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(Reminder: L is a trans man who was born in a female body, so i will use he/him pronounces for him)

When L woke up from his dirty dreams he felt his cheeks burning in a great shame. The heatness was reaching to his neck from his ears and the wetness between his legs was a fact he did not want to think about. He knew he needed to take a shower and start to work but he was so distracted by his dry mouth. Kira case would keep him awake every night until his body collapsed. And he really had not taken care of his 'needs' for a long time. He did not want to lose the heatness he would rarely feel that intense.

His thin hand slipped under his pijama to rub his clit while he was caressing his sensetive nipples. He was smiling slightly with the thought of his dream. He would see Light on top of him every night. That night was not different, either. But still, that time was a little more affectionate. He imagined Light's warm lips devouring his mouth, the imaginary feeling of his slender cold fingers caressing Light pale skin made him feel dizzy. He cupped his own left breast, it was not even handful but he was grateful for it being less feminine. He twisted his nipple with two fingers and gasped. He was imagining Light's thumb there while he was rubbing his clit. His body squirmed a little while his head turned right on the pillow, to hide his blushing face from Light's imaginary gaze.

That was not enough, he needed more arousers. He imagined Light's long fingers getting in his mouth and choking him. He imagined himself under him, tears fall from eyes, the throat gags desperately, saliva flows down on chin, no breathe no mercy. While Light was raping his mouth with his fingers he was also raping his pussy with his fat cock... That image made L hornier.

He was panting in heat as he was sticking his tongue out and showing it off like a submissive dog, his face turned red as his tears was covering his face. He felt humilated, as if on knees. He felt unworhty, like a cheap whore, a toy for Light deflowering. A piece of meat to be spat on. An ugly prostitue to be fucked with disgust. Still that kind of insecurity aroused him more.

He could smell the scent of his own liquid, he did try not to imagine the face Watari would have while taking the scent of his pijamas before washing them. He liked the wetness on his panties. Still he could not get enough of his fantasies. After 2 hours he was still in his bed. Imagining new things every time. On his knees, in a collar, chained to a wall, locked in a bedroom, handcuffed to the bed, in woods alone, before eyes of everyone they know... In every way. His legs were shaking with tiredness and his clit started to sore due to lack of lube. He imagined Light forcing him to spit on his palm to lube his entry. He always hated every inch of his female body but he was willing to offer it to Light to serve him like a damn slave. He wondered how it feels to be filled with something in the pussy, he wanted to pierce his barried himself. Still, he held himself back, he wanted to keep himself perfect for him although he knew they would never have a moment like that.

After cumming he stretched his bones and twisted his toes. He reached out for his bottle and drunk it up to press his thirstiness down by imagining Light forcing him to drink it like a torture, a humilation. He released the rest of his juicy while pissing in the bahtroom and tried to clean himself for others not to realizes the emitting scent. He removed his shirt and looked himself before the mirror. His tiny female breasts were a source of discomfort for him but he wondered if he could gain Light's interest with them. Still, he put the binder on his chest, but his nipples were still sensetive from recent mast. He held onto the drawer and squirmed his lower body slightly by moaning silently. He wanted to spend more time by touching himself. Still, he held himself back and got out of his room.

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L got out of his room, Watari was surprised to see L pensive. "Is there a problem, Ryuzaki? You look pensive" L shrugged simply, his mind was thinking of the previous action of himself. "Bring my morning desserts to the living room, Watari" When L got there he saw Light looking at some files. He sat on the same couch but in a distant way. Still, he could not help but approaches with the excuse of studying papers. When his arm rubbed on Light's, L blushed. Light ignored that, probably thought it was just an act to fool him.

When Misa got inside and greeted everyone with a cheerful smile, L frowned. Seeing Misa standing behind the couch to hug Light's neck and kissing him was making him feel sick. He roamed his gaze over her body, wondered whether or not Light would like him if he was a girl. Light, despite his obvious discomfort, did not push her away. While eating his desserts as a breakfast, he was pretending to study the files and watching them secretly.

Meanwhile, Light realized L's vulnerability. He decided to push him further. "Follow me, L. There is something i want to talk you 'alone' L's face reddened a little but he followed. When they got in the room, Light pinned L on the wall by slammimg his back onto the wall roughly. L moaned accidently and gasped with panic."What are you hiding, L? Something distracting you that much?"

