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"Ahh!"

The small slender pink haired singer cried out as he shot up in his bed, dripping with sweat and breathing heavily. The loud scream quickly awoke Shuichi's sleeping partner.

"Another nightmare?"

"Yeah…I'm sorry for waking you Ryuichi..." The beautiful blue eyed brunette then gently wrapped his arms around his lover's shoulders and placed a kiss on his warm cheek.

"It's ok Shui-chan. Do you wanna cuddle with Kumagoro?" Shuichi couldn't help but to smile at the adorable childish tone in his idols voice as he tried to hand him the small pink bunny rabbit.

"I think I'd rather cuddle with Ryui-chan." The brunette was very happy to oblige and immediately pounced on the smaller boy, cuddling into him tightly.

Ryuichi quickly fell asleep pressed closely against his lover. Shuichi however was having trouble falling back asleep, his mind still stuck in his reoccurring dream. He had been with Ryuichi for over a year now, but this dream refused to leave Shuichi in peace. And even after all this time, he couldn't bring himself to tell Ryuichi that it wasn't so much a nightmare, but a dream…a dream that was filled with nothing but fond memories of that tall arrogant blonde.

As Shuichi finally began to slip away into sleep, he couldn't help but to whisper that name one last time…

"Yuki…"

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"Shuichi…Shuiiichi….Shuichi!"

"Huh? What?" Shuichi snapped out of his daze to see his best friend standing over him with a frown.

"What do you mean 'what'? You have been sitting in that chair staring at the floor for an hour now and we have an album release coming up in three months and you haven't written a single song. What is your problem?!" The pink haired boy then slumped down in his chair and gave a long sigh.

"I don't know Hiro…"

"How can you not know? Is everything ok with you and Ryuichi-san?"

"Yeah, everything is fine with us…." Shuichi's voice was still very depressed and he was not putting up a very convincing argument. Hiro then grabbed a chair and pulled it over to be opposite the singer and sat in it backwards resting his long arms on the back of it.

"I've known you long enough to know when something is wrong Shuichi and I know something is bothering you. In fact, I haven't seen you this depressed since…" Hiro then came to the unfortunate realization and all the horrible memories of Shuichi's last slump came rushing back.

"Shuichi…is it Yuki?" This made the singer immediately burst into hysterical tears, which confirmed Hiro's suspicions. Hiro then let out a long aggravated sigh.

"Shuichi…I thought you said everything was going well with Ryuichi. So why is Yuki bothering you all of a sudden? You haven't even seen or spoken to him in over a year." The pink haired boy tried to stammer through his explanation through heavy sobs.

"I-I don't know Hiro…I j-just…" Hiro was now beginning to get annoyed with the boys stammering.

"You just what Shuichi?"

"I miss Yuki!" Shuichi then burst into an even heavier flow of tears and sobs as he buried his head in his hands. Hiro then let out another sigh and patted the top of the singers head gently as he spoke.

"Well…What are you going to do about it Shuichi?" Shuichi then sniffled heavily while he raised his head and wiped the tears from his eyes, trying to calm himself down.

"I don't know what to do Hiro…I love Ryuichi so much and I know that he is so good to me…but lately I haven't been able to get Yuki off my mind."

"Well why has he been on your mind so much all of a sudden after all this time?" Shuichi then took a deep breath before answering.

"Well for the past few weeks, I've had this dream and it's the same one every night." There was then a long pause before Hiro asked the obvious question.

"What is this dream about?" Shuichi then leaned his head all the way back against the back of his chair so that he was staring at the ceiling as he spoke.

"Well it always starts off with me and Ryuichi singing on stage and there is a huge crowd and they are all cheering and I feel so happy…Then all of a sudden the lights fade out and the stage falls out from underneath me taking Ryuichi with it. Then I start falling into the darkness and as I'm falling I can see a small light below me getting brighter as I fall…." Shuichi was then silent as the whole dream came flooding back to his memory in full detail; the suddenness of it took it him by surprise and he zoned out completely.

"And then what?" The red heads voice snapped Shuichi back out of his mind enough to continue recounting his dream.

"After falling for what feels like forever, I finally reach the light and it's so bright that I can't see anything around me so I close my eyes. Then when I open them…I'm back in Yuki's place, sitting on his lap facing him and we are on his couch. I'm just sitting there…staring into his eyes…then he just smiles at me and leans forward and kisses me. And even though it's a dream…it feels so real. Then he just looks at me and tells me that he loves me. Then I wake up." The break room was completely silent for a moment while Hiro processed the information and Shuichi continued to stare blankly into the ceiling. The silence continued for a few minutes before Hiro finally spoke up.

"Have you told Ryuichi about this dream?" Shuichi then finally lifted his head forward to look at his friend with teary eyes.

"No. I can't bring myself to tell him…I mean it's just a dream after all…"

"Yes but dreams are usually full of deep rooted meanings and emotions." This made small tears begin to stain Shuichi's face once again.

"That's what I'm afraid of Hiro…Ryuichi is so good to me and I do love him and I don't want to think about Yuki…but I don't know what to do." Hiro then put on a small smile and brought back his usual cool tone in an attempt to comfort his friend.

"Well I think it's possible that you never got any closure when Yuki left you. I mean the guy did just pack up and skip town in the middle of the night without even telling you. So maybe you should try confronting him now that he is back in Japan so that you can get some closure." There was a small silence in the room once again before Shuichi finally burst from his chair with his fist raised high in the air and a determined grin on his face.

"You're right Hiro! I'll go and find Yuki and tell him that he is a jerk! I'll get the last laugh this time!" Hiro couldn't help but to laugh at the singer's outburst. Shuichi was now laughing triumphantly and standing in his super hero pose; he was defiantly back to his old over the top self.

"Well try not to take too long, we do still have an album release coming up and we need you to get back to writing already."

"Don't worry Hiro, I'll be back in no time and we will be at the top of all the charts! Bad Luck will be number one!" Shuichi then gave the red head a huge grin before grabbing his bag and bolting out of the door to start his quest.

As the door slammed behind the pink haired boy Hiro slumped over his chair and let out another sigh.

"That kid really is something else."

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Shuichi quickly left the tall glass building that housed their recording studio and made his way triumphantly down the sidewalk with his head held high and his determination on full blast. As he walked briskly down the streets, his feet guided him on a path without him even having to think about it; he had walked these streets more times than he could even count. His fast paced auto pilot made his walk take only ten minutes. His feet then stopped all on their own in front of that very familiar house that he used to call home. Once he stopped his brain finally took over upon seeing two unfamiliar cars parked in the driveway; the sight made him smack himself in the forehead as he exclaimed out loud.

"Gah! I'm such an idiot! I know that he moved….why did I come here?" He then let out a long sigh as his upbeat attitude began to steadily decline.

He then stood there in front of that house for a few minutes, taking a good long look at it while so many memories came flooding back to him. He remembered every single thing that had happened there: the first time that the arrogant blonde kissed him, the day that he arrived on Yuki's doorstep with all his bags ready to move in, all the times that he fell asleep on the floor outside of Yuki's study…and the day that he woke up to find the entire house completely bare, with Yuki nowhere to be found; that was the last time he ever seen that house or the tall blonde. The pink haired boy was then quickly snapped out of his daze as he saw someone exit the house, that he was now staring blankly at, and he bolted away hoping not be seen. He ran all the way down the residential street and didn't stop until he rounded the nearest corner. After he was sure he was far out of sight, he bent over and put his hands on his knees, trying to catch his breath. It took him a few minutes to gather himself and get back to thinking clearly. He then stood up straight from his crouched position and returned to a determined attitude, although a now slightly diminished one.

"I guess I'll have to do this the hard way." With that, Shuichi then started walking, at a normal pace now, to the nearest convenience store.

