid, deliberate.

The place was nearly empty.

Nearly.

Two guards stood near the far end of the room, their voices low, exchanging idle conversation as they leaned lazily against a stack of barrels. They weren’t expecting trouble—why would they? Fussar’s men had already won, as far as they were concerned.

Arthur barely spared them a glance before moving.

Fast.

Silent.

The first man didn’t even have time to register his presence before Arthur’s arm was around his throat, dragging him backward into the shadows. The struggle lasted seconds—a muffled grunt, a frantic scrabble against Arthur’s grip—before the guard went limp, his body slumping to the floor.

Dutch made quick work of the second. A flicker of movement, the brief glint of steel, then a sharp, wet gasp before the man collapsed, his blood spreading in a dark pool across the floor.

Dutch wiped the blade against his coat, then straightened.

“Okay,” he muttered, his breath barely disturbed, “now we need to create a diversion.”

Arthur scoffed, his irritation bubbling over before he could stop himself.

“Well, what do you think? Find another old lady to strangle?”

Dutch’s jaw tightened. He exhaled through his nose, casting Arthur a warning look. “That is enough, Arthur… this is a war.”

Arthur’s hands curled into fists.

War.

That’s what Dutch kept calling it. That’s how he justified it all—the killings, the recklessness, the bodies left in their wake.

“Well, if this is a war,” Arthur muttered, forcing himself to unclench his hands, “then we need to start blowing some stuff up.”

Dutch didn’t even flinch. Instead, his expression shifted, sharp and calculating, that ever-present scheming glint flickering behind his eyes.

“Exactly.”

Arthur sighed, already regretting what he’d just set into motion.

“Is there any dynamite?” he asked, already looking around.

Dutch smirked. “Oh no, we don’t need dynamite.” He turned, his boots scraping against the floor as he strode toward a stack of burlap sacks. He ran a hand over one, dust lifting into the humid air. “We’ve got a furnace and lots of sugar.”

Arthur frowned, but before he could question it, Dutch had already grabbed a knife, slicing open one of the sacks. A fine white powder spilled out in a soft cascade, drifting into the air. He looked up at Arthur, grinning like a man who had just found gold.

Arthur’s brows furrowed.

Then, it clicked .

Dust.

Sugar dust.

Enough of it in the air, combined with heat and an open flame, and this whole damn building would go up in a fireball.

Arthur turned, quickly securing the doors and windows, making sure the air inside grew thick with the fine, floating dust as Dutch worked, slashing open more sacks and shaking them out. The refinery’s air turned heavy with it, the faint sparkle of sugar dust visible in the glow of the furnace.

In the distance, beyond the refinery walls, Arthur could hear them.

Javier.

Jo.

He swallowed hard, the muffled sounds of their pain burrowing beneath his ribs. He didn’t know what was being done to them, but he could imagine. The crack of a whip, the dull thud of fists meeting flesh.

His fingers twitched at his side.

Dutch, unbothered, was still working, still slicing open sacks, shaking out the contents, filling the air with an invisible death trap. “Create enough dust,” he murmured, shaking an empty sack for emphasis, “this place’ll go.”

Arthur gritted his teeth, turning toward the furnace.

It was already running hot, glowing with embers, but not enough—not yet. He grabbed a nearby tool and stoked the flames, increasing the heat, watching as the orange glow deepened, flickering against the metal walls.

Dutch grabbed an oil lantern from the nearby shelf, his fingers twisting the knob, the flame inside flaring to life.

“You ready?”

Arthur didn’t answer.

Dutch took that as a yes.

He tossed the lantern toward the barrels.

The glass shattered on impact.

A split second of stillness—

Then—

Fire erupted.

Arthur didn’t wait to watch. He was already moving, following Dutch as they slipped out the side entrance, darting into the thick foliage just beyond the refinery. They crouched low, moving fast, putting distance between themselves and the inevitable blast.

They didn’t stop until they reached the clearing just beyond the cages, their breath short, their bodies slick with sweat from the heat still radiating behind them.

Arthur’s grip tightened around his rifle.

Any second now.

And then—

The explosion ripped through the night.

The ground trembled beneath them, a deafening roar splitting the air as fire burst through the refinery walls, shooting skyward in a massive orange bloom. The force of it sent a rush of heat against Arthur’s skin, even from where they were crouched. The refinery groaned, wood splintering, metal screaming as the entire structure buckled inward, flames swallowing everything inside.

Arthur used the chaos to his advantage.

Gun drawn, pulse hammering, he surged forward toward the cages—toward her .

Because now?

Now, it was time to bring her home .

Arthur didn’t stop running.

The explosion still thundered behind him, lighting up the sky, but all he could focus on was the cages ahead—the rusted bars, the slumped figures inside, the goddamn bastards standing between him and them.

Three guards moved toward him, rifles swinging up.

Arthur fired first.

The first man barely had time to react before Arthur’s bullet ripped through his chest, sending him crashing to the ground. The second staggered back as lead tore through his shoulder, his strangled shout drowned out by the roaring fire behind them. Arthur didn’t slow—he fired again, this time into the last soldier’s gut, watching him crumple into the dirt before charging forward.

He reached the cages, his breath ragged, sweat mixing with the layer of grime already coating his skin.

Javier was slumped back against the bars, his head tilted at an unnatural angle, unconscious. His leg—where he’d been shot—was stretched awkwardly before him, blood staining the torn fabric of his pants.

Arthur cursed under his breath. “Dammit, Javier.”

He barely had time to lift his gun and shoot the padlock before movement in the distance caught his ear.

More men were coming.

“Dutch!” Arthur barked, already turning.

Dutch was there in seconds, pushing past him and into the cage, grunting as he hefted Javier’s limp body onto his back. “I got him,” he grunted, shifting Javier’s dead weight onto his back. “Get Miss Harper.”

Arthur barely heard him. His focus had already shifted.

To the second cage.

To her.

His breath caught in his throat.

Jo.

She was alive.

For days, he hadn’t known. Had feared the worst, had forced himself not to believe she was dead but had nothing—nothing—to prove otherwise. He had imagined her lost in the storm, her body dragged beneath the waves, swallowed by the merciless ocean. The thought had been unbearable. Until he had found her mother’s pendant in the sand.

But now—

Now she was right in front of him.

His rifle dipped slightly, his entire body locking up as his gaze ran over her, taking in every bruise, every wound, every painful detail that made his stomach twist into knots.

She was sitting, but not leaning against the bars. Couldn’t.

The wounds on her back were too fresh.

Her clothes were torn, stained with sweat and blood, clinging to her frame as if she’d wasted away in just a matter of days. She was too still, her arms wrapped loosely around herself, her breaths shallow.

But then—

She lifted her head.

And their eyes met.

Hazel, warm and wild, shifting with the light like autumn leaves caught between gold and green. Eyes that had always burned with something untamed, something fierce. But now… now, they held something else, something heavier.

Arthur felt something break inside him.

There was exhaustion in her gaze, pain tightening the edges, but not defeat.

Never defeat.

Even like this—battered, broken down to the bone—she was still Jo. Still burning, still alive.

And Christ, if he didn’t want to drop to his knees right then and there.

She was here. She was here.

For the briefest second, all the urgency, all the danger melted away.

If he had all the time in the world, he would take it.

He’d pull her into his arms, cradle the back of her head, kiss her so deep that she would feel every ounce of everything he couldn’t say. How much he missed her. How much he regretted every sharp word they had thrown at each other before the bank job, before Saint Denis shattered them all.

But there was no time.

Arthur swallowed hard, lifting his gun. The shot rang out, shattering the padlock.

The door swung open.

For the first time in days, Jo was free.

Arthur stepped forward, reaching for her. “Come on, darlin’,” he murmured, his voice hoarse, desperate.

Her fingers twitched, her body sluggish, unsteady—but she moved.

She took his hand.

And Arthur swore, right then and there, that he’d never let go again.

She blinked slowly, the exhaustion dragging through her gaze like an undertow, threatening to pull her under. The world around her blurred and sharpened in waves, her body too worn, too battered to keep up. But even through the haze, even with her mind fighting to keep hold of reality, she saw him .

Arthur.

She could barely breathe past the tightness in her throat. Could barely get the words out past the raw ache of thirst, the soreness deep in her ribs.

“You came,” she murmured.

Her voice was hoarse, thin from days of dehydration and exhaustion, but she didn’t care. She just needed to say it. Needed to hear it.

Because for days , she had been trapped in that godforsaken hell, forced to sit with the thought that maybe— maybe —no one was coming.

That maybe she was going to die here.

But now, Arthur was here.

Arthur had come .

He let out a rough, breathless chuckle, but there was something frantic in the sound, something relieved and wrecked all at once. His grip on her arm tightened, like he was anchoring himself to the reality of her presence, making sure she was real .

“’Course I came, darlin’,” he rasped, his voice thick, uneven. His throat worked, his Adam’s apple bobbing as he swallowed hard. “Ain’t a place in this world I wouldn’t come for ya.”

Her lips parted slightly, her breath catching in her throat.

She didn’t doubt him—God, she didn’t—but hearing it like that, feeling it in his voice, in the way his fingers curled just slightly against her skin like he was afraid to let go…

It shook something loose inside her.

She gave the faintest shake of her head, disbelieving, like she couldn’t quite wrap her mind around it.

Arthur saw it.

Felt it.

And he hated it .

Because she should never have doubted that he would come for her.

He wanted to tell her how wrong she was.

Wanted to tell her everything.

That she had been the only goddamn thing keeping him going. That when he had woken up on that godforsaken beach, coughing up saltwater, she was the first thing he had thought of. That every hour since, every moment spent tracking through this miserable jungle, he had been desperate to find her. That even before all of this—even before the storm, before Guarma, before the Saint Denis job—he had already been losing his goddamn mind over her.

If he had the time, he’d tell her all of it .

If he had the time, he’d pull her into his arms, hold her so tight she’d never have to doubt him again. He’d kiss her stupid , make up for every wasted second they had spent tiptoeing around each other for so goddamn long, before the fight, before the bank, before everything had fallen apart.

But they didn’t have time.

Not now.

Instead, he cupped her face—just for a moment, just long enough to feel her, to reassure himself that she was real, that she wasn’t about to slip through his fingers again.

His calloused thumb brushed over the dirt-streaked skin of her cheek, a whisper of a touch, gentle despite the storm raging inside him.

“We gotta go,” he said, his voice low, rough with everything he wasn’t saying.

Jo barely nodded. Just enough to show she understood.

Arthur had only just hauled her to her feet when shouts rang out from the treeline, the crack of rifles splitting the air. She swayed for half a second, her legs weak beneath her, but she forced herself to stay upright.

Arthur whirled, his grip on his rifle tightening as he shifted instantly, instinctively, into defender , into shield .

Jo barely flinched.

Because she knew exactly who Arthur Morgan was.

He was the man who had come for her.

And she trusted him to get her out.

Smoke curled in the air, thick and acrid, mixing with the metallic scent of blood and the sharp tang of gunpowder. The fire from the refinery still raged in the distance, casting flickering shadows across the clearing, throwing everything into shifting light and darkness.

Arthur barely registered any of it.

His focus was razor-sharp, locked on the wave of soldiers pouring in from the edges of camp, their rifles gleaming in the firelight, their boots pounding against the dry earth.

He moved without thinking.

His rifle kicked against his shoulder, each shot precise, cutting through the chaos with deadly efficiency. One man dropped, then another. A third barely had time to raise his weapon before Arthur put a bullet through his chest.

More were coming.

They had to move.

Jo was already ahead, following Dutch as he carried Javier. She was keeping up— barely .

Arthur caught flashes of her in his periphery, the way she pushed herself forward despite her body screaming against it, her steps unsteady but determined.

She was hurting. Bad .

He could see it in the way she held herself, the stiffness in her shoulders, the barely-contained wince every time her foot hit uneven ground.

But she didn’t stop.

Didn’t hesitate.

Arthur didn’t expect anything less.

Still, every second that passed with her out there— exposed, vulnerable —made something cold coil deep in his gut.

Another soldier appeared from the smoke, aiming his rifle toward her—

Arthur didn’t think.

Didn’t hesitate.

He swung his gun and fired before the bastard could even line up his shot. The bullet tore through the man’s neck, sending him crumpling to the ground in a heap.

Jo didn’t look back.

She couldn’t afford to.

Arthur turned, keeping pace, his heart hammering against his ribs.

Dutch wasn’t slowing, but Arthur could see the strain in his movements now. Carrying Javier’s dead weight was taking its toll, slowing him down, leaving them all too damn exposed.

And the soldiers weren’t letting up.

Arthur ducked behind a pile of crates, reloading as more men emerged from the shadows, their voices raised in urgent Spanish. The gunfire didn’t stop. Bullets whizzed past, kicking up dirt, splintering wood, tearing through the walls of the nearby buildings.

If she had her gun, she’d help him.

But her holster had been lost in the storm, her weapons stripped from her when she was dragged into this hell. Right now, she was more of a liability than anything else. And that— that —was a hard pill to swallow.

Arthur could handle it.

She knew he could handle it.

So she ran.

Dutch led them around the large building, moving fast despite Javier’s dead weight. The ground beneath them was uneven, thick with exposed roots and scattered debris. Jo stumbled twice, catching herself at the last second, her breath hitching each time her back jolted.

A sharp curse left Dutch’s lips as a bullet whined past them, kicking up dust at their feet.

Jo turned her head just in time to see Arthur fire another shot over his shoulder, not even slowing down, his expression locked in quiet, controlled fury.

Another soldier hit the ground.

But more were coming.

Too many.

Arthur gritted his teeth, stepping back as he fired another shot, but the press of bodies was increasing. Fussar’s men were flooding in from the camp, moving in a coordinated wave.

Arthur could keep them off— for now .

But even he wasn’t invincible.

Dutch must have realized it too.

Dutch gritted his teeth, skidding to a stop. He barely hesitated before shifting Javier’s weight, lowering him carefully to the ground.

Jo blinked, her breath still coming hard as she stopped beside them. “Dutch—”

“Help him,” Dutch ordered, straightening, already reaching for his pistol.

Jo stumbled slightly, catching herself before she fell to her knees beside Javier.

She didn’t argue.

Didn’t protest.

But as Arthur reloaded his rifle, crouched behind a crate, he could see it—the way her hands clenched into fists, the tightness in her jaw.

She hated this.

Hated being forced to sit still, to wait , to depend on someone else to fight for her. He knew it went against every damn instinct she had.

But she also knew she wouldn’t be any good in a fight right now.

Arthur was.

Dutch was.

So she did the only thing she could—she knelt beside Javier, gripping his arm as his unfocused eyes blinked open, his body leaning against her for support.

Arthur turned back toward the oncoming soldiers, his grip tightening on his rifle as Dutch stepped up beside him.

The odds weren’t good.

There were too many of them, the sheer number of bodies flooding the camp making it impossible to take them all down before reinforcements arrived.

Arthur clenched his jaw, taking aim.

Fine.

They’d just have to cut through them fast .

A soldier charged forward, rifle raised. Arthur dropped him with a shot to the chest, then spun, catching another in the shoulder before Dutch finished him off.

Jo, still crouched beside Javier, forced herself to breathe evenly.

She hated this.

Hated sitting still while the fight raged around her. Hated hearing the bullets fly and knowing she wasn’t the one firing them.

But more than anything—

She hated this place.

This camp , these cages, the fields, the blood-soaked dirt beneath her feet.

She needed to get out .

Needed to be free .

And the only way that was happening was if Arthur and Dutch got them the hell out of here.

So she swallowed her frustration.

And she waited.

Because she trusted Arthur Morgan with her life.

And she knew—

He wouldn’t let her down.

The air was thick with smoke and the sharp bite of burning sugar, but there was no time to stop, no time to breathe. Arthur’s rifle bucked against his shoulder, each shot ringing out like thunder in the night, cutting down the soldiers that dared to come too close.

Dutch moved. “There’s more coming,” he barked. His breath was ragged, but his pace didn’t slow. “I’ll grab Javier—you shoot us some space, Arthur.”

Arthur didn’t answer. He didn’t need to.

His rifle cracked, the bullet hitting its mark. A soldier fell.

Another took his place.

Arthur fired again, the man jerking back as blood sprayed across the dirt.

Dutch didn’t wait.

“Alright, let’s get the hell out of here! Follow me!”

Jo didn’t hesitate.

She pushed herself forward, every muscle in her body screaming in protest, her steps uneven, her legs still weak. But she moved, ignoring the sharp pull of pain in her back, the exhaustion weighing down on her limbs like chains.

Arthur followed close behind, his presence like a wall of steel at her back.

Bullets tore through the air, kicking up dirt around them, splintering the wooden fence as they sprinted past the last row of shacks.

The sugar cane fields.

Tall, dense stalks of green and gold stretched out before them, rustling like a sea in the wind. The thick crop offered cover, but it also slowed them down, the stalks grabbing at their clothes, the uneven ground making each step harder.

Dutch led them deeper into the field, pushing forward without hesitation.

Arthur stayed at the rear, rifle still raised, still shooting , still protecting .

Jo ran.

Her breath came hard and fast, the sharp scent of cut sugar filling her lungs with every gasping inhale. The leaves sliced against her skin as she pushed through, the ground uneven beneath her bare feet, her body burning with effort.

And as she ran, memories surfaced like ghosts in the dark.

This place—

It was the same.

The same endless rows. The same biting sun. The same goddamn smell of sugar and sweat and suffering.

The same place she had been trapped in.

Where she had been forced to work until her arms ached, her hands bled, her legs trembled beneath her.

Where the whip had cut across her back, sharp and merciless, for every moment of rest she dared to take.

Where she had watched men collapse beside her, their bodies too broken, too tired to move. Where she had heard the cries of women forced to keep going even when their bodies had long since failed them.

She could still feel it—the weight of the machete in her hands, the heat pressing against her skin, the lashes burning into her back.

Jo clenched her jaw.

She wasn’t in that camp anymore.

She wasn’t on her knees, wasn’t shackled, wasn’t at the mercy of a man with a whip in his hand and cruelty in his eyes.

She was running .

Running toward freedom.

She forced her body to move faster, ignoring the way her lungs burned, the way her back screamed in protest.

Dutch’s voice cut through the rustling stalks ahead. “Head down towards the river!”

Jo barely registered his words, her mind still clawing its way out of the memories threatening to drag her under.

She had spent days trapped in this nightmare.

Now, she was getting out.

For good.

Arthur’s gunfire rang out behind her, loud and constant, a steady rhythm that meant he was still there, still covering them, still fighting.

She didn’t need to look back to know he was keeping her safe.

A bullet whizzed past Arthur’s ear, so close he swore he felt the heat of it.

Before he could react, a guard barreled into him, knocking him off balance. He grunted, his boots skidding against the muddy ground as the two of them grappled, the soldier’s weight slamming into him like a damn bull. Arthur twisted, trying to shake him off, but the bastard was relentless, fingers clawing at Arthur’s coat, trying to force him down.

Jo skidded to a halt.

She should have kept running. Should have kept moving toward freedom. But the sight of Arthur struggling—the sheer instinct to protect him—took over before logic had the chance.

She cared. Cared too damn much to leave him behind.

And that thought alone was enough to propel her forward.

She turned on her heel, sprinting back the way she came.

Arthur didn’t see her at first, too busy wrestling against the guard, his breath coming in harsh, ragged bursts as he fought to keep the man’s hands away from his throat. The soldier landed a hard blow to Arthur’s ribs, knocking the air from his lungs. Arthur staggered, teeth clenched, his grip faltering for just a second—

Then Jo crashed into them.

She hit the soldier with everything she had, her shoulder slamming into his side, sending them both stumbling. Mud splattered as they hit the ground hard, Jo rolling off him, panting.

The guard recovered fast, reaching for his rifle, but Jo wasn’t about to let him. She lunged, grabbing at the barrel, using her weight to push it away from Arthur, buying him the precious seconds he needed.

Arthur didn’t hesitate.

He yanked his rifle up and pulled the trigger.

The gunshot echoed through the fields, the force of it making Jo flinch. The guard’s body slumped, lifeless, blood mixing with the rain-soaked dirt beneath them.

Arthur reached for Jo, his hand wrapping firmly around her arm, hauling her up before she could even catch her breath.

“What the hell’re you doin’ coming back here?” His voice was rough, breathless, more panic than anger.

She wrenched her arm free, shaking her head. “I couldn’t leave you!”

“Goddamn fool,” Arthur muttered under his breath, but there was something else there too—something raw in the way he looked at her, his jaw tight, his hand still hovering near her arm like he wasn’t sure whether to shake her or hold on tighter.

The moment was cut short by another round of gunfire.

Arthur shoved Jo ahead of him. “Go!”

She hesitated for only a second before sprinting forward, catching up to Dutch, who was already moving through the dense underbrush, his pace relentless.

Arthur stayed behind, his rifle swinging up as he turned back toward the chaos.

The guards were coming.

More than before.

Their shouts carried over the fire, their boots pounding against the earth as they closed in.

Arthur didn’t think—he just reacted.

His rifle kicked against his shoulder as he fired, his bullets finding their marks. A soldier crumpled against the nearest tree, another hit the ground with a strangled yell. But they just kept coming, more emerging from the camp.

Arthur reloaded fast, his breath coming in sharp bursts. He knew he had to move, had to catch up with the others—but he wouldn’t let them get gunned down from behind.

Not after everything.

So he fired again. And again.

Somewhere ahead, Dutch and Jo were running—Dutch barking orders, Jo pushing herself forward despite the wounds that already slowed her down.

Arthur’s jaw clenched.

He had to get to them.

There were too many of them.

Arthur pushed himself forward, his breath coming rough and uneven as he broke into a full sprint. The sugar cane stalks whipped at his arms, their sharp edges slicing against his skin, but he didn’t slow. He had to catch up—had to make sure Jo and Dutch weren’t too far ahead.

Ahead of him, Dutch’s pace faltered as they reached a steep incline. He let out a sharp breath, struggling to carry Javier’s weight on his back. Jo surged past him, her movements unsteady but determined, pushing forward with everything she had left.

“Let’s get across the river!” Dutch called over his shoulder, his voice strained. “We can hold them off from there!”

Jo didn’t hesitate. She reached the rushing water first, wading in without looking back. The current swirled around her legs, her bare feet struggling for purchase on the slippery rocks beneath her feet.

Dutch followed, shifting Javier’s weight as he pressed forward.

Arthur glanced behind him—more of Fussar’s men were closing in, their rifles raised, their shouts barely audible over the pounding of his pulse in his ears. He turned back just in time to see Dutch making it to the other side.

“Is he okay?” Arthur called, his voice rough as he stomped into the river, the cold water surging against him.

“He’s passed out,” Dutch gritted out, adjusting Javier on his back.

Arthur’s jaw tensed. “Or dead…”

But there wasn’t time to dwell on that—not now. Not when bullets were kicking up water around them, not when they still had a chance to escape.

Arthur reached the other side just as Dutch turned to him, urgency flashing in his eyes. “I’ll get them outta here. You stay here—take care of these fools for a bit.”

Arthur barely nodded before Dutch was already moving.

“No problem,” Arthur called after him. “Go, quick!”

Dutch didn’t hesitate. With Javier still slumped against him, he disappeared into the dense jungle ahead. Jo followed, but not without a last glance over her shoulder.

Arthur caught it.

The way she hesitated. The way she almost slowed her steps.

She didn’t want to leave him behind.

But she had to.

She knew that staying there without a weapon, without any way to defend herself, would only make things worse. She’d be a distraction, a reason for Arthur to divide his focus.

So she turned, forcing herself to follow Dutch.

Hoping Arthur would return.

Arthur dug his boots into the mud, pressing his back against the jagged boulder that offered him what little cover he had. His fingers curled tight around his rifle, his knuckles white as he raised the barrel over the rock, his sharp eyes scanning the field.

They were coming.

Some of Fussar’s men had taken higher ground, their figures silhouetted against the afternoon sun as they perched on the cliffs overlooking the river. Others waded through the water, their weapons clutched tight, their faces hard with purpose.

Arthur set his jaw.

Fine.

If they wanted a fight, he’d give them one.

His breath steadied. His muscles coiled, his body a perfect balance of tension and control. The furrow of his brow deepened, his gaze narrowed in ruthless focus.

A bullet whizzed past his shoulder, close enough that he could feel the heat of it slice through the humid air.

He didn’t flinch.

Didn’t even blink.

He just fired.

The first shot hit one of the bastards on the cliff, sending his body tumbling into the underbrush below. Another pulled his trigger too late, Arthur’s bullet already tearing through his throat before he could let out a scream.

Arthur pivoted, shifting his weight as he lined up another shot. His boots slid against the damp ground, but his stance held firm. His expression remained cold, unyielding, as he took down one soldier after the next.

His bullets weren’t just for survival.

They were for vengeance.

For Javier, left bleeding and broken, dragged through the dirt like he was nothing.

For Jo.

For what they had done to her.

Arthur hadn’t said anything about it—not yet. There hadn’t been time. But he’d seen the wounds on her back, the raw, torn flesh beneath the fabric of her ruined shirt.

He wasn’t a fool.

He knew exactly what had caused them.

A whip.

Some bastard had whipped her.

And they were all going to pay for it.

Arthur’s grip tightened around his rifle, his breath coming faster now, rage surging through his veins like fire.

They had tried to break her.

They would have never succeeded.

Jo wasn’t someone who broke.

But the fact that they had even tried had already signed their death warrants.

Arthur fired again.

And again.

One after another, the soldiers fell, their bodies collapsing into the river, their blood turning the water dark. The last of them barely had time to reach for his gun before Arthur’s bullet punched through his chest, dropping him where he stood.

Silence fell.

Arthur exhaled, his shoulders rising and falling with the force of it.

It was over.

For now.

But he couldn’t stay.

He knew more of them would come, drawn by the gunfire, by the bodies left behind. He had to move—had to catch up.

He turned, breaking into a run.

His boots pounded against the ground, his muscles burning from exhaustion, from the weight of everything that had just happened.

Hercule’s fort wasn’t near.

But it wasn’t on the other side of the island either.

So he pushed forward.

Not just for the sake of survival.

Not just to escape.

But to see her again.

 


 

Arthur moved forward, one step at a time, his body aching with every motion.

The jungle was dense, the humid air thick in his lungs, each breath laced with the scent of damp earth and salt carried on the wind. The sun had dipped lower in the sky, casting long golden streaks through the trees, painting the world in hues of amber and crimson.

But Arthur barely noticed.

His mind was elsewhere.

He pushed through the jungle, his boots sinking slightly into the damp soil as he trudged forward, muscles burning, exhaustion weighing heavy on his limbs. The adrenaline that had carried him through the fight was fading, leaving only the dull ache of fatigue behind. But he didn’t stop.

Couldn’t.

Not until he saw her again.

Not until he reached her.

The jungle thinned, giving way to open air, and soon he found himself walking along the coastline. The rhythmic crash of waves against the shore was the only sound accompanying his footsteps. The wind picked up, cooler here, sweeping off the ocean and cutting through the lingering heat of the day.

The fort stood ahead, its stone walls weathered but sturdy, perched on the edge of the island like a silent sentinel. And there—

Arthur slowed.

She stood near the edge of the fort, her back to him, gazing out over the vast expanse of the ocean. The wind played with her hair, lifting loose strands, letting them drift like golden threads against the dying light of the sun.

She was still standing.

Despite everything—despite what had been done to her, despite the suffering, the exhaustion, the pain—she was still here. Still strong.

Arthur exhaled slowly, something in his chest tightening at the sight of her.

He had never doubted her strength. Never doubted that if anyone could survive what she had endured, it was her.

But seeing her now, framed against the endless horizon, was something else entirely.

She was free.

His boots scuffed against the stone as he stepped forward.

Jo tensed.

Even now, she was ready to fight, her body reacting before her mind could catch up. Her shoulders squared, her fingers curled slightly, the tension in her stance sharp and ready.

Then she turned—

Her sharp gaze met his.

Arthur barely had time to register the flicker of recognition in her eyes before her posture softened.

A small smile tugged at her lips. Subtle, almost hesitant. But real.

And for the first time in what felt like forever, Arthur breathed.

She was here.

Standing before him, alive, whole—even if bruised and battered, even if exhaustion clung to her like a second skin. His chest tightened at the sight of her, at the way the golden light of the sunset framed her face, casting shadows beneath her tired eyes, highlighting the sharp angles of her jaw, the dried blood at her temple.

She looked worn. But not broken.

Never broken.

For a moment, neither of them moved.

Jo’s gaze flickered over him, scanning him the way he was scanning her, searching for wounds, for answers, for proof that the other had made it through. The small smile that had started to tug at her lips faltered, like she wanted to say something but couldn’t quite find the words.

Arthur swallowed hard.

He had imagined this moment.

Imagined what he’d say if he found her alive.

But now, standing in front of her, all those words—every goddamn one of them—vanished.

He took another step forward, slow, cautious, like he was afraid she might disappear if he moved too fast.

Jo didn’t step back.

Didn’t waver.

Her eyes stayed on him, searching, waiting.

Then, finally, she spoke.

“You’re late.”

Arthur huffed out something between a laugh and a breath, shaking his head.

“Yeah… well,” he rasped, voice rough from the long day, from the fight, from the weight of everything. “Had a couple things slow me down.”

Jo tilted her head slightly, her lips pressing together, but the ghost of that smile remained.

He should’ve said something more. Should’ve told her how damn relieved he was, how the sight of her in that cage had nearly wrecked him. How he hadn’t stopped thinking about her since the storm.

Instead, he reached out.

Just enough for his fingers to brush against hers.

It was barely a touch, light and fleeting, but Jo sucked in a sharp breath, and Arthur felt it too—a jolt, like something snapping back into place.

Jo’s fingers curled, gripping his, rough and calloused and familiar. She didn’t pull him closer, didn’t squeeze too tight, but she didn’t let go either.

Arthur cleared his throat, glancing down at their hands before looking back at her, his voice quieter now.

“You alright?”

She huffed softly, shaking her head. “Not even close.”

Arthur swallowed, his thumb absently tracing along the edge of her hand.

“I saw,” he murmured.

Jo stiffened.

For a second, she didn’t react—but then her grip on him loosened, just slightly. She turned her head, looking away, toward the ocean, toward the horizon, the wind catching in her hair.

Arthur exhaled through his nose, jaw clenching.

He had seen the wounds on her back. Had seen the way she refused to lean against anything, the way her movements were slower, more deliberate.

And it fucking killed him.

He wanted to tell her he was sorry.

That if he had known, if he had been there sooner, he would have burned that whole goddamn island down for what they had done to her.

But Jo wasn’t looking for sympathy.

She never did.

So instead, Arthur just stepped closer, closing the last bit of space between them. He could feel the heat of her skin, could see the way her throat bobbed as she swallowed.

“I thought—” he started, but his voice caught. He shook his head, exhaling hard. “Thought I’d lost you.”

Jo finally looked at him again.

And that’s when he saw it—the exhaustion, the pain, the relief.

But she didn’t break.

She just lifted her chin, her expression soft but unwavering. “You didn’t.”

Arthur let out a breath, and before he could stop himself, before he could overthink it—

He pulled her against him.

The second his arms wrapped around her, she stiffened—just for a fraction of a second, just long enough for him to realize— her back.

Shit.

Arthur loosened his hold instantly, his body tensing as he tried to adjust, as he tried to find some way to pull her close without hurting her. But Jo was already moving, already shifting against him, tucking herself into his chest with a quiet, shuddering breath.

She didn’t care.

Didn’t care about the pain, didn’t care about the way the fresh wounds on her back must have burned like fire with every movement. She just pressed against him, her fingers gripping the front of his shirt, bunching the fabric in her fists like she was afraid he’d disappear if she let go.

Arthur exhaled, steadying himself.

Careful now—gentle.

He let one hand settle at the nape of her neck, his fingers threading into her tangled hair, keeping her close. The other hovered just above her back, not quite touching, aching to hold her properly but knowing he couldn’t.

Jo had been through enough.

The last thing he wanted to do was add to her pain.

But Christ, he needed this.

Needed to feel her here, alive, real.

His breath was uneven, his heart pounding as she buried her face against him, her warm breath fanning against his throat. The wind tugged at them both, carrying the scent of the ocean, of salt and rain and blood and gunpowder, but Arthur didn’t care.

The world could crumble around them, and he wouldn’t move.

Jo was shaking, just barely. Maybe from exhaustion, maybe from the weight of everything she had been through, but she wasn’t weak. No, she was stronger than any person had a right to be.

Arthur swallowed hard, tilting his head down just enough for his chin to brush against the top of her head.

“I got you,” he murmured, voice rough, barely more than a breath.

Jo didn’t say anything.

Didn’t need to.

Her hands tightened in his shirt, her body sinking into him, and Arthur knew—knew that this meant something.

That no matter how much distance had been between them before, no matter how many fights, how many damn things unsaid—

They were here now.

And neither of them was letting go.

Arthur’s hand twitched above her back, his fingers aching to smooth over the curve of her spine, to soothe what he couldn’t fix. Instead, he lifted it to her shoulder, brushing his thumb along her collarbone, grounding her.

Grounding himself.

For the first time in days, maybe even weeks—

He wasn’t fighting.

He wasn’t running.

He was just here.

With her.

And he wasn’t going anywhere.

Chapter 32: By Blood and Gunfire

Chapter Text

The first cannon blast struck like a thunderclap, rattling the very bones of the fort.

The wooden beams groaned, dust and debris shaking loose from the ceiling as the walls trembled under the force of the impact. Somewhere outside, men shouted—orders, warnings, panic mixing with the rising roar of destruction.

Arthur barely had time to register the sound before another blast hit. The floor beneath him shuddered violently, the table where Dutch and Hercule had been leaning over their maps rocking on uneven legs. One of the lanterns overhead swung wildly, its dim flame casting erratic shadows across the stone walls.

For a split second, everything stilled—just long enough for Arthur to lift his gaze across the room.

Jo had already turned toward him, her hazel eyes wide, sharp, searching. Dust clung to her skin, her fingers curled slightly at her sides, tension coiled in her frame. 

Another blast struck, this one closer, the force of it sending a violent tremor through the floor.

“Mon Dieu,” Hercule muttered, his fingers braced against the edge of the table to keep steady. “That would be the warship.”

“Goddammit,” Arthur growled under his breath.

Dutch straightened, shaking out his coat, his expression unreadable. “Well… looks like they didn’t take too kindly to our escape.”

Arthur’s jaw tightened.

No shit.

Another cannon blast rocked the fort, shaking the walls with such force that dust rained from the ceiling. The air smelled of salt and gunpowder, the distant cries of men outside signaling that the fight had already begun.

Arthur was moving before he had time to think, slinging his rifle over his shoulder, his muscles coiling with readiness. The others were already pushing toward the doors—Bill, Micah, even Dutch, barking orders as he strode out into the chaos.

But Jo—

Jo was still there.

Arthur turned just in time to see her reaching for a rifle, her jaw set, her posture tense.

“No,” he said sharply, stepping toward her.

She barely spared him a glance. “I ain’t sittin’ around while we’re under attack.”

“You ain’t fightin’,” Arthur snapped back, his voice low but firm. “Not like this.”

She squared her shoulders, eyes flashing. “I can still shoot.”

Arthur clenched his jaw, fighting the urge to rub at his temple. “And who’s gonna watch Javier, huh? He sure as hell ain’t gonna be pickin’ off soldiers from the damn roof.”

Jo hesitated, just for a second, glancing toward where Javier lay against the wall, his face drawn tight with pain. He wasn’t unconscious, but he wasn’t far from it. His leg was useless, his skin still clammy from fever.

Arthur pressed the advantage.

“You stay here. Keep him safe.”

Jo exhaled sharply through her nose, her fingers tightening around the rifle as if she was debating whether or not to listen.

Outside, another explosion rattled the walls.

Arthur let out a slow breath, then leveled her with a look. “Stay,” he ordered, his voice rough but leaving no room for argument.

“But—” she started, irritation creeping into her tone.

Arthur cut her off before she could get another word in.

“I know you’re a strong, independent woman,” he muttered, exasperation clear in his voice. “But shut up now. I’ll take care of it.”

Jo’s eyes narrowed, her lips parting as if she might still argue, but then—

She huffed.

Tossed the rifle onto the table harder than necessary.

Then crossed her arms, shifting her weight to one side, resentment simmering beneath the surface.

Arthur almost smirked.

Almost.

Instead, he just reached out, brushing his fingers lightly against her arm—just once, a fleeting touch, grounding, reassuring. “I’ll be back.”

And then he was gone, pushing through the doors, stepping out into the storm of battle.

Jo stayed behind.

But that didn’t mean she had to like it.

 


 

Arthur stepped outside, the thick, humid air immediately pressing down on him. Smoke already hung in the wind, mixing with the sharp scent of gunpowder and the salt of the ocean. The setting sun cast the battlefield in shades of gold and blood, illuminating the figures scrambling into position along the fort’s crumbling defenses.

He barely made it a few steps before another cannon blast split the air.

The impact hit somewhere to their left, sending up a plume of shattered stone and debris. Arthur ducked his head, his jaw tight as he kept moving, slipping into place beside Bill, Dutch, and Micah along the wall.

His hands worked on instinct, rifle swinging forward, fingers checking the chamber.

But his mind—

His mind was still inside that fort.

He didn’t like how he had just ordered her to stay.

Didn’t like telling Jo what to do.

It had never sat right with him. She was stubborn as hell, independent to a fault, and the last thing she ever took kindly to was being treated like she couldn’t hold her own.

But his will to protect her had been stronger than his will to preserve her damn ego.

And he couldn’t bring himself to regret that.

He could still see her standing there, resentment flashing in her eyes, her fingers curling into fists. Could still feel the tension in the air between them, thick with frustration.

She was gonna let him hear about that later.

If they made it through this.

A sharp whistle from behind them snapped Arthur back to the moment.

“Hercule’s getting the cannons ready!” someone shouted from the upper ledge of the fort.

Good. They were gonna need them.

Arthur turned, shifting into place beside Bill, who was already bracing his rifle against the stone ledge, cursing under his breath.

The massive vessel Fussar had called in from Cuba loomed just beyond the bay, its iron hull cutting through the waves, the long barrels of its cannons gleaming in the fading sunlight. Soldiers lined the deck, scrambling into position, preparing another round of fire that would tear the fort apart piece by piece.

Arthur gritted his teeth as he lined up his sights, the chaos of the battle swelling around him like the tide. The air was thick with the acrid scent of gunpowder, the roar of cannon fire rattling his bones.

“Morgan, shoot them men!” Bill barked, his voice cutting through the chaos.

Arthur didn’t need to be told twice. He already had his rifle raised, sights set on the soldiers scrambling up the beach below. They were coming fast, weapons glinting in the last light of the setting sun, their uniforms stark against the sand.

“Shoot them, the fellers on the beach!” Bill repeated, frustration creeping into his voice.

“I see them,” Arthur shot back, squeezing the trigger. His rifle cracked, sending one of the soldiers tumbling down the hill. He cocked the lever, fired again, another man dropping near the water’s edge.

A fresh wave of gunfire erupted from the enemy, bullets pinging off the stone walls of the fort, chipping away at their cover.

“We got more coming at us on the right!” someone shouted.

Arthur turned his sights, shifting his aim toward the hillside, where another group of soldiers was making their way up through the dense brush.

“Why the hell are we doing this?!” Micah’s voice cut through the gunfire, laced with anger and irritation. “This ain’t our fight!”

Arthur didn’t need to look to know the bastard wasn’t pulling his weight.

“Do you want to get off this island or not?” Hercule shot back, voice dripping with sarcasm as he loaded another round into the cannon.

“He’s using us!” Micah snapped, but he kept firing, though Arthur suspected he was doing more talking than shooting.

“Just shoot, Micah!” Dutch barked at him, his own revolvers blazing as another wave of enemy soldiers stormed the left flank.

Arthur ground his teeth, shoving down the irritation clawing at his chest.

This was bad.

Real bad.

The warship was still out there, looming like a goddamn specter of death, and the men just kept coming.

If they didn’t end this fast, they weren’t getting off this damn island alive.

 


 

Inside the dimly lit stone room, Jo barely had a moment to steady her breath before the next blast rocked the fort. The ground beneath her trembled violently, the sound of the cannon’s impact so loud it felt as if it had cracked the air itself.

Dust exploded from the ceiling, raining down in thick clouds, coating her skin, stinging her eyes. Loose stones dislodged and tumbled down from above, some hitting the floor with sharp cracks, others shattering into smaller pieces.

For a fleeting, terrifying second, she thought the whole damn place was coming down on top of them.

She coughed against the dust, turning sharply toward Javier, who was still slumped where they’d left him.

“Javier!” she called, reaching for his arm, shaking him roughly.

Nothing. His head lolled slightly, but he was still too out of it, too weak.

Another tremor shook the walls. A bigger chunk of stone crashed down near them, shattering on the floor just a few feet away. Jo flinched but didn’t let go of Javier.

“Come on, wake up! You have to wake up now.”

Javier groaned weakly, but his eyes remained shut.

Jo’s jaw clenched. She had no time for this.

She grabbed his face with both hands, forcing him to look at her.

“Javier! You listening?” she snapped, her voice firm despite the tightness in her throat. “I need you to move. I need you to try. Because I sure as hell ain’t dragging you out of here alone.”

His eyelids fluttered, and a sluggish sound of acknowledgment rumbled in his throat. It wasn’t much, but it was enough.

More debris fell, and she instinctively shielded him with her arm. She didn’t know how long the fort could take these hits, but she wasn’t about to wait around and find out.

“Alright, up.” She shifted, slinging his arm over her shoulders. The weight of him nearly knocked her off balance, but she dug her heels in, gritting her teeth as she pulled him upright.

Javier let out a sharp groan, his body stiff with pain, but he managed to stagger onto his good leg.

“That’s it,” she encouraged, even as her own knees screamed in protest. “Just stay with me.”

Another explosion rocked the fort. The impact sent cracks splitting through the ceiling.

Jo clenched her jaw, adjusting her grip around Javier’s waist.

The moment Jo pushed forward, she knew this was going to be a fight against time. The ground trembled beneath her feet, another cannon blast shaking the very bones of the fort. More stones rained from the ceiling, some bouncing harmlessly off the floor, others crashing down hard enough to split apart on impact. Every sharp crack of falling debris made her stomach tighten, the thought of being buried alive gnawing at the edges of her mind.

She gritted her teeth and pressed on, keeping one arm locked tightly around Javier’s waist. His weight bore down on her, heavy and unsteady, but she couldn’t let him collapse now. Not when every second counted.

“Come on, Javier, you gotta help me here,” she grunted, practically hauling him forward. His good leg stumbled in rhythm with hers, but he was sluggish, barely able to move under his own power.

A cloud of dust swirled up as another section of the wall crumbled behind them. It filled her lungs, burned her throat. She coughed hard, her eyes stinging, but she didn’t dare stop.

Another boom. Another violent quake beneath their feet.

The hallway ahead was barely visible through the haze of dust and smoke. She squinted against it, her vision blurred as fine powder coated her lashes. A sharp sting made her blink rapidly, trying to clear her eyes, but it did little good.

She cursed under her breath, shaking her head to force herself to focus.

“Jo,” Javier rasped beside her, his voice hoarse, barely audible over the destruction around them.

“I know,” she muttered, adjusting her grip on him as they staggered forward. “I know. We’re almost there.”

A sudden snap above them made her instincts scream. She didn’t hesitate—she yanked Javier sideways, just as a large slab of stone crashed down where they’d been standing a second before. The impact sent dust exploding outward, momentarily blinding her.

She coughed violently, throat raw, lungs burning. But she couldn’t stop.

“Move, move,” she urged, forcing her legs to carry them forward. Javier groaned in pain, but at least he was moving.

The arched doorway leading outside was just ahead, framed by the flickering light of the fires burning beyond it. The air smelled of gunpowder and sea salt, heavy with the acrid scent of battle.

Another impact. More debris tumbled from above. A jagged piece of stone struck Jo’s shoulder hard enough to make her wince, but she didn’t slow down.

Just a few more steps.

Her legs burned, her back ached under Javier’s weight, but she pushed through it.

Finally, they reached the doorway. Jo all but shoved them both through it, stumbling into the open air just as another section of the fort groaned ominously behind them.

She didn’t stop moving. Couldn’t.

She dragged Javier forward, just far enough to escape the immediate danger, before her legs gave out and they both collapsed onto the uneven ground outside.

Jo coughed hard, trying to clear her lungs of dust, her vision swimming.

The sounds of battle raged ahead—gunfire, shouting, another cannon blast shaking the very earth beneath them.

But they were out.

They had made it.

Jo helped Javier settle against the wall, lowering him carefully onto the uneven stone. He let out a pained grunt, jaw clenched as he adjusted his bad leg. His face was pale in the flickering light of fire and gunpowder, sweat beading on his forehead, but he was alive. That was what mattered.

“Stay put,” she murmured, pushing his rifle toward him. “If someone comes this way, use this.”

Javier gave a weak, breathless chuckle. “I’ll try not to shoot myself in the damn foot.”

Jo smirked faintly, but the moment was short-lived. The next cannon blast sent another violent tremor through the fort, dust and rubble cascading from above. She turned toward the edge of the balcony, gripping the rough stone as she looked out over the battlefield below.

The sight stole her breath.

Arthur and the others were deep in the fight, gunfire flashing in rapid bursts across the terrain. From this height, she could see Fussar’s men pouring in from everywhere. Below, on the beach, even more swarmed up the hill, their movements frantic and chaotic as bullets tore through them.

And then there was the warship.

The hulking mass of metal and gunpowder loomed in the waters beyond the shore, its cannons flashing in the growing darkness. Every shot sent plumes of smoke and fire skyward, the impact rattling the very bones of the island.

Jo's hands clenched into fists.

There had to be something she could do.

She scanned the balcony, her eyes catching on a familiar shape just a few feet away. A cannon.

Her heart kicked against her ribs.

It was old, rusted in places, and had likely been here long before Hercule and his men took shelter in this fort. But it was still aimed at the sea—at the ship.

She sure as hell could try.

Without wasting another second, she moved. Dust and loose stone crunched beneath her feet as she crossed the balcony. The cannon was heavy, but the base still turned when she braced against it, shifting just enough to give her a clearer shot.

Her fingers found the fuse, rough against her skin.

She hesitated for only a moment, glancing back at Javier. “You still with me?”

He cracked an eye open, barely lifting his head. “What the hell are you doing?”

Jo turned back to the cannon. “Evening the odds.”

Her lips pressed into a firm line as she grabbed hold of the firing mechanism.

With a deep breath, she lit the fuse. The hiss of burning powder filled the air, sharp and fast.

Then the cannon roared.

 


 

Arthur ducked low behind a splintered crate as bullets whizzed overhead, the sharp crack of gunfire ringing in his ears. The bridge leading out of the fort was a goddamn mess—bodies littered the ground, some still writhing, others motionless. Smoke curled from gun barrels, and the scent of blood, gunpowder, and salt filled the air, thick and suffocating.

"Son of a bitch—" he growled under his breath, reloading as he peeked over the edge.

Men were still coming up from the hillside, their silhouettes shifting in the darkness, the glow of gunfire illuminating them in erratic bursts. Hercule was a few feet away, shouting orders as he worked to keep them at bay, while Dutch fired alongside him, shouting something Arthur couldn’t quite make out over the chaos.

Then, a sound cut through it all.

A cannon.

But it hadn’t come from the warship.

Arthur's head snapped toward the fort, instinct tightening in his chest.

And then he saw her.

Jo stood on the balcony, framed by smoke and fire, her form silhouetted against the deepening dusk. Her blonde hair was tousled, loose strands whipping in the wind as she maneuvered the cannon with sharp, deliberate movements. Her expression was hardened with focus, jaw set, eyes locked on the warship.

Arthur barely had time to process it before the cannon fired again.

The shot streaked through the night like a blazing comet, striking the side of the ship with a thunderous explosion. Wood and metal splintered apart on impact, flames bursting from the wound like a gaping maw. The warship rocked from the force, listing slightly as the damage spread.

Arthur let out a breath he hadn’t realized he was holding.

Damn her.

He had told her to stay inside. He had wanted to keep her safe. But here she was, standing against the odds, throwing herself into the fight like she always did. Stubborn, reckless, impossible woman.

And yet, a fierce swell of pride burned in his chest.

Of course she wasn’t going to sit back. That wasn’t who she was.

He gritted his teeth, shaking his head as he turned back toward the fight.

"Crazy damn woman," he muttered under his breath, before raising his rifle and firing again.

The warship, now wounded, roared in retaliation.

Arthur barely had time to register the cannon’s impact before a flash of fire erupted from the ship’s side. The air split with an ear-shattering boom, the force of the blast shaking the ground beneath his boots. His stomach clenched. The shot was aimed for the fort.

His head snapped back toward her just in time to see the explosion rip through the stone railing near the cannon. A cloud of dust and shattered rock erupted, debris raining down as Jo instinctively ducked behind what remained of the crumbling wall, shielding herself from the blast.

Arthur’s heart lurched.

"Shit," he muttered, already pushing off the crate he’d been using for cover.

"Arthur!" Hercule’s voice cut through the chaos, sharp and urgent. "We need to get to the cannon before they destroy it!"

Arthur didn't need to be told twice.

Together, they surged forward, weaving between bodies and bursts of gunfire. The bridge shook with the force of another cannon blast, sending shards of wood flying, but Arthur barely flinched. His focus was locked on the fort—on getting to Jo before another shot landed.

The closer they got, the clearer the scene became.

Javier was slumped against the wall near the balcony’s edge, his face pale and twisted in pain, his injured leg stretched out in front of him. But he was alive. Jo had gotten him out. That was all that mattered.

And then there was Jo.

She was already moving, scrambling across the balcony, searching for more ammunition. Dust and smoke clung to her skin, streaked through her golden hair, but she was undeterred, her movements sharp and desperate.

Another blast shook the fort, the impact so strong it nearly knocked Arthur off his feet. Jo stumbled but caught herself, her hands bracing against the cannon’s base before she continued searching.

Arthur felt something tight coil in his chest.

She was reckless. Damned reckless.

But God, she was unstoppable.

Arthur didn't slow as he pushed forward, ducking low as bullets whizzed past him. Another blast from the warship sent a tremor through the stone beneath his boots, but he didn’t stop—couldn’t stop.

Jo was still scrambling for ammunition, her hands moving frantically across the debris-littered balcony as she searched for another cannonball. Dust clung to her sweat-dampened skin, strands of blonde hair sticking to her face. Her breathing was hard, uneven, but her focus was unshaken.

Arthur swore under his breath, gripping his rifle tighter as he and Hercule finally reached the balcony.

Jo turned sharply, ready to fight—until her eyes landed on them.

She didn’t say anything, but her expression said enough. It was a mixture of determination and exhaustion, of relief and defiance, as if she expected Arthur to yell at her but dared him to do so.

Arthur let out a breath, chest heaving. “Dammit, Jo—”

“There ain't time,” she cut in, already turning back toward the cannon. “Help me find more ammo.”

Arthur ran a hand down his face, biting back his frustration. She was right—there wasn’t time to argue, not with that warship still looming over them, ready to tear them apart.

Hercule had already moved ahead, finding a stash of cannonballs near the wall. “Here!” he called, tossing one toward Arthur.

Arthur caught it with a grunt, hauling it over to Jo, who was already wiping debris off the cannon’s loading area. He handed it to her, his fingers brushing against hers briefly, dirt and blood mixing between their hands.

“You shouldn’t be out here,” he muttered, voice rough.

Jo huffed, lifting the heavy shot into the cannon. “You shouldn’t be out here either, but here we are.”

Arthur clenched his jaw but didn’t argue.

She pulled the ramrod back, setting the cannonball in place before adjusting the aim. Arthur glanced toward the warship—still firing, still advancing.

“Make it count,” he said, stepping back.

Jo exhaled, steadying herself as she reached for the cannon’s fuse. Her hands trembled slightly—whether from exhaustion, pain, or sheer adrenaline, Arthur didn’t know. But then she steeled herself, her expression hardening as she struck the fuse.

The cannon roared.

Arthur barely had time to shield his eyes as the blast erupted, sending a ripple of force through the air. The warship took the hit, the impact tearing through its deck in a fiery explosion.

For a moment, there was nothing but smoke, the scent of gunpowder thick in the air. Then—cheers.

Hercule let out a triumphant yell, punching the air as the warship faltered, its guns falling silent.

Arthur turned back to Jo.

She was gripping the side of the cannon for balance, her chest rising and falling heavily. Sweat dripped from her temple, but a small, satisfied smirk tugged at her lips as she watched the ship burn.

Arthur shook his head, something caught between exasperation and admiration.

“Stubborn damn woman,” he muttered under his breath.

Jo glanced at him, still breathless. “You’re welcome.”

Arthur exhaled a laugh, stepping closer, but before he could say anything more—another explosion rocked the fort.

The explosion hit like a thunderclap, rattling the fort beneath them. Arthur barely had time to brace before the force sent him stumbling back, his boots scraping against the dust-covered stone. His back hit the wall hard, knocking the breath from his lungs, but he forced himself forward, shaking off the ringing in his ears.

He looked toward Jo—she was already pushing herself up, her hands gripping the cannon as she steadied herself. No hesitation, no pause. Just sheer determination.

Arthur clenched his jaw, a mix of frustration and admiration burning in his chest. Damn her. Damn her for always throwing herself into the fire.

But what kind of fool did that make him for thinking she’d ever do anything else?

His grip tightened around the cannon’s handle as he stepped beside her, his body tense, still humming with adrenaline.

They worked fast, muscle memory and instinct driving them forward. Arthur hauled another cannonball into place while Jo adjusted the angle, her fingers smudged with soot and dirt.

“Reloading!” Hercule’s voice carried over the chaos, urgency sharpening every word.

Arthur didn’t need to be told twice. He struck the fuse. The cannon roared again, fire and smoke bursting from the barrel as the shot flew across the water.

It struck the warship dead-on.

The chimney cracked apart with a deafening explosion, metal groaning as fire engulfed the upper deck. Smoke poured from the ruptured engine, thick and black against the sky.

Arthur watched as the warship lurched, its structure groaning under the damage. A heartbeat passed—then another—before another explosion burst from within, tearing through its hull.

“Yes, they’re going down!” Hercule shouted, his voice triumphant. Around them, cheers echoed from the others—Dutch, Bill, Micah, and Hercule’s men, all gathered near the entrance of the fort, watching the ship begin its slow, inevitable descent.

Arthur exhaled, his body still tense as he caught his breath, his fists remained clenched, unwilling to loosen.

But then his gaze drifted sideways.

To Jo.

The golden light of the setting sun painted her skin, highlighting every bruise, every cut, every streak of blood and grime on her face. Her shirt was torn, her skin sunburnt, her body battle-worn—but none of that dulled the fire in her eyes.

That look of unwavering determination.

How foolish of him.

How damn foolish of him to have told her to stay inside. To have thought, even for a second, that she would let him face this without her.

Arthur swallowed hard, his heartbeat slowing as something settled deep within him—a realization that had been staring him in the face for far too long.

Jo wasn’t someone to be protected by being left behind.

She was someone to be fought beside.

With the warship sinking in the distance, smoke curling into the sky like a final death rattle, Arthur felt his shoulders ease for the first time in what felt like hours. Maybe days. The adrenaline was still pumping through his veins, but the moment he let out a slow breath, his body caught up with him—the aches, the exhaustion, the weight of every damn thing they had just survived.

Jo stood beside him, her hands resting against her thighs as she caught her breath. Her chest rose and fell, her shirt clinging to her sweat-damp skin, dust and ash streaking her face. The fight had taken its toll, but her eyes still held fire, sharp and focused, as they turned toward the others.

Down on the shore, Dutch was already making his way toward them, his pace confident as ever, like he hadn’t just led them all through hell. As soon as they reached him, he spread his arms wide, his voice carrying over the crash of the waves.

“That was quite some shooting, boys.”

Hercule smirked, shaking Dutch’s hand firmly. “Thank you.”

Arthur barely paid attention. His hands rested on his belt, his fingers idly brushing against the worn leather as his gaze flickered back toward the ocean, toward the remains of the ship still burning in the water. They had won.

If you could even call it that.

They weren’t safe. Not yet.

“What now?” Dutch asked, pulling his hand back.

“Oh, they’ll be back,” Hercule warned, nodding toward the jungle, the island, all of it—this wasn’t over for him, not by a long shot. “But, I found a boat for you…”

Arthur’s head snapped toward him at those words. He wasn’t the only one. The whole gang seemed to straighten, tension lifting just a fraction. A boat. That was the best damn news he’d heard in weeks.

Hercule continued, “And he should be arriving on the dock anytime now.”

Dutch’s lips pulled into a slow smile, relief flickering through his features. “Great.” Then, with that leader’s ease, he turned to the others, already barking orders. “Micah, go meet with the captain. If he’s amenable and discreet, tell him we’ll be ready to set sail soon.”

Micah grumbled under his breath but didn’t argue. He started off toward the dock, adjusting his shirt as he went.

Dutch then turned to Bill. “Bill, come help me collect poor old Javier.”

Bill gave a sharp nod, falling into step with him as they made their way back up toward where Javier was still recovering, beaten but alive.

Dutch cast one last glance at Hercule, tilting his head in gratitude. “Hercule, it was a great pleasure to make your acquaintance.”

Hercule chuckled, waving them off. 

Arthur sighed, rolling his shoulders as Dutch and Bill disappeared. That left him and Jo with nothing else to do but head for the docks, to wait for the boat that would take them home.

Home.

The word felt strange. The gang wasn’t what it used to be. And even once they left this island, nothing would ever be the same again.

But right now, Arthur would take whatever the hell he could get.

 


 

Night had fallen, and with it, a new load of problems.

Of course, leaving this wretched island proved to be far more difficult than it was supposed to be.

The air was thick with humidity, the scent of salt and damp earth clinging to their skin as they waited by the docks, restless and eager to leave. The sound of the waves crashing against the wooden piers should have been a promise of escape, but instead, it felt like a taunt.

Because they weren’t leaving. Not yet.

Fussar had discovered their real identities.

And to ensure they never set foot off this island alive, he had taken the captain of their boat hostage.

Arthur let out a sharp exhale, running a hand down his face as the weight of it all settled deep in his bones. They were so goddamn close. He could almost feel the sway of the boat beneath his feet, could almost taste the freedom of the open sea—but once again, it was ripped away.

Jo stood beside him, her jaw clenched tight, arms crossed as she processed the news Micah delivered them. The frustration was plain in her eyes, burning hot beneath the bruises and exhaustion. She didn’t say anything, but she didn’t have to.

Dutch, on the other hand, did.

“This feller is really beginning to try my patience,” he muttered under his breath, pacing a few steps away before turning back toward them, his hands settling on his hips. His expression was tight, his jaw clenched so hard that the muscles twitched beneath his skin.

"And he ain't even had you tortured yet," Arthur chimed in dryly, shifting his weight as he rolled his shoulders.

Micah let out an amused chuckle, the sound sharp in the humid night air. He adjusted the bag on his shoulder, his usual smirk playing at his lips. "I like the man's style. He's thorough, nasty and vindictive.” He paused, then gestured toward the bag. “However, in this instance, I don't see we got any alternative but we go and free our friendly captain and destroy the artillery.” He tugged the bag open slightly, just enough for the glint of dynamite to catch the light. 

Arthur eyed it for a second before snatching one of the sticks from inside. "For once, I agree with you," he muttered, his voice carrying that familiar, begrudging tone.

Jo agreed too—but there wasn’t a chance in hell she was ever going to say it out loud.

Dutch exhaled sharply, then turned toward Hercule, who had just returned to them, his rifle slung over his back. "Hercule?"

The man’s face was firm, set with unwavering resolve. "Oh, I'll fight Alberto Fussar every day I can," he said without hesitation.

That man had purpose, none could take him that. It was admirable.

"Alright," Dutch said, nodding decisively as his gaze swept over the group. Then, he turned to the others. “Bill, you're gonna guard our wounded on the ship here.”

Jo groaned before she could stop herself. Hadn’t they learned their lesson by now? Hadn’t she proven time and time again what happened when they left her out of the action? How resourceful she was? How much did she despise being left behind?

Dutch, either ignoring or purposefully dismissing her reaction, continued. “Micah, Arthur, let’s get to work. Hercule, we follow you.”

“En allez. This way,” Hercule ordered, his voice sharp and purposeful as he led them away.

Jo watched them disappear into the night, her hands clenching at her sides. Her jaw was tight, frustration simmering beneath her skin as Arthur’s figure got smaller and smaller in the distance until she could no longer see him.

With a sharp exhale, she turned back toward the ship. She took Javier’s arm and helped him step aboard, careful with his leg as he winced. Bill followed behind, muttering curses under his breath, likely as frustrated as she was about sitting this one out.

Javier settled as best he could against the wooden planks, leaning back with a heavy sigh. Bill let himself drop onto a crate, groaning as he rolled his shoulders. Jo stood there a moment, hands on her hips, feeling the restless energy stir inside her like a caged animal.

She hated waiting.

Hated knowing Arthur and the others were out there fighting for their freedom while she was stuck here, helpless.

Her feet started moving before she could think twice about it. She needed something—anything—to do. Something other than standing here, useless, letting her thoughts eat away at her.

As she wandered through the ship, her feet echoing softly against the wooden floor, she found herself in a narrow hallway. It wasn’t a large vessel—not a cargo ship or anything—but still big enough to have multiple rooms. Her fingers brushed against the peeling paint of the doorframes as she passed, scanning for something, anything useful.

Then, she found it. The captain’s quarters.

Slipping inside, she let her eyes adjust to the dim light. The air smelled of salt and old tobacco, the walls lined with shelves filled with nautical charts, logs, and various supplies. Her gaze swept the room, landing on a small wooden cabinet near the desk. Medicine. There had to be something in there.

She crouched down, prying it open with ease. And there it was—bandages, a few small bottles labeled in French, and even fresh clothes folded neatly beside them.

Jackpot.

Gathering what she could carry in her arms, she turned and made her way back to Javier and Bill. At least now, she could do something useful.

Jo returned to where Javier and Bill sat, her arms full of supplies. She dropped them onto a crate with a soft thud before crouching beside Javier, already sorting through what she had found.

“Alright, let’s see what we got,” she muttered, grabbing a small bottle of medicine and flipping it over in her hands. She couldn’t read much French, but she recognized the word for pain relief. Good enough.

Javier gave her a tired smirk, tilting his head slightly. “You steal from the captain, Chica ?”

“Borrowed,” Jo corrected, already uncorking the bottle. “If I get the chance, I’ll leave him a thank-you note.”

“Yeah, sure you will,” Bill grumbled from where he sat, arms crossed over his chest.

Jo ignored him, turning her attention back to Javier. “Drink this.” She pressed the bottle into his hand.

Javier took it with a skeptical glance. “You sure this won’t kill me?”

“You ain’t dead yet,” she quipped. “So I’d say your odds are lookin’ good.”

He huffed a quiet laugh before taking a sip, grimacing at the taste. "Dios, eso es asqueroso."

She moved on to his leg, unwrapping the crude bandage that had been hastily tied around his wound earlier. The fabric peeled away, revealing the angry, swollen gash beneath. The sight of it made her stomach tighten. The wound was deep, and in this heat, infection was a real danger.

Javier must have caught her expression because he sighed. “Looks worse than it is.”

“Yeah?” Jo shot him a look. “And what kind of doctor d’you see that told you that?”

Javier chuckled weakly. “Experience.”

Bill snorted. “That’s just a fancy way of sayin’ you don’t know shit.”

“Shut up, Bill.”

Jo shook her head and reached for the clean cloth she had taken, soaking it in a bit of water from her canteen before carefully dabbing at the wound. Javier sucked in a sharp breath, his fingers tightening around the bottle.

“Sorry,” she murmured.

“’S fine.”

The three of them fell into a tense silence, the only sounds being the distant crash of waves and the occasional muffled gunshot in the night. The others were still out there, fighting. Every second that passed gnawed at Jo’s nerves, but she forced herself to stay focused.

“You’re good at this,” Javier said after a moment, his voice quieter than before.

She glanced up at him. “What, patchin’ people up?”

He gave a small nod. “Yeah. Feels like you’ve done this before.”

Jo shrugged as she poured a bit of medicine onto the wound, earning a sharp hiss from him. "Had to learn quick with you men, gettin’ shot at all the time."

Javier exhaled a quiet chuckle. "Tienes razón… we do get shot at a lot."

Jo smirked. "Don’t sound so surprised."

"I’m not. Just don’t hear you talk much, is all."

She didn’t respond to that. Instead, she wrapped his leg with fresh bandages, tying it tightly to keep the wound clean.

Bill, who had been watching them with mild interest, stretched out his legs with a grunt. "Y’know, when I got shot, nobody fussed over me like this."

Jo rolled her eyes. "That’s ‘cause nobody likes you, Bill."

Bill scoffed. "Dutch likes me."

Javier chuckled. "Dutch tolerates you."

Jo finished tying off the bandage and leaned back, brushing dust from her hands. "There. That should hold for now."

Javier exhaled, some of the tension leaving his shoulders. "Gracias, Jo."

Once Javier was settled and as comfortable as he could be, Jo pushed herself up with a quiet grunt, rolling her stiff shoulders. She needed to move. Sitting still only made her body ache more, and with every second that passed, she felt the dull, throbbing pain in her back intensify.

She had ignored it long enough.

With a glance toward Javier and Bill, both of whom seemed too preoccupied with their own exhaustion to pay her any mind, she turned and slipped away, making her way toward the captain’s quarters.

The boat creaked beneath her feet as she moved, the old wood groaning against the tide. Jo barely noticed. Her mind was focused on one thing—dealing with the mess of torn flesh on her back.

The captain’s quarters were small but well-kept. The dim lantern light cast long shadows across the wooden walls, flickering as she stepped inside. She shut the door behind her, exhaling slowly before turning toward the small desk cluttered with maps, books, and—more importantly—bottles.

She needed to clean the wounds.

Standing before the mirror mounted on the wall, Jo reached down, gripping the tattered remains of her shirt. It was stiff with dried sweat and blood, clinging to her skin like a second layer.

She hesitated.

Then, with a sharp inhale, she ripped it away.

The fabric peeled from her back like torn flesh, and white-hot pain shot up her spine, forcing a strangled gasp from her lips. She staggered forward, bracing herself against the edge of the desk as her breath came in ragged bursts.

Goddamn, that hurt.

Jaw clenched, she blinked rapidly against the sting in her eyes and forced herself to straighten. The cool air against her bare skin was an immediate relief, sending a shiver through her battered body.

She turned slightly, just enough to catch a glimpse of herself in the mirror.

Her back was a mess.

Angry red lash marks crisscrossed her skin, some deeper than others, some scabbed over, others raw. Bruises bloomed across her ribs, her shoulders—dark reminders of what she had endured in the past few days.

Her fingers trembled as she reached for one of the bottles on the desk. The label meant nothing to her, but she didn’t need to read it to know what it was. Disinfectant. Strong stuff.

She uncorked it and took a sniff. The sharp scent burned her nose.

This was going to hurt like hell.

Bracing herself, she tipped the bottle and poured.

The liquid hit her back like fire.

Jo choked on a scream, her whole body seizing up as the pain ripped through her. It burned deep, like molten iron being pressed into her wounds, setting her nerves ablaze.

She gritted her teeth, her hands gripping the edge of the desk so tightly her knuckles went white. Her legs nearly buckled beneath her, but she refused to let them.

Breathe.

She forced herself to breathe, short, sharp gasps that did little to ground her against the unbearable sting. Her vision swam for a moment, black creeping in at the edges, but she shook it off, blinking hard.

It passed.

The worst of the pain settled into a deep, throbbing ache, and Jo exhaled shakily, her forehead pressing against the cool wood of the desk. Her skin was damp with sweat, her muscles locked tight from the shock.

She had done what she could.

Straightening, she reached for a cloth, dabbing at the excess liquid before grabbing one of the clean shirts from a pile nearby. It was slightly too big, but she didn’t care. The fabric was soft, light—infinitely better than the bloodied rags she had been wearing.

Sliding it over her head, she carefully pulled her arms through, wincing as the fabric brushed against her raw skin. She let it hang loose, unwilling to tighten it against her wounds just yet.

Her hands rested on the desk for a moment as she steadied herself.

It was done.

She was patched up.

For now.

But the night was far from over.

Jo stepped outside, onto the deck of the ship, the cool night air brushing against her damp skin. She inhaled deeply, filling her lungs with the salty breeze, though it did little to ease the tension coiling in her chest.

The deck was empty, save for the faint creak of the boat rocking against the waves. She moved toward the railing, her boots scuffing against the wooden planks, and rested her forearms on the edge. The fabric of the fresh shirt barely clung to her shoulders, light and loose against her battered body, but she hardly noticed.

Her eyes locked onto the jungle beyond the shore, where flashes of gunfire lit up the darkness. Explosions rumbled through the trees like distant thunder, sending ripples across the water. The battle was raging, and somewhere in the middle of it was Arthur.

She prayed—silently, desperately.

She was never one for prayers. She had long since given up believing anyone was listening. But now, she found herself mouthing the words, an unspoken plea carried away by the wind.

Come back to me.

The thought settled in her chest, heavy and unmoving.

She clenched her jaw, hating the helplessness that gripped her. This wasn’t like her. She was a fighter. She didn’t sit back and wait—she acted. But tonight, she could do nothing but stand there, watching, waiting, hoping.

If anything, it gave her time to think.

The adrenaline that had kept her moving for days was finally starting to fade, leaving her body aching, her thoughts raw. Exhaustion crept into her bones, weighing her down in a way she hadn’t let herself feel before.

Her mind drifted, unbidden, to Arthur.

To the argument. To Mary.

She had been so angry that day, so hurt when she saw them together. The way she had stormed off, fists clenched, chest tight—she had wanted to bury it all, to pretend it didn’t matter.

But it did.

And then, his explanation. The way he had looked at her, steady and sure, telling her he was happy with her.

Jo exhaled slowly, gripping the railing a little tighter. If she wanted to move forward—if she wanted to be with him, truly be with him—she would have to talk to him about it. She couldn't keep running from it, couldn't keep pretending she was fine when it still gnawed at the edges of her thoughts.

The idea of opening up like that—of making herself vulnerable—was a damn terrifying thing.

But Arthur had been honest with her.

She owed him the same.

Another explosion rocked the jungle, snapping her back to the present. She lifted her head, sharp eyes scanning the treeline, searching for any sign of them.

Of him.

Her arms stayed crossed over the railing, knuckles white where she gripped the metal. She would not move from this spot.

She would wait.

And pray.

For Arthur. For his safety. For his return.

And when he did—when she saw him again—she would finally say what had been weighing on her heart.

Chapter 33: Some Kind of Peace

Chapter Text

Gunfire cracked through the thick, humid air as Arthur yanked the struggling captain forward, barely sparing a glance as another bullet whizzed past his ear.

“They’ve sent reinforcements! Let’s go!” Hercule bellowed, his voice rising over the chaos.

Arthur gritted his teeth, raising his revolver and firing two quick shots—one soldier staggered back, clutching his chest, while the other crumpled where he stood. There was no time to celebrate clean kills.

"Keep moving! Just get to that damn boat!" Dutch’s voice rang out from ahead, urging them onward as the gang forced their way through the tide of soldiers.

Hercule’s warning came fast. "Look out on the left! There's one on the rock!"

Arthur didn’t hesitate. He barely flicked his eyes toward the moving shadow before his rifle cracked, sending the sniper tumbling lifelessly down the slope.

No time to play around. No time to hesitate.

They needed to leave. Now.

Arthur pressed forward, heart hammering, lungs burning from the constant sprinting through jungle and dirt. But through the exhaustion, through the sharp focus of battle, one thought took root in his mind.

Home.

Not just America. It was never just about the country, though he loved its open skies and untamed land. Home was in the people—the ones he had fought beside, bled for, and would do anything to protect. Some were here, stranded on this godforsaken island with him. Some were waiting back in America, uncertain and afraid.

They were his family. Weren’t they? But now… now he wasn’t so sure.

Dutch’s plans, his lies, the way he kept pulling them deeper into the fire—Arthur wasn’t blind. He saw the way Dutch’s decisions got worse by the day, the way he stopped listening to reason, stopped listening to Hosea. Hell, Hosea wasn’t even here anymore. What would he have thought of all this? Would he have still believed in Dutch’s vision, or would he have told Arthur what he already knew deep down?

That the gang wasn’t what it used to be. That it was crumbling.

And then there was her.

Jo.

Arthur hadn’t let himself think about her, not really. Not since they split up at the docks. But now, as his boots pounded the ground, he thought of how he’d found her in that cage—broken, battered, yet still fighting.

He thought of how he’d almost lost her.

That was home too, wasn’t it? Not a place. Not some lofty dream Dutch kept spinning in the air like gold dust. It was people. It was the ones he cared about. Jo. Jack. Even John, despite how much of a stubborn fool he could be.

But how much longer could he keep them safe?

The doubt crept in, uninvited.

It was neither the time nor the place for it, but it came anyway, like a sickness settling in his bones.

Was this fight even worth it anymore? Were they just delaying the inevitable?

Arthur clenched his jaw, shoving the thoughts aside. He’d deal with them later. Right now, he had a job to do.

They needed to get to that boat.

And then, maybe—just maybe—they could all go home.

The boat was in sight now, rocking slightly against the dock, its dark silhouette stark against the water. Just one last stretch through the crumbling ruins and they’d be gone. Freedom was so damn close Arthur could taste it, but he wasn’t foolish enough to think it would be easy.

Gunfire cracked through the air, bullets sparking off stone as Arthur skidded to a stop behind a jagged wall of ancient rock. His breath was ragged, sweat dripping down his brow, but his hands were steady as they reloaded.

Hercule, crouched against the opposite side of the wall, peeked around the corner and cursed. “Here,” he started, voice sharp with urgency, “Fussar is up there, I think.”

Arthur turned his head, following Hercule’s gaze toward the tall, crumbling tower that loomed over the ruins. His blue eyes narrowed as he caught movement—someone scrambling at the top.

“In the tower?” Arthur asked.

“Yes,” Hercule confirmed, gripping his rifle tightly. “Yes, that’s him.”

Arthur swore under his breath as he peeked again, just in time to see Fussar leaning over the edge of the tower, hands gripping a massive cannon aimed directly at them.

“This goddamn idiot,” Arthur muttered, stomach twisting with irritation. Fussar had slipped through their grasp once already, and Arthur had no intention of letting it happen again.

“Come on!” he shouted, already pushing off the wall as the first deafening boom of the cannon split the air.

The impact shook the ground, sending dust and chunks of shattered stone flying. Arthur ducked low, sprinting across the open stretch as debris rained down. He heard Hercule curse behind him, but he didn’t stop—not now.

“He’s shooting, we have to take him down!” Hercule shouted, his voice nearly lost in the chaos.

Arthur dove behind another broken section of the ruins, his breath sharp in his chest. He couldn’t go straight for the tower—Fussar had the high ground, and he’d be blown to hell before he even got close. But up ahead, just to the left, lay something better than a rifle.

A cannon.

Arthur’s eyes locked onto it, his mind working fast. That was it. That was the only way to take that bastard down for good.

Just as he made a move toward it, something in his peripheral caught his eye—movement near the boat.

He turned his head, scanning quickly through the smoke and dust until his gaze locked onto a familiar figure standing on the deck.

Jo.

His gut clenched at the sight of her, partially ducked behind the railing, her eyes fixed on the docks. Even from this distance, Arthur could see the tension in her stance, the way her shoulders squared, ready for anything.

But she wasn’t alone.

His stomach dropped when he spotted soldiers advancing toward the boat, rifles raised.

Oh, hell no.

Arthur’s body moved before his mind could even process the thought. He veered left, raising his rifle mid-run, his finger squeezing the trigger before he even stopped moving.

One soldier collapsed instantly, the bullet tearing through his chest. The second barely had time to react before Arthur’s next shot struck him down, his body hitting the dock with a dull thud.

Jo’s head snapped toward him, her eyes briefly meeting his across the battlefield. Even from this distance, he saw the flicker of relief, the way her shoulders loosened for just a moment before she turned back to scan for more threats.

Arthur didn’t linger. He ran for the cannon, grabbing the heavy iron lever and yanking it downward, shifting the aim toward the tower.

His jaw clenched as he lined up the shot, his hands gripping the cold, rusted metal.

This is for all the wrong you did, you son of a bitch.

With a sharp exhale, he lit the fuse.

The cannon roared , the force vibrating through his arms as the shot sailed straight for the tower.

For a brief second, there was silence.

Then, the explosion tore through the air.

The top of the tower erupted in flames and splintered stone, the impact so powerful it sent a shockwave across the battlefield. Debris rained down, and with it—Fussar.

Arthur watched as the bastard fell, his body limp as it plummeted from the wreckage, disappearing into the ruins below.

It was done.

Arthur wasted no time, turning back toward the docks. The boat was still there, still waiting.

And Jo—she was still there too.

Arthur ran.

Fussar was dead.

Arthur could still feel the lingering echo of the cannon’s blast ringing in his ears, could still see the moment of impact—the tower crumbling, flames licking at the ruins as stone and dust rained down. It should’ve felt like a victory, and in some ways, maybe it was.

But it didn’t bring back the days they had lost.

It didn’t erase the suffering Javier had endured, the pain Jo had been put through, the desperate hunger and exhaustion that clung to them all like a second skin.

Still, it was over. And they were leaving.

The sound of hurried footsteps against wood pulled Arthur back to the present as they all regrouped on the docks. Dutch, Hercule, Micah, Arthur, and the battered, half-broken captain of the ship stood in a loose circle, all breathing hard from the fight. The scent of saltwater and gunpowder filled the air, mixing with the distant smoke of the wreckage they left behind.

Dutch, still catching his breath, turned to the captain, his voice steady despite the madness they had just escaped.

“Captain, can you handle the ship?”

The older man let out a short breath, wiping sweat from his brow with the back of his hand. His clothes were torn, his face bruised, but his eyes still held a sharpness—determined, unwilling to be broken.

“I’ll be fine,” he waved off, voice rough but sure. “Come on, we’ll get going with the tide before I get any more surprise interviews with local officials.”

There was a ghost of amusement in his tone, but Arthur knew the captain had no patience left for humor. None of them did. They just needed to go.

The captain boarded first, his boots thudding against the wooden planks of the gangway. Jo was there waiting, her posture straight despite the exhaustion weighing down on her. The moment the captain stepped onto the deck, she extended a hand.

“Captain,” she greeted, her voice calm but firm.

The captain took her hand in a firm shake before moving past her toward the helm. Jo exhaled softly, watching him go before her shoulders seemed to relax—just a little.

Arthur was the next to board. He stepped onto the deck, the slight sway of the ship beneath him oddly grounding. He barely took a second to steady himself before his gaze found Jo.

She stood near the railing, the rising sun casting a golden glow on her dust-covered skin. Strands of blonde hair stuck to her face, damp with sweat, and her shirt—a cleaner one than the torn shirt she had worn—was faintly stained with drops of blood.

Arthur stopped beside her, his weight shifting slightly as he took her in, assessing every detail with quiet scrutiny.

She looked exhausted. Just as drained as he felt, maybe more.

But she was standing.

His chest ached with something unspoken as he swallowed hard, his lips parting as if to say something—anything. But words failed him.

Instead, he gave a small nod, almost imperceptible, and she mirrored it.

That was enough.

On the docks, Dutch was still speaking with Hercule. Arthur turned slightly, watching the two men exchange words under the fading moonlight.

“You gonna be okay?” Dutch asked, his voice lighter than it had been in days, though Arthur knew him well enough to hear the undercurrent of tension that never left.

“We’ll be like you,” Hercule replied, holding his rifle loosely in one hand. “We’ll disappear, probably back to Haiti. Believe me, we’ll be long gone by morning.”

Dutch studied him for a moment before nodding. “Good.”

With that, he reached out, clapping a hand against Hercule’s shoulder in a rare gesture of sincerity. “Thank you.”

Hercule only gave a small smirk, lifting his rifle slightly in a casual salute before stepping back toward the ruins.

And then, without another word, Dutch turned and boarded the ship.

The old wooden planks creaked under his weight as he stepped onto the deck, his hair catching the ocean breeze. He didn’t look back.

As the first light of morning broke across the horizon, the ship finally began to drift from the bay, the tide pulling them away from the island that had nearly been their grave.

Arthur let out a slow breath, watching as the jungle and ruins shrank in the distance.

They were leaving Guarma behind.

But something in Arthur’s chest remained heavy, unsettled.

They were going home.

If that’s what you could still call it.

 


 

Arthur leaned against the stern of the ship, arms resting on the railing as the early morning wind tugged gently at his shirt. The island was a distant shape now—fading into the blue-gray fog of the sea—but its ghosts hadn’t left him. Not really.

They clung to him like the sweat on his skin, like the soot and ash in the folds of his clothes. But worse than all that were the thoughts.

There wasn’t much to do now but wait.

Wait for the tides to carry them back to whatever mess awaited in America. Wait for the next storm, the next fight, the next moment Dutch decided to charge headlong into chaos.

And Jo.

He glanced over his shoulder toward the other end of the deck, where she sat alone, shoulders curled inward as if still bracing herself for something. She hadn’t said much since they boarded, and Arthur hadn’t pushed her. 

But the silence weighed heavy on him now.

Was she mad? Was she still turning over that moment with Mary in her head, the way Arthur had clumsily tried to explain himself? Or worse—had she stopped caring altogether?

Should he go talk to her?
Would that help—or just make things worse?
Was she waiting for him to say something? Or did she need space?

He didn’t know.

He wished he did.

Because the last thing he wanted was to make her feel like she wasn’t safe with him, like he couldn’t be trusted with the pieces of her she didn’t show anyone else. God knows she had enough people in her life trying to take from her, trying to break her. He didn’t want to be one of them.

If she needed time, he’d give it.
If she needed distance, he’d step back.

And if she needed to end it—to cut things off before it went too far—he’d let her.

Even if the thought of that made his chest tighten, made something deep inside him curl up like a wounded animal.

Because as much as he wanted to believe what they had could survive this…

He wasn’t sure anymore.

A breeze picked up, rolling over the ship and carrying with it the smell of brine and old wood. Arthur lowered his head with a quiet exhale, fingers drumming absently on the railing.

Then, as if his body remembered something before his mind did, he slipped his hands into his pants pockets—just out of habit, looking for something to fiddle with.

And froze.

His fingers brushed against something cool, smooth—thin like a chain.

He pulled it out slowly.

Jo’s necklace.

He’d completely forgotten he’d stuffed it in there after finding it on the beach, too focused on surviving to think much about it at the time. But now, cradled in the palm of his hand, the little silver chain shimmered faintly in the sunlight.

It was delicate. A small pendant, simple and worn with time—but unmistakably hers.

Arthur stared at it for a long moment.

Maybe this was it.

Maybe this was his first step. Not a grand gesture, not some heavy, awkward conversation… but something small. Honest.

He closed his fingers around it gently and pushed off the railing, the wooden deck creaking beneath his boots as he slowly made his way across the ship.

The wind was soft as a whisper, rolling in off the open sea and curling around the deck like it was carrying memories. Arthur stepped away from the stern, boots clicking lightly on the wood, but he paused when he saw her.

She was sitting alone near the bow of the boat, perched on an old crate like she was part of the sea itself—still and wind-kissed. A blanket was pulled tight around her, and strands of her blonde hair drifted wild in the breeze, catching the light like gold thread.

Her eyes were half-lidded, lashes low, her head starting to dip forward like sleep was finally winning. He could tell she was fighting it—back straight, shoulders taut even in rest—but exhaustion clung to her like a second skin. That kind of tired that didn’t come from the body, but from the soul.

And for a moment, he just stood there, watching.

There wasn’t a damn word he could’ve found right then to explain the way she looked to him. Not beautiful like the way folks in town talked about women. This was something quieter. Deeper. Like looking at a storm that had finally passed. Worn, and bruised, and still standing tall.

It hit him in the chest, sharp and real.

He didn’t know if it was the sea air or just the sight of her in that moment, calm and unaware—but she’d never looked more like home to him.

Then his boot scraped against a loose board.

She stiffened.

Her eyes blinked open all the way, spine pulling upright like a wire had gone taut inside her. She didn’t turn just yet, but he saw it—the way her shoulders locked, the way her fingers curled slightly over her knees.

She heard him.

She knew.

"I'm tired, Arthur."

Her voice came low, carried off by the wind, almost lost in the creak of the boat and the slap of waves against the hull.

Arthur stopped a few paces behind her, his boots silent on the deck now that he’d spotted her. Her back was to him, but there was no mistaking the defeat in her posture.

He cleared his throat gently. “Found this,” he said, voice softer than before—gentler than the clipped tones they’d used earlier. This one was different. Honest.

Jo turned slowly at the sound of it—soft and hesitant, unlike how he’d sounded when they’d last clashed. Her eyes landed on what he held, and her breath caught in her throat.

“My necklace...” she said, just above a whisper. “Thought I lost it in the wreck.”

She stepped forward, hand reaching instinctively. “Thank you,” she added quietly, her fingers just about to take it when she noticed the way he didn’t move. His hand didn’t extend, didn’t release. Just stayed there, still.

Her brows pinched. “Arthur… I'd like it back.”

His jaw flexed once. Then he nodded, barely.

“I’ll give it to ya,” he said slow. “But... I gotta say somethin’ first. Somethin’ important.”

Jo’s whole posture changed—guarded now, her hand falling away, shoulders tensing again. “Say it after,” she said, not harshly, but firmly. “Give it back first.”

Arthur shook his head, just once. “No,” he murmured. “Not until I say this. ‘Cause if I don’t say it now, I ain’t ever gonna.”

His gaze met hers fully, and for once, there was no mask on his face. No stubborn pride or guarded sarcasm. Just Arthur Morgan. Honest. Raw.

“What I’m about to say…” he paused, swallowing. “It’s personal. Real personal. And a first for me. So don’t go laughin’ or gettin’ cold on me, alright?”

Jo said nothing, only stared, eyes tight and unreadable.

He hesitated—just a moment—but then let it fall.

“I love you, Jo.”

Jo blinked. The silence that followed hit like thunder in the distance—far away, but impossible to ignore.

He took a breath, tried again. “I love you,” he repeated, a little firmer this time. “And it’s cause I love you… that I can’t be selfish with ya.”

Her lips parted slightly. “What d’you mean?” she asked, the words barely more than a breath.

He let out a breath, jaw clenched, eyes flicking away from her just long enough to steady himself. “I mean... if this thing between us is too much—if you don’t want it no more—I’ll walk away. I’ll leave ya be. You won’t hear a word of protest from me.”

She blinked, visibly stunned. “That what you want?” Her voice cracked—not accusing, just… surprised. Uncertain. Maybe even a little hurt.

He met her eyes again, something mournful and tender flickering in his. “No. Hell, no. That ain’t what I want.” 

His voice cracked, raw with everything he couldn’t quite put into words. “But wantin’ you... and holdin’ onto you when maybe you oughta be free of all this? That’s two different things. I’ve seen what this life does. Seen what it did to people. To you. And I’d rather lose you than watch it chew you up worse than it already has.”

Jo’s throat worked as she tried to speak, but nothing came. She just stared at him, every word he’d spoken pressing down on her chest like stones.

“I ain’t askin’ for an answer,” Arthur said softly. “Not right now. Just… hold onto that, alright?”

Then, careful as anything, he placed the necklace in her palm. Their fingers brushed, warm and calloused, and lingered just a second longer than they should’ve.

“I just needed you to know,” he added, even quieter now. “That you’re loved. By me.”

Her hand closed around it slowly. Tight.

Arthur stepped back, giving her space, his silhouette framed against the dusk-drenched horizon.

Jo didn’t say anything. Not yet.

But her grip on the necklace stayed clenched, like maybe... maybe she wasn’t ready to let that go.

Jo sat back on the crate, the gentle sway of the boat beneath her hardly noticed now, not with the weight in her chest.

The necklace lay in her hand—delicate, warm from his touch. Her fingers closed around it slowly, protectively, like she was afraid it might vanish if she wasn’t careful.

Her mother’s pendant. Smooth from time, edges dulled, but it still caught the light like it used to in her childhood when her mama bent low to kiss her goodnight. Back before everything fell apart. Back before blood and silence replaced lullabies and morning sun.

She stared down at it, heart thudding behind her ribs.

He found it.

He found this.

When everything else had gone under, when she thought she’d lost it to the sea and the storm and the chaos… Arthur had found it.

Just like he always found her.

Her throat tightened as she lifted the chain and clasped it around her neck, fingers fumbling slightly. She looked down at the pendant now resting just above her heart. And for a long, aching moment, all she could do was feel it. The weight. The meaning. The damn memories.

She should stop him.

Call his name.

Tell him not to go.

She wanted to.

God, she loved him.

She loved Arthur Morgan with the kind of fire that lived in the quiet. Not flashy. Not easy. But real. Something that burned slowly and deep and steady in the bones. She had realized it long before the bank job, before Guarma, before everything fell apart. She'd known it in the way her chest softened when he looked at her, in the safety she felt even during her nightmares—when he was there, rubbing her back, murmuring things he thought she wouldn’t remember come morning.

But saying it?

Saying it would make it real .
And if it was real… then it could be lost .

She’d lost so damn much already.

Ben. Her home. Her name. Pieces of herself she hadn’t even realized were gone ‘til they were already buried six feet under.

And now Arthur—he was walking away. Not with anger. Not with guilt. But with love. Love enough to let her go if that’s what she needed.

Tears stung at the corners of her eyes, and she blinked hard, jaw tight.

She didn’t want to lose him too.

Her fingers curled around the pendant.

"Arthur."

Her voice cracked on the edges, soft but desperate.

He stopped.

Turned.

His silhouette framed by the sun, shirt rippling slightly with the breeze. His face was unreadable at first, caught in shadow, but the moment their eyes met, his expression softened.

Jo stood slowly, feet scuffing the deck. The sea rocked around them, the sound of waves distant but steady.

She had to look up at him—always had. He was broad and tall, a presence as solid as the land they were sailing toward. And for a moment, neither of them said a word. Just stared. Just breathed.

"I love you too," she said.

Simple.

But not small.

Her voice wavered, but she didn’t flinch.

"I knew it. Even before this. Even before the bank. Hell… probably since the day you came for me at Dewberry Creek and didn’t say a word about it."

A breath left her like she’d been holding it for months.

"I was just too scared to say it out loud. Scared it’d ruin somethin’. Scared you’d die the next damn day and I’d be left with that weight in my chest. But you… you keep showin’ up. You keep savin’ me."

Even from myself.

Her voice dropped, thick with emotion.

"I don’t want you to leave. I don’t want to spend another day pretendin’ I don’t feel this."

Arthur didn’t move at first. Just looked at her like she’d knocked the wind out of him. Then, slowly, he stepped closer.

Jo’s heart kicked in her chest as he reached for her—rough hands rising, not hesitant this time. One settled gently against her cheek, the other hovered like he was asking for permission.

She gave it—leaned into his palm, her hand rising to cover his.

And then his lips were on hers.

The kiss wasn’t soft. It wasn’t timid.

It was raw. Honest. Like every held breath and every sleepless night and every near-death they’d survived had led to this one damn moment. Their mouths moved together like they were making up for lost time, like they were relearning each other with every second.

Jo gripped his shirt like she might fall apart if she didn’t hold on.

Arthur’s arms wrapped around her, grounding her like he always did—solid, sure, home.

When they finally pulled apart, their foreheads pressed together, breath mingling in the salt-kissed air, she whispered against his lips:

"Don’t go."

And for once, Arthur didn’t try to be noble.

He stayed.

Their breath mingled between them, the kiss still lingering like a pulse in the air.

Arthur kept her close, arms loose but present, his forehead still resting against hers. His thumb brushed the curve of her cheekbone, calloused skin gentle as ever. Jo closed her eyes for a moment, letting herself feel it—really feel it—this strange, aching peace blooming in her chest.

Then she wrinkled her nose.

“…Your beard’s itchin’ me.”

Arthur leaned back just enough to blink down at her, eyes squinting like he hadn’t quite heard right. “What?”

She giggled. Actually giggled, something soft and sudden that seemed to catch her by surprise too. Her fingers came up and poked at the thick scruff on his chin. “Feels like I kissed a damn porcupine.”

Arthur let out a short huff, half amused, half mock-offended. “Ain’t exactly had time to keep groomed, considerin’ we been stranded on that goddamn island.”

“I can see that,” Jo teased, biting her lip to contain the grin threatening to break her face. “Think I lost feelin’ in my lips for a second there.”

He rolled his eyes but didn’t let her go. “You know, that’s real sweet, considerin’ I just bared my heart to ya.”

She snorted softly. “You did. And it was beautiful. But still… that beard, Arthur.” She brushed her fingers across his jaw, then recoiled dramatically, like it had stung her. “I might need a bandage.”

Arthur chuckled—low and warm in his chest. “You’re lucky I love ya, woman.”

Jo looked up at him, eyes bright, laughter still dancing at the corners of her mouth. “Yeah?” she whispered.

He nodded, voice softening again. “Yeah. Anythin’ for ya.”

That settled something deep inside her.

Jo looked up at him, and this time—truly—she smiled. Not the guarded kind she offered strangers or the hollow curve she gave when things got rough. No. This one was real. Soft. Honest. It tugged at the corners of her mouth and lit something in her hazel eyes that Arthur hadn’t seen in a long while.

And for a second, it melted the world around them.

But then, slowly, the smile faded.

It didn’t vanish in an instant, no—it was like watching the sun sink below the horizon. Gradual. Quiet. A shadow falling over something once warm.

Arthur noticed. He always noticed.

His brow furrowed, eyes narrowing just slightly. “Somethin’ wrong?”

She blinked, startled a little by the question. “No—” she started, then stopped. A pause. “Just… tired.”

“Tired?” he echoed, tilting his head. “Well… c’mere then.” He opened one arm, gesturing toward his chest. “Reckon you can lean that pretty head right here. I don’t mind none.”

A half-hearted smile tugged at her lips, but she didn’t move. “No, no… ain’t tired like that. Well—yes, but… that ain’t what I meant.”

Arthur’s hand dropped, concern flickering in his expression now. He didn’t speak—just waited, like he always did when she needed time to find her words.

Jo exhaled, slow and shaky. Her eyes drifted away from him, toward the horizon where America waited just beyond the edge of the sea. The wind stirred her hair again, carrying salt and silence.

“I’m tired of all of it, Arthur,” she said finally, voice low, heavy with weight that had been sitting on her shoulders far too long. “The runnin’. The fightin’. Always lookin’ over my shoulder, always wonderin’ who’s next. Who we’ll bury next. Ain’t you ever just… had enough?”

Arthur stayed quiet. Not because he didn’t know what to say—but because he did. Because he felt it too.

She looked back at him, her eyes searching his like maybe—just maybe—he could make sense of the ache lodged deep in her chest.

“I don’t wanna just survive anymore,” she admitted, a whisper over the waves. “I wanna live, Arthur. I wanna wake up somewhere quiet, where the loudest thing is the damn birds. I wanna walk into a town without scoutin’ out all the exits first. I wanna laugh without feelin’ guilty for it. I wanna know what it’s like to breathe and not feel like the world’s closin’ in on me.”

Arthur's jaw worked, the muscle there tensing.

“Don’t you?” she asked, voice cracking just a little. “Ain’t you tired too?”

Arthur’s gaze softened, his eyes tracing every line of her face like he was memorizing it again.

After a beat, he spoke—quiet, almost like he didn’t trust the words to carry.

“Yeah,” he said. “I’m real damn tired, Jo.”

She nodded, as if that confirmed something she’d known all along. Her fingers toyed with the pendant around her neck, the necklace still warm from her skin. Her mother’s. A memory of another life. A life she'd never gotten to have.

Her voice broke when she said, “I’m scared, Arthur.”

He stepped closer. “Of what?”

“Of feelin’ this,” she whispered. “Of wantin’ somethin’ more. 'Cause every time I do… it slips away. And I—I don’t wanna lose you.”

Arthur reached for her then, no hesitation.

“You ain’t losin’ me,” he said, low and firm. “Not now. Not if I got any damn say in it.”

Jo blinked hard, trying to hold back the tears that burned her throat. She rested her forehead against his chest, listening to the steady thump of his heart beneath the fabric of his shirt.

And for the first time in a long while… She let herself believe in something better.

Jo stayed nestled against him, listening to the steady beat of his heart as it echoed beneath her ear. The sea rolled gently beneath the boat, lulling everything into a strange, still quiet. Like the world had paused just for them.

But peace never lingered long in their world.

It was Jo who broke the silence first.

“So… what now?” she asked softly, her voice muffled slightly against his chest. “We feel the same. We want the same. But… what the hell do we do with that, Arthur?”

He didn’t answer right away. His hand ran gently up and down her back, slow, like the motion grounded him too. When he finally spoke, his voice was low and honest.

“Hell if I know.”

She gave a short, breathy laugh—tired more than amused. “We can’t just leave.”

Arthur pulled back a little to look at her, his eyes meeting hers. “No,” he said quietly. “We can’t.”

“They still need us,” she murmured. “John… Jack… Abigail. Even Sadie, Tilly, Mary-Beth. They’re countin’ on us. Countin’ on Dutch, but…” She trailed off, her jaw tightening. “He ain’t the man they believe he is no more.”

Arthur gave a solemn nod. “No… he ain’t.”

“And I don’t give a damn what happens to Micah,” she added, a sharp edge to her voice. “But the others? They deserve better than what we been livin’. They deserve somethin’ real. A good life. Safe.”

“Yeah,” Arthur said, his voice rough with conviction. “They do.”

Jo swallowed hard, her fingers still absently clutching the pendant around her neck. The wind played with her hair again, tugging strands across her face, but she didn’t seem to notice. Her mind was too far gone—caught between hope and fear, between the weight of loyalty and the promise of something better.

“We can’t just turn our backs on ’em,” she said. “I want out, I do. But I want them out too.”

Arthur sighed, his hand finding hers where it rested on her knee. His calloused fingers wrapped around hers, grounding her.

“We’ll get ’em out,” he said. “Somehow. We’ll find a way.”

“But how, Arthur?” she whispered. “Dutch don’t listen no more. He’s twisted everything into somethin’ else. Somethin’ ugly . He don’t see straight.”

“I know,” he said quietly. “And if he ever did… I don’t think he wants to anymore.”

Jo looked up at him again. Her eyes were glassy now, rimmed with unshed tears—but not from sorrow. From the sheer weight of it all. The exhaustion. The love. The loyalty that refused to let go even when everything else said run .

“Then it’s up to us,” she said.

Arthur nodded. “Yeah. It is.”

They sat there in silence for a moment, the hush of the water and the creak of the boat the only sounds between them. Then Jo leaned her head back against his chest again, and he wrapped his arms around her fully, pulling her close like he never wanted to let go.

Neither of them said anything more. Because there weren’t any more words needed just yet.

But in that stillness, a vow was made—unspoken, but undeniable.

They wouldn’t run.

Not until the ones they loved had a chance at freedom too.

Not until they’d fought like hell to make it happen.

And maybe, just maybe, after that… they’d finally get a shot at the peace they both longed for.

Together.

 


 

The morning sun spilled like molten gold across the water, its light dancing on the waves as the boat sliced a quiet path toward home—or whatever version of it waited for them now. Arthur stood at the bow, hands resting against the railing, his eyes fixed on the distant horizon. The wind tugged gently at his shirt, ruffling his unkempt hair and long beard, but he barely noticed. His mind was somewhere else entirely.

Behind him, the men stirred in low murmurs—Javier seated on a crate, picking at a loose splinter with a knife; Dutch talking low with Micah near the mast; Bill leaning against the railing, tired and restless but grateful for solid direction under his feet. They were headed back to America. Back to uncertainty. Back to running.

But for once, Arthur didn’t feel quite so hollow about it.

The events of the previous day drifted through his mind like smoke. The heat of the firefight at the fort, the chaos of escape, the tension that had built so high between him and Jo it felt like it might snap clean in half. And then—something else entirely. Something real.

She’d given the poor captain one of those looks—soft, exhausted, but disarming as hell—and the man had practically tripped over himself to offer his quarters for the night. Arthur hadn’t questioned it. Neither of them had the energy for more words after what they’d said out there on the deck.

They’d been so damn tired. Bone-tired. The kind that sunk into a man’s soul and made it hard to stand straight. But even so… they hadn’t let the night pass without claiming what little peace they could steal.

It had been slow, tender, careful—nothing like the rushed, heated mistakes they’d made before. He’d been careful, mindful of the wounds on her back, of the exhaustion in her limbs—but Jo had met him with the same fire she always had. No less fierce, just quieter now. Softer. And when her fingers had dug into his shoulders, when she’d whispered his name like a secret and clung to him like he was her anchor in the storm—he’d known.

He’d known he was hers. And she was his.

Maybe that didn’t make the road ahead any clearer. But it sure as hell made it feel worth walking.

Arthur let out a long breath, the sea air cool in his lungs. His fingers tapped absently on the railing as his thoughts drifted—back to Jo, curled up in the captain’s bunk, her hair a tangle of gold against the pillow, her body finally at rest.

He didn’t know how long that peace would last. But he’d fight like hell to keep it for her. For all of them.

Because they deserved more than just surviving.

They deserved a life.

And God help anyone who tried to take that from them again.

“Well… what now?” Bill’s voice cut through the hum of the waves, dragging Arthur back to the present.

He turned his head slightly, watching the man fiddle with his shirt as he looked at Dutch expectantly.

“What now?” Micah echoed, scoffing as he leaned on the railing with that familiar sneer. 

“What do you mean, what now? We’re headin’ back to Lemoyne again…” Bill nodded toward the haze on the horizon. “And we’re all wanted men.”

Dutch took a slow breath, stepping forward with that ever-calm posture he wore like armor. “We slip ashore one by one,” he said, his voice low and confident, like he was reading scripture off the wind. “Find out what’s what.”

Micah turned, ever the vulture circling close. “We don’t cut and run now? Head back to Blackwater?” His tone was almost hopeful, fishing for something.

“No,” Dutch said, firm. Final.

Micah sighed through his teeth. “Why not?”

Dutch's eyes remained on the coast. “Because the last thing they’ll be thinking is for us to turn up.”

Arthur exhaled sharply through his nose, watching the exchange with tired eyes. His voice came low. “We been on the run for a while now…” He didn’t want to contradict Dutch. Hell, for years he’d followed that man like a compass. But that compass was spinning wild now. “And it feels like…” he paused, shaking his head, unsure how much of this he even wanted to say aloud, especially with Dutch right there. “Like our luck’s turned, you know? And it ain’t turnin’ back.”

His fingers tightened around his bicep, a quiet tension in his arms as he leaned harder on the crate. He and Jo had talked about this. The running, the dying, the endless chase for money and freedom that never came. Maybe the dream was dead. Maybe it had always been a lie, just dressed up pretty with Dutch’s silver tongue.

“We had a good run of it, I guess.”

Dutch turned sharply, offended even by that small surrender. “We ain’t even played our hand yet.”

Of course. More money. One more job. Always just one more job.

“We just need to put some more money in our pockets…” Dutch went on.

Arthur’s jaw clenched. He didn’t look away, but he didn’t meet Dutch’s eyes either.

“Make our escape,” Dutch continued. “Broke, alone—they’re gonna pick us off one by one, and you know it.”

Arthur offered a small shrug. “Maybe.”

“Not. Maybe,” Dutch snapped, his voice a touch sharper now. “We need to split up, keep a low profile, try to track down the rest…”

Arthur’s gaze shifted to the sea. The wind blew cold across his face, cooling the heat creeping up his neck.

“But… carefully,” Dutch added. “See if they sent any mail. Arthur, you check Shady Belle. We’ll find each other eventually—we always do.”

Arthur nodded. That he could do. If anything still mattered, it was finding the rest. He didn’t know what shape they’d be in—Abigail, Sadie, the girls. But they deserved better than this endless cycle of gunfire and dirt. They deserved a life.

“And then what?” Javier asked from nearby, his voice tight with frustration. 

Dutch answered like it was the easiest thing in the world. “Then we meet up, we gather the family, get some money, and get the hell outta there. That’s the plan.”

But the words felt thin now. Hollow. Like trying to patch a bullet hole with a scrap of cloth.

Javier frowned, shifting his weight. “We all actin’ crazy. And that… that ain’t what I thought we were gonna be doin’ here.”

Arthur noticed it then—he wasn’t alone. Doubt was hanging in the air like smoke after a gunfight. He saw it in Javier’s face, even in the way Bill stared off at the sea, jaw tight.

Dutch noticed too. And it didn’t sit well.

“We have been in a bad way,” Dutch began, standing tall as he tried to command the air around him. “Listen—” his voice rose slightly. “I will kill for my family. Any of you wanna judge me for that, that’s fine. But that is who I am.”

No one said a word. Not even Micah moved. For a moment, the deck went still.

Arthur looked at the planks under his boots. Not because he was afraid—he wasn’t. Not of Dutch. But because he didn’t have it in him to argue anymore. Not now. Not when every word just bounced off like buckshot on steel.

“Anyone disagree?” Dutch asked, eyes sweeping over the group.

Silence.

“Anyone?” he repeated.

Still nothing.

He held them all there for another breath before scoffing under his breath and turning on his heel. He stalked away across the deck, boots thudding with purpose, probably heading for the captain or the stern. Somewhere he could lick his pride.

When he was gone, no one spoke. The silence was heavier than before. Not quiet like peace, but like grief. Like standing at the edge of something and knowing, deep down, there was no going back.

Arthur stayed where he was, arms still crossed, the wind threading through his beard. He wasn’t surprised. Not anymore. Just… tired.

They weren’t a gang anymore. They were survivors trying to outrun the fire with their feet already scorched. And none of Dutch’s speeches could change that now.

The soft roll of the waves filled the silence Dutch left behind.

Arthur stayed put, arms still crossed over his chest, but his jaw was tight. He watched Dutch’s figure disappear around the corner of the deck, and for a long moment, no one said a word. The others lingered in an awkward hush, scattered between crates and barrels, shadows cast long in the sunlight.

Arthur swallowed thickly.

He didn’t want to speak. God knew it’d be easier to just let it be. But he couldn’t. Not anymore. The silence between them felt like standing on the edge of a cliff—everyone looking down, no one daring to say how close they’d come to falling.

“Y’all know he ain’t the same anymore,” Arthur said finally, low but steady.

Javier looked away. Bill shifted uncomfortably, clearly itching to say something but unsure of what.

Arthur sighed. He ran a hand down his face and shook his head slowly. “Hell, maybe I ain’t either. But I ain’t blind.”

Micah scoffed from his post on the railing, arms folded tight. “Here we go,” he muttered, more to himself than anyone else.

Arthur ignored him. He looked around at the others—at the men he’d ridden with for years, bled beside, laughed with, buried friends with.

“This… this ain’t just another mess we’re crawlin’ out of,” Arthur said. “It’s all comin’ down now. Dutch keeps talkin’ about one more score, one more job… but that ain’t freedom he’s chasin’. It’s just the next excuse.”

Javier opened his mouth, then closed it. Even Bill, who usually had something smart to say, stayed quiet. His eyes were on the floor.

Arthur’s voice cracked slightly as he went on. “I don’t know about you all, but I’m tired. Real tired. And I look at what we been through, and I don’t see some noble damn crusade anymore. I see men dyin’. I see folks starvin’. I see us losin’ everything that ever made this gang mean somethin’.”

There it was. The truth laid bare in front of them like a fresh grave.

Micah pushed off the railing with a sneer, his boots stomping across the planks. “You done feelin’ sorry for yourself yet?” he snapped. “’Cause far as I can tell, Dutch’s still breathin’. Still fightin’. Still tryin’ to save what’s left. And you? You’re just whinin’.”

Arthur turned his head, calm but cold. “I ain’t whinin’. I’m thinkin’. Maybe you should try it sometime.”

Micah flinched like he’d been struck, stepping forward. “You callin’ me stupid?”

Arthur didn’t answer. He didn’t have to. The silence said enough.

Micah pointed a finger at him, teeth bared like a dog ready to bite. “You lost your balls back in Guarma, Morgan. You wanna run? Go on and run. But don’t stand there actin’ like you got it all figured out. We follow Dutch because he’s the only one with a damn plan.”

“No, Micah,” Arthur said, voice low and even, the anger boiling under the surface. “You follow Dutch because he lets you do whatever the hell you want. Because you ain’t got no soul left to lose.”

Micah’s face twisted, then he turned on his heel, stomping off toward the upper deck. “Yeah? Well, maybe Dutch oughta know what you’re sayin’ behind his back!”

Arthur didn’t move. He just watched Micah go, jaw clenched hard enough it hurt. When he was gone, the others stayed quiet. The wind rushed past them again. It sounded louder now, as if the world was reminding them time was running out.

Arthur lowered his head. Rubbed his thumb over the scar near his jaw, the one he got back years ago. He used to believe in something—freedom, maybe. Or at least in Dutch. Now all he could believe in was the truth he saw in Jo’s eyes last night: this life was killing them.

“I ain’t sayin’ we abandon each other,” Arthur muttered after a beat, more to himself than anything. “But if we don’t start thinkin’ about what comes next… there ain’t gonna be a next.”

He looked up and met Javier’s eyes. The man looked sick, like he’d swallowed something bitter.

Even Bill was unusually still.

It was the start of something. Not rebellion. Not mutiny. Just… a shift. A quiet realization in the bones of the gang: the center wasn’t holding anymore.

And deep down, Arthur wasn’t sure if he’d saved anything with those words—or just dug the grave a little deeper.

Chapter 34: Everything the Rain Couldn't Wash Off

Notes:

Hi everyone! First of all—I'm so sorry for the long wait between chapters. Life really caught up with me these past weeks. Between job interviews, planning my very soon upcoming wedding (!!!), and just trying to juggle everything, time slipped away more than I meant it to.

Thank you so much for your patience and for sticking with this story—it truly means the world to me. This chapter is a little shorter than usual, but I still hope you enjoy it. It felt important to get this moment down and share it with you before the next big pieces fall into place.

As always, thank you for reading, commenting, crying with me, and just being here. 💛

Chapter Text

It took them nearly three days to cross the open sea again—three long, quiet days on half-rations and restless sleep, the salt stinging their skin and the sun never quite warm enough to shake off the chill that came from knowing .

Knowing the gang would never be what it was.
Knowing they’d have to keep running—just in a new direction.

They reached the shores of America under the cloak of night. Somewhere along the eastern coast. Quiet, dark, and unfamiliar. One by one, the captain dropped them off like scattered seeds. Not all in the same place—Dutch’s orders. “Too dangerous. We draw too much attention together,” he’d said.

Arthur and Jo were the first to go.

The dock at Van Horn was as miserable as Arthur remembered. Damp, crooked boards, and the stink of fish guts in the air. The town was quiet at this hour—just the sound of gulls crying and the lazy slosh of water against wood. The moon cast pale silver light across the harbor as the ship disappeared into the night, leaving them behind once more.

They walked along the worn docks, boots thudding softly, eyes scanning the shadows out of old habit. At the end of the pier, just where the boards met the street, stood a lone horse tied to a hitching post. Not a soul in sight.

Arthur glanced left. Jo looked right.

Silence.

They both looked at the horse. Then at each other.

Jo raised an eyebrow.

Arthur smirked, then strode over, untying the reins like it was the most natural thing in the world. He mounted up, adjusting the saddle as the horse gave a faint whinny. He looked down and offered Jo his hand.

She crossed her arms instead. “Stealin’ a horse? That’s low, cowboy,” she said, tone light but teasing.

Arthur feigned offense, pressing a hand to his chest. “I would never. Man’s gotta borrow sometimes, is all.”

“Borrow,” she echoed, smiling as she took his hand. He pulled her up behind him in one strong tug, and she settled on the rear of the saddle, her arms slipping around his waist out of instinct.

“Where we goin’?” she asked, her voice quieter now, close to his ear.

He hesitated. “Shady Belle.”

She didn’t answer at first, and he didn’t blame her.

“Dutch wants us checkin’ it. See if there’s anything left—letters, notes, somethin’.” He clicked the reins, and the horse began to move, slow at first, then picking up speed as they rode south, cutting through the foggy dark toward Lemoyne.

Neither of them said much after that.

They rode through the night.

Through the massive deposits of mud of Bluewater Marsh, the misty plains of Scarlett Meadows, crossing rivers and dusty tracks, cutting through fields that once felt familiar. It all looked the same and yet… different. Like they’d been gone longer than a few weeks. Like the world had changed without them.

The air grew heavier the closer they got to Lemoyne. The moss-draped trees, the faint hum of insects, the rising heat as dawn slowly broke over the swamps.

By the time they reached Shady Belle, the sky was a soft wash of purple and gold. Mist hung low over the yard, curling around the rotting porch pillars and overgrown path like ghost fingers reaching for the past.

Arthur slowed the horse to a trot.

Jo sat straighter behind him, her hand tightening on his side as she took in the eerie silence.

Shady Belle was empty.

Deserted.

A broken shell of a memory.

He dismounted, boots crunching softly over gravel and moss as he led the horse forward a few steps. Jo swung down behind him, both of them standing side by side, staring at the hollow house like it might speak.

Some things had been left behind. A jacket hanging over the porch rail. An empty canteen beside a tipped-over crate. A map pinned to the inside of the doorway, flapping gently in the breeze.

It felt like everyone had left in a hurry. Like they’d been running from something and hadn’t planned on coming back.

Arthur rubbed the back of his neck, jaw tight. “Guess we missed the party.”

Jo stepped ahead of him, slowly climbing the porch stairs, her boots echoing across the wood. She looked back once, and he followed, not needing a word between them.

Inside, the house was quiet.

No laughter. No voices. No clatter of dishes or crackle of the fire. Just dust, long shadows, and the faint creak of wood settling.

Arthur let out a breath and walked deeper in, past the old table where they used to eat, past the corner where Hosea used to sit reading. Past all of it.

The ghosts were thick here.

But it wasn’t fear that tightened his chest.

It was grief.

Jo didn’t speak, and he was grateful for it. Her presence was enough. Maybe the only thing keeping him from breaking something just to hear the sound of it.

They’d made it back. But the question that hung in the air, unanswered and heavy, was what they’d come back to.

Jo took the stairs slowly, her hand grazing the banister, fingers trailing dust. The old wood creaked beneath her boots—every step a memory.

The upper floor was dim, sunlight slipping in through cracked shutters, casting soft rays across the worn hallway. Paint peeled at the edges of the doorframes. It smelled like mildew and old tobacco.

Jo hesitated at the top, then turned toward the far room. Their room.

The door stood ajar.

She pushed it open with her fingertips, and her breath caught in her throat.

Empty.

The room was stripped bare. No blankets, no clothes, no signs of the life they’d once lived here—not the pistol she’d kept tucked under the mattress, nor the old coat Arthur always tossed on the chair. Even the photograph she’d left by the window was gone.

They took everything.

It shouldn’t have surprised her. Of course they did. Susan would’ve told them to clear the place out, make sure nothing traceable remained. But still, it felt like trespassing walking into this room and finding it hollow.

Her boots tapped softly on the wooden floor as she crossed to the window. The glass was dusty, smudged with a handprint—old, maybe hers. Maybe his.

She closed her eyes.

Hosea’s voice echoed faintly in her memory, that dry wit of his always offering calm in chaos. Lenny’s laugh followed, bright and boyish. She remembered him sitting on the stairs one evening, telling a story so animated he nearly fell backwards. They’d all roared with laughter that night.

Now, Hosea was dead. Lenny too.

Jo pressed her palm to the windowpane, swallowing down the ache in her throat. The silence of Shady Belle was louder than anything she’d heard on Guarma. And heavier.

 


 

Downstairs, Arthur moved with slow purpose.

He checked the kitchen first—emptied out. Then the main room. A few chairs remained, one tipped over near the hearth, the ashes long cold. He walked around the table, hand brushing across its surface, when something caught his eye.

A folded piece of paper, sitting square in the center like someone wanted it to be found.

He picked it up.

The handwriting was familiar. Feminine. 

Arthur unfolded the letter and scanned it quickly. Then again—slower this time.

Dear Uncle Tacitus,

I do so hope that you enjoyed your vacation. Lucky you! Leaving like that and you always suggested you were too old for travel. I hope you and your cousins enjoyed yourselves.

Me and your grandnieces have decided to take off on our own, as the place has become so dreary and godforsaken in your absence.

We have gone to visit relatives (from my Daddy’s side—you are not yet acquainted with them) in Lakay, a small village just north of Saint Denis.

It’s buggy and muggy, but apparently neither is too bad at this time of year. Please come see us when you can.

Yours sincerely,

Caroline

He exhaled through his nose, lips twitching in the smallest of smiles. Sadie. Always dramatic. Always smart.

The note was code, of course. “Uncle Tacitus” was the name they used when things got too hot. Arthur stood in the center of the quiet room, Sadie’s letter in hand, his thumb tracing the edge of the page. It brought a flicker of hope—Lakay, a place to go. A sign the gang was still breathing somewhere in the muck.

But then—

Voices.

Outside.

Male. Low and close enough that the floorboards seemed to tense with Arthur’s spine.

"Milton keeps sending us back every damn day to search this place."

Arthur’s blood turned to ice.

Milton.

The Pinkertons .

He stepped back from the table, eyes flicking to the front window. He moved quickly but silently, careful not to catch the creaky board beneath his heel. He peeked through the yellowing lace curtain.

Three of them.

Three Pinkertons had dismounted just outside the front porch. Their dark suits looked too stiff for the southern heat, and they all wore that air of smug authority—the kind that came with pistols and warrants. One adjusted his hat while another lit a cigarette, the match flaring briefly in the dusk.

"There quite clearly isn't a gang of outlaws holed up here," one of them muttered, impatience in his voice.

Arthur barely breathed.

He prayed Jo had heard them too. 

"Someone is here," one of the men said suddenly.

Arthur’s heart kicked against his ribs.

"Look," another added, pointing at the ground. "Those are fresh foot prints. Looks like someone might be here right now."

Arthur flattened against the wall beside the window. The room suddenly felt smaller. Too many exits. Not enough cover.

"Sure, someone’s here," one said sarcastically. “There’s always someone everywhere.”

But the third voice—older, sharper, the one with the perfectly groomed mustache and a clipped tone—cut through their banter.

"Let’s look around. See if we can find something for Mr. Milton."

Arthur didn’t wait for them to finish arguing about Milton.

He spun silently toward the back of the house just as Jo descended the stairs, her boots soundless on the steps. Their eyes locked. She opened her mouth to speak, but Arthur was already there, grabbing her wrist and pulling her into motion.

She resisted just slightly, instinctively, but he shook his head with a sharp shhh and his hand pressed gently but firmly to her lower back, urging her to keep moving. She didn’t argue again.

They slipped through the narrow hall toward the back door, Arthur pushing it open as quietly as he could. The rusted hinges gave a faint groan, but the voices up front were still talking—still distracted.

Out into the swamp.

The air was thick with humidity and frogsong, the kind of sticky quiet that clung to your skin and made every step feel heavier.

Arthur and Jo ducked low, crouching near the back wall of the house, breath held tight in their chests as they heard the front door creak open.

"I'll check the parlor. You two go upstairs."

Arthur clenched his jaw.

He turned to Jo, their faces inches apart in the dark. She nodded once, already guessing his plan.

They stayed low, boots silent in the grass as they circled the side of the house. Their stolen horse stood tethered just beyond the brush, shifting nervously like it sensed the tension too.

One of the agents walked right past the front window, casting a quick glance over the porch. They waited. Waited until his back was turned—until the others were inside.

Then they moved.

Arthur bolted forward first, grabbing the reins. Jo was right behind him.

He mounted fast, urgency in every movement. His hand reached back just in time for Jo to grab hold and swing up behind him, her arms circling his waist as he kicked the horse into motion.

They galloped away from Shady Belle, hooves pounding down the muddy trail, the house shrinking behind them until it was nothing but shadow and memory.

They rode hard at first—out of the trees, away from Shady Belle, away from the Pinkertons. The horse’s hooves splashed mud and shallow water as they crossed overgrown trails that once felt familiar, now foreign. The sky had begun to gray by the time the house was lost behind them, and the air grew thick with the promise of rain.

Arthur didn’t speak. His jaw was set, eyes fixed on the road ahead.

Jo sat behind him, arms loose around his waist, the warmth of him grounding her in the silence. She could still feel the thump of her heart in her chest, could still hear the echo of the Pinkertons' voices. For a long while, all that passed between them was the sound of hooves and the low groan of the wind as it swept through the trees.

Then—

A cold droplet landed on the back of her hand. Then another.
And another.

Within minutes, the sky opened, the clouds splitting like old cloth. Rain came down in curtains—warm and relentless, soaking through shirts and into boots. The horse didn’t slow. Neither did Arthur.

Jo finally leaned close enough for her voice to carry. “D’you even know where you’re goin’?”

He didn’t answer right away. His eyes stayed ahead, narrowed against the downpour, his hair dripping wet.

Then, without turning, he muttered, “Sadie left a letter. Said they went to Lakay. North of Saint Denis.”

He shifted slightly in the saddle, water sliding down his back. “Figured that’s where we oughta head.”

Jo blinked against the rain, brushing a strand of wet hair out of her face. “She left a letter?”

Arthur nodded once. “Called herself Caroline. Said the place was godforsaken, but it’s where they were headed. Ain’t much, but it’s somethin’.”

There was a quiet beat between them before Jo spoke again, her voice softer now. “Think we’ll find them?”

Arthur didn’t answer at first. His fingers tightened on the reins, guiding the horse down a narrow slope slick with wet leaves.

“…We better,” he said, his voice low and steady. “I ain’t losin’ nobody else.”

Jo didn’t press. She just leaned forward and rested her forehead against his back for a brief moment, letting the rain hide the sheen in her eyes.

They rode on, water rising in the ditches and birds scattering from the trees overhead. For the first time in days, they had direction. A purpose.

And each other.

Rain still poured from the sky as Lakay came into view—a haphazard cluster of sagging wooden shacks, half-swallowed by swamp and shadow. The place looked half-abandoned, but as the horse trotted slowly down the muddy path, Arthur and Jo both recognized familiar signs of life. Wagons. Saddles. A rope line of drying clothes that had been long forgotten in the storm.

Then—two horses, tethered side by side among others.

Atlas.
Laramie.

Arthur reined in the horse with a low “Whoa,” slowing it to a stop in the thick mud. His shoulders slumped just slightly in visible relief. This was it. They’d made it.

Jo’s eyes locked on the two horses, her chest tight, her throat aching. For a moment, they simply stared.

Then Arthur dismounted, boots squelching in the muck. He turned, water running down his hair, and reached up to her.

Jo didn’t say a word—she just took his hands and let him help her down. Her legs hit the ground unsteadily, exhaustion still weighing heavy in her limbs, but Arthur’s hands steadied her.

No one in sight. The place looked deserted.

But then—
A sharp chop of a cleaver.
A pause.
And a startled voice.

“Arthur! Jo!”

They both turned just as Pearson stepped out from under the overhang of one of the shacks, a slab of meat still in one hand and the cleaver dripping in the other. His eyes were wide with disbelief, mouth open like a fish gasping for air.

“You’re—you're back!”

Before either could answer, another voice cried out.

“Oh, thank god—!”

Abigail came bursting out from behind Pearson, skirts wet and sticking to her legs, hair already soaked to her scalp. She ran straight for them, her arms thrown wide.

Jo barely had time to brace herself before Abigail crashed into her, pulling her into a tight, desperate hug. Jo stiffened at first—unused to such sudden affection—but her body relaxed as the familiarity of the gang slowly crept back in, warm and overwhelming despite the cold rain.

“You’re alive!” Abigail cried into her shoulder. “We—we thought you—!”

Jo gave a soft, hoarse laugh, hugging her back. “Yeah… we did too.”

Abigail pulled back just enough to cup Jo’s face between her hands, her eyes wet—whether from rain or tears, Jo wasn’t sure. “You look like hell,” she said with a breathless smile.

“Thanks,” Jo smirked. “I missed you too.”

Then Abigail turned and pulled Arthur into a quick, fierce hug. He stiffened slightly—never one for embraces—but returned it with a tired pat on the back.

“You two… We thought we lost you,” Abigail murmured.

Arthur glanced around the camp, water dripping from his mustache. “Dutch here yet?” he asked, low but firm.

Abigail, still breathless from the reunion, shook her head. “Not yet. Come on, both of you—get inside before you freeze to death.”

She motioned them toward the largest shack, a crooked structure with peeling planks and patched-up gaps in the walls. Smoke rose faintly from a metal chimney above, and through the open door, they could already see flickering lamplight and shifting shadows—warmth, at last.

Jo and Arthur stepped in, shoulders brushing as they passed through the threshold.

The warmth hit them like a wall—wood stove crackling near the center, casting a golden glow across the room. Every set of eyes turned to them.

Tilly was the first to stand. “Oh my God,” she gasped, her hand flying to her mouth. “You’re—Arthur! Jo!”

Mary-Beth stood quickly too, her journal sliding forgotten from her lap. “You’re alive!”

Karen let out a sound that was somewhere between a sob and a laugh, whiskey glass in one hand, eyes wide and bloodshot. Even Uncle sat up straighter from his slump in the corner.

Swanson muttered a dazed “Blessed be…” while Strauss merely blinked in surprise, but it was Charles who stood with purpose, stepping toward Arthur.

The two men clasped shoulders, saying nothing for a long moment—there was nothing to say that hadn’t already been felt in the space between them. Just the heavy press of gratitude and relief. 

Jo barely had time to catch her breath before Tilly and Mary-Beth had her in their arms, talking over each other—“We thought you were gone,” “We prayed you’d come back,” “Oh, your hair’s soaked, sit down!”

But Arthur noticed him.

Micah.

Leaning back against the far wall, arms crossed, a sour look already pulling at his face. Of course he was here. Of course he’d made it back first .

“Look who finally decided to wash ashore,” Micah muttered with a smirk, but no one paid him any mind. Not now.

Arthur ignored him. He had more important things to focus on.

Abigail shut the door behind them and quickly began ushering them to the table. “Sit, sit—God, you must be starving.”

“We are,” Jo mumbled through chattering teeth, letting herself collapse onto one of the creaky chairs. Arthur followed suit, groaning softly as he sat. The trip from Guarma had drained the life out of them, and the past few hours had only added more weight to carry.

In moments, a plate of reheated stew and a tin cup of water were set before them—Abigail’s doing, and maybe Tilly’s too. Jo didn’t ask. She just grabbed the spoon, her fingers trembling slightly, and began to eat like a woman starved.

Arthur didn’t waste time either. He muttered a quiet “Thank you,” before downing the water and digging into the food.

They were halfway through their second helping when Abigail finally spoke again—quiet, like the words themselves were difficult to get out.

“John… got arrested.”

Jo’s spoon stilled, just shy of her mouth.

Arthur looked up slowly, brow furrowing.

“It was during the bank job,” Abigail went on. “He got caught…”

Arthur lowered his spoon. “Ain’t hanged yet?”

Sadie nodded, “They moved him to Sisika.”

Arthur let out a slow breath, closing his eyes for a second. Sisika. That was bad. That was real bad. Federal prison. Isolated. Guarded. You don’t just stroll in and get someone out of there.

“How long?” Arthur asked.

“Couple weeks,” Abigail said. “We didn’t even know where they took him until last week. But… we’ve done nothin’ yet. We didn’t know if any of you were even alive.”

Jo’s spoon paused in mid-air. The stew had gone lukewarm, but she wasn’t eating anymore. She swallowed hard, jaw clenched. “You’ve just been waitin’?”

“We weren’t gonna do anything without Dutch and Arthur,” she replied, voice tight. “Or you. Charles and Sadie been tryin’ to hold things together. But it’s been chaos, Arthur. Everyone scattered. Half of us didn’t even end up here until days after Saint Denis.”

Tilly nodded from the other side of the room. “Sadie’s the one who brought us here… we didn’t know who made it out and who didn’t.”

“They were both at the bank,” Mary-Beth added softly, her eyes flicking up to Arthur. “Hosea and Lenny… We went back for them.”

A beat passed—heavy, full of that horrible kind of silence that feels like it might never end.

Jo shifted slightly in her seat. Her face was unreadable, but her eyes burned. She hadn’t spoken a word since Abigail mentioned John. Now she stared into the fire, like if she looked hard enough, she might find a way to rewrite the past.

Arthur ran a hand down his face, as if trying to scrub away the weight that settled on him since he’d stepped into the room.

“Buried them next to each other,” Charles said, speaking up for the first time.

Arthur stared at the floor. Of course they did.

​​He felt Jo’s hand brush lightly against his under the table, her fingers cold but steady. She didn’t squeeze, didn’t say a word. Just let him know she was there.

He breathed in through his nose, slow and tight.

 


 

Night had crept over Lakay like a wet shroud, the rain still steady outside, drumming on the shacks and wagons with a dull rhythm that blended into the hush of the camp. A few lanterns cast flickering gold across the warped wood floors. Tilly and Abigail were working by the small fire in the main shack, slicing potatoes and drying out whatever they could salvage for dinner. Most others were tucked in corners, resting, whispering, waiting for the next weight to drop.

The door burst open without warning—no knock, no call. Just a gust of wind and rain and the silhouette of a man soaked to the bone, tall and broad-shouldered, with that unmistakable air of command.

“Dutch!” someone gasped.

“He’s back!”

Gasps turned to exclamations, voices rising. Bill came in behind him, equally drenched and dragging mud on the floorboards, but no one cared.

“Dutch!” “You made it!” “Thank the Lord!”

Water streaming down Dutch’s clothes and from the ends of his mustache. His eyes swept the room—wild, searching—before landing on Arthur, then Jo, then the rest. He took a slow breath, jaw twitching, voice raw from the sea.

“How’d you folks find each other?” he asked, stepping further into the room. “What happened?”

He swayed a little, exhaustion wearing at his every motion. “Can… can somebody get me a cup of coffee or something?”

“I’ll get it,” Tilly said quickly, already moving.

Jo stood from the crate she’d been sitting on, stiff from the cold. Arthur stayed seated, his hands braced on his knees as he watched Dutch with unreadable eyes.

Strauss stepped forward, smoothing his vest like always, voice clipped with his thick German accent. “It was Mrs. Adler who saved us, Dutch,” he said. “After the robbery in Saint Denis, she got us away from the camp before the Pinkertons turned up. Then Mrs. Adler and Mr. Smith drove away the degenerates who were living here.”

Dutch turned, slowly, eyes fixing on Sadie where she stood near the far wall, arms crossed, jaw tight.

“Mrs. Adler,” he said, quieter now. “We owe you.”

Sadie blinked, clearly not expecting that. She gave a small nod, her usual steel not faltering, though the glint of surprise showed in her eyes.

Then someone clapped—Uncle maybe, or Pearson—and that was enough to start a chorus of cheering, whistling, and raised beers. A wave of warmth swept the room, momentarily cutting through the rain and cold. Sadie gave a faint smile, tipping her head to acknowledge them, but stayed planted. She was used to surviving alone. This kind of attention wasn’t easy.

Arthur finally stood, his limbs stiff, gaze meeting Dutch’s for a beat. The man looked worn, but not broken. Not yet.

Dutch took the coffee from Tilly’s hands with a murmured “thank you,” then turned to the rest of the room, lifting the tin cup slightly.

Before he could speak, Tilly’s voice cut gently through the hum of the fire.

“It’s been real hard, Dutch…” she said, her tone almost apologetic, but weary, too. She sat on an overturned crate near the hearth, her dark curls damp and clinging to her cheeks. “We… we been survivin’, but only just. What we gonna do?”

A hush followed her words. All eyes shifted to Dutch.

He gave a slow nod, solemn, shoulders rising with a breath that seemed too shallow for all he carried.

“Things have been tough,” he said, voice strong, but soft around the edges. “There ain’t no doubt about that. Trust me…” He paused and turned a little, sweeping his gaze across the dimly lit shack. “I am gonna get us outta here. This ain’t over.”

Jo looked up from where she sat near the far wall, arms wrapped around her knees, watching Dutch as he made promises like poetry. His voice was smooth, familiar, and yet—something in it was harder now. Less grounded. The conviction was there, but so was the mania, hidden behind a calm smile and a tin cup of lukewarm coffee.

Arthur leaned against the wall beside her, one boot crossed over the other, arms folded. He watched Dutch, face unreadable. His jaw ticked slightly, but he said nothing.

Then came Micah’s voice—oily and amused.

“Ain’t none of you folks interested in our adventures?” he asked, leaning forward, elbows resting on his knees. His grin was crooked, always too proud of itself.

Jo barely glanced at him. She already felt the bile rise in her throat. His voice was like a splinter under her skin.

“Guess we’re more interested in escapin’ the hangmen on our tail,” Abigail snapped back. She stood near the fire, wringing out a cloth, her eyes sharp and tired.

“Cheerful nymph of the prairie, wasn’t you, Abigail?” Micah drawled, tilting his head with a smirk. He always tried to flirt with her—always failed.

Arthur shifted at that. Just a small movement. But Jo saw it.

“Oh sure…” Abigail retorted, sarcasm thick in her voice, “my fair heart jumps for joy when I set eyes on you, Micah.”

Micah chuckled, low and satisfied. Like it was a game. Like none of this mattered.

Jo clenched her jaw. She wanted to tell him to shut the hell up. Wanted to see if that cocky smile would stay if she cracked it off his face. But instead she leaned into Arthur a little, brushing his hand with hers where it rested on his knee. She didn’t say anything. Just needed to feel that he was real beside her.

On a more somber note, Abigail’s voice softened as she turned to Dutch.

“We buried Hosea, Dutch,” she said quietly. “Charles and I stole his body from the law one night and… gave him a proper burial. It was real nice.”

Dutch froze.

The crack in his armor wasn’t visible to most—but Arthur saw it. Jo did too. The flicker in Dutch’s eyes, the breath that hitched in his chest before he gave a slow nod.

“Thank you,” he said, voice thick. “That means… a lot.”

Arthur lowered his head. His thumb grazed his fingers slowly, like a man trying to hold something slipping through his grasp.

Hosea.

Jo didn’t speak, but her throat tightened. The last time she saw the old man, she had screamed at him hurtful things. She didn’t know if she’d ever forgive herself for it. 

Arthur reached up, scratched the side of his face, rough and quick like he needed to do something with his hands before the grief sank deeper. He didn’t look at anyone.

Rain tapped on the roof like a thousand tiny fingers. Everyone was quiet again, each lost in their own thoughts, each person staring into the walls or the past.

And for a moment, it felt like ghosts filled more of the room than the living.

“This is agent Milton with the Pinkerton Detective Agency!”

 


 

Charles had been the first to learn what truly happened on Guarma.

It hadn’t taken much for Arthur to open up—there was something about Charles, something grounded and unwavering, that made the weight on Arthur’s chest a little easier to carry. They were supposed to be scouting new ground for the gang, just like old times, but Arthur had his own reasons for drawing the task out.

He needed to talk to someone. Someone who might understand.

And Charles listened. Quietly. Patiently. Never once interrupting, even as Arthur recounted the madness of the island, the bloodshed, the betrayal. He told him about the sugar plantation, the revolutionaries, the heat that stuck to their skin like a second coat, the fever dreams, the violence. And then, about Dutch.

How something had shifted in him. Not just the anger—that had always been there—but something colder. Sharper. A recklessness that didn’t sit right in Arthur’s gut. Charles didn’t speak for a long time after that. He just stared out toward the trees, arms crossed, jaw tight.

At first, he was cautious—not quite ready to let go of Dutch’s old promises. But Charles had always been one of the few who saw beyond the smoke and mirrors. His loyalty to Dutch had been rooted more in respect than faith. And that respect had been fraying long before Arthur admitted his own doubts.

But it wasn’t just the gang anymore—not for Charles.

He had other concerns now. Other responsibilities.

The Wapiti tribe was also on his mind, and Arthur could see it in his eyes when the conversation drifted that way. Charles hadn’t just found a cause—he’d found kin. His mother’s people, fighting for their survival against the same kind of greed the gang had once claimed to be escaping. The army was bearing down on them like wolves in the snow, and Charles had been doing what he could, quietly and steadily, to protect them. To help them stand.

It mattered to him. Deeply.

The gang was his past, but the Wapiti might be his future. And Arthur respected that more than he could say.

Still, despite everything pulling him in different directions, Charles hadn’t hesitated when Arthur asked for help. That meant something. Loyalty that hadn’t been twisted by Dutch’s charm or poisoned by empty promises.

Their search had taken them far—farther than the gang had planned, farther than Arthur himself expected. The Murfree Brood, wild and deranged and twisted as they were, had been hard to dislodge. But they’d done it. The dark cave was desolate, crumbling, perfect in its own way. Hidden deep in the woods, swallowed by time and fog and silence. A place where ghosts might rest.

Or breed.

Charles didn’t say much after they cleared it out. He just nodded when Arthur said it would do. The place didn’t feel safe, not in the usual way, but what did anymore? Safety was a myth, and the world was changing faster than any of them could keep up with.

But Charles had agreed to help him. No matter what. Because loyalty, to him, wasn’t about words. It was action. It was standing by the ones who’d earned your trust, even when the ground beneath you shifted.

Arthur didn’t say it aloud, but it meant something. More than he could put into words. That in all the chaos—amid the lies and Dutch’s unraveling mind—someone still had his back.

Even if the road ahead was darker than ever.

 


 

While Arthur was gone with Charles, Jo kept herself busy in the only way she knew how—by acting. Waiting around wasn’t in her nature, not when things were crumbling around them.

And there was plenty to do.

While the rest of the gang packed up in preparation for yet another move—this time to wherever Arthur and Charles would stake their claim—Jo took to the road with Sadie. The goal was simple in theory, near impossible in practice: find a way to get John out of Sisika Penitentiary.

Saying Abigail was breathing down their necks would’ve been a kindness. The woman was relentless. Grief-stricken, determined, furious. And beneath all of it, Jo could see it clear as day—Abigail still loved that man. Whatever else they had been through, whatever mistakes John had made, she still held on like hell to the hope that he’d make it out alive.

Jo respected that.

But Sisika was no average prison. It was an island fortress—a damp, stone-fisted place surrounded by water and crawling with guards. Breaking someone out of there wouldn’t just take guts. It would take precision. Planning. Patience. And first, they had to make sure John was even still alive.

So they did what they could: asked questions. Quietly. Paid for whispers and watched ferry traffic. Studied patrols and uniforms and all the things Jo would’ve never noticed on her own but had since learned to see through Sadie’s sharp eyes. The woman was like flint and steel—hard, focused, ready to strike.

At first, their partnership was all practicality. But the miles and rain and tense silences had a way of peeling things back. One night, while camped near the river’s bend, Sadie finally turned to her and asked, “So… Guarma. What the hell happened out there?”

Jo hesitated, then told her.

Not everything. Not yet. But enough. Enough for Sadie’s brows to knit together and her mouth to tighten.

And then Jo went further. About Dutch. His decisions. His violence. His indifference to innocent lives. The way he’d turned colder, crueler—less a leader, more a man unraveling in front of their eyes.

At first, Sadie scoffed. "Dutch? He’s always been a little dramatic. That ain’t new."

But as Jo pressed on, as her voice cracked just slightly when she mentioned Hosea, and how Dutch had killed an old woman out of anger in a cave as Arthur and him were coming to rescue Javier and her—Sadie’s silence grew heavier.

By the time Jo fell quiet, the fire between them had burned low, leaving only cinders and thought.

They didn’t speak of it again. They didn’t need to.

Because something had shifted.

Neither Jo nor Arthur had said the words aloud— not yet . They hadn’t dared speak of truly leaving Dutch, or turning others against him. But seeds had been planted. In Charles. In Sadie.

And once they pulled John from that prison—and they would —he’d be the next to see it. And Abigail wouldn’t be far behind.

It was only a matter of time.

Time before they all opened their eyes to the man Dutch van der Linde had become.

Chapter 35: Where Loyalties Lie

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Everything was a goddamn mess.

That was all she could think of as her knees sank slowly into the damp soil. The ground was cold, soft from last night’s rain, and it soaked right through the fabric of her trousers, but she didn’t move. She didn’t even flinch.

Her hands rested against her thighs, knuckles pale, and her eyes stared ahead—unblinking, empty—as if the horizon could offer some kind of answer.

But there were no answers here.

Only silence. Only questions that gnawed at her like old wounds reopened.

How did they get here?
When had it all started to fall apart?
Had they ever truly been okay to begin with?

She didn't know.
And that terrified her more than anything.

Her face was pale, rain-darkened hair clinging to her cheeks, eyes glassy and rimmed with sleepless shadows. She sat like that for a long time, shoulders rising and falling with each slow, quiet breath. The world behind her blurred, undefined. Only she remained in sharp focus.

Her thoughts circled the same tracks, relentless.

They’d gotten confirmation John was still alive— that was something. The only bright spot in this whole damn mess. A plan was in motion now, thanks to Sadie’s grit and Arthur’s resolve. But everything else? Everything else felt like the slow collapse of something sacred.

Molly was dead.

Shot by Susan.

Drunken, screaming Molly, who’d wandered back into camp wild-eyed and slurring curses. She’d claimed she talked to the Pinkertons—maybe she had, maybe she hadn’t. Maybe she just wanted Dutch to look at her one more time. But Susan didn’t wait to find out. She’d pulled the trigger without blinking.

And now she was gone.

Jo had never been close to Molly. No one really had. But that didn’t make it any easier.

She swallowed hard, lips parting slightly as she whispered into the heavy air:

“Everything’s a mess…”

Her voice was quiet, nearly lost to the low rustle of wind through the marsh grass.

She was lost.

Utterly and completely.

They had left behind so many pieces of themselves on the road to wherever the hell they were headed now. So many faces. So many names. Jenny. Davey. Mac. Sean. Kieran. Ben. Hosea. Lenny. Molly. Her own past was starting to bleed into the present, too—old wounds tearing open again with every choice, every lie.

What were they even doing anymore? Was this still survival? Or were they just running in circles, clinging to a man who no longer saw reason, no longer led, just commanded ?

She blinked slowly, and the world finally began to shift.

The frame widened.
The angle began to change.
Slowly, ever so slowly, like a breath held too long.

What was in front of her all along became clearer. 

Two graves.

Simple. Humble. Marked only with wooden crosses etched with names that no longer needed explanation.

Hosea Matthews.
Lenny Summers.

They were side by side, nestled at the edge of Bluewater Marsh where the fog never truly lifted. The earth around them was still soft, freshly turned. A small bundle of wildflowers lay at the base of Hosea’s marker, their petals damp and darkened by dew.

A soft breeze stirred the air, lifting Jo’s hair from her face, brushing against her cheek like a ghost of something gentle—something lost.

Her throat tightened, and she leaned forward slightly, gaze fixed on Hosea’s name.

“What’re we gonna do without you, Hosea?” she whispered.

There was no answer, of course. Just the hush of wind and the distant creak of the marsh.

She sat there in the silence, eyes burning, hands clenched, heart unraveling.

Because even now, even after everything, part of her still hoped for his voice—his wisdom, his calm. A soft reprimand, maybe. A warm chuckle. Anything.

But all she had now were memories. And the creeping dread that the worst hadn’t come yet.

And the man they used to follow?

He was slipping further from them by the day.

The air smelled like wet earth and moss, the scent curling in the back of her throat. A light drizzle had started again, brushing soft against her skin like the world was crying with her, though the clouds were beginning to part, and narrow rays of light spilled through the trees in pale slants. The kind of golden beams that cut through the gloom but didn’t quite chase it away.

Jo stayed where she was, unmoving before the graves, her breath coming slow and uneven. The world around her had faded to a hush.

Only the graves.
Only her thoughts.
Only the ache in her chest.

She didn’t know how long she sat there, knees growing stiff, fingers digging lightly into the soil. A mosquito buzzed by her ear and she didn’t even blink.

Everything that had led them here came rushing back like a flood—the choices, the lies, the fear, the silence. Every road she took that forked into darker and darker paths. Every moment she’d bitten her tongue instead of speaking. Every time she’d chosen loyalty over truth.

And worst of all—every word she couldn’t take back.

Jo drew a trembling breath and looked down, her voice hoarse, no louder than the breeze.

“Who's gonna guide Dutch now?”

The words tasted bitter.

Not because she didn’t know the answer, but because she did.

No one.

Not anymore.

Without Hosea, Dutch had drifted so far off course he wasn’t even casting shadows in the same direction. And still, they followed. Still, they clung to a dream already dying in their hands.

She blinked slowly, the first tear slipping down without warning. She didn’t even feel it at first, only noticed when it traced over her lip.

Her voice cracked, just a breath—barely audible.

“I didn’t mean what I said,” she whispered.

More tears followed, hot despite the coolness of the rain. Her shoulders curled inward slightly, the kind of fold that came not from pain, but the effort of holding it in too long.

“You wasn’t... you wasn’t just a part of this gang. You were my guide,” she murmured, lower now, the confession rising from a place buried so deep she barely recognized the voice that spoke. “You was the one I looked up to when I didn’t know who I was no more.”

A sob built in her throat, sharp and sudden, and she turned her face slightly, teeth gritting against it. But it came anyway, raw and ragged.

“I’m sorry.”

Her hand pressed lightly to her lips like she could swallow it all back, all the grief, all the guilt.

“I need your help,” she said, breath hitching. “I need you... more than ever.”

The words were broken glass, tumbling from a place too fragile to hold them anymore.

Her hands curled into fists against the damp earth, shoulders shaking now.

“I’m sorry,” she repeated, again and again, voice fraying at the edges. “Please forgive me. I–I failed you.”

Another sob broke through her chest.

“I’m so sorry...”

Rain clung to her lashes, slid down her cheeks, and whether the sky was weeping with her or not, she didn’t know anymore.

But the sun was still trying.

Thin, golden light crept across the ground, crawling ever so slowly over the edge of Hosea’s grave, warming the top of the marker. The breeze picked up again, gentle as a hand brushing her shoulder.

No words came from the grave. No comfort.

But something in the stillness told her she hadn’t been left behind entirely.

That maybe, just maybe, Hosea had already forgiven her.

She closed her eyes, folded forward with quiet reverence, and let herself grieve. Not just for him. Not just for what was lost.

But for the person she used to be—and the one she still might become.

Her tears slowed, breath drawing in deeper now, steadier. She stayed like that for a while longer—head bowed, eyes closed—letting the weight settle in her chest until she could carry it without crumbling. The silence around her no longer felt so suffocating. It was heavier now, yes… but not empty.

And when she finally moved, it wasn’t with hesitation.

Jo straightened slowly, hands pushing against her knees as she rose to her feet, joints stiff from the time spent kneeling in the damp earth. Her eyes, red-rimmed and still wet, lifted toward the sky—a sky split between gloom and gold, rain and light. The clouds were still parting, slowly, like they too were struggling to let go of the storm.

Her jaw tightened.

Her fingers curled at her sides, clenching with purpose this time.

“Can’t change what I said,” she murmured, gaze locked on the graves before her now, the names carved deep into the stone. “Can’t bring you back.”

A breeze stirred through the trees, rustling the moss-draped branches above her head.

“But I can try to fix what’s left.”

Her voice was firmer now, the weight of her promise anchoring each word. She took a slow step back, boots sinking slightly in the damp ground, and placed her hand over her chest for a moment.

“I swear to you, Hosea... I’m gonna help them. I don’t care what it takes. Arthur and I—we’ll get them out. We’ll pull who we can from this goddamn sinking ship.”

Her eyes darkened, mouth curling with quiet fury. “Dutch’s dream used to mean something. You kept him grounded. You kept us grounded.”

She exhaled through her nose, a sharp breath.

“But now he’s listening to him . To Micah.”

She didn’t say his name with venom. No—it was colder than that. A loathing so deep it no longer needed fire to burn.

“Every choice Dutch makes now is more reckless, more selfish. He don’t even see us anymore. And if we don’t do something soon...”

She glanced toward the marshland, where the murky water stretched like a mirror of the sky.

“…this whole gang’s gonna go down with him.”

She took one last look at the graves. Hosea’s. Lenny’s. The losses they carried like shadows stitched to their backs. And still more would come if they didn’t act.

Jo nodded once, solemn and steady.

“I’ll do whatever I have to. If it costs me everything... so be it.”

The rain eased into nothing more than a mist, the sun breaking just enough to cast long streaks of amber across the clearing. It lit her profile in quiet defiance—grief-stricken, but unbroken.

Jo turned and walked away from the graves.

She didn’t look back.

But her vow lingered there in the air like smoke after a fire.

And she meant every word.

 


 

Arthur had been waiting for a little while now, just far enough off the trail that the brush gave some cover, but close enough to still keep an eye on the open stretch of land rolling ahead. The sun was starting to burn through the last wisps of mist hanging over the trees, casting a pale gold over everything, and for once, it felt like the world wasn’t pressing down so hard.

It felt good to be back in the saddle again, riding Atlas through proper country. After Guarma—after the heat, the chaos, the helplessness—just feeling the familiar weight of his gear and the quiet strength of his horse beneath him brought a kind of calm he hadn’t realized he missed so bad. Being able to shave helped too. He hadn’t missed the damn beard scratching his collarbone every time he turned his head. Jo seemed to like him cleaner too, judging by the way she’d looked at him last time.

The sound of hooves broke the stillness, distant at first, then growing fast. He glanced up from where he sat, reins loose in his gloved hand, and sure enough, the sleek dark figure of Laramie crested the hill. Her coat glinted in the sun, and atop her, as steady and sharp as ever, was Jo.

His chest tightened just a little. Funny how that still happened.

She was something to see like that—hair tousled by the wind, rifle slung across her back, silhouette carved against the sunlight like she belonged to it. Strong, sure, beautiful in a way that didn’t ask for attention but drew it all the same.

Laramie slowed as she neared, hooves kicking up a soft scatter of earth, and Jo eased her into a smooth halt right in front of Atlas. Arthur caught her eyes immediately.

Red-rimmed.

She’d cried.

He didn’t say anything, didn’t ask. He knew better than to press. If she wanted to tell him, she would. And if she didn’t... well, some things didn’t need to be spoken to be understood.

“Hey,” she greeted, voice a little hoarse but steady.

He gave a slight nod, meeting her gaze with quiet understanding. “Hey.”

For a beat, they just sat there—her on Laramie, him on Atlas—the morning light weaving around them, the silence not uncomfortable, just heavy with everything unspoken.

“You ready?” she asked, adjusting her reins.

Arthur shifted in the saddle, giving Atlas a gentle squeeze with his knees. “Been ready.”

Jo gave a soft hum, almost a smile, then clicked her tongue to Laramie, starting off down the trail.

Arthur followed.

Side by side, they rode north toward Copperhead Landing—toward Sadie, toward John, toward whatever hell they’d have to tear through to get him out.

And neither of them looked back.

The path to Copperhead Landing wasn’t far, and neither of them were in a rush, not yet. They took their time along the winding trail, the canopy overhead letting in streaks of sunlight through the shifting leaves. A light breeze moved the branches, whispering through the trees like the woods themselves were holding their breath.

Arthur let Atlas settle into a comfortable pace beside Laramie. He glanced at Jo out of the corner of his eye from time to time—she hadn’t spoken since they set off, jaw tight, eyes fixed forward. Whatever she'd faced alone before meeting him clearly hadn't left her untouched.

He wanted to reach for her—say something soft, offer the comfort she never asked for but he knew she sometimes needed. But she was quiet. Not closed, just... collecting herself. So he gave her that. Gave her space.

Still, the silence didn’t stretch too long.

“Think this gonna work?” she asked suddenly, her voice just loud enough to be heard over the clop of hooves.

Arthur blinked, then looked over. “John?”

She nodded.

He let out a breath, lips pulling into a half-smirk. “Sadie’s got a look in her eye. You know how she gets.”

That pulled a ghost of a smile from Jo. “Yeah,” she murmured. “Woman’s got fire.”

They rode a few more paces before Jo spoke again, quieter this time, as if talking more to herself than him. “He needs to make it out. For Abigail. For Jack.”

Arthur nodded slowly. 

A silence followed, softer than the last.

He looked at her again, noticing how the morning light painted warm hues along her profile, catching in the strands of her hair. Her hat shaded her eyes, but he could still see the wear in them. She carried the weight of a thousand things unspoken. He didn’t need to ask to feel it.

She must’ve felt him looking, because she turned her head a little. “You’re quiet,” she said.

He shrugged. “Just thinkin’.”

“About?”

Arthur hesitated, then gave a small shake of his head. “You. Me. All of this. Feels like the world’s comin’ apart in slow motion.”

Jo hummed in agreement. “It is.”

Neither one of them had the strength left for comforting lies.

But then she looked ahead again, spine a little straighter in the saddle, and something in her set firm. “We’re gonna fix it,” she said. “Or die tryin’.”

Arthur glanced down at his hands on the reins, then up toward the road ahead. “Yeah,” he said. “We are.”

The trees began to thin, and the river came into view through the branches. The smell of wet grass and distant smoke carried on the wind. Copperhead Landing wasn’t far now. The calm before the storm.

Arthur shifted in his saddle, clearing his throat softly. “For what it’s worth,” he said, voice low, “I’m glad you’re ridin’ with me.”

It wasn’t just about the mission, or the road beneath them. He meant her. He meant always.