L squirmed under his gaze shyly. His breathe was not regular. "Nothing, just could not sleep well" He could not help but imagined Light biting his neck. His hands was on Light's chest, not as self-defense, but as an excuse to touch him, his hands were slightly shaking on his shirt. His breathe was getting out of his mouth and hits Light's neck. Although they are almost the same height his shaking knees was slightly bending and leaving him shorter. The blood flew from his fingertips to his heart by leaving his hands aching and cold. Light frowned on response, trying to figure out what was happening to the dedective. His gaze dropped to L's shaking lips and slightly open mouth. When L shyly licked his lips he grinned. He leaned into his ear, his hair strands rubbed L's cheek and made his heart beat faster. "You are shaking like a damn kitten"

L clinged on Light's shirt and whispered "You are too close" When L tried to get out of the spot he was trapped between Light's arms and the wall, Light pushes him back on the chest. With the softness and fullness under his palm his eyes widen for a moment. L hands shaked in stress and due to panic he forgot to hide his female voice "Please, let me go" Suddenly, Light cupped L's pussy over his pijama and squeezed. "Damn... Are you..." L made a squicky voice with shock and shame and maybe with arouse and did not let Light finish his sentence "Not a woman, but transman" Light eyes shined with an evil interest. He rubbed his thumb aganist L's clit. "It seems like this kitten has a pussy." L gasped and squirmed as he was trying not to moan. "Nghh, stop... I feel-" Light caught his lips in a demanding kiss. When L moaned into his mouth he grabbed L's ass and squeezed as if punishing him. "Not too loud, kitten" He bited L's lower lips teasingly and spat into his mouth, then looked at L's flustered face and half open eyes. He whispers harshly with an evil grin "Swallow, kitten, or i will make you swallow something else" L held on his arms as he swallowed obediently. He kisses Light's lips softly, almost with affection. Light grabbed his thin waist and slided his other hand under L's shirt. He caressed his back with a fake gentleness while he was secretly approaching the clips of his binder. When Light unclipped it L blushed in shame and gasped. Light removed it slowly and whispered "Let's see what is 'under the shirt' of yours" He ran his fingertips on L's skinny ribs and made him shiver. Suddenly, Light grabbed the edge of L's shirt and pulled it up, not to remove but to expose his front body and to pin L's wrists on the wall. L made a squeky scream but Light immediately covered his mouth with his palm. L felt so exposed, so humilated due to his exposed breasts. While L was in the edge of his tears he was squirming to sets his hands free. Light grinned devilishly at L's weak struggle "Behave yourself, kitten" Light pulled L's shirt back even more, forcing him to bend his back. As L's arms got tugged to back of his head even more his chest raised. Light leaned in his chest and licked L's right nipple. L cried out in shame and arouse as he felt his knees shaking. "No... It... It hurts" His body was already aching with arouse before Light bit his nipple and tugged it with his teeth a little. L's scream turned into a muffled moan when Light grabbed his throat "How sensetive you are..." As he squeezed L's neck more he cut his breate out and whispers into his eat seductively "Let's go to my room, kitten." He bit L's neck "It is time to displine pets"

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Light dragged L into his room, leaving a bruise on the arm. He removed L's shirt completely this time and threw it away, then pushed him onto the bed. L started to tremble with nervousity and excitement. That night, his dreams were to become true. He tried to covered his tiny breasts with his arms but Light captured his wrists. He whispered harshly, his voice was rough with arouse, "Do not hide, dear, let me see you... Naked."

He nodded shyly while blusing. He played with his own fingers while Light removes his bottom pyjama for him. After revealing his white panties, Light's eyes darkened. He got his own lips wetter with a lick, then put L's legs onto his shoulders. He slided down under them and sniffed through the fabric, almost poked into his folds over the panties with his nose. L gasped and grabbed the sheets with his slender fingers. Light started to like the effect he had on his partner. He pressed a long kiss onto his clit over the cotton fabric. L could not hold a moan back.

Light grinned and caught the top edge of the panties with his teeth. While pulling them down, his teeth left a superficial stretch on his skin. L moaned louder this time, his body started to squirm while his pussy was getting swollen with rising blood flow speed there. His folds were already wet and sticky. Light smelled the scent before licking the slit slowly. L whimped and arched his back. Even his attempts to squirm were clumsy. Light sticked his tongue out to show off the liquid on it, then swallowed it with delight, "That was for you, kitten."

