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Solitude…

Summary:

Not all of the Emperor's attempts to reach his sons result in an open broadcast. For in order to alleviate the regrets of a lost soul and impact the most embittered and far-gone of all the Primarchs, the best method is an indirect one.

[Universum Chronology: Event 2 — Primarchs Beseeched | vol. 4 (simultaneous origin points)]

Notes:

Cast:
Empyrean Magpie:
Rogal Dorn

Skiah Immaterium:
Perturabo

~Flow Chart~

Previous:
[The Golden Throne Wakes (The Emperor of Mankind)]

Simultaneous:
[The Mire (Mortarion)]
[Awakening (Lorgar Aurelian and Angron)]
—{chains to (Lorgar Aurelian and Roboute Guilliman) in + Laicism +}
[Solitude... (Rogal Dorn and Perturabo)] -=(You are here.)=-

Supplement:
[The First Martyr (The Emperor of Mankind and Lorgar Aurelian)]



While Lorgar and Roboute are a slow burn, these two are a NUCLEAR BOMB.


[Author's Note — (Skiah Immaterium): If you think I take too many liberties with Lorgar, fair warning — I have given Perturabo so many external and internal layers that he's a giant, petty cyborg onion at this point. And very dark, though there are many secrets to be revealed in time for those willing to stick around. But if you don't like that concept or lots of Greek and literary references and influences throughout, I offer my condolences but I do not apologize.]

[Author's Note — (Empyrean Magpie): I take full and indulgent liberties with Dorn within this entire series. From his appearance, to where I personally perceive real world influences in regards to him including his Sami heritage. I am not changing anything about my portrayal of him and especially not in regards to some of the spicier sides of things. It may not be everyone's cup of tea, but it is mine.]

There are a lot of graphic scenes along the way, but there is much more to all of this than meets the eye — and many surprising things they reveal to each other in inopportune and unexpected ways. And while it is often dark, there is also light.

Also note that as this story was written over many long months of RP, some things might feel repetitive, especially during times when long breaks were taken in between events that are very close together. Sometimes there were constant days of writing feverishly, sometimes days or weeks passed in-between two posts when life got in the way, but this is being presented as one continual narrative for the first time as we compile it all.

(See the end of the work for more notes.)

Chapter 1: TARGET ACQUIRED

Summary:

A spark ignites… and it is immediately recognized.

Chapter Text

Solitude.

One thing was absolute, one could never truly remain in solitude forever. No matter how far they sequestered themselves to the furthest reaches of the galaxy; in a system with a foreign name, on a planet with no importance in the larger Plan.

Somehow, in some way, the whispers of long-thought dead souls and heroes clawed their ways through the very psyche of mankind. It was a sense thought dead and obsolete — as those sensations had been quiet for so long.

How could one assume otherwise?

Yet, there it was — the spark. The flicker of flame. An ember kindling to the blaze of what…?

Hope.

Hope?

How could there be such a thing in the galaxy?

That word died in the soul of one that hid himself in the farthest reaches of the space that mankind knew, barricading himself within the Ætos Dios as he made a fortress of the Thunderhawk with all he had remaining of himself, accompanied by the ghosts of a crew that long thought him dead.

Such a conclusion was better in the long run, better that whatever fractions of his Legion there were still left, were reminded of the man that he used to be — instead of the man that he had become.

A statue of self-doubt, pain and grief.

There, sitting in a makeshift chair, was Rogal Dorn — dressed in simple attire, running his right hand along his chest where he felt the beat of two hearts. He waited, silent, as he sat there, thinking that sensation had been a trick of the mind that had been stuck to its own devices for far too long.

Yet there was the sensation again.

It was illogical.

Yet what could he think? What could he say? When he felt such similar sensations before; it felt like his hearts were ripped out of chest each time he learned a Brother was killed or another turned traitor —  sometimes well before word even reached his ears through proper means.

This wasn’t quite like those times, however: it was almost as if something was being healed.

Did he even have the right to feel this way?

Naught but guilt had plagued his mind since the days of the Heresy and his failure in his duty to the Imperium. It mattered not what he did in the time following, his conscience and ever-cycling thoughts would not let him rest and even less so since his self-imposed exile and solitude, beginning from the 31st millennium.

How long has it been?

Who was it? What was it?

Tired eyes stared upwards to the spanning ceiling of the Thunderhawk that had become his home for the last several millennia as he sat with this new feeling. A change in the drudgery, the silence and the continued penitence for his actions.

There was something new.

Yet Dorn had no contact, no astropath he could employ to find out more information, nor anything at all that would have reasonably caused this kindling of hope in the doomed universe. Though there was one thing he could try.

Meditation.

This time without the pain glove, something he hadn’t had access to, yet his body remembered it even by mere passing thought to it. As if in reflex, his muscles tensed and he dealt with the phantom memory with nary a complaint, just as he dealt with the phantom pains of his missing left hand.

That was what crossed his mind as the logical next step.

He was no psyker, yet he’d never forget the visions of the Emperor after seven solar days of meditation.

But this time would be different, he could feel it.

As he settled into a state of repose, he still wouldn’t allow himself to grasp that faintest flicker of hope that he felt.

He hadn’t earned it.

 


 

𝔼𝕟𝕞𝕚𝕥𝕪

Loathing

𝔹𝕚𝕥𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕟𝕖𝕤𝕤

R̶̞͓̪̫͇͔̬̼̲̽̉͑̈̐̋͗̔͂̌̇̊e̴̢̛̺͈͕̬̮͗̂͊̔̾̅s̵͇̫͆͆̊͛̚ë̶͇̳͖͖͔̖̪̬́̆̑̓̔̇̕͝n̸̡̥̂͒̎́͊̂̑͌͂̀̑̽͝͝t̸̡̹̯̹͎̲̄͂̓̏̾ͅͅm̸̘͖̖̻͋̾͒͒̾̾͝͝ȩ̶̘̠̬͖̗̯̗̗̭̞̱͇̝̓̈̅̃͌͛̂͛͆̉͘͠͠n̶̘̿͌̐̓̊̒̈́͌͌̾t̸̨͕̫̲͓̣͇͔̜͎͒̑̏͑̈́͂͊͂̕͝ͅ

 

 

Smoldering, malignant emotions smothered the atmosphere in a dense, nearly perceptible smog that was every bit as potent and suffocating as the pollution of black, metal-specked plumes that roiled from the smokestacks of insidious, perpetually productive machines that whined and grinded somewhere in the far-off distance — and were every bit as toxic and hostile as those emotional emanations to anything that could be considered organic life.

The vision slowly cleared, revealing fleeting, broken images that were somehow far worse than the backlash of raw emotions that precluded the sight —  dimly flickering lights pulsed in the darkness along seemingly endless dense black cables that were suspended from the ceiling and walls like a mechanized mockery of a halo. The figure at the central point where they converged a towering, blasphemous construct of polished iron and steel in the shape of a man that rested upon a throne made of the same materials — as if the structure was a singular mass.

But it was not.

That distinction was perhaps unimportant however, as the wires and cords that dangled behind him before meeting their intended ends along his metallic skull and trailing down behind his body effectively immobilized him and kept him augmetically bound to a mechanothrone that evoked an image that was more prisoner than king, like this being was some installed ship scryer condemned to a support socket; or perhaps some twisted invention from the bowels of the foulest, secretive sectors of the Dark Mechanicum.

But any illusion that this cold metal fortification was not in some degenerate way, 'alive' was entirely shattered by the strength and virulence of his overwhelming emotions; emotions that while were nothing short of unholy and could be felt pouring out into though the farthest reaches of space, were certainly of no mere machine.

Nor was the red glow of the shrewd, intelligent robotized eyes now piercing through the dark, suddenly gleaming with recognition that was nothing short of antagonistic beyond measure in the microsecond it took before the source of his perpetual ruminations connected with him at long last and was immediately identified amid a burst of vibrant Golden Light.

 


 

The abrupt rush of… emotions hit Dorn squarely in the chest as much as physical contact surely would have. He wasn’t even sure for how long he had slipped into that meditative state in between the time that he had decided that yes, he’d give this an attempt to now.

After all, it hadn’t felt like seven days when he had witnessed the Emperor.

He hadn’t seen the Emperor this time, yet there was no mistaking the malignancy he experienced next in those fleeting moments. Even after all this time and no matter how the vision displayed him, he knew his Brother when he saw him.

Felt him.

Dorn released a breath, slowly, contemplating his next move as he rose from his chair.

He saw the recognition directed toward in turn, and somehow, got the sensation of understanding that his Brother had honed onto him and while he was holed up in the far reaches of the galaxy. Perturabo had resources, many more at his disposal than Dorn could hope to muster up in his small corner of the world.

Even after all this time?

A low sigh was pushed out of his chest.

Another failure on his part, another twist of the knife, another reminder of pain.

Always ever at odds, Dorn contemplated upon his fallen Brother, between the rivalry before the Heresy and what had happened on Sebastus IV. Those memories became a companion to his thoughts now as he began the arduous task of moving things around and preparing.

While the fleeting thought of escaping this planet crossed his mind, Dorn understood how useless it would be to try to outrun someone that would already be at the gate by the time he brought the Thunderhawk to the sky. Instead, he shifted focus on what he knew best, preparing to defend.

It was a futile attempt, outgunned, outmanned; yet he’d not go down easy.

With little time to waste, he began to move. To make preparations. To scrounge up the scant resources he had within and outside of the Thunderhawk to bolster for what he felt would be his final stand to a threat that was facing him down head-on again.

His sons had called him ‘Defiance’.

And he would remain as such.

A bitter smile crossed his lips. If this everlasting grudge was to end with his blood slicking the ground, so be it. For all that he felt, surely it was deserved.

He knew he shouldn’t have placed trust on that fleeting sensation of hope. Hope wasn’t logical and wasn’t meant for men facing their well-deserved fate.

 


 

A steaming mechanical hiss broke the silence as recognition met recognition, the time and distance and the changes those catalysts produced—as strong as their transformative power was—were not enough to stop the innate and immediate shared cognizance upon regarding one another immediately, likely by intrinsic feeling as much as identification on sight.

Though the Lord of Iron was fully aware the changes impacting him were much more extreme and in all ways by design, he’d felt that unmistakable awareness being reciprocated the moment it struck his Brother — as surely as he’d felt something nearly identical himself.

Still, time had changed Dorn, too. Yet much about him was entirely immutable and remained exactly the same despite the weariness of age that had descended upon him, a condition that he himself was immune to as metal did not succumb as flesh did. Those creases trailing along Dorn's pale skin along with fine lines had never been there before — as Perturabo knew every detail of his Brother’s face in painstaking detail.

Nor had he had such a full beard previously, though the colorlessness of his hair that could have been mistaken for whitening from age was anything but. Most striking of all though, was the look deep within those intense eyes, gained from the wisdom and weariness that came from experience and at the expense of the feeling of invulnerability that always faded with youth lost.

These understandings descended upon Perturabo all at once, causing a reverberation in the waves of energy that had distinctly changed before fading out when the connection between them was quickly and abruptly cut; a jolt of pain lacing the boiling enmity that vibrated from every inch of his titanic mass, striking squarely at what had once been where his primary heart resided, long ago.

He did not like that he’d felt such things, and even less that perhaps his Brother and most hated rival had the brief chance to witness it. And so he was relieved when their link was severed. And yet, some part of him was immediately displeased and resentful that it was gone.

He did not like that either.

 


 

Strangely, it warmed Dorn up to have a purpose, even if it was to defend his life. His actions were more pronounced and with reason behind what he was doing, instead of simply whittling away the time and energy throughout his self-imposed banishment from the Imperium of Man.

Tracking arrays were recalibrated first, to give him some warning when he did not have the benefits of scouts or anyone under his employ, yet that was a minor blip in all that he had planned. The next was to ensure the ship’s Void Shields remained in operation, for as long as they could last — enough for him to potentially do something to stem the tide.

Yet, even as he worked on the Thunderhawk, storing and managing the supplies he had left, Perturabo’s form had not left his mind’s eye for one moment, to see him so wholly changed. It was shocking to witness and be in the presence of.

Perhaps if he ha— Dorn shook his thoughts free from those notions, redoubling his efforts to throw his all into this. His final piece of work. Whatever was to come, he would focus his energy. There was little reason for doubt in his mind ,that this could play out in multiple ways. Contingency plans with contingency plans as Dorn laid out fact over fact in his mind in an effort to corral and control all the other meandering thoughts.

The inside was changed, a central chamber created —  with other chambers made around that. The Thunderhawk wasn’t a large ship, laughably small in comparison, a tiny speck in comparison to battleships.

Yet what he couldn’t do further inside, he went outside to accomplish, working tirelessly to make the very environment itself dangerous. This planet had very little life upon it and in its space were crags and rocks, ravines and canyons. Dorn, himself, had the ship nestled against large rock formations, providing a natural shield with eons-old stone that had stood the test of time and had proven capable of bearing the weight of a 121 tonne Thunderhawk.

Trenches, traps—entire cavern systems, were devised and set. All to bring down Chaos Marines and Machine alike if they stepped foot upon the surface wrong, all in kilometers in radius around Dorn’s last bastion against the threat to come.

Unless the planet was simply destroyed, leaving all plans for naught. Yet he didn’t believe that Perturabo would stoop so low, while giving up the chance of being able to look upon Dorn’s face in the midst of his demise.

What a pointless rivalry it all had been.

The fact was that they both were masters of their craft, even if Perturabo was more willing to sacrifice endless casualties if it was meant to get what he wanted. That should have drawn them closer yet…

Dorn exhaled sharply.

These thoughts were pointless and most if not all of following ones would simply be speculations. Right now, what he had to rely on were facts.

He had felt a calling. Fact.

He had experienced a vision. Fact.

He had seen his Brother. Perturabo. Fact.

One with Chaos. Fact.

Dorn rubbed at his chin, large fingers combing over his beard as he turned to head back into the Thunderhawk, this time to undertake the strenuous task of putting his Auric Armour on.

He had continued preparations to do. Fact.

 


 

A shudder—or was it simply a lifeless mechanized twitch—rippled through the Lord of Iron’s gargantuan body, causing the cords that arced around his construct-form to swing. Those rubberized cables as thick as a standard man’s leg swayed heavily under that motion — yet were held firmly in place by the giant sockets that locked them in at the points of both origin and insertion.

Meanwhile, the soulless, blood-red lights that served as his eyes glowed fiercely, appearing to gaze off vacantly into the blackness ahead without purpose. But that was not at all correct. Those hateful lights were scrutinizing; analyzing readouts and reports, maps and star-charts — actions visible to none but he. The unfathomably large streams of data were being fed directly into his mind by those massive data cables that carried yottabytes of yottabytes of information at transfer rates too rapid for any being to ever hope to track.

And even for he—the most advanced computational power in all existence—the strain was genuinely too much to bear; yet he did bear it, fueled by pure spite. The agony hit him like lighting arcing straight into his brain, information overload striking over and over and over again, but he savored it, each electric lash only spurring him on ever towards his goal.

His suffering served as evidence he’d yet to fully achieve perfection in his design despite his rise to Apotheosis. And with that, he endured the punishment of his own lacking but it was not with any sense of self-defeat as it might have been—perhaps should have been—had he slowed down enough to consider the implications past the sudden surges that ripped through his biomechanical form.

But that would come later, if at all. For Perturabo had purpose again, purpose other than in simply biding his time. And though this new purpose did not truly serve his higher goal of Ascending further in any functional way, his synapses fired with flesh and augmentation alike as he came alive.

This feeling, this compulsion, this drive; oh, how he had missed it.

He wasn’t even sure what he intended in the ultimate, he was so lost in a flickering, blisteringly fast haze of data as streams of thought and algorithms worked in tandem on mathematical calculations in a state of unfiltered frenzy; yet even his analytical processing power couldn’t block or drown out the excitement and adrenaline that nearly flooded it all away…

But he remained ever-focused on his singularly minded goal with obsessive, furious fervor.

An illogical, all too human passion that defied all that he'd appeared to have become. But he didn't fight against it, nor even considered doing so.

He was beyond reaching by anything that would have served as a distraction from Dorn now; even himself.

Man or Demigod. Demigod or God in the Making. Organic or Bionic. Living or Machine. Lines had been crossed, definitions blended. And yet… despite it all and the faded, cast off shackles of what he’d long considered superfluous, Perturabo was reveling in what he’d thought he’d discarded.

It was not feasible to even estimate how much time passed — aside from far shorter than what should have ever been conceivable as it was surely impossible and yet, he had what he’d been working toward since the moment that connection was cut, the memory of that location's visual details and the golden blip that had pinged his interface never once leaving his mind's eye for a single second through it all.

 

Co-ordinates.

 

A dull, rattling cackle echoed dryly like an earthquake through the digitized, robotic vista of a palace that contained no entity other than himself, as it had remained for countless centuries.

No longer.

With no need for anything as crude as needing to push physical buttons—and with only a thought—channels opened and he voxed his commands — to the tech-priests of the Dark Mechanicum stationed on Medrengard that while served him wholly in deed, and were rarely ever called upon to tend to him personally.

This would be one of those exceedingly rare occasions.

For after so many years spent in a state of deliberate physical deactivation, the Lord of Iron was finally prepared to mobilize.

 


 

In stark contrast, Rogal Dorn had no additional help. No crew, no servitors — there was nothing beyond simply himself and his own mind to plan out and deal with what was to come. Once he had gotten into his armor, however long ago it was, he had stayed within it and toiled endlessly with his single hand, never staying for a break for long.

But even so, it was to be a waiting game.

Dorn’s mind wandered to Sebastus IV again and all that had happened there. The victory, if one could even call it that, was pyrrhic at best, and simply a senseless slaughter at worst. Yet he knew many of his sons had wanted such a skirmish. To prove themselves, to prolong the inevitable — the dissolution of the Imperial Fists under the guidance of the Codex Astartes.

Though many of his sons were granted their wish to fall in combat, regret formed in the pit of his gut for that as well. Even after all of those many centuries that had passed from then to now, anytime he thought of the Iron Cage for too long, his grief was renewed all over again.

Perhaps he thought he’d die in that battle, much as he expected to die now.

At least, none of his men would have to face their deaths this time and, realistically, he knew that his demise was all but assured. There were no miles long bunkers or towers, aimed at wearing the enemy down in a prolonged concentrated effort. He had no soldiers, men to man the minefields, the trenches of razor wire traps. The tunnels he had dug out would only slow down the inevitable for but so long.

That went for everything else, everything that he had used at his disposal to at least make his countdown to destruction as tedious and annoying as possible, bringing down what ‘Traitor’ marines he could.

Even then, none of that would bring him any pride, nor any sense of accomplishment as it may have once before. This was simply, while purposeful, the last attempt to survive, while kicking and biting every meter of ground. Nothing but Chaos as a witness to the stalwart defender, the embodiment of human tenacity.

With final preparations in place…

Dorn rose up from the central chamber and grasped Storm’s Teeth into his right hand.

There was naught more to do now, than wait.

 


 

Though the spacecraft that carried Perturabo to his destination was certainly no flagship—a tiny transport built with only his personal needs and singular travel in mind—his thoughts drifted to the Iron Blood despite himself, as the parallels were far too many to ignore.

So many details were far different, so much time had passed; and yet the basics of the situation were identical. Perhaps the feeling that descended upon him now might be called nostalgia, were there anything at all whatsoever good to sift through in those memories. The Iron Cage, what should have been his greatest triumph—his sweetest victory—had been spoiled in the end by insufferable meddling, Guilliman's unwanted presence turning whatever satisfaction might have once been gained into nothing more than bitterness and ruin.

And he’d lost his most precious trophy, slipping through his grasp right when success had been all but guaranteed…

If only.

The Lord of Iron was growing ever more restless, to his consternation. And he could not stop dwelling, stop seething, though it made the time seem to come to an absolute standstill. It was maddening, how his once-infinite patience had all but shattered from the moment he laid eyes upon that face again, this journey somehow feeling longer than all the years that had passed since the last time he’d emerged from his palace so long ago…

The logistics of his data feed had revealed that Rogal Dorn was by himself, holed up on some woefully unimportant barren dusty rock floating in the middle of the void. To what end he’d sequestered himself away, Perturabo did not know, could not deduce; and at first he'd been skeptical of that truth, analyzing the information down to the absolute minutia over and over again before accepting it as fact.

But it was fact, and to the confusion and chagrin of a Legion that had long since wondered if their Lord might ever stir from his isolation again, Perturabo had insisted that he would take his voyage alone and provided no information to anyone as to where it was he intended to go, how long he would be away, or what it was he would be doing. A decision that was challenged by by one particularly foolish and mouthy individual that was dealt with in such swiftness and brutality that it fully and immediately quieted down all those who harbored similar thoughts in their skulls — and had summarily been graphically reminded of the value of silence and of obedience.

Yet while Perturabo’s actions had seemed on the surface to be nothing short of what should have always been expected of him, he’d had a much deeper reasoning for making his unmistakable example plain and absolute for all to see.

He would not harbor even an modicum of a suggestion that anyone should accompany him, or even know where he was going.

Where his Brother was.

Perturabo had not found even a single byte of data whatsoever in his repeated visual and mathematical analyses of the vast amounts of information provided to him—from any angle—that refuted the evidence. Dorn truly was alone on a nameless planet so devoid of activity that he might have been the only lifeform residing upon its desiccated surface. And that meant there was no army prepared for his arrival, no potential for there being any sort of grand battle awaiting him. Such a thing would be highly improbable at any rate — as it had been millennia since they’d even had a glimpse of one another.

Yet even if there had been full confirmation of the exact inverse, Perturabo knew deep down he’d have made identical decisions anyway, no matter how great the opposition that may have awaited him.

No one, absolutely no one under the Ironclad skies of Medrengard would be allowed to know of Dorn’s location and continue existing.

And if he had his way about it, perhaps no one at all.

Bitterness continued to well up inside him as he stared balefully at the glowing screens ahead that lined the wall of his windowless transport. Soon, he’d emerge from the Warp. Soon, he’d draw near to the place that was so desolate and meaningless that it was unlikely anyone at any point in history had ever thought to bestow it a name — beyond the string of numbers that cataloged its position on star charts. Maybe it would be worthy of such, in time.

It had felt nearly like an eternity until at last, he was approaching. He navigated with his mind alone — the pointed, reinforced triangular bow of his ship cutting through the Immaterium and into Realspace as he maneuvered into place — exactly where he wanted to be.

It was in a nice little show of sparking thrusters and gleaming metal to illuminate the sky above as he cut though corporeality like a hot knife through cloth, for the only one that would bear witness to his arrival.

 


 

Dorn had stayed standing in that central chamber, in a half-meditative state as he waited for something that would rouse him from his semi-conscious condition. But at no point did he dare to drift off as he had done before, when he had first seen the face of his Brother staring back at him.

The animosity he felt had been seared into his mind, just like all of the other times they had come to odds. Time and time again, getting close to blows yet never having the opportunity to do so without interference.

This time, there were no other Brothers to arrive to his aid, to pull him from danger at the last moment. He was unable to stop himself from constantly reminiscing on past battles that held no true use here. Far too much time had passed, methods and ideas change within years and all those remaining had much more time than that.

Though, he remained the same.

Was he the only one?

The sound of a blip caught his attention as the dim lights activated from within Ætos Dios, basking Dorn’s copper and gold armor in a glow of light. He turned his helmeted head towards the outward feeds that were beginning to relay the information for him to read.

Even after all this time, the latent Machine Spirit roused to the command of the one that still remained.

Slow yet heavy steps brought him over to the physical feeds.

One ship.

One.

Not even a battleship that could transport a battalion of troops, one solitary ship, so similar to his Thunderhawk, yet manufactured for a different purpose. Though, Dorn knew that one vessel prepping to head into Realspace didn’t mean there weren’t others.

He waited a few seconds until the peal of the atmosphere roared overhead, loud enough that even his fortifications could not drown out the sound of a ship entering into the skies above him. If nothing else, the rock face that he nestled against offered a natural shield.

Dorn wouldn’t step outside, but the Cygnus-spirit brought forth a grainy, glassy feed of what exactly was above them. There was no mistaking the gleaming dark ship, the shimmer of an all too familiar crest upon it, making an entrance that announced its presence like a blaring horn call. The sparks of those thrusters crackled on the feed and Dorn moved with purpose to turn off the Teleport Homer.

The last thing he wanted was whoever was on that ship to have access to a method of simply bypassing his fortifications.

Next, he activated the Void Shields that blared to life with an audible whine that would have deafened a baseline human man. A shimmer could most assuredly be seen by whatever optics the invading party had, even before natural visuals, though soon there would not be anything visible at all.

At least until something struck them.

Dorn left the communication array on, letting it connect to the other ship, yet did not say anything himself, remaining in the middle of his ‘fort’. The ports around the ship began to vent out excess heat and energy as the ship itself seemed to have come alive, yearning for a use beyond being a tomb.

Strangely, Dorn felt his hearts racing, even as he leveled a cold glare at the screen from under his golden helmet, tracking the ship. Surely that was simply the adrenaline that pulsed through his form, readying himself for what was to come.

Right?

Right.

That was a fact…?

 


 

Static crackled, then faded out—but in a moment it was back again, now clearer in tone before quieting, accompanied by the low hum of engines as the soft noises of a ship’s interior was heard clearly over the communication array. A couple of tense seconds passed, heavy and distinctly hostile before a new noise joined into the mechanical background din — no less unnatural in origin but this purr was nearly like breath despite its distinctly metallic rattle.

The pause dragged miserably on for several endless seconds.

At last the other side broadcasted a message. It was carried by a deep and thoroughly inhuman voice; and though it had always held a powerful depth and register far lower and stronger than any mortal man’s, there was something in that sound that had never been there in the past, reminiscent of metal scraping against metal. It was unmistakably transformed and less organic than before — yet it was oddly completely free from anything akin to the echoes of daemonic corruption that plagued the speech of other Legions aligned to the ship owner’s ‘affiliations’.

This did not make it any less uncanny or feel less entirely off however — though traces of a timbre remained of what once was and had been further enhanced. The result wasn’t unlike the way Astartes often sounded when voxing from inside their helmets — yet there was a clearly distinct lack of anything muffling or containing his speech.

Dorn. I know you saw me then, just as I know you hear me now,” that strangely mechanical voice chided in an indignant and impatient tone, as if he had not been the one hesitating all this time. “Brother.”

 


 

The lingering anticipation was heady in the air as it dragged on between each start and stop of cacophonous whirs and thrums that indicated someone had connected to the other side of the communications array. Dorn fixated his hardened gaze on the other readouts revealing much of the same that he had read moments before.

There were no other ships, and they should have been picked up on the radar by now.

Instead, it was one transport ship, carrying the one person upon it— likely the sole person that would traverse the far reaches of Warp and space to hunt him down. Yet, even knowing that was the case, Dorn’s expression shifted when Perturabo finally deigned to speak — in a voice that was familiar in many aspects, yet not in wholly different ways.

Dorn wasn’t rattled by the change, as he refused to share any emotions outwardly beyond the absolutely necessary ones.

Yet deep down—

No.

Dorn gripped Storm’s Teeth that much tighter before he finally opened his mouth to speak the moment that he felt he wouldn’t choke on a rasping voice that hadn’t had to communicate outwardly in so long.

Yet, from his voice, came strength. The level of evenness and force that he had always been known for, deep and rumbling, yet understandable all at the same. His words held that ever neutral and stoic tone of voice, perfectly steady.

“So I have and so I am, Brother.”

Ever a man of few words, yet his mind was reeling and despite how much he tried to shake it off, now that he had spoken for the first time in many millennia, it was as if his mind craved more.

More of… what? Dorn couldn’t say exactly what it was that he was particularly craving, much less from a sworn enemy.

 


 

A derisive snort not unlike the venting of a steam engine reverberated on the other side of the channel, then there was another pause; but the sound of mechanized breathing was slightly louder now, as if Perturabo was leaning in closer — and then this was followed by a strange series of soft sliding noises, as if many snakes slithered in unison from all directions at once.

Not much time had passed, but it was certainly enough for Dorn to have realized that there was none here but he, unless he expected that there was some tactical maneuver being carried out while he bought time. Yet that infuriatingly blank disaffected voice was all Perturabo heard coming from the other side of the comm.

Perturabo had the clear advantage here and he knew it, as he had seen this place and the entire region around it in an exacting detail that gave him the foreknowledge that this abandoned husk of a rock was almost entirely vacant. Dorn couldn’t possibly have such capabilities with nothing but a Thunderhawk at his disposal and yet, he seemed to assume that there was no reason to suspect anything at all.

The idea that Dorn trusted in this, and still viewed him to have some modicum of honor even after what Perturabo had set him up for the last time they met, angered him greatly. For too many reasons. For no reason at all.

He growled lowly; and yet for all the animosity that radiated from his ironclad form, he did not wish for this discussion to end so soon.

In fact, he desired things that were blatantly ridiculous. Was he truly so lonely in his seclusion that any form of conversation or interaction was desirable, even from a source as this?

“…I came here alone.” Perturabo spat out argumentatively as if the words themselves—that he was the one that spoke—offended him.

Why did he volunteer such strategically compromising information? Why had he offered Dorn such security? Why had he proven the assumption that he still somehow deserved to be viewed with any dignity whatsoever—correct?

Heat rose and smoldered in his chest like burning coals, which ached in ways he’d not thought possible at all any more — far more passionate; directed and focused than the Engine of Discontent he had become allowed for after being left for so long to his own devices, and dwelling almost entirely within his own psyche.

 


 

“So my radars have indicated. Why have you come here, Brother?”

Dorn replied with that same alarming ease, yet surely Perturabo could hear something else in Dorn’s voice, the slightest waver, the barest shift of intonation that sounded eerily like relief. Something that Dorn hadn’t had the luxury of fully hiding by mechanics and machines.

Yet with the confirmation on the screens turning to reality by Perturabo’s own admission, Dorn shifted in his stance, contemplating in his mind what this could all truly mean. His Brother had never been one to shy away from using overwhelming force or suffering innumerable casualties to get exactly what he wanted.

That was simply a fact.

However, in a twist of the usual, his Brother had come here, alone.

“What is your purpose here? …Really.”

Dorn found himself inquiring before he could stop himself and had given Perturabo the opportunity to answer the first question he had asked, never being one usually interrupting or layering more questions until the previous one was addressed.

Here he was though, already stumbling and though the questions were similar, the latter asked for a deeper meaning.

The expression on Dorn’s face hardened once more as something akin to a sigh could be heard over the communication feeds. He was moving now though, that much could be heard as it sounded like he now was within feet of the only line of communication with someone he'd had for so long.

 


 

That initial question was addressed with nothing more than an irritable grunt — though if that was because he didn’t want to answer or if Dorn had simply cut him off with that second question, was indeterminable.

Then, a dry, short laugh. Was Dorn showing impatience? Perhaps he was more rattled than his tone of voice conveyed…

Anxiety.

How amusing, if so; to be able squeeze emotions from solid stone. And truly, he should be worried, to be so far away from the more fortified bastions of the Empire. For even if he should send a distress signal or call for help in any way, it was a meaningless, futile endeavor. With one blast, this entire little rock could be wrought to dust. The only safety Dorn had here was in obscurity but he had been found.

There was a dull noise from the other side, followed once again by strange sounds like serpents moving in a synchronized slide. And then Perturabo’s unearthly deep voice came through, more distinct than the previous time — which only made its mechanized qualities more prominent.

“If I had come here to kill you, you’d already be dead.”

 


 

Another breath could be heard on the other line, followed by a hollowed laugh, the laugh of a doomed man that understood just how right Perturabo actually was.

Especially when it came to his Brother.

This planet meant nothing when combating against his Brother, with his myriad of strategies and tricks up his sleeve.

Or whatever accounted for that, these days.

"If that is the case, then what are you waiting for? Why have you not pulled the metaphorical trigger, Perturabo?"

His words held a bitter edge, frustration bleeding through in a way that could not be muffled by his helmet. Yet, by the time he said his Brother's name, there was an air of resignment to it, as if he knew his death lurked around the very corner.

Or rather, hovering above the planet.

 


 

Perturabo could feel the frustration pouring out from the other side as much as he could hear it in Dorn’s voice. That rock-hard steadiness was crumbling already…

Why shouldn’t it? There was little use in resisting. There was little use in anything.

“Watching you squirm first will make it far more gratifying.” He retorted, and whatever it was that laced his voice with a nearly-vox coded quality —  wasn’t enough to disguise the disdainful scorn that weighted down every syllable.

 


 

Nothing happened as Dorn fell into a cold stillness for the following moments after Perturabo’s words. Silence answered the other end for a second, and another and then another — dragging out the tense pause in the air for longer than was necessary.

On purpose.

But when it began to feel like Dorn was ignoring him, he spoke once more with that same deep, unaffected tone he had used when speaking for the first time in ages. "Get on with it then, Brother. I'll be waiting."

There was no more challenge than that, open ended and flat and there were no other emotions peeking through, by accident or otherwise.

 


 

It was pointless. All for nothing. No matter what fortifications Dorn had made, this was no invulnerable fortress of stone and steel — though that likely wouldn’t have truly impacted the situation if it were. For regardless of any towering buttresses or fortified ramparts he may have erected; no matter any intricate traps that may have been set, ready to eviscerate or detonate an opposing army to gory ribbons; in spite of any labyrinthine fortifications designed to slow enemy forces down — there would be no foot soldiers to thin out here. There would be no invasion of… any sort.

Perturabo was not a fool. No matter how vulnerable Dorn’s tiny ship looked in the feed that was glaring from the screens in front of him, he knew there were impressive and likely intricate preparations made, full of dire and fatal secrets awaiting any force foolhardy enough to test him.

It was simply that none of it mattered a bit in this scenario.

Lamentably.

As they were both entirely aware.

So why did Dorn’s pervasive, bluntly demonstrated lack of defiance feel so bad to him now? To be met by total resignation annoyed Perturabo to his iron core; and he felt no joy in this swift surrender despite there being nothing else his Brother could feasibly do.

Wasn’t that the point? Wasn’t that exactly what he wanted to witness all along?

Perturabo dwelled on that possibility for a moment, though he already knew it was not true in the slightest well before he analyzed it. There were many reasons why he came here alone, but above all else it was to prevent Dorn from being crushed by a massive force he would have no hope of mounting a resistance against.

He’d never been above staging an unfair fight, to be forthcoming — but this was different.

Still, while pressed on the very precipice of oblivion itself with his back against the wall and no hope of survival, Perturabo was resentful, angry and wholly satisfied that Rogal Dorn was so willing to give up.

Where was that fire?

…Snuffed out, obviously. And maybe even lacking enough fading embers to try to reignite it, now.

Had he been wasting away all this time? The mere thought of that being his whole existence through the disconnected millennia that had passed between them, all the while lacking any sort of objective or goal for Dorn to build upon, infuriated him.

A thousand phrases flickered through Perturabo's mind, in a hundred different qualities; some scornful, some dangerously close to nearly defending Dorn, or at least the pride of a man he once knew—in a perplexingly roundabout way solely to give his own advancements meaning—yet he would speak none of them.

Instead, Perturabo said exactly what he had been thinking since the moment they’d somehow stumbled upon each other in the mindscape; or rather, since that moment had come to an abrupt end.

“I want to see your face again.”

He was genuinely surprised it had slipped out so easily, but he did not take it back.

 


 

Another round of silence.

But this time there wasn’t a purpose to be found. It was the moment when confusion flickered on Dorn’s normally stoic expression as he stared back at the flickering screens — as if he trying to see Perturabo’s face, to gauge for what true meaning those words held.

His ship had no such capabilities, however, for them reveal themselves to one another in such a way over screens filtering data feeds.

Yet, that did not mean he could not simply walk out of the Thunderhawk.

Face to face, Brother to Brother.

The idea made his twin hearts beat again to a racing crescendo, adrenaline flushing and entering his veins once more, just as it had done when he first heard the ship enter the atmosphere above him and the last bastion that he had eked out for himself.

“Meet planetside, approximately 1 kilometer to the east, there are no fortifications.”

Of course there had been a reason why—as that location didn’t have traps that he had set up. He truly had believed there was an army to face, however, that was increasingly proving to not be the case and because of that reasoning alone had he informed Perturabo of exactly where to go, where he could land his transport vessel safely.

Dorn lifted his remaining hand up, idle thoughts leading him to wonder if Perturabo even knew he was missing the other, as he pulled the helmet from his face and set it down on the command console with a heavy thunk, loud enough that the only other person on the line could hear it.

“We shall see one another.”

And then what?

 


 

For reasons Perturabo couldn’t begin to fully unravel—or maybe he didn’t want to examine any of them—the long silence in between was much harder to bear now despite it having been a constant on both sides of the conversation this entire time. But he thoroughly disliked the waiting required of him this time around, a sensation of gnawing discontent building inside him as he prepared for the answer that would inevitably be revealed.

A long exhale came as soon as he had that reply, unsteady and shuddered out in disbelief. It was then he knew why he’d been so uneasy.

And that he needn’t been.

With it, came the revelation to himself of what it was all along — of the true reason he’d come here to begin with, despite having other options that he may act upon later: to make that demand. To what end any of this would lead to, he had no calculated answer to for once, nor even a predicted outcome in mind. For it had been impulsive rather than carefully laid out, calculated plans. From the second that ethereal, fleeting visage came into his mind’s eye uninvited, he desired more; as much as he was loathe to admit it. But then, only to have it fade out so quickly was far worse, to the point it incensed him to the degree that he took immediate action.

The tension broke, only to be replaced by a much sharper, more visceral form as the doubtful assumptions he’d held had been proven completely wrong, now replaced by a strange rush that flooded his form with chemicals and anticipation as Dorn simply agreed.

“Very well. And so I shall.” He said simply, cutting off the communications channel as he prepared to land where directed without a moment’s hesitation.

The sound of heavy yet hollowed out ceramite hitting some unseen surface echoed in his mind long after the noise faded out.

Distinct, unmistakable.

A helmet, removed.

A demand, granted.

With grace no human pilot could have emulated with something as clumsy as physical or even auxiliary controls, the Lord of Iron navigated his transport by thought alone, making a gradual descent slowly and with care, demonstrating that he held no furtive intentions; that none of this was ever meant as some sort of ploy to bait Dorn out of hiding.

And it truly wasn’t. Where was the fun in that? As underhanded as he might have been at times, there was no sport in taking a victory by forfeiture.

He landed in a vacant flat patch not far from where he’d been directed, taking the same principle to heart as the one he’d extended. Dorn wouldn’t have him land into a trap.

That would have been far too underhanded a move for one so annoyingly upright. Though were he wrong about that, only to discover 'too late' that Dorn had changed over the years and had taken such a risk, well — showing him what a mistake he’d made might bring a different sort of satisfaction to this meeting.

Chapter 2: Locked and Loaded

Summary:

A clash for the ages comes to blows at last, yet something undefined is thoroughly, horrifically wrong.

Chapter Text


 

So came the beginning of the end.

Dorn reached out, resting his right hand over the console that was controlled by the Cygnus-class machine spirit, giving it the gentlest of touch as if it had been a real living companion that had kept him from full isolation this entire time.

Through quiet and slow, methodical inputs, the whine of the Void shield fizzled and faded out, reflecting brief fractals of brilliantly shimmering hexagons to the naked eye until each section faded, completely giving the ship up to the mercy of any to come to destroy it.

The communication array was disabled next, preventing further feeds going out and coming in, the capabilities of long-distance communications having died so long ago with the astropaths that should have accompanied it.

The tired expression on his face grew stern and harder as he kept his helm upon the console, having to only reach so far to set down the Voice of Terra alongside his helmet. There was no feasible way to utilize it with one hand anyway if he was to carry Storm’s Teeth.

Besides, he could no longer consider himself a Praetorian of Terra and, in fact, considered himself naught but a blight upon the Imperium’s legacy. His failures had brought the Empire to its knees. It no longer mattered if the Emperor had left the safety of his walls against the urging requests to remain, it mattered not that he had to fight hordes and throngs of Traitors down the path, sent so far away by the Ruinous Powers of the Warp.

He had been too late.

All of his carefully laid out ideas, defenses, traps, strategies, bulwarks and fortifications never mattered as he saw one of his Brothers dead before him, another obliterated out of existence and his Father dying upon the ground.

He had been too late.

So close to victory, unknowingly, yet it was not enough. Never enough.

Too late to change the outcome, too late change fate, too late change the inevitable that had prickled his gut and thoughts with the pressure of something he’d come to know as fear.

And then, to redeem himself, he couldn’t even be allowed that mercy, to die as the man he should have died as. Against the very Brother that visited him today. All because of Guilliman’s refusal to let him kill himself on his own terms.

It was all that it took to not turn the very bolter—that had been gifted to him by the Legio Custodes—onto himself. Dishonorable and disgraceful, yet with all trust gone in him by the Imperium, who could he blame but himself?

There was a second chance now, to die by combat.

Furious, righteous combat.

This time, between Perturabo and himself, with no Ultramarine interference to prevent this ticking timer to destruction.

Perhaps, if his Thunderhawk miraculously survived, and was picked up by some roving band of Marine or Mechanicus, perhaps they would come into the chamber and see this helmet, see the bolter, and know the man that had carried these things once upon a time.

Long ago.

After 10000 years, would the stories tell of a Great Defender? Or would he simply be a cautionary tale to tell future Terrans?

Did Terra stand still?

Dorn’s hand clenched into a fist as he pulled away from the central console, giant form shaking in his armor.

It was, once again, too late to know the answer to that. His demise was waiting on the outskirts, waiting to see his face. He had no ability of some of his other Brothers to tell what would happen next.

He ignored the sudden wetness he felt stinging the corners of his eyes as he took steady breaths to calm the thrumming of his hearts and the pulsing of his blood as he retrieved Storm’s Teeth and headed to the exit.

Dorn did not look back as he left that central chamber that had served as his hold for millennia. He did not look back as he passed carefully created rows of metal sheetwork that had been intended to serve as additional shielding against forces that were not coming inside. He did not look back as the Thunderhawk’s discharging platform opened its maw to allow his full stature to exit the ship.

The dim light of a fading, dead sun struck him in the gray, bleak landscape; the towering walls of stone and dust, shaped like claws and teeth casted rudimentary shadows upon the ground. Yet even so, even in this space did his armor gleam its burnished copper and gold, wind whipping the faded red cloak behind him.

He took a step, Thud — muted sounds of his armor hitting the grainy and rocky dirt providing a sound, an echo in a space so devoid of life. Thud. Another shook the ground, dislodging the careful traps as Dorn stepped near them, knowing the path to tread like any other maze. Thud. The ground gave way and caved in beside him, dropping down to a several meter deep pit that would have entombed a normal Chaos space marine as another step Thud taken covered the cavern up with loosened boulders set to the side. One would fall in, another come to its aid which would have done nothing but loosen that next trap to crush. Thud. More of these types of traps became apparent the more he walked.

Interspersed between them: razor wire and the few mines that surely would have exploded unexpectedly—yet as Dorn walked by, his rhythmic steps echoing all the way—those mines went off in a controlled manner, small detonations announcing his approach, all of which he knew was broadcasted to his Brother.

Thud.

The ship was in the distance, the unkind gleaming ship that seemed a harbinger of what was to come.

Thud.

And closer still he walked, standing tall, standing proud, the final push of a man that wouldn’t go down easy no matter how resigned he had seemed to be on the ship. Thud. At this point there was nothing but solid ground, carrying himself nearer.

Nearer still.

Thud.

His gaze was hardened, face marred by a few scars and lined by well-groomed white sideburns and mutton chops leading to a beard that was hidden partially by the collar of his armor. In his right hand he carried that enormous chainsword, and to his left, nothing. The gauntlet was fashioned as normal, but with nothing to articulate its movements, it was rigid and stiff in comparison to the grip he held with the other.

Thud.

A hundred or so meters back from Perturabo’s ship, emblazoned with the crest of the Iron Warriors as they were now, Dorn finally stopped and waited.

 


 

Perturabo's single occupant ship landed without incident or fanfare, slowly coming to rest and then a halt before powering down in quick succession. There were no weapons readied, nor shields raised — though there was an obvious, strangely long delay after the craft went seemingly lifeless —  before at last, the door that sealed the hull opened with a hiss.

The ground below his massive armored feet shook with each resounding step, proof of the unfathomably heavy weight that held the Lord of Iron’s form, even when the ease in which he moved seemed to deny that very possibility.

For he was a reinforced bastion of steel, ceramite, and Iron. The embodiment of a living fortress and in many ways still reminiscent of a heavily modified yet completely modernized Cataphractii Terminator—his armor no doubt in some way still The Logos that he’d once crafted meticulously and painstakingly piece by piece, by hand so long ago and had worn in the days of the Heresy. Only now; it had undergone further modifications, or perhaps The Logos served as the blueprint for what he now wore — taken even beyond what had once been the most advanced piece of personalized tech in all the Empire.

His hulking bulk rested upon pressurized, mechanically augmented joints below those huge armored segments of that monstrous armor; gleaming in the dim light of the dying sun that radiated behind him, seeming nearly fearful to shine upon his mecha-daemonic form as it reflected weakly along shades of gleaming gunmetal gray and bronze. Lined with decorative tassels, embellished towering shoulder plates housed power generators and held dual rows of missile racks in triplicate; and between and below them rested the box-shaped central interface that supported two independently controlled laser cannons and gave protection far beyond what a simple helmet could provide.

From inside that square housing, wires and thick cables sprouted like a jungle of invasive black vines, all leading to interface points encircling and encroaching every available section of his skull, behind his ears and along his Black Carapace encased jawbone, that prosthetic added hinting to the possibility he’d run out of available space leading directly into his brain to support all the leads that were required to carry out the necessary functions of that armor — and that he'd had to resort to 'supplementary measures'.

His breastplate bore a mass of reinforced cables sneaking around from either side; most of which disappeared behind his back, yet the thickest two plugged into his chest, right above where his hearts were or—should have been if he still had them—the rest feeding directly into the dual rotating four-barreled cannons that were strapped to his gauntlets.

An embellished giant skull rested on his waist at the center of his tasseled belt, flanked on either side by front facing circular energy blasters, right above the modified chaingun barrels built into his leg plates and strapped to his thighs.

There was no part of Perturabo that was not both armored and armed, which was clearly and proudly displayed; and yet what he held in both hands was a gigantic melee weapon — understated in comparison by all the modern ranged weaponry he carried perhaps, but by no means anything less than the work of a Master of his craft — the fabled Forgebreaker.

And with it, he had made a clearly telegraphed statement that he had no intentions of simply fighting impersonally from a distance, should this situation come to blows so soon.

A stance he likely would have made anyway, but that decision was sealed the instant he’d watched Dorn so thoroughly and skillfully trigger his own traps in an obvious show of both honor and honesty. How completely and masterfully he’d guarded this barren, useless land; how gracefully he’d stepped both in and out of harm’s way, weaving a path behind him with a strength and determination that it made Perturabo’s system quicken and heat up to witness such magnificent artistry.

The anticipation was nearly at a boiling point as he took several slow, heavy paces forward.

 


 

At what point had Dorn stopped breathing as he watched that ship open with the sound of pressurized venting and whirring mechanical parts that announced the one now coming off of the ship, revealed in full splendor even at this distance?

Dorn was instantly reminded of the Terminator armor of old, yet this form too had an decidedly Perturabian twist in the design. But, he swore he could pick up the faintest representations of the original Logos Armor from times long since dead and gone.

In comparison, Dorn’s own panoply had not changed at all with the centuries that had passed, a hundred times over; with that dying light glinting over the eagle wings that adorned most of his armor, harkening back to the time he served the Emperor. Only the barest wear and tear could be seen. Even after all of this time, Dorn took immaculate care of his armor.

While Perturabo greatly enhanced his.

Even as he walked again, taking slow and lumbering steps forwards as he met that challenging stance head on, his movements were slower, as if he was taking in all of Perturabo’s form. For a man that hardly let emotions slip, there was a genuine expression of acknowledgement in his gaze.

Who knew if Perturabo could clock onto something like that from this far away.

Still, he showed it all the same, as Perturabo knew his craft well and it would take a blind man to not recognize that fact.

Even though his Brother was with Chaos now, he still looked mostly like the same Perturabo that he remembered, the same man he got into pointless squabbles with time and time again when Perturabo pushed his buttons just right.

His view swept over the Forgebreaker a moment later, drawn to it by the continued challenging stance. It was the sight of it that caused Dorn’s face to harden once more, not enjoying the implications one bit as to why Perturabo wielded that weapon.

It made the sensation of grief claw its icy talons over his aching hearts as he drew nearer, ever closer. This time he couldn’t shake it off entirely, even while his mind was still upon a set goal.

More and more of his outline was shown, just as much as more of Perturabo's was seen and witnessed in turn as the distance closed — and he stopped only when they were mere meters from one another, a gap that could be easily vaulted across in a blink of an eye, for either side.

Storm’s Teeth was lifted and levied in a similar manner, out in front of him — while Dorn’s eyes narrowed.

 


 

For all his mechanized processes and prowess, it was as if the cyborg monolith that was Perturabo came to a complete and utter halt. It mattered not in this moment what of his original body remained and what had been replaced, as it all simply stopped in biomechanical unison as he stared out with unwavering, unblinking eyes, witnessing the approaching glory that was Dorn.

His shrewd, enhanced vision scanned ahead but it was not with any analysis in mind, nor did he pay a bit of attention to the blipping, beeping and ever-expanding readouts that danced within the margins of his peripheral vision, so much data that only he could ever perceive it all; feeding him logistics and details that he paid no heed.

What organs and biological processes rested inside of that cold, unfeeling ironclad armor? None might know, and yet there was not one doubt that the entity protected below it felt; tremendously so — despite that answer possibly being that no biology remained at all, even though logically, this could not be.

For that eternal bitterness was still there; that wave of disparaging enmity and resentment that had been broadcasted openly when they had crossed paths within the labyrinths and fortresses of his mindscape. And just as it had been when Perturabo laid eyes on Dorn in that most opportune moment, when that wave of darkness rippled like a pebble cast into a pond, each vibration changed the quality of those feelings into something different — that while was no doubt still as abyssal, carried waves of pain beneath the roiling current.

Only this time, there was no sudden shutoff to disconnect Dorn from the backlash.

It was a complex wave of despair, complicated and knotted so thick with overlapping grudges, endless slights and perpetually building perceived moments of discontent; a state of permanent misery that was always added to and never subtracted from. And he carried it with him like a constant companion, even through the many millennia they had spent apart, not one single moment of disappointment or second of hurt Dorn had caused him—no matter how tiny—ever forgotten, and never forgiven. Yet every incident Perturabo had endured then was always left unexpressed, unresolved and thereby left to fester, now rising to the surface unbidden and unwelcome as he watched Dorn come ever closer at long, long last.

A surge of errant energy rippled through the cables that interfaced with his brain like lightning as he endeavored to shatter that void of despairing malice through the power of sheer will, to be replaced as he struggled to override that instability with something he could actually use.

Anger.

“Brother.” Perturabo growled out that simple word that was anything but simple, his voice unfathomably deep yet clear, with a metallic tinge that was now confirmed to truly come straight from his own lips.

 


 

While his sword arm remained aloft, directed in Perturabo’s direction, Dorn studied what he could of the man that he called Brother. Ever as always, even after so long apart, he could feel those roiling emotions that emanated from Perturabo in a clinging, miasmic way.

The bitterness, the rage, the animosity left to rot and fester to a completely new crescendo of loathing.

There was something else, however, Dorn could feel it, a flicker of something barely underneath the surface as his body dumped more adrenaline in his system, the precursor to the all too familiar fight-or-flight response.

Yet Dorn was not fleeing, he remained resolute to the spot.

His finger remained off of the trigger of Storm’s Teeth, wielding the gigantic weapon with practiced ease that suggested that Dorn had not forgotten how to engage in combat despite being long out of anything that could constitute as genuine practice.

Such training never left his muscle memory.

Brother.” Dorn responded in a similarly curt way, just as he had done over the communications array. Just like before, his voice was low, strong, loud and echoing in this desolate world they both stood upon.

 


 

With the dimly glaring sun glinting off his ghastly silhouette and along the reflective alternating black and yellow diagonal stripes that decorated his armor as he moved, Perturabo revved into motion once more, still slowly; and not with any great aggression behind it — though it was openly expressed that this could change at the slightest provocation while he closed the distance as much as he could before crossing the broken earth between them would be a requirement, one huge, heavy armored boot resting precariously halfway over the edge of that craggy scar cut across the land.

But here Perturabo stopped, callous eyes boring aggressively down and into Dorn from above. He was not entirely the same as he had appeared in the vision where they had met as this construct—as transhumanist as it was—still retained far more of Perturabo than the abominable Chaos Engine that had been perceived in the Immaterium, which contained nothing human whatsoever beneath that gleaming black metal faceplate. Those eyes even so, in this form, were no longer the pale clear blue of the past — though if this new hostile red glow was due to cyber enhancements or Chaos corruption, was unclear. His skin was lifeless, pallid and pulled tight over wide, strong bones and hard features that were still as sharp as they had ever been, his face as if it had been created by craftsman's chisel against stone.

An almost lazy smirk tugged at his lip, and he shook his head derisively before standing to his full height while bearing the fullness of his massive weight on the leg furthest away. But even so, the patch of broken land below him was cracking in weak protest from the strain. It seemed he cared not one bit should it completely fall beneath him, however.

“It pleases me to see that your fighting spirit has not left you.” Perturabo remarked sincerely, yet he oddly did not simply charge into the fray as might have been expected of him now if not long before this moment. Instead, his stare now traveled over Dorn’s significantly shorter but incredibly strong form, sizing his opponent up for several long seconds before locking on directly onto Dorn’s face — with extreme intensity and undisguised interest as he carefully studied the changes that had come with age and the passing of time. “And that you… humored my wish to see you with my own eyes.”

 


 

As Perturabo stepped closer, Dorn remained as he was, letting his Brother be the one to finally close the acceptable gap between the both of them. Surprising to him, while Dorn continued to feel the weight of hatred emanating from Perturabo’s very being, he noted that there was none of the recklessness.

For now.

Despite that roiling rancor, it was increasingly evident that Dorn held none of the same sentiment, of rivalry or true hostility toward Perturabo. The blunt and to-the-point words and flat intonation he used were simply a product of how he conducted himself socially.

After all, there was no one that he hated more than himself.

In as much time that Perturabo gazed upon his face, Dorn had lifted his own to stare back, locking eye contact with that reddish, hellish gleam. Interest, Dorn picked up that emotion instantly.

The only reaction to that new bit of information was given only the slight furrowing of his brow.

Why was Perturabo… hesitating?

Was he hesitating?

It didn’t outright read in his body language or facial expressions, yet his Brother hadn’t charged in, much as Dorn had expected him to do so. Another deviation from the facts he clung to time and time again.

No matter, it would simply be another shift in his own calculations.

“The fighting spirit never leaves a Primarch, even against insurmountable odds.” Dorn responded, still evenly, still careful, and still remaining rooted to the spot as he was.

Though, the growing anticipation that now replaced the grief from earlier, set more and more of his heightened senses alight.

“It was a request easily fulfilled.”

He needed to remain focused.

 


 

“Certainly not. And especially not one as stubborn as you.” Perturabo remarked quickly; and though there had never been anything about him that could in any way be considered good natured even in the best of times, there was no mistaking the jest in that jab. It was commentary that was both factual and perhaps as close to humor as he could get — rather than outright insulting.

“Mm. Is that… so…” He said next, thick black eyebrows furrowing as he contemplated that last remark. He mulled things over for a moment, looking away as he considered what it was he was about to say.

Was it hesitation, or something else entirely that gave Perturabo pause?

After a long second, he looked in his Brother’s direction again, removing his left hand from its resting place atop Forgebreaker’s massive, long haft. And as soon as he was holding it single handedly, he tilted his wrist, allowing the warhammer’s incredible weight to pull it to the ground as he easily rested it against the jagged, cracked earth below his foot.

Gesture on his own end made, he now detailed his original, easily fulfilled request.

“Then would… you lower your weapon so that I might truly see you?”

 


 

For a split second, Dorn’s expression faltered, a similar shift that showed confusion underneath a normally stoned face complexion. Just as quickly as it showed through, his expression was back to that of a soldier. Hard and stern, as Perturabo actually looked away from him.

Paranoia began to creep up Dorn’s spine as he tried to analyze what his Brother’s game was in doing all of this, especially going so far as setting the Forgebreaker’s head to the ground.

What…?

“Very… well…”

Slowly blinking, Dorn carefully lowered his arm until his chainsword was angled diagonally towards the ground. Through the action, he straightened his posture tighter, pushing out his chest to look even larger in the armor he wore, never lifting his head further than he absolutely needed to.

 


 

Perturabo’s expression darkened as he watched Dorn give in further to his demands without argument. What a strange turn of events this was, as he’d never truly expected to see Dorn before him like this, even when he’d spoken to him after entering the planet’s atmosphere. Nor had he expected for him to meet up so easily, to go so far as to remove his helmet — and now, he’d moved that gigantic chainsword out of the way to give him an uninhibited view of what he'd traveled all this way in hopes of a single, fleeting glimpse of, whether that had been after Dorn had been brought down to the craggy ground beneath his feet in the wake of a ship’s blast, or knocked out cold — his helmet cast off in the impact or otherwise manually removed…

Of course, even as they were now, neither of them were defenseless, and neither of them thought such a thing. It was the principle of the matter, the way this had come to be in such an agreeable way and with little if any real hostility between them, despite the animosity they held toward one another.

Perturabo couldn’t help but wonder if Dorn truly did still have something up his armored sleeve despite there being no evidence of it. It all felt too convenient, too contrived, too simple.

But that didn’t stop him from taking exactly what he’d been given, greedy eyes scanning every detail of Dorn’s face, comparing it to the image he’d held in his head and updating both his mind and memory banks to commit the changes in perpetuity…

Time had surely weathered him, but if anything had truly left its mark upon that stalwart, stoic face it was despondency that had painted the broadest strokes upon his canvas. The additional facial hair and increased thickness of what had always been there, likely didn’t help matters in that regard. For he was still Dorn in every conceivable way but progressed further, with the boyish look he’d once held, now refined into a man instead. It was not at all unsuited to him.

“I hardly believed it was you. Perhaps I have an overly suspicious nature.” Perturabo grumbled out rather than saying anything that could have been misinterpreted as a thanks. “The ease in which you received me here did little to calm my algorithms, might I add.” Though the strong, proud and resolute stance his Brother had now taken was the most Dornian thing possible, and Perturabo grunted through his teeth at the sight. “In fact I might still harbor some doubts though such misgivings become… less likely with each passing second.”

 


 

Dorn settled into the newer stance that he had now adopted as he granted Perturabo unfettered access to gaze upon his face. The tension of muscles may not have been outwardly seen to viewing eyes, yet he felt like a tightly wound coil, ready to spring at the merest provocation thrown his way.

If Perturabo changed his mind from speaking to hitting, Dorn was ready to react, violently.

However, his Brother continued to speak, far more beyond cutting words and jabs against him. Perhaps it was simply the shock of facing one another after so long and this period of ‘niceties’ would not linger for too much longer.

Dorn felt compelled to speak in turn.

Starting short, curt and blunt, as always; yet speaking all the same.

“As I am well aware.” It wasn’t as if Dorn was any better, even now, that creeping sense of paranoia continued to slither up his spine, sending the smaller hairs on the back of his neck to stand on edge.

On the edge of a precipice.

Ready to fall.

“I have no more traps, nor are there tricks hidden behind false civility. The trenches were designed for your Warriors, if you had brought any with you, if at least to slow the advance and make our meeting as inconvenient as possible.”

Why had Dorn admitted all of that?

He reasoned, to himself, that it was one final chance to share the thought process in his mind as his searching stare dropped to Perturabo’s form once more, taking in the sights of each piece of armor, armament and augmentation.

“With only you…" He began as he shifted his gaze upwards once more, "…there was little use in sequestering myself away. I know your capabilities.”

There was a pause before he added, to account for the time long separated.

“Had known.”

 


 

“Of course.” Perturabo said offhandedly, but the bristliness he had displayed a moment ago was wiped clean as Dorn continued to speak, revealing all of his plans — or lack there of now that the situation was confirmed that they met one-on-one now with the same attitude; and without interruptions, without interference; as Warriors, as Brothers.

That was, surely, why Perturabo had come here alone. A fate that was decided the moment he’d fully confirmed that Dorn was truly alone on this dusty rocky, come what may; whether it end with a tense and fragile agreement or an all out fight to the death, this time was theirs and theirs alone. And should it come to the bitterest end; and should he somehow lose though that could never happen — he would have been perfectly content to let it come to such a conclusion with his entire Legion being left in a panic; to wonder what had happened in the incalculable time it would take him to drag himself up, battered and splintered, from the void and back to Medrengard. He’d let nothing stand in his way, and let no one know where Dorn was, even to his own detriment.

And especially not one single individual attached to the Iron Warriors or Dark Mecanicum. He would obliterate all of Medrengard himself before it came to that.

Yet somehow he was left more than a little surprised to learn that Dorn felt the same to some degree; that there would be nothing coming between them now, to the point of disabling his every contingency plan and forfeiting his last resort. While it could be said that Perturabo had come to the same agreement and willingly given up his advantages—and even might state such aloud if asked to plead his case here by some invisible judge—that wasn’t the truth. For the very construct that he had become was nothing less than a mobile siege force in full attendance, replacing entire sectors needed to stage a campaign; a machine not only built for waging entire wars — but for winning them, alone.

He’d not stoop to that level though, not with Dorn here, isolated and completely on his own — Perturabo would have simply wrought this place to naught but dust and ash without even bothering to land first, should he have felt that way; and exactly as every single soldier of his Legion would have salivated at the mere thought of and taken great pleasure in doing — should they ever learn of the Golden Treasure buried inside this useless speck of land.

Something that was his and his alone to stake his claim upon

An image, as darkly oppressive in context as it was from the lack of illumination flickered through the spaces in between them, unbidden and undirected…

 

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… of a spire of lifeless, cold panels flickering their tiny, glass encased lights in the oppressive darkness, barely casting enough brightness to light up the rows of black metallic dials and switches they served to indicate; and never enough to provide any true visual acuity to the area they occupied.

Hanging above them was an unidentifiable and indistinct figure concealed in the shadows but of an undeniably humanoid origin; unclothed, suspended from the ceiling, dangling from and entwined by snaking coils of cords and wires serving not their intended technological purpose, but used as ropes — hopelessly binding the one resigned to be trapped in their grasp. The perpetually overlapping, rubberized strands and segmented metal bands kept that unfortunate soul restrained and mostly immobilized — given only enough slack and freedom of motion to be moveable at a whim; manipulated to whatever end was deigned fit by the one who held all the power.


THE CONTROL.

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As quickly as it came, the nightmarish vision faded out; a brief glimpse into a realm best left untrodden and thankfully, temporary. Whatever it had been, Perturabo seemed entirely unbothered if not wholly unaware of its intrusion as his unnatural, resentful eyes stayed locked on Dorn’s face with an expression that remained unchanged the entire time. An expression that technically could only be described as passionless; emotionless — yet it was somehow caustic all the same, hot with a burning fury beneath that cold metal form, so detached from the situation that it was rendered to little more than concept — a emotional distinction that more likely to be felt than seen, something that might be intrinsically known, yet with no evidence to possibly prove it.

Just like the strange vision that had descended upon this once-still plane.

“Do you truly know what I am capable of, Dorn?” Perturabo asked flatly as his glare continued to drill into Dorn’s face with obsessive vitriol — never blinking, never breaking; as if he were simply too greedy to give up a single moment of the view.

 


 

At some point, all of Dorn’s motions had simply stalled, any movement was ultimately from the atmospheric forces and winds that lightly pushed past that faded red velvet cloak. He stood like a bulwark after the words spoken, waiting to see what would come next in this dangerous game they were playing with one another.

One move.

And then another.

And another.

What Dorn could never had expected, however, was to be drenched in a sensation wholly different than that simmering friction below the surface that was waiting for just the right spark.

In the time it took for him to flick his gaze to something unseen, his mind was assailed by that strange vision, not unlike what he had picked up on when he first made contact with his Brother by pure happenstance. No matter how quick it had come and gone, the imagery was seared into his mind’s eye.

Without understanding the why, Dorn felt his body heat up within his armor, and the body glove that wrapped around his form seemed stifling for a couple of nano-seconds further still, while his subconscious had picked up on the vision’s meaning far before his physical body had wanted to even consider it.

His dark gaze flicked onto Perturabo’s face, reading the cold and calculating expression there that betrayed nothing. Dorn’s brows furrowed a second later yet he miraculously continued to hold the stance he was in without a moment of wavering.

What was that?

Whatever it had been, Perturabo was not reacting to it in any manner that he could pick up on.

The following seconds, while his thoughts caught up after that whiplash, Dorn felt endorphins mixing with the adrenaline flushing through his entire body, further encouraging that stifling feeling. All the while his hearts seemed to beat faster than before, as if he was far more keenly anticipating…

Something.

There was an ever further tense pause, letting the situation fester even longer as he carefully found the words he wanted to speak next. “As you stand before me, as the man that you are now…” Another pause, quicker resolved this time, but one all the same as he continued to fixate his attention onto Perturabo’s face.

Though even there, he found his gaze trailing along one of the meandering cables that Perturabo did not have the last time they had seen each other. “…I would say no, I am unaware of what you are truly capable of, Perturabo.” He admitted to the lack of intel on his side.

No contact with the wider network.

How could he ever hope to know?

 


 

Perturabo’s perpetual stare devoured the sight, ravenously; of Dorn, his steadfastness, his grandeur — so noble his countenance—somehow—despite taking so many blows to his pride, despite all that weighed him down and threatened to crush him, even now. Despite knowing that he had all but given up only minutes ago, Perturabo could so plainly see that he still maintained his honor and even during what seemed to be surrender, he truly intended to carry this out to the bitter end if that was the only option he had left. To not go down without a fight no matter how futile the situation and without even relying on his fortifications which in all fairness, was his specialty.

That series of realizations set a jolt through Perturabo’s system, igniting something within him so complex he wasn’t even sure how to categorize it, but it was thoroughly excited — laced with flurry of synthetic chemicals that set flesh and metal alike into gear.

In that moment he understood something he’d known all along but had never formed into a complete concept until witnessing Dorn without his fire, no matter how brief. No matter how desperately and thoroughly he wanted to crush Dorn beneath his feet countless times over the many years, it would only have meaning when his rival was fighting back. And not even simply that, but giving it his all. Only then would Perturabo be satisfied. Perhaps even his own willingness to resort to any means necessary had robbed him of that glory — but that hadn’t mattered as they’d been interrupted anyway, back then. That was corrected now. There would not be so much as a single son of either side on the battlefield, this time — and no intruders.

This was truly, entirely personal.

There wouldn’t even be any witnesses to applaud his victory and it caught him entirely off guard to realize that didn’t matter at all, though he would have sworn it vital, once.

And he didn’t want Dorn to simply surrender. He wanted Dorn to submit.

His tongue darted over his lips at the mere thought… to see that regal form on his knees in front of him in capitulation, begging for mercy; brought down in defeat, finally acknowledging him and giving him the recognition he deserved.

Something that would never come easily.

Most surprisingly, despite all the things that came to his mind now, he felt what he’d said over the communication channel — down to his soul, his very iron core. He did not wish to actually kill Dorn, not in the slightest.

In fact, his death would have resulted in the hollowest of all victories…

Perturabo flashed a bitter smile of scorn as he witnessed handsome features darkening as Dorn mulled something over he could not begin to guess, but he surmised it must have related to this situation in some way — though he certainly misjudged the true predicament he was in. After all, Perturabo himself had only begun to understand it, now. And he was the one that held all the true initiative.

“Indeed.” That smile deepened but it was nothing pleasant; and yet the challenging nature simmering below the surface was not entirely malicious. Hostile, certainly. Malcontent, without doubt. But there was a distinct lack of the one thing that had driven the entirety of their last clash — the desire for finality, of death as the means to settle the score.

“Then let us fight, you and I. It is what you clearly want, and I do as well. Brother against Brother, man against man. No armies, no meddlers. And as you have both humored my wishes and fully disarmed your stronghold willingly, I meet your efforts with a similar pledge. I will not fire rounds upon you unless you provoke it.” Despite the inorganic qualities of his unnerving, mechanized voice, the passion that shook within his words and the fervor he delivered them with was entirely human.

“This is not a siege, not this time. No strategy, no long drawn out contracted plans. This is not war but combat, pure and straightforward. Let us see which of us is the strongest, not a battle of wits this time but a battle of wills.” His deep set glowing red eyes narrowed as he glowered down with openly displayed bravado.

“And I shall I trust you have not lost a bit of your edge, Rogal Dorn.”

 


 

There it was.

Words accompanied by that smile that didn’t reach those crimson eyes that gleamed brightly in his direction, appraising and devouring him in such a manner that gave Dorn a strange sensation. Pushing that aside, however, this is what Dorn had been expecting from the very moment that they heard one another over the communications array.

Dorn clung to the knowledge of that meeting, instead of whatever it was that he had been made privy to only seconds earlier, at the complete obliviousness from the man that had caused such a vision to assail him in the first place. Was he aware? Did it matter if he was or not?

Ignoring that now, they stood on that precipice of battle, making all the adrenaline that had been dumped into him and keeping him hyper aware of their surroundings, all the much more worth it.

Nothing would get in between them. No legions, no sons, no Brothers… No reinforcements, nothing but themselves and what they brought to bear. If he were to die here, then it was just as well, chasing something he had been seeking since the incident at the Iron Cage no matter how many others amongst his ranks had felt satisfied by the outcome.

It wasn’t satisfying for Dorn.

In stark contrast, now, only the coming battle mattered.

Not… whatever else he was being subjected to feel, even long after the remnants faded. Try as he might, he could not purge the forbidden knowledge from his head. A dangerous distraction.

Gritting his teeth and straightening up, Dorn lifted his weapon, finger resting alongside the trigger as he took his stance with renewed vigor as this fresh wave of anticipation pulsed through him. His other arm was poised at his side, waiting to be used in whatever handicapped measure he could seek for it to take.

What more was to be said to his Brother’s words?

As it was, a wry smile finally broke through the callous stoicism as he barked out a challenge to Perturabo across the gap, waiting for the first move to be made while his voice bounced off the rocky surfaces.

“Then come, test your might against me, Brother and we shall see who emerges victorious.”

 


 

Perturabo bristled from the exhilaration of an adrenergic storm that shot through his entire body as the situation registered; that this unexpected and thoroughly unlikely tournament not even conceived until today was about to become reality—a fight for the ages; right here, right now—a genuine clash of titans of massive proportions was truly coming to pass and with a purity of intent between them that he’d never once thought possible. To fight simply to fight, to pit themselves against each other for nothing more than the sake of determining who would win; for sport.

Had there ever been anything conceived that was more true to the genuine nature of a Primarch?

And it would unfold for no greater purpose, for no audience but themselves and with nothing to prove to anyone but each other, they would trade blows in the middle of absolutely nowhere, where even the planet they stood upon would not be missed — likely not even noticed should it crumble to dust and vanish into obscurity in the aftermath.

He knew that no matter how it ended, it would be legendary; a battle worthy of being recorded and remembered for all time, should anyone have the privilege of witnessing them. But no one would. No one else was welcome here.

Shockingly, instead of feeling slighted by this unusual turn of events he felt selfishly and self-righteously satisfied in the ability to be able to keep such a monumental thing entirely private, even if that meant he would have no bragging rights to claim in the end no matter how great his victory may be.

That was fine. No, more than fine. This… this opportunity, just as it was, so intimate — was far more precious.

He was completely bewildered by how wonderful it all felt as this situation was in all ways flying in the face of the very principles they’d both seemed to uphold once, regarding terms of combat and the rules of engagement.

His only regret was that he’d not been able to erect a grand coliseum worthy of housing such a historic fight. But no matter, it would doubtlessly have been crushed into gravel in no time anyway.

With a raucous, metallic laugh and feeling as though he’d been injected with combat stims despite it being an entirely natural high, Perturabo sprung into action. He raised that massive warhammer with such ease that it almost belied its true mass, much as his movements did once there was purpose driving him forward.

The hulking monstrosity of metal and cables that was Perturabo took to the air as easy as a thought, and with a quickness that no one could have anticipated from such a hateful, calamitous thing he closed the gap that both physically and metaphorically once separated them — but no longer.

Surely, he was far slower than he could have been should he have sacrificed even a part of his cumbersome mass for agility but such had never been Perturabo’s way, but the reimagined Neo-Logos still moved far faster than any mortal eyes could have hoped to track.

With a great and thunderous yell, Forgebreaker was brought down in a lumbering, slow, double fisted overhead swing, aiming straight for that huge embellished chainsword that had been all but burned into his memory from days long past — his initial move intentionally easily predicted and parried; delivered in an act of ritual, the physical consummation of their verbal challenge; the opening ceremony breaking ground for the Olympian feats to come.

Despite being anything but for such a long time, Perturabo didn’t know if he’d ever felt more alive.

Chapter 3: H.U.B.R.I.S.

Summary:

Is there any victory that is not hollow in a match that is at its very essence, unfair?

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text


 

Beyond his issued challenged hanging heavy in the air between them, Dorn said nothing more as his expression hardened further, pulling to mind the idea of a well-coordinated and trained soldier.

The severe expression did not hide a telling glint in Dorn’s hazel eyes, pupils constricted to fine points as he kept all of his senses trained onto Perturabo.

While he might not have all the augmentations to give readouts and data directives planted in his skull, that wouldn’t have mattered anyway as he thoroughly engrossed himself in witnessing his Brother in full splendor without hindrance.

Just the two of them.

No matter who would be the victor, if he were to die today, it didn’t feel akin to a weak-hearted acceptance of finality. The grief and sheer magnitude of the depression that consumed his hearts and soul like a ravenously hungry void was replaced by the surge of new emotions.

Finally he had an external force to contend with that would serve as his judge, jury and executioner.

As Perturabo moved in a speed that outright defied gravity despite his hulking form, Dorn didn’t bother to hide that he had a measure of interest in just exactly what it was that Perturabo was capable of.

This was a chance to learn something new.

In a quick motion, Storm’s Teeth was brought up, blade turned to catch the head of the maul against a few of the sharp teeth of his chainblade. His other arm was brought to up to mitigate that first blow. The impact between both forces was loud, sending a shockwave of dust and debris around them from the sheer concussive force of first contact.

Additionally, the ground shattered under their combined weight meeting at one point, sending gravel and dirt up and away and as he held this stalemate for all but a few seconds, his gaze locked onto Perturabo’s red eyes, something brief flickering behind that forceful stare.

In a movement that defied all mortal senses, his left arm pulled back at the same time that his right index finger caught the trigger mechanism of Storm’s Teeth. It whined and whirred to life, catching onto Forgebreaker and sending sparks flying as the force pushed the other weapon up and off the blade.

If it had been any other armament, surely the Teeth had all the potential to tear through. Instead, Dorn turned his wrist to continue the momentum of eventually dragging the maul away by the gripping hooks alone as Dorn pushed off to the side opposite the momentum of the Perturabo’s initial swing.

The ground continued to be pulverized under the heavy movements made as Dorn’s own motions became heightened and quick; an alarmingly stark contrast to the lumbering steadiness that he had revealed when coming down the veritable minefields.

As soon as his blade was free in another shower of sparks, he swung those whirring teeth towards Perturabo’s side.

 


 

Blistering, synthetic alkaline coursed through Perturabo's engineered form in an electrifying rush of fluids delivering potency to both flesh and Iron alike as the thrill of combat overtook him. Not even the deliberate technicity he had all but been consumed whole by, was enough to hold back the instincts of a Primarch in the throes of battle.

All the more heightened by the challenger being a Brother; his own kind — the only kind of truly worthy opponent in all existence to face in a one-on-one engagement.

And then it crested further still into a state of near delirium, distilled into a dangerously intoxicating mixture by the simple fact that it was Dorn that stood before him, so resolutely withstanding his force like the bastion of defense that he was.

But that did not mean that he was ever to be underestimated when he went on the attack; and Perturabo would never be so foolhardy as to forget that.

Reinforced joints heaved their pressurized hisses beneath the colossal strain of his motions when force collided with inertia, his system quickening the instant he felt that impressive and phenomenal strength, the very husk of the planet they clashed upon giving way before Dorn himself did — and despite the fact that he’d had size, mass and gravity on his side, that stronghold of pure defiance…

did not give. That feeling set his every wire and nerve electric.

The screens that lined his peripheral vision blinked and blared and screeched their analyses; their logistics; their warnings — yet Perturabo gave them no heed as every bit of his concentration and focus was boring straight down into those eyes that were every bit as clear he as remembered them, despite the low light of a dying, burnt out sun. Red gleaming intensity was unbreaking even as he twisted with the motions of a whirring chainsword that pulled his centrally positioned strike into a glancing one, and he followed it through without resistance, moving with Dorn rather than against him.

The orange-hot sparks that showered them like the exhaust from a blowtorch grew in number as motorized teeth met the dense, blunt head of his warhammer for a second time; and with great dexterity came a swing that took Perturabo by fascinated surprise.

Time had not taken a bit of Dorn’s prowess — of that Perturabo was sure already, regardless of the obvious age that had settled on his face. To his delight, the flesh had not yet failed him.

That swing was coming far too fast for Perturabo to possibly maneuver Forgebreaker into a feasible parrying position in time, but he still had an ample span to see it coming and block by other means. He raised a gigantic leg, joint rotating on its axis; and he deflected the swing as chainsword met chaingun, the blade hitting the immense barrel with a high pitched shriek of metal sliding against metal before the sound gave way to the dull, hungering noises of a revving chainblade chewing savagely into empty air.

The sparks rained overhead, as did the disturbed crusts of the wounded earth that sagged and groaned weakly beneath the force of the two giants battling upon its marred surface, the fissure widening as pieces broke away and fell into the gaping maw below.

 


 

Every single sense of Dorn’s was set afire, the faintest embers that had been low and dormant had sparked a renewed fervor through his veins, his mind and even down to his very soul.

He needed this after so many millennia of solitude, to feel what it meant to be alive again instead of deteriorating through stagnation and stillness. His body, now a weapon once more, now the weapon he knew he could be — just as much as it was a shield.

He was in the fray, the meat of the battle; with no one that he needed to command, no lives he needed to oversee.

None but his own.

There was an elegance in his motions, in his actions, that seemed to be a far cry beyond what he could and should have been capable of in his drive to seek what tide this battle would turn to.

Dorn watched as he turned his head in the time that he relegated his chainsword to strike to Perturabo’s side. He watched and reveled at the belated turn from his Brother, even if Perturabo ultimately managed to deflect.

The shower of sparks over his body, lighting up the harder parts of his face was a welcome rain, precursors of what was to come. Despite himself, or perhaps due to having only one other man as his witness, Dorn let out a short rumbling laugh, eyes going wide to drink in the sight.

Storm’s Teeth bit and gnawed into the chaingun and Dorn revved the instrument of destruction in his hands, searing and gouging into the metal as it gave way to be consumed by his forceful strike.

As soon as he pulled the blade free, he planted his foot into the ground and shoved off, adding another crack of rock under his feet in his motion to maneuver three-quarters behind Perturabo.

 


 

Perturabo could feel the strain—the vibrations, the destruction—rippling against his heavily armored leg plate as Storm’s Teeth chewed through and mangled the barrel of the huge oversized chaingun installed into the cuisse of Neo-Logos; as if that enormous, bespoke weapon meant for a Daemon Primarch that he had forged himself from reinforced Medrengardian metal — was nothing more than cheap plasticine.

It shouldn’t have been possible, any other chainsword surely condemned to spit its teeth out in defeat like a weak, defanged dog for such an attempt—and yet he was neither surprised nor unhappy to witness that chaingun's immediate deactivation, despite all the time and care he’d put into creating it.

He saw what was going to happen next well before it did, telegraphing the result as he was watching those graceful movements that carried Dorn away from him like waves crashing against the shore. Yet there was nothing he could do about it as Dorn’s swiftness and size gave him the advantage of maneuverability, and Perturabo knew it.

And so he did not even try an evasive action when Dorn so tactically moved to position himself behind him, knowing that would have been a futile waste of energy. Ultimately clumsy; inefficient. Instead, the Lord of Iron waited; not in hesitation, not in resignation — but in anticipating the perfect moment to launch his counter attack.

As Dorn had begun to slip fully out of sight, Perturabo clenched his fist, raised his arm to chest level and thrusted his elbow back with all his might. With great straining; shaking, the perfectly still Colossus moved as if a mountain had suddenly come to life with the reverberant groan of metal and puffing of pressurized joints. The raw strength behind his muscles—augmented by electro-motivated fiber bundles far thicker than those of any power armor of any distinction ever worn within the Imperium of man—used to full potential.

Yet that was not the actual attack he attempted to land, the initial move serving as both a misdirect and a means to gain more momentum as his shoulder was pulled into the maneuver as well; and he leaned back as he followed it through to the discordant tune of his gargantuan spine flexing, fully trusting that one of the tremendous triplicate missile arrays, one of his laser cannons or some other of his many peripherals — would connect no matter where Dorn had positioned himself.

 


 

As Dorn moved into his new position from around Perturabo, deliberately using his opponent's size against him, his attention was brought to his Brother's heavily armored and decked out legs.

Reading the situation and taking a moment to try and get a visual cue on some sort of weak point, was a fruitless endeavor as he couldn't find anything.

To be expected. He was fighting Perturabo, after all.

That didn't mean he wouldn't make his own way to reveal chinks in armor, though as his mind quickly came up with the next course of action, he saw the elbow coming against him, heard the whirring of mechanics and the creak of armor…

Another split second and the direction he moved to get out of the way was the wrong one as as he quickly smashed into by one of the larger units upon Perturabo's shoulder.

It had been a flip of the coin.

If not for masterful bracing, he might have even been brought to the ground. No, instead, he locked his legs and bore the weight of what was crushing down on top of him, turning his body so he could remain steady.

The ground cracked again but he did not, even as parts of his armor groaned in protest from the sheer weight. Forgebreaker had been one thing, but Perturabo’s mechanized and enhanced suit thoroughly dwarfed it.

 


 

Perturabo was exultant upon feeling the satisfying crash that rebounded though every part of his bionically augmented form, proof that his maneuver had landed squarely where desired; elated further still as he heard the satisfying accompanying sound of Dorn’s armor creaking under the extended force.

But then, he also heard a distinct, complete lack of that chainblade’s belt feeder and grinding motor, wagering that more than simply biding his time, Dorn was momentarily stunned or at least caught off guard and vulnerable as a result — though it would be a brief window of opportunity at best.

Not that it likely mattered much outside the potential loss of any more peripherals as there were no weaknesses remaining in the Neo-Logos’ design; of this he was sure as he had poured all of his passion and effort into refining and perfecting it over many long years. Still, he was not going to let himself become distracted by conceit just to test Dorn in order to see if that enormous chainblade he wielded could even scratch his armor.

Perturabo had something far different in mind now.

Forgebreaker was cast to the dry dirt below, though he was careful to catch it with his leg and brace it there beneath his foot, lest Dorn try to wrest it away from him. A risk, perhaps, to deal with later but for now he absolutely needed his hands free. A filthy, bitter, mechanized cackle echoed deeply in his throat as he nearly salivated at the notion of what he intended.

He’d been avoiding relying on his highly advanced system auto-senses all this time, in part because Dorn had no such capabilities and that was his doing by causing him to leave his helmet behind—and though that had never been his goal in asking to see Dorn’s face—it might have seemed like a deliberate ploy now. The other reason was that for once, there was something worth seeing with his own eyes rather than through glowing screens of logistical readouts for the first time in eons.

However in this moment, he used those screens to see where his eyes could not, gaze staring straight ahead into green panels flashing their targeting reticles and spatial readouts as he bent back nearly to the limit of his flexibility as connectors protested and articulators squealed; the capabilities of the gyroscopic stabilizers that anchored him to the ground extended to the absolute maximum. And the tremors that rippled beneath them both were in certain warning that the very ground beneath their feet was nearly pushed to the limit as well…

Relying on the stabilization rods that reinforced his breastplate to keep him upright, he thrusted both massive arms out, the curving bandoliers strapped to the Abominable quad-barreled cannons mounted on his gauntlets whipping around them as titanic hands reached out to make purchase on those shoulder plates barely within reach.

 


 

There was the sound of a grunt behind Perturabo as the weight continued to mount the pressure against him, beginning to strain the limits of his burnished armor that had been out of use for quite some time, and — likely was a far more antique set of armor in this new millennia he was removed from.

Yet, it still held, despite it all, though Dorn knew it was due to how well his armor had been made.

Had it been a standard-issued power armor suit, he had no reason to disbelieve the idea that such armor would be completely crumpled by now, becoming his tomb in whatever position he had the misfortune of being crushed into at the time…

It was all he could do to prevent that outcome himself.

Little by little, bit by bit, the ground continued to snap and crack under the two Primarchs as an unstoppable force met an immovable object.

A second later, Dorn picked up on the sound of something hitting the dusty ground yet had no manner of finding out what it had been as his entire focus was on preventing Perturabo from bringing him to the ground as he was forced to take the barest half-step backwards.

Quickly, his gaze flicked around his immediate vicinity yet at the moment that he thought about taking the most strategic maneuver to get out of this situation, he felt those enormous hands grasp at his shoulderplates, grabbing winged aquila motifs; the sound of Perturabo’s heavily armored gauntlets scraping against golden auric-adamantium so harsh it could deafen mortal men.

For Dorn, however, it was only a sound — an unpleasant one, but a normal sound of combat all the same.

But it likely also meant a losing bout. Having more mobility meant nothing once caught.

With his shoulders grasped, Dorn did not dare drop Storm’s Teeth, instead bringing the chainsword up as an almost makeshift shield. One hand grasped the hilt while the other ‘hand’ was pressed against the side of the blade. Dorn gritted his teeth, eyes still wide as he pushed hard against the absolute mass of his armored Brother, attempted to weaken the grasp of the over-extended Lord of Iron.

 


 

The wailing clamor of Medrengard enriched ceramite scraping and gouging against auric-adamantium as his huge encased fingers struggled to find greater purchase was a horrific, ear-splitting sound — and like music to his keen ears, though it genuinely was wholly unpleasant. But he took satisfaction in hearing it all the same, as it served as substantiated evidence of their battle; proof that he’d actually put his hands on Dorn despite not being able to see it, creating a rare circumstance that defied logic in which he once again found the mundane more satisfying and genuine than the superiority of the factual, hyper-detailed streams of data that were being fed directly into his mind.

One thing that he could find no argument to the contrary to, was that this was a far more intimate conclusion in settling their score than a siege could provide. Though it seemed that even this more primitive method would not be entirely devoid of strategy as he watched though the feeds as Dorn mounted a quick defense, using his gigantic chainblade as a wedge to maintain distance between them and prevent himself from being crushed by the mechanistic behemoth precariously hovering above him.

It was infuriating, exhilarating and thoroughly unacceptable that Dorn’s evasive methods were working, a rush of spiteful malignity coursing through Perturabo as he felt those immense, broad pauldrons slipping out of his clutches; teasing him as they were so close yet falling beyond his reach…

Dorn was so absurdly strong—as he was proving undeniably as the distance between them frustratingly widened against Perturabo’s wishes—and seemingly without any additional augmentation outside of what his power armor may have provided. In a suit that was as vintage as it was nostalgic to lay eyes upon, classically Dornian but outdated regalia he was all too familiar with, leading Perturabo to the determination that the unshakable might he felt was Dorn’s and Dorn’s alone — as if he were a being forged from pure tenacity and endless stubbornness.

His stature, while making him nearly the shortest of all the Primarchs never truly put him at any disadvantage, as if his height simply granted him the innate ability to sustain that natural power from a state of greater density, which fascinated Perturabo. At least, when it did not anger him as it did, now.

As he felt Dorn’s armored shoulders fully fall from his grasp, Perturabo let out a loud, malcontent groan, but instead of giving up on his plans entirely he rotated his wrists out and reached from a new angle that was more up than out, those former harsh, discordant noises returning but in a new tonal ‘quality’ as his encased fists gripped that enormous, extravagant aquila that rose from the back of Dorn's armor, the one detail that had always felt as if it were taunting him the most.

And the instant that he managed to get a solid hold upon those auric wings, he pulled with great vigor as he began to rise from his bent posture in a singular motion, not about to let that test he’d considered earlier commence by Dorn managing to pull the trigger while that chainblade was so near to many of his vital auxiliary cables — and pressed against his armor above his spine.

 


 

The sheer strain of pushing against the massive bulk of metal was steadily becoming more than what Dorn knew his armor could take. Whatever augmentations and armor enhancements that Perturabo had undergone, it was showing the superior might of evolution.

It didn’t mean his armor was worthless, far from it, but it meant new strategies would need to be implemented with a passing but very brief thought to wondering if there might be a way to augment his armor in the future.

Never in a similar manner to what Perturabo had undergone with Logos however.

A thought for another time; a thought for if he ever managed to get off this planet.

The victory of finally pushing his Brother off of his shoulders was shattered as massive arms went up and over his head and onto the rising symbol on his back. His eyes widened as Perturabo moved like a taut spring, ready to snap forward.

He felt the brace against the ground loosen as he was lifted.

 


 

Perturabo didn’t need to check the panels in front of him to know that he’d succeeded this time; as the heft of his already tremendous arms was instantly far, far heavier — connectors groaning their inharmonious discontent as ceramite scraped and joints struggled, the sounds made throughout this endeavor disturbingly heavy and unsteady, as if a fractured tower was nearing its inevitable moment of collapse. It was a sound of warning, of impending calamity; echoed in the sounds made by the crumbling away of rocks and the sliding of earth as the ravine gashed into the planet’s surface continued to widen from the strain.

It was not sustainable, not for him nor the planet, but none of this would matter for much longer.

For in an alarming feat of biomechanical strength, Perturabo hefted Dorn into the air by using that aquila in his grasp as a fulcrum, pairing velocity with acceleration as he swung that Golden Citadel overhead, letting go at the point of greatest leverage before immediately taking into the air in pursuit. It all happened so quickly; more so than anyone would have imagined possible for such a hulking mass of metal and wires to accomplish — but now it was thought that controlled Perturabo’s mechanized motions rather than engines as the Neo-Logos was in an incredibly short-lived chase gaining enough on his target to extend over him from above.

And then, as he leered down at that target with misplaced and sinister joy, Perturabo brought them both thundering to the ground with unrelenting force, the impact from the blow of their combined masses so monumental that the resulting shockwaves were as if an earthquake now tormented the wounded planet’s surface.

Dust and dirt sprayed all around them in the aftermath of the impact caused when Dorn’s back was brought to bear down into the land like a hammer with a sickening crack of fractured earth, crags and hairline fissures immediately spreading across the devastated ground away from the source of the collision in a radial pattern.

 


 

It was a wholly unfamiliar sensation, to feel his entire bulk being lifted off of the ground as Perturabo’s armored hands found an even tighter purchase that facilitated the lifting of the full weight of both himself and his armor combined.

As the speed of the launch accelerated himself upwards, the momentum carrying Dorn higher, the grip on Storm’s Teeth tightened further as he felt those massive hands abruptly letting go. Yet, before he could even twist or turn or prepare himself to roll onto the dusty dirty ground below, he heard the sound of Perturabo following after.

Rapidly.

What Dorn saw above him with inhuman, glowing red eyes cause him to bristle, that sickening sensation causing his hair to stand on end. Perturabo moved fast when he had the upper hand, so much so that it was a Emperor-damned marvel at just how well his Brother maneuvered despite all of that extra bulk.

And then came the impact, Perturabo’s form colliding with his own in mid air and sending him down rapidly like a bolt from a gun. The sheer splitting crack of the earth was deafening as the crater around them belatedly exploded in a pile of debris.

The impact smashed his arms into the dirt, trapping them under Perturabo and sending Storm’s Teeth flying out of his grasp by sheer inertia alone, the weaponry striking and biting into stone, sinking it in place. All the while Dorn contended with the sheer weight of his armored Brother atop of him.

The back of his head had hit the rough terrain and aquila alike as his auric-adamantium armor held more noises of protest. A sharp breath was inhaled as he took in Perturabo in his view, which had him sputter and cough very briefly, pain and blood blooming from behind his head, staining bone-white hair as much as the bloodied spittle from his mouth stained his facial hair.

In the following seconds, Dorn tried to find purchase, anything to allow him to move and shove Perturabo off of him if he could only get a limb free.

 


 

While the crumbling debris swirled around them, each aftershock and vibration felt like a victory to Perturabo; and upon seeing how perfectly they had landed with Dorn’s arms so fortuitously pinned between them, massive robotic hands were upon Dorn before he had an opportunity to recover, pressing those auric pauldrons he’d tried to grasp before into the craggy earth with his tremendous weight now working to his benefit as he pushed in with all his bulk and all his might to keep Dorn from getting away.

As Perturabo stared down at Dorn’s face the malice that was there—had always been there—took on a new unsavory quality roiling beneath the surface as his glance trailed down to Dorn’s mouth, hostile cyberdaemonic eyes practically lighting up as something had captured his attention for a second that dragged out for far too long.

A smile rested on his lips, ruthless and inhuman; forming an expression that while devoid of compassion was not lacking in depth of feeling — though it likely would have been far better had it been. For all his enhancements; and despite rarely resembling anything truly living there was not one single doubt that whatever choleric blackened core of animosity it truly was that pulsed in his chest now, he remained all too human, though perhaps only in the worst ways possible. A Primarch turned into a near-Dreadnought state; corrupted, ruined — every bit as much the primal embodiment of rancor as he was a living schematic of the most advanced Abominable heretek technology. Hellspawned cyborg; a hideous fusion of man, machine and daemon combining into a blasphemous monolith of Chaos.

And it was furious.

Now more than any time ever before, with him glowering over Dorn and glaring his festered resentment into the dark, soulful eyes below, he transmitted infinite wordless confirmations that these dire grudges driving his actions had always been personal and were projected with laser precision upon a very specific target.

A tiny trickle of moisture formed at the corner of his mouth, rolling down his chin as he reveled in his superior position, obsessive gaze also possessing an air that was disturbingly hungering.

 

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The strange phenomenon from before instantaneously returned in high definition crystal clarity; a digital wave of oppressive binary backlash that had more qualities of a holographic readout than anything that could be defined as mystical or astral, though there was no longer any doubt whatsoever that this horrific glimpse came from the bowels of the Immaterium.

The spires and columns of a virus corrupted mechafortress straight out of a ruined depiction of Hades dominated the blackened, ashen sky; the view of a death world turned factory spewing its pollution and charred embers into the atmosphere — a terrifying place that no man should ever dare to tread; that should not even be allowed to exist, but it was no illusion. The image suddenly zoomed in at breakneck speed, like a tactical sensor coming into focus and locking on to an identified and summarily acquired target.

Deep within that bastion, iron-wrought hatefully into the very core of the planet itself, that cybernetic dungeon returned to view. The massive black cords that entangled and dominated that indistinct figure imprisoned in the darkness sprang to life as if they possessed not only the ability of motion but the impossibility of sentience; and they tightened around the humanoid silhouette with a greedy, violent possessiveness, as if they would rather crush the bones of that unfortunate victim to dust rather than ever let go. They snaked around each and every limb; the chest, the neck of whom they had claimed, their motions creating a rubberized siding noise from the pressure they imposed upon their captive—like many serpents slithering in unison—but they were not anything that could be accused of being organic; controlled not by a hivemind but a Mainframe.

The sleek, banded black metallic cables that had also been a part of that mechanism from before now appeared to curiously explore that figure so pitiably pinned there, as if that distinctly different part of the apparatus was always meant to perform a completely separate function; lesser in number but far more deliberate as the tips of those cold metal tendrils sickeningly moved like grotesque alien feelers, as if seeking something best left undetermined.

+--------------------+

 

Once again, that diabolical vision vanished as quickly as it came, as if the main power supply that fed it had been abruptly disconnected. And just as before, Perturabo seemed entirely unresponsive to it and unbothered by it — as if he’d neither witnessed its arrival nor its end.

But his expression had changed in the interim this time, not entirely different in tone than before but more extreme, his features wild, teeth bared; and what had once been but a trickle was now a stream as saliva dripped from his mouth, alluding to the possibility that he was not a technological marvel but an entirely different sort of behemoth; and little more than a slobbering beast…

At last he spoke; a deep, smoldering voice that shook from a barely restrained and impending overload, laced with mechanical hostility, each syllable slow and deliberately formed as he looked down upon the prey he’d waited for millennia to finally have trapped in his clutches at last.

At last.

“Shall I remind you up close… why they call me The Breaker?"

 


 

Disoriented and slightly dazed, Dorn felt the sensation of what he could only equate to panic rise in his gut, flooding through is bloodstream, only because he knew how dire the situation absolutely was with Perturabo on top of him, giving him no means of movement.

Those large hands upon his shoulders had shoved him deeper into the earth and the rest of his bulk meant that he couldn’t get any of his limbs free. Perturabo could most assuredly feel how Dorn writhed and squirmed underneath him, jerking his body in a futile attempt to free something.

All it amounted to was nothing and Dorn stared into that malignant gaze with a stern expression upon his countenance, teeth baring in a grimace as blood stained them.

A quick glance was given to the drool coming from Perturabo's mouth and—

The focused glare he had been sporting seemed distant for the split second as, much like before their fight, he was assailed by a vision with a much clearer picture than he had dealt with previously. Even as the figure remained completely indistinct, there was no delayed reaction this time as his mind seemed to provide sensation for what it was trying to conceptualize in real time.

The noise that was wrenched out of him was a deep grumbling groan while his blood pounded in his ears. No longer was pain the only sensation that Dorn was dealing with as his body seemed to react in a far more carnal way. Dorn’s breathing quickened, dual hearts elevating everything even further.

Dorn felt like he was going to burn alive as his mind unhelpfully supplanted his own armor with the armor of cables and wires undulating and pulsating along his trapped body, leaving him covered in a layer of sweat as he was forced to imagine just exactly how that may have felt.

With a racing pulse and desperate to get the sensation and vision out of his mind’s eyes, Dorn tried to lift up his head only a bit to simply slam it back into the dirt underneath him, smearing the blood into the debris and sending another sensation of pain down his body…

Then, like that, the vision was gone but not before wrenching something dangerously akin to a moan out of Dorn’s mouth with the additional sensation of what he had done to himself. Yet, now he was unable to shake off the other feelings that he had picked up before.

His vision began to sharpen once more and he saw that Perturabo really was drooling on him like some beast yet his Brother seemed none the wiser of Dorn’s newfound plight.

When Perturabo spoke, Dorn bunched up his hand into a fist though he couldn’t free it still. Next, he tried to bring his legs up, to bend them, to spread them, to move them to similarly no avail. Perturabo simply had too much of an advantage of weight and height on himself.

So, when Perturabo finished his question, Dorn didn’t respond beyond a strange noise and the inhalation of a breath before moving the one thing he could. His bloodied head that had been pressed upon the ground and parts of the golden aquila snapped forwards, mustering the last bit of his upper-body strength to try to headbutt Perturabo.

Defiant, even now when the outcome seemed all but assured.

 


 

His promethium fluids heated up within his supercharged daemon core as Perturabo basked in the gratifying exhibition that was Dorn’s moaning, frantic, futile struggling; saliva still dripping from his mouth and down his sharply angled chin as he let that panic, that desperation—that fear—emanating from his detested rival sink into him like a reverie.

That impossibly tough, stony little body rendered useless, so helplessly writhing and squirming beneath him; that unbreaking fortitude unable to aid him now — how fulfilling it was, and provided exquisite haptic feedback that made Perturabo want to take it so much further; to crush Dorn simply to feel him break inside that infuriating Imperial armor like an insect, collapsing in on himself as his both his outer armored shell and internal carapace gave in and proved his own truly superior might once and for all.

Lost in the intoxication of his own vainglory and a malicious debauchery that craved to do far more many types of things to Dorn than he would have ever wanted to admit to out loud, Perturabo panted steaming breath; as if he were an overheated engine attempting to vent that boiling heat and cool his excessive, consistently rising temperatures. But those actions were wholly illogical ones, anachronistic habits residually remaining in him that were nothing more than callbacks from a far earlier time that proved him—at least mentally—more man than machine in this moment.

His system was engineered to be entirely self regulating in this form and did not need any active assistance to operate not only functionally but optimally at all times; and he would never need to rely on such primitive and disgustingly organic measures anyway. It was disgraceful, to be brought to a state so repulsively animalistic yet to his bewilderment, he found that he did not care to regulate himself.

This was not malfunction, it was frenzy. Passionate, resentful, gloating and all too human.

And then, there it came. Rebuke for his imperfection. Retribution for his shortcomings.

For the moment it happened, he knew exactly what had caused this critical failure.

Hubris.

He was knocked out of his paroxysmic fantasies in tandem as he was knocked back from his position, the glowing green screens of his internalized tactical command center glitching out with a burst of discordant static as the one and only part of his entire body left vulnerable was assaulted.

His head. A weakness he was fully aware of and rarely if ever exposed by leaving unarmored — and should he opt to do so, even the original Logos’ build design of versions past had assured that it would be nigh impossible to land a blow there, the large structurally impenetrable casing large enough to protect him from any physical blows, and now, Neo-Logos had the additional protections of shields no physicality could ever hope to penetrate.

So why, why had he been leaning in closer, extending his neck so that his head was exposed and outside the protective casket that housed his brain and all of his most important components when he’d had Dorn so sublimely pinned down and at his mercy?

That was a vital question left entirely unanswered, cables rattling and swaying as their faces crashed with an ear-splitting crack, but that was not the only form such a well-timed and well-placed counter struck — as his forehead was bashed in unison and with savage efficiency as that cursed and infuriating auric aquila made direct and violent contact; completely stunning him for nanoseconds that while surely meant precious little hope for most anyone else, may have indeed provided a huge window of opportunity for one such as Dorn.

Blood; flaming red-orange hot as if it were magma yet curiously flecked with glistening metallic pale blue particles poured from his mouth, thinned by the copious oily secretions from moments earlier into a caustic, likely hazardous sludge. Broken skin oozed that same flaming substance from his battered forehead, dripping down and rolling off the black carapace extension hub that framed his jawline, the red indicator lights that functioned as his eyes flickering from the impact.

 


 

As that sickening crack filled the space around him and Perturabo reeled back, providing Dorn a measure of freedom, he was reeling from what he had done with his own unprotected head.

Fresh blood dripped down his nose while he stared back with pure ire at his dazed Brother that was dealing with consequences of gloating too soon. Though he’d not admit there was something else there, hidden behind hazel eyes, something that made his hearts soar and his blood continue that frantic pulse, now pounding in his head by the mere action of staring at Perturabo’s battered face.

Recovering less than a second quicker, Dorn brought his left ‘hand’ down and out, to find purchase on the ground so he could push his upper body upwards at the same time his right became balled into a golden fist.

Another second later and Dorn was launching that fist, aimed towards Perturabo’s lower jaw in an arc in a diagonal uppercut.

 


 

That auric encased Imperial Fist made earth crushing, bone shattering contact with Perturabo’s vulnerable face, the impact so extreme that it surely would have shattered a lesser being’s osseous anatomy entirely, enough to decimate even ceramite infused bone structure to dust. The reinforced design of the Lord of Iron’s sophisticated cybernetic physiology was his saving grace as he hovered there, stupefied — a testament to his craftsmanship even as awareness had temporarily shut down in complete system failure.

Blood and mysteriously undetermined but surely inhuman fluids sprayed in a wide arc from the force of the blow, a strange ferric guttural groan ripping from his throat upon impact; and his head made a clanging, deeply resonant series of sickening thuds as all the connectors plugged into the back of his skull echoed rattling, clacking contact with the inner lining of his command center sarcophagus.

That well placed blow might have at least temporarily deactivated Perturabo entirely, so fortuitous was Dorn’s assault.

If only he’d been able to follow it through.

For luck and opportunity ended where contingency and design began.

Dorn’s gilded fingers collided against Perturabo’s face with the force of an exploding star — until against all probability, it did no longer.

Suddenly, the impact was absorbed, stopping that blow with complete and impenetrable inertia, the motion entirely halted in place at the exact second that Dorn’s acceleration met the seemingly open entrance of Perturabo’s interface, the invisible shield activating at last and declaring its presence in a kaleidoscope of colors that rippled in a hexagonal holographic flicker.

That protection surrounded the invading blow with an almost gelatin-like quality as the shock was absorbed; energy lost — then deflected and diverted Dorn’s hand to the side an instant later.

Perturabo hissed his robotic discontent as all the readouts inside that boxy structure faded in and out, overlapping over and over as they beeped with varying urgency, information and warnings given in a computerized performance that was nearly as disorienting as the last few seconds that had placed him in this state.

But as everything went critical: systems compensated; programs activated; all hardwired responses as man and machine alike went into emergency mode. Stabilizers and joints gusted loudly with pressurized hisses not unlike breath as injections of combat stimulants and synthetic adrenalinic drugs stabbed into metalized veins.

Perturabo rebooted, eyes glowing with a renewed hostility and brighter gleam than before, reflecting off the interior of that sarcophagus with Warp laced rage, tinting his blanched olive skin with a vermilion glow that proclaimed the undeniable taint of Chaos even when much of Perturabo’s cyber-being outwardly and defiantly denied that fact.

The machine core that functioned as his biomechanical third heart pounded with a deafening, disorienting ferocity as the exhilaration of those injections hit, expression one of purest, indignant murderous intent as his stare drilled into deep, dark eyes that never failed to fill him with rage at the best of times.

And this was not the best of times.

 


 

Dorn had thrown all that he could into that punch and there had been a flicker of satisfaction in his gaze as spittle and other fluids flew from Perturabo’s mouth, arcing in the air as he watched Perturabo jerk his head back into his main casing amid a cacophony of noise and sliding cables.

And then.

Everything stopped.

A new wave of adrenaline pulsed through his blood as time stopped. In agonizingly slow motion, Dorn watched as the shield around Perturabo’s head activated, not unlike the shielding that he had around his Thunderhawk.

The moment of satisfaction he felt was all but wiped off of any part of his expression as another dose of adrenaline seemed to flow, of which settled differently. The panic arrived full force, even as he seemed as stoic as he was known to be to the chagrin of many.

The rush of chemicals in his own body numbed the sensation of sheer agony in his hand as his arm was thrown wide to the side. In this strange span of suspended seconds, he could feel every wave of pain and tingling fire inch upwards as the sensation traveled from hand to wrist to his arm, stopping around his elbow before the exchange of motion ceased.

If he wasn’t who he was; and if he hadn’t been wearing his specific armor, Dorn quickly came to the sickening realization that his hand and whole forearm could have blown up from the exchange.

It was when his arm slammed into the ground, forcing him to slam back down as well, other arm giving out and bringing him back into that abused firmament, that these agonizingly slow nano-seconds caught up to the present.

And as he stared up to his Brother that held full ill intent towards him, Dorn did what he could before the retaliatory strike he was expecting to come, bringing his arms upwards, forcing himself through the pulsing pain of one, as he shielded himself.

 


 

The unhinged, all-encompassing fury painted across Perturabo’s harsh face contorted into an image of pure doom — and confirmed that the mechanized detachment of his form had done nothing to quell the emotional instability that Perturabo had always carried with him through every moment of his embittered life.

The blood-soaked interior of his command interface melded with the gleam of Chaotic light blaring its red glow of madness over him; a fusion of daemon and man that couldn’t be disguised under the projection of cold metal indifference no matter how thick he’d built his shell.

And beneath that begrudging wrath was an electrified current of resentment and hurt so pure and broadcasted so loudly that no amount of armor could hide it away.

Every single perceived wrong his once-Brother had inflicted on him rose to the surface of his memory banks at once, any moderation or reason that might have held him back with logic algorithms, burned away to char by the contamination of his mind at the function of the stimulants that flooded his system.

The Siege began.

Battering rams of Iron pounded upon fortified stone walls in his mind’s eye with unrelenting anger as his huge promethium powered robotic fists impacted against Dorn’s auric armor again and again like pistons. He cared not where he hit, barely even considered where he aimed as he carried through his maniacal rampage, dirt and dust and broken earth swirling all around their giant figures as he forced Dorn deeper into the wounded ground — their arena turning ever more into a crater.

Perturabo roared his discontent, the power of his deep vox-tainted voice kicking up more dust and small stones into the air as he fell into a nearly trance-like state when those harbored feelings he’d been actively holding back to a smoldering detachment became a whirlwind of festered, moldering bitterness. Grudges left unacknowledged for far too long.

Long overdue blackened tears of aching, embittered hate rolled down his face as his rationale was all but gone, and his inhibitions with it — as the essence of who he truly was took over the creation he’d so carefully constructed himself to be.

He growled and hissed and roared and raged, words coming out fast and slurred amidst meaningless vocalizations, incoherent and disjointed as he continued to pound and slam his grudges into the one that was always so much better than him, so much more important than him — the literal Golden Example of what their Father favored no matter how long he worked his fingers to the bone for recognition that never came.

And that blame belonged to the one that ignored him, that shunned him.

That rejected him.

“I hate you! I hate you so much I HATE YOU!” He roared again and again amidst the frothing, blooded growls of daemonic angst, words that would have sounded petty, childish and entirely unworthy of granting any attention had they not come from something so entirely Abominable and capable of mass, indiscriminate warfare.

Why won’t you just DIE!”

 


 

The roar of a Primarch was a powerful thing, able to deafen any lesser men, if not outright kill them if utilized to its full potential as what was going on now. Even Dorn was not left unaffected as he stared at his Brother through his defending arms as he blocked blow after blow after blow —  each one sending him further and further into the blood slicked and ruined ground, sinking him in a way that risked that he wouldn’t be able to move at all in time.

He felt his hearts ache, clenching so tightly, as he saw Perturabo cry in the midst of all of his mindless chemically-fuelled rampaging and those shouted words struck Dorn so deeply in his hearts as his Brother continued to lash out.

His Brother…

Forgotten, cast aside, ignored and unloved. Not cared about by the one person that should have given his efforts some acknowledgement. In that moment, even Dorn felt the tinge and pang of regret that he had done much the same.

Except argue when he simply couldn’t walk away from a situation.

Yet, no matter how angry he ever had gotten at Perturabo… could he say that he ever hated him? Even as he was now in front of him as a weapon of Chaos Undivided? No… he couldn’t. He couldn’t hate any of his Brothers, regardless of how far they fell or how far they pushed.

They were his Family.

As the punches continued, Dorn picked up on parts of his armor starting to crack and give from the relentless attack. Yet, he couldn’t do much else but keep shielding himself from a death blow as his body grew more and more weak and weary from the sustained fight and disadvantage he was in.

Out of practice.

Yet…

Risking it, he moved his arms down to protect his chest so he could stare Perturabo directly in those baleful eyes.

He wheezed out a pained breath as his already injured arm was methodically hit over and over again, sending more waves of torment to him than he had felt in a very long time. “I….” The sentence stopped after a strike that made his body tremble and the prickling of fear slither up Dorn’s spine, a natural reaction of one thinking they were about to die.

But he couldn’t let this be how it ended.

Not for himself, but for Perturabo.

Try as he might he reached his hand out to grab one of Perturabo’s wrists while that left him open for another punch to the chest that had Dorn groan out in distress but he had to speak…

“No… matter… the… outcome.”

He had to…

To say…

To yell…

I DON’T HATE YOU, BROTHER!” Dorn’s hand shook against the strength that clashed against his own strength.

 


 

With each wrathful, miserable blow to that gleaming golden armor it became continually more indistinct as to what Perturabo was even lashing out at — Dorn or his own incessant voice of self-doubt and self-loathing; the tormenting lament that gave Chaos its foothold from the outset, and had never allowed him even a moment of joy any more than his own life had; a dark miasmic bitterness that eventually manifested itself as a nearly sentient apparition that was massive enough to oppress an entire planet in a black radiation that could hardly be called a sun, so potent to be felt even from the far reaches of space.

For he was no gleaming golden sun, like ROGAL DORN. No; instead he was a black hole.

Where as Dorn’s dazzling brilliance shone to touch all that witnessed him with warmth and light, Perturabo’s aura of negativity sucked the light and very life out of everything unfortunate enough to be in his radius.

And how he longed to steal away that light for himself, to rip it away, lay claim to it. Devour it.

He pummeled Dorn in his degenerate, brutal frenzy — finally feeling that auric bulwark beginning to crack at last. And the pleasure that it brought, the gratification was immense.

At last, absolution from his sense of inferiority. Triumph at long, long last. Oh, how sweet the taste would genuinely be, as the readouts that flickered their green delight confirmed what he already knew in his mind and Mainframe alike.

Dorn, would die here. Just as he should.

So why did it hurt so much, why did it fill Perturabo to the limit with trepidation and fear, grief so potent it was more acrid and caustic than the promethium that laced his blood? Why was each strike landed as if he was murdering his own soul rather than vindicating himself in the eyes of the one that deserved his retribution?

The tears flowed faster, driven now by something greater than the simple Primarch instinct to fight and kill, and even beyond his own paradigm of programmed warfare; as a thought crested through the drugs, though the interface, through the haze of glowing screens in his head and the turmoil in his hearts.

He never, ever wanted to kill Dorn! He’d lied to himself, but all along that was the very reason he’d made so sure, being so careful as to not to allow even one single member of his Legion to know of Dorn’s whereabouts. And he’d known all along that this was never meant to be the point, or where this ended.

This was wrong!

This was all wrong!

And that dire realization had come preciously close to too late in an eerily similar way that reenacted tragedies of his past; mirroring events that had already destroyed him once… and left the only form of love he'd ever known cold and dead in his hands…

Hand…

He felt an armored hand — not approaching in offense, or even defense, but simply to reach out.

He stared down with a shellshocked, ten-thousand yard stare, backlit by that virulent red glow as the resolute and potent sound of Dorn’s nearly magical voice almost shattered whatever left of him remained.

 

"̷W̷E̷L̷L̷ ̷Y̷O̷U̷ ̷S̷H̷O̷U̷L̷D̷!̷"̷

 

Perturabo roared back in glitching, static laced revulsion and abject dismay as hopelessness crept in like an insidious virus; and he remained there motionless, lost and uncertain as to what he should even do now as he struggled against the chemical over-stimulation that still inundated his every sense —  but of that statement, he had never been more sure of anything.

And that the only person that had more reasons to hate Perturabo more than Dorn, was Perturabo himself.

Notes:

[Author's Note — (Skiah Immaterium): The next chapter after this one continues with dark, mature content; and will also become sexually explicit and heavily detailed very quickly. If you don't come along for the rest of the journey, that's understandable and thanks for stopping by.]

[Author's Note — (Empyrean Magpie): Originally this fic was marked for Registered Users only past this point because of how graphic it becomes with the next chapter update. I've decided to say 'fuck it' because I want everyone to witness the Glory that is Perturabo no matter the form it takes.]

Chapter 4: Disarmament

Summary:

Even after a willing disarmament leaving them on much more equal ground, Perturabo doesn't seem to understand that he has most certainly met his match.

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text


 

As Perturabo stopped driving that fist into his armor, part of it finally gave away. Some of the covering to his arm fell to the side, breaking from the segment. The dust briefly settled then to reveal a sizeable dent into the gleaming auric-adamantite on Dorn’s chest, constricting his breathing beneath that crushed breastplate, among other marks and extensive damage that displayed the abject brutality wrought on Dorn’s armored form.

His hand fell away as the strength was sapped from him after he had prevented that killing blow.

Those darkened hazel eyes gazed upwards at his Brother, hearing that dismay, watching the hopelessness overtaking him. So lost and uncertain, as if he was naught but a child.

Dorn saw much of himself in that moment. How many times, in his self-made isolation had he fallen into despair time and time again? Even before Perturabo arrived, how many sleepless centuries had he replayed his role and actions relentlessly in his mind? And the consequences that followed…

How many times had he been so close to the brink of stepping off the precipice?

It was only a moment of deliberation before Dorn lifted both arms this time as he attempted to use the last limits of his strength to move towards Perturabo.

Yet, he didn’t strike Perturabo. Instead, he wrapped his arms around his inconsolable Brother in what amounted to a hug.

“I don’t…”

 


 

What happened next was something nearly beyond Perturabo’s comprehension, leaving him in a state of total disbelief as Dorn, weakened and injured nearly beyond survival reached out for him again in a much more persuasive way and in a manner he’d never thought possible — and somehow despite its simplicity, it was the most foreign thing he’d ever known.

And it was as comical as it was tragic, whilst rage flared up inside him as those arms struggled so hard to wrap around his much larger form even as he’d just tried to snuff that light out in a moment of total loss of self-control. It was a scornful, ridiculing play by play reenactment of one of the worst days of his life — and one that set him on a course straight through Hades that he’d never been able to turn around from.

The torment that wracked him was building into an overload he couldn’t possibly withstand as far too many thoughts of eras long lost flickered though his mind, as if his innumerable deeds were being read back to him; and without a single one on that long ledger of his life actually something he could take a bit of pride in.

And the final entry that stained the annals of his prodigious crimes and lingered heaviest in his mind was the Iron Cage — the last time he saw Dorn, and the single thing he regretted the most.

Except…

He’d come so horrifically close to surpassing even that by repeating what he'd done to his precious sister so long ago. Frustrations mounted as he internally screamed at himself, realizing in the moment that for all his accomplishments in his field and his thoroughly dissatisfying way of immediately knowing everything in a subject he took interest in — when it came to much more vital matters, he seemed nearly incapable of learning.

And nearly destroyed something that this time, he wouldn’t survive losing. He was entirely and wholly sure that if he had taken this moment of impulse to its finale, he’d have been lost to Chaos entirely despite resisting its control over him all this time and existing on his own terms.

No matter what came to pass, he swore from this moment forward, he’d redouble his efforts to control himself and control the powers that he drained from the Immaterium’s battery for his own designs, spite and recalcitrance for the undivided Ruinous Powers themselves guiding his actions now.

Perturabo was his own man and for better or worse, he would remain so.

He stared down at Dorn’s battered body and struggled to hold back a shaking instability rumbling through his form that was nearly more than even his stabilizers could prevent; ashamed of himself, his actions and how this fight had never been fair from the start.

He never fought fairly and still lost; time and again. Now, for the first time he understood that such an unfair win against Dorn would feel no more fulfilling; and prove nothing.

And that he wanted nothing more than to…

simply…

…in a disorienting flash of lights and a flickering wave of psychic backlash, time seemed to stop — the airborne rubble and the debris pelting the broken earth in a cloudy shower as if gravity precipitously forgot, and then remembered, to function.

When the dust cleared it revealed a much more familiar figure, olive skin no longer afflicted by a deathly pallor, dressed simply in a gunmetal gray himation made of thin linen which hung over his left shoulder and wrapped around his bulk, the traditional Olympian pattern of diagonal yellow and black stripes embellishing its trim. He was still in all ways gigantic, yet dwarfed by comparison to the Juggernaut of Medrengard ore, adamantium and ceramite he replaced.

Muscular arms made of seemingly nothing more than skin and bone wrapped around Dorn in an embrace that might have been considered heartfelt and tender had he not just come so horrifically close to murdering his own Brother in cold promethium blood.

Coils and cables tumbled down Dorn’s back, gently bouncing against his armor as Perturabo rested there, forehead pressed to the top of an oversized pauldron so that he might hide his face, wanting nothing less than being seen by Dorn for the first time in his life.

 


 

Confusion struck Dorn the moment something changed, that flash of light being so overwhelming even for his senses, that it nearly had him letting Perturabo go. He wasn’t imagining the change that he could feel — the sudden difference in what he was wrapping his arms around.

Perturabo had always been larger than him, but now he was far more easier to touch. Surprising even Dorn, additionally, beyond the shift of form, was that those arms actually reciprocated his touch and he felt the strength that held him back.

Dorn soon exhaled, the sound coming out as another one of his pained grunts.

While he didn’t relax fully, Dorn allowed the time of uneasy calm to wash over him and tried to ignore the want of figuring out exactly how Perturabo shifted from one form to the other in the span of nanoseconds as none of that actually mattered in the grand scheme of things. What mattered was the man burying his face against his shoulder.

His right hand gripped tightly against the back of his Brother, while the other simply rested there.

Nothing was said in the interim.

Simply allowing the both of them this moment.

What could he say? How could he ever hope to ease that pain in Perturabo's hearts? How could he clean out the malignant miasma that had been allowed to fester for millennia due to loneliness and neglect?

He had been abandoned and Dorn sat with knowing that he had been complicit in that fact.

 


 

As quick as a thought, Neo-Logos was gone, but now like a spooked animal forcibly dragged out from its den, Perturabo felt exposed and vulnerable without the comfort of the safety that his mechanized form provided. Yet he had volunteered for this outcome and would not take it back though the unease made him realize how long it had truly been since he’d passed a single moment in time as anything that might be called himself.

There was a tension in the air so distinctly different than what had manifested between them before, undisputedly less impending, less foreboding and yet perhaps somehow harder to endure, which left Perturabo bewildered.

But that singular arm hooked around him, despite its lack of being a full embrace felt so supportive that he could find no fault in its singular presence. It was not disdain that stilled Dorn’s other arm.

Then? Why? Perturabo wondered if he’d broken it in his wrath, vaguely remembering all the sensations he’d once taken so much misplaced pleasure in; of denting in, cracking, crushing that armor.

It didn’t feel quite so validating now…

How had he ever thought that such a hollow victory would be satisfying?

Perturabo sighed, deep and resonant as he pressed the air from his triplicate lungs; even the natural exchanges of breathing felt strange to him, and almost as if he was experiencing it for the first time. He concentrated on all these sensations and the new state he found himself in; running, hiding, denying the more important things he should have been focusing on.

It was too much to bear. What could he possibly say now?

Perturabo didn’t know.

But he was so genuinely grateful for the moment of stillness Dorn granted to him now, though he didn’t know how to express that either.

 


 

The silence lingered, permeating the very air of their immediate area, only broken by a slow rasping breath from Dorn, but even that was starting to even out the longer they stayed like this in the stillness and quiet as the innate healing properties of a Primarch seemed to kick into overdrive.

Though it did nothing to ease the stifling feeling for Dorn.

Slowly, Dorn ran his hand down Perturabo’s back, rubbing it gently in comparison to all the brutality shared in blows before. It was almost laughable how gentle Dorn could be against the person that had almost killed him not but several minutes ago. After a moment, Dorn’s hand stopped its ministrations as he exhaled slowly.

“I’m sorry.” He spoke against Perturabo’s ear, voice low and laced with a somber tone, regretful.

Just that, and nothing more was said as he rested against his Brother as much as Perturabo did him.

 


 

Perturabo turned his head toward Dorn, an indignant grunt of bristling standoffishness pressed to the side of that cold auric shoulder as he exhaled sharply. An agitated unease caused him to clench his muscles; and he hardened within Dorn’s touch as a new divide split open between them the moment that he’d had the audacity to apologize.

It offended Perturabo to his very bones; because Dorn had no right to apologize to him, because it was too late, because it was going to take much more than this to make anything up to him, because he didn’t want it, because he didn’t need it, because he didn’t believe in it…

…because he was the one at fault, because he was the one that was supposed to apologize now, because…

because he hated Dorn and always had; and because he wasn't going to forgive a single thing he'd ever done to earn his anger.

Perturabo didn’t speak, didn’t move any more than the slight twitches the tightening of his entire body caused.

Despite his stillness and all his attempts to distance himself from reality his eyes were leaking again, releasing a strange oily fluid more salt than before; and mostly lacking in the thick, oily blackened residue that had once stained his face.

Yet for all his disquiet, he couldn’t bring himself to cast aside that arm, the fleeting thought causing such dread to descend upon him that he held Dorn a little tighter than before the moment he imagined it gone.

 

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The incidental visual field appeared once more, point blank; at close range and with such urgency as if it were being uploaded directly into the mind of the subject that provoked it — broadcast into the open air and unfiltered, and at this proximity it was fortuitous indeed there was no greater force amplifying it's naturally overwhelming potency.

This time there was no grander vistas, no larger view. It all began and ended in that tiny space, claimed and filled by the one it centered upon.

Those oppressive synthetic vines wriggled and coiled their possessive dance around the indistinct figure that dangled in their looped prison, suspended; completely bound. There was no denying the antagonistic aura that surrounded that cursed mechanism and yet below that undercurrent of animosity there was a layer of unsteady, aching worry that was unable to be disguised, revealed now in all it's unstable, tyrannical ugliness.

 

The grief of loss.

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And as the scene faded out, a choking noise left Perturabo’s throat—a sob—petulantly stifled, his arms now wrapped so tightly around Dorn that his squeezing elicited a dull series of sounds from the armor that he’d once so eagerly endeavored to destroy.

 


 

Despite the situation, despite the fact they were on a planet so far removed from anything the Imperium or Chaos cared to know about, despite the fact that they had just tried to kill each other, Dorn felt himself chuckle. It was barely there, but a direct response to the grunt from Perturabo.

Always so… stubborn.

That was exactly how he remembered his Brother.

Dorn turned his head enough to see Perturabo, watching as he was quiet again. He had opened his mouth to speak until that hug tightened further and Dorn was assailed with a wholly new vision that spoke to him in ways that words could not.

That imagery felt like a punch in the gut, stronger than any blow that landed on him today, even the one that had caved in his armor enough to make his lungs struggle. His eyes widened as he had already come to understand what the scene was, but this new sensation was different.

He…

Dorn blinked a few times, taking a gulp full of air as Perturabo hugged him tighter. In turn, Dorn did the best he could to reciprocate. The bond between the two of them likely would not be wholly fixed, too much time had passed, too much to get through and deal with and…

The sound of a low sigh left Dorn this time as he considered his words…

He’d never fall into Chaos and would rebuke the very notion of ever being tempted. But… even still…

For Perturabo…?

“I’m… not going anywhere… Perturabo…”

 


 

Perturabo’s body seemed to lock up even further, joints stiffened so tightly with muscles so compact it was as if he was still encased in that mobile fortress. He paused, the atmosphere heavy with the weight of endless words left unspoken.

When he finally took the action to speak, it was alarmingly terse and brusque with an almost challenging edge to it and his tone alluded to the distinct possibility he’d already come to his own conclusion.

What do you mean by that?” He asked—no, demanded—booming voice oddly still holding that same cyber-enhanced quality from before — though it was decidedly less uncanny without amplification.

 


 

Dorn should have expected that response and thus took a moment, furrowing his brow as he let the silence linger, thinking on how to dictate what he indeed meant by that. Nothing was easy about speaking like this, much less to a Brother that he had feuded with for far longer than was absolutely necessary.

How stupid it all was.

Certainly not at the time when they were at each others throats due to slights on either side, but in the grand scheme of everything, all routes led to this moment.

After another few seconds, Dorn pulled back just enough, his Brother’s arms keeping him in place so he didn’t outright fall over, as he gazed deeply into his eyes.

“I have no one, Perturabo. My Brothers are all to the winds of the galaxy. Some turned to Chaos, others gone, permanently… or stuck in stasis. I have had no contact with anyone for thousands of years. I know not of what has happened, to our beloved Terra or otherwise.”

The only thing that he knew was that their Father still had to be alive, if one could even call it that, or he’d have felt the galaxy would simply be ruined. Of course, he kept all talk of the Emperor out of his mouth, even if a pained expression flickered over his face briefly.

“What do I have to return to?… To whom?… There is nothing for me anymore.” That is what he felt, even still, after all this time. “But you… You are here. Why would I step away…?”

 


 

If I wanted to kill you, you’d already be dead.

Those words—words he himself had spoken—echoed in Perturabo’s skull like an admonishment, an intrusive and painful reminder of how he’d so easily come agonizingly close to ending everything via the worst possible outcome within moments of reuniting with Dorn again due to a moment that could only be called what it was — a rash and reckless meltdown; losing his temper like he was no better than Angron.

He full well knew what had precipitated that attack, could still feel the burn of chemicals in his veins but that was no excuse. An Astartes that couldn’t keep his senses under stimulation was a liability and a disgrace.

Yet he was a Primarch, and a Daemon Primarch of Chaos Undivided, at that — even if his terms were wholly different in that capacity.

Unworthy. Unacceptable.

He wanted to protest, to gnash his teeth and scream, make his demands and pretend that his self-directed grievances were all that mattered here while obtusely ignoring the rest. It should have been so easy, to harness the misery that he genuinely felt and let it propel him deeper into the blackness of bitterness — to deny Dorn the satisfaction of all that he confessed, and turn away.

But there was far too much sincerity shining in those soulful, honest eyes; too much forthrightness in his words — all of it declaring him a man with nothing and nothing left to lose.

Try as he might, the guilt of knowing that was all his fault nearly ripped him apart; and if they’d not locked eyes he might have found the ability to recoil and hide himself away inside his mobile fortress again.

But here, he was exposed, pale blue eyes staring back with deep longing and profound sorrow that he couldn’t deflect fast enough; and despite retaining many of his augmented qualities in what amounted to his current 'natural' form — fully concealing his humanity was not among them.

Not that even this was as successful as he thought it was in his more extreme mechanoforms, from the moment he was in the presence of someone that actually knew him. He too had spent the many long years in total isolation; surrounded by lessers, subordinates, operatives, slaves — with not one confidant, not one friend to his name. His rule was a cruel, depraved and miserable one. And yet, it was exactly as he’d manufactured it.

He jerked his head away quickly, the leads that were bolted to his skull sending the cables that cascaded down not unlike locks of hair whipping through the air; some left to land behind his shoulder while others met the sharp edge of his carapace enhanced jawline as he stared off, angled to Dorn in profile. Though it wasn’t a very effective method of disengaging completely, it did give him a moment to think without having to endure that crystalline stare that felt like daggers stabbed through his chest.

“So I am your… last pick then, hm?” Perturabo said with no shortage of spite in his dour tone.

 


 

As he watched a multitude of different emotions conflict in Perturabo’s expression, Dorn could not help but break that stoic mask to quietly sigh, his eyes closing a few seconds later as he braced himself, pressing back into those arms that continued to be wrapped around him.

Despite the snappy response, Perturabo seemed to refuse to let him go amidst all of his vinegar and vitriol. Due to that, Dorn laid his entire weight into those arms so Perturabo would have to focus on that and by extension him when he spoke again.

“No.” Dorn stared hotly at Perturabo, gazing in those eyes so filled with hurt and pining in equal measure while his own gaze revealed something more melancholic after the initial stern stare broke apart.

“That is not what I meant at all. I am uncertain how to… explain…”

 


 

Perturabo was taken entirely aback when Dorn followed him and reoriented his position so that he was once again forced to gaze upon him.

Head on and up close.

