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It was may 25th exactly 4 years after Dazai had left the port mafia and Chuuya was called by Mori to come up to his office to talk about a mission he's going to be sent on so that's where he is now he is outside of mori's office.

Chuuyas POV

He opened the door slowly and stepped into the bosses office before closing the door behind me and waiting for his next orders then Mori spoke up

"Sit down"

When boss said that he did as told and sat down before speaking up.

"What did you need to tell me about the mission boss?"

He said while looking at him curiously a worried look on my face because he never usually called his office to talk to him about a mission unless the mission was dangerous Just as he was lost in his thoughts boss spoke again

"I regret to inform you that for this mission you will be going with Dazai since this enemy is strong and also an enemy of agencys that needs to be eliminated."

When he heard those words he froze it felt like everything was spinning he'd be paired with Dazai of all people!? How could he trust him anymore he married me then left he mean he didn't even have the decency to leave divorce papers or a note saying goodbye! He then quickly pushed those thoughts away and spoke again his voice unnaturally quiet as he spoke

"Do I have to be paired with him can't I just fight alone...?"

He waited for an answer then he got one but it was not what he wanted.

"No you can't the risk of you needing to use corruption on this mission is high and we can't risk you using it without Dazai around we both know it could end up in not just your death but many others."

When he said that he felt even worse he thought he'd throw up. I then thought corruption...i hated using it. It was painful to use and I can't control myself when using it so I just have to feel as my body moves on its own destroying anyone and anything it can until...Dazai nullifys it I bet he thinks I look like a monster while using it- wait why does he care what stupid Dazai thinks Chuuya thought then suddenly boss spoke up again

"The mission is tomorrow so I'll be sending you home for the rest of the day to gather your thoughts and prepare."

He was thankful for him giving me the rest of the day off
He really needed to be alone for a while and just process what he found out.

"Thank you boss may I leave right now?"

"Yes you may but before you leave I should tell you the location of the mission it's at an abandoned warehouse 5 minutes outside the city you'll be meeting Dazai there at 3pm Don't be late."

"Okay boss and thank you again."

He quickly said before turning and walking out the office. His walked down the hallway his hands balled into fists as he held back tears from knowing he might have to use corruption then he heard a familiar voice it was Akutagawa.

"Chuuya San are you okay you seem sad?"

"I'm fine Akutagawa"

He said knowing that akutagawa wouldn't believe it. He was a bit too good at reading people and how they feel for his liking.

"I need to go I have somewhere important to go"

He muttered before walking down the hallway to the elevators and getting in one.

He stepped in and pressed the button to go the ground floor so he could leave and think about the mission he had to go on tomorrow and the thought he may have to use corruption.

About a minute later the elevator opened at the ground floor and he ran out the building earning a few concerned glances from people but he ignored it all and got in his car to start driving to his house.

On the way there his mind was still racing with thoughts but he focused his eyes on the road trying to ignore all the thoughts and his shaking hands that gripped onto the steering wheel.

10 agonizing minutes later he arrived at his house and parked he car before rushing inside and shutting the door behind him.

Just as he shut the door he started crying he hated this hole situation he couldn't just refuse a mission even more one so dangerous he could have to use corruption.

But even though he wanted too he couldn't he'd get in trouble and it would probably be forced on Ryunosuke which would be bad since his work load had already gotten a lot bigger and his health was getting worse day by day because of his lung disease he couldn't forced his work on him because of being scared of using corruption and seeing Dazai that would be selfish he thought.

He wiped the tears away from his now red and swollen eyes then took off his coat and hung it on the coat hanger then taking off his shoes and walking to the bathroom to get a shower.

He walked into the bathroom and turned on the shower then started undressing he first took off his choker then grey vest white shirt trousers and finally...Gloves.

He stepped into the shower and stood there for a few minutes relaxing as the hot water ran down his body and then closed his eyes before letting out a deep breath and starting to clean up.

