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1. Cute concerns - Sunnnyy (me)

His love for Hinata-kun has been increasing this days

Like, yeah he was feeling a thing for him since (ALWAYS) they became a couple. There’s no doubt about it! From the moment their eyes met, it was a total "I really like you, I love you." Those rather accidental encounters turned into eager (or friendly, however you want to see it) encounters, so full of sweet or nervous glances. Just like two fools who truly love each other. The day he remembers most as if it were yesterday was the day he gave Hinata a bunch of envelopes, ah, they were letters expressing everything he felt for him (they were letters of almost 2 pages each). In addition to a box full of his favorite candy, kusamochi, how could he forget something so silly but so selective about his partner? He couldn't. (And also because everyone had just woken up from the Neo World program, how could he forget? Truly impossible)

He even remembers when Hinata finished reading all the letters the next day. He waved at him with a raised hand and suddenly, SMASH!, he had Hinata kissing him (or maybe he was eating him right there… wait that meant he was breakfast). It was so short that it felt so long when it ended. Hinata's lips were trembling, his energy and courage to kiss him was due to that morning energy that always appears for some reason.

It was just...so full of feeling, filling a bitter space within himself with a sweet taste. Love, love, love. That was the filling. Love. He couldn’t deny it, it was (was? is) a delicious filling, his life always so, ah, full of many feelings that were anything but pleasant, love, the last time he even felt it was with his parents (they died) and then with his dog (needless to say, it died too). Love. An emotion that surfaced that (this time) he wouldn't step on until it went back down, maybe...maybe if he just took it lightly maybe nothing unpleasant would happen. (that lightly took became a real strong one, jeez, he really loves Hinata).

But this days, he cannot stop seeing Hinata without blushing or smiling, a heat so sudden that it made him feel like his skin was burning! , his words came out of his mouth without a second thought, when they held hands for some reason his hands would sweat (the room was not hot at all), even when speaking he stuttered! He was even seeing him as much more handsome than usual, jeez, and much hotter too.

And…and he didn’t knowed why. It was like he was falling in love with the same person he was already in a relationship with!. Was that possible? Maybe, but why? It wasn't as if Hinata was someone super loving, he showed it much more with words (ah but how intellectual), since their relationship began, he never changed that, not even now! How could it be that the man to whom he had already given every ounce of his appreciation that one could ever feel for a person, was now stealing his breath away again, as if it were the first time he had ever seen him? So why did he love him more every day?

His feelings... his feelings didn't make sense, they were so irrational that they irritated him, because his feelings were so idiotic, or well, maybe he was the idiot for not knowing why his feelings were like that. Didn’t made sense! Horrible horrible horrible. His chest felt burning (or maybe it was just her neck and collarbone that couldn't stand the lymphoma anymore) with every word Hinata said and he wasn't enjoying as much as before that electric sensation he transmitted throughout his body every time his hands were so close to his skin.

Maybe if he told Hinata that he was falling in love with him again? Hinata's logical mind was really going to be confused by his partner's silly emotions today. How is it that he can stand him every day? If it were up to him, he would have literally separated…from himself a long time ago.

With too much courage and a thought that screamed "bad idea Komaeda" he took his cell phone out of his jacket pocket, pressed the button to turn it on. At that moment on the lock screen there were already some messages from the aforementioned person (even thinking of her name made him smile unconsciously). Because he was being an idiot reflecting on meaningless things as himself, he didn't answer Hinata's messages in time! What a bad partner he was being, for that reason he has always remained alone.

He was hoping that whatever Hinata had written to him wasn't something that had been requiring him for a while. With a sigh, he stopped any paranoid thoughts he was having, and began to read Hinata's messages, although still with a worry that was almost tearing the flesh of his insides, a feeling so horrible for most... perhaps a feeling that a trash like him did deserve.

-?????????

-KO' AND WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? DON'T JUST REACT WITH YOUR FUCKING GREEN HEART, BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT MEANS.

-Ko' I'm giving away punches and you're winning every single one duMBAAAASSSS-

 Well, enough of "reading Hinata's messages", how loving his partner was, how did life give him to him? He really didn't know, but he was truly grateful for it. Someone who only brings misfortune to others, deaths, hatred, confusion, having been able to get someone as perfect as Hinata, it was as if he had given so much pity to the world that Hinata was like a kind of gift out of pity. Hinata apparead on his life just when he was like a fetus abandoned by their mom.

Y’know what? Messages are just only for teenage couples who don't love each other, since everything is an act or torn emotions, and they're adults who love each other too much and without limits to show their love to themselves! (Well, except for whispering compliments in each other's ears, that gave him goosebumps).