He could smell the iron on Dorn’s breath as he spoke, still see the faint stains of blood discoloring his teeth as his lips moved; all the while frozen in place by those authentic eyes that felt unbearably intimate to stare straight into, as if he could somehow see every secret Perturabo guarded while openly revealing his own as best as he could muster.

What had once been tense was becoming something else; something increasingly awkward. Perturabo’s hearts pounded far too fast and though he may declare otherwise if pressed, he knew that the stimulants were not the reason for the uptick that assailed him suddenly.

Had he ever been this close to Dorn’s rugged, handsome face before? No. He was certain of that, he never would have forgotten such a moment even through the millennia that had passed between them.

Perturabo extended his neck forward, closing the distance between them until precious little was left to claim until stopping abruptly; hovering there as eyes as clouded as an overcast sky remained locked on, glistening and wet with residual tears he refused to shed.

“Do you really… mean that?” Perturabo asked, and though his petty nature and desire to be enduringly difficult was unmistakable a moment ago, it was gone now—that question transparent and fragile—as if he couldn’t bear to believe such a thing was possible.

 


 

It was a few more seconds but Dorn took them all the same, never letting Perturabo's gaze wander too far away, no matter how he might have tried to hide away from confronting him. All the same, he took that time to continue to force his body to regulate and get himself further under control.

At least, until he opened his mouth again and could taste something in the air like he were some sort of bloodhound as he flooded his neuroglottis with something distinctly different than the blood, tears, chemicals, oil and fuel spent from their fight; and subsequently was struck with a moment of clarity now as he sampled the scent signature in the air. And for this reason, kept quiet — Dorn’s twin hearts began to race again.

His body flushed with all the sensations he had felt before. Behind his mind’s eyes, his brain unhelpfully reminded him of the visions as he kept taking in the peculiar smell.

Dorn closed his mouth a moment later, knowing that he had to take a few… more seconds to get himself under control, but Perturabo hadn’t been the one on the receiving end of some choice visions that had his senses on overdrive. But now there wasn’t a fight to conceal it.

Perturabo made it worse when he moved his face so close to Dorn’s own, causing Dorn to stare wide-eyed at his Brother until he attempted to snap himself out of it as an endorphin high quickly pulsed through his body. He became very acutely aware of how Perturabo was straddling his form and holding him so possessively close, even through his armor.

A sharp exhale preceded his next words as he knew he had to actually respond to Perturabo’s question and give that the attention it deserved.

“Yes… Yes… I do.”

 


 

Perturabo wasn’t sure he believed that at all, an edge glinting in his pale eyes as he stared Dorn down, hostile; resentment building inside his aching chest as he prepared for the pain that would certainly come.

It had all led up to this, so many countless years wasted in a past lined with more grudges and mistakes than he could add up without taking the time to balance their concurrent lists — and he cared not to do that right now for it would be nothing but integers with no help in reaching an optimal conclusion — information certainly, but effectively useless.

The details mattered not. He knew that shutdown would be the result, no matter what Dorn said previously. For he was about to take everything way too far — just to prove his point if nothing else. That Dorn did not mean those words to the extent Perturabo required of him, had burned and bled and suffered for his entire life — and that it all finally coming to a disappointing conclusion would snap him in half exactly as he always predicted it would; to finally hear that rejection plainly made clear once and for all.

That he wasn't good enough.

Even if some of the blame for that might have been rightfully his; even if it was a fair result — that mattered not.

He knew how this would all inevitably end even if he held himself back for now, once the agony he’d always carried synthesized into fury permanently inside his broken, Iron hearts as soon as Dorn made his opinions clear. No matter the unexpectedly tender qualities of this special moment, it would come to an end eventually; and when it did he’d revert back to what he had become — what he was and would ever remain now from the instant he’d let Chaos in.

Whatever it was that had come over Dorn in these last few seconds only served to push his urges further up on the list of priorities as that open panting mouth and wide dilated eyes made Perturabo’s thoughts return to the most depraved and debauched of his insane fantasies, that obsession carved into stone and Iron from the moment he’d seen a vision of Dorn flicker though the Immaterium.

It would have been best for him if he’d never been noticed, but it was too late from the instant it happened. Dorn’s fate was sealed, because Perturabo knew he was too weak-willed, too demanding and too spiteful to take no for an answer.

Always shunned, always invisible, always failing, always trying harder, always yearning, always needing, always aching to capture Dorn’s interest, to earn his respect, to be seen, to be admired, to be appreciated, to be, to be, wanting to be—desperate for——

 

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With a caustic violence that abruptly descended upon that broken plain, the vision came to view in broken technicolor, like ruined film left in the rain, distorting the image as it flickered its dire message.

Tubes and pipes now assailed the victim that had been imprisoned all this time, connecting the elusive form to some despicable machine audibly churning its clinically detached hate and goals best left unquestioned. The tangible dread and misery that permeated the scene was so immense that it nearly overshadowed the vulgar details of what was actually happening, the additional mechanisms appearing to be plugged in to the prisoner that was held there with no chance of escape.

A hopeless, miserable prediction of a terrible future that would surely come to pass, enacted by a cruel and embittered monster too selfish to simply let go once he’d been turned down, even as he detested knowing he’d be the one to ensure it became reality.

The image flickered in and out with waves of static as light from countless glowing screens and holograms blared, casting a glow upon the face of the one trapped there in a sudden flash that lasted but a second.

And that face, revealed at last, was Dorn’s. Resigned to his fate, used up, drained, weary; broken and having long since given up.

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Before the vision had even faded out, those monstrously powerful arms had yanked Dorn closer; a grunting, desperate noise building in Perturabo's throat as he forced himself on his unsuspecting Brother. His hands grasped aggressively in an attempt to keep him from squirming away as he shoved his tongue into Dorn’s mouth, while possessing all the finesse of a siege cannon’s rounds smashing through a newly discovered structural weakness.

 


 

That prickling sensation hit Dorn again as the silence lingered after his words and Perturabo’s expression became hostile once more. It was as if his body was trying to warn him about the signs that could be clearly seen. It was as if Perturabo was ready to strike all over again.

Dorn knew what he was looking at.

A predator, yet he did nothing to try and push Perturabo away, even as that gaze grew hungrier and hungrier and he well understood the precarious position he was in, though now for far different reasons than before.

And just like that, his mind was assailed again. This time the last few puzzle pieces slotted perfectly into place, giving answers that he had already picked up on. Once more, his mind replaced everything that he was wearing, to the thought of those cables that slid over his naked skin, slithering over every single part of his body as he was trapped with no hope to escape.

He could swear that he felt the locations where those connecting cables entered into the ports of his Black Carapace and these sensations covered his body in electrifying tingles. Even under all of the protection and armor, he was treated with raised hairs and goosebumps as his body practically set itself on fire, causing his breath to become haggard and stuttered in a manner that suggested that it wasn’t only because of their fight.

As that vision began to fade, it was a whiplash of differences when those large arms of his Brother held him so firmly before smashing their lips together. Dorn squirmed at the sudden actions, still staring, wide-eyed into his Brother’s face as he gripped Perturabo’s shoulder tightly.

He didn’t push Perturabo away, seemingly only using the leverage to cling to him as his Brother tasted the fading blood in his mouth and was given a breathless groan as a result. Dorn didn’t fight against Perturabo’s advances like may have expected and, instead, his tongue was pressed to the bottom of Perturabo's mouth as he closed his eyes, losing himself in the moment.

Surely this was wrong yet…

He didn’t care if it was.

 


 

For all his intellectual prowess, Perturabo could barely understand what was happening, it had come about so unexpectedly — an impossible affirmation conflicting against thousands of years of negative reinforcement that had cemented a reality in his mind that was nigh impossible to tear down.

He didn’t dare to dream that any of this was real, not for one single second. Everything was terribly wrong here, and he was convinced that a counterattack was in short order; that Dorn was simply playing along and biding his time so that he could either retaliate or at the very least, mount an escape.

That thought outraged Perturabo as he consumed the blood and saliva and distinct flavor that was Dorn; tinged with the hormones that had been produced from their fight and Dorn’s panic, each element delicious and distinct in its own right, but in combination it was the most magnificent thing he’d ever tasted.

His ‘kissing’ became more frantic as he was met with nothing that could be called resistance, but still without a modicum of trust that any of this was at all genuine, and his motions retained that initial mindset — carried out with force and all the while making a promise that he wasn’t about to let Dorn turn him away. He forced his tongue in and out between those captive lips, feeling the scruff of Dorn’s facial hair each time he drew closer.

The hands that had been wrapped around Dorn’s form suddenly released their grasp, but before something as unthinkable as relinquishment could be assumed, they slid down before large fingers hooked beneath the rim of that auric-adamantium breastplate. A fraction of a second later, he wrapped his massive, powerful legs around Dorn to make certain he remained in place; and once he’d assured that, he pulled and yanked and tugged with increasing aggression, making it clear what he desired, what he demanded, what he intended to do.

And in this new position and through the motions that Perturabo followed through on, their lower bodies met with friction and pressure, leaving no doubt that Perturabo—huge and hungry—was as hard as Iron.

There was no heeding reason, no question of consent; just a promise that he would take what he wanted, and violently should it come down to it. If he had been in a maddened frenzy before, it was nothing compared to the primal lust that had overtaken him now, those stimulants assisting this moment exactly as they would've combat.

Yet the absence of those injections wouldn’t have changed a thing, outside perhaps… his virility. This was was exactly what he'd been obsessing about over the course of his entire voyage to make it here. And far before that, too — but it had never felt so possible until then.

 


 

Dorn was unnaturally dizzy from the heady mixture of chemicals and the emotions that permeated the air around him. Whenever Perturabo let him breathe between thrusts of that tongue into his mouth, he was overwhelmed by the sheer masculine pheromones and testosterone that he tasted in the air from his Brother.

He only pulled back enough when Perturabo began to jostle him about, still utilizing his superior size and those chemicals that gave him a boost — things that Perturabo appeared to take full advantage of. Dorn was forced to stay put between the assault on his mouth, to the legs that were currently keeping him trapped.

At the constant tugging, Dorn’s auric-adamantite armor was being pulled off, easily; as their bout of fighting and the constant assaults had weakened the points where the armor held fastly and had been secured in place. It mattered not if it was to be removed completely out of order as the persistence paid off.

Carefully, as if expecting that Perturabo was eager to react at the slightest further provocation, Dorn had slipped his hand between the shoulderplates of his armor, unclasping the mechanisms that held them in place as one and then the other dropped heavily to the ground, kicking up a new wave of gravel, dirt and dust.

Dorn knew the fires of lust when he saw them, when he felt them, as a glance was given past Perturabo’s face to gaze down between them as something was made very apparent to him.

It wasn’t as if he was much better because as Perturabo removed and yanked off more and more of the armor, he’d be met with Dorn’s body glove that he wore underneath it all, with one telling part of his anatomy displaying just how much he had been enjoying all that had happened in such a manner that it could not be concealed.

Of course the carnal need was not uncommon during bouts, spars and battles — and many times Dorn had recognized it whenever one or several of his men had to abscond for a time as they saw fit after training. Never had Dorn, himself, had much of a desire even though the thrill of combat was satisfying in its own way.

Oh how that quickly changed.

When it was with Perturabo.

Surprisingly, he felt almost embarrassed by the fact as if he wasn’t being the one so viciously and violently undressed as Perturabo continued to yank and pull. “Perturabo… what are you doing…?”

Dorn uttered out when he could while swallowing down Perturabo’s particularly flavored saliva.

Desire illuminated in his gaze as the rough treatment continued, pulling and tugging him this way and that with Dorn not being particularly helpful in that regard beyond the removal of his shoulderplates as he didn’t want to risk Perturabo preventing his hand's use, knowing that his Brother was on a hair trigger.

Not like that mattered as he seemed shockingly compliant to Perturabo’s whims.

 


 

As soon as they separated, Perturabo licked his lips, crassly and openly savoring what he’d tasted, a long trail of joined saliva still linking them to which he paid no heed as he stared at Dorn like a starved beast of the wilds who had finally found a suitable meal.

Eyes of washed out blue fire penetrated into the side of Dorn’s face as he watched him endeavor to help in the process of enabling his access. It was a strange and unexpected situation, Perturabo’s suspicions still pervasive and strong; but as long as Dorn didn't try anything stupid, he’d allow him some initiative, letting him take the needed actions so that his regalia could be removed without it being destroying in the process.

Dorn’s loathsome corpse-Emperor help him should he test his patience, though. The retribution would be harsh and swift. But Perturabo was slowly coming around to the possibility that somehow, Dorn was agreeable on his own terms. It was something that Perturabo would neither allow his hardened hearts to accept at face value nor would he cease to believe there wasn't some ulterior motive driving his actions. Perhaps he’d not had enough time to heal as much as it seemed that he had in the minutes that passed since Perturabo launched his assault; or perhaps he feared that non-compliance would result in more from where that came from.

Something that was undeniably likely, though Perturabo had no desire to struggle and vie for dominance in any physical form beyond the one he inhabited now — a reasonable match, a more respectable opponent. And one which—most importantly—would not find it so easy to outpace Dorn's healing abilities unarmed, should they come to blows — and inadvertently kill him in some tragic accident.

He expected some resistance from Dorn before this was through, but that was fine by him now that he realized the errors of his earlier approach. But then, things had admittedly been different and it would have been foolish to appear in the initial challenge as anything less than the Siege Machine that he was, at least for as long as Dorn wielded that infamous, vicious chainsword as Perturabo no longer had any simpler armor at his disposal — and neither of them had any expectations of how things would turn out beyond the worst case scenario. He knew that all too well.

Stripped down as they were now though, Perturabo found the idea of a scuffle far from displeasing. And he still craved things far crueler than what was right but no more would he pit Dorn against something meant to decimate entire Legions and raze planets to the last blade of grass without some sort of additional ground rules at the very least — beyond simply not firing his ranged weapons.

Yet despite the astronomical unlikelihood of it all, he could not deny the presence of the masculine, cloying musk that emanated from Dorn’s entire body, growing stronger the more exposed he became. That scent made Perturabo’s already eager erection pulse and throb beneath his loose himation and set his every instinct to lightning — putting ideas in his head of things that he’d already threatened doing but now in an entirely different way.

A shudder of excited, disorienting potent anticipation stabbed through him as he observed those auric pauldrons as they heavily fell away to pummel the rough ground below, each dull thud like a drumbeat proclaiming what was to come.

“What I've wanted to do from the moment I landed here." Perturabo replied with a sneer. “What I should have donea long time ago.” His voice was husky and unsteady as he shook, the sight of Dorn’s form in that body glove that clung to him like a second skin and held taut around every ripple of his incredibly bulky, muscular body causing Perturabo’s thighs to quake, and moisture appear where there had been none a second ago — all bolstered by that smell that was already many times more potent, now with sweat added to the mixture.

It was enough to drive him insane.

But he had to keep his faculties enough to make certain things clear despite the images in his mind of ripping that body glove apart with his bare hands.

“And there will be no change of course, Little Brother.” Perturabo declared in a tone that reinforced all he said, sounding as though he had to fight the very words to get them out between deep, rasping exhales. "No longer will I force you to take me on beyond how I am now, that I vow unless you seek your blade. It will be a more… fair match now that things have been made… abundantly clear."

His voice was no more than a throaty growl, eyes narrowed as he stared at Dorn, the sight of the bulge that pressed from that body glove just visible in his lower vision inciting him even further.

"But I will have your surrender or I will make you submit."

 


 

When that oily saliva string broke, Dorn licked his lips, almost mirroring Perturabo exactly. He certainly had no objections to the taste as he angled his head enough to look Perturabo in the eyes, staring his Brother down in a strange hungering way in turn.

It was not unlike the predatory gaze he was met with, the desire that Perturabo shared was wholly his own. For Dorn, his expression finally shifted from the surprise that this was happening to interest and thorough anticipating satisfaction.

Slowly and carefully, Dorn continued to use one hand, this time to detach the back plate, willing for it to come away as that heavy aquila that rose in symbolism, now fell behind along with that faded red velvet cloak, leaving him close to natural weightlessness. All that remained on him of that burnished gold armor were his vambraces and gauntlets— due to being unable to effectively remove them; and his sabatons and greaves— due to being unable to get to them.

Never once, in the midst of his actions, did he look away from Perturabo.

His natural senses picked up on as many blatant tells from Perturabo as he no doubt sensed and smelled in turn. It had Dorn idly wonder if his Brother had actually tried to view any readouts of exactly how his body had been reacting time and time again.

Because Dorn had become aware of his own desires and wants bubbling to the forefront, pushing that inhibition a bit further away.

The desire had always been this outcome. In one way or another, Perturabo had come here with intent to stake a claim. Yet, how much would Perturabo believe him if Dorn had stated that he was intrigued by the very prospect?

A moment later and he reflexively felt his legs tense underneath his Brother while that passing vision played in the back of his mind. He had been so dejected and downtrodden in that situation, an assumed product of what Perturabo likely thought of Dorn’s very psyche.

If only he knew the truth on that matter.

An unkind shiver coiled down his body at the same time that heat pooled heavily in his gut. ’What I should have done a long time ago’. The statement alone elicited a low groan from Dorn as his throbbing erection twitched in the confines of the glove. “Oh?” Despite such a simple questioning tone, that simple sound was not said in a stoic, unaffected way. No, instead, Dorn nearly growled it out in his deep, rumbling voice and was spoken with such wetness that it sounded like he was…

Salivating.

Everything Perturabo was saying was hitting him just so, that he didn’t even find offense in being called ‘Little Brother’ despite knowing it was meant to be inflammatory.

A rare smirk crossed Dorn’s lips at the mention of a far fairer fight but he had something more pressing to focus on. “Will you now?” He challenged, yet his words continued to hold that same salivating hunger, so much so, that all his own pheromones were heavy in the air as well now, becoming increasingly oppressive.

“Do you promise?”

What was this?

This wasn’t rejection, or even outright refusal, it was an almost unhealthy interest as he leaned in.

 


 

Perturabo’s thoroughly captivated, unquestionably horny gaze took in the sight of those intoxicating, lust-laden eyes; and his hearts stopped as his lungs stalled — fully stunned by what he saw. And while he was still unable to fully have faith and believe there was a change inside of him that he couldn’t fully restrain; something intrinsic, something needy and longing that instantly soared inside of him, a part of him that was not heeding the incessant anxiety of his negative mind as he felt, deeply — despite those ceaseless worries. He was greatly impacted by what was happening, even as he tried to talk himself down from the deeper meaning in it all.

Did Dorn truly…

No. Not possible. But even if he did, that was a series of complications of its own at this stage. Best not to think about it… too much.

But if he did not think this over, there would be no distractions at all from his now racing pulse that beat with such ferocity that it hurt, no deflection to hide behind or means to bolster his outwardly presented callousness.

He had made it clear that he fully intended to force himself on Dorn, and that demand alone if nothing else should have been enough to prevent anything purer from ever having a chance to grow.

Not that it ever could have… even in the best of times.

So why couldn’t he shake the feeling that Dorn saw him for once, truly? And liked what he saw?

He was spiraling, but it all fell away with the aquila when it was disengaged from the back of Dorn’s gorget and pounded against the ground below, the removal of that one thing by far the most symbolic of all in Perturabo’s mind for reasons he couldn’t begin to express. His hands curled into fists, but his expression was unchanged.

Doubting, shutting down in some capacity — but it was not enough to stop this or tear himself or his gaze away from Dorn. Nothing would have been enough.

Perturabo jerked his head back as Dorn leaned in, mouth hanging open in shock as he looked at Dorn in disbelief. It wasn’t that he hadn’t assumed some form of challenge, pushback or outright aggression — but never had he expected to take a form such as this.

Taunting. Provocative.

It took Perturabo a full second to close his mouth, and when he did his features darkened in a standoffish expression, high angled brows meeting and creased in the center as he stared back combatively.

“You provoke me?” He shook his head derisively. “It won’t do you any good,” he continued in a sardonic voice, then released his hold around Dorn as neither of them could possibly take this any farther with such limited mobility and range of motion.

“Even should we fight again, your future is still carved in stone, Dorn. I won’t be distracted from my goals. You heard my terms.” A cold, cruel smile crossed his lips but it did nothing to disguise an interest so great, a need so deep that it practically undermined everything he set out to do here as he was broadcasting a weakness; a vulnerability as clearly shown as the images he’d not realized he’d been subjecting Dorn to all this time.

Now finish up before I have to take matters into my own hands.” Perturabo glowered, voice still gruff and unsteady.

With each passing moment his strong and undisguised passionate emotions—both good and bad—betrayed his every attempt to present himself as an uncaring detached machine. And he shifted an instant later, already drawing closer as if he planned to ‘take matters into his own hands’ before even giving Dorn a chance to speak, much less act.

 


 

There were a multitude of factors that lead Dorn to this moment, to his blood running hotter than liquid fire, to his hearts working overtime to pump a cocktail of endorphins, adrenaline and oxygen throughout his body, and even to his lungs taking greedy gulps of laced air and the all scents emanating from Perturabo.

That normally put together and completely stoic brick wall was crumbling in ways that likely none except those in his own Legion would ever understand as everything that had happened, even in the most dire set of circumstances, had breathed something into him that had laid dormant for millennia.

The threat that he would be forced upon did not even register in ways that should have given anyone pause. Dorn should have recoiled, he should have shown nothing but down right disgust towards his Brother. He even should have redoubled his efforts to prevent this.

To no knowledge for Perturabo, it wasn’t as if the Emperor himself sought any measure of consent from his favored sons before subjecting them to things and in ways that would horrify anyone with any measure of a… moral code.

But Perturabo wouldn’t know that.

Even now, despite how fucked up it was, Dorn knew he would prostrate himself before the Emperor if he ever uttered such words, feeling them deep within his very soul to do so —  if not to offer his very body up for punishment of failure. Logically and factually, Dorn knew his continued hold to his Father, despite the circumstances and the agony, it still held strong and above all — he knew how twisted love was.

And how it could be.

Yet, with Perturabo… he could make the choice, a more willing choice, to fall into the yawning abyss that wanted to claw and tear him apart inch by inch, to capture him and string him up in ways that those visions revealed time and time again. Perturabo wanted Dorn, in the most visceral and vicious carnality that he could ever imagine.

In the most horrible, terrible, blasphemous ways.

A throaty moan tore from Dorn’s throat as his mind worked on overdrive and he had begun to pant again; loud and heavy, when Perturabo moved enough so that he could actually get to work.

This would have to be alarming to some extent, for any of their Brothers to see, especially from the more open ones with their affections. This was a side of Dorn that none had gotten to witness or otherwise surely they would have gossiped about it.

But there was a near madness in those darkened hazel eyes, one not touched by any of the Ruinous Powers, but by Dorn's desires alone as his right hand reached out to work on the straps on his legs, freeing both sabatons and greaves alike, soon casting them aside to the pile of golden armor quickly adding up.

The final piece of the gorget around his neck was removed, releasing the last bit of protection for his upper body.

Next came his hands. All the while he had been watching Perturabo but when it came to this part, he broke his gaze away. His actions were slower this time, without the same fervor as he hooked the left handed glove against the right underside of his arm, pulling and tugging at the mechanisms that kept them it place with impatience until it finally snapped off.

With his right hand now free, he, in startling contrast, quickly made light work of the left.

And there, Perturabo could now understand why as he’d be able to watch as vambrace and gauntlet came off together there, the hand of said gauntlet not even falling naturally to the ground, remaining rigid and stiff, locked into position.

Dorn’s left arm ended at the wrist, the body glove covered over every inch of that location, obviously modified to not have the hand cover in place, yet Dorn did not seem all that bothered by the reveal. It was simply second nature at this point, even despite the continued sensations of phantom pain.

Even all these centuries later.

But he wasn’t going to have his focus be on that, he had much more important matters on his mind. Anything that shut out his recurring words and analyses of his actions so long ago was a welcomed reprieve.

Now only left in that extremely form fitting body glove that displayed everything, — it was a simple blackened bodysuit with the only embellishment being that of the golden auric aquila that nestled below his collar bone, between his pecs. Additionally, Dorn’s cock was heavy and engorged in the glove, confining him to a state of a different kind of agony — yet he seemed to welcome it.

What had started as a startling moment of embarrassment was nowhere to be seen as he focused his gaze squarely back on Perturabo, fire behind his eyes.

“You want it, Brother? Come and try to take it. To take me, to claim me.” Dorn challenged as he squared his shoulders, gaze narrowed and mouth still open, still smelling and tasting the heightened tension in the air. There was no hatred, no animosity between his challenge made and who it was intended for, but he was not going to roll over so easily.

Defiant, to the last.

But far more alive than ever.

Notes:

The inside running joke we have had for months on end about Perturabo constantly trying to live his villain arc and Dorn never letting him, began here.

Chapter 5: Defiance

Summary:

Perturabo thinks he knows who is in charge here, but is he really?

Notes:

[This is the worst nonsense we have ever posted. We hope at least someone likes the ridiculous filthy insanity that is Turbobrick because it never gets much better, frankly. These two are a derailed train straight to hell that can't manage to not make everything sexual — while also being prone to totally ruining their own moments and 'someone' also melts down so often that the result is not just porn with plot, its plot laced through the whole stupid degenerate explicit porn thing to the point it can't be unraveled or snipped or faded to black at any point for human decency's sake, lol.

There are also probably single sex scenes that are multiple chapters beyond this — because from the ground up this is RP rather than a clear narrative and that has never shown more clearly than with these disasters.

For us its more about the enjoyment of the point to point moments than getting the hell on with the greater story, so the end result is 'existential crisis, fight scene, plot progression, sex scene, deep conversation, man vs machine, system crash, disaster, fix-it, break-it-again' fic that loops over itself repeatedly with no clear dividing lines between any of these moments. There are two more full fics worth beyond Solitude already written in the backlogs as this spans a long time of RPing, and they still aren't done with their arc in Universum Event 2 lol.]

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Perturabo narrowed his eyes as he met that challenging, openly defiant glare head on, craning his neck and coming closer still as he stared into those dark eyes; and he found himself completely captivated—nearly hypnotized—by the ferocity he witnessed there.

But it was not cold, nor fueled by anger; no. It was an entirely different flair that he found staring back at him, and not of an emotion that he could easily identify.

It was thrilling. And that challenge levied made him want to grind Dorn’s rock solid body into dust.

Perturabo backed off, but he was not backing down. What he was doing, was gaining a proper vantage so he could admire his 'prize', scrutinizing eyes traveling over every portion of Dorn’s body in that skintight suit which hugged him in all the most delightful ways, with extra attention granted to his large, prominent pectoral muscles that looked as though they might be stretching that material to its limit.

After lingering there, Perturabo’s appraisal cut a path downward, over what seemed like endless hills of ripping muscles until his hungry eyes locked on to the impressive and undeniably excited expansion that was somehow potent enough to rise from a tactical suit he full well knew was meant to keep all parts of the wearer’s anatomy close to the body.

Astounding details.

And overall, physical perfection.

Perfection. While there were many more pressing and complicated thoughts assailing him, he could not neglect acknowledging what he saw before him. True perfection, on every level. It pleased and infuriated Perturabo in equal measure.

Beyond that, his confused mind still struggled to process all of the finer points surrounding the situation but it was nothing that either his analytical brain or his cybernetic enhancements could help him discern.

His own actions had been incongruent all this time, but now Dorn’s were as well. Maybe it would have disgusted any entity who dared pass judgment that Perturabo’s grand plan was sexually assaulting his own Brother only  moments after realizing how vital his well-being was to him—and right after vowing to be a better man, as sickening as it was illogical—but none of these details mattered to Perturabo, as he had decided at last that he would finally have him no matter what. He would protect Dorn's life, certainly — as he already harbored notions of eventually abducting Dorn and taking him to Medrengard, in mind.

Though no one else would ever know that.

Perturabo’s passions, while lava-hot, were selfish; worthy of being condemned as childish were they not so genuinely vile, as the only method he’d even considered to acquiring what he wanted was by taking it by force and then holding onto it so tightly and possessively that no one could take away what was his, as if Dorn were nothing more than a highly desirable toy.

That he would stoop so low was no surprise. What was a surprise, was that there were increasingly more and more signs that Dorn was not simply agreeing to his demands out of prudence — but was into it. All of it. At least to the extent he was aware of, at this point in the plan.

The smell wafting off of Dorn’s body was nothing short of aphrodisiac; so potently masculine and delicious, making Perturabo want to genuinely devour him. And now that he’d dared look down at what had caught his attention out of the corner of his vision, Dorn was hard, incredibly so. Evidence of desire in both cases that could not be faked. And seduction that by all accounts, had worked. That was abundantly clear.

But Perturabo had no idea what to think about any of these developments. It was all so contrary to how he envisioned this would go. There were no treaties offered, no defenses mounted — no attempts to stop him in any way, no panic, no fear. Even Dorn’s defiance was a taunt, and he knew it.

He’d always thought way too much about these things and Dorn always hated him as a result in all of his deranged fantasies, leaving him unable to escape that outcome even in the privacy of his own mindscape. In all the many outcomes he pondered, Dorn always hated him for even thinking of violating him in such a way, even when he never acted on it; and deep down Perturabo knew he took action now just to prove himself right. That by force was the only way this would ever play out.

He’d taken things way too far as his initial step solely to ensure that hatred so that he’d never have to face genuine rejection — and accept the fact that Dorn didn’t want him and never would.

Perturabo truly did not know what to do with this new information that even when enacted through deliberate self-sabotage from the very outset, Dorn, in fact, did want this on some level.

But repulsive the upright and pure Rogal Dorn would still find him if he truly knew what Perturabo's true goals actually were…

But this was a Golden Opportunity all the same and Dorn could learn of his true predicament. Later.

For now his slow, predatory gaze trailed back up the same path, all the way back to Dorn’s face, which he glared his hateful, pale-eyed malice into — far different from the uncanny of his bionic red perhaps, but no less embittered.

He glanced down again, to that infuriating aquila gleaming between those huge, bulging muscles; annoyed that even such a trinket was obviously made of that same opulent auric-adamantium that encased Dorn in his tortured visions, and worse — everything about it was no different from the proud and lavish Imperial crest that rose from the back of his gorget, except in miniature.

As if it was something that he himself might have created in his workshop so long ago, if he’d been allowed to work with such fine materials, and if he’d ever once dared to hope that Dorn would ever appreciate his gift.

He looked not only angry but offended suddenly as he snapped his chin up and he glared into those seductive hazel eyes.

“And I will claim you." Perturabo growled in a vain, self-satisfied voice, lips pulled back into a scowl as his hand jolted out to grip the little symbol.

“For the moment I stepped foot on this worthless speck of dirt to claim my prize…” His fingers wrapped around that auric eagle, slipping between its edge and the space between those ample pecs that felt nearly as hard as the metal.

“You have been mine.” Perturabo proclaimed, yanking with all his might as he pulled that emblem free from Dorn’s body glove, tightening his fist around it as he moved his arm back, so that it could not be taken away from him.

 


 

Dorn watched Perturabo, closely, after giving that taunting response. There was confusion somewhere in that bitter expression that he had come to expect from his brother. It was because of that bewilderment that a barest smile graced Dorn's lips, especially when his Brother lingered on some of his choice anatomy.

If only Perturabo knew.

Yet Dorn was not going to reveal anything — until it was absolutely necessary for him to do so.

Barely seconds later, when Dorn had seen that hand reach out rapidly, he had been tensing up to prepare for a counterattack when Perturabo had grabbed the golden trinket and snatched it away, pulling Dorn forward only briefly until the little clasps that had kept it attached to his body glove had given way.

A brow rose at the decidedly childish reaction.

Slowly, he began to move his legs, to return feeling to them and wake them up, taking advantage of the perceived distractions, “Does taking that satisfy you, Brother?” He gestured vaguely with the right hand towards the golden symbol Perturabo now had in his hand.

Though even Dorn could not deny how apt the symbolism actually was.

Grabbing a golden prize in the midst of unyielding darkness

“Will taking me give you a similar elation?”

 


 

Perturabo’s fist squeezed around that aquila so tightly that it would have collapsed in on itself had it been any less resilient metal; instead the sharp points of those tiny wingtips bit into his palm and had almost cut him, its materials and craftsmanship were so great.

Nothing less for Rogal Dorn, after all.

His glare grew hard, strontium eyes glistening with malicious spite as Dorn dared say such an absurd thing to him; somehow equally lascivious as it was scornful, despite being composed of so few words.

The harsher his eyes became, the more unsavory was the sneering grin that had formed from the moment he’d decided what he would do — something he’d already intended before he’d even taken that aquila.

Dorn’s misplaced comment only made the unspoken actions he would take deeper reaching.

“We shall see, in due time. A time that might I add, is quickly and inevitably approaching.” Perturabo said as he opened his hand, then slid that auric bird up into his fingers with his thumb.

"But everything runs on my time and on my terms."

Something in Perturabo’s expression changed though an undeniably misplaced mirth never left him — but it was devoid of any true humor.

 

+--------------------+

A flash—briefer than any before but distinct, so visceral it nearly felt real, opened wide into the expanse—of flickering lights gleaming over blackened metallic control panels that served as the backdrop and spanned the length of a massive enclosed ‘courtyard’ with not a single window nor overhead light source. The walls were lined with monitoring stations and input panels all gleaming and displaying astronomical information and battle logistics at a dizzying pace, green glowing holographic screens fading in and out, overlapping and layering over each other.

On the left, was what may have been described as a drafting desk, lined with objects that would have looked more fitting in an interrogation room or jail cell, while on the right was a forge that would overwhelm even the most knowledgeable of smiths.

And in the center, accessed by gleaming, onyx stairs was a hellishly intricate, cybernetic platform. It was a monument of forbidden dark technology and rose high above the Mainframe that surrounded it. And atop its edifice rested an enormous towering throne; innumerable cables, cords and connectors leading into it. The entire span was a hateful, vile thing — as if it were controlled by something as blasphemous as Abominable Intelligence, for that lavish daemonic seat was empty. But whoever—whatever—was meant to sit upon its surface, was cyclopean in scope. Assuredly no man and not anything that could be considered alive.

+--------------------+

 

A dull, ferric laugh was breathed into the air as Perturabo brought that aquila to his lips, and he licked it, sampling the tang of its cold surface. And it tasted as exquisite as it rightfully should. Without taking his eyes off of Dorn’s, he wrapped his lips around a wing and then bit down, the auric metal snapping off with a loud, crackling crunch. The expression on his face told of every single debauched, deranged thought that gratified his degenerate mind as he chewed that little Golden Morsel as if it were a fine confection.

 


 

There was a tinge of curiosity in Dorn’s eyes as his gaze dropped to watch the aquila symbol as it was being maneuvered through Perturabo's fingers and played with, appearing struck by the want to understand just what Perturabo was actually going to do with it, especially considering the expression that his Brother wore grew more and more unsavory.

Then…

Then Dorn was assailed with a vision not so different than all the other ones before it, revealing the deeper inner workings of wherever and whatever this place actually was that Perturabo inhabited. The context clues alone told him who this location belonged to and the room's likely purpose, as with everything else that had preceded this. Strange sensations crept up his spine as he witnessed the malignant nature of what was far before and towering above him.

And who it was for.

Even despite that, Dorn was intrigued on some level, to know how far his Brother had taken his life's work.

It was only the grating sound of the metal being crunched up that drew Dorn away from his forced daydream, shaking his head. His stare had been faraway in the interim period between then and now; and he blinked with surprise as he watched that golden symbol be slowly consumed by his Brother — left wing first.

Dorn, genuinely, didn’t have anything to say to that, but both brows were raised high as he brought his left arm behind him, likely a subconscious motion as he was far more purposeful on setting his hand on the dusty, cracked ground, muscles tensing as if he was ready to push up.

Yet, even though he was poised to move, he couldn’t look away from what was happening in front of him, mouth opened slightly.

 


 

The tales told by Dorn’s ever-changing expressions were assuredly noted, yet Perturabo appeared unbothered by if not wholly unaware of the intrusive imagery that had caused most of those flickers across that typically enraging stoic face — just like each instance of that strange phenomenon before.

Instead, he took all the credit for causing those fascinating emotional shifts without question, outwardly gloating that he’d made an impact with his actions.

Actions that he continued to take, and escalate.

“Mmmmmnn…” Perturabo moaned deeply as his eyes narrowed blissfully, appearing to savor that shard of auric-adamantite; and he absolutely was, fantasizing that he was actually eating that much larger version that framed and protected the back of Dorn’s head — though he’d probably not have been able to bite though that reinforced armor even when fused with Neo-Logos. Another time, for a larger manifestation.

But the sentiment was authentic, and the fantasy good enough, a rising sense of satisfaction burning in his chest and emblazoned on his face as he stared at Dorn.

And then he popped the other half of that golden bird into his mouth, making uncomfortably intense eye contact as he continued to eat it, the expression on his face and each sound he vocalized making it clear between the crunches that he envisioned what he was consuming in a much more intimate way.

Auric-adamantium within, auric-adamantium without — he thought with amusement as he repurposed his own philosophy as it suited him.

It may have appeared he was being wasteful with his ill-gotten trophy but what he had done was anything but wasteful even though he could hold that little trinket no longer. Dorn's aquila was now a part of him that he would absorb, thanks to the Obliterator virus. That metal would fuse to his bionically enhanced form no matter what shape he took; forever — coating his wires, settling into his core, reinforcing his bones.

A part of Dorn; a part of Perturabo.

And that could never be lost or taken away from him.

Delicious,” Perturabo chuckled darkly. “I expected no less of you.”

Of you, not from you.

Like he perceived this not as ceremony, but as if he’d actually eaten a part of Dorn’s body. But was this simply a ritual or did he truly… believe that?

Unclear, but he swallowed it all down with great satisfaction. The flavor, of sour and bitter cold metal — had a decidedly different note compared to all the other metals he’d ingested throughout his existence. Most agreed with him on some level, but this one was special and he’d never forget that distinct flavor that was most definitely due to the auric properties of that aquila.

 


 

The continued consumption of that pristine golden eagle made Dorn shiver as the metal succumbed to the might of a Primarch’s teeth, especially one such as Perturabo, giving way to smaller and smaller pieces until every bit of it had been consumed, swallowed into that iron gullet.

The additional sounds did little to help Dorn’s situation as that particularly salacious moan felt wired straight to his balls as his cock twitched in the confines of his body glove. All the while Dorn hadn’t looked away for anything, even in his preparations to fight.

Another rush of chemicals plagued his body as the last of his senses were set aflame.

Sure, he certainly should have felt offended by the fact that Perturabo had just eaten the Emperor’s symbol, but Dorn had never been one to levy all worth on the singular object itself, but by the actions that proceeded before, during and after.

That was why it affected him so as it was how Perturabo had taken it into his own hands and symbolically deconstructed it bit by bit. These threats were becoming more and more blatant, and this was perhaps the most telling display, despite how much his Brother spoke about such unsavory topics.

Or displayed unknowingly…

I expected no less of you.

Of him.

There was still that same energy, a surge, from Dorn that he had no intention of concealing. Though he did not speak, there was no denying it when his scent and pheromones were broadcasting it as plain as day as…

Eager anticipation.

In that moment he moved, violently throwing his body backwards and to the right side so he could tuck and roll away in one quick and effortless movement, attempting to put a measure of distance between himself and his Brother.

All the while avoiding the armor that had been cast aside and kicking up dust and debris in his wake.

 


 

Perturabo licked his lips with satisfaction as he finished his snack, though it was a pity that this little hunk of metal would provide nothing omophagic about Dorn to the Mainframe, but he’d taken great pleasure in it anyway; from the ceremonial, to the mundane act of eating it in and of itself — and most of all, in sending a clear and diabolic message to his Brother. One that he couldn’t possibly fail to understand.

He inhaled deeply, thoroughly filling his triplicate lungs with air; all part of his display — but this time he got a display in return. And it was one that couldn’t have possibly been more phenomenal. His system hastened from that stimulation instantly and instinctively — even before his hyper-specialized CPU processed the feedback as his neuroglottis was entirely engulfed by the thick scent of Dorn; and he smelled like sex, primitive and primal, the very manifestation of carnality.

The moment it blanketed over him, he was struck by lightning, an electrified bolt that hit between his legs and rippled out as if his most sensitive nerves had been drenched in liquid fire.

Perturabo jumped in a full body twitch from the overload, a trillion thoughts coming to his mind all at once — not a single one of them wholesome by any definition.

He’d planned on taking action the moment he’d finished making that final point and making sure Dorn understood it, but by mere seconds Dorn had beaten him to the starting line; and he watched with undivided interest as his prey attempted to ‘escape’.

Dorn’s motions were exact, graceful; a marvel to watch, and to Perturabo’s determination after all the clearly exhibited sexual telegraphing Dorn kept supplying to him, he did not feel outraged about this maneuver as he might have, once.

He didn’t understand how it had come to this, how no matter how deliberate his threats became, Dorn met them head on; defiant yet din not react with disdain but escalation. He was baffled, but that was data filed away for later.

Right now he had something far more important to attend to. And he saw Dorn's actions as nothing more than a mating dance, as thoroughly obscene and blasphemous as that was a lens in which to view his own younger Brother.

Exquisite, that forbidden fruit.

With a sense of excitement rather than anger he all but flew from his position, springing from the ground with a speed that belied his massive size. His newly refined prowess was eerily similar to the motions of Neo-Logos, as if that enhanced bio-mechanical dexterity transferred to what appeared to be his natural Primarch body, as well.

Dorn was still no doubt insurmountably quicker if it came down to it, but Perturabo was not hindered one bit by his gigantic mass — and Dorn wasn’t truly trying to escape anyway, nor was he aiming for rearming himself with that lethal chainsword. Of this, Perturabo was sure. And because of all of these things he had not one single notion of transforming into something even more specialized for warfare than his most rudimentary design — despite Dorn appearing to be breaking his ground rules.

This was a game, and it was one Perturabo would take the greatest pleasure in winning.

His linen himation billowed around his bulk as he sailed through the air, taking aim at the target in his sights, and as soon as he’d maneuvered close enough, he dived down, tackling Dorn to the abused ground forced to absorb their weight and impact yet again.

Perturabo had always been larger than Dorn but there was no great size or power disparity any longer; no more risk that he might take this to a lamentable and truly unwanted end. Dorn had been given ample time for his Primarch biology to regenerate, and Perturabo was elated to reenact this moment in the way it should have always unfolded; the way he genuinely wanted it to be. Brother against Brother, Primarch against Primarch — and driven by the unbearable desire that had always powered his actions involving Dorn rather than the rage he was condemned to express it as.

“You will NOT get away from me!” Perturabo boomed, the full strength of his thunderous voice adding to the dust and cracks that they seemed to inflict on this obscure planet everywhere they went. It would be a wonder if there was anything left of it by the time he was done.

 


 

Dorn hadn’t gone far by the time that Perturabo sprang into action, chasing right after him with speed despite his bulk. And his Brother was right, he didn’t go towards his weaponry at all, as that hadn’t been in mind or goal.

He didn’t want to kill Perturabo.

Yet, he certainly wasn’t going to simply surrender without some more satisfaction in this, as he was craving it every bit as much as his Brother was. Besides, he damn well knew how this was riling up the other in turn. After all, his mouth had remained open, lungs taking in and categorizing every little bit of that broadcasted musk.

It was a constant cycle.

The composure he carefully maintained for so long had begun to crack when he had to drink down his own saliva to prevent himself from drooling in such a primitive and crude manner as Perturabo had.

It was completely unbecoming from a Primarch like him.

There was no one to witness this decline in depravity beyond likely the only person in all creation that could have ever gotten him into this state in the first place.

Perturabo made contact with a solid mass as he barreled into Dorn, slamming them both into the ground. Not only was the impact thunderous, there was another noise amidst the sound of their scuffle.

It was a low rumbling, one that could be felt deeply in his chest and seemed to vibrate the air and very ground. Dorn was… growling like an animal as he narrowed his glare to his Brother, caught but barely so, as Perturabo was soon met with a rough shove with quite a lot of force behind it.

 


 

The Unstoppable Force had collided with the Immovable Object, though this time it would be the very land they laid upon that would suffer the siege. Perturabo’s expression was a smug and crooked smile as he glowered down at his prey, captured; though anything but docile. Perturabo’s skin pricked from the deep, low reverberations levied at him as he stared into that aggressive, violent face.

But before he could recover from the posture he’d landed in and scramble to a more effective position, Dorn shoved him with true strength behind it, the energy from Perturabo’s natural recoil working against him as he flew back, grunting loudly as his spine curved into a deep arc.

He’d seen this coming before it connected but hadn’t had the time to fully stabilize, opting instead to use what opportunity he had to transfer his center of gravity to his knees so that he would remain on the ground, straddling Dorn between his hefty, powerful thighs.

It had worked, as he hadn’t given up an inch of the territory he sought so ardently to conquer, but the recoil had left him wide open and he knew it, now anticipating Dorn's next move so that he might try to counter it.

 


 

As Perturabo was thrown back with barely enough force to push him away, the growl never ceased even when his Brother straddled him tightly, keeping as much of his weight on him as he possibly could. However, now Dorn wasn’t as nearly fully sunken into the ground like he had been in the first impact when their battle nearly ended on a much more tragic note.

Instead of throwing a punch or an elbow at the massive machine above him, he bent his legs at the knees behind his Brother, planting his feet firmly on the ruined ground and tensed before rolling his hips upwards, with the full aim to buck Perturabo off of him.

A strategic move. Though he wouldn’t deny how good the friction felt as he arched against his Brother.

 


 

Reeling through the air, it took great effort for Perturabo to keep himself balanced in any capacity, something that regrettably, wouldn’t have been an issue whatsoever had he not been limited to a  more fleshly form as Neo-Logos’ contingency algorithms and pressurized joints would have eliminated this outcome well before it even began.

He was waiting for the Fist that would eventually fly, prepared to catch it though it was 50/50 odds at best, as there was more than the exact angle to predict.

But that blow never came, instead an unbearable esthesia overcame him, more potent than perhaps any pleasure he’d ever known, senses overwhelmed as his groin made full grinding, sliding contact with Dorn’s; and with pressure and force behind it, with nothing but Dorn’s skin tight tactile glove and the scant loincloth beneath his himation layered between them. Those materials might have even increased the sensations as they created friction between their bodies as the hardness and heat was shoved against his cock.

The deep, sonorous groan that Perturabo roared up at the darkening sky echoed in the thin atmosphere as the shockwaves rippled through his entire body, and he rode out that ecstasy as he leaned back, cords and cables splaying around his head in a whipping cascade as he extended his stomach muscles and arched his back until his upper body was almost fully supine.

His eyes rolled into his skull as he reveled in that sensation until it faded out, leaving him even more aroused than he’d been before, the result genuinely painful from the urgency of his overstimulated body instantly demanding that he find relief from all the heightened hormones flooding his system.

And that was an instinct he’d fall headlong into without a modicum of inhibition.

Perturabo sprang forward quickly, the rippling of his spine like a snake as he pulled himself upright again, adamantium blue eyes crazed and wild as Dorn’s face came into view. His expression was far more animal than simulacrum, and he was drooling again.

Gigantic hands reached out for Dorn’s neck, and as soon as he found purchase, he slipped his fingers behind, aggressively fumbling with the zipper at the back collar of that body glove with a daemonic intensity that wasn’t as effective as he might have hoped in his frenzy. He squeezed his thighs against Dorn with great force so that he couldn’t get away again. As he struggled to get that zipper free with Dorn pressed to the ground as he was, Perturabo was already rutting and grinding against him from above as if to give a demonstration of what it was he’d do the micro-instant it was made possible.

 


 

As his attempts ended up being for naught, another growl emanated from deep within Dorn’s throat. This particular tone was not only a warning as it was laced with an undercurrent of pure frustration at not being able to complete what he had intended to do.

It didn’t help that he still was, for all intents and purposes, in a weakened state. Due to his own negligence with not keeping himself at the top of his prime. He’d change that, he would — if he managed to survive.

As those legs around him tighten further, he was met with a delightful squeeze, eliciting his own moan that broke the growling when he threw his head backwards into the dirt.

Dorn was unbearably horny even before Perturabo began to rut against him like some sort of untamed beast finally finding a mate to breed.

Unfortunately for his Brother, trying to fumble with that zipper while also shoving Dorn into that fine dirt, was making getting that annoying piece of metal pulled down very difficult amidst all of the fumbling. Not even Dorn could aid in that regard as he thrusted a hand out to try and grab Perturabo by the throat.

 


 

Perturabo was so hyper-focused on his goal that he didn’t predict retaliation in the form of that strong hand that was now gripping his throat; hadn’t even noticed it until it was unexpectedly there he’d been so single minded in the pursuit of his desire.

He growled as soon as he felt those fingers wrap around him, staring down at Dorn furiously as he made pointed eye contact. The unsavory smile that curled at his lips was nearly a taunt of his own, as if he was just daring Dorn to try it.

Though one good thing was that the unexpected attack had managed to ground him, bring his focus back to the situation at hand.

He’d become so exceptional in the many years that had passed, transformed into something better described as a construct than a person, but all that had seemingly fallen away when in the presence of his own kind after so long.

Or maybe it was only Dorn that could have served as such a catalyst, the antithesis of all he strove to be.

Regardless of the reasons, he had reverted back into something that was not nearly as faultless as he’d once been; and he knew it in this moment as he reflected on how he’d become incredibly sloppy in all ways since he’d first landed on this wretched planet.

No, well before then. From the moment he saw that face in his mind’s eye after so damnably long.

He tried to yank himself away from Dorn’s clutches while still messing with that zipper though now he was actually managing to be somewhat effective, succeeding in pulling it down a couple of centimeters.

 


 

Just like that, the grip relented, even after the challenging staredown; yet through the brief moment that he was pulled up when Perturabo moved backwards, his Brother had gained a bit of what he wanted — to pull down more of that zipper further.

It was because of the sensation of the stagnant air finally hitting his upper back that Dorn had let go in an effort to slam his back into the dirt and press down hard, making access all that more annoying to reach.

Dorn sneered up at him, showing teeth and old, dried blood. Blood that still stained quite a bit of his facial hair.

There was no masking his true desires though, even now.

 


 

When Dorn loosened his grip, it felt to Perturabo like he was winning. Even more so due to their movements aligning perfectly to be able pull that zipper down.

The sensation of even that small section splitting in half and coming free bolstered his anticipation, mouth hanging open as he stared down at Dorn as if he were a meal brought out by servants for him to sample.

But that was brought to a disappointing untimely end all too soon when Dorn forced himself down into the earth, stating plainly that he’d rather stain himself with dirt than allow Perturabo access to his prize.

With an irritated growl, Perturabo let go, raising up on his knees to give needed clearance as his hands reached out in tandem to try and slip under Dorn enough to be able force him to move; and with all the gripping and grasping and pulling and tugging it was blatantly obvious where it was that Perturabo thought Dorn should be.

Lying prone with his chest against the ground, his face in the dust and the rubble. But Dorn was incredibly strong, especially with gravity on his side as he braced his weight while tensing up. And worst of all, was that body glove. It was so tight he couldn’t pull it away from Dorn’s skin, and so sleek that he couldn’t manage to get a good grip on it while being unable to slide his hands beneath him.

It was maddening, Dorn's face framed with tiny hints of sweat and caked in blood, the scent that he emitted even now enveloping him; Perturabo's actions grew more frantic and he twisted his wrists down before beginning to claw at the ground, determined to find a way to grab Dorn, even if he had to dig him out of his fortress to do so. It wouldn't take much, he only needed enough clearance to be able to wriggle his hands beneath the small of Dorn's back…

 


 

The sheer cocktail of everything was like a dizzying drug to Dorn as he laid there on his back, pressing so hard against the earth that he might crack it without impact, simply by absolute determination.

Every action was so sexually charged that it awakened things deep within Dorn, things that had not been fed to the fire in so long.

Yet here, Perturabo was stoking the flames in just the right ways as if they had been lovers this entire time.

Try as he might, Dorn could not delay the inevitable wrought by Perturabo’s pure persistence in getting exactly what he wanted and what he felt that he deserved after so many millennia.

Digging in the ground allowed the coveted purchase that his Brother so eagerly sought.

 


 

Dust and dirt, gravel and rocks sprayed out in a dry, desiccated cloud as Perturabo frantically worked on digging his enemy out of his fortifications; and in short order that somehow still felt far too long, he succeeded.

When that little wedge hewn out of the solid ground beneath Dorn opened up enough to allow his thick fingers to slip in, he shoved the rest of his hand roughly below Dorn’s back and began to lift him and as soon as he could, he aggressively pushed him to the side, ‘encouraging’ him to roll over — but if he did not assist that was still no matter as Perturabo would do it for him. And once he’d pivoted that tensed up rock hard body somewhat, his other hand quicky joined in, easily getting a good hold on him now.

With frantic urgency and nothing that could ever be described as gentleness, Perturabo managed to rotate Dorn onto his side and as soon as that were possible he slammed him down into that craggy earth with a frustrated, guttural growl; one hand reaching for that consternating zipper while the other sank into once-snowy hair, now looking more like rust from the flecking, dried out blood and the clay soil that had been ground into it. He began undoing the zipper with jerking tugs as he pulled on that hair with a tight, merciless grip.

“I said you will NOT get away from me!” Perturabo bellowed his belligerent outrage. “And I warned you… I offered you a peaceful surrender. You’ll pay for that mistake.” He made his threats in a passionate, husky voice that shook and sputtered from the strain of the lust he was under, his mind and hearts running hot as spots flickered across his vision. He stared down at the flesh he was revealing; rippling muscles beneath skin so smooth, like velvet over polished stones.

“You will submit,” Perturabo hissed like a feral beast. “One way or another. Do I make myself clear, Little Brother?”

 


 

Suddenly, just like that, the world spun in Dorn’s vision. Where he once stared up at the endless and barely starlit cold sky, bathed in that severely dimmed light of a dying star, was now subjected to the dirt, grime and fine dust of the planet. There was a loud crack as his head slammed into the hard rock, causing him to choke on the dust that all of their scuffling had brought up.

This was followed by a sputter as Perturabo’s large hand shoved his face into the dirt, the action done so violently that in the following seconds, he could taste the blood from his nose draining down into his mouth and between parted lips. Struggling against his Brother, Dorn turned his head to spit out a wad of blood.

And then the moment passed as he was shoved down into the dirt again until those large hands pulled and yanked his short-cropped bone-white hair, the long closed wound feeling as it it had opened again to sully his hair further.

Perturabo found that, aside from the area that had been covered in blood, Dorn’s hair was surprisingly soft, especially in those spots that had sported a much closer shave to the scalp. It had been clearly maintained in a meticulous fashion, just as his facial hair was. Actions that were likely done more out of routine than anything else.

Even so, such efforts did not reveal themselves now considering that he was covered in the fine dust and blood that changed what his hair color truly was.

His right hand clawed uselessly into the dirt when Perturabo bared down on him enough to where trying to resist now was a laughable idea. He did tense under his Brother though, as Perturabo continued to make threats.

No, these weren’t threats. They were promises, promises that had been clearly given to him when Perturabo had first made his twisted interest known. Those broadcasted scenes played back in his mind again, always flickering out of full view, yet subjecting his body with increased blood flow and aching breath as he envisioned it.

With his erection trapped between his body glove and now pressed into the ground, a growling groan escaped deep in his throat, a noise he had no interest in concealing. All the while the cooler stagnant air met his back as more and more of his skin was revealed to Perturabo’s greedy gaze.

The darker body glove gave way to much paler skin and, despite all the battles Dorn had ever been subjected to, his body seemed to be free of any imperfections or marks. The only thing that even marred his skin in any way were those various ports for his Black Carapace.

Even still, whatever healing properties Primarchs possessed had clearly favored Dorn and now, it was as if Perturabo was revealing a taut canvas ready for a fresh coat of paint.

Trapped underneath Perturabo, Dorn was fully panting, inhaling the dirt and the charged air alike as that heady mix of musk and pheromones coated over the both of them within their close proximity. There was no denying the sheer sexual attraction they shared with one another and now that Perturabo had bullied his way past all his attempts to resist, Dorn barely made any motions telegraphing he was trying to get away.

Whether that was due to the actual exhaustion or the warnings Perturabo made, it was difficult to tell for other party. Yet, for Dorn, it had been all of some sort of fucked up game in his mind — that he had wanted to feel, to the taste the delicious sample of pain that Perturabo would deliver to him if he stepped out of line.

Exhaling sharply, Dorn licked his bloody lips a moment afterwards and when he spoke to respond, there was still the low rumbling undercurrent of a growl that echoed deep within his chest.

Yes, Brother.”

Dorn relented, giving his Brother the reins.

 


 

The feeling of that dense, resilient, rock-solid little body being manipulated in his hands like clay was so incredibly satisfying to Perturabo; and each crunch and crack and cough and groan that he forced out of Dorn was like the finest music. But together those sounds combined to form a fascinating symphony that made him want to take everything so much further — just to discover how Dorn’s performance might transform with continued… ‘encouragement’.

How much would it take to make Dorn break out into a chorus of moans, to make him beg and cry out again and again? To make him scream for mercy…? The Stoic One hadn’t even pleaded to save his own skin earlier when he’d been overcome by something likely beyond his means to stave off. Perhaps it wouldn’t have ended in the worst possible way, but the potential was certainly there — and while Dorn had reached out to him in the end, it wasn’t in despair. He was far too accepting of whatever may come; and far too reserved even in the midst of possibly dying.

Perturabo didn’t want to kill Dorn! — what he wanted was to watch him squirm, make him suffer. But how to accomplish such a thing, as he was? Perturabo had a working theory but there was far too much missing data he couldn’t extrapolate, too many nuances involved that eluded his overly utilitarian thought processes.

It was an enigma that Perturabo ached to solve.

Maybe he’d brought everything to a finality so absolute in that final moment, that Dorn simply resigned himself to his fate; deprived of hope. The very hope Dorn needed to cling to in order to endure — rather than nobly face his demise head on as he had…

If so, maybe Perturabo only needed to apply pressure gradually, subject him to survivable but increasingly overwhelming stimuli over a longer period of time; and wear him out. Outlast his endurance. Break him down a little more slowly…

Brick by brick.

His hearts increased their frantic, de-synced pounding at the very thought of that, a trickle of strangely shimmering saliva dripping down his chin as his erection cramped so painfully it caused his legs to spasm; and he sputtered wordless growls while he rode out the sting.

Perturabo still didn’t have a plan of action, but perhaps he didn’t need one. While he was exacting and methodical in most everything he did, in this situation, discovering the solution gradually and in real-time would have its own benefits…

He stared down like a carrion eater at the revealed flesh framed by the parting of that body glove, Dorn’s skin maddeningly velvet from the sheen of a superfine layer of tiny, colorless hairs that caused him to appear as if he were glistening in the faint light of dusk.

It made Perturabo want to devour him…

He pressed his massive hardness against Dorn’s thighs, causing them to part slightly below his weight, and he reached down with the hand that had been undoing the zipper to pin Dorn down, palm pressed roughly against the small of his back.

Perturabo’s other hand released its vice-like grip from Dorn’s skull so that he could admire the ruination of snow-white hair; it's ethereal qualities contaminated by the dry soil smeared into it, turning it flaming orange from the minerals that had been absorbed. And in the center of that spiral pattern that looked like a setting sun, was the vivid nearly neon red glistening of fresh blood that was soaking into those soft locks.

So pale in every conceivable way, Dorn was a prepared canvas powdered with marble and coated in gesso — demanding to be made into a true work of art.

And above all else, Perturabo was a master artisan.

He leaned down, extending his broad, gigantic body forward as he laid himself against Dorn, free arm wrapping around him after slipping between that opened body glove and Dorn’s chest, fingers aggressively forcing their way inside as he peeled that form fitting material from sweat slicked skin.

The other hand had slowly slid up and out of the way with the change of his positioning as he strategically worked to pin Dorn down in a more snug way; and once he’d achieved that goal that hand was immediately wrapping around Dorn’s throat. The pressure was kept moderate, not choking but making a clear proclamation that could change if needed.

And then, once he was exactly where he wanted to be, he began to suggestively, disgustingly rut between those parted thighs and the lower curves of Dorn’s ass through their clothes as he bent his head down.

With not a bit of hesitation or second thought he ran his lips, his tongue, his teeth though Dorn’s stained and dirtied hair, eating like the Obliterator he was as he consumed dried iron-tinged flecks of old blood and terracotta soil; working his way in until he began to suck and drink down the fresh bright red blood from Dorn’s hair.

He turned his neck and leaned in.

Mine. Do you understand…” He growled deep, vox-touched threats into Dorn’s ear, yet did not wait for an answer. It was no question, after all.

Then Perturabo returned to his endeavors, long metallic and rubber insulated cables dangling down as he was methodically parting sections of that soft, silken hair with his tongue, licking, suckling, nibbling at the back of Dorn's skull; cleaning skin and hair and carapace ports alike, savoring every moment with no less enthusiasm in which he’d consumed that auric aquila — and likely with no less dire symbolism of… darker things he had not done.

Yet.

Chapter 6: Attrition

Summary:

Losing a battle can sometimes win the war.

Notes:

[Author's Note — (Empyrean Magpie): As so many Primarchs have animal influences and traits (Lion, Fulgrim, Russ, Konrad, Sanguinius, Mortarion, Magnus, Vulkan, Corvus and so on), my Rogal Dorn has characteristics of a polar bear due to his hair and eye color and the state of Inwit's harsh climate. The culture of his homeword is Sami influenced and Dorn has strange polar bear like physical adaptations including scent marking, underfur and a lot of body hair though it is all velvet and furlike rather than normal hair. Dorn is also very waterproofed, insulated and well-suited to frigid water.]

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Those nearly imperceptible, fine little colorless hairs stood on end as more and more of Dorn's skin was exposed to the cold air of this nameless planet. The chill was immediately contested as that large hand slipped between his body glove and his chest with Perturabo adding his weight and heat against him.

What Perturabo would roughly feel was an even thicker section of Dorn’s body hair when those fingers splayed along his chest, now trapped by Dorn’s weight from above. It was still soft to the touch.

The hand around his throat cut off any noise he potentially could have made by the sheer will to remain quiet and he used his face being pressed against the ground to facilitate that while his Brother rocked his clothed and covered erection against his covered body.

Dorn’s body reacted almost inadvertently, with his legs spreading out of a trained reflex, letting Perturabo have unfettered access to grind against his ample ass.

The sensation drove Dorn wild as the friction rocked his own engorged cock against the hard ground. It was nearly overwhelming to the point that he bit his own tongue to stop himself from finding completion too soon — though that would have certainly never meant that he wanted to stop.

Another thing he was becoming increasingly aware of was the sound of chewing against his scalp as Perturabo licked and nibbled the back of his head in such a dangerous and particularly ravenous way. The strange tongue bath left him both hot and cool.

Soon enough, an aroused sigh escaped him every time that Perturabo got a bit too intimate with one of the Black Carapace ports, especially with the one that was connected to his brain stem.

During the entire happening, not once did Dorn ever stop indicating exactly how this all made him feel. Not only was he shuddering from the most minute of touches, his whole body was thrumming with sexual energy. He was certain that the rapid beating of his hearts were surely to drive the point of his excitement home to Perturabo, stubborn as he was.

The fingers of his right hand dug into the dirt, clawing uselessly while Perturabo began to suck on the blood that had begun to draw forth. The constant slew of stimulation had Dorn tensing his legs as he rolled his hips as much as he could against the ground below, matching Perturabo’s rutting motions.

 


 

Perturabo was under the strain of what nearly combined into total sensory overload as his every neural pathway was dominated by all that was Dorn; from his grinding, enticing movements to the throbbing of his racing hearts, the heated breath glancing over his arm as he struggled for air beneath him, the sleek moist skin and soft body hair against his palm, the taste of his sweat, his hair, his blood — a salty cocktail of trace minerals beneath strong notes of highly oxygenated cells amidst a base of copper and Iron that was delicious — no brew ever made by hand able to even come close to such a perfect, intoxicating flavor.

And that scent that only got stronger and stronger, with that body glove open and much more of the surface of Dorn’s skin now being exposed.

He realized how sensitive Dorn’s access ports were, nearly as much as his own somehow; could feel the jolts and jerks of his muscles in reflexive response as he manipulated them, which was especially delightful to him for so many reasons that elated him now, surely. But this filled him further with a malicious and lascivious excitement for plans he was devising for later. And with that vile joy humming in his black core he swirled his tongue around the rim of that module; into the gap between that edge and the beveled port in the center and everywhere else he could reach.

Then, he jerked his head back and to the side, pressing his lips nearly against Dorn’s ear, clay and metal and blood on his breath as he spoke in a rumbling growl.

“Do you know what you smell like, Brother?” Perturabo demanded to know in a scathing, accusatory tone, as if he were trying to shame him for it — while claiming every bit of space he could between them as he pressed his hungry cock inside those spread legs and roughly against Dorn's ass from behind.

 


 

True to his inner nature, whenever Perturabo passed the outermost rim and inside that port, Dorn would jerk involuntarily, as if one of his nerves was touched, which it might as well have been. Such movements were also reacted by that long hand digging more scours into the dry ground.

At the question though, even while Perturabo pressed against him in completely sinful ways, Dorn spoke with that hand around his throat in an even tone, the growl having disappeared.

“Yes, Brother. I smell like a composition of sweat, blood, pheromones and musk. And desire. In addition to what fine particulates are currently in the dirt itself.”

He spoke in the most Dorn way as possible, matter-of-factly and true to form, though most terms were rather broad in the grand scheme of his analysis.

However, he wore a coy smirk on his face, an expression mostly hidden by his facial hair, but there nonetheless.

 


 

"Thank you for that relaying of data, Brother. And according to my sensory readout, your summation is quite accurate." Perturabo retorted dourly in an irritable tone. But he was quite clearly not offput by anything transpiring here. Not by a long shot.

 


 

"Yes, of course it is. You're welcome." Dorn continued, voice still agonizingly even — even while his chest rising and falling so dramatically should have had him panting by now as he watched Perturabo in his peripheral vision.

 


 

Perturabo smirked, annoyed by the tonal shift that had descended upon the conversation since he’d asked Dorn a question. It infuriated him to see his enemy so composed now; so unbothered by the predicament he was in, so clearly in control of this situation and steadfast to the end.

“How gracious of you.” Perturabo hissed, leaning in so that he could glare his strontium petulance into dark eyes that displayed not one indication of fear.

Was what had happened earlier not even as tenuous as it had seemed at the time? Had Perturabo only assumed that it was so close to such a terrible end because he couldn’t afford to lose Dorn? Had he underestimated the fortitude Dorn surely possessed, overcome by worry brought on not by reality but the potency of his own emotions?

Likely. Dorn would never break so easily. He’d never managed to break him in the past even when giving it his all.

…In fact, upon more thought, it was all but guaranteed. Perturabo had fallen into his own anxieties and fostered sense of guilt unnecessarily — and in doing that, he’d revealed his weakness.

That truly, thoroughly, entirely pissed him off.

With a renewed sense of spite and bitter indignation turning along with the gears grinding in his mind, he was determined to take charge of the situation again.

Dorn was not the one in control, here.

“But that was not what I meant, not exactly.” He smiled hatefully.

“You smell like you want to be fucked. And ‘luckily’ for you… I fully intend to violate you this day — make no mistake, Rogal Dorn.” Perturabo’s voice was as cold as chilled metal, yet there was a telling shudder that somehow ran hot as his voice shook with passion when he spoke that accursed name.

Slowly, he’d finally come to realize today that he’d never—in all the many years that had passed—wanted to hurt Dorn indiscriminately; engage in torture simply for torture’s sake. It wasn't like that at all — though the specifics of the truth did not make him any kinder.

This had always been about his need to be seen, to be noticed, to be worthy of Dorn’s attention; the desires of a longing heart that craved to be let in behind those impenetrable walls. Obsessive feelings that had turned dark in desperation; and now after so many miserable years, it had transmuted into cruelty. Once, a smile would have been enough: a gentle laugh, a soft touch; quiet respect, benevolent closeness. Now, Perturabo would only be appeased by offerings made from the most extreme fringes of human emotion. But he was through waiting, and he no longer required Dorn to volunteer them or take the initiative. In fact, as it was now, Perturabo would much prefer to wring blood from a stone with his own two hands.

And that was what had caused him to take things too far, because that sort of personal, intimate vindication was not what Neo-Logos was created to inflict. His own flesh and bones would be the proper instrument for this extraction, and far more appropriate to indulge in the results.

As his impatient, burning cock was reminding him, each tick of his pulse like fire in his veins.

Yet he was no longer convinced he’d almost killed his adversary. That had been another instance of hubris, of him being his own worst enemy due to being so easily influenced by his attachments.

But what of Dorn? Why was he so excited, so thoroughly immersed now? Did Dorn have some kind of deep dark secret, some shameful masochistic fetish that Perturabo had accidentally discovered — and, had inadvertently indulged so completely that Dorn couldn’t control his bodily responses despite trying? Or were his reactions nothing more than an attempt to appease him; the stratagem to endure that he deduced was the most likely way to leave him unscathed and able to survive another day?

Perturabo would experiment until he found the answers.

But it was with no small amount of repugnant, cruel humor that upon considering this, his first thought was that enduing whatever was inflicted on him was indeed one of Dorn’s most common strategies. That had taken a whole new meaning now…

One that was more likely than ever as he had just clearly revealed that he was confident about how this would turn out, unless he was bluffing now.

But Perturabo wasn’t about to let Dorn make a fool of him, or get the upper hand.

And no one would be coming to save him. This would be a battle of attrition, but Perturabo had all the time in the world to wear down this Bastion of Stone.

“I will claim you. I will rape you. And you will be compliant and submit to me or I will beat you into submission. Do I make myself clear?

 


 

Dorn stilled his motions as much as Perturabo had done so and it seemed like his intention was to fully listen to Perturabo as he risked turning his head to at least stare at him far more pointedly, just as Perturabo leaned in to get a better view of his face.

Good, Dorn had a feeling that all of this was leading to something in the next coming seconds and thus endeavored to make sure that Perturabo saw his reactions up front and center. He’d already understood that his Brother was trying to gauge certain things, judging by the way he went about speaking.

As if trying to find conclusions to a hypothesis in a test.

While the stare down continued, he briefly licked his lips in a slow and deliberate manner, to the degree that one could have almost concluded it was a flirting gesture as Dorn licked off some of the blood on his face from it being repeatedly slammed into the ground. The action only added to the peculiar nature of this exchange.

There was an instant dilation of those hazel eyes as Perturabo spoke so icily to him and a wave of goosebumps that traveled down Dorn’s body was the prize, those fine little hairs standing up once more as his gaze blazed at the utterance of his name.

It wasn’t until Perturabo took the threats too far that there was an immediate reaction to those disgusting words. Yet, it was wholly unlikely what Perturabo had ever expected from Dorn of all people. The steadfast and stoic bulwark that was never impacted by anything no matter the source, that could rebuff and repel anything and likely anyone.

But here…

His eyes dilated further until there was only the smallest of a ring of color. The black was striking against the paleness of the rest of Dorn and likely revealed far more than words ever could. As Dorn was not indicating fear, but the pure, unmistakable presence of lust.

Something that didn’t go away one bit the moment that Perturabo even brought up beating Dorn senseless. In fact, it briefly looked that Dorn was salivating.

Dorn understood how awful this entire situation was, especially after clocking on how maddened his Brother was with desire and what he wanted to do to Dorn — but Dorn found every bit of it undeniably hot for reasons far beyond the obvious. It was sheer blasphemy in how much he wanted Perturabo to make good on his threats.

Both said and unsaid.

He wanted, no needed, to be punished.

This situation just happened to be the most pleasing form he could think of though any normal person would have balked at the fucked up sense of morality Dorn placed on this.

His Father had taught him well.

Perhaps a bit too well.

 


 

In all of Perturabo’s melancholic daydreams and unholy cyber-fantasies; no matter how kind or cruel he was, no matter how it all came to pass, no matter how it all ended — the one constant torturing his broken hearts and ruined soul mercilessly even in the privacy of his own mind, was that Dorn hated it no matter what. And hated him, too. It was what led him to this vacant planet, what had caused him to attack Dorn so brutally, what had made him reveal his feelings at long last in the most disgusting manner he could think of — because even in those previously seldom times he dared to wish for something good, his mind would not allow him peace or any happiness. It always, without fail, ended in rejection and violence.

But here, there was clear and undeniable evidence that could not be refuted that even when Perturabo’s desires took the most disgusting form and while being presented in the most blunt and repugnant way possible, Dorn liked it despite it all.

No, Perturabo corrected himself. It was even weirder than that.

It wasn’t despite it.

The upstanding Golden Fortress of nobility, honor and integrity liked it because it was disgusting and repugnant. There was no denying those glistening, aching, lustful eyes, pupils so enlarged with interest and fascination that they nearly consumed his irises.

Perturabo had begun to suspect such from the moment that irresistible smell had nearly knocked him over — undeniable, undisguised as it beckoned him on an instinctual level that set his every nerve to lightning; the primal and potent pheromones of a horny Primarch. Not strange on its own but in Dorn's case it so intense it was as if—no matter the improbability of such a thing ever being necessary in any form or even possible in their singularly male-sexed, sterile, bioengineered ‘species’—that Dorn was in heat and begging in desperation to be bred.

Never in his life had Perturabo ever experienced anything so strong, so compelling, so raw, not even when he’d indulged in pleasures of the flesh eons ago, had it ever been like this. But his balls immediately understood that call even when his Mainframe did not. And with every moment that provocation intensified until now, it had crested to such heights as he stared into those strangely debauched hazel eyes that he thought he might tear Dorn to shreds.

And so deeply into his self-loathing and self-defeatist tendencies Perturabo had fallen, that he assumed that as it stood now, it was far too late to take any pleasure in anything that did not end with Dorn’s misery and suffering. What a twisted conundrum everything was, as in this moment he knew that while there would be all this and more, there would be more enjoyment in it than he ever thought possible.

…Somehow, that was sweetest of all, and yet… it made him want to be even worse for it…

His hand slid away Dorn’s throat to sink into dampened sunny orange and pale pink hair—the landscape he had painted with his tongue by thinning all that blood and debris—and he yanked, firmly before forcing himself on Dorn with a rough kiss that was off center and not capable of being fully initiated from this angle, but he didn’t care.

Perturabo began to simulate fucking in a much more overt way as he pushed his hips sloppily into the awaiting curves of Dorn’s firm, ample ass; the rising warmth turned blistering heat he was sure they could both feel between the fabrics that kept them barely apart, the glove that Dorn wore conforming to his shape so completely that there wasn’t any empty space to lessen the exploratory nature of how their bodies felt when slamming into one another.

 

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The scene opened up in the black expanse, but was kept to a singular space again; a familiar room returned, of vile glowing screens and coiling, malicious, intrusive cables — of the plight of an abducted, confined victim tied down and suspended. And yet, there was more happening now than ever before, no longer reduced to a husk languishing in the limbo of stasis, in nothingness. For while there was precious little light and no clear view, there was no mistaking the way that dangling silhouette had been repositioned within the slack the hanging cords provided.

It was finally revealed, why such a captive had ever been granted any slack at all. For instead of hanging upright, the prisoner was now being restrained and held immobilized at an angle, nearly horizontal. And with a steady, ceaseless and sickeningly repetitive rhythm punctuated by mechanical sounds, that body was bounced by a constant, violent and merciless force being inflicted upon it from behind. While there was no direct confirmation of what was occurring in this blasphemous hellscape of sensory deprivation and implied torture, there was also no denying the dark, crass and despicable nature of what exactly it was that the helpless victim was enduring from the algorithms of a diabolic, unfeeling machine.

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And as the scene broke apart in the ether, leaving nothing but the dusty, cold reality of a solitary empty planet in its wake, there was also no doubting the motions in that vision matched up with laser precision to the same rhythm Perturabo now maintained as he moved against Dorn like a wild animal throughout that wet and messy kiss.

 


 

There was a glint in Dorn’s eyes, as if he derived some type of satisfaction at making Perturabo pause to have to consider what it all meant. Even now, despite how most of the situation was squarely in Perturabo’s favor, there were little victories such as this that brought a different sort of pleasure to him.

Perturabo didn’t understand what he was getting into, not that Dorn could really fault him for not understanding the downright questionable means of which he sought out his forms of repentance.

It was only intensified when it was Perturabo being given the means to provide him what he needed. A man that he had neglected, not out of spite or maliciousness, but as a product of the Emperor’s will. All the better, really.

Perturabo was his equal. He could think of no better suited to fit this role, even including the dark desires he could spot festering behind those calculating and cold pale eyes. So as Perturabo went in for a bruising kiss, Dorn responded with all the fervor that he could, to the point of being deranged.

Lips against lips and tongue against tongue pressing harshly until he threatened to knock their teeth together. That was, until he relented as Perturabo began to grind his hips against his backside, continuing to make a promise for what was soon to come and what he sought. Dorn wanted nothing more to free the both of them yet Perturabo had prevented that through the right—or wrong—hand placements.

And so he did the next thing he could do, to ineffectively hump the ground from his trapped position. Every motion pulled away from him had him ‘move’ away as well, though of his own initiative until he could press back into Perturabo and that throbbing cock.

Then…

It happened again, right as he was swallowing down some more of that extremely strange and slick saliva his Brother produced, his mind’s eye played the scene out as if he was actually present and there. What he seen had him moaning around Perturabo’s tongue and in his mouth as his mind replicated those suggested sensations all over again.

Just like it had done before.

Stimulation led to overstimulation and Dorn was lost in the feeling as Perturabo’s movements matched exactly with rhythm of those thrusting pistons in that vision.

Full of stamina, Dorn did not even pause when a louder guttural groan was swallowed up in that greedy mouth as an additional scent was released to the air.

Something that made his body glove a bit more sticky inside.

 


 

Perturabo was left in a state of shock and wonder — but one he met with no less enthusiasm as he was assailed by such aggressive, demanding kisses; their mouths clashing in a way that was nothing less that a battle. It left Perturabo’s head spinning despite his many augmentations that were meant to allow him to surpass all the vulnerabilities of the parts of him that could be called human. If any of those ever existed in the first place as a Primarch.

But Dorn had knocked down barriers time after time in such a way that it proved that no matter how far he took his enhancements, Dorn himself would always be Perturabo's  greatest flaw. Yet he could not bring himself to mind that one bit as things continued on this path that no doubt led to equal yet very different forms of personal damnation.

As he felt Dorn thrusting and gyrating in vicious, overexcited motions, throwing his weight between himself and the ground, he knew that this situation was quickly coming to an end — the stimulation of both physical friction and the mere thought of the filthy, disgraceful actions the honorable Dorn was guilty of, sending him past all remaining reserves of patience.

Yet as he pulled back to take in a heaving, rasping open breath through his mouth and nostrils, it wouldn’t have mattered how much he may have wanted to draw this moment out before — his sensitive, cybernetically enhanced neuroglottis completely overwhelmed by a distinct smell along with a detailed breakdown of information that followed through the glowing green and teal panels that spread and folded throughout his peripheral vision.

But Perturabo needed no assistance in identifying this new salty, acrid smell; primitive and essential in nature, unbearable and provoking in physicality.

It was more than he could take, both for its native properties and in the mental instability it created, from knowing that Dorn came.

Perturabo threw himself back with a sharp jerk in astonishment and haste, cables clacking loudly from the motion; and his huge hands were immediately upon the open edges of that form fitting suit that was suddenly and insufferably in his way.

He growled and sputtered like the crazed daemon he took great efforts in concealing beneath his roboticized mass, gripping and tugging and yanking and pulling in a frenzy that also contradicted anything that he could have ever presented as disaffected and detached; driven by frantic, furious actions that were of no unfeeling mechanism and surpassed even the aggression he had shown when peeling Dorn out of his armor.

And as he braced himself there on his knees, behind Dorn as he seemed intent to rip that body glove to pieces in an ineffective rampage, it was abundantly clear that the internal timer linked to the warhead that was Perturabo was now counting down its final seconds before detonation.

 


 

Dorn absolutely knew that his actions had been found out, not that he had been really trying to conceal what he had been doing by any stretch of the imagination. But being subjected to that level of psyker visions and the backlash from them had created a level of impatience that cause even Dorn’s own walls to crack.

Yet it seemed that Perturabo was none-the-wiser for having been the cause of them in the first place which was both maddening and curious at the same time. If it was inadvertent, then Dorn realized exactly how pliant it made him.

And the want to know what it all really felt like. Something he realized was to be his fate in due time and in no uncertain terms. It should alarm him, truly, but why deny it for now? Dorn, at one point, might have felt this was simply the tempting call of Chaos trying to lure him, yet his Brother held no banner for anyone but himself despite becoming Traitor so long ago.

This, all of this was of his own accord.

Just as dangerous as ever, but far more real.

As Perturabo pulled back with the damning pants of a man salivating, Dorn finally began to move, planting his hand on the dirt and pushing himself up enough so he could get onto his knees, even as those large hands groped and grabbed his skin and suit in equal fervent measure.

In this action, to prevent Perturabo from getting belligerent and suspicious, Dorn spoke — voice taking a stern tone even if he, too, had the aroused undercurrent that could not leave his vocal cords entirely. “A moment.”

He didn’t even wait for further response as he brought his arms into himself, working to slip parts of that exceedingly form fitting body glove off him in short order. His actions were purposeful, yet the barest shake of his hand belied the want to just get it over with and into what was far more enticing to think about. Even though Dorn already came from the overstimulation inflicted on him, he was very, very far from done.

First he slipped out his right arm that, in turn, allowed him to pull the limb out from the left. The first thing noticed was likely the arm stockinette that covered that left arm. Beyond that, those same fine tiny hairs, no fur, seemed to cover up and trail down Dorn’s arms as much as it had down his back, leaving that same glistening look spanning across him except for the places where there were the port access points for his Black Carapace.

Beyond the finer hairs, there were much thicker patches along his arms, longer hairs running along the span of them as well as thicker tufts of it under his armpits. All shared the same coloration of his bone-white hair. Still there were no imperfections to be found from behind.

Dorn was immaculate.

Once he dropped his hand down to push the glove to his waist, he looked behind himself and up to the ticking time-bomb that seemed ready to explode.

 


 

Perturabo had been reduced to something that contradicted not only his painstakingly bespoke cyber superiority but his superhuman heritage as well — a carnal satyric beast whose higher thought was all but suppressed as his driving force began and ended between his legs.

And despite his great and open disdain for any and all that lost control of their mental faculties; and for all the judgment he passed quite vocally on those who’d succumb to base urges without hesitation — here he was, reduced to this state; and maybe even worse than those he looked down on the most, for unlike him — Perturabo retained all of his elite capabilities.

For he suffered no affliction nor had any limitations preventing him from being better. He simply didn’t care.

“Fine.” Perturabo relented in a throaty, thick voice that was barely recognizable.

He sat back on his heels, hands stilled temporarily as he allowed Dorn to do what he himself had been struggling to accomplish, and he feasted with his eyes in the interim.

The only thoughts filling his head, the only passion in his hearts, the only desire in the black core where his soul once was; revolved around Dorn — a constant, lifelong obsession reignited and reinforced as his every dream was surpassed by the aching improbability he suddenly found reality.

Even his enhanced eyes and peerless mind were stunned by all the sensory input before him now, as if Dorn were something so divine and above him he could not hope to ever track him, to catalog him, to understand him.

All that he was and had ever been had crystalized in this frenzied moment into an nearly instinctive, blind need. A need to take Dorn and keep him; possess him.

He was so blindingly beautiful, perfection carved out of virgin marble; his compact form not lessened nor diminished in any way by his stature that was short by Primarchian standards — doubtlessly one of the strongest, his size genuinely a boon as it concentrated that vast and incomprehensible potency in a tighter space, those endless rows of hard, bulging muscles a testament to his power.

But Dorn was not a crass brute; efficiency and aesthetics at the core tenants of his holy form. A design that did not fail to take Perturabo’s breath away with both envy and appreciation, though his admiration had taken on a whole new quality that from this day, would always be a part of the obsessive gaze locked onto Dorn forevermore — now that his true magnificence was revealed for him to appraise, no longer mere imaginings.

More glorious than he’d ever dreamt…

Perturabo licked his lips as he leered at the sight revealed an agonizing bit at a time as Dorn pulled himself out of that body glove like a reptile shedding its skin. It had been best that Dorn do some of the work himself, which was why Perturabo allowed it as his clumsy efforts only prolonged things in a way that was… suboptimal.

But why hadn’t there been any pushback whatsoever? Why did Dorn encourage this? Why, was it that once all pretense fell away there was nothing expressed but desire? Those were some of the last vestiges of his rational thought as his mind was overcome while he watched Dorn undress; but even then, there had been no inhibition behind those questions lingering in his CPU.

As Dorn tugged that tough, skin tight protective sleeve down from his upper body, Perturabo followed where his eyes were led as if hypnotized — until Dorn turned to look at him. Perturabo immediately jerked his head up, fury burning in his crazed adamantium blue eyes with such intent they seemed hot despite their coldness; and he stared unbroken into the aurora of hazel that met his gaze.

He lunged forward, bringing his face nearly bashing into Dorn’s; stopping millimeters short as he bored down into those pretty eyes, expression not hardened but longing, needy, desperate, obsessive; the explanation to any and all questions Dorn may have ever had as to why Perturabo was not only the way he was now but had always been. While his silent confession may have evoked some sensation of understanding, of empathy — the all-consuming, begging, demanding, unreasonably tyrannical mockery of adoration that he revealed now genuinely only proved him far more dangerous than ever — and gave away the motive behind all the disturbing, possessive imagery he constantly inflicted on Dorn without even knowing that he transmitted any of it.

Shaking hands reached out to pick up where Dorn left off as he gripped that body glove with both fists; and he inhaled deeply in an obviously dramatized gesture as he tugged.

“I could devour you, Rogal Dorn.”

 


 

Those eyes — Dorn felt Perturabo’s fixating gaze trail every bit of skin that was revealed. It was a curious feeling for Dorn to have someone stare upon him in such an passionate manner, to want to do nothing but meld themselves against him until either one of them dissolved into merely paste.

He was so wholly, unequivocally desired.

Body, mind, and soul.

Dorn also had enough sense that Perturabo was not going to let him go, no matter what, now that he was in his clutches. He knew he was the most precious prize and the Golden Trophy that his Brother wanted above all else. He wondered if Perturabo would suffer anyone looking at him in even a remotely sexualized light.

That thought had him exhale sharply, to cover the budding amusement at the sheer thought of such a thing.

He already knew the answer to that, and when he looked back at Perturabo, he got another answer then too as Perturabo snapped like a taut tripwire, releasing the consequences that would barrel down right against Dorn in the immediate.

Perturabo’s gaze told him everything, things he knew and things he had figured out long before this point that had him at the mercy of this mechanical tyrant. This love, if one could call it that in any morally decent way, was choking and all-consuming; a deep tar pit that he could never even begin to claw his way out of.

Dorn held his breath in the face of that deranged expression.

And found Perturabo all the more beautiful for it a second later.

Moments later, Dorn fell forwards, catching himself with one hand while Perturabo forcibly tugged at the body glove. Now that it wasn’t hindered by a hand and arms, it was shockingly far easier to remove with Perturabo being able to feast on the sight of Dorn’s uncovered backside in short order.

There was a fully visible shudder of his whole body a moment later, a unconscious reflex from being so exposed, with some of those fine hairs standing up again as he surely felt that gaze turn even further towards the predatory.

“They why do you hesitate, Perturabo?”

 


 

"I don't." Perturabo uttered lowly with a shudder vibrating in his deep voice.

He needed no encouragement to follow through with what he’d wanted more than anything from the start of this difficult process, to reveal Dorn. But there was a slight delay—though not in hesitation as Dorn would realize, upon hearing a slight shift of rustling fabric. And then a second later, he'd witness a familiar loosely bunched gathering of gray linen fly over him and land just in front of his head — Perturabo not simply removing his himation as it was a clear token of silent consideration as it had been given up for Dorn’s use before being completely stripped down—to put between him and the dirty, craggy ground like a blanket, or even to wear over his shoulders if he saw fit as that loose drape that would be quite oversized on Dorn would in no way prevent Perturabo from seeing and doing exactly as he wanted.

And with no instructions given—not a word said about it at all—there were no conditions or rules to how that silent token be used, or taken.

Had Perturabo done this out of guilt? Decency? Respect? Unclear and unspecified, but he’d had this in mind since the moment Dorn had left his grand red cloak behind him along with his auric armor, though Perturabo had said nothing of it all this time.

 


 

As Dorn gazed forward to the ruined expanse in front of them, there was a hesitation as he listened to the shuffling of fabric behind him. What he hadn’t actually expected was that familiar cloth being thrown over his head and landing right in front of him with a soft noise.

Dorn stayed exactly as he was for a few seconds that felt like they dragged on for far longer than possible or wanted. He couldn’t help but be in awe at such a simple gesture —  an accommodation that he truly hadn’t expected. But it was hardly unwelcomed as he lifted himself up on his knees so he could grab that cloth without toppling forwards.

An instant later and likely in full view due to Perturabo’s larger size, Dorn brought the fabric to his face, taking a deep inhale of the scents that permeated the cloth, letting him taste Perturabo through fragrance alone.

He only lingered on it long enough until he set it down on the ground, carefully spreading it out in front of him and shuffling forward barely enough that he could be pressed down onto it.

Right now, however, he still held a fistful of the linen in his hand.

 


 

Perturabo felt… something resonating, nearly cracking deep inside his chest as he witnessed Dorn’s reaction to being granted his himation, particularly the way in which he’d sampled it — something he’d never expected Dorn to do from the perpetually biased perspective clouding his negative, querulous mind.

A dry huff came from his throat; and he refused to consider any deeper implications of what had happened on any level now, but he’d never forget the sight of Dorn exploring him through investigating the traces he’d left on that fabric.

After giving Dorn a moment to settle in as he saw fit, Perturabo reached out again, getting to work as he applied himself in the pursuit of revealing his prize in all its glory once and for all. This sort of protective gear was never easy to remove, but after the assistance Dorn had given him, that body glove was peeled away in short order and tossed aside.

Oh, how divine Dorn smelled now that there was no longer any barrier, as ineffectual as it might have been. But with no obstacle remaining, all that assailed Perturabo’s senses uninhibited was Dorn: the very essence of his being; his skin and fur, pheromones and musk, sweat and blood — and semen.

He inhaled deeply, the air freezing in his triplicate lungs as he held that breath, captivated while he reveled in it all.

“Fuck, fuckhhh…” Perturabo choked out in a throaty, impossibly deep voice a moment later, pale blue eyes blown out and shimmering with excitement as his sight was granted a vision every bit as idyllic.

That small, compact body was truly as hard as stone beneath the silk and velvet pulled taut over those rocky muscles, the glimmering white sheen of the sleek underfur that covered his perfect skin causing Dorn to likely look paler than he genuinely was.

Perturabo’s greedy hands reached out, fingernails grazing all over Dorn’s back with—and then against—the angle of growth; feeling the impossible softness of that underfur as he witnessed the ripples in its sheen while observing as it changed the look of Dorn’s rich skin tone depending on the direction in which that tiny layer of white fuzz was manipulated — from pinker to more golden, and back again.

Then, his hands trailed further down, to cup and squeeze at Dorn’s generous ass that was so round and perfect that it was all Perturabo could do to resist biting into it. Firm yet supple, so appealing in size and curvature. Regardless of what he did or did not do in some aspects, he would still have his feast.

His touch was not particularly rough nor gentle here as he was keen to explore, to feel the toned muscles and smooth perfect skin and the compelling heat that beckoned to him — especially when he drew closer to a certain area that made his entire body tense up and clench to approach. A salacious, graveled moan broke the silence as his thick fingers slipped into that hot cleft — and the way he writhed and tensed revealed that he’d not even made inside before joining Dorn in his hasty behavior; viscous, heated fluid released past his loose loincloth and landing on Dorn’s skin, along with a drop of the rivulet of oily drool slipping from the corner of his mouth.

 


 

Much like the rest of his body, the removal of the final part of his body glove revealed much of the same fine hairs and underfur and with the low glint of that dying sun, it was as if Dorn was glowing against the backdrop of gray cloth and darkened earth.

A mirror to his divine presence.

A stark contrast to the absolutely sinful things he had done long before he was stripped completely free of that last barrier. It mattered not to Dorn, he didn’t seem shy at all after being completely exposed by his Brother.

No more could he conceal the pure desire he held towards Perturabo, brought on by more than the short battle upon this dead planet. Now stranded alone with him, with no one getting in the way to either split them apart or incite more violence, Dorn was struck with the profound understanding of how he felt.

It was far too late to change any of the eons past, but that was no longer the case for the future. Things could be better, no matter how twisted it may come down to, especially with how obsessed Perturabo truly was.

A soft grunt broke his train of thought as he heard how broken Perturabo’s speech actually became, struck by everything that was going on and, additionally, to what exactly he was witnessing before striking.

Dorn lowered himself onto his elbows instead of lying completely face down, allowing his lower half to be raised in the air enough to enable what Perturabo intended. His thick erection hung between his legs with it curving towards his stomach in absolutely lewd display, precum already drooling from the tip of it.

Another sound, this time accompanied by the prolong intake of breath, was pushed out of Dorn as hot, heavy hands grabbed and groped his ass in a manner that wasn’t as harsh as he was expecting and when he felt those fingers slip between his cheeks, he tensed just enough to trap him.

What happened next gave Dorn satisfaction as he felt semen drip onto his backside, accompanied by the saliva.

Perturabo…” Dorn uttered his Brother’s name with a rumbling moan that echoed in an undercurrent while Dorn found his mouth watering in tandem, salivating from the pheromones that Perturabo gave off, that made him want nothing more than to be mounted and fucked.

Even in this state, Dorn found no shame.

 


 

Like a steam engine venting pressure, the ejaculate Perturabo had released had helped soothe the unrelenting pain of arousal, but that had only honed his lust, brought him back from his deranged fantasies and into reality as his mind gained a little more focus after that discharge. Yet the tension lodged deep inside his aching balls had not lessened one bit for it.

His strontium-tinted eyes were glassy and glazed over as he stared down at the holiness laid out before him in waiting, mouth hanging open; teeth bared.

There were plausible arguments that could be levied against his own origin based on sight alone; arguments he made far more valid throughout many years of deliberate change fabricated through both corruption and invention — but he was sure there wasn’t a entity in existence capable of finding one single fault with the pristine perfection that was his own Brother.

He felt reprobate just by daring to gaze upon him, which was all too fitting…

And yet, there was none of the covetous resentment that typically rose within him upon seeing Dorn. It was a strange, yet welcome feeling as he no longer wanted to be Dorn, craving instead to own him with such an intensity that the sensation, as dark as it was, held a purity of intent beyond anything he’d ever known.

Had it always been this way?

A laugh was hacked out, but the sardonic tone he presented was not enough to disguise the desire that seared through him at the sound of Dorn calling his name…

How Perturabo wanted to make him scream it over and over again to the gaping skies above, crying out to the heavens that had forsaken him here, coming to the slow realization that there was nothing and no one to hear him but Perturabo

His fingers curled in as he gripped the flesh beneath his palm with one hand, the other trapped by the deliberate tensing and squeezing Dorn pressed against his invading touch, and Perturabo hissed at that sensation and all it alluded to in the time that was sure to come…

Dorn guarded his fortress well, but that only made the prospect of claiming it more compelling.

The hand that had been so possessively clamped on to Dorn’s ass released without prompting, and a second later a truly strange hollow rattle came from somewhere inside Perturabo’s head, following through the hoses bolted to his cheekbones, and then through his mouth; and then he spat loudly, the noise reminiscent of the activation of Betcher's glands when spitting acid yet not — and the copious slick sounds that followed did not remind one of those caustic fluids; no. Whatever Perturabo had manufactured was thick, and the smell that followed held none of the burning, acerbic, eye-stinging unpleasantness of acid — instead emitting stronger notes of the same taste that laced his unusually slick saliva that Dorn may have picked up on, now wafting heavily in the air; oily, herbal, slightly bitter, vaguely reminiscent of grape leaves and decidedly olivaceous.

There was a discernible change in the mood that permeated the atmosphere as Perturabo concentrated while he spread that synthetic, painstakingly developed industrial grade lubricant over his huge hand and thick fingers, quite pleased with himself that something he’d invented that was so vital to the continual operations of his enhanced anatomy could be repurposed in such a delightful way…

Deliberately crafted to be pleasant to experience and taste as he'd always be subjected to its flavor, non-corrosive and yet extremely efficient in fulfilling its required purpose — more so than any other of its type, he was confident of that. He relied on it, after all.

Always available, always in supply…

As if… he'd made it for this outcome all along…

The laugh that broke the silence was far more humored than any Perturabo had let out before.

 


 

Drip, drip, drip.

Dorn could feel some of the extra stray drops of saliva that slid onto his skin while Perturabo panted audibly as if he was trying to vent out as much heat as he could yet Dorn knew damn well that no matter what Perturabo did, there was no stopping the molten meltdown that came with this.

It was something that Dorn was quite aware of, even if he hadn’t dealt with being on the receiving end of something like this for quite a number of millennia. His body intrinsically remembered exactly how his actions caused reactions.

However, with Perturabo, there was something both damning and pure in equal measure in how he reacted to every single bit of Dorn. It was something he had picked up on during the conversation they had when he was aboard the Thunderhawk, even well before their glares finally  locked on to one another.

While he wouldn’t allow his thoughts to wander too far in the past, once more, he briefly considered how Perturabo was then. His earlier thoughts of obsession were correct after all. Oh, how he wanted to be consumed, nothing more than to abdicate control to Perturabo.

There was no lie in thinking that this 'romance' could be a willing one, far more than he had been granted in the past in fact, though Perturabo couldn't be aware of that. As a result, Dorn did not temper any manner of how thoroughly heated he was.

The sound of spit only heightened the overall sensation and the realizations that this truly was something that was happening and that more would be happening soon. And it was the fact that he couldn’t look behind him without some measure of strain that Dorn decided the next course of action.

Mere seconds ago he had been fine with this position but now, as he fell deeper in his thoughts, that was to change.

In the time that it took for Perturabo to begin to prepare his hands, Dorn moved, his actions so purposefully slow to not incite a negative response in the following few seconds.

Regardless of indignation that might be provoked, Dorn maneuvered himself anyway, releasing that grip upon Perturabo's himation and, instead, turning his entire body while pulling his legs away from Perturabo. There was no sign of him bolting or trying to avoid what was to come, every action carefully telegraphed.

All until he was laying flat onto his back and staring up at his Brother as Perturabo slid those slick fingers against one another, spreading oil-slicked saliva that he clocked as an intended lubricant.

Perturabo was granted yet another feast for the eyes while he idly worked that substance together. Much like before, Dorn was still covered with that very fine underfur that coated his back and limbs, but now he was greeted with that similar thickness upon Dorn’s chest which soon made a small happy trail down to his thicker pubic hair, likely the coarsest of all of these spots.

Though, the fullness of that was obscured by Dorn’s cock, still so engorged and now pressed against his lower stomach, still producing and smearing precum along his skin. It visibly twitched as soon as he locked eyes with Perturabo in this new positioning that he had undertaken.

“I want to see you.” Dorn explained, belatedly, as he seemed…struck by looking up at his Brother’s broad form, his gaze began to drop as he looked over Perturabo’s body as if it was the first time he was truly appraising him in such a blatantly sexualized manner.

Both of Dorn’s legs lifted, bending at the knees and planting his feet on the ground as he spread his legs open for Brother in this truly questionable beginning of a coupling.

“I want to watch your expressions… Show me who you are, PerturaboMy Brother.”

Chapter 7: Μεράκι

Summary:

Can the imperfect still aspire to achieve, still dream… of becoming more?

Notes:

[Author's Note — (Skiah Immaterium): Since this is structured as RP, things tend to be occur at times and in ways that differ from a straightforward narrative. The last chapter contained a lot about Dorn's appearance and unusual traits described in front of Perturabo as he experienced them. Now, this chapter is a reversal of that as Dorn is able to see what has become of Perturabo in the years they were separated — so this is where more details about Perturabo's body are finally revealed instead of when he first detached from Neo-Logos.

As these are characters we control independently rather than a single author's vision, there is meta-knowledge exchanged, and there are also frequently updated character sheets we can see but no one else can. They might be posted as a supplement at some point as there is a wealth of information there an audience wouldn't know otherwise. For example, the strangeness of Perturabo's mucus membranes/saliva was already a clue for Dorn to pick up on that something is off about Perturabo. This played out the way it did despite the technical bits not being explained until Perturabo deliberately activated his repurposed Betcher's-gland-turned-lubrication-delivery-system much later on — because Dorn's player knew about it, even if the character did not. And there are probably many details like this that will never be written about in such direct ways that might make it harder for an audience to understand without access to that same meta-information — all details not considered until changing the format to one that isn't only for the players' eyes alone.

And yes, Perturabo is technically a cyborg as some of his original body does remain, and his personality and memories are still in there. He's the same asshole as always, but he's damn near a full-on robot by this point — for very important reasons that eventually come to light.]

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Perturabo watched Dorn with a reserved fascination — though he was no longer as paranoid as he once was, his former distrust little more than a reasonable level of situational awareness. Honestly, if Dorn had tried to escape now after a few unexpectedly intimate moments of communication it would have crushed him.

And he would have doubtlessly crushed Dorn in retaliation, if so…

But he needn’t worry, still rolling that self-manufactured lubricant over his fingers slowly as he watched his Brother shift and settle into a new and different position.

One in which it was abundantly clear that he wished for them to face each other. An expression of clearly displayed confusion washed over his chiseled features, but as strong as that feeling was, even this could not disguise the deep and resounding pain this moment revealed. He hid it away, but perhaps not quickly enough…

Yet there was much here to distract him as they faced each other in vulnerability and intimacy for the first time.

Perturabo’s roboticized body would have surely been the envy of any member of the Mechanicum privileged enough to gaze upon him, a prime fusion of biology and bionics without a single component out of place, nor a single scar; nor any of the crude residual damage left by many of the day’s methods of augmentation. The result was the absolute apex of high, forbidden technology, suggestive of archeotech so covetous and restricted there were likely only a handful that even knew of the concepts and techniques used in his construction.

Unless of course, he was a work solely of his own invention. While that might have seemed impossible to any that did not know Perturabo; here and now, that might have been a more logical conclusion than any other.

The form upon which his computerized components rested was completely hairless, whether his body was naturally that way or maintained left an enigma at this stage of his existence, though any that had known him and bothered to pay him any attention in the past would have remembered the man he once was to be quite hirsute. No longer, his bare deep olive skin now appearing more like rock than flesh; any body hair having been permanently removed, much as his scalp had been made permanently bare in order to house his cable assembly so long ago.

His incredibly thick, wide black eyebrows were the only hairs that remained on his body — lest something similar rest below the simple gray linen loincloth that concealed the last bit of mystery he had left.

Perturabo’s form was streamlined but bulky, the hulking mechanical monstrosity he had appeared as originally clearly an extension of his natural shape now, as he was much the same as he appeared when fused with Neo-Logos, though within much more reasonable boundaries — at least in Primarchian terms. He still embodied a vast power and huge, heavy muscles; a behemoth crafted for strength first and speed last. The fact that he possessed any dexterity at all was a wonder now that his physique was revealed.

The spaces along his torso between his numerous Black Carapace ports were joined by narrow paper thin strips of color-shifting metal fused directly into his skin, lined by pinstripe traces on either side that followed their length. These rows of sharp, sleek angular parallel teal and magenta stripes that connected him had turned his entire body into what appeared to be some sort of circuit board. Running concurrently were leads that traveled his form, some ending in embedded circular diodes while others appeared as inputs that were highly reminiscent of those familiar carapace ports but in miniature.

The overall result was a highly complex geometric pattern that glistened in a shiny metal sheen across his torso, nearly neo-tribal in its aesthetic and form — a suggestion that was expressed fully in the wide bands wrapping around his upper arms and thighs like cybernetic tattoos in an Olympian meandros pattern that served as his design’s outer edges. Those repeating classical meandering lines encircling his limbs were unbroken as they served as both the origin and endpoint of his circuitry, all pathways ultimately converging to those Key lines that harkened back to days of great antiquity.

The only exceptions to this constant were two conspicuously broader embedded metal bands that trailed from his upper chest ports to his neck, over his jugular and carotid before vanishing below the shiny Black Carapace extensions that ran from his scalp, in front of his ears and along his jawline like some sort of synthetic approximation of facial hair complete with sideburns, those angular points ending right below the outer corners of his bottom lip.

In this form his ‘hairline’ was much as it had been for many eons, yet fuller, leading to a lack of availability for further expansion which had prompted the creation of that facial Black Carapace extension as eventually every empty space along his skull had been claimed. Thick black enclosed cords cascaded from his scalp in flowing tendrils reminiscent of dreadlocks, occasionally broken up by black metal coiled cables and a few scattered pipes, the latter of which was decidedly different by being bolted to his head on both ends rather than free-flowing. The entire device draped over his shoulders and down his back in a robotic approximation of hair, aesthetics also in mind as it formed a V-shape, angular and long, the greatest point reaching nearly elbow length.

And all of it was eerily reminiscent of the much more threatening, alarmingly sentient machinery he’d projected to Dorn in one way or another throughout the day.

Also exactly like the leads and attachments that connected him to Neo-Logos and splayed out from the thrones at both his command center and workshop on Medrengard—and the spacecraft he had taken to travel here, the latter of which being the only thing he’d not inadvertently broadcasted a view of—and none of which was a coincidence. Just as in the past, all of these peripherals whether permanent or able to be hot-swapped ended in electrodes, leads and cyber-medical augmentations wired straight to his brain. Advancement of the project he’d started with the original Logos, taken to a higher, more complete form. And allowing a state in which innumerable streams of data could be relayed in real-time; and nearly everything he did could be controlled by nothing more than thought.

Yet most conspicuously, in the middle of his chest, right below and between huge pectoral muscles was a prominent engraving right above his ribs:

 

Μεράκι

 

Its important central position told strongly of its inferred importance, that ancient script carved directly into his skin, perfectly etched and deeply recessed. It appeared to have been filled in with some sort of silvery molten metal in order to prevent his Primarchian physiology from healing it, the result obviously meant to be permanent.

But this modern cybertek Prometheus—for all his enhancements—wore an expression that told of endless, unspoken emotions; all too human as he admired the man lying before him that was his antithesis in all ways.

How unbelievably beautiful Dorn truly was, glistening in the scant, scattered light — his elegant, masculine body covered entirely in that soft dusting of almost invisible hairs, the result making him nearly pearlescent. And outlined in thick patches of the whitest, cleanest, softest looking body hair Perturabo had ever seen.

He sighed deeply as he followed Dorn’s curves and bulges with his eyes, looking as though he’d been overcome by the beauty of the universe's finest museum exhibit, taking his time as he studied what was laid bare before him. There was nothing about Dorn that did not appeal to him; impress him; beckon him.

He lingered on that rising, girthy and impressive erection with no small sense of awe before trailing back up Dorn’s impressive physique, locking gazes with that soulful aurora of dark oranges and greens that met his stare; and yet for all his projected hatred and brutality, there was far more softness in those overcast eyes than he ever would have wished to show…

Perturabo couldn’t believe the luscious and blatant display Dorn was making, completely undermining any sense whatsoever that this moment could ever truly manifest in rape; and to Perturabo’s shock and great confusion, he realized that he’d never really wanted that in the first place. It had simply been the only way he could have imagined this playing out.

Whatever this was and would be, would doubtlessly have a dark and dangerous undercurrent to it — more than Dorn could ever know. At least that was what Perturabo assumed, unaware that he had revealed the very depths of the vile and wicked fantasies he considered his most shameful secret to his beloved Brother time and time again throughout this day. And yet… yet…

Those threats, his cruelty had all been because he was too afraid to approach Dorn any other way, too fragile to survive being rejected, too childish to accept that what he wanted would not be given to him, and too wounded to endure a reality in which even now, after thousands of years of making himself good enough, he still wasn’t…

Unexplained wetness that had nothing to do with his synthetic fluids filled his eyelids as he stared in silence as those concepts floated through his mind, unable to be fully processed as data and integers were of no help here.

The importance of what Dorn had relayed was so great that it even stayed his lust temporarily as he struggled to understand, to accept that the impossible syntax he pondered now — was real and not imagined.

Dorn… wanted to see him? To witness him? To accept him? Perturabo couldn’t believe it and didn’t know how to react, the look on his face some enigmatic, perplexed combination of grief and faint, guarded hope.

Was this the method the counterattack he’d been waiting for all this time, would finally take? To be offered everything his cruel hearts desired; Dorn laid out for him like an offering to be consumed, all the while imploring him in ways that would cause him to lower his defenses?

Perturabo would have preferred that huge chainsword be driven clean though his chest and out the other side, than withstand this.

 


 

As much as Perturabo had been scrutinizing every bit of his form, Dorn was doing quite much the same in that regard, starting along what he could see straight away. In a stark contrast between him and Perturabo, he noticed how there was not one bit of hair on his Brother, beyond those entirely expressive eyebrows.

The reasoning for such was apparent mere seconds later as he feasted on the absolute canvas of circuitry that covered much of Perturabo. From one Black Carapace port to another, he followed the strict lines of metal that gleamed even in this world's low light.

It was quite a marvel, truly, to see such a shift from what he had remembered.

In every spot that he could see, there was something different capturing his attention, yet all of it seemingly held a purpose as the broader geometries came into view and put everything together, including the way it ended by interweaving itself into those meandering unbroken lines.

This was as much artistic as it was functional.

The larger metal bands had him tilting his head in an intrigued fashion as he watched exactly how they moved over his neck, jugular and along his face. The 'hair' was something that he remembered, yet it seemed much fuller that before, with extra peripherals embedded in there now than just those cables.

Cables that he recalled in a far more obscene way.

Truly, those cables and Carapace ports that Dorn had paled in comparison in what Perturabo managed to install and wield; and there was hardly anything left to the imagination as to how well Perturabo interfaced with all of his vehicles. From the Neo-Logos, to his ship and who knew exactly what else there was.

Yet even that slowly fell from his attention as he saw the strange script upon Perturabo’s chest. It was no form of High or Low Gothic that he had ever read before and the sight alone clearly intrigued him.

At this point, if Perturabo had been paying attention while Dorn was indulging his sight, he might have seen Dorn’s fingers twitch several times during his viewing, even going so far as to bring his hand briefly forward before stopping himself, hesitating after clearing no more than a couple of inches of ground.

It was clear that he wanted to touch Perturabo as his gaze shifted back up to Perturabo’s face just as their eyes met and locked onto each others'. Dorn’s mouth opened as if he were about to speak again, but he seemed truly struck with awe in spite of the perplexed and enigmatic expression given by Perturabo in turn.

 


 

Perturabo bit at his bottom lip pensively as his glance dipped down to take note of Dorn’s body language, noticing how clearly he wanted to move in, to move forward, to reach out.

Whether it was common sense, being overcome by intimidation or some other form of certain wisdom that caused him to refrain, there was no doubt whatsoever that Dorn had considered trying to touch him and was still having difficulties staying his hand despite knowing that was the most prudent decision.

Perturabo's analytical, suspicious stare was locked onto those eyes again; eyes that for all of Dorn’s stubborn, infuriating mannerisms — could never tell a convincing lie. And what he saw there was not indifference or animosity but wonder.

Had Perturabo finally managed to impress Dorn? He suspected such even before now, noticing how Dorn’s gaze lingered on Neo-Logos with a different kind of scrutiny; one that held curiosity and demonstrated that he had finally managed to make an impression rather than being forever invisible.

But Perturabo had not allowed himself to think on the little things that he’d picked up on — any more than he let himself dwell on the first time Dorn had made an statement that had slid deep beneath the iron and steel edifice of his impenetrable shell.

I know your capabilities.

Made even more impactful by the conditional statement that clarified a second later.

Had known.

What had already been unbelievable crested to the outrageous. The idea that Dorn would ever lower himself enough to make such considerations was delusional, irrational thinking — even less aligned with reality to believe Dorn had extended that kind of regard to him in the past.

…Or…

Was that really true? Or was it only the product of a damaged, despairing psyche?

No.

There was actually a third answer. That Dorn referred not to the past, once halcyon days on Terra when had Perturabo tried to impress and flirt with Dorn the only way he knew how, under the spell of the first feelings of love he’d ever known—viewed with the bitterest lens now—nor even the Siege of Terra, when he’d endeavored to turn his skill to warfare to prove to everyone that he was indeed worthy.

No.

Dorn referred to the Iron Cage. Perturabo’s greatest ‘success’ the one and only time he’d ever felt seen, but at such a cost — at least when he allowed himself to be honest with himself about how he felt about it.

He averted his eyes in shame, looking away; hiding.

That understanding truly stung, but Perturabo knew that judgment was fair. That did nothing to soothe the bitterness churning within him though, nor did it make him resent Dorn any less for it. Despite him being the one that took things so far simply to make Dorn see, and attempt to hurt him with everything that he had.

Success with an unimaginably high cost, gained through shameful means leading to Ascension and the creation of a daemonic forgeworld of the greatest depravity and inefficiency that Dorn would be aghast to see, to know, that his defeat had been the cause; and that Perturabo had not even the skill or ability to elevate it or his Legion from the most repugnant manifestation of reliance on the flesh, regions of which were perhaps more vile than even whatever it was that Fulgrim’s realm had devolved into in the millennia that had passed…

And yet, due to Guilliman’s interference, not even their rightful grievances had been settled.

There wasn’t a single moment of genuine satisfaction, nor one single act to truly take pride in, no matter how great the price had been.

Just like everything else between them.

Perturabo ached, so many darker thoughts overwhelming his already negative, eternally doubtful mindset — and yet…

That rusted crust of resentful, bitter enmity his mind had worked so diligently to craft as a protective layer in these last few seconds was cracked and split open, rendered weak and ineffectual the moment he dared look back into Dorn’s eyes.

There was none of the ridicule he needed to see—perhaps wanted to see, if only to prove himself right—only the earnest admiration of a man who was genuinely impressed by what he saw.

Perturabo didn’t know if he was strong enough to even pretend that this could be real, that this was more than another simulation played out within the Probability Engine, but he was truly at a loss because this hypothetical had never been achieved there either. There was, frankly, no way to solve this equation, no other answer he could present as theory. Because Dorn was many things, but deceptive wasn’t one of them.

That had been what had broken Perturabo’s primary heart to begin with, knowing that being ignored—shunned by him—was neither ruse nor pretense as he might have lied to himself about, had he become so emotionally entangled with anyone else.

That rejection was assuredly and insurmountable real. But if that was true, as his logic algorithm insisted, then this observed change of perspective was as well. Because they relied on the same evidence as proof…

He let out a rattling, weary, defeated sigh; and gave a small, barely perceptible nod.

“You… may… touch me.” He said with no small difficulty though he tried with all he had to sound disaffected.

Was this appreciation for his craftsmanship? Genuine admiration for him as his Brother? Sexual desire, the interest of a lover? All hurt so terribly to consider, each in their own ways; taunting, miserable possibilities dangling before him but always out of reach.

Why hadn’t Dorn just laid there, facing away from him with cold resentful pride in rancorous silence and passively taken what was being forced upon him like the impenetrable, emotionless wall that he was?

Perturabo bit his tongue hard enough to nearly sever the tip to prevent the oily liquid welling up in his eyes from spilling over.

Lest they be shed in bitter, violent rage as before, he’d not give Dorn such ammunition.

 


 

Dorn stilled after a few seconds, still studying Perturabo as he felt the general atmosphere change around them in ways likely never wanting to be revealed. Yet, here Dorn was, able to pick up this shift with the understanding that he could discern the emotions boiling behind those pale blue eyes.

He wouldn’t bring it up though, knowing that whatever was roiling below the surface could cause a meltdown. It wasn’t for the want to ignore the situation but Dorn damn well knew that his Brother was having a exceedingly difficult time for reasons that would not be uttered aloud and shared.

There were ideas in his mind, stemming from ancient beginnings to long fought wars and to the now, but tearing open old wounds would do nothing but sink that hurt deeper and Dorn did not want to do that. Not out of callousness, but out of the understanding that he could still make a rocky foundation crumble with no intention of doing so — even if doing what he wanted to next, likely would achieve the same result.

But Dorn was ever a man of action, not words. He excelled in only one of those categories.

He didn’t hesitate further as his position shifted and he pushed himself with arm stump and hand alike; and once he was more seated, with his his legs spread out instead of having them bent, he began to look over Perturabo’s body again.

This time, his fingers came close to Perturabo but not in an aggressive action as he found one of the Black Carapace ports, in which he trailed his finger, following lines of the connecting metals and wires and all of the different nodules of different diodes and smaller ports that rose up on Perturabo’s hardened body.

Every single major roadmap and network was traced with a touch far lighter than a man of Dorn’s force would have been expected to use, but Dorn worked with his hands often enough to know the value of gentleness.

Soon, all of it — even the meandros pattern was traced along, and though he didn’t understand the significance of the markings, he didn’t break his finger away from the trailing trace until it branched off to another line of soft metal, only lifting his finger up when he found another Black Carapace port that was the endpoint of it all flowing from one piece of art to another.

Dorn spent minutes doing this, pausing at different spots when he tried to understand what the little components below his fingers actually were, even while knowing that quite a bit of this was beyond what he had known since the last time he had to deal with such technology.

Yet, when he was done, he kept touching Perturabo, his focus on that strange script that spanned the middle of Perturabo’s chest. His thumb lingering below it, almost caressing there until his fingers moved again and he traced the outer edge of each letter.

 


 

It was there, in the quiet spaces where communication was made in silence, that Perturabo understood the most and yet found himself at the greatest disadvantage.

The manner in which Dorn was touching him could not be denied nor reasoned away; evoking a state of mind that he immediately related to. And that in itself, made everything feel so much heavier.

It reminded him of the way that he himself had once admired his own work — particularly when he’d made some grand breakthrough and surpassed his own skill ceiling, rising above his limitations; and not in matters of siegecraft—likely what he was created for, but never what he’d desired to represent, so removed from what he longed to do with his life—relegated to becoming a weapon not by choice, but by force so long ago. In elegant design. Elegant design. The only expression he had left after he had to fill that role.

He reflected back to the small, intricate curios that brought his hearts the greatest joy, the very things he made with love over countless hours, each moment painstaking but passed in pleasure and with thought behind each creation he made, crafted as gifts to share both his passion and his ingenuity with those he cared about. The only language of affection he'd ever learned to speak.

The very things he was told were useless and a waste of time.

That was how Dorn made him feel now.

But to his surprise it was not that current of wounded indignation that struck him as the part that mattered. Maybe it shouldn’t come as a shock as he’d always vehemently disagreed with the condemnation that his inventions served no purpose; and resented being told such to the degree it was what had nurtured the seeds of rebellion in his soul so many years ago — when he’d still had one.

What Dorn was relaying, was the awe of a master craftsman admiring something he knew was beyond his own means; and with the appropriate knowledge and skill behind such judgements to give them true meaning, understanding exactly why what he was examining… was worthy of his praise.

With each gesture of those skilled fingers, Perturabo felt that amazement and beneath it, respect. All the individual components and mechanisms studied, not only singularly but as part of the overall design; and in that, Dorn gave his approval.

Including the elements that served only aesthetic and sentimental purposes rather than practical ones — perhaps in ways, it was those pieces of him that made him who he was rather than what he was — and that gained him Dorn's biggest recognition.

Who was this man that deigned him worthy of so much of his time and attention? Perturabo didn’t know. Or that was what he was so desperately trying to convince himself of.

But it felt so good in ways both sensual and more importantly, validating, that it was all he could do to simply sit there and withstand it, his nature of dubious suspicion constantly urging him to bring it to an end on his own terms before some hidden truth was revealed — something that proved he was wrong all along and spoiled a moment he’d otherwise treasure for as long as he retained cognizance and acuity.

Despite himself, he could not resist turning into that touch on occasion, pressing into those examinations when appropriate; and for all his demigod anatomy and cybernetic superiority, he breathed hard despite there being no stress and no exertion to explain why.

Then, Perturabo braced, immediately tense as Dorn turned his focus to the Olympian characters that announced his new name; not at all unlike the lettering that served as the christening of a ship — through deliberately bestowed upon the construct he was in a language that none else could read.

Yet, despite the obviously prickly attitude that had returned upon this last gesture, Perturabo did absolutely nothing to intervene, even when the fluids he'd tried so stubbornly to repress spilled down his face with greater speed, unaware that his eyes had been leaking for quite some time before now.

 


 

Those heavy breaths soon drew his attention upwards and he gazed into the a face that was crying despite likely never meaning to. After that sight, Dorn’s fingers soon left that scripted lettering, not prying or demanding a name, giving it the gentle, silent respect that it deserved.

Now, however, he brought his hand up along Perturabo’s neck, following those embedded metal bands until he could cradle along one side of his Brother’s jawline. When their gazes met, he leaned up and in, pressing his lips against Perturabo’s own for the first time during this entire exchange.

The first proper kiss not taken by force, but given.

 


 

With great effort Perturabo swallowed loudly—one, two, three times—in an attempt to rid himself of the secretions filling his mouth; his injured tongue already knitting itself back together but there had been much blood there, iron leaching into oiled saliva that was also mixed with traces of thicker lubricants.

After consuming as much of it as he could, his lips parted and he gave himself permission to indulge in that kiss even as the glowing screens intensified outside the fringes of his native line of sight, and his positronic algorithms warned him that his parameters were in a suboptimal condition.

So too had the deliberately manufactured oil he’d gathered in his palm all but slipped from his fingers in the interim; and as their lips met in a much more gentle fashion than when Perturabo had practically been chewing Dorn's face off earlier, Perturabo’s eyes rolled closed — and he reached out for Dorn’s other arm, the very thing he’d ignored and refused to offer even a hint of acknowledgement toward all this time, so greatly it had offended and angered him for reasons Dorn likely wouldn’t begin understand.

The greatest perfection… defiled.

But the way he pulled and tugged at that limb that so jarringly… just ended, and then held what remained so tightly against his chest, spoke of how much he’d actually been aware of it all this time and how greatly that revelation had impacted him — despite never once showing it until now — no matter how intense things between them had become.

Perfection? Imperfection? Who embodied which concept best? Perturabo no longer understood, and there wasn't a single part of him—from his mind to his CPU—that could provide any answers.

Καλός Κἀγαθός. Μεράκι.

 


 

There was a momentary pause as Dorn listened to Perturabo swallowing, finally settled where he was, as he could pick up the scent of that strange oil and definitely the blood for some time now. Their lips soon locked a few seconds later but when Perturabo shifted and grabbed his other arm, all his actions stilled.

For once, Dorn’s expression revealed something between looking wounded and surprised in equal measure. It mattered not that Perturabo wasn’t staring into his eyes as it wasn’t hidden from his actions either when he held his breath.

It was all too easy to read that Dorn had kept that arm away almost deliberately, not drawing attention to it for one second during their vie, as if it wasn’t such a weakness that he felt deep within him. An injury that, in his mind, had cut any endeavor that Dorn followed dangerously short.

The loss of such a vital limb had been the deepest scouring blow to Dorn.

In his mind, he was weaker for it. For that was his fact.

No longer could he stand as the bulwark against the Imperium’s enemies with Storm’s Teeth and The Voice of Terra in either hand, no more could he wield Soulspear when that had still been in his possession. No longer could he fight as effectively as he once could, not that he felt at all like the Praetorian of Terra anymore.

How could he function as the tool the Emperor had so wanted him to be and take up the role he was meant fulfill, when that tool’s edge was broken? And none could fix it and the ones that may have been able to, were gone long before.

So he disappeared.

A coward.

In a cruel fate, he was alone and isolated, deliberately set here and everything that was so easy for him once was made all that more difficult. More than it had ever been. So many things unknowingly taken for granted, now had to be contended with.

He couldn't even create anything anymore and that was the most hurtful part of all.

Dorn felt moisture gather at the edges of his eyes, the stinging salt almost shocking him as he nearly pulled away from Perturabo like he was burned by it. Yet, despite that flinch, he ultimately he still stayed.

 


 

Perturabo could feel the resistance rising in Dorn from the moment his disability, his imperfection, was noticed — and while there were likely personal sentiments and details with the loss of his own bodily integrity that Perturabo couldn’t personally relate to — he knew he understood far more of those disparaging, defeatist opinions than Dorn could have ever suspected. For he shared them.

Not only for himself and what he'd become now, but for Dorn, as his inability to come to terms with this new imperfection was what had caused him to ignore objective reality instead. He did not want to acknowledge that there was as much as a single blemish upon the one he so greatly aspired to; did not want the benefit of a handicap that he never asked for, did not want to accept that he held any advantages against his rival that were not of his own making.

…Did not want to face the fact that the very things he regretted doing today were likely only possible from the outset because Dorn was unable to mount a proper defense; making the victory he almost claimed not only pyrrhic, but hollow as well…

…But most of all he hated that Dorn’s divinity had been sullied. Perfection invalidated. And if by some chance the one responsible were still alive, Perturabo vowed that they would face the most brutal and painful punishment possible; and that he would cast them down into the pits of the worst, most vile and repugnant secret laboratories of Medrengard himself, to assure they were kept alive to endure far past their natural lifespans and be subjected to torture for all eternity — regardless of their lineage. Regardless of their heraldry. Regardless if it was another Primarch, or even a God.

So potent was Perturabo’s rage and indignant fury now as he acknowledged that which he had tried to bury, the fact that everything had changed — that even in the midst of a gentle kiss, Perturabo’s motions turned aggressive. Yet it was decidedly different than before; as there was nothing lustful in these feelings, as the miasmic backlash of his bitterness grew to such an extent that it could doubtlessly be felt externally like an aura, similar to the oppressive, hateful atmosphere of the ruined hellscape that had become his homeworld.

 


 

There was a nearly imperceptible tremble though Dorn’s body as he eventually let his eyes close, then shut them tightly while his mind had begun to spiral due to the acknowledgement of something that he had tried to not draw any special attention to.

Perturabo holding that arm so close to his chest was too much for him to bear.

And then, then he pulled away the moment he felt that anger and backlash being broadcasted for him to feel and witness. The ire choked him briefly, and what distance he had made by pulling back was overtaken by the sheer aggression now turned to him.

Dorn opened his eyes only moments afterwards to stare at the man pressing against him, lips parted to allow Perturabo access as his arm was trapped, his right hand having to grasp at the spot between his Brother’s shoulder and neck. He wrapped one of those fingers around a cable he felt blindly.

 


 

Perturabo’s discontent was broadcast and amplified outward like a dire announcement blaring from a siren, his base emotions as overbearingly ‘loud’ as all of his other projected visions were; synthetic psyker abilities honed and unnaturally transmitted now that he was unplugged — and by one that seemed entirely unaware of what he was doing. All consequences of keeping that oppressive blanket of festering air over the surface of an entire planet by design, while also honing his mental prowess for millennia deep within the cybernetic palace of Medrengard.

 

At one with the Mainframe.

 

+--------------------+

The scene that appeared, channeled directly into Dorn’s mind at actual point blank range was not one of hostility despite the core of black animosity that was also radiating through realspace.

Here, the dark, brooding and solitary image centered upon that strange station that loosely resembled a drafting desk, seen only in passing during a single vision from before. Now, that table was the focus, and splayed out over its surface were many feathered papers filled with technical drawings; of circuitry and wires, their shapes appearing to mimic the complexity of human anatomy — nerves and vessels, muscles and bones. Atop the stack was a squared off pencil, sharpened so many times that there was precious little of it left. And right at the edge of view, framing the scene were coils and connectors, gears, joints and various prototype objects in different stages of refinement — some sanded and polished, others looking as though they had been used in much earlier stages of development.

And where once there had been nothing but the roiling, churning vileness of the most daemonic origin wafting through the air, something else had taken over the very essence of this still doubtlessly cursed space. Inspiration; the spirit of ingenuity. Creation. But was it to any good end, or for any purpose other than inflicting pain and suffering? Unconfirmed. Yet whomever it was, meant to sit at this massive, currently empty desk — they possessed a will to succeed and obsessive ethic for the work they undertook in this project to such a degree that the determination behind it could be felt through the ether itself.

+--------------------+

 

As the image faded, Perturabo’s eyes opened, burning with a fervent hostility that seemed to pierce through the object his focus landed upon. Despite the pure malice resonating in the icy blue, he continued to kiss Dorn with an aggression that had slowly become more hunger than ire; and if there was any dislike or wariness within him for having his most critical system components manipulated as Dorn touched a head-cable — he didn’t show it.

He raised his free arm, hooking it around Dorn's back with a tightness that entirely passed secure, everything in that action possessive and oppressing.

 


 

For the first time in one of these visions, Dorn wasn’t entirely sure just what he was being made to witness in this particular scene. It was something so vastly different and new. The intensity alone nearly knocked the breath out of his triplicate lungs and caught it there.

In that same manner, his hearts began to race in a manner that he couldn’t quite understand or even sense for that matter. What exactly was going on in that workshop? Did Perturabo have something else planned?

It wasn’t as if he could ask Perturabo this in a way that made sense, as he knew he had seen something he was never meant to.

Yet, just like that, that vision was gone and he was left staring into the face of someone that wanted to claim him in a way that was fueled far more deeply than something fed purely only by desire. With that arm around him, he felt himself pulled in much closer, that arm having possession over him in a way that Dorn felt he couldn’t wriggle away from if he tried.

Trapped, yet…

Strangely…

It made him feel safe.

Dorn blinked a few more times, the stinging sensation of the tears that had threatened to spill over slowly fading away while he was transfixed, letting Perturabo indulge in his mouth fully with not even the most passing resistance.

 


 

Perturabo sank his tongue deeply into Dorn’s mouth for the first time in this particular interlude, though this time he claimed more territory than even before — as if to make his point even clearer. As he met absolutely no resistance, he filled the empty spaces inside awaiting mouth with dominance, tasting the essence that was Dorn while leaving behind a trail of iron and oil lingering in his saliva. And it was the latter that made this kiss more lewd and crass than ever before as there was much more of that substance contaminating his fluids, lubricating their clashing faces to such a degree that if Dorn got the idea this time of being overly eager and aggressively smashing their teeth together as he’d once almost done, it would likely cause neither of them any harm at all.

And as Perturabo continued to invade that awaiting mouth, his tongue slipping in and out between slicked up lips, there was more suggestiveness with each passing moment — something that had reignited the lightning in Perturabo’s eyes as the desire that never left him — was brought back to the surface.

There were far too many deeply painful things hanging in the air all around him, suffocating him like specters and shades but as much as there was to consider both good and bad, he wasn’t about to let Dorn get away from him under any circumstances. For better or worse, some things about him would never change.

Greatest of all of these was the smoldering, malignant obsession that drilled straight into those dark, captivating eyes that had nearly hypnotized him.

