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The hotel suite Amanda had claimed was a mess of satin, ribbons, and rogue hairpins. Jesse sat cross-legged on the carpet, painstakingly trying to braid Billie’s hair while Billie swatted at her hands and protested that she wanted curls, not boring braids. Fin sat on the edge of the bed like he’d been dropped into a sitcom, sipping coffee and giving the occasional, deeply unhelpful, “Looks fine to me, kid.”

Amanda stood in the middle of it all, half-dressed, half-panicked, her hair in rollers that pulled at her scalp. “Billie, baby, if you keep moving Jesse’s gonna braid your ear by accident, and that’s not gonna be cute in the pictures.”

“Ow, Jesse, you’re pulling! And I said I wanted curls, not braids. Braids are boring.”

“You’re boring,” Jesse muttered back, tightening the braid anyway.

“Girls,” Amanda warned automatically, pacing in her robe, tugging at the sash like she could wring the nerves out of it. “Don’t make me come over there. I’ve got rollers in my head and I will look scary.”

Fin, stretched out on the bed in jeans and a crisp white shirt he’d ironed himself (for once), raised his coffee like a referee at ringside. “Looks fine to me, Jesse. Don’t know why Billie’s complainin’.”

“Because it’s my head, Uncle Fin!” Billie huffed, kicking her legs.

Amanda pressed a hand over her face. “God help me.”

The truth was, she was buzzing like she’d mainlined espresso. Her stomach hadn’t kept breakfast down, her palms were damp, and every few seconds she caught herself staring at the dress hanging in the corner—the simple white gown she’d picked because it felt right in her bones. She wanted to be in it. She wanted to be at the altar. But right now, she was stuck in the limbo of waiting, and waiting had never been her strong suit.

Fin must’ve caught the panic flicker across her face, because he set his mug down and got up. “Alright, timeout,” he announced. “Billie, quit movin’ your head. Jesse, quit torturin’ your sister. And Rollins—” His voice softened as he crossed to her. “Breathe.”

Amanda bristled automatically. “I am breathing.”

“Uh-huh. Like a rabbit in a trap.” He took her cold hand, big steady palm wrapping around it. “You’re fine. Hear me? She’s been yours for a long time. Today’s just tellin’ the world what we already know.”

Her throat closed for a second, because damn it, he always knew where to hit her. “What if I mess it up?” she whispered before she could stop herself.

Fin arched an eyebrow. “Mess what up? You gonna forget your vows? You got two words, Amanda. I do. Even you can’t screw that up.”

She laughed, shaky, and blinked fast to keep from crying already. “Thanks. Real confidence booster.”

He grinned, full of warmth. “Hey. She’s crazy about you. Always has been. Besides—” He tugged lightly at one of her rollers, making her swat his hand away. “I cleaned up nice for you. That’s love.”

That broke her—she laughed properly this time, shoulders easing. Behind them, Jesse had finally managed a braid, and Billie was sulking into the mirror, muttering, “I still wanted curls.”

Amanda crossed over, dropped a kiss on Billie’s head, then pulled Jesse into a quick hug despite the bobby pins sticking out of her daughter’s fingers. “You two are perfect. Both of you. And you know what? In a few hours, we’re all gonna be family. Officially.”

Billie perked up at that. Jesse rolled her eyes, but the shy, secret smile gave her away.

Amanda straightened, caught her own reflection in the mirror—rollers, robe, flushed cheeks, the weight of years in her eyes—and thought: Yeah. This is happening. Finally.

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The other suite smelled like steam and starch. Someone had left the iron hissing in the corner, and the faint scent of toasted fabric mixed with the tang of hotel coffee. Olivia sat at the vanity in her slip, hair half done, the makeup artist brushing a sweep of color across her cheekbones.

“You’ve got the bones for it,” the woman muttered, satisfied, as if Liv’s face was a sculpture she’d been assigned to finish.

Liv gave a dry half-smile. “First time anyone’s ever called my cheekbones cooperative.”

Behind her, Noah snorted and tugged at the knot of his tie for the fifth time. “It’s choking me,” he complained, dramatic as only a fifteen-year-old boy in a suit can be.

“You’re fine,” Olivia said automatically, catching his reflection in the mirror. He looked so grown, the angles of his jaw sharper than she remembered, his eyes—sharp and bright and for all the world looking like her own —steady on hers. The tie sat a little crooked, and she reached out, tugging him closer so she could fix it. “My best man can’t be lopsided.”

He smirked, trying to shrug off the blush rising to his cheeks. “Still think it’s weird you didn’t pick Fin.”

“I’ve already got Fin,” Liv said softly, smoothing the fabric flat against his chest. “But I only get one you.”

For a second, their eyes held—mother and son, soldier and anchor—and Noah’s mouth quirked in that lopsided way that said he heard her. He didn’t argue again.

Across the room, Alex Cabot lounged in a silk robe the color of champagne, one leg tucked under her, scrolling through her phone like she had all the time in the world. Her hair was half pinned, sleek curls falling over one shoulder. She looked up, noticed Liv staring, and smirked.

“You know, I still remember the phone call,” she said suddenly, her voice low and conspiratorial, like they were still in their twenties sneaking secrets in courthouse hallways.

Liv blinked. “What phone call?”

“The one where you panicked about what it meant—that maybe you weren’t as straight as you thought.” Alex grinned, catlike, swirling the stem of her untouched mimosa. “You forget I was your gay awakening?”

Liv flushed hot, whirling back to the mirror. “I was twenty-six, Alex. Confused and drunk. It doesn’t count.”

Alex laughed, delighted, tossing her head back. “You called me. Doesn’t get more official than that. And now look at you. Full circle.” She lifted her glass. “You’re welcome, by the way.”

Noah groaned. “Oh my God. Please stop talking.”

Liv pressed her lips together to keep from laughing, shooting Alex a warning look that only encouraged her. “Drink your juice, counselor.”

The makeup artist excused herself, giving the three of them space. The suite quieted—just the low hum of the air vent and Noah fidgeting with his cufflinks. Liv found herself staring at the dress hanging by the window, white silk catching the morning light, so simple and impossibly daunting.

Her stomach pitched. She’d done hostage negotiations, burials, stared down men with guns and knives—but this? This felt more dangerous. Because if she messed it up, there wasn’t a do-over.

Alex caught her eye in the mirror, the teasing gone now. “You’re fine,” she said simply. “She’s already yours.”

That broke something in Liv’s chest. She swallowed hard, blinked twice fast, and whispered, “I know.”

Noah, for once, didn’t make a joke. He just reached out and rested his hand on her shoulder, solid and steady.

And in that little hotel room, with her best man and her bridesmaid flanking her, Olivia Benson let herself breathe.

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Jesse knelt on the carpet, fussing with a pair of ballet flats she swore were “the exact same shade of ivory, Mom, don’t worry,” while Billie alternated between humming and twirling in her flower girl dress, layers of tulle bouncing with every spin.

Amanda stood at the center of it all, half buttoned into her gown, feeling both too tall and too small at once. The dress wasn’t fussy — that was never her style — but it was hers, fitted close through the bodice and soft at the skirt, the kind of simple beauty that made her feel like she wasn’t hiding. Not for once.

“Okay, stop moving or I’m gonna jab you,” Jesse said, tongue poking out in concentration as she worked the last few tiny buttons up Amanda’s spine.

Amanda laughed softly, steadying herself with one hand on the dresser. “Bossy, aren’t you?”

“Runs in the family,” Jesse quipped, her grin a mirror of her mother’s.

When the last button slipped into place, Jesse stepped back with a little gasp. Billie froze mid-spin, eyes going wide.

“Mom,” Jesse whispered, breathless. “You look… you look so—”

“Like a princess!” Billie interrupted, practically bouncing. “The prettiest princess ever.”

Amanda tried to roll her eyes, but her throat betrayed her, tightening until all she could manage was, “Thanks, baby.” She smoothed her hands down the fabric, suddenly shy under her daughters’ awe.

The door creaked open, and Fin stepped in, already muttering, “You girls got her ready yet? Cabot’s texting me like she’s runnin’ the—”

He stopped. Dead.

For a long beat, the room was silent except for Billie’s delighted squeak. Fin’s eyes moved slowly, taking her in head to toe, as though committing every inch of the moment to memory. His jaw flexed once, twice, and then — to the girls’ eternal amazement — he lifted a hand and dabbed at the corner of his eye with a perfectly folded handkerchief.

“Oh my God,” Jesse whispered, scandalized and thrilled. “Uncle Fin’s crying.”

Billie gasped like she’d just seen Santa Claus. “Uncle Fin never cries!”

Amanda’s lips curved, her own eyes going hot. “Don’t start,” she teased, her voice softer than usual. “You’ll ruin your rep.”

Fin huffed, folding the handkerchief with exaggerated precision, but his voice betrayed him, roughened by pride. “You look good, Rollins. Real good. Proud of you.”

Amanda blinked hard, reaching out instinctively. He stepped into her hug like it was the most natural thing in the world, careful not to wrinkle the fabric but holding her steady.

“Thanks, Fin,” she whispered into his shoulder. “For all of it.”

When they pulled apart, Jesse and Billie were practically vibrating with glee. Jesse clutched Billie’s arm and stage-whispered, “We’re never letting him live this down.”

Billie nodded solemnly, already giggling. “Best. Wedding. Ever.”

And for Amanda, standing in her dress with her daughters starry-eyed and Fin trying to scowl through his tears, it already was.

