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Pugsley Addams had been silently watching observing his roomate Eugene ever since they had first shook hands. He wasn't being weird he just thought his roommate was so... interesting, maybe it was the delicious but forbidden bugs, maybe it was the way Eugene's face looked when he was so intently focused on his homework, his soft curls, his perfect sun kissed tan skin, or maybe it was those cute little glasses that had pugsley so intrigued.

Pugsley wasnt stupid, he knew Eugene didn't really like him, but... maybe he could win him over, the Addams Family men were known for being quite charming and surely Eugene was sure to be easily swayed.
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Pugsley lay awake unable to sleep for the fourth night in a row. Usually Eugene would thrash around in his sleep or at least be a bit restless but tonight Eugene was sleeping like the dead.

*Lucky him.* Thought Pugsley.

After staring at the ceiling for what felt like another eternity Pugsley stood up, throwing the covers off himself and striding to the bathroom.

Pugsley opened the small vent on the side of their bathroom wall, he felt around on the sides until his fingers brushed up against the stinging cool metal of a small blade. Pugsley let out a sigh he didn't know he was holding in. He needed this. he needed all these people to just let him have this one fucking thing to himself. pugsley slid into the bathtub, his head tilting up and resting on the wall behind him.

*The pain the the body quiets the pain in the head.* Pugsleys thoughts were swimming, the only thing that remained consistent was that stupid mantra. Pugsley pressed the blade against his fingertip, almost drawing blood.

He wasn't scared... because, being scared is a weakness and he wasn't weak either. If anything he enjoyed the pain, it felt nice, and tingly, and he only did it when there was no other choice, so technically it's not bad, and I mean everyone has different coping skills, this is fine, this is healthy. this is healthy. this is healthy.

Pugsley pulled his pants and boxers down to his knees. he stared at the blade for a moment before pressing it into his upper thigh. The blood started to pool at the tip of the blade, and it felt delicious. Once pugsley deemed the blade deep enough he slowly started to drag it horizontally across his thigh.

The pain was searing, and beautiful. pugsley eyes nearly rolled back into his head from the sensation. Bloood was slowly trickling down his legs and into the bathtub.

*Shit... I don't wanna clean this up...*

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On the other side of the bathroom door, Eugene had woken up. Luckily it wasn't his usual stark awakening drenched in a cold sweat while crying and shaking. No, this was much more gentle. No one was standing above his bed shaking him awake he just drifted out of slumber for reasons unknown.

Eugene looked around and fell back against his covers. He couldn't sleep.

*What the fuck?* Eugene mentally groaned.

He dragged himself out of the covers and stood by the bed for a moment. He rested his hands on his hips, letting his head fall back to look up at the ceiling.

"Might aswell study or something... wait... where's pugsley?"

Eugene glanced around the room, his face full of confusion.

"Pugsley?" He called for his roomate, checking his bunk and even peeking out into the hall.

*~~~~~*
*Shit shit shit!* Pugsley thought.

He clambered out of the tub nearly slipping on the slick blood pooling by his legs. Pugsley looked around panicked. He quickly flushed the toilet and ran the sink, hoping Eugene would just think he was taking a piss or something. He splashed a bit of water on his legs then dabbed his thighs up with some toilet paper, praying it would control the bleeding.

Pugsley pulled his pants back on and tried to make himself look more composed, like he hadn't just been cutting up his thighs. He swung open the door as nonchalantly as possible.

"Hey...sorry, I was in the bathroom." Pugsley avoided Eugene's gaze, it felt piercing, like he could see straight through the thin fabric covering the drying blood caked around his legs.

Eugene scratch his neck awkwardly. "oh, hey sorry to bother you I just woke up and you weren't there... got me kinda worried haha..."

Eugene's smile was so beautiful. His lips curled over the glinting metal of his braces, his eyes darted around the room never comfortable for long, his nose crinkled a little and the light dusting of freckles danced with the movement. Pugsley was sure he was drooling.

He mentally scolded himself, *Damn it Pugsley get your shit together!*

"Oh yeah of course my bad... uh why are you awake right now?" Pugsley walked back over to his bed and layed down.