He soon arrived at a small shop just outside of the residential area. He made his way to the public phone located just outside the store and picked up the phone book that was chained to its base. He quickly began scanning the pages at the very back of the book under the letter "Y". As he had thought, the name stuck out on the page that he had now flipped to, "Yuki, Erie". He then placed a finger on the name and dragged it across the page to point to the address opposite it; he was relieved to see that it was an address he didn't recognize so he knew that this had to be his new one. He picked up the pen that was attached the phone booth as well and scrawled the address onto the palm of his hand. After double checking to make sure he had written it down correctly, the pink haired boy quickly abandoned the phone booth and headed to his destination. As he walked he found himself staring into his palm repeatedly, finding its location to be rather odd. Never the less, he continued to walk down the streets that were now beginning to crowd with people as the sun began to set and all the bars and nightclubs began to open their doors. After another ten minutes or so, Shuichi finally made it out of the city center and was now walking down much quieter suburban streets. It was then only another five minutes until he was coming up on the address written on his hand; in fact he was only three houses away from his destination now. He stopped for a moment however, to fully take in the oddity that had puzzled him when he first wrote down Yuki's new address. He was now standing, three houses down from where the author lived, looking at his parent's home in which he lived up until he moved in with Ryuichi. He was still rather puzzled by the whole scenario; he wondered if Yuki had moved three houses down from his old home on pure coincidence…or if he had done it on purpose. After gazing at his childhood home for a moment, Shuichi finally took in a deep breath and continued walking down the street until he arrived in front of a large rather plain looking two story home that matched the address on his palm. Shuichi stopped again in front of this home this time and saw the same familiar black BMW parked in the driveway. The singer was now certain that the man was home so he took a moment to prepare mentally and put together his thoughts so that he could face the blonde with confidence. As soon as he was fully prepared he walked up the long driveway up to the front door and rang the doorbell with a slightly shaky hand.

*Ding*

Shuichi waited on the doorstep with his head held high and his back straight trying to keep up his determination. He stood there like that for a minute or two and after no reply he swallowed hard and rang the bell again.

*Ding*

This time he could hear someone rustling through the house and could barely make out a few obscenities being muttered. It then took only a few seconds before the door flung open to reveal the tall blonde standing there with a lit cigarette in his mouth and his hands pressed against his eyes in frustration, blocking his sight.

"What?!" The blonde's tone was extremely annoyed and he still hands his hand blocking his sight, rubbing his eyes firmly in aggravation.

"Umm…" As soon as the pink haired boy opened his mouth and uttered that one syllable, the blonde's eyes quickly shot open and he gained a shocked expression; this was the most expression Shuichi had ever actually seen from him in all the years they had known each other. It jaw even fell a slightly, just enoughto let the cigarette fall from his lips and onto the ground.

"S-Shuichi….?" The singer then remembered why he had come and did his best to put on a brave face.

"Hey Yuki….I came to tel-" The boy's words were quickly cut off by the sensation of being forcefully yanked by his arm through the door way and into the house. The force of being pulled inside almost knocked Shuichi off his feet but he was able to gain his balance and could see the blonde quickly slam the door shut. Shuichi was now beginning to panic slightly; he always knew that being on Yuki's bad side, as he often was, could be a very bad thing. After Yuki slammed the door, he took a large step toward Shuichi and the boy quickly backed up into the wall behind him in response. Yuki was completely silent as he came closer and closer to Shuichi which was never a good sign and caused Shuichi to start visibly shaking.

"Y-Yuki I-"

That was all Shuichi could get out before the blonde had him shoved firmly against the wall with his lips pressed tightly against his own. Shuichi's eyes grew wide in shock; this was not at all what he was expecting and definitely did not prepare for it. None the less, before he even knew it his whole body began melting into those strong arms and he could feel his face flush and eye lids begin to grow heavy. Shuichi could no longer try to fight off the warmth that was rekindling inside him and he desperately threw his slender arms around the taller man's neck and stood up onto the balls of his feet to more level with him and eagerly returned his kiss, deepening it. As their tongues swirled and danced together, so many memories of their time together rushed back into Shuichi's thoughts; the feeling was so over whelming that he couldn't help but moan softly into the blonde's mouth. This subtle sound earned Shuichi more than he bargained for as he was then quickly pulled from the wall and down onto the hard wood floor, with the blonde pressing down firmly on his entire body, their lips never parting for a second. Once on the floor, Yuki stealthily moved one of his hands to climb up underneath the singer shirt; his hands moved as if it had never forgotten every inch of that small slender frame. Shuichi's face was now bright red and felt like it was on fire and he had a million thoughts all running through his head; it felt as though his head might burst at any moment. Yuki's nimble hand then made its way to clamp down onto one of the boy's pert perfect nipples. This became far too much for Shuichi's already sensitive mind and body to handle, so he summoned all of his strength and shoved the blonde off of him. He quickly stammered to his feet, swung open the door and ran as fast as he could out of that house with his eyes full of tears. As he ran, he felt as though the entire world slowed down around him and he could see each and every one of his tear drops hitting the pavement as he ran; and in each of them reflected a memory of Yuki.

It happened so fast that Yuki had no time to react to stop Shuichi, so all he could was sit there on the floor with an outstretched hand and watch as the boy ran off into the distance. The blonde then lay his head down firmly in his hands and, though he would never admit it, a few small tears began to roll down his cheeks.

"Damn it…."

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Shuichi ran aimlessly with tear filled eyes until his legs finally gave out and he fell to his knees. He sat there for a moment to catch his breath and calm his tears, all the while a slurry of mixed feelings raged inside him. Once he was finally able to clear his eyes enough to see, he found himself sitting on the cold concrete of a dimly lit sidewalk in the middle of a park. He quickly jerked his head in all directions before slumping over completely, slamming his fists onto the pavement as he realized where he was; the singer now found himself in the very same place where he met Yuki for the very first time.

"Damn it! Why?! Why did I come here!?"

Shuichi then began bawling uncontrollably at the fact that his legs once again subconsciously led him to memories of Yuki. He sat there crying for what seemed like hours until he was finally able to gather his strength and stagger to his feet. It took him another few minutes to be able to actually force his legs to move toward the direction of home. For the entire walk home his mind was filled with so many racing thoughts and questions.

'Why…? I just want to know why…why did he call me by my name? Why did he kiss me? He is such a jerk…' As he got closer to home Shuichi was able to slow his racing his thoughts but didn't realize the shift of attitude they were beginning to make.

'Why…does he live by my parent's house…why didn't he tell me he was back in Japan? Why wouldn't he even try to contact me? Why did he leave in the first place…?" Shuichi quickly shook his head wildly as he realized what he was thinking, trying to shake the thoughts from his head.

"No! No no no! He is an asshole, I don't care that he is back in Japan! I love Ryuichi!"

He soon found himself in front of the large studio apartment that he shared with Ryuichi. As he stared up at the brightly lit window of their living room, he took a moment to take a very deep breath and calm himself down. He then climbed up the two flights of stairs to reach their apartment. As soon as he opened the door he was promptly tackled to the floor by the hyper brunette.

"Shuichi! Welcome home!" The pink haired boy couldn't help but to laugh at his lover that had him pinned to the floor with a huge smile stretched across his face.

"Hey Ryuichi."

"How did your recording go today? You're home late so it must have gone well."

"Yeah it was a good day. Hiro and Suguru were really the only one's recording though; I spent most of the day trying to get all the new lyrics written." Shuichi did his best to keep his cool and keep a straight face as he talked to his lover; he had never lied to Ryuichi before and he definitely did not like the feeling of doing so.

"Well I hope you got some good writing done Shui-chan." It almost pained Shuichi to see his idol smile so sincerely at his lie.

"I actually didn't get too much done; I'm having a bit of writers block." Ryuichi then gave the pink haired boy a few soft pats of encouragement on his head.

"You can do it." Shuichi was finally able to give a genuine smile to the brunette; Ryuichi was always the only one that ever truly believed in him and he needed it now more than ever.

"Thanks Ryu-chan." Ryuichi then climbed off of his lover and bounced his way into the large modern kitchen and began rustling through the refrigerator.

"Are you hungry?" Shuichi sat up to call back but still remained seated firmly on the floor.

"No, I'm ok." Ryuichi then took a few steps out of the kitchen and leaned slightly against the wall that separated their kitchen from the living room.

"Would you like to go to bed then?" Ryuichi had now made a dramatic shift from his bubbly childish self to his very seductive adult side. Shuichi saw his lover give him a shot from his lusty purple eyes; just the new seductive tone to his voice alone was enough to make all his thoughts of Yuki quickly melt away.

"Yeah."

The brunette then walked over to where Shuichi was sitting and extended a small slender hand to him, picking him straight up off the floor taking him a little by surprise; Shuichi often forgot that Ryuichi was actually much older and stronger than he was. They both then made their way to the large master bedroom hand in hand. The whole way Shuichi had a large grin on his face knowing what came after Ryuichi's random shifts into super sexy singing god mode. Upon arriving into the over-sized bedroom Shuichi made his way into the large attached bathroom to change into his sleeping shorts and a small tank top. As Shuichi was decided exactly which shorts to wear, his mind went back to his idol just on the other side of the bathroom door and the 'mode' that he was in so he made sure to pick out Ryuichi's favorite pair of super short super tight shorts to wear. Once dressed Shuichi slowly opened the door and mustered a seductive grin. Once he fully opened the door however, he looked to the bed to see a very asleep Ryuichi curled up in a ball with his Kumagoro clutched tightly to his chest. Shuichi was slightly disappointed at the sight but only for a moment; he couldn't stay disappointed at the sight of just how adorable Ryuichi was when he slept. He then decided it was actually probably for the best that he tried to get some sleep so he quietly crawled into bed and snuggled in closely to his sleeping partner, taking in the intoxicating smell of strawberries that always emanated from the brunette. It only took a few minutes for Shuichi to drift blissfully off to sleep with all the memories of his horrible day now almost completely lost from his mind.

