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Till sits down on the couch in the dressing room he shares with Ivan. He sighs and pulls out his phone, looking up as Ivan enters the room. “Hi, Till hyung.” He mutters groggily, dragging his feet as he walks over to Till. The grey-haired man smiles, putting his phone down before opening his arms to the taller. “What’s up? Tired?” He says in a soft, but slightly mocking tone. The dark-haired man nods with a pout, plopping down onto the couch and resting his head on Till’s lap. He smiles as he runs his fingers through the silky black hair. “Wanna take a nap here? We have about an hour before our next scene. Ivan doesn’t respond, but he nods, nuzzling his face into Till’s shirt. “Go ahead and nap, I’ll wake you up when I have to.” He smiles and leans down, pressing a soft kiss on Ivan’s forehead. Ivan smiles at the smaller man before drifting off.

After nearly an hour, someone knocks on the door of their dressing room. “Hey, Till..” A staff member speaks as she enters the room. “Ah, sorry.” Her voice drops down to a whisper as she notices that Ivan is asleep. “Mm?” Till looks up from his phone, still playing with Ivan’s hair as he sleeps. “You two are back on in 15. Till nods as the staff member walks out the room, closing the door behind her. He sighs and looks down at the peaceful, sleeping man on his lap, hesitating to wake him up. He sighs before gently ruffling the taller’s hair, gently shaking him after. “Hey, Ivan, time to wake up.” He leans down slightly, gently brushing his hair away from his face. Ivan only whines in protest, but opens his eyes, looking up at Till with a smile that shows off his fang. 

“How much time do we have left?”

“About 10 now, why?”

Ivan sits up and wraps his arms around Till, shoving his face in the crook of the shorter’s neck. “Can we go straight home once filming’s over? I’m tired.” The grey-haired man only nods before gently patting the dark-haired man’s back, signaling him that they need to get up. “Sure, but now we have to get up and out of here before the other’s start looking for us.” Ivan nodded before standing up in front of till, his tall, slender frame towering over the smaller. 

Although Till is older than Ivan, he’s shorter. Not by a lot, but shorter. They met back in middle school when they were about the same size. As soon as they reached freshman year, Ivan had a sudden growth spurt. That didn’t stop him from behaving like a puppy around till. He was still clingy, loving, and I guess you can say.. Weird. People would describe him as odd when they would see him practically lick Till, but it was just his way of showing affection. He is an odd one, from what people say.

Till looks up at the tall, dark-haired man before him, giving him a half smile. “Wide awake now?” Ivan nods, smiling at his senior. “What scene are we going to do?” Till stands up and picks up the script from his makeup table, examining it. “Mm, seems like the kiss scene. Right before you get shot.” Ivan pouts, his shoulders slumping. “Why does my character have to die? I know the fans won’t like this either.” Till puts the script book back down before walking up to Ivan. “We both know that your character doesn’t actually die, it’s just some added drama for the fans.” He smiles reassuringly. “Now let’s go, we have five minutes before they start looking for us.” Ivan nods and follows Till out of the dressing room, walking over to the set.

Once the filming starts, there’s an undeniable tension on set. They both know they’re about to kiss, but there’s still tension there. As Ivan walks over to Till, he tries hard not to look at him. They’ve rehearsed this many times, but never with an actual kiss. As Ivan steps closer, it’s much harder for Till not to turn and look at him. Eventually, Ivan grabs his face and kisses him. He fights the urge to kiss back, since he’s not supposed to, but it’s so hard since Ivan’s lips are nice and soft against his. Unfortunately, he loses the fight against himself and kisses him back, just for a split second. He catches himself before getting carried away, which results in him breaking the kiss.

”Ahem,” He clears his throat, not looking Ivan in the eye. “Sorry, I just couldn’t breathe for a moment.” He laughs nervously, glancing up at Ivan. “I know you’re supposed to be kind of aggressive, but make it so I can breathe, alright?” Ivan only nods before heading back to his original position. 

Ivan is staring at Till. He felt him kiss back, but he didn’t understand why. His character wasn’t supposed to, he was supposed to refuse it. He liked that he kissed back though. He’s been waiting to be able to kiss till since they were in high school. Ivan had a crush on him since then, but of course he never said anything. He’s so in love with him, so in love that he never crossed his boundaries, although none were set up to begin with. Ivan decided to take this as an opportunity. He’s sets his plan in motion as soon as he heard ‘Action!’

He walks over to Till again, repeating the same movements as before, but messing up on purpose. So they kept repeating the scene.

They kissed, and kissed again, and again. It was not only Ivan messing up, but Till too. But mostly Ivan. After they finally got the scene right, they both headed back to their dressing room. It was oddly quiet, for the both of them at least. They both changed out of their outfits and back into their normal clothes without a word. It’s like they both knew what the other was thinking, what the other was doing, but they never said anything.

Finally, Till spoke, but only after he put his beanie on. “Ivan.” The dark-haired man turned around instantly, meeting Till’s gaze. “Yes, hyung?”

“You said you wanted to go straight home, right?” Ivan nodded his small smile turning into a frown. “Yes please, I’m tired from filming today.” He walks over, resting his head against the smaller’s shoulder. “Sorry for repeatedly messing up today, I guess I was just nervous.” He lifts his head up and meets Till with a smile, adjusting his beanie.

As soon as they entered their shared apartment, Ivan plops down onto the couch. Till sits down beside him, lifting Ivan’s head onto his lap. “I think you’d want to at least take off your shoes before falling asleep, Ivan.” The grey-haired man jokes, gently stroking the silky, dark hair that was on his lap because of Ivan. He waits for a response, but Ivan had already fallen asleep. “Huh, asleep already..” He shakes his head before taking off his glasses and beanie.