"Oh..." Eugene looked out the window. "I'm not really sure I just kinda woke up." He shrugged.

Pugsley stared at Eugene for a moment before looking away and pulling the covers over himself. Eugene stared at Pugsleys back.

"Why are you still awake." Eugenes voice sounded slightly accusatory, he didn't mean to. The sharp metal of Eugene braces dug into his tounge and lips as he gnawd on the inside of his cheek.

"oh uh I dunno, same as your I guess... just couldn't sleep... night Eugene" Pugsley shut off the light on his bedside table leaving the room mostly shrouded in darkness.

Eugene could taste a bit of blood in his mouth from biting his cheek too hard. He stated down at the homework he had been stressing about for almost a week but honestly, it seemed so insignificant now.

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Saturday morning came with soft sunlight carried thought the windows and soft buzzing from Eugenes side of the room. Pugsley pushed the covers off himself and gently slid out of bed. Pugsley glanced over to where Eugene should be covered in blankets, only to find an empty bed. Pugsleys gaze slid to the desk by Eugenes bed and saw a mess of curly brown hair draped over a desk covered in papers.

Pugsley stalked over to Eugenes sleeping form and peered over his shoulder. A bit of drool was slowly seeping into a school assignment. It was adorable, pugsley wanted to lick the drool off Eugenes beautiful and stunning face. He knew he shouldn't, he knew this wasn't a thought normal people had, so instead of indulging himself Pugsley gently lifted Eugene into the air and carried him to his bed.

Pugsley tucked the covers around Eugene and slowly sunk to his knees next to the curly haired boy's bed. Pugsley rubbed his hands over the fresh cuts from last night, they stung. Pugsley gently slid his hands over Eugenes thighs, careful not to wake him.

*He's so perfect, I bet his legs are so smooth and warm... I don't deserve him, I shouldn't be allowed near him. he's so... pure...* Pugsley was spiralling, his teeth were digging into the soft pink flesh of his bottom lip. Blood was pricking, and pouring into his mouth. Suddenly there was a knock on the door.

Pugsley pushed himself up and wiped his face. It was only 10 am and they didn't have classes today so no one should be at the door. The doorknob jiggled a bit and the knocking intensified.

*Shit this better not wake up eug-bee* Pugsley swung the door open already looking annoyed.

"Oh.. hi ajax" pugsley expression softened but barely. "Is this gonna take long?"

Ajax grimaced awkwardly. "Did I interrupt something?"

"No but eug- Eugene is sleeping. I just don't want to wake him." Pugsley steped outside and shut the door softly behind him.

"Ah... sorry I just wanted to invite you two to the little... get together I'm having tonight. It kinda sucks nevermore doesn't have a homecoming but I wanted to introduce everyone and have a little fun so..." Ajax shrugged. "It's tonight at 8pm if you want to come." He looked behind Pugsleys shoulder. "It's fine if you don't want to come, I know Addams aren't a big fan of ... people, but be sure to ask Eugene."

Pugsley internally sighed, *yet another person lumping me and Wednesday together... we are nothing alike!* But of course instead of voicing his concerns he just bit his lip untill he nearly tasted blood.

"Sure... I'll ask him." Pugsley tried his best to force a polite smile as he shut the door. Pugsley leaned against the door and rolled his eyes.

"Who was that?" Eugenes tired voice came softly from across the room. Pugsley looked up so see Eugene rubbing his eyes and stretching a bit, he was practically glowing. How could he look so perfect, especially for just having woken up? How his shirt slightly lifted as he stretched, his voice, everything. Pugsley was sure he could see a halo nestled in the soft Dark chocolate brown curls that scattered messily across Eugenes tanned skin.

"O-oh it was just ajax." *What the fuck, was that a stutter? I've never stuttered before...* Pugsley tried to keep his voice steady but his mind was racing.

"Hm." Eugene luckily seemed not to notice pugsleys sprial, "Did he ask you something? Or did he need help with something again."