The hand that had been gripping Dorn’s handicapped arm freed it now that he had his prize trapped once more, fingers slipping down to grip Dorn’s ass in a way that was neither loving nor gentle, but demanding, as if he had a point that still needed to be made — and he shuddered as he felt that soft velvet, so enticing against his skin.

Dorn’s musculature was so incredibly dense and impossibly strong that he truly did feel as if he were hewn from solid rock. So what right did he have to be so miserably, seductively silken?

Perturabo’s pulse increased with a ferocity that throbbed though his entire body, including through the tongue that was so thoroughly buried in his Brother's mouth.

 


 

As Perturabo took over his mouth, Dorn seemed to all but melt as that muscle delved in deeper than before. He welcomed his Brother in completely as that large, long tongue slathered the insides of his mouth with the lingering taste of blood and that oil he had started to grow an affinity for.

It was such a decidedly Perturabo thing that he couldn’t possibly imagine a time where his Brother didn’t have such an ability. There was no denying the downright usefulness to such a thing, either even if Dorn was only given one part of that… benefit, consideration.

The sounds slipping between their meeting tongues and parted lips was entirely sexualized and crude.

At some point, he found himself wrapping his lips around that tongue in a far too practiced way as he began to suck upon it, lending to more downright wet noises.

Not once did he back down, even despite letting Perturabo be the one to take the lead. The sensation was a welcomed distraction and relief from the ache in his hearts, in his mind, in his soul. The same very aches that wounded Perturabo in turn, that much he knew — no matter how much either of them tried to hide it.

There could truly be no lying on either side. Perturabo simply revealed too much and Dorn, no matter how well-guarded he felt, knew that Perturabo could see right through him all with an ease that was far too alarming.

And a bit uncomfortable, if Dorn wanted to acknowledge that.

As his arm was released, he kept it pushed against Perturabo’s chest, then pressed up against and into his Brother as his ass was grabbed in such an exacting way that told Dorn that he was not getting away.

With his right hand, his fingers had opted to carding through the long thick cables until he could grab a handful of them. He didn’t yank nor pull, uncertain of the durability of them until Perturabo himself confirmed it either way, but that didn’t stop him from at least holding them, getting used to their fascinating texture.

Just as much as Perturabo was indulging in the velvet.

 


 

Perturabo indulged in Dorn, his smell, his taste, the sensations he provided; and the vast, overwhelming desires that he caused to rise in him—a need that had been delayed but not stopped—all while trying to ignore the many hurtful things that he knew would weigh heavily on his mind the second he was no longer so preoccupied.

Bewildered, Perturabo couldn’t begin to even comprehend that not all of these things were entirely bad; his own obsessive, doubting mind already churning — dark, sinister background processes running in his computerized subconscious that would no doubt surface again in time, to levy accusations and grievances at Dorn as he failed to comprehend how things could be so different after 11,000 years of negative reinforcement.

But for now; algorithms delayed, paranoia silenced.

Despite it all, and the indecipherable complexity of the situation he sensed that something vital within him may be changing already; though whether that was genuinely for better or worse, he could not discern.

The only certainty was that whether he would find it in him to have faith in Dorn's enthusiasm or not, he would never let him go.

Perturabo’s kisses became increasingly lewd; messy and loud as he all but simulated fucking that well-oiled, appeasing mouth, the motions of his tongue transforming from a frantic, sloppy, needy show of desperation into a steady, slow and deep penetration of Dorn’s lips and inside his mouth; a demonstration that told of things that should never be spoken between Brothers. And the one constant that remained through it all was a current of unyielding dominance.

Each time he dove in deeper, his Black Carapace extension was brushed against facial hair that was far softer than it had any right to be, feeling particularly gratifying when it glided over the sharp edge where flesh met metal, causing chills to ripple through him and his thighs to tense — each instance punctuated by the thrusting of his hips that made the message he sent with no room for misinterpretation, even clearer.

Slowly, the frustrations of their recent interactions melted away, Perturabo becoming more lost in the present; showing that he was absolutely more man than machine right now.

And that man was being driven not by code but by primitive, filthy desires of the flesh.

Both large, firm hands were now greedily, demandingly clamped down on Dorn’s ass, fingers curled over and sinking into muscles while his thumbs softly caressed over that tantalizing skin, indulging in the softness and warmth that was driving him wild.

 


 

The utter indulgence Dorn was subjected to when he finally cleared the last dredges of his mind of unkind matters, soon gave way to the sensations of excess. Of a gluttony of debauchery so profound that he felt as if he would choke upon the tongue that insisted to thrust into his mouth again and again and again.

Dorn was completely inundated, every sense now consumed and possessed by his Brother.

The taste of oil, of the remnants of blood and that long, slithering tongue trapped and bulged the air his throat, enough so that it risked Dorn being unable to breathe, had he been naught but a normal human.

The scent of oil and iron, increasingly overpowered by the constant pheromones of want and desire. The musk from a man so virile and ready to go the moment that he got his hands on what he wanted. The smell of soft and harder metals, of electrical circuitry, almost burned the memory into Dorn’s mind.

The sight of that large face pressed against his own, pale blue eyes and deep olive-rock skin taking up his entire field of view to the point that not a speck the world around him graced even the outer rim of his peripheral vision.

The sound of lewd interludes of tongues and lips smacking together with the additional noise drawn from such overt displays, of sliding along cloth and fabric alike; and of those long cables sliding against one another every time that Perturabo moved by either coming closer or thrusting up against him.

The feeling of strong hands upon his backside, gripping and pulling. Stronger arms still wrapped so tightly that he could not move. The slide of fabric against bare skin, the feeling of spent oil-slick saliva dripping down between their joined lips and landing on his skin below, and the sensation of those same long cable-dreads he carded and gripped at.

And that was simply the extent of the sensations he was getting from these external interactions with Perturabo, knowing damn what he gave in return — well knew the taste of his own saliva, the scent of his body when begging to be thoroughly fucked, the sight of his eyes that held dark desires beyond the remote imagining of most that knew him, the sound of panting breaths and thumping hearts, and the feeling of his soft body against the absolute antithesis of all he was.

Dorn felt himself tense.

 


 

Though those dreadful cords of cybernetic origin were no doubt interfaced directly with his brain in some capacity, it was clear they were connected in some way in which external manipulation posed no danger — an obviously dire weakness otherwise of course; but whatever failsafe Perturabo had, it was through enough to fully negate any worries. In fact the more intensely Dorn’s attention on them was focused, and the rougher he became with them — the more Perturabo seemed to enjoy it.

And at one point… did one of those metal housed, segmented cables that lay hidden among the rubberized bands move independently?; pressing into Dorn’s hand like a feline demanding attention? Perhaps… though it might have simply been a product of typical function misinterpreted by overactive mind — made worse by the fact that those less commonly armored metal cables threaded into his 'hair' were much like the intrusive ones that lie deep within that Chaos palace. Potential evidence to both distinctly different hypotheses; that one had truly moved as if it had a mind of its own; or that those overly detailed images had caused a stirring of imagination…

But as alarming as it might have been, there would not be much of a chance to investigate; Perturabo’s ability to refrain having been under great challenge all this time and finally snapping free.

His large, capable hands moved, one sliding up Dorn’s back while the other dipped down to wrap over Dorn’s thighs; and without much warning, in a whirlwind of iron and fur, Perturabo lunged forward before slamming Dorn down on that linen himation turned sheet, an aggression and power driving that force that was by no means needed nor kind at this stage and yet, he had done so without hesitation as if the calm interlude between them had never happened at all.

And before the dust had even settled, he loomed down over his victim, a cruel lust resonating inside fascinated adamantium eyes.

“Now, where were we, Brother?” Perturabo asked coldly with a metallic quality vibrating in his deep, throaty voice.

He didn’t even wait for an answer before forcing Dorn’s legs apart with his knees and scrambling between them, the span of his own pose assuring that Dorn had no choice but to spread himself wide open to accommodate his bulk.

 


 

Dorn had to pull back, nearly giving a double-take as he tried to peer to the side, where some of the cable dreads were, as if to get a visual on what he had felt mere seconds ago. Yet, that bit of curiosity would have to be investigated at a later date as his Brother suddenly moved.

And Dorn found himself staring up at that starry night-time sky all over again, a position he had been in a few times this day. His back slamming down hard elicited a grunt, causing him to bare his teeth at Perturabo in short order, out of reflex to fight back against the pure aggression he was being subjected to.

His arms fell to his side, his right hand gripping at the himation as he stared, chest rising and falling in that same rapid motion as before while his legs were forced apart more and then further.

A grimace broke through his briefly hostile expression as Dorn’s flexibility was tested.

“A similar position as we were in before, Brother. After you had made your threats.” Dorn spoke so dryly, but there was something that he couldn’t conceal, no matter how disaffected he acted. It was easily seen through within seconds because there was that undercurrent of a more playfully infuriating side of Dorn coming out.

As if he was deliberately being a brat.

 


 

Synthetic dreadlocks fanned out and clattered together when they’d sailed through the air, now thrown over his shoulders and left to dangle down from his scalp, framing his own face while encircling Dorn’s.

Between the dimming haze of approaching nightfall and that mechanism leering over him that blocked out what precious little light was left, it would have been quite dark for Dorn were it not for the extreme visual acuity of Primarch eyes. Yet as Perturabo stared down at Dorn there was little doubt that he saw fine, regardless — and in turn recognized uninhibited vision staring right back at him.

Now if anything, the lack of strong light only added to the mood set by the way this was all beginning to unfold, but with no loss of clarity. In fact, the dimming of the weakening sun made it seem in Perturabo’s vantage that Dorn’s impossibly colorless hair was practically glowing fuchsia and orange in a manner that was thoroughly enchanting. He stared down, intently and intensely, letting a couple of very heavy seconds pass by with an expression that told of endless, depraved thoughts churning behind those pale eyes.

"Then, you must also remember that I have always been and shall aways be a man of my word, Rogal Dorn." Perturabo said spitefully and with no less of a threat in his voice than the ones that Dorn referred to now as they picked up close to where they had left off — and yet there was a decidedly different tone to it all now. The danger was no less real; the intent no less predatory but the aching, miserable and truly embittered toxicity that had poisoned the atmosphere was gone. Playful might not have been a proper term to describe a being as emotionally destructive as the tyrant Perturabo even now, but there was a current of mutual understanding — of like-mindedness, that had been entirely absent the last time the timer ticked towards Dorn's demise.

And then, giving into at least some of those debauched thoughts with no uncertain authority, he jerked his head to the side, giving Dorn a full and complete view of something he’d only heard before.

Perturabo's lips pulled back from his face in a deeply unpleasant scowl, teeth pointed and bared as he engaged muscles rarely if ever used without deliberate, concentrated effort; a strange and echoing noise produced with the sounds of something metallic resting beneath flesh as he activated his re-purposed Betcher’s glands.

He raised his hand and spat his manufactured lubricant into his palm from a distance — the fluid produced thick, incredibly so: more accurately a gel than liquid; and of a pale, translucent viridescence, possessing a smell that was herbaceous and basic rather than acidic.

There was precious little doubt as to what it was that Perturabo intended to do with that oily, lubricating substanceand even less as to what would surely come immediately after.

 


 

As Perturabo loomed further over Dorn, there was a discerning glance traveling around his head, following the sound as if Dorn were trying to watch as much of this as he could —  spot what was only heard mere minutes ago. He wasn’t even quite sure what it was he was hoping to see or learn.

Whether or not his brief investigation was successful in any real way, his attention was back on Perturabo, now framed by a faint red light of that dying sunset.

Perturabo was beautiful, in his own way that did not match anyone or anything he had ever known. It was with that, he had fallen into silence just as his Brother had done.

Though the spell seemed broken once Perturabo met dry words with spite. Yet, he too, did not hold the same level of animosity and hatred as before. Newer, more concerning expressions and desires had taken root now.

Broadcasted as much as those visions that plagued his mind had.

Indeed, Perturabo.”

This atmosphere was so entirely different but Dorn held no objections in the slightest on the matter. He didn’t want Perturabo to abruptly change who and how he was, no matter if there was now a far deeper, mutual understanding. He didn’t want him to deviate from the man he was always meant to be. He wanted everything as it was.

No matter how dangerous.

What did he have to lose, truly?

Dorn was pulled away from those thoughts as he watched Perturabo’s face contort; and soon after, came that same strong smelling substance he had picked up on before, now back in Perturabo’s hand; along with the sound of that viscous slickness.

To know was one thing, to witness it was entirely different.

And judging how his erection twitched, Dorn seemed more than pleased with the developments that were rapidly approaching to show him the future that he was to be 'subjected to'.

 


 

How many times had Perturabo dribbled out precum or even partially ejaculated into that linen wrap around his waist these last few minutes, unable to withstand the excitement from both internal and external factors? It was uncertain, but the smell of musk and testosterone never left him — and increased the second he hastily pulled that dampened loincloth away and tossed it aside.

His hand was shaking, eyes wild as he stared at the once mundane and uninteresting lubricant he’d replenished into his palm, a needed product of his current form, now taking on a new meaning that would never be forgotten; the realization this was all truly about to happen nearly overwhelming him. He salivated and drooled like an animal — a habit assisted no doubt by the oily secretions that had either been beaten out of him or deliberately dispensed throughout the day. But there were no excuses that could truly explain away how bestial Perturabo truly became time after time when aroused — no matter how much of himself he had replaced.

And there was no one that could have ever sent him into this state other than Dorn.

Only Dorn.

Perturabo idly wondered if Dorn himself was aware of that.

If he wasn’t, he would be, in time.

This day—Perturabo knew without one doubt—was the beginning of a new chapter in both of their lives. Before he even bit into that sinful little apple, he knew the taste of its juice would curse him, the sweetness too irresistible to simply sample once and then give up.

It was a taste he’d acquired before even getting a proper bite. And he was addicted to it, before he’d even learned the wonders of its flavor.

He turned his head back to stare down at that Golden Apple, the platitudes and parables of his homeland drifting through his mind; warnings of the tragedies created by greed, by envy, by lust — and with a demented, crazed smile he willingly ignored each and every bit of wisdom blaring into his ears with a satisfaction that was genuinely spiteful.

If this was truly the advice he needed to heed, the Fates warning him of his downfall — it only made it even more gratifying to defy them. There was nothing, nothing in this world or any other that could convince him to change course.

Perturabo inhaled deeply, taking in the unbearably carnal scent of semen and blood, sweat; and the pheromones that Dorn still emitted so shamelessly — still taunting him, still begging to be fucked; a man more bitch than paragon.

He didn’t take his judgmental, smug eyes off Dorn’s flushed face for a single second, maintaining pointed eye contact as he slid his hand between his own legs and began to slather that lubricant over his length with crass, wet sounds. The alarming range of motion needed to get the job done was a clear indication of the monster Dorn might see if dared look down.

Perturabo sputtered and hissed as he fucked into his hand, pupils hard and huge as the last few moments before everything would change forever passed with filthy, ominous and oppressively long seconds.

"Do you know. How long I have wanted to fuck you." Perturabo growled in a deep, shaking voice that was not at all asking a question.

Chapter 8: S.I.E.G.E.

Summary:

Is a small victory in the present no matter how fulfilling, truly worth any cost… or will a moment of recklessness lead to an eventual, total defeat?

Chapter Text


 

What was he doing?

About to lay with a man that had been his enemy for as long as Dorn could remember, even if the resentment had been clearly brewing and festering on one side more than it had ever been on the other — all knew the rivalry of two siege masters, spurred on by the goading of another Brother.

And even after the Heresy, after the Iron Cage, his vengeance for justice and to grind down his enemy had been far more muted on Dorn’s side. When he had at last used Perturabo and his Legion as a means of repentance and catharsis.

To now, as Perturabo came as an enemy, choking, miasmic and all-consuming.

In that short span, everything changed and now he was about to be taken by the one that was his mirror in so many multitudes of ways. A new chapter now unraveling and opening in this debauched and sinful story that Dorn never knew would be told.

Dorn had fallen, deeply into a pit that writhed with cabled snakes preparing to hold him down and do far more than simply that, products brought forth of an overactive imagination. Surely…

He wasn’t even attempting to save face from that judgmental stare, to vouch for the holy good man those on Terra and in Legions alike called and lauded praises to. Instead, here was their Unyielding One about to be fucked by his Brother, one of the Chaos Undivided Traitors responsible for all the travesty and devastation that humanity currently faced all these millennia later.

None of that mattered now.

Just Perturabo.

The anticipation coiled deep within his gut as his senses waited for what would come next. Dorn’s breathing had grown even more shallow, hot breath mingling between the both of them as he kept picking up more and more of those erotic pheromones as his own released in the air.

Just as much as semen and precum drooled along his stomach from overexcitement.

After swallowing, his reddened gaze broke from Perturabo’s face to look down between them, unable to stave off the curiosity of wanting to see all of his Brother now that he heard that damp cloth be thrown to the side. His chest rose and fell as that thrum of the prospect of what to come continued to build, spurred by those growled words.

“Then… show me what you have promised, Brother.” Dorn snapped back, his own rumbling growl an undertone in his words as he flicked those hazel eyes back upwards, ablaze with nothing but what he had been displaying this entire time — want, desire, lust, hunger—yet, the most striking thing among all of that was yearning, a far too fragile longing.

 


 

An unsavory grin spread across Perturabo’s face as he watched Dorn dare to glance down and see what lay in store in his future. He raised up slightly on his knees, giving a clear view for his Brother's discerning eye.

Two tracer strips angled down below his ribs on either side and traveled to a prominent Black Carapace port where his navel had once been; a single shimmering bar of that same fused metal elsewhere embedded in his skin cutting a swath downward until linking up with a slightly smaller port nestled between his pelvic bones.

There rested a short patch of dark curly pubic hair that was shaved down to this skin directly in the center, split into two segments in order to accommodate that installation — and that bit of coarse hair was the only thing other than his eyebrows that confirmed Perturabo was ever of fleshly origin.

And if there were any further and more… questionable enhancements, it was difficult to tell due to Perturabo’s arm and hand being completely in the way; blocking the view as he purposefully fucked repeatedly into his fist, though the crude and explicit actions he took did nothing to conceal his massive girth and length, curving upwards proudly and eager — a tool to be used.

Perturabo raised his other hand to his lips and crassly drooled into his palm, though the translucent bright green color of the secretion gave away exactly what it was he was doing, and with very little time to spare those oil-drizzled fingers were thrust down between there bodies.

He flung himself forward and stared down once more, an intense and cold look on his features as he gazed upon the face of his most detested enemy. And yet for all his bitterness and unarguably cruel methods there was something in those daemonic blue eyes that should never have been there. And it was clearer still when he’d noticed a fragile neediness in his Brother’s stare.

But for all its passion there was still something in Perturabo’s expression that was off, eerily inhumane and inhuman. And so boundlessly possessive as he stilled in his stroking motions, now using that hand to part Dorn’s ass open so that he could use the fingers on the opposing side a bit more easily.

Those oiled digits trailed their sleek, sticky lines along the cleft of Dorn’s flesh, twitching and jerking from the heat and softness there, clearly demonstrating how overstimulated Perturabo was even when he tried to pretend otherwise.

Breathing labored, mouth hanging open, he appeared nearly drunk in his lust; and his thighs jumped when his invading fingers slipped over that ring of firmly clenched muscles that had tortured him for far longer than he wanted to consider. So hot, so unbearably tight, tense and resistant to his prodding.

“Mmmn, what a well guarded Fortress.” Perturabo groaned out lewdly, putting his former inappropriate thought to words at last, and there was no mistaking the gloating undercurrent there as he prepared to launch his invasion.

 


 

Dorn’s mind reeled from the little bit of what he had seen, but it was almost as if Perturabo was intentionally making sure that he’d not be privy to the full extent of what it was that his Brother was hiding down there. Though, through the lack of knowing that, he had been granted the sight of an absolutely massive erection.

The sight alone had him twitch again as he locked his gaze back more squarely with his Brother now looming above him as he had done time and time again.

There would be time for exploration later it seemed, as his body was all too aware of just what would happen next.

At least Perturabo had the courtesy of preparing himself adequately first, yet that didn’t stop the natural bodily reaction to flinch from a touch that hadn’t been his own in eons. His entire form had been running hot since the beginning of their battle, yet that spot that Perturabo slipped over must have felt like molten lava.

Perturabo’s subsequent reactions to that incensed his own further, and Dorn felt himself covered in a layer of fresh sweat, having to force himself to take a slow and steady breath.

Dorn knew this would be very uncomfortable, at first. How fortuitous it was that Dorn happened to get off when being subjected to unimaginable pain. If Perturabo hadn’t understood that before, he certainly would soon enough — and that the threat of being split open by that monstrous cock held intrigue rather than any modicum of worry.

Still, his right hand continued to grip at the bundle of the himation at the edge, if only to give himself something to hold further while he spread his legs to their limit to accommodate his Brother further.

“Lay your Siege then, Brother.” Dorn hissed as he played along with downright dirty euphemisms, going even further with a rebuttal, “Will you have what it takes to breach it?”

 


 

Shall I remind you up close why they call me The Breaker?

Perturabo’s clear and direct threat from earlier echoed through his mind as he stared down at his prey; recaptured — and he knew without even examining his own words and mindset from before that this was what he’d truly meant by it all along, the violent lust rising in his core not from the craving to beat Dorn into submission on the battlefield but from the darkness of his true fantasies. He wanted to fuck Dorn into submission and always had. Any other expression of that desire was nothing more than a filter serving as a proxy for his true wants.

And any form of cruelty or torture he might inflict, would all circle back around to this urge, this need, left unexpressed for thousands of years. What better way, after all — to prove his superiority…?

His oiled, slicked up fingertips rolled in rough, aggressive circles as he felt around that tight little rim, and his methods begged the question: was he doing this to prepare Dorn properly or solely for his own amusement? There was no seduction, no gentleness; nothing but greedy, selfish lust; and an unspoken declaration in his actions that he already considered Dorn his property, an object.

If their moment of genuine softness and vulnerability had left any true impressions on Perturabo, he masked it well now, reverting back into the villain that had stepped foot on this planet to begin with, without a single care or drop of empathy.

And he was making good on his promises.

Perturabo moaned—a filthy, wet sound—as Dorn returned suggestive and blasphemous imagery; and he shook his head softly in quiet satisfaction, reveling in it. “We shall see, Rogal Dorn…” He rattled out his cybertek laced words, voice unsteady and husky in ways that could not be disguised even by the strange crackle of excess energy.

"But I think we both already know how this will end…"

Without any kindness or consideration, Perturabo assaulted that gate, pressing with authority and force as he slipped two thick, large fingertips inside to the first knuckles, immediately greeted by such a sweltering heat it was like standing too close to a forge; and there was so much tensile strength that he knew the second he that stopped actively placing such pressure inside that impossibly tight little hole, Dorn’s body would reject him and succeed in pushing him out.

 


 

Dorn twitched, his entire body shuddered and all those little hairs seemed to stick up on end as a direct result, all while Perturabo continued to run those slick fingers up against his entrance, layering slick oil all over his backside.

He could feel copious amounts of whatever that was, there was as it slid between the cleft of his ass.

Every time that Perturabo paid a bit too much attention, he got the same reaction, no matter how many times that Dorn tried his hardest to seem unaffected, there was simply no way to do so in such a situation.

Dorn was also acutely aware of the rhythmic thumping of his hearts to where his Brother currently pressed, the blood pumping through his veins and rapidly intensifying the longer that Perturabo continued to linger in that spot.

Whatever rebuttal Dorn may have even had on his lips died seconds later as it sounded like his breath caught in his throat, strangling him with a noise while his body flooded him with warnings that he did not need an interface to understand.

The stretch, even as much as he was prepared for what was to come, was a beginning of the end as Dorn damn well knew that things would only get bigger from here on out. The tension wrapped around Perturabo’s fingers as his chest heaved and he groaned at that sensation of a deep ache not quite reached in a long time.

Even still, Dorn didn’t waver with his glare, regardless of how his choked up breath and shuddering body might have told. He was still being Defiant, even while his body was getting used to  the beginning of the invasion that was too well underway.

How filthy it was that, deep in those hearts, excitement overtook any measure of fear.

 


 

Perturabo’s thighs quivered as his hips shook, and he was clenching and releasing his muscles repeatedly as he tried to remain on target; completely overcome by all the feedback Dorn was supplying to his system — from the pounding dual pulses hotly squeezing around his fingertips; to the strangled, labored breaths that told Perturabo that Dorn was already straining more than he wanted to let show; to the proud unyielding gleam glaring from noble eyes, eyes that communicated an intent to resist even while knowing this was in all ways a battle he could not win… it all set his every sense to promethium.

And that last part alone was enough to make Perturabo want to rip him to bloody tatters one agonizing strike at a time.

He moved his fingers in and out of that sheath with all the care he thought Dorn deserved, acting as though he was polishing a cannon barrel rather than indulging a lover, his motions methodical; nearly clinical as he maintained a rhythm that was more detached than anything meant to be gratifying.

Yet there were far too many disturbances in Perturabo’s stats, from his own vital signs to the musky, cloying blanket of testosterone laden excitement that billowed off of him to truly sell the image of robotic indifference he was working so hard to maintain.

Especially when his probing sank in deeper than before, and he felt an instinctive clenching response that surely had to have been an expression of pain.

He nearly came again from that thought alone. How satisfying it all was, already; and the thoughts of all that would come in the following minutes nearly overwhelmed him; a conclusion to eons passed in imaging and envisioning a world where this was possible in quadrillions of concurrent data streams — but now it was reality. Patience rewarded.

And the Golden Apple was now his to devour…

Despite the excessive slickness he’d personally assured to the area he fully intended to lay siege upon in due time, there was no small mirth in the idea that came to mind upon giving that metaphor the consideration it deserved — one that he’d already thought about when Dorn had been lying, so appeasing, on his stomach before.

 


 

Every single tell that Dorn gave, he was receiving in kind by Perturabo. All of his senses continued to work in perpetual overtime as the pure animalistic nature of his Brother made one wonder if he was more of a beast than he ever was a man or machine. Every biological tell and signal revealing that case time and time again and Dorn’s body responded.

It responded to that same, almost primitive, sense that drove him further and further from the brink. The well composed Primarch, never known to have any more than a stern word or stoic expression to most, was no longer that paragon.

But Dorn didn’t care.

There were only the two of them in this space. His Brother had come here alone to indulge and Dorn was keen to do much of the same, regardless of how much it drug him further down into damnation.

It seemed as if the touch of Chaos would only come in the literal sense from his Brother instead of the Ruinous Powers. And yet, even then there could be no grip of such over his hearts or soul. It had been tried before and spectacularly failed. If this was a way to tempt Dorn to serve the other side, it would amount to nothing.

Dorn didn’t seem overtly concerned for that in the first place, given where he was now. He knew his prideful Brother in the sense that Perturabo would let none control him. His Brother’s desire to lord over him came from a vastly different place in comparison to what it could have been.

And so Dorn didn’t care.

All that mattered was separate from the concerns that his other Brothers may have voiced at one point or another, or the worries that would have followed suit, especially now. No, what mattered was Perturabo in front of him, filling out his complete field of view with naught but his body.

Another stilted breath exhaled from him as Perturabo moved his fingers and pushed even harder into him than before and deeper still. His body jolted at the greater intrusion that parted his entrance even further, a pained grimace crossed Dorn’s lips, causing him to bare his teeth and growl.

Those hazel eyes burned with a measure of fury but gave away far too much of his soul to reveal anything akin to true hatred.

And if it wasn’t his eyes revealing the truth, it was the fact that he had ejaculated against his stomach the moment that the pain became a bit crueler.

 


 

The moment the vulgar scent of fresh, hot seed hit the air —  Perturabo smelled it and reacted on such a primal level that he nearly joined Dorn without any stimulation at all, something he would not have so easily confessed, but it was true. A deep guttural growl was rumbling threateningly in his throat, as if he were angered by the audacity—the insolence—of it all; and his shoulders shook as his heated stare directed at his wayward Brother turned outraged.

Those eyes, like a blazing sunset, did not gaze upon him with resentment but with longing — the thin veil of defiant disregard not enough to hide that fact, especially not now that he was guilty of such whorish actions, having stained himself at the mildest occurrence of penetration that he’d experience today.

And as those tight, reluctant muscles spasmed around his fingers while still trying to protect against this intrusion, Perturabo nearly lost his mind.

With no warning he straightened out those fingers and withdrew them as carelessly as he’d shoved them in, both hands lunging forward and clamping down on Dorn’s thighs, long fingers wrapping tightly around stone-hard muscles.

Then, Perturabo leaned in and down as he lifted Dorn into the air without a bit of decorum, slinging those legs over his shoulders as he pulled him closer. He inhaled deeply, the sound that he made and the look in his enraged eyes a moment later a synchronized expression of utter disgust; and yet, that display of disapproval contradicted his actions entirely, as he leaned in a second after.

With a growl in his throat he took the tip of Dorn’s oozing erection into his mouth, suckling on the head as if he were trying to suck the cum straight out of the source by force, those huge fingers pressing into Dorn’s leg muscles firmly as he supported the lower half of his body — though that gesture was not for Dorn’s benefit, but his own.

 


 

Whatever it was that Dorn had been expecting when Perturabo had grabbed his thighs after pulling out painfully, was clearly not what happened next as he felt and watched his Brother lift his lower half up into the air and throw his legs over either shoulder.

His muscles jumped in that harsh, unkindly grip that felt as if it would leave bruises in the wake of such manhandling. He didn’t seem to get anywhere in shorter order as Perturabo forced him to keep this position no matter how much he writhed at the sudden sensation.

An overstimulation to his dick that was maddening and wholly unforeseeable as he stuttered out a grunting noise that was so close to him crying out in a mixture of alarm and pure, unfiltered pleasure.

He was forced to ride it out as another contraction deep within his gut came and spilled into that greedy, awaiting mouth that drank his filth from the source. Dorn dug both heels into Perturabo’s back while his right hand gripped at the himation so tightly that his knuckles turned to a much paler color than even his fur.

His left arm was thrown over his face as he bit down onto his own arm, stifling his noise.

 


 

That hot, slick flesh between his lips was as sinful as it was divine, a glorified contradiction that filled Perturabo with a sense of self-satisfied fulfillment as he soaked in the lust that he had caused within his honorable, noble Brother; so much more respectable than he, so much more worthy of praise — now reduced to a crass, slobbering, maniacal disgrace.

And Dorn's seed was delicious, his interface chiming in reverie as it analyzed that filthy stream of salt, trace metals and protein that he drank down like milk, as he suckled loudly from the head of Dorn’s dick with shameless indulgence — as if he wanted to eat it.

When he’d pulled out every drop that was on tap, Perturabo blew out a sharp breath, puffing his cheeks out before engaging those hyper-specialized muscles again, a sharp noise echoing in his mouth and throat as dual streams of slimy, gelatinous oil ran down the inside of his cheeks and pooled in his mouth; all sensations he knew Dorn had felt in the most compromising of ways. A suggestive, nearly cruel look rested on his sharp features as he rolled his eyes up to look down upon Dorn’s pathetic, ‘tortured’ form, the expression he glared down upon him a warning despite giving him no time to ward against what he did next, even if Dorn should see him beneath his attempt to shield his face.

That long, thick, impressive cock was then fully slathered in viscous oily lubricant as Perturabo began to take it into his mouth — long tongue sliding against it from below.

His odd motions and unconventional mannerisms made it seem less like he intended to give oral sex and more as if he were completing a challenge to see if he could successfully swallow it all — pulling back with his cheeks and taking it down his throat slowly but never moving back, not giving up any of the distance he claimed as he sucked it down like a hungry snake.

 


 

Perturabo continued to push it further, step by step, just when Dorn was starting to figure him out more. And as soon as he thought he knew what he intended to do, Perturabo ended up changing his tactics. Dorn might have been inclined to even speak on that matter if such things weren't constantly being used against him.

And now, slightly shielded with his arm, he had to witness his Brother taking him down to the hilt, swallowing inch by slow inch. Despite his smaller stature, Dorn was not small in the slightest even for someone his size, his cock was thick and long and easily filled out Perturabo’s mouth and throat.

The more that Perturabo took, the more strain he’d feel against the hands that were keeping his legs apart. The tension there was taut, and if he had let go for one second, Perturabo might find his head between thick, strong thighs that’d threaten to crush his head entirely.

Dorn bit down on his arm harder until the smell of blood permeated the air as fiery wide eyes locked on Perturabo, staring unblinkingly.

 


 

His oil-coated mouth lubricated each and every inch of that impressive cock as Perturabo swallowed it down, the excess fluid he also swallowed down with those same filthy sucking motions coating his muscles so that his Brother could slip easily inside, until he’d succeeded at last — engulfing Dorn whole as he enjoyed the sensation of that throbbing slab of meat stabbing deep down into his throat.

Taking it slowly a bit at a time with the assistance of his manufactured lubricant made such a feat all too easy, not even gagging a single time though in reality he should have choked on it more than once. Yet here he was simply holding it inside his body with no difficulties at all thanks to how slick he’d made himself, that dick he'd greedily devoured his reward as its impressive girth filled his mouth and throat.

How much of Dorn would he consume; and in how many different ways before even this first encounter came to a close? It was so thrilling to consider as he held back those stocky, rock-hewn thighs pressing against his ears forcefully apart so that they would not crush him. He rolled his eyes up to flash an unsavory glare into hazel flames before tilting his head down and dipping in, pressing his nose against that tuft of snowy pubic hair that was somehow every bit as soft and warm as it looked.

He wanted to bury his face there…

Perturabo inhaled deeply and pressed his nose against it, nuzzling that furry patch with his face as best he could with Dorn’s cock lodged into his throat, a rumbling moan vibrating along that same treasure he held inside himself with no small amusement.

The way Dorn tasted and smelled was enough to nearly make him pass out at times, so overwhelming and delightful it was; so masculine and primitive, so filthy and raw; so incredibly horny — and above all, so entirely wrong that he should have such accursed, forbidden carnal knowledge of his own Brother

And he permanently archived every last blasphemous detail, to be stored forever into his databanks with no small sense of satisfaction. There were no Gods that could dare judge him and no authority that could command him to delete such records — as that playback would more gratifying than all the simulations he'd ever created, even taken as a whole.

His fingers sank deeper into quivering thighs, as if to demonstrate his determination to any entity stupid enough to spy on all he did. And what he would continue to do.

If there was any level of damnation deeper than the depraved and despicable lows he’d already sunken to, he’d dive right in. Just as he intended to take this unspeakable sin with his Brother to much further depths, dragging him down to the bottom with him.

 


 

Dorn’s chest heaved at the sight above him, with his throbbing erection so deep in his Brother’s hot, slick mouth, Dorn wanted to do nothing more than that thrust. Yet, those strong fingers gripping him firmly ensured that that would not happen in any way.

His body was being manipulated to only Perturabo’s whims and he damn well knew that if there was something that his Brother disapproved of, he was not going to be able to fight it given the rather vulnerable position he was in now.

As Perturabo glared down at him at the same moment he nuzzled Dorn’s pubic hair, Dorn tried to dig his heels even further, as if he was attempting to keep his Brother right in place within the soft, warm and slightly damp patch of fur.

No mortal man could stand this, how could Dorn be expected to when up against his own Brother, while being so nestled into that moist throat. Dorn jerked his head to the side, tearing into his own arm flesh with sharp teeth at the same moment his thighs flexed.

Freely flowing, bright-red blood spilled against his lips and into his facial hair the moment that he released deep within his Brother’s throat, cumming in so short an order that one could assume that Primarchs did not have a true refractory period.

Dorn didn't.

 


 

Perturabo continued to amuse himself with the moist furry patch above Dorn’s cock, realizing that it had trapped much of that mania inducing scent; and he was reveling in all the pheromones there — and a softness that couldn’t be described as anything less than luxurious.

Then suddenly…

Juice from the Golden Apple…?

Straight from the source

Perturabo growled lowly, muscles tensed and vibrating all around that huge intrusion he so generously accommodated deeply down his slimy throat; then slowly began to pull back, pushing the tip of his tongue firmly against the bottom of his Brother’s cock as he withdrew. He continued to tease and suck all the while, glazing every part of that mass with a mixture of saliva, lubricant and Dorn’s own semen. And once Perturabo returned to the tip once more, he ended this interlude exactly as he’d begun it. With a lascivious moan, he suckled on the tip with renewed enthusiasm—as if he was rewarding Dorn for his sinful, shameful behavior—lips pushing and rolling Dorn’s foreskin with each motion of his cheeks.

He stared up at Dorn with a ravenous hunger; the smell of divine, oxygen-rich Primarch blood that had hit his nostrils seconds ago provoking him further still — as did the sight of that nearly neon red fluid turned dye that saturated Dorn’s colorless hair in a way that was truly beautiful to behold…

Perturabo glared with feral intensity, lingering in a heavy, silent couple of seconds after he released Dorn from his mouth, huge hands keeping those powerful thighs in place.

Then, a smile formed on Perturabo’s strong features that was nothing short of diabolical.

He slid his palms up and around at the same time, wrists twisting in as he gripped those tensing muscles from below now, and gave a hard, swift yank — pulling Dorn closer before sinking his little fingers into hot, moist skin. He pried those firm asscheeks apart as much as he could muster before roughly shoving his face between them as best he could, long tongue barely reaching that stiff, snug ring of flesh that was obviously to be his next location to devour.

 


 

Dorn pumped a copious amount of seed down that warm gullet of his Brother, even by the time that Perturabo had begun to pull off of him and ended with him sucking the head of his dick. An action which earned him a few more pumps of that viscous salty fluid to be pulled out.

When Perturabo finally released him, it curved lewdly back towards Dorn’s body, pushed down from gravity as well as its size. He was still so impossibly hard and now had to see with far more awareness exactly how slick it truly was by the combination of a multitude of fluids.

Dorn didn’t feel shame but he did feel his face heat up.

The himation-turned-sheet was released when his heavy, stout body was yanked around as if Perturabo wasn’t pulling over more than a ton with alarming and practiced ease.

Dorn felt himself pulled nearly upside down, shoulders pressing into the soft fabric below and forcing him to stay in this position that brought all the blood to his head. What was he—truly, he wasn’t about to—he was.

Once more, it was a good thing that Perturabo had such control because Dorn began to writhe in the anticipation to come. This certainly hadn’t happened before and for once, Dorn didn’t seem to know what to do beyond trying to reach along his side to grab at Perturabo’s leg.

Something, anything to dig his nails into while he was defiled as those hazel eyes broke contact from what he was witnessing when he clenched them shut tightly.

Perturabo was ruining him and he hadn’t even fucked him yet.

 


 

Perturabo was on a mission, locked on to the immediate task and completely unwilling to give up. But what he intended was all but impossible like this, only able to reach that enticing entrance the barest bit from the angle he was currently in. But now that Dorn seemed to understand what blasphemies were in store for him, he was obligingly cooperative even as Perturabo felt him scrambling around, seeking something to hold onto.

And with that, Perturabo raised up on his knees and straightened his spine, stretching to the fullest extent possible short of standing up, and he dragged Dorn with him, forcing him to deepen that upside down pose if not entirely dangle from the ground from this new direction. There was an unspoken but unmistakable authority in what Perturabo did, leaving no doubt that if he still could not accomplish what he desired the result would be another shift in positioning — whether that be rising to his feet or flipping Dorn back on his face again, Perturabo would do as he desired.

He worked his fingers in deeper into that cleft, parting Dorn open as he rammed his face between those ample, round asscheeks as best he could, having a much more acceptable level of success now — his long, intrusive tongue swirling against that impossibly tight gate with wide, circular licks, indulging himself as much as he did his Brother in total depravity.

But the corruption he desired to inflict upon his upright, honorable, dignified nemesis was not for Chaos’ sake nor bidding. It was in pursuit of his own goals that the Lord of Iron continued his assault; and absolutely nothing would stop him.

The pounding, frantic, almost incalculably rapid double pulses met his pressure with wordless urgency that might as well have been begging by Perturabo’s calculations; and he savored every wicked second of what he did now as much as he had everything else he’d put Dorn through. Not caring of what nasty things he did—from where he was licking to how his Brother’s balls pressed against his forehead, he seemed to have no inhibitions or disdain whatsoever — even having taken an unmistakable liking to the tiny little ring of soft hair that he found inside, deliberately manipulating it with his tongue in one direction, then the other; in between pushing against the resistance he’d break through in due time, kneading against that muscular pucker of flesh as if he were massaging there.

 


 

Just like that, Dorn was left dangling several inches off of the ground as Perturabo put him in this new and extreme position. Now made acutely aware of Perturabo’s monstrous cock against his back, sliding along those very fine hairs that provided a likely pleasing texture.

Dorn’s attempt to grab anything met with nothing as both of his arms dangled below him uselessly, allowing some trickles of blood to trail down his left arm til it met the stockinette, staining the darker material even further.

A sound akin to a hiss could be heard the moment that Perturabo trailed his tongue over his twitching entrance. The sound was only punctuated by loud groans, deeper the longer that Perturabo kept on manipulating every part of his body.

This was a pleasure and torment untold.

Perturabo…” Dorn now moaned his Brother’s name amidst the debauchery as his body quivered and shook, within and without. The only tension in his body now was not that of someone trying to resist, it was the tension only brought on through the immense pleasures of the flesh.

A multitude of factors, most of which would have no doubt surprised Perturabo, contributed to the fact that Dorn simply couldn’t think about anything but his Brother.

In fact, his Brother's name left such steadfast lips several times over several seconds in quick succession.

 


 

To hear Dorn so openly—so desperately—scream his name over and over again was nearly too much to bear, so fulfilling and empowering it was; and it made Perturabo want to do so much more to Dorn — things both good and bad, and far worse than bad, just to hear more of that voice crying out in every tone and emotion possible.

How he shook and squirmed and writhed; it drove Perturabo insane, and as he pressed and rubbed against Dorn’s soft, tender back he smeared such filth into that fine layer of fur it begged the question as to if that was more than precum that had been released in the last few moments.

Perturabo moved his head away and tilted his head back, so that he could drag his tongue over Dorn’s taint and underneath his balls — leaving no part of him no matter how intimate or forbidden without proper attention as he placed his mark on every single part of what was now in his determination; his.

And as surely as he’d eaten that miniature auric aquila, Perturabo had made it his goal to prove an all important point, to consume as much of Dorn as he could, claiming every area of that conquered territory with a gloating smugness that was bolstered evermore by the unexpectedly thrilling reactions Dorn gave for each new obscenity he was subjected to.

It made Perturabo wonder how he might actually react to some things he’d already planned for the future.

Without warning, Perturabo lowered his head and went right back in, hot, panting breaths grazing that sensitive, sinful flesh, and he pushed his fingers even further apart, forcing that cleft to open to the limit.

A tense, awkward and terribly long second passed; then another — the stillness broken by that strange inhuman noise coming from somewhere within Perturabo’s face as he deeply stretched his masseter muscles.

 


 

There seemed to be no end to just how far his Brother was willing to go in making sure that every millimeter of Dorn's body would remember only how Perturabo felt. He was lavished with attention like no other, causing him to uselessly hang there and squirm in very minute amounts as there was no true escape from the overstimulation.

Even the cum he felt now trailing down his back and slowly reaching the nape of his neck had him twitching each time a new rivulet trailed in such a sinful way. All he could smell was the heady scent of testosterone and sex that interlaced with every bit of Perturabo’s pheromones.

Dorn felt drunk on it.

His legs, his feet, tried to squeeze and prod, pressing hard into what skin he could manage to reach. The cables that brushed against his legs in short order when he moved them also provided a sensation like nothing else between the cool metals and the hot skin.

Perturabo’s name became whispers until Dorn bit down on his tongue the moment that he felt those large hands open him up even further until there was the undercurrent of aching pain the longer that he remained open.

There was a jolt the moment that damning noise reached his ears again as his body tensed for what was to come soon enough. Now he wouldn’t be able to think of much else except what that sound meant.

 


 

They were both already drenched in fluids and pheromones, but Perturabo was only just beginning, with his head nestled between those powerful thighs as his lips pulled back; and he jerked forward, weakly spitting that viscous pale viridian substance as he descended upon his victim properly, tongue and lips spreading a copious mouthful of that faintly botanical gel all over heated, quivering flesh.

The noises left in his wake were wet and sloppy as he moved with an enthusiasm that was nearly bestial; and once he felt Dorn was suitable anointed he forced the tip of his tongue inside that pulsing hole, excess oil dripping from his chin, rolling down the back of Dorn’s thighs and pelting the himation below.

Perturabo’s hands gripped with a distinctly more aggressive firmness, making it clear that Dorn was not about to get away, extra drops of fluid running down Dorn’s back now that were identical in biomechanical origin but not at all similar in function.

And the hardness pressing into Dorn’s spine twitched as if in pain as Perturabo rutted firmly against him — and in myriad ways the increasing fervor and tension in the air proclaimed that the inevitable was only moments away.

 


 

Bit by bit did Perturabo wear down the defenses through all of his actions and through all of his words. As much as each blow went against that fortress of Dorn’s body and the most coveted of spaces, it also went to Dorn himself.

As he swallowed down blood and clenched around the tongue in his ass, he finally relented and said what had been on his mind since this entire outrageous interlude started. With a low, gruff voice that barely concealed another one of his deep moans with a haggard breath, he spoke.

Perturabo… Fuck.. me…

 


 

In that moment, as soon as those low, moaning words of purest damnation crossed Dorn’s lips, everything stopped; Perturabo seeming as though he’d shut down, a statue of motionless muscle and metal that lingered there in the unsettling silence.

Then, after a couple of seconds that dragged on for far too long, it all happened nearly too quickly. Everything was a blur as aggressive, shaking hands fumbled and clumsily found purchase; doing precisely as needed but with no finesse or grace — only primal determination and the heeding of bodily desires that nothing could stop guiding his actions now.

Dorn’s world spun two-fold; once as he was flipped upright in a flash of spinning colors, suddenly face to face with a slobbering feral cyborg; mouth open, frenzied pale blue eyes now turned red, predatory and hungry as they registered the vision of Dorn’s face complete with the bloodstains that stained his pale skin and icy hair.

But that was only a split second in time, as Perturabo wasted no more time in falling forward with a deep resonate shout that was like a battle cry, carrying them both crashing to the ground as he towered over Dorn, forcing his thighs further apart even as they fell through the air and giving Dorn no choice but to fully and completely wrap his legs around his Brother before they even hit the ground.

"I will conquer you!" Perturabo roared in a shaking, emotionally laden tone that conflicted with the roboticized ring that lingered in his voice; cybernetic cords clacking loudly together and flaring around them as they sailed toward the earth below.

 


 

At first, Dorn felt the briefest sensation of worry when Perturabo stilled every single movement to the point of nearly being statue-like, though that notion left seconds later as he was roughly manhandled once more in such an alarming way.

At one point, Dorn even closed his eyes as the sudden and quick movements had his head spinning after being upside down for what felt like far too long. It didn’t matter if such situations wouldn’t have actually bothered him, his body still acted far too human at times.

Just as it acted now.

Once upright, he opened his eyes, only to be stared into his very soul by those wicked eyes that held no kindness in them. It was as if Dorn was going to be devoured by a slavering beast rather than ravaged by a man that he called his Brother. Judging by how much spittle, oil and drool poured out of that mouth, Dorn couldn’t help but be certain in that assessment.

But even that moment was gone in a flash as his sense of balance became thrown off completely the second that he was thrown onto his back, pressed onwards by Perturabo’s lunge that told him exactly what would happen next.

Yet this had meaning too.

They were back to the same position that started everything in the beginning, the true descent into a madness like no other and equally as sinful. And as that roar matched the mighty thud of their bodies hitting the ground, Dorn wrapped his legs around Perturabo as intended.

The ground beneath the two Primarch gave in, cracks forming from under the himation outwards, as if signaling the beginning to an end.

"Then show me!"

Dorn rose his voice in kind, knowing he had lost this battle, but never letting go of the fire for one second, never feeling stronger in his entire life.

Yet now those fires kindled the flames of wanton pleasure and desire.

 


 

Show me.

Show me.

Perturabo brooded, savoring those words and the meaning that went so far beyond such a simple statement; yet he was plagued by doubt and determined to crush his own hope before it bloomed, even as he so clearly hung onto that statement with an iron grip.

Perhaps it could be said that Perturabo well disguised the traces of his daemon corruption, though it was less effective in the moment; but in that it could have also been argued as he stared down with a ravenous craving burning behind his eyes; features twisted, teeth bared — that his once-divine, demigod origins were just as obscured.

Though he was undeniably a fusion of biology and technology, a super-human form Ascended beyond even what should have been possible, he was nothing less than a monstrosity; as if he’d walked out from the pages of myth or more aptly, a horror story.

But in spite of everything, as he glared his hateful malice down at the fixation he had trapped in his claws, there was a weakness inside that expression; a vulnerability of pure, fathomless emotion that he by no means wanted to display. It longed, it needed far beyond the victory his words so boastfully heralded; and beneath even that, was a sense that was no less than awe as he stared unbroken into Dorn’s deep, dark eyes.

That tumultuous abyss of potent, miserable emotions likely made him more of a threat however, and certainly more volatile.

His overcharged body shook with the frenetic energy of an earthquake as he scrambled to stake his claim, fingers working to line himself up with the greatest stronghold he’d ever defeat and the one thing he’d secretly always wanted all along above all things, sliding one hand back along his slicked-up length to brace himself against as he glided between that velvet cleft that was already nearly too much to endure.

A rasping, aching breath was pushed between his lips as moisture dripped from the head of his cock, overcome by the intense pressure of that strong body and the agonizingly seductive heat he felt against his skin — sensing even greater beyond.

Perturabo pressed himself in further still, feeling that armored gate grazing against the tip, so unbelievably tight it was difficult to truly believe that Dorn wasn’t still resisting him in some way.

But that didn’t matter. He had not come here in peace, but in warfare; just as he always wanted, just as Dorn clearly needed. And with not one bit of gentleness he did exactly as he’d threatened from the very start.

He laid siege.

The moment he felt those stubborn muscles curve away from his pressure, he slid the hand that had been helping him line himself up to grip Dorn’s hip with vigor and pulled, demandingly; and he slid his fist back along his huge girth, forcing himself inside Dorn’s body with a vicious thrust of his hips as he threw his head back and roared from the endless stream of sensations that assailed him all at once.

And in that moment of blind frenzy, he came, harder than he ever had in his entire miserable existence.

 


 

Everything stopped.

Dorn found himself in those nanoseconds of stillness where it felt like time itself had held its breath. The world around them fell silent and all that Dorn could see was Perturabo above him, looming and absolute. The only vestiges of light being that of the dying sun that outlined his Brother’s silhouette with crimson.

He gazed deeply into those pale blue-red eyes and those sharply bared teeth, a contradiction revealed like nothing else as he read his Brother in the moments of time between those seconds. Time was moving fast but Dorn’s mind was faster.

Outwardly, Perturabo was an aggressive and spiteful man, the one that would never let any lord over him. Never one to give up control or allow anyone to put him in a place of weakness. He lashed out, much like a child having a tantrum because nothing else had ever worked to garner any attention to be drawn his way.

Inwardly, Perturabo was a jaded and terrified man that never wanted his walls to crumble to reveal that suspicion as fact. All he wanted was to be seen, his eyes revealed that much, it revealed that longing and vulnerability like nothing else. Even now, bits of his personality not tempered by Chaos or hindered by his own thoughts, poked through and revealed itself.

There was never going to be any fixing this. Such a thing would have been hard won ten millennia ago and now? It was too late to bring that to bear. Dorn recognized it, because deep down, he was much the same.

So close to Perturabo as his mirror that he idly wondered if some measure above had intended for this outcome. For an understanding so deep that neither could ignore it. Drawn together like two planets on a collision course due to the gravitational pull alone. There was no changing this course.

No matter the cruelty or the pain, Dorn took and dished it out in kind. Because he could take it. With his own fucked up need to feel pain and feel as if he had paid for his failures, he wondered…

Would they both find balance?

As those slivers of time continue to tick forwards, he knew that his own eyes revealed much beyond what was to expected in this situation now. Would Perturabo pick up on that understanding? Would he recognize that their spirits were far more kindred in nature than either of them had ever realized?

Dorn didn’t see Perturabo as a hated enemy or nemesis, and only saw him as a rival on the most basic surface level as deemed needed by Brothers and Father alike. Could Perturabo tell that everything went deeper than that? Now to the point that it shocked Dorn and added another point to idle musings that this was always intended to happen.

And then, it was as if time resumed and he had a shaking Perturabo still looming above him, moving in preparation for what was to come, what would seal Dorn’s fate in a way unlike ever before. But in doing so, would seal Perturabo’s fate in turn and forever entwine the both of them together.

Dorn laid there, upon his back, his legs wrapped around his Brother as he felt the head of Perturabo’s cock line up against his entrance, ready to push in and he knew by movement alone, that this wasn’t a kindness, but the smallest of signal to prepare himself for what would happen next.

His breath stilled, no longer did his chest rise and fall in rapid movements from the anticipation, though his hearts still thrummed with the knowledge of what was to come as he forced himself to relax as much as was possible even now. It would hurt, Dorn knew that, he didn’t have to make it miserable by clenching up.

And then.

The fortress was breached as Perturabo pulled and shoved his monstrous cock inside of his own Brother. The sheer burn and the painful stretch despite the lubrication that was graciously given did not feel like it mattered at all as Dorn felt like he had been punched in the gut, leaving him exhaling a pained wheeze.

Even the faintest traces of tears formed at the corner of his eyes despite him trying to not falter.

Then he felt that hot salt spread through the entirety of his insides as his Brother coated him. That sensation, mixed with pain and the lack of air, now had him panting loudly, opened mouth while he stared up at his Brother with wide eyes.

He didn’t even acknowledge the fact that at the same time, in that moment of painful penetration, the tension in his gut and the anticipation built up snapped at the same time; that he covered his stomach with a fresh layer of semen that joined the other fluids that had been on his body.

 


 

Perturabo’s hips jolted and his thighs tensed so hard it was painful, cramps nearly locking his legs in place; and he seized as he rode out that sensation. He slumped forward, catching himself and bracing his weight on one arm, hand landing palm down against the himation spread out over the dirt by nothing greater than muscle memory.

Tears pricked the edges of his eyes. He was entirely overcome solely from how monumental this moment felt — so overwhelming and all-encompassing that his genius mind and the components that enhanced it were both entirely silenced; wrought to a frighting, alien state of total non-thought as he was forced to simply be.

To feel.

Feel; deep within his now threefold hearts. Feel; to the center of the cold, hard cybernetic core that powered him — the device that had replaced the unfairly bartered, dying fragments of what remained of his soul in an all-or-nothing attempt to prolong his existence.

That strangely watery fluid pooling in his eyes dripped thinly and quickly down his face, the repurposed lubricant that had replaced the function of his Betcher’s glands and produced in copious amounts these last few minutes working against him in this regard now; as tears he did not want to admit he could still shed were slick and diluted with that oil, impossible to control or hold back without the benefit of surface tension.

Perturabo was beyond understanding; and he turned his head quickly to the side, a cascade of loudly clacking cords and sliding cable sheaths tumbling over his shoulder and down against Dorn’s chest as he attempted to hide his face, knowing he must have been wearing an expression that told epics that he’d never have disclosed of his own volition.

What in the name of the Fates was this? The glory of taking Dorn once and for all after building it up for so long in his obsessive thought-streams wasn’t even enough to explain what this coupling had initiated, this catalyst causing a reaction that went far beyond the basic scientific or philosophical explanations beneath it all. It was something so powerful that even in its most initial stage, had made itself known. And it unsettled him, deeply.

It was as if he’d linked up with something that was never meant to be external; as if he’d installed a missing part of himself.

Like they had always been one entity broken in half; with their perfectly mirrored jagged edges now snapping perfectly into place, now made whole for first time ever.

How it ached, how deeply it hurt; how beyond perfection it truly felt…

Perturabo groaned loudly, reeling from the shock of it all; and he struggled for air instinctively — as if he still had a requirement to breathe.

And for the first time, perhaps ever, he was genuinely afraid.

Chapter 9: Mirror

Summary:

Even distorted, cracked reflections still hold truth.

Chapter Text


 

Dorn laid there, taking in breaths as he could while his body jolted from the intrusion and ache he felt even if Perturabo wasn’t moving right now, his body was still being forced to accommodate that intrusion as there was no hope to push it away in any capacity.

A few tears escaped as his gaze remained on his Brother; and even more so when Perturabo jerked his head away, hiding what reaction may have unfolded behind those eyes that told too much.

He felt it too, much of what he had already thinking before the breach almost seemed to validate something deep within Dorn. His assessment was correct, the facts had all been laid out for him to read and analyze. Perturabo was hiding in kind, likely going through much of the same thoughts.

Twisted as it all was.

It felt right.

Another second passed and as Dorn tried to pull himself together with little success, there had been something he had wanted to do the instant Perturabo slumped forward. Words never had been his strong suit, but actions were.

In the silence punctuated by heightened breaths, Perturabo would soon feel Dorn’s warm, right hand over his left on the himation, going so far as to intertwine their fingers together, much like their bodies were currently joined.

 


 

Perturabo’s entire body clenched, strength held taut and tension kept within his body as he let out a low, growled exhale upon feeling that soft, warm, comforting hand over his own.

This wasn’t right. None of it was.

Because it felt right. Because it was right.

Because it conflicted with his plans and everything he’d become and would now always be. And because this fractured, ruined relationship with the most important person to him in all existence was broken beyond repair — and he had no true desire to fix it anyway, because he already knew it was pointless. Futility. Even for him. Even for Dorn. Not even their expertise could salvage this, singularly or combined.

Because it was too late.

As he took in a long breath, he took in the intoxicating, filthy smells of their hedonism along with it; the carnal lust of clashing demigods that had descended upon this poor, miserable planet.

Perturabo hissed, understanding that Dorn came in copious, thick spirts at the same time that he’d been filled with his seed, their actions making an even more deplorable, sticky mess of them both.

How fitting, and yet terribly wrong; that Dorn should derive pleasure from such defilement, to find release in the initial seconds of his own violation. There was no excuse; and Perturabo resented Dorn for it — perhaps for no greater reason than needing to be hated.

It was a spiral of incongruency, irrationality and contradictions; every moment they spent together conflicted and nonsensical. Even his own logic algorithms were unreliable, no better than his fleshmind that seemed to work against him at every turn. Dorn was a problem with no solution.

He turned his head quickly, and leered down with a hostile, indignant expression on his face; and he closed the distance, hovering only inches from Dorn as he stared balefully into those glistening eyes. Tears and saliva adulterated with oil ran down his cheekbones and chin, dripping down to pelt his foe’s skin as the accusations were levied at him.

“Are you trying to appease me with your actions, Rogal?” Perturabo barked angrily, though he did not indicate which things Dorn had done offended him so — yet the way his dick twitched and throbbed within and the fact that he made not one attempt to pull his hand away perhaps lost him this game before he even made his first play.

 


 

Seconds passed and Dorn let them trail off in this short span where everything else seemed to slow back down to a crawl; as Perturabo and Dorn both had to contend with the realities brought on by their joining. A reality that could never be reversed back to how things were before or how they might have turned out otherwise.

They had one another now.

For better or for worse.

Those eyes were upon him again and he saw the hostility plain as day. Dorn knew better though, Perturabo had already given his hand away before even saying such a things. The tears also gave additional clues that Perturabo was far too stubborn to ever reveal.

Dorn slowly licked his lips, catching any droplet of liquid that happened to fall to his face as his Brother shouted at him.

No.” Dorn said, easily and simply before adding on additionally, “My reactions are all genuine.”

 


 

Perturabo shook with anger; that blunt, unmetered and total honesty infuriating him — especially as the answer that came with it was one that he had no counter to. Dorn was always insufferably forthright, but perhaps now it was the most unbearable it had ever been because it defused everything and made his own discontent seem petty and childish by comparison.

As if Dorn thought he was better than him; so sanctimonious, so upright, so—

With a discordant, tinny growl, Perturabo closed the distance without regard, actions perhaps comically predictable as he gave into his emotions and took the bait — thousands of years of self-improvement and cyber-enhancement doing nothing to augment his self-control nor cure his immaturity. He lashed out just as recklessly as he would have long ago; still the same Perturabo — the only difference was now their duels and feuds were ones of carnality.

“Oh? Then how will you react to this, I wonder…?”

He crashed his face upon Dorn’s in a motion laced with spite, teeth capturing Dorn’s bottom lip as he stared heatedly into eyes that were as annoyingly truthful as his words had been.

And as he glared his wordless bitterness into those twin auroras he drew his other hand back along his lewdly pulsing length and pushed forward, rising on his toes as he locked his ankles and sank in to a fortress that he was proving in no way to be impenetrable any longer, each additional inch of territory a slow, forceful show of superiority as if he had something to prove. Loose, incomplete frenzied kisses and bashing of tongue and teeth accompanied his spiteful assault. And he did not relent, despite having to use more and more strength to wedge Dorn’s body open the further he sank; until it became a battle of attritioneven when it hurt Dorn, even when it hurt him.

The additional wetness he felt, mingling with lubricant and semen, what was it—was it Dorn’s blood or his own?—he wondered, his shaft stinging as it was pulled back roughly from being rammed into a space far too small to accommodate him.

Pained, rapid grunts of displeasure accompanied moans and groans that were more of egotistical gloating than true ecstasy, though that was gratifying in it's own right; and he turned his other hand enough to squeeze Dorn’s fingers though he’d tried to pretend all this time that he was ignoring that hand's presence.

 


 

Dorn’s expression, even while tear-stricken, did not waver no matter how angry his Brother seemed to become as he levied all his hostility towards him. Which he damn well knew started a cycle of Perturabo working himself up further from the slight against him that was… simply Dorn reacting in the way that Dorn was expected to react.

It wasn’t something he saw any real problem with, expected — as infuriating as it was.

Only when Perturabo began to move, pushing further within him, did the slightest grimace overtake Dorn's expression, but that would not last much longer either, from the moment their faces clashed into each other and he was bashed with teeth and tongue that were intent to overwhelm him.

Surely Perturabo had nicked his lip multiple times as he could taste the iron on his tongue as much as he responded in kind. In the moments that Perturabo didn’t bite him, Dorn made sure to bite him instead. Hard enough to bleed.

Every action had an equal reaction as they danced with one another.

All the while his eyes blazed.

He could smell new blood not from their mouths in short order and knew that something likely had torn at some point. It was a sensation that Dorn knew all too well yet his body already began to heal, even in such intimate places, but Dorn rode through it with a throaty gasp here or breathless moan there.

Sounds were far easier to drag out of him than words.

He suddenly gripped that hand tightly.

 


 

Their kissing was not some sad, wilting show of maudlin weakness—it was warfare, with the shared taste of the claiming of Dorn’s body in conflict with the spirit of Defiance that persisted in the face of that evidence; the consuming of fleshly sweat and machine secreted oil and spit and jointly drawn blood, the clash of wills and teeth; devoid of romance, dispassionate, malicious and hateful and cruel and violent and—

Perturabo moaned and growled his vicious, primal thoughts into Dorn’s mouth — a mouth that was not nearly as yielding as it had once been as he continued to put up a fight, somehow finding his rebellious nature now — while he was speared so deep he’d nearly been run through by Perturabo’s clearly demonstrated total superiority.

The cold machine ran hot, even as he tried to convince himself this was not an outright maelstrom of passion that had exploded between them as at last, the unstoppable force smashed against the immovable object in the way that it should have happened from the very beginning.

He gasped and sputtered his moist breath against Dorn’s lips while he withdrew the battering ram from Dorn’s insides, feeling as though those impossibly tight, rock hard muscles might crush him as the wounds he’d inflicted healed around his cock — as if reclaiming every bit of territory he’d worked so hard to invade just to spite him. Even as their tears healed from the wounds he inflicted on them both, there was so much blood inside that sheath.

It was the most maddening, miserable feeling, to be squeezed inside that vice and it was then that Perturabo began to understand the true cost of the hubris in his ways by forcing that tiny space apart with violence instead of letting Dorn’s body melt around him and adapt. Were it not for the extreme efficiency of his industrial secretions providing maximum lubrication deep inside his Brother’s Defiant, untamed little body, things might have genuinely become dangerous. Maybe they were anyway.

So with all these details to the contrary as to why this was not a matter of love in any capacity; why was Perturabo’s primary heart nearly bursting, consumed by something that went far beyond his simple quest for revenge? Why did his automated systems not compensate for his increased vital sign readouts? Why was his peripheral vision filled with rapidly scrolling rows of green garbled meaningless characters and integers?

Perturabo began to thrust and rut inside those walls of stone, frantically, painfully; and with difficulty as it was nearly impossible to claim enough space to exert real force. He howled and nipped and bit into their angry, blood-soaked kisses, staring into the eyes of a man that no matter if conquered, did not admit defeat.

 


 

Lingering pain wracked through Dorn’s entire form, weaving into that heady mix of pleasure that came in metered amounts. Blows upon blows were exchanged with teeth and tongue alike with Dorn never seemingly willing to be simply a passive participant now that their battle had turned into this.

Not only due to the fact that he enjoyed it in more ways than he cared to admit, it was also to show Perturabo that he was more than eager for this downright sinful display. This wasn’t a man that was simply taking what was happening to him out of self-preservation, or even someone that would be in the throes of hysterics or quiet submission at the prospect of being raped with all the force applied.

It was clear that he wanted this, no matter how many times electric-hot misery coiled through his entire body and down in the most intimate of places currently being delved into with reckless abandon.

After a moment of contemplation, he began to shift his body, soon revealing that he, perhaps, knew a bit too much on how to accommodate a large cock inside of his body.

Dorn unhooked his legs during one particular thrust, spreading his legs painfully wide and setting his feet firmly upon the ground. This way, instead of moving his entire body with each thrust, in Dorn’s new position, it allowed Perturabo to sink in deeper than before.

He even lifted his lower half up, locking his knees and legs in place once he did so, giving his Brother an even greater angle to use to his complete advantage.

All the while, his gaze never faltered.

 


 

A deep, full-body shiver worked its way through Perturabo’s body, the chill sinking all the way to his core; mind and body overloaded by too much gratification, too much sensation — the position his lifelong obsession took beneath him was one that was so unbelievably sinful, so impossibly indecent that Perturabo failed to properly process it. Even in his darkest secret fantasies—delusions that were nothing more than openly pornographic wish fulfillment—had his upstanding Golden Paragon ever behaved so erotically, as if Perturabo couldn’t envision such a potential even in the privacy of his own imaginings, when it would have done nothing but benefit him.

How disparagingly desperate Perturabo had been in his overwhelming desire to rape Dorn with malice and extreme violence, to Break his dearest, most hated nemesis — and watch him so demurely and sadly endure until he finally succumbed to him while still struggling to keep his dignity and honor intact though it all.

Was there any fantasy that didn’t soundly place himself in the role of an aggressor; an irredeemable villain? Yes, once; when his dreams, as dark as they might have seemed, were downright wholesome in comparison to the bitter craving for revenge, and the poison it had injected into his mind. So many thousands of years ago…

But this Dorn, with his lusting, soulful, challenging eyes; all splayed out beneath him in wanton acceptance, beckoning, offering himself up to be ravaged mercilessly and in a way that truly had nothing to do with appeasement and self-preservation, was more than Perturabo could grasp.

He was already as iron, plunged painfully into that forge split open; and though the form of the understanding that slowly washed over Perturabo was indignant and laced with bitterness there was no hiding how much harder this display of blatant sexuality made him; painfully, wildly spasming deep inside Dorn’s body as he watched in wonder.

“Your tribute has not gone unnoticed, Rogal Dorn.” Perturabo growled darkly through gritted teeth, his glutes clenching as he tried his damnedest to endure the most seductive torture he’d ever known — not for the sake of his longevity but his reputation. He’d already ejaculated yet again into the confines that seemed intent on breaking him off inside, but just as Dorn was in this situation his stamina provided more evidence to the idea that there was no limit to the abilities of Primarch biology.

“How clearly you communicate that you want to be fucked to death.” Perturabo sneered as he stared judgmentally into those defiant, confident eyes. “I thought so much better of you all this time.”

But even as he levied his grievances and accusations, he was already moving, forcing his siege weapon deeper inside that pulsing gate of utter damnation without a single moment wasted; needy, unable to resist such charm and enticement. And with some effort he finally managed to meet Dorn’s body hip bone to hip bone, those huge, well-spread thighs pressed even further out as Perturabo’s were somehow even larger.

The slit at the tip of Perturabo’s cock agonizingly twitched as it was entirely engulfed in ripples of superheated flesh; and he idly wondered if Dorn had noticed that something wasn’t entirely normal about that cool, metallic opening that had already desecrated him so many times.

 


 

There was no response to the complaints set his way as much of his thoughts had gone straight to that cock that was now fully pushed to the hilt. Dorn felt so entirely full, stuffed in a manner unlike any that he had felt for a very, very long time. If he had noticed anything regarding what was inside him, he certainly didn’t comment on it in the slightest.

It was only when Perturabo paused in his assault, bringing Dorn’s legs painfully wide and forcing him to brace in this newer, extreme position that tested the absolute limits of Dorn’s stocky flexibility, that he seemed capable enough to mount a response to such sneering statements.

“Have you truly?” He managed to start with a slow shuddering breath as his body twitched and pulsed at irregular intervals, his muscles trying to adjust over time, molding to Perturabo’s larger frame.

Within and without.

Seen, that is to say, do you know… what is within my very being then? That which is part of what I share, for what you want to call tribute.” Even as consistent as Dorn made his deep, rumbling words, there was the constant undercurrent of soft grunts as he steadily grew more and more settled.

The hold on Perturabo’s hand became tighter in that moment. “Do you… care… to know? My Mirror.” The latter part was spoken with a certain amount of softness until he continued.

“Because… regardless if you thought better of me or not,” Dorn stated the word with no short measure of bitter amusement, even managing to sprinkle in a pained chuckle. “I have never thought myself as better… than any of my Brothers. Including YOU.” Dorn said forcefully before he sucked in a haggard breath, his hearts and blood pounding so fiercely as he continued to speak.

A lot more than he had done for thousands of years.

“I followed orders like a good little soldier. I never wanted any of it.” He hissed out his discontent, the expression on his face shifting to something turbulent, a flicker of lightning revealing a violent rage that Dorn seemed to have never shown to those that had only gleaned his outward stoicism.

“But someone had to…” It seemed like Perturabo had hit a particularly raw nerve that even Dorn didn’t realize he held onto so tightly, until it was thrown at him in this moment and in the most unlikely of ways.

 


 

Perturabo laughed but it was a dry, dark sound — vox-laced, inorganic and entirely devoid of any humor. The look in his adamantium eyes had gone distant, and for a moment he appeared completely detached from all that engaged him despite it being the most compelling, tremendous thing he’d ever known.

His head dropped forward, sending more of his cabled dreadlocks slithering over his shoulders; and he gave pause, his entire form now like some discarded automaton that had been shut down as no part of him moved or seemed to emulate anything lifelike at all.

The incessant, blood-engorged thrumming of his tightly bound cock was the only bodily response that remained, too primal for anything to halt and yet for those awful seconds it seemed that Perturabo’s higher functioning ignored even this.

He’d had things to say; but Dorn never shut up long enough for him to make his case, the overall barrage coming from the man of few words entirely overwhelming him as each and every part of it relayed truths he could not dispute and fury he could not deny.

A righteous man, wronged and relegated to a future not of his own choosing, to hold up a foundation that crumbled all around him. Perturabo could relate to that misery, that bitter regret down to the depths of his blackened core; but not once had he ever thought of Dorn’s struggles that way.

Nor could he believe that any of those heavy words were true, despite knowing that Dorn did not lie. Perturabo did the only thing he knew how to do when under duresshe lashed out.

With a sudden quickness he jerked his head back, features a mask of fury that even in its highest ferocity was clearly a ruse; and without any real resolve behind it at all.

“You trick me. You mislead me!! You tell me these things, you try to distract me, you deceive me, I—” Perturabo childishly ranted, even as liquid streamed down his face in thin, greasy trails; his voice catching in his throat, those ice cold eyes almost begging for Dorn to argue back, to validate this tantrum so he didn’t have to process the parts in all of this that were more than he could stand.

 


 

Perturabo was nothing, if not predictable at even the worse of times and so that simmering rage in Dorn’s eyes seemed to fade as his ire was not directed at his Brother but something far beyond the both of them. But even then, would Dorn have ever shown anger to the source?

He likely never would.

He blinked a few times before taking another long breath, unsteady as it was, and almost sounded tired, “I do not trick, mislead or lie, you know this. You understand this. My words have ever been my truth, Perturabo…”

 


 

“Why must you TORMENT ME LIKE THIS!?” Perturabo roared his tremendous, unsophisticated anger at Dorn; his ironclad voice blasting that fury forward with such potency that it would have brought entire Legions to their knees in quivering fright. But here, as he stared his ten-thousand kilometer stare into weary eyes that were far too kindly for the situation even now—if there was but one among all that could see through an enraged Perturabo fit—it was the mirror that he so desperately tried to shut out, block off, not think about.

His unsteady hands trembled with emotion and desperation as he thrusted them out to clamp around Dorn’s neck but there was a strange and telling lack of pressure behind that motion, his fingers interlocked and grasping there uselessly, more necklace than threat despite the form he took now not so likely to harm Dorn this time around.

Not that it would have been so easy to kill him in the first place, even as Neo-Logos… despite what he'd thought at the time.

And yet, he tempered his own outburst, though it was unclear if it was a trauma response to deeds long past, coincidental subconscious action or active prudence that caused such a revealing change in this heated moment.

 


 

“It is not my intention to torment you, Brother.” Dorn began, weathering the storm that was that roar, even as it shook the ground that he was currently pinned to, causing more minute cracks along the surface supporting their union.

As those fingers wrapped around his throat, having released his right hand in the action, Dorn fell silent and continued to stare upwards at his Brother. A loud thump heard, of all of their hearts, even the synthetic ones deep within a machine as they beat in time with one another.

As if they were one.

Another second passed in this tense silence before Dorn lifted his freed hand up and rested it along the side of Perturabo’s face in a gesture that was far too kindly for what was happening to him.

 


 

The tortured sound that came from within Perturabo’s chest with inhuman, metallic scrapes broke past his lips in a barely restrained sob, transforming into a threatening, malicious growl but in this revealing moment it was as if he were nothing more than a threatened animal — cornered, feeling powerless; making a last despairing stand in hopes of running off a fellow predator that held a strategic point of total advantage.

Because that’s how it truly was now — despite Dorn never meaning it that way, and Perturabo being fully aware of that. That singular word, that descriptor had destabilized Perturabo to his core; not only because Dorn had said it boldly into his face, but because of what Perturabo felt and knew that Dorn had felt in tandem from the very moment their bodies had joined.

Something more profound than what could ever be replicated by mere words; something that was causing Perturabo to rethink everything; and it left him hollow, de-fanged and bewildered. And in his vulnerability Dorn had also had the unmitigated audacity to tell him that he’d never once thought himself superior.

“I hate you so much, Rogal Dorn.” Perturabo spat with all the petulance of a hurting child, perceived wrongs distilled into immature phrases that held no true danger or even malice. Just pain.

“I hate you!” He hissed again, voice shaking and wet as fluid continued to spill from his eyes and against the hand pressed to his face that he defiantly ignored; and he shook Dorn with a defeated gesture that held no real intent.

“By Iron, I hate you!”

Dorn was no liar.

But Perturabo was.

 


 

Perhaps infuriatingly so, Dorn continued to watch as the tantrum played out above him and all around him, with hands so weak where they were that Dorn felt he could simply shove Perturabo off of him with absolutely no resistance.

Show me then.” He finally spoke, finding a sliver of calm when he wouldn't be interrupted by additional noises. “How much do you truly hate me, Perturabo?” It was a valid question and one that Dorn truly wanted to have an answer to, as everything Perturabo said and did, conflicted constantly.

What would the real answer be?

 


 

Perturabo stared down at Dorn, that look of unstable, wrathful confusion still plainly painted on his strong features but a glint of something that was nearly a fragment of understanding glimmered over his pale eyes for an instant; and then it was gone.

The aching, indignant wrath was back again but seemed to have a purpose now — a sense of direction. He released Dorn’s neck, hands reaching out to double fist impossibly soft white hair; stained with blood, slick with saliva and oil.

“That was what I intended for you all along, you fool; you meaningless non-entity.” Perturabo growled, but the molten stare that bore into deep dark eyes held such fathomless passion that even in a state of bitter corruption, he was far too emotional to be as indifferent as the Perturabo of now pretended to be.

He began rocking his hips — intending to prove his point and clearly, but it was a stalled endeavor, the moment of inertia as small as it was working against him though it may have actually given Dorn a chance to become accustomed to being besieged. For now their Primarchian physiology had time to work divine miracles, the cracks and depressions caused within that stony tunnel fully healed; and sealing in Perturabo’s apparatus inside — caked not only in oil but in the far less facilitating layers of spilled blood as well. Now, it hurt to even attempt to withdraw, causing his thighs to tense and clench; and he shook his head and winced as he felt flesh tearing, uncertain which of their perfectly matched wills would suffer most in this assault.

 


 

As those fingers grabbed at his hair, Dorn dropped the hand that had been settled on the side of Perturabo’s face, now slick with remnants of oil and tears. A soft thump could be heard as he just… let his hand fall where it would, against the himation.

The hard expression faded when Perturabo shifted and he could pick up the scent of fresh blood as soon as Perturabo began to move inside of him, pulling Dorn along as he had to endure the pain that now blossomed out suddenly, ruining every bit of acclimatizing that he had gained in the interim.

A grimace crossed his features as sweat began to coat his body, as if it was trying to get over the spine-tingling shock of the movement and the agony that came with it.

“You may… lie… to yourself, Brother. But you cannot… lie… to me.” Dorn bit out through genuinely pain-filled gasps.

 


 

Indignant, fiery anger bubbled in those blaring eyes; and he yanked on Dorn’s hair roughly; violently — and it was by the grace of his own oiling of that soft, silken hair that it did not hurt as much as it might have otherwise.

He spread his knees farther, pressing into those thighs already splayed out so open wide it was as if the gates had been opened in total surrender for the enemy to march into the stronghold; unimpeded. But that was not enough now to appease Perturabo, pushing down until he felt Dorn's muscles shake from the strain.

There was an ominous tension in the air as he bared his teeth and breathed hotly against Dorn’s face; and his voice was deep and low as he spoke each word with slow deliberation.

“I would truly recommend that you recognize when it's best to shut the fuck up, Dorn. But if you persist, I will teach you.”

 


 

Dorn’s body trembled due to the sheer strain that was brought to it, between the hands in his hair now yanking painfully to the pressing of his legs to the point that his muscles seemed to be splitting from the pressure as it all burned.

When Perturabo got closer to his face, Dorn exhaled a sharp breath against his Brother’s face, “You react… in the way you do… because deep down… you know that I am right, Perturabo.”

 


 

The heat of rage, of fury boiled in Perturabo’s natural and synthetic vessels alike; eyes ablaze with shock and unhinged resentment. His temper snapped inside him; because Dorn was Defiant, because Dorn was right, because Dorn sounded as though he thought he had the high ground, because Dorn acted so superior—

Because Dorn said his name, but it was weaponized and spoken as a challenge.

He’d made precious little progress in the pursuit of pulling out of Dorn’s smoldering hot vice, but he didn’t care, as withdrawal was never Perturabo’s concern even when it was in his best interest as a strategy. With nothing but impulse and a deep-seated need to be better than Dorn, to prove himself the one in control he all but threw himself forward, ankles, knees and thighs all engaging in unified force as he rammed himself back inside Dorn’s body as far as he could possibly go; a broken, agonized scream vibrating in his throat as he’d surely hurt himself just as much as Dorn in the pursuit of his goal.

 


 

Though Dorn had kept it together as much as one could in his current predicament, there were just some things that even he could not simply remain steadfast throughout. So as Perturabo moved the barest amount before slamming into him, he could spot how much his belly bulged from the monstrous weapon inside of him, revealing how deeply Perturabo was violating him…

He threw his head back, mouth open to the limit as he screamed when the pain searing through his body went to new heights, feeling like electrical storm of fire was boiling through every inch of his skin as he spasmed, releasing all over his stomach again when the pain reached to new peak unlike before.

Every single nerve felt as though they were dipped into lava as he had jerked his head back, pulling Perturabo's fists with him and likely pulling out several strands of his own hair into Perturabo’s hands. His eyes were wide as he stared, upside down, in whatever direction though he wasn’t focused on anything in particular as the tears that blurred his vision overtook his sight.

 


 

Perturabo was reduced to a slobbering mess all over again; lubrication still streaming down his face but now joined by oil-tainted saliva as a combined mess that dripped in heavy drops that lined his chin.

His eyes had rolled back into his skull from the waves of intense, agony laced euphoria as his own attrition gained him certain victory; and he came, sticky seed spilling out from the ceramite eyelet bolted into the head of his cock in thick, copious sputters as he felt that stalwart bastion cave in — something within Dorn’s body weakly tearing open as he was forced to endure an onslaught that went beyond his natural means.

A stronghold breached. A defender, conquered.

But that was by no means enough of a victory for Perturabo to offer a cease-fire. This was only the beginning of what he craved to experience most.

He grabbed back on to Dorn’s cropped hair ands held it like reins as he rode out the overwhelming waves of sensation that tore through him, heightened by the forbidden knowledge that his violent, merciless assault had caused his Golden Apple to spray it's sweet, poisonous juices all over him.

Paragon, or whore?

Perturabo growled and gurgled like a rabid animal as he began to pump his hips and thrust wildly within his newly staked claim, lacking finesse and distance but maintained with furious, maniacal enthusiasm as he fucked that little spot with great attention and building friction.

 


 

This was torture, pure unfettered suffering yet Dorn found some sick satisfaction in it all the same, even as every movement that Perturabo did made him yell and scream out further until his voice threatened to give out, especially as his Brother began to pump into him in unsteady thrusts.

The scent of semen filled the air, followed by that of the oxygen-rich blood of a Primarch as Dorn could feel both spilling out of his ass at each thrust, passing over the wounds created by the rough mistreatment upon his body. Even temporary bruises began to form where Perturabo’s thighs and balls were slamming into him repeatedly with such force that there was nothing but to compare it to a battering ram bringing down a door.

Further cries continued, echoing in the vast emptiness of this planet as Dorn was truly not able to simply hold it in like before, gasping and choking on mucus and spittle alike. His right hand scrambled to grasp at the fabric underneath him while the left hand attempted to do the same, sending the signals of phantom pain all at the same time.

Those hazel eyes shut tightly at some point, blocking out all sight while he succumbed to the onslaught, mouth audibly snapping shut to strangle another rasping cry as his teeth grinded together.

 


 

The filthy, depraved scum laden stench that had baited Perturabo like a doomed fish biting the hook of its own demise was never like this, so overly cloying, so moist and potent and choking in the air — now of divine ichor joining; and he found his personal signature made things worse as the combination was proof of something so achingly precious it brought more tears to his eyes; not of rage or despair — but of bliss.

Holy and unholy: blood and sweat; pheromones and testosterone; saliva and oil; spiced by metal, with cool auric and overheated cybernetic twangs; and so much Primarch semen—diabolically exchanged between Brothers—the very land they writhed upon was surely either blessed or cursed as that sticky brew of unspeakable sin soaked through his thin himation to be swallowed up by the myriad fissures in the ground.

“Break you! Break you!” Perturabo moaned out between wordless shouted syllables and pained, stinging groans.

He began to slowly claim more territory, his vicious, unceasing thrusting allowing him to naturally grind rock to rubble, and he rutted with glorious self-aggrandizing that almost felt better than the soft, silken sheath he was ruining.

…Almost.

Perturabo knew as sure as anything that there was nothing in realspace, cyberspace or the Immaterium that could feel better than being sank terminally deep inside the flesh of Dorn.

He’d have traded his soul for this had he possessed it. And he knew that each quiver and shudder and feeble, rasping cry he ripped from that stoic, impassive little Fortress he sieged was as close to Elysium as he’d ever come.

“The Breaker, your Breaker.”

 


 

The increasing brutality of their coupling was making Dorn see stars behind tightly closed eyes, flashes of white in the darkness behind his eyelids as his mind no longer held any semblance of thought. All of his focus was solely on the one that currently was breaking him apart.

His Breaker.

Despite the circumstances that Dorn was enduring, in the faintest corners of his mind that weren’t overwrought with painful pleasure, he wondered if Perturabo realized what he'd confessed.

It mattered not how twisted and deplorable it was.

It felt right.

“Mine…” He rasped out, relaxing the tension in his jaw so he could speak, once again, even as his voice faltered from that pulsating pain. “Yours…

 


 

Perturabo released his grip from the snowy hair he’d been holding on to with such roughness, both hands sliding down before gently cupping Dorn’s face; and he ran his thumbs lightly over bloodstained facial hair with possessive affection as he kept up his ceaseless, destructive rhythm buried deeply inside Dorn’s broken body.

“Your Breaker; your Master,” Perturabo rasped in a husky, darkly mechanical tone; his voice shaking with raw emotion. “Since the day I first saw you…”

“You’ve always, always been mine.” He made his tyrannical claims with passion and fervor, oblivious to how his openly displayed longing; his bared broken-hearted weakness — made that just as much a admission as it was a declaration.

 


 

As Perturabo reached for his face, Dorn finally opened his eyes when he was touched with such softness and gentle rubs. It was such a jarring far-cry from what he was currently enduring in his aching lower half, being split open time and time again as Perturabo staked his claim over his body again and again and again.

He couldn’t count the amount of times that he stained both of their stomachs with more of his seed.

His eyes were blurry from the tears that had shed in the time that this onslaught had started until now and he had to blink rapidly a few more times so he could actually gaze into those heated pale eyes that revealed his soul to Dorn as much as he tried to deny and deflect. There was no answer or unsaid words that Dorn couldn’t pick up on.

Perturabo was lousy at hiding his true feelings, even in the midst of ire and rancor.

A shudder coursed down his entire body as his Brother laid out the intention he had since the very first time they had met so many millennia ago.

Now, especially now, it seemed like— no, it was right, no matter how bloody or messy the two got, they were intertwined together in a way that no one could ever take from them.

Yours…” Dorn repeated, though his voice was rough and husky, there was a conviction and zeal there like nothing else, just like when he spoke before, just like when his eyes said what his own words could not.

He had given his response time and time again.

 


 

Perturabo’s resolve so plainly wavered in the piercing glean of those passionate dark eyes, and in that momentary shift bitterness synthesized into adoration, as he gazed down at Dorn as if he were the most perfect being he’d ever seen.

That conviction, that certainty—given to him freely without Defiance and in resolute acceptance—caused Perturabo’s breast to swell as he was taken to such heights that he felt nearly dizzy.

 

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The visions, stilled for reasons likely much clearer yet left unconfirmed — returned. Stabbing through the ashen landscape of towering spires and broken pillars that ominous, daemonic keep reappeared, the blackened sun pulsing its hateful vitriol into the radioactive, caustic atmosphere. Yet something was different about it's technological edifice now — more Sanctuary than Command Center yet that attachment was undoubtedly the product of an insane, vile and twisted perspective, a false equivalence forced upon the viewer by the sentient, virus corrupted Mainframe that controlled it.

Inside that palace of untold, endless suffering was that same figure as before, condemned to the same piteous, wretched fate. No salvation. No hope. Cursed in obscurity and imprisoned. A broken doll.

Yet there was something revealed with a sudden clarity now—also a product of that same warped positronic CPU that was so delusional and genuinely evil that it could not, should not ever be trusted—amidst the blaring lights of indicator panels and glowing screens, the scene was soaked through with a degenerate and nauseating perversion of love so potent it hung in the air like smog.

And that entanglement of possessive, obsessive cables and sentient cords were penetrating access membranes to reach their prize — inserted though circular ports leaning into a blasphemous mockery of a shrine, as if the one dangling and entombed in the grip of those mechanical serpents was on display like a priceless work of art in the position of highest prestige and honor within a museum.

And beneath the tiny, hopeless space that was now Dorn's entire world was a grand plaque, forged with skill and care in the finest auric fashion, framed with unbroken meandros and engraved with a single phrase in an ancient, mysterious script:

— καλὸς κἀγαθός —

+--------------------+

 

"Forever, and ever…" Perturabo said with a fond wistfulness and sense of contentment that was in all ways in conflict with absolutely everything that had occurred and yet there was not one doubt that he was entirely sincere; and he never stopped in his gentle touches to Dorn's face through it all.

 


 

Dorn’s vision swam again, a kaleidoscope of swirling machinery and endless spires, twisted to the user’s whims. Every time he was drawn into the space, he was given more and more of the untold wants and desires that Perturabo wanted to subject him to, so much as to ensnare him forever.

Did Dorn… want that? Did he want to be caged? Isolated even further than ever before?

As his pressed his tear-stricken face against those hands, he let out a sigh, punctuated by a softer grunt at each motion pushed through him. In the throes of this surprising gentleness, perhaps he could speak, perhaps Perturabo would listen to him instead of lashing out.

But he needed to speak.

Forever.” That felt right to say, no matter how malignant and twisted this romance was, it felt like that was the truth.

“I do mean that, you know I do not lie…” Dorn closed his eyes as he dealt with the juxtaposition of it all. “But you can not… keep me caged as your visions reveal, Brother. I would willingly walk into those cables but you must allow me to move of my own accord in turn.” Dorn opened his eyes as he spoke, carefully and slowly, revealing that he had seen more than he had let on all this time.

“I do not know how to do that upon your world of a blackened sun but allow me the freedom to make my own choices all the same; and find that I will return to you.” As Dorn said this, he slowly brought his other hand up, resting it against his Brother’s face and, for once, he was uncertain exactly how Perturabo would react.

“I give you my word, if ever comes a time where I must do my duties that would take me away, know that my path will lead back to you.” Every time he said the word ‘will’, he emphasized that simple word again and again, with all the meaning placed upon it to show that this was something he wanted.

Yet he knew he could not allow Perturabo to slam the cage door shut forever.

Dorn didn’t forget that brief sensation of hope.

 


 

Perturabo’s olive skin blanched as the words Dorn spoke were slowly processed; the blood draining out of his face as his expression grew increasingly more perplexed and eventually horrified. His aggressive thrusts were brought to a complete halt; and there was nothing short of true fear in those strontium eyes if even briefly, revealed for the first time; and proving that even a Primarch, Chaos-tainted; Ascended and cybernetically hardwired — for all these many reasons he could claim to be immune to such dangerous feelings was not.

It was all too much to take in at once, but as he finally willed himself to speak, the only thing he could choke out was the most important point of all.

“You… you… can… no. No.” He growled, struggling; dismayed. “You INVADE my mind? You read my thoughts?”

 


 

Dorn seemed surprised  by how terrified Perturabo became when all the words registered, and when Perturabo stopped, he grimaced for just a moment. He took a shuddering breath a second later before turning his head.

“Not particularly, it is more…” A pause, as it seemed Dorn was trying to figure out the easiest way to explain. “Some sights… feelings… sounds… I have seen your intentions.” Yet… despite that, Dorn was still here, not fighting against what seemed to be such a horrific future.

That had to account for something.

They both damn well knew that, even if one viewed it more to keep a prize close.

 


 

"It is NOT my intentions!" Perturabo snapped in anger, but behind the wall of volatility that was surely sincere, it was all clearly driven by fear, something he so ardently attempted to hide now but did a poor job of it. A horrible, crushing emotion he'd not even known so potently until today.

"It." Perturabo gasped out, shaking his head as he looked down at Dorn with grief shimmering in his anxious eyes. "It." His hands trembled as he continued to stroke Dorn's face, unable to speak the final words he was too proud, too weak and too stubborn to say.

 


 

Dorn turned to face him once more, the sigh that left his lips this time was a far gentler one than he had ever given before.

That one hand moved from the side of Perturabo's face to sink into those dangling cables. With a momentary show of force and Defiance that Dorn still possessed, he brought Perturabo's face against the crook of his neck and kept him there.

"You don't want to let me go. Now that you have me… I do understand.”

 


 

Perturabo surely would have lashed out if he’d seen it coming; resisted if he’d not been so caught off guard — but he had a blind spot from the disorientation caused by the gears in his mind turning too rapidly, thoughts too illogical and disgustingly human for his robotics to parse. And Dorn had been so entirely passive that he’d not expected him to suddenly take such actions.

But it was too late, and now he found himself trapped behind the unbreakable stone walls of his greatest nemesis. And now that he was here, Perturabo brought his arms against his chest and sobbed mournfully into the soft warmth of underfur as he tried to bury his face for lack of anything else he could hope to do.

 


 

Dorn fell silent then as there was nothing more to really say. There was no fixing this, not truly, and he damn well knew that. The circumstances of their upbringing after the Emperor discovered them ensured that there was never going to be a normal for any of them, anymore.

But, even regardless of that fact, that didn't mean he was about to simply let his Brother suffer alone.

That firm hand kept him in place while he wrapped his other arm along Perturabo's back. His hold was strong yet not forceful.

 


 

“The things you have said to me this day… how, how I have—” Perturabo gasped a wretched, miserable breath as he tried to speak but couldn’t find the words. He laid there, listening to those noble hearts beating below his ear, surrounded by the warmth of Dorn’s body and in the protection of his arms. “Just… once, just…”

“I could have…”

 


 

"From the deepest reaches of my heart… Perturabo… I am so… very… sorry." Dorn whispered against the side of Perturabo's head as he cradled him in his arms.

"This does not undo the injustice wrought and I would not pretend to think that it would… but sincerely… I am sorry."

A rattling breath in… and out.

"So focused was I on the tasks laid before me, and in the end I… failed anyway." He laughed but there was no humor in his voice as his hold grew a bit tighter.

"And I failed you too without realizing it."

Chapter 10: Depersonalization

Summary:

There are many ways one can be pushed into a disconnected state.

Chapter Text


 

Perturabo let out a broken sob when Dorn spoke his name again, and he turned one wrist to place a hand, palm down, against Dorn’s chest. He had begun running his fingers over a dense patch of soft hair there, in a self-soothing gesture he likely didn’t even realize he was doing.

“Not a day, not one day… has passed that I—” No. He stopped short, shivering in those strong arms, the tone around them growing colder; distant. But he did not attempt to move in any way, to shake off that embrace nor reject the fingers that trailed through the cords and cables that sprang from his scalp.

“You should have done all in your power to prevent me from landing here, exactly as you should stop me from… I—” Perturabo let out a congested, hacking cough.

“No. If you… do the wise thing, the prudent thing — the worst outcome will happen in the end because of it. I know this. And yet, I. I won’t be able to prevent it.”

“I can’t. I can’t… I won’t…”

Why was it so impossible to say the most obvious, basic phrases? Why did his system stall, why did every potential lead to critical failure? Why couldn’t he simply address the very things that Dorn had said this day and continued to say? Why did this feel like acid corroding and breaking his body down to its base elements?

“Oh, how I hate you. I hate you for what you have done to me! No more. I won’t take it anymore. You owe me that much.”

 


 

Dorn felt his hearts begin to ache in their fast, overstimulated beats when he heard the way that Perturabo sobbed against his ear; revealing, just for a moment, the man that was buried underneath thousands of years of torment. He didn’t stop him as he did so, and didn’t stop the motions of Perturabo touching his soft body hair, enjoying it for a brief second — but his focus didn’t remain on that.

When Perturabo spoke again, Dorn could feel the shift in his attitude and his own ministrations slowed to a stop. It was his turn to be on the receiving end of Perturabo not allowing him to speak in between comments as it came forth again and again.

There was honesty in Perturabo’s words, admitting to a nature that would be unable to be denied by the end of it. “I couldn’t do anything and you know that.” Dorn pointed out, voice still quiet yet he stilled again as those last few statements registered.

What have I done to you?”

That was the first question he wanted to address as he overlooked Perturabo saying he hated him, he had heard such over and over again yet was that the truth? Dorn did not believe so, not for one single second, at least in the way that it was meant.

 


 

Perturabo sighed, exasperated at Dorn’s rebuttal because he was right. There was nothing that could have been done — something Perturabo assured from the moment he put his plans into action and charted his course to this faraway, barren planet.

The villainous, tyrannical ultimatums he made and would continue to make were all by design—his contingency—backing Dorn into a corner, leaving him no choice; ensuring that in the end Perturabo would finally get his way.

Because he had unfair advantages now, too many to count. And his selfish, histrionic hearts would not be silent until he had claimed his Trophy — a fate put into motion from the moment he had been blessed with a vision of Dorn’s position.

He had locked on immediately, and that single minded purpose would drive him forward until success was assured. His obsessive nature guaranteed that. There was no point in addressing the issue. It had never been a fair one, anyway — brought up solely out of frustration in a rare moment of self-aware reflection.

“I’ve… tried to cut you out of me piece by piece.” Perturabo said solemnly, focusing on the latter question but having no good answer for that either.

“I—. I’ve tried to replace the parts of me that are sub-optimal, override my flaws. Component by component. Overwrite… YOU!”

Surpass you!” Perturabo growled, shaking atop Dorn as his voice broke with conviction, though even as he raged and complained, his voice lacked the persuasiveness that he tried to put forth; and the manner in which he still refused to raise his head and look at Dorn did nothing to reinforce his point.

“But you… won’t stop… tormenting me.”

 


 

Dorn closed his eyes, resting his hand and arms where they intended to lay, adding to the overall stillness that was broken by shivering bodies or words brought out to bear. He knew that his situation was an extremely dire one, understanding there was no feasible way out, and damn well knew that Perturabo would not allow him that.

And he would not allow his thoughts to wander to the ifs and whens of his Thunderhawk being found, his helm and bolter within. There was no point, the facts remained as they were.

“And once you have done all those things, and to keep me from tormenting you, what is your intention then?”

 


 

“Since the moment I realized that I will never have what I want…” Perturabo uttered darkly, his voice ugly, Iron-tainted and bitter. “I decided to improvise and settle for the next best thing.”

The hand that had been dangerously near to petting that patch of fluffy chest hair trailed up, and then Perturabo began stroking the chiseled edge of Dorn’s jawline with the back of his index finger.

“A wholly utilitarian solution you understand. Functional, if ultimately disappointing. But it will… suffice.”

 


 

"What you want?" Dorn questioned, even as that hand lifted up, stroking his jaw and chin. It made him slowly look towards his Brother.

"What then, is your disappointing solution?" He didn't even realize he was beginning to layer questions again.

 


 

Perturabo finally turned his head at last, looking up to meet Dorn's stare for the first time since he’d been brought into this embrace. There was enmity, jealousy, rage boiling inside those pale blue eyes but it was all nothing more than a filter. Deeper within, behind that transparent film was sheer agony, born from slights and grudges that were innumerable and untold.

His somber expression darkened, lips parting as he bared his teeth.

“Have you not seen that answer for yourself with your gifts, Brother?” Perturabo sneered, voice laced with spite. “And from that can you not infer the rest, even as unimaginative as you are?”

 


 

"That is why it confuses me when you state that you will never have what you want."

Dorn stared, expression still filled with that same kindness — far too kind for someone that should be reacting with such indignation at being forced into the position he was.

"Am I not here? Now?"

 


 

Perturabo huffed a growling breath of impatient frustration, foul temper rising instinctively as he was pressed for information that he was in no way going to volunteer — perhaps not entirely aware himself of what truly powered his most ardent drive.

“That is the alternative practical solution I devised, not the optimal ideal.”

 


 

"And what is the optimal ideal?" Dorn pressed ever onwards for an actual straight answer.

 


 

“I’m so eternally, entirely tired of your ridicule, Dorn!” Perturabo snapped, eyes ablaze with anger; and he shook off that arm around him — not because he did not wish for it to be there, but because it was a natural result of him rising up and taking up a position more similar to how this had all been before this quiet moment.

Just like earlier in the day, this was more evidence that these times were doomed to never last for too long…

And while he surely had enjoyed the calm, sweet sensations of simply being wrapped up and shoved deep; fully enveloped by his Brother’s body, he was not done fulfilling his original desires.

Likely, he truly never would be.

“You really don’t know when to shut up, do you? Oh, it’s so insufferable how easily you cross the divide between never saying enough and asking too much.” Perturabo ranted, craning his neck and leaning down as he loomed over Dorn’s face like the threat he certainly was, casting a dark shadow over him and the wounded earth below.

“But that’s okay, I don’t need anything from you now that I can’t take for myself.”

Spread your legs.

 


 

Dorn gritted his teeth as Perturabo snapped at him and his arms fell away as he rose up and glared down at him — a clear sign of where this was going again. “It is not my intention to ridicule you, Perturabo!” He snapped back, a faint ember of frustration flaring up to a blaze in those dark hazel eyes as he was truly trying to understand what genuinely drove his Brother to these lengths, even after he'd already won.

Of course the facts laid out had their answers, bit by bit, but that wasn’t enough for Dorn, he wanted confirmations straight from the source instead of far-gone visions that told things that couldn’t even begin to be described with words.

I’m insufferable?” Dorn retorted with a deeply guttural growl, not obliging Perturabo’s command; as now he even tried to close his legs, squeezing Perturabo’s thighs as hard as he could with his own.

I’m not the one refusing to be honest, hiding behind violence!”

 


 

"How sanctimonious of you! Like you're not one of the most violent men I have ever known beneath that pristine Golden Image of yours!"

The seething indignation of Perturabo’s frivolous, childish outlook had crested into a state of pure wrath, spurned on by things that were as likely a product of his own insecurities as anything external — and all too apt a metaphor for the pressure that had been building slowly for thousands of years.

Such a genius mind; so analytical, so mathematical, so scientific. How he had crafted himself the τέλειος of his own design. And yet time and again, he proved himself the immature and cruel brute he’d always been and would likely never rise above being. Especially now that there was no true authority that could even hope to temper his sharp, Iron edges.

This had always been his way, to counter judgements he could not endure with aggression and physical violence. Even when those judgements were imagined.

“To be tormented by wishful thinking and false hopes, what a fool I was all this time!” Perturabo exclaimed with a laugh that was as unhinged and removed from reality as the expression now twisting his face.

“What I cannot have by initiative or coercion, I can take by force. What a moment of εὕρηκα that was, to not only realize it — but have the ability to manifest it! And you will not prevent it from happening, Dorn. It’s already too late. I have taken you. I have stained you.” Perturabo shouted his vitriol into Dorn’s face, never taking his sights off those alarmed dark eyes.

“I have claimed you!” Perturabo continued in a shaking, impassioned voice as he wrestled with those stony thighs that defied his will.

He had bulk on his side, but Dorn had the benefit of leverage — and despite Dorn’s size, the unimaginable strength he possessed in his state of perfected physical density was one of the very things Perturabo found so fascinating about him.

Yet it worked against him now.

“And I will not be denied what is rightfully MINE!” Perturabo seethed, his authority being challenged incensing him further as a flicker of bright red danced across his faded blue eyes.

He wanted to balance his weight on his knees better so that he could use his arms to mount an attack but that wasn’t feasible with the way his legs were being crushed; and so he had to rely on using only one hand so that he could still brace his weight with the other.

And with a frenzied fury driven by raw emotion rather than clinical strategy Perturabo lunged, gripping that beautiful white throat with his massive hand, fingers now wrapping around Dorn’s neck in a way that was with far more intent than the simple gesture he’d made before.

 


 

Dorn continued to growl, “I never denied my violent nature, but I am far more honest and you know these two situations do not compare. I do not take you for an idiotic man, Perturabo.” He spat out the words as the frustrations continued to mount in the face of the rising tantrum from a man that could annihilate the both of them within seconds.

His expression only darkened further, doubly so when he saw the red that filtered through for a second, reminding the both of them how Perturabo was forever changed.

A difficult man in life as much as he was now as primarily machine. Though now Perturabo had even more destructive capabilities.

Suddenly, he saw that hand coming but couldn’t stop it in time as fingers gripped around his throat, tightening and closing up his airways, beginning to cut off the precious oxygen that he had to use.

In retaliation, Dorn thrusted his hand out to try and grab that which was around his throat, flexing his muscles in an attempt to pull that hand away. Of course, with all the focus on making sure that Perturabo didn’t crush his throat, the tension with his legs lessened considerably.

“Phk!”

 


 

And there it was, somehow as unexpected as it was fortuitous but recognized immediately all the same when that pleasing strangled noise was choked out of Dorn — his moment of opportunity; and Perturabo capitalized on it without a second thought.

He kept the pressure on the neck he could surely collapse like a toy, but only to maintain the distraction long enough to get what he wanted. As soon as the strength waned in those muscles clamping against him, Perturabo forced his knees outward with a sudden burst of harnessed energy and directly applied force; a sense of elation washing over him as he felt those defiant legs buckle beneath his rotation and meekly spread open, like stone columns collapsing below an Iron battering ram.

What surrender did not provide, domination would ensure.

And as soon as he was no longer trapped by inertia, Perturabo reactivated and resumed the Siege.

With a loud, discordant grunt he jerked backward as he swung his hips out, the feeling that washed over him one of burning, miserable glory as he knew the pain he felt was only a fragment of what Dorn had been forced to endure; and only a sliver of what was coming…

Perturabo began to pump forward, his massive, wide hips moving with a furious speed he had not yet used — tactics switching from the slow battering strikes he’d assailed Dorn with once before to quick, rough and angry strokes, fueled entirely by spite rather than lust as he felt muscles as inflexible and tense as chains succumbing to a strength they could not defend against.

“Tell me, then Dorn… is there truly ANYTHING more pure, more honest than this?” He demanded, releasing Dorn's neck so that he could put that hand back against the ground and gain more leverage.

 


 

At some point while Perturabo had been choking him, Dorn’s hand had fallen at the futility of it as soon as his Brother renewed the brutality against his body, having bided his time enough to do exactly what he had intended to.

Once more his entire body burned like lava, yet somehow, this time it was far more agonizing as Perturabo moved into him with such viciousness in his actions, the pain nearly unbearable as he was slammed against repeatedly and quickly, giving him little to no time to try and adjust or become accommodated to the feeling as he had done before when Perturabo had moved much slower.

Fresh tears pricked at the corner of his eyes from the assault and soon they were falling down as he choked on his own saliva. That was, until Perturabo finally let go of his neck, causing him to try and take stilted lungfuls of air, only to have it be pushed out of him through each thrust.

A creeping chill ran down his spine and along his tailbone, as if his body was precluding the fact it wanted to shut down the sensations on his lower half due to the savagery wrought against him. Everything ran so hot that it felt nearly cold in short order.

Words seemed to fail him as all he could do was try to keep breathing.

 


 

What was this? Where was the answer he awaited? Where was his triumph, his exaltation?

There was no clearer demonstration he could have given, beyond the words he did not know how to say. Was this not enough, somehow?

Perturabo yanked his head up to stare at Dorn’s face, to study him — and he’d expected to see that infuriatingly defiant stubbornness glaring back at him with haughty animosity; refusing to react, deigning to speak.

But there was almost nothing at all behind those regal eyes now gone glassy, far off and distant; and those lips did not close in provocative challenge for they were too busy sucking in air that he did not seem to be able to choke down fast enough. The tears that were shed in that moment were not of the joy that Perturabo had sought; shed in a state of despair, in the loss of hope.

Had he somehow managed to take things too far, all at once yet again, repeating the same mistake from earlier today, the one that reminded him of the lowest points in his life even as he’d sworn to be more mindful from now on?

Perturabo did not stop, but he stilled; slowed down, turned back the dial of his impulsive, embittered intensity as he cut off and denied a thoroughly unwanted emotion that even his cybernetic algorithms could not automatically shut down.

Guilt.

But despite insisting within the labyrinthine coils of his own mind that he was not beholden to such weaknesses it influenced his actions all the same.

Including what came next.

As he gazed down at the face that tormented his every dream when he was capable of such things, long since transmuted into the ghost in his machine that drifted through every sleepless waking thought, he was struck by how truly beautiful Dorn was, and how this was not how things were meant to be. At least not now.

What had happened to the moment they’d shared only minutes ago?

Ruined. Just as Perturabo destroyed everything he cared about in indiscriminate lashing out through fits of impulsive, blind rage.

He'd had a point to prove but this had not been it…

"Dorn," Perturabo said simply, flatly — trying to disguise concern as he watched with great scrutiny as he waited for a reaction; a response — to determine if this was a ruse, or if maybe this was his own conscience getting the better of him yet again… or if he…

"Dorn." He hated how quickly he spoke a second time, and how much more urgent he sounded.

 


 

Dorn endured, his body endured and his mind had whisked him away to some other focus than what was going on and how much his entire body pulsed in debilitating pain, it was as if he had begun to block out the damage being wrought to his form, a strangely familiar misery all the same.

There was naught but static in his ears, as his body tingled with something akin to that remembered sensation — lost in a haze. His eyes saw nothing but that of blurred shapes that lingered overhead as he continued his loud, open-mouthed breathing, sucking in precious oxygen to cease the burning he felt.

Every single sense began to melt together

And then…

Then…

“Dorn”

A pause.

“Fa-…?” Dorn stopped himself, gasping in another ragged breath and taking in the air until his lungs no longer made him feel like he was choking on nothing; his thoughts a jumbled mess with no cohesion, no boundary where one idea started or ended — blending with the next, well and truly scrambled.

Dorn.

When his name was said a second time, the sound enough to continue to cut through the remaining noise, a flicker of life seemed to return in his tear-stricken gaze when he stared upwards to Perturabo.

“P… Perturabo…?” He said his Brother’s name with a shudder in his voice and an underlying hint of confusion.

 


 

Perturabo stared down at that handsome yet confused, disoriented face; perplexed as the light of recognition slowly came back into Dorn’s eyes.

It was as if he’d been somewhere else entirely and while the moment was likely brief, it had felt like such an awfully, miserably long time through the lens of Perturabo’s building anxiety. And while he tried to restrain himself and not let too much show, he’d never had much in the way of emotional regulation as he'd proved time and time again.

The relief that washed over him was immense and while he’d likely Break Dorn time and time again in this cursed union just as he'd promised, there was no pleasure to be found in it like this — a realization he was sure of down to his core yet he had no idea as to what the conditions of this distinction even were.

He had no basis to form any conclusions, no frame of reference to compare to — all he knew was that this was not their battle anymore, suddenly — and whatever war this was, it was one he wanted no part in.

It was as intrinsically known as it was enigmatic…

He flexed his thighs and pulled his legs back slightly to shift his center of balance to his knees, and the instant he was no longer reliant on his arms to bear his weight he reached out with both hands to hold Dorn’s face gently.

Scanning, his icy eyes stared into one eye, then the other; back, forth — his expression discernibly worried, maybe even sad.

“Rogal. Are you… okay?” Perturabo asked, voice tense and strained, and he reached further up with one hand to lightly drag his palm over Dorn’s wet, spiky hair.

 


 

It took time, agonizingly long seconds to tick on by; one after another after another. While he might have finally said Perturabo’s name, it seemed like it took even longer than that to come to for any measure of lucidity. Something still had a remnant of a grip upon his mind.

Overwhelming energy…. power… he almost could…

Dorn gasped as he felt such gentle hands cradle his face, holding him in a manner that he hadn’t experienced before in whatever state he had been reduced to, despite everything that had occurred just moments ago.

Instead of a golden Radiance, overwhelming and all-consuming, he was coming face to face with one of his Brothers instead.

Perturabo.

Perturabo.

Perturabo.

His Brother’s name was a mantra in his head as he fell further and further from that din of noise that was buzzing around his skull like a million insects. Dorn shut his eyes tightly, shaking his head so violently that even he drew Perturabo’s hands from his head.

It was as if he was actively trying to shut something out.

Something that unsettled him so thoroughly that even Perturabo’s persistence in checking in on him didn’t seem to be wholly recognized even now. But slowly, he was starting to come around when he opened his eyes a second time, and he settled against Perturabo all that much more on the other side of whatever had taken ahold of him.

There was life back into those eyes that had seemed so soulless before.

He took slower breaths this time, a trembling hand reaching out to grasp one of Perturabo’s own. This was such a difference compared to Dorn’s normal attitude that it had to be alarming to some degree; and Dorn didn’t seem to be completely aware of it as he stared at his Brother in confusion.

“I… think so… yes… I…” Dorn’s entire body had gone slack at this point, no tension to be found, but the cause of such exhaustion seemed to have passed. “I…” He furrowed his brow with a grunt, “I’m alright…” It didn’t sound like a lie, per se, but it didn’t sound like Dorn quite understood what had just happened, either.

 


 

Strangely, for reasons Perturabo couldn’t begin to unravel he nearly felt like an outsider. Like he was witnessing something that didn’t entirely involve him despite that being the most illogical conclusion he ever could have come to.

But as unlikely as it was, it was the truth.

Something in his Brother had changed so drastically it was as if his wires had been cut, his connections severed. And while Perturabo still felt bad, he no longer felt as though he was entirely responsible for whatever had taken hold of him.

Like white noise—like virus corrupted, glitched out cyberstatic—something had scrambled Dorn’s brainwaves and taken over his mind temporarily; and even if he had been the one to weaken Dorn to such a state of vulnerability that whatever this affliction was could take hold, this wasn’t a mess solely of his own making.

That brought him a byte of solace if nothing else, but alleviating his guilt was not his primary objective nor did the fact do anything to soothe any his worries.

Was Dorn overcome by visions again, and if so was he responsible for them? If not, were those episodes he had caused what had weakened Dorn’s psychic shielding to this degree?

He held that trembling hand firmly as he stared intently at Dorn's face; alarmed — never, not once having seen the Unyielding One look so unsettled, so weak, so completely unlike himself.

Even when Perturabo had done his worst, there had been an unbearable undercurrent of serenity there, as if no matter what happened, he’d be at peace with it. And at no point had he truly lost his resolve, his dignity.

Dorn now, looked like a man lost. And Perturabo resented whatever had caused that, deeply. He made a silent oath that whatever the source of this was, would pay dearly.

“Listen to me very carefully,” Perturabo said, using every bit of admittedly low self-control he had to sound authoritative and neutral and not the tangled knot of anxious, furious disarray he felt inside, lest Dorn come to think that he was angry with him.

“Hold on to me, and stay completely still.”

 


 

Even though he had obviously recognized his Brother a moment ago, and had answered him as if he had heard the question that had been asked, those remnants remained — no matter how much further he got away from the situation as a whole.

Something inside of him had been nagging in the back of his mind this entire time, in small instances throughout this encounter. He had even recognized that time and time again yet when it all culminated to a breaking point, his mind seemed to be one errant slip away from falling back into that—

It couldn’t be called an abyss.

Nothing touched by the Emperor could be considered as such, and his hearts lurched even at the briefest notion that it could somehow be negative, as he was conditioned to feel only in certain ways on that matter.

Another violent shudder coiled through his body before he blinked slowly, focusing back on Perturabo as he begun to speak again. Dorn seemed quite obedient suddenly, the defiance having faded away entirely as he tightened his hold on Perturabo and wrapped his other arm around him.

Then he stilled…

Awaiting orders.

A Good Little Soldier.

 


 

Perturabo was on some level, thankful that Dorn had become so hauntingly compliant; but there was a vast emptiness that had overtaken him that was so tangible that he could feel it. It wasn’t viral, not entirely; nothing like the vast and expansive depersonalization the matrix of the Mainframe provided him when he was one with it. Nor was it anything that could be compared with the arduous, stifling fatigue of Chaos’ blight.

But by the Fates, it was close to both. And though he had no idea what it was, he knew that he was in great and total opposition to it.

He didn’t have the time to assess that facet of this situation at any greater length though. Not now.

He extended his neck and leaned in, placing the side of his face gently against Dorn’s head, slid his free hand down and with not one modicum of the misplaced, demented joy he’d taken in this mere minutes ago, he began to slowly attempt to extract himself from Dorn’s body, feeling a chill rip through his reinforced spine upon realizing how deeply he’d embedded himself and how inexcusably, unnervingly soft and wet Dorn was inside. More than just seed, more than just lubricant. Blood.

Perturabo shut his eyes tightly and clenched his teeth to keep himself from saying the things that truly needed to be said, but he couldn’t bring himself to say.

 


 

Surprisingly, and perhaps the most telling thing of all, was that it didn’t even seem like Dorn reacted as Perturabo began to pull out of him, other than the simple bodily reactions of a twitch or a shudder here and there through the motions.

It was as if Dorn was paralyzed in his own body regardless of it responding or not, a detachment like no other.

Dorn did not dare close his eyes again.

Not now.

Lest he see Radiance once again.

 


 

Though freeing himself as easily as he had from the once-clenching press of dense muscles—and whatever else he had penetrated in his fervor—should have been a small relief in the midst of all of this, Perturabo was left cold. He was deeply, pervasively disturbed by the state of Dorn’s body particularly because the total lack of reactions aside from the most basic reflexes. It was flat out wrong, like one of his worst fantasies or simulations coming true.

But there was no pleasure to be had here. For it was foreign, and it was reality — as was the aftermath of it.

With a brutal pang of despair, he idly wondered if perhaps, he’d almost killed Dorn after all. Maybe this was his fault…

No, there had been something else, Perturabo was certain of that, for reasons that went well beyond his need to detach himself from the responsibility. It was unlike anything he’d ever been in the presence of, or even imagined before.

A genuine enemy, beyond the civil wars and strife, an entity beyond the rivalries of Brothers turned against one another. Perhaps this was Chaos’ taint, though if so, it was in a form he was not familiar with. Whatever it was, he would eradicate it one day.

He released Dorn and backed off, bracing himself for what he would see, as he had viscerally felt the tide mere seconds ago. And as he backed away, he partially rose on his knees, and saw in the faint light of darkness, his himation soaked and ruined, with sweat no doubt, and copious, filthy amounts of semen.

But the blood, there was so much blood, neon-cold in coronas that formed overlapping radial patterns in various states of dryness, the darkest, wettest patch the largest — what had been pulled out with his extraction.

Loose, greasy tears poured from Perturabo's eyes at the sight and he shook his head in dismay as he tried to separate himself from so many conflicting, incompatible thoughts.

Maybe once he’d have basked in this carnage, but now everything, absolutely all of it — felt so terribly loathsome and wretched.

Quickly, with panic-stricken shaking hands, he leaned down and frantically tried to wrap his Brother’s body up in that stained, ruined cloth, and after doing as best he could and with no small amount of shame in his hearts, he leaned in again.

“Ho—” Perturabo choked, voice so unsteady it was not his own. He cleared his throat, and tried again, willing himself to be strong.

“Hold on to me. I have to pick you up.”

 


 

Dorn’s mouth opened slightly and he took a second to breathe in again, inhaling the scents as if second nature at this point, taking in the smell of what they had done and everything that had come as a result of their union, even though that had come to an almost unceremonious end.

Due to…

Why?

He rapidly blinked, still not keeping his eyes closed for too long, hyper alert as if he was some sort of sentry that was forcing himself to stay wide awake, lest something jump out at him in the middle of the night, a result of a moment of faltering in his vigilance.

Unshed tears burned at the corners of Dorn’s eyes, but they did not fall in this state he was in, only obeying Perturabo as he wrapped his arms around his Brother, clamping his right hand over the wrist of the left, flexing briefly to hold on tight.

Deep within those eyes, should Perturabo gaze into them, he could tell that somethingDorn was trying… to break free from whatever this immobility was.

Every second that passed, the more that he was coming to.

But it could not come fast enough.

 


 

Perturabo swallowed thickly, choking down the now stale, overwhelmingly potent smell of all that had happened on this ruined, accursed ground — and the secretions of synthetic mucus and tears laced with oil that filled his mouth; and he forced himself not to cough from it all for the sake of not jostling Dorn in his condition, but it was difficult. It took him a full two or three seconds to shove it all down his throat, ignore that reflex and persevere.

Once he’d gotten a grasp on himself, he looked at Dorn, grateful that he’d been able to comply well enough to secure his place, though Perturabo surely would have found a way to manage otherwise.

And as he looked into those gleaming, glazed over hazel eyes, he knew that whatever this was, it still had its vile and consumptive claws wedged deep into his Brother’s spirit.

It enraged him, but he’d not let it show, knowing that in the midst of that all had transpired and with Dorn’s fragile mental state, he’d likely think that Perturabo was displeased with him.

As much as that annoyed him now, he also knew it would have been completely fair.

“I… know. I understand,” Perturabo said in a solemn voice. And though he most certainly did not understand much of any of this, he understood that Dorn was trying to communicate with him and that was all that mattered.

He raised himself up to his full height, hoisting his Brother with him with ease. Dorn was impossibly heavy considering his smaller stature, but was still fully manageable without the fighting spirit that would have been the thing most likely to have made this undoable otherwise.

“You just… hold on to me, I’ll get this over with, quickly.” Perturabo said with resolve, moving with purpose as his gargantuan footfalls carried them over the craggy earth of this desolate planet, wasting no time as he made his way back to his transport ship. It was originally only built for one, a highly specialized craft. But it was engineered with prowess and purpose — and it was made for a much larger and imposing form of the Lord of Iron.

Still, a carrier ship for passengers was not its function. But it would do as a makeshift triage unit. It would have to. And perhaps even…

Navigation would be very tricky as he’d never done anything like this before in his baseline state, but it was possible, in theory, at least for the very short distance he intended to go and as long as he kept everything down to vital functions. Neo-Logos would be his last resort. Nothing else larger would be possible in these conditions, though that was exactly what this ship had been built for.

Hopefully it wouldn’t come to that. It was going to be very cramped as it was.

Perturabo carefully—but with unfiltered impatience—managed to circumvent the charred, gaping gash they had inflicted upon this unassuming land in the initial stages of their fight, then continued on until at last he had made it back to his spacecraft.

He opened the hatch and quickly stepped inside, and after looking around, he let out a long, frustrated sigh. This was going to be complicated but it would have to do.

With a gentle sway, he ducked into a far corner and very carefully laid Dorn down upon the floor, orienting him facing the only seating this personal vessel had, it's design eldritch and ominously mechanized — numerous and ominous long thick black bands snaking out from that navigation throne, all far too similar to the things that had been projected straight into Dorn's mind.

Perturabo didn’t give him much of a chance to question anything though. There was too much to be done.

He tucked that lamentably filthy wrap over his Brother’s body, patted his leg and gave him the serious, no-nonsense glare of an elder sibling. “You stay put, I’ll be right back, okay?”

And without waiting for a reply he deduced would be hard for Dorn to speak anyway, he quickly vanished back out into the night.

 


 

They were moving, Dorn did realize that as he felt himself lifted off of the ground and carried. He was being carried by his Brother, and reassured that Perturabo understood.

Did he really? Was he ever privy to the secret events that happened within the Imperial Palace? Of course he couldn’t actually know, but Dorn felt like he could count on one hand how many of the 'Favored Sons' may have actually had experience with the sort of things he went through, though he wasn’t expecting to be so rattled by it so long after.

Apparently it did not matter how many millennia passed…

He didn’t forget, even if his mind had tried to block out matters best left ignored for now.

As Dorn was placed across from the Mainframe where he knew Perturabo would seat himself, Dorn felt his twin hearts suddenly beat and surge with energy as his mind claimed a burst of clarity — even before Perturabo had left the small, cramped space. He forced himself to look away from that main central command area to gaze at his hand.

Beyond remaining compliant, he tried to move, to make his fingers twitch underneath the himation he had thrown over him as he tried to shake off the remaining numbness.

 


 

It wasn’t long before Perturabo reappeared, crossing the threshold with purpose. No longer completely naked, he was clad in the scant folds of his once discarded loincloth, which was now re-tied around his waist and dangling between his legs. It provided some decency but was nearly as filthy as the himation that cloaked Dorn, not having survived the encounter unscathed either.

But it would suffice.

He was an imposing, monstrous sight now, draped in the blood-soaked, cum-stained tatters of such barbaric garb, while dual wielding a horrific set of the most intimidating, fabled weapons imaginable in all the galaxy; both of legendary origins and which were so massive that they were meant to take a giant's two hands each to heft — Forgebreaker in his right fist, Storm’s Teeth in his left.

And with another round of quick looks and frustrated sighs, he eventually managed to find a way to place both weapons inside the ship.

Everything within was covered in bodily fluids and sand; and cramped beyond all reasonability but it was done. He did not dare leave such powerful artifacts out in the open even on such a barren planet, but he resented leaving Dorn's side for even a micro-instant.

With no time to waste he shut the airlock and all but threw himself into that ominous, spired navigation throne that dwarfed even his titanic body. He then leaned forward, motions a blur as he reached behind his head with one hand and started grasping those foreboding black leads with the other, feeding them through his fingers and plugging them into the back of his skull, each one snapping into place with a loud and satisfying click.

He didn’t bother interfacing with anything that wasn’t absolutely vital in the moment, leaving the majority of them disconnected — and once he was satisfied he could make this short trek, he looked down at Dorn with concern.

“Are there any more traps around that little Thunderhawk of yours I should know about, before I blast us both into the Immaterium?” He asked wryly, the ship already firing up and springing into motion though Perturabo hadn't touched a single thing.

 


 

There was that recognition coming back as Dorn looked surprised, the first shift toward a new emotion that wasn’t him simply seeming like a zombie. He watched both of their weapons be set down to the side…

He also watched as Perturabo only snapped in a precious few of those cables, but the question alone was what allowed him to understand what was actually happening next instead of the budding worry that had sunk into his chest. That they might be making a much longer flight.

When he spoke, it came out as a strange rasp. “No… tripped them… all… Safe… Void shield…deactivated.”

 


 

Perturabo smirked smugly, satisfied with that answer though he was a little surprised by that, thinking Dorn would have laid at least some defensive contingency plans for his own survival outside the fortifications he’d disarmed before their showdown.

“Well that’s taken care of, then. So here’s the plan. I’m going to get you settled in to rest in that ship of yours and then come back to collect your panoply. As I’m sure you can see, there’s absolutely no way I could have fit that ridiculous auric armor of yours in here with us — even if I hadn't prioritized our weaponry.”

He sounded put off by the very concept of that detested flamboyant shell that was synonymous with the regal image of Rogal Dorn himself, but the bits of stolen gold he’d savored contradicted that fact, as did how quickly he made it clear he’d not neglect to gather up Dorn's personal effects.

 


 

Perhaps it was how Perturabo was now talking to him, especially in how he was reassuring that nothing was going to get left behind. That knowledge seemed to stir him into a state that pulled him further out of whatever it was that had struck him so severely.

His breaths were steady now, even if his hearts took a much longer time to settle.

“I… do recognize that,” he paused before adding. “Thank you…”

 


 

A crooked, standoffish approximation of a smile settled on Perturabo's face and he nodded, taciturn. The next few seconds were silent ones as Perturabo glanced up at something above and diagonal to Dorn’s position, focus centered directly ahead from where he sat.

“You’re… welcome.” Perturabo grunted out at length, as if he’d had to fight each syllable, brow furrowing as he continued to stare grumpily at what appeared to be a blank wall in this windowless, alarmingly spartan coffin of a ship; nearly barren save for the endless arrays, server racks and bundles of cables lining every available space.

A moment later, and the craft made landfall, before Perturabo reached behind his head and quickly detached the navigational leads, a series of clicking noises following his movements exactly as before.

 


 

Dorn had fallen silent again after that grumble of a response, resting the back of his head on the cool, mechanical wall as his gaze swept over this small holding chamber— once and then twice, taking in just how little there was of anything extra beyond the central mainframe that Perturabo was connected to.

Lifting up a still trembling hand, Dorn ran a finger along one of the wiring cables next to him, almost featherlight, even further emphasized without any of his strength coming to bear. He hadn’t stopped trying to map out where it went when they had lurched back onto land.

 


 

Perturabo was nearly about to speak, mouth already open when he glanced over at Dorn to make sure he was ready for the next transfer when he stopped short, thick brows coming together as he watched what Dorn was doing.

Something deep inside his chest clenched at the sight, the way Dorn’s fingers trailed along one of the sheathed black cables that ran along the length of the ship’s wall. Caressing it.

Did Dorn know what he was doing?

A shudder worked its way down Perturabo’s spine, a sense of longing coming over him as he observed that touch — everything about the tone of it all unbearably sensual.

There really wasn’t much time to spare, a sense of urgency still pervasively weighing down on him despite not knowing what had happened, or why, or if there was any remaining danger.

But Dorn seemed to be coming around at least somewhat, and a moment’s delay wouldn’t cause any harm… right?

Perturabo was dual minded about the idea but he simply couldn’t resist, something intangible but deeply touching about the way Dorn was investigating that cable with a curiosity that bordered on near innocence. And whether that was only due to his incapacitated mental state or not, it was an unexpected bounty he couldn’t pass up. Especially as this may be a one time opportunity…

He couldn’t help but wonder now, exactly how much Dorn had ‘seen’ of his errant thoughts and if it was as horrid as Perturabo dreaded it to be.

And still, that hand trailed so softly down that insulated sheath, so lightly… so…

Perturabo shuddered with anticipation.

Click.

Chapter 11: ἔρως

Summary:

Could love be digitized? And even if so, how could there possibly be an equation to solve for it?

Chapter Text


 

Even after the sound of the click, it didn’t seem like Dorn had fully registered what had happened, and likely hadn’t understood that Perturabo had purposefully decided to jack in to the cable that he was currently touching and trailing his fingers along the entire length of — that he could reach.

Between the metal casing and the rubbery insulation that would keep it safe from external factors, Dorn was not spoiled for the varying amount of textures that he was starting to become acquainted with in this very short moment of his pointed investigation.

Perturabo was not wrong, Dorn held a healthy amount of curiosity that could be sensed and observed through his touch alone.

Once; and then twice he trailed from the point that he could reach to the section that was affixed closest to him. Then again.

 


 

Perturabo gasped, thighs quivering against the bottom of his throne as pure unmitigated feeling rushed through that long, winding cable interfacing directly into his mind.

He’d known that cable was capable of processing physical sensation; of course — they all were, for they were a part of him, his interface, his Mainframe.

Yet never before had he ever experienced anyone touching them. And the much smaller ones that had been permanently bolted to his head long ago were the only ones that he’d experienced through a filter of external stimuli in any conceivable way and had adapted to the feeling they provided.

But this, it was far more intense than he’d ever expected; that ultra-thick, super dense data cable able to transmit petabytes of information at near-real time speed, one of the vital primary lines of his ship — designated to logistics, star-mapping and navigation.

And the concentric conducting shield beneath the textured sheath was lamentably not enough to dull the unbearably raw sensation of those fingers so gently manipulating its surface to any level that could be considered tolerable.

Perhaps it wouldn’t have been so potent; so overwhelmingly, disproportionally excessive had he been in his Ascended form, or even melded with Neo-Logos — a form more attuned to processing such vast amounts of data.

He should have known better, well aware he couldn’t interface properly with these larger lines while still inhabiting a more natural form, as that had been why he'd been concerned about controlling the ship without transforming in the first place.