He closes his eyes, not falling asleep quite yet. Why was he so nervous during the kiss scene? Why did he want to kiss back to badly? It didn’t make sense to him. He never saw Ivan in that way. He saw Ivan as his best friend, that oddly acts like a puppy sometimes. Some people may find it weird, but Till finds it.. Endearing? They’re an odd pair, for sure, but this was odd, especially for Till.

They were always just friends, just classmates, just colleagues, so why is he feeling this way?

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Ivan tends to stare at Till a lot. till pretends to not notice, but it feels like he’s burning a hole into his skin with his eyes. The others do notice though, and they bring it up to tease Till. 

“So.. Why is Ivan staring at you so much? What’d you do to him?” Mizi asked, a hint of tease in her voice. Till looked at her in confusion before turning to look at Ivan, who was in fact, staring, and hard. “Huh,” Till shrugs, turning his attention back to is phone. “Not sure. I didn’t do anything to him.” Mizi turns to face Hyuna, who doesn’t believe a word the grey-haired man just said. “What did you do to him? He’s been staring more than usual after yesterday.”

Yesterday. What happened yesterday that might’ve caused Ivan to stare more? Till thought to himself. Was it the kiss? Did he notice that he kissed him back? Till only shrugged in response. “More than usual? So you’re saying he normally stares at me?” The man asked, unamused.  

Mizi and Hyuna stare at each other, clearly judging the man. “Come on! You clearly did something. He never stares this hard.” The man only shrugged in response again, unfazed and unamused.  “Did you guys fuck?”

Silence. Uncomfortable silence, too. “What?” Till looked at Hyuna with fear and disgust in his eyes. “That must be it! Your reaction says it all!” She smiled cheekily, nudging Till’s shoulder. “Wha— No! We didn’t fuck.” Till scoffed, looking back down at his phone again. “I don’t know why he’s staring at me, I didn’t even know he did it in the first place.” He rolled his eyes, turning to face Ivan as he called his name. 

“Hyung! Can you help me take care of the kid version of us? It’s their scene next.” He flashed him a smile that shows off his fang. Till finds it endearing, but he doesn’t show it. He only nodded and got up from his chair, following Ivan to the kids’ dressing room.

The walk is quiet, but not awkward. Ivan wanted to talk about how Till kissed back, but he refrained from doing so.

The kiss is on both of their minds, but it shouldn’t be. It was just a fake kiss, just a kiss for the camera. 

Ivan really wanted to talk about it, but he didn’t want to make things awkward with him. 

They’re both sitting on the couch in their shared apartment. Ivan, once again, is staring at Till. He could feel him staring, but he pretended not to. “Till.” Ivan spoke, finally breaking the silence. Till hummed in response, not looking at Ivan. The taller pouted and laid his head on the grey-haired man’s lap, looking up at him. “How’d I do today during filming?” 

Till lowered his gaze down to Ivan. The dark-haired man looked like a puppy waiting for some praise. He smiled and tangled his fingers in the dark, silky hair beneath him. “You did great, Ivan. So did the little version of you.” Ivan beamed and sat up, leaning his head into the older man’s calloused hands. “Really, hyung? You think so?” 

The grey-haired man looked at him with content, admiring Ivan’s puppy-like nature. “Yes, Ivan. You did great.” For a moment, Till could swear that he saw Ivan with puppy ears and a wagging tail, but that was just a hallucination. 

Ivan, on the other hand, is overjoyed with the praise he got from his senior. He loves hearing what Till has to think of his work. Although he is happy about the praise, he had the urge to ask him about the kiss. Even if it was for a split second, it was enough for it to make him spiral. He started staring at him, his gaze dropping to the older man’s lips occasionally. 

Till noticed this, but decided not to say anything. Instead, he decided to talk about something else. “Want something to eat? I can order takeout or we can cook.” Ivan did hear his words, however, he didn’t respond. They went in through one ear and out the other. “Ivan?” No response, just staring.

”Ivan.” Again, he just stared. he didn’t notice that Till got closer.

”Ivan. Earth to Ivan, you there?” He gently flicked his forehead. With that, Ivan finally reacted. “Yes, hyung?”

”Did you even hear me? Or were you too busy staring at me to pay attention?” Ivan pouted and shook his head, not backing away from Til. “Sorry. What were you saying?”

”Hm.” Till smiled and ruffled Ivan’s hair again. “You hungry?”

The two ate in silence, but Ivan couldn’t help but stare at Till’s lips. The way they wrapped around the food, the way they wrapped around the utensils, how soft they looked. He wanted to kiss them so bad. Instead of acting on it, he just stared. He never wanted to kiss Till so bad. Of course, he had feelings for a while, but they never affected him so bad. After he felt Till kiss back, it started to drive him crazy.

“Ivan, you okay?” Till started to notice that Ivan was staring, and staring hard. Maybe he did have a staring problem. He was staring like crazy.

“You do have a staring problem..” He muttered. Ivan only sat up and averted his gaze, embarrassed by Till’s remark. “I’m not saying it’s a bad thing, it was Mizi and Hyuna that pointed out. I had no idea you stared at me a lot.”

“I’m sorry.” Ivan mumbled, trying to avoid looking at Ivan. “Don’t apologise, I don’t mind.” Till smiled reassuringly. It seemed to work, because Ivan smiled wide, nodding in response. He was almost like a puppy around Till.

No, he was Till’s puppy.