Jo turned toward him then—really looked at him—and in her eyes, he saw the weight she bore, the pain, the regret… but also something strong. Fierce. Steady.

“I always will,” she said.

The sound of raised voices reached them just as Arthur and Jo guided their horses down the last stretch of trail toward the dock at Copperhead Landing. The river glittered ahead in the light of late morning, its slow-moving waters lapping gently at the wooden planks. A rowboat rocked softly, tethered to one of the posts, and beside it stood Abigail, hands clenched into fists at her sides.

“The thing is, Sadie, I really can’t—I must come, he’s my husband!” Abigail’s voice cut through the stillness, sharp with frustration.

Sadie Adler sat coolly on a weathered post, legs slightly spread for balance, methodically cleaning her revolver. The steel caught a brief flash of sunlight as she tilted it in her hands. Her hat was pulled low, shielding her eyes, but her tone carried no room for argument.

“I know he’s your husband, but it’s gonna be…” she paused, checking the cylinder before snapping it shut with a sharp click, “well, it’s gonna be violent.”

Arthur slowed Atlas to a walk beside Jo on Laramie, his brows pulling together as they neared the dock.

“I can handle myself just fine… I’m comin’,” Abigail insisted, stepping forward, eyes blazing.

Sadie didn’t even look up. “Like I said. Ain’t happenin’. You got a boy.”

Jo and Arthur halted their horses just a few paces away. The tension between the two women hit them like humidity, thick and clinging. Jo dismounted silently, letting her boots thud against the damp soil, and moved to stand near Abigail without a word. Arthur followed suit, his eyes sweeping over the small scene as if assessing the terrain before a gunfight.

“I insist!” Abigail snapped, stomping her foot down hard on the dock.

Sadie sighed through her nose, calm as ever, still focused on her revolver. “Insist all you like. Ain’t happenin’.”

Finally, she stood, holstering the weapon, then turned as Arthur and Jo approached. “Arthur,” she said, brushing her gloves off on her pants, “tell her.”

Arthur squinted, feigning innocence. “Tell her what?”

Sadie cocked her head toward Abigail. “She ain’t comin’ with us to collect her husband.”

“I—” Abigail began, but Arthur’s voice cut in before she could finish.

“Abigail, you ain’t comin’. That’s the end of the matter.”

His tone was final. Low and firm, with just a hint of sympathy buried beneath the steel. He knew Sadie well enough to know that fighting her on this would go nowhere. And truth be told, he agreed. It was too dangerous. John was locked in Sisika damn Penitentiary, not some backwater jail. It wasn’t just about breaking in—it was about getting back out.

And if Arthur had his way, he’d keep Jo far away from it too. But that was a battle he wouldn’t win. Not with her.

“You heard him,” Sadie added, tossing off the rope that secured the rowboat. “Now let’s go.”

“But—” Abigail tried again, eyes pleading now, flicking between each of them.

Arthur stepped into the boat, steadying it with his boot, then extended a hand up toward Jo, who still stood beside Abigail.

“But nothing,” Sadie muttered as she climbed in beside him. “It’ll be quicker and easier with just the three of us.”

She reached for one of the oars, then added without looking back, “Plus, John’ll be calmer without worryin’ about you. Ain’t complicated.”

Arthur’s hand was outstretched, steady in the air between them. The small rowboat rocked gently beneath his feet as he braced it with his boot. Jo looked at it—his hand—and then past him, toward Abigail.

She didn’t move right away.

Her fingers hovered just inches from his, not quite meeting them. They brushed, loosely, like a whisper. Arthur looked up at her, brow furrowing ever so slightly when she didn’t step forward. Instead, her hand slid out of his grasp and fell back to her side.

“I’m gonna make sure Abigail gets back to camp safely,” she said softly, her voice low but steady, filled with quiet resolve.

Arthur blinked once, a breath of relief passing through him before he could stop it. He hadn’t said it out loud, but he didn’t want her on that boat—not this time. Not for this. He knew what they were walking into. A prison break in Sisika wasn’t just risky—it was damn near suicidal.

But he didn’t let that relief show on his face. Not too much. He simply tilted his head and said, “You sure?”

Jo nodded, eyes not leaving his. “Yeah. I’m sure.”

They didn’t need to say more than that.

Arthur knew her well enough now to understand the layers in her decision. She wasn’t staying behind out of fear—hell no. She was staying because she cared . Because she saw the weight Abigail was carrying, and she was the only one who’d noticed it enough to do something about it.

Besides, someone had to look after the ones left waiting.

“Alright then,” he murmured, stepping back just enough to allow Sadie more space in the boat. “We’ll see you back at camp.”

“Be safe,” she said quietly. Her gaze flicked to Sadie for a beat, then settled back on Arthur. “Both of ya. And bring him home.”

Arthur gave her a small nod, jaw tightening slightly as he climbed back down into his seat.

As the boat shifted and creaked with movement, Jo turned to Abigail, laying a hand gently on her arm. The contact startled her a little. Abigail blinked fast, as if she’d only just realized she was still there—still standing, still holding back a storm.

She exhaled hard through her nose, shook her head slightly, then muttered, “Ain’t the cryin’ sort, but… I’m real grateful.”

“We know you are,” Sadie said with a quick glance over her shoulder as she settled into her seat. “We’ll bring him back to ya.” She gave the two women a short wave. 

The oars dipped into the water with a quiet splash. The rowboat pushed off, drifting slowly into the current.

“Thank you!” Abigail called after them, her voice catching in her throat but still strong as it echoed across the river. “Thank you both!”

Jo stood beside her for a moment longer, watching the water carry her friends into the distance, into danger. The boat shrank with every pull of the oars.

Then, finally, she turned back to Abigail, her voice gentle but sure. “Let’s head back.”

Laramie let out a low nicker, shifting her weight as Jo mounted with practiced ease. She extended a hand toward Abigail without hesitation.

“Come on up.”

Abigail hesitated, glancing once more at the river. But she nodded, eyes still distant, and reached for Jo’s hand. She was lighter than she looked, or maybe Jo just felt strong in that moment, anchoring them both as she helped her up and settled her behind the saddle.

Jo gave Laramie’s reins a small tug, and the mare began walking at a steady, easy pace, hooves brushing through damp earth with muffled rhythm. The forest around them was hushed, save for birdsong and the whisper of wind tugging at the trees.

Abigail didn’t speak, arms loosely around Jo’s waist. Jo could feel the stiffness in her hold—the weight of waiting, of wondering if she’d see John again. 

Jo chewed on her bottom lip, gaze fixed ahead. The moment was perfect—no ears, no interruptions—but the words didn’t come easily. She didn’t want to be blunt. Abigail was smart. Direct, but not the kind of woman who appreciated being cornered.

Still, if she didn’t speak now, when would she?

“Abigail,” Jo began quietly, not turning around. “Can I ask you somethin’?”

A pause.

“Yeah,” came the soft answer, guarded but open.

Jo hesitated again, then drew in a breath. “Have you… have you noticed a change in Dutch?”

Abigail let out a dry breath that wasn’t quite a laugh. “Tch. Noticed?” she echoed. “Thought I was goin’ crazy at first.”

Jo’s brows knit. That wasn’t the answer she expected, but it wasn’t a bad one.

“I mean… I always knew Dutch had a silver tongue, you know? He could talk circles around all of us. But when y’all came back from Guarma…” Abigail’s voice dropped, quiet against the breeze, “He was different. Cold. Paranoid. Like… I don’t know.”

Jo gave a slow nod, her chest tightening at the familiarity in those words.

“I tried to brush it off,” Abigail continued. “Tried to keep my head down. Without John around, I didn’t feel like I had much say in anything. Wasn’t anyone who’d really listen. And Jack’s all I’ve got—I had to put him first. I always do.”

“I get it,” Jo said softly. “I do.”

The path narrowed between tall pine and low fog, the light breaking through the canopy in patches of gold. Jo let Laramie slow even more, giving the conversation space to breathe.

“I’m worried about what he’s become,” Jo said. “Worried about what he’s doin’ to Arthur. What Micah’s whisperin’ into his ear. What it’s gonna cost.”

There was another stretch of quiet. Abigail shifted slightly behind her in the saddle, then sighed.

“You know… I’ve been hopin’ someone would say it out loud. Thought maybe I was bein’ dramatic. Or maybe I didn’t want to admit it. But Jo, I’ve known it for a while now. We all have. We’re just… too scared to face it.”

Jo finally turned her head enough to glance back at her, meeting her eyes.

“I’m not scared anymore,” she said. “Not of Dutch. Not of leavin’ if I have to. And neither is Arthur. We’re not lookin’ to burn it all down, but… we want to help the ones who can be saved.”

Abigail nodded, eyes tight but resolute. “You thinkin’ about runnin’?”

“Only if we have to,” Jo answered. “But if we do, we’re takin’ who we can with us. You, John. Jack. Charles, maybe. Tilly. Mary-Beth. I think they're seein’ it too.”

Abigail looked away for a second, toward the tree line. When she looked back, her voice was rough.

“You got my support. All of it. You get John out, and I’ll talk to whoever I have to. This gang… it ain’t safe anymore. Not for Jack. Not for any of us.”

Jo felt a pressure ease in her chest she hadn’t realized she was holding. She gave a small, grateful nod.

“Thank you,” she said, meaning every word.

The rest of the ride passed in reflective silence. The sun was starting to lower behind the trees, casting long shadows across the forest floor. A few birds darted across the trail, and Laramie’s ears flicked forward, alert but calm.

By the time they reached the path that forked toward camp, Jo gave Laramie a gentle tap to guide her home. Abigail’s hold around her middle had relaxed, no longer clinging with anxiety but holding with quiet trust.

And Jo? She felt like—for the first time in a long time—they weren’t riding toward more chaos, but maybe, just maybe, toward something better.

 


 

The camp wasn’t silent, but it sure as hell wasn’t joyful either. What little laughter still existed had dulled into murmurs, and conversations turned hushed whenever someone important walked by. It wasn’t the camp it used to be. The ground still bore the same dust, the air still carried the scent of gun oil and horses, but something else lingered now—something colder. Something heavier.

Jo pulled Laramie to a stop just outside the main circle. The mare let out a soft snort, and Jo dismounted with practiced ease before reaching up to help Abigail down.

“Careful,” she muttered. Abigail barely nodded, her hands still trembling as she clung briefly to Jo’s shoulder before sliding down.

There was a moment, after her boots touched the ground, when Abigail stood perfectly still. Jo thought maybe she’d just bolt to Jack. But instead, the woman turned and without a word, wrapped her arms tight around her.

Jo stiffened, caught off guard. She didn’t think Abigail was the hugging kind.

“Ain’t the cryin’ sort,” Abigail murmured near her ear, her voice low and a little shaky. “But… thank you.”

Jo hesitated, then returned the embrace with a soft pat to her back. “We’re gonna be fine, Abby. You’ll see, we’ll make it.”

Abigail pulled away slowly, and with a last nod, turned to walk toward where Jack was playing near one of the wagons. The boy hadn’t seen her yet.

Jo watched for a second, a small flicker of something warm tugging at her chest, then exhaled and turned to Laramie. The saddle was warm beneath her hands as she untacked the mare, every movement steady and quiet.

“Didn’t take you for the sentimental type,” came a voice behind her—gravel rough, snake-slick.

She didn’t need to turn to know it was him.

Micah.

He stood there with his arms crossed, grinning like he’d caught her stealing from the cookie jar.

“What do you want?” she asked flatly, pulling the saddle free and setting it over the nearby fence.

“Oh, just enjoyin’ the show,” he drawled, taking a slow step closer. “You and Miss Abigail all cozy, whisperin’ like little hens. Real touching.”

Jo shot him a glance, her jaw tight. “Jealous?”

He gave a low chuckle, eyes narrowing like a cat toying with prey. “You got a sharp tongue on you. Gotta say, I always admired that. But you might wanna be careful. Loose lips… well, they sink more than ships ‘round here.”

Jo turned fully to him now, her brow furrowing. “If you got something to say, say it.”

“Oh no,” he said, raising both hands in mock innocence. “Just makin’ conversation. You’re awful secretive these days. Real curious, that. Almost like you're hidin’ somethin’.” He smirked, leaning in slightly. “But hey… secrets got a funny way of crawlin’ back up to the surface. Sooner or later.”

Jo’s blood ran cold.

Her chest tightened like a rope had wrapped around it. That wasn’t just a jab. It was a knife hidden in a smile. The way he said it—it wasn’t random.

There was a weight to it. A hint. A needle beneath the surface. Her stomach turned, a storm churning in her gut. No. No, he couldn’t know. Hosea was the only one she ever told. And Hosea…

But then her mind reeled. Had he…? Could Micah have overheard? Back then, when she and Hosea—

Her fingers curled tight into the saddle blanket. Don’t show it, Jo. Don’t let him see.

But Micah was already turning to go, his boots crunching on the earth. “Nice talkin’, sweetheart,” he tossed over his shoulder with a grin, disappearing between the wagons.

She stood there for a long moment. Staring. Still. Eyes fixed where he had gone, heart hammering beneath her ribs.

Did he know?

He couldn’t. He couldn’t .

She swallowed hard, the dryness in her throat thick as dust. With trembling hands, she ran a brush over Laramie’s side, more out of habit than purpose.

It felt like the ground was slipping beneath her feet again. Like everything she’d buried so deep—her past, her guilt, her shame—was clawing its way back to the surface.

By the time Laramie was done, Jo’s hands wouldn’t stop shaking.

She walked.

She didn’t tell anyone where.

Down past the last of the wagons, the woods just beyond camp were quiet, the kind of quiet that pressed against the ears and left her feeling both exposed and hidden all at once. Jo walked until the distant hum of voices and clatter of horses faded behind her, until only the low babble of the stream ahead reached her ears.

The little river cut through the land like it had always been there—gentle, steady, glistening under the dappled afternoon sun. The surface shimmered as light filtered through the trees, dancing gold atop dark water. Birds chirped somewhere high above. It should have been calming.

But her heart was thudding like it was trying to beat its way out of her chest.

Jo dropped to her knees at the bank, her fingers digging into the cool, damp soil. She leaned forward and splashed water onto her face—once, twice, again. It didn’t help. The cold didn’t reach deep enough to pull her out of the mess in her head.

Micah’s words kept echoing.

Secrets got a funny way of crawlin’ back up to the surface. Sooner or later.

She dug her nails into her thighs through the fabric of her pants, breathing too fast. Her throat was tight, chest aching. No. No, no—he couldn’t know.

But what if he did?

Jo closed her eyes, bracing herself with one hand against the riverbank.

What if he’d always known?

Had he been watching her all this time? Waiting? Listening in shadows like some goddamned vulture?

Her mind spun in circles, sharp and irrational thoughts snapping at her like angry dogs.

He must’ve heard us… that day with Hosea. But we were alone. Weren’t we? Weren’t we?

Had a twig snapped behind them that day?

Had a shadow lingered too long?

She couldn't remember.

Shit. Shit.

If he had heard, why hadn’t he said anything?

Because he wanted to play with her. That was what Micah did. He didn’t kill his prey. Not right away. He toyed with them, enjoyed the panic, the descent.

And now he had something over her. Maybe.

She didn’t know what he knew. And that alone was enough to make her spiral.

Jo’s breath hitched.

What if he told someone?

Her head jerked up, panic flaring hot in her gut.

What if he told Arthur?

Her stomach churned.

If Arthur knew… if he knew—

Would he look at her the same?

Would he still trust her?

Still love her?

Her hands trembled. She clenched them into fists and stared hard at the stream, willing herself to breathe. She wouldn’t cry. She couldn’t let Micah have that. She wouldn’t give him the satisfaction.

But her pulse kept roaring in her ears.

This was it. This was what she’d always feared. The moment when the life she’d built—every lie, every silence, every choice to protect herself—came crashing down.

And yet, deep down, a cruel voice whispered: Maybe you should’ve just told them. Maybe this wouldn’t be happening if you hadn’t lied from the start.

But she had to lie. Back then, it wasn’t safe. It never was. A girl like her? With a past like hers?

She would’ve been branded a monster before anyone asked her why.

They would’ve walked away.

Arthur would’ve walked away.

And maybe he still would, if Micah ever opened his filthy mouth.

Jo wrapped her arms around herself, not for warmth, but to keep her body from unraveling. Her heart was hammering, and her breathing was ragged, shallow, as if the air itself had thickened around her.

Goddammit, get a grip, she told herself, gritting her teeth.

She tilted her head back and stared at the sky through trembling lashes, willing herself to focus.

She had survived worse. She had endured worse.

This—this panic, this fear—wasn’t her end. It couldn’t be.

But still…

She was scared.

Not of death. No, she’d come close to that more times than she could count.

But of losing everything.

Of losing Arthur.

Of being seen for what she used to be.

And worst of all… of being used. Again.

She drew a sharp breath, knuckles whitening against her arms.

If Micah really did know… he’d find a way to use it. Twist it. Dangle it. Blackmail her into obedience.

Her past was a loaded gun, and Micah had just cocked the hammer.

Jo stared into the dark water, her reflection warped by the current.

She didn’t recognize the woman staring back.

The sun had dipped a little lower now, warm light slanting through the branches in soft gold streaks, making the water glow where it rippled over river stones. Jo sat perfectly still by the stream, arms wrapped around her legs, chin resting on her knees. Her breathing had slowed some, but her heart still hadn’t caught up.

Her head was clearer now, not calm—never calm—but clearer.

The fear was still there, a knot curled deep in her gut, but she could think again.

You need to pull yourself together.

She exhaled through her nose. Quiet. Controlled.

If she went back to camp looking like this—shaken, pale, eyes darting—someone would notice. Someone would ask. Arthur, especially. He always watched her close when he thought something was wrong, always picked up on the quiet cracks in her armor.

And if he asked questions… if he pressed

She didn’t trust herself to lie to him face-to-face. Not like that.

No. You can't let that happen. You can’t let any of them see.

If they found out what Micah said—if someone so much as hinted at it—it’d reach his ears. And then what? He’d know he had her in a corner. He’d push harder. He’d know for sure he’d struck a nerve.

And if Arthur caught wind of it?

He’d ask. He wouldn’t let it go.

He’d want answers.

And she wasn’t ready for that.

Not yet.

Maybe not ever.

Jo rubbed a hand down her face, still damp from the water, then pushed herself up to her feet. Her legs were a little unsteady beneath her. She gritted her teeth and forced herself to stand tall.

Alright. Enough.

She wasn’t some fragile thing. She never had been. She had survived worse than Micah Bell. She’d clawed her way out of worse hells than this.

But goddammit, she was tired.

Tired of hiding. Tired of lying. Tired of having to think three steps ahead just to stay safe.

And now she had to lie again.

You’ll just have to act like nothing happened.

Simple as that.

Smile. Nod. Make a joke if someone looks too close. Pretend you went for a walk to clear your head. That’s it. That’s all.

She’d done it before. For years.

She was good at it. Too good, probably.

But from now on… keep an eye on him. On Micah. Above everything else.

If he tried anything, she’d know.

She’d see it coming.

No more slip-ups. No more letting her guard down. Not around him. Not around anyone, if it came to that.

She had to be smart now. Quiet. Careful.

Every word. Every step.

Every glance.

The weight of it pressed down on her, made her shoulders ache, but she rolled them back anyway. Straightened her spine. Set her jaw.

That was the thing about being hunted—you either ran, or you adapted.

And she was done running.

Still… it felt like a trap had been laid beneath her boots, and no matter how she walked, something was going to snap.

Jo turned her face up toward the sunlight peeking through the trees, letting it warm her skin for just a second. Just one breath.

Then she brushed her hands on her pants, squared her shoulders, and turned away from the stream.

Act normal.

Act like nothing happened.

But she knew—deep down—that nothing would be the same now.

 


 

The ride through the woods was quiet but for the soft creak of leather and the crunch of hooves against damp leaves. The trees stood tall and thick around them, sunlight leaking through in gold streaks, dust motes dancing in the stillness. Atlas moved steady beneath Arthur, every step familiar now. Reliable. Trustworthy.

Not like much else these days.

Bob trailed just a length behind, Sadie upright in the saddle, jaw set like always, and John slouched behind her, looking pale but alive. Alive. That was something.

Arthur had spoken for a while already, giving John the short version of what had happened since he'd been taken in Saint Denis. About Lenny. About the bank money lost to the ocean. About the storm and the damn island they’d washed up on near Cuba. Guarma, a word he still tasted like sea salt and blood. About the Pinkertons finding them in Lakay, and how they were constantly looking over their shoulders now.

He’d told him Molly was dead, too. Killed by Susan herself, supposedly for betraying the gang.

He left out how wrong that felt. Left out the growing weight on his chest every time Dutch spoke with that hollow smile and gleaming eyes, like everything was still under control, like the walls weren’t crumbling in around them.

They rode a little while in silence after that. Then Arthur sighed, low and heavy.

“And… I should warn you,” he said, his voice gravel-low as the wind stirred the treetops, “Dutch didn’t want us breakin’ you out. Said it wasn’t the right time, so…”

He let the words hang a moment, the rhythm of the horses filling the pause as they weaved around the dense trees, getting closer now to camp.

“It might not be the hero’s welcome you’re imaginin’.”

John scoffed, a sharp exhale full of bitterness. “So much for no man left behind .”

Arthur didn't respond right away. He didn’t have the words for it, not the right ones anyway.

John shifted a little behind Sadie, sitting straighter. His voice came quieter now, but strained.

“I can’t stop thinkin’ about it… in the bank…” he started. “When they grabbed me… he saw it happen. Felt almost like he had a moment to do somethin’ and didn’t.”

Arthur frowned, eyes narrowing at the trail ahead. His jaw clenched. 

He wanted to defend him. God, he wanted to. It was easier when you still had someone to believe in.

“Dutch ain’t himself right now,” Arthur muttered, voice low and slow. Then, with a bitter tug at the corners of his mouth, he added, “Or… maybe he just ain’t who we thought he was.”

John huffed, a humorless laugh. “Guess we don’t need to worry about who’s his favorite no more…”

Arthur let out a breath through his nose, the barest ghost of a chuckle in it. “Guess not.”

They fell quiet again, the trees thinning just a little. They had already passed Butcher Creek—wouldn’t be long now before they reached Beaver Hollow.

Arthur tugged the reins gently, slowing Atlas just enough to keep Bob in line. He could hear Sadie humming under her breath, something sharp and tuneless, probably just to fill the silence.

But in his head, Arthur couldn’t stop hearing Dutch’s voice. “I have a plan.”

He glanced back at John.

He’d be lucky if any of them could believe a damn thing Dutch said ever again.

The clatter of hooves over the uneven earth marked their return before anyone saw them. Sadie didn’t slow her pace, riding Bob right into the center of Beaver Hollow with all the subtlety of a gunshot. Her spine was straight, chin high, like a woman riding into battle. But Arthur—he veered off to the left, pulling Atlas toward the haphazard row of hitching posts near the edge of camp, the usual spot. He’d never liked bringing the animals too close to the fire pits or the tents. It was a small habit, but it gave him something to do with his hands.

He hadn’t even thrown the reins over the post yet when a familiar voice rang out, choked and sharp all at once.

“You brought him back to me!”

Abigail.

Arthur turned his head, watching as she came hurrying out from near the supply wagon, skirts catching at her boots, her shawl nearly slipping from her shoulders. Her eyes—those strong, stubborn eyes—looked wider than he’d seen them in days, shimmering though no tears fell. Not quite. But they were there, clinging like storm clouds behind her lashes.

“We told you we would,” Sadie replied, swinging her leg over Bob’s side. Her boots hit the ground hard, solid, her voice matter-of-fact, but there was the barest flicker of something softer in her eyes.

John barely waited. The moment his feet touched earth, he reached for Abigail like a man starved. She was in his arms before a second breath could pass, her hands grasping at his clothes, his shirt, like she had to feel he was real.

Arthur didn’t stare. Didn’t linger.

He turned back to Atlas, his hands moving with practiced ease—slipping the bit free, tugging at the saddle strap, fingers brushing over the gelding’s warm coat without much thought. But his chest felt… tight.

He didn’t begrudge John his homecoming. Not for a second.

It just reminded him of something he didn’t have. Or rather, something he wasn’t sure he could have.

He finally tied the reins and gave Atlas a quiet pat. “Good boy,” he muttered, half under his breath, before he stepped away and walked toward the center of camp.

That’s when he saw her.

Jo.

She’d just stepped out of their tent, the flap rustling behind her as she looked toward the commotion. Her blonde hair was half-tied, the loose strands brushing her cheeks with the breeze, and the sun filtered through the trees behind her, lighting the edge of her silhouette like something drawn out of a dream.

She had that look on her face again—something caught between concern and calculation. Like she wanted to run and stay in the same breath.

He hadn’t seen her since before they left for the prison break. God, he hadn’t even had time to think about how much he missed seeing her in the quiet afternoon light. She hadn’t ridden with them. Hadn’t come. He hadn’t questioned it—too many things to focus on—but now, seeing her standing there, safe and solid and real, it hit him all at once.

His boots slowed for half a second, then shifted their course. His body made the decision before his mind could catch up.

She hadn’t moved from where she stood, but her eyes had found him. Her arms were still loosely at her sides, as if unsure of what to do with themselves. But there was something in her gaze. A flicker.

He took a few steps toward her, mouth parting slightly like he meant to speak—

“John!”

The voice cracked through camp like thunder—sharp, booming, too loud for the quiet that had started to settle. Abigail flinched at the sound, and even Jack, a distance away with Tilly, looked over, small shoulders tensing. It was a voice none of them could ignore.

Dutch.

Arthur exhaled sharply through his nose, jaw tightening.

Of course.

It was like the man could smell peace forming and felt the need to rip it apart with his bare hands.

The reunion shattered instantly. Abigail stepped away from John, tension bleeding into her every movement. Arthur turned his head from Jo, his lips parting, whatever he meant to say to her hanging in the air like smoke, dissolving before it ever reached her ears. He barely saw her reaction—only the way she stilled.

Dutch came storming down the slope, boots crunching with angry purpose. Behind him, Micah trailed like a stray cur, a smug flicker in his narrowed eyes, arms swinging at his sides like he was enjoying the drama a little too much. Always too much.

“What are you doing here?” Dutch’s voice held no warmth, only sharp betrayal wrapped in indignation.

John straightened beside Abigail. He didn’t match Dutch’s anger. No, he met it with something far more effective: indifference. Dry sarcasm.

“It’s good to see you too, partner.”

Arthur actually felt the corner of his mouth twitch, just for a moment. But Dutch wasn’t amused.

“I meant I hadn’t sent for you yet,” Dutch growled, voice taut like a rope pulled too tight.

“I went,” Arthur cut in. His voice came low but steady as he finally stepped away from where he’d been standing, leaving Jo behind him. He didn’t look back. He didn’t need to.

“But I said that—” Dutch began, teeth clenched like he might bite through the words.

“I know what you said.” Arthur’s boots moved slow across the clearing, circling wide, like a wolf pacing the edges of a confrontation he was tired of avoiding. His tone was even, but under it ran a current of restrained fire. The kind that said enough.

He wasn’t going to let Dutch beat down on John. Not after all they’d done. Not after the mess Dutch had dragged them all through.

“I felt different.”

He said it simply. No need to argue or raise his voice. Just that quiet line in the sand.

Dutch’s nostrils flared. His expression twisted, pride wounded more than anything else. His voice dropped cold and venomous.

“Is that so?”

Arthur stepped in front of John now—just enough to shift the focus. Dutch’s glare had no direct line anymore.

“Yes.”

There was a pause—tight and strangled—before Dutch spoke again.

“And when springing John brings the law down on all of us, what then , Arthur?” His voice started low but rose in pitch, in anger. He gestured wide with his arms, like a preacher condemning a congregation that just wouldn’t listen.

Arthur didn’t flinch. His shoulders rose slightly with his breath. "Well," he said slowly, coolly, “I guess we’ll have another fight on our hands.”

Every word was chosen. Controlled. But he meant it. He was tired. Tired of being told to wait, to follow blindly, to watch everything unravel while Dutch rambled about goddamn plans.

Dutch stared him down. His voice dropped again, accusing, bitter. “Loyalty, Arthur, it ain’t—” he shook his head, lips pulling into a snarl, “—I had a goddamn plan!

He shouted the last word like it might shake the trees.

Silence followed. Thick and ugly.

Then he turned his fury back on John.

“John...” His voice was too loud, almost theatrical in tone. “John.”

Again, but softer. A different tactic now—something between nostalgia and manipulation.

“You are my brother... you are my son... I was coming for you...”

Arthur didn’t buy it. Neither did John. That much was clear in the tension across his brow, in the way his lips pressed together like he was holding back too many words. 

“They... they was talking of hangin’ me, Dutch.” John's voice cracked slightly—not from fear, but the weight of the truth. Of disappointment.

Abigail stepped forward, ready to speak, fire in her jaw and her stance.

But John stopped her with a hand on her arm. Gentle. Let me.

Dutch faltered. For the first time, something slipped behind his eyes. His gaze drifted off—somewhere past the trees, past the camp, past everything.

“They was talkin’...” he repeated, voice dulled.

Then his face turned cold again. The flash of humanity gone as fast as it came.

“They was talkin’.” His tone hardened with every step as he backed away, separating himself once more from those who questioned him.

“And now they may come and hang us all.”

He turned his back. Just like that.

Micah followed with a smirk that twisted Arthur’s stomach. He walked a few paces behind, always a shadow to the man who used to lead them, eyes flicking once to Arthur—then to Jo, still standing near their tent.

And then they were gone.

A heavy silence blanketed the clearing.

Arthur stared after them a moment, jaw tight, chest heavy with frustration that never seemed to ease anymore.

Then his gaze drifted—back to John, back to Abigail.

Abigail tugged on John's arm, her grip firm and urgent. There were tears in her eyes now—no longer held back like before—but she blinked them away quickly, pulling her man with her toward their tent. Neither of them said much, just moved with the sort of frantic energy that came after a long, breathless wait. The kind where relief was almost too big to hold.

They disappeared behind the flap of canvas, leaving the clearing silent again.

Arthur remained where he stood, his jaw still clenched from the argument, his chest still tight with it. Dutch’s words echoed in the back of his skull like the tail end of a storm. His gaze swept across the camp, over the horses, the trees, the empty space left behind—and landed on her.

Jo stood by the entrance of their tent, arms folded across her chest, golden hair catching the dappled sunlight like fire. She hadn’t moved. But her eyes had never left him.

They were a few paces apart—just far enough that they weren’t part of the same world in that moment, but close enough to feel the pull.

Their eyes locked. Something unspoken passed between them—something heavy, too tired to put into words.

Arthur finally exhaled and made his way toward her, his boots slow on the earth, the weight of the last few days still clinging to his bones.

Jo straightened subtly, a breath caught somewhere in her throat. And when he reached her, when he stood just in front of her in that narrow band of quiet between tents and trees, she wore that same practiced calm. Like nothing had happened. Like she hadn’t stared Micah in the face earlier that afternoon and felt the edge of her old life slicing into her chest. Like nobody had seen it.

“You talked to him?” she asked softly, her voice smooth and casual. Too smooth.

He nodded. “Yeah. Me and Sadie… we told him to think about leaving. Gettin’ out. Startin’ over.”

Jo glanced away just for a second, like something caught her eye near the trees, then back to him. “I spoke with Abigail,” she offered, voice just as even. “She’s ready too.”

Arthur tilted his head, eyes searching hers. Something about her tone sat wrong, but not enough for him to call it out. He took her words at face value, maybe because he wanted to. Maybe because he was tired of always expecting the worst.

But she felt the shift in his gaze. Felt how close he was to seeing through her.

And then her eyes caught something behind him— someone.

Micah.

He stood near the other end of camp, arms crossed over his chest, jaw tense as he squinted across the distance. Right at her. His expression wasn’t a smile or a smirk this time—it was colder, narrower. Calculating.

Jo’s stomach turned to stone. Her spine locked. She didn’t look away.

“Jo?” Arthur’s voice tried to pull her back. She didn’t respond.

A second later, she felt it—his fingers brushing her arm. Just barely. A feather-soft drag of his touch along the fabric of her sleeve, where it hugged her upper arm. Back and forth. Back and forth. Gentle, reassuring.

Her breath hitched, and her eyes flicked to his face. He was watching her with that quiet intensity again. Like he was trying to read the lines between her words.

“You alright?” he asked. Softly.

She forced a smile. “Yeah.” The lie was easy. Practiced. She’d used it for years.

Arthur smiled faintly in return, seeming to accept it without question. That made it worse. The trust in his eyes, the way he didn't press further— it hurt.

“You sure?” he asked again, gentler this time. “’Cause… this morning, you looked a little off. Sad, maybe.”

Jo hesitated—just enough for it to matter.

“I went to see Hosea’s grave,” she said after a moment, dropping her gaze to the space between them. Her voice wasn’t as strong now. “Before meeting you. I… hadn’t been since we got back.”

Arthur’s expression softened. His hand stilled, resting now just against her arm.

“Ah,” he breathed, like everything made sense now. “That’ll do it.”

He didn’t need to say anything more. He knew what Hosea had meant to her. To all of them. But to her in particular—he’d been a kind of lighthouse. Gentle. Steady. Always knowing more than he let on.

Arthur smiled a little then. “Didn’t think you were the emotional type.”

She looked up at him, brows lifting.

“Oh, don’t get me wrong,” he added with a teasing tilt to his voice, “I mean you got emotions, clearly—plenty of ’em. Just figured most of yours come with cussin’ and a right hook.”

Jo let out a short, quiet laugh. It wasn’t much, but it broke something in her chest. It softened the tension just enough to breathe again.

“I have layers,” she replied, matching his tone.

Arthur’s eyes didn’t leave hers. “Yeah. I know.”

The moment stretched, quiet and calm. But inside, Jo felt the weight of all the lies she’d piled up between them, like bricks in a wall she didn’t want to build.

He didn’t know.

And she didn’t know how much longer she could keep it that way.

Arthur and Jo moved slowly, neither saying much, letting the quiet of camp wrap around them like a worn, familiar coat. A few gang members milled about at a distance—Pearson chopping wood, Tilly fetching water—but none paid them any mind. The tension had settled, but it hadn’t vanished. Not really.

They reached the tent they’d been sharing since their return, its canvas pulled taut between trees, shaded and tucked just enough to feel private. Arthur pushed the flap aside for her, and she stepped in first, letting the warmth of their little space welcome her back. It smelled like old tobacco, sun-dried leather, pine needles, and him. Always him.

Arthur followed, silent, eyes heavy-lidded. He didn’t even bother with a sigh as he tossed his hat toward the wooden crate near his cot—it missed, hit the ground with a soft thump , but he didn’t care. Boots thudded next. Then he dropped onto his cot like his spine had finally given out, arms splayed for a second before he pulled one behind his head.

He looked exhausted.

Bone-deep tired. Not just from the ride to Sisika or the shouting match with Dutch—but from all of it . The weeks in Guarma. The ambush at Lakay. The loss of Hosea, Lenny, Molly. The steady unraveling of the only life they'd known.

Jo watched him from the side, arms crossed lightly. There was a flicker of guilt in her chest—sharp and constant. She hadn’t told him about Micah. Hadn’t told him what she knew. What she feared. And Arthur… he looked at her like he still trusted her. That made everything harder.

He opened one eye lazily, peering at her. “You just gonna stand there starin’, or you plannin’ on sittin’ a spell?”

She gave him a quiet smile, one that didn’t quite reach her eyes. “Maybe I like watchin’ you suffer.”

Arthur grinned tiredly. “Wouldn’t be surprised.”

She toed off her boots, slower than usual. Hesitated for a second, then crossed the few steps between them. The cot creaked softly as she knelt, then shifted, laying down beside him—half on the mattress, half on him. Her arm curled across his chest, cheek resting against the front of his shirt. His heartbeat was steady beneath her ear. Grounding.

Arthur let his arm drop from behind his head, wrapping it around her shoulder without a word.

They didn’t move for a while.

The silence between them wasn’t awkward, but it wasn’t peaceful either. Not for her. Jo stared at the canvas wall across from them, eyes unfocused. Her mind buzzed with Micah’s face, with Hosea’s voice, with everything she hadn’t said to Arthur. She felt like a liar curled against the one man who made her feel safe.

He felt solid beneath her. Warm. Familiar. And it made the ache in her chest worse, not better.

Arthur’s fingers brushed her upper arm again—just like earlier in the camp clearing, a slow, comforting drag. “Y’alright?” he asked, voice low.

Jo swallowed, nodded against him.

“You sure?”

She didn’t lift her head. “Just tired.”

He hummed softly, not pressing further. Maybe he believed her. Maybe he wanted to.

“Don’t suppose you’re tired enough to fall asleep quiet-like and not kick me all damn night?”

A small laugh escaped her. “I do not kick you.”

Arthur shifted slightly, the rumble of his voice vibrating through his chest under her ear. “Mmhm. Tell that to my ribs, woman.”

Jo tilted her head just enough to look up at him. “You want me to get up?”

He turned his head lazily toward her, met her eyes with a look somewhere between a smirk and sleep. “Did I say that?”

They stared at each other for a beat, the kind of gaze that lingered, warm and still and a little too much. Jo's fingers twitched slightly against his chest. Arthur’s hand brushed against the side of her back.

There was something soft in the air now, and fragile.

Arthur leaned just slightly, his nose brushing her temple before he kissed her hair. A small thing, barely more than a breath. But it was enough.

Enough to undo her for a moment.

Her heart thudded against her ribs. She shifted, raised herself just enough to look at him properly. Her fingers traced lightly down his collar, brushing the edges of his shirt.

He met her halfway when she kissed him.

It was slow. Not desperate. Not rushed. Just two tired souls trying to forget the world for a while. His hand slid up into her hair, cupping the back of her head gently. Her knee hooked over his leg. She didn’t pull back, didn’t think. Didn’t let herself.

She wanted to be here. Wanted to feel something that wasn’t fear or guilt or anger. And Arthur—he gave that to her, even without knowing it.

But as the kiss deepened, as breath became shallow and touch grew bolder, Jo’s mind refused to stay still. Every heartbeat against his chest reminded her of what she hadn’t told him. Every graze of his fingertips on her skin made her wonder how long she could keep lying. How long she should.

Still… she didn’t stop.

Because she needed this. Needed him.

Even if everything was about to come undone.

Chapter 36: Something’s Gotta Give

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The cot creaked beneath them as Jo shifted, her body pressing more fully against his. Her hands moved slowly, brushing over his chest, up to his collarbone, as if trying to memorize every inch. Arthur’s breath caught slightly—not from surprise, not even from need—but from how carefully she touched him. Like he mattered. Like he was more than just another outlaw surviving the end of the world.

She kissed him again, slower this time, like she was trying to anchor herself. His hand moved instinctively to her waist, fingers spreading out, steadying her. She melted against him, letting the curve of her body mold to his, her knee rising to rest over his hip.

Outside, the camp was still stirring—someone called out across the clearing, a horse snorted, a pot clanged—but inside their tent, the world narrowed. It was only them. Just the shared breath, the rise and fall of chests, the fabric of a shirt between two desperate souls.

Arthur leaned into the kiss, one hand threading through her hair, the other running down the curve of her back, resting at the small of it. Her fingers brushed the side of his neck, then slid down, across his collar, before tugging slightly at the buttons of his shirt—not rushing, just needing less space between them.

His shirt came loose, one button at a time, her knuckles grazing his skin as she worked. Arthur tilted his head back against the pillow, watching her through half-lidded eyes. There was something about the way she moved tonight—slow but certain. Not playful like before. Not teasing. But quiet. Focused. Like she needed this to make sense of things.

He knew that feeling too damn well.

Arthur sat up slightly, enough to shrug his shirt off his shoulders. Jo moved to help, her hands brushing over his arms, fingers lingering longer than they needed to. When he laid back again, she followed him down, her lips brushing his jaw, then his neck.

"Jo..." he murmured, barely above a whisper, his voice hoarse from exhaustion and emotion. But he didn’t stop her.

He didn’t want to.

Her hand slid over his chest, splaying over the scars, the freckles, the stories carved into him. She traced one just beneath his ribs, and he caught her hand in his—gently, not to stop her, but to feel her palm against his.

“You sure?” he asked, his voice barely a rumble. Not because he questioned wanting her. But because he knew there was something different in her tonight. Something weighed down behind her eyes. And he wouldn’t push her unless she wanted to cross that line.

Jo looked down at him, her hair falling forward slightly. Her breath caught as she looked at their hands—his thumb brushing hers—and for a second, her mask slipped. Just for a moment.

But then she nodded.

“Yeah,” she said softly. “I just… I don’t want to think no more.”

Arthur didn’t say anything. He only pulled her down again, kissed her softly, deeply, with a tenderness he rarely allowed himself to show.

And she let go.

Their clothes came away piece by piece—careful, unhurried. Every inch of skin revealed was another barrier dropped, another shield lowered. Jo's hands trembled once, just once, when he brushed her hair behind her ear and looked at her like she was something worth holding onto . But she didn’t stop. Couldn’t.

Because for all the lies she told, this— this —was the one truth she still had.

They came together in a slow rhythm, not hurried or wild, but steady and real . A shared language of touch and trust and all the feelings neither of them could speak aloud. Arthur moved with care, like he was afraid she'd disappear if he reached too fast. Jo held onto him like he was the only thing keeping her above water.

And maybe he was.

There were no words, not really. Just quiet gasps, breathless sighs, and the creaking of the cot beneath them. Their hands stayed tangled, lips brushing, hearts thundering between them. He kissed the hollow of her throat. She buried her face in his neck. He whispered her name once like it was a prayer.

And when it was over, they didn’t move.

Jo lay against his chest, skin still warm, limbs tangled with his. Her fingers traced mindless patterns across his ribs. Arthur’s arm curled around her, grounding her in the moment.

She felt… full. And hollow. Safe. And afraid.

Guilt twisted deep in her gut, tangled with everything else she couldn’t say.

Arthur brushed his hand through her hair, his voice a sleepy murmur. “Reckon we’ll be alright, you ‘n me.”

She didn’t answer right away. Didn’t trust her voice.

Instead, she pressed a kiss to his shoulder, and whispered, “Yeah…”

Another lie.

But one she wanted to believe.

 


 

The cot creaked faintly as Arthur shifted in his sleep beside her, his breath slow and steady, chest rising and falling in rhythm. One arm was still draped loosely around her waist, heavy in a way that made her feel safe… or at least that should have made her feel safe.

But Jo was wide awake.

The canvas walls of the tent were thin, barely muffling the sounds of the world outside—the crackling of dying embers in the campfire, the rustle of a breeze through dry leaves, someone coughing not far off, maybe Pearson turning in his bedroll—but none of it reached her. Not really.

Her eyes stayed open, fixed on the fabric overhead, though she saw nothing.

The warmth of Arthur’s body against hers should’ve been grounding. So should the weight of his hand resting just above her hip, the scent of him still lingering on her skin. Leather, tobacco, and something sun-warmed and quiet that she couldn’t name. It should’ve calmed her. Pulled her under like it always had.

But tonight, her thoughts were louder.

Too loud.

Micah.

Her chest clenched painfully at the name alone. That stare from across the fire was still burned into her memory, seared behind her eyes even now. That look—not just suspicion, but knowledge . Threat . She knew what she’d seen. And she knew what it meant.

He knew.

He knew.

And he’d say something. Maybe not now, maybe not tomorrow, but someday—when it would hurt most. When it could rip all this from her.

And Arthur…

Her eyes slipped down to him.

He looked so peaceful in sleep. A rare softness had crept into the angles of his face, a shadow of a younger man who hadn’t yet bled or lost so much. She wanted to run her hand down the line of his jaw. She wanted to wake him just to see that look he gave her—like she was his , and not the mess she really was.

But she didn’t move.

She couldn’t.

She wasn’t sure what would spill out if she did.

Because Arthur didn’t know what Micah had done. He didn’t know about the grave out there, about the blood Jo had already shed to protect a secret she'd buried years ago. He didn’t know how she’d been backed into a corner, how every moment felt like another step closer to a noose tightening around her throat.

And worse—he didn’t know that she’d lied to his face. Again .

That she’d looked him in the eye and told him she was fine. That she’d smiled through it, let him touch her like nothing was wrong. Like her whole world wasn’t tilting beneath her.

He’d believed her.

He always did.

Her throat tightened. A tremor ran through her, barely noticeable—but Arthur stirred slightly, making a small sound, pulling her closer in his sleep. His fingers flexed gently on her hip before going still again.

Jo closed her eyes hard.

She didn’t deserve this.

Didn’t deserve him.

She wanted to tell him. She wanted to roll over, press her forehead to his chest, and confess every goddamn thing—from the secrets she’d buried to the man she used to be afraid of becoming. She wanted to cry, to let it all out like she never had. But that was the thing with guilt. It didn’t let you breathe. It didn’t let you rest. It clung to you like tar, thick and black and impossible to shake.

And she was so damn tired.

She turned her head slightly, just enough to watch his face in the pale glow of the moonlight leaking through the canvas. One of his curls had fallen onto his forehead, and her fingers twitched with the urge to smooth it back.

“You’ll hate me when you find out,” she whispered into the quiet, lips barely moving.

The night didn’t answer.

Arthur only breathed.

Jo lay there, still and silent, while her mind tore itself apart.

She didn’t know when her thoughts slipped into memory.

One moment she was staring at Arthur’s sleeping face, her mind stuck on everything she couldn’t say, and the next… she was seventeen again.

Still raw around the edges, still wearing clothes that didn’t quite fit her yet—too big, too plain, worn thin at the elbows. Her hair had been shorter then. Chopped unevenly by her own hand, less to look good and more to stop it from getting in her damn way.

They were camped somewhere in Nebraska, she remembered that. She hadn’t been with the gang more than a few weeks—still learning names, still trying to figure out who she had to watch closely and who might watch her even closer.

John had been one of the first to talk to her.

Cocky. Smiling like he owned the whole damn camp and probably the world beyond it. Leaned back against a rock near the fire, boots up on a crate like it was a throne. He looked at her like she was a new game.

“You’re the stray Dutch picked up, huh?” he’d said, grin widening. “Figured you’d be taller.”

She’d blinked at him. Then, without missing a beat, she’d said, “Figured you’d be smarter.”

That wiped the smirk off his face quick enough.

It was the start of something. A rivalry, maybe. A bond made up of jabs and jests and stolen food. They were both too young and too mouthy, and it didn’t take long for Dutch to start sighing every time one of them opened their mouth.

They were a pain in the ass.

But they were the same kind of pain in the ass.

And Arthur?

Arthur had hated her.

She remembered that as clear as the night sky overhead now. He’d been older. Harder. All scowls and sharp words and distrust. Didn’t like the way she always had something to say. Didn’t like that she didn’t seem to know her place. He never said it outright, but she saw it in the way he watched her. Like she was a storm brewing just off the horizon.

She remembered a night a few weeks in—she’d been practicing with a rifle, firing off into the woods, and he’d come up behind her.

“You’re wastin’ bullets,” he’d grunted.

“And you’re wastin’ air,” she’d shot back.

He’d narrowed his eyes at her, then snatched the rifle from her hands. “If you’re gonna shoot, shoot right. Not like some goddamn show pony.”

He’d shown her, then. How to stand. How to breathe. How to aim. And she’d hated that he was right.

But she’d listened.

She’d always listened, even when she didn’t want to.

Back then, John and her had been thick as thieves—getting into trouble just for the thrill of it, always finding ways to drag the other into whatever nonsense they’d cooked up. Arthur had always been the one sighing, groaning, eventually dragging them out of trouble like a reluctant older brother.

They’d poked at him constantly.

God, the two of them together had been insufferable. Always calling Arthur “old man,” always setting him up just to watch him scowl and mutter under his breath. And Arthur, for all his grumbling, never really stopped them.

Maybe that was when it started—before either of them even noticed.

Jo smiled faintly, lying there in the cot, her body still warm from earlier and her mind somewhere far away. Somewhere simpler.

Where she was seventeen. And John was still a loud-mouthed idiot. And Arthur hadn’t yet looked at her like he did now.

 


 

The morning had stretched slow and quiet, golden light filtering through the thinning trees at the edge of Beaver Hollow. The air smelled of damp leaves and campfire smoke, and somewhere behind him, someone was chopping wood with a steady rhythm that came and went like a heartbeat. But out here, a little ways from the others, the world felt still. Like he’d managed to find a moment outside of time.

Arthur sat beneath a twisted old oak, one boot planted on the root beside him, the other stretched out straight. His journal rested open on his thigh, pages worn and fraying at the corners, smudged with coal and fingerprints and dried mud. The stub of a pencil sat between his fingers, unmoving now. He’d written something—he wasn’t sure what anymore—and let the words trail off into a half-finished sketch.

It wasn’t anything fancy, not like those full-page landscapes he sometimes took the time to finish. Just a shape. A posture. A horse with a pale mane. A rider with long, wind-tangled hair.

He sighed and glanced down at the photograph tucked beside the page—creased and a little bent at the corners now, but still intact. Albert Mason’s photograph. The one he’d given him after that job with the wolves and the frightened horse. Daisy. Her name was Daisy, and her rider—

Arthur’s jaw tightened, and he looked away. Jo’s face was turned slightly in the image, her smile faint but there, her hand resting gently on the mare’s neck. It was a moment from before. A quiet one. Before all of this.

Before the lies. Before Micah’s eyes followed her like a shadow with teeth. Before Arthur had to wonder what she wasn’t saying every time she looked away from him.

He stared at the image a moment longer before tucking it back into his journal and drawing the leather cover closed.

His chest ached, a dull kind of pain that had settled in lately like a weight he couldn’t shake.

He leaned his head back against the tree trunk and closed his eyes, letting the wind ruffle the brim of his hat where it sat beside him. Just for a moment. Just to feel like a man again instead of a pawn in someone else's unraveling scheme.

And then—

“Arthur?”

He blinked, the voice distant at first, soft as a breeze rustling the branches above.

“Arthur.”

This time it was closer, and when he opened his eyes, Mary-Beth stood a few steps away, hands folded neatly in front of her skirt, her expression gentle but cautious—like she knew she was interrupting something and didn’t want to tread too heavily.

Arthur pushed upright, sliding the journal into his satchel with a practiced motion. “Oh. Sorry,” he muttered, grabbing his hat and brushing some dirt from the brim. “I was miles away… thinkin’ of, err… huh. I dunno.”

He stood and walked toward her, his joints aching just a bit from the stillness. His voice sounded hoarse in his own ears, too worn out for the hour.

Mary-Beth offered him a soft smile. “Dutch said to tell you he and Micah have gone to Annesburg… something about Mr. Cornwall.”

Arthur blinked. He barely stopped himself from scoffing aloud. Of course Dutch hadn’t come himself. Not after yesterday. Not after Arthur went and brought John back despite his orders. The silence since had been... telling.

Arthur adjusted his hat, squinting off toward camp like he might catch sight of Dutch’s shadow skulking around, just to be sure. “Cornwall?” he asked, his voice low and skeptical. “Alright. Thanks, Mary-Beth.”

Mary-Beth gave him a warm smile at that, then disappeared back toward the heart of camp, her figure swallowed by the trees and tents.

Arthur stood alone a moment longer, the quiet creeping back in.

Cornwall. Dutch. Micah. Always something.

Arthur stood for a moment beside Atlas, tightening the cinch with a deliberate sort of frustration. His jaw ticked slightly as he glanced toward the horizon where the trail to Annesburg began. He hadn’t wanted to go—hell, Dutch hadn’t even told him face to face—but part of him still clung to the hope that maybe, just maybe, he could knock some sense into the man before Micah fed him more poison.

He tossed a final glance toward the camp, adjusting his hat with a low sigh.

“Going somewhere?”

Arthur turned his head slightly and found Jo walking toward him, hair loose, face unreadable.

“Dutch and Micah rode out to Annesburg. Left word through Mary-Beth, not me,” he said gruffly, checking Atlas' reins. “Guess I’m followin’.”

Jo raised an eyebrow, folding her arms as she stopped beside him. “You sure that’s smart?”

“No. But since when do we do smart things ‘round here?”

That almost earned a smile from her. Almost.

He looked at her for a beat, something hesitant in his gaze. “You wanna come?”

She glanced away, biting the inside of her cheek. After yesterday, she wasn’t sure being too far from camp—or him—was a good idea. And she sure as hell didn’t want Micah to have too much time alone with Dutch.

She nodded once. “Yeah. Give me a minute to saddle Laramie.”

Arthur didn’t answer—just watched her go, something flickering in his eyes before he turned back to his horse.

They rode in silence for the first few minutes, the only sounds being the creak of leather and the rhythm of hooves on dirt. The forest around them was quiet, sleepy in the late morning sun. Arthur eventually broke the silence.

“You doin’ alright?” he asked, without turning to look at her.

Jo blinked, glancing his way. “Why wouldn’t I be?”

He shrugged. “Dunno. Just seemed like somethin’ was weighin’ on you last night.”

Jo hesitated, then gave a practiced sort of smile—just enough to seem honest, not enough to invite more questions.

“Saw Hosea’s grave before I met you that morning,” she murmured, eyes ahead. “Got me thinking. Is all.”

Arthur went quiet again, digesting that.

“Yeah…” he said, low. “Been thinkin’ ‘bout him a lot, too.”

She caught him peering off through the trees like he was chasing a ghost, and she hated the way guilt twisted in her gut again. Lying came easy when it was about her—but not to Arthur. Not anymore.

“You think Dutch’ll listen to you?” she asked suddenly, needing to change the subject.

Arthur scoffed under his breath. “I think Dutch listens to Dutch. But maybe I can stop him from runnin’ off a cliff with Micah cheerin’ him on.”

Jo looked at him then, really looked. The creases around his eyes. The weight of too many damn burdens etched into his posture. She wanted to say something—anything—that could ease it, but the words just wouldn’t come.

Instead, she rode a little closer.

“Then let’s hope they’re still in one piece when we get there.”

Arthur gave a dry, humorless chuckle. “Wouldn’t count on it.”

The forest around them whispered with the wind—dry leaves rustling overhead, the muffled clop of hooves soft on the earth. The sun filtered through the trees in hazy shafts, catching in the dust kicked up by their horses. They hadn’t spoken in a while, but it wasn’t awkward. Jo rode just behind him, her posture relaxed but alert, and Arthur glanced over his shoulder now and then just to check she was still there. She always was.

Eventually, when the trail narrowed along a stream, he slowed Atlas to a halt and dismounted. The horses needed a drink—and maybe he did too. Jo followed suit, boots hitting the ground with a dull thud .

The water flowed clear over smooth stones, babbling quietly like it had all the time in the world. Arthur knelt beside it, filled one hand and splashed his face. Cold. Bracing. He sat back on his heels and rubbed his jaw, eyes squinting against the light. Behind him, Jo stood with her hands in her back pockets, gazing at the water like it had answers.

"You ever think about just..." Arthur started, then stopped. He reached up, adjusting his hat. “I dunno. Ridin’ off. One day. No plan. No gang. Just... quiet.”

Jo looked at him. "Yeah," she said, voice low, almost like it surprised her to admit it aloud. "More often lately. Back when I first joined… I almost did. Twice.”

“What stopped you?”

She hesitated. “People, I guess. Hosea. You.” She looked up at him. “Even when you were an ass.”

Arthur snorted at that, a quiet laugh escaping before he could stop it. “You were worse.”

A small smile tugged at her lips. “I know.”

He didn’t press. Just leaned back against a boulder, letting the silence speak for a bit. The birds in the trees didn’t care about gang politics or Dutch’s latest madness. Arthur figured they had it right.

“Used to think I’d die in a place like this,” he murmured after a while. “Way out in the trees. Alone. Just me and the buzzards.”

Jo dropped into a crouch beside him, picking up a flat stone and rolling it between her fingers. “You still think that?”

Arthur shrugged. “I dunno what I think no more.” He turned his head just enough to glance at her. “But I figure if I do, it ain’t such a bad thing… so long as I’ve done one or two things right before it.”

She didn’t answer. Just tossed the stone—it skittered over the stream’s surface once, then sank. Her face was unreadable for a moment, but there was something distant in her gaze. Like her thoughts were somewhere far behind them.

Arthur didn’t ask what was wrong. He just watched the way the light caught in her hair, the way her lips pressed tight together, and the way she was quiet in that particular way she only got when her mind wouldn’t shut up.

So instead, he exhaled through his nose and nudged a small pebble with the toe of his boot. “Reckon you ever regret it?” he asked quietly. “All of this. Ridin’ with the gang. Stickin’ around.”

She glanced at him, that flicker of surprise barely masked by a small scoff. “What, you getting all thoughtful on me now?”

He smirked. “Don’t get used to it.”

Jo looked back toward the stream. Her voice was softer then. “Sometimes I regret what brought me here. But not… bein’ here. Not really.” She paused. “Not with you.”

Arthur didn’t say anything to that. Just felt it settle deep in his chest, heavy but warm. Like maybe, despite everything, some pieces were still worth holding onto.

He stood then, brushing the dirt from his hands. “Alright,” he muttered. “Let’s get movin’. Wouldn’t want Dutch thinkin’ we fell into a ravine or joined a monastery.”

Jo raised a brow. “You? As a monk?”

He gave her a look, utterly deadpan. “I could be spiritual.”

She laughed, genuine this time, and the sound of it was enough to chase off whatever shadows had crept up around them. Arthur offered his hand, and she took it without hesitation.

They mounted up and rode on—not because they had to, but because they always did. The silence between them wasn’t empty; it was easy. Lived in. And whatever waited ahead in Annesburg, at least they weren’t riding into it alone.

 


 

The train tracks ran alongside the wide, dusty main street like a scar, carved straight through the bones of Annesburg. The air was thick with soot and the sharp stench of coal—an acrid fog that never quite lifted. The mining town was a wretched thing: cramped, grey, and crumbling around its own misery. Rows of weather-stained barracks stood in tight lines like tombstones, each one indistinguishable from the next. The few amenities—if they could be called that—lined the right side of the main street: a tired-looking gunsmith, a dusty newspaper stand, the train station, and the post office with its cracked windows and crooked signage. Behind them, the Lannahechee River flowed slow and brown.

On the other side of the street, the barracks sat pressed together like cattle in a pen, their wood splintered and their doors yawning open to darkness. Up the hill behind them loomed the black mouth of the mine—silent now, but ever waiting to swallow men whole.

Arthur and Jo rode in quiet, guiding their horses down the road, hooves echoing on packed dirt and forgotten rails. As they dismounted near the first row of barracks, Arthur's shoulders were already tightening. He could feel trouble brewing like a storm in his gut. Dutch and Micah weren’t the kind to make peace quietly.

They started down a narrow path between two barracks, the air close and heavy around them. Jo was walking just behind him when, without warning, a door to their left slammed open.

Arthur didn’t have time to react before Micah erupted from the shadows like a rabid dog, grabbing him by the front of his coat and slamming him into the wall of the barracks.

Jo’s voice rang out like a shot. “Arthur!”

His back hit wood with a hollow thud , breath knocked from him as Micah pressed hard against his chest, eyes wild. “Was you followed?” he spat, face inches from Arthur’s.

Arthur’s teeth clenched. “No,” he growled, glaring back.

Micah didn’t let go.

That’s when Jo moved.

She was already drawing her revolver, arm steady, her voice low and laced with cold fury. “Stop it, Micah.”

Arthur caught the edge of her voice—dangerously controlled, like a pot just about to boil over.

Micah didn’t flinch. “Was you followed ?” he barked again, slamming Arthur back once more for good measure.

“I said—” Arthur pushed back this time, shoving off the wall with enough force to force Micah a step back “— no !”

Micah chuckled then, like it was all some game, and lifted his hands mockingly in surrender. “Okay,” he said, grin oily and false. But his eyes flicked toward Jo and lingered.

She still hadn’t lowered her gun.

“What is your problem?” she snapped, furious now, stepping protectively closer to Arthur’s side.

Micah’s head tilted just slightly, a snake-like leer crawling across his face. “What’s your problem, Blondie?” he asked, voice low and syrupy.

Jo’s expression faltered—just for half a second. Arthur saw it. And so did Micah.

Micah’s smirk widened, cruel. “You don’t, uh… look so sure of yourself today. That sweet little fire of yours startin’ to die down?”

Jo didn’t answer. Her grip tightened on the revolver, but her mouth stayed shut. She was furious—but caught off guard. And Micah, the bastard, could smell blood in the water.

Arthur stepped forward.

“Watch your mouth,” he said, voice quiet, but every word carried weight. He stopped inches from Micah’s face. “What is wrong with you?”

Micah gave a theatrical shrug, backing up with mock innocence. “Nothin’ wrong with me. I’m fit as a fiddle.”

Arthur’s eyes narrowed. His voice dropped, menacing. “Not inside you ain’t.”

There was a beat of silence. Micah’s grin twitched.

Jo finally lowered her weapon—not because she was any less angry, but because she trusted Arthur to stand between her and whatever this was.

And he was. Every inch of him.

“I’m just a realist, friend ,” Micah said coolly, raising his hands like some crooked preacher trying to pass for harmless.

His tone oozed smugness, like he knew something no one else did. The tension still hadn’t broken. Arthur’s jaw was tight, fists clenched, boots rooted in the dirt. Jo hadn’t holstered her revolver yet, even if it now hung low by her side. Her hand, she realized suddenly, was damp with sweat against the grip.

From the main street, heavy boots crunched gravel.

Dutch appeared in the narrow alleyway between the barracks, his coat catching the breeze, eyes flicking sharply between them like a hawk catching a scent. “Micah reckons there’s a rat,” he said with theatrical solemnity.

Arthur didn’t even blink. He didn’t need to. His voice came low, dry. “Oh, does he?”

He turned slightly, enough to see Dutch’s approach—the man walked with a slow, confident swagger that used to mean something. Now it felt more like an act. Arthur could see it—tension behind his eyes, his coat a little more rumpled, his presence less commanding than it had once been. Like the mask was slipping.

Jo felt it too. Her stomach twisted. What if—God, what if Micah had told him about her? He knew something. She could see it in his eyes earlier. She swallowed hard, her mouth dry. If Dutch started looking at her differently—if he doubted her, even for a second…She couldn’t breathe for a second. Couldn’t move. Not with Dutch looking at them like that. Not with Arthur beside her, not knowing.

Arthur took a slow step forward, calm but cutting. “On what evidence?” he asked, voice taut with disdain.

Dutch didn't answer right away. He was sizing Arthur up—no, more than that. Weighing him. The air was thick with old grievances.

“We’s only back a minute,” Micah interjected, stepping closer to Dutch, “Pinkertons show up.”

Arthur scoffed. “We been on the run since you two fools went crazy in Blackwater. We barely escape with our lives in Saint Denis, now we got a rat ?” He gestured vaguely, voice rising.

Dutch’s gaze sharpened. His face was hard to read—half-shrouded in shadow, half-sunlit, lined with wear and pride and the beginnings of something like doubt.

“Well, Molly clearly talked,” Dutch said flatly. “But… who else?”

It was subtle, but Arthur noticed the shift in Dutch’s tone. The way his gaze flicked sideways—unsure. Suspecting. Looking for someone to blame. 

Jo finally found her voice. “Maybe we pushed things too hard,” she said, stepping forward, her tone calmer than she felt.

Micah snorted, loud and mocking. He rolled his eyes like she’d just said something adorable. Then, as if to dismiss her completely, he wandered over to Dutch’s side like a dog crawling back to its master and planted a hand on his shoulder. Jo wanted to put a bullet between his eyes. Instead, she holstered her gun. Slowly. Deliberately. But her shoulders remained tight.

Arthur’s voice cut through the space again, calm but firm. “Maybe time for folks like us is passed,” he said. “We don’t need a rat. We got sloppier than the town drunk and they know who we are, where we are, and what we’re doin’.”

“Way I see it,” Micah said, voice smooth as a snake’s belly, “best thing we can do is let the weak go. Move on, get our money, and start over.”

Arthur’s fists curled at his sides.

Dutch turned his head slowly to Micah, the lines around his eyes deepening. He looked at the hand on his shoulder as if it were something foul.

“That ain’t happenin’,” Dutch said, voice low and firm. His lip curled ever so slightly in distaste.

Micah’s hand dropped like a stone. He stepped back, masking the sting with a shrug, but his jaw tightened.

Arthur seized the moment. “Well, something’s gotta happen—and fast,” he said, taking a few paces, trying not to shout. “Otherwise Cornwall, them Pinkertons… they’ve got us pinned in here, and ain’t none of them stoppin’.”

At the mention of the Pinkertons, his voice dropped into a rough whisper. The kind you used when you knew every shadow might be listening.

Jo took a step forward too. Her eyes flicked to the street behind Dutch—narrow, open, far too exposed. “They’re tightening the net,” she added, voice tense. “Even if there ain’t a rat, they’re getting too close. We stay still, we’re dead. We move without a plan, same thing.”

Dutch turned his full attention to her then. His stare lingered a moment longer than was comfortable. She stood her ground, chin lifted, trying to keep her face neutral. But the fire in her chest burned steady now. Micah knew something. He hadn’t said it yet. But it was there in the way he looked at her. Like he was saving the truth for the right moment to draw blood.

Dutch said nothing.

Arthur noticed the tension, saw how Jo avoided Micah’s eyes, saw how Dutch watched her just a beat too long. His stomach twisted.

No. Not Jo. It wasn’t her.

His voice cut in again, sharp and urgent. “Dutch… this whole thing’s comin’ apart. I ain’t sayin’ we give up, but maybe it’s time we stop pretendin’ like we’re invisible.”

Dutch blinked slowly, like he was hearing Arthur from a great distance. His face… wavered. For the first time in a long while, something in it looked uncertain.

Maybe Arthur’s right, he thought. Maybe…

But then Micah leaned in again, mouth near Dutch’s ear, like the devil offering absolution. “Wel, Cornwall’s why we’re here. Shall we, Dutch?”

Dutch’s face hardened.

His eyes lingered on Arthur one final second… then shifted. That flicker of doubt vanished like smoke in the wind.

“Yeah, it’s time to go. Let’s head to the river,” Dutch said, as if the matter were settled. He turned sharply on his heel, his coat flaring behind him as he strode back toward the main street, gravel crunching under his boots with determined weight.

Arthur watched him go, jaw locked, shoulders tight. There was a fire climbing his spine now—slow, blistering frustration. He descended the two wooden steps from the barracks’ porch, his boots hitting the dirt with heavy finality.

“Ah, leave Cornwall alone,” he barked, following. “He ain’t— Look, we need money, but revenge? Now? ” The edge in his voice cracked higher with anger, his disbelief spilling into the open air.

Micah, never one to let a wound go unpicked, turned back on his heel and stepped in, closing the space between them like a snake coiling to strike. “Of course it’s for money,” he snapped, eyes gleaming with disdain, like Arthur was just too thick to see the grand design.

Jo moved without a word—her boots whispered softly through the dust as she came to stand beside Arthur. Close, her shoulder brushed his arm. A silent show of support. Not loud, not challenging, just… there. And somehow, that quiet presence spoke louder than Micah’s voice ever could.

Her expression was tight, unreadable. But her eyes were on Dutch. Watching.

Arthur felt her beside him and straightened up a little more, drawing from her steadiness. He wasn’t alone in this. Not completely.

“Come on, Arthur,” Dutch called back as he walked.

But Arthur had had enough. He took a step forward, his voice cold now, stripped of pleading, weighted with warning. “This better not be no stupid revenge mission, Dutch. It ain’t worth it.”

The breeze swept through the narrow alley, lifting the dust and grit like a restless ghost.

Dutch stopped walking.

“Don’t be ridiculous,” Micah muttered, smirking as he moved past Jo and Arthur, eager to keep in Dutch’s shadow like a loyal dog pretending to be a wolf.

Dutch paused just long enough to turn his head back and give Arthur a soft tap on the shoulder—a mocking gesture dressed up as camaraderie.

“Oh, Arthur…” he said with false levity, “It’s just a simple social call.”

Micah laughed. Dutch chuckled along with him, their footsteps fading together as they disappeared down the path toward the river.

Jo stood still, her arms crossed now, eyes following them.

She didn’t speak, not right away. But her jaw was set, and there was a slow, sinking cold gathering in her gut.

A simple social call. Sure.

She’d known Dutch long enough to see what that really meant.

Arthur didn’t move either, just stood there watching the road they’d taken, the ache in his chest turning sharp.

“Don’t like this,” he muttered, more to himself than her.

Jo finally glanced at him. “Me neither,” she said softly.

A beat passed between them—full of quiet understanding and the weight of things they hadn’t yet said.

They followed behind.

A good ten paces separated Arthur and Jo from Dutch and Micah, who strode ahead down the long, dusty street like they owned the whole damn town. The sun hung high and heavy, casting long shadows across the packed dirt and iron tracks. The air was thick with soot and the scent of coal — the sickly perfume of Annesburg — and somewhere in the distance, the low, rhythmic clank of the mine echoed off the hills.

Arthur’s boots crunched slow behind Dutch’s. Not too close. Not eager. His shoulders were tense beneath his shirt, his fingers twitching at his sides like they didn’t know what to do. He watched the way Micah leaned in too close to Dutch, whispering something low, too low to hear — and Dutch, damn fool that he was, listened.

Arthur’s jaw clenched.

He didn't trust Micah as far as he could throw him. That was no secret. But this—this whispering, this talk of rats and revenge and whatever the hell they were walking toward—it sat wrong with him. Like a stone lodged in his gut.

And Jo… hell.

He glanced sideways at her.

She walked beside him with that usual quiet strength, one hand resting near her holster, sharp eyes sweeping the alleyways, the rooftops, the corners of this miserable little mining town. She was always alert. Always calculating. But there was something taut in her jaw, a quiet fire burning in the way her gaze lingered too long on Dutch’s back.

She knew something was wrong too. He could tell.

“Darlin’,” Arthur said low, rough.

She looked up at him.

“Just…” He scratched his jaw, eyes flicking down the road ahead again. “Be careful. Alright?”

Her brows pulled together a little. “You think I ain’t?”

He let out a short breath — not quite a laugh, not quite a sigh.

“Ain’t what I meant.”

Jo tilted her head, waiting.

He didn’t speak right away. Didn’t know how to. The words built in his throat but they never quite made it out the way he meant. He didn’t want to say I’m scared for you — because fear like that didn’t belong in his mouth. And he didn’t want to say stay out of it — because she wasn’t the kind of woman you caged up behind good intentions.

Still… the idea of something happening to her because of all this? Because of them ?

It twisted him up inside.

“I don’t trust him,” Arthur muttered finally, nodding toward Micah. “And Dutch—he’s… he’s losin’ it. Bit by bit.”

Jo’s eyes darkened, her mouth a firm line.

“Just… don’t put yourself in the middle of their mess,” he said. “If it comes down to it… walk away. Please.”

She stopped for half a step. So did he.

There was something in her face now, softer than before. Something vulnerable behind the cool exterior. She didn’t smile. Didn’t joke. Just looked at him for a long moment, as if seeing all the worry he wasn’t saying out loud.

Then she nodded.

“I won’t leave you in it, Arthur,” she said quietly. “You know that.”

And that made something squeeze in his chest, almost painfully.

He wanted to say more. To tell her that she meant more to him than she probably realized. That the idea of losing her scared him more than getting shot ever did. But all he managed was a small grunt and a nod as they started walking again.

He didn’t need to say it.

She already knew.

And as they neared the edge of town, the river just beyond the warehouses, the wind picked up — cold off the Lannahechee — and the clank of the mine faded behind them.

Ahead, Dutch and Micah kept walking.

Behind them, two shadows moved as one.

 


 

The air down by the docks reeked of rot and rust.

Salt from the Lannahechee hung heavy on the breeze, tangled with the acrid stench of coal smoke and the sweet-sour scent of something decaying nearby — fish maybe, or something worse. Boards creaked beneath their boots as they neared the river, the water low and slow under the haze of the sun. Barges floated idle, tethered like forgotten dogs, and the warehouse windows watched them like blind eyes.

According to Dutch, everything came back to Cornwall.

He painted the man as the devil himself — the reason Hosea was dead, the reason the Pinkertons hunted them like dogs, the reason Guarma had been a hellhole of blood and rot. It was Cornwall’s sugar plantation that kept the people of that island in chains. It was his oil that poisoned the land and filled the government’s pockets. His money, his law, his reach that choked out every last flicker of freedom still burning in the hearts of men. Dutch wove it all together like scripture — sugar, oil, blood, death — all bearing one name.

Cornwall.

“We're gonna cut a deal, Arthur,” Micah said, his voice casual as he strode a few paces ahead, boots loud on the uneven boards of the pier.

Arthur didn’t answer, but Jo did — walking steady beside him, eyes narrowed. “What’re you talkin’ about?”

Micah glanced over his shoulder, lips curled into a half-smirk like he knew something they didn’t. “We want out,” Dutch stepped in, his tone measured, like he was trying to soothe a skittish horse. “And Cornwall wants us to stop robbing him. And we all know his money is what’s keepin’ the Pinkertons on our tails.”

The closer they got to the edge of the dock, the more Arthur’s unease rose like the tide. His eyes flicked to the open water, to the steamboat docked nearby, to the distant silhouettes of dockworkers moving crates with hunched shoulders and quick hands. All the while, Dutch kept talking.

“He’s America, Arthur. And I want out. But he… he won’t let us go.”

Arthur’s frown deepened. His gut had gone cold — the kind of chill that didn’t come from the breeze off the Lannahechee, but from something deeper. Older. Like the bottom was starting to fall out of everything they’d been building for years.

“This ain’t makin’ a lotta sense, Dutch,” he said, his voice low but tense.

Dutch’s gaze turned toward him, half-pleading, half-dismissive. “It will, son. It will.” He looked toward the horizon, like he saw something better there — a dream still intact. “A deal… some noise… and then we’re gone.”

Jo’s steps slowed for a half second as she turned her head and looked at Arthur — a look full of doubt, sharpened with quiet fear. Her brows pinched together, the corners of her mouth tight. 

Arthur met her eyes and gave the faintest shake of his head. He didn’t speak. He didn’t need to. The skepticism was written all over him, deep in the lines around his eyes, carved into the furrow of his brow. He didn’t believe this. Not for a second. Dutch was spinning again.

They walked on, side by side, as Dutch and Micah stepped ahead like prophets marching toward salvation — or damnation.

And neither Arthur nor Jo could tell which it was.

Chapter 37: Where the Bullet Lands

Chapter Text

The Malvina’s whistle cut through the Annesburg haze like a warning.

Steam hissed and churned against the quiet clatter of dockhands preparing for arrival. The Malvina, a squat steam-powered boat with a wide flat deck and flaking white paint, drifted slowly toward the dock, its engine coughing as it came to a shuddering stop. The river gleamed beneath it, dull and grey, reflecting back only the weight of the clouds overhead.

From behind a cluster of large crates stacked haphazardly near the cargo shack, Dutch, Arthur, Jo, and Micah waited in still silence, concealed in shadow. The wood was damp beneath their boots, the sharp scent of river muck and coal dust rising thick in the air.

A pair of armed guards stepped onto the docks, rifles slung loose but ready. Three more moved on the boat, hauling a heavy wooden gangplank between them and maneuvering it across to the dock with practiced care. The platform landed with a dull thunk , a straight wooden bridge between the docks and the Malvina.

No one spoke behind the crates. Dutch crouched with a strange calm about him — too still, too poised — waiting not for the right moment but for the perfect one. His eyes tracked everything. Micah, a little farther down, crouched low and grinned like a snake waiting to strike. Jo knelt beside Arthur, her revolver drawn but low, resting along her thigh. Her gaze flicked across the water, the boat, the guards, the hill beyond. Focused. Ready.

They heard the voices before they saw them.

Footsteps, crisp and commanding, followed by the unmistakable bark of Leviticus Cornwall.

“Find me Dutch Van der Linde! Bring him here, and leave the laws to them as need them! Good day, sir!” Cornwall’s voice was sharp, full of fury and frustration. He wasn’t used to being denied, to chasing shadows. And Dutch Van der Linde was still very much a shadow to him.

“Come along, Mr. Ross,” Milton replied coldly. “We have work to do.”

Arthur could just barely see Milton and Edgar Ross as they turned on their heels, the latter stiff with indignation. Their boots clicked against the planks as they departed, retreating into the fog rolling up from the river’s edge.

Hidden behind the crates, Dutch didn’t move at first — his jaw was tight, eyes narrowed with the kind of cold fury that came not from anger, but from belief. Belief that this was all righteous. That it had to be done. Then, finally, he turned slightly and motioned silently to Micah.

Follow them.

Micah didn’t need to be told twice. He slipped off like a shadow, boots silent on the dock, weaving between crates and stacks of lumber until he disappeared into the river fog after the Pinkertons.

Jo started to move too — slow and steady, her body lowering as she stepped lightly around the far end of the crate. Arthur’s heart kicked up. He didn’t know why — maybe it was instinct, maybe it was the way Micah had vanished, maybe it was the way Dutch hadn’t stopped her. Either way, he acted before he thought.

His hand shot out and caught her forearm — not rough, just enough to halt her.

She turned to him quickly, startled, her eyes flashing with something unreadable. Not anger, but not soft either. Not defiance, but not submission. Her breath hitched for just a moment.

Then she leaned closer, her voice a whisper only for him. “I’ll be careful.”

Arthur didn’t know what to say. His fingers lingered on her sleeve longer than they needed to. He could’ve told her to stop. Could’ve told her to stay by his side, that he didn’t trust Micah, that something about this whole thing stank to hell. But none of those words came out.

Instead, he looked at her — really looked — and saw the glint of quiet determination in her eyes. She wasn’t being reckless. 

And he let her go.

She disappeared behind the crates, silent as a ghost, slipping into the shadows the way he wished she never had to.

He watched the fog swallow her, a cold pit forming in his stomach. Not fear, not exactly. But something too close to it.

Something like loss , in advance.

 


 

Jo moved through the fog with quiet, practiced ease, each step deliberate, her breath held just long enough to stay silent. She kept low as she moved through the narrow alleys of Annesburg, the sound of boots and distant clanging metal from the mines masking her steps. She kept Micah in her sights, just far enough to not be noticed. Her eyes stayed fixed on Micah’s back as he weaved through the crates and outbuildings, slipping deeper into the warren of dockside paths that curved along the river’s edge. He moved quick but not hurried, like a man who had done this kind of slinking before — and knew exactly where to go.

The fog helped. It rolled up thick off the water, curling around her boots and swallowing the creak of wood and distant clang of chains. The town’s industrial hum softened in the mist, as if the world itself was holding its breath.

Micah took a sharp turn left around a warehouse corner, then another, looping around stacks of lumber and disappearing into narrow alleys. He was being careful. Cautious.

Jo followed at a distance, heart steady but alert, pulse drumming in her ears more from anticipation than fear. She wasn’t even sure what she hoped to see — a meeting, an exchange, maybe just a hint of where his loyalties really lied. She didn’t trust him, hadn’t in a long time, and something in her gut told her there was more to this little errand than tailing Pinkertons.

She turned the same corner he had.

And stopped cold.

Gone.

The alley stretched empty in both directions. A sagging fence blocked one end, while the other faded into mist and shadows. She looked left, then right, then up toward the rooflines, squinting through the fog.

Nothing.

A whisper of wind stirred the loose wood behind her.

She turned—

And before she could move, Micah slammed into her like a force of nature.

Jo’s back hit the rough brick wall behind her, her breath knocked clean from her lungs. His forearm pressed hard across her chest, pinning her fast, while the other hand grabbed her jaw roughly, forcing her to meet his eyes.

He was smiling . That grin of his — too wide, too cold. The kind that never touched his eyes.

“Well, well... ain't you a curious little thing,” he said, voice low and oily. “Creepin’ after me like some alley cat. You think I didn’t see you?”

Jo’s hands moved to push him, but his weight held her fast. Her breath came short now — not from pain, but fury. She narrowed her eyes, unflinching.

“I ain’t got time for you, Micah.”

He chuckled darkly, shifting his weight to block any move she could make. “You got time for secrets though, don’t you?”

She froze. Just enough for him to notice. His smile deepened.

“That’s right. Jo . Or is that still the name you’re usin’ these days?”

Her jaw clenched.

Micah leaned in closer, his breath sour against her cheek. “You keep waggin’ that tongue in camp. Tellin’ people to run, to leave ... Arthur, John, maybe even Dutch if you’re feelin’ bold. You keep plantin’ them little seeds... and I swear to God, girl, I’ll burn the whole damn garden.”

His fingers wrapped around her throat suddenly, not tight at first — just enough to make her still, to show her he could . That he would .

“It’d be so damn easy, gettin’ rid of you here,” he hissed, squeezing slowly, deliberately, “Nobody’d find you in this fog. Blame it on a Pinkerton, maybe. You fallin’ in the river. Hell, maybe Arthur don’t even ask.”

Jo struggled, grabbing his wrist with both hands, but he had the leverage, and the strength. Her feet kicked against the dirt and her back arched instinctively, trying to suck in air that wouldn’t come. Her vision blurred at the edges, pulse hammering against his tightening fingers.

“Be so easy,” he muttered, his voice a poisonous whisper now. 

Her lungs burned, her fingernails clawing uselessly at his forearm. She didn’t beg. She didn’t plead. But she knew he meant it. Knew he’d do it if he thought he could.

So she moved.

Fast.

Her knee jerked up hard between his legs, the crack of impact followed by a guttural grunt from Micah as he stumbled back, swearing.

“You little bitch— !”

Micah let out a strangled grunt , staggering back with a furious snarl as Jo gasped and doubled over, coughing, sucking in breath like a drowning woman. Her legs trembled but she pushed herself upright, reaching for her revolver with shaking hands—but Micah was already retreating, one hand between his legs, the other pointing a warning finger at her like a loaded pistol.

“You make one more mistake, Blondie,” he spat, breath ragged, “and I’ll bury you with all your pretty little lies.”

Jo’s heart was still slamming against her ribs, but she stared him down through burning eyes, hand still resting on her gun. Her voice, when it came, was hoarse.

“Touch me again, and I’ll put you in the ground.”

Micah chuckled, the sound cold and unhinged, then vanished into the alley’s shadow as if he’d never been there.

The pain in Jo’s throat pulsed with every breath. Her chest still rose and fell too quickly, her ribs tight with adrenaline and leftover panic. She pressed a hand to the wall to steady herself, willing the dizziness to fade. Her fingers trembled, bruises already forming beneath her skin. She blinked hard, trying to clear her vision, her throat raw and aching like something had been torn open inside her.

She hadn’t even begun to process what had just happened—Micah’s threats, the violence, the fury in his eyes—when the crack of gunfire shattered the air.

Jo flinched instinctively, her head snapping toward the sound.

Another shot. Then two more in rapid succession, echoing sharp through the empty alleys and open streets near the docks. Muffled shouts followed. Men's voices, raised in panic. Chaos.

Her gut twisted. Arthur.

She didn’t think. Didn’t breathe. Her boots were already pounding the dirt as she bolted from the alley, lungs burning as she forced herself into motion. Every bruise, every ache from Micah’s assault was ignored, shoved down beneath the overwhelming, all-consuming fear that something had gone terribly wrong.

She didn’t know what had happened—but she knew Dutch. And she knew what he was capable of when cornered, when desperate.

And he was desperate.

As she ran, gun drawn, two figures appeared ahead—armed men, not from town, not law. Cornwall’s , she realized. Private guards, rifles raised and barking orders toward the docks. They hadn't seen her yet.

She didn’t give them a chance.

Her revolver cracked once, twice—the first man dropped without a sound, the second stumbling as the bullet struck his side. He fired wildly, but Jo was already moving, ducking low, sliding behind a barrel and popping up again to fire a third, final shot that sent him crumpling to the mud.

She didn’t stop to check if he was dead.

More shots rang out ahead. A full gunfight now.

Through the haze of smoke and steam, past the cargo shack and the shouts of men, Jo caught sight of two familiar silhouettes moving fast between cover—a brown coat, the shape of a rifle slung across a broad back, and beside it, Dutch’s wild, sweeping stride.

They were retreating through the chaos, ducking into one of the processing buildings—where the coal from the mines was loaded and sorted. A shadowy structure of rusted steel and groaning machinery, half-lit by lanterns and veiled in soot.

Jo’s heart surged in her chest.

She sprinted toward them, the sounds of battle all around her—cries of pain, the stutter of gunfire, boots on wood, the scream of a panicked worker fleeing the scene. She shoved past a pile of crates, crouching low to reload, fingers moving on instinct now. Another guard turned the corner ahead—she raised her gun and dropped him in one shot.

She didn’t think about who they were. Didn’t think about what had happened to Cornwall. All she could think about was getting to Arthur before the dust settled.

Before someone didn’t make it out.

Her throat still throbbed with every breath, but she pushed forward, muscles taut, blood pumping like fire in her veins.

She had followed Micah looking for answers.

But now she was fighting her way back toward the only thing that mattered—Arthur.

And she wasn’t going to lose him to Dutch’s madness.

Not today.

Not ever. 

 


 

Arthur ducked low behind the crates, instinct taking over. His revolver was already in hand when Dutch rose beside him, firing off a shot that dropped a Pinkerton mid-sprint.

“Come on, Micah’s gone after those papers!” Dutch barked, his voice tight with urgency. He popped up again to fire, the muzzle flash illuminating his face in short, sharp bursts. “Let’s find him and get out of here!”

Arthur clenched his jaw, heart pounding. There was no time to argue—not now. He moved in tandem with Dutch, both of them bolting from their cover. They sprinted across the open stretch toward the railroad, gunfire cracking overhead, bullets pinging off crates and metal piping.

A Pinkerton perched on a silo tower raised his rifle—Arthur saw the glint of the scope, aimed right at Dutch.

Arthur skidded to a stop, lifted his pistol with both hands, and fired once—twice—three times. The third shot hit, sending the sniper reeling backward off the tower, his rifle clattering to the platform below.

“Keep movin’!” Dutch shouted without looking back, already halfway to the next stack of crates.

Arthur followed, boots pounding across the wooden planks, lungs burning. The air was thick with gunpowder and steam, every breath harsh and hot in his throat. Workers screamed and scattered, dropping whatever they were carrying, vanishing into alleyways or diving into the river as the fighting swelled.

A bullet grazed the corner of the crate near Arthur’s head—he dropped to a knee and returned fire toward the covered balcony of the cargo office, where two men were reloading behind barrels.

Dutch flanked left, moving with unnerving speed for a man his age, his pistol barking as he cleared a path ahead. “This way!”

They crossed the railroad tracks in a sprint, kicking up coal dust as they made for the tall wooden building at the edge of the yard—where the coal from the mine was sorted and loaded. Its massive doors stood ajar, dark and gaping, a looming skeleton of beams and rusted steel.

Arthur covered Dutch’s back, turning to take out a guard emerging from behind a water tank. He pulled the trigger—click. Empty.

He ducked behind a low crate, reloading fast, fingers practiced but slick with sweat. His shoulder ached from the recoil and he swore under his breath as he slammed the cylinder closed.

Another burst of gunfire from Dutch, then a shout. “Arthur! Let’s go!”

Arthur scrambled to his feet, dashing through the haze and into the mouth of the coal building. The thick scent of soot hit him like a wall—coal, grease, and blood. It was loud in here—creaking beams, the distant clatter of chains, the echo of footsteps on metal walkways above.

They weren’t alone.

More guards were inside, armed and shouting orders. One of them spotted Arthur and raised a shotgun—too close. Arthur dove behind a conveyor belt as the blast tore through the air where he’d just been. He rolled and came up firing, two bullets slamming into the man’s chest and sending him crashing into a pile of coal sacks.

“Damn place is swarming,” Arthur muttered, sweat streaking his brow.

Dutch fired from a walkway above, having climbed the narrow stair to get a better vantage point. “We find Micah, we find those papers, and we leave ! You hear me?!”

Arthur didn’t answer—just gritted his teeth and moved forward, deeper into the smoke-choked building.

He didn’t know where Micah was.

He didn’t know what the hell Dutch was thinking.

Arthur ducked beneath the rusted pipe, his back hitting a support beam as bullets split the air around him. The building echoed with sharp cracks and the distant clanging of coal dropping through the chutes. His lungs burned, his shirt clung to him with sweat and grime, but he kept pushing forward, boots crunching over coal dust.

He paused just long enough to reload. His ears were ringing, his heart hammering—and then he saw it.

A glint. Movement. A man on the mezzanine above, rifle raised, aiming right at him .

Arthur didn’t have time to raise his weapon.

The shot cracked—

—but it didn’t hit him.

The gunman staggered, slamming back against the railing as a second shot rang out from the shadows near the main doors. Arthur turned just in time to see Jo stepping into view, rifle lowered, jaw clenched, eyes fixed on the man she'd just dropped.

She was out of breath, dirt streaking her face, her hair wild and loose from the run and the fight—but she was alive. Alive, and her gaze locked with his like a tether snapping tight.

He didn’t even think. He moved toward her in long strides, pushing past the hanging chains and beams, boots clanging across the platform.

"You alright?" he asked, voice low and tense as he reached her, his hand coming to her arm instinctively, gripping her just enough to feel her there.

"Yeah," she said, breathless. "I'm okay."

He searched her face, scanning for blood, for any sign of a wound, his thumb brushing against her jaw. 

“Where’s Micah?” he asked next, eyes narrowing slightly, still alert for movement.

“I—I don’t know,” she said. She looked shaken, voice hoarse but steady. “He slipped away. I lost him.”

Arthur nodded slowly, but something in his eyes darkened—not at her, but at the thought of that bastard loose somewhere, doing whatever he pleased.

For a moment, the gunfire seemed to fade, the world narrowing down to the two of them standing in the middle of this goddamn mess. Dust and smoke danced in the light filtering through the broken slats above. Shouts echoed from deeper inside the building. The gang was still out there.

But so was Micah.

Arthur exhaled through his nose, eyes still on hers.

“Come on,” he muttered. “We gotta go.”

The wooden planks groaned under their weight as Arthur and Jo darted along the upper catwalks, rifles raised, boots skidding in coal dust. The air inside the building was thick—smoke, steam, and the stink of gunpowder clinging to every breath. From below, gunfire barked and snapped, echoing off metal beams and iron machinery.

Arthur led, carving a path forward with deadly precision. Each shot he took landed where it needed to, each movement honed by instinct and desperation. Jo followed close, her rifle tight in her hands, jaw clenched as she watched his back and fired on any shape that moved where it shouldn’t.

Just as they reached the second floor, a figure darted into their path—rifle raised, face twisted with rage. Jo didn’t hesitate. Her bullet tore through the man’s chest before he could speak, and he collapsed against the railing with a hollow thud.

They had no time to breathe.

From the other side of the walkway, Dutch’s voice rang out—hoarse, breathless, but elated.

“I found somethin’ interestin’,” Micah announced suddenly, stepping from the shadows behind a broken support beam like he’d been born of the smoke. In one hand, he held a stack of papers—creased and water-stained, but clearly official. His eyes gleamed beneath the brim of his filthy hat. “Cornwall’s men are all over the place.”

Arthur turned, rifle raised slightly in shock, but Micah grinned and held up the documents higher like a trophy. Dutch looked between them and nodded, face lit with something too close to satisfaction.

But any thoughts of celebrating were cut short by another volley of bullets slamming into the beams near their heads.

“Up! Only way out’s up!” Dutch barked.

They bolted for the staircase. Arthur went first, covering the others as they scrambled upward two steps at a time. Jo was right behind him, Micah next, and Dutch bringing up the rear. Bullets pinged off the railing as two guards appeared at the top of the landing, shouting commands.

Arthur didn't give them a chance. He dropped to a knee and fired twice, both men collapsing into a heap before they could fire.

“We had enough heat on us before,” Arthur growled, chest heaving as they ascended, “now we’re gonna be torched , Dutch!”

“This is the only way. You’ll see. Trust me ,” Dutch said from behind, his voice cutting through the barrage of chaos.

Arthur didn’t turn, but his voice came rough, hot with disbelief. “ Trust you?

They reached the next level and burst out into a narrow corridor, smoke curling through the open windows. Another guard turned the corner—and Jo was quicker. Her revolver cracked once, and the man slumped against the wall, gun clattering to the floor.

The corridor funneled them toward a back exit. As they neared it, the gunfire intensified—more guards converging on their location. Arthur fired without hesitation, each shot ringing with bitter precision.

And then Micah laughed—actually laughed—as he ran beside Arthur toward the exit.

“Finally puttin’ that bastard Cornwall outta business for good!” he called out over the din, ducking behind a pillar and firing off a shot that clipped a man’s shoulder and sent him reeling.

Arthur snarled through gritted teeth, his rifle smoking. “Did you put Dutch up to this?”

“Me?” Micah turned briefly, still grinning, lips curled back like a dog with blood in its teeth. “I just follow orders , Morgan!”

“Let’s go! Let’s go!” Dutch roared from behind them.

They made it to the last stretch of the corridor. The light outside burned bright through the open doorway ahead, and the air stank of smoke and coal dust. Arthur fired one last shot, dropping another man, then shoved the door open with his shoulder.

The sunlight hit them hard. They spilled out of the building and onto a gravel path that sloped downhill toward the mine rails. The clang of metal and whistle of steam machines rang out somewhere ahead.

"You said this wasn't a revenge mission!" Arthur snapped, turning his head just enough to shout at Dutch.

Dutch, still gripping his pistol and those damn papers, barely looked at him. “It wasn’t ! We got what we came for!”

But Arthur didn’t believe him—not really. He could feel it clawing at the back of his chest, sour and slow, even as the heat of battle roared on: the ugly truth that Dutch didn’t come here for strategy. He came for blood .

And now they were all in it.

The moment they burst out of the coal building, the world roared to life.

Gunfire cracked like thunder. Smoke coiled from the barrels of rifles as a dozen men swarmed in from every direction — Pinkertons, Cornwall’s guards, hired muscle in dust-streaked coats. They were surrounded.

“More up top here!” Dutch shouted, already raising his pistol toward a catwalk that curved above the yard. “Gun them down and let’s get the hell outta this place!”

No time to breathe. No time to think.

Arthur was already moving, eyes darting, rifle swinging in tight arcs. He shot a man near the freight carts, then turned to drop another charging up from the mine track. Jo stayed close, fast and sharp, picking off two men at the far left flank with practiced calm — but her jaw was clenched, shoulders tense. They were exposed, and they both knew it.

The enemy wasn’t just ahead — they were above, behind, crouched on crates, firing from balconies. Bullets whistled through the air, punching into wood and stone and flesh. The ground was littered with spent shells and blood, echoing with the screams of the dying and the rage of the living.

Arthur’s rifle clicked.

Empty.

He cursed and ducked low behind a barrel, fumbling for fresh rounds, his hands moving from instinct more than focus. He looked up for Jo—she was stepping forward, returning fire, and she didn’t see it.

Didn’t see the bastard on the left, crawling up onto a broken cart, his rifle aimed right for her back.

Arthur didn’t hesitate. Didn’t think.

No.

He surged forward, tossing his empty rifle aside and lunging toward her.

Jo—!

She turned just as he hit her, pushing her out of the bullet’s path with all the force he had.

The gun cracked. The shot rang out too close. And Arthur felt it — white heat , tearing through the meat of his upper arm like a hot iron. It spun him halfway as he dropped to one knee, gritting his teeth to bite back the roar of pain.

Jo hit the ground, rolled, and scrambled up in a rush.

Her heart stopped for a beat when she saw him.

Arthur was clutching his arm, breath ragged, the sleeve of his shirt blooming red. His jaw was tight, nostrils flaring, but he was still up—barely.

Her eyes burned with something sharp and furious. “Arthur!”

“I’m fine,” he rasped, but his voice was hoarse, the pain leaking into every syllable. “Keep movin’!”

Dutch’s voice barked orders from somewhere behind them, and Micah cursed loudly as more men closed in. But for Jo, for a second, the noise blurred.

All she could see was Arthur — his bloodied arm, the way he’d looked at her just before he pushed her out of the way. The desperation in it. The love .

Because there was no other word for what she’d seen in his eyes. No other reason for him to throw himself in front of a bullet that wasn’t meant for him.

But this wasn’t the time.

She turned back, rage burning in her bones. The man who’d fired the shot was still reloading — and he never got the chance to finish. Jo shot him clean through the chest.

Arthur grabbed his revolver with his good hand and rejoined the fight, grunting through the pain. “We gotta move! Now!”

They backed toward Dutch and Micah, who were firing from the edge of a supply wagon, trying to carve a way out. More enemies poured in from the road and catwalks, but Arthur and Jo fought side by side, covering each other, their shots sharp and vengeful.

Jo’s jaw was set like stone. Every bullet she fired felt personal now. Arthur moved slower, favoring his left side, blood soaking through his shirt—but he didn’t stop. Wouldn’t stop.

Dutch glanced at them once, saw the wound, and shouted, “Come on, we can take the horses from that coach!”

Arthur didn’t answer. His only focus was the path ahead, the enemies in the way, and the woman beside him whose life he’d risked his own to protect.

And the weight of that wasn’t lost on Jo.

She would never forget it. Would never forgive Micah. And she sure as hell wouldn’t let Arthur bleed out here.

The old supply coach was half-abandoned, likely meant to haul coal from the yard, and the frightened horses reared nervously against their reins as Dutch moved in, blade flashing as he cut them loose one by one.

Micah was already grinning as he limped toward them, blood on his sleeve and soot smeared across his face. “Well,” he said as he swung up into the saddle, voice light like this was all a damn joke, “at least we tried talking it out.”

Arthur’s jaw clenched as he staggered toward a horse, holding his wounded arm close to his chest. Blood still ran warm down his sleeve, soaking into his glove, but he forced himself up anyway, teeth grit hard against a snarl of pain. He managed to swing onto the horse, barely, and settled in behind the others, heart pounding and lungs raw.

“You boys have lost your damn minds,” he spat, voice thick with disbelief — and betrayal.

Dutch, already mounting, turned to look at Arthur. The gunfire still echoed behind them, the mineyard a mess of bodies and smoke, but for a breath, everything else fell quiet.

Dutch’s eyes met his, deep and unreadable. “Oh…” he began, voice slow, almost fatherly. “I’ve felt a lot of guilt in this life, Arthur. I’ve killed too often. And poorly. But not this time , son.”

And just like that — son.

It hit Arthur square in the chest. Son. He used to hear that word and feel pride swell in his gut, used to feel like he belonged, like he mattered to the man he’d followed for half his life.

Now?

Now it sounded like poison. Like a leash being tightened around his neck.

Arthur said nothing. He looked away, jaw flexing, bile rising behind his tongue. The way Dutch used that word now — it wasn’t love. It wasn’t family. It was manipulation , clear and cruel and cold. He wanted obedience. He wanted loyalty. But not from a son.

From a weapon.

Micah spurred his horse forward, taking the lead with that same cocky swagger he always wore like a second skin. Dutch followed right behind him, all confidence and purpose.

Jo rode up beside Arthur without a word. She glanced at him once — her eyes heavy, haunted — and he gave her the smallest nod he could manage.

They rode hard behind the others, toward the treeline beyond the smoke. Arthur leaned low, his fingers tight on the reins, one hand slick with blood. Jo watched his back, her revolver still smoking, picking off anyone who dared step in their way. 

They rode fast and silent, the thunder of hooves drowning the remnants of gunfire. But the silence between Arthur and Dutch — that was louder.

Louder than the Pinkertons.

Louder than the bullets.

Because something had broken. Something final.

And Arthur could feel it in his bones: there was no putting it back together now.

 


 

The echo of gunfire still clung to the trees like smoke, but no more bullets came flying from behind them. The last man had dropped screaming in the dirt some ways back, and even the distant clamor of boots and shouts had faded. Now, only the wind stirred through the late afternoon haze, thick with gunpowder and the bitter scent of coal dust.

Dutch finally slowed his horse, raising one hand.
“Whoa,” he called, his voice cutting through the quiet like a commandment. “We all okay?”

The small group of them—Micah in the leadJo and Arthur side by side—eased their horses to a halt. Arthur’s jaw was tight as iron as he clutched his bleeding arm. His reins were slick with blood, but he stayed upright, barely, chest rising and falling with shallow, labored breaths.

Interestin’ social call,” he muttered through gritted teeth, his tone a bitter blend of sarcasm and pain.

Micah twisted on the horse’s back to glare over his shoulder, still half-chuckling. “Don’t play dumb and superior at the same time, Morgan,” he snapped, his voice sharp as a blade. “We all knew sooner or later Cornwall had to go.”

Dutch dismounted in one fluid motion, boots hitting the dirt with finality. He moved to the center of the small circle they’d formed, his face unreadable. The sun caught the gold stitching of his vest, the only thing left clean on him, and in his gloved hand were the papers Micah had managed to steal from inside the building—just after disappearing from Jo’s sight.

Jo didn’t speak. She was watching Micah, her gaze cold as a loaded barrel, but Micah barely looked her way. 

Dutch unfolded the papers carefully, eyes scanning the ink, and spoke in a slow, deliberate tone.

“Looks like Mr. Cornwall’s company has signed a railroad contract with the army,” he said, turning a page. “And they’re also moving dynamite down from the Annesburg mines to Saint Denis... to resell.”

There was a flicker of something in his voice. Not excitement. Obsession.

Arthur shifted on the horse’s back, pain flashing across his face as his arm throbbed. “And what the hell are we supposed to do with that information, Dutch? Start another war with the damn army? Burn another city down?”

“We barely got outta there alive,” Jo added, sharp and low. “That wasn’t a job. That was a massacre . And for what? A few goddamn papers?”

Dutch looked up from the documents, the light gone from his eyes. “This is a window,” he said, voice quiet but absolute. “Cornwall was the leash wrapped around this country's neck. He’s been feeding the Pinkertons. Feeding the army. Now we’ve got a way in. A way out .”

Arthur barked a bitter laugh, then hissed as it pulled at his injury. “A way out? This feels a hell of a lot like you diggin’ us a grave.”

“I told you to trust me,” Dutch said, walking slowly back toward his horse. “And I meant it.”

Jo leaned forward slightly in the saddle. “You’re not hearing us,” she said, her voice not loud, but firm. “You keep sayin’ we’re doing this for the gang, but more and more, it feels like we’re just chasin’ ghosts you’re too proud to let go of.”

Dutch paused, hand on the reins. He didn’t look at her.

“I hear everything , Miss Harper,” he replied after a moment. “That’s why I lead.”

And just like that, he mounted up again, settling into the saddle like it was a throne. Without another word, he turned his horse and started riding back toward the camp trail.

Micah kicked his own mount into motion, riding up beside him with a grin. “Damn fine day’s work, boss.”

Arthur watched them go, his shoulders heaving once as he adjusted in the saddle. Blood was drying thick down his arm, and his fingers tingled with numbness.

He didn’t speak. Just watched them fade into the distance, those two figures riding out like they were proud of what they'd done.

Beside him, Jo finally let her shoulders drop. Her eyes flicked to Arthur.

The clatter of hooves had faded ahead of them. Dutch and Micah had ridden on, eager to leave the wreckage behind like it was just another line crossed and forgotten.

But Jo held back, glancing to her side as Arthur rode beside her, slower now. His left arm was limp against his side, blood soaked into the sleeve of his coat, fingers twitching with the ghost of pain. His jaw was set, clenched so tight she could see the tension in the hollow of his cheek.

They didn’t speak.

The path they followed twisted between trees, the dense green of Annesburg’s outskirts rising around them, moss-heavy branches casting shifting shadows in the late afternoon sun. A breeze tugged at her hair, brushing it across her cheek, and in its wake came the sharp copper tang of blood and gunpowder still clinging to their clothes.

Arthur’s horse shifted unevenly beneath him as they took a bend, and Jo instinctively reached out.

“Careful,” she murmured, her fingers brushing his good arm.

“’m fine,” Arthur said, the words too quick, too forced.

But he wasn’t. She could see it in the stiffness of his spine, the way his mouth pressed into a thin, white line every time the horse jostled too hard. He was holding it in, as he always did—because pain was a burden he didn’t let others carry.

Jo looked ahead again, hands tightening on her reins. Her ribs ached from where Micah had slammed her into the wall. Her throat was still tender, bruises blooming where his fingers had closed around it. But she stayed silent. 

They rode quietly for a while longer. Only the rhythmic beat of hooves against earth broke the silence, each step taking them farther from the docks, from the fire and the smoke and the gunshots that still rang in her ears.

Eventually, Arthur exhaled hard through his nose, tilting his head back slightly to squint at the sky. The sun was beginning its slow descent now, slanting warm light across his face, softening the edges of the grime and blood. His eyes closed for a brief second.

“I ain’t sure how much more of this I can stomach,” he muttered.

Jo turned to look at him, but he didn’t return her gaze. His eyes were fixed on the road ahead, on something far beyond the trees. “Dutch is… he’s goin’ somewhere, Jo. And I don’t think it’s nowhere we wanna follow.”

Her throat felt tight, but she swallowed it down. “I know,” she said softly.

A few birds took flight from a branch above, startled by something deeper in the woods, and Jo’s hand dropped to her holster on instinct. But there was no threat. Just nerves. Just adrenaline still coiled tight beneath her skin.

They rode past a narrow stream, the sound of water bubbling over stone cutting through the quiet. Arthur leaned slightly in the saddle, wincing, and Jo slowed her horse to match him exactly, never straying more than a few feet from his side.

“I should look at that wound when we get back,” she offered, voice low.

He didn’t answer right away. Then, finally, he gave her a small, tired nod.

“Thanks.”

Another mile passed, maybe two, as the sun sank lower behind the trees. The weight of silence had shifted between them—not heavy now, but settled. Familiar.

Jo thought about speaking. About telling him what Micah had done. About the threat, the bruises, the way his hands had closed around her throat like he’d been waiting for an excuse to crush the life from her.

But she didn’t.

Because Arthur was bleeding. Because everything they were trying to hold together already felt like it was crumbling. Because she knew once she said the words, things would break even faster.

So instead, she rode beside him in silence, matching his pace, watching over him without saying a thing.

The return to camp was quiet—not in silence, but in the heaviness that followed gunfire. The horses moved at a careful pace through the trees, mindful of the man bleeding from his arm and the lingering adrenaline crackling between the two riders. Jo had ridden close to Arthur the entire time, her eyes drifting toward him every few seconds. He held the reins tightly, jaw clenched against the pain, the blood on his sleeve dried now, but the stain deep and angry.

They crested the final hill and the familiar sight of camp greeted them—tents nestled between trees, the campfire barely smoldering, and the faint hum of conversation fading as their presence was noticed.

Charles was the first to stand, eyes narrowing at the sight of the blood. “What the hell happened?”

“Oh, Christ, Arthur—” Mary-Beth scrambled up from her seat near the fire, her hands hovering before she even reached him. “You’re hurt—”

“I’m fine,” Arthur muttered as he dismounted stiffly, gritting his teeth as his boots hit the ground. He staggered a little, his balance off from the pain, and Jo was at his side before anyone else could blink.

“He ain’t fine,” she snapped, not looking at the others as she helped him steady himself. “Don’t just stand there, someone get me clean water and a needle.”

“Jo…” Charles said gently, but she cut him off with a glare that dared anyone to say another word.

Arthur gave her a weary glance, his breath shallow. “I’m alright. I—”

“Don’t even start,” she muttered, guiding him toward his tent with a tight grip on his uninjured side.

Arthur sat on the edge of their cot, shirt stripped off and tossed aside, the bloodied sleeve clinging wetly to it. Jo crouched before him, basin of warm water by her side, needle and thread laid out, and her breath tight in her lungs.

The tent was dim. The lantern glowed beside them, casting flickers of gold across the hollow of his collarbone, over the line of his jaw where stubble clung stubborn and rough. The wound on his arm — a clean shot, through and through — had slowed its bleeding, but the skin around it was swollen, angry red. Her fingers hovered before she touched him.

“Don’t tense,” she murmured, more out of habit than expectation. He was always tense, these days. But he didn’t flinch when her hand touched the skin just above the wound. Only watched her, quietly.

Jo wet the cloth and began to clean around the injury, dabbing the blood away gently, the water quickly turning pink. His muscles jumped slightly under her touch. Not from pain, she thought, but from restraint.

She hated seeing him like this. Hated the sight of his blood. Hated how damn calm he looked, despite what it had cost him. Despite the fact that he’d taken that bullet for her.

“You’re lucky it went straight through,” she said low, mostly to herself. Her voice cracked a little. “Could’ve been worse.”

He said nothing. Just watched her. His breathing was steady, but slower now. Jo threaded the needle, her fingers trembling only slightly. She bit the inside of her cheek and forced the first stitch through.

He didn’t make a sound.

“Goddamn it, Arthur,” she finally whispered, tension leaking out of her like a slow exhale. “You could’ve died.”

Still, he didn’t answer right away. His jaw flexed slightly, eyes flickering down to the stitch she pulled tight. He was pale, but not from pain — more like he was somewhere far away in thought. Finally, his voice broke the quiet: “And I’d do it again. Without thinkin’. If it meant you were safe.”

She paused. Thread halfway through his skin, fingers stilled. She didn’t look at him right away. Her jaw clenched, mouth trembling.

“You’re a damn fool,” she said, but her voice was softer than her words. “You don’t get to throw your life away like that. Not for me.”

“I do,” he said simply, as though it was the most natural thing in the world. “And I would.”

Her hands resumed their work, slower now, more careful. The silence stretched between them — not cold, not angry, but thick with everything unsaid. She focused on the way the needle pulled skin to skin, how his body twitched slightly beneath the touch, how his heat soaked into her fingers as she pressed the wound closed.

“I ain’t worth that risk,” she said after a long while, almost a whisper. “Not when it’s your life on the line.”

His voice came back quieter this time. Rougher. “Don’t say that. You don’t get to decide what you’re worth to me.”

Jo swallowed hard, blinking fast as she tied off the final stitch and sat back on her heels. Her hands were stained red — not just with his blood, but with the weight of the moment. The way he looked at her now, it cut through everything else — the past, the camp, the gang, Micah — all of it.

It was just him. And her. And a wound that went deeper than the bullet hole.

The silence between them stretched, thicker than before, almost humming. The lantern’s glow flickered across Arthur’s bare chest, painting him in gold and shadow — skin flushed, jaw tight, eyes never once straying from her face.

She lifted her chin slightly, her breath shallow in her throat. Her hands had stopped trembling, but her heart hadn’t. Not since he pushed her out of the line of that bullet. Not since he told her she didn’t get to decide what she was worth to him.

Arthur’s eyes searched her face, dragging over every detail like a man memorizing the only truth left to him. The smudge of blood high on her cheekbone. The shadow of exhaustion under her eyes. The small, uncertain twitch of her lips like she was holding back a thousand words. His gaze dropped lower — to her mouth.

Those lips. Soft, parted slightly as she breathed — not from effort, but from the weight of the moment. They looked kissed already, flushed from tension and damp with the breath she wasn’t quite taking. He remembered the way they tasted — fleeting and half-forgotten in the haze of their first time — but now, it felt different. Not like something he wanted . Like something he needed .

He reached for her.

His good hand brushed her side, calloused palm against the fabric of her shirt. He guided her toward him without force, only need, and Jo came willingly, as if pulled by the same invisible thread strung between them. Her knees folded onto the cot, either side of his hips, and she straddled him slowly — uncertain, but unable to resist.

Her thighs framed his body, legs firm around him, her hands settling lightly on his shoulders. Arthur’s breath caught. He hadn’t realized how close she’d gotten until he could feel the press of her against him — not just physically, but soul-deep. Her presence filled the tent. Her scent — leather, sweat, faint soap — stirred something low in his gut.

She was staring at him now. Not just looking — seeing . Like she could peel him open with nothing but her eyes.

And still, he hadn’t kissed her.

Because he needed one more second. One more second to memorize the way she felt in his lap, the way the flickering lantern turned her eyes molten and made the line of her throat look delicate and brave all at once. He needed to look at her lips one more time — the full curve of them, trembling slightly as if she was afraid to break the silence.

He didn’t ask.

He just leaned in and kissed her.

It was fierce. Raw. Desperate. A kiss that didn’t ask permission because they both already knew the answer. His mouth found hers like it was home — like it had been waiting since the first time they’d ever looked at each other with heat in their gaze instead of fire in their words.

Jo gasped into him, just slightly, and her hands tightened around his shoulders. His hand — the good one — slid up her side, rough fingers brushing the edge of her ribs, over the back of her shirt, pulling her closer. He groaned into her mouth, something guttural and low and too real, and she responded in kind, deepening the kiss as if trying to pour everything she’d never said into him.

Their bodies pressed together, every line of muscle and curve molding as if they were trying to make the moment last forever. Arthur tilted his head, hungry for more, lips moving against hers with barely controlled urgency. He wanted to feel all of her — her mouth, her hands, her heartbeat against his chest.

This wasn’t like last time. This wasn’t lust in the dark or half-drunken impulse.

This was something else entirely.

Something that felt like it could tear them apart if they didn’t hold on tight enough.

Jo melted into him.

For the first time in what felt like forever, she let herself stop thinking — let herself feel . Her fingers curled into the hard slope of his shoulders, her thumbs pressing into the tense line of his neck as she leaned into the kiss with something more than need — with trust. With a kind of desperation she hadn’t allowed herself to admit.

Arthur’s lips moved over hers like he was trying to learn her. Not possessively, not hungrily — not at first — but deeply. Thoroughly. Like every brush, every soft pull of her lower lip between his, was meant to tell her all the things he hadn’t said. Things she might not be ready to hear, but he’d been carrying in silence all the same.

Her heartbeat pounded against her ribs, echoing the same rhythm she felt in his chest beneath her palms. Fast. Uneven. Alive . Her thighs squeezed tighter against his hips as his hand slid from the curve of her waist up her back, rough and warm and grounding. Her whole body responded to his touch, leaning into it instinctively, like his skin was the only thing tethering her to earth.

Arthur tilted his head again, deepening the kiss, and Jo gasped softly into him — not from surprise, but surrender. His tongue grazed hers, slow and tentative at first, then bolder when she responded, drawing him in just as fiercely. The taste of him — tobacco and adrenaline and something darker — made her dizzy. Her hands moved up, sliding into his hair, tugging just enough to make him groan again.

That sound — low and wrecked and full of restraint — lit something in her.

It wasn’t just that she wanted him. It was that with him, she felt wanted . Not used. Not claimed. Not broken or burdened or watched. Seen . And she could see him, too. In the way his lips lingered on hers even between breaths. In the way he kissed like he was afraid she’d vanish if he let go. In the way his good arm held her close even though he was bleeding and exhausted.

Arthur hadn’t kissed many women like this. Hell, he hadn’t felt much like this in his life at all — not this deep in his chest, not this bone-close. This wasn’t like some saloon girl pressed against him in the dark. This was Jo. His Jo . Wild and sharp and untamable, warm and trembling in his lap. Her breath shuddering, her lips soft and slick beneath his, her hands in his hair like she couldn’t let go even if she tried.

And he didn’t want her to.

He didn’t want this to end.

His hand moved lower again — down her spine, along the slope of her back, slipping beneath the hem of her shirt. The skin he touched was warm and bare and too damn soft. She arched into him subtly, her breath catching as his fingertips traced up along the base of her spine, slow and reverent.

Every part of her felt like it belonged against him. Like she fit .

And she felt it too — in the way her hips shifted slightly, closer, pressing down on him with instinct rather than thought. The way her chest pressed into his with a rising tension neither of them could ignore. It was dizzying, the heat blooming between them, the fire catching slow but steady like a storm building between thunderclaps.

Still, the kiss didn’t break. They clung to each other, mouths moving in rhythm, foreheads brushing between deeper kisses. And for all the heat, there was something achingly tender in it too. A reverence. A fear of what this meant, and what would happen when the moment cracked open.

Because it would. They both knew it.

But for now, they held on.

And somewhere in Arthur’s mind — amid the fire in his gut and the soft whimpers leaving her lips and the pressure of her legs around him — there was a thought, quiet but clear:

This woman’s gonna ruin me… and I’m gonna let her.

Arthur’s hand slid up her side again, callused fingertips dragging lightly against her skin, until they found the edge of her jaw and then her neck. His thumb traced a gentle line just below her ear, brushing softly, tenderly — and then he pressed further down, where his hand fit in the curve of her throat like it had always belonged there.

That was when she tensed.

Not a flinch. Not quite. But her breath caught sharp, and her body stiffened ever so slightly. Enough for him to feel it.

And when his thumb grazed lower, she let out a sudden hiss of pain against his mouth.

Arthur froze. Immediately pulled back.

His brow furrowed, eyes scanning her face. “What’s wrong?” he asked, voice low and hoarse, but laced with alarm.

Jo didn’t answer right away.

Instead, her gaze dropped. She looked away from him, lips parted like she was about to lie — like she wanted to — but knew there was no point. And then, slowly, she reached up and tugged the collar of her shirt down, just enough to bare the bruised skin along the side of her neck.

The marks were unmistakable. Purpling now. Ugly. In the shape of fingers. A hand .

Arthur’s stomach twisted.

He didn’t speak. Didn’t blink. His whole body went rigid, jaw locked as he stared at the damage someone had left on her — the damage someone had dared lay on her .

“What ha–”

“Micah happened,” Jo said flatly.

Arthur shot to his feet like he’d been burned.

The cot creaked behind him as it sprang back without her weight, and Jo barely had time to push herself up before he was striding for the tent flap, every inch of him coiled and shaking with rage. He didn’t even care that his arm was still bleeding beneath the bandages. He didn’t care that it was night or that the camp was quiet. He didn’t even care who saw.

He was going to find Micah.

And he was going to make damn sure he never touched her — or anyone — like that again.

“Arthur!” Jo snapped.

Her voice cut through the haze of red like a crack of thunder. She was on her feet now, grabbing his good arm before he could pull the flap open.

“Lemme go,” he growled, his voice low and dangerous. “I ain’t gonna kill him. Just gonna remind him what happens when you put your hands on a woman like that.”

“I already reminded him,” she said, more forcefully this time, dragging him back by the arm until he turned to face her. “With my boot. To his balls.”

Arthur stared at her. His chest heaved, every breath shuddering with fury he didn’t know where to put.

Jo stood firm. Eyes locked on his. Her expression unreadable — a strange mix of defiance and exhaustion, pride and pain. “I handled it.”

“That ain’t the damn point, Jo.” His voice broke just slightly as he said her name. “You shouldn’t’ve had to.”

“I know.”

Arthur clenched his jaw, eyes darting back toward the tent opening like he still might go. Like he could taste the need to do something, to make it right, to hurt the man who had dared lay hands on her.

But Jo stepped in close again, laying a hand gently on his chest — right over his heart.

“I get it,” she said, her voice low now. “I do . You want to protect me. I’ve wanted that, too… for you. More times than I can count. But if you go out there now, and punch Micah into the dirt, Dutch’ll hear about it. Then everyone. And this whole thing… everything that’s already hangin’ by a thread…”

She looked up at him, eyes shining with something deep and pained and honest.

“It’ll only make it worse.”

Arthur stared down at her, chest still rising and falling hard beneath her hand.

And he hated it. Hated how right she was. Hated that he had to hold back — again. That the only justice she’d gotten was a well-aimed kick to Micah’s groin and her own damn strength. That he couldn’t storm across camp, haul that bastard up by his throat, and put the fear of God in him .

That he couldn’t be what she needed right now.

“I shoulda been there,” he muttered, voice rough and low.

“You were . When it mattered.”

He looked at her again.

Really looked.

She was strong. Resilient. Still standing, still calm, still whole — but behind her voice, he could hear the tremble she’d buried. Behind her eyes, he could see the weight she carried. The bruise on her neck wasn’t just skin deep — and that was what killed him the most.

“I can’t lose you,” he said suddenly, like it came out before he could stop it.

Jo swallowed. Her gaze dropped for half a second. Then she met his eyes again.

“Then don’t.”

Arthur let out a shaky breath.

His rage hadn’t vanished — it never would. But he took her hand gently now, pulling it from his chest so he could press it to his lips. And he kissed her knuckles like it was the only promise he could make in that moment — the only vow that wouldn’t unravel them both.

The fire still burned in Arthur’s chest — a low, simmering heat that wouldn’t leave so long as Micah was still walking upright — but her voice… her touch… her … it all chipped away at the fury like steady drops of rain on red-hot coals.

Jo’s hand was still in his, her knuckles still warm against his lips. When she pulled back just enough to lace their fingers together instead, Arthur didn’t resist. He let her guide him — slow, steady — like he was some broken stallion too tired to keep fighting.

She took a small step back toward the cot and gave a gentle tug.

Arthur hesitated for a breath, eyes flicking over her face — and then he followed.

He let her lead him, this strong, scarred man who’d stood tall through a thousand storms, now moving like the weight of the world had finally made his shoulders ache. His steps were heavy, his frame hulking, blood still seeping beneath the bandage on his arm… and yet there was something soft in the way he looked at her. Something wide open and silent, like a child who’d just been told it was okay to rest.

Jo sat first and then gently urged him down by the hand, guiding him to sit beside her.

He did.

No resistance.

He followed her movements like they were law — like she was law.

And when she pulled him just slightly, guiding him to lean back, he didn’t question it. Didn’t flinch or argue. He simply let her settle him against her, his broad shoulders relaxing, his weight shifting so his side nestled against her thigh as she remained perched on the edge of the cot. He let his eyes flutter shut for just a moment — and for the first time in a long while, he looked at peace .

“Lie down,” she said softly, her hand brushing his hair back from his forehead. “Come on.”

“You just stitched me up,” he mumbled, a bit wry, but the fight had long since left his voice.

“Exactly. And you’ll rip it open if you stay all tensed up like this.”

He cracked an eye open and gave her a look that was more fondly defeated than anything. Then, with a sigh, he eased back, lowering himself fully onto the cot, boots hanging just off the edge, his good arm resting limply across his stomach.

Jo shifted, adjusting herself beside him.

And before he could ask — before he could think to — her hand found his again.

Fingers lacing. Gentle pressure. That was all.

Arthur blinked slowly, eyes locked on their joined hands.

She was so small next to him. Delicate, even. But she didn’t feel fragile. Not to him. To him, she felt like a lifeline. Like something warm and solid in a world full of shifting sand.

“I hate that he touched you,” he said after a moment, voice quiet but rasped with emotion. “Hate that I couldn’t stop it.”

“You can’t be everywhere at once, Arthur,” she replied, stroking his hand with her thumb. “You already saved me today.”

“Yeah, but I—”

“You took a bullet for me.”

Silence.

“I felt it,” she added, her voice wavering now. “When you pushed me. I didn’t even see the man. Just felt your hand and then heard the shot. And when I turned and saw you… bleeding like that…”

Arthur’s eyes turned toward her again.

“You didn’t think,” she whispered. “You just moved . You’d have died for me.”

“I would die for you,” he said simply.

Jo let out a breath that shook on the way out.

“And I’d never forgive myself if you did,” she murmured, her voice cracking now as her gaze dropped to the bruised bandage on his arm. “So maybe don’t make a habit out of it, alright?”

Arthur gave a small huff of a laugh — more breath than sound — but the smile that followed was real, if faint.

“I’ll try.”

Another quiet passed between them.

He watched her as she looked down at their joined hands, thumb still brushing his, her lashes low and her features softened in the tent’s warm light. She looked like a balm — like everything cruel in the world had passed her by and left her untouched.

But he knew better.

And the fact that she still chose to love like this — to give like this, even when she was bruised and weary — made his chest ache.

“I never thought,” he began, slowly, “that I’d have this. Not with anyone.”

Jo lifted her gaze.

“I’ve done too much,” he said. “Been too much. Thought maybe all I had left was the gang and the road. But then you came along… and you were fire and sharp teeth and secrets, and I didn’t know what to make of you. Still don’t.”

She smirked softly, but her eyes were glassy now.

“And now…” He swallowed hard. “I dunno how to be without you.”

Jo leaned down slowly, until her forehead rested against his.

Her breath mingled with his. Her hand never left his. And for a long, silent moment, they just breathed together — two broken souls with jagged edges that, somehow, fit.

Chapter 38: In Uniform, Out of Line

Chapter Text

The days that followed the Annesburg chaos blurred together into a haze of cold winds, tension, and quiet preparations. Time had marched forward without pause, yet Jo felt somehow left behind in the stillness of camp. Arthur had been gone for several days now, out at the Wapiti Indian Reservation, lending his strength and conviction to a cause bigger than any of them. The army was pressing in on the Native people’s land, and Arthur—bruised, battered, arm still healing—hadn't hesitated to help. Even injured, he remained tireless. Relentless. But in the evenings, as the sun dipped low and cast the world in copper light, Jo found herself missing his presence like something carved out of her chest.

Camp had changed since Annesburg. The air was heavier, and though Dutch still strutted like a prophet among lost men, the sparkle in his sermons had dulled. Jo noticed more blank stares than wide-eyed loyalty now, more whispered doubts behind tents than eager nods around the fire. And she kept her distance—especially from Dutch and Micah. Her eyes always tracked them from afar, muscles coiled with quiet tension every time they passed near. She didn’t trust either of them anymore. Not after what Micah had done to her. Not after the choking grip around her throat in that alley. Not after the way Dutch’s madness had flared the moment he pulled the trigger on Cornwall.

Arthur had been furious when she told him that Micah knew about their plans to help others escape, his fury barely containable after everything else. The memory of the bruises on her neck still seemed to haunt him. He hadn’t said much before leaving for the reservation—just kissed her temple, held her longer than he should’ve, and promised he’d be back.

And still, she hadn’t seen him since.

In the meantime, Jo kept busy. She hunted often, sometimes just to breathe outside the paranoia-stained walls of camp. She helped Pearson where she could, chopped firewood until her palms bled, and sat beside Jack to teach him how to braid grass into makeshift ropes. Anything to stop thinking. Anything to stop feeling like the walls were closing in.

The whispers about leaving had grown louder. What once felt like a secret too fragile to breathe had taken root. Jo and Arthur’s words were working—finally. The idea of escaping this madness no longer felt like betrayal. It felt like salvation.

John and Abigail had been the first to agree. That had come easy—Jo barely had to say a word, and Abigail had met her halfway, fire already burning in her eyes. Tired of the lies. Tired of the danger. John, though more reserved, had quietly nodded in agreement, his hand resting on Jack’s shoulder like a silent vow. He wasn’t willing to die for Dutch’s delusions.

Tilly and Mary-Beth had taken more time. Skeptical at first, hearts still clinging to the romanticized idea of family. But Abigail had helped them see clearer, speaking with the weight of a mother and the wisdom of someone who had been hurt too often by the same hands they were told to trust. Eventually, they came around—quiet nods, tearful eyes, and the painful acceptance that survival sometimes meant letting go.

Karen, though a wandering soul these days, had pulled Jo aside one evening and whispered: “If you go, I’ll go. I’m done waiting around to die.” That was enough.

But not everyone could be saved.

Susan was a fortress—unyielding, unwavering, still clinging to the hope that Dutch would lead them to something better. Bill too, grumbling about loyalty like a parrot in chains, convinced that following orders made him a man of principle. They wouldn’t budge.

And Javier... oh, Javier.

Jo had tried, more than once. She'd found him by the fire, by the horses, under the moonlight—but every time she tried to speak, he cut her off with the same quiet stubbornness. “Dutch has his reasons. He always does.” She tried harder. John even stepped in one night, frustrated and pleading. But it was no use. Javier’s heart was still bound to the past, too loyal to remember how to doubt. Too blind to see the cliff they were walking toward.

So Jo pulled back.

Reverend Swanson had changed.

It was quiet, gradual—almost easy to miss if one wasn’t paying attention. But Jo had. She always watched the ones who once teetered too close to the edge.

His hands had stopped shaking so much. The glassy, far-off look that used to haunt his eyes was gone now, replaced by something steadier, something clearer. He still carried the weight of the man he’d been, the years spent numbed by morphine and regret, but there was something different about him lately. Like the fog had lifted and left behind a man who could finally see the road ahead.

Jo believed he was ready too. Not just to leave—but to start again. Though she doubted he’d stay with the group once they slipped away from camp. Swanson had always been a man adrift, even when he was here. She had the quiet sense he’d disappear into the horizon one day, with nothing but a Bible and the hope for some kind of redemption. She didn’t blame him.

As for Pearson... he was harder to read.

He still joked too loudly, still filled the air with talk of stew and supplies and complaints about rations. But sometimes, Jo would catch him watching Dutch across the fire, his smile slipping just slightly. Torn. That was what he looked like. Torn between the loyalty that once bound them all together and the new quiet voices of reason—Arthur, Jo, John. She didn’t press him. Everyone had to come to their truth in their own time. Still, she had a feeling he wouldn’t stay. Not really. When the time came, Pearson would make his choice. And maybe that choice would be survival.

Just like the rest of them.

Because this gang—this family—had once been everything.

For Jo, it had been a lifeline. A crooked, brutal, messy lifeline, but a lifeline nonetheless. She’d arrived half-starved and sharp-tongued, with nothing to her name but the weight of her secrets and a will to survive. And somehow, in that swirling mess of outlaws and drifters, she’d found something that resembled home. Memories lingered like ghosts between the trees of every camp they’d called their own. Laughter under the stars. The crackle of firewood. The sound of Arthur's voice, Hosea’s patience, Dutch’s grand speeches before they all soured.

But memories, Jo knew, couldn’t carry you forward. Not when the ground beneath your feet was crumbling.

She’d known that better than anyone when Josiah Trelawny returned one early morning, hat tipped, bags packed, smile wistful. He’d come not to stay, but to say goodbye. Something in his eyes told her he’d made peace with it already—the end, the splintering, the truth that none of them had the future they once believed in.

Jo had walked with him a while down the trail, out of earshot from the others. There had been a breeze in the trees, birds overhead, and the weight of too many unspoken things between them.

“Don’t come back, Josiah,” she’d said quietly, gripping his arm. “This place... this gang... it ain’t what it used to be.”

He’d looked at her then, eyes sad and soft. “I know.”

They hadn’t hugged. Not really their style. But when he walked away, Jo stood there until he disappeared around the bend. And she’d whispered a goodbye that never quite reached the wind.

She had kept her head down ever since, careful in the way she moved, in the words she chose, in the glances she exchanged. Talking to people—planting the seeds of escape—was a delicate business. The wrong whisper heard by the wrong ear could mean ruin. Micah was always lurking, like a vulture picking up the scent of rot. Dutch... well, Dutch was unraveling. One wrong step, one misread conversation, and he’d fly off the handle faster than a rattlesnake in a box.

Jo couldn’t afford that. Not now.

She moved like a shadow through camp, saying just enough, never too much. Her world had narrowed to Arthur, Jack’s laughter, the crackle of embers at night, and the feel of a gun belt always at her hip.

She didn’t know when everything had started to fall apart—maybe back in Blackwater, maybe before—but she knew what it felt like now. Like standing in the eye of a storm, everything calm but not quiet. Something was coming.

Something was going to give.

 


 

She missed him.

There was no simpler way to say it. No clever disguise or hardened mask she could wear to keep that truth from pressing down on her ribs.

Arthur had only been gone a few days, but it stretched longer in her chest, like time bent strangely in his absence. He’d left to help Rains Fall and his people—quietly, without fanfare, with that grim set to his jaw that meant he expected trouble. His arm was still healing, slower than it should've, because he never truly let it rest. That man would bleed out in the dirt before he sat still for too long. Jo had stitched him up herself, fingers trembling only once, never letting it show on her face. But now... now she wished she’d made him promise to be careful. Really promise, not just grunt something vague in that low drawl of his before riding off into God knows what.

It wasn’t like her to fret. But damn it, she was fretting.

Charles had ridden off after him just the day before, saddling up with quiet purpose. Said he was going to meet up with Arthur, lend a hand where needed. And while Jo trusted Charles more than most, his leaving left her stomach twisted in knots.

If Arthur needed help, why hadn’t he sent word? Why hadn’t he let her come with him?

She knew the answer. Of course she did. He wanted to protect her. Always did. Ever since Annesburg, ever since he stepped in front of that bullet, ever since the bruises on her neck—he’d grown even more relentless in that stubborn desire to keep her safe. Like she was something breakable.

And maybe a part of her was.

But it didn’t mean she couldn’t fight.

Jo sat on a log near the edge of camp now, where the trees started to press in and the rest of the world felt a little farther away. A book sat in her lap, forgotten, the page fluttering in the wind. She stared past it, jaw clenched, fingers tapping restlessly against her thigh. The fire crackled somewhere behind her, muffled by the soft drone of voices she no longer trusted.

Because that was the crux of it, wasn’t it?

Arthur wanted her safe, and yet she wasn't sure safety existed here anymore. Not in a camp where Dutch’s temper brewed just beneath the surface. Not where Micah prowled like a damn rabid dog, watching her with those too-bright eyes. Every time she passed by the supply wagon or the firepit, she felt it—that itch between her shoulder blades. Being watched. Judged. Weighed like meat in a butcher’s stall.

And every time, she wished she was on Arthur’s horse, trailing behind him through the wild. Sleeping in the open, shoulder to shoulder with the man who never judged her silence, who saw her fury and fear and scars and wanted her still.

She closed her eyes for a moment, exhaling slowly.

She could almost feel him there. The weight of his gaze when it softened. The rough warmth of his hands. That quiet way he always seemed to understand her, even when she had no words.

Was he thinking of her too?

Did he miss her the way she missed him—fiercely, achingly, with something that burned just behind the heart?

Jo opened her eyes and stared into the trees. The wind tugged at the edges of her coat, cool against her skin.

He hadn’t sent for her because he didn’t want her in danger. He thought the safest place for her was here.

But was it?

Jo’s mouth twisted. Maybe once, that would’ve been true. But now... now the camp felt like a powder keg waiting for a match. And she couldn’t shake the thought that the only place she truly felt safe anymore was at Arthur’s side.

Even if the world was burning around them.

The quiet didn’t ease her nerves anymore. It used to. Back when the camp still felt like home, back when laughter cracked across the fire like gunshots and warmth lived in the spaces between people. But now, it was too silent. Uneasy. Like something dying slow.

Jo sat hunched forward on the log, elbows resting on her knees, her fingers rubbing absently over a small groove in the worn wood. The sun hung lower now, slanting gold through the trees, but its warmth never reached her skin. Not truly.

Arthur was out there somewhere with Charles, dealing with soldiers and land disputes and angry men in uniforms with guns and orders. His arm wasn’t even healed yet. She knew how he moved when pain clung to him—tight-lipped and stiff, pretending he was fine while blood soaked through the damn bandages. And he hadn't said much before he left, just gave her that look. That look that said stay here, please, without saying a word. Like he could still shield her from the fire closing in on all sides.

And she’d listened.

For a few days, she did what he asked. She stayed.

But now? Now, she was choking on the waiting. On the helplessness.

Jo stood abruptly, her body stiff from sitting so long. She paced a few steps away from the log, then back, then again. Her boots crunched softly on the dirt path as the breeze pushed against her coat. Her hand drifted to her collar without thinking, brushing the memory of bruises now fading. A part of her wanted to believe Arthur was right—that staying kept her safe. That being far from whatever hell he was walking into was the smart thing to do.

But smart didn't keep people alive anymore. Smart didn't keep him alive.

She paused, hands on her hips, head tipping back to look up through the trees. The sky was streaked orange and violet now, like it was bleeding into night. She’d always liked that moment of the day, that breath between light and dark. But this evening, it felt like the end of something.

He wouldn’t want you out there, her mind offered, but her heart snapped back.

And you think he wants to die alone?

She couldn’t sit here another night knowing he might be sleeping cold and wounded beneath some rock face or stuck in a crossfire while she polished a damn rifle or made stew. She’d rather be beside him—even if it meant riding straight into hell.

Because what was the point of all this, of everything they’d been through, if she couldn’t be there when it mattered?

With her mind made up, her body moved without hesitation.

She turned on her heel and strode back to her tent. Her hands moved fast, tugging on her worn saddlebag, grabbing only what she needed: cartridges, her small stash of jerky, a spare shirt, flint, a flask. She slung it all over her shoulder and swept her rifle from where it rested by the entrance, fingers ghosting over the metal with a soldier’s ease.

She didn’t stop to tell anyone. Not Tilly, not John, not Abigail. She didn’t want to answer questions or see their worried eyes. Not when her heart had already begun galloping toward the north.

The sky was deepening to dusk by the time she reached her horse, saddling up with a practiced hand. Her mare nickered softly, and Jo pressed her forehead to the animal’s for a moment, breathing deep.

Then she swung up into the saddle and rode.

Past the trees. Past the edge of camp. Past the memories, the shadows, the ghosts.

The wind pulled at her coat, her hat tugged low against the coming chill as she veered toward the road north. Toward the mountains. Toward the Wapiti reservation tucked past the Grizzlies, where snow kissed the earth even in spring and the sky seemed to stretch forever.

Toward Arthur.

She didn’t know what she’d find there. Whether they’d welcome her, whether he’d scold her or pull her into a quiet embrace. But that didn’t matter.

Because every hoofbeat was one closer to him.

And Jo Harper had never been one to sit still when someone she loved might be bleeding.

She was barely half a mile from camp when she spotted a lone rider kicking up dust along the trail, fast and focused, barreling toward her like a bullet loosed from the chamber.

Jo tensed, hand ghosting toward her revolver on instinct until she recognized the familiar shape—broad-brimmed hat, long duster flaring with the wind, blond hair tangled behind her like fire on a fuse.

Sadie.

Jo slowed her horse, brow furrowing. She hadn’t expected to see her again so soon. Sadie had been scarce lately—off on her own missions, chasing shadows and blood debts. She rode hard now, like she had something sharp in her gut and needed it out now .

When their horses finally met nose to nose in the darkness of the early night, Sadie pulled her reins and exhaled sharp. Her eyes met Jo’s and for a moment, neither spoke.

That steel in her jaw. That flicker of something fierce but fragile behind the burn of her eyes. Pleading, but not desperate. Not broken. No, Sadie Adler didn’t beg. But she asked—honestly, quietly, from the soul. And Jo felt her own resolve shudder just a little.

“…Where was you headed?” Sadie asked, her voice low, wind-rasped.

Jo shifted in the saddle, hesitant. “North. Wapiti way. Was gonna meet Arthur.”

Sadie’s brows twitched—almost regretful. “I wouldn’t ask if it weren’t important.”

Jo narrowed her eyes. “You ain’t the type to ask for help unless it really is.”

Sadie gave a tight nod. “It’s about Colm. They’re gonna hang the bastard in Saint Denis. For real this time—or so they say.”

Jo’s pulse stirred. Colm O’Driscoll. That name always tightened her gut like barbed wire. He was a ghost that never stayed dead. Last time they'd tried to string him up, the bastard had slipped the noose with his usual brand of venom and violence. How many had died because of that?

“And you wanna make sure the job’s done,” Jo murmured, already knowing the answer.

“I need to see him swing,” Sadie said, her voice low and iron-strong. “Need to know he doesn’t get to walk free one more time. Can’t do it alone. Not with the eyes he’s got everywhere. But I ain’t gonna lie to you—this might get messy.”

Jo didn’t answer right away.

Her gaze flicked up the trail—the one that wound into the mountains, into snow and sky and a man she hadn’t seen in days. Arthur was out there, probably working himself to the bone for a people he barely knew. She wanted to ride to him. She ached to.

But then she looked at Sadie again.

A woman molded by fire, loss, and rage—but still standing, still asking. Not commanding. Not manipulating. Just… asking.

Jo felt the split inside her—torn between the man she loved and the woman who reminded her who she was: fierce, loyal, unforgiving when it counted.

She sighed, soft but heavy, and shifted in her saddle.

“…Guess Wapiti can wait,” she said finally. “Let’s go see that bastard hang.”

Sadie exhaled—something between relief and quiet gratitude—and nodded toward the trail. “I’ll explain more on the way. We got a bit of a ride to Saint Denis, and not a lot of time.”

With a last, reluctant glance toward the northern hills, Jo wheeled her horse around and fell in beside her.

The wind picked up behind them, kicking dust off the trail, and somewhere in the distance, the mountains watched in silence—waiting for her to return.

But not yet.

Now, she had another ghost to bury.

They rode beneath a sky heavy with stars, the road to Saint Denis little more than a glint of pale light cutting through the dark. Sadie didn’t speak at first, not until the weight of silence was almost too much to bear.

Then, with her eyes fixed ahead and her voice just loud enough to cut through the wind, she said, “Dutch wants to make sure the job’s done right. Wants us there. He’s waitin’ at Doyle’s Tavern.”

Jo’s gaze flicked sharply toward her companion. “Dutch? This is his plan?” Her fingers tightened on the reins, her jaw clenching. 

Sadie didn’t answer right away. Her silence was answer enough.

Jo exhaled slowly through her nose, the air cold against her teeth. “Of course it is,” she muttered, more to herself than anything. “Can’t pass up a chance for spectacle and a crowd.”

“I ain’t thrilled neither,” Sadie said after a pause. “But if he’s right about Colm, and Colm’s boys try anything… I’d rather be there when it happens.”

Jo gave a slow nod, fingers relaxing slightly on the reins. “Yeah. I get it. Just don’t like bein’ near Dutch these days.”

Sadie didn’t press her, didn’t ask for the story behind that. She had her own reasons to distrust him. Everyone did now—except for the fools still clinging to what little light he gave off, not noticing the fire behind it was burning everything to ash.

They rode in silence again, trees blurring past. An owl cried high overhead.

Then, quietly, like an afterthought tossed to the wind, Sadie added, “Arthur’s supposed to meet us tomorrow too.”

Jo’s heart skipped.

She blinked, the breath in her chest catching for a moment before settling back down. “…He is?”

Sadie gave a small smile, faint and knowing. “Yeah. Dutch asked him. Said he’d show after the army job wrapped.”

Jo turned her gaze back toward the road, trying not to let the warmth bloom too obviously on her face. The thought of seeing Arthur again—tomorrow—cut through the fog that had settled on her lately like the first break of sun through storm clouds. She hadn’t realized just how much she missed him until the mention of his name unclenched something deep inside her chest.

Still, she tempered the thought. “That man works himself to death,” she said softly. “Should’ve stayed restin’.”

Sadie gave her a sideways glance. “Tell him that.”

Jo chuckled quietly. “Oh, I have. And I will again.”

Sadie grinned briefly before her expression hardened again. “There’s still some details to figure,” she said, voice tightening. “If Colm’s men try anything stupid, we need to know our exits. Our roles. Dutch’s got ideas , but I’d feel better if we made our own plans.”

“Always,” Jo replied. “I trust your gut more than his mouth any day.”

Sadie dipped her head, grateful.

Night was stretching long now, the moon just beginning to rise over the fields, casting their path in pale silver and shadows. In the distance, the flickering lights of Saint Denis shimmered like the reflection of stars in a lake—beautiful from afar, rotten at the core.

Jo felt the tension coil slowly back in her spine. The city had never felt like home to her. It reeked of decay in a gilded dress.

But she’d ride into it again. For Sadie. For Arthur. For an end to a ghost that haunted them all.

They didn’t speak much more. The rhythm of hooves, the breath of horses, and the ever-nearing glow of Saint Denis spoke enough for them.

 


 

The next morning came early, the sky still steeped in the pale hush of dawn when Jo slipped from the room she and Sadie had shared above a noisy little saloon near the edge of the Bastille quarter.

The streets of Saint Denis were already stirring to life—cobblestone alleys slick with dew, the air tinged with soot and river fog. Carts clattered by, vendors setting up for the day with shouted greetings and yawns, and the distant clang of metal on metal echoed from the railway yard. Jo moved through it all with her coat drawn tight, her hat pulled low, and her focus razor sharp. Dutch had given her a task, and as much as she loathed the idea of running his errands these days, this one needed to be done.

Two police uniforms. No small feat, not in a city like this.

She’d thought it through the night before, lying in the half-lit silence with the steady breathing of Sadie beside her. There were only a few places officers would send their uniforms for cleaning—somewhere discreet, out of the way, and often with poor security because, who would dare steal from the law?

So she started there, prowling the narrow backstreets behind the police precinct until she found what she was looking for: a squat little building tucked behind a butcher’s, its windows steamed with heat and soap. A small laundry, owned by a widower and his two sons. Through the cracked door she glimpsed linen stacked in baskets, heavy blue coats hanging from pegs, brass buttons dulled by steam and age.

Bingo.

She waited. Watching. One of the boys took a cart out, another wandered inside with an armful of civilian clothing. No one stood guard. There was no reason to.

With the patience of a hunter and the silence of a ghost, she slipped inside just as the older man turned toward the back room. She moved fast—sharp, smooth movements honed by years of practice. Two uniforms, roughly the right sizes, were tugged down and folded tightly under her arm. She grabbed a cap too, and a belt with a badge still clipped on it.

The heat of the steam room clung to her skin, beads of sweat forming along her brow as she slipped back out into the alley. Not a soul saw her. Not a whisper.

Jo stepped out of the alley with her prize tucked under one arm, her boots carrying her briskly through the growing hum of the Saint Denis morning.

The weight of the stolen uniforms had settled awkwardly against her ribs, but she barely noticed. Her mind was already ten steps ahead, replaying her escape route, calculating how best to hide the evidence in her saddlebag, how to explain it all if she was caught without sounding like she was crazy.

She rounded the corner onto a quieter street near the saloon they’d taken rooms above—and stopped cold.

There, walking down the street with his broad shoulders hunched slightly forward beneath his coat, looking like he hadn’t slept in days, was Arthur Morgan .

The sight of him hit her square in the chest.

Goddamn him.

She blinked, uncertain for a breath if he was real. The morning light caught the stubble on his jaw, the lines under his eyes. He looked tired. Bruised. Solid. Like he’d come straight from battle and barely stopped for breath. And he was staring at her like she was the first sunrise he’d seen in days.

She didn’t move at first.

And neither did he.

A slow smile curved across his mouth, crooked and warm and unmistakably him .

“Well, well,” he drawled, voice low and scratchy from the road. “Ain’t even been in town five minutes and already bumpin’ into trouble.”

That broke the spell.

Jo huffed sharply through her nose, a laugh she didn’t expect bubbling out before she could stop it. “If I’d known you were coming, I’d’ve picked a different street.”

Arthur stepped closer, his eyes roaming her face, her hair, the way her coat flapped open to reveal the pistol at her hip. “And miss your welcoming party? Hell, I’m hurt.”

“Keep talking and I’ll really give you something to limp over.”

“Oh, darlin’, I do love it when you threaten me.”

He was close now. Close enough for her to feel the heat of him, to see the faint bruising still blooming beneath the collar of his shirt, to smell the road dust and tobacco and sweat clinging to him. Her heart ached in her chest—how many days had it been? Four? Five? Long enough for her to worry. Long enough to miss him in a way that felt stupid and soft and so unlike her.

He opened his arms. Just a little.

Not wide. Not pushy.

Just enough to let her decide.

And dammit—she did.

Jo stepped in, uniforms still clutched under one arm, and let herself fold into him like it was the only place she belonged. His arms wrapped around her, strong and solid, warm and familiar. One hand came to rest at the back of her head, the other around her waist, fingers pressing firm like he was trying to memorize her shape all over again.

Neither of them spoke for a moment.

Then, into her hair, he murmured: “You miss me?”

Jo didn’t move.

Didn’t look up.

She just muttered into his chest, “Shut up, cowboy.”

He chuckled, the sound rumbling deep in his chest. “That a yes?”

“More like a ‘next time you disappear without a word, I’m shoving your hat somewhere the sun don’t shine.’”

“Sounds like love to me.”

She pulled back just enough to give him a dry look—but couldn’t hide the hint of a smile tugging at the corner of her mouth. “Let’s just say you’re lucky I didn’t shoot first and ask questions later.”

Arthur reached up, brushing a loose strand of hair behind her ear. “Yeah. But you didn’t.”

“No,” she murmured, quieter this time, her gaze dropping to his chest before flicking up again. “I didn’t.”

There was a beat of silence between them, thick with everything unsaid.

Then he tipped his head toward the inn. “You gonna invite me in, or keep flirtin’ with me in the street like a common hussy?”

Jo rolled her eyes but her smile softened, the ache in her chest easing just a little.

“Come on, cowboy,” she muttered, turning toward the door. “You owe me a drink.”

 


 

The inn was the kind of place that wore its age proudly—creaky floorboards, chipped paint, curtains yellowed by pipe smoke and time—but Jo barely noticed.

Not with Arthur trailing just behind her, his presence filling the narrow hallway like thunder on the horizon.

She pushed the door to her room open and stepped aside to let him in first, watching the way his shoulders moved under his coat, the way he scanned the space by instinct before stepping fully inside. She closed the door quietly behind them, the latch clicking shut with a finality that made her chest tighten.

It was the first time in days she’d been alone with him. And now that she had him in front of her—now that he was real and breathing and close—her mouth couldn’t quite remember how to form the words she'd been storing up.

Arthur glanced around. “Huh. Not bad.”

“You were expectin’ worse?”

“Figured I’d be dodging rats and leakin’ ceilings.”

Jo smirked faintly, tossing the uniforms down onto the foot of the bed. “Guess you’re welcome, then.”

He looked at her—really looked this time—and the teasing in his face softened into something quieter, deeper. His eyes flicked from her face to her boots, up to the way her fingers twitched at her sides like they couldn’t decide whether to cross her arms or reach for him again.

“You alright?” he asked lowly.

Jo gave the faintest nod. “Yeah.”

“You sure?”

“I said yeah, didn’t I?”

But there was no heat behind it. No venom. Just tiredness. Just something raw and fragile that clung to the edges of her words.

Arthur stepped closer, slow, deliberate. “I missed you.”

That stopped her.

Her breath hitched ever so slightly, and her arms finally moved—crossing tight over her chest, not in defiance, but in self-defense.

“Yeah,” she murmured, eyes on the floor. “I noticed.”

Arthur huffed a soft laugh. “You’re still the worst at this.”

“Shut up.”

He was in front of her now. Not touching. Not crowding. Just there . Close enough to feel the warmth rolling off his skin, close enough for her to see the little scar on his chin, the fading bruise on his jaw, the dried blood at the corner of his mouth he hadn’t even wiped clean yet.

“You get in a fight?” she asked quietly.

He shrugged. “Not unless you count a real pissed-off elk.”

Jo’s mouth twitched. “You sure it wasn’t Charles?”

“Nah. He only hits harder when you deserve it.”

“And you didn’t?”

“Didn’t say that.”

That made her laugh, soft and unguarded. She shook her head and finally lifted her eyes to meet his. “God, you look like hell.”

Arthur grinned. “You say the sweetest things.”

She reached up before she could stop herself, fingers brushing lightly against his cheek. He didn’t flinch. Didn’t pull back. If anything, he leaned into it, just a fraction, like that tiny bit of contact anchored him in place.

And maybe it did.

“Was worried about you,” she admitted, her voice barely above a whisper.

“I know.”

“You didn’t send word.”

“I know.”

“Why?”

He looked down for a second, then back at her. “’Cause if I had, you would’ve come. And I wasn’t sure it was safe. Still ain’t.”

Her jaw tightened. “And you think I was safer there? With him lurking around?”

“I think... I don’t know what the hell I think no more,” he muttered. “Except that I didn’t wanna see you get hurt again.”

Jo’s hand dropped from his face. “That ain’t your choice to make.”

“I know,” he said softly. “But I’d make it again.”

There was a silence between them then, heavy with all the things they couldn’t fix and all the feelings they didn’t quite know how to name. It stretched long enough for Jo to feel the ache build in her chest again—and then Arthur reached for her hand.

He didn’t pull.

Didn’t push.

Just held it.

And that simple touch—rough calluses against her knuckles, warm and steady—did more than words ever could.

Jo stepped in again, this time slower, deliberate, letting her forehead rest against his chest. Arthur’s arms wrapped around her with practiced ease, and they stood like that for a while. No need to speak. No need to move. Just there , in that fragile, perfect quiet.

Eventually, he murmured against her hair, “How long we got before Dutch starts barkin’ orders?”

“Hour, maybe.”

Arthur pulled back just enough to raise an eyebrow. “And what are we s’posed to do with an hour?”

Jo tilted her head, her expression deadpan. “Think we’ll manage.”

“Reckon we will.”

She pushed him gently by the chest toward the bed.

He didn’t fight her.

Didn’t question it.

Just went with her hands like they were gospel—grinning the whole way down.

Arthur fell back onto the bed with a soft grunt, one arm thrown behind his head, the other reaching for her like a lazy afterthought.

“Well, that’s one hell of a welcome,” he muttered, smirking up at her. “Didn’t even get a drink first.”

Jo rolled her eyes, toeing off her boots with a thud against the wood. “Keep talkin’ and I’ll throw you right back into the street.”

“Still worth it,” he said, eyes following her as she shrugged off her coat.

It landed on the back of the single worn chair with a clumsy toss. She was slower now, quieter, and something about the way she moved made him sit up a little—just enough to rest his elbows on his knees as he watched her.

“You alright?” he asked again, this time softer.

She glanced at him. “I’ll be.”

Arthur didn’t press. He knew her well enough to recognize when to leave the door cracked and let her come through on her own. Instead, he just reached for her hand again and tugged gently, coaxing her into his lap. She resisted for a beat—just long enough to prove she could —and then relented with a tired sigh, settling onto him like she belonged there.

Which she did.

They both knew it.

Jo curled against him, her arms looped around his neck, and for a moment neither of them said a damn thing. His chest rose and fell slow and steady beneath her cheek. She could hear his heart. Feel the strength in him, the warmth.