30 minutes later he stepped out the shower and put a towel around his waist before walking over to the sink opening the cabinet under it and pulling out a hair brush that he used to brush his hair.

When he finished brushing his hair then walked out the bathroom and went to his bedroom to put some clothes on.

I entered the bedroom and walked over to the wardrobe and got out a oversized jumper that he had from when him and Dazai where teens and Dazai let him have one of his jumpers and then he also got out
Some shorts and put them both on.

When he finished putting them on he walked over to the bed and layed down to go to sleep.

He layed on the bed slowly feeling more tired then when he was about to fall asleep he herd a noise from downstairs.

"What the hell was that I'm home alone."

He muttered confused then got up and made his way out of the bedroom and down the stairs. Just as he was about to get to the bottom of the stairs he saw.

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He saw Dazai just casually sitting on his couch humming a tune like he hadn't just broken into Chuuyas house.

"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING IN MY HOUSE DAZAI?!"

He practically screamed at Dazai while walking over to where Dazai was sitting.

Dazai turned to look at him with that smug look on his face

"Hi chibi~ long time no-!"

Dazai was quickly cut off by a hard slap across the face and a very mad Chuuya looking at him.

"Why are you so mad chibi~"

Dazai said trying to keep up his happy act but it was faltering

"YOU BASTARD YOU LEFT ME-"

"YOU LEFT THE MAFIA AND HAVE THE NERVE TO COME TO MY HOUSE 4 YEARS LATER?!"

He screamed out his voice breaking as tears started running down his face

"Chibi calm down-"

Dazai said while standing up and trying to put a hand on Chuuyas shoulder

"NO I WON'T CALM DOWN GET OUT!"

He screamed his voice cracking before hitting Dazais hand away from him

"GET OUT!"

He screamed again before breaking down in tears and falling to his knees

Dazai knelt down and hugged Chuuya

"I'm sorry for leaving but I had my-"

He pushed Dazai away from him

"I DON'T CARE IF YOU DID YOU COULD HAVE SPOKEN TO ME YOU COULD HAVE AT LEAST LEFT ME A NOTE SAYING WHERE YOU WHERE GOING WE HAD GOTTEN MARRIED JUST A MONTH BEFORE AND YOU JUST LEFT LIKE I WAS NOTHING TO YOU!"

He shouted crying even more now as he stared into Dazais eyes

"Chuuya I'm sorry please just hear me out-"

"No I won't you Only thought about talking to me now after 4 years? You could have spoken to me before you left we could have worked things out I would have understood!"

"But you didn't even try...you just left me..."

"Why did you leave me Dazai...you could have took me with you..."

He said looking up at Dazai

"Chuuya..."

Dazai muttered his voice breaking

"I don't know why I'd didn't take you I guess I thought you would refuse..."

Dazai said while looking at the floor

"So you didn't even try?!"

He screamed grabbing Dazais shirt collar and pulling him close to his face

"You married me but couldn't be bothered to try and take me with you how stupid you should have just never married me at this point I mean surely I'm not that important to you right if you could leave me so easily?"

He muttered not bothering to scream at him anymore

"Don't say that Chuuya please don't you are important to me I married you because I loved you I was just a coward I should have asked you I was just afraid you would say no..."

Dazai said his voice breaking before he wrapped his arms around Chuuyas waist and buried his face in Chuuyas neck

"Please forgive me Chuuya I promise I'll be better..."

Dazai said in with his face still buried in Chuuyas neck

"Fine I forgive you but you better tell me why you left."

The next morning Chuuya woke up in his bed and sat up then noticed Dazai laying next to him a arm still wrapped around his waist

"Dazai we need to get up we have a mission together in a few hours..."

He said in a tired voice and slightly shaking Dazai to wake him up

When Dazai didn't wake up I tired to get out of his grip to go get ready but he just tightened his grip

"Dazai come on please let go of me we have to get ready for the mission"

Dazai started to wake from his sleep so he let out a sigh of relief

"Dazai can you let go of me please I dont want to get up either but we have to get ready we can't miss this mission it's important"

"Okay okay I'm up..."