Shuichi awoke suddenly in the early morning as the sun was rising in a cold sweat and breathing heavily, being haunted once again by his reoccurring dream. He was slightly relieved though when he looked over to see that it was nine o'clock and Ryuichi had already left for the studio for the day. He took a moment to catch his breath before climbing out of bed and into the bathroom. He walked over to the sink and turned it on to splash some cool water on his face to try and wake himself up. As he stared into the mirror he couldn't help but to let his thoughts be dragged back to his dream and even worse, his encounter with the blonde yesterday. As his memories of yesterday came flooding back, small tears of anger trickled down his already red cheeks.

"Damn it…Hiro really was right. I have to face him…I have to get answers…I have to tell him how much I hate him. Then I can get my closure…I have to do it!"

Shuichi then proceeded back into the bedroom and rustled through the dresser drawers for something to wear. After a few minutes of searching he finally decided on just a simple t shirt and his one of his regular pairs of tan shorts. He quickly got dressed and rushed out of the apartment. He hustled his way down the stairs and began walking briskly toward his destination; he was hoping that this time he could prepare what he wanted to say and get this whole ordeal over with and still have enough time to get to the studio and get some work done. As he was walking he decided he should at least let Hiro know what was going on so he pulled the small cell phone from his pocket and dialed the red heads number.

"Hello?"

"Hey Hiro."

"Hey Shuichi, you know you're late right?"

"Yeah, that's why I'm calling. I might not make it to the studio today. I'm going to try though."

"I see. I'm guessing you're going to see Yuki?"

"Yeah…"

"Alright, good luck. I'll let Sakano know."

"Thanks Hiro."

"No problem."

*click*

By the time Shuichi hung up the phone he was already once again standing in front of the author's home. He stood on the sidewalk for a moment, taking a deep breath and taking this time to actually prepare his thoughts. This time he was going to make sure not to let the blonde get the better of him. After his moment of confidence building, he made his way boldly to the front door and knocked loudly. The seconds ticked by and all the while his heart rate kept climbing higher and higher. Shuichi was so focused on his thoughts and his racing heart that he jumped slightly in surprise when the door finally swung open. His heart then almost stopped as he found himself face to face once again with the man that had been haunting him for so long. Shuichi quickly noticed that Yuki was different this time however; the blonde looked like he hadn't slept, his hair was a mess and he didn't even have a cigarette in his mouth, which was a rare sight to see.

"H-hey Yuki." Shuichi was doing his best to sound firm but his voice was still slightly shaky.

"What do you want?" Shuichi was slightly taken aback by the cold tone he received from the blonde; granted it was more like his normal self but it was still quite a shift from yesterday.

"Um, I wanted to talk to you."

"About what?"

"A lot of things."

"Like what?" Shuichi was now beginning to get a little frustrated with the blonde's cold tone and aloof attitude.

"I don't know Yuki… I just want to talk to you."

"Why?" Shuichi had then finally had enough of this.

"Gah! Never mind! If you aren't going to talk to me then I'm leaving! You're still just an asshole Yuki!" Shuichi then turned around and began to storm away but he was stopped abruptly by a firm grip on his arm.

"Wait…" Shuichi quickly whipped around, still in the blonde's grasp, to see that his demeanor had shifted once again to much more solemn one.

"What?!"

"You can come in…if you want to talk." Yuki then shot the singer a sad glare from those beautiful golden eyes and Shuichi could feel himself begin to get lost in those eyes.

"O-ok…"

Yuki then released the boy from his grasp and turned to walk inside, with Shuichi following at a safe distance behind him. Shuichi gently closed the front door behind him before following Yuki into the living room. As Shuichi looked around the home he noticed that it was much smaller than Yuki's place and not nearly as nice or modern. The blonde then made his way to his large leather couch that occupied most of the small living room and immediately lit a cigarette. Shuichi looked around for another place to sit, not wanting to share the couch with the blonde, but found nothing so he decided to just stand opposite of Yuki making sure that he was a few feet in front of him.

"So what did you want to talk about?" The blonde now had a very familiar indifferent tone.

"Well… I came to tell you that you are a jerk!" Yuki was genuinely a little surprised by this and his expression showed it

"Is that really all you came here for?"

"Well…um…" Shuichi suddenly found that his resolve was quickly fading away as his eyes locked with golden ones.

"What Shuichi?"

"Well I guess I do have some questions…"

"Ok then, ask." Shuichi then swallowed hard and tried to fight back the tears welling up in his eyes as so many painful questions came to mind.

"Yuki…Why did you leave the way you did? I just woke up that day…and you were gone." Then blonde then took a long drag on his cigarette before replying.

"You want to know the truth?"

"Yes!" Yuki then let out a sigh before deciding that he had nothing to lose at this point so there was no point in hiding anymore.

"That night before I left…you went to sleep and I told you that I had to finish writing to meet my deadline. Do you remember that?"

"Yeah…"

"Well I lied."

"About what?"

"I wasn't working on my book. I was writing a song."

"A song?"

"Yes. That night after you went to sleep, there was a re-run on the TV of you and Ryuichi singing the song that I wrote for Nittle Grasper. Then I remembered…how happy you were when you figured out that it was meant for you to sing. So…I wanted to write you a song to…" The blonde stopped abruptly to run one of his hands through his hair in frustration; being this open was never something that he was very good at or enjoyed.

"To what Yuki?" Shuichi's tone was now almost a pleading one.

"To tell you exactly how I feel. To show you how much I…love you." Shuichi could no longer fight back his tears and he let them begin to stream down his face.

"Then why Yuki? Why did you leave?!"

"When I finished writing it, I read it over and over again. After the tenth time reading it…I finally realized that I was in love with you Shuichi. Once I realized that…I…" Yuki was now struggling to bring up the words; he felt weak and pathetic, things that he had never felt before.

"You what?!" It was now taking all of Shuichi's strength not become completely hysterical.

"I got scared. I didn't want to love somebody again. The last time I loved someone…he betrayed me and then died. I didn't ever want to feel any of those feelings again. The only thing I could think to do at that point was to just leave." Yuki then stuffed his cigarette roughly into the ash tray and tried desperately not to lock his sight onto the pink haired boy bawling in front of him.

"T-then why did you come back?!"

"I don't want to talk anymore." Yuki could feel himself beginning to lose his cool so he decided he had to stop this conversation before it got any further but Shuichi was not about to let that happen.

"NO! You tell me right now Yuki! Stop being a coward!" Those words ignited anger inside the blond so he then decided if Shuichi wanted the truth so badly then he could have it.

"Shut up you damn brat! I came back because I wanted to!"

"But why Yuki?!" Yuki then rested his head slightly in one of his hands, let out a long sigh and actually allowed a few small tears to roll down his cheeks.

"After living in America for a whole year…I realized that no matter what I did or how hard I tried…I couldn't escape you. I tried everything: girls, guys, drinking, hell I even went back home for a while and tried meditation; but I still found myself looking over my shoulder everywhere I went waiting to see your stupid face come around a corner, I came home every night waiting to hear your obnoxious voice welcome me home. I finally couldn't take it anymore so I came back and I bought this house hoping that you had moved back with your parents. After I found out that you hadn't, I gave up. But…I have still been at every one of your shows…every concert, every record release…" The blonde then paused for a moment before finally looking up at the singer with tears still filling his eyes. "I never stopped loving you Shuichi…."

Shuichi couldn't believe what he was hearing and his tears had stopped now, replaced with a state of incapacitating shock; for the first time in his life, Shuichi was speechless. All this information was bouncing around so fast in his brain that he felt like he just might explode. He then felt his knees begin to shake and buckle beneath him and all the blood rush to his head. He couldn't even fight the feeling and almost collapsed onto the hard floor. He was stopped however just as he was beginning to fall, as Yuki swiftly leaned forward on the couch to catch Shuichi by the arm and yanked him roughly toward him. Shuichi flew forward to land right on top of the blonde's lap and now found himself staring into golden eyes only a few inches away from his face. In that instant, Shuichi's reoccurring dream flooded his mind and his body then seemed to go into auto pilot as he pressed his lips firmly against Yuki's, much to the blonde's surprise. Yuki was never the less eager to return the kiss, reveling in feel of the lips that he had never forgotten. It didn't take long for Yuki to remember everything that he had missed about the small boy on his lap and all of a sudden it felt as though nothing had ever changed between them. Shuichi finally broke free of the kiss for air much to Yuki's displeasure. After the boy caught his breath, he was finally able to attempt to speak.