But he couldn’t resist the allure of knowing what that seductively gentle touch might feel like…

And what it felt like was as if his central nervous system was being directly manipulated and dipped in acid; as if Dorn had reached in and touched his brain stem unprotected and somehow massaged it.

He flinched, moaned, pulse cresting into discordant syncopated bursts amid a rapid cascade of overlapping mechanical chimes and blips as meaningless integers scrolled up along the sides of his HUD at mind numbing speed; and his muscles spasmed wildly as he released into the bunched up rolls of his loincloth, searing and aching — before he had any hope of stopping it.

 


 

Dorn continued to trail his fingers against the cable until it was simply not possible to touch any further without actually moving. He paused, however, when he heard his Brother moan, the sound being far more amplified in such a cramped space as the inside of this transport ship.

Dorn furrowed his brow briefly before raising both of them as he turned his head towards Perturabo, mouth already slightly ajar to take in a more keen smell of what filled the chamber as much as the sound had, his panting exploring the chamber in turn as he took in every nuance of that scent alone.

His stare slowly dropped downwards, gazing towards the loincloth that was as filthy as the himation that was currently wrapped around him like some sort of make-shift blanket keeping him protected from the cold.

For Perturabo’s sake, Dorn hadn’t put what he had done and what had happened together yet as his mind was still unscrambling itself from the overload from earlier that still faintly clawed at the corners of his mind.

Yet, fortuitously, he had stopped touching the banded cabling, returning his hand back onto his lap. His mouth closed in short order so he wasn’t drinking in the overt masculinity that drifted off of Perturabo in waves.

 


 

Perturabo slumped in place, leaning forward as he tried to pull himself back from the shock of such an unexpected, overwhelming intensity he’d almost entirely shut down, though if that was due to the limitations of his fleshparts or a data corruption failsafe mechanism activating to protect him from information overload — he didn’t know. A prospect he found far more embarrassing than the mess he’d made of himself but fortunately that struggle was solely an internal one.

But he’d not been hooked up to any diagnostics nor had the benefit of the native functions of any of his more advanced designs. Nor did he have a precedent set to compare this to.

Regardless, the end result was the same — that he’d nearly been knocked unconscious from the immense deluge of unfiltered data.

He panted, orbs of light in wireframe flickering though his hazy vision, and it took him several seconds to come down from the dizzying heights that a single moment of that overstimulation had created.

He reached behind him with a shaking hand and removed that data cable from the interface port recessed into his skull and let it drop to the floor with an unceremonious clack.

From his hunched position, he eyed Dorn warily. It didn’t seem he was cognizant enough to know what had happened, which was a genuine stroke of luck. He was clearly tasting the results, aware of the increasingly filthy state Perturabo was in, but seemed none the wiser as to why this was so.

Good.

Perturabo had no idea what would happen before this experience but only a second’s taste was enough to make it abundantly clear that this would become very dangerous if Dorn ever learned how debilitating this situation was for him — especially if he decided to inflict damage upon his peripherals rather than approach them with gentleness.

He’d have to very carefully calibrate every component in the system before allowing anything like this to happen again, making absolutely certain the proper limiters were in place.

Yet for as alarming as it had been, the prospect filled him with an electric excitement and sense of great anticipation.

 


 

Dorn leaned back slowly, eyes closing as he rested his head on the wall behind him with a little thunk, even if he was certain that they were going to move again. Whatever had just happened to Perturabo, he could tell that his Brother was trying to deal with it until the next phase of whatever his plan was, came to fruition.

Another moment later, he had opened his eyes and tried to sit back up, to stand but it was as if his entire body refused to do so, the movement of his hands and arms had been the limit while he still shook off the remnants of paralysis brought on by whatever had thoroughly debilitated him and the aches and pains that his body was going through.

It was frustrating to be brought so low because it hadn’t been because of Perturabo.

He would have taken much more pleasure from it if it had.

 


 

Perturabo grunted and shook his aching head again, disoriented and physically stunned; and he pressed his fingers to his forehead as he attempted to realign himself.

He was likely lucky to still be ‘alive’, he cogitated with idle amusement, considering how genuinely close he may have come to suffering a data implosion from his own cable relay, in an action of his own doing that was astonishingly severe enough to have ripped his body apart outright—or collapsed his mind at the very least had it continued longer—sending him straight back to the Warp. He’d have been disconnected from realspace in that event, without any form of forewarning; and no realization of what had happened until eventually stirring once more within the Immaterium.

As unsettling as it was, it was also admittedly fascinating

And all because he simply wanted to know what Dorn’s touch might feel like…

No, that certainly tempted him but the motivation was deeper than that, and he knew it.

It was Dorn taking an active interest in engaging with those cables of his own volition, after making it clear he’d somehow seen himself restrained inside them in visions.

…And said he’d walk into their grasp voluntarily right after…

Not once had Perturabo ever conceived of anything in his fantasies with Dorn that was not forced upon him; and in most cases, that went so far as having to ensure Dorn was physically restrained and mentally enslaved; fully mindbroken and reduced to a toy. Because that was the only way Perturabo could ever envision such happening.

But the real Dorn was much different than the simulacrum he’d manifested in his thoughts.

And much more engaging…

This realization would do him no good if he became so blinded by impatience and curiosity that he behaved foolishly and ended up back on Medrengard alone, after however much time would have to pass for his consciousness to stir again…

He slumped down further in that cold metal seat as he took the time he desperately needed before he even attempted to continue, but as he watched Dorn he realized those strange little twitches and halting jolts he was observing were actually attempts being made to move, to get up, to control his own body in any way — and he was failing.

Perturabo was reviled and nauseated by watching it happen, shocked that it wasn’t nearly as fun as he’d thought it would be, to watch Dorn's body become so useless.

Though maybe that was because he didn’t cause it, and also had no idea what had.

He pushed past his stinging nerves and aching head, rising from his position before Dorn managed to harm himself somehow; and with a rasping mechanized groan, Perturabo managed to stumble to his feet and make it to Dorn’s side, then knelt in front of him.

“Are… you okay?” Perturabo asked, struggling against the disorientation he still felt.

 


 

In the midst of all the mounting frustrations he was feeling, he seemed to pause in his attempts to rise up when he was aware that Perturabo had moved closer to him. This was telling in and of itself, because Dorn seemed like he was surprised to see him so close, as if he hadn’t registered that Perturabo had moved in the first place.

An oversight that could easily have gotten himself killed on the battlefield.

Fortunately, Perturabo didn’t take advantage of that knowledge, and there was no one else to reap the benefits of a Primarch completely off-guard.

“…Still… coming to… Better.” Dorn spoke slowly, voice barely above a rasping whisper which only incensed his thoughts as if his mind was fully now caught up to everything happening, but his bodily functions still lagged behind.

 


 

Perturabo nodded—almost imperceptibly, immediately struck by recoil—and a small hiss was pressed through his teeth from the lashing that seared through his skull from daring to move his head at all.

He reached out and rested his hand atop Dorn’s.

It was so clear to see how weak Dorn was, how entirely, completely vulnerable he was in this moment; and Perturabo briefly scolded himself for almost disabling himself, too —  by his own actions when doing so would have practically left them both as sitting, stationary targets.

Fortunately there was nothing in this barren sector that could pose any threat to them if they were somehow even located — but that didn’t change the facts or make his own actions any less careless.

And as of their feud, to see his Brother brought down by an invisible, poorly understood malady did not trigger any urge to bring him lower. In turn, it was easy to assume that Dorn himself wouldn’t have been so dishonorable as to launch an attack against him now as he too was in an almost similar state. But what if that was not the case, or what if one or both of them had simply failed to realize the nuances of a situation that was so drastically changed?

Perturabo felt as if they had both narrowly avoided disaster.

He would begin research on his own situation with an exuberant drive to improve, to mitigate the unexpected problems caused by his system being too efficient, but investigating what had happened to Dorn would be his priority and with none of the pleasure.

Whatever had happened to him, was unacceptable.

“Do you… know what’s wrong with you?” Perturabo inquired with clearly displayed interest. Did his Brother have some strange illness he didn’t know about, or an injury he’d sustained at some point during their long separation that had left him damaged?

…Beyond the obvious. But that was the last thing he wanted to think about at any point, and especially right now.

 


 

Dorn slowly lifted his gaze towards his Brother, focusing on him for a long moment and using him as a grounding force so his thoughts didn’t begin to wander on recollections of a history long since concluded, especially in this manner. He was already plagued with more than enough that he didn’t need this resurgence to torment him even further.

Was that the truth though?

A stilted grimace crossed his face for a brief second, contemplation clearer in his eyes that his stiff expression as he turned his hand to grasp at Perturabo’s own.

“…Visions… not yours… you didn’t cause this.” Dorn began to talk again, finding a bit more strength this time though he still took time to speak, unsettled. “Memories… of a time long… passed.” Slowly, Dorn shifted again, this time slowly stretching out his legs, trying to get feeling back to them and attempting to continue to shake off the malaise.

“Are you… alright…?” He countered.

 


 

So it was some sort of psyker affliction. Or whatever it was, that Dorn experienced now and then as he knew that couldn't have been quite right in his case. But he knew of these episodes.

That had been one of Perturabo’s original suspicions, as his Brother had always had quite the ‘gift’ and an affinity for seeing images that were not of his own mind. And he'd been sorely reminded of the fact in a different way a short while ago. He restrained a frown, shoving down the guilt boiling in his guts at the rising suspicion he’d lowered Dorn’s mental defenses with those projections of his own, though he still had no idea how Dorn had been privy to them in the first place.

A time long passed

At what time was it when Dorn had been on the hard, cold ground; bleeding out, near death, near to giving up? Losing his Defiance? Or was it being fucked to death that triggered memories? Was that the scene their moment had forced a flashback of?

Perturabo declined to ask.

He smirked at the question now being posed to him, wondering if Dorn assumed their sudden, seemingly comorbid conditions were of a similar nature. He’d do nothing to shoot such an idea down at the moment.

“I will be,” He said as flatly as he could, as if whatever this mysterious problem was, did not alarm him. “And once it passes, I’ll move you inside.”

 


 

“Good…”

There was a flicker of relief in Dorn’s gaze, both for Perturabo’s affliction to not be too concerning to the fact that Perturabo didn’t try and press for an actual answer to what he might have seen…

Felt…

Through every fiber of his being.

Heard…

Deep within his very soul.

He would need to figure out what exactly had triggered it, but Dorn didn’t think that anything specifically had, beyond enduring those violent actions and the pain that came from them. Could he manage to overcome his memories somehow, and transfer those sensations to something he could account to Perturabo, and Perturabo alone?

In a strangely… positive sense?

He stared at his Brother blankly in silence for several lingering seconds.

 


 

Something bordering dangerously close to a faint smile flickered over Perturabo’s face at the openly professed relief on his behalf; and he squeezed Dorn’s hand at regular intervals. It was helping him ground himself as much as it seemed to be helping Dorn.

But as Dorn seemed to be coming to a bit more, a feeling of brooding discomfort washed over him, building within, increasing the longer he endured the soulful stare that was now so pointedly fixed on him in the tense quiet.

Almost as if being guided by a will outside his own, Perturabo instinctively moved forward, closing the distance as their eyes locked at point black range. A heated, shaking breath was passed over Dorn’s skin as he hovered there, tensely; awkwardly.

“Are… are you… ready t—” Perturabo spoke gruffly, all the effort he’d put into stabilizing his readouts breaking apart as his hearts began to beat much faster.

 


 

“I am..” Then there was a pause.

Before suddenly…

Where Perturabo didn’t move Dorn did as he leaned forward using all the strength he had gotten back in his body, all in an effort to kiss Perturabo with no small amount of fervor. He locked their lips together as Dorn still seemed so focused on him the entire time through this minor exchange..

While it might have felt much longer, only seconds actually passed from that impulsive action until the time that Dorn pulled back and slumped against the wall again.

 


 

Perturabo was completely caught off guard, not expecting Dorn to initiate such a thing, not in the state he was in — not in any state; and before his fleshmind could comprehend or his circuits process the information, Dorn’s lips were on his own, overwhelming him, filling him with a sense of acceptance, a feeling of…

Of what?

The noise that came from Perturabo was aching, longing; and the second that Dorn moved back, he followed, pressing his lips to Dorn’s in a way that was far softer than ever before, fluids produced from a perplexingly elusive emotion welling up inside his eyes. He raised Dorn’s hand, pressing it to his chest as he lightly nipped and pushed against Dorn's lips like a man starving.

 


 

Dorn's fingers curled around that hand a bit tighter as he indulged in something that had been a far cry from the atmosphere they had left behind — in both the lack of violence and the sense of quiet here, in equal measure. They effortlessly seemed to go from one state to another so quickly, and even now, this was something new, and so different from anything he'd ever experienced.

Dorn slowly closed his eyes as his left arm was thrown forward to wrap around Perturabo’s shoulders and back. Heated breaths left him when he opened his mouth just enough, swiping his tongue against lips and lightly nipping teeth until his tongue retreated entirely to allow Perturabo to press forward for his fill.

 


 

Whatever this was; it was not the malice, the bitterness, the resentment that had seeped in through the cracks and filled in all the spaces between them. Perturabo had no idea that such a thing was possible — or even desirable if it was. But something about this setting and the way it all unfolded from seeing Dorn so strangely struck down, to the gentle way he’d trailed his fingers over something Perturabo considered to in all ways an extension of himself had caused him to rethink things, to dare to hope once again that maybe…

Beyond some impossible, long abandoned, agonized wish left unfulfilled that had caused his consciousness to grow bitter and hard…

Maybe he still did want something more…

Than revenge. Than force.

And that was exactly what he’d been unable to say when he’d been pushed too far, right before whatever struck Dorn had happened…

He tasted and savored that tongue wedged in his mouth, rolling his own against it until Dorn softly pulled away; and Perturabo followed again, without hesitation.

But also without aggression.

It was no less frantic, no less assertive, but without violence now. All passion, no pretense; just a man still alive somewhere beneath all the plating and wires, who was suffocating.

 


 

Dorn only stopped pulling away when the cool metal of the ship gently hit the back of his head, and rested there by gentle movements instead of being slammed into it. There, he was pinned against the wall, mouth opening again as they shared saliva and the remnants of slick oils between one another.

He pulled his hand away from the hold upon the wall, so he could cradle the side of Perturabo’s face with much the same kindness in their interlude from earlier, yet wholly different. As if this had a distinctly different impact, emotion and attitude to it.

Violence and pain breathed life into Dorn as much as any other Primarch, perhaps even doubly so given his histories that not even Perturabo knew about, yet there was something about their actions now that led to a different sensation of euphoria.

He wanted more of it and moaned softly into that awaiting mouth as his mind wandered to much more pleasant thoughts.

 


 

Despite the numerous changes he’d made to his cybernetic form and the image he put forth, Perturabo was now the one choking down air as if he couldn’t get enough oxygen; pulling away, struggling for breath in the thin, enclosed atmosphere of this tiny ship. Yet every time he managed to fill his lungs he returned to capture Dorn’s lips with his own, as if he couldn’t get enough of that either, driven by a need that couldn’t be restrained.

His now-free hand moved up to touch Dorn’s milky-white hair, running his knuckles along the closer shaven velvet patch framing his temple, the softness against his skin nearly impossible. All the while he explored Dorn’s mouth slowly, taking in the aroma and flavor of his hormones, his chemicals; the inexplicable hint of snow that blossomed against his tongue — finer details he’d been unable to properly appreciate in his frenzy and haste of before.

He tilted his chin in the opposite direction to put pressure against the fingers that were touching the side of his face, and despite the very real possibility that doing so might allow Dorn to piece far too many things together, he turned his head until he was all but forcing much thinner cables than the one he'd touched into his Brother's grasp.

 


 

Dorn's hair was soft, even the facial hair that pressed against Perturabo's face held a very similar and striking fuzziness that was reminiscent of that velvety layer of close underfur that covered his entire body. The sensations of which were a striking distinction between his hard body, muscled and compact.

Only when Perturabo parted to breathe did Dorn do much the same until they were all back up against one another again and again, continuing to trade saliva in this slow and salacious dance of tongues, the smells of both of their scents mixing together taking a higher turn and causing Dorn’s hearts to race, causing him to release more of those mouth-watering pheromones.

He wanted more and more as his blood burned hot through his veins.

When he did pick up what Perturabo was doing, Dorn ran his fingers with much of the same feather-light touches like before with the larger cables, sometimes gently holding on an errant strand between two fingers as he trailed his hand down the length of it.

His left arm moved down, pressed against the small of Perturabo’s back at the same time Dorn had settled down on his knees. He met Perturabo's knelt position, slotting in between his legs and pushing him forwards and them against one another to the point their lower halves met, separated only by himation and loincloth alike.

In a rather sultry way, Dorn began to roll his hips in minute gestures, ensuring their clothed cocks slid along one another, all the while he continued to kiss and suck on Perturabo’s tongue and lips in this wholly slow sensual dance as there was not one part of him that wasn’t doing something.

 


 

Were he capable of dreaming of such impossible things any longer, Perturabo would have been wholly convinced this was a fantasy; a product of the feverish, aching desires that he treasured in secret — the yearnings he was unable to speak aloud while dejectedly clinging to hope that one day, Dorn would pursue him or return the interest he tried so hard to show — in some way, so very long ago.

But even his most ardent desires, from a time when his heart still beat with life were… never like this.

Nearly as overwhelming as the manipulation of that massive high speed data transfer cable jacked straight into his mind had been, Perturabo was taken over by Dorn. His tender, smooth silken skin and soft fluffy fur, his snowy, alluring taste; the smell that was wafting off his body again, trapped and smothering in this enclosed area, rising above the blood and the dirt and spent fluids of deeds past, the gentle touches that glided through his cyberlocks; it was all too sensual for him to have constructed, Perturabo’s imaginings having taken an irreversibly dark tone long ago.

And then it went well beyond anything Perturabo would have ever envisioned even in his most insipid, childish dreams when he was still impressionable and optimistic.

Dorn was very clearly seducing him; with a wanton, intense and pure passion — not the product of combat arousal or caused by their shared hatred of one another.

But why? Now that his body had thawed whatever it was that kept him frozen in place, was Dorn simply seeking something from Perturabo that he could provide solely out of convenience? Or was Dorn… even truly aware of what he was doing? Was he still lost in the aftermath of the visions that had claimed him, envisioning something else? Somewhere else, sometime else; someone else.

Perturabo’s chest felt as though it may crack, his Black Carapace split into broken shards from the mere thought of that; and while it seemed far more logical and likely an answer than anything else, Perturabo endeavored with all he had to block it out.

In an attempt to distract, he focused on the next issue in need of a solution.

…The condition of Dorn's body. Was it safe to proceed? The fact that it very much was not just minutes ago was what had precluded boarding this ship in the first place.

What was Dorn’s aim in all this?

Well, no matter the reason, it was a Golden Opportunity that Perturabo was not going to pass up. Even before Dorn had begun his writhing; that filthy dancing, Perturabo’s selfish cock ached to be shoved back deep into the claim it had staked.

“Still… so eager to be fucked?” Perturabo growled against Dorn’s lips and into his facial hair in a darkly sinister voice, immediately checking in on a multitude of levels and seeking confirmation with that single phrase — despite trying to convince himself of doing anything but giving any of those looming questions genuine consideration this entire time.

And he grew frustrated with himself for it.

 


 

It was only a second or two until Dorn pulled back, enough against the wall where he could pull his lips from Perturabo’s own in favor of being able to look into those pale blue eyes, seeing those myriad of emotions that his Brother never could truly hide away, no matter how much he postured or became more machine than man.

Some things never could be coded out.

There was so much laced in that growled accusation. So much so that Dorn understood the actual question being asked.

What did he want?

That was such a question in and of itself, the opportunity to have a choice that he could make for himself with no outside influence forcing him one way or the other. So blind had he been to such concepts, for simply following orders is what had eventually led him to the self-imposed isolation and exile away from a humanity he couldn’t face.

What did he want?

Someone to see him, to care, to understand. No matter the varying differences, that wasn’t an issue, it never could be. No matter the past or how it affected things now, he wanted a new chance.

What did he want?

He wanted the man that was in front of him. The connections made today were so very long overdue. Perturabo felt it, he had felt it. It was right, all seemed right, despite how twisted Perturabo’s thoughts were, those visions that assailed his mind.

He wanted his mirror.

What did he want?

He wanted to love.

He wanted to share it in turn. In all of its glory, from the carnality and brutality to the saccharine.

Millennia far too late but… did it have to be that way anymore?

Dorn leaned in once more, still staring deeply into those eyes as he pressed his lips against Perturabo’s own before breaking away and moving to Perturabo’s ear, speaking softly yet loud enough for him to hear every single syllable,

“Let me… explore this new chapter with you… Brother. Let me… be with you… My Brother. Let me… love youPerturabo…”

 


 

Perturabo shivered as he felt Dorn break away, and for reasons he did not comprehend, a foreboding washed over him as sure as if he’d been touched by an oracle. He braced, uncertain as to what was about to occur, but something intangible about Dorn had changed in the last few moments and Perturabo sensed that the approaching moment was a threshold — no less clearly defined than many others that had come to pass this day.

The incomprehensible look in those captivating hazel eyes that had pierced through his own left him frightened, and the anticipation and dread was so immense that it temporarily paused his concern.

And even his lust.

He’d been trying to prepare himself for an event that he knew would be far-reaching, hard to decipher and challenging, and yet…

Of all the endless incalculable potentialities, not once had he expected the words that fell on his ears — gentle as the rays of a golden sun yet with the devastating force of cannon fire

Surely he’d heard wrong, misinterpreted, as he quivered in Dorn’s arms. And he gasped, his lungs seizing, locking in place — the air trapped in his malfunctioning system. His hearts stopped, time stopped, his thoughts stopped, his CPU stalled, his OS crashed — the overload of those words far greater than even when that cable meant for Lord of Iron was touched.

Every single part of everything he’d ever been or would ever be simply ceased to function as designed as he grasped and theorized and calculated within his programming to determine the probability of it all, for even daring to aspire to being worthy of Dorn’s time and attention was not something he could risk being wrong about. And not… not… n-

 

 

Μεράκι OS Online!

Parameter thresholds exceeded_

….

   ….

      ….

APPLYING MACHINE CANT:

     From Iron cometh strength!
     From strength cometh will! 
     From will cometh faith!
     From faith cometh honor! 
     From honor cometh Iron!

….

   ….

      ….

ἔρως

ἔρως!

….

   ….

      ….

ἔρως?

ἔρως…

ἔρως!

[[ἔρως]]_

ἔρως…

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>._

 

 


 

Dorn pulled back ever so slowly when he realized that something was wrong with Perturabo, soon coming to see how much his direct statements seem to level his Brother.

This time, he set his hand back on Perturabo's cheek while the nub of his wrist was on the other side of his face. He couldn't cradle it like he wanted to but it was the best he could do given the circumstances.

"…Per… turabo…?"

 


 

Perturabo remained unresponsive.

 

+--------------------+

Endless fields of green unfolded over an immense, black horizon that never seemed to fully form in a vast expanse that was reminiscent of something corporeal in shape, but was entirely synthetic. As the blurred lines came into view, the wireframe landscape revealed itself not as solid ground but as integers within a matrix grid, numbers in grand orders of magnitude floating in undefined blackness; coalescing and dissipating in cascades of columns and rows as equations were solved and results reduced over and over again; only to be plugged into new, constantly generated formulae that were handled with the same order of operations in the pursuit of quantitative analysis.

Amidst a constant pulsing cacophony of chimes and blips, the Mainframe’s throughput became increasingly quick, the speed of calculations somehow seeming nearly frantic despite possessing no passion, no feeling; nothing beyond the indiscriminate cold hard logic of infallible, sacred mathematics.

But could the equation of Love ever be solved through soulless algorithms and numbers, even when posed by the universe's greatest intellect and loaded into the universe's most advanced Probability Engine?

+--------------------+

 

The interface burst apart in a shower of sparks and a wave of vibrating, nearly gelatin static, Perturabo taking in wheezing, hard breaths as he slumped forward, leaning against Dorn. His temperature had risen substantially, the circuitry that was etched into his broad, sturdy musculature warming up from the strain of using so much additional processing power, conductor strips and traces shimmering from the heat.

He struggled and strained, trying to succeed in an impossible Sisyphean task and failing over and over again, ardently wishing he had the advantage of interfacing with his homeworld system but deep down he already knew that it wouldn’t have helped matters. He'd been running this same data for thousands of years in quadrillions of concurrent datastreams. This was nothing more than the pathetic wailing of a desperate man on his knees, begging for hope the moment it appeared when there had been none, and yet raged against it because there was no way that the answer to the equation he had been working so hard to solve all this time — could simply be handed to him. And none of his simulations had ever predicted this. Not one.

But the moment he let go of his futile attempts to brute force a solution, something far more illogical; something vital took over instead…

Something all too human.

 

+--------------------+

Darkness spread out all around, but it was not the miasmic spires of a cyberdaemonic fortress, nor the viral corrupted cyberscape of Mainframe computations. It was corporeal, and familiar.

“—A wholly utilitarian solution. Functional, if ultimately disappointing. But it will… suffice.” A deep, vox-tainted voice, seemingly disembodied and coming from nowhere — crested through the low light as the scene solidified.

What formed in the moment depicted in that space, was the face of a man, viewed from above; divinely handsome and impossibly brilliant — framed by snow-white hair and with boundlessly wise eyes that were so kind and exceedingly, brutally honest that it was truly terrifying to stare into them; a feeling that soaked the vision through with a sense of misery and inferiority —  a sense of something achingly small and entirely lacking in comparison to what it was viewing despite its higher vantage point; gazing down in admiration at the artistry of the finest, most perfect being in all creation. 

And with a sense of guilt and the weight of regret so immense that it was nearly impossible to bear. Like a man attempting to balance an entire world upon his shoulders.

"…What then, is your disappointing solution?"

There was a flicker, a fading out of voices, out of sync, out of time. Dreamlike. Then, the voices became clearer once again, and it was the one that seemed to have no origin that spoke next.

That is the alternative practical solution I devised, not the optimal ideal.

"And what is the optimal ideal?"

A sound started rising in the background, like the imposing pounding of a chorus of war drums, like the loop crashing of a computer unable to complete a programmed task — like heartbeats under the strain of too much adrenaline, overcome with fear.

 

With panic.

+--------------------+

 

And yet Perturabo was now as still and lifeless as the crossed weapons leaning against the wall of the ship. No movement, no pulse, no breath — a device that had been switched off.

 

 

KEYWORD LOGGED_

PROCESSING: OPTIMAL IDEAL

[[—καλός κἀγαθός—]]

—καλός κἀγαθός—

—καλός κἀγαθός—

—καλός κἀγαθός—

—καλός κἀγαθός—

—καλός κἀγαθός—

ἔρως… ἔρως…

ἔρως``` _ _ _ _

ἔρως

ἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρως

καλός κἀγαθός!

>._

 

 


 

It took everything in Dorn’s power to not recoil as his mind was blasted with far more information than he could have possibly been able to comprehend as a man that did not run concurrent with machine or have any of those necessary components to parse or sort anything regarding what he was ‘seeing’.

His eyes were shut tightly and as much as Perturabo was leaning into him and relying on his hold and his strength, Dorn was holding onto his Brother with much the same need to keep grounded somehow. He could see Perturabo was struggling immensely and the longer it went on, the more concerned he got, even while he was dealing with the ringing in his mind like vox feedback.

And where on vision ended, another took its place immediately and he was drenched in the fear of Perturabo's own psyche and the conversation had only a short while ago. Once more…feedback.

Words, lettering… Letters and words.

And then the sound.

Over and over and OVER.

Dorn was disoriented but he tried to push through, clinging onto one word that he could see, and hear and feel into his very being, in his existence. He only hoped he could repeat it correctly.

And damn if he didn’t try.

“ἔρως.”

ἔρως.

Then he screamed it.

"ἔρως!"

 


 

Perturabo seized, body jolting upright for a moment before collapsing again, and he croaked a heaving, pained breath, gasping like a man returning from the brink of death, shocked back to life. His strontium eyes glowed with a nearly violet light as the red that had illuminated his irises in these last long seconds began to fade out; and he stared at Dorn with a confused, genuinely confused glean resonating within them as he tried to pull himself back from the frightening system crash that had far more to do with the parts of him that were not synthetic than he would have ever wanted to admit.

His expression was disoriented and neurotic, and he reached out quickly to grab Dorn’s shoulders as if he might fall somehow without that strength to brace him.

“ἔρως…?” Perturabo repeated back to Dorn, distressed and pained; that word clearly spoken in questioning disbelief — but in a voice so fragile it sounded as though he might shatter outright if the wrong reply was given, as if his very life was dependent on it.

 


 

Dorn stared back, ears still ringing with that buzzing from the cacophony of noise, both hands going back to cradling the sides of Perturabo's face, seeing that shift and change.

"ἔρως" He repeated, carefully and could only hope that this was the right thing to say, despite not knowing what it meant.

 


 

"That… that… is." Perturabo rasped, as though he'd been running so long he'd become out of breath; and fluid welled up in his eyes immediately at the repetition of that singular word that was both his lifeline and the one single thing capable of changing his entire course.

And the direction of everything that would ever come after. But doubt shone through his vulnerable expression; and a pervasive, deep rooted sorrow.

"The… m, my…" Perturabo stammered, then rolled his eyes closed as if that might help him in his stalling attempts to get the words out. Words that he could never speak despite trying again and again…

"My optimal ideal…" He led in, voice as somber as the grave, grief stricken and tiny. "That you wanted to know—" Another pause, another little glitch in his system.

 


 

Dorn's hearts stuttered at just how… small Perturabo seemed in this moment, watching those tears well up simply made his body clench.

"Lets… see it to reality then, shall we?" Dorn spoke again, his tone still soft, still kind, as if he was speaking with someone that would shatter if he raised his voice.

He feared Perturabo actually could.

 


 

Perturabo slumped even further foreword, pressing himself against Dorn's chest and throwing his arms around him as he sobbed, every part of his body shaking and clinging to him with a dire, impassioned need.

"Could you ever, truly…" He barked out each word as if the very syllables threatened to split his body in two.

"Really love me?"

 


 

Dorn went back to holding Perturabo in turn, hugging him tightly, not letting go.

"I could, I would, I will, I can, I do."

Chapter 12: Kindred

Summary:

Perturabo and Dorn are far more compatible—and much more alike—than Perturabo realizes.

Chapter Text


 

"That's all I ever wanted, all I ever…" Perturabo wailed, the grief and misery and regret he'd kept boxed away for so long finally breaking free with that confession. "I… I…"

Suddenly, everything came to a total standstill, as if it had taken a moment for what had been said to properly register. Tension was held in his body as long couple of seconds passed, quiet sobs pushed into Dorn's chest for another interval before he could manage to speak again.

"Oh." Perturabo whispered painfully in a broken rasp.

"καλός κἀγαθός."

"My Golden Sun."

 


 

A stuttering breath came from Dorn, from the sheer agony he felt coming from Perturabo in waves. He knew, very keenly that someone… anyone else would have used this as ammunition against Perturabo.

To break him even further.

But Dorn would never do such a thing to him.

So as Perturabo whispered out those words, Dorn dropped his hand to run it underneath Perturabo's chin, in order to tilt his head in the right way to be able to look at him.

"Yours…"

 


 

Perturabo's brow furrowed as he felt his head lifted; and his eyes slowly fluttered open, tears streaking down his face. If he had ever looked haggard and weary, broken or vulnerable today, in any capacity, current augmentation included—it truly paled in comparison to this. Not a design, not a machine but a Primarch — with all the burdens and untold, unspoken suffering that went with it. One who's entire, too-long life had been distilled into this very moment. Not as a demigod, or a king, not warrior, or as a tool; but as a lonely, misunderstood and emotional creature that was forced to endure alone without a single basic human need ever being met.

Including, what was for Perturabo, the most important, essential thing that had always been denied him. The despondent acceptance of that fate of eternal loneliness, that rejection — being what had caused him to aspire to remake himself to begin with. So that he would no longer desire it any longer, or anything else.

"Even after everything I've done to you? Even after today?" Perturabo pressed on, not relenting, those mournful blue eyes gazing into the light of the morning sun with scrutiny and suspicion; but there was a tiny glimmer of hope that had never been there before.

 


 

Dorn ran his thumb along the side of Perturabo’s face, discreetly wiping away a stray tear here or there to the best of his ability while he continued to gaze deeply into those pale eyes.

His Brother, his actual Brother beneath all the mechanics and machinery.

“Yours, even then. Yours…” Yet when the emphasis was made on today, Dorn couldn’t help but let out a soft chuckle, breathy and barely there before he quietly admitted quite a damning thing to Perturabo a second later, shifting his gaze away… but he couldn’t lie. “As for today… I enjoyed every moment of it… when it was you, with you.”

He didn’t want Perturabo to associate himself with his… dissociation that brought them into the ship in the first place, or to think that was his doing.

 


 

Perturabo gave a fleeting, weak smile at that confirmation, his hearts too tender and guarded to believe outright; too reinforced by negativity and much too sensitive to endure any more disappointment. But instead of lashing out or arguing the matter, he retained a level of skepticism while keeping that precious declaration close to his chest.

But what was this? His thick brows came together in a perplexed yet immediately fascinated expression, and he let out a quiet breath.

“Is… that so?” He asked; but he’d registered in realtime, every measure of Dorn’s pleasingly unstable, frantic vital signs, heard every unsteady note in his voice and most of all, smelled that unbearably primal, chokingly cloying musk that Dorn had been emanating all day.

A scent that still wafted off him now. And would forever make Perturabo want to devour and ravage him.

And as unbelievable as it might have been, the need to question that statement’s credibility wasn’t for reasons anyone else but a Primarch would understand. The concerns Perturabo held were for their depressing, wretched past and all the bad blood that had flowed between them; grudges, betrayals, rivalry. The violent, testosterone laden aggression and sexually charged brutality of combat didn't even cross his mind, as it came completely naturally to ones such as them. Even to the one that worked so hard to separate himself from those origins…

The way Perturabo had mishandled the entire thing really did give him pause. But to know that Dorn had enjoyed all the excessive, extreme and nearly fatal sexual battles as well, even while on the losing end — astounded him despite knowing that innate drive all too well; and how to a Primarch the very act of fighting itself could be gratifying. Regardless of the remorse Perturabo had been burdened by up until now, the confirmation of that fact made him throb intensely beneath his loincloth, as iron from the mere knowledge of such forbidden information.

“So I… really wasn’t imagining any of it.” He mused, his deep voice taking on a judgmental tone. His stare became suspicious a second later.

"Or that you'd taken an interest in my… cables?"

 


 

He could tell that Perturabo was still having a bit of trouble really processing what he had said, likely either not believing part of it, or already working over an idea in his mind as to how some things could be possible. That was fine though, Dorn was ridiculously patient, through and through.

His hand fell from Perturabo’s face, settling that arm back to rest across to his legs as he kept his gaze off center for a moment. “No, you were not imagining any of it.” He looked back then, watching Perturabo closely as his mouth went slightly ajar again.

Tasting the air, even subconsciously perhaps.

“I… did take interest, yes.” Dorn admitted to that too and now he felt as if his entire body was back to being red-hot. The softer moments between them were slowly fading away the more that Perturabo prodded him.

 


 

Perturabo smirked, immediately going on the offensive the instant that Dorn shrank away — and after everything that had happened now, he used what would have once been a weakness as a mark of clear aggression.

He leaned in close, jerking forward until their faces almost touched. Then, with a dramatic and deliberate telegraphing, his gaze darted to the side, looking past Dorn before making pointed eye contact that was vastly more intense than before.

“Did you ever suspect that those have sensation, at least when they are connected to me?”

 


 

It wasn't as if Dorn could escape, given that he was still mostly against the wall that was directly behind him. His gaze shifted from that direct eye contact to, instead, look past Perturabo's shoulder to a section of cables behind and across from him.

Could those feel?

"Given that, in the visions that I did receive from you—I am fairly certain you were… fucking me with them—I do not doubt the possibility of that being the case."

Dorn spoke bluntly and almost too honestly, trying to sound far more neutral and unaffected than he had been before, but it was a ruse.

 


 

"—In… deed," Perturabo confirmed, bluffing as well — trying his damnedest to move on and hide the outright shock such a blunt and bold statement caused, steeling his expression, though the surprise that had registered on his face in the interim was likely acknowledged.

Still, he pushed that out of his mind and didn’t back down; didn’t let Dorn win — did not neglect in what he’d been intending to say which was not that.

“But that’s not what I was referring to. We can discuss that later. I meant the ones right here, all around you. Specifically the one you seemed so keen to make friends with.”

 


 

Right…

Dorn felt his face heat up. Was he actually embarrassed for once? It seemed so, as he slowly looked back up to Perturabo's face.

"That hadn't crossed my mind…" Mostly because he had been out of it at the time, "but now that you mention it…" He flicks his gaze back to that cable.

And then down Perturabo's body and then back to the cable. "I was curious… and wanted to feel them."

 


 

Perturabo leaned in, close to salivating again; icy blue eyes that were so filled with sorrow not so long ago now alight with fascination. He raised his hands and pressed against that cold chrome wall behind Dorn, trapping Dorn's head between his arms and moved in even closer… no more than a hair's breadth separating them now.

"Has your curiosity been sated or did you want to continue to feel them in the future? I confess, it was quite gratifying." Perturabo said smugly in a tone that was a clearly delivered threat as he leered at Dorn as if he were edible.

 


 

These past few hours had been an absolute whirlwind of emotions. It was a wonder that his hearts hadn't burst with how rapid they beat in conjunction with heat that clawed at every bit of his body.

"I do wish to feel them in the future, Perturabo…"

Dorn made a mental note.

 


 

"Good. Very good." Perturabo growled, his vox-voice vibrating in his throat as he sat back slightly and shot an unsavory grin at Dorn, looking every bit the predator he most certainly was.

There was an odd tension rising in the air now, cutting though all the grief and all the unbearable pain that certainly wasn't resolved; too many issues to count still left like tattered wires, hanging loosely where they separated. But he could sense how soothing this change in tone was, appreciate how sorely it was needed — and knew Dorn needed it too, as outrageous as that truly was.

But there was one set of problems left that needed to be solved first, before he could fully disconnect. A sense of impending doom still permeated the air even if it had been deliberately stayed, at least briefly.

"Are you… all right, now?"

 


 

After Perturabo pulled back with his more overbearing attitude — as if he smelled blood in the water, Dorn let out a quiet sigh, then another at the question posed, and considered that.

It actually made him smile a moment later at the concern, now that he could focus on it.

"Much better. Thank you."

 


 

Any relief that knowledge genuinely provided was hidden beneath the veil of a bristly, standoffish glare that sprang from being thanked. But he had the information he needed all the same.

He struck without delay, crashing his face against Dorn's again with all the graceless impatience of the first time they'd kissed, but there was no filter of hate layered over it now, nor any pretense at all.

That likely didn't make things much better though, truly; as the the raw carnality that had been the genuine source all long was still there, and undisguised.

Perturabo's hands dipped down to slip around Dorn's waist, fingers digging into his hips in a way that was both suggestive and possessive.

 


 

Dorn had to genuinely fight back the urge to let out a quiet scoff upon being glared at by Perturabo for daring to give him thanks after actually checking on him. Dorn knew there was more to his reasoning, surely, those likely not a set of words his Brother was used to hearing, but it still made him feel a flicker of amusement all the same.

However, when he opened his mouth to speak, he suddenly found moist, heated lips upon his own. This was different, Dorn could tell. The impatience and the impulsiveness still lingered, yet there was something far more purer than before. It felt… right.

His gaze softened as that yearning swirled amidst basic, instinctual lust.

And so as Perturabo held onto his waist with clearly telegraphed desire and possessiveness, his arms had settled down more squarely upon Perturabo’s back. Their bodies were drawn close to each other again, just like before, but before Perturabo had known what Dorn wanted.

 


 

A deep, lascivious groan built in the back of Perturabo’s throat as he jerked his head back when their lower bodies made contact again, the pressure immediately electrifying as they were both so undeniably hard, something confessed without words beneath the thin layers of filthy, stained fabric that did nothing to disguise such depravity.

“You belong to me, Rogal Dorn. You’re mine, do you understand me?” Perturabo groaned out emphatically, voice unsteady and shaking with emotion as he raised one hand and placed it firmly against the side of Dorn’s neck; and he leaned in, angling his head down as he took in a long, deep breath.

“That has not changed.”

 


 

Another heated breath was exhaled from Dorn lips, feeling his Brother there as nothing truly separated them in any meaningful way. Those pieces of cloth might as well not have been there.

Though the cloth concealing Dorn felt suspiciously damp mere seconds after Perturabo’s claim over him.

Dorn leaned into the hand that was against the side of his neck, chest rising and falling through panting breaths. A low, rumbling groan came from him as he responded in equal measure.

“I understand you… Perturabo…"


 

“You'd better.”

Perturabo rotated his chin and moved in closer still, lips moving to capture the edge of hair running along Dorn's’ jaw; and he chomped his teeth into that thick white fluff, gnashing and nibbling aggressively.

Just like everywhere else on Dorn’s body, that hair growth was tauntingly, impossible soft, more reminiscent of velvet—of fur—than hair. And beyond the taint and tinge of blood, it smelled and tasted and felt so good — something illusive but instinctively sumptuous and inviting to Perturabo. So much so that he could not resist burying his face there and licking vulgarly, following that line from the chiseled edge of Dorn’s strong jawline and upwards, only to repeat the same motions over and over again like a crass, uncivilized beast.

 


 

"Do you doubt my answer?" Dorn questioned, an almost challenging tone laced his words as he watched Perturabo out of the corner of his eyes.

Another grunt escaped as he was nibbled, yet the action felt good all the same, as if he was being cleaned, especially as Perturabo added tongue to the mix.

Dorn tilted his head back a few moments later, exposing the fluff that trailed under his jawline as much as he was now revealing his neck to Perturabo.

 


 

“I am giving you fair warning, Dorn,” Perturabo growled and grunted darkly between the continuous licking he subjected his Brother to; as if grooming him. But just like before, while such activities could have been seen in a wholesome light otherwise, there was a dire undercurrent that spoiled that connotation and never left — though there was far less bloodshed involved this time.

But the possessiveness never let up. And a sense that this was not the affections of familial bonds but the whims of a predator savoring its prey before the feast.

And as soon as Dorn revealed his neck, Perturabo pressed his palm harder against that flesh, feeling the slick of newly appearing sweat and the rapid, virile thrum of Primarch hearts pounding with excitement.

Perturabo pressed his upper body in closer, the residual warmth of overheating conductor leads grazing Dorn’s chest as he slid that imposing hand away, but only so that he could add Dorn’s neck to the territory he nipped at and tasted, all the while his fingers tightened around the hipbone he still gripped with his other hand.

“Because I will enforce my rules, if need be.”

 


 

"Do you fear that another one of our Brothers would take me away, Perturabo?" Dorn questioned, eyes rolling shut as he swallowed audibly when Perturabo started to nip along his neck in a relatively vulnerable area.

The more those fingers dug into his hip, the more he pressed against Perturabo until a brief notion of frustration got to him that had him pulling his hand from around Perturabo in favor of loosening up the himation around him.

Anything to alleviate this heat.

"I doubt you have to worry about any of that, nor do I intend to… stray in that regard."

 


 

“I would not hesitate to kill all of them if they tried.” Perturabo hissed through his teeth, the enmity that radiated off him so intense that it filled in the closed off space, nearly crackling in the atmosphere.

“And I would punish you most severely if you encouraged anything,” He continued with his malicious threats that were by no means empty, and stretched out one leg so that his foot reached the array behind him — manipulating the cables resting there so that they made distinct, clearly identifiable rustling noises as they slid against each other. A wordless refresher that Dorn could hear even if he could not see the origin point.

“It is not a matter of trust but of law.” Perturabo stated hotly, then bit down roughly into the supple flesh of Dorn’s neck — a deliberately more painful application of his teeth to make sure his authority was understood.

 


 

Dorn sucked in another sharp breath, expanding his lungs fully, acting if that somehow offered a bit of a distraction to the more excitable pheromones that were wafting off of him. Luckily for Perturabo, he had no intention of following through with even entertaining that notion.

He was Perturabo’s alone.

Still, the threat, just on the basis of being a threat made him shiver, on;y for a nano-second but they were all tells, including when he heard those cables that shifted around behind him, making a rather distinctive kind of noise that couldn’t be found anywhere else.

“Yes… Brother…” He hissed out that extended breath he took, feeling the bite upon his throat and reveling in that pressure and start of pain.

A moment of contemplation crossed his thoughts before he spoke up again, testing the waters with a healthy measure of curiosity, his voice barely above a whisper but not able to be misconstrued.

Master.”

 


 

The pulses beneath his teeth quickened, and Perturabo was also keenly aware of the seductive, maddening scent that wafted from Dorn’s moistening skin in tandem, the unmistakable signature of sexual excitement; now further increasing from the critically dangerous game that he was fully aware that his Brother was deliberately playing.

It was deadly serious all the same, something they both knew; and yet there wasn’t any chance in all the galaxy that Perturabo would neglect to pick up on all the tells and seductively laid traps Dorn placed before him — and he did not need the faintly glowing readouts that rested just outside the corners of his vision to assist in that.

How maddeningly delicious it was…

And then Dorn escalated and pushed it all into new heights…

 

 

INITIALIZING PLAYBACK_

 

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Voices manifested in the in the vastness of nothing, echoing and disconnected in the void, each syllable dramatic and spoken with zeal; as oaths being sworn. The speakers were reverberating and loud, a highly emphasized moment; a vital memory for the entity that so fervently focused on it and proclaimed its glory loudly into the air.

“Your Breaker; your Master. You’ve always, always been mine.”

“Mine… Yours…”

+--------------------+

 

Those teeth dug in enough to break the skin; then released. And Perturabo threw his head back and erupted into deep, iron-laden laughter, mouth stained red.

“Dorn. δοῦλος.”

His expression was vain, self-satisfied and smug.

“It suits you.”

 


 

Bright crimson blood spilled from that bite to his neck. It was really only superficial, yet it had been enough to allow several rivulets to trail from down his neck and to his chest, now exposed, staining the thicker hair on Dorn’s chest a new shade of light red.

By the time that Perturabo had pulled back enough to laugh, Dorn grabbed his Brother’s bicep, digging his nails in, tension wrought through his entire body until it grew slack once more and Dorn found himself panting as he fixated lust-laden eyes upon his Brother.

How many times was that himation going to be defiled?

Blinking a few times, trying to shake himself free from that moment of euphoria that Perturabo had inadvertently provided, his lips parted as he tried to sound out the word uttered to him. Through context clues alone, he figured out what that derogatory statement must have actually meant.

"Does it…?"

 


 

Perturabo’s nearly feral gaze dipped down to take in the oxygen rich, nearly glowing hot stains of neon red that slowly spread over the snow white hair lining Dorn’s chest like drops of the finest paint. He trailed his fingers down the small wounds on Dorn’s neck, smearing the thin lines with fascination as they slicked beneath his fingertips and tinted the superfine underfur with a glimmering sheen until at last he made it to the thick patch where it pooled.

He ran his fingers through the soft fluff, transferring color, fixated. But as he breathed in, another smell added to the mix.

More of his Brother’s thick, cloying musk, more salt, more sex.

His jaw hung open like an animal’s as he took in all the sensory information through his mouth and nose in deep, loud gasps, eyes glistening with misplaced unsavory joy.

“It does.” Perturabo stated in a husky, graveled voice. “Maybe one day I’ll teach you more about the philosophies of Olympia. You may find they apply more to you than you might think, Unyielding One.” He said with a smirk, and while there may have been some wisdom to be found in the culture of his origin world, there was a diabolical, twisted undercurrent in whatever he was referring to now — and he made no attempts to disguise it.

 


 

As Perturabo transferred that blood, Dorn had pressed hard against that hand, staring at him hotly the second that his Brother pulled his attention away long enough from gazing at the bloodied wound that he had created, that his Primarch physiology was already starting to heal over.

“I would be quite interested in learning, Brother.” Dorn responded in kind, seemingly not concerned at all for the particularly darker tone that that statement had taken. He also was trying to pointedly ignore Perturabo sniffing him out, much in the same manner that he, himself, had done so time and time again.

He fell silent a moment later, after having said more things in these short few…hours? It had been hours hadn’t it? How his life had changed in such a short time, in comparison to the thousands of years of isolation.

With that silence came Dorn studying his Brother, recalling the most recent memory in his mind, thoughts that were helpfully supplied by Perturabo through a vision. It seemed like he was gauging exactly what would happen next.

Though, every single vital sign was clearly displaying that he wanted more.

Just… more… in all ways.

 


 

Perturabo glowered, looking put off yet he did not back away; and he allowed those long seconds of silence to settle before finally speaking. He could all but see the gears turning in Dorn’s mind, knowing he was most certainly contemplating something rather deeply. And that he was in much better shape mentally than he had been when whatever that episode had been, had overwhelmed him.

Beyond the immediate, Perturabo hoped that would not be a recurring problem, or he might have to intervene in some way. He deeply loathed seeing Dorn rendered to such a completely disconnected, powerless state as he firmly believed that he was the only one that should be tasked with bringing him to such an incredibly dangerous low.

And if he were honest, that had as much to do with protecting Dorn as it did with hurting him. That strange fugue had been spontaneous, unintentional, uncontrolled; with no restrictions on the variables such as time, place and severity. Unpredictable, unregulated.

What if Perturabo had not been there to take care of him this time? What if he wasn’t there the next time?

Unacceptable.

“Well if you’re finally receptive, there’s much you could learn from your older Brother.” Perturabo stated indignantly, returning to the more appealing situation at hand, but he’d not neglect these responsibilities.

All serving as more confirmation that Dorn shouldn’t be allowed out of his sight.

Perturabo dragged his hand down, combing through that patch of chest hair and lower, large fingertips cutting a path straight down the center until he reached that soft, white underbelly. More—so much more—than a simple turn of phrase in Dorn’s case. Perturabo stroked and smoothed the skin over, feeling those rock-hard, impressively dense blocks of sectioned muscles; each and every inch coated in a satin sheen that was so silky and tender it felt criminal, as if Dorn were truly built for sensuality and sexual gratification.

In Perturabo’s mind, he was.

He tilted his wrist and continued to lavish attention there, rubbing the back of his hand against those same patches of skin with no lack of care or interest.

 


 

It took only a couple of seconds until interest shone in Dorn’s gleaming hazel gaze, much akin to the expression he had anytime he reached out to touch Perturabo’s components along his body or… the cables that could be connected to him.

Now he had a vested curiosity to see what it was that Perturabo planned next.

“Perhaps at your earliest convenience then, you could teach me.” Dorn spoke, tone slow and even, yet there had been a hitch in his intonation for a split second, as Perturabo dragged his hand down his chest in such a surprisingly gentle touch.

Even his breath stilled.

To be granted this touch, so thorough and exact made him tremble under Perturabo’s ministrations and a forced sigh, laced with contentment, left his lips, soon diverting to a low, barely audible moan.

Dorn soon slumped a bit more against the wall at his back, eyes fluttering shut as he broke whatever eye contact he had been making. Even his right hand that had been gripping into Perturabo’s bicep had loosened entirely in favor of having it rest upon his thighs.

“Mmmngh……”

 


 

Perturabo smiled; but it was a partial, sarcastic and ill-humored expression that could hardly be categorized as such. That, and a dull metallic grunt was all Dorn got for his efforts to be agreeable.

But then, Perturabo’s eyes rolled up and he took in the change in Dorn’s demeanor and positioning with hyperfocused attention, his strontium gaze intense and judging as he observed how the coldest of men had all but melted from his touch — from ice, unto water.

He looked down again at length, and the smile that appeared the second time was far more real, yet not to any benefit as it was wholly unsavory and self-gratifying.

Weakness; detected.

With no small level of excitement, Perturabo reached out with both hands, shaking with barely restrained energy as he worked to unwrap Dorn from the filthy confines of his own thoroughly debased himation, the layers he pushed aside so caked with soil and sand, so saturated with blood and semen that soggy slapping sounds mirrored his actions as that soaked cloth hit metal flooring.

Perturabo paid these unsanctimonious details no mind as what he’d revealed was infinitely more interesting.

He stared down at the disgusting, filthy, debauched painting that was Dorn’s midsection, smooth skin and silken fur splattered and dampened with that same blood and semen, mixed into shifting proportions and dyeing his body in vibrant swirls of red, in every shade and gradient in the spectrum from the palest pink of barely bloodied milk to deep brown flecks of dried iron, deoxygenated.

And it all framed the center, the focal point of this masterpiece, an abundant and vulgar display of hot, engorged flesh that still begged to be indulged.

"You belong in a museum." Perturabo said bluntly; unprompted — as if that were the most obvious, straightforward assessment that could be made.

He resumed his former strokes of exploration as he rubbed that tender, vulnerable belly that he so truly wanted to bite into, dragging both hands all around those areas in united symmetry; slowly, deliberately.

But he made it a point to never actually touch that ample, conspicuous cock though he got teasingly close so many times, yet not giving Dorn that level of satisfaction.

Weakness; exploited.

 


 

How the mighty seemed to have fallen.

Dorn was increasingly becoming lulled into a state of pure and utter relaxation the longer that Perturabo kept his active attention up and over and along his fur-lined belly. Even though his blood ran hot through his entire body and his loins ached with need, he seemed rendered almost powerless by such a simple gesture.

One that no one had ever made, even in the rare instances someone had been given the access to do so.

It was a new feeling and wholly welcomed.

It didn’t matter to him that this was ammunition for his Brother to weaponize.

When the sound of that wet plap hit the ground from that defiled linen, it did not seem to draw Dorn from his reverie. There was, however, the slightest quirk of a satisfied smile at Perturabo’s words. And though Perturabo got so teasingly close to his cock, he wasn’t so insistent on that being paid attention to as he was enjoying what was happening now.

His eyes remained closed and the rest of his body remained slack and malleable for Perturabo.

 


 

A deep—and deeply satisfied—grunt left Perturabo’s lips as he watched Dorn become more and more immersed into a state of satisfied calm, lulled into a headspace that made him incredibly pliant, perhaps even docile.

He had never envisioned Dorn like this, nor had Perturabo ever thought that things could be this way; that he could be this way — but the soft, almost quiescent mood that had settled in during this unexpected moment was not at all disagreeable to him.

It was still dark; as tense his troubled heart. What was missing was the adrenaline, the promethium, the violence. And what was added was the impossible words that had fallen from those poisoned lips, seeping into Perturabo’s circuits even as he tried to disconnect from it.

 

+--------------------+

Within a lightless landscape came a voice through the matrix, deep and sultry, sensual and seductive, like temptation manifest. Ethereal, dreamlike.

'Let me…'

'Explore this new chapter with you…'

'Brother. Let me be with you…'

'My Brother. Let me love you…'

'Perturabo…'

And with it came a sense of infinite longing that spread out through the divide, and fear, so much fear; so achingly human, but corrupted by a machine spirit breaking beneath constant attempts to solve an unsolvable equation, combined in biomechanical confusion and a pervasive inability to trust the data.

To understand.

To compute.

+--------------------+

 

[[Love. L-o-v-ς. L-o-ω-ς. L-ρ-ω-ς. ἔ-ρ-ω-ς. ]]

ἔρως_

ἔρως. ἔρως.

….

   ….

      ….

>._

[x]

>.

>._

[error]

ἔρως,

ἔρως,

ἔρως!

>._ _ _

ἔρως_

….

   ….

      ….

>._

 

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Drifting, distant, a hazy dream on an unclear horizon, looking out over a dreary, undefined approximation of a stormy sky — an entity neither real nor synthetic, lost, adrift; desperate.

These fleeting images and echoing words all came in a much slower pace, a quieter form; almost meditative, like a daydream. But the feelings that powered them were no less intense.

Maybe more so… for the lack of noise that once shielded the hearts of the one that created them was now bared, pure in its devices even when the results were not salvageable and corrupted.

+--------------------+

 

Perturabo leaned in, moving back on his knees as he lowered his head and brought the side of his face to rest against Dorn’s stomach; and he nuzzled there, the Black Carapace extension that framed his jawline and natural skin alike pressed into flesh and fur; blood and semen. He exhaled, moist breath glancing over that canvas, and he reached out with both hands to place them on Dorn’s chest just above himself as he breathed in.

The smells and the warmth, the sound of life inside Dorn’s body below him — he took a moment to be, to experience it; and knew that by some miracle if he’d been willing to leave this place alone once, that was no longer the case now. There would be no return, no rematch. No issues delayed for some far off reunion.

The Tyrant was the one truly enthralled. As he’d always been.

 


 

Dorn felt like he had nearly fallen asleep with how calm he had become. No longer was there some sort of fight for his life or to the death, nor even the sensation of simply wanting to give up as he'd felt for so long and had nearly given into time and time again. All was simply still, even as Perturabo moved around and shifted into a new position.

And then those visions came.

Though, perhaps visions were not quite the term for them anymore, they were memories of things that had occurred mere minutes ago. Words uttered that he had said and of which — words he had wholly meant, no matter how much he still felt the turmoil and darkness in Perturabo’s hearts.

It would take time, this Dorn understood.

While his eyes remained closed, Dorn lifted his hand and set it on top of Perturabo’s head, idly trailing one cable after another between his fingers, movements slow and languid all the while. One cable then another, as if he was carding his fingers along individual strands of hair and giving each one attention.

Even if his hearts pumped quickly, Dorn kept an evenness to his breath and made no sudden movements in the quiet.

 


 

Perturabo sighed deeply, pressing the air out of his lungs in a way that was due to relaxation rather than exhaustion; a feeling he was not familiar with. For despite all the eons he’d passed in periods of stillness during the millennia since his Ascension, being one with the Mainframe was not peaceful — it was neutral; a state of deliberate depersonalization that was oddly comforting to him as the construct he had become, but entirely inhuman.

Detachment.

And the times when he did rise from his mechanized Throne, it was with purpose, none of which were ever good for anyone but he. Goal oriented action to establish and deepen his dominion, upon completion of which he returned to the cold comfort of the abject emotional vacuousness offered by the cybervoid. Existing within endless data streams — thoughts but no feelings. Or that was what he'd convinced himself to be the case.

To simply slow down and exist in the moment, was but a long forgotten concept — one abandoned alongside the hopes and dreams he’d felt he'd held onto for far too long, in the end.

But this… this tempted him to remember those days…

Another sigh was uttered, but this one was achingly groaned out, eyes open wide as he felt Dorn’s fingers pressed to his head. He remained perfectly still, as if he were rendered unable to move by those gentle strokes and touches placed along the tendrils of the first project that had started his quest to replace his humanity — though he’d not understood that to be his true goal then.

As the seconds passed, eventually Perturabo’s eyes were squeezed shut tightly again, one hand upon Dorn’s breast curled into a fist as he suffered the foreign distress of physical affection. Yet as much as something within him wanted so desperately to reject this moment, he was riveted in place.

Until—unable to endure no longer—a single metallic, banded cable slithered free from the rubberized cords that buried it, and pushed against Dorn’s hand with a demanding will that was in direct conflict of anything that could be called unfeeling or robotic, much more akin to a cat eager to be petted…

 


 

Dorn opened his eyes slowly as Perturabo stilled, feeling the fist along his chest as they stayed like this for a good while. A rare smile graced his lips while he continued his own ministrations.

This was nice, this moment of stillness shared between two Brothers where there wasn’t something calamitous going on that would pull them apart, far apart. Dorn wondered how life might have been, if there had ever been times of peace, without the constant need for fighting and war.

It was a ridiculous notion, as there could never be true calm with the next disaster always over the horizon.

But Dorn could forget it all for a while, being able to focus on Perturabo, currently pressed against him while dealing with such human concepts.

Especially given how mechanized he was in plenty of different ways. Which, as if on cue, he felt one of those cables slither against his hand as if having a mind and will of its own.

Dorn opened his eyes further then, to stare at the curious little tendril. He began to lightly stroke it, even going so far as to scritch it along the underside, as if he was rubbing the chin of some sort of animal.

 


 

The noise Perturabo produced despite all efforts to choke it down was a near sob, tension held tightly within his body as he endeavored not to humiliate himself even further by letting the shivers that threatened to ripple through him, out.

The other hand was now a fist, too; balled up, squeezed shut and relaying a sense of closed off stubbornness but none of what he did now in his faltering attempts to resist were enough to counterbalance what was happening.

That singular cable that had detached itself from the nest of vipers was being basked with attention, and the more that Dorn engaged with it, the more receptive it became — pressing back, seeming to nearly shiver, until eventually it began to interact in a way that was beyond coincidental, undeniably responsive to the external stimuli being given to it. And then, this unexpected situation ended with that cable wrapping itself around Dorn’s hand in a way that was far too affectionate and nonthreatening for Perturabo’s liking.

As if he could somehow pretend that he was not the one doing it.

 


 

There was a moment's pause when Perturabo let out a noise, gaze drifting down to watch him for a few agonizing seconds until he pulled his attention back to the cable that was now wrapping around his hand in such a way.

There was a brief moment of contemplation on Dorn’s part before he brought the ‘wire’ closer to him while ensuring that he didn’t pull too hard or too tightly — simply getting it close enough so that he could lean to it and press an all too gentle kiss upon it.

 


 

Perturabo's eyes flew open; and he gritted his teeth with all his jaw strength behind that bite, in an attempt to keep from making a single sound — though the internal sounds indicating the increasing of his vital signs was likely more than he could have hoped to hide from another Primarch.

Still, he tried and tried to keep himself covert for all the good it did him, his HUD flickering, mind flooded by those same thoughts he'd been enduring when he'd watched Dorn so delicately trace the thick data cable that ran the length of this ship.

Only now it was worse than before and though it wasn't so much data that it almost caused a systemwide shutdown, that meant that he would have to endure it longer; and in a much more sensual context now that it wasn't manifesting in a form that nearly knocked him out.

He could—did—feel every whisper of breath, every glance of skin against rubber and metal, forced to endure that interlude he'd had with that one specific cable and now…

Now…

Why was Dorn kissing it?

Perturabo was vibrating on top of Dorn while trying to pretend he was unaware or unresponsive; but that was one of the largest lies he'd ever tried to maintain.

Especially as he couldn't stop himself, couldn't rein in that line that was intent to snake along Dorn's bottom lip in return.

 


 

Since there was such an effort from his Brother trying to not telegraph his feelings and emotions on the matter, Dorn elected to try and ignore what was going on with him, even when Perturabo began to move in such minute ways that all except Primarchs likely would have overlooked it.

He did settled the stump of his left arm along Perturabo’s back, rubbing the same lazy circles there to the best as he could while his only hand was otherwise occupied.

Dorn carefully freed said hand so he could trail along the length of that tendril until he reached the metal base along Perturabo’s scalp and then back up again. As it traced his lips, he placed another kiss upon the exploring cable.

All the while, Dorn watched Perturabo out of his periphery.

 


 

Perturabo had stopped breathing, air frozen in his chest as he laid there against Dorn’s body, his irrational behavior of pretending he wasn’t there doing more to prove that he wasn’t the detached machine he presented himself as than doing absolutely anything else would have.

But he didn’t know what to do, as the very foundations of his carefully constructed cyber-fantasies were being demolished, Dorn’s actions from the curious to the sensual proving that even his hateful, vile and violating peripherals were interesting to Dorn, openly accepted rather than effigies erected in Perturabo’s symbolism of torment and terror.

Brother. I would willingly walk into those cables…

Perturabo’s ankles and toes cramped as he pressed his feet against the floor, determined to keep himself bolted to the spot as a seductive hand feathered down the entire length of that thick band, while soft, moist lips still worked upon the tip. He gnashed his teeth as his body throbbed, green integers blinking in and out of his vision as there was little more left than pure spite to protect him from the dizzying heights of Dorn all but making out with that sensitive, prehensile cable that shivered and shimmered as if dancing to his command like a charmed snake.

Chapter 13: Tactical Retreat

Summary:

A sorely needed change of location, a much appreciated clearing of the air — though is there any stopping or changing what is fated to come?

Chapter Text


 

It was such a striking thing, to see his Brother try so hard to not give off any tells. These moments reminded Dorn that even if Perturabo had replaced much of himself with a more mechanized base, there was still a humanity there that remained even after all this time.

Even despite falling to Chaos.

Dorn never forgot that notion and it was because of that, his mind wandered to thinking of all the others that had fallen into the darkness. If Perturabo still had remnants of his humanity, regardless of how ruthless he absolutely was, could they also be saved?

Did all of them still have that little bit of who they once were within them, waiting for what could pull them from the brink?

He was struck by that thought process.

Was that why he had that fleeting sensation of hope, after all this time, that reached even him in the far reaches of space?

Were things to change?

Dorn’s hand stilled before it slipped away from that curious cabled tentacle, moving to the side of Perturabo’s face and then under his chin, in which he opted to use to push Perturabo up, lifting him slowly from his position with patient prodding, until they were face to face once more.

As soon as he was able, it wasn’t the cable to receive the third kiss, but Perturabo himself.

 


 

Perturabo tried to resist, stubbornly, petulantly; but Dorn was unrelenting and eventually he gave in, if only to make that insufferable poking and shoving stop.

But as soon as he gave in, he was caught off guard by what awaited him. He shuttered, his massive form quivering atop Dorn as if he were nothing more than a leaf swirling in the wind; but the promethium shining behind his icy blue eyes ignited — a burst of red-orange heat flashing through his gaze as he stared into that damnable hazel sunrise that never failed to leave him captivated.

Then, as soon as their lips met, sparks flew; Perturabo’s resistance breaking down as he reciprocated hungrily, lips and teeth snapping against Dorn’s mouth as he went in with such enthusiasm it was as if they had never kissed before — pining, longing, needing evident with every sloppy, urgent moment in which he sought their connection.

Both hands reached out to brace his weight against the floor; and the cable that Dorn had been manipulating slinked out to rub Dorn’s skin, along his jaw; behind his ear — everywhere that it could reach. Within seconds, an ‘unknown’ second cable suddenly appeared from behind Perturabo's opposing shoulder, mirroring those same actions on the other side.

 


 

The more that Perturabo tried to resist him, the more persistent Dorn became until eventually his Brother gave in to his whims. Those dark hazel eyes gazed deeply against the icy blue for so long he could almost see himself reflected in them. A smile crossed his lips even before he had pressed their mouths together.

And so, as Perturabo launched forwards, pressing hotly against his mouth with pure enthusiasm, Dorn let out a deep, throaty chuckle as he fell in line with that over-eagerness. Every nip and lick, every bite and raze of tongue, Dorn accepted and countered each in kind, reveling in the sensation, the tingling deep within him.

Every motion sent sparks through Dorn’s body, every interaction was electric, his nerves singing from far beyond — more beyond the sheer carnality and lust that he rivaled his Brother in. Never before had Dorn felt this way, felt any inclination towards such blatant displays of a romantic nature, one that he decided to pursue.

How right it felt.

He knew that from the onset, from the first moment in a long time that he could lay eyes on Perturabo in a manner that didn’t have other distractions clouding his vision. Even though he regretted how long it took for him to really see at last, he knew he couldn’t blame himself.

Not fully.

But he truly believed that needed not to be the case anymore. He gazed deeply into Perturabo’s very being, regardless of the loss of a soul or not, and found the most fascinating man alive staring back at him. No matter how much the machines were a part of him now, and no matter how much Chaos flowed through his veins, the very thing that should make all of this taboo, that didn’t matter to Dorn either.

And it wouldn’t again.

He never hated his Brothers.

He never hated Perturabo.

As that secondary cable moved and touched along his jaw, he simply groaned into the heated kiss they shared.

No matter what it was… or what had changed.

He finally saw Perturabo.

And only him.

 


 

Perturabo had never believed in any form of surrender but giving into Dorn’s silent requests didn’t feel like a loss no matter how he tried to frame it that way. That little laugh—somehow not mocking; not scornful—a soft, warm, elated sound; encouraging him, was possibly the prettiest thing he’d ever heard, and his primary heart swelled at the sound. And as he gazed right back into those eyes that always made him feel as if he were suffocating, the distortion of wetness filled his view despite every attempt made to the contrary.

So much emotion; the state Perturabo had always endured, feeling alone, ridiculed for his extremely sensitive ways when compared to his Brothers. It had always seemed a curse. And something he’d tried so very hard to uninstall from himself completely, removing his innate longing to be recognized and appreciated; and replacing it with cold, calculating machinery instead. And for so long, it had been in his vantage, a success — as nothing but the darkness of embittered scorn and the virulent corruption of hatred had been all that remained of him. Something practical, something with a useful application. Something that would drive him forward rather than holding him back.

Or so he had thought.

As Perturabo stared back into those eyes, for perhaps the first time today, he truly experienced what Dorn had tried to upload into his doubting fleshmind more than once — that he was accepted, that he was respected, that he was seen.

He fought and resisted, rejected those attempts again and again but he was slowly being so thoroughly corrupted by the prospect, that he was beginning to consider it.

But it made no logical sense.

What had changed so totally, so fundamentally — that this was possible?

And did it even matter? Was it all too late?

Dragging Dorn's battered body to Medrengard was meant as the final decisive strike against his Brother, proving his superiority once and for all, the highest personal victory he would ever achieve; while also landing a debilitating blow to whatever was left of their Father’s deplorable empire.

But unexpectedly…

Perturabo didn’t want…

Any of that.

All he wanted…

Was right here in front of him.

Not for glory, not for satisfaction, not even for the joy in claiming him as a treasure, though Perturabo surely would no matter how many moments of self-reflection he experienced. But the true motivation all along for every single modicum of it — ran far, far deeper than any of these things.

And with no small amount of regret, of fear, of uncertainty about a future he’d wrought with his own hands, he knew that it had always been that way.

He was no different than the others, it turned out — all falling to their character flaws and personal weaknesses. He thought himself so above it, but he was no better after all. He’d just proven that, had fallen prey to despair… so easily.

“Did you… truly mean what you said, earlier…” Perturabo asked between the nibbles he placed to Dorn’s bottom lip, in a voice that was strained for reasons far beyond the excitement that he no doubt truly felt in this moment.

 


 

Never once did Dorn let up in making sure that Perturabo was touched, be it through their myriad of different kisses that they shared through this moment, again and again, to the fact that Dorn had moved his hand and the stump of his left arm to rest on either side of Perturabo’s hips.

There was strength in the touch there, as he made sure to lightly dig his fingers into Perturabo’s side. It was a sentiment that was quite similar to when Perturabo had done the same, much in a possessive manner.

He was patient then when Perturabo questioned him.

Dorn had said a great many things, all of them truthful. He knew his Brother understood that he never told a lie, but Dorn was ever patient and did not seem to mind reinforcing his words. For as many times as Perturabo needed for him to say it and for him to hear it.

Dorn welcomed the solitude, but he could see that Perturabo suffered for the isolation. No matter how grand he made his home and his world, it seemed to not have done anything to alleviate his Brother’s suffering.

He didn’t want to force a change, knowing damn well that such matters had to come far more naturally. Any other method would only encourage violent and swift retribution and that is not what Dorn wanted — for more than his own sake.

“I do, I do mean every single word that I said to you, Perturabo.”

He whispered against Perturabo's lips before kissing him once more, with fervor.

 


 

Perturabo's eyes were heavy lidded and his blurry as he met every indulgence of that kiss with reciprocation and an enthusiasm to match, crashing his lips into Dorn’s in way that was frantic; nearly panic stricken. He rolled his stare up to meet Dorn’s again as soon as he got the answer he’d needed to hear, yet he still didn’t know how to comprehend the confirmation he’d been granted, a sharpness in his gaze that drilled into hazel, unbroken.

“I…” He whispered deeply, voice heavy and low.

“I…” Another kiss was placed against those lips, teeth grazing flesh. He hooked his arms around Dorn’s back while the tendrils that had been so gently lingering these last couple of minutes had mobilized, running over Dorn’s shoulders in unison and draping down in a way that could quickly and easily turn into something far more threatening than endearing.

“I’ll… I—” Perturabo struggled, voice stalled, speech unprocessed as he couldn’t manage to formulate the words — as if despite their simplicity, had not been included in his coding.

There was another kiss, but that glare in Perturabo’s grew red again; and when he spoke, this time he did not move back, hissing his vehement declaration into Dorn’s mouth.

I’ll kill you if I find out you don’t.

 


 

Dorn exhaled against Perturabo's face as he was grabbed more and more — by both huge hands and those strange living cables.

When he saw that reddish gleam however, he had to pause, thinking on his answer for a few careful moments before answering.

"I would expect no less. If my words ever became a lie, the punishment of such is fitting."

 


 

The low growl building in Perturabo’s throat all but died out as his attempts to speak his mind turned threat were met with nothing but openness and straightforward acceptance, leaving him with an even greater sense of confusion than before. But despite this perplexing answer, Perturabo was pleased by it though he clearly did not expect to hear such.

That sense faded out as quickly as it came, however; replaced by a dark satisfaction as he narrowed his eyes and a devious smile curled his lips which Dorn would no doubt feel against his mouth.

Then, he yanked his head back abruptly, putting inches between them so he could glower down at his truly trapped Brother; and as if to make that situation all the more clear, the cables that danged down Dorn’s back now pressed their metal tips forcefully into his skin in a silent ‘reminder’ that they were there.

“So you have come to your senses and recognize me as your Master, then. Not just in vacant words and empty platitudes meant to appease me, but in deed. In reality. Your reality.”

Perturabo’s glare dipped down suggestively for a long second before that seething expression was focused on Dorn’s face once again.

“The next time I give you an order, I expect you to listen then, rather than defying me. Or there will be punishment.”

 


 

For a brief second, there was a moment of absolute amusement that flickered in Dorn’s eyes, his gaze always revealing more when he decided that he would let it show through. Dorn could see how much his answer made his Brother pause, likely never truly expecting how he would respond.

Dorn understood he was very blunt and straightforward to an alarming fault, but that hadn’t changed through the many millennia he'd been alive — and that certainly wasn’t going to change now.

It wasn’t long until he wore a more neutral expression, however, as he found that grin curl against his lips as if Perturabo thought a bit more carefully about something and came to a realization. It was a clear tell that there was some matter afoot.

When Perturabo pulled back, Dorn was lost staring into his Brother’s eyes, feeling the metal along his back, with those living cables now pressing against his skin. The pressure alone from them forced him to arch forwards, much closer to his Brother than before, his right arm curling around and up to set his hand on the back of Perturabo’s left shoulder.

“None of my words have been vacant or empty…” Dorn’s eyes flashed briefly. “Master.” There was a racing in Dorn’s heart, both primary and secondary feeling like they wanted to burst. It certainly was a new sensation to call his own Brother such a word despite how deliberately dangerous it actually was.

Especially when it came to someone as volatile as Perturabo.

But Dorn was far more curious where it would lead because he damn well understood there was no going back to anything like before, especially after all that he had said and meant.

“And if I disagree with your order?” Dorn’s eyes narrowed at this point, blunted nails digging into what they could. “What if I want punishment?” He lifted himself up further, until their bodies were touching again, until only their faces remained apart by a few mere inches.

 


 

Perturabo’s bionically enhanced eyes shimmered with fascination, a manic glow resonating inside as he took in every detail of Dorn’s responses both internal and external, noting them, notating them, cataloging them — with rapt and unsavory attention paid to the victory he was handed on a Golden Platter.

“Then you will get it.” Perturabo growled his Iron dominance, meeting that gaze head on as he made his stance on the matter clear. His lower half shook and his voice hitched as he spoke, that metallic glint in his eyes sharpening; and the tells that he made were as impossible to disguise as Dorn’s were —an additional statement that was primal and foul, pushed past the edge by simply the suggestion of such a situation. He swallowed several times to mitigate the increased flow in saliva that pooled in his mouth.

One hand was now clamped down on Dorn’s ass like a vice, thick fingers sinking in so hard that it would no doubt bruise, enough force inflicted to easily crush something not as resilient as Dorn's anatomy.

“But it's a dangerous game you play, δοῦλος. The consequences of your provocations, your Defiance won’t simply end when you think you’ve atoned or when you feel you have endured enough. I am the one in control, I am the one that decides when your punishment is adequate.”

The cable that pressed into the right side of Dorn’s back slithered up, slowly all the while as Perturabo spoke, before coiling and twisting around Dorn’s neck. It hung there loosely, harmlessly like a necklace now — but could so easily be fashioned into a noose.

“And once angered, I am not easy to appease.”

 


 

As Dorn felt the cable coil around his neck, he made sure to pull to whatever side enough that he could to have it tighten a bit, all the while still mostly pressed against Perturabo, especially after that bruising grip on his ass.

That glint was back in Dorn’s eyes now, one that had been seen before when Perturabo had made such threats and because of that, it is what prompted Dorn to repeat what he had said back then, even though that had been on the notion of making him submit. Though was that really so different?

“Are you? Will you?”

Dorn jerked his head forwards till their foreheads were touching as he raised up as much as he could despite being trapped.

“Do you promise?”

 


 

That ‘rope’ tightened around Dorn’s neck enough for him to feel those cold bands of blackened metal exerting pressure and restraining him; and in turn Perturabo was given the delightful sensations of blood flow throbbing fiercely against that coil.

Such a gratifying feeling

Perturabo grinned as the tip of that robotic serpent trailed up and into the soft fluff of Dorn’s hair and flicked there as if tasting him; a gesture that was unnerving as any sense of affection that cable may have once held was dispelled as it turned on Dorn at the first opportunity, revealing the same self-serving maliciousness as its master.

As Dorn’s Master.

“Oh, I swear it.” Perturabo hissed his mechanical glee as he continued to stare into Dorn’s eyes; the heat his body emanated clearly discernible as their chests were pressed together; and as he continued to gloat, he dug his fingers deeper into stone-hard muscles.

“As much as proclaim that this is mine.” Perturabo continued, appearing to be in control of his facilities for once, even as this situation escalated time and again — but there was no mistaking the increasing hardness below Dorn’s body as he took up this new position — each twitch and throb like the inevitable tick of a bomb that could not be disarmed.

But was triggering an impulse on such a destructive machine any better than being subjected to its calculative malice? A question that might not have remained unanswered for too much longer, as the expression taking over Perturabo’s features was increasingly wild — hearkening back to hours before when he’d lost his composure entirely and attacked Dorn not as a construct built for war but like a primitive, staving animal.

 


 

Dorn didn’t seem to back down, not from the mechanical tendril that had wrapped around his throat to now this declaration of his intent, all directed and ensured that it was heard. There was no discrepancy, nothing to suggest that Perturabo was making a light threat.

Not that Dorn believed he would have in the first place yet after all of their emotional interludes, he desired to be reassured.

The future would be an interesting one.

Sweat trailed down his face and along his body as the heat rose to a near boiling point, his own nails continuing to dig into that shoulder while he remained just as he was, body contorted to Perturabo’s wants and desires.

Good.”

Dorn spoke that word slowly, almost groaning out that singular statement, his tone back to being deep and husky as he exhaled a breath against Perturabo’s lips but he did nothing further, watching for his Brother’s next move in the game though his body was responding to that savage expression all the while.

Interest… Desire… and more. So much more.

 


 

Beyond the glistening, indignant ice that was locked onto provocative eyes, there was an aura of dark covetousness that went far deeper than simple lust. Perturabo’s desire to own Dorn and all that he was and ever would be was clearly communicated in his obsessive stare — as obvious a warning as the loop that encircled Dorn’s neck.

Window to the soul; but there wasn’t one behind those inhuman eyes. Everything in this moment confirmed there was no way to feasibly deny that he had indeed been the source of the disturbing imagery that had been broadcasted out all this time, those scenes not a prophecy or warning about the inherent danger this situation posed, granted by some benevolent outside force; but the demented fantasies of a degenerate, despotic tyrant, driven insane with need — and that tyrant was Perturabo.

Even if those visions becoming a depiction of reality rather than just a secret fantasy was not his intention — as he so ardently claimed when confronted…

He snarled in response to those nails that kept digging into him as they eventually scratched deep enough to draw blood; flinching — but Perturabo wasn’t put off by this. If anything, Dorn placing marks on his skin amused him.

“Continue to hold onto me for your own sake,” he growled. “Unless you want to dangle by the ligature wrapped around your neck.” From the way Perturabo spoke, he sounded as if he was completely fine with that possibility.

 


 

Dorn opened his mouth, enough, so he could do the one thing he had been doing all this time on a near constant basis. He was tasting the air all that more intimately, picking up on the cocktail of their mixed, primal scents.

"Very well."

He replied slowly, in that same tone of voice. True to his word and from Perturabo's suggestion, the grip on that shoulder grew tighter while his other arm wrapped around and pressed against his Brother's back.

He wasn't put off by the threat.

 


 

Perturabo huffed, wrapping his right arm around Dorn tightly, bracing the opposing side of Dorn that couldn’t grip him as firmly; the side that lacked structural stability — but was that coincidental or deliberate? Dorn’s condition was something Perturabo rarely acknowledged, seemingly downright unaware of at almost all times unless he was forced to contend with it.

But that was the arrangement set now, Perturabo sliding his left hand firmly against the floor as he carefully scooted back, carrying Dorn with him until there was enough clearance to eventually stand. Then, he used that same hand to push himself up and accomplish the task, holding onto Dorn like the prize he was.

Leaving that soiled himation and the cramped, suffocating confines of his filthy ship behind, Perturabo turned and opened the airlock, stepping out into the chill evening air of the tiny, desolate rock as soon as it was possible. The change in atmosphere and temperature was immediately welcomed, and he took long, deep breaths in time with the huge, deliberate strides he made toward the Thunderhawk in the nearby distance.

"This was my original intent from the start." Perturabo explained, smugly. "Though you seem to be in much better spirits than you were in when I deemed this transfer necessary."

 


 

Everything that Dorn had seen, felt and witnessed knew better than to let this continue. Perturabo’s words and actions had been nothing short of alarming, and likely downright terrifying to a normal person. It didn’t get lost on Dorn how much danger he was in, yet he was still walking into this willingly — even if in truth, he really had nothing at his disposal and no way to counter the sheer persistent nature that was Perturabo.

In another truth… what else was there for him?

Those thoughts emerged, that he didn’t want to linger on for too long, so as to not ruin the moment between them right now.

And right now, he felt the most secured than he had ever felt, or at least in a very, very long time. Such a thing might have been seen as foolish but that didn’t bother him, and no one would stop him.

He took in a deep breath as soon as the airlock opened and they were out into the open space. The chill didn’t bother him as his body continued to run extremely hot.

He shifted his gaze back towards Perturabo as he seemed to nestle against him. “I am much better…yes” He admitted before adding.

“Because of you.”

 


 

Perturabo grunted, tension discernible through his body as he braced even while he moved, immediately bristly from the kind words his Brother afforded him.

“Yes,” he concurred at last, sounding as though he’d had no choice but to acknowledge that statement by force. As grumpy as this made him, still held held on to Dorn, securely; the cable not busied around Dorn’s neck also wrapped around his back along with his arm.

“There is no glory nor gratification to be had in besieging a fortress that isn’t guarded.” He added several seconds later, as if he had to defend himself against accusations of assisting an enemy — though Perturabo had never been above such underhandedness of taking an unfair advantage before.

 


 

Dorn paused, before he couldn't help but laugh; a deep and hearty sound, rumbling from his chest in finding a heavy amount of additional amusement in how his Brother was trying to save face.

Truly, was he really Chaos corrupted?

He acted so human.

"Of course, of course."

 


 

Perturabo scowled, his face a mask of unfiltered aggression and vitriol as he endured that laughter — yet instead of retaliating he never turned his head, visible only in profile; but his steps quickened as he marched up to the entrance of the Thunderhawk as if time was of the essence and there was none to waste.

He pressed the switch to allow entry, nearly surprised when it opened with no complications to let them inside the ship, fully unlocked and unshielded — despite knowing that Dorn lacked the cleverness and imagination to lie.

And as soon as the doorway gave clearance he stepped inside, carrying Dorn with him.

 


 

There had been no traps set off inside, likely a matter of when Dorn had simply disabled everything that had likely been in place just like he had disabled all the outside traps.

But there were modifications done and that was plain to see, mostly in the fact that Dorn had made layers of metal and wood and whatever else he had on hand between the doorway in to what was likely the central command chamber and the place he resided.

All the entryways through this honeycomb of defenses were open, but there were notable doors lying about that would have been affixed to each point in layers, if only to frustrate and delay an intruder attempting to invade further inside.

And would have bought him precious time to attack.

Not that any of it came to fruition, but Perturabo was privy to the handiwork all the same.

Dorn turned his attention away from Perturabo, to gaze at the interior of the Thunderhawk, falling silent as Perturabo had not spoken in turn to his reaction.

But now, now Dorn was face to face with what he thought would become his tomb, but now?

What would it become now?

 


 

Perturabo kept his view focused straight ahead as he stepped inside the ship proper, the hiss of the automatic airlock engaging behind them sounding off a second later. But as he weaved around the first series of doors, fortifications that he couldn’t ignore any longer all but called out to him; and as he stood within the threshold of a doorway, he lingered — reaching out with his free hand to stroke a layer of faultless reinforcements, knuckles dragging admiringly along plates of wood and metal.

Perhaps he was hasty to accuse Dorn of lacking cleverness. Despite the obvious panic and hurry he’d been assailed by, and the massive levels of stress he’d been under — there was an undeniable elegance in his handiwork, even with limited resources…

Handiwork he admired with a discerning gaze and almost sensual touch that spoke far louder than his silence on the matter as he brushed his fingertips along the edges…

“…Mm. Where should I be heading, Dorn?” Perturabo asked to be directed, but sounded almost absent minded as his attention was obviously divided.

 


 

Dorn was drawn out of his darker thoughts as he shifted his attention back to Perturabo when his Brother stopped and he watched Perturabo touch his handiwork in such a manner that it bordered on reverence.

The sight alone made a gasp become stuck in his throat and he had to fight back a brief sensation that he was choking, a sensation that had not been brought solely by his inhale.

Dorn could feel stinging wetness at the corners of his eyes.

It took a good few seconds for him to even realize that Perturabo had asked him a question, so lost was he by such a simple gesture.

"Ah… center… command, through the right door there. Then another right there." And that went on for three more pathways, all the while ignoring the false doors that had been made in some of the walls to cause confusion all the while, if someone wasn't simply blowing up the entire ship.

It would not be long, however until they got to that staging command center that had been mentioned — Dorn's quarters for the last several thousand years.

This chamber was spacious enough for him, though made a bit smaller by the erected walls created, walls that could be broken down again if push came to shove.

There was the central command center that housed whatever was left of the communications array. Upon the top of it laid his helmet and the bolter.

A far corner of the 'room', had been made into a makeshift sleeping quarters. Even though he didn't need as much rest due to his physiology, it seemed that he had made sure to make a veritable nest of blankets, hides and pillows.

There, as well, seemed to be several scrimshawed bones that were made to decorate the space, from the smallest bones to ones larger than Dorn's forearm.

Additionally, crated supplies lined the opposite wall, away from the door.

 


 

“Ah,” Perturabo remarked flatly, almost idly — and it seemed he didn’t want to leave this doorway behind, only doing so after a few more seconds passed, and after he’d trailed his palm along the frame.

Then, he eventually moved as directed, entirely unburdened by Dorn’s massive weight this entire time yet he was fully aware of it, enjoying the density and heaviness against his body.

He navigated though the ship as told, noting all the illusory false leads with appreciation, until he emerged into Dorn’s actual living space—spartan in its own right though not to the degree of his ship—but functional, clean and nearly cozy, embellished with the little signatures that marked the place as his.

Once they were at the intended destination, Perturabo helped Dorn down, nearly with too much care, something he’d no doubt protest if called out on, even that cable helping to guide him to the floor safely though Dorn had seemed in control of himself for quite some time now.

His gaze was angled down, eyes focused entirely on his Brother’s face as he held a neutral expression. “Well here we are, as promised.”

 


 

It felt… strange to return to this familiar location. He hadn’t actually expected to make it back here, perhaps he had resigned himself to the fact that he was going to die, until everything took such a drastic and alarming turn, a twist that he had never seen coming even in the briefest of senses.

He saw the helmet, the item he had left behind to signify the obliging of letting Perturabo see his face. And then, of course, the Voice of Terra, something he had assumed would have remained behind. Those thoughts of wondering who would come across the Thunderhawk after his demise were fleeting once, but now they were back to the forefront.

Yet that certainly wasn’t happening, either.

He blinked a few times, gaze away from Perturabo as he was slowly and carefully set down on the ground with such genuine care that it truly defied belief that his Brother was Chaos corrupted. The humanity within continued to shine in varying small ways. There was something heartening about it all.

As his feet hit the floor, he steadied himself, loosening his hold around Perturabo and finally dislodging his nails from Perturabo’s shoulder. Though, he did bring his hand up and looked at it, staring at the faint bloodied fingertips.

A mere nanosecond later and he brought those lightly bloodied fingers to his lips, licking them clean as he looked back up at his Brother; all the while he did so until the last digit was free from Perturabo’s blood.

“Once more, thank you.” Dorn quickly glanced to the side, staring off towards the central communications array as well as everything that controlled and comprised the other defenses of his ship; and the other tools that were deactivated — created in a desperate attempt of trying to protect himself.

 


 

Perturabo’s eyes narrowed as he watched Dorn consume the blood he’d drawn, in a provocative and fully suggestive reciprocation of what he himself had done almost too many times to count by now in a tiny span of time. There was a flicker, an undercurrent of some transient emotion behind those watchful eyes but it vanished almost as quickly as it came — and it faded away entirely as soon as Dorn spoke.

“Hn,” Perturabo responded to being thanked again with a standoffish, dismissive and petulant huff as he glowered down at Dorn.

Then he shifted his weight from one leg to the other — legs that were drenched in the trickling streams of fluids that dripped down from his loincloth and whatever else Dorn had transferred there during the ‘trip’.

“I’m going to collect your panoply, also as I said I would. Then I’m going to secure my transport and bring all our effects aboard your Thunderhawk. All according to the original plan.”

Perturabo stated as flatly as possible, yet he still managed to sound sarcastic; and the Iron echo of vox augmentation did nothing to mitigate the fact.

“Upon completion these things will be fully removed from my queue of priorities.”

"…And I can focus my full attention elsewhere."

 


 

Once more, Perturabo proved to be almost comical with how truly detached he was trying to be in his presentation. Even through all the communications in the world, Dorn figured Perturabo would do anything to just get the conversation done and over with. When he thought about it too long, he had to wonder if this was how others viewed him.

And his overtly blunt and dry humor.

“Very well.” Dorn tried to remain focused on Perturabo, ignoring the mess that his heightened hearing could pick up dripping to the floor. Now wasn’t the time, there would surely be that moment, very soon, where there’d be no further distractions.

Another pause and he looked back to the array and then back at Perturabo. “Would having my teleportation homer activated be beneficial to you?”

 


 

Perturabo’s eyes practically lit up at that suggestion, a faint promethium glow burning behind them as he stared at Dorn with great scrutiny while he calculated such a suggestion, though everything about him in the moment gave off an air of unfiltered suspicion.

There was a delay, then another; at the end of which Perturabo’s gaze was eerily vacant for a barely perceptible instant as he looked at readouts and data that only he could see as it flickered through his HUD.

Then, as his mind and sight alike returned to the physical realm, the smile that twisted his features was uncanny and far too humored.

“Yes.” He said simply, offering no information aside from the most basic of affirmations, keeping whatever it was that was so interesting to himself.

"Do it."

 


 

Dorn furrowed his brow then, especially as Perturabo seemed to cease doing, being anything with how vacant he had been. It might have lasted only the barest of seconds, but Dorn still could tell.

But, Dorn didn't fight to find out what had just happened. Instead, he turned to head to the central console and he couldn't help the slight wince as he did so.

This was the first time he tried walking since getting fucked so harshly.

Still, he reached the console and began to input the commands to get the teleportation homer back online, a thrum of lights turning on to reveal its activation.

"There we are."

 


 

Despite having every rationale and motivation to do so in light of their tense and fragile truce, Perturabo did not watch what Dorn did now in his nakedness — as if he somehow honored his dignity in this moment of temporary disconnect—an intermission—despite working so thoroughly to destroy it before. He appeared to value that ideal even above the reasonable need to observe what his enemy did, in order to ensure there were no tricks involved — including a window of opportunity for a counterattack that he now created additionally by that very act of neglecting to watch his enemy’s movements; and yet, he adhered to it the entire time that Dorn worked on completing the task at hand.

“I won’t be gone long, then.” Perturabo announced as soon as he received confirmation, his voice suddenly much louder in the closed off space they occupied, and far less human now, though it had always been noticeably off. This voice was familiar, but more distinctly different now simply due to having a comparison after having taken up a more humanoid form through the latter part of the day; now reverted back to that original strongly vox-laced mechanized voice from before — deepened further by the sarcophagus that encased his head; and echoing off the walls of the ship as well now, adding another new layer to that cyber-daemonic resonance present during the initial stages of their reunion.

He walked past the console, footsteps loud — dull and heavy as a mountain as he made his way to the corner, back oriented to Dorn as he moved; staring off into an abyss unseen, towering there not as Perturabo but as the returned Neo-Logos, having transformed mid-stride; as quick and easy as a thought — as if it took no effort at all to shift configurations.

The hulking, gargantuan bulk barely fit inside the ship, Perturabo's merged body nearly reaching the ceiling. But he'd managed it, by means of the massive, rising peripherals and additional weaponry emerging from his armored shoulders from before,  now made compact — folded down and closed in a semi-deactivated state.

 


 

Dorn kept his gaze on the various little readouts, likely laughably primitive in comparison when dealing with someone like Perturabo at his side with the myriad of screens and data outputs fit for a Machine God.

Surely even the remnants of the machine spirit that ran his own Thunderhawk trembled from that which was Perturabo, especially due to what happened in the next few seconds as Dorn heard the shift in the tone of his voice.

By the time that Dorn lifted his head, he was struck by the sight of Neo-Logos and how effortlessly that Perturabo had transformed from one state to another. It was entirely off putting and alarming. It had been during the first time this happened, but somehow, seeing the shift from man to machine was all that more terrifying.

Dorn felt tension grip his entire form as he stared at Perturabo’s back. He never really cared about his nudity until then, now he felt wholly and utterly exposed.

 


 

That gargantuan Behemoth of gleaming metal stood there in complete stillness, looking more like a twisted effigy to Abominable Intelligence turned Obliterator, made manifest and waiting on standby — than anything that might have once been considered a man.

But there was nothing still inside the command center installed into the casing that surrounded Neo-Logos' head; endless streams of readouts and calculations expanding and overlapping in layers of green, teal and red as Perturabo went about his unsavory, ominous tasks.

This had been a major part of the plan all along, but Dorn had made it so much easier by volunteering to turn the ship's homing functions on for him; and he gained access to the Thunderhawk’s OS like it was child’s play.

To him, it was.

And he’d completed the functions needed to make use of that technology while still deployed to this planet as well—the convenience Dorn had offered—in less than a second. It would be so much easier to do as needed while merged with Neo-Logos and teleport back once he was done, rather than using his transport ship for the same job.

Appreciated, surely. But that was not what had grabbed his interest from the instant Dorn had extended that courtesy; and not what he endeavored to complete now.

What he was doing, was calibrating that same functionality to sync up with a system much further away and far less mobile than Neo-Logos. Those promethium fueled eyes glowed with a viral, crimson gleam that backlit the inside of the square casing his head was entombed inside, lining the outer edges in that same tainted light as he remotely linked with Dorn’s Thunderhawk and dominated those functions to adhere to his will.

“I won’t Break my promises,” Perturabo stated flatly. And he would not. Attacking Dorn wasn’t even on his slate of operations anymore.

 


 

There was only one indicator from Dorn’s ship that something had happened and occurred. There was a split nano-second of red lighting up the entire cabin before it returned back to its normal coloration.

Whatever machine spirit still remained within the Thunderhawk was reduced to cowering to a far superior mechanized might.

Nothing could be done.

Absolutely nothing.

Dorn knew he hadn’t quite hidden the tension he felt, but a glance given to the center command console when everything turned red for a belated brief moment had that tension retained and kept within his body.

Surely his vital signs held his reaction for all to see.

Or more accurately, for Perturabo to see.

“I do not believe that you would, Brother.” Dorn didn’t doubt that for one bit, even if anyone else would think him foolish for even considering trusting the word of a Daemon Primarch.

 


 

“Good.” Perturabo said gruffly, voice tainted with vox and scrap as he lowered his chin, focused on a specific data chain expanding within his computerized view that was not to his liking.

Finally, this was enough to urge Neo-Logos into taking physical action, but if that did anything to improve the pervasive eeriness that had blanketed the atmosphere within the ship, was questionable—if not unlikely—due to what he did next.

He took a lumbering step slightly forward and to the side, still keeping his view away from Dorn though he had moved significantly closer to him, and with one huge, bionic hand Perturabo reached up and over his shoulder. As he tilted his head forward roboticized fingers slipped inside, and with a loud click nearly reminiscent of a rifle cocking, a cable was detached.

…A malicious looking, black cable housed by a metallic sheath — that he then pulled, gaining slack, before he reached forward and plugged it in, the noise far softer this time as he directly interfaced with the control console of the Thunderhawk.

The red gleam spreading out from inside Neo-Logos’ housing flickered, then returned in an even brighter shade than before, its corrupted light radiating ahead and casting its glow on the simplistic, low-tech panels in front of him.

Just like you, I’m a man of my word as well.” Perturabo insisted, though if that were true outside seeking vindication for the grudges he held and the unstoppable pursuit of chasing down his own self-aggrandizing desires was wholly… unconfirmed. And the form he currently embodied made the idea that he was a man at all nigh impossible to believe, much less the rest of that statement.

Chapter 14: Ceasefire

Summary:

A tense, temporary peace has unexpected consequences and leads to perspective changes for both that once believed there was peace of mind to be found in unbroken solitude.

Chapter Text


 

There was nothing this time whatsoever that came from the ship or the Machine Spirit still inhabiting the console itself—it seemed to have understood the need to keep out of the way—submitting to the higher power that was Perturabo. Even if it did manage to somehow have the ability to stop what was going on, it didn’t even try.

The advancements were too technologically superior.

As Perturabo moved and interfaced with his ship through that cable, Dorn audibly swallowed, eyeing how it was so similar to the rest that he had seen, yet wholly of a unique design. Every single one of these had its place and function, it seemed — that much was obvious, and Perturabo knew what to grab to accomplish what he wanted without any issue whatsoever.

“Of course, I am aware.” Dorn responded carefully, pulling back so he could shake off the remnants of temporary paralysis that had gripped him when he first laid his eyes back upon Neo-Logos.

The mixture of emotions was a curious one for Dorn, even if he was keeping himself mostly in a neutral state; both in expression and in position, despite how the blood pumping through his body and the quickness of his hearts would surely reveal the opposite of his steadfast stance.

“I will be… waiting for your return, Brother.”

 


 

“Of course,” Perturabo remarked wryly, somehow sarcasm being one of the few emotions that seemed suited to the drastic vocal changes brought on by this monstrous configuration. A few seconds passed quietly as he stared out, then appearing satisfied at last, he reached out and disconnected the cable jacked into Dorn’s Thunderhawk. As soon as it clicked free, that cable retracted on its own and Perturabo pivoted his head forward and to the side again, allowing it to slide back to its rightful place with another loud, metallic noise.

Then he reached out with that same hand and offered a few little approving? consoling? condescending? pats to the dashboard of that console and nodded to Dorn without turning his head to look at him.

“Do as you need in the meantime, this task won’t take long to complete.”

With that, Neo-Logos was mobile again, his heavy footsteps like aftershocks against the flooring; slow, plodding and dramatically dense — though most of that low speed was due to the deliberate care he took not to actually damage Dorn’s ship; something he could have done very easily simply by not being attentive, as was abundantly clear. But exactly as he'd demonstrated with the command center, it was clear he was not outwardly intent on destroying anything, at least while he was being adequately indulged and obeyed.

Eventually, the sound faded out and the vibrations stopped, as Perturabo stepped through the airlock and made planetfall once more.

 


 

Dorn watched Perturabo eventually go, hearing that hiss of the airlock and feeling the weight of the flooring of the Thunderhawk shift once his Brother stepped off of it. Shaking his head, he looked down at the center console, as if thinking that it’d give him an indication of what happened.

Of course it couldn’t, so Dorn simply let it be, but there was intuitive knowledge deep within his gut that told him exactly why Perturabo had done that. And with that knowledge, came the notion and wonder of what would happen now that they were connected.

With a shake of his head, he turned to go collect supplies, gathering up some water and cloths, passing the time sitting in his makeshift chair cleaning himself off of dirt, blood, semen — and who knew what else had gotten all caught up along his body and hair.

Dorn wasn’t sure what would happen if and when Perturabo transformed back to his more human form. Would he be all cleaned? Would the himation return as if nothing happened? As laughable as the very concept and idea was, Dorn didn’t rightfully understand how that worked.

Why would he?

It wasn’t as if he had ever stayed in the presence of a nude Chaos Primarch shifting from such a condition to one far more fitting.

As those thoughts crossed his mind, Dorn cleaned himself off in relatively little time and eventually went to go grab some more fitting clothing to put on for himself.

 


 

After several minutes of peace, it came to an abrupt end, broken by the unmistakable sounds and shakes that announced Neo-Logos having returned, intermittently broken; only to resume moments later.

Once those obvious loud noises and vibrations began, they never remained gone for as long as that initial silence — giving the impression that the Lord of Iron was busied by making treks back and forth between the two ships rather than being out in the dusty, barren wilds of the planet for extended periods.

 


 

Dorn felt the floor shake, feeling the time fast approaching with the understanding of how quickly Perturabo could go from one location to another — so effortlessly despite his size.

Of course, that was why Dorn had given the opportunity to have the teleportation homer on, it'd make it easier for him to maneuver around as needed.

Once he finished draping himself with a loose brown robe, cinched closed with a yellow sash, Dorn went back to the supplies to get more water, including something to drink.

 


 

The entity that emerged was massive; a giant, a demigod of a man in all ways; but one that at least on a surface level, might be described as human. Gone was the unsettling evidence of machine fusion, of Obliterator viral corruption — at least superficially, as he stepped through the passageway and into the main area of the Thunderhawk.

While those hoses and cords, wires and cables that were bolted to his skull in an approximation of long flowing hair remained—as did the additional Black Carapace extension that framed his jaw in a manner that was reminiscent of a beard—elsewise he was in all ways the Perturabo of the past, even those additional augments a completely believable and mostly inoffensive progression one could reasonably envision without the inclusion of the taint of Chaos.

It was very likely that all the mysterious upgrades that Dorn had discovered upon examining Perturabo’s original body were still there as well, but they were all entirely obscured from view, giving him an appearance that was as normal as one such as he could ever achieve.

He was dressed in exactly the same garb as before, a linen himation hanging from his left shoulder; dyed in a light Iron-gray, trimmed with alternating diagonal yellow and black stripes — though now there was an additional woolen chlamys worn as an outer wrap in bright red; and he was no longer barefoot, a tall pair of tan kothornos trailing up his legs and disappearing under the long drapes of cloth that swished as he moved.

And yet somehow despite being a mountain of a man, the Primarch had returned nearly silently in his movements, as his monumental weight was observably far, far less than Neo-Logos and not enough to put the ship under any noticeable strain.

 


 

Dorn continued to drink greedily until Perturabo appeared, stepping into the main area that had been his living quarters for millennia. He slowly trailed his gaze up and down Perturabo’s body in the low light and seemed relieved to find out one of the mysteries to be solved.

That had to be quite a handy trick.

He was also relieved that he had taken the time that they were away from one another to actually get cleaned up and dressed, otherwise he likely would have felt even more vulnerable.

Though now a new question crossed his mind.

Why had Perturabo been turned away the entire time he was in Neo-Logos?

Another mystery to be solved but it likely wasn’t prudent to be pestering with such questions now.

However, Dorn seemed to have shifted a bit in demeanor, as if something from a long time ago awakened within him, in the manner of having a guest in his ‘home’ for the first time in so long. He reflexively offered the sturdy chair that he was standing by.

And even when it felt foolish, to ask… “Do you require any… sustenance, Brother?”

 


 

Perturabo’s thick black eyebrows were nearly joined as he looked down at Dorn, perplexed. Those shrewd strontium eyes were narrow and judgmental, gaze shifting from Dorn himself to the chair that was being offered him.

He looked back at Dorn once more, slowly; a fleeting glimpse of something undefined but discernibly conflicted rippling over him and fully revealed in his gaze.

“I haven’t required such… biologically inferior methods of replenishment in countless centuries.” Perturabo remarked in a snippy, abrasive tone; yet he’d been eating things all day — far too many to keep track of in fact, and all of them of highly questionable nutritional value.

But even as he rejected the offer of food, he wasted no time in taking the indicated chair; and he glowered down at the table, looking nearly troubled though he was clearly trying to disguise that fact.

 


 

"Very well, Brother."

If he was offput by such an abrasive statement, Dorn certainly didn't see to react to it as he took another sip of water from his canteen.

Dorn had given up the only chair available, because he hadn't made another one, never anticipating company.

He set the canteen down onto the nearby table.

 


 

Perturabo glanced at that canteen, obviously Dorn's handiwork — then rolled his eyes up to stare at Dorn, though he kept his chin pressed to his chest. That conflicted air was still about him, as well as a newly settling sense of complete social awkwardness now that there was a moment of peace.

“…Are you not… going to eat anything, then?”

 


 

"I intend to… but you are my guest here, first." Dorn responded as if that was obviously the most natural thing in the world, along with how he was acting now.

This situation, as strange as it was, brought a certain level of nostalgia to him.

 


 

“Mn,” Perturabo grunted, extending one arm along the tabletop before idly drumming his fingers against the surface. Seconds ticked by in silence, as if this situation was some complex and difficult equation that took focus and effort to solve.

“…Then I suppose I’ll… join you then.” He relented at last, sounding as though deciding on such a thing was a burden that he agreed to only because he’d been pressured into it — though this whole time he'd been arguing with no one but himself.

 


 

At that Dorn nodded, already taking the few steps needed to get back to the crates that lined the wall. There were quite a number of them and set aside a short distance away were those that were emptied and not in use. Perturabo may have noticed the same metal and wood elsewhere — that had been obviously repurposed to make those makeshift walls that he saw throughout other parts of the ship.

After prying open the lid of one crate, he pulled out two very large beige pouches. They were ration packs, simple and effective. Space Marines and Primarchs could go a long while without sustenance, especially Primarchs. This was likely what had kept Dorn himself sustained when he was overcome by the need to eat.

For millennia.

It was a surprise that these pouches survived the test of time; but the contents though old, were sealed expertly enough that no rot ever claimed anything within. That paired with Dorn’s careful nature of making sure all conditions were just right, allowed the contents of crates to last far longer than they ever should.

Methodically, he went about the task of preparing not one, but two pouches. He’d make his way to the table directly, and, using that as a brace, held down the packet with the end of his left arm and then ripped it open with his right hand.

It was as if he had done this so many times before that the disability of his missing left hand didn’t even bother him.

The contents revealed the heating elements within, now engaged; then water was added, and the slightly smaller pouches were set to heat up further and provide at least something more pleasant to eat in the end than triglyceride gel and amino-porridge, as most soldiers were resigned to eating.

It certainly was nothing lavish, but it was enough for Dorn.

He remained quiet as he worked, waiting for the adequate amount of time to pass.

 


 

A long sigh left Perturabo’s lips, and he continued to drum his fingers against the table’s surface now and then as he waited.

He glanced over at Dorn occasionally, but his glare always returned to the table in front of him, as if it were somehow the least offensive thing out of the wholly unpleasant range of visual options he had at the moment.

Eventually, he began to examine that table with closer inspection though everything about his body language—from his sour expression, to his hunched sitting posture, to the shifty nature of his eyes that seemed to nearly resent what they observed—gave the impression that he did this under great protest, like it was some banal chore that he didn’t want to complete.

But as soon as he gave in, having lost his resolve over time in the increasingly tense silence, he began to run his palm along the smooth surface, feeling not one grain of grit or gouge marring its face. At first his touch was nearly mechanical as he began his physical inspection, yet the more he stroked it, the more his motions turned admiring; bordering on sensual.

It was elegant in its simplicity, but the craftsmanship was paramount. Details and discernment the crass and uneducated would overlook entirely, but Perturabo was aware of what was in front of him.

A master carpenter's work — in form, function and aesthetics.

Perturabo sighed again, though it was a much softer sound this time.

 


 

At some point during all of that touching given to the table, Dorn had taken notice of what Perturabo was actually doing, watching as he stroked the wood and openly marveled the craftsmanship that had been used upon that piece of wood.

Just like the chair that Perturabo was sitting on.

Both had been made by hand and more than able to withstand the weight of a Primarch. Everything done was entirely purposeful, but Dorn had taken particular care in what he had made with those two items, given the fact that he had to pass time in the moments he was awake.

Eventually, Dorn drew his attention away, even as he felt heat rising to his face and through his body before he quickly refocused his attention on their meal.

It did not take long until it was done, and he had gone to gather up some other things he had made, wooden bowls and utensils.

Probably breaking Perturabo’s line of sight—certainly anyone else's—Dorn set a bowl in front of his Brother and filled it up with the contents of the bag. Everything was sized perfectly for Dorn, so even Perturabo’s larger form would not have too much issue with handling these items, as they were not small.

The scent of flavorful protein rice and some nondescript meat hit the air, all warmed in a brown gravy and all together in the bowl.

Dorn quickly moved away to serve his own bag into his bowl.

“I also have Amasec, if you would like to partake.” Dorn certainly didn’t usually have a care to break into the cask of Imperium wine aboard the ship, but this occasion seemed more fitting than any other time.

 


 

Perturabo lifted his head upon hearing Dorn stir, righted his posture and stared straight ahead; and he folded his arms over his chest — taking a standoffish position clearly demonstrated by his body language before Dorn returned to serve the meal.

His scrutinizing eyes were immediately drawn to the wooden setting, seeing that everything was clearly made by hand — the same hand that had crafted most if not all of the… more interesting objects he’d taken note of within his time aboard the ship; and he smirked down as he watched that bowl being filled.

Then, Perturabo braced at the suggestion of Amasec — this entire scene already far too amicable, much too peaceful, like a quaint friendly gathering; and he grunted before letting a couple of long seconds pass in silence.

He took in the smell of food with his barely noticeable breathing — simple, effective and satisfying; somewhere in the middle ground between the practical meal of a deployed soldier and comfort food, the very existence of it nostalgic and strange to him after what he’d become in the many years that had passed since his Ascension.

“…Very well,” he relented grumpily. While things had turned out far differently than he’d expected—envisioning himself tending to Dorn while he recuperated in his bedchambers from whatever that malady was that had struck him down—this moment was always going to result in a temporary ceasefire no matter what form it took. It was simply an unexpected difficulty that Dorn had come back to his senses so quickly, as it made all of this so much more uncomfortable than he’d originally anticipated.

But what good would declining that offer do at this stage? Precious little.

 


 

This time, for Perturabo's sake, Dorn didn't even let out the quiet chuckle building in his throat, biting it back instead as he could see exactly how put off he was by all of this hospitable treatment, despite having to have expected what was going to happen to some degree.

And why it all started.

But Dorn would not be deterred as he gathered up two carved goblets between the fingers of his one hand, bringing them over and setting them down.

He went back to the crates, to rummage and find where that cask of Amasec had ended up. Now this was comically small in his grasp compared to the rest, likely never meant for Primarch consumption, but for Astartes.

Still, he opened it, setting it up in short order and soon he had two filled wooden goblets of Amasec; positioning one by Perturabo while placing the other near his own bowl.

All was done and Dorn remained standing. "Enjoy, Brother."

 


 

Perturabo continued to sit there like a stump, but his eyes immediately darted to the goblet when it appeared. He looked thoroughly put off by how nice it was, but that didn’t stop him from unfurling his arms so that he could trail an index finger down its bowl, feeling the etched design decorating its edge — touching it before Dorn had even moved away after giving it to him.

He turned his head to stare at Dorn with a disagreeable expression.

“And you’re just going to stand there, are you?”

 


 

After a moment of doing exactly that, he snapped out of his distraction from watching Perturabo and how… he clearly marveled at every single little nuanced detail of all the things he had made, and— he cleared his throat and moved away.

"I'll… get a crate to sit upon," Dorn quickly turned, to work on doing just that instead.

 


 

“Fine,” Perturabo stated, seeming satisfied by that idea. And as soon as Dorn moved away in pursuit of completing it, he slid his right leg back under the table, annoyed with himself for even thinking of what he’d nearly suggested. But it was a matter of principle, and even if it was amusing to think of Dorn in his slavehood, standing while his Master sat, it simply didn’t feel right when he was the provider of absolutely everything; from what they would consume, to the dishes and utensils used, to the furniture, to the very room itself.

Instead of taking a position of authority, insisting on such an arrangement in these conditions would have seemed ungracious and brutish rather than superior; as if he were some sort of dullard incapable of social etiquette or recognizing hospitality.

It wasn’t as if he’d wanted to offer his leg as seating, anyway. It was simply a feasible solution at the time. One he now hoped Dorn hadn’t noticed…

 


 

Dorn, for Perturabo's sake, hadn't noticed at all as he grabbed one of the sturdy crates and pulled it over towards the table. It was increasingly evident that yes, the crates were of the same materials as everything else that had been made.

Dorn had repurposed them, and while having only an unmodified crate itself was certainly far weaker, Dorn knew it could withstand his weight for a time, even without reinforcements.

And so, once he had it in place, he carefully sat down opposite from Perturabo.

 


 

Perturabo glowered at Dorn from across the table. “That’s much better,” he stated flatly, finger still idly tracing that goblet as if he couldn’t bring himself to stop touching it.

His other hand reached out to grab his given spoon. He thumbed over the embellished carving along the stem without even looking down at it.

“Everything of importance has been brought aboard your Thunderhawk and secured.” Perturabo volunteered despite having not been asked. “From the wasteland and my ship, alike.”

 


 

Dorn took up the goblet first, taking a sip of that very aged wine, sighing at the richness of the flavor. It was exceedingly high quality even before it was stuck to age, but now the flavour profile was exquisite.

"Ah, thank you, Perturabo. I appreciate that." Dorn bowed his head, even though he knew how bristly his Brother got at being thanked.

 


 

I did exactly as I said I would.” Perturabo retorted peevishly, as if his original offer had somehow been turned into an accusation, and he glared at Dorn heatedly as if he expected to be challenged on the matter.

Then, after prolonged silence, he stared down into his steaming hot bowl of food, something meant as an escape but as soon as it came time to actually eat it, what should have been a natural and mundane way to distance himself, struck him with intense feelings he’d not been prepared for.

Though maybe he should have been, considering he’d noticed inklings of this sensation prickling at the back of his mind since this all began.

How long had it been since he’d eaten anything that could be categorized as proper food, even digestible outside the ‘benefits’ afforded to him by the Obliterator virus?

Beyond that, how long had it been since he’d shared a meal with family?

With Dorn?

He let out a low, shuddering breath, fingers tightening around the utensil he held as if it was a weapon and this simple bowl of meat and rice was his enemy. What he was up against wasn’t as basic as a plain, reheated ration. It was much more profound than that, far more symbolic because of all the things it represented — and each of those many things ran so deep they defied explanation in simple terminology, despite not being complex at all.

Yet he was aware of this, as much as he was of the myriad other small things Dorn had already done to jumpstart this process, one undue, undeserved kindness at a time.

But breaking the proverbial bread was crossing a bridge too far… and every alarm blared that warning at full volume within his enhanced system.

…This was the very essence of humanity itself. And Perturabo had been trying to rip that very thing from his soulless, wounded husk for the past ten thousand years.

So why had he agreed in the first place? Illogical.

But then, even so, he had — so why was he so conflicted about following through now?

None of it made sense.

 


 

“Yes you did. You are correct, Brother.” And Dorn left it at that, watching Perturabo in the following silence as it seemed the other man was so conflicted. There was the slightest furrow of Dorn’s brow as he quietly set the goblet down and picked up the spoon.

It was strange for him to be in this position once more after the passage of so much time. How long had it been since he shared a meal with his Brothers? How long had it been since he shared a meal with his Legion?

With those of Inwit?

Too long.

Far too long.

His gaze dropped down as his expression shifted to a more somber one as those thoughts plagued his mind. The ability to simply be — how long had it been since he granted himself even that luxury? Even in his isolation, these thoughts had never hit so hard like they did now.

He enjoyed the solitude.

Or so he thought.

Now, it just felt lonely.

 


 

The only reply that got Dorn was a wordless grunt as Perturabo continued to stare down into his bowl, though he barely saw the contents, mind fully preoccupied with applying philosophical parables and asking disturbing existential questions that had no answers — at least none that his circuitry or CPU could provide him.

At last, he began to bring his hand closer to the bowl resting in front of him, his motions inelegant and lumbering as he dragged his arm along the table as if he were unable to raise it.

The reasons for his behavior became clear after he finally managed to dip that spoon past the rim, allowing gravy to fill the basin — as from the instant he lifted his spoon to bring it towards his mouth, his hand shook terribly. And in annoyance and embarrassment and a toxic mesh of other emotions that were surely as negative but unable to be separated, he snapped forward and struck at it like a snake if but only to hide how unsteady he was.

Perturabo didn’t even taste what filled his mouth, nor even feel its warmth. There was nothing special or even physically identifiable about it.

It was nothing.

It meant nothing.

 


 

Dorn shook his head a moment later, keeping his head down and away from Perturabo, even if he couldn’t help but watch him from the edges of his peripheral vision, noticing how he acted despite what seemingly simple things he was doing. He imagined that it had been quite a long time since anything like this had happened.

Did Daemon Primarchs… even need to eat?

Probably not but…

“Thank you for humoring me, Perturabo…” Dorn spoke up after taking in a spoonful in his mouth, chewing thoughtfully before swallowing. “I know these things do not matter, likely, but it is appreciated.” There was quite the softness in Dorn’s voice as he kept his head bowed.

 


 

Perturabo swallowed loudly, then nearly dropped his spoon as soon as he pulled it from his lips. He lowered it with the dull, graceless thunk of wood against wood before giving Dorn a sharp nod.

And he took the out that was afforded him without a thought, nearly instinctively latching on to the excuse given. An excuse that would allow him even a little distance; a byte of denial, as futile as it was.

“Then so be it.” He said in a flat tone that was borderline agreeable before going in for a second spoonful with only marginally better stability.

Just as the first time, the savory flavor of stewed meat, rice, spices and preservatives assailed his senses with an overwhelming flood of information that couldn’t be ignored, to include even the minutiae of the leeched materials the container storing the food had been made from, down to the percentages involved—both Primarch senses and cybernetic analyses giving a wealth of unwanted input breaking down the individual ingredients, their base elements and chemical compositions—yet he stubbornly continued to pretend as if there weren’t a thousand details in every drop.

 


 

The barest sound of a sigh could be heard as Dorn fixated on indulging as much as he could in this meal, in this moment. With the silence dragging on beyond their respective scrapes or shifts in their seats, Dorn fell deeper into his thoughts.

Could it ever have been like this? Back then? If they weren't constantly on the warpath with someone or something?

Was there ever a moment for peace?

Had he ever found peace since Inwit?

The spoon was set back in the bowl as he picked up the goblet then, gazing down into the rich liquid — the color almost akin to blood. He swirled it, watching the wine ripple.

Probably not… it never seemed to be so.

And even now, he'd found no peace in the solitude. Not like he'd thought…

 


 

The silence dragged on, and after several bites that filled his insides with a soothing warmth that was nothing like the caustic, metallic consumption that had replaced it, he risked reaching out for his goblet. He brought it to his lips and tasted it before even taking a sip, inhaling details through his nose and mouth.

While there was certainly no danger in drinking something as benign as base alcohol when his body could break down and disassemble anything he'd ever dared to put inside it, this was a particularly momentous pitfall, as he immediately recalled the fine feasts of Olympia and all the revelry that went with it. Times that were honestly never good, yet seemed brighter somehow in comparison to how lamentably terrible they would become later.

The atmosphere here was dark, somber; and while Perturabo knew he must have been to blame for that on some level, he wasn’t sure how to fix it.

Then he grew angry with himself for even thinking such things.

He watched Dorn carefully over the edge of his cup, noting how his bright attitude from a minute ago had grown tense, but he was clueless as to why as for once he’d not done anything deliberate to cause it.

How perplexingly illogical it was, to realize time and again that he didn’t like seeing Dorn’s distress when it was due to anything less than his direct efforts.

“You didn’t have to welcome me like this, you know.” Perturabo growled out in a low, argumentative voice.

 


 

Dorn seemed to startle briefly, drawn out of the thoughts he had gotten further and further into, starting to spiral, but now Perturabo's question drew him away due to having to respond.

"Ah, old habits, Brother. It is— was, something I had been used to doing back when I still resided on Inwit."

His voice was low, that melancholic tone staining each syllable as he looked away.

 


 

“Ah.” Perturabo stated, frowning a moment later as he considered not only what Dorn had said, but the aura of downhearted gloom that pervaded his every word.

He placed his goblet back down to the table without ever taking a sip of its contents, glancing at it as he slowly spun it in place.

“Showing grace to even… the enemy?” Perturabo asked, though he already doubted this had anything to do with a ideal as pragmatic as diplomacy, even though this was Dorn he considered now.

Pragmatism was certainly his nature. Being diplomatic, not so much.

Though that wasn't really what weighed on Perturabo's mind now, regardless.

 


 

"Showing grace to a guest." Dorn corrected, shifting his attention back to Perturabo, a bit more focused and pointed now as he observed his Brother as he lifted the goblet once more.

"You are not my enemy."

He took a sip of wine.

 


 

Perturabo scoffed. “Either you are insane…” He shook his head derisively, then raised his goblet once more. “Or you are a fool, Dorn.”

And as soon as that last syllable was spoken, the rim of that wooden vessel was brought to his lips—intended or not, the effect nearly as a toast—as he sulked behind the cup while the first taste of wine he’d had in thousands of years inundated his senses.

 


 

Dorn hummed a singular note and took another sip, staring Perturabo down now. "More the former, than the latter, Perturabo."

 


 

It certainly was not the flavor of his origin world, lacking that bit of particular nostalgia that was perhaps best left in the past — but the aged wine was every bit as exquisite as it smelled, the tartness and body particularly exceptional.

He nearly drained half of it by the time he rested his cup back on the table, and he licked his lips before speaking.

“Certainly you don’t— you cant mean that after everything. After today, “ Perturabo protested in a hostile tone, the fire behind his eyes further evidence that he was only one step away from taking the ironic and strange position of arguing the point by advocating in Dorn’s defense against himself.

 


 

"Why? Haven't I made myself clear enough multiple times, Brother?" Dorn retorted back, his own voice raising a bit before taking another sip.

 


 

Perturabo scowled, not at all pleased that Dorn persisted. This was a familiar topic being revisited, but it was no longer so emotionally charged and that meant Perturabo was in a better state to debate the issue.

"You have made yourself clear but that doesn't mean you're making sense, Brother." He hissed, leaning in toward Dorn from across the table in an openly aggressive gesture.

"Unless…" Perturabo smiled, but there was nothing but malice in those cold blue eyes. "Have you somehow failed to realize why I came here in the first place and what I intended to do with you?"

 


 

Dorn did not recoil back, he stayed put as he took another insufferably slow sip from his goblet, still staring his Brother down and not seeming like he was going to give up or kowtow so easily.

“What you intended to do and what you have done are quite two different things, Brother.” He pressed on, resting his arms upon the table as he leaned in to meet that charge directed towards him.

 


 

Angry eyes bored into Dorn through every second that was passed in waiting; and Perturabo looked nearly ready to combust by the time that goblet was placed back on the table. Had he really used past tense in explaining himself? That pissed him off even further, especially as Dorn had used his word choice against him as some sort of high ground.

“Is that really what you think then, Dorn?” Perturabo snarled, incensed further by the way that his Brother mirrored his body language, and he leaned in even closer as he sneered down at him.

“My mission here is not complete, so there is no telling what I might still do. Not to mention whatever my plans may be, they could change at any time, particularly if you keep pressing me, Brother.”

He scoffed. “Perhaps you should consider that this cease-fire is but momentary,” Perturabo continued, teeth bared, looking as though he might fly across the table at any moment.

 


 

Once again, Dorn mirrored his Brother, still not backing down even as the argument grew more heated in the moment now that they were at a standoff against one another. Dorn was calm in the face of that rising ire emanating from his Brother.

“Yes, that is what I think.” Dorn straightened up, considerably so, as he actually returned to his meal, taking and swallowing several bites down that truly dwindled what was in the bowl quickly before he spoke again.

“Your initial mission was to kill me. But you no longer intend to follow through, because you don’t want me to be killed. You want to break me down instead, to a point where I can no longer deny you anything you want, but then that didn't turn out the way you intended, either. You've wanted me to fear and revile you all along, yet the opposite has happened, in ways you had never expected.”

Dorn knew he was at a disadvantage, but he spoke anyway as he finished his meal in another bite and set the bowl aside, before picking up his goblet again. All of this occurred quite quickly as if he was anticipating retaliation.

“You want me to hate you because it is easier for you to justify yourself then, and it enrages you that I don’t.”

 


 

Perturabo stared at Dorn with increasing impatience, indignant over the manner in which he was using that same tactic of making him wait a second time. It was clear that Dorn was thinking while he drank and ate, but something about that particular habit that was far more grating than it would have been had he only sat there while he considered his counterpoint.

But then when Dorn spoke at last, Perturabo found his words nigh unbelievable.

He stared, wide eyed and open mouthed, teeth bared in an angry, threatening scowl as each and every point Dorn made was like a strike from Storm’s Teeth — razor sharp and expertly aimed, sinking in deep within the gaps between the plates of his armor.

Perturabo’s eyes watered, tears of bitterness forming a haze layered over gleaming promethium red flashes that flickered intermittently across pale blue. He clenched both fists so hard his joints cracked audibly as he continued to endure this ridiculous barrage of accusations, gradually moving closer to Dorn with every passing second as he leaned further against the table.

He was preparing to counterattack with the full force of his sharp tongue and cruel, violent thoughts in the interim but unfortunately Dorn was not done — the final swing a grievous, decisive blow that had completely left Perturabo wounded and at a great disadvantage. His vision went red again as all hope of formulating a quick-witted, rational reply left him; logic left him, reason left him.

All that was left was pain. Searing, miserable, molten-hot pain.

You know nothing about me!” Perturabo lashed out in an explosive, puerile fit that might have been laughable were the outburst not bolstered by the power of the full fury of a Primarch’s voice.

That pain lodged so deep into his guts and boiling within his mechanically embellished hearts —  synthesized into rage.

“But so be it! I will make you hate me, then!” Perturabo continued, his deep, booming proclamation like a battering ram colliding against the side of a fortress wall as he swore his oath with his whole chest, the very interior of the ship seeming to cower beneath his might.

And then, Perturabo struck suddenly as he let his temper rule him, movements far too quick for such a juggernaut as an enormous hand clamped around Dorn’s throat.

“Why, WHY must you make things so much harder than need be!”

 


 

Dorn knew what he was doing and exactly how volatile his accusations and blunt words would make his Brother, having been witness to that rage time and time again, and with every time it happened causing him lash out more and more aggressively.

He had seen the cracks forming, had seen the burning tears, the flickering of red, he saw all the tell-tale signs — and that was why he could react barely in time as that hand clamped around his neck. He had managed to move a few fingers against his throat to prevent Perturabo from crushing his windpipe and that allowed to him to speak.

Still.

He would risk it, even with his usable hand now trapped.

“No, perhaps I don’t know you, but I want to.” Dorn pressed on, being careful in how he spoke so he didn’t risk having his fingers slip away as he actively pressed against the hand around his throat, fighting against the strength that threatened him.

He ignored the comment about hatred and picked up the next best thing.

“Because… you… know I am… right. Otherwise, we wouldn’t… be in the position… we currently are.”

 


 

A long, slow wheezing breath was pushed from massive lungs as Perturabo stared deeply into those eyes that still burned with dignity; nobility that even now was undeterred — and he remained as steadfast as ever. Not dissuaded in any way by Perturabo's threats — but that was not because he didn't recognize them. Nor fail to understand the imminent, grave danger he was truly in.

Perturabo might have seen Dorn's Defiance that way once, and felt belittled because of it, as if he wasn't powerful enough to be taken seriously as a competitor — but not now. It wasn't anything of the sort and he knew it. It was that these facts simply didn't matter to Dorn, not enough to make him turn away from his principals.

And in that realization, Perturabo felt incredibly small and inferior in his presence.

Why was nothing turning out as he had planned?

He released Dorn's neck, hand moving up to grip his chin instead; and he held it roughly within his huge fingers as he moved in closer.

Perturabo's pinprick pupils seemed nearly unfocused as he stared intensely; with a sudden sharpness that seemed to nearly gaze through the hazel that observed him. Judged him.

Everything else that had been important only seconds before fell away, save the one thing that held meaning to Perturabo; and he immediately latched onto it with an Iron grip.

"And why in the name of all that you claim to uphold," Perturabo demanded in a shaking voice that displayed his weakness clearly to the mirror before him, despite the shield of wrath he tried to hide behind, "would you ever want to know me?"

 


 

Dorn felt his hearts clench at the sight of his Brother, when the wind was knocked out of his sails, Perturabo seemed to almost deflate — no matter how big he was, no matter how much stronger he was. It didn’t matter if he was a Traitor, nor a Daemon Primarch.

All Dorn saw was a man much like himself.

Ruined and broken.

He knew that feeling well.

And so, as Perturabo gripped at his chin, his expression was far more calm than that moment of ire before, when he stood his ground to stare down and shout down his Brother from continuing to repeat himself until they got to the actual heart of the matter.

“Because no one has cared to know you before. Because it is something that you have deserved for millennia. Because I want to, not because I am forced to.” Dorn moved his hand from his throat and gently rested it upon the wrist currently holding his chin.

 


 

Perturabo blinked hard several times as Dorn spoke, a transparent and overly emphasized attempt to hold back the fluids staining his eyes and steel his resolve, but his emotions were on full display; and just as every time before to his great disadvantage, the lubrication system he’d installed within his Betcher’s glands to interface with his mucus membranes made those oiled tears nearly impossible to contain.

He shuddered forcefully, the table creaking beneath his weight as he stared at Dorn’s face with a shocked, wounded expression; glassy eyed and hurting beyond what he could have ever managed to disguise.

Over and over again on this accursed day, Perturabo’s well-devised plans—as emotionally driven as they honestly were—were skillfully dismantled by Dorn as if they were nothing more than a pile of bricks carelessly stacked without mortar for him to simply pick up at will and move one at a time.