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Noah had been pacing ever since the dress came out of its garment bag, his hands shoved deep in his pockets, sneakers scuffing the carpet. He tried to play it cool, but when Olivia stepped into the gown and Alex and the tailor fussed with the zip and the hem, he froze.

For a second, he just stared.

“Wow,” he whispered, voice cracking halfway between boy and young man. His eyes shone, and he ducked his head like he didn’t want her to see. “Mom… you look—” He swallowed hard. “You look amazing.”

Olivia’s own breath stuttered. She smoothed her hand through his hair the way she had since he was small, her voice catching. “Hey, don’t you go starting or I’ll never make it down the aisle.”

But the real surprise came from Alex.

She’d been standing with arms folded, the eternal prosecutor, clinical and efficient as she inspected the line of the dress. “Hem’s good,” she said, voice brisk. “Bodice is perfect. Train’s manageable.”

Then Olivia turned toward the mirror.

And Alex dissolved.

It started with a sharp inhale, as though she’d been sucker-punched, and then suddenly her face crumpled. The first tear shocked her — her hand went to her cheek like what the hell is that — but it only unleashed more. Within seconds, Alex Cabot, Esquire, the unshakable courtroom force, was outright weeping.

“Oh my God,” Olivia said, half-laughing, half-choked herself. “Alex.”

“I’m fine,” Alex insisted through a watery gasp, mascara already smudging. “I’m just—Jesus, Liv—you’re—” She waved vaguely at the dress, at Olivia herself, utterly undone. “You’re so beautiful. And happy. And I—” She broke off, laughing and sobbing at once. “I did not plan for this.”

Noah gaped. “Alex Cabot’s crying?”

Alex threw him a glare that had no heat in it. “Shut up.” Then she turned back to Olivia, wiping at her face with a tissue that did more smearing than blotting. “I’m so proud of you. And… I’m so glad you found this. Found her.”

Olivia crossed the room in three steps and pulled her into a hug, careful of the veil, not caring about the dress. Alex clung tighter than expected, shoulders shaking, the years of friendship between them folding into this one, impossible moment.

“Thank you,” Olivia whispered against her hair. “For being here. For always being here.”

Alex sniffed hard, pulling back, trying to gather herself. “Well,” she muttered, voice still thick, “somebody had to make sure you didn’t wear something with shoulder pads.”

Noah snorted. Olivia laughed, the sound wobbling but bright. She caught her son’s gaze in the mirror — his pride, his awe — and her friend’s tear-streaked smile, and for the first time all morning, she let herself feel it.

She was a bride.

And she was ready.

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Two suites. Two women. Two families full of love and awe.

The same future, waiting at the end of the aisle.

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The church hummed with the kind of anticipation that had nothing to do with religion and everything to do with history. The air was thick with perfume, cologne, laughter, and the hush of memories folding themselves into the wooden pews.

Cragen stood at the altar, straightening his notes for the fourth time. He’d insisted he didn’t need them — “I’ve given more speeches than I can count, kid” — but Amanda had caught the tremor in his hand when he’d accepted the job. He looked out now at the pews filling with faces he’d once sworn to protect, a knot rising in his throat. My kids, he thought, blinking hard. All of ‘em. Still standing. Still here.

The aisle had turned into a parade ground. Fin, sharp in a navy suit, worked the room like he’d been elected mayor. He clasped hands, clapped shoulders, barked laughter. When he spotted Munch — cane leaning against the pew, tie crooked in a way that meant he’d fought with it all morning — he stopped dead and grinned wide.

“Well damn, look what the city dragged in.”

Munch rolled his eyes, but stood to embrace him. “Careful, or you’ll break me.”

“Old man, you been unbreakable since Nixon,” Fin said, hugging him tight. When they parted, Munch’s eyes shone more than he’d ever admit.

“Never thought I’d live long enough to see Benson at the altar,” Munch muttered, loud enough for Fin to hear. “Guess miracles exist.”

“Hell froze over,” Fin confirmed, and both men chuckled like rookies sneaking whiskey.

Casey Novak slid into the pew behind them, tossing her red hair over one shoulder. “For the record, I was testifying about equal rights before half of you believed it would ever happen. I should get a medal for patience alone.”

Barba arrived right on cue, silk tie like a banner. “Patience, Novak, or persistence?” He kissed her cheek, then turned to Munch with a hand pressed dramatically to his chest. “And John, darling, still upright? It’s a wedding and a resurrection.”

“Keep talking, Counselor,” Munch said. “Maybe they’ll put you in the ground next.”

Casey smirked, sipping from a discreet flask she’d produced. “Please. If anyone’s immortal, it’s Barba.”

Fin just shook his head. “Ain’t missed y’all for a damn second,” he lied, and nobody bought it.

Across the aisle, Carisi had Velasco in a bear hug, while Dean, still looking like a rookie even in his sharp suit, sat ramrod straight. Fin passed him on his circuit and clapped him on the back. “Relax, kid. You’re family now. You mess this up, though, I’m revoking your invitation to Sunday dinner.”

Dean flushed bright pink, grinning despite himself. “Yes, Sergeant.”

“Fin,” Fin corrected with a grin, and Dean’s chest puffed like he’d grown a foot.

A few pews down, Amanda’s sister Kim sat stiff, clutching her bag like a lifeline. She looked like she’d rather be anywhere else — until Jesse tugged her sleeve, Billie shoved a crayon drawing into her lap, and both girls snuggled against her sides as if they’d known her their whole lives. Slowly, Kim’s posture softened. She let out a breath she’d been holding for years.

Melinda Warner sat with regal composure near the aisle, pearls at her throat. “Finally,” she said to Barba as he passed, her voice a velvet murmur. “Two women who can stare down monsters without blinking — and it takes love to bring them to their knees.”

Barba smiled. “That’s why I wore silk. Appropriate for a coronation.”

Then, a new ripple moved through the room — heads turning, whispers rising.

The Stabler clan had arrived.

Elliot himself paused at the back like a man at confession. His jaw was set, his eyes flicking up to the stained glass before dropping to the crowd. Behind him, the tide of his children moved in — Kathleen first, heels clicking, beaming as she spotted Noah pacing nervously near the front in his sharp suit.

“Best man?” she teased, tugging his sleeve. “You look incredible.”

Noah flushed, grinned, and tugged at his tie again. Lizzie whispered something wicked that made Dickie choke on laughter, while Maureen wrangled her kids toward a pew with practiced ease. Even Eli, now taller, clasped Noah’s hand firmly.

At last, Elliot stepped forward, eyes snagging on Fin across the aisle. For a moment the years pressed heavy between them. Then Fin dipped his chin. Elliot returned it, jaw unclenching just enough.

Munch leaned toward Novak. “Well, I’ll be damned. All in one church, and no one’s dead yet.”

“Give it time,” Casey quipped.

Serrano and Reade slipped in quietly at the back, civilian suits stiff, still a little in awe they’d even been invited. Velasco spotted them, grinning, and waved them down into his pew. “Family’s family,” he said, and Reade shook his head, smiling like he almost believed it.

The chatter swelled again — handshakes, backslaps, old grudges softened into jokes. For a moment, it was Forlini’s in Sunday best, the whole messy, mismatched family in one place.

And then silence began to gather, like the room itself remembered why it was here. The organist shifted. Cragen cleared his throat, looking out over a sea of faces lined with history — scars, triumphs, grief, survival.

He thought, not for the first time, God, they made it. Against every odd, they made it.

The music would start soon. The doors would open.

And the world would change forever.

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The first chord from the organ landed in Amanda’s chest like a steadying hand.

The doors swung open and light poured in, catching dust motes like glitter. Billie gasped at the crowd and forgot every rehearsal note, immediately scattering petals in chaotic fistfuls. Jesse, all solemn twelve-year-old poise, placed hers one by one like blessings. Between them, Fin offered Amanda his arm.

“You ready?” he murmured without looking away from the aisle.

Amanda’s mouth was dry. “Ask me again in ten steps.”

They moved.

Her dress was the exact opposite of every pageant-y nightmare she’d dodged—clean lines, soft lace at the wrists, a skirt that skimmed rather than swallowed. The only thing trembling was her bouquet…and, when she risked a glance up, Fin’s mouth. The man’s jaw was locked like a bank vault, but his eyes were already glassy.

“Don’t,” she whispered, elbowing him lightly. “If you cry, I’m a goner.”

“Too late,” he rumbled, the corner of his mouth betraying him. “Keep walkin’, Rollins.”

The aisle stretched long, but each step felt like gravity pulling her closer to something she had never believed she could have — a home, a family, a woman who saw every jagged edge of her and still wanted to build forever.

Halfway down, she felt Fin’s grip tighten. She glanced up and caught the gleam in his eyes — wet, traitorous, unhidden. Fin Tutuola, stoic, steady, unflappable Fin, crying as he walked her to the altar.

Billie spotted it instantly, pointing up at him in stage-whisper delight. “Uncle Fin’s crying!”

The entire church chuckled, warmth rippling through the pews. Fin only shook his head, muttering, “You’re lucky I love you, kid,” and kept walking, blinking hard.

They passed a sea of history. Barba in a silk tie smiling like opening night; Casey Novak dab-smirking at the corners of her eyes; Munch, cane and all, giving her a courtly nod; Melinda Warner luminous and unshakeable; Velasco straightening as if posture could equal pride; Dean in the back row, hands clenched, grinning like he’d been invited to the moon. Somewhere, Stabler’s whole brood rustled, and Kim—Kim—sat stiff until Jesse’s stray wave made her soften, just a fraction.