"Y-Yuki…I…" As he looked into Yuki's eyes, Shuichi suddenly saw a small spark in them that made his stomach drop.

"Shut up."

The next thing Shuichi knew, Yuki had shoved him down hard onto the couch pinning him down by his shoulders. Shuichi began to panic slightly as Yuki wasted no time in completely removing his t-shirt but his panic was quickly replaced with a light fluttering feeling in his stomach when Yuki caught onto his lips once again. Shuichi felt his whole body melt into the kiss; it wasn't at all like Yuki used to kiss him, this kiss was different, filled with heat and passion. Shuichi became lost in it until one of Yuki's hands clamped down firmly onto one of his small nipples causing him to moan lightly into the blonde's mouth. Yuki then broke free of the singer's lips and removed both of his hands completely so that Shuichi was no longer pinned down to the couch. He then climbed from on top of the pink haired boy before leaning back on the couch, propping himself up in the corner of it so that he was half way between laying down and sitting up with one of his legs hanging over the edge and the other stretched out along the couch. Shuichi quickly shot up in complete confusion.

"Yuki what the hell?!"

The blonde responded by grabbing him by the arm once again, this time yanking the singer to be lying on top of him. Shuichi was snapped out of his confusion as he again found his lips and tongue entangled with the older man's. Their tongues fought for dominance revisiting every crevice of each other. Shuichi then felt a sharp pain in the back of his head as Yuki pulled hard on his hair, wrenching his head backwards.

"Ow!"

Yuki then released his handful of pink hair and Shuichi lurched his head back forward to look at the blonde with a stern face. That's when he saw an absolutely devilish glint in Yuki's eyes and looked down slightly to realize that he had become so lost in their kiss that he didn't even notice that Yuki had now unbutton and unzipped his jeans allowing the large bulge in his boxers to be released. Yuki then gave a sly grin before shoving the singer's head downwards towards his lap. Shuichi attempted to fight back but was no match for the man's strength; as his head was being shoved lower and lower he realized that he wasn't just fighting Yuki's strength but he was also fighting his own burning desire. He then finally gave in to both and allowed Yuki to push his head all the way down to his groin. Shuichi couldn't fight his feelings any longer and he pulled down slightly on the blonde's boxers just enough to release Yuki's very large erect member. Shuichi gave one quick glance up to the blonde before flicking his tongue gently across the sensitive tip of his cock.

"Nnn…"

That one subtle groan from the blonde caused a grin to cut across Shuichi's face before running his soft tongue slowly up the entire length of Yuki's member. He then took its entire length into his mouth causing the blonde to lean his head back and let out a deep groan. Shuichi began gently swirling his tongue all around the wonderful organ in his mouth. Yuki then grabbed onto the boy's hair once again shoving his head down onto his cock, almost choking him, then eased the pressure to allow him bob his head slowly up and down the length of his erection. Shuichi loved the feeling of the perfect amount of pressure from the blonde pulling on his hair and it caused him to moan loudly around his erection sending blissful vibrations through it. This caused Yuki to begin to buck his hips hard up into the warm moist cavern that surrounded him. Shuichi then quickened his pace to be in time with Yuki's thrusts. He then gave one last slow bob of his head, while swirling his tongue all around, that drove the blonde over the edge and made him release himself into the singer's mouth.

"Nnnnn…."

Shuichi made sure to swallow the entire mouthful with the exception of a few small drops that he proceeded to seductively lick of his soft pink lips. It was then only an instant before Shuichi was firmly pinned on his back to the couch once again. Yuki then locked their lips in a rough kiss as one of his hands made its way down to the boy's hips to begin to pull on his small tan shorts. Shuichi found himself once again lost in the bliss of the situation but something suddenly made his eye grow wide. It was the sound of Ryuichi's voice. Shuichi quickly broke free of the kiss and shot his gaze over to the television set to see a video of Ryuichi playing on the screen. He was then almost drowned in a flood of guilt and he felt as though he might vomit.

"Yuki stop." The singer attempted to remove Yuki's hand from his shorts but it wouldn't budge.

"Why should I?"

"Because I can't do this. I am with Ryuichi now. I can't do this to him." Shuichi was then able to muster enough strength to move the blonde's hand and sit up on the couch. "I'm sorry Yuki but this isn't right…"

Panic then quickly began to set back in as Shuichi was shoved very hard back onto his back, this time with Yuki using all his strength to pin him down.

"Well, you should have thought about that before you started this." Shuichi then saw a very scary look in Yuki's eyes and an even scarier tone to his voice.

"I'm not going to let you go again."

TBC

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Just a quick update!

The new chapter is in progress but it would seem that I need everyone's help with a little something…

I have decided that I will be taking a vote on who Shuichi will choose…(dramatic music) I want all of faithful readers to decide our spunky pink haired singers fate. Will he stay with his beloved and devout idol? Or will he give in to his past and return to the cool blonde author and the lifestyle he had come to love all that time ago with? You decide!

So everyone please comment/review and cast your vote as soon as possible! And as always, thanks for reading!

-Shuichi77-

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"Nnn…"

Shuichi groaned pathetically as he began to slowly come to. He slowly opened his eyes and his vision was very blurry for a few moments until all of his senses gradually returned to him one by one. The first thing he could make out was the sound of steady beeping followed by the sight of dim sunlight shinning in on bright white walls. He was then brought fully into consciousness at the sensation of gentle squeezing on his hand and the soothing sound of a familiar voice.

"Shuichi?" The singer slowly turned his aching head in the direction of the voice to see Ryuichi now standing at his bedside with a very worried expression on his face.

"R-Ryu….w-where…what's going on?" Shuichi's head still felt a little fuzzy and his memories seemed faint and distant. The weakness in the boy's voice was enough to break Ryuichi's heart and the brunette fought back tears as he gently climbed into the small bed before very gingerly placing his arm around the smaller boy so that his head was resting on his shoulder. The brunette then softly stroked the boy's now clean and soft pink hair.

"You're in the hospital sweetheart. You've been asleep for almost two days now." In his current state Shuichi couldn't quite wrap his mind around what he had just heard and all he could muster was the strength to look up at his partner with a questioning expression and choke out a few words.

"Wh-why? What happened…?" Shuichi was then immediately worried upon seeing the very pained expression on Ryuichi's face before he replied.

"Well, our press conference was cancelled due to some sort of last minute scheduling conflict with the American record label, so I came home early. When I got home, you weren't home so I went and looked for you everywhere and when I couldn't find you, I went over to Hiro's to ask if he knew where you were and well…he told me everything…about what Yuki was doing to you."

This caused Shuichi's eyes to grow wide in fear at the realization that Ryuichi now knew about his secret but he stayed silent as his partner continued, still trying desperately to remember anything that happened after the fiasco at the concert hall.

"So I went to Yuki's house to try and find you…." Ryuichi then paused and Shuichi's watched on in heart wrenching pain as large tears began to run down the brunettes cheeks followed by shallow sobs, which he had never heard from his idol before. "B-but…I was too late….by the time I found you, you were knocked out and tied naked to that bastards bed."

This caused all the dark spots in the singers mind to light up all at once and all of his memories came rushing violently back to him. The sudden surge of memories of being drugged, tied up and used was almost too much for the singers fragile mind to handle and he couldn't even find any words to say. The only response he had was to roll over to face away from his partner and curl up into a fetal position before letting large silent tears to roll down his cheeks. Ryuichi simply couldn't stand the sight of seeing his lover in pain so he placed a small gentle hand on the back of Shuichi's head in an attempt to comfort him.

"Please don't cry Shuichi…it's all over now, everything is going to be ok." This caused the pink haired boy to roll back over to face the brunette with tear filled eyes.

"It's not ok…this is all my fault. I should have never gone to see him in the first place and I shouldn't have let him blackmail me and take advantage of me…I'm such an idiot and I don't deserve to be by your side…" Shuichi then buried his face into the stiff pillow of his hospital bed and began to sob uncontrollably, causing the brunette to brush the hair away from his lovers face and gently coax his face out of the pillow.