“You shouldn’t’ve come here,” he murmured.

“You shouldn’t’ve gone north alone,” she replied, not missing a beat.

Arthur chuckled, and the sound rumbled through her.

“Touché.”

She tilted her head back just enough to meet his eyes. “I mean it, Arthur. You run off doin’ dangerous shit while I’m stuck with Dutch breathin’ down my neck... it ain’t fair.”

“I was tryin’ to keep you safe.”

“And I was tryin’ to do the same for you. Guess we’re both idiots.”

He smiled faintly, then reached up and brushed a strand of hair from her cheek, his thumb lingering at the edge of her jaw.

“You always worry this much ‘bout me?”

“Only when you disappear into the mountains and forget to send a goddamn note,” she muttered. “And when you come back with half your face bruised.”

He raised a brow. “You always worry this much ‘bout me?”

She rolled her eyes. “Shut up.”

But she was smiling now too, just a little.

He leaned in, lips brushing her temple. “You missed me.”

“Maybe.”

“You did.”

“I maybe did.”

Arthur laughed under his breath, and she could feel it against her skin. His hands were resting on her hips now, his thumbs moving in slow, absent circles like he hadn’t even realized he was doing it. Her head dropped to his shoulder, eyes fluttering closed as the quiet between them grew heavier—safer.

Jo didn’t say it aloud, but this —this right here—was the only time her heart stopped racing. The only place she wasn’t holding her breath. With him, like this, it didn’t feel like the world was closing in. It felt... possible.

“You’re warm,” she murmured, half-asleep already.

“That’s ‘cause I got a furnace for a woman sittin’ on me.”

She snorted. “You’re insufferable.”

“You love it.”

He wasn’t wrong.

She stayed curled against him a little longer, her fingers hooked lazily in the collar of his shirt. Then she tilted her head just enough to press her lips to the base of his throat, where his pulse beat strong and sure.

“I hate how much I missed you,” she whispered.

Arthur stilled for half a second—just long enough for her to feel it—then pulled her in tighter.

“I don’t,” he said quietly. “Means I matter.”

“You fool,” she muttered.

“You love me.”

“Shut up.”

But her fingers tightened in his shirt, and she didn’t pull away.

Arthur’s mouth met hers with quiet urgency, a deep, aching kiss that silenced everything else—plans, threats, fears, the city just beyond the window. His hand cradled the back of her head, holding her like she was something precious, and maybe she was, even if she never said it. Maybe especially because she never said it.

Jo melted into him, her fingers tangled in the front of his shirt before yanking it over his shoulders, desperate to feel his skin beneath her palms. His warmth. His weight. The steady rhythm of his breath against her throat.

No words passed between them—none were needed. They undressed one another slowly, reverently, as if relearning each inch of skin they already knew. Arthur’s hands explored every scar, every freckle, every story etched into her body, and Jo returned the favor with a tenderness she rarely let anyone see. But she let him see it. Always him.

They made love without rush, without pressure. Just skin and breath and whispered names, like the world had stopped and left only this—only them. And when it was over, when the tension finally slipped from their bones, Jo curled into Arthur’s chest like she belonged there. Because she did.

His arm wrapped around her shoulders, drawing her close as she tucked a leg over his, eyes closed, lips still warm from him.

“I missed you,” she murmured again, this time without hesitation.

“I missed you, ” he replied, burying a kiss into her hair.

A soft sigh escaped her lips. “Let’s stay like this a while.”

Arthur’s voice was low, gravel-thick with affection. “Yeah. I ain't goin’ nowhere.”

And maybe they would’ve stayed that way—naked and wrapped in each other, tangled in worn sheets and content in a way they rarely allowed themselves—if not for the sudden, unmistakable creak of the door opening.

They both froze.

“Jo?” came Sadie’s voice, casual, muffled—then clearer. “What the hell are you—”

The door slammed open.

Arthur scrambled up halfway, one arm darting to cover Jo with the nearest thing he could grab—his shirt. Jo yelped and ducked deeper under the covers, her eyes wide and hair a mess.

Sadie stood in the doorway, one brow raised, hands on her hips, and an utterly unimpressed look on her face. “ Well , ain't this cozy.”

Arthur blinked, utterly still.

Jo peeked out from beneath the blanket, lips parted in a breathless oh-my-God kind of silence.

Sadie snorted. “Jesus Christ, I knock! You just didn’t answer!”

“You didn’t wait for the answer!” Jo snapped, red-faced but fuming. “What the hell, Sadie?!”

Sadie smirked. “I gave it a solid two seconds. Figured you were dead or unconscious.”

Arthur groaned, dragging a hand over his face. “We were unconscious. In a way.”

Sadie laughed— laughed , the damn woman—and leaned against the doorframe. “Well, hope you got it outta your system. We got things to do.”

Jo growled from beneath the covers. “Get. Out.”

Sadie raised her hands in mock surrender. “Alright, alright. I’ll be downstairs. You two finish... whatever the hell that was.” She turned, already chuckling as she walked away. “Just don’t be late!”

The door shut behind her with a thud.

Arthur turned to Jo, still half-shielded under his shirt, his lips twitching with a crooked grin.

“Well,” he murmured, “that’s the most polite interruption I think we’ve ever had.”

Jo glared at him. “I hate her sometimes.”

“She loves you,” he teased.

“I hate her.”

He leaned down, brushing her bare shoulder with his lips. “But you love me , right?”

She snorted, smacked his chest, and rolled over.

But she didn’t say no.

 


 

The streets of Saint Denis buzzed with life as Jo and Arthur made their way to Doyle’s Tavern, boots scuffing cobblestone and clothes still a bit rumpled from their earlier… interlude . The tension of the morning had dulled into something warmer, lighter—though Jo’s fingers still brushed Arthur’s occasionally, like she couldn’t help herself. Like maybe she didn’t want to.

As they pushed open the tavern doors, the familiar scent of whiskey, smoke, and sweat greeted them.

Sadie Adler stood at the bar, elbow perched lazily on the counter, a glass of bourbon halfway to her lips. Dutch, ever the showman, was next to her in a dark coat that looked newer than it ought to be, twirling a cigar between his fingers with a grin he probably thought was charming.

“There you are,” Dutch called out the moment his eyes landed on them.

Jo stepped forward, not breaking stride as she shoved the stolen uniforms into his hands. 

Arthur’s voice was as dry as his expression. “Here we are.”

“Come on,” Dutch clapped his hands once, far too energized. “Let’s get to work, shall we?”

He bent to grab a large, wrapped package at his feet, then pointed sternly to the back of the tavern. “Girls, changing room’s that way.” Without asking, he shoved the package at Jo, who caught it with a huff, eyeing the brown paper suspiciously.

“What’s this ?” she asked, squinting at it like it might explode.

Dutch gave her a theatrical smile. “Your disguise,” he said simply, then leaned in to open the door himself, practically shoving both women into the cramped back room. “We’ve got no time to waste.”

The door shut behind them with a dull clunk .

Jo held the package out with both hands like it was something foul. “I hate playing dress-up.”

Sadie snorted, already unfastening her gun belt. “You? You’re damn good at it. I’ve seen you talk your way outta a bullet with nothing but a bonnet and a fake accent.”

“Doesn’t mean I like it.”

Jo tugged at the string and unwrapped the paper—inside were two overly elaborate dresses, clearly meant for women of status. Jo wrinkled her nose at the sight of it: rich fabric, high collars, lace in all the wrong places. She held it up like it personally offended her.

“This thing weighs as much as my horse.”

“Least yours ain’t got a stupid hat,” Sadie muttered, yanking out a yellow hat adorned with a feather that looked a little too big for her head.

Jo rolled her eyes and started unbuttoning her shirt, tossing it aside without a second thought.

Sadie blinked. “Well, don’t be bashful now.”

Jo barked a laugh. “You saw me naked earlier.”

“Didn’t mean to!” Sadie laughed back. “But hell, I don’t think Arthur minded.”

“Not one bit,” Jo muttered under her breath with a grin she couldn’t quite suppress.

She tugged the dress over her head with some difficulty, wriggling and cursing as she tried to fit the damned thing over her hips. Sadie had less trouble, but she still grumbled as she fastened the back of her own gown.

“This corset’s tryin’ to kill me,” Sadie muttered, adjusting her chest. “This what women do for fun? Wear this crap just to look rich?”

Jo grunted. “Makes me wanna rob the rich more .”

Sadie cackled. “Now that’s the spirit.”

Jo adjusted the skirt one last time, smoothing the front with a scowl before looking to Sadie. “How do I look?”

Sadie gave her a once-over and nodded. “Like you’re about to marry some crooked senator.”

“Perfect,” Jo said flatly, grabbing her discarded boots. “Let’s get this over with before I strangle Dutch with this lace collar.”

Sadie opened the door with a smirk. “Now that’s something I’d pay to see.”

The tavern door to the back room creaked open, and Jo stepped out first with a deep scowl etched across her face. The dress she wore was a suffocating shade of navy blue, velvet and stiff in all the wrong places. It cinched tight at the waist with a corset that squeezed the breath from her ribs, and the neckline dipped just low enough to make her want to punch whoever designed it. Lace curled along the high collar and sleeves, frilly and excessive, the fabric clearly meant for someone who'd never lifted a shovel or drawn a pistol in their life.

She looked—and felt —like a porcelain doll with a death wish.

Sadie emerged behind her in a yellow gown, her own look a little more “business woman” than “society woman.” She pulled at the neckline with visible irritation. “I swear, these things are made to punish.”

Jo gave a quiet grunt in agreement, tugging at the corset boning that bit into her sides. She caught Arthur’s gaze and rolled her eyes, ready to mutter another sarcastic complaint—until she saw him.

Arthur stood near the bar, half-turned in quiet conversation with Dutch, but now looking straight at her. He was dressed in the stiff blue of a Saint Denis police uniform—dark navy wool coat buttoned tight, brass badge gleaming at his chest, a cap tilted low over his brow. The outfit was clean-cut, polished, and completely wrong on him in a way that made it almost too right. His broad shoulders made the coat seem tight across his frame, and though his jaw was set, his mouth twitched slightly at her reaction.

Dutch, too, was dressed in regulation blue, though his posture—loose and proud—undercut the discipline the uniform demanded. He looked like a conman playing soldier.

Jo blinked, then dragged her eyes back to Arthur, arching a brow. “Well, look at you .”

Arthur tipped his hat ever so slightly with a sly smirk. “Ma’am.”

“Don’t ma’am me while dressed like that,” she shot back, though her voice had lost its usual edge. It was quieter, bemused.

Sadie looked between them and snorted. “Goddamn, you two are hopeless.”

“I’ll take that as a compliment,” Arthur replied, never taking his eyes off Jo.

She gave him one more look-over, then turned to Dutch and held out her gloved hand. “I swear, if I have to wear this for more than a few hours, I’m shootin’ someone.”

Dutch laughed as he handed each of them a folded piece of paper. “Don’t worry, dear. By the end of the day, Colm O’Driscoll will be swinging, and you’ll be back in something a little less… elegant .”

Jo took the paper and tucked it into the little clutch bag Sadie had shoved at her earlier. “Let’s just make sure we get that bastard this time.”

Arthur’s voice dropped lower as he stepped beside her, just close enough that she could feel the warmth of him through all that damn fabric.

“Nice dress, by the way,” he added with a smirk.

She narrowed her eyes. “Say that again, and I’m shoving you in a canal.”

Chapter 39: Liar’s Hour

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“We’ve all lost something because of Colm,” Dutch began, voice low but carrying enough weight to command attention. “Keep those fingers off those triggers, ‘cause we’ll need cool heads and calm dispositions to see this done...” He led them out of the narrow, grimy alley and onto the cobblestone street, his boots echoing with each purposeful step as they turned north toward the gallows.

The morning sun had done little to chase away the humid weight hanging over Saint Denis. A muggy stillness clung to the air, disturbed only by the distant murmur of the gathering crowd and the occasional clip-clop of horseshoes on stone. The city smelled of coal smoke, iron, and sweat, a sharp contrast to the stiff wool and brass buttons of their stolen uniforms.

Arthur walked at the back of the line, his jaw tight, hands swinging at his sides with the lazy threat of a man coiled to strike. He couldn’t help the low scoff that rumbled from his throat. “Practice what you preach, brother.”

Dutch didn’t break stride. “Whatever do you mean?”

Arthur’s voice, flat as a drawn gun, cut through the tension like a blade. “Are you gonna keep your cool? Really ? When you seem to lose it oh, so often now?”

Dutch stopped mid-step, just enough to glance back at him, his eyes sharp beneath the rim of his officer’s cap. “This doubting and questioning of yours... I miss the old Arthur.”

Jo, walking just ahead of Arthur, bared her teeth like a wolf ready to lunge. “With Hosea gone, somebody’s gotta take up his mantle,” she muttered coldly. Her narrowed eyes locked on Dutch’s back. “Your old friend Micah ain’t nothin’ but a goddamn–”

Sadie cut across her, throwing a hand to the side in exasperation. “Quit it, you three! Now we all got a job to do, and we’re all in rough agreement about how we’re doin’ it. As far as I can tell...”

“Exactly,” Dutch replied smoothly, though there was an edge beneath his usual charm.

“We’ll get it done,” Arthur muttered from behind them, his gaze darting between Jo and Dutch. His voice carried quiet finality.

“Alright then. Come on. We got a hangin’ to witness...” Sadie adjusted her hat and craned her neck as they turned onto the boulevard, where the gallows loomed like a dark monument against the morning haze.

They emerged onto a wide square already filling with townsfolk. The scent of tobacco smoke and cheap cologne mingled with the clamor of the crowd. Women fanned themselves on the edge of the boardwalk, men hooted and hollered from barrels and crates. Children sat on shoulders, craning their necks for a better view. Up ahead, the gallows stood proud and ominous, ropes already swaying gently in the breeze like a grim invitation.

“Look here. Don’t the public love an execution...” Dutch murmured, chuckling softly as they took up position just behind the front line, near the gates. His eyes, however, weren’t on the gallows—they were scanning the crowd.

Jo stood stiff beside Sadie, her dress coat buttoned tight to the collar. Her eyes were sharp, sweeping the rooftops, the corners, the shadows. She didn’t like the feel of the air, didn’t like the twitch in her gut. Something was off.

Dutch nodded subtly toward the far back, his jaw tightening. “You see that… pair of assholes?”

Arthur followed his gaze. “Sure.”

“They’re Colm’s boys.”

“Yes, I think so.” Arthur flicked his eyes to the side, giving Jo and Sadie a quick nod.

“What a surprise… I’m glad we’re here.” Dutch’s voice was almost too calm.

Sure enough, the three men were chuckling together, whispering close. Then one of them pointed—not toward the noose, but to a rooftop across the street. Dutch’s expression hardened.

“What’re they pointing at?” he asked.

“I don’t know...” Arthur’s tone darkened. “We gotta follow ‘em to find out.”

The gang subtly broke rank, ducking low as one of the O’Driscolls slipped past them, moving casually into the street, heading across toward the buildings. Dutch raised a finger, gesturing to Jo and Sadie.

“You two stay here.”

Arthur stepped in then, brushing close to Sadie as he passed. “Don’t do nothin’,” he muttered, voice low. He flicked his gaze toward Jo next, something unspoken passing between them as he held her eyes. She gave him a slight nod, one that said alright, but you better not do anything stupid.

Jo watched him and Dutch melt into the crowd, then let out a slow breath. Her hands rested near her belt, ready for whatever this might turn into.

The crowd pressed in thicker now, a wall of chatter and sweat. The gallows loomed like a stage dressed in death, drawing every eye to its center. Somewhere nearby, a preacher wailed scripture over the rumble of boots and murmurs, his voice hoarse with fire and brimstone. The city pulsed like a wound.

Jo and Sadie stood near the side of the square, half-shielded by the pillars of the square. Despite the heat, Jo kept her gloves on, fidgeting now and then as her gaze trailed across the crowd. She didn’t like standing still. Not today. Not here.

Sadie, beside her, wasn’t moving at all.

Her posture was rigid. Tense. Her arms were crossed tight over her chest, jaw locked so hard Jo could hear the faint grind of her teeth.

“You alright?” Jo asked, voice low.

Sadie gave a half-snort. “Never better.” She didn’t look at her.

Jo watched the gallows for a moment before glancing sideways. “He ain’t up there yet.”

“He’ll be,” Sadie muttered, her eyes narrowing. 

Jo didn’t say anything at first. She knew that kind of anger. The slow, choking kind that sat behind your ribs and waited for the right moment to burst. She’d lived with it for years. Hell, she was still living with it.

Sadie’s jaw flexed again. “You know what he did to my Jake?” Her voice was quieter now, but more dangerous for it. “To me?”

Jo’s brows pinched slightly. “I know enough.”

“He butchered him.” Sadie’s voice trembled—just for a second. “Gave me up to his men like I was nothin’. Then laughed while he burned my life to the ground.”

Jo looked back to the square, blinking slowly. “Yeah. He’s a bastard.”

“That don’t even scratch the surface.”

They stood in silence for a beat. The preacher’s voice cracked nearby, lost under the roar of the crowd. Jo looked up to the roof across the square—just in time to see Arthur ease into position. He crouched low near the chimney, his silhouette barely visible. Her heart kicked up a beat, but she swallowed it back. Focus.

Sadie tilted her head. “You think Dutch’ll actually let me pull the trigger?”

Jo gave a faint smile, more bitter than amused. “I think Dutch’s got a lotta plans, but life rarely gives a damn about ‘em.”

Sadie let out a soft laugh. It was sharp at the edges. “That’s the damn truth.”

There was movement on the far side of the crowd. A stir that rippled through the air like the wind changing direction.

Sadie went quiet again. Her eyes were fixed forward now, unblinking.

“He’s comin’,” she said, barely audible.

Jo followed her gaze, spotting the city lawmen stepping forward, flanking someone between them. The rope swayed, eager.

Just then, Dutch slipped back into place beside them, his breath tight from walking fast. He didn’t speak right away — just gave Jo a pointed look, then Sadie. His jaw was set, his hands resting near his coat buttons, where his weapon would be hidden.

“He’s here,” Dutch murmured.

Sadie didn’t answer. Her whole body had gone still, coiled so tight it looked like she might explode.

Dutch looked out over the crowd, then muttered just loud enough to hear, “Arthur’s in position. When the signal’s given, you keep your eyes sharp and your hands steady. Colm ain’t gonna hang if they get their way.”

Jo nodded once. Her fingers tightened around her gloves.
Sadie said nothing at all.

A hush rippled over the crowd like a shiver, anticipation coiling tighter with every second that passed. The gallows stood high at the head of the square, flanked by iron lanterns that cast sharp golden light across the worn wood of the platform. A city official — stout, pale-faced, and sweating through his collar despite the cooler breeze off the Bayou — stepped up to the front of the scaffold with practiced solemnity. In his hands, he held a folded parchment, edges curled from the humidity. He cleared his throat with the sharpness of a man used to being listened to.

“Fair citizens of Saint Denis,” he began, his voice projecting over the hush like a bell toll. “For as long as any of us can remember, it is justice that separates us from barbarity.”

Jo stiffened, eyes flicking up to the man on the gallows. Her heartbeat thudded in her ears.

“Yet justice itself,” the crier continued, “can at times be barbaric. For sometimes, a man is so savage, the only way to deal with him justly is by savagery.”

He held the next pause just long enough for effect, as gasps and murmurs rolled through the crowd. A woman behind Jo clutched her husband’s arm tighter.

“Colm O’Driscoll is one such man.”

The crowd buzzed again, a low, angry growl of satisfaction.

“He has murdered, tortured, robbed, stolen, raped, and abused for a decade across five states, seemingly with impunity. Today, justice catches up with him.”

Two uniformed officers flanked the door of the scaffold, and when they opened it, the noise of the crowd surged forward like a tide. Colm O’Driscoll appeared — shackled, unshaven, and swaying. His hair was slicked back with sweat, his shirt wrinkled and open at the throat. He looked almost drunk on the moment, grinning broadly, his boots dragging just slightly as he was led to the center of the gallows.

He laughed — a coarse, unrepentant sound that cut through the rising murmur. “As well you may!” he rasped. “Now, I been a bad man, but these charges are—”

“Silence!” barked the crier, turning sharply toward him as one of the officers stepped forward and shoved a gag into Colm’s mouth. The gang leader’s eyes glinted above the cloth, still amused — still unrepentant. “This is not a court where you shall be tried. This is a place where your sentence is to be carried out.”

As the man continued to speak, Jo moved. She stepped sideways and slipped into a narrow gap in the crowd behind a tall man in a stovepipe hat, keeping her head low, eyes scanning like a hawk’s. She could feel Sadie and Dutch moving beside her, the three of them threading through the masses with practiced steps.

Sadie peeled off first, locking eyes with a bearded man in a battered slouch hat — one of Colm’s. Before he could react, she had her hunting knife pressed against his throat, and her free hand seized the back of his coat. “Don’t you damn well move,” she growled.

Dutch moved the same way — silent, surgical — and grabbed a second O’Driscoll from behind by the collar. The man stiffened as Dutch pressed his revolver low and out of sight.

Jo positioned herself a few paces away, just behind a line of onlookers, her gaze cutting through the crowd like a blade. She watched for shifts in posture, for faces that twisted in recognition. There were more of them, she could feel it — rats hiding among sheep.

Back on the scaffold, the crier’s voice rose once more, more fervent now. “And your sentence, Colm O’Driscoll, is that you are to be hanged by the neck until you are dead!”

Jo’s eyes flicked back up to the stage.

“This is not a task we take lightly!” the man continued. “It is not a task we enjoy!”

Colm stood with the noose looped loosely around his neck. The officer beside him cinched it tight. The knot bit into his skin. For the first time, his expression shifted — just a flicker — and his eyes shot upward.

He stared at the rooftop across the square.

Jo followed his gaze and caught a flicker of movement. Arthur. High above, crouched beside the chimney. Rifle steady.

Then Colm’s gaze dropped — and his eyes landed on Sadie and Dutch, each holding his men at gunpoint. The amusement drained from his face like whiskey from a broken bottle. His shoulders sagged. His boots trembled on the edge of the trap.

The crier thundered on. “But it is a task we must carry out, if our civilization is to prosper!”

The tension was a noose of its own — tightening over the square, strangling breath from every chest.

“Gentlemen... are we ready?”

A pause.

“Colm O’Driscoll,” the crier said. “May God, in his infinite wisdom, have mercy upon your soul.”

He stepped back, gesturing toward the officer stationed at the lever.

The man hesitated, milking every second for drama. The silence screamed. Then — with a grunt — he yanked the lever with both hands, and the trapdoor gave way beneath Colm’s boots.

The rope snapped taut with a brutal, final jolt.

A rush of air escaped the crowd — one long, collective exhale. The body swung gently on the end of the rope, boots twitching once, then twice, before going still.

It was done.

Jo stood frozen, her heartbeat thudding in her ears.
Sadie didn’t move a muscle.
Dutch’s eyes narrowed.

But up on the roof, Arthur was already shifting his aim.

Because not everyone in that crowd was just there to watch.
And something was about to go wrong.

The body on the gallows still swayed, a grim pendulum above the square, but down below, the tension hadn't broken — not truly. It had only changed shape.

Sadie stood with her jaw clenched tight, eyes locked on the O’Driscoll man she had pinned at knife-point. The sounds of the crier's voice and the murmuring crowd had gone muffled in her ears, as if submerged underwater. All she could hear was the blood pounding in her skull, the ragged scrape of the man’s breath as he squirmed beneath her hold.

She leaned in close, her voice low and shaking with fury.
“Now you know how it feels to watch somebody you love die.”

The man’s eyes widened, and for a second — just one — she hesitated, her grip trembling.

A beat.
Then another.

Her nerve shattered like glass.

“You ruined my life!” Sadie screamed, the anguish in her voice cutting sharper than any blade. Without waiting another heartbeat, she drove the knife across his throat, hard and deep. Blood sprayed across her sleeves as he gurgled, collapsing into her with a final twitch.

Before he’d even hit the ground, she had her pistol drawn and turned. Dutch’s hostage blinked, too stunned to react.
“Die! Die! Die!” Sadie howled, squeezing the trigger.

The man’s skull snapped back with the first shot. The second blew through his jaw. The third missed — or didn’t matter. Dutch flinched and recoiled.

“Shit,” he hissed under his breath, reaching out. He grabbed Sadie by the elbow and yanked her backward as the first screams tore through the crowd.

“Okay. Let’s go!”

Then all hell broke loose.

The O’Driscolls didn’t wait for orders — they burst from the crowd like jackals, pulling guns from coats, pistols from hidden holsters, knives from boots. Some screamed Colm’s name. Others just opened fire.

Panicked civilians screamed and scattered in all directions. Dresses flared, hats flew, boots thundered against the cobblestones. People pushed and trampled one another in desperation to get away.

Jo ducked instinctively as the first bullet cracked overhead, the whine of it nearly splitting her skull. She threw herself behind the corner of a vendor cart, flipping it on its side to form makeshift cover just as splinters exploded from the wood.

She didn’t hesitate — drew her revolver in one smooth motion and returned fire. One O’Driscoll dropped, clutching his leg with a shriek. Another fired back, and she flattened again, breath ragged in her throat.

“Morgan! You hear us?!” Dutch bellowed as he dragged Sadie by the arm, both of them hunched low as they ran through the chaos. His coat flared behind him like a black flag.

“Take a shot on these O’Driscolls!”

Up on the rooftop, Arthur was already sighting down his rifle, jaw set and steady despite the madness below. He shifted his aim to the far side of the square, lined up a shot, and fired. One of the O’Driscolls near Jo dropped instantly, blood blossoming on his chest. Another tried to retreat toward an alley, but Arthur caught him too — a second shot echoing like thunder.

Below, Jo used the opening. She sprinted low toward the heavy stone base of a lamppost and knelt behind it, breath sharp in her chest. Her skirts were stained with dust and blood already, but she didn’t care — she’d dressed like a proper lady this morning, but she fought like anything but.

Another shot rang out, grazing the stone above her head. She didn’t wait — she popped up, fired twice, and ducked back down, heart hammering.

Across the square, Sadie ripped her arm free of Dutch’s grip, shooting a man that came charging from the shadows between buildings. He dropped face-first into the dirt, twitching once. Her face was a mask of fury, mouth open in a snarl, curls falling wild around her face.

She wasn’t done. Not by a long shot.

Arthur fired again from above — another O'Driscoll fell near the gallows.

Dutch, still leading them toward the alley to escape, ducked a shot and shouted, “We gotta move — now!”

But there were more O'Driscolls coming. More than they'd expected.

From his vantage point on the rooftop, Arthur’s rifle roared over the chaos again and again.

He covered them as best he could—Dutch and Sadie sprinting between cover, tangled in close combat with the remaining O’Driscolls. Dutch fought like a devil, ducking low, shooting sharp, precise. Sadie was pure fury, her face streaked with blood, a scream in her throat, gunning down anything in her way.

Arthur’s eyes swept the square. He caught sight of a man aiming for Sadie—one clean shot, and the bastard dropped with a hole in his chest.

Then he turned his scope—looking for Jo.

He scanned fast.

Where the hell was she?

She’d been crouched behind the lamppost seconds ago. That lamppost by the overturned cart. He was sure of it. But now—

Gone.

“Shit,” he hissed under his breath, shifting his scope fast, searching.

There. A flash of movement. A dark alley just beyond the crowd. Two men—O’Driscolls—dragging someone between them.

Jo.

She was kicking, struggling, heels scraping the dirt, fists flying, but one of the bastards had a hand tangled in her hair, the other held her arms behind her back like a prize. She twisted and screamed something—Arthur couldn’t hear it over the gunfire.

But he didn’t need to hear.

“Goddammit!”

He moved before he could think. Slung the rifle across his back, bolted for the edge of the roof, boots pounding the old shingles. With a running leap, he caught the ledge of the adjacent building, swung down to a low balcony, then climbed down the ladder with a grunt.

He hit the ground running, tearing through the dispersing crowd with shoulder checks and curses. His hand went to his revolver, already raised and ready as he barreled toward the mouth of the alley Jo had been dragged into.

 


 

The chaos swallowed the square whole. Screams, gunfire, boots thudding on stone. Jo had just begun to move—trying to fall back to where Dutch and Sadie were pushing forward—when something slammed into her from behind.

Rough hands caught her by the hair, yanking her backwards so hard her scalp lit up with a searing, white-hot burn. She cried out, half a scream, half a grunt, as her balance gave way and she stumbled.

“Got her! I got one!”

Two O'Driscolls—filthy, fast, and mean-looking—dragged her through the crowd like a trophy. One gripped her arms, the other kept a fist twisted in her hair, pulling her head back so she could barely walk without stumbling. Her boots scuffed across the stones, skirts tangling around her knees.

Jo kicked out, connecting once with someone’s shin.

“Little bitch,” one spat, and a boot landed hard in her thigh, knocking the wind from her lungs.

Not the face—thank God—but pain radiated from her side and leg, tightening her breath.

They hauled her into an alley, hidden from the square. Cold stone pressed against her back as one shoved her against the wall, pinning her in place with his forearm across her chest, hard enough to keep her still, not enough to break bone. The other scanned her quickly, hand diving for her waist as if to check for more weapons.

“Van der Linde’s little girl,” one of them grinned. “What a prize.”

“She’s worth more alive,” the other muttered. “Dutch’ll come runnin’.”

“She’s gonna watch the rest of 'em die first,” the first sneered.

Jo didn’t flinch. Didn’t give them the satisfaction.

“You touch me again,” she said, breath tight, “you won’t live long enough to feel sorry.”

But her voice trembled despite herself. Her scalp still burned. Her ribs ached from the hit. And her revolver was somewhere back in the square.

One of them chuckled darkly. “Got some fire in her.”

That’s when a deeper voice cut through the alley, cold as death.

“Let her go. Now.”

He stood at the mouth of the alley, revolver drawn, shoulders squared, breathing hard from the sprint. Arthur Morgan. His eyes were steel—fixed, unblinking, dangerous.

“If you don’t release her,” Arthur went on, stepping forward slow, low and steady, “you’re gonna have to learn how to be a lefty... ‘cause I’ll rip that arm right outta your goddamn body.”

The one holding her laughed, stupid and mean. “You ain’t gon—”

A shot cracked.

Jo flinched.

Blood sprayed the alley wall.

The man holding her dropped like a sack of meat, the bullet having torn clean through his shoulder—just enough to send him down screaming.

Before the other could react, Arthur shot him too.

No warning.

No hesitation.

Just the sharp bark of his revolver—and the man fell without a sound, dead before he hit the ground.

Silence fell. Smoke curled from the barrel of Arthur’s pistol.

Jo pressed her hand to the wall, catching her breath. Her scalp throbbed and her ribs ached, but she was upright. Still breathing.

Arthur was already at her side, his hand brushing gently—too gently for the fury in his eyes—across her hair, checking for blood. His jaw was tight enough to crack.

“You okay?” he asked.

She nodded once, breath shaky.

“They didn’t—”

“No,” she cut in. “Not much. I’m alright.”

He looked like he didn’t quite believe her. His thumb brushed a strand of hair from her face, then he turned back toward the square.

“We ain’t done yet. Come on, darlin’.”

And with his free hand, he reached for hers.

Arthur’s hand closed tight around Jo’s as they emerged from the alley, guns ready. The chaos had dulled, but it wasn’t over. Gunfire still cracked through the square, though it had thinned to sporadic shots—panic fading into blood-soaked silence.

Bodies littered the cobbled ground. O’Driscolls mostly, crumpled in awkward, final positions. The crowd had long since scattered, save for a few who watched from behind crates or through windows, too terrified to breathe.

Arthur moved with deadly calm, Jo close at his back.

An O'Driscoll darted from behind a wagon, firing wild. Arthur dropped him with a single, sharp shot—no hesitation.

Jo spotted another slinking behind a lamppost. He raised his pistol toward Arthur’s back, but Jo was faster. She fired from the hip. The man spun from the force, dropped to the stone without a sound.

“That all of ‘em?” Arthur muttered, eyes still sweeping.

“Think so,” Jo breathed, lowering her gun but not holstering it yet. Her body was humming—tight with adrenaline and aching at the seams.

Smoke clung low over the square like a morning fog. The gallows loomed behind them, Colm O’Driscoll’s body still swaying gently where it hung, as if mocking the chaos he’d left behind.

Dutch and Sadie stepped out from the far side of the square, both blood-spattered but upright. Sadie’s eyes were red-rimmed, her breaths fast and uneven as she holstered her revolver with a sharp, final motion.

Dutch took one look at Arthur and Jo—saw the scuffed dress, the bruises on Jo’s ribs, the blood not hers—and his jaw flexed.

“Goddamn mess,” he muttered.

 Sadie gave a sharp exhale. Then she said, quietly, “Let’s get outta this hellhole.”

Dutch gave a firm nod. “Separate ways. We’ll draw less heat.”

Arthur was already turning, guiding Jo gently but firmly toward the side street that would lead to the back alleyways. “We’ll take the east side,” he said. “Back toward the stables. Quiet and quick.”

Dutch looked to Sadie. “We’ll take the long way. Burn a trail west. Keep the Pinkertons chasin’ ghosts.”

Sadie looked once more toward the hanging corpse of Colm O’Driscoll, her fists clenched. Then she turned away. “Let’s move.”

Jo and Arthur split off without another word. She didn’t look back. Her legs still trembled beneath her, pain curling in her ribs, scalp prickling from where they’d yanked her, but she kept pace with Arthur.

As they moved through the alley, the sounds of the square began to fade. The air was heavy, but quieter now.

“You alright?” Arthur asked again as they turned down another narrow lane, his eyes sweeping the shadows.

Jo gave a half-smile, dry and worn. “I’ll live.”

He looked at her—at the bruises, the grit on her face, the smear of blood down her dress that wasn’t hers—and for a moment, he looked like he might double back to kill them all over again.

Instead, he reached for her hand again, squeezed it tight, and didn’t let go.

The city still burned faintly behind them—smoke trailing into the sky like a ghost refusing to let go. Arthur kept his head down as they rode, hat tilted low to shadow his face, his fresh clothes ill-fitted and smelling faintly of tobacco and iron. Gone was the stiff Saint Denis police uniform; in its place, a simple shirt and suspenders taken from a washing line behind a quiet townhouse. Jo, too, had changed—her torn dress left behind for a plain blouse and skirt a few sizes too big, cinched at the waist with a belt Arthur had offered without a word.

Their horses waited obediently in a quiet alley—Laramie tossing her head when she saw Jo, and Atlas nickering low when Arthur approached. It had taken only minutes to slip into the saddles and disappear into the backstreets, leaving behind blood, smoke, and the weight of justice finally carried out.

They didn’t speak much on the ride out. Words felt unnecessary, or too fragile to hold in the open air. Their silence wasn't heavy—it was shared, understood, reverent. They moved with the rhythm of their horses, following the curve of the Kamassa River north, slipping unnoticed into the fading orange of the afternoon light.

 


 

It was Arthur who pulled Atlas to a slow trot as they reached the edge of a clearing just shy of Heartland Overflow. The tall grass shimmered gold in the light of the setting sun, insects chirring lazily in the warm spring air. A willow tree dipped toward the water nearby, its reflection wavering on the surface like an oil painting.

“We’ll rest here,” Arthur murmured, swinging down from his saddle.

Jo nodded, quietly grateful. Her legs were stiff from the ride, her ribs still tender from earlier. Arthur walked over before she could dismount and reached up, hands gentle on her waist as he helped her down.

“You’re milkin’ this galantry thing, Morgan,” she teased with a faint smirk.

He cracked a grin. “Reckon I am. Let me have it.”

She didn’t argue.

They didn’t set up much—just a small campfire ringed in stone, saddlebags nearby, the horses grazing in the grass. Arthur leaned back against the base of the willow tree, legs stretched out, his journal resting on his thighs. Jo curled beside him, then slid closer until her back was pressed to his chest, head tucked beneath his chin, arms resting over his as he held the journal steady.

“Drawin’?” she asked softly, not needing to look.

“Mhm.”

His charcoal scratched faintly over the paper. She watched his hand move, the steadiness of it, the way he paused between lines as if listening to the shape of the world before committing it to the page.

Jo breathed him in—leather, smoke, and the familiar earth-and-pine scent that had burrowed itself into her comfort long ago. The way his chest moved beneath her back was a lullaby in itself.

She was just about to close her eyes when something thin and soft fluttered from between the journal pages—a quiet slip of motion that caught the corner of her eye.

Arthur stiffened instantly.

“No—wait—” he said, reaching for it far too fast, but it was already tumbling downward.

Jo’s hand darted out and caught it before it hit the grass.

Arthur cursed under his breath, shutting the journal with a snap. “It’s nothin’,” he said quickly, his voice unusually tense. “Just some old—don’t worry about it.”

But Jo was already looking.

A photograph.

A little worn from time, edges frayed and curling, but the image was still clear. Not posed or prepared—just natural, candid. She was standing beside Daisy, her old Quarter Horse. Smiling. Laughing at something out of frame, hair a little longer, wind-blown, loose around her shoulders. One hand resting fondly on the mare’s bridle, her boots sunk into the soft earth.

She stared at it for a long time, lips parting but no words coming.

She blinked, stunned for a moment. Then she turned her head just enough to see him trying not to look at her.

“You kept this hidden in your journal?” she asked, voice gentle, still surprised.

Arthur let out a long sigh, his hand rubbing the back of his neck. “Jo…”

“Arthur.”

He hesitated, then let his shoulders drop with a quiet huff, finally admitting, “Alright. Yeah. Mason gave me that. Back when we was still at Shady Belle. Said you’d helped him once—coyote trouble, I think.”

Jo nodded slowly, her eyes still on the photograph. “I remember. He was scared stiff, poor man. That bag meant the world to him.”

Arthur gave a low laugh. “Still does, far as I know.”

She turned the photograph in her hands, the corners softened by time. “You kept this,” she said quietly. “All this time?”

He shifted behind her, almost shy again, one hand resting over her waist. “Didn’t mean to be creepy or nothin’. Just… it was a good photo. You looked happy. Thought maybe I’d wanna remember that. If things ever got dark.”

Jo didn’t answer for a long moment. Her thumb ran gently over the image, tracing the outline of Daisy’s mane, the curve of her own smile frozen in time.

Then she tilted her head back, resting it against his shoulder, looking up at him from beneath her lashes. “You big soft fool.”

Arthur let out a low chuckle, shaking his head. “Yeah, well… don’t tell nobody.”

She turned in his arms, nestling in closer, the photo still clutched in her hand.

“I won’t,” she whispered, pressing a soft kiss to the corner of his mouth. “It’s just between us.”

He rested his cheek against her hair, one arm pulling her close as the other idly traced lines across the journal’s leather cover.

And there, in the golden hush of twilight, with the willow trees swaying gently above them and the world momentarily still, Jo felt the chaos of the day fade into something quieter. Something warmer.

She was safe.

She was his.

And for the first time in a long time… she let herself believe in the quiet.

The warmth of the fire crackled a few feet away, casting golden flickers across the grass and painting long shadows on the trunks of trees swaying gently in the evening breeze. Jo remained tucked against Arthur’s chest, listening to the steady rise and fall of his breath, the quiet beat of his heart beneath her ear. His journal rested forgotten beside them, the photo still in her hand, her fingers curled around it like something precious.

For a while, there was only the sound of crickets and distant frogs singing to the darkening sky. Then, in a voice so soft it almost disappeared into the wind, Jo asked, “What d’you think we’ll do? Once this is done, I mean.”

Arthur didn’t answer right away.

She didn’t press him.

Instead, she let the question sit between them, an echo of hope wrapped in uncertainty.

He stared out across the hills where the last burn of sunlight dipped beneath the horizon, lighting the clouds with streaks of amber and violet. His fingers slowed against her waist, and a long breath left him.

“I don’t rightly know,” he murmured, his voice gravel-low and thoughtful. “Guess I never let myself think that far ahead.”

Jo shifted a little to see his face better.

His gaze was fixed somewhere far beyond the trees, distant and heavy. “I keep thinkin’... maybe I’d head West. Find some place quiet. Big skies, clean air. Maybe set up a little cabin, grow somethin’, hunt my own food. Live like I should’ve a long time ago.”

A pause.

He paused, jaw tightening slightly, his voice growing quieter—thin at the edges like old paper. “If I ever get that far.”

Jo didn’t interrupt. She just watched him, eyes soft, patient.

Then—almost as if the words were dragged out from a place he wasn’t sure he had the right to touch—he glanced at her.

“Wouldn’t wanna do all that alone, though,” he added, his voice low and rough. “Not if I had the choice.”

His hand moved, fingers curling gently around hers where they rested on his chest. “So… if you ever thought about leavin’ too—startin’ fresh, I mean… I’d, uh—” he cleared his throat, awkward and unsteady, “—I’d like it if you were there.”

Jo’s breath caught softly in her chest. Not from surprise—not really—but from the way he said it. Like it cost him something to admit he wanted, like asking made him feel undeserving of the answer. Like even dreaming of peace was dangerous.

And yet he had. For her.

He’d offered her a piece of that future, no strings, no demands. Just him. Just a hope.

She leaned up slowly, pressing her forehead against his, her voice a whisper against the night.

“You really think I’d let you go off buildin’ cabins without me?” she asked, smiling through the ache in her chest.

Arthur chuckled under his breath, the sound warm and quiet. “Figured you might wanna get away from all this. From me.”

Jo shook her head, brushing her nose lightly against his. “You are my way out, Arthur.”

The firelight caught in his eyes—those piercing, storm-washed blue eyes—and in them, she saw every unspoken word: the wars he waged inside himself, the fear of not being enough, the ache of wanting something pure in a life that had never felt clean.

His eyes, deep and ocean-colored, held storms behind them—memories that clawed at the edges of peace, a longing so desperate it hurt. But there was softness too, flickering at the heart of all that pain. The softness he only ever showed her.

She reached up, her hands warm against the evening chill, and gently cradled his face. Her thumbs brushed the rough edge of his jaw as she guided his gaze back down to her.

His eyes searched hers. For what, she didn’t know. Maybe permission to believe her. Maybe something more.

“You’re the strongest man I’ve ever met,” she whispered, her voice filled with unwavering truth. “You deserve happiness, Arthur. You deserve peace. And you won’t be alone. Not if I can help it.”

For a moment, he didn’t move—just looked at her, like he couldn’t quite believe she meant it. Then slowly, his features softened, the hard lines of doubt giving way to something else. A glimmer. A breath of hope breaking through the cracks.

“That’s exactly what you give me,” he said, voice barely above a breath. “And I’ll always be in debt to you for that.”

His arms closed around her tighter, holding her like she was something sacred, something he couldn’t risk letting slip away. One hand rose to the back of her head, fingers weaving gently through her hair as he coaxed her back to his chest.

Jo went without hesitation, settling into him with a deep, silent sigh, her ear once more against his heartbeat.

The sky above was dark now, stars beginning to shimmer through the purple veil of night. And in that quiet patch of earth by the water’s edge, with only the flicker of firelight and the hush of the wind, the world held still just for them.

The fire had dimmed to glowing embers, casting soft golden light across their camp. The hush of the night settled around them—only the distant chirp of crickets and the occasional rustle of wind through the tall grass dared to interrupt the stillness.

Jo lay nestled against Arthur’s chest, her fingers lazily tracing the lines of his shirt, the rise and fall of his steady breath grounding her in the moment. He’d said it—he wanted her there. In that dream of his, out West. Not just as a possibility. As his choice.

She turned slightly in his arms, lifting her gaze to meet his. The firelight caught in the blue of his eyes—those eyes that carried so much: sorrow and strength, grief and gentleness, and something else too. Something just for her.

Her hand came up to cup his cheek, the calloused pads of her fingers brushing along the edge of his beard. “Arthur…” she whispered, like his name was a prayer.

He leaned into her touch.

And then—no more words. He kissed her.

Slow. Reverent. A kind of worship in how he held her face between his hands, like she was something sacred.

She melted into him, their mouths meeting again and again, soft sighs traded like promises. When his hand slid to the small of her back, she pressed closer. Their clothes became too much—a barrier to the truth unfolding between them.

Under the open sky, stars scattered like spilled sugar overhead, they shed the remnants of the day. Of the pain. Of the blood and dirt and fear.

And then—skin to skin—they came together.

It wasn’t frantic. It wasn’t rushed. It was tender and raw and achingly slow, like they had all the time in the world. Arthur kissed the hollow of her throat, his hands gentle, learning her again, like it was the first time. She whispered his name over and over, like an anchor, like a vow.

Their bodies moved in perfect rhythm, every breath shared, every touch laced with meaning. There was no need to speak—everything they couldn’t say out loud echoed in the silence between heartbeats. In the way Arthur buried his face in her neck, groaning her name like it saved him. In the way Jo wrapped herself around him, clutching him close like letting go might tear her apart.

When they finally reached that high together—lips locked, fingers entwined—it felt like the world paused. Like for once, time bent for them. And maybe it did.

They lay there afterward, skin damp, hearts pounding, tangled in each other beneath the open sky. Jo rested her head against Arthur’s chest, listening to the slow return of his heartbeat to calm.

But soon after, a chill crept into the night air. A quiet shiver rolled through her.

Arthur felt it immediately. “Hell,” he murmured, sitting up and pulling his shirt back over her shoulders. “Should’ve figured. Gets colder out here than it lets on.”

Jo blinked, her body still humming from their shared warmth. “I’m okay…”

“You’re freezin’.” He leaned down and pressed a kiss to her temple before rising to his feet, tugging on his pants and boots. “Stay put. I’ll get that damn tent up.”

She watched him move around camp, gathering what little gear they’d brought. His silhouette was strong and familiar against the dying glow of the fire, the low murmur of his cursing mixed with the rustle of canvas. Within minutes, he had a small shelter rigged up, enough to block the breeze and keep them warm.

When he ducked back inside, she was already curled in the blanket, waiting. He slipped in beside her, pulling her close against his chest.

“Better?” he asked, his breath warm in her hair.

She nodded. “Much.”

They lay there in silence, her fingers curled against his side, his heartbeat steady beneath her ear. Safe. Loved. Sheltered.

But as the minutes stretched on, sleep didn’t come easy for Jo.

Her mind turned, slow at first—then faster. That photo. That future. His words. His eyes. And all the while, a quiet guilt sat like a stone in her chest.

She hadn’t told him everything. 

Arthur didn’t know what lay buried in her past—the weight she carried, the secrets she swore she’d never speak of again. He didn’t know who she really was before the gang. He didn’t know how close danger had already come.

He deserved to. He deserved everything.

Jo blinked up at the dark canvas above them, barely able to make out the shape of it. Her hand drifted to his chest, resting there like it could hold in the truth a little longer.

“I’ll tell him,” she whispered, though the words never reached her lips.

But not tonight.

Tonight, he was at peace. They both were. Wrapped in the soft breath of the wilds, surrounded by the hush of night and the promise of something gentler waiting on the horizon.

She didn’t want to break it. 

Her fingers curled tighter around him, her cheek pressing close to his skin.

Tomorrow, she thought. Tomorrow, I’ll tell him.

But for now—just this.

Just Arthur.
Just warmth.
Just love, and the dream of wide skies waiting somewhere West.

 


 

The world was still blue when Jo stirred.

A pale, dusky blue that came just before the sun began its slow crawl across the sky, when shadows stretched long and the air was still kissed with the coolness of night. She blinked sleepily, momentarily unsure of where she was. The canvas above her rustled faintly with the morning breeze, the scent of wildflowers and earth drifting in on the air. Then it came back—last night. Arthur. The fire. The stars.

She reached out across the blanket.

Empty.

Warm, but empty.

Jo sat up slowly, the wool blanket slipping down to her hips. Arthur’s shirt hung loose on her shoulders, the hem brushing her thighs, the sleeves rolled and wrinkled from the night before. She tugged it closer around herself, inhaling the faint scent that lingered in the fabric—leather, tobacco, pine, and something purely him.

The tent flap was half open, fluttering gently. Light spilled through, golden now, soft and new. She crawled forward and pushed it open the rest of the way, squinting against the brightness.

And there he was.

A little ways off, near the edge of the Heartland Overflow, with the water lapping gently at his bare feet. His back was to her—broad, sun-kissed, and scattered with old scars and the fresh traces of living hard. The faint line of his spine moved slowly as he breathed in the morning air. He stood completely still, hands resting loosely at his sides, like he was made of the earth itself—something carved and patient, meant to belong to wild places.

Jo’s breath caught in her throat. The sight of him like this—unguarded, calm, untouched by the weight of the world—was rare. So rare it almost hurt to see it.

She wished she could bottle it. Keep it for when things got bad again. But peace never lasted long in their lives. Not with Dutch growing more dangerous by the day, not with Micah creeping like poison through their ranks, not with Pinkertons and pasts both chasing her shadow.

But here—just here—everything was quiet.

She stepped out of the tent, barefoot, her toes sinking into the soft grass still damp with dew. Arthur’s shirt billowed slightly as the breeze picked up, lifting the ends of her hair around her face. She crossed the stretch of land slowly, not wanting to disturb the moment too soon.

The cool water met her skin as she waded in. She didn’t speak. Not at first.

She simply came to stand beside him.

Arthur didn’t turn, but she knew he’d felt her presence. His shoulder twitched slightly. The muscles of his back shifted as he adjusted his stance, but his eyes remained fixed on the water.

They stood like that for a long beat, the morning breeze threading through the reeds, the golden light painting the world in soft hues of pink and amber. Birds called somewhere distant. A fish jumped, rippling the mirrored surface of the Overflow.

Jo looked out across the water, her arms wrapping loosely around herself.

“It’s beautiful,” she said finally, her voice low, reverent.

Arthur gave a faint nod. “Always liked it here. Don’t get up this early for much, but…” He trailed off.

Jo tilted her head slightly, studying him. The tension she so often saw in his shoulders wasn’t gone, but it had softened. The tight line of his jaw, usually set against the world, was relaxed. The morning sun touched the edges of his hair, making the strands of gold and copper glint. Even in stillness, there was something quietly alive in him.

“I saw you,” she murmured. “From the tent.”

A smile ghosted over the corner of his mouth. “Was tryin’ not to wake you.”

“You didn’t. I just…” Her voice caught for a moment. “I didn’t want to miss this. You. Like this.”

Arthur turned his head slightly at that, his profile coming into view. The soft dawn light caught in the blue of his eyes—pale and endless, full of depth and some unspoken ache. He didn’t answer, but something flickered there in his gaze. Something that made her heart flutter low in her chest.

She stepped closer, their arms brushing.

“I don’t see you like this often,” she said quietly. “Peaceful. Still.”

“Don’t reckon I am peaceful,” he muttered, rubbing the back of his neck. “Not really built for it.”

Jo watched him, a sad sort of smile tugging at her lips. “Maybe not. But it suits you.”

His eyes dropped, a breath leaving him slow and unsure. The water rippled around their legs.

Jo glanced at the rising sun, the way its reflection turned the surface into molten gold. Then back at Arthur.

“I wish it could always be like this,” she said softly. “Just us. The morning. No camp. No gang. No ghosts.”

Arthur’s shoulders shifted, his expression tightening slightly at the mention of what waited for them beyond this moment.

“Yeah,” he murmured. “Me too.”

Silence again, but not uncomfortable. Just quiet.

The water lapped gently at their ankles, and above them, the sun slowly rose, casting golden ribbons across the surface of the Overflow. Birds stirred in the distant trees, their songs faint and sweet.

Arthur shifted slightly beside her, the sound of his breath deepening. He kept his gaze fixed on the horizon for a long moment before finally speaking, his voice low and gravel-soft in the hush of morning.

“You asked me somethin’ last night,” he murmured, glancing at her out the corner of his eye. “Asked what I thought we’d do… once all this is over.”

Jo turned her head to look at him, her brow faintly furrowed.

Arthur continued, voice slow and thoughtful. “What about you? What do you want, Jo?”

His words hung between them, fragile as dew on grass.

She didn't answer right away. Her gaze wandered back to the rising sun, its rays now warming her face, painting her skin in hues of gold and rose. The light danced along the surface of the water, shimmering like something out of a dream. Her hair moved gently in the breeze, strands catching sunlight like gold thread.

Her lips parted, the words soft as breath. “A quiet life,” she said. “That’s all I’m askin’ for.”

She paused then, her heart stammering in her chest. She could’ve stopped there. Let it rest, keep the rest locked up safe behind her ribs. But something in her—something brave and a little broken—pushed her to go on.

Her voice trembled, but she didn’t look away. “And you .”

Arthur stilled.

He looked at her fully then. Really looked.

Sunlight lit her face, but it was her eyes that caught him—wide and earnest, shimmering with something raw and vulnerable and painfully sincere. She wasn’t just saying it to soothe him or fill the space. She meant it.

And it undid him.

Arthur reached out with a tenderness that startled even him. His rough fingers found a loose strand of hair caught at her temple, brushing it gently behind her ear. His touch lingered there, the pad of his thumb tracing the curve of her cheekbone. Her skin was warm beneath his hand.

He let out a breath—slow, almost shaky.

“Jo…” he said, her name a whisper, like he was afraid saying it too loud would break the spell. His thumb brushed her cheek again, reverent. “You got no idea what that means to me.”

She smiled faintly, something shy in it despite all they'd shared. “Well… now you do.”

He stared at her for a long beat, heart thudding dully behind his ribs. He’d thought about this kind of life before. A quiet cabin. Big skies. Days spent hunting or tending to land, nights spent with someone waiting by the fire. But the image had always been blurry, like it was never really his to want.

But now, with her standing here—his shirt hanging loose around her, her hair a mess from sleep, eyes bright in the morning light—he could see it. Clear as day.

He leaned in, slow and unhurried, and kissed her.

Not with fire or desperation, but something sweeter. Slower. Like a promise.

Jo melted into it, her hands finding his bare chest, her fingers spreading across his heart. When they parted, their foreheads touched, breaths mingling in the space between them.

“I want that too,” he murmured. “You. Just you.”

Jo swallowed hard, emotion catching like a lump in her throat.

Maybe this was it.

The thought pressed gently into Jo’s chest, blooming slow like the first light of dawn. Maybe there’d never be a better moment than now. Here, in the soft hush of morning, with nothing around them but the shimmer of the Heartland Overflow and the golden kiss of the sun. No one else. No noise. No chaos. Just Arthur and the water and the wind.

She could tell him. Here, away from camp and prying ears. Away from Dutch’s looming shadow, from Micah’s sneers, from the weight of everything pressing down on their shoulders.

She could tell him everything she’d never said.

The truth.

The real truth.

Her past, her name, the blood still clinging to her hands after all these years. All the miles she’d put between herself and the girl she used to be. The reason she kept running. The reason she lied.

She swallowed hard.

Arthur’s arm was still wrapped around her waist, his touch a quiet strength. She felt safe here. Loved, even. Like maybe, just maybe, he could understand. Maybe he’d forgive her.

She took a breath. Deep and steady. Tried to think how best to start.

Arthur… there's something I need to tell you.

But just as her lips parted—

He shifted beside her, his hand slipping from her hip as he turned toward the tent, brushing the water from his legs.

“Should probably get movin’,” he said, his voice casual, unaware of how close she’d come to opening her chest wide. “Can’t be gone from camp too long. Someone’s bound to notice.”

And just like that, the moment slipped through her fingers like smoke.

Jo blinked. Her heart gave a strange twist, disappointment curling low in her belly—but she didn’t let it show. She forced a small smile instead, nodding like it didn’t matter.

“Yeah,” she said, her voice steady, light. “Yeah, alright.”

Arthur didn’t look back as he made his way to shore, but she watched him go—watched the morning light play along the lines of his shoulders, the scars on his back, the quiet strength in every movement. She followed a few seconds later, her steps slower, the water cool around her ankles.

Back at the tent, they dressed and packed in silence. It wasn’t awkward—just quiet again. That companionable kind of quiet, though Jo’s thoughts were anything but.

She folded his bedroll with practiced hands, tucked away the flask, the leftover biscuits, the maps and matches. She didn’t say much. Couldn’t. Her chest still ached with the words she hadn’t said.

But it was alright.

She’d tell him tonight.

Just like she’d planned.

When the stars came back out and the world went still again, she’d find her voice. She had to. Because he deserved to know the truth. All of it. Because she loved him. Loved him more than anything. And love—real love—couldn’t live in shadow forever.

Jo slung her saddlebag over her shoulder and stepped into the sun beside him.

Tonight, she promised herself.

Tonight, she’d tell him everything.

The ride back to camp had been slow, peaceful. The kind of slowness that tricked Jo into believing they could keep that kind of life—just the two of them, riding beside each other under an open sky. She’d stolen glances at Arthur more than once during the journey, her chest tight with a tenderness she didn’t quite know what to do with. Every time he looked at her, it was with quiet affection that stirred something in her—something hopeful.

But that hope died the moment they passed the treeline and saw the fire.

A circle had formed near the flames, nearly every member of the gang gathered. Faces turned as their horses clopped into view—some surprised, others unreadable. But one face was in the center, lit by fire and full of venomous triumph.

Micah.

Arthur stiffened beside her as they dismounted. “What the hell’s he blabbin’ about now…” he muttered.

Jo slid off Laramie, eyes scanning the camp. Mary-Beth looked pale. John had his arms crossed. Karen wasn’t even blinking. And Susan Grimshaw—stern, proud Susan—was staring at Jo with something dangerously close to disgust. The air was thick with tension.

She didn’t need to ask what Micah had done.

As they approached, the voices died. 

They weren’t looking at Arthur.

They were looking at her.

And Micah smiled.

“Well, look who finally decided to come back.”

Jo clenched her jaw. “What’s this?”

“Oh, just sharin’ some things. ‘bout you .”

Arthur stepped forward, brow furrowed. “What’re you talkin’ about?”

Silence.

Nobody moved.

The wind stopped. The fire crackled but didn’t warm her anymore. Jo felt her heart stop beating altogether.

Micah’s grin widened. He took a slow step toward them, hands raised as if he were just being helpful. “Ain’t so? ‘Cause she been lyin’ to all of us since ever.”

Everything stopped.

Arthur turned to her, slowly. His face didn’t twist in rage. It didn’t need to.

That look was worse.

Confusion.

Hurt.

Like someone had just reached in and pulled the ground out from under him.

“What’s he talkin’ about?” he asked, voice low and cautious—like he wasn’t sure he wanted the answer.

Jo couldn’t breathe.

Her mouth parted, but no sound came out. She looked around—at the faces staring at her like she was someone else, a stranger wearing her skin. Karen looked stunned. Charles had a deep frown pulling at his brow. Sadie looked ready to lunge at Micah, but she was still. Waiting.

Jo’s throat burned. Her hands trembled at her sides.

Arthur was still looking at her.

Waiting.

“Jo?” he said again, softer now. But the doubt was there. She heard it. Saw it in the blue of his eyes, stormy with confusion.

She wanted to speak. God, she did. But the words caught in her mouth like barbed wire. Her secret curled in her gut like a snake ready to strike.

Micah smiled.

And Jo, for the first time in a long, long time, didn’t know what to do.

Chapter 40: If He Could See Me Now

Chapter Text

Arthur’s eyes darted to Jo, then back to Micah. “What the hell you talkin’ about?”

Micah looked at her, then said—soft enough for only her to hear—“Bet you gonna wish you never talked to the old man that night.”

Jo’s breath caught.

Micah turned to the rest of the gang, making a grand show of it. “What I’m sayin’ is, maybe y’all don’t know the girl you been ridin’ with.” He looked at Arthur. “What’s her name again, Morgan? Didn’t she say it weren’t her on that poster?”

Arthur blinked.

Jo’s blood went cold.

Micah turned to her, feigning innocence. “Go on, sweetheart. Tell ‘em your name.”

She froze. A rabbit in a snare. Her mouth opened—but no sound came.

Arthur stepped closer, confused. “Jo…?”

Micah stepped in. “No, no. That ain’t it.”

He reached into his coat pocket and flicked something toward the dirt. A crumpled, weathered wanted poster spun to a stop at Jo’s feet.

Arthur recognized it instantly.

He’d seen it at Emerald Station. Confronted her about it at Shady Belle. She’d denied it. Said it wasn’t her.

He’d believed her.

Micah’s voice turned sharp. “That’s Sarah Wightman. That’s the girl wanted for murderin’ a family and burnin’ their ranch to ash.”

Jo’s knees weakened.

It felt like someone had driven a spike through her chest.

“Among other murders,” Micah added, twisting the knife.

Jo couldn’t speak.

Arthur stared at the poster. Then at her. Then at the poster again. His brows knit together, confusion darkening into something else.

“…What?” he breathed. His voice cracked on the word.

She finally found her voice. “No—Arthur—it ain’t—it ain’t what you think.”

He took a step back from her. Like she was dangerous.

“Please,” she said. Her voice trembled. “Hosea knew. He knew everything. He believed me—he—”

“Hosea’s dead,” Micah said, his voice low and cruel. “Ain’t nobody left to vouch for you now.”

A murmur passed through the gang. Jo could feel their eyes like daggers on her skin. Tilly looked devastated. Charles’s face was stone. Even John seemed at a loss.

Arthur… Arthur looked broken.

The man who had kissed her under the stars. Who had whispered promises into her ear just last night.

He looked like someone had taken the ground out from under him.

“Arthur—please, I didn’t—I never meant—”

He cut her off. “You lied.”

“I was scared!”

“You lied to me. ” His voice rose, and the weight of it crushed her.

“I had to! If I told anyone, they’d—” She stopped herself. Her breath hitched. “I was gonna tell you. Tonight. I swear it.”

He stared at her. Blue eyes full of betrayal and disbelief. “Tonight,” he repeated, bitter. “Convenient.”

Micah chuckled, arms crossed, content with the chaos he’d sown.

Jo looked around and saw what she feared most: faces she’d grown to care for, to ride with, eat with, bleed with—now watching her like she was a stranger. A threat. A rat.

"Go on, Morgan," he said, voice dripping with mock concern. "Why don’t you ask her about that scar she’s got? Right there—" Micah gestured lazily to his own lower abdomen, just above the hipbone. "Real nasty lookin’ thing. Right where they brand ‘em."

Jo went rigid.

The air was sucked clean from her lungs.

Arthur’s eyes, already dark with storm, narrowed. Slowly, his gaze shifted from Micah to her, a flicker of doubt stirring behind the anger. Not trust. Not concern.

Just… suspicion.

A sick, crawling sort of pause.

Jo didn’t move. Couldn’t. Her mouth opened like she wanted to speak—but no sound came out.

Arthur stared at her.

Something tickled the back of his memory. A moment. A glimpse. Skin beneath moonlight. Her shirt pulled up briefly when she’d sat up from sleep, or the way her hand always darted to cover her side when she bathed in the river. He’d never thought much of it before. He respected her privacy. Trusted her silence.

But now—

Now he couldn’t remember if he’d seen the scar or if Micah was putting something in his head.

His jaw tightened.

Arthur’s boots scraped across the dirt as he stepped toward her—fast, purposeful. His face was carved in stone, but his eyes were burning.

Jo barely had time to react before his hand wrapped firmly around her forearm. Not enough to hurt, but strong enough that she couldn’t mistake the message: we’re gonna talk. Now.

“C’mon,” he said roughly.

Without waiting for her to agree, he tugged her with him, leading her away from the firelight, away from the stares. Past the horses and the supply crates, over to the edge of the clearing where the trees stood like silent witnesses. He still gave her that—privacy. But the tension in his grip, the way his jaw clenched tight, the way his other hand flexed like it didn’t know whether to curl into a fist or not—it all screamed that kindness was hanging on by a thread.

He let go once they reached the shadows.

His hand released and pushed her away with a force he didn’t intend, but couldn’t stop. Jo stumbled back a step, boots skidding slightly in the dirt, but she didn’t fall. She caught her balance with a quiet grunt, and when she finally looked up, her breath caught.

He wasn’t Arthur—not the one she trusted. Not the man who pulled her back from the brink a hundred times. This Arthur was still. Too still. His jaw clenched, shoulders tight, his chest heaving under the weight of everything he hadn’t said yet.

Behind her ribs, her heart cracked.

Then came his voice—low, quiet, and tight like a thread ready to snap.

“Tell me it ain’t true.” 

Jo closed her eyes.

She should’ve run.

“Tell me he’s lyin’ . Tell me you haven’t been lyin’ to me this entire time.”

Her mouth opened. “It ain’t what you think. Just let me explain—”

But the words felt hollow, too late, too small.

He didn’t interrupt. He didn’t yell. He just… waited. Staring at her like he was hoping—praying—she’d somehow untangle the wreckage Micah had just dropped at their feet. But her mind had gone blank, a wasteland of regret. She should’ve prepared for this. She should’ve known this day would come. She should’ve had the words ready.

“Well?” His voice pressed tighter.

“I…” Her lips trembled. But nothing came out. All the air had been sucked out of her lungs. 

“Show me.” He said suddenly.

Jo blinked. “Show you what?”

Show me,” he repeated, his voice was firmer this time. He gestured toward her midsection with a sharp, twitching movement of his chin.

A wave of unease washed over her as she realized what he was asking, but he couldn’t be serious. How was that going to help anyone? But the longer she stared into his hectic eyes, the more she realized how completely serious he was.

“Arthur,” she pleaded quietly. “Please don’t–”

“I said show me!” he demanded loudly and she flinched away from his sudden hostility. His chest was still heaving, but his eyes—those blue, storm-heavy eyes—suddenly shimmered with a hint of regret. Like he hadn’t meant to yell. Like he’d scared himself with it. But he didn’t apologize, it was too late. She finally came face to face with the anger she’d convinced herself he didn’t possess. 

She took an unsteady breath as her fingers moved without thinking. Shaky, jerky. She unbuttoned the lower half of her shirt, the cold wind biting at her skin. Then, slowly, she pulled the fabric aside, revealing the angry, puckered scar that stretched across her right side—just above the hip.

Arthur’s breath caught.

His face didn’t move, but his eyes did. They locked onto the scar like it was something sacred. Or cursed. Something he'd seen glimpses of before, half-hidden in the firelight, or obscured when she twisted away from him at the river or curled into his bed.

He had noticed. Somewhere in the back of his mind, he’d known.

But he hadn’t asked.

“Christ,” he whispered.

He turned slightly, as if he needed to look away, but couldn’t. One hand came to his jaw and curled against the scruff. The other hovered in the air like it wanted to reach for her… and couldn’t anymore.

“I can’t believe you.” His voice was low. Shaky, now. Full of quiet devastation. “I can’t believe this whole time I’ve been tryin’ to prove myself to you… Tryin’ to make you trust me . And it was you… You was the one lyin’.”

“I’m so sorry,” Jo whispered, the words useless.

“Don’t want your apologies, Jo.” His voice cracked on her name, like it physically hurt to say it. “I want you to tell me it’s a mistake. That he mistook you for someone else. That you ain’t been playin’ me this whole goddamn time.”

“I wasn’t playing you—”

“You fuckin’ knew who I was.” His voice turned to grit. His hands curled into fists at his sides. “You knew who I was when we met. And when I asked who you was, you lied . Right to my face.”

“I didn’t know who you was, Arthur,” she said, voice trembling. “I didn’t even know who I was. Not back then.”

“What makes you think I can believe a single goddamn word you say?” he growled. “You’re a liar, Jo.”

Jo swallowed, her hands still clutching the edges of her shirt.

She was a liar.

“All those moments we spent together… askin’ me ‘bout my past I thought you wanted to know me , but you didn’t. You wanted to make me trust you, you used me.”

She didn’t argue.

She couldn’t.

He shook his head. Looked down, like the sight of her was unbearable now.

She was insufferable .

He looked at her again, eyes filled with hurt. “Do you have any idea how devastatin’ it’s to realize that the best part of my life… was fake ?” His voice dropped to a whisper. “That you was fake?”

His words carved through her like knives.

“I mean… was anything real?” he asked, almost pleading. Desperate. One last gasp of hope.

Jo stepped forward. Her voice cracked. “It was real,” she insisted.

He looked at her, eyes glassy with unshed emotion. And then he took a step back, like he didn’t believe her. Like believing her might break him even more.

“D’you kill all them people?” His voice cracked at the end. She couldn’t tell if it was from the wind in his throat or something else—something raw and wounded.

“I never—”

He cut her off, stepping closer, towering over her now. “You been lyin’ to us this whole damn time! All them years!”

“…Is Jo even your real name?” he finally asked, voice hollow.

She swallowed hard. Closed her eyes. Turned her face away from him.

“No,” she breathed. “It ain’t.”

The silence that followed was a canyon.

“Unbelievable,” Arthur muttered, stepping back like the ground beneath him was no longer solid. He put his hands on his hips, looking down, his hat casting a shadow across his eyes. She didn’t need to see them to know what was there.

Her head snapped toward him. “Arthur—” she started, voice tight with desperation, “I swear to you, I never killed those people.”

He looked up at her slowly.

The fire in his eyes had gone cold. Not gone, just… frozen over.

“How the hell am I supposed to believe a thing you say now?” he asked. “After all them lies?”

The words hit her like a slap. Her mouth opened, but there was nothing she could say that wouldn’t sound like another excuse.

“I had to lie,” she whispered. “I didn’t have a choice.”

“We all got choices,” he said. “You made yours.”

He stepped back again, putting more distance between them, like being near her physically hurt.

“I thought I knew you,” he said. “I trusted you. I—” He stopped himself, jaw tight. He wasn’t gonna say it. Couldn’t.

Jo took a trembling step forward. “I never lied about what I felt for you.”

Arthur looked away, blinking hard. “Maybe not,” he muttered. “But it don’t matter if the whole damn thing was built on a lie.”

She reached out, instinctively, but he pulled back. The rejection was silent—but deafening.

He turned, boots crunching the dirt as he took a few steps toward the camp.

Arthur turned his back on her.

The night was quiet, too quiet, like even the trees were holding their breath. The fire crackled distantly behind them, faint voices murmuring in the dark—Micah’s triumph, the others’ confusion, suspicion, disappointment. All of it pressed in around Jo like a closing vice.

And Arthur was walking away from her.

Just like that.

“Don’t go, Arthur.”

Her voice cracked through the stillness, small and shaking. It didn’t sound like her. It wasn’t sharp or defensive or layered in pride. It was soft. Vulnerable. Like something had cracked open inside her, and all that was left was the trembling truth. It was, perhaps, the most vulnerable he’d ever seen her. But it was selfish, and cruel, and not enough. He deserved honesty. 

He paused.

That hesitation made her heart seize.

She saw the tension in his shoulders—how they rose and fell as though he was wrestling with himself. But he didn’t turn back. He didn’t say a word.

She stepped forward, swallowing against the knot in her throat. “Please.”

Still, nothing. Just the way he shook his head, slow and weary. Resigned.

That was it.

This was goodbye.

No.

No, not like this.

She took another shaky step toward him, voice barely audible over the pounding in her chest. “Tell me you hate me,” she said. “And I’ll go. I’ll leave you alone. I can deal with it.”

It was a lie. A stupid, desperate lie. She wouldn’t survive it. Not really.

“Tell me I’m a traitor,” she went on, her voice cracking now, unraveling. “Tell me you want me dead.”

Arthur turned his head slightly, and in the glow of the moonlight, she caught the look on his face.

Pain.

He was in pain.

“I can’t,” he said, voice hoarse and low. Like it physically hurt him to speak.

Her knees nearly buckled.

“Then tell me you love me,” she whispered, stepping forward again. Her hand reached out, trembling as she touched his cheek. “Please, Arthur… tell me you love me.”

She didn’t realize the tears had come until she blinked and her vision blurred.

His eyes met hers at last.

And for one breathless second, the whole world hung in that space between them. No lies. No firelight. Just two broken people, clinging to the memory of something that had once been good. Once been real.

Arthur let her touch him, let her cradle his face like she was afraid he might disappear if she let go. Her thumb brushed across the rough stubble of his jaw. Her hands shook with the weight of everything she hadn’t told him. Everything she had ruined.

He looked into her eyes—those eyes that had once brought him peace in the middle of chaos—and he saw the truth there.

She wasn’t innocent.

But she wasn’t the monster, either.

Not to him.

He closed his eyes for a moment, jaw tightening.

Then he reached up.

Not to pull her close.

But to take her hands from his face.

Slowly.

Gently.

He held them for a second in his own, rough and warm and familiar.

Then he let them go.

Her arms dropped helplessly to her sides.

“Arthur…” she breathed, barely able to get his name out.

But he had already walked past her.

Jo stood there, her shoulders drawn tight like a bowstring ready to snap, her hands curling into fists at her sides. It looked like she was bracing herself for a punch that hadn’t landed yet—or maybe already had. Her jaw twitched as she stared somewhere just over his shoulder, as if eye contact might make her unravel completely.

Arthur’s chest rose and fell in slow, measured breaths that didn’t reach his lungs. His hands—usually so steady—flexed at his sides, clenching and unclenching as if trying to hold onto something slippery and already half-gone.

Then she spoke.

"I know... I know what you're thinkin’," she murmured. Her voice was fragile, brittle like dry leaves under boot. "That I'm a monster. That I've broken somethin’ that can't be fixed."

Arthur stilled. Didn’t move, didn’t answer. But the muscle in his jaw tightened, and that told her enough. Her words hit their mark.

She let out a hollow, humorless breath—half a laugh, half a sigh. "Maybe you're right."

Her voice was like ash—soft, drifting, burnt out.

Arthur’s eyes dropped to the ground between them. Gravel. Dirt. Mud. It all looked the same underfoot, but suddenly it felt like he was standing on something that used to be solid and wasn’t anymore.

She inhaled sharply, and he heard it—how hard she had to fight to keep from crumbling.

"But listen to me. Just this once. Before you condemn me. Before you turn your back for good."

Her voice quivered at the edges, too raw to be anything but honest. There was no more armor left in her voice. No more deflection. Just a woman who had built a life out of lies, now begging for something true to hold onto.

“Arthur…”

Just his name. But it carried more than most sentences ever could.

Arthur’s fingers twitched. His shoulders stiffened, like he’d been struck.

He hadn’t planned on turning. Hell, he thought if he turned, he might crumble too. But something in the way she said his name—shattered and small, like she wasn’t sure she had the right to say it anymore—got under his skin. Hooked him.

So, he turned.

Not fast. Not sharp. But slow. Careful. As if the air between them had gotten thicker somehow.

His eyes locked on her immediately.

She wasn’t looking at him. Her arms were crossed around her chest like she was holding herself together with what little she had left. Her head bowed slightly, hair half-shadowing her face, like she couldn’t bear the weight of his gaze.

Arthur’s chest burned with so many things at once—anger, grief, betrayal, and under it all, that damn ache that wouldn’t die. That part of him that still loved her.

"I didn't mean to hurt you... I swear I didn't," she said, finally forcing her eyes up to meet his.

He didn’t speak. His face was unreadable, but his eyes—they betrayed him. They were stormy, uncertain, devastated.

"But there are choices that elude us,” she said, her voice growing more desperate. “Moments when we get stuck between what we should do… and what we end up doin’."

Arthur swallowed hard. His jaw clenched again, and this time his hand came up to his face, fingers dragging down through his beard like he was trying to ground himself. He looked away for a second—because looking at her hurt. Too much.

"I should’ve told you,” she whispered. “I should’ve been honest. But I was afraid. Afraid of losing what we had. Afraid of the look you're givin’ me right now..."

Arthur met her gaze again then, and her breath caught. His eyes were distant, cold—not like a man who hated her, but like one who didn’t know her anymore. Like he was standing across from a stranger wearing her face.

That look gutted her.

A heavy silence swallowed them both. She could feel it pressing down on her chest, making it hard to breathe.

"And yet... and yet I did it," she confessed, voice nearly gone. "I betrayed your trust."

Arthur shifted his weight slightly, his hands curling into fists again, then loosening. He looked down, jaw working, but still said nothing.

"And the worst thing of all..." she tried to finish, but her voice cracked. She closed her eyes for a moment, her breath trembling.

"...is that I'd give anything to take it back."

When she looked up again, her eyes were shining with tears she refused to let fall. She searched his face—desperate, begging—for something. A sign. A flicker of softness. Of hope.

But she already knew.

It wasn’t there.

Arthur exhaled, slow and rough. He turned again.

And stopped.

The silence between them yawned open like a chasm.

Then, without turning to face her, he said lowly, “Think it’s best if you leave. Now.”

His voice was gravel. Final.

He didn’t look back.

Didn’t let her answer.

He walked toward the campfire’s glow, his figure growing smaller with each step, swallowed by the dark, by the firelight, by the weight of everything left unsaid.

Jo stood frozen, like her boots were buried in the dirt.

Then her knees gave out.

She hit the earth with a soft thud, one hand catching herself, the other covering her mouth as the first sob broke loose.

The tears came hot and fast, trailing down her cheeks as she folded into herself. She cried like the world had ended—because for her, in that moment, it had.

And after some time—minutes or maybe hours—she got to her feet. Wiped her face with shaking hands. Took one last look in the direction he’d gone.

Then she turned and walked away.

Out into the night.

Alone.

Jo didn’t look back as she walked. Her steps were heavy, uneven, like her legs barely remembered how to move. The tears had stopped—not because the pain was gone, but because there was nothing left to give. She felt hollowed out. Emptied.

The campfire behind her faded into a dim flicker. The night stretched ahead, vast and cold. Each step carried her farther from what she’d built, from what she’d fought for. From him.

And still, she kept going.

Then, behind her, came the sound of hooves.

Slow at first. Soft.

Jo turned her head, wiping her face with the sleeve of her coat, squinting through the haze of her grief.

Laramie.

The black Arabian mare stood a few paces behind her, ears tilted forward, eyes soft and calm. She hadn’t been tied. Hadn’t been called. But she’d followed.

Quiet. Steady. Loyal.

Jo’s throat tightened all over again. Her lips trembled.

“Laramie…” she whispered, broken and thick with emotion.

The horse stepped closer, gently lowering her head until it brushed Jo’s shoulder. Jo leaned into her without thinking, pressing her face into Laramie’s warm neck as if the mare were the only thing holding her upright.

Laramie didn’t move. Just stood there, solid and patient, her breath slow and even.

Jo wrapped her arms around her neck and held on.

For a long time, that’s all there was—just a woman and her horse in the quiet dark, both breathing the same broken air.

She finally pulled away, brushing a hand down Laramie’s muzzle, whispering something too soft to hear.

Then she swung herself into the saddle with stiff, tired movements, settling onto Laramie’s back like it was the only place she had left to belong.

She took one last look over her shoulder.

The camp was nothing more than a fading glow now. No shapes. No people. Just the remnants of what had been.

Jo turned forward.

“Let’s go, girl,” she murmured, her voice hoarse.

And Laramie carried her away into the night.

Not fast.

Just far.

Because some wounds couldn’t be outrun—but at least they didn’t have to be carried alone.

 


 

Arthur didn’t look back.

Not when she cried.

Not when she pleaded.

Not even when she said she’d take it all back.

He kept walking—shoulders rigid, fists clenched at his sides like he was holding something inside that begged to get out. His jaw locked so tight it ached. Every step toward camp felt like he was stomping out the last ember of something he didn’t even want to name.

The firelight flickered low as he passed through the heart of camp. The others had gone quiet. Not silent exactly, but… cautious. Watching him out the corners of their eyes. Only Micah looked pleased, sitting back with a smug little twist to his mouth like a dog with a stolen bone. Arthur didn’t spare him a glance. He was too busy grinding his molars into dust.

He made for his tent like a storm coming in, pushing the flap aside with more force than necessary. The lantern inside cast a dim glow over the bedroll, his saddle, his rifle propped in the corner. The usual mess. Same as it always was.

Except now it felt wrong. Like the world had tilted.

He stopped in the middle of the tent, hands on his hips, staring at the floor like it had done something to offend him.

Jo.

Sarah.

He let out a harsh breath through his nose, pacing a step, then two, then turning around again. Like he could shake it off. Like if he moved enough, it would stop echoing in his damn skull.

She lied.

For years. Not weeks. Not months. Years.

And not about something small. Not about some stupid thing like where she grew up or what her favorite goddamn flower was. No, she lied about who she was. Lied straight to his face, time and time again. Sat around their fire like she belonged, while the law had a goddamn poster with her face on it.

He ran a hand through his hair and gripped it hard at the roots, his breath getting rougher, tighter.

“Goddammit…” he growled under his breath, voice low, like gravel and glass.

He kicked over the stool near his cot, watched it clatter against the dirt, and immediately regretted the childishness of it. But hell, he needed to hit something. To break something. He’d trusted her. Defended her. Hell, maybe somewhere deep down, he even saw a future with her—a life after all this.

But now?

Now all he could see when he closed his eyes was that wanted poster hitting the ground.

The cold, awful truth in her voice when she said “No, it ain’t.”

He turned away from the lantern, shadows crawling long across the canvas, and sat down heavily on the edge of his cot. His elbows rested on his knees, head hanging low, hands gripping each other so tight the knuckles turned white.

He didn’t want to feel it—not the grief, not the confusion, not the betrayal.

So he just let himself be angry.

Until his eyes drifted across the tent… and landed on something small. Something out of place.

There, next to his bedroll, half-tucked into the fold of his saddlebag, was a piece of faded green cloth.

At first, he didn’t register it.

Then his brow furrowed. He leaned forward.

It was hers.

A scarf. The one she’d worn in the early mornings, looped carelessly around her neck when the cold clung to the air. She must’ve left it here the last time she snuck in to wake him for a ride. Or maybe the night they’d fallen asleep talking, shoulder to shoulder, when neither of them could stand camp’s noise.

He stared at it like it might vanish.

But it didn’t.

It sat there—innocent, unknowing, hers .

He reached for it with hesitant fingers, then paused. His hand hovered for a moment before he finally picked it up.

The fabric was soft. Worn. Still held her scent—leather and smoke and a faint sweetness he couldn’t name.

His jaw clenched again.

And just like that, the ache cracked beneath the anger.

He stood quickly, fists tightening around the scarf until the fabric trembled in his grip, and shoved it deep into the back of his saddlebag. Out of sight.

Out of mind.

He wouldn’t throw it away.

But he couldn’t look at it either.

He sat again, resting his elbows on his knees once more, and stared into the darkness, eyes hollow.

“Lied to me…” he muttered to himself, his voice low, like saying it aloud might make it more real.

He stayed there for a long time.

Not thinking.

Not feeling.

Just… breathing.

Like a man trying to remember what it feels like to trust someone—and wishing to hell he’d never forgotten how dangerous that could be.

 


 

Camp fell into a strange kind of hush the moment Jo was gone.

No shouting. No gunfire. No galloping hooves.

But the air… the air felt like it had just survived a lightning strike. Charged. Shaken. Waiting.

The fire crackled in the center of camp, casting long shadows across the wagons and tents. Someone had stirred the coals but forgotten to add more wood. It burned low and mean. Like everything else.

Mary-Beth sat at the edge of her cot, clutching her journal to her chest like a shield. Her eyes, wide and wet, kept flicking between the trail Jo disappeared down and the path Arthur took back to his tent. She said nothing, but her knuckles were white where they held the leather cover tight.

Karen took a swig from her bottle—then another. The whiskey bit harder than it should’ve, but she barely winced. She didn’t say Jo’s name out loud, but her lips moved around it silently, like a ghost she didn’t want to call too loud for fear it might come back.

Across the fire, Susan grimaced and folded her arms tightly. Her jaw was set hard, her eyes on the flames. She’d heard the name Sarah Wightman loud and clear. So had everyone. And now she was turning it over in her mind, weighing it like scales only she could see. Betrayal or survival? A threat to the gang, or just another soul running from something worse?

“You ask me, she was always a little too secretive,” Bill muttered, loud enough for someone to hear. No one replied. Not even Javier, who stood nearby with a look of tight discomfort wrinkling his brow. He hadn’t spoken a word since Micah’s reveal. And he sure as hell wasn’t going to defend Jo—not with Dutch still deep in his own thoughts.

Micah, of course, leaned against a post with a smug tilt to his jaw, puffing on a cigarette like he’d just won a prize fight.

“Told y’all,” he drawled under his breath, but he didn’t push it. Not tonight. Not with Arthur storming around like a powder keg looking for a match. Micah would let the silence work in his favor for now. Let them stew.

Tilly stood at the edge of the firelight, her arms crossed over her chest. Her face was unreadable, but her eyes kept flicking toward Arthur’s tent, then toward the dark where Jo had vanished. She looked torn—like a woman caught between two compass points, neither one pointing home.

“She ain’t no monster,” Tilly finally said, voice low. “Not the way you think.”

Abigail looked up sharply from where she was helping Jack into bed. “She lied , Tilly,” she said, not unkind, but tired. “She lied to all of us.”

Tilly didn’t flinch. “Yeah. So have we.”

That shut Abigail up. She lowered her gaze and smoothed Jack’s blanket with one hand.

Charles stood near the horses, watching the trail Jo had taken long after she was gone. His arms were folded across his chest, body still. Quiet. But his silence wasn’t judgment. It was reflection.

“She protected us more than she hurt us,” he murmured under his breath. “Whatever she was before... it doesn’t erase who she was here.”

He looked toward Arthur’s tent, but didn’t go after him. 

Dutch stood alone at the edge of the fire, his coat drawn tight around him. His gaze was on the stars—but he wasn’t seeing them.

His mind was elsewhere.

Deep in the fog.

Calculating.

Jo’s secret hadn’t just unraveled her—it had shaken the roots of the gang. Another crack in the foundation. Another hole in the plan.

Another reason he was losing control.

He didn’t say a word. Just turned and walked into the shadows without a sound.

And then, silence again.

The camp slept uneasily that night. Some out of guilt. Some out of grief. Some—like Micah—slept easy with their work done.

But no one forgot.

The name Sarah Wightman still echoed, even in dreams.

 


 

The trees blurred past her.

Branches whipped at her arms, her face, but Jo didn’t flinch. Didn’t slow. The cold bit at her skin, but it couldn’t cut deeper than the rage tearing her apart from the inside out.

Laramie kept pace beneath her, hooves pounding the earth in a steady, powerful rhythm. The mare didn’t hesitate. Didn’t question. She followed her rider like a shadow follows fire—close, silent, and sure. Even when that fire was burning out of control.

Jo’s teeth were clenched so tight her jaw ached. Her fists gripped the reins until her knuckles went white.

She didn’t know where she was going.

She didn’t care.

She just needed to move . Needed to run . Needed to escape the gnawing thing in her chest that wouldn’t stop screaming.

And yet, no matter how fast she rode, she couldn’t outrun the truth echoing in her skull.

You lied. You waited. You knew this day would come. And you let it. You let it.

Arthur’s face kept flashing in her mind.

The look he’d given her—like she wasn’t even someone he recognized anymore. Like she was a stranger in his world. Like she’d chosen to be.

“You think I wanted this?” she hissed aloud, to no one. To herself. To the dark.

But she had no answer.

Only the fire.

The pain.

And the memory of a voice that would never answer again.

Ben.

The name hit her like a blow to the ribs.

Her throat tightened, and her grip slackened just a little on the reins.

Ben.

Her childhood friend. Her shield when she didn’t deserve one. Her lifeline to a past that had already drowned.

He had known enough of her truth. More than anyone else ever would. And still, he’d stood beside her.

He died for it.

Because of her.

Because of what she’d brought down on both of them.

Because she hadn’t warned him.

Hadn’t left soon enough.

Hadn’t told him that the hunter on her trail wasn’t just any bounty man—but a killer with a face like ice and a heart like stone. A man who hunted for the thrill of it. Who didn’t just take names, but left bodies.

Jo’s throat burned.

Her eyes stung, but she didn’t cry. Not now.

Not like this.

“What would you say to me now, huh?” she muttered through clenched teeth, chest heaving as she slowed Laramie just enough to breathe.

She imagined his voice, soft and dry like the Wyoming wind.

"You're doing it again, Jo. Letting it eat you up."

She squeezed her eyes shut.

"He took you from me, Jo. Not the other way around. And I’d do it again. I’d give my life to protect you. You were worth it."

A sob broke from her throat—but it curled up and died before it reached her lips.

She couldn’t afford tears.

Not anymore.

Her hand slid to the pocket inside her coat.

Fingers brushed against the folded, weather-worn piece of paper she still kept there. A torn sketch Ben had drawn—her, sitting by a fire, eyes closed, safe.

He’d told her to keep it.

So she’d remember there was good in her. Even when she couldn’t see it.

But that image was burned away now.

All she saw was red.

All she saw was the face of the man who’d pulled the trigger.

The one who had ripped Ben from her world with no warning. No mercy.

And Micah—fucking Micah —had smiled when he talked about it. Had known . Had let her carry that grief like it didn’t mean a damn thing.

Jo’s lips peeled back in a snarl. Her heart thudded like a war drum.

“You want a monster, Arthur?” she spat bitterly into the night, her voice cracking. “Fine.”

She yanked Laramie’s reins, steering the mare off the trail and toward the rocky ridge she knew would lead her north. Toward where they’d last tracked the bounty hunters who had chased her and Ben. One had escaped.

Not for long.

She was done running.

She was done hiding.

If this was who they thought she was—if this was who she’d become—then so be it.

Let them be afraid.

Let the bastard who pulled the trigger know what it felt like to be hunted.

“I’m coming for you,” she growled under her breath.

And this time, there’d be no second chances.

Only blood.

Since leaving the camp, she’d taken nothing—no pack, no coat, not even a damn can of food. Just the clothes on her back, the knife at her hip, the guns in her belt, and Laramie’s steady breath beneath her legs. The world had narrowed to those three things: the chill in her bones, the rage in her chest, and the dark trail ahead.

The trail of the man who killed Ben.

The bastard didn’t even have a name. Not one she remembered, anyway. Just a face she’d glimpsed in blood-soaked flashes—tan coat, scar over one brow, gray-streaked beard. One of the bounty hunters who had tried killing her. The one who fired the shot.

The one who walked away while Ben bled out in the dirt.

She hadn’t forgotten a single detail of that night. Not the smell of gunpowder. Not the sound Ben made when he hit the ground. Not the look in his eyes when she realized he wouldn’t be getting back up. That look had followed her ever since.

Now she followed it.

 


 

On the first day the sun dipped low behind the pines as Jo rode northeast, Laramie’s hooves muffled against soft earth. She didn’t stop for food. Barely stopped to rest. Her body ached, but it didn’t matter. Hunger gnawed at her belly, but she ignored it.

The bastard had passed through Van Horn, a drunk trader said, chewing on a pipe with too few teeth. “Scar over the eye? Yeah. Him and another fella headed up into Ambarino. Looked like bounty boys, but meaner. One had a limp.”

Jo hadn’t said a word to the man. Just turned, climbed onto Laramie, and rode north.

On the third day the rain came hard and cold.

Jo huddled beneath a pine tree, her jacket soaked through, hands raw and trembling. She hadn’t lit a fire—couldn’t risk it. Couldn’t give that bastard even a whisper of a trail to follow back. She wasn’t here to be found. She was here to find.

Her stomach twisted, hollow and aching. She’d eaten once—a chunk of rabbit she managed to trap and half-cook with a few damp twigs.

But she didn’t care.

The cold didn’t matter. The hunger didn’t matter.

Only the hunt.

And the ghost of Ben beside her, silent and constant.

What would he say now?

Would he be proud? Would he stop her?

He’d always been the better one. The calmer voice. The reason she didn’t lose herself completely back then, all those years ago. And now he was gone.

Jo closed her eyes tight.

She could still hear him breathing beside her, bleeding out in the dark.

If that bastard had just walked away—

She gritted her teeth until her jaw throbbed.

On the fifth day she spotted them just past Window Rock.

Two men, sitting by a riverbend fire. One with a limp.

The other—the one with the scar.

She stopped on a ridge above them, out of sight. Watched. Waited. Her heart thundered in her chest, loud enough she thought it might echo down into the valley. Rage burned through her veins, hot and unforgiving. Her hands trembled against the stock of her rifle.

She could kill him now.

One shot.

End it.

But it wouldn’t be enough.

She wanted to look him in the eye.

Wanted him to know why.

She made camp farther off that night, pacing more than sleeping. Laramie grazed in silence nearby, her dark coat ghostlike beneath the moonlight.

Jo sat on a log, legs wide, elbows resting on her knees, eyes fixed to the ground.

She thought of Ben again.

Thought of his laugh. The way he always nudged her shoulder when she got too quiet. The way he died saving her.

“You deserved better,” she whispered.

Her voice cracked. She swallowed hard.

Tears welled in her eyes, but she blinked them away. There’d be time for crying later. After.

Right now, there was only one thing left.

And tomorrow, it would end.

 


 

Gray mist drifted low between the trees on the seventh day, curling around the roots and trunks like ghosts reluctant to leave. The birds hadn’t begun their morning calls. Even the insects were still. The world felt suspended—held in place by Jo’s will alone.

She crouched in the brush above the campfire.

Same two men.

One still slept in a heap of blankets, a rifle tossed lazily beside him.

The other—the one with the limp—stood near the fire, stoking the embers, cursing softly to himself as he tried to coax the flames back to life. His breath plumed in the cold air.

He had no idea death was watching him.

Jo adjusted the grip on her knife.

She could’ve shot him from the ridge. Could’ve picked them both off easy. But there was something in her that needed to be close. To hear it. To feel it. The kill had to be personal.

Laramie waited tied a ways back, just out of sight. Jo had whispered thanks to the mare before she crept down, leaving her rifle behind. She wouldn’t need it for the first one.

Just the blade.

She moved like water. Smooth, silent.

A fox couldn’t have heard her.

The man turned his back.

She slipped from the trees.

One step. Then another. Closer.

Her shadow fell on the dirt behind him—but by the time he sensed her presence, it was already too late.

He began to turn.

Jo lunged.

One hand clamped over his mouth.

The knife found his kidney first, driving deep and up, tearing muscle, scraping bone.

He thrashed, but she twisted, hard, pushing his weight forward. He dropped the stick he’d been holding. She didn’t let him scream.

He struggled, gurgled.

She stabbed again. Higher. Just beneath the ribs.

His knees buckled.

She lowered him slow, as if laying down a child. Breath wheezing, eyes wide with shock and terror.

Jo stood and, without hesitation, slid the knife across his throat.

Warm blood sprayed her knuckles.

Then silence.

Complete.

She stood there for a long moment, heart hammering, chest heaving, staring at the body.

Then slowly—mechanically—she wiped the blade on his coat.

One down.

The second man— him —was still asleep.

The bastard who pulled the trigger. Who shot Ben and didn’t even flinch.

He lay stretched on his side, mouth slack, snoring through his nose. His rifle was within reach, but his hands were tucked beneath the bedroll.

Jo stepped over the body of his partner without a glance.

This one she wanted to see wake up.

She crouched beside him, knife still gripped tight, her other hand curling around the barrel of his rifle and dragging it slowly, silently out of his reach.

Then she pressed the tip of the knife to the soft part beneath his jaw.

“Wake up.”

His eyes blinked open in confusion.

Then widened.

He made to lurch—but Jo shoved the blade a fraction deeper, enough to nick the skin. A thin line of red welled up.

“Don’t,” she hissed.

He froze.

“Where’s Hank?” he croaked.

Jo smiled coldly. “He’s quiet now.”

His jaw clenched. She could see the wheels turning behind his eyes—calculations, plans. She tightened her grip.

“You remember a boy named Ben?”

He didn’t answer.

“You should. He bled out on the ground while you watched.”

She let the name sit there between them like a stone.

Then slowly, she removed the blade.

He bolted up.

Too slow.

Jo drove her boot into his ribs. He shouted, rolled, scrambled for something—anything.

But his gun was gone.

Jo tackled him. They hit the ground hard, rolling through the dirt. He punched wildly, caught her once in the shoulder. She slammed her elbow into his face. Blood burst from his nose.

“You killed him!” she shouted.

He kicked her off, tried to reach for the knife she dropped.

She grabbed a rock. Brought it down on his hand. Crack.

He screamed.

She straddled him, pinned his arms, her face inches from his.

“You shot him like he was nothin’,” she snarled, spitting the words like venom. “Didn’t even look back.”

“Bounty was on you ,” he wheezed. “He got in the way.”

Jo’s hand clenched the rock tighter.

“He was my friend. He saved my goddamn life.”

And she drove the rock into his face.

Once.

Twice.

A third time.

Blood exploded beneath her fist. Bone cracked. He shrieked, struggling, but Jo didn’t stop.

All the pain. All the guilt. All the rage she’d buried since that night—came pouring out.

Her fists were bruised, trembling with rage. Her breath steamed in the cold air as she hovered above him, wild-eyed, with the rock still gripped in her hand. His face was battered, bloodied—one eye swollen shut, jaw likely cracked. He coughed and wheezed beneath her, spitting blood to the side, the copper sting of it thick in the air.

She lifted the rock again. He didn’t flinch.

Didn’t beg.

He just waited.

“Go on then,” he rasped, voice hoarse. “Do it. Ain’t like I don’t deserve it.”

Her hand didn’t move.

Her chest heaved, fury still boiling in her gut—but the longer she stared at him, the more something twisted inside her. Not softer. But tangled. Conflicted.

The man coughed again. “He told me to run,” he said suddenly.

Jo froze.

“Ben. After I shot him.” He shut his good eye, wincing as blood ran down from his brow into the hollows of his cheek. “He didn’t go down clean. He—he talked to me. Said to get out. That you’d come.”

Jo’s heart thudded hard.

“You expect me to care? ” she bit, but her voice wavered. “You expect me to believe that?”

“I didn’t mean to kill him.”

“Bullshit.”

“I didn’t,” he barked, then winced hard, clutching his side. “He jumped in the way. I was aiming for you. I had orders. He wasn’t even supposed to be there.”

Jo shoved the rock harder into his chest. “Then why shoot?!”

“I panicked! You were right there! ” he coughed, eyes watering. “I was just tryin’ to get paid, girl. That’s all it was.”

He turned his head away, as if ashamed.

“I buried him,” he said after a long pause. “Right by the riverbank. Laid his coat over him. I didn’t just leave him like garbage. He was a good man.”

Jo blinked fast.

Something cracked in her. Not her resolve—but the certainty.

“…Where?” she whispered.

He gestured weakly with his hand toward the ridge. “Half a mile north of Doyle’s. By the two trees near the drop.”

She stared down at him for a long, bitter moment.

Her hand ached from gripping the rock so tightly.

She raised it again.

The man closed his eyes.

Waited for the end.

But it didn’t come.

Instead, the rock dropped from her hand and hit the ground beside him with a dull thud.

He opened one eye, confused.

Jo’s arms fell limp at her sides, her breath shaky.

“I ain’t you,” she said quietly.

His lips parted, speechless.

“I should kill you,” she muttered. “For what you did. For what you took from me.”

She stood, wiped her bloody hands on her coat, then looked down at him. “But you buried him. You mourned him. That’s more than I expected from scum like you.”

He coughed. “You ain’t gonna tell me to run?”

Jo turned to leave. “If I see you again, I won’t ask questions.”

He lay back, exhaling, maybe in disbelief. Maybe in relief. “You’re not like him, y’know.”

She paused. “Like who?”

“…The one who sold you out. He didn’t even flinch.”

Jo turned sharply.

“…What?”

He winced. “You think I just found you outside that tavern?” he said. “Hell no. We was pointed straight to you.”

Jo’s heart stopped.

He looked at her, jaw trembling. “Guy named Micah. That ring any bells?”

Her blood went ice-cold.

“He gave us your route. Told us where you and the other fella would be that night. Said you were worth more alive than dead. That Pinkertons’d pay heavy for you.”

Jo’s knees nearly gave out.

“You’re lying,” she whispered. “Micah wouldn’t…”

Wouldn’t what? Betray them?

Of course he would.

She swallowed hard.

“He was supposed to meet ‘em tomorrow,” the man added, coughing again. “Pinkertons. In Van Horn. Noon. Don’t know what he’s got planned, but… sounded big.”

Jo stared at him.

Every fiber of her body begged for it.
To turn back.
To put a bullet between his eyes.
To end it clean and simple and righteous.

Her fingers twitched at her sides, aching to draw, to do something—anything—to silence the chaos inside her. The ghosts, the rage, the grief. All of it boiled beneath her skin like wildfire.

But instead… she turned.

The man, slumped against the damp bark of a crooked pine, narrowed his eyes. “What’re you doin’?” he rasped, blood and disbelief thick in his throat.

Jo didn’t look back. Her voice cut through the hush of the woods, low and seething.
“What I should’ve done from the goddamn start.”

She strode toward Laramie, boots crunching through the frostbitten underbrush, the wind tugging at her coat like it wanted her to stay. Like it knew what was coming next.

Without hesitation, she mounted up, swinging into the saddle like she’d been born for war. Her eyes fixed dead ahead, the dawn mist curling around her like ghosts parting to clear a path.

“I’m gonna kill him,” she hissed, more to herself than anyone else. “I’m gonna fucking kill him.”

The mare snorted, as if she understood.

And then she was gone—thundering into the fog, a shadow swallowed by the pale morning light.

Behind her, the man watched from where he lay slumped against the earth, breath shallow, heart hammering with disbelief.

He had expected death.
Welcomed it.
Deserved it.

But Jo Harper was not a killer by nature.

She was something far worse—for the likes of him.

She was a mirror.
And he would live with what he saw staring back.

Chapter 41: Where It Ends

Notes:

I’m… so sorry. But also not.
This chapter changes everything—and trust me, it had to happen. We’re heading into deeper, messier territory now, and I’m so excited (and terrified) for you to see what’s next. Hold on tight. 💔

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

It had been a week since she left.

A week since her past came roaring out of Micah’s filthy mouth like poison in the air— Sarah Wightman, a name no one knew, a past none of them could guess. Wanted for murder, for robbery, for god-knows-what else. A ghost in plain sight, hiding behind steel eyes and a sharp tongue. And all that time, she’d been right there. Jo. His Jo.

Arthur sat outside his tent, slouched forward with his elbows on his knees, cigarette barely lit between two fingers. Smoke curled in slow, lazy spirals toward the dead tree branches above. He hadn’t moved much in days. Not really. A few rides out to stretch his legs. A little firewood. The occasional task Dutch barked out like it still meant something. But otherwise, he was still. And silent. Watching the camp decay around him.

It wasn’t just her absence. It was what came with it. The rot.

Strauss had been the first to go. Arthur finally snapped after watching him push yet another sick, starving man for debt—some poor soul from Annesburg, skin and bones and nothing left to give. He dragged Strauss from his tent by the collar, threw him out into the muck, and told him not to come back.

Didn’t even raise his voice. He just couldn’t stand it anymore.

Swanson disappeared a few nights later. No note, no goodbyes. Just gone. Maybe he’d finally found some kind of peace. Or maybe he realized the peace was never going to come from following Dutch van der Linde.

And Dutch… he was worse than ever. Restless, loud, always scheming. Listening to Micah more than anyone now. And Micah—smirking, watching, always watching—was walking around like a man who knew he’d won something. Stirring up whispers behind tents, spitting poison into Dutch’s ear, throwing long glances at Arthur that made his blood boil.

Arthur didn’t say much anymore. Didn’t trust himself to.

He had stopped trying to convince the others to leave. That was her mission. Their mission. She was the one with the fire in her gut, dragging them all toward something better. Away from the madness. Now she was gone, and the flame with her.

And every time he thought about her—really let himself sit with it—he felt sick.

Twelve years.

He’d known her since she was sixteen, all skin and fury and too much pride to ask for help. He’d taught her how to shoot proper, how to track, how to move through the wild without being caught. He’d patched her up after fights. Pulled her out of trouble. Laughed with her. Fought with her. Trusted her. More than anyone, he’d trusted her.

And all that time… she’d been hiding.

She’d looked him in the eye, told him she loved him, swore she was his—and what? Had it all been a game? A performance? He didn’t know anymore. And that was the worst part. He couldn’t tell what was real and what was just survival.

Was anything real?

Someone passed behind him. Arthur didn’t look up. He didn’t care who it was.

The woods around Beaver Hollow had gone quiet. Like they were waiting for something. A shift in the wind. A crack of thunder. Something to tear this all down once and for all.

He took one last drag from the cigarette, then flicked the ashes into the mud. The sun was starting to slide lower in the sky, burning orange behind the trees. The world looked tired. So was he.

He leaned forward, elbows on knees again, staring into the dirt like it held answers.

She was gone. She’d lied. And maybe… maybe the worst of it was that he still missed her.

Not the lie. Not the secret.

Her.

The woods creaked softly in the breeze, birds rustling in the trees like they were settling in for the night. Arthur barely noticed them, nor the day’s passing. He hadn’t moved from his spot, boots planted in the mud, arms folded across his chest now. The cigarette was long gone. All he had left were his thoughts—and those weren’t doing him any favors.

Footsteps approached. Careful ones.

Arthur didn’t look up until the figure came into view. John.

The man looked tired. Not just the kind that sleep fixed. That heavy, bone-deep exhaustion that came from too many days pretending like things weren’t falling apart. His shirt was dusted with dirt, his hair unkempt like he hadn’t bothered to fix it. He scratched the side of his jaw with a sigh.

“You sittin’ here all day?” he asked quietly, like he wasn’t sure if he should even be speaking.

Arthur shrugged. “Ain’t much else worth doin’.”

John stayed standing for a second longer, then sat down on the log beside him. Not too close. Just enough that it meant something.

For a while, neither said a word.

John rubbed his palms together, restless. “I been tryin’ to remember stuff, y’know? Tryin’ to see if there was… anything. I mean, we grew up with her. Damn near my whole life’s been in this gang with her right there. Thought I knew her.”

Arthur let out a breath through his nose. “We all did.”

“I keep thinkin’ about back then,” he murmured. “First time I met her, she was… what? Seventeen? Had a busted lip and wouldn’t talk to nobody. Tried to punch me the first time I asked her name.”

Arthur grunted. “Yeah. I remember.”

“She scared the hell outta me. Still kinda does.” John looked over, smile faint. “But she never felt like… a stranger. Not really. Even when she was quiet. She stuck close, even if she didn’t say much. Loyal as hell.”

Arthur didn’t reply at first. He dragged off his cigarette and let the smoke fill the space between them. That loyalty— that’s what stung the most. Because he’d believed in it. Trusted it.

“So what happened?” John asked, quieter now. “To make her hide all this? That poster. Her real name. The murders. Did she really do all that?”

Arthur’s jaw tensed. “Wouldn’t put it past that bastard to lie,” he said after a pause. “But—hell, I dunno, John. That poster… it was her name. Her face. Real enough.”

He stared out at the trees. The light was starting to fall through the branches in long golden streaks, the way it always did when the day was giving up the fight.

John’s brow furrowed, thinking.

“I’ve seen those before, though,” he said. “Posters that say all kinda things that ain’t true. Hell, I had one say I was six-foot-three once.”

Arthur chuckled faintly. “You wish.”

They both went quiet again. The sun dipped lower behind the trees, casting long shadows through the hollow.

“She ever tell you about her past?”

Arthur shook his head. “Bits. Not much. Said she had reasons for leavin’ home. Never told me what they were. Guess I never pushed hard enough.” His voice was bitter. Regretful. “I wanted to trust her. She made it easy to… until it all caught up.”

John leaned forward, resting his arms on his thighs. “You think she did it? All that stuff Micah said?”

Arthur was quiet a long time.

“She don’t like talkin’ about where she came from. Always avoided it. But she’s not the kind to kill for fun. She’s cold sometimes—mean when she has to be—but that ain’t the same. She’s not like him .” He said that last word like a curse. “Micah’d burn the world just to watch it smoke.”

John gave a slow nod. “Maybe she ran from somethin’ she didn’t deserve. Lotta people do.”

Arthur looked at him.

“Hell,” John muttered, “maybe she just didn’t want to be seen as some broken thing. Didn’t want pity. Would’ve made sense, the way she acts.”

Arthur’s mouth pressed into a line. That sounded right. Too right.

She’d always been proud—fiercely so. Even when she was bleeding. Even when her hands shook. She didn’t let people see her cracks.

Maybe not even him.

He felt something twist in his chest.

“Think Hosea knew the whole truth?” John asked.

Arthur looked at him.

“If anybody did… it’d be him,” John said. “She trusted him. And he—he always had a way of knowin’ things.”

Arthur’s stomach twisted. He thought back to Saint Denis. Hosea’s body laid out, stiff and pale. And Jo… something had been off in her eyes even before it hit. He’d chalked it up to grief.

Maybe it had been something else.

“She said she was loyal,” Arthur said finally. “Said she was with us. I believed her.”

“Yeah,” John said, softer now. “Me too.”

The wind picked up a little, stirring the leaves.

“I don’t wanna believe it,” John admitted. “Not about her. Not like that.”

Arthur’s eyes darkened. “That’s the thing about this life. You think you know someone. Then one day, the ground gives out, and you start wonderin’ if any of it was ever real.”

“She looked at you different,” John said quietly. “Don’t think that was fake.”

Arthur looked away.

He didn’t answer.

“I ain’t ever seen her look scared,” Arthur said. “Not until that day. When he said her name out loud. ‘Sarah.’” The word felt strange on his tongue. “She looked like the world stopped turnin’. Like she thought she was gonna die right then and there.”

He glanced down at his hands. They were dirty. Stained. Just like always.

“Maybe I should’ve listened better. Should’ve trusted her more. But—” he stopped, throat thick.

“But you didn’t,” John finished for him.

Arthur didn’t answer.

They sat with that silence for a while. The kind that didn’t need words. The kind that came with history, and failure, and the ache of knowing you might’ve just let something good slip through your fingers because you couldn’t see past your own hurt.

Eventually, John stood. Brushed the dust from his trousers. “I should check on Abigail. She’s been keepin’ her distance from camp more and more lately.”

Arthur nodded without looking up.

John lingered a moment, then added, “For what it’s worth… I don’t think she meant to hurt you. I think she was just scared. Probably still is.”

Arthur looked out toward the trees. The trail. The dark beyond.

“Yeah,” he said, voice low. “Ain’t we all.”

John gave a small nod and walked off, the crunch of his boots fading with each step.

Arthur stayed there, the fire dying beside him. The breeze had picked up, cool against his skin. He didn’t shiver. Just stared out at the trees like maybe she’d come walking through them any second.

She wouldn’t.

The camp was quiet, except for the occasional murmur or cough from the others. Nobody talked much anymore. Not unless Dutch wanted something.

Arthur reached for another cigarette with fingers that felt slow. Mechanical. He lit it, drew deep, and let the smoke curl from his mouth like a sigh too heavy to speak.

He didn’t want to think.

So, of course, he did.

He thought of her .

The way she used to sit by the fire, arms crossed, chin lifted like she dared the world to try her. That sharp tongue and sharper stare. The way she softened only when she thought no one was watching—and how he always watched.

He thought of the mornings they’d ride out together, her coat whipping in the wind, laughter sudden and rare like a hawk breaking through fog. He thought of her touch, rough and hesitant at first, like she didn’t know how to be gentle. Like no one ever taught her.

He thought about that morning at Shady Belle, when she found the poster. Her brushing off the matter. The way she lied— again. Even then, some part of him had wanted to believe there was more to it. That she was scared, not cruel.

But she should’ve trusted him . Should’ve told him who she was. What she’d done. He would’ve listened.

Wouldn’t he?

Arthur dragged the smoke down to his lungs like it might burn the thoughts out of him. But it didn’t. They clung tight. Burrowed deep.

He scoffed bitterly and shook his head.

Mary.

She’d wanted him to change, to come with her. She’d tried to make him into someone he wasn’t. And when he said no, she walked away.

Jo.

She didn’t want him to change—she liked the rough edges, claimed to know him better than he knew himself. But she lied straight to his face. For years. Let him fall for her with a noose already tied.

“Guess I got a type,” he muttered, voice dry as dust. “Women who don’t stick.”

He leaned forward, elbows on his knees, staring at his boots. “Maybe it’s me,” he said to no one. “Maybe I’m just too far gone. Sour old bastard who don’t deserve nothin’ good.”

He let the words hang in the air. They sounded true. They felt true.

Ain’t like love ever stayed with him. Ain’t like he ever earned it.

He’d thought Jo was different. That for once, he’d found someone who understood . Someone who’d clawed through the same kind of hell and still looked at him like he was worth something.

But maybe she was just better at lying than the rest.

The breeze picked up. Cold. Sharp. Arthur didn’t move.

He thought about Hosea. About what John said—how Jo might’ve told the old man things she couldn’t tell anyone else. Hosea, who always saw too much and said too little. Who had taken Jo under his wing like a stray pup and never asked why she flinched when someone raised their voice.

Maybe he had known.

And maybe Hosea had understood.

Arthur pressed a hand to his face. He was so damn tired . Not just of the lies or the chaos. But of carrying all this weight that never seemed to go away. Every death, every failure, every word he never said—pressing down like a storm that wouldn’t break.

Jo had lied.

But she’d also fought beside him. Bled beside him. Stood up to Dutch when most were too scared to speak. She’d stayed when others ran. Risked her neck to save his.

Was that worth nothin’?

He didn’t know anymore.

The light dimmed. Orange turned to grey. Then blue. Then black.

Arthur stayed seated long after the sun was gone, smoke curling around his fingers, doubt thick in his chest.

Somewhere out there, she was alone.

And he didn’t know whether he wanted to find her…

…or forget she ever existed.

 


 

The ride from Ambarino had been hell.

Snow had turned to sleet, sleet to rain, then to dust and heat as she crossed into New Hanover without stopping. No camps. No sleep. No food worth the name. Just her and her horse beneath her—saddled in a hurry, lathered with sweat and grit. Every hoofbeat felt like the ticking of a fuse she couldn’t put out.

Jo didn’t stop to think.

She couldn’t. Thinking would only bring everything back. Ben’s wide, lifeless eyes. Hosea’s body, the blood. Arthur. The words that followed.

She hadn’t screamed. The pain sat somewhere low, locked behind her ribs like a blade shoved under the sternum. If she let it move, it’d cut everything open.

So she rode.

Dirt turned to mud, then gravel as the town’s ragged outline rose in the distance—Van Horn. A place that reeked of old smoke and fresh blood. Broken windows. Cracked stone. The railroad depot moaned somewhere to the west, and drunks laughed like devils in the alleys.

She didn’t hesitate. She slid off Laramie, tied her near the edge of the dock, and disappeared into the backstreets.

She needed a change of clothes.

The skirt she’d taken from that Saint Denis brothel after Colm’s death had long since been torn and muddied beyond repair. A joke of a disguise. Now it hung heavy on her hips, a symbol of everything she wasn’t. She couldn’t hunt Micah looking like a tired saloon girl.

She found an open window above a tailor’s, slipped in like smoke, and left with a pair of dark trousers, a rough canvas shirt, and a leather vest that smelled faintly of pipe smoke. She tore the sleeves off the shirt, pulled her hair back into a tight knot, and tied a dark cloth around her neck to cover the bruises Micah had left there weeks ago. Her revolver rode high on her hip. Her knife in her boot.

No longer prey. Not today.

She moved quickly through the side streets, staying to the shadows, her breath tight in her chest as she neared the base of the lighthouse. The stairs loomed like the spine of some giant beast, twisted and steep. Her legs ached from the ride, but she climbed.

One hand on the railing, the other gripping her rifle tight to her shoulder.

Step after step. No one followed.

At the top, the air shifted.

Wind rolled in off the Lannahechee, thick with salt and smoke. The view stretched wide—Van Horn spread below her like a dying animal. Lanterns flickered in the windows. Figures moved through the streets like ants under torchlight. Somewhere in the distance, a train screamed, iron teeth grinding steel.

Jo knelt behind the rusted rail, pulled her binoculars from the saddlebag, and began to scan.

Her jaw clenched tight. Eyes sharp. Focused.

Come on, you bastard… Show yourself…

She swept left—past the saloon where someone stumbled out onto the porch, piss drunk and cackling. Past the general store. The station. A flicker of motion by the warehouse. Too fast, too tall. Not him.

Her fingers tapped anxiously on the metal casing of the binoculars.

The man who told her about Micah—he’d been about to die. Didn’t have reason to lie. Said Micah had been seen heading toward Van Horn, making contact with strange men, strangers with polished boots and clipped accents. Pinkertons, she figured. Dutch didn’t know. None of them did.

Micah was planning something.

And she’d burn down the whole damn town to stop him.

Wind whipped at her face. Her breath steamed in the cold. She shifted position, scanning again—slow this time. Thorough. Every face. Every shadow.

There.

A tall figure ducking into the back of the saloon. Blonde hair under a wide-brimmed hat. The gait—cocky. Slow. Like the whole world was a show put on for him alone.

Her stomach dropped.

Micah.

She lowered the binoculars, heart hammering against her ribs like a drum of war. A rush of something hot and raw surged through her—fear, hate, adrenaline—she couldn’t name it. Could barely breathe around it.

He was here.

Not just alive.

But smug. Unbothered. Probably laughing with whoever he sold them out to.

And she was going to kill him.

The wind whipped around the Van Horn lighthouse, tugging strands of Jo’s hair loose from beneath her hat. She didn’t flinch. Her eyes were fixed through the binoculars, watching the wooden door of the saloon creak shut behind Micah Bell. He disappeared inside, swallowed by the dim light and crooked walls, but she didn’t move to follow. 

She crouched there, statue-still against the rusting rail, her breathing steady despite the roiling in her chest. From this high perch, the town looked like a painting half-finished—ugly smears of buildings, people milling with no real purpose, the train tracks bleeding westward like a scar across the land.

Minutes passed. Then an hour.

The lanterns in the saloon began to glow brighter with the settling dusk, and shadows thickened in the alleyways. A fight broke out somewhere down the main street, drawing a burst of shouting, and then silence again. Micah didn’t come out.

Jo waited.

She didn’t have to force patience. Patience was survival. It was how she’d lasted this long. Rushing got you killed. She’d learned that young—too young.

When the saloon door finally swung open again, she caught sight of that ratty, unmistakable silhouette: wide-legged gait, cocky lean, those revolvers hanging low on his hips like an invitation to hell. Micah tipped his hat to someone on the porch and whistled as he strolled toward his horse.

Jo tracked his every step with the binoculars. Two men followed him briefly—she clocked them as lackeys, not Pinkertons, not agents. Just hired muscle. They peeled off toward the docks. Micah mounted Baylock and didn’t rush. He lit a cigarette with all the time in the world, took a long drag, and then finally nudged the horse into motion. He headed west, casually, like he had no care in the goddamn world.

Jo didn’t move until his figure vanished behind the ridge past the tracks.

Only then did she straighten from her crouch. Her legs ached. Her hands had gone stiff with cold despite her gloves. But she didn’t feel any of it.

She descended the stairs two at a time, silent as a shadow, her boots barely scuffing the rusted metal. Once on the ground, she moved quickly and low, keeping to the alleys and fences, slipping between buildings like smoke. She reached Laramie, untied the reins, and gave the mare a firm, quiet stroke along the neck.

“Easy now,” she murmured.

She waited another minute, watching the trail Micah had taken. Then she mounted and turned Laramie onto it—not at a gallop, not even a trot. Just a steady, deliberate pace. Enough to let him gain some distance, enough to not get spotted.

Baylock left clear tracks in the dirt. Jo spotted them instantly.

She narrowed her eyes, leaning forward in the saddle. Baylock’s gait was distinct: heavy on the front right, a chipped edge to the hoof that veered slightly. Charles had taught her to pick up those signs, to look beyond just impressions in mud. To see the story in the prints.

And that story led west, not toward Beaver Hollow like she’d feared.

Micah was heading farther out—south, maybe even toward Ambarino again. 

Her stomach twisted. That wasn’t gang territory. That was wilderness. No one would stumble into an ambush out there. No witnesses. No help. If Micah knew she was coming, he’d chosen the ground.

She tugged her bandana tighter around her neck.

“Good,” she muttered under her breath. “Let him think he’s got the upper hand.”

The sun had begun its slow descent now, burning orange behind the trees as it dipped closer to the edge of the world. Shadows lengthened across the trail. The wind changed, cooler, wilder. Laramie snorted softly beneath her, alert, but not anxious.

Jo’s grip tightened on the reins.

She’d ridden this country before—long nights with Arthur beside her, both of them silent, heads low against the cold. She remembered laughter in the dark, whispered words, his hand brushing hers when they made camp. A thousand memories clung to the trees and the trail like ghosts.

Now it was just her. Just her and the trail Micah left behind.

But the silence of the hills gave her too much room to think.

It was strange, how betrayal didn’t feel like a clean cut. It festered, bled slow. It burned when you breathed, lingered in your ribs like a cracked bone.

Arthur…

His face wouldn’t leave her mind. That stunned look when Micah said her name— her real name —as if he hadn’t really believed it until then. Not when he found the poster. Not even when she lied straight to his face.

But that moment… the silence after Micah tossed her truth at her feet like a noose.

Arthur’s eyes had gone empty. Then cold.

He hadn’t shouted. He hadn’t asked. He’d just taken a step back, as if she were something rotten. Like she was Micah.

She clenched her jaw, guiding Laramie up a narrow slope cut between rock and pine. Her hands, steady on the reins, belied the shake inside her chest. That memory twisted there, worse than any knife.

But she couldn’t blame him. Not really.

She’d lied. For years. Lied about who she was, where she came from, why she ran. Lied to the only people who ever called her family. Lied to the only man she ever—

She swallowed the thought.

She didn’t deserve him. Not his trust, not his love, not even his anger. She’d had no right, ever, to want anything good. Not after what she did. What she had to do. Even if Hosea had forgiven her… he was gone now, and no one else knew. Not the truth. Only the blood Micah threw like dirt.

The woman she’d become with Arthur—the one who laughed beside him on long rides, who fought with him, trusted him, loved him—that wasn’t who she really was, was it?

Jo narrowed her eyes as the trail dipped into a shallow ravine, Baylock’s prints now scattered with older hoofmarks. She dismounted, crouching beside them, brushing her fingers through the dirt to feel the weight of them.

Fresh, she thought. Still wet. Not more than an hour ahead.

She rose and glanced up the ridgeline. The sun hung low in the west, dipping behind a bank of copper clouds. The wind was colder now. Sharper.

She mounted again, pressing her legs to Laramie’s flanks. The mare surged forward, nimble even across the uneven terrain.

They climbed higher. Pines closed around them, and the world grew quiet. A hawk wheeled overhead. Somewhere in the distance, thunder grumbled over the mountains.

Jo tightened her coat. Her thoughts turned again, unwelcome but relentless, to Arthur. To that night after Colm’s ambush, when they sat beneath the stars, both bruised and bloody, clinging to something real. The way he looked at her—not like a monster or a ghost—but like someone worth saving.

That night felt far away now. Like it happened to someone else. Some other woman, not the one riding up these darkening hills, chasing death.

You ruin everything, she told herself. You touch something good and it dies.

She almost laughed. Hosea. Ben. Her mother. Arthur. All gone, or slipping away, and somehow Micah still breathed.

But not for much longer.

Her hands clenched the reins tighter.

Not after tonight.

Not after all he’d done.

And if it killed her—so be it.

The trail curled upward again, toward jagged ridges rimmed in gold light. A flock of birds startled from the trees ahead.

The trail twisted through the rocks like a serpent, narrowing with every step Laramie took. Pines swayed in the thinning air, their branches clawing at the sky. Jo leaned forward in the saddle, eyes sweeping the ground. The hoofprints were still there—clear, purposeful—but something about them had changed.

They stopped.

No warning. No sign of a turn. No descent. No gallop.

Just… gone.

Jo pulled on the reins, slowing Laramie to a halt. Her brows drew together in a tight line as she scanned the trail ahead. A rocky ledge jutted out above the path to her right, half-shrouded in pine needles and loose gravel. The air hung heavy. Still. Too still.

Something inside her twisted.

She reached, slow and sure, for her revolver at her hip—

A rustle—too close.

Then weight.

Crushing, sudden, violent.

A blur of motion—grit, limbs, bark snapping—

A roar in her ears as she was ripped from the saddle and sent sprawling, her revolver yanked from her hand and flying into the dust. Her shoulder slammed into the rocky earth, her breath torn from her lungs. Laramie shrieked, bolted, hooves skidding on stone as she vanished around the bend.

Jo rolled onto her back just as a boot landed hard in her ribs. She grunted, coughing, instincts screaming as she raised her arms in time to block the next blow.

Then she saw his face.

Micah.

Smiling that sick, crooked smile that made her stomach churn.

“Well, well,” he growled, leaning over her like a vulture. “Ain’t you a stubborn little thing.”

She spat blood at his boot. “Takes one to know one.”

He didn’t laugh.

Instead, he lunged again.

They collided, bodies slamming into rock and dirt, fists flying. She struck first, a knuckle-bursting blow to his jaw that turned his head, but he came back with a savage elbow to her temple that blurred her vision. They rolled in the dust, legs tangling, dirt flying into the air as pine needles and pebbles scraped skin raw.

Grunts filled the narrow trail—raw, animal sounds.

She clawed for purchase, tried to twist free, but he pinned her again, a hand locking around her throat.

“You been a goddamn thorn in my side since day one,” he hissed. “Could’ve just stayed quiet, y’know that? Could’ve kept your little lies buried like they belonged.”

Her fingers scrambled at the earth beside her, desperate to reach anything—stone, stick, gun—but nothing met her grip.

“You shoulda died with that old man, Hosea,” he seethed. “Woulda saved us all some trouble.”

Jo’s eyes burned, rage and fear surging like fire through her veins. She bucked beneath him, shoving a knee into his side hard enough to knock the breath from his lungs. He reeled back with a bark of pain, and she surged forward, slamming into him with the full weight of her fury.

They rolled again, a tumble of limbs and snarls, striking with fists and elbows, blood slicking their skin. She caught him under the eye, split the skin—he roared, slammed her back.

Pain bloomed across her forehead as Jo drove her skull forward, slamming into Micah’s nose with all the force she could summon. The crack echoed across the trail, sharp and wet, followed by a strangled shout of pain from him and a throb that pulsed across her skull. Her vision went white at the edges—but she didn’t stop to wince.

She shoved.

Hard.

Micah toppled back with a howl, clutching his face, blood already dripping down his nose. Jo scrambled to her feet, slipping over loose rock and dry pine needles, ducking low as she darted for cover among the jagged outcroppings scattered along the slope.

The wind howled above them. Pine boughs twisted in the high air, casting flickering shadows across the ground. Jo crouched behind a narrow ridge of stone, one hand pressed to her temple, the other bracing her weight. Her revolver was lost somewhere down the hill, maybe unreachable. All she had now were her wits—and fury.

Behind her, she heard Micah spit, then laugh low and ugly.

“Damn, you hit like a mule,” he rasped, his voice echoing off the stone. She peeked around the edge of her cover just enough to catch him retrieving his revolver from the dirt, wiping the blood from his nose with the back of his hand.

“You always were more trouble than you were worth,” he went on, stalking forward with his gun raised, slow and deliberate. “Pinkertons said they’d pay me double to take you out. Said you were a loose thread, a liability. Hell, I told ’em I’d do it for free.”

He fired.

The shot cracked just above her head, kicking up a shower of stone chips.

She gasped, ducked, and scrambled to the next rock. Her boots slipped, but she kept moving, weaving through the terrain like a hunted animal, heart slamming against her ribs.

“You’re a slippery little bitch, ain’t ya?” he taunted. “Should’ve finished you off weeks ago.”

Micah laughed again, cold and gleeful.

“You think anyone’s gonna miss you?” he called. “A liar, a killer, a goddamn rat with a new name. Dutch won’t. Bill won’t. Hell, even Morgan looked like he’d seen a ghost when you opened your pretty little mouth back there.”

She gritted her teeth, crouched behind another stone as he stalked nearer.

Micah’s voice rang out from the rocks above, smug and cruel. He’d paused to reload, and now he was making sport of it. Cat playing with the mouse.

“Y’know,” he called out, “you always thought you were smarter’n me. But I played you both like fiddles. Arthur... you… all of ’em.”

A pause. A scrape of his boot as he shifted positions.

“You wanna know my plan?” he sneered, voice low but echoing just enough to reach her. “Clean slate. That’s all I ever wanted. Start fresh, somewhere warm, somewhere free. But to do that, I needed leverage.”

Jo’s heartbeat pounded in her ears, but she didn’t dare move.

“So I figured, why not hand Dutch and his merry little band of outlaws over to the Pinkertons? Give ’em the whole damn gang, wrapped in a bow.”

He fired again — a shot that cracked stone inches from her elbow. She flinched, scrambling to another rock.

“But Morgan? He was a problem. Too strong. Too loyal. Could smell shit a mile off. So I had to knock him off his high horse.”

Another shot. Another near miss.

“And what better way to break a man… than to tear out the thing he loves most?”

Jo froze.

“I tell him what you are — what you were — and boom. The trust’s gone. His world’s shaken. And you? All on your own. No protection. No more loyal cowboy to run cryin’ to.”

His voice dipped into a vicious snarl.

“Easy pickings.”

Another click. He was reloading again.

“But what I didn’t count on was your damn stubbornness,” he hissed. “You sniffed out my little arrangement in Saint Denis, didn’t you? Shoulda let that bounty hunter kill you. But now... now I gotta finish the job myself.”

Micah chuckled, low and cold.

“Once I’m done with you…” He paused to reload, metal clinking. “I’m gonna pay the golden boy a visit. Might as well clean house, yeah? See how much fight Morgan’s got left when he’s all alone.”

Jo didn’t think.

She moved .

A blur of motion—she sprang from the rocks with a cry torn straight from her chest, arms out, teeth bared.

Micah turned, too slow.

She collided with him full force, her shoulder slamming into his side. His gun flew from his grip, spinning off down the slope as they went crashing to the ground again. Fists flew, knees slammed, fingers clawed for holds. Dirt filled their mouths, blood smeared their skin, and the hillside echoed with the sound of flesh striking flesh.

“You’re not—touchin’ him,” Jo snarled, one arm locking around Micah’s throat. “Not after what you’ve done—”

He broke the hold with an elbow to her ribs, snarled, and slammed her back against a boulder.

“You can’t protect him,” he hissed. “You can’t even protect yourself.”

And then he struck again.

She didn’t know how she managed it—her head was spinning, her ribs ached, her arms felt like dead weight—but somehow, Jo twisted enough to reach down toward her boot. The leather strained beneath her shaking fingers as she yanked the hunting knife free.

Micah didn’t see it coming.

With a scream of fury, she drove the blade up into his side, deep and angled, just below the ribs. He choked on the air, stumbling, the breath torn from him in a ragged gasp. His eyes went wide, blood already soaking through his shirt. But he didn’t drop. Didn’t scream.

He grabbed her wrist instead.

"You bitch,” he hissed, and then—with the strength of a cornered animal—he surged forward and slammed her back down to the ground.

She barely had time to suck in air before his hand clamped around the handle of his own knife.

She tried to push him off, her strength faltering, arms trembling.

But the blade came anyway.

It punched into her stomach like fire, steel ripping through flesh. Her cry turned to a gurgled gasp—but it wasn’t over.

Micah leaned in.

Close.

Too close.

His bloodied mouth hovered by her ear as he twisted the knife.

“Does it hurt?” he whispered, breath hot and ragged. “Mmm… I bet it does.”

Jo’s scream cracked through the forest. Her fingers clawed at the dirt, her legs kicking weakly as the pain lanced through her in molten waves. Her body arched beneath him involuntarily, every nerve ending burning.

He lingered for a moment longer—pressing his weight into the wound, savoring it.

Then, slowly, he stood.

Not without effort. The stab she’d landed was deep—he groaned, favoring his right side, and leaned on her again as he rose, drawing another strangled cry from her lips. Blood ran hot down her sides, hers and his mixed in a grotesque tapestry in the dirt.

He didn’t even look her in the eye.

Just spat to the side, wiped his mouth with the back of his sleeve, and limped a few steps away, retrieving his revolver with a grunt.

"You think you’ve won, don’t you?" Jo rasped behind him, her voice a brittle shell of itself.

He paused.

She let out a weak, breathless laugh, one that cracked halfway through and turned to a cough. Blood filled her mouth. She tasted copper and dirt.

"You ain't," she said, blinking up at the sky as it spun above her. "You ain’t won nothing."

Micah didn’t answer. He just kept walking, limping heavily, his silhouette growing smaller against the graying pines.

Jo watched him go, her vision tunneling.

She exhaled—slow, shallow, trembling.

Her fingers slackened, falling to her side.

That was it.

She’d given everything. Her past, her secrets, her strength. Her blood.

Now there was nothing left.

Let the earth take her. Let the silence swallow her whole.

She was done.

Everything hurt.

She lay on her back, the sky above her pale and softening with the last light of day, bleeding gold and rose like some cruel mockery of peace. Her fingers twitched, red pooling beneath her like a shadow stretching out. Her breath came in gasps, shallow and rasping. The ground was cold beneath her, jagged rock digging into her spine, but she didn’t move.

She didn’t want to.

Micah was gone. Limping, but alive. She’d failed. Again.

Jo let her eyes drift shut, lashes fluttering as the agony pulsed in waves. A wet warmth soaked her shirt, thick and spreading. Her hand hovered briefly over the stab wound in her stomach, trembling, but she couldn’t bring herself to press against it anymore. There was no strength left in her. No will.

Maybe this was how it was meant to end. Lying on a rocky slope in the wilds, alone and broken. Maybe that was all someone like her deserved. A liar, a coward, a fool.

Arthur was gone. He had turned away. And she couldn’t even blame him for it.

A choked sound rose in her throat—half laugh, half sob—and then she coughed, tasting blood. Her vision blurred. She welcomed it.

Let go, Jo, something in her whispered. Just let it go.

But then—

“Don’t you dare.”

The voice wasn’t real. It couldn’t be. But it was his .

Ben.

“C’mon, Sarah. You still got some fight in you. You always did.”

Her lips parted in a shallow gasp, chest heaving. She saw him—just for a moment—his silhouette against the setting sun, leaning with that crooked grin, coat blowing in the breeze. That look in his eyes that always said I got you.

Her heart clenched.

Then came another voice. Her mother’s, soft as a lullaby.

“I didn’t carry you through fire for you to die on a mountain.”

Jo’s throat closed. A tear slipped from the corner of her eye, trailing down her blood-smeared cheek.

“You ain’t done yet,” came Hosea’s voice next, gruff but warm, like an ember refusing to die out. “You were meant for more than this.”

A tremor passed through her. A sob wracked her, low and painful.

And then—just past the ringing in her ears— a click.

Her eyes fluttered open. There, not ten feet away, half-lost in brush and dirt, the dull metal glint of her revolver.

Her gun.

Jo stared. Her pulse thudded slow and heavy.

She took in a shaky breath. The kind that burned.

With a groan, she turned. The wound screamed. Her vision darkened. But she grit her teeth and dragged herself onto her stomach, coughing blood into the dirt. Each movement felt like breaking bone.

Her fingers clawed forward. Her knee scraped against gravel. Inch by inch, she crawled. Her breath hitched. Her arms shook.

Ben’s voice echoed again.

“Attagirl.”

The barrel came closer. Her hand reached—her blood-streaked fingertips stretching—until she felt the cold metal bite into her palm.

Jo wrapped her fingers around it, her arm trembling from the effort. She rolled onto her side with a gasp, raising the gun with both hands. It shook violently, her vision swimming.

Micah hadn’t heard her. He was still limping away, maybe fifty feet off, favoring one leg, one arm pressed against his ribs. She could hear him cursing low under his breath. Probably thinking she was already dead.

She could barely see him through the haze. But she aimed.

Her hands wobbled. Her arms wanted to collapse.

But something inside her steadied. Not rage. Not revenge. Just… silence.

Acceptance.

“See you on the other side,” she whispered.

The echo of the shot rang through the valley, bouncing off the stone and trees like some ghostly chorus.

Far ahead, Micah stumbled mid-step.

The bullet caught him square in the chest — not his heart, but close enough. He froze, arms stiff at his sides. Then, like a marionette whose strings had been cut, he toppled forward. Face-first into the dirt with a dull, graceless thud.

He didn’t move.

Blood began to spread beneath him. Slow. Dark. Final.

Jo watched it all unfold, her hand still clenched tight around the revolver, her arms trembling violently from the effort. She stared at his fallen body with blurry eyes. The bastard was finally down. Finally quiet.

Like he deserved.

A breath she didn’t know she was holding left her in a shudder. Her fingers slipped from the gun, letting it fall into the dirt beside her with a dull clink. Her arm went limp, falling against her side. She didn’t fight it. Couldn’t.

Her head rolled back against the rocky earth as she turned to her back, the sky overhead now streaked with deep lavender and bruised blue. The sun had nearly disappeared. Only a sliver of gold kissed the horizon.

It was over.

Finally.

Micah was dead. She had seen to it. Not Arthur. Not Dutch. Her.

He would never hurt anyone again.

Her mouth twisted slightly, but it wasn’t quite a smile. It was exhaustion. Grief. Relief. Misery. All tangled into one choking silence.

And then the pain returned.

A hot, searing wave of it that pulsed through her side where the knife had sunk in. Adrenaline had kept it at bay, but now that it had fled, the agony returned like fire licking at her insides. Jo cried out, a raw, wounded sound that echoed up toward the hills. Her hands fluttered instinctively to the wound, but she didn’t press. Didn’t try to stop the bleeding.

What was the point?

Arthur had looked at her like she was poison.

Everyone else… was gone. Ben. Hosea. Her mother. Sean. Lenny.

She was alone.

And maybe that was how it was always meant to be.

Jo closed her eyes, long lashes casting shadows against blood-stained skin. Her chest rose and fell, slower now, like she was giving in to the earth beneath her. Her lips parted with a quiet sigh, breath fluttering out like smoke from a dying fire.

It was over.

And then—

A warm touch at her arm. Soft. Familiar.

Something nudged her gently.

Jo didn’t react at first.

Then again, firmer this time.

Her eyes fluttered open halfway, vision hazy with blood and tears.

Laramie.

Her black mare stood above her, nostrils flaring, warm breath huffing against Jo’s sleeve. Her glossy coat was streaked with dust, mane tangled from the chaos, but her dark eyes were wide with concern. She nuzzled Jo’s arm again, whinnying low, as if to say get up .

Jo’s lips parted. A strangled, broken sound left her. Not quite a word. Not quite a sob.

Laramie pressed her nose to Jo’s chest and stayed there.

Jo’s hand twitched.

But then her head lolled slightly to the side again, lashes falling closed. Her fingers went still.

The wind picked up through the rocks. High above, a hawk circled.

The mare stood protectively over her rider, refusing to leave. The last light of day washed over them both.

And Jo Harper lay silent in the blood-stained dirt, like a woman finally laid to rest.

Notes:

If you made it to the end—first of all, I love you. Second… I am sorry. This chapter was brutal to write and probably brutal to read, but it marks a huge turning point for the story.

Everything breaks here. And as much as it hurts, I’ve been waiting a long time to reach this moment. From here on out, the stakes are different, the truths are heavier, and things will never go back to how they were.

I’m so grateful to everyone still reading, commenting, and feeling all of this with me. You make the heartbreak worth it. 💛

Chapter 42: The Years Between

Notes:

Hi friends—guess who’s back (and married!!) 💍💛
I know I left you all dangling on a massive cliffhanger… and then vanished like a true villain. Life got a little wild in the best way possible, but I’m finally back, settled, and ready to dive back into the chaos with you.

Thank you for your patience and your comments—I missed this story so much, and I missed sharing it with you even more.

Let’s pick up right where we left off... 😈

Chapter Text

The air in the Great Plains smelled of dry grass and horses, of ash from the early morning stove fire, of cattle dung and fresh dirt turned up by the spring rains. The land was quiet now—too quiet, sometimes—but it was a different kind of quiet than the one John Marston used to know. Not the hunted kind. Not the one where you sleep with one eye open and your gun beside your bedroll. This was the kind that settled under your skin and didn’t go away. The kind that whispered you made it , even if it didn’t always feel like it.

The year was 1905.

John sat on the worn steps of the porch at Beecher’s Hope, a half-drunk mug of coffee cooling in his hand. The house behind him was sturdy now, finished and painted, the fence holding strong despite Jack’s occasional habit of kicking a ball too hard into the rails. The barn needed patching, the water pump creaked like a dying man every time it was used, and the roof leaked in the far corner of the kitchen, but it was theirs. Every nail and board. Every blister and callus. Abigail had insisted they build a home, and John—stubborn, restless, rootless as he once was—had followed through.

Not that it made him any better at the whole family man thing.

Inside, Jack was already at the kitchen table, head buried in one of those dusty books he always seemed to carry around lately. The boy hardly talked. Not in the way John wished he would. Abigail said it was just growing up—that he needed time. But John wasn’t blind. Jack had grown quiet over the years, distant. It was like there was a wall between them that John didn’t know how to tear down. Maybe it had always been there, and John had just been too wrapped up in the gang, in his own damn mistakes, to see it.

He tried. Hell, he really did. Fishing trips. Chores done together. Teaching him how to ride better, shoot straighter. But there was always that little pause, that gap of silence after Jack called him "sir" instead of "Pa."

Arthur had helped, in his own quiet way. He lived up in a cabin past the tree line, about a five-minute ride through the hills. Built it himself a year or two after they escaped the gang life. He kept to himself, mostly, but he’d come by sometimes, fix the barn hinges or bring Jack little carvings he whittled out of pinewood. Bears, birds, and once, a coyote with sharp teeth and careful eyes. Jack loved them, even if he never said it aloud. Sometimes John caught his son turning one over in his hand, like he was memorizing every edge.

Arthur didn’t talk much these days either.

Not since... well. Since her .

John never brought Jo up, not in front of Arthur. Not anymore. The man hadn’t said her name in years. After the shootout in the hills near Three Sisters, when Arthur had come back, he’d barely spoken a word. There’d been no body to bury—just blood on the rocks, a piece of her coat snagged on a branch, and a cliffside trail that ended in nothing but jagged stone below.

They searched for days. Weeks, even. But the truth settled in like the cold: she was gone.

And that was the end of it.

There’d been no great speech, no grave to mourn at. Just a quiet understanding between them all that she hadn’t made it out. Arthur never said what exactly he saw up there. He didn’t have to. Whatever took place between her and Micah, it left something broken in him—something that never healed.

Six years had passed since then.

Jo was dead. They all knew it, even if they rarely said it aloud. Some things were too painful to name. Like Hosea. Like Lenny. Like Sean. Like the gang they used to be, burned out and scattered to the wind. Sadie had ridden west. Charles went north. The rest either disappeared or ended up rotting in some shallow ditch. And Arthur—somehow—had stayed.

That alone had been a surprise.

He could have left, but instead he came with them—John, Abigail, Jack—like some part of him still wanted to believe there was something worth saving. And maybe there was. Arthur didn’t carry a gun anymore, not often, but he had a mean way of swinging an axe when the fence needed mending, and when he wasn’t working, he was carving. Beautiful things. Dangerous things. John once saw him carve a tiny likeness of a woman with long hair. Blonde. Then burn it in the fire.

The man never touched his journal again. John had found it once, by accident. Thick with dust. Untouched.

They’d made a kind of peace here on the edge of Blackwater’s reach, even if the world hadn’t completely let them go. Arthur was still wanted in parts of the state, so he never stepped foot in town. Never let anyone take his photograph. Kept to shadows like an old ghost.

And still, there were moments, in the dusk of late summer or the hush of snowfall in winter, when John would glance up toward the ridgeline where Arthur’s cabin sat, smoke curling from the chimney, and wonder if his old friend had finally found some quiet inside himself.

Because John hadn’t. Not really.

He had Abigail. He had Jack. He had a home. But the past was heavy. And it had a long reach.

John stood up from the porch and stretched the tightness from his shoulders, blinking into the rising sun. Somewhere behind the barn, he could hear the clatter of hooves and the low murmur of Arthur’s voice—talking to the horses again, probably. The man was more at ease with animals than most people. Had always been that way.

It was a strange thing, sharing this quiet life with a man who used to draw blood without blinking. But then, weren’t they all strange now? Different men than they were before. Or maybe just stripped down to the truth of who they’d always been.

John walked inside.

The kitchen was warm, the stove humming with heat from Abigail’s biscuits still cooling on a cloth. She was outside somewhere, probably hanging laundry or checking the garden she’d planted behind the house. She liked it best out there—said it kept her hands busy and her mind quiet. And truth be told, it suited her. There was a strength to Abigail that ran deeper than blood and grit. She held this place together. Always had.

Jack was at the table with his book open, one hand in his hair, the other holding a pencil he wasn’t using. He didn’t look up.

“Whatcha readin’?” John asked, keeping his tone light.

Jack shrugged. “Just a book.”

“Mm. One of them adventure ones?”

“Not really.”

John sighed and sat across from him. “You finish your chores?”

“I will.”

“Jack…”

“I said I will.”

There it was again—that short, flat tone. Not angry, just… tired. Distant. Like they weren’t even speaking the same language. John hated how easily it could get like this, how fast his own frustration could spark. But he swallowed it this time.

“Maybe later we can head to the creek,” he offered. “Do some fishin’. Just us.”

Jack glanced up, finally, eyes dark and unreadable. “If I’m not busy.”

And then he bent his head again and went back to pretending to read.

John let out a breath and leaned back in his chair, eyes drifting to the door. The truth was, he didn’t know how to be a father, not in the way he wished he did. He’d spent too many years chasing something else. Revenge. Redemption. A future he didn’t even believe in. And now here he was, with a roof over his head and a son who looked at him like he was a stranger.

Sometimes he caught Jack watching Arthur instead.

Those two had a rhythm John couldn’t quite break into. Arthur was patient, never forced conversation, never raised his voice. He just was , solid as stone, with a quiet calm that made Jack feel safe. Sometimes they’d go on walks in the woods near the cabin, Arthur pointing out birdcalls or animal tracks. One time Jack came home with a hand-carved wolf and wouldn’t put it down for days.

John didn’t resent it—not really. But it stung, somewhere deep down. Because Arthur had been there for Jack’s first words, his first steps, the first time he fell off a horse and scraped his knees. John hadn’t. He hadn’t known what the hell to do with any of it.

Behind him, the back door creaked open, and Abigail stepped inside, brushing dirt from her apron.

“Chores ain’t gonna do themselves,” she said, giving Jack a pointed look. Then she turned to John. “You heading into town later?”

“Probably,” he muttered. “Need to check on that plow order. Some of them boards on the barn gate are rottin’, too.”

“Well, take someone with you.”

“I’ll be fine.”

She raised an eyebrow. “You’re still wanted, John. Just ‘cause they ain’t come knockin’ don’t mean they forgot.”

He looked away. “Ain’t exactly a lot of options. Arthur won’t step foot near Blackwater.”

Her voice softened. “Then take Jack.”

John blinked. “He don’t wanna go.”

“Doesn’t matter. Might be good for you both.”

John didn’t answer. Abigail pressed a hand to his arm, squeezing just once before she moved past him to the stove. He watched her for a moment—this woman who’d stood beside him through hell and fire and blood—and then turned back toward Jack.

“Town trip,” he said. “You’re comin’.”

Jack’s head shot up. “Why?”

“‘Cause your mother said so, that’s why.”

Jack didn’t argue, but he didn’t agree either. He just closed the book, stood up slowly, and walked to the door like it weighed more than it should.

The sun had crested over the hills now, slanting golden light across the fields and the low white fencing John had built with his own hands. 

“You sure you don’t wanna come into town with me?” John asked, casual-like, though he already knew the answer.

Jack shook his head. “No, Pa. I got things to do.”

“You’re always doin’ things.” It came out sharper than John meant. He cleared his throat. “I just thought… I don’t know. Be nice. Just us.”

Jack looked up, uncertain. “Maybe next time.”

John nodded slowly, even as something in his chest tugged with disappointment. “Alright. You mind your Ma then.”

“I will.”

He reached over and gave the boy a light pat on the shoulder, but Jack barely reacted, already turning back to his book.

Out on the porch again, John let out a sigh and rubbed a hand over his face. The boy was like a ghost sometimes. Never angry, never rude—just… distant. Always had his head stuck in some story about knights or explorers or goddamn sea monsters.

John missed the days when Jack used to look at him like he hung the damn moon.

He finished off his coffee, set the mug on the rail, then headed around the house.

Arthur was just outside the barn, brushing down one of the mares. He looked up as John approached, giving a nod but not speaking right away.

“Mornin’,” John said, keeping it simple.

Arthur grunted in reply, then after a pause: “Abigail still makin’ you eat that burnt coffee?”

John smirked faintly. “Better than drinkin’ mud straight outta the creek.”

Arthur chuckled low under his breath. “Barely.”

They stood in silence for a moment—comfortable, for the most part. John glanced toward the hills in the distance. “Headin’ to town today. Need anything?”

Arthur shook his head. “No. Keep your hat down while you’re there.”

“You sound like her,” John muttered.

Arthur looked over. “She ain’t wrong. Blackwater’s still got long memories.”

John nodded once. “I’ll be quick.”

As he turned to leave, Arthur called after him—quiet, but not unkind. “Hey. He’ll come around.”

John froze for a half second, then turned back. “What?”

Arthur just gave him a look, eyes flicking toward the house behind them. “Jack. He’ll come around.”

John swallowed hard, the words hitting their mark in a way he didn’t expect. He gave a small nod. “Yeah. Hope so.”

With that, he headed toward the wagon, saddle creaking, reins in hand. Dust kicked up as the wheels rolled out onto the main path, toward Blackwater.

Behind him, Beecher’s Hope settled back into its quiet rhythm.

Arthur lingered after John left, watching the wagon disappear down the trail until the dust settled and nothing but the whisper of wind remained. The mare snorted softly beside him, leaning into the brush strokes with a lazy sort of comfort.

He scratched behind her ears. “Ain’t like he’s gonna get himself killed in Blackwater,” he muttered, mostly to himself. “Still wouldn’t hurt to wear that damn hat lower.”

The horse blinked at him like she agreed.

Once she was settled and turned back out to graze, Arthur wandered around to the small shed behind the barn. It wasn’t much—just some planks nailed together, leaning into itself like it might fall over if the wind got strong enough—but it housed his tools, his wood, and the little things he didn’t want seen.

Not that the Marstons ever pried.

He ducked inside, the smell of sawdust and pine hitting him like an old friend. His carving knife sat where he’d left it, laid out neat beside a chunk of juniper he’d been whittling down into something that might resemble a bird. Or a fox. He hadn’t decided yet.

He sat on the low stool, the wood creaking under him, and picked up the knife.

His hands were slower now. Not stiff, not yet—but time had a way of creeping in when you weren’t looking. The blade slid along the grain, soft and sure, and the quiet filled the space like a blanket. Out here, with nothing but the wind and the birds, he could almost forget everything.

Almost.

There were drawings in a box under the bench—old ones, yellowing around the edges. Horses, mostly. The occasional tree or mountain. A few rough sketches of people: Hosea, Dutch, John back when he was young and cocky. One of Abigail, holding Jack when he was barely old enough to walk.

And her.

He hadn’t looked at them in years. Couldn’t bring himself to.

He used to draw all the time. Used to write, too. Fill whole pages in that journal of his like it meant something. Now the thing just sat in the back of the drawer, spine worn, untouched. He didn’t need the words anymore. Didn’t want them. Not when most of the people in those pages were gone, or worse—memories too painful to carry every day.

Still, some mornings he caught himself reaching for it. Just a twitch of the hand. Just a habit.

But not today.

He carved until the sun got higher, shoulders hunched, eyes narrowed with focus. It helped, the carving. Gave his hands something to do, gave his mind somewhere else to go. The fox—or bird—was starting to take shape.

When he stepped outside again, the wind had picked up. He squinted against it, glancing back toward the house. Abigail was outside now, wringing out laundry on the line. Jack still hadn’t come out. Probably had his nose buried in one of those dime novels again.

Arthur tugged his hat lower and started toward his cabin.

It was tucked farther back from the house, past the barn and through a narrow stretch of trees. A man could disappear out here if he wanted to. And in a way, Arthur had. Folks in Blackwater didn’t know he was alive, and if they did, they hadn’t come looking in years.

He kept the place tidy. Simple. A cot, a small stove, a table with a lantern on it. The kind of space that didn’t ask much from a man, and didn’t give much back.

A fox carved from juniper sat on the shelf by the window.

Next to it—without his meaning to—was a broken piece of ribbon. Faded red. Frayed at the edges. The kind a woman might’ve tied in her hair once, years ago.

Arthur stared at it for a long moment.

Then turned away.

Evening came slow.

The kind of slow Arthur had grown to appreciate.

Back in the gang, everything was fast—rushed jobs, heated arguments, horses ridden hard through the night. But now the sun moved gentle across the sky, dragging long shadows over the ground as it went, and no one came screaming for him to saddle up or shoot his way out of trouble.

The only sound was the creak of the porch as he settled into the chair outside his cabin.

It was handmade, like most things around here. A little crooked, sure, but solid. It had a quiet rhythm to it when he rocked—back and forth, the old wood groaning like it remembered what it was to be a tree.

In his lap, he held a block of walnut wood and his carving knife. It was becoming a bear. Maybe. He wasn’t sure yet. The muzzle was too narrow, the paws too small—but it didn’t really matter. The point was the motion. The work. The shape rising slowly beneath his hands, something made from nothing.

A lantern glowed faint in the window beside him. The cabin behind him smelled like tobacco and leather and cedar. He hadn’t lit the stove yet, but he would soon—just enough to knock off the chill that crept in once the sun dipped low.