With a very inexplicable confidence, he left his cottage (Yes, all this time of mental reflection was in his room), he knowed Hinata is working for the future foundation right now, there are attempts to create more medicine supplements, and well, Hinata is capable of creating medicines anything. Walking with long strides, crossing the entire island, enduring the horrible sun that was shining at that moment (was it even 12 pm for the sun to be that powerful? It was barely 3 pm!). With his hands in his jacket pockets (as funny as it is that one felt warm while the other felt so so cold!). Not flinching in the least from talking to the others who passed by him (later he would knock on their doors and say "Good afternoon!" with a hand up as he always does), right now, he felt a great need to be with Hinata and tell him something like "I can't take how damn handsome you are anymore, oooh my mind..! my mind can't take the intense emotions you provoke in me anymore!"

His footsteps only increased in speed, he could hear them, the wood of the bridge on the second island was noisy, every step sounded like “tap tap tap”, maybe the wood was already rotting? Maybe it would break right now as he walked on it, the ocean would drag him with force and leave him at the North Pole (at least it would be him and not someone else). the possibilities are almost endless (and thinking about them was an addictive thing to do).

“Hey Komaeda” Hinata’s voice softly talked to Komaeda, in front of him with one of his usual silly and cheerful looking smiles he has.

“Sorry, I'll say hello later” He didn't stopped for a second to talk.

“Man.”

And then, he stopped walking right there, that was Hinata’s voice?, he turned his head back slowly, as if he were in some kind of slow motion. He was so deep in thought that he couldn't notice that the person who had spoken to him was Hinata-kun. Damn, he wasn't going to forgive himself for being distracted. Why was he like this?

“Oh well, you're distracted today, aren't you? Dumb”

He blushed strongly (or so he thought, his skin was burning), started smiling and laughing kindly, he walked backwards with quick steps, now looking at him head on and smiling, he opened his arms automatically, giving Hinata a very soft hug, lovely, almost fully covering his face on his hair, he could smell on it a citrus scent and something like, coffee? Yes, that was totally it. Unconsciously he smiled at the smell. Hinata accepted the hug and also, kissed him on the jaw, how cute! (HE FELT HIS CHEST HURT FROM HIS HEARTBEATS).

kisses upon kisses, it tickled his whole body, even though they only kissed his jaw and the kisses weren't wild, they were so light (Like feeling a soft feather caress him, oh your lips Hinata). He was so lucky to have Hinata by his side, his love filled his soul, truly someone like him didn’t deserve someone as hopeful and perfect as Hinata, he seemed like a simple rat next to a king... and his bad luck felt like the damn black plague.

Now he didn't know whether to let go of Hinata or stay close to him. What if the bridge really did break? What if Hinata is the only one who dies? What if because of it Hinata starts hating him? He knew they both had the talent (however that's even considered a talent) of having Good Luck, but that feeling of "internal mental worry" wasn't going away. Bad luck exist too.

With a great condolence inside, he only touched his beloved's hair a little and gently separated from the hug with a little smile. But he really enjoyed the beautiful moment, he really wished that his bad luck would never do anything bad to Hinata, if that were to happen, he wouldn't think about it and he would try to finally disappear from the world (if his dementia and lymphoma don't do it first).

“You came to pick me up at "work" Ko?” Hinata joked as he started holding Komaeda’s metallic hand, the cold sensation of the metal gave him a small shiver that perhaps only made his hair move. Komaeda just laughed so gently, ran a hand through his messy hair and tried to put more strength into his grip to make the feeling more friendly to Hinata (Once he didn't measure his grip so much that he "half" crushed Hinata's hand hard). Although, he would much rather have both hands so that both of them could feel Hinata's perfect and warm skin to delight in it, how his skin feels, feel the temperature of his skin, instead of just feeling it "there" (But no! He decided to cut off his hand. Hadn't it occurred to him to put Junko's neck instead?)

"Ha, yes, something like that, I wanted to be there when you were just leaving Hinata-kun, I know I'm not a pretty image, but you are for me." He softly confessed as he started looking Hinata’s face. Pretty green eyes, even if they always look so angry!. Gives personality to his sweet little face.

Hinata’s just made a face of disagreement, furrowing his eyebrows a little, ah he's so cute "Don't call yourself that, you're a pretty image to me too, just seeing you is way brighter than seeing the fucking sun." He closed his eyes and continued smiling, accepting the compliment by nodding his head, but deep down he knew that it wasn't true in the slightest. But okay, Hinata told him that and he accepted it calmly (If he said he didn't deserve it, he would be "disciplined" in his cottage).