"No Shuichi…this isn't all your fault, it's perfectly natural for a person to want closure after a break up, especially with the way he left you. There was no way you could know what he was going to do…" The soft sincerity in Ryuichi's voice was enough to calm Shuichi's sobbing only to be brought to tears again when the brunette began to cry again himself. "And…I'm the one that doesn't deserve to be by your side…I wasn't there to protect you when you needed it most…I-I failed you…" Shuichi could hardly stand to see the man he admired and loved so much in this much pain, and he weakly raised a wobbly hand to wipe the tears away from the brunette's face.

"Ryu….you didn't fail. You saved me….twice now." Hearing these comforting words warmed Ryuichi's heart and he quickly dried his tears before leaning down slightly to place a gentle passionate kiss on his lover's lips.

"I love you Shuichi…"

"I love you too…" This tender moment was enough to fill both boys with a small feeling of normality that brought great comfort to them both; this moment was interrupted however by the very obvious sound of someone clearing their throat. Both singers then turned their heads toward the noise to see a very tall, skinny, dark haired man standing in the door way wearing a white lab coat with a clipboard in hand.

"I'm glad to see that you are awake Mr. Shindou and for the last time Mr. Sakuma, hospital beds are not made for two. While you are here please use one of the chairs in the room, Mr. Shindou is still in recovery."

"Fine…."

Ryuichi was none too pleased with this request and gave a very pouty expression before gently climbing out of his partner's bed and returning to a standing position at the side of the bed. With Ryuichi now out of the doctor's way, the tall man made his way over to stand at the end of Shuichi's bed while flipping through the papers attached to the clip board.

"Thank you Mr. Sakuma. Now, Mr. Shindou, all of you tests have come back and it doesn't look like there are any broken bones or internal bleeding. The ligature marks on your wrists and neck as well as all of the bruises are all simply skin deep and will fade within the next few days." Shuichi really had expected some sort of horrible news, so this all came as a comforting surprise.

"That's great, thank you doctor."

"Yes well, although you are physically fine now we were able to get an idea of what might have happened: Your blood work came back just now and we found large amounts of a very power tranquilizer in your system as well as another substance that we haven't been able to identify. So it would seem that you were indeed drugged but with exactly what, I'm afraid we aren't sure. The good news however is that almost all of these drugs are out of your system now so you should slowly begin to feel better." These words were a blessing to the brunette who had been worried sick for days that something was seriously wrong with his partner and he was very quick to show his appreciation by extending a friendly hand out to the taller man who shook it firmly.

"Thank you very much doctor."

"Of course."

"So when can I take him home then?" Both singers were very anxious to hear the answer to this and both listened intently with eyes fixed on the doctor.

"Well although most of the drugs are out of Mr. Shindou's system, we would like to keep him overnight tonight for observation to ensure that there are no lasting effects. We also want to put him on a pain medicine regimen until the bruises start to heal and all the muscle swelling goes down." Ryuichi gave an affirming nod to the doctor's orders before addressing him.

"Whatever you say doctor, I just want him to get bet-" The brunette was interrupted however as the doctors words fully sunk into Shuichi's mind and he quickly shot up to a sitting position in his bed.

"No! I…nnn ow…" Shuichi was only up for a short second before a shooting pain shot through his body and a sharp pain ran down his spine and he collapsed back onto the bed with a groan, this outburst earning him a stern look from the doctor.

"Mr. Shindou please remain calm and stay lying down, you don't want to cause yourself any further injury."

"I'm sorry…but I can't stay here any longer." Shuichi then began to remove the blankets from his body and made a pathetic attempt to get out of bed with the IV still stuck in his arm. His attempt was futile as he was again filled with pain and forced to lie back down. Ryuichi was then quick to pull the blankets back over the boy before speaking to him softly.

"Shuichi, please do as he says."

"But I have already been here way too long. We have an album release right around the corner and I only have one song written. I can't let Bad Luck down."

"It's ok Shuichi; I already spoke with Mr. Sakano and Tohma and let them know what happened. Tohma said he doesn't want you to return to work until you have a clean bill of health."

"But….what about the album?"

"Tohma said he has faith in you and that in the worst case scenario, he will push the release date back a little to give you all the time you need to recover."

"B-but-"

"But nothing. You only need to worry about getting better." Shuichi was not entirely comfortable with the idea of missing any more work or pushing his release date back but he knew that he was no good to Bad Luck in his condition so he let out a long sigh before giving in.

"Alright…."

"Thank you." Ryuichi then leaned over to place a gentle kiss on the boy's forehead causing a small smile to cross his face. After he was sure their conversation was over, the doctor politely spoke up once again to address both men.

"Well all your vitals look good at the moment Mr. Shindou but you do need your rest, so I'll give you both a moment to say goodbye but then I must ask you to let your partner rest Mr. Sakuma."

"Alright."

"Great, I'll send the nurse in in just a few minutes to give Mr. Shindou his first round of morphine." Both singers gave an affirming nod at this. "Have a good day gentlemen."

"Thank you doctor."

"Yes, thank you."

"My pleasure."

With that, he doctor exited the room leaving the duo alone once again. As soon as the door closed, Ryuichi quickly snuck back into the bed and cuddled up next to his lover with a small giggle that in turn caused Shuichi to chuckle slightly at his playful partner. The duo then laid in peaceful silence together for a short moment before Shuichi timidly spoke up.

"Hey Ryu…can I ask you something?"

"Of course, you can ask me anything."

"Well I was just wondering…how did you get me out of Yuki's place? I remember being carried around, tied up and then everything went black and the next thing I knew, I was looking up at you; but then I don't remember how I got here." Ryuichi was actually rather happy to answer this, being rather proud of his daring rescue.

"Well at first he denied you were there but I got it out of him and he let me come get you…and I have to admit I did give him a good punch to the face…" This caused Shuichi to laugh slightly at the idea of the normally childish brunette getting one over on the writer. "…but when I was leaving, he did say something a little odd…."

"What did he say?" Shuichi then saw an odd expression on the brunettes face; it seemed like a mixture of confusion and pain.

"He said that he was the only one who could give you what you want and that I would never be able to." This baffled Shuichi completely as to why Yuki would say something like that and he meant by it.

"Give me what I want…? What does that mean?"

"I don't know…but he said that if I didn't know then I never would…and I have to say that what he said has been nagging at me…" Shuichi then gave his partner a sincere comforting smile before looking deep into his eyes.

"Well I don't know what he thinks he knows…but what I know is that all I need is you." This quickly erased the troubled expression from the brunettes face and it was replaced with a warm smile.

"Thank you Shui-chan." Ryuichi then took the smaller boys face gently in his hands and captured his lips in a tender kiss. Shuichi completely melted into the comfort of the lips he had missed so much and in that brief moment all his pain seemed to drift away and it felt to him that they were the only two people in the entire world. Shuichi had become so lost that when the brunette broke away, he let out a small whine that caused Ryuichi to chuckle slightly.

"Well I suppose I better be going then. You really do need your rest and I need to go down to the studio to take care of a few things." Shuichi couldn't help but to pout slightly at this.

"Alright…"

"Don't worry, I'll be back first thing in the morning."

"Ok."

The duo then shared one last kiss before Ryuichi reluctantly exited the room, leaving Shuichi alone with nothing but his thoughts. His thoughts and memories however were the very last thing he wanted to focus on so he did his best to distract himself by taking a good look around his hospital room. This did in fact come as a welcome distraction as his sight landed on the small table opposite his bed where various flowers and gifts were placed. He couldn't help but to smile as his examined each gift and could instantly tell who had placed it there. There was a large, very badly, hand drawn card with a picture of a guitar scribbled on the cover and Shuichi knew that it definitely Hiro's handy work. He then set eyes on a small plush bear that had a small bowtie tied around his neck that Shuichi would have bet money on that it came from Fujisaki. He was then filled with a warm feeling knowing that his friends cared so much about him and he finally felt truly relaxed and he rolled over onto his side to try and find a comfortable position. He let out a long sigh of comfort as he settled into his bed but was taken slightly by surprise when he looked over onto the small bedside table next to his bed and saw a single white rose with a small note tied around it. He didn't think that this was form Ryuichi, so he reached over and picked it up before unfolding the note with a curious expression. His relaxed and comfortable state was then brought to a screeching halt upon reading the note.

Until next time

XOXO

Shuichi then knew exactly who the rose was from and he was filled with a mixture of emotions all at once. He was furious that the arrogant blonde had the audacity to send him a rose after he was the one that put him in the hospital in the first place; but more than anything, he was afraid and curious as to how Yuki managed to even get into his room, let alone leave a rose. This all quickly became far too much for the singer to handle and he angrily crumbled the rose in his hand before throwing into the waste basket by his bed. He then rolled over in the opposite direction in a huff, so that he was looking out of the large window where he could see that the sun was already setting, and he did his best to try and relax again and put the blonde far from his mind. After a few minutes, Shuichi was finally able to drift away into a soft sleep that came as a great comfort.