From across the way, he heard Jack’s voice drifting through the still air. Faint. Reading aloud to himself again.

“...and the outlaw stood over the canyon, eyes sharp, heart cold…”

Arthur smirked, barely.

“‘Course he did,” he muttered, whittling off another curl of wood. “Bet he didn’t need no damn help with fence posts, neither.”

He set the carving aside for a moment and looked out past the trees. The plains stretched wide and gold, rippling with the wind. The kind of open land he used to cross with a gang at his back and lawmen on his heels.

Sometimes he missed it.

Not the running, not the blood—but the ride . The freedom. The purpose . He missed Hosea’s voice in the morning, Dutch’s grand speeches before they’d all turned rotten. He missed Charles and Sadie. Hell, he even missed the campfire coffee that tasted like river mud and regret.

He missed her .

But he didn’t say that out loud. Not even to himself.

Instead, he leaned back and watched the sky shift from gold to rose to bruised purple.

A hawk wheeled overhead, silent and wide-winged.

At the edge of the woods, a deer stepped out, delicate and alert. It watched him. Arthur didn’t move. Just nodded, slow.

“Evenin’,” he said under his breath.

It twitched its ears, then moved on.

Later, he cooked himself a simple dinner—beans and salt pork—and ate in silence. He didn't light a second lantern. One was enough. The shadows didn’t bother him.

He read for a bit. An old book John had lent him about farming techniques that Arthur had no real use for, but he read it anyway. Mostly for something to do.

He set it aside when the words started swimming and stretched out on the bed. It creaked under his weight, familiar and worn.

The fox carving sat near the window. The ribbon beside it caught the lantern light just enough to glow.

He stared at it for a long moment. No thoughts, just that ache in the chest that didn’t go away even after six years.

She was gone.

He’d seen people die—he knew what it looked like. He’d seen blood that didn’t stop and wounds no doctor could patch. He’d held men while they bled out, faces twisted in pain, fear, peace. He’d seen death.

But he’d never seen her dead.

And some nights… that meant something .

Didn’t it?

He closed his eyes. The cot groaned as he turned onto his side, back to the light, hand under the pillow.

Outside, the wind picked up again, rustling through the trees. The night settled deep and quiet.

 


 

It was a warm day, even for spring.

Sun was sitting high over the Great Plains, baking the dry dirt into a fine grit that kicked up under hooves. The wind came steady from the west, carrying the smell of wild sage and distant water—Blackwater Lake, maybe, or just wishful thinking.

John tugged his hat lower against the sun and nudged the reins.

“Let’s get this over with,” he muttered to the mare beneath him. Rachel snorted like she agreed and picked up a steady trot.

Beecher’s Hope sat behind him, all open land and hard-won peace. He didn’t look back. Didn’t need to. He could picture it clear as day: the outline of the ranch house, the unfinished fence Arthur was patching up lately, the dog half-asleep on the porch, Jack somewhere inside with his nose buried in a dime novel.

Jack hadn’t wanted to come.

Said he was “busy reading.”

John didn’t press him. Didn’t have the heart. Didn’t like the way it felt, though—leaving without so much as a goodbye. The boy barely looked up when John left the house. Like he’d rather be anywhere else. With anyone else.

Made a man feel small.

But Blackwater couldn’t wait. They needed supplies. Posts, nails, new tack for the horses, cloth for Abigail to sew, and a goddamn replacement for the lantern Arthur broke last week. (He said it was an accident, but John had his doubts. Arthur never liked that thing.)

The road bent along a ridge, high enough for a view. In the distance, the town rose like a mirage—brick buildings, wooden storefronts, smoke drifting from chimneys. Busy. Noisy. Full of faces.

John hadn’t been there much. 

It’d changed some.

More rail lines now. Taller buildings. Even more lawmen. But most folks had either forgotten or stopped caring. Enough time had passed that John Marston could ride in without every goddamn bounty hunter in the county chasing after him. Still… he kept his hat low and his name quieter.

Didn’t hurt to be careful.

He passed a pair of riders on the road—a rancher and his son, maybe. Nodded once. Got a nod back. No recognition. Just another face, another man with errands to run. That was good. That was the point.

By the time he reached the outskirts of Blackwater, the sun was blinding off the rooftops, the smell of dust and tobacco thick in the air. Town was busy. Wagons loaded with hay rolled past him. Children played in the alleys. Women in fine dresses stepped from general stores and raised parasols against the heat.

He tied Rachel to a hitching post outside the hardware shop and gave her a pat.

“Won’t be long.”

Blackwater hadn’t changed as much as folks said. New facades, sure, and maybe more men in suits than there used to be, but underneath it was still a town built on money, sweat, and a fair bit of blood. The sidewalks creaked the same. The dust still clung to your boots no matter how careful you walked. And the looks—those hadn’t changed either. Some curious, some guarded. A few lingered too long. But none of them recognized him. That was good.

The hardware store was cooler inside, smelling of wood shavings and iron. A ceiling fan spun lazily overhead. The shopkeep was an older man with ink-stained fingers and a stiff way of moving, like he’d been hammering nails since the war. They spoke in brief sentences, just enough to get what John needed—wire fencing, a new axe handle, a crate of nails, and that damn lantern.

“Y’all settlin’ up a new place?” the man asked as he rung everything up.

“Somethin’ like that.”

The man nodded, didn’t press.

John left with his arms full of supplies, loaded everything into the cart and headed across the street to the general store for the next round. That one took longer—Abigail’s list was a mile long. Coffee beans, flour, matches, needles, more sugar than any family had a right to. He ticked things off slow, pausing now and then to glance out the window at the moving crowd.

He didn’t like towns. Never had. Even now, years removed from the gang, the noise still made him twitchy. Too many voices. Too many doors behind his back. Even in peace, he kept his gun on his hip and his back toward the wall.

When he stepped out onto the boardwalk again, squinting against the sun, he rolled his shoulders and adjusted his hat, ready to finish up and head back.

That’s when he saw her.

At first, it didn’t register. Just another passerby turning the corner up by the apothecary.

But something about her made him stop. Freeze.

She was facing away—hat tilted just enough to shield her face. Long blonde hair, tucked neatly beneath the brim. A dress hem trailing just past the heel of her boots. Nothing unusual.

Except…

His chest tightened. His pulse skipped.

She was still . Just for a second too long. One hand paused near the strap of her satchel. The wind caught her hair, lifting it faintly—and it shimmered gold in the light.

His mouth went dry.

That couldn’t be—

It wasn’t .

Couldn’t be.

She was dead. Or missing. Or—

She was gone.

That’s what he’d told himself all these years.

But his legs were already moving before his mind caught up. Off the wooden step, into the street, half-blind to the crowd around him. He didn’t even realize he’d left his bag of sugar on the stoop behind him.

He pushed between two men carrying crates, nearly bumped into a young woman and muttered an apology he didn’t mean. His eyes stayed locked on the figure ahead, threading through the crowd, every step echoing like a gunshot in his ears.

He called out.

Once.

“Ma’am—!”

She didn’t turn.

Didn’t even flinch.

She rounded the corner just ahead and vanished from view, swallowed up by the shifting street.

John picked up the pace, his boots slamming against the planks.

Around the corner.

Empty.

Just the open alley and a man unloading barrels, whistling low to himself.

She was gone.

Again.

He stood there a long moment, hands on his hips, breath tight in his chest like he’d run a damn mile. Sweat clung to the back of his shirt.

He wasn’t sure if he’d seen a ghost… or something far worse.

He stayed there in the alley for a minute, maybe two, just breathing. Listening. Hoping to hear her boots scuff the wooden boards again, hear her voice—low, sharp, always a step ahead of the rest.

But there was nothing.

The man unloading barrels glanced his way, gave a polite nod, and went back to work.

John turned, retraced his steps, slower now. Less sure.

He didn’t even know what he was looking for—just something . A glimpse of blonde hair in the light, a shadow slipping between buildings. Hell, he didn’t know if it was even her. That was the part that scared him the most.

He crossed the street again. Checked the corner store window. Walked past the post office and squinted into the dry goods shop. Paused outside the dressmaker’s like a damn fool until one of the seamstresses looked up and frowned at him.

He tipped his hat and moved on.

Up the hill toward the hotel. Down again past the livery. Through the narrow alley behind the newspaper office, heart beating like war drums in his ears.

Nothing.

At one point he stopped in the middle of the street and just stood there, palms on his hips, jaw clenched so tight it ached. He felt stupid . Like he was chasing ghosts. Abigail’d skin him alive if she knew he was out here running around like this—abandoning sugar and soap and kerosene because some stranger looked a little familiar from behind.

But it wasn’t just that.

It wasn’t just the hair or the shape of her shoulders or the way she walked—it was something deeper. Something gut-deep and wrong and right all at once. Something that grabbed him by the chest and wouldn’t let go.

He looked once more over his shoulder.

Still nothing.

The wind stirred faintly, carrying with it the low hum of town life. He swallowed hard, felt the tightness in his throat like he’d swallowed sand.

Eventually, he made his way back to Rachel, silent, mind fogged. The bags he’d already loaded sat in the cart, minus the one he’d left behind.

Didn’t matter.

He climbed into the seat and sat there for a second longer than usual, reins loose in his fingers. Then he turned her toward the open road, toward the distant ridge line, and home.

But the whole way back, he didn’t stop glancing over his shoulder.

 


 

The lantern on the nightstand burned low, casting a warm, honeyed glow across the wood-paneled walls. The windows were dark now, filled only with shadows and the occasional hoot of an owl from somewhere near the barn. The house had gone quiet hours ago—Jack was long asleep, and even the old wood had stopped creaking.

John lay on his back, one arm tucked behind his head, the other resting loosely across his chest. His boots were off, shirt slung over a chair in the corner, but rest hadn’t quite come easy tonight. His eyes traced the ceiling, following the soft flicker of firelight dancing in the wooden seams, thoughts miles away from the warm bed he lay in.

Abigail shifted beside him, propping herself up on one elbow. “You’re quiet.”

He blinked once, turned his head slightly toward her. “Just tired.”

She raised a brow. “That so?”

He didn’t answer right away. His jaw flexed once. Then again.

She studied him in the silence, eyes soft, tired, but knowing. “You didn’t get everythin’ from town.”

He gave a low grunt. “Didn’t feel like finishin’ the list.”

She smirked faintly, but it didn’t reach her eyes. “That ain’t like you.”

“No, I s’pose it ain’t.”

A beat passed between them. The ticking of the old clock downstairs filtered faintly up through the floorboards. He knew she could tell something was off. She always could.

She leaned her head against his shoulder, voice quieter now. “Is it Arthur?”

His throat tightened. He looked up at the ceiling again. “He’s just been… off lately.”

Abigail nodded slowly, her fingers tracing a slow circle against the fabric of his undershirt. “He’s been like that a while now.”

“He used to talk more,” John muttered. “Even when he didn’t have much to say. Now he just… don’t.”

“He lost a lot.”

“So did we.”

“Yeah,” she agreed softly, “but he lost more.”

John didn’t say anything to that. He didn’t need to. They both knew.

“He’s still here,” she added. “That’s gotta count for something.”

“Sometimes I wonder if he thinks he should be.”

The words slipped out before he could stop them. Abigail looked up at him again, concern etched deep into her face.

“Don’t say that.”

“I ain’t sayin’ I believe it. Just… I dunno.” He let out a slow breath. “He don’t go into town. Won’t go near the water. Sometimes I see him starin’ off like he’s back there, wherever there is.”

“You’re worried.”

“I just—” He hesitated, eyes dark. “He don’t say her name. Not once in all these years.”

Abigail didn’t answer. She lay back down, her hand still on his chest.

They both knew who he meant. They didn’t need to say it.

Outside, the wind rustled gently through the dry grass. A coyote yipped somewhere in the distance. John closed his eyes and exhaled slowly, trying to will the ghost of that blonde woman out of his mind.

But it stayed there.

Quiet. Familiar.
Just out of reach.

Abigail didn’t say anything for a while, her hand still resting gently on John’s chest. He could feel her thumb shift a little, the smallest twitch like she was thinking too hard, trying not to think too hard.

Then she spoke, voice low and flat. “I still think about her, too.”

John opened his eyes again, glanced toward her.

Abigail grimaced faintly, more in the mouth than the brow, like it was an old ache she didn’t want to prod too much. “She was my friend. And Jack loved her. Like an aunt,” she said, barely above a whisper. “He don’t remember much no more, but… I do.”

John shifted slightly, uncomfortable. Not because of the truth in her words, but because of how sharp it still felt.

“She was always patient with him,” Abigail went on, staring at the ceiling now too. “Talked to him like he mattered. Like he was smart. He needed that.”

John exhaled through his nose. “I remember.”

“She sat up all night once, readin’ to him when he was sick. Told me not to worry about it. Said she didn’t mind.”

He didn’t answer. Couldn’t. That memory was clear as day. That faint laugh of hers echoing through the old canvas, Jack curled in her lap, some old storybook open in her hands.

“It’s just…” Abigail’s voice faltered for a second. “Sometimes I still half-expect to see her come ridin’ up the path. Y’know? All beat up and dirty and mad about somethin’, but—breathin’. Laughin’ maybe. Somehow.”

John swallowed hard. His throat burned.

Abigail looked at him again, her expression unreadable in the dim light. “You ever feel like that?”

He didn’t answer right away. Then he nodded once.

“She should’ve made it,” Abigail said after a long pause. “Outta everyone... she should’ve.”

John’s jaw tensed, but he didn’t argue. Didn’t say much of anything.

He wrapped an arm around her shoulder then, drew her close, burying the conversation with the weight of his silence. Whatever he’d seen in town—whatever shadow of memory or haunting glimpse had shaken him—it stayed locked behind his teeth. Maybe it had been nothing. Maybe not.

But now wasn’t the time.

“G’night, Abigail.”

She murmured the same, and they both lay there in the quiet. Two people with a wound they’d learned to live around, even if it still hurt to breathe near it.

Outside, the night deepened. And somewhere in the shadows of the Great Plains, the past kept breathing.

 


 

The morning light crept in through the curtain, soft and golden. Jack sat at the edge of his bed, lacing up his boots with slow fingers, the book he’d fallen asleep reading still open beside his pillow. He didn’t want to go outside yet. Didn’t want to be asked to do chores. Or to talk. Or to smile.

He could hear his mother already moving around, her voice low as she spoke to the chickens outside the window. Somewhere farther out near the corral, his father was shouting at a stubborn fence post, his voice sharp in the cool morning air.

Jack sighed and pulled his coat on. He liked it when it was quiet. When it was just him and the pages of a book, no one expecting too much.

But he liked it even more when Arthur came around.

Arthur didn’t ask him too many questions. He just handed him tools, or offered to walk with him out by the creek, or sat beside him while he read, saying nothing at all. Sometimes he’d carve something and leave it on the porch — a bird, a horse, once even a bear. No explanation. Jack would just find it there like a secret gift.

He liked that Arthur didn’t treat him like he was made of glass.

Jack stepped out onto the porch, squinting against the morning sun. It was bright out, but still cool — that kind of in-between weather he liked best. The world smelled like woodsmoke and damp grass, like fresh dirt and horses. He tucked his hands into his coat pockets and leaned on the railing.

He could see his father down by the barn, wrestling a loose plank into place with more frustration than finesse. Jack didn’t wave. He didn’t think John would notice if he did. The sound of hammering echoed off the trees like gunfire.

Across the field, near the small cabin nestled by the tree line, he saw movement — a dark figure moving slow between the fence posts. Arthur.

Jack’s lips twitched, barely a smile. He hopped off the porch and started toward him, the grass still wet enough to cling to his boots. He wasn’t sure why he always felt more at ease around Arthur. Maybe because Arthur never made him feel like he had something to prove.

Arthur was kneeling by the trough, sleeves rolled up, one hand scrubbing mud off his boots with a stick. He glanced up as Jack approached.

“Mornin’,” Jack said, voice quiet but steady.

Arthur looked over his shoulder, squinting in the light. “Well, hell. Look who’s awake before noon.”

Jack shrugged. “Couldn’t sleep.”

Arthur tossed the stick aside. “Yeah, I get that.”

There was a pause. Not an awkward one — just easy silence, like breathing.

Jack looked down at the water in the trough. A moth floated lifelessly near the edge. “You carving anything?”

Arthur nodded toward the porch of his cabin. “Started a fox the other day. Dunno if it’s worth finishing.”

“I like foxes.”

Arthur gave a grunt, more like acknowledgment than agreement. “Then maybe I’ll keep at it.”

Jack hesitated. “Can I see it?”

Arthur stood slowly, wiping his hands on his pants. “Sure. But you gotta promise not to tell me it looks like a dog again.”

Jack let out a short, almost startled laugh. “It did! The first one, anyway.”

“Yeah, yeah,” Arthur muttered, leading the way. “Everyone’s a critic.”

The porch of Arthur’s cabin creaked under their boots as they stepped up. A rough wool blanket was draped over a crate he used as a chair, and the unfinished carving sat beside it, still half-covered in wood shavings.

Arthur picked it up, turning it in his calloused hands. The shape was taking form — a fox mid-stride, ears back, tail still just a stub of unshaped wood.

Jack sat on the edge of the porch, legs dangling off. He reached out but didn’t touch. “It looks... alive.”

Arthur gave a low chuckle. “Don’t flatter me, kid. Not unless you mean it.”

“I do,” Jack said, shrugging. “It’s better than anything I could do.”

“You’d be surprised what you can do if you stop thinkin’ too hard about it.” Arthur’s voice was quiet. “Same with carving. Or riding.”

Jack didn’t respond right away. His eyes stayed on the fox, brow drawn like he was trying to read something between the grain. “Do you ever miss it?” he asked. “The riding. The... the gang, I guess?”

Arthur set the fox back down gently. “Sometimes I miss the ride. Not what came with it.”

He let that settle. The wind picked up, soft and dry, rustling the dry grass in the yard.

From the main house, Abigail’s voice rang out. “Jack! Breakfast’s gettin’ cold!”

Jack winced a little. “I should go.”

Jack gave a small nod, then trotted off toward the house.

Arthur watched him go, the screen door creaking as it opened and slammed shut. The wind settled again. Alone now, he sat on the crate and picked up the carving knife, letting it sit in his hand for a long moment before bringing it back to the wood.

He didn’t start cutting just yet.

Instead, he looked out at the treeline, the barn, the edges of his quiet life. There was peace here, yes. More than he ever thought he’d get. But peace didn’t always mean comfort. Some ghosts didn’t rattle chains. They just… sat with you.

Arthur let out a slow breath and finally put blade to wood.

He worked in silence until the shadows stretched long across the yard and the sound of the ranch settled into stillness — the distant cluck of hens bedding down, the low murmur of cattle, the creak of the windmill turning on the breeze.

The carving in his hand had begun to take shape. Not perfect, not finished, but something real. Something alive.

Arthur set it beside the others lined up along the railing. A small collection now — a wolf with its head tilted skyward, a bear mid-prowl, a sleeping doe, a hawk frozen in flight. Tiny testaments. Proof that hands like his could build, not just destroy.

He leaned back against the post, arms crossed loosely over his chest, eyes on the horizon as the last light drained from the sky. Somewhere behind him, laughter echoed faintly from the house — Abigail scolding John over something or another, Jack giggling in response. A home. Not his, not really. But near enough.

And for now, near was enough.

He didn’t let his mind drift too far — not to the past, not tonight.

Just the wind, the quiet, and the steady ache of old bones.

Tomorrow would come the same as always.

He hoped.

Chapter 43: What We Thought We Buried

Notes:

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Chapter Text

The night had gone quiet again.

Crickets chirped from somewhere out by the river, their rhythm steady and dry, and the wind whispered softly through the cottonwoods near the fence line, but John Marston lay wide awake in his bed as if the whole world had gone still. He stared up at the ceiling beams of the bedroom, hands folded behind his head, a single oil lamp flickering low across the far wall. The flame danced in the draft sneaking in from under the window, casting long shadows that stretched across the floor like reaching arms.

Abigail slept beside him, one arm slung over her stomach, face turned gently toward him, peaceful in a way that made him feel strangely distant—like he didn’t quite belong to this quiet, steady world they had built. The room smelled like cotton sheets and cedarwood and the faintest trace of ash from the stove down the hall. Jack had gone to sleep hours ago, buried under a mess of half-finished books, a worn blanket tugged up to his chin.

John had everything he once thought he’d never have—a roof over his head, a family he loved, and a piece of land to call his own. And yet…

He hadn’t slept a full night since he came back from Blackwater.

At first, he thought he’d forget her. That blonde woman he saw walking near the butcher’s stall on Main Street—just a stranger, back turned to him, hair loose and sunlit, shoulders stiff beneath a dark green coat. She hadn’t even looked his way. Hadn’t even seemed to notice him. But something had pulled at him. Something deep in his gut.

He had stood there dumbly in the middle of the street, chest tight, suddenly winded like someone had punched him clean through the ribs.

It wasn’t her. It couldn’t have been.

But still.

John rolled onto his side and ran a hand through his hair, jaw clenched.

Six years was a long damn time. Long enough to bury the dead, to stop looking back. Long enough to forget how someone laughed, how they tilted their head when they were about to call you a fool. But sometimes it came back. In dreams, in memory, in voices carried on the wind.

And sometimes, apparently, in the middle of a dusty street in a town that should’ve held no ghosts.

He sighed and sat up slowly, rubbing his face with both hands. The cool air hit his skin, and the boards creaked underfoot as he stood and moved toward the window. Outside, the land stretched into soft black silhouettes—pasture, barn, hills rolling down to the tree line. One lantern still flickered by the stable. Probably Arthur, finishing something too late again.

John leaned against the window frame, arms crossed. The farm was quiet. The kind of quiet they used to dream about. No gunshots. No lawmen. No Pinkertons closing in. Just the soft hush of wind through the grass and the long, patient ticking of time.

And yet that face—no, not even a face, just a silhouette—stuck in his head like a bullet that hadn’t hit bone.

He had tried to tell himself he imagined it. That it was some other woman with blonde hair and a straight back and a way of walking that could’ve fooled him. Hell, maybe it had. But now it wasn’t just memory. It was weight. Pressure. Something gnawing at his mind and whispering that maybe, just maybe…

He didn't finish the thought.

Outside, the wind picked up. The horses in the stable shifted and stamped softly in their stalls. The lantern near the barn flickered once more before it went out completely.

Somewhere out there, Arthur was probably heading back to his cabin, tucked quiet behind the southern edge of the ranch. He always moved like a ghost this time of night—boots light on the path, not wanting to wake anyone. He never said much anymore. Never did, really, but now he kept to himself more than ever.

John sometimes wondered if Arthur still dreamed about her too.

He stayed at the window longer than he meant to, arms folded across his chest, breath fogging the glass ever so faintly. The ranch was quiet, still. The kind of quiet that should have been comforting. But John felt restless—like a hound that sensed a storm coming hours before it hit.

He didn’t know what it was, exactly. The woman. The silence in Arthur’s eyes these days. The way Jack looked through people more than at them. Or maybe it was all just his own guilt, coiled and asleep in his gut, stirring when he let his guard down too long.

He pressed a palm to the window pane, cold against his skin.

He hadn’t spoken her name in years.

Jo .

Jesus.

It felt wrong just thinking it. Like something sacred and bitter all at once. Like that name should’ve turned to dust in his mouth by now, but it hadn’t. It lingered. Sharp. Familiar.

Abigail had stopped mentioning her altogether. The last time she did, she’d only called her that woman . Her voice had gone flat. No anger. Just the kind of hurt that never quite scabbed over.

John hadn’t argued. He didn’t want to. There was too much wrapped up in it—Jo had been… well, she was complicated. She had lied, sure. To all of them. But she’d also bled for them. Fought like hell to keep them together when Dutch was pulling them apart. Protected Jack like he was her own.

Like a damn aunt , John thought. He’d caught himself about to say that to someone once and swallowed it down hard.

He rubbed at the back of his neck, fingers tight on the nape.

What would it mean, if it was her?

What would it mean, if it wasn’t?

His stomach turned at the thought—because either way, he knew he’d been stirred up. Hooked on a glimpse. Caught in a memory. And he hated that about himself. Hated the part that wanted it to be her.

The part of him that missed her, even now.

Behind him, Abigail shifted under the covers. A soft sound, the whisper of sheets moving. She didn’t wake. She never did when he got up like this. Maybe she knew better than to ask. Maybe she had her own ghosts and didn’t want to call them forward.

John turned back toward the bed and looked at her for a long time. Her features were softened by sleep, lips parted just slightly, one hand curled under her cheek like she used to do when Jack was still a baby. There were faint lines at the corners of her eyes now—worry, maybe. Time. Life out here.

He loved her. He truly did.

But that didn't mean his mind didn’t drift.

He sat on the edge of the bed before lying back down beside her. The mattress shifted under his weight. Abigail moved slightly, turning into his side without waking. Her arm fell across his chest.

He stared up at the ceiling once more, wide-eyed, jaw tight, heart thrumming in the quiet.

Somewhere out there, a shadow walked the streets of Blackwater. Blonde-haired. Sharp-shouldered. Ghost-shaped.

He told himself it meant nothing.

But still, it waited for him.

 


 

The sun rose slow and gold over the far ridge, catching on the dew that clung to the grass like a thousand tiny mirrors. The ranch stirred around it, quiet but alive—birds in the rafters, the wind dragging its fingers through the fields, the soft creak of wood warming in the sun.

John stood by the fence, hammer in hand, a fresh post braced against his knee.

He hadn’t slept much. Maybe a few hours, maybe none at all—he couldn’t remember. He’d watched the sky go from black to bruised blue, and by the time the world colored in again, he was already out here. His shirt clung to his back with sweat and dust, even though the morning was still cool. The hammer in his hand didn’t feel like much of a distraction anymore.

With a grunt, he drove another nail through the crossbeam. It squealed in protest, the wood groaning slightly beneath the pressure. He set his jaw and hit it again, harder this time. Too hard. The nail bent sideways.

“Goddammit,” he muttered, yanking it out with the claw and tossing it aside.

The fence wasn’t even broken. It just looked like it might be soon. Same as everything else around here.

From behind, the soft scuff of boots on dirt approached. John didn’t turn around. He didn’t need to.

“You gonna glare that fence into submission, or you want a hand?” Arthur’s voice was dry, but not unkind. He carried two fresh fence posts slung over one shoulder, a coil of rope in the other hand, sweat already darkening the front of his shirt.

John gave a grunt that could’ve meant anything and squatted down to dig another hole.

Arthur stood next to him in the silence, setting down the posts with a dull thud . “You’re up early.”

“So are you.”

“I live alone, John. Ain’t nobody waitin’ on me to wake up late.”

That earned him a faint smirk, barely there. John patted the dirt back around the post.

For a moment, all that could be heard was the wind and the distant bray of cattle from the pasture.

Then Arthur spoke again, quieter this time. “You alright?”

John paused. Not long. Just enough for the silence to feel like a weight between them.

“Fine,” he said, brushing dirt off his hands.

Arthur didn’t push. He just nodded and bent to help. The two of them worked side by side for a while in the hush of morning, the kind of rhythm that came easy after years of riding together. Comfortable. Familiar. And yet, John still felt… off. Unsettled.

His thoughts kept circling. Blackwater. The woman. The impossible recognition he couldn’t shake. Every time he blinked, he saw that back—those shoulders, the swing of her coat as she vanished into the crowd.

He’d told himself it wasn’t her.

But hell, he didn’t even believe that anymore.

John drove another nail into the post, this time straight. Clean. But his hands didn’t feel steady anymore.

The silence between him and Arthur stretched, not heavy, just present—like the weight of something unsaid.

And that’s when it started again.

A flicker. A face behind the eyes.

A shadow in the sunlight.

He didn’t want to think about her, but it was like trying not to breathe. That glimpse in Blackwater—just the back of a woman’s head—had cracked something open in him. And now everything kept slipping through.

He saw her laugh again, just a flash of it, the way she used to lean back on her elbows by the fire, smirking at something Arthur said. She’d run her hands through her hair— long hair, always loose, always a little wild—and grin at Jack like he was hers. She was good with the kid. Too good even if she wouldn’t admit it. He’d called her "Aunt Jo" before he even knew what the word meant.

But the memory warped, twisted around the edges. The smile slipped. It always did.

Was it her?

Could it really have been her?

He gritted his teeth and jammed the nail in harder than he needed to.

Beside him, Arthur finally glanced over, brows drawing together. “You’re bleedin’.”

John blinked. Looked down. The side of his thumb had split open, blood smearing over the nail head. He didn’t even feel it.

“Shit,” he muttered, shaking it off and wiping it on his pants. “S’all right.”

Arthur gave him a long look. “You sure you don’t wanna talk about whatever’s eatin’ you?”

John stared at the fence for a second, jaw tight.

“No,” he said.

Arthur nodded once and left it at that.

 


 

The porch creaked beneath their boots as they sat—Arthur in the old chair he half-fixed last winter, John with his boots kicked up on the railing. A bottle of whiskey passed between them, quiet but easy, like muscle memory. Crickets filled the air. Somewhere in the distance, coyotes cried.

John took a long pull, letting it burn. It didn’t do much to dull his thoughts.

He watched Arthur for a while—how the older man stared out across the land like it might offer an answer to a question he hadn’t spoken aloud in years. His silhouette was still broad, still steady, but there was something about him now—something withdrawn , like a man fading into the mountains one quiet step at a time.

John shifted in his seat.

“You ever think about…” He trailed off, fingers tightening around the bottle before passing it back.

Arthur didn’t look at him. “’Bout what?”

John hesitated. “The past.”

The silence stretched a little longer than comfort allowed.

Arthur drank.

“Sometimes,” he said, low.

There was weight in the word, like he’d chosen it carefully. Too carefully.

John pressed his tongue to his cheek. Nodded. “Yeah. Me too.”

He thought about saying more. Thought about asking. About telling him what he saw in town. About the ghost that might not be one. But Arthur’s face had gone quiet in that hard way of his—like he’d shut a door inside himself.

So John left it.

Instead, he leaned back, looking up at the stars. Let the silence settle again, heavy between them, but not unfriendly.

A beat passed. Two.

Arthur finally murmured, “Ain’t nothin’ back there for us, John.”

John swallowed hard, but didn’t answer. Just watched the stars flicker overhead, wondering how true that really was.

Arthur didn’t say anything after that. Just sat with the bottle resting on his knee, his gaze somewhere past the fenceline. The quiet wasn’t awkward—just thick. Familiar. The kind of silence only men who’ve been through hell together could sit in without needing to fill it.

John let out a breath through his nose. The moon was crawling higher in the sky now, casting silver across the fields. The cattle were tucked in for the night, the barn lights long since dimmed, and all that moved in the darkness were shadows.

He glanced sideways.

Arthur’s face was etched with age that hadn’t been there years ago. Not just in lines and tired eyes—but in how he held himself. He looked like he carried the weight of things no man should have to. Guilt. Loss. The ache of a life that never quite found peace.

John wondered if he looked the same now.

“You ever miss it?” he asked quietly.

Arthur blinked slow, like the question took a moment to reach him.

“The life?” John added, more specific. “The ride. The rush of it all.”

Arthur’s lips twitched into something that wasn’t quite a smile.

“Sometimes.”

John nodded slowly. “Yeah. Me too.”

For a long minute, they didn’t speak. Just passed the bottle, each of them lost in whatever stretch of memory came knocking. A creek bank in the summer. A campfire in the cold. Gun smoke. Laughter. Blood. Her.

Arthur exhaled. “I don’t miss what it cost.”

That pulled John back.

“No,” he said, voice low. “No, me neither.”

Arthur finally looked over at him then, the moonlight catching the edge of his face. There was something unreadable in his expression—like he knew what John really meant, even if he hadn’t said it.

“You got a good thing here,” Arthur said, voice soft in that rare way. “Abigail. Jack. This place. Don’t let it slip.”

John nodded, though his throat was tight. He didn’t say he was trying. Didn’t say it still felt like something was missing.

Didn’t say that when he looked at the barn, sometimes he half-expected someone else to be leaning against it, arms crossed, blonde hair tied back, throwing some smart remark his way. Or that when Jack had smiled just the other day in a certain light, it looked too damn much like how she used to smile at him.

He didn’t say any of that.

Instead, he leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees. “You ever think… if maybe some of us—if we’d made it out sooner… Maybe things could’ve been different?”

Arthur looked down at the bottle in his hands.

“Yeah,” he said quietly. “I do.”

A breeze swept through then, rustling the dry grass and the trees at the edge of the property. Coyotes howled again, distant this time. The porch creaked under them as Arthur shifted in his seat.

“But that’s the thing,” Arthur added. “We didn’t.”

John looked up.

Arthur’s gaze was far off again. “We lost too much. Too many. No gettin’ around it.”

“I know,” John said. He swallowed hard. “I just—hell, I don’t know.”

They fell silent again.

Arthur offered the bottle one last time. John took it. Drank deep.

“You still carving?” he asked after a moment, voice rough.

Arthur gave a little grunt. “Sometimes. Helps the hands stay busy.”

John looked at him. “You ever carve anything of her?”

Arthur didn’t answer. Didn’t even blink.

The silence said enough.

John nodded once, solemn, then stood. He handed the bottle back. “I should turn in.”

Arthur rose too, slower, a little stiffer.

“Yeah.”

John paused at the door, hand on the frame. “Thanks for the drink.”

Arthur gave a small nod. “Anytime.”

The night swallowed the rest.

John stepped inside, and Arthur stayed behind. Lit a cigarette with shaking fingers. Watched the stars, the land, the wind move through the grass.

He didn’t want to think about her either.

But some ghosts don’t stay buried.

 


 

The house was quiet when John stepped inside, the warmth of the lanterns a stark contrast to the chill of the night air. He shut the door softly behind him and toed off his boots, careful not to creak the floorboards too loud. Upstairs, the bedroom door was cracked open and a low flicker of candlelight spilled across the hall.

Abigail was already in bed when he came in, curled on her side, back to the door. She didn’t stir when he slipped beneath the covers.

John lay still for a long moment, the quiet pressing in around him like a weight.

The scent of wax and old wood filled the room. Outside, wind rustled the eaves, and somewhere far off, an owl called into the dark. The candle on the nightstand burned low, flame dancing shadows across the walls.

His eyes were open, fixed on the ceiling.

He could still feel the weight of the bottle in his hand, still hear Arthur’s voice in the dark.

You ever think about her?

He hadn’t finished the question. Hadn’t needed to.

He exhaled, slow and shallow, chest tight.

He could see that woman again behind his eyelids—blonde hair just brushing her lower back, the way she moved through the crowd like she didn’t belong in it. He didn’t even know why it haunted him so bad. Why it was her face he kept seeing. But the feeling clung to him like dust, stubborn and insistent.

She was gone.

And yet.

He rolled onto his side, toward the candle, eyes locked on the little flame as it bent and flickered.

What if?

What if he was wrong?

What if the world was cruel enough—and strange enough—to let someone like her crawl out from under the weight of it all?

He blinked slowly, and the candle wavered again. Burned lower.

He had to know.

Even if it was just a shadow.
Even if it meant chasing ghosts.

The candle gave a faint hiss as it burned down to the nub. The scent of melting wax thickened in the room, mingling with the dry air and the faint perfume lingering on Abigail’s pillow.

John’s eyes stayed open.

The bed creaked slightly when he shifted, careful not to wake her. He didn’t want to talk. Didn’t want to explain why his chest felt tight, why his jaw ached from clenching it all day.

He rubbed a hand over his face, calloused fingers scraping through his beard.

It wasn’t just the woman.

It was the way it felt—like something had torn loose inside him and he couldn’t stuff it back down. She was supposed to be gone, just a memory by now. Just another grave he never got to visit.

But her voice kept ringing in his ears. That sharp wit. That low, hushed laugh she only used when they were tucked around a campfire. The way Jack used to light up when she’d show up with a story or some ridiculous trinket she’d bartered from a shopkeep.

She’d been family. For all her secrets, all her lies, she’d bled for them.

She’d been his friend.

And now—six years later—he couldn’t shake the thought that maybe she’d never left at all.

John sighed and turned again, this time onto his back, staring at the dark ceiling as if it might offer answers.

His body was tired, but his mind raced, tangling in itself like bramble.

What if he had seen her?

What if she’d seen him too?

And what did it mean—that she hadn’t stopped?

He didn’t realize his eyes had closed until the room shifted. Shadows deepened. The candle sputtered, gave a last gasp of flame, and went out.

The dark swallowed him whole.

His breathing steadied, slow and deep, but even as sleep crept in at the edges, the questions didn’t stop.

They followed him into uneasy dreams, where shadows wore her face and the streets of Blackwater twisted into old memories that didn’t end the way they should have.

 


 

Morning broke soft and low, the sun barely brushing the hills in pale gold when John saddled up and left Beecher’s Hope behind. The ranch was still quiet—only the faint clatter of a chicken coop door, the slow whinny of a horse waking in the barn. He didn’t wait for breakfast. Didn’t leave a note. Just rode out with nothing but the wind and the gnawing weight in his gut.

The trail ahead shimmered in early haze. Dew clung to the grass along the fence lines, and a thin mist curled over the earth like breath not yet warmed by day. John's coat was dusted, his hat pulled low, shadows still clinging under his eyes.

The rhythm of the horse was familiar, grounding—but his mind wandered far from the saddle. He barely registered the distant bark of a coyote or the flap of wings overhead. He wasn’t riding toward Blackwater because he wanted to.

He was riding because he couldn’t stay still.

He didn’t have a plan. Didn’t know what he’d do if he did see her again. Hell—he didn’t even know what he’d say. But something about the woman he’d seen—just a glimpse—had embedded itself deep in his chest like a splinter he couldn’t dig out. It hurt more each time he breathed, and yet he needed to breathe.

The landscape rolled by in long, gentle waves—open fields greening for spring, the dry bones of winter just now giving way to life. Trees unfurled their first bright leaves. Birds filled the air with trills, the kind of day you could almost call beautiful if you weren’t being eaten alive inside.

He passed a wagon stuck in the mud and a pair of men arguing about it—barely heard them. Gave a polite nod, but didn’t stop.

Didn’t want to talk.

Didn’t want to think .

But he did anyway.

Every hoofbeat stirred up memories—her sitting beside him on a ridge with her knees pulled to her chest. Her chasing Jack across the field when he was still small enough to squeal. Her sitting by the fire, head bowed over Hosea’s tattered copy of The Prince , stubborn as hell about finishing it.

He remembered the day she left. Remembered the look in Arthur’s eyes when he told her to leave.

No goodbyes. Nothing. 

The horse snorted, dragging him back. John's hand reflexively ran along the reins, grounding himself again. Blackwater’s edges were close now—he could see the tree line thinning, the road becoming more worn, the telltale signs of civilization creeping in like weeds.

He should turn around. Ride home. Pretend it was all in his head.

But he didn’t.

Couldn’t.

The streets of Blackwater loomed ahead, still quiet in the early hour. Shop windows shuttered. Lamps extinguished. Just a few figures moving slow across the boardwalks—too far to tell who was who. John slowed his horse as he entered the outskirts. His shoulders stiffened. His hand hovered near the grip of his gun—not out of fear, not really, just habit. Instinct. A memory of the man he used to be.

He scanned faces without even realizing it. Every glint of blonde hair caught his attention, every back turned was a possibility.

But nothing.

He exhaled and leaned forward, giving the horse a pat.

He’d ride around. Check a few places. Not obsess—just look .

Just enough to quiet the madness clawing at his chest.

 


 

John’s boots were heavy with dust by the time he made it back to the livery.

The sun had dipped high in the sky, and Blackwater was wrapped in a golden haze. It made everything seem softer than it was—the sharp edges of buildings dulled, the muddied streets almost glowing. But his limbs were tired. His chest, heavier than when he’d arrived. The hope that had burned so hot all morning had cooled into something sour.

He’d walked the whole damn town.

The hotel. The post office. The grocer. The tailor’s. That corner bookstore Jack liked. Nothing. No trace of her. No glimpse of golden hair, no laugh curling down a side street, no ghost in the glass.

He stood beside his horse now, one hand resting on the saddle, the other hanging limp by his side. His fingers twitched once before curling into a fist.

“Damn fool,” he muttered under his breath. “You’re seein’ ghosts now.”

He rubbed a hand down his face, jaw tight, the lines there more pronounced in the light. He hadn’t even told Arthur about the woman. Couldn’t. Wouldn’t. The truth was, he didn’t believe it himself anymore. He’d built her out of dust and grief and guilt. Some shadow of a memory his heart kept dragging out of the dark.

She was gone.

He took the reins, foot lifted for the stirrup—when he heard it.

A voice.

Soft, low, edged with the faintest echo of southern drawl.

Familiar.

He froze.

Didn’t even turn at first. Didn’t dare.

But then it came again—clearer this time, closer . Not a memory. Not a whisper.

John turned his head slowly, eyes sweeping across the street like a man caught in a dream he wasn’t ready to wake from.

And there she was.

Not thirty feet away, haggling with a merchant at a stall across the road. Her back was to him, her long, thin blonde hair— the same as he remembered it —tumbling in loose waves all the way down her spine, catching the sun like spun gold. She wore a dark green coat he didn’t recognize, and a worn satchel hung at her side. Her stance was casual, her hand gesturing to a crate of dried herbs or cloth, something ordinary.

But her voice. That voice.

The rest of the street blurred. Sound drained out, like his brain forgot how to hear anything else.

He stared. Disbelieving. Breath caught. Muscles locked.

And then she turned.

Slowly.

Head tilted, hair shifting like water. Her profile came into view first. The sharp line of her jaw. The faint furrow in her brow as she negotiated.

And then— her eyes.

She saw him.

Her face went still. Her lips parted just slightly.

A flicker of something passed across her expression—recognition, fear, pain, all crushed into a single second.

John took one slow step forward.

She didn’t run.

Didn’t speak.

Just looked at him like she was seeing a ghost herself.

He opened his mouth. No sound came out.

She didn’t move.

Not at first.

And neither did he.

John stood in the middle of the dusty street, townsfolk passing between them, carts creaking, boots scuffing, voices rising in lazy afternoon rhythm—but for him, everything else went silent.

She was still watching him. Her hand hovered near the merchant’s table, fingers slack now, as if the act of haggling had slipped from her completely. 

“…John?”

His name left her lips on a breath—fragile, like it might break apart the moment it hit the air.

And it did break something in him.

He blinked, staggered a step closer.

Her voice hadn’t changed. Not really. It was still hers. Low and rough around the edges, like whiskey on a cold night. But there was something beneath it now. Worn. Weathered. Like someone who’d screamed into the wind too many times and learned to keep quiet instead.

She looked… well. Whole, at least. Her coat was modest but neat. There was a faint sunburn on her cheeks, and her hands were clean but calloused. She looked stronger, even. Not soft or frail.

But her eyes—

That’s where he saw it.

The weariness .

That hollow edge that had nothing to do with sleep. Like she’d spent six years surviving something worse than death. Like she hadn’t stopped running—even if her feet finally had.

He opened his mouth. Tried to say something.

Anything.

But his throat locked.

It had really been her. The other day, in town. That fleeting moment he’d tried to convince himself was a lie. And now—now she was standing right there in front of him.

Alive.

Jo.

His eyes scanned her face, desperate to reconcile the past with the present. Her mouth was parted, a tremble in her jaw that she was trying to bite down. But she didn’t cry. Neither of them did. It was too sharp for that.

Finally, he managed a word.

“…You.”

Her chin dipped. Barely a nod.

“I didn’t think—” He cut himself off, voice too ragged.

“Me neither,” she said softly.

A beat.

The distance between them remained. A chasm filled with years and ghosts and everything left unsaid.

And then she turned to the merchant, fingers fumbling for the coins in her coat pocket. She set a few down, took whatever she’d been buying—a bundle of something wrapped in paper—and stepped back.

Her eyes met his again, guarded but open in that raw, unmistakable way—like she didn’t know how long she could hold herself together.

Then, quietly, like she was asking if the world might let her breathe just a little longer, she said—

“Want a drink?”

The words hit him sideways.

Not what he’d expected. Not a tearful reunion, or a scream, or a hundred questions hurled through the years.

Just that.

A drink.

Like old times. Like everything wasn’t broken between them.

But the look in her eyes—Christ, it told the real story.

John gave the faintest nod. His boots felt too heavy as he took a step closer, then another, until he was standing beside her like a man half in a dream.

“…Yeah,” he said, his voice dry. “Yeah, I could use one.”

 


 

The saloon wasn’t much—just worn wood, a stale smell of spilled whiskey, and a tired tune playing low on a busted piano near the bar. The crowd was thin, scattered—cowhands nursing drinks, a few old men at a poker table, no one paying much mind to the pair that walked in.

The floor creaked beneath her boots as she led him to the back corner, furthest from the door. The table was scuffed, uneven. A cracked lantern flickered above, casting a soft, golden haze over the worn wood and the dust drifting lazily in the air. It was quiet enough to hear the wind through the slats.

Jo sat first. Her hands—still shaking faintly—folded around the wrapped parcel of goods she hadn’t planned on carrying this long. John settled across from her like a man carrying too many years on his shoulders. For a long while, they didn’t speak.

She tried not to look at him too long, but his eyes didn’t leave her.

That stare—same as it’d been in camp, years ago. Measured. Honest. Just a little bit worried.

It made her stomach turn, and not in the way it used to.

He looked older, tired, but grounded in a way she wasn’t. Like he belonged somewhere now. She envied that more than she could say.

She gestured lightly to the barkeep, two fingers raised. Whiskey, of course. She figured he’d want something stronger than beer. Hell, she did.

John leaned forward, forearms resting on the table, his hat still low over his brow. He hadn’t said anything yet. Just kept looking at her like he was afraid she’d vanish.

Jo finally broke the quiet.

“You look well, John.” Her voice was a little rough. Not from tears—just from the years. Time and grit and trying not to speak too much when it hurt to be heard.

He offered a half-smile, the kind that didn’t quite reach his eyes.

The whiskey came. They each took a glass. Neither of them drank yet.

“How long you been here?” he asked finally, his voice low.

Jo glanced toward the window, like maybe she could count it by the sun. “Few weeks. Not long. Been movin’ a lot before that.”

John nodded. “Figures.”

A pause. Her fingers played with the rim of her glass.

“You?”

“Beecher’s Hope,” he said, then added, “Outside of town. Just me, Abigail, Jack.”

She nodded slowly. It was strange hearing those names again. They felt heavy in her chest—familiar, distant, painful .

He didn’t ask anything yet. Didn’t press. Maybe he was giving her the space to start.

She took a sip. It burned. But it helped.

Then she said softly—

“I know you probably hate me, and if you wanna go, that’s just fine, but… you’s the only one I came across after everythin’...”

Her voice caught a little at the end.

John blinked at her. Then leaned back in his seat, the chair creaking under him.

“Never said I hated ya, Jo.” He gave a small shrug. “When I came back after that year I ran off, you was the only one nice to me.” A ghost of a grin tugged at his mouth. “Well. You did smack my head.”

Jo snorted. “You earned that,” she muttered.

They both chuckled. And for a moment, it felt almost normal. Like those days at camp, when the world wasn’t ending.

Then Jo looked away, her voice quieter now—

“I’m surprised you ain’t callin’ me by my other name.”

A beat.

John’s answer came steady.

“You’ll always gonna be Jo to me.” He let the words settle, then added, “Not that poor girl who did what she had to do to survive. Just like all of us.”

That struck her. Hard.

She looked back at him, her eyes a little wider, lips parting just slightly.

John didn’t flinch.

“It’s a really screwed-up world… It ain’t your fault. And what happened to ya… it don’t make you a monster.”

The silence that followed was full.

She stared at him—really stared. Her eyes were glassy, like she was trying not to cry but couldn’t help the way the past tugged at her.

Jo had spent so long believing there wasn’t a soul left who’d speak to her like that.

It felt surreal.

Like maybe she’d died after all and this was some mercy she didn’t deserve.

She looked down again, wrapping her hands around the glass of whiskey like it was the only solid thing she had. The flickering light above their table threw long shadows, catching in the deep line under her eyes, the hollow of her cheek. Her face had changed. Not dramatically, but enough that a stranger might not recognize her. That kind of change came from years of being hunted by silence, fear, and memory.

John didn’t say anything for a long moment. Just watched her. His brows were faintly pulled together like he was trying to solve a puzzle he didn’t have the pieces for. Maybe he never had.

Jo finally spoke, her voice quiet, almost brittle, like she wasn’t sure if it’d hold.

“Still wear that same damn hat.”

John gave a faint, dry smile, eyes flicking down for a second. “It fits.”

She nodded, but it was clear she was stalling. Her fingers drummed lightly against the side of the glass, her other hand resting against her ribs like she was guarding something fragile underneath.

“You must think I’m a coward,” she said, not looking up.

John shook his head. “No,” he said plainly. “I think you was scared. And alone. And... didn’t see no other way out.”

That made her look at him. Not in anger—more like disbelief. Her mouth was slightly open, lips chapped from wind and sun. She seemed ready to argue, to push him away with words sharp as broken glass, the way she always had when she got too close to soft things. But instead, she swallowed hard and looked away again.

She hated how kind he sounded.

The saloon murmured around them, a low hum of boots on wood, a glass clinking somewhere, the occasional crack of laughter from the poker table. It was strange how normal it all sounded while her whole chest felt like it was coming apart stitch by stitch.

Jo exhaled shakily, then set the glass down, untouched.

“What happened… after?” she asked, finally. Her voice dropped lower. “After Micah. After… me.”

She couldn’t say more than that. Couldn’t name it for what it was supposed to be—her death. She still didn’t know what to call it.

John straightened slightly, fingers curling around his glass. He let his gaze drift toward the window for a second, like he needed to steady himself before answering. Then he looked back at her.

“We found his body,” he said quietly. “Up in the mountains. At the edge of a cliff. Looked like he’d been torn up. Shot clean through, knife wounds, bruises—real bad.”

Jo blinked, but didn’t flinch. Just nodded slowly.

John continued, voice soft but certain.

“Found blood trail nearby. Guessed t’was yours. But no body. Figured maybe a bear took it. Or the river. Hell, I dunno. But you was gone.”

He hesitated, like he didn’t want to say the next part. But he owed her honesty.

“I buried him. Not for him—just to be done with it. We figured you were gone too. Nobody ever came back from somethin’ like that.”

Jo nodded again, lips pressed tight. There was something unreadable in her expression. Something deep and old and worn.

“The gang broke apart not long after that,” John said. “Dutch vanished. Charles went north. Sadie stayed for a bit before goin’ south. Tilly, Karen and Mary-Beth went to Saint-Denis. Miss Grimshaw… she didn’t make it. Didn’t see the end comin’.”

Jo’s eyes flicked up at that, briefly wide. Grimshaw had been tough as nails. She hadn’t expected to outlive her .

“I left,” John said. “Tried to build something better. Took Abigail and Jack. Started over.”

She didn’t answer right away. Just stared down at the wood grain of the table, eyes glazed over like she was watching ghosts walk between the floorboards.

“I used to wonder… what y’all said about me. After I disappeared.”

John exhaled. “I didn’t say nothin’ bad.”

Her eyes met his again, sharp with something like disbelief. “You didn’t have to. I lied to everyone. Built a life on a name that wasn’t mine.”

He nodded slowly. “Ain’t sayin’ you was some saint. You did a lot of bad, Jo. So did I… But when it mattered, you chose us. That’s more than I can say for a lotta folks.”

Jo looked down again, but not before he saw the flash of emotion across her face—something tight and painful. She sat still as stone, barely breathing.

But John could see it—the slight shift in her posture, the flicker in her eyes, that tension sitting high in her shoulders like she was bracing for something. And it hit him then, clear as day: she was waiting for a name. Not Sadie, not Charles.

Arthur.

It took her a while to speak, and when she did, her voice was barely more than a whisper.

“Is he…?” She didn’t finish the question.

Didn’t need to.

John looked down into his glass, rolled it gently between his palms. There was a silence that stretched a few heartbeats too long.

Then he met her eyes.

“He’s alive.”

Jo’s breath left her in a soft gasp. Her whole body seemed to react before she could stop it—shoulders dropping, her hand lifting slightly from the table, fingers curling like she was catching hold of something invisible. Relief swept across her face in a raw, almost childlike wave before she smothered it behind her usual mask. But John saw it. He saw all of it.

He hesitated, unsure how much to say. Part of him wanted to be honest, tell her everything—that Arthur wasn’t the same man anymore, not really. That he still walked, still talked, still worked the land. But there was a hollowness to him now, a ghost behind his eyes that hadn’t been there before. Some days were better than others, but he hadn’t smiled, really smiled, in a long time.

Still, John couldn’t bring himself to tell her that.

“He’s good,” he said instead. “Stays out by the cabin near the ranch. Keeps to himself. Carves things. Teaches Jack how to shoot better than I ever could.” A small smile tugged at the corner of his mouth. “He’s quiet. Always was.”

Jo looked away, blinking fast. “He told me to leave.”

John’s smile faded.

“That night,” she said, voice brittle. “When Micah threw the poster at me. Arthur looked me dead in the eye and said, ‘You should go.’ T’was the last thing he ever said to me.”

John didn’t have an answer for that. He remembered those days too well—the chaos, the fractures spreading through camp like wildfire, the way they all just… fell apart. Maybe it wasn’t fair. But nothing about their lives ever had been.

They sat there for a long time, the world outside the saloon moving on without them. Somewhere out front, boots thudded on the boardwalk. A man laughed too loud. But back here, in the farthest corner of the saloon, it was just the two of them and the years they hadn’t spoken.

Finally, John leaned back, folding his arms.

“What about you?” he asked. “All this time… where’ve you been?”

Jo gave a dry, bitter little laugh. “Nowhere good.”

He waited.

She rubbed her hand down her face, weariness bleeding through the cracks in her composure. “I was bad off after that fight. Lost a lot of blood. Woke up half-dead into some doctor’s office. Man didn’t ask questions, just patched me up and left me be. Guess I owe him my life, even if I never caught his name.”

She paused, eyes drifting.

“After that… I kept moving. Didn’t stay in one place too long. Changed names again. Took work where I could get it. Cleaning, cooking, sometimes worse.” She didn’t elaborate, and John didn’t ask. “Kept thinking maybe I’d stop running one day. Maybe I’d go west. Start new. But it never felt right. Like I didn’t deserve it.”

John’s eyes softened. “You do.”

She snorted. “Maybe.”

Her gaze dropped to the table again, fingers tracing the rim of her empty glass. “I came to Blackwater a few weeks ago. Figured it was far enough away from the mess. No one would recognize me. I… I didn’t think anyone would ever find me here.”

John’s voice was quiet, almost reverent. “But I did.”

She looked up at him then, and for a heartbeat, the walls between them cracked.

Jo sat back slightly, fingers still wrapped tight around her empty glass, knuckles pale with the strain. Her eyes were on the table, but John could see her mind working behind them—turning over thoughts, regrets, fears. Maybe hope, too, buried deep under the rest.

Then she looked up. Straight at him.

“Does he know?” she asked. “Arthur?”

The question cracked through the low hum of the saloon like a thunderclap.

John blinked. For a second, he couldn’t speak.

His mouth opened, but nothing came out right away. He looked at her—really looked—and saw something raw behind her eyes. A flicker of vulnerability she wasn’t usually brave enough to show. Maybe she hadn’t shown it in years.

He swallowed hard.

“No,” he said, voice low. “Not yet. He… he don’t know you’re alive.”

Jo gave a small nod, too quick, too tight. Her jaw locked like she was bracing against something sharp.

“Don’t tell him.”

John’s brow furrowed. He leaned forward over the table, his tone sharpening just slightly, not from anger, but disbelief.

“Why the hell not?”

She didn’t answer right away. Just stared down at the scratched wood between them like she could will herself into it. Her fingers tightened on the rim of her glass, and John saw the tremor in her hands. She was scared—more scared than he’d ever seen her, even back in the old days when they rode under the same banner.

“Jo,” he said, gentler now. “Why?”

But she still didn’t lift her gaze.

Her voice, when it came, was soft, almost hollow. “Just… take care of him for me, yeah?”

John’s heart thudded, a little off-rhythm. The way she said it—like she was handing him something fragile. Something final.

He studied her face, the curve of her mouth, the way her lashes clung together with moisture she refused to let fall. She looked older, sure. Worn. But it wasn’t time that aged her—it was everything else. Everything she’d been through. Everything she still carried.

He frowned, trying to read between the words. To find the question behind the plea.

“You don’t wanna see him?”

The air between them went very still.

Her hand twitched on the table. Her fingers had started to tremble, just slightly, and this time she didn’t bother to hide it. For a moment, it looked like she might not answer.

Then she whispered, almost too quiet to hear: “No…”

A breath followed—drawn in like it hurt. Like her lungs had forgotten how to carry that kind of weight.

“I want him to be happy.”

John didn’t speak. He didn’t move. He barely even breathed.

Her voice didn’t break. It stayed steady, strangely so. But her eyes shimmered with tears that never fell. 

“No matter what that means.”

There it was. The truth of it.

She wasn’t just keeping herself from him to avoid pain or shame or guilt. She was doing it because she thought it was right. Because some part of her still believed she didn’t deserve him. That maybe she never had.

And maybe, John thought, that was the cruelest thing this world ever did to people like her. Made them believe that the worst things done to them somehow made them unworthy of the good they had.

He wanted to say something—wanted to tell her she was wrong, that Arthur still carried her ghost like a wound that wouldn’t close. But the words got stuck in his throat.

So instead, he nodded. Just once.

And for a moment, the two of them sat in the quiet. The saloon drifted on around them—men laughing, boots scraping across the floorboards, the crack of cue balls from the far end of the room—but back here, they were in their own still, aching world. Suspended in a silence full of everything they couldn’t say.

Jo leaned back slowly, rubbing her fingers over her eyes like she was trying to clear away more than just tears.

She didn’t cry. Didn’t break. Just sat there for a moment, holding herself together like it was the only thing keeping the walls from caving in. And then, all at once, Jo pushed back her chair and stood.

It caught John off guard.

“What—? You leavin’ already?” he asked, rising slightly from his seat, confused, maybe even a little panicked.

Jo nodded, eyes flicking toward the door like she’d stayed too long. Like this moment was dangerous—like it might unravel her if she let it go on any longer.

“I gotta go,” she said, quietly.

“Where?” John pressed, taking a step after her. “You got a place in town?”

She shook her head. Not an answer, just a refusal.

“Jo, come on. You don’t gotta run off like this. Can’t you just stay a while?”

Her gaze softened, but the steel in her spine didn’t bend.

“It’s better this way,” she said. “You weren’t supposed to find me.”

“Well, I did,” John said, a little harder than he meant to. “I did, and I ain’t gonna pretend it don’t matter. You think I’m just gonna walk outta here like nothin’ happened?”

Jo’s jaw tensed. She glanced back at their table, the half-drunk whiskey still glinting in the dying light. For a second, her mask cracked. She looked tired—more than tired. Like she was holding back an ocean.

“You got your life, John. And I got mine.”

“Where?” he asked, more gently this time. “Where’s your life now?”

Silence. She didn’t answer.

He stepped closer.

“Jo, please. You was family. You still is. You think I don’t lie awake wonderin’ what the hell happened to you after that night? Think I don’t miss you?”

She looked at him then—really looked. And for a flicker of a moment, it was all there. Everything unsaid, everything carried through six long years of silence.

“I can’t go back,” she said, voice just above a whisper. “I don’t even know how to be her anymore.”

“I ain’t askin’ you to be,” John said. “I just wanna know you’re alive. That you’re safe. That maybe we can talk again, not in some bar when the stars align, but regular. Like kin does.”

She stared at him for a long beat, then reached into her coat and pulled out a crumpled scrap of paper. She didn’t write anything—just handed it over.

“If you really need to,” she said, “you can send a letter to Manzanita Post. Don’t expect anything back quick. Or at all.”

John took it carefully, like it might vanish if he gripped too hard. He didn’t say anything for a moment, just looked down at the paper, then back at her.

Her eyes were glassy, but steady.

“You really wanna disappear again?” he asked, voice softer now. “After all this?”

Jo gave a breath of a laugh—small and sad.

“I already disappeared, John. You just happened to be lookin’ close enough to catch me.”

He hated how final it sounded.

She turned toward the door, and the light caught in her hair as it slipped down her back in a golden ribbon, long and loose just like it used to be. For a second, she looked like herself again.

John stood there, fists clenched at his sides, helpless to do anything but watch.

And just before she stepped out into the street, she looked over her shoulder.

“Take care of your family, John. Take care of him… for me.”

Then she was gone.

Chapter 44: Scars Beneath the Skin

Notes:

Hi everyone—before you dive into this chapter, I want to give a heads-up that it contains strong and potentially triggering content.

Please take care of yourselves while reading. If you need to skip or step away, that’s completely okay. Your well-being always comes first. 💛

Chapter Text

The first breath burned.

It dragged in slow, as if her lungs had forgotten how to work. Her chest ached, her ribs groaned, and for a moment she couldn’t remember where—or who—she was. She blinked hard. Light spilled in soft from a cracked windowpane, catching the motes of dust in the air like fireflies in slow motion. Her throat was dry as bone, tongue thick and useless.

Then came the scent: bitter antiseptic, old wood, and laudanum. Her eyes flitted across the dim room—wooden walls, a cluttered desk in the corner, glass bottles lined up like soldiers, the muffled creak of a floorboard overhead. The ceiling above her was water-stained and sloped slightly, like the room had been crammed under the eaves of a building never meant for comfort.

Panic climbed up her spine like a fire.

She bolted upright with a grunt—then gasped and collapsed back against the thin mattress, vision exploding in white-hot pain.

“Whoa there—easy now, miss,” came a voice, calm and weathered.

A figure leaned into view—an older man with sun-worn skin, a neatly trimmed white beard, and kind, cautious eyes. His sleeves were rolled to the elbows and a stethoscope hung around his neck like a loose noose. He crouched beside the bed, hands raised slightly, like one might approach a wild animal caught in a trap.

“You're safe. You’re in my clinic. Name’s Albin Thatcher. I’m a doctor.”

Her heart pounded. She didn’t speak. Her fingers clenched the thin sheet, the coarse fabric coarse against her skin.

She looked around again, more slowly this time. The room was small—barely larger than a storage closet—with an old cabinet, a pitcher and basin, and a wooden chair that looked one sneeze away from splinters. Everything smelled faintly of iodine and dust.

Her voice came out hoarse, cracked. “Where… where am I?”

The doctor shifted, giving her a sip of water before answering. “Small place. You wouldn’t know it unless you meant to get lost. Near Stoner’s Fork. Just a rail stop and a few roofs. Fella brought you in near dead about three weeks back—maybe four. Said he found you off the trail, barely breathing.”

She blinked. The words didn’t quite settle. Three weeks?

A tremor ran through her hands. Slowly, she lifted the thin blanket from her body and peeled it back. Her breath caught in her throat.

A thick, ugly line of stitches ran along her lower belly, jagged and swollen like some cruel seamstress had tried to sew her back into existence. Bruises bloomed down her sides like faded ink, and every muscle screamed as if she’d been trampled by a damn locomotive.

Her fingers grazed the scar.

It was real.

It all came rushing back.

Micah.

The rocks. The fight. His sneer, the pain, the blood.

She had killed him. Put him in the dirt like he deserved. But not before he’d taken a piece of her with him.

The doctor watched her, quietly. “Near bled out. Infection set in. I did what I could. Most folks wouldn’t’ve made it.”

She stared at the ceiling. Her chest rose and fell in slow, shallow breaths. Her lips parted, but there was nothing to say.

He was dead. She had done what needed to be done. But she was still here.

Why?

Her hands shook as she lowered the blanket again. The man—whoever had dragged her out of those woods—was gone. She didn’t even know his name. Why had he saved her?

Her voice came quiet. “Did he leave a name?”

The doctor shook his head. “Just said you needed help. Then he rode off.”

Her throat tightened. Whoever he was, she owed him her life.

But the questions pressed in anyway—thick and suffocating.

Where was the gang? Had they made it out? Were they still being hunted? Were they together? Scattered? Dead?

Was Arthur still alive?

The thought hit her like a hammer.

Arthur.

Her chest constricted. She shut her eyes, like she could will away the memory of his face that night—the cold look in his eyes as she stood in the center of the camp, secret laid bare. He had told her to leave. Told her he didn’t know her anymore.

And maybe he was right.

She had lied. Hidden. Survived.

But God, she had loved them. Every single one of them. Her family, broken as it was.

And now… what was left?

She felt the weight of it all—grief, guilt, the hollow ache of betrayal and abandonment—crash down over her like a rising tide.

A tear slid down her cheek before she could stop it.

She didn’t wipe it away.

She’d given everything to protect them, to end the rot Micah had spread like poison—and in the end, it had cost her everything.

Now she was a ghost with no name. No home.

She could vanish here. Fade into nothing in this quiet little town with its crooked roofs and kind old doctor.

She could be no one.

But could she live like that?

She didn’t know.

All she knew was that something inside her felt broken, and no amount of stitching could fix it.

She turned her head away from the light and let herself lie back against the pillow, a lone survivor of a war no one else remembered.

 


 

The mist came down like a veil over the pines that morning, soft and silver, blurring the world into something dreamlike and quiet.

Jo stood barefoot on the crooked wooden steps of her cabin, a chipped enamel mug clutched between her hands, steam curling up from the bitter black coffee inside. The forest beyond her porch stirred with early birdsong and the distant whisper of leaves dancing in the wind. It was always cold up here in the mornings, even in summer. The shade of the pines, the mountain air—it settled deep in the bones and made everything feel a little slower. A little older.

The cabin had been half-collapsed when she’d found it—just some old trapper’s place, long forgotten, past Manzanita Post, tucked far enough into Tall Trees that no one came looking. The porch still leaned too far to one side, but she’d patched the roof with salvaged shingles, stuffed pine needles and rags into the worst of the wall gaps, and fixed the fireplace with river stones and mortar made from mud and bloodied hands.

It was small. One room, a loft she rarely used, a hearth, a rickety table, and a narrow bed built from an old cot frame and softened with whatever linens she could scavenge. Every corner of the space bore her handiwork—stitched curtains from burlap sacks, shelves made of splintered crates, a handmade trap hung above the fire, still caked with soot. A rabbit pelt lay drying near the hearth, and beside it, her knife, newly sharpened.

Inside, it smelled of pine resin, smoke, and the faintest trace of lavender from the wild bundles she kept near her bed. Not because she liked flowers, but because the scent reminded her of someone else’s life. Something clean. Something simple.

Jo took a sip of coffee and closed her eyes. She listened to the wind. To the creak of the forest stretching in the morning. To her own breath, slow and shallow.

She had been here nearly two months. Two long, quiet months. Enough time to fall into a rhythm. Enough time to memorize the sound of her own heartbeat. Enough time to pretend.

The woods were her refuge. No questions, no stares, no damn lies weighing heavy on her tongue. She hunted when she needed, fished when the rivers thawed, kept to the same narrow trails and never once lit a fire after dark. She was a ghost now, in her own way. And she preferred it that way.

Or at least, she told herself she did.

But there were nights—hell, mornings too—when her hands would tremble out of nowhere. When she’d wake up choking on the memory of blood in her mouth and that rocky cliff edge beneath her boots. Of Micah’s voice. Of Arthur’s face, just before it all shattered.

She hadn’t let herself think about them. Not deeply. Not in a way that hurt too much. She kept it distant. Like old war wounds—aching when it rained, but manageable if you didn’t press too hard.

Still, some mornings…

Jo exhaled, the breath fogging briefly in the air. Her thumb rubbed over the edge of her mug absently. The trees were starting to clear now as the sun rose higher, shafts of pale light cutting through the morning fog. It was beautiful, in a lonely kind of way.

Her horse, that sleek black Arabian mare, grazed quietly in the clearing just beyond the cabin, her coat catching the soft morning light like polished obsidian. Laramie.

She was still there.

Through all of it.

Jo stared at her for a long moment, her chest tightening with a strange ache that never fully went away. Laramie was picking lazily at the tall grass, tail flicking, ears twitching at every birdsong and snapping twig. She moved with the same elegance she always had—careful, alert, proud. And yet, she never strayed far. Not once.

Jo hadn’t expected to wake up in that doctor’s back room. Truth be told, she hadn’t expected to wake up at all.

It was the doctor who had told her about the horse—how the fella who’d found Jo barely breathing, blood-soaked and half-dead, with a black mare standing over her like a guardian, stomping at the dirt and letting out shrill, frantic whinnies until someone came near. The stranger hadn’t even been sure Jo was still alive, but the mare wouldn’t let him walk away. She wouldn’t let him leave her there.

That horse had saved her life.

And now, years later, she still watched over her. Still stood just a few yards from the porch every night, every morning, every time Jo stumbled out of that cabin with hands that shook and eyes that couldn’t see the present.

Jo ran a hand down the side of her face and let the air fill her lungs again. Cool. Damp. Real.

She stepped down from the porch barefoot, the old steps creaking beneath her, and walked across the clearing. The grass was still wet with dew. It stuck to her ankles, clung to the hem of her nightshirt. Laramie’s ears twitched as Jo approached, but she didn’t lift her head—only gave a soft snort, like she’d known all along Jo would come.

“I don’t deserve you,” Jo whispered, her voice cracked from sleep and silence.

She reached up and stroked the mare’s neck, fingers trailing down the familiar line of her shoulder. That same smooth coat, that same steady strength beneath her skin. Jo pressed her forehead to Laramie’s and let her eyes fall closed for a moment. The world quieted.

How many times had this horse carried her out of hell?

How many nights had she stayed near, even when Jo couldn’t lift her head or cry for help?

Laramie nuzzled gently at Jo’s arm, warm breath puffing against her skin. It almost broke her.

She blinked hard, willing back the tightness in her throat. She wasn’t going to cry. Not today. Not again.

Jo ran her hands down Laramie’s sides, inspecting her like she always did—checking for any cuts, any swelling, any signs of age creeping up where it hadn’t before. But she was healthy. Strong. Just a little thinner, like all of them out here. Living quiet meant living lean.

“I know,” Jo murmured. “You want to run. You hate sittin’ still this long.”

The mare bobbed her head gently, as if in answer.

Jo stepped back and sighed, eyes drifting again toward the woods that framed their solitude.

She sat on the fallen log near the treeline, hands wrapped around her chipped enamel mug filled with lukewarm coffee. Laramie grazed nearby, the quiet snorts and rustle of grass the only real sound in the clearing besides the wind whispering through the tall pines.

The fire had burned low hours ago. She hadn't bothered to stoke it again.

All morning, the weight of Blackwater clung to her like a second skin—heavy, hard to breathe through. The sight of John had cracked something deep inside her, something she’d kept buried for years. And now that it had surfaced, she couldn’t shove it back down.

It played over in her mind again and again.

She hadn’t left the woods in weeks. Not since the last supply run to Manzanita Post.

And she hadn’t meant to go to Blackwater at all.

That day had started like any other. Another morning like this one. Coffee. Birds. Silence. But something had gnawed at her. Restlessness, maybe. A whisper from the past she couldn’t quite silence.

That moment by the crates, when she’d turned her head and he was just there.

Same hat. Same swagger. Same damn expression of disbelief and stubbornness and something like sorrow all tangled up behind his eyes.

She hadn’t been prepared.

For any of it.

Jo closed her eyes and let the ache of it move through her like a slow bruise. She brought the cup to her lips, tasted the bitterness, swallowed it anyway.

John Marston.

After all these years.

She’d thought about him more often than she cared to admit—John, Abigail, little Jack… Arthur. Especially Arthur. But John had always felt like the little brother she never had, the one who pushed her buttons and drove her up the wall, but still stood by her when it mattered. Or used to.

Back then, she hadn’t believed she’d ever see any of them again. She’d made her peace with that, hadn’t she?

Hadn’t she?

Jo took a deep breath, eyes fixed on the distant hills where the morning fog still clung to the pines like a secret. The stillness around her pressed in harder now. Too quiet. Too much room to think.

He’d asked her questions—so many questions.

Where had she been? How had she survived? Why hadn’t she come back?

And she hadn’t had answers, not really. Only fragments. Only pain.

She remembered his face when she told him not to tell Arthur.

The way his brow furrowed, the way his mouth twitched like he wanted to argue, but didn’t. He hadn’t understood. How could he?

And still… the way he looked at her, like he was trying to see through the scars and years and silence, to find the Jo he remembered underneath it all… it stuck with her. That damned look.

She hadn’t let him see where she lived. Hadn’t told him more than he needed to know.

But part of her wished she had.

“Damn fool,” she muttered to herself, then let her head drop into her hands.

Was she talking about John?

Or herself?

Maybe both.

She stayed like that a while, elbows on knees, mug cooling in the dirt beside her, the breath of the forest soft around her shoulders.

And in the quiet corners of her thoughts, his voice echoed again.

“You don’t wanna see him?”

Her fingers curled into her palms, nails biting skin.

She’d said no. Said she only wanted Arthur to be happy.

And it was true.

But it wasn’t the whole truth.

She wanted him. Still. Always.

She just didn’t think she had the right anymore.

She thought of the wanted poster, the way Micah’s voice had curled like venom when he’d exposed her in front of everyone. The betrayal in Arthur’s eyes. The step he’d taken back. The silence.

She would never forget it.

She carried it like a wound that never healed right.

Now, the thought that he was still out there—alive, carving things with his hands, living quiet on John’s land—dug under her skin and pulsed like heat in her chest. She wanted to see him. God, she ached to see him. Just once.

But she wouldn’t risk it. No.

Because she had no idea if she still had a place in this world. In his world.

If she ever did.

 


 

The days blurred.

The doctor’s office smelled of chalk dust, bitter tonics, and pipe smoke. A thin lace curtain fluttered against the cracked windowpane, stirred by wind that never quite reached her skin. She lay motionless most days, muscles aching from disuse, the stitches in her belly pulling with every movement.

Sometimes she dreamt she was still on that ridge—blood in her mouth, Micah’s laughter ringing like gunfire. Sometimes she thought she never left that place. That maybe she’d died and the doctor, with his tired eyes and trembling hands, was just some figment of her restless mind.

But no. She was alive.

Barely.

When she finally sat up without passing out, the doctor came in and scowled like she’d insulted his mother.

“You ought to rest another week. At least,” he said, smoothing his thinning hair back like it gave him authority. “You open that wound again, and there’s no stitching it back.”

“I can’t stay,” Jo rasped. Her voice was a splintered thing, raw from disuse.

He sighed. “Your types are all the same. Hard-headed as fence posts.”

She didn’t correct him.

Didn’t correct anyone anymore.

He packed her a small bag—clean bandages, dried jerky, a flask of antiseptic that smelled like gasoline. Left it on the bedside table without a word. The kindness was quiet, practical. She appreciated that more than anything.

She limped out of town just past sunrise. The streets were still muddy from last night’s storm, and fog clung low over the fields like breath that wouldn’t let go. Her steps were slow, but steady.

And then she saw her.

Laramie.

The black mare stood just beyond the general store, tethered loosely to a half-collapsed fence, as if she’d been waiting there all along. Her glossy coat was flecked with dirt, her mane tangled with brambles, but her eyes—those deep, amber-dark eyes—locked on Jo like she knew .

Jo stopped dead in her tracks, breath catching sharp in her throat.

“Laramie,” she whispered.

The mare let out a low whinny and stepped forward, nuzzling her shoulder before Jo even had the strength to lift her arms.

She buried her face in Laramie’s neck, trembling.

“You goddamn clever girl,” she whispered. 

She didn’t cry.

Not then.

But she wanted to.

 

The weeks that followed were quiet, hungry ones. She moved like a shadow between counties, never staying long enough to leave footprints.

Her body healed slowly—angrily, like it resented being put back together. She was too thin, and the scar along her lower belly still pulled when she sat wrong, but it didn’t bleed anymore. That was something.

She found work where she could. Delivering letters between dusty outposts, hauling crates of whiskey, skinning rabbits for trappers. She once spent four days tracking a missing sheepdog through the hills for a blind man who paid her in bread and gratitude.

Other jobs were uglier.

There were nights when her stomach howled so loud it made her nauseous, when the cold got in her bones and refused to leave.

It never got easier.

But she kept moving, always. South and west. Toward something. Toward someone, maybe. Or just away from everything else.

She never used her real name.

Never stayed anywhere long enough to be known.

But Laramie stayed close. Every time. Like a shadow that refused to leave her.

One night, somewhere past Valentine but north of the Dakota River, Jo sat by a small fire and looked at her hands. Thin. Calloused. Blood under the nails. She didn’t recognize them.

Didn’t recognize herself.

Micah was gone. She’d killed him. The blood he spilled—Hosea’s, Arthur’s trust, the gang’s family—had been paid for. But not undone . And not forgotten .

She didn’t know where the others were. If they even still were.

Maybe the gang had scattered to the wind like everything else in her life.

But sometimes, when she closed her eyes, she saw Jack’s smile. Abigail’s soft scolding. Arthur’s deep voice in the dark beside a fire, telling her it’d all be alright, even when it wasn’t.

She didn’t believe in ghosts.

But she lived with them anyway.

 


 

The scream tore through her before she was even fully awake.

Jo sat bolt upright in the narrow bed, chest heaving, nightshirt plastered to her skin with sweat. Her hands clutched at her sides before she could stop them, pressing instinctively against her belly—against the long, puckered scar hidden beneath cotton and shame. For a moment, she couldn’t breathe. Couldn’t think. Couldn’t see anything but blood. Micah’s face. His goddamn grin. His hand pulling the knife free and—

She gasped, blinking into the dark.

The nightmare dissolved, but the weight it left behind stayed with her, pressing into her chest like a stone.

She was in the cabin.

Not the ridge.

Not the past.

Just the cabin.

A low wind moved through the trees outside, brushing against the old wooden walls like fingertips. The hearth had burned low—bare embers now, still flickering like coals in a dying heart. Smoke curled faintly in the air, clinging to the ceiling like ghosts.

Jo swallowed hard, wiped her damp brow, and dragged in a shuddering breath.

Her limbs trembled as she turned and planted her bare feet on the cool floorboards. The old wood creaked beneath her like it, too, remembered things it would rather forget.

She pushed herself to her feet slowly. Her joints ached. Her scar throbbed. The pain was dulled now—manageable—but never truly gone. Some nights, like this one, it pulled her backward, through time, through memory, through the agony of what it meant to live when you weren’t supposed to.

She grabbed the worn blanket from the bed and wrapped it tight around her shoulders. Walked over to the window.

The woods outside were pitch dark. The moon had long since slipped behind the western peaks, and clouds covered the stars in a heavy shroud. The only light came from the smoldering hearth and the faint glint of Laramie’s black coat outside, where the mare stood quietly under the lean-to, eyes half-lidded in sleep. Even the trees stood still, heavy with silence and old snow.

Jo pressed her palm against the window’s warped glass.

She could see her reflection faintly—a pale ghost with hollow eyes and a healing scar beneath her collarbone. The kind of woman people passed in the street without looking twice. No trace of the outlaw girl she used to be.

She didn’t look alive . Not really.

But she was.

And sometimes, that felt worse.

She lit the oil lamp on the table and sat beside it, the chair creaking as she settled in. The cabin smelled of pine smoke and old earth. A stack of firewood leaned against the wall. A kettle hung over the hearth, half-full from the evening before. Her rifle sat propped in the corner, within easy reach. Everything was where it should be.

And yet everything inside her felt wrong .

She ran a finger down the side of her throat, tracing the edge of another scar—thin, faded, like someone had tried to cut the voice right out of her once. Others lined her ribs. Her back. Her lower belly where Micah had stabbed her and left her for dead.

They didn’t hurt much anymore.

But they itched.

Like old sins never fully healed.

She got up again and moved to the small desk by the window. The surface was cluttered with pieces of paper—some covered in shaky handwriting, others half-crumpled, ink-stained. Letters never sent. Names she dared not write down. Maps she’d drawn from memory, tracking her aimless path across the country.

And Arthur’s name.

Always Arthur’s name.

Scrawled in corners. Hidden in margins. As if writing it kept him tethered to the world.

She stared at one page in particular. The ink had run slightly from when her hand had shaken. The words were simple, but her throat tightened every time she read them:

I wanted to come back. But I didn’t know if you’d still want me.

She folded the page and tucked it beneath the others. No point in torturing herself.

Outside, a wolf howled far off in the hills. Laramie shifted in the shadows, ears flicking but unbothered.

Jo leaned back in her chair and closed her eyes, fingers tightening on the wool blanket around her shoulders.

There were nights she thought she should’ve died on that ridge. That maybe the world would’ve been kinder if she had.

But fate had different plans. And fate was a cruel bastard.

She'd fought for her life. Killed for it. Crawled through blood and snow and fire to take it back. But now that she had it—this half-life in the woods, this quiet exile—she didn’t know what the hell to do with it.

Survive. That’s all she did now. She existed. Day after day. Fixing things. Feeding herself. Hiding.

It was enough.

It had to be enough.

But when the nightmares came—when the past wrapped its cold fingers around her throat—she remembered why it would never really be over.

No matter how far she ran.

The wind had picked up.

Jo eased the cabin door open with a soft creak, the worn hinges groaning in protest before falling silent again. A rush of cold air slipped in—sharp and wild, thick with pine, smoke, and the faint musk of damp earth. She stepped onto the porch, pulling the blanket tighter around her shoulders, and let the door fall gently shut behind her.

The old porch sagged under her bare feet, the wood splintered and uneven, softened by years of weather and silence. She stood there a moment, letting the chill settle into her skin, anchoring her. The cold helped. Made her feel less like a ghost.

Out in the clearing, Laramie lifted her head and whickered softly.

“I’m all right, girl,” Jo murmured.

The mare flicked her ears, then lowered her head again, satisfied.

The world around them was still as glass.

Tall Trees loomed like black titans, their silhouettes etched against the faintest hint of moonlight breaking through a patch of thinning clouds. Beyond the cabin, the forest stretched wide and dark, dense with brush and shadows. The kind of silence that only existed out here—untouched, immense—wrapped around everything. No towns. No voices. No memories. Just breath and bark and bone.

Jo’s breath misted in front of her, slow and unsteady. She leaned one shoulder against the porch post and stared out at nothing in particular.

Her fingers absently traced the edge of the scar beneath her blanket, her mind still tangled in the dream—the memory. His face, twisted with hate. The weight of his body as she’d fought to breathe. The moment she pulled the trigger. The blood. The silence after.

She closed her eyes.

She hadn’t screamed that night. Not even when it was over.

She remembered lying on the ground, the sky spinning above her. Remembered the faint sound of Laramie’s hooves pawing the ground nearby, and then nothing.

Just the slow, spiraling dark.

And then she’d woken up in a stranger’s bed, held together by stitches and luck, too weak to move, too stubborn to die.

A miracle, the old doctor had said.

Jo snorted softly.

Wasn’t no miracle. Just stubbornness. Rage. That old, feral need to survive.

Still, sometimes… she wished it had gone the other way.

Sometimes, the loneliness was worse than the pain. Worse than the nightmares.

She missed voices.

Laughter.

The scrape of tin cups, the crackle of firewood, Dutch’s sermons and Hosea’s quiet wisdom. She even missed the bickering—John’s growl, Arthur’s dry sarcasm, Javier’s endless singing. And Jack’s laughter—God, Jack’s laughter. The sound of a child who still believed in something good.

And Arthur…

Jo swallowed hard and looked up at the sky.

The clouds had parted, just enough to show the edge of a star. One star, blinking faint above the trees. Small. Faint. But still there.

She wondered where he was now.

If he was out there somewhere under this same sky. If he thought of her.

If he hated her.

If he thought she was dead.

Maybe he did. Maybe they all did.

Maybe that was safer for them.

She exhaled slowly and leaned forward, resting her elbows on the porch rail.

Her fingers brushed the wood out of habit, tracing the worn grain. She’d hammered some of the boards back in place herself, patched the gaps with moss and old nails scavenged from a broken barn a few miles out. It wasn’t much, but it was shelter. It kept out the rain. The snow. The past, mostly.

But not the dark. Not the dreams.

Not the guilt.

She stood there for a long while, letting the wind thread through her hair, lifting it off her neck in slow, tangled strands.

This was her life now.

A ghost in the woods.

No purpose. No name.

Just the sound of trees and a heart that hadn’t quite figured out how to stop beating.

 


 

The town of Santa Rosa sat like a blister on the edge of nowhere, sun-struck and bone dry. It wasn't even on most maps. One main street cut through the middle, just wide enough for a wagon to pass, with a dry goods store, a half-shuttered saloon, a leaning chapel with a broken bell, and not much else but wind, grit, and sunburned silence.

Jo rode into town at dusk, the sky a cracked eggshell of orange and fading gold. Her hat was pulled low, shadowing the sharp lines of her face, but the eyes beneath it stayed sharp. Watchful. Like she expected trouble and knew how to greet it when it came.

She didn’t draw much attention—folks in Santa Rosa were used to broken things wandering through. And she looked like one more cracked vessel. Thin but strong, with that raw, sun-weathered look only distance and hardship could give. Her coat was too big across the shoulders, sleeves cuffed twice over. A rifle slung behind her saddle. Dirt on her boots, old bloodstains on her shirt faded to rust.

She rode past a group of older men on the porch of the saloon. One spat. One stared. One squinted like he was trying to place her face with something uglier in his memory. But none of them said a word.

It had been nearly four months since she left the doctor’s care. Four months of drifting across the country like a ghost. Her body had healed—more or less. The long, jagged scar that ran along her lower belly still ached when she twisted too quick or slept wrong. But she’d learned to live with it, like all the others. Pain didn’t faze her much anymore.

She’d worked odd jobs through dying ranches and empty fields, hunted game and sold pelts to cold-eyed traders, even delivered parcels to places she barely remembered arriving in. It kept her moving. Kept her fed. Kept her from thinking too much.

But that day in Santa Rosa—the day the heat clung to her skin like tar and the wind came in dry off the hills—she made a mistake.

She should’ve kept riding.

The town was barely a handful of sunbaked buildings strung out along a crooked dirt road. A general store with a splintering porch. A saloon with broken shutters and a warped piano someone occasionally tried to play. A church with no bell and a half-collapsed stable that reeked of sweat and manure. The sky above was white-hot and cloudless. Dust rose with every step she took, sticking to her boots, her throat, her lungs.

Laramie had been tired, though. The mare’s flanks were damp with sweat and her gait sluggish by the time they crested the low ridge and saw the place. So she stopped.

Jo dismounted outside the saloon, tying Laramie’s reins loosely around the half-rotted hitching post. The town was mostly silent, save for the wind and the low creak of something metal in the distance—an old weather vane or maybe a busted sign flapping against a beam. No one lingered outside. No voices. No laughter. Just heat.

She stepped into the saloon and paused as her eyes adjusted to the dim. The air inside was cooler, heavy with the smell of sweat, stale beer, and pine cleaner someone had given up using weeks ago. Sunlight streamed through the slats in the shutters, carving thin lines of gold across the dusty floor.

There were three men at a poker table near the corner, hunched and silent. Another sat slouched against the bar, half-asleep with a bottle cradled like a child in his arms. The barkeep stood behind the counter, lean and lined, wiping a glass with a rag that looked no cleaner than the floors.

Jo walked up and cleared her throat. Her boots thudded softly against the wooden planks.

The barkeep didn’t look up.

“You servin’?” she asked.

“Depends,” he muttered, voice gravelly. “You got coin?”

“I’m looking for work.”

That made him pause. His eyes lifted, took her in all at once—head to toe, slow and skeptical. She wasn’t hard to read: a woman alone, clothes dusty and sun-faded, cheeks hollow from travel. And behind her eyes, that same look he’d seen a thousand times before in places like this. Hunger. Not for food. For rest. For something like safety.

“There ain’t much work round here,” he said, leaning against the counter. “’Less you’re good with hammer and nails or breaking mules.”

“I ain’t bad with either,” she replied quietly.

He snorted. “Even so. Ain’t the kind of jobs folk give to women. Not ‘round here.”

Jo’s jaw tensed. She looked down at her gloves, then slowly back up.

“You got any kind of work?” she asked again, something sharper in her tone now, like a blade honed thin from use.

He gave her a long, tired look, then sighed.

“Well… There’s always that kinda work,” he said, gesturing vaguely toward the upstairs balcony with a tilt of his chin. “We get drifters in now and again. Miners, ranch hands, men passing through. They pay good for a soft hand and a warm bed.”

Jo’s mouth went dry. Her heart beat once, hard, against her ribs.

The barkeep raised an eyebrow. “You look like you ain’t eaten proper in days. I’m just saying what’s real.”

She didn’t answer.

“You don’t gotta do nothin’ you don’t wanna. But if you do wanna, I can fix you up with a room. You keep half what they pay. Rest goes to the house.”

Jo’s hands curled into fists at her sides. The thought of letting some stranger touch her, press his weight down on her, breathe hot in her ear—it made bile rise in her throat. But her coin purse was nearly empty. She’d gone two days without a proper meal. Laramie needed feed, and she didn’t know if they’d make it to the next town without something in their bellies.

It was survival.

Her shoulders lowered with a quiet exhale.

“When can I start?” she asked, almost too low to hear.

The barkeep nodded slowly, as if he’d known she’d say yes. He reached under the counter, pulled out a folded bundle of faded silk and lace, worn but still intact. A corset, frilled chemise, stockings. Not elegant. Not clean. But it was the costume the part demanded.

“There’s a dressing room through the back,” he said, handing it to her. 

Jo took the bundle with trembling fingers and walked toward the back room, her boots suddenly too loud against the wood.

The back room was small and stifling, barely more than a closet with peeling wallpaper and warped floorboards that creaked under every step. The window was shuttered, letting in only thin shafts of afternoon light that caught the dust hanging like mist in the air. The air smelled of perfume gone stale and something older—sweat, maybe, or the memory of other women who had come through this same door with their heads low and pockets empty.

Jo stood in the center of the room, the bundle of clothes held tight against her chest. Her boots felt too big for the room, too loud. Everything felt loud—the beating of her heart, the scratch of fabric against her fingers, the ragged breath she hadn’t realized she was holding.

There was a mirror nailed crookedly to the far wall. The silver had faded in streaks down the middle, like time had tried to erase the face staring back. Still, her own reflection glared out at her—dust-smudged, sun-worn, mouth set hard beneath eyes that looked too old for her years.

She stared at herself. Not blinking. Not moving.

And for a long moment, Jo didn’t feel like she was standing in the present at all.

She was fourteen again. Back on the ranch. Her father’s footsteps on the porch. The slap of a belt against leather. The stench of sour whiskey on his breath as he leaned too close. She remembered how small she had felt. How quiet she had become. The walls back then had been too thin to hide anything. Not her bruises. Not her cries.

She blinked hard.

Her hands trembled as she set the clothes down on the old stool. She didn’t want to touch them, but she did. She undressed slowly, methodically—like it wasn’t her own body she was peeling out of dirt-caked denim and sun-bleached flannel. She folded her old clothes with care, as if the act would somehow preserve her dignity. She stood there in nothing but her underthings, bare feet on splintered wood, and stared again at the mirror.

Her body was lean and scarred. A pale seam ran down her left side from where Micah had driven the knife into her. She’d stitched it herself once, after having left the doctor and reopened her wound. Her ribs still ached when she moved wrong. Her thighs bore old bruises from riding all day. Her arms, once soft, had gone wiry from hard travel.

She didn’t look soft.

She didn’t look like someone a man would pay for.

But that wasn’t the point.

The corset was too tight. The chemise too thin. The stockings itched against her skin. She tied the laces with fingers that didn’t want to cooperate, her shoulders hunched like she could somehow hide herself inside the fabric. Her hair was a tangled mess, but she did what she could with it—shoving pins into place, smoothing the worst of the wildness. There wasn’t a lick of rouge, no perfume. Just Jo. Hollowed out and made into something that looked the part.

She turned from the mirror, chest heaving slightly.

She wanted to run. She wanted to rip the corset off, take Laramie, and disappear into the trees. Go back to sleeping in caves, drinking from muddy creeks, hunting rabbits in the dark. She knew that life. This? This was foreign. This was dangerous in a different way.

But she didn’t move.

Instead, she crossed to the wall and sat on the edge of the bed—thin mattress, lumpy and uneven, the sheets crinkled and stained. She smoothed her palms down her skirt, heart pounding like war drums.

And then came the knock.

Three raps on the door. Heavy. Lazy. A little too familiar.

Her stomach dropped.

She didn’t answer.

“Girl?” came the barkeep’s voice from the other side, muffled but clear. “You good in there?”

Jo opened her mouth but nothing came out.

The world was quiet save for the buzzing in her ears and the creak of the bed springs beneath her.

Then, in a voice that didn’t sound like her own, she said, “Yeah.”

The door creaked open on rusted hinges, slow and groaning. Jo didn’t look up at first. She kept her eyes on the floorboards, letting the dust and grime blur together until it all felt far away. But then came the boots — heavy, uneven steps across the warped wood, the sound of someone trying to act sober when they were anything but.

He smelled of sweat and cheap whiskey, the kind that clung to a man’s skin like smoke. His belt clinked loose before he even shut the door behind him. And when he did, the latch clicked loud — too loud — like a closing cell.

Jo raised her eyes and offered the kind of smile that didn’t touch her eyes.

“Evenin’,” she said softly, her voice husky but sweet. Like honey laced with rust.

The man — grizzled, cheeks mottled red with broken capillaries, eyes too eager — chuckled as he tugged off his coat. It landed in a crumpled heap on the floor. He swayed a little, licking his lips as he looked her over, eyes crawling slow down the length of her. The kind of look that didn’t see her as a person, just a thing to spend and forget.

“Damn shame,” he muttered, stumbling toward her, “wastin’ a pretty thing like you in a place like this.”

Jo said nothing. Just smiled a little tighter, like it might keep the bile down.

He sat heavily on the edge of the bed, one hand fumbling at her thigh, the other already tugging at the waistband of his trousers. His breath hit her face—sour, hot, desperate. She turned her head slightly, not enough to be rude, just enough to not gag.

She didn’t move when he touched her. Not at first.

But when his fingers slid higher, groping clumsily, she forced herself to react—to respond the way he expected. She shifted, lifting her skirt, letting it fall again. A well-practiced act, learned not from experience, but from survival. From watching how other women endured what they had to.

She became someone else. Not Jo. Not Sarah. Just a blank space wearing a dress.

He didn’t bother with words, just grunted as he shoved her back against the mattress. She didn’t resist. Didn’t help, either. Just lay there, staring at the cracks in the ceiling as the weight of him settled over her. His hands were rough, grabbing, pulling, fumbling to arrange her like a rag doll.

She stared at a cobweb in the corner of the ceiling, its delicate strands swaying slightly in the stale air. She focused on that — the shape of it, the way it clung stubbornly to the beams. She imagined being that spider, high above the mess, untouched and alone.

The man grunted again. The bed creaked in protest. Jo didn't make a sound.

Her thoughts drifted.

Money. She needed money. A bed. A roof. Somewhere no one knew her name. Somewhere the ghosts couldn’t follow.

Dutch used to say money buys freedom.

He’d say a lot of things, wouldn’t he?

She thought of the campfire crackling on cold nights, of Hosea’s laugh, of Charles sharpening his knife, of John grumbling about chores. She thought of Arthur.

Arthur.

Her throat closed at the memory. He hadn’t said much when she’d been exposed, not after Micah laid it all out like rotting meat. Just that cold step backward. That look. Like she was a stranger. A liar. A danger.

She blinked slowly.

What would he think if he saw me now?

A whimper escaped the man above her—pathetic and low—and then he was done, slumped like a sack of wet flour. Jo didn’t move. Not yet. Not until he rolled off her with a breathless, drunken chuckle and reached for his trousers.

“Worth every cent,” he mumbled, already half-asleep.

She didn’t speak. Just sat up slowly, hands trembling as she reached for her dress. Her skin crawled where he’d touched her. Every inch of her wanted to scrub herself raw. But there was no bath here. No time.

He dropped a few coins on the nightstand without looking.

She stared at them for a long, long time.

This is what she was worth now?

She picked them up. Pocketed them. Like they were any other job. Like she hadn’t just carved another piece off herself to earn them.

She stood, straightened her skirts, and walked to the mirror.

The woman staring back wasn’t proud.

By late afternoon, her room had been visited by three more men.

One was young, barely out of boyhood, nervously apologetic with clumsy hands and too much sweat. He didn’t look her in the eyes. Left the coins and scurried off, shame hot on his heels.

The next was older, smelled of pipe smoke and mothballs. He talked too much. Wanted to be touched in ways that made her skin crawl, but nothing violent. She played along. Forced her voice low and sweet, lips twitching with the smile he expected.

The third was quiet. Cold. Barely said a word as he used her. Not cruel, but not human either. Just another shadow looking for release. When he left, she lit the cracked oil lamp and sat on the edge of the bed, fingers trembling.

She didn’t count the coins. She didn’t even look at them.

Outside, the town settled into dusk. Dust blowing off the street. Lamps lighting one by one like tired eyes blinking against the dark.

Then came the knock.

It was late. The hour when the drunks got meaner and the shadows thicker. Her legs ached. Her ribs were sore from the press of bodies. Her stomach churned.

Still, she opened the door.

He was big. Broad in the shoulders with bloodshot eyes and a grin that didn’t reach his eyes. His coat was torn, boots caked in mud, and he reeked of rotgut and unwashed skin. He didn’t introduce himself. Just dropped a handful of silver onto the table and shut the door behind him with a solid click.

Jo’s spine went rigid.

Something about him—it wasn’t just the size, or the stink. It was the way he looked at her. Like a butcher choosing a cut.

“Don’t talk,” he slurred, kicking off his boots. “Don’t need none o’ that.”

He stepped closer. She didn’t move. Not yet. She was still in her mask. Still in her act.

Until he grabbed her wrist. Hard.

Not guiding. Not inviting.

Claiming.

“Gonna need you on your knees, sweetheart,” he said, voice low and nasty. “You’re gonna use that mouth for somethin’ useful.”

Jo froze.

“No,” she said—quiet but clear.

He blinked. Laughed. “What’s that?”

“I said no.” Her voice didn’t tremble.

His face changed then. That grin soured into something sharp. His grip tightened, fingers digging into her bone.

“This what I paid for,” he hissed. “Don’t start actin’ high ‘n mighty now, whore. Don’t make me—”

Jo barely had time to register the movement.

He lunged.

One hand clamped hard around her jaw, rough fingers digging into her skin, the other gripping her arm like a vice. With a grunt, he shoved her back against the wall—hard enough to rattle her spine and knock the air from her lungs.

The lamp on the bedside table shook with the impact. The wooden walls creaked.

Pain bloomed across her shoulder, sharp and hot. She twisted against him, instinct flaring, but he was too strong and too close . His breath was sour with whiskey, lips curled back in a snarl as he pressed his weight into her.

“You ain’t better than this,” he spat. “You think you are, but I see through it. Just another tight hole lookin’ for a meal ticket.”

His free hand fumbled at his belt, eyes glazed and violent.

She froze for a heartbeat. Not in fear—but in fury.

All the shame she’d swallowed. All the times she’d smiled when she wanted to scream. All the years of men thinking they could take from her, mold her, own her. All of it surged, boiling beneath her ribs.

And she snapped.

Her eyes dropped to the bottle by the table. She didn’t think. She didn’t plan. She just moved.

With a sharp twist, she yanked herself sideways, jerking his balance off just enough. Her fingers found the neck of the half-empty whiskey bottle and closed tight. She swung it wide and fast.

Glass shattered across his temple with a sickening crack.

He howled, stumbling back, blood pouring instantly from the gash above his eye, thick and red and fast. He knocked into the table, sending it crashing sideways. The lamp burst, flame hissing out against the floor.

“You bitch !” he bellowed, staggering forward.

Jo didn’t flinch.

Not anymore.

Still holding the jagged neck of the bottle, she stepped in, slashing upward—not to kill, but to warn. The glass caught his forearm as he raised it to block, and blood bloomed again.

“I said no ,” she growled, voice low and hoarse, almost unrecognizable.

He faltered, blinking through blood and rage and sudden, primal fear. “You crazy—!”

She kicked him square in the gut. He grunted, stumbled backward, hit the edge of the bed and dropped to his knees with a heavy thud.

Jo backed away toward the door, never turning her back. Her breathing was fast now, shallow, her ribs flaring with pain and adrenaline. Her arm throbbed where he’d grabbed her. Her hands were slick with sweat and blood—his or hers, she couldn’t tell.

He tried to rise, swaying like a felled tree. “I’ll kill you,” he spat through blood-stained teeth.

Jo’s eyes narrowed. “You ain’t got the balls.”

Then she turned and kicked the door open, the knob slamming against the wall.

She didn’t look back.

Didn’t stop.

Her boots clattered down the stairs like thunder. Faces turned—some too slow to register, some pretending not to see. The bartender stepped out from behind the bar with a curse, but she didn’t stop for him either.

She burst out into the street and into the night.

The cold slapped her skin.

Somewhere behind her, she heard a crash, a yell—someone checking on the mess upstairs—but it all blurred into background noise.

She turned down the alley, hands trembling now, and collapsed against the rough brick of the saloon’s outer wall. Her whole body quaked.

And then—she vomited . Violent and raw.

The bile burned her throat. Her eyes stung. She coughed and spat, chest heaving, but not a single tear fell.

She wiped her mouth with the back of her sleeve, smearing blood across her cheek without realizing it.

When the nausea passed, she stood there in the dark alley, bracing herself on the wall with one hand, still gripping the bloody bottleneck in the other like a weapon.

She didn’t look like a woman anymore.

She looked like a survivor. Bruised. Filthy. Shaking.

But standing.

The cold air rushed in her lungs, sharp and sobering.

What would Arthur think if he saw me now?

The thought came, uninvited. Unwelcome.

Would he be angry? Disgusted?

Would he look at her like all the others had in the end — not like a partner, not even like a person, but like something broken and sharp-edged? A liar. A burden. Someone who couldn’t be trusted.

Would he look at her and see this?
Her dress askew. The faint smear of blood at her jaw. Hands trembling from adrenaline and rage and shame. Would he see the filth in her fingernails, the bruise blooming across her collarbone? Would he smell the whiskey, the sweat, the bile clinging to her breath?

Would he say anything at all?

Would he even care?

That one landed hardest. Made her chest feel like it was caving in. Because the truth was, she didn’t know. Not anymore.

He’d looked at her like she was a stranger, that last time — like every soft thing between them had turned to rot the moment her truth came out. All that they’d been building, all that weightless, aching something that lived between their glances, between the quiet — gone in an instant.

His voice, cold as iron: You lied to me.

It still haunted her. More than the gunshots. More than the blood.

And that was the worst part, wasn’t it?

He could’ve killed her with that look. And maybe he had.

Jo pressed her back harder against the wall, letting the stone bite into her spine. The alley stank — of rot, of piss, of her own vomit. A dog barked in the distance. Somewhere down the main street, a man laughed — drunk and oblivious.

She stared down at her hands.

They were still shaking.

And there was blood on them.

She didn’t even know if it was hers.

She let out a low, humorless breath that might ’ve been a laugh, or maybe just the last scrap of strength leaving her lungs. Her voice caught in her throat as the thought she’d been avoiding rose up and wrapped itself around her like a noose.

And maybe , she thought bitterly, I hate me too .

There it was.

Not shame.

Not regret.

But something deeper. Uglier. Heavier.

Self-hatred wasn’t a scream or a sob — it was a grinding . A weight. It was waking up and wondering why. It was eating just enough to keep breathing. It was lying through her teeth every time she said, I’m fine , even if no one was asking anymore.

It was knowing she’d done what she had to — and still feeling dirty .

She’d survived.

She always did.

But surviving ain’t the same as living.

And right now, pressed against a saloon’s outer wall in some godforsaken town that didn’t even know her name, she didn’t feel alive. She felt like a ghost in her own skin. A mask over hollow bone.

She closed her eyes. Inhaled once, slow and steady.

And when she opened them again, there were no tears.

Just the same old fire behind them. Dimmer, maybe. But not out.

Never out.

She pushed off the wall with a groan and started walking.

The night was cold and unforgiving, but so was she—and neither would claim her without a fight.

Chapter 45: The Edge of Knowing

Chapter Text

The morning sun had barely climbed over the ridgeline when John Marston sat at the edge of the porch, elbows on his knees, an envelope in one hand and a cigarette burning slow between his fingers. The smoke curled up and drifted past his hat brim, dissolving into the chill of the late autumn air. It was quiet, save for the creak of the wooden boards beneath his boots and the occasional huff of the horses in the nearby paddock.

A cup of coffee sat cooling beside him on the step. Abigail was inside with Jack, probably setting the table for breakfast, or trying to tame the boy’s ever-growing restlessness. It was a good life here. Simple. Steady. What they’d all fought for. And yet, John’s heart wasn’t settled. Not today. Not since that day in Blackwater, weeks ago now, when he'd seen a ghost cross the street.

Jo.

Alive .
Walking. Breathing. Disappearing into the crowd like the damn wind after their conversation in the saloon.

He hadn’t called after her. Hadn’t run through the streets like some kind of madman to confirm what his heart already screamed. He hadn’t followed her to see where she lived now. He hadn’t even asked her if it was true—what Micah had said about her, all those years ago when the gang tore itself apart. The lies. The name. The blood on her past. He didn’t ask if any of it was real. 

Why?
Maybe because deep down, he already knew. Maybe because some part of him had always known. Or maybe it was fear—fear that looking her in the eyes would’ve meant facing something too damn heavy. Some truths were too sharp to hold.

He flicked the ash off his cigarette, set it down on the porch rail, and leaned forward, unfolding the crumpled letter he'd started three times already.

Dear Jo,

Hope you’re keepin’ warm. Weather turned colder sooner than expected out here. Leaves are all gone now. Jack’s growing like a weed. Abby says he’s almost as tall as me—he ain't, but I let her say it.

We had to fix the roof again, damn shingles keep blowin’ off in the wind. Arthur helped me patch it. He still works over at the edge of the property, carving more than talking these days. I guess we’re all settlin’ into the quiet…

He stopped there.

His pen hovered for a moment, a bead of ink blooming against the paper like a bruise. He wanted to say more—needed to. About Arthur. About how hollow he’d looked these past weeks, how he'd grown quieter with each passing day. The light that used to flicker behind his eyes when he teased Jack or whittled something for the porch was dim now. Sometimes John caught him sitting outside his cabin long after dark, just staring into the trees. Like he was waitin’ for something. Or someone.

But John didn’t write any of that. Couldn’t.

Jo had made him promise, her voice low and cracking as they stood under the shadows of that Blackwater saloon. “Don’t tell him. Don’t tell anyone. Just take care of him… for me.”
And he’d sworn. God help him, he’d sworn.

So instead, he scratched out the line about Arthur and wrote:

Things are quiet. We’re all gettin’ by. One day at a time.

He signed it —J, folded the page slow, like every movement required effort, and slipped it into the envelope. He’d mail it later. Maybe. Or maybe it would join the other letters he hadn’t sent yet, tucked beneath the floorboard in the barn where no one would find them.

Because the truth was this: knowing Jo was alive haunted him.

Not because she was a ghost returned, but because he couldn’t tell anyone. Couldn’t tell Abigail, who would’ve understood more than he gave her credit for. Couldn’t tell Arthur, who deserved to know more than anyone. Arthur, who’d bled for all of them. Arthur, who still bore the wound of her betrayal like a fresh cut that wouldn’t close.

It felt wrong, keeping it from him. Every day, it clawed at John’s chest a little deeper. But what could he do? Jo had trusted him with her secret, and he’d seen her face when she made him promise. Pale and exhausted, eyes hollowed by more than just time. There was something broken in her then. Something fragile that had never been there before.

She’d looked him in the eye and said, “I want him to be happy. No matter what that means…”

So John said nothing. 

He watched Arthur fade from the edges. Watched him age faster than the calendar said he should. And every time he saw that pain in Arthur’s eyes, that flicker of mourning he didn’t speak of, John thought: This is my fault.

He put out the cigarette, ran a hand down his face, and stood up, bones stiff from sitting too long. In the distance, the wind rolled through the tall grass of the field, rustling like whispers. The horses stirred in the barn. Life moved on.

But John didn’t feel like part of it, not fully. Not when a piece of him lived somewhere out there—out past the hills, in some quiet corner of the world where a woman he once called family was trying to forget she’d ever known him.

Jo was alive.

And Arthur didn’t know.

And every day John said nothing , it felt like a betrayal in both directions.

Another day on the ranch waited for him. But he couldn't shake the weight in his chest—or the question that followed him like a shadow:

What the hell would Arthur do if he ever found out?

John stared past the fields toward the trees, toward nothing , really—just the echo of something old and sharp pressing in on his mind. He’d been carrying this weight for weeks now, but truth be told, it wasn’t new. The guilt didn’t start in Blackwater.

It started back then.

When they thought she was dead.

 


 

Somewhere in the hills of Three Sister, late 1899

The sky had broken open overnight, soaking the wilderness in cold, silver sheets. Rain still clung to the branches like sweat, mist crawling low through the trees, curling around boots and hooves. It was the kind of morning that pressed on the bones — heavy, silent, damp with dread.

Arthur rode ahead, jaw clenched, eyes scanning the landscape. His coat was soaked to the shoulders, dripping at the elbows, but he didn’t seem to notice. Not the cold. Not the ache. Not the burning fatigue that gripped him after two nights with no sleep. Only the trail mattered. Only her.

John followed a little behind, boots slick with mud, rifle slung across his back. He said nothing, hadn’t said much at all since they set out. Just rode. Followed. Searched. Like if he kept moving forward, he'd delay whatever truth waited for them at the end.

The two men reined their horses at the edge of a rocky bluff, where the trees opened up into a clearing carved into the side of the mountain. A mess of branches had been disturbed. Broken brush. Blood.

Arthur dismounted first, boots hitting the mud with a heavy thud. He knelt by a patch of upturned earth, fingers ghosting over a dark smear barely visible in the wet soil. Blood—old, but not forgotten. The rain hadn’t fully washed it away, and the sharp tang of iron still clung to the air like a ghost.

John stepped down beside him, eyes catching the same thing. "Jesus..."

Arthur didn’t answer. He looked further — and then he saw it.

Micah.

The bastard was crumpled half under a dead log at the base of a rock face, limbs twisted beneath him like a broken doll. Rain slicked his body, washing blood in thin rivulets from his mouth and temple. His hat was gone. One eye swollen shut. Mud clung to his face and hair, and flies still clung stubbornly to the bruised ruin of his features, drunk on what the rain hadn’t yet carried away..

John swore under his breath, stepping closer. "That him?"

Arthur’s voice came low, hoarse. “Yeah.”

Micah’s knife still lay near his open hand. And beside it, a drag mark, leading into the brush — then nothing. No sign of Jo. No body. Just more blood, like a trail that never ended.

Arthur stood, staring down at the corpse. His face was blank — too blank. Too quiet. Like he’d carved out all emotion and stuffed it deep into some unreachable hole. The only sign of anything at all was in the tension of his jaw, the way his gloved hands curled into fists at his sides.

“She fought him,” he muttered. “Damn well fought him.” He swallowed hard. “Killed him.”

John looked up sharply. “You sure she’s the one who did it?”

Arthur just looked at him. The answer was plain. Of course she was. There was no one else.

But that didn’t explain where she was now.

“She ain’t here,” John said, pacing a few feet, eyes raking the edge of the woods. “Could still be alive. Maybe she got away.”

Arthur didn’t respond. He walked a slow circle around the clearing, taking in every mark — the churned mud, the broken twigs, the shape of a body that had once lain in the rain before being dragged, half-covered, like someone had made the effort… and then stopped.

The blood trail ended near the ridge, soaked into the mossy rock.

John watched him, brows furrowed. “You really think she’s gone?”

Arthur froze. “Ain’t what I think.”

“What then?”

Arthur looked at him now, face cold and dark under the brim of his hat. “Ain’t what I think , John.”

A silence settled between them — thick, awful, buzzing with the ghosts of everything they didn’t want to admit. The rain had turned the soil soft beneath their boots, swallowing their weight, muffling everything but their breathing and the far-off whistle of wind through trees.

John exhaled sharply and turned his back to the clearing, staring out over the tree line like answers might be hiding in the fog. “She ain't just gone, Arthur. She’s dead, ain't she?”

Arthur didn’t answer.

That was when John snapped.

“Dammit, say something!” he barked, turning on him. “She’s gone! She’s gone, and it’s your goddamn fault!”

Arthur’s shoulders stiffened, but he didn’t move. Didn’t blink. Just stared down at the blood.

“You’s the one told her to leave,” John continued, stepping closer, voice rising, cracking. “You think I don’t know? You told her to get out. You made her walk away, and now she’s—she’s dead , Arthur! And it’s on you !”

Arthur finally turned to face him. His voice was low, deadly calm.

“I know.”

John flinched.

“I know what I did,” Arthur said again, quieter now. “I told her to leave. I told her she couldn’t stay.” His eyes were glassy, but he didn’t look away. “And I meant it.”

He paused. Swallowed.

“But that don’t mean I didn’t hope she’d prove me wrong.”

John’s fury faltered. He opened his mouth, then closed it again.

Arthur took off his hat, dragging a hand down his soaked face, as if trying to wipe away everything — the blood, the guilt, the weight.

“I was tryin’ to protect her,” he said hoarsely. “Thought I was doin’ right. Hell, I thought if she got away, maybe she’d have a chance at something better.”

“But she didn’t,” John said, more quiet now. “She bled out alone, up here in the hills, while we sat around camp like nothin’ happened.”

Arthur turned his back to him, breathing hard. “I know.”

“I should’ve said something,” John muttered. “Should’ve asked her about what Micah said. Should’ve believed her.”

Arthur shook his head. “Don’t matter now, does it?”

And suddenly, the silence was too much. Too big.

Arthur stepped away from the clearing, his boots sinking into mud. “Let’s go,” he said without looking back. “She’s gone.”

John didn’t move.

“Arthur—”

“She’s gone,” Arthur said again, voice sharp this time, like he was trying to convince himself more than anyone else.

He mounted up, face like stone, back straight. The mask was on now. Shut tight. The pain buried somewhere deep enough that maybe, just maybe, it wouldn’t surface.

John stared at him a moment longer. Then turned his eyes to the blood again.

There was too much of it for her to have walked away.

They rode back to camp in silence.

The wind had died down, but the air still carried the weight of something unfinished. No birdsong. No words. Just the steady plod of hooves and the occasional creak of leather.

Arthur didn’t say a damn thing. Not when they passed the burned-out tree on the ridge where Jo had once sat feeding the fire with dried pine needles. Not when they crossed the stream she used to fish in, her laughter echoing in some memory that didn’t belong to this world anymore. Not when they finally saw the faint glow of the campfire flickering in the distance.

He just kept riding, eyes forward. Face carved in stone.

And he never spoke of it again.

Not the blood. Not the fight. Not Jo.

Nothing.

In the weeks that followed, everything fell apart. Charles left first—headed north toward Canada, helping the Wapiti tribe get to a safer place. Didn’t even say goodbye. Abigail cried in her sleep most nights, quiet sobs muffled against the thin fabric of her bedroll, waking with red eyes and a broken voice. And John—John couldn’t hold it together no more. Not when Jack asked if Jo was coming back. Not when Dutch started losing grip on what little sense he had left. Not when the whole world seemed to teeter on the edge of something dark and permanent. Not when the gang fell apart.

And through it all, Arthur held everyone up.

He hunted, every morning like clockwork. Fixed what was broken—the wagon wheels, the leaking tents, the worn-out boots. Patched them all together with his calloused hands and said nothing. He cleaned the guns, kept the horses calm, hauled water, shared his food. He even sat up most nights, silent on the edge of camp, watching the tree line like he was waiting for something—or someone—to return.

He didn’t drink. Didn’t smoke. Didn’t write in his journal.

He just... survived.

Like a man dragging his soul behind him.

He never broke down. Not once. Not where anyone could see.

And maybe that was the worst part.

Because John knew— he knew —Arthur had loved her.

He’d seen it in the little things. The way he looked at her like she wasn’t just a part of the gang, but the one thing tethering him to something good. The quiet moments when they’d talk by the fire, voices too low to hear but soft in the way that meant safety. The way his eyes had searched the crowd the night Micah exposed her— before anyone else even understood what was happening, Arthur had been looking for her .

And then—nothing.

She vanished, and Arthur just... braced himself. Like a man expecting the roof to cave in and determined to hold it up anyway.

Watching him bear that grief without ever letting it slip—without one scream, one cry, one ounce of weakness—it had hollowed something out in John.

Because if Arthur could lose her like that and still keep going, then what did that say about the rest of them? About him?

He didn’t know.

All he knew was, every night since, Arthur sat with his back to the fire and his eyes to the woods—and if anyone asked what he was looking for, he’d say, “Just bein’ careful.”

But John knew better.

He wasn’t looking for danger.

He was waiting for a ghost.

 


 

Beecher's Hope, 1905

John swallowed thickly and blinked back to the present.

The memory faded like smoke, carried off by the wind curling through the trees behind the ranch. His hands had gone still over the paper in front of him, the pen hovering just above the unfinished line. A half-written letter. No address. No real name. 

Now, years later, knowing she hadn’t died—knowing she’d survived somehow and walked away—it made everything feel twisted. Like he’d watched a man mourn for nothing . Like he had mourned her, too, all for nothing .

And yet…

Part of him understood why she did it. Why she vanished. Why she let the world think she was gone. He could picture it—Jo, broken and bleeding and dragging herself away from everything she'd ever known, from everyone she’d ever loved, because she thought she had no choice. Because Arthur had told her to go. Because Micah had torn the last piece of safety out from under her.

Still didn’t make it easier to lie about it.

He shifted on the porch chair, the wood creaking under his weight. The early morning sun had just started climbing over the ridge, spilling gold light across the fields and the quiet fences. The smell of horses and dust lingered in the air, the low clatter of hooves rising from the nearby corral.

Arthur was just up the ridge, bent over the fence with a hammer in one hand and a nail between his teeth. Tending to the corral like he did every morning. Quiet. Steady. Same as always.

But John had caught him, sometimes—when he thought no one was looking— staring .

Out over the hills. Toward the trees. Toward nothing . Like maybe, just maybe, some part of him still hoped she’d come riding over that rise one day. Bareback on that black Arabian of hers. Cursing like hell and spitting dirt. A wild silhouette against the horizon, too real to be a ghost.

But all that hope was silent. Buried. Locked away somewhere Arthur never let anyone near.

And John carried the key in his damn pocket.

He looked back down at the paper, his jaw tightening.

The pen scratched quietly as he wrote a new line instead:

Jack asked about you today. Not directly. He just said he remembered the stew you used to make, with the potatoes cut all wrong and too much thyme. Said it tasted like summer, whatever the hell that means. I didn’t have the heart to correct him.

He paused. The next words didn’t come easy.

Arthur still won’t talk about you.

And it was true. Arthur never said her name, never brought up her past, never once asked John about how he felt. 

But John knew he hadn’t stopped thinking about her.

You could hear it in the way his voice softened when he mentioned horses, like he was remembering hers. See it in the way he carved in silence at night, whittling shapes that looked suspiciously like feathers or the curve of a woman’s back. Feel it in the way he watched the sunset—not like a man admiring beauty, but like a man waiting .

Still waiting.

And John? He was lying. Every damn day.

To Abigail. To Jack. To Arthur.

Keeping the promise he’d made to Jo—that he’d tell no one, not a soul, and take care of Arthur for her. That he’d let her go .

He folded the letter without finishing it. Tucked it away in the little box under the porch floorboard where the others lived. Letters never sent. Words never read.

And then he stood.

 


 

Arthur leaned against the corral post, calloused hands wrapped around the top rail, hammer dangling from his fingers like he’d forgotten he was holding it. The morning sun was warm on his back, but it didn’t reach his bones. Not anymore.

From up here, the ranch stretched out like something out of a dream he didn’t remember having. The fences were clean and straight. The horses were fat and well-fed. The grass rolled easy between the hills, soft and gold and quiet.

Too quiet.

He watched John on the porch, saw the way the man sat still for a long time, shoulders hunched like he was holding something heavy. Arthur knew that posture too well. Carried it most days himself.

They locked eyes for a second—just a flicker—and John gave him a nod. Arthur returned it out of habit.

Then the man disappeared inside, and Arthur was alone again.

He turned back to the fence. Picked up the next nail. Set it against the wood. Raised the hammer—and froze.

For a moment, the sound of the ranch fell away. The birdsong. The wind. The snort of the mare behind him. All of it.

And in its place—

Her laugh. That damn laugh. Sharp, like broken glass in whiskey. Like she’d never once meant to laugh pretty and didn’t care if she did. He heard it in his head, echoing through the years.

"I told you that post was crooked, Morgan. You just didn’t wanna admit it."

He squeezed his eyes shut.

Don’t, he told himself. Don’t go there today.

But it was too late.

It always was.

He hadn’t dreamed about her in months. Not since the snow started to fall. He told himself that was progress. Told himself he was moving on , same as John, same as Sadie had, same as Abigail expected him to. He told himself all kinds of things.

But he still looked toward the horizon every morning.

Still paused sometimes when he saw a black horse crest a ridge in the distance.

Still caught himself reaching into his coat for the compass she gave him, only to remember he’d buried it in the drawer in the barn—wrapped in cloth like a wound that wouldn’t heal.

Arthur hadn’t said her name in over five years.

He hadn’t needed to.

It lived under his skin, under the callouses and the quiet and the grit in his teeth. It lived in the way he moved slower now, talked less, slept in shifts like he was still waiting for the other shoe to drop.

He hadn’t cried for her—not once. Not when they found Micah’s body. Not when they searched the woods until their voices went hoarse and their hands bled from clearing brush. Not when he sat by the fire that night and stared at the flames so long he didn’t notice they’d gone out.

He hadn’t cried. But he hadn’t let go either.

And now, five damn years later, he still carried her ghost like it was his own shadow.

Arthur set the nail again and drove it in with one sharp blow.

The horse behind him shifted, tail swishing. He didn’t look back.

He didn’t have to. If she’d been real, he’d have known. He always knew when Jo was near. She had that feeling about her—like the air bent around her somehow. Like the world noticed her before you did.

But there was nothing. Just wind and grass and quiet.

Just absence .

He finished the fence, wiped his hands, and stood there a moment longer, watching the sun lift higher over the land.

Eventually, he turned back toward the barn. Toward work. Routine. The things that kept his feet moving forward even when his heart was still caught somewhere back in those woods near Three Sisters, where her blood had dried into the earth and his guilt had rooted in deep.

He never told John the full truth.

Never said how he’d wanted to follow her after that fight. How he’d almost saddled his horse and gone after her right then. But something in him—cowardice maybe, or maybe something crueler—had stopped him.

Maybe he’d believed she was better off without him.

Or maybe, deep down, he’d just wanted to stop hurting.

But hurt was the only thing that stuck.

And now, years later, he carried it like a scar he never wanted to heal.

The barn was warm with dusk light. Dust floated in golden shafts through the slats in the wall, and the air smelled of cedar shavings, leather, and horses.

Arthur sat on an overturned crate near his workbench, the same one he’d built last month when his hands needed something to do. A block of dark wood rested in his palm—oak, he thought—and his knife moved slow, carving shallow grooves with care. The blade whispered against the grain, soft and steady. The kind of sound that kept the noise in his head quiet for a little while.

The shape was still rough. He hadn’t decided what it’d be. A horse, maybe. He used to make birds for her, back in the day. Left them by her bedroll sometimes without a word. She always knew they were from him. Always said—

"That you, cowboy?"

He paused mid-carve, the knife still against the wood.

“Cowboy.” She used to call him that with a smirk that didn’t quite hide how she meant it. Not “gunslinger.” Not “Arthur.” Just cowboy. Like it was a joke between them. Like it meant more than it should’ve.

He used to call her Trouble. Half in warning, half in fondness. All truth.

“C’mon now, Trouble, don’t give me that look—”

“You love that look,” she’d tease, voice like smoke and thunder, and damn him, but she was right.

Arthur swallowed hard and stared at the carving in his hands, though the lines blurred.

He could still hear her voice sometimes—when the wind blew low through the pines or when the rain hit the roof just right.

"I love you, Arthur."

The first time she’d said it, it wasn’t soft. Wasn’t delicate like women were supposed to be. She’d said it like a dare. Like she was half-ready for him to flinch and half-hoping he wouldn’t. And he hadn’t. Not then.

“I love you too,” he’d told her.

And he’d meant it. Every goddamn word. Still did.

He hadn’t said it again after she left. Couldn’t. Not even to himself. Because it didn’t feel right, saying something to the air. To a ghost. But it lived in him. Buried deep. Untouched.

Arthur set the carving down carefully, as if it might break under the weight of his hands.

He didn’t cry. Didn’t even sigh. He just sat there, staring into the quiet, like if he looked hard enough he might see her shape walk through the haze of dust and light. Her boots, her brown coat, that lopsided grin she’d wear when she was trying not to let him in.

But it was only silence.

Until footsteps sounded behind him. 

“You always make ‘em outta oak?”

Arthur didn’t turn around. “Sometimes pine. Oak holds better, though.”

John stepped into the barn slow, like he knew he was trespassing on something. He looked older than he had a year ago—more lines at the corners of his eyes, more quiet in the way he moved. He’d seen too much. Carried too much. Arthur knew the feeling.

“I used to think you were wastin’ your time with all that,” John muttered, nodding to the carving. “Now I dunno. Feels like the only thing that lasts is what we build with our own hands.”

Arthur hummed low in his throat. Not agreement. Not disagreement. Just something to fill the silence that suddenly felt too heavy.

John picked up a small wooden bird from the shelf. Ran his thumb over the wings.

John glanced at Arthur. Hesitated. Then set it back down.

They stood like that a while—John half-shadowed by the doorway, Arthur seated in stillness. Something unspoken hung in the air between them. Not hostility. Not comfort either. Just... weight.

John lingered another beat, then stepped back toward the door. The barn brightened briefly as he opened it, and then dimmed again as it closed behind him.

Arthur stared at the carving in his hand.

 


 

The next morning broke slow and gray, the sky heavy with mist and the air damp enough to cling to John’s skin. He saddled his horse in silence, tying the last strap tight with fingers that still remembered the shape of her hand. He straightened when he saw Arthur approach, brushing his hand down the mare’s flank.

“Need anything from Manzanita Post?” John asked, casual-like. “Figured I’d ride down. We’re low on nails, and I got a couple letters to send.”

Arthur shrugged, tightening the cinch. “Could use new hinges for the back gate. That storm last week rattled it loose.”

“Alright. I’ll see what they’ve got.”

Arthur glanced at him, brows faintly drawn. “You writin’ again?”

John hesitated. Just a second. Then nodded. “Yeah. Figured I oughta. For myself.”

Arthur didn’t push. Didn’t ask who the letters were for. Just gave a small grunt and stepped back.

John climbed into the saddle and adjusted his hat. His hands were steady, but something beneath his skin thrummed with the weight of it all. He’d been holding onto those letters for weeks now, rewriting them over and over. Burning the ones that said too much. Hiding the ones that didn’t say enough.

He still hadn’t figured out what the hell he wanted to tell her.

But today, he was sending them anyway.

Before Arthur could turn away, John paused. “Hey… that carving you were workin’ on. You finish it?”

Arthur’s jaw flexed. “Not yet.”

John nodded. “Reckon she would’ve liked it.”

Arthur stilled.

Didn’t say a word.

Didn’t have to.

John clicked his tongue and turned his horse toward the trail.

He didn’t look back.

The wind had quieted by the time John disappeared down the trail, the sound of hooves fading into the rustle of pine needles and the occasional chirp of a meadowlark. Arthur stood where his friend had left him, one gloved hand resting on the fencepost, the wood rough beneath his palm.

"Reckon she would’ve liked it."

The words hadn’t seemed like much at first—casual, offhand, like any of a hundred things John might mutter before riding out. But now, alone, with nothing but the whistle of wind through the trees and the creak of old leather at his shoulders, it sat wrong in Arthur’s gut.

Would’ve liked it.

Like she was still out there somewhere.

Like she was still breathing.

He exhaled hard through his nose and shook his head, trying to shrug it off. John didn’t mean nothing by it. Just talking, the way he always did when silence started getting too heavy. Still… the words kept echoing, like they’d crawled into his bones and made a home there.

She would’ve liked it.

He looked out toward the hills, toward the hazy line of the woods in the distance, where the land rose up wild and unknowable beyond the ranch fences. Tall Trees. The open frontier. Where things disappeared.

Where she disappeared.

His jaw clenched. The bottle of nails he’d been holding was still in his other hand, fingers tight around the metal. He set it down gently on the fence rail and leaned against the post, his weight sinking low into the wood like his body had finally remembered it was tired.

He didn’t like thinking about her. Not like this. Not when he couldn’t stop it.

But it was worse when he didn’t think of her at all.

Her voice came back first—soft at the edges, rough in the middle. That dry, crooked laugh she used to get when she caught him off guard. The way she used to mutter "You ain't half as tough as you pretend, cowboy," under her breath when she thought he wasn’t listening.

The way she used to say “I love you,” like it hurt her throat. Like she was saying goodbye every time.

Damn fool. He squeezed his eyes shut, pressed his fingers against them hard until stars bloomed behind the lids.

He still called her Trouble in his mind, sometimes. Couldn’t stop it. That was what she’d been. A hurricane in a worn-out coat. All barbed wire and sharp wit and too much pain stuffed into too small a frame. And he’d loved her. God help him, he still did.

She’d lied to him. Lied to everyone. Built herself out of false names and broken pieces. But none of that had mattered in the end. He’d sent her away—not to punish her, but to save her.

And in the end, it hadn’t saved anybody.

A hawk cried overhead, sudden and sharp. Arthur opened his eyes, blinking into the pale gold of morning sunlight. It was too damn quiet now. His hands itched for work, for something to do, some way to make the ache stop chewing through him.

But that line—John’s voice, low and distant—kept turning over in his mind like a coin.

"Reckon she would’ve liked it."

Arthur frowned. Not would’ve loved it —not past tense like something buried. Would’ve liked it.

It stirred something old in him. Hope, maybe. Or just more grief in disguise.

He hated it either way.

He straightened up with a grunt, picked the nails back up, and started walking back toward the barn, boots heavy in the dirt. But his eyes drifted once—just once—back to the tree line.

And for a split second, he saw her there.

Not real. Just memory.

Sitting astride that damn black Arabian, grinning like she owned the world. Wind in her hair, defiance in her mouth, shadows in her eyes.

Gone.

Arthur turned away before the vision could linger.

And said nothing.

 


 

Strawberry smelled like wet pine and manure.

The scent hit her the moment she passed the wooden sign at the edge of town, the air thicker down here with morning fog rising off the river and smoke curling from stovepipes. Jo adjusted her coat, pulling it tighter across her chest as Laramie trotted downhill on the slanted, muddy road that led into the heart of the town.

Strawberry was always louder than she liked. Voices carried in the cold air, mixing with the clatter of wagons, the bark of dogs, the huffing breath of horses straining against harnesses. The place was bustling this time of year—early winter meant traders coming down from the north, folks passing through on their way to somewhere else.

She didn’t like the eyes. That was the worst part. Even when no one was lookin’ for her, even when she knew no one here would know her face, the way folks glanced up when she passed still made her stomach curl. A man turned from a wagon with a sack of flour over his shoulder. A woman swept the steps of the general store. Two kids in hand-me-downs pointed at Laramie, wide-eyed. Just regular folks, going about their day. But Jo’s shoulders stayed tight beneath her coat.

She rode with her head down, hat low over her brow, not stopping until she reached the hitching post outside the post office. Laramie nickered softly when Jo dismounted, and she paused to press a hand to the mare’s sleek neck.

“I won’t be long,” she muttered, voice low. “Don’t go gettin’ into trouble without me.”

The inside of the post office was dry and warm, filled with the scent of paper and dust. Jo waited behind an older man who was arguing over a misplaced parcel, her fingers tapping against her thigh, eyes darting around the room. The postmaster gave her a nod when it was her turn.

“Anythin’ for Anna O’Grady?”

The name came smooth. Practiced. A ghost she wore like a second skin. The postmaster thumbed through the letters and handed over a single envelope.

Her heart beat harder just seeing the handwriting.

It was John's—messy, rushed, but unmistakable. She didn’t open it there. Just slipped it into her coat pocket, nodded her thanks, and walked out into the cold morning sun.

She stood on the boardwalk for a moment, letting the warmth settle on her face, blinking back the heaviness that always came after getting one of those letters. It wasn’t guilt, not exactly. It was something more complicated. Something like grief, but twisted in a way she couldn’t name.

It was already the fourth letter she'd received from him. And the first was already a few weeks old, though John had kept his promise. He never said too much, never wrote more than he should. But his words were always heavy, like he was trying to carry her in ink and didn’t know how.

She exhaled and turned toward the general store. Might as well pick up the rest of what she needed.

It wasn’t until she stepped inside that she felt it—that tickle at the base of her spine, the one that never really went away. Like someone watching. Like someone remembered her.

Jo didn’t flinch. Didn’t stop. Just walked past the displays of flour and tobacco, scanned the shelves like any other traveler might. But every sense was on alert now. Every step deliberate.

Was it real?

Was it nothing?

A man stepped aside to let her pass, muttering a polite “ma’am.” A clerk smiled. A bell jingled at the door behind her.

She didn’t look back.

Just bought her goods—coffee, oats, a small tin of salve for Laramie’s hooves—and thanked the man behind the counter with the same soft drawl she always used when she wanted to disappear into the crowd.

She didn’t breathe easy again until she was outside. Even then, her hands were trembling just a little.

Back at Laramie’s side, Jo let herself glance around. No one was watching. No one had followed. It was just her mind. Old instincts. Wounds that hadn’t healed right.

Still, she swung into the saddle fast and turned the mare back toward the trail. She wouldn’t stay in town long. She never did.

As they trotted out of Strawberry and back toward the winding forest paths that led to her hidden cabin, Jo reached into her coat and pulled out John’s letter. Her thumb ran over the seal before she broke it open.

She read it as Laramie walked.

And when she was done, she folded it tight and tucked it away.

No word of Arthur. Not a single damn one.

But somehow… that said more than any sentence could’ve.

The sun had risen a little higher by the time Jo left the town behind.

Strawberry shrank in the distance—just rooftops and smoke and the faint echo of church bells on the wind. The trail bent westward, climbing slow into the woods, and the world began to quiet. Pine needles muffled Laramie’s steps. Leaves rustled overhead, and somewhere out of sight a mourning dove called, low and lonesome.

Jo didn’t hurry.

The rhythm of the mare’s gait was steady beneath her. Familiar. Comforting. It gave her room to think, and lately, that was all she seemed to do—think and overthink and try not to drown in the hollow of it all.

She hadn’t meant to read the letter on the ride back. But her fingers had it open before she’d even realized what she was doing. Just like every time. Like her soul was starving and didn’t know how to ask for anything but his voice, even secondhand through someone else.

John never said too much. He was careful. Damn near surgical with his words. Updates about the ranch. About Jack. About the weather, even. And beneath it all, that feeling like he was speaking to her in code. Like maybe, if she read between the lines, she’d hear something more.

But there hadn’t been a word about Arthur in this one. Not even a whisper.

And that… hurt.

Even though she’d made it clear she didn’t want to know.

Even though she’d told John she couldn’t take knowing.

Her fingers curled around the reins tighter.

She wasn’t going back. Not now. Not ever.

That decision had been made in blood—in that fight with Micah, in the cold silence after, in the days when her body had nearly given up and her mind had screamed for the man she loved—and he hadn’t come. Because he thought she was dead. Because maybe part of him wanted her to be.

And now?

What would he do if he saw her?

He’d hate her.

He must.

He’d spent years thinking she was gone. He’d mourned her. Hell, he’d probably buried her in his heart like he did everything else that ever hurt him.

And for what?

So she could come stumbling back into his life like some half-dead ghost? Shatter all the progress he made just to ease her own guilt?

No.

No, she wouldn’t do that to him. Or herself.

She couldn’t bear to look into those eyes again—those cold, blue eyes—and see nothing in them. Or worse… disappointment.

Back then, he’d loved her. She knew that. Even if he’d never said it straight, not in plain words. She’d felt it in the way he looked at her when she wasn’t paying attention. In the way he always rode beside her instead of in front. In how his voice softened when he called her Trouble , and how his breath hitched when she whispered I love you at night, thinking he was asleep.

But that Arthur? That man?

He was gone.

She’d left him standing in the wreckage of their lives, and now she lived in the shadow of that choice. Every single day.

It was easier this way. Safer. Cleaner.

Pain behind her. Silence ahead.

She wasn’t some lovesick girl anymore, clinging to hope like it could save her. She knew better now. Knew how fast things broke. How easily love turned to ash.

She didn’t want to be known anymore. Not by anyone.

Let them all think she was gone.

Let him think it, too.

Because the truth?

Jo wasn’t sure she could survive it if he saw her and walked away.

She bowed her head and let the brim of her hat shield her eyes as Laramie climbed higher into the woods, hooves kicking up dust and broken pinecones. Her cabin was just another hour west, tucked in a thicket no one passed through. No roads led there. No visitors came. That was the point.

She’d built a life from the pieces that were left.

It wasn’t happy. It wasn’t full.

But it was hers.

And it was far, far away from the man who’d once held her whole heart in his calloused hands.

Safer.

Safer, even if it still ached like hell.

The sun had started its slow descent by the time Jo veered off the trail. A worn deer path curved through the trees, half-covered in fallen pine needles and spotted with scat and tracks. She followed it without much thought, trusting instinct and muscle memory. The woods felt familiar in a way people never did. They never asked questions. They never expected anything.

Laramie snorted softly as Jo slowed her to a halt beside a cluster of cottonwoods. Jo dismounted, giving the mare’s shoulder a soft pat, then slung her rifle from its place along the saddle. She ran her fingers along the stock—checking for dirt, for cracks. Not that it mattered much. The weapon was clean. Always was. One of the few habits she’d never shaken, no matter how long it’d been since she needed to shoot something with real purpose.

“Won’t be long,” she murmured, voice rough from disuse, as she tied Laramie’s reins to a low branch.

She moved on foot from there, slow and careful, her boots barely disturbing the undergrowth. The forest was full of whispers—wind brushing through needles, a squirrel scuttling somewhere overhead, the distant snap of something heavier moving through brush. Jo dropped her shoulders low, let her breath fall quiet, and followed the sound.

There were rabbit tracks in the soft earth. Light. Recent. She crouched beside them, brushing a hand over one of the prints. Still sharp around the edges. A few minutes, no more.

Her stomach gave a quiet grumble.

Jo kept moving.

It was funny, in a way—how something as simple as hunger could anchor her. Pull her out of her own head for a minute. She wasn’t the girl Arthur used to tease for burning beans or picking berries that stained her hands. She was a woman now. Quiet. Solitary. The kind who knew how to gut a kill before the blood cooled, how to skin in silence, how to eat alone without feeling the ache of it too deep.

Or at least… she told herself that.

A flicker of motion caught her eye.

Jo froze, breath held tight in her lungs.

There—between two trees, near a patch of low brush—a hare stood up on its hind legs, twitching its nose. It hadn’t seen her yet.

She raised her rifle slow. Sights lined up.

For a second, she just stared.

It wasn’t hesitation, exactly. Just that strange, quiet feeling of being pulled between two moments—the shot and the stillness, the hunger and the memory. Because Arthur used to say she was a terrible hunter when she thought too much. “You gotta stop thinkin’ and pull the damn trigger, Trouble.” His voice echoed, ghost-like, through the pines.

She exhaled.

Fired.

The hare jerked and dropped.

Jo moved quickly, efficient and quiet. She cleaned the kill right there, wrapping the small body in a cloth she kept tucked in her satchel. The blood on her hands didn’t bother her. It hadn’t in a long time. It was warm, vivid, something real she could feel —which was more than she could say about most things these days.

When she returned to Laramie, the light had begun to shift, stained gold at the edges. Her mare flicked an ear at her, patient and steady as always.

Jo untied the reins and climbed back into the saddle, the fresh kill secured at her side. The path home twisted through thicker woods now, narrowing with bramble and moss, and as she rode deeper into it, the air cooled. A hawk circled above. Somewhere in the distance, a wolf howled—mournful and low.

She let the quiet settle again.

Let the woods close in around her like a blanket.

She wouldn’t see him again. That was the choice she’d made, and she meant to keep it.

Even if every damn thing in this place reminded her of him.

The path home narrowed with each turn, the pines closing in like quiet sentries. Jo’s cabin came into view just as the sun dipped low, bleeding amber light across the clearing. The place was modest—half stone, half timber, pieced together with care and long days. Smoke still rose from the chimney’s earlier fire, curling lazily into the evening sky. It was the kind of place you’d ride past without looking twice. That was the point.

Laramie tossed her head as they crossed the split-rail fence, hooves thudding in the soft dirt. Jo patted her neck gently, murmuring something quiet, then swung down from the saddle with a practiced motion. Her thighs ached from the long ride, her shoulders tight with fatigue. But it was the good kind of tired. Earned. Grounded.

She led the mare to the small lean-to beside the cabin and stripped her tack with care. The saddle came off first, then the bridle, then she ran her hand slowly down the horse’s flank, checking for burrs, for ticks, for any sign of strain. Laramie had earned her rest.

“Go on,” Jo whispered, and the mare nudged her shoulder before wandering off to graze.

Jo slung the saddle over the rail and hung the bridle on the old nail hammered into the post. She stretched her back, shifted the wrapped hare in her satchel, then turned toward the porch, the cabin’s familiar silhouette sharp against the golden sky.

Her boots thudded against the bottom step.

Three more brought her to the door.

And that’s when she saw it.

The door.

Ajar.

Not wide open. Just... off the latch. Hanging crooked. A breath too open. The kind of mistake she never made.

Jo’s body tensed in an instant.

Her hand dropped to the pistol at her hip without thinking.

Silent.

Still.

Listening.

But the clearing was quiet. No birdsong. No breeze. Even the trees seemed to hold their breath.

Her heart thudded once—hard.

With her free hand, she eased the satchel off her shoulder and let it drop quietly beside the door. She stepped sideways, spine to the cabin wall, and reached slowly for the handle.

Her fingers curled around it.

The wood was warm.

Jo exhaled through her nose, steadying herself.

And then, with one sharp motion, she shoved the door open and raised her gun—

The door creaked against the frame, groaning softly as it swung inward.

Chapter 46: Two Guns and Too Much History

Chapter Text

The door hung open just a crack.

Jo stood at the top step of her porch, still as stone, her breath clouding faintly in the cool evening air. The pinewoods behind her rustled with the quiet hush of wind through needles, but in her ears all she could hear was the sharp drum of her heartbeat. Laramie snorted behind her, already untethered and pawing gently at the frost-kissed ground near the paddock.

Her fingers closed slowly around the grip of her pistol.

This wasn’t right.

She hadn’t left it ajar—she never left it ajar. The door creaked on old hinges, and she always made sure it latched behind her, especially with how strong the mountain winds could get in the late hours. Her boots made no sound as she stepped onto the porch, every muscle in her body pulled tight like a tripwire.

The pistol came up as she pushed the door open with the edge of her shoulder, slow, careful, eyes scanning every shadow—

And then her world stopped.

Arthur Morgan was sitting at her kitchen table.

His elbows rested loosely on the edge of the wood, one hand curled around a chipped enamel mug. Coffee. Black and cold, by the look of it. His hat sat beside him, crown-down, and a thin column of smoke curled up from the cigarette balanced between two fingers.

He didn’t move. Didn’t even blink. Just sat there, like he’d been waiting for her all this time, like this wasn’t the first time he’d imagined this moment.

The anger was there—in the sharp set of his jaw, in the crease between his brows—but there was something else too. Something unreadable. Tired. Raw.

Jo froze in the doorway, pistol still half-raised.

Arthur didn’t flinch.

“Hope you weren’t expectin’ someone else,” he said, voice low and dry as dust.

The sound of his voice cracked something inside her chest.

Her hand slowly lowered the pistol, though her fingers still gripped it tight. She hadn’t heard that voice in five years—not in anything but dreams and half-memories. It was older now. Rougher. Weathered by time and grief.

She swallowed. “What are you doing here?” Her voice came out quieter than she meant.

Arthur’s gaze didn’t waver. “So you been hidin’ here all along?”

Jo didn’t answer. She couldn’t. Her throat had gone tight, and her heart thundered loud enough she could feel it behind her ribs. She stared at him, trying to read his face—trying to figure out why he was here, what he wanted, and how the hell he’d found her.

She’d thought this moment would never come. She’d planned for it never to come.

But here he was.

“Thought you was dead,” he said then. Not accusing. Not emotional. Just… stating a fact. A horrible, carved-in-stone fact he’d apparently lived with all this time.

Jo finally stepped inside, shutting the door behind her with a soft click . Her boots felt heavy on the old floorboards. The cabin smelled faintly of dry cedar and cold ash from the hearth, but it wasn’t the scent that made her dizzy—it was him.

“Was going to,” she said after a moment, her voice hoarse. “If some fella hadn’t found me and took me to a doctor.”

She didn’t look at him when she said it.

Arthur exhaled slowly through his nose, cigarette burning low between his fingers. “You could’ve send word.”

“Why? You told me to leave, remember?”

She moved past him into the kitchen, setting the wrapped bundle of her small kill on the counter. Her hands needed something to do. Anything. She couldn’t just stand there, drowning under the weight of his stare.

Neither of them spoke for a minute. The silence hung thick in the room, broken only by the low creak of the stove as she opened it and checked the warmth inside. She pulled off her gloves and coat with stiff fingers, hanging them on the peg by the door. Her body moved on memory. Habit. Years of living alone had drilled quiet patterns into her days—cook, clean, mend, survive. Don’t think. Don’t feel.

But it was all unraveling now.

She glanced toward the slant of light in the window. The sun had started dipping below the hills, long shadows creeping in across the cabin floor.

“You stayin’ for dinner, then?” she asked, trying to keep her voice level.

Arthur didn’t answer, but he didn’t get up either.

That was answer enough.

She turned to the shelves above the small stove, standing on the worn floorboards that creaked faintly under her step. Her hand reached upward, fingers brushing the tops of the old cans she kept tucked away for winter—salted beef, creamed corn, beans she’d soaked and sealed last season. She wasn’t really thinking about what she grabbed. Her mind was too busy, her heart a low roar in her chest.

Jo rose onto the balls of her feet to reach the farthest tin.

The hem of her shirt lifted with the motion.

It happened in a breath. In less than that.

The fabric tugged free from her waistband, riding up her sides and belly, revealing skin too long hidden from sight—scarred by time.

And there it was.

The scar.

Arthur saw it.

A long, jagged seam carved across her lower abdomen, a ghost of a wound that had once bled deep and dangerous. The pink of it stood stark against the warmer tone of her skin—pale and smooth in some places, rough and raised in others, like a road that had been violently torn through soft land and stitched shut with trembling hands.

It ran from just beneath her ribs and dipped toward her right hip, cruel and unmistakable.

His eyes locked on it.

The cigarette, now forgotten, smoldered low between his fingers, ash crumbling silently to the floor.

Time didn’t stop, but it slowed. Stretched. Thickened.

Arthur’s jaw clenched, and not out of anger this time. Something passed across his face—quick and unguarded. A flicker of realization, then something far more human. Regret. Guilt. Pain.

He hadn’t known. Not truly. He’d imagined a lot of things—anger, betrayal, her cold indifference when she disappeared. But he hadn’t imagined that . He hadn’t imagined how close she must’ve come to dying. How much she’d suffered. How alone she must’ve been.

Jo didn’t notice at first.

Her fingers curled around a tin, drew it from the shelf.

And then she felt it—the shift in the air behind her. The sudden stillness. That awful weight of someone’s eyes pressing into your back like a hand.

She froze for a fraction of a second, heart thudding painfully in her chest.

Then, slowly, she stepped down.

Her heels touched the floor again. Her shirt fell back into place with a whisper of cotton.

She didn’t turn around.

Didn’t dare meet his eyes.

Instead, she moved on instinct, keeping her hands busy, keeping her face turned away as she placed the tin on the counter and retrieved the can opener. The soft metallic click of the blade piercing the lid felt too loud in the quiet.

Behind her, the chair creaked.

Arthur shifted—just a little. As if the sight had rattled something loose inside him. He cleared his throat, but the sound wasn’t casual. It was thick. Caught somewhere between discomfort and apology.

He said nothing.

And that silence burned.

Jo’s hands shook ever so slightly as she emptied the can into the small tin pan on the stove, the beans hitting metal with a soft splatter. She added salt. Stirred. Kept her eyes down.

The smell of dust and coffee lingered. Her lungs felt tight, like there wasn’t enough air in the cabin.

She didn’t need to look at him to know what she’d seen on his face.

Shock.

Realization.

That flicker of horror—the kind that only comes when you’re faced with evidence of something far worse than you’d allowed yourself to believe.

Her throat tightened, but she said nothing.

And Arthur—he didn’t speak, either.

But he was watching her now with new eyes.

Not the eyes of a man betrayed.

Not just that.

His shoulders, once taut with tension, had eased slightly. The sharpness in his jaw dulled. He leaned back a little in the chair, cigarette now forgotten entirely. His expression was unreadable—but no longer cold.

Because now, he understood something he hadn’t before.

She hadn’t simply lied and run.

She’d been hunted. Torn open. Left for dead.

And somehow, she’d survived.

Alone.

And maybe for the first time in five years, Arthur Morgan saw her not just as the woman who’d disappeared in a cloud of secrets and silence—but as the woman who had bled, and suffered, and endured.

And maybe he realized… she hadn't meant to leave him behind.

Maybe she had no choice.

The beans began to bubble in the pan.

The stove crackled softly.

Jo stood still at the counter, both hands braced against the edge of the wood, the knuckles of her fingers pale. Her eyes burned, but she blinked fast, refusing to let anything fall. She would not cry in front of him. Not yet. Not now.

She swallowed hard, her voice low and steady when it finally came.

“Dinner won’t take long.”

Arthur didn’t answer right away.

The tin plates clinked softly as Jo set them down—one in front of him, the other across the table for herself. A bit of meat, those beans she’d fussed over, a small scoop of carrots from a jar she’d preserved back in the fall. She didn’t say anything as she sat down. Didn’t look at him, either.

Just lowered herself into the chair, back straight but guarded. Like her spine was holding up something far heavier than her own weight.

The chair groaned under her, the same way the whole house seemed to groan under the tension inside it.

Arthur picked up his fork. Jo held hers, but only barely—just let the tines scrape idle patterns through the beans. She pushed them from one side of the plate to the other, brow furrowed, mouth drawn into a tight, unreadable line.

Arthur took a few bites. Quietly. Slowly. Like chewing gave him something to focus on other than the weight of her silence.

And for a long while, that was all there was. The soft clink of cutlery. The low hiss of the stove cooling down. The distant call of a bird outside as the sun slipped lower, bleeding amber light through the windows.

Jo finally spoke—soft, hesitant.

“...How’d you find me?”

She didn’t look up when she asked. Her voice was quiet, almost casual, like she was afraid of what the real answer might bring.

Arthur didn’t answer right away.

He set his fork down, the scrape of metal on tin sharper than it needed to be. He leaned back slightly in his chair, one arm slung over the back of it, the other resting on the table. Watching her.

When he spoke, his voice was low. Rough around the edges.

“John.”

That made her freeze, just slightly.

He saw the way her hand stilled. The fork paused mid-push. She didn’t move for a breath. Then another. Finally, her head lifted just enough to glance at him from under her lashes.

“John?” she echoed.

Arthur nodded, jaw working.

“Been seein’ him with letters. Every damn week. Said they was for business. I believed it for a while. But I ain’t stupid.”

A beat. Then he added, with quiet weight, “Was some woman’s name on ‘em. Figured the rest.”

Jo blinked. Her lips parted, but no sound came. She swallowed hard, and her gaze dropped again.

“I thought…” she started, then stopped. Tried again. “I thought he’d keep it quiet.”

Arthur didn’t soften. Not yet.

“He did. For weeks. Guess he thought you was safer that way. Or maybe you asked him to keep me in the dark.”

Jo said nothing. But her silence was answer enough.

Arthur leaned forward now, both forearms braced on the table.

“You been here all this time,” he said, not quite a question. “Whole goddamn time. While I—” He stopped. Shook his head. Looked away, jaw clenched.

“I thought you was dead.”

She flinched.

“I almost was,” she whispered.

Arthur looked up again.

She didn’t try to hide this time. She met his eyes, and there was no fight in hers. Just weariness. The kind that settled into a person’s bones and never quite left.

“That night,” she said quietly, “after Micah… I didn’t think I was gonna make it. I’d lost so much blood, I couldn’t feel nothin’. Would’ve bled out right there in the dirt, but someone found me. Some kind fella. Got me to a doctor. Barely.”

Arthur stared at her.

She looked down again, voice barely a breath. “I didn’t ask to live, you know. Wasn’t some brave choice. I just… didn’t die.”

Silence fell again, heavier this time.

Arthur rubbed a hand over his mouth, his fingers dragging slowly across the stubble on his chin.

“I need to hear it from you,” he said finally. “All of it. Not just pieces.”

Jo didn’t answer.

He waited.