"He was just asking about some party... sounded kinda fun but, I'll probably only go if you go too." Pugsley planted his arms behind him and leaned back.

"Hmm a party..." Eugene closed his eyes and laid back down tiredly, seemingly deep in thought.

"I guess that would be fun?" Eugene shrugged before yawning.

"... Really??" Pugsley looked over at Eugene, a curious look crossing pugsleys features.

"Well it starts at 8, so I guess we should save a little time to get ready?" Pugsley bit hard at his bottom lip as to not start rambling and creeping Eugene out.

"Mmmm.. the party is like 10 hours away, we have plenty of time." Eugene wrapped himself in the cover of soft blankets again.

"Wake me up at like six or seven, its probably gonna be a small party, so we don't really have to get ready. good night Pugsley." Eugenes last words were muffled by his pillow but pugsley smiled nevertheless.

"Sweet dreams eug-bee" pugsley whispered to himself, praying Eugene didn't hear him.

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Pugsley stared at himself in the mirror, his hand resting on his hip. "Hmmm..." He looked back at the small pile of shirts he had laid out on the bed. "Layered is classic but... maybe I should dress up?" Pugsley bit his bottom lip as he sighed "Ugh but I can't be too overdressed."

"...People are so annoying" Pugsley let out a soft annoyed groan and looked at the clock on his nightstand.

*Hmm its 6:45... i should wake up eugene.* Pugsley crept over to the currently asleep Eugene. He was wrapped in blankets but pugsley could see his cute frizzy curls peeking out from the blankets.

"Aweee" Pugsley whispered to himself.

"He looks so cute i don't wanna wake him up..." Pugsley bit his bottom lip, a light pink dusting his unusually gray skin.

Pugsley sighed and pulled the covers gently off the sleeping boy.

"Eugeneee" Pugsleys voice was a soft lullaby tone he muttered over Eugene's sleeping figure

"Wake upppp we need to get ready for the party, cariño~" Pugsley smiled softly, slowly brushing Eugenes hair away from his face and handing him his glasses.

Eugene blinked and took the glasses from Pugsley, their fingers brushed against each other. Eugene could practically feel the electricity coursing through Pugsleys body.

"Oh... is it time for the party?" Eugenes voice was slightly raspy as he rolled ont his side to face Pugsley.

Pugsley bit the inside of his lip. *God he is so cute I just want to keep him locked away so no one else gets to see his beautiful face... fuck... FUCK!*

Pugsley choked down the faint metalic taste of blood. "Ah... almost, I woke you up a bit before cuz I was pretty sure you didn't wanna go in your pj's"

Eugene smiled, his soft lips catching on his braces as usual. "Thanks for thinking ahead pugs."

Pugsleys eyes widened a bit at the nickname, it sounded so nice coming from Eugenes mouth, he wondered how it would sound if Eugene was screaming and moaning that adorable nickname.

Eugene shifted the rest of the covers off of himself and stretched out on the bed. Pugsley looked down at his hands folded in his lap, trying not to pin Eugene to the bed and absolutely ravish him, do shit so unspeakable Eugene wouldn't be able to look his friends or loved ones in the eye ever again.

*Damnit Pugsley* He thought to himself.

Pugsley stood up and walked back to his mirror. "do you know what you're going to wear?"

"Ah I don't know, something casual..." Eugene looked over at Pugsleys small pile of clothes and chuckled softly. "are you having some trouble deciding?"

Pugsley looked away slightly embarrassed "maybe..." he laughed softly and smiled.

Eugene walked over to Pugsley and grabbed a white long sleeve and a purple and black striped baggy tee shirt.

"I really like the layered shirt thing you do, it's super cute..." Eugene mumbled softly, his back still turned away from Pugsley.

"oh..." Pugsleys entire face turned a soft shade of pink, as he clamped a hand over his mouth and looked away "thanks."

Pugsley watched Eugene hold up different shirt combos against Pugsleys torso.

"uh Eugene... I have a question." Pugsley muttered.

Eugene looked back up at Pugsley "yeah? what's up?"