Roughly twenty minutes or so passed by before Shuichi, even in his have awake state, heard the door to his room slowly open. The singer was not about to risk compromising his current state of rest however, so he simply ignored the sound, knowing that it was just the nurse coming to give him his medicine, and continued to try and sleep. Sleep quickly became harder and harder however as Shuichi was now focusing on the sounds of drawers being opened and closed and rustling of various things against the metal counter adjacent to his bed. After a moment, the room was silent once again but Shuichi was startled slightly at the sensation of small cold hands on his arm followed by the prick of a needle. Although this was a slight annoyance, Shuichi was none the less grateful to have some pain medicine so he groggily rolled over to thank the nurse. When he did however, his eyes grew wide in shock as he found himself face to face not with a nurse, but with a very familiar short woman in her distinctive round glasses and dressed in what looked like a store bought nurse costume.

"R-Reiji….?!" The small woman then gave a very sinister grin before speaking.

"It's good to see you again Shui-chan, it's been awhile." Shuichi would have been absolutely terrified just to see this woman on a normal day but now he was even more terrified as to what she was doing impersonating a nurse and what she just injected him with.

"W-what are you doing…" Shuichi's panic then began to increase as he could already feel his head get fuzzy as he was quickly slipping into unconsciousness.

"Oh I'm just doing a favor for a friend."

"Nnn…Wh…"

Shuichi could only manage a few pathetic syllables before he was once again forced into a deep sleep, not knowing what horrible things might lay ahead for him.

Meanwhile…

Ryuichi had been sneaking around the hallways of the N-G building, not wanting to deal with anybody, for almost an hour before he finally peaked around a corner and saw the person he was looking for.

"Pssssst….Mr.K…." Ryuichi was doing his best to be as quiet as possible and he was relieved when the tall American turned away from the woman he was talking to and walked toward where Ryuichi was hiding. Once K rounded the corner, he was abruptly yanked into a small room by the smaller brunette.

"Ryuichi, what is this all about?" Ryuichi was silent for a moment, listening to see if anyone was walking about the hallway outside the room but once he was sure they were alone he responded to the blonde who now had his arms crossed in a slightly annoyed manner.

"Mr.K , I need your help with something." K could hear the rare seriousness in the singer's voice and promptly uncrossed his arms and put on a softer expression.

"Sure Ryuichi. What's up? Is everything ok?"

"Well…I'm sure you heard about what happened to Shuichi?"

"Well all I was told was that he was in the hospital and would be out of commission for a few days. I assumed he is sick or something."

"He is in the hospital but he isn't sick…he was put there by Mr. Yuki" This caused K to put on a very curious and worried expression; it was true that it was no surprise to anyone that Yuki never treated Shuichi all that great but he didn't think that the blonde would ever actually hurt Shuichi.

"Really? What happened?"

"I don't want to get into the details but Shuichi was kidnapped and held hostage by Yuki and now he is recovering in the hospital."

"I see…well I'm sorry to hear that Ryuichi and I hope he will be ok, but what can I help you with?"

"Well in light of this recent event, I don't feel like Shuichi is safe. So I was hoping you would personally keep guard over him for a while; and I will compensate you handsomely for this service." K was silent in thought for a short moment before replying.

"Well I suppose I can do that; although I don't see how this is any different from what I do now."

"It isn't that different. Except that I would like him to be guarded around the clock and…I'd like you to use any means necessary to make sure that Yuki doesn't come anywhere near him." This caused K to grin slightly.

"Hmmm any means you say?"

"Right."

"I like the sound of that. Yeah, I'll do it."

"Great! Thank you Mr. K." The blonde then gently patted the top of the singers head with a wide grin.

"Of course. How can I say no to you?" This caused Ryuichi to giggle slightly before returning to a very serious tone once again.

"Oh there is one more thing."

"And what is that?"

"Under no circumstance can you say anything to Tohma about our arrangement." K raised an eyebrow curiously at this request.

"I can do that…but I am curious as to why you want to keep Tohma out of things. I would think that the safety of his new rising star would be very important to him."

"Well it is true that Tohma wants Shuichi to get better and he even admitted that Yuki was out of line, but he still has a great deal of feeling towards Mr. Yuki so I don't want to take any chance of him interfering or tipping him off." The taller man thought very deeply on these, balancing the pros and cons of doing anything behind his employers back; but in the end he decided that Tohma would never really fire him, he was after all the best manager that N-G had.

"Yeah I can see how Tohma might be a problem…alright, I'll make sure that he doesn't find out about my little side job." This brought great relief to the brunette and he suddenly threw his arms around the taller man, taking him just slightly by surprise.

"Thank you so much K. This really means a lot to me." K then gave his former client a large grin and pat him on the head once again.

"Anything for you Ryuichi." The brunette then gave a wide grin before shifting back into a serious tone.

"Well Shuichi is currently at the hospital so could you go ahead and head down there and keep watch over him?"

"Of course."

"Great. Thanks again K. I'm going to run home and grab Shuichi a change of clothes then I'll meet you at the hospital; I want to check on him one more time before I go home for the night."

"Alright, I'll see you there." The duo then exited the small room together before leaving the building and splitting up into opposite directions.

It was only about fifteen minutes until the tall gun slinging American was pulling up in front of the hospital. As soon as he stepped out of the car, he looked behind him to see that Ryuichi was now stepping out of the backseat of a black car and walking over to meet him.

"That was fast."

"Yeah well I already had a bag packed and I was anxious to get here so I hurried." K couldn't help but to chuckle slightly the brunette that was ruffling through the small duffle bag in his hands. "Don't laugh at me! That's not nice K! What's so funny anyway?" Ryuichi's voice and mannerisms were momentarily back to the normal bubbly childlike side of the singer, causing K to laugh even more.

"Oh nothing…you are just really funny when you're love." This caused a slight blush to cover Ryuichi's cheeks and he laughed slightly at himself before shifting back into a serious mode.

"Well let's get going."

"Alright."

The duo then entered through the automatic glass doors of the hospital and approached the female receptionist that was seated behind a large desk. Ryuichi was then quick to speak to the woman.

"Excuse me, we are here to see a patient." The sound of Ryuichi's voice caused the woman to look up from her papers with a smile.

"Certainly; what is the patient's name?"

"Shindou, Shuichi." There was then a short silence as the woman typed the name into the computer before looking back at Ryuichi with a slightly puzzled expression. "I'm sorry but it says here that Mr. Shindou checked out a little under an hour ago." This immediately threw Ryuichi into a panic and he suddenly dropped his duffle bag before slamming his hands down onto the desk in a panic.

"What?! No that can't be right. When I was here earlier the doctor said that he was keeping him here overnight for observation." The woman then turned her eyes back to the computer screen before addressing the brunette again with an even more confused expression.

"Hmmm this is odd…his chart says that he was supposed to stay overnight but it looks like one of our nurses cleared him for release. Funny though, there is no name listed under the releasing doctor or nurse…" Ryuichi was now in a full panic and was doing his best just to keep form hyperventilating. K quickly noticed his panicked state and stepped forward slightly to place a gentle hand on his back before speaking to the receptionist with a stern expression.

"Well surely he didn't walk out of here on his own, does it say if he was released to anybody?" Again the woman typed a few things before looking back from her computer.

"Yes actually. It says here that he was released into the care of one…Eiri Yuki."

TBC

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"Hurry K hurry!"

"I'm driving as fast as I can!"

The brunette was literally bouncing in his seat as his anxiety was reaching critical mass and all he could think about was getting his stolen lover back. While the anxious singer writhed about in his seat, K did his best to stay calm and focused so that he could get them safely to their target. His efforts seemed to pay off luckily, as it was only a few more minutes until they were rolling to a stop in a small dimly lit parking lot. As soon as the car stopped moving, Ryuichi exited at lightning speed and in a matter of seconds he was opening K's door and pulling him by the arm.

"Come on K! Hurry up. We have to go get Shuichi!"

"I'm coming." The tall blonde had become desensitized to the brunette's strong personality after so many years and the tugging on his arm and high pitched plea seemed almost common place to him now.

"Well come faster!"

