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“I wish I knew how to quit you.”
BrokeBack Mountain by Annie Proulx

It was another round of the twisted game they were all forced to play, the round started briefly as they were transported to the place where this round was gonna happen, the weather was cold, but it didn't matter much to two time, right now they were wearing their usual clothes, just with a coat on top of them, since the weather was freezing these days and chance said that they needed to cate care of themselves. They made sure that they had everything ready before moving, their dagger, and.. will to live(? Doubtable.

After kneeling and doing the ritual so their second life would be granted, they began looking for generators, and maybe some medkid he could give to Elliot later, they didn't know who the killer was since they were distracted when it was mentioned, so they walked mindlessly around the map, the river smelled like poison as they went near the hill with the well on top, most of the time there was a generator nearby, they caught out of the corner of their eyes chance flipping his coin, they didn't thought much of it until they heard the gunshot pierce the air, with Chance body then falling limp after being thrown.. they froze as they turned around to see, but the killer was already gone, now that feeling of dread and guilt washed over them as they walked to do the generator, with guilt written over their face, they couldn't help but feel guilty whenever one of their companions died, since well, they just felt that pain in his chest, they don't know how to describe it through maybe they should really go see a doctor.. or a therapist.. whatever fits best.

After finishing the generators, they began to walk again, their grip on the dagger tightening. They didn't know how many of them were left alive since they didn't hear guests yelling or shedletsky swords, and that filled them with fear, not that they would show it much. As they continued to walk, they heard someone running, 7n7. They rushed to assist him as he was injured and covered in some type of slime.

“7n7! Do you have any serious injuries? One may assist you if necessary, spawn has blessed me with a medkid,” they said, not so loud yet not low as they reached to 7n7 side, grabbing them by the torso as they helped him to lay on a wall

“umm, I'm fine two time, no need to worry” he hurried to say, that fatherly tone present in his voice, They shook their heads.

“I refuse to accept such a lie, you are hurt, and need assistance, elliot it's dead I suppose, but one may help with some bandages”

“Two time, it's not necessary, I insist, you should keep the medkid for yourself, it's a new killer, and they seemed to be looking for you” Those words made two time froze.

“Looking for me? c-can you try to describe them 7n7? Can you do the favor to-” Two time was shushed by the other

“I know they had tentacles and were slimy.. yet you shouldn't worry two time, I'm pretty sure you would be able to go through this round without any injuries” he sooted, making two time look away, as they felt scared, and even if they were, that stupid smile was still on their face, just some sweat “you're gonna be just fine, I'm just.. going to rest my eyes a bit” he muttered laying on the wall again, two time knew that 7n7 was just going to die since he lost way to much blood and seemed to be poisoned. It did not take long until 7n7 died, and he felt that rough, agonizing pain in his back, and also the sudden change of place dizzied them out a bit...

“May the spawn protect and enlighten me during this round” They put their hands on a way of prayer, muttering a quick one before getting ready to attack and protect themselves in case of an ambush or a simple attack, and even so their movements were sloppy since the wings made his life a mess. They hear a shuffling sound, and before they can even react, they freeze. They knew that face much more than they wanted to admit, this couldn't be real, not real at all, they had killed him with their own hands, they had carried his body through the path until they reached the field of nightshades, and they had used their body in the ritual, how.. unless… the spawn granted them a second life, that would explain what they were seeing them right now, they knew they should be smiling, the leader told him so, they should smile if they wanted to be blessed by the spawn.. but he couldn't he just couldn't, the other felt way to unreal

“you.” azure(? Muttered angrily, as they stared with hatred at the other “Are you enjoying your second life? The one you took away from me, the one you stabbed my back for!” he raised his voice, really fucking annoyed at the person fronttnt of him

“azure,” they muttered as they stared, they had missed the other so much, and to know that they were alive brought him a sense of relief, but also a sense of guilt, they had killed the other over selfish reasons, BUT it was the leader's wish! And the spawn had brought Azure back again! Yet you killed them, and destroyed the friendship and almost love that once sprouted, it was like a half-dead plant, not dead, but you would need patience and love to grow it again...

“Answer me you sult!” he growled as he held two times his throat in his hand.

“azure..” they muttered softly.