"Have you ever done eyeliner?" Pugsley scratches his scar covered arm. "I've been wanting to try it for a while but I don't actually have any eye liner, and also I don't really want to poke my eye out." Pugsley mentally chuckles, because honestly stabbing his eye out sounds kinda fun.

Eugene stares at Pugsley, his glasses magnifying the shimmer in his eyes.

"uh yeah, I think I have some eyeliner or something somewhere..." As Eugene turns to go look for his eye liner he hands pug a black and white striped longsleve and a plain black shirt.

Pugsley stares at the combo and immediately takes off his shirt. Eugene turns back to Pugsley only to see Pugsley throwing his shirt on the bed. Eugenes eyes roam across pugs back and torso.

*woah...he looks like a Greek statue... * Eugene thought to himself

Pugsley looks over his shoulder to see Eugene slightly zoned out staring at his shirtless figure. Pugsley blushes slightly. *oh? Does he like seeing me shirtless?* He thought to himself as a small smirk played across his face

"hehe" Pugsley chuckles "you enjoying the view?" he waves in Eugenes face.

Eugene snaps back, his tan skin heating up, turning a slight pink color.

"oh! i- shit- sorry" Eugene stammers.

Pugsley laughs "don't worry, im honestly glad i look good enough for you to up to your standards" Pugsley rubs the back of his neck "i used to get bullied for being fat, so it's nice you think I look good"

Eugene stares and recalls the many times he was pushed in lockers or called names. He remembers his first year at nevermore during the Pilgrim world festival when those two douchbags locked him in a pillory and Wednesday had to save him... god that was humiliating.

"...i- i also used to get bullied" Eugene laughs but his smile doesnt reach his eyes. "kinda crazy we're more alike than i thought, huh?..."

they stare at each other something like a wave of peace washes over them, it's nice to know they aren't alone, and that there's someone else out there who understands what it feels like to deal with being tormented like that. Pugsley stares deep into Eugenes eyes before having to snap himself back to reality. "... about that eye liner..."

Eugene looks down at the charcoal stick in his hand "oh, shit, of course sorry."

"don't worry." Pugsleys face is unusually soft, Eugene wishes he could know what Pugsley was thinking.

Eugene hands the liner to Pugsley, which he happily accepts and pulls his eye. he pressed the black pencil gently against his water line and dragged it across, leaving a dark line. he pressed the pencil a bit too hard near the inner corner of his eye, the pencil slipped and stabbed him.

"ow fuck..." Pugsley licks his lips, the pain making him squirm slightly, it didn't feel as nice as when he cut himself though...

Eugenes face contorts in disgust, he fidgets in his seat. He shuts his eyes and tries not to gag. "oh god that looks like it hurt... do you want some help?"

Pugsley smiled, he loved Eugene so much he wanted to cut him open and sleep inside his skin, he wanted to feel Eugenes warm blood seeping into his skin, he wanted to be the only thing Eugene could ever see again. Maybe he should gouge out Eugene's eyes and carry them in his pocket at all times.

"uh sure" Pugsley says nonchalantly

Eugene steps closer to Pugsley "could you look up please"

"of course mi amor" Pugsley looks up but can still see eugs adorable face as he concentrates, Eugenes tounge is poking out the corner of his mouth and he can see Eugenes dark lashes over his glasses.

Eugenes face hears up a bit from hearing Pugsleys smooth voice calling him love. but he brushed it off and continued trying to angle the pencil as to not stab Pugsley.

"Ah sorry pugs?" Eugene steped back.

"Hm? Whats wrong?" Pugsley replied.

"Could you sit on the bed, I can't get the angle right and I don't wanna hurt you." Eugenes voice was full of concern.

Pugsley smiled, it was so adorable that Eugene was worried about him.finds Eugenes worry adorable "of course cariño~"

Pugsley sat on the edge of the bed and planted his hands behind him. He leaned back, Eugene smiled while nodding approvingly. He grabbed Pugsleys face and tilted it up. Eugene marked under Pugsleys lower lashes, the charcoal blending into his pale skin. Pugsley gazed deep into Eugene's dark eyes

*hes so fucking adorable* Pugsley thought.