With his words, L's eyes widened and his face reddened. But, before he could react, Light rose between his legs and kissed his mouth. L tasted his own liquid from Light's tongue hungrily. He continued to whimp weakly. Although he hated his feminine voice, Light looked to like it. When Light started to kiss his delicate neck, L tugged the hem of his shirt. Light took the hint and rose to throw his shirt away. He drew a line with kisses from his neck to his lips. While leaving L breathless with a slow kiss, he rubbed his groin onto his pussy roughly. L's liquid stained his boxer.

L's head was feeling dizzy from the heatness of the moment. He could not believe that was happening. The guy he liked and lusted for months was on him, about to pop his cherry. When Light's hand started to roam over his body, L rose his breasts up for him. Light broke the kiss and leaned. He licked his breasts roughly, then sucked his nipples slowly. The moment they got so sensetive, he bit them and caused L's eyes to roll back. He pulled his short messy hair and bit his sides. The bite on the weak spot overwhelmed L even more.

"No more wasting time." said Light before grabbing his thighs. L was completely wet and ready for him, almost dripping now. Light positioned his fat cock at his vagina entrance. Without warning, he thrusted forward. L squeezed the sheets under him and bit his lower lip to hold back a scream. It was not supposed to hurt anyway, as the luberation was more than enough. Still, he was so nervous. Light whispered harshly, almost angrily while rubbing over his nipples and banging his pussy, "Relax, kitten, you are squeezing me like a damn vice." L nodded immediately and twisted his toes to release the tension from his bones. While being fucked, he caressed Light's chest with his long fingers, trying to mimic his touches, yet failing due to lack of experience. While fucking his pussy, Light squeezed his throat a little and slapped his breasts. L made a squeky noise but he did not stop him. He pinched his nipples again before another slap. His effort to stay silent was funny to him. "Such a well-behaved kitten, trying not to cross a line. If you are that scared of forgetting your place, maybe i need to teach you it again." He fucked his pussy faster while rubbing his clit with his thumb. That shaked L from head to toe. He started to cut Light's back with his nails as if they were his claws. On response, Light bit his neck roughly, leaving a hickey to mark him back. His hands did not stop, either. They pulled his hair, choked his throat, squeezed his soft arms, palmed his breasts and pressed onto his flat stomach. L pulled him down by grabbing the back of his neck. While biting his shoulder, he left a teeth mark and closed his eyes. This closeness prevented Light from touching his front body with hands. He spanked his ass as a punishment but that only caused L to cling more firmly.

Suddenly Light got his fat dick out of his pussy, the emptiness almost made L cry. He whimped loudly and squirmed needily. Light grabbed his ass and turned L back. He bent him over the bed onto his stomach. He started to fuck his pussy from behind while pressing onto his shoulder blades with his palms, trying to bury him onto the bed. L grabbed the fabric under him again, he squeezed them to press down his own pain and pleasure. He started to think of every fantasy he imagined Light in. He imagined being his sex toy, chained to his bed, needy for his abusive desires. That made him moan. Light caught him by the hair and pressed his face onto the bed roughly, made him squirm with the lack of air. "Silence." He thrusted into his pussy mroe roughly while spanking his ass cheeks again and again, until they turn into red. Seeing his red handprints gave him the pleasure of the power he had on L. He leaned and wrapped his one arm under L's neck, he pulled his arm behind and bent L's upper body back. He whispered mockingly, "You believe i am a mass murderer who would tear you apart without a second thought, still, you offer me your swollen pussy? What a good pet..." He started to fuck him slower, by creating a few seconds between every thrust, but, this time every hit is deeper. L gasped and clawed Light's arm around his neck. Light pulled L's upper body back, kept him on his feet. While fucking him on foot, he covered his eyes wth his left hand and rubbed his clit with right hand. He palmed his pussy and squeezed it firmly, then slapped it harshly. As soon as he moaned, he pushed his fingers which were on his eyes into his mouth. While fucking his mouth with fingers he hit the deepest part of his vagina roughly but slowly, leaving him more needy. L got choked and sheded tears. Between gags and sobs, he managed to whisper needily, "I like you, a lot." Light chuckled, then slapped his clit harder, "Does my kitten like his master? How naughty..." He released his mouth. With one hand he palmed his breasts, with the other one, he palmed his pussy again. He rubbed and pinched them while banging fast again. L continued to keep his eyes close, still, he turned his head back to kiss Light. He moaned into his mouth and Light broke the kiss. Light bit his earlobe, then sucked the sore skin. The seductive words after that touch left L breathless "Cum for me like good pet, kitten."