“don't you dare say my name, traitor, can't believe I once-” he stopped his words as he noticed two time crying, he slowly lowered him, even in this state, he hated to see the other crying… with a huff, he put his hand on top of the others head “why are you crying eh? You have no right to do so” his tone was softer now, and well, as he tried to soothe(? The other a bit, two time wrapped their arms around them repeating those 2 words over and over again.

“I'm sorry”

After a bit, Azure reciprocated the hug “Stop repeating that, it makes you look pathetic.” They said coldly, they never liked how two time let themselves be walked over by the leader or other people.

“I won't, I… am really sorry azure!” they muttered as tears flooded from their eyes, the clock was ticking, 40 seconds left.

“I can see you are…” he muttered with a huff, as he watched the others drowning in their own tears “why.”

“uhm..?” they lifted their head at the question. Tilting it to the side in confusion

“Why did you do it..? we don't have much time so don't try avoiding the question,” he said firmly. kinda annoyed

“the leader told me to.. she said I would get a second life if I did so, and she also promised that the spawn will grant you a second life.. so..” as they confessed, their face were teensy red from embarrassment, that sounded silly out loud.

“you and your devotion for the spawn... I never understood why you followed her rules so submissively..” he muttered more for themself than the other close to him “killed me for a second life.. can't say it wasn't what I expected..” as he gently pulled away from the hug, two times spoke again.

“Do you think I'm worthy of forgiveness..?”

“no. I don't think you deserve it.” two times looked away as those words left azures mouth “Yet… seeing you like this affects me way more than I would like, you have more scars than you used to have, pisses me off”

“u-uhm.. I guess that explains it.. a-ah.. times it's running off.. Should we meet somewhere when we are back.. at the ‘normal world’? I really.. want to make up f-for what I did”

“guess I can arrange somewhere.. my cabin is pretty… poisonous you can say… but I guess.. i can't try and arrange somewhere for us to meet at” his voice turned soft, as they stared at the other “you look pretty.”

Two time looked away embarrassed again “Thanks.. you look cool too… umm t-till next time Azure…”

The last survivor has won

Then they were transported to the usual place, two times seemed to be tired, yet they were happy, they were so happy they could jump around and even write their whole bible

“I told you, you could make it,” 7n7 said as he got closer to the other

“yeah.. maybe it was just luck.. but… this.. this round was a good change!” they began making their way into their room and getting in position to pray for the spawn. It was late at night. Maybe they could finally sleep without getting a nightmare

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“I’ve never had a moment’s doubt.
I love you.
I believe in you completely.
You are my dearest one.
My reason for life.”
Atonement by Ian McEwan

It would be another “normal” day if it wasn't for the fact that two time was happily going everywhere, they seemed well rested and didn't have the gross eye bags they usually had, the first to notice was elliot, as hr was one of the first awake, one of the ones that knew how to cook (the other ones were bullderman, dusekkar, and shedletsky, but he only knew how to make fried chicken)

“Are you alright two time? You seen extrangely happily” he mentioned as he served the whisked eggs he had

Two time noded “I feel just fine, Elliot, the spawn has blessed me with good news, and I'm thankful for that.” They closed their eyes in a cute little way. Elliot gave a nod as he escaped the scene. No matter how much he could hang out with two time he would always find them weird, they thanked the spawn for every single bit in their life, kinds obsessive if you asked him

Meanwhile azure was serving himself some food at the killer's cabins, they felt warm and cozy, not because it was on fire or anything, just the killers kinda had the vibe of a happy family, he usually talked with 1x about feeling, (even if the other could only feel hatred) but he did it because he kinda related to 1x, and he didn't really comprehend how hate should feel like, sometimes took care of pr3ttyprinces or c00lkid whenever they were sick. Since in their garden they had a lot of medial herbs, they never took care of bludud, he kinda hates that child

Times with Jason were pretty quiet, since the other didn't really like to talk, but were nice and comfy either way, noli… noli was something different. Their obsession with that one survivor with the burger on the head was sickening, they, most of the time only yapped about that, how they used to be together, he really had an obsession and needed to work on it, really bad, then itrapped, they remembered azure of elsa, maybe related to his ice powers, but he didnt know how to feel about him, he didn't knew him much and well. They avoided him most of the time, he seemed like a very rough guy