But the faces blurred. The pews, the flowers, the arch—all of it fell away into a quiet tunnel where her pulse counted steps. One, two, three—closer. Four, five—breathe. Six—Fin’s hand squeezed. Seven—Billie dropped her basket with a clatter; the church chuckled; somehow it steadied Amanda more than any hymn could.

At the last pew, her knees almost buckled. Not from nerves. From gratitude so sharp it felt like pain. Fin felt it, tightened his arm, then slowed them to a stop at the altar. He turned her gently to face him for a beat that belonged only to them.

“Proud of you,” he said, voice rough as gravel. He lifted her hand and pressed his lips to her knuckles—quick, gruff, devastating—and then placed her palm over her own heart, as if to say you’ve got this.

He stepped aside. Jesse caught Billie’s hand and tugged her to their spot, Billie whispering—loudly—“Uncle Fin totally cried.” The pews smiled like a single creature.

Amanda stood. Alone, but not.

Cragen cleared his throat at the pulpit, the congregation settled, and a hush rolled up the nave like a tide going out. The music shifted—new cue, new breath.

Noah’s arm was solid under Olivia’s hand—too solid, too grown. When had he become taller than her shoulder? He’d insisted on being her best man, insisted on walking her down the aisle, and now here he was in his suit, boutonnière pinned a little crooked, face set with a determination that almost cracked her heart in two.

“You ready, Mom?” he whispered, voice low but steadier than she expected.

She looked at him, at the faint shadow of a jawline that wasn’t supposed to be there yet, at the boy she’d once carried against her chest and now stood tall beside her. She swallowed. “Not even close.”

Noah grinned—so quick, so proud. “Me neither. Let’s go anyway.”

The doors opened.

Light poured in, warm as blessing, and the church stood like an ocean of faces. Colleagues, friends, ghosts of battles past—all of them rose, and the air trembled with the collective intake of breath. Olivia’s throat tightened, but then she felt Noah’s arm flex, grounding her.

She forced herself to take the first step.

The aisle stretched ahead, longer than it had in rehearsal, the organ swelling like a tide. Every face blurred at the edges, but flashes caught: Alex Cabot, already glassy-eyed, blinking hard and failing spectacularly; Fin standing at the altar with Jesse and Billie, a tissue balled in his giant hand like evidence he’d never admit to; Munch leaning forward like an old watchman, cane planted, gaze sharp and soft all at once.

She breathed in. Step. Out. Step.

Her dress whispered around her legs—simple, clean, the way she needed it. No armor, no costume. Just her. The scar on her arm caught in the sunlight, silver and unhidden. For a split second, she felt the heat of fire, the weight of fear—but then Noah’s thumb rubbed once, careful, over her knuckles, and the memory let her go.

And then she saw her.

Amanda.

At the altar, bouquet trembling just a little, hair soft around her face, eyes fixed and blazing. She was beyond radiant—that word people always used, but Amanda was something sharper, hungrier, truer. She looked like home and daring all in one breath.

Olivia nearly stumbled. All the years of waiting, of circling, of almosts and maybes—every detour, every scar—collapsed into the line of Amanda’s smile.

Halfway down, Noah tilted his face toward her. “She looks so happy,” he whispered, awe cracking through his teenage armor.

“She does,” Liv whispered back, but her voice broke.

Every step closer made the world narrower, clearer, like blinders falling away until there was nothing left but Amanda. The crowd hummed, the organ swelled, Alex sniffled like an open faucet, Jesse elbowed Billie to stop fidgeting, Fin’s lips moved with words she couldn’t hear—but none of it mattered.

At the last row, Olivia felt Noah straighten beside her. He kissed her cheek, a quick brush that left her fighting tears, then lifted her hand and placed it into Amanda’s.

Skin met skin. Warm. Certain. Alive.

Amanda’s mouth curved into a smile that undid her. “Hi,” she whispered, voice like a secret.

Liv laughed softly, brokenly, and answered, “Hi.”

Her chest ached with it, with the impossible truth of it. That after all this, after everything—they were here.

And with Amanda’s hand in hers, Olivia Benson walked the last step home.

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The hush fell like a tide pulling back, leaving only the sound of dresses settling, someone clearing a throat, the soft crackle of the microphone being adjusted.

Cragen stood at the altar in his dark suit, glasses perched low, the familiar weight of command softened into something warmer, paternal. He looked out at the sea of faces—old colleagues, rookies, family forged not by blood but by fire—and then back at the two women standing before him.

Amanda’s hand was in Olivia’s. Neither seemed capable of letting go.

“Well,” Cragen began, voice gravelly as ever but touched with a smile. “I’ve said a lot of things in my career. Orders, reprimands, the occasional bad joke. But I’ll tell you—I never expected to be standing here doing this. And I don’t think there’s a soul in this room who isn’t grateful that I am.”

A ripple of laughter, gentle and knowing, swept through the pews.

Cragen’s gaze flicked to Amanda. “Detective Rollins. I saw you walk into SVU a little raw around the edges. Maybe more than a little. You carried too much weight for one person to hold, but you never stopped carrying. You brought grit and stubbornness—and yes, trouble,” he said, earning a chuckle from Fin—“but you also brought heart. And I think everyone here can see how far you’ve come.”

Amanda blinked rapidly, her jaw tight. Fin handed her a tissue without looking.

“And Liv,” Cragen said, turning. His voice softened. “I don’t think anyone here needs me to tell them who you are. You’ve been a captain, a leader, a shield for this city for longer than most people would survive in this job. You’ve carried burdens nobody should have to. And yet—here you are. Still standing. Still leading. And, finally, letting yourself be loved the way you deserve.”

Olivia’s throat worked, but no sound came out. She gripped Amanda’s hand tighter.

Cragen paused, cleared his throat, and straightened his notes though he didn’t look at them. “So today isn’t about the job. It’s not about cases or headlines or what you’ve survived. Today is about choice. Two people who have walked through fire—sometimes literally—choosing to walk forward together.”

The church was silent, save for someone’s muffled sniffle in the third row.

He glanced at the girls, at Noah standing tall, at Jesse fiddling with her bouquet, at Billie waving shyly at him from her place with Fin. “It’s also about family. The kind you fight for, the kind you build. That’s what I see here.”

Cragen looked back at Liv and Amanda. His eyes were misty now, though his voice stayed steady. “So. Let’s make this official.”

He stepped closer, warm authority in every syllable. “Amanda, Olivia—do you come here today freely and without reservation, to give yourselves to each other in marriage?”

“I do,” Amanda said, voice sure but trembling at the edges.

“I do,” Olivia echoed, firm as a vow, the words sinking into the marrow of everyone present.

Cragen smiled. “Then let’s hear your vows.”

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Amanda swallowed hard, the folded paper trembling between her fingers. She looked down at it, then up at Olivia, and the world narrowed until it was just the two of them.

“Okay,” she breathed, almost a laugh, though her voice cracked. “Guess I’m really doin’ this.”

She smoothed the page once, then started.

“When I first came to SVU, I don’t think either of us thought we’d be standin’ here one day. You and me… we butted heads. A lot. You were this—” she waved vaguely at Olivia, as if the words immovable force of nature weren’t quite enough— “and I was stubborn and reckless and scared half the time, though I would’ve died before admitting it.”

The crowd chuckled softly. Amanda’s smile flickered, but her eyes stayed locked on Liv’s.

“But somewhere between those fights and those long nights, somethin’ shifted. You saw me. Not just the detective, not just the mess. Me. And then—damn it—you went and loved me through all of it. You loved Jesse. You loved Billie. And then I fell in love with Noah, like it was the easiest thing in the world. And maybe that’s when I knew. Because if I could love your kid like that, and you could love mine, then… we weren’t just partners. We were family.”

Olivia’s tears had already started. Amanda’s hand shook harder, so she switched to speaking straight from memory, letting the paper crumple softly at her side.

“So today, here’s what I promise you. I promise to always tell you the truth, even when it’s hard. I promise to fight with you, not against you. I promise to make space for your strength and your fear, for the captain and for Liv. I promise to keep lovin’ Noah like he’s mine, because he is. And I promise to keep bein’ in awe of the way you love Jesse and Billie, because they see you, Liv, and they shine brighter for it.”

She blinked fast, voice going softer now, intimate despite the crowd.

“I promise to hold your hand when the nightmares come. To laugh with you when the world feels too heavy. To stand beside you through every storm, even the ones we make ourselves. And I promise—” here she finally broke into a watery grin— “to never stop makin’ you coffee in the mornin’, even if I burn it half the time.”

Her free hand reached for Liv’s, squeezing tight.

“You’re my home. You and these kids we’re raisin’ together. And I will spend the rest of my life lovin’ you with everything I got.”

Amanda stopped, the words spent, her hand trembling so bad now the paper nearly slipped from her grasp. Olivia caught it before it fell, tears sliding unchecked down her cheeks.

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Olivia reached out, brushing her fingers against Amanda’s trembling hand, the crumpled paper caught between them. She laughed softly, watery, shaking her head as she stepped into her turn.

“Great,” she murmured, half to the crowd, half to Amanda. “How am I supposed to follow that?”

The church laughed, a warm ripple through the room. Liv glanced down at her own folded page, then folded it tighter and slipped it into her palm. “I had something written. Of course I did. But… that’s not really what I want to say.”

Her voice steadied as her gaze locked onto Amanda. Everything else—the packed pews, the flowers, the cameras—blurred into nothing.