Dazai muttered while sitting up and putting his head on Chuuyas shoulder

"Good now let go of me I need to get up"

"Noo...i don't wanna~"

"Dazai let go of me now before you get punched."

Chuuya said now glaring at Dazai

"Fine..."

Dazai muttered while pouting then he hesitantly let go of Chuuyas waist and took his head off of his shoulder

"Finally now I'm going to start getting ready you should as well"

He walked over to his wardrobe and started getting dressed while Dazai watched when he finished putting his work clothes on he left the room leaving Dazai sitting alone on his bed.

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Chuuya POV

Chuuya walked out of his room and down the stairs while muttering about how much of a pest Dazai was being

Chuuya got to the bottom of the stairs and made his way too the kitchen to get some coffee which he was going to need if he wanted to deal with Dazai for the rest of the day while on their mission

Chuuya walked into the kitchen and turned on the coffee machine, before leaving the kitchen, walking into the living room and sitting on the couch with a tired look on his face

Chuuya closed his eyes and let out a deep breath.
He was a lot more tired then normally because he had to deal with Dazai yesterday and all the drama, he didn't know how to feel about everything but one of his main thoughts was 'should I have not forgiven him'? But it was too late for that he couldn't just say oh I don't forgive you anymore...right

Chuuya let out another sigh then heard Dazais cheerful energetic voice saying

"Oh my dear husband where are you~!"

"Your looking right at me Dazai so take a take a wild guess."

Chuuya replied with his tired facial expression now being an annoyed one

"Also your still only in pajamas go get ready Dazai we're leaving in 2 hours you don't want to have
to rush we both know you hate having to rush"

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Dazai stared at Chuuya who had a annoyed expression and said in a overly sweet tone

"Oh dear chibi I'll do whatever I want~"

"But I will go get ready..."

Chuuya rolled his eyes and replied

"Good now go start getting ready you moron"

Dazai turned and walked off while saying

"I'm definitely only getting ready because I want to chibi not because...you told me too!"

Chuuya looked at him, then got up and walked passed him to go check if his coffee was done yet

When he got to the kitchen he saw it was done and picked it up. He walked back to the living room and sat down he noticed that Dazai had actually went to get ready and let out a sigh of relief

"Wow he actually listened"

Chuuya muttered

"It must be a miracle"

He said in a sarcastic voice and started to drink his coffee

5 minutes later Chuuya finished his coffee and went to brush his teeth and find out if Dazai was ready or not

Chuuya walked out the living room and went up the stairs, when he got to the top of the stairs he walked to the bathroom and started to brush his teeth when he finished brushing his teeth he went to his bedroom

Chuuya walked into his bedroom and saw Dazai getting dressed into some clothes he had left here before he left the mafia Chuuyas Facebook flushed red and he quickly turned around when realizing what he saw

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to- I didn't realize you where getting changed I thought you where finished already-!"

Chuuya shouted while trying to run out the room only to be stopped by Dazai wrapping his arms around his waist

"Aw~ is chu-chuu embarrassed it's fine I don't mind you seeing me get changed! Did you like the view~?"

Dazai teased

"Oh shut up and let go of me Dazai! You should be finishing getting ready not teasing me!!"

Chuuya shouted while covering his eyes with his hands

"Right I should be getting ready shouldn't I fine I guess I'll let go of you but we'll be finishing this later chibi~"

Dazai whispered into his ear, then he let go Chuuya and watched as he ran off all embarrassed then laughed

"How adorable he got all flustered just from seeing me getting dressed"

"I guess I should finish getting ready though Chuuya is right I can't be late for this mission"

"I've missed teasing him I guess I'm only realizing how much I missed him now I'm seeing him again...i should have tooken him with me or at least tried..."