He likes to try and help John Doe remember stuff from his past, since he can't imagine not being able to recall his moments two time. Would he even recognise their face if they couldn't remember? Or would they just see them as a blurry figure in their past.. either way. He always made sure to make small proofs of amnesia to the other, asking him things that happened recently and stuff then.. guest 666, he resembles a weird creature, it took them a while to get used to his enormous figure, but they were fine with it now, lastly mafioso, always in a corner being.. weird, at least to aruze, he seemed really egocentric and it was kinda visible that he “hated” the gambler, he found their relationship weird. with calm steps he went to the fluffy couch that they owned, and sat to have his breakfast, he was still in deep thought, well he could try to arrange a place, like his garden, as long as two time doesn't eat one of the plants it would be fine, he the realized was he was thinking.. he still hated two time (even if all those time he talked with 1x, the humanized hatred said it wasn't hate, that he was just suck up and still in love) yet reuniting with him brought certain butterflies, a feeling he knew too well from that time, he remembers how two time always made their heart flutter, and.. this is just how he was feeling that night

they shook his head and continued eating, Pr3ttyprincess was there, she gently approached Azure, with her little crazy expression and some lipstick smudged, because she liked to put makeup sometimes

“you have your lipstick smudged ” he said gently as the girl approached him

“I know mr. azure! but i think its looks pretty” she game a small giggle, her voice always sounded a little deranged

“is that…? or could you just not wipe it out..”

“mr. Azure knows too much” she grumbled with a pout as she got onto the couch “how has killer life been treating mr. azure?”

“mmm. had better days, but.. i guess it's going to turn for the better” azure smiled at her gently, even if she was a killer he knew that she grew alone because her parents died, so he didn't really mind taking care of her

“did mr. Azure finally reunite with their lover?”

“how do you- ”

“You don't know how to keep secrets mr azure! It was pretty obvious since the start”

“... why do i keep up with you” he grumbled as he took another bite of his food

“because you care about me!”

“Shame I do.. ”

“I also care about mr azure! When he's killer i make sure to water his plants”

“i’ve only been killer once”

“STILL! I watered them..”

“whatever you say girl…”

They settled onna comfy silence as he began eating again, after a while 1x came through the door

“!S PR3TTYPR!NC3$$ H3R3?” azure pointed at her

“there”

“Y0U 4ND ! H4V3 4 L0T T0 T4LK M!1SS” he said, his voice loud as always as he picked her up, PR3TTYPRINCESS looked annoyed, azure saw them disappear before continuing with his meal, he didn't feel as off as the first days he was here, it feel usual now, taking care of the kids, making sure they are well fed and not sick.. it all remembered him to the “good” times in the cult, he was one of the oldest here, but he didn't let himself be humiliated like others, he just… he had a good friendship with the leader, because well the leader and him were not too different of age, he was (when he was alive) 23 meanwhile the leader was 33, he remembers how the leader was one of the oldest kids in the cult, and how they helped him pray the spawn, all those stuff.. he met two time when he was 14…

we are getting out of topic around here, maybe we should go back to two time?

two time was looking around their closet, their pants hanging loosely still, they were looking for something nice to wear, they really wanted to wear one of the cute things that the spectre gave them, they usually didn't do it because even if their wings only showed when they are on their second life, they do have small bumps on their back, to were the wings are supposed to be, they hate when they come out, it just hurts… so much, it was tearing pain that made their stomach curl, it was horrible, maybe that's why they never wore pretty things, just his shirt that successfully covered those two little bumps, even so… his shirt got always tired when he entered his second life, besides that, he continued looking for stuff in his closet, he was very aware that the other would find weird his cloth change, he hoped that he didn't have to explain what happened last round, they would hate to do so, after all they would have to include why azure seemed so mad at them, that would be a hassle.. BINGO!