After turning off the car, K allowed the singer to pull him from the car and continued to let him cling to his arm as they began to walk down a small gravel path. The duo walked along the path for a few short moments until they turned a corner and Ryuichi could see the light from the street lamps that lined the bridge, peeking through the trees and brush. The sight sent the singer into an almost frenzied state and he abruptly released K's arm and began darting towards the lights. K did his best to keep up but it wasn't long until the brunette was well out of sight. After another short moment Ryuichi rounded another corner and his heart almost skipped a beat when he emerged from the brush to set eyes on the pink haired boy that he had been searching for, standing at the opposite side of the small bridge.

"Shuichi!" The familiar voice caused the small boy to quickly whip his whole body around to set eyes on his lover.

"Ryuichi!" The brunette then made a mad dash towards the boy and almost knocked him over when he pounced on him, wrapping his arms tightly around his neck. Ryuichi then quickly relaxed his grip so that he could face his partner with a worried expression.

"Shuichi I've been so worried. Are you ok? Did he hurt you?"

"I'm fine, I promise. I'm not hurt."

"Thank God…" Ryuichi then let out a long breathe before finally noticing the figure that had been watching them since he arrived. He glanced over the pink haired boy's shoulder to see the arrogant blonde standing in his usual cool manner with a cigarette hanging from his lips. He then let go of Shuichi completely and barreled towards the blonde, capturing the collar of his jacket in his small hands.

"How dare you….How dare you! I warned you…I told you that if you ever touched him again…I'd kill you." The brunette then gave a wicked glare deep into golden eyes as he tightened his grip on the taller man's shirt. Yuki however, remained calm and looked back at him with a calm expression.

"I'm sorry. This was the only way to get both of you here."

"What the hell are you talking about?!"

"I mean-" The blonde's words were then cut off by Ryuichi's companion who had just arrived on the scene.

"Ryuichi! Let him go."

"Stay out of it K!" The brunette was then taken by surprise as he was hoisted from the ground by the tall foreigner.

"This isn't the way Ryuichi."

"Put me down!"

"No."

"K! I have to settle this!" K then lifted the distraught singer slightly higher to look at him face to face.

"I know you are angry, but why don't you just hear him out? Find out why he brought us here." This caused the brunette to let out an aggravated sigh and calm down slightly.

"Fine…"

"Thank you. Now, I think it's best to keep some distance between you two."

K then gently set the singer back on his feet while still keeping a firm grip on the collar of his shirt. He then gently pulled him backwards for a few yards so that they were now standing back at the opposite end of the small bridge, far enough away from the blonde that K was comfortable releasing the singer from his grasp. Yuki simply remained where he was, staring coolly at the duo opposite him, while Shuichi remained standing in the middle of the bridge in a slightly bewildered state, not knowing at all what he was supposed to do. The air was quickly filled with a thick tension that was only broken after a short while by the feisty brunette.

"Alright Yuki! You have us all here, now what do you want?!" Ryuichi then watched on intently as the blonde took a long drag on his cigarette before finally speaking.

"I think it's time we straighten all this out."

"I couldn't agree more." The brunette was doing his best to fight back his anger but his words still hissed through his teeth in a fiery tone. "How exactly did you plan on settling this then?" Yuki then took a moment to avert his gaze to the dazed pink haired boy standing in the middle of the bridge before looking back to the brunette just past him.

"It's time he made a decision, on his own. He needs to choose right now and if he chooses you then I will disappear for good." Shuichi's eyes grew wide at this and he quickly turned his gaze to look at his partner, waiting for his reply.

"If that's the way you want to do this…then fine." Shuichi then snapped out of his daze briefly to attempt to add his two cents into the situation.

"Do I get any say in the way we do things?!" He was then quickly answered by the writer.

"No."

"Yuki!"

"Shut it." Ryuichi was quick to jump in to defend his lover after the rude comment from the blonde.

"Don't talk to him like that!"

"Alright! God…let's just get on with it already."

"Fine." Ryuichi then turned his gaze back to Shuichi and took a few steps forward to meet him before taking him gently by the hand and pulling him back to the end of the bridge. Shuichi then wrapped the brunette in another tight hug before speaking to him in a soft voice.

"Ryu…I love you so much. I'm so sorry that I have put you through all this. Everything is my fault and I started all of this…I hope you can forgive me." Ryuichi could see large tears bringing to well up in his lover's eyes but he was quick to wipe them away while gently caressing his reddening cheeks.

"Hush now, there is nothing to forgive."

"But-"

"But nothing. I understand, things happen, and I knew about your past well before I fell for you. I always knew there was a possibility of Yuki coming back to Japan, I just had no idea what he would do if he did. No one could have seen all this coming. Please don't blame yourself Shuichi."

"Ok…"

"Good. Now, I need you to know some things."

"O-ok." Ryuichi then took a deep breath before baring his soul to beloved partner.

"Shuichi…I love you, with all my heart. From the very first day that I met you I knew that you were something special. You have such a big heart and are so talented, the truth is I have envied from the very beginning. The day that you said yes to me was the happiest of my life and every day since has been so amazing. I wouldn't trade the time we have had together for anything in the entire world." Shuichi's eyes quickly began to fill with tears once more as his heart warmed from the sweet words from the man he had idolized for most of his life.

"Ryuichi…I love you too. I-I don't know what to say…" The brunette then gave a warm smile before taking hold of both Shuichi's hands tenderly.

"You don't need to say anything love. But, I do have a confession to make."

"What's that?"

"Right as I was leaving the hospital to come find you, I got a phone call from ."

"What?! What did he say? He wasn't mean was he?"

"No he wasn't mean. He did most of the talking…he just told me how he felt about you and a lot about what has happened over the past week. Crazy thing was he actually apologized to me for the way he went about things."

"Wow…that is strange."

"I know…" There was then a short silence gazed into each other's with small smiles. "But there is one last thing I have to say."

"Ok."

Ryuichi then pulled the smaller boy close and whispered something in his ear. He then pulled back to see that Shuichi had wide eyes and a blank expression. Ryuichi simply gave him a warm smile before gently cupping his face and placing a tender kiss on his soft lips. Shuichi remained at a loss for words before he finally came across something to say.

"I…I guess I'll go talk to Yuki then…"

"Ok." The brunette then placed one last kiss on the boy's forehead before he turned and walked away.

Shuichi took in a deep breath before making his way towards the tall blonde who was standing beneath the street lamp on the other side of the bridge with one hand in his pocket and the other clutching a cigarette. Once the pink haired boy came to a stop directly in front of the blonde, Yuki tossed his cigarette to the ground and remained silent, awaiting judgment. Shuichi stood in front of him in silence for a moment before suddenly landing a hard slap right across the blonde's cheek.

"What the hell?!"

"That is for everything that you have done to me and all the pain and worry that you have caused Ryuichi!" This caused the blonde to grit his teeth in anger, trying his best to remain calm.

"Fine…I guess I deserve that."

"You do. Now…I've heard what you have to say and you need to know that I do understand that you were hurting, but blackmailing and drugging me is not the way to show that you care." Yuki then looked down to the ground momentarily in a rare display of shame and humility.

"I know."

"So you understand that what you did was wrong?"

"Yes…."

"Good. Now something has really been nagging at Ryuichi and I both, so I have a question for you."

"What is it?"

"When Ryuichi came and got me from your house after you drugged me, you told him that he couldn't give me what I really need but you can. What exactly were you talking about? What is it that you think I need?" Yuki then took a moment to choose his words wisely and took another deep breath before continuing.

"You really want to know the truth? You might not like it, but I am right."

"Yes, I need the truth."

"Well have you ever wondered why you kept coming back? Why you never left even after the very first time I treated you badly?"

"N-no…I always just came back because I loved you."

"That's part of it; but the truth of the matter is that you need the abuse."

"What?! That's a horrible thing to say Yuki!"

"I don't mean that you enjoy being mistreating exactly. Look at it this way, your whole life you have been a free spirit. You are hyper, driven and over emotional; and all your friends just go along with it and let you throw your temper tantrums and they let you go hide in a hole whenever you get your feelings hurt. I on the other hand, don't let you do any of those things because I know that that is no way to achieve your dreams. Don't you remember how you got to a million records sold for the first time?"

"I…I do. I got to go on a date with you."

"Exactly. Instead of letting you give up, I bullied you into success. It's all about balance and with you, you need a personality that is just as strong as your to counteract you." Shuichi began completely mystified by this reasoning and he could hardly believe how much sense the blonde was actually making.

"I guess…that sounds about right."

"I know; but it's a two way road as well. You balance out my over negative personality…you bring out the good in me Shuichi."

"I do?"

"I think that is obvious brat. No one else can make me do things I don't want to do; no one but you." The duo then remained silent for a moment as Shuichi tried to gather his thoughts.

"You still shouldn't treat me so badly Yuki."