Dazai now had a emotionless expression on his face while muttering about it all but it wasn't long lived since he got interrupted by Chuuya shouting for him to hurry up so he did just that and finished getting ready 5 minutes later and walked down the stairs to where Chuuya was.

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When Dazai got to where Chuuya was he saw Chuuya looking annoyed

"Chibi what's wrong?" Dazai said while looking confused on what Chuuya was annoyed about

"WHAT TOOK YOU SO LONG DAZAI WE NEED TO GO NOW!" Chuuya practically screaming as him and Dazai started bickering like that did when they where young lovesick teens

"I didn't take that long chibi and you should be used toe being late! Did that small brain of yours stop working just like you being able to grow did~?" Dazai teased his previous confused expression now filled with his normal smug face

"YOU- UGH YOUR SO ANNOYING LETS JUST GO MACKEREL." Chuuya screamed while glaring at Dazai with those beautiful empty looking blue eyes that Dazai always loved

"Okay Chuu no need to be so angry I'm coming~!" Dazai said in a sing song voice while running after his husband who had already walked out the front door and was getting into his car

*30 minutes later*

Chuuya and Dazai arrived at the location of the mission
When the car stopped Dazai got out and ran around the other side of it to open the door for Chuuya when he did Chuuya just rolled his eyes while trying to hide the blush that was growing on his cheeks from the small gesture, Chuuya reached his hand out as Dazai pulled the door open and Dazai softly held chuuyas hand and helped him get out the car.

"Come on chibi let's get this done quickly just like old times so we can go make up for all the time we missed these past 4 years~" Dazai said with a smug look on his face as he spoke in a excited tone

"Yeah yeah let's go mackerel..." Chuuya muttered already sounding annoyed by Dazai.

They started walking to the abandoned warehouse they where meant to go for the mission and stepped in.
As soon as they got inside Chuuya had a bad feeling and looked over at Dazai who had a troubled look on his face. That didn't help chuuyas worries that just made them even worse Dazai being worried was a bad and rare thing which you would never want to see.

"Chuuya I have a bad feeling about this I don't think it'll be as easy as we originally thought. We should stay to each other in case" Dazai muttered in a low tone so quiet that you'd think he was worried about someone hearing him speak... Maybe he was though who knows what they're here to deal with.

"I can protect myself mackerel I don't need to stay near you-" Chuuya was cut off by Dazai grabbing his arm tightly "Chuuya I know you can but just listen to me we need to stay together we can't get too far from each other" Dazai whispered sounding a lot more serious then he was only half an hour ago while in the car.

"Okay...I'll say close to you I promise..." Chuuya muttered his expression troubled as he looks up into Dazai's eyes before speaking again "it's really dark in here...and quiet... Too quiet for my liking. I want to get out of here quickly so let's look around and finish whatever we're meant to do."

"Right let's look around just stay close" Dazai looked over at a dark hallway then pulled Chuuya the opposite way toward a room to their right side to look in

When they got outside the room Chuuya heard what sounded like someone eating something very loudly so he pulled his wrist from Dazai's grip and went to open the door when he opened it he stepped back in horror "What the fuck!" Chuuya screamed in horror and disgust

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"Why is there a dead animal in here that's what the disgusting rotting smell was!" Chuuya screamed covering his nose in disgust while turning to look at Dazai who was just looking at the dead animal in intrigue

"YOU PSYCHO WHY AREN'T YOU SCARED YOU JUST UGH YOU WEIRDO!" He shouted while pointing at Dazai

"Oh come on chibi your over reacting it's just a dead animal you kill people and deal with corpses every day but can't deal with this?" Dazai was finding Chuuyas reaction humorous because Chuuya was a mafioso he saw blood and bodies all the time but could barley stomach seeing a animal corpse?