"I appreciate that Hinata, well, I appreciate everything you say to me!" And with that, he kissed Hinata’s cheek with a very lovely kiss, it was a short one but was very lovely and Hinata really liked it, he could hear a “No no no! It tickles me, stop now, dumb!” (Kissing in public in a more affectionate way made him feel a little embarrassed. Who would want to see them kiss? Especially since he's the one doing it, it's simply disgusting to look at).

Now, the image of the two was silly, he very on top of Hinata, almost completely his entire body on top of him, since he wanted to kiss him in all the possible places "Come on Hinata-kun just a few more kisses, let me eat you like I did with my lunch today!" he said with a mocking cloying voice, while Hinata put his hands on Komaeda's chest to get him off of him "Get off me Komaeda! I know you know you don't weigh anything AND you are one centimeter taller than me , but don't take advantage of those facts, damn it, you have legs to stand on your own!" while he just said with one of his typical irritated or angry tones of voice.

And they were like that for a while until Komaeda kissed Hinata literally all over his face, near his eyes, lips, nose (even near his ears). That was when he got off of him, returning to normal as he was before, while Hinata only kept a half blush on his face and furrowed eyebrows "It makes me furious that you kiss my whole damn face, you're not a paintbrush to do that, and I'm much less a canvas for you!" Hinata hissed while looking at him in a way that he considered threatening to Komaeda (although he loved Hinata's threatening faces). Komaeda only giggled.

Now, after all the sweetness they had said before, they started heading towards Hinata's room. Their steps were calm and slow, enjoying the moment they had alone. The sun was blazing brightly because it was barely 4 p.m. (Hinata was going to tan, he was going to get burn). They held hands sweetly, as if the moment they let go, they would disappear. Lovely.

The silence felt pleasant, the only thing you could hear was the very distant sound of waves crashing against each other, and a salty smell suddenly appeared in his nose (or maybe the salty smell was already there and he could smell it well until now). He couldn't help but look to his side and take a good look at Hinata.

The beautiful way his hair shine thanks to the sun beating down on them, even Hinata's eyes seemed to shine too! (much more that crimson color), his partner really was so beautiful. He was so lucky to have him. And without knowing it, he felt nervous being so close to his own partner, just like when they were just dating. He felt his hand sweating (just one, because, metal doesn't sweat), and his heart was pounding so much in his ears that it only reminded him of the time he had to get an adrenaline injection in the hospital (long story). He even felt his face burning! (Although that could be because the sun is directly above them).

Without realizing it, he felt so small, and maybe he was getting too nervous just from seeing Hinata, but he just couldn't stop the feeling! Hinata's beauty and kindness were messing with his emotions and feelings. He wanted to say so much to stop the silence, but the words were truly stuck in his neck (probably his lymphoma). So, realizing how he felt, he started to look to the other side, oh yes yes the palm trees over there look spectacular. It wasn't like his own partner was driving him crazy, no no no, it's not that!.

“Something tells me that... Komaeda, something’s wrong, huh?” Hinata asked while looking sideways at his partner, who was looking the other way. Oh Hinata and his great intuition.

And Komaeda's heart couldn't beat faster when he heard Hinata's voice because that would be impossible. Now he was looking at Hinata, but trying not to see his face. He felt so nervous about absolutely nothing and it was almost killing him internally (externally :3 that's how his face looked). His eyes were seeing only Hinata's shoes, as if that were interesting.

“You... your great, hopeful presence is making me nervous, Hinata-kun.” That was what he could say with a soft voice that could be confused with total exhaustion. “Why do you ask, Hinata-kun? Is it very noticeable? I'm sorry you have to be in front of someone as nervous as me right now. Your gaze should see something more perfect, and I'm not that” He added while trying to put his sight on the path in front of them, somehow, they were almost about to enter the set of rooms, that is, they were almost reaching their destination, wow, how good that he had Hinata by his side or he would already be drowned in the ocean.

“Noticeable? Oh no, not at all, only if squeezing my hand like it’s a toy in a hydraulic dam means “I’m nervous” then yes”

“Wait…you? Nervous?” Hinata added as a little laugh came out of his mouth. He was nervous and Hinata was laughing as if nothing was happening, well, in itself it is because nothing was happening, but still, he felt that something was happening. He just wanted to blush more when he heard that beautiful laugh coming from his beloved's mouth. He adored him (His presence was so charming that he was even sweating).

“What makes you nervous about me, Ko'? “ Hinata asked gently and softly, so lovely.