"I know." Shuichi then took a deep breath and swallowed hard before speaking once more.

"Because you know…you are going to be stuck with me for the rest of your life now. So you need to start learning how to treat me better." The blonde remained completely silent for a moment with wide eyes and mouth slightly agape, running those words through his head over and over again making sure he heard them correctly.

"What are you saying…" The pink haired boy then stood on the tips of his toes, threw his arms around the blonde's neck and caught his lips in a heated passionate kiss.

"I'm saying that I love you Yuki. I truly do love you and I want to be by your side." The blonde then happily let a few tears of joy stream down his cheeks as he pulled the boy in and clutched him tightly to his chest.

"I love you too…Shuichi." The singer then wiggled free from the writers grasp to look up at him with a wide grin. The duo then walked over to the brunette and his tall body guard. Ryuichi had a few small tears running down his cheeks but he still put on a smile as Yuki extended a hand to him which he shook firmly.

"Are you really ok with this?"

"It hurts, I won't lie, but his happiness means everything to me. So please take good care of him Yuki."

"I will." Shuichi then wrapped his idol up in a tight hug before saying goodbye.

"I'll always love you Ryu."

"And I'll always love you Shuichi; and don't worry, I'll always be around."

"I'm glad." The two singers then exchanged large grins before Shuichi turned to Yuki once more.

"Let's go home Yuki."

"Yes, let's go home."

The long lost lovers then turned and walked away hand in hand, off to start their brand new life together. Their past was jaded and it had been a long and very rocky road to get to where they were now, but in that moment everything felt right to the singer for the first time in so many years. Just before they disappeared from sight, Shuichi looked over his shoulder to glance at Ryuichi once last time, and he smiled as he thought about the words that had been whispered in his ear, the words he would always remember his idol by:

"He needs you Shuichi. Make him sparkle….make him sparkle just like you."

END

Chapter Text

"Y-Yuki! Calm down already!"

Shuichi was now trying desperately just to stay on his feet and struggle free of the blonde's grasp as he stripped away his clothes piece by piece, all before they had made if fully past the door frame of Yuki's home.

"What do you expect? You are finally mine."

"You could at least wait until we make it inside!" This finally caused the blonde to let out a gruff sigh and stop his assault of the small singer enough for him to be able to gain his footing. "Thank you."

"Don't thank me just yet." The blonde then gave a very wicked grin before scooping the boy clear off the ground and throwing him over his shoulder.

"Yuki! What are you doing?!"

"Taking you to bed."

"Now?!" Yuki then kicked open the bedroom door and dropped the boy onto the bed rather roughly and began to undue his tie and unbutton his shirt.

"I think I've waited long enough."

"Now just wait a second! What do you mean? It hasn't actually been that long since we have done it you know. And what did you mean that I am finally yours? We have barely been apart at all since I found you." Shuichi then watched on as the blonde allowed his shirt to drop to the floor before climbing onto the bed to be hovering above him. Yuki then gazed down at the boy with a softer than usual expression and spoke in a much softer than usual tone.

"I mean exactly what I said. You haven't been mine until now. I have just been stealing you from someone else or tricking you into bad situations…and I think I have waited long enough to have you; to truly have you as mine. No tricks, no lies, no guilt, no ultimatums, just you and me together properly."

Shuichi was definitely beginning to enjoy the softer side of the blonde, the side that actually made him feel loved, and he could only answer by pulling him down to catch the blonde's lips in a heated kiss. Yuki quickly deepened their kiss and Shuichi was happy to allow him entrance so that they could swirl their tongues together, enjoying the familiar taste of the other. The need for air is what finally made them part but Yuki wasted no time in taking advantage of this and swiftly removing every shred of the small boys clothes, leaving him naked and blushing beneath him. Yuki then stopped to take in the sight of pale white flawless skin adorning the body that he craved more than anything that was now sprawled out willing on his bed, not to mention his now very erect member that begged for attention, and the blonde was more than happy to give it. He gave a wicked smirk before running a long finger teasingly along the entire length of Shuichi's member.

"A-ahh…"

The blonde still loved the seductive sounds that the singer made in times like these and he was determined to hear much more. With this plan in mind Yuki leaned down and placed a teasingly gentle lick across the sensitive tip of Shuichi's member causing the boy to gasp as he shuddered. The blonde then looked up into the singer's large lust filled eyes with a grin before taking his entire length into his mouth causing the boy to arch his back in pleasure. He then began to swirl his tongue perfectly around Shuichi's cock, filling the air with breathy moans. The blonde then gazed up to catch a glimpse of the very lusty face on the pink haired boy as he fought for breath and the sight was more than enough to make his own erection to throb with desire. Yuki took advantage of the boy's preoccupation and slyly slipped a long finger into the singer's tight entrance.

"A-ah!"

Yuki then gave the tip of Shuichi's member one last flick with his tongue before lifting his head and moving to catch his soft lips in a heated kiss. Shuichi continued to moan into their kiss as Yuki slipped another finger inside him, directly hitting the sweet spot inside of him that made his blood boil.

"Nnn!"

With his target found, Yuki began to poke and tease at that spot until Shuichi could no longer hold back his cries and he broke their kiss to throw his head back in ecstasy.

"Y-Yuki…I can't take it anymore….please…" This caused the blonde to smirk once again.

"Please what?" Before the boy could answer, Yuki made sure to hit his sweet spot perfectly once more.

"A-ahh! P-please! I want….I need you Yuki!"

This plea was finally enough for the blonde and he quickly removed his fingers, with a disappointed groan from the singer. He too could no longer hold back so he effortlessly flipped the small boy over onto his stomach before taking hold of his hips and coaxing him up onto his hands and knees. Yuki then positioned his solid hard member against the boy's entrance teasingly. This caused Shuichi to look back over his shoulder at him with a desperate pleading expression. This face was the final straw for the blonde and he finally let himself go and pushed quickly into the boy who immediately winced at the pain and grabbed desperately at the sheets. Shuichi was then completely taken aback when instead of silence or a sarcastic comment; he felt a gentle hand begin to rub softly on his back and a soft voice from the blonde.

"Are you ok?" This strange new situation was enough in and of itself to remove any all thoughts of pain from the small singer and he simply looked back at the blonde once again with a lusty smile.

"Y-yeah…."

The blonde then removed his hand to replace it back on one of the boy's slender hips before pulling himself almost completely out of his entrance and pushing slowly all the way back in.

"Ahh…"

The singer's soft moan was all the encouragement Yuki needed to pull back once more and this time slam back into the boy.

"Ahh! Yes…"

Yuki could no longer go easy on the boy that he had loved for so long and he then began to thrust into the boy with more speed and power, sending both of their moans and groans entangling together in the warm air of the bedroom.

"H-harder Yuki."

The blonde happily obliged and took a firm hold of the singers hips to give him extra power when he rammed into him, this time hitting his sweet spot dead on causing Shuichi to throw his head back as he cried out. Shuichi's muscled began to tighten around Yuki cock so perfectly that he could no longer control himself at all and he began thrusting desperately faster into his lover as Shuichi bucked his hips back in perfect time to meet his thrusts. The heat, desire and passion of the situation quickly began to bubble over and with one last perfectly placed thrust, Shuichi went screaming over the edge spilling himself onto Yuki's snow white sheets.

"Y-Yuki!"

Shuichi orgasm made every muscle in his body tense and tighten, especially those around the blonde's member. This spasm sent the blonde over the edge right behind his lover and he released himself fully into the boy.

"NN…Shuichi…."

The lovers remained just as they were, panting for breath, until Shuichi's knees began to buckle beneath him. Yuki then pulled himself out of his partner just in time to allow the small boy to collapse onto the bed, completely exhausted. Yuki quickly followed and plopped down onto the bed next to him, too tired even for a cigarette. They remained in a peaceful silence for a moment before Shuichi gathered his strength enough to roll over and prop himself onto his elbows to look into brilliant golden eyes.

"Yuki…I love you…so much." The blonde then gave a genuine smile before lifting his head just enough to place a tender kiss on the singer's lips.

"And I love you Shuichi."

The singer's strength then gave out and he collapsed back onto the bed as his eyes began to grow heavy. The blonde looked on happily at the sight, feeling truly happy for the first time in so many years. He then gave a small smile before wrapping a strong arm around the singer and hoisting him up delicately so that he was now resting soundly on his muscled chest. Shuichi was able to keep awake just long enough to gaze into the blondes eyes once more before nestling against his chest and falling into a deep sleep. The blonde could also no longer fight off sleep but he made sure to place a gentle kiss on the singers head before drifting away to sleep with one final whisper.

"I love you…you'll never know just how much."

END