they found a pale blue shirt, it was soft and nice, comfortable, he could mix it with his usual black pants (that were always a goon of falling out) and well, sure its gonna look good, yeah, pretty sure, they fiddled with it for a bit, questioning themself if the change was really worthy, to be honest

they never liked change

but as many people had told them, change is necessary for good things to happen, “change it's a blessing of the spawn” they reminded themselves as they took of their shirt, looking in the mirror without any shirt on, two time was AFAB (HC) they didn't really care much about the looks, their chest wasn't really big to be honest and they didn't mind having a coin slot instead of a cucumber, what whatever, they were used to this, they didn't care much anymore, the cult was indeed not so accepting of their gender, but with many prayers they managed to be called they/them inside there, they didn't wear bra or something like that, they were more likely flat, they liked it, quite the load, with the shirt on they looked more soft, they put the bandana around their neck, looked at the mirror, damm, it had been so long since they wore something different

they softly left to see who were the ones chosen for the next round, to be honest, two time wanted to be chosen, at least in the rounds were azure was the killer, as they entered the living room, they saw mostly everyone, shedletsky was eating fried chicken while builderman cooked, dusekkar and taph were “chatting” mostly dusekkar speaking an thaps saying short responses on sign language, guest and chance were speaking about the way that they were able to stun the killer, elliot and 7n7 were sitting uncomfortably on the couch, but they were mostly chatting and noob was sitting on the table drinking one bloxy cola, everyone seemed to fit in,, except them, they turned their attention to the board, the next that were going to the round were everyone except them and dusekkar…

they were pretty sure dusekkar hated them
for some reason
they could not understand

with a sigh they continued their way to the fridge for a glass of water, usually when it wasn't their turn to the round they would just play some music on their room, pray to spawn or just.. stay there, they knew they needed better methods to pass out the boredom, that hey needed to talk, but they just didn't find the energy to talk to the rest of the survivors, they all seemed him as an outcast.. they shook their head gently, the others were leaving in less than 5 minutes, he could only pray that they all would not have any major injuries during the game, with sloppy steps they went outside, rather ignore it than acknowledge it, it was dark, as always, it seemed like the sun never rises here, with calm steps they made their way to the dock on the end of the.. what they supposed was an island… it brought them doubt, where the hell do the killers rest? should they go and investigate?

they didn't know
they didn't know at all

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“You are my heart
my life
my one and only thought.”
The White Company by Arthur Conan Doyle

two time was teletransported to were the round was gonna happen, the pirate one, they never cared to learn the names to the field they were forced to be on-

rattlesnake

the killer this round was 1x, they could tell by that annoying rattlesnake sound that they(? made, they should definitely get other swords, ones that aren't as loud as those, they made their way to one of the generators, wanting to get over this quickly, they didn't care this round now

azure was not there
they did not care
at all

they were desperate, they wanted to fix everything they messed up, they wanted things to be like before, the thing is.. 2 rounds had already happened and they haven't been killer yet! they never thought they would want a killer in specific, guess that's what love does to. the generator was easy, or that what he wants to think, they haven't seen any of their companions… scratch that, elliot and chance were on top of the boat, was chance hurt? did their flick flock explode on them again..? uh.. elliot it's already taking care of that anyway…

they should go and fight the killer, if chance is hurt, shedletsky and Guest must be on disadvantage, they had to help, be useful somehow, they got closer to where the other two were

“chance? elliot?” they asked, putting their hands close to their chest

“ah, there you re little they” chance said with simples as he ruffled two time’s hair

“please not” they reminded as the gambler took their hand away

“right..” he crossed his arms “where are you looking for something?” two time shook their head

“Once I was worried about both of your wellbeing, hoping they could be of any help” they raised their voice a little bit, to make sure the other two heard him well “were you fighting 1x with shedletsky and guest 1337?” they tilted their head to the side, gripping their blade on the pocket of their pants

“ah that.. 1x seems more aggressive, yet shed and guest had him controlled” elliot responded for chance, who was eating that pizza as if had gold

“Do you think they request my help?”