“Oh, it's not you, it's just that my feelings for you have gotten out of cont-“ THE MOST MAGNIFICENT, SPLENDID, HOPEFUL IMAGE OF A PERSON WAS BY HIS SIDE WHEN HE JUST DECIDED TO LOOK HINATA IN THE EYES AGAIN.

The sun….The sun was hitting Hinata in the most perfect way possible! Oh his face..! His face! The way his eyes looked, the way his skin looked, the way his muscles looked, the way his lips looked!. EVERYTHING LOOKED SO SO SO HOPEFUL. The sun really helped Hinata-kun to look good! Because the sun makes him look like a rat! The world seems to help more others than him.

And…and he couldn't help it, he gaped open-mouthed, blushed deeply, didn't blink for a few seconds. Hinata just stared at him with one eyebrow raised and his head tilted to the other side. "Hey Ko'? What's wrong with your feelings towards me?" Hinata asked in a confused manner and somewhat worried for his partner, he even put a hand on his waist while looking at him.

He blinked finally, noticing that they were already in front of Hinata's room door. He didn't know what to say, he didn't know. His heart wouldn't stop beating and he felt a pang that made him sweat profusely. He felt horrible for worrying his partner, but he just couldn't handle his feelings anymore! His emotions felt out of control again because of his partner and he couldn't stand it anymore!

And with an inexplicable will, he let go of Hinata’s hand, from which he only gave him a look of confusion (combined with irritation as always) getting very close to him, his eyes narrowed in a loving way. Without saying anything, he hugged him tightly, he hid his face in Hinata’s shoulder, smelling that citrus scent he had, relaxing.

While Hinata hesitantly accepted the hug, putting his arms on Komaeda’s back and gently stroking his torso in circles. “Are you okay, or should I call Mikan..?” Hinata asked timidly. He knew it was normal for Komaeda to suddenly become so romantic or affectionate, but hey, it didn’t hurt to ask if he was okay. Komaeda. He just laughed softly, he loved that little concern with which Hinata sometimes asked things.

“I feel like…I’ve fallen in love with you again. I love everything about you, your laugh, your face, the way you talk to me, that logical mind of yours. Everything. I love everything about you, and I can’t help but get…nervous around you.” That was what he managed to say delicately, just like when they were just dating, closing his eyes and letting himself be carried away by the hopeful moment.

He just finished saying that, and he could feel how Hinata started to hug him in a tighter way (They were both hugging each other so tightly, like a sandwich!), he had a small intention of wanting to pick Hinata up, but instead, he snuggled his face deeper into his shoulder. “It seems that my charms that made you fall in love with me still haven’t gone away, right?” Hinata joked and giggled in such a shy way, two fools in love was the description of the image. No more description.

“No, of course they haven’t left, Hinata-kun,” he said seductively as he stopped snuggling his face into his shoulder, now looking directly Hinata’s face in a loving manner.

Hinata smiled goofily, he was blushing from the look Komaeda had on his face, but that didn’t intimidate him, so little did it intimidate him that he even got so close to his partner, cutting off the personal space they had, kissing the sweet (well, dry) lips of his beautiful partner Komaeda (Good God, even if he initiated the kiss, Komaeda was always the one who took control of them).

Soft. The kiss was soft, certainly very loving. As they separated, they silently stared at each other's faces, not a single word spoken, before finally laughing together. "I love you...I really love you Komaeda" Hinata gently whispered as he tangled his fingers in his partner's hair, and in turn, Komaeda tangled his own in Hinata's, too cloying and romantic, both of them so blushed looking at each other's faces and with their fingers in each other's hair.

"I love you too, Hinata-kun, you are my hope, the light in the mistake that I am" Komaeda said sweetly with one of those denigrating comments to himself that he always used to do, which made Hinata only look at him with slightly furrowed eyebrows, and then said "...Let's go to bed, you must be tired Ko', right?" Hinata asked as he slowly pulled away from Komaeda, who did the same.

"Oh no, I'm not tired at all!" He said as he turned his back on Hinata to open the door (he was the one who kept Hinata's keys, since he was mostly at work; sometimes he slept there to surprise him). He opened the door; a click told him he had successfully opened it. So, he stepped aside to let his cute Hinata enter his room first (just being polite).

"You're tired I said!" Hinata exclaimed and suddenly, grabbed Komaeda to start carrying him in a bridal style (that dumb princess in distress style), Komaeda was surprised by the unexpected action, but he didn't complain, in fact he said "Oh Hinata-kun is so strong to carry this insignificant trash! How strong you are!" And to continue the style more, he placed his hands on Hinata's neck.