Outside, the wind had picked up. The branches of the trees around her cabin creaked and whispered against each other. Somewhere, an old shutter knocked against wood.

Jo shifted in her chair. Rested her elbows on the table, forehead against her hands.

When she spoke again, her voice was raw. “You want the truth? Fine. But it won’t make you feel any better.”

Arthur didn’t move. Just watched her. Quiet, steady. Letting her speak.

Jo’s fork scraped softly across the plate. Just noise, something to fill the silence while she tried to steady her breath. Her voice, when it came again, was low. Barely more than a rasp.

“I was fourteen the first time I killed a man.”

She kept her eyes down, as if saying it out loud made it more dangerous. As if looking him in the eye might turn him to stone.

“My father. Drunk, mean son of a bitch. You could smell him comin’ down the hall before you heard him. He used to drag me outta bed by my hair just to remind me I was his. Some nights, he wouldn’t even say nothin’. Just stood there, breathing over me like I was something he owned. Like he was deciding what to do with me. Before takin’ advantage of me.”

Her voice trembled, and she swallowed, hard. The fork spun once between her fingers before slipping from them, clattering softly on the edge of her plate. She didn’t pick it up.

“Ben knew,” she said quietly. “He was the only one back then. My only friend. He saw the bruises, heard the fights. We used to hide behind the barn when things got real bad. He never told no one. ”

Arthur’s brow furrowed faintly at the name. He remembered Ben, vaguely. A quiet presence once, long ago. But he hadn't known the whole weight that name carried.

Jo exhaled shakily. “The night it happened… my mother tried to leave. Had a bag packed and everything. Told me we were going. That we were finally goin’ to get out, just the two of us.”

A pause. She stared at nothing, jaw tight, her voice turning brittle.

“But he came home early. Caught her by the door. And he—” Her mouth worked around the words, like they hurt to say. “He grabbed her and choked her. Killed her right in front of me.”

Arthur’s shoulders stiffened. His jaw clenched so tight the muscles in his neck jumped.

“I didn’t even think,” she went on. “It wasn’t a plan. I just grabbed the knife from the kitchen and put it in his back before I even knew what I was doin’. He looked surprised, y’know. Like he never thought I could do something like that. Like he couldn’t believe I’d dare. But I didn’t stop. Couldn’t.”

The room was silent but for the crackle of the stove’s dying heat.

“I didn’t bury ‘em,” Jo said, voice hollow. “Didn’t know how to. Thought I didn’t have the time. So I ran. Never looked back.”

Arthur shifted slowly in his chair. Not a word out of him, but he wasn’t looking at her with pity. Not exactly. Just this heavy, stunned quiet—like he didn’t know where to place the truth she was handing him.

She wiped her palms on her thighs, as if trying to rid herself of something still clinging.

“I wandered for a long time. Barely made it through those first couple winters. Got robbed, beat, near-starved a few times. But I made it. I never did all those crimes I’m accused of. And two years later… I ran into Hosea and Dutch outside of Lawrence. Tried to rob them,” she said, almost with a breath of bitter amusement. “Thought they was just a couple of easy targets. Turns out I was wrong.”

Arthur’s mouth twitched. But still, he said nothing.

“They brought me in. Gave me food, a bed, said I could earn my keep. I thought maybe I could start fresh. So I lied. Said my name was Josephine Harper. Said I was an orphan. I buried Sarah Wightman so deep I almost forgot her myself.”

Her fingers rubbed the edge of the table, worn wood scraping under her nails.

“I was scared, Arthur. Every day. Scared that if you or Dutch or Hosea knew the truth, you’d throw me out. Or worse. Thought maybe I had murder written on me like a brand, and someone’d read it eventually.”

She looked at him then, finally. Her eyes were glassy, but she didn’t cry.

“I didn’t want your pity. I still don’t.”

Arthur’s brows drew low, his chest tight. He wanted to say something, but nothing came out. He just stared at her, breath shallow.

“I told Hosea eventually,” she said. “At Shady Belle. Couldn’t carry it no more. Told him everything—my father, my mother, Ben… all of it. He listened. Didn’t judge. Just held onto my hand like I wasn’t filth. Like I was worth something anyway.”

She blinked hard and looked away. “I thought it’d be safe with him. That it could stay between us. But Micah heard.”

Arthur’s gaze darkened like storm clouds rolling in.

“He was listenin’,” she said bitterly. “Outside the canvas. Heard enough to put it all together. Waited long enough before tellin’ me. Next time we was alone—in Annesburg, before Dutch shot Cornwall—he grabbed me. Took me into an alley. Said if I didn’t stop stirrin’ doubt in the camp, he’d let everyone know I was a killer. A liar. Said I was poison. That I had rat written all over me.”

Arthur sat back slowly. His jaw was clenched, but his eyes were locked on her, burning.

Her voice dropped, quiet and raw. “He choked me. Hard enough I saw stars. Told me no one’d believe me if I said he started it. That Dutch trusted him , not me. And you know what? He was right.”

Arthur’s fists were clenched on the table now. But still he didn’t speak.

“I didn’t tell no one. Just took it. Swallowed it down like I always had. But it didn’t matter. He told them anyway. Threw it all out into the open like it was nothin’. And everyone looked at me like I was the one who’d put a noose ‘round our necks.”

She looked at him then. Her voice barely more than a whisper.

“Even you.”

Arthur flinched. Just slightly. But enough.

“You backed away like I was filth. Like none of it ever meant nothin’. Like all those nights talkin’, all those rides and fires and nights we shared… they didn’t count no more.”

His mouth opened, but no words came.

Jo shook her head. “You say Micah wasn’t right. But he didn’t have to be. All he had to do was speak . And everyone listened. Everyone turned. You turned.”

The silence that followed was bitter and sharp.

“I killed him, Arthur. I went after him ‘cause I had to. Because he was the rat. He was feedin’ the Pinkertons, leadin’ Dutch by the nose, gettin’ people killed. And no one else saw it. So I did what no one else would.”

She sat back, shoulders tense.

“You wanna know why I didn’t come back? It wasn’t just fear. It was because I didn’t want your damn pity . And I sure as hell didn’t want to see that look on your face again.”

Arthur’s voice finally came, low and rough.

“You think it was pity ?”

Jo’s eyes narrowed. “Ain’t that what this is? You sittin’ there tryin’ to figure out how sorry you’re supposed to feel?”

Arthur stood suddenly, chair scraping back. His hands were fists at his sides, and his voice dropped into something heavier.

“I was angry , Jo. Not because you killed that bastard. Not even because you lied. But because you didn’t trust me enough to tell me the truth before Micah did. You let him control the story. You let him get in my head.”

Her jaw tightened. “You didn’t exactly leave much room for trust, either. Not after the way you looked at me.”

He looked away then, jaw working, throat tight.

The silence stretched again. Thick. Suffocating.

“I don’t know what’s real with you no more,” he said finally. “Don’t know which parts were the truth and which parts were just another story you needed to survive.”

Jo flinched, but didn’t look away. “They were all the truth. Even if they came in pieces.”

Arthur nodded once, stiff. Then turned toward the door. Took a step, then another, boots heavy on the wood.

But Jo’s voice caught him, soft but clear. “I never lied to you. Not about the things that mattered.”

He stopped.

She stood slowly, not chasing him, not begging—just... standing. Bare shoulders set with quiet resolve.

“I never told you what happened to me. I was gonna. That night. Before Micah threw it all in the fire. I had the words in my mouth, ready to say ‘em. But I never lied about how I felt.”

She didn’t move toward him. Just let the words settle there.

“You was the first good thing in my life, Arthur Morgan. I didn’t know how to hold onto that without breaking it.”

His back was still to her, jaw tight, breath unsteady. A long, heavy silence stretched between them like a chasm.

Then his voice came—low, bitter with exhaustion.

“Feels like it broke anyway.”

Jo’s heart clenched. But she didn’t speak again.

Arthur’s hand hovered on the doorframe, like he wanted to say something more. But no words came.

He left.

The door shut behind him with a soft, final click .

And Jo stood alone in the quiet, the fire popping low in the hearth, her truth still hanging in the air like smoke that wouldn’t clear.

 


 

The cabin door clicked shut behind him, soft as a whisper, but it felt loud in his chest—like the closing of something permanent. Final.

Arthur stood on the porch, boots planted firm, fists clenched at his sides. He stared out across the trees, jaw tight, breathing shallow. The wind was cooler now, brushing past his neck like the edge of a knife. The stars wheeled high above, silent and distant.

His ears rang with her voice.

“I never lied to you. Not about the things that mattered.”

He swallowed hard and stepped off the porch, gravel crunching beneath his boots. Atlas waited near the edge of the clearing, tall and still and watching. That old stallion hadn’t changed much—reversed dapple black coat gleaming faint in the moonlight, proud even in the dark. Just like always. One of the last pieces of the old life Arthur still carried.

And for five long years, Atlas had carried him through hell.

Arthur approached slowly, running a hand along the horse’s warm neck, grounding himself in the feel of it. Atlas snorted softly, then leaned into the touch like he could feel what Arthur didn’t say.

“I know, boy,” Arthur muttered. “I know.”

He swung himself up into the saddle, the motion muscle-memory after all these years, and turned them toward the trail. No destination. Just motion. Just escape.

The hooves thudded a steady rhythm as they moved into the trees, and the silence grew thick around him. Heavy. Pressed in behind his ribs.

She was alive.

Jo. Sarah. Whatever the hell her name was. She was alive.

He gritted his teeth and looked up at the stars. Five years he’d believed she was dead. Five years of carrying that weight around like a damn chain. Every morning, every ride, every goddamn time he wrote her name in that journal—just grief and guilt, stitched tight together.

And she’d been out here. Breathing. Broken maybe, scarred for sure, but still alive.

He pulled harder on the reins, sending Atlas into a canter, as if faster might outrun the burning in his chest.

“You was the first good thing in my life, Arthur Morgan.”

He hated how true it sounded.

God, he wanted to believe her. That she hadn’t lied about the things that counted. That all those quiet nights they’d shared by the fire, the looks, the touches, the way she used to lean her head on his shoulder like she’d finally found some peace—that those things had been real.

But how the hell was he supposed to know what was true now?

Everything felt like a trick of the light.

Arthur rode until the trail dissolved into a clearing, somewhere far from the cabin, far from Beecher’s Hope. He found a tree—broad, ancient, roots like twisted arms—and dismounted. Atlas stood nearby, watching him carefully, ears flicking.

Arthur dropped his satchel onto the grass and slumped down beneath the tree, back hitting the trunk with a dull thud . The silence pressed in again. No birdsong. No wind. Just the soft rustle of leaves and the ache crawling up from his gut.

He reached for the satchel. Pulled out the bottle.

Whiskey. Harsh, warm, bitter.

He didn’t sip. He drank like a man trying to forget how to breathe.

It burned going down, but not enough.

Another swig. And another.

His throat was raw, but he didn’t care. He welcomed it. Let the heat burn through the fog behind his eyes.

“Goddamn it, Jo,” he rasped, barely audible.

He didn’t even know who he was mad at anymore. Her. Himself. Hosea for dying before he could fix all of this. Micah for existing.

He tipped the bottle again, wiped his mouth on his sleeve, and stared out into the trees, eyes glassy.

She had been going to tell him. That night, back then. But Micah had beat her to it. That bastard always knew how to cut deep, and he’d gutted the whole gang in one move. Turned them all against her. And Arthur… well, he let it happen. He let the anger speak louder than the love.

And now she was right. He’d looked at her like she was poison. Like her past was the thing that broke them.

Arthur leaned forward, elbows on his knees, hands dangling. The bottle hung loose from one calloused grip.

“Five years,” he murmured. “Five years I thought I got you killed.”

His voice cracked halfway through.

He shut his eyes, pressing his thumb and forefinger against the lids, hard. But it didn’t stop the heat behind them. Or the weight in his chest.

She’d lived. She’d fought. She’d bled. And she’d done it all without him.

Because of him.

He drank again, slower this time. Let it settle deep.

This was how it had always been—when things got too loud, too tangled. He reached for the bottle and hoped it might smooth out the edges. Make him forget just enough to keep going.

But tonight, nothing dulled it.

Not the whiskey. Not the wind.

He stayed there for hours. Long after the bottle rolled from his hand and came to rest in the grass. Long after Atlas laid down nearby, watching him like an old friend waiting for the storm to pass.

Arthur didn’t sleep.

Didn’t cry either.

Just sat in the dark with the ghosts.

And her scar—God help him—burned behind his eyes every time he blinked.

 


 

The cabin was quiet. 

Jo stood at the sink, sleeves rolled up, washing the last of the dishes in water that had long since turned tepid. The enamel basin was chipped at the edges, the water clouded with grease and scraps from their half-eaten plates. Arthur hadn’t touched much of his food. She hadn’t either. Just pushed it around like it might start talking if she prodded it the right way.

Now her fingers were pruning, raw from the cold water and the harsh lye soap she’d made two winters ago. Still strong. Still bitter on the skin. She scrubbed harder than she needed to, her jaw tight, muscles in her arms tensing with every swipe of the rag.

The fork scraped metal.

She flinched.

The silence in the cabin pressed in around her like a closing fist.

Arthur had left over an hour ago. Didn’t slam the door. Didn’t say goodbye. Just looked at her like he didn’t know what to believe—then walked out into the night, back to wherever he came from. The door had clicked shut like a coffin lid.

Jo let out a sharp breath through her nose. Set the fork down with a hard clink, then reached for the next plate. One of the chipped ones. It had a hairline crack down the center she kept meaning to glue. Her reflection warped in it as she scrubbed, her face twisted and grim in the distorted white glaze.

“I never lied to you.”

She could still hear her own voice echoing in the room. It sounded weak now. Small. Like a child clinging to something already slipping through her fingers.

Jo dropped the plate into the basin, water sloshing over her hands, soaking her shirt.

"Goddamn it," she hissed, yanking the towel off the hook and drying her arms in rough, jerking motions.

She hated this.
Hated the weight in her chest, the lump in her throat, the way her eyes stung without warning. Hated that she still cared . That seeing him had reopened everything she’d spent five years carefully burying under layers of silence, hard work, and solitude.

She tossed the towel aside, shoved the last plate on the drying rack, and leaned on the edge of the counter, bracing herself with both hands.

Moonlight slipped in through the cracked curtain. Her reflection stared back at her in the darkened glass. She looked older than she remembered. More tired. Shadows beneath her eyes. A tightness in her jaw that hadn’t been there before.

“You let me believe you died.”

He had said it like it was unforgivable.
And maybe it was.

Jo turned from the window, moving slowly around the cabin. She straightened the chairs even though they didn’t need straightening. Folded the napkins. Checked the stove twice to make sure it was off.

Anything to keep her hands busy.

Anything to keep her mind from racing.

Because the moment she stopped moving, she could feel the weight of it all settle on her like wet wool—heavy, suffocating. The way he’d looked at her. The disbelief. The resentment. The way he hadn’t said goodbye.

You sent me away.

She wanted to shout it. But she didn’t. She swallowed it down like she always did.

Instead, she paced the room a few more times before finally sitting on the edge of her bed, elbows on her knees, fingers tangling in her hair.

And then the guilt turned, twisted, sharpened into something more like anger .

At John.

He should’ve done better.
Should’ve hidden those letters better if he was going to sneak around behind her back. She told him he could write—and she’d meant it. At the time. She’d told herself it was just so she could know they were all alive. That was all. But then the letters had started coming regular, and she started reading them slower. Sometimes twice. Sometimes three times. She kept the last one folded in the bottom of her trunk, beneath a box of bullets and an old dress she’d never worn.

And now Arthur had shown up at her goddamn door.

She wasn’t mad he came, not really. But—

She clenched her fists.

She didn’t want his pity . Not his, not John’s, not anyone’s. And that was what she saw in Arthur’s eyes tonight. Beneath the fury and confusion—beneath all the broken things between them—there had been a flicker of pity. And it gutted her more than any wound Micah had ever dealt.

“I ain’t some kicked dog,” she muttered, shaking her head like that might help push the thought away.

She rose again, restless, pacing. Her legs were tight with tension, every movement sharp. She crossed the floor to the small table near the door and opened the drawer where she kept John’s letters. All ten of them. Tied with a bit of red string. She stared at them for a long time, then untied the bundle, fingers trembling.

Jo didn’t read them—not tonight. She knew them by heart anyway. But she stared at the pages like they might somehow tell her what to do. How to fix this. How to make it make sense .

There wasn’t a way.

After a while, she tied them back up, slower this time, like she was winding herself back together, too.

When she finally turned down the lamp and lay on the bed, the room dipped into darkness, soft and warm with the hum of crickets through the open window.

But her eyes stayed wide open, burning in the dark.

Arthur had found her. 

Arthur knew the whole truth.

And everything— everything —was cracking open again.

And she didn’t know what the hell to do with it.

 


 

The world was quiet—until it wasn’t.

Jo jerked awake.

There was a thud outside. Heavy. Muffled. Followed by a loud metallic clatter that echoed off the porch like something—or someone—had fallen hard onto it.

For a second, she lay frozen, heartbeat thundering in her chest.

Then she moved fast.

Her hand shot out from under the blanket and wrapped around the worn stock of the double-barrel shotgun leaning against the side of her bed. She slipped out from beneath the quilt without a sound, bare feet touching the wooden floor like a ghost. The boards creaked just once beneath her heel. The rest of her movements were fluid, honed by years of instinct.

She didn’t bother lighting a lamp. The moonlight spilling through the window was enough. Her fingers tightened on the shotgun’s grip, thumb brushing the cool curve of the trigger. She moved silently across the room, every muscle coiled.

Another noise. A groan.

She stopped cold by the door.

That wasn’t an animal. That was a man .

Her heart dropped—and then started hammering again.

She pressed her back to the wall beside the door, raised the barrel, then reached out and unlatched the lock with slow, careful fingers. Her breath caught in her chest as she swung the door open fast, gun raised—

—and froze.

The barrel of her shotgun pointed straight at Arthur Morgan, who was lying in a heap on her porch like a ragdoll that’d been tossed there by the wind.

His legs were tangled awkwardly beneath him, one boot half off, his hat lying somewhere in the dirt behind him. He was propped slightly on one elbow, blinking up at her with a dazed, stupidly confused expression like he wasn’t entirely sure how he got there. His cheeks were flushed. His shirt half-untucked. He reeked of whiskey.

Jo blinked.

Then blinked again.

“…You son of a bitch,” she muttered, and slowly lowered the gun.

Arthur blinked blearily at her, then lifted a hand in what might’ve been a wave. “Hey.”

She stared at him.

He grinned—crooked, lazy, drunk. “I didn’t knock. S’that rude?”

“Arthur. What in the hell are you doing on my porch?”

He looked around like he just noticed where he was. “Walkin’. I think.”

“You think ?”

“Yeah.” He nodded solemnly, then promptly tried to sit up straighter and failed miserably, nearly tipping sideways. “Started thinkin’. Then… walkin’. Then… this.”

He gestured vaguely to the porch like that explained everything.

Jo stared down at him, mouth slightly open. Then she sighed through her nose, dragging her free hand down her face.

“You scared the life outta me, y’know that?”

He blinked at her again. Slowly. “Sorry, ma’am” he slurred. “Didn’t mean to. Porch’s real sturdy. Real… wood.”

“Oh my God,” Jo muttered.

She should’ve left him there. Let him sleep it off on the damn boards like the drunken idiot he was. But he was sprawled out half in the dirt, half on her porch, like some stray dog that had wandered too far from home and couldn’t remember the way back. And there was something about his face—his flushed cheeks, those tired blue eyes full of drunken confusion and something soft underneath it all—that made her throat tighten.

“…C’mon, cowboy,” she said, setting the shotgun aside. “Let’s get you off your ass.”

Arthur tried to push himself up again, failed again.

Jo sighed, stepped forward, and grabbed him under the arm. “You’re heavy , Morgan.”

“You’re strong,” he muttered into her shoulder as she heaved him upright, almost toppling them both in the process. “Always been.”

“You keep talkin’, I’m gonna let you fall,” she grunted.

But she didn’t.

She got his arm over her shoulders and somehow managed to half-drag, half-walk him through the door. He bumped into every piece of furniture on the way, mumbling apologies to her dresser, her stove, and at one point, her kitchen table.

“You’re drunker than a rat in a whiskey barrel,” she said, nudging him toward the bed.

Arthur laughed softly. “I missed you.”

Jo stiffened.

His words hung in the air—loose and fragile and real. She didn’t answer. Just helped him sit down on the edge of the bed.

He leaned forward, elbows on his knees, swaying slightly. His hatless hair stuck up at odd angles. He looked… tired. Not just drunk—tired in his bones. Like someone who’d been fighting a war no one could see.

She crouched to pull off his boots.

Arthur blinked down at her. “Y’don’t gotta…”

“Shut up. You smell like you fought a distillery and lost.”

He chuckled, then winced. “My head hurts.”

“Yeah, well, that’s the price of being a dumbass.”

She stood and crossed the room, lighting a lantern by the table before grabbing a tin cup and filling it with water from the pitcher. She brought it back and handed it to him. He took it with both hands like a child, drinking half and letting the rest dribble down his chin.

Jo sat beside him on the bed, just for a moment.

He was quiet now. Breathing slow. Staring at the floor like it had answers. His shoulder brushed hers.

“You came back just to fall on my porch?” she asked softly.

“I didn’t mean to fall.”

“You didn’t mean to come back either, I’ll bet.”

Arthur’s mouth twitched into something like a smile. “Didn’t mean nothin’. Just… wanted to see you again.”

Jo swallowed.

She didn’t know what to say. Not tonight.

He swayed again, and she steadied him with a hand on his arm.

“…You sleep here,” she said, rising. “I’ll take the chair.”

Arthur reached out, catching her wrist as she stood. His fingers were warm and clumsy.

“Jo.”

She turned back, eyes guarded.

But he didn’t say anything else.

He just let her go.

Jo watched him for a moment longer as he slouched on the edge of the bed, the tin cup now dangling loosely from his fingers, head drooping forward like it might just roll off his shoulders.

He wasn’t going to lie down on his own. Not without falling over and possibly cracking his skull on the floorboards.

“Alright,” she muttered under her breath, “you big idiot.”

She reached for the cup and gently pried it from his fingers. Arthur didn’t resist, just made a sleepy grunting sound and blinked at her like he wasn’t entirely sure what was happening. His cheeks were flushed, lashes heavy on half-lidded eyes, hair a damn mess. He looked more like a boy caught sneaking liquor from his father’s stash than the outlaw who’d once stared down Pinkertons with blood on his knuckles.

Jo sighed, set the cup aside, and gave his shoulder a light shove.

“C’mon. Lie back.”

Arthur blinked at her. “But—”

“No arguing.”

“…Okay,” he mumbled, and let her push him gently back onto the mattress.

He collapsed like a felled tree, boots now off, legs stretched out, arms splayed to the sides like he didn’t have bones anymore. Jo reached over and grabbed the blanket folded at the foot of the bed. It was old and patchworked, worn soft by time, and smelled faintly of woodsmoke and herbs.

“You’re lucky I ain’t shot you yet,” she muttered, unfolding it and shaking it out.

Arthur just grinned up at the ceiling. “You still could.”

“Don’t tempt me.”

She tossed the blanket over him and began tugging it up over his chest. But the second she leaned closer to tuck the sides in, Arthur turned his head toward her, eyes slightly unfocused, breath warm with whiskey.

“Smell real good,” he said.

Jo froze.

For a split second, her brain forgot how to process language.

“…Excuse me?” she said, voice sharp.

Arthur blinked slowly, not even hearing the warning in her tone. “You always did. Like—like smoke. And somethin’ sweet.” His brows furrowed like he was concentrating hard. “Like… honey. Maybe.”

Jo pulled her hands back from the blanket fast like it burned her.

“Oh for god’s sake,” she muttered, standing up quickly.

She could feel it. The heat in her face. Creeping up her neck. Embarrassment, frustration, and something dangerously close to flattery knotted tight in her chest.

Arthur let out a sleepy sigh and rolled slightly to one side, clutching the edge of the blanket like a child. “Ain’t lyin’. Ya smell nice…”

“You’re drunk,” she snapped, not quite meeting his eyes.

“…Still true,” he mumbled.

Jo rolled her eyes and turned away, arms crossed tight across her chest, jaw clenched. She didn’t say another word. Just blew out a heavy breath and walked across the room, every step full of too much emotion for her to handle tonight.

Behind her, Arthur let out a small snore.

She glanced back once.

He was curled slightly on his side now, hair falling into his eyes, blanket haphazard but holding. There was a peace to his face she hadn’t seen in years. A kind of quiet she didn’t expect. He looked younger like this. Not weighed down by grief or guilt or fury. Just tired. Just human.

And damn him, he meant it. That stupid, drunken compliment.

Jo muttered something under her breath she wouldn’t repeat in daylight, grabbed the spare blanket from the chair, and threw it over herself as she sank down into the wooden seat across the room.

The room was quiet but not peaceful. The kind of quiet that throbbed. Pressed too hard against the ribs.

Jo sat hunched forward in the creaky wooden chair near the hearth, elbows on her knees, a cigarette burning slow between her fingers. The lantern on the table still flickered low, casting the cabin in that soft, golden haze that made the shadows dance along the walls like ghosts.

Arthur hadn’t moved much. He’d stayed curled on his side, one arm cradling the pillow, the other tucked under the blanket she’d pulled over him like some stubborn child too proud to admit he was cold. His face was slack now, slack and soft, like time had reversed itself. He looked the way he used to before the world had caved in around them both.

Jo exhaled, long and tired, the cigarette trembling slightly between her fingers.

She shouldn’t be staring. She knew that. But hell, it was hard not to.

She took another drag, let it burn slow in her lungs before releasing it again. Smoke curled in the warm lamplight, ghosting toward the ceiling like a silent prayer.

He was here. In her house. In her bed.

Not dead. Not a memory. Not a weight in her chest every damn night when the dark got too quiet.

Alive.

Her eyes dropped to his hand—the one visible above the blanket. Big, calloused. Knuckles scarred from old fights and colder winters. That was the same hand that used to settle warm on her waist without thinking. The same one that cupped the back of her neck the night before everything went to hell, like he wanted to say something but never found the words.

She swallowed.

She could get used to this.

That thought landed soft, almost a whisper in her skull, and it terrified her.

She could get used to him being here. To the sound of his breath in the quiet. To the creak of floorboards when he walked. To the way he looked at her when he thought she wasn’t watching.

She could. She wanted to.

Jo shook her head, hard, like she could jostle the thought out before it burrowed too deep.

No. No, she knew better than that.

It wasn’t a good idea. It’d never been a good idea. Whatever they’d had—whatever this was now—was soaked in too much blood and too many lies to be anything but doomed.

They’d hurt each other.

They already had.

Her jaw tensed as she flicked the ash from the cigarette into the small tin dish by her feet. It landed with a soft hiss.

She leaned back, finally, and let her head tip against the wall behind her. Eyes still fixed on the figure in her bed.

Then, out of nowhere—

A loud, unholy sound like a dying bear came from Arthur, rattling the otherwise quiet cabin.

Jo jerked slightly in her chair.

“…Jesus Christ,” she muttered.

The snoring continued, one long, rattling breath after another, like his damn lungs were waging war on themselves.

She rolled her eyes, biting back a reluctant smile. “You better be glad you're pretty,” she grumbled under her breath, stubbing out the cigarette.

Arthur let out another snore, even louder this time.

Jo huffed and shook her head, muttering to herself as she stood and grabbed the second blanket from the back of the chair.

She crossed the room and threw it lightly over him—more out of spite than care, like she was trying to smother the sound. It didn’t help.

“Goddamn man sleeps like a freight train,” she muttered. “Bet he could sleep through a tornado and a gunfight.”

She looked at him once more before turning away. Just a glance. Just enough.

He didn’t stir.

She hesitated at the foot of the bed, arms crossed, heart too full and too tired. And for a moment—just a moment—she allowed herself to stand there and pretend. Pretend this was a different life. One without ghosts. One where his place in her bed wasn’t temporary. One where he didn’t leave every time morning came.

But pretending hurt too much.

So she stepped away. Grabbed her coat from the wall. Opened the cabin door just enough to let in the night air.

It was cold. Clear. Stars blinking overhead like scattered promises.

She stood there a while, letting the air cool her skin, trying to shake off the heat in her chest.

Behind her, Arthur snored again.

Jo closed her eyes and laughed softly—just once.

Then she shut the door.

Chapter 47: What’s Left Unsaid

Chapter Text

The first thing Arthur noticed was the headache. Not just any headache, either—but the kind that pounded behind his eyes like a war drum, each throb sharp enough to split bone.

He groaned, low and guttural, and rolled onto his back.

Bad idea.

The world tilted sideways.

Everything was too bright and too loud—even though the cabin was dim and dead quiet. The sunlight leaking in through the shutters felt like it had been weaponized, aiming straight for his skull.

He blinked a few times, slow and cautious, until the ceiling came into focus. Rough-hewn wood beams. Faint smoke stains in the corners.

Not his ceiling.

Not his bed.

He sat up with a grunt—then immediately regretted it. His head spun like a wheel in the mud, and his stomach gave a slow, angry lurch.

“Christ,” he muttered, rubbing a hand down his face.

That’s when the memories started bleeding back.

The walk. The fall. The porch. The shotgun. Jo.

Her voice, low and sharp and unimpressed. Her fingers undoing his saddlebag. Her pulling his damn boots off like he was some drunk child. Her tucking him in like—

He dropped his hand from his face to stare at the blanket still pulled up to his chest.

Tucked.
Like a goddamn child.

He groaned again, louder this time, and let his head thud back against the headboard.

“You stupid fool, Morgan,” he muttered.

He rubbed his temples, trying to rub the shame out of his skull. But the memories kept coming— You smell good, he’d said.

Dear God.

He’d said it out loud. Hadn’t he?

“Dumb bastard,” he breathed.

He forced himself to sit upright, blinking against the pain splitting his skull. His mouth felt like it had been lined with sawdust and regret. His tongue felt twice its size. His throat burned.

And Jo? Nowhere to be seen.

He glanced around the cabin, like maybe she’d be curled in a corner with that unimpressed look she always wore when he said something dumb. But no. Her coat was gone. The room was empty save for the smell of faint smoke and whatever faint scent she always left behind—soap and tobacco and something faintly floral.

Arthur scrubbed both hands over his face again and let out a breath.

She’d probably gone out for air—or to get away from him for a while. He couldn’t blame her. Not after last night.

He wasn’t a mean drunk, he knew that. But he was a stupid one. A lonely one.

And last night he’d been all three, wrapped in guilt and grief, and it had come out in every damn stupid thing he said.

He looked down at himself, still in his shirt and trousers, and the blanket still tucked snug beneath his arms.

That hurt worse than the headache.

The last time she’d touched him like that—soft, careful—it’d been years ago. Before the fire. Before the blood. Before they’d destroyed each other with secrets and silence.

He didn’t deserve her kindness. Not after everything.

He swung his legs off the bed and sat there a moment, elbows on his knees, head in his hands.

“I ain’t gonna survive this,” he muttered to no one.

And deep down, a part of him wasn’t sure if he even wanted to.

The ache in his skull had dulled, but it was still there—low and punishing, like a reminder of everything he wished he hadn’t done or said. His throat felt like he'd gargled gravel, and his mouth was dry enough to crack.

He reached down with a wince and grabbed his boots. They were right where Jo had left them—neatly beside the bed like some damn innkeeper’s courtesy. The memory of her kneeling down, tugging them off his feet while muttering something about "useless men," made him rub a hand down his face again.

It was almost funny, in a pathetic kind of way.

He slid the boots on, careful not to move too quick, then pushed to his feet. The floor creaked under his weight, but otherwise the cabin was silent. Still no sign of her. Not inside, anyway.

He spotted his hat on the table and grabbed it, thumbing the brim before stepping outside, the hinges of the door groaning quietly behind him.

The cold morning air hit him like a bucket of water to the face.

Crisp. Clean. It cut through the last fog of alcohol lingering in his brain. The sun had just begun to peek over the hills, casting long, golden rays across the field stretching out in front of the cabin.

And there she was.

Jo stood out in the tall grass, maybe thirty, forty yards away, brushing down Laramie near the fence line. The mare stood calm and still beneath her hands, ears twitching with the breeze. Laramie’s coat shone like ink in the morning light—but it was Jo who stole his breath.

She hadn’t seen him yet.

The rising sun caught her hair just right, turning it from dusty blonde to something near-gold, like it had been lit from within. The wind tugged at the loose ends, curling them around her face, and for a moment—just a moment—Arthur forgot how to breathe.

She looked... peaceful.

Not happy, not exactly, but calm in a way he hadn’t seen in years. Like the world had given her a sliver of rest.

And God, he missed her.

Not just her body or her voice—but her . The sharp edge of her laugh. The way her brow furrowed when she was thinking too hard. The way she looked at the stars like they might answer all her questions if she just stared long enough.

He swallowed thickly and let his eyes drop to the boards beneath his feet.

What the hell was he even doing here?

He’d said too much. Or maybe not enough. Either way, he’d made a goddamn fool of himself.

And still… he didn’t regret coming.

His eyes drifted back to her. She leaned into Laramie’s neck now, resting her forehead against the horse for a second like she needed the contact. Laramie snorted softly, content.

Arthur exhaled through his nose.

She was alive . That still felt impossible. For five years, he'd lived with the ache of her loss, blaming himself for sending her away, imagining her dying alone in some godforsaken place. And now here she was—real, breathing, brushing down a damn horse in the golden dawn like the last five years hadn’t happened at all.

He wasn’t sure if he should call out to her.

Or turn around and leave before he made things worse again.

But his boots stayed rooted to the porch, and his fingers tightened around the brim of his hat.

He didn’t know what came next.

But he knew he’d stay just a little longer—at least until she looked his way.

Arthur lingered on the porch, the wood beneath his boots groaning softly as he shifted his weight, hat still clenched in his hands. He didn’t know how long he stood there, just watching her. The wind tugged at the loose strands of her hair, and she brushed them back absently while murmuring to Laramie. There was something painfully familiar about it—the quiet calm she carried, the way the horse seemed to relax under her touch. He used to watch her like that back in camp, back when things were simpler. Or at least, felt simpler. 

She still hadn’t noticed him. Maybe she was used to solitude now—so used to it, she no longer looked up expecting anyone to be near.

And maybe… maybe that was his fault, too.

He let out a breath that shook more than he liked, then cleared his throat lightly.

She turned.

Not sharply—not startled—but her head tilted and her gaze lifted slowly, like some part of her already knew he was there. Their eyes met across the field, and for a second, neither of them moved.

Her face was unreadable. Calm, maybe. Tired. The kind of tired that had nothing to do with sleep and everything to do with living. It made something twist deep in Arthur’s chest.

He adjusted his hat in his hand and stepped off the porch.

Each footfall felt heavier than the last. He didn’t know what the hell he was doing—he just knew he couldn’t stand there and do nothing.

Jo turned back to Laramie, giving the mare one last brush before patting her flank and murmuring something. Then she leaned on the fence, arms crossed loosely, waiting. Posture loose but not exactly welcoming.

Arthur stopped a few paces away and shoved his hands in his pockets. “’Bout last night…” he began, voice scratchy. “I… I owe you an apology.”

Jo arched a brow, but said nothing.

“I drank too much. Acted like an ass. Didn’t mean to show up on your floor like that. Just…” He trailed off, then huffed. “No excuse, really. Just sorry.”

She looked at him a second longer, then smirked. “You was an ass.”

Arthur snorted. “Yeah. I know.”

“And a loud one. Snored like an old grizzly with a chest cold.”

That earned a reluctant, crooked smile from him. “Guess I deserved that.”

She gave a noncommittal shrug, turning back to Laramie. “Could’ve shot you when you landed on the porch. Thought you were a damn bear or an intruder.”

Arthur rubbed the back of his neck. “Wouldn’t’ve blamed you. I didn’t mean to—hell, I didn’t even know what I was doin’. I just… needed t’see you. And I drank too much and made a damn fool of myself.”

She gave a short, dry laugh through her nose. “You did,” she said quietly. “Made a real fool of yourself.”

Arthur gave a low, humorless chuckle and nodded. “Yeah. I figured.”

She chuckled under her breath, but didn’t say anything else.

An awkward silence stretched between them. Arthur wanted to fill it—ask her how she’d been, where she’d gone, why she never let him know she was alive—but the words got stuck behind his ribs. Everything still felt too raw, too uncertain.

Eventually, Jo turned toward the cabin. “I’ll put some coffee on.”

Arthur nodded, watching as she walked away. She didn’t invite him to follow, but she didn’t tell him to leave either.

And that was something.

He stayed by the fence, arms crossed, staring out at the land stretching past her little homestead. It was wild country still—uneven hills, trees clustering thick in the distance, birds starting to stir as the sun climbed higher. The air smelled of morning dew and earth and old wood smoke.

Behind him, the door creaked open and swung shut again. He could hear her moving around inside—the scrape of the kettle, the clink of tin mugs, her boots on the wooden floorboards.

And somehow, that quiet rustling hit him harder than her words ever could.

It felt like five years ago. Like nothing had changed.

But everything had changed.

Arthur exhaled slowly, pulling his hat down over his brow.

He’d forgotten what this felt like. Not just the place, or the stillness of it—but her . The presence of her. The way she moved, like the world didn’t own her. The way she looked at him—sharp, assessing, guarded—but still looked . There were days in camp when she wouldn’t even meet his eye. And now she had every reason to look away and didn’t.

He hadn’t realized how much he’d missed that.

How much he’d missed her .

The ache in his chest, the one he’d carried for years, shifted subtly—like a knife being turned just slightly in a wound. It wasn’t just guilt now. It was longing. And something dangerously close to hope.

And hope, he’d learned, was a dangerous thing.

Arthur didn’t dare go inside. Instead, he leaned on the fence and tilted his head toward the sky, listening to the faint whistle of the kettle rising in the house.

He closed his eyes and told himself to stop thinking. Told himself not to want. But there she was—just on the other side of the wall, and every inch of him felt it.

He didn’t know if he should stay. If she wanted him to. If he even could without breaking something all over again.

But for now, he stayed.

Because the truth was—standing there, with the scent of coffee floating on the air and Josephine Harper moving around her kitchen like she belonged to the earth itself—he felt something he hadn’t in a long time.

He felt home .

And that terrified him.

The fence creaked under his weight as Arthur leaned forward on his forearms, staring out across the slope behind Jo’s homestead. His boots were still damp with morning dew. A crow cawed somewhere in the trees. The breeze stirred the long grass like a slow-moving tide, and the world felt too big for the thoughts crammed inside his skull.

Five years.

Five goddamn years of thinking she was dead.

Five years of guilt chewing at him like rot in his bones—telling himself he’d killed her by sending her away, letting her go alone after everything. He remembered the way she looked at him that day—broken but proud, like she knew he was slicing through something that couldn’t be stitched back together.

He’d told himself it was for her own good.

He’d told himself it was mercy.

But he’d been lying. To her. To himself. It had been fear. Fear of what she knew. Of what she made him feel. Of what loving her might’ve cost him in the end. And now here she was—alive, hardened, shining in the damn sunrise like something divine—and he didn’t know what the hell to do with that.

His jaw tightened as he ran a hand down his face, dragging it slow. He wanted to stop feeling all of it. He’d been good at that once—stuffing everything down until it rotted out of sight. But now… now he could still smell her on his damn shirt. Could still hear her voice laced with dry humor from last night. Could still see her hands moving over that coffee kettle through the window. That familiar rhythm, that calm.

He squeezed his eyes shut.

You stupid fool, Morgan…

He wanted to tell himself none of it mattered. That this was just some stray chapter they’d stumbled into and he’d be gone before the week was out. He wanted to believe he hadn’t come here hoping for something—answers maybe, or forgiveness, or just one goddamn moment where things made sense again.

But standing here now, he couldn’t lie to himself anymore.

He’d missed her.

Missed the way she saw through him when no one else could. Missed the bite in her words, the weight of her silences. Missed that feeling of her being close enough to reach out and steady him, even if he was too proud to ask.

He hadn’t just lost her when she disappeared.

He’d lost the last piece of himself that ever felt worth a damn.

He sighed, long and bitter, like it’d been building in his chest for five years. Then he shoved a hand in his coat pocket, fiddling with the flask still tucked inside—but thought better of it. His head couldn’t take another drop, and the guilt would only come back stronger anyway.

Behind him, the door creaked open again.

He straightened as Jo stepped out onto the porch, two tin mugs in hand. Her sleeves were rolled up, hair caught loosely at the back of her neck. The golden light of the rising sun caught in the strands, making them look like fire. Her face was unreadable again—calm, but cautious, like a woman who wasn’t ready to ask questions she might not like the answers to.

“Figured you could use this,” she said, holding out a mug.

Arthur turned just enough to take it. Their fingers didn’t brush, but they might as well have.

“Thanks,” he muttered.

She sat on the edge of the porch, her own mug cradled in both hands. “Thought you’d already be gone.”

He took a sip, scalding his tongue but not flinching. “Couldn’t…” 

She hummed—noncommittal.

He glanced over. “Thanks for not shootin’ me last night.”

She smirked faintly into her cup. “Would’ve made too much mess.”

He let out a low chuckle.

And for a moment, neither of them spoke.

The silence between them wasn’t hostile, but it wasn’t easy either. It was taut, stretched thin like canvas in the wind—held together by all the things neither of them could say just yet. But something about it felt real. Familiar. Like sharing campfire warmth after too many cold nights.

Arthur stole another glance at her.

Even now—sitting in that faded shirt, coffee in hand, boots resting in the dirt—she looked like she belonged here more than he ever had anywhere. And that realization settled somewhere deep in him, heavy and unyielding.

He’d come here expecting to walk away.

Now he didn’t know if he could .

Too many questions still hung in the air between them—shadows of what was, ghosts of what might’ve been. But for the first time in five years, Arthur didn’t feel like he was chasing ghosts alone.

He sipped his coffee again, swallowing hard.

The coffee had long gone tepid in her hands, but Jo hadn’t noticed. She held the mug like it was anchoring her to the earth, fingers curled tight around the metal.

The quiet was too damn loud.

Wind whispered through the grass. A bird chirped out somewhere near the barn. Laramie stomped a hoof and snorted in the distance. The world was already stirring to life, but Jo still felt like she was somewhere between yesterday and a memory she couldn’t escape.

Arthur hadn’t said much since she handed him the coffee. Just a soft thank you and a sheepish kind of stillness. He looked like hell—face drawn, knuckles tight around his mug, shadows thick under his eyes—but he was here. Alive. Solid. Sitting right beside her.

She risked a glance at him again, just out the corner of her eye.

Goddamn you, she thought, not unkindly.

It wasn’t fair—how easy it felt to fall back into this rhythm with him. Like no time had passed. Like the world hadn’t gone and burned itself down around them. Just two tired souls, sharing the quiet like they always used to. She hated how natural it felt. She hated that part of her still wanted it.

And most of all, she hated herself.

Because even if Arthur did want to stay—even if some broken part of him looked at her and saw something worth salvaging—she wasn’t that person anymore. Not the girl who used to mouth off at him from across the campfire. Not the woman who once thought she could carve out a life that didn’t stink of blood and regret.

That Jo had died somewhere on a muddy trail five years ago, bleeding into the dirt with Micah’s name on her tongue.

And what rose after… wasn’t clean.

She tightened her grip on the mug. The memory clawed up without permission—rough hands, filthy money, the weight of decisions made when her ribs jutted out from hunger and she couldn’t feel her toes from cold. Her stomach turned at the thought. She swallowed hard.

She’d never tell him.

Never tell anyone.

What she did to survive belonged to no one but her—and no one would ever know how low she’d sunk just to keep breathing. But that shame clung to her skin like old smoke. No matter how many times she scrubbed herself raw, it was still there.

Arthur shifted beside her, elbow brushing hers lightly as he sat on the porch next to her. She tensed, then relaxed. He didn’t notice. He just sipped his coffee and stared out at the land like it was holding answers he couldn’t name.

She stared too, lips pressed thin, letting the silence speak in ways she couldn’t.

She had missed him.

Missed him in ways that made her chest ache. In the long nights when she had no one but Laramie for company, she’d wonder what Arthur might’ve said if he were there beside her. She’d imagine his rough voice, those sharp eyes that always saw too much, the steadying calm of his presence. It had helped, sometimes, to pretend he was there. Like she wasn’t entirely alone.

But now that he was here… she felt raw.

She wasn’t ready for him to look at her too closely.

He hadn’t asked any questions yet, but she knew they were coming. And when they did—when he wanted to know what she'd done, where she’d gone, who she’d become—what then?

Would he look at her the same?

Would he stay?

She didn’t want to find out.

Because the truth was, even now, even with the years between them, even with the ache and betrayal and loss—they still mattered. And she didn’t know how to carry that weight again. Not when her hands were so damn dirty.

She sipped the last of her coffee, forcing herself to stay still. The breeze caught her hair and blew a strand across her face. She didn’t bother to fix it.

Another sideways glance.

Arthur’s head was tilted slightly down, brows furrowed. Like he was thinking too much. Like he was fighting something too. That almost made her smile.

You ain’t the only one, Morgan.

But the smile didn’t come. It sat somewhere behind her eyes, too heavy to lift.

Even now, after everything… being near him still felt like the safest place she’d ever known.

And that was the most dangerous thing of all.

The quiet had stretched too long. Arthur hated silence when it got like this—sharp around the edges, like a blade being drawn slow.

He could feel her next to him, stiff and distant, though she hadn’t moved more than an inch. Her mug empty in her hand, the other folded over her stomach as if trying to keep something from spilling out.

Arthur rubbed a hand across his mouth, then cleared his throat.

“So,” he started, voice low and rough, like the words didn’t want to come. “What’ve you been doin’? All this time.”

Jo didn’t answer right away. Her eyes were still fixed on the horizon, unmoving. The wind pulled strands of hair across her face again, and she didn’t bother brushing them aside.

“Surviving,” she said finally. Flat. Simple. Like that word alone could carry five years of pain.

Arthur nodded slowly. He figured as much. He didn’t know what answer he’d expected—some story with hope in it, maybe. But that word— surviving —was heavy in the air now, thick with the things she wasn’t saying.

“Alone?”

Her jaw twitched.

“Mostly.”

That stung more than it should have. He didn’t know why. It wasn’t his place, not anymore. Still, he found himself chewing the inside of his cheek, staring down at his boots like maybe the dirt could tell him something she wouldn’t.

“Why didn’t you come back?” he asked, quieter now.

Jo turned to look at him. That was worse. Her eyes—sharp and pale and tired—met his, and he saw something flicker there. A warning, maybe. Or a wound.

“I couldn’t,” she said.

“That ain’t an answer.”

“No,” she snapped, suddenly, the word sharper than the coffee mug she set down. “But it’s the truth.”

Arthur blinked.

Jo stood up then, the scrape of her boots against the wood abrupt in the stillness. She walked a few feet away, arms crossed, head tilted back like she was trying to breathe through something. She exhaled through her nose, long and slow.

“You wanna know what I did, Arthur?” Her voice was quieter now. No longer angry—just brittle, like a dead branch bending under its own weight. “I begged some nights. I starved other nights. I slept in barns and ditches and under Goddamn bridges. I lost count of how many times I nearly got killed. And I did things I’ll never say out loud just to keep breathing.”

Arthur stood too. “Jo…”

“No.” She cut him off, voice firm now. She turned to face him fully, her expression unreadable. “Don’t. Don’t you pity me. Don’t stand there and act like you’ve got the right to know.”

“I ain’t pityin’ you.”

“Then what do you want from me?” she asked. Her voice was shaking now. “You want me to say I’m glad you’re here? That it’s good to see you again? That I missed you every day for five years?”

Arthur looked at her. Really looked. And something cracked open in his chest. Because yes —that’s what he wanted. But he couldn’t say it. He wasn’t sure he had the right to.

“You could’ve wrote,” he said softly.

Jo let out a bitter laugh. “Wrote what ? ‘Hey Arthur, I’m alive but rotting from the inside out, hope you’re doin’ well’? I made John promise never to tell you for a reason .”

Arthur’s brow furrowed. “You didn’t trust me.”

“It wasn’t about trust.” Her voice trembled. “It was about survival . I didn’t want this. I didn’t want you looking at me like that—like you’re trying to figure out how broken I am, or if I’m still worth anything.”

“I ain’t—”

“Yes, you are.” Her hands balled into fists. “You don’t mean to, but you are.”

Arthur took a step toward her. “I never stopped thinkin’ about you, Jo. For five damn years, I blamed myself for tellin’ you to leave. Thought you was dead because of me. And now you’re standin’ here, alive, and you expect me not to—?”

“To what?” Her voice broke on the word. “To care? To feel something? Because I can’t afford that, Arthur. Not anymore. I barely held myself together as it is.”

Silence again. Only this time, it was jagged. Bleeding at the edges.

“I don’t need you here,” she added quietly. “I don’t want you here.”

Arthur flinched like she’d struck him. He stared at her for a long moment, then looked away, jaw clenched, breath tight in his chest.

“Alright,” he said, almost under his breath. “Alright.”

Jo turned her face away, blinking fast. She crossed her arms tighter across her chest like it might hold her together.

He started walking toward Atlas.

Halfway there, she called after him. “That’s why I told John to never tell you.”

Arthur stopped, back to her. He didn’t turn around.

“Because I knew if you came here, I’d feel things I didn’t wanna feel. And you’d look at me like I was someone worth savin’. And I ain’t. Not anymore.”

A long pause.

Arthur lowered his head, said nothing, and climbed onto his horse without looking back.

Jo didn’t move until the sound of hooves had long faded into the hills. Even then, she just stood there, arms still crossed tight over her chest like they were the only thing keeping her ribs from splitting wide open.

Her lungs burned. She hadn’t realized she was holding her breath.

The wind stirred her loose hair, carried the scent of coffee and dust. The sun was higher now, warm on her face—but she felt cold. Hollowed out.

Good , she told herself. This is what you wanted. He’s gone. He listened. He left.

So why did her hands tremble like this?

She sank down onto the step of the porch, knees giving out before she meant them to. Her boots thudded hard against the wood, and she let her elbows rest on them, burying her face in her palms.

Damn you, Morgan.

She hated how her voice cracked even inside her own head.

It had been the right thing to do. She knew that. She’d rehearsed it for years, ever since the first time she imagined what she’d say if he ever came looking. You don’t belong here anymore. I don’t want you here. I ain’t her anymore. All of it. Word for word.

So why did it feel like her chest was splitting in two?

Jo pulled in a shaky breath and sat up, dragging one hand down her face. She looked out toward the trees where he’d gone, her expression unreadable, eyes fixed but distant.

“Idiot,” she muttered. “Stupid damn idiot.”

She didn’t know if she meant him or herself.

She reached for the tin cigarette case on the little table by the door. The snap of the lid opening was too loud in the quiet. Her fingers fumbled as she pulled one out and lit it, the first drag tasting of guilt and ash.

You did the right thing, she told herself again. You kept him safe. That’s what matters.

But the ache in her throat didn’t go away.

She tipped her head back against the wall of the cabin, cigarette dangling from her fingers, and stared at the porch ceiling. Morning birds chirped in the trees. Laramie snorted softly somewhere behind the house.

And still, the silence pressed on her like a damn weight.

She thought back to the night before—his stupid drunk smile, the way he’d looked at her like she was some impossible thing come back to life. His soft murmur when she’d tucked him in, the smell of his coat, the warmth of him lingering in the cabin even after he’d left.

You smell good , he’d said.

She swallowed hard.

It wasn’t like she wanted to feel anything. She hadn’t invited this. He was the one who showed up. He was the one who’d come storming back into her life and looked at her like she still meant something. And for a few hours, she let herself believe it could be different this time.

That maybe… maybe he still saw the girl she used to be.

But she wasn’t that girl. Not anymore.

That girl didn’t have blood under her fingernails and shame in her bones. That girl hadn’t sold herself to strangers just to eat, hadn’t begged and stolen and scraped herself raw just to see another morning. That girl hadn’t died in Ambarino.

Jo dragged another breath of smoke deep into her lungs and tried to steady her hands.

“You don’t get to have this,” she whispered to herself. “You don’t get to want it.”

The sun kept rising. Her cigarette burned down. And still she sat there, shoulders curled inward, head bowed.

She hadn’t cried in years—not properly—but her eyes stung now, and her chest ached like something had been torn out of it.

Because the truth was—she had missed him. Every damn day. Even when she tried not to. Even when she buried herself in the dark and told herself he’d moved on, that he forgot her, that it was better that way.

But one look at him, and it all came roaring back.

And now he was gone.

Because she’d told him to go.

Because she was scared.

And she was so damn tired of being scared.

The screen door creaked behind her as the breeze caught it. The wind tugged at her hair again, soft and warm and careless, and she closed her eyes against it.

Maybe she’d sit here all day. Maybe she'd never go inside again.

But deep down, Jo knew that if she listened closely enough… part of her would always be waiting to hear those hooves turn back around.

 


 

The days bled together after that.

Three weeks—maybe a month—slipped through Jo’s fingers like river water, slow at first, then rushing. She tried, at the start, to get back to her old rhythm. The kind of rhythm built not from peace, but from necessity. The quiet shuffle of survival. She did her work—odd jobs, deliveries, little tasks in nearby towns where people didn’t ask questions and she didn’t offer answers. She rode Laramie up and down dusty trails, saddlebags filled with tools or tins or whiskey depending on who needed what. Folks in those parts knew her by a different name, if they knew her at all. Some just called her “that blonde girl with the black horse.”

She kept to herself. She always had.

But everything felt different now.

There were echoes in her cabin that hadn’t been there before. Shadows where Arthur had sat. She’d catch herself looking toward the chair by the fire, half-expecting to see him slouched there with a cup of coffee in hand. She’d roll her eyes at herself when she did—angry, embarrassed—but the ache stayed.

And then there was the damn post office.

At first, she went every day.

It started as an excuse—her runs often passed through towns with a post clerk anyway. But the truth of it lived deep in her bones. Every morning she’d saddle up Laramie, pack her deliveries, and tack on a stop at whatever poky little post office was closest. Strawberry. Manzanita Post. Riggs Station. She’d tip her hat, give her alias, and stand there with her heart rattling in her chest like a loose bullet in a tin can.

“Sorry, ma’am,” they’d say. “Nothin’ for you today.”

She’d nod, thank them. Pretend it didn’t matter.

And then she’d leave, her jaw tight, her back straight in the saddle like she wasn’t hoping for anything at all.

But she was.

Every goddamn day.

Sometimes she wondered if maybe John had written and something got lost. Maybe the letter just never made it. Maybe Arthur didn’t even know how to write to her. Maybe he didn’t want to. Maybe he was angry—or worse, maybe he wasn’t.

Maybe he just stopped caring.

After a week, she started spacing her visits. Every two days. Then every three.

By the time a full month had come and gone, she went once a week, and even that felt like a waste of breath. Each time she gave her name, she said it quieter. Each time they checked, she looked away, pretending to examine the rack of penny novels or dusty flyers tacked on the wall, pretending she didn’t already know what they’d say.

Nothing. Always nothing.

So Jo stopped asking. Stopped hoping.

She poured herself into her work. Took longer routes. Avoided familiar towns. She told herself it was better that way. Cleaner. Safer. The life she’d built might be hollow, but it was hers. And it didn’t hurt as much when she stopped expecting anything from anyone.

Until it came.

Late morning in a nowhere town. She’d just finished dropping off a crate of broken lanterns for repair and was about to head back to Laramie when the clerk—a young man with crooked glasses and ink-stained fingers—called out.

“Hey, miss—wait a second! You Miss O’Grady, right?”

Jo froze, one boot already on the step.

Slowly, she turned.

“…Yeah,” she said. Voice like gravel in her throat. “That’s me.”

The clerk blinked, then fumbled behind the counter. “Came in this mornin’, actually. Didn’t think I’d be handin’ it off this quick.” He held up a letter. Thin. Creased. Faint smudge of dirt on the edge. But it had her name. Not her real one. 

Her hands didn’t shake until she took it.

She didn’t open it there.

Didn’t even move for a long moment—just stood in the doorway with the envelope held tight between her fingers, staring like it might vanish. She didn’t breathe until she was back on Laramie’s back, riding hard toward the hills, the letter tucked safe in her coat.

And even then, her heart wouldn’t stop pounding.

Because the thing about hope—the terrible, beautiful thing—is that no matter how many times you kill it, it always finds a way to crawl back out of the grave.

The days had grown shorter, the light slipping away before she was ready for it. Winter had arrived in quiet whispers—thin sheets of frost on the grass at dawn, the slow breath of her horse rising in pale clouds as they rode beneath gray skies. It was early December now, and snow had started to fall, delicate and sporadic. 

Jo rode back from town with the letter in her coat pocket, folded and crumpled at the edges from where she’d clutched it too tightly. The paper was thin, aged already from the sweat of her palm, and yet she hadn’t let go of it. She hadn’t dared. 

She’d stood outside the post office for ten minutes, unmoving, her boots rooted to the worn wooden steps, watching the wind turn the sky above into a swirl of gray and pale blue. The envelope had felt like it weighed more than a bullet. Heavier, even.

She hadn’t needed to look at it again—she’d already burned every detail into her mind.

The handwriting.

That familiar, crooked scrawl. Letters too big in some places, too cramped in others. Slanted just enough to tell her who’d written it without ever needing to see a signature.

Arthur.

Her stomach twisted at the thought of him. Not the drunk fool who’d crashed onto her porch weeks ago, not the man with the too-soft eyes and the clumsy apologies—but the real him. The one whose voice still haunted her dreams, low and gravelly, warm in winter and dangerous in summer. The one who had once, without realizing, become her whole world.

She hadn't expected this.

She thought he’d taken the hint. Thought he would ride away and stay away like she told him. She thought—

She thought it would hurt less if he did.

The path curved toward her cabin, narrow and wild, brush and thorn clawing at Laramie’s legs. The mare didn’t mind, didn’t spook. She moved sure-footed and steady, as if sensing Jo’s unease. They crested the last hill just as the sun slid west, spilling gold across the clearing where the little house waited, quiet and still.

By the time she made it home, the wind was picking up. Jo unsaddled Laramie in the lean-to, her fingers stiff from cold and nerves. She moved like she was walking through water—each motion slowed by a growing ache in her chest. 

She didn’t go inside right away.

Instead, she stood there for a long moment with the letter in her hands. Her thumb brushed over the name again.

Anna O’Grady.

His writing. Her lie.

She let out a slow, shaky breath.

Jo brushed snow off her shoulders and stomped her boots clean at the door before opening it.

Inside, the air was cool and still. Afternoon light poured through the windows, dancing in lazy lines across the floorboards. Her boots echoed as she crossed to the table and set the envelope down like it might explode if handled wrong.

She stared at it. Sat down. Stared some more.

What the hell am I doing?

It wasn’t that she didn’t want to read it—God, part of her was dying to tear it open and drink in every word. But she was scared. Not of Arthur. Not really.

She was scared of what it might do to her.

What if it was kind? Forgiving? Worse—what if it said he still cared?

She didn’t deserve that. Not after everything. Not after the trail of lies and blood and shame she dragged behind her. Arthur deserved someone whole. Someone honest. Someone who hadn’t sold pieces of herself just to survive.

And yet, if she didn’t read it… she’d never know. Never move on. Never let herself feel anything again. It would just hang there, forever unopened, a ghost she carried around in her coat pocket.

She leaned forward, resting her elbows on the table, and buried her face in her hands.

You’re a coward, she thought. All this time alone, all this talk about bein’ strong—and look at you. Shaking over a damn letter.

The room was quiet, the kind of quiet that presses down on a person, makes them feel every beat of their own heart.

Finally, she reached out, fingers hovering over the edge of the paper.

She didn’t open it.

Instead, she pulled it toward her, slowly, and placed it just in front of her. Close enough to touch. Close enough to hurt.

And there she sat.

Eyes locked on his handwriting, her past folded neatly in an envelope, waiting to be set free.

The house was quiet, save for the soft rustle of wind against the windows and the faint creak of the timbers settling as the cold crept in.

She could smell the paper—old, smoky, like saddle leather and pine. She told herself not to care. That she didn’t need this. That she was stronger now, colder maybe, harder than she had ever been before. But her hands betrayed her. They trembled as she peeled open the seal, careful not to tear the envelope more than she had already. She pulled the paper free, slowly, as if each motion could buy her more time—one more second before everything changed again.

Arthur’s writing was rough, slanted, the ink just a little smeared at the edges. Her heart caught when she saw it. Her name, again, at the top.

Jo,

I don’t rightly know how to begin this.

I’ve been starin’ at this damn page for two hours now, and this is the fifth time I’ve started over. Maybe sixth. I don't know no more. I ain’t no good with words, not like Hosea was, and you always saw through all my nonsense anyhow, so I figure the best I can do is be honest.

I’m sorry I came to your door like that.

You didn’t ask for me. You didn’t want me. I can see that now, clear as day. I shouldn’t’ve barged into your life again, not without thinkin’. But I ain’t been thinkin’ straight for a long time now. Five years, in fact.

Truth is, I don’t even know what I expected when I showed up. Maybe I thought I’d find a stranger. Or maybe I hoped I wouldn’t. Instead, I found you. Same as I remember, and not the same at all. Lookin’ at you was like gettin’ kicked in the chest and hugged at the same time. I didn’t know what to do.

And I’m sorry for that, too. For not sayin’ the right things. For gettin’ drunk like a fool. For fallin’ asleep in your home like I belonged there. I know I don’t. Not anymore. Maybe not ever.

I owe you a thousand apologies, but I ain’t sure you’d want to hear a single one of ‘em. 

But Jo…

I miss you.

God help me, I do. And I didn’t realize how much until I saw you again. I’d been carryin’ this ghost of you around for so long, I forgot what it felt like to look at you and see you breathin’. Real. Alive. And it undid me. I ain’t ashamed to say that.

What happened between us… there’s no easy way to put it. We’ve always been a storm, you and me. Pushin’, pullin’, never settlin’ long enough to know what we had ‘til it was already gone. And when I told you to leave five years ago—when I looked at you and said them words—I thought I was doin’ what had to be done. Protectin’ the gang. Protectin’ you. Protectin’ me, if I’m honest.

But all I really did was break somethin’ I didn’t know how to fix.

I should’ve come after you. Should’ve fought harder. Should’ve said I was scared instead of angry. Should’ve told you I cared instead of pretendin’ I didn’t. I should’ve…

Christ. There’s a thousand should’ves. None of ‘em change what happened.

But I need you to know… what happened to you after you left—it ain’t your fault. And it sure as hell ain’t somethin’ you deserved.

I don’t know what all you’ve been through, but I can see it in your eyes. I can feel it hangin’ in the room when you breathe. And maybe I don’t have the right to ask you about it. Maybe I never will. But I want to. I want to know. I want to understand. Not because I need to carry your burdens, but because I want to know the parts of you that kept goin’ when the rest of the world turned its back.

I still think about who we was. And who we might’ve been. Maybe I shouldn’t. Maybe I’m a goddamn fool for even writin’ this.

But I wanted you to hear it. For once, I wanted to say it all. Without runnin’. Without shoutin’. Without leavin’ it too late.

I ain’t writing this expecting forgiveness. I know I don’t deserve it. I think about you every damn day, Jo. And not just the girl I met in camp, or the woman who could shoot straighter than most men I ever knew, or the way you used to laugh when no one was lookin’. I think about the way you saw me. The way you never looked at me like I was broken.

And I don’t know what you want now. I don’t know if there’s room in your life for me. But if there’s even a small part of you that still wants to try—even just to talk—I’ll be waitin’.

Four days from now.

Noon.

Near the broken tree east of Blackwater—the one we stopped at that night after the job in New Austin all those years ago, remember? T’was all before that massacre in Blackwater, before it all went south… You made fun of me for fallin’ asleep sittin’ up with my rifle across my lap. I remember that laugh. I still hear it sometimes.

If you come, I’ll be there. If you don’t… I won’t bother you again.

But I had to try. Because not trying… that’s what I did last time. And it cost me everything.

A.

 

The last line hung in the air like smoke, like a prayer whispered too late.

Jo didn’t move.

She sat frozen, the folded paper limp between her fingers, her eyes fixed somewhere just past the far wall of the cabin—unseeing, unfocused. Her mind had gone quiet, but not in peace. It was the kind of silence that follows a landslide. A hush born from too much falling at once. Her heart, her breath, her walls.

The letter slipped from her hands without her realizing, fluttering down to the worn wood floor with the softest sound, barely a whisper.

She didn't notice.

Her arms dropped heavy to her sides. Shoulders slack. Like she’d been holding herself upright for years and just forgot how to keep doing it.

Tears welled slowly, welling so high they blurred her vision before a single one dared to fall. Her eyes shimmered, glassy and wide, and she blinked hard, like it might stop the flood—but it didn’t. A single tear traced the curve of her cheek, then another. No sobbing. No sound. Just a quiet unraveling.

Arthur had written from a place inside himself she thought long sealed off. There were pieces of him in that letter she hadn’t touched in years—softnesses he never let anyone else see. He’d laid them bare. For her. After everything.

He’d given her his truth, and in doing so, left the door open—not pushing, not asking, just waiting. Four days. A place. A time. A choice.

It was the choice that hurt most.

Because she didn’t know what to do with it.

Her gaze drifted toward the window, where the first real snow of the season had started to fall. Not flurries like before—this was different. Steady. Gentle. The kind that blanketed everything in quiet, like the whole world was holding its breath.

Fat, soft flakes kissed the windowpane, collecting along the bottom of the glass in a powdery line. The frost on the edges had thickened overnight, little fern-like patterns curling like veins against the wood frame. Outside, the trees stood silent under the weight of white. Every branch draped in softness. The light had shifted too—dim, wintry gray, blue at the edges, like dusk stretched thin across the earth.

She stared through the glass without really seeing, her breath fogging faintly in front of her lips. The cabin was cold. She hadn’t lit the fire. Hadn’t moved since she sat down. The chill crawled through her coat, into her bones, but she didn’t flinch. She just sat there, still, eyes following the slow descent of snowflakes, watching them tumble and twist and vanish against the earth.

The weight in her chest pulsed. Tight. Raw.

Why now? Why did he have to show up? Why did he have to care ?

Part of her wanted to scream. To tear the letter in half and burn it. To curse him for dragging her back into a world she had spent five years trying to forget.

But another part of her—smaller, quieter—ached in a different way. The part that remembered the way he used to watch her when she wasn’t looking. The way he’d hand her coffee in the mornings without saying a word, like he just knew she needed it. The way his voice softened when he said her name, even when he was angry.

She’d buried those memories deep, but they stirred now. Fragile. Familiar. Like embers that never really went out.

And now he was out there. Somewhere. Waiting.

It had taken her everything to survive after he sent her away. To rebuild herself from the shatter he left behind. And she had. She'd endured, even when the world tried to kill her, even when she didn’t want to keep going.

But surviving wasn’t the same as living.

She knew that now.

She pressed the heel of her hand against her brow, trembling. Her jaw clenched hard, breath catching in her throat, and for a moment she couldn’t stop the tears from coming. Silent and hot, slipping down her face one after another. They fell like the snow outside. Slow. Relentless.

She turned slightly, facing the hearth, the ghost of an old fire long gone. Her body hunched forward, arms wrapping around herself like maybe if she held on tight enough, she could keep all the pieces inside from falling apart again.

Arthur’s words echoed again in her mind.

If you come, I’ll be there. If you don’t… I won’t bother you again.

He meant it. That was the worst part. He meant every word.

And that meant this was hers now. The choice. The weight of it. The cost.

She didn’t know if she was strong enough to face him. She didn’t know if she could look him in the eye and forgive him—or if she could bear seeing the guilt on his face again. What if she broke? What if she let him close, only to lose him all over again?

What if she still loved him?

She let out a shaky breath and wiped at her cheeks with the back of her hand, sniffing quietly. Her face was flushed from the cold and the crying, her lips parted like she might say something—but no words came.

Outside, the snow kept falling.

Inside, Jo stayed still.

And the letter lay on the floor between her boots like a wound she couldn’t look away from.

Chapter 48: The Cost of Showing Up

Notes:

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She was going.

Though Jo hadn’t said it out loud—not even whispered it to herself in the quiet moments before sleep—it was there, sitting heavy beneath her ribs like a stone that wouldn’t move. She was going to meet him.

Three days. That’s how long she’d wrestled with it, twisted it in her head like thread caught on barbed wire. Every hour since she’d read Arthur’s letter had been a war zone—hope against fear, longing against self-loathing. She hadn’t answered him, hadn’t sent a letter back, hadn’t written a word. And maybe that was cruel. But maybe it was honest. Because she didn’t know what to say. She didn’t know what she wanted.

Only that she was going.

She didn’t mark the day on a calendar, didn’t circle it or scratch it into wood, but the date had etched itself into her bones all the same. Tomorrow. At noon. By the broken tree outside Blackwater. Four days after the letter, just like he’d asked.

She’d pretended not to care. Spent the last three days trying to work like she always did—running deliveries, mending old saddlebags, haggling over price with the same old bastard down at the general store—but it was all noise. Every task ached with distraction. Her hands worked while her mind wandered. Always back to him.

Back to Arthur Morgan, sitting beneath a tree on her land, slurring words and looking like a kicked dog. Back to the letter he’d poured himself into, every word weighing more than she knew what to do with.

It had hurt to read it. It hurt more to remember it.

So much of her still wanted to run. Not from him, not really—but from what he meant. From what he made her feel, even now. Because she knew herself. Knew her damage. Knew what she’d done to survive. And even if he said he didn’t blame her, even if he looked at her like the past didn’t matter…she blamed herself enough for the both of them.

But she couldn’t stop thinking about that letter. The tenderness in it. The restraint. He hadn’t begged. He hadn’t demanded. He’d simply asked . And that alone made her knees weak, because it meant he was trying. He was offering her the choice—the very thing life had always seemed so eager to strip from her.

No expectations. That was what she told herself. If she went there tomorrow, she’d go with nothing in her pocket but that— no expectations . It was the safest way to do this. To see him without hoping for too much. To look him in the eye and not fall to pieces. If she kept her heart locked tight, maybe she’d walk away from this still whole. Maybe.

Tonight, the cabin felt too still. The kettle steamed faintly on the stove, untouched. Her coat was already laid across the back of a chair. She’d packed a small saddlebag too, half-heartedly. Not that she needed anything—just the comfort of movement, the ritual of doing something . It made it real. Or maybe it made it feel less real. She didn’t know anymore.

Laramie paced quietly in the corral out back, as if she knew something was stirring too.

Jo crossed the floor slowly, arms folded, boots thudding against the wood. She stood at the window for a long while, staring out at the dark. The snow hadn’t started again yet, but the cold was creeping in through the cracks. Tomorrow, she’d ride. And she didn’t know what waited at the end of that trail.

She closed her eyes, forehead resting against the glass.

 


 

The morning came slow and gray, the sky stretched tight with heavy clouds and the hush of new snowfall. Wind whispered around the corners of the cabin, nudging at the windows, but Jo had already been awake for hours.

She hadn't slept much. Maybe an hour here and there, drifting off with her mind full of him, waking up with her throat tight and her heart racing. She’d lost count of how many times she sat up in the dark, staring at the letter on the table like it might somehow rewrite itself. It didn’t.

Now, the air inside was cold enough that her breath fogged as she moved about, bare feet padding across the wooden floor. She’d already stoked the stove and brewed herself a cup of strong, bitter coffee, but it barely cut through the nerves tightening her stomach into knots.

She told herself this was just another day. Just another ride. Just another man.
But she knew that was a lie.

Jo stood at the foot of her bed and looked at the saddlebag she’d packed the night before. She hadn’t added much to it since—only her flask, the one Arthur had once carved her initials into with his pocketknife during some long-forgotten summer day. She told herself she packed it out of habit. But her fingers had hovered over it longer than necessary before tucking it inside.

Her hair was down, loose and unruly from sleep. She stared at herself in the cracked mirror by the washbasin, rubbing her hands together for warmth before slowly reaching for her brush. With slow, methodical movements, she worked through the tangles. The strokes were firm, deliberate, almost like a ritual. She didn’t try anything fancy—just pulled her hair over one shoulder, braided it loosely down the side. Something simple. Something neat. But when she finished tying it off with a faded scrap of ribbon, she lingered. Her reflection stared back at her, pale from winter, eyes tired but clear.

She looked…nervous.

“Don’t,” she murmured to herself, shaking her head. “No expectations.”

Still, she moved to the chest at the foot of her bed and pulled out clothes with more care than she’d like to admit. Not a dress—never a dress. That wasn’t her. But she found the pair of dark, fitted jeans she liked best, the ones that still held their shape after all these years. She chose a soft button-up shirt, pale blue, the one with little stitched flowers on the cuffs—something she hadn’t worn since before it all fell apart. It smelled faintly of cedar and smoke and her. Then came the coat—long, dark wool, thick enough to hold off the cold but fitted enough to still feel like hers .

She dressed slowly, layering with practiced ease, but something about the act made her chest tight. It wasn’t just clothes. It felt like armor.

When she was done, she stepped back in front of the mirror and studied herself again.

Her fingers went up to adjust the braid. Then down to smooth the shirt.

Then she just stood there.

This wasn’t about impressing him. This wasn’t about pretending things hadn’t changed. She wasn’t a girl anymore, and he wasn’t some safe harbor waiting at the end of the storm. It wasn’t about fixing what broke.

But it was about facing him. Looking him in the eye. Letting herself be seen, scars and all.

She took in a breath that didn’t quite fill her lungs.

“No expectations,” she said again, firmer this time.

Then, under her breath, a softer echo: “Liar.”

The word barely made a sound, but it stung all the same.

She turned from the mirror, fastened her holster to her hip with cold fingers, and pulled on her gloves. Outside, she could hear Laramie’s soft whinny and the steady rhythm of snow hitting the roof. The world was waiting. Arthur was waiting.

And whether she was ready or not…she was going.

Jo grabbed her black hat from the hook by the door without a second thought. It was the same wide-brimmed one she’d worn for years—creased and weathered by time and storms, the edge slightly frayed, one small feather still tucked into the band. She held it in her hands a moment, turning it over once before fitting it snug over her braid.

Then she reached for her saddlebag and slung it over her shoulder. It hit her hip with a soft thud, heavier somehow, even though it carried almost nothing.

At the door, she paused.

The cabin behind her was warm now, alive with the quiet crackle of firewood and the lingering scent of coffee. It had become a strange sort of home these past few months. Silent. Safe. A place to vanish. She’d cried on its floor. Healed here. Lost herself here.

And now she was walking out its door, uncertain of what she might be walking into.

The wind greeted her first, cold and dry and smelling of pine. The snow had lightened since dawn, falling in small, lazy flurries, each flake catching the dull light like shards of lace. The sky above was a sheet of pale gray, heavy with the weight of winter, but the air carried a hush—a sort of waiting.

Laramie stood near the hitching post, her black coat dusted with snow, steam curling from her nostrils in soft, rhythmic puffs. She raised her head as Jo approached, ears flicking forward.

“Hey, girl,” Jo murmured, her voice just loud enough to carry. “You ready?”

Laramie nickered softly and stepped forward, nudging Jo’s shoulder with her warm muzzle. Jo smiled faintly, one hand rising to brush down her forehead, and for a moment, everything slowed. Just her and the mare. The only creature on earth who’d stayed by her side through it all.

She swung the saddlebag across and secured it, checked the cinch and reins with practiced movements, then mounted smoothly. The leather creaked beneath her, the chill sinking through the denim of her jeans, and as she straightened in the saddle, she let her eyes drift to the horizon.

It would take the better part of the morning to ride there. She didn’t mind. The ride would help clear her head—or at least give her time to try.

Jo clicked her tongue once and gave Laramie a gentle nudge with her heel.

They started down the trail, hooves muffled against snow, the forest parting around them in a hush of pine and white. The path was familiar, even beneath the fresh dusting. She’d ridden it countless times—delivering packages, passing through quiet towns, vanishing into the landscape as if she didn’t exist. But today, each step felt different.

He was out there. Waiting.

She didn’t know what he’d say. Didn’t know what she would say. Maybe nothing. Maybe everything. She tried not to imagine the look on his face, the sound of his voice. Tried not to picture those blue eyes searching hers the way they always did—like they saw too much, even when she tried to hide.

No expectations, she reminded herself again, tightening her grip on the reins.

But it was already too late for that.

The snow began to fall heavier as they rode, each flake swirling like ash, soft against her coat and eyelashes. She hunched deeper into her collar, let the rhythm of Laramie’s gait lull her mind into stillness.

One mile at a time. One breath at a time.

She was going. That was all she knew.

And whatever waited for her beneath that broken tree… she’d meet it head-on, the only way she ever had.

 


 

The sun hadn’t even crested over the cliffs behind camp yet, and already Arthur was swearing.

“Goddamn son of a bitch—get back here, you little bastard!”

His voice bounced across the clearing like a shotgun blast, chased by the blur of a half-saddled Tennessee Walker sprinting straight through the wash basin Jo had just filled with clean water. She jumped back a half-step as soapy water splashed over her boots, blinking once before bursting into laughter.

Arthur came tearing after the horse a moment later, shirt half-buttoned, suspenders dangling behind him, one boot untied and flopping with every stomping step. He skidded in the mud where the horse had kicked up dirt and nearly went down on one knee, catching himself on a crate with a growl and a muttered string of curses so colorful it made Jo laugh harder.

“Real graceful, Morgan,” she called, grinning as she wrung out her sleeves. “You tryin’ to impress the ladies this mornin’, or scare off the whole damn herd?”

Arthur looked up, red-cheeked and scowling, his hair tousled, his holster hanging lopsided off his hip like he’d barely gotten it on before the chase began. “He got loose while I was tryin’ to put the saddle blanket on. Ain’t like I planned on startin’ my day with a footrace.”

Jo crossed her arms, watching the Walker kick up dust as it trotted past Pearson’s wagon and disappeared behind the trees. “You sure? ‘Cause from where I’m standin’, looked like you were fixin’ to enter the Olympics.”

Arthur glared at her. “What the hell are the Olympics?”

She grinned wider. “Exactly.”

He gave a sigh that sounded half like a bark and stomped back over to grab his hat, which he’d dropped somewhere during the chase. “This is the third damn time this week he’s pulled this shit. Might just sell the son of a bitch for glue.”

“Uh-huh. And you’ll be cryin’ into your whiskey by sundown missin’ him, sayin’ ‘he was a good horse, goddammit, I didn’t mean it, I just got mad—’”

Arthur pointed at her. “Don’t you start.”

She walked up beside him, still grinning, and nudged him with her shoulder. “You know what your problem is, Morgan? You’re too soft.”

“Soft?” he echoed, deadpan.

“Yep. Big ol’ softie. You talk like a grizzly but you love that damn horse like he’s your kid. It’s real sweet.”

He narrowed his eyes at her. “You keep talkin’, I’m gonna dump that water right over your head.”

Jo looked over at the tin basin and then back at him, mischief already curling at the edges of her smirk. “You wouldn’t dare.”

“Wouldn’t I?”

“Nope.”

They stared at each other a beat too long.

And then Arthur lunged.

She shrieked and turned to run, just as he scooped up a half-full bucket from the other side of the firepit. Water sloshed as he chased her around the wagon, laughing now too, the sound low and unguarded and so rare it always caught her off guard. She dodged around the camp stool, grabbed a loaf of bread off Pearson’s prep table and flung it at him with pinpoint aim. It hit him square in the chest, and he staggered back in mock offense.

“Assault with a bread loaf,” he huffed. “That’s a new one.”

“Next time it’ll be a whole sack of flour!”

He lunged again and this time she didn’t get far—he caught her around the waist and spun her once, and they both slipped in the mud and landed in a heap, tangled and breathless and still laughing. She had grass in her hair, he had soap on his sleeve, and their noses were almost touching where they lay.

She should’ve pulled back.

He should’ve let go.

But they didn’t.

For just that breath, they stayed right there. Mud-slicked and smiling, hearts racing like horses in their chests. Her hand still braced on his chest, his fingers wrapped around her arm where he’d caught her.

“I win,” he said, a little breathless, a little smug.

Jo raised a brow. “At what?”

He grinned. “Dunno. Whatever game we was playin’.”

She shook her head and laughed, the kind of laugh that lived in her bones. “You’re a damn fool, Arthur Morgan.”

“And you’re trouble,” he said, not moving a muscle.

Her smile softened then, just a little. Just enough.

And so did his.

 


 

She crested the final rise just as the tree came into view.

It stood like a skeleton against the pale winter sky—twisted, half-dead, with one arm broken off long ago in some violent storm. Jo had passed it once years ago, and even then it had left an impression. Strange how things like that stuck with a person. Strange how a place could become a symbol for something it never asked to carry.

She slowed Laramie to a walk, her breath rising in white clouds, her heart thudding behind her ribs.

But the clearing was empty.

No man stood beneath that crooked tree. No horse waited by the fence post. Nothing but wind, snow, and the low groan of old branches shifting in the cold.

Her stomach twisted.

Jo drew in a breath, scanning the tree line again as if he might appear from the shadows. Maybe he’s just late, she thought. Maybe he’s on his way.

She dismounted, her boots crunching in the thin layer of snow as she approached the tree. It looked smaller up close—just a tree, after all. Just bark and branch and memory. She glanced at the sky, the way the sun hung in the sky, the way the wind stirred the snow at her feet.

Did I get the day wrong? The hour?

She yanked the letter from her coat pocket, the creases soft and worn now from how many times she’d folded and unfolded it. Her eyes darted to the bottom.

Four days from now. Near the broken tree outside Blackwater. Noon.

It was just past noon.

Her jaw clenched as her hands lowered the letter. She stared at the empty horizon again, at the silence that stretched out around her like a punishment.

Maybe he changed his mind.

The thought came swift and sharp. And right behind it—an ache. The kind that settled low and hard in her chest. She looked at the tree again, at the broken limb, at the place where a man might have stood if he’d meant what he wrote.

But he wasn’t there.

Minutes passed. An hour. 

She paced a little, back and forth through the snow. Kicked a half-buried stone. Looked down the trail again and again.

Still nothing.

The cold crept in slowly, finding her fingers, her cheeks, her throat. The wind was picking up, tugging her braid loose beneath her hat. She swallowed, trying to crush down the sour taste in the back of her mouth.

He wasn’t coming.

And he was never planning to.

She could feel it now. The realization settled like a stone dropped in deep water—slow, heavy, irreversible. He had written that letter. He had poured out his damn heart, begged for another chance. But when it came down to it, he didn’t show.

Jo turned away sharply, her teeth clenched so tight her jaw ached.

She didn’t cry.

She was too angry.

Angry at herself for believing, for hoping. Angry at him for doing this again—stirring up old wounds and then walking away from the mess. She mounted Laramie with a harsh motion, not caring if the saddle shifted beneath her. Gritting her teeth, she gave a hard click and turned back toward home.

The wind whipped harder now, stinging her face as she rode, her jaw locked and eyes burning.

To hell with him.

She told herself that over and over as the trees blurred past. To hell with him and his letter and his promises. To hell with this.

She didn’t stop once on the ride back.

And when she reached her cabin, she didn’t take off her hat or coat. She walked inside, tossed the saddlebag to the floor, and stood in the middle of the room with her hands curled into fists at her sides.

She didn’t know what she hated more—that he hadn’t come… or that she’d actually wanted him to.

The cold clung to the corners of the room, wrapping around her like a second skin as Jo stood there in silence, her breath ragged in her throat.

She hadn’t taken off her coat. Her gloves were still on, fingertips stiff with frost. Snow clung to the hem of her jeans and melted in slow rivulets down her boots. But she didn’t move. Didn’t sit. Didn’t speak.

Just stood.

Like if she stood still long enough, maybe she wouldn’t have to feel any of this.

But it was already there. Gnawing at her ribs. Curling in her gut like smoke that wouldn’t clear.

The letter was still in her coat pocket, warm from her body but heavier than any bullet she’d ever carried. She thought of tearing it up. Of throwing it in the fire and watching every line of his apology burn into nothing.

But she didn’t. That, somehow, would feel too much like caring.

Jo finally moved, tugging off her gloves with sharp, jerking motions and throwing them down on the table. She shrugged out of her coat next, letting it fall to the floor in a heap. Then she kicked the saddlebag aside with a harsh scuff of her boot and stalked to the window.

Snow was falling again.

Soft and slow—mocking, almost, in how peaceful it looked. A sky full of delicate flakes and silence. But inside her, everything was chaos. A snarl of anger and grief and old wounds she thought she’d buried.

She braced her hands against the sill and stared out into the white blur, her breath fogging the glass.

He didn’t even show.

She swallowed hard, lips trembling even as she tried to set her jaw.

He couldn’t even do that.

And the worst part—the thing that made her feel sick—was that she’d let herself believe he would.

All these years keeping him out, keeping everyone out, and the second he reached for her, she let him back in. Not fully. Not out loud. But enough. Enough that it hurt like hell now.

She turned from the window and paced the cabin, her boots dragging slow, angry lines through the dust and tracked-in snow. Her fingers itched for something to do, some task to distract her, but there was nothing.

Just her and this goddamn ache that wouldn’t stop crawling under her skin.

She dropped into the chair by the fire. Leaned forward. Buried her face in her hands.

“I’m such a fool,” she muttered. Voice thick. Eyes burning.

Minutes passed. The wind rattled faintly against the walls. Somewhere in the woods, a branch cracked under the weight of snow. And inside her, something started to harden.

Not in a cold, uncaring way—but in the kind that grew out of necessity. Out of survival. Out of knowing that hope was dangerous and closeness was a blade pressed to her throat.

Jo sat up slowly. Her hands were trembling as she reached into her coat and pulled the letter free one last time.

She didn’t open it again. Didn’t need to.

She knew every word now. Knew the way he said he was sorry. Knew the way he signed his name.

But he hadn’t come.

And that said more than all the damn words ever could.

She folded it carefully, precisely, and placed it in the drawer of the old desk by the window.

And then she stood, crossed the room, and pulled out the small, worn map she kept tucked in the chest beneath her bed. Spread it out over the kitchen table. Her eyes moved across it in long, dragging passes. State to state. Coast to coast. Borders beyond borders.

“Anywhere,” she said under her breath. “Anywhere but here.”

She didn’t know where yet. Didn’t care.

But she was going. That much was certain.

The wind howled faintly beyond the cabin walls, and Jo stared down at the map like it might hold salvation. Like somewhere out there, there was a version of herself untouched by the things she'd lost. A place she could start over. Forget all of this.

Forget him.

She stayed sitting at the table long after the map had been spread across it, her fingertips idly tracing the faded inked lines of places she’d never seen.

It was easier to look at this than it was to look at the truth.

Her throat burned, and her hands still trembled faintly—but it was settling now, that storm of emotion. Curling inward. Drawing tight like a fist behind her ribs.

That was the thing about Jo—she never let herself break where anyone could see it. Even now, sitting in the quiet wreckage of her own damn heart, she sat still. Composed. A quiet fury rolling just beneath the surface.

She had waited. She had hoped . And now—she was done.

She stared at the map like it might speak to her. Like maybe somewhere out there was a corner of the world that didn’t hurt to breathe in. Somewhere no one knew her name—not Sarah , not Jo , not anything at all. Just a stranger on a horse, riding fast and far and away.

Her eyes landed on New Austin. On the empty desert that sprawled like some untouchable promise. Then further. West. South. Out.

She leaned back in the chair, the wood creaking beneath her, arms crossed tight over her chest.

It had taken her so long to feel like she could survive again. After Micah. After the gang. After Arthur.

And for a moment—just a moment —she let herself believe that maybe there could be something more. That maybe the way he’d looked at her in the cabin meant something. That the letter meant he meant it.

But he hadn’t come.

Not even to say goodbye.

Jo swallowed hard, jaw clenched so tight her teeth ached. She blinked down at the map, her vision blurry, her breath shallow.

Maybe he’d changed his mind.

Maybe he realized she wasn’t worth the trouble. That she wasn’t clean. That she wasn’t whole.

He knew what he wrote in that letter. He knew how much it would cost me to answer it.

And still, he hadn’t come.

Maybe that was her answer.

A slow exhale left her, sharp and bitter.

She didn’t want to wait anymore. Not for a man who couldn't even look her in the eye. Not for the memory of something they once had, five lifetimes ago. Not for a future that would never come.

She needed space between her and all this—space wide enough to swallow the ache and the shame and the slow, stupid hope that still clung to the corners of her chest like cobwebs.

She needed to leave.

Not for a few days. Not for a change of air.

For good.

The longer she sat here, the clearer it became. She had to go somewhere he would never follow. Somewhere his letters couldn’t reach. Somewhere his voice wouldn’t echo every time the wind caught the eaves.

Because if she stayed—if she let herself keep waiting—she’d fall apart.

And Jo Harper didn’t fall apart. Not where anyone could see.

She pressed her hands to her face, dragged her palms down slowly. Then looked up at the ceiling and let the final thought settle like frost:

"If I leave, I’ll never see him again."

There was a hollow in her chest that pulled tight around that truth.

And for once… that was exactly what she wanted.

She pushed herself to her feet, steady now. The pain was still there—God, it would always be there—but the decision felt like armor. Like steel laced through her spine. No tears now. No shaking.

Just quiet resolve.

Jo folded up the map. Walked over to the chest. Tucked it away with more care than she’d expected herself to have.

Then she crossed the cabin, eyes falling briefly to the drawer where Arthur’s letter lay—still folded, still whole.

She didn’t touch it.

Didn’t even look at it long.

Then she turned out the lamp and stood in the quiet dark, her shadow long across the floor, snow still falling outside like ash.

And for the first time in a long time, she made a choice with no one else in mind.

She was leaving.

And she wasn’t looking back.

The light had gone grey and soft by the time Jo stood again. The snow hadn’t stopped—not once all afternoon. It drifted past the windows like feathers, slow and steady, piling up in corners, cloaking the world in silence. The kind of snow that made everything feel still. Like time had stepped back, or forward, or just… stopped altogether.

She hadn’t eaten.

Hadn’t even thought to.

Her stomach felt like it didn’t belong to her anymore. Like it belonged to another version of herself—someone who still had appetite, still had softness. She boiled a kettle at one point, half out of habit, but let it go cold on the stove without pouring a cup.

There was a stillness to the cabin that matched the weight in her bones. She didn’t turn on any lamps. The fire had burned low and she didn’t bother feeding it. The air inside grew colder, edging toward the outside. But Jo didn’t mind. The cold kept her thoughts sharp.

She stood in front of the wooden chest near the hearth, pulling it open with quiet hands.

A saddlebag. A spare holster. Two clean shirts. A pair of gloves. The faded blue scarf Arthur had once given her back in ’98, when a storm rolled in without warning and they’d shared one horse for warmth. She hesitated with that one, fingers grazing the frayed wool, then folded it tightly and packed it anyway.

She worked slowly. Methodically. Her movements calm, deliberate, like someone folding away a life.

It wasn’t much. She didn’t need much. Everything else in this cabin could rot where it stood. The cracked tea cup, the old rifle propped in the corner, the worn journal she hadn’t touched in over a year. Ghosts, all of it.

She sat at the edge of her bed as the last of the dusk faded into full dark.

Her hat still hung by the door. She’d need it tomorrow.

Her coat draped over the back of a chair, boots set neatly beneath it.

Everything was ready.

Except her.

But she was tired of waiting to feel ready. Tired of putting her heart in someone else’s hands, hoping they’d carry it gently. Arthur had made his choice. And she would make hers.

She lay back without undressing, pulling the quilt over her fully clothed frame. The pillow was cool beneath her cheek. The air smelled faintly of pine smoke and snow.

Her eyes stayed open.

She didn’t cry. Not this time.

She just stared at the ceiling, watching shadows drift as the wind pressed against the shutters. The ache in her chest pulsed like a second heartbeat. And somewhere beneath it, quieter but sharper, was the anger. Not loud. Not boiling. But constant. Steady. And that was what she’d carry with her. That would keep her upright.

She let her eyes close, eventually.

The decision had already been made.

She would ride at first light.

And by the time the snow melted from her rooftop, she’d be gone. From this place. From this story. From him.

 


 

The dream came on fast—like falling face-first through black water.

No warning. No edges. No chance to brace.

One moment she was buried in stillness, in the quiet pull of exhaustion—and the next, she was back in the mountains, wind slicing through her coat, breath burning her throat. Her boots slipped against the rocky trail, the world tilted, wrong somehow. There was snow, hard-packed beneath her feet, and a smear of blood trailing through it like a snake.

And then she saw him.

Micah.

Grinning.

That same crooked-toothed smirk, those snake-slick eyes that had haunted her since the day he died.

But he wasn’t dead.

Not here.

Not now.

He stepped out from behind the broken tree like he never left it, like he’d been waiting this whole time.

“Hello, darlin’,” he said, voice like rusted iron. “Miss me?”

She tried to run, but the air thickened around her like molasses. Her limbs were slow, dragging. Her voice caught in her throat.

She reached for her gun—wasn’t there.

And then—
The knife.

It slid into her stomach with a sickening, wet crunch. The cold metal, the burst of white-hot pain. Her breath hitched. Her knees buckled.

Then again.
And again.
And again.

She gasped, tried to scream, but blood flooded her mouth, warm and metallic. The world blurred. He was laughing. Laughing like it was a damn joke. Her body crumpled to the ground—but the pain kept coming, over and over, unrelenting. She could feel each puncture, every slice of the blade. Like her skin had been peeled away. Like the world was made of knives.

And then—

Micah’s face twisted.
It wasn’t Micah anymore.

It was Arthur.

Blood on his hands. Shadows in his eyes.

“You should’ve stayed dead,” he said quietly, pressing the blade in deeper. “You should’ve never come back.”

Jo gasped—

And sat bolt upright in bed.

Gasping, shaking. The blanket tangled around her legs like ropes, her shirt clinging to her back with sweat. Her chest rose and fell in shallow, ragged bursts.

It was still night.

The fire had burned down to ash, and the cold seeped through the floorboards. Her hands trembled as she shoved them into her hair, pressing her palms against her temples like she could squeeze the images out.

But they stayed.

The pain.

The betrayal.

Arthur’s face.

Her own blood slick beneath her fingers.

She squeezed her eyes shut—but the tears came anyway. Not from sadness. Not this time. But from fury. Pure, sharp-edged rage.

She swung her legs off the bed and stood, pacing in the dark. She didn’t care that the floor was cold against her feet. Didn’t care that her throat still ached from the phantom scream caught inside it.

She’d had enough.

Enough of this place.

Enough of the ghosts.

Enough of the waiting.

That dream—whatever the hell it was—wasn’t just fear. It was clarity. It was the ugly truth bleeding through the cracks.

She had to leave.

Tomorrow wasn’t soon enough.

She didn’t know where she’d go. Didn’t care. She’d ride until the horizon broke, until her past was a blur behind her, and whatever lay ahead didn’t carry his face or his voice or the sharp reminder of what she’d survived.

Jo turned to the window.

Snow was still falling. Slower now. Gentle.

But she didn’t feel the softness of it. She only felt the knife still lodged in her gut, even if it wasn’t there anymore.

Let the snow bury this place.

Let it all rot under white.

She’d be gone by morning.

And this time, she wouldn’t look back.

 


 

Morning came gray and still, a hush over the hills like the world itself had stopped to hold its breath. The snowfall from the night before had crusted the windows with frost, the kind that caught the pale light and threw it back in delicate webs. Jo wrapped the last of her things in an old oilskin cloth, cinched it tight, and dropped it into the worn saddlebag lying open on the floor beside her boots.

Her rifle stood leaning in the corner.

Laramie was already saddled outside, waiting.

She hadn’t eaten. Didn’t feel the need. The air in the cabin had gone stale with the silence of goodbye—nothing left to say, nothing left to carry but the weight in her chest.

She wiped her hands on her thighs and took one last look around.

The cabin didn’t feel like hers anymore.

Just a place she’d been stranded in for a while. A stop on the long road between who she used to be and who she was still trying to become.

Then—

“JO!”

A voice. Outside.

Rough, breathless.

Urgent.

Banging on the door followed, heavy and fast, wood rattling in the frame.

“Jo, you in there?! Open the damn door!”

She closed her eyes, jaw clenched tight.

You gotta be kiddin’ me…

The voice was unmistakable. That Southern rasp she’d heard shouting across a thousand campsites, full of dirt and fire and too much goddamn stubbornness.

John Marston.

She muttered under her breath and stood, shoving her chair back so hard it scraped the floor. The moment her hand touched the doorknob, he pounded again.

“I’m here,” she snapped, yanking it open, the cold biting her bare skin. “What the hell do you want, Marston?”

John practically fell through the doorway, his hat askew, face flushed from the ride. His coat was dusted in snow, and his breath poured out in white puffs.

“Thank God you’re here,” he said quickly, brushing past her into the cabin without waiting for an invitation.

She let the door fall shut behind him with a dull thud. His boots tracked snow across her floor, past the bed, past the table, right to the bags she’d just packed. He clocked them immediately.

“You goin’ somewhere?” he asked.

She didn’t answer that. Not directly.

Instead, her tone cooled like a blade under snow.

“What d’you want, John?”

He turned, running a hand through his damp hair, struggling to catch his breath. “It’s Arthur. He’s—he’s been arrested.”

The words landed like a rifle shot in her chest.

Jo didn’t move.

Didn’t blink.

“They caught him just outside of Blackwater yesterday. Some bounty hunter picked up his trail. Now he’s locked up in Valentine—goin’ to hang if we don’t do nothing.”

She stared at him.

Just stared, like he’d spoken in a language she hadn’t heard in years.

Everything in her—every thought, every scrap of anger and grief and resolve—buckled under the weight of that one truth.

He didn’t leave.

He didn’t change his mind.

He didn’t break his word.

He got caught.

John kept talking. She heard the shape of the words, but not the meaning. Something about Pinkertons. The law moving fast. How there wasn’t much time. How he’d been trying to get a plan together but couldn’t do it alone.

Her hands were shaking.

She didn’t realize it until she looked down at them.

John finally noticed the way she’d gone quiet.

“Jo?” he asked, stepping forward. “You hear me?”

She met his eyes then—hers wide, too bright. Wet around the edges, though no tears had fallen. Not yet.

“You tellin’ me… he meant to come?”

John nodded. “Yeah. He was on his way when they must’ve grabbed him.”

Her mouth trembled.

One breath, and then she turned away, dragging a hand through her hair, pacing. She felt sick. Like the world had turned over and dumped her on the cold side of everything she thought she knew.

She thought he’d given up.

Thought she’d been a fool to wait.

Thought she was finally done hurting.

And now?

Now she felt like she was bleeding from the inside out.

It would’ve been easier if he didn’t care. If he hadn’t tried. If she could’ve left with that anger in her chest and never looked back.

But now…

Now she couldn’t breathe for the weight of what she almost walked away from.

Behind her, John said carefully, “I need your help. I can’t do this alone.”

She didn’t answer right away.

Her mind was a storm—grief, fury, confusion—all circling like vultures.

But one thing rose above the rest.

Arthur needed her.

And no matter how much it hurt to admit… she still gave a damn.

Even after everything.

She turned back to John, her voice hoarse.

“When do we leave?”

 


 

The wind bit at Jo’s face as she urged Laramie forward, hooves thundering over the frozen earth. Behind her, John kept pace, his expression unreadable beneath the brim of his hat. They hadn’t said much after leaving the cabin. There hadn’t been time. And maybe she just didn’t have the words.

Snowflakes danced in the air like ash, catching in her lashes, her coat. The sky hung low and heavy, the pale morning light breaking through only in pieces. Jo’s breath came fast and cold, but it wasn’t the ride that had her blood running so hot.

It was the storm inside.

He hadn’t shown up. Arthur hadn’t been there at the tree. She’d waited. Waited until the sun began to fall behind the hills, thinking maybe he was late, maybe he’d come tearing over the horizon like he used to, making some dumb excuse about his watch being busted or his horse being slow. But he hadn’t.

And now John had come banging on her door, panic all over his face, saying Arthur had been arrested and was set to hang in Valentine if they didn’t do something fast. She barely had time to react before the world shifted again beneath her feet.

She gripped the reins tighter.

“Y’could’ve said somethin’ sooner,” she muttered without turning.

John glanced over at her, his brow furrowed beneath the shadow of his hat. “Didn’t know how,” he said after a beat. “Didn’t even know if I should. You made it clear you didn’t want nothin’ to do with us anymore.”

Jo didn’t answer at first. She just kept riding. Trees blurred past, black branches swaying like brittle fingers in the wind. But then something twisted in her gut, and she slowed Laramie just enough to look at him.

“One thing,” she said, voice low. “One goddamn thing I asked of you, John.”

He blinked. “Jo—”

“I asked you not to tell him,” she snapped, the cold turning her words into smoke. “Not to bring me back into that mess. Not unless I was ready. But you just had to go and play god, didn’t you?”

John sighed through his nose, like he’d been waiting for this. “He was drownin’, Jo. I ain’t never seen him like that. I figured you bein’ alive might just be the one thing that could pull him back.”

She scoffed. “Well, look how that turned out.”

“I didn’t know he was gonna get himself arrested,” John bit out, louder now. “You think I wanted this?”

“No,” she said sharply. “I think you wanted to feel better about yourself. Like you were doin’ the right thing. That it’d all fall into place if you just pushed hard enough.

He didn’t respond. Not for a while.

They rode through a patch of frozen brush, the silence between them as sharp as glass. Jo’s heart beat too fast in her chest. It wasn’t just the fear of what they might find in Valentine—it was the old wounds cracking open all over again.

“You know he tried, right?” John finally said. “To explain. In that letter. He poured every bit of himself into it.”

She clenched her jaw. “Yeah. I read it.”

“And still you was gonna leave.”

Jo looked away, eyes hard on the horizon. “I had to.”

“Why?”

“Because I can’t do this, John! I thought he wasn’t comin’, at all!” she snapped, reining Laramie to a halt so hard the mare tossed her head in protest. “I can’t keep gettin’ pulled back in like this. I ain’t the same girl I was five years ago. I got scars you can’t see. I’ve done things I can’t take back.”

John pulled up beside her, breathing heavy, face red from the cold. “You think we all ain’t carryin’ scars?”

“Not like mine.”

For a moment, all Jo could hear was the wind and their horses’ breaths fogging in the cold. Her throat burned. Her hands ached. And still, she sat tall in the saddle, because if she let herself collapse now, she might never get back up again.

John shook his head, softer now. “You really think he wouldn’t want to know? Wouldn’t want to try? Jo, if you think that man don’t love you still, you’re blind.”

She flinched like the words struck her. Looked away.

“I don’t know what he feels,” she whispered. “And I sure as hell don’t know what I feel.”

John nodded once, like he understood. Then, after a beat, he said, “Well, let’s make sure he lives long enough for both of you to figure it out.”

Jo looked at him—really looked at him—for the first time since he’d shown up at her door. The urgency. The hope. The quiet guilt behind his eyes. He didn’t want to be the hero. He just wanted to fix what was broken.

And so did she. God help her.

She swallowed hard, turning Laramie’s head back toward the east. “What’s the plan, Marston?”

“He’s due to hang today.

Jo’s heart clenched. “What time?”

“Didn’t say, but we ain’t got long. Noon maybe. Maybe earlier.”

She muttered a curse and leaned forward, pressing Laramie harder into a gallop. The snow whipped against her face, but she didn’t care. Her pulse was pounding, her breath sharp in her lungs. Arthur Morgan—hung like some common thief, alone and caged up while she’d been stewin’ in a cabin, thinkin’ he didn’t care.

She could still feel the heat of that anger under her ribs, but it was burning into something else now. Not forgiveness, not yet—but a furious kind of purpose.

They galloped on, through the thinning trees, snow flying beneath the hooves of their horses. It wasn’t until they passed a frozen creek bed that Jo turned slightly in her saddle, shouting to John.

“We ain’t got time for no jailbreak. We hit the jail, we both end up in irons—or worse.”

“I know,” John called back. “That ain’t the plan.”

“So what is?”

He took a moment to answer, eyes squinting against the wind, jaw set like iron.

“We let ‘em bring him out. Wait ‘til he’s on the platform. They’ll lower their guard a bit then—some’ll be watchin’ the crowd instead of their guns.”

She nodded. “That’s when we hit ‘em. Fast and clean.”

John gave a grim smile. “You ever done a clean rescue before?”

“No,” she said flatly. “But I’ve got good aim.”

They both fell quiet again, each of them turning over the pieces in their heads. Jo counted the risks. Counted how many men might be there. How fast she could draw. How long it’d take to untie the noose. If Arthur would even be able to stand once they got to him. If they were already too late.

It chewed at her like a fever.

They pushed on, horses breathing hard beneath them, frost crusting the edges of their reins. Valentine loomed in the distance—small and grim, framed in gray skies and falling snow. Somewhere inside that town, Arthur Morgan was about to die.

Not if she could help it.

 


 

The cell was cold. Damp crept through the stone floor and into his bones like rot, and even the thin blanket they’d thrown at him was stiff with old blood and mildew. Arthur Morgan sat on the narrow cot, elbows braced to his knees, hands hanging loose between them. His head ached with the rhythm of each heartbeat, a slow, steady reminder of the day before—the blows, the cuffs, the iron taste of blood that hadn’t quite left his tongue.

He could hear them outside now. The heavy thump of wood being hauled and dropped into place. Sawing. Hammering. Final preparations for the hanging tree.

His hanging tree.

Arthur closed his eyes.

It was strange. Not fear he felt, not really. He’d always known this was how it’d end. Gallows or a bullet, like most men who lived the life he did. Maybe he thought he’d outrun it a little longer, but the truth was… he was tired. Tired in places sleep couldn’t fix. Tired of running, hiding, hurting people he cared about, or watching them leave one by one.

Maybe this was how it was supposed to be. Maybe this was finally the price.

He rubbed his wrists where the shackles had worn the skin raw. Chains rattled faintly, mocking him with their finality. He was alone. And no matter how long he sat there, no one was gonna come walking through that door.

Jo wouldn’t.

He exhaled, slow and hard, like the thought itself weighed a hundred pounds.

He didn’t even know if she went. If she stood there yesterday at the broken tree, waiting for a man who never came. Or if she didn’t show at all. Maybe that was easier. Cleaner.

She'd probably taken one look at that letter and tossed it in the fire.

He couldn’t blame her.

Arthur swallowed hard and stared at the floor, jaw tight. His voice, when it came, was little more than a whisper in the empty cell.

“Guess you was right to stay gone.”

The silence that answered him felt heavier than the chains.

What had she thought, when he didn’t show? That he changed his mind? Lied? Played her for a fool again?

God, if she had been there…

He ran a hand over his face, callused fingers trembling.

“She probably thinks I never gave a damn,” he muttered, the words hollow. “Thinks I’m still the same bastard who threw her outta camp five years ago.”

Maybe she was better off believing that.

Maybe it was mercy.

He didn’t even know what he would’ve said if she had come. Maybe just looked at her and let the silence carry all the things he didn’t know how to say. She deserved more than that, though. She always had. But damn if he wasn’t always too late when it came to her.

Footsteps echoed down the corridor—slow, heavy. The guard again. Checking the time, maybe. Reminding the dead man he only had a few more breaths left to take.

Arthur didn’t flinch. Just watched the shadows move under the iron bars and disappear again.

He wondered if John knew. If he’d tried to do anything. 

He wondered if the snow had reached Beecher’s yet.

If Jo had stood out there, near that broken tree, and watched the first flakes fall.

Arthur leaned back against the wall, his shoulders slumping, eyes tracing the cracked ceiling above.

Funny how quiet death could be.

It wasn’t like the shootouts. Not loud, fast, blazing glory. It was this—stillness. Emptiness. Cold that got under your skin and stayed there. And a slow ache in your chest for all the things you never said.

All the things you left unsaid.

Like, “I’m sorry I failed you.”

Like, “I never stopped loving you.”

He sighed.

“Hope you forget me, Jo,” he whispered to the ceiling. “Hope you find someplace warm. Peaceful. Somewhere you can breathe without me in your head.”

He closed his eyes. Let the weight of it settle.

He was ready.

Or at least, he was trying to be.

The door creaked open with a rusted groan.

Arthur didn’t look up right away. He didn’t need to. The rhythm of the boots said enough—two men, heavy-set, one favoring his right side. He could hear the keys jingling, the sound too bright in this dim, mold-choked cell.

“Time,” one of them said flatly.

Arthur rose slow. His muscles ached from the cold and the waiting. The shackles tugged at his wrists as the guard stepped forward and locked them tighter, like they feared he’d somehow try to run.

Run where?

He followed without a word.

They led him through the back corridor of the jailhouse, out into the sharp white light of the afternoon. Valentine stretched wide before him, covered in a thin crust of snow that sparkled cruelly under the sun. The chill hit his lungs like a fist. He inhaled hard and let the cold burn on the way in.

People had gathered already. Faces lined the main road, twisted into something between curiosity and bloodlust. Children were hoisted on shoulders. Old men leaned on canes. Women clutched shawls around their shoulders as they gossiped about the “criminal finally gettin’ his due.” And among them, not a single familiar face.

Good , he thought bitterly. Don’t remember me like this.

The gallows stood at the edge of town, rough-hewn and ugly. Snow clung to the steps. The noose swung slightly in the wind, like it couldn’t wait to get started.

Arthur climbed the steps when they told him to. The wood creaked under his weight. He tried not to look at the rope. Tried not to think about how it would feel—the choke, the blackness, the way the world would squeeze into one final moment and then vanish.

He kept his eyes on the sky.

Clear. Empty. Vast.

One of the deputies stepped up behind him, boots thudding loud on the platform.

“You got any last words?” the sheriff asked from the crowd, voice bored.

Arthur’s lips twitched. “Ain’t no one here to hear ‘em.”

The deputy reached for the noose.

“Touch that rope and I’ll put you in the ground.”

The voice cracked across the square like a whip. Sharp. Female. Familiar.

Arthur’s eyes flew open, head snapping toward the crowd.

The deputy froze mid-motion. Gasps rippled through the people.

From the edge of the gathering, a figure stepped forward—dark coat whipping in the breeze, black hat tilted low over eyes that burned like fire. A pistol was already raised in her gloved hand, aimed squarely at the man who’d dared reach for Arthur’s neck.

Jo.

Time shattered.

For a second, Arthur thought he was dreaming. Had to be. Her voice still rang in his ears, rough and ragged and filled with rage.

“Back away from him,” she barked. “Now.”

One heartbeat. Two.

John emerged from the other side, his shotgun already cocked, sweeping across the stunned lawmen. “Ain’t gonna say it twice.”

Chaos erupted.

Arthur didn’t move—couldn’t. His knees damn near buckled, but he held fast, eyes locked on Jo like she’d been pulled straight from the grave.

And maybe she had.

Gunfire split the morning like a thundercrack.

The first shot came from John—high into the air, just to get the town moving. It worked. The crowd exploded into motion, people screaming, ducking, trampling one another as they scrambled for cover. Hats flew. Stalls toppled. Horses reared. The world descended into panic.

But not her.

Jo stood her ground, high-caliber pistol steady in her grip, eyes locked on the gallows. A pair of lawmen flanked the platform, startled but recovering fast. One reached for his rifle.

She put a bullet through his chest.

The second dove behind a wagon, returning fire. Wood splintered near her arm, forcing her to duck low. She rolled behind a feed cart, coat catching the wind like a black flag.

“Move, dammit!” she yelled over the din, eyes flicking toward the scaffold.

John had broken through the melee already, shoving his way up the steps with a wild kind of desperation. “I got you, Arthur—hold still!”

Arthur barely had time to react before John slammed into him, pulling another pistol from his belt. With one swift motion, he shot the shackles binding Arthur’s wrists, then shoved a revolver into his hands.

“Don’t just stand there— shoot somethin’!

Arthur’s hands moved on instinct, even if his head was still spinning. He dropped to one knee just as a lawman fired from across the square, the bullet tearing past where his skull had been a second before. Arthur fired back, caught the bastard in the shoulder, and kept low.

The gallows became a war zone.

Bullets screamed past the wood beams. A lantern shattered near the jailhouse, spilling fire across the snowy ground. Horses bolted through the street. Townsfolk shrieked and fled behind barrels and broken fences. A few brave—or stupid—locals returned fire, thinking they were helpin’ the law.

Jo picked her shots carefully, each one deliberate and merciless. She covered the gallows from her crouched position, ducking and rising like clockwork, never staying in one place long. Another lawman tried to climb the steps—she shot him through the thigh and watched him tumble back down, howling.

Arthur scrambled to his feet beside John. “The hell took you so long?”

John laughed breathlessly as they ducked behind the gallows post. “Ask your woman—she’s the one shootin’ everybody!”

Jo’s voice rang out from across the square. “Get the hell outta there!”

Arthur didn’t need to be told twice. “Go, go!

The three of them bolted—John first, Arthur limping behind him, Jo weaving through the chaos to link up as she fired another round toward the deputies still standing. One of them dropped his rifle and ran. Another cursed and fired wildly into the crowd.

Arthur caught up beside her, breath ragged, coat flapping open.

“You showed up,” he said, almost in disbelief, as his boots hit the ground beside her.

Her jaw clenched, eyes hard and sharp beneath the brim of her black hat. Her next shot rang out, catching a deputy square in the chest. Without looking at Arthur, she bit out, “And you didn’t.

He ducked as a bullet cracked the wood behind him, then shouted back, “I got arrested, Jo!”

“Oh, well ain’t that convenient! ” she snapped, sidestepping to take cover behind a toppled wagon wheel. She ejected a spent round and loaded fresh ones with rapid, practiced motion. Another round pinged off the post near her head. She ducked, swore, and leaned out for a shot. “You left me standin’ there lookin’ like a goddamn fool!”

“Hey!” John’s voice cut through the gunfire as he dropped behind a crate opposite them, pistol blazing. “We ain’t got time for heart-to-hearts!”

“Then quit listenin’ in!” Jo shouted back, eyes never leaving the street.

A sharp whistle rang out—more deputies coming from the east. Jo shifted position, darting low across the snow, ducking behind a water trough to flank. Her coat snapped behind her like a banner in the wind. She dropped to one knee and fired, taking out a rifleman on the roof of the general store.

Arthur kept close to the gallows, crouched behind one of the beams as bullets tore overhead. John dropped down beside him.

“You two finished airin’ dirty laundry?” John asked, breathless, wiping soot and snow from his cheek. “Or should I fetch a preacher next?”

Arthur ignored him and scanned for Jo—just in time to see her raise her pistol and fire across the street, striking a deputy through the shoulder. Another leaned out from a second-story window to take aim at her. Arthur raised his revolver and fired first, shattering glass and sending the man sprawling backward.

Jo looked toward him sharply. Their eyes met through the smoke.

A beat. One second where neither of them moved, the world still burning around them.

Then she gave a quick nod—nothing more.

Arthur exhaled hard and muttered, “You’re a damn menace.”

“And you’re slow on the draw,” she called back.

The three of them pressed forward, clearing the area around the gallows one shot at a time, covering each other with unspoken precision. Jo ducked into an alley to circle behind a wagon of hay where two more men were reloading. She took them down quick, a blur of motion and grit.

Arthur and John pushed up the left side, boots crunching through the churned-up mud and slush, gun barrels hot in their hands, smoke stinging their lungs. Arthur limped slightly, the old wound in his thigh aching with every step, but adrenaline kept him moving. He fired two quick shots toward the sheriff’s office, splinters flying from the doorframe, then ducked behind the base of the gallows again as a few final bullets cracked past them.

And then… silence.

The chaos, like a fire burning itself out, finally guttered.

The thick veil of gunsmoke drifted away in the winter wind, revealing the aftermath: shattered windows, scattered bodies, rifles abandoned in the bloodied snow. The crowd that had gathered to watch a hanging had long since fled, their screams fading into the hills. Lawmen lay slumped in the dirt or had scattered in retreat, the few that lived too injured or too shaken to regroup.

It was over.

John lowered his pistol, breathing hard. “Shit,” he muttered. “I think that’s all of ‘em.”

Arthur scanned the street one last time, then looked to John. For a second, both men just stood there, battle-worn and panting. Then John gave a dry, incredulous laugh and shook his head, reaching out and gripping Arthur’s shoulder tight.

“Thought I’d lost you again, brother,” he said, voice rough with emotion.

Arthur swallowed and gave a tired nod. “Didn’t think I’d make it outta this one neither.”

They exchanged a half-hug, the kind that came from years of shared dirt and blood and loyalty, then pulled apart. Arthur’s head turned immediately, his eyes scanning the ruined street with increasing urgency.

His gaze swept across the ruined main street of Valentine, eyes moving past the bodies, the splintered storefronts, the blood-stained snow. Panic started to rise in his throat again—until he spotted her.

She was walking slowly, maybe twenty paces off, stepping through the aftermath like a ghost. Her long coat dragged slightly behind her, its black hem torn and damp with mud. Snow clung to the shoulders, her blonde hair over her back. She was upright. Moving. Alive.

Relief swelled inside him so fast it nearly buckled his knees.

He released a breath he hadn’t realized he was holding and took a step in her direction.

Jo took one more step forward. Something felt… strange. Off. Like her body had slipped a little out of rhythm with the world around her. There was a twinge in her stomach—more of a pressure than pain, at first. A wet warmth bloomed beneath her ribs, seeping slow and steady. She frowned and brought her left hand to the spot, pressing lightly, instinctively.

Her fingers came away slick with red.

She blinked.

The street tilted just slightly. Her heart thudded once, deep and hollow. She looked down at her hand again, now full of blood. It was spreading. Fast. Too fast. The bullet must’ve caught her back at the gallows—she hadn’t felt it through the noise, the cold, the adrenaline.

Jo stopped walking. The world seemed to mute around her.

She looked up.

Her eyes scanned through the thinning smoke until she found him.

Arthur.

He was standing near the gunsmith, just a few yards away, a flicker of relief still softening the harsh lines of his face.

Jo’s lips quirked up faintly. A sad, fragile little smile. Not bitter. Not afraid.

Just tired.

Their eyes locked. And for a second, there was only that—
recognition,
regret,
something unfinished stretching wide and aching between them.

Then her body swayed.

And dropped.

Arthur saw her fall.

Jo!

His voice tore out of him, raw and violent, already moving before her head hit the snow. Hat gone. Coat flaring. Sprinting.

And everything inside him was breaking open as he ran.

Chapter 49: Third Chance

Notes:

I’m back from my little break! Two weeks of rest, sun, and a much-needed step away from the chaos—and now I’m diving right back in.

There’s a lot still ahead for these characters, and I’m so looking forward to exploring the next steps of their journey. Thank you for being here, and I hope you enjoy what’s coming next 💛

Chapter Text

The room was quiet, save for the occasional whistle of wind slipping through the cracks in the old wood walls. The hearth had long since dimmed to embers, casting a faint orange glow that danced weakly across the floor. Outside, the snow had stilled, painting the hills of Beecher’s Hope in a cold, untouched hush. But inside that room—John’s guest bedroom—there was nothing still about Arthur Morgan.

He sat hunched forward in a chair beside the bed, one elbow propped on his knee, the other hand cradling his face like it was the only thing keeping it from collapsing entirely. His hat was discarded somewhere behind him. His revolver, unloaded, sat forgotten on the windowsill. And in front of him, wrapped tight in sweat-stained bandages and buried beneath woolen blankets, lay Jo.

She hadn’t stirred in nearly a day.

Her face, usually so hard-edged and fierce with fire, was slack with sleep or unconsciousness—he couldn’t tell anymore. Her hair was damp against her temple, tangled and clinging in small curls. Her skin had gone a shade too pale for his liking, and her breath—though there—was slow. Shallow. Like even her lungs were reluctant to fight.

Arthur’s eyes burned. Not from lack of sleep, though there was plenty of that. Not from the bottle either, though the temptation clawed at the back of his throat. It was guilt. Raw, unrelenting guilt that refused to let him breathe easy.

This was his fault.

All of it.

If he hadn’t gotten himself caught… if he hadn’t sent that goddamn letter… if he hadn’t been so selfish, so damn stupid

She wouldn’t be lying there.

She wouldn’t have ridden all that way. Wouldn’t have drawn her gun in the middle of Valentine, wouldn’t have bled in the snow like that. Wouldn’t have collapsed with that smile —that goddamn smile —right before the light went out of her eyes.

She already died once , he thought, as if speaking too loud might tip the balance. She got her second chance after Micah…

His throat tightened like a noose.

Would she get a third?

He leaned forward slowly, elbows on his knees, hands clasped tight in front of his face as he stared down at her. At the slow rise and fall of her chest beneath the thick covers. At the small crease between her brows, as if even in her sleep, something inside her was still fighting.

He’d seen plenty of people bleed. He’d watched men die with their guts in their hands, and he’d felt blood soak through his own shirt more times than he could count—but nothing, nothing had ever sunk its claws into him like the sight of her falling. Like the sound her body made when it hit the ground. Like the sudden absence of her voice in the middle of the fight.

She’d saved his life.

He’d cost her hers.

The chair creaked under him as he shifted, reaching out with one trembling hand. His callused fingers barely grazed hers where they lay limp on the blanket.

“You stubborn, reckless, goddamn woman…” he rasped. “Why’d you come for me? After all I put you through… why’d you ever come?”

But he knew why. And that made it worse.

And he loved her.

He had never said it, not when it mattered. Never said it right. Never held her the way she deserved. Never stopped her from walking into that damn fire—even after she’d already burned once before.

Arthur sat back again, scrubbing both hands down his face, breathing like it hurt to draw in air. The fire popped behind him, a single ember escaping into the air, floating and fading before it could reach the ceiling.

“You hear me?” he said softly, eyes locked on her pale face. “You get through this. You gotta . Not ‘cause I deserve forgiveness, or any of that—hell, I don’t. But because… this world needs you in it. I need you in it.”

His voice cracked on the last word.

He looked down again, gaze drawn to her hand. He didn’t take it. Didn’t think he had the right. But he stayed there beside her, unwilling to leave. Not for food, not for sleep, not even when John came to check on them and left again quietly, saying nothing.

Because she might not have a third chance.

And if she didn’t, if this was it—Arthur was going to be there for every last second of it.

He owed her that much.

 


 

He spotted her just beyond the gallows—moving slow through the haze of gunsmoke and bloodied snow, boots dragging, one hand clutched low against her side. And for a moment, Arthur felt the kind of relief that stole his breath.

She was alive.

She was alive .

Then she stopped walking.

Jo blinked like something wasn’t right, her hand lifting from her side—and Arthur watched, frozen, as she looked down.

Her palm came back red. Fingers soaked in blood.

And as her gaze lifted to meet his, something in her face softened. Not fear. Not regret. Just… acceptance.

That goddamn smile touched her lips. Faint. Crooked. Sad.

And then she crumpled.

Jo !

Arthur broke into a sprint, boots thudding against the wooden platform of the gunsmith before they crashed into the snow. He didn’t care about the gunfire anymore—didn’t care if the lawmen regrouped, or if bullets were still flying—he ran straight for her, the world narrowing down to that one shape crumpled in the bloodied snow.

Jo ! No, no, no— goddamn it !”

He dropped to his knees beside her, nearly slipping in the mess beneath her. Her coat had already darkened down the left side, stained through and clinging to her like wet paper. She was still breathing—but barely. Her mouth worked, like she was trying to speak, but a line of blood slipped down the corner of her lips.

Hang on ,” Arthur rasped, voice raw and cracking. He pulled her gently into his lap, one hand cradling the back of her head, the other pressing firm over the wound at her side. Her blood was warm. Too warm. Too much .

“It’s alright,” he whispered, though it wasn’t. “I got you. I got you, Jo—just keep lookin’ at me, alright? You stay with me.”

Her eyes fluttered—barely open, unfocused, rimmed red. But they found him. Somehow, they found him through the blur and the pain and the blood.

Her lips moved.

He leaned closer.

“…Arth…” she choked, the syllable broken, wet.

She struggled again. “…ur…”

His name on her tongue sounded like a dying prayer.

Arthur’s chest caved inward. He was still kneeling in the snow, his arms wrapped tight around her, but it felt like the ground dropped out from under him.

“I’m here,” he said quickly, pressing his forehead against hers, his voice shaking. “I’m right here, darlin’. You ain’t alone.”

But then her body lurched, a dry heave wracking through her, and she choked hard—blood bubbling up from her mouth, spilling down her chin. Arthur’s panic cracked wide open.

“Shit—John!” Arthur shouted, twisting toward the man. “Get the goddamn horses! Now !”

He turned back fast, grabbing his sleeve and swiping her mouth as gently as he could. Her skin was ice beneath the smears of blood. His hands were shaking so badly he nearly missed. 

“You’re alright,” he said, though she wasn’t. “You’re alright, I got you. I got you, Jo…”

He couldn’t stop the tremble in his voice. He couldn’t stop the wetness in it, either. Her blood was already soaking through his shirt, down his arms, his lap.

“I’m sorry,” he whispered hoarsely, eyes burning. “I’m so sorry . This is my fault… I shoulda never sent that letter. Shoulda known you’d come for me— shoulda known . Shoulda never— fuck , Jo, why’d you do that, huh? Why’d you come back for a fool like me?”

Her eyes opened just a sliver. Her lashes were crusted with snow. She blinked once, slow.

And somehow— somehow —her lips twitched.

She pulled in a tiny, rattling breath.

“…Was hopin’ you’d stop bein’ stupid…”

Arthur stared.

That was it. That was all she could manage. A breathless dig, delivered with the last ember of strength she had left. Barely audible, slurred and wet with blood—but the look in her eye, just for a heartbeat, was pure Jo.

And Arthur let out one broken, breathless laugh. It wasn’t even a real laugh—just a startled crack in the dam of terror swelling in his throat.

“Goddamn you,” he murmured, brushing her damp hair back from her face, his smile trembling into something twisted with agony. “Even now…”

Her mouth opened again, like she was gonna go on—keep teasing, keep pushing back against the dark. But Arthur shook his head quickly,  “No. No more talkin’,” he breathed. “Don’t waste it, alright? Just breathe. Just breathe , Jo. Stay with me.”

She coughed, weak and wet, her fingers twitching against his coat. Her hand had been gripping him—now it just trembled.

And then—

Arthur !” John’s voice rang out like a rifle shot across the street. “I got the horses!”

Arthur didn’t look up right away. He was still holding her, rocking her ever so slightly, as if the motion could somehow keep her tethered.

Arthur looked up at John, who was already running toward them with both horses in tow—his gelding and Laramie, who tossed her head restlessly, ears pinned back and nostrils flared. Her flanks were heaving, streaked with sweat even in the cold. Arthur stared for a second at the mare. He’d seen her nearly take a chunk out of a man’s shoulder just for walking too close to Jo. She’d always hated him—bit him once so bad he’d carried the mark for weeks.

But he didn’t have a choice. He looked down at Jo, then back at Laramie.

“You listen to me now,” he said low, voice shaking. “She’s dyin’. You get me back to her in time, or I swear to God…”

The mare didn’t flinch. Didn’t shy. Just stood her ground and snorted hard, like she understood.

John reached them, pale and out of breath, shoving the reins into Arthur’s hand. “We gotta move. Now.”

“I know .”

Arthur turned back to Jo.

“Jo,” he said gently, brushing a thumb along her blood-streaked cheek. “I gotta move you, alright? I know it’s gonna hurt. I know , sweetheart. But I don’t got no choice. You gotta hold on for me. Just a little longer.”

She didn’t answer. Her eyes were barely open now, her breathing shallow. But her hand twitched again—reaching, weakly.

Arthur took a breath that hurt all the way through his ribs, then shifted to one knee and slid one arm under her knees, the other cradling her back. As he lifted her, she gasped—a small, broken sound—and her body stiffened in his arms.

“I know, I know, I’m sorry,” Arthur whispered, holding her tighter as she winced, a whimper catching in her throat. “I got you. It’s alright, I got you. Just hold on, hold on a little longer— please .”

Blood soaked through his coat. It was hot against his ribs, his chest, his arms. It felt wrong .

He staggered toward the horses, boots slipping in the red-tinged snow. Jo’s head lolled against his shoulder.

“John—help me up.”

John stepped forward quickly, reaching for her.

“Just for a second,” Arthur warned, not letting go fully. “Just for a damn second.”

He passed Jo into John’s arms—gently, but not without her whimpering again, her face screwing up in pain even through the haze of near-unconsciousness.

“I know, sweetheart. I know,” Arthur said, breath shaking, as he swung up into Laramie’s saddle—half-expecting her to buck the second he was seated. But the mare held steady, eyes fixed on Jo.

“Give her here.”

John stepped forward carefully and passed Jo back up. Arthur reached down and gathered her into his arms, settling her as best he could against his chest, her blood soaking into his shirt and the saddle beneath them. She was barely conscious now. Her hand, bloody and shaking, clung to the collar of his coat.

“I got you,” he whispered, wrapping the reins tight. “ I got you .”

Laramie didn’t move until he gave the signal—and when she did, it was like she knew . She burst forward with a powerful lurch, cutting through the snow, hooves pounding. John followed close behind.

Arthur rode with his jaw clenched, heart in his throat, one arm wrapped tight around Jo to steady her limp form, the other hand on the reins. Her head rested against his collarbone, face pale as death, lips parted just enough for her shallow breaths to fog in the cold.

“Stay with me, Jo,” he murmured, again and again. “Stay with me. You ain’t goin’ out like this. You hear me?”

She gave a low groan, barely audible over the wind.

“I know it hurts,” he said, voice cracking. “I know. But you gotta hold on.”

The snow flew past them in a blur. The sun was high but cold, the sky a colorless wash. Time bent and twisted as they rode—Arthur couldn’t feel his hands anymore, only her blood cooling against his skin. His thighs ached, his back burned, but he didn’t slow down. He couldn’t .

Behind him, John kept pace and followed—but Arthur barely heard him.

His world narrowed down again. Her weight in his arms. Her blood soaking into his chest. The way her eyes drifted, half-lidded. The way her breath caught, stuttered, grew fainter by the mile.

He tried to talk to her, keep her awake, keep her there .

“Jo,” he said, voice low but fierce. “You stay with me. You hear? You already beat death once. Ain’t no way you’re quittin’ now.”

She didn’t answer.

He pressed his hand tighter against her side, even as blood seeped between his fingers and down Laramie’s flank.

Jo stirred again—just the smallest tremble in her limbs. Her hand twitched, fingers curling near his coat buttons.

“I’m here,” Arthur said quickly. “I’m right here.”

Her head shifted slightly, breath stuttering.

“C’mon, sweetheart. Just a little further. You can hold on.”

But then her fingers went slack.

Her head tipped more heavily against his chest.

And her breathing—

“Jo?”

He couldn’t tell.

“Jo!”

Panic gripped him like ice water in the veins. He looked down, eyes wild, and saw her face slack, her lashes still. He pressed his hand to her cheek. Cold. Too cold.

“No. No no no— don’t you do this .”

He leaned low over her, shielding her from the wind as best he could, speaking directly into her ear.

“You fight, dammit. You fight . You came back for me—I ain’t lettin’ you go again. You hear me?”

No answer.

Arthur snapped the reins.

Laramie surged forward.

They raced down the hills and through the sparse trees, the sun crawling westward above them, turning the white snow a pale, gleaming gold. Laramie moved like hell was at her heels, her muscles slick with sweat, her hooves eating up the frozen ground, but Arthur barely noticed the wind whipping against his face or the cold numbing his jaw.

He only felt the weight in his arms.

Jo had gone still again. Limp. Too limp.

Every so often, he dipped his head low to listen—to feel for breath. To speak her name just loud enough for her to hear it if she was still in there somewhere.

They reached the river bend where the Upper Montana curved in a shallow, ice-rimmed sprawl. The water rushed cold and fast between jagged banks. Laramie didn’t hesitate, even with Arthur’s weight doubled and blood staining her flanks. She plunged into the shallows with a determined grunt, snowmelt splashing high, and surged up the opposite side, hooves slipping for a terrifying second before catching firm again.

John came up beside him, breathless. “We’re close. What do you wanna—”

Arthur didn’t take his eyes off the road ahead. “Ride to Blackwater,” he barked. “Get the doctor.”

John didn’t argue. He gave one look to the unconscious figure in Arthur’s arms, jaw tightening, then turned his gelding and broke off, spurring west toward the town.

Arthur didn’t look back.

He pressed his heels to Laramie’s sides, urging her faster, whispering under his breath. “Almost there. Just a little longer, girl. Just a little more.”

They crested the rise that opened out over Beecher’s Hope—the familiar fence lines, the barn in the distance, the curl of smoke from the chimney.

Arthur’s heart nearly buckled under the weight of it all.

She can’t die now. Not here. Not after all this.

He cradled her closer, his arms aching, chest sticky with blood. He could feel every jolt of her body with Laramie’s stride, could feel the cold bite at her exposed skin, her damp hair against his neck. Her breath came faintly—shallow, hitching.

The front porch came into view, and Arthur threw his voice ahead of him before they’d even reached the gate.

Abigail !”

His shout tore across the open space, hoarse and raw.

The front door burst open a few seconds later, and Abigail stepped outside, squinting toward the sound. She started down the steps, brow furrowed, wiping her hands on a towel from inside—and then she froze.

Arthur saw her mouth fall open.

She ran.

Arthur didn’t slow as he approached. He pulled Laramie up hard at the porch, the mare skidding to a stop with a snort and a shower of snow. Arthur was covered in blood. His coat, his hands, the front of his shirt. So was the horse. And in his arms—

God ,” Abigail gasped. “Is that—Arthur, what happened?!”

“She’s been shot,” he said, voice barely more than gravel. “John’s fine. He went to get the doctor.”

Abigail took a trembling step forward, her face pale. “Is she—?”

“I don’t know.” Arthur’s voice cracked. “I don’t know , Abigail.”

She nodded quickly, already moving toward the door. “Get her inside. I’ll set the place, boil water—Jack!”

The boy appeared in the doorway seconds later, wide-eyed.

“Take the horse,” Abigail ordered, already halfway inside. “And don’t you let her bolt—easy, gentle, she’s all riled up.”

Arthur had already dismounted, cradling Jo against his chest as he stepped off the stirrup and onto the frozen ground. He staggered slightly under her weight and the fatigue setting in—his legs nearly gave—but he held her tighter, adjusted his grip.

Jack came and reached for the reins, staring at Jo the whole time, pale and wordless. He took Laramie’s bridle, the mare sidestepping a bit before settling under the boy’s hand.

Arthur climbed the steps, boots thudding hollow on the boards. Jo didn’t stir. She didn’t groan, didn’t flinch, didn’t cry out. She just hung there , her head pressed to his collarbone, hair sticking to her bloodied face.

The front door loomed ahead of him like a final threshold.

Arthur shifted his grip on Jo’s body—one arm still braced beneath her back, the other under her legs. He couldn’t let go, wouldn’t risk it—not even for a second. So he turned at the last second and hit the door with his back, shoulder-first. The wood groaned as it gave way under the shove, bursting open.

The warmth inside hit him like a wall—soft firelight, the lingering smell of stew in the air—but it didn’t register. All Arthur saw was the space ahead, and the table Abigail had just finished clearing.

She’d pushed chairs aside, swept off the lantern and plates and utensils, leaving the sturdiest surface they had empty and waiting. 

“Put her here,” Abigail said, her voice tight, urgent.

Arthur stepped forward and lowered Jo as gently as he could, her body sinking into the wood with a soft thud that turned his stomach. She didn’t react. No flinch. No groan.

He lingered over her, his hands trembling, unsure of what to do with them now that they weren’t holding her.

“I’ll need to strip her down some,” Abigail said, already reaching for the laces of Jo’s boots. “Doctor’ll want to get at the wound fast. And she’s soaked through.”

Arthur started pulling at the buttons of his coat, ripping it off with a sharp movement. “I’ll help,” he muttered, already throwing it aside, blood-slicked and ruined.

He leaned over Jo again, brushing hair from her face with the backs of his fingers. Her skin was pale and clammy, lips tinged gray-blue. He could see the way her chest barely lifted—each breath a shallow, delayed thing.

Abigail had already tugged her boots off with effort, her hands moving fast. “Arthur,” she said sharply, “you hold her up, I’ll take off her coats.”

Arthur stepped in again and slipped his arms under Jo, lifting her just enough for Abigail to work—first peeling off the outer coat, soaked with blood, then the one beneath it. The layers came away heavy, sodden from sweat and melted snow.

Arthur held her steady as Abigail reached for the buttons of Jo’s shirt next, hands trembling only slightly as she worked. The silence in the house was loud. Every creak, every breath, even the sound of the fire snapping in the hearth felt too sharp.

With the last button undone, Abigail looked up at Arthur—jaw clenched—and opened the shirt slowly.

There was a linen undergarment beneath, soaked but intact. They didn’t remove it.

The wound was visible now, carved below her left ribs, torn through flesh and already blackening around the edges. Blood oozed steadily—less than before, but still there.

Arthur stared.

For a second, he couldn’t breathe.

He saw the ragged hole. The way her skin puckered around it. The already forming bruises that bloomed out in deep, angry purples. It wasn’t clean. It wasn’t shallow. The bullet had gone in at a bad angle—and what scared him more than anything was that there was no exit wound.

Abigail inhaled, sharp through her teeth. “Jesus…”

Arthur reached out like he might touch it, then stopped. His hand hovered in the air, fingers shaking violently. He pulled back.

“Goddamn it,” he whispered.

Abigail didn’t say anything. She reached for a clean towel and pressed it around the wound instead, gentle but firm. Jo didn’t stir.

Arthur looked at her face—slack, mouth parted slightly, her lashes wet against pale cheeks.

“She’s still breathin’,” he said, like saying it might make it true longer.

Outside, the wind had started to howl again, scraping low across the land and pressing cold fingers against the windows. The fire crackled on—but it felt miles away. The only warmth Arthur could think of was the weight of Jo’s blood on his hands, still wet, still warm, fading. And far in the distance, just barely— hoofbeats .

Arthur straightened fast, heart lurching.

“They’re here,” Abigail said, standing half a step back from the table. “That’s gotta be—”

But Arthur didn’t wait.

He was already moving, boots heavy across the wooden floor. He threw the door open and stepped out into the snow again, into the darkness that had crept down from the hills. The wind slapped his face, sharp and bitter, but he didn’t care.

There—two horses cresting the rise, lanternlight swinging. John was in front, reining in fast, and right behind him—

The doctor.

Over here !” Arthur bellowed, voice raw. He waved them in with one arm, the other gripping the porch rail like he might leap straight off it.

“Hurry— she’s bleedin’ out !” He shouted again. 

John kicked his horse into a final sprint and was already dismounting by the time the doctor rode in. A thin, older man with spectacles and a thick coat, fumbling with his bag even before his boots hit the ground.

“What happened?” the doctor called as he approached the porch.

“She got shot,” Arthur growled, already stepping aside so the man could pass. “She’s inside—Abigail’s keepin’ pressure on it, but it ain’t slowin’.”

“How long ago?”
“Twenty, thirty minutes, tops. She was still awake on the ride—then she passed out.”

Arthur didn’t wait for the rest. He spun around and shoved the door open again, holding it wide as the doctor rushed in, John close behind.

Jo was still there, laid out on the table just like before—too still, too pale. Abigail had wrapped a clean towel around the wound, red soaking fast through the white. The air smelled of blood, sweat, woodsmoke.

The doctor didn’t waste a second.

“Clear the table,” he barked, already setting his bag down. “Get me hot water, clean cloths, and lanterns—I need better light!”

“I’ll get it,” Abigail said, running for the back room.

“John, help her,” Arthur ordered without looking, stepping up beside the table again. His hands twitched like he didn’t know where to put them—hovering just over Jo’s shoulder, her forehead. 

The doctor's eyes landed on the wound and narrowed grimly. “Bullet’s still in there,” he said. “And deep.”

Arthur swallowed hard.

“Can you—can you get it out?”
The doctor didn’t look up. “I’ll do everything I can. But she’s lost a lot of blood.”

Arthur didn’t move. Didn’t blink.

“Then do it .”

He didn’t know if the man heard him—but he turned to his tools just the same.

And Arthur stepped back, just enough to stay out of the way, but not so far that he couldn’t reach her hand if she needed it.

Not so far that he couldn’t still feel the shallow rise and fall of her breath.

Not so far that she’d think, even for a second, that she was alone.

The doctor’s hands moved quickly, deliberately, as he peeled away the blood-soaked towel Abigail had pressed to Jo’s side. The lanternlight flickered in the glass of his spectacles as he leaned in, muttering under his breath. Outside, the wind had quieted—but the tension inside the house only grew.

Arthur couldn’t stay still.

He paced.

Back and forth, boots thudding on the hardwood, arms crossed so tight across his chest they ached. His jaw was clenched, his teeth grinding. Every so often, his eyes would flick back to the table—to her. To Jo. Pale, limp, so damn still.

Except for the rise and fall of her chest. Shallow. Barely there.

That was all that kept him breathing.

John stood by the hearth, hands shoved into his coat pockets, silent. For once, he wasn’t trying to talk, or help, or move. He just watched—like if he blinked too long, she might be gone when he opened his eyes again.

Arthur stopped behind the doctor, watching as the man wiped the wound clean and leaned in, squinting. His fingers were already stained dark red. A small pair of metal tongs gleamed under the lanternlight as he brought them close.

“I need to go in,” the doctor murmured. “The bullet’s deep. No exit wound.”

“Just do it,” Arthur rasped.

The doctor didn’t look up. “No pain medication. It’ll hurt her.”

“She’s unconscious,” John said.

“For now,” the doctor replied. “But pain like this, it cuts through. Sometimes the body wakes up even if the mind’s ain’t there to understand it.”

Arthur’s jaw twitched.

The doctor didn’t wait. He pressed the tongs into the wound.

Jo’s body jerked.

Arthur was at her side in an instant. “Jo—”

She didn’t wake. But her face twisted—barely, weakly—and a sound came from her throat. A broken little whimper, muffled by her own breath. Her head lolled slightly, lips parted, and her brow knit with pain even through unconsciousness.

“Hold her down,” the doctor ordered sharply. “I can’t risk her thrashing—I’ll lose it in there.”

Arthur reached without hesitation, both hands bracing her shoulder. John moved up on the other side, hesitating a second longer before pressing his weight down carefully, holding her legs.

“I got her,” Arthur said, voice tight. “Go on.”

The tongs went in again.

Jo flinched, hard—her back arched off the table and a whine escaped her, breathless and pained, like it had been torn from somewhere deep inside her chest.

Arthur’s hands tightened.

“I’m sorry,” he muttered, leaning close. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m here.”

John didn’t say a word. But his jaw was locked and his eyes were dark, focused on nothing and everything all at once.

“Almost there,” the doctor said. “It’s lodged against the rib. Just a little deeper—”

Jo writhed again, and Arthur had to bear down with his weight to keep her from sliding off the table.

“Christ,” he choked. 

And then—

The doctor straightened, holding something between the tips of the tongs—a blood-slicked piece of lead no bigger than a thumbnail.

“Got it.”

Arthur let out a breath so deep he nearly staggered. He looked down at Jo—her face was slack again, breath still shallow, but there was a tremble in her fingers now. She was still fighting, even if she wasn’t awake to know it.

“Now I stitch,” the doctor said, already reaching for his needle and thread.

The doctor threaded the needle with a steadiness born of years in the field, but even he looked pale in the firelight. He glanced up only once before he began. “She may not stir again. But if she does—keep her still.”

Arthur gave a tight nod and shifted slightly, still pressing down on Jo’s shoulder, his thumb brushing just once against the side of her neck where her pulse thudded faintly. 

John moved to the foot of the table again, crouching slightly so he could press both palms to her legs just below the knees, anchoring her in place. His lips were pressed thin, and for once, there was no smart remark, no sideways glance. Just silence and grit.

The first stitch went in.

Jo flinched.

Her breath caught on something sharp and thin—her whole body went taut, and even unconscious, her limbs twitched in resistance. A soft whimper escaped her lips, barely audible, and Arthur felt it like a knife through the ribs.

The needle moved again, and her hand jerked—twitching so hard her fingers knocked into Arthur’s thigh. He caught it gently, wrapped his big calloused hand around her smaller one, and squeezed. “I know,” he muttered. “I know it hurts.”

“She’s tough,” the doctor said, eyes focused, lips tight. “Most folk would’ve already gone cold.”

Another stitch.

This time Jo’s head turned, just slightly, face scrunching up in pain. She didn’t wake, not fully—but it was worse this way. Watching her suffer without even knowing it. Watching her body fight when her mind was too far gone to understand what was happening.

They held her down for all twelve stitches.

By the end of it, Arthur’s throat was raw and his arms ached. His back was damp with sweat. John’s face looked a little hollow in the firelight, but he hadn’t moved once.

The doctor finally sat back, wiping his hands on a towel. “That’s it. Bleeding’s stopped, and the wound’s closed.”

Arthur didn’t let go of Jo’s hand.

“She needs a quiet room,” the doctor added, standing slowly and stretching his back. “Somewhere clean. Warm. I’d like to check her over once more before I go.”

John cleared his throat, straightened up. “We got a guest room. End of the hall, right side.”

“Lead the way.”

Arthur didn’t wait for anyone. He stepped back from the table just long enough to slide his arms beneath Jo again—one behind her back, the other behind her thighs. Her body was so limp it made him feel sick.

“Easy now,” Abigail said, hovering beside him.

“I got her,” he said, hoarse.

He rose to his feet with her cradled to his chest. Her head slumped against his collarbone, hair brushing his neck. He could feel her breath against his shirt—faint. Almost imaginary.

He didn’t stop to think. Just followed the narrow hallway past the front door, where wind whispered through the frame, and into the dim guest bedroom, where John had already lit the lamp and pulled back the quilt on the small bed.

Arthur knelt and eased her down onto the mattress like she was made of glass, like too quick a movement might shatter her. Abigail moved around the far side of the bed, smoothing the quilt flat, her mouth pressed into a grim line.

The doctor followed him in, already rummaging through his bag. He pressed a hand to Jo’s forehead, checked her pulse again, looked at the bandages over the stitches.

“She’s freezing,” he muttered. “Fever’s likely. You’ll want to keep her warm—blankets, fire going, and someone stay with her. If she starts to sweat, change the cloth on her head. If she wakes, no food or water for the first day—just sips, if she can manage.”

Arthur nodded tightly. “I’ll stay.”

The doctor packed up the last of his tools, wiped his glasses on a kerchief, and stood. “I’ll come back tomorrow. But tonight… it’s up to her.”

Arthur reached into his coat, pulled out a folded stack of bills, and pressed it into the man’s hand without a word. The doctor took it, nodded in thanks, and gave Jo one last glance before turning toward the front door.

Arthur didn’t move. 

Jo lay still on the bed, her face pale and drawn, her lips tinged faintly blue from the cold. Abigail had added a second quilt, tucked around her shoulders. John lingered in the doorway, glancing back toward the firelit front room like he wanted to escape, but his eyes were on her too.

“Thank you,” Abigail said quietly to Arthur. “For bringing her back.”

He didn’t answer.

He sat down in the old chair by the side of the bed, leaned forward with his elbows on his knees, and ran a trembling hand down his face.

 


 

The fire crackled low in the hearth, shadows stretching long across the wooden floor as dusk crept in through the windowpanes. Outside, the snow had stopped falling sometime in the early afternoon, leaving the world still and white, blanketed in quiet. Inside, time moved differently.

Arthur hadn’t left the chair in three days.

He’d slept there in short, jagged fragments—head bowed, arms folded, the chair pulled close enough that he could rest his hand on the side of the bed. Sometimes he drifted off with his hand still holding hers. Sometimes he startled awake at the smallest sound—a shift in her breathing, the sigh of wind at the window. Always expecting the worst.

But she was still here.

Jo lay beneath two quilts, her body swaddled in warmth, hair damp and tousled against the pillow. Her skin, once white with shock and then flushed with fever, had begun to settle into a more natural tone. She hadn’t opened her eyes yet—not fully—but the doctor had said the worst was behind her. The fever had broken yesterday.

She’d made it through the storm.

Arthur sat forward, elbows on his knees, watching her chest rise and fall beneath the blankets. It was slow. Shallow. But steady.

His fingers curled around the edge of the mattress, knuckles pale. He hadn’t spoken much since that night—just short answers when Abigail or John came in to check on him. He didn’t trust his voice. Didn’t trust it wouldn’t crack open and spill out everything he’d kept inside.

How close he’d come to losing her.

The floor creaked softly, and he turned his head, slow and heavy, toward the door.

Abigail stood there with a plate in her hands. Steam drifted up from the bowl resting atop it—something warm. Simple. He could smell beans and bread and a hint of salt pork.

She offered a small smile. “Thought maybe you’d eat something if I brought it in.”

Arthur blinked, then gave a faint shake of his head. “Ain’t hungry.”

“Don’t need to be hungry,” she said gently, stepping inside. “Just need to eat.”

He didn’t answer, and Abigail crossed the room, setting the plate down on the side table without pushing him. Her eyes flicked toward Jo, and her smile faltered.

“She’s strong,” she said. “Most wouldn’t’ve made it this far.”

“She ain’t most,” Arthur murmured.

“No. She ain’t.”

Abigail hovered for a second longer, then placed a gentle hand on his shoulder. “I’ll leave you be. Holler if she wakes, alright?”

He nodded, slow.

When the door clicked shut behind her, Arthur reached out and pulled the plate closer—though he didn’t touch the food. He just stared at it for a moment, then glanced back at Jo.

“You know,” he muttered softly, “you could wake up now. Wouldn’t mind hearin’ your voice.”

His eyes drifted down to her hand, still resting near his. He lifted it carefully, held it in both of his, brushing his thumbs across her knuckles.

“You gave me the scare of my goddamn life,” he whispered. “Not that that’s any different than usual with ya.”

Silence answered.

He sighed through his nose and leaned back in the chair again, Jo’s hand still tucked gently in his.

Through the window, the sky faded from gray to deeper blue. The house around them settled into the quiet of evening, and somewhere in the other room, Jack laughed faintly at something—followed by John’s deeper rumble.

Arthur didn’t move.

The chair creaked as he shifted to stretch his legs out. He looked tired—older somehow—but there was something softer in his eyes now. A flicker of hope. A thread of light through the dark.

Jo was still breathing.

And he wasn’t going anywhere.

Night settled soft and deep around Beecher’s Hope.

Wind whispered faintly through the rafters, rustling the eaves. The fire had burned low, casting long golden shadows over the room—flickering against the walls, catching in Arthur’s beard, the deep lines under his eyes.

He hadn't lit a lamp. Didn’t want the harshness of it. The fire was enough. Just enough to watch over her.

Arthur sat still in the chair beside her bed, one hand resting near her hip, the other braced against his thigh. He’d taken off his hat hours ago—maybe days, he couldn’t remember—and it sat on the floor by his boots. His coat too. Just his shirtsleeves now, rolled to the elbows, blood still stained faintly into the cuffs.

He reached for the rag in the basin by the hearth—lukewarm water by now—and wrung it out. His hands moved with care, habit. He leaned over Jo, brushing the cloth along her brow, wiping at the dampness there, then down along her temple, gentle strokes that never once disturbed her rest.

“There you go,” he murmured. “Still runnin’ a little warm.”

The doctor had said the fever would come and go for a while. Said her body had gone through hell, and healing wasn’t gonna be clean or easy. The bullet had missed anything vital by inches. Lucky, he’d said. Lucky .

Arthur hadn’t felt lucky. Not then. Not now.

He folded the cloth over and laid it across her forehead again, fingers lingering briefly on her cheekbone.

So pale. So still.

He leaned back again, spine aching from the days spent hunched in that chair, and exhaled slowly through his nose. His eyes didn’t leave her.

He’d always known there was a storm in her. From the first moment. Something restless and feral and unbending. A wildfire in the shape of a woman. He’d admired it. Been maddened by it. Loved it so hard it nearly killed him.

And still, she’d come for him.

Arthur’s jaw flexed as he dragged a hand down his face.

He’d pictured her death a hundred different ways in the months he thought she was gone. Alone. Bleeding out somewhere no one would ever find her. He’d imagined it so vividly it’d hollowed him out.

And now she was here.

Now he had her again, and he didn’t know how to live with it—how to breathe under the weight of her almost being gone again. And this time with his name on her lips, her blood all over his hands.

A log in the hearth cracked, sending sparks skittering upward. Arthur blinked out of the haze, rubbing at his eyes.

He stood slowly, stretching his legs. His knees cracked under the strain of it. He crossed the room to the window, pushed the curtain back, and peered out into the quiet dark. A few dim lights still glowed from the barn. John had taken Jack there not long ago to finish chores. Abigail had turned in early. All the house was still but for this room.

When he turned back around, his gaze landed on Jo again.

Her chest rose. Fell.

He crossed back to her and reached down to smooth her blanket, tucking it a little tighter around her arms. His hand hovered over her for a long moment. He sank back into the chair. He’d worn a groove into the floorboards with it by now, rocking forward and back. His arms folded again, and this time he rested them on the edge of the bed, bowing his head.

Outside, the cold deepened.

Inside, the silence held.

Arthur didn’t notice when he started nodding off.

His chin sagged toward his chest, arms folded on the edge of the bed where he’d stayed planted for days. The fire had long since burned to embers. Shadows lapped at the corners of the room, soft and still. Outside, the wind had gone quiet. Just the creak of the house as it settled for the night and the soft, rhythmic breathing of the woman he’d nearly lost.