“When you first walked into SVU, I wasn’t looking for a partner. I certainly wasn’t looking for you.” A flicker of a smile softened her face. “You were infuriating. You were stubborn. You pushed every button I had. And you didn’t let me get away with a damn thing. Which… looking back, might have been exactly what I needed.”

Amanda laughed through tears, and Liv’s smile grew, but her voice caught on the next words.

“I didn’t know then that one day I would look at you and see everything I’d ever been searching for. I didn’t know that you’d show me what it meant to let someone in, really in. That you’d show me how to be loved without conditions, without limits, without fear.”

The crowd was hushed now, leaning in. Fin blinked hard and muttered something about dust, swiping at his eye.

“You saved me, Amanda. In more ways than I can count. And you gave me a family. You gave me Jesse and Billie, who I love like they’re my own. And you took Noah into your heart like he was yours from the start. Watching you love him, love all of us—it’s the greatest gift I’ve ever been given.”

Her hand tightened around Amanda’s.

“So here are my promises. I promise to love you, even when we fight—especially when we fight. I promise to trust you, even when I’m scared. I promise to stand beside you, to protect you, and to never forget that you’re my equal in every way. I promise to hold your hand through every nightmare, and every joy. I promise to laugh with you, cry with you, and wake up next to you every morning for the rest of my life.”

Her breath caught, and for a moment her composure nearly cracked. Then, voice low and sure:

“And I promise you this: you will never, ever have to doubt how much I love you. Because it’s forever. It’s you. It’s always been you.”

The church was silent for a beat, the air thick with emotion. Then someone sniffled—loudly. Barba. Which set off a chain reaction of tears and soft laughter through the pews.

Liv and Amanda just stood there, hands locked, eyes wet, as if the rest of the world had fallen away.

⸻

Cragen cleared his throat softly, his voice warm but gravel-edged with emotion. “Well,” he said, glancing out over the sea of faces, “after vows like that, I don’t think there’s much left for me to add.”

A ripple of gentle laughter moved through the church, but his gaze stayed fixed on the two women in front of him.

“What I can say,” he continued, steady now, “is that I’ve watched both of you grow. Separately, yes—but also together. I’ve seen you both fight for justice, for your families, for yourselves. And I’ve seen you stumble and get back up, stronger every time. What you’ve built here—the love that every single person in this room can feel—it’s proof of the kind of people you are. And it’s proof that you were meant to find each other.”

Amanda’s hand was shaking in Olivia’s, but Olivia squeezed tighter, grounding her.

Cragen’s smile deepened, and his voice gentled. “By the power vested in me by the state of New York… and with more joy than I can possibly put into words…” He paused, eyes shining. “…I now pronounce you wife and wife.”

A hush fell.

“You may kiss your bride.”

Olivia didn’t hesitate. She leaned in and kissed Amanda like the whole world could burn and it wouldn’t matter—slow, certain, reverent. The church erupted in applause, whistles, and shouts—Fin hollering, Noah clapping furiously, Jesse and Billie jumping up and down in their flower crowns.

When they finally broke apart, foreheads pressed together, Amanda whispered, voice trembling but full of laughter, “We did it, Liv.”

Liv’s smile was wet and unstoppable. “Yeah,” she breathed. “We really did.”

The cheers rolled on, unstoppable, as they turned to face their family and walked back down the aisle, hand in hand, into forever.

Chapter Text

The hall was already humming when Liv and Amanda stepped through the arch of fairy lights into the reception. Applause broke out, a wave of cheers rolling toward them, glasses lifted, flashes from phones and cameras popping like starlight. Olivia reached for Amanda’s hand, squeezed once, and they made their way down the center aisle together, both a little dazed, both incandescent.

The head table waited, but first came the rounds—their family stretched wide through the room, each face another piece of history.

“Benson.”

She turned at the voice. Deeper, softer than she remembered, but still Elliot. He stood just behind a cluster of his kids, the Stabler clan filling a whole table by themselves, laughing and chattering. Elliot stepped forward, suit a little rumpled, eyes damp. He pulled her into a tight hug, tighter than she expected, and didn’t let go right away.

“I’m happy for you, Benson,” he said against her hair.

She squeezed his arm, pulled back just enough to meet his eyes. “Thank you,” she whispered, the weight of decades condensed into two words.

Amanda, waiting politely, was suddenly enveloped by Eli Stabler, who declared that he wanted to hear “all the dirt from the squad, especially about Fin.” Fin intercepted him before he could get far.

At another table, laughter spiked—a sharp, familiar sound. Olivia turned and froze. Alex Cabot, glowing in navy silk, had linked arms with Casey Novak, both already three cocktails in and talking a mile a minute.

“Look what the cat dragged in,” Alex called, and then it was chaos: Olivia squealing in a way she hadn’t in decades, Casey shrieking back, the three of them colliding into an embrace so fierce it nearly toppled them.

“Iconic trio, back together,” Novak laughed breathlessly, swiping at her eyes. “We need a group photo before the martinis kill us.”

“Don’t tempt me,” Alex muttered, still clinging to Olivia’s arm, “I will cry in this dress.”

Amanda rolled her eyes affectionately, watching her fiancée pressed between two brilliant, fierce women who had carried her through some of her hardest years. “Guess I married into a power clique,” she murmured to Fin, who only snorted.

At the next table, Jesse Rollins had pulled up a chair opposite Munch, leaning in with all the solemnity of a twelve-year-old on a mission.

“So,” Jesse said, chin in her hand. “Do you think homework is a conspiracy theory?”

Munch lit up like Christmas. “Absolutely. The whole thing was designed in the nineteenth century to break the spirits of children and condition them for wage slavery.”

Jesse’s eyes widened. “I knew it.”

Amanda, catching sight of the exchange, pinched the bridge of her nose. “Oh god. She’s gonna come home and start quoting Munch in her essays.”

“Better Munch than TikTok,” Fin deadpanned.

The room pulsed with conversation—Barba shaking Kim Rollins’ hand like they’d known each other forever, McGrath actually smiling (and immediately scaring several people), Warner hugging Billie so tight the little girl squeaked. Everywhere Liv turned was another familiar face: Serrano and Reade at the back, grinning sheepishly, Dean beaming like a proud kid brother, Casey gesticulating wildly as she and Alex debated the best cocktail bar in Manhattan.

Finally, they made their way to the head table, hearts pounding with joy, hands still linked.

Amanda looked at Liv, eyes damp already. “We did this,” she murmured.

Liv kissed her hand, quick, before they sat. “Yeah. We did.”

Then the clinking of glass rang out, sharp and insistent, and Fin was already rising with that long-suffering look that meant: here we go.

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The room quieted when Fin stood, glass of whiskey in hand, his expression equal parts reluctant and smug. He tapped the side of the glass once—not that he needed to, because every cop in the room knew to shut up when Fin Tutuola started talking.

“Well,” he started, his tone flat as always, “guess it falls on me to kick this off. Can’t believe y’all thought this was a good idea. But here we are.”

A ripple of laughter went through the crowd. Amanda groaned softly into her hands; Liv hid a smile behind her glass.

“Now, when I met Olivia Benson,” Fin said, jerking his chin toward her, “I thought—this woman’s too serious for her own damn good. Uptight. Workaholic. And scary as hell when she wants to be.”

“Still is,” Casey heckled from the back.

“Damn right she is,” Fin shot back, no hesitation. “But then, you work a case with her, and you realize—she’s scary because she cares. Because she’ll fight harder for a victim than most people fight for their own family. And she’s been doing it since before half of y’all even had badges.”

The room hummed in agreement; Olivia ducked her head, throat tight.

“Then this one shows up,” Fin went on, tipping his glass toward Amanda. “Rollins. Southern accent, no filter, stubborn as a mule, and a tendency to run her mouth before she thought it through. And let me tell you, they did not get along. At all.”

Amanda laughed nervously; Jesse and Billie both gasped, delighted.

“But here’s the thing,” Fin said, leaning in, warming up. “I watched her grow. I watched her fight her demons—sometimes losing, sometimes winning, but never giving up. I watched her become a hell of a detective. And more than that, I watched her become a mom. And I don’t know how many people in this room can say the same, but I can tell you—it takes more guts to be a parent than to run into a perp with a gun. And she does it every day. Does it damn well, too.”

Amanda blinked fast; Liv reached for her hand under the table.

“Now, I’ll be real with you. If you’d told me back then that one day Rollins and Benson would be sitting here, married, with three kids, I’d have bet money against it. A lot of money.”

The crowd roared with laughter, and even Amanda cracked a grin.

“But I’ve also learned—when these two decide to do something, you don’t bet against them. They don’t quit. They don’t back down. And somehow, somewhere along the way, they stopped just being my colleagues and became my family. And that means their kids are my family. And that means—” He broke off a second, clearing his throat. His eyes shone in the low light. “That means I’d do anything for them. All of ‘em.”

The silence that followed was heavy, reverent. Fin let it sit, then, with perfect timing, muttered: “Even if it means babysitting three maniacs on a Saturday night when I’m tryna watch the game.”

The room burst into laughter, applause breaking out, chairs scraping as people raised their glasses. Amanda covered her face with her hands, shoulders shaking with quiet tears. Liv’s eyes glittered as she mouthed thank you across the table.

Fin lifted his glass higher, his voice strong: “To Benson and Rollins. To family. To love.”

The whole room echoed it back: “To family. To love.”

⸻

Noah looked like he wanted the floor to swallow him whole when Fin clapped him on the shoulder and shoved him gently toward the mic. He held a crumpled index card in one hand and a glass of sparkling apple juice in the other.

