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The two men are rested against the bed comfortably, red bed sheets bundled up at the end of the bed from when they woke up that morning. Jim's head is rested against Elliot's chest, arms up around his boyfriend's neck. The overhead lights are off as usual, only leaving the faint glow of the lamp sat on the bedside table.

"Jim..?" Elliot mumbled softly. His hands rested In Jim's hair, playing with the soft strands.
"Yeah?" Jim replies sleepily, not knowing why Elliot is saying his name.. After a brief pause, there was a reply. "Have you taken your pills yet?"
"mmhm.." The older replies, going back to resting his head on his lover's chest.

"glad you remembered"

AHHHH SHORT ASS CHAPTER BUT I HAVE WRITERS BLOCL
I WILL UPDATE LATER WITH THE MORNING AFTERR ^_^

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Jim stares at the messages on his glowing computer screen blankly, tears welled up in the man's eyes, threatening to spill and pour down his face.

“Jim, I love you so much. You should know this, never forget that fact. But I don't think what we have is going to last.”
“I'm sorry”
“Please forgive me.”

Jim's thoughts spiralled, did Elliot really mean that he wanted to break up? Was it a prank?? He didn't know, his head is all fuzzy, and he can't manage to think of a way to reply to the messages that are sitting on his screen.

Eventually, Jim started typing, the keys are cold against his fingertips. The only audible sound in the room is his uneasy breathing and the soft clicking of the keys as they are pressed against.

“elliyo are you benig seriosu?? wdym?? what??? please repky” He was typing so fast he didn't make much sense, there was a pop-up on his screen. 'Your message did not go through', there was more writing, but Jim couldn't see properly, everything around him is a blur.

His face was warm, the cool tears running down his face making it all feel weird, a mix between hot and cold wasn't the most pleasant feeling in the world. Jim's thoughts are still spreading around his mind like wildfire. He thought Elliot loved him, was that ever really true? Deep down, Jim wanted to believe it was all a joke, although he knew the man was telling the truth.

Eventually, the long awaited three dots appeared, indicating Elliot was typing a response. Jim's heart started racing, did Elliot unblock him just to say one last thing?

“I'm sorry Jim, do not message me again.”
Jim tried to quickly type a response but knew it was pointless, Elliot probably already blocked him again.

“????”, and again a message failure notification popped up as expected.
Jim hovered his mouse over the shutdown PC button, his eyelids are heavy, and he can almost barely keep them open any longer
He shut down his PC and went to bed, wishing Elliot was right there next to him in bed.

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Jim woke up with blankets wrapped around him, and Elliot sitting next to him doing who knows what on his phone.
“elli..?” The tired man spoke with a raspy voice, as most people who have just woken up would. He is looking up at the other, waiting for Elliot to notice he spoke.
“you’re awake?” Elliot spoke softly, resting his hand on Jim’s shoulder
“yeah..” Jim’s eyes are heavy, he could go back to sleep right now if it wasn’t for the sun dripping through the cracks of the window blinds, and blaring right into his face.
If he tried hard enough to ignore it he probably could get a bit more sleep, but Elliot and him have things to do today, not much. But they still have things to do, one of which being going to the grocery store. A chore Jim despises doing, the thought of leaving his house and having to talk to other people is just enough to get him nauseous.

Enough of that, he has a beautiful man right infront of him and he’s decided to think about doing errands later??
Jim sits up in bed, stretching his arms up in an attempt to wake himself up more. He stares at Elliot face for around a minute, probably way longer than he should have, he soon brings his arms up to cup Elliot face in his hands.
“What are you doing..?” Elliot asked, holding Jims warm, tender hands.

After a short while of staring at one and other and sharing soft touches, Jim leaned back into his previous position, pulling Elliot down with him.