“not much, but there's never too much help” chance said, finishing his portion of pizza, and flipping his coin “i'm ready to keep fighting, after all, there's never too much gambling” he gave a smirk “feel free to come two time. but just know your help is going to be appreciated”

“on my way.”

when they reached the scenery was as they expected, shedletsky was munching on some fried chicken, on a corner recovering a bit of his life while guest was doing front for him, Two time did not miss a beat, they grabbed their dagger with a strong grip, stabbing killers it's a good way to release stress, with a quick movement, they were behind 1x without the other even noticing, two time with a smirk stabbed the others back, dragging the blade and then twisting it, they knew this wouldn't do much to the killer, but it would stun them, that was enough, 1x let out a growl, after all, two time always makes sure to twist the blade, things amara that taught them that!

guest gave them a nod as an acknowledge and give him some thanks, shedletsky gave the, a goofy smile, two time smiled back, they were certainly glad to have such an useful team.

they were snapped out of their thoughts when they heard someone talk to them, they tilted their head gently as they faced 1x

“huh?”

“Y0U TH3 ON3 TH4H JUST $T4BB3D M3”

two time felt danger, they kept the blade up, even if it hurt
“C4LM TF D0WN..” they seemed quite annoyed, but they dragged their hands two time’s “H3R3, D0N’T 4SK.. ! D0N’T 3V3N KN0W WHY ! D0 TH1S” a folded paper, two time took it rather gently, as always, nice, he gave a small bow to 1x as a way to show respect, and sneaked to the side to read the folded paper on their hands

“Two time

my apologies for delivering this rather late, I didn’t know any way to be able to contact you, yet 1x offered to bring this to you, which makes me rather happy

i have thought for a while, and yes, i have found a place where both of us won't be discovered and we would be able to chat, but you have to be careful reaching your way there, it's a bit far for the survivors cabin, but i'm pretty sure you won't care. you never do, always found a way back to me, didn’t you?

after leaving the main cabin, go straight onto the place where that.. cake monster is, you just gotta go straight forward until you find a clear path on the forest, i’ll be there waiting for you right after the rounds are over

-Azurewrath”

Two time couldn't help but smile, this made them so happy, a blush creeped on their face as they read the letter over again, the round ended earlier than expected, two time entered the room bouncing of the walls , everyone, well most of them were kinda weirded out, guest 1337 was the first one to talk, as always

“Is something up two times? you seemed.. rather excited when 1x gave you that note, may i know what it was about?”

two time shook their head, that note was theirs and only theirs, no one else deserves to see it

“uh.. i hope you're not hiding anything from us, that would only cause trouble”

two time gave guest a dirty look as their made their way back to their cabin, there was only one round left, and two time would be able to see him again, they had one hour before it started, they wanted it to be over right now, they opened their door and threw to their bed, tired, they're back was hurting as always, they brought their hands to their back, feeling those bumps, glad they didn't have to use it last round, they stretched once again and rolled onto their back, they felt happy, only wanting to get close to the and love them, but they knew that they needed to build upon that trust once again, and maybe it was going to be hard, but… they deserved it, he deserves to have azures love again, they’re sorry aren’t they?

two times made his way back to their blade, looking at it with hungry eyes, they remembered all the words and teaching that amara told him, he smiled as he brought the blade to his wrist, one cut more one cut less, no one was counting on them where they were? they didn't think any of the survivors would care, and if someone does care that would probably would be azure

yet he isn't sure

azure might as well just want him there to kill him and finish what he did

he shook those bad thoughts away as he gently pushed the blade a bit higher than his vein, they did not want to kill themselves, well.. not right now. they pushed it as the blood started to sprout, can't help but smile as it all came out

they felt so full and happy
no one could stop them
they don't even think someone would want to stop them
the burning on their wrist was something they ached, it felt nice, calm, something that managed to bury all of those stupid emotions they felt while they were living
sadness
anger
grief
guilt

None of them were present. just happiness
they knew that they shouldn't have cut that deep
the blood kept flowing, staining the bed

with a groan two time got up from when they were, clearly done with everything, their wrist burning , they only cut once, yet rather deep, they did not want to lose more blood, and the round was starting in.. what, probably 20 minutes, they grabbed some bandages and put that on somehow, now feeling guilt again, knowing that this was bad, that they had to stop, that maybe someone would notice and feel pity for them, but. They didn’t think so much.. It felt nice. Fine and carefree, they should do this more often..

Huh

Why are they even here anyway?

Softs steps were heard entering the main cabin, everyone knew, but no one wanted to care, or well no one allowed themselves to care. Maybe there was some fatherly insecticon 7n7, but the older one felt too intrusive talking about that topic…

It only proves that two time was right

None of them would stop them