He hadn’t meant to fall asleep. He never did. But exhaustion had crept in slow, over hours and days, tightening behind his eyes until they betrayed him. His jaw slackened. Fingers twitched against the quilt.

“...That bad, huh?”

A voice.
Rough. Raspy. Like gravel under water. But hers.

Arthur’s eyes flew open.

His whole body jerked forward, and his hand immediately found hers on the blanket—cold and thin, but warm enough. Real. Alive.

He leaned in, eyes wide in the dim firelight, searching her face like he still didn’t quite believe it. Her eyes were barely open, just narrow slits of greenish hazel, and her lips cracked at the edges when she tried to smile. Her face was pale and drawn, shadows under her cheekbones, and her hair stuck to her temple in tangled strands.

But she was looking at him.

“Jesus,” Arthur breathed, and his voice broke as if it had torn through something inside him. He took her hand gently, cradling it between both of his, his thumbs moving over her knuckles like he needed to convince himself she wasn’t made of smoke and dreams.

“You’re awake.”

Jo’s lashes fluttered, eyes struggling to stay open. But she didn’t look away. Her gaze lingered on his face—his drawn, sleepless, bloodshot face. The beard grown out rougher than usual. The wear etched in every line. And that pain in his eyes, softer now, but still raw.

“Don’t you dare scare me like that again,” he murmured, voice gravel-deep and shaking.

He brought her hand up to his mouth and kissed her knuckles, eyes closing for a beat as his lips lingered there.

“Ever again,” he said into her skin, low and hoarse. “You hear me?”

Jo gave the faintest huff of breath. Maybe a laugh. Maybe not. Her fingers twitched weakly in his grasp—trying to squeeze his hand.

He leaned in closer, still holding her hand against his cheek now, his voice breaking in a way she’d never heard before.

“I thought I lost you,” he whispered. “I thought—goddamn it, Jo.”

She blinked slowly, eyes glossy and unfocused. “Still… here,” she rasped. “Ain’t gettin’ rid of me that easy.”

Arthur let out a breath that caught somewhere between a laugh and a sob, dropping his forehead gently to her hand like it was the only thing tethering him to earth.

“Besides,” she muttered, mouth twitching faintly at the corners, “you still owe me a goddamn date.”

Arthur froze.

His head lifted, eyes flicking up to her face—torn between stunned disbelief and something warmer, something sharp and shining in his chest.

She was smiling. Barely. Crooked and weak. But there it was. That glint in her eye. That smart mouth. That hellfire soul that refused to die quiet.

He let out a breathless chuckle and shook his head slowly, thumb brushing over her knuckles again.

“Damn woman,” he muttered, almost reverent. “You don’t quit, do you?”

She tried to shrug. It barely moved her shoulders. “Wouldn’t be me if I did.”

Arthur leaned forward again, hand still tight around hers. His voice dropped, softened to something so gentle it barely sounded like him.

“Reckon I better start thinkin’ about where to take you, then.”

Jo made a small noise—half a hum, half a wince—and let her eyes fall closed again, her breath evening out.

Arthur watched her—silent, still, like if he blinked, she’d vanish.

Then, carefully, he eased back in the chair, never letting go of her hand. His other hand smoothed some loose strands of hair back from her face, calloused fingertips ghosting over her brow.

“Ain’t goin’ nowhere,” he said softly, just in case she was still listening. 

The lamp on the nightstand Arthur had lit on, cast a low golden glow across the room, flickering against the walls in soft, slow pulses. It threw long shadows over his face—over the hollowed lines of exhaustion that etched deep into his brow, the stubble along his jaw, the sunken sockets of his tired eyes.

He hadn’t let go of her hand.

Even now, as Jo slipped back into a shallow doze, Arthur stayed rooted beside her, his calloused thumb rubbing slow circles over her knuckles. His gaze had softened, but it hadn’t lost its edge. There was still that fear behind his eyes, raw and tender and hard to hide. That animal part of a man who had nearly lost the one damn thing he couldn’t bear to.

Jo lay still, her head turned toward him on the pillow, face paler than he liked. She looked too small under the quilt Abigail had pulled up to her chest. Her breath was thin but steady, ribs rising and falling in a rhythm he watched like a hawk—afraid it might skip, afraid it might stop.

Her lashes fluttered faintly as her mind stirred, drifting somewhere between the haze of sleep and the ache of waking. Behind her closed eyes, memories flickered—sharp and disjointed. The flash of a gun. The ice in her veins when the bullet tore through her side. The snow. The sky. Arthur’s voice.

She frowned faintly.

The pain was distant now, muffled under layers of bandages and something stronger—shock, maybe. Her thoughts were murky, stuck in mud. She tried to reach for one, but it slipped from her fingers like water.

Where was she?

The bed was warm. The air smelled of old wood, whiskey, and something familiar—Arthur. The ache in her side pulsed with every heartbeat. She could still feel his hand in hers, the weight of it steady, grounding.

She couldn’t piece together the ride. Couldn’t quite remember getting here. Just flashes. Arthur’s face. Abigail’s voice. A door swinging open. Her blood on his shirt.

Her brows knit together slightly.

Had he really carried her? Had he really stayed?

Jo shifted faintly beneath the covers. Not enough to wake him—just enough to feel the world still around her, to be sure she wasn’t dreaming. She wanted to ask him. Wanted to look at him again. But her body felt made of stone, and her eyes refused to open. So she stayed quiet. Still. Let herself drift.

Across from her, Arthur's head dipped. His hand was still in hers, but his chin had dropped to his chest, breath slowing into something heavier. Sleep—finally—was starting to drag him under, the kind that came only when a man had wrung himself out completely.

He didn’t mean to fall asleep. But his fingers never let go.

Even in sleep, he held on.

The silence in the room was so complete it rang.

Only the creak of wood and the wind brushing softly against the glass window gave the night its breath. But inside Jo, everything was louder. Thoughts rolled through her like distant thunder—muted, scattered, impossible to grab hold of for long.

Her body ached in a dull, steady rhythm. Not sharp, not yet. But present, unmistakable. She felt the tug of stitches beneath the bandages wrapped snug around her ribs. She felt the weight of something heavy pressing her into the mattress, like her bones had been filled with lead.

She turned her face a little toward the window, her hand still caught in Arthur’s—still warm where he held her, even though his head had dropped in sleep. And for a while, she just stared at the shape of him, at the way the lamplight painted shadows under his eyes, in the hollows of his cheeks. God, he looked older. Weathered. Hollowed out from the inside.

Her chest tightened, and not from the wound.

He stayed.

The words struck her like a blow she hadn’t braced for. Arthur Morgan stayed.

She didn’t know how long it’d been. Hours? Days? She’d lost track entirely. The last thing she remembered clearly was snow—snow in her eyelashes, burning in her lungs, red in the dirt. Arthur’s voice, rough and desperate. The way he looked at her, like if he lost sight of her for even a second, she’d vanish.

The gallows.

Valentine. 

She squeezed her eyes shut, her breath stalling in her throat. It came in waves—fragments rushing forward all at once. The cold bite of the trail. The rage. The gun. Her blood on his boots. The sheer, brutal will it took to stay alive long enough to see Arthur’s face again.

And then… blackness.

Until now.

She was alive.

She was alive, and she was here. In a bed that smelled faintly of soap and woodsmoke. In a house she didn’t know. With Arthur sleeping beside her, still holding her like she was some fragile thread he couldn’t afford to lose.

Her heart thumped weakly against her ribs.

Why?

She didn’t know if it was from the pain or the confusion or the overwhelming throb of relief in her gut—but her head started to pound. And not just from the fever that had gripped her for days.

Arthur had stayed.

All this time. He must’ve. She’d been slipping in and out, heard voices—Abigail, sometimes John. Maybe Jack. But Arthur had been the one constant, like a shadow at the edge of her fever-drenched dreams.

He hadn’t left.

What did that mean? What did it mean , after everything?

She’d felt him before—his hand brushing her brow. Felt his voice call her back from the dark, a tether when she was slipping too far. Had that been real? Or just a fever dream born of want?

Did he still love her?

She turned her head slowly back toward him, the motion making her stomach lurch. He looked like hell. Like he hadn’t slept properly in days. His hand in hers was still firm, even now. Like letting go wasn’t an option.

She swallowed thickly, but her throat was dry and raw. Every thought she tried to follow unraveled halfway through. The cold. The fight. The way he’d looked at her. Her fingers twitched weakly against his.

Goddamn fool, she thought. For coming after him. For not running when she had the chance. For caring so much it hurt.

But he was her goddamn fool.

And now she was here. Broken. Bandaged. Heavy with questions that made her ribs ache more than the bullet ever had.

She didn’t know what came next.

But before she could dig deeper, before her mind could wrap itself around the knot of emotion swelling inside her chest, the exhaustion clawed its way back in—dragging her down like an undertow.

Her eyes fluttered shut again.

And she let it take her.

Chapter 50: A Bit Closer to Whole

Chapter Text

The ache came first.
Not sharp, not even searing—just deep. Like her whole body had been hollowed out and packed tight with sand and bruises. Her lungs fought for breath under the weight of it, and her ribs tugged with every inhale. Her arms felt like stone. Her legs like they’d been doused in fire and left to smolder.

Jo blinked her eyes open with effort, lashes sticky. The ceiling above her swam in and out of focus, all wooden beams and soft shadows. She didn’t know this ceiling. Didn’t know this bed. Her chest stuttered, and for one brief, dizzy moment she wondered if she’d finally died—if this was what came after all that pain.

Then a voice cut through the haze.

“Hey.”

Rough. Familiar. 

Her gaze dragged sideways. Arthur Morgan sat slouched in a chair beside the bed, eyes shadowed by days of poor sleep, face carved with lines that looked deeper than before. His shirt hung loose over his frame, and his jaw was covered in days-old stubble. There was a tin cup in his hand—half-forgotten—resting on one knee.

“Hey…” Her throat cracked on the word. It felt like it scraped up from stone.

He leaned forward in an instant, setting the cup down and reaching for her, one hand hovering at her shoulder. “Easy,” he muttered. “Don’t go tryin’ to sit up all at once. You took a damn bullet to the gut, remember?”

She didn’t. Not exactly. It came in flashes—voices like bile, the sting of snow against her skin, Laramie’s scream fading into the trees. Her head pounded at the effort of thinking. Everything else felt too loud and too slow all at once.

She watched him shift, his mouth twitching as if to speak—but nothing came out. The lines on his face were deeper than she remembered. His eyes, though? Just the same. Blue like snowmelt, full of worry and something deeper he couldn’t name, let alone say out loud.

“How long?” Jo rasped after a while, voice barely above the crackle of the fire across the room. “I been out a while, huh?”

Arthur blinked and exhaled, rubbed at the back of his neck. “Few days,” he said hoarsely. “Closer to a week, maybe. You… weren’t doin’ too good for a while there.”

She nodded slowly, trying to make sense of the timeline through the haze in her mind. “Hurts,” she mumbled.

Still, she tried to move. Tried to push herself upright. Her muscles screamed in protest and her hands trembled with effort.

Arthur grunted and placed a hand square against her shoulder, pressing her back down—not unkindly, but with more steel than softness.

“Jo,” he warned, sharp now. “Don’t be stupid.”

Jo stared at him. “Yellin’ at me already. I must be back in the land of the livin’.”

His brows drew together, jaw tightening. “I ain’t yellin’. I’m…” He let out a long, quiet breath. “You scared the hell outta me, Jo.”

There was a beat of silence between them. Not awkward. Just… full.

“Christ. You was barely breathin’, and you think you’re gonna leap outta bed like nothin’ happened?” He shook his head, clearly pissed off but trying not to be. “You ain’t gonna heal by bleedin’ all over again.”

His voice was raw, gravel-edged. The scolding came from fear, and that hit her deeper than it should have. She tried to push herself up again, slower this time, and he moved to help without being asked, slipping an arm behind her back, careful not to jostle her wound.

The sting of frustration burned hot in her chest. She hated the weakness. Hated the way her body didn’t obey, the way she felt small . For a moment, she wanted to bite back, but her strength failed her halfway through the inhale.

She sank against the pillow once upright, every breath a throb in her ribs. “Thanks,” she muttered.

Arthur reached for the tin cup on the table and held it out to her. “Water. Try not to gulp it.”

She accepted it with a shaking hand—well, both of them, really. He didn’t let go until he was sure she had it steady. A few sips in, her throat stopped burning, but her chest didn’t.

“Arthur,” she said, voice small.

He looked up, the weight of his attention so full it made her breath catch.

“I didn’t… I didn’t mean for this,” she whispered.

He didn’t answer right away. Just stared at her, brows drawn low, eyes dark with something like grief. “Yeah,” he said finally, voice flat and low. “Well, I didn’t mean for you to get shot savin’ me from hangin’, either.”

Jo looked away.

A minute passed, maybe more. Arthur shifted again in his chair, like his skin didn’t fit quite right, like he couldn’t sit still now that she was awake.

She leaned her head back, closing her eyes. “Guess we’re even, huh?” she murmured. “I saved your life. You… stayed.”

He didn't answer, but she felt it when his hand took hers again. Warm and steady. Real.

That’s how Abigail found them. She knocked once, didn’t wait for a reply. “Arthur, I brought—” She stopped in the doorway, eyes going wide.

Jo opened her eyes again just in time to see Abigail’s face shift—from fatigue to disbelief, then relief.

“Jo?” Abigail breathed, stepping forward slowly, as if she couldn’t trust her eyes. “You’re awake!”

Jo offered a weak smile. “Not dead yet.”

Abigail crossed the room and put the tray down on the bedside table. “Thank Christ,” she muttered. “You scared the life outta us.”

Arthur stood slowly, pulling back but not letting go of Jo’s hand until the last second. “She just woke. Was askin’ about how long she’s been out.”

“I’ll let you two talk,” he added, voice rougher now. “I’m gonna step out for a bit. Get some air.”

Jo’s eyes flicked to him, trying not to let the panic rise again when he took a step back. But then he looked at her, held her gaze, and gave a little nod like a promise. “I’ll be right back.”

 


 

The room was dim, awash in the pale grey of daylight creeping through the curtains. It smelled faintly of antiseptic, leather, and woodsmoke. Jo lay half-reclined against a stack of pillows, every breath a quiet ache beneath her ribs, the bandages at her side tight and pulsing in rhythm with her heartbeat. Her limbs felt stiff and foreign, like they belonged to someone else. Everything hurt. Not sharply anymore, but deeply. Bone-deep.

She tried to shift—just to sit a little straighter—but the pain flared like a warning shot, and she hissed through her teeth.

“You try that again, and I’ll tie you to the bed,” came Abigail’s voice from the doorway. 

Jo turned her head, slowly, and there she was. Abigail Marston. Her hair tied back, sleeves rolled up, apron spotted faintly with flour and ash. She’d came back carrying a basin in one hand, clean cloths in the other. Her expression wasn’t angry, but it was far from soft. There was wariness there. Wariness, and something older—grief, maybe, or the sharp burn of betrayal.

Jo swallowed. Her throat was dry as dust. “You always threaten folks in recovery?”

Abigail arched an eyebrow as she crossed the room. “Only the ones dumb enough to move before doctor says so.”

She set the basin down on the small table by the bed, the water inside still steaming. For a moment, she didn’t speak—just looked at Jo. Really looked at her. Like she couldn’t quite believe she was real. Jo could feel the weight of it, that gaze, heavy and flickering with things left unsaid.

“You look like hell,” Abigail muttered.

Jo snorted softly, though even that tugged at her side. “You seen yourself lately?”

A beat. Then a crooked little smile twitched at the corner of Abigail’s mouth. “Still got that mouth, huh.”

She didn’t wait for permission—just moved with practiced hands to draw back the blanket and tug up Jo’s nightshirt enough to check the bandages. Her touch was careful, but her silence spoke volumes. Jo watched her work, not daring to speak at first. The quiet between them wasn’t comfortable, but it wasn’t hostile either. Just… strained.

“I didn’t know,” Abigail said finally, voice low and level as she peeled away the outer wrappings. “Not a damn word. All this time… I thought you was dead.”

Jo looked down, unable to hold her gaze. “I was, in a way.”

Abigail paused, her fingers hovering above the bloodied bandage. “John… knew?”

Jo’s jaw clenched. “Not at first. He found me, months ago. I asked him not to tell. Kept his promise, I guess. At least with you.”

Abigail made a sound—half-scoff, half-laugh—but it didn’t hold any real amusement. “Well. Ain’t that just like him.”

She went back to work, eyes flickering over the wound. The dressing was clean beneath, the angry red line of the stitches stark against Jo’s skin. It throbbed like a brand. Abigail didn’t comment, just began gently soaking the cloth in warm water.

“You mad?” Jo asked, trying to keep her tone light. “’Cause if you are, you got every right.”

Abigail didn’t answer at first. She dabbed at the wound, silent and methodical, her brows pinched in concentration. Then, quietly: “I ain’t mad you’s alive. I’m mad you didn’t let us know. You left all of us to grieve you. To bury you in our own way. Arthur…” Her voice faltered. “It was hard, Jo.”

Jo looked away, guilt rising like bile in her throat.

“Couldn’t,” she whispered. “Not after everything. I didn’t even know who I was no more. Still don’t.”

That earned her a sharp glance. “You’re Jo. The one who saved these men’s lives more times than I can count. The one who had Arthur wrapped around her finger without even trying. The one who could outshoot, outdrink, and outsmart half the damn gang.”

Jo gave a weak, watery laugh. “Yeah. Her.”

Abigail softened a little then—only a little—but it was something. Her fingers slowed their work. She tucked the fresh bandage in with care, smoothing the edges.

“You’re here now. That counts for something.”

Jo didn’t answer. Her gaze drifted toward the window, and through the soft curtain she caught a flicker of movement—broad shoulders, slouched forward, a hat tilted low. Arthur.

He was pacing again, smoke curling from the cigarette in his fingers. He looked like a man on the edge of something—exhaustion, maybe, or collapse. His free hand clenched and unclenched at his side, restless. She watched him turn, saw the line of his jaw flex as he exhaled, and something in her chest twisted.

“He stayed?” she asked softly.

Abigail followed her gaze. “Barely left your side. Only when we made him. But you probably already guessed as much.”

Jo’s throat closed. She gripped the blanket tighter, her knuckles pale.

“Thought I was gonna die out there,” she murmured. “When I got hit—I didn’t think I’d make it.”

Abigail looked at her again, her expression unreadable. “You didn’t. Arthur wouldn’t’ve let you.”

For a long moment, they sat in silence. The kind of silence that wrapped around old wounds and familiar ghosts. Then Abigail stood and quietly wrung out the cloth, her movements steady.

“I’ll bring you something warm to eat in a bit. You need strength.”

Jo nodded faintly, still staring out the window.

Abigail paused at the door, her voice softer now. “Rest, Jo. We can yell at each other later.”

And with that, she stepped out, closing the door behind her.

Arthur was still out there, pacing slow along the edge of the porch like a man trying to outwalk his thoughts. Every few steps, he stopped, dragged from his cigarette, stared out toward the tree line. The wind toyed with the hem of his coat and the brim of his hat. From this distance, he looked like the man she remembered and a stranger all at once—older somehow, heavier in the shoulders, weighed down in ways words couldn’t name.

Jo watched him through the wavering curtain of the glass, head tilted just enough to catch the way he kept glancing at the house. Like he was checking to make sure the walls were still standing. Like he was checking to make sure she still was, too.

Her chest ached, not from the wound this time, but from something deeper. Something that sat behind her ribs like a stone that refused to melt.

He stayed.

It shouldn't have surprised her—Arthur Morgan was stubborn and loyal to a fault. But still, five years was a long time to carry a ghost, and she’d made herself one on purpose. It was supposed to be easier that way. Cleaner. Safer. For him. For everyone.

So why did it hurt like hell to be seen again?

Her fingers drifted to the edge of her blanket, clutching it like it might anchor her in place. She tried to breathe steady, but every inhale pulled at the sutures, and every exhale made her dizzy. Her body wasn’t hers anymore. It was broken, stitched together with someone else’s hands. It had almost failed her completely— again.

She remembered the gallows. The sound of wood creaking beneath Arthur’s feet. The chaos of the gunfire. The moment she threw herself into the chaos, body moving before thought. And then… pain. Like fire cracking her open from the inside.

Her breath caught.

What if she hadn’t made it?

What if she’d bled out on the street, her last act a desperate attempt to keep him breathing?

Would that have been easier? Cleaner?

Her vision blurred—not from tears, not fully. Just the kind of raw, bone-tired sorrow that came after surviving something you didn’t expect to. 

Twice.

She blinked it away, fixing her eyes on the man outside who was still pacing, still smoking like he could burn off the guilt. He must've been tearing himself apart. In the way his shoulders hunched, the restless twitch in his jaw, the way he stopped sometimes and just stood there, like he didn’t know what to do with himself anymore.

She used to know how to soothe that kind of ache in him. Used to sit beside him in silence until the storm passed. Used to make him laugh when no one else could. That was before —before her lies, before the weight of who she used to be caught up to her, before she vanished and left him with nothing but questions and dirt to mourn.

But now?

Now he was here. Still pacing that porch like a tethered soul. Still staying .

She didn’t know what that meant yet. Not really. She wasn’t sure he did either.

But it cracked something open in her.

Because survival had been about running. About clawing her way through days she didn’t want to live, selling off pieces of herself for scraps of safety. She’d spent five years keeping people away — hiding the truth, hiding the scars, hiding her own name like it could undo the blood on her hands. And in doing so, she’d built a cage she couldn’t climb out of.

But now…

Arthur Morgan was outside her window, refusing to leave.

And for the first time in a long time, Jo wondered what it might feel like to stay.

To be held to something—someone—without needing to flinch.

She shifted slightly under the blankets, wincing at the sharp pull in her side. Her body was loud with pain, her mind louder with doubt. But beneath it all was the slow, quiet thrum of something she hadn’t dared to hope for.

She wasn’t safe. Not yet. Not entirely.

But maybe…

Maybe she could be.

Her gaze lingered on Arthur one last time before her strength gave out. Her body slumped a little heavier into the pillows, and her eyes slipped shut. Her hand curled around the edge of the blanket—not clutching this time, just holding.

Letting herself rest. Just for a little while.

 


 

Arthur Morgan stood on the porch with a cigarette burning low between his fingers, boots pacing slow over creaking boards that knew his weight too well.

The day had settled deep and cold around Beecher’s Hope. Frost silvered the grass. The air bit sharp when he breathed it in. But he welcomed it—welcomed the ache in his chest that had nothing to do with sorrow and everything to do with winter.

He needed to feel something clean.

He hadn’t slept, not really. Couldn’t. Not while Jo lay inside, pale and bruised, bandaged like a half-fallen soldier. Her blood had soaked the snow in Valentine—her blood, not his—and he hadn’t known if she was gonna pull through. Even now, her breath was shallow, her skin too clammy. She’d spoken, yeah. She’d looked at him—but she wasn’t out of the woods yet.

And still… still, that first hoarse little jab of hers had nearly knocked the wind out of him. That damn woman. Even half-dead, she still managed to scare the hell outta him and make him wanna laugh in the same breath.

He brought the cigarette to his lips and drew deep. The ember flared orange, then dimmed, same as his thoughts. Scattered things. Messy.

His hand trembled a little when he exhaled.

He’d done a good job keeping it together these last few days—if that’s what you called it. Watching over her while she slept like a man on trial. Snapping at John. Drinking just enough to keep the edges from cutting too deep. Sitting with her in the dark, listening to the goddamn clock tick. Every hour she held on, he told himself she’d live.

And now she had.

Now he could finally breathe. And it hurt.

He dragged his free hand over his jaw, the stubble coarse against his palm. His shoulders hunched. There was no one out here to see it—no one to witness the soft unraveling.

Because the truth was, he didn’t know what came next.

Did he still love her?

Hell, yeah. That wasn’t even a question. He’d never stopped. She was the only woman who ever really saw him—not just the outlaw, not the enforcer Dutch leaned on or the man with blood on his hands, but him. Just Arthur . She’d looked straight through the grit and mess and called him home.

Even after five years, that pull hadn’t gone away. If anything, it was stronger now. Like the time apart had burned away everything that didn’t matter and left only the ache.

He loved her.

That’s what he’d been planning to tell her at the broken tree. That no matter how many years passed, he wouldn’t forget her. Couldn’t. That part of his soul still answered to her name, no matter how far she'd run.

But…

He pinched the bridge of his nose, let the cigarette burn between his lips.

But what about her?

He’d seen it in her eyes when she woke. Something wounded. Something guarded. Like she wasn’t sure what world she’d woken up in. He could guess what hell she'd been through—the signs were there, written in her scars, in the way she moved, in the shadow that clung to her shoulders like an old coat. He didn’t need to know the full story to understand: she’d clawed her way back from something real bad.

Parts of her had changed. She’d been alone too long. He could feel it in her silences.

And that’s what scared him.

Was there still a place for him in her life? Could she trust him again—love him again?

Or had too much broken between them?

Arthur swallowed hard and rubbed the heel of his hand over his eyes.

He didn’t want to force anything on her. God, no. The last thing he’d do was press her into something she wasn’t ready for. Hell, she’d just woken up. She was hurting, healing, barely able to sit upright without wincing. This wasn’t about him .

He’d stay, though. However long she needed. Even if she never said the words. Even if they never got back what they lost. He wasn’t going anywhere this time.

That much he could promise her.

He leaned against the porch post and looked up at the stars—sharp little points of cold fire scattered over a deep blue sky. He’d ridden under them more times than he could count. They were the same stars that lit the way to the tree where he was supposed to see her again. The same stars he used to watch while wondering if she was even alive.

And now she was here. Inside. Breathing.

He breathed deep, then dropped the cigarette to the porch and crushed it out with the heel of his boot. Ran a hand over his mouth. Straightened his spine.

Time to go back in.

 


 

Two days later, Jo was managing to eat on her own again. Not much—her appetite hadn’t quite come back, but Abigail had made it real clear that food wasn’t optional. So she ate. Slowly. Carefully. Stomach churning with each bite, like her body hadn’t quite remembered how to handle nourishment after everything.

The pain was still there, settled low and deep in her side like a coiled fist. She moved carefully, spoke in low tones to spare her ribs, but at least she could sit up without going dizzy. The rest would take time.

She still couldn’t believe she was alive.

The memory of it—the rescue, the gunfire, Arthur shouting her name, came back in flashes. Fragments. Like looking through a broken window.

She remembered running. The gallows. The gunshot—that part she remembered too well . The heat of it, like lightning punched straight through her. She remembered the scream—her own—and then nothing but cold and black and the sound of horses.

Now, sunlight streamed through the bedroom window in long golden slats, catching on dust motes that drifted in the still air. She leaned against the headboard, breath slow and shallow, her plate half-finished on the nightstand beside her. Her bandages had been changed that morning — Abigail was merciless, but gentle — and Jo had managed not to curse the whole time. Barely.

John had stopped by. Briefly.

He’d stood at the door like he didn’t quite know where to look. Said her name once, then shook his head and muttered something about needing to check the fence. She didn’t take it personally. She knew the look in his eyes — the one people wore when they thought they were seeing a ghost.

Little Jack had come too, the day before. He’d crept in behind Abigail, eyes wide as saucers, clutching something in his small hands. He hadn’t said a word, just looked at her, then at Arthur, then back at her. And then he’d left the folded drawing on the table and darted out without another word.

Jo had opened it that night.

It was a picture of a stick-figure her, lying in bed with a big bandage and a smile. Arthur sat beside her, also smiling, with a big cowboy hat and what she guessed were supposed to be guns. Above them was a sun and a rainbow and the words, Feel better soon, Auntie Jo.

She’d cried quietly, just for a minute.

Arthur sat in the chair near her bed, long legs stretched out in front of him, his hat held in his lap. He hadn’t said much all morning, just the usual— Need anything? Want more water? Pain bad? —but mostly he just stayed near.

And something about that steadiness… it made her feel safe.

It also scared the hell out of her.

She cleared her throat. “I… I don’t remember much. Just flashes.” Her brows pulled.

He nodded once, jaw tight.

Jo shifted on the pillows, winced. “What happened?” she asked. “After Valentine… after the gallows. I remember most of the fight, then…”

Arthur’s eyes dropped to the hat in his lap. He turned it slowly in his hands, thumbs brushing over the brim. When he finally spoke, his voice was low.

“You collapsed in the street. Bullet got you clean through the side.” He shook his head, jaw clenching. “I ran to you. Damn near trampled half the town gettin’ to you. John helped me get you on the horse. We got you back here. Doc came fast as he could.”

He didn’t say how he’d screamed her name. Didn’t say how the blood had soaked through his shirt while he held her against him. Didn’t say how he hadn’t left her side since.

Jo watched him, quiet. The pain in her ribs felt far away suddenly, eclipsed by something deeper in her chest.

“How bad was it?” she asked softly.

Arthur didn’t look up. Just sat with the weight of the question. And then:

“Bad enough I didn’t think I’d see you open your damn eyes again.”

That was all. But it hit like a blow.

She stared at him, heart thudding.

“I was scared,” he added, almost an afterthought. “I ain't… been that scared in a long time.”

Jo swallowed. Her fingers picked at the blanket, nerves buzzing like bees. “I didn’t think I’d make it either,” she whispered.

Silence stretched between them. Not heavy — not cold — but still . Like the quiet in the woods after a storm.

She looked away. “I just kept moving. After everything. After I left. After—Micah. I couldn’t stop. I didn’t let myself stop. If I did, I think I would’ve fallen apart.”

Arthur listened, eyes steady.

“I was so angry. For a long time. It kept me going. Then it was just… survival. One day at a time. One night at a time.” She let out a long breath. “Now, bein’ still like this… it’s like my mind won’t shut up. Can’t stop thinking about it all.”

He nodded, like he understood. Because maybe he did.

She waited for him to ask. Where were you? Why didn’t you come back? What happened out there?

But he didn’t.

And that caught her off guard more than anything.

“You ain’t gonna ask?” she said.

He met her gaze. “If you wanna tell me, you will.”

Her lips parted slightly. “Ain’t you curious?”

“‘Course I am,” Arthur said, voice gruff. “But I ain’t gonna dig through wounds you ain’t ready to open. You came back. That’s what matters.”

She didn’t know what to say to that.

Something in her cracked a little — quiet and clean — like a tree splitting down the center under its own weight. She sank back into the pillows, not from pain, but from relief . And maybe fear. Because it meant he still saw her as herself . Not the broken thing she’d become.

She looked at him for a long time, trying to find the words. None came. 

But her hand reached across the bed.

Arthur took it.

No promises passed between them. No declarations.

Just the quiet breath of two people who had nearly lost each other for good.

Her fingers tightened slightly around his — not desperate, but searching — like she was holding onto something she hadn’t let herself believe in for a long while.

Then, finally, her voice broke through the quiet, “What if I ain’t ever ready to talk ’bout it?”

Her eyes were on their joined hands. Her voice was low, like it cost her something to ask.

Arthur didn’t speak right away.

He let the silence sit. Not because he didn’t have an answer, but because he understood the weight of her question.

The pain that clung to her, unseen. The kind that stayed locked behind ribs and teeth, years deep, sharp at the edges. He could see it in her posture, in the tremor behind her words, in the way her shoulders tensed even now, as if she were bracing for judgment.

He rubbed his thumb once over her knuckles. Calloused. Steady.

“Then you don’t talk about it.” His voice was gentle. Firm. “Not ‘til you want to. Maybe not ever. That’s up to you.”

She looked up, startled. “Just like that?”

Arthur’s brow furrowed slightly, his mouth tugging into the faintest of frowns. “Jo… I didn’t come all this way to drag the past outta you. I came ‘cause I heard you was alive. ‘Cause I couldn’t live with not knowin’. Not again.”

Her throat tightened. “You shouldn’t have come. You coulda been—”

“Caught?” he finished for her, gaze unwavering. “Yeah. I know. But I ain’t sorry for it.”

She blinked fast, looked away. Her hand was still in his.

“You ain’t the only one who feels guilty, y’know,” she said after a moment. Her voice was rasped, rough from pain and emotion both. “I left a lot behind. Lied to you. To all of you. And I never got to… make it right.”

Arthur’s voice was low, a little hoarse. “Ain’t about makin’ it right, Jo. Sometimes we just… survive. That’s all. That’s enough.”

She turned her head, studying him. “Is it?”

He looked back at her. “It is to me now.”

Her chest tightened. Something fragile trembled deep inside her — not fear, not pain — something older, something she thought she’d buried.

Hope.

She hated how much she wanted to believe him.

And so, her next question came quiet, unsure:

“And what if I ain’t who I used to be?”

Arthur’s jaw clenched. His eyes dropped for a moment, then rose again, locking on hers.

“Neither am I.”

It was simple. Honest. 

He leaned back slightly in the chair, the wood creaking beneath his weight. Let go of her hand only so he could rest his elbows on his knees, looking down at the floor between his boots. He looked like a man with the world on his back—but not crushed. Just tired.

“Five years, Jo,” he said quietly. “I thought you was dead. Every day since, I been carryin’ that. Knowin’ I drove you off. That it was my fault you disappeared. That you was gone and I never got the chance to say…” He trailed off, exhaling hard. “Hell. Doesn’t matter now.”

“It matters,” she said, gently. “It does.”

Arthur lifted his eyes again. Met hers.

“Was gonna tell you… at that tree. Before I got caught. I was gonna say I never forgot you. That I never could.”

She inhaled slowly.

“Was gonna say I’d never stopped lovin’ you.”

Her breath caught in her throat.

“I couldn’t say it,” he added, almost a whisper. “And I ain’t askin’ for nothin’ now. But I needed you to know.”

Jo didn’t answer right away. Her eyes burned. Her chest ached.

Part of her wanted to cry. Part of her wanted to run.

And part of her… part of her just wanted to stay .

Stay here. In this moment. In this fragile, flickering warmth between them.

She looked at him again, and for once, there was no armor between them. No lies. No masks. Just them.

“I don’t know if I can love like I used to,” she whispered. “I don’t know if I can… open up like that again.”

Arthur gave the faintest nod. His voice was like gravel and honey. “Then don’t. Not yet. Or ever. Ain’t no rules to this.”

She let out a breath that sounded almost like a laugh. Shaky. Soft.

Then, in the dimming afternoon light, she said:

“But I’m glad you stayed.”

Arthur looked down. A smile tugged at the corner of his mouth. Small. Honest.

“Me too.”

 


 

The days passed in a quiet, uneven rhythm.

Two, maybe three—Jo lost count. Sleep still came in strange fits, heavy and relentless, and time blurred somewhere between the ache in her ribs and the slow healing of everything she didn’t quite know how to name. She could sit up on her own now, though not without effort. Eating was still a chore, and her appetite remained stubbornly absent, but she managed what she could.

Arthur’s visits grew fewer. Less frequent. Shorter, too.

She told herself he was busy around the ranch. Told herself he had chores to do, things to tend to, horses to break and fences to mend. She knew the place didn’t run itself — not with winter creeping in around the edges. And yet… she couldn’t help but wonder if it had more to do with what they’d said . Or maybe with what they hadn’t.

John came by more often now. Never stayed long — he never had — but he’d lean in the doorway, arms crossed, and ask how she was doing with that same wary softness she remembered from the old days. He didn’t push. Didn’t bring up the past. Just looked at her like he was still trying to piece together how she’d come back from the dead. She didn’t blame him. Sometimes she wondered the same thing.

Abigail stayed longer than either of them. Brought her soup, or clean linens, or sometimes nothing at all — just her presence. Just someone who didn’t need Jo to talk or explain, who only sat beside her and hummed under her breath while folding the blanket back over Jo’s legs. Sometimes they spoke. Sometimes they didn’t. And both were fine.

The rest of Jo’s time passed in silence. Resting. Healing. Thinking.

Too much thinking, maybe.

There were moments the stillness became unbearable — when the ticking of the clock and the creaking of the walls made her feel like she might crawl out of her own skin. Her thoughts wandered where she didn’t want them to: back to the street in Valentine, the shouting, the gunfire, the smell of smoke. Back to blood on her shirt and the cold weight of Arthur’s hands trying to hold her together.

But more often, they wandered to him.

To how he’d looked at her in that quiet moment days ago — the rasp in his voice when he said he’d never stopped loving her. The way he didn’t push for anything more. He just sat with her in the dark, and let her be . It should’ve made things easier. It didn’t.

Because now she didn’t know what came next.

Was it distance, or patience? Hesitation, or grace? Was he giving her space… or pulling away ?

She didn’t know.

And that, more than anything, left her restless.

 


 

The room was hushed in late afternoon light, shadows stretched long across the floorboards. The air smelled faintly of pine and hearth smoke, and for the first time in days, Jo wasn’t confined to the bed.

She’d pushed herself upright that morning without Abigail’s help, teeth gritted and breath hissing through clenched teeth as her ribs protested. Her body still felt foreign—a patchwork of bruises and pain and exhaustion—but the fire in her chest was steady now. Determined. She would not be useless forever.

She waited until the ache dulled to a simmer. Until she could plant her feet on the floor. She braced a hand on the nightstand and stood slowly, breath caught in her throat. The world tilted a little, swayed like she was on the deck of a ship, but she didn’t fall.

And that alone felt like a victory.

She took one step. Then another. Her legs trembled with the effort, muscles tight and unsteady. But she kept going—across the room, just a few paces. To the table where Jack’s drawing still sat, curling at the corners. A crooked cabin in crayon, a horse with too many legs. 

Her fingers brushed over it, and something twisted behind her ribs.

“Easy, now.”

The voice was low. Familiar.

Arthur.

He was leaning against the doorway, arms crossed, hat in his hands. She hadn’t even heard him come in. For a moment, he just looked at her. No startled gasp. No scramble to help. Just that quiet steadiness she remembered. His eyes moved from her trembling hands to her legs to the strain in her shoulders—and something soft flickered behind the usual grit and storm in his expression.

A glimmer of quiet pride.

“Not bad for someone who damn near bled out in the street,” he said, voice rough.

Jo huffed, breath shaky. “Feels like someone hit me with a train.”

He took a slow step forward, stopped short of touching her. Hovering. Present, but careful. As if one wrong move might spook her. She didn’t know whether to laugh or cry at that. The distance he gave her was gentle, not cold. But it still hurt.

Still, she managed a half-smile. “You ain’t gonna catch me, are you?”

“Not unless you ask real nice,” he muttered, and when she met his eyes, there was the smallest tug at the corner of his mouth.

She swayed, knees giving just slightly. Arthur moved like lightning then—hands out, catching her before she could go down. He didn’t lift her, didn’t coddle. Just steadied her. Held her elbow and kept her upright.

Her heart thundered.

“I’m fine,” she whispered.

“I know,” he said. But he didn’t let go right away.

They stood like that—barely a breath between them, his hand on her elbow, hers clenched just above Jack’s drawing—as if moving might shatter whatever fragile truce had settled between them.

His fingers were warm. Callused. A little rough, a little too careful, like he didn’t trust himself not to hold too tight.

Jo tilted her head, eyes flicking up to his. “Y’know,” she murmured, her voice hoarse but edged with dry amusement, “you hover worse than a mother hen.”

Arthur blinked, half-startled. Then snorted. “Ain’t like I enjoy it. You’re the one who thinks bleeding out in the street’s a fine way to spend a Tuesday.”

“Well, I had plans, but then someone went and got himself strung up.”

“That ain’t—” He shook his head, a slow, disbelieving smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. “Damn woman. You got shot.”

“You got sentenced to hang,” she fired back, tilting a brow. “If anyone’s keepin’ score, I think I still win.”

Arthur let out a low huff of a laugh. It was short, but it was real. A flicker of the man she remembered—the weight of grief pulled back just for a second.

Jo watched him with a tired sort of fondness, that ghost of a grin still clinging to her lips. “You’re gettin’ soft in your old age,” she said.

Arthur scoffed. “Ain’t that old.”

“You creak like a floorboard when you sit down.”

“You wheeze like a mule just walkin’ across the room.”

“Oh, so now you’re bold enough to insult the half-dead woman standin’ right in front of you.”

“Hell, you call that standin’?” he shot back, and something in his voice—wry, gruff, warm—made her laugh. A real laugh. It hurt, but it was worth it.

She had to lean against the table after that, breath hitching. Her legs weren’t ready for a full battle of wit. Arthur steadied her again, this time with a small shake of his head and a murmur under his breath— “stubborn damn woman.”

“I missed this,” she said, suddenly quiet.

Arthur looked at her then. Really looked at her.

“So did I.”

For a moment, the silence between them wasn’t heavy or strained. It was just… full. Like neither of them knew how to take the next step, or if they were even allowed to want it. The laughter faded, and Jo looked down, studying the lines of his hand where it still rested lightly on her arm.

“You stopped visitin’,” she said, softer now. “After the second day.”

He shifted. “Didn’t think you wanted me around.”

“I didn’t want to be a burden,” she said. “Didn’t want you to look at me like I wasn’t capable of anything.”

Arthur looked like he’d been slapped. He stepped back—just enough to give her space, but not so far she couldn’t feel him there.

“You ain’t a burden,” he said. “Not to me.”

She nodded, and then—without warning—her legs trembled again. He caught her instinctively, arms steadying her as she sagged against him with a breathless little grunt.

“You done showin’ off?” he asked, his chin just above her temple.

She smiled against his shirt. “Maybe.”

“You ever scare me like that again, I swear to God…”

“You’ll what?” she challenged, eyes gleaming.

Arthur looked down at her, then exhaled slow and deep through his nose. “I’ll—I'll make you eat proper. Every day. No whiskey. No sass. Just vegetables.”

Jo’s face scrunched. “That’s evil.”

“You earned it.”

 


 

The bathwater steamed in the copper tub, warmed from the stove and carefully poured by Abigail, who’d made sure the door was locked and the towels were close. The windows were fogged with heat. Jo sat gingerly on a wooden stool beside the tub, her shift tugged halfway down her arms, skin pale and still faintly bruised around the ribs.

She was leaner than Abigail remembered. Not just thinner—but worn. Like someone carved down to the bone, scraped hollow by time and things left unsaid.

"You sure you're up for this?" Abigail asked, rolling her sleeves to the elbows as she wrung out a cloth.

Jo arched a brow. "Unless you want me smellin’ like death ‘til spring, yeah. ‘Sides, I can stand fine."

“You hobbled across the room like a wounded possum.”

"A possum with style, " Jo muttered under her breath, but the corner of her mouth tugged upward.

She leaned her weight to one side as Abigail helped her lower gently into the warm tub, fingers braced on the rim, legs trembling with the effort but not failing her. The copper basin wasn’t deep, just enough to sit in without risk of fainting, but it felt like heaven after days spent flat on her back.

Abigail snorted and stepped behind her, carefully gathering Jo’s tangle of blonde hair in one hand. “Still got a mouth on you.”

"And you still hover like you’re about to scold Jack for stealin’ a biscuit.”

“That boy did steal a biscuit,” Abigail said, lifting the basin to wet Jo’s hair. “And don’t change the subject.”

Jo closed her eyes as warm water sluiced over her scalp. She let her arms rest in her lap, breath steadying with each pass of Abigail’s hands. There was something grounding about it—the slow, gentle drag of fingers through her hair, the familiar comfort of another woman’s presence, unspoken but sure.

"You ever think 'bout how weird this is?" Jo said after a moment. "You bathin’ me like I’m some fragile thing. Last time this happened, I’d just been kicked by a mule."

"You were kicked by a mule,” Abigail said. “You called him ‘Arthur’ for two days straight.”

Jo cracked one eye open, then laughed—a low rasp still healing. “Yeah, sounds ‘bout right.”

They fell into silence for a while. The only sounds were water being poured, the quiet splash of the cloth, the low whistle of wind outside the window.

Then, without looking up, Abigail said, “He ain’t been sleepin’ right.”

Jo stiffened, but only slightly.

“Saw him out on the porch the other night,” Abigail continued, matter-of-fact. “Smokin’, starin’ out into nothin’. You know that look.”

Jo nodded faintly. She did. She’d seen it too—through the window, through half-lidded eyes. That haunted, restless pacing.

“You told me once,” Abigail said, beginning to rub soap through Jo’s scalp, “that if Arthur Morgan ever said he loved you, the world’d probably end.”

“I was drunk.”

“You were giddy.

Jo snorted again.

Abigail leaned forward just slightly, voice quieter now. “I remember how you used to look at him. Like he was the only man on this earth who ever made you feel safe.”

Jo’s mouth twisted. “Maybe I was just stupid.”

“No,” Abigail said. “You was just in love.”

There it was. Plain. Unflinching.

Jo didn’t answer right away. She swallowed hard, staring at the edge of the tub.

“Things ain’t the same no more,” she said finally. “I ain’t the same.”

“You think he is?”

That gave Jo pause.

Abigail rinsed her hair again, slow and careful. “I seen the way he looks at you now, even when you’re pretendin’ not to notice. Same damn look from five years ago. Only this time, it’s heavier. Like he’s scared to break what’s already broken.”

Jo closed her eyes. Her voice was soft. “Maybe he should be.”

Abigail moved around to crouch in front of her, towel in hand, pressing it gently to Jo’s wet curls.

“You ever think maybe he already forgave you?” she said. “And now he’s just waitin’ to see if you’ll let yourself be loved again?”

Jo blinked. Her lips parted, but no words came.

Abigail offered her a crooked little smirk. “Don’t get all weepy now. I didn’t do all this scrubbin’ just to have you cry into the soap.”

Jo huffed a breath and leaned back slightly. “You’re a pain in the ass.”

“Yeah, well, I missed bein’ your pain in the ass.”

A smile bloomed slowly, soft and aching, across Jo’s face. “You’re still too nosy.”

“And you still need someone to knock some sense into you when you get all dramatic.”

Jo rolled her eyes. “If I throw this sponge at you, think you’ll take it personally?”

Abigail grinned. “Only if you miss.”

They stayed like that for a long minute—just two women, two friends, maybe something closer than sisters, sitting in the steam and the silence, holding onto something that had managed to survive all these years.

Outside, the wind had picked up, whistling faintly under the eaves. But inside the walls of that little house, for the first time in what felt like forever, Jo didn’t feel like she was just surviving.

She felt like she was home.

Her hair, now clean and a few shades brighter without all the dust and grime dulling it, was bundled in a towel on top of her head. Abigail chuckled at the sight.

“You look like one of them fancy ladies from the catalogs,” she said, handing Jo a clean cloth.

Jo grunted as she slowly brought it to her shoulder. “Yeah? Bet they ain’t got bullet holes in their side.”

“Just corsets that feel like they do.”

Jo huffed a laugh, too tired to argue. She scrubbed gently at her collarbone, each pass of the cloth a reminder of how weak her limbs still were. Her ribs throbbed under the motion, and after a minute her hand dropped, trembling, into the water.

Abigail stepped forward again, kneeling beside the tub. “Alright, I got it.”

“I can do it—”

“You could ,” Abigail said, dipping another cloth into the water, “but we’ll be here ‘til Christmas at that pace.”

Jo made a face but didn’t argue. She let Abigail carefully work the cloth over her back, down one arm, her movements precise and practiced. It wasn’t the first time she’d helped someone like this. There was no awkwardness in her hands—only care, tempered by a sharp eye.

“You know,” Jo murmured, eyes slipping closed, “I didn’t think I’d get to see you again. Not like this.”

“I was mad at you,” Abigail said simply. “Still am. Little bit.”

Jo cracked one eye open.

Abigail kept scrubbing, not looking at her. “We was close. You knew everything about me. I didn’t know a damn thing about you.”

Jo didn’t reply right away. She let the words sit in the water between them, bitter and true.

“I wanted to tell you,” she said finally. “So many times. But it felt like—if I said it out loud, it’d make it real again.”

Abigail stilled for a moment, the cloth hovering just above Jo’s shoulder.

“You think we’d’ve turned our backs on you?”

“Yes…No–” Jo’s voice was barely a whisper. “I think I was scared you wouldn’t look at me the same.”

Abigail sighed, sat back on her heels, and gave Jo a dry look. “Well, joke’s on you. I still see the same stubborn, sharp-tongued hellcat who once rode bareback into a saloon to punch a man for insulting me.”

Jo’s lips twitched. “It was a damn fine hat.”

 


 

The nightmare came without warning.

A broken scream ripped from Jo’s throat, jagged and strangled. Her legs kicked against the tangled blanket, fists clenched, chest rising and falling in shallow, panicked gasps.

The door burst open.

Arthur was on her in seconds, boots thudding across the floor, gun drawn by instinct before he realized what was happening. “Jo!” he called, low but firm.

She flinched hard when he touched her shoulder, eyes wide, unfocused—somewhere far from the quiet bedroom. Somewhere darker.

“Hey—hey, it’s alright. It’s just me.”

His voice cut through the fog. She gasped sharply and sat up, chest heaving, hands trembling as they clutched the sheets. Her eyes locked on his, still caught in the nightmare’s wake, and suddenly her fingers latched around his wrist. Tight. Desperate.

“I got you,” Arthur said, not pulling away. “You’re alright.”

She didn’t speak for a long moment. Her breathing slowed, just a little. The pressure of her fingers didn’t.

Arthur lowered himself to sit on the edge of the bed. The room was still dark, the lantern left unlit, but the moonlight was enough. Enough to see the sweat on her brow, the haunted look in her eyes.

He stayed close without crowding her, the way he always had. The way she remembered.

“Wanna talk about it?” he asked gently.

Jo shook her head. “No. Not the dream.”

He nodded once, jaw working quietly as he gave her the space.

But she didn’t let go of his wrist.

“Why’d you stay?” she asked, voice still husky with sleep. “While I was out… why didn’t you go?”

Arthur hesitated. His gaze dropped to where her hand was wrapped around his arm.

“Didn’t wanna leave you to bleed out in that bed,” he said, tone guarded.

Jo exhaled a laugh that wasn’t really a laugh at all. “Try again.”

He sighed. “You always did call me on my bullshit.”

Jo didn’t answer. She waited.

Arthur shifted, resting his free hand on the bed beside her hip, eyes fixed on the sheets. When he spoke again, his voice was low. Unsteady.

“Because I didn’t know what I’d do if you didn’t make it.”

The words hung in the dark like smoke. Jo felt them settle into her chest, heavy and warm.

Her hand moved, just slightly—up from his wrist to his forearm. A silent reply. A thank you. Or maybe something more. She didn’t even know herself.

Arthur looked up at her, and for a second—just a second—something shifted between them. Like time stopped. Like the five years hadn’t stolen anything at all.

She reached up, slow and unsure, and brushed her fingers against his cheek. The stubble was rough beneath her hand, but the way he leaned into the touch—just faintly—broke something open in her chest.

Arthur covered her hand with his own, gently. His thumb brushed along the back of her fingers. He looked at her like he wanted to say more. Like he almost could.

But he didn’t.

Jo’s fingers shifted, brushing down the line of his jaw. His stubble rasped against her skin—familiar, grounding. Her gaze fell to his mouth. And for a second, she didn’t think.

She just leaned in .

Just a breath between them now. Her lips parted. Her heart thudded.

Arthur’s hand caught her cheek.

“Jo,” he murmured, voice thick, “don’t.”

Not harsh. Not distant. Soft . Almost apologetic.

She froze, eyes flicking up to his.

“I want to,” he said, thumb resting near the corner of her mouth. “God help me, I want to. But not tonight. Not like this.”

Jo blinked. Shame tried to creep in, but it didn’t quite make it. Not when he was still touching her. Not when his voice cracked on the words.

She nodded slowly, breath shaky. “Okay.”

Arthur pulled back, but not far. He brushed a few strands of hair from her temple, his fingers lingering longer than they should have.

“You should rest,” he said again, quieter this time.

Jo didn’t argue.

Arthur stood and gently tugged the blanket higher, careful not to disturb her wound. She felt the ghost of his touch long after he let go.

“You gonna stay?” she asked, almost a whisper.

He paused at the chair. “Yeah,” he said. “I’ll stay.”

Jo shifted slightly, her body sinking deeper into the mattress. Sleep tugged at her again—not because she was exhausted, but because for the first time in weeks… she felt safe .

Arthur settled into the old chair beside her bed, the one he’d refused to leave while she was unconscious. Jo watched him lean back, arms crossed, head tilted toward her like a guard at his post.

And for the first time in weeks, she slept without dreaming.

 


 

The sun was starting its slow descent, slanting gold across the porch and bathing everything in that soft, forgiving light that only came near the end of the day. The breeze was cool but kind, brushing past the trees like it had nowhere else to be.

Jo sat bundled in a blanket, shoulders hunched but eyes open wide. A little pale still. A little too thin. But upright. Awake. Breathing.

Alive.

The rocker creaked beneath her every so often, slow and steady. She didn’t move much—still didn’t have the strength—but just being there, on that porch, watching the land stretch out around the ranch, felt like a small sort of victory.

The door creaked behind her.

She didn’t look up. She didn’t have to.

Arthur stepped out with a quiet grunt, a mug in each hand. He handed her one wordlessly, and she glanced at it like it had personally offended her.

“Tea?” she asked, wrinkling her nose.

“Abigail said no coffee,” Arthur muttered, settling beside her on the steps.

“Abigail’s a sadist.”

“You already said that.”

“Thinkin’ it again.”

Arthur gave a dry, low chuckle that barely passed for a laugh. Jo lifted the mug and gave the tea a suspicious sniff before taking a sip. It wasn’t good, but it was warm, and that counted for something.

They sat in silence for a while.

The porch boards creaked now and then. A few birds called from the trees. Somewhere off in the distance, the wind stirred the grass and made it hiss like it was telling secrets.

Jo watched it all with a tired, reverent sort of quiet. As if the world was too big to hold, too soft to believe.

After a long moment, she said, “Didn’t think I’d ever see this place.”

Arthur didn’t say anything. He didn’t have to.

Because when he looked at her—shoulders wrapped in wool, hair a little brighter now under the sun, color returning bit by bit to her cheeks—he felt something crack open in his chest.

He hadn’t dared to hope. Not really.

But here she was.

The silence stretched between them, comfortable now. The kind that didn’t demand anything. The kind that said we made it this far. Let’s just sit here a while.

And so they did.

The wind moved through the trees again, carrying with it the sound of life going on.

And for once, neither of them ran from it.

Chapter 51: One Step at a Time

Chapter Text

Three weeks had passed since the night Jo woke screaming, soaked in sweat, her voice hoarse from a name she didn’t remember calling. Since Arthur had burst into the room, steadied her with a hand on her shoulder, and stayed until the storm passed. Since she’d asked why he stayed, and he told her the truth—or enough of it.

The days that followed came slow. They didn’t march forward so much as drift—quiet, fragile, like the last snow clinging to the eaves. She found herself suspended in that space between healing and remembering. Her body ached in new ways each morning, the kind of soreness that came not from a single wound but from surviving something she couldn’t yet name aloud. Still, there was progress. Measured in sips of broth finished without nausea. In the steadying of her hand as she buttoned her own shirt. In the shuffle of her feet as she crossed the room—slow and clumsy, but hers.

Sleep remained a fickle, vengeful thing. Some nights, she drifted off in peace, lulled by the soft hush of wind against the windows. Others, she woke gasping, heart jackhammering, unable to tell if she was still fighting or simply remembering the fight. And always, after those nights, she’d find some trace of Arthur nearby the next morning—a blanket tucked higher, the fire stoked anew, a glass of water waiting. He rarely said anything about it. Just gave her a nod, gruff and unreadable, and went about his chores.

Arthur had pulled back. She felt it like a thread gone slack. He wasn’t absent—he never really left—but he kept a distance, subtle and careful. She didn’t know if it was because of the almost-kiss, the one he stopped before it could happen, or if he simply didn’t know how close to stand anymore. And truth be told, she didn’t either. Something had shifted between them. Not broken, not exactly—but bent. Waiting to be mended, if it could be. If either of them dared to try.

Abigail had filled some of that space. She came often now, with quiet hands and firm words. Helped Jo bathe, comb her hair, made sure she ate enough to keep going. She never pushed, but her presence was steady and warm, like a firebanked slow. They’d fallen back into a rhythm Jo hadn’t realized she’d missed—sass, gossip, even laughter. Not every day. But enough.

John stopped by, usually with excuses. A busted fence post. A question about supplies. Something to check in on. But Jo saw the worry in his eyes. The guilt. He never said it aloud, but she knew. Knew he’d kept her secret, and carried the weight of it. Still, his visits grounded her—another anchor in the storm she was still crawling out of.

And Jack… Jack was the light. The boy had grown taller, his face thinning into something that looked more like John each day, but the soul in him was gentler. Sweeter. He brought her drawings, mostly of horses and trees and little men in hats with rifles—boys will be boys—and sat beside her sometimes, asking the kinds of questions kids ask when they don’t know how to say they missed you.

Outside, the world shifted inch by inch. Winter loosened its grip. The snow began to melt in patches, revealing mud and half-crushed grass underneath. The trees remained bare, but the air smelled different now—like earth instead of ice. Like something was waiting to bloom, if given the chance.

So was she.

 


 

The sun was out for once, sharp and gold in a sky the color of washed-out denim. The wind had softened to a breeze, and the stubborn patches of snow around the ranch shimmered in the light like glass, slowly giving way to thawing ground beneath. It wasn’t warm exactly, but it wasn’t cruel either. One of those days that felt like a promise—spring leaning just close enough to whisper that it hadn’t forgotten them.

Jo stood at the threshold of the porch, hand gripping the doorframe, breath tight. The cold bit at her cheeks and ears, but the light on her skin felt like balm. She hadn’t been outside in weeks. Not truly. Just stolen minutes on the porch, bundled in a blanket with a cup of tea she never finished. This… this was different.

“C’mon,” Jack said beside her, nearly bouncing in place. “You said you wanted to see your horse.”

“I did,” Jo murmured, adjusting her weight. “Don’t mean it’s a good idea.”

Jack’s grin widened. “You made it all the way down the hallway this mornin’. And Ma said you’re stronger than you look.”

Jo side-eyed him, her lips twitching. “That so?”

“Yup. Said you were a stubborn thing. Like a mule in a gunfight.”

She barked out a laugh despite herself, then winced at the ache it stirred in her side. “I swear, that woman’s mouth could strip paint.”

Jack offered her his arm like a little gentleman—too small to be much help, but proud of the gesture, puffed up with purpose. She hesitated, looking down at him, then looped her hand gently around his elbow.

“All right, then,” she said. “But if I fall and crush you, I ain’t takin’ the blame.”

They made it down the porch steps slow, one careful foot at a time. The cold made the wood slick, and her body still moved like it didn’t fully trust itself, but she was steadier than she’d been even a few days ago. Her gait was awkward, uneven, but it was hers.

Jack led her across the hard-packed earth of the yard, pointing out every little thing as they went—hoofprints in the mud, a hawk wheeling far off in the sky, a cracked fence post he said he helped Pa fix just last week. She nodded, listening, grateful for the distraction. Every step still felt like it cost her something, but she kept going.

When they reached the corral, Laramie lifted her head, ears twitching. The black Arabian mare stood regal against the backdrop of a warming field, her coat gleaming like ink under the sunlight. She snorted softly, recognizing her.

“There she is,” Jo whispered.

Laramie approached slowly, cautious but calm. Jack let go of Jo’s arm as she gripped the fence rail for support, watching with something close to reverence as the mare nudged Jo’s shoulder with her soft muzzle.

“Hey, girl,” Jo murmured, lifting a trembling hand to stroke her horse’s cheek. “I missed you.”

Laramie whickered and leaned in, brushing against her gently like she understood every word.

Jo swallowed hard. Her throat ached, her legs burned, but the warmth in her chest pushed through it all. She stood there for a long time, fingers tangled in Laramie’s forelock, forehead resting lightly against the mare’s.

Arthur hadn't meant to linger.

He’d stepped out onto the porch with a cup of coffee cooling in his hands. The wind had gentled for once, brushing past like a living thing instead of a threat, and the sun had edged out through thinning clouds, touching the dirt with something warmer than he'd felt in weeks. It smelled like wet earth, thawing wood, and the faintest trace of early growth. The cusp of spring. The in-between.

And then he’d seen them—Jo and Jack.

They were already halfway across the yard, Jack striding proud beside her like he was escorting royalty. She leaned on him a little, just enough to make Arthur’s chest tighten. Every movement cost her—he could see that in the way her jaw tensed, the way her shoulder twitched now and again like it hurt to keep upright. But she was walking. On her own two damn feet. Out in the open air.

Arthur stilled, one hand braced on the porch rail, the other curled around the cup of cooling coffee he’d forgotten about entirely. His breath caught in his throat and stayed there, quiet and raw.

He didn’t call out to her. Didn’t want to break whatever spell had coaxed her out the door.

Jack was talking, fast and cheerful, and she was smiling—really smiling, not the pale thing she’d worn around the house, not the tired ghost of old jokes. This one reached her eyes. Cracked something open in Arthur’s chest.

He watched her shuffle slowly across the hard ground, watched how she paused at the fence, gripping the rail like it was the only thing holding her upright. She was trembling by the time she made it, and Arthur could see it even from here—the sharp edges of pain she tried to hide, the determined line of her mouth. She didn’t want anyone to help her. She didn’t want to be seen as weak. God, he knew that look.

And Jack—little man that he was—stood beside her like a sentry. His hand wrapped around hers. Steady. Steadfast.

That was what did it.

Arthur’s throat went tight.

He looked at Jo again—really looked at her. How she bent toward Laramie, whispering things only a woman and a horse would understand. How her body might be broken, but her spirit wasn’t. Not even close. She hadn’t let the world take that from her.

He turned his coffee cup in his hand, something shifting under his ribs. She shouldn’t have to lean on a kid. Not when there were better things to lean on. Not when she’d come this far.

His eyes fell to the porch rail under his hand. The smooth wood. The whorls of age and knots. The way his thumb rubbed unconsciously over the grain. His mind jumped tracks.

He’d carved things for people before. He’d shaped things with his hands when his words weren’t enough.

And right then, he knew. He would make her something. Not just out of kindness, but out of quiet reverence. A gesture. A companion she could rely on, one she wouldn’t feel ashamed to use.

He took a breath. It hitched in his chest like a heartbeat missed.

He watched her a moment longer—her hand in Laramie’s mane, the wind tugging at her now-clean hair, the way she turned her face toward the sun with her eyes half-closed like she could drink the warmth from the sky itself.

And for the first time in a long time, Arthur felt… not hope, exactly. But something close. Like a lantern flickering to life in a dark room.

He would carve it by hand. Every inch.

And he wouldn’t tell her about it, not until it was ready. Not until he could place it in her hand and watch her use it not because she needed to—but because she deserved something made with care.

Arthur stayed there long after she and Jack made it back to the house, long after the wind picked up again and sent the trees into a slow, creaking dance. He hadn’t moved—just stood there, watching the fence she’d leaned on, the path she’d walked, as if her shadow still lingered in the air.

Behind him, the door creaked open.

Then John’s voice, low and unhurried. “You plan on freezin’ to death out here or just thinkin’ real hard about it?”

Arthur snorted softly, but didn’t look away. “Neither.”

John stepped up beside him, mug in hand. Coffee, by the smell. Strong and scalding, same as always. He leaned a shoulder to the post, followed Arthur’s line of sight out to the yard.

“She made it farther today,” John said after a moment.

“Yeah,” Arthur murmured. His voice caught somewhere in his throat.

They stood there in silence for a bit. Not an awkward one. Just the kind that settled between men who didn’t need to fill the air.

John took a sip from his mug. “Jack was proud as a damn rooster. Came runnin’ in sayin’ he was her official walker now. Said if she needed help gettin’ anywhere, he’d take her.”

Arthur’s mouth twitched. “Sounds ‘bout right.”

“Hell, if you ask him, she’s a damn queen. Says she talks to that horse like it’s magic.”

Arthur smiled faintly, eyes softening as he stared out toward the empty corral. “Maybe it is. She sure is.”

John cast him a sidelong look, quiet now. He didn’t say anything right away. Just watched Arthur’s jaw work, the flicker of something vulnerable there beneath all the grit.

“She’s tougher than she looks,” John finally said. “Even with half her ribs busted and a damn hole in her side.”

Arthur didn’t answer.

John looked down into his mug. Blew on it. “You ever gonna tell her?”

Arthur’s brow furrowed. “Tell her what?”

“You know what.”

Arthur shifted, jaw tightening.

“I ain’t tryin’ to poke the bear,” John added quickly. “I just… I see the way you look at her. The way you don’t say nothin’ when she’s in the room. Like you’re starin’ at some old wound that won’t close.”

Arthur leaned forward, elbows on the porch rail, coffee forgotten on the step.

“She almost kissed me,” he said after a long pause. “Other night. After that nightmare. I stopped her.”

John raised a brow but didn’t interrupt.

“I didn’t want it to be…” Arthur shook his head. “Not like that. Not ‘cause she was scared or confused. Not while she’s still hurtin’. She deserves more than some ghost of what we used to be.”

John let that hang in the air. “She know that’s why you pulled back?”

Arthur gave a humorless little laugh. “Doubt it. Probably thinks I don’t want her no more.”

“You do.”

Arthur didn’t answer, but the silence said enough.

John took another sip, then glanced down at Arthur’s hands—callused, steady, always building or fixing something when words failed.

Arthur followed his gaze. “Thinkin’ on doing somethin’ for her. Like a cane or somethin’.”

“Figured.” John nodded once. “That’d mean a lot to her.”

“Ain’t doin’ it for points.”

“Didn’t say you was.” John’s voice was low. “Just think it’s a hell of a thing.”

Arthur stared down at his fingers, flexed them once. “Yeah. Maybe.”

They stood like that for a while—just the wind, the porch creaking beneath their boots, and the distant sound of Jack laughing from inside.

Arthur finally sighed and said, almost to himself, “I just wanna give her somethin’ solid to lean on. Somethin’ that don’t give way.”

John nodded. “Reckon that’s the best kinda love there is.”

 


 

The house had gone quiet again.

Jack had long since scampered off, boots thumping like a heartbeat across the floorboards before fading into some other room, already on to the next big adventure. Abigail hummed somewhere distant, maybe in the kitchen, maybe outside hanging linens in the late light. Spring was still only a promise on the horizon, but days like this—bright, almost warm—tricked the senses into believing it had already arrived.

Jo sat in the small armchair near the front window, blanket draped over her lap, her legs propped on a worn ottoman. She’d pushed herself harder than usual that morning—walked all the way to the corral and back with Jack’s help—and now her muscles ached in that dull, satisfying way that said you’re healing, bit by bit . The kind of ache that made her feel like a person again, not just a patient being shuffled from bed to bath and back.

But it wasn’t just her legs that felt heavy.

She watched the porch from her place at the window. The boards were empty now. Arthur and John had vanished some time ago—she’d heard the tail end of their voices, the low rise and fall of something just out of reach, before silence swallowed the space between. That silence was still there. Settled over the porch, the yard, even inside her ribs.

He’d been different since that night.

She could still feel the ghost of it—the way her hand had curled into his shirt, the way she’d leaned into the warmth of him like it might anchor her after a dream that had clawed her straight from sleep. She’d reached for him without thinking, half-lost in fear and memory, needing something solid—and for a moment, she thought he might’ve needed it too. But his hand had stopped just short of her cheek. His breath had caught, and then he’d pulled back.

Not harshly. Not cruel.

Just enough to make her chest go hollow.

And since then… distance.

Nothing sharp or cold, no. But something had shifted. He still brought her tea in the mornings when Abigail was busy. Still helped her to the porch when she asked. Still watched her, she knew he watched her, when he thought she wouldn’t notice. But the words between them had gone quieter. Lighter. Like a thread had snapped somewhere she couldn’t see.

She hated that she didn’t know what it meant.

Had she imagined it? The look in his eyes when he touched her face in the candlelight? The weight of his hand on her shoulder as she cried herself awake? The slow, quiet ache in his voice when he said he hadn’t known what he’d do if she didn’t make it?

Her fingers curled slightly in her lap. No. That had been real. He’d meant every word. But something else lingered beneath it—hesitation, maybe. Guilt. Or fear. And she didn’t know if it was about her, or about him, or something between the two of them they hadn’t quite named yet.

She turned her face slightly toward the window and let the fading light spill across her skin. Her hair, freshly brushed, hung loose and gold down her shoulders—still damp at the ends from where Abigail had washed it. She’d caught her reflection in the mirror afterward, wrapped in a robe, cheeks pink from the bath and warmth in her eyes that hadn’t been there for a long time. A different version of herself. Softer. Still bruised—but alive.

Didn’t think I’d ever see this place, she’d told Arthur, sitting on that same porch where he’d just stood with John .

And he’d said nothing. Just sat beside her and handed her that damn tea.

It was only now, in the hush of afternoon, that she felt the fullness of what she hadn’t said.

She missed him.

Not just the version who brought her things, or hovered just out of reach.

She missed him. The Arthur who argued with her for the sake of it. Who gave her that lopsided smile like he knew she was full of shit and loved her for it anyway. The man who used to come too early in the morning with two mugs and some smartass comment. The one who used to tease her until she was grinning too wide to fight back. The one who made her feel like maybe the world wasn’t entirely broken.

Jo exhaled and leaned back in the chair, letting her head fall against the cushion.

Where did you go, Arthur?

And maybe more importantly…

When are you coming back?

 


 

The fire crackled low in the hearth, painting warm light along the worn floorboards of the living room. Abigail sat in her usual place on the loveseat, mending something small in her lap—one of Jack’s shirts or socks, probably—while Jo occupied the rocker nearby, legs tucked beneath her, a blanket draped across her lap. She looked better today. A little color in her cheeks. Her hair, finally dry from the long bath two from two hours ago, fell soft and straight down her back, golden strands catching the light as she moved her head. It had grown longer than she remembered. Funny, how time moved even when you weren’t aware of it.

“Y’know,” Abigail said without looking up, “I don’t think Jack’s ever smiled so much in one day as he did when he helped you to that corral the other day.”

Jo let out a breath that was half a laugh, half a sigh. “He was proud.”

“He should be. He was sweet with you.”

“I was wheezing like a drunk and hangin’ off him like a sack of potatoes.”

“Didn’t seem to bother him none,” Abigail replied, finally glancing up with a small smirk. “He told Arthur that night you were tougher than a whole damn barn full of bulls. And smarter than him, too.”

Jo snorted. “Well. That ain’t exactly a hard bar to clear.”

Abigail chuckled and leaned back in her seat, holding the fabric up to the light to check her stitches. “Still. He’s taken a real shine to you.”

The rocker creaked as Jo shifted. Her legs were aching again, but it wasn’t the sharp, biting pain it used to be—more like a dull tug, something tired but healing. “Yeah,” she murmured, quieter now. “He’s a good kid.”

They lapsed into silence for a while. Outside, wind moved through the trees in slow, lazy waves. The air had warmed slightly the last few days—still crisp, still edged with winter’s sharpness, but the light lingered longer in the evenings, and the birds had returned to the trees in cautious song. Jo could feel spring out there, just barely out of reach.

Eventually, Abigail rose and stretched. “Need to check on the stew,” she said. “And I think John’s hid the good bread again, bastard.”

“Want me to go hunt it down?”

“You just rest. I’ll be quick.”

Jo offered a little salute from where she sat. “Godspeed, general.”

Once Abigail vanished into the kitchen, the room fell quiet again. The shadows had stretched across the floor, long and golden, and Jo knew it would be suppertime soon. She stood, slowly, steadying herself on the arm of the chair before letting her body straighten up. Her legs ached, but she welcomed it now. It meant progress.

The bedroom wasn’t far—just down the short hallway—but she still took her time, letting each step settle before the next. She didn’t need help today. She was determined not to.

She reached for the doorknob and opened it gently.

And froze.

There, leaning against the side of her bed, was a cane.

She blinked. Then blinked again, slowly, like maybe she’d imagined it.

It wasn’t store-bought. It wasn’t some rough stick pulled from the woods, either. It had been made. Carefully. By hand.

She stepped forward and reached out, fingers brushing the top of the cane like it might disappear.

He’d done this.

Arthur.

There was no note. No announcement. No grand gesture. Just the quiet presence of something made with care, left for her to find when no one else was looking.

Her throat tightened unexpectedly. She wrapped her fingers fully around the handle and let herself hold it. It was warm, almost impossibly so, like it still held the heat of his hands from when he’d carved it. She turned it slowly, letting the light from the window catch the smooth grain, the delicate ridges and whorls he had shaped into the wood.

Her thumb traced the curves—mountains, maybe. Valleys. Swirling wind. He had thought about this. He hadn’t just made her something practical; he’d made her something beautiful. Something hers . Her initials, almost shy at the base. The kind of thing you only add if you care.

She sat down slowly on the edge of the bed, still holding the cane across her lap. Her fingers didn’t want to let go. Her eyes drank it in like it might vanish if she blinked.

And then, without thinking, she looked up.

There, in the corner, the tall mirror caught her reflection. She hadn’t used it much—not since she arrived. Not since everything.

Her breath hitched.

She barely recognized the woman staring back at her.

There were shadows under her eyes that hadn’t gone away. Her skin still looked sallow from too many weeks in bed. Her hair—washed and golden now—hung soft around her shoulders, but even that felt like a mask she didn’t know how to wear anymore.

What’s happening to me?

The thought came unbidden, sharp as a knife.

She looked down again, at the cane in her lap, then back up at the mirror. Her eyes were glassy, distant, full of a sorrow that never seemed to settle into anything quiet.

She wanted him.

God, she wanted to want him.

But she didn’t even know if she was still the woman he once wanted. She didn’t even know if she was still that woman.

Everything inside her felt like it had been stripped to bone and rebuilt with rusted nails. She wasn’t healed. Not really. The wound had closed, but the pain lived deeper, tangled in places no one could reach.

She wanted to laugh again. Really laugh. She wanted to ride through the woods without needing a reason, without a weight on her chest. She wanted to want —to look at him and not be afraid of how much she still cared.

But she couldn’t love him right now.

Not the way he deserved.

Not until she could figure out how to love herself again.

And that was the truth of it. That was the ache she couldn’t outrun.

She didn’t hate herself, not entirely. But she was grieving who she used to be. She was grieving the girl who used to smile with her whole face. The woman who had ridden into a fight with fire in her chest. The version of her that hadn’t been broken open by fear and blood and secrets she thought she buried deep enough no one would ever find them.

She looked into the mirror and whispered, “What happened to you?”

No answer came. Just the echo of silence. The woman in the mirror stared back with hollow eyes and a tired mouth.

She looked down at the cane again. A gift made by hands that had killed and carved and held her when she was bleeding to death. She wondered how long Arthur had worked on it. She wondered if he’d stayed up at night doing it, or if he’d taken breaks because thinking about her hurt too much.

They were all so kind to her now.

And she—

She was selfish.

That thought came like a slap.

They brought her back to life. And all she could do was sit here and cry in silence like she wasn’t lucky. Like she hadn’t been given a second chance. Jack looked at her like she hung the moon. Abigail treated her like a sister. John was gentler with her now than he'd ever been. And Arthur…

Arthur still looked at her like he saw something worth holding on to.

But when she looked in the mirror, all she saw was the wreckage.

She wanted to be better.

She wanted to get there. But there was darkness in her that she couldn’t shake. Where Arthur saw light, she saw rot. And that terrified her. Because what if he was wrong? What if he was just clinging to the memory of who she used to be, and the real Jo Harper—the real Sarah —wasn’t someone worth saving?

Her hand gripped the cane tighter. It didn’t hurt her pride so much when it was just her holding it, alone in this room, away from eyes and pity and unspoken questions. But what would they say when she walked out with it? What would they think ?

Would they smile too kindly? Speak too softly? Would they feel sorry for her?

That was the part she couldn’t bear.

She didn’t want the world to see her like this. Not leaning. Not vulnerable. Not less .

The cane was a beautiful thing. A gift, a gesture, a piece of Arthur’s heart carved in wood.

But it was also a mark of everything she’d lost. Everything she couldn’t get back.

She hated that.

She hated that the part of her that needed it was the part she wanted to keep hidden.

It wasn’t shame—not exactly. It was something harder to name. Something buried deep, like a bruise under the ribs. She wasn’t ready to show the world this part of her. Not while she still felt like a ghost in her own skin.

Her reflection stared back with understanding. Quiet, exhausted understanding.

She closed her eyes.

It’s all in your head , she told herself. You’re not broken. You’re just scared.

But even that sounded like a lie when she didn’t know who she could trust anymore.

Not even herself.

She sat there a while longer, the cane resting like a lifeline in her lap, and stared into her own eyes until the weight of it became too much.

The room behind her was quiet, the golden light of late afternoon softening every edge. Somewhere, someone—probably Abigail—moved about in the kitchen, and she could hear the sound of pots shifting, voices murmuring low. It would be supper soon.

But something in her refused to stay still. Didn’t curl up and hide like part of her wanted to.

Instead, Jo crossed the room slowly, barefoot and unsteady, and used the cane.

It was smooth beneath her fingers. Solid. The carvings under her hand felt worn already, like a path meant to be traced. It wasn’t just a tool—it was his . It was the closest thing to being held by him she’d felt in weeks.

She exhaled slowly, then straightened.

One step. Then another.

The porch was quiet as she stepped outside, wrapped in her shawl, leaning heavier on the cane than she wanted to.

The air was clear and just a little crisp. That early spring edge still lingered, but the worst of the cold was behind them. The trees in the distance looked a little greener by the day, like they were waking up after a long sleep. Shadows stretched long over the ground as the sun began its slow descent toward the horizon.

She scanned the yard.

No Arthur by the corral. No sound of boots on the steps or a voice calling her name.

Her gaze moved instinctively toward the barn.

The doors were open, and inside, backlit by the golden haze, she saw him.

Arthur.

He was hauling hay bales from one side of the stall to the other, sleeves rolled up past his elbows, arms flexed with each heavy lift. His shirt clung to his back in places, damp with sweat. His hat was tossed aside somewhere—forgotten, probably—and strands of golden-brown hair stuck to his forehead. His movements were focused, methodical, like the work helped keep his thoughts quiet.

She stopped at the edge of the path, half-shadowed by the porch post, and just… watched.

There was something calming about him like this. Strong. Steady. Capable of quiet things. The way his chest rose and fell as he worked.

And she thought— He made this for me.

He carved every line of the cane she held in her hand. Not just for her body. For her . For Jo.

She didn’t know how long she stood there, watching him unseen, with her heart full of something that felt like gratitude and grief tangled up together.

The shadows grew longer across the yard, curling like fingers across the thawing earth. Jo's breath hung faintly in the late-winter air, but the wind wasn’t biting today. It was one of those quiet, almost-spring evenings where the cold softened just enough to trick the heart into thinking warmth was close behind.

Her grip on the cane tightened, grounding herself.

Each step was slow, but steady. The gravel crunched under her feet as she made her way toward the barn. Her legs ached—not like they did weeks ago, when the pain was sharp and screaming, but more like a tired tug beneath the skin, a dull protest with every shift of weight. She pressed forward anyway, determined not to let herself disappear again.

Arthur still hadn’t seen her. He was stacking the last of the hay, his back turned to the entrance. His shoulders rose and fell with each breath, broad and solid, wrapped in that same shirt she always swore was older than sin.

She paused just at the threshold, leaning against the doorframe.

“Y’know,” she said softly, voice low and warm, “for someone who carves damn near better than he talks, you sure picked one hell of a day to leave somethin’ so pretty without a word.”

Arthur straightened immediately, startled. He turned to find her standing there in the barn’s soft, dust-speckled light, her weight leaning into the cane— his cane—and something unreadable passing across her face.

He blinked. “Jo.”

She gave him the faintest smile. “In the flesh.”

Arthur grabbed the brim of his hat from where it hung on a nail and ran a hand through his damp hair before tugging the hat on clumsily, a gesture that somehow made him look boyish.

“Didn’t think you was up for wanderin’ all the way out here.”

“I wasn’t. Until I was.” She stepped inside the barn, every footfall a quiet defiance. “Figured I’d get up and use this thing for what it’s made for.”

Arthur glanced down at the cane, then at her again. “S’it helpin’ any?”

She let her eyes sweep across the carved wood. “It ain’t just helpful. It’s beautiful.” Her voice softened. “You made this for me.”

He didn’t answer right away. Just looked at her, expression quiet and unreadable.

“You didn’t have to,” she added. “But you did. And I wanted to say thank you.”

Arthur shifted his weight, clearly uncertain what to do with himself. “I just figured… you’d need something sturdy.” He rubbed the back of his neck. “Ain’t nothin’ much.”

“It is to me.”

Silence fell for a moment—warm, not strained.

He gestured toward an overturned bucket against the far stall. “You wanna sit?”

“Sure.”

They moved together, unhurried. Jo eased herself down, leaning the cane beside her. Arthur sat a short distance away on a crate, arms resting on his knees, hat tipped low enough to shadow his eyes. She could feel him watching her though, even through the quiet.

The barn smelled like hay and dust and horses. Familiar. Safe.

Jo clasped her hands together loosely in her lap. “You know… the morning of the hangin’,” she said after a beat, voice softer now, more cautious, “I was ready to leave.”

Arthur’s brow creased slightly, lifting his gaze. “What?”

She nodded. “I went to that broken tree. The day before, just like you’d said you’d be.” Her thumb brushed the edge of her palm, nervous. “Waited hours. Thought maybe you’d changed your mind. Or you didn’t care.”

“Jo—”

“I didn’t know you’d been arrested, Arthur.” She swallowed. “I thought you’d left me behind. It hurt and I… I couldn’t take that. Not again. Not after everything.”

Arthur looked down at his hands, jaw tight.

“I’d packed my things. I was gonna head out. Just… disappear.”

His voice was low. “Then why didn’t you?”

She looked up at him. “John. He came to me and said he needed help. That you was in trouble. And… whatever hurt I was feelin’, it wasn’t enough to let you hang.”

Arthur exhaled, long and quiet. “You saved my life.”

“Guess we’re even now,” she said, a touch of that old fire in her voice.

Arthur huffed a breath, not quite a laugh, but close.

Then his eyes met hers again. “Do you still wanna leave?”

Jo didn’t answer right away. Her gaze drifted toward the open barn doors, the fading light spilling gold across the dirt floor. “I ain’t exactly in any shape to travel,” she said quietly. “Can’t ride far, not yet. And there’s no use pretendin’ otherwise.”

“That ain’t what I meant.”

“I know.”

He leaned forward slightly, elbows on his knees. “When you can . When you’re better. You still think you’ll go?”

Her throat worked on the answer. “I don’t know,” she admitted at last, voice almost a whisper. “I really don’t. Some days, I think about it—about disappearing somewhere quiet, where no one knows me, no one’s waiting for the next bad thing to happen.” She looked over at him. “But then there’s days like today. When I see you. When I see Jack. Or Abigail. And I wonder if maybe… I don’t have to keep running no more.”

Arthur didn’t say anything. He just looked at her like he wanted to carry the weight she still held on her shoulders—just for a little while.

Jo looked away again, her voice rough at the edges. “It’s hard, Arthur. I’m tryin’. I really am. But I don’t know what I want.”

“That’s alright,” he said, and there was no judgment in it. “You don’t gotta know today.”

Their eyes met again, and for a long moment, nothing else in the barn moved. The dust danced in the light, the horses shifted in their stalls, and the ache in her chest didn’t feel quite so lonely anymore.

“Thank you,” she said again. This time for more than the cane.

Arthur gave the smallest of nods. “Anytime.”

They stayed there for a while in the hush of the barn—just the sounds of horses shifting and the far-off clatter of pots in the house as supper neared. The golden light filtering through the loft window had begun to dim, curling low across the floorboards, washing everything in a soft, dusky warmth.

Arthur tilted his head toward her, the quiet drawing something else out of him.

“You still gettin’ those nightmares?”

Jo blinked, slow, then lowered her gaze to her lap. She adjusted the fall of her shawl over one shoulder, pulling it a little tighter around her ribs as if the question had reached straight into her chest.

“Sometimes,” she murmured. “Not like before. Not every night.”

Arthur nodded, watching her hands as they fidgeted with the fringe of her shawl.

“They’re… different now,” she added. “Less bloody. More quiet. But the weight don’t leave easy, y’know?” Her eyes flicked up to meet his. “Some nights it just… sits on me. Like I’m sinking in it. Can’t breathe. Can’t move. Like I’m somewhere I can’t get out of.”

Arthur’s brow furrowed, his fingers curling slightly at his knee, helpless and heavy. 

Jo’s fingers stilled. “I shouldn’t’ve ask for you to stay that night.”

Arthur looked at her, surprised.

“I—I mean I shouldn’t’ve done what I did. I wasn’t thinkin’ straight.” Her voice dropped to a whisper. “Tryin’ to kiss you… I’m sorry.”

“You was scared,” he said, low and even. “Hurt.”

“I still crossed a line.”

“Jo.”

She looked at him then—really looked—and her breath caught.

His gaze had softened, lips parted as if holding words he didn’t know how to say yet. He wasn’t frowning, wasn’t flinching. He was watching her like she was something he’d been trying not to want for a very long time.

His eyes flicked over her face—lingering at her mouth, her cheek, her lashes like they were all pieces of some fragile puzzle. There was no judgment in his expression. No fear. Just quiet, aching gentleness.

“You didn’t do nothin’ wrong,” he said, voice rough with something caught behind it. “You was lookin’ for comfort. Ain’t nothin’ to be ashamed of in that.”

She swallowed, hard. “It wasn’t just comfort.”

Jo felt her heart flutter in her chest, traitorous and wild. The barn seemed smaller suddenly. Warmer. Like his presence alone was folding around her.

She didn’t want to look at him. She didn’t want to look away.

She was conflicted, and she was craving him. Craving what he made her feel. Safe. Seen. Whole, even in her brokenness.

And maybe that was what terrified her most.

The wanting.

The hope.

The sudden, trembling truth that maybe she wasn’t as numb as she’d convinced herself. That some part of her—the part she’d buried deep beneath grief and guilt—still ached for softness. For warmth. For him.

She breathed in slow, shallow, afraid even the air might break the fragile thing between them.

Arthur didn’t move. He just sat there across from her, solid and still, his hands resting loosely on his knees. His eyes hadn’t left her. Not for a second. Not even now, when her own had started to blur a little around the edges.

He wanted to touch her. She could see it. In the way his fingers twitched slightly. In the flicker of hesitation that kept flaring in his jaw. But he didn’t reach for her. Didn’t shift toward her. He just watched.

Because he knew. Knew she was still healing. Knew not to take even a single inch unless she gave it freely.

That knowing—it undid her. Quietly. Sweetly. Like a breath held too long.

Jo’s fingers curled tighter around the edge of her cane. Her eyes dropped to the space between them. To his boot scuffed lightly against the hay-dusted barn floor. To the way his thumbs rubbed circles over the calluses on his hands. He wasn’t impatient. He wasn’t pushing. But she could feel how hard he was holding back.

It was there in the way his gaze flicked between her eyes and her lips, how his whole body had gone tense with restraint, like he was caught in a moment he didn’t dare ruin by reaching too soon. Like if he moved too quickly, she’d vanish into smoke and memory again.

Jo’s breath hitched. The air between them was trembling, full of something raw and gentle and new, and for a second—for just a second—they both leaned in.

It wasn’t a decision. It wasn’t planned.

It was instinct.

A quiet, magnetic pull born from months— years —of things left unsaid. From wounds stitched with silence. From nights spent haunted by the same ache.

Their noses almost brushed. Their foreheads touched. Arthur’s eyes fluttered shut and Jo’s lips parted—

“Arthur! Jo! Supper’s ready!” Jack’s voice rang out across the yard, loud and sweet and completely, painfully ill-timed.

Jo jolted back, heart stumbling in her chest, blinking like she’d just woken from a dream. Arthur tensed—breathed in sharply, opened his eyes, and then exhaled a curse under his breath, quiet enough only the hay and her ears could hear.

For a moment, neither of them said anything. The weight of what almost happened hung there in the space between them like a held breath refusing to be exhaled.

Jo stood first.

She gathered her shawl around her shoulders and looked down at the cane in her hand—at the careful carvings, the marks of his effort and care.

Her lips parted. Maybe to say thank you again. Maybe to apologize. Maybe to speak the thing she’d almost given him in that kiss. But nothing came out.

Only silence.

Arthur stayed where he was. Still seated on the bench, elbows on his knees, head bowed slightly. He didn’t look at her—not yet.

“I’ll… I’ll go wash up,” Jo said finally, voice barely above a whisper.

He nodded without lifting his head. “Alright.”

She lingered one more second, as if unsure of whether to take that step away.

And then she turned, her limp softened by the use of his cane, and made her way toward the house, the warm glow of lanterns spilling from the windows.

Arthur didn’t follow.

He stayed there in the barn as the sky dimmed into early night, shadows long and gold-dusted across the floor. The quiet buzz of cicadas was just beginning, a slow rhythm beneath the hush of the world settling in for supper.

And he wasn’t glad she’d pulled away.

But at the same time… maybe he was.

Not because he didn’t want her. Hell, he’d never wanted anything more in his life. He wanted that kiss like a dying man wanted air. Wanted to bury his hands in her hair and taste every piece of the truth they’d buried. But—

But something in him held firm.

There was still so much between them. So many shadows. So many questions.

He’d been with her before not knowing half of what he should’ve. Not knowing what she carried. What she’d done to survive. What ghosts haunted her when the night got too quiet.

He didn’t want to be in the dark again.

If something was going to happen between them—and God help him, he wanted it to—then it had to be real. Not just born of old feelings and open wounds, but truth.

He wanted her.

But he wanted all of her.

And he’d wait.

Even if it meant holding back for just a little longer.

 


 

It was just a few days later when the three of them set out at first light—John, Arthur, and little Jack bundled in his warmest coat, cheeks already pink from the morning chill. The sky was still pale and wide, streaked with soft amber and frost-kissed blue, the last breaths of winter clinging to the earth but loosening their hold.

Jack rode nestled in front of John, his hands wrapped around the saddle horn, small and eager and alive in a way he hadn’t been in months. He asked questions before they even cleared the edge of the property, his voice full of energy, of curiosity, of trust: What’re we hunting? Can I shoot? What if it’s a bear?

Arthur rode alongside on Atlas, a little ahead sometimes, a little behind at others. He mostly stayed quiet, letting John answer the boy’s endless questions. They rode deep into the woods, far enough that Beecher’s Hope was just a memory behind the trees. The air smelled like pine and old snow, damp soil and bark. The thaw was coming, but the land hadn’t yet surrendered to it. Branches still bore the weight of winter’s final dustings, and the cold bit deep if you stopped moving too long.

John took the lead when they dismounted, shouldering his rifle and helping Jack down from the horse with a rough kind of care, the way a man did when he was still learning how to be soft without showing it. Jack nearly tripped in the snow, but John caught him, steadying him with a hand on the shoulder.

“Careful now,” he said gruffly.

Jack grinned up at him. “I’m good. I got it.”

Arthur watched the exchange quietly, a small flicker of something almost fond tugging at the corners of his mouth.

They tracked a buck for a good hour before spotting him—broad, tall, antlers catching the low sun like burnished gold. A real beauty. Jack gasped when he saw it, eyes wide as saucers.

John crouched down beside him, rifle steady in his hands. “Wanna help?”

Jack nodded fast. “Can I?”

Arthur joined them, kneeling just behind Jack’s other side. “Here,” he said, setting his own rifle aside and helping guide the boy’s hands around the butt of John’s. “It’s heavy, I know. Just breathe. Easy now.”

John gave a glance to Arthur, something close to gratitude in his eyes, though he didn’t speak it aloud.

“Alright, little man,” Arthur murmured, voice calm and deep as the woods. “Line up the sight, real gentle. Don't pull—just squeeze.”

Jack’s small hands trembled slightly. John helped steady him from the other side.

The crack of the rifle split the silence. The buck staggered, then collapsed in the snow.

Jack’s shout of excitement filled the trees. “I did it! I did it!”

John laughed aloud—full, deep, proud. “Damn right you did!”

Arthur stood, brushing the snow from his knee. “Hell of a shot.”

They walked over to the buck together, Jack nearly tripping in the snow from the excitement of it all, but neither John nor Arthur let him fall. The animal lay peaceful now, a quiet end in a quiet place.

John crouched beside it, brushing a hand along its hide. “We’ll have meat for days. Abigail’ll be happy.”

“I helped,” Jack said again, still in awe.

“You sure did,” Arthur said, ruffling his hair. “Your first buck. That’s somethin’.”

They dressed the deer together, Arthur showing Jack the cleanest cuts, John handling the heavier lifting. Jack didn’t flinch at the blood, didn’t look away. He asked questions—some thoughtful, some strange—and neither man mocked him for it. They answered with patience, letting the boy’s wonder bloom.

By the time they loaded the deer and mounted back up, Jack was glowing. 

Arthur rode a little ahead again, his silhouette long and stretched in the afternoon light, the soft creak of his saddle and the steady rhythm of hooves on thawing ground filling the silence. Atlas moved with familiar ease beneath him, each step slow and patient.

John shifted in his own saddle, adjusting to Jack’s weight. “Hey,” he called softly. Arthur turned his head.

“Yeah?”

John hesitated a second before nudging his horse forward to ride beside him. “I, uh… I been meanin’ to ask.”

Arthur gave him a sidelong look but said nothing, waiting.

John cleared his throat. “You and Jo… how are things between you two? After everything.”

Arthur exhaled through his nose, low and tired. His eyes fixed on the path ahead. “That’s a big question.”

John smirked faintly. “Yeah, well. It’s been sittin’ in my head for a while now. Figured if there was ever a time to ask, it’s out here.”

Arthur didn’t answer right away. The trees thinned around them, patches of pale sky opening between the branches like glimpses of something better.

“She’s… different,” he said finally. “And the same, somehow. I don’t know how to explain it.”

John nodded slowly, glancing down at Jack, who remained nestled against him, unaware of the weight in the air.

Arthur went on, quieter now. “She’s been through hell, John. Real hell. And she’s still standin’. Still fightin’ every damn day to get back on her feet. And I don’t just mean walkin’.”

“I know,” John said.

“I wanna help,” Arthur admitted, his voice almost too low to hear. “But I dunno how. Not always. She’s got walls up so high, some days I ain’t sure she even sees me past ‘em. Then there are moments where I do see her. The real her. The one I remember. The one I—” He stopped, jaw tightening. “She’s still in there.”

John’s brow creased, but he didn’t interrupt.

Arthur sighed and rubbed a gloved hand over his beard. “She came to me the other day. Thanked me for the cane. Said she’d wanted to leave. Back when I didn’t show at that broken tree. When I was rottin’ in a damn jail cell and she thought I’d just—” He shook his head. “She was ready to go. And I wouldn’t’ve blamed her.”

“But she didn’t,” John said.

“No. You stopped her,” Arthur said with a look. “You came to her that morning. Asked her to help save me.”

John’s jaw ticked, but he looked down at Jack. “She never told me that part.”

Arthur nodded. “She’s tryin’. Even if she don’t know where it’s leadin’. She said she don’t even know what she wants anymore.”

“You think she’ll stay?” John asked carefully.

“I don’t know,” Arthur answered honestly. “But I want her to.”

John studied his face for a long moment. “You still love her?”

Arthur didn’t look away this time. “Reckon I ain’t ever stopped.”

John smiled faintly. “Well. Maybe she just needs time. You know what she’s like—stubborn as a damn mule.”

Arthur gave a short, wry laugh. “Yeah. And so am I.”

They fell into silence again, the kind that stretched comfortably between people who’d known each other too long to need to fill it. The trail dipped gently down into the valley below.

Arthur was just starting to relax in his saddle, his shoulders uncoiling from their usual tension, the weight of the day softened by good company and the smell of pine on the wind. Jack had stirred a little in John’s arms but settled again, lulled by the steady rhythm of hoofbeats and the low murmur of their voices.

It was the kind of quiet Arthur rarely got to have — the kind that made a man believe maybe things really could be alright. Maybe there was a future out here for all of them.

And then Jack stirred again. This time, he raised his head. His little hand reached out and pointed toward the horizon ahead, squinting past the bare trees and the last curve of the trail.

“What’s that?”

John followed his gaze, leaning forward just a little in the saddle.

So did Arthur.

At first, it looked like a smudge in the sky. Just a mark against the soft wash of pale blue. But then it rose — black, thick, and curling, too fast to be a campfire, too dark to be anything good.

Smoke.

Their blood turned to ice.

It wasn’t just smoke — it was choking , heavy smoke. Rising in waves, dark and angry, from just beyond the rise ahead. And they knew what was on the other side of that ridge.

Beecher’s Hope.

Arthur didn’t wait for John to speak. He kicked Atlas into a gallop, heart slamming in his chest.

John swore under his breath, one arm tightening around Jack as he spurred his own horse forward. Dirt flew behind them, hooves pounding like thunder.

They cleared the top of the hill — and time stopped.

The ranch was in flames.

The main house was a silhouette of fire and shadow, roof already half-collapsed inward. Flames licked at the porch, the shutters, the very bones of the home they’d built. Smoke poured into the sky, blotting out the sun. Figures moved below — too far to make out, too frantic to count.

Arthur yanked the reins hard, staring down at the chaos below.

The wind carried the smell to them — wood, ash, something else. Something worse.

And then they were riding again, full-speed toward the fire, hearts in their throats, prayers lost to the wind.

Chapter 52: The House We Tried to Build

Notes:

It’s hard to believe, but as of a few days ago, it’s been one whole year since I posted the very first chapter of this story. I just want to take a moment to say how incredibly grateful I am to every single person who gave it a chance—whether you read quietly, left kudos, or shared your thoughts in the comments. Every bit of support has meant the world to me. 💛

This story is very close to my heart, and it’s been such an important journey for me—not only because of Jo, Arthur, and the world they inhabit, but because I feel like I’ve grown (hopefully for the better!) as a writer along the way. This isn’t my first story, but it’s one that’s pushed me in new ways, and I’m so glad I’ve been able to share it with you.

Thank you for being here for the ride. Here’s to whatever comes next. 🖤

Chapter Text

The sun hung at its highest point in the sky, casting a pale, scorching light across the stretch of land that surrounded Beecher’s Hope. Not a cloud in sight, just that endless blue dome overhead, vast and indifferent. The wind was light—just enough to stir the tall grass in the distance and carry the scent of dry dirt and horses across the ranch.

Jo walked slowly along the edge of the property, cane in hand, boots stirring up soft dust with each cautious step. The earth felt firm under her feet, the way it always did this time of year—cracked in places, yet stubbornly solid. Her shadow followed beside her, a thin, slanted thing, stretching out with each step she took.

She had no real destination in mind. Just the simple need to move —to remind her muscles that they still had work to do. Every part of her body ached in one way or another, the dull throb beneath her ribs a near constant companion now. The wound hadn’t reopened but it tugged with every breath. Some days it was sharp, like a blade stuck under her skin. Other times it was like dragging a sack of stones behind her. Today was somewhere in between.

She passed the stable, the side of the barn, the broken fence post Arthur had promised to fix. No sign of Abigail. The boys had left early that morning, off to hunt and give Jack a proper taste of the world. Jo had heard their voices fading over the hill at dawn—Jack’s small, eager chatter, John’s gruff encouragement, Arthur’s quiet warnings about rifles and patience. That sound, that absence now, left the ranch feeling a little too empty.

She didn’t mind the silence. Not really.

It gave her room to think.

Though thinking was, admittedly, dangerous.

The cane shifted in her grip as she moved to the eastern side of the property, the sun warm on her shoulders through her blouse. Arthur’s craftsmanship rested under her fingers with each careful step—the way he’d carved the wood smooth, had etched those little curling patterns along the handle. She caught herself running her thumb along them without realizing.

He hadn’t spoken when he gave it to her. Just left it leaning against her bedside where she’d find it. As if words might’ve ruined the meaning. She knew what it meant. She could feel it in every notch of the grain, in every hour he must’ve spent hunched over a blade and block.

The thought of him filled her chest with something sharp. Not pain exactly. But not comfort, either. Ache , maybe. He’d seen her at her worst—bleeding, broken, crawling through mud—and he hadn’t turned away. And she’d nearly left. Not out of cruelty, but because she didn’t think she deserved any of it. Him. This place. A future.

He makes me want one, she thought. 

She stopped beside a patch of wildflowers growing near a fence post—yellow yarrow and prairie clover tangled together in a stubborn little burst of color. She bent slightly, steadying herself, and brushed her fingertips over the petals.

She exhaled slowly and looked toward the hills.

Everything seemed peaceful. Safe.

She didn’t see the shadow move behind her.

She didn’t hear the bootstep, didn’t feel the shift in the grass, didn’t sense the danger crawling toward her like a snake through dry leaves.

Because in that one, single, fragile moment… she let herself breathe.

And that was when it happened.

An arm wrapped around her from behind like a vice—tight, rough, and immediate. One hand slammed over her mouth, shoving her head back against a broad chest that reeked of sweat and smoke. Jo gasped, muffled, instinct flaring. Her cane tumbled from her grasp, landing in the dirt with a dull thud.

Panic exploded through her like a gunshot.

Her feet kicked, boots scraping dirt, but her balance was already gone. Her body shrieked in protest, her side tearing open with fresh, searing pain. Her breath caught in her lungs as she flailed, bit , thrashed—but the man was too strong. She couldn’t scream. Her voice was caught in her throat, pressed against the stranger’s palm.

The world narrowed to breath and pressure and pain.

Then another shadow stepped into view.

And this one she recognized immediately.

Agent Andrew Milton.

Hat tipped low against the glare, coat billowing slightly in the wind, boots hitting the dry dirt with calm, calculated ease. His face held the smugness of a man who’d already won the game before his opponent even knew the rules. Ross followed a pace behind him, looking bored, while a small unit of Pinkertons spread out in a wide arc, their rifles drawn, surrounding the yard like wolves closing in.

Jo froze for half a second, bile rising in her throat. It had been years, but she could still remember that smug, condescending expression. The same one that had been burned into her memory from every ambush, every betrayal, every man and woman buried in unmarked graves.

Milton took his time approaching her. Dust rose with each footstep. He stopped only a few feet away, eyes sweeping over her disheveled state. His gaze lingered on her hands struggling to claw at the one across her mouth, the way her legs kicked to stay upright, the cane discarded in the dirt nearby like a snapped limb.

“Well,” he said, exhaling through his nose. “Ain’t this a surprise.”

He tilted his head slightly and grinned. “Miss Harper, isn’t it?”

Jo’s eyes narrowed, burning with hatred.

Milton gestured lazily to the man on his left. “Now, listen here. If you make a sound,” he said slowly, like he was speaking to a child, “my friend over there will put a bullet right through your pretty little head. And I’ll just have to explain to your boys that you were… uncooperative.”

He turned to the man holding her and gave a subtle nod.

The pressure vanished from her mouth.

Jo gasped sharply, coughing, sucking in air like she’d just broken the surface of deep water. Her body trembled, blood hot beneath her skin, but her glare never wavered.

Milton watched her for a moment in silence, arms behind his back like a commander surveying the battlefield.

“Where are they?” he asked casually. “Morgan and Marston. You wouldn’t happen to know, would you?”

Jo didn’t answer.

She just stared at him. One slow breath. Then another.

Then she turned her head to the side—and spat right on the toe of his polished boot.

A thick glob of spit clung to the leather.

Milton looked down at it, then back at her. There was no visible change in his expression. No flare of anger. Just a flicker of something colder.

Ross let out a quiet, humorless laugh behind him.

“Still got that spark,” Milton said. “Just like the last time.”

He nodded once—to someone behind her.

Jo barely had time to turn her head before she heard it.

The sound of fire bottles.

The rasp. The strike. The hiss of flame catching.

NO! ” Her voice tore through the air, raw and sharp, as she thrashed in panic. “ ABIGAIL!

But it was too late.

Two men were already on the porch. One maintained the front door shut, while the other jammed a wooden beam across the handles, locking the entry.

Smoke began to curl upward.

Then flames.

They licked greedily along the wood, racing toward the windows with terrifying speed. A curtain inside caught next, folding in on itself in a wave of heat. The porch lit up in a second blaze, the dry air feeding the fire like a hungry beast.

Jo screamed again, trying to lunge forward—but the man behind her yanked her back hard, and she nearly buckled. Her wound flared, her breath sputtered, and she collapsed to one knee.

Milton moved then. Calm. Slow. Like he’d done this before.

He crouched beside her and gripped her chin in one gloved hand—forcing her head to face the burning house. Her jaw strained beneath his fingers, but he only gripped tighter.

“Take a good look,” he said, voice low, almost tender. “That there is a price for silence.”

Jo writhed under his grip, teeth clenched, tears stinging her eyes—not from fear, not from pain, but from helplessness.

“This?” he murmured. “This is what happens when you don’t cooperate.”

She tried to shake her head, tried to pull away, but his grip only grew stronger.

“Don’t look away,” he warned. “You watch what you’ve done.”

The fire was roaring now. Flames climbed up the walls, black smoke billowing from the windows in great choking clouds. Glass shattered somewhere inside. The heat pulsed against Jo’s skin like a living thing, the smell of scorched wood and fabric overwhelming.

The heat of the fire seared the air around them, warping the sky and stinging Jo’s skin. The house crackled, groaned—alive with flames. She could hear something else now too. Muffled shouts… from inside?

God—Abigail.

The man behind Jo finally released her, maybe on Milton’s silent signal or maybe because he knew she wasn’t going anywhere fast.

Jo hit the ground hard, palms scraping on the dirt as she pitched forward. Her body screamed with the movement—especially her side. Blood was seeping through her bandage now, dark and sticky where it clung to her shirt. Her breath came in harsh gasps, throat raw from yelling.

But she didn’t stay down.

Her eyes snapped to the cane lying a few feet away, kicked into the dust during the struggle. She dragged herself toward it, teeth clenched, one shaking hand pawing through the dirt until her fingers wrapped around the carved wood Arthur had given her.

She held it tight.

Her lifeline.

Slowly, Jo pushed herself upright, planting the cane deep into the earth as she rose to her feet again. Her legs trembled with effort, side throbbing like fire beneath her skin, but she stood—swaying, panting, defiant.

Milton watched her with a glint in his eye. He looked amused.

“You don’t scare easy,” he said, stepping forward with that same slow, deliberate swagger. “I’ll give you that.”

Jo lifted her head. Her voice cracked, but the fury in it was undimmed.

“You don’t scare me either,” she spat.

A beat passed. Wind howled, catching ash and smoke in its breath.

Milton smiled. “Oh, good,” he said. “Then this won’t break you as much as I’d hoped.”

And before Jo could brace, he kicked.

The cane—her only support—went flying sideways, clattering across the dirt. Jo’s knees buckled instantly, and she collapsed with a hard grunt, landing flat on her side. Pain exploded through her body, sharp and deep, stealing the breath from her lungs.

Milton stood over her, casting a long shadow in the firelight.

“I expected more of a fight,” he said with mock disappointment. “Guess the stories oversold you.”

Jo didn’t respond right away. She couldn’t. Her whole body shook from pain and effort, and she couldn’t breathe past the knot in her chest—not while watching flames eat through the windows of her home.

Another window shattered.

Inside, something exploded—maybe oil, or a lamp.

The fire roared louder, spitting cinders across the yard. Thick black smoke rose in curling spirals, and the wind carried it toward the sky in heavy, choking gusts.

In the nearby paddock, the horses had started to panic.

Their anxious whinnies cut through the chaos, sharp and wild. Hooves pounded against the earth. One reared up, tugging hard at the rope tied to the fencepost, while another kicked at the rails. The scent of smoke had reached them. Fire. They knew what it meant.

Jo turned her head slightly toward the sound. Her heart twisted in her chest. Laramie was among them. She couldn’t see her clearly through the smoke, but she knew the sound of her frantic cries.

They were surrounded. The house, the barn, the yard—everything was at risk.

And she couldn’t move.

The firelight cast Milton’s face in a flickering orange glow, making him look more devil than man. He crouched again, crouched low like he had time to spare. He leaned in close—closer than before—his voice barely above a whisper.

“You know, I’ve always admired people like you. The fighters,” he said, reaching down to brush a stray curl from her face in mock gentleness. “You all think you’re free, wild, unstoppable. That the world can’t catch you.”

His hand shifted—fingers gripping her jaw again.

“But you are not free. You are not unstoppable. You’re just tired. And broken. And slow.”

He turned her head toward the fire once more.

“So go on. Watch. Watch your life burn.”

The flames howled louder now, almost deafening. The house was no longer simply burning—it was dying, consumed room by room. Heat rippled off the walls in waves, and the thick black smoke gushed from the windows like breath from a dragon’s mouth. Sparks flew through the air like fireflies from Hell.

A shudder ran through the structure, groaning from within as if the bones of the house itself were splintering.

Then—

CRACK—

The ceiling over the porch started to collapse inward with a sickening crash, spitting sparks and embers into the yard. The roof began to sag in the center, timbers glowing red-hot as they curled and snapped. A plume of smoke surged into the sky.

Jo flinched where she lay in the dirt, heart pounding against her ribs, breath shallow. She could feel the heat baking her skin, could feel her wound bleeding slowly into the dust beneath her.

And Milton just watched.

Calm as a man at a picnic.

He straightened up from his crouch beside her and stepped away a few paces, brushing soot from the lapel of his coat. His gloved fingers were black with ash. He studied the flames like a man admiring his handiwork—chest rising and falling with smug satisfaction.

Jo forced herself onto her side, trying to push up with trembling arms. Her cane was gone. Her strength, barely held together by sheer will, was unraveling.

Milton turned back.

His eyes flicked to her, narrowing slightly. “You look tired.”

Jo spat blood at his feet.

He smirked. “Well. Let’s get her moving.”

Then he nodded to one of his men—Ross, who gave a cold chuckle—and stalked toward Jo. Without warning, Milton reached down, grabbed her roughly by the wrist, and yanked .

Jo cried out as her battered body scraped across the dirt. Her boots dug furrows behind her as he dragged her across the yard like a discarded carcass. Gravel and dry earth scraped her arms, pulling at the fabric of her clothes, kicking up dust that mingled with the smoke choking the sky.

She struggled—weakly, but on instinct.

Milton didn’t care.

“Say goodbye to them,” he said coldly. “You won’t be back for quite some time.”

He turned her head again, forcing her to look at the burning house. Her eyes stung from smoke and tears.

Her heart twisted in her chest. Abigail…

Please—

Then— a sound.
A bang, not from the fire.

A gunshot. Sharp. Clean. Close.

Milton froze.

Jo barely had time to register it before Milton’s head jerked back, an instant before a spray of blood exploded from the side of his skull.

The impact knocked him sideways, dropping him like a sack of bricks. He collapsed next to her, eyes wide with shock that didn’t have time to settle into death. The blood—hot and sudden—splattered across Jo’s chest, her neck, her face. It hit her like a slap, thick and warm and metallic in her mouth. She gasped and gagged, blinking through the shock and the red dripping down her cheek.

Everything stopped.

The Pinkertons shouted in confusion, scrambling for cover, turning toward the direction of the shot. Smoke still curled through the air—but from the far side of the burning house, someone emerged.

Staggering. Covered in soot, coughing hard, smoke trailing from her hair.
But holding a rifle in both hands.

Abigail.

Her face was streaked with ash and fury. Eyes red but locked on Milton’s body with wild intensity. She took another step forward, rifle barrel still warm, and spat on the ground. Her voice cracked, hoarse from the smoke, but she still managed to shout:

“That was for Hosea, you son of a bitch.”

More shouting—Pinkertons reacting, drawing weapons—

Jo barely had time to lift her head when rough hands grabbed her again—Ross this time. He yanked her upright and pressed her tight to his chest, a pistol jamming under her chin. Her legs kicked weakly, feet dragging as he backed toward the horses with her in front of him like a shield.

Stay back! ” Ross barked toward Abigail, eyes darting.

“Jo!” Abigail screamed.

But there was no time.

Gunfire erupted from the far ridge.

Ross looked up, panic flashing across his face.

The boys were back.

 


 

The trail blurred beneath them in flashes of hooves and dust.

Arthur’s jaw clenched hard as he leaned low over Atlas, the wind ripping past his ears. His heart thundered with every stride. The sharp scent of burning wood rode the breeze now— real , not imagined—and the thick column of smoke rising beyond the hills grew darker, denser, every second. It wasn’t just some far-off wildfire. It was close. It was wrong.

They galloped through the last stretch of woods, the trail snaking through dry brush and grass. The midday sun was beating down, but it may as well have vanished — that black smoke swallowed the light like a storm cloud.

“Goddammit…” Arthur muttered, more to himself than anyone else, his voice raw with dread. His eyes flicked constantly between the trail ahead and the rolling dark horizon beyond the trees. He could feel it in his gut. Every instinct screamed the same truth.

Beecher’s Hope was burning.

John rode just ahead, his hand clenched tightly on the reins, guiding the horse with practiced urgency. Jack was in the saddle in front of him, his small body bouncing with every hoofbeat, clinging to the saddle horn.

“Hold on, Jack!” John shouted over the pounding of hooves.

“I am!” Jack called back, but his voice was thin. Scared.

The hill came into view — that last rise that hid the ranch from the rest of the valley. Just past it, they’d see home.

But John yanked hard on the reins before they crested it, pulling the horse to a sharp stop. “Whoa!” he barked. The horse reared slightly, kicking up dust, and Jack jolted in the saddle.

Arthur pulled up beside them, Atlas tossing his head and snorting.

“What the hell’re you stoppin’ for?” Arthur demanded, breathing heavy.

John didn’t answer at first. He swung off the saddle in one fluid motion and grabbed Jack by the arms, lifting him down quickly but gently. Then he turned, scanning the tall grass and the line of brambles off the side of the trail.

“You’re gonna hide here,” he told Jack, his voice low, serious.

“What? Pa, no—”

“Listen to me,” John snapped, crouching to Jack’s level. “You stay here . You don’t come out ‘til I come get you. You hear me, son?”

Jack’s eyes filled with panic. “Is it the house? Is Mama—?”

“We don’t know yet.” John reached up and put a hand on his boy’s shoulder. “But I need you safe. You’re brave, alright? Be brave for me now.”

Jack’s lip trembled, but he nodded. John pulled him into a tight hug for just a second, kissed the top of his head, then pointed toward a thick patch of tall brush and thorny undergrowth just off the trail.

“Go. Quick.”

Jack scrambled toward it, ducking low. The grass swallowed him up fast, the leaves shaking a little as he knelt inside. His face vanished behind the green.

Arthur watched the whole thing with his jaw clenched, then turned his gaze forward—toward the hill, toward the smoke.

The heat rolled stronger now. They were out of time.

Without another word, both men kicked their horses forward and crested the ridge in a blur of movement.

The horses thundered across the ridge like the devil himself was chasing them.

Arthur barely felt the reins in his hands. He and John had been riding hard for miles, hearts pounding with dread ever since they spotted the smoke twisting into the sky like a black omen. Now, as they crested the final rise that overlooked Beecher’s Hope, the full horror of it hit them.

The valley stretched out below, the ranch sprawled like a bleeding wound across the earth. The house was on fire . Thick, roiling smoke poured from the windows and roof, licking upward into the hot summer air like a hellish banner. Embers rained down over the yard, glowing faint red against the backdrop of ash and flame.

“Christ almighty…” John breathed beside him, yanking his horse to a hard stop. Arthur did the same.

They didn’t have long to look.

From their vantage point, they could see movement— men , spread out in the yard. Armed. Not ranch hands, not neighbors—Pinkertons. You could see it in the posture, in the black coats and precision. Rifles aimed. Orders shouted over the roar of the fire.

And then—across the burning chaos— Abigail .

She was on the far side of the yard, crouched behind the water well, smoke-smudged and coughing, her hair tangled, a rifle in her hands. She rose from cover just long enough to fire off a shot before ducking again as bullets bit into the wooden frame of the well. She was alive. Fighting. Holding them off.

But she wasn’t the only one.

Arthur’s eyes swept across the yard—and then froze.

His breath left him.

There— in front of the house , half-dragged across the dirt, was Jo .

Held in front of a man like a goddamn trophy. He should have gotten rid of him years ago when he had the chance. When he had went fishing with little Jack.

Ross . Edgar Ross. Face calm, almost smug, the bastard had one arm wrapped across Jo’s chest, the other gripping a pistol pressed tight against her ribs. Jo’s legs dragged behind her. Her shirt was bloodied, her face streaked with soot and sweat and fury—but she was alive. And her eyes—

Her eyes locked onto Arthur’s, even across the field.

She found him across the yard like her eyes had been trained to seek him out across any distance. He looked like something carved from thunder, still atop his horse, staring at her like he was watching his entire world fall apart in front of him.

Time cracked like glass.

Arthur didn’t move. Couldn’t.

That one moment—that single, soul-splitting second—felt like standing on a frozen lake and hearing the ice give way beneath your feet.

His heart roared in his chest.

“Arthur—!” John’s voice came sharp beside him, trying to cut through the weight.

Arthur blinked, like waking from a nightmare. His hand jerked to his holster. He raised his voice—raw, hoarse, full of panic and fire.

JO!

His voice tore across the field—and was answered.

Ross turned, smiling like a man enjoying a private joke. The barrel of his gun pressed harder into her skin.

“Come any closer,” he called, voice carrying with that irritating calm, “and I’ll put a bullet straight through her.”

Arthur’s hand trembled at his side. The gun was warm against his palm, like it wanted to be used. But he couldn’t. He couldn’t risk it—not with Jo held like that. Her body sagged slightly in Ross’s arms, her weight supported only by him, her head tilted—but still, she glared back, teeth gritted, jaw set.

Jo’s teeth clenched. Her jaw ached. She’d heard those words before — from bounty hunters, from her father, from the men who thought her life was just another means to an end. But Arthur was no coward, and he was no fool.

She spat toward Ross’s boots and shouted back, voice raw but steady, “Don’t listen to him! Just shoot the bastard!”

Arthur almost did. Almost. His finger tensed on the trigger, vision narrowing to nothing but her and Ross. The crackle of fire, the pop of gunshots from Abigail’s side, the hooves beneath him—all disappeared.

She was hurt. Blood on her side, her face pale, smudged, determined. But her eyes told him everything.

She wasn’t afraid.

But he was.

Because this was every goddamn nightmare Arthur had tried to forget, dragging itself out of the past and into the fire. Jo—held like a hostage, like bait, like leverage . Her body between him and a man who wanted to kill them all.

He couldn’t move.

Ross smirked. “That’s sweet,” he said. “Really. But she moves, I shoot. You move, I shoot. Hell, I might shoot her anyway.”

A bullet whipped past Arthur’s head. He didn’t flinch.

Jo’s voice cracked again—furious, brave: “You won’t get away with this, you son of a bitch.”

She felt Ross chuckle, low in his chest. He leaned in, voice close to her ear.

“You’re bold. I’ll give you that,” he muttered. “But you’re not the one with the gun, sweetheart.”

Jo turned her head just enough to meet his gaze, lips curling into a blood-streaked smile. Her voice was hoarse, smoke-frayed, but still hard-edged with venom.

“He won’t shoot me, Ross,” she said, and even laughed —a dry, breathless sound filled with a dangerous kind of certainty. “But he will shoot you.”

That wiped the smirk off his face.

Jo saw it. The faint flicker in his eyes. Doubt. Just a flicker, but enough. Ross pulled her tighter, adjusted his grip. She winced at the pain, but didn’t break eye contact with Arthur.

And then—

CRACK.

A rifle shot split the air like lightning.

Jo flinched. It came from the ridge— John . One of the Pinkertons near the barn went down hard, his rifle clattering to the dirt. That was the first.

Gunfire erupted across the ranch yard in a hailstorm of bullets and shouted orders. The Pinkertons shouted and scrambled for cover, some dropping to a knee to fire back, others running for the burnt-out wagons or fencing. Return fire came hot from the ridge where Arthur and John had charged down the slope, kicking up clouds of dust as they rode in hard.

Ross snarled. “Goddamn it—keep her in front!” he barked at himself more than anyone else, yanking Jo toward a nearby wagon with shattered wheels. She stumbled, nearly collapsed, but he dragged her with him, her feet scraping the ground as he used her body like a shield.

Arthur’s bullets tore through the yard — precise, measured, furious — but never close enough to hit her. He was holding back, barely, and it burned her worse than the wound.

She could see it in his eyes as he rode down into the fray—he was unraveling. Rage, fear, desperation—twisting inside him like a storm. He’d do anything to get to her. And that terrified her more than Ross’s gun.

Abigail’s voice rang out behind the well,“They’ve got Jo!” She coughed violently in between shots. “By the wagon!”

More gunfire cracked out. The top window of the burning house shattered. Debris fell as the roof began to groan beneath the heat. Jo could see the flames crawling higher into the rafters, curling through the ceiling beams like they were alive. The heat kissed her skin, too close, too real.

A shriek of a horse cut through the air as the stable doors buckled. Two terrified horses broke free — one with part of its mane on fire — stampeding wildly into the field, nearly crashing through a group of Pinkertons. Another fireball bloomed from the east side of the house as something inside ignited — maybe ammunition or an oil lamp.

Ross ducked behind the wagon, still keeping Jo clutched tight. She gritted her teeth and tried to elbow him, but her strength was waning. Her knees buckled again and the world tilted—until she saw a blur of dark brown and pale shirt to the side—

Arthur.

Still riding, still firing— coming closer .

John was flanking wide, shouting over the din: “We need to pull them away from the house!”

Arthur’s voice came, hoarse and loud: “ JO! Hang on!”

She felt it all boiling to the surface — not just pain, but something deeper. Hope .

Ross was shouting again, to the few men near the fence: “Hold them off! Get them—damn it— just shoot the woman and be done with it!

She twisted, but Ross pressed the gun harder against her ribs.

“You so much as twitch again,” he growled, “and I’ll gut you.”

Jo smiled with blood on her lips.

“You’ll die before I do.”

Arthur spotted the black Arabian bursting from the smoke near the collapsed stable wall, wild-eyed and riderless, mane tangled with flame-licked ash. She reared violently, hooves striking the air, and then took off in a panic toward the treeline, scattering a knot of Pinkertons along her path. Arthur’s heart twisted — she wouldn’t have left Jo by choice. She must’ve been driven out by the fire. But she was alive. Like Jo would be. Like she had to be.

A shot cracked over his shoulder — narrowly missing his head.

Arthur ducked low in the saddle and returned fire, picking off a Pinkerton near the house who had Abigail in his sights. She shouted her thanks between coughs, still half-hidden behind the old water well, rifle braced against a rock as she fired shot after shot with red-rimmed eyes and trembling hands.

John barked from the far side: “They’re pulling back toward the barn! We got ‘em on their heels!”

Arthur shouted back: “Keep goin’! Push ‘em out!”

Arthur aimed again, squeezed the trigger — took down another agent near the wagon . They were thinning. Fewer than ten now, most of them pinned by Abigail’s fire and John’s flanking shots. Victory was clawing into reach.

Ross snarled behind Jo, gun still jammed under her ribs, and suddenly snapped his aim.

The bullet tore through the air, grazing Arthur’s left arm just below the shoulder. He hissed in pain, body jerking as he clutched the reins tighter.

“Goddamn it—!” John shouted, ducking behind a stack of cut logs.

Ross was shifting now, dragging Jo further back behind a crumbling wagon axle, trying to line up another shot.

And Jo—Jo was done being dragged around like a rag doll.

With a raw growl from deep in her chest, she suddenly threw her head back—hard. Her skull collided with Ross’s nose with a sickening crack that made him grunt in pain and stumble half a step.

Bitch! ” he roared.

Jo used the distraction to kick sideways, her boot slamming into the side of his knee. It wasn’t clean, but it was enough to knock his balance just as he raised the gun again.

The shot fired wild — missing Arthur and hitting a fence post instead.

Ross, enraged, turned on her. He reared back and kicked her in the gut, sending her sprawling forward to her knees with a cry of pain. Her hands scrabbled against the dirt, coughing and heaving.

Arthur saw red.

But she didn’t stay down.

Jo coughed, spat blood, and looked up at him like a cornered animal ready to tear someone apart. Her lip was split, her hair matted with sweat and soot, her breathing ragged — but she was still upright. Still fighting.

Ross raised his pistol again, shaking with fury—

And Arthur fired.

One shot.

Straight through Ross’s throat.

The bullet punched in just above his collarbone and blew out the side of his neck. A crimson spray exploded from the wound as Ross jerked backward, eyes wide in shock, gun dropping from his fingers.

Jo flinched as blood splattered across her — but she didn’t move away.

She stood.

Right there in front of him, she rose. Her legs shook, pain written in every line of her body, but she rose — breathing hard, chest heaving, spitting Ross’s blood from her mouth as his body crumpled to the ground behind her.

She stood tall, swaying slightly, but unbroken.

Arthur was off his horse in a heartbeat, heart pounding, blood running down his arm, but none of it mattered. He ran to her—gun still in hand, eyes locked on her like he couldn’t believe what he was seeing.

“Jo,” he breathed.

She turned toward him, stumbling half a step — and he caught her with one hand on her waist and one on the back of her head, pulling her in like he didn’t care if the world was burning around them. She didn’t collapse into him. She leaned , just for a breath, and then straightened again.

“I told him,” she rasped. “Told him you’d shoot him.”

Arthur let out a choked, stunned sound — half laugh, half breath of relief — still holding her like he thought she might vanish if he let go. But Jo was already pulling back. She didn’t collapse. She didn’t cry. She didn’t cling.

She turned.

Ross’s corpse twitched once beside her in the dirt, throat blown open and pooling dark red beneath his cheek. His pistol still lay where he’d dropped it — matte black, spattered with blood.

Jo bent down, grabbed it, and checked the chamber with quick, practiced fingers.

Arthur caught her wrist. “Jo—”

Her eyes snapped up to him. “Don’t.”

“You’re hurt,” he growled. “You should sit the hell down—”

“I said don’t.” Her voice was raw but steady. “I ain’t sittin’ nothing out. Not while they’re still breathin’.”

Arthur stared at her — her face streaked with smoke and dirt, blood drying on her temple, one leg trembling just slightly — and something in his chest twisted. Not with frustration, but awe. She’d nearly died. She’d been beaten, held hostage, used like a pawn. And she was still going.

Goddamn wildfire in human skin.

He nodded, jaw clenched. “Alright. But stay close.”

“Didn’t plan on strayin’.”

She chambered the gun with a clean click and turned with him toward the chaos still unfolding in the yard.

From behind the barn, three Pinkertons pressed forward toward the well, trying to flank Abigail. Another crouched behind the remains of the feed cart, laying down suppressing fire that cracked through the yard like a whip.

John was ducked behind a tree, exchanging shots with a man posted by the burned stable doors. “Son of a bitch is pinned!” he shouted, voice hoarse from smoke. “Arthur—west side!”

“I got him!” Arthur answered, already raising his rifle.

Jo moved with him — crouched low, gun braced in both hands like it belonged there. One of the agents near the feed cart popped up—Jo fired first.

The bullet took him in the shoulder and spun him sideways. He fell with a cry, and Arthur finished the job with a second shot before he could crawl for cover.

To their left, Laramie screamed again — wild and unharmed, charging through the fray as bullets zipped past her flanks. Jo’s heart jumped in her chest.

Arthur saw it too. “She’s fine! Keep movin’!”

They pressed forward — side by side — Jo ducking behind the stacked hay bales, Arthur keeping low behind a wagon wheel.

Another Pinkerton tried to run from the porch to the water trough — Abigail nailed him mid-stride. Her aim wasn’t as clean as it used to be, but it was fueled by rage and fear. She shouted as she fired again: “One’s circlin’ behind the fence!”

John broke cover, charged toward the man Abigail had warned about. “I see him!”

Arthur saw it a second later—another agent trying to get the drop on John, slipping along the side of the burning house. “JO!”

She turned, eyes tracking with his.

Together, they fired.

Two shots. One kill.

The man dropped like a sack of grain, blood blooming across his chest.

Arthur turned toward Jo, chest heaving. “Damn good shot.”

She didn’t answer. Her face was set, focused. Jaw clenched, gun steady in her hands.

The last two agents were trying to make a run for the fence — fleeing now, desperate.

John fired at one and missed. Jo stepped forward without hesitation and emptied Ross’s gun.

The first man screamed and fell. The second stumbled, hit in the thigh, crawling—

Arthur finished him. No hesitation.

And then—

Silence.

Just the crackle of flames still licking the outer walls of the house. The smell of gunpowder. The metallic sting of blood in the air.

Arthur’s arms finally dropped to his sides, gun slack in one hand.

John exhaled hard, hands on his knees, sweat streaking through the soot on his face.

Jo was still standing. She didn’t let go of the pistol right away. Her fingers were curled tight around it, knuckles white. Smoke rolled off her shoulders. Blood ran from her mouth. Her arms trembled now, finally—only now, after it was over.

Arthur moved to her, carefully.

“Jo.”

Her eyes flicked up. And then, finally, she let the pistol drop. Her breath came hard, but her legs held.

She didn’t collapse.

She just leaned her weight into Arthur’s chest, forehead resting against his shoulder.

He caught her with one arm around her back. “You alright?”

“I’m fine,” she muttered, voice like gravel. “He didn’t win.”

Arthur swallowed hard and held her tighter.

“No,” he whispered. “He didn’t.”

Smoke still hung thick in the air like a ghost that refused to leave.

Abigail stepped out from behind the well slowly, rifle lowered, the heavy barrel dragging at her side. Her boots crunched through the scorched grass and shattered glass, but she barely seemed to feel it.

Her face was smeared with soot, streaked where sweat had carved clean paths down her cheeks. Her blouse was torn, arms covered in small cuts, knuckles raw from bracing herself behind cover. Her eyes were blank. Empty. Wide and hollow like she was still seeing the fire, still hearing the bullets.

She passed by the corpses without flinching. Didn’t look at Milton. Didn’t speak.

Arthur turned his head, watching her with a frown. “Abigail,” he called gently, but she didn’t stop.

She walked to the house — what was left of it.

The porch was half gone, blackened timbers still hissing with steam where the fire had been beaten back. The front door hung crooked on one hinge. One of Jack’s boots lay tossed aside in the dirt. His drawing book, singed along the edges, was lying open in the mud — a half-finished sketch of a horse still visible on the page.

Abigail stood there, swaying slightly.

Then her knees buckled.

She dropped.

Not from injury, not from shock. Just... the weight of it all.

Arthur took a step toward her — but Jo, already limping, touched his arm. “Let her.”

Abigail sat on her heels, staring at the place where the kitchen used to be. The place where she’d cooked every morning. The table where Jack learned his letters. The tiny rocking chair she’d gotten secondhand from a rancher’s wife. Gone.

All of it. Gone.

She didn’t cry. She just stared.

“Everything we worked for,” she whispered. “Everything we built... gone.”

Jo sank down beside her without a word. She didn’t touch her. Didn’t speak. Just sat there, sharing the smoke and the silence.

 


 

Across the yard, John holstered his gun and started scanning the treeline.

“Jack!” he shouted, voice tight. “Jack, you can come out now! It’s over!”

There was no answer — just birds calling distantly in the trees, unsettled by the smoke.

Arthur stepped beside him. “He was with us on the ridge. Told him to stay put.”

John’s throat worked as he nodded. “I’ll find him.”

He turned and jogged back up the slope, boots crunching dirt, his frame tense with that particular fear only a father knew — the fear that something might’ve happened in the few minutes you weren’t looking. The fear of silence where your child should be.

He found Jack behind a thicket of brush, exactly where he’d told him to stay — curled up with his arms around his knees, his face pale and streaked with tears, watching the smoke from a distance.

“Pa?”

John nearly crumpled with relief.

“Yeah, it’s me,” he said, crouching. “It’s alright now. They’re gone.”

Jack didn’t move. “I saw the house, Pa. I saw them burn it.”

“I know.”

“I was scared.”

“I know, son.”

Jack’s arms tightened. “Is Mama okay?”

“She’s alright.” John reached out and touched his hair, pulling him close. “She’s alright. We all are.”

 


 

Back at the homestead, Arthur stood quietly, eyes tracking every inch of the wreckage. One hand rested on the butt of his revolver. The other was still curled, faintly shaking from the strain of the fight.

He looked down at the blood drying on his fingers — Jo’s blood, mostly. Some of his own, from the graze Ross had gotten on his ribs.

He glanced over to where she sat beside Abigail, both women framed by ruin. And it hit him then, deep and aching:

They had saved each other.

Not just today. Over and over again.

Jo looked up and caught him staring. She offered a weak, bloodied smirk.

Arthur swallowed. He nodded back, just once, and turned his gaze to the rising smoke.

They couldn’t stay here. That much was obvious.

The Pinkertons had found them.

And that meant this place — this fragile little dream they’d tried to make real — was finished.

They’d have to run.

Again.

The wind shifted slightly, carrying away some of the smoke. The fires had all but burned out, leaving the sky a smudged gray. It cast the ranch in an eerie stillness — that hollow quiet after violence, where even the birds had gone silent.

From the treeline, the sound of footsteps stirred the air.

Jo turned her head just as John stepped out of the smoke with Jack in his arms. The boy was clinging tightly to his father’s neck, arms wrapped like a lifeline around him, small hands buried in the fabric of John’s shirt. His face was pale but dry now — like he’d run out of tears back behind the bush.

Abigail looked up from where she still knelt in the dirt. When she saw them, something cracked in her expression.

“Jack?” she breathed, her voice hoarse and choked.

John dropped to his knees, lowering their son to the ground gently. Jack’s feet barely touched the dirt before Abigail had him in her arms, wrapping around him like she was trying to fuse them back together by sheer force of will.

He buried his face into her shoulder, his frame trembling.

“I’m sorry, Mama,” Jack whispered. “I stayed real quiet like Pa said—”

Abigail kissed the top of his head over and over, rocking slightly, her eyes shut tight. “You did good. You did so good. You’re alright now. You’re alright.”

John reached out, one hand curling around Abigail’s back, the other over Jack’s shoulder. His head dropped forward, forehead resting against both of theirs.

It was quiet.

There were no more words for a moment — just three people holding on, shaking, covered in ash and dust, trying to remember how to breathe.

From across the yard, Jo watched it unfold, her throat tight.

She stood a little straighter, though her side was still bleeding, and her legs trembled beneath her.

Then she started limping toward Arthur.

He had barely moved since the gunfire stopped — still standing near the scorched porch, watching the Marstons with something unreadable in his eyes. That strange blend of grief and longing and the quiet ache of knowing you’ll never quite belong to something like that, not really.

But then he heard her footsteps.

“Arthur,” Jo called softly.

He turned immediately, and his whole body shifted — that heavy posture easing just slightly at the sound of her voice.

Jo didn’t ask permission. She walked right up to him, slow but determined, and placed one hand against his chest for balance. The other curled lightly around his arm. She leaned into his side — not from weakness, but because she needed him close. Because she could.

Arthur reached up without hesitation and steadied her, one strong arm wrapping protectively around her shoulders. He let out a breath against her hair, eyes flicking down to check her wounds, then back up to the family ahead of them.

“You alright?” he murmured.

“No,” she said quietly. “But I’m standin’.”

They both looked toward the Marstons again — John still crouched beside his wife and son, all three of them tangled together in something that looked like love and loss and survival all at once.

“We almost lost 'em,” Arthur said after a long silence. His voice was rough. “Could’ve lost all of it.”

Jo’s grip on his arm tightened.

“We didn’t,” she said. “And they didn’t lose each other. That’s what matters.”

Arthur glanced down at her. “You sure you ain’t hurt worse than you’re lettin’ on?”

She gave a faint, crooked grin. “You shot Ross through the head, cowboy. I’m feelin’ pretty damn good, all things considered.”

His mouth twitched, almost a smile — and he leaned his cheek against the top of her head for a long, quiet moment.

Smoke curled upward behind them. The land was wounded, and the house nearly gone, but somehow — in the center of all that ruin — there was still something whole.

Not untouched. Not unbroken.

But still standing.

 


 

The stars came out slowly, like they had to push through all the smoke that still hung low over the valley.

It had taken them hours to drag the dead men’s bodies away from the homestead and stack them for burial. John and Arthur hadn’t spoken much during the work — just exchanged quiet nods and short instructions. The kind of silence shared between men who had seen too much and didn’t want to make it heavier by speaking it aloud.

The fire in the house had burned itself out by dusk. Nothing but blackened beams and crumbling stonework remained. The walls that had once sheltered laughter and warmth now stood like tombstones, jagged and skeletal. They’d salvaged what they could — a few tins, blankets, some of Jack's unburned books, and some tools — but most of it was gone.

The barn, mercifully, had been spared. Its wooden doors now stood open to the night, the interior lit by a soft lantern-glow. Blankets were spread on the floor, supplies tucked into saddlebags nearby. Jack lay curled up under his mother’s arm, his breath finally even and soft with sleep. Abigail wasn’t sleeping — her eyes open and glassy, staring at the hay-strewn ceiling. John sat near them with his back against a beam, one knee up, his hand resting on his son’s small shoulder.

Arthur kept watch just outside the barn doors, leaning against the frame with his rifle balanced across his knees, smoking in silence.

No one had said it aloud, but they all knew.

They had to leave.

This land — this hope — had burned to cinders.

Arthur had said it plain: We can’t stay. Not after this. They’ll keep coming. They always do.
And so they’d decided. Tomorrow, they'd head for Jo’s cabin in the northern hills. Just for a few days. Long enough to figure out what came next.

And maybe breathe.

The night was still, save for the quiet shuffle of horses in the nearby paddock — the soft snorts and shifting hooves of creatures more perceptive than people. They knew something had broken here. Something had scorched the earth clean through.

Jo leaned back against the weathered fence post, one arm curled around her ribs as she unbuttoned her shirt just enough to expose the side of her torso. She pulled up the bloodied hem of her undershirt, jaw clenched tight. The pain flared fresh and sharp now that the adrenaline had worn off — her entire left side throbbed with a deep, hot ache that made her vision swim if she breathed too deep.

She’d said she was fine. Insisted it more than once, after the chaos had ended.

But she wasn’t fine. Not really.

The bastard’s boot had caught her hard — cracked a rib, maybe two — and the reopened gunshot wound had bled through her bandage long before sunset. She’d ignored it. Pressed a hand to it through her coat and said nothing, even when Arthur gave her a long, wary look.

She’d been too stubborn to be seen as weak.

Too wild to let anyone tend to her like she was broken.

Now, under the stars and out of sight, she hissed sharply as she peeled the crusted bandage away from her skin. Dried blood tugged at torn flesh, and her fingers trembled against the warmth that spilled anew. She pressed a clean cloth to it, biting down on a curse, blinking hard against the sting that lit her nerves up like fire.

She didn’t hear the footsteps behind her until they were too close to ignore.

Boots on dirt. Slow. Heavy.

“Damn it,” she muttered under her breath, too soft to be heard. She didn’t turn. Didn’t try to hide what she was doing — no point in pretending now.

A pause.

Then his voice, low and worn. “Figured you was too quiet.”

She still didn’t look up. Just held the cloth tight to her side, breathing through her teeth.

Arthur stepped closer, boots scuffing in the grass. He didn’t speak again right away. Just stood a few paces behind her, watching the way her shoulders hunched, the blood-stained bandage at her side.

“How bad?” he asked finally, his voice carefully level — but strained at the edges.

She exhaled a slow, shaky breath.

“Not bad enough,” she said, her tone dry. “Still breathin’. Still cussing, so—figure I’m alright.”

Arthur didn’t laugh.

Didn’t even smile.

Instead, he dropped down to a crouch beside her, his eyes scanning her side as she shifted just enough for him to see the wound.

Jo didn’t meet his gaze. She hated that heat rising in her throat. Hated how close it came to shame — not for being hurt, but for pretending she wasn’t.

“You should’ve told it earlier,” he muttered.

“I didn’t need you fussin’ over me,” she said, wincing as she tightened the cloth again. “I could handle it.”

“Yeah? You ‘handlin’ it’ looks a lot like bleeding through a bandage and tryin’ not to fall over.”

Her jaw tensed. “Didn’t want you lookin’ at me like I was breakin’.”

Arthur went quiet at that.

The wind blew soft between them, carrying the scent of singed wood and horses and dust. The kind of quiet that usually lived after a funeral.

“You ain’t breakin’,” he said after a beat. “You damn near fought off Ross with your bare hands. That ain’t weakness, Jo. That’s... hell, that’s about the fiercest thing I ever seen.”

That got her to look at him.

And for once, there was no anger in her eyes. No sharp retort.

Just something raw. Tired. But still burning.

“Yeah?” she muttered, half a breath. “Felt like I was gonna fall apart.”

Arthur reached out slowly — giving her the chance to stop him. When she didn’t, he placed his hand gently over hers, helping to press the cloth against her wound. His calloused fingers were steady. Warm.

She looked down at their hands.

At the blood-stained cloth between them.

Then up, into his face — lined with smoke and worry and dirt.

“I hate bein’ seen like this,” she said quietly. “Hurt. Limping. Bleedin’ on the ground. I hate it.”

“I know.”

“But I didn’t want to die, Arthur. Not today. Not like that. Not with him.”

He shook his head, eyes glinting. “You ain’t gonna die. Not with me around. You hear me?”

Jo nodded faintly, then leaned her head back against the fence post, exhaling a shaky breath through her nose. Arthur sat down beside her, letting her lean against his shoulder.

The wind had stilled now. Crickets murmured in the tall grass, and from inside the barn came the low snuffling of tired horses, the creak of old wood adjusting beneath the weight of survival.

Jo leaned against him, her body heavy with pain and exhaustion, but still solid — still hers. Arthur sat beside her like a wall she could rest her weight against. Not too close, not too far. Just there.

The horses shifted behind the fence, stamping and snorting softly in the dark. One of them — Laramie — gave a faint nicker and pawed the dirt, as if sensing her rider’s unease and wanting to press closer. But Jo didn’t move. She just sat there with her side throbbing under the bandage, eyes fixed on the blackened bones of the house they’d all called home.

What was left of it, anyway.

Charred wood stood like ribs poking up from the earth. Still faintly smoking. Still warm with the ruin of the day.

“I thought Beecher’s could be somethin’ real,” Jo said quietly, her voice hoarse and dry from smoke. “A place where we’d stop runnin’.”

She didn’t look at Arthur when she said it. Just let the words fall like the ash that drifted on the wind.

Arthur was quiet for a long moment, his jaw working as he stared at the same ruin. When he finally spoke, his voice was rough with something hollow and sharp-edged beneath it.

“Real don’t always mean safe,” he muttered. “Guess I forgot that.”

Jo turned her face slightly, studying the tired lines of his profile, the way the firelight from the barn’s light flickered faint in his eyes.

For a while, they sat in that silence — the kind that carried more weight than shouting ever could. The kind where grief didn’t scream, it just settled bone-deep, like the cold creeping in now that the sun was long gone.

Jo shifted slightly and picked up a rock near her boot. She thumbed it once — smooth, round, still warm from the sun earlier — and then tossed it hard toward the burned house. It hit a scorched beam with a sharp crack and bounced off into the dark.

Arthur didn’t say a word. Just reached into his coat, pulled out a crumpled pack of cigarettes and struck a match. The tiny flame flared between them, lighting the deep grooves in his face, the cuts on his cheek, the faint tremble in his fingers. He lit the cigarette, drew once, then turned to Jo and offered it.

She took it wordlessly. Brought it to her lips and inhaled, the burn sharp in her chest. She hadn’t smoked since before Valentine. She hadn’t done a lot of things since then.

They passed it back and forth a few times, not talking. Just breathing together in the dark. The cigarette burned low between their fingers, a single ember in a world gone cold.

Arthur glanced at her as she handed it back. Her hand shook, just barely. And she didn’t hide it this time.

“I should’ve protected you better,” he said quietly.

Jo blinked. Her breath caught.

“I knew the second that bastard grabbed you, I should’ve— I knew what they’d do. I should’ve seen it comin’. Should’ve stopped it.”

She turned her head sharply toward him. “Arthur—”

“I keep losin’ the people I care about, Jo,” he said. “And I’m so goddamn tired of it.”

That stilled her.

There was no anger in his voice. No bitterness. Just grief — that slow, unrelenting grief that lived in his bones and bled into every decision he made.

She stared at him, her breath softening, her pain forgotten for a moment.

Arthur looked down, his thumb brushing the corner of her sleeve. Then slowly — gently — he lifted his hand and tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear, fingers lingering just a second longer than necessary.

It wasn’t romantic. It wasn’t meant to be.

It was human. Intimate in a way neither of them had allowed themselves in a long time.

Jo didn’t pull away. She just let him do it, her throat tightening against the tears she wouldn’t let fall.

“Lemme fix that,” he said after a pause, voice quieter now.

She nodded, and he shifted toward her. His hands were warm as he unwrapped the old cloth, more careful this time, more gentle. He cleaned the wound with a fresh cloth, added a salve he’d kept in his coat pocket, and bound it tight. His movements were practiced — but not impersonal. Every motion was deliberate. Kind.

Jo didn’t realize she was leaning into him until her head came to rest against his shoulder. He said nothing. Just adjusted slightly so she could settle there better.

Her eyes grew heavier as the minutes passed, the ache in her side dulled by the pressure of the fresh bandage and the quiet warmth of him beside her.

She murmured something then — too soft for the night to carry far.

“Don’t go far when I wake.”

Arthur turned his head, brow furrowed faintly.

But her breath had evened out. Her body slack against his arm.

She’d fallen asleep.

Arthur let out a slow breath, tilted his head back against the fence post behind him, and closed his eyes.

“I won’t,” he said, just above a whisper. “Ain’t goin’ nowhere.”

And with her weight against him, her heartbeat steady, and the night stretching out quiet and fragile around them — he meant it.

For tonight, at least, they weren’t running.

Chapter 53: Only If She Stays

Chapter Text

They left Beecher’s Hope as the sun crested the hills, golden light chasing long shadows across scorched earth and smoke-scarred timbers. The smell of ash still clung to them, buried deep in their clothes, their skin, their lungs. None of them said much. But what could be said?

The barn had held, but it wasn’t enough. The law knew where they’d been. They couldn’t stay.

By midday, the sun beat down strongly through the breaks in Tall Trees’ dense canopy, and the forest opened up around them into a small clearing. Wild grasses swayed in the breeze, and the sound of Aurora Basin wasn’t far—just beyond the treeline to the west. The air was cleaner here, untouched by fire or gunpowder.

And there it was. 

The quiet around Jo’s cabin was different than at Beecher’s. Here, the wind moved slower, thicker through the pines. The only sound was the rustle of Tall Trees whispering to themselves and the muffled clink of hooves and tack as the group dismounted. By the time they arrived, the sun had just passed its highest point, bathing the cabin in a sleepy gold that softened the edges of the place.

It looked the same as it had when Arthur had found it weeks ago—weathered, remote, but not unloved. A rough wooden structure nestled in the clearing with ivy creeping along one side, its little porch sagging slightly under age. Behind it, the smaller shack stood quiet and tucked between two tall redwoods, its door hanging ajar like it had been left that way in a hurry revealing the faint outline of old tools and a workbench half-covered in dust.

John had dismounted first, stretching his back with a groan and helping Abigail down gently. Jack followed, sleepy-eyed and silent, holding tightly to his satchel. Jo stayed in the saddle for a moment longer, hand tightening on the reins as she looked over the place.

She didn’t speak as she slid off Laramie, touching the mare’s flank absently, eyes on the porch steps. The silence of this place pressed different against her skin now. Not empty, but heavy. Watching her own ghost move between the trees.

Arthur unsaddled Atlas without looking toward the cabin. He’d been here before. Seen the signs of Jo’s solitude in the way she’d kept this place—simple, precise, like survival had been the only priority. But now that he was seeing it with everyone else around, with her walking back into it like some reluctant revenant, it felt heavier. Like the place was soaked with a version of her he didn’t know.

Abigail didn’t ask questions. She followed Jack into the house with slow, measured steps. Inside, the single bed creaked faintly as she lowered herself beside her son, arms curled around his shoulders. John stood just past the doorway, torn between going in and staying out, one hand resting on the frame. He didn’t say a word.

The cabin was cold and stale, thick with the silence of weeks left untouched. Dust clung to the floorboards, and spiderwebs shimmered in the corners. But it was shelter. There was only one bed—Jo’s. The mattress thin but clean, the frame made of thick, carved logs.

Jo stepped inside, looked at it once, then turned to Abigail.

“You and the boy take the bed,” she said. “John, if you can squeeze in, do. I’ve slept rougher.”

Abigail hesitated, her face lined with exhaustion and the aftershock of everything they’d lost. “You sure?”

Jo nodded. “I’ll take the floor.”

She busied herself immediately. She stepped outside and opened the door to the shack, disappearing inside, the faint scrape of metal on wood drifting back as she shifted through the tools she’d left behind. She found a broken hinge, then a frayed bit of rope. Anything to keep her hands moving. The wound still pulled at her side, though she’d done a damn fine job of pretending it didn’t.

Arthur watched her from a few yards away, his jaw tight. She hadn’t sat since they arrived. Hadn’t even taken off her coat. Her bandaged side still bled sluggishly beneath the shirt she’d stubbornly refused to change. She walked like someone who could feel the stitches tearing.

He gave it a while. Let her circle like a dog looking for somewhere to lie down. But by the time the shadows began to stretch and Jo was still out near the fence, her hands wrapped in wire and a hammer gripped in her fingers, he’d had enough.

He didn’t call her name. Just walked up, stood beside her with the weight of his presence doing the speaking.

“You think if you just keep movin’ fast enough, you’ll outrun the pain?” he said finally, voice low.

Jo didn’t look at him. “I’m fine.”

“You ain’t.”

She gave a short breath through her nose—maybe a laugh, maybe not. “Can’t sit still, Arthur. Not after all that.”

“You don’t have to sit still,” he replied. “Just need you to stop hurtin’ yourself more than the rest already did.”

He gently pried the hammer from her hand. Her knuckles were scraped. Her side still leaking through the edge of the bandage. Her eyes flicked up to him, shadows beneath them that hadn’t been there five years ago. But there was fire too. That same wild defiance that had made her punch her way through everything that ever tried to break her.

“I was alone here,” she muttered. “For a long time. You know that?”

Arthur nodded, quiet.

“This place,” she continued, glancing toward the shack, “it wasn’t a home. It was a prison with a lock I built myself.”

He didn’t interrupt her. Just waited.

“But I still survived it,” she said, voice cracking just slightly. “Every goddamn day.”

Arthur set the hammer down on the post. “Then quit actin’ like you’re still in it.”

That hit something. Jo exhaled slowly, her shoulders slumping just a bit. She finally turned to face him—dirt on her cheek, sweat streaking her temple, but her eyes were clear.

“I know,” she said softly. “I just… don’t know what comes next.”

He shrugged. “Neither do I. But we’ll figure it out.”

She didn’t argue. Instead, she let out a slow sigh and—for the first time since they’d arrived—sat. Right there in the dirt beside the fence post, her back against it, legs stretched out in front of her.

Arthur didn’t push. Just crouched down beside her, pulling a flask from his coat and handing it over. She took it, grateful, tilting it back before wiping her mouth with the back of her hand.

“Thanks,” she muttered.

“Don’t thank me yet,” he said dryly. “You’re still gonna get your ass chewed if that wound rips open again.”

She rolled her eyes, but there was a flicker of a smile.

They sat there a while longer, watching the treetops sway.

And when Jo finally leaned her head back against the post, letting the sun warm her face, there was a stillness in her chest that hadn’t been there since Beecher’s.

She’d come back to the place she thought she buried herself in. But maybe… just maybe, she wasn’t buried after all.

By late afternoon, Jack had already curled up under a blanket with one of his books, legs tucked beneath him. Abigail sat beside him on the bed, combing the boy’s hair with her fingers, a distant look in her eyes. John kept near the door, rifle across his lap, still twitching at every sound in the woods.

The cabin smelled faintly of smoke and pine. It creaked with the weight of settling bodies and tired bones. Someone had lit a small fire in the stone hearth, just enough to take the edge off the mountain chill. A few pieces of salvaged jerky were passed around, along with stale biscuits and weak coffee. No one complained. The silence between them said enough—every voice too tired, too worn down by the weight of escape.

Arthur sat near the window, sharpening his knife with slow, steady drags of steel against stone. His hat was pulled low over his eyes, the muscle in his jaw working with quiet tension. Every so often, he’d glance toward the front door, but Jo wasn’t there.

She hadn’t come in.

Outside, Jo was sitting on the porch like a woman lost in time.

The old rocking chair groaned beneath her as she moved gently back and forth, her arms folded loose across her stomach. Her cane leaned against the railing beside her, forgotten for the moment. A breeze wound through the trees and lifted her hair just enough to catch the light, strands of gold and shadow drifting across her cheek. She didn’t brush it away.

Her gaze was fixed on the distant ridgeline, where the snow caught on the evergreens like a memory that wouldn’t melt.

She remembered sleeping beneath trees. Years alone on the road, too many to count. The ground had been hard and unforgiving, her ribs sharper each week, her boots worn so thin she could feel every rock beneath her heel. There were nights she couldn’t feel her fingers, and mornings where the ache in her bones felt like punishment for something she couldn’t name.

There had been men—the wrong kind. Towns with names she never bothered to remember. Rooms that stank of sweat and bad breath. Fingers rougher than they needed to be. Voices full of empty flattery and ugly intentions. She had let them use her, and hated herself for it, but survival had narrowed her choices down to almost nothing.