(they do end up falling asleep and waking up at 6pm!! Ahhaa)

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Elliot spoke to Jim softly, was a bit weird considering they are both currently naked.
“you sure you want to do this?” He asks, putting a hand on jimmy boys thigh
“nyaaa… yes.. nngnfhhrgbf..” (kys jim)
Elliot flipped Jim over onto his front, to get easier access to the mans asshole💚👅
The man squirts some lube onto his fingers, putting a finger right at Jims entrance, slowly inserting it inside. Jim moaned weakly, biting his lip to suppress it out of embarrassment “mmhffmm…”
“Can i put another?” Elliot asked, curling the finger that was already inside, jim nodded his head in response, too focused on trying not to be loud to actually mutter a response.
Elliot did just that, inserting a second finger into his anal holes. Jim couldnt contain the noise, letting out a soft groan at the mixture of pleasure and pain from his ass being STRETCHED

After a few more minutes elliot deemed jims hole ready for his cawk
he inserted his cock inside of the other mans rectal cavity slowly
“You alright?” Elliot asked the clearly flustered man below him
“yyeah..mmnnm..” jim moaned as elliot bottomed out inside him
elliot went to thrust but he couldnt move his hips back
“u alrigth?” Jim asked, lookjg ip at him
“uh.. yeah…”

It was NOT alright
they went to doctor and yeeouycb ouchier owwechch and they cut his dick off !!!! Ahhhh!!aaahhh owwieee

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Jim stares at the man sitting on the chair on the opposite side of the table, tracing his features with his eyes. How could he have POSSIBLY been able to pull this man?? He’s perfect, his personality, his face. Everything about him is just divine!
The two of them talked for a bit, about anything really. Neither of them cared what they talked about as long as it meant they could spend longer together.
After a short while. maybe ten minutes, possibly more. The waiter came over to give them their drinks, they both had just gotten a glass of water each.
The waiter put a hand on Elliots’s shoulder
“What’s your name..?” She asked, trying to sound innocent, but it was clear her intentions were not.

“Excuse me…??” Elliot spoke, a bit taken back from the sudden flirting from the stranger.
Jim stared off, barely listening to Elliot speak with the waiter. He didn’t want to hear if Elliot flirted back or not, he was too nervous to try and listen due to the thought of his boyfriend potentially leaving him.
The staring went on for so long that he didn’t even notice the waiter had left, his thoughts are running around his head like crazy. What if elliot thinks he isn’t good enough and leaves him? Or if Elliot realizes he doesn’t really love him??
After a minute or two he snaps out of this state, beginning to talk with Elliot again.
“How was work?” He asked, still feeling strange about what happened previously. He knows Elliot would never leave him for a random girl, but there was still that looming feeling in his mind. It’s like a loud noise, as much as you try to ignore it, the sound will be there until you finally do something about it.
“It was great.! How was your day, did you do anything?” Elliot asks, before drinking the last bit of his water.
“uh.. it was fine, i slept most of today.” Jim replies, laughing softly.
Elliot laughed with him, smiling
“Did you sleep late again?”
“Yeah.. I know I said I would try sleep earlier, just didn’t end up doing it.”
Elliot laughed at that, completely understanding as Jim did this all the time.
“Would explain how tired you seem, you’ve been staring off..” Elliot stated, having no clue the real reason behind Jim’s dozing.
“.. yeah”
Soon, the waiter came back with their actual food. She continued being flirtatious with Elliot, despite him telling the lady he is taken.
Jim started drinking his water as a way to try and ignore the growing jealousy and annoyance growing within him.
The waiter continued being all touchy and stuff with Elliot, trying to hint something more than just touch. She eventually gave up trying and left, returning back to the staff room.