Plans that had been built upon a foundation reinforced and maintained for thousands of years; all brought to nothing by simple words that Perturabo had ached to hear the whole of his life.

A life he’d ruined for the lack of ever hearing them, and losing all hope that he ever would.

Why—how—did Dorn manage this so easily, and if he could have all this time, why had he denied Perturabo this for so very long? Certainly, it wasn’t the solution to every problem he’d faced in those days of agony so long ago, when he’d come to the dire realization that the Empire he’d once served was built on destruction and lies.

But it damn sure would have helped, and through it all; all the blood and tears and sleepless nights when hopelessness gripped his soul with despair he could not overcome, there had been none he had valued more than Dorn.

This situation was entirely unfair, and it left Perturabo cold and embittered with each and every vow that rolled off that gilded tongue.

“You say I am not your enemy,” he scowled, and shook his head as if he were unable to believe such an outcome was even possible.

“Have you not the eyes to see what is before you?” He said spitefully; voice deep and tainted by the touch of the virus he’d become one with. His fingers pressed firmly into Dorn’s jaw as he leaned in closer still, resentment resonating deep inside his icy eyes. “Do you think…”

Perturabo’s voice was so unsteady that he had to pause, try again to even choke the words out. “Do you think I can just walk away from this!? What I have become!” He yelled passionately, tears streaming down his face.

 


 

The icy claws of guilt speared Dorn deeply, nearly taking his breath away as nothing but pain coursed in his blood and though his very body itself. Regret stained every single facet of his past actions, though how could he ever know things would have turned out how they did? He remembered, in a flash through his mind, the man he almost killed for daring to say one of his Brothers were turning Traitor and going against their Father so long ago.

“There… is nothing I can say, for the neglect I have caused.” Dorn began, taking a deep breath as his eyes closed. Surely it wasn’t his fault, it honestly wasn’t anyone’s fault, not in the truest sense of the word.

There was only one entity responsible for that misery.

When Dorn opened his eyes again, he didn’t look at Perturabo. Instead, he kept his view downcast. “I know what I see, and I know that things are unlikely to ever change…” He gazed down further, as if seeing the little bits of detailing that would have given away how much of a machine Perturabo was, through his clothing.

“But it is improbability, not impossibility.”

Then he shifted his attention back upwards, staring into that tear-stricken face. “You make a choice, just as you have done, every step of the way here.”

 


 

Perturabo released his grip from Dorn’s chin and sat back down into his seat, nearly falling into that chair. His expression was still filled with grief, with resentment, and conflicted — but beyond even this, Perturabo appeared weary.

“That is not possible, Dorn and you of all people should be able to figure out why.” Perturabo said, his frustration clear though honestly there were likely many additional complications to the issue that Dorn couldn’t have known; and while he realized that, he made no attempts to remedy it.

“An improbability my calculations would likely return to as near as zero as to be astronomically unlikely, which is effectively still useless. And that is why I have already made my choice.” He growled, before picking up the goblet in front of him and draining the rest of the wine inside with a single long swallow.

He licked his lips exactly as he had before, savoring the taste of something he had not known in eons and would likely be without again for just as long, before continuing.

“I enacted that choice already, in coming here. And in that I also chose you. Do you not wonder what it is that I have done to your ship, Dorn?”

Chapter 15: Impasse

Summary:

The layers of shielding are numerous and thick — but the most unwelcome infiltrator of all, is the only one that can see right through them.

Chapter Text


 

“Nothing is impossible, Brother.”

Dorn remarked simply and that was just that for him, despite overwhelming evidence to the contrary, that did not matter to Dorn — for as long as he held the belief that he did, there would always be some sort of way.

He couldn’t bear the thought otherwise.

Of all Brothers lost forever. He refused to believe that there was nothing that could be done, even if for every Brother turned and every Brother dead, it twisted the knife deeper and deeper in his chest. That was simply one thing that he would never give up on.

There was no use in arguing though, but that didn’t mean he had given up.

Dorn shifted his attention away, and towards the center console.

And he remained silent.

 


 

Perturabo smirked, ignoring all that Dorn had to say on the matter regarding statistics and probabilities. As stubborn and dry as Dorn was, he somehow retained a disgusting and infuriating level of idealism; a trait that reminded him of another of their Brothers that he had the misfortune of still having to deal with from time to time — though in all other ways in Perturabo’s view, he and Dorn couldn’t have been more different. They were both insufferable, however.

But to press Dorn further on anything when he had his mind set, was as productive as arguing with a brick wall.

“I have interfaced with it, much to your little machine spirit’s discontent.” Perturabo continued, seemingly amused rather than angry that such obsolete tech would even attempt to keep him out. “The firewall was quite simple for me to bypass.”

 


 

Dorn sat back on his crate, arms slowly crossing as his thoughts were a mire — of starting to conceptualize the problem he saw in front of him, to starting to formulating more and more thoughts surrounding that. Branching out.

Improbable not impossible.

Even machines had margins of error.

"Not something that I would fault it for, considering it is a product of its time." Dorn said, almost dryly.

 


 

“Indeed, nor would I.” Perturabo smiled smugly, the ache in his core that truly never left him temporarily ignored in favor of the gloating he was now invested in.

“But I now have the capability to teleport myself aboard this vessel at any time of my choosing.” He explained with far too much mirth, and returned to the meal that was sitting in front of him, seemingly not having nearly as much trouble consuming it as he did earlier. In fact, he appeared to revel in it now.

 


 

Dorn hummed a note, arching a brow a moment later. "Then it stands to reason, even if I manage to get the ship back into the sky, you will be able to come aboard at your leisure?"

There was something Dorn seemed curious about, as he asked that question.

 


 

“Indeed!” Perturabo confirmed with no small satisfaction, and he took another bite of his food before pulling the spoon out of his mouth and holding it up, angling it toward Dorn as he spoke.

“No matter where you are,” Perturabo laughed dryly — a discordantly metallic, vain sound. “No matter where I am.” He revealed at last, taking true amusement in the situation and the way he gave that information a tiny bit at a time, each second its own victory. “Including that place you saw.”

Especially that place you saw.”

 


 

Dorn idly began to pour himself another goblet of the Amasec, "So you don't intend to imprison me then? As long as you have direct access to me at all times?"

He took his goblet and took a sip, watching Perturabo.

How else could Dorn take that? If Perturabo was to simply steal him away forever, why keep the ship connected, why state wherever he was? Surely if he was meant to be entombed, none of that actually mattered.

 


 

Perturabo seemed to stall for a moment; as if some function of his system experienced a glitch or error of some kind. In that passing millisecond his expression was entirely blank; before he lowered that carved utensil back into the bowl with an emphasized clack, face contorted by anger.

“Do you really think I can fly my transport ship with both of us in it, back to my homeworld?” Perturabo huffed. “As cramped as it already was? Not even my redesigned Logos form, which you are familiar with, is suitable for the task. You saw the size of the navigation throne. Envision it, how I must be in order to accomplish that — though the details of such a transformation no doubt elude you. Would you enjoy experiencing the time it took me to get here, in reverse, with so little room, like an animal confined inside a cage several sizes too small?”

"…I'd likely have to resort to breaking and twisting your bones to even get you to fit."

 


 

Even as Perturabo retorted in anger, Dorn remained rather neutral and impassive. "Of course not, and you wouldn't want that."

Of course Dorn couldn't know if Perturabo would simply disconnect their connection once through, but that didn't do anything to change what Perturabo had inadvertently stated mere moments ago.

 


 

"How the fuck could you profess to know what I want?!" Perturabo snapped violently, tired of being pressed and constantly challenged by Dorn's obnoxious, never ending attempts to humanize and defang him.

 


 

"Brother… you contradict yourself." Dorn narrowed his eyes as a glint shone across them, seeming to think on something more but didn't voice it as he then set his goblet down.

"But very well, if you want to do it your way, what is it that you want? What do you really want, Perturabo? What is it that you want that I have not already been willing to offer."

 


 

"I don't want anything you have to OFFER!" Perturabo raged, pounding his opposing fist against the table's surface; and he leaned forward again, snarling like a rabid animal as he stared hatefully across the table at his mortal enemy.

The tears he'd shed earlier had dried, but they threatened to well up again as he glowered in his petulant fit; and despite his cybernetically altered physiology his vital signs were clearly elevated — having been slowly increasing all this time; but now, they were bulleting up at a tremendous rate, as was his core temperature.

"I don't need you to provide anything I can't take for myself! I made that clear before, didn't I?"

He completely ignored the accusations of being contradictory, as if he'd never heard them.

 


 

"Why not?" Dorn pressed on, unwavering in his conviction to get an answer. "And is it taking if it is already given?" The ship trembled under the might of the tantrum being thrown in this closed space.

 


 

“Because it’s meaningless!” Perturabo screamed, finally confessing something vital that had been driving his actions all this time. And in doing that, the ephemeral thought from earlier actually coalesced into a concept he could identify. It was the very thing that made Dorn so much like Lorgar, the one trait that Perturabo found so distasteful that they both shared, the illogical drive that made the two of them so exasperating to deal with.

And the very concept he’d been arguing with by proxy, most of the day. Dorn had become even more stubborn than Perturabo remembered, wielding it against him at every turn as if it held some sort of value — from the offers he made ceaselessly, to the way he insisted that nothing was impossible…

“This happens on my terms, not yours!” Perturabo continued to argue as his vitals continued to increase; and he tried to distance himself from the realization he'd had — as it angered him even more, to know he was wasting his time debating against something so unprovable, so illogical and so entirely worthless.

 


 

The Thunderhawk trembled again, the sound rattling everything in the ship, so much so that some things even fell from where they had been situated, such as some of the scrimshawed bones lining the wall, clattered to the ground.

“Did your lines of code tell you it was meaningless? Did your algorithms spit that out into your peripherals?” Dorn countered, “Are you truly trying to become so far gone from your humanity that you won’t accept the fact that you can and could be wrong?” A heavy, heaving sigh escaped him.

“You try and try to erase those parts that make all of us human, but you can’t. You can’t!” Dorn’s voice was the one that rose up this time, in the same motion that he rose from his crate, throwing a hand out wide, gesturing. “I have tried, I have TRIED for MILLENNIA to erase the memory of Sanguinius’ slaying and Horus’ obliteration OUT of my mind. To get FATHER’S DEATH out of my head!”

Dorn was yelling now, whatever items hadn’t fallen before, had surely dropped down by now. “Every SINGLE BROTHER I have LOST, every single one that has TURNED, I have only ever thought about you all through all my WAKING MOMENTS. You all haunt me” Dorn’s voice broke.

“…I can’t sleep… I can’t dream, I am face to face with the daemons of my own failures… to protect every single one of you…” Tears had started at some point, but they did not stop now, they were falling down in steady trails as Dorn shouted himself hoarse.

“You will never get rid of that which makes us, us. You would kill yourself before you could even get to that point. You think it any different if it is Traitor or Daemon? No, it isn’t!” He clenched his hand into a fist, almost choking on his words, but it seemed like he wasn’t going to stop, not now, as the true weight came forth.

“No matter how much you deny yourself. You will always be Perturabo, I will always be Rogal Dorn, it matters not what has changed within bodies or our minds, we do not get to run from what our Father has bestowed upon us! For better or for worse!”.

Dorn pointed a finger towards Perturabo then. “YOU… DON’T GET. TO TELL ME… IT WAS MEANINGLESS WHEN I HAVE SUFFERED.”

 


 

Perturabo endured the fury, the righteous wrath of Rogal Dorn, unfurled for all that it was, at last — unhidden behind false agreeableness and insufferable platitudes. The ship shook so violently that even the machine spirit within trembled, Perturabo feeling the near-fright of mechanical instability — and with it as an out, he tried to convince himself that there was none of his own, within the depths of the system he had constructed as the armor to defend against his own traumas.

His own regrets.

He looked away, unable to stare at Dorn head on through most of it, but he never stopped watching out of his peripheral vision, not even a second of that sight lost — as much as it begrudged him to witness.

He scoffed at the mention of Sanguinius, shook his head at Horus and even dared to roll his eyes at the mention of their monstrous, intolerable shell of a Father, worse than any daemon — far worse than all the Ruinous Powers combined in Perturabo’s opinion. An opinion that led him first down the path of treason, and ended with him becoming a Daemon Primarch of Chaos Absolute. It was was all a far better outcome in Perturabo’s view, and it was upon being challenged with that past that Perturabo realized at last that he didn’t regret anything about it as much as he’d once thought he had.

And Dorn’s pompous, self-serving platitudes that it was all somehow his fault nearly dragged a genuine laugh out of Perturabo, that Dorn thought himself somehow within his right to take all of that blame unto himself in his sanctimonious quest to be better than everyone else.

Maybe the fool was always more similar to Lorgar than he’d originally thought.

Faith.

How Perturabo detested it.

A meaningless, empty concept that did nothing but set up pride before a fall, that false hope for those stupid enough to believe; to dare to dream — something he’d learned the hard way so long ago.

He turned back to face Dorn fully as the cords and cables that lined his face were blown back by the sheer force of that booming voice, clattering all around him but Perturabo was still unmoved as each and every word only allowed him the time to build himself back up.

But the verbal assault did not stop, Dorn intent to speak more than Perturabo had ever heard him say all at once, and his brows knitted together as the topic changed to something more personal. Something unexpected.

The shield that Perturabo had worked so hard to reinstate in these fragile moments shattered entirely as he could no longer run from the one thing that was at the center of everything that expanded in the ever increasing distance between them.

The one thing Perturabo honestly did regret.

It struck him so hard it nearly knocked him out cold for a second, upon him like a blow from his own hammer from the moment that word crossed his mind.

Martyrdom. Something he did not know if Dorn was even truly aware of, the disgusting details surrounding his own Ascension despite how instrumental Dorn himself had been in accomplishing that.

It had come in the background of those calculations that continued to chime in green and teal, Perturabo’s mind working out how he would spit his venom back in his Brother’s face, comparing him to Lorgar outright to shut his incessantly insufferable rambling down.

But everything changed then and there, as the one thing he’d been hiding from was dragged out into the light, kicking, screaming; bleeding.

No doubt Dorn was hiding from it too, even if he was unaware of how it all interconnected.

He stared at his Brother as the blizzard stilled at last, expression tired and blank though he felt as if he might implode in on himself before he could manage to piece everything together enough to speak his mind.

But the look in his adamantium eyes was remorseful and maybe even a little scared…

“I see,” Perturabo said flatly—as if he was unreachable and closed off, rejecting this conversation entirely—but the weight of everything he was now burdened by felt Sisyphean.

 


 

Dorn stood there in the following silence that came, two words that were uttered by his Brother and that was it. Perhaps Perturabo had more to say but even then, Dorn seemed to deflate quite a bit, arms dropping limply to his sides as his body ran so hot from this outburst that he was now sweating.

Overheated.

His chest rose and fell while he tried to keep himself breathing steadily after expending so much to speak and to yell and bring forth words he had kept to himself after all this time. Unable to bear it, Dorn shifted his attention away from Perturabo a moment later, voice failing him and no more words coming forth as he just…

…Stood there…

Feeling lost… and so entirely alone

Everything hurt.

 


 

Perturabo didn’t care about the Empire, didn’t care about the Heresy, didn’t care about his Brothers divided into one camp or the other — in truth, Perturabo didn’t even care about the 'Powers' he was assumed to serve.

The one and only thing Perturabo cared about any longer outside the pursuit of his own ambitions, was Dorn. The reason his emotions radiated outside the orbit of Medrengard, no matter how much of himself he replaced with circuitry and wires. His obsession. His single remaining obstacle, the last bastion of his fading vestiges of humanity. The one thing that kept him tethered to his past.

The second he slew Dorn, was the second he would succeed in his long term goals. The second he would experience his final Ascension, and cease to be Perturabo any longer.

And…

“Is that… why you felt the need to state to the entire galaxy that you were going to humiliate me, bring me home to pay for all I had done in an Iron Cage, then? To alleviate your suffering…? Or had you intended to use me as your method of suicide inside the Eternal Fortress I set up to be your grave?” Perturabo asked, but there was no fire, no spite, no aggression in his words although the contents of all he spoke were perhaps the most befitting of those emotions of all, unlike much of the petty vitriol he’d spat at his Brother since the moment they’d crossed paths again.

“I—” Perturabo choked, tears streaming down his face; and he shook his head in abject horror, realizing all at once that he might have finally understood Dorn’s true motivations all along…

…While also coming to the revolting conclusion that they were both…

“Oh, w—”

Repeating the past, right here, right now.

What was Medrengard, but the real Eternal Palace, not a decoy this time — but Dorn's tomb?

And why did it seem that Dorn was so willing to walk right into it?

“What… what are we…”

Perturabo brought both hands to his face, overcome by it all to the degree he couldn’t formulate any more words, but his CPU and fleshmind alike were reeling from far too much, far too many parallels formulating all at once. Not an overloard of raw data, but an overload of unprocessable emotions.

Every single one of them, detested and unwanted.

 


 

When Dorn finally decided to look back towards his Brother, his gaze was far more melancholic than before. What somber atmosphere had been present before had given way to a far deeper despondent air. His shoulders slumped further and everything that made him get up with vigor and fire earlier had disappeared entirely, leaving a man that looked so…

Tired.

“My anger… it had gotten the better of me.” He took a deep breath, closing his eyes as he answered that question, truthfully. “When I failed my duty and the Imperium was in ruins, Roboute came too late… and then immediately set about breaking the Legions up further…” He closed his eyes again, blinking away some of those tears that continued to fall… and fall.

“I rejected it… I knew my men would too, so when the challenge was set, I and my Legion jumped on the chance…to die. In glorious combat, no matter the odds. The Imperium no longer seemed to trust me. I had fallen far for my failures to protect them. I needed to atone for my sins…”

When he lifted his gaze again, he didn’t face Perturabo head on. “I intended to die there, I knew it was a futile fight, to go against the might of Iron Warriors, but maybe… just maybe. I would have found happiness in my final moments, justice perhaps. But that was taken from me… yet, after Roboute saved my men, they felt that they had been reborn, to fight onward in the name of the Imperium.”

Dorn sat back down on the crate, heavily so; it creaked under the sudden shift. “But I didn’t get my catharsis. I felt nothing. So… I just agreed with Roboute and carried this pain deep in my chest… everything that happened…”

“And now… now I do not know what to do…”

 


 

Perturabo brought his hands away from his face and sighed as Dorn relayed those details. He shook his head in frustration as he considered all this information, all things he knew of course, for he was never uniformed but in this case it was all only from a distance — data, rather than lived experience. There was much to consider, and many things that maybe needed to be said, in the eventual. Much of it far too heavy to speak now, and none of which he knew how to express.

He spared Dorn a glance, and as he gazed upon that troubled face once again he found that there was strangely no joy in witnessing his timeless enemy, the one he held so many grudges against — wrought despondent and miserable. It was a curious thing that he did not understand but in this case everything was so inseparably, inexorably tied to his own regrets that there was no reason to question the conflicts in his hearts this time. Still, it came unexpectedly, and had him at a loss.

There was only one thing he wanted right now. Something far simpler that solved nothing; a calling of the flesh rather than the cold logic of robotics, but he could not shove down that desire; and the longer he watched Dorn the greater it became, until he felt as though it might swallow him whole.

And there were several ways that he might go about fulfilling such a basic, physical need — but for reasons he wasn’t fully sure of, he tried the unthinkable.

“Will you… come to me?” He asked, in a voice so feeble he didn’t even recognize it.

 


 

Dorn slowly lifted his head though it almost seemed like it took effort for him to do so, a shuddering inhale heard, followed by a long, slow exhale. He lifted his hand to his face, wiping away some of the tears that did not stop falling, even when there was this brief interlude.

A minute lingered before he took the effort to actually stand, as if trying to move was difficult, entire body feeling as it was held down by weights.

He said nothing as he rounded the table, each step equally as slow until he finally reached Perturabo’s side, with Dorn never looking at him directly at any point.

 


 

Perturabo observed each lumbering, plodding step made toward him with surprise; and when Dorn had finally managed to make it to him, he did not break the tense silence that had descended upon the room. His head hurt, his throat was sore and his entire body ached — but none of it was pleasant; not from the thrill of combat nor the exertion of sport, and he knew that Dorn was no doubt under similar strain.

Honestly, Dorn looked absolutely at his limit despite how resilient he truly was. It made Perturabo wonder why he’d even come over here at all, doubting that he would from the start.

But here he was, somehow; in his weakness and depression, with far too much gone wrong between them to ever fix — still he came anyway, and without argument or debate. And Perturabo hadn’t spoken his words as a demand, but as a request.

Perturabo reached out and hooked an arm around Dorn’s back in a silent but firm statement, looking up toward him but not forcing this issue either as Dorn was so determined to not make eye contact.

 


 

The moment that Perturabo touched him, he had taken another breath; but this time it was far more shaky and uncharacteristically weak. All of this day had culminated to this moment, this fragility.

Somehow, that touch alone spurred him into pushing the table out of the way enough so he could actually sit on Perturabo's lap, upon his right leg.

He still did not utter a word as he turned his head and buried his face against Perturabo's right shoulder, right hand gripping the opposite shoulder, bunching the fabric he found there as he held on.

 


 

Perturabo scooted away until he had taken every available inch at his disposal inside that chair, all so that he could grab the slack of the red wrap that draped his body, and he pulled it with his free hand and looped that arm around Dorn‘s back as well — holding him securely to his chest and inside that warm, woolen chlamys.

A sob he couldn’t disguise in time broke from his aching throat, and as the tears he’d been biting back spilled over at last, he turned his head and placed his cheek against that shock of soft white hair, nuzzling it, feeling the softness along skin and metal alike.

How was Dorn here, now? Somehow despite everything that had led to this moment, this outcome felt to be nearly the most unbelievable part of all; a probability that was as close to 0 as the potentials Dorn kept proposing.

It felt so good; and yet it hurt him so very deeply, like a chainsword plunged straight into his chest, to hold that little body so closely to his own, now. Like a treasure he’d never stolen; like a reward he’d never earned.

“ἀγαπητὸς.” He whispered softly.

 


 

At some point Dorn had started to tremble quite a bit, running both hot and cold at the same time. Yet, when that cloak was wrapped around him tighter, he found himself falling in deeper into the hold and the warmth he found now.

Tears surely stained Perturabo's clothing but he didn't do anything to stop them either, still holding his shoulder.

As that word was whispered, the sensation he felt was more than enough to know what it likely meant, and so he responded in kind, voice barely above a whisper.

"Ráhkis."

 


 

Something in Perturabo’s chest shifted at the sound of that foreign word that sank deep into him; knowing on some instinctive level what it must have meant though there was no recollection of it in his mind, nor record of it in his database. He recorded it himself, immediately, spelled to the best of his ability, left blank — immortalized for him and him alone as it would be deliberately stored away and never shared across the datamatrix.

A selfish victory, and perhaps a small one; yet he took great pride in knowing that it was his word alone.

Was it foolish to dream that it meant even something half as fond as he hoped it might?

 

 

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He raised his head, staring blankly into the distance as the tears continued to stream down his cheeks in rapid, oily streaks.

Whether it did or not, he didn't have time to dwell on it as his wounded, negative mind insisted on something else that needed to be said, even if Dorn did not feel for him the way he found himself wishing.

“Listen and listen well, Brother.”

 


 

There was a very gentle grunt given to Perturabo's words, as if Dorn didn't have the energy to speak any further at the moment, and with how hoarse his voice had become minutes ago, it was no wonder what the cause of that would be.

He did lift his head though barely enough, turning so he was facing towards Perturabo's neck.

Everything still hurt.

His thoughts were a mix between a jumbled mess to pure static and white noise. It took much in him to actually focus.

 


 

Perturabo slipped one hand inside the cloak that he used to cover Dorn like a blanket, rubbing his fingers along Dorn’s back as he spoke.

Was that a gesture to sooth Dorn, or himself?

These words would not come easily, but they had to be said. Now that all had been made clear, it came together to form an outcome that was in no way acceptable. But even if saying this undermined his authority in some way, he had to make such an important point clear and in no uncertain terms — though perhaps it might make some things easier in the future when Dorn inevitably badgered him about it.

He took a deep breath, then exhaled sharply; preparing.

“Though your blood on my hands would easily fulfill the final requirements I need to complete my goal, something I have been striving for ceaselessly for the past ten thousand years.” Perturabo sighed, and shook his head softly as he stared out, seeing nothing ahead of him.

“I will not be your out Dorn. Your solution, your easy oblivion. I refuse. Is that enough to stop your insufferably persistent questions?”

 


 

Amidst the noise, the touch along his back seemed to draw him further out of the mental state that he found himself falling into. Everything was almost too much, too much stimulation for his mind, his body. None of it was truly good, but things had been said that had weighed heavy on his hearts the entire time— no, on his very soul.

As he waited for the hammer to fall, sensing Perturabo’s hesitation and contemplation in equal measure, Dorn felt himself begin to brace in anticipation.

For what?

And as soon as he spoke, it was like a punch to the gut. His mind almost made it slip away protectively, within the new buzz that filled his head. His last lifeline… Perturabo’s final wall that stood between him and his goal, that he could break down to set himself free, but instead of doing that, Perturabo was reinforcing it.

How easily his Brother could have killed him many times over from today alone. The contradictions held, showed these two sides.

The ultimate goal versus what he came to truly desire when faced with the opportunity.

Dorn gripped tighter against the cloth between his fingers, until his knuckles were paler than the rest of him. “I…” Dorn’s voice fell until he took another breath, entire form shuddering, “I had thought to use that… this… your ‘coming here’…as a means to repent… to atone but…” HIs grip on the cloth lessened a bit. “I don’t want that anymore… I don’t know what I truly…want…"

"I can’t say I won’t keep…asking…”

Oh, how his hearts hurt.

“But… I don’t…want you to hurt, Brother. I meant all I have said and… continue… to say. And I don’t want your end… I don’t want mine anymore.” Fresh tears trailed down his face and he tried to blink them away. “I want us… You’ve… reawakened a spark within me that I long thought lost in the depths of my… despair.”

It truly hurt his throat to keep talking from both the strain of this moment and years of disuse, voice lessening to a rasping whisper but he had to speak, so Perturabo knew…

He knew…

 


 

Perturabo felt the tremors taking over Dorn’s entire form, and he responded by holding him tighter as he struggled to speak. Perturabo’s other hand never stopped those soothing gestures even as it too began to shake, the weight of the culmination of everything coming to the surface nearly too much to bear.

But if Dorn was willing to listen, he was finally willing to talk no matter if he shut down again later. For all that he lied to himself, that he did not care about much of the past, that he had cut those wires, severed all other remaining connections — those events were still part of him just as Dorn had said. It all led to creating what Perturabo eventually became.

And all those many things that Perturabo swore he had freed himself from, apparently still kept Dorn in a prison of his own making.

A prison that he seemed to want to hand control over, to Perturabo instead.

And no matter how the Lord of Iron handled that finality, from killing Dorn to entombing him within the Mainframe of Medrengard, he would lose the remaining vestiges of himself in the process.

He no longer had a soul, after all. But those hearts, despite the third he had installed; an inorganic processor that regulated his system — every beat, still beat for Dorn no matter what he tried, the one part of him he could never gouge out.

“With one decisive victory, one final siege… it all comes to an end.” Perturabo explained, though he did not sound much at all like himself, that statement ringing hollow and barren.

“The last engagement of the Iron Cage. That’s why I came, and that’s what you offered me.”

“But…”

Perturabo slid his hand from beneath the folds of his cloak, to cradle the back of Dorn’s head.

What had he meant by ‘us’…

“…to my surprise I quickly realized I didn’t want that either. But I’d already bargained with myself, tried to come up with a plan that didn’t require your death… I’d conceded my own victory before I even made planetfall. I suppose all the visions you saw were of my CPU struggling to offer feasible… solutions to the problem because there isn't one single part of me that will allow your death. But there was a reason I came alone.”

Not a single subject under my command; not daemon, man nor machine… even knows where I am…

"…knows where you are. And it will stay that way."

 


 

Dorn continued to listen, even still, breath hitching at the mention of the Iron Cage once more. It truly had been one of his many regrets, perhaps the largest — but none of that was the point now. It was the past, no matter how much it still haunted him, there was nothing that could be changed about it.

What could change, however.

Was now.

And the future.

‘But…’

He drew himself from those thoughts, to bring his full attention to bear. As that final hammer strike fell, Dorn pressed into the hand that was cradling the back of his head, almost as insistent as those little tendrils of cables that had sought for his attention while the weight of those words settled deep within Dorn.

The fact that no one else was here was not lost to Dorn but… no one knew where he was? Absolutely no one? Not only that, but that no one knew where Perturabo was. How alarming would that be in Medrengard?

He could only imagine…

"I see, I…"

So much had changed.

“Was…” A pause before he continued, moving his hand now towards Perturabo’s neck, touching what flesh he could. “Even through all your calculations… did you ever think you’d find your end here? Deep down to find a release…?” Even if Dorn knew that daemons always found a way to return, that didn’t matter for him, not in this context.

“Freedom…”

 


 

Perturabo couldn’t help but notice how insistent Dorn’s body language was in regards to being touched despite the seriousness of this conversation that overwhelmed both of them. And he couldn’t resist indulging that insistence, fingers now busied within that thick white hair that was quite possibly the softest thing he’d ever felt.

He also continued to hold Dorn tightly like the precious Treasure that he truly was, unable to fully detach from the feeling of holding him so close even as Perturabo’s less… emotionally driven components insisted on feeding him a constant stream of data; system somehow seemingly nearly frantic to indulge in building stream of organic input — though such a judgment was illogically human to even consider.

A dry, sarcastic laugh came from his scratchy, aching throat; and he shook his head at the impossible question Dorn had posed to him, this potential far easier for him to remain certain of.

“Absolutely not.” Perturabo replied humorlessly. “Freedom… is a concept only one such as idealistic as you would project on this situation.” He affirmed, though he did not sound as bitter about that accusation as he should have. He nearly sounded fond.

And all the while that he’d been speaking since Dorn had dared to touch his neck, a cable had been snaking its way through the wires, before the tip had finally managed to slink over Dorn’s hand as if tasting him.

 


 

The touch to Dorn's hair brought a quiet sigh from him, still held so tightly and securely. Had Dorn ever felt like this before? Perhaps in far gone times when he was back on Inwit, but he certainly hadn’t felt it since being within the Imperium and following the Emperor’s orders.

“I suppose… that is fair. Though I will never lose it.” Dorn replied, voice sounding far smaller than before, even as Perturabo reacted not with bitterness, but simple affirmations.

As that cable slid over his hand, he slowly turned his palm up to it, all the while staring at Perturabo, gazing into those pale blue eyes now that tears weren’t blurring his vision. “I do not seek your death, in any capacity, Perturabo. I hope you understand that… and now it seems… well. What is it in the future for us, now?”

 


 

“I know you won’t,” Perturabo said easily, “nor would I… expect you to.” There was a moment’s hesitation there, as if he had substituted a word beyond his original thought.

But whatever it was, it died out as his eyes met Dorn’s, and as that proclamation was spoken there was a shift in his demeanor he couldn’t hide as exposed as he was at such close range, something beyond those cold blue calculations that nearly dared to hope.

Almost.

As soon as Dorn brought up the future, Perturabo appeared conflicted.

“I am not sure, frankly.” He stated bluntly, revealing more in that single statement than perhaps any he’d spoken before, as it proved that he had doubts; uncertainties, despite acting all this time as if he did not.

”For ten thousand years I have worked endlessly with a specific goal in mind. One that I… find that I can no longer accomplish, at least not in the way I’d intended.”

Perturabo lied, understanding at last that Dorn’s death was likely the linchpin that kept the gears from grinding toward that ultimate end, and there would be no substitute. He’d try to find alternative means; at least that was what he told himself now, though with each passing moment he desired that reality less and less.

A fact he had all but accepted with a single bite of stew.

His humanity lived and died with Rogal Dorn.

Yet even as he found himself longing to reclaim things long since sacrificed and irreparably harmed, that cold unliving strand of metal trailed over Dorn’s palm curiously, as if it had a will of its own.

“But I… no… longer desire your death in any capacity, if that wasn’t abundantly clear…” Perturabo confessed, damn well aware he’d been protecting Dorn from the outset by keeping his location a secret, working against himself every step of the way in this cursed endeavor.

 


 

“So we are at an impasse…” Dorn said, voice still soft; and for someone that had shown so much fire before, he sounded so fragile. Dorn didn’t press for details on that goal even if he did pause when it was brought up again, showing that he was thinking upon it, even as Perturabo continued to speak.

They were being open.

“You made it clear, and for that I am grateful… and I no longer wish todie, anymore. “ He ran his thumb over the cable, but not sparing it a glance as he was still so fixated on his Brother instead.

There was something he seemed to want to say, a hesitation — before he finally  opened his mouth to say what he wanted to.

“Something… has changed, Brother. I do not mean only us but… I, I feel it, which is why I can’t give up anymore. Not even for you. Hope renewed itself. It brought you to me… surely there is something. If it wasn't for that, you'd never have seen me…”

His posture shifted then as he slumped a bit, "But that is what I will… cling to." Then he straightened up again. "Yet, for now, you and I are here. Together."

 


 

“You and your hope, your faith,” Perturabo sneered, as if those words had a deeply foul taste. “Well, if that is what has caused you to rethink things, I suppose I won’t challenge it even if I can’t profess to share your same outlook. Nor would I want to. I’ve had my fill of meaningless idealism and so-called dreams for the future.”

From their detestable Corpsefather; when he was still powerful enough to be the monster he truly was, to the pompous impotent fool that was Horus, to the insane lunatic Lorgar and even to Magnus, the one amongst them all he truly respected, it seemed all could fall prey to such mindsets — not to mention Dorn himself, the most insufferable of all. Perturabo truly detested such concepts, never able to escape from them until he’d broken free to exist on his own terms.

Ironically of all the family, the one he found the least disagreeable these days was Mortarion, despite having deep grudges against him that were as old as any of the reasons levied against the others that he resented. But they could work together easily enough when required.

Truly, he preferred the detached, emotionless interfaces of his machinery, to all of them.

Except Dorn, for confounding reasons he couldn’t begin to properly justify. But he immediately disliked the thought that Dorn might try to slip away or focus his attention where permission had not been granted.

The intensity burned hot again inside those cruel electric blue eyes, both hands gripping tighter around Dorn, particularly the one that wrapped around the back of his head. And the cable that had been ‘investigating’ Dorn looped over his wrist like a rope as Perturabo spoke again, his voice shaking and low.

“And may I remind you that you belong to me now, little Brother. You sound as if you somehow think that has changed. Your situation remains effectively identical.”

 


 

Dorn couldn’t help but smile at that, even if it was a brief one, to see Perturabo so adamant on denying such things. Perhaps that would always be the way of it, yet there was little way to deny how things had turned out in rather unexpected ways. Even Perturabo had to see that, it was obvious and it wasn’t as if Dorn didn’t point it out earlier.

“Of course…”

But he wouldn’t say anything on it now.

Then everything shifted and Dorn found himself being grabbed by both hands and that tendril he had given his palm to. A lighter grunt escaped his throat, his gaze trained onto those blue eyes.

“I have not… forgotten…”

 


 

“I’d be appeased to spend the rest of the 'future' with you right here where you are, in fact.” Perturabo tucked his chin against his chest as he glared maliciously into those hypnotic hazel eyes as he made his threat clear.

 


 

Dorn didn't relent in his own stare, this entire situation having steadily shift him away from the absolutely agony and the sheer heaviness of all that had happened.

He latched onto it.

"Truly? In my Thunderhawk?" Dorn had the barest of smirks upon his lips.

 


 

Perturabo huffed into that amused face, pushing back with a barely-there smile of his own a second later — one that managed to be unsavory despite that thin veil resting over what was clearly expressed arrogance. His gaze bore into those glistening dark eyes that now appeared to sparkle.

“As long as you’re on my lap, sure.” He retorted petulantly.

 


 

"Very well then." Dorn replied easily enough, seemingly satisfied with something as he pulled against the hand on his head so he could bury his face against Perturabo's shoulder and neck again, breaking eye contact.

 


 

All of that fire, that spite drained out of Perturabo immediately as Dorn moved in closer; and he made a noise as if the wind had been knocked out of his lungs despite it all being quite gentle. He looked down for a moment, seeing that snowy hair at the edges of his view, and he turned his neck and rested his cheek against the top of Dorn’s hair, the hand that was now empty returning to its place along the back of Dorn’s head. Even the tendril that had been threatening Dorn a moment ago, joined in, draping loosely along his shoulders like an oversized necklace.

Perturabo’s arm wrapped tightly around Dorn now that the distance between them shrank, and he held onto him as if he never wanted to let him go.

In truth, he didn’t. And he knew that from the moment things between them grew complicated.

He'd never expected that Dorn could… would want…

"…optimal."

Perturabo whispered softly.

 


 

As Dorn heard those words, there was no doubt that Perturabo could feel the smile form against his neck. It was a small one, but enough, as his whole body relaxed.

And he whispered.

"ἔρως."

 


 

A rough, pained groan burst from Perturabo’s throat at that word, not expecting to hear Dorn say it, spoken so distinctly it was almost as if he were a native speaker, a returned ghost uttering a language long considered dead.

 

 

….

   ….

      ….

>….

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Perturabo laughed joylessly at the unnatural green tinted vista seen only to him, his system immediately somehow both clinging to and rejecting that word because Dorn had spoken it, though Olympian was the basis of the programming language he’d coded into his very interface, his processors still stuck on the equation that it had been tasked with solving in the background all this time, constantly returning that same result over and over again.

But that didn’t stop the sound from sinking past his circuitry, into his very bones; and like a mountain quaking, he shuddered all around Dorn, unable to hold it in.

“Do… you… even know what you’re saying?” Perturabo questioned in a rough, aching voice that wasn’t as accusatorial as he tried to make it seem, as he desperately sought an easy escape from it all.

 


 

Dorn slowly lifted himself back from clinging to Perturabo’s body, and the expression on his face was clearly softer now, gentler, even for someone that looked so rugged as he did. Once he succeeded in locking their gazes together, much was revealed.

Oh, how heavy the hearts were. All of them.

“I may not know the direct translation, but I know the sensation I feel… when I say it, or when you had said it.”

 


 

Perturabo felt Dorn shift, and he tried to make himself as iron as he was manipulated, dreading what he knew must have been coming. When they locked glances again, his face was aggressively neutral, not from the natural lack of expression but from force as he tried to will away every trace of emotion from his features. But that didn’t disguise the man inside the machine as much as he might have assumed, and hoped that it did.

His eyes—weary and longing—likely gave him away.

“Yet I do not believe in it. Or that such a thing even exists.” Perturabo stated bitterly. “And not even the most technologically advanced system in all the galaxy can prove otherwise. I've been trying for far longer than I care to discuss.”

 


 

"Then I will say it as many times as it is necessary, until your code can no longer ignore it."

Dorn responded, his voice not aggressive as before, but it was the tone he used when he made it clear that he was not going to stand down from his beliefs.

There was a strong measure of conviction.

 


 

Perturabo scowled at that, those words spoken like an oath; and he knew then and there, Dorn would not be deterred. He looked infinitely more drained somehow, though his hold around Dorn’s back never loosened. The hand that Dorn had shaken off again was now resting atop Dorn’s shoulder, Perturabo’s fingers nearly brushing against the tip of the cable that still draped around his Brother's body.

For all his protesting, it was genuinely clear that Perturabo had no intentions of letting Dorn go, both physically in this moment and in the greater context.

In some view, it was perhaps more honest to deem Perturabo the one here who was the prisoner.

“Always unreasonably stubborn.” He said dryly, “there is no point in even trying to argue with you when get that look in your eyes…”

He’d not meant to gaze into them so deeply, so affectionately, but the wonder he felt when staring straight into that hazel sunrise that filled his view was not something he could hide so easily.

Until this day, he’d never been so close to Dorn before, always watching him from afar…

Now, with the way Perturabo stared at him, it was as if he simply did not only doubt that ἔρως existed, but rather that he doubted that Dorn himself existed at all.

 


 

Dorn continued to stare his Brother down for a moment and then another after that particularly dry comment. But as their gazes continued to contest one another, Dorn read everything his Brother could not say. From fear or stubbornness, or denial; it didn't matter.

He damn well knew that his own stare was revealing much in turn, everything he had felt and gone through. Even how the light never seemed to have left the moment they laid eyes upon each other, no matter how dire things became.

He had been completely despondent from their very first conversation face to face, but since the battle, everything changed.

"I'm hereRáhkis." Dorn's voice was so much frailer now.

 


 

The pining, burning ache resonating deep even within his soulless processing core was visible through his eyes, so profound and seemingly endless that perhaps it didn’t even really matter, at least regarding concerns such as these—human concerns— that he no longer had one.

That did not make him any less dangerous, whether viewed as venerated or condemned in his Ascension, as he was still a Daemon Primarch — but there was not one doubt that he was also, cyborg or not — still Perturabo.

For all the passions and emotions and desires that had always driven him, it synthesized eons ago as his longing for Dorn to finally see him.

His mouth distorted into a frown as his teeth pressed together, jaw set upon being called Ráhkis for a second time, the word so sweet and musical that he intrinsically understood; and it made his primary heart quiver so sharply in his chest when he heard it that his pulmonary regulator activated.

“My ἀγαπητὸς.” Perturabo replied in a deep, breathy roll, the emphasis on that last syllable like an engine purring, even as the tears had already begun to fill his eyes again.

How had he finally managed to capture Dorn’s attention, when he'd worked so hard all this time to destroy all he'd ever been?

He doubted this reality as much as clung to it.

 


 

Dorn leaned in closer this time, resting his forehead against his Brother’s own, his facial hair no doubt tickling against Perturabo’s skin as he kept this position, just staring, reading Perturabo to the core, especially after hearing that word. A word so similar to his and he damn well knew it.

He felt wetness again at the corners of his eyes as he took a shuddering breath, hot against Perturabo’s lips where there was barely an inch between them.

Yours.”

His hand dropped down to rest upon Perturabo’s waist and he gently grabbed at the clothing there, if only to have something to hold on to while his other arm was partially around his Brother.

 


 

Tears fell, soaked up by the white hair that lined his Brother’s face, Perturabo not able to control them any longer upon that confirmation.

The hand placed upon Dorn’s shoulder moved up; and he caressed him gently — far more gently than the cyberdaemonic entity he’d become, should have been capable of…

Those fingers explored, rubbing above Dorn’s ear, along that patch kept short, as silk beneath his touch before tracing a path further up, traveling through the tufts that felt more like velvet than anything that could be described as hair.

If he’d known Dorn felt like this so many years ago, he might have lost control of himself completely…

“Have you always been so soft, Rogal?” Perturabo finally asked, something that was immediately on his mind anytime he indulged in this luxury.

 


 

Dorn exhaled shakily as those fingers moved along his hair, feeling the short shave to the thicker and longer shock of bone-white hair, all so soft to the touch it was a wonder, whatever he did with it. And Perturabo's attention felt so good…

The question forced a laugh from him, a very soft one — before he finally responded, "I wouldn't know, no one has told me I was before."

 


 

Perturabo scoffed at that, trying to ignore the shiver that small laugh sent down his spine. “Well you are. You feel di—” he stopped short, eyes widening as he realized how unfiltered he’d become in these last few minutes; and had lost all sense of reason in the process.

Frantically, he lunged forward, pressing his lips forcefully against Dorn’s before he could question the issue, as the fingers that had vanished inside that cloud of white fluff grabbed a handful and tugged roughly.

 


 

There was not much space left to claim as Perturabo pressed a kiss upon his lips, causing Dorn to groan at the same time as his hair was grabbed and tugged.

His hand moved from his Brother's waist to grab at the cloth covering his chest, preventing himself from falling back, even if Perturabo had him more than secured.

For a moment his eyes were wide but soon they slowly fell closed.

 


 

He didn’t know if Dorn had caught on at all to what had nearly slipped out, but Perturabo was captivated by the single noise he’d forced out of his Brother’s mouth, and he slipped his tongue inside the instant he’d been given such a Golden Opportunity, groaning deeply as he smiled against Dorn’s lips.

The taste of food and wine was still present but that couldn’t disguise the flavor of Dorn himself, something that drove Perturabo wild every time he sampled it. There was absolutely nothing about him that didn’t set Perturabo’s every sense alight; and as he forced his tongue deeper into Dorn’s mouth it was abundantly clear that he’d not yet had his fill.

 


 

As Dorn opened his mouth and Perturabo's tongue slipped in, he pushed against his Brother, reveling in the taste and the closeness alike that was soon granted to him.

Every push forwards from Perturabo was met with the start of submission as Dorn did not fight during any step of the way.

The smile against his lips was returned with one of his own as his mind did in fact discern what was the likely word that would have followed, had Perturabo continued to speak.

It was touching, all the same.

 


 

Perturabo’s efforts were rewarded with an enthusiasm that perhaps he should have come by now to expect, at least to some degree; but as he felt Dorn’s body relax and his kiss reciprocated, his system was flooded with pleasure chemicals created just as much by his own hazy, fog-thick shock as by what he was experiencing.

For all he claimed to want to force Dorn—kicking, fighting, screaming—to take it and endure, having him actually agreeable, reciprocating was nothing short of intoxicating. A wish so far removed from Perturabo’s sense of reality he’d never even been able to fantasize about such things past the earliest days of his attraction — and even then he’d never taken it very far within the confines of his childish, wishful thinking.

The arm that had been holding Dorn so securely finally moved, slipping past layers of thin fabric and dense wool, traveling suggestively lower to gauge how Dorn would react to such a thing…

 


 

It took a moment, but Dorn shifted as soon as he felt that hand move lower and lower, creeping ever down the robe he wore and so Dorn moved and opted to turn his body fully now towards Perturabo.

It only took a couple of seconds of fumbling until he was straight out straddling Perturabo in the chair that could surprisingly hold both of their massive weights combined.

Dorn pulled back after a few more seconds, eyes opening and staring into electric blue.

 


 

Perturabo gazed back into eyes that seemed surprisingly, deliberately seductive now, groaning into that kiss as he felt Dorn move to reposition himself; hearts pounding fiercely as he wondered what Dorn was doing as he shifted and moved about until at last, those thick, rock hard thighs encircled him.

Perturabo’s huge hands moved down, around, until he had his fingers wrapped around them, digging in and holding firmly as he continued to flick his tongue inside that hot, wet mouth.

 


 

Dorn sighed into that kiss, still meeting that gaze as much as his body met his Brother's own, mouth opening wider to allow Perturabo's long tongue to press onwards.

It had been a very long and emotional evening… day…? Dorn didn't quite know anymore, never had time mattered but now?

Now it did.

Through the emotional turmoil and ups and downs punctuating so many events throughout their reunion, Dorn had come to wonder how there was ever a time before this.

No matter…

This would change, now and in the future.

Dorn welcomed it, willingly and thoroughly.

Passion ran through his veins, love and affection in his gaze, adoration in the hold that was returned to Perturabo's waist.

He never let go.

Chapter 16: Function and Form

Summary:

As curiosity grows and desires reignite, discoveries are made.

Chapter Text


 

Perturabo continued to kiss Dorn, tongue and teeth shoved against that awaiting mouth with a need that bordered on savagery; carried away and lost in the moment — something that while perhaps crude and without elegance, was so much more sincere, softer than anything he’d known yet despite the inherent sloppiness. This wasn't dominance, it was desperation.

How could it be like this, he wondered; uncertain, unknowing. Emotions welling up inside him that sometimes felt good; other times cresting well beyond such a basic description, bordering on euphoria — and sometimes it hurt so bad it felt like it might dismantle him, piece by piece.

Now it was somehow all of these, to witness that resonance in Dorn’s gaze —  unlike anything he’d ever known, ever felt worthy of; and yet on some intrinsic, intuitive level he could still manage to identify what he saw…

And in that moment he felt a prickling inside his chest.

 

 

….

   ….

      ….

ἔρως?_

 

 

Perturabo refused to give confirmation, ignoring that readout as he stared back into those eyes that were so unfiltered and all-encompassing that it put a new kind fear straight into his system, but he didn’t have it in him to back down.

The cable draped over Dorn’s shoulders all this time, moved suddenly, pulling back and repositioning itself before resuming what appeared to be its original intent —  to investigate him, the smooth, cold tip trailing behind Dorn’s ear and snaking through his hair.

 


 

Dorn continued to kiss Perturabo, meeting every single clash in turn till his beard was damp with their saliva, unnaturally slick; and managing to moisten his chin at some points as Perturabo was treated to the touch of beard and muttonchops against his face time and time again, drawing low rumbling moans from an eager throat.

If Perturabo was attempting to make Dorn disconnect from everything and only think about him, he was doing quite an excellent job, as all of Dorn’s senses were hyper tuned onto his Brother, taking in as much sensory information as he could, not unlike the constant readouts that Perturabo observed.

As that cable began to explore, Dorn found himself shuddering as cool metal trailed along his skin and into his hair, bringing a much different sensation in comparison to how thoroughly warm he was feeling.

The shift in sensations made goosebumps rise along the portions of his skin that were still exposed to the elements.

 


 

Perturabo was entranced, dragging his long tongue in and out of Dorn’s mouth with deep, slow strokes — seeming nearly hypnotized at times, reveling in the taste of Dorn and the way that feathery soft facial hair brushed over his skin and the cool black metal that framed his jaw, which was every bit as sensitive as the organic parts of him.

In his urgency and salivation, the curved coils that were bolted into his cheekbones had begun to secrete warm oil into his mouth — whether he was doing that inadvertently due to the tone and nature of his thoughts, or whether there was some unexpected reflex triggered by his growing arousal was unknown, but that slickness only made the way he penetrated between Dorn’s lips and far into his mouth far more lewd by the addition of lubrication.

It added a slickness and a flavor that Dorn was no doubt growing accustomed to by now.  But if not, if Perturabo continued to have his way, he certainly would in due time.

As as this moment continued, another cable had joined in — this second one seeming a bit more ‘shy’ in comparison to the one that was nearly overly eager to poke around and explore; but it too was enthusiastic now as they sprang from opposing sides of Perturabo’s scalp in unison and wrapped around Dorn’s head, feeling around and prodding through that field of soft hair like alien feelers.

 


 

At some point Dorn had to pull away though it was increasingly difficult with the cables currently wrapping themselves around his head.

Yet, once he pulled back enough to claim some space, dripping with the viscous saliva, he took a much needed moment or two to simply breathe; panting hard as he continued to stare into Perturabo's eyes.

Then he boldly leaned back and pressed his head into the two cables, coiling this way and that.

 


 

As soon as Dorn broke away, Perturabo snapped out of whatever trance he’d been in, gaze glassy and unfocused as he gasped for breath, panting loudly through his open mouth — like he’d entirely forgotten to breathe. Did he even… need to breathe? Unconfirmed either way but as Dorn struggled for air, so did he as he stared at Dorn with fascinated, dilated eyes.

And while Dorn encouraged those cables, they in turn continued to rub and twist around his head in a way that was nigh affectionate — though if that was simply projecting feelings on a device that could not experience such, was as unclear as everything else about Perturabo was, though it was evident he enjoyed the tactile sensations they provided either way, as they moved like flexible, specialized fingers through soft hair.

He pulled that red chlamys away from their bodies, letting the thick, heavy garment fall around them and dangle from Dorn’s lower back to vent the growing heat shared between them before returning his hands to possessively clinch around Dorn’s strong, muscular thighs.

 


 

As soon as that chlamys was pulled away, Dorn sighed in relief as that rising heat was now no longer continuing to build and trapped by excess layers. How hot his body was running made him enjoy those cool cables all the more as they lingered through hair dampened with sweat.

Dorn's thighs clenched underneath those hands and he shimmied himself forward, moving his hand as he positioned his legs around Perturabo’s waist, trapping himself further in the chair and relinquishing any remaining chance of escape. This arrangement also forced him to spread his legs further to to the difference of their sizes.

Now he could look down onto Perturabo for once, but not by much at all.

Perturabo…”

 


 

Perturabo couldn’t mask the expression of genuine surprise that came over him upon witnessing how aggressively assertive Dorn was, provocative in all ways and fully engaged well beyond being a simple passive participant in this. He was invested and had a will of his own.

Quite a strong will at that, one that went far beyond endurance.

He swallowed loudly as he felt those thick legs open wide and wrap around him, thoughts quickly spinning out of control and then their lower bodies made contact — with gravity and pressure working in tandem, and Perturabo hissed through his teeth, eyes narrowed as he throbbed and pulsed lewdly against the body pressed so intimately against his own.

He could feel Dorn’s cock poking into his stomach, the underside of his balls from below and the cleft of that sizeable perfectly round ass so tauntingly hovering above him — every bit of it meltingly hot like stepping into a warm bath.

“Yes…” Perturabo replied gruffly as he canted his head to the side in order to meet that glare fixed upon him, the glint in his own stare bordering on unhinged.

 


 

Dorn hooked his left arm around the back of the chair and part of Perturabo’s shoulder while using his right to reach down and undo the yellow sash that had cinched his robe closed. It was pulled off, cast aside to drape over the chair along Perturabo’s left side.

The robe opened by that brief motion and freed the lower portions of it from being trapped beneath him in his new position. He wore nothing underneath it, as the robe had been long enough — resting against his knees to keep everything perfectly hidden and did not indicate the total lack of undergarments until this very moment.

He tried to ignore the sensation of being so exposed for now, to focus on the task he wanted to undertake. Of which he soon also revealed, as his hand appeared in front of Perturabo’s face expectantly. “I want to ride you, Brother, would you provide your… saliva?”

He was serious about this request it seemed, as his voice was clear and his gaze was heady with unfiltered lust.

 


 

Perturabo stared hungrily, drool running from the corner of his open mouth as he stared in shock at the sight that was revealed before his lecherous eyes. Dorn’s perfect, compact body; shimmering in the light in a way that was beyond anything skin alone could accomplish, that fine layer of barely visible underfur making every ripple and curve of muscle practically glow.

He wanted to devour Dorn, an urge that never truly left him, but was brought to the front every time he was given a chance to see what was always hidden from his obsessive eyes…

He growled and shifted beneath the weight balanced on his lap, about to lose his mind as he realized that curving, erect cock pressing against him was only separated by the clothing that he wore, Dorn having been entirely naked under that paper-thin robe all this time.

His head jerked up violently as he pulled his eyes away from the feast before him as a truly unthinkable, obscene request was made; and as Perturabo scrutinized Dorn’s face, he was taken aback to see determination and lust staring back at him.

A dry tut of a laugh left Perturabo’s lips, and he drew those invasive cables away, slipping them back into the strands that fell down his back.

That strange noise Dorn had heard a few times by now broke the silence again, a distinctly odd and unmistakable mechanical whirring sound accompanied by the spinning of fans embedded somewhere deeper within his system as his oil glands activated. He tilted his head down and spit crassly into Dorn’s awaiting palm, a generous amount of a translucent, faintly chartreuse substance appearing.

 


 

When those glands activated, Dorn’s eyes grew wide and dilated, the steady yet fast beatings of his hearts only seemed to accelerate even further for a few seconds until they returned to the new normal pace. It truly seemed that he was becoming quite accustomed to hearing that sinful sound, and his body was learning to instinctively react to it.

Then, as soon as that thick substance was deposited into his palm, Dorn took a moment, finally drawing his attention away from Perturabo so he could begin using his thumb to spread it over his palm and fingers. At times he kept his fingers close together, other times he began to spread them apart, just to watch the thick liquid spread like spider webs between his fingers.

“Mmm…”

Dorn hummed, watching Perturabo out of his peripheral vision as he dipped his head down further and then slipped that coated hand down. Using his thighs, he pushed himself up barely enough slip his hand behind himself yet hidden under the robe.

What he did was concealed from sight unless Perturabo tried to both crane his head around to Dorn’s backside and pull that robe back in tandem, but surely Perturabo knew what was going on anyway as soon as Dorn held his breath and his face contorted as he began to spread that specialized saliva along his flesh.

At times Dorn even jumped a bit, feeling the warmth of his hand and the texture of what Perturabo had created.

 


 

That thick, greasy ‘saliva’ was certainly warmed quickly, the smell of it hitting the air as soon as it was produced, spreading out around them; vaguely olivaceous and citrusy, with notes of grape leaves and mint. A one of a kind smell, as was the taste — crafted to be pleasant as well as effective, a quality Perturabo had deliberately synthesized so that it would not be revolting as it was a permanent part of his build and he was constantly forced to swallow it.

But it was being increasingly, inseparably, instinctually linked with sex, one encounter at a time; as once again, Dorn was being slathered in it.

Only this time, it was Dorn who had taken the initiative, something that Perturabo found intoxicating, nearly as much as the idea of the act itself.

He shuddered and shook beneath Dorn, his desire increasing with each and every little jolt, all those breaths both sharp and held for lengths of time telling in their own right — details that caused Perturabo to envision what Dorn felt.

“Mmmm… it's so hot there isn’t it…?” He groaned in a husky, unsteady voice as he asked his filthy, unnecessary questions. “And firm like a fortress locked up tight?”

 


 

When that substance was in his hand, and even as he drug it down to new locations, Dorn opened his mouth slightly, activating that flehmen response as he had done time and time again, taking in every single nuance of the scent that was overpowering, mixed with the excitable pheromones that Perturabo gave off at that moment.

Dorn lifted his head then, staring into shining pale blue eyes that seemed to glow in the dim light of the chamber. It was like staring along the surface of a silver mirror, down to the way he could see himself reflected within.

But even after he looked away, face heating up from Perturabo’s absolutely filthy words, he couldn’t hide away from other traits of his Brother's body. Despite the himation that still covered him, Dorn could see the faint nebula of colored metals shining beneath the thin cloth.

Of which he could see more keenly along Perturabo’s upper arms, gaze busied by trailing over that meandros pattern as he recalled the paths to get there while he contemplated how to respond to such filthy questions.

There was no avoiding giving answers however; and as soon as Dorn stopped trying to hide and looked back at Perturabo's face, it was unmistakable. It had only been a rather brief moment, yet he could see how possessively hungry Perturabo was, staring at him like he wanted nothing more than to consume every bit of him.

“It is… hot, Brother, undeniably so…” Dorn began, slowly trailing circles around the rim of tissue hidden below as sweat began to bead along his forehead, only to roll down his face shortly after as his expression blossomed into a grimace.

He had slipped a finger in, pushing past the walls that wanted to even deny him access. One knuckle and then another. Dorn squeezed Perturabo’s thighs as he rose up a bit further. How fortuitous that this chair was wide enough, to accommodate them both and all the positions they took up — initially made roomy for comfort, but now that came in handy while he twisted and contorted on Perturabo's lap, and angled his finger in to roughly fuck himself.

“Not… tight enough… to refuse me…” Dorn whispered, a moan trailing a second later.

 


 

Perturabo grinned with near-drunken satisfaction as he watched Dorn taste the room as he sucked in the air through his open mouth — knowing exactly what it was that he did, and exactly what information such actions would provide.

With each breath that Perturabo drank down, he could enjoy the same details but he was fully focused on the smell of Dorn’s musk that was already filling the chamber to a cloying degree; that heady, lewd scent something he was unable to get enough of — and with each new exposure to it he grew increasingly addicted. What was it that made Dorn smell like a bitch begging to be fucked? Perturabo didn’t know, but it was an incredibly dangerous ability that was likely to get him into grave danger in due time…

In fact it already had before, and was even now…

As they locked eyes once more after Dorn raised his head once giving up on futile attempts to hide himself away, he’d see the monster he’d witnessed hours before; a hungering, slavering animal pacing before the bars of the cage restraining it with growing anticipation — impatiently waiting for the opportunity to make a meal.

The second Dorn made his announcement, Perturabo moved in closer, their shoulders connecting firmly; and he threw one arm around Dorn’s back, fingers hovering along the curve of his spine, just above the action.

The other hand was busied with clumsily grabbing at his himation in haste, fumbling around as he pulled and tugged and yanked those infuriating, confining piles of fabric trapped between their bodies in anticipation of what was to come.

He could feel the shakes and flinches, each and every one of them a story telling of what was felt within that tight hole and how uncomfortable it was to experience the intrusion inside of it. And those tiny little moans made him want to snap Dorn in half…

“Nor tight enough to refuse me,” Perturabo retorted to Dorn’s inflammatory admission without missing a breath as he continued to struggle with his clothing, already ripping it and tearing it off himself in places where it was pinned between them.

“…And you stink again, you know. I could smell that from several kilometers away.” Perturabo accused delightfully with insufferable satisfaction plastered across his features.

 


 

Dorn’s jaw fell slack as sweat trailed down his body. Whatever was not covered by his robe was now revealing those rivulets and beads of perspiration, brought forth by the action he was taking upon himself and in anticipation of what he was witnessing from Perturabo as well.

Even after he pulled back again once their shoulders hit, he watched Perturabo tear frantically at that himation, revealing more and more of the machine that had overtaken the man. His gaze dropped down to the metal splayed across Perturabo’s body and the parts of skin that still remained in strategic locations.

He watched even still as his cock now slid along Perturabo’s chest, providing friction there like no other as it pressed along the numerous additional parts and components adorning his Brother’s form.

His breath hitched again as the sensations were nothing short of heavenly and if it wasn’t for Dorn actively trying not to, there was little doubt that he could easily spill over himself and all along Perturabo’s chest and stomach.

Dorn had to draw his gaze away, snapping his attention back to his Brother’s face lest he lose himself entirely as another finger was entered and he pulled back more, pushing hard against the hand pressed to his back as he gasped. Even the stare into those predatory eyes did not last long as Dorn threw his head back, staring at the ceiling instead.

There was nothing to refute against those accusations, he knew he smelled in such a way, could pick up the scent himself but there was something else. Dorn knew what it was, just like his him, Perturabo released pheromones so entirely similar yet with the opposite effect. An effect that landed far too well on him.

“I can… smell you too…” He whispered as his hand moved those fingers in and out of him, adding a squelching sound amidst the groaning and panting coming from Dorn's mouth. “Can…taste you.”

Dorn was powerless and receptive to that overwhelming musk of masculinity and machine combined.

Receptive and so entirely ready to mate as if his body intrinsically knew who or what it belonged to, even now, even in these early stages. Dorn might have found it embarrassing if he was in any position to dwell in it long enough.

 


 

Perturabo laughed darkly, an unpleasant, metallic sound; and he shook his head softly, making no efforts to refute those accusations. Their combined hormone secretions and heightened testosterone levels were thoroughly drenching the air, the dual lust of two Primarchs likely so great that it would have terrified any lifeform unfortunate enough to be near to them, on a primitive level. Perturabo idly wondered what that quaint little machine spirit within the ship itself would think of such splendor taking place on its aged deck.

And this was only beginning.

“Good. It’s a taste you will experience quite often from now on.” Perturabo warned with full sincerity. There was no way he’d ever let Dorn go. And no way he’d ever refrain from enjoying his hard won prize, frequently.

For now, his attention was back on that smell—of Dorn’s beckoning, potent pheromones—increased with every drop of sweat that poured forth from his flushed body; and Perturabo was entranced by it, as well as the sight of that moistened, hot flesh growing pinker from the heat.

If he’d had a free hand he might have spared it to touch such an impressive display, but as he did not he was relegated to using other means; and as he was still quite literally tearing his own clothes off, that leading tendril reappeared, slithering over Perturabo’s right shoulder as it ominously wriggled free and reached out, seeking Dorn’s chest.

It hovered there in the air as if searching for something for a second, then flicked over Dorn’s nipple like a tiny tongue, though its efforts were dry and cold, the metal tip spinning in slow circles around that small pink patch of skin.

“Does it hurt, does it sting, to shove your fingers inside yourself so roughly?” Perturabo asked his nosy, pointed questions, knowing that Dorn must have been hurrying in his panic to prepare himself as much as he could before impatience took control, leaving Dorn to endure with whatever he’d managed to accomplish.

It was already far more than Perturabo would have granted him, which was quite clearly the point he'd proven more than once this day.

Perturabo laughed again, but it was much uglier—and colder—than the first time.

 


 

A deep throaty whine tore from Dorn’s throat and he didn’t bear to look at Perturabo, even through all the shuffling; even when he suddenly felt cool metal against his lightly furred chest.

What his Brother was rewarded with was another jolt as Dorn continued to fuck himself on his fingers, spreading them wide enough until he added a third thick finger inside with no small amount of difficulty. He actually had to pause, arm trembling as his body tried to reject what was being done to it on an instinctive level.

But Dorn was no stranger to force.

Nor was he to pain.

And so it drew some satisfaction all the same, “yes… yes, yes…” He groaned the words out, swallowing down the saliva that had been building in his mouth. A few tears had formed at some point as well, a few trickling down the side of his face, intermingling with the sweat that dampened his body.

As much as it ached, Dorn only found the pain mesmerizing, which only spurred on his rougher treatment toward himself. Then the cycle repeated as more precum spilled out from the slit of his cock.

His chest heaved as he pressed against that investigative tendril.

He wanted more, so much more — even if he still didn't really know all that truly meant. While he wasn’t watching Perturabo directly, his Brother emanated heat with no bounds and eventually, as Dorn began to move a bit more forcefully, he could feel that cock so tantalizingly close, exuding forth more heady pheromones into the air.

That last laugh made his breath catch.

And then Dorn released a scent not unlike that when prey is caught by a predator.

 


 

“Good, very good.” Perturabo retorted hotly, thoroughly enjoying the thought of Dorn experiencing the pain of penetration as he slowly adapted. But that time was over, and he was going to have to succumb to a much greater force, quite soon.

Those aching, broken moans were sending Perturabo into a frenzy, but he lost all control when that whine hit the air, sensual and rumbling; immediately heightened all the more when Dorn confirmed all of Perturabo’s invasive probing questions.

He was pulling at his own clothing even more frantically, his himation in tatters, and as the breathed in, his nostrils were hit with a new scent to add to the already crude, animalistic smells in the air — the smell of fear, of submission; if such a thing could even have such a distinctive identifiable signature. But that was exactly the sensation that flooded Perturabo’s mind, along with increasing levels of sweat, tears and precum, every bit of it filthy.

He sprang into motion, unable to simply be Dorn’s audience any longer.

With the abrupt loud rip of cloth being turned to rags, the last of Perturabo’s himation fell from his form, and he moved his hand away from Dorn’s back so that he could fully focus on untying the loin cloth wrapped around his waist. He managed it quickly enough somehow, despite the incensing distraction of Dorn’s dick being pressed so lewdly against him, and as soon as the knot came loose, that noise from before was heard again—like switches being pressed and gears turning somewhere within Perturabo’s head—his left hand palm up in front of his mouth as he was ready to escalate the situation.

 


 

It was both the combination of the sound of ripped clothing and the activation of those particular glands that had Dorn quickly looking down at that face full of savagery, that wanted nothing more than to tear him apart. Truthfully, Dorn was willing to let him do just that.

It spurred him on to keep pumping those fingers in and out of himself as he pulsed around his hand, feeling exactly how hard his hearts were racing, the sensation of fight or flight and sexual hormones kicking in, as he knew what was coming imminently.

Especially as he dragged his fascinated gaze down Perturabo’s form, seeing the ruination of his himation to get himself free, watching how sweat slicked his skin as much as it did for his own. Then even still, Dorn felt those fine hairs stand on end, especially as he simply could not stop staring.

…At those cruel eyes that promised him damnation.

 


 

Perturabo spit into his palm, which was quickly becoming habit at this point, more of that specialized machine grease splattering into and over his hand, dripping messily down.

And those eyes were still locked on with laser precision and burning intensity, a backlit red glow flickering through his gaze as he started at Dorn with an expression that was truly inhuman — yet the emotional, hungering gleam within could not be called mechanical, either.

He did not break away at all and even as he gazed upward, there was a predator’s stare being fixated on Dorn; one of vanity, of domination; something that Dorn being physically above him did not diminish whatsoever.

Move,” Perturabo ordered in a gruff voice that bordered on hostile, his hand already traveling lower despite there being something quite large on his lap blocking him from his obvious goal of lubricating himself.

 


 

Dorn felt another shudder coarse through his entire body as he felt a compulsion to obey in a manner he had not felt before.

Surely even Perturabo could pick up on that fact immediately as Dorn moved upwards, obeying the command in seconds when he lifted himself up, using the chair to brace upon while providing the clearance necessary for Perturabo to work.

All this time, Dorn did not dare break their eye contact as if he was entranced and hypnotized by the back-lit red that should have him reeling back in revulsion and horror.

But he wasn't horrified, he was intrigued, lost in the pure sight that was his Brother in all of his glory.

 


 

Perturabo never broke that eye contact either, seeing something in Dorn’s gaze he hadn’t seen previously, at least not like this, a sense that almost defied words or at least, his experience to understand. Not the submission that was naturally given to him on Olympia, nor by his army, not even witnessed in his genuinely fearful subjects due to his status as a Daemon Primarch and an unkind ruler. This was something base, something much more natural.

Carnal.

Those hazel eyes were submissive in an entirely different way, like a animal offering its neck to its superior. It immediately made Perturabo’s dick harder to witness that look in Dorn’s eyes, and as he reached down with his clean hand to pull the layers of his untied loincloth away, there was wetness there created from the mere sight. A sight that complimented whatever blend of pheromones it actually was that Dorn emanated that made Perturabo nearly lose all sense of reason.

In his shrewdness, Perturabo thought that all of these sensual hooks Dorn created were in fact, some sort of trap, laid out to bait an enemy foolish enough into attacking him.

But Perturabo was never the sort to heed those kind of warnings, in fact thinking that only made his desire to attack greater.

“The things you do to entice me…” Perturabo growled out as he brought that heated oil down to coat himself, thighs jumping sharply from the stimulation; and he stroked his length clumsily and with obvious difficulty, so aroused that even his own touch was nearly too much.

“Are they deliberate, I wonder?”

 


 

The faintest tremble began to coil through Dorn’s body while he kept himself raised up, as each flex and movement of his fingers buried inside of him drew forth softer moans, sounds from his throat that no man and certainly no Primarch should have ever been capable of making.

Even now, there was nothing that could draw his lust-laden gaze away from Perturabo’s own, those pale blue eyes emanating that continued aggressive dominance that did not stop solely at his expression.

Every movement that Perturabo made was forceful and antagonistic.

His Brother was on a short fuse to ruination.

Dorn recognized it.

All of that hostile energy was directed squarely at him, and that thought made another shudder course through Dorn’s body, one that wasn’t from the sensations of the pressure he forced inside of him with those oil-slicked fingers. His blood felt like molten lava and it was a wonder that he hadn’t passed out from the over expenditure of his rapidly beating hearts.

Additionally, he could feel the heat below him, his body knowing, while he had no direct line of sight — that Perturabo’s cock was so tantalizingly close to him, freed from that loincloth at last.

The intoxicating scent of his Brother, wafting up made Dorn groan, pupils now completely dilated as it seemed he was teetering on simply giving in to the purest pleasure he had ever known.

The numerous reactions he gave off now responded to the tells given from Perturabo in turn. Every escalation was met with a similar and greater intensification and Dorn was struggling to hold on.

Those alarming thoughts slammed into him, as his mind assailed him with the want to be thoroughly fucked and claimed by the monster that was underneath him, emanating the only heat that could even begin to quench the flame in his own breast.

Small strands of drool that pooled from the side of Dorn’s opened mouth dripped down as he took great effort to speak and answer Perturabo when he was addressed. “Accidental… yet only for you.”

Dorn was alarmed with how his voice sounded, overtly seductive with a keening note to it — and not at all something he recognized.

 


 

Perturabo’s sensors were blaring in his ears — a warning only he could hear; relaying that his vital signs were increasing past optimal thresholds, particularly his core temperature which was now so elevated that the metallic implants that connected his Black Carapace ports were warming in an attempt to vent that heat.

He huffed at this, knowing that his system should have switched to combat mode in response to these changes occurring within his body, and when it did not he manually overrode it himself to silence all the readouts that were unwelcomed.

How fortunate for Dorn that this state change would not result in the automatic injections of another round of combat stimulants as he had turned that function off.

Perhaps that could be useful later though. Regardless, he reasoned that it might be useful to recalibrate himself later to include protocol for… situations like these.

How… amusing.

Perturabo smirked up at Dorn as he continued to watch him with an unbroken, predatory stare.

Those words spoken, in such unfiltered honesty and in that sexualized, whining voice made Perturabo’s chest ache and his cock twitch, and he stared back with a momentary expression of disbelief, which he tried to disguise immediately with a scowl.

He might never believe that all of this unfolding before him could somehow be real, but he wasn’t about to ruin the culmination of the greatest fantasy he’d ever known… to see Dorn like this, only for him.

Not even his doubting, negative nature could ruin this.

There would be time for that after he’d broken down this Little Fortress into rubble.

After giving himself the most mechanical hand job he could manage—trying his hardest to mentally disconnect from the sensations his own greased up hand provided—he sat back, massive erection towering below Dorn and ready for use; and he placed his arms against the rests of the chair, head held high as he sat there like a king.

“Then I suppose its fortunate that your body already knows who it belongs to.” He mused with no small pleasure. “Now remove those fingers despite how much you seem to enjoy them and return to my lap,” Perturabo ordered smugly, sounding every bit the tyrant he was.

 


 

There was a loud sound of swallowing as he drank down the excess saliva that was still being produced, though he truly didn’t seem to care about the mess that he made of his mouth and his beard, knowing quite well how much of a mess he would soon be in again in short order anyway.

He wanted wanted to become a mess.

Speaking of orders, Dorn grunted and groaned as he slowly began to pull those thick fingers out of himself with a tellingly wet squelching sound, his body pushing his fingers out as quickly as it was able to, trying to refuse any more entry regardless if he intrinsically knew what was going to happen.

Perturabo was not going to be refused.

And he wanted that monstrous cock inside of him more than he cared to admit.

He wiped his fingers along his robe before doffing it hastily now that he could use both of his arms to pull it free from his entirely sweat-slicked body, revealing the glistening sight of pale skin and fine underfur to Perturabo’s greedy gaze.

The robe was unceremoniously dropped to the ground, discarded.

His left arm settled upon Perturabo's shoulder, while the right gripped Perturabo's left wrist.

This was the only moment when he finally broke his gaze from his Master and made sure to carefully sit on his lap, feeling the drag of that cock against his backside, of flesh and…something else.

Dorn almost wanted to lift himself up again if only to have a chance to look far more purposefully than before. When he had paused in his movement, his current expression shifted to that of curiosity.

Yet…

An order given.

An order followed.

He dared to look back to his Brother, face-to-face their noses almost touching.

 


 

That filthy sound of Dorn’s body rejecting those fingers as soon as they were removed filled Perturabo with delight, idly wondering if those attempts to make all of this a bit less painful would do him any good whatsoever in the end. A consideration that didn’t matter that much at all to Perturabo, but it amused him all the same. Dorn was the toughest of all Primarch stock in Perturabo’s summation, and he had no inhibitions in testing that to its limits in all new ways…

In due time…

A deep, grating groan was torn from his iron-laced voice their bodies touched in the most gratifying of places; then Perturabo hissed and his eyes narrowed briefly—nearly closing—when that contact enveloping him included the metallic implant Dorn had grazed against, that part of him obviously quite sensitive.

He shook his head softly, causing rubberized and metallic tendrils to knock against the back of his chair, and he tilted his head quizzically as he noticed that expression on Dorn’s face — still fully compliant but perplexed; and Perturabo was interested in whatever it was he wanted to say. A curiosity that would have gone completely unaddressed had it not been abundantly clear that bargaining his way out of this was not what Dorn was considering.

“Yes… Brother?” Perturabo asked gruffly, temporarily stilling the inevitable, that brief flash of the sight of Dorn’s completely naked body before he’d moved in closer still burned into his mind.

 


 

Even after pulling his fingers out, Dorn's body continued to twitch and tense up as if it was missing what was just there. All that did was make him shiver again as he panted, having to vent out his own heat.

That, followed by the sound of Perturabo's cables drew his gaze to them for a moment, looking from one blackened cable to another, 'discreetly' searching for those that had a penchant for touching him.

One thing at a time.

He berated himself quietly as he focused on that question and felt his face heat up further until his entire body was awash in that reddened glow.

"I want to see your… cock, Brother."

 


 

The way Dorn was shaking, his entire body practically vibrating was terribly amusing to Perturabo, though he wasn’t convinced that had anything to do with being cold, especially as his mechanized form was now generating more than enough heat to keep him nice and cozy despite his nakedness.

A brow raised as he saw Dorn’s glance shift above making eye contact, and he briefly wondered if that had something to do with the seeking expression on Dorn’s face. It was only a second later when he realized that it did not.

Perturabo’s lightly glowing eyes changed at that unprompted and truly unexpected request, the red tint that had been radiating from his sockets for the past several minutes flickering briefly. It took him a full second to reply.

“…By all means then, elucidate yourself.”

 


 

Dorn licked his lips. It was hard to tell if it was a nervous reaction or something far different, but it didn't take long for whatever it was to fade out. He slowly nodded. And once more, this time using the hand on Perturabo's wrist, he pushed himself up.

He tried not to become too distracted while he began to trail his eyes downwards, having to lift himself up quite a bit to clear the hefty, monstrous cock that was behind him.

All the while he trailed each of those shimmering color-changing metallic plates down and down, stopping at Perturabo's navel, or where there should have been one.

As soon as he was sitting more on Perturabo's thighs, did he finally allow his attention to finally gaze upon what Perturabo had seemed to strategically hide every time he tried to sneak a peek.

 


 

Perturabo sucked in a stuttered breath at the sudden touch Dorn placed to the augments lining his skin, and as fingers trailed down, he jumped; even his stomach muscles clenched at times — all tells and solid evidence that these inorganic parts of his body had full sensitivity.

Fused to his skin along rows and groups of iron-hard rippling muscles, Dorn would find that especially now they were not at all cold, and not solely from the heat transference in being surrounded by flesh; no. They were exceedingly warm to the touch, even near hot in places closest to his Black Carapace ports as his body’s heatsink mechanisms had been activated.

And as Dorn drew closer to the curiosity Perturabo knew he was interested in, he braced, preparing himself if Dorn became bold enough to dare inspect such a place with those roving fingers.

What Dorn would find for his efforts, was a similar trail to the ones he’d been tracing, leading straight down from the port that consumed his naval area. It split his ample, curly black pubic hair in half with a generously bare patch of skin giving additional clearance on either side to the color-shifting metal fused to his body that went all the way down the full length of his massive, demigod cock — and should Dorn's noisiness compel him to investigate; he'd find the same on the underside. It was a straight, centered pinstripe of some computerized means that looped around the entire length.

And right in the middle, where the slit should have rested upon the tip, was the very thing that had caught Dorn’s attention.

A little metal circular disc, not unlike a miniature Black Carapace port, revealed for his eyes to witness.

 


 

To say that Dorn was captivated was the understatement of the century. He remembered what he had seen before, those various stripes and points that held all the extra carapace ports, the smaller sets and the little diodes and other pieces that made beautiful patterns against his Brother's olive skin, yet even now, it didn’t seem Dorn had gotten enough of it.

Especially as he had drawn his hand away from Perturabo’s wrist so that he could trail and traverse along what he saw. His behavior was much like the first time that he had seen these new augmentations, how carefully he was led from one point to another, to another.

The fact that Perturabo jumped gave him the knowledge that it was rather sensitive all the same. So truly, what was the difference between the man and the machine if all the nerve endings acted so similarly?

If not even more sensitive.

How many inputs and readouts did hidden peripherals give Perturabo? How much of it was of his own design and how much were vitals read from Dorn? These answers would likely never be given, yet it intrigued Dorn all the same even amidst the pleasure he felt and the rising anticipation.

While some of the metals had been cooler to the touch, these bands were not. How did Perturabo manage with so much heat?

A slow exhale came from Dorn as he continued to trail his index and middle fingers down, following that trail before spreading his fingers apart and sinking those fingers along that abundance of pubic hair, indulging in just how different the texture was in comparison to his own tuft of white thick fur around his crotch.

He’d not allow himself to linger there for long as he did dare to touch that engorged, aching cock, going back to trailing those damned metal bands, peeking a glance up to Perturabo as he did so though never lingering for long as he touched along the foreskin pulled back to reveal that intriguing disc.

 


 

Perturabo shivered sharply despite the excess heat his system was producing, and he inhaled deeply, keeping the air frozen in his lungs as he tried to remain perfectly still. But the longer Dorn inspected his body, the harder that became; and eventually a reddish color spread over his face as he endured the feeling that he was being not only witnessed but admired — a fully unknown concept to Perturabo, and one that he’d always sought with a vehement aggression.

Yet to know it in this moment was a far softer experience than he could have expected — free from the accolades and proclamations he’d envisioned upon being recognized at last, the quiet intimacy of a lover acknowledging him and liking what he found.

And that lover was Dorn. It made Perturabo feel dizzy, nearly drunk.

He jolted roughly, pushing that held breath out with a rattling groan when that curious hand dipped into the wiry coils of his pubic hair, incredibly sensitive to a touch that was far more indulging than a simple passing brush of skin against hair.

Yet when Dorn was as bold as Perturabo expected he might be, he was still unprepared for what that would feel like; and his spine curved with a jump, chest pressed out as he reflexively jerked — dancing to Dorn’s will. His hands gripped tightly around the ends of the armrests of the chair, so hard that his knuckles went white and the wood creaked.

But this inspection was not over.

Perturabo hissed and shook his head; then as he saw Dorn glance up at him, his expression was one of near-pained surprise, but not at all disapproving. And when that disc was revealed in full a second later by means of his foreskin being rolled back, a deep, tinny moan was ripped from his throat, as a bead of milky moisture appeared in the center of that black implant — a reward for Dorn's efforts.

 


 

There was an intensity in Dorn’s gaze as he watched that pleasure consume Perturabo’s entire expression. He watched as deep olive skin turn red and listened as all those sounds elicited were all but heavenly to him. It was that fact that had him quirking a smile, adding a knowing glint to his expression.

It was the only time that the curiosity he wore had been replaced with something else.

His gaze didn’t linger there long, as he had dropped it to watched the formation of that bead. Only a moment’s contemplation was all that followed until he plotted out his next course of action, a shift in his intentions.

He shimmied back, truly trying the limits of the chair that he had crafted, just as it dealt with the iron grip from his Brother in turn. But once he was settled in this new position, he felt how Perturabo’s legs tensed and flex underneath him and couldn’t help another smile appearing across his face.

Perturabo didn’t have to wait for long in anticipation as Dorn bent his body down at the same time he lifted his gaze, on purpose, so he could watch his Brother’s reaction as he did the next wholly sinful thing he'd attempt under that stern glare.

He rubbed his beard against the underside of that pulsating cock, only stopping once his mouth was next to that weeping head. Then came the intent as he drew out his hot, wet tongue and took the tip of it to that metallic disc, slowly and deliberately lapping up the moisture that had formed there.

His reward indeed.

The combinations of flavors were unique, between the taste of salt and the lubricant that Perturabo produced. All of it made Dorn groan. The heady cloying scent wafting from Perturabo in equal measure had made Dorn feel drugged. So much so, he had to move his hand to Perturabo’s thighs as he swayed and trembled.

His gaze was half-lidded at this point while he continued to watch his Brother all the while, his own body tensing as a few dribbles of precum came out of the tip of his own cock, slicking down the underside slowly, adding more of his own scent in the air.

He almost could have sworn he even felt the Thunderhawk shudder in the smallest of ways.

 


 

Perturabo shook his head violently from side to side and he bit back a groan as he felt that sinfully soft velvet fur against his foreskin; and his eyes shut tight as he clenched his teeth while he tried to remain appearing disaffected and aloof but it was an entirely losing battle.

He shoved his feet against the floor roughly, woven sandals cracking under the pressure as he flexed his ankles and tensed his calves, raised up slightly, pushing all his upper body weight against one arm; thighs shaking, a sharp intake of breath escaping, thrashing in that chair as he tried—and failed—to endure the heat of Dorn’s wet, unbearable mouth against the head of his cock.

His eyes opened quickly, and as their glances met, Perturabo scowled, seeing that all-too knowing, salacious expression; and more moisture spilled from the tip of that black ring Dorn was licking as if on command — like he was the one in control.

Perturabo drew in another loud breath, then moaned in a deep, vox-laced rumble as he smelled the scent of Dorn’s excretions joining in, adding another layer to the filthy smells of testosterone and pheromones, and he slumped against the back of the chair as the strength he’d been exerting left him — his grip upon the edge of the armrest the only thing maintained and even that was weakened by the assault that Dorn was inflicting upon him.

 


 

There was almost the temptation to continue, the want to tease his Brother a little while longer. To lick and suck upon what was right in front of him and so tantalizingly close to his face, yet he stopped himself, even if many of his tells seemed to reveal that he was likely more than eager to drink down what Perturabo would surely have provided.

Reluctantly instead, he began to move his head back after a few licks to clean up more of that moisture coming forth. His body was straightened and he rose upon his knees, taking delight in how his Brother reacted. He had heard the groans from those stubborn lips, blending in with the sounds of the creaking chair he held so tightly.

Dorn was after something else, however, he had made that clear earlier as he lifted himself enough to clear over that monstrous cock once more.

“I am curious about the implementation of that device, Brother.” Dorn began while moving forward again, making sure to have Perturabo’s cock slide along his ass as he settled down exactly as he was before he decided he wanted to have a little look.

“What is the purpose of it?”

He stared hotly into that reddened, sweat-slicked face, bringing his own closer and closer still till only a few centimeters separated them.

 


 

Writhing and squirming with each lick so teasingly flicked over the head of his cock, Dorn managed to force more sounds out of Perturabo, each groan and hiss spat out with an embittered scowl, making it clear he was truly trying to act distant — to maintain some sort of decorum upon his lofty seat but not succeeding.

Yet he somehow managed to refrain from doing what was on his mind the most — grabbing a nice thick handful of that pretty white hair and ramming his dick down his Brother’s throat.

But he didn’t abstain for any higher reasons worthy of value — it was simply that what was on Dorn’s agenda was his main priority as well. Later, he reasoned.

Then he got a small reprieve from that intense stimulation as they broke away, sitting up a little straighter and resuming his arrogant posture within his seat.

A sly smile broke through his dour expression as Dorn lifted himself up again, and he rolled his eyes up to meet that curious gaze head on. A brow was arched high, however, as he was asked such a thoroughly nosy question. Their eyes locked at point blank range as Dorn moved in even closer, and Perturabo scoffed.

“Well I promise you it's not nearly as interesting as whatever it is you’re thinking,” he retorted sharply, slowly coming to realize that his upstanding little Paragon certainly had his interests.

And his secrets.

 


 

The corners of Dorn’s eyes seemed to crinkle a bit, denoting some unsavory amusement that reached his gaze itself, even through all of the lust and attraction still shining in them. The way Perturabo had answered him, however, was entertaining in its own right.

“Well, Brother, regardless if it is interesting or not, I am still curious.”

Then Dorn lifted his hand up and settled his fingers across Perturabo’s stomach before trailing up to one of the intriguing little diodes. “I want to know everything about you in due time.” Dorn’s voice dropped to a rasping growl.

 


 

Perturabo was entranced by that amused look, shocked by even his own reaction to it as it did not offend him the way it rightfully should have. His eyes flashed red, and it took him a full second to process the truth, taking him longer to consider this one fact that it would have taken him to solve endless complex calculations.

That this emotion he’d come to associate with ridicule, somehow held none. His features immediately softened before he forced something a bit more neutral but his eyes, now faintly backlit, were nearly childlike in their willingness to try to understand.

It faded out along with that red light, and he laughed — more genuine than most though it was a nervous one. His stomach jumped at that soft touch, and he cleared his throat.

“I interface with a great many things. More than standard power armor. And I tend to either swap much more frequently, or stay within a certain configuration for far, far longer than even a veteran Legionary stays suited up, Brother. Flexibility is a key component of my design ethos. And even the most basic functions have to be accounted for.”

Perturabo 'explained' while answering nothing directly, but his pulse had increased even beyond what Dorn's earlier actions had caused.

Everything?

When all he'd ever wanted was anything, even a second of Dorn's attention.

 


 

Dorn had picked up on that new nuance, watching as Perturabo had to recognize and compute the reaction and the information itself that he was now privy to, to Dorn’s reaction. It made his own expression become far more softer, even now; and the lightest of chuckles came from his throat as he followed Perturabo’s laugh.

The way that Dorn smiled now was adoring as he enjoyed that genuine sound as much as he did when Perturabo responded in other ways.

Even still, there was an attentiveness to listen as Perturabo explained without really giving him an actual answer to the question.

“Very functional, of course I expected nothing less from you.” Dorn said lightly in response, nodding and flashing another smile.

Chapter 17: Degenerate

Summary:

Perturabo's determination to play the villain prevents him from understanding he has truly met his match.

Chapter Text


 

Perturabo scoffed, a bluff in trying to hide how deeply that laugh and worse, the little smile Dorn flashed at him affected him; yet the glow in his eyes was not displeased for once.

"Yes." Perturabo confirmed now that Dorn was appreciating the functional aspects of his design. "It makes it far easier to deal with frequent catheter insertions or any other installations I might need for whatever task it is I intend to accomplish. Especially as sometimes it isn't as feasible to connect my primary organs through the Black Carapace. That's what some of the smaller jacks are for. Rerouting. Alternate interfaces."

At first, Perturabo appeared embarrassed to confess the banality of the truth after Dorn had shown such curiosity, but now the longer he talked, the more proud of himself he sounded.

 


 

Dorn lifted his hand up to rub his chin, trailing along the fluff there as he seemed to be pondering upon that for a long silent minute, gaze dropping down to some of the other ports that he could see dotting along Perturabo’s body.

Some. Likely not all.

“Certainly useful for alternative tasks indeed. Reminds me of the additional ports that I have upon my own body, for other means.” Dorn remarked, almost offhandedly yet seemed to be lost in thought again for another moment before he nodded along.

While his body was still thrumming with desire and want, Dorn didn’t mind taking a moment to learn and understand, even for something so simple in the grand scheme of things.

 


 

Perturabo was certainly distracted by far more fleshly interests but that hadn’t stopped him from answering those questions when asked about the details involving his passions, his inventions.

However something fully different and entirely unseen before resonated deeply within Perturabo’s eyes as he stared with surprise and openly displayed interest as he’d become entirely absorbed by this newly relayed information.

They were so similar in countless ways, the most skilled in all the worlds in several identical fields, but not once had Perturabo had even the slightest inkling that Dorn ever held even a modicum of interest in advanced technology, finding his practicality and straightforward methods frustratingly dull.

What was this? Had Dorn also augmented himself in some way over the countless years they'd been apart?

Other means?” Perturabo inquired, leaning in closer as he searched Dorn’s face, as if the answer could somehow be found there.

Perturabo's hearts were racing now, beating so fiercely that his automatic regulation system was forced to compensate — details he ignored flickering though his HUD, though he was aware that physical exertion hadn't triggered this response.

 


 

Another light chuckle came easily to Dorn as he clearly read the intrigue drawn from Perturabo in turn, piquing interest the moment that he mentioned that he had his own augmentations. Nothing he'd pursued was remotely as extensive in comparison to what Perturabo had done to his own body, yet…

Dorn felt compelled to speak on it all the same. “Yes, a few locations on my body interface more thoroughly with my nervous system, especially in several locations upon my spine, for example.”

Dorn shifted a bit, getting settled as much as he could during this conversation.

“They are for a uniquely specialized body-glove designed to thoroughly interface with me in a… different way, usually in the midst of a suspension cylinder. But my design required no such thing once connected.” This was certainly not the type of suit worn beneath a suit of armor.

That much, if nothing else — was clear.

Oh, how he was curious he had become, wondering if that limited information would continue to attract Perturabo's interest; information that was truly strange yet deliberately left vague.

 


 

Perturabo listened with rapt and focused attention, each detail recorded within his database as it was spoonfed to him. His eyes glistened as he stared at Dorn with fixated intent, immersed in every nuance of all Dorn explained. His head was tilted slightly to the side, and he blinked several times as Dorn relayed the functions of the modifications made to his body; though his clearly telegraphed nosiness did nothing to instill the feigned nonchalance he tried to project.

Until he abandoned it altogether.

His hands left the arm rest in tandem as he wrapped his arms around Dorn, one hand already reaching up without a second'd delay, feeling for that port he knew he’d seen before when removing Dorn’s body glove — when he’d been unceremoniously thrown on his face, but so great was Perturabo’s frenzy and overstimulation at the time that investigating such a thing hadn’t registered as important.

But now, not only was Perturabo thoroughly gripped by this explanation, he was growing increasingly confused.

Dorn was a no-nonsense, straightforward and simple man, which lent a certain elegance to all that he did, as much as that vexed Perturabo at times. But this, he couldn’t figure out a pragmatic purpose for. There were only a handful of suspicions he reasoned could lead to practical answers.

Interfacing with some sort of tank was one; and the conclusion that lead him to, was the need to to be placed in a healing chamber long term — with there being clear evidence of an unfortunate event that had caused Dorn great physical trauma at some point in years past. A detail of which Perturabo distanced himself from, and continued to distance himself from, even when it was the most logical answer now — to such a degree that he fully latched onto the only other thing that made sense.

His armor. That gleaming, auric armor unlike any in all the Empire, so symbolically linked to Dorn himself. Were there always functions in that panoply he was not aware of, or had there been some sort of upgrade made in more recent times? It felt unlikely, but there were no other answers that made sense.

“I… see.” Perturabo mused.

Suspension cylinder

Perhaps Dorn was experimenting with some sort of strange tech within his suit, in the pursuit of advancements in space travel…

That would explain why he was here in the middle of nowhere…

“We both have advanced past the base functions of standard interfacing, then.” He continued, sounding genuinely impressed rather than offended as he may have once.

 


 

Dorn jumped slightly as Perturabo’s hands reached out to rest upon his back, feeling how those fingers were searching for what was unusual and out of place. It would not be long until Perturabo could at least feel one higher up, right between his shoulder blades. Though, if he dragged his fingers carefully down, he’d be able to feel two more along the middle of Dorn’s back, offset from his spine.

Each touch had him take a shuddering breath — connected indeed.

It didn’t go amiss that Perturabo seemed very confused, as if trying to come up with an explanation on his own for what all of this meant, and exactly why Dorn would be needing to make such changes to his body. Dorn was thoroughly interested to hear what conclusion Perturabo would come to, exactly; but the amusement he felt settling over him was far too great to simply let it lie.

“Though, I do not interface in the manner you may come to think of, such as with your armor or…” He trailed off, thinking about the absolutely fascinating aspects of what was hidden within Perturabo's transport ship, and how his Brother connected with things in that place so far removed from everything he had ever known.

“Machines.”

Well…

“Not to the extent I have come to realize you can… interface with them, at any rate.”

His thoughts briefly drifted to the cables inside of Perturabo’s ship and what had happened. How would that have felt? Especially to someone outside the overall system and mainframe beyond? Questions he didn’t know the answers to at this point in time, but perhaps one day. “I made a device for myself.” Dorn started to say, to draw his thoughts from frying pan but perhaps doing so landed him right into the fire. “I fully believe that pain offers a way to scour the body and the mind, offering a manner in which one can be cleansed. Yet, unlike our Brothers that enjoy the more… permanent forms of bodily damage, I preferred something just as severe yet far more intense, and, more importantly, internal.”

As Dorn continued to explain, he sounded excited; eager to clarify and justify as he described what he had devised. His hand began slipping up along Perturabo’s arm while he still felt those invasive fingers finding his own additional Carapace ports.

“So I created something that would deliver extreme electrical discharges through the entire body through these neural interfaces along the Black Carapace, thus these additional ports allow more coverage throughout my entire nervous system. I call it the Pain Glove.”

Dorn looked entirely too pleased as he finished speaking.

 


 

Perturabo’s expression shifted — from interested, to intrigued, to perplexed, to genuinely, thoroughly confused as the words Dorn relayed made less sense the longer he spoke.

But as the haze of bewilderment began to clear and lead to understanding, Perturabo’s eyes grew wild, huge and intense as he repeatedly swallowed with increasing loudness. His efforts didn’t stop the drool from crudely leaking from the corners of his mouth as he salivated with growing hunger. He stared at Dorn like a starving wolf with no traces of that robotic red glow from earlier remaining — nothing beyond the ice cold, dilated and predatory stare of lust was focused on him now.

And those hands that formerly held a calm curiosity were roughly, aggressively seeking that port. Upon finding the one he’d been directed to he began to press his fingers harshly, hardly upon it, feeling all the details — the texture, shape and size relayed information though tactile feedback; his knowledge of such things painting a very clear diagram that he understood even without sight, to include the specific specialized cables needed to connect to such a network.

His Brother and that divine absurdity, no better than that fool Lorgar at times, admittedly; and yet not once in his wildest most demented dreams did Perturabo ever once think that Rogal Dorn, even with all his spiritual leanings could be such an unhinged masochist. All this insufferable talk of cleansing through suffering, something that seemed far more fitting for that Word Bearer, but no. No. This was far different. He knew well of Lorgar’s habits; at least in the past, constantly seeking catharsis after everything that happened, from Monarchia and beyond during Shadow Crusade and the Heresy, but at least that made functional sense on some level even if Perturabo found it ridiculous.

Yet in the end it was Dorn who had the penchant for self flagellation

But through…

Electrical charges…? 

A low, miserable moan tore from his throat, and Perturabo flexed his hips and shook in that chair, the mass pressing into Dorn from below twitching, sticky and wet as the salty scent of hot musk hit the air, his enormous hands clamping down on Dorn’s body as he endured that sudden, unexpected release he couldn’t possibly restrain.

And on each side of his neck, resting against his shoulders, were both of those black metallic cables from before, reappeared; peeking out from the mass of cords that hung from his scalp; wriggling, slowly waving through the air — as if they were listening to all that was being relayed with interest.

 


 

As he watched his Brother’s facial features subtly shift from one emotion to another; again and again, his self-satisfied smile did not to waver one bit. It was abundantly clear that Dorn truly was proud of what he had created, even if the results were in pursuit something that many may have balked at for simply knowing.

Even just revealing that knowledge to his Brother was thrilling, for Dorn full well knew what he was doing. He knew exactly who and what he had given such damning information to, and the prospect was exhilarating.

His gaze dropped down, noting the drool as Perturabo was unable to stave off his predatory instincts and cravings, wants that were downright primal no matter how much he embodied the mechanical. The sight alone made his cock twitch and the sensation of heat go straight to his balls.

If that wasn’t enough, the rough treatment drew him closer to Perturabo’s chest as he explored and found that port between his shoulder blades, tearing a gasp from Dorn. While the immediate outer edges of his ports had never been that sensitive, when the pads of Perturabo's huge fingertips slipped immediately past the rim to the inside, Dorn moaned out deeply and jerked; and he found himself shoulder to shoulder with his Brother again.

Sweat dripped down his face as his body burned up from such treatment, every single reaction showing that he liked it as he had taken to gripping Perturabo tightly. He knew before he felt it, those large hands bearing down on him every bit as securely, and he watched Perturabo let go.

That moan lodged deep within his carnal hearts, the way that Perturabo flexed and shook. That expression twisted with all-consuming want.

How could Dorn ever hope to resist?

As he felt that sticky release against his own backside, he was helpless to prevent his own, thighs gripping around Perturabo tightly as he spilled across both of their stomachs and added more scent to this twisted union, his voice moaning out his Brother’s name as his forehead rested against Perturabo's, lost in the feral intensity of that glare boring into at him.

The seconds afterward had him draw back even amidst the haze when he suddenly spotted movement out of the corner of his eyes, his gaze drifting to the both of those metallic cables, each in turn, and even through the moments it took for his mind to return to coherency, he couldn’t help but wonder if such things had a… mind of their own.

Especially as Perturabo was still reeling from all he learned, and his own release.

But…

Surely his Brother was controlling them…

Surely.

Even now.

 


 

The sheer unmitigated depravity of it all hit Perturabo as if he’d been slammed with the head of his own sledgehammer. Did Dorn even consider what he was saying and who he was saying it to?

Was he a fool?

Perturabo’s eyes were now half-lidded and dazed as he continued to stare, drooling while the implications continued to mount, thoughts crass and brutal corrupting his mind as he fantasized of things that Dorn now owned the blame for putting into his thoughts in a much more direct way.

But even as he considered how careless his Brother had been in handing him such direct and damning information, the situation was changing all around him from what he had assumed it to be — so lost in his own overwhelming vortex of thoughts that it took him far longer than it should have to realize what Dorn had done.

Then, it hit all at once.

Oh, how doomed he truly was for relaying that; a secret he should have guarded with his very life…

Perturabo’s eyes rolled back into his skull as he reveled in the sound of his name being moaned in that deep, keening voice, the smell of sex and semen and that unbearable scent Dorn continued to exude, choking him; and his thoughts ran wilder still as a dark, resonant laugh tore from his throat.

 

+--------------------+

The prisoner still dangled, well hung like a dying bug trapped in a spider’s web — but the twisting tangles that restrained him were revealed to be no web. Glowing panels and glaring screens casted the only light on the scene from below and behind, illuminating all that took place in this lifeless, cold metal nightmare straight out of a depiction of Hell.

As in visions prior, it seemed that there was something attached to that unfortunate, abused body; but this time it was not only a single cable that was stabbed deep into a Black Carapace port, but several. Each of them thick, jet black shafts of virulent, hateful malice. Each of them sheathed in flexible stacked rings of shiny, black metal in a most familiar design. And they pumped and shook as they contracted and writhed, the victim bound by black rubberized cords jerking and seizing as he endured whatever foul and alien torture it was they inflicted upon him. But that was not the totality of his gruesome fate. For while he was at the pity of something so diabolically inhuman within the bowels of that cyberdaemonic machine, he was also being violently, brutally penetrated by something unseen, his body thrashed against the cage of cords again and again with each bone crushing, dominating thrust inflicted upon him. He cried and screamed, yet there was no one to hear him.

No one to save him.

+--------------------+

 

When the vision shattered, what was behind that image was the lecherous, unsavory gaze of Perturabo, still lost in the high of release and his own degenerate plans.

“Perhaps… you can… explain to me how it all works, in the future.” He suggested in a mirthful voice, his eyes overcome with an intensity that was nothing short of insane as he pressed his forehead firmly into Dorn’s. His fingers were still lewdly toying with the inner circumference of the enlarged port that he was already doing far worse things to in his mind, as one of those cables inched forward, flicking upward and trailing its cold metal tip along the side of Dorn’s face.

 


 

Whatever Dorn’s thoughts were on the matter of the cables were drawn away in an instant, pulled from those minor distractions as his mind fell deeply into the vision that his Brother’s darker fantasies conceived. Dorn felt himself grabbing onto Perturabo, holding on as if he was falling.

This time, the daydream did not play out as a simple vision for him. It gripped him in coils and metal.

Dorn’s breath hitched, nearly choking him while Perturabo would witness his eyes closing tightly as he shook his head as if in pain. It didn’t matter that this had been nothing but depictions, visions of a psyker broadcast to him as his own mind seemed determined to set him in the place of that figure instead of remaining only an outsider looking in.

That depravity unfolded all around him, against him, inside him as his brain conveyed every detail of what he imagined it all felt like.

He swore that he could hear the sleek sliding of those cables, the sound much louder in his ears yet lower in tone than when Perturabo moved his head in realspace. What he was hearing was far more akin to what he'd heard while within Perturabo’s transport vessel. Yet, even that did not compare to what his mind conceived he’d hear now.

Every single movement caused goosebumps to rise along his skin as he felt phantom shocks throughout his entire body. He cried out with gasps and grunts as Perturabo manipulated him, in time with both the vision playing in his mind of him being ruined and with those fingers slipping in and out of that port.

So much more sensitive.

Stimulated. Over-stimulated.

Dorn writhed on top of Perturabo’s body, mouth open and panting as his thoughts refused to release him still from the vision even after it had passed; and Dorn knew he had to be drooling now too, becoming naught but a complete mess in Perturabo’s arms.

Did he release again? It certainly felt like it and he wondered if Perturabo had even realized he had just blared his intent for Dorn to witness because something had to have happened, something to keep him in this state, making him feel it all.

And that thrusting

All of a sudden, the tension left his body as he was shoved out of that reverie, his wide hazel eyes flying open. He stared into those violent blue eyes he immediately found locked on to his own, their gleam reminding him of the surge of miserable electricity that he'd felt ripping through his entire body. A whimper escaped him in a voice he did not recognise, provoked by the sheer intensity staring back at him.

He only realized he was spoken to several seconds later, and in that lust-ladened state, he responded. “Yes, B… Brothe— Nngh!” Dorn arched into Perturabo when he felt that finger slip into the port again, the tension back as if Perturabo truly was messing with the most sinful erogenous zone, the reactions he now dragged out of Dorn like no other.

Dorn was only belatedly aware of the cable now against his face as he opened his mouth to continue breathing, trying to vent all that excess heat while he panted, turning his head towards it.

 


 

Perturabo flinched as he felt those strong hands grasp on to him so needily, as if Dorn needed the support to prevent falling despite that not being the case; and he instinctively wrapped his huge arms around him even tighter though it was unnecessary.

And as Perturabo tried to come down from the overwrought, overwhelming thoughts that came in a whirlwind of supersonic speed—each one a manifestation of his darkest thoughts and enhanced by his CPU—he was aware that something was happening to Dorn.

At first, it was nearly dreamlike as Perturabo watched what was occurring in real time as it mimicked the events layered out through his own fantasies; but the longer it went on, the more aware he was that this was actually happening — that the gasps and moans and stuttered cries echoing from his Brother’s throat were registering in his ears and rather than being solely created by his mind.

He watched with growing fascination as Dorn also jerked and convulsed—in time with those vocalizations—every bit of it real and not simply the product of his overclocked imagination either; despite it all aligning with the twisted desires he’d been so heavily immersed in since the moment Dorn had revealed his affinity for pain and his use of electrical means to inflict it.

Then, when Dorn arched his back into the fingers invading that delightful port; he stared, fascinated into those widened, shocked eyes, his own pounding pulses assaulting his ears as he realized Dorn also came as well…

It was all too much; entirely too much. How could this be real? It wasn't possible.

Perturabo’s triplicate lungs felt starved for air though that wasn’t possible either; and as he gasped and heaved, he raised his hand to wipe away the excessive wetness at the corner of Dorn’s mouth as he watched him in profile, now staring at that cable.

A cable that bounced softly, a gentle curve running down its length as it hovered there before Dorn’s eyes in a way that seemed almost friendly despite it being nothing but a peripheral and identical in all details but size to the ones in that vile nest of cold, cruel mechanical indifference that had been actively torturing him in those images produced by Perturabo’s mind.

“A, are… you…okay…” He rasped between loud, deep breaths.

A question that one so callous and selfish as Perturabo would have been assumed to not care enough to ever ask in a moment like this—especially to Dorn—but there suspicions reverberating through his system that simple data could not provide conclusive answers to — even if all calculations and intuition alike added vast amounts of circumstantial evidence.

 


 

It was taking a little bit of time to allow Dorn to come down from everything that he had experienced, considering how much each of his other senses were engaged with what was going on between the vision assaulting his mind and what it was that Perturabo was actually doing to him.

While the vision may have faded, it did nothing to cool down how his entire body felt as if it was on fire. Additionally, he started to gulp down lungfuls of air to make sure he could properly breathe again.

The earlier visions had certainly caused him to feel a certain way, but this was the first time he really felt immersed in all that had happened to him as if it was actively occurring. The things that Perturabo did only reinforced the idea and the sensations between the Carapace port and how firmly that other hand held him.

Though, now he felt fingers against his mouth, wiping away the drool there, causing Dorn to swallow loudly.

Perturabo’s body felt like an active oven to sit upon yet Dorn still shuddered all the same while still gazing at the cable simply hovering at eye level with him. Even Perturabo could see how Dorn stared at the tip of it and then slowly followed the entire length until vanishing at the origin point where it was hidden amongst all the other cords and Perturabo’s shoulder.

Another shudder could be felt. “I am… fine… Brother… Just got lost in a… wonderful daydream.” Dorn squeezed his legs together, which, in turn, squeezed Perturabo’s thighs.

“Nngh…” Dorn groaned again, slowly drawing his attention away from the hovering tendril, if only to stare into his Brother’s eyes again, intrigue in his gaze with everything else simmering there.

 


 

The clocks ticked, the gears turned, the processors calculated; all alongside a fleshmind that had no better success in making sense of any of what was transpiring than his CPU did.

But the conclusions Perturabo had already come to—as astounding as they were—were proven right.

And yet, that wasn’t even the most inconceivable part of this situation somehow. His brow furrowed, mouth still open, icy eyes judgmental and scrutinizing as he glared at Dorn in disbelief. The desire that burned inside those electric irises wasn’t quelled for any of his skepticism, though.

He stared at Dorn’s face intensely; seeking. And as those words hung heavy in the air, Perturabo still couldn’t believe he had heard that right.

Fantasy, was of course a far different concept than lived reality; and things that would never be desired in a physical sense could bring pleasure to the imagination. But even were that the case here, if he had stumbled upon some unexpected… fixations—if Dorn truly had seen, experienced even a taste of what twisted inside that burnished core of malice that rested where his soul once was…

Could even Dorn truly be that masochistic?

Could any man—even a Primarch—truly be so heedless of the obvious and certain danger revealed to both his body and mind, relayed thorough means far more honest than words ever could be?

Did Dorn somehow neglect to understand that all he witnessed and experienced was also a product of Chaos?

Had Dorn really just referred to the Mainframe of Medrengard as wonderful?

Not even the most devout tech-priests of the Dark Mechanicum could gaze upon its splendors without terror lacing the awe that overcame them whenever they were fortunate enough to be summoned…

 

 

….

   ….

      ….

EVENT LOGGED_

>._

 

 

Perturabo growled lowly, exerting force against the thighs that pressed against his own, creating a pleasant sense of pressure as he continued to stare with suspicion.

He pushed Dorn’s hair back from his brow with the same hand that had been tending to his face, that cybertentacle also stroking Dorn’s head in exact timing with Perturabo’s hand motions — though it focused mostly on the patch of short fur along the circumference of Dorn’s ear.

And Perturabo continued to pet Dorn in this manner as he let a few seconds tick by in silence before he finally asked; voice husky and deep, eyes narrowed as he spoke.

“Did you see it, Brother? Truly?”

 


 

Time continued, ever onward and Dorn was grateful for that moment of pure reprieve, to allow him the seconds needed to continue to collect himself while Perturabo was busy analyzing and computing what cursed information was given to him.

Dorn wondered if he’d find the answers that he’d be seeking or not.

Especially when he realized how much Perturabo was actually staring and searching his expression, trying to find anything to contradict the blasphemous thing he'd actually said.

Of course Dorn understood how unbelievable his words truly were. Who would view such an alarming predicament in such a gratifying manner? Particularly as he was blasted with those mental images, always increasing in severity, growing worse time and time and time again.

The ridiculousness of it had to be paramount.

And inconceivable.

Yet Dorn understood why Perturabo might view such things that way, especially when it came to him and everything that he stood for and upheld. Yet this affliction that he 'suffered', the desire for the extreme amounts of pain he was being mentally subjected to, had nothing to do with Chaos.

To Dorn, it was pure.

As those fingers and tendril alike continued to stroke and pet him, Dorn found himself leaning into the sensations, all while he had gone back to unblinkingly staring into those striking blue eyes that seemed so much different somehow to him now.

After he made his confession known.

The strength and domination Perturabo set on were was alluring in all the right ways.

“I saw it, Brother… I felt it. As if I was there.” Dorn freely admitted, falling deeper into a damnation that he did not view as such. Why would it be? Why should it be? It wasn’t going to be such for Dorn no matter what anyone would have thought on the matter. No matter what Perturabo did think on the matter.

 


 

Perturabo stared at Dorn, truly not understanding how even he—who Perturabo knew to be idealistic to an extreme degree—might come away from such an experience with a point of view that was nothing short of genuinely quixotic; and with not one thought seemingly given to the impending doom it foretold.

Unless Dorn somehow did not believe that such a place could be real, or that such a fate might befall him.

Perturabo’s eyes were tiny slits as he reviewed a pivotal moment within his HUD, recalling the words Dorn had used.

 

 

Some sights….

feelings….

sounds….

I have seen your intentions_

 

 

All the confirmation he needed flashed before his eyes in glowing green; straightforward, unmistakable and utterly condemning. In that moment, Dorn had made it clear he’d picked up at least some real information about Medrengard somehow, and then he’d resigned himself to his assumptions that was what Perturabo planned to do with him.

Which was entirely the case, despite Perturabo trying to bargain with and overcome the darkest parts of himself and divert from his hearts' true wish every step of the way in a doomed battle of attrition. 

A faint red glow was cast against the strontium gleam of Perturabo’s intensely focused eyes, shining its inhuman light against the high points of his Brother’s face.

 

 

I would willingly walk into those cables but you must allow me to move of my own accord in turn_

….

   ….

      ….

I do not know how to do that upon that world of a blackened sun but allow me the freedom to make my own choices all the same, and find that I will return to you_

>._

 

 

Perturabo tilted his head, expression hard and ambiguous though he was doubtlessly dwelling on something. He continued to touch Dorn’s hair, as if soothing him, though perhaps the one he was soothing in that constant patting was himself.

“I don’t know how this keeps happening, but I believe you.” Perturabo said. And he meant it despite everything about this situation—from acknowledging Dorn’s strange experiences, to the fervent tone of voice he used, and even in the way Perturabo himself had eventually responded—being the exact sort of exchange that was almost always indicating a well placed lie meant to pacify.

“What I don’t understand is why you seem to have such an… unhealthy interest in my home.” Perturabo said bitterly, his voice accusatorial and disapproving. “You do realize that while what you envision through me is not my intention as I told you before, it is not merely a simulation, either.”

 


 

Dorn fixated a bit more keenly onto Perturabo's face while still enjoying the attention of that heavy petting, every single stroke appreciated and relished all the same. It didn’t matter the whys or hows that this was going on, Dorn was more than happy to oblige in turn.

He turned his head briefly to the side and up, so he could press a kiss upon those fingers when Perturabo started to become so… accusatory.

“Perhaps I misjudged your intention before. I was only going off what I saw in the beginning, but, I do not doubt that what I have seen is real, Brother.” Dorn spoke, finally pulling his head back so he could settle and focus on the conversation at hand properly while doing his damned best to ignore all the…

Sensations around him.

Just focus on those eyes. Nothing else.

“However… you have no wish to let me go. Why would I not think you want me to stay in this… place of yours? Your home. You’d keep me out of prying eyes and safe, wouldn’t you? Regardless of what… happens."

 


 

Perturabo’s expression wavered, the harshness there all but shattered at such a statement, and he struggled to maintain that sense of cruel fortitude that kept him strong. It was all but lost within the emotional, aching longing that resonated within his eyes if only briefly — and he blinked to hold back the building moisture that was so confounding and excessive as of late.

In the end what Dorn kept seeing was not his designs, but his desires; and the longer this played out the more it seemed Dorn already understood this on some level. And likely realized the parts in all of it that Perturabo had confessed but once, otherwise attempting to conceal.

That for all his mental prowess and well laid plans, he was—and always had been—a wretch controlled by his emotions despite it all. Even remaking himself seemed to have not changed that one bit, as it all fell apart the moment he saw Dorn’s face in the ether. His actions had been nothing but impulsive ever since.

“Of course. That part is actually my… goal in all of this.” He replied, trying to stay on topic and not relay too much. “And I will fully state with no pretense that I never intended for you to have a choice. Yet…” Perturabo stalled, his resonant voice breaking as he failed to find the words easily.

He dragged the back of his hand down Dorn’s face, slowly; as he glanced down, breaking eye contact.

“I never had a contingency—”

“For this particular outcome.”

 


 

Amidst all of the sensations Dorn was experiencing in the physical and going through from things ways that might as well have been too, his body and mind fought back in unison against the constant flood of feelings that assailed him, so he could focus on the present.

And that soft kindness that Dorn seemed to always show in times like these despite how Perturabo viewed it all, came back to the forefront.

In both his expression and in his touch.

The grip he had on Perturabo was released in favor of lifting his hand up to set it alongside his Brother’s face, much like Perturabo had done moments ago while petting him. Dorn could see how much all of this troubled him, and he understood how much Perturabo had likely thought about everything and how drastically it all changed.

Beyond Dorn being willing to love him back.

Stalling on his own desires, Dorn dropped his hand down under Perturabo’s chin and lifted it up. He’d have touched the cable too, had he the other hand to do so, but in his limitations that curious device earned a brief nuzzle where it still remained settled against his head.

Oh, how he could see the clashing of various emotions and assumptions in those eyes of electric blue.

“Then let us find this contingency together, Perturabo.”

 


 

A troubled look washed over Perturabo’s features as he glanced up at Dorn, gaze not entirely meeting those hazel eyes that he felt regarded him with far too much empathy; something else within them that near approached understanding — and it was far more difficult to endure than any aggression or accusations that could have been levied at him.

He remained silent, seeming nigh fearful to stare straight into those dark eyes, and he scoffed when his head was forcibly moved, not only to have to endure that look but the sight of Dorn daring to show affection to that cable as well. A dangerous component that he must have at least some basic understanding of now, yet nothing—absolutely nothing—deterred Dorn or even placed healthy apprehension in him.

He blinked rapidly, trying to hold in what was surely coming as his eyes grew slick but that did not stop him from caressing the side of Dorn’s face with that cable, as if showing affection in this way was somehow less overt, like he could somehow separate himself from the action.

Maybe it should have been, would have been were it anyone else — but Dorn… took a liking to even the most inhuman and disturbing things about Perturabo. Memories flashed through his thoughts of how he so gently touched a much larger cable in his ship, showing fondness and interest even when he was barely coherent…

Perturabo truly didn’t understand despite all the evidence that he’d somehow managed to rebuild himself in a way that matched Dorn's personal… predilections, as he was undeniably Chaos manifest and held nothing but ill intent.

His hearts quivered in his chest as words were spoken that only reaffirmed all he’d been dwelling on; and yet to hear such conviction still came as a shock. He nodded somberly as let out a slow sigh.

“You’ve ruined all of my well laid out plans, you know,” Perturabo said peevishly, but somehow it wasn’t as convincingly negative as it should have been. “Many of which were thousands of years in the making.”

 


 

Once more, there was that crinkling at the corners of Dorn’s eyes as he gazed into his Brother’s stare. The smile on his face drew wider as Perturabo sulked, in a manner that came dangerously close to pouting. It was this that drew a soft laugh from him all the same as he shook his head.

“My apologies, Brother.”

Dorn said with quite a bit of mirth in his voice, while he continued to watch that conflict raging behind those telling eyes. He knew how much he truly confused Perturabo with how he reacted and acted in turn and Dorn, himself, likely could never truly explain why he felt the way that he did.

At least not yet. But he'd never been more sure of anything.

It didn’t matter that Chaos oozed from his Brother. There was no corrupting him. It was truly impossible and Dorn knew it well. Yet, of course his Brother couldn’t have known that, and Dorn didn’t quite understand it himself.

He simply knew that he was unyielding in his ideals, and far more direct attempts to turn him had yielded no results.

"But perhaps, it is better when things do not go entirely as expected."

 


 

“True,” Perturabo said wryly as he glared into those eyes that still seemed much too kind and far too soft; while seeking something in turn that he had no intentions of reciprocating.

His voice was scathing as he made his vain, embittered allegations, his gaze as sharp as his tongue. “I never expected to reveal the lust I have always held in my hearts for you. Nor did I expect that my darkest desires would make you cum.”

The metallic lead flicked its cold, rounded tip along Dorn’s face all the while as Perturabo spoke, as if licking him. “Yet here we are.”

 


 

Dorn took a moment to almost pointedly press against the tip of that cable while still keeping his gaze completely locked upon Perturabo, that smile shifting to one that almost seemed coy when it spread fully upon Dorn's lips.

"I get the understanding that most do not realize the types of proclivities I direct myself towards. I do not feel shame for them in the slightest, Brother."

 


 

A crazed light came to Perturabo’s pale, soulless eyes and he shook his head judgmentally, making his point clear even if he didn’t have much space to claim with such a gesture as he continued to stare at Dorn smugly as if he thought he had some moral high ground.

He restrained the shiver threatening to course through him upon watching Dorn cuddle up with that mechanical tendril, bit his bottom lip and pressed on, though he was quickly coming to realize that in this, and even should he take up his most dire and corrupted form, truly the worst outcome possible — he’d still met his match in Dorn, once again.

But in this case, the prospect was thrilling.

“It really doesn’t bother you at all that I am a cyborg, does it?” Perturabo questioned bluntly. “In fact, beyond the augmetics, you aren’t even disturbed in knowing there are situations when I am far more computer than man, it seems.”

"…And I don't mean this in a general way, Brother." He continued suggestively.

 


 

As Perturabo leveled such observations at him, Dorn drew his gaze from those expressive eyes that revealed him to be far more than a simple machine regardless of what he'd done to himself. Then Dorn openly admired Perturabo, trailing his gaze to his Brother's lips and slowly down what he could see of Perturabo's body, slick with sweat, saliva and cum.

At the same time, his hand left Perturabo's smooth jawline in favor of following where his eyes led, fingering along one of those metal bands that trailed down from Perturabo's chest to stomach.

"No, it does not. Not in the slightest."

Dorn mused, the smile still revealing his thoughts though slightly obscured by his facial hair while his head was angled downward and away. "It is very intriguing in fact, and curious."

 


 

"Do you not know what they say about curiosity, Brother?" Perturabo retorted flippantly, all the while trying to outwardly ignore all the many things that Dorn was doing to inflame him.

Things that were working wonders on him.

In the background he struggled to process how seen he was in this moment; no longer ignored —  how captivating Dorn truly seemed to find him.

It defied all reason and rationality, that in unmaking himself to remove all the parts of him that craved Dorn, he'd somehow made himself into something that was starting to feel more custom made for Dorn as he was for himself.

And his efforts hadn't even dulled his aching, perpetual pining for Dorn in all the many years they'd been apart. That was the most alarming thing of all, though that craving was so overwhelmingly potent that giving into it was the easy part.

"You're not the one in control here. I am not simply a toy for you to play with."

 


 

"Yes, I do know. It is satisfaction that brings it back." Dorn remarked easily against such a retort, having had the feeling that Perturabo would bite back so aggressively — which gave him an opening to rebuff it. He still didn't look up though, making sure to give the current line he was following all of his attention, even as Perturabo's body reacted, muscles clenching beneath his touch.

So sensitive.

"And I did not say you were a toy, Brother." That comment does lift his gaze upward toward Perturabo's face, a glint flickering behind those darkened eyes. "I do not doubt your control." A pause before he continued to speak, adding on an extra little bit that he knew that Perturabo could not, and would not be able to resist.

"Master."

Dorn spoke that word with a husky tone, voice deeper now than through everything else he had spoken in this interim.

 


 

Perturabo scoffed at Dorn’s so called satisfaction, though in truth he was attempting to play off how much harder it was for him to endure Dorn’s focus upon him the longer it went on, his resolve cracking deeper with each passing second in magnitudes of order — leading to certain and unequivocally failure if it did not stop.

Yet he did nothing to bring it to an end himself, as his dual minded nature valued Dorn’s attention over his own attempts to save face no matter how much he tried to convince himself otherwise.

Little ripples of muscle and prickling skin flanked those metallic strips, following Dorn’s fingertips as he traced down overheated pathways — biological responses that were certainly not the reactions of any self respecting machine.

Perturabo glanced back at Dorn’s face with a smug, standoffish expression twisting his features while he spoke, but the second that cursed word left Dorn’s lips, the widening of eyelids and the sharp, hyper-focused intensity resonating against the blue gave the game away before Perturabo could make a single play.

A growl built in Perturabo’s throat, and he dragged one hand roughly down Dorn’s back as the cybernetic tentacle that had been so innocently tracing along Dorn’s face coiled threateningly below his neck as if just waiting to strike.

“Do you still wish to ride me, Brother?” He hissed his scathing retort as if he were talking to some unnamed, valueless whore. “I know how quickly that tough little body of yours heals…”

Perturabo purred his filthy words with no small glee. “I bet all that work you put into making it less uncomfortable is being undone while you waste your time delaying the inevitable.” Huge, invasive fingers now clamped onto Dorn’s left asscheek, sinking in deeply enough to bruise as he felt tissue sink below his grasp. “Which doesn’t impact me one bit.”

"In fact I prefer to bring the walls down myself." Perturabo grinned with unsavory, demented satisfaction.

 


 

Everything that Dorn was witnessing now was nothing short of breathtaking, there was so much beauty in how his Brother responded. It didn’t matter how much it might have been derisive or combative, none of that truly mattered in this moment. He could see the underlying truth of it all, even in the moments where Perturabo tried to seem the most hostile.

He was simply too emotional.

How could Perturabo ever be considered a machine? Certainly his augmentations, many and terrifying as they were, would denote that was exactly what he should have been perceived as, and perhaps that was certainly the case once he became more… connected.

Yet right now, Perturabo was so human.

For even machines, even the most advanced and convincing — shouldn’t be able to differentiate so many feelings.

Dorn slowly moved his hand away from the strip, exhaling sharply at the beginning of that growl and he saw, out of the corner of his vision, that tendril poised at his neck. Those biting words made him swallow as he shuddered at Perturabo’s filthy words.

As if Dorn hadn’t been filthy, himself, moments ago.

Any movement that he might have done to raise up was abruptly stopped, between the warning hand down his back and the one that was now clamped so tightly on his ass, preventing him from more motion as his options quickly shrank.

I do.” Dorn reassured, his voice still that husky rasp. He didn’t respond verbally to threats of what was clearly the inevitable, as he felt and was fully aware of what Perturabo could only assume. “But by… all means… do what you prefer.” Dorn’s eyes blazed with his own hunger.

 


 

Perturabo pressed his back against the high rest of the chair they occupied, a smug expression on his face befitting the despot he was; and he released his iron grip upon that full, velvety curve of flesh solely because it would further his plans — despite the fact he resented letting go at all.

A haughty, dry laugh was uttered into the air, tainted with a metallic twang as he fixed his eyes upon the prey perched upon his lap, and the hand that had once been manhandling Dorn was curled beneath his chin as he stared at him as though he were a piece of meat to be sampled.

That cable draped over Dorn's clavicle slinked up to 'lick' beneath his chin with its cold, smooth tip before settling down lifelessly to exactly where it had been before.

“No. You will do as I have granted you permission to do. Just as you are,” Perturabo explained, as vindictive and spiteful in tone as his cruel features expressed. “The only thing I will grant you is more of my anointment should you be in need,” Perturabo offered, aware of how he himself was not nearly as slick as he’d been initially, though it was not an act of kindness — simply a vehicle for him to propose more of his petty conditions. “Though I’m nearly of a mind to take you dry solely for the fun of it and I will if you keep provoking me.”

 


 

To watch Perturabo shift around and try get comfortable in the chair that he made like it was some sort of throne; then to sport that smug grin upon his lips made Dorn reveal the barest flicker of amusement in the unfolding seconds. Dorn knew how much legitimate danger he was actually in, yet seeing this, as egotistical as it was, felt genuinely nice.

Despite how much Perturabo tried to seem otherwise, between his actions and his words, Dorn had simply seen too much to not understand that there was an unspoken genuine level of care there within his cruelty, and that he was checking in on Dorn's well-being in his own way.

If Perturabo didn’t see it as such, Dorn definitely did.

That haughty laugh caused him to shudder, goosebumps trailing up and down his skin. Even in the manner he was being leered at, made Dorn’s body heat up in untold ways that brought a fresh layer of sweat over his body, soaking his underfur as much as it beaded down his brow.

He missed Perturabo’s hands on him already, though it seemed like the cable still wanted one final touch before it fell lifeless. A groan was drawn out of Dorn in reaction to that before he fixed his stare back on Perturabo, huffing loudly through his nose at the offer.

Dorn almost took that as a challenge and his eyes sharpened with determination.

And it was through that wordless determination that he lifted himself up from his seat fully, rising up on his knees as he planted his left arm against Perturabo’s shoulder to steady himself.

Was he about to follow through so easily?

It certainly seemed like it.

Without breaking eye contact in the slightest, Dorn reached down behind himself, using his hand to help guide his actions as he slid up along Perturabo’s thick cock, tensing with the anticipation of what was to come until he let out the breath he hadn’t even realized he had been holding in until he slowly moved down.

Right till he felt that metal disc slick along his entrance.

 


 

Perturabo’s eyes were glazed over, glassy and distant as he continued to stare at Dorn like a servant; or worse — an object, pinprick pupils piercing through him, nearly consumed by adamantium blue.

He observed sweat slicked, fur covered muscles that shimmered in the light, his tongue flicking between his lips; and as he tasted pheromones and sweat in the air, his mouth opened a second later, salivating excessively as he basked in the raw sexuality that was his Brother’s perfect body.

But for all his cultivated aloofness, Perturabo's eyes gave him away again as he was abruptly caught in that hazel stare. His vital signs were rising rapidly as Dorn raised up; and the moment that cool metal disc bolted into the head of his cock was smothered in heat he shuddered, pupils enlarging immediately. He clenched his teeth and tightly gripped the armrests of the chair as he tried to hold back — but a moment later, when the edge of that same metallic implant was tugged, catching lightly against the rippling texture of that tight hole, it was a lost cause.

He hissed and writhed, moisture bursting forth and spilling over as his balls seized and his dick twitched in Dorn’s grasp, the result likely no doubt to provide some assistance to the very cause he was undertaking. And if Dorn was able to notice some details that were suddenly revealed in this new situation rather than spilled deeply inside of him, he’d discover that this fluid was also incredibly oily  — exactly like the natural state of Perturabo's 'saliva'.

Perturabo turned his head and scowled as the wood creaked inside his double fisted grasp.

 


 

Anything that Dorn may have felt like saying died the moment that he felt Perturabo release underneath him, causing him to choke briefly on the saliva that had been gathering in his mouth from the second that he had decided on his next course of action.

The wood began to relent to that grasp, bordering on splintering in Perturabo's iron fisted grip.

If Dorn cared about that predicament and the damage inflicted to the precious furniture he had made, he didn’t seem to show it, or any reaction in the slightest. He was far too focused on what he felt under him, coating his entire cleft and providing more slick to the task he was going to undertake.

Dorn should have been careful, he should have taken things slow, but after watching his Brother come, his resolve slipped away at last and all that remained was the intention of what he had wanted to do for an eternity now.

Perturabo soon felt a strong hand around his dick, Dorn purposefully gripping him as he began to lower himself, using that newfound wetness to his advantage as Perturabo’s foreskin was pulled back while he began to lower himself down.

Now was the first time in quite a while that Dorn didn’t dare look at his Brother as the tip of Perturabo's cock began to breach that tight hole that wanted nothing more than to reject anything that was trying to slip into him. Dorn didn’t care about that, in any capacity, even as a jolt of pain shot through his lower half by the sudden intrusion of something far larger than his fingers.