Sometimes she still woke with the smell of them in her nose, choking her in the dark.

Her hand drifted down to the scar near her thigh, hidden beneath her pants. A reminder. A man had given that to her when she tried to leave before he was finished. She hadn’t made that mistake again.

But she had survived it.

All of it.

And now she was here.

Jo looked back toward the soft glow bleeding through the shutters. She could hear Jack’s voice—quiet and full of wonder as he mumbled aloud some passage from the book cradled in his lap. Abigail’s soothing murmur followed, words too low to make out, but full of warmth. John coughed once and shifted his boots, ever the guard dog. Arthur’s silhouette leaned against the inside wall, still and solid like the foundation of a house.

She wasn’t alone anymore.

It struck her slowly, like dawn. No fanfare. Just the gentle realization that she didn’t have to carry everything by herself now. That she had people beside her again—not just ghosts and regrets.

Jo exhaled, slow and steady, and for the first time in days, she felt the tension in her shoulders begin to ease.

The chair rocked beneath her with a soft creak.

Not a prison anymore. Not a tomb.

A beginning.

She closed her eyes, just for a moment, and let the wind run its fingers through her hair.

The porch creaked behind her.

Jo didn’t move, didn’t even open her eyes at first. Just kept rocking gently, her fingers curled against the armrest, her body finally starting to feel the cold where it seeped in through her coat. The soft and unsure scrape of a boot told her who it was before he said a word.

John.

He hovered for a second in the open doorway, as if unsure whether to step outside or not. Then the screen door squealed softly and thudded shut behind him. The porch dipped slightly as he walked over and leaned on the railing a few feet away from her, crossing his arms on the beam and looking out toward the trees.

“Didn’t think you’d be the quiet type,” Jo murmured, voice dry.

“Didn’t figure you’d be the kind to sit still this long,” John shot back, faint amusement in his voice.

Jo opened her eyes then, looked sideways at him. “I ain’t. Just… takin’ a beat.”

He nodded, silent again, his gaze fixed on the horizon like he was trying to see farther than his own damn thoughts. For a long while, neither of them spoke. The wind rustled through the trees. Somewhere in the distance, a lone bird called out once and fell silent again.

Then John exhaled and said softly, “It’s a good place.”

She tilted her head back against the chair. “Ain’t much.”

“Doesn’t have to be.” He rubbed his thumb across a nick in the wood of the railing. “After what we just walked out of? It’s a lot.”

Jo looked back toward the cabin’s modest frame—rough-cut logs, smoke curling from the chimney, Jack’s muffled voice still drifting through the shutters. It was a far cry from the open plains and grand dreams Dutch used to spout. But it was safe. It was warm. It stood.

“Guess I hoped it could be somethin’ else, once,” she murmured. “Way back when I found it. Someplace to die in peace.”

John glanced at her. “You ain’t dead.”

She met his eyes. “Didn’t say I wanted to be. Just didn’t think I’d have much choice back then.”

He nodded again. That quiet understanding between them — the kind that didn’t need to be said aloud. He knew what it meant to claw your way back from the edge. They all did, in some way or another.

“I’m real sorry,” he said finally, voice low. “About all of it. I know you… you lost somethin’, too.”

Jo stared down at her hands. 

“You gave us this instead,” John said, softer now. “This place. Shelter. Time. That’s more than I ever had to give you.”

She blinked, surprised by the edge in his voice—not anger, but something more tender, raw. Her chest ached with it.

“You don’t owe me nothin’, John.”

“Maybe not,” he said. “But I’d still like to say thank you. Proper.”

Jo gave him a long look, then let her head fall back against the chair again, a half-smile ghosting across her lips.

“You’re welcome.”

He nodded once, as if that was all he needed, and turned to go—but hesitated at the door.

“You ever think,” he said over his shoulder, “maybe this don’t have to be just a stop along the way?”

Jo’s brow furrowed. “What do you mean?”

“I mean… maybe we fix this place up. Maybe not today, not tomorrow. But someday. Give Jack somethin’ solid. Somethin’ his.”

She looked past him, out to the wild treetops swaying in the breeze, to the cabin — her cabin — and for the first time, didn’t see just the walls she’d hidden behind. She saw roots. She saw the start of something.

“Maybe,” she said quietly.

John offered her a small smile—tired, genuine and stepped back inside.

Jo watched the door swing shut behind him and found herself exhaling deeper than she meant to. Her throat felt tight again, but not from grief this time. Just from the weight of being seen.

From not being alone.

And for a moment, just a flicker, she let herself believe in what John said.

Maybe this didn’t have to be just a stop. Maybe it could be something more.

Maybe this time, they wouldn’t have to run.

Jo lingered long after John had gone inside.

The rocking chair creaked beneath her, slow and steady, her boots anchored in the warped wood of the porch. Her gaze trailed the tree line, then wandered up toward the smoke curling softly from the chimney. It was a simple place, this cabin. Quiet. Remote. But maybe it was too close after all. Too close to Valentine. Too close to where Beecher’s Hope had stood. Too close to the last place they'd tried and failed to build a life.

Too close to what they’d lost.

Her hand twitched toward the knife on her hip as if to steady herself. A foolish habit she’d picked up over the years—touching a weapon whenever her mind got too loud. She let it drop after a second.

The air smelled like pine and distant water. Laramie gave a soft snort from where she roamed freely. Jo looked toward her old mare, standing under the fading orange light, and managed a tired smile.

Eventually, she rose. Slowly. Carefully. Her joints were stiff and her side was throbbing—she’d overdone it, but wouldn’t admit that to anyone. She crossed to the door and slipped back inside as quietly as she could.

The warmth of the fire was immediate, soft orange casting long shadows across the modest walls. The cabin wasn’t big — a single room, really — but it felt full in a way it never had before. Abigail lay curled on the bed with Jack, her arm around him protectively. The boy’s book had slipped to the floor beside the mattress. His breathing was soft and even, lips parted. Safe, for now.

Arthur and John were both stretched out on bedrolls near the door, their guns close by. Arthur’s hat was pulled low over his eyes, his shoulders slumped in sleep that looked far from restful. John was facing the fire, still half-awake, rubbing at his face like the weight of the day hadn’t quite let him go.

Jo didn’t say anything. She just pulled an old blanket off the wall peg and folded herself down by the back corner of the room, on the cold wooden floor beside the stone hearth. She didn’t want to disturb anyone. Her old bed belonged to someone else tonight. She wouldn’t take it back.

She laid the blanket out beneath her, winced as she eased down, and exhaled slowly. Her whole body ached. Not just from the wound, but from being upright too long, from keeping herself busy all day as a way to outrun the thoughts clawing at the back of her mind.

She closed her eyes, willing sleep to take her.

It didn’t. Not easily.

The night passed in fragments—broken images in the dark, like bits of shattered glass under her eyelids. The fire. Milton’s face. The Pinkertons. Arthur’s feet swinging above the gallows. Her own blood on the ground. Her cabin, empty. Her cabin, full.

At one point she woke sharply, heart racing. The fire was just coals now. Arthur stirred nearby, hat still over his face, but she saw his hand twitch toward his pistol even in sleep. Guard duty must’ve shifted. John was sitting up now, quietly smoking near the door, watching the tree line through a gap in the shutters.

She curled up tighter beneath the blanket, and for once, didn’t push herself to get up. She let herself lie there.

 


 

The cabin was silent but for the soft crackle of the fire and the subtle rhythm of sleep-breathing.

Arthur stood in the far corner by the door, leaning against the wall. He hadn’t meant to stay upright this long, but once John had nudged him awake for the last guard shift sometime around four, the thought of lying down again hadn’t much appealed. His body ached in all the usual places, and a few new ones too. His eyes were dry, rimmed in red, but alert.

His gaze moved slowly around the room.

Jack was tucked up against Abigail, the boy still clutching the tail end of the blanket in one small fist. Abigail’s arm curled protectively around him, her face slack with exhaustion. John had passed out near the foot of the bed, boots off, rifle within reach. He’d been out cold since he handed the watch off. The lines on his face had eased a little in sleep—not much, but enough to remind Arthur how young they all still were, beneath the grit.

Jo was curled against the far wall beneath a worn gray blanket, her back to the fire, her long hair spilling across the floorboards like water. He didn’t need to see her face to know she hadn’t slept much. The way her shoulders tensed, the slight twitch of her fingers even in rest—all of it told him her dreams weren’t peaceful. Hell, none of theirs were.

He let out a breath and pushed off the wall quietly. No need to wake anyone. The sun hadn’t crested the trees yet, but the sky through the cracks in the shutters was turning pale—morning creeping in, low and cautious. Another day.

He stepped outside.

The door gave the faintest groan behind him, but no one stirred. He let it close with a careful hand.

Outside, the world was hushed. Damp.

The morning mist hung low across the clearing, silver threads curling between blades of grass and along the cabin’s roof. Dew clung to the wild shrubs near the porch, and the dirt path to the small toolshed had darkened to mud from the storm that had passed days ago.

Arthur drew in a deep breath—pine, wet moss, earth.

Then he rolled himself a cigarette, shaking out the crumpled paper with tired fingers. It wasn’t the smoothest roll he’d ever done, but it would do. He struck a match against the porch beam and lit it, watching the tip glow before dragging in a slow breath. The smoke curled out from his lips and vanished into the fog.

He leaned on the railing, quiet.

The cabin behind him felt more like a heartbeat than a building—pulsing with the shared breath of survival. They’d made it one more night. 

A crow called in the distance.

He thought of Jo—the way she hadn’t stopped moving all day yesterday. Not even to sit, not really. Always fussing with something. The fence. The toolshed latch. That stubborn chair leg near the fire that wobbled if you so much as looked at it.

He knew what she was doing.

If she kept her hands busy, her mind couldn’t wander too far. Couldn’t revisit the fire at Beecher’s. The gallows. The blood. Her own pain.

But that kind of exhaustion came for you eventually, no matter how fast you ran.

He took another drag and watched the sky lighten by degrees, cloud-cover rolling thick and low over the western ridge. Rain was coming. Not yet—maybe later in the day. But it would fall.

The door creaked softly behind him.

He didn’t turn around right away—just flicked the ash off the end of his cigarette and glanced sideways as the porch boards shifted.

Jo.

She eased out into the gray light barefoot, blanket wrapped around her shoulders like a shawl, face pale with lack of sleep. Her hair was pulled over one shoulder in a loose braid that looked half undone, like she’d started the task and forgotten to finish it.

Their eyes met for just a moment.

Then she sat on the top step without a word, blanket pulled tighter, watching the mist between the trees like it was something familiar. Something she’d known for a long time.

Arthur didn’t say anything either.

He just offered her the cigarette between two fingers.

She looked at it, then up at him, and took it—their fingers brushing. Her hand was cold.

One quiet pull, then another. She exhaled slow. The look she gave him after was tired, but grateful.

They passed it back and forth in silence, the last of the cigarette burning down between them. Somewhere behind them, a floorboard creaked — John shifting in sleep, probably — but neither of them moved.

Eventually the sun started to rise but it barely bled through the clouds, and the sky hung gray and low like it didn’t want to commit.

Behind them, the cabin stirred more deliberately, the sound of movement, the scrape of boots, soft voices. Morning was beginning.

And soon they'd each begin their quiet tasks. Washing what bloodied clothes they still had. Repairing the shelves. Checking traps. Splitting firewood. Abigail would try to make tea from herbs Jo had left behind in dusty jars. John would try to keep Jack occupied and not break something. Arthur would busy himself outside—hammering a loose shutter back into place, fixing the latch on the corral. Jo would do too much again, despite the pain in her side. 

But for now, the morning still belonged to just the two of them.

Jo handed him back the cigarette stub. “Thanks,” she murmured.

Arthur gave a grunt that might’ve meant anything but his eyes lingered on her as she pulled the blanket tighter, the ghost of a scar peeking out beneath her collarbone before she hid it again.

They didn’t smile. Not quite.

But something passed between them anyway—something old and steady and real.

And the rain hadn’t even started yet.

 


 

Inside the cabin, the hush of morning slowly gave way to life—a slow, reluctant stirring after a long, uneasy night. There was no laughter, no conversation really—just the gentle noise of people beginning to move, the sound of feet on old floorboards, of water being poured, of mugs being passed from hand to hand. The air still smelled like damp wood and sleep and something heavier no one dared name aloud.

Jo hadn’t slept well, and her body reminded her of that with every careful shift and ache. Still wrapped in her blanket, she slipped back out the door just long enough to hand Arthur a steaming tin cup of coffee—the strong kind, bitter and black, the kind he liked.

She didn’t say anything when he took it from her—just offered a small nod, which he returned with a grunt of thanks and a flick of his cigarette ash.

Then she turned and stepped back inside, breath visible in the cool air.

She set her own mug on the table a few minutes later, fingers trailing over the old, worn map she’d spread out beside it. The creases were soft from age, smudged here and there by ink, dirt, or rain. She sat down slowly, careful of the healing wound still pulling tight across her side. One hand hovered over the northern territories, her fingertips tapping absently near Montana’s edge. Too far, maybe. Too cold. She traced back down, searching.

Abigail moved around the cabin like a shadow—quiet, steady, watchful. She’d helped make the coffee first thing, boiling what clean water they had in the old kettle that sat rusted but functional on the cabin’s small woodstove. Now, she was trying to tidy things where she could, wiping down surfaces with a cloth soaked in rainwater collected from the barrel out back, rinsing blood from old bandages before tossing them into the fire. She didn’t say much to anyone unless spoken to, but her eyes never strayed far from Jack or John for long.

There was tension in her shoulders, and it wasn’t just worry—it was readiness. A mother’s need to keep moving. To keep everyone alive.

Jack, freshly awake and rubbing his eyes with one fist, sat near the hearth, still bundled in the same blanket. He didn’t ask questions. Just watched his mother move about the room, then shifted his gaze to Arthur through the open door, and then Jo at the table. His book sat unopened on the armrest beside him. He looked thoughtful. Old beyond his years.

Eventually, he wandered over to Jo and stood at her elbow without saying anything. She gave him a small glance, then angled the map slightly so he could see too. He studied the lines for a moment, head tilted.

"That one's the mountains?" he asked softly, pointing to a range that curved west.

"Yeah," Jo murmured. "Tall ones. Cold. Hard to get through. But beautiful."

He nodded, then sat cross-legged at her feet and went back to watching the fire.

John, rough-looking and stiff from a night on the floor, was already outside the moment he was sure everyone else was accounted for. The rifle was slung over his shoulder, and he paced the perimeter of the clearing with slow, deliberate steps. Every time a twig snapped in the woods, he twitched. Eyes narrowed. Hand ready.

He hadn’t slept more than a few hours himself—he’d taken first watch, and even when Arthur took over, his eyes never fully closed. Too much uncertainty in the air.

Eventually, he started stacking some of the old firewood left near the shed, grumbling under his breath about damp logs and bad nails. But he kept glancing back at the door. At Jack. At Abigail.

Just to be sure.

Arthur, now done with his smoke and coffee, stepped back inside after the mist had burned off some. His boots tracked wet prints across the floor, but nobody complained. He shrugged off his coat and hung it near the hearth before heading toward the small toolshed.

There were things that needed fixing—the door latch, a cracked windowpane, maybe even the porch rail Jo leaned on too often. Quiet, methodical work.

It gave him something to do with his hands.

And from time to time, when he thought no one was watching, his eyes drifted to Jo—the way she sat hunched slightly over that map, her brow creased, her knuckles pale against the wood. He didn’t interrupt her. Didn’t press her for answers.

But he noticed.

He always noticed.

 


 

The clouds still hadn’t burst, but the sky had taken on that swollen, leaden look that came right before a downpour. The air hung heavy, wet and silent, like the forest itself was holding its breath.

Jo was outside, sleeves rolled up and hair tied back, moving with a slow sort of rhythm that was both methodical and distracted. The clothesline stretched between two bent lodgepole pines near the back of the cabin, a makeshift rod of iron wire she’d likely strung herself long ago. She hung damp shirts and worn undershirts by their shoulders, pinching them with old wooden pegs, one after the other, until the line sagged under the weight of half-wrung cloth and rain-scented steam.

Every motion looked practiced — almost soothing — but her eyes stayed distant. Somewhere far off. Somewhere she hadn’t spoken about. Somewhere only she knew.

Arthur stood on the porch steps for a moment, watching.

She hadn't noticed him at first, and he debated letting her be. God knows she’d earned a moment of peace. But the look on her face—that hard little shadow tucked just beneath her eyes—had followed him all morning. 

He shoved off the rail and stepped down, boots crunching softly in the underbrush, a thin wisp of smoke from his cigarette curling behind him in the low breeze. “You sure them clothes’ll dry before the clouds decide to give up?”

Jo glanced over her shoulder, unsurprised. “Got maybe twenty minutes if I’m lucky.”

Arthur gave a short huff. “Ain’t never known luck to show up early.”

She didn’t smile, but her shoulders eased slightly. A twitch at the corner of her mouth.  The kind of subtle shift he might’ve missed once. Not anymore.

He approached slowly, hands in his coat pockets, cigarette pinched between two fingers. “You got any ideas yet?” he asked, his tone casual but deliberate. “Spots we could go? Get ahead of all this?”

Jo clipped up the last shirt and stepped back a little to study her work. The clothesline flapped gently in the rising wind. 

“I been thinkin’ on it,” she said finally. “There’s a place a ways west of Colorado. Remote. Dry enough this time of year. Some decent game. I passed through it back in... ’01 maybe.”

Arthur made a noise that could’ve meant anything.

She turned toward the basket at her feet and stooped to pick it up with both hands. Arthur reached for it, but she shrugged him off gently. “I got it.”

“You always do,” he muttered under his breath, then followed her toward the shack.

It was narrow and weathered, its walls darkened by time and rain. Inside, it smelled faintly of cedar, canvas, and damp earth. There wasn’t much — a bench along the wall, a narrow table with old tools, a crate for firewood. Just enough for storage and occasional work. Or, in Jo’s case, solitude.

Jo set the basket down by the wall. The rain was still holding, but just barely.

“You know it well?” he asked quietly, arms crossed. “The place I mean.”

Jo leaned against the shelf, arms folded loosely. “Well enough.”

She didn’t elaborate, and he didn’t press. But something about her tone struck him sideways. Flat. Guarded.

“You knew all these places,” he said after a moment. “All them years you was gone. And you didn’t think to write?”

Here he goes again.

Jo exhaled through her nose, quiet and sharp. “What good would that’ve done?”

He frowned. “Letting folks know you were alive? Maybe that’d’ve meant somethin’.”

She turned away slightly, tension returning to her frame. “To who, Arthur? You’d told me to leave like I was some bad thing and Hosea’s–”

His breath caught in his throat. He looked down, cigarette burning low between his fingers. That name still hit like a punch to the ribs.

Jo’s voice softened, guilt brushing the edge. “I didn’t mean—”

Arthur cut her off gently. “I know.”

Jo looked down, suddenly ashamed of the bitterness in her voice. She sighed, turned away again. Her fingers toyed with a loose thread at the hem of her shirt.

Silence settled between them. Rain began tapping lightly on the roof—just the early drops.

Arthur took a step closer. His voice dropped lower. “I ain’t askin’ to drag up ghosts, Jo. I’m just... tryin’ to understand what you been through. What you had to do to survive.”

She said nothing. Her hands froze at her sides.

“What is it that you don’t want to tell me?” he asked finally, his voice quieter now, but firmer. “What’s so bad you think I can’t take it?”

Jo turned to face him then—eyes bright, jaw tense. “I don’t owe you any sort of honesty about my personal life,” she snapped. “Not about those years. Not about what I did.”

Arthur blinked. His jaw tightened. “No,” he said slowly. “You don’t. But I’d like to think I mean enough to you for it to matter.”

Jo stared at him, chest rising and falling a little faster now, but she didn’t answer. She turned abruptly and opened the shack door, stepping out just as the sky finally cracked open and the rain began to fall in earnest.

Arthur cursed under his breath and followed her, boots splashing through puddles forming in the grass. She was already halfway across the yard, soaked to the bone, shoulders squared like armor.

“Goddamn it, Jo,” he barked, grabbing her arm gently but firmly. “Look, are you gonna let me in on what you're thinkin’ here? Or am I just supposed to keep waitin’ on you to figure out if you even want me in your life?”

Jo yanked her arm free, her hair plastered to her cheek from the rain, her breath sharp and shivering.

“You want the truth, Arthur?” she asked, not yelling—but something fierce behind her voice all the same. “You think I been choosin’ to be like this? You think I want to keep things from you?”

He didn’t answer. Just stood there. Soaking, waiting.

She swallowed hard, teeth clenched like the words hurt.

“There’s things I done that I can’t say out loud—especially not to you. Not Arthur Morgan, who still sees good in the worst places, who still looks at me like I’m worth the goddamn trouble.” Her voice broke a little there, but she kept going. “I ain’t never been proud of what I did out there. But I did what I had to. And yeah— I kept it to myself. Not ‘cause I didn’t trust you. But because I admire you. And because I… I love you.”

Arthur’s breath hitched. He opened his mouth, then closed it. The rain fell harder.

Jo looked away, trembling. “I ain’t what you deserve.”

Arthur didn’t hesitate.

“Maybe not,” he said, his voice steady now, clear even through the rain. He took a step closer. “But you’re what I want.”

Jo froze. Her breath caught. And for a moment, everything — the rain, the pain, the guilt — just stopped .

Their eyes locked. Neither of them moved.

The sky poured around them, drenching them to the bone. Raindrops streaked down Jo’s cheeks like tears she wouldn’t shed. Arthur’s breath came shallow, misting the inch of air between them. The world beyond the clearing vanished. No more trees, no more storm. Just the two of them—standing there with their hearts wide open, laid bare, and trembling.

Then—

Whether it was her who surged forward first or him who finally snapped the tether, it didn’t matter. Their bodies collided like a match struck against stone. Their mouths crashed together in a rough, desperate kiss—hot and wild despite the cold that soaked them. Teeth clashed. Lips bruised. There was no slow build, no caution.

Only need .

Jo clutched at his soaked shirt like she was trying to hold herself together, but it wasn’t enough. Her fingers fumbled upward, into his hair—drenched, heavy—and she pulled , needing more, needing him . Arthur groaned into her mouth as his hands found her waist, sliding down with a kind of fevered hunger he hadn’t allowed himself to feel in years. He gripped her ass through the fabric of her pants like a man who’d spent a lifetime waiting to touch her and couldn’t believe he finally could.

She gasped.

He lifted her without effort, her legs instinctively wrapping around his waist as he crushed her against his chest. Her wet body molded to his, clinging as if she might shatter if he let her go.

The shack door slammed open under the wind, and Arthur carried her straight through it like a man possessed—like a man who couldn’t bear one more second of space between them. He kicked the door shut behind him with one booted foot, the sound loud and final in the silence that followed.

The storm roared just beyond the thin walls, but it might as well have been a hundred miles away.

Jo’s breath hitched as her back landed against the rough wood of the workbench. The surface was cold, but Arthur was heat itself—pressing her down, kissing her like he could pour everything he’d never said straight into her mouth.

Her hands were everywhere—his jaw, his chest, the back of his neck, mapping him like a woman reclaiming something once stolen. She arched into him, her hips meeting his in a rhythm they couldn’t stop even if they tried.

Arthur groaned low in his throat, the sound raw and guttural as his mouth tore away from hers just long enough to drag along the edge of her jaw, her throat, her collarbone—where her pulse thundered beneath the skin.

“You got no idea,” he muttered, breath hot against her neck, “how long I’ve wanted to do this.”

Jo bit her lip, a moan catching in her throat as her head fell back. “Then do it,” she said, voice wrecked and wanting. “ Do it.

And God, he did.

His hips pinned hers to the table as his hands slid up beneath her damp blouse, fingers spreading wide across the curve of her back. Every inch of her was cold from the rain, but her skin burned where he touched her.

He kissed her again, slower this time, but no less desperate—like he was memorizing the taste of her, the shape of her mouth, the way she trembled under his hands. Like he was afraid it might all vanish if he blinked.

Jo reached for his shirt, fingers clumsy, shaking. “I missed you,” she whispered into the space between kisses. “You don’t even know—”

“I do ,” he rasped, capturing her lips again. “You don’t think I know what that feels like?”

Outside, the clothes she’d so carefully hung were forgotten, sagging under the weight of the rain. The wind tugged at sleeves and hems like ghostly fingers, but no one saw. No one cared.

Inside, it was heat and steam and breathless noise.

Jo’s thighs clenched around his waist, holding him there, grounding him. Her head tilted back, lips parted, eyes fluttering as Arthur pressed kisses down her throat like each one was a vow. Her spine arched higher as he kissed a trail along her collarbone, his stubble scraping the sensitive skin there, sending shivers rolling down her spine. The storm outside beat like a second heartbeat against the walls, but it was distant—dim and unimportant compared to the storm between them.

His hands pushed her blouse up slowly, reverently, like each inch of skin revealed meant something sacred. Jo lifted her arms wordlessly, letting him peel the wet fabric over her head and cast it aside. Her skin was chilled from the rain, goosebumps rising instantly—but Arthur’s hands were warm as they spread over her ribs, thumbs stroking gently just beneath the curve of her breasts.

Jo watched him. Rain still clung to his lashes, his face flushed and wet. He looked half-wild and completely undone. But his gaze? His gaze was steady. Sure. It held her like an anchor.

“You’re beautiful,” he said, low and hoarse, like he’d never dared say it out loud before. Like the words burned on the way out.

Her breath hitched.

She reached for his shirt then, tugging at the wet fabric, and he helped her—shrugging it off in one smooth motion, revealing the planes of his chest and the scars that told as many stories as her own. She ran her fingers over them, slow, reverent, as if to say I know. I understand. Their scars matched—not in shape, but in meaning. Every mark a price paid, a memory carried.

Arthur leaned in, brushing his nose along hers, then rested his forehead against her temple. “You sure?” he murmured, voice trembling with restraint. “I ain’t gonna—rush you. Not if you ain’t—”

She cupped his face, thumb brushing the corner of his mouth, her voice steady but soft. “You ain’t taking nothing from me, Arthur Morgan. You never have.”

That was all he needed.

Their mouths met again, slower this time. Deeper. She leaned into him, tasting the earth and rain and longing on his tongue. His hands slid behind her back, unhooking the damp fabric of her undergarment with a practiced flick, then dropping it gently to the floor.

She didn’t flinch. She didn’t hide herself.

Arthur looked at her like she was the first light after a long winter. He bent forward, pressing warm kisses to the tops of her breasts, the slope of her sternum, the hollow beneath her ribs. She gasped, head falling back as his hands traveled her body—mapping every curve, every inch, not with greed but with a kind of aching reverence.

When she tugged at the waist of his trousers, he hesitated only a second before kicking off boots, belt, everything. They were naked together then, soaked and shivering, but wrapped in something hotter than fire.

He lifted her again, setting her further back on the workbench, settling himself between her thighs. His fingers curled around her hips, drawing her toward him—slow, deliberate.

Their eyes met.

And when he finally sank into her, it wasn’t rushed or frantic. It was a slow, aching slide, a shared breath that left them both trembling. Jo exhaled sharply, her arms slipping around his shoulders as he stilled inside her.

“God,” she whispered against his jaw. “Arthur…”

He buried his face in her neck, breathing hard. She tightened around him in response, her hands gripping his back, her legs locked at his hips. 

He moved with her then—each thrust slow, deep, deliberate. Their bodies rocked together in perfect rhythm, the bench creaking softly beneath them. The rain beat down on the roof in time with their hearts, loud and insistent, a song only they could hear.

She clung to him, her gasps becoming whimpers, then moans, then half-spoken words that didn’t quite make sense. Her nails raked down his back when he hit just the right spot, and he answered with a grunt that sounded like her name and a prayer all at once.

And when they came—when the wave broke and dragged them both under—they didn’t break eye contact. They held each other like lifelines, like that moment was the only real thing left in the world.

Jo held him close, her limbs still trembling, her heart thudding like it was trying to outrun itself. The air inside the shack was warm and thick, soaked in the scent of rain, damp wood, and the heat between them. Arthur hadn’t let go of her. One arm remained curled around her waist, the other trailing up her bare spine, fingertips brushing each bump and ridge as if he could memorize her by touch alone.

But even in the safety of his arms, the ghosts began to stir.

She closed her eyes, her cheek against his shoulder. A hollow ache opened in her chest—the kind that years never seemed to fill. Faces came and went, hazy in memory but vivid in shame. Men whose names she didn’t always remember. Men who had paid for her body but never earned a single part of her soul. Their hands had been rough, or sometimes trembling with pity, and their breath had stunk of loneliness and liquor. Jo had learned how to fake everything for them—the gasps, the warmth, the smiles. How to make them believe it meant something, even as she emptied herself out piece by piece just to survive.

She had done what she had to do. And it had always felt wrong.

But this? Arthur?

God, it felt like coming home.

He hadn't looked at her with hunger or pity. He had touched her like she was something sacred. He had kissed her like he’d been starving for her and only her. No transaction. No bargain. Just two broken people who had always been searching for something they didn’t dare ask for—until now.

She swallowed hard, her eyes burning. She knew she could never tell him. Not about those nights. Not about the part of her soul she’d had to sell to make it this far. Arthur was a good man. A better man than most dared to be. And if he ever knew what she’d done, it’d tear him apart.

It'd break his heart, she thought. And I ain't never lettin’ that happen.

She’d take that secret to the grave.

Her body had tensed slightly without her realizing. Arthur’s lips had found her shoulder again, brushing over a scar there, soft and warm, then trailing up her throat. He murmured something—nothing important, just her name—but she barely heard it.

Then he bit her earlobe, gently, a teasing nip, and her breath caught.

Her eyes flew open, the ghosts banished in an instant as her mind snapped back to now. Back to the man holding her, kissing her, loving her.

Arthur.

He was still there, still real.

She turned her head, found his eyes already on her—dark with desire, but warm with something deeper. He smiled slightly, his lips curving as he leaned in again.

Jo cupped the side of his face, feeling the scratch of stubble under her palm. “I was thinkin’ too much,” she whispered.

“I noticed,” he murmured against her neck. “Figured I’d pull you back.”

And he did.

With slow, deliberate care, he kissed his way down, his mouth tracing a path between her breasts. Her skin tingled where his breath ghosted over her. Then his lips closed around her nipple, and Jo’s whole body shuddered.

A soft moan escaped her lips, her head falling back as he suckled gently, reverently. His hand came up to cradle her breast, his thumb sweeping in circles, coaxing her toward another swell of sensation. She gripped the edge of the workbench, grounding herself as he lavished attention on her, his tongue warm, patient, loving.

Her thighs tightened around his hips instinctively.

One of his hands slipped lower, trailing across her belly—pausing briefly over the healing wound. He didn’t press. Didn’t move too fast. Just rested there, his eyes flicking up to meet hers, a silent question.

Jo nodded, her voice nearly lost to the heat between them. “I’m alright. Keep goin’.”

He obeyed, but not without care. His fingers explored her with the same reverence he showed with every kiss. He took his time, learning her all over again, coaxing soft gasps and sighs from her throat until her hips rolled up into his palm, seeking more.

And he gave it.

 


 

The rain had settled into a whisper, barely a mist now, clinging to the needles of the pines and dampening the world into silence. The clouds hung low and heavy, threatening more, but for now, everything was still. Inside the cabin, the wood stove crackled low, casting a soft orange glow across the walls. Abigail sat at the edge of the bed, her fingers knit together so tightly her knuckles had gone white. Jack was asleep, finally, curled into a bundle of warmth under the thickest quilt they had.

John stood at the window, arms crossed, watching the trees. Listening.

Abigail broke the silence. “We can’t stay here forever.”

He didn’t turn. “I know.”

“This place is good, but it ain’t ours… ain’t safe. Not for long. We stay too long, someone’s gonna come lookin’. The Pinkertons… bounty hunters… someone. They always do.”

John exhaled through his nose. “Yeah.”

“So what are we gonna do, John?”

He finally turned to face her. His face was drawn, lined deeper than it had been just a year ago. “I don’t know. Maybe... head west. Further. Montana, maybe.”

Abigail raised an eyebrow. “Montana?”

“I heard of a place—mountains, good for settin’ down. Big sky, not a lot of people. Could be somewhere we start over.”

“Or Mexico,” she said quietly. “I heard you say it once… years ago. You and Dutch.”

He frowned at that. “I ain’t Dutch.”

“No,” she said. “But we’re still runnin’.”

He came over and sat beside her, reaching for her hand, and she let him take it. “I just want Jack to grow up without lookin’ over his shoulder.”

“I know.” She squeezed his fingers. “So do I. But where we go… it ain’t just up to us. There’s Arthur… and Jo.”

At that, John looked away.

Abigail leaned forward. “Do you think she wants to come with us?”

“I dunno what she wants,” John admitted. “She’s changed. She ain’t the same woman.”

“Neither are we.”

Before either of them could say more, the cabin door opened, and Arthur stepped in, brushing droplets of water from his shoulders. His hat was soaked through, his coat damp around the collar. He nodded at them.

“You two alright?” he asked, his voice low.

“We’re talkin’ about what comes next,” John said, meeting his eyes.

Arthur didn’t answer right away. He walked to the stove and warmed his hands by the fire. “Ain’t really the safest here. That shack’s hidden, yeah, but not enough for the long run.”

“You thinkin’ we split up?” John asked. “Go different ways?”

Arthur shrugged. “It’s a thought. Might be safer if we did. They’re lookin’ for a group, not scattered ghosts.”

John frowned. “What about Jo?”

Arthur hesitated.

From outside, just steps from the cabin door, Jo stood in the thin fog of morning light, her hand poised on the doorframe.

She hadn’t meant to eavesdrop. She’d only come over after getting dressed, after folding the blanket and fixing the tools Arthur had knocked from the workbench when he’d set her there like she weighed nothing. She’d kissed him once more before slipping on her shirt, brushing her fingers over his jaw like she couldn’t quite believe he was real.

She had wanted to be near him. To belong somewhere.

But now...

“What about Jo?” John pressed. “She’s part of this too.”

Arthur’s voice came quieter. “I dunno if she’ll want to come with us. Or if she should.”

Jo felt something twist deep in her chest.

John scoffed. “Don’t be an idiot.”

“I ain’t,” Arthur said. “I’m tryin’ to be honest. She’s been runnin’ on her own for years. We don’t know half of it. And I’m startin’ to wonder if she even wants to stop runnin’.”

Jo closed her eyes.

Inside, Arthur let out a long breath. “I love her. God help me, I do. But that don’t mean we’re headed in the same direction.”

John looked down at his hands. “You’d let her go?”

Arthur didn’t answer.

And Jo, outside the cabin, stepped away from the door before anyone could see her.

Arthur still hadn’t answered yet. 

He stood by the stove, jaw tight, thumb rubbing slowly over the inside of his glove. Rain ticked softly against the windowpanes. The fire popped in the hearth, and the silence stretched.

John waited.

So did Abigail.

Then, finally, Arthur spoke, his voice rough but steady.

“If she wanted to… I’d go with her.”

John blinked. “What?”

Arthur didn’t repeat himself. He stared into the fire, like the words had cost him more than he’d expected. “If she asked. I’d leave with her.”

Abigail looked over at him from the bed, her expression unreadable.

“I ain’t sayin’ I will,” Arthur added after a moment. “I ain’t made no decisions. But I’ve thought about it. Thought about a life away from all this. With her.”

He turned toward them now, his face shadowed and tired but open in a rare, vulnerable way. “It’s all I ever wanted, really. Somethin’ simple. Someone who… knows me. Still wants me.”

John rubbed at the back of his neck, eyes flicking toward the floor. “So what’re you waitin’ for?”

Arthur gave a humorless laugh. “For her to want the same. For her to stop runnin’. Hell, maybe even for me to stop runnin’, too.”

He crossed the room and leaned his weight on the back of a chair. “Truth is, I don’t know if she’s stayin’. Not for long. Not with all that’s happened. She still looks over her shoulder like death’s followin’ two steps behind.”

John’s voice dropped. “You think she’ll leave?”

Arthur paused. “I think she wants to. But maybe she don’t know how.”

Abigail shifted, drawing the blanket more tightly around Jack as he stirred softly in his sleep. Her voice was quiet but firm when she finally spoke.

“You ain’t the only one thinkin’ about leavin’,” she said.

John turned to her, brows furrowed. “Abby—”

“I ain’t sayin’ I want to run off,” she cut in, tone measured. “But sometimes… I think about what it would’ve been like. If it was just the three of us. Me, you, and Jack. No one else to worry about. No past catchin’ up with us.”

John looked like he’d taken a punch to the ribs. “You don’t mean that.”

“I do,” she said gently. “Not all the time. But sometimes.”

Arthur didn’t speak. He listened, understanding all too well the weight of what she was saying. Not resentment—just exhaustion. The kind that crept in after years of surviving. Of watching people die or disappear. Of making impossible choices.

Abigail sighed and glanced toward the door. “I like Jo. I admire her. She’s strong… maybe the strongest of all of us. And I know she’s good to Jack. And I think… if she wanted to stay, really stay, she’d be family. But if she goes…” She looked at Arthur. “I hope you don’t just follow her off a cliff.”

Arthur let out a breath through his nose. “It ain’t a cliff I’m worried about,” he said. “It’s whether or not she’d let me jump with her.”

John gave a tired laugh and leaned back in his chair. “Ain’t that the damn truth.”

The three of them sat with it for a moment—the strange, fragile stillness of knowing too much about each other and still holding space for love. The rain began again outside, soft and steady.

Chapter 54: Crossroads

Notes:

I know it’s taken me a while to get this chapter out, and I’m a little sorry for the wait. I just really wanted to make sure we were heading in the right direction. It took me some time to figure out where I wanted the story to go next and to make sure everything made sense.

Thank you so much for your patience—it means the world to me. 🖤 Now, finally, here’s the chapter!

Chapter Text

The rain had softened from its earlier downpour to a quiet, steady patter, filling the woods with the sound of water trickling through leaves and dripping from the eaves of the porch roof. A cool breeze rolled in with it, fresh and clean, stirring the damp air with the scent of wet pine and wildflowers. And grass. That smell of rain on grass—sweet, green, earthen—she had always liked it. It was such a particular thing, that smell. 

She sat on the lowest step of the porch, her knees drawn up slightly, arms resting on them, a slow, mechanical rhythm in her fingers as she plucked strands of grass from the earth, one by one. She wasn’t even aware she was doing it at first—just needed something for her hands to do. Something to fill the empty space between breaths.

The hem of her shirt clung damp to her skin. Though the porch kept her mostly dry, the breeze carried enough of the mist to kiss her cheeks and dampen the ends of her hair, which clung in loose, curling tendrils to her jaw and neck. Her lips trembled faintly, not from cold exactly—not just that—but from something deeper, something twisting around in her gut like a knot that wouldn’t loosen.

She hadn’t heard all of it. Just enough.

Enough to feel used. Enough to feel ashamed.

Arthur’s voice. John’s. That wordless murmur of two men planning something bigger than her, something more certain. The future. Their future.

And her name had come up in a way she hadn’t expected. 

Her fingers paused on a particularly thick strand of grass, then tore it free with a little more force than she meant. A sigh left her lips, slow and shaky.

What had she expected, really? She had spent so long living for survival, running from her past, clutching at shadows. The nights she shared her body for shelter or food, the mornings she washed herself in a river and tried to forget—those weren't things she'd ever wanted to keep with her. But they clung, no matter how hard she scrubbed. And now, after everything… after Arthur…

She felt sick with herself.

Like maybe she’d fallen into old habits. Like maybe the thing that passed between them in that shack—all heat and hands and unspoken want—hadn’t meant to him what it had meant to her. Like maybe she’d let herself believe in something she didn’t deserve.

“You idiot,” she whispered under her breath, the words meant more for herself than anyone else.

She shivered. Her boots were soaked through from earlier, and the cold was beginning to creep up her legs and into her spine. Still, she didn’t move. She didn’t want to go back inside. Didn’t want to see the questions in their eyes, or the sympathy in Abigail’s, or worse—nothing at all.

“Nobody needs me here,” she whispered, not realizing she’d spoken aloud until the words drifted into the open air.

“I do.”

She flinched, blinking rapidly as she looked up. Arthur stood in the doorway, shoulders heavy with tension, his face unreadable in the dim light. His voice, when he spoke again, was rough, quiet. Real.

“I need you.”

He didn’t step off the porch. Just eased down slowly beside her, lowering himself to the step without a sound. She didn’t look at him. Not right away. Just let the silence stretch between them, thick with unsaid things. Her fingers trembled again, still holding that last blade of grass.

Jo swallowed hard.

Arthur didn’t speak at first. Just sat with her, elbows resting on his knees, hands clasped between them. The wood of the step was damp beneath them both, but he didn’t seem to care. His breath fogged faintly in the cooler air, and Jo caught the scent of tobacco and rain still clinging to him—familiar, comforting in a way that only made the ache in her chest worse.

Jo didn’t look at him. She stared at the grass in her hand until it blurred. “You shouldn't say things like that if you don't mean ‘em,” she muttered, voice low, almost drowned by the rain.

Arthur turned his head slightly toward her. “I wouldn’t’ve said it if I didn’t.”

She exhaled shakily. “Don’t mess with me, Arthur. Not now.”

“I ain't,” he said quietly. “I don’t… always know how to say things right. But I ain’t here to mess with you.”

Jo finally looked at him. Really looked. And she saw it—that familiar storm behind his eyes, the tired lines around them, the way he fidgeted with his hands like he was trying to wring the truth out of his own fingers. There was no malice in him. Just confusion. Want. Something almost tender.

“I heard you,” she said after a pause, voice barely more than breath. “Earlier. You and John and Abigail. Talkin’ about where to go, what to do. I heard enough.”

Arthur’s jaw tightened. He didn’t answer right away, and she could see it—the way his shoulders stiffened, the guilt flashing over his face like a flicker of lightning in a storm.

Jo shook her head slowly. “Guess I was stupid to think I had a place in any of it.”

“That ain’t true,” he said, turning to face her now, fully. “Don’t ever think that.”

“I ain’t sayin’ it to get pity, Arthur,” she snapped, her voice rising despite herself. “Just tellin’ the truth. John’s got a family to look after. I’m just…” She trailed off, the words too bitter to say.

He didn’t let the silence hang this time. His hand found hers, rough and warm and grounding. His fingers curled gently around her wrist, not holding her in place but steadying her. “I don’t give a damn where we go,” he said, voice low. Honest. “Truth is, I don’t care much ‘bout the where. I just...”

Jo blinked. 

He pressed on. “I don’t know what the hell future looks like. Ain’t never been good at thinkin’ far ahead. And maybe I ain’t the man to build no dream with. But if you wanted to go somewhere… start somethin’... I’d follow.”

Jo looked down at his hand on hers. His thumb had started to move, a slow back-and-forth over her knuckles. Her throat tightened.

Arthur shifted closer. She could feel the warmth of him now, just barely, but it was enough to make her breath hitch. He raised a hand to her cheek, brushing aside a strand of damp hair that had stuck there. His thumb lingered near the corner of her mouth.

“You don’t gotta prove nothing,” he said, his voice quieter now. “Not to me. Hell, Jo… you’ve survived things I can’t even begin to understand. And you’re still standin’. Still fightin’.”

She finally turned her face back to him, her nose barely an inch from his. Her breath mingled with his, and for a second, neither of them moved.

“I thought…” she whispered, voice cracking. “After what we did, I thought maybe you—”

“I meant it,” he interrupted gently. “That wasn’t just… that wasn’t nothin’. Not to me.”

Jo let out a soft, shaky breath. Her forehead touched his, her eyes closing as the tension slowly bled from her shoulders.

“I don’t wanna go nowhere without you,” she admitted in a small, hoarse voice. “I used to dream about it—us runnin’. Somewhere far. Just you and me. Thought it was foolish.”

“It ain’t,” he murmured.

They stayed like that for a moment—forehead to forehead, hearts thudding, the rain a soft curtain around them. And when Jo finally opened her eyes, Arthur was already looking at her. Like she was something worth waiting for.

“I’m scared,” she whispered.

“Me too,” he said. “But I’d rather be scared with you than safe without you.”

She let out a soft laugh—a real one this time, thin and shaky, but real. “That’s real poetic, Morgan,” she said, tilting her head and giving him a sly look. 

Arthur huffed a quiet laugh through his nose, shaking his head. “You just… bring it outta me, I guess.”

Jo smirked faintly, but it didn’t quite hide the way her eyes softened. “Careful, keep talkin’ like that and I might start believin’ you.”

“Good,” he said simply, meeting her gaze without flinching.

For a moment, they just sat there—the air between them warm despite the chill of the rain. Somewhere in the distance, thunder rolled faintly through the mountains, low and far away. Arthur’s hand stayed over hers, his thumb still brushing slow, lazy arcs across her skin.

“So,” Jo said at last, quieter now. “If you really mean all this… what do we do? Where do we go?”

Arthur glanced toward the tree line, thoughtful. “Don’t know yet. Ain’t like we gotta figure it all out today. But… maybe we start thinkin’ about what it’d look like. Just us.”

Her heart thudded harder at those words—just us. She didn’t answer right away, but the corner of her mouth lifted the tiniest bit.

“Guess that’s somethin’ worth talkin’ about,” she murmured.

And they did. As the rain kept falling, the porch became their little pocket of stillness, and for the first time in a long while, the future didn’t feel quite so impossible.

 


 

The mountains had been growing on the horizon for days, jagged teeth biting into the pale blue sky. At first, they’d only been a smudge, distant and hazy, but as the trail bent and climbed, the air thinned and cooled, and the peaks began to loom sharp and undeniable. By the time the party reached Colorado’s edge, there was no ignoring them—a wall of stone and pine, promising both hardship and new beginnings.

For those few days on the trail, the five of them had fallen into a quiet rhythm. Jack sat in the wagon, sometimes reading the same battered book he’d carried since Beecher’s Hope, sometimes just staring at the passing trees, his young mind working silently behind his wide eyes. Abigail drove the wagon, her hands steady on the reins, though every now and then her gaze drifted to John, riding just ahead, as if measuring his resolve against the endless miles.

Arthur and Jo kept to their horses, sometimes flanking the wagon, sometimes riding ahead to scout the trail. They didn’t speak much in those days, not in front of the Marstons. The air between them had changed since that night in the rain, heavier, sharper, charged with something neither wanted to bare out loud where others could hear. Instead, their conversations lived in glances—the way Jo’s eyes lingered on Arthur when he lit a cigarette at camp, or the way Arthur would always slow Atlas down when he noticed her mare tiring.

Nights were colder the closer they drew to the mountains. They built their fires low, cautious. Sometimes Arthur and John would sit side by side, talking in murmurs about routes, about lawmen, about places they might never see. Jo listened from her blanket but rarely joined in. Abigail would hum to Jack, brushing his hair back as he drifted to sleep, pretending she wasn’t afraid.

By the fourth morning, the trail split. One road wound north, hugging the mountains before climbing into harsher country—the path Arthur and Jo had been quietly setting their sights on. The other bent south and west, easier terrain that would eventually lead to the promise of California.

No one wanted to be the first to speak. The wagon creaked to a halt where the two paths diverged. Horses stamped in the dirt, snorting clouds into the cool air. The silence pressed in like a weight, each of them knowing this moment had been coming, each of them wishing it hadn’t.

Arthur shifted in his saddle, hat pulled low to hide the tired lines beneath his eyes. “Reckon this is it,” he said finally, voice low and rough.

John looked at him hard, jaw tight, as if he might argue. But all that came out was a curse under his breath. He swung down from his horse and walked over, his boots crunching in the gravel. The two men stood close, neither speaking at first. Then John muttered, “Don’t much like this.”

“Me neither,” Arthur admitted. He reached out, and John gripped his forearm, the handshake rough, unyielding, both men holding tighter than they meant to.

“Just… don’t go dyin’ out there,” John muttered, eyes darting away.

Arthur almost smiled. “Same goes for you.”

John pulled Arthur into a rough hug, both men clapping each other’s shoulders hard. Neither trusted themselves with more than a few words.

“You look after her,” John muttered low.

Arthur nodded, gruff. “Always.”

Jack clung to Arthur’s leg for a moment before Arthur crouched to meet him eye to eye. “Mind your pa, Jack. Mind your ma, too. You hear?” The boy nodded, trying to look brave, and Arthur ruffled his hair before letting him go.

Jo had already slipped from her saddle, stepping toward Abigail. The two women stood awkwardly at first, both struggling with words. Then Abigail reached forward and pulled Jo into a quick, firm embrace. “You take care of him,” she whispered, voice catching.

“I will,” Jo promised, though her throat was tight. The two women held tight, both knowing there weren’t words enough for what they’d been through together. When Jo pulled back, she smiled faintly through damp lashes. “Don’t let him drag his boots forever. Make him marry you proper once you’re settled.”

Abigail let out a shaky laugh, cheeks warm, and swatted lightly at Jo’s arm. “I just might.”

John, overhearing, scowled good-naturedly. “Damn it, Jo…”

She smirked, the tease softening her own grief. “What? Somebody’s gotta keep you honest, Marston.”

The laughter died quickly, replaced by the silence of parting.

Arthur turned then, stepping to Abigail. He hesitated only a moment before dipping his head in respect. “You keep that boy safe. You keep John in line. And… thank you. For everything.”

Abigail’s eyes softened, her hand brushing his arm. “You too, Arthur. You… you make sure you come back one day.”

He gave the smallest of nods, throat too tight for more.

At last, Jo and John met. Their history stretched back far—not by blood, but by the years they’d survived side by side, bickering and banding together like siblings. Jo reached out, clasping his hand firm.

“Don’t screw this up,” she said quietly, a crooked smile tugging at her mouth.
John huffed, a little raw. “Same goes for you. Don’t let Arthur brood himself to death.”

And that was it. No grand speeches, no promises they couldn’t keep. Just the quiet ache of family breaking apart, each forced down their own road.

Arthur swung into Atlas’s saddle. Jo followed onto Laramie. They lingered a moment longer, then turned north. Behind them, John led Abigail and Jack down the southern trail.

The sound of hooves and wagon wheels faded behind them, swallowed by the rising song of the mountains. The trail narrowed, bending them away from the people they had bled with, loved, and lost.

Jo glanced back only once, a shadow of the wagon still visible in the distance. Then she faced forward, rain-heavy clouds beginning to gather above the peaks, the future stretching wide and unknown before her and Arthur.

The trail grew narrower the further north they went, twisting between dark pines and stone outcrops that rose like watchtowers. The wagon’s creak, Jack’s chatter, even John’s occasional curse—all of it was gone now. Just the steady rhythm of two horses, the jingle of tack, and the whisper of wind in the trees.

Arthur rode a little ahead, shoulders squared, the brim of his hat pulled low. Jo watched the way Atlas carried him, steady and sure, like the animal was an extension of him. For years, she had been alone on roads like this, and now there was only Arthur at her side—and the silence felt different. Not lonely. Heavy, maybe. Like the trail itself knew it had narrowed to two.

She exhaled, breath clouding faint in the cool mountain air. The smell of wet pine and damp earth filled her lungs, sharp but grounding. She tried not to think about how far behind the Marstons were now, their wagon rolling down some easier road, the boy leaning against his mother’s shoulder, John brooding over the reins. She tried not to wonder when—or if—they would see each other again.

Arthur slowed Atlas until he rode even with her. His eyes cut toward her, studying her face before turning back to the trail. “Feels strange,” he muttered.

“What does?”

“Just ridin’ on without ‘em.” His hand drifted to the reins, tightening slightly. “Spent so long thinkin’ we’d all make it together, somehow. And now… it’s just us.”

Jo gave a small nod. “Maybe it’s what was always supposed to happen.”

“Maybe.” Arthur’s jaw tightened. He chewed on the thought a moment before adding, “Still… I reckon it’s the right thing. Safer for them. Safer for us.”

She didn’t answer right away, only watched the mist curling off the mountainside. But his words pressed against her chest, undeniable and true.

The road dipped, cutting through a clearing where tall grass bent under the weight of last night’s rain. For a time they rode in silence, their horses’ hooves sinking softly into the mud.

 


 

The rain had come hard that night, drumming against the roof of the cabin until it drowned out the forest beyond. The fire on the hearth hissed and spat, more smoke than flame, but it was enough to keep the room warm. Abigail sat on the edge of the bed with Jack curled against her side, half-asleep though he stirred at every clap of thunder. John leaned on the table, rifle propped against his chair, the weight of it as much a comfort as the familiar bitterness on his face.

Arthur stood near the window, arms folded, staring at the rivulets chasing each other down the glass. Jo sat on a stool beside the fire, her knees drawn up a little, hair loose around her shoulders, eyes following the flames as though they might tell her what tomorrow would bring.

It was Arthur who broke the silence, his voice low, steady but heavy as stone. “This ain’t gonna work. Us stickin’ together like this. Pinkertons’ll sniff us out sooner or later — hell, we’re a goddamn beacon ridin’ in a group this size.”

John glanced up sharply. “You’re sayin’ we split?”

“I’m sayin’ we got no choice.” Arthur turned, meeting his eyes. “You got Abigail and Jack. They need somethin’ steady. Quiet. Someplace you can put down roots. Beecher’s is gone, and it ain’t comin’ back. You can’t linger near Blackwater or Valentine—too many eyes. Best chance you got is startin’ fresh, maybe California.”

John let out a bitter laugh, though there wasn’t much fight in it. “California, huh? That easy, is it?”

“It ain’t easy,” Arthur snapped, then steadied himself, softer now. “But it’s a chance. And chances are damn rare these days.”

Abigail finally spoke, her voice quiet but firm, one hand stroking Jack’s hair. “He’s right, John. We can’t keep livin’ like this. Jack deserves more than runnin’ and hidin’.” She glanced toward Arthur, then Jo. “And maybe… maybe this is what’s best for all of us.”

Jo didn’t look up from the fire, her thumb picking at a splinter in the stool’s edge. She felt their eyes on her but kept quiet, letting Arthur’s words fill the room. He was saying what she couldn’t—or maybe what she didn’t dare.

Arthur shifted, bracing his hands against the back of John’s chair. “As for me and Jo…” He hesitated, the words dragging like a weight across his tongue. “We’ll head north. Colorado first. Cut through Denver, keep movin’ till we hit Wyoming. From there, west. Oregon Trail’ll take us further than anyone will follow. Out there… maybe we can find somethin’ worth keepin’.”

The silence after his words was thick, only broken by the rain hammering harder on the roof. John’s jaw worked, but he didn’t speak right away. He looked from Arthur to Jo, then to Abigail, then down at Jack, who had finally fallen into a shallow sleep.

At last, John sighed and rubbed a hand down his face. “Guess that’s it, then. We go our way, you go yours.”

Abigail’s eyes glistened in the firelight, but she nodded. “It don’t have to mean goodbye forever. Just… goodbye for now.”

The cabin had grown heavy with silence again, Jack’s soft breathing filling the small space.

Arthur shifted, then nodded toward the door. “Come on, John. Need a word.”

John frowned but followed him out. They stepped onto the porch, the boards creaking beneath their boots. Rain sheeted down just beyond the overhang, the night swollen with the smell of wet earth and pine. Arthur leaned against one of the posts, arms crossed, watching the drops break and scatter in the dirt. John stood near the railing, hat low, jaw tight.

John broke first. “You really think splittin’ up’s the only way?” His voice carried that restless edge, half frustration, half fear. “We been through hell together, Arthur. What’s to say they won’t catch you and Jo out there on your own? At least together—”

Arthur cut him off, calm but firm. “Together, we’re a mark. Four adults, a child, a pile of horses? Pinkertons’d see us comin’ a mile away. We’d last weeks, maybe less. You know that as well as I do.”

John bristled, fists curling at his sides. “Damn it, I just— I don’t like the idea of you two out there without backup.”

Arthur’s eyes softened, though his voice stayed steady. “Ain’t the first time I had to fend for myself. And Jo… she’s stronger than she lets on. We’ll be all right. You don’t worry about us. You worry about that boy of yours.”

John shifted, his gaze dropping to the mud below. He didn’t speak, so Arthur pushed on, his tone gentling.

“You got somethin’, John. Somethin’ I never managed to hold onto. Abigail, Jack… that family? That’s worth every fight we ever bled through. Don’t throw it away worryin’ on me. You give that boy the kind of life he deserves. Don’t let him grow up lookin’ over his shoulder, wonderin’ when the law’s gonna catch him, or when some bullet’s got his name on it.”

John swallowed hard, jaw working. He looked like he wanted to argue but couldn’t find the words. Arthur tilted his head, almost a faint smile.

“You listen to me, brother. I’ll be fine. I got Jo watchin’ my back, and I’ll watch hers. But you… you got somethin’ real. Don’t waste it.”

For a long while, the only sound was the rain hammering the porch roof. Then John let out a low breath, shoulders sagging. “Goddamn it, Arthur… you always know how to twist the knife.”

Arthur huffed a short laugh. “Ain’t twistin’ nothin’. Just tellin’ the truth.”

John finally looked at him, eyes glassy in the dim light. “You better come find us, when all this settles. I mean it.”

Arthur nodded, slow but sure. “Count on it.”

They stood there side by side, the rain closing them in, until the chill finally pushed them back inside.

 


 

They had been on the trail nearly a week now, riding north through Colorado’s rugged spine. Each day felt longer than the last, not because of the distance, but because of the land itself—steep trails clinging to mountainsides, switchbacks that wound them higher into the thin, sharp air, valleys carved by rivers that forced them to ford carefully or ride miles to find a safer crossing.

By now, Denver lay only a few days ahead, but the journey had been hard-earned.

Arthur rode at point most of the time, Atlas’s sure-footed stride steady against the uneven terrain. Jo followed close behind on Laramie, her eyes never still—scanning the ridgelines, the tree shadows, the riversides. She was restless on the trail, not from lack of trust, but from the old habits that had kept her alive for so long. Arthur knew it. He didn’t try to quiet it; he just let her be.

The country was beautiful in a way that felt almost untamed. Towering pines gave way to stretches of golden aspen, their leaves trembling like coins in the wind. Some mornings they rode out under skies so clear it hurt the eyes, peaks in the distance tipped with lingering snow. Other afternoons, storms rolled down fast—sheets of rain sweeping across valleys, thunder echoing off stone, forcing them to seek cover beneath overhangs or thickets until the worst passed.

They moved carefully, never at night. When the sun dropped behind the ridges, they’d set camp—sometimes in a hollow beside a stream, sometimes in the shelter of trees. Arthur would gather wood, build the fire, while Jo checked the horses’ legs for strain or brushed them down, murmuring softly to them as if speaking to old friends. When the chores were done, they’d eat simple meals—jerky, beans, the occasional rabbit or fish Arthur managed to snare—and let the fire carry their silence.

Nights were cold this far into the mountains. The first time Jo shivered under her blanket, Arthur didn’t say anything. He just shifted closer, draping his own blanket partly over her, his shoulder a solid weight against hers. She stiffened at first—not from discomfort, but from surprise—then leaned just slightly into him, letting herself take the warmth.

After that, it became unspoken.

Each night, when one of them took watch, the other still slept close enough to feel the fire’s glow and the brush of their shoulders. Arthur sat with his rifle across his knees, eyes sweeping the dark, but every now and then he glanced back at Jo—curled on her side, hair loose across her face, lips parted in sleep. There was a peace there he hadn’t seen in years, and it steadied him.

Jo, when it was her turn, watched the firelight flicker across Arthur’s features—the hard lines softened in rest, the beard catching sparks of orange. She’d learned long ago to sleep light, but beside him, the edge dulled. She felt safe enough to let her eyes linger before turning back to the dark.

On the trail, they spoke some, but not always. Sometimes the silence stretched for hours, broken only by the clop of hooves and the rush of wind in the trees. Other times Jo would point out some birdcall she recognized, or Arthur would tell her about an old trail he once rode with Hosea, stories from days long gone. None of it was heavy. It was simple, steady.

It felt like building something—not yet a home, not yet a destination, but the bones of both.

And as the days went on, the distance from the Marstons grew. The ache was still there, sharp as ever, but it dulled under the rhythm of hooves, the mountain air, and the firelit nights they shared close together.

Denver was drawing near. Neither of them knew what waited in the city—supplies, maybe word of the law, maybe trouble—but for now, they had the trail, the mountains, and each other.

 


 

The sun had slipped behind the mountains, staining the horizon in bruised purples and fading gold, when Arthur finally swung down from Atlas and called it for the night. They were bone-tired, both of them, and the horses too. Denver was close, only a day or two if they pressed, but the thin air and winding passes had dragged at their pace.

Arthur brushed a hand down Atlas’s neck, murmuring low, before tugging the rifle from his saddle. “I’ll see if I can scare us up somethin’ better than jerky,” he said, giving Jo a half-smile, weary but soft.

She smirked faintly, tightening the cinch on Laramie before unbuckling the saddlebags. “Don’t be gone too long. You always end up bringin’ back more stories than supper.”

He huffed a quiet laugh through his nose, shaking his head, and disappeared into the treeline, boots crunching over the pine needles.

Jo bent herself to camp without another word. She cleared a patch of ground with practiced swipes of her boot, built up a small ring of rocks for the fire, and struck flint until the dry kindling caught. The flames licked higher, snapping and spitting, throwing warm orange light against her face. Laramie nudged her shoulder while she worked, and Jo reached back absentmindedly to stroke the mare’s jaw, whispering something only the horse could hear. She loosened the saddle straps, brushed down both horses, and scattered what little oats they had left into the feed bags. Supplies were thin; Denver couldn’t come soon enough.

By the time Arthur returned, a rabbit strung at his belt, the camp was ready—fire steady, bedrolls laid out side by side, the horses tethered close. He gave a small grunt of approval, set about cleaning the kill, and before long the sharp smell of roasting meat joined the mountain air.

They ate slowly, knees almost brushing where they sat near the fire. The rabbit wasn’t much, but it was hot, and it filled their bellies better than jerky.

“You think John’s made it further than us by now?” Jo asked at last, picking the last bit of meat from a bone.

Arthur looked into the fire, his jaw shifting before he answered. “Maybe. He’s probably pushin’ hard, tryin’ to get Abigail and Jack somewhere safe quick as he can.”

“Think they’ll manage?”

He gave her a sidelong glance. “I do. John… he’ll figure it out. Takes him a while sometimes, but he loves ‘em. That’ll be enough.” He paused, then added, quieter, “Has to be.”

Jo nodded, her gaze sinking into the flames. For a moment, the fire was the only sound, crackling and spitting sparks into the dark.

Arthur broke it. “You ever think about it? What it’ll be like once we’re past all this?”

Her head turned, eyes catching his in the firelight. “Every damn day.” She shrugged lightly, though her voice held weight. “Mostly just… wonderin’ if it’s real. If we’ll ever have that chance. Feels like every time I start thinkin’ about the future, something comes along and rips it away.”

Arthur’s hand shifted, slow and uncertain, then settled over hers where it rested on her knee. His palm was rough, warm.
“Not this time,” he said. “We’ll make it stick.”

The words pulled something taut in her chest. She managed a faint smile, small but real, and didn’t pull her hand back.

When the fire burned low and the cold crept in sharper, Arthur stretched his blanket over them both. “I’ll take first watch,” he murmured, leaning to press a brief kiss to her forehead. The touch was soft, fleeting, but enough to warm her more than the fire did.

Jo gave a tired little hum in answer, then slid closer, leaning against him beneath the shared cover. His arm adjusted naturally, tucking around her shoulders, steady and protective. She wasn’t ready for sleep — her body resisted the stillness — but with his heartbeat under her ear and the quiet night stretching around them, her eyes grew heavy.

Arthur sat watch, rifle balanced across his lap, but his gaze often dropped to her. The firelight flickered against her face, lashes shadowing her cheeks, lips parted slightly as she dozed. He didn’t speak, didn’t dare break the spell. He only let himself breathe her in, the weight of her against him, the warmth of her trust.

And Jo, not quite asleep, drifted in the half-place between dreams and waking. She felt the rumble of his chest each time he drew breath, felt the steady rise and fall, and it anchored her in a way she hadn’t known she needed.

Arthur sat stiff against the log, rifle laid across his lap, the fire burning low. The night pressed in thick and heavy around him, the kind of silence that carried every small sound a mile. Jo was asleep, her body curled against him under the blanket, breathing slow and even. He glanced down at her every so often, making sure—always making sure—that she was still there, still safe. She slept hard, the way you only could when you trusted someone enough to let go. That thought brought a rough ache to his chest.

But he was bone-tired. The past weeks had been nothing but long rides, cold nights, and the constant weight of looking over their shoulders. He’d carried it willingly, hell, he wanted to—if it meant Jo could close her eyes for a while without fear, he’d give every last ounce of his strength. Still, weariness seeped in, settling deep in his bones.

His eyelids grew heavy. He fought it, shaking himself now and again, adjusting the grip on his rifle. But the fire’s warmth was lulling, and Jo’s steady breathing pressed soft against his side. His chin dipped once, twice—

A twig snapped.

Arthur’s eyes flew open. His hand tightened on the rifle before his brain had even caught up. He froze, listening. The forest was still. Just the wind stirring high branches. He shifted, scanning the treeline with sharp eyes, every muscle taut.

Nothing.

He looked down again. Jo hadn’t stirred, still lost in sleep, lips parted faintly as she breathed. A sliver of hair had fallen across her cheek, and for a moment his guard softened. She trusted him to watch. That meant he couldn’t falter.

He forced himself upright again, jaw clenched, gaze sweeping the dark. The fire crackled low. His body screamed for rest. Slowly, inevitably, the minutes dragged, and the heaviness pulled at him again. His head tipped forward, just for a second.

Out in the trees, shadows shifted.

They had been watching the camp since sundown. Four men, rough around the edges, the kind who lived by what they could take from others. They’d spotted the pair earlier on the trail—a tall, broad man with a rifle and a woman with a sleek black Arabian under her. Fine stock, that mare. Worth a fortune if they could break her. And the woman herself—hell, she was something to look at. More than a camp whore, this one. The way she sat her horse, the steel in her shoulders. Wouldn’t be easy, but that only made the thought more enticing.

The men had tracked them quietly, patient. When that twig cracked and the big bastard had snapped awake, hearts had frozen. But the fool had eased back down again. He was dozing now, shoulders slumping just slightly, his rifle slipping a fraction lower across his knees.

The leader, a rangy man with a jagged scar across his mouth, motioned with two fingers. Time to move.

They crept closer, feet muffled in the damp earth. The fire’s glow flickered across their faces as they neared the clearing’s edge. They could see her clearly now—the woman, curled against the man, face half-hidden in shadow. A damn shame she was with him, but who cared? The world wasn’t kind, and neither were they.

“Easy pickings,” one whispered.

The scarred man grinned slow. “We take the horses, take what coin they got. And maybe… maybe a bit more.”

The others stifled chuckles, low and cruel.

None of them knew the mistake they were walking into.

Because Arthur Morgan wasn’t asleep. Not all the way. His instincts had kept him alive too many years to let him truly fall. His body begged for rest, yes, but his mind ticked over, listening past the hum of his pulse. And now—there it was again. That shift in the dark. The faint scrape of a boot where no boot should be.

Arthur’s hand tightened around the rifle. His head still hung low, feigning that droop of sleep. But his eyes cracked open, just a sliver, catching the flicker of movement at the treeline.

And he knew.

They thought they’d found easy prey.

But the poor bastards had no idea what kind of hell they were walking toward.

Arthur let his head loll forward, steadying his breathing to a slow rhythm. The fire popped, throwing up a little spray of sparks that died against the wet night air. He heard them then—closer now, steps sinking soft into the damp earth. Four of them, maybe five. They thought they were shadows.

He let them think it.

The first man broke the treeline, the scar-mouthed one. Arthur kept his lids heavy, but through the slits of his eyes he watched boots crunch closer, slow and careful. One of them whispered, “He’s out cold.”

Scar-mouth grinned, knife glinting faint in the firelight. “Good. Take the horses first.”

Another pair of boots shifted off toward the hobbled animals. Arthur’s jaw tightened, but he didn’t move. Not yet. Let them get close. Let them think they had it in hand.

Jo stirred faintly against him. Not from the intruders—but from Arthur’s chest drawing tighter with each breath. His hand flexed once on the rifle stock.

The scarred man took another step. He crouched, knife angled, reaching as if to cut something from Arthur’s belt. That was as far as he got.

Arthur’s head snapped up, eyes hard and blazing. The rifle barrel came up in one clean, lightning-fast movement, pressing square against the man’s chest.

“Move another damn inch,” Arthur growled, low and venomous, “and I’ll paint these trees red with your guts.”

The suddenness of it froze the clearing. The men behind Scar-mouth stumbled back, eyes wide.

Jo’s eyes fluttered open, pulled sharp into wakefulness by Arthur’s voice. She shifted, blinking, registering the scene in a heartbeat. Her hand slipped quietly toward her revolver where it rested close at hand.

The scarred man stiffened, knife still raised halfway. Arthur pressed the barrel harder against him, his lip curling. “Drop it.”

The knife clattered to the dirt.

Jo rose then, smooth and deliberate, revolver drawn and cocked. The firelight caught her face, hair tangled from sleep, but her eyes were cold steel. “You heard him. Back away.”

The two men near the horses froze, hands in mid-reach. Another tried to edge for his pistol—but Jo turned her gun on him so quick he stopped dead, swallowing hard.

Arthur got to his feet in one slow, deliberate motion, never lowering his rifle. He stood tall, shoulders squared, looming over the scarred man. “You boys picked the wrong camp to creep on.” His voice cut sharp through the damp air. “If you don’t turn around and walk your sorry asses back the way you came, I swear to God, I’ll bury every last one of you right here.”

The silence that followed was heavy. The robbers shifted uneasily, eyes darting between the two of them. The scarred man raised his hands slowly, backing off. “We… we didn’t mean no harm.”

Jo’s laugh was short, bitter. “That so? Sounded like you meant plenty.”

Arthur stepped forward, rifle still leveled. “Get.”

That did it. One by one, the men began backing into the treeline, muttering curses under their breath but not daring to turn their backs until they were swallowed by shadow.

When they were gone, Arthur held his aim a moment longer, listening. The night swallowed their retreat, footsteps fading into the distance.

Finally, he lowered the rifle.

Jo exhaled, long and slow, thumb easing off the hammer of her revolver. She set it back down, though her hands were still tight with adrenaline.

Arthur turned to her, his face still hard, but his eyes softened just a little. “You alright?”

She nodded once, a small, fierce smile tugging at her lips. “I’m fine. You?”

Arthur grunted, checking the treeline one last time. “Fine. Just tired of folks thinkin’ they can take what ain’t theirs.”

Jo leaned closer, brushing a hand against his arm. “We used to be the same.”

Arthur’s jaw twitched, but he allowed the corner of his mouth to lift, just faint. 

The woods went still again, the crackle of the fire the only sound filling the night. Arthur stayed rigid for a long moment, listening hard, ears straining for any sign of the men circling back. Only when the forest settled back into its usual quiet did he finally ease out a breath he hadn’t realized he was holding.

Jo still sat with her revolver loose in her grip, her knuckles pale from the tension of it. She set it down slowly, laying it beside her boot, and rubbed her hands over her face. Her heart was still hammering, though she masked it well.

Arthur’s gaze swept the dark treeline one more time before he lowered himself back down by the fire. His jaw was set tight, the muscles in his shoulders refusing to unclench.

Jo shifted closer to him, close enough that her thigh brushed against his. She nudged him lightly with her shoulder, as if trying to shake the tension off him. “They won’t be comin’ back,” she said softly.

Arthur gave a low grunt, eyes still scanning. “Don’t matter. I’ll be watchin’ anyway.”

“You always are.” There was something gentle in her voice, not teasing, just truth.

He finally looked down at her. The firelight threw gold into her eyes, softened the strands of hair tangled around her face. She gave him a small smile—a tired, crooked thing, but real. Arthur felt some of that iron in his chest loosen.

Jo leaned sideways, her head finding his shoulder. He stiffened a moment, then let out a long sigh and let her stay there. She was warm against him, warmer than the fire, and when she pulled the blanket tighter around both of them, he didn’t object.

For a while, neither spoke. The fire popped, casting little bursts of light against the trunks of the trees. The cold crept in sharper the deeper the night went, but pressed together, they made their own heat.

Jo plucked idly at the edge of the blanket, her fingers brushing his arm now and then. “Think they really thought we were easy?” she murmured at last.

Arthur let out a low chuckle, though it didn’t quite reach his eyes. “They thought wrong.”

Jo tilted her head just enough to glance at him, her lips quirking. “You scared the hell outta ’em.”

He smirked faintly. “That was the point.”

She gave a soft laugh—a little breathy, the sound muffled against his shoulder. Then she stilled again, letting her eyes drift shut. Arthur felt her breathing start to steady, the adrenaline finally leaving her system.

When her weight grew heavier against him, he knew she was asleep. He shifted, careful not to wake her, and pulled the blanket higher around her shoulders. Then, with his free hand, he drew his rifle closer again, resting it across his knees. His eyes swept the shadows beyond the firelight, sharp and vigilant.

The night was colder now, biting at the edges of him, but Arthur didn’t move. Didn’t dare. Jo slept soundly against him, her trust laid bare in the way she let herself rest without fear.

He could sacrifice sleep a little longer.

Arthur leaned back against the log behind him, pressing a kiss into her hair so softly she wouldn’t stir. “Ain’t nobody takin’ nothin’ from you while I’m breathin’,” he muttered under his breath, so quiet it was swallowed by the crackle of the fire.

And with that vow heavy in his chest, he kept his eyes on the treeline, the rifle steady across his lap, as the stars wheeled slowly overhead.

 


 

The sun crept slowly over the ridges, spilling gold across the jagged peaks. The chill of the night still clung to the earth, but the promise of warmth shimmered in the clear blue sky. Their horses picked their way along a narrow trail, hooves crunching on the road. The silence of the mountains was broken only by the steady rhythm of their travel and the occasional cry of a hawk circling above.

Arthur rode with his hat pulled low, his eyes scanning the tree line out of habit. Jo, beside him, sat straighter, her gaze roaming over the landscape with a faint, hungry smile—as if every curve of the hills, every stretch of meadow was a gift she hadn’t expected.

It wasn’t long before the sound reached them: a low, rushing murmur that grew stronger as they rode. When the trail dipped and curved, the river revealed itself, glinting silver in the sunlight as it cut a ribbon through the valley floor. After days of dust and grit, the sight of water felt almost like salvation.

Jo tugged gently at Laramie’s reins, her eyes lighting up. “Well, would you look at that,” she said, almost breathless. “A river.”

Arthur followed her gaze and grunted. “Hn. ’Bout time, too.”

She shot him a look, her lips curving. “Arthur, we’re stoppin’. Ain’t no way I’m ridin’ past that after all this dust without gettin’ in.”

Arthur raised a brow, though the corner of his mouth twitched. “Water’s bound to be cold as hell this time o’ year.”

“Better than ridin’ around smellin’ like horse sweat and campfire smoke.” She swung down from the saddle in one fluid motion, already tugging at the ties of her bedroll to fish out a change of clothes.

Arthur huffed through his nose, though he didn’t argue. He swung down as well, more slowly, and tethered Atlas by a patch of grass. His eyes never strayed too far from the treeline, old instincts gnawing at him.

Jo, on the other hand, had no hesitation. She slipped behind a cluster of boulders with her bundle, reemerging a moment later in her shift, bare feet pressing into the damp grass. She padded to the water’s edge and dipped a toe in. A sharp hiss left her lips, and she shot Arthur a look over her shoulder. “Colder than I thought,” she admitted, though there was a gleam in her eyes that said she wasn’t backing out.

Arthur leaned a shoulder against a tree, arms crossed. “Told you.”

She rolled her eyes and stepped in anyway, shivering as the water lapped up her calves, then her thighs. “Sweet heavens,” she muttered through her teeth, but then she ducked down fully, wetting her hair with a quick plunge. When she surfaced, gasping, she laughed, her cheeks flushed pink from the shock. “Saints alive, that’ll wake you.”

Arthur couldn’t help the small smirk that tugged at his lips. She looked wild and alive, water streaming down her face, hair plastered to her shoulders. He tore his eyes away quickly, pretending to check the trail.

“You know,” she called, wading a little deeper, “you could join me instead of standin’ there glarin’ at the trees like an old hound dog.”

Arthur’s brows knit. “Someone’s gotta keep watch.”

She tilted her head, her grin sly. “You shy, Arthur?”

That earned her a sharp glance. His jaw worked, but he didn’t answer.

Jo laughed softly, the sound carrying over the rush of the river. “Ain’t like you ain’t seen me before. Don’t go turnin’ all bashful on me now.”

Arthur cleared his throat and tugged the brim of his hat lower, though the tips of his ears betrayed him, flushed red beneath the shadow. “Ain’t about that,” he muttered.

She arched a brow, playful and relentless. “Mm-hm. So it ain’t that you’re afraid you’ll like what you see?”

His head snapped toward her at that, blue eyes narrowing, though the firelight of embarrassment touched his cheeks. “Jo…” he warned, his voice low.

She laughed again, softer this time, and sank down until the water reached her shoulders, only her mischievous eyes visible above it. “Relax, Arthur. I’m just teasin’.”

He shook his head, muttering under his breath, but the corner of his mouth twitched in spite of himself. His gaze softened as he watched her float a little, hair spreading like silk on the water’s surface.

And though he kept his rifle leaning against the tree and his eyes alert, the truth was plain: in that moment, she was the brightest, wildest thing in the valley, and he couldn’t look away for long.

Jo stayed in the water longer than she probably should’ve, drifting a little, splashing water through her hair, her laughter rolling free across the valley. Arthur stayed rooted to his spot, leaning against the tree, arms folded tight across his chest. He wasn’t about to join her—not for all the teasing in the world. Still, the sight of her like this—lighthearted, hair slicked down her back, eyes alight with something carefree—twisted something in him. It was the same wild spirit he’d known all those years ago, before the years and blood and scars. The sight warmed him more than any fire could.

“You really just gonna stand there, glarin’ at shadows, instead o’ enjoyin’ life?” she called out, floating lazily on her back.

Arthur smirked faintly. “I’m enjoyin’ it just fine.”

Her brow arched, and she kicked water at him, the droplets falling short of the bank. “That so? ’Cause you look like an old mule guardin’ a salt lick.”

He chuckled under his breath, shaking his head. “Ain’t gettin’ in that water, Jo. Not now, not ever.”

She grinned, tilting her head. “Coward.”

“Practical,” he corrected.

Their banter carried on like that until the gooseflesh prickled along her arms and shoulders. Arthur caught the faint shiver she tried to hide and finally pushed himself off the tree. “Alright,” he said, his voice carrying that firm, steady edge. “Time you got out. ’Fore you catch cold.”

She groaned theatrically. “Lord above, listen to you. Fussin’ like a mother hen.”

Arthur huffed, though his lips twitched. He grabbed a folded wool blanket from his pack and held it out as she waded back toward the shore. The sunlight caught the water streaming off her skin as she climbed onto the bank, her shift clinging damply. Arthur didn’t let his gaze linger long; instead, he kept his eyes forward and extended the blanket with one strong hand.

That’s when the twig snapped.

Arthur froze, shoulders stiffening, every muscle ready. He shifted instantly, stepping in front of Jo with the blanket still half-outstretched. She barely had time to clutch it around her before his frame blocked her from view. His hand brushed the butt of his revolver as his eyes swept the trees.

“Hello?” a man’s voice called, carrying a thick, foreign lilt. Not hostile, not hurried—weary, more than anything.

Arthur’s voice cut through the air, low and edged. “Show yourself.”

From between the trees stepped a man, hands raised high, palms open. His clothes were plain and dust-stained, his boots scuffed raw. His face was lined, not with years but with hardship, and his accent thickened his words. “Please—I mean no harm. My family—we need help.”

Arthur’s hand lingered near his gun, his stance wide, all menace. The stranger’s eyes flicked nervously between the broad figure of Arthur and the faint outline of Jo’s shape hidden behind the blanket. He stammered, faltering, unsure if he’d walked into danger.

Jo, clutching the wool tight around her, stepped forward despite Arthur’s subtle motion to hold her back. Her voice cut gentle through the tension. “What kind of help?”

The man’s shoulders sagged with relief, and he lowered his hands slightly. “We… we are trying to reach Denver. We have wagons, children, wives. We try to cross the river but—” he gestured helplessly, “the wheels, they sink. Too deep in the middle. We cannot move forward. We cannot go back.”

Arthur’s jaw tightened. He didn’t like it. Didn’t like strangers turning up out of nowhere, didn’t like the vulnerability of it all. “Ain’t our problem,” he muttered.

But Jo looked at the man—really looked. Saw the lines of exhaustion etched into his face, the desperate worry that came from carrying more than your own survival. Her voice was steady, though her chest tightened with something deeper. “Families, you said? Children?”

The man nodded, his eyes shining with the need for someone, anyone, to believe him.

Jo turned to Arthur then, her eyes steady, soft but firm in a way he couldn’t mistake. “Arthur. We can’t just ride on.”

He exhaled hard through his nose, muttering something under his breath. But the truth was plain in his eyes. He didn’t like it, but he respected it. She had always been this way, always would be. And though he grumbled, he knew he’d follow her lead.

“Fine,” he said at last, his voice gravelly with reluctance. “Show us.”

The man’s relief broke like sunlight, gratitude spilling from him in a rush of words Arthur barely caught. But Jo caught Arthur’s gaze, and in that moment, the playfulness of the river was gone. What she’d seen in that man—in the idea of wagons creaking under the weight of dreams, families fighting for a chance at a future—it struck her deep. Memories of what she’d lost brushed hard against the fragile hope of what she might yet build.

Arthur saw it in her eyes. And though he didn’t say a word, he reached out, brushing his hand lightly against hers beneath the cover of the blanket, grounding her in silence.

The man stepped closer when Arthur gave his gruff “Show us.” His hands were still raised, hesitant, until he seemed to gather courage. He extended one, palm roughened with work. “Johann Müller,” he said, his accent thick and clipped. “From Saxony. My family—we…”

Arthur didn’t move at first, just stared at the outstretched hand. Then, slow as a bear testing the wind, he clasped it, his grip firm enough to make Johann flinch. His blue eyes bore into the man’s, a silent warning: don’t stare past me at her.

Jo, clutching the blanket close, leaned in near Arthur’s shoulder. “Go on,” she murmured, soft but decisive. Then she slipped behind a nearby pine, the wool wrapped tight, vanishing behind the trunk to dress.

Arthur only let go once Johann’s knuckles paled. He gave a grunt and stepped back. “Lead the way.”

When Jo returned, properly clothed, she and Arthur retrieved their horses. They led them by the reins beside Johann, following a narrow path through the trees. It wasn’t long before the sound of rushing water filled the air.

The river spread wide across the valley floor, shallow near the banks, but deeper and swift in the center. One wagon sat stranded in the middle, its wheels sunk half to the hubs in mud, the team of horses stamping and tossing their heads in panic. Two more wagons waited on the bank, families huddled near them. Women clutched infants, children clung to skirts, all of them pale with fear and fatigue.

Jo felt her throat tighten. She could see the hope drain out of them just standing there, staring at that stuck wagon.

Arthur scanned the river, his face unreadable but his jaw tight. “That one’s gone,” he said flatly, nodding toward the trapped wagon. “Ain’t no gettin’ it free.”

A ripple of despair swept through the gathered families. Their words rose in German, sharp and frantic. Johann tried to quiet them, but their eyes kept darting to the wagon midstream, where goods—everything they owned—were bound tight beneath canvas.

Arthur ignored the panic for the moment. He mounted up and nudged his horse toward the water. “Stay put,” he called back to Jo. She nodded, watching, tense, as Atlas picked his way into the current. Arthur guided him slow at first, then tested faster, back and forth, gauging where the river ran shallower, where the footing held. He came back soaked to the knees, water dripping off his coat, but he knew the path now.

He swung down, slapped his gloves against his thigh, and turned to the group. “You go straight across here,” he said, pointing with a gloved hand. “Don’t stop for nothin’. The second you stop, wheels sink, you’re done.”

They stared at him blankly. Confusion. Murmurs. Blank faces.

Arthur frowned. “You don’t understand a damn word, do ya?”

Johann stepped forward. “English… not all speak very good. But I… I can tell.”

Arthur exhaled sharply through his nose, running a hand down his beard. “Fine. You tell ’em this: wagons gotta be lighter. You hear me? Unload all the heavy crap you don’t need, else you’re losin’ it anyway. Too much weight, they won’t budge. Not with horses, not with a damn miracle.”

Johann translated in his thick, hurried German. The response came quick, sharp, almost angry. A woman clutched her chest, shaking her head. Men barked over one another, voices rising.

Jo stepped in closer, laying a hand lightly on Arthur’s arm. “They don’t want to let go,” she said softly.

Arthur’s patience snapped. He gestured toward the trapped wagon with a hard jab of his hand. “Look out there! That’s what happens when you load ’em like that. They’ll drown tryin’ to save pots and pans and feather beds. You tell ’em that.”

Johann translated again, his voice more forceful this time. The murmurs grew heated, despair and fear mixing.

Jo, watching their faces, added her own voice, softer but resolute. “Arthur’s right. Things can be replaced. People can’t. If you want your children across, you’ve gotta let go.”

Her words didn’t need much translation. Mothers clutched their little ones tighter, tears brimming. A man cursed under his breath, then spat in frustration, but others began pulling canvas back, hesitantly dragging out trunks, crates, bundles. The weight of giving up what little they had left was visible in their faces.

Arthur turned back to Johann. “Once it’s lighter, folks cross on foot.”

Johann hesitated, then spoke quickly to the others. The reply came back in panicked bursts. His face paled. He turned to Arthur. “They… they do not swim. None of them.”

Arthur’s jaw clenched, the muscle twitching as he dragged a hand down his beard. “For Christ’s sake,” he muttered, shaking his head. “You put a group in this river and they don’t swim? That’s a death sentence.”

The families flinched at his rising tone, even if they didn’t understand the words. Jo stepped closer, her voice even but firm. “Arthur.” She touched his arm, grounding him. “We can still do it. With a rope.”

Arthur looked at her, blue eyes storm-dark. She didn’t flinch.

“We tie it strong. The adults cross holding it, one by one, no stopping,” Jo went on. “As for the children… they can’t manage on their own. I’ll take them across on my horse.” She nodded toward her mare, already tossing her head at the sound of the water. “She’s steady. I can make the trip back and forth.”

Arthur’s gaze lingered on her, torn between refusal and reluctant trust. At last, he gave a grunt. “Fine. But you don’t take risks. Not for nothin’. If one of them drags you down…”

A rope was strung taut between two trees on opposite banks, Arthur wading waist-deep to lash it secure on the far side before returning, drenched but grimly satisfied. The wagon teams were unhitched, one by one, with Arthur and Johann plunging into the river to calm the panicked horses and cut the traces. One gelding lashed out in terror, a hoof clipping Arthur’s shoulder hard enough to stagger him back. He cursed under his breath, then hauled the animal’s reins shorter, forcing calm with sheer strength and low, growled words. The horse’s rolling eyes settled, just barely, and they led it back.

The first wagon attempted the crossing under Arthur’s sharp instruction. “Straight through! Don’t stop!” he barked, riding alongside in the shallows to keep pace. The wheels hit mud, wobbled, then—by sheer momentum—lurched free and found purchase again. The wagon groaned but made it across. A ragged cheer went up from the waiting families.

One by one, the others followed. Jo watched, heart thudding, until Arthur finally nodded at her. “Time for the people.”

The adults went first, gripping the rope so tightly their knuckles blanched. The current tore at their skirts and coats, water climbing to their waists, but they kept moving, eyes fixed on Arthur at the far side, shouting, “Keep movin’! Don’t stop, damn you, keep movin’!”

Meanwhile, Jo swung onto Laramie. She lifted a boy up in front of her, tucking his thin legs against the mare’s shoulders, and guided a little girl behind her, her small arms wrapped tight around Jo’s waist. “Hold on to me. Don’t let go,” she told them gently, before urging Laramie into the river. The mare plunged forward, ears pinned but obedient, cutting against the current with sure-footed strength. Jo steadied both children, whispering encouragement over the roar of the water.

Arthur stood waist-deep near the far bank, bracing against the current as he hauled another shivering man to shore. “Easy now—there you go,” he grunted, steadying him onto the mud. Another woman reached for his hand, and Arthur gripped her forearm, pulling her free of the torrent.

That’s when he heard it—the piercing scream.

His head snapped up. Mid-river, one of the women had lost her hold on the rope. She was being ripped downstream, her face white with terror. And ahead of her, Jo was crossing with two children clinging desperately to her—one in front, one behind—as Laramie fought against the river’s pull.

The woman lunged, grabbing at anything she could—Laramie’s mane, Jo’s sleeve, her nails raking against Jo’s arm. The mare squealed, jerking sideways, eyes rolling in panic. Water splashed high as she stumbled in place, dangerously close to losing her footing.

“Don’t—!” Jo gasped, arms tightening around the children. She couldn’t let go of them, not for a second. Their little fingers dug into her clothes, clinging like lifelines. If Laramie went under, if Jo lost her grip, all three would be swept away.

Arthur’s heart stopped. He saw it plain—the mare’s trembling legs, Jo’s wide, terrified eyes, the woman’s frantic scratching. One second more and they’d all be under.

“JO!” Arthur roared.

He didn’t waste another thought. “Johann! Get ’em out!” he barked, shoving the woman he’d just pulled ashore into the German’s arms. Then he wheeled around, water streaming from his coat, and whistled sharp. Atlas came pounding from the bank, plunging into the river without hesitation. Arthur swung onto the stallion’s back in one practiced move, boots slipping on wet leather, and drove his heels in.

Atlas cut through the current like a blade, Arthur leaning low over his neck, eyes locked on Jo. “Hold on!” he bellowed.

The panicked woman had both hands on Jo now, nearly dragging her from the saddle. Laramie thrashed, half-rearing, children crying out in fear.

Arthur reached them in a surge of spray, reining Atlas hard against the current. He lunged, one arm shooting out, grabbing the drowning woman by her bodice. She shrieked, twisting, but Arthur hauled her bodily off Jo’s side, yanking her across Atlas’s shoulder. The stallion staggered under the weight, but held.

Arthur thundered to Jo. “Get ’em across—now!”

Freed of the woman’s clawing grip, Jo drove her heels into Laramie. The mare, exhausted and trembling, obeyed, surging forward through the last stretch. Jo clung to the children, whispering fierce reassurances as they lurched onto the far bank, safe at last.

Arthur wrestled Atlas through the current, the sobbing woman draped against his chest. Every muscle burned, but the stallion’s power carried them clear. He landed hard on the muddy bank, almost dragging her with him, and staggered a few steps before setting her down. She collapsed in a heap, coughing river water, but alive.

Arthur bent over, hands braced on his knees, chest heaving, soaked to the bone. His eyes lifted immediately to Jo. She was there, not ten yards away, still astride Laramie. The mare trembled under her, sides heaving, legs quaking from the effort. Jo’s arms were wrapped tight around the two children, holding them as if letting go might undo everything. Slowly, gently, she eased them down, her hands lingering a moment on their little shoulders before she released them to Johann’s care.

Only then did she dismount, boots sinking into the mud. She swayed on her feet, her body spent, hair plastered to her face, clothes clinging to her like a second skin. Arthur’s eyes swept her over, and his jaw clenched hard when he saw her arms—angry red scratches scored across her skin, welts where the drowning woman’s nails had dug in.

“Jo,” he growled, stalking toward her. His voice was rough with the river and his own fear, low but cutting.

She lifted her head, meeting his gaze. Her chest still heaved with every breath, her hands trembling faintly at her sides, but her eyes were steady, defiant.

“You outta be outta your goddamn mind,” Arthur spat, his boots slapping wet against the mud as he closed the distance. “Two kids on your back, river like that, and lettin’ some panicked fool near drag you under—” He broke off, shaking his head, his whole frame taut with barely bridled fury.

Jo’s lips parted, breath catching, but she didn’t step back. “What was I supposed to do, Arthur? Leave her to drown?” Her voice wavered with exhaustion but steadied quick, firm.

“You was supposed to keep yourself safe!” he snapped, pointing a dripping finger at her, his eyes blazing. “Christ, Jo, you had them kids with you—if she’d pulled you under—if you’d gone under—” He stopped again, his voice cracking, throat tightening until the words stuck.

Jo’s jaw set. She stepped closer, not backing down even though her body shook. “And if I’d done nothin’, that woman would be floatin’ facedown in that river right now. I won’t stand by and watch that happen, Arthur. I won’t.”

Arthur’s hands curled into fists, not at her, but at the sheer helplessness burning in him. He raked a hand back through his soaked hair, water flinging from his fingers. “You near got yourself killed. You near got those kids killed.”

“But I didn’t.” Jo’s voice cut through his anger, quiet but sharp as a knife. “We all made it. Every last one of us. You saved her, Arthur. You came for us. That’s what matters.”

Arthur stared at her, chest rising and falling like a storm inside him. She stood there drenched, trembling, scratches raw on her arms, but proud and unbroken. And damn him, he couldn’t decide if he wanted to throttle her or pull her into his arms.

Instead, his voice came rough, strained. “You can’t keep doin’ this, Jo. Riskin’ yourself like you ain’t worth more than some stranger—”

“I am worth somethin’,” she shot back, fire flashing through the exhaustion in her eyes. “And that’s why I won’t stand by while someone drowns when I can do somethin’ about it. That’s who I am, Arthur. You know it.”

For a long moment, neither moved. The families milled about behind them, voices hushed, but the world felt narrowed to just the two of them—mud, water, and raw fury tangled with relief.

Arthur’s chest heaved once more. Then, without a word, he reached forward, his rough hand closing gently around her scratched arm. His thumb brushed over the welts, his eyes dark with worry.

“You’re shakin’,” he muttered, softer now, the fire in him dimming into something heavier.

“So are you,” Jo answered, her lips quirking faintly despite the weariness.

Arthur huffed, half a laugh, half a groan, and shook his head. He didn’t let go of her arm. He let out a long, low sigh and tugged her gently toward him. Jo’s knees nearly buckled from the sudden release of tension, but Arthur’s arm was there, solid at her back, pulling her into his chest. She sagged against him, trembling still, water dripping from her hair onto his shirt. Without a word, he stooped, snagged a dry blanket from their saddlebags, and wrapped it firmly around her shoulders.

“You’ll catch your death otherwise,” he muttered, the gruffness in his voice more armor than anger now.

Jo tilted her face up to him, eyes soft despite her exhaustion. “There’s the mother hen again,” she whispered, though her fingers clutched the blanket tighter around herself, grateful for its warmth.

Arthur shook his head but didn’t answer. He just pressed his jaw to the crown of her head, breathing her in, his hand lingering at her back as though to remind himself she was really there.

Behind them, Johann approached, his hands wringing. The rescued woman, pale and shaken but alive, clung to her husband’s arm. Around them, the rest of the family murmured words thick with accents, faces alight with gratitude. Johann’s English was broken but earnest: “We thank you. From heart, we thank you. You save lives today.”

One of the men stepped forward with a bundle wrapped in cloth—food, perhaps, or some small valuables. He held it out, insistent. Jo shook her head at once, her voice gentle but firm. “No. Keep it. You’ll need it more than us.”

Arthur backed her with a curt nod. “She’s right. Just… get to Denver. Stay safe.” His tone carried no softness, but the family seemed to hear the care beneath it.

Johann bowed slightly, his eyes damp. “We will not forget.”

With that, the Germans moved on, wagons lighter but spirits buoyed, their figures shrinking against the treeline until they vanished. Silence followed, broken only by the rush of the river and the faint cries of birds above.

Arthur exhaled, long and heavy. He glanced at Laramie, who stood with her head low, legs trembling from strain. Jo’s eyes softened with worry. She moved to her mare, stroking her neck, whispering soft words to the black Arabian.

Arthur laid a hand on Atlas’ flank, then unshouldered his gear. “We walk,” he said simply.

Jo nodded. They led their horses away from the river, the silence between them not cold, but weighted, each step carrying them farther from the danger and deeper into exhaustion.

By the time the sun dipped low, painting the sky in streaks of copper and rose, they found a small clearing to camp. Arthur set to work on a fire, his hands steady despite the lingering ache in his limbs, while Jo draped their damp clothes on branches to dry. She coaxed Laramie to lie down close to the flames, tucking another blanket over her back like one might a child. Atlas stood guard beside her, steady as ever.

When the fire caught and the flames rose bright and warm, Arthur settled onto a log, his shoulders sagging. Jo dropped down beside him, her blanket still snug around her. For a moment, neither spoke. The only sound was the crackle of fire and the soft whicker of tired horses.

Then Jo leaned sideways, her head finding his shoulder. Arthur froze for a heartbeat, then let out a low breath and wrapped his arm around her, pulling her closer. She was still shivering faintly, but against him, she began to steady.

“You scared the hell outta me today,” he muttered, his voice rough, but quieter than before.

Jo tilted her head up, her lips quirking faintly. “I scare you more than Pinkertons and shootouts? That’s somethin’.”

Arthur huffed, shaking his head, though his arm tightened around her. “Don’t joke about it. Ain’t funny.”

Her smile softened, the teasing giving way to something more tender. “I know. But we made it, Arthur. All of us. That counts for somethin’, don’t it?”

Arthur turned to look at her fully then, the firelight dancing over her face, her hair still damp, her arms still marked from scratches. He reached up, brushing a stray strand of wet hair from her cheek. His hand lingered there, calloused thumb tracing lightly against her skin.

“Yeah,” he said finally, voice low. “Counts for a whole damn lot.”

Jo’s eyes fluttered shut under his touch. The fire popped, the horses shifted, and for the first time that day, Arthur felt his chest ease.

Chapter 55: Denver

Chapter Text

The first glimpse of Denver rose against the horizon like a promise and a threat all at once. The trail had been lonely for weeks—just the two of them, their horses, and the endless sweep of land. But now the ground seemed to hum beneath them as they approached: wagon wheels rattling over cobbles, voices drifting in from streets thick with bodies, the metallic clang of industry carrying on the wind.

Jo pulled her hat lower over her brow, trying to hide the way her eyes darted across the scene. She’d been to towns before—Van Horn, Valentine, Saint Denis even—but Denver was something else. Taller buildings, streets bristling with carriages, the choking stink of smoke from rail lines and foundries. A far cry from the silence of the wilderness.

“Christ,” Jo murmured, tightening her grip on Laramie’s reins. “Feels like half the world’s packed in one place.”

Arthur rode beside her, his jaw set, eyes constantly moving. “Keep your head down. Don’t draw attention,” he muttered, though his own shoulders betrayed the same tension. “We get what we need, rest the horses, then figure out the next leg.”

It wasn’t just about being wanted men and women—though that danger lingered in every shadow. It was also the sheer unfamiliarity of such a place. Both of them felt it in their bones: they didn’t belong here.

They rode down the main street, the sound of Atlas’ hooves swallowed by the din of voices and wheels. Jo tried to ignore the curious glances—at her black Arabian mare, at her trail-worn clothes, at Arthur’s imposing figure. She swallowed against the knot in her throat, keeping her eyes on the stable sign ahead.

The stables were busier than she expected, lined with carriages and horses of every breed. A stable hand came forward, wiping his hands on his trousers. “Fine animals you got,” he said, eyes widening a little at Laramie.

Arthur’s gaze hardened instantly, the kind of look that told a man not to get ideas. “They get fed, watered, and brushed down proper,” Arthur said flatly, swinging off Atlas. “Stalls, too. No corner yard.”

“Of course, of course,” the stable hand stammered, nodding quickly.

Jo dismounted slower, patting Laramie’s damp neck. “Rest easy, girl,” she whispered. The mare’s ears flicked, but her posture eased as she was led away.

With the horses settled, the two of them crossed the street toward the hotel. The building loomed higher than most, three stories of brick and glass, with a polished sign gleaming above the door. Jo hesitated at the threshold, suddenly very aware of the dirt on her boots, the worn leather of her coat, the ends of her hair.

Arthur noticed. He touched the small of her back gently, a steadying pressure. “C’mon. Ain’t nobody in there lookin’ twice.”

Inside, the hotel was warm, bright, almost suffocating after the road. A polished desk, velvet chairs in the corner, travelers bustling about in cleaner clothes than either of them had seen in weeks. Jo stood a little closer to Arthur as he spoke with the clerk, purchasing a room for the night. His voice was calm, clipped—polite enough, but with an edge that warned not to cross him.

Key in hand, they climbed the narrow stairwell to the second floor. The hallway smelled faintly of polish and tobacco. When Arthur unlocked the door, Jo stepped in first and let out a slow breath.

It was simple—one bed, one washbasin, curtains drawn against the fading light—but compared to nights huddled under blankets beside a fire, it felt almost decadent.

Arthur set his hat down on the dresser, rolling his shoulders as if the walls themselves pressed too close around him. “We’ll rest. One night. Tomorrow we stock up. Then we move on.”

Jo nodded, fingers brushing over the bedspread, softer than anything she’d touched in months. But still, her stomach twisted. The city pressed in through the walls, loud even here. 

They had paid for the room, but the day was still bright, sunlight spilling heavy and golden through the dusty windows of the hotel lobby. Arthur set the key in his pocket, glancing at Jo.

“No sense hidin’ away just yet,” he said. “We’ll look like we’re up to somethin’ if we go straight to the room and don’t come out till morning.”

Jo smirked faintly, tugging her hat down low. “So we play at bein’ respectable folk then?”

Arthur’s mouth curved, just a shadow of a grin. “Guess that’s what we are today. Mister and Missus Smith, out enjoyin’ the city.”

The words made her flush, though she tried to cover it with a scoff. But when he offered his arm like some polished gentleman, Jo hesitated only a second before slipping her hand through it. Together they stepped out into the street.

Denver bustled around them—carriages rattling past, newsboys shouting the day’s headlines, women in bright dresses carrying parasols against the sun. Jo kept her chin tucked down, but with Arthur’s solid arm beneath her hand, the noise didn’t seem quite so overwhelming.

They strolled along the main thoroughfare, passing shop windows glittering with things Jo never thought she’d see—fine china, polished pistols, dresses of silk and lace. She caught her reflection in the glass once: trail-worn clothes, hair loose from travel, dust clinging to her boots. Out of place, yes, but Arthur’s presence at her side steadied her.

When her stomach growled audibly, Arthur chuckled low. “Reckon we oughta get somethin’ proper to eat before folks start starin’.”

They found a restaurant tucked between shops—a tidy place with white-clothed tables and a long line of polished mirrors along the wall. The kind of place where Arthur looked too broad, too rough, but Jo liked the way heads turned when they walked in. They ordered beef stew and bread, with coffee strong enough to burn the tongue. Jo ate slowly, savoring the taste of something cooked in a real kitchen, not over a smoky fire.

Arthur leaned back in his chair, watching her more than the food. “Don’t see you this quiet often,” he teased.

She gave him a look, half a smile hiding. “I’m just… rememberin’ what it’s like to eat like a person, not a wolf.”

He huffed out a laugh, shaking his head. “You’re somethin’ else.”

By the time they stepped back into the street, shadows were stretching long across the city. The clamor hadn’t lessened—if anything, it had grown, music drifting from saloons, lamps being lit one by one. They walked slowly back to the hotel, no words needed between them. For a moment, they almost felt like they belonged.

Upstairs, Arthur closed the door behind them and let out a long breath. “Hell of a place,” he muttered, tugging at his collar. “Don’t care for it. Too loud, too many folks lookin’.”

Jo slipped off her gloves, tilting her head. “Then what do you like about it?”

He gestured toward the corner of the room where a porcelain tub gleamed beneath the lamplight, brass pipes glinting. “That, right there. Hot water inside a room. Could get used to that.”

Jo blinked, then laughed softly. “Arthur Morgan, singin’ praises of indoor plumbin’.”

He gave a mock glare, already working at his shirt buttons. “Don’t knock it ‘til you’ve sat in a tub full of steam after weeks on a saddle.” He stripped his shirt off, tossing it aside, scars catching the light. “Now…” He turned toward her with a sly tilt of his mouth. “You joinin’ me, or am I sittin’ in there alone like some sorry fool?”

Her lips parted, caught between a laugh and a gasp. “You’re impossible.”

Arthur shrugged, grinning. “Ain’t hearin’ a no.” He stepped toward the tub, turning the knobs until steam began to rise. “C’mon, Jo. First decent bath in weeks. Be a shame to waste it.”

Steam curled thick and white as the tub filled, the hiss of water echoing softly in the hotel room. Arthur tested it with his hand, grunted approvingly, and glanced back at Jo. She stood rooted by the bed, arms folded, trying and failing to mask the color blooming high on her cheeks.

“Well,” she said, arching a brow, “ain’t you bold.”

Arthur smirked, tugging at his belt buckle. “Not bold. Just know what I want.” His eyes swept over her, slow and deliberate, until her breath hitched. “And right now? That’s you in this tub with me.”

Her laugh came shaky, though there was heat behind it. “Lord help me, you’re shameless.”

He didn’t argue—only stepped into the steaming water with a sigh that shook the tension out of his broad shoulders. Arthur leaned back, one arm propped along the rim of the tub, watching her with a steady look that was both invitation and challenge.

“Jo.” His voice was low, husky with warmth. “Ain’t nothin’ to be shy about. You’ve ridden beside me half the world, patched me up more times than I can count. Ain’t a thing I ain’t already seen.” His mouth quirked. “Though I wouldn’t mind seein’ again.”

That earned him a roll of her eyes, but her fingers moved to the buttons of her blouse all the same. She undressed slowly, deliberately—maybe to tease him, maybe to test her own courage—and Arthur never looked away. By the time she slipped into the water opposite him, his chest was tight, heat coiling low in his belly.

The water lapped gently as she settled in. “Satisfied?” she asked, lifting her chin.

Arthur’s hand reached across the tub, calloused fingers brushing her wrist before sliding down to lace with hers. “Not near enough,” he murmured.

He tugged her closer, and Jo came willingly, water shifting around them as she settled against him. Her back pressed to his chest, her head tipping beneath his chin. Arthur wrapped his arms around her, broad and steady, the heat of the water nothing compared to the warmth flooding through him just from having her there.

“You feel good,” she whispered, voice softened by steam and closeness.

Arthur bent, lips brushing the curve of her shoulder. “So do you.”

The kisses started there—feather-light at first, a graze along damp skin. She shivered, turning in his arms until their mouths met. The kiss was slow, deep, the kind that tasted of relief and want all tangled together. Jo’s hand slid to his jaw, fingers digging into the stubble there, anchoring herself as if afraid he might vanish.

“Arthur,” she breathed against his lips, and that sound undid him.

He kissed her harder, one arm banded around her waist, the other cupping the back of her neck. The world outside that hotel room—the noise of Denver, the uncertainty waiting beyond—all of it fell away until there was only this: heat, steam, the slick slide of her skin beneath his hands.

Her laugh broke through the kiss when he pulled her nearly into his lap. “You’re gonna drown me,” she teased, breathless.

“Not a chance,” he rasped, pressing his forehead to hers. “I’ll never let you go under.”

The water sloshed as she shifted, straddling his thighs, the bath suddenly far too small for the want between them. Arthur’s hands roamed, reverent and greedy both, memorizing the lines of her body as if carving them into his soul. Jo kissed him again, fiercer this time, as though she shared the same desperate need.

Arthur’s breath deepened as Jo shifted in his lap, the water rippling up against the rim of the tub. She braced her palms against his chest, steadying herself, though her touch burned more than the steaming bathwater.

“Jo…” His voice was low, rough with restraint. “You keep this up, I don’t know if I’ll stop myself.”

She smirked faintly, though her cheeks were flushed. “Who said I wanted you to stop?”

That was all it took. His hands, so broad and sure, slid down her waist beneath the water, mapping every line of her. She leaned into his mouth, kissing him deeply, and the world seemed to collapse into the small space between them. Every sigh, every brush of lips was a promise—fierce, hungry, tender.

Arthur’s hand slipped lower, his calloused thumb circling against her hipbone before moving higher again, teasing, never rushing. Jo gasped against his lips, clutching at him. She tilted her head back, giving him the line of her throat, and he took it, kissing and sucking gently until her breath turned ragged.

The intimacy of it—the heat of the water, her body pressed against his, the way she trusted herself so fully in his arms—nearly undid him. Arthur pulled back slightly, eyes searching hers through the mist.

“You sure about this?” he murmured, voice rough, though his gaze was soft. “Ain’t no turnin’ back once we—”

She silenced him with a kiss, fierce and certain.

Something inside him cracked wide open. His hands grew bolder, slipping along her thighs beneath the water, pulling her closer, until there was no space left between them. Her fingers dug into his shoulders, nails grazing his skin as she trembled, not from cold but from the ache of wanting.

But the tub was too small, too confining. Arthur broke the kiss reluctantly, resting his forehead against hers, chest heaving. “Bed,” he rasped. “We’ll tear this damn tub apart if we don’t move.”

Jo laughed breathlessly, her body still humming with need. “Then what are you waiting for, cowboy?”

Arthur groaned at the tease, but it spurred him. He stood carefully, water cascading down his body, lifting her effortlessly in his arms. Jo clung to him, legs wrapped around his waist, lips trailing over his damp shoulder as he carried her across the room. He set her gently on the bed, their wet skin darkening the quilt, and looked down at her like she was something holy.

“Lord, you’re beautiful,” he muttered, brushing wet strands of hair from her face. His voice cracked with sincerity, as if the sight of her like this hurt him in the best way.

Jo pulled him down into a kiss, desperate now, and his weight pressed her into the mattress, grounding her, consuming her. Their touches grew frantic, all the patience and restraint they’d practiced on the trail dissolving. Clothes discarded, blankets kicked aside, the only sound was their mingled breaths, the low rasp of Arthur’s groans, Jo’s soft gasps of pleasure.

When he finally entered her, it was slow, careful, as if he was afraid she might break. She held his face in both hands, eyes locked on his. “Arthur…” Her whisper trembled with love, with want, with the feelings that had built to this moment.

He kissed her hard, his rhythm steady, deliberate—each thrust a vow, each kiss a confession. The world outside ceased to exist. There was no law, no running. Only them, two souls colliding with a fierceness born of survival, love, and years of longing.

Their passion built higher, faster, until Jo clung to him, crying out, her nails scoring his back. Arthur followed soon after, shuddering, groaning her name like a prayer.

 


 

The room had gone quiet again, save for the muted hum of Denver just beyond the walls. Their breaths, once ragged and wild, slowed to a steady rhythm, in sync as if their bodies hadn’t yet learned to let go of each other.

Jo lay half across Arthur’s chest, hair damp, cheeks flushed. His arm curled around her, big hand tracing slow, absentminded patterns over the curve of her back. The rise and fall of his chest beneath her cheek felt like the safest place in the world.

For a while, neither spoke. They didn’t need to. The silence between them was thick with meaning, with everything that had just passed—the years of tension and tenderness, the near-losses, the road that had led them here.

Arthur tilted his head, pressing his lips to the crown of her hair. “You wore me out, woman,” he muttered, voice deep and husky, though the corner of his mouth curved into a faint smile.

Jo laughed softly against his skin. “Pretty sure it was the other way around, Morgan. Don’t try and act all delicate now.”

He huffed a laugh, his chest rumbling beneath her ear. “Delicate, huh? Don’t know if anyone’s ever used that word on me before.”

Her hand drifted over his ribs, playful, teasing. “There’s a first time for everything.”

Arthur caught her wandering hand, pressing it flat to his chest. His thumb brushed across her knuckles as his expression shifted—from amusement to something deeper, heavier. He swallowed hard, eyes searching hers in the dim lamplight.

“I ain’t a religious man,” he said quietly, almost hesitant, “but… I do sometimes think God made you for me.”

Jo froze, breath catching in her throat. She lifted her head to look at him, eyes wide and glistening. For a moment, she didn’t know what to say—words felt too small for what had just been laid bare.

Her fingers tightened over his chest. “Arthur…”

His gaze softened, almost shy, though his voice stayed steady. “Ain’t sayin’ I deserve it. Hell, I know I don’t. But when you’re with me, Jo… feels like maybe I ain’t all bad. Like maybe I got somethin’ worth livin’ for.”

Her heart clenched, and before she could stop herself, she leaned in and kissed him—slow, lingering, pouring everything she felt into that one touch. When she pulled back, her forehead rested against his.

“You do have something worth living for,” she whispered fiercely. “You have me. And I ain’t goin’ nowhere.”

Arthur closed his eyes, letting the words sink deep. He breathed her in, the scent of her hair, the warmth of her body pressed against his.

“Reckon I’ll hold you to that,” he murmured.

Jo smiled faintly, brushing her thumb along his jaw. “You better.”

Before Arthur could answer, she tilted her head and nipped lightly at his lower lip, playful but deliberate. His breath hitched, the smallest growl rumbling low in his chest. She pulled back just far enough to smirk at him, eyes glittering with mischief.

“Or else I’ll make sure you don’t get a wink of sleep tonight,” she teased, voice husky, daring.

Arthur’s eyes darkened, heat sparking all over again. “That so?” His tone was low, rough with equal parts challenge and want.

Before she could retort, he cupped the back of her neck and pulled her in, crushing his mouth against hers. This kiss wasn’t gentle—it was hungry, urgent. His tongue swept against hers, and Jo gasped into him before melting, letting him in, returning the fervor with her own.

Her hands gripped his shoulders, nails digging just enough to make him growl again. Arthur shifted, rolling her beneath him in one fluid movement, their bodies still slick with heat and dampness from the bath earlier, tangled in sheets that already smelled of them.

He broke the kiss only long enough to drag his lips down her throat, nipping and sucking at the tender skin there until she gasped, arching into him. Her laugh was breathless, tinged with desire. “Arthur Morgan, you’re insatiable.”

“Only for you,” he rasped against her collarbone, words vibrating against her skin before he captured her mouth again.

The kiss swallowed her breath, his tongue sweeping hers with a hunger that made her chest tighten. Jo clutched at his shoulders, her fingers curling into the strong muscle there, as if grounding herself against the storm he stirred inside her. Arthur pressed closer, chest to chest, heartbeats racing in sync. His weight bore her into the mattress, yet his touch was careful, mindful—as though she were something both precious and irresistible.

Her leg hooked tighter around his hip, pulling him flush against her. She could feel him hard and wanting, straining, and it sent a shiver racing through her spine. His hand slid down the curve of her waist, splaying wide against her hip before slipping lower, kneading the softness of her thigh. He broke the kiss only to look at her—really look at her.

Jo’s lips were swollen, her hair fanned across the pillow in damp waves from the bath, her chest rising and falling quick with need. Arthur’s blue eyes locked on hers, intense, almost reverent. “Goddamn,” he whispered, voice hoarse. “You’re somethin’ else, Jo.”

Her lips curled into a breathless smirk, though her eyes burned with the same fire. “Then don’t stop.”

He growled low in his throat, obeying her command with his mouth trailing down her neck. He kissed and nipped at the hollow of her throat, then lower, teasing over her collarbone. His stubble scraped deliciously against her sensitive skin, leaving her squirming beneath him. When his lips closed around the peak of her breast, her gasp filled the room.

“Arthur…” she breathed, her back arching, pressing into him.

He suckled gently, tongue circling, hand cupping the other breast in tandem. He lingered there, slow and deliberate, until her nails raked down his back and a needy sound escaped her lips. Satisfied, he lifted his head, meeting her eyes again. She was flushed, lips parted, pupils blown wide with desire.

“Look at you,” he murmured, brushing a strand of hair from her damp cheek. “So damn beautiful.”

Her breath hitched at the softness in his tone, and she tugged him back down to kiss her. This time, the kiss was both tender and demanding, her tongue meeting his, her hips rolling up to meet the slow grind of his. They moved together instinctively, teasing themselves with that friction, dragging out the pleasure until it burned sharp and sweet.

Jo shifted, wrapping both legs around him now, urging him closer, deeper. “Arthur…” she whispered, half plea, half challenge.

He chuckled softly against her lips, even as his body trembled with restraint. “You’re gonna be the death of me.”

“Then die happy,” she teased, before biting gently at his lower lip.

That broke the last thread of his control. With a low groan, he surged forward, burying himself inside her in one long, fluid motion. Jo gasped, clutching him tighter, nails digging into his shoulders. For a heartbeat, neither moved—just the two of them holding onto each other, eyes locked, breathing ragged, lost in the intensity of finally being whole again.

Then they began to move. Slow at first, savoring, Arthur’s hips rocking into hers with steady precision, Jo meeting each thrust with a desperate lift of her own. Her hands roamed his back, his arms, everywhere she could reach, pulling him closer, deeper, needing him in every possible way. He kissed her between gasps, biting at her jaw, her throat, her shoulder. She returned it in kind, kissing him back with feverish need, whispering his name like a prayer.

The rhythm grew rougher, harder, driven by the heat between them. The bed creaked with their movements, sheets tangling around their legs, but neither cared. It was all lips, hands, gasps, and the sweet, overwhelming ache of being consumed by one another.

Arthur pressed his forehead to hers, eyes squeezed shut, his breath ragged. “Jo… Christ, I—”

She cut him off with another kiss, swallowing his words, her own body trembling around him. “I know,” she whispered against his lips. “Me too.”

And when release finally came, it was together—a shuddering, all-consuming wave that left them clinging to each other, gasping and trembling, as if the world had narrowed to just the two of them and their shared heartbeat.

Arthur collapsed against her, not crushing, but close, his arms caging her in as though he’d never let her go. Jo wrapped her arms around his neck, kissing his temple, her chest still heaving.

They stayed like that, tangled and breathless, until the world crept back in—the muffled sounds of the city outside the window, the cool air on sweat-damp skin, the reality that they had found something rare and fragile in each other.

Arthur lifted his head at last, brushing his lips gently over hers. “Reckon I could die happy right here.”

Jo smiled faintly, still catching her breath. “Not tonight, cowboy. You’re stuck with me a while longer.”

Jo smoothed a hand along his back, fingertips tracing the damp lines of muscle, then up into his hair, where she threaded her fingers slowly through the still-damp strands. The steady rhythm of her touch soothed them both, easing the rough edges of the fire they’d just burned through.

Arthur pressed a soft kiss to her shoulder, his beard scratching faintly against her skin. “You alright?” he asked, voice low, rumbling against her.

“Mhm,” she hummed, a faint, sated smile tugging at her lips. “More than alright.” Her eyes fluttered open just enough to meet his, and she whispered, “I love you.”

His chest tightened, not from exertion now, but from the weight of the words—and the truth of them. He cupped her cheek, thumb brushing the flush still warming her skin, and kissed her tenderly, slow and deep. “I love you too, Jo,” he murmured, the words steady, as though carved into stone.

They shifted closer, curling into one another. Jo nestled into his chest, her cheek resting over his heartbeat. The steady thump beneath her ear lulled her, grounding her, and little by little her body slackened in his arms. Her breathing grew slow, soft, lashes brushing her cheeks as she surrendered to the pull of sleep.

Arthur felt it the moment she slipped under—her hand that had been resting on his chest slid limply down, her lips parted faintly, a tiny sigh escaping. She looked so peaceful like this, so unguarded. He tightened his arm around her waist, tucking the blanket higher over her bare shoulders to keep her warm.

For a long while, he didn’t close his eyes. He just watched her. The firelight flickered across her features, softening the angles, making her look younger, gentler than the wild, fierce woman she was when awake. A strand of hair fell across her cheek, and he brushed it back with careful fingers, his touch feather-light so as not to wake her.

She’s mine,” he thought, a swell of awe rising in his chest. “Against all odds, she’s mine.”

He leaned down, pressing the faintest kiss to her temple, breathing her in. Then, with her warmth pressed tight against him and her steady breath filling his ears, his own exhaustion began to take hold.

Arthur’s eyes grew heavy. His last sight before surrendering was Jo curled safely in his arms, her face relaxed, her body soft against his. With that, he let go, sleep pulling him under to join her, their breathing falling into the same rhythm, hearts steady and sure together.

 


 

The room was hushed except for the faint clatter of hooves and wagon wheels echoing somewhere down the street below. Sunlight spilled between the heavy curtains, a thin golden line stretching across the floor and creeping its way up to the bed. It brushed against Jo’s face first, coaxing her from sleep.

Her lashes fluttered open, heavy with the weight of rest, and for a moment she simply lay still, her body curled against warmth that wasn’t her own. When her eyes focused, she found herself staring at Arthur.

He was still deep in slumber, his chest rising and falling in an easy rhythm beneath the blanket. His arm had gone slack around her waist during the night, though his hand still rested lightly at her hip, fingers curled as if even in sleep he couldn’t let her go. His head was turned slightly toward her, lips parted faintly, breath slow and deep.

Jo let her eyes wander, tracing him in silence—the lines of his jaw softened without the scowl he so often wore, the faint shadow of stubble, the stray lock of hair that had fallen over his brow. He looked… peaceful. Younger, almost. Vulnerability lived in his face when he slept, and it stirred something in her chest she couldn’t name.

A smile ghosted across her lips as she reached out, brushing that wayward lock of hair back with the gentlest touch. He didn’t stir. She let her fingers linger against his temple for a moment longer, marveling at how still he was. It felt rare, precious, to see him stripped of all the weight he carried.

“You don’t even know how handsome you are,” she whispered, voice low, half-afraid of waking him.

Her thumb drifted down along his cheekbone, and she let herself study him the way she so often caught him studying her. In the daylight, she saw every detail she loved—the freckles scattered across his skin, the faint scar near his jawline, the strength hidden beneath the calm of his expression.

Jo’s chest tightened with affection, fierce and aching. She leaned forward just slightly, pressing the softest kiss to the corner of his mouth, feather-light so as not to disturb him.

Pulling back, she tucked herself against him again, her ear finding his heartbeat, steady and strong. She sighed, eyes falling shut, and let herself bask in the quiet, in the rare sense of safety that came from lying tangled with him in that bed.

For once, there were no threats, no rivers to cross, no guns in their hands. Just sunlight, warmth, and Arthur Morgan breathing steady beside her.

Jo’s eyes grew heavy again as she lay listening to his heartbeat. The steady rhythm lulled her, and before long, sleep tugged her back under, light and hazy. Her hand remained against his chest, curled loosely in the fabric of the sheet, as if holding onto him even in dreams.

Arthur stirred some time later, the shift in the light across the curtains nudging him awake. His first breath came deep, his body slow to shake off the weight of rest. He blinked once, twice, eyes adjusting to the morning glow before lowering to the woman nestled at his side.

She was still there. Tucked close, face turned toward him, lips parted in sleep. A soft sigh escaped her as she dreamed, and something in his chest squeezed. Careful not to wake her, he lifted his arm and pulled her gently against him, tucking her head beneath his chin. His hand smoothed along her back, holding her there, as if to remind himself she was real.

For a long moment he just lay there, watching the sunlight slide across her hair, listening to the soft sound of her breath. A rare kind of peace settled over him.

Eventually, Jo stirred, woken by the warmth that wrapped around her. She blinked up blearily, eyes finding his. Her voice was thick with sleep when she mumbled, “Mornin’…”

Arthur gave a low rumble of a chuckle, pressing a kiss to the top of her head. “Mornin’, darlin’.” His voice was just as rough with sleep, softer than usual.

She nestled closer against his chest, nose brushing his collarbone. “Mm… this is nice. Don’t think I ever slept so sound in a city before.”

“Reckon that bed helped,” he muttered, a hint of amusement in his tone. Then, more quietly, “Or maybe it was you.”

That made her lift her head, eyes glinting with a sleepy smile. “Me?”

“Mmhm.” He traced lazy circles at her hip with his thumb. “Ain’t never known I could sleep so easy with someone hoggin’ all the covers.”

She laughed softly, swatting at him. “Didn’t hear you complainin’ last night.”

Arthur caught her hand, pressing his lips against her knuckles before setting it back against his chest. His gaze softened as he held hers. “Ain’t complainin’ now, neither.”

Jo’s lips curved into a drowsy smile, the faintest pink rising to her cheeks under his steady look. She leaned in, brushing her mouth over his jaw before settling against him again, the warmth of his skin pressing into hers. They lay like that for a while, the world outside muffled by the heavy curtains, both reluctant to disturb the quiet bubble they’d built.

But eventually, reality pressed in. Jo stirred first, rolling onto her back and stretching, the sheet slipping lower against her chest. Arthur’s eyes followed the movement, heat flickering there even in the soft glow of morning. She caught him looking and smirked, teasing, “If you keep starin’ like that, we’ll never get outta bed.”

Arthur’s mouth tugged into a crooked grin. “Ain’t seein’ no harm in that.”

“Mmhm,” she hummed, nudging his shoulder. “But unless you wanna pay for another night here, we best get movin’.”

With a groan, he finally rolled away and sat up, rubbing a hand down his face. The morning light carved over the lines of his shoulders, his scars, the solid strength of him. Jo took a moment to admire before slipping from the sheets herself, bare feet touching the floorboards. They dressed slowly, side by side, Arthur pulling on his shirt with deliberate slowness while Jo buttoned hers, their movements brushing now and again. She bent to lace her boots, hair tumbling forward, and Arthur, finished with his own, reached out to tuck a strand behind her ear.

The gesture made her pause, looking up at him. His fingers lingered, calloused thumb grazing her cheek. For a moment, the air between them grew warm again, but Jo only smiled faintly and leaned into his touch before standing. “C’mon, cowboy. Breakfast first.”

They descended to the dining room of the hotel, the air thick with the smell of coffee and fried potatoes. The clatter of dishes and the murmur of voices surrounded them, so different from the hush of forests and trails. Jo felt eyes on them here and there, the curious glances of strangers sizing them up, but Arthur’s steady presence at her side kept her grounded. He looked the part of her husband well, his broad frame filling the space, his hand resting lightly at her back as they found a table.

They ate in companionable silence at first, both taking stock of the bustling city beyond the windows. Jo found herself watching the people—ladies in fine dresses walking arm in arm, businessmen with their hats tilted just so, children darting along the street with sticky fingers from sweets. It all felt loud, crowded, almost suffocating after so long on open roads. She shifted in her chair, leaning slightly toward Arthur.

“Feels strange,” she murmured. “All this… noise. Don’t quite know what to do with it.”

Arthur forked a piece of sausage, chewing slow. “World keeps spinnin’, darlin’. Don’t wait on the likes of us.” He shrugged. “We keep our heads down, we’ll be fine.”

She nodded, though her gaze still lingered on the window. “I’d like to send word to John. Let him know we’re safe. Let him, Abigail, Jack… know they’re on our mind.”

Arthur’s jaw worked as he swallowed, then gave a low hum of agreement. “Ain’t a bad idea. Doubt they’re hearin’ much where they are. Go on and find a place after we eat.”

“And you?”

“Supplies,” he answered simply. “We have to stock up while we’re here. Dried goods, ammo, medicine if I can get it. Enough to last us till the next town worth stoppin’ in.”

Jo sipped her coffee, watching him over the rim of the cup. “So we split up.”

He met her eyes, serious beneath the brim of his hat. “Won’t be gone long. We’ll meet back ‘fore noon.”

Something in the way he said it—firm, unyielding—made her chest warm. She trusted him with her life, as he did hers, but hearing it out loud steadied her. She reached across the table, brushing her fingers against his rough hand, voice soft. “Alright.”

When they stepped back out into the street, the noise and color of the city pressed in once again. People hurried past, wagons clattered by, and a brass band played faintly from somewhere down the avenue. Jo took a slow breath, steadying herself, before glancing up at Arthur.

“Meet back at the hotel?” she asked.

He nodded, shifting his hat lower against the sun. “Couple hours. Don’t wander too far, Jo.”

Her lips curved into a faint smirk. “Who’s mother-hennin’ now?”

Arthur gave her a look, but the corner of his mouth twitched with a smile. “Just be careful.”

She leaned up and pressed a fleeting kiss to his jaw before stepping away, hips swaying as she turned down another street. Arthur watched her go for a moment, jaw tight with an instinctive protectiveness he couldn’t quite shake, before finally heading in the opposite direction toward the general store.

 


 

The Denver post office was louder than Jo expected, crowded with men in work coats, women with baskets, and a constant shuffle of boots across the wooden floor. The air smelled of ink and coal dust, damp wool steaming in the warmth from the iron stove. A long counter stretched across the room, behind which clerks in neat waistcoats sorted papers into pigeonholes, calling out names now and again.

Jo stood near the back of the line, clutching the blank sheet she had bought for a penny and the stub of pencil she kept in her pocket. She wasn’t used to this kind of thing—writing letters. Survival had never needed pen and paper, only instinct and grit. But John’s face had come to her mind that morning, Jack’s too, and the thought that they might be wondering if she and Arthur had made it safe stuck to her like a burr.

When her turn came, she asked for a quiet corner to write. The clerk waved her toward a narrow shelf nailed against the wall. Jo settled there, hunched slightly, tongue pressed against her teeth in concentration as she shaped the words. Her handwriting was rough but legible—more practical than pretty.

 

Denver, Colorado, 1906

John, Abigail, Jack,

Arthur and I made it here safe. Long road, but we managed. Denver is loud and crowded, and I can’t say either of us much belong here, but the beds are softer than the ground, so I won’t complain too much. Arthur wouldn’t admit it, but he enjoyed a hot bath more than he’ll ever say. We’ve stocked the horses well, and they’re resting too. Laramie and Atlas earned it same as us.

I hope you’re safe, wherever you are by now. Arthur keeps wondering how far you’ve gone, if Jack’s growing fast, if Abigail’s still keeping you in line. I reckon he won’t ever stop worrying after you. I won’t either. Write back if you can, though I don’t know if letters will catch us once we’re moving west. Just knowing you’re out there will be enough.

—Jo

 

She read it once, lips pressed in a thin line, then folded the paper carefully. It wasn’t much, but it was something—a tether between them and the little family they’d left behind. Sliding it across the counter with the coin for postage, Jo felt a strange tug in her chest, as if she’d set a piece of herself loose on the wind.

She left the post office with the faint weight of the letter still in her hand, even though it was already sealed and sent off behind the counter. The street pressed around her—clattering wheels, hawkers shouting about fresh bread or hot pies, the whinny of horses and the hiss of steam from some unseen vent. It was too many sounds at once, too many faces rushing by. She tugged her coat tighter and walked without much aim, letting her boots fall in rhythm with the noise.

She had only gone a few blocks when a harsh voice rose above the din—loud, demanding. Jo turned her head, narrowing her eyes through the throng, and spotted a familiar figure pinned against the side of a wagon. 

The German’s hat was clutched to his chest as a heavyset American crowded him close, jabbing a finger at his vest. “Fee,” the man barked. “You park your wagons here, you pay. That’s the law, foreigner.”

Johann stammered, his English fraying. “Fee? I… not understand. We already—”

“Don’t play dumb with me. You owe. Pay up, or I’ll see your whole wagon impounded.”

Something hot flared in Jo’s chest, “Hey!” She pushed through the cluster of onlookers until she stood between them, chin tipped up. 

“Why don’t you pick on someone your own size?” she snapped.

The American’s eyes flicked to her, narrowing. “Stay outta this, lady.”

“Man’s just trying to get by,” Jo shot back. “Ain’t no fee for standing a wagon outside town. You’re just looking to line your own pockets.”

The man sneered, stepping in as if to crowd her out. “What’s it to you?”

Before Jo could retort, another voice cut through—deep, even, carrying authority without effort.

“That’s enough.”

Both Jo and the American turned. A man in a faded Union blue coat stepped forward, taller than most in the crowd. His skin was dark, his hair touched with gray, his face lined with years but steady as stone. He had the look of a soldier still, though his hands were empty and his tone calm.

“No fee’s owed here,” he said simply. “Now back away before you find yourself explaining lies to the sheriff.”

The American hesitated, jaw working, but the soldier’s gaze didn’t waver. With a muttered curse, the man shoved past the crowd and was gone.

Jo let out a slow breath, then looked up at her unexpected ally.

He gave her a small nod, kind but not lingering. “Name’s Elias. Elias Turner.”

Jo inclined her head in return. “Josephine.” She rarely used the full name, but it slipped out now, formal as his.

Turner’s mouth curved in the barest smile. “World could use more folk standing up like that.” With a tip of his hat, he moved on, vanishing into the tide of people.

Jo turned back to Johann, who still looked shaken, his hat clutched tight.

“You all right?” she asked.

“Yes, yes,” he stammered, then straightened, trying to compose himself. “Thank you. I… I did not know. He speak so fast—I not understand. You saved me.”

“Don’t mention it,” Jo said, softer now. “He was just after your money. Nothing more.”

They began walking together, Johann falling into step beside her as the crowd parted around them. He explained in halting English how his people were camped just outside the city, confused and weary. Supplies were scarce, their knowledge of the land poorer still.

“We need guide,” he admitted, lowering his voice as though ashamed. “We want Oregon, but the trail—it is… we are lost. Without help, I fear for us.”

Jo slowed her steps, glancing at him sidelong. “There are guides out there,” she said gently. “If you go see the sheriff, he’d likely point you toward one. Men who knows the country, been running folk west for years.”

Johann gave a weary shake of his head. “I ask already. They want much money. Too much. We have children, women. We sell what little we bring, it is not enough.” His accent thickened with his frustration, words spilling as if the weight of them had been dammed up too long. “They laugh at us, say we die on the trail without coin to pay. So we wait, but waiting…” He trailed off, shoulders sagging.

Jo’s chest tightened. She could picture their wagons on the edge of the city, women keeping children close, men trying to look braver than they felt. She had seen that same look too many times on the faces of the desperate—the look of folk who knew the world wasn’t built for them.

She wanted to help. God, she wanted to. But how? She and Arthur had only just managed to get themselves this far. Supplies were tight, the trail ahead long. Taking on a whole family, a whole convoy—it wasn’t simple. Yet she couldn’t turn her back on them either.

“I dunno how much I can do,” she admitted, voice quieter now, “but I’ll try to find a way. Maybe there’s somethin’ we can manage between us.”

Johann’s eyes brightened faintly, enough to show how desperately he clung to the words.

“Where are you camped?” she asked. “If I can help, I’ll need to find you.”

He nodded eagerly. “North side. By the river bend, near cottonwoods. Small camp—three wagons, no more. You ask for Johann.”

“All right.” She gave a sharp little nod. “I’ll remember.”

They walked on together a few more paces until the street split, Johann glancing back toward the city’s edge. He bowed slightly, gratitude plain in his tired face. “Thank you, Josephine. For everything. You are… good soul.”

Jo felt heat rise to her cheeks but waved it off. “Just doing what anyone ought to.”

With that, Johann departed, melting into the current of people heading out of town, leaving Jo alone again on the bustling street, his plea tugging at her chest with every step back toward the hotel.

Back at the hotel, Jo had settled herself by the window, her chin propped in one hand as the city carried on below. She’d returned later than she’d meant to, Johann’s words echoing in her mind all the way back. The small convoy, the children, the fear in his voice—she couldn’t shake it.

She glanced to the clock on the mantle. The hands had marched on far longer than she’d expected. Supplies took time, sure, but Arthur was no man to dawdle unless he had reason.

Jo drummed her fingers against the arm of the chair, lips pressing thin. Her gut told her nothing was wrong—if trouble had found him, she’d have heard it by now, one way or another. But still. She was restless.

The door finally creaked open, and Arthur stepped in, broad shoulders filling the frame. He carried the smell of the street with him—dust, leather, tobacco—and a paper parcel or two tucked under one arm.

“You’re late,” Jo said, keeping her tone even though the corner of her mouth tugged into the faintest smirk.

Arthur grunted, kicking the door shut behind him. “Yeah, well. Was a damn crowd at the store. Took longer’n I figured.” He set the parcels down on the small table, rolling his shoulders. “Got near everythin’ we’ll need ‘tween here an’ Laramie, leastways.”

She raised a brow. “‘Near’ everything?”

Arthur gave her a sidelong look, the ghost of a grin pulling at his beard. “Don’t start. You’ll see soon enough.”

Jo narrowed her eyes at him, but didn’t press. That was Arthur all over—stubborn as a mule when he wanted to be.

Instead, she rose from her chair and crossed the room, brushing her hand over his arm as she passed. “Long as it ain’t dynamite or another stray dog, I reckon I’ll live with the surprise.”

Arthur huffed a laugh, low in his chest. “Ain’t dynamite. Promise ya that much.”

Jo watched Arthur sort through the parcels a moment, then tilted her head toward the window where the sun already leaned past its peak. “You got it in mind we head out today? Or wait till mornin’?”

Arthur glanced up, brow furrowin’. “What time is it?”

“Past noon,” she said, arms foldin’. “We ride now, we’ll lose half the day just gettin’ clear of the city. Reckon you’d rather leave fresh at first light?”

He set down a sack of coffee with a grunt. “Yeah. Hate wastin’ daylight, but makes more sense. Be cleaner that way. We’ll get a room for another night.”

Jo nodded, biting the inside of her cheek.

Arthur paused, turning toward her with that steady look of his. “What’s sittin’ on your mind?”

She studied him a moment, then let it go with a small shrug. “Guess I oughta tell you somethin’, then.”

Arthur’s head lifted, eyes narrowing a little at her tone. “What’d you get into while I was out?”

Jo let out a dry laugh, moving to perch on the edge of the bed. “Nothin’ I went lookin’ for. Just… heard a voice I recognized in the street. Turned out it was that German fella—Johann. You remember him, from the river.”

Arthur’s expression darkened with recognition. “The ones near drowned you tryin’ to haul that woman up? Yeah, I remember.”

“Well, they wasn’t drownin’ today,” Jo said, lips quirking, “but he was damn near fleeced by some lowlife claimin’ he had to pay a fee for where he parked their wagons. Man was pressin’ him hard, too—knew Johann don’t speak the tongue clean.”

Arthur grunted, jaw tightening. “Bastard.”

“Yeah,” Jo agreed. “I stepped in. Got a little help from a kind enough fella. Ran the bastard off before fists got thrown.”

Arthur’s brow rose. 

She waved it off, eyes finding Arthur’s. “Point is, Johann and his folk… they’re lost, Arthur. Tried hirin’ a guide, but what they’re askin’ costs more’n they got. He looked near desperate.”

Arthur leaned back against the table, arms crossing over his chest. His eyes narrowed a little, measuring her. “And you’re thinkin’ what, exactly?”

Jo shifted, her hands lacing in her lap. “Ain’t sayin’ we lead ‘em all the way. Just… maybe point ‘em right. Maybe help ‘em find a way that don’t bleed ‘em dry. Could be we do nothin’ at all, but I don’t sit right leavin’ ‘em lost, neither.”

Arthur stood there with his arms crossed, head angled just so, the way he did when he’d already half-made his mind. Jo knew that look, and it stirred her temper near as quick as it stirred her affection.

“They ain’t got the coin for a guide,” Jo said, steady, “and they sure as hell don’t got the skills to make it alone.”

Arthur exhaled slow through his nose. “Jo… I ain’t heartless, but think about it. They’re draggin’ wagons. Women, kids. It’s early spring—we’ll be ridin’ through mud up to the horses’ bellies before long. Road’ll eat ‘em alive.”

“That’s exactly why they need help,” she shot back, leaning forward a little. “We can’t just look the other way. What kind of fresh start are we makin’, if we leave folks to starve or freeze ‘cause it slows us down?”

Arthur’s jaw tightened. “It ain’t just about slowin’ us down. It’s about survivin’. They ain’t fit for the trail, Jo. I seen men half their age, twice their strength, drop dead out there. What happens when one of their wagons busts an axle? Or they run outta food? You gonna carry their kids on your back clear to Oregon?”

Her lips pressed into a thin line, but her voice stayed quiet, full of grit. “No. But I ain’t gonna pretend it don’t matter neither. If they fail before they even start—if we just walk away from ‘em—what does that make us?”

Arthur looked at her long and hard, his eyes narrowing beneath his hat brim. He didn’t answer right away. The room filled with the faint creak of floorboards as he shifted his weight.

Finally, his voice came low, almost reluctant. “You really want this.”

“I do,” Jo said, straightening her shoulders. “I ain’t askin’ we take ‘em the whole way. But at least set ‘em right. Show ‘em what to watch for, where to go. Give ‘em a chance.”

Arthur scrubbed a hand over his beard, sighing deep. “Damn it, Jo…” He shook his head, but there was no real heat in it. “You got a way of talkin’ me into things I know’re trouble.”

“Maybe it’s ‘cause deep down, you know I’m right.”

That earned her the ghost of a smile. Arthur’s eyes softened a fraction, though his voice still carried that edge of warning. “We’ll see.”

Jo rose from the bed, crossing the small space between them. Arthur was still standing stiff, arms folded across his chest, jaw working like he was chewing on a bitter thought.

She slipped closer, sliding her arm around his waist and looking up at him, her voice soft but steady. “C’mon, Arthur. You know it’s the right thing to do. They need someone, and we’re already goin’ that way.”

He glanced down at her, lips pressing into a grim line. “I know it’s right,” he muttered, voice low and gravelly, “but right don’t always mean smart. You’re talkin’ about a whole damn wagon train—families, kids, oxen pullin’ wood wheels through spring mud. That’s slowin’ us down to a crawl. An’ a crawl on the trail… it paints a target big as day for every thief and cutthroat lookin’ for an easy mark.”

Jo tightened her hold on him, her hand resting against his back. “Then we defend ‘em. Ain’t like we haven’t handled worse before.”

Arthur gave a dry laugh, though it held no humor. “Handled worse, sure—but never with a line of wagons strung out behind us. Jo, if trouble finds ‘em, we’ll be the only two who can fight it off. That’s a hell of a load to carry.”

She tilted her head, studying him. “Maybe not the only two.”

Arthur frowned, searching her eyes. “What you mean?”

Her lips curved, thoughtful. “That soldier from today—Elias. Man’s seen the army, knows how to keep order. He stepped in soon as he saw trouble. That’s the kind of steady hand them folks need.”

Arthur’s gaze softened, though suspicion lingered in the furrow of his brow. “You trust him?”

“I trust he’s decent,” Jo said simply. “And decent’s more’n most in this city. With him along, it wouldn’t just be us lookin’ out. He could help keep the Germans steady, teach ‘em some discipline. He’s got the presence for it.”

Arthur scratched at his beard, letting out a long sigh. “Hnh. You do got a way of findin’ strays an’ draggin’ ‘em into our mess.”

Jo leaned her head lightly against his chest, smiling faintly. “Maybe. But tell me you don’t feel better knowin’ they’d stand a chance with us watchin’ their backs.”

“Soldier or not, Jo, you know what that means. Man’s worn the uniform, walked with the law. If he gets too curious ‘bout us… ‘bout our past…” He shook his head, jaw hard. “We can’t risk it.”

Jo met his gaze steady, her voice low but burning. “We already risked near everythin’ runnin’ with Dutch. We lied, we stole, we killed when we had to. You and me—we been tryin’ to leave that behind ever since. But if all we do is turn our backs on folk who can’t stand on their own, what good is it? What’s the point of crawlin’ out of the mud if we ain’t willin’ to pull someone else up?”

Arthur exhaled sharp, like she’d struck a nerve.

“This could be it, Arthur. Our chance to make somethin’ right. After all the wrong.” She softened, pressing her palm against his chest. “Call it redemption, if you like. Don’t reckon it wipes the slate clean, but it’s a start.”

Arthur stared at her, silent for a long moment. His eyes were shadowed, but there was a flicker there—something aching, something old.

“Redemption,” he muttered finally, voice rough. “That a word you really believe in, Jo?”

She searched his face, her arm still around his waist. “I believe in us. That’s enough for me.”

Arthur huffed a quiet laugh, though it sounded more like surrender. His arm tightened around her shoulders. “Hell, woman… you’ll be the death of me yet.”

Chapter 56: First Miles

Chapter Text

The hotel room was quiet, but Arthur Morgan found no rest in it.

He lay flat on his back, one arm tucked beneath his head, staring at the pale ceiling above. The bed beneath him was softer than any he had known in weeks, maybe months, yet comfort did little to soothe the restlessness gnawing through his body. His broad frame shifted against the mattress with a low creak. The sheets smelled faintly of lye and soap, clean in a way that felt almost unnatural after too long on the trail.

Through the open window, Denver murmured. Wagons rattled across the cobblestones, a horse whinnied in protest, and the occasional shout drifted up from the streets below. Even muffled by distance, the city’s heartbeat pressed at the walls, constant and unrelenting. Somewhere down the hall, another guest coughed. Somewhere closer, a floorboard gave a small groan as if unsettled by the shifting of weight.

Arthur’s eyes did not close.

His thoughts were heavy as stones, tumbling and grinding against one another. Johann and his people—the Germans with their wagons, their hopeful eyes, their children clutching skirts and sleeves—rose again and again in his mind. He saw them on that riverbank not days ago, Johann’s voice thick with an accent but determined all the same. He saw Jo standing among them, hair damp from the mist, her voice sharp and steady as she coaxed a panicked child back to safety. He saw the way she had looked at him afterward, all stubborn fire and quiet pleading.

Damn woman. She carried the weight of the world on her shoulders, even when it weren’t hers to carry.

Arthur shifted again, pressing the heels of his hands into his eyes until sparks flared against the darkness. The bed dipped beside him where Jo slept, her form curled slightly, tangled hair spilling loose across the pillow. In sleep, the hard lines softened from her face, leaving her looking younger, almost vulnerable. He glanced at her, and the sight pulled at something deep in him. He wanted to keep her safe more than he wanted anything else.

But that was the knot of it.

Helping Johann and his people meant more danger, more eyes on them. A wagon train was a beacon to thieves, to outlaws who preyed on the desperate. With Jo, he could move quiet, move quick, slip through places like a shadow. But multiples wagons? Families who barely spoke the language, who couldn’t fire a rifle straight or mend a broken axle on their own? That wasn’t traveling light. That was painting a target on their backs.

He ran a hand down his face, sighing through his nose. He’d have to watch everything closer. Not just the road, not just the weather, but every damn movement around those wagons. And Jo—Lord, Jo—she’d give herself to those people heart and soul if he let her. He’d be fighting not just the world outside, but her own stubborn will.

It would stretch him thin. Maybe too thin.

Arthur turned onto his side, propping his head on his arm. He stared at the faint glow edging around the curtains, pale gray creeping in to announce the dawn. He had not slept, not truly. His body was tired, but his mind refused the mercy.

And yet, under all the fretting, under all the instinct screaming to keep moving light and fast, there was something else pressing against him. A quiet voice, one he’d never admit to aloud. It told him he owed it. That after all the blood on his hands, all the wrong turns and lies and broken loyalties, he knew damn well what the right thing was when it stood before him.

He could still hear Hosea’s voice, steady as the man had always been: “You still got a choice, son. Always a choice. Don’t waste it.”

Arthur swallowed, throat tight, and let the ceiling blur above him. Jo stirred in her sleep, rolling closer, her hand brushing against his arm. Even unconscious, she seemed to reach for him. He froze, then let her fingers rest there, warm and light.

He exhaled slowly. The choice had already been made, hadn’t it?

By the time sunlight pushed through the curtains in earnest, Arthur dragged himself upright with a grunt. His shoulders felt stiff, his jaw sore from clenching all night. He pulled on his shirt, buckled his belt, and sat at the edge of the bed for a long moment, elbows on his knees, hands dangling loose between them.

When Jo finally stirred awake, blinking sleep from her eyes and pushing back her hair, he was already sitting there waiting, a steaming cup of coffee resting on the table beside him. She frowned at him, soft with sleep.

“You didn’t sleep, did ya?” Her voice was husky from the morning.

Arthur gave a slow shake of his head. “Not much.”

She sat up, pulling the blanket around her shoulders, studying him with those sharp eyes that always seemed to cut through him. He rubbed a hand over his stubble, then finally looked her way.

“We’ll help ‘em,” he said at last, voice rough and low. “Don’t mean I like it. Don’t mean it’ll be easy. But…” His gaze held hers, steady now, even if tired. “It’s the right thing. I know it.”

For a moment she only stared at him, lips parted, as though she had not truly expected him to give in. Then her face softened, relief and something warmer spilling across it.

Arthur leaned back, muttering as he reached for the coffee, “You’re gonna be the death of me, woman.”

Jo smiled faintly, though her eyes were bright. “Maybe. But not today.”

Jo pushed the blanket aside and swung her legs over the edge of the bed. Bare feet touched the worn floorboards, the faint chill of morning meeting her skin. She rose, smoothing back her loose hair with one hand, and circled around the bed to where Arthur sat hunched at its edge.

He looked tired—more tired than he’d admit. Shadows clung beneath his eyes, his jaw rough with stubble, but the set of his shoulders had eased some now that he’d said the words aloud.

Jo stopped beside him, close enough that her knee brushed against his arm. For a moment, she just looked at him, lips curving in the smallest smile, and then she bent down. Her lips pressed softly against the bristle of his cheek. It wasn’t a long kiss, not heavy with passion, but there was gratitude in it, quiet and certain.

Arthur huffed a little, almost embarrassed, and gave her a sidelong glance. “What that’s for?”

“For listenin’,” she murmured. “For not brushing me aside.”

He grunted, but she saw the corner of his mouth twitch, a smile he didn’t quite let loose. “Knew you’d rope me in sooner or later.”

Jo straightened, rolling her eyes, but the warmth in them betrayed her amusement. She turned as if to fetch her own clothes from the chair, but before she could step away, Arthur’s hand reached out, firm and playful, closing around her hips.

“Where d’you think you’re goin’?” he drawled, tugging lightly until she was standing between his knees.

Jo laughed under her breath, caught off guard, and set a hand on his shoulder to steady herself. “Arthur—”

He looked up at her, eyes clearer now despite the fatigue, and there was something teasing in them that softened his usual gravity. He leaned in, brushing a kiss against her stomach through the fabric of her nightshirt, then glanced up again with that half-smirk that always made her chest tighten.

“You ain’t gonna just kiss me once and walk off.” His hands slid lightly along her hips, not trapping but holding her close. “Not after all that keepin’ me up all night with your damn conscience.”

Jo snorted, though her cheeks flushed. “You was the one wrestling with it, not me.”

“Uh-huh.” He kissed her hipbone this time, and she felt her breath hitch despite herself.

Her hand moved from his shoulder to his hair, fingers brushing through it absently. “You’re impossible.”

“And you’re trouble.” He tipped his head back, catching her lips in a brief, warm kiss, tasting of bitter coffee and sleeplessness.

Jo smiled against his mouth, then pulled back just enough to look at him, her hand still resting against his jaw. “Then I guess we’re even.”

Arthur gave a low chuckle, tugging her closer still until her knees pressed lightly against his. For a long moment, the world outside faded—the city noise, the Germans waiting somewhere out there, the road yet to be traveled. It was just the two of them, tangled in the kind of intimacy that wasn’t loud or desperate, but steady, certain, and theirs.

Arthur had finally let her go, though not without another lingering kiss, and the morning soon pulled them both back into its demands. By the time the city was properly awake, they had stepped out into the streets, each heading their own way—Arthur to the stables to ready the horses, Jo weaving her way down the crowded street with another purpose in mind.

The streets of Denver bustled even at midmorning, wagons rattling across cobblestones and the voices of vendors carrying over the din. Jo tugged her coat tighter against the chill, weaving through the crowds as her eyes scanned faces. She’d asked the hotel clerk where she might find the soldier who had helped her yesterday, and after a pause the man had scratched his chin and muttered something about seeing him at Mulligan’s Saloon most mornings.

It took her a while to find it—tucked down a narrower street, the wooden sign swaying above the door. Pushing inside, she was met with the clatter of glasses and the low murmur of men’s voices, thick with tobacco smoke. It wasn’t rowdy yet; too early for that. Just a few men hunched over cards, another snoring in the corner, and behind the counter the barkeep polishing a glass.

Her gaze found him right away. Elias sat alone near the back, a plate of eggs and potatoes pushed half-finished to the side, a tall glass of beer in front of him. His hat was set on the table, coat draped over the chair. He looked every bit the man she remembered—broad shoulders gone stiff with age, dark eyes set beneath a heavy brow, and that same air of solitude about him.

Jo hesitated only a heartbeat before crossing the floor. He saw her coming, his expression barely shifting, though his hand settled around his glass.

“Morning,” she said, stopping by his table.

Elias gave her a long look, then a grunt that might’ve meant sit or go away. Jo took it for the former and slid into the chair opposite.

“I wanted to thank you again,” she said, voice low, steady. “For yesterday. That man with Johann—things could’ve gone worse without you steppin’ in.”

He shrugged, tearing off a piece of bread and chewing slowly. “Didn’t take much. Fella was more bark than bite.”

“Still,” Jo said. “Not everyone would’ve bothered.”

That earned her the faintest lift of an eyebrow, but he said nothing. Jo let the quiet stretch, the sounds of the saloon filling the space—the scrape of boots, the shuffling of cards, the clink of glass.

“You been in Denver long?” she asked finally, more as a way of drawing him out than from true curiosity.

“Long enough.” He sipped his beer, eyes never leaving her face.

Jo gave a little nod, fiddling with the edge of her sleeve. “Figure you’ve seen more of the world than most folks here.”

Elias gave a rough huff, not quite a laugh. “Seen enough. Nothin’ worth braggin’ about.”

She studied him a moment, then leaned back. “You know Johann? The man from yesterday. He and his people—they’re tryin’ for Oregon. But they’re… well, lost.”