Eugene was laser focused on making Pugsleys eyeliner look perfect. He shifted slightly, placeing Pugsley legs in between his own. he gently pushed Pugsley down a bit while trying to blend the eyeliner without hurting Pugsley.

*should I say something?... I don't really want to* Pugsley contemplated, so let himself be pushed onto the bed. Eugene was straddling him, his hips softly grinding onto Pugsley.

"Hmm okay I think that looks good" Eugene sad while finalizing the charcoal black lines

Pugsley bit his lip "...thanks, Eugene, uh could I get up to see?"

Eugene looks confused "huh" he looked around at the awkward position they were in "oh... shoot my bad..."

Eugene pushed himself off Pugsley lightning quick "sorry" he muttered while a faint blush crossed his face.

"don't worry, mi cariño" Pugsley smiled at Eugene and shoved himself off the bed. he stared at himself, admiring Eugenes handiwork in the mirror.

"Mmmm i like it... makes my eyebags look kinda normal" Pugsley chuckled softly while Eugene stared at the way Pugsley looked at his work

Eugene glances and the clock on the wall "shit, we should leave soon its already been... almost an hour"

"of course darling! but don't you wanna get dressed first?" Pugsley studied Eugenes admittedly adorable bee pjs. *maybe I'll get us matching pj's... is that too couple-ey?...I don't really care.*

"oh... right" Eugene grabbed a pair of dirty jeans and a black tee from the dirty pile of clothes on his floor, before throwing them on as fast as possible.

they walked out of the dorm side by side Pugsley swallowed nervously, trying to hold back his overwhelming urge to grab eugenes waist, or hand even... he just wanted to feel Eugenes warm skin against his. Eugene made sure to lock the door and they made their way to ajaxs room.

Pugsley knocks roughly on the door before ajaxs swung it open almost immediately.

"hey guys! y'all are just in time, agnes, enid, and a few other upperclassmen are here so we're just waiting on like a few more people"

Eugene smiles awkwardly "alright, thanks Ajax"

ajax opens the door wider and stepped aside "come on in, guys!"

Eugene and Pugsley walk into a fairly calm and cozy scene, people are talking quietly in their own little circles while a few others are milling around a snack filled table.

"...yeah... this is pretty calm" Eugene says, letting out a small sigh of relief.

"oh hey there's Agnes and Enid" Eugene waved meekly at them, which made Enid practically jump up and down before skipping over to them.

"oh my gosh! hi Eugene! and of course hi hi Pugsley sorry Wednesday isn't here, I'm sure you understand" She giggles softly

Pugsley smiled politely, he quite liked Enid but he only really sees her when she's with Wednesday.

*makes sense I guess, they are dating... lucky...* Pugs mused

Agnes tilted her head "uhm helloooo" she hums "I'm here too"

"ah of course hello Agnes, my favorite specter" Pugsley smiled, bearing his teeth.

"how are y'all liking the party?" Eugene asked, shifting his weight from side to side.

"hmmmm it's nice, a little slow for my tastes though" Enid taps her foot, looking out into space

Agnes looks between Enid and Eugene "...I like it" she shrugs

as the four of them continue talking more and more people slowly start to fill up the dorm

"Uh Pugsley..." Eugene gently nudges Pugsley softy

"there's like a lot of people here, I thought ajax said it was gonna be chill?!" Eugene who was once whispering, now yelling slightly.

Pugsley was terrified, he was trying not to let it show but the thought of Eugene being so scared and uncomfortable made his skin crawl.

"do you want to leave?" Pugsley gently grabbed Eugenes arm, trying to stabilize himself more than Eugene

"if your overwhelmed you should probably go calm down in your dorm" Agnes chimed in

"oh shit Eugene are you okay?" Enids brows are furrowed with genuine worry

"i-im fine sorry... I just didn't know so many people would be here" Eugenes lungs felt disgustingly heavy.