He cleared his throat. “Uh… hi. I’m Noah. For anyone who doesn’t know me, which is probably nobody. I’m, uh… Captain Benson’s son. And Amanda’s—” he hesitated, glanced at her with the softest smile, “—well, her son too now.”

The room chuckled warmly, Amanda’s eyes already filling.

“So, um. I had this whole thing written down.” He held up the card and then promptly shoved it in his pocket. “But… I don’t really think it says what I want to say. So I’m just gonna… talk.”

Liv straightened unconsciously, hand pressed over her mouth.

“When it was just me and Mom,” Noah said, his voice cracking slightly, “I used to think… that’s all it was ever gonna be. Just us. And I didn’t mind, because she’s… well, she’s the best person I know. She taught me everything about being brave, about doing the right thing even when it’s hard, about showing up for people. She taught me how to be a good man. Still teaching me, every day.”

Olivia’s eyes shone wet as she mouthed, Noah…

“But then Amanda showed up,” he continued, voice steadier. “And Jesse. And Billie. And it was like… my world just got bigger. Louder. Messier. But in the best way. Suddenly I wasn’t just a son—I was a brother. I had people to fight with over the last slice of pizza, or who got the bathroom first in the morning. People who made fun of me when I practiced guitar too loud, or who stole my hoodies, or who…” He trailed off, smiling at Jesse, “who remind me I’m not as cool as I think I am.”

The crowd laughed. Jesse blushed scarlet but beamed at him.

“And Amanda…” He looked at her directly, teenage composure slipping. “You didn’t have to love me like your own. But you did. From the start. Even when I was being annoying. You show up at my dance shows, you bug me about homework, you make me eat vegetables… you do all the mom stuff. And it means… it means everything.”

Amanda was openly crying now, Fin subtly passing her a napkin.

“And Mom,” he turned back to Olivia, his voice breaking, “I’ve seen you be strong my whole life. Stronger than anyone I’ve ever known. But with Amanda, you’re… happy. And I didn’t know how much I wanted that for you until I saw it. You deserve to be happy. More than anyone.”

There was silence in the room, heavy and bright, the kind that presses against your ribs. Noah swallowed, then lifted his glass.

“So… I just wanna say—thank you. To both of you. For being my family. For teaching me what love looks like. I’m proud to be your son. I’m proud to be Jesse and Billie’s brother. And I’m so, so proud of you, Mom.”

His hand trembled as he raised his glass high. “To my moms.”

The entire room erupted, the words echoing back at him with laughter and tears: “To your moms!”

Liv broke completely, pulling Noah into a hug so tight he nearly dropped his juice. Amanda reached over to press her hand to the back of his head, sandwiching him in the love that had grown around him.

Fin muttered into his whiskey, but not softly enough: “Kid’s got better delivery than half the detectives I’ve trained.”

⸻

Alex Cabot was already a couple martinis in when she finally stood. Someone (probably Casey) had been muttering “don’t let her near the mic” for the last half hour, which only made Alex raise her glass higher in defiance.

“I’ll be brief,” she began, immediately lying.

The room chuckled. Amanda leaned into Liv and whispered, “She’s not gonna be brief.”

Alex caught the whisper, narrowed her eyes playfully, and went on.

“I’ve known Olivia Benson a very long time. Long enough to know that she is terrifyingly competent, catastrophically stubborn, and completely incapable of doing anything halfway. You send her into a case? She burns herself alive for it. You send her into a courtroom? She chews me out for losing before I’ve even opened my mouth. You send her into… life, basically, and she’ll try to save the whole world with two hands and a coffee cup.”

Laughter rippled. Fin tipped his drink like she’s not wrong.

“But.” Alex paused, swaying just slightly on her heels, her tone slipping toward conspiratorial. “There’s one thing she never thought she could do. Love. Not really. Not for herself, anyway. She told me once—” she pointed a finger, almost accusatory, “on the phone, after three bourbons, that she was pretty sure she was broken. That she didn’t know if she’d ever be able to… you know… settle down.”

Olivia buried her face in her hands. “Alex…”

“Oh no, don’t Alex me. You called me at two in the morning from a bar on Amsterdam Avenue, crying into your whiskey, and said—and I quote—‘Maybe I’m just bad at this. Maybe there’s something wrong with me.’”

Gasps and laughs bubbled from the tables. Amanda’s eyes were wide, then soft, then just… undone.

Alex’s voice gentled, like she was slicing with the sharp edge of kindness. “And I told her what I’ll tell you all now: there was nothing wrong with her. She just hadn’t found the right person yet. The right person who would match her stubbornness with their own. Who would stand shoulder to shoulder with her in the darkest nights. Who would love her, not in spite of the hard edges, but because of them.”

Her gaze flicked to Amanda, clear and unflinching. “Turns out, that person was Amanda Rollins.”

A quiet hum of agreement swept the room, like an exhale.

Alex held up a hand, grin sharpening. “But before this gets too sentimental, there is one thing I should probably disclose…”

She paused, savoring the beat, eyes glittering with mischief. “Many years ago, after a truly godawful case—don’t ask me which, we were both half-dead and drowning in Cabernet—Olivia and I may or may not have… kissed.”

The room exploded.

Fin almost spit his drink out. Munch barked out a laugh loud enough to echo. Noah’s face went scarlet. Jesse and Billie shrieked, “WHAT?” in perfect unison. And Amanda—Amanda choked on her champagne so violently that Liv had to thump her on the back while trying not to turn beet red herself.

“You—what—excuse me?!” Amanda sputtered, staring at Liv like she had grown a second head.

Liv buried her face in her hands, groaning. “Alex…”

“Oh, don’t Alex me.” Cabot looked utterly delighted. “It was one kiss, it was very bad, and we both agreed never to speak of it again.” She flicked her hair off her shoulder. “Until now.”

Casey Novak was doubled over, wheezing. Fin slapped the table and crowed, “Ohhh this is the best day of my life.” Even McGrath, who was sitting stiff-backed at another table, was trying very hard not to grin.

Alex raised her glass higher, her voice softening once more under the laughter. “So. Here’s to Olivia and Amanda—to battles fought and battles won, to family, to love, to finally getting it right. And here’s to Cabernet for poor decision-making. May it never again cause such chaos.”

The room roared with laughter and clinking glasses as Alex sat down, looking deeply pleased with herself.

Amanda turned slowly toward Liv, eyes narrowed but lips twitching. “We’re circling back to that later.”

Liv groaned again, her ears still pink. “Oh, I know.”

⸻

When the laughter over Alex’s “confession” finally died down (Amanda still muttering one kiss, my ass into her glass), two small figures climbed up onto chairs near the head table. Jesse, very solemn, tapped a fork against her water glass the way she’d seen adults do. Billie nearly dropped hers on the floor, recovered with a proud little grin, and copied her sister.

The room hushed instantly.

“We, um,” Jesse started, smoothing the front of her dress with the kind of nervous dignity only a preteen could summon, “we wrote something. Together.”

Billie nodded furiously. “Yeah. Together. But I wrote the best parts.”

“You did not.” Jesse rolled her eyes, then turned back to the room with a glare so identical to Amanda’s that half the squad snorted into their drinks. “Anyway. We wanted to say some things about our moms.”

Amanda froze, blinking rapidly. Liv’s hand found hers under the table again, squeezing.

“First of all,” Jesse read from the crumpled paper in her hand, “we think weddings are kind of weird. Everyone gets dressed up, people cry a lot, and there’s cake but you’re not allowed to eat it until after a bunch of boring stuff.”

“Jesse!” Billie stage-whispered, horrified. “That’s not in the speech!”

“Yes it is, you just didn’t see me write it.” Jesse smirked. “Anyway. We think weddings are weird… but we think our moms are awesome. And they deserve awesome.”

The whole room melted into a chorus of awws. Billie tugged the paper from Jesse’s hand.

“My turn. Okay.” She squinted at Jesse’s handwriting. “This says: Manda—Mom Number One—” she paused to grin at her mom, “—you always make sure we feel safe. You make the best spaghetti, and you let us do glitter at the dining table even when Olivia—Mom Number Two—says no.”

The laughter was instant, Liv groaning while Fin slapped the table again.

“And Olivia,” Billie went on, “you make us laugh when we’re sad, and you always know how to fix things, even if it’s just braids or pancakes. You came into our family and made it bigger, not smaller. You made it better.”

Olivia’s eyes were wet, her jaw tight as she tried not to completely fall apart. Amanda was blinking hard, shoulders trembling with the effort to keep her composure.

Jesse reclaimed the paper, her voice steadier now. “We’ve been through a lot. All of us. Bad stuff, scary stuff. But we always had each other. And now, with both of you together, it feels like… like we’re finally home.”

Billie nodded fiercely. “Yeah. Home isn’t an apartment. It’s you guys.”

There was no stopping it—the room collectively dissolved into sniffles, misty eyes, and applause.

Jesse looked down at the page, then grinned. “Oh—and Billie wanted to add this part, so here you go.”

Billie leaned into the mic with a conspiratorial grin. “We just wanna say… we think you should kiss now. A big one. Like in the movies.”

The room howled. The squad egged them on shamelessly—Fin shouting, “Yeah, give the kids what they want!” while Alex fanned herself theatrically.

Liv buried her face in Amanda’s shoulder, laughing even as her cheeks flamed. Amanda tilted her head, still tearful, and whispered, “Guess we better give the people what they want, huh?”