Dorn bit his lip while he continued to take more of that cock inside of him, despite that it already felt like it was stretching him to the absolute limit. He wanted all of it, inch by painstaking inch.

Perturabo was certainly not the only one avoiding gazes now as he turned his head away.

 


 

A long, low moan echoed in Perturabo’s throat as he was slowly being consumed by the heat and the pressure and the applied force squeezing all around him, Dorn determined to complete the mission he’d undertaken.

One hand still gripped that hand rest for dear life, the other moving away so that Perturabo could press that palm to the side of his head as he endured the boiling heat of that tight little tunnel squeezing more and more of his length, foreskin shoved back as Dorn heedlessly sought to spear himself with an alarming determination that bordered on insanity.

It felt so incredibly good, squeezing along his shaft so firmly it hurt; and had he not just released he surely would have now, though there was a great chance that time was quickly approaching again regardless. He jerked his head forward, watching Dorn slowly slide down, his face in profile, contorted equally with pain and determination.

How terribly Perturabo wanted to thrust himself in deep and take Dorn by surprise, to bring that tight little fortress into compliance through force and aggression — but he did all that he could to resist, clamping his feet against the floor as he strained his leg muscles with all his might so that he did not move; if only to see what Dorn would do, and so that he would have to follow through with what he’d promised from the start.

That didn’t stop Perturabo from thinking about it though… as he continued to do as he was biding his time.

 


 

It took only a few seconds, but Dorn let out a breath the moment that Perturabo's cockhead pressed inside of him, taking another half-inch and then another until Dorn stilled, so he could claim a short reprieve and get accustomed to his Brother. His entire body felt like it was pulsing and throbbing from the shock, a sensation that could truly be felt in the deepest of places.

Dorn did not have to only contend with his own body, but with Perturabo’s own twitches inside of him, especially as his body was trying to push away the intruder. It was all to no avail as gravity helped Dorn in this carnal union.

As beads of sweat continue to slide down his brow in rivulets, he watched Perturabo out of the corner of his vision, head angled downwards. He saw how his Brother seemed in no better state, marveling at how much control he truly had to prevent a far more painful outcome.

Though that wouldn’t have bothered Dorn one bit.

Masochistic as he was.

Those straining muscles rippled underneath him and Dorn could hear the sounds of Perturabo’s feet against the floor, as if he could break through what he was wearing and the Thunderhawk itself by sheer force alone. More sweat fell, combining with saliva as Dorn began to pant again.

So… much… pulsing.

From the blood flowing through their veins to their multiple heartbeats thrumming loudly in his ears. Frantic. So frantic. He felt as if his own were going to burst as much as he could feel Perturabo’s trying to regulate.

Dorn slowly moved his hand, finding it shaking until he could rest it upon Perturabo’s shoulder, gripping onto him for dear life as that cock spread him open to limits he hadn’t felt in a long time and had now experienced several times over in their short meeting.

He wanted it.

Every… bit of it.

It didn’t matter how much he knew it would hurt. Dorn embraced pain, a deep seated need inside of him; as much as he knew that Perturabo was trying to hold himself back from inflicting it — yet also took great delight in the agony that Dorn faced of his own volition.

So Dorn granted them both what they wanted.

No longer did he hover.

He fell.

Searing white-hot agony coursed through his entire body, ripping a yell, a cry from his throat, the sound a deafening and tormented howl as Dorn threw his head back so hard that it felt like he almost snapped his neck. His body relented uselessly and painfully as he took Perturabo to the hilt in one fell movement.

His body spasmed, tears that had been forming in the interim of that anticipation fell down the sides of his face, intermingling with the sweat as Dorn screamed himself hoarse while his body was force to adapt.

To endure. To overcome.

The monster ripping him apart.

The smell of blood permeated the air.

Yet that was not the only thing, as Dorn had just released all over their chests and stomachs again in the moment that his body had stopped its descent, drenching the both of them with what was the largest load yet.

Filthy.

Degenerate.

Chapter 18: OPTIMAL IDEAL

Summary:

There are many things that data, no matter how precise, can explain.

Chapter Text


 

Perturabo’s breathing was loud and open-mouthed as he watched Dorn from his peripheral vision; and he braced against the firm, crushing hand placed against his shoulder, preparing to endure what was sure to come. His mind was reeling, still not truly able to accept this was real, that Dorn himself was taking the initiative as it went beyond all probability that events could ever occur this way.

Suddenly and without any warning, Perturabo’s entire body was plunged into molten honey as the sensory input flooded his system; overwhelming his fleshmind with sensation and his CPU with so much data that the result was nearly as potent as when Dorn had touched that cable never meant to be connected to his humanoid form — but without the sting of overload that had nearly caused an emergency shutdown.

A ragged moan ripped from his throat, vox-laced and clangorous; and the strand that had encircled Dorn’s neck seized and tensed up in the aftermath as Perturabo threw his head back, followed by the the sound of slithering as his augments clacked against the wooden surface of the chair.

His hips shook and his thighs quaked as he spilled more of his oily salt deep within Dorn’s well-speared guts, and he threw his arms around Dorn’s form as he rode out intense and sharp spasms that continued for several seconds as the shock assailed him.

He struggled to even process what Dorn had done, taking things to the violent and sadomasochistic level that Perturabo had reveled in when he’d thought to rape Dorn and break him in his selfishness; and yet, here, Dorn had wrought this down upon himself, and with full agency.

Perturabo had not been physically, mentally or technologically prepared for such an incalculable outcome — left stunned in disbelief and assailed with haptic feedback that did not end; as even now he was surrounded by the wet heat of an oppressive space far too tight for his insertion and the vibrations and sounds of many frantic, careening heartbeats in overlapping, rapid rhythms.

His interface glowed within his perception, firing off endless cascades of overlapping bright screens and layers of chiming sounds that seemed to be more than just relays of information, as if the processes within his core itself were rejoicing.

 


 

Seconds ticked on as Dorn stilled entirely, staying in place in this newfound position. His body was still twitching, still spasming as he waited for the shock to his system to eventually wear off, as much as it could hope to. It was a task he had to endure, as the absolute internal ruination of his body was sending all sorts of alarms blaring through Dorn’s mind.

The pain, the pain was nothing short of euphoric, pooling deep in his gut as much as his Brother’s cum did, soaking into already damaged, reopened areas from the force Dorn wrought onto himself.

This was all his doing, not Perturabo’s.

If this couldn’t demonstrate how much he truly wanted this, Dorn had little thought of how else he could possibly convey his desires and wants.

As that cable tightened around his neck, Dorn lurched forwards, until his face was buried against the crook of Perturabo’s neck, hot breath and saliva spreading against skin and metal alike. Soon, Dorn added his tongue, lapping at Perturabo’s neck, trailing along everything he made contact with.

All in an effort to buy time, to adapt; to grow used to feeling so entirely stuffed.

The additional oil-laced cum did wonders in lubricating his insides, however, making it easier to accomplish — if one could have ever thought taking a Primarch’s dick in the first place, as easy. Dorn wouldn’t allow Perturabo to stay still long though, even though he could infer how much what had just happened affected his Brother too.

He wasn’t going to allow his wounds time to heal over, wanting, additionally, to take full advantage of the lubrication leaking down Perturabo’s shaft and along his innermost walls that had willingly given up to the conqueror this time.

Dorn began to move while still mouthing against Perturabo’s neck, slowly at first, just a couple of inches at a time.

 


 

As Perturabo reeled, he took in a deep, gasping breath — eyes rolling back as he let that same breath out with a low, metallic groan. What he tasted in that moment was indescribable; Dorn’s pheromones had crested to an entirely inexperienced level, that seductive smell soaked through with the additional scents of copious semen and freshly spilled blood.

And that wetness also surrounded him, chest and stomach stained with Dorn’s seed, skin and heated components drenched with it; while the foul mixture of oil, semen and blood dripped from that quivering, tiny ring he was completely slotted into and against the base of his dick, moistening his pubic hair and trailing down his balls.

It was so completely degenerate, to be shoved so deeply into his own Brother but there was a distinction completely unknown this time to experience it as a willful act of complete disregard and depravity, enacted by that Golden Paragon Perturabo had always envisioned as upright and virtuous.

There was a quick flash in his mind, of deliberate memory recall; when Dorn had revealed that he had never held himself to any higher standard than any of their Brothers, including him.

And as the words played back, there was one vital statement amidst that lecture that was somehow still sanctimonious in Perturabo’s view even as he was chastised for holding Dorn to a greater morality than he felt he deserved.

 

 

Mirror._

>._

 

 

Perturabo shuddered, deeply.

 

 

My Mirror._

>._

 

 

He lowered his chin as he felt Dorn suddenly begin to grind against his cock, wasting no time and allowing no healing to occur, acting with a determination that was almost frightening to witness — a Fortress willing to Break itself rather than just steadfastly enduring an attack.

Perturabo stared with open mouthed amazement, eyes filled with wonder and disbelief; and somehow despite thinking he’d lost the ability to experience such long ago — hope.

There was no denying that Dorn wanted this.

Wanted him.

 

 

….

   ….

      ….

Optimal ideal?_

>._

 

 

Another moan broke the silence, this time a pained, miserable sound as those pale blue eyes stared at Dorn as if he held his very soul in his grasp.

Despite not even having one any longer.

“You…” Perturabo choked out, “are…” He stopped, unable to even get the words out between the onslaught of sensations and thoughts — and his own rough, loud breathing.

 


 

Dorn could feel it, deep within his soul, how this situation was so much different than before. When he had been hollowed out so deeply through violence, pain wracking through his body, he had known he blacked out, falling into the doomed rhythm of familiarity. What was to be expected. What was to be expected of him.

In a position that he knew far too well— in circumstances too unspeakable to even begin to explain or compare. Those encounters always sent his mind scrambling, scrambling to protect him by shutting off everything, making his body compliant and fully numb to not endure but withstand. Survive.

What was happening now… was not like that at all.

There was no hiding, no limp-bodied quivering, no protecting himself from a force so much greater than he. Dorn wasn’t shutting down, he was fully engaged. This was a new experience and Dorn showed a willingness like no other.

There was enjoyment and satisfaction.

No one could take this from him. No one.

As Perturabo writhed and gasped and groaned, overwrought with stimulation, Dorn began to pull back; but not before leaving a tingling nip against his Brother’s neck, making sure to leave slick trails of saliva there as he felt how his Brother twitched and squirmed, no doubt processing so much in this short period of time.

Darkened eyes gazed into those of pale blue, seeing something that was akin to reverence. It was that sight alone that made his hearts still entirely, as his breathing became far more stilted than before.

But then…

Dorn smiled into that face twisted in a myriad of feelings, calculations and expressions. He didn’t even question what those dying words were. Instead, he closed the distance, never breaking eye contact, as their lips met against one another. It was an action far softer than the brutality he was subjecting his lower half to as he moved back down.

And then up.

Down.

Each time taking more.

 


 

Perturabo met that soft kiss in a state that was nearly hypnotized, just following through the motions that Dorn led him to. But as their lips met and even after his tongue slipped into Dorn’s mouth, appearing as if he was disconnected—flooded by the haze of blistering white noise and constant datastreams—he was fully engaged, charmed by every facet of what Dorn was doing. He stared into those hazel eyes consuming his own with a far-away, captivated gaze.

As if he wanted to suffocate there.

And as Dorn engulfed him again and again, Perturabo’s body shook from the sensations and force of motion alike, as if he was being crashed upon the rocks like a starship without a pilot.

Yet every bit of it was bliss, and he pulled away from that kiss just long enough to moan against Dorn’s open mouth, smothered by wetness and heat from all directions. His arms curled around Dorn from behind as he took advantage of their size differences, hands reaching up Dorn’s back to grasp his shoulders.

That tough compact form was like a dense, hard stone on his lap, even his insides so taut and firm, but with each rolling motion he felt that body conform, forced to take his shape as the fluids continued to drip from the point where they connected.

Flanking either side of Perturabo’s head, like eyeless vipers were those two black cables, curved and hovering as they almost somehow seemed to be observing all the happened now despite having no sight — the one on the right inching closer to Dorn’s ear while the one on the left kept its distance, as if curious but uncertain.

Perturabo began flexing his hips and moving into Dorn from below with shallow, slight rolls — not yet thrusting, simply exerting energy as the urges were beginning to take command, a suggestion likely to become reality as his restraint was failing.

 


 

The smile upon Dorn’s face did not waver for one second, even when their lips met with one another in a union that was so much kinder. Dorn parted his lips, letting his Brother slip his long tongue between them, sharing both in saliva and the tastes between — though one was far more slick than the other.

Dorn was finding that he was beginning to enjoy that strange flavor as he audibly swallowed when it became just a bit too much to hold in his mouth. All of this occurred while he still held that gaze, one so engaged yet lost in the sensations of it all.

So human.

The moan drawn from his Brother’s lips was like music to Dorn’s ears, a signal that everything was just fine. It was a good sign, as Dorn was ever watchful, even in the midst of this, just like Perturabo had been with him.

When those arms wrapped behind him and rested upon his shoulders, Dorn pressed firmly into the touch, enjoying those fingers kneading into his flesh, loosening him up above just like he was doing to himself below while he continued to move at a steady rhythm, his cock curved against his stomach and steadily dripping more and more down the side of his shaft and along his heavy balls.

Whatever else, was captured into his soft pubic hair.

Dorn moved his hand then, loosening the grip he held upon Perturabo’s shoulder in favor of splaying his fingers along that broad chest, smearing the cum that he had released already. The only time that he broke that mesmerized eye contact with Perturabo was to give each of those cables a glance, flashing even them a smile that took a far more playful expression even while he was still experiencing that pressure and ache of that large cock inside of him.

He tilted his head towards the tendril to the right, while he brought his left arm around and behind Perturabo’s head, using his stumped wrist to actually stroke the underside of that left, shy cable to the best of his limited capabilities — giving it some attention as well while he shifted his stare back to his Brother.

Dorn’s expression transformed to one of pure bliss and he moaned from the promise of the burgeoning movements from Perturabo underneath him, making him move more enthusiastically in turn; providing more friction while his body conformed to his Brother’s size.

"AhBrother

 


 

That left-sided serpentine cable shivered from Dorn’s stroking, the energy from that motion rippling down its length, and it pecked in return, the tip making gentle contact against the blunt ending of Dorn's severed wrist. The outwardly shown affection Dorn had given it was apparently garnering interest as a second cable poked out from that side beneath those nearby layers of cords falling down Perturabo’s back — unrevealed until now, it slid forward in an S pattern as it joined the one being actively petted.

The cable on the right was in the pursuit of its own ‘interests’, rubbing along the outer curve of Dorn’s ear and nestling there.

Perturabo released his grip on Dorn’s right shoulder, using that hand to cup the back of Dorn’s head instead as he stared deeply into those captivating eyes, a look of true wonder on his face; his motions deep within inside that tight, convulsing tunnel and wherever else the furthest reaches of his cock penetrated, so many different textures gripping and squeezing all around him.

And yet the look on Dorn’s face was of genuine, unfiltered pleasure, it all so unfathomable and terribly filthy to Perturabo, that he could barely withstand it.

“Mmmm…” Perturabo groaned in reply. “You’ve made quite the mess of us, haven’t you…” He smiled wryly, electric eyes intensely focused on his Brother’s face.

 


 

As soon as Dorn felt that secondary cable begin to slither along his left arm, there was a momentary flicker of surprise and interest when Dorn had realized that there was more than one touching him there.

How many more of these seemingly sentient cables were there? How many more would reveal themselves? Did Perturabo control them all? Did Perturabo control them at all? Questions that Dorn wondered if he’d find a genuine answer to.

Then, there was the one that was now coiling along the curve of his ear, causing a visible, full body shudder, the barest hint of a groan escaping his lips as the sensation was new to him. It had done that several times, but now, aroused as Dorn was, he felt those touches far more keenly than before, the contact truly sensual.

That cable wasn’t to be the only thing against his head, as he soon found his Brother’s large hand now cradling the back of his skull, eliciting a pleased sigh to come from Dorn, enjoying the feeling of being so trapped and the sudden additional warmth there as if he wasn’t already on fire as it was, with how he could feel the heat of everything around him.

Still, he continued to gaze into those blazing blue eyes.

Cable and hand alike moved as Dorn began to push himself up and down, a fresh layer of sweat coating him while he continued to palm at his Brother’s chest. “Indeed… Brother… I do not believe… that will be stopping anytime soon.” He pushed out between gasping breaths.

It had been one thing to be active while not talking, but now that he was trying to make a stronger effort, it was difficult to do while he picked up the pace, drawing himself further up and then taking it back to the hilt.

And Dorn was moving faster now, too.

 


 

Those two cables twisted around each other in their enthusiasm to reach Dorn, overlapping as they looped around his wrist like a rope as Perturabo continued to stare deeply into Dorn’s eyes.

His fingers rubbed against sweat-drenched velvet hair, his pinky finger nearly reaching that more active strand draped there; and he thumbed over all the places he could reach.

Everything about Dorn was so damningly soft, which felt even more sinful as his form was so thick and dense and hard below it all, it drove Perturabo wild.

He pressed against the hand upon his chest, pushing his ample pectoral muscle into his Brother’s palm, and he smiled faintly at that open admission.

Beyond all reason, past all calculations — Dorn really did desire him. There had been so much positive reinforcement that it was becoming more impossible to deny; and even if his negative, fearful mind did find some way to refute the fact in the future—were it only hours from now—nothing could bring him down from the high of knowing he was wanted in this moment.

He began to meet Dorn’s speed with his thrusting, being far less forceful than before, no longer intent to destroy him as he was enjoying Dorn’s active role far too much, that tight, rippling little ring getting the brunt of Perturabo’s actions as he shallowly focused his efforts on the entry point rather than pushing beyond. The sliding of his foreskin caused so much friction there that it stung and throbbed — but he did not stop.

“The pain, it really doesn’t deter you at all, does it?” Perturabo asked, fascinated.

 


 

Dorn left his arm in the care of those cables that were now looping around his wrist, seemingly testing them for just a moment as he slowly began to let his arm fall back down onto Perturabo’s shoulder. He was curious about how they would react, as well as simply not wanting to hold it up anymore, so his focus could be placed elsewhere.

With those fingers in his hair, he rubbed against them, smearing more of the dampness against them from so much sweating. His body still remained entirely on fire, blood running hot and hearts working overtime. Dorn hadn’t cooled down at any point, and he certainly knew that was not going to stop anytime soon, either.

Judging by how hot Perturabo felt in turn, between the natural warmth of his skin and overheating metals alike, he knew that his Brother was not in better shape.

He couldn’t focus on those cables for too much longer, as his hand was purposefully pressed again. In retaliation, Dorn began to squeeze where he could against Perturabo's massive chest until an idea struck him and he could not resist the anticipation that compelled what he did next.

At first he trailed one of those bands till he found a huge main Black Carapace port.

Once there, he began to rim the outside of it briefly before he dipped his finger inside it.

All the while, he grunted and moaned once Perturabo began to thrust up into him, meeting the speed that he had set mere moments ago. It made his hand temporarily still and he jerked his head violently to the side, pressing into that hand on his head and against the cable in turn.

“No… No it doesn’t.” He spoke with a new trail of drool coming from his mouth as he felt his pleasure beginning to mount to dizzying new heights, only made greater when Dorn then began to move faster.

As if to prove a point, even as he was speared so deeply.

 


 

As soon as Dorn’s muscles went slack, those ropelike tendrils went into action—so quickly it seemed like a natural reflex—tensed and prehensile as they coiled around Dorn’s arm and held it securely; suspended and kept from falling. They held that limb strongly but gently in a way that might have seemed protective and secure, but it was suspiciously similar to the scenes shown inside the depths of Perturabo’s darkest visions within Medrengard’s bastion.

But the second Dorn became a bit too curious and far too invasive, those coils flinched and twitched from the sensation — letting Dorn’s arm fall briefly; and while they recovered quickly and did not drop Dorn’s arm, that intrusion proved that such fingering of Perturabo’s electronic components triggered great cybernetic sensitivity.

A truth reflected in Perturabo’s human elements as his eyes flew open, a husky deep moan uttered in a broken breath as Dorn fondled that large Black Carapace port, and he began to rut with shuddering motions as he fucked roughly into those narrow, squeezing depths.

“Oh. Oh fuck,” Perturabo growled.

He grasped a huge handful of that thick, impossibly soft fur, then yanked Dorn forward and lunged in tandem, to bury his face in the similar fluffy white hair lining Dorn’s jaw, licking with long, enthusiastic strokes.

 


 

There was a startled gasp that was drawn from Dorn the moment those tendrils wrapped around his wrist and arm so securely. Those cables had reacted so incredibly quickly, all in an effort to prevent his arm from hitting anything. Even after that momentary lapse due to sensory overload, they never let him go or loosened for too long.

In Dorn’s haze of pleasure, he could tell that they were strong, his mind immediately drifting to what he had seen and felt in Medrengard. His hearts stilled for a second, before thumping deep within his chest with a new-found speed. Yet, he did not pull away from the contact.

No.

He simply allowed his arm to hang there.

While continuing to finger and touch that Black Carapace port in front of him. Dorn’s thoughts recalled how he had felt when wandering hands had settled upon the Carapace port along his back and he could only imagine the sensations that Perturabo was feeling now, and if it was somehow even more intense.

The moan that he drew from his Brother’s throat seemed to only encourage and reward him in equal measure, giving him the clear indication that he was doing all the right things. Soon, not just through sound but through motion as well, as Perturabo began to rut further.

Dorn began to oblige, lifting his body up as much as he could without disrupting Perturabo’s actions and bringing himself back down, finally going into a steady rhythm befitting what he had wanted to do this entire time, and compelled by the many reasons why he wanted to control this aspect in the first place.

All it did was deepen the pleasure through his entire body and he knew that Perturabo was lost in it, judging by how his Brother moved below him, echoed by the sounds of the chair creaking and lightly cracking from such stressful movements that had never been tested upon it.

As soon as his hair was grabbed, those thick fingers carding deep into his hair, Perturabo was rewarded with a sound that was akin to a mewl, especially after that long tongue began to lap along his jawline, licking up fur, sweat and even the remnants of tears long shed.

More of a filthy mess was spilled between them and Dorn had very little control of just how hard he was or just how many times he could cum. It didn’t even matter that he was in agony, as that pain only enhanced the euphoric pleasure.

His thoughts were becoming nothing more than noise while he lost himself in bliss.

He could only hope his Brother was lost in a similar way, but the sensations all around him told him the answer to that.

 


 

The sound his efforts dragged out of Dorn caused a shudder to ripple down his spine, and from that moment, Perturabo took it further; licking, nibbling and nipping at that velvet hair that lined Dorn’s face—far softer than any facial hair had any right to be—leaving traces of his lubricated saliva and essentially oiling Dorn’s beard in the process just as he’d done to his hair hours before. He lavished his attention upon his Brother with teeth and tongue — primal behavior more like an animal grooming its mate than anything one could attribute to a machine.

The cables that supported Dorn’s arm did not fail in the task of keeping it supported and stable, yet they twisted and writhed in time with the noises that Perturabo made, while the right solitary cable that lapped at Dorn’s ear now revealed a companion as well, slinking and exploring through messy tufts of hair.

Perturabo hissed and growled and groaned as Dorn continued to stimulate that port linked straight to his nervous system with skilled fingers, breath and vibration pressed into Dorn’s jawline. Then when Dorn began to rock against his shaft with renewed vigor Perturabo began to bite, teeth snapping against flesh and fur.

There was a sudden roughness in the energy of his hips as he let go of restraint and began to fuck into that obliging body, the arm wrapped around Dorn’s back supporting and holding him steady as they began to bounce against the chair. The gate of that Fortress was still like a vice around the base of Perturabo’s shaft, with deeper muscles past that rim rocky and solid even as they were being pulverized into compliance. Beyond the farthest reaches he had claimed before there was something so soft and tender swallowing the head of his cock that created contrast — so many delicious textures provided by Dorn’s body that it drove Perturabo nearly feral. The messy mixture of fluids that dripped out and soaked his groin increased in volume as Perturabo came again and again inside Dorn’s ass, his belly and anywhere inside him that could be drenched in that oily seed, but there was far too much of it to be absorbed.

 


 

As the minutes wore on, Dorn started to lose his grip on everything around him. His thoughts turned to white noise as this time, it was Perturabo that was pushing him further and further, leading him into a state of pure ecstasy that was not marred or poisoned by anything else.

He hadn’t known this sensation for a long time.

Had he ever truly known it?

It was not long, not long at all until his submission to Perturabo was assured. But the notable difference now, was that he was still active, even as his body succumbed. He gave in eagerly to the pleasures of the flesh as his Brother was now the one to set the pace, the sensations, all of it.

Control.

Dorn arched into Perturabo as he gasped loudly, head drawn back, far away, fucked out dissociated eyes gazing at the ceiling of the Thunderhawk and the dim lighting there. There was only a vague awareness that there were now two cables feathering along his ear and hair. The touch by those tendrils felt like they carried electricity now where there had been none, as his Brother and whatever he controlled or not set his every single sense alight.

Each of those nips and bites drew forth a deep-throated groan that vibrated his very body, every thrust into him, the sounds of skin meeting skin with the chair continuing to creak and move brought forth a whimper here and there or, sometimes, even had him crying out as his body relished the pleasure.

Those sounds were accompanied by the noise of squelches where his Brother’s semen and some blood provided the over-lubrication of his insides. He didn’t even know how many times his Brother had cum, and knew that he, himself, had coated more and more of them till it truly felt like he wasn’t going to be able to keep going.

The smell of his Brother’s pheromones was cloying and intoxicating, making him drunk upon it as if it was some sort of aphrodisiac that he could no longer deny or refuse.

The hand that had been messing with that port so eagerly had stopped as Dorn’s body twitched and squirmed on top of Perturabo's lap. “Take meBrother…” Dorn gasped out between another bout of tears trailing down his face, feeling like he was being swallowed whole by rapture.

Oh, how he felt so connected with his Brother now, like before, but it was so pure — nothing to sully the moment this time. Their blood pumped as one, their hearts beat in time; their motions, the perfect mirror.

Giving and Taking.

In equal measure.

Dorn felt so full in more ways than one.

 


 

A broken, miserable moan ripped from Perturabo’s throat, iron-laced and echoing, his entire body shaking as Dorn curved his back and arched into his movements, allowing Perturabo to claim more territory inside those smoldering depths; and with that extra flexibility he felt himself sinking so far within that the base of his cock made contact with the curves of that smooth ass.

There wasn’t any further Perturabo could go now, penetrating far deeper than he had even when Breaking Dorn had been his goal because of this new position with Dorn on top of him and yet…

Yet…

Take me, Brother.

Perturabo seized beneath Dorn, his entire body losing its strength as all his muscles went slack, electric current rippling through him and discharged through his circuitry; and he vocalized a second time as he rode out that violent surge of energy that felt like being struck by lightning.

His system flickered and glitched out — a cascade of green overlapping readouts and hissing, line corrupted static dancing across his HUD as his CPU attempted to process so much haptic feedback. Though it was not that his technology failed him, nor had it this entire time. There was something resonating at the core of the construct that he’d become, that had no frame of reference for a situation like this, flooded out and failing to make sense of the events occurring and the effect they caused. It was far too much to endure and something that data, no matter how exacting — could explain. There was no code to process these emotions, no programming to handle these physical sensations and no prior experience for his server to reference as a failsafe.

It had been happening to lesser degrees since the moment Perturabo landed on this dead, forsaken world, but genuine overload had truly assailed him now as his head spun, his hearts nearly burst, his temperature rose and his spirit transcended towards the divine — cresting into an altered state no logic algorithms could explain away or make sense of.

It was the ecstasy of the flesh.

It was the manifestation of impossible dreams.

It was the ultimate digital nexus.

 

 

>._

SYSTEM CRASH RECOVERY:

01001001 01010011 00100000 01010100 01001000 01001001 01010011 00100000 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00100000 01001001 01010011 00100000 01010100 01001000 01001001 01010011 00100000 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00100000 01000101 01010010 01010010 01001111 01010010 00100000 01000101 01010010 01010010 01001111 01010010 00100000 01010100 01000101 01010010 01001101 00100000 01010101 01001110 01000100 01000101 01000110 01001001 01001110 01000101 01000100 00001010 00001010 01000101 01010010 01010010 01001111 01010010 00001010 00001010 01000101 01010010 01010010 01001111 01010010 00001010 00001010 01000101 01010010 01011111 00001010 00001010 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011

EVENT LOGGED_

 

 

And yet…

And yet what?

Perturabo struggled to even complete the thought he’d nearly had, despite knowing it had been important. He came to not even a nanosecond later but in the interim Dorn’s arm drooped and the cables that had been caressing the side of his face fell lifelessly against his shoulder.

But the instant Perturabo choked in a wheezing breath, every single one of those tendrils resumed their former tasks as if nothing had happened.

“Dorn. Dorn.” Perturabo groaned out in a ragged, pleading voice — both arms that were somehow not where he thought they should be now slack, but he immediately reached out and grabbed two huge handfuls of that ample, supple ass as he aggressively began to carnally drill into it.

 


 

There was that change, Dorn had felt it the instant it had happened. He heard his Brother cry out and felt as every part of him went slack. Dorn was still so entire lost in that blinding haze of emotions and sensations, that by the time he could begin to worry, it appeared Perturabo had reactivated once more.

Dorn didn’t know what that was actually about. How could he? His mind was completely blanked out, with most thoughts having faded away the moment that things had gotten far more serious. His Brother had opted to redoubling his efforts and thus, the worry that had began to eat at Dorn’s hearts faded away with contentment.

Truly, barely any time had passed, but there was a palpable shift. It was all that Dorn could do to grip onto his Brother’s shoulder while, at the same time, he felt his Brother grip at his ass and spread him open, allowing Perturabo to drive in deeper than he had even thought was possible.

His visual senses began to blur as he lolled his head to the side, something about hearing his name said in such a pleading way had him wanting to witness at his Brother to the best of his ability, as lost to the pleasures as he was.

“Perturabo… Perturabo…” Dorn said that name, again and again and again. Sometimes it was uttered softly under his breath like a guarded whisper, other times he moaned it out like the lover he viewed his Brother as, and other times he screamed it out until his voice was hoarse.

Every thrust inside of him brought that name, repeating—over and over and over.

A mantra.

A prayer.

Devotion blossomed in his breast as he gazed at his Brother with every single emotion blended into a dizzying blur; amplified, time and time again, completely lost to an ecstasy of untold proportions.

 


 

Perturabo felt as if he were melting as he pistoned aggressively into that offered, submissive asshole; every bit the monster he’d professed himself to be at the outset of all this, ramming himself in deep as he spread Dorn’s asscheeks gloriously wide, pumping in and out as if he were nothing more than an animal. Yet there was something genuinely profound happening within his cybernetic core, something he’d come precariously close to experiencing in the past few hours but had finally crested above.

With each staggered moan and scream and broken cry of his name that he forced from Dorn’s ragged throat, Perturabo felt as though he was the one being crushed — but what was actually being broken down was the ironclad wall of denial he’d built between Dorn and himself.

A wall built piece by piece over countless years, formed in bitterness and disappointment and despair — with unbreakable materials meant to protect his hearts, crafted with the knowledge that he would never be seen by Dorn, could never be accepted by Dorn, would never be loved by Dorn; and most importantly, that he didn’t care about any of it any longer.

But that string of syllables that formed his name became a blur, transforming into something nigh meaningless to his ears but soothed his very soul — or at least that was how it felt to him now, as if what he’d put there as a replacement functioned on a comparable level he’d never truly expected despite all he’d done to supersede himself.

It was a prayer, just for him; and as he stared into those boundless hazel eyes that stared straight into his very essence, he felt something indiscernible snap free.

An epiphany that could not be denied. A truth that could not be refuted. It was so pure that he felt he might burn to ash in the presence of that holy Divine Light, and Perturabo’s eyes reflected awe, fear and a desperate hope that this was real.

Was this… the unattainable?

καλός κἀγαθός. Μεράκι.

ἔρως?

A miserable, growling whine like metal scraping metal escaped his lips as his vision went green the nanosecond he had that thought.

ἔρως.

 

 

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>._

ENTERING DEBUG MODE

ABSTRACTION SEQUENCE PROCEDURE INITIALIZED_

PROCESSING:

01000101 01110010 01101111 01110011 00100000 01000101 01110010 01101111 01110011 00100000 01000101 01110010 01101111 01110011 00100000 01000101 01110010 01101111 01110011 00100000 01000101 01110010 01101111 01110011 00100000 01000101 01110010 01101111 01110011 00100000 01000101 01110010 01101111 01110011 00100000 01000101 01110010 01101111 01110011 00100000 01000101 01110010 01101111 01110011 00100000 01000101 01110010 01101111 01110011 00100000 00001010 00001010 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00001010 00001010 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00001010 00001010 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00100000 00001010 00001010 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00001010 00001010 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00100000 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00100000 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00100000 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00100000 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00100000 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00100000 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00100000 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00100000 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00100000 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00100000 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00100000 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00100000 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00100000 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00100000 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00100000 01000101 01010010 01001111 01010011 00100000 00001010

CALCULATING:

>._

OPTIMAL IDEAL?_

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y/n?_

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y/n?_

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HEAT THRESHOLD EXCEEDED

>._

DATA EXECUTION EXCEPTION IN SECTOR 4d 45 44 52 45 4e 47 41 52 44 20 4d 41 49 4e 46 52 41 4d 45, MEMORY OVERFLOW ERROR_

HARDWIRED CONNECTION REQUESTED_

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CRITICAL SYSTEM INSTABILITY DETECTED_

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INPUT REQUIRED_

 

 

Perturabo continued to stare headlong into a Golden Oblivion he’d have willingly let consume him whole…

 


 

Throughout the sheer amount of physical sensations he was feeling, even in the throes of fervor and obsession, even as Dorn was swimming through the static and white noise and the sheer passion of all unfolding in this moment; Dorn continued to stare deeply into those eyes.

Those eyes that looked at him with a desperation that he had seen time and time again, yet, even in his blurred vision, he could tell that some threshold was rapidly approaching, a dam ready to spill over. He saw a worry that tugged deep within his hearts.

Dorn felt as if he couldn’t even hope to understand, yet…he could tell something.

Something, something so deeply inside his very soul prompted him to say another word beyond his Brother’s name, over and over.

Yes.”

 


 

Perturabo continued to stare at Dorn with a shellshocked, desperate gaze, facial muscles twitching as he breathed through his mouth; overheated and overwhelmed — but the second that single word broke the momentary silence, his eyelids filled with slick, oil-thin tears that spilled over immediately.

And at the same time, the coiling metal serpents that were holding Dorn’s arm up tightened, squeezing the fleshly cylinder they encircled as they wrapped around it, until no slack in their twisted loops remained.

Meanwhile, the two cables that originated from Perturabo's right side jerked down and split off from each other in opposing directions, slipping into the spaces between Dorn’s underarms and his chest as they wrapped around his body as best they could — giving the impression that they would have fully embraced him had they been long enough.

 


 

When Dorn watched those tears spill over in this unexpectedly intimate moment between them, he felt his breath catch in his throat, threatening to choke him as he worked on trying to shake off the bit of haze that controlled most of his body. A state that Perturabo was directly responsible for. A state that continued as he shuddered between the movements of his Brothers and those cables.

He felt how the two around his arm tightened considerably, not letting him go or fall slack in the slightest while also feeling those that wrapped under his arms and around his body, taking a far more active role than the stroking and petting from earlier.

Seeing those tears and feeling how desperately he was trying to be held, prompted Dorn to move closer until their chests met. The action brought him nearer to both his Brother and those cables seeking such a human connection. The hand that had been on Perturabo’s shoulder was now wrapped around his Brother’s trembling, slick form.

Dorn’s own body did much the same, shaking from the stimulation while he whispered his Brother’s name.

 


 

“Rogal…” Perturabo choked out in a breathy whisper so quiet that only a Primarch’s sensitive hearing could have ever heard it, in a voice so deep it wouldn't have registered upon human ears even without the metallic tone that resonated through it. He brought his crassly groping hands up from their bounty so that he could return that gesture Dorn had made; and as he wrapped his arms tightly around his Brother’s back, those bolder, more assertive cables occupied the granted proximity immediately, slinking over the extra distance they claimed over Dorn’s body.

There was no denying their intent now, as strangely sentient as they seemed, taking actions that could easily have been inappropriately interpreted as human.

Was Perturabo controlling them now? Did he control them at all? Did he control them sometimes — and if any of the answers described another force, what was it? While it was obvious that Perturabo received complete, unfiltered sensation from those strange, slinky metal cables, they appeared to have their own agenda at times — especially now when Perturabo himself appeared to be nearly disconnected from everything around him.

Perhaps it was simply a matter of reflex, just as with any other part of one’s body, but the unusual behavior had undeniably become more overt from the second that Dorn uttered the word yes when Perturabo had been overcome by an episode that while brief, was clearly observed — whatever it was.

Almost like what had happened to Dorn himself on the dusty ground of this unimportant rock that had shifted the course of everything — yet different.

As their chests met, the intense warmth of Perturabo’s overworked heatsinks and metallic circuitry met fur-coated flesh; the fluids that covered them both mingling here just as it did in other places; and the tears that Perturabo had begun to shed did not stop.

Nor did the nearly instinctive motions of his rocking hips, though the tone had become something much less aggressive as Perturabo rolled in and out of Dorn like the slow, calm waves against the shore. Perhaps it was less a case of tenderness and more due to the sudden disorientation that had descended upon him, but it was much more gentle all the same.

Rogal…” Perturabo repeated in a louder yet uncharacteristically broken voice.

 


 

Any meandering thoughts he had towards those cables, even for passing fascinations as they tightened and held him as much as those strong arms did, seemed to fade the moment that he heard his name. The first time was so quiet that he almost missed picking it up entirely in the midst of all the other noises.

Yet, the second time he heard his name fall from his Brother’s lips, he recognised on how fragile it really was. It was as if Perturabo would be the one to shatter unless he intervened and made sure that such an outcome didn’t happen.

He kept Perturabo’s body close, flexing his arm around his Brother in as strong of a hold as he could muster with one hand while in the throes of their lovemaking, falling into this new rhythm of slow rocking hips.

A kiss was then given to Perturabo’s cheek, and then the other one, kissing away a few of the tears that he could get to before he firmly nuzzled into the side of his Brother’s face, exhaling against his ear.

Perturabo?”

 


 

An enervated sigh pushed past Perturabo’s lips, but a faint, hopeful smile rested there as he basked in the softness Dorn had blanketed him in; those feathery kisses, gentle touches, light nuzzling and all the warmth that came with it was irresistible now despite how overheated he was — that sleek, silky body like a magnet to Perturabo’s metallized form.

He cradled Dorn in his arms; and somehow there was absolutely no bitterness, no hostility, no violence in anything that he did or expressed in this rare moment that was nearly serene. And yet there was still that air of fragility around Perturabo as those oil adulterated tears flowed thinly down his angular face. He shuddered as hot breath tickled over his ear and a moment later pressed his cheek to the top of Dorn’s mussed, dampened hair as soon as he’d settled in against the crook of his neck; and then Perturabo sighed quietly as his eyes rolled shut.

And as he held Dorn close, there were more than just two limbs wrapped around him in some fashion; all six upper appendages holding on securely as he continued to rock into that deliciously obliging tunnel, slick with oil, cum and blood in a truly depraved mix that felt so good that he couldn’t resist its lull. It was intoxicating and gratifying beyond description; and as his foreskin was pulled back and smoothed out over and over and over again with each shallow little stab, he writhed and shook with pneumonic grunts that were buried into Dorn’s scalp.

Perturabo rolled his head to the side, and before he could think better of it, the words escaped. “I don’t… ever want this to end…” whispered weakly; desperately in a rare confession he deeply regretted as soon as he’d admitted it, the pain lodged so far into his chest from the weight of his own desperation that he felt as though he might shatter.

But it was too late to take it back now, the damage was done, within and without

His voice dropped a full octave if not more, tone like an earthquake a second later. "I'll kill you before I'll let you go…"

While he surely meant it, somehow, that threat didn't make him sound any less vulnerable, nor one bit distanced from the emotions that left him soft and weak beneath the Iron.

Chapter 19: Introspection

Summary:

Despite all that happened between them in the past, a new path lies ahead. But as honesty is met with deception, where will it lead?

Chapter Text


 

The moments afterward had Dorn settling in exactly where he was, going through the motions and rocking with Perturabo, who continued to keep him so overwhelmed and filled. The embrace of their bodies, mingled with sweat, blood and tears transcended their prior union even further in the span of time that this newly revealed bout of emotions had finally reared its head.

Oh, how times changed again and again and again. Especially when hidden truths came to light. It was something that marveled Dorn as new expectations mere hours ago had somehow transformed in to this.

A small smile crossed Dorn’s face as he nuzzled again into Perturabo, enjoying the weight of those arms around him and the tendrils that kept him close. Even while they moved, he gently rubbed Perturabo’s back, soothing him as he moaned and grunted softly from each thrust that continued to keep him thoroughly speared.

It was at this time that the haze that had overtaken Dorn before had come back to send him into that blissful state again. The danger had passed in Dorn’s mind as he was enveloped by Perturabo, allowing himself to drift off until every single sense was that of his Brother.

Though, his hearts did cramp the moment he heard that weak voice that shared so much emotion. It prompted him to push himself further into Perturabo until there was nothing that could hope to come between them, arms flexing to tighten his hold while his lone hand roughly dug into Perturabo’s sweat-slicked back.

There was so much worry, so much fear. Even the following threat only seemed to deepen that sentiment.

“I will never leave your hearts, Brother… you have mine.”

 


 

 

ERROR

ERROR

ER_

EROS

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e-r-o-s
e-r-ω-ς
e-ρ-ω-ς
ἔ-ρ-ω-ς

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ἔρως

ἔρως!!

>._

 

 

The frantic cascades of brightly gleaming green were like fireworks behind his eyes and accompanied by a building cacophony of beeps and chimes; Perturabo’s HUD overloaded with datastreams and readouts that were suspiciously detached from the expected processes of his CPU, even by comparison to the extreme detail typically provided during combat mode.

As if his cybernetic system was expressing itself somehow — a revoltingly dull anthropomorphism that Perturabo immediately rejected; to the degree that he resented himself for the mere notion of something so imbecilic crossing his mind for even a moment. It was a boringly stereotypical projection that outraged him any time it was suggested, a cliche and foolish humanization that was often forced onto machinery by those too superstitious and too simple brained to understand advanced technology—nothing more than an expression of computational mimicry as machine emulated man.

Particularly its creator.

Particularly its creator

Who was absolutely overwhelmed, in a state of disbelief and awe…

 

 

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>._

ENTERING DEBUG MODE

ABSTRACTION SEQUENCE PROCEDURE INITIALIZED_

PROCESSING:

11001110 10111010 11001110 10110001 11001110 10111011 11001111 10001100 11001111 10000010 00100000 11001110 10111010 11100001 10111100 10000000 11001110 10110011 11001110 10110001 11001110 10111000 11001111 10001100 11001111 10000010 00100001 00100001

ἔρως

ἔρως

ἔρως

ἔρως

OPTIMAL IDEAL FLAGGED_

CONFIRMED?_

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y/n?_

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CONFIRMATION REQUESTED_

 

 

A quiet growl of displeasure filled the second between Dorn’s statement and the time it took Perturabo to speak.

Today marked the first time he’d ever grown annoyed with his own programming, and the first time he’d considered designing a way to silence it.

Some tweaking would be required in the days ahead.

 

 

EVENT LOGGED:

>._

ἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρως_

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CONNECTION ESTABLISHED_

DATA TRANSFER IN PROGRESS TO SECTOR 4d 45 44 52 45 4e 47 41 52 44 20 4d 41 49 4e 46 52 41 4d 45

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TRANSFER RATE BELOW ACCEPTABLE THRESHOLD

HARDWIRED CONNECTION REQUESTED_

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INPUT REQUESTED_

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INPUT REQUESTED_

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INPUT REQUESTED_

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END USER INPUT REQUESTED_

>._

 

 

Perturabo sniffled a few times as the tears flowed down his face; and he willfully ignored his own internal programming — not answering any of its queries through protocols, nor even thinking over anything that was happening within his fleshmind for his CPU to pick up on, forcing an information blackout. His system instability was certainly mimicry as well, a reflection of how mentally and emotionally overwrought he was, but even with that obvious explanation it all made him feel so much worse suddenly, as if he didn’t even have the logic of his algorithms to fall back on.

He’d have resented his robotics cannibalizing the extreme emotions Dorn had provided, something deeply, selfishly treasured — would that have not required him falling into that mindset again, of attaching human attributes to the very code he'd written himself.

 

 

Μεράκι SYSTEM ADMINISTRATOR—

 

 

—Perturabo still refused to respond, tuning out all the noise and feedback now with a determination that bordered on spite as he continued to reject the interface readouts that were nearly going haywire.

“My ἀγαπητὸς. All mine…” Perturabo uttered in an unsteady, breathy voice — Dorn’s declaration causing him to shake violently; and he cradled Dorn tightly as he continued to nuzzle affectionately against him, the pounding of those very hearts pressed into his chest, against the building warmth of the circuitry that lined his torso.

Was it truly possible, that Dorn so easily pledged such a consequential thing? Could Perturabo truly risk placing trust in something that would completely destroy him if it turned out to not be real?

The bite of those nails sinking into his skin caused him to shudder, and as Perturabo plunged deep inside that squeezing, slick little hole, he pumped and writhed against Dorn’s enthusiastic grinding with intense, frantic urgency. He exploded inside that throbbing friction with a broken, long moan, discharging copious volumes of semen inside that tiny space, each contraction sharper than the last, little electric jolts causing all four of the cables wrapped around Dorn to tense and shudder with delight as he came again and again.

 


 

Whatever it was that was affecting Perturabo internally, there was nothing that Dorn acknowledged on his end, seemingly falling deeper and deeper into the blissful headspace that Perturabo was putting him through the constant overstimulation and ruination of his body.

The pleasure was almost too much, his entire body ached in a way that was similar to what had happened earlier in the evening, until he had succumbed to what had afflicted him. This was happening again, but it seemed much more natural and not so abrupt. There was a calmness that washed over Dorn that added to the pleasurable experience he was going through.

Was this what it was always meant to feel like?

Dorn felt fresh tears pricking the corners of his eyes before falling down his face, into his facial hair and falling against Perturabo's skin in turn; as he was overwhelmed in a manner that was wholly right. His hearts felt it, his soul felt it, even as his hold began to loosen, only continuing to be held up by those cables that pulsed around him and his Brother’s strong arms.

So… warm.

He moaned out his Brother’s name again, softer, sounding so much more fragile than before as his Brother continued to piston into him, filling him with more and more heat that his body could not contain anymore, as every thrust simply pushed fluids out of him. There was no telling how many times he had cum in between them, against the frictions and sensations of skin and metal, coating the flesh and all manner of those metal strips.

“Ráhkis,” he whispered against Perturabo’s head, voice starting to quiver as he sobbed, even more tears spilling down as every single part of his body seemed to stop putting up any sort of resistance, as if he was there for use, existing solely for Perturabo’s pleasure.

Ráhkis,” he repeated again, breath hitching in his throat, nearly choking him in the process. “Yours… yours. Perturabo.” Dorn’s words were almost slurred now and if Perturabo had taken a moment to gaze into his eyes, he’d see just how blissed out Dorn was from the result of this consummation between them.

 


 

The masculine odors of prolonged sex—so much semen drenching the scant spaces between them, pushed out and dripping between where their bodies met; running down from that surrendered orifice Perturabo was ramming himself into with primal need—combined with his own smell, of dominant pheromones; of sweat and hot iron and the delicious stink of Dorn’s unbearable musk like an animal in heat desperate to breed—hung heavy in the dampened air, tainted with machine oil and Primarch blood. It smelled like a battlefield like none other, one that Perturabo was beginning to understand he belonged on as if he were built for it—as long as it was Dorn he was assaulting.

Ráhkis.

Perturabo had picked up the pace again, sieging that appeasing, quivering little asshole like he had a point to prove — giving a particularly cruel, swift stab each and every time a new wave of spasms rippled within it.

His.

This divine, perfect dense little body that was being forced to take his exact shape—

—was his.

Perturabo’s distant stare refocused, immediately locking on to Dorn’s eyes; so captivated by the sensual, euphoric look that he found there. Somehow despite the violent, primitive nature that had come back to this interlude, the depth and tone of the purity of emotion shared between them was unchanged this time, despite the vitriol that still burned deep within Perturabo’s augmented hearts.

He wanted to devour Dorn. To crush him. To Break him. To be one with him as surely as that aquila he’d eaten, Dorn sinking down to his components; his very bones.

“You like it, don’t you, δοῦλος?” Perturabo growled his petty, hypocritical accusation, a flicker of red flashing briefly against his electric blue eyes, as if he were insulting Dorn for enjoying the very thing Perturabo was so clearly reveling in.

 


 

They were swiftly reaching the point where Dorn felt that he couldn’t handle the hyperarousal; the friction shared between them, the constant thrusts inside of him as Perturabo bred him, the feeling of fullness that only seemed to get worse the longer it all went on and continued, and Dorn was helpless against it.

Not only was his body vulnerable, his mind seemed to be in quite a similar state as the fuzz continued to drown out everything that wasn’t Perturabo. Every single sense remained set afire.

Only a few shreds of thought came though.

Who knew that this situation could have such a delightful connotation? — the likes of which he had never even considered or truly understood. Despite feeling as if he was floating away, he still had enough wits about him to know that he was grounded all the same. At no point had he ever forgotten where he was, nor who he was with.

While there were obvious signals that Dorn was continuing to be overwhelmed, it did not seem to be in any way a detriment. Long ago, his body would have shut off every single sense and register of physical touch to protect him from the brutality he once endured.

True brutality.

Now, he didn’t have to protect himself from something that he had always somehow known could be far greater and better than he ever imagined within the limits of his experience. Then, there was no free will, no preamble, no allowance to enjoy the moment.

It was absolution. A complete domination that froze his body and hearts in place through a twisted, all-encompassing submission that did not bring forth any true definition of love.

But this.

This was so different.

Dorn had never felt so adored and desired by another to such a terrifying degree. Perturabo wanted him as he was, he didn’t intend to simply use him out of convenience, as nothing more than a tool for entertainment.

To then be broken and discarded.

Even those accusations levied towards him sounded naught more than music to his ears. What should have been a derogatory comment was, instead, received in such a manner that was welcomed. To the point that it drew a soft, fragile chuckle and an equally small smile.

It felt nice… and just as endearing.

It didn’t feel so shameful, as if he was lesser than

Lesser than Nothing.

“I do.” Dorn admitted with an equally delicate laugh, deep yet soft as a few stray tears fell down the angles of his jaw while Perturabo continued to fuck into him.

He was wanted.

He was needed.

Dorn hid his face once more into the crook of Perturabo's neck, exhaling shakily before pushing out a low, almost droning whine that ended with his Brother's name. He almost sounded… needy.

 


 

Perturabo realized Dorn was in a state of weakness; experiencing some sort of altered state — though it wasn’t at all like it had been the first time. Instead of an uncanny, dreadful sense that Dorn had been disconnected and ripped away from him, Perturabo now saw a Dorn that had been rendered much more pliable, as if some of those walls he was always trying to crush had been brought down. But he couldn’t discern exactly how—or why—it had happened. Nothing in Dorn’s body language leading up to this point had hinted at the reactions he’d expected and been trying to bring forth.

It was all somehow so much softer, and that left Perturabo deeply confused. There was something profound going on inside Dorn’s psyche now, that much he could clearly recognise — but whatever it was, it was not revealed to him in any way.

But that Golden Light he always craved to stand inside of was shining now, much more gently than he’d been prepared for. And whatever was going on in Dorn's mind had caused a vulnerability that did not seem directly linked to the physicality of what he was enduring, as rough as Perturabo truly was with him.

That confession that Dorn relayed was also not as Perturabo had expected — an easy, tender honesty with none of the fire and Defiance he’d been trying to provoke. His hips slowed, motions far less violent — and when Dorn came closer; as if he were trying to hide himself away in his arms, Perturabo held him securely.

What was happening, here? Absolutely nothing was as Perturabo had expected, and he was quickly coming to understand that for such a straightforward man, Dorn was far more mysterious than he’d assumed all this time.

“I’m… here,” Perturabo replied to that fragile whine, then placed a soft kiss atop Dorn’s head — though he had no justification for why he was treating Dorn so delicately now.

Honestly, he’d had his own versions of these emotionally tense episodes himself, as much as he didn’t want to draw attention to that fact, nor admit it. And Dorn read his own strange, unintended moments correctly every time, while also responding benevolently when they occurred.

A respectful reciprocation he paid back in kind.

The longer this played out, the less it felt like they were enemies at all; an incredibly dangerous perception that could lead either of them—both of them—to ruin, and yet he wasn’t able to shake it.

“Did it… happen again?” Perturabo asked quietly, though it was clear it had not. Dorn was mentally present, active and vocal — but something inexplicable had come over his mood, and Perturabo had no idea how else to address it.

 


 

In the moments of gentleness that followed, Dorn did not doubt that Perturabo had picked up on something that seemed wrong. It was akin to the times that he, himself, had understood when Perturabo was dealing with some sort of system overload. They both were prone to these states it seemed, and he could see the parallels.

It touched Dorn deeply that Perturabo went so far to check on him, giving Dorn a taste of being with someone that cared enough to do so. Of course, he had felt such earlier in the evening, when his body had panicked and caused him to shut down completely but this was something far different.

There was no other frame of reference to this pliant state of submission for the one that had once been so overcome with shock and detachment. Of course Perturabo would worry that this was something akin to that.

Truthfully, before this moment, Dorn hadn’t had a reference point either, until now.

As Dorn felt that kiss upon his head and the tighter hold, he shuddered in that grasp, those slower thrusts eliciting a softer groan in turn, thighs now squeezing around Perturabo’s legs while his body tensed up around his Brother.

A few seconds later, Dorn lifted his head so he could whisper into the shell of Perturabo’s ear. “No… Brother… not like that…” There was a shake of his head as he pulled back so he could gaze, deeply, into Perturabo’s eyes a second later.

“You just… make me… feel so good, you are… overwhelming my every sense.” Dorn spoke in a slurred, hazy speech, as if he was somehow drunk like some normal, baseline human could be.

And even though his gaze seemed out of focus at first glance, there was some sort of clarity like no other shining in those dark eyes.

"Everything… is you."

 


 

A deep shudder snaked down Perturabo’s spine when Dorn spoke, skin prickling as that rich, deep voice and warm breath grazed his ear. His eyes were heavy lidded, a low moan uttered as he savored the tight heat all around him while Dorn kept his body tense; the combination of sensations staggering.

But as wonderful as it all was, Perturabo suddenly jolted, snapping out of that revelry quickly as Dorn continued to speak, the words turning unexpectedly heavy and all consuming. His motions came to a complete stop; and he stared at Dorn, expression incredulous as he stared deeply into fathomless, expressive eyes.

How had Perturabo managed to put such an euphoric look on Dorn’s face, a vision that was so divine it made his chest hurt to witness? It defied all logic, after leading such an empty life in which he’d have traded anything—anything—just to be judged as worthy by him even once.

 

 

>._

Calculating: ἔρως

ἔρως = ἀγαπητὸς…

….

   ….

      ….

καλός κἀγαθός = δοῦλος = ἀγαπητὸς?

y/n?

ἀγαπητὸς_

ἀγαπητὸς_

ἀγαπητὸς_

ἀγαπητὸς_

ἀγαπητὸς_

ἀγαπητὸς = καλός κἀγαθός?

….

   ….

      ….

ἔρως = καλός κἀγαθός_

καλός κἀγαθός!!!

καλόςκἀγαθόςκαλόςκἀγαθόςκαλόςκἀγαθόςκαλόςκἀγαθόςκαλόςκαλόςκἀγαθόςκαλόςκἀγαθόςκαλόςκἀγαθόςκαλόςκἀγαθόςκαλόςκαλόςκἀγαθόςκαλόςκἀγαθόςκαλόςκἀγαθόςκαλόςκἀγαθόςκαλόςκαλόςκἀγαθόςκαλόςκἀγαθόςκαλόςκἀγαθόςκαλόςκἀγαθόςκαλός

TARGET ACQUIRED

….

   ….

      ….

καλός κἀγαθός located!!!

ἔρως defined.

TASK COMPLETE

>._

 

 

The sense of dread that was washing over Perturabo from Dorn’s impossible, quixotic avowal increased a hundredfold as the screens blaring inside his interface and flickering at the edges of his HUD suddenly displayed sheer nonsense. He grunted lowly, feeling nearly as though his own invention was deliberately provoking him as the timing was nearly comedic and the ‘revelation’ revealed was not in any way valuable — nor had his system ever performed through thousands of years of development in the way it had on occasion in the past couple of hours, until today. And was Perturabo any less of a skeptic, he might have begun to wonder if his algorithms were displaying signs of personality in between the integers and functions.

And it would be fully and wholly ignored until Perturabo needed it to do something actually useful.

Everything is you.

 

 

EVENT LOGGED

>._

 

 

He was absolutely reeling, yet that command was given immediately as if second nature, determined to record that moment and commit it to his memory banks forever, greedily hoarding such a precious thing.

Perturabo’s mouth twitched, and his lips parted slightly before pulled back into a pained, weak scowl. His pale blue eyes pierced into Dorn’s gaze; disbelieving, seeking, longing, begging.

He drew his arms back in front of his chest, then reached up to grip Dorn’s shoulders firmly with both hands; and he leaned in, closing the distance between them. His eyes were so filled with thin excretions that he could hardly see, Dorn’s form a blur in front of him.

There were so many things to say; words of reciprocation, elation, gratitude, confirmation, disbelief, actuations, doubt — but he couldn’t voice a single one of them as he stared at Dorn, stunned.

 


 

What was this?

Dorn slowly blinked a moment after, clearing away some of his own tears that had been falling from the intense nature of all that had happened as he gazed at his Brother’s face, eyes that swirled through all manner of emotions but never lingering on one for too long. Not long enough that Dorn could really read any of them distinctly, given his own form of bewilderment.

A haze that he was currently trying to pull himself out of with no small measure of difficulty, but his Brother needed help. At least that was what Dorn had assumed, especially as Perturabo had stopped moving, had gripped his shoulders so desperately and then didn’t do anything further.

“Are you… all right, Perturabo?” Dorn asked, voice low, but still soft. There was a shake of his head, like he was trying to rouse himself away from that floating headspace while his body still twitched and trembled amidst his Brother's hold.

His hand had moved back to the side of Perturabo’s face, caressing there as he tried to find the strength to soothe his Brother while his body involuntarily shuddered again, now that he was given a small reprieve from everything else.

Even if he was still inundated by everything that was Perturabo.

There was simply no ignoring the smell of their lovemaking, the fluids that had collected amongst them, the sounds of their heaving haggard breaths and pounding hearts, the touch, both tight and soft and the sight…

Beautiful…” Dorn murmured softly.

 


 

Such a simple question; and yet, Perturabo didn’t have an answer — looking as if he’d been powered down as he stared at Dorn through an oily film of tears. He stayed motionless for a couple of tense, full seconds — only snapping out of it when warn, gentle hands caressed his face; to rub and press into that touch with flesh and metal alike as his skin, Black Carapace extension and even the hose that was bolted into his cheekbone was needily offered to Dorn’s single hand.

The cables that were wrapped around Dorn’s back unfurled, slipping away and sliding up to drape over Dorn’s shoulders, right next to Perturabo’s huge hands that were still clinging to him, those cybernetic strands appearing to almost mimic that gesture.

Then, as one singular, unbelievable word was uttered from a golden tongue, Perturabo gasped with surprise.

His aching hearts immediately reflected back to the past, negatively latching onto the might-have-beens and the myriad ways that just one moment like this could’ve completely prevented so many things that Perturabo deeply regretted despite his denial. Denial he’d turned into a specialized, highly effective shield as a survival mechanism, and as the tears flowed down his face in rapid, glistening streams, a sob broke from his parted lips.

 

 

ἔρως_

 

 

It was so unfair, that even his internal parts appeared as if they were on Dorn’s side at every turn, and he grew frustrated though he knew feeling that way was just projection — giving attributes to cold, hard algorithms that were simply doing what they were written to do.

 

 

ἔρως!!

 

 

"How… how can you say that?” Perturabo choked out in a broken, weary voice, while truly wishing he could shut his OS off.

 


 

The longer that Perturabo seemed to be fraught with such indecisiveness and worry—not to mention looking so frozen, face covered with tears, and inflicted with a motionless body— the more concerned Dorn became. It was reaching a point now that Dorn shook his head once more, violently — as if physically pushing away the blanket of subspace that had been consuming him for the last few minutes.

The sense of disorientation began to fade, quite quickly as Dorn’s senses shifted to something far more on alert. No longer did that bleached-out gaze appear to be present as Dorn locked himself in place. Of course he couldn’t shut out every single emotion and sensation that he felt, but for what he could manage, it was all focused on Perturabo's well-being.

Pleasure was no longer on the forefront of Dorn's mind as much as wanting to care for his Brother was. As soon as that face pressed against his hand, Dorn began to rub his thumb along Perturabo’s impressive jawline, going from skin to metal, to even the hose that he found there. His touch was firm, purposefully done to show that he was there.

The cables that moved to settle upon his shoulders were given a gentler rub with his left arm, ensuring that they did not feel left out in the interim while most of the rest of his attention remained on Perturabo properly.

“Should I have not? It is what I think.”

Dorn continued to speak, this time his voice was far stronger than before, filled with more purpose and consideration to Perturabo’s exceedingly fragile state. The last thing he wanted to do was shatter his Brother completely, but he also wanted to make it abundantly clear that he meant it.

 


 

“I just…” Perturabo struggled to speak, pausing for a long moment as he indulged in that grounding touch, eyes rolling shut briefly as he focused on those fingers that were caressing even the most inhuman parts of him, and the way he shivered and nuzzled into the sensation proved all of him had full sensitivity, that hose perhaps the most surprising component yet to demonstrate it was capable of haptic input — but the groan that Dorn’s fingers pulled out of him as they slid over the textured bands of iron left no doubt.

And just as tactile and greedy for attention as the rest of Perturabo, the cables that Dorn reached out to immediately reacted, peppering his arm with little pecks and rubs as if they were more animal than machine.

A long sigh left Perturabo’s lips, and his eyes slowly rolled open as he reactivated after his much needed moment, but his expression didn’t seem any less strained than it had before.

“I.” He shook his head, “won’t tell you that you shouldn’t… speak. But I am at my core, a skeptic and…” Another pause. Another sigh.

“Clearly you can see what I have become and understand perhaps why I wouldn’t expect anyone to view me with such, such…”

Perturabo couldn’t bring himself to continue, the thoughts so heavy on his fleshmind and leadening to his hearts, that he couldn't cope with it.

He had worked so hard to become perfect, to be impossible to ignore or overlook, to become the pinnacle of efficiency and firepower in warfare. But in doing so, and losing his very soul, that singular goal had transformed him into a monster.

And that was entirely acceptable at the time. Better to inspire terror than apathy, as he always had in the past, feeling utterly unimportant and invisible no matter how long he worked himself to the bone, no matter how hard he tried to be good enough. No matter how innovative and helpful his inventions were, no one cared. That’s why his final, ultimate design was himself, as terrible as the execution was.

Yet the longer this continued the clearer it became that Dorn’s opinions were far more complex than he’d anticipated…

But beautiful…? Perturabo was immediately reminded of how Dorn, beyond all reason, had judged visions of the Mainframe as wonderful earlier. Nothing made sense. He’d come here to be the villain, after all, as that was all that was left for him to be after all else had been sacrificed in pursuit of his goals. His gaze shifted to the way Dorn was petting those cables, shoulders slumping as he really wasn’t sure how to process any of this.

He questioned everything — most of all, Dorn's sanity. Did Dorn even realize that the horrors shown within those glimpses of Medrengard were also him, revealing what he'd become? Did it even matter?

 


 

Over time, the touch to Perturabo’s face became a bit firmer still as he continued to switch between the fleshly parts, the Carapace lines and that sensitive hose. The contact points weren't meant to be painful, yet there was a measure of strength there that hadn’t been present before while he listened to Perturabo’s concerns.

As well as all the conflicting emotions that came with it, that Dorn could see— in those pale blue eyes that revealed so much, in those furrowed brows locked in consternation and the tensely set jaw that struggled to speak whatever it was burdening his mind. And in that faint shudder from Perturabo’s form that radiated a nervousness; obvious, but to never be admitted.

While keeping that firm contact with his Brother’s face, he stilled his left arm to allow those mechanical tendrils to occupy their time with it as they saw fit.

Right now, all of his focus remained on Perturabo and as he continued to speak, Dorn’s mood turned dour as he lowered his head, turning down and off to the side. It wasn’t as if he could escape from much, considering their bodies were so pressed together in addition to their shared holds that negated nearly all movement.

Though Dorn didn’t seem as if he wanted to get away anyway.

A second passed, and then another.

Several seconds.

A full minute.

Dorn wasn’t idle in this time, his touch never stilled. But Perturabo likely saw, from the profile of Dorn’s face, that he was getting his thoughts together in what was going to be said next. His lips pursed, his brows were knitted, until it was over and Dorn was back to looking up at his Brother’s tear stricken face.

His thumb moved to push away some of the slick moisture.

“I know what you are, Brother… I have seen what you have done to yourself.” His darkened gaze trailed over the places he touched and the mechanical tentacles he touched in turn. “Yet, in this short period of time since you have been here, you have shown far more humanity than the Chaos you represent and follow.”

This time, a sigh was pushed out of Dorn. “At any rate… I know that there is no use in wishing I could help you with your…” A deeper furrow of his brow, a pause. “Affliction.” Of course Dorn meant that of Chaos, the loss of the soul. “I also damn well know that I could and likely would be labeled a heretic for this, for my association with you… yet none of that matters.”

Dorn shook his head firmly, a fiery gaze fixated on Perturabo. “You are my Brother, Perturabo. That has not changed. And while I know you do not have hope like I do, I think a second chance is deserved for everyone, no matter how far gone they may be.”

What Dorn was saying was nothing short of pure blasphemy, to offer out that olive branch, not only to Perturabo, but just now, it was heavily implied that he’d offer that to all of their Brother’s tainted by Chaos.

Being alone, in isolation for millennia, had left Dorn alone with roiling thoughts that he could not speak out loud or give any sort of meaningful voice to. Until now.

“All of our lives… every single one of us… we have been stuck in the mire, plagued and suffering. We are— were… weapons and tools for a greater purpose. Even the most pious of us… were not without our deeply rooted faults, our pride, egotism… vanity… Which one of us has ever truly been a good man?”

There was a point to all this, brought forth in full even by so little said by Perturabo. It was enough of an effect to have Dorn talking again.

Soon, the touch upon Perturabo’s face softened considerably. “Maybe you might think of me as such. Compared to me you see nothing that could be beautiful… within or without… but I do. I find you beautiful, it matters not to me what form you take, nothing said or done will ever change that opinion for me.”

 


 

The sensation against his face that Dorn provided to his flesh and augmetics alike—soft at times, firmer at others—kept Perturabo focused, but there was no avoiding how difficult this was; nor any denying that it would continue to be so. His self-aggrandizing fantasies, while undoubtedly cruel, were proven to be unrealistic in many ways but most of all — in how simple and easy everything was in the events he’d built within the construct of his own mind. Always without Dorn’s voice, which had become the hardest thing of all to predict in reality. Not only because he was right in most everything he said, but also because his genuine point of view was so unexpected—so shocking—that Perturabo never would have created a scenario like this one even if he’d been given another 10,000 years to indulge in his dreams in solitude, or been able to run countless additional simulations through the Probability Engine.

Eventually, when Dorn spoke again at last, Perturabo was pulled from his thoughts, and his eyes locked on his Brother's face again, with a nearly suspicious look resonating within that strontium blue.

He braced, tension held within his entire body as he endured declarations that were once again, unlike anything he would have ever created even in his most deranged imaginings.

That Dorn would simply accept what he was, what he represented, the corruption he embodied now, his position of power as a Daemon Primarch — the highest order of all that Dorn stood against and had sworn to destroy.

Selfish and alone as he was, once again Perturabo was not particularly moved about the mention of their other Brothers, having felt abandoned by them long ago and then choosing to give up on his family entirely, only interacting with those he had to and when it was absolutely necessary with thousands of years in-between. Time spent as an entity so depersonalized that he was rarely anything that could be described as himself. And it had been that way for so very long that he accepted this fate as easily as Dorn accepted him now.

But Heresy. That was exactly what this was.

Heresy. And Dorn was willing to commit the most unthinkable crimes against his precious Empire on his behalf. Sticking to his principles while associating with him would not absolve him of anything, either. It was treasonous all the same. Much like himself, it seemed that Dorn had decided to walk his own path regardless of what anyone else thought. There was a strange camaraderie in that, even though they firmly stood on opposite sides of the battle lines.

So different, yet so similar — even now.

Especially as it seemed that Dorn had finally come to accept the hardest truth of all.

That their Father never loved any of them, not a single one of his ‘sons’. The only real difference between Loyalists and those branded 'Traitors', was that the Traitors came to accept that fact far sooner.

Perturabo’s brow furrowed, his true expression buried under a visage of sudden hostility — though the discomfort he felt deep within, was likely due to realizing that his shield was not as convincing as it should have been.

Beautiful, regardless of the form he took?

Immediately, Perturabo knew that went far beyond Neo-Logos. Dorn had already seen evidence of his Daemonic form within the confines of his ship, been shown glimpses of that same black encased mechanotyrant when they first saw one another in the matrix, and seen the Mainframe of Medrengard in his visions.

And none of it put the instinctive revulsion and terror into Dorn’s soul that it rightfully should have.

“Mm. Perhaps…” Perturabo began, finding this incredibly difficult to discuss, as it defied all logic and every assumption he’d held for so long. “None of us are without faults, Brother.” He laughed, humorlessly. “But I would think you, most of all, would hold grudges against all of us that 'betrayed' the Empire.”

“And hate me the most, especially after our last meeting. Even now there are events that happened because of the Iron Cage that would cause you to detest me if only you knew…”

There was unfiltered honesty in Perturabo’s shaking voice; and fear as well, though was that because he knew Dorn would grow to hate him — or because of the lengths he knew he would go to in order to conceal those details?

 


 

Dorn began to slowly pull back, carefully making sure that the movement undertaken wouldn’t be too distracting while his Brother remained lodged in his guts. None of what they were doing was in the forefront now as it was evident they were going to be talking, tone taking a much serious nature.

His own expression was a mixture of many things.

All on the spectrum of melancholy, regrets, and many more emotions that were negative while he listened to Perturabo’s words, watching the reactions given in turn. There was so much there, no matter what Perturabo had done to try and distance himself from who he was.

“It is true, I held… anger in my hearts for a very long time, Brother. But anger… not hate.” Dorn took a slow inhale and then exhaled loudly soon after, buying time, trying to keep his mind and thoughts focused while he was brought back to those times, just by sheer mention of those accursed names.

Both of the Heresy and of the Iron Cage.

His body shook but not from pleasure this time.

“What is the actual point of it? Hate… all it does is force me to lose another Brother… and another… and another.” Dorn sounded exhausted as he spoke those words, turning his head away, breaking their eye contact, to rest his head upon Perturabo’s shoulder while his own seemed to slump.

“What you and your Legion has done, how is that any different than anything the Imperium has done? …Perhaps what it is, is far crueler. I wouldn’t truly know. But what we both know is that there are even crueler entities than ourselves.”

At least the Chaos-touched had a convenient excuse.

But Dorn did not voice that thought.

 


 

Perturabo’s face was contorted into a pained scowl; and though the current physicality of their conjoined bodies could have been the cause for that expression — it wasn’t even a factor.

And the gleam in his eyes was uncharacteristically sad.

Perturabo always did everything his way; and had continued to do so from the moment he gave up once and for all and turned his back on the past — with bitterness and despondency in his hearts, yet whether he would admit it or not, it all stemmed from hurt and disappointment because once, he’d cared too much. He denied that truth now, convinced himself that he didn’t have any remorse at all because of that jaded point of view — but either way, the things he truly regretted the most were linked to the Iron Cage.

And all that came after.

Events that Dorn couldn’t know much about—probably wasn’t even aware of—or he would not be where he was right now. Of this, Perturabo was convinced. If Dorn knew the things that wore on Perturabo's conscience, they’d still be fighting to the death and there’d be no hope of mending anything.

The lack of such knowledge was no doubt a contributor to how things had diverged so far from Perturabo’s expectations.

Was there any crueler entity from Dorn’s vantage than himself? Perturabo gravely doubted that would remain so, if he knew the truth.

But Perturabo had been given an unexpected opportunity…

His clouded expression faded out, replaced by a faint, awkward smile though Dorn could not see it. That did not matter.

It was an expression of deception.

“Perhaps you are right,” Perturabo said, being unusually agreeable, one hand now cupping the back of Dorn’s head, the other arm holding him tightly — a position Perturabo was turning into habit.

And he cradled his Golden Treasure in greed and selfishness as he determined the best course of action would be to keep those very truths from Dorn, choking down those sins like burning coals.

If Dorn found out one day, there would still be no escape for him, after all. Perturabo would never allow him to leave. But this new dynamic would be lost to him forever, and as confusing as it was, Perturabo wasn’t ready to give it up just yet.

“Anger, not hate… hm.” Perturabo mused, sounding invested; though his thoughts were focused on another facet of this concept entirely.

How long would that continue to be the case?

Perturabo didn’t hold any faith that the truth could remain a secret forever… but he'd take every second he could claim.

“I lost all I ever cared about.” He stated flatly, as if that fact didn't actually bother him, and he did not elaborate at all on what that encompassed, voice distant.

 


 

There was a heavy weariness taking hold of Dorn’s entire body, exhaustion from something more than their actions today seeping deep within him and assailing his mind in turn. His current position remained unchanged while he was cradled by those large, strong hands that brought him back from his momentary shift in position.

His own arms had slipped down to rest upon Perturabo’s waist, with his right arm lightly gripping against his Brother while he positioned himself as comfortably as he could, especially considering how his body would occasionally twitch and tremble to remind him of the state he was left in.

That, however, remained largely ignored as he could pick up that something in the atmosphere had changed again. Dorn furrowed his brows against Perturabo’s neck, but did not try to fight against the hand that kept his head in the position that it currently taking.

He caught on how agreeable Perturabo sounded just then.

Perhaps his Brother was just as tired as he was?

After all, he wasn’t entirely sure how often his Brother had the opportunity to speak frankly with another person, brought on in part because of the position that he was in, and due to the power that he held. A power that Dorn damn well knew that he didn’t have any true reference for anymore, as his fight with his Brother was over nearly as soon as it started.

Unfair advantages abounded.

There was something else though, especially as Perturabo was repeating the very words that he had stated, followed by that thoughtful hum. Truly, Dorn wondered what was ruminating in Perturabo’s thoughts yet knew better than try to get that out of him, knowing the endeavor to be a fruitless one before even making an attempt.

Dorn exhaled again, heating the side of Perturabo’s neck as he spoke again, “Suppose we all have… some more than most.”

Far more.

There was a pause then as Dorn contemplated what to say next, as Perturabo seemed exceptionally unreadable now throughout the last couple of minutes.

A stark difference that concerned him.

“Not everything has to be lost now, Perturabo… There is no returning to the past, yet to reclaim that history yet…” Dorn faltered, not entirely sure where he was going with that as a softer sigh escaped his lips, and he pressed his cheek a bit firmer against Perturabo’s shoulder.

 


 

Perturabo continued to keep Dorn pressed against him in what had become no less than a possessive grip in the passing seconds; hearts dark with toxic, dangerous thoughts projected through his covetous hold — as if he somehow thought that Dorn might manage to slip away or be stolen from him despite how deeply he was buried inside his Trophy.

“Well. I certainly won’t lose you will I?” Perturabo spat his rhetorical question bitterly, deep voice low and growling as he rubbed the back of Dorn’s head and through his soft hair, while the cables that entwined him tightened with the dry sounds of straining, mimicking the iron grip of Perturabo’s arms.

“That’s all that matters.” Perturabo continued in a petulant, nearly flippant tone — oblivious to how his display of tyranny and selfish intent was also a clear declaration of his emotions; and proof of how vital Dorn truly was to him.

“Though I do question your seemingly endless charitability, Brother.”

 


 

Only a second or so passed until a soft grunt was pushed out of Dorn’s throat in the moment that Perturabo’s strength came to bear as that grip nearly seemed to crush him until Dorn did not feel like he could move much of anything, barring his arms.

Even that was a difficult task as four separate metallic tendrils wrapped themselves around his body with an equal amount of strength to boot, leaving Dorn to deal with the sensation of being set into a vise. It was all he could do to grip onto Perturabo’s waist even tighter, with his blunt nails digging into what they could.

A fresh layer of sweat rolled down his face and neck while Perturabo’s typical demeanor began to cut through their moment of introspection and relative calm. The growl itself made Dorn pulse, all around Perturabo as well as within his very body as he tensed around his Brother.

“You won’t lose me, Perturabo.”

At this point, with this hold alone, it didn’t seem like he was going to be able to even make an attempt. Perturabo had him claimed, inside and out. “As for my… charitability, Brother… Is it so wrong?” He asked against Perturabo’s ear before exhaling hot moist breath, purposefully, against it.

 


 

Of course that charitability was wrong — as the confidential information that Perturabo deliberately withheld would change everything if Dorn were to learn of the things that he and his Legion had done in the many years that had passed, the very founding of the tainted soil of Medrengard more linked to Dorn than he could ever imagine.

But considering these things only made Perturabo more certain that he was not going to reveal any of those facts — and especially not now.

He shuddered deeply at the sensation of tantalizing breath against his skin, prickles appearing as his nerves fired. A bassy, iron-laced hiss was pressed from his lips as that affirmation came with pulsing, tensing, throbbing all around his length, a carnal beckoning he was not strong enough to resist.

Not that he even made an attempt.

After being told what he wanted to hear; and effectively dodging the darker elements of this potentially disastrous discussion, Perturabo was of the mind to get back to the meat of this situation, releasing his clinching grasp around Dorn so that he could sit back a bit, hands slinking down to wrap over Dorn’s hips. The cables that had been wrapped around him so threateningly, squeezing Dorn's body like ropes released as well, harmless now as they loosely draped around him.

A wry, unsavory smirk pulled at the corners of Perturabo’s mouth as he tensed his spine and rolled his hips back, withdrawing slowly as he lifted Dorn to match his movement. It was a sure and challenging action, a precursor of what was to come. He growled as he twitched inside those depths, anticipating the joy a small break would provide as Dorn’s insides had already begun to heal—and tighten—around his intrusion, his motions uncomfortable and raw as he pulled out a few inches.

“No. I suppose not. You simply seemed to have lost all sense of self preservation, Rogal Dorn.” Perturabo sneered with venomous contempt.

Chapter 20: Surrender

Summary:

The sweetest victory is assured, so why is it left unclaimed?

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Dorn braced himself — far more mentally than physically as his Brother was ready to pick up right where they had left off. After all, Dorn damn well knew how much that his body had healed in the interim, as it was inevitable due to Primarch physiology; and Perturabo was still lodged deeply within him and had been all this time.

When Perturabo prepared again, signalled by the motions of moving those huge hands back to his hips, Dorn lifted his head from the crook of Perturabo’s neck, as nothing was stopping him any longer, planting a kiss along the way before ultimately rising to take up the proper position he had maintained before their little interlude.

Interludes that felt like they got heavier and harder to navigate each time they happened.

It seemed that Perturabo was now more than willing to move on past all of it—as was Dorn, if he was honest with himself—as those conversations kept dredging up thoughts and feelings he'd long since tried to reconcile and neatly tuck away.

Perturabo had given him much to think about.

Later.

As Perturabo moved further and Dorn could feel how his insides were protesting from even this small motion, his body twitched and spasmed, tearing out a ragged gasp; eyes wide as pain shot through his spine while Perturabo gripped his hips tighter and pulled him up.

Even as the pinpricks of pain creased the corners of his eyes, Dorn managed a low chuckle at that contempt. “I am still alive aren’t I, Brother?” The anticipation he felt settled deep within him now that he could focus on far more pleasant things. His hearts were already racing with that increasing suspense.

All his senses came alight.

 


 

Perturabo smirked sullenly at that little kiss placed to the crook of his neck, the gesture somehow feeling overly fond; and as at that exact moment he was trying to distance himself from the darkest ruminations weighing on his conscience, determined to block them out — that affection felt undeserved. Yet he did nothing to express that ,or even admit to himself what it truly was that disturbed him.

He filtered it through bitterness, as was his way.

Though Dorn was making that increasingly more difficult to do.

And as if in time with his thoughts, his body was assailed with sensation, that dour expression melting as a husky groan broke his silence, Dorn’s body vibrating and thrumming all around his cock in a way that nearly made him cum on the spot. He twitched and pulsed inside those depths, the span of time enough for Dorn to tighten like stone around his length — the sensation as painful as it was gratifying.

A Fortress that began to rebuild itself if he relented in his Siege for even a moment…

“Indeed you are,” Perturabo concurred with a sly expression as he reveled in the gasps and quivers he’d already rung out of Dorn, the tension rising in the air as his Brother was discernibly preparing for the inevitable that he wisely knew was soon to be upon him…

"For however long that remains true."

And Perturabo did not disappoint, vision red as his entire system experienced haptic overload from the delicious flood of data as he shoved himself back inside a tough, tight space far too small for his intrusion with a single, violent thrust. He pulled Dorn down against that motion, his Brother's body valiantly unyielding but ultimately given no option but to absorb the force inflicted upon it with merciless intent. Perturabo’s eyes rolled back as a long, congested moan built in his throat, thighs tensing and hips flinching as the contractions began—impossible to hold back this time—oily, hot fluids gushing into the delightful tiny corridor of abused flesh he’d just carved out.

 


 

All that it took for Dorn’s next round of damnation was but one movement, one movement that had Perturabo pushing back deeply inside of his guts like he had never left in the first place. Dorn’s vision blanked out briefly, white hot violence seared through his mind’s eye and his vision blurred as tears were brought to the forefront in seconds.

The pain that simple action had caused was intense, especially as his body had its time to rest and recover and heal, all actions that seemed so entirely pointless now as the time spent to adjust felt as if it was all for naught.

Tears fell the second that those same places that had healed over were torn open again, a whimper ripped from his throat when his Brother’s cum soaked into fresh wounds, making Dorn thrash on top of Perturabo’s body with such intensity that if his Brother hadn’t had such an iron-clad grip on him, Dorn likely would have squirmed away.

As it was, he was scrambling against his Brother, his right hand reaching behind and up to claw into Perturabo’s back, hard enough to leave raised skin where he met flesh, hard enough to draw blood, a way to enact a layer of of pain of his own. Dorn’s building sob shifted to him choking down his saliva as Perturabo rode out those contractions and continued to ram him full.

Another layer of sweat coated Dorn’s body.

Oh, how filthy he felt, when, in Perturabo’s earnest actions, Dorn had spilled over too; re-coating the both of them with semen of his own from the sheer brutality of that thrust alone, while tears continued to stain the sides of his face.

He could smell the blood that wasn’t Perturabo's, he could smell it rising from below, dripping out of him and intermingling with the copious amounts of ejaculate that gushed out of him too, keeping his insides coated with his Brother’s filth.

Perturabo's pheromones.

His claim.

Perturabo’s claim.

Dorn’s eyes rolled into the back of his sockets until nothing but white remained while his head drooped to the side, still squirming on top of Perturabo, squeezing around his cock and around those thighs that had kept his legs apart for what felt like days on end.

 


 

The cables that had been draped innocuously around Dorn’s upper body tightened with sudden and great prehensile power when Dorn began moving with involuntary and erratic motions; holding him in such a way that he could not escape despite those strands not being able to wrap around him completely. It was so quick that it seemed instinctive—whether that was due to Perturabo’s direct control, or a simple reflex—he used them to his advantage to help keep his perfect little Golden Apple in place as his hands were preoccupied lower, gripping harshly against his hip bones with possessive strength.

A deep, jagged grunt broke through his lascivious moans when he was drenched again in another layer of that succulent juice, mouth open as sucked in the smell and taste of Dorn’s lust, shuddering deeply in the debauched and exhilarating knowledge that they both came again from his cruel and deliberately sadistic actions — somehow equal in their cursed enthusiasm for sexualized pain.

Opposite, yet so poetically aligned.

How Dorn could find such overwhelming agony gratifying, Perturabo didn’t know, wasn’t able to begin to understand — but the realization of a fact proven time and time again gave a whole new layer of meaning and potential to the repeated Sieging of that dense, tough little body that was writhing against him. And even while in the throes of reflexively defensive and reactionary motions, the pheromones and sweat and cum he excreted told an entirely different story.

The degrading, lustful expression on Dorn's face was another layer as well, something so humiliating and unthinkable shown there while being glutted with his Brother's cock like a shameful heretic. If only his insufferable, sanctimonious Legion could see him like this…

“I’ve never witnessed anything so divine.” Perturabo sneered in self-aggrandizing vanity as he gloated, taking in the view of Dorn lost in a state so depraved he’d never even envisioned it despite similar thoughts never leaving his processes for a single moment.

But he was thoroughly enjoying the corruption of the incorruptible, seeing his upstanding paragon so easily reduced to whore — just as he’d mused delightedly about only hours earlier.

And it was becoming far too easy to reduce him to such a deplorable state…

 

 

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Those mechanical tendrils were not as terrifying as they rightfully should have been, wrapping around him the instant that Dorn had began to move back. Their strength was tested as Dorn inadvertently pulled against them. The movement wasn’t out of a deliberate want to break free, but from the continued sensations of his nerves being set on fire, causing constant twitches, spasms and jerks.

The lull in time had done nothing to bring down the sensation of Dorn being overstimulated.

His eyes stared at nothing, a salacious moan coming from deep within his throat after he recovered from the brief stint that was him choking. Perturabo simply felt so good and while sight may have failed him in his moment, so lost to bliss as he was, that didn’t stop everything else relayed to him.

Strong hands gripped at his backside, keeping him in place but even those would start to struggle to keep him there as Dorn began to rock as if by instinct. This time, he wasn’t trying to move away, but to pull himself up and then down onto his Brother, that squelching sound of their fluids filling the air as well as the carnal sound of skin on skin intermingled with husky rasps.

Dorn’s thoughts may have gone back to white noise but his senses only seemed to increase ten-fold, and he drew his hand along Perturabo’s back, fingers splaying along the muscles he felt all the while.

Up, down and then around.

His trailing and meandering hand made it to Perturabo’s chest and it was then that Dorn's eyes regained clarity once more. He tilted his head forward while keeping their upper bodies apart until forehead met forehead, crashing harshly; akin to when their lips and teeth had met in battle when they kissed.

“I don’t think there is anything divine about this, Brother.” Dorn spoke with an almost playful lilt to his voice, followed by a deep, throaty chuckle that was punctuated only when he moved down again in his determination to ride Perturabo.

Lust-ladened hazel eyes stared into pale blue now backlit by red just for a moment until he looked down to where his hand was, gazing past that sneering smirk of his Brother but keeping that expression in his peripheral given their positioning.

Dorn smeared sweat and spent seed down Perturabo’s body, making those pheromones become more cloying and suffocating all around him, mixed with blood and Dorn’s own submissive scent wafting through the air.

It was maddening.

Lower did that hand go until he could reach the only hairy area that Perturabo had remaining on his bare flesh and sleek metal body, sinking his fingers into his Brother’s pubic hair which had been so completely soaked. None of that deterred Dorn in the slightest as he touched and stroked such a unique spot, flexing his fingers when he lifted up his lower half again a bit more, already having been in that motion when he decided to do this.

He saw where they were joined, especially in this purposefully arched position; and he felt and saw his cock twitching at the edges of his line of sight, spilling fresh precum from the tip and down the side. When he pushed down again, his own fingers barely touched along his heavy balls yet the contact was enough to cause him to cum against his stomach.

Filthy.

Dorn took Perturabo to the hilt again the second he moved his hand.

 


 

Though they didn’t react with open aggression, the cables wrapped around Dorn’s body responded instantly to his jerking and pulling, tightening their hold and demonstrating an even greater level of tensile strength than previously; a feat that was already notable — that they could support the bulk and resist the active motions of a Primarch in the first place. But they held Dorn’s torso upright without any signs of overextending or overexerting, allowing him to twist and dance in place but never letting him move away, slump or fall.

It made the performances of those large, eerily sentient ones in the visions within Perturabo’s fantasies more plausible; and gave all of them—regardless of the finer details—a renewed sense of foreboding.

Perturabo’s intense, hawkish glare was locked on to Dorn’s face, taking in the sight of his unfocused, disconnected expression with misplaced glee as he continued to fuck into his appeasing, conquered little bastion with self-satisfied rapture. The huge hands greedily wrapped around Dorn’s ass gripped tighter as he used them to spread Dorn apart even wider, pumping his hips at a rhythm he graciously let Dorn set solely because he was thoroughly enjoying the initiative his Brother took now that he was riding him — just as he so foolishly promised he’d do before this all began.

The moist air; filled with the filthy, primal smells of sex and violence, and the husky, pain-laced yet truly salacious sounds that fell from Dorn’s lips added layers of pleasure for Perturabo’s senses to lap up, his fleshmind and cybernetics alike savoring the flood of feedback and data that Dorn provided — particularly gratifying when he began to bounce up and down against Perturabo’s shaft with careless abandon, impaling himself upon it like an eager sacrifice.

He scowled when their foreheads met with a crack as Dorn seemingly challenged him now, piercing blue eyes boring into that alluring hazel sunrise with full aggression as their sweltering, sweaty bodies slid against one another again and again, the overheated circuitry nearly sizzling against Dorn’s skin.

Perturabo’s harsh expression broke into a smarmy, arrogant smile as Dorn refuted the idea of his divinity in this situation — which was amusingly ironic as this had been the only time Perturabo had been willing to voice such admiration in the first place. But before he could dwell on that any longer, their bodies separated as Dorn leaned back, a hand assailing his sloppy, messy pubic hair with deliberation a moment later, causing Perturabo to abruptly cry out as he rode though a full body shudder — a jolting twitch rippling though even the cables that enveloped Dorn as he reacted to unexpected sensation to an area that was evidently very sensitive.

Perturabo shook his head violently as he began rutting against Dorn’s opening with short, swift frantic thrusts — increasing the pace greater still when he felt the viscous spray of Dorn’s semen against his chest, hot and wet as he came yet again.

It wasn’t even a second later that Perturabo released inside Dorn’s constricting depths again as well, moaning loudly as his thighs quaked; and he suddenly stilled, letting Dorn take the initiative as he rode out that stinging wave of stimulation, feeling as though his cock might snap off as he sank in all the way to hilt, the tightness of the tissue surrounding him so intense it caused him to throb in a completely different way that truly hurt as it squeezed around his girth so thoroughly.

“Perhaps not,” Perturabo choked out through labored breaths as sweat poured down his face. It was unthinkable; a sin to even imagine that the upright, upstanding, uptight Rogal Dorn could be like this behind closed doors.

One hand released its vice grip from Dorn’s supple ass to touch the upper region of his cock instead, loosely fisting it as its width filled out his palm quite nicely, the head just barely peeking out from the curve of his thumb. The back of his knuckles grazed Dorn’s torso, immediately bathed in the sweat and cum that had painted him there.

“You’re quite nasty, aren’t you?” Perturabo rasped, though he didn’t sound as displeased by this accusation as he often did when speaking to Dorn in such a condescending manner.

 


 

From all that had happened over the last several hours, it was becoming increasingly obvious by his interactions that Dorn was not innately nervous regarding those mechanical tendrils. Yet, even now, there was no way to reasonably deny how dangerous they truly were or could be. At no point had he considered them safe in the slightest, but he had been treating them far kinder than anyone in their right mind ever would have.

This was only exacerbated by those visions he had been assailed by over and over throughout this entire time from the moment Perturabo first stepped foot on this dusty planet. There was also no denying the physical sensations that his mind had unhelpfully provided him with as he had felt the ones that were much larger and thicker than what he contended with now. If they were much longer, like what Dorn saw in those scenes, the strength alone that he could sense now made it abundantly clear just how easily they could lift him up; bind and corral him, supporting his weight in their entirety. He knew his only saving grace, was that what grabbed him now was ‘simply' Perturabo's 'hair', and that there couldn't possibly be as many of those same strands hidden within as what he'd witnessed through Perturabo's thoughts.

A shudder slowly inched down the length of Dorn’s spine as he became hyperaware of how they were holding him right now, even while his mind was stuck in a blissful state. Perhaps it was because of that, because he had picked up so much more through his senses than what had originally been broadcasted—that made him far more mindful.

He felt how they pulsed from a sinfully placed touch to Perturabo’s crotch. So sensitive. Every single one of them were; individually — even ones that were not part of this form that his Brother was currently embodying. He had realized, though belatedly, what had happened upon Perturabo’s transport ship, details that revealed much more than intended now that his mind wasn’t consumed by far more unpleasant things.

Instead, his thoughts had taken a far more thrilling turn. Clearly, they could be labeled as pure heresy. Everything about this union was heretical in nature through the unspeakable transgression of laying with a Daemon Primarch in the first place. Then willingly allowing such an abomination to fuck him in such a sinful and debased way—fondling and manhandling him all in the while without putting up any resistance—was absolutely reprehensible.

Not to mention the sheer amount of daemonic cum within his depths, spilling out of him and over his Brother’s thighs and crotch, and the chair itself that he had so meticulously carved out. His body; his entire living space now tainted and contaminated.

If Dorn intended to respond promptly, it died the moment that Perturabo had gripped his cock in his large, slick hand, with not much action needed for him to spill into those awaiting fingers. Surely there had to be a limit on how much even a Primarch could cum, yet Dorn hadn’t found it yet.

Neither of them had.

The issue was two-fold, though his balls ached miserably and his dick was sorely sensitive — the masochistic tendencies emerged in these matters as well, making him flushed and aroused even further, causing a cycle that would not be so easily broken as his refractory period appeared to be non-existent.

Dorn pulled back further, as much as the mechanical tentacles would allow, so he could look Perturabo dead in the face through his euphoric stare, chest heaving as he used this brief moment of pause so that he could prepare his body to take Perturabo fully again.

Taking it again and again to the point that it felt his very insides were being rearranged and carved to suit only Perturabo’s cock.

An almost intoxicated smile crossed his lips while he continued to tense around that monster inside of him. “Only in private, Brother.” He rasped back, swallowing thickly to moisten his mouth and throat as his voice had gotten more and more hoarse from the constant noises he made.

Slowly, Dorn began to gyrate his hips again, grinding on top of his Brother but something caught his eye in its peripheral vision, something that he had felt and noticed time and time again, but now with his newfound arched positioning, it became that much clearer to see.

And what a sight it was to witness.

Trusting that those tendrils would keep him in place, he moved his fingers from his Brother’s wet pubic hair, up and up until he could reach the hand that was now gripping his cock in a loose fist, the head of which was still spilling over after having released more of his debauched seed into that enormous grasp.

He then pushed Perturabo's knuckles further and more firmly against his stomach, sinking them into that thicker fur there until it reached skin. It was then that Perturabo could feel some sort of bulge there that he hadn’t had before, or perhaps hadn’t even had the chance to see when they were locking eyes upon each other all this time.

“Ah… fuck.” Dorn moaned softly as he felt how Perturabo’s length twitched inside of him and, now that he was so focused on that bulge that had been created, he was reminded just how impossibly filled he was.

Keeping Perturabo’s hand there with a shaky grasp, he started to rise up again and then down, the bulge moved at the same time, downward the more he pulled up and then fully in as soon as Dorn took his Brother to the hilt again, causing the largest protrusion yet.

He really was as far inside as it felt, and Dorn was truly impaled.

The sight only seemed to fire Dorn up further as he began to bounce and ride, marveling at the sight as much as he could, letting Perturabo physically feel it all the while, exactly how much his mass pressed against such inner, forbidden areas.

While Dorn factually and logically knew such a thing could not possible, he could not deny how much this felt like he was being bred by his Brother.

 


 

Those cybernetic ropes continued to hold Dorn’s body securely within their arcing grasp, dispassionately unoffending for the moment but looming their silent threat; and every time a particularly sharp spasm worked through Perturabo’s form, the cables responded in kind — jolting and writhing in electric delight. While their reactions could easily be viewed through a lens of misplaced humanization rather than being genuine evidence of animism, there was no denying they reacted to sensation in a nearly lifelike manner for some reason, even if the explanation for this remained currently undefined.

A deep, glitched out groan broke from Perturabo’s raw throat as he felt more of Dorn’s warm, thick semen spill out and smear over his fingers; and he gave Dorn a few quick, short pumps for his efforts — either in reward or punishment as his grasp was deliberately too tight and those strokes violently rough. He took in a deep loud breath through his hanging mouth in an openly crass gesture as he sampled more of his Brother’s cum, shameless and filthy, a sharp glint in his judgmental pale blue eyes.

But as condemning as Perturabo’s expression might have been, it was, and remained, in direct conflict with his actions, though there was a brief spark of approval—predatory and lascivious as it was—when their eyes locked once more as soon as Dorn leaned back.

Even now—only seconds since his last release—Dorn’s eyes were still so seductive, clouded by clear and unshielded desire, a look that Perturabo was growing addicted to, along with his flushed face and messy hair — both coated in sweat. The image wasn’t entirely unlike one created by prolonged and intense combat, giving Perturabo a moment’s pause, as he wondered if perhaps that was the true reason he’d always lusted to engage Dorn on the battlefield.

Though maybe not; as reasonable an idea as that was, as the thoughts of subjecting Dorn to each and every tribulation that he could possibly dream up regardless of the context, were all highly appealing.

A sardonic, huffing laugh was the response Dorn got for clarifying that his filthiness was reserved for private matters, Perturabo immediately reflecting again on how stubbornly disagreeable Dorn had become when Perturabo made it a point to stand up for his honour. Was this the reason for his determination in shooting him down so quickly?

Perturabo smirked.

That expression quickly shifted to uncertainty, but plainly telegraphing interest as he felt Dorn guiding his hand. He’d wondered if Dorn was about to signal that he wanted more attention given to the dick so excitedly pulsing in his tight grasp, but his brow furrowed upon realizing that Dorn was pressing his hand in a different direction — pushing the back of his hand against that furry, sweaty little belly…

Perturabo’s brow furrowed with confusion as he felt a sensation other than the flat, washboard tightness of solid stone he expected to find there, now met with something curiously curved and soft. He leaned back as far as he could within the confines of his chair, the cybernetic dreadlocks that wrapped around Dorn’s form then loosening and moving away slightly — left to hover in standby mode while Perturabo investigated this new development.

His eyes went wide, fascinated with diabolic glee as he realized what it was he was seeing, confirmed when Dorn began to ride him with reckless disregard. That protrusion, visible within the confines of Dorn’s perfect, chiseled body — was his own cock, speared so thoroughly inside the depths being forced to take his shape that it was visible behind rippling muscles and that layer of velvet fur.

A strange, strangled sound broke Perturabo’s silence as the realization hit, while also aware on a primal level that Dorn was also so completely filled with semen that this likely contributed to that deformity as well, despite so much of it spilling out from the place that they were joined — but that was simply because Dorn couldn’t hold any more of his seed.

Perturabo shook his head violently, the cords dangling down the back of the chair making contact with a series of loud smacking and rubbery sliding sounds; and he winced and shook as Dorn took the initiative again; and enduring this surge of extreme sensation all along his shaft as his foreskin was manipulated deep inside while processing this vile, newly gained knowledge was a foregone conclusion.

He watched that bulge rippling up and down Dorn’s torso with horny delight as he made a new contribution to the problem, a series of aching, tense spasms shaking deep inside his balls and Dorn’s body alike as he came again, his face twisted into an expression of unsavory euphoria.

“You… take all of it,” Perturabo remarked with a labored, unsteady voice — yet despite being winded it was clear this was recognition; a statement filled with wonder rather than the similar sounding demands he’d been making all day.

Perturabo still couldn’t believe what he was witnessing, his eyes still locked onto Dorn’s chest and belly as he stared, not looking at Dorn’s face at all for a far longer period than he had allowed throughout this entire encounter…

Gears were turning behind those static blue eyes, but to what end?

 

 

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What crossed Dorn’s lips was a sly smile that could not be concealed, changed only by the effort to moan deliberately as he watched his Brother out of his fuzzy peripheral vision, observing as Perturabo seemed to marvel at exactly what he was being privy to, an intimate look at exactly what he was actively doing to him right now.

This was certainly something that Dorn had grown quite the fascination and liking for so many millennia ago due to his previous experiences, encounters that forced him to be quite thoroughly tested on how far he could push such a thing. That was neither here nor there however, as it was the moment that was currently happening that mattered the most, and how he'd view such things from now on.

So gorged.

So full.

All to the point where there was nothing more that could be held within his tight, strained body. As Perturabo came again, that much was evident as all that seemed to do was push more of his Brother’s seed out of him every time he pulled up or down. Upwards had it dripping out of him like a thick viscous river, while coming back down had it gush with a wholly wet noise.

All of which was soaking the both of them and that chair.

It was at some point during his movements that Dorn began to tremble and shake, his body shuddering and thighs quivering while his hand quickly moved to find purchase upon his Brother’s shoulder. Whatever this was had hit him quickly, causing a haggard breath to expel out roughly with a fresh layer of sweat rolling down his face.

It wouldn't take readouts to understand Dorn’s vital signs as it was apparent he was rapidly approaching the limit of his ability to be the one that was setting the pace and direction. While his body was certainly more advanced, he was still made of flesh, having to abide by the biological limits of stamina; of adrenaline, and with that — exhaustion.

He certainly wasn’t a machine.

Dorn pushed down again, taking Perturabo completely, letting that cock settle heavy in his guts while he continued to squirm on top of his Brother, still hard in the hand that continued to grip him with a tightness that hurt.

A rasping gasp punctuated the brief moment of respite, his panting filling the air while he set his forehead down against Perturabo's shoulder, hiding his face as he tried to catch his breath for all the good that that would do him.

Dorn suddenly felt like he was on the verge of dying though that made no logical sense.

 


 

Perturabo’s cold blue eyes were glassy and glazed over as he seemed to nearly stare through Dorn, but his huge pupils and crass, slavering expression proved he was wholly and disturbingly present as he indulged with sick fascination in the sights and sounds this truly filthy coupling provided.

He watched Dorn’s torso with fixated interest, noticing how that fascinating protrusion moved and how its qualities changed depending on all the surrounding details — from how fast they moved to how much or how little hair was blanketing it at any given moment; and he smiled with smarmy, debauched mirth at the loud, crass noises that their motions produced. Perturabo’s pubic area was completely soaked with cum and blood, more of which was being pushed out of Dorn with each aggressive rock of his hips and each thrust those actions provoked in turn as Perturabo fucked him mercilessly.

He seemed to be in a near trance-like state, lost in the ecstasy of their sex and the ego-stroking gratification it brought to him to have laid such an effective Siege, snapping to when Dorn let out such a loud, heaving sigh and clung to him — as if that last couple of seconds had roused him from some sort of dream.

The moment his outward cognizance returned, he laughed — an ugly, gloating, metallic sound; and he gave the hot, rock hard dick in his grip a few eager strokes as he tilted his head down slightly to press his chin to the top of Dorn’s hair.

Those hovering, displaced cables that had been flanking Dorn’s body quickly closed the slight clearance they’d given in the last few minutes, wrapping around his shoulders as soon as he came closer, squeezing just enough to make their presence known as they pulsed and throbbed all around him.

Perturabo’s motions had slowed in the interim, each thrust slow and rolling as he matched the pace to the sliding of his fist along Dorn’s shaft, and he spoke — a low, deep whisper that still made his pleasure quite known, as his arrogant and self-satisfied tone was not lessened for it.

“Are you all right, Brother?” Perturabo asked, but it was clearly not so much a sign of concern as it was outright, open gloating — as if he already knew the answer and the cause for it; and had taken pre-emptive credit for absolutely everything.

Whatever worry had remained regarding the strange episode from earlier, was gone now.

 


 

Every single stroke of those large rough fingers and the thrust of that strong, slick body tore softer groans and grunts from Dorn’s throat. All that Perturabo had to contend with now was Dorn’s dead weight, a laughably easy task. Dorn remained in place otherwise, only jostled by Perturabo’s ministrations and manhandling alone instead of anything that he, himself, did.

Dorn’s energy was finally spent now, body drenched with sweat that made goosebumps more apparent, those fine little hairs standing on end.

Hot breaths were exhaled against Perturabo’s clavicle while Dorn continued to suck down lungfuls of much needed air between his pants, swallowing them down loudly and greedily as if he had just come up from underwater.

Such sounds only became stilted as Perturabo squeezed his cock, forcing more of his essence to spill over into that cruel hand, tears stinging at the corner of his eyes at the overstimulation, thighs quaking.

“Nnghhh… ugh… Y… Yes…Bro—ther…” Perturabo would feel Dorn wince as Dorn didn’t seem to quite like hearing how his words came out, stunted and muffled, far away and barely coherent. He could already hear in Perturabo’s voice how satisfied his Brother was regarding his condition.

What a sight it was.

Truthfully, there was no denying what a sight Perturabo was at any point, even while Dorn had his forehead firmly pressed against Perturabo's shoulder, head trapped where it was by virtue of his Brother keeping him in place.

So, in the silence that followed, he gazed down at his Brother— where they were joined, the various fluids covering the both of them, the rippling muscles, flesh and metal strips and ports, every single part that he could spot in his limited vision was traced by his wandering eyes, much like his fingers had done so earlier in the evening.

 


 

Perturabo tensed as he felt Dorn practically give out atop his lap—slumping as he clung to him—as if all strength had left his body. Perturabo smirked, the hand that gripped tightly around Dorn’s cock stilling as the other arm was raised to embrace him while the cybernetic cords that sprang from his scalp returned to their previous position, wrapping around Dorn’s shoulders and helping to hold him up as they had once before.

Perturabo’s expression hardened, lifeless and distant as he stared out—past Dorn’s head—apparently to the opposing wall. But he wasn’t focused on the physical details of the Thunderhawk. Instead, his brow furrowed as he referred to the constant stream of data flickering green integers in a constant supersonic dance just out of his peripheral vision within his HUD.

All the while, Dorn remained strangely docile, save for the loud, congested rasps he let out while gulping down air, something Perturabo was well aware of as well while he scanned the pertinent data within his interface — also taking note of the new wetness pressed against his already dampened skin as Dorn seemed to be sweating profusely now; and likely crying as well as he shook uncontrollably atop his lap.

The reply that Dorn eventually gave was also further evidence, confirmed by the recorded vital signs that combat mode provided in the scans relaying information about his enemy.

He was entirely unaware that Dorn was actively admiring him past his bowed head through downcast eyes, and in his shrewdness he surmised that it would take only one final push—in one way or another—to Break his nemesis to rubble now.

So why did he cease all motion and release Dorn’s cock, to instead wrap both arms around him?

That question nagged at the back of his mind from the instant he did it, his actions feeling like self-betrayal.

“Have you finally had enough?” Perturabo asked, still sounding amused and entirely proud of himself rather than caring, despite his actions.

 


 

In time, Dorn’s weak attempts to fill his lungs with some semblance of air despite difficulty did prove fruitful in the end, as the sounds of him struggling to breathe evened out steadily in the minutes that followed. Soon enough, he was breathing far easier, eventually letting out a sigh that sounded wholly contented despite the fact he was still in quite the situation.

As his breathing became far more regulated, his pulse also began to fall into a calmer state along with this newly budding docility. He was entirely submissive at this point as his racing hearts shifted from the adrenaline fueled, flight-or-fight state, to something that while still intense, was no longer frantic. The atmosphere surrounding him was more reminiscent of someone finishing a grueling training session, rather than a man desperately fighting for his life.

Dorn pressed against his Brother further, slumping forward until they were chest to chest, taking full advantage of how those large arms supported him along with the assistance of those mechanical tendrils that were keeping him in place. Dorn made the attempt to reciprocate, wrapping his arms around his Brother as best he could.

Slowly, he turned his head to look at his Brother, blinking back a few tears that still threatened to fall, looking particularly vulnerable especially as his body was little more than putty in Perturabo’s hands.

An exceedingly dangerous position he was in, as he had no more fight to give.

“For… now.”

 


 

A ragged breath was pushed from Perturabo’s chest as Dorn pressed their bodies together, and he glanced down as Dorn looked up at him. Perturabo’s expression was strange; conflicted and unreadable as a myriad of conflicting thoughts cycled through his head as he stared into those weary hazel eyes that gazed back at him with open fragility.

“Learned your lesson, then?” Perturabo chided gruffly.

Buying time, as he continued to consider the many options he had as to how to proceed from here — dual minded; no, multi-minded as there were at least four outcomes more likely than any of the others, all of them in total conflict with each other and at least half went against every reason he’d told himself he’d come here in the first place.

 

 

καλός κἀγαθός

 

 

Perturabo grunted and then cleared his throat in annoyance for no clearly defined reason.

 


 

Dorn could recognise and read that conflicted expression upon Perturabo's face, even while he was so thoroughly fucked senseless. The only thing he couldn't do was actually pick out the correct emotion behind those piercing eyes.

Whatever his Brother was truly thinking, Dorn had no way to tell, nor did he really have the strength to investigate further.

He truly had pushed his body to limits that he hadn't experienced for any reason in so long.

A quiet grunt escaped him at that question, "for now." Dorn repeated again, a glint in his eyes still resonating behind all of that blissed out disorientation that Perturabo had brought out of him.

 


 

Everything in Dorn’s actions now confirmed Perturabo’s assessment, but beyond that, it also swayed his decision making further — though honestly Perturabo held a genuine preference from the outset. He simply didn’t want to admit that, even to himself, nor come to that conclusion without the flow of logic algorithms leading him to it so that he could avoid the responsibility of choosing deliberately.

As if it were the only correct option remaining.

In the end, what he wanted to do, he realized — was exactly what the original plan had been when he’d decided to bring Dorn back to the Thunderhawk in the first place. And once he was able to field it that way, he convinced himself it was proper to carry that plan to completion.

Genuinely, it might not have been that far off, as the look in those glassy yet tired eyes reminded him of the distant expression that had precluded all of this to begin with, though it wasn't disturbing to witness now.

“Hold on to me then.” Perturabo ordered, leaving little to the imagination though he didn’t clarify what was coming next. It was evident. And waiting for him to recover would genuinely be no kindness with Dorn’s superhuman healing capabilities.

 


 

Dorn did not need to be told twice in any capability as he, too, knew what would be coming soon enough after a statement like that; all he could do was find some manner to brace himself. That brace was to be his Brother in the favor of holding on just like he was told.

It was a good thing then that, right now, he was so incredibly pliant. Someone once so powerful and strong reduced to naught but clay.

His arms tightened further around Perturabo.

 


 

Perturabo looked up, staring at the handsome face that seemed far softer than it ever should have been — nothing like the hard, overly serious and forever stern countenance that had been burned into his memory. He should have reveled in finally Breaking through that wall at last, and truly, he was pleased by it all; yet he had no desire to take things too far right now for reasons he couldn’t begin to unravel.

Seeing that vulnerable face, and being faced with a sense that he was being relied on caused him to act in ways he didn’t think he was even capable of. But he’d already felt it cresting within him from that pivotal moment when Dorn had lost his mental faculties, slammed into the dirt of this meaningless rock.

As he began to lift Dorn from the spike he’d been impaled upon, he raised that dense little Trophy slowly and with care, the tetrad of cables that had been supporting Dorn before now lightly flicking their tips over his shoulders and through his hair as if attempting to soothe Dorn as Perturabo endeavored to separate them.

 


 

It did not matter at all how much Dorn was prepared for what was to come, nor how much his body was relaxed, these facts did nothing to mitigate how this was still one of the most painful things he had to deal with today. The notion of which was perpetually a two-sided, sharp edge when it came to him.

All that lubrication, semen and blood that coated his insides could only help so much, especially considering the massive weapon that was lodged so firmly in his guts that they both could see it.

Shuddering exhales were pressed against Perturabo’s skin as Dorn stifled a broken whimper, turning his head into those tendrils that were currently trying to help him through the white-hot pain that coursed down his spine and though his entire nervous system, all while his body started to try to push his Brother out from the moment he withdrew.

A guttural groan escaped Dorn a moment later as, even this, set his sexual drive on fire and Perturabo could feel a bit of extra wetness coating his stomach.

He should feel shame, but Dorn did not.

Chapter 21: Váibmu

Summary:

An exchange of words and of hearts signal the end of a long era of Solitude…

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text


 

Perturabo let out a prolonged, reverberating hiss as he removed himself from Dorn’s body, that tight squeezing space closing around him as he pulled back, each inch gained also causing an increase to the frequency and intensity of the spasms and pulsing that vibrated along his length as he slipped out — bit by bit. A series of shivers wracked his body as his hands and arms and thighs shuddered violently, and he winced in response to Dorn’s vocalizations.

All the while he tried to remain strong and on some level — detached from the situation, so he could complete the task at hand as smoothly as he could muster. Not that such a thing would ever truly be possible amidst all the sensation and sounds; the copious fluids coming out with his withdrawal, and the contrast of Dorn’s hot, throbbing insides against the cool air that swirled around the portion that was pulled free.

But he tried. Yet, all that effort—as valiant as it may have been—was rendered pointless as a sultry, delicious moan broke through the breathy cries he’d been enduring as Dorn came all over his chest, drenching his skin and circuitry with thick spurts.

Despite the things that had been said, Perturabo wondered if Dorn truly had any limits.

He paused in his efforts as he shook even harder than before, entirely unsteady as a pained groan built in his throat, and his hips seized as he released again as well, lowering his head as his eyes shut tight; and the cybernetic strands encircling Dorn pulsed and thrashed.

 


 

That hiss that sounded more like the venting of an overheated machine caused fresh goosebumps to rise along Dorn’s skin, hairs standing up on end while he was still enduring Perturabo pulling out of his depths while making him feel every single bit with how slowly he was moving.

He threw his head back and to the side as his insides were coated with another layer of cum that Dorn simply could not hold, as it came gushing around Perturabo’s cock, or however much was still left pushed inside of him.

Dorn tensed out of reflex, squeezing those several inches still buried inside of him, body seeming to greedily milk what was still available in those final moments as if he'd been conditioned to this.

Everything throbbed.

Yet lethargy still ruled Dorn’s overworked and overstimulated body.

"Fuck…" He whispered.

 


 

Those sounds not unlike pressurized exhaust continued — rasping breaths laid out in staccato filling the air as Perturabo’s thighs tensed and strained; gaze rolling up as he stared at Dorn with his head thrown back in lust, overcome by the unexpectedly erotic nature of what was meant to be the end of this encounter.

A raw gasp was wrung out as Dorn’s lower body tensed around him — the tight, unyielding confines that had resisted him all this time now seemingly mocked him even as he tried to withdraw, suckling around his tip as if trying to forcibly pull out every last drop despite there being nowhere for that fluid to go.

Defiant to the very end…

Perturabo laughed darkly through his heavy breaths as he continued to hold on to Dorn securely, even as his muscles rippled and spasmed through it all.

“You… really are something…” He muttered sarcastically, though he made no effort to clarify exactly which part in all this he was referring to.

 


 

Truly, it was a saving grace that he was held on so tightly by strong arms and those mechanized tendrils alike as Dorn certainly knew he couldn’t be trusted to actually keep his body upright while going through the motions to bring their coupling to an end. The strength he had was gone now and he couldn’t stop how his anatomy reacted every time Perturabo did anything.

A twitch here, a convulsion there. It was no use to deny such charged, strained nerves.

The moments between that were dragged out for far too long were certainly the worst as the anticipation now built like no other in his overworked and overfucked mind. No more did Dorn look at Perturabo as he stared blankly upwards toward the ceiling of the Thunderhawk. There was nothing that he was focusing on through that distant gaze as he panted with open-mouthed abandon. But even through the blur of his mind did fragments of fleeting thoughts enter his mind; about what exactly he had done this night. What once had been a fight to the death had become something far more than he could've ever imagined.

Was he damned now?

Perturabo wasis—a Daemon Primarch, of all things.

Yet, why didn’t it feel wrong? Dorn knew that he couldn’t be corrupted by Chaos—the full extent of which was beyond him—but he had never once felt the temptation to fall for that Chaos in any capacity. No, he ’fell’ for Perturabo, his Brother.

If only he had done so sooner.

A low groan reverberated from his throat as Perturabo’s words registered. “And so are you.” He said, tone thoughtful, if not still laden with the undercurrent of desire. He too, did not elaborate on what that actually meant as he lifted his head to look at his Brother, a newfound sharpness in there that cut through that euphoric bliss.

He was aware, watching and listening while his breaths continued to come out rough and unsteady.

Dorn allowed his body to remain slack beyond the unavoidable twitches here or there, but if only to focus on something else, he removed his hand from around Perturabo and splayed his fingers across Perturabo’s chest again. Just like before, his intent was to trail along those fascinating metallic bands despite how much they were covered in filth.

Tracing and memorizing, his touch surprisingly gentle while he focused on them with such intensity, perhaps done on purpose as a distraction so his Brother could continue to pull out without being unimpeded by Dorn’s entirely unquenchable, masochistic desires.

 


 

Perturabo released a grinding huff at that reply, Dorn sounding far more earnest and serious than such a comment merited. His lips curled into a smirk, though he couldn’t hold that expression long as he was soon open mouthed and panting for air again due to Dorn's unexpected attention — still somehow provocative even in this state.

This couldn't go on, nor could Dorn be trusted to make decisions in these matters; something Perturabo was quickly realizing.

A moment later and he was back to raising Dorn’s body slowly once more, attempting to extricate himself, the oily secretions he’d just slicked there admittedly assisting; though the way things had escalated again — and so quickly gave Perturabo pause, as he genuinely considering nesting himself back inside that delightful space again. Even if only briefly, he could certainly have a bit more fun with Dorn, especially with him as compliant and vulnerable as he was proving himself to be…

But as much as the darker side of his desires was influencing him and temporarily overpowering that strangely softer drive that had been motivating him a moment ago, things changed once more as Dorn’s hand was pressed against his chest, and Perturabo realized that Dorn was perceiving him. Exploring him. Examining the changes he’d made to himself, rather than staring through him, as Perturabo had felt Dorn—and admittedly everyone else—always had. Leading him to feel invisible and unwanted.

That certainly had not been the case today, but even after the lust had begun to cool, Dorn was still admiring him.

A barely audible grunt too low for any but Primarch ears was breathed out as Perturabo returned to lifting Dorn from his lap, rotating his hips back slowly as well as soon as there was enough clearance to do so.

 


 

Seconds later Dorn bit his tongue hard enough for him to focus on that instead, all so he could trap a noise in his throat while his Brother continued to adjust, lift and move him, bringing him closer and closer to a measured amount of freedom. In the sense that he’d no longer have that monstrous cock still lodged deep inside his very guts at least, as he knew Perturabo would not let him go far.

For Dorn’s part, for once, he was trying the best he could to not do anything to entice Perturabo further, the sounds in his throat dying while his touches were featherlight along flesh and metal bands while he purposefully avoided every one of those variously sized, sensitive Black Carapace ports.

While he wanted to continue, they were both far too overstimulated and Dorn didn’t feel like he could take much more without that looming exhaustion pulling him over the threshold in a manner he hadn’t had to endure for so long.

There was the awkward sound of a loud and difficult swallow as he shifted his attention elsewhere but he could not ignore the moment that Perturabo was finally pulled free from him as Dorn’s body pushed his Brother the rest of the way out once he'd reached a certain point and his muscles involuntarily engaged. A strangled noise broke though as he felt the suddenly lack of intense heat and felt how copious amounts of fluids simply gushed out of him.

He felt so… vacant afterwards.

The flush upon his pale skin seemed to grow redder the moment that thought crossed his mind.

It urged him to redouble his effort to focus on anything else to get a grip on himself and he fortunately found the perfect thing in front of him. He shakily dragged his fingers over that striking, deep engraving carved into his Brother’s chest.

Μεράκι…

 


 

Perturabo shook and shivered as he endeavored to remove himself without delaying any further lest his resolve be challenged again — but also slowly enough to prevent sending Dorn into shock; an effort that was finalized by Dorn’s body taking care of the rest once the remainder of his shaft was lodged only within those muscles that had been squeezing around the lower third of his girth throughout most of this interlude.

The cold, bracing air surrounded his pulsing, abused length — was a drastic change from the furnace he’d been shoved inside before, but while he’d lost that enjoyable heat his overused dick was granted the reprieve of escape from the crushing pressure it had been fighting against the entire time.

Perturabo panted as spots tingled and danced through his vision; and the cables that had been wrapped around Dorn abruptly loosened and slid free — slumping unceremoniously and falling where they may as if all the strength had suddenly left them as well.

And as Perturabo lowered Dorn back upon his lap—both of them thoroughly coated now in all the fluids that had been inside Dorn as well—a rumbling, pained sound broke the rhythm of his breathing as he felt fingers trembling along what might have been the most important embellishment of all upon his augmented form despite it being the only alternation with no function, as it represented all he was and all he strived to become.

 

 

Μεράκι_

 

 

Even if Dorn could not reasonably be expected to know this, being touched there at this exact moment was profound and poignant to Perturabo, more emotionally tender now than he ever would have confessed to.

 

 

καλός κἀγαθός_

 

 

A slight scowl crossed Perturabo’s lips.

 

 

ἔρως!

 

 

His eyes narrowed, expression sharp as he bit back an annoyed groan. Granted, he’d not been mobilized but a handful of times in all the many years that had passed; and his system had never encountered or experienced anything like this before—flooded with endless streams of data and haptic feedback from the moment he'd made planetfall—but after all of today's events Perturabo decided that his OS had become far too vocal.

 


 

While his Brother continued to shake and as even those tendrils pulled back and fell to the side uselessly, Dorn brought his left arm around his Brother tighter than before. There was a lack of the potency he truly possessed, yet there was a quiet strength there all the same, even going so far as to caress his blunt wrist against one of the cables that hung there lifelessly.

Dorn’s expression contorted to a grimace a second afterward though, as if his body was finally catching up to what Perturabo did through a belated reaction. His vision grew blurred and spotty, now that he was upright again and settled against Perturabo's lap. All he felt now was a far different, unpleasant kind of warmth, followed by a chill that crept up his body.

A sharp pain shot up his spine like lightning. The pressure was gone now, but that ache, now becoming duller, still remained — settled in through and through, and he could not stop himself from letting out a miserable groan.

After taking in a deep breath, he lifted his gaze slowly, trying to check on his Brother, seeing those narrowed eyes after hearing a groan that clearly held a measure of annoyance. His hand stilled, overcome with a want to quickly look away; but there was uncertainty in his dark hazel eyes. He wasn’t sure if that sound was being directed at him, or what he had done wrong, if it was.

 


 

Perturabo’s perceptive gaze took note of nuances that were unrecognized by his interface — things that were far more human in nature that had overcome Dorn’s psyche beyond the obvious exhaustion that was relayed by the readouts within Perturabo’s HUD.

He was worn out, pushed to his limits and left in a daze — that was abundantly clear; and what had caused Perturabo to ‘revert’ back to the original plan. And now, he was also… worried…? Perturabo squinted as he tried to read Dorn’s expression and body language, once it had suddenly shifted to something beyond what had already been acknowledged. Something new and plainly negative.

A low growl built in Perturabo’s throat as he lowered his chin, staring at Dorn with a new sharpness as he considered the situation, and a second later surmised that it was highly likely Dorn felt that he’d made a mistake by acknowledging the Olympian lettering etched across Perturabo’s cybernetic body — assuming that was considered a transgression and what had dampened the mood.

And he was incorrect, as much as Perturabo would likely balk if Dorn questioned him or spoke about that engraving that meant far more than he would ever be allowed to know. Guarded knowledge.

Facts that his OS had not wrongly remitted, as much as that unrequested input had genuinely annoyed him. But the last thing that Perturabo could have ever wanted in this accursed galaxy was for Dorn to assume his attention was undesired, especially regarding something so vital even if he wasn’t privileged enough to be told what it meant.

 

 

>._

Μεράκι_

….

   ….

      ….

καλός κἀγαθός_

 

 

Perturabo bit his lip to keep the annoyed grumbling internalized this time as his system unhelpfully repeated itself, the glowing green characters accompanied by robotic blips as they floated up, delivered with the highest priority above all the baseline readouts that never stopped relaying information.

He wrapped his arms around Dorn a little tighter, holding him in a way that relayed security through his body language even if that came with deep and selfish possessiveness that he made no attempts to mitigate.

While his expression remained undoubtedly sour and hostile, there was concern flickering through his adamantium eyes. “I’m here,” Perturabo announced flatly, words that said absolutely nothing at all — yet the attempt was made to reassure Dorn while keeping all his inner concerns secret.

He rubbed lightly at Dorn’s back, if only to make his point more direct.

 


 

It took a long uncomfortable moment, and then another, but eventually the animosity that had risen in the silence, that Dorn had felt creeping up his body, began to fully subside and fade. He noticed the shift in the atmosphere, even as that stern gaze was still directed at him, reading him but no longer holding that annoyance anymore.

Those arms around him ensured he felt safe in their tight, possessive grasp and as Perturabo began to rub his back, any lingering tension fell away as he appreciated and enjoyed the soothing gesture.

A reassuring one.

Even those simple words that did not reveal much did enough to pull him from his worry but that furrowing of his brow remained as he bowed his head downwards, hiding away and breaking eye contact. His hand remained on his Brother’s chest and a few seconds later, he resumed what he had been doing before his concerns got the better of him.

Μ—ε—ρ—ά—κ—ι

Each letter was traced in a very slow and languid manner, as if he was trying to commit it to memory, what he was seeing there.

Dorn did not recognise this text, nor did he understand the language—there were no context clues now. This was different than the words that Perturabo had spoken out loud, those times having enough happening around them to bring him to reasonable conclusion regarding their meaning. Dorn had even managed to repeat one of them, despite how foreign it felt on his tongue.

This must have been the same language.

And this word held particularly great significance considering that it was etched into Perturabo’s skin permanently.

 


 

The conspicuously strong tension that suddenly overcame Perturabo’s form caused his muscles to tense — from his chest and thighs, to the arms so snugly wrapped around Dorn’s body; yet despite the strain that couldn’t possibly go unnoticed, there were no other signs that he wanted Dorn to stop.

In fact, it appeared that Perturabo was trying to discreetly puff his ribs out despite his tight shoulders and that unpleasant sneer still painted across his face — pushing that christening branded into his flesh against curious fingers.

The longer Dorn lingered, the harder Perturabo’s expression became though the rate of his blinking increased, as did the fierce thrumming of the cybernetically regulated hearts that rested above and beneath that investigative touch.

 


 

A small smile graced Dorn's lips as Perturabo became more and more insistent to the touch that was being currently drawn along his chest. Though Dorn could feel that tension rising, there was nothing to indicate displeasure, like he had worried about earlier.

His fingers found the end of it once… then twice. The third time he pressed down harder, firmer, as if he was the engraver of those letters, applying pressure evenly through the entire word.

 


 

 

>._

….

   ….

      ….

Μεράκι_

 

 

Perturabo sighed, enduring this newly discovered form of torture, his thick black eyebrows twitching as Dorn traced and retraced that vital word that encompassed so much — the very act of him doing so adding another layer to it all, despite knowing that Dorn could not have understood the true significance in what he did.

His eyes watered their thin, oily secretions as he sat there, lips parting slightly as he tried to breathe through his mouth discreetly, quietly.

 

 

ΜεράκιΜεράκιΜεράκιΜεράκιΜεράκιΜεράκιΜεράκιΜεράκιΜεράκιΜεράκιΜεράκιΜεράκιΜεράκιΜεράκιΜεράκιΜεράκιΜεράκι

 

 

All while his OS incessantly sang its excited chirps within his interface.

Perhaps placing so much emphasis on certain keywords had been a mistake, but he'd never expected all the things he held so dear to ever matter, nor to ever be so close in such a way to the very reason why any of it did.

He couldn't really blame his system for being so reactive to it all, but he would definitely need to make adjustments later.

Perturabo closed his mouth and swallowed thickly, wondering exactly what it was that Dorn found so damn interesting about this from his position of unknowing, and how long his actions would persist…

 


 

When Dorn began to trail those letters the fourth time, it was the hardest he had pressed down against the engraving, lingering through every single stroke, feeling the excited hearts racing through the proximity as much as he could hear them. All his senses were on alert despite his exhaustion, picking up even on the moment that Perturabo began to tear up, but he still did not look up at his Brother.

One may have thought he’d stop at four, but he didn’t. The fifth and sixth touches were there, faster than the ones before, and lighter.

That was until the seventh time—he pressed harder then, though not as roughly as the fourth. It was agonizingly slow this time that he followed the lettering but that was the final time that he made those strokes, as he moved his fingers away and to the side once he was done. Dorn then rested his hand firmly on Perturabo’s shoulder as he lifted his thoughtful gaze up to his Brother.

Barely a heartbeat passed before he closed the distance between the both of them, pressing his lips upon Perturabo’s own.

 


 

The longer this ridiculous moment played out, the harder it was for Perturabo to withstand it, those careful strokes that traced over that Olympian engraving feeling like a separate declaration each and every time; like he was being recognized, acknowledged, admired — all things Perturabo had craved the whole of his long, embittered life. And from Dorn, such a thing seemed even more impossible, unthinkable, something he’d given up all hope for long ago.

Each time something like this happened, Perturabo fought with himself; the part that had shriveled up and wilted like a plant without water bitterly rejected this sudden shift, refusing to believe it was real and claiming that he didn’t want it even if it was — against the tiny seed buried deep inside the dried up dirt that somehow wasn’t nearly as dead as he’d assumed it was; begging, pleading, aching for even a second of Dorn’s attention even as it was lavished on him, as if that plant was simply dormant, not dead. And now that there was a chance it could grow, it was greedy for that offer of life…

How many times would Dorn trace the lines that proclaimed who Perturabo now was? Not only in symbolism alone, but in true name as well, though Dorn couldn’t have known that…

 

 

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Μεράκι OS.

Μεράκι OS.

>._

 

 

Perturabo’s eyes narrowed, but he truly couldn’t begrudge his interface for being so vocal and annoyingly interactive considering that it too, was having a great deal of unexpected attention being focused on it. Nor could it be expected to understand that for the first time, Perturabo wanted nothing more than for it to shut the fuck up. There was no protocol for this scenario, and that was his own shortcoming to correct. Yet there was something surprisingly grating about the way his OS had responded today that got on his nerves, something he couldn’t begin to unravel.