"IT'S DIFFERENT OKAY AND IT'S NOT HOW IT LOOKS IT'S THE SMELL IT'S DISGUSTING" Chuuya still didn't get how Dazai hadn't had any reaction yet toward the smell or even the sight of it he swears he remembers Dazai being scared of blood so how isn't he scared of this!?

"Okay okay I guess your right my dear chibi, it does smell disgusting but so do human corpses now what we should be thinking about something more important is how did the corpse get here and why does it have such deep cuts down it's side." Dazai said seriously now walking over to the corpse to look closer

"Oh right... We should..." Chuuya muttered in slight embarrassment "Dazai there's some sort of book next to it look." He said while pointing at a book with no pictures on the front cover that was laying next to the dead pig before speaking "I know damn well that pig didn't carry around a book so who the hell was and did they lose it or leave it here on purpose?"

Dazai looked over at where Chuuya pointed and it was a weird worn out looking book, he picked it up and opened it and to his surprise there was no writing he flicked through all the pages and there wasn't even one word it was just empty "there's nothing in it but it's so worn out it can't be new while in this bad of condition..." He muttered while running a finger down the breaking front cover of it

"That's weird what type of person carrys around an old unused book with them that's just ridiculous" Chuuya said in confusion before being interrupted by a crash coming behind him, it was very loud and sudden which scared him and caused him to jump forward and scream like a little kid "WHAT THE FUCK-"

"Aw is chibi scared~?" Dazai teased getting up with the book still held carefully in his hands

"I AM NOT SCARED MACKEREL!" he screamed while his face flushed from embarrassment "JUST SHUT UP OKAY WE DON'T TALK ABOUT WHAT JUST HAPPENED AGAIN!"

"But Dazai what was that aren't we alone here or aren't we meant to be?"

"Yes we are Chuuya so we should go check that out it could be who or what we where sent to find" he said now serious again "come on let's go"

"Right yeah let's go..."

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Chuuya and Dazai walked out the room and started making they're way down the hallway to find the source of the crashing noise from a minute ago

(Chuuya POV)

I was still feeling disgusted by the smell of the animal corpse it was horrible I'd never smelt anything so bad even with my job so it was a new experience but not one I wanted. I looked over at Dazai to see his expression it was serious and he looked worried it must be about the book and the big cuts on that dead animal I've always been good at reading him since I've known him so long but sometimes I wish I wasn't so good at it. We continued walking then suddenly Dazai stopped I looked over at him as if to question what he was doing just to be met with him right up close to my face even with what situation we where in I couldn't help but blush at how close he was to my face but I was quickly snapped out of it by him whispering

"Chuuya I can hear human footsteps I want you to walk behind me out of sight so they don't know there's two people it's the best tactic especially if we have to fight they won't know your there until you attack them"

When I heard the tone of his voice I nodded silently and let him walk ahead of me while I waited back in the darkness for a bit then started slowly walking a bit back from him I was getting even more worried though because I hadn't seen him this serious since when we where 16 which was 6 years ago kind of crazy to think we've known each other since 15 and gone through so much together even ending up getting married at 18...

But I knew I should be focusing on the mission we where on so I put those thoughts aside for now.

(Dazai POV)

I was starting to get worried I could hear human footsteps but I can't tell where from and it's definitely not anyone I know since I don't recognize the footsteps
I let myself lose focus and now Chuuya could be in danger if this person is dangerous or strong I know he can protect himself but even strong people get hurt I would know very well.

I looked back to try see if Chuuya was still in my line of view luckily he wasn't that small height of him is finally coming in hand

When I thought that I had to hold back from laughing and straighten up I couldn't start laughing right now even with how funny I am it would alert the person of where I am if they don't know yet

Suddenly I realized the footsteps where louder and I froze as I saw someone walking down the hallway opposite from the one I was walking down shit how did I let myself get distracted again maybe the agency really has made me soft.

I looked back once more just to check again Chuuya wasn't in sight before quickly getting into the room right next to where I was standing and peeking out of the crack I left open in the door to see who it was walking me and Chuuyas way.