And right there, with Jesse and Billie grinning like conspirators and Noah rolling his eyes but clapping anyway, they kissed—soft, certain, and to the sound of their family cheering them on like the final victory lap of a very long race.

Chapter Text

The clink of cutlery on glass hushed the room until the chatter softened, turned curious. Somewhere near the head table, Fin called out, “A’ight, y’all, get your tissues ready,” which earned him a ripple of laughter that cracked the tension.

The band shifted, instruments tuning low. Then the opening swell of strings rolled out warm and golden, and the first sultry note of Etta James filled the hall:

“At last…”

Every head turned as Amanda stood, hand already outstretched to Olivia like it had been waiting there forever. Olivia laughed — nervous, delighted, in love — and let herself be pulled to her feet.

The crowd parted around them, tables pushed back, a soft spotlight spilling onto the floor. They stepped into it together, Amanda’s arm slipping easily around Liv’s waist, Liv’s hand fitting into hers like second nature.

Amanda’s voice was low enough that only Liv could hear it. “Cheesy as hell, huh?”

Liv tipped her head, eyes shining. “Perfect,” she whispered.

They swayed into the music, unhurried, bodies finding each other in the rhythm. The room blurred out — Noah at the edge of the dance floor, chest puffed with pride, Jesse and Billie whispering fiercely about how pretty their moms looked, Alex Cabot openly crying again, Casey rubbing circles on her back.

The lyrics wrapped around them like a promise:

“My love has come along / My lonely days are over / And life is like a song…”

Amanda dipped her head to murmur against Liv’s ear, “I still can’t believe it’s us. That I get this. You.”

Liv’s throat worked. She kissed the hinge of Amanda’s jaw, quick, reverent. “You’re all I’ve ever wanted.”

The band swelled, Etta soaring: “At last…”

And Olivia Benson, who had walked through fire and grief and a thousand shadows, let herself laugh through her tears as Amanda spun her gently — not for show, not for the crowd, but for the joy of it.

The applause rose when the song ended, but for a long beat, they didn’t hear it. They just held each other in the middle of the floor, forehead to forehead, both of them trembling and grinning and crying at once.

Fin hollered first: “That’s what the hell I’m talkin’ about!”

The rest followed — cheers, whistles, the unmistakable sound of Billie trying to start a slow chant of “kiss! kiss! kiss!”

So they did.

And when Amanda pulled back, breathless and red-eyed, she whispered, “At last,” like it was just for Liv, a secret vow tucked inside the song.

⸻

The applause for At Last hadn’t even faded when Noah stepped forward, cheeks pink but shoulders squared with that new teenage confidence he was trying on like a suit. He leaned close to the band, whispered something, and when the first piano chords floated out, Olivia froze.

“Slipping through my fingers all the time…”

Her hand flew to her mouth. “Noah.”

He just grinned — sheepish, mischievous, unbearably tender. “C’mon, Mom.” He offered his arm like a gentleman, and when she slid her hand into it, the room let out a collective aww.

They moved into the center of the floor again, and this time, Olivia was the one who crumpled first. The moment his arms went around her — taller now, broader, her boy who wasn’t a boy anymore — she dropped her forehead to his shoulder and sobbed, right there in front of God and Fin and the entire NYPD.

Noah held her steady. Strong. Solid. A little smug at having managed to pull one over on her, but mostly just glowing with love.

“You’re supposed to be happy today,” he murmured, trying to tease her out of it.

“I am happy,” she choked, tears wetting his suit jacket. “You have no idea how happy. You’re just—you’re growing up too fast. Slipping through my fingers, exactly like this damn song—oh, honey.”

Noah tightened his arms, swaying her gently. “I’m not slipping away, Mom. I’m right here.”

She pulled back just far enough to cup his face, eyes red, mascara smudged. “You’ll always be my little boy.”

He gave her a crooked grin. “Yeah, but at least now I can reach the top shelves for you.”

She laughed through her tears, loud enough that the whole room joined in. And then she hugged him again, shameless and desperate, while ABBA carried them both through the ache of time and the sweetness of the moment.

At the edge of the floor, Amanda stood with her hands pressed together under her chin, watching her wife and her stepson like her heart had grown too big for her chest. Fin muttered, “Damn, Rollins, you’re cryin’ again.”

“Shut up,” she whispered, wiping her cheeks.

When the song ended, Olivia kissed Noah’s cheek, leaving a damp patch of makeup there that he pretended to grumble about, and the applause rose again — louder this time, because everyone in the room had felt it: the quiet ache, the messy love, the family of it all.

⸻

The music shifted. Not flashy, not something to make the crowd cheer. Just the soft strum of a guitar, then Carole King’s voice pouring through the speakers — warm, steady, like a hand being held out.

Amanda froze for half a second. She knew the song instantly, knew what it meant. Her throat went tight.

Fin only smirked, stepping forward, bowing in that mock-gentleman way that made the girls giggle from their seats. “Come on, Rollins. Don’t make me look bad.”

She rolled her eyes, but her hand slid into his all the same, and when he pulled her in close, it was safe. No fuss, no pretense. Just them.

“You’ve Got a Friend” wrapped around them, and Amanda felt her eyes sting. Because wasn’t that the whole damn story? She’d been a mess when she walked into SVU. Defensive, sharp-edged, determined not to need anyone. And then there was Fin — steady as a rock, calling her out, having her back, never letting her fall.

“You did this?” she murmured, voice wobbling.

Fin chuckled low in his chest. “Course I did. Don’t go gettin’ sentimental on me, Rollins. Somebody’s gotta remind you you don’t gotta do it all alone.”

She pressed her face briefly against his shoulder, hiding the wetness in her eyes. “God, you’re the best man I’ve ever known.”

He made a little huffing sound, trying to play it off, but she felt his hand squeeze tighter at her waist. “Don’t tell anyone, but… proud of you, kid. Always have been. Always will be.”

Her tears spilled then, but it didn’t matter. Because Jesse and Billie were squealing about how Uncle Fin made Mommy cry, and Olivia was smiling at them like her heart might burst, and Amanda was swaying to the song that felt like the story of her life:

When you’re down and troubled
And you need some lovin’ care
And nothin’, oh nothin’ is goin’ right…

And she thought: yeah. I’ve got a friend. The best.

⸻

The reception had officially crossed that invisible line between formal wedding and absolute chaos. Billie and Jesse were shrieking to Taylor Swift with the other kids, Fin was being harassed into dancing by Velasco (who absolutely could not two-step if his life depended on it), and McGrath was hiding in a corner pretending not to bop his head.

Then the DJ’s voice cut in, low and teasing:

“Alright, this one’s for the ladies.”

The opening chords of “Girls Just Wanna Have Fun” blasted through the speakers, and the room collectively lost its mind.

Olivia, already tipsy and glowing, let out the most un-Captain-Benson squeal anyone had ever heard. She grabbed Alex Cabot by the wrist, who protested exactly once before letting herself be yanked into the middle of the floor. Casey Novak was two steps behind, shaking her head but grinning like she’d been waiting for this all night.

“C’mon, Counselor!” Liv shouted over the music, shimmying with absolutely no shame. “You can’t sit this one out.”

Alex, martini-brave and finally loose after years of being the ice queen, actually threw her head back and laughed. Casey bumped her hip into her, grinning wickedly. “You heard Benson. Don’t embarrass us.”

They formed a little circle—Liv in full mom-dance mode, Alex doing her best to keep up, Casey absolutely thriving like she’d been born for messy dance floors. The crowd hooted. Someone (probably Munch) yelled, “This is justice in motion!”

And then it happened.

Casey, tipsy and mischievous, caught Alex mid-laugh, spun her in, and kissed her. Not a peck, not a blink-and-miss—it was lingering. Bold. Full Novak chaos.

The dance floor exploded. Fin hollered from the edge like it was a sporting event. Jesse and Billie gasped loud enough to be heard over the speakers. Noah covered his eyes, yelling, “Oh my GOD, Aunt Alex!”

And Alex? Alex Cabot swooned. Actually swooned. Her knees buckled, one hand flying to her chest like she was the heroine in a 1950s melodrama.

Liv doubled over laughing so hard she almost spilled her champagne. “Casey Novak, you menace!” she wheezed, trying to catch her breath.

Casey just shrugged, smug as sin, looping an arm around Alex’s waist to steady her. “What? Girls just wanna have fun.”

The DJ didn’t even try to tamp it down—the track blasted on, the dance floor bouncing. And right there, in the middle of it all, Olivia Benson was bent double with laughter, Alex Cabot was flushed scarlet and clutching Casey like she might faint, and Amanda Rollins, watching from the side with her newlywed glow, muttered into her champagne glass:

“Christ. You leave Benson unsupervised for five minutes…”

Chapter Text

The night wound down in stages, like a tide pulling gently back from the shore.

By the time the band slipped into softer numbers, most of the kids had dissolved into yawns and sugar crashes. Lucy shepherded them upstairs to the suite the hotel had set aside—Billie clutching her flower crown in one hand, Jesse insisting she wasn’t tired as she tripped over her own shoes, and Noah dragging behind with his tie half undone like he’d been to war. They waved back with sloppy little goodnights, leaving the grownups to their own chaos.

Fin was holding court near the bar, one elbow on the counter, a whiskey in hand that had long since been replaced with club soda, though no one had told him. His tie was around his neck like a bandana, and he was plastered.