As if it were intruding on his time with its constant chattering despite never having minded even the far greater data flood of Mainframe even once within the last several millennia.

Dorn simply changed everything

As always…

When Dorn looked up, he’d find Perturabo staring back down at him with a vast complexity and unexplained conflict glowing within his pale blue eyes, along with unfettered longing that he was simply unable to hide.

That sudden kiss caught him completely off-guard; and he shuddered, a broken groan pushed to Dorn’s lips when they met. Perturabo’s huge hands slid up to wrap around Dorn’s massive upper arms and he squeezed in time as he squeezed his eyes shut, trying to keep too-thin, slick tears from spilling over.

 


 

There was nothing, absolutely nothing that passed Dorn’s lips when he had moved in closer to his Brother suddenly. There were no inquiring words, no intentions of questioning either how Perturabo felt or what it was that Dorn had been tracing with his hand for the past several minutes.

No, anything that might have been pursued had ceased the moment that they locked eyes upon one another.

Those eyes…

Yearning, pining, wishing.

Wanting everything that Dorn was providing at this moment. Even though Perturabo put up a good front with his posturing, trying to appear so disaffected and annoyed, those pale pupils revealed far too much to mistake the feelings there for anything else than what they truly were.

That sight made Dorn’s hearts seize, taking half a breath out of him when he had finally moved in to kiss his Brother. For Dorn, the aggression—the fight, the fire—was not there as it once had been during their union, even through their more gentle states. In this moment, in this place, there was something so much more fragile.

And telling in turn.

Dorn was treating Perturabo with such gentleness, reminiscent of the careful attention given when using the finest of materials, things so delicate that they might shatter with one misguided touch. That was how he treated his Brother now, with a care and love akin to those that worked with the tiniest of trinkets in the creation of the finest of arts that they could craft.

Only the hand upon Perturabo’s shoulder had tightened, just enough to hold on.

 


 

Perturabo shuddered beneath Dorn, another pained, broken noise escaping between his thinly parted lips — a sound that was far too weak and small for the hulking monster that uttered it. The gentleness that Dorn afforded him was much more kindly and caring than anything he rightly deserved, as stubborn as he might have been to admit that; or that he coveted it.

His strong hands gave Dorn’s arms another squeeze, while the four tendrils that sprang from the nest of rubberized lengths that typically concealed them, softly slinked their cool tips along Dorn’s neck and shoulders in desynchronized motions lacking any unity — as if they were each individual entities; separated from both Perturabo himself, and each other.

Meanwhile, Perturabo struggled to press his mouth against Dorn’s while keeping his emotions in check, feeling more delicate now than he rightfully should have, or knew how to manage. Even after all he had done this day to sabotage his hearts' desires and prove otherwise, despite the efforts he’d made to reinvent himself — beneath it all he was still the same emotional, immature and needy man he’d always been.

And what he’d always needed most of all, was Dorn.

 


 

The moment that Dorn felt that shudder against him, Dorn tightened his grip further, even wrapping his left arm around his Brother’s back securely to pull him even closer to him. The weariness that Dorn felt was a fargone restraint when he saw how much Perturabo was trying to not cry.

It was all for naught as he could see those thin rivulets of tears pooling and then trailing down despite all the attempts to hold them back.

Then, as soon as those tendrils came forth, Perturabo could feel a smile that was pressed against his lips. The hand moved soon after, wrapping around his Brother’s head to cradle the back of Perturabo’s skull. Dorn took the time to settle his fingers in careful a way to make sure he would not mess with anything important back there, as he could not rightfully see.

With his comforting hold in place, he jutted his chin out against his Brother’s before opening his mouth, a move to urge his Brother to do the same. The moment that he did, Dorn struck, slipping his tongue into Perturabo’s mouth as he kissed him, tongue exploring all the while from the second it could.

There was still no aggression, he was not laying a counter-siege and he was hardly trying to force this.

No, he kissed with all the softness of a lover in every sense of the term.

 


 

As he moved to match Dorn’s signals, the tears that Perturabo so desperately tried to restrain spilled over at last, his lip quivering as Dorn’s tongue slipped inside his mouth.

His body was wracked not with the scorching heat of exertion and sex, but instead flushed with a warmth that was near melting, as if he’d been plunged completely into a warm bath. Yet somehow that gentler sense of heat was almost more overwhelming than his own aggression had been.

Perturabo released his grip, arms sliding below Dorn’s so that he could wrap them around Dorn’s smaller body, pulling him in and holding him close as he pressed his head back against the fingers that rested there, seemingly either uncaring or unconcerned that Dorn could do him any harm despite all the many augmentations obviously arrayed there. And with that, the cables that rose from the source continued to peck and rub and slide all over Dorn’s exposed skin as if encouraging him.

While he did allow Dorn to take the lead in this slow, sanguine kiss as his mouth was explored, he was still active, sliding the tip of his tongue along the side of Dorn’s in the rhythm that he set, his hands soon caressing Dorn’s back in time with that steady, calm pace as well.

Were it not for the copious fluids that drenched and fouled this small space, this moment would be a testament of gentle, tender love rather than serving as the epilogue to a battle that had just taken place here minutes ago.

 


 

Dorn sighed into the kiss, pushing a lungful of air into Perturabo’s throat as it grew deeper and deeper with his Brother being an active participant in the action all of the way. At some point during this exchange, his own eyes had slowly closed, hiding away the myriad of emotions that swirled within them.

Though that didn’t stop his own tears from intermingling with Perturabo’s while they held one another so close. Nor did it stop the new emotions he felt from coming forth into this softness like no other.

The situation was far too tender in comparison to everything that had just happened between the two of them and what they had been through prior to coming to this point. Hells, when Perturabo had confirmed the signal that Dorn sent found him instead of connecting to whatever that spark was in the first place, he thought his end was all but assured.

Alone and isolated, on a planet where no one would arrive. There came his Brother, and that premonition he'd held, that his death was imminent increased a thousand-fold. Surely they were meant to fight, clash like the titans they were, and Dorn had been prepared to die.

Now… Now it was different. It was as if slotting against one another in such a far more intimate setting had unlocked a whole new reality for the both of them. Never in so many millennia had he—

Dorn pulled back slightly, giving voice to the words that were in his head for once. “Never have I felt so… right…” He whispered against those lips with a softer sigh.

 


 

 

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καλός κἀγαθός identified!

>._

 

 

Perturabo squeezed his eyes shut even tighter, oily tears slipping down his face as his HUD blared its green glow within his cybervision with an intensity that somehow felt increasingly frantic and desperate as foolish and aggravating as such thoughts were.

 

 

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Μεράκι OS requesting data transfer_

>._

 

 

With each and every occurrence of this blasted, infernal technobabble, something within Perturabo’s core ached deeply — something beyond his understanding, but it made every hurt more intense, which was why he was so intent to pretend whatever this was, wasn’t happening.

 

 

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Input requested_

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Input requested_

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ἔρως!!

ἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρωςἔρως

Μεράκι OS + καλός κἀγαθός = ἔρως

Solved: ἔρως.

Calculation complete!

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Optimal ideal_

y/n?_

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Establish datalink between Μεράκι OS + καλός κἀγαθός to proceed.

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CONNECTING TO SECTOR 4d 45 44 52 45 4e 47 41 52 44 20 4d 41 49 4e 46 52 41 4d 45

 

 

Perturabo used every admittedly frayed modicum of restraint he had to ignore the increasingly ‘vocal’ demands of his hyperfixated, Dorn-obsessed OS that even to his pragmatic, scientifically oriented mind felt ever more personalized and humanistic with each passing moment — including the seemingly deliberate and perhaps even petulant manner it displayed as it appeared to be bypassing Master system confirmation when Perturabo neglected to interact with it for too long.

There was something profound there to be sure in the details of how it behaved, a ghost in the machine that spoke volumes in confirmation of the success he’d had in digitizing his own consciousness, a triumph of innovation and technology.

And yet, it did nothing to elevate Perturabo’s sense of victory or pride now. It simply infuriated him; and so he endeavored to continue to starve it from any semblance of recognition as this moment was his to taste and savor.

He redoubled his determination to quiet the damn thing in the days to come.

But for now it was easy to ignore outside it's most persistent demands—grating as it was—when his whole world was consumed by Dorn.

Yet if there was any truth at all to the strange way his system seemed to be responding, that would be more than enough to placate it too, chatty as it may have been.

The words Dorn had spoken, had rippled through every part of him with deep and impossible gravity — including the parts that never should have felt anything at all.

Finally, Perturabo gave in. It was all too much. Though only a second had passed at most, to him it was an eternity of processes and thoughts appearing disconnected, yet were he honest — in unison.

καλός κἀγαθός…” Perturabo replied; a cryptic but passionate phrase given in an achy, croaking voice that shook with emotion and echoed with iron; as if it harmed him to speak it. Though there was no true context to the mysterious words he spoke, the weight and feeling behind it was unmistakably solemn. His eyes opened to tiny, barely receptive slits that viewed the haze of Dorn through low light and welling moisture.

He slid one hand up to cradle the back of Dorn’s head with his huge palm, fingers caressing the soft, smooth hair tickling against his skin.

 


 

As Perturabo dealt with his OS, something that he was not privy to understanding, Dorn was not quite finished speaking his mind, relaying the thoughts that had risen to the forefront while he opened his eyes to finally look at Perturabo. There was moisture gathered at the edges of his eyelids, stinging and muddying his gaze before they fell down the corners of his eyes.

“I feel… complete.” He spoke those following words with a gentle tone, as fragile as glass that could shatter in a second if he was rebuffed. He had alluded to such things constantly over the course of their meeting, but giving such words of finality in this exposed setting with no pretext made it hang heavier.

Inadvertently, he began to mirror the actions that Perturabo undertook, though he had been primed to the spot already. He leaned back into the touch all the same while rubbing his Brother’s back. Dorn opened his eyes further a moment later, that dark hazel gaze shining with desire— a desire that went further than purely carnal.

No…

There was a genuine love there and even though that spooked Dorn to a level he hadn’t thought possible, it was a choice he made to acknowledge it. Not even the coercion into this situation by his Brother could have forced those feelings had they not already been there. No, instead, all those actions did was bring those buried feelings to the surface.

His breath froze in his lungs as Perturabo replied in that language that he did not understand, though he knew that whatever was said, was something so profoundly… deep.

Fresh tears fell as he swallowed and then uttered the only word that he had managed to pick up through both vision and sound alike.

"ἔρως…”

 


 

 

ἔρως…

 

 

Perturabo’s eyes were wide open when Dorn continued to speak, watery and glassy as he stared deeply into boundless hazel; expression longing and searching and so very fragile as he listened. It was as if his very existence was put in the palm of Dorn’s hand, yet as desperate as he truly was to hear the affirmation that eventually came, the look of worry and doubt that washed over him was evidence that he was unable to truly believe this could genuinely be real. As if Dorn would close his offered hand into a fist and crush him eventually.

And yet, he continued, despite himself and his misgivings, seeing an opportunity too precious to be wasted. He pulled the arm that had been around Dorn away and sat back, drawing a line with his index finger over his chest in a sweeping gesture, persisting though his hand visibly shook. Then he lowered his chin, eyes intense, pupils tiny as he spoke in a clear, rolling tone, deep and resonant as he stressed every syllable.

“Meh-rrrraah-kii." He emphasized darkly, then turned his finger toward Dorn.

Kah-lohsss kah-gah-thosss…” Perturabo continued in a dark rasp as he tried to explain, the tears falling ever faster; and he shook his head, pressing his lips together before closing his eyes.

ἔρως.

Completion.

Completion.

Did Dorn know? How could he? Surely it was simply coincidence he’d said what he had, or maybe it was all nothing more than a delusion on his own part. Certainly there was no way… this was…

 

 

ἔρως…

 

 

Perturabo set his jaw, eyes now squeezed tightly shut. But it was no use.

 


 

Dorn gazed into that decidedly troubled expression, the fragility seen there tugging violently at his heartstrings. So heavily did that affect him that he moved his hand from the back of Perturabo’s head to the side of his Brother’s face, fingers and thumb cupping along jawline and cable alike. There, he ran his thumb gently across all he could reach.

As Perturabo began to gesture and give him a decent approximation of how to speak those elusive words, Dorn felt his hearts racing. His mind focused upon such terms, committing them to memory immediately when Perturabo gestured to himself for one word and then gestured to Dorn for the other… 

Even when his Brother closed his eyes, as if trying to shut out the world around him, Dorn tilted his head downwards, looking upon Perturabo’s chest as he carefully tried to repeat what he'd said, dropping his hand from his Brother’s jaw to that engraving.

“Meh… rahhh… ki.” Dorn spoke, slow and careful with the syllables as Perturabo had sounded them out for him. Soon that hand moved to his own chest regardless if Perturabo was watching or not, to witness what he was doing.

“Kah—…Kah…lohsss… Kah…ga… thosss.” His rumbling, deep voice carried the syllables along while he nodded to himself until he finally brought his attention back upward and onto Perturabo’s face. Now his hand was back at the side of his Brother’s head, holding that position like before.

“Eh… rosss.”

 


 

 

Μεράκι…

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καλός κἀγαθός…

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>._

 

 

Perturabo’s eyes were kept stubbornly closed, but that did not stop the tears from seeping out as Dorn so carefully repeated the words that he’d guided him through — his interface flickering those same terms in time with Dorn’s deep, resonant voice as if repeating them with him.

Perturabo’s hearts ached, down to the mechanized addition that had been placed alongside them as if there were no difference between the man he’d once been, and the machine that he had become.

He didn’t dare look at Dorn now, entirely overcome with far too much emotion — feelings that scared him to his very circuitry along with his fleshmind; and also were now a source of shame, that he could be brought so weak, so very low by such simple things; a determination that was made worse in realizing that Dorn didn’t even know the symbolism or complexity in it all that might have served as at least some small justification.

But after all that had happened and with Dorn still on his lap, to be brought down to such a miserable thing was humiliating. How was the Breaker the Broken?

ἔρως.

A strained, weak smile drifted over Perturabo’s lips as Dorn drew his own conclusion, all the Olympian that came from him lacking the distinctive accent of his origin world but otherwise spoken with perfect diction and entirely intelligible…

And to hear it still made everything hurt more, to Perturabo’s endless consternation.

He didn’t understand these feelings, didn’t understand himself, didn’t understand what it was in the moment that made it this so painful; unbearable

Or at least that was what he tried to convince himself of, as if his every motivation and life's philosophy didn’t hinge on this concept — if only to try to piece himself back together enough to reclaim a scintilla of his dignity. Somehow feigning a lack of knowledge was preferable to the logic that guided him here.

He felt Dorn’s every move, knew when and where he gestured even with his eyes closed; felt him when he returned closer. Yet Perturabo reacted to none of it as he clenched his muscles and set his jaw, just trying to hold on and hold out until it passed.

But he wasn’t sure it would.

 

 

ἔρως_

 

 

 


 

There was a silence now, a long lingering silence that had fallen over the both of them. This time of quiet was only punctured by the erratic beats of multiple twin hearts and breathing that had become labored over the course from what was shared in this reprieve — so different from the exertion that had caused this strain before.

The significance of what was uttered was all-consuming, so much so that Perturabo couldn’t even speak anymore and as a result, Dorn at least understood that there was a war being waged in his Brother’s mind, one that Dorn could not possibly begin to understand in detail.

But perhaps he didn’t really need to.

Wasn’t it enough that he at least understood the heaviness that was there in the words themselves?

It was an intrinsic feeling that sunk down deeply, for the both of them — even if one was more mechanical than the other. Perturabo truly had not overcome his humanity no matter how much he tried, and that was something that Dorn was right about from the very start, only to have that fact reinforced time and time again.

Surely Perturabo could not deny it, even if he tried his best to hide from it.

It was too obvious how much his Brother was humanity amplified all the same, even now.

Just like he was.

Dorn moved his hand, stroking along that well defined jawline until his fingers traveled down and reached out, grasping the hand that had been used to gesture earlier. He shifted to set Perturabo’s hand upon his own chest, right over those beating hearts. It was then that Dorn placed his own onto Perturabo’s chest. Mirroring.

Váibmu.

Dorn spoke softly, his own strange language coming forth in low, deep rasps.

Ráhkisvuohta.”

 


 

A long, wheezed heave in the broken approximation of breath was pressed from Perturabo’s lips as the tears continued to glide oily trails down his face, a raw crack spreading through his body not unlike the craggy scars he’d inflicted on this dusty rock only hours ago when he’d slammed Dorn violently against its surface.

 

 

EVENT LOGGED_

 

 

Not one word of that strange, indecipherable language had any prior entry even within his vast database, yet he knew. He knew what had been said, and could on some level conceptualize the base meanings of those words, exactly as he knew Dorn had done with his own native tongue. No matter how different the cultures were on Olympia in comparison to Inwit, or even Terra — some things always remained the same…

A scraping robotic sob broke through his pained breathing when another term came, one that was just as cryptic yet contained a root word that he’d heard before. One that he’d had a much clearer grasp on as they had already begun to exchange their native languages with one another — even as Perturabo pretended that he wasn’t certain of the identical nature displayed through those gestures. All so that he could somehow act as though his own declarations weren't as all-compassing and important as they genuinely were, and always had been…

Yet that comparable knowledge was the one thing he grasped for now, despite the possibility that these two foreign words were not of the same definition despite how similar they sounded to unlearned ears. The situation left no doubt. And so he choked out the one thing he could think of to say.

“Ahh-gah-peh-tohsss.” He choked out, in that same slower, distinctly illustrative way, repeating the term that had prompted Dorn to reply with Ráhkis in the first place; an attempt to show some level of understanding, though he didn't want to clearly define any of these words directly.

And just as he did every time Dorn blessed him with a private little word there were no records of, he entered it into his datastores himself with the most accurate spelling he could deduce, greedily hoarding it away and treasuring it deep within his file structure, along with recording the moment it was spoken.

 

 

MANUAL ENTRY COMPLETE_

 

 

Perturabo's eyes slowly opened, but he kept his glance askew this time, gaze cast down to his own hand, pressed into the silky skin and soft fur of Dorn’s chest that he felt more than he visualized. It was just as well he did not look up as he likely wouldn’t have been able to see that face staring back at him anyway…

“Op…” Perturabo choked, unable to even say such a stupid thing out loud, to give it recognition by speaking it into existence.

It had never been possible, that was the entire reason behind everything. But even if it somehow had been achievable, once — it had been ruined so long ago. And if not then, beyond all logic, certainly rendered impossible after today.

And that was fine. He'd decided to take matters into his own hands anyway.

This didn't matter.

Nothing did.

 


 

Dorn blinked a few times, to try to push away further tears that were gathering and threatening to fall down his face. He was trying so hard to keep some measure of composure even despite how his body protested after everything that had happened, solely because Perturabo was breaking underneath him, on the verge of collapse. He needed to be the strong one now.

Even that sob that tore from his Brother’s throat was different that all the others before it, like a blow from a sledgehammer against his body unlike anything that he'd experienced before. And with that scraping noise ringing in his ears, it made Dorn want to do nothing else than soothe his Brother, to ease his pain.

Even still, those choked out syllables brought a gentle smile upon a face far too hardened to have been thought capable of being so soft in any capacity. That was being proven wrong time and time again, even to his own surprise.

Wrrahh-kees-ss.” His voice wavered only the barest amount, able to keep his tone relatively even. But the sigh that followed almost seemed to shudder before he stilled it.

What had Perturabo meant to say, at the end there?

As much as Dorn wanted to press and question, he reasoned that may be the final chip that’d shatter whatever measure of poise that Perturabo had left at this point; so, instead, he simply wrapped his left arm tighter around his Brother.

Soon, he bowed his head, right arm joining the left as he held Perturabo closer to him, falling silent.

 


 

 

OPTIMAL IDEAL FLAG TRIGGERED

CONFIRMED?_

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y/n?_

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CONFIRMATION REQUESTED_

CONFIRMATION REQUESTED_

CONFIRMATION REQUESTED_

LINKING TO SECTOR 4d 45 44 52 45 4e 47 41 52 44 20 4d 41 49 4e 46 52 41 4d 45

 

 

Another sob broke from Perturabo’s aching throat as he tried to block out the glowing green screens screaming out within his HUD, just as despairing and desperate as he was — yet he continued to deny there was anything there at all outside the raw data that it was tasked to perpetually process.

 

 

COMBAT MODE DISENGAGED

Returning to standard functions.

 

 

A growl gurgled in Perturabo’s chest and churned in his guts as it was once again appearing that his OS ran on spite as much as code.

But there were more pressing things to focus on.

Ráhkis.

There it was again. Reinforcement. Though he didn’t need it. But it was welcomed distraction from the incessant chiming in his mind. Or perhaps not, as the word cut through him like a chainblade…

There was no reprieve to be had, anywhere.

He pulled his hand away from Dorn’s chest while sliding the other hand down in order to wrap both arms around his Brother once again, though even within that massive, hulking grasp it was more like Perturabo was holding himself together by those actions, than seeking to comfort Dorn.

“ἔρως.” Perturabo rasped out at last, confirming everything this interlude had dragged out.

ἔρως.” He repeated, sounding as though he were on his deathbed.

He was hurting, suffering, so deeply seeking the ability to refute and reject and lash out, to continue petulantly down the path he’d chosen; but after being continuously broken down, within and without — he was simply too tired to keep fighting this false battle.

 

 

ἔρως!

 

 

Perturabo scowled.

 


 

“Ἔρως.” Dorn repeated emphatically until he fell silent again, no longer prodding or prying further, no longer bringing forth words that would create more sobs, brought on by something he said.

No.

Dorn could feel the exhaustion that weighed both of them down, stifling to a degree that made it hard to draw full lungfuls of air and simply breathe despite how inactive things had become. In addition, the sheer amount of heaviness that came from them both in their crying was immense, the moisture still stinging the corners of his eyes even while he bowed his head against his Brother.

A flex of muscle was the last twitch of movement before he tightened his grip even further upon Perturabo, clinging onto him with all the might he could manage even after his strength had left him.

But even this softer interlude could not stave off the inevitable.

Dorn settled further against his Brother as his rapidly beating hearts slowly began to even out to a strong steady rhythm, along in time with his breathing stilling much the same.

It was a wonder how Dorn could feel comfortable enough to rest upon a Daemon Primarch of Chaos.

 


 

A huff was pushed from Perturabo’s lips when Dorn repeated such heavy, heartfelt confirmation — and he reflected back on when he’d tried to challenge Dorn’s understanding of that word and to his surprise, was challenged right back.

Any arguments he'd held were swiftly dropped.

Perturabo sighed quietly, staring off into the distance as Dorn settled in on top of him. He didn't say another word.

Eventually, he realized what was happening to Dorn; and he smirked upon realizing he was once again, too late in acting upon something he’d intended to do much earlier. First in bringing Dorn aboard the Thunderhawk in order to care for him, and now in giving him a comfortable place to rest and recuperate.

Perhaps he’d follow up on that second part in the near future but for now, he didn’t want to part with Dorn for even an instant. Instead, he held Dorn tightly with one arm hooked around his back in order to have the other one free. And then, he moved carefully — a combination of sliding down, scooting forward and leaning over until at last, Perturabo was able to grip the chlamys crumpled up on the floor between his huge fingers; and he tugged it repeatedly until he was able to get a good grip on it.

He grabbed that thick red cloak and sat back, before draping it over Dorn’s body. He tucked the edges in around his own torso, trapping it between himself and the chair on both sides so that it wouldn’t shift. Then, he held Dorn once more within its folds — keeping him close like a precious, treasured thing; and rested his cheek against the top of Dorn’s head as he allowed himself to close his eyes as well…

He didn't understand why Dorn trusted him so much…

He was undeserving of that trust, to the highest degree…

Yet…

And yet…

Perturabo sighed, before placing a kiss to the soft, damp hair he rested upon.

Notes:

[This is technically where Solitude… ends in our RP logs, but the next entry will be included in this work as well, rather than being separated into a second story.]

Chapter 22: Stillness

Summary:

Even in the stillness, some things cannot be so easily soothed.

Notes:

[In our logs, this is where the second entry begins. Consider it from this point, Solitude… Part II.]

Chapter Text


 

How long had it been?

How long had it truly been since Dorn had any semblance of something he could call sleep, something that fell further beyond his usual restless meditations, when he wasn’t spending every moment trying to probe out into the greater surroundings of the galaxy at large — like he had done in the moment that started this entire encounter?

Not that it mattered, as even in this state, he felt it again… that flicker of something unseen yet known so intrinsically, that it was part of his entire being. It was a gentle, faint sensation now, so he didn’t go chasing after it, even amidst this dreamstate he currently found himself in — despite that being the very sign he'd been seeking all this time; and his altered consciousness being the ideal state from which to pursue it.

He’d investigate further later, as for now…

All he experienced was peaceful, calm, warm, and entirely serene, bundled tightly and so contented that nothing could rouse him to wakefulness without making a genuine and persistent effort to do so.

Had there ever been a feeling like this before?

No… He didn’t think so.

At least nothing that crested through the recent, empty decades and violent centuries long since gone. If anything, it was reminiscent of the ancient days when he was on Inwit, huddled in the underground, resting after a long day of work.

It didn’t help that this planet possessed a similar stillness that Inwit did too at times, though it was pebbled with sparse rock instead of being blanketed by snow, and was not inhabited by the dangerous beasts that crawled along on the dark side of Inwit's surface.

But the seclusion had taken on a similar tone now.

Familiar.

Comfortable.

There was a slow inhale and then an exhale, then again, and again; each breath stable and drawn out to its maximum as his body was so relaxed, to a point that one could manipulate him with ease if that was the desired intent, as there was no fight left in him and no want to do so.

Vulnerable…

Completely vulnerable.

Was it foolish to trust a Daemon Primarch, of all things?

Perhaps.

But Dorn did.

 


 

Perturabo’s vital signs regulated along with Dorn’s in the pervasively tranquil atmosphere that had come over the room as the minutes ticked by in stillness. He held Dorn, cherishing every moment as he listened to the slow, rhythmic respiration rate that signaled his Brother had genuinely fallen asleep in his arms.

It was nigh unbelievable—even as worn out and used up as he was—that Dorn allowed himself to be so vulnerable in the clutches of a Daemon Primarch despite accepting that he had no agency here; no choice, no hope of escape. It was still absolutely unthinkable, that he had curled up into a state of repose against Perturabo's chest within hours of being in his presence — as weeks, months, or even years of prolonged exertion would have logically been needed to preclude such a thing in most any situation, no matter how fraught or physically demanding that situation was. He should have been fighting with all he had to remain conscious no matter what.

But here he was, napping peacefully; and it charmed Perturabo thoroughly, as he’d planned to tend to Dorn and care for him inside this very ship from the moment he’d decided to bring things to a close and transport him here. As much as he argued with himself about his true motivations, it paled in comparison to the blind faith Dorn placed in him.

And Perturabo quickly found he adored having his little Golden Treasure asleep on his lap. Oddly, even his constantly chattering terminal had quieted down, no longer incessantly demanding input, the flow of data streaming outside his peripheral sight a calm crawl of integers and information within normal parameters.

Perturabo nuzzled his cheek against Dorn’s dampened hair as he gently stroked his Brother's back with slow, soothing rubs as he cradled him in his arms.

 


 

In the silence of it all, while time ticked ever onwards for however long it would be allowed to pass undisturbed in this space that held only the two of them, that peaceful sense of calm never seemed to leave Dorn's expression.

In fact, those gentle nuzzles were greeted with a smile that crossed Dorn's lips every time, revealed by the angle of the slight upturn from his moustache.

Blissful serenity.

 


 

A deep, low sigh left Perturabo’s lips, and it was only after a shamefully long time that he finally decided to spring into action; and only after giving his sleeping lover a lavish amount of constant, soft attention —  eating up his quiet noises and slight smiles all the while.

He was weakening already, and he knew it, knew the battle had already been lost hours ago; and still, he tried to keep up his resolve at least to some degree lest he relinquish so many things he’d spent literal millennia in the pursuit of. But it was not the time to dwell on such now. He had work to do. Simple things that would occupy his time and his mind, while he allowed Dorn’s ravaged body to recuperate and repair itself from the harm he’d caused.

Perturabo took in a full breath before nimbly rising to his feet despite his enormous size, lifting Dorn with ease and wrapping his chlamys around his Brother’s body; to keep him warm and to cover his nakedness out of respect despite there being no one else here to witness them. And he carried Dorn to the simple bed resting in the far corner of the room with long, purposeful strides before placing him down on the surface of that bed rather than pulling down the covers, as filthy and stained as he was. Perturabo used his oversized cloak to blanket Dorn’s body from both beneath and above, tucking him in and making sure he was wrapped up tight before turning and walking back towards the chair they'd occupied for quite a long time.

Night had already completely fallen on this barren rock hours ago. How many more Terran hours? days? — it might take for the sun to rise here, he did not know, this unassuming and inconsequential planet having no data of any sort recorded at all within any of the many star charts he had access to.

And he would keep it that way.

 


 

Even through that bit of jostling, Dorn did not seem to stir in any measurable way that suggested that he would be actually waking up, and though he was only placed atop his hide covered bed, he seemed to get comfortable immediately by nesting into that oversized cloak.

A deep breath was taken, sending Perturabo's particular scent to his senses, a pleasurable and unmistakable smell in particular that he was becoming quickly attached to.

He squirmed slightly, burying his face under a portion of that cloak, hiding his face away.

Oh, how his body needed this period of rest to recover.

 


 

Within seconds Perturabo had returned to that space they’d occupied. He quickly leaned down in front of the chair, grabbed his himation, slipped it on and fastened it over his left shoulder, allowing it to drape down his body as he stood to his full height once more.

From there, the first stop he made was at that console that housed the controls and all the arrays that comprised the entirety of the ship’s CPU. The mechanized 'brain', the existence that was Dorn’s Thunderhawk; a bit of wholly outdated and simple technology that was beneath his prowess and mechanical superiority and yet, rather quaint in it's own way — a relic from a time and place long since passed for the Lord of Iron and the cyberdaemonic forgeworld he ruled. It was nostalgic, in a way, to gaze upon something so straightforward and simple as this honest machine…

A smirk formed on his lips as he patted its surface, dragging his hand over a section of metal paneling repeatedly as if he were petting a skittish animal.

Several minutes ticked by as he continued to simply be in its presence, touching its surface even as he turned away; watching Dorn sleep across the room as he stood there.

All the while, he felt and yet staunchly ignored the sense of what could only be called curiosity stirring within the circuits of his own system…

Surely, he was different, was he not?

He was a Daemon Primarch. He’d never held any regard for the annoying, overblown rituals held so sacrosanct by those of the Adeptus Mechanicus — or even the Dark Mechanicum that served him, tolerating their ways only when it suited him and allowing them the full spectrum of their tiresome trappings solely because it deepened their reverence of him.

If there truly was a genuine ghost in the machine beyond conceptually, so to speak, it never mattered to him either way. He preferred to focus on logic; the code and algorithms that were provable and reliable, leaving the superstition to others.

But he was a Daemon Primarch.

A Daemon Primarch… yet…

Was a Machine Spirit not in some way, comparable to a soul…?

That was, after all, the entire— 

Perturabo sighed, and after allowing a few more minutes to pass in silence, he turned and walked away.

 

 

Μεράκι OS.

 

 

He shook his head and grunted disagreeably.

 

 

Μεράκι System Administrator?_

 

 

Awareness?

Perturabo’s eyes went wide as his temper flared, fists clenching as his vital signs skyrocketed. Had his system identified itself? And then him as an external entity? The unyielding and cruel authority that rose within his psyche at the offense was a true and certain warning of dire proportions, and the chiming within his interface immediately fell silent as that hostility was directed within. The mere idea of cohabitating, sharing his own body with something outside the boundaries of his own consciousness infuriated him.

Self-recognition was not a capability he’d programmed within his operating system, and self-learning was something that should not have been possible either — the true marker that separated his standard coding from Abominable Intelligence.

That was reserved for the Mainframe.

He nearly regretted letting his system take any of the liberties it had been granted today, as well as the last few minutes he’d given it as much as himself, to be in the presence of the Thunderhawk as he allowed it to get used to such an intruder.

 

 

….

   ….

      ….

>._

 

 

Unease. And was that… remorse, he felt reverberating inside of himself? And was it his own…?

Or…

Perturabo sighed, frustrated that he couldn’t even discern the truth on the matter.

 


 

At first there was a sensation—not unlike revulsion—from the moment that the command center of the Thunderhawk that was Ætos Dios, was touched by Perturabo. It wasn’t meant to be such a deliberately unkind reaction, but it was as if whatever it was within the network of cables and screens knew exactly how dangerous the being before it was.

For something that was surely supposed to be a simple machine, it certainly had an alarming amount of spirit to it, that brought it beyond the point of being naught but components, wires and gears.

For all intents and purposes, it seemed alive.

The only companion Dorn had for centuries, until now.

While Dorn may have been more lax in his acceptance of the Daemon Primarch that had boarded the ship, all the sensors of this spooked machine saw the threat of something unknown, something that it couldn’t even possibly begin to quantify due to how out-of-date it was compared to current technology.

Elsewhere in this space, Dorn continued to rest and recover, having kept his current position since Perturabo had placed him down onto his bed. His breathing was slow and steady, hearts still beating fiercely in this period of relaxation.

Injuries within and without were healing as the time ticked onwards.

 


 

As Perturabo made his way across the large open space that functioned as the central bridge of the ship, he felt something lingering within his interface that was not of his fleshmind. Though also internal it was of a different origin entirely, and he was well aware of the fact. As much as it annoyed him, his scientific interest eventually got the better of him.

 

 

….

   ….

      ….

Input requested_

 

 

Perturabo smirked as the green text flickered across his peripheral vision, appearing the nanosecond he decided to humor whatever this ‘request’ from his OS was — at least long enough to investigate its apparent computational dilemma.

 

 

….

   ….

      ….

Data log query:

 

 

He continued to walk, but then came to a halt once that second string appeared, bracing himself for whatever it was that was about to come next, deeply annoyed before it was even revealed as this situation was already entirely out of bounds.

 

 

Confirm: Identified digital processor 11000011 10000110 01110100 01101111 01110011 00100000 01000100 01101001 01101111 01110011 is the framework of καλός κἀγαθός.

y/n?_

 

 

Perturabo pressed his chin to his chest as he glared balefully at the glowing characters dancing across his HUD. There was no way it was really asking such a thing, surely.

 

 

Processing: Ætos Dios = καλός κἀγαθός OS!

 

 

+-+ NO. +-+

Perturabo yelled internally, his booming 'voice' amplified and echoing within his thoughts as he witnessed what was becoming precariously close to his system going rogue each and every time these events occurred. Neo-Logos did not operate like this, nor did the Mainframe. These strange new incidents were unique to his personal OS and Perturabo did not like it.

 

 

….

   ….

      ….

>._

 

 

Especially with the sudden implication that machine spirits might somehow be involved.

+-+ DELETE QUERY. +-+

 

 

….

   ….

      ….

>._

 

 

Perturabo buzzed about the area with determination, finding rags within the stash of supplies that Dorn had set upon the far wall; wetting them, soiling them beyond all salvageability as he used them to slop up their filth and summarily threw them away — only to restart the process over and over again.

But his mind was even more active than his body as he endeavored to clean up the absolutely wretched mess that had been made of this room — extreme amounts of copiously thick, highly scented Primarchian bodily fluids and viscous, herbaceous and metal-twinged mechanical secretions dampening the air, creating a pervasive stench that was undeniable evidence of the diabolic ‘affairs’ that had taken place here.

The combination of Primarch blood and Cyberdaemonic lubricant was a particularly vile brew, with the ability to stain and coat everything in the vicinity beyond all reason. And it seemed to never end thanks to the oiliness and viscosity that remained even after several passes. He deduced that much of it may never be successfully removed from the grain and grooves of Dorn’s handcrafted wooden furniture — but he tried his best to make the place at least somewhat tolerable for Dorn when he woke from his slumber.

All the while, disturbingly existential thoughts swirled within the triplicity of Perturabo’s being. Primarch. Daemon. Machine. What he had become was uniquely interwoven beyond even the complexity of what his other Chaos corrupted Brothers experienced; as Perturabo had more layers than any of them. His consciousness was now as three massive strands of threads, now braided together — like the wires within a shielded data cable. While they were distinctly individual, they were inseparable now; and not even reachable to examine lest that cable that represented him as a whole was completely severed in two first to expose those interlinked identities.

Simply put, there was no undoing what he had become. And as such, there were more ramifications and repercussions for every decision he made as a further consequence of these changes, beyond what even those same heretical Brothers of his contended with. It left him oddly alone in the universe, with not a single entity in all of existence—real or unreal—that could relate to him, or vice versa.

Not that he cared. Perturabo had always been distinctly individual, his primary driving force his own Will to Power. For better; and for worse. Not even the Emperor of Mankind or the forces of Chaos Undivided could truly control Perturabo.

These were truths that had never gone unrecognized or unconsidered — on the contrary, there were no other entities in existence that thought more than Perturabo did, particularly when melded with the Mainframe of Medrengard; his genius Primarchian intellect expanded by the unfathomable vastness of near limitless processing power and the accessibility of a data matrix that would have frankly dissolved and liquified the brains of lesser beings.

But now, everything was different and in ways that Perturabo had never examined before. Concepts that even with his particular genius he would have passed over, remaining forever unexamined; were placed there through a single day of being in the presence of Dorn.

Some of these thoughts came straight from Dorn himself, others caused by being near Dorn — all of them new and most, deeply concerning.

 

 

καλός κἀγαθός.

 

 

Perturabo sighed at the sight of that truly 'enlightening' output, one of many of the endless strings of blipping, glowing cyberchatter that his OS spat out since the micro-instant he’d first laid eyes on Dorn.

With as much of the muck washed away as he could manage to wipe up from the floor—and Dorn’s abused furniture—without some sort of unavailable cleaning supplies, Perturabo turned his attention briefly to the table. A low grumble passed his lips as he stared at the bowls of stew that Dorn had made for them — one empty, the other still half-full.

And yet, the one that had been only partially eaten represented the most actual human food Perturabo had consumed in millennia. The very first bite he’d taken of that gracious offer, had all but sealed a fate that had been on an entirely different path for so long — one that Dorn couldn’t even begin to understand. It was also something that Perturabo tried to ignore ever since, pretending that it somehow didn’t matter. But it was everything. A principle that heralded something so much larger.

He sighed and shook his head as he cast his view directly into that wooden bowl’s basin, expression solemn. And with just as little acknowledgement as the first time, despite the enormity…

…Perturabo picked up the bowl with one hand, grabbing the spoon with the other, and finished off the remaining contents — leaving not a morsel left, not even caring about the ‘contaminated’ bits, whatever splatters that had landed there as a result of coupling with his Brother were also consumed without a care.

Yet it was finished with all the pleasure one might find at a funeral. Despite it all, Perturabo did not hesitate, nor procrastinate in completing the task.

He set the empty bowl down, not where it had been before, but beside Dorn’s now, along with their vacant goblets he placed there one at a time — all four dishes now in a small cluster at Dorn's side of the table.

At last, he turned his gaze to the area that had captured his attention the most from the moment he’d stepped into the room—outside the occupant, of course—walking over to the wall he’d deliberately neglected all this time, even after many of the objects on display had clattered violently to the floor.

He leaned down, picking up one of the largest bones that had fallen from its rack, and stood as he stared down at it with rapt interest, electric blue eyes focusing on each and every painstaking detail that had been etched into its calcified surface. Tiny cuts scraped and pressed into the spongy hard surface were placed with such care and skill; and in such miniature scale it was hard to believe that a Primarch’s gigantic hands could be responsible for the artistry on display. Tears welled up in his eyes as he admired the carving that Dorn had made, his heart nearly breaking with worry that it, or one of the others had been damaged. He’d shown no care at all for the outpouring of emotion that had precluded Dorn’s fury, yet now, as he dragged his fingers gently over the delicate, truly awe-inspiring work of art that Dorn had made, there was no doubt whatsoever that he was still far more man than machine.

Dread rose within him as he inspected the large bone for defects, knowing that the smaller, more fragile ones would be in worse shape — while also expecting that the designs Dorn had so carefully decorated them with would likely be even more intricate.

It was such an apt metaphor, how Dorn endeavored to craft things so lacking in technology, simple, honest, straightforward — while he himself was an engineer of the highest degree. But yet for all his ingenuity, his technological superiority, he knew a master’s hand when he saw it. Exactly as he had when observing the fortifications made to the ship and all the things within it that Dorn had made…

This carving was absolutely beautiful, one of the most impressive creations he’d ever seen; breathtaking — and he was struck with envy to witness such technique. He continued to run his fingers over it with no small sense of awe, tears streaming down his face as he examined every detail as he turned it in his hand.

A fitting centerpiece worthy to be housed in one of the many museums he'd once dreamt of creating, before his dreams of utopia were transformed into nightmares of warfare and endless sieges.

 


 

That piece of bone that Perturabo held was a hefty piece of work, dense beyond the others within this space. How many designs graced the surface of this one? How many intricate carvings were scrimshawed along the stretch of bone that his Brother was agonizing over, turning it over again and again?

There weren't only the general designs of unbroken, blocked and curved chains of squares and circles bearing patterns that were not unlike the meandros lining Perturabo’s form, there were also sections of arching swirls and some parts even held what one may have surmised as sigils.

Symbols of power from a time long gone.

It was not unlike what one could expect to find in cave art and from drawings of ancient civilizations upon Terra that had been sequestered away or destroyed so many millennia ago, never to be gazed at again by any living soul. This was what Dorn seemed to bring back to life, a tradition that he followed through and through with such an attention to detail that it was surely maddening to recreate it.

Upon the bone in particular that his Brother held, he was greeted by depictions of man and beast in equal measure, the entire piece telling of some story as a whole — this one ‘spoke’ of a hunt of those great beasts, so familiar in content, yet so alien in presentation.

Perhaps it was a story told back on Inwit.

One of many, all carved with such intricate care to detail.

For Perturabo’s sake, it did not seem like this larger piece had been damaged from the outburst earlier that had sent so many displays scattering to the floor. It was a strong bone, carefully cared for and tended to for so long that it was not something so brittle that it could shatter from a rough touch alone. All that marred the surface was the gradual wear and tear of something that had been handled constantly.

The smaller ones would have to be looked over to surmise the damage done to them, though, judging by some of the dust that blanked the area in a fine white powder, it was easy to assume some damage had been wrought.

Meanwhile, in the midst of all that was going on, Dorn still did not stir for one moment. He did not wake when Perturabo had gone through his attempt at a thorough cleaning, he did not rouse when Perturabo ate and set that bowl down, nor did he seem to acknowledge where Perturabo was now, admiring all that had been created in this quiet moment of repose.

Dorn was thoroughly asleep, his body able to repair the injuries that had been dealt to him over the last several hours now that there was downtime. Though there were faint sensations of pain that reminded Dorn of all that had occurred, it seemed like his body was intent on making sure he fully recovered from the ordeal. Even despite some part of his brain remaining alert — reminding him of what exactly he was sharing his space with, and how he should be awake to ensure his safety, the majority of his mind was resting too, however — with naught a care in the world for the dangers instinct could not so simply ignore.

Yet despite everything, Dorn did trust his Brother to not do anything dishonorable now.

Though, his Brother was the reason why he twitched faintly here and there, reflexive movements caused by something different and external — neither due to being satisfied, nor completely wrecked in the aftermath. Now, he was dealing with the lingering sensations of what Perturabo was feeling, heightened by both the small space and a new connection.

A low rumbling sigh escaped Dorn several minutes into that continued rest, but it didn’t seem like he had fully woken up yet, reacting but still deep in a landscape of his own making that Perturabo was affecting. Not so much in the way of the intricate visions broadcasted by a Primarch with far more psyker ability than he had realized, but through the overwhelming sensations emanating from his forlorn Brother now.

All Dorn desired, in the back of his mind, was a want to cradle that sensation, and cover it with warmth to stave off the cold, the unending frigidness and the sense of feigned unfeeling. He wanted to push it away, wanted to ensure that there was something else beyond all the misery Perturabo endured.

And somehow, even now, he could feel through the haze of this restful period… the appreciation of his handiwork and skill.

“You’ll show me your works of art too, right, Brother?”

The words came out in the string of a tired, sleepy voice, slurred together but coherent enough to not miss the meaning. Yet, even despite such a well thought out statement, one look in Dorn's direction would immediately reveal that, for all intents and purposes, he still remained sleeping, deeper than any Primarch had the business or right to in the presence of danger, if at all.

 


 

The scenes displayed in miniature: so detailed and rich despite the fine, tiny lines that created them; regardless of the unique form of artistry that was so different to those of his own origin; was similar to Perturabo, of the past recorded through works of art on Olympia—a stark reminder that some things were universal throughout humanity's history no matter the location—as well as the sense of loss that came with such distant memories.

Of so many worlds, destroyed. Some of which were undeniably of his own doing, but Perturabo did not dwell on that now. In this moment of reflection, all he thought about was Inwit and Olympia — and the resentment that boiled in his guts as he stared at the curiosity he held in his hands.

Resentment for his former Father.

That bitterness made the scenes depicted by Dorn’s craftsmanship even more precious to Perturabo now, and with shaking hands he placed the scrimshawed bone back on the largest of the empty display racks as if it were a priceless artifact.

Because it was.

He turned his head to glance towards the bed, an expression of surprise cresting through the veil of tears that streaked down his harsh face, and a humorless smile that replaced that surprise a moment later.

Dorn did not seem to be entirely awake, yet the dreamy, tired statement he'd slurred through his slumber hit Perturabo so hard he stumbled, eyes shutting a moment later as he stood there, slumped over and wracked with pain there was no outlet for.

And never had been.

A couple of seconds passed, no more speech coming from that bundle resting some distance away, yet Perturabo responded though he did not think that Dorn would hear him.

“Perhaps. But.” A dry, heaving laugh that was the inverse of joy broke up his statement into fragments. “I have already shown you my… finest creation…”

 


 

There was nothing more that came from that pile on the bed, still nestling and nuzzling deep into that oversized cloak, partaking in the sheer scent of Perturabo. In this state, it calmed him down greatly, and perhaps, in the back of his mind, it reminded him of the times that he laid down with his Grandfather’s furs and went to bed with them.

A reminder of home.

And now with Perturabo, this was also a reminder of home. Perhaps it was never meant to be seen that way, but Terra had been the secondary place that he had called such, and with his Brothers, family was family, no matter how estranged and chaotic it was.

A quiet sigh escaped his lips.

His body remained resting, remained deep asleep, but his hearts ached as he could still feel that melancholy wafting off of his Brother, knowing he was nearby in the back of his mind. What could he ever possibly do to aid in what his Brother was going through? Beyond what he had already done…

Oh, how he yearned to comfort Perturabo, even through his faded awareness.

 


 

After a few long seconds, Perturabo stood up fully again, eyes rolling open as he stared at the wall somberly — waiting for a reply that did not come though he’d never truly expected one.

He wasn’t entirely sure how Dorn had seen and heard anything at all as he’d remained asleep all the while, a fact that was confirmed by the slow, steady vital signs dimly flickering across the peripherals of his HUD.

Maybe Dorn simply dreamt, his sleep talking coincidentally matching up with Perturabo’s actions. A dark sigh left his lips as he recalled Dorn’s passionate, angry proclamation precluding the objects falling from the wall — an incongruent fact that had been in the back of his thoughts all this time.

“…I can’t sleep… I can’t dream, I am face to face with the daemons of my own failures…”

Perturabo glanced down as he sighed again, not deigning to consider the words spoken before nor after as he wanted nothing to do with them. But he could not stop dwelling on how Dorn had managed to fall asleep in his arms—of all places—and now was possibly dreaming.

While it was true that he had inflicted considerable damage to Dorn’s body in a myriad of ways and had thoroughly tired him out, it was still inconceivable. Yet it had happened…

A conflicted and heavy feeling settled in all around him as he went back to picking up the rest of the carved bones that had fallen from their places, but now he didn’t pause to look at any of them too carefully right now; not examining his own emotions to any genuine degree either but knowing deep down that he simply didn’t have the heart to see any of those delicate carvings erased and rendered to nothing but flattened, ruined patches devoid of those little cuts and scratches that had brought him such inspiration to view…

He mechanically put each back where they appeared to belong and then swept up the dust and crumbled shards so that Dorn would not have to see how much of it there was, his chest aching from a task that felt so much heavier and more painful than it should have.

No one else could have possibly understood, but that didn’t matter to Perturabo. Nothing much did.

And as he went about his work, even the flickering and chiming within his head seemed a little softer, shifting in pitch and tone, as if it too were saddened. With that unpleasant task finished at last, he finally made his way to Dorn’s bedside.

He loomed over his Brother in stillness for several silent, tense minutes; watching, listening, scanning. Once he could take it no more he knelt beside the bed, though what he truly wanted was to join Dorn in that bed but he was not confident it would hold their combined weight as easily as the chair had — and he didn’t want to disturb Dorn’s rest, anyway.

It was such a miracle that he truly was genuinely asleep…

But he was, there was no denying it now. And he looked so peaceful, so angelic…

Divine.

Perturabo bit the inside of his bottom lip to keep silent as his emotions were getting the better of him yet again.

Once he’d lowered himself, Perturabo sat on the floor before leaning in closer; and then he placed his arms on the mattress and rested his head beside Dorn’s, his eyes closing a moment later.

 


 

This peaceful rest continued in the inner room of the Thunderhawk, forgotten and lost to the outside world and all that would seek him out. This dream-like state with so many emotions, as intense as they were felt almost like a god-send to Dorn as he relished each and every second that turned to minutes, that turned to hours.

How long?

How many times had he ever been given the opportunity to do this? How long had it been since he was able to find such comforts that may have seemed so simple to most?

For once in several millennia did his mind not assail him with nightly terror that sunk deep even within his meditations, striking whenever he had at last reached the cusp of falling asleep, always ultimately ripping him away from restfulness. Though Dorn did not require regular sleep in the same manner all Primarchs were gifted with, it was still something he enjoyed.

Until he couldn’t anymore when terrible hauntings inevitably slithered into his mind like a malaise, rising in the dead of night, choking him with phantasms of his own making, born from all the negative emotions that overtook him when he got too lost in thought.

None of that was occurring now though, despite having to inadvertently deal with the energy that Perturabo was pushing onto him — with or without visions. It was still such a welcome change, as it didn’t wake him in a cold sweat, or screaming into the ship’s vacant halls.

Right now, instead, he shifted, more movement in this moment than there had been since his mumblings. Instinctively, he knew that there was some sort of warmth near him, a comforting warmth that he wanted nothing more than to seek out. In his unconscious state, Dorn began to move closer.

Until their heads were touching, gently resting against one another.

It was then that Perturabo could feel Dorn nuzzling him, still deeply asleep all the while.

 


 

The feeling that all of his hearts were cast from cold, solid lead—even heavier than the cybernetic regulator that he’d installed in front of them—deepened as Perturabo luxuriated in the warm, soft aura of his Brother’s proximity; the cloying scents of spilled sweat, blood and semen drawing him into the mood even further as he breathed it all in. How had today even been real, and not another meaningless daydream in an endless flow of constant, obsessive thoughts…?

And how had it turned out like this, with Dorn trusting him enough to fall asleep in his presence — while he in turn watched over him like a guardian instead of violating that trust as he full well should have?

This was a prime opportunity to snuff out Dorn’s awareness and maintain his state of unconsciousness, so that Perturabo could abduct him — keep him subdued until he woke up at some indeterminate time in the future—disoriented and forsaken—stirring again only to find himself hopelessly imprisoned within the halls of Medrengard.

Yet… Perturabo wanted none of that. It didn’t resonate in reality the way it had in his fantasies somehow. Of course that was still the plan, to travel there in the ultimate but nothing had gone according to plan.

For now, he only wanted to experience what it felt like to be so close to Dorn… just a little longer…

Just a little longer…

It still hadn’t been enough even though the last few hours had granted him more than he’d known in the whole of his life, combined, of what it felt like to bask in that golden glow

And as if reading his thoughts somehow, even behind the wall of sleep — Dorn drew closer.

Perturabo bit back a wretched sob as he endured the trusting, gentle touches of his Brother who truly seemed to want to be near him even now, which he could not begin to comprehend.

No one ever had before.

Especially not Dorn.

And now…?

Nothing made sense anymore, and not even his vast processing power could solve the enigma.

He pressed his head—and the nest of cool, lifeless tendrils that were bolted into his scalp; the antithesis of that impossibly soft, silken hair—against Dorn’s as he returned that nuzzling with the same gentle regard, his arms reaching out to hold the one thing in his ruined, cursed existence that he coveted above all else…

Maybe he could crawl up into that bed, lie beside his little Golden Treasure, wrap him up not only in his chlamys but with his entire body. Maybe he could lie in stillness, emulating sleep as Dorn rested…

Maybe…

Maybe

They could lie that way forever, entombed together. It would be a worthy ending, in Perturabo’s summation. And oddly, perhaps the best one he could have ever hoped for.

 


 

Seconds turned into minutes.

And then Dorn roused, not completely pulling himself out of the full dredges of sleep; but he stirred enough to blearily open his eyes to the barest of slits, coming face to face with the blurry visage of his Brother, tracks of tears staining Perturabo’s face. It was faint yet clear enough that Dorn furrowed his brow in response, especially as he'd noticed his Brother staring at him.

It was then he realized he was back on his bed, now wrapped up in something warm. Though, that wasn’t the only source of warmth, however, as Perturabo was holding him too, comforting him and keeping him protected.

A sleep-drunk smile graced Dorn’s face, the edges of his mustache curving upwards as a result and he murmured a soft word, too quiet to hear, but enough to show encouragement as he moved his single hand and grasped the himation, before tugging at Perturabo weakly while simultaneously moving back just enough to give him room.

He wanted Perturabo in his bed; amongst the furs, hides and copious pillows.

That tugging only remained for a couple of seconds until sleep took Dorn again, sending him back into that blissful reprieve that had been long denied.

 


 

Once Dorn stirred, Perturabo’s eyelids fluttered, eyes open wide as he refocused his stare fully on Dorn. Somehow he too had nearly drifted, his consciousness stealing a moment of peace if not rest…

That little twitching, sleepy smile that filled Perturabo’s view caused his chest to seize, hearts clenching as he observed the simple happiness that transformed Dorn’s face; a state of vulnerability, an expression so honest — with no conscious thoughts or inhibitions to serve as a filter…

He was genuinely happy and felt truly secure in his presence, and Perturabo did not know how to process that. Dorn had even seen visions of Medrengard, and it seemed that those visions were highly detailed, showing him the manner of his own demise.

Yet Dorn trusted him all the same, down to the innate, primal way an animal felt safe enough to sleep when he should have instead been in a state of highest alert…

As if Perturabo was not a a threat despite being the greatest predator that Dorn could ever meet — especially because he was a Daemon Primarch of Chaos Undivided and particularly because that specific form of predation was obsessive and personal.

Perturabo sighed softly, features twitching with emotion he could barely restrain as Dorn clutched his borrowed chlamys and moved aside in an unmistakable gesture that he wished for his Brother to join him…

Though his thoughts were darkening again and his hearts heavy, Perturabo did not delay as he joined the bear in his den, climbing up and finding a place to settle amongst the pillows and blankets upon its surface.

It creaked and groaned lowly beneath his massive bulk as he laid upon it, but held steady despite his misgivings; and as soon as Perturabo had managed to get comfortable his huge, bulky arms reached out to hold Dorn properly — as he had so deeply craved to do from the second he’d walked over here to watch Dorn sleep.

 


 

The moment those arms reached out to wrap around him, Dorn had turned his body toward his Brother’s. It was enough so that he could bury his face in a spot he had grown to enjoy resting against— the junction between neck and shoulder.

A slow and languid inhale could be heard, hot breath against Perturabo’s skin a moment later as that more primal part of Dorn took in every single nuance of the scents telling of all that had been shared between them today. Though he had no energy to act on much, nor was he actually properly awake, what he was drawn to now was the genuine closeness and the intimacy it created.

The warmth of that oversized cloak had been one thing, saturated with his Brother’s scent. Yet, to have the real thing now against him, it soothed some part of him even in his rest.

A small noise soon followed, a sigh that showed nothing but some measure of pure contentment as Dorn drifted back off into his slumber, fully— a picture of comfort like nothing else in this world.

While his mind may have wandered in this state, he remained, even in rest, instinctively focused on just who and what he was vulnerable to in this moment. Logical notions should have had him draw away, as the facts would state how precarious a position he was in.

Yet here he was.

Willingly dozing off, with no countermeasure.

There was nothing that could draw Dorn from his Brother and that was only partially due to the fact that Perturabo was now holding him with all the displays of a protective mate. Nothing could pry them apart now, as much as nothing could pry them apart earlier in the day. Their magnetism, once finally indulged, was simply too great a pull.

Only a minute or two passed before Dorn shifted again, going so far as to throw a leg over one of Perturabo’s own as he was unable to hug his Brother, what with his arms securely settled between them; and with Dorn’s one hand settled right upon where his Brother’s hearts were, feeling every single beat and every moment there was an uptick or a lull.

That smile never faded from Dorn’s expression for one second.

 


 

Perturabo’s gargantuan form shuddered, a shiver running through him that coursed with energy through flesh and robotics alike, oily tears welling up in his eyes again as Dorn seemed to melt into him.

There was no inhibition, no reservation; nothing but unbreakable, absolute faith placed in him — trust that Perturabo resented being granted because deep down he knew he genuinely did not deserve it.

 

 

καλός κἀγαθός.

 

 

Perhaps there was wisdom to be gleaned from the fact that all this time—at Dorn’s most vulnerable—Perturabo had done absolutely nothing to break that trust; in fact he’d made it his duty to take care of both Dorn and Ætos Dios while he slept, acting as older Brother, protector; lover…

But his actions now did not absolve him of his sins, nor the guilt that rose from bearing them. All along, he’d planned and plotted to violate Dorn in every conceivable way — to include making him a mindraped slave if need be, willing to wipe his brain and reformat it like a hard drive if necessary just to have his way, once and for all. And he’d come to the conclusion that if somehow, his intentions were not possible to achieve, he’d settle for killing Dorn instead… 

How could he now, hold this precious Golden Trophy in his arms like a fragile, perfect thing — with such cruel, unfathomably evil desires burning through him like acid corroding his body?

He was not worthy of this unthinkable outcome…

And he’d spent ten thousand years in the pursuit of making his own fantasies reality, to complete the unfinished goals set in motion with the Iron Cage.

He looked down at that angelic, smiling face; and despite holding him as he did now being the only thing he’d wanted within the span of the current moment, instead of indulging as he’d wanted, with Dorn wrapped around him — Perturabo wept in miserable silence.

 

 

καλός κἀγαθός acquired_

 

 


 

Even peace had its end once enough time passed, meandering through the seconds and minutes and surely now hours of much-needed respite. All the while he kept that smile on his face, and the closeness that he kept with his Brother in turn. Their breathing, their heartbeats, all of it fell into a rhythm.

Perhaps whatever festering miasma that was coming from his Brother finally began to sink into Dorn’s mind, slipping into various nooks and crannies of the highly defended mental wall he normally kept up to… varying degrees of success. Sure, earlier… it all had been a bit melancholic at first— but that was what Dorn could work with, could deal with. Every action he took tried to disarm, to calm and soothe the best he knew how.

Yet, even that had its limits.

Unfortunately.

As Perturabo’s thoughts began to darken further still, Dorn was dealing with a rising sensation of creeping dread in the back of his mind that sunk its icy claws deeper and deeper over time. This was not something that he was experiencing himself, but experiencing through another person — that much he could discern.

Visions may no longer entangle his mind’s eye, but the sensations of Perturabo's emotions and thoughts still could be felt like an open channel.

Dread… FearApprehension

These were not the usual emotions that Dorn wrestled with through endless sleepless nights. His woes always came through self-doubt, remorse, blame and so much guilt. What was going on was not of his design, but his body still shuddered intermittently, goosebumps rising along every bit of exposed skin.

The smile had at last turned to a frown and the hand that had been settled upon Perturabo’s chest slowly curled into a fist.

Calm down…”

Dorn’s voice came through with a rasp, though there was a stern nature in his intonation. Those vestiges of sleep still clung to him, but whatever it was that had brought him out of his blissful state, had roused him enough that he could speak without that dream-like slurring of before.

 


 

καλός κἀγαθόςἀγαπητὸς.” Perturabo choked out.

 

 

ἀγαπητὸς_

 

 

Perturabo ignored that softly flashing, quiet blip though he had been constantly observing it. At first he had thought that his OS was mocking him though that was a stupid idea, the kind of conclusion only the most brainless, tech-ignorant peons would come to. It was simply parroting him at most.

But something had changed, almost immediately; after his system had been introduced to Dorn, and that was undeniable.

And now an entirely different and highly disturbing suspicion was fomenting within Perturabo’s fleshmind — a conclusion he had come earlier, but had dismissed it.

The complex and highly adaptive Μεράκι integrated OS he’d coded and improved upon over thousands of years…

…was suddenly learning. And gaining self-awareness.

 

 

Μεράκι OS!

 

 

Perturabo growled and gnashed his teeth in annoyance. Instead of taking the bait, he refocused on Dorn rather than giving his OS anymore attention. But even making that determination served as evidence that he believed in something more, beyond the strings of data and lines of code that should have defined its behavior.

A strained sniffle broke the silence, and he held onto Dorn even tighter. But there was something to be said for how the interruptions from within and without had broken through his dire, cyclic, self-defeating thoughts.

Instead of being mentally distant, he sought comfort through gestures that were likely as self-soothing as they were for Dorn’s benefit, tears still rolling down his face as he placed unsteady kisses to the top of Dorn’s head.

καλός κἀγαθός.”

 


 

After a few more seconds passed, Dorn began to stir a bit more. It wasn’t to get away, or shove his Brother off of him as, instead, he was trying to get far more comfortable than before in that iron-clad grip of the man that he was becoming all too fond of with a quickness that could be considered genuinely alarming.

Truly, Dorn idly wondered how things would have changed if he had done something from the onset instead of falling so deeply and obsessively into the work their Father set out for them. Of course, at the time, Dorn couldn’t have even begun to understand or predict the way things turned out afterwards.

How much would have happened though? If Perturabo and himself had known each other in ways that were not solely formed through rivalry; a rivalry that was directly fed out of dramatic spite from one of their other Brothers?

Despite his all too frank, blunt and factual nature when confronted by how well his work could stand up to pressure?

At the time, he certainly did not realize how much pain his rebuttal caused his Brother over the years while they were in such close proximity to one another. While nothing could change the past nor wholly fix it, even if somehow he found a way — there were simply too many years of built up frustration and resentment between them, followed by a slew of many other negative emotions and wrongs that sprung from it all.

Though, Dorn could feel how much his Brother was dismantling a few things. Bit by agonizing bit.

Maybe, just maybe, through healing the parts of Perturabo that could be healed, with a genuine earnestness like never before, maybe he could heal similar parts of himself as well. The parts that he had never truly sat down and faced as his nightmares were a reminder of that fact, tormented day in and day out.

But his Brother was here, and with that, the first sense of a twisted calm that he had never expected to experience, grew.

Yet, he also knew how much that overactive mind was plagued, and could tell, by those bubbling sensations of such negativity, that Perturabo was spiraling and spiraling hard.

“I’m here… Brother… I’m here.”

Dorn nuzzled into that crook at Perturabo’s neck, still speaking softly and slowly. “I’m not going anywhere.”

 


 

Perturabo clutched at Dorn now not as if he were something precious to protect, but instead as if Perturabo himself might fall if he let go. Those words hit him like a chainsword to the chest, Dorn somehow able to cut right through to the heart of the matter even in a state of stilled consciousness.

All of Perturabo’s foul, insidious designs; no matter what he convinced himself of, no matter how he tried to rationalize them, all came down to a simple, basic need — his desire for Dorn, which had grown so all-consumingly unbearable that he’d do anything, anything to capture him and then greedily keep him.

So that he’d never have to exist without him ever again. Even if that meant false imprisonment and mind control or any of the other myriad atrocities he’d dwelt on and considered committing in order to have Dorn by his side. In the end it was why all those fantasies of dark design he’d constructed to keep his mind occupied and his black soulless system quelled while they were apart were wrought to ruins so easily once confronted with reality for that reason alone.

Because despite all the numerous slights and grudges he kept track of, all the bitterness and resentment that churned in his guts — in the end all he wanted was Dorn. And if Dorn was somehow, despite his every doubt, agreeable to his terms, Perturabo no longer had any desire at all to harm him in such grievous, irreversible ways. Deep down he wasn’t even sure exactly how much he’d have been able to go through with and enact in the end, a point proven before he’d even disembarked from the Mainframe as he’d taken every precaution to protect Dorn down to the minutia.

He was wounded, driven by his emotions and…

A loud sob, deep and ironized, ripped from his throat as he let his double fisted death grip go so that he could hold Dorn in his arms instead, blanketing him in his embrace. He nuzzled Dorn back emphatically, almost in a panic as he seemed intent to smother him completely.

“I won’t let you,” he wept. “You’re mine, Rogal Dorn. You belong to me."

 

 

ἔρως_

….

   ….

      ….

ἔρως.

>._

 

 

The cables that had been inactive—nestled within the sheathed cords that served as Perturabo’s hair and hid them—began to slither from their resting places, the pair on the section that was higher and therefore not blocked by his reclined position on his side slinking out to wrap over Dorn’s shoulders as Perturabo endeavored to grasp his Brother with every part of him that he could.

ἔρως…” He whispered despite himself, annoyed that his OS was mimicking his own thoughts yet that was not enough to keep him from saying it. In fact, that might have been what pressed him enough to speak such a thing he’d been trying to deny as possible though his endless spiraling that had begun from the moment he’d laid eyes on Dorn again.

 


 

There was a rough heartbeat, and another; and when those large fists changed from grasping onto Dorn with the tightness of a man that was on the precipice of falling to one now securely wrapping around him as if anchoring him in place, Dorn finally took a much needed breath. The air filled his lungs fully as he had not realized how much he had kept himself from breathing while waiting in anticipation for what his Brother would do next.

Oh, how he could feel that panic overtaking Perturabo’s mind and showing through in his actions, causing him to lay his own hand flat upon Perturabo’s chest. Then he began to rub slowly and soothingly with slow motions. There were gentle shushing sounds coming from him as Perturabo cried, the sound not as echoing by virtue of them being surrounded by a veritable fortress of furs and pillows.

Still, Dorn’s hearts clenched in agony to hear such a noise come from his afflicted Brother. No more did he truly seem like a much feared mechanical marvel, or even a Daemon Primarch in this moment.

Once again, it showed how much humanity remained despite everything else surrounding Perturabo's fall.

Dorn took the smothering, took the feeling of those tendrils beginning to wrap around his head — as far as they could reach. He took the words of possession and control. All left unchallenged. 

And that little word itself that followed soon after.

“I’m yours, Perturabo. That does not change, not now, nor in the future.”

Dorn squeezed his Brother with the leg that was still around him while his hand continued to smooth over and rub firmly along his chest, trying to calm Perturabo with the best of his own limited abilities and understanding of what to do.

ἔρως.

Chapter 23: Inertia

Summary:

How long can avoidance delay the evitable?

Chapter Text


 

Perturabo was in deep conflict, most of which was undeniably of his own making but knowing that didn’t do anything to soothe the turmoil in his hearts — it felt like an insurmountable, overwhelming problem, especially as so much of it revolved around things he didn’t have an inkling of how to address. It was all so deep rooted and long in the making, twisted and as entangled as the form he now took; and none of it could be solved with information or logic no matter his cybernetic superiority.

Not even the nigh infinite processing power of the Mainframe could solve his dilemma. In fact, so much as trying to accomplish such would do nothing but prove how impossible it all was.

This warm body all snuggled up tight in his arms, feeling tiny to him now by comparison, was everything in Perturabo’s world.

And if he were honest with himself, always had been from the moment they’d met. Something at the very core of Perturabo’s being had shifted when he’d first locked on to those hazel eyes, and it had never let him go for a single second since that day.

So weak and small now — even if that was truly an illusion, it didn’t matter because it impacted him in profound and far reaching ways. Absolutely everything, everything Dorn had done today defied all reason and probability, most of all this, trusting him at his most vulnerable point without giving off a single sense that he felt anything but safety and comfort even after Perturabo had tried so hard to Break him in so many ways.

…And had finally succeeded in the most diabolical of them all — in the judgment of any sane man, even if it weren't the most openly violent method he could have used.

“ἔρως,” Perturabo croaked out a second time; as the excited chiming of his interface repeated the term over and over again all the while through these last couple of seconds, glittering green light as that single word scrolled at an indecipherable pace that none less than he could have perceived, thousands upon thousands of repetitions entered, each on a separate line.

He pressed and pushed into Dorn’s touch at every junction, also rubbing and nuzzling his face against his Brother’s skin; Black Carapace extension, cords, cables and even the hose bolted into his cheekbone all taking part in his feverish neediness.

Could Dorn really mean that, truly be his, just like that…? It was inconceivable, as much as Perturabo boldly—and repeatedly—staked that claim, that Dorn would so easily and earnestly declare such a thing of his own volition without a care.

He wrapped one arm around Dorn even tighter, if such a thing were possible, the fingers of the opposing hand working to pull his chlamys up and around Dorn as if his fretting could somehow help matters.

 


 

Perturabo.”

Dorn spoke sternly again, as he could still see that same spiraling, the same fervent actions that drove the need and desire to ensure that they would not be parted, to ensure that he would not disappear…

Perhaps even to make sure that he was real in some doubting part at the back of his Brother’s overwrought mind. It truly did break his hearts to see Perturabo so touch-starved and frantic, confirming time and again that this was not some cruel trick played on him through some faulty wiring or code.

That was how Dorn interpreted this change of attitude, at least — coupled with the varying negative emotions that had driven Dorn to awaken in the first place when it broke through his reverie, alerting him that there was something so inherently wrong that required his attention.

For a few moments did Dorn keep his hand pressed firmly against Perturabo’s chest, offering a touch briefly here and there to Perturabo’s face and cables until he pulled back just enough to look his Brother dead in the eyes.

That anxious pale blue was met by the warmth of dark hazel.

Breathe, Brother…” His tone held a commanding edge to it, voice low and rumbling to the point that the vibrations could be felt in one’s chest. “Breath in… and out… slowly.” It might have been an absurd exercise to guide his Brother through, as there was likely very little need for him to breathe in any capacity.

Dorn wasn’t sure just how much was fully replaced, though he doubted a Daemon Primarch needed to in the first place.

Even so, Dorn illustrated by taking a deep breath through his nose, filling his triplicate lungs, holding it and then slowly exhaling through his mouth, hot breath tickling against Perturabo’s skin. All the while he was keeping an eye on his Brother to ensure that he’d at least try, no matter how juvenile the action may have seemed.

 


 

Perturabo’s head jerked—pulled from his overwhelming thoughts—as his name was called, misty blue eyes refocusing on Dorn’s face immediately as the sound broke through his distress, that deep voice cutting through the blackness immediately.

To have his Brother address him by his name seemed quite effective, those hostile and perpetually suspicious eyes now appearing to be seeking something but it was an elusive quality now — far removed from the computerized scanning such an intense look usually implied; and far too human.

His mouth formed a thin, flat line; lips pressed together tightly as he was given an order that made little sense, his body changed into something exhibiting as at least half machine and completely daemonic though that latter fact was well hidden within his bespoke design.

But his eyes had just given the entire game away, as did most of his illogical actions all this time, proving that when it came down to it, Perturabo was still driven by emotions rather than algorithms, even though many of those emotions remained wholly negative.

Yet, he followed along with Dorn’s guidance, breathing in and out slowly as he focused on Dorn’s pacing, though the sensations of his warm breath and closeness were the factors that captivated Perturabo the most. The majority of his attention was on that leg slung over him and the hand pressed against his chest. But he was cooperative through this small interlude without hesitation or complaint, his huge hands now open and splayed over Dorn’s back as he filled and emptied his lungs as his chest rose and fell repeatedly — the question of if such an entity as he even required breath to function, still left curiously unanswered.

 


 

Dorn kept up this activity for a couple of long minutes, just to ensure that there was a pattern and a rhythm to what he was leading his Brother through — anything to make him focus on something else, even something as second nature as breathing must have been, at least at some point in his long existence.

It was such a simple idea in the grand-scheme of everything, yet Dorn still at least hoped that this would work in some basic measure of effectiveness.

"Close your eyes."

 


 

Perturabo continued to follow Dorn’s lead in an unusually accommodating way, the minutes slowly passing as the hyper-aggressive Lord of Iron lay seemingly docile. Though it wasn’t clear what had placated him—or if he was genuinely placated at all—he spoke not a word, the only sounds he created within the room being the low, gusty sounds of the gas exchange taking place within his massive, likely augmented lungs. It was a calm, and admittedly quieter sound for one such as he, though the noises created by his focused respiration was reminiscent of a humming, operational engine.

When Dorn told him to close his eyes, he also complied without counterargument, though there was apprehension in doing so that he did not outwardly display — as it was regarding something that Dorn couldn’t have possibly known or understood; while fully aware of what his fleshly Brother was trying to achieve, yet uncertain that it would succeed.

His brow furrowed as he awaited whatever came next, expression not as neutral as Dorn might have expected.

 


 

The moment that those pale blue eyes closed, Dorn finally set the next stage of his plan to action, though he was unsure that this would be enough to soothe his frantic Brother, as much as the breathing continued to seemingly calm him down or at least distract him.

What Dorn did next was move upwards, making Perturabo loosen his grip a bit to accommodate him, but Dorn did not move far. Instead, it wasn't until after Perturabo felt that hand move from his chest to the back of his head, that he could guess what would happen next.

And then there it was, as he was pressed against Dorn's upper chest, against the fur that coated his upper pectorals; and he kept him there, cradling the back of Perturabo's head with a hold that was surprisingly strong given just how exhausted Dorn had been.

 


 

The likelihood Perturabo had held—that having his eyes closed in the pursuit of the state of relaxation that Dorn was trying to evoke, would end poorly for him instead due to his suddenly quite invasive OS—was dashed and scattered immediately. The incessant chiming, scrolling flood of integers and information was all but forgotten even as it did in fact, increase in its hyperactive feedback thanks to all the sudden data that it was being fed — but its designer was just as overwhelmed by that same ‘data’.

Perturabo’s lips parted as he inhaled through both nose and mouth but it was no longer in the slow, steady pace that Dorn had set. Instead he was flooding his neuroglottis as fully as his interface was cataloging every detail it discovered. Yet Perturabo himself did not need anything other than his own flesh and blood Primarch physiology to discern and enjoy the pleasures granted to him by being shoved in between those stone hewn, velvet pectorals.

Of course there was no true insight to be found here that he wasn’t already aware of with his abilities, which might have made his OS’ sudden uptick all the more strange — but for Perturabo the difference this proximity made was entirely sensory and tactile.

Sweet, delicious, divine Dornian smell; pheromones, musk, sweat, blood and semen drenched the air he breathed in as he shoved his face enthusiastically into the white furred gap between those ample, firm curves — the stench that blanketed Dorn from all their active and illicit activities seemingly not at all the deterrent that perhaps it should have been. Instead Perturabo reveled in it, a husky, metallic moan exhaled into that patch of hair, the hoses bolted to the bones of his face shoved hard against the bulges of Dorn’s chest as it seemed Perturabo was intent to get as close as physically possible as he rubbed and sniffed there like an animal, all the grace of his mechanical elegance cast aside without a second thought as he lowered himself to such a primitive state.

And then, just as oddly as he had done once before, Perturabo began to lick Dorn with an initiative that went far beyond a simple gesture, lips and tongue and teeth sinking into that impossibly soft, warm fluff — clearly not content to simply taste that complex mixture from even a tiny distance through smell alone.

 


 

As Perturabo began to settle in—in quite a filthy way—Dorn took the actions as a victory for himself. It might not have been quite what he expected, but the most important thing, as it stood, was getting his Brother’s mind to lock onto something else than what had caused all this in the first place.

Even if that meant being subjected to this salacious attention as his breath hitched briefly the moment that Perturabo began to lick and nibble upon his chest and into hair that had been covered in whatever manner of fluids that were not wiped off of him when he'd been transferred onto his bed.

The grip around Perturabo’s skull tightened in time with that stuttered breathing — no longer so metered while he felt flesh, metal and peripherals alike against his skin where Perturabo was focusing his attention and everywhere the cloak was separated between them, giving Perturabo unfettered access to exactly what he wanted.

In turn, Dorn set his chin against the top of Perturabo’s head, letting his beard tickle the areas where metal met flesh.

He puffed his chest out, encouraging his Brother to keep his head firmly between his rock-hard pecs while, he too, was beginning to open his mouth to take in the smell, drinking it in as much of that scent signature as he possibly could in this position.

From this vantage, he had the added chance to take in the particularly metallic notes that wafted off of machinery and cables. All the while, he kept his eyes fully open and focused on those particularly active metal tendrils arcing from the back of Perturabo’s head that Dorn continued to hold in a tight grip.

 


 

Perturabo groaned his muffled approval as that chiseled, dense chest was puffed out and pressed into his vicious tongue-lashing, his enormous cabled head bobbing softly as he continued to lick and chew on Dorn’s incredibly abundant chest hair that covered his flesh like a thick, warm blanket.

It was incredible; both in how much of it there actually was and how unlike any other hair that Perturabo had ever touched, it felt; more like the soft, fluffy pelt of a beast evolved to withstand a brutally harsh climate than the wiry body hair of a man. Of course, such adaptations made sense considering that was exactly the environment Dorn survived and likely thrived in, but while it was practical — that still didn’t explain how or why his Brother’s body was covered in it; from the thicker patches like the one he was currently indulging in, to the sleek, tiny underfur that felt like satin beneath his hands.

It was magical—all of it—and Perturabo was entirely captivated by the discovery. All Primarchs had their individual biological anomalies, but Dorn’s felt as if they’d been custom made for his personal enjoyment.

Chills rippled down the back of his neck at the sniffing sounds Dorn made, along with the exhales of breath along exposed patches of his pierced scalp that also contributed to the delicious sensations overtaking his worrisome mind now. Even his OS had appeared to settle down though it never ceased in its own form of partaking in all that was Dorn, the cables that were held in such a tight grasp amongst the comparatively lifeless cords they nestled within rising now, their certain increased activity in the immediate future now heralded by the one that always appeared to be the boldest as it coiled up, dragging a cold, sleek tip over the top of Dorn’s hand.

 


 

There was a brief pause in all that Dorn was actively partaking in from the exact moment that cool metal slid over the back of his hand that, at this point, had slightly sunken into Perturabo’s… 'hair', allowing Dorn to experience the sensations of several different types of cords between the webbing of his fingers and thumb.

With his mouth still open, Jacobson’s organ engaged, he continued his heavy panting as that specialized sensory organ gave him the wealth of information from all the metals and their strange casings, down to the industrial oils within his grasp. This was something new, not already included in all the other smells permeating their surroundings and on the both of them from their illicit union earlier.

There was a flick of his head as his gaze was drawn toward that forward cable and he found himself wearing a sly smirk. Slowly moving his head side to side, he made sure to delight Perturabo’s scalp with the touch of his fine beard hair before leaning down towards his hand that was currently being investigated.

All before exhaling a hot breath against that exploratory tendril, darkened eyes glinting in the light as he stared, awaiting the reaction to follow.

 


 

Perturabo tilted his head back, releasing Dorn’s chest fur from his mouth just enough and just long enough to moan as the shudder that coursed through him this time was much stronger and more overt. A twitch could be felt from the mass resting where their lower bodies were pressed together, that jolt likely discernible even through the thick cloth between them as it rippled strongly enough to cause his thighs to quake. In tandem, that tendril wriggled and writhed before Dorn’s eyes, appearing truly alive and thoroughly pleased with the attention being bestowed upon it.

And within, Perturabo’s OS sang with blips and chirps that softly accompanied the stream of terms that filled the virtual output screen in a unbroken chunk of endless characters.

Perturabo’s fingers curled slightly as he pressed them into Dorn’s back and pushed his scalp urgently against the hands gripping the apparatus affixed to his skull.

This moment was dreamy and still, gentle in comparison to their heated, aggressive actions throughout this monumental day; yet the sensuality of it all was surprisingly enjoyable to him now — a softness he’d never envisioned.

 


 

Though Dorn could feel a reaction that was as immediate as he assumed it would be, he controlled himself by not allowing himself to fall deeper into further actions that that twitch might have provoked otherwise. He was also highly aware of all points of contact with his body and his Brother’s even though he attempted to not dwell upon that fact.

As enticing as it was.

This had a purpose after all, and that was the drive to ensure that Perturabo’s mind had gone to wander in a wholly different direction.

Yet, Dorn knew he was the cause all the same, in one way or another.

After a moment and with Dorn shifting to press his leg around his Brother all the more tightly, his hand engaged in the complete opposite by becoming gentler, loosening his harsh grip so he could bring his hand up to lightly stroke the singular strand floating in front of him.

Those deep breaths came back, slow and steady; calm.

So very calm.

“You are safe here, Brother.”

Dorn spoke his words slowly and carefully, all the while knowing full well how ridiculous such a statement was. That sentiment had been extended towards him this entire time after all — even if that safety was a relative idea, yet Dorn knew there were no other dangers arriving.

So why not turn it back to Perturabo?

Especially within this gentle, continuing stillness.

 


 

Perturabo grunted as he felt Dorn’s leg squeezing around him, the strain caused by the overextension needed for that shorter limb to wrap over his huge form doing apparently nothing to weaken the power of that thick, muscular thigh. But the tight vice grip to his cybernetic conduits loosened to something much more gentle though he didn’t seem as though he’d ever minded the pressure Dorn sometimes placed against those sheathed tendrils — despite them likely interfacing with if not outright penetrating his brain.

When Dorn began to pet the most assertive cable, however — it pressed back and wiggled into that touch with such enthusiasm that it appeared as if it were not only living, but a separate entity outside Perturabo himself though it was clear that he could control it as well as all the others when the notion struck him; and felt no small volume of sensation from them. It was a fact proven beyond any doubt by his reaction to the larger cable he’d plugged into himself within his ship — an external cable at that, one that wasn’t bolted into his skull.

Yet the little being hovering and bouncing into Dorn’s touch seemed compellingly and uniquely sentient — a dangerous mindset that could so easily be projected upon by the observer; to grant unproven humanity where it did not exist.

And the moment that Dorn made that preposterous claim that he was safe, was the moment that Perturabo should have finally dropped all pretense of the strange agreeability he'd been demonstrating since he’d lain beside Dorn — but he did not, a wordless groan breaking through the silence instead.

His hold around Dorn’s body tightened, but he stopped his ceaseless licking at last, so that he could turn his head and rest it against Dorn’s chest, the curved iron cylinder welded to his cheek slotting between Dorn’s bulging pectorals so perfectly it was as if they were designed to interface. He hugged his Brother with immense strength. But it was not a show of power nor any attempt to bring harm.

He simply couldn’t bear to let go…

Can…” Perturabo choked, eyes slowly rolling open at last though he saw nothing all the same. Nor could he cough up the words he’d been thinking all this time though he wasn’t sure what prevented him from speaking.

 

 

καλός κἀγαθός_

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καλός κἀγαθός_

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καλός κἀγαθός_

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καλός κἀγαθός_

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>._

 

 


 

There was a delighted expression gleaming in Dorn’s eyes any time he had the pleasure of interacting with one of the myriad of living cables that his Brother possessed, especially growing fond of those that were attached to his skull. There was something about the obvious curiosity of such a thing that he couldn’t help but be enchanted.

Despite visions that would tell him how dangerous said cables truly were, and how he recalled what had happened the moment that his Brother had plugged himself in to a much greater interface.

Who knew what the future would be able to hold?

Whatever it may be, it never seemed to deter Dorn — in any meaningful way at least, as he continued to touch and stroke all the while, treating this cable as if it were some needy feline bumping its head against him in exchange for some sort of petting.

Of course he indulged it.

Just as he indulged in the sensations of his Brother’s lips, tongue and teeth against his furred chest, slicking more moisture there than the sweat that gathered at points in addition to whatever wayward fluids had gotten there by other means.

When Perturabo stopped however, so too did his ministrations, relaxing his leg a bit more before turning his head downwards. Of course he couldn’t see anything given how securely his Brother was pressed to his chest, but the action was done anyway.

Can?”

Dorn pressed, voice gentle and surprisingly soft considering how he had raised his tone earlier and spoken with a far more stern edge, to try to snap Perturabo from his cyclic thoughts earlier.

 


 

The curled, banded black metal strand only behaved more like a creature the more Dorn rewarded that behavior, the slick silvery tip pushing into the offered touches with an urging that looked nearly like a compulsion to the viewer — proving that regardless of what it was that genuinely drove that tentacle's responses, it reacted positively to attention.

And if it was solely Perturabo’s active control alone, he sometimes—but not always—played coy about it, pretending that he was disconnected from the situation entirely. It wouldn’t have been a bad strategy if so, allowing him to seek Dorn’s affection without addressing it whatsoever. And the way that shudder slinked down the entire length of that cable, to ripple down Perturabo’s neck and spine proved that he benefited from it no matter the truth, despite how obviously he was trying to hold that very reflex back.

But as he lied there, he was still of the mind to let Dorn continue to interact with it for several quiet seconds in what was likely a blend of enjoyment and deliberate contemplation.

He’d tensed up somewhat when Dorn had urged him to speak further but even as the time ticked by, he didn’t feel as closed off as might have been expected of him.

The aura surrounding him was conflicted.

“Can…” Perturabo uttered again, then sighed deeply. The phrasing he’d already locked himself into with that single misplaced word made the entire situation even more preposterous. He was a Daemon Primarch with his captive thoroughly subdued and at his whims. Why had he approached the topic as if he needed Dorn’s approval…?

A grunt came next, followed by another gap of complete, lingering silence. Yet that cybernetic cable kept stroking Dorn’s skin.

“We should stay here, just like this… for a while longer.” Perturabo said at last — in the most disaffected, emotionless tone he could muster.

 


 

Most of Dorn’s movements had long since stilled, especially as the tense pauses from his Brother just made this situation drag on and on yet Dorn was exceedingly patient as he waited for his Brother to finally speak.

That cable was given another fond stroke, mirroring his actions to what it was doing to him, but not for long as that hand soon slipped towards the side of Perturabo’s face — the side that wasn’t currently pressed into his chest fluff.

Perturabo wanted to stay?

At least for a little while…

He did not have intentions of immediately setting forth to Medrengard? In whatever manner it was decided upon that such would happen.

Dorn took a slow breath, but despite trying to show how he was still the perfect picture of calm with his breathing, his heartbeats betrayed the uptick of something that was no longer simply at rest.

A moment later, Dorn tucked his chin against his neck, tilting downward more until he could kiss the top of Perturabo’s ridged head, that hand now reaching to cup at his Brother’s jawline to stroke along it firmly.

“Of course we can do that, Perturabo.”

 


 

A low, barely audible moan came from between his lips, eyes nearly closing as he felt Dorn’s lips against his head, evidence that perhaps all of his biomechanical augments were sensitive to some degree — or perhaps it was simply a referred sensation. Either way, Perturabo apparently felt that touch all the same.

His huge frame shuddered in Dorn’s arms as that simple but affirming declaration came. Perturabo couldn’t help but resent how easily he could make such a decision. That didn’t stop him from using it to his advantage, though as it was what he wanted to hear all along.

It was beyond belief that he’d actually engaged in sexual activity with Dorn, an impossible desire festering in his hearts for thousands of years; the source of endless fantasies that while mostly bad for the object of his lust, had fueled Perturabo’s thoughts and actions in far more ways than he’d likely ever admit. But it really had happened, and would continue to happen now — regardless of Dorn’s willingness to allow it. Despite his selfishness though, Dorn was alarmingly agreeable, and while Perturabo was intent on returning to Medrengard and knew that he’d have to disembark soon regardless…

There was something so extraordinarily human about being able to lie in this simple bed with his lover after their coupling; in a state of repose, locked away from the world like the protagonists of an ancient story as old as time, retold in some form across countless civilizations. A universal cliche, and while Perturabo had never expected to like something so ‘meaningless’ this much, he didn’t want it to come to an end.

And he’d been annoyed with himself for waking Dorn up in the first place. If he’d just held himself together and remained quiet and still, Perturabo could have stayed right where he was without a care nor need to address any of this at all.

“I don’t… really sleep.” He said, unprompted — and while it was an uncomplicated and direct statement, he surely was not only referring to the natural endurance of a Primarch.

 


 

Dorn’s expression softened further, touch growing far more gentle as if Perturabo was now the precious thing that could be shattered in an instant if he wasn’t careful. Truth be told, that was how Dorn had been feeling several times by this point just in knowing how easy it could be to break Perturabo down.

But Dorn was not interested in plots or schemes, they had never been his style, nor did he ever have any intention to lie to his Brother, as he had never done so before at any point. And right now, all he wanted to do was nothing more than bask in the feeling of being wrapped around Perturabo and the likewise happening to him.

While the thoughts slowly came forward and solidified around this turn of events, he quieted that part of his mind in order to not dwell upon the matter too much.

He wanted to fully enjoy the now.

“Even if you cannot sleep, Brother, just… rest… Close your eyes, hold onto me and just… let go for a little while.” There was a glance given to that tendril that was still so close to his face. He tilted his head forwards to rub against it before speaking softly, almost to the degree that Perturabo wouldn’t be able to hear him, as his words seemed to be directed to something else.

“You’ll let him rest too, won’t you? Lay on me and ease yourself.”

Dorn still wasn’t entirely sure if such a mechanism could understand him, or why he was even trying to communicate, but he had seen evidence that there was something strange amidst those tendrils and his Brother’s alike. It was likely foolish to attempt such a thing, but those words had left his mouth before he truly assessed the facts before addressing it.

 


 

A long breath was Perturabo’s response to that calm encouragement, the situation somehow too heavy for him to formulate a genuine response to — yet the relief was tangible as the stress melted from his massive form immediately, the tension held within his tight pose and huge bulk softening with Dorn’s words.

He snuggled against the soft fur lining Dorn’s chest as he now appeared to be settling in genuinely now, as he was granted the permission to do as he truly wanted all along — not knowing, incapable of understanding why he needed confirmation in the first place. It was something stabbed far deeper into him than the simplicity it presented itself as, leaving him bewildered; a sense deepened further still by how grateful he felt to be able to indulge in this moment.

It had begun in the instant Dorn had rested his head upon him within the confines of that chair, increased as he watched over his Brother while he slept during his tending to the area, troubled his mind when he’d loomed over Dorn’s resting form for several minutes, continued to tug at his mind when he’d sat upon the floor and nearly overwhelmed him entirely by the time he’d finally given in and climbed into this bed with Dorn. And for all the mulling he’d done over the situation he’d grown no closer to a real answer.

His entire system reverberated with a bittersweet ache as he claimed this thoroughly mundane victory at last, still unsure why it mattered at all — but aware more than ever that it did matter. Greatly.

He swallowed down the building saliva in his throat, squeezed his eyes shut and cradled Dorn in his embrace, an unexpected wave of dizziness washing over him that took him by surprise.

The HUD that he still saw and always would regardless of his physicality grew hazy, the fuzz of green and teal lights breaking up for a nanosecond, scattered against the black, the chiming that accompanied those glitched readouts high pitched; quiet — small.

And the without accompanying the strange events within manifested just as oddly as the cable that practically bounced with excitement before Dorn’s face discharged that overly energetic motion with a small wriggle before draping itself over Dorn’s shoulder and tucking itself against the curve of his neck.

“I…” Perturabo struggled again, “have not had a single moment such as this in the past ten thousand years…”

It was true, despite there being extremely long periods of time in which the form of that which was once called Perturabo never appeared to move — though none would ever guess that to be so; and that those were actually the most active periods of his existence.

 


 

A small smile was given to the tendril that now was gently draping over his shoulder and settling against the crook of his neck. He felt it, that it seemed like his words were understood. Or did Perturabo just comply with the suggestion by inadvertently hearing it? Neither option truly answered his questions but he’d let it be for now while he redoubled his efforts to hold onto his Brother.

His hand slid down the side of Perturabo’s face and lower still until he reached his back, dipping his fingers along Perturabo’s spine.

That confession from his Brother felt like a downright crime but he believed it intrinsically as his own rest was haunted by all the things that he had to face, time and time again. Perturabo, on the other hand, had an isolation of a far different sort, doing whatever it was that Daemonic Primarchs did.

“Then indulge in this moment, dearest Brother.” Dorn whispered, this time meant to be heard far clearer than his earlier words. “And I shall rest alongside you…”

A pause before he spoke again; and though Perturabo could not see it, Dorn felt the stinging acid of tears that threatened to fall from the corners of his eyes — yet Dorn tried his damnedest to not shed such. His expression was still so gentle.

“In a manner that I have not done so in many millennia.”

To find such… peace

How was this even possible?

 


 

A sense of quietude engulfed Perturabo despite his negative mind and the innate urge to resist; Dorn’s soft, kindly treatment of him winning over his taciturn, self-defeating outlook in the end. It wasn’t that he didn’t want to allow it to happen, it was a matter of being poorly equipped in knowing how to accept it.

And that was likely why he’d been unable to grasp that illusive feeling on his own despite yearning for it as he’d held Dorn close while he slept.

Dearest Brother

Perturabo didn’t understand how Dorn viewed him with such charitability and fondness; and he frowned against the warmth pressed against his face — but he made no effort to rebuke Dorn as doing so wasn’t compelling enough to sacrifice the results he’d sought for it. That didn’t mean he approved though, voicing his opinion with a simple dry grunt just to be disagreeable — but without the conviction needed to take any real stance or derail the mood.

“So be it. Do you want to stay in this position…?” Perturabo asked in the same gruff tone, curious as he’d envisioned himself to be the one to hold Dorn all this time. Being where he was felt strange, not right, as Dorn was the one in a compromised state — and yet, that was as far as his ‘protest’ went, as being shoved into Dorn’s abundant, snowy chest hair was quite persuasive…

Though honestly, anywhere so close to Dorn was just fine.

 


 

"This position suits me just fine, Brother." Dorn spoke with that same soothing tone that was so different than the hard stoicism of earlier, as if he was trying to assuage Perturabo in every manner that he could think to muster in this moment.

That was why the touches continued too, the strokes against the side of Perturabo's face, down to his neck and soon settled against his Brother's back as he had done before.He trailed that path up and down, growing firmer at points and gentler at others.

A sensual, soothing motion.

For the both of them.

Deep breaths were taken and then slowly exhaled, shoulders slumping as if all the weight that had been building on him was suddenly let go at last; and he stilled his hand right where it fell, pressing his fingers against firm back muscles.

"Now rest…"

Now that everything had passed and all the tension had faded, it seemed like Dorn was ready to fall back in that state of pure repose once more.

So comfortable was he in his Brother's presence.

 


 

Another low, abrasive grunt was Perturabo’s seemingly disagreeable reply, but it was entirely incongruent with his reaction—or rather the lack thereof—as he laid there motionless in a manner that appeared nearly lazy; and made no effort at all to change their relative positions despite being the one to take on the ridiculous placement of being physically consoled.

His introverted personality and rancorous attitude had always made affection a genuine rarity, being engaged in any positive way something that had happened a precious few times in his life; and his extreme height ensured that his entire upper body in particular had never truly been indulged with the comfort of direct contact.

And he certainly wouldn't have possessed such a level of acuity then even if he had been more experienced, the cybernetic enhancements that perpetually consumed more and more of his flesh that might have been assumed to have dulled his capabilities by those less knowledgeable had in fact, increased his attunement to external feedback of all sorts — giving him a greater rather than lesser perception of all senses.

Including touch…

Somehow, this slow, serene moment was still overwhelming to him even after fucking Dorn raw with such acute haptic capabilities installed. The biggest difference was that it soothed him rather than fired him up…

“Very well…” Perturabo huffed out with a sharp exhale as he focused on those fingers that trailed down his form, body and mind alike basking in the luxurious, delicious sensations. The readouts within his HUD gave painstaking detail of each and every quality of what occurred, as always — yet the noises that came with that data still sounded so much smaller and brighter than usual though he couldn’t tell if it was fact or perceived changes, especially as those waves of dizziness were still happening now and then.

It didn’t alarm him as much as it should have, because it all felt so nice.

“You too,” Perturabo replied with what should have been the authority of an elder Brother at the very least, but his state of mind made that statement softer than intended as he snuggled his face into that soft, fuzzy chest that would be his pillow now, nestling the hose on the side of his cheek into the gap between Dorn's curving pecs. It made lying like this much more comfortable than would have ever been possible otherwise, as tilting his head to the side while lying down wasn’t something he’d been able to do even many years before taking his bionic replacements to the eventual extreme.

Though he didn't voice it, it was quite apparent that Perturabo was enjoying every bit of this.

 


 

That little grunt that was uttered by his Brother brought forth a laugh from Dorn. It was a sound that came from deep within his breast to the point that it was rumbling with vibration. Yet, instead of a brash sound coming out when it left his lips, it was soft and kind.

His Brother laying there, completely still other than that bit of movement to press further into his chest fur was more than enough of an indication of how Perturabo was feeling. There was no denying just how comfortable he was by not needing to actually move at all. And Dorn was certainly not going to stop him from enjoying this.

There was only a slight shift in his smile as he quickly understood that Perturabo surely had never gotten this sort of treatment much, if ever. He wasn’t sure of any the histories that Perturabo may have had with anyone else. Who would his Brother have given even a modicum of this kind of attention to?

Something about the thought made Dorn sad, but his own interactions recently changed that, regardless.

“Of course I will, Perturabo.”

That snuggling against his chest made him bring the hand that had been just idly stroking, return to the back of Perturabo’s head. His large fingers wrapped around Perturabo’s skull while he carded his fingers through various cables as if they really were hair, until that hand was finally stilled within them.

All the while, his other arm had finally wiggled free from their confines just so he could wrap it around his Brother and hug him tightly, as did the leg that was still wrapped around Perturabo’s leg to its limits due to his Brother’s much larger form.

All there was, was focused tension for just a few seconds as he hugged Perturabo to the best of all of his ability before everything suddenly went slack, all of that pressure just disappearing. Dorn then began to take slow and steady breaths, his eyes now shutting out the world around him, leaving him only with the sense of Perturabo against him.

Even his hearts began to resume slow steady beats.

Calm.

Comfortable.

 


 

How had it ever come to this?

Perturabo’s overactive cybermind continued as usual, the overclocked processing cycles perpetually working in the background and filling the edges of his HUD with strings of green even as he rested; and his natural fleshmind was nearly just as active — his base existence now experiencing pure thought at a rate that dwarfed even the expected limits of Primarch physiology. And yet, he was at rest here as it was all so much more peaceful than anything he had known in the last ten thousand years.

Admittedly, being detached from the Mainframe even while merged with Neo-Logos was far calmer in its own way despite the extreme uptick in physicality — to include the thick of combat he’d engaged in earlier. And being in what had now become his basic, most humanoid body was an order of magnitude removed from even that. With each ‘downgrade’ the nature of his existence itself changed into something more distilled, more simplified.

But still…

Still…

This was different than the shift experienced from changing states.

And deep down Perturabo was fully aware that this had everything to do with the soft warmth resting beside him that he had bitterly coveted for so very long, that he now held in his arms…

A low, idling sigh was pressed with iron resonance into the patch of snowy fur he had his face greedily buried in, the sense washing over him nearly idyllic as he let it take hold without resisting. There were no witnesses now.

Not even Dorn himself.

Though it was doomed to be transient and ephemeral, this period—for however long it lasted—was a disconnect from the realities that had claimed him millennia before this outcome became a possibility.

And while he didn’t truly dread returning to Medrengard, there was a feeling of strange disquiet that had been building in his chest as he’d been watching over Dorn earlier as he’d slept; blooming from a selfish want to enjoy this very situation before moving forward with the plan.

The fulfillment of a fantasy that had died so long ago, born from a simpler time when Perturabo—despite his technological augmentations having already begun even then—was far more man than machine; and his secret desires for Dorn were far more innocent.

At least, by comparison to how he was now.

At least, at first.

At least, before he’d felt the sting of rejection strike one too many times…

Oh, why did it feel so good to lie with Dorn like this, despite being nothing that one could call human anymore, those dreams for a different sort of future, long lost?

To Perturabo’s consternation, he did not know, anymore than he knew why lying here was so serene; as if time had slowed despite no longer needing sleep. The basics were obvious. But the reasons beyond were out of reach. Yet as much as the lack of answers bothered him, that was not enough to allow such to intrude on his victory. He had all the time in the world, after all

So for now, an intermission.

He closed his eyes and let his every perception be flooded by Dorn, breathing in the scent of soft skin and softer fur as he basked in the feeling of those thick, stocky limbs wrapping around him and listened carefully as he counted the syncopated multiple heart beats manually, even though his internal analysis fed him that same information with automatic precision.

 


 

It wasn’t long, it wasn’t long at all until every single vital sign that Dorn gave suggested that he had truly and deeply fallen asleep all over again, brought to a state of ease like he had been in before when he fell asleep against that strong, protective form that was his Brother after being thoroughly worn out.

His breathing evened out, a steady cycle of inhales and exhales, his hearts steadied and slow as he allowed himself to let go.

There was no danger here.

That was something that he believed with all his very being.

Anything that would harm him would have to contend with the largest threat in the room. The threat that was currently resting his face against Dorn’s chest and assumedly finding a comfort there that Dorn would not be privy to witnessing the moment he had let himself rest once more.

Once again…

There were no nightmares nipping at the corners of Dorn’s dreamscape, no manifestations of Daemons that bit and clawed at his doubts and fears that plagued him deeply. It was empty; a blissful quiet that meant more to him than anyone could have even begun to understand.

Except, perhaps, Perturabo.

Oh, how they would need to make up for such…

Lost time.

 


 

 

καλός κἀγαθός_

καλός κἀγαθός_

καλός κἀγαθός_

 

 

Perturabo’s breathing was slow and steady too; deep, intense inhales that endeavored not to claim oxygen but to filter that very air through the stained and sweaty fluff that should have made the process difficult as he all but suffocated in it — nose and mouth shoved as far as possible into the patch he could reach, with his cheek pressed so hard between the large curves of Dorn’s broad chest. But that was not a hindrance, it was the objective. His senses of smell and taste alike taking in the delicious treat of that chest hair and the mixture of substances that had soaked in there.

It was hypnotic, alluring; and as soothing as the calmness that had settled in all around them. punctuated by the steady, slow and powerful cadence of Dorn’s twin heartbeats.

Perturabo nuzzled his face against the crevasse he had moved into, the cold iron hose welded to his cheekbone sliding between the nook it had been nestled inside of. It was truly consternating, how easily it seemed Dorn had let himself go again, genuinely drifting off once more into a deep and peaceful sleep despite being caught within the clutches of his greatest enemy.

While it did truly offend Perturabo’s ego and bruise his pride to some degree, he couldn’t truly bring himself to believe that Dorn did not take him seriously after all that had happened; nor was there any refuting the genuine trust and responsibility that had been handed to him—which he resented as a Daemon Primarch and Dorn’s adversary—despite having decided at multiple junctions of his own volition, that he would care for Dorn this day.

It was all so complex and convoluted, Perturabo’s dual mindedness coming as a great surprise to him and yet none of this was important enough to intrude on this moment; and despite the grand opportunity granted to him here, he would do nothing more than bathe in the bliss of the most important of victories.

καλός κἀγαθός…

καλός κἀγαθός.

 

 

καλός κἀγαθός_

καλός κἀγαθός_

καλός κἀγαθός_

 

 

It was like a mantra; that divine, all important maxim filling him with comfort as he repeated it — proof that his Olympian psyche was still the basis of his very being no matter how much of that being he replaced with cybernetics.

Or the OS that ran those parts of himself, his own consciousness digitized and automated, painstakingly coded to carry out vital functions.

 

 

Μεράκι OS.

 

 

Perturabo sighed.

 

 

καλός κἀγαθός_

καλός κἀγαθός_

καλός κἀγαθός!

>._

 

 

καλός κἀγαθός.

His muse. His philosophy. His goal.

Perturabo hugged Dorn closer to him, holding the tension in his arms.

Oiled moisture began to leak from his eyes; too thin to retain, to be absorbed by that soft fur as he cried in solitude…

Chapter 24: Off Course

Summary:

A meticulously charted navigation route, now useless; and forever diverted.

Chapter Text


 

How much time had passed since he had drifted off into this tranquility? From seconds came minutes, then hours, once again; all the while Dorn was left in such a calm state — like nothing he had ever experienced before with the only knowledge of such being the first time he had fallen asleep in Perturabo’s arms just minutes before.

Now, he was blissfully like that again.

Nothing was able to awaken him prematurely this time, now that Perturabo had joined him. Instead, the only thing happened was him simply holding his Brother tighter, perhaps subconsciously. This gesture only seemed to occur when Perturabo began to get worked up, or cried against his chest, but it happened every time without fail.

It was as if Dorn knew, though he was never partially alert like he'd been earlier. That did not matter somehow, as everything he did was for his Brother even now, to keep him reassured.

Especially as, without fail, he seemed to have a knack for calming Perturabo in the end, no matter how much of a monster he actually was. He simply had a way with his actions and his words, regardless if it was incendiary against Perturabo or not. There was a measure of comfort there that should not have been.

And that comfort shared is what brought him his own rest, until his body was what woke him up at last, greeting him with that faintest tickling sting of pain.

He stirred in his slumber, finding himself in much the same position; yet he continued offering his Brother solace in ways that Dorn knew he'd likely never experienced before. And while Dorn could never know the full extent of the effect he had on Perturabo, he knew that it was profound each and every time.

The physical injuries, outwardly and internal had all but healed at this point but that didn’t stop that deep ache, reminding him how close he had been pushed to the limit.

He began to unhook his leg from around his Brother to stretch it out while trying not to tangle himself in the thick, heavy cloak that surrounded his body.

He was still here.

Still alive.

And his Brother was still here too, pressed against his breast, being cradled close as if, somehow, Perturabo was the most fragile thing on this dusty planet. Perhaps there was merit to that fleeting thought, as he took a deep breath, letting out the softest grunt. Eyes opened only to close again as soon as he stopped shifting around.

They could lay like this for just a little longer.

Right?

 


 

καλός κἀγαθός.

Perturabo’s brow furrowed; and he tensed up briefly as he felt Dorn shift. Even with his eyes closed he discerned that his Brother had woken up at last, something confirmed when Dorn removed his leg from around his much larger body, feeling Dorn then stretch that leg out as he worked through the stiffness due to maintaining a singular position for so long.

He continued to lie there in stillness and silence as he watched the telling yet still sedate vital signs of a more alert but likely still drowsy Dorn flicker through his HUD in dim green; respiration and pulse increasing by nearly 30% according to those readouts in the last few seconds — but despite this, his Brother did not appear ready to rise yet.

Perturabo didn’t mind this one bit, as every second spent in this highly coveted transitional state between his strategic maneuvers made at Dorn's expense would be claimed — no matter if years were to pass in this way.

Time was meaningless to him.

Most everything was meaningless to him.

Save but one thing.

 

 

καλός κἀγαθός.

….

   ….

      ….

>._

 

 

Perturabo pushed a soft grunt through gritted teeth and tightened his grip around Dorn’s lower back before giving him a long, strong squeeze. Then he nuzzled his face against the warm, enjoyable curves of Dorn's chest that had been his pillow these many hours, the quadrigeminal strands amidst the cords attached to his scalp also joining in this sudden, impromptu session of snuggling that Dorn’s stirring had provoked. They began to snake outward, and rubbed their rounded cool tips all along Dorn’s upper torso and shoulders.

 


 

Dorn knew something for certain — he did not want to actually get up and move away. Nor did he want to dislodge his Brother’s comfortable position lying against his chest nor stop him from continuing to nestle deeply into the thick patch of fur there.

It was a heavenly state that he found himself in.

All the while he was fighting off the dread of knowing that something would change eventually even if he had little idea of what exactly would transpire when this moment of quietude came to a close. Though Dorn did trust his Brother in some sense of the word—as if he hadn’t trusted him, he wouldn’t have fallen asleep in such an unprotected state—but, Dorn wasn’t foolish in the end.

What was the future to bring? He had seen those broadcasted visions that were diabolical in nature; yet was that to be the result, or would there be something different that was now rising to the forefront? Even after being transported to whatever that home was, what would become of him? What would Perturabo do?

Dorn did not worry that he would be mentally broken, nor did he worry that his death would be the outcome of going to Perturabo’s strange world with that vacuous sun. Yet, he knew that something he was unprepared for would happen, after being taken away from this planet that he had isolated himself upon for who knew how many millennia at this point.

These thoughts were the reasons why he remained in the same position he was in currently, aside from the movement of his leg once the cramping became far too much to ignore, and he needed to shake off the stiffness of it.

Faint remnants of their union assailed his senses and he took shorter, shallower breaths to prevent getting too lost in the pheromones that were exuded between the both of them at all times. But that was one reason to end this comfortable moment and break his position, as Dorn felt he needed to properly clean himself up.

How thoughtful it was of his Brother to wrap him up inside his cloak, to ensure that none of those fluids ruined the hide and fur covered bed they currently rested upon. The realization that now hit him, brought a slight smile upon his lips — that Perturabo would be so…conscientious and show such decency, to ensure that Dorn’s living area would remain relatively unsullied.

Another question at the back of his mind.

What would happen to Ætos Dios?

A quiet grunt escaped from him as he opened his eyes again to take in the dim light of their surroundings, only to be greeted by those cables that began to rub all over his chest and shoulders. Despite himself, Dorn let out a deep, throaty chuckle — voice register deepened from the dredges of sleep that still fully clung to him.

Twice in so many hours…

Twice had he fallen asleep.

His hand lifted to lightly stroke one of the cables, as one might pet a cat — a cat that was very insistent on attention when its Master awoke.

 


 

Perturabo smirked with amusement, the soft noises and small motions reinforcing what he’d already known—that Dorn had woken up—but added additional context: that even so, his Brother was not in any great hurry to actually rise. With that confirmed, Perturabo became more willing to interact as provoking his Brother into bringing this time to an abrupt close was not on his agenda.

An agenda he was proving that he was also in no hurry to put into action, any more than he wished to rise from this bed.

A soft sigh was breathed out into Dorn’s ample chest hair, this time open-mouthed, warm and humid — as it was not so subdued an act now, and the way he rubbed his face all over his Brother’s chest also grew more enthusiastic; outright affection rather than the careful maneuvers of a man trying to prevent disturbing his lover’s sleep.

He’d been harboring concerns while Dorn rested, that he may wake in a completely different frame of mind, no longer so amiable and docile, to be trapped in the arms of his nemesis after being disconnected from the situation for a time. Yet it appeared to be a needless concern as he was still agreeable, already petting at the eager strands that vied for his attention, each touch sending a delightful shiver down the back of Perturabo’s neck as the energy from those sensations trailed down the full length of whichever lucky cable had won Dorn’s favor.

Should he speak? Perturabo wondered, apprehensive that even a small greeting might set things in a much more hurried motion, leaving this warm bed empty in the end.

Why were even the simplest of things complicated to him now, when he was the most advanced entity in all the known worlds?

It was consternating and maybe even a little embarrassing to be trapped by such indecisiveness.

But that wasn’t enough to convince him into taking action, either.

 


 

Dorn felt the smile that was on his face widen a bit when he heard more sounds coming from his Brother, paired with the nuzzling that was pushed into his chest even at this moment as much as that hot breath tickled over his skin.

He felt so rested, surprisingly enough. Finding sleep was one thing, a gargantuan accomplishment on its own after so many decades, centuries and beyond — but to find solace in the rest he undertook was another matter entirely.

There was a satisfaction that Dorn had nothing to truly compare it to for these last couple of millennia.

Could he count on this in the future? Dorn wasn’t so certain of the answer, as he was more than aware of how much even this moment delayed the inevitable that Perturabo had so plainly laid out in front of him with as little deviation as possible. Yet Dorn knew that he had altered the course of their relationship forever.

And with that, came those plans as well.

Though his mind wandered with too many thoughts, he continued to give each of the tendrils their fair share of attention. None of them were left alone without some touch for too long, trailing down the entire length from tip to where it mingled in with the rest of Perturabo’s ‘hair’.

All the while his other arm moved in small motions against Perturabo’s back, making sure that Perturabo himself also was given some direct attention as he began to stretch his body out, moving from being so compact around his Brother.

"Mm…"

It was a gentler sound, barely more than a breath now.

 


 

A long gruff sigh not unlike the idling of a motor left running came from Perturabo’s wide throat as he turned his head slightly, causing the hose bolted to the side of his face to shift, pressing its metal curve against the broader curve of flesh it intruded upon. It was not cold, having had many hours to steal the warmth from the crevasse that concealed it.

Perturabo remained where he was, able to breathe better now as he didn’t have his face entirely buried in his Brother’s fur but otherwise he stayed put, enjoying the attention being lavished upon the tetrad of cables that seemed almost as separate individuals in their competing for Dorn’s affections.

But for Perturabo himself, it didn’t seem to matter as much which of the four was blessed as long as Dorn was touching him in some fashion, each one of those cables appearing to provide him with equally satisfying feedback and provoking a flurry of quiet, satisfied noises.

Yet deep down there was a discontent in Perturabo’s chest that he couldn’t separate himself from, an ache that only grew over time despite all efforts to ignore its nagging worry as it chewed into him.

With some hesitancy, he spoke at last—knowing that it could not be put off forever—though spoiling the quiet with conversation in any manner was a form of mourning, and admitting defeat. But in doing so, he was taking the initial step toward shattering the idyllic scene he would have held onto forever, had it been possible. But as it was not, he deduced that being the first to do so would give him the only advantage there was to claim. It wasn’t even Dorn himself that was his opponent here, which irked him further.

“How are you feeling?” Perturabo asked, but it was not the concerned question of an older Brother. It sounded almost resentful, though this was not at all mirrored by his body language as he made no attempt to put any physical distance between them nor show that any advances made by Dorn were unwanted.

 


 

All things soon came to an end, and Dorn reluctantly ceased stroking those overtly curious tendrils that, while being a part of Perturabo as a whole, seemed to have their own set of personalities. Some of ‘them’ more shy than others, yet all wanting the same attention that Dorn provided. It truly was a curious notion that began to settle in the back of Dorn’s mind, if what seemed like genuine separation of actions made these tendrils far more sentient than he'd given credit for.

Perturabo could control them, that much had been obvious, especially when they had been on his Brother’s transport ship, yet…

Dorn didn’t know if he liked dwelling particularly too long on the idea, even if it didn’t change things. Perturabo was expressly unique in many ways that Dorn never had to even consider before. Not until that hulking form landed upon this dusty, isolated planet.

The question posed was what drew him out of his thoughts and he could immediately pick up the resentful edge to his tone, as if his Brother was acknowledging that they could not stay suspended in this space they were in forever.

What now?

With a slow inhale of breath, he steeled himself before finally speaking, tilting his head down to look at Perturabo still so comfortably resting where he was.

“I am better. The injuries I have sustained throughout the past day have healed, the aches I feel beyond some stiffness that is expected, has also subsided to an acceptable degree.” There was a pause, as if considering his mental condition, as well as what they had just done. “I feel… well rested… and calm.”

 


 

Perturabo was eerily still as he prepared for Dorn to speak, and he maintained that state as his Brother relayed his condition; not moving, not breathing — nothing within him at all in motion, as if he were a machine that had been switched off.

There was a sense of apprehension that had blanketed the space, a negative air that had descended upon this little corner of the galaxy, thick and pervasive as Perturabo’s gloominess overtook him. It was an unfortunate double-mindedness, as bringing Dorn here to recover had always been a part of the plan even long before Dorn himself realized what he’d had in mind — as unexpectedly protective as such a mindset was.

And wholly contradictory.

All things Perturabo was unwilling to properly examine openly, though his advanced mental capacity had analyzed everything in the background in real time; and he’d been dwelling on everything that had transpired and all the future implications that built upon these issues in the hours that had passed while Dorn slept…

Yet at the core, Dorn’s recovery was vital and something that Perturabo was relieved to confirm. An inconvenient as it all was.

He felt those deep brown and perpetually judging eyes upon him, envisioning their stare before he finally raised his head at last to meet them with a look of his own. Yet for all the effort put into this moment before it occurred, there was a profound hurt resonating in that cold blue gleam that hardening his expression did precious little to conceal.

“Good,” Perturabo growled out disagreeably, as if he was offended by that fact.

In what world would Perturabo ever be pleased to hear that Dorn was in good condition? But he was, and there would have been no point in pretending otherwise, right now especially though, as he’d been the one that had initiated this downtime for Dorn’s benefit in the first place.

And as unfair as it was, in the strangest twist of all — he was perhaps more unhappy to hear that Dorn was well off than he’d ever been, simply because it signaled that time was running out.

That wounded glint reflecting in his metallic gaze only seemed to deepen as he stared into Dorn’s eyes, a chasm that had opened up and threatened to swallow him whole, ironically more dire now than the genuine devastation he’d wrought upon this planet without a care whatsoever.

“I—”

What?

Took care of your ship while you rested? Watched over you as you slept? Protected you all this time?

There was nothing to be said. So Perturabo said nothing more, leaving that opening awkwardly unfinished.

 


 

There was a brief moment in Dorn’s gaze, as if he realized that he might have been far too honest in his words that relayed that he was doing quite well, his body having had the time to fully repair itself. That quick assessment was one he had made while still in the process of rousing his entire body to wakefulness.

It was there, revealed in watchful dark hazel eyes, that he noticed a certain edge to Perturabo’s gaze and those pale blue shimmers showed more of his Brother’s mind than even those visions did, visions that had assailed him over and over.

He saw that all-consuming hurt.

That sight alone brought his hearts to heel, a painful clenching felt in both of them at the same time, so much so that a breath was forced out of him and he had to blink a few times to get a hold of himself.

While he couldn’t figure out the full cause of why his Brother seemed so pained despite their moment of peace, he had a good idea of the various situations and causes that had forced Perturabo to act so much different that before.

Everything that had happened, everything that occurred from the first moment Perturabo made planetfall had not gone according to plan. Dorn did not experience any of what he had expected from his Brother, a Brother that hated him and had endeavored to annihilate him after all this time and Perturabo… Perturabo found out he could not finish the job.

Truthfully…

Dorn had nothing left to give. He did not feel as if he had anything more remaining within, anything substantial beyond those words and actions that had somehow stymied Perturabo’s end goal. What had been meant for some manner of Ascension no doubt, with the last mortal aspect of Perturabo’s psyche finally destroyed, his Brother discovered couldn’t actually go through with it in the end despite his long sought victory being a foregone conclusion.

Regardless of his destination ultimately being Medrengard, a place he called lovely — Dorn had meant what he said, even in the most unhinged of ways that such a thing must have sounded. If Dorn had influenced this outcome, could he somehow influence what Medrengard was? What it could become?

One night, just one night had unraveled so much and…

Dorn was done fighting.

So long had he been gone from his sons, gone from his Father, gone from the intergalactic conflict and gone from the recent memories of Terrans and others. After millennia, the Praetorian of Terra was no more, not in his eyes. He was no longer worthy of such a title, just as he felt unworthy to handle the Voice of Terra, an artifact that still remained upon the central console of the Ætos Dios.

Dorn didn’t think he had anymore purpose in this life.

But then…

That spark, that sensation from earlier.

There had to be a reason for it.

Did his Brother feel it too? Did he feel comfortable enough to ask Perturabo that question? Dorn was uncertain of the answer, but there had to be some sort of reason. With how their reunion had turned out, despite all odds —  a decisive final battle that should have ended in bloodshed with his Brother the sole victor, here they were.

Changing… Changed.

Could a Primarch lost to Chaos be brought back? Did Dorn think himself deserving or capable of even attempting that? He was not so sure. These years in seclusion dredged up many feelings of not being so sure of himself.

Perturabo must have been struggling with these thoughts too, these sensations and worries; and this was why he lashed out and acted so unresponsive, despite not wanting any of it to stop either.

They both

“It's alright, Perturabo. You need not explain yourself.”

…We're a broken people.

 


 

Perturabo’s forehead wrinkled, his thick black eyebrows nearly touching as apprehension morphed his expression — due to registering a brief pause in Dorn’s vital signs that flickered through his HUD. He was immediately uncomfortable though he had no real logical reason for his suspicions, feeling exposed by that strange reaction as if Dorn could somehow discern his thoughts on some level.

Maybe that wasn’t as unreasonable as it seemed on the surface though, what might have once been attributed to his innate paranoia was justified by the way Dorn truly caught glimpses of things that he should have never been able to tap into.

But those unexplained abilities aside, Perturabo knew the true issue at the heart of everything was the fact that he was losing his grasp on himself; his plans, his goals, his motivations — so quickly challenged on an existential level and with such ease that it was truly terrifying to him despite being an entity that should have been entirely removed from such weaknesses.

A huffed, disagreeable breath was pressed from between his lips as he stared harshly into that handsome face that expressed far more understanding than Perturabo deserved, which frustrated him further still as the words that followed confirmed that sentiment.

And served as further evidence that Dorn either somehow knew things he should not, or could intuitively deduce the conflict in Perturabo’s mind — and he was not certain which of these things disturbed him more.

Yet it changed nothing.

And he reminded himself of that.

Time was running short, which was the one thing he could not escape now, and lamentably as much as he’d thoroughly indulged in the moment he’d found himself in, he’d not been able to do what he’d wanted most — longed for, ached for; which had been fine as he’d been entirely immersed in the pleasure he’d found until now, suddenly realizing that he might have lost the opportunity altogether.

With that worry flickering through his thoughts, he released his grasp around his Brother’s body and shook off the arms that enveloped him, sent into action that was abrupt, sudden and frenzied. He wriggled and squirmed gracelessly as he urged his massive body upward as best he could in the limited space available to him; and when he could move no further due to the wall behind them and still could not accomplish what he intended, he pulled Dorn lower to compensate until Perturabo was now the one lying higher in the bed they shared, arranged in a way more appropriate to their natural heights.

Still without a word, he yanked Dorn into an embrace, pressing that tough little body so tightly against his chest and clenching his arms so completely that it likely hurt both of them, but as for himself, he barely noticed and did not care.

For one who had already won this battle, so unstoppably determined to claim Dorn for himself no matter what the cost, why did he act as if he believed that Dorn might somehow slip away from him as he greedily held him so close, so oppressively tight? He didn’t know.

Or at least that was what he’d convinced himself of.

 


 

One second and then another, Dorn waited with bated breath. He waited as his Brother seemed to pick up on all of his little quirks, tells and actions as much as he, himself, had done much the same to Perturabo.

They really were a mirror, that feeling still existed even now, even after everything had come to a close.

Surely that was the case as his Brother huffed and grumbled and made such disagreeable exhalations. Perturabo was dealing with and struggling with emotions that he should have disabled so long ago. Yet there they were.

Dorn had tried to shut himself down in a much more physical and organic way, lost in the throes of pure apathy and depression, yet here he was, with his Brother, having felt things that he thought long since dead after however many years it had been since he was truly able to indulge in anything that could even begin to be considered… human.

Here he remained, thoughts transforming from that more morose nature to something far more hopeful, even if he did not think himself worthy of other matters that he dwelled on. And though such ideations had reared their heads in the past several minutes, it didn’t drag him down to the pit as it might have once.

He had Perturabo to thank for that.

However, before he could start to ponder on that front, everything changed within a second. He found himself suddenly in an immense grip that manhandled him with frightening ease, bringing him down to exactly where it was that Perturabo wanted him and Dorn found himself almost frantically gripping at his Brother’s shoulder.

As if he was startled.

He truly had gone so lax.

And Perturabo had no business being so entirely fast as he was now, with as much bulk as he had to throw around against the stocky, dense form of Dorn. A breath pushed out of him seconds later as those large, extremely muscled arms wrapped around him and squeezed with a tightness that drew breath to a groan.

It was a wonder that Perturabo didn’t outright break something, yet Dorn was even sturdier than he appeared.

But only a split second afterward did he find himself no longer struggling out of instinct, and simply grew lax inside that crushing weight. His hand bluntly dug into Perturabo’s shoulder while he pressed his face into his Brother’s chest, in a reversal of the entire action he had just subjected Perturabo to.

His face pressed into that carved script.

 


 

Despite the discomfort in his chest and the heaviness of his situation, that did not prevent the more base urges within Perturabo from getting a rise out of that moment of struggle; something primitive, carnal and innately wired to Dorn flaring up with excitement—while he grunted and thrashed and flailed around him—his vital signs escalating within his readouts, and despite not acting upon his instincts Perturabo enjoyed that little sequence of ‘activity’ he’d inadvertently caused.

It was simply his nature; and though he did not currently have the luxury to revel in it for what it was, he considered the likelihood that Dorn’s reaction to him was every bit as intrinsic.

A low groan rumbled in his throat, even as he tried to hold back the tears that were threatening to well up in his eyes again as they had done countless times since his arrival here; and perhaps that sudden momentary thrill had been a blessing, a distraction now that Dorn had settled in against him, no longer fighting anymore once he’d realized what Perturabo’s intentions were.

And that also proved that Dorn still had his edge even while appearing entirely docile.

A weak, wry smile tugged at the corners of Perturabo’s mouth, upon an otherwise flat expression as he continued to hold onto his prize with such strength it was as if he were a child and Dorn was his toy that he suspected someone was going to try to take from him at any moment.

As if such a thing were even possible.

But he did not relent in his greedy hold upon what was his, all the tension and strain kept taut within his huge muscles.

“There’s nothing to explain,” Perturabo lied in an embittered, rough voice even as his actions since Dorn had spoken only increased the likelihood that there was much going on inside his altered consciousness that he fully intended to keep to himself.

 


 

“Then do not,” came Dorn’s voice easily, far too easily and far too kindly for the situation he currently found himself in, with his body being crushed under the strength of Perturabo’s grasping hold — an action that would have easily precluded great bodily harm if Dorn had not possessed the Primarch physicality that prevented many a great thing from turning a gesture like this, deadly.

The words tapered off in a slow, almost muted tone as his very breath was taken from him once more by a squeeze here and a flexing of muscles there. Dorn doubted that even the smallest sliver of a thread could go between them now, with how tightly he was being held by his Brother, as if he’d vanish the moment Perturabo let him go.

“I’m not going anywhere.” Dorn managed to eke out the words, nostrils flaring as he barely took a deep enough breath to fill his lungs, testing that continued tension all the while.

Once more, actions always seemed to speak so much more profoundly than words ever managed to. As Dorn continued to press his face against that all important script across Perturabo’s chest, he angled his head just enough to be able to see the underside of his Brother’s chin and jawline.

Slowly, very slowly, did he rub his cheek and chin against the silvery metal, applying the sensations of soft hair and skin between the places that molten metal had not claimed during the engraving.

And then he waited.

He waited as his nails that were digging into Perturabo’s shoulder were gradually lessened to a far softer touch, only a simple grip remaining there now. His other arm stayed trapped where it was but even still, Dorn tried to rub what he could reach. A soothing gesture.

And he was still waiting.

Either Perturabo would remain quiet even now, or would feel compelled to speak and further explain himself. Every single time Dorn had gone back to silence or offered only simple words—that somehow managed to relay just enough without saying much of anything at all—proved effective during these pensive moments that came over his Brother.

 


 

Not going anywhere.

Dorn had reinforced that idea time and again since their ‘reunion’, yet Perturabo—in his skepticism and negativity—had precious little reason to believe such a thing now, any more than he had at any other point, which was not at all — but despite that, he had more need to have faith in that vow than ever.

Of course none of this mattered regardless when cutting through to the core of things.

Right?

So why was he still so anxious, so concerned…?

So afraid?

Perturabo feared nothing, nothing at all. That was how he was created to be, after all. And now he was a Daemon Primarch, a being of Chaos. Forged further by the Obliterator virus, and enhanced by cybernetic augmentations of his own design. Yet there was in fact, something he feared, deeply, to the very core of his being and he had displayed that in ways both overt and discreet countless times during this encounter.

Loss. The fear that had controlled his life since well before his Ascension, though nearly all of the greatest tragedies of his existence had been of his own making. An internal rather than external struggle more often than he would ever admit, despite nearly killing Dorn mere hours ago. But it mattered not who or what was to blame, as he always lashed out just the same regardless of where the fault lied.

Any time he was challenged in any way at all with something that resulted in the possibility of losing Dorn, whether that be through abandonment or his own violence, that deep-seated, all-consuming fear registered plainly on his face and influenced his actions. Now was no different, even as Dorn pressed his head into the script that christened him and graced him with touches that should have soothed him.

Yet Perturabo was in turmoil, and neither his mind nor his processors could solve it.

Despite his endeavors to do nothing more than exist in the moment, to experience the simple, undiluted sense of victory that had been resting his head against Dorn’s chest as he slept, all the while Perturabo had been unable to fully stop thinking — the very thing that defined him now more than ever as fleshmind and cogitators united to form a superior biomechanical entity of pure consciousness that superseded all else.

And so, though he did savor every nanosecond down to the minutia he never stopped brooding; contemplating and plotting his next move, while his system calculated the likelihood of potential outcomes in the background static, the silence that blanketed the area a state of being that Perturabo could never again truly experience, as his own reality was never quiet.

But this point in time was perhaps more turbulent than anything he’d known in thousands of years, despite being the closest to contentment that a thing such as he could hope to reach.

And within an endless green inorganic expanse of potentials, there was one option he’d rejected vehemently over and over again with increasing bitterness each time it appeared. Yet deep down, it was the decision that some part of him he refused to acknowledge, knew to be the proper one.

His face twisted, monstrous features distorted with the gravity of his conflicted emotions as he stared aggressively into the face of the one thing above all else that he was not willing to lose.

He’d already won; and he knew it. But that fact did nothing to soothe the embittered ache that had settled into his chest with a cruel chill that had nothing to do with the mechanized regulator that rested between his dual hearts.

Perturabo’s intensely cold, pale blue eyes seemed to shine with a glint that wasn’t entirely of the living, though everything that occurred behind them might yet prove completely to the contrary.

 

 

CONNECTING TO SECTOR 4d 45 44 52 45 4e 47 41 52 44 20 4d 41 49 4e 46 52 41 4d 45

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He didn’t know what compelled him to recheck the data, to have his OS perform the same calculations yet again. He didn’t even need to the first time he’d done so — as the original operations had been performed through the Mainframe before he’d risen from the control throne. And then Perturabo had made the journey himself…

“You do know what will happen to you if you try to escape from me, or betray my trust, don’t you?” Perturabo asked suddenly and seemingly unprompted by anything in the current moment, in a deep, resonant tone thick with bitterness as he made his indirect but clearly defined threat. But for all his aggression, it did not hide the all too human emotions that truly drove his actions now.