He kissed him on the cheek, kicked the door fully open with his leg, Komaeda just laughed while the blush continued, Hinata entered with his partner in full force, already near the bed and for some reason (wanting to be the dominant man in the relationship), threw Komaeda onto the bed and then threw himself on top of him...

It went wrong. Komaeda hit his head on a metal frame (wood-colored). He didn't complain, he just made a groaning noise, which made Hinata give a small "OUCH", and then approached him, touching his head to see if something hadn't broken up there (In the sense of physical broken).

"KOMAEDA, ARE YOU OKAY??? I'M SORRY, I DIDN'T MEAN FOR YOU TO HIT THE FUCKING BED FRAME."

"Don't worry about me, Hinata-kun! I needed that, haha!"

"...Okay, you've earned a whole string of beatings."

Chapter Text

Everything started with a girl named HIZZZZZZZ who was born in Nicaragua and loved baleadas… (GOOGLE IT)

One day she was walking peacefully at the park with a bubble ice cream and bump into a stranger…..

OH- sowwy~~

Said the awkward guy that was very VERY blushed…

OHHHH its okae darling.. – said the Nicaraguan gurl and the twink instantly blushed twice as mucchh

W-WHAT DID YOU JUST CALL ME????11???!!!!!111!

Just like u heard it HEHEH

The guy ran out of there so freakin’ confused even his fat ass didn’t make him able to run (it was bouncing A LOT DAMMMNN)

And they arrived to their houses and go to sleep yeh

The next day they met again at school and kissed passionately and damn man so aggressive all and the guys at school were like omfg wtf is happening rn dude ts is insane ngl..

BUT THENNN it was everything a dream, the odd thing is that both dreamed the same thing damn man like u know

But yes they met at school and just saw themselves once in da fukin day like bro wtff

Then in the afternoon the hizz mama told her “hey my friend of middle school will come go wash the plates bihh”

OMG MOM WHY YOU DON’T NEVER LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEEEEE

STFU HIZZ GO WASH THE FUKIN’ PLATES AND THEN GO TO REFLECT IN YOUR ROOMMMMM

OKAE LEAVE ME ALONEE WITCH

Then hizz mama went to her room and slammed the door like being crazy woahhhh, hizz finished and went into her room too, took a little nap and while she was asleep, she was woken by a slamming door and there was this GODAMN weird boy again

You?!?!?? WTF ARE U DOING HEREEEEE

I HAVE THE SAME QUESTION

YOU ARE IN MY HOUSE¿¿¿ AND IN MY FKING ROOM

CALM DOWN, I-I WAS JUST TRYING TO GET TO THE BATHROOM, okay?

Oh yeah, yeah, but may I know WHAT U ARE DOING IN MY HOUSEEEE

OKAY JUST CALMMM, I guess that our moms are friends…. Cuz mine told me that we were going to a friend’s house…

Okay but YOU’RE STUPID??? WHY ARE U ON MY ROOM

WELL, they told me that the bathroom was here in the second floor but accidentally enter to your room and ur mom was just passing by and i was embarrassed that she saw me going through the wrong door sooo

So you’re the stupidest guy in the world

Im not welcome in your room?:(((

Hell naw gtfo

Then Hajime started sobbing cuz he is dumb and tuff

BRO CALM DOWN okay you’re welcome to my room

YIPIEEEEE – said the stupidest guy in da world, they were hanging out awhile and hizz says:

Okay twink, TRUTH OR DARE…

DID YOU JUST CALL ME A TWINK????

YES, AND?

Omggg you just did a Ariana grande referenceee:333

See? ONLY TWINKS LISTEN TO ARIANA

NOT ONLY TWINKSSS, SHE IS A GREAT ARTIST AND HAVE A LOT OF AWARDS AND NOMINATIONS AND AND

I DON’T FUCKING CAREEE JUST TELL ME, TRUTH OR DARE???

DAREEEEEE

Oh really? I thought u were choosing truth.. but okae!! (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶)

NO W-WAIT I WASN’T- I WASN’T THINKING STRIGHT

NAHH NOW YOU’RE COOKED

(◞‸ ◟)💧

I dare you to kiss me passionately…

Whot

LIKE U HEARD IT

Uhmm this is kinda weird but..

*they kissed soft and then aggressively, their drool was falling and this guys was VERY VERYYYY dedicated like bro hell nahhh, well, they just never stopped kissing and died, yes yes, they DIED*

AND THAT’S ALL OKAE IM LEAVING BYE HIZZ ILYYYY OK IM GOING TO SLEEP. (,,>﹏<,,)