“You don’t understand,” he was saying for maybe the fifth time, collaring Velasco, Carisi, and a very uncomfortable Dean in turn. “These two. Benson and Rollins. They’re my family. You hear me? My family. And now they went and made it official. And I just—” He slapped a hand against his chest, eyes going suspiciously wet. “I love them.”

“Yeah, Fin,” Carisi said with the practiced patience of someone who’d been here before. “We know.”

“I love them,” Fin repeated, louder, like he was testifying in church.

Meanwhile, in the dim glow of the far corner, Alex Cabot and Casey Novak were… indisposed. Their carefully cultivated reputations were in tatters as they kissed with the kind of abandon that comes from too many martinis and years of unresolved tension. At some point, Alex’s glasses had disappeared, and Casey’s lipstick was a war crime.

Amanda clocked it from across the room, tipped her glass toward Liv, and muttered, “Guess we’re not the only ones gettin’ laid tonight.”

Liv, flushed and happy and a little wine-drunk herself, choked on a laugh. “Oh my God.” She caught Amanda’s hand under the table, squeezed. “They’re going to regret that in the morning.”

“Maybe.” Amanda smirked. “But they look like they’re havin’ a hell of a time regrettin’ it.”

The dance floor had thinned to just a few diehards—Munch slow-dancing with an equally tired-looking Warner, Barba talking with McGrath in clipped, half-polite tones that suggested the debate had been going for an hour.

At the head table, Olivia and Amanda sat shoulder to shoulder, the candlelight catching on their rings every time their hands brushed. The noise of the room hummed around them—laughter, clinking glasses, Fin’s latest declaration of undying love—but the center of it all was quiet.

Amanda tipped her head onto Liv’s shoulder, just for a breath. “Hell of a night,” she murmured.

Liv kissed her hair, soft, almost secret. “Hell of a life.”

And for a long moment, they just sat there, watching their world unfold around them, the edges messy, the middle shining.

⸻

The door had barely clicked shut behind them before Amanda was tugging at Olivia’s waist, kissing her like she’d been starving through the whole reception.

The silk of Liv’s gown was cool under Amanda’s fingers, the satin bodice stiff but giving way when she pressed closer. Liv gasped against her mouth, laughter spilling into the kiss. “Amanda—my dress—”

“Don’t care,” Amanda mumbled, already fumbling for the zipper. “You’re my wife. My wife. I get to ruin this thing if I want.”

That word. It short-circuited something in Olivia. She pressed Amanda back against the door, kissing her hard enough that their teeth clicked. “Say it again,” she whispered against her jaw.

Amanda’s hands found her hips, squeezing, grounding. “My wife.” She bit at Liv’s earlobe, voice dropping. “My sexy, gorgeous, bossy wife.”

Liv groaned, her body arching into Amanda’s. She felt years of restraint snap like thread.

The gown gave way with a soft hiss as Amanda worked the zipper down, sliding the bodice off Olivia’s shoulders. The fabric puddled around her waist, baring her bra, her scars, the history etched into her skin. For a second, Olivia froze.

Amanda stilled immediately, palm warm on her side. “Hey. Look at me.”

Olivia did.

Amanda’s gaze was fierce, reverent. “You’re the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. Don’t hide from me tonight. Not tonight.”

The knot in Liv’s chest loosened. She nodded once. “Okay.”

Amanda kissed down her throat, lingering over each patch of scar tissue as if she could rewrite the pain into worship. Liv’s knees nearly buckled.

By the time Amanda eased the dress the rest of the way off, Olivia was trembling. She stepped out of it, now in nothing but lace and heels. Amanda swore softly, eyes raking over her.

“Jesus, Liv.” She reached, greedy, slipping a hand between Liv’s thighs, over the lace. The friction drew a sharp, needy sound from Olivia’s throat.

“Bed,” Liv demanded, surprising herself with the roughness of it. “Now.”

They stumbled there, Amanda kicking off her own dress en route. By the time they hit the mattress, they were both half-naked, laughing breathlessly as they tangled together.

“God, you’re beautiful,” she murmured, almost reverent.

Amanda’s throat worked. “Don’t make me cry, not when I just got my makeup off.”

Liv bent down, kissed the corner of her eye anyway, tasting salt. “Too late.”

It started tender — hands mapping old scars, mouths pressing soft kisses across collarbones and shoulders. The wedding bands caught the light, cool against flushed skin. Amanda brushed hers over Liv’s ribs, smiling when Liv shivered.

“You’re mine now,” Amanda whispered, breath hot against her ear.

“Always was,” Liv shot back, fierce and certain, before capturing her mouth again.

The tempo shifted, deepened, their kisses turning open and hungry. Amanda’s hands found Olivia’s breasts, kneading, teasing until Liv arched up into her touch. Liv retaliated by slipping a thigh between Amanda’s, grinding up until Amanda gasped, clutching at her.

“Liv—oh—”

“Say it again,” Liv urged, voice hoarse, lips dragging along her jaw.

Amanda whined, rolled her hips. “Wife.”

That word undid them both. Liv’s hand slid lower, between Amanda’s thighs, slow and sure. She teased her through damp lace, then pushed it aside, sliding her fingers against slick heat. Amanda’s head fell back, a sound breaking from her throat that had Liv’s pulse pounding.

“Yes—please, Liv, don’t stop—”

“I’ve got you, my wife,” Liv promised, lips against her ear, fingers curling until Amanda was shaking, clinging, crying out her name.

She came hard, bucking against Liv’s hand, tears stinging her eyes from sheer overwhelming joy. When she collapsed back, chest heaving, Liv stroked her gently, easing her through, kissing her hairline like a vow.

Amanda laughed breathlessly, tugging her up. “My turn.”

She flipped them with surprising strength, straddling Liv’s hips, kissing down her chest, over ribs, until Liv was trembling with anticipation. When Amanda finally pressed her mouth between Olivia’s thighs, Liv nearly sobbed.

“Amanda—oh my God—”

Amanda hummed against her, the vibration shooting straight through her. Her hands gripped Liv’s hips, holding her steady as she worked her tongue with slow, devastating precision. Liv clawed at the sheets, at Amanda’s shoulders, voice breaking as pleasure rolled through her.

“I’m yours,” she panted, almost a cry. “I’m yours, your wife, yours—”

Amanda moaned at that, redoubling her efforts, until Liv shattered, arching up, crying her name, undone.

Afterward, Amanda crawled up her body, licking her lips, grinning smug and tender. Liv cupped her face, pulled her into a messy, breathless kiss.

They stayed like that for a long time — tangled, sweaty, rings catching in each other’s hair.

Amanda traced idle circles over Liv’s chest.

“I love you,” she whispered.

Liv kissed her hair. “I love you more.”

Amanda smiled sleepily. “Shut up. No you don’t.”

Liv laughed, low and warm. “Fine. Equal.”

“Equal’s good.”

Round two blurred into round three somewhere near 3:30 a.m., Liv fumbling with exhaustion but determined to return the favor. Amanda guiding her through it, voice ragged and sweet, until Liv had her coming twice, her head thrown back, her nails leaving crescents in Olivia’s shoulders.

By 4:00 they were both wrecked, sprawled sideways across the bed. Amanda giggled into the sheets. “We’re gonna look like shit in the morning.”

Liv kissed the back of her neck, voice rough. “Worth it.”

At 5:15, it was Amanda who woke to find Olivia propped on an elbow, just watching her, tracing the shape of her jaw with gentle fingers.

“What?” Amanda murmured.

“You’re my wife,” Liv whispered, reverent.

Amanda smiled drowsily, tugging her close. “Say it again.”

Liv kissed her. Slow, reverent, almost chaste. “My wife.”

But when Amanda rolled her onto her back and climbed astride her, the kiss turned feral, and round four blurred into something half feral, half desperate, both of them clutching at each other like they’d never let go.

By dawn, the sheets were a mess. They’d lost track of how many times they’d made each other come — it didn’t matter. What mattered was Amanda asleep across her chest, their rings glinting in the early light, their bodies still humming.

At 8:00, sunlight flooding the room, Olivia stirred. Amanda was awake too, watching her with the softest smile.

“Good morning, wife,” Amanda murmured.

Liv kissed her, tired and raw and deliriously happy. “Good morning, wife.”

And then, somehow, impossibly, they went for round five.

Chapter Text

The hotel dining room smelled like coffee, maple syrup, and regret.

At the center of it all: the Benson-Rollins clan, already attracting side-eyes from strangers because they could never quite sit quietly.

Fin slid into his chair like his bones had been swapped out for wet newspaper. He didn’t so much sit as collapse, limbs folding in on themselves until he looked like a cautionary tale in a D.A.R.E. video.

The sunglasses stayed on, though—big, wraparound aviators that screamed do not perceive me.

“Coffee,” he rasped, not at anyone in particular—just to the universe.

Amanda, smug as hell, pushed a cup toward him. “Cream or sugar?”

He waved her off like a man refusing last rites. “Black. If I’m goin’ down, I’m goin’ down hard.”

Jesse leaned across the table, chin in her hands. “You look terrible.”

Fin raised one finger in warning. “You try doin’ four shots with your Aunt Casey while Munch sings Sinatra and then talk to me about terrible.”

“Four?” Noah asked dryly. “We counted seven.”

Fin tilted his head, winced, and groaned. “You kids keepin’ score now? That’s harassment.”

Billie piped up brightly. “You cried!”

The table stilled.

Fin slowly lifted his head, peering at her through the dark lenses. “The hell I did.”

“Yes you did,” Billie said, completely unfazed. “You said, ‘Amanda’s my little rookie and I love her so much.’ And then you hugged the cake lady.”