That only made him more dangerous, though; and as his voice quaked and his expression grew crazed, it was apparent this was a lead-in to something much more significant regarding Dorn’s fate than a simple hypothetical; and not once had he loosened his hold, as if Dorn would slip away at any moment like sand through his fingers.

 


 

It was only after a second elevated heartbeat did Dorn tilt his head upwards to gaze upon his Brother further, pulling away only slightly from that carved script. He could spot the changes in expression and demeanor upon Perturabo's visage. From those twitches, to those cruel pale blue eyes that froze him in place.

And Dorn was frozen, taken by how much heat shone behind eyes that rooted him to the spot as much as those arms did. All of it made Dorn cease any actions he had considered, giving his Brother his full and undivided attention for what was to come next.

What was going to be said to his face.

That highly violent and tumultuous attitude only seemed to grow and grow until Perturabo snapped. The way that stare was levied on him, made Dorn feel like it could strike clean through him. If there had ever been a more apt sentiment of ‘looks could kill’, Dorn found it here in this moment. And truly, Dorn understood how precariously on a razor’s edge he stood upon.

But what else could he say, but repeat himself?

The previous day’s encounters replayed in his mind. The confession he had given

’I have no one, Perturabo. My Brothers are all to the winds of the galaxy. Turned to Chaos, others gone, permanently or stuck in stasis. I have had no contact with anyone for thousands of years. I know not of what has happened, to our beloved Terra or otherwise.’

’What do I have to return to? …To whom? …There is nothing for me anymore.”

That is what he felt, even still, after all this time.

But you…You are here. Why would I step away…?’

Dorn heard himself sounding so defeated in this recollection… and then those sharp words, back.

’So I am your… last pick then, hm?’

Oh, how lamentably he knew that that wasn’t meant to come out the way that it did. He remembered telling Perturabo that wasn’t what he meant, that he wasn’t just settling for his Brother even at this point. That spark of something had been brewing then.

And… how Perturabo had asked so… softly.

’Do you reallymean that?’

Dorn’s eyes shut tightly as his thoughts wandered towards another moment, a time when everything he was, shattered and was held captive, tightly, akin to the very moment that he was dealing with now even while Perturabo was clinging to him as he was.

’You belong to me, Rogal Dorn. You’re mine, do you understand me? That has not changed.’

Then those most absurd thoughts, that had left his lips despite all they were going through. The jabs back and forth, the conversations that continuously got heavier and heavier amidst the first moments—perhaps ever—when there was nothing but them.

’Do you fear that another one of our Brothers would take me away, Perturabo? I doubt you have to worry about any of that nor do I intend to… stray in that regard.’

Perturabo had bit back then, made it clear to him, reminded him just who Dorn now belonged to, in every way that could be conceived.

’I would not hesitate to kill them if they tried. And I would punish you most severely if you encouraged it, it is not a matter of trust but of law.’

These swings, these moods, always surrounding him leaving. Always surrounding him breaking trust, always surrounding something happening that would make it so that he was no longer there anymore, no longer in Perturabo’s grasp.

’Did you truly mean what you said, earlier

’I do, I do mean every single word that I said to you, Perturabo.’

’I— I’ll  I’ll kill you if you don’t.’

There was a moment when Dorn closed his eyes then, breaking that glaring gaze that awaited an answer while these earlier memories continued to play in his mind, making the seconds feel like they were drawing out deeper and deeper when, in truth, not much time had passed at all.

’Your initial mission was to kill me. You no longer intend to do that because you don’t want me killed. You wanted to break me down to a point where I could no longer deny anything you wanted, but that didn’t turn out the way you wanted either. You wanted me to fear and revile you, yet the opposite has happened in ways you had never expected.’

’You want me to hate you because it is easier for you to justify yourself, but it enrages you that I don’t.’

Dorn took a deep breath, fighting back the urge to grit his teeth while he opened his eyes again, expression kind once more, almost sympathetic, even if the edges still remained harder than a normal person’s.

’I don’t ever want this to end I’ll kill you before I’ll let you go

[You do know what will happen to you if you try to escape from me, or betray my trust, don’t you?]

All Dorn could say was…

“I do…”

 


 

As the time ticked by, Perturabo seemed to grow even colder, as if his very presence now somehow chilled the atmosphere around them which had been nothing but oddly serene in these past hours — and despite the fact he’d spent them absorbing Dorn’s bountiful body heat.

After Dorn spoke those perpetually distrustful blue eyes grew even sharper in their intense and discerning gaze, seeming to nearly piece Dorn as he watched, just waiting for a reason that would grant validity to his vast and endless doubt.

But it did not come, Dorn’s brusque and blunt answer stated like a matter of fact; and though he likely wished to, Perturabo could find no outward fault in it. “Good.” Perturabo growled out in an abrasively metallic grunt.

A tense second passed, then another — the air about him as if he were outright planning for conflict until at last he continued.

“Because there has been… a slight change of schedule.” He continued curtly and with no shortage of disagreeableness, as if the very words he spoke were somehow offensive.

 


 

Dorn was nothing if not patient, patient as he waited for what was to come next. After he had spoken those two words that seemed too simple but meant everything to him, he held his breath.

All he felt was the pounding of multiple dual hearts.

He waited.

And waited.

Though, at the mention of a change of plans, that had been something that Dorn had clearly not expected. It was a whole new playing field now, and that was evident by the briefest look of confusion upon Dorn's face while he stared at his Brother.

His mouth remained shut, though his expression clearly seemed to show that he was hanging on to each word, awaiting the next.

An explanation?

 


 

Perturabo glowered down at Dorn expectantly as once again, silence filled the space around them, prepared for him to speak up; to inquire, to prod further — something, anything that might drag this out and delay the inevitable. But as the emptiness wore on amidst a building sense of dread Perturabo finally spoke of his own volition — with resentment and scorn heavy in his voice, which punctuated every syllable.

“I shall be returning to my homeworld shortly.”

 


 

This time, Dorn furrowed his brow at that bit of information, when it was finally drawn out of Perturabo in a manner akin to pulling teeth.

I?

Not a we?

Or was he misreading that by being far too literal as he normally was?

"You will?"

 


 

“Yes,” Perturabo grumbled out, his hold on Dorn kept tight as he craned his neck and leaned in to claim more of the precious little space between them as his mood seemed to sour further. “I have given the situation great thought in the passing hours as you slept,” he explained — while explaining practically nothing, the apparent heaviness in his demeanor saying more than his scant words did, though the precious little that he did say was already proving that absolutely everything was taking a far different course than previously planned.

Something that Dorn had pointed out at more than one juncture; and while it was clear this fact irritated Perturabo greatly and his plans were still kept mostly a mystery, this was clearly not at all what he’d previously threatened.

 


 

As those words lingered in the air, an answer and vague statement all at once given back to him, Dorn was still waiting. For what, he was not certain, but he waited for more. Anything more from his Brother, anything that could pull some sort of reasoning together in this grand deviation from the plans and the situation as a whole.

This was confusing.

“…Why?”

Such a simple question, but one that he finally settled upon asking, trying to probe for an answer but not before following it up with another question.

When will you be back for me?”

Now that question was far more personal, with an edge to his voice that seemed as if he expected Perturabo to come back to him, come back for him. Whichever it was, he wanted to know.

Dorn pointedly tried to ignore how much those dual hearts raced further, the sweat that now dotted his brow, as well as ignoring how his one usable, good hand, was now gripped tightly upon his Brother’s shoulder. What had been a more passive touch grew all that more noticeable as if he was the one trying to mirror how much Perturabo simply did not want to let go.

 


 

Perturabo’s eyes narrowed as he was questioned, but the ironclad hostility of his expression began to melt away as that second question came before he could answer the former. The first was fully expected, but the one that followed was not; at least not entirely.

While that was a perfectly reasonable thing to ask, something about the words Dorn had chosen, and the urgency carried in his voice struck Perturabo with the force of a blow straight to his skull; and the way Dorn clutched at him only heightened that feeling — it was elusive and uncertain but…

…was that worry? Panic, that gripped his Brother now?

Perturabo could hardly believe that, and dared not project the ache that was suddenly even heavier within his chest, but… just maybe…

His features were almost neutral now, but he’d never been good at concealing his feelings, expression conveying more than he’d have liked had he known how plainly that ire had faded out and transformed to something wounded yet almost hopeful as he maintained intimate and close contact, staring straight into those dark eyes.

Everything he was prepared to say was replaced with a simple statement, so that he could gauge Dorn’s reaction before moving on to the meat of the matter. “As soon as I possibly can, Brother…” He trailed off with precarious, anxious anticipation.

 


 

Once that answer was given, Dorn exhaled another slow breath that he hadn't even realized he had been holding since his questions were uttered into the quiet space between the both of them.

His hearts would not stop their thrumming uptick in beats, however.

"All right…"

Another pause, a sigh that now sounded like relief.

This was foolish but…

"You'll be safe?"

 


 

Dorn’s highly elevated vital signs flickered through his HUD, giving further evidence that wasn’t so easy for Perturabo to dismiss — even more so when they clearly calmed slightly upon being reassured that he’d return soon.

Did Dorn actually want him to come back?

Perturabo was confused, flustered; and then…

The absolutely ridiculous question that followed increased his consternation tenfold.

Of course he’d be safe — he was nigh unkillable even in his unaugmented demi-godhood, well before he’d lessened the odds with his own ingenuity and then relegated them to a near statistical impossibility upon his Ascension to Chaos.

But beyond that…

…Dorn cared about him enough to be worried?

“I’ll be fine.” Perturabo choked out disagreeably as he gave Dorn a reassuring squeeze. He’d finally loosened his hold from its iron grip, though he still held Dorn close and with more effort than required, huge arms flexing as he held Dorn's body against his own.

“I…” He exhaled, and shook his head.

“I… don’t.”

“Want to be separated from you.” Perturabo said honestly, whatever posturing statement he should have said about not letting Dorn out of his sight lost to the disarmament of Dorn's openly expressed concern.

 


 

That squeeze alone seemed to soothe Dorn enough, into a state that he relaxed that hold where he was now not digging his nails into Perturabo’s skin so deeply and, instead, was simply laying there, connected and close to him.

Darkened hazel eyes looked away as he nodded slowly.

Of course it was an idiotic question, Dorn had already come to that conclusion the moment he uttered it. He had seen first hand how unkillable Perturabo truly was. There was no doubt that he’d be able to handle himself and anything else that would even dare come across a Primarch’s path.

Yet…

He looked up again.

“Then, what is your purpose of leaving… Brother… ?”

 


 

Perturabo scowled as he reflected back on a previous conversation, one in which Dorn had been entirely correct about, though Perturabo was not about to give him the satisfaction of knowing that.

 

 

’Would you enjoy experiencing the time it took me to get here, in reverse, with so little room, like an animal confined inside a cage several sizes too small? I'd likely have to resort to breaking and twisting your bones to even get you to fit.’

 

 

 

’Of course not, and you wouldn't want that.’

 

 

Regardless of Perturabo’s final decision to transport Dorn to Medrengard in the end, that did nothing to change the great and total infeasibility of that in current circumstances — and there were much larger issues beyond even that.

“Did you want me to stuff you inside my ship after all?” Perturabo growled out with aggressive, unwarranted sarcasm. “It's a long way to Medrengard, you know.” Perturabo continued, conspicuously speaking the name of his domain aloud now, as if there was some concealed reason for not doing so all this time. Whether there ever had been, or not, he said it now.

 


 

Dorn opened his mouth to speak but then he closed it, then opened it again as he was going to say something else but then… closed it again, though there was a glance given to his own ship, but only very briefly and fleetingly.

A pause of everything came to him at the mention of Medrengard, but soon Dorn found himself slowly nodding.

“I believe I understand now, Brother. No, I do not think transport is ideal with such… accommodations for the both of us…”

 


 

“Indeed.” Perturabo said, defeatedly — but there was little to be done about it in the current state, as he’d given this matter constant consideration as Dorn rested. There were several alternative solutions of varied viability but there was nothing to solve the most important dilemma of all, outside his solo return to his Daemonic domain.

“Beyond that, I have matters to attend to the moment I return there. The only reasonable thing for me to do is make the trip alone, as much as I detest the idea.”

 


 

Dorn didn't pry or press for information, he simply nodded. "Very well then, Perturabo." There was another pause, another of many in this short conversation that they'd had since his waking.

"Then I will… await… your return."

Chapter 25: Obsequies

Summary:

Perturabo learns the true value in what has been lost, though still harbors many secrets he is not nearly as forthcoming about, as Dorn is.

Chapter Text


 

Perturabo let out a long exhale, fighting the shiver that threatened to course through him at that proclamation — so boldly and clearly affirmed. While it was true that he never intended to give Dorn any choice in this matter; he didn’t protest, didn’t try to appease him, didn’t make any attempts to change his fate in any way; nor seem even slightly apprehensive nor show his dissent towards the decisions Perturabo had made — even though he was rightfully expected to.

Truly, Perturabo didn't know what to make of any of it; even as the evidence mounted that Dorn didn’t mind the truly awful intentions he’d held from the very start.

The way Dorn had questionably referred to visions of Medrengard as wonderful earlier flickered through his thoughts, but he pushed them from his mind, though a smirk had appeared on his face.

“And now you also know why I reminded you of your situation and the consequences a moment ago.”

 


 

Dorn inclined his head then, pressing his forehead back against and just above that silvered script, breaking further eye contact as he stayed in place as he was.

"Yes, Brother…"

There was no dejection or upset in his tone, as if he clearly understood there was no reason to even bother. Yet, Dorn held no animosity towards that fact, either.

 


 

With that confirmation and the shifting of positions, Perturabo studied Dorn's face in profile beneath him for several seconds. There wasn't even the slightest indication that he objected to this turn of events.

The only part that he seemed unhappy about was the time that they'd have to spend apart…

It was absolutely preposterous, but there was nothing to indicate otherwise. As eternally skeptical of everything as Perturabo truly was, there wasn't a single bit of evidence that Dorn didn't genuinely want him to return, and he was completely unprepared for that.

He unhooked one arm from around Dorn at last, to instead stroke the side of Dorn's face. Several seconds passed in silence as he simply touched his newly claimed treasure, affectionately running his thick fingers over the fluff of Dorn's beard along the sharp angles of his jawline.

Such a contrast to his cold, metal existence, so warm… so unbearably soft

"And you'd better not try to escape from me." He said sternly. "It would be pointless to even try, and things would not be good for you if you did."

 


 

Once Perturabo touched his face with a certain gentleness that betrayed all the spite and hostility from mere minutes ago when his Brother had been so aggressive and grumpy, Dorn lifted his head again, following the motion of that touching contrast between the two of them.

His vitals were slowly stabilizing and Dorn, for all intents and purposes, seemed nigh relaxed again.

“Where would I escape to? My Thunderhawk is not in an operational state, nor do I have any means to make it so.” Dorn tucked his chin down a little so he could make his stare a bit more pointed, “Nothing good comes from me trying.”

 


 

"It wouldn't matter even if it was," Perturabo snapped in retort, ignoring as best he could, the sinking feeling and dreadful fact that Dorn had been stranded on this barren deathworld for an untold span of time. But even as he rejected the notion, he was acutely aware there had been no sign of disturbance on these lifeless plains before his arrival, no scar nor tract that would have shown that the Thunderhawk's descent here had been recent.

An emergency landing on an uninhabited rock, a bittersweet method of survival that would likely only prolong the inevitable; a lonely, pointless demise condemned to solitary confinement awaiting an answer to a distress beacon that would never be heard, renown lost to time as he languished towards a silent, inglorious death…

The mere thought of such an unfitting fate filled Perturabo with rage, that his rival could come to such a lamentable end. So much so, that he didn't consider the very obvious truth that even Medrengard would be preferrable — he was too focused on how he had in fact, been the one to hear him after all; not through a beacon but through a connection that proved how inexorably linked to one another they were, and that he would be Dorn's savior if only to destroy him.

But he wouldn't grant him a warrior's death, as fitting as that would be; a proper end. Not yet.

He growled, "Because I fully intend to return to this very ship via teleportation."

 


 

There was something that Dorn could see there, behind those pale eyes, that fury that was coming to the forefront. At first, he might have thought it was connected to the idea of him trying to get away from this planet and  Perturabo's grasp.

Yet…

This was too heated to be just that.

What was it?

Why the ire?

Perturabo likely wouldn't tell him.

Dorn swallowed as he shifted slightly in Perturabo's hold. "I… see… as was expected." He spared a glance to his ship again.

 


 

Perturabo moved his hand away enough to allow Dorn to turn his head but he never ceased in his strokes to Dorn's beard and connecting sideburns, as if he couldn't stop lavishing his attention there once he finally touched it properly. It was as if he were petting Dorn and he did not seem intent to quit doing so at present.

"That armor of yours… has rather… unique properties…" Perturabo mused, reflecting on the little sample he'd consumed earlier, and all the innate knowledge he'd gleaned from consuming it due to the special abilities granted to him both by his cybernetic readouts and the Obliterator virus he was 'afflicted' with.

 


 

There was the softest of groans that came from Dorn’s throat the moment that his Brother insisted on touching him in such a way. There was no doubt in the world as to exactly how much he was receptive to this sort of treatment. A touch he had not indulged in for far too long.

It mattered not that it could be considered demeaning. No one was there to judge so he enjoyed every second of it. After all, it allowed his mind to focus on this instead of the idea that Perturabo would be leaving soon.

Then what?

However, before more of his thoughts could drift to their eventual parting, Perturabo made a remark that seemed so outside of what he expected, that Dorn brought his focus back onto his Brother with both brows raised.

“Oh… does it?”

Of course Dorn knew the qualities of such strong armor, the way that it perfectly melded with his body, and its ability to withstand far more than any normal power armor could have ever hoped to achieve. After all, bearing the brunt of his Brother’s attacks had demonstrated the capabilities of his armor by enduring to the fullest.

It should have crumbled.

It kept him alive.

But his Brother, there was no doubt — could go down to the very minutiae of what it was exactly that he found so technologically special about it. “Care to share with me, Brother?”

 


 

Perturabo did not stop in his ministrations, almost mesmerized to witness how receptive Dorn was to such a touch — a touch that was far too gentle and far too intimate for all the things that Perturabo appeared to be and all the things he claimed to want for this ‘relationship’, yet still he did not stop.

Nor did he hesitate to get straight to the point, even as he indulged both himself and his little Treasure with his continued petting — which had nothing to do with the relaying of information; instead, he was the one with questions.

“Could you survive even the vacuum of space inside it? And what of Warp fields? I do intend to protect you myself, within the embrace of Neo-Logos and with the added layer of defense of its shield generator, which I will activate around us as I teleport back.” He gave Dorn’s cheek a little pat.

“I am taking all precautions in how I go about bringing you to Medrengard. Which might I inform you, is firmly located inside the influence of the Immaterium. The Eye of Terror, in fact. Sometimes I think, in your stubbornness, and for reasons I can’t begin to understand, you forget these details. Of what I am, now. But that is not something you will be able to ignore in the days to come.”

 


 

As his cheek was patted, Dorn’s eyes narrowed ever so slightly, feeling the nigh condescension in that singular action alone, yet Dorn did contemplate the questions that were asked of him. He hadn’t quite had the opportunity to test such things out beyond what was done in realspace because he had always held a heavy caution for the Warp.

Still, he answered to the best of his factual understanding.

“The suit should be able to sustain me for an adequate amount of time. As for the Warp fields…” His brows furrowed now. “It is not something I specifically recall having to contend with, without further protections in place.”

Those furrowed brows knitted as his expression blossomed into something akin to a grimace now that Perturabo put it so plainly how he was going into one of the main hearts of the Immaterium itself. One that Perturabo had given its namesake. Of course Dorn had known that that was to be the case, even with his strangely positive words and everything else that surrounded them.

It was still daunting despite being a gross underestimation of what Dorn should actually be feeling.

“Of… course…”

 


 

Perturabo watched Dorn’s concerned expressions carefully, noting the shifting nuances beneath the stoic surface that relayed vastly different emotions that Perturabo was aware of — but was unable to genuinely place, all so conflicted and tangible yet not shown with the clarity to properly identify any of them individually. Dorn rarely expressed anything distinctly enough to grasp, and deciphering such things were never Perturabo’s strong suit anyway.

Only one thing was apparent to him — that none of it seemed extreme enough when it came to matters surrounding Dorn’s ultimate fate and what Perturabo intended to do with him. Though that nonchalant attitude was genuinely in his favor, it annoyed Perturabo to no end. But he pushed it away for now, as Dorn’s safety during the transfer was by far the most important issue.

He recalled how Dorn seemed to almost repel him during their duel earlier — how it felt like a low grade, natural force not dissimilar to magnets with improperly aligned polarities drawing too close to one another; and then, how Dorn’s attack practically bounced against his void shield at a particularly strategically advantageous point.

His eyes narrowed as he gave this strange and unique property consideration. It truly appeared that Dorn’s wholly unique auric armor countered Warp energy to some degree, but regardless if that were true or not it was doubtlessly one of the strongest sets of armor in existence — a true standout even amongst other Primarchs', and perhaps only lesser than his own.

The strange way eating such material made him feel served to prove the point further but he wasn’t about to relay any of this now. All that mattered was that Dorn would be protected and he would assure that himself.

“Mn.” Perturabo grunted. “Well, I can provide that, as long as you behave yourself and hold still while I shield us both. I’m confident enough in that, as we won’t be engaged long enough to come near your adequate timeframe.” He smirked arrogantly. “Now that I have linked up with your ship, the process of returning and then taking you back to Medrengard will be nearly instantaneous. And of all times for you to attempt to get away from me, that would be the least advised, for reasons far beyond punishment. I don’t recommend trying to leave the parameter of my shielding, or there won’t be anything left of you.”

 


 

This was happening, this was going to happen, after spending so long in solitude and isolation, in the coming however long — Dorn was going to have to contend with the idea of being somewhere wholly different.

A new planet.

A planet controlled by a Daemon Primarch of all things.

There was nothing that he could truly do to change the course, change Perturabo's mind — and even if he had made mention of his former notion to traverse away in the name of duty, even with the promise to  return, he was doubtful that there would be any ability to, once he was stuck on Medrengard. Yet…

Dorn didn’t discredit that feeling he got.

The one that pulled all of this into motion.

There was a wrinkling of his brow once more as he contemplated over that as well as Perturabo’s words, arrogance and all. There was a shift in Dorn’s expression, one that seemed to be more thoughtful while he slowly nodded to Perturabo.

“I have no intention of leaving your side during this shielding.” Dorn wasn’t foolish enough to entertain any ideas of tempting the Warp in any capacity, not back then and certainly not now. He only wondered how he would be once they set foot in Medrengard. Perhaps that was also why Perturabo had to go back alone.

He had to prepare something, or some place suitable — for someone that was not touched by the Warp or Chaos.

 


 

Perturabo smirked, “better not.” He gave the side of Dorn’s face and the soft, snowy fluff there a series of firmer rubs as he spoke — seemingly having taken quite a liking to the beard Dorn had grown in their many years apart, displaying that through his actions despite his silence on the matter and pretending to ignore it entirely though most of this encounter. “Because I will be the one teleporting you. Any part of you that leaves my radius during the process will be left behind right where it strays and be scattered into sections at vast distances, as we will be moving at incalculable speeds."

And that was the truth — well, except for the calculability. While it wouldn’t have been possible for any other intelligent being to conceptualize such a thing, nor observable for most if not all computation systems, Perturabo was exceptional in both categories. But those little details aside, he spoke the facts.

While he appeared to have no problem explaining the gorier details in his dissuasive warnings to ensure Dorn’s arrival in one piece, his expression darkened considerably a moment later, and he tightened his hold around Dorn with his free arm in tandem in a way that seemed instinctive — yet he did not relay what it was that was suddenly weighing on his mind.

 


 

Dorn eventually gave back into that heavy petting, his eyes slowly closing as another gentle sigh escaped slightly parted lips. The press against that hand became almost akin to the feline-like behavior of Perturabo's tendrils when they'd demand a thorough amount of touch.

The hold Dorn kept on his Brother grew tighter once more while Perturabo explained what sort of disastrous demise he'd be in for if any of this went wrong.

But it couldn't go wrong.

This was Perturabo.

Then why…?

Dorn lifted his head, gazing back up to his Brother. "What troubles you?"

 


 

Perturabo bristled immediately at being questioned so pointedly. “Nothing,” he lied — poorly. His expression of discontent was now openly hostile and sour; and his tone of voice was particularly scratchy and metallic. “It doesn’t concern you.”

 


 

"It doesn't?"

Dorn arched a brow as he pushed, shifting so he could try to look at his Brother far more purposefully.

 


 

Perturabo—regardless of his massive bulk, extreme age and immense threat level—and despite his mounting and openly displayed aggression, looked almost childlike in his petulance; a boy caught in the midst of doing something he shouldn't have been. And yet, instead of subdued his reaction was oppositional; like he was in the possession of some forbidden object he was not willing to give up.

"It does not." He persisted, despite absolutely everything now being of great concern to Dorn in every conceivable way.

 


 

This time, Dorn tried to move, tried to sit up though he had to fight against his Brother's hold, one that would determine how far he'd even get in the first place.

He didn't say anything yet he did stare at Perturabo from his new position that he was trying to eke out bit by bit.

 


 

There was only a second of time in which their eyes met, rendering Dorn's scrutiny almost useless. But in that instant of transition, there was a glint of emotion far deeper than the combativeness it was concealed behind.

And because Perturabo relented as Dorn rose, with his arm dropping lifelessly aside as he let Dorn go without any struggle at all — he was able to accomplish his goal. This may have been momentarily curious considering the last few minutes, but Perturabo's reasons were made clear a micro-instant later, answering questions before they could even be posed. For as soon as Dorn was sitting upright, Perturabo flung both arms around him in their shifting positions, silently pressing his forehead against Dorn's shoulder as he hugged him against his body and crumpled into him despite their size differences.

And the energy that radiated off his very being, though without imagery now, was exactly like that flicker that had been within his strontium blue eyes, if Dorn had been able to catch it.

Negative. So oppressively, hopelessly negative, like a black hole intent on consuming every sliver of light around it.

 


 

For a man meant to be a technological overlord and a Chaos infused Daemon Primarch of all things, an entity that rejected the weakness of morality and of the flesh, all Dorn could see was the humanity in those hate-filled, pale blue eyes that pushed passed all the vinegar and vitriol that his Brother so tried to put up as a front.

Dorn knew that he was the sole person that would ever be graced with seeing Perturabo as he truly was, revealing so much more than what that petulant attitude would have suggested that he was capable of.

Dorn knew the truth, could sense and could see how much Perturabo had to share with the world had he ever been given even the smallest of chances, had been given something more in his life than what the Emperor had forced him into becoming. He knew how vastly different their lives would have turned out if they had been given options in the paths they walked.

How might have all of their lives changed if they didn’t have to constantly fight?

What was done was done, and what was in front of him was the product.

They all had to deal with it.

So as those arms suddenly wrapped around him, clinging to him, he felt that forehead press against his shoulder and everything just…

Shattered.

Dorn felt tears immediately well up in his eyes, falling down on the broken man currently hiding his face not only away from him, but from a galaxy that had no genuine want for him. Though that truth wasn’t exactly fully factual, those sorts of perceptions had been enough to crush every inch of hope that most of them ever had.

In themselves, in humanity, in each other and in their Father.

That didn’t need to be the case anymore, yet what could Dorn do, what could he say to soothe such a man with nothing but grief in his hearts? Even if Dorn damn well knew that there was more than that.

“Perturabo.” Dorn whispered, voice taking a far more shaky note than before as he lowered his head down to press a kiss to the top of his head. “I’m not going… anywhere. I’ll wait here, I’ll wait for your return to take me… I’m not… abandoning you, and that is not because of your numerous threats or pointed words… I’m here…”

Both of Dorn’s arms wrapped around Perturabo now, tightly.

“I’m here.”

 


 

Those words that Dorn fired at him in his moment of weakness cut through everything that Perturabo tried so hard to display; to prove — in order to deflect. And in his misery he did the one thing he wished to do the least of all. He said what was on his mind; as his hearts felt as though they had iced over and the aura he projected grew so dire that had they not been stranded on such a remote mockery of a planet, it would have been felt by countless souls, broadcast throughout the solar system of this burnt out region.

As it was, there was naught but one to witness it…

“I just don’t want to go!” Perturabo sobbed into the soft, warm sanctuary he’d found at the crook of Dorn’s neck. It was a comforting spot he’d nestled into, and a place he did not wish to leave, either. “It’s been so long… so long. And now I… I finally have you, I… I.” Perturabo protested vehemently and with passion, anything but an emotionless machine — and he knew he was losing ground, destroying his own image but once he’d started speaking he simply could not stop. “I… never want to be apart from you ever again!”

 


 

There was a long pause, that had Dorn hugging Perturabo as tightly as he could manage as he nuzzled against the shell of his Brother's ear.

What followed was a rare voice — gentle, almost to the point that it sounded rather fragile, just as it felt to admit what was soon uttered, something that he had shown in his expression, but never outright stated like this.

The hold tightened further as he spoke.

"I… don't want you to go either."

 


 

A wretched, agonized sob was expelled from Perturabo's throat at such impossible words, and he shuddered in Dorn's embrace as that confession all but mangled what was left of his ironclad exterior. How could such a thing ever be true?

Impossible.

Impossible.

 

 

καλός κἀγαθός_

 

 

Another shiver ripped through him.

"ἀγαπητὸς…" Perturabo uttered in a harsh, loud whisper as he pressed his hands flatly against Dorn's back, fingers splayed so that he could cover as much area as possible.

He didn't want to address this, nor even think on it. This simplicity, this serenity — hidden within this grounded Thunderhawk. Everything would change on Medrengard, but that was no longer such a self-aggrandizing, gratuitous outcome as it had been in his long-held fantasies.

Somehow, in the cruelest way possible, Dorn had ruined everything — his plans, his schemes, his wicked desires. Now his impossible dream was no longer any of these things.

The most decadent, unobtainable fantasy of all was to just stay here, vanish without a trace, hiding away with Dorn — forever.

"I hate you so much."

 


 

That drew a laugh from him, nothing with a condescending edge to it, no; it was a soft, light laugh that rumbled through his breast despite the tears that still continued to fall from his face, dropping down into his facial hair while his breath hitched afterwards.

Dorn tilted his head downwards, trying to touch as much as he could of Perturabo with his face.

"Ráhkis…" He whispered, not even addressing that 'hate' comment that didn't have any true teeth in the slightest.

 


 

Perturabo couldn't repress the innate, natural urge to nuzzle against Dorn's gestures — a fully lively reaction but with results that were completely antithetical to the concept as he pressed and rubbed against skin with varied textures of hard metal shapes — cords and cables, the hose and black carapace extension protruding from his face all 'rewards' granted Dorn for his efforts. He trembled at the endearment that was reciprocated to him; and he was suspiciously as willing as Dorn was, to ignore the barbed comment he'd made at Dorn's expense only a second ago.

"All this elaborate set-up…" He spat bitterly. "Just for you to walk into the cage I made to keep you, of your own volition."

 


 

Dorn sucked in a slow and steady breath as, once again, his hearts ached. It felt like they were going to break due to simply how fragile his Brother was in this moment, baring it all for the world to see, yet only for him to be the sole viewer of this well-laid plan that now did not seem like it would ever come to fruition.

Not in the way that likely either of them had ever expected.

All he did, had done, had enacted and had said seemed to have destroyed everything that Perturabo had worked up to and built up for millennia… Everything was for naught.

Just because Dorn did not act as expected.

"Does it have to be a cage, Perturabo? …Could we not make it something… else… for us?" Dorn questioned, not truly knowing what he was really asking for, but he was trying to grasp for…

Something.

 


 

Perturabo’s large fingers dug harshly into Dorn’s back at that preposterous suggestion, and he jerked his head up suddenly; face a image of indignation and incredulous anger though there was also evidence he’d just been crying — thinned fluid still staining his skin with glistening moisture that caught the light.

“Don’t you dare try to bargain with me, Rogal Dorn.” Perturabo hissed with suspicion and scorn, though even now there was a distinct difference in his ire compared to the way he’d carried himself only hours before when his aggression had been far more impassioned. His anger was no doubt real, yet there was something off about it now, drained of the overwhelming confidence and conviction that had fueled him before.

 


 

Dorn let out a soft grunt the moment those nails dug into him and he was staring at a tear-stained face. He swallowed a moment afterwards at the hissing tone.

"It is not my attempt to sway you further, Perturabo… but all of this obviously troubles you, deeply…"

 


 

"You know not what troubles me!" Perturabo yelled in immediate rebuttal; deep, booming voice like plasma ripping through metal, causing unknown objects to rattle within the confines of the enclosed space, despite facing in the opposite direction of most everything in the vicinity that could have moved.

His facial muscles twitched and jerked as he stared hotly into Dorn's eyes, as if challenging him to say one more word.

 


 

Dorn took a sharp breath, puffing out his chest as Perturabo yelled into his face while he simply endured the outburst thrown in his direction.

"Then enlighten me then, if I have all of this so completely wrong." Despite the tears that had stained the corner of his own face, his expression had shifted to something stern and stoic in the interim between this shout and now.

 


 

"Enlighten you? What makes you think you're entitled to such information, you arrogant little prick?!" Perturabo raged, his anger gaining a little more fire with each passing second, that smug, condescending expression he knew so well — always somehow looking down on him from below — reminding him of how much he truly did always hate his Brother.

 


 

"Would you listen to what I have to say as to the why before bringing yourself immediately to violence, Brother?" There was emphasis on words, but none of it held any sort of venom.

But he wasn't going to back down.

 


 

"No! If you think you have that right then you have gravely misjudged this situation!" Perturabo growled in a shaking voice thick with emotion and clearly expressed instability — both of which were highly suspect and incredibly unbecoming for something as superior and detached from humanity as he so ardently claimed to be.

"I'm not going to waste any more time with this," Perturabo spat, releasing Dorn and quickly turning, preparing to rise to his feet.

 


 

Dorn dropped his hand away, setting both it and the stump of his other arm upon his lap as Perturabo readied to move.

"Perturabo, Brother, at some point you must realize that you cannot keep shirking away from coming to terms with some matters, you cannot keep running to what you feel is safety because since you have come back into my life and I, in yours, nothing is how it was meant to be."

There was a huffed out sigh a moment later.

 


 

Perturabo rose to his feet with alarming speed despite the massive bulk he carried, huge in his own right; a titan even in his most stripped down, ‘natural’ form.

His strides were booming, forceful and heavy as he made his way with single minded purpose to the control station on the other side of the chamber; and without a single word given nor a single glance spared to Dorn, he gazed down at the Thunderhawk’s console and began working to whatever unholy purpose he had in store, pressing buttons and keying in data he was of no mind to inform Dorn about.

 


 

Dorn rolled his eyes as Perturabo acted like a child still, now ignoring what he was doing while Dorn, himself, was watching him the entire time as he rose up upon his feet with the same alarming ease like Perturabo had done.

"Ignore me all you want, you won't for long."

He hissed out as he shifted, carefully leaving the confines of the bed behind.

The Thunderhawk, meanwhile, was cowed to Perturabo's inputs.

 


 

Perturabo was seemingly absorbed in his work, though how much of that was genuine necessity and how much was a front to avoid the one sort of confrontation he was obviously unwilling to have, remained unclear. But just as in the last days of their cursed past, it was apparent that Perturabo’s nigh suicidal tenacity to win at all costs was absent in conflict that couldn’t be resolved via unrelenting firepower.

“Not once in your wretched life have I ever been able to ignore you.” Perturabo remarked, still not deigning to spare Dorn even a single glance, his voice thick with unfiltered resentment.

But he did stop in his intense, purposeful keying briefly to extend a hand toward a section of the console that held no dials nor controls, strangely engaging in a gesture that seemed wholly meaningless as he stroked that smooth metal demarcation between the relays as if he were soothing a scared animal.

 

 

Ætos Dios_

….

   ….

      ….

>._

 

 


 

Dorn shook his head, knowing that there was nothing that he could say, nothing that he could do, nothing that he could even try that would have Perturabo drawn from his tasks yet, for once, a more genuine frustration broke through Dorn's stoic and stern expression.

The chlamys was discarded from around him in favor of actually getting dressed in something more fitting, turning his back on Perturabo to look at anything that wasn't him because there was little point.

Oh, how that little Thunderhawk's machine spirit trembled under the touch, that sensation evident in reaction to all around it, yet there was nothing it could do but simply be in the presence of something that could unmake it.

 


 

While Perturabo had nothing good whatsoever to spare for his Brother, he was bountiful in his kindness to the machine that was entirely at his mercy, generous enough to grace it with a few slow, calm strokes upon its form before he returned to his intended task, fingers flying with speed as he flawlessly keyed in row after row. Whatever he was doing was kept a total mystery and approached in a manner that would have been nothing short of frantic — were it not so controlled and completely free from error or hesitation.

“So what sort of bones are those, exactly?” Perturabo asked if for no reason but to fill the silence, though he spoke flatly and with apparent disinterest, hands never stopping moving.

 


 

It didn’t take long for Dorn to get himself dressed while Perturabo focused on whatever technical keying that was, surely facilitating something that would soon come to pass, the connection between the two of their ships — his own, that was still stuck in the far flung past as an archaic relic, alongside whatever technological marvels Perturabo had that were the complete opposite of it in about every conceivable way.

While that happened, Dorn resumed getting dressed. He ignored the idea of wearing a body glove in favor of something far more comforting for him. If at any point Perturabo looked at him, he’d be greeted by quite the sight. Instead of a military uniform, akin to what he wore during meetings when not in power armor, or a simple bodyglove that left nothing to the imagination, Dorn wore something that truly embodied where he came from.

It was much in the same manner as how Perturabo chose to wear the clothing of Olympia when not armored. Dorn did much the same, wearing the traditional clothing of Inwit.

Around his legs were almost simple leggings, of which a brief look through analysis would reveal in their shifting dark brown to nearly black coloration, were made from sort of animal hide, lined inside and out with a type of fur that was surely native to where he hailed from. Though Dorn didn’t have any issues with regulating his temperature simply due to who and what he was, there was a measure of comfort in the old dress.

For his upper body, he wore a gakti, a long and loose tunic of the deepest navy blue one could imagine, but amidst that dark blue as encompassing as the night sky, there were colors of many shades. Reds, blues, yellows. Between the embroidery and the occasional beadwork, it was a striking clash of hues yet uniformed in their own right, all intricate as the scrimshawed bones that were upon the wall.

Additional weaving work could be seen by the equally striking belt around Dorn’s waist that pulled it all together and the varying bands that wrapped around his wrists that could be seen when the sleeve rose up a bit too high during movements, with his missing hand having a sleek cover over the stump to keep it protected.

Upon his feet, much like with the leggings, were shoes intricately made of hide, wrapped up and around his legs, ensuring a snug and secure fit.

At that question, one that had been lingering in the air some time while Dorn was making himself presentable, he had simply let out the lowest of hums, gaze flicking over towards the wall and noticing those that were missing, and other pieces that were damaged. A quiet sigh left him, knowing that all of that must have happened during his outburst from earlier in the day.

He had heard them fall yet…

Perturabo must have put them back up.

Slowly looking back at his Brother, he finally spoke. “Much of these come from my homeworld, Inwit. A cold… unfeeling planet of ice and death. This planet we are on boasts a very similar feeling to that dying star system.” He ponders for a moment. Did Inwit still stand after all this time? Were more of his sons being made? Did he truly want to know the answer to all of that?

Shaking his head, Dorn shoved those thoughts to the side so he could actually answer the question. “Many large creatures stalked the darker side of the planet, many more swam in the seas underneath the thick ice. Many we hunted to survive as they would hunt us in turn. They became items of value, you see.” He chuckles then, shaking his head as if thinking back on a fargone matter.

“These beasts were all we had, the planet was dead otherwise. No riches, no minerals, nothing of use for the larger collective, yet, with these bones, you could trade stories and wealth. It became our currency, trading for different meats, different hides, or even for pieces of debris from the hovering dead and ancient stations that loomed above Inwit, there long before I came along.”

There was an almost wistful way that Dorn spoke, despite not knowing if his homeworld still lived or had finally been snuffed out into complete ice after thousands of years. “This one…” Dorn reached out to touch along the scuffed edges of one of the biggest bones, “came from one of the larger underwater beasts that roamed the seas. One could equate them to old Terra’s whales, yet, instead of forward fins, they had these long limbs with many grasping claws that could rend through matter with ease— that limb is what provided this bone for me to carve into.”

Then, he pulled his hand away from touching that larger piece of work to something that looked more akin to an antler. “This was from a duottarboazu, with what light and life we did have, there were these hoofed and antlered creatures that provided much of what was needed for our meat stores, hide and furs to keep us alive. We’d tame them and when they died, nothing went to waste. While the fierce creatures in the seas and dark side of the planet were sought after as more valuable, the duottarboazu were our staple.”

Dorn’s hand lingered on the antler as those thoughts coiled in his mind again from before, if Inwit still stood after all this time. He had to fight back the hitch in his breath that wanted to know, as well as force his hand to not tremble.

 


 

Perturabo seemed completely engrossed in whatever nefarious thing it was he was doing as Dorn busied himself elsewhere, his fingers flying across the panels and key relays, head bobbing softly as his sharp eyes never looked down at what he was doing despite the fact he should have been unfamiliar with the Thunderhawk’s controls. It appeared as though he was relying on muscle memory though that was obviously not the case.

But all of his apparent outward focus was centered on the glowing screens before him as he observed the readouts his tinkering had produced, scanning all the data provided as he tracked the various monitors in front of him.

At some point, however, his hands stopped where they were; his shrewd glance tilted up ever so slightly from where he had been looking a moment before, chin pressed between his collarbones as he observed and listened — Dorn now the center of his attention despite no doubt being capable of doing everything at the same time with no difficulties.

He was speechless and motionless until at last, Dorn finished. Perturabo did not interrupt, nor speak even after the room fell quiet again, silent for several long seconds; either waiting to be sure that Dorn had said all he had intended, or was absorbing that information in some way.

“I didn’t expect such an in-depth lesson on the customs and environment of Inwit…” Perturabo said at last — and despite perhaps being the most disagreeable being that had ever come into existence, and this the sort of lecture most would have found boring or unnecessary, there was no sarcasm in his voice.

 

 

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"So it’s more of a trade, rather than a hobby for you then?” He questioned further as he glanced to the rows of remarkably beautiful carvings that had been damaged, an unmistakable tension in the atmosphere as he reflected on how much dust he’d swept up.

 


 

It took much longer than it should have until Dorn actually shook himself out of whatever thoughts had clouded his thoughts and continued to now eat at the back of his mind yet there he was, still trying to ensure all of that was set to the side so he could continue the conversation as normal as well as to not cause Perturabo alarm.

Another second passed and then another as he pulled his hand away fully from the various bones and antlers that had all been carved into.

“It was a trade at first, a necessity when I was but a boy. We could tell the worth of what we carved, or what materials we would garner from such a trade. Yet, now, it has become a hobby, if one can call it that, and a sacred one at that. Because I have moved from carving beasts, and have turned to carving man.”

With that, he turns his attention to a smaller set of bones, in comparison to beasts. “I carve into the bones of my dead, some of these belonged to my sons that fell in combat, we carve their memory into them.” There was that same melancholic and nostalgic tone in his voice.

 


 

Whatever it was that had been on Perturabo’s mind due to his seemingly harmless questioning and the unexpected plethora of information garnered from it, shifted entirely as the melancholy and morbidity of it all descended upon him. His scrutinizing expression changed if only momentarily before he could rein it in, the shock of the cursed knowledge that some of those damaged bones had once been Dorn’s own sons increasing the remorse and guilt he felt in those perfect, intricate works of art becoming damaged — whether he rightfully deserved the blame for it or not.

“And… are there… specific tools needed in order to do what it is that you do?” Perturabo continued, keeping the conversation centered on the technicalities—the physicality of the work itself—in an attempt to both pull Dorn back from the mental state he was falling into, and keep himself from showing anything whatsoever that could be interpreted as concern.

That didn’t stop his hyperacute mind from honing in on the horrible potential with crystal clear clarity…

Had any of those ‘fallen sons’ that lined Dorn’s wall, the artistry that he so earnestly admired in secret, been slain by his son’s hands

Or worse, his own…?

“Your craftsmanship… is not lost on me.” He stated awkwardly, proving that he had inspected the items he’d evidently put back into their proper places as best as he could determine, while Dorn slept.

 


 

“Tools depend on the bone and the size. Adamantium-tipped blades for the larger bones, the ones that are quite tough to carve through need something denser and sturdy to utilize. For… the more intricate or smaller bones, diamantine is used instead. I have a set of both.”

Dorn pulled back, both physically and mentally as he turned away from the wall, so he could study his Brother.

“…Thank you.” He said, voice… softer than before, understanding what that meant if his Brother was saying this.

After all, they were put back on the displays.

 


 

“I see."

 

 

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Perturabo was calmly, agreeably listening to the vocational details supplied by Dorn — until he was completely caught off-guard by his Brother turning suddenly to face him. In that instant, his surprise was plain to see before he steeled himself, and then when he was thanked that expression too shifted — into one of open hostility; as if that kindly voice and the depth of all that conveyed somehow offended him despite him making the effort to right the disarray himself without a single mention of it being made.

Perturabo growled his wordless, gruff reply; brow furrowed angrily. Then he turned his attention back to the Thunderhawk’s interface panels and began keying something in again, though this time his motions were not nearly as rapid. A moment later and he pulled a strand free from the long, flowing tendrils that comprised his cybernetic dreadlocks, a device that was as much function as form. The end of the cord was attached to a free port with a soft click.

 


 

Dorn watched that expression wash over his Brother’s face, followed by that subsequent shift that made it so Perturabo was now trying to actively hide all that had happened as if he wasn’t just there, staring.

And certainly wasn’t affected.

Even still, Dorn did not engage when his Brother turned away in a quick motion to give all of his attention back to Dorn’s Thunderhawk which was, unbeknownst to Dorn, very much trying to appease the monstrous Obliterator Primarch that was now interfacing with it in a far more invasive way from the moment that that cable connected.

Curiosity flickered in Dorn’s expression, yet he did not bother asking, as Perturabo had not offered any explanation during the initial inputs and he doubted that he would have given him a further answer otherwise. It was just as well though, as Dorn had turned back to regard the wall of the scrimshawed art again.

Of course, he knew those that were missing, fragile pieces that would shatter if they ever hit the floor, pieces that were priceless, now naught but dust between the gratings of the Thunderhawk, despite how much may have been swept up. Perhaps that was fine too, being a part of the very essence of the ship that served as his self-made tomb for all this time.

Still, even with this different perspective in mind, he had approached the wall once more, carefully moving pieces until they were set just right, rearranging the areas until all of it was far more balanced to the viewer.

Now those empty spots weren’t so glaringly obvious.

 


 

The seconds ticked by quietly, Perturabo now completing the last stages of what needed to be done in the background while his OS handled the rest. He could feel the aura of disquiet, of a desperate desire to appease him; as if this tiny obsolete craft were alive. He cared not to be bogged down by such concepts, but it admittedly did not do much to improve the oppressively moribund, somber mood that had settled over everything — the aura now as if he were walking through a graveyard.

And now that he had nothing to serve as a distraction from observing a decidedly depressive Dorn, Perturabo contemplated revealing something he'd initially decided to keep to himself.

It didn't make a damned bit of difference, yet… maybe it would help soothe the melancholia radiating off his Brother, and it wasn't as if he didn't already know of Perturabo's special abilities — and proclivities.

"Aside from what fell between the cracks and the inner workings of your ship that I could not reach…" Perturabo led in, voice low and deep and rumbling with iron. "It did not go to waste."

Chapter 26: M.I.A.S.M.A.

Summary:

When careless words are weaponized and resentment poisons the air, even a Living Wall can crumble.

Chapter Text


 

That sentiment alone, the statement that Perturabo uttered in his direction, had Dorn finally stopping what he was doing entirely in favor of shifting his gaze towards his Brother once more, considering the weight of those words and how much that he tried to turn things back towards his culture, in such a small way.

“Good… good.” He affirmed, both times those words were slow as he nodded his head and let out a gentle sigh, finally moving away from the wall, with a purpose this time.

 


 

Perturabo vented a metallic sigh from a breath he hadn’t even realized he’d been holding, expelling tension with it as Dorn expressed relief in what it was he had done, in taking those ruined shards and powdered dust into himself, consuming the bones of what would have otherwise been lost.

Of course he’d not known the significance of it all, though the facts were likely scrolling through his interface the whole time he’d been partaking in such a ritual, identifying the origins of those bones. But he’d been too overwhelmed to notice, mourning a different sort of loss with a completely unconnected distinction. But it was likely as important to Perturabo, as what he had eaten had been Dorn’s cherished handwork — a standard to revere, that craftsmanship so fine and artistry so remarkable that it was sacred to Perturabo, though he’d not admit that.

It was just as stored within him either way, regardless of his motivations, along with the miniature auric aquila he’d confiscated — pieces of Dorn himself that would settle into his own bones, his cybernetic augments, his armor; his very being. It was the best he could do, as he’d had no museum to place them in, anyway. A tomb would have to suffice.

“Indeed. It felt the appropriate course of action at the time.” Perturabo continued. If the revelation that he’d inadvertently eaten not only the bones of Inwitian animals but the remains of Imperial Fists disquieted Perturabo, he did not show it; not a single sign of revulsion or dismay apparent on his harsh features.

He looked down at the panel for a moment, and with a barely perceptible nod, he disconnected the cord from the Thunderhawk’s command relay. Then Perturabo keyed something in with great deliberation — though his work was completed much quicker this time as he covered his tracks completely, encrypting and otherwise concealing absolutely everything he had done to such a degree that none other than he could ever gain access to that information.

Then he looked squarely at Dorn with great intensity, a glint reflecting in his cool blue eyes as he took in the sight of his Brother in what he could deduce as the regalia of his homeword, due to the similarities between the design of his clothing and the detailing on the scrimshawed bones he’d not only analyzed at the time but also truly appreciated.

Dorn was always a breathtaking sight to behold, especially in that infuriatingly excessive auric panoply, but even in civilian dress he was as elegant and regal as ever — despite the heaviness of the topics at hand.

And in this finery, there was a certain intimacy to it that a full suit of armor couldn’t provide.

Perturabo took in every detail, and without a shred of discretion as he admired the sight before him with the piercing shrewdness of an implacable art critic and a starving predator in tandem — both of which who had finally had found something at last to suit their tastes.

 

 

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Seeing Dorn dressed in this manner made Perturabo want to depart even less than before, something he’d not thought possible.

 


 

Though Dorn had moved away from the wall with an assured step, his mind still lingered upon what he found there and what his Brother inevitably had done. With all the abilities to analyze in the greater galaxy and beyond, he was curious if some of these pieces could have told Perturabo the details surrounding the moments they died.

Could he feel the emotions, just as he did when he held, in particular, those pieces of his men that he carved into? Well, if he had, he didn’t spot any sort of emotion on Perturabo’s face that suggested that in the slightest. Yet, would he recoil at the knowledge that at least one of these pieces came from men who died within the Iron Cage?

The turning point in their lives.

All of their lives.

And the greatest feat of something so inherently unresolved in the entire galaxy. His sons had found and managed to eke out what small victory they could manage. Dorn? Despite all that he tried to push past or even tried to relay that he had, his mind still wandered there often enough. Yet that was not meant to be his demise.

Because of that, the series of events afterwards had brought him here.

What a strange thing.

In those seconds of thoughts running through his head, his attention became fixated on his Brother once more who, in turn, was staring at him in such a manner as if he was being fully analyzed under the cold gaze of a machine trying to pick apart his very matter. Yet, Perturabo was no machine, no matter how many pieces and parts he replaced and how much further his brain became components.

There was simply something that remained human.

Dorn slowly approached then, steps certain and sure as he carried himself. Every step closer allowed the embroidery and beadwork to nearly shine as the center focal point in the constant dim light of his Thunderhawk. Intricate patterns arched around the belt he wore, bold straight lines unbroken as they wrapped around, much like the meandros patterns of his Brother. And within, between those lines, were more of different colors that accented what he already wore.

The longer Perturabo’s gaze wore on, the more that Dorn straightened himself further, settling his focus on being the perfect staple of what his people wore and carried, himself.

It was a welcomed distraction.

 


 

There was a renewed tension in the air—though not nearly as dark—as Perturabo watched Dorn approach with total focus and all of his attention held rapt despite his unfathomable, superhuman capabilities — every sector of fleshmind and cogitator alike using their combined processing power on all that was Dorn. And through it all, the ever changing readouts providing such information as vital signs, calculated distance and other banal details scrolling through the periphery of his HUD were ignored.

His eyes scanned with a desire for detail that bordered on fanaticism, taking in the rich details of Dorn’s attire that was not opulent in the way his armor was. Yet his garb was just as remarkable—if not more so—from Perturabo’s point of view as his clothing was simply a practical way to display talents that were once again, irrefutable evidence that he was being granted the luxury of gazing at a master’s handiwork. The bespoke garments that draped Dorn were as much a work of art as the ultimate artistry they accented — a frame worthy of the finest painting in the grandest museum.

There was not one single doubt in Perturabo’s mind that Dorn had made his clothing himself, the complex and complimentary patterns of embroidery and beadwork woven together in contrasting and harmonious colors like frescos in miniature, each section breathtaking in its own right and yet contributing to the unified whole, displaying a deep knowledge in the principles of design and skill that were nigh humbling to observe.

He watched Dorn with an intense scrutiny that never ceased, though the glare in his harsh pale eyes had softened somewhat; there leaving no question that he was admiring Dorn with open appreciation. Yet he spoke of none of it.

 


 

At this point, as silly as it might have seemed to outside eyes, Dorn was now posturing in a manner that almost was akin to someone modeling. He knew all of his work was being heavily scrutinized and, despite knowing how well he had actually made this outfit, there was a moment later where he nearly seemed to falter.

Something he didn’t bother hiding between his Brother’s sharp eyes and the endless readouts of information.

Dorn seemed…

Nervous.

It was almost uncharacteristic of a man that always knew his work was up to par with the skills he carried in his very hands. Now though, for some reason he couldn’t grasp… there was an emotion in his dark hazel eyes that seemed to scream for validation…

Approval

 


 

Perturabo never took his gaze off Dorn as he noted all the details, never gave him a break from the hyper focused, drawn out analyses he often engaged in; and though that deliberation was of much greater intensity now than any other had ever had the misfortune of experiencing, he knew this habit made those in his presence increasingly nervous and uncomfortable. But not once had he thought that he might make his Brother feel this way.

Yet beyond the typical reaction he often provoked, he saw something different shine in Dorn’s dark eyes if only for an instant — and he identified it immediately, bitterness and bile cresting from within as he intrinsically related to that emotion with every nanofiber of his very being — and was overwhelmingly offended to witness it.

He was growing desperate to have his hard work be noticed, his efforts recognized, the results judged.

Rogal Dorn… was craving approval.

His approval.

It made Perturabo want to spitefully break Dorn’s hearts into a million pieces with the weight of crushing disappointment. Not by insulting all that he had endeavored to create, no; that was child’s play. Basic and unrefined. What Perturabo wanted to do instead was cause suffering and misery far beyond what acknowledgement of any sort would create — even negative acknowledgement.

Oh, how achingly he desired to petulantly and resentfully ignore Dorn’s artistry outright; as if it were not worthy of a single moment of his time, too crass and unimportant to even be noticed in the first place as something remarkable—despite taking so much openly telegraphed interest in all Dorn had created mere seconds ago. And then, he wanted to make him wallow in that awful feeling for the next ten-thousand years.

It wouldn’t even come close to the depression and despondency that Perturabo had endured, but it would be gratifying to make him at least taste a little of it.

His expression had grown angry and twisted, the enmity of indignation radiating off of him palpable and oppressive as he glared at Dorn as if he wanted to strangle him with his bare hands — despite deeply regretting those exact impulses every time he’d given into them.

 


 

The atmosphere shifted once more, Dorn noted, this time it was something far more palpable with a brewing tension that could have been cut with the edge of a knife. It was an increasingly uncomfortable feeling that settled deep with his body, sinking past clothing into skin alike.

All of it emanated from the man he had drawn closer to during the intense bout of scrutinizing. However, now Dorn took a few steps backwards, to create whatever space that he could in the belly of the ship as his expression shifted from the craving want to a paranoid wariness that was solely cast upon his Brother.

Nothing was said as the silence only deepened this feeling further while Dorn appeared to be bracing himself.

 


 

Perturabo noticed the dramatic change in Dorn’s proud demeanor, the desire to show off his creations deteriorating and melting away suddenly, to be replaced by a tense and solemn apprehension that spoke to Perturabo’s perception with resounding clarity as he watched his Brother plainly back away.

Did he realize the mistake he’d made, and why it was such an unreasonable thing to request of him?

Perturabo deeply hoped so, letting the darkness that had suddenly overtaken the spaces between them spread unabated and with a misplaced sense of justification that was actually undistilled vindictiveness.

The atmosphere had become almost unbearable in the last few silent seconds, reality between them flickering with a nearly visible static, as if a new projection from the corrupted recesses of Perturabo’s tainted memories was only a second away from being inflicted upon Dorn’s mind.

But it was at that moment that Perturabo’s rising, indignant fury… disintegrated

His lips broke away from the thin line they had maintained, frigid glare transforming into mildly expressed shock that reverberated far more deeply within him than he showed outwardly, his ire burning out with it. And the sensation that replaced it was no less sore and painful; though perhaps somehow even more intense.

He tore his stare away to glance back to the carvings that decorated the scene behind his Brother, expression now a frown; and after a moment he reoriented Dorn in his view, now locking eyes with him in a way that was incredibly intimate but also highly uncomfortable. There was sorrow and so much grief behind those 'lifeless' blue eyes; and as those mournful emotions rose higher and higher inside his core, there was a new resentment coming to the surface that was unlike anything he had expressed before — deliberately or not. The gnawing agony of utter futility.

And boundless, unfathomable hatred.

Perturabo fought with all he had to not let his true feelings show, as futile as that was, though he genuinely didn’t understand that he had broadcasted everything straight into Dorn’s mind all this time. If he had, perhaps he would not have struggled so determinately to stave off his bitter tears, or speak unbidden if only to break the silence.

“You made all these things long ago.”

It was not framed as a question.

Because it wasn’t one.

 


 

Just like that, the sensation around them both changed. What ire was rumbling and coming forth to the surface seemed to shatter under the weight of something. It was a something that Dorn did not fully grasp in this moment of time as he was still wrestling with the uncomfortable sensations deep within his breast that had threatened to steal the very breath from his lungs.

Even his heart rate was increased several times over, despite the fact that he was trying to actively control that with very deliberately slow breathing techniques, to very little avail.

Then it all changed the moment that Perturabo’s expression shifted, looking past him to the carvings and then back to his face.

This time, there was another shift of emotions, the sorrow that was lingering there deep within those pale blue eyes made Dorn hurt. That grief swimming there brought Dorn forwards once more, one step and then another.

And then he stopped the moment that Perturabo spoke.

That statement pierced through him and for some unknown reason, felt as if it cut deeper than any blade or bolter fire ever could.

A silence lingered until Dorn finally spoke.

“That is correct.”

 


 

You made all these things long ago.

That is correct.

…And it took every bit of the iron within for Perturabo to endure the fact that it would remain that way, though he had not needed any confirmation.

A series of thoughts built upon this cursed foundation as he mulled the miserable situation over in his mind, and all the many implications that spread forth from it.

All this time, that Dorn had waited here, for that inglorious, slow death unbefitting of him; all alone as the many days accumulated that no one responded to his distress signal, had been spent on this desolate rock with no manner in which to occupy his time, or his mind. Decades, centuries, millennia? — of the worst sort of solitary confinement imaginable. It was a wonder that Dorn had not gone completely insane from the lack of stimulation.

Perturabo’s facial features twitched, involuntary movements outside his control as he continued to consider things from this newly gained realization.

From his own vantage, it was hard enough to withstand the indignity of the handicap that had taken all the pleasure out of the possibility of finally besting his greatest rival, to have such a peerless warrior crippled — and he understood that disability no doubt bothered Dorn too, without needing to be told such. It was why Perturabo largely ignored such a glaringly obvious change. He didn’t want to recognize it, as if it would not matter as long as he did not draw needless attention to that wrist that simply ended.

Perfection ruined. A vile, profane mockery of what once was and should have been.

καλός κἀγαθός, disparaged and wronged.

But to forever deny Dorn the spark of inspiration that could only be experienced in moments of creativity; and thereby also rob civilization of the beauty of Dorn’s creations, was a cruelty that Perturabo did not know how to handle. It hurt deep inside in the pit of him, in the crater where his soul should have been, to know that in the universe’s cruelest joke, it's finest craftsman and artisan was now left but with a single hand…

For all his wrath and vitriol moments ago, as he glimpsed down at Dorn below him, it was all he could do not to collapse right where he stood.

“I… see.” Perturabo said plainly; but his voice shook with emotion that he couldn’t disguise, tears stinging his eyes like acid as the aura of despondency that surrounded him widened, increasing in both range and magnitude. Though he tried—by Iron he tried—his downcast gaze flicked to that infuriating stump where Dorn’s arm just… ended.

The very sight of it made him want to rend this useless rock and everything on it to a fine dust.

Within a nanosecond of his error, he righted his gaze to Dorn’s face again — and though he attempted to fake the appearance of making eye contact, he did not look into Dorn’s eyes. Not after he had approached. Not this up close. Not with these thoughts on his mind.

Not now.

He couldn't bear it.

 


 

All it took was that one singular glance, a glance so quick that one might have missed it if they weren’t trying to keep an eye on a very unpredictable individual at the best of times. It was in that glimpse that made his legs feel as if they were encased in the densest solid ceramite possible, making movement a nigh impossibility.

It was that stare that forced Dorn to acknowledge what he had been trying to ignore this entire time and despite earlier actions to accept it in small doses when Perturabo had dared to touch along what remained of that limb, everything felt like it was crashing down around him.

Dorn felt as if he was falling.

He never liked acknowledging it in any capacity and even through this entire time had he been trying to act as if there was nothing wrong with him, as if he wasn’t dealing with a debilitating handicap that made simple methods such as putting on his gilded panoply or being able to utilize his two usual weapons — something that was tedious in the case of the armor and impossible in the case of his weaponry.

Cruelest of all, was trying to create anything new.

He had made the furniture in the beginning when he was first stranded yet it had taken him far more time than he cared to admit, trying to do something to waste away the hours, days, weeks, years that he had been stuck upon this planet with naught else to do.

Having that gaze upon his stump alone brought him to turn his body away as well as his head, now not looking at anything in particular. In that motion, he even brought that stump out of sight.

“Yes…well…”

Dorn faltered, brows furrowed as he didn’t look back at his Brother now, words dying on his tongue as he fell silent once more. What could he say? What could he do? There was nothing that he could manage in the slightest and there was no ability to simply skirt past the issue that was right in front of him now.

It… hurt.

 


 

All notions of gloating, all thoughts of revenge, all the twisted fantasies of making Dorn suffer the pain and disappointment of his work being overlooked — had evaporated. Just like that. Just as there was no glory in defeating a disabled opponent, there was no joy—no matter how misplaced it may have once been—in the thought of ignoring Dorn’s accomplishments. Not anymore. Instead, that notion wounded him so deeply it was as if he had plunged a chain sword into his own heart with his own hands.

And as Dorn turned away, Perturabo’s eyes darted back to the far wall and all the carvings that lined it.

Those fragile monuments to sons lost.

Artistry damaged

Artistry that Dorn w —

No.

No.

Perturabo growled as he broke from completing that thought. This was the path to madness, and would only end in tragedy.

He sensed the pain that Dorn was now in too, and as had happened more times that he could have ever believed before today — that his suffering did not feel nearly as good as Perturabo had fantasized it would.

Nothing was going according to plan, that was certain. As was the harsh truth that none of this situation was correct, the circumstances and details all wrong in about every conceivable way, spoiling any sense of gratification he might have felt otherwise.

“…Impressive.” Perturabo choked out. It was all the acknowledgement he could stand to give, and far more than he’d been prepared to say despite being but a single word. It was begrudging, laced with bitterness and spoken as if it had been forcibly dragged out of him.

But most surprisingly of all, he truly meant it.

 


 

There was no denying it, Dorn hurt as his thoughts grew deeper and darker as he kept his arm hidden and his head turned away in an effort to not look at any of what he had done nor look his Brother in the eyes while a sense of malaise began to spread itself over Dorn, intensifying that feeling of drowning to a sickening degree.

For thousands of years had he not been able to create, languishing over the periods of solitude until he simply forced himself to meditate and meditate for long centuries, taking him away from the sheer monotony of it all.

Though Perturabo’s words reached his ears, unlike the moment had he heard it before all of this, there was no joy in hearing it, no sensation of being validated like he might have felt mere minutes since the tension that hung in the air.

No, instead, that word just reminded him how he likely could never return to that state of minute, delicate craftsmanship as he once had with the function of only one hand as the art of scrimshawing alone needed such fine motor functions as it was. With a Primarch’s bulk, it had taken much time to master such techniques when able to utilize both hands.

Another emotion began to boil forth under the surface — anger and then, frustration.

Not directed at Perturabo, but at himself.

 


 

A thoroughly frustrated sigh left Perturabo’s lips as he felt the tone shift even further, this conversation turning down a dark path that not even he desired to tread. He’d originally brought this topic up for his own reasons, some of which were simply to take the focus off the fact he’d be departing soon, others running much deeper that he kept to himself and would continue to do so — as this was also not turning out the way he’d envisioned.

And all of his bitterness; the desire to gloat and torment Dorn had been drained from him like promethium syphoned from a fuel tank as there was no gratification to be found now that there was no competition, no drive, no future, no rivalry — nothing more than a permanently wounded man that had been wronged and robbed of the ability to create anything at all.

It made the scrimshawed bones Perturabo had appreciated and admired so deeply while Dorn slept, even more tragic in their damaged state; and the beauty of Dorn’s bespoke clothing all the more precious.

When he’d come aboard the ship he’d been impressed to see Dorn’s fortifications up close, having appreciated the fortress he’d erected outside and then summarily destroyed from a distance — while realizing all of it had been made but with a single hand despite there had been no indication of that.

It was remarkable, but paled in comparison to the true artistry that Dorn was capable of; the crafts made not for warfare but for function and form with aesthetics in mind — and he’d been granted the privilege of viewing those priceless creations though he truly did not deserve it after all he’d done.

Yet he’d spat in Dorn’s face in a moment of jealousy and resentment without considering the fact that this was a lost art. Was there any crueler fate, than taking away the ability to create? Were there any in all the worlds that understood this, that felt this more sharply than Dorn and himself? It was a kinship that ran deeper than even their blood, in Perturabo’s philosophy.

And he deeply regretted what he had done, as everything was different now because of that injury. He'd not realized it then, but this had perhaps been the only chance he’d get to bridge the divide so cavernous and tainted between them, and instead he’d stolen perhaps the last moment of joy Dorn would ever have in his impulsiveness. There would be no mending this mistake, no time in the future when he could eventually confess that Dorn was his inspiration, his very muse, the standard he pushed himself to achieve.

There was no walking any of it back, either — because of the finality of it all. But Perturabo wouldn’t have had the means of understanding how to, even if there had been a way — as interacting with others was never his strong point. As skilled of a mechanic as he was, a situation like this was beyond his ability to fix.

For reasons he did not examine and with no attention drawn to it, he reached out and placed a single massive hand on Dorn’s shoulder as he contended with his own sense of shame. He squeezed lightly as he stared down at Dorn as he was turned away, not knowing what else to do, as useless of a gesture as this was.

 


 

As that large hand of his Brother's came down to make contact with his shoulder, Dorn’s reaction time had suffered greatly in the interim while his overactive mind continued to feed into and fuel the poisonous miasma that ate at him bit by bit. Dorn knew he had physically startled at that heavy weight when the contact was made yet still did not do anything further than that.

If his Brother had the cruelty to strangle him as before, Dorn didn’t know if he’d even have the movement and speed to stop that from happening to him.

Nothing around him seemed to matter as the facts that coursed through his myriad of thoughts were analytical and severely cruel to himself. Those reflections kept his face locked into a stoic grimace as he kept his gaze and head turned until Perturabo could only see the faintest edges of his expression.

All fight had faded and if his Brother had been lucky to gaze into his eyes, he might have been able to see that spirit was snuffled out in a deadly deluge of hopelessness. Not even the thought of being captured and brought to Medrengard, of all places, had managed to snuff that light out — but this conversation, removed from the prospects of those comings and goings, had.

One reaction.

One glance.

It brought forth bile deep within his gut as his mind played notions that he had already deeply known, notions that he had been trying to stave off this entire time. Many of which had been pleasantly pushed to the side as he indulged in other matters, but there was no distraction this time, nothing to soothe his mind from the torment.

The facts he knew, were as followed:

One— He knew that he could never hope to have a chance to beat his Brother in the prospect of glorious combat. Too many years had he not been able to hone his skills and there was nothing to test his mettle against even still, not on this cold and lifeless planet. No longer the battlemaster of attrition, that had been lost a long time ago. Could he stand up to any of his Brothers anymore?

As he was now, that was likely to end in his failure each and every time.

Two— He no longer felt himself worthy. He had not felt that for his title, nor for his weaponry —  as one of them, he had not even carried out into the field of battle to face Perturabo. He had left it behind as he knew that he had abandoned Terra, after the shame of failure grew to be too much.

Was he even worthy to wear the armor that was bestowed on him? No, he was not.

Three— He was a failure, even throughout the wonderings if he was worthy or not, the nightmares and daemons of the far past still haunted him. He had thought that maybe, maybe there had been a chance to shove all of that to the side, as he had gotten the genuine first bout of a restful sleep in millennia while within his Brother’s arms.

That seemed such a far off paradise now.

Four— He was a broken tool, unfit for his Father and unfit for his sons. He could not fight, nor could he create. It was a wonder that his mind hadn’t left him in this self-made isolation as the era ever spanned onwards. Was he worthy to still carry the remnants of his craft and the relics of his son’s sacrifices?

Dorn may have never told a lie to others, if only because the only person he ever lied to was himself.

His arms twitched, and his right hand had balled into a fist, trembling as stinging, acrid tears filled his eyes. Dorn gritted his teeth as he just stood there, trying to withstand the intensity of his emotions that choked him and blocked out everything else into nothing but white noise.

 


 

Perturabo need not see any more of Dorn’s face than he could from this angle—a tiny sliver of his brow and jaw rimed in light, the faintest edges in profile; in fact, he needn’t see any of his Brother’s face at all—to know that this was going downhill, fast. The atmosphere of sheer hopelessness, of utter darkness was so familiar that it reminded Perturabo of himself if he’d had the honesty and self-awareness to admit it. But even so, it was unmistakable, a tangible sense of desolation and grief that was once again, stark evidence and a hard lesson that Dorn dangling precariously over the edge of utter despair did not feel nearly as good as he imagined it would.

It was downright humbling to realize that he, the most cerebral of all entities had been so utterly wrong about concepts and visualizations that he’d ruminated over for more than ten thousand years.

But now was not the time to examine that, if in fact he ever would. For with each second the abyss between them expanded and now threatened to swallow Dorn whole — a greater threat than the physical gash that had been carved into this very planet.

And it wasn’t entirely unlike whatever it was that had sent Dorn into some sort of fugue state earlier, which caused Perturabo to feel panic that not even his bionic regulators could wash out.

He squeezed Dorn’s shoulder again. Was he even conscious? His vital sign readouts were strange — elevated but not labored.

“Dorn.” Perturabo said in a voice so gentle it was hardly recognizable. “Dorn.”

 


 

Was he even—

Dorn’s thoughts came to a screeching halt the moment that Perturabo had grasped his shoulder a little tighter after having placed it there the first time. What followed was a sensation akin to vertigo as Dorn found himself staggering a bit into the direction of that large hand.

It was hard to tell if he was responding to the touch or by the guidance of the voice itself that was trying to pierce through the melancholy and depression that sunk its sickly claws deeply into his very psyche and soul.

All at once did his vitals skyrocket and that stoic grimness that sculpted Dorn’s face broke away into something far more frantic; with upturned brows and widened eyes that still had tears burning at the corners until they were shed and trailed down the sides of his face, reaching his facial hair.

Spots danced behind his vision as he tilted his head upwards towards his Brother.

 


 

Had his highly regulated, perfectly coded system not been so thorough in optimizing his vital components, and the core that rested with in his chest and between them not so absolute in controlling Perturabo’s hearts — they surely would have momentarily stopped from the sight of the data scrolling up both columns of his HUD as they registered the abrupt change in Dorn’s status; yet that did not hold his attention for long as the desperate, lost expression that stared up at him was worse and more than he could withstand.

It was why he’d not looked so directly down at him in the first place, when he’d realized the gravity of his error.

But it was too late to hide from it now, as their eyes had locked in an instant, and Perturabo’s countenance was frozen in a mask of remorse and confusion that he couldn’t hope to conceal quickly enough as he was forced to witness the tears that streamed down Dorn’s face. It wasn’t like before, and somehow he realized this was the sight of Dorn giving up.

How fragile everything was and had always been, and despite taking great pride in being The Breaker, this breaking was not what he wanted and not on his own terms despite being the one that had caused it all.

In a motion that was more instinctive than lucid, Perturabo lowered himself the way a man might kneel before a child in need of comfort, though it was not an action meant to belittle Dorn or make him feel inferior in any way. Perturabo was simply in a panic, and driven by an internal desire to be able to see quite literally eye to eye with him. Both hands were now grasping Dorn’s shoulders as he stared open mouthed at the damage he had caused.

But now that he was down here, with his greatest enemy rendered too downtrodden to be worthy of a killing blow, Perturabo wasn’t sure what to do, acting on impulses he didn’t have the social intelligence to follow through on.

“Dorn.” He repeated uselessly, stupidly. There was so much he should have said, but he couldn’t grasp the words. So instead he resorted to action, grabbing Dorn in an attempt to pull him closer.

 


 

Throughout it all, Dorn’s vitals continued to rise through varying spikes of adrenaline due to his current emotional state. He felt that familiar sensation of fight or flight dumping through his veins every couple of seconds. However, Dorn was not fighting against his Brother, nor was he trying to abscond to some random corner of the ship.

No, instead, Dorn was simply there as Perturabo pulled him in closer, wrapping those large hands tightly around him and bringing him closer, all efforts that were trying to pull Dorn out of this panic that had begun to set in, yet kept him frozen in place.

More of those tears continued to fall from the corners of his eyes, staining his pale skin with their tracks. At some point, his breathing had become stilted and haggard, a physical manifestation of the panic that gripped at his hearts that were pumping so fast that he was feeding into the dizziness and vertigo he had felt before.

Dorn was such a strong and very proud Primarch, always known for his stoic manner and generally impassive attitude to everything around him that made him a highly effective leader as he did not let emotions guide his actions, the forefront of why he did the things that he did.

Yet right here, right now, he was having a breakdown as his emotions that he always kept so carefully in check and at bay had rushed to the surface. Oh, how easy it had been to find the smallest of cracks in his armor, to grasp and tear at it, rip it open; to then reap the reward of watching such a formidable, commanding foe become undone by the thoughts plaguing his own psyche.

Being functionally immortal had the cost of carrying burden after burden; of misdeeds and failures. It mattered not how much one improved or grew, if such things were happening in a lifespan that dwarfed a normal human’s several hundreds and thousands of time over, the harder it became to endure the self-inflicted punishment within the recesses of one’s mind.

Dorn seemed to stare past Perturabo despite them looking at one another face to face, as his mind brought up the two of his largest disasters in his life. The Battle upon Terra with the fall of his Father, and the Iron Cage.

He was still impossible to reach.

 


 

That pervasive dread was seeping deeper into Perturabo with each passing moment. Though the sadness and despondency that nigh reverberated off Dorn’s form was unmistakable and clearly caused by what Perturabo had done, his Brother appeared to be looking through him, those dark eyes glassy and unfocused as he stared off to somewhere beyond where he stood.

Was it the circumstances around his dire injury and the handicap it no doubt caused, that were responsible for the way Dorn completely detached from reality at times? Were there traumas so deep, that they were able to harm a Primarch’s mind so gravely?

And not just any Primarch, but Rogal Dorn; fortitude and stoicism personified?

The huge span of time that they had been apart had changed Perturabo tremendously — and there were glaringly obvious reasons for that as well as the results. But Dorn appeared almost entirely the same save for the passing of the years that had aged him gracefully; gently — and the loss of that hand. Such an abhorrent fate was something that troubled Perturabo so thoroughly, that he largely tried to pretend he did not notice that the Genesire of the Imperial Fists was missing a fist of his own

…had Dorn’s appearance and the way he carried himself in such a distinguished manner to this day, caused Perturabo to underestimate how much time had changed him too?

Dorn!” Perturabo repeated again, voice quaking as the panic flickered through him, both huge hands sliding up past his broad shoulders to cradle Dorn’s face instead. And for lack of knowing how to handle this situation or what else he could do, he leaned in and brought his lips to Dorn’s in a way that was genuinely inappropriate in the current situation — and with far more gentleness than he’d ever extended to Dorn when he had his awareness.

 


 

What if he—

Then came a resounding halt to his thoughts as he was being touched on his face now, those warm hands encasing his skin and holding him there. Even as he continued to stare through Perturabo, his mind was registering his Brother’s lips upon his own, revealing a gentleness that was the direct antithesis to the usual way that his Brother treated him.

Either way, the action worked as he found himself blinking once and then again. Then a few more times, with each seeming to bring forth a deeper measure of clarity and light back into his dark hazel eyes, eyes that had seemed so soulless before.

The hand that was clenched and shaking into a fist suddenly relaxed and his body caved as he fell into his Brother while their lips remained pressed against each others'.

 


 

A low gasp was breathed out against Dorn’s lips as Perturabo saw consciousness come back into his Brother’s deep, dark eyes; and from that first spark each blink that followed seemed to disperse the strange torpor that had overcome him more and more, like a light cutting through dense fog — until they locked eyes as Perturabo was finally recognized. In that moment the tearstained gaze that was afforded Dorn was far too worried and much too soft, but it was too late to conceal it, or the relief that swept over him to see Dorn coming around at last.

And would Perturabo have hardened himself or retreated if left to his own devices, was a question that would remain unanswered — as when Dorn collapsed into his arms there was nothing in the galaxy that would have pulled him away. He remained right where he was, half-kneeling against the floor as he scooped Dorn into a tight, full embrace; bulging arms wrapped completely around his form.

The kiss that had brought Dorn around had worked, somehow; and therefore was no longer necessary. Yet Perturabo did not relent, nor did he change his methods, continuing to press his lips to Dorn’s with urgency, as if he thought he might slip away again.

 


 

Dorn fell into the kiss as much as he fell deeper into his Brother's arms that now wrapped around him tightly in an effort to not let him go for even a second, unwilling to be parted in this very moment.

Static filled his mind but not his sight as he continued to stare upon his Brother's worried and equally caring expression, a softness there that showed up every now and then, only to be strangled time and time again.

But Perturabo wasn't trying to hide it this time, if he even could. The sight made his palpitations worse somehow, as there was a direct reason against what the more insidious parts of his mind had tried to tell him— that there must not have been any love shared after all, considering how cruelly Perturabo had reacted.

Yet there had to be something, if this was what he was seeing and what he was feeling.

Fresh tears continued to fall as Dorn awkwardly grasped at his Brother's himation, not having the strength to go much higher but wanting to simply hold something.

A staggered breath left him when their lips parted for a brief second.

 


 

The second that their lips broke apart, Perturabo was like a drowning man coming up for air; and despite not being capable of knowing the exact nature of what he’d inadvertently subjected Dorn to within the recesses of his memories—of some events that must have happened during the years they had been separated—he knew this current recurrence was his fault and he saw the potential for the precariously delicate reality he was trying to create in secret, crumble in his hands before he could even begin to manifest it.

The change of course had been so sudden, so unexpected. He had so many newly devised plans, some reasonable, some more radical, some that were likely entirely out of reach. But none of it mattered if Dorn mentally broke down before he had a chance to put any of his ideas into motion.

Mentally broken Dorn wait, wasn’t that always part of his fantasies? Part of what Dorn himself had witnessed in his visions of the future?

Why did it feel so awful, then?

Words were not his forte; and beyond that, his pride prevented him from saying what should be said in the rare moments he possessed the social graces to know what was needed — though admittedly he was also as likely to petulantly do the exact opposite of those things rather than defaulting to silence. Always petty, always resentful.

“Give me time! I—” Perturabo choked, voice aching and desperate. “I have things I need to do. Just— ”

What was he saying, what was he doing?

How could he even finish that statement?

Don’t give up. Don’t give up! You’re stronger than that!” He howled in frustration, temper flaring. "You're not even worth killing like this!!"

 


 

In the following moments, it took effort and precious seconds as the both of them stared deeply into one another’s eyes. It was as if recognition met recognition and that had meant everything that word was, for the both of them. Once more, the prospect of them being near perfect mirrors was almost bordering the uncanny.

While one was outward in their projection of their emotions, either by meaning to or not, the other kept it bottled entirely inwardly. Yet in certain circumstances, the latter could be the former.

How many more ways would they continue to be the exact same even despite their own unique personalities, and the philosophies that they brought to everything that surrounded them; from their lives and individual senses of duty and morality?

It was through that alone that continued to fuel forth the recognition and the struggle that came along with it.

As his mind continued to catch up to him in a manner that was not downright detrimental to his health, he was shocked to hear the panic and desperation in his Brother’s normally condescending and impassive voice. It made Dorn’s eyes widen and he nearly braced himself in his Brother’s hold while he withstood this plea, even while a bit of ire tinted those words.

His rival, a Daemon Primarch of Chaos Undivided that held no allegiances, bar his own self interest and self serving needs, was yelling at him to not give up and give in to the despair that was beckoning him in, wanting him to fall like a siren-song from Chaos as the universe itself seemed to hold its breath at this pivotal tipping point.

How dangerously easy it would have been to simply let Dorn fall.

Though Perturabo held no master beyond himself, this had to be uncalled for, beyond what was to be expected.

Things could change then.

Hope…?

Hope.

Even despite those final words, about not being worthy to kill, that did not sting as much as they could have had Dorn still been in the state he was in mere seconds before. But sudden awareness and genuine understanding saved his hearts from becoming further affected.

Dorn opened his mouth yet no words came to mind, nor did any spill from his lips. Instead, he continued to be close to Perturabo, gaze finally tearing away from those wholly expressive eyes.

How close to the edge had he been?

Too close.

 


 

While Perturabo was infamous for being more than willing to utterly destroy his own forces in the pursuit of his goals and neither of them were strangers to waging wars of attrition, Perturabo would not be satisfied with a pyrrhic victory now — and it had taken this very moment after nearly eleven thousand years of craving Dorn’s destruction, to finally realize that.

Returning to his homeworld with a version of Dorn whose spirit was fully and permanently crushed; nothing more than an empty husk — was not as glorious as he’d imagined in all his self-aggrandizing delusions. Whether that be for his own dark purposes or something purer that he’d not waste the effort on examining was unimportant, for the results were identical regardless of his true motivations.

It was all so achingly simple. A universe without Dorn in it was one where there was no meaning in his own existence — for there would be no one to compete against; and with that loss there would be no motivation for him to keep progressing, no greater purpose to strive for, no one to prove himself worthy to, no one who could validate his achievements in the pursuit of his ultimate goal of attaining superiority, and eventually, perfection.

Not only because there was absolutely no one competent enough to take on such a role, it went deeper than that. There was simply no one else whose opinion of him mattered to Perturabo; and even his current goals, as unspeakable and blasphemous as they were, in the end — were all enacted with the ideal end result being for Dorn to witness him, to notice him, to be impressed by him and summarily defeated by him and concede that defeat.

Without Dorn, not even the ultimate heresy — his designs on godhood itself, held any true glory for Perturabo.

There was not a single entity Perturabo valued in any capacity, except Dorn. And he needed Dorn to be in the best shape he could possibly be in, as well. That was another reason for ignoring that wretched loss of a limb. But now, Dorn was so close to falling into the abyss. Not toward Chaos but toward despair. And though one might lead straight into the other, Perturabo would not be hastening either of those outcomes. He refused.

And were he completely honest, even his most foul intentions always included Dorn’s eventual recovery. Bringing him to permanent harm was completely unacceptable and always had been outside his own thoughts.

καλός κἀγαθός.

 

 

καλός κἀγαθός_

….

   ….

      ….

>._

 

 

Perturabo stared intensely into those tear-stained eyes, seeing the lucid intelligence within focused upon him; knowing that he had finally returned to his own mind — but still Dorn did not speak. Perturabo took this as evidence he was making progress on some level but that progress was tentative and as if on the edge of a blade; precarious, dangerous and uncertain, a myriad of outcomes equally likely and few of them within acceptable parameters.

Why wasn’t he responding to his taunting?

“ἀγαπητὸς…?” Perturabo said quietly, trying a different approach that would have been nothing short of whiplash inducing without the understanding that every word out of his mouth in the last few tense and stressful seconds had been nothing more than experimental as he tried everything he could think of to reach Dorn before it was too late — even the things he couldn’t bring himself to say without framing them in a cover of aggression and hostility.

 


 

It took several more seconds, several long agonizing seconds as Dorn struggled to mentally breach the surface of the sheer despair and utter misery that weighed him down, and still lashed its gruesome claws around his throat, threatening to pull him down if he didn’t find something to cling to.

Something that would keep his head above the sensation of pure hopelessness.

That something came in the form of his Brother despite being the very thing that caused this spiral in the first place. All Dorn had wanted was some measure of approval, for creations that he could no longer make; yet the reaction had been swift and crushing, followed by that glance to the very thing that haunted him time and time again and would forever render him as lesser.

Perhaps it was foolish to look for approval from a man that had not been given any throughout his entire life — by any of his Brothers and certainly never his Father.

Yet…

Perturabo’s opinion had grown to truly matter, even in the short time passing since being reunited with one another.

He'd thought…

A pained grimace came across Dorn’s face, even while he was turned away, as if any of the strength that was somehow still remaining suddenly dispersed, leaving him in Perturabo’s strong arms and hands; and purely at his mercy.

Even fresher tears bit and stung at the corners of his eyes as they fell until he heard that phrase, that word alone drew a low sob from Dorn as he turned his head and body back into Perturabo's embrace, his remaining hand reaching out to grasp at his Brother’s himation again as he buried his face into his Brother’s chest.

Ráhkis Ráhkisvuohta.”

"Ale vuolgge…"

Chapter 27: Ale Vuolgge

Summary:

The planet returns to silence; the invader appeased. But does that spark—felt so deeply—still remain?

Chapter Text


 

Another new, foreign word uttered — with no prior knowledge in any database that could be relayed. Perturabo had expected such, confirmed not even a second later when his HUD informed him that his OS had failed to auto-translate it. It was hungrily added to his personal, private record; exactly like all the others Dorn had spoken — each phrase of Inwitian he was granted documented to the best of his estimation of how it should be written, and what it might mean, refined to greater accuracy over time.

A treasure, each and every addition — though as with the previous occurrences, he brought no outward attention to how highly he valued these glimpses into Dorn’s background and identity.

And he certainly wouldn’t comment or ask any questions this time either. Yet he was perhaps the most curious of all about the meaning of this statement — due to the sobbing, desperate voice that carried it, the sound of Dorn’s pleading—his total, abject despair—cutting him to the bone so deeply that it ensured he would not make a log of this moment in time.

Even as far as things had come, the realization he had no desire to relive Dorn’s pain came as a shock. But this was different, he’d convinced himself, rather than allowing the idea that he’d grown soft towards Dorn’s suffering to take hold.

But that was exactly how he was acting, and yet he did not change course, knowing that some way, some how… such a simple, short moment of weaponized scorn had done more damage to Dorn than everything else that had happened so far combined. Despite how resentful he’d truly felt, that simply didn’t add up. But that didn’t make it any less true, or any easier to handle now that he was standing in the wreckage of his own hubris.

Perturabo kept his stance low, rising up just enough to cradle Dorn in his embrace from an optimal height so that he could hold him as securely as possible. He did not let go, did not let up; tears he’d been trying to hold back now trailing down his face from the horrible sound of Dorn’s voice as he'd implored him with words Perturabo did not understand — but he need not know the meaning to grasp the emotions that carried them.

“Dorn. Dorn.” Perturabo called out, trying with all he had to sound disaffected, like he wasn’t falling apart himself; that he wasn’t worried and afraid nor drowning in the guilt of his own remorse. “I did not—”

“—intend for my actions to be interpreted in such a way. I neglected to consider… the…” Perturabo’s voice became far more unsteady, laced with iron discordance, “circumstances.”

“I…"

Of all the things he considered saying, each was worse than the last; things that went against his core tenants, his direct actions, his threats. His very existence. Bitter, tasting of defeat and not at all believable.

 


 

At the moment, the fist that was wrapped around the soft cloth of that himation was a tight one, bunching up the fabric so much so that it'd surely be marked by some manner of creases or tears due to his hold alone. Not once did that white-knuckled grip lessen for a second, seconds… for a minute, minutes… for …how long?

That silence, only punctuated by the ambient noises coming from both of them in alternating intervals, seemed to stretch onwards past the point that it became uncomfortable.

That is, until Dorn found it within himself to speak, words drawn forth in a low tone that now did not carry with it, the sobbing overture that had laced his words and statements earlier.

"Intended… or not…"

Dorn started with that, that low tone still so soft and weak, that now, sounded almost aged as if this interlude had drawn away much of that boyish charm of his youth.

"I'm a wretched… pitiful thing now, aren't I?"

That question was trailed after with a self-deprecating laugh as he finally loosened his hold on his Brother though he did not move away from him yet.

"All this time, I've spent avoiding the inevitable truththat my days of glory and refinement died long ago."

There was a shake of his head against Perturabo's chest before he looked up into those pained, pale-blue eyes.

For Dorn, in truth — all of that had died in the exact moment he'd failed his Father who'd precariously moved beyond the safety of his walls. He failed to stop the slaughter and carnage that preceded and followed, watching as Brother killed Brother. As Brother after Brother perished. As Brother after Brother fell to the wretched forces and temptations of Chaos.

He failed his sons in the Iron Cage, thinking it was a worthy sacrifice to atone for his sins — until Roboute ceased what he must have considered such a pointless battle. He failed his sons after his time upon the Sword of Sacrilege that had pulled him away from the Imperium and his people.

The failure that gave him his permanent disability.

And once he had the freedom from the circumstances of his capture after the 1st Black Crusade, and he did not return to the Imperium to lead his people.

No…

He had used that opportunity to abscond, to run and to leave the Imperium to its fate like some sort of coward. All of this because he could not take it anymore. Despite his stalwart stature and strong mind, bit by bit, those cracks formed and eroded the walls.

He didn't fall to Chaos.

He fell to the machinations of his own mind and the nightmares that haunted him, even now.

By the time he even considered that he might be able to return, untold years had passed, and it was too late to return by the issue of his Thunderhawk, having long lost much of its capabilities beyond what it had retained to keep the ship's most basic functions, functional.

Instead, he was left stranded on a planet that had the greatest defense of all.

Being naught but a forgotten speck of grey dust in the vast, yawning cosmos.

 


 

The seconds ticked by painfully as the silence built continuously upon the already thoroughly awful tension, as Perturabo’s guarded, self-serving excuse for anything resembling a genuine apology did little to provide any relief to either of them; and in his sorely lacking understanding on matters of social grace he was baffled by this, despite his great intellect and unimaginable prowess in other pursuits. The severity and sudden awkwardness of the entire situation had him stumped; and despite the magnitude of his worries that he’d somehow fucked everything up beyond mending with a single moment of careless, unfiltered resentment — he did not know what to do about it.

’Intended or not…’

Perturabo was already bracing himself for the inevitable rebuttal he’d get and wholly deserved, his expression serious yet hardening even further as he waited for the impact of whatever it was that was about to come from his Brother’s lips the second that lead-in was spoken, his mind overclocked as he was already formulating a range of possible defensive, bristly replies in advance.

But what came instead struck him as soundly as a blow from his own warhammer, as what he saw standing before him was not the image of absolute perfection that he had idealized for so long; and in his emotionally driven, dual-minded contradiction — had both aspired to embody and desired to callously destroy for the majority of his unnatural life. Instead, he was forced to observe a dejected, tired old man that was burdened and overcome by his own wretchedness, a worn out husk of what had once been great and mighty, tarnished and defeated — not by his mortal enemy but by time and circumstance.

And it was not at all enjoyable for Perturabo to witness.

Now, what he’d seen earlier when he’d first realized he’d made a mistake—as miserable as it had been—was recontextualized as a tiny glimpse of the true nature of what he’d brought to the surface. And while somewhere within him he confirmed his suspicions that such a fleeting moment had that unexpectedly massive impact was indeed because of much larger factors outside his understanding at the time, it did little to improve the situation; and nothing whatsoever to quell the burning, aching regret boiling in his chest.

To face Dorn in a battle for the ages, to stand against his true equal; to Break the Unbreakable One either by strategy or by violence was a power fantasy of vanity and self-aggrandizing so glorious that he’d obsessed over it for centuries.

But this, was thoroughly miserable; and not right at all — a total antithesis of what should have been.

The shock that had taken over his features in these last moments shifted to panic, to sorrow, to agony — all minimized by who and what he was, to tiny flickers easy to miss entirely were it not for the honesty resonating in his bleary blue eyes. And just as he had before when he’d kissed Dorn, he reacted physically because somehow, all words failed him.

There was so much he could have said, should have said in the minutes that had passed since this unexpected deviation from his schedule began; but through both childish egotism he did not know how to overcome and a genuine lack of understanding of what would have been so simple for anyone else, there was nothing in his mind that could be spoken aloud, no solution to the problem despite the vast complexity of both human feeling and computerized integers that screamed within his consciousness.

In a scramble—yet still somehow cautious enough to take care to not damage Dorn’s magnificent, irreplaceable clothing—he carefully shifted the angle of his arms that were still wrapped around Dorn, so that he could lift his Brother from the floor. Then, Perturabo stood to his natural height for the first time since this had begun, carrying Dorn with him as if he were a stuffed toy. And with that same ease and immature, unreasonable possessiveness he held Dorn to his chest with all that he had. It was desperate — just as desperate as the dark, oppressive and negative emotions that were still emanating from his hulking form, with such potency it was as if a black hole threatened to open up around them.

Guilt. Regret. Remorse that he could not speak.

"Don’t you dare give up,” Perturabo croaked out uselessly again, this time in a weak, teary voice that wasn’t nearly as threatening as it should have been — and instead sounded alarmingly close to begging for one as monstrous as he.

Perturabo had long dreamt of Breaking Dorn’s body and mind in every conceivable way in countlessly cruel methods without even a modicum of conscience, but he had not once ever considered that Dorn’s resolve, his hope—that heart of gold could ever be crushed or even slightly diminished. All this time, he’d relied on that immutable, unfettered spirit that was truly what had always inspired him all this time, what he coveted, what had offended him so greatly; and now was revealed as the one thing in all the universe he could not bear to see destroyed.

καλός κἀγαθός.

 


 

In those seconds of silence after his words, did Perturabo move with that same alarming speed that should not be possible for a man of his theft and bulk. In one fluid motion, Dorn was lifted up into the air, his body forced to be brought towards his Brother’s chest. He was held hostage in a grasp that defied all manner of expectations.

Even if Perturabo was a much larger man than Dorn in about every single sense of that word, the sheer ease that his Brother possessed in the manner of which he could maneuver in such ways, was nothing short of frightening and overwhelming, even causing Dorn to hold his breath for a second until he heard his Brother’s body settle in this new position.

To accommodate this shift, Dorn was forced to bring that hand up again, the one that had been making quite the wrinkle in that stunning himation was now firmly planted upon his Brother’s shoulder, blunt nails blindly grasping against fabric and any measure of skin alike while his left arm was lifted up and draped over Perturabo’s right shoulder, acting as a way to hook onto his Brother.

All the while, his legs seemed to be barely touching the ground beneath him while he was so highly lifted and pushed into his Brother’s chest.

Through his own miasmic emotions roiling in the air, Dorn was soon subjected to Perturabo’s own. He recalled the potency from before, akin to when things had begun to spiral the moment that Dorn had gone to find some fragment of true rest that seemed such a far cry away now. However, this was more cloying and tinging the air this time.

Perturabo may not have had the measure to reveal by words what his consciousness broadcasted, but Dorn could simply feel that sheer amount of unsaid emotion — of a penitent man.

A man that was desperate, to not be forced to watch him break in his arms.

This prospect was a confusing new development. For all the ways that Dorn had read his Brother to filth and had thrown back what his ideals, aspirations and true thoughts were, it was another thing to witness it in such a way due to the fact that Perturabo couldn’t hide it behind jabs and insults or the changing of subjects or violent temper tantrums this time.

His Brother was faced with it, just as much as Dorn, himself, was.

Dorn’s dark gaze settled upon his Brother, to which he refused to put up any fight against that possessive hold whatsoever, stare boring through those pale blues that revealed a soul that should have long since been lost due to the contrivances of the Chaotic Powers that were.

Here he was… being told to not give up.

Those words… to not give up, said by a man that had wanted nothing more in the past than to grind him into a fine paste, to show him up, to gloat… to win. To be better than him, to be better than all of them.

The unlikeliest source of all.

Dorn’s breath hitched in his throat, threatening to choke him as he stared, searchingly, into those wide, wild eyes, seeing nothing but the truth over and over in them as they frantically searched his.

Why…?

Why…?

Why?”

 


 

Because I told you to give me time!” Perturabo barked out aggressively; petulantly, in a discordant, iron laced voice tinged with bitterness. But his unpleasant speech and suddenly accusative expression did precious little if anything to hide the despair that wholly penetrated that electric blue stare, or the vast mire of despondent negativity that still threatened to open up below them as he continued to unwittingly transmit the full scope of his raw and virulent emotions, unfiltered.

Nor did his irritable answer actually address the true nature of Dorn’s simple yet impossible question; though beneath endless layers of iron and promethium, Perturabo’s primary heart knew the truth. His pulse jumped and raced within his massive frame as he endured the full brunt of Dorn’s wounded, seeking eyes — his emotionally charged uptick somehow slipping past the mechanized regulation of his refined biomechanical form before his processor could mitigate it.

He held onto Dorn with iron fisted-resolve, proving beyond all doubt that he was not willing to let him go, though Dorn made no attempts at escape. He folded his titanic arms around Dorn's form, keeping him captive within his forceful embrace.

There was so much he was desperate to say, his throat closing up tightly as his eyes filled with oily, thin fluid; none of it possible to form into words and not one syllable he was willing to admit. Yet the gravity of it all was crushing and oppressive as he continued to drill into that gaze that did not break away from his own. He wasn’t about to be the first to turn away, too petty to lose even such a small fragment of ground despite how exposed and uncomfortable it made him feel to lock glances within this moment.

You have to give me time.” Perturabo demanded childishly, though Dorn had never once committed to his demands in the first place.

 


 

A low groan escaped from Dorn’s throat as that iron-clad hold tightened even further upon him, leaving him with little to no chance of movement in the slightest beyond his legs still hanging almost uselessly above the ground. It wasn’t as if he had any ability to find a method of escape, not that he really planned to actually get away from his Brother in the first place.

Even if there was a nanosecond of a moment where his mind and body kickstarted the process, in the end, there was absolutely no use of even trying as Dorn was more than well aware of how vulnerable he was against a man, a Primarch, a Daemon that could shift in and out of armor by sheer will.

In this moment, his Brother was the stronger one as Dorn had no more strength to genuinely give.

In turn, his Brother didn’t have a proper answer to his questioning of Why? At least, not one that Dorn found particularly satisfactory to what he was really asking behind such a vague one-word question.

“Time.” Dorn repeated, in a low voice that bordered on robotic monotony.

Time…

That was all they had, an endless cycle of seconds, hours, days, nights, and millennia. Primarchs had nothing but time as it marched ever onwards. Time only drew short by only specific mortal blows upon the physical body, yet even that was never a true guarantee.

Though his voice might have fallen flat, his eyes were searching and searching for something behind that oily, glossy, pale gaze. His own expression was far more revealing than his tone was. Seeking. It was as if he was trying to find something to anchor and cling to during this time of despair that nearly swallowed them both.

 


 

“Yes. Time.” Perturabo replied emphatically, his cybernetically enhanced voice ironically carrying far more emotion than that of his flesh and bone Brother — who would have seemed suspiciously close to slipping off into some sort of fugue state again were it not for the need deep within those dark glistening eyes.

A need that sank pain far into Perturabo’s aching chest, though everything was so complicated and entangled between them now it was beyond him to identify or simplify anything at all — as algorithms and computations offered no solutions for the situation he now found himself in; and despite his constant compulsion to perpetually improve himself in all the years that had passed, he was clearly as stunted as ever when it came down to matters of humanity, still unable to relate to or find common ground with others — even those that were important to him. Especially those that were important to him, that he couldn’t simply silence through authority and violence.

Yet there was no denying that he still possessed every bit of his humanity, as oblivious and self serving as he may have been. In fact those very flaws, as problematic as they were only proved the point further; that he was far more than a simple machine.

And that his motivations were genuinely far different than he claimed them to be.

A deep, mechanical sigh vibrated in his throat as he continued to lock eyes with his nemesis, which was growing increasingly uncomfortable; and he realized it was not unlike gazing into a mirror — as words that Dorn had spoken earlier came back to his immediate thoughts.

“That ‘wonderful daydream’,” Perturabo spat out with no shortage of consternation, but it somehow stung less than anything else he could have mentioned, and most importantly—despite the ridiculousness of it all—it was the one thing on his mind that he could manage to form into words.

“Don’t you want to see it for yourself, Brother?” He continued, voice strained as he attempted to convince Dorn to cling to the very thing Perturabo had framed as a threat all this time.

“The plans. They’ve changed, remember?”

And that’s all your fault—his bitter, grating voxvoice inferred—though he did not say that part aloud. Instead he carefully shook his Brother’s body, as if he thought he could somehow physically bring his Brother around if his suggestion failed to tempt him.

 


 

That jostling and shaking, gentle as the motion was, far gentler than a man of Perturabo’s inhuman strength and bulk should have been capable of — seemed to have some telling measure of an effect on Dorn. It caused him to finally blink, breaking that everlong intense stare that he had held upon his Brother.

Though there was the briefest second of a flinch that proceeded even that motion.

It broke whatever effort that Dorn had been trying to make by staring into Perturabo’s very being and, as a result, Dorn was the first one to look away while seemingly ruminating over and contemplating the words that had been uttered.

Eventually, those tired eyes of his closed while the grip on his Brother’s shoulder lessened. A heavy, heaving inhale was taken, filling his lungs, so much so he pressed against Perturabo’s broad chest from the effort. Then, all at once, he sighed, a hot breath against his Brother as if he was pushing more than simply air back out from his lungs.

No, it seemed as if he was also pushing away the smog of negative emotions that had been choking those very same lungs this entire time.

It was a temporary reprieve if anything, but a reprieve all the same.

Seconds dragged on afterwards while Dorn collected himself yet he was soon staring back into electric blue. “Yes, I do, Brother. I want to see it… And I want to see your workshop.” Another pause before he continued, this time his voice not so monotonous, holding a bit more life that before. “I want to see what you have created… or what you will create.”

 


 

Perturabo’s gaze sharpened as he recognized the glint of spirit that had returned to Dorn’s eyes, and he let out a captive breath of relief. Despite how many times Dorn’s strange behavior had led him to thinking the contrary this day, he was once again reassured that Dorn couldn’t be crushed—not truly—as these moments, as tense and dire as they were, proved to be fleeting and transitory.

If there was anything that could truly Break Dorn, Perturabo insisted that it be on his own terms, of his own making and fully deliberate; at least that was what Perturabo told himself to justify how much of an unexpected and unpleasant impact it had on him when it seemed that his Brother was only a second away from giving up on everything.

But was that a true Warrior’s desire to vanquish his ultimate foe only when he was at his best, in order to achieve his rightful glory once and for all rather than through an unsatisfying victory gained through attrition—or something else entirely, that had been slowly seeping in through his armor since the moment he’d laid eyes on Dorn again?

…Not something Perturabo was willing to challenge right now, though this encounter was proving every value that he’d thought he’d held all this time, to be dead wrong.

When Dorn broke the stalemate at last, Perturabo glanced down in his own seeking of reprieve, to cut through the cloying and miserable miasma that had descended upon them, only to look up again as Dorn began speaking. Those eyes, while dark as ever, held that light within them again, something that he’d sorely missed in the several seconds that had passed in the ominous haze.

But then, as words unexpected and nigh unbelievable were levied at him like heavy stones, his usually dour and embittered expression melted away again after being put to right only a moment before.

Oily liquid pooled in his eyelids; and his body stilled, standing like a statue wrought from metal as he continued to dangle Dorn precariously above the floor. A trail reminiscent of lighting bolted across his electric irises as stared in open-mouthed shock at Dorn’s admission, presented to him in an earnest voice as he showed genuine interest in him and all the accomplishments he had made in the many years that had divided them. And the promise of a future

How it hurt, how it stung; that Dorn offered such enthusiasm now when all along he’d strived with all he had, worked himself to the bone while staving off monumental exhaustion and mounting grief to earn but a modicum of appreciation from—

“Is that so?” Perturabo interjected irritably, cutting off not Dorn’s words but his own thoughts, though with his enhanced capabilities that was not as effective as it might have once been.

And as he seemingly sprang to life again after being entirely motionless, his arms were shaking though it was not bearing Dorn’s weight that unsteadied him.

He could hardly believe that Dorn could mean such a thing, though he was clearly a paragon—of sometimes exasperating—honesty. Such a thing being offered to him now, after all was long lost and it no longer mattered, made Perturabo want to slam Dorn down against the hard flooring of the ship so violently that they crashed through it and to the planet's surface below, shattering every reinforced ceramite bone in his Brother’s body in the aftermath.

And yet, he would not, though he deserved little credit for his restraint, for it was not due to the lesson he should have learned only seconds ago, when his impulsive and reactionary cruelty nearly tore his own world asunder.

But because as much as this caused the resentment in his chest to blossom like branches of hemlock, it served his greater purpose now, which was all he was focusing on.

Something, anything, to bolster Dorn’s resolve — as whether he reverted back to the self-aggrandizing cruelty of his original plans like he kept telling himself he would or not, he would have to rely on Dorn’s patience to bring anything to fruition now.

“Then I have to get you to Medrengard somehow, don’t I?” He asked with a sneer, trying to appeal to Dorn’s sense of practicality.

 


 

It was an interesting thing that Dorn picked up on, that sigh, exhaled from a man that seemed to be relieved that he was coming back to his normal self. Though, what really was his normal self? Dorn had spent so long alone and left to his thoughts that he wasn’t entirely sure how he seemed to an outsider looking in.

Much of his limited grasp on social graces had certainly deteriorated after being alone for so long.

His Brother was even worse for wear, and beyond that, he noted how his statement seemed to send an electric shock through Perturabo’s mainframe.

Dorn’s hand slowly lowered to settle upon his Brother’s bicep when that trembling started. Of course he knew the impact of his words. Just as he had read everything before, having been able to set the facts in order to understand his Brother to the best of his own abilities, he knew what his words would set off.

All the more to say it now, when there was nothing between them anymore that could stave off what needed to be exchanged, no matter how late it was.

“I suppose you do what you need to, Perturabo.” Dorn slowly spoke, continuing to gauge his Brother’s expression all the while as he could see gears and thoughts turning behind those eyes that then turned a bit crueler, hiding intentions behind shimmering oil-slick deception.

And so, he spoke again, words that were meant to comfort himself, words that he knew would only be another blow to this perception that Perturabo had tried to uphold and manage this entire time, refusing to speak the truths that he could not find the proper words for.

“Don’t keep me waiting then, Brother. I’ll be here…awaiting your return, counting the seconds as they pass by, until I see you once again.”

 


 

Perturabo’s austere, haughty glare softened if only for the briefest of moments, Dorn’s all-important vow registering within him so substantially that he was unable to disguise his reaction entirely; though he’d somehow managed to hold back and swallow down the viscous fluid discharge once filling his eyes that felt so corrosive despite repurposing his Betcher’s Gland long ago.

He carefully, almost ceremoniously placed Dorn back on his feet, arms suspiciously shaking all the while as he also held back building energy that at least for now, would remain untapped and unused.

Was it even possible for an entity such as he to feel anxiety, worry? A concept he would have scoffed at even a day ago.

A long, slow huffing breath was pushed from between thinly parted lips as he lowered himself slightly, staring deeply into those dusky eyes once more as he spoke, the concern behind his strontium glare conveying the things he still would not say.

“And you will keep your word then?” Perturabo asked, a question as loaded as the arsenal that had become his very being, which was abundantly clear, though Perturabo did not reveal why Dorn’s oath was so important right now or why he valued such a thing from the very person he’d threatened to forcibly abduct all this time.

 


 

There it was.

That small little spark. That stern glare that made lesser men cower under such a gaze had now softened. Just that small crinkling of the corners of those moist eyes, that brief upturn of those prominent eyebrows.

His words struck home.

They had struck hard.

That was what Dorn wanted to see, that every time he said something that he truly did mean, he managed to get through to Perturabo no matter how many walls his Brother put up between them. A defense mechanism, retreating back into a shell so it didn’t hurt so much if the fears became reality.

He meant it when he'd told Perturabo that he’d say what he needed to say over and over again, to override those bitter thoughts and the malignant programming that had exacerbated naught but heinous ideations and self-deprecating and self-destructive notions within Perturabo’s highly computerized mind.

Every time he saw that softer side amidst all the violence… he knew.

He really was getting through.

It’d not be easy to heal Perturabo, it was a task that was nigh impossible, yet his endeavor would remain. Absolute and unyielding, defying all the odds thrown at them. After all, he had gotten this far, he had thrown undisputed truths to counter his Brother’s rage time and time again.

He had changed his mind.

Admitted or not.

Dorn moved his left arm up and off from Perturabo’s shoulder, quickly setting that behind him and out of sight, as if he didn’t want to acknowledge such a thing while he was trying so desperately to be okay. He didn’t want to spiral by any inadvertent glances in that direction and so, just squeezed his Brother’s bicep again with his functional hand.

“Have I ever been one to not keep it?”

 


 

“No.” Perturabo said brusquely in a tone that bordered on dismissive, but his attitude did little to disguise how he truly felt and nothing at all to soothe the turmoil that boiled inside his guts.

Far too many emotions stirred within him, some that conflicted but all of which were wholly unexpected, most of all the way he’d felt as if he were suffocating upon seeing the harm he’d accidentally caused — all from a very personal attack that should have been so validating and uplifting; gratifying beyond his wildest fantasies; and yet all of that changed when the true context had been revealed.

There was no competition, no victory, no gloating if his only equal in all existence couldn’t even participate any longer. Of all the things that had taken him by surprise, it was Dorn’s handicap that impacted him most. He never wanted to draw attention to it, and the moment he had, it felt as though the very foundation they stood upon nearly gave way.

He paid Dorn’s movements no mind, and had no intention of glancing toward that arm that so jarringly ended where it should not have.

“But I’m relying on you to see it through no matter how long it takes me to return. While I have made it unequivocally clear to you that you cannot escape me and that will not change, it is imperative that you keep your presence of mind in the interim.” Perturabo explained, resentful that he had to confess even this much concern outright, but the dread that was gnawing inside him refused to relent. And that feeling would only intensify in the future.

This was the first indication he'd given that even this part would not be as simple as he’d made it seem once, and that something fundamental had changed in the methods that Perturabo would take now — yet he did not explain himself nor seemed keen on doing so. Still, it didn’t take much examination to realize these things, or that this was all far more complicated than originally presented.

And now, he was even more conflicted about it all than previously. Part of him wanted to go, to get out of here as fast as his thrusters would take him lest he do something to ruin things again, yet he genuinely loathed taking his eyes off of Dorn for a single moment. It was a feeling that had been increasing in its virulence and severity from the second he’d forced himself to crawl from Dorn’s bed and get started in doing what had to be done — but his missteps that had shattered Dorn’s fortitude had made it all so much worse.

As much as he always lusted to grind Dorn into a fine, golden dust, there was no enjoyment in that any longer, even conceptually. And there would be nothing but hollow victories in his future unless he could return Dorn to a state worthy of conquering. This abject despair that emanated off Dorn's very being was not the joy he’d imagined it to be.

All because of that missing limb.

The ruination of a perfect creation.

Perturabo vowed that one day, he’d take the head of the one responsible for taking Dorn’s hand. And if he were too late for that, the Warp might provide means still, to enact the retribution of his seething, eternal wrath for that transgression.

“I can’t predict the timeframe.” Perturabo continued, that detail perhaps coming as a complete surprise considering his capabilities, but there was no getting around it now, a truth locked into position from the moment the plan had changed. “There are too many… variables at this stage.”

 


 

And there was that other thing.

Concern.

His Brother may have tried to speak in an unaffected tone, but there was no ability to disguise what was roiling right underneath the surface with the concern that was set in his direction — especially after everything that had happened and all that had had been said, what made it all spiral.

Dorn knew he would not be all right for quite a while after the blunders and complete lack of regard afforded him, yet he also was not shutting down like he had been before. While the whispers of malaise and intrusive thoughts ate away in the back of his mind, his focus remained on his Brother right in front of him.

So concerned was Perturabo to make sure Dorn kept his wits about him.

“Very well.”

A pause followed that statement.

It seemed as if Dorn was considering something, an unreadable storm behind those dark hazel eyes as he turned his head to the side and downwards, staring at Perturabo from the edges of his vision. Then he lifted his head up, past Perturabo’s frame and to something else. “Then…”

Dorn moved with deliberate steps, sidestepping around his Brother and to the central console, his good hand lifting up to lightly stroke and tug at his beard while he still seemed to be deep in thoughts that clearly did not involve him just giving up on everything and everyone around him.

Once he made his way to the central console where his Brother had been before, he dropped his hand down to an object that he had left there— his helmet. As soon as he felt it in his hand, he turned towards his Brother and offered it out to him. “Take this.”

Another pause.

Then more vows spoken.

“My armor is incomplete without it. I will expect that back in my hands when you return and while I may be able to function well enough without it, it is still quite an integral part of me all the same. Take it as… collateral… to know that I will remain here.”

 


 

Perturabo’s shrewd and unbroken stare was locked on to Dorn’s countenance as he appeared to be considering something, an unmistakable but elusive expression settling on his well defined features. And when he turned and began to walk, Perturabo turned as well, not missing a single moment as he witnessed what it was his Brother was up to with increasing curiosity.

His brow furrowed with apprehension, thick eyebrows nearly touching as consternation flickered across his face upon seeing that gilded offering; and he sprang into motion, fast and incredibly long strides carrying him to Dorn’s side with alarming quickness. His hands reached out in unison as if to take that helmet from his Brother but he refrained from doing so, looking down at Dorn with hesitancy.

“Do not think for one moment that I do not deeply desire such a… prize.” He began in a stern voice, hardly able to believe he was even considering turning such a thing down. An object of great beauty and incalculable value that he would have once kept close, always. Now, the very thought of possessing it filled him with half-hearted glee, as it too was spoiled by the rapidly changing circumstances. “But won’t that leave you in a precarious position if something should happen while I’m gone?” Perturabo posed the hypothetical with no small amount of apprehension.

In the case of an emergency, worst case scenario — wouldn’t Dorn require that ornate, bespoke helmet in order to breathe?

He glanced down at it momentarily and then back to his Brother’s face once again. “As much of a promise as it offers, I suspect it would cause me…”

…endless fretting, unrelenting worry

“—more problems than it solves.”

 


 

For the first time, Dorn managed to crack a disarming, wry smile as something glinted behind his dark eyes that had parted that sludge of depression to make way for amusement while he continued to hold his fabled helmet aloft.

“Are you worried, Brother?”

His voice carried a jesting tone as he ignored the painful uptick of both of his hearts suddenly racing, causing a deep ache from within.

 


 

Perturabo, on the other side of this banter, was not at all amused. He braced visibly as such a distasteful accusation was levied at him, but he did not take his eyes off of Dorn for a micro-instant.

“Of course not!” He snapped with hostility, but within the frigid, stinging glare of his icy blue eyes, there resonated the truth. And full seconds ticked by before he spoke once more, all the while that maintained stare was awkwardly intimate; Perturabo like a frightened, insecure child unable to physically assure the security he desperately needed. That silent gaze was soon replaced by his bristly attitude, but it was not certain whether what had slipped past it was deliberate, wordless communication or wholly accidental. Just like the dark miasma of heartache that precipitated it and lingered still in the spaces between them like a fog.

“I. I simply consider all outcomes within the scope of my calculations.” He said at last, and though precious little time had passed, it seemed an eternity.

 


 

There it was again.

That little sliver of emotion that Perturabo could never hide for the life of him, likely because he wasn't able to conceal it when he was being stared at so intently by another force that was just as prone to picking up the smallest minutiae of details.

Tears stung the corners of his eyes, but this time he stubbornly did not let him fall.

"Very well…" Dorn said, tone shifting away from that of the levity he had brought forth in the previous moment. "I will be fine, assuming you have seen naught wrong with the ship's life support systems during your…"

Dorn shrugged, uncertain what to call whatever the hells Perturabo actually did to his Thunderhawk but soon settled on a word, "…Investigations…"

That wasn't the only thing.

"And outside influences will not be a issue, as you have been the only other living thing that I have seen over thousands of years, much less being the only one to have found me."

 


 

“Your life support systems are adequate and should remain fully operational for quite some time.”

Perturabo glanced down and reached out with his right hand as the time marched on at a painfully fast rate—now that it was no longer uncomfortable conversations he dreaded, but his inevitable departure—but he was not aiming for that helmet. Instead he moved past it, to carefully stroke at the delicate lines of masterfully crafted, colorful embroidery that covered Dorn’s broad form. His touch was admiring, like an unspoken apology — though it was not solely to appease, for he had been overwhelmed by its skillful, intricate beauty from the moment he’d laid eyes on it. Something he likely would have complimented rather than outwardly rejected if he had given a single moment’s thought to the condition of its creator rather than falling prey to his own envy.

“Even so, are you sure, Dorn? I would accept most anything as collateral, but even within the scope of your armor, this seems almost too vital to wager.”

It was an odd statement, as that just pointed out why it was the very item Perturabo himself should have demanded from the start.

 


 

What might have been another light-hearted attempt at some sort of Dornian humor died the moment that Perturabo reached out. This time, it wasn’t for the helmet that he so tantalizingly offered up to his Brother, but that hand placed itself upon his chest, upon the beadwork and embroidery there that had been all painstakingly handmade.

That attention was given to his artwork, in a much more physical way instead of the verbal when Perturabo had talked at length about his craft and the manner of which those scrimshawed bones meant to Dorn to be able to create.

That gesture alone said more than anything that Perturabo could have managed to string together. No words were needed for Dorn to understand and hear him loud and clear. That fact alone caused Dorn to quickly turn his head away as the tears that had been stinging the corners of his eyes were now freely falling tracks down the sides of his face and into his facial hair.

For seconds following did his own hearts beat fervently in his ears while he struggled to respond.

“I am sure… I will be… fine… Just do not take too long.” Dorn managed to push out the words while that same crushing pain gripped at his hearts like iron.

 


 

“It won’t take one second longer than what is absolutely required of me. I promise you that.” Perturabo said, voice shaking with sudden conviction, his words likely revealing far more than he ever intended.

“And were there any other options available, I would not leave you at all.” He continued, his resolve crumbling by the second.

He suspected that Dorn was overcome by something that he did not wish for him to see, and he would not violate Dorn’s pride now. Though on some level, he wanted to, yet it was not for his typically mean-spirited reasons. He wanted evidence, proof that Dorn was truly unhappy to see him go. And the longer this played out, the more he too wanted to abandon everything and stay here, though absolutely nothing would come of it. Even that suited him just fine, as he'd considered time and time again. To walk away from it all and remain in isolation and obscurity forevermore, to be with Dorn on this dried out husk of a world; unburdened and without responsibility, all his goals and ambitions left to rust upon the metallic spires of Medrengard.

The only thing that prevented him from doing that, was the understanding that eventually, somehow — that would bring upon his downfall, and Dorn’s with it. Staying here would be condemning them both, though that fate would be perhaps eons from now if he were lucky, making the prospect all the more tempting.

No. He told himself again and again. Once this was complete, as hard as it would be, and they were behind the borders of his domain, he’d never have to part with Dorn ever again. And from there, he could—

No. For now, he would only dwell on the immediate future. Everything else, he’d attend to later.

He had enough to accomplish now, without increasing the scope of his design.

“I won’t forgive you, Rogal Dorn… if I return to find you in any lesser condition than I leave you,” he spat out in a hateful, harsh whisper as he at last, took that auric helmet into his grasp.

 


 

As Perturabo spouted mysterious calculations into the air, and the other options line, Dorn’s shoulders had begun to shake, his entire body trembled as if he was overcome by whatever had affected his Brother mere moments ago. What started out as an uncomfortable seed was now a growing pit of unease that formed in his stomach, all the while he kept his head down and turned away so his Brother could not read him.

Oh how the millennia had changed him—

How Perturabo had changed him, being the biggest change of all in the most literal and figurative sense of the word.

What seemed at first like a way to atone for the sins he committed, this solitude did not seem so ideal anymore. Now that the only other person he had seen for these long, long years was leaving, the knife felt like it twisted in deeper — as if it was a chainsword with teeth turned inward to rend him inside out.

He didn’t want his Brother to leave.

Even if Perturabo’s leaving was the best course of action so that his Brother could prepare, and ease whatever it was that was on his mind and left untended to back on that mechanized hell that his Brother ruled over.

For a second, Dorn’s mind idly wandered, curious if something greater than he was laughing at the prospect of how much had changed. Was this fate? Or was it some other machinations that played and toyed with him. Something that did not have Chaotic taint upon it at all.

It all started with that spark of hope.

Those thoughts stilled as harsh words filled the air and as he felt the weight of his heavy helm finally leave his outstretched hand, something compelled him to snap his head up at his Brother, staring hotly into those electric blue eyes.

Just as quickly, his hand moved at a speed that had not been seen since the start of his entire morose spiraling from earlier. It was as if the warrior came forth once more, the one that had been fighting Perturabo upon this dying planet with the dying star hours ago.

His fist curled around fabric as he yanked and tugged with enough power that Perturabo would be forced to lean forwards until they were face to face with one another. Tears continued to stream tracks down the sides of Dorn’s face, yet there was a fire in those dark eyes that was not there before as his lips pulled back so he could bare his teeth at his Brother. Then he spoke with a deep, growling snarl.

“I won’t forgive you, Perturabo… if you leave me here longer than necessary upon this planet after insisting you’d return to me. I’ll find a method to find you and kill you myself if you do.”

 


 

Perturabo was caught completely off guard by the sudden determination and vigor that had overcome his Brother seemingly out of nowhere — that sorrowful, defeatist disposition evaporating in an instant; and as he was caught in the gaze of those resolute, glistening hazel eyes alight with resolve, his entire system was struck with a sharp jolt as if he’d been caught in a violent thunderstorm and summarily struck by lightning. That current of rogue energy shot through him like a power surge, his strontium irises flashing white briefly before it dissipated; and he stared at Dorn with affectionate fascination he was too slow to conceal.

He swallowed thickly as the words registered.

A promise made, and sealed with a threat.

Perturabo bristled, a wry smile tugging faintly at the corner of his mouth, and he tucked that gilded helmet against the side of his chest with his elbow, so that both hands were free.

And without a moment’s consideration, those huge hands cradled Dorn’s face, thumbs pressed against his soft, white beard as his fingers wrapped around his jawline.

“Not one nanosecond more than what is absolutely necessary.” Perturabo declared with conviction and fervent resonance in his deep, ironclad voice. “I didn’t go though all this just to lose you again. You’re mine, Rogal Dorn. Remember? And when I return your helmet to you, that exchange will make this contract complete.”

As if Dorn had ever been given a choice in the matter up until now. As if he could turn him down when the time came.

 


 

As those larger fingers cradled his jawline, Dorn let out a sigh that seemed truly satisfied at their exchange of words and the promises aired—spoken and unspoken.

He let his Brother go, fist turning into a flat palm that now rested upon Perturabo's chest, upon where he could feel those hearts thrumming underneath his hand alongside mechanical controls.

"Very well." Dorn settled to say.

Though, the look in his eyes and the way his mouth opened slightly suggested that he wanted to say more yet could not find the strength to, despite showing much of that before and more just now.

But there was something he could not resist and that was to turn his head so he could press a kiss upon the fingers that were intent to card into his beard.

"You should go…"

There was such hesitancy in Dorn's voice in speaking those words, which was barely above a whisper, even despite knowing what Perturabo coming back entailed for him.

 


 

'You should go.'

Those words were as sharp and stinging as death by a thousand cuts — not because they were cruel, but simply because they were true, a fact Perturabo had been dwelling on all this time.

And procrastinated against following through again and again because he truly did not wish to leave.

Never again, he told himself over and over, as if trying to rewrite his own looping output. This was a sacrifice for something far greater.

There was no other choice.

“Yes,” Perturabo said gruffly, then gave Dorn’s face a quick, fleeting caress that was not at all enough but he forced himself to pull his hands away as his chest felt as it was wrought from lead.

“I will be back for you. Count on that. No matter what it takes.” He said somberly and with heavy, lumbering steps he made his way toward that threshold, as if he was marching to his own execution.

There was so much more he should have said, but it was no use. And even if he could’ve somehow found a way it only would have made everything harder.

Don’t look back.

Wasn’t that how it went?

He understood why, now. For as much as he’d have given anything for one last glimpse, he knew taking it would have made it likely that he’d not have the determination to actually depart.

“ἀγαπητὸς.”

 


 

This was an inevitability.

Somehow, even that gentle caress almost drew Dorn to his knees, as any further words died in his throat once his Brother pulled away and walked away from him with slow lumbering steps — each that drew him closer and closer to the exit of this chamber that had been Dorn’s home. He did not dare to look at Perturabo now, with their parting nanoseconds away.

It hurt.

And to hear that word.

“Ráhkis.”

That was his whispered response, with a wavering tone that was entirely out of character for the stoic, steadfast Dorn who spoke things with such conviction and finality. This was a meager, whispered utterance that bordered upon breaking, yet was said all the same.

 


 

That word felt like a offence to his every sense, as if he’d had ice cold water dumped unceremoniously on his head; but still, he did not turn back.

Oily, gleaming tears, slick and thin, rolled down his face like a misty flood; and still, he did not turn back.

He quickened his already frantic pace, nearly breaking into a full sprint as he made his way out of the Thunderhawk as fast as his legs could carry him without damaging the ship, not even slowing his gait as he reached down and grabbed his weapon; Forgebreaker in his right hand, Dorn’s helmet supported by his left.

It seemed almost a mockery of how he’d boarded this ship not so long ago, when he’d brought their effects inside. A humourless, miserable laugh crossed his lips as he continued his thunderous trek, and within moments, he was gone.

And as he boarded his ship, he could not transform himself fast enough, taking on a cursed, black encased physicality that Dorn had never seen — but surely would in due time.

He busied himself with the technicalities of disembarking, placing his weapon in its intended rack before going though the process of connecting the proper cables to himself, the act somehow both more inconvenient and frustratingly time consuming than he’d ever felt it to have been in the past. It took several minutes but somehow he made it through, and without a moment’s delay the thrusters of his craft fired with blue-white heat as he established the proper datalinks and mentally relayed coordinates with such dispassionate roteness it was as if he’d finally become the mindless computer he claimed to be.

But even as he did so, he did not let go of Dorn’s helmet, the only comfort he could hold onto in the long, grueling days to come.

Was this what it was always supposed to feel like, to be devoid of a soul? Somehow, he had never felt so entirely vacant before. And yet, it hurt, terribly.

As reluctant as he was to leave, he reminded himself again and again that this was all in the pursuit of something far greater; perhaps the most important undertaking of his existence. This final separation was a small compromise, in the grand scheme of it all.

After enduring ten thousand years without, a short separation was a small sacrifice to make in exchange for the promise of eternity.

That miserable ache he suffered now would be his constant companion until his return, and his motivation to achieve his new goals as quickly as possible. For there was but one thing that could ever possibly heal it.

 


 

As the footsteps grew further and further away, a fresh round of tears painfully stung Dorn’s eyes and rolled down his face, a hitch heard in his voice as he sucked in a lungful of air painfully. It was as if he was being reminded that he needed to breathe after holding it for so long.

He knew when Perturabo had left the ship as there was the slightest, nearly imperceptible shift of weight from his Thunderhawk. Only seconds later did Dorn fall to his knees, hitting the ground with a loud clamoring noise as his bleary gaze remained downcast and staring at the grating below that covered the floor of his ship.

By the time he heard the distant roar of that singular vessel, his body had begun to shake as he was not only shedding tears, but was now openly weeping, something he’d not done properly since long millennia had passed him by, bringing nothing with it but melancholic despair.

Dorn could not afford to allow himself to break completely, to keep the promise he had given Perturabo, but that did not stop the emotions that poured forth from a man that been nearly apathetic to all that went on around him for so long.

And as that rumble of thrusters threw Perturabo into the atmosphere, Dorn continued to grieve their parting in this truly bizarre turn of events. Though he knew that this was only meant to be a temporary parting, his hearts continued to ache throughout it all, reminding him of everything that had happened in such a short time in his own estimations. 

Solitude, once changed, felt more like isolation

Yet, for now, there was nothing more to do than wait and, begrudgingly, get to work, to busy himself in mind, body and spirit — until the first sign of a return.

Notes:

[Author's Note — (Skiah Immaterium): For those of you that made it this far, thank you so much for joining us on this harrowing journey. To everyone that read this story, you are appreciated. And to those kind enough to leave kudos and comments, you gave us the confidence and encouragement to post what would have always remained only accessible to the two of us, otherwise.]

[Author's Note — (Empyrean Magpie): Personally, I just wanted to give my most heartfelt thanks to those that have read through this story to it's completion and have given their time, kudos and/or a comment or two towards it, it means a lot to me and warms my heart to know that people enjoy our collaborative writing.]

Solitude... can and will now fully stand on its own as a complete story, but this is by no means the end of this saga. There is much more to show for the future, and we will move on to the next chapter in their lives. Enjoy~, and godspeed.

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