After thirty more minutes, they both went back to their own homes. As soon as Jim got home, he flopped down onto his bed. His whole house is silent, only the occasionally flicker of the lights disrupting that dreadful silence.
His mind couldn’t seem to stop making him think Elliot would leave him.
Jim knows that Elliot would never leave him for a stranger, but what if he thinks he isn’t good enough and DOES end up leaving him ???
He needs to sleep before these thoughts cause another panic attack. It was only around four minutes before Jim fell asleep, he typically didn’t have any dreams and it would feel like seconds before he’s suddenly awake. But today was different, he sees Elliot standing in front of him speaking with the waitress from earlier. Jim tries to step forward but he cant move, maybe he was too scared to, or he really couldn’t move. He can’t tell which one, his surroundings are dark and his vision is all blurry.
Jim opened his mouth to speak, but no sound came out. His throat feels numb and dry, he has no choice but to stand there and watch his lover flirt with somebody else. He knows this isn’t real but it absolutely shatters his heart.
He jolted awake, heart thumping harshly in his chest.
This same thing happened over and over again, each night he would relive that moment and wake up on the brink of sobbing his eyes out. This got to a point where he stopped talking to Elliot, fearful that he would say something ‘wrong’ and leave him.
This moment of trying to avoid Elliot didn’t last very long. After a day or two Jim found himself at his desk clicking at the almost ice cold keys, typing out a message to Elliot asking him to come over.

And within 20-25 minutes Elliot was outside Jim’s house knocking on the hard wood door, making his knuckles a light shade of red for a few seconds. Jim stands on the other side of the door, hand paused at the door knob. He can’t bring himself to turn it for a minute or two, before finally putting his hand against the cold metal and turning it, hearing the door squeak as it opens.
“uh… come in..”
They both stood there looking at each other, Elliot takes a step forward, wrapping his arms around Jim. They stand there like that for a moment before eventually pulling away.
The two of them go over to the couch thats placed in the middle of the living room like it always has been, and sit down, Elliot places his hat down on the coffee table.
It didn’t take very long for Elliot to notice his boyfriend being more shut away and distant
He noticed the tired and dull eyes, and the way his speech was more slow and quiet.
“Jim..? You doing alright?”

Jim couldn’t manage to fully make out what Elliot was saying, too deep in his own thoughts and emotions to even notice Elliot was speaking to him specifically and not somebody else. What if he was talking to that waitress over call or something???

“Jim??” Elliot spoke, concerned about the other.

oh. He IS talking to him.

“Elli… what is it.?” He utters in reply, looking up at him.

“Are you alright? You’ve been more distant recently.. did something happen?” There was only concern and worry in his tone.

Jim was quiet for a moment, he was about to open his mouth so he could finally speak what has been bothering him. But that lingering dread that Elliot would think he’s a little silly for thinking that, or say something along the lines of ‘How can you be so stupid to believe that??”.
“it’s silly” Jim finally managed to mutter out.

Elliot thought over that for a short while, what could possibly be causing Jim to be so distant and quiet? He can’t think of any possible thing that could of caused this

“You can say it, it’s fine” He spoke, accidentally yawning mid sentence. The sky is pitch black outside, the moonlight seeping into the house through the gaps in between the blinds.

Jim soon managed to speak, telling Elliot exactly what was bothering him. Every single detail he could manage to say without it sounding like pure gibberish.

“Jim—I wouldn’t just up and leave you for a random stranger. I’ve already completely forgotten about her.”
“You have?” Jim replies almost instantly.

and rhen rhey kiss!! yaeeeyg!!!
i will finssh this later, ive been very busy with making my game and school stufff!!

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“Jim, you can’t just lay in bed all day. Especially not on me, I have work..” Elliot voice is soft as he spoke. He tries pushing Jim off him so he can get out of bed, but the man is clinging tightly to his side. “c’monnn.. wake up..” Elliot groaned, he’s considering giving up and missing work. But he doesn’t really want to miss work, but doesn’t seem like he has a choice if Jim won’t wake up.. He shakes the sleeping man in an attempt to wake him, but to his disappointment. Jim did not wake up, just let out a small groan, as if saying he didn’t want to wake up. After around five more minutes of trying, Elliot gave up and laid back down. It was obvious Jim isn’t going to wake up any time soon, he really shouldn’t have given him that melatonin gummy last night. He looks over at Jim, who is clinging to his side. Elliot couldn’t help but stare at Jim’s face, his eyes tracing over every feature. After a while of staring at Jim, a couple more attempts of getting up. Elliot leans over to the bedside table, grabbing his half charged phone and calling in sick to work. While on the call, Elliot pretended to cough a few times and even put on a croaky voice to make it more believable.