Amanda clapped a hand over her mouth, snorting into her napkin. Liv had to reach for her water.

Jesse doubled down, grinning like a hyena. “Then you hugged the DJ. Told him he was the realest man you’d ever known.”

“Lies,” Fin croaked, stabbing his fork into a pancake like he meant to kill it.

“And then,” Billie added, delighting in the kill shot, “you tried to catch the bouquet!”

Fin’s fork clattered to the plate. He sat bolt upright. “ALRIGHT—” His voice cracked halfway, and he winced, massaging his temples. “Okay. Okay. Everybody needs to shut up before I file a grievance with HR.”

Liv was actually wheezing now, tears of laughter on her cheeks. “Oh my God, Fin—”

Amanda was red in the face from laughing so hard. “You did! You jumped like three feet in the air!”

“I slipped,” he grumbled, hiding behind his coffee. “Floor was wet. OSHA violation.”

Jesse whipped out her phone, gleeful. “It’s on video.”

Fin groaned so loud the whole table heard. “You kids are demons. Actual demons.”

Billie leaned across and patted his sleeve with all the gravitas of a tiny judge. “It’s okay, Uncle Fin. We love you anyway.”

He slumped forward, head thunking gently onto the table. “Somebody just end me now.”

And the worst part? He meant it.

⸻

The elevator dinged once. Casey Novak sauntered in like she had just won a closing argument that had no business being won. Blazer slightly askew, hair tousled in that way that said she had not, in fact, been in bed alone. She dropped into a chair at the SVU breakfast table with a grin sharp enough to cut glass and immediately reached for the coffee pot like nothing was amiss.

Two minutes later, another ding.

Alex Cabot.

She entered as if summoned by karma itself. Perfect posture, sunglasses perched primly on her head, her navy blazer buttoned all the way up to her throat. The only problem was the blooming purple bruise just peeking above her collar. She slid into the chair across from Casey, avoiding eye contact with anyone.

It might have worked—until Jesse squinted mid-bite of her pancake.

“Aunt Alex?” she said carefully. “Did you have an accident?”

The whole table stilled. Alex blinked. “I beg your pardon?”

Jesse pointed with her fork, face creased with concern. “Your neck is all bruisey. Did you fall?”

Alex’s composure faltered. She adjusted her collar, heat climbing into her cheeks. “It’s nothing, sweetheart. Really.”

Billie gasped and leaned closer. “Did you bump into a wall? Poor Aunt Alex!” She turned to Amanda, very seriously. “Should we call Nurse Lucy?”

Amanda nearly choked on her juice. Liv pressed her lips together so tightly it made her cheekbones ache. Fin groaned into his hands.

Casey? Casey sat back in her chair like the cat who’d eaten the entire aviary.

“She’s fine,” Casey said smoothly, swirling her coffee. “Trust me. It wasn’t an accident.”

Alex’s head whipped toward her, blue eyes burning. “Casey.” The single word carried so much threat.

But Casey wasn’t done. She leaned one elbow on the table, smiling in a way that was somehow both smug and affectionate. “I’ve always known Alex was talented in a courtroom,” she said conversationally. “Brilliant at giving an opening argument.” She let that hang, just long enough for the adults to choke on their coffee. “But last night, turns out she’s even better at… taking a closing argument.”

Amanda snorted so hard she had to cover her face with a napkin. Fin let out a strangled laugh that became a cough. Noah groaned and buried his face in his hands.

Liv stared at Casey, horrified and delighted all at once. “You did not just say that.”

Alex’s entire face went crimson. “I—cannot believe—you—Casey Novak, you are insufferable.” She tugged her blazer higher like it might cover the hickey, as if half the room hadn’t already clocked it.

“Insufferable?” Casey’s grin widened, shameless. “Last night you didn’t seem to think so.”

Alex’s jaw dropped. “You—” She glanced desperately at the kids, trying to salvage something. “You—”

But Jesse, oblivious, beamed and said, “So you didn’t fall into a wall!”

Billie nodded, proud of her detective work. “I knew it.”

Amanda was in tears from laughing. Liv’s mascara was already smudging.

Noah, mortified beyond belief, muttered, “I cannot be here right now,” shoving more pancake in his mouth. Liv leaned over, whispering furiously, “How do you even understand what’s going on?” His ears went scarlet. “I just do, okay?!”

Alex groaned, dropping her head into her hands. “I hate all of you.”

Casey sipped her coffee, victorious. “You love me.”

Alex, muffled behind her palms: “Tragically.”

⸻

Fin’s forehead was still pressed dramatically against the table when Noah cleared his throat with exaggerated importance.

“Uncle Fin,” he said, in that teenager voice that already carried too much smugness for breakfast hour. “I, uh… think you should see this.”

Amanda froze mid-bite of toast. “Noah—”

But it was too late. Noah had his phone propped up like he was about to give a PowerPoint presentation. He tapped the screen, and the entire table—Liv, Amanda, Jesse, Billie, Alex, Casey—got an eyeful of drunk-as-hell Fin.

On screen, the audio was slightly distorted by thudding bass from the reception, but the picture was crystal clear: Fin, swaying like a skyscraper in a windstorm, clutching Olivia Benson in a death grip. His voice was hoarse and breaking as he wailed into her shoulder:

“Y-you don’t understand—you’re so beautiful, Benson. You—sniff—you’re my Cap’n forever. I’m so proud’a you. SO proud.”

Olivia, in the video, was patting his back like he was a spooked horse. Her expression? Somewhere between affection and absolute despair.

The table exploded. Amanda dropped her fork. Jesse slapped the table so hard her juice sloshed. Billie gasped like she was watching a soap opera.

“Oh my GOD,” Liv groaned, burying her burning face in her hands. “Please delete that, Noah.”

Fin lifted his head, looking like he’d been personally victimized by technology. “That ain’t real. Deepfake. AI. Russian disinformation.”

But Noah was grinning like the devil. “Wait, wait, there’s more.”

He swiped. And suddenly, on the little screen, there was Fin again—this time staggering near the door of the banquet hall as Chief McGrath came over to say his goodbyes. McGrath leaned in, murmured something polite.

Fin, glassy-eyed, pointed at him with the intensity of a prophet. “You… you’re a punk ass bitch.”

The table erupted.

Amanda actually slid down in her seat, crying with laughter. Jesse was wheezing. Billie slapped both hands over her mouth but squeaked, “Uncle Fin, you’re in so much trouble.”

Liv had tears streaming down her cheeks, trying desperately to keep her Captain voice. “Fin… oh my God… you insulted the Chief of Detectives on camera.”

Fin dropped his face back into his folded arms. His groan rattled the silverware. “I might actually die. Forget the hangover—kill me now.”

Alex Cabot, thrilled that somebody else was being targeted, raised her mimosa glass. “To Fin Tutuola, the bravest man we know.”

Casey Novak clinked hers against it, smirking. “May his formal apology be legendary.”

Fin raised one middle finger from the table, voice muffled. “Y’all are fake friends. Every last one of you.”

Amanda patted his shoulder sweetly. “It’s okay, Fin. We’ll help you draft it. Start with ‘Dear Chief Punk Ass Bitch—’”

He made a strangled noise that was either laughter or the sound of a man resigning himself to his fate.

_______

Plates were scraped clean, the last of the coffee poured, and the waitstaff had started to eye their table like maybe this circus had taken up the corner booth long enough.

Fin pushed his chair back with a groan so loud the entire restaurant turned. He pinched the bridge of his nose, muttering, “Y’all better not call me for a week. I’m gonna be in bed. Dead. Don’t even think about it.”

“You’ve got three missed calls from McGrath already,” Noah deadpanned, waving Fin’s buzzing phone at him.

“Tell him I died,” Fin shot back, grabbing the phone and shoving it into his pocket like it had personally wronged him. “And tell him I left Billie in charge.”

Liv rolled her eyes, smiling into her napkin.

Casey, stretching in her chair like a cat, said, “Well. This has been fun. I should probably get going.”

Liv leaned back. “I’ll give you a ride to the airport.”

For the first time all morning, Casey Novak actually blushed. She fiddled with her empty coffee cup, then glanced—oh so quickly—at Alex. “Um. I… actually don’t need that lift. I think I’m gonna stay in New York a little longer.”

Alex didn’t look up from smoothing the cuff of her blazer, but her ears were very, very pink.

Amanda smirked, leaning into Liv’s shoulder. “Mmhm. Shocker.”

“Shut up, Rollins,” Alex muttered without heat.

The kids had already begun gathering their things—Billie insisting on carrying Jesse’s backpack, Jesse insisting she didn’t need help. Noah slipped a protective arm around both of them, herding them toward the door with the kind of casual authority that made Liv’s chest ache with pride.

Liv stood, reaching for her coat. Amanda shrugged hers on, pressing a kiss to the crown of Billie’s hair as she passed. Fin muttered something about “cab, dark room, blackout curtains” and shuffled off toward the exit like a man on his way to his own funeral.

Casey and Alex hung back, pretending they weren’t watching each other.

Liv gathered the kids with one hand, Amanda with the other, and for a moment she just let herself look: Noah—tall, steady, hers. Jesse—bright-eyed and sharp-tongued. Billie—still small, but so aware. Amanda—her wife. Their family.

She exhaled, a quiet, steady thing, and smiled.

“Come on,” she said softly. “Let’s go home.”

And so the five of them did—hand in hand, shoulder to shoulder—stepping out into the New York morning, into whatever came next.