That got a response. Elias set his glass down with a dull thud and leaned forward, his voice low and edged. “They ain’t fit for the trail. You seen ‘em same as me. Families with no skill, no hard miles behind ‘em. Folks like that don’t last. The plains’ll eat ‘em alive.”

Jo didn’t flinch at the bluntness, only watched him with steady eyes. “That may be. But they’re tryin’. And maybe all they need is someone who knows the road.”

Elias’ gaze sharpened, though his tone stayed flat. “You plannin’ on bein’ that someone?”

Jo offered a faint smile. “I aim to help, one way or another. Seems wrong to just let ‘em flounder.”

For the first time, something flickered behind Elias’ eyes—a shadow, quickly buried. He shook his head, muttering, “You’ll waste your breath. Or worse.”

She let a beat pass after his last bitter words about folk being fools to head west. Then, steadying her voice, she leaned forward a little, resting her forearms on the table.

“You’re wrong about one thing,” she said softly, watching his dark eyes flick up to her. “They ain’t fools. Just desperate. You seen Johann yesterday—man’s near breakin’ himself in two tryin’ to keep his family together. I reckon that takes grit. Just not the kind this country respects.”

Elias snorted, dragging his thumb down the side of his glass before taking another pull of beer. “Desperation don’t keep folks alive on the trail. Coyotes don’t give a damn about grit. Neither does hunger.”

Jo held his gaze, refusing to flinch at the harshness in his tone. “Maybe so. But they need someone who knows what they’re doin’. Someone who’s walked rough country before.”

That earned her silence. He just stared at her, expression unreadable, as if weighing whether to laugh at her nerve or to get up and walk away.

So she put it plain. “I’m askin’ you, Mr. Turner. Help ’em. Help us. They can’t afford a guide, but you—you’d make the difference between buryin’ their children along the trail and seein’ Oregon with their own eyes.”

His chair creaked as he leaned back, crossing his arms. For the first time, there was something like fire in his eyes, but it wasn’t kindness. “Girl, you got no idea what you’re askin’. Those people—” he jabbed a finger down at the table, his voice dropping into a rough growl, “—they’ll drag you under before you even cross the Platte. They’re green. Soft. They don’t belong out there. And you—” his eyes raked over her, sharp and cold—“you’ll die tryin’ to save ’em. Best thing you can do is walk away.”

The words cut sharper than Jo expected. For a moment she just stared at him, heat rising in her chest, the urge to snap back hot on her tongue. But she swallowed it, letting the silence stretch instead.

Finally she stood, her chair scraping softly against the floor. “Maybe you’re right,” she said, quiet but steady. “Or maybe you just got so used to losin’ that you can’t see what savin’ looks like anymore.”

Elias’s jaw tightened, his face hard as stone. He didn’t answer, didn’t move.

Jo tipped her hat low, hiding her eyes, and turned away. But as she stepped toward the door, she let one last line fall behind her, casual but deliberate: “We’ll be leavin’ for Fort Laramie come mornin’. Should you change your mind.”

She didn’t wait for his reply.

The saloon doors swung shut behind her, cutting off the smell of beer and smoke, the weight of his silence still clinging to her shoulders.

 


 

The sunlight hit her square in the face as Jo pushed through the saloon doors, bright enough to make her squint. She tugged her hat lower, more out of habit than need, and started walking. Her boots struck the boards with clipped, steady steps, though her mind was anything but steady. Elias’s words hung on her shoulders like a weight. They’ll drag you under. You’ll die tryin’ to save ’em.

She huffed, more to herself than anyone else. Damn fool man. He didn’t know her. Didn’t know Arthur. Didn’t know what they’d already lived through. Still—it gnawed at her, because she knew there was truth buried in the gruff warning. She’d asked a stranger to risk his neck for folk he didn’t even know. Maybe she’d been foolish to hope he’d bite.

By the time she cut across the busy street toward the stables, the worst of her anger had cooled into something heavier, quieter. She wasn’t mad at him anymore—not really. Just disappointed. Disappointed in herself for pushing too hard, disappointed in the world for always making kindness feel like a battle.

The stables smelled of hay, horse sweat, and leather oil. The noise of the street dulled here, replaced by the shuffle of hooves and the low rumble of horses nickering. Arthur’s tall frame was easy to spot, bent slightly as he adjusted a strap on Atlas’s tack. Laramie tossed her sleek black head nearby, ears flicking at Jo’s approach.

Arthur straightened when he heard her boots, brushing his hands on his trousers. “There you are,” he drawled, voice warm but edged with that quiet question—what took you so long? His hat shaded his eyes, but she could feel them on her, steady as ever.

Jo managed a small smile, though it didn’t quite reach her eyes. “Had myself a walk. Ran into Elias.”

Arthur’s brow furrowed. “That the soldier fella?”

“Mm.” She untied her gloves, buying herself a second before she met his gaze. “I asked him. About the Germans. Thought maybe he’d help.”

Arthur gave a short, humorless laugh, shaking his head as if he’d already known the answer. “And?”

She sighed, sliding the gloves into her belt. “And he said no. Told me I was wastin’ my time. Said folk like Johann’s family’ll just pull us under with ’em.”

Arthur muttered something under his breath, turning back to Atlas to check the cinch again. Jo watched his hands, the strong, practiced way he worked, and for a moment she hated that Elias’s words had gotten under her skin enough to make her doubt herself.

But when Arthur finally looked back at her, his eyes softened. “Ain’t the first old timer to call us fools, Jo. Won’t be the last.”

Something in the way he said it eased her chest. She stepped closer, letting her hand brush the horse’s flank before resting it lightly on Arthur’s arm. “I just… I can’t shake the thought of leavin’ them folks to fend for themselves.”

Arthur shifted from Atlas to Laramie, giving the mare a slow stroke down her neck before reaching for the saddle blanket. Jo lingered nearby, the weight of Elias’s words still pressing on her, though she tried not to let it show. She watched Arthur work—his big hands sure and gentle as he laid the blanket, then hefted the saddle into place. He’d done the same for her more times than she could count, but somehow it never failed to warm her chest.

He glanced at her while tightening the cinch. “Don’t let that fella sour you,” he said, low and steady, like he’d been waiting for her to get it out. “You got a good heart, Jo. Folk like Johann’s family… they need someone like you lookin’ out for ’em.”

Her lips tugged into a faint, reluctant smile. “And someone like you ridin’ with me.”

Arthur huffed a little through his nose—half a laugh, half disbelief—but his eyes softened. “Reckon you’re stuck with me, whether you like it or not.”

Jo stepped closer, resting her hand lightly against Laramie’s shoulder as Arthur worked. “Still,” she said quietly, “he ain’t wrong. It’s dangerous. More folk means more eyes, more trouble. If they falter…” She trailed off, letting the silence say the rest.

Arthur pulled the strap snug, then paused, resting one hand on the saddle horn. When he looked at her again, it was with that familiar mix—warmth laced with hard truth. “It is dangerous,” he admitted. “Ain’t no denyin’ that. And it ain’t too late, Jo. We could turn around, leave it be. Just you and me, ridin’ west like we talked.”

The offer hung between them, heavy and real. He meant it—she could hear it in the low timbre of his voice. He’d follow her either way.

But then he shook his head, faint smile tugging his mouth as he gave Laramie a pat. “Thing is… you already made up your mind. Ain’t no walkin’ away from this, not for you. And truth be told—” he stepped back, wiping his hands on his trousers— “I’d rather ride into danger with you than sit safe knowin’ we left ’em to die on their own.”

Jo felt her throat tighten. He was giving her both: the honesty she needed and the loyalty she craved. She reached out, brushing her fingers along his arm in quiet thanks, her voice soft when she finally said, “Then we’ll see it through.”

Arthur’s hand found hers for a brief squeeze before he let go, turning back to adjust the bridle.

Arthur gave Laramie’s bridle one last tug, testing the bit and strap with the same care he gave Atlas. Satisfied, he brushed his palm over the mare’s neck and stepped back.

“Alright,” he muttered, glancing to Jo. “She’s set.”

Together, they led the horses from the dim stable into the daylight. The city buzzed around them—wagons rattling over cobbles, the clang of a blacksmith’s hammer somewhere close by—but for a moment it felt quieter, almost contained to just the two of them. Arthur swung Atlas’s reins over the saddle horn, then turned to Jo.

“C’mere.”

Before she could protest, his hands settled at her waist—strong, steady, but careful, as if she were something breakable despite all the fight in her. With an easy lift, he boosted her into Laramie’s saddle. She shook her head, a hint of a smile curving her lips. “Y’know I can mount myself.”

“I know,” Arthur said, amusement tugging low in his throat as he adjusted her stirrup. 

He mounted Atlas with practiced ease, then gave her a nod. They rode side by side, out of the city’s dust and noise, and toward Johann’s camp where canvas tents and three battered wagons stood waiting.

The Germans stirred at their approach, faces lighting with cautious hope. Children darted between the wagon wheels; women paused in their work; Johann straightened from where he’d been checking a mule’s harness.

Arthur swung down first, boots crunching in the dirt. He turned immediately, hands raised toward Jo. She didn’t hesitate this time—leaning forward slightly, she let him guide her down, his palms warm against her waist as he eased her to the ground. It was a small gesture, simple, but Jo felt the quiet reassurance of it all the same.

Johann stepped closer, hat in his hands, eyes questioning. Arthur’s gaze flicked briefly to Jo before he spoke.

“We’ll ride with ya,” he said simply. “Help see you through.”

Relief washed over Johann’s weathered face, his voice thick with gratitude. “Danke. You do not know what this means to us.”

Arthur gave a short nod, his tone firm but practical. “Means we best get to work. Wagons, wheels, harnesses—everything needs checkin’. If we’re ridin’ west, we do it ready, not half-cocked.”

They gathered at the edge of the wagons, the family drawn in close while Arthur and Jo set their shoulders to the task of planning. Johann stood with his arms crossed, brow furrowed in thought, listening carefully as Arthur laid the groundwork.

“Denver’s the last real stop,” Arthur said, his voice steady, matter-of-fact. He crouched near the tongue of one wagon, running his hand over the wood as if weighing its strength. “Once we roll outta here, we ain’t gonna find near this much again till Oregon. Fort Laramie’s on the way, sure—but it ain’t no city. Just waterin’ holes, a few old buildings, maybe a trader if we’re lucky. Don’t count on it for more than restin’ the stock.”

Johann gave a slow nod. “Then Denver is where we must be sure. Food, tools, everything.”

Arthur grunted, pushing himself back up to his full height. “Food first. Flour, beans, oats for the horses, dried meat if we can get it clean. You’ll want barrels o’ lard, too, and coffee if you can spare the coin. That’ll keep everyone movin’. Then hardware: nails, rope, tar, grease. A busted wheel can be fixed if you’ve got the parts. If you don’t…” His mouth flattened. “Well. You don’t go much further.”

Jo watched him with quiet attentiveness, her arms folded loosely across her chest. She let her eyes flick from him to Johann and back again, absorbing each detail. “Canvas too, right?” she asked after a moment. “For patchin’ over leaks or makin’ a shelter if one of the wagons breaks down.”

Arthur glanced at her, the corner of his mouth quirking slightly. “Exactly. And a spare axle, if we can find one to fit. Might feel like overkill now, but out there, you’ll thank me.”

Johann’s wife, Marta, who’d been listening silently until then, finally spoke up, her accent thick but her words careful. “This is much. Will the wagons not be too heavy?”

Arthur gave her a look that was steady but not unkind. “They’ll be heavy no matter what. Better a slow wagon that rolls than a light one that breaks. I can mend most things with the right tools, but I ain’t conjurin’ iron outta thin air.” He bent, tapped the metal rim of a wheel with his knuckle. “These’ll hold. Just need to be smart about what we haul.”

Jo knelt near one of the wagons and tugged at the corner of a sack to peek inside. “You’ve got some grain left. And potatoes. That’s good. But we’ll need more cured stuff. Less rot in the long run.” She brushed the dust from her hands and looked up at Johann. “We could sell some of what won’t keep and put the coin toward what will. Better to lose a little now than starve later.”

Johann studied her for a beat, then dipped his chin. He didn’t smile, but there was something almost like approval in his expression. “You are right.”

Arthur straightened and wiped his palms together. “So. Here’s how it’ll go. We split up in Denver. I’ll take care of hardware—nails, tar, spare spokes, axle if I can find it. Jo, you an’ Marta can handle food. Johann, you keep an eye on the horses. Check harness, collars, make sure they’re fitted right. A sore-backed horse’ll quit on you quicker than a lame wheel.”

“And Fort Laramie?” Johann asked.

Arthur shrugged. “Think of it as a milestone. We’ll water, maybe trade a little if there’s a trapper sellin’. But don’t pin hopes on it. Denver’s the place we make damn sure we’ve got enough to last.” His voice had a finality to it—a quiet authority that came from years of watching journeys succeed or fail on such details.

Jo found herself watching him again, and this time she smiled faintly. “Sounds like you’ve done this before.”

Arthur adjusted the brim of his hat, not quite meeting her eyes. “Enough to know better than trustin’ luck.”

Johann gave another small nod, and at last the tension in his shoulders seemed to ease. “Then we prepare.”

Arthur’s gaze swept over the wagons, the family, the stretch of road that would soon carry them into the vast emptiness of the plains. “That’s the idea,” he murmured.

 


 

The city offered what the plains never could, and Denver’s merchants were eager to sell. Jo and Marta trailed through the markets, weighing sacks of flour with their hands, sniffing at beans to judge their freshness, and trading coin for barrels of lard, oats, and coffee. They haggled for dried meat that had been smoked clean and hard, and bought up sacks of potatoes and onions that would last the first weeks before rot set in.

Arthur kept to hardware. He returned with two spare spokes lashed together, a coil of rope, a crate of nails, and a small keg of axle grease balanced against his shoulder. He found a sheet of canvas large enough to patch a wagon or pitch a rough shelter, and, after some hunting, an extra axle that could be trimmed to fit their rig should the worst come. Each purchase was stacked neatly near the wagons, the pile growing until the corner of their camp resembled a small outpost of its own.

Through the afternoon, they packed. Barrels were rolled up boards and heaved into wagons, sacks hoisted and lashed tight with rope. Jo and Marta arranged the food so that what was needed soonest stayed near the top, while Johann and Arthur made certain the weight was even across both wagons. The children carried smaller bundles—blankets, cooking pots, bundles of kindling—their laughter breaking the rhythm of work before their parents hushed them back to their tasks.

By late afternoon, the camp had the look of order. Wagons sat solid, their wheels newly greased, their beds filled with neat stacks of supplies covered in fresh canvas. Horses grazed in a nearby paddock, coats brushed, harnesses ready. Arthur carved a wedge of wood to fit a loose yoke and set it aside, “just in case.” 

As the day wore down, the final touches were made. Water barrels were filled and lashed into place. Each bedroll was tied tight and laid where it would be reached quickly at nightfall. Marta tucked a pouch of herbs into a corner of the wagon, her quiet remedy for fevers or colds. Johann counted the coin left in his purse and frowned but said nothing.

By the time the sun dipped behind the rooftops of Denver, their small caravan was as ready as it could be. The wagons stood loaded, the horses rested and fit, and their stores filled every corner of space that could be spared. Tomorrow, the road would carry them west toward Fort Laramie and beyond. Tonight, there was nothing more to do but rest, though none of them doubted that sleep would come hard with the weight of the journey ahead.

The camp settled slow under the Denver dusk. Merchants shuttered their stalls, the clatter of hooves in the street grew faint, and lanterns flickered one by one in the distance, each window glowing like a little ember in the dark. Their wagons were packed and ready, the horses fed and watered, and at last there was nothing left to do but let the day fade.

Arthur struck a match and lit a small fire at the edge of the camp, more for comfort than cooking, its flames curling low against the gathering night. The air carried the scent of smoke and horses, with the faint tang of coal smoke drifting from the city beyond. He lowered himself onto a stump with the stiffness of a man whose back had bent over too many tasks in one day, rolling his shoulders and rubbing the ache from his palms.

Jo joined him quietly, tucking her coat beneath her as she sat down beside him. For a while, neither spoke. They simply listened to the crackle of the fire and the murmur of Johann’s family settling into their bedrolls not far off. The children whispered in German until Marta hushed them, and then there was only the hum of the night.

Jo leaned her shoulder against Arthur’s arm, letting the warmth of him seep into her tired bones. He didn’t move at first, just let her rest there, his broad frame solid and steady. After a moment, he shifted slightly, enough to drape one arm around her, his palm resting with easy weight against her far shoulder.

She tipped her head until her temple pressed against his jaw. The firelight painted her face in soft gold, shadows deepening the curve of her cheek, the thoughtful line of her brow. Her voice came low, as though she feared breaking the stillness.

“I ain’t scared,” she said, pausing as if testing the words. “Not exactly. I just… I don’t know how it’s gonna feel. For them. For us. This whole thing. I’ve done plenty in my life I ain’t proud of, and most of it’s left me with nothing but trouble. But this…” Her fingers brushed at a loose thread on his sleeve, a small nervous motion. “This feels like it matters. Like maybe I can do some good for once. And it means a lot—more than I can rightly say—that you’re here with me. That we’re doin’ this together.”

Arthur let the silence stretch a little, his thumb rubbing absently along the curve of her shoulder. He could feel the weight of her honesty, the fragile edge beneath her words. He wasn’t a man for speeches, not really, but he leaned his head down just enough to press a quiet kiss into her hair.

“We’ll make it mean somethin’,” he said, rough but certain. “You and me, we’ll see it through. Whatever comes.”

For a while longer they sat there, leaning into one another, letting the fire burn low. The stars began to prick through the velvet dark above, sharp and cold, and the camp grew still save for the soft snort of horses. Jo’s eyes fluttered shut, and though she hadn’t meant to, she drifted in that half-space between waking and sleep, safe beneath the curve of his arm. Arthur stayed awake a while longer, staring into the fire, his jaw set, his thoughts turning to the miles ahead—but when he glanced down at her, he softened, pulling her just a little closer.

At last, when the embers glowed red and the night grew cool, he rose and coaxed her to her feet, guiding her toward their bedroll. Together they lay down beneath the canvas of their tent, the city’s hum fading at the edges of their camp, and sleep took them slow and steady, side by side.

Tomorrow, the road would begin. Tonight, there was only quiet, and the comfort of being together.

 


 

The dawn came pale and thin, a gray wash of light stretching across the wide plains east of Denver. The city still slept behind them, its church spires and chimneys caught in the low morning haze, but out on the edge of the wilderness the wagons stood ready. Canvas hoods had been tightened against the cold, wheels freshly greased, oxen and horses shifting and snorting in their traces. There was an anxious hum in the air, the sound of families murmuring in German as they checked and re-checked bundles, children rubbing their eyes, women fussing with baskets of bread and dried meat.

Arthur had been up before the others, as always. He moved with quiet efficiency, leading Atlas and cinching his saddle tight, the leather creaking under his calloused hands. His broad frame and steady presence gave the whole gathering a sense of grounding—though he said little, the Germans seemed to draw reassurance from him. He took up a position near the front of the train once they were moving, not exactly leading, but close enough to see the road and scout for trouble before it reached them.

Jo was different. She rode Laramie at the flank, her black mare restless under her but obedient to every touch. She stayed near the side where Johann walked alongside his oxen, occasionally leaning in her saddle to trade a word or a nod. There was something natural in the way she rode among them—watchful, encouraging, not afraid to flash a smile at one of the children who peered wide-eyed from beneath the wagon canvas. She belonged neither to the wagons nor entirely to Arthur at the front, but somewhere in between, bridging both.

The morning passed slow. The rutted trail out of Denver rolled into open prairie, flat and unforgiving. The sky opened wide overhead, an endless pale blue broken only by drifting clouds. The wagons creaked forward in steady rhythm, wood groaning under weight, the animals pulling with long, patient breaths. Dust rose soft around their wheels, coating hems and boots. Spirits were still high—the first day always carried a thrill, the promise of going west, of new beginnings—but beneath it lay a quiet strain. Every family knew they were leaving safety behind for good.

Arthur kept his eyes moving, scanning the horizon and the tree lines whenever they passed them. He rode half-turned in his saddle more often than not, glancing back toward Jo, toward the wagons, toward the dust curling into the sky behind them. He didn’t speak, but the look alone was enough to show his mind was already cataloging a dozen risks: food, water, distance, exposure. The burden of being the protector had settled on him like an old coat—uncomfortable, but one he knew how to wear.

By late morning the sun had climbed higher, warmth starting to seep into the chill air. The rhythm of wheels and hooves was steady, the voices of the Germans softer now as the novelty of departure faded into routine. Jo had just pushed her hat back, squinting into the brightness, when movement appeared on the trail behind them.

A lone rider, dark against the horizon.

The figure came on at a slow but determined pace, horse lathered a little from the push. Arthur was the first to notice—his hand instinctively shifted near the butt of his revolver, body tense until the rider drew closer and the face came into view.

It was Elias.

He looked exactly as he had in the saloon: broad-shouldered, grizzled, clothes a little worse for wear, his beard unshaven, his eyes sharp but tired. He didn’t ride up fast or wave for attention. Instead, he guided his horse alongside the column with the air of a man resigned to a choice he didn’t quite want to make. When he finally drew level with Jo, he gave her a sidelong glance, mouth twitching like he hated every word before it left him.

“Damn fool idea,” he muttered, voice low and gravelly, carrying just enough for Arthur at the front to catch. “But seein’ as you’re all hell-bent on gettin’ yourselves killed, figured you might stand a better chance with one more gun.”

He didn’t smile. Didn’t explain himself further. Just settled his reins, fell in beside the wagons as if he’d been part of them all along, the set of his jaw daring anyone to ask otherwise.

Arthur pulled Atlas to a slow walk as Elias fell in with the wagons, his eyes narrowing beneath the brim of his hat. He didn’t reach for his revolver, but his whole frame stayed tight, coiled, the way a wolf stiffens when another predator comes too close. He didn’t trust easily, and certainly not a man who had been in the army.

From her saddle, Jo felt the tension like a drawn wire between them. Her fingers tightened on Laramie’s reins, but her heart leapt in a way she hadn’t expected. She saw Elias’s words for what they were—not kindness, not even duty, but something closer to reluctant decency. He had thought on it, and he’d come back. That meant something.

Arthur caught her glance, saw the faint lift of her lips, the spark in her eyes. He grunted under his breath, shaking his head as if to say you’re too quick to see the good in folks, girl.

But Jo only let her shoulders soften, easing Laramie closer to his side for a moment. She didn’t speak, didn’t press, but the message was plain in her look: Maybe you’re right to doubt. Maybe I’m right to hope. But either way—we’ve got him now.

The wagons rolled on, the sun casting long light across the prairie as their little train stretched westward. Elias rode silent, brooding as though he hated every mile he gave them, and Arthur’s jaw stayed set, suspicion carved deep into the lines of his face. Yet for Jo, there was a quiet swell of relief beneath it all. For the first time since they’d left Denver, she thought maybe—just maybe—the odds had tilted a fraction in their favor.

And with that, the first day on the trail pressed on, the prairie opening wide before them.

Chapter 57: Into the Wide Country

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Weeks had folded behind them like the pages of a dog-eared book. The wide sweep of prairie that had felt endless the day they left Denver had become a measured rhythm: dawn-break, hitch-up, a slow line of wheels biting dust, midday grease and grind, evening fires and sore shoulders. They had passed Fort Laramie some days past now—a place they had used for a shallow resupply and a brief rest rather than a proper outfitting, as Arthur had warned—and the country had grown harder, thinner, whiter. February had dug its teeth in. Patches of old snow still sat like pale cloth in the hollows; the wind came down off the ranges with a clean, sharp voice that bit at cheeks and ears. Folks called it the white country now: not just because of what lay on the ground, but for the way everything felt bleached to its bone.

They travelled as a careful, slow organism. Two wagons, stacked with the things that would keep a family fed and alive if luck stayed fair and a few good hands could mend what broke; two additional wagons to transport people; the Germans’ oxen and a couple of spare horses; Atlas and Laramie carrying their own riders who watched and moved between the carts. Arthur took the place he liked best—not exactly leading, but toward the front, where the road opened and dangers could be seen and answered first. He rode with the easy, spare tension of a man who respected distance and kept his muscles ready. Jo flanked the wagons, moving like a shadow between canvas and wheel, hands on a rope, a child's sleeve, a stubborn harness. Elias kept a few paces to the rear, silent as a shadow of another kind: gruff, watchful, a man who spoke little and mostly by action.

The days had a simple architecture. Mornings were always cold and thin with steam: untying canvas, feeding animals from the topmost sacks, a quick check of linchpins and spokes while breath fogged in the air. The horses were led in circles to warm them before the pull; the oxen were examined for soreness, the collars rubbed until leather shone. Arthur’s fingers moved with certainty—he checked hubs, listened to wood with the practiced tapping of a man who had had too many wheels die under him. If a spoke had a bad ring, he set a man on it. If a linchpin wouldn’t hold, he found leather and wedge and made it hold. He worked like a man trying to keep time with a living thing, and the wagons paid heed.

Midday held pale sun and wind and the slow creak of wood shaped to burden. They made short miles—rarely more than eight or twelve at best when the ground was frozen and the ruts hid ice—and the pace fit the shape of tired beasts and thin feed. Dust rose as they passed, then snow would slush under an iron rim, then dust again; the country changed like a mood. Men were quiet in the saddle, saving voice and breath. Women moved inside the wagons with practiced, economical gestures: bread broken into portions, coffee boiled in an old pot, a ration of salted meat cut thin. Food was never taken for granted. Jo grew adept at the small arithmetic of survival: make beans stretch, save a spoonful here, tuck a packet of coffee for a morning when the cold felt worst.

They had bought heavy things in Denver that now proved their worth: spare spokes lashed in pairs, coil of rawhide, a slab of extra axle, a tarred canvas big enough to drape a wounded wagonbed and keep rain from finding new homes. Arthur had begged and bartered for an extra barrel of oats and a crate of cured meat, and the sense of security from those purchases was practical. He had the skills to turn a bad break into a patch and a patch into a day's travel—he’d done so so often it had become almost poetry: heat the iron rim, fit it back true, hammer until it whispered its right tone, grease it till it slipped like a thing oiled to live. He might not have had every spare part in the world, but he had hands that could make parts where there were none.

The people changed with the road. Johann’s family grew a kind of hard patience, their rough German mutters stitching themselves into the cadence of the trail. Small gratitude settled like an unspoken thing toward Jo and Arthur for the practical lessons—how to tie a harness, how to lift a wheel on a plank without breaking a man’s back, how to check the belly of a horse for heat. They learned to listen when Arthur tapped a spoke and made that steady sound that told a man whether a wheel would hold another hundred miles. 

How their group had managed to drag themselves this far west before crossing paths with Jo and Arthur remained something of a mystery. They had set out with too few tools, no spares for their wagons, and little notion of how punishing the trail could be once snow and ice set in. Their wheels were ill-greased, their harnesses cracked from neglect, and their food stores carelessly packed so that flour had already spoiled and bacon had gone rancid. Arthur could hardly look at the state of things without muttering under his breath, shaking his head at the sheer blind luck that had carried them across the first miles. They had survived on stubbornness more than skill, and when they watched Arthur mend a wheel in half an afternoon or saw Jo throw a tarp so it held against the wind, they marveled as if these were acts of wizardry. It was no wonder, then, that gratitude bloomed between them: a hushed awareness that without these two riders, their dream of Oregon might have died on the prairie.

Jo’s place settled into its own shape. She wasn’t a mother by practice, and the children did not instantly take to her in the easy way they did to Arthur—the boy who liked to be hoisted on Atlas’s broad back, or the smallest of the girls who would follow Arthur as if he were a slow, safe mountain. Children recognized softness and practiced steadiness; Arthur had both without trying. Jo had a different talent: she moved among the adults and the tasks with a blunt competence and a restless kindness. She taught the women how to arrange a sack so the flour wouldn’t mold, how to boil a poultice for a swelling. She fixed a torn shirt with stitches the hands knew by feeling rather than instruction. When the men argued about the best route or when Johann fretted over coin, she was a steady voice between them, quick with a plan and quicker still to put her shoulder to the work.

And yet she tried, in small ways, at the thing that had felt foreign to her: the language. Sometimes, in the afternoon lull when the children fell to idling with carved sticks and the sun made the snow glitter like salt, she’d sit by a low pile of spare cloth and call the smaller ones over. Her English was not the kind of thing to school a scholar; it was voiced in the drawl that softened the ends of words and swallowed syllables, and she taught in that same crooked leaning way.

“Say ‘water,’” she’d tell a boy, pronouncing it soft and close—“wa’er.” He would mimic her and laugh at the new sound and say it again, proud. “Say ‘bread’,” she’d say, and the child would try and twist the word like a new toy. Jo corrected gently, more by shaping their mouths with her hand and showing them how to roll the consonants than by grammar. Her English lessons were not for any high purpose so much as a stitch between them, a way to make their faces open when they’d otherwise only be strangers’ faces. The German women tried their own English on her too—their vowels heavy and patient—and often they all collapsed into laughter at the small barbarisms of language. It was not fluent, but it was honest, and that honesty built things that a dictionary could not. 

Arthur, on the other hand, found the children in a way Jo didn’t. He had a patient, blunt tenderness. He showed a small boy how to make a toy from a spare bit of wood and a nail, and the boy’s eyes brightened as though he’d found a small sun. Arthur humored the children, let a small girl sit on Atlas’s croup while he walked slowly, and he taught a boy the proper angle to grip a rope so it didn’t cut. He taught them to hold a tool steady, how to find a hard knot in a log and split with a wedge. Those lessons were more valuable than fables.

Elias remained the odd, uneasy presence: a man who barked like a cur but stayed like a mast. He did not smile often. He was quick with a harsh word and slower with kindness, but when he moved you could see the outline of a soldier still in him—a man's economy of motion, the kind that preserved energy and bought time. He’d stand sentinel while the others fixed harnesses, his keen eyes catching something in the tall grass, the faint hint of old tracks. In a small, telling way he began to choreograph the camp’s safety: where the watch sat, how the fires were built low and ringed with spare wagons, which animals were tethered closest in case a quick night theft tried its luck. If he was hard and brusque about it, the results were as useful as a shelter.

The road gave them tests that came on like weather. There were nights when the wind found a seam in a man’s shirt and made him shiver from the inside out; there were days when the oxen moved like the old rope on a bell, slow and sorrowing, making the miles a promise instead of a thing that could be taken. Once, a wagon’s rim took a blow on a hidden rock and the wheel went lopsided; Arthur found it, stripped the tire and re-set it, and they lost two hours and a measure of calm. On another morning a child slipped on the frozen bank while carrying a small pail and scraped a knee so deep it bled through a handkerchief; Marta tied it, Jo pressed a poultice, and Elias—gruff as winter—frowned and insisted on a stronger tincture he had in a locked pouch, the scent of it bitter and medicinal. He watched the child sleep that night with a gaze that was not soft but was attentive in the way a man watches a fire he does not own.

Crossings took the measure of them. Big Sandy Creek was a place where the trail ran a little kinder, following water that braided and found its way toward the Green. In February the creek had a pale edge of ice in parts and a swift, bitter pulse in others. They did not fling wagons into its back without thought. Arthur walked the bank, testing the soil with the butt of a shovel, finding where the bed held a shoulder for a wheel and where the water would push at a hub like a hand. Men waded with boots tucked up, probing currents, while women and children were kept well back by a circle of watchful arms. To cross, they chose a shallower bend where the bank was firm; they laced planks and set a guide rope, buttressed with a log to keep a wagon from sliding when the mud took the iron band. It became a slow ballet of men and animals: one wagon pushed through at a time, muscles creaking, breath clouding, Arthur and two others on the ropes, Elias near the rear keeping watch for unexpected trouble. Jo walked each child across on her shoulder when the water looked mean, hugging them close until the cold cut sharp at the exposed ear.

They learned to speak the landscape: where the wind cut its teeth low, where the snow lay thin and crusted, where a stand of cottonwoods would mean wood and water. They kept to those landmarks and to the small rituals that made a wagon-train behave like a family: always check the near wheel at the campsite; always salt the animals’ feed twice a day in cold weather; always fold up the wet canvas to dry at first light. Night watches were strict: two men, two hours on, two hours off, rotation so no one slept through needed calls. Arthur assigned the watches as if he were moving pieces on a board—practical, merciless in his thought for keeping people alive.

Conversation thinned into small, sticky things. They spoke about where the tracks led, about rumors of wolves and rustlers, about the little pleasures that sustained them: a cup of coffee poured twice and not spilled, a slice of dried apple given with a smile. Johann and Marta told stories in the night—of a river back home, of a sister left in the old country; they told them softly, letting their words unfurl in German until a listener’s ear could catch the shape of the life they had left. Jo nodded and listened and sometimes tried to answer with clumsy words in their tongue, which bought laughter and warmth more than fluency. Those laughtered moments were small lanterns against the vast cold.

But it wasn’t only Johann’s family learning. The Germans brought their own world into camp, and Arthur and Jo found themselves richer for it. Marta taught Jo to stretch dough into thin rounds and bake them flat on a stone by the fire, turning scraps of flour into something warm and filling when beans grew tiresome. Johann shared a little tin flask of schnapps one frigid night, passing it with the same ceremony as if it were communion, and explained with pride how it was made back home. The children sang strange little rhymes in their native tongue, high voices carrying into the dusk, and Jo—awkward but game—tried to hum along until they all collapsed in laughter. Even Arthur, who claimed no ear for music, admitted the tunes stuck with him on the trail. Slowly, the two sides were knitting something together: survival on one hand, culture on the other, a kind of exchange that gave the long road a thread of meaning.

Through it all, the railroad—a ribbon of iron that had bound the continent to itself decades before—showed up now and then at a horizon, a black thread cutting across the wide. They saw trains in the distance, long and humming and impossible. It would have been a quick way west, but for Johann and his family the fares would have taken everything they owned; for Arthur and Jo a depot was too full of folk and watchful eyes, too likely a place for someone who’d been with Dutch to be recognized. So they rode the old way, keeping their goods and their faces close, and trusting hands and preparation over speed.

By the time the flat light of one late afternoon folded itself down into a thick, blue dusk, they made a camp near a broad curve of Big Sandy where the shelter of a thin stand of cottonwoods gave a small relief from the wind. Children were wrangled down to roast a bit of bread, and the adults strung a low fire. Arthur sat not far from the flames, hands stained with tar, but his face held a certain tired contentment. Jo moved between chairs, mending a strap, then pausing to help a small girl tie a scarf, needing to feel the closeness of little, manageable things.

Elias stood a little off, shadowed by the wagon, pipe in hand, his gaze moving and raw as a man who kept watch against ghosts in the dark. He did not talk about why he had come, and if anyone asked he spat a word or two about being bored, about not wanting them to be dead fools. But when the child’s coughing grew worse under the thin material of a blanket, Elias stepped forward without a show of sentiment and handed Jo a small bottle—an old tonic he kept—and his fingers lingered at the child’s forehead a moment, uncharacteristically gentle. If anyone watched, they would see the line at the corner of his eye tighten and then smooth; he would say nothing about family or loss, and if Jo looked at him she would only see the man he allowed the trail to make of him: solitary but not useless.

When night settled and the stars punctured the sky with a cold, clear light, they were bent and bent but whole. The wagons were snug, the animals hobbled close, the watches set. They had traded blood and worry against a measure of safety; they had patched and planned and taught and been taught. They had already eaten two weeks of time that would have meant months by the measure of a town, and they’d learned that the white country asked for patience and stubbornness in equal measure.

Jo sat with her back to a wagon wheel, feeling the day in the ache of her shoulders, and let herself think—briefly and without the need to name the feeling—that perhaps this was the kind of thing that mattered. It did not wash clean the things she’d done in the old days, nor did it promise a future without trouble, but it was a hand stretched toward something that might be better than their histories. Arthur sat beside her, his bulk close and safe, and when he reached to tuck an extra blanket around her shoulders she let him, accepting the small domestic mercy as if it were a sacrament.

The trail opened before them, pale and cruel and beautiful, a white ribbon unfurling toward Fort Bridger and beyond. They would rise with the sun again; they would hitch and push and measure the land with the small instruments of human stubbornness. For now, beneath the vast, indifferent vault of sky, the camp kept its quiet, and the white country lay around them like a promise not yet tested.

 


 

By late morning, the wind had risen again, sweeping down from the bare ridges in cold gusts that bit through wool and canvas alike. The wagons strained forward in a long, creaking line, wheels crunching over frozen ground, while the children trudged close to their mothers’ skirts or huddled on the wagon benches under patchwork blankets. Jo rode the flank as always, Laramie’s hooves cutting steady tracks beside the ruts, her sharp eyes scanning the pale horizon. When she glanced across the column, she noticed little Greta—the youngest of the Bauer girls—clinging to her mother’s skirts with lips trembling blue and shoulders hunched so deep into her threadbare shawl it barely covered her at all. Her mother, worn to the bone herself, tried to shield the child, but the wind pulled mercilessly at the thin cloth.

Without thinking, Jo slowed Laramie and tugged the scarf from her own throat. It was the last bit of real warmth she carried—Arthur had nagged her enough times about keeping it tight over her chest, against the cough she sometimes gave in the mornings. She ignored the thought and leaned from her saddle, pressing the wool into the woman’s hands. The mother protested in broken English, shaking her head, but Jo only smiled faintly and looped the scarf around the girl’s shoulders herself, tucking it beneath her chin. Greta’s eyes widened, soft and shy, before her little fingers clutched the wool with a grateful fierceness.

Arthur noticed, of course. He always did. When Jo straightened in her saddle and coughed into her gloved fist a few minutes later, he fixed her with one of those sidelong looks—half scolding, half worried—but said nothing. She brushed it off with a shrug, urging Laramie forward again, her breath misting heavier than before.

The day wore on beneath a sky the color of pewter. They pressed west, the wagons rocking and groaning as the ground grew rougher. By dusk, shadows had lengthened over the frozen riverbeds, and the world seemed to narrow into that brittle silence that came just before nightfall. The Germans had begun murmuring about camp, weary voices drifting back through the train, when Arthur’s gelding pricked its ears and stamped. A ripple of unease moved through the horses—snorts, the twitch of hides, the whites of eyes flashing in the gloom.

Laramie’s muscles tensed under Jo, ears swiveling sharply toward the ridges. Then came the sound—low, guttural growls rolling out of the dark, followed by the eerie rise of a howl that carried over the snowbound flats. One voice became several, weaving together until the air itself seemed alive with the promise of hunger.

“Wolves!” Arthur warned everyone, swinging down from Atlas in one fluid motion. Elias was already cursing, throwing his rifle from his saddle and working the lever with a snap. Jo’s hand went instinctively to her holster, pulling iron free just as a pair of pale shapes broke from the darkness, slinking low across the snow.

The pack came fast, eyes burning with the reflection of firelight as they closed in on the edge of the wagons. Horses screamed and stamped, nearly breaking free of their traces, while the Germans clustered tight, shouting in panic. Jo urged Laramie forward, placing herself between the lead wagon and the nearest wolf. The animal darted, jaws snapping for the horse’s flank, but she fired quick and clean—one shot sparking in the dark, the beast rolling lifeless into the snow.

Arthur barked for the men to keep the fires high, his rifle cracking once, then again, scattering the pack’s first rush. Elias stood firm at the rear, shooting with a hunter’s practiced aim, his face set grim. Still, the wolves circled, snarling and lunging just out of reach, testing the line, driven half-mad by hunger.

For long minutes it was a blur of noise and movement—the thud of hooves, the sharp crack of rifles, the sharp tang of blood on the wind. But each gunshot pushed the beasts back, until finally the survivors melted into the darkness with yelps and growls, leaving two carcasses in the snow and a silence heavy enough to crush the air.

The Germans exhaled in ragged relief. Children wept softly into their mothers’ skirts, while the men murmured prayers of thanks. Arthur lowered his rifle and rolled his shoulders, eyes sweeping the group to make sure all stood unhurt. 

The camp settled into a strained hush after the gunfire faded, the wind carrying away the echoes into the empty dark. The wolves had scattered, but no one believed they’d gone far. Horses tossed their heads restlessly, snorting into the cold, while mothers gathered their children close under quilts and fathers stood with lanterns, casting anxious eyes toward the ridge lines.

Arthur dragged one carcass toward the fire, the snow beneath streaked crimson, while Elias dismounted with a grunt, rifle still at the ready. The old soldier spat into the snow, then crouched beside the kill, running a practiced hand over the thick pelt.

“Good fur on this one,” he muttered, voice carrying in the brittle quiet. “Worth somethin’ at Bridger. Don’t waste it.”

Jo had already slipped her knife free, crouching at the second carcass where the firelight stretched. Her movements were steady, almost ritualistic, as she worked the blade beneath the pelt, peeling it back with care. Blood steamed in the night air, sharp and metallic, mingling with woodsmoke from the growing fires. She said nothing, but her jaw was tight, and every now and then she cast a glance into the shadows beyond the wagons, where pairs of faint eyes still seemed to flicker before vanishing.

Arthur knelt at her side once he’d seen the horses calmed and the Germans gathered closer to the flames. “Careful,” he said low, though not to stop her, more as a habit—he hated her working a blade in the dark, hated how she shouldered every rough task as if daring him to try and take it from her.

Between the three of them—the hunter, the soldier, the outlaw—the work went quickly. By the time the hides were stretched on branches near the fire to dry and stiffen, the meat had been carved into long strips. Elias oversaw the butchering with a soldier’s eye for rations, parceling out portions with the same gravity he might’ve given ammunition. Arthur salted what he could from the supply they’d stocked in Denver, while Jo skewered fresh cuts over the fire, letting the grease spit and hiss as the flames licked.

The Germans watched with wide eyes, half appalled, half grateful, unused to such raw necessity. Yet hunger was stronger than disgust. When the meat was ready, slices were passed around, and though it was lean, stringy, and dark, the weary families ate as though it were a feast. Children gnawed at the strips, their small hands blackened with soot, while murmurs of thanks—thickly accented, hesitant—passed through the circle.

No one laughed that night, but there was a sense of relief in the smoke-filled air, the kind that followed narrowly averted disaster. Still, the fear lingered. Elias made it plain they’d need double the guard through the night. “Wolves don’t quit easy,” he said, wiping his knife clean against his coat. “Not when they’ve tasted blood. They’ll circle back if they think we’re soft.”

Arthur nodded, taking first watch himself, rifle across his lap as he sat by the edge of the fire’s glow. His eyes moved often to the wagons, to where Jo finally settled against Laramie’s flank, finishing her work with hands raw from the cold. He didn’t miss the faint tremor in her shoulders. 

Above them, the February sky stretched vast and cold, stars burning like sparks flung across black velvet. The fire cracked, the wolves howled again in the distance—fainter, angrier—and the little band huddled close against the wild.

 


 

Arthur sat with his rifle balanced across his knees, eyes scanning the tree line where the black pines massed against the sky. The fire still burned fiercely, throwing long shadows over the wagons and the small knots of sleeping figures huddled close for warmth. Every so often a horse snorted, restless, ears flicking toward the dark.

Bootsteps crunched softly in the snow, and Elias lowered himself beside Arthur with the quiet grunt of old bones. He set his rifle down but kept it close, his gaze lifting toward the ridges where the wolves had fled. For a while, the two men sat in silence, shoulders angled toward the fire but eyes fixed outward, like statues carved from shadow and frost.

Finally, Elias spoke, his voice low, as if careful not to disturb the sleeping camp. “Don’t figure these folks knew what they were walkin’ into when they set out,” he said. “Damn miracle they made it as far as Denver without bein’ torn apart or starved to bone.”

Arthur’s jaw tightened slightly as he spat into the fire. “Yeah. Jo says the same. Reckon they’re tougher than they look, though.”

“Tough don’t always mean ready,” Elias replied, tugging his coat tighter. He paused, then let out a breath that fogged in the cold air. “Seen whole regiments go down quicker’n this. Men trained, drilled, armed. Still ain’t enough when the world decides it wants you dead.”

Arthur flicked his eyes sideways at him. There was something in the way Elias said it—like the words had been carried for decades, worn smooth by time but heavy all the same. 

“Guess you seen your fair share,” Arthur said simply.

Elias grunted. “More’n I care to remember. Civil War chewed men up, spit us out like we was nothin’ but bones to be scattered. After that, there wasn’t much left worth holdin’ onto. Wife passed some years later. Girl, too.” He hesitated, then shrugged it off like he’d said too much. “Ain’t much else worth tellin’.”

Arthur didn’t press. He knew better. He only nodded, staring into the dark where faint eyes still glimmered now and again before vanishing. “Ain’t easy, losin’ folk. Nothin’ ever fills that hole. You just learn to walk with it.”

Elias tilted his head, studying him in the dim glow, and for the first time there was no edge in his gaze—just a quiet recognition, like one wounded man seeing the scar of another. “Suppose you know somethin’ about that.”

Arthur’s mouth twisted faintly, neither smile nor frown. “Suppose I do.”

The silence stretched again, but it wasn’t strained now. It was the silence of two men who’d said enough.

After a time, Elias shifted, picked up his rifle, and stood with the ease of someone still used to command. “Get some rest. I’ll take it from here.”

Arthur hesitated, but only a moment. He rose, stretched the stiffness from his back, and gave a curt nod. “Don’t let ‘em circle in close. They’ll try, sure as hell.”

Elias’s teeth showed in a brief, humorless smile. “Wolves been circlin’ me my whole life, son. I’ll manage.”

Arthur left him then, boots crunching softly over the snow until he came to where Jo lay curled near Laramie, her blanket pulled high beneath her chin. She stirred faintly as he settled beside her, and without waking fully, she shifted closer, her head resting lightly against his arm. Arthur let out a quiet breath, laid the rifle within reach, and leaned back against the mare’s warm flank.

The night was long, the air biting, but with Jo beside him and Elias standing guard, Arthur finally allowed his eyes to close.

The fire crackled low, shadows twitching against the wagons as the night deepened. Elias stood his post a few paces beyond the glow, rifle in hand, his breath misting white in the cold air. His eyes swept the tree line, the ridges and brush where dark shapes might slink and gather. But as the hours dragged, his focus wavered.

The quiet was too familiar—too much like those nights on picket duty decades ago, when the woods seemed to breathe with unseen enemies and every rustle set the skin crawling.

And then it came—unwanted flashes breaking through the dark. Gunfire in the distance, the shriek of artillery. Men screaming, clutching at torn flesh. The stink of powder and blood hanging heavy in the air. His chest tightened as if he were back there, musket in hand, his boots sinking into mud thick with more than rain.

He shut his eyes, jaw clenching until his teeth ached. Breathed once. Twice. The sound of his own heartbeat thundered in his ears. “Not there,” he muttered under his breath, voice rasping. “Not there no more.”

When he opened his eyes, the forest was still again. Just a light breeze through the pines, a horse stamping softly in the snow. The crackle of dying embers.

He turned, steadying himself with a long inhale. Across the camp he saw the Germans—Johann curled protectively around his wife and children, their faces buried beneath patched quilts. Beyond them, the two outsiders. Arthur had settled beside the black mare, rifle laid close at hand, the blonde woman curled tight against his shoulder. They looked younger like that, both of them. Just people clinging to what warmth they could find.

Elias exhaled through his nose, slow, deliberate, until the tightness in his chest eased. No battlefield. No regiment. Just a ragtag group trying to carve out a scrap of safety on a hard road west.

He adjusted his stance, fingers tightening briefly on the rifle before relaxing. The wolves would keep their distance tonight. And if they didn’t, well—he’d be ready.

Elias turned back to the dark, his shadow long against the snow, and kept his watch.

 


 

The pale wash of dawn crept over the snow-dusted plain, turning the frost on the wagon canvas into tiny glints of silver. Smoke from the embers of last night’s fire clung low to the ground, carrying with it the faint, bitter tang of half-burned wood.

Arthur was already moving before the first rays cut through the trees. He stirred the fire back to life with a practiced hand, set the pot to boil, and spooned in grounds with a rhythm born of years of trail mornings. He didn’t say much, never did at daybreak, but his presence was steady—boots crunching softly, tin cups set down, the faint rasp of a match flaring.

Jo was slower to rise. She’d curled deep into her bedroll, reluctant to let the warmth slip away, her body sluggish, her head cotton-heavy. When she finally pushed herself upright, she cleared her throat, but the sound came out rough, raw, as if she’d swallowed smoke in her sleep. She winced, rubbing absently at her neck.

Arthur crouched by the fire, poured a steaming cup, and brought it over without a word. The smell of bitter coffee curled into the cold morning air.

“Here,” he muttered, offering it out, his voice still gravel from sleep.

She took it, hands cupped tight around the tin for warmth. The first sip burned going down, catching against the rawness of her throat, and she made a small sound, half-grimace, half-relief. The heat hurt, but it was a good hurt, chasing away the chill that clung stubbornly to her bones. She lingered there, swallowing carefully, savoring each gulp as though she could trick her body into feeling whole again.

Arthur watched a moment longer, eyes narrowing just slightly at the pale cast to her cheeks, the faint flush along her neck. But he said nothing. Just settled back onto his heels, running a thumb along the rim of his own cup before finally drinking.

Around them, the camp began to stir—the groan of wagon wheels as Johann checked an axle, children’s voices still thick with sleep, Elias saddling his horse with slow, deliberate motions. The morning fell into its rhythm: canvas folded, gear strapped tight, embers kicked cold. Another day of road ahead.

The wagons creaked back into motion with the pale morning sun rising behind them, its light filtered weakly through the haze of winter cloud. Breath plumed in the air—horses, mules, men, and women all exhaling white ghosts as they set themselves to another day on the trail. Frost still clung to the canvas covers, sparkling faintly as the wheels cut slow grooves into the frozen earth.

Johann rode a little ahead of his own wagon on foot, turning back now and then, his cheeks ruddy from the cold. He cleared his throat, glanced toward Arthur, Jo, and Elias—each of them mounted and keeping an easy guard around the family. His voice carried across the crisp morning air.

“I must… say thank you. Last night. For the wolves.” His English was halting, but earnest. “Without you, maybe… very different.” His eyes flicked, nervous, toward the children bundled under blankets in the wagon. “My family, they sleep today because of you.”

Arthur gave a small grunt, tugging at his reins to keep Atlas steady on the rutted track. “Wasn’t nothin’. Wolves are wolves. You keep your fires goin’ strong, and they’ll think twice about comin’ back.”

Johann nodded quickly, relief in the movement, though the furrows in his brow remained. Elias, riding just behind, only gave a short hum—low, gravelly, not quite agreement but acknowledgment enough.

It was then that a small head poked out from the back of the wagon. Greta, the youngest, her cheeks pink from the cold, peeked around the flap of the canvas, blinking wide eyes at Jo. “Miss Jo,” she piped up in a sweet, piping voice, “do you ever get scared?”

The question, so innocent, seemed to float across the trail. For a heartbeat Jo only blinked, her mare’s ears twitching at the sound. She shifted in her saddle, looking at the girl with a half-smile tugging her lips, though her throat ached raw when she swallowed before answering.

“Scared?” she echoed, her voice rougher than usual, though it carried warmth. “Course I do. Everyone gets scared, darlin’. But scared don’t mean you stop. Just means you hold tighter, and keep goin’ anyhow.”

The child considered this, eyes wide, before ducking back into the safety of the blankets, satisfied with the answer. Jo let out a slow breath, rubbing her gloved hand over her nose, then coughed once into her sleeve, quiet enough that neither Arthur nor Johann seemed to notice.

Arthur’s gaze had stayed forward on the track, shoulders squared, the brim of his hat shadowing his face.

The wagons pressed on, wheels groaning in protest against frozen mud, hooves striking dull thuds into the ground. Above them, a pair of ravens circled, their calls breaking the silence before winging away toward the west. The road stretched long and white before them, leading into the heart of Wyoming’s winter country.

Johann, never quite able to hide his nervousness, urged conversation again as the wagons rocked along the frozen track. He walked beside his team, bundled in a thick, patched coat, glancing back at Arthur riding a steady pace behind. “We should follow the river longer, ja?” he asked, pointing ahead where a thin line of water cut through the white expanse. “It is… safer, I think. Better ground.”

Arthur didn’t raise his head, just tugged the brim of his hat lower against the pale glare of sun on frost. “River’s fine ‘til it floods,” he muttered. “Then you’re stuck.” His tone was flat, noncommittal, as if the words cost him more patience than he cared to give. When Johann pressed again—something about distance markers carved by earlier travelers—Arthur only grunted, the sound clipped and final. The message was plain: he’d keep them alive, but he wasn’t here to coddle worry.

The day stretched gray and endless, the weather sharp and biting even when the sun broke through for brief moments, scattering brittle light across the open plain. The wind came in from the northwest, a constant companion that whipped through scarves and coats, cutting down into bone. Wagons creaked in protest over the frozen mud, wheels groaning against ruts that had hardened like stone. Hooves struck dull, hollow sounds into the earth, each step sending little bursts of frost puffing up into the air. Horses and mules snorted clouds of steam, their hides damp at the flanks despite the cold.

Jo rode close to Johann’s wagon, Laramie’s ears twitching at every groan of the axles. From beneath the canvas, children peeked out, their faces red with cold, their breath curling out in tiny puffs. One of Johann’s daughters clutched a small doll stitched of scraps, its dress patched in many colors, and began to hum a tune as she rocked it gently. The melody was unfamiliar—slow, lilting, with a softness that carried strangely well through the wind.

Jo tilted her head, curiosity flickering in her eyes. “That a song y’all sing back home?” she asked, her words touched with the rough edge of her accent.

The girl’s mother leaned from the wagon seat, smiling despite the fatigue written plain across her face. “It is a lullaby. For sleep,” she explained in halting English, then sang a line herself, her voice low and sweet. Even Arthur, who had been riding ahead at the time, slowed his horse a little at the sound, though he didn’t turn back.

Jo listened, her lips quirking faintly as the notes wound their way through the cold. After a pause, she offered her own answer—half-embarrassed, half-defiant. She whistled a few bars of a rough frontier ballad she remembered from saloon nights, not beautiful, but strong and carrying. The children clapped in delight, not caring for polish, and Greta, the youngest, tried to mimic Jo’s whistle, spitting air through her teeth until she laughed so hard she had to clutch her doll to keep from dropping it.

Elias, keeping his place on the flank, turned his head slightly at the sound, the corner of his mouth twitching before settling back into its usual hard line. He said nothing, eyes always scanning the distance, but the faintest trace of warmth softened the severe set of his shoulders.

Arthur, farther ahead, let the moment wash behind him, though his ears had caught every note. He only nudged Atlas onward, watchful and silent, the wide country opening before him like a book of trouble he alone knew how to read.

For Jo, the laughter and voices helped mask the raw burn in her throat. She tugged her collar higher when a cough threatened, disguising it as if clearing her throat against the cold. When the fit passed, she straightened, making sure no one had caught the weakness. Her skin flushed with fever’s faint heat, but she forced her body to sway easy in the saddle, hiding the subtle heaviness that was beginning to weigh her limbs.

The trail stretched on, cold and endless, wagon wheels cutting their slow rhythm westward into the white country.

By midday the wind had eased, though the cold still clung to every breath. Arthur called for a halt near a sparse stand of cottonwoods by the creek, their leafless branches scratching thin shadows across the snow. The wagons were drawn in a loose half-circle, animals watered and fed from what grain they could spare. The air filled with the scents of leather, sweat, and woodsmoke as a fire was coaxed to life.

Arthur dismounted first, scanning the horizon with his habitual sharpness. Even in the lull of camp, his shoulders held that protective set, his eyes tracing every dip and rise of the land before he allowed himself to loosen the cinch on Atlas’s saddle. “Don’t like stoppin’ long,” he muttered, mostly to himself. But he unslung his canteen anyway, pouring water into a shallow pan for Atlas and Laramie both, the steam rising quick in the frigid air.

Jo slid down from Laramie with a practiced grace, though when her boots hit the ground her legs felt heavier than they should. She masked it by busying herself with the horse, brushing at a patch of frost that clung to the mare’s flank. Her throat was raw, each swallow catching like a thorn, but she hid it well behind a faint smile when Greta toddled close, clinging to her leg to peer at the tall, shining animal.

Johann’s wife, Marta, bustled with a pot she had brought down from the wagon, her face ruddy with both cold and determination. “Here,” she insisted, her English thick but eager, “you try. Family recipe. Will give strength.” The pot released a sharp, unfamiliar aroma—fermented cabbage boiled with a scrap of pork and thick rye dumplings.

Arthur sniffed, his nose wrinkling under his mustache. “Smells like somethin’ crawled outta the ground and died in there.”

Jo shot him a sideways look, muffling a laugh against the back of her hand. “Be polite,” she teased, nudging his arm as Marta eagerly spooned some into a tin bowl. “Could be worse. Could be that awful stew Pearson used t’make.”

Arthur grunted, unimpressed, but he accepted the bowl anyway. His first bite earned him a scowl and a muffled cough, which Jo caught, grinning despite herself. “See? Ain’t so bad.” She tried a mouthful herself, the sour tang prickling her already sore throat. It made her want to cough again, but she swallowed carefully, lips pressed tight, and forced a small nod of approval.

Elias, leaning against his horse with arms folded, watched the exchange with his usual flat expression. “If that’s supposed to give strength,” he said dryly, “then I reckon I’d rather stay weak.”

The words, spoken in his gravelly baritone, drew an unexpected snort of laughter from Arthur. A low, genuine chuckle followed, surprising even him. “Guess you ain’t wrong,” Arthur admitted, shaking his head, and for a moment there was something lighter in the air—an ease that hadn’t been there before.

The children gathered close as the food was passed around, the warmth of the fire making their cheeks glow. One boy, Matthias, his hair sticking out beneath a too-large cap, tugged gently at Jo’s sleeve. “Miss Jo,” he said, stumbling over the English, “story? Tell story?” His wide eyes shone with that particular mix of hope and trust that only a child could carry.

Jo blinked, caught off guard. She’d never thought of herself as a storyteller—not the kind meant for children, anyway. But the little faces turned toward her, expectant, softened something in her chest. She crouched down, the firelight painting her features in warm amber, and cleared her throat gently.

“Well,” she began, voice a little hoarse but steady, “there’s one ‘bout a fox I knew once… a sly one. Used t’steal chickens from a farm near where I grew up.” The words came slowly at first, hesitant, but the children leaned closer, captivated. Jo found herself weaving the tale, making the fox clever and daring, exaggerating his escapes until the children giggled and whispered to one another. Greta pressed her doll tight, her eyes wide with delight.

Arthur watched from where he sat on a log, his cup of coffee warming his hands. He didn’t say a word, but his gaze lingered on Jo, steady and unreadable. She wasn’t even trying to win them over, but there she was—easing their fear, coaxing laughter out of exhaustion. Something stirred in him then, quiet and private, the kind of thought he kept to himself.

When Jo’s story ended with the fox outwitting a farmer’s hound, the children clapped their mittened hands together, their voices bright in the cold. Jo smiled, a little surprised at herself, but quickly hid it in a cough, her collar tugged higher as if against the chill. The rawness in her throat throbbed, but she waved it away when Marta offered her a worried glance.

The halt lasted only long enough for the animals to rest and the pot to empty, before Arthur rose with a gruff, “Best get movin’.” One by one, the wagons groaned back into motion, wheels biting at the frozen ruts as the caravan pushed onward into the white wilderness.

 


 

The wagons rolled on through the brittle afternoon light, their wheels creaking against the rutted trail. The cold had settled in deeper now, not the sharp bite of morning but a dull ache that seeped into bones, carried on the endless wind that swept the plains. The horizon stretched unbroken, pale sky meeting white earth, and every mile felt heavier than the last.

Johann fretted near the head of the line, his hands tightening and loosening on the reins of his team. He called back now and again, pointing to distant ridges or the uneven tracks of the road. “We must be careful, ja? The ground, it will turn soft when thaw comes. If we lose a wheel—”

Elias, riding his horse along the flank, cut him off in that gravel-worn drawl. “Ain’t no use worryin’ what you can’t control. Wheel breaks, you fix it. Wagon tips, you right it. That’s the trail.” He spat into the snow without slowing, his words flat and unbending.

Johann stiffened, his jaw working. “You speak so… so cold. These wagons carry lives.”

“And frettin’ won’t keep ‘em safe,” Elias shot back, his weathered face unmoved. “Keep your hands steady, eyes ahead. That’s all that matters.”

Arthur, scouting a dozen yards forward on Atlas, didn’t so much as glance over his shoulder at the exchange. His gaze swept the land, drawn to the dips in the terrain, the tree lines far off, the faint movement of shadow where the wind caught snow and tossed it into the air. He let Johann and Elias trade barbs; their voices were just another layer of noise beneath the groan of wagons and the crunch of hooves. His mind was elsewhere—counting miles, measuring daylight, listening to the silence of the land.

Behind, Jo pressed on at Laramie’s side. She’d pulled her coat higher against the wind, though it did little to ease the scrape in her throat. Her voice had gone scratchy, roughened by the rawness that lingered since morning, but she still spoke when one of Johann’s boys rode near her stirrup to point at a hawk circling above. “Sharp eyes you got there,” she told him, her tone even, though a cough scratched at the back of her throat. She swallowed it down, straightening her shoulders, unwilling to let the boy see her falter.

Each mile felt longer than it should. Her body swayed once or twice in the saddle, subtle, hidden in the rhythm of Laramie’s gait, and when Arthur glanced back once, she tightened her grip on the reins and lifted her chin as if nothing were amiss. She would not have him—or anyone—worrying.

The road narrowed where it skirted a line of bare cottonwoods, their roots clutching at the frozen earth like claws. Arthur slowed Atlas, scanning the ground. That was when he saw them: pressed into the snow at the tree line, a scatter of tracks, heavy and fresh. Too many to belong to a lone hunter.

“Wolves,” he muttered under his breath, eyes narrowing.

When the wagons drew up, he raised a hand for them to slow. Elias spotted the same tracks and clicked his tongue. “Pack movin’ close,” he said, riding nearer to Arthur. “Lookin’ for somethin’ easy.”

The news spread quick, whispered from wagon to wagon, the air growing taut. Johann twisted in his seat, scanning the tree line as if the wolves might leap out at any moment. Marta clutched Greta closer, her shawl pulled tight around the little girl.

But the pack did not appear. Only the wind moved through the trees, whistling thin and low. Still, every creak of the wagons seemed louder, every snort from the horses sharper, every cry of the children edged with fear. The tension rode with them, unshaken, as the sun dipped slowly toward the horizon.

Arthur lifted a hand as the last of the pale light bled toward the horizon. “That’s far enough,” he called back, voice carrying low but steady. “We make camp here. Best get fires goin’ before it’s full dark.”

The wagons groaned to a halt, wheels sinking into the frozen ruts. Johann all but sagged in his seat, exhaling a breath as though he’d held it since morning. “Danke, danke,” he muttered, clambering down stiffly. He pressed a hand to his chest, eyes roaming the empty stretch of land around them, relieved to have made it another day without mishap.

Arthur dismounted with quiet efficiency, pulling wood from one wagon and snapping kindling to life. He said little, but every movement had purpose—setting stones, feeding tinder, coaxing sparks into flame until the orange glow licked at the gathering dark. Soon, more fires dotted the clearing, each a small beacon against the long night. The crackle and smoke pushed back the cold, and, more importantly, the unseen eyes they all feared might be watching.

Jo worked alongside Marta, helping to portion supper from the tins and sacks. Her movements were slower tonight, her shoulders heavy. The ride had dragged the strength out of her, and though she kept her chin up, the cough that broke loose when the steam of hot broth hit her throat was sharper, harsher. She pressed the back of her hand to her mouth and forced a small smile when Marta looked at her in concern. “Just the cold air catching me,” she murmured.

The children gathered close to the warmth, shadows dancing over their small faces. Greta tugged shyly on the end of the scarf Jo had given her, now hanging loose around her little neck. “It’s warm,” she said softly, eyes shining with gratitude. “Thank you, Miss Jo.”

Jo’s expression softened, weariness forgotten for a heartbeat. “Looks better on you anyhow,” she teased gently, reaching to tuck the scarf snug under the girl’s chin. But Arthur,  from where he crouched over one of the fires glanced up, blue eyes narrowing slightly. He noticed how Jo pulled her coat tighter after, as if suddenly aware of the chill in her own bones.

Elias settled on a log near Arthur, stretching his legs out toward the flames. For a long while he just sat in silence, letting the crackle fill the space. Then, in his measured tone, he finally spoke. “Trail wasn’t bad, all things considered. Wolves’ll shadow us awhile, but they don’t waste strength without cause. Keep fires high, we’ll be fine.”

Arthur gave a short grunt. “That your way of sayin’ tomorrow won’t be worse?”

Elias huffed a dry laugh. “It’s the trail. Tomorrow’s always worse in some way.” He glanced sideways, weathered features lit in flickers of firelight. “But you handled it. You know how to read land.”

Arthur didn’t answer right away, feeding another stick into the fire. When he did, it was gruff, almost dismissive. “Ain’t nothin’ but years of ridin’. Anyone can see what’s in front of ‘em.”

But Elias only shrugged, as if he’d said what he meant.

The camp had settled into the low rhythms of evening—fires built in cautious circles, Marta corralling the little ones close, Johann fussing over where the wagons sat, Elias stalking the perimeter like a man still in uniform. The cold had teeth tonight; February’s wind came sweeping down the slopes, sharp enough to sting skin and whistle through the wagon canvas.

Jo should have been in their tent or at the fire, sitting shoulder to shoulder with Arthur, letting her body rest for once. But rest had never sat well with her. Marta had asked her earlier, in that soft, insistent way only mothers had, to help with the children: straightening blankets, coaxing one into mittens he kept tugging off, reminding another not to stray too far from the circle of warmth. Jo obeyed without complaint. It gave her hands something to do, gave her mind something to press against instead of the sluggish pull of sickness creeping in.

But after the little ones were finally quiet, after Marta murmured her thanks and gave Jo’s arm a tired squeeze, Jo excused herself. She said she’d better check the horses, make sure Laramie and Atlas were settled against the night wind. It was a believable excuse—no one questioned her habit of keeping close watch over the animals—but even she knew it was more than duty. It was an escape.

She walked toward the line of horses, her coat tugged higher against her mouth. The air burned in her throat, every swallow catching like sandpaper. Her head ached in that dull, pulsing way that told her the fever had deepened since morning. She ignored it. She always ignored it.

Laramie’s black coat gleamed even in the dim light, steam rising faintly from her nostrils. The mare nickered soft when Jo pressed her palm to her muzzle, leaning in with a familiarity that needed no words. Atlas, taller and broader, flicked his ears when Jo moved on to him, resting a hand against his powerful shoulder.

“You’re fine,” Jo whispered hoarsely, stroking the thick line of his neck. Her voice rasped, her throat protesting even that small sound. “Both of ya. Jus’ fine.”

Her vision wavered a moment—the shadows tilting, her knees feeling hollow under her weight. She gripped at Atlas’s mane, steadying herself, waiting for the spinning to pass. But the ground seemed determined to rise up, her breath short and shallow.

“Damn it,” she muttered, more to herself than anyone else, though the sound cracked out weak and ragged.

That was when a heavy hand steadied her elbow.

“You gonna fall on your face out here, or what?” Arthur’s voice—low, rough, and far too close—made her startle. She hadn’t even heard him approach.

She turned, ready to snap back that she was fine, that she didn’t need anyone creeping after her. But the words withered under his gaze. He wasn’t angry but there was that tight set to his jaw, that look in his eyes that told her he’d been watching longer than she realized.

“I told Marta I’d—” she started, but her voice cracked, betraying her.

Arthur shook his head, not buying it for a second. “You look about ready to keel over.” His grip on her arm didn’t loosen. In fact, it shifted—from steadying to guiding, his big hand moving to the small of her back with a gentleness she wouldn’t have expected from him in front of anyone else. “C’mon.”

“I ain’t—” she tried again, coughing halfway through. She turned her face into her shoulder, trying to hide it, but the sound rattled too raw. Her chest burned.

Arthur muttered under his breath—not sharp, not loud, but the kind of mutter that carried equal parts frustration and worry. “Stubborn damn woman.” He tilted his hat brim down, eyes narrowing against the wind, and angled her back toward camp. “Should’ve said somethin’.”

She wanted to argue, to tell him not to fuss. Pride bit at her tongue, but the fever dulled her enough that the fight didn’t come. Instead, she leaned a fraction more into his hand at her back, just to keep her balance.

When they reached the firelight, Arthur lowered her down onto a blanket near the flames. He crouched in front of her, big shoulders blocking the draft, one hand lingering on her knee as if to anchor her in place.

“You give away your scarf, why?” he said quietly, glancing at the child in the wagon across the fire whose small frame was bundled in the oversized wool. His tone wasn’t accusing—more resigned, as if the pieces fit together too neatly for him not to see it.

Jo’s lips parted, but no excuse came. She only looked at him, weary but unbowed, and said softly, “They needed it more.”

Arthur exhaled hard, dragging a hand down his beard. “You’re gonna drive me to an early grave.” The words came rough, but his thumb brushed over her knee in a way that was almost tender, almost pleading.

For a long moment, neither spoke. The camp around them murmured with the ordinary sounds of settling in—Johann stoking another fire, Marta humming softly to the children while sewing—but here, in the small circle of light between them, it was only the two of them.

Arthur finally stood, muttering something about fetching her water, about keeping her close to the fire. But the look he gave her before stepping away lingered—sharp with worry, softened with something else he couldn’t quite name.

And Jo, though fever tugged her deeper into exhaustion, felt a warmth that wasn’t only from the flames.

Marta noticed first. She had that mother’s instinct—the kind that spotted illness or fatigue faster than any doctor. When Arthur had brought Jo to sit near the fire, Marta’s gaze had lingered across the flames, and she’d set down her sewing with a soft cluck of her tongue.

“She’s pale,” Marta murmured in her accented English, brushing ash from her skirts as she rose. The firelight caught her weary face, the lines carved deep from years of worry, but her steps were steady. She knelt beside Jo without hesitation, her hand brushing across Jo’s forehead. Jo flinched slightly at the touch, more from pride than discomfort, but Marta only gave Arthur a knowing look. “She has fever.”

Arthur grunted, jaw tightening. “Yeah, I know.” His voice carried a defensive edge, though no one had accused him of failing. It was his own guilt that bristled.

Marta didn’t scold, didn’t press. She moved with quiet efficiency, pulling a small pouch from her apron. “Chamomile,” she explained, showing Arthur the dried flowers wrapped in cloth. “Helps calm. Not cure. But better than nothing.” She gave him the little bundle as if passing a torch.

Arthur dipped his chin in thanks, though he felt clumsy under the weight of her trust. He wasn’t used to anyone handing him remedies and expecting he’d know what to do. But he took the pouch and stood, muttering, “I’ll brew it.”

When he returned with a steaming cup a few minutes later, Jo was fighting to keep her eyes open. The fever flushed her cheeks, though her lips were pale. Arthur crouched again, holding the cup out. “Drink,” he said gruffly.

She shook her head, whispering hoarsely, “Can’t.”

Arthur’s eyes softened, though his mouth stayed hard. “You can. Slow.” He shifted closer, steadying the cup to her lips. Jo tried, swallowing with difficulty, but the warmth soothed even as it scraped her raw throat. She winced after each sip, but didn’t pull away.

“That’s it,” Arthur murmured, quieter now, almost coaxing. He kept his hand beneath hers on the cup, just in case her trembling fingers gave out. “Little more.”

When she finished, sagging against the rolled blanket behind her, Arthur set the cup aside. Marta was already herding her brood back toward sleep, murmuring lullabies in German, so the camp quieted save for the crack of firewood and the restless shuffle of horses.

Arthur carried her towards their shared tent and lowered her down on their bedroll. He drew another blanket from his saddlebag, rough wool but warm, and spread it carefully over Jo, tucking it around her shoulders, his calloused hands oddly delicate in the task. She made a soft sound—not quite a word, more the sigh of surrender—and let her head tip toward him as she slipped closer to sleep.

“Damn fool,” Arthur whispered, his hand hovering over her hair before he finally let it rest there. He smoothed a strand from her damp temple, the gesture betraying a tenderness he’d never dare show while she was awake. “Givin’ away what you can’t afford… what am I supposed to do with you?”

Jo didn’t stir. Tiredness had carried her under.

One by one, the others drifted into sleep. Elias settled his long frame near the edge of camp, rifle propped close, eyes half-closed but alert even in rest. Johann, ever fretful, finally quieted, wrapped in blankets beside his family. The only constant sound was the wind sifting through the pines, and the occasional creak of wagon timbers.

Arthur stayed awake. He fed the fire piece by piece every once in a while, keeping the flames high enough to chase back the cold but low enough not to waste wood. Each time he returned to their tent, he found himself pressing the back of his hand to Jo’s brow, gauging the fever, scowling each time he found her still too warm. He pulled the blanket tighter around her when she stirred, checked her breathing when she coughed in her sleep.

And while the camp slept, his thoughts turned darker.

She gave too much of herself. Always had. Whether it was her scarf, her time, her strength—she poured it out until there was nothing left for her. And now here she was, burning up in the dead of February because she’d thought more of others than herself.

Arthur rubbed at his beard, staring into firelight dancing on the canvas. He told himself they’d done right, helping these folks. Hell, they had. Without him and Jo, the Germans wouldn’t have made it two days into this wilderness. But looking at her now, cheeks flushed with fever, lips dry and cracked, he felt a sharp pang of regret.

Maybe he should’ve said no. Maybe he should’ve kept her out of it, taken her somewhere warm, safe, far from sick children and endless miles of road. She was his, wasn’t she? His to protect. And yet he’d let her give and give until it hurt her.

Arthur leaned forward, elbows braced on his knees, eyes fixed on the orange glow. Snow began to fall—soft at first, then steadier, hissing when they melted in the fire. The camp was wrapped in white silence, only the faint breaths of sleepers and the restless snorts of horses breaking it.

He reached down, pulling the blanket higher around Jo’s chin, his hand lingering a moment against her cheek. 

“Reckon I can’t let you burn yourself out, girl,” he murmured to her sleeping form. The words were rough, but they carried a weight of promise. He’d carry her if he had to. He’d see her through this winter, through Fort Bridger, through whatever lay beyond.

But as he sat there, keeping vigil in the snow-swept dark, he felt the looming weight of the trail ahead. The mountains, the hunger, the cold—all waiting.

And now Jo’s fever, a spark threatening to grow into flame.

Arthur tightened his grip on his knees, jaw set. The night pressed in around him, and though the fire burned bright, he couldn’t shake the sense that the hardest miles were still to come.

Chapter 58: Snowbound

Notes:

I know this chapter has a bit of the same dynamic as the last one, but I just had to give you more of that tender, caring Arthur energy 🥹 I couldn’t help myself. Consider this a little dose of softness before things pick up again hihi.

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The dawn broke sharp and brittle, a pale sun glinting off the snow-crusted wagons. Frost clung in delicate lace to the wheels and canvas, sparkling faintly in the cold light. The camp stirred slow, children sniffling as Marta wrapped scarves around their necks, Johann mumbling prayers under his breath as he checked the horses. Every sound carried thin in the frozen air—wagon creaks, hooves pawing at hard ground, Elias’s steady cough as he stoked one of the smaller fires.

Arthur crouched near the larger fire, steam curling off the blackened pot as he poured coffee into tin cups. His movements were brisk, efficient, but his eyes kept straying—drawn to where Jo was still curled in her blankets in their tent. She stirred groggily, her hair mussed from sleep. With the canvas left open, he could see the faint flush still in her cheeks.

He carried a cup over, the snow crunching under his boots. “Mornin’,” he muttered, voice low and gruff as always. Then, softer, crouching beside her: “Feelin’ any better?”

Jo pushed herself upright, blankets slipping from her shoulders. She gave him a half-smile—the kind she used when she wanted to ease his worry without giving too much away. “Throat’s still a little sore,” she admitted honestly, her voice scratchy. “But fever’s gone. I feel better.”

Arthur studied her face, searching for cracks. He wanted to press, to challenge her, but something in him softened instead. He wanted to believe her. Maybe he needed to. With a quiet grunt, he handed her the coffee.

She cradled the tin between both hands, savoring the warmth even as her throat protested when she swallowed. The hot liquid burned at first, rough against rawness, but then it spread like comfort, easing the ache. She closed her eyes for a moment, letting it sit heavy in her chest.

Arthur stayed crouched beside her. “Don’t go pushin’ yourself,” he said at last, but it was less warning and more plea.

“I’m fine,” she murmured, already moving to her feet. He didn’t believe that part, but he let it go.

When the time came to ready the horses, Arthur got to Laramie first. He brushed frost off her black coat, tightened the saddle straps himself, every tug deliberate. Jo frowned when she realized.

“You don’t have to do that,” she said, walking up with her empty cup in hand.

“Easier this way,” he muttered without looking at her, though there was no mistaking the way his jaw clenched—the gesture wasn’t about ease, it was about care.

When he helped her mount, his hands were firm at her waist before he guided her up. Once she was seated, he lingered, one rough hand resting against her knee, thumb brushing over the wool of her trousers. His eyes searched her face, steady and unflinching, but he didn’t say what was in his chest. Instead, his voice came low: “Could ride in one of the wagons today. Ain’t no shame in restin’.”

Her chin lifted stubbornly, the faintest ghost of a smirk tugging her mouth. “I can ride.”

Arthur’s mouth pressed thin, but he gave a small grunt—half acceptance, half frustration. He left his hand there just a moment longer before stepping back.

Then, without a word, he shrugged off his thickest coat—the heavy blue wool one with the fur lining—and swung it over her shoulders. Jo blinked, startled, already beginning to shake her head.

“Arthur—”

“Got another one,” he cut in, tone firm, eyes daring her to argue. The coat swallowed her, heavy and warm, his scent clinging faintly to the fabric. She touched the collar without meaning to, biting back her protest.

Arthur only adjusted it around her shoulders, brushing snowflakes from her hair with one absent sweep of his hand, before turning away to fetch Atlas. A small act, simple as breathing—but clear as a vow.

One of Johann’s wagons had a wheel sunk into a patch of crusted mud beneath the snow, and the family huddled anxiously as Arthur and Elias set their shoulders to the rim. With a grunt and a sharp crack of ice, the wagon lurched free. Johann muttered thanks in German, relief written plain across his face, while Elias only dusted his gloves and gave a noncommittal grunt.

Once the train was lined and ready, Arthur mounted Atlas with a long, familiar ease. The stallion snorted steam into the cold air, ears pricking toward the empty horizon. Arthur tugged his hat low against the glare of winter light, settling into his quiet watch as the first wagon creaked forward.

Snow crunched steady under hooves and wheels, the rhythm of travel sinking into the group like a heartbeat. The air was sharp enough to sting lungs, each breath turning white before fading into the wind.

Jo guided Laramie to the side of Johann’s wagon, close enough that Marta could lean forward under the canvas and offer a smile. They traded small words—halting English from Marta, Jo replying with her own accented drawl. The chatter was easy enough to pass for casual, though Jo’s throat caught often, each cough muffled quickly into her gloved fist. She forced brightness into her eyes, matching Marta’s warmth, refusing to let weariness show too plain.

When one of the children wriggled close to the wagon’s flap and waved, Jo straightened in her saddle, lifting a hand in return. “Mornin’, little one,” she called, voice rough but softened with effort.

“Miss Jo!” the boy piped, broken English tumbling out in a rush. “You… you ride fast horse?”

Jo smiled, though the edges trembled faintly. “Sometimes,” she said, giving Laramie’s sleek neck a fond pat. “But she smarter than me, truth told. Knows the road better.”

The children giggled, delighted by the notion, and Marta’s eyes softened, though worry still lingered behind them.

For a heartbeat, Jo swayed—the world tilting faintly as her body gave way under fever’s hidden weight. She caught herself quickly, fingers tightening in Laramie’s mane, the motion subtle enough that no one called it. Arthur was a dozen yards ahead, Atlas’s ears flicking, the man’s gaze sweeping the trail. He didn’t see.

Jo drew in a breath sharp against her raw throat and forced another smile for the children. “Ask me more,” she said. “Help me learn your words better.”

Their laughter rose thin in the winter air, a sound that fought the cold and, for a little while, won.

The road stretched white and unbroken, wagon wheels groaning as they carved ruts through the hard crust of snow. Beside Johann’s wagon, Jo found herself more often coaxed into conversation than she might have expected. The children leaned out, faces pink from the cold, eager to practice the scraps of English they had stitched together from her lessons.

“Sun,” Greta said, pointing upward, her mitten wagging at the pale disk straining behind clouds. “Cold… sun.”

Jo chuckled softly, her voice low and hoarse. “That’s right, sweetheart. Cold sun. Not warmin’ nobody.”

The children repeated it back, delight sparking in their voices, and Jo felt something stir in her chest. Strange, how quick they were to take to her, when she’d never been sure how to reach children at all. 

A short distance off, Arthur rode Atlas with his usual steady patience, the stallion’s breath rising thick and white from his nostrils. Every few minutes, Arthur let the horse sidestep toward the trail’s edge, scanning the snowpack for signs he didn’t like. His shoulders were tense under his coat, but his face remained unreadable, weathered into calm vigilance.

Elias rode the other flank, a few wagon-lengths back, astride a solid bay mare with a broad chest and dark legs—the kind of mount bred for stamina, not speed. Her coat gleamed even in the dull light, and she stepped sure over the ruts, ears twitching but steady. Elias sat square in the saddle, posture still military despite his years. He didn’t fidget, didn’t look around needlessly—just a calm, watchful eye on the horizon.

Arthur cast him a glance over his shoulder, muttering low when their paths drew close enough. “She’s a fine mare.”

Elias’s mouth twitched into something between a smirk and a grunt. “Ain’t flashy, but she’ll keep goin’ longer than most.” His gloved hand brushed down the reins with an absent care, the mare flicking her tail as though she agreed.

Arthur gave a small nod, eyes narrowing on the trail ahead again. “That’s the kind I trust, too.”

“Mm,” Elias hummed. For a moment, silence stretched between them—two men who knew horses as well as they knew rifles, speaking with the kind of brevity that needed no embellishment.

Behind them, Jo’s laughter, rough as it was, carried faintly on the wind as the children tried to fit clumsy English words together. The sound softened something in Arthur’s chest, though he didn’t turn to look. He just shifted in the saddle, gloved fingers resting light against Atlas’s withers, letting the stallion’s steady stride keep pace with the creaking wagons.

 


 

The morning wore on with the brittle bite of February wind scouring across the open land. The sky was pale, the kind of cold blue that seemed more glass than air, and each exhale from horse or rider drifted white and heavy. The wagons groaned through rutted snow, wheels biting and snapping as they rolled onward.

Jo still rode with her back straighter than she felt, jaw set firm, Arthur’s coat tugged up around her chin. Laramie’s steady pace was a mercy, but even so, she could feel the pull in her shoulders, the weight of the cold gnawing deeper. She had taken to chatting here and there with Marta or one of the children when the wagon drew close, her voice raspier than the day before but still warm. She could fool them. She would fool them.

A few paces behind Altas, Elias’s bay mare moved sure-footed through the snow, her ears pricked forward. The man himself rode like a statue, shoulders square, reins loose in one hand. After a long silence, his voice cut sharp into the brittle air.

“If she can’t keep up,” he said, not bothering to look at Jo, but his words carried straight to her, “she oughta ride in the wagon ‘stead of draggin’ her horse half-dead with her.”

Arthur’s head turned so fast Atlas tossed his own, ears flicking at the sudden motion. The older man’s jaw clenched, his voice dropping into a cold, dangerous register. “You best watch your tongue.”

The way he said it—low, flint-edged—wasn’t loud, but it carried weight enough that Johann cast a nervous glance from the wagon seat, reading the tension in the air.

Before it could flare hotter, Jo rode closer and cut in, voice raw but fierce. “I’m fine.”

Her eyes burned at Arthur first, a plea not to make a scene, then flicked toward Elias with a tight-lipped steadiness. “Ain’t nobody need to fuss over me. I can ride just fine.”

The words might’ve rung stronger if not for the cough that seized her chest right after, scraping out of her like a betrayal. She dragged her sleeve across her mouth, spurring Laramie forward a half-step as though that could erase the sound.

Elias’s eyes flicked toward her at last, the lines around them narrowing. He didn’t answer, didn’t gloat. He only gave a small grunt—half dismissal, half acknowledgment—and nudged his mare back into her steady rhythm. For all his sharpness, something in his look had shifted: he knew grit when he saw it.

Arthur stared hard at Jo, his lips pressed into a line, but she refused to meet his eyes. Finally, he turned forward again, shoulders tight under his coat, the silence between them saying more than words.

They paused near midday by a frozen creek, its surface glazed thick and silver. Arthur led Atlas down to the bank where the ice had been broken by passing hooves, letting him drink, then brought up buckets to water Johann’s team. His movements were brisk, practiced—the efficiency of a man who had done this more times than he could count.

The Germans unwrapped cold bread and dried meat, passing it around the children with practiced hands. Jo sat near the wagon tongue, her gloved hands cupped around a tin Arthur had pressed into them. He had all but shoved a hunk of bread her way, muttering, “Eat. You need it,” with that stubborn frown of his.

She forced a smile, nibbling at the crust even though every swallow felt like glass down her throat. “See? I’m eatin’,” she rasped, hoping to soothe him.

Arthur crouched nearby, coffee steaming from his cup, watching her too closely. “Ain’t enough. You oughta sit in the wagon awhile.”

Jo shook her head, stubborn light in her eyes. “I can ride.”

Before Arthur could argue further, Marta appeared with her own tin cup, steam curling from it. She pressed it into Jo’s hands, the scent of broth rising rich and savory, herbs mingling with warmth.

“You drink,” Marta said firmly, her accent thick but her meaning clear enough. “Hot… good.” She clucked her tongue like a mother hen, then added a stream of German Jo couldn’t quite follow—but she caught the tone well enough. A scolding, wrapped in care.

Jo flushed faintly, ducking her head. “Danke,” she whispered, her accent clumsy but earnest, and took a cautious sip. The heat slid down her raw throat and soothed more than she wanted to admit.

From where he sat on a stump, Elias puffed his pipe, smoke curling lazy against the pale sky. His dark eyes flicked from Jo to Arthur to Marta, but he said nothing. Still, the lines at his brow eased, his jaw working as though in thought.

 


 

The afternoon wore on beneath a sky bleached pale by cold. What weak sun had broken the horizon that morning was now veiled by thin, dragging clouds, the light dull and unforgiving. Wind came slicing from the north, needling through every seam of cloth and fur, pulling at scarves until they flapped ragged, rattling wagon covers like drums. The sound of it filled the world—an endless rush, a whisper that seemed to crawl beneath the skin.

The little column pushed forward against it, each wagon wheel grinding through crusted snow with a groan that harmonized with the wind. Riders hunched low in their saddles, hats tugged down, collars turned high. Every breath came white and sharp, each inhalation a sting in the lungs.

Back in the line, Jo kept Laramie steady beside Johann’s wagon. She forced chatter here and there when the children peeked out from under the canvas cover, their wide eyes following her like sparrows. She smiled at them, waved even, rasped a few warm replies in her frayed voice—anything to keep them soothed. Marta leaned out once, offering Jo another scarf, but Jo only shook her head and tugged her own tighter.

Her cheeks burned, too hot beneath the cold air, her throat raw with each breath. She swallowed, smiled again at a question from one of the children in broken English, and carried on. She would not give in. She would not be seen faltering.

But as the hours wore her down, her body betrayed her pride. The flush deepened on her cheeks, her hands grew clumsy on the reins, her shoulders sagged. The rhythm of Laramie’s stride rocked her heavier than it should have, until at last her grip loosened and she slumped forward, her brow pressing to the mare’s dark neck.

Laramie, loyal as ever, slowed her pace, drifting subtly from the wagon’s line. She did not startle or stumble; she only adjusted, moving in a meandering half-pattern, careful and deliberate, as though she knew her rider could no longer guide her.

It was a quiet image, almost gentle—Jo bent low, her hair tugged loose by the wind, her breath misting against her horse’s mane. But to anyone watching closely, it was stark and terrible: her body too weak to hold its own pride any longer, her silence carried now by the strength of her horse.

Arthur rode ahead, Atlas’s hooves crunching deliberate through the drifts. His jaw was locked tight against the wind, but his eyes were sharp, scanning. Tracks crisscrossed the land, darker shadows against the frozen crust. Rabbits, deer… and wolves. He reined Atlas to a slower walk, leaning down in the saddle to study a set of prints pressed deep into the snow. Fresh. A little bit too fresh for his liking.

Not long after, a carcass loomed—what looked like had once been a bison, now little more than a skeleton stretched across the snow, ribs slick with ice where sinew had been stripped clean. The stench of old blood clung to the air, sour and heavy despite the cold. Arthur’s mouth thinned into a hard line.

He turned in the saddle as Elias came riding flank, his bay mare picking her way steady beside the wagons. Arthur nodded toward the carcass, his voice low, swallowed almost by the wind. “Somethin’s trailin’ us. Wolves, by the look.”

Elias gave a grunt, eyes narrowing, though his face betrayed no fear. “Could be,” he said, his voice gravel rough, smoke from his pipe curling from his beard. “Best keep tight.”

Arthur gave a single nod and urged Atlas forward again, but unease rode heavy in his chest.

When he turned back from his scout, Arthur saw it. At first only a ripple of movement caught his eye—Laramie veering, drifting wider than she should. His gut clenched before his mind even placed it, a cold spike cutting through his chest sharper than the wind.

“Goddamn it—” His heels hit Atlas’s flanks, and the big stallion lunged forward, snow churning up beneath his hooves.

He closed the distance in a rush, heart hammering, throat dry. “Jo… darlin’, hey.” His voice was low, urgent, almost swallowed by the roar of the wind. “C’mon now. Wake up.”

He reached her side, one hand steadying the reins, the other bracing against her knee, keeping her from sliding further. Laramie flicked an ear but kept her calm, as though she too knew the weight she carried.

Jo stirred faintly at his touch, a faint sound in her throat, but her eyes barely opened, lashes crusted with ice.

Behind them, the line faltered. Johann muttered something rapid and desperate in German, his hands tightening on the reins. Marta clutched her children close, her face pale with worry as she craned to see. One of the little ones whimpered, sensing fear though not the cause.

Even Elias reined in, the bay mare tossing her head at the sudden tension. His brows furrowed as he studied Jo, his usual detachment slipping into something darker—concern, perhaps, though he said nothing.

Arthur pulled Laramie back into line, his body angled protectively between her and the wind. His voice stayed low, coaxing. “You just hang on, darlin’. I got you. Ain’t lettin’ you fall.”

Snow lashed across the group, the horizon blurring white, the cold pressing down heavy. And still the wagons creaked onward, a fragile line cutting through a world that seemed intent on breaking them piece by piece.

The column slowed, the creak of wagon wheels faltering as Arthur raised a hand. The wind had grown too fierce to pretend nothing was wrong, and with Jo sagging in her saddle, there was no hiding it now. Snow whipped across the open stretch, scouring faces raw, biting through every seam of cloth. It stung Arthur’s eyes as he pulled Atlas short and turned to the others.

Marta was the first to speak, her voice taut but steady, carrying over the wind. “She needs shelter,” she called, switching briefly to German as she leaned out from the wagon, scarf pulled tight around her chin. “Not fire, not blanket. Out here—will get worse.”

Johann, pale as the snow crusted on his cap, nodded hard. His hands twisted over his reins, knuckles white. “Ja, ja, my wife is right. The cold—it spreads in the chest. If it spreads…” He trailed off, muttering a prayer under his breath, eyes darting toward Jo with dread.

Elias nudged his mare closer, his voice practical, even as the wind carried it thin. “We can shift supplies in one of the wagons, makes space enough for a bedroll. She rides in there.” His gaze cut briefly to Arthur, steady and unflinching, but not unkind. “That’s the only way.”

Arthur didn’t hesitate, didn’t even glance at the others. “Then we do it.” His voice was rough, edged with command, with guilt, with love. He swung out of the saddle in one hard motion, boots hitting the snow with a crunch, and strode for the nearest wagon.

The Germans moved fast—fear and cold making their hands quick. Crates, sacks, barrels shifted from one bed to another, their contents shuffled across the line in a clatter of wood and muffled thumps. Arthur took up more than his share, muscles burning as he hauled heavy loads to the next wagon. His movements were sharp, efficient, every slam of a crate against the boards betraying the fury he felt—not at them, not at Jo, but at himself. He should’ve made her rest sooner. Should’ve seen this coming. He’d promised himself once never to let her burn herself out for others, and here she was, burning all over again.

Snow gusted harder, dusting his shoulders, clinging to the fur at his collar. His breath steamed in the cold, harsh and fast. All the while his eyes cut back to Jo, still slumped against Laramie’s neck, her fingers slack on the reins, her skin flushed fever-bright.

When at last a wagon bed stood clear—a hollow space lined with a blanket and a bedroll—Arthur wasted no more time. He strode back to her side, voice low but urgent as he steadied her in the saddle.

“C’mon now, darlin’. We’re done here. You ain’t ridin’ another damn step.”

Jo stirred faintly, lashes fluttering against wind-chilled cheeks. Her lips moved, her voice little more than a rasp. “I can ride…”

Arthur’s heart clenched. For a moment he had to close his eyes against the sight of her—still fighting, still proud, even when her body betrayed her. He bent closer, his voice rough but tender, a growl softened into a plea. “Not another damn word outta you. Hear me?”

Before she could protest again, he slipped his arms around her, lifting her from the saddle as though she weighed no more than a child. She sagged against his chest, too weak to resist, her head lolling briefly against his shoulder. The smell of her hair, damp with cold, carried even through the sting of the wind, and it nearly undid him.

He carried her to the wagon, every step heavy, deliberate, as if the snow itself resisted him. But his grip never faltered. The world could howl around them all it wanted; he was not letting her go.

At the edge of the wagon, Marta leaned down, spreading another blanket over the bedroll. Her eyes softened, sympathy etched deep across her weary face. “Here, here—lay her down.”

Arthur eased Jo inside, laying her gently onto the bedroll. He lingered, brushing snowflakes from her cheek with the back of his glove, his hand trembling despite himself. She blinked at him, lips parted, whispering something he couldn’t quite catch. Whether it was protest or thanks, he didn’t know.

“Shh,” he murmured, tugging the blanket up around her shoulders, tucking it close like she was the most fragile thing in the world. “Just rest. That’s all I want.”

Her eyes slipped shut, her breathing shallow but steady.

Arthur stepped back only when Marta pressed a hand to his arm, murmuring soft reassurance in broken English. “I stay with her. I help.”

He gave her a stiff nod, jaw tight, his chest aching with more than cold. Then he turned to gather the reins of Laramie, tying the mare carefully to the wagon so she would not wander. The horse nudged his shoulder, as if sensing the weight of his worry, and Arthur paused, resting a gloved hand briefly against her muzzle. “You done good,” he muttered, voice hoarse. “Real good.”

The wagons lurched forward again, wheels groaning against the frozen ruts of the trail. Arthur left Elias to guide the front with Johann, pulling Atlas back until he rode alongside the rear wagon—her wagon now. The air bit sharper here, the wind driving snow in stinging sheets, each flake hard as grit when it struck exposed skin. The world had narrowed to a blur of white and shadow, visibility dropping until the horizon itself seemed to vanish.

The horses felt it. Atlas tossed his head uneasily, snorting clouds of steam into the bitter air. The Germans’ teams huffed and stamped, their breath frosting in clouds that whipped away as quick as they formed. Laramie, tied steady to Jo’s wagon, walked on faithfully, though her ears flicked back and forth, alert to every shifting sound in the storm. Arthur leaned down, running a gloved hand briefly along her mane as they passed. “Easy, girl,” he murmured, voice low and grounding. “Keep her safe, now.”

Inside the wagon, bundled beneath blankets, Jo stirred faintly. Arthur caught only glimpses—her pale face in the dim light as the canvas flap lifted, Marta adjusting something, tucking the coverings closer. Once, Marta caught his gaze through the blowing snow and gave him the smallest nod, a reassurance he wanted to believe but couldn’t bring himself to.

The storm thickened as the miles dragged. The trail wound over uneven ground, the wheels crunching through drifts and snapping over ice-crusted roots. The groan of wood and the constant jangle of tack mixed with the hiss of wind—a thin, hollow chorus that made every other sound sharp. Now and again, a wolf’s distant cry threaded through the gale, high and lonely, curling down the spine like a knife of ice.

Arthur’s jaw tightened each time he heard it. He scanned the ridges and tree lines, eyes narrowed against the sting of snow. Tracks marred the drifts where the storm hadn’t yet filled them—broad pads, claws scoring deep. The carcass of the bison he’d seen earlier haunted him now; it hadn’t just been scavenging. Something had drawn them close to the trail.

He nudged Atlas up nearer Elias’s bay mare. She was a stout, deep-chested animal with a bay coat that shone dark and wet beneath the snow, her black mane stiff with frost. She moved steady as stone under Elias’s hand, ears pricked forward, not easily spooked. Elias himself rode hunched in his saddle, shoulders squared against the wind, pipe clenched between his teeth though he hadn’t bothered to light it.

Arthur muttered low, his voice nearly swallowed by the gale. “They’re followin’ us.”

Elias gave only a slow nod, eyes hooded. “Been watchin’ the same tracks. Too damn close.” His hand shifted on the reins, his other resting on the butt of his rifle slung across his back. “Wolves don’t come this far out without reason. Winter’s pressin’ them thin. They’ll try us sooner or later.”

Arthur grunted, his gut souring. He cast another glance toward Jo’s wagon, jaw working.

For another hour, the storm held them all prisoner. Children huddled in the wagons, wrapped in blankets, peering out with wide eyes that reflected both fear and wonder. Marta’s voice rose softly in German now and then, humming fragments of a lullaby, soothing both her little ones and Jo alike. Johann kept urging the teams on, his voice sharp and strained, though his hands trembled as he snapped the reins.

And then—the sound Arthur had dreaded. Not distant this time, but close. A growl, low and guttural, rising from the swirling white. Atlas stiffened under him, muscles coiling tight. Laramie nickered nervously against her tether, stamping. One of the German teams shrilled a high, panicked whinny, nearly throwing its harness.

“Wolves!” Elias barked, voice cutting sharp through the wind.

Shapes emerged—gray shadows weaving through the snow, eyes glinting yellow when the light caught them. A half dozen, maybe more, circling just at the edge of vision. Their growls rolled together into a chorus, teeth flashing when they darted close enough to test the line of wagons.

Arthur’s rifle was already in his hand. He swung down from Atlas, boots sinking deep into the drift as he shouldered the weapon. The Germans shouted, their children crying out, Marta clutching Jo closer in the wagon as she shouted prayers. Johann flailed at his team, desperate to keep them steady.

A wolf lunged from the left, breaking cover in a streak of gray. Arthur fired, the crack deafening against the storm. The beast tumbled in a spray of blood and snow, yelping, then lay still. Another darted in from the right, only to be met by Elias’s sharp shot, the bay mare holding steady beneath him as if she’d done it a hundred times before.

But the rest didn’t scatter. They paced, weaving, lips peeled back from white fangs. Hungry. Desperate.

Arthur racked another round, teeth clenched so tight his jaw ached. The snow swirled around him, biting his face raw, but all he saw was the wagons—Jo, sick and helpless inside, Marta’s frightened eyes, the children huddled like chicks against the cold. He would not let them through. Not to her. Not to any of them.

Another growl rose, closer now. The storm wasn’t the only thing that would stalk them through the night.

The first shots did not scatter them. If anything, the wolves grew bolder, their hunger outweighing fear of gunfire. More shapes darted out of the blowing snow, yellow eyes flashing, jaws snapping as they tested the edges of the wagons.

“Keep the teams steady!” Arthur bellowed, his voice cutting through the shrieking wind. Johann’s panicked yells turned sharp and guttural as he cracked the reins, trying to hold the horses from bolting. The animals were slick with sweat despite the cold, their eyes rolling, breath hissing through flared nostrils.

One wolf lunged straight at the rear wagon, claws scrabbling against the wood. Arthur pivoted, firing point-blank. The shot slammed it back in a spray of red against the snow. Another came from the flank, but Elias met it in a flash—his rifle cracked, and the beast tumbled mid-leap, falling still at the hooves of his bay mare. The mare barely flinched, Elias’s calm weight keeping her grounded.

Still, more circled. They were gaunt, ribs sharp under matted fur, driven to madness by hunger. Their growls rose and fell like waves in the storm, carrying an uncanny, warlike rhythm.

Arthur spat into the snow, reloading quick. He heard Marta’s children crying out in German, clutching themselves close. Inside the rear wagon, Jo stirred weakly at the noise—her pale face turned toward the flap, eyes heavy with fever as if she dreamed the chaos. Arthur’s chest tightened, fury sparking hot in his gut. No damn wolf would get near them.

With a low snarl of his own, he fired again, then swung the butt of his rifle down hard on a wolf that had darted close, the crack of bone lost under the wind’s roar. Elias’s voice cut across: “Left side!” and Arthur turned just in time to see another beast springing—only for Elias’s bay mare to lash out with a vicious kick, sending it sprawling.

At last, the pack broke. Four lay dead in the snow, dark stains spreading beneath their fur. The rest, spooked by the sharp resistance and the smell of blood, melted back into the storm, their shadows swallowed by the swirling white. Their cries faded into the distance, hollow and eerie, until silence pressed down again.

Arthur stood heaving, breath steaming, rifle clenched tight in his hands. His eyes scanned the ridges, waiting for the next rush. But none came. Only the sound of the storm remained, whipping the world into a blur.

“We can’t push on,” Elias said flatly, voice rough as gravel, lowering his rifle. He spat into the snow, the fleck of dark spit freezing almost instantly. “Visibility’s shot to hell. We march further, we’ll lose the trail—or the wagons’ll break an axle in a drift.”

Johann, pale and trembling, nodded quickly. “Ja… ja. We must camp. For the children.” His voice cracked on the last word.

Arthur swallowed the urge to curse. He hated the thought of stopping out here, so exposed, but Elias was right. One wrong step in this storm and they’d be stranded in pieces. With a grunt, he swung back into Atlas’s saddle. “Circle the wagons! Get ’em tight!”

They moved quickly, urgency sharpening every motion. Johann and the other men wrestled the wagons into a huddle, wheels grinding against frozen earth as they drew them close, side by side, to shield against the wind. Snow already crusted their canvas covers, but Arthur and Elias pulled the flaps tighter, tying them down with rope to keep the storm from seeping in.

Marta worked fast inside, gathering children, tucking blankets tight, murmuring comfort in German while her hands moved like lightning. Her voice carried soft but firm, a lifeline amid the chaos.

Arthur dismounted again, tugging his coat tighter as he checked the horses one by one. Harnesses were pulled snug, ropes checked and double-checked, each animal tied close to the wagons so they’d form a living wall against the wind. Atlas shifted uneasily under his hand, ears twitching toward the distant cries of the wolves. Arthur leaned against his neck, murmuring low. “Easy, boy. We’re all right.”

Laramie stood close, head low, dark eyes watching the wagon where Jo lay. Arthur brushed the snow from her mane, his chest aching with the weight of gratitude and worry alike. “You done good girl,” he whispered, before tethering Atlas next to her.

By the time darkness fell full, the camp was huddled in a fragile circle, fires sparked low between the wagons—enough for warmth, not enough to draw the pack back. Snow piled quickly on every surface, hissing as it hit the flames. The storm howled through the gaps like a living thing, but the wagons held close, wood against wood, canvas drawn tight.

Arthur stood a moment on the edge of the ring, eyes scanning the white emptiness, rifle heavy in his hand. He could still feel the tension in the air—the storm was their jailor now, the wolves waiting just beyond sight. 

It was going to be a long night.

 


 

The storm still raged outside, a ceaseless white roar that battered the canvas and rattled the wood. The wagons had been drawn tight together, their wheels banked in snow to block the worst of the wind, but it didn’t stop the cold from creeping in through the seams. The lantern swayed faintly in its hook, casting long shadows that trembled over the walls of the wagon, and inside the air was thick with the mingling scents of wet leather, damp wool, and the faint steam of broth Arthur carried in a dented tin mug.

He ducked in low, brushing snow from his hat and shoulders before setting it aside, his broad frame filling the narrow space. His breath came out in a visible cloud, mingling with the steam rising from the mug. Jo lay curled against the rough plank wall, blankets tangled loosely around her shoulders, her cheeks flushed with fever, blonde hair damp and sticking to her temples. Even half-asleep, she looked stubborn—jaw set, lips pressed faintly together as though she were still insisting that she was fine.

She was anything but.

Arthur crouched beside her, knees creaking, his hand instinctively brushing at her hair, tucking stray damp strands behind her ear. Her skin was hot and the contrast against his cold, callused fingers made his chest tighten with worry.

“Darlin’,” he murmured, voice low, pitched gentle despite the roughness of it, “got somethin’ warm for ya.”

Jo stirred with a faint sound, lids fluttering as if the effort of opening them was too much. Her tongue moved sluggishly in her mouth, dry against the roof, the taste of stale sickness lingering there. She tried to push herself up but slumped again, and when she blinked blearily at Arthur, her gaze didn’t quite focus.

Her lips parted, and she whispered hoarsely, “No… don’t… I already got a man… don’t want you.” Her hand pushed weakly at his chest, trembling but insistent.

Arthur’s brows shot up, then he let out a low chuckle, amused despite the ache that twisted in his gut. “That so?” he drawled, keeping his hand steady against her temple to keep her upright. “Lucky bastard must be real handsome.”

She squinted at him, eyes glassy with fever, then sighed dreamily. “Mm. Broad shoulders. Blue eyes. Smiles like he don’t mean it…”

Arthur huffed a laugh, shaking his head. “Uh-huh. Don’t sound familiar at all.”

Jo blinked again, her gaze trying to catch on his face, and in her haze she blurted, “He’s handsome… makes me want things when he looks at me.” Her voice dropped, husky, almost conspiratorial. “Sometimes want him to just… tear my clothes clean off…”

Arthur nearly choked, dragging a hand down his face. “Jesus Christ, woman,” he muttered, heat prickling his neck despite the cold. “You got a fever so I’m gonna pretend you ain’t just said that to me.”

Jo gave a faint laugh, though it broke into a cough. She winced, head lolling to the side, cheek brushing against his leg as she slumped back. Her lips parted on small, uneven breaths. Every so often, she murmured something incoherent, chasing thoughts only she could see.

Arthur dipped a rag into a small bowl of melted snowwater, wrung it out, then carefully pressed it against her brow. The chill made her flinch faintly, but then she sighed, the relief of the coolness sinking through the heat burning in her skin. Arthur’s hand lingered, rough thumb smoothing along her temple, a gentleness at odds with the calluses and scars lining his fingers.

“Never thought I’d say this,” he muttered under his breath, almost to himself, “but I liked it better when you was feelin’ up to complainin’.”

The corner of her mouth twitched faintly, as though her fevered mind had half-caught the words. She made a small noise, almost a chuckle but weaker, slipping quickly into a cough that rasped her throat raw. Arthur’s frown deepened, but he stroked her hair slowly, the repetitive motion steadying them both.

She shifted unconsciously, nuzzling toward the source of warmth. Her forehead pressed against his wrist, then her cheek brushed against the coarse fabric of his trousers, nestling there as though seeking him even without knowing it. Arthur froze for a heartbeat, throat tightening, then exhaled slowly, letting her stay where she wanted. His palm moved again, fingers combing through her damp strands, untangling them absently.

A soft huff of breath escaped him, almost embarrassed, though no one else was there to hear. “You’re adorable when you’re sick.”

Her lids fluttered, just enough to show the faintest glint of glassy eyes. Her voice came low, scratchy, almost a groan. “Mmph… Don’t feel adorable.”

Arthur’s mouth crooked faintly, his thumb brushing across her hairline. “Ya don’t really look it either,” he admitted, tone caught somewhere between teasing and fond. “But the way you nuzzle anythin’ warm’s… mighty endearin’.” 

She murmured something in reply, too soft to catch, then her head slid further down, settling heavy against his thigh. Arthur went still again, every muscle in his body drawn tight as though afraid of breaking the moment. Slowly, carefully, he let his hand rest in her hair, the weight of his palm both protective and grounding. He stroked in long, steady motions, tracing her scalp, smoothing away the damp strands that clung stubbornly.

The lantern light flickered, shadows dancing across her face. Her breathing, uneven at first, slowly deepened, though now and then it caught, dragging out a cough before slipping back into rhythm. She was asleep—or close enough—but the trust was clear: the way her body leaned into his without hesitation, the way her lips parted in the faintest sigh as though some part of her had been waiting to rest here.

Arthur sat with her like that, the storm gnashing outside, snow rattling against the canvas, his body aching from the cramped position. But he didn’t move. His eyes stayed fixed on the wagon flap where the wind tugged faintly at the seams, his jaw tight with the weight of his own thoughts. She gave too much of herself—to strangers, to him, to the world—until she was sick and broken down, still pretending she could keep marching.

His thumb traced another slow arc over her temple. “You burn yourself out so damn easy, Trouble,” he whispered, words barely audible over the storm. He bent lower, lips close to her hair. “But I ain’t lettin’ you slip away. Not while I’m still breathin’.”

The words would never pass his lips if she was fully awake—he’d bite them back, bury them deep—but here, with her head resting in his lap, her fevered breaths misting faint against his leg, the truth came out soft and unguarded. 

Jo didn’t answer. For a heartbeat he thought she was too far gone to hear him—but then she shifted faintly, a sigh spilling from her lips, soft and breathless. “...My Arthur…”

It was more an exhale than a statement, like the sound escaped her without her knowing, but it knocked the air clean out of his chest. Heat climbed up the back of his neck. He sat there frozen, heart thudding so hard he swore she must hear it. Jo Harper—the fiercest, most stubborn, sharp-tongued woman he’d ever met—had never once said anything so unguarded, not even in her gentlest moods. And now here she was, curled against his side with her fever burning bright, calling him hers.

Arthur swallowed hard, ducking his head as if the canvas shadows could hide the redness creeping into his ears. He let out a shaky breath that almost sounded like a laugh and dipped the cloth in the tin cup of melted snowwater again, pressing it lightly to her brow. “Lord help me, woman,” he muttered, voice rough but fond, “you’re gonna be the death of me.”

Her lashes fluttered once, then stilled. She’d slipped back under, nuzzling instinctively toward his chest, chasing whatever warmth she could find. He smoothed her damp hair away from her face, long calloused fingers working gently through the tangles, and settled himself back against the wagon wall. For a little while, listening to the muffled howl of the storm outside, he let his own eyes grow heavy.

 


 

He didn’t know how long had passed when she stirred again. A small shiver rippled through her, sharp enough to rouse him instantly. Arthur blinked, rubbing grit from his eyes, and leaned down just as she blinked up at him groggily. Her lips were dry and cracked, her breath hot against his arm. She looked at him without really seeing him, eyes clouded, lashes sticking with damp.

Her voice was a husky rasp, weak but raw. “I’m scared, Arthur… Not of wolves… or guns…” Her eyes drifted half-shut, a tremor running through her. “Scared you’ll get… tired of me. Leave me… behind.”

Arthur’s gut twisted. He opened his mouth, but before he could answer, more words slipped out of her, unfiltered, fragile as spun glass. “I love you… Don’t… don’t leave me.”

For a moment, all he could do was stare at her. Those three words—simple, clumsy, fever-thick—landed harder than a bullet. He could tell by the way she slurred them, the way her gaze drifted unfocused, that she wasn’t fully aware of what she’d said. Maybe she’d forget come morning. But Arthur would not. Could not.

His chest tightened, something deep and aching uncurling inside him. He bent over her, brushing the edge of the blanket higher over her shoulders, stroking back a lock of damp blonde hair that clung to her cheek.

“Jo,” he whispered, voice low, near breaking. “Ain’t no chance I’m leavin’ you. You hear me? Not now, not ever. You’re my little Trouble. And I… hell, I love you too.”

Her lips curved faintly, whether in dream or recognition he couldn’t tell, but it near undid him all the same.

Then, just as his chest swelled with all that aching tenderness, she stirred again, eyes hazy, lids heavy. Her mouth opened, her tongue thick in her mouth as if even words cost too much effort. “Don’t think…” she mumbled, barely audible, “don’t think I’d mind if you kissed me right now…”

Arthur froze, then huffed a disbelieving laugh through his nose, heat crawling back to his ears. But the way her lips curved faintly, almost mischievous despite her delirium, told him some part of her meant it. And deep down, though he’d never admit it out loud—not while she was like this—he treasured the words.

She gave another soft sigh and turned into him fully, head finding his lap without a thought, her body curling as though he were the only thing in the world keeping her tethered. Arthur shifted carefully, letting her settle, one broad hand resting in her hair, stroking absently as the storm roared on outside.

And there Arthur Morgan sat, flushed and flustered, but softened in ways he couldn’t put words to, holding her close in that little canvas cocoon. The world was a hard, frozen place beyond those wagon walls, but inside, in that fragile moment, it felt like he’d been handed something he didn’t dare let slip away.

Chapter 59: Through Other Eyes

Chapter Text

The pale dawn crept slowly across the camp, soft light filtering through the wagon canvas in thin, silvery threads. Frost laced along the seams where the fabric had stiffened in the night, delicate crystals catching what little glow the morning offered. Outside, the muffled rhythm of hooves striking against the frozen ground carried through the quiet, the horses restless and stamping against the cold. Somewhere close by, a child’s voice murmured sleepily, answered by another, hushed with the soothing cadence of Marta’s German. The world beyond was stirring, but inside the wagon, the air still felt close, wrapped in a cocoon of warmth and silence.

Jo stirred first. Her body felt heavy, leaden with fatigue, but the fever that had ravaged her through the night had broken. She no longer burned nor shivered violently in waves—her skin no longer clammy one moment and parched the next. Instead, she was left with the dull ache of exhaustion, the dryness of a mouth that hadn’t been quenched enough, and the sticky dampness of sweat cooling against her temple and hairline. Her blonde hair clung in uneven strands, plastered to her brow and neck, dampened from the fever’s retreat. When she swallowed, her throat still caught with soreness, but the fire had lessened.

It took her a moment to realize why she felt so enclosed, why the space seemed smaller than she remembered when Arthur had tucked her in the night before. A weight, warm and steady, pressed against her side. She blinked groggily, tilting her head slightly, and her breath caught when her gaze settled on Arthur.

He was right there beside her. Not slumped in a corner of the bench where he’d stayed to keep watch. Not sitting rigid and aloof by the wagon’s flap. No—somewhere through the night, Arthur had shifted. His broad frame now filled too much of the narrow bedroll, stretching out awkwardly but close, so close his presence swallowed the space around her. One thick arm was draped over her middle in sleep, protective without him even realizing it, as if his body had decided on its own to guard her through the storm.

Jo lay still, watching him in the pale light. His hat was nowhere in sight, hair mussed from the restless night, a few strands falling over his brow. His face, usually guarded even in moments of calm, was slack with sleep, beard shadowing the lines of his jaw. He looked younger like this, though still worn, still marked by every mile and burden he carried. And there was something quietly disarming about him stretched here, close enough she could feel the steady heat of him seeping through the blanket between them.

It shouldn’t have surprised her—she knew better than anyone how much he fussed when she pushed herself too far, how he never could let her be when he thought she was hurting. But still, waking to find him like this, his arm slung over her as though she were the only thing he had to hold onto, left her with a flutter she wasn’t expecting. Tender, sweet, and just a little bit amusing. Arthur Morgan, all gruff edges and sharp words, curled around her like some great, reluctant shield.

She shifted slightly, adjusting under the weight of him, and the movement was enough. Arthur blinked blearily, his eyes adjusting to the pale light slanting through the canvas. His arm was still draped heavy across Jo’s middle, his palm curved as though it had sought her even in sleep. He cleared his throat, voice rough with the grain of dawn.

“…You awake?” he murmured, low enough that the words barely broke the quiet.

Jo’s lips tugged faintly, her voice a rasp. “Suppose I am. Fever’s gone.” She swallowed, the dryness in her mouth scraping. “Just tired now. But not… not burnin’ up nor freezin’ either.”

For a moment, she thought he might not answer—but then she caught the flicker in his face, that almost imperceptible shift of relief, like a rope loosening in his chest. His shoulders sagged a fraction, breath easing from his lungs.

“That so?” His thumb brushed absentmindedly against her side, as though testing for heat. “Well… thank Christ.”

Jo gave the faintest huff of a laugh. “You sound near relieved.”

Arthur’s mouth crooked, sheepish, as if caught. “Maybe I am. You scared the hell outta me last night, y’know that?”

Her eyes softened, but she tilted her head, teasing weakly, “Ain’t the first time I’ve done that.”

He gave a small snort, the sound warm, then reached up to tuck a damp strand of her blonde hair back from her forehead. His fingers lingered a moment longer than they had to, combing gently. “You don’t look half-dead no more. Still look like hell, but… less of it.”

Jo let her eyes half-lid, her voice muffled by weariness. “That’s about the kindest thing you’ve ever said to me.”

Arthur chuckled under his breath, shaking his head. “Don’t push it. I’m still wakin’ up.”

For a few heartbeats, the wagon was still. His arm stayed draped over her; her body, though heavy with exhaustion, instinctively leaned closer to the warmth he gave off. The world outside was a muffled hush of frost and horse-snorts, but inside, it felt suspended—just the two of them, sharing breath in the cold morning.

Arthur’s arm slid away at last, and he pushed himself upright, broad frame filling the narrow wagon space. The warmth that had lingered in his touch drained as he folded his arms across his chest, shoulders squared like a man steadying himself for a fight he didn’t want but couldn’t let go.

His eyes were sharp, fixed on her. “What was you tryin’ to prove?”

Jo blinked, caught off guard by the sudden hardness in him—though she should’ve seen it coming. Her lips curved into a crooked little smile, brittle as glass. “Nothin’ to prove. Just… ain’t fond of showin’ weakness.” Her voice rasped with the remains of fever, but she tilted her chin like it was a banner. “Never sat well with me. Not back with Dutch, not ever. You show weakness, folks stop seein’ you as capable. Start seein’ you as fragile. As trouble.”

Arthur’s gaze didn’t soften. His arms stayed crossed, chest rising and falling slow, like he was keeping a lid on something.

“Don’t matter how you spin it, Jo. You was reckless.” His voice deepened, the rough edge sharper now. “You was half-faintin’ in the saddle yesterday. What if them wolves had come down on you then? What if no one was close enough to pull you out? You’d be dead.”

Jo let out a small puff of air through her nose, aiming for flippancy, though her body still sagged with exhaustion. “Death and I’ve been seriously intimate for some time now,” she muttered, a wry curl at her lips.

Arthur’s face hardened, his scowl cutting deep lines across his brow. “That ain’t funny.”

The words landed like a slap. His anger wasn’t loud, but it throbbed with something more dangerous—fear. Fear that had teeth.

“You didn’t have to be so reckless just to prove your point,” he said, voice rising just enough to fill the cramped wagon. “To prove you was capable. I know that already. Ain’t never doubted it. Not once.”

That silenced her for a beat. Her mouth opened, ready with another quip, but nothing came. Because beneath his frustration, she finally saw it—the raw edge of worry, the tremor in his jaw that wasn’t fury but something more fragile, more desperate. He hadn’t been angry for himself. He’d been terrified for her.

Her gaze flickered, softening just a fraction. “Arthur…” she started, voice low, but she didn’t know what to follow it with. Pride clawed at her throat.

Arthur broke it himself. He huffed, short and harsh, then leaned back to the wagon wall, arms still tight across his chest as though holding himself together.

“You stay in this wagon today,” he said firmly, tone brooking no argument. “Rest. That’s an order.”

Before she could shape a reply, he was already ducking through the canvas flap, boots crunching in the snow outside. The air he left behind felt colder, sharper, as though the storm from last night had seeped back into the wagon with his absence.

Jo lay back, staring up at the pale canvas roof, her chest tight with words unspoken. His voice still rang in her ears—not angry, but desperate. And for the first time, she understood just how much her stubbornness had shaken him.

 


 

Arthur ducked through the wagon flap with a grunt, boots crunching into the brittle crust of snow. The morning air slapped him hard, sharp and clean after the closeness of the canvas. His breath streamed white in the pale light, each exhale a cloud that drifted off before the wind shredded it. He yanked his hat lower against the cold, shoulders hunched, jaw clenched so tight it ached.

“Damn fool woman,” he muttered under his breath, though the words burned more at himself than her. His hands flexed restlessly at his sides, itching for something to do, something to get rid of the gnawing image of her slumped against Laramie yesterday, near lifeless. It rose up again now—the way her head had lolled, hair damp with fever sweat, her mare slowing instinctively as if she knew Jo couldn’t hold herself steady. Arthur cursed low and bitter, shoving the memory back down before it hollowed him out.

The storm had blown itself out overnight, but its presence lingered everywhere. The wagons stood in a huddled line, their wheels half-buried in fresh snow. Canvas roofs sagged with the weight, edges stiff with frost, seams glittering faintly in the weak morning sun. The horses stamped and shifted uneasily, white plumes rising from their muzzles. Harness leather creaked as they tossed their heads, impatient but weary.

Arthur went straight to Atlas first. The big Thoroughbred stood with his neck arched, ears pricked against the cold, his dark coat dusted with white. Arthur laid a hand to his muzzle, rubbing briskly. The horse’s breath warmed his palm, grounding him, steadying the roil in his chest. “You’re all right, boy,” he murmured. “Least one of us knows how to keep his damn head.”

Footsteps crunched nearby. Arthur glanced up to see Elias, pipe unlit in his teeth, pulling his coat tighter across his broad chest. The older man’s eyes flicked once to Arthur’s stormy expression and lingered a beat too long.

Arthur scowled. “Don’t start.”

“Wasn’t gonna,” Elias said evenly, but his gaze was steady, probing. 

Arthur’s jaw worked. He busied his hands with Atlas’s bridle, checking the leather straps though he’d done it twice already. “She’s so reckless,” he ground out. “Could’ve gotten herself killed.”

Elias grunted, a low sound that might’ve been agreement, might’ve been dismissal. He spat into the snow and turned away, leaving Arthur alone with his anger—and his fear.

Arthur cursed again, softer this time, and moved down the line. He checked each horse with a thoroughness bordering on obsession: cinches tugged, traces tested, hooves scraped clean of packed snow. He brushed frost off harnesses, tugged at wagon covers, shifted supplies to balance the loads better. The simple, necessary tasks gave his hands something to do, but his mind kept circling back.

He replayed Jo’s crooked smile, the way she’d tried to shrug off weakness like it was a coat she could simply discard. He replayed her smart-ass quip—Death and I’ve been seriously intimate for some time now—and the way it had scraped against his nerves. Fear sat under every memory like a stone in his gut.

He swore and hauled another crate up into a wagon, setting it down harder than necessary. He hated snapping at her, hated the sharp edge in his voice when what he really wanted was to gather her close and keep her still until every trace of fever was gone. But she wouldn’t let him. She never let him. And if she kept fighting like that—fighting him—one of these days he wouldn’t get there in time.

Arthur stopped, breath fogging, hand braced against the side of Johann’s wagon. He bowed his head, hat brim shadowing his eyes, and swallowed hard against the twist of dread. I can’t lose her. Not like that. Not when I—

A child’s laugh carried from Marta’s wagon, high and sweet, breaking the thought. Arthur straightened, shoulders stiff, and forced himself back to work. Better to keep moving, to keep the line ready. They’d be leaving as soon as he would’ve decided the road was passable. And Arthur needed everything in order—reins tight, wagons steady, horses prepared—because it was the only way he knew how to fight the things clawing at him inside.

 


 

The canvas walls creaked faintly in the wind, seams stiff with frost. Inside the wagon, it was dim and hushed, shadows softened by pale morning light bleeding through thin patches. Jo lay back against the bedding Arthur had fussed over the night before, her head heavy but clearer than it had been in days. The fever had broken—she could feel it in the absence of that terrible hot-and-cold shiver. But though her body had steadied, her chest still burned, and not just from sickness.

Arthur’s words lingered like frostbite. What was you tryin’ to prove? She had shrugged, smiled crooked like always, but when his voice had turned sharp, when his arms crossed and that cold fear had flared in his eyes, it had lodged inside her. He hadn’t sounded like Dutch, or even John in one of his temper fits. He’d sounded scared.

Her pride stiffened in protest all the same. Weakness—she’d spent half her life stamping it out of herself like an ember that might catch and burn her whole. To let anyone see it was dangerous. To admit it was worse. Pride told her Arthur’s anger was unfair. Defensiveness whispered that she had proven herself a hundred times over, that she didn’t need to explain why she kept pushing when her body told her to stop.

But beneath both came the heavier realization, crawling slow and unwanted: he wasn’t just scolding. He was afraid for her. Not of her being weak, not of her slowing the group—afraid of losing her.

The thought pulled her back, unbidden, to another morning years ago.

She had been nineteen then, still raw and half-feral from her years on her own. A raid gone bad—just a little farmhouse near the Dakota border. She’d been reckless, too eager to prove she could run with the men. One of the farmers’ sons had come at her with a pitchfork in the smoke and chaos, and though she got the better of him, the tines raked across her ribs deep enough to bleed hot down her side.

When the dust settled, she had staggered back to camp with her shirt sticking to her wound. Dutch had been waiting by the fire, whiskey in hand, the embers lighting his eyes gold.

“What the hell is this?” he’d snapped, voice ringing across camp. He hadn’t asked if she was hurt. He hadn’t called for help. “You get yourself torn up by a goddamn farm boy?”

She remembered standing there, half-dizzy, looking past him for Hosea, Arthur, John, anyone who might step in. But they weren’t there—off on a job, leaving her alone with Dutch’s fury.

“Don’t you come back here bleedin’ and cryin’ like some child,” Dutch had gone on, spitting fire with every word. “Ain’t no room for pussies in this gang. You wanna be here, you be tougher. You bleed, you fight, you keep standin’. You hear me, girl?”

She had nodded, mute, ribs screaming, chest burning with shame. And no one had touched her shoulder, no one had told her she’d done all right. She’d bound her ribs herself in the dark that night, fingers trembling, teeth gritted against the pain. And she had made the choice then—the only one that felt like survival. Never again would she show weakness. Not to him, not to anyone. If she bled, she’d laugh. If she faltered, she’d sneer. She’d be harder than the men beside her, harder than even Dutch demanded.

Now, years later, Arthur’s voice cut across that memory like a clean blade. He hadn’t sneered at her weakness. He hadn’t demanded she hide it better. He’d looked at her with fear in his eyes, fear raw enough to bare itself as anger.

She turned on her side, burrowing into the blankets, damp hair sticking to her cheek. The sting in her chest shifted, dulled by a strange warmth. Arthur’s scolding hadn’t come from the same place as Dutch’s ever had. Dutch wanted her harder. Arthur wanted her safe.

Her throat tightened, half with shame, half with something softer. She pressed her face against the rough wool of the blanket, closing her eyes against the rush of memory and feeling.

Damn you, Arthur Morgan, she thought, a faint smile tugging despite everything. You make it awful hard to keep my walls up.

Jo lay back against the bedding, eyes tracing the faint lines of the wagon roof, where tar seams cut crooked shadows across the pale canvas. Her chest still ached, though not from fever now. Pride had held firm through Arthur’s words, but guilt crept in slow as thawing ice, spreading under her ribs. He hadn’t scolded her like Dutch once had. He’d sounded scared—scared in a way she hadn’t wanted to see, because it meant she’d hurt him without meaning to.

Bootsteps crunched outside. Then the canvas flap shifted, spilling a blade of morning light across the wagon’s dim interior. Elias leaned an elbow against the frame, his broad shoulders filling the space. His face, as always, was carved in rough lines, jaw bristled, eyes wary.

“You had him worried sick, y’know,” he said, voice gravelly, pitched like an accusation.

Jo stiffened beneath the blankets. She opened her mouth, pride ready with a sharp retort, but stopped when she caught the look in his eyes.

He was staring at her—pale, swaddled in blankets, hair sticking damp to her cheek—not with contempt, but with something heavier. His jaw worked as though words stuck in his throat.

Jo frowned, tilting her head. “What?” she asked softly, uncertain.

But he wasn’t seeing her anymore. His gaze had gone somewhere distant, and the edges of his hard expression wavered. She recognized it—the look of someone remembering something they didn’t want to.

Her voice lowered. “You lost someone, didn’t you?”

That broke him from his reverie. He snapped his eyes back to her, shoulders squaring. “Ain’t your business,” he muttered, already shifting like he might leave.

The words stung—but she caught the heaviness in his movements, how his boots dragged on the frozen ground instead of stomping. He paused at the wagon’s edge, his back to her. For a moment, silence stretched between them, broken only by the snort of a horse outside, the faint rattle of harness.

Then his shoulders sank. Against his will, words slipped out. “Had a daughter,” he said, voice quieter, worn rough by time. “Stubborn as they come. Strong, too. Thought she was bigger than the world.” He drew in a breath that shook faintly. “Influenza took her. She weren’t but seventeen.”

Jo’s chest ached in a different way now. She shifted upright, bracing her elbows against her knees. “I’m sorry,” she said simply.

He let out a low, humorless chuckle, rubbing a hand across his mouth. “Don’t need your pity.” His eyes flicked to her then, narrowing—but the sharpness didn’t stick. Something in her face must’ve softened him, because his own cracked, just slightly. “You remind me of her, sometimes. Damn spirit of hers. Drove me crazy, same as you with that boy.”

Jo smiled faintly, a curve both sad and amused. “Can’t imagine why,” she teased under her breath.

For the first time, Elias’s mouth twitched—not quite a smile, but something close. He shook his head and muttered, “Unsettles me, truth be told.”

Silence settled again, but not a harsh one. It was the kind that carried weight, not bitterness.

When he finally turned to go, he hesitated, his hand on the flap. His voice came back low, blunt, but steadier. “Strength ain’t in pretendin’ you don’t bleed, girl. It’s in knowin’ who you let see it.”

And then he was gone, boots crunching away, leaving the canvas flapping gently in his wake.

The storm had passed, leaving the world remade. Outside, the land glittered with an almost cruel brightness—snow spread wide and unbroken, every drift dazzling where the morning sun caught it. The air was sharp and clean, burning in the lungs, and the sound carried far: horses snorting, harness leather creaking, men calling to one another. It was the kind of day that made survival feel fragile, perched between calm beauty and the chaos that had swept through only hours before.

From the wagon flap, Jo squinted into the glare. She pulled the blanket tighter around her shoulders, a barrier against the sting of the cold air sneaking inside. The fever was gone, but exhaustion clung to her, a heaviness in her bones. Still, she couldn’t stop watching.

Arthur was out there, moving through the camp with that familiar, steady weight to his stride. His hat brim threw his eyes into shadow, but she could read the set of his jaw, the hard line of his shoulders. He spoke little, answering men with curt nods, a grunt here, a flick of his hand there. He checked straps, tightened harnesses, hefted gear like it weighed nothing. He was everywhere at once, shoulders bent under more than the pack and rope he carried.

And he was avoiding her.

Not blatantly—he didn’t so much as glance toward the wagon—but she knew him well enough. He was stewing, chewing his temper down into silence. She’d seen it before, that stubborn need of his to cool the fire in his chest before it burned someone else. And she knew, too, that this time, the fire was born not of anger, but fear.

Elias’s words still lingered like smoke in her mind. Strength ain’t in pretendin’ you don’t bleed. It’s in knowin’ who you let see it.

Her hand tightened on the blanket’s edge. All her life since Dutch had taken her in, she’d learned to hide weakness, to grit her teeth and laugh off pain until it felt like armor. That was survival. But she saw now how Arthur had looked at her last night, pale and shaking, and this morning, arms wrapped around her like she’d slip away if he let go. That hadn’t been anger. It had been terror.

And she’d laughed it off, like death was a joke.

Her throat ached, heavy with guilt.

Arthur swung into Atlas’s saddle then, the big horse stamping in the snow, dark coat gleaming like coal under the sun. Jo’s eyes followed him as he took the lead at the front of the convoy, calling a low command to steady the line of wagons. His voice carried over the frozen air, firm and sure, holding everyone together. He bore it all without flinching—the men’s trust, the burden of leadership, the endless weight of survival.

Jo leaned her forehead against the wood of the wagon frame, eyes closing for a moment. She couldn’t keep trying to carry everything alone, not when he was already shouldering the world. Not when she had him, and he’d already proven he wouldn’t let her fall.

For the first time in longer than she could remember, Jo admitted to herself that she wanted to be seen. Not by anyone else, not the gang, not the camp. Just him.

The wagon jolted forward then, wheels creaking as the team outside strained into their harness. The sudden lurch drew her out of her head, reminding her that the world kept moving, whether she was ready or not. She braced against the wall, eyes closing as Elias’s words and Arthur’s worry tangled together, refusing to leave her.

She breathed out, the frost clouding in the cold air, and made a quiet promise to herself. She would find a moment, when the road stilled, to tell him she was sorry. Not to smooth it over, not to dodge another fight. But because he deserved to hear it, and she was tired of hiding behind her pride.

From her spot inside the wagon, Jo felt each lurch and jolt as the wheels rolled out of the hollow where they’d sheltered the night before. She braced against the frame, watching through the small gap in the canvas flap as the world shifted. The storm had left the land raw and glittering, sunlight striking sparks off every drift, dazzling until her eyes watered. The air was cold enough to bite, but the sky was a clear, hard blue, the kind that stretched forever.

The snow was no longer falling, but it lay thick and deep across the ground. Every turn of a wheel carved a fresh rut, every hoofprint left sharp in the pale blanket. The sound was relentless—the crunch and grind of wood against ice, the jangle of chains, the low curses of drivers coaxing stubborn teams forward.

Arthur was already at the head, Atlas steady as a drumbeat beneath him. The big stallion broke a path with quiet strength, his hooves sinking deep into the snow before rising again, plumes of frost trailing with each breath. Arthur leaned forward slightly in the saddle, reins loose but sure in his gloved hands, his broad shoulders cutting a solid shape against the brightness.

The sight pricked something in her chest. He wasn’t just leading wagons through the snow—he was keeping them alive, all of them, bearing that weight without complaint. He carried it like he always did, as though it was his to shoulder alone.

The wagons followed, a ragged line stretching across the white. Children’s voices carried now and then—a high laugh, quickly hushed, a question pitched through chattering teeth. The animals pulled hard, sides heaving, steam rising in shimmering veils around them. The air was filled with the mingling of effort: men muttering encouragement, wood groaning, snow crunching in steady rhythm.

Jo sank back against her blankets, the sway of the wagon rocking her with each uneven roll. For once, she didn’t feel the need to fight it—didn’t clench her jaw against the weariness, didn’t force herself to sit taller. She let herself rest, eyes fixed on the figure at the front of the line.

The wagon jolted over a rut, carrying her forward into the long day’s road.

 


 

The morning stretched long and slow, each mile a test of patience and endurance. The storm had passed, but it had left behind its mark—deep snow that clung stubbornly to the wagon wheels, ruts that made every turn of the spokes grind and groan. Horses labored heavily, hooves sinking with each step, their sides foamed with sweat despite the cold. Drivers called out encouragement, snapping reins, their voices ragged from the strain of keeping the line together.

The air was sharp, clean, with a sting in every breath, the kind that burned the lungs before turning into clouds of steam. Sunlight glittered on the snow so fiercely that eyes watered, and many of the travelers tied scarves across their faces to cut the glare. Jo, from her place inside the rear wagon, could feel it all through the boards: the pull of the animals, the uneven rhythm of the wheels, the hard jostle of frozen ground beneath.

She passed the time watching Arthur. Even when the convoy crawled at a snail’s pace, he never wavered. Atlas walked with steady strength at the flank of the wagons, the stallion’s dark coat glistening with frost where sweat had frozen along his neck. Arthur rode upright, broad shoulders squared, his hat pulled low against the light. Every so often he scanned back along the line, checking the wagons, the people, the horses. His gaze always lingered on the rear—on hers.

Jo smirked faintly at that, though it softened quickly into something warmer, quieter. Elias, riding his bay mare at the very back, noticed her peeking out. His weathered face creased deeper than usual as he drew alongside the tailboard.

“Cold’s easier to stomach when you’re busy,” he grunted, adjusting his scarf. “Reckon you could use somethin’ to keep your hands busy.”

She tilted her head, eyes narrowing with a spark of mischief. “Think you’re readin’ me too well, old man. I was just about to ask if you had paper and a pen hid somewhere in them saddlebags.”

Elias gave her a look that was half suspicion, half amusement. “And what’s in it for me?”

“Gratitude,” Jo deadpanned, then flashed the smallest smirk. “And if you’re lucky, I’ll stop botherin’ you.”

A long sigh through his nose, but he turned in the saddle. From the saddlebag he pulled a slim bundle—a folded sheet or two of paper and a stub of pencil, worn almost to nothing. He handed it up to her, shaking his head.

“Don’t say I never gave you nothin’. Don’t lose it—last I’ve got.”

She tucked it carefully into her blanket, warmth blooming in her chest. “You’re a good man, Elias. Don’t let it get out.”

The old man muttered something under his breath about “troublemakers with quick tongues” as he settled back into the saddle, but Jo caught the faint twitch of a smile before he spurred his mare back into position.

With the supplies in hand, Jo settled herself against the wagon side, pencil clumsy between her chilled fingers. The ride made every line a struggle—the wheels jolted, her letters wobbled—but she poured herself into the words regardless.

 

Wyoming, February 24, 1906

John, Abigail, Jack,

We made it over South Pass. Snow near swallowed us whole, but we came through. We’re helping families we fell upon, reach Oregon. They’re good people, though the trail hasn’t been easy. Wolves in the storm two nights past gave us a scare. Everyone’s still breathing, though. That’s what counts.

I fell sick for a spell, fever laid me low. Arthur near lost his wits worrying after me. Don’t let him fool you if he ever writes about it. He sat up all night just to keep me warm. He won’t admit it, but he’s softer than he pretends.

We’re a week out from Fort Bridger if the weather holds. That’s where I’ll send this. I hope you got my letter from Denver. Been thinking on you every day since.

Jack, I still keep that drawing folded in my pocket. Don’t stop making more of ‘em. Abigail, I hope the road’s kinder to you than it’s been here. John, don’t you go taking foolish risks. You’re all I’ve got left for family, and I mean to see you again someday.

I don’t know where your road ends, or if ours will ever cross again, but I’ll keep writing when I can. It’s the best way I’ve got to hold on.

—Jo

 

She sat back when it was done, pencil slipping from her fingers, her wrist aching from the effort. For a long moment she just looked at the words, the strokes uneven from the sway of the wagon, the smudges where her hand had dragged across the page. It wasn’t pretty, but it was hers, and it carried more of her than she ever let show out loud.

Carefully, she folded the paper into thirds, creasing it neat against her knee. She ran a thumb along the edge, lingering as though the letter itself were something alive. Writing it had steadied her more than she’d expected—not because it fixed anything, but because it reached across the miles. As long as ink could carry her voice, she wasn’t gone to them yet.

Outside, the wheels clattered over frozen ground, steady as a heartbeat. The sun flashed off the snowfields, dazzling, blinding. The convoy stretched ahead in a thin line, figures hunched against the cold, horses pluming white breath into the air. Arthur rode near the front, broad shoulders bent, Atlas’s ears twitching to every shift of his reins.

Jo tucked the letter into her satchel, close to her chest, proof she still belonged to something bigger than the silence in her head. The thought settled her, but it also carved out a hollow ache.

She leaned against the wagon wall, gaze catching on Arthur in the distance. The way he carried every burden—as if he could out-stubborn the whole damn world—it made her chest ache sharper than the fever ever had. Elias’s words returned to her like a pebble dropped in a still pond: Strength ain’t in pretendin’ you don’t bleed. It’s in knowin’ who you let see it.

Her jaw tightened. She hated apologies, hated the taste of them, but she knew she owed one. 

She pulled the blanket tighter, lips pressed thin. The snow kept shining, the wagon kept rolling, and her mind kept circling the words she would say when the time came.

 


 

The convoy drew to a halt at midday, wheels crunching to a stop in the glittering crust of snow. Harness jingled as the horses tossed their heads, breath steaming thick in the frozen air. Drivers clambered down to stamp their boots and stretch stiff backs. Children tumbled out in shrieks and laughter, chasing one another into drifts, their voices carrying sharp and high in the cold. Smoke rose from quick fires struck for boiling water, the scent of woodsmoke cutting through the bite of winter.

Inside the wagon, Jo stirred restlessly. She’d spent half the morning lying flat, wrapped tight in blankets, but the stillness gnawed at her. Her body was heavy with fatigue, yet her blood itched to feel the world outside again. With a quiet resolve, she tugged the wool tighter around her shoulders, fingers clumsy but determined. She hastily pulled her damp hair into a loose braid that fell over her shoulder—not tidy, but at least she wouldn’t look half-dead when she stepped out.

The flap creaked as she eased it aside. Cold hit her at once, clean and sharp, biting her lungs until she coughed. Still, she smiled faintly at the sting, welcoming it. It was proof she was alive. She lowered herself carefully down, boots crunching into the snow.

Jo stood still a moment, letting the brightness burn her eyes. The world was blinding, the snow glittering like glass beneath the clear winter sun. Around her, life thrummed—the creak of harness leather, the murmur of voices, the distant laughter of children pelting each other with clumps of snow. She pulled the blanket tighter and took a few slow steps, stretching the stiffness out of her legs.

Her gaze swept the line of wagons until it caught on a dark shape cresting a rise ahead. Arthur, astride Atlas, his broad frame a familiar silhouette against the pale sky. He was already pushing forward, scouting the trail, and within moments he disappeared over the hill, swallowed by the white distance. Jo’s chest tightened at the sight—that constant, lonely figure leading them, carrying every burden as if no one else could. She lingered on it, feeling the pull of guilt and gratitude all tangled together.

“Jo?”

The voice startled her from her thoughts. Marta had come up quietly, a shawl wrapped snug around her shoulders, cheeks flushed from the cold. She gave Jo a warm, searching look, eyes soft with a kind of maternal concern.

“You are up,” Marta said, her accent rounding the words. “How do you feel?”

Jo shifted the blanket higher on her shoulders, managing a faint smile. “Better than yesterday. Just tired now.”

Marta’s smile deepened, though her gaze lingered a moment longer, as if weighing the truth in Jo’s words. Then she reached out, squeezing Jo’s arm gently. “Gut. Rest is still needed. But it is good to see you outside.”

Before drifting off to mind her children, Marta pressed a tin cup into Jo’s hand, steam rising from it. Jo lifted it close, inhaling the earthy comfort of strong tea, and took a careful sip. Heat rolled down her throat, startling after hours of fever-dryness. She found herself swallowing again and again until she felt steadier. Someone also handed her a thick slice of bread and she ate slowly, leaning against the side of her wagon, letting the simple fare sit warm in her belly.

When she was done, Jo drifted toward the rear where Laramie stood tied to the wagon’s side. The black mare pawed lightly at the snow, ears flicking forward when she caught sight of her. Jo’s lips curled into a soft smile as she reached out, brushing her hand along the velvet muzzle.

“Hey, girl,” she murmured, her voice low, her forehead nearly touching Laramie’s. “Been lookin’ after me better than I deserve, haven’t you?”

The mare snorted, warm breath spilling over Jo’s chilled fingers. Jo stroked along the curve of her neck, feeling the familiar steadiness there. Whatever else in her world tilted or fell apart, Laramie was an anchor—loyal, tireless, hers.

She lingered there a moment longer, the mare’s quiet presence grounding her. Then, with a faint sigh, Jo turned back toward the wagons, watching the bustle as drivers stamped out fires and began gathering reins. Johann called out to the others, and Marta herded the children back into their wagon with practiced ease.

Jo hesitated, then decided she’d had enough of lying flat in the wagon bed. The world outside might be cold, but it was beautiful, and she longed to feel part of it again. Gathering her blanket, she stepped toward the front of the wagon. A young man already sat in the driver’s seat, straight-backed, reins gathered loosely in one gloved hand. His face was fresh, no older than his early twenties, with a strong nose and dark blond hair that peeked from beneath his cap.

When he saw her approach, he stood a little awkwardly, offering his hand down with a quick, polite smile. “Need help, Madam?”

Jo hesitated a moment, lips parting as if the offer had caught her off guard. Still, she reached for him, fingers brushing his gloved hand as she murmured, “Thank you, uh—I…”

The young man’s smile broadened, almost shy, and he dipped his head slightly as if to ease her stumble. “Erich, madam.” His voice carried a faint German lilt, clipped yet courteous.

Jo paused, blinking at the title, but let him pull her up. His grip was firm and steady as he helped her climb up onto the bench beside him with more ease than he’d expected. Settling herself with the blanket still wrapped tight, she let out a soft laugh that puffed white in the frosty air. “Madam? Lord above, you’ve made me sound older than I am.”

The young man’s brows knit, puzzled. “Did I say something wrong?”

“Only that I’m no madam,” she said, shaking her head lightly. “Ain’t married. Jo’s enough.”

He blinked, color rising in his windburned cheeks. “Oh,” he said, fumbling slightly as the wagon lurched into motion again. He clicked to the horses, eyes darting forward, but curiosity soon cracked through. “I… I thought you and Mister Arthur…” His words trailed as if unsure he’d already overstepped.

Jo let out a short breath, not quite a laugh this time, her eyes caught on the broad figure ahead. Arthur rode Atlas a dozen yards forward, shoulders set like stone against the wind, his back impossibly straight, every line of him speaking to duty and burden. Her voice dropped softer, almost more to herself than to the young man sitting next to her.

“No,” she said, fingers tightening around the wool edge of her blanket. “We ain’t wed.”

But her gaze lingered, fixed on Arthur’s frame cutting a path through snow and silence. There was no mistaking the unspoken weight in her tone—the tether between them, real and undeniable, yet nameless.

Silence stretched for a beat, broken only by the creak of wagon wheels and the jingle of tack rolling forward again. Jo adjusted the blanket tighter across her lap, leaning back against the rough boards of the seat. For a time, the only sounds were the runners biting through crusted snow and the faint calls of the herders circling the cattle.

“So,” Jo said at last, tugging her blanket tighter, “where you from, Erich?”

His mouth twitched, like the question caught him off guard. “Bavaria. Near Augsburg. My parents… they came to America when I was a boy. Colorado, first. We farmed. Now…” He lifted one hand off the reins in a small, helpless shrug. “I go where the road goes.”

Jo studied him sidelong. He couldn’t have been more than twenty, yet his shoulders carried the same slope of weariness she’d seen in men twice his age. “You on your own then?”

A quick nod. “Ja. My parents—” He cut himself short, his jaw tightening. “Not here anymore.”

Jo didn’t press. She knew that silence well enough—the kind that covered wounds too raw to touch. Instead, she said, “Reckon that makes us about the same. Nothin’ to tie me down neither, ‘cept a horse and a stubborn fool who won’t quit lookin’ out for me.”

That earned the smallest laugh from him, fleeting but genuine. 

Her eyes flicked toward the front of the convoy, where Atlas moved sure-footed beneath the weight of a broad-shouldered rider. 

The wagon creaked along, snow crunching under wheels. For a time, neither of them spoke. Then Erich cleared his throat, shifting the reins from one hand to the other.

“And you?” he asked, glancing at her with quick, uncertain eyes. “Where are you from?”

She pulled her blanket higher against her chin, letting her breath fog the wool before she answered. “West of here. Little farm, long gone now.” Her tone was casual, though her chest tightened faintly at the half-truth. “Spent more years wandering than rooted anywhere.”

He nodded like that made sense, though his brow furrowed. “Must be hard. Not having a place.”

Jo gave a crooked smile. “Sometimes. Other times it keeps you alive. A roof can turn into a cage, same as the sky can turn into freedom. Depends on the day, I guess.”

He considered that, the corner of his mouth quirking, as though the thought was bigger than he expected. “You speak like someone older than you look.”

Jo huffed softly, amused. “Older than I look, younger than I feel. That’s about the truth of it.”

His laugh was quiet but real. He tapped the reins lightly, keeping the team in line. 

Silence settled again, comfortable this time, broken only by the creak of the wagon and the rhythmic snort of the team. Jo had leaned back slightly, her braid trailing over her shoulder, when she noticed it—Erich’s gaze kept slipping.

The third wagon trundled just in front of them, driven by an older man with a thick gray beard. His wife sat close beside him, a bonnet tugged low against the sun’s glare off the snow. They looked as weatherworn as the wagon itself, their movements slow, practiced, belonging to people who had spent half a lifetime hauling everything they owned across miles of country.

And then there was their daughter.

She rode beside the wagon, her bay mare keeping an easy pace. A sturdy young woman of eighteen or so, cheeks bright from the cold, dark braid bouncing against the thick collar of her coat. She held the reins loose but sure, guiding her horse with the kind of natural confidence that made her look like she’d been in the saddle since she could walk.

Jo noticed how Erich’s eyes kept tugging that way, stealing glances past the horses’ ears before snapping back down to the road. How every so often, his eyes drifted past the horses’ ears, toward the rider pacing near the cattle.

Jo smirked, tucking her chin into her blanket. “You keep starin’ at that horse’s tail, you’ll steer us clean into a ditch.”

Erich stiffened, ears going red. “I wasn’t—”

“You was,” Jo cut in smoothly, her grin tugging wider. “Can’t say I blame you, though. She’s pretty.”

His head whipped toward her, scandal flashing across his face. “You—no! I mean—” He faltered, fumbling for words until Jo let out a soft laugh that fogged the air.

“Relax. I’m talkin’ about the girl, not her horse,” she said, tipping her chin toward the rider.

Erich’s jaw worked uselessly before he gave a sheepish little chuckle. “Lisel don’t even notice me.”

Jo hid her smirk under her blanket a moment before leaning lazily toward him. “So,” she drawled, “you ever try talkin’ to her? Or you just plan on starin’ till your eyes fall out?”

Erich jolted, shoulders stiff, and the tips of his ears flushed red. “I—of course I’ve spoken to her,” he stammered, reins tightening in his grip. “Couple of times. Just… small things.”

Jo tipped her head, amused. “Small things, huh. Like what?”

He shifted on the bench, looking like he wished the snow would swallow him whole. “Asked how her horse kept its coat so shiny. Once I said good morning.”

Jo barked a laugh that turned into a cough she had to smother against her blanket. “Well, I can see why she ain’t fallin’ head over heels yet. That’s about as romantic as a bag of oats.”

Erich groaned, scrubbing a hand over his face. “I am not good with words.”

“That much I figured,” Jo teased, though her eyes softened a fraction. “But listen, girls don’t need poetry. Sometimes all it takes is sayin’ what you mean.”

Erich looked at her doubtfully, lips twitching like he couldn’t tell if she was helping or mocking him. Jo only shrugged, fighting a grin.

Funny thing was, giving him advice like this felt ridiculous. She of all people, telling someone to just come out and say what they meant? She and Arthur had spent years orbiting each other in silence, trading glances and smart remarks until they nearly burned up with it. Who was she to preach?

Still, it felt good to laugh, even if it was at poor Erich’s expense.

Jo leaned her elbow against the sideboard, studying Erich’s flushed face. “Truth is,” she said, voice pitched low so only he heard over the creak of the wagon, “Lisel probably don’t care if you stumble over your tongue. Might even find it sweet. What she ain’t gonna notice is a man who sits quiet and stares at her braid like it’s gonna answer back.”

That earned a strangled laugh from him, half protest and half relief. “Easy for you to say. You sound sure of yourself.”

“Sure?” Jo gave him a crooked grin, but it slipped softer at the edges. “Lord, I’ve been anything but sure. Spent near half my life not sayin’ what I meant to the one man who deserved to hear it. Took us years to stop circlin’ each other like spooked colts.”

She caught herself, biting the inside of her cheek, heat creeping to her own ears. That wasn’t something she’d meant to say out loud. Not to this boy who barely knew her. She turned her gaze back to the snowy horizon quickly, letting her grin return as if she hadn’t just betrayed herself. “So take it from me, Erich—better to speak plain than choke on it for years.”

Erich looked at her, something between awe and bewilderment in his young eyes, and she waved him off with a flick of her blanket. “Go on, keep your eyes on the road before we end up in a ditch. You’ll thank me later.”

The boy chuckled, still pink in the cheeks, but Jo settled back, hiding a smile in the wool folds. It felt strange, playing advisor on matters of the heart, stranger still how light it left her chest.

Up the line of wagons, Arthur turned slightly in his saddle. He’d caught the sound of her laugh drifting faint on the wind, carried between the crunch of wheels and the low calls of the drovers.

His eyes narrowed against the glare of snow. There she was, bundled in blankets on the bench beside the young teamster, head tipped toward him, lips curved in something close to ease. Talking. Smiling.

Arthur turned back around with a grunt, pressing his knees to Atlas’s sides. It wasn’t jealousy—not exactly. He knew Jo was loyal to him, and the boy was barely more than that himself. Still, something prickled under his ribs. He didn’t like other men looking at her like she was free for the taking. Didn’t like seeing her laughter shared with someone else.

It scratched at a part of him he rarely let surface, the same place where protectiveness blurred too close to wanting, where the thought of losing her to anyone or anything soured his gut. He shifted in the saddle, jaw tightening, and muttered to himself, “Damn fool.”