Suddenly someone pushes open the door "guys!!! do y'all know what rhymes with party?" the random jock looking guy doesnt wait for an answer.

"alcohol poisoninggg!" He said laughing. "I'm joking, dont stresss" the dude high fives the closest person to him with an extreme amount of passion, damn near knocking the person over.

"who wants some! y'all know sharing is caring" the strange man gives a sly smile his and meets Eugenes gaze for a moment.

the small crowd is quiet for a moment before bursting into cheers and laughter. bottles are passed around and drinks are poured. the room seems to get darker, and smaller, and oddly warm. everyone seems to be a bit happier, people who used to scoff at him in the hallways are laughing next to him.

Eugene sees Enid pouring herself a cup of something pink, and he sees some one handing Pugsley a cup. he looks at Pugsley and motions him over franticly.

"hey Eugene, are you not drinking? ofc don't feel pressured to I'm just asking." Pugsley shrugs and takes a sip from his red solo cup.

"how are you drinking that so casually!? it smells disgusting..." Eugene scrunched his nose and adjusts his glasses

"Oh I've been drinking for as long as I can remember, my mom said it improves your immune system or something, and once you get used to the sting it really doesn't taste that bad." Pugsley takes another sip.

Enid saunters over to Eugene and Pugsley she's already a little tipsy, Eugene can tell by the way her drink spills over the sides of her cup as she gulps it down.

"Hi hi againn, Eug! are you gonna drink?" she pushes her cup into Eugenes hand.

"Here haha you can have this I really don't need anymore" with that she turns away and disappears back into the clump of people all giggling and swaying.

Pugsley looks down at Eugene. "you don't have to drink that if you don't want to okay?"

Eugene stares at the pink liquid in his cup. "no it's okay I kinda want to try it."

He sniffs the cup and almost gags *how does anyone drink this shit...* Eugene gnaws on his cheek and presses his lips to the rim of the cup, he can already feel the stinging.

"take it really fast, and try not to leave it in your mouth for to long so it doesn't burn." Pugsley remarks from beside Eugene.

Eugene swallows nervously. *just get it over with, like ripping off a bandaid.* He tips the cup up and lets the liquid flow down his throat.

"cough- ack- what the fu- cough- jesus what the hell..." Eugene throws the empty cup on the floor. *holy shit I'm gonna vomit... fuck*

"Yeah the first time always sucks" Pugsley chuckles and rubs Eugenes back.

"Sorry about that I should have stopped you." Pugsley looks impassive but his voice is laced with remorse.

"No I... I kinda liked it, the pain was like... nice? that sounds weird sorry" Eugene shakes his head and adjustes his glasses again.

Pugsley smirks. "no I know exactly what you mean... don't worry... do you want more?"

It's a loaded and dangerous question, Pugsley knows alcohol is dangerous and so does Eugene but... both of them also know that sometimes they need anything at all to quiet the ever present headache that simply existing brings.

Eugene nods, Pugsley hands him a cup full of a clear liquid that smelled worse than whatever Enid had given to him.

Eugene smiles at Pugsley, Pugsley smiles back. they tap their cups together in a silent cheers and swallowed, almost in sync.

*this tastes like water... weird, I thought it was supposed to burn.* Eugene thought.

As Eugene reached the end of his drink he looked over at his friend. Pugsley was already starring at Eugene, for some reason Pugsleys face looked odd, it was almost distorted. those deep, haunting eyes wavered. the edges of his vision were blurred. *what's happening, am I drunk? that's stupid I only had a little... I'm probably fine then* Eugene blinked but when he opened his eyes he was somewhere new, he was, drinking something? *this isn't a cup, what am I doing?* his feet wobbled. *what am I standing on, why am I so off balance?*

more liquid ran down his throat, it felt like pure bliss. he wanted to drown in whatever this was. his mind finally slowed down, nothing felt heavy anymore, in fact he felt like was floating.

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Pugsley stared at Eugene from across the room, he had quickly become something like the life of the party.

Pugsley watched as Eugene chugged a nearly full bottle of alcohol. A small circle formed around him, egging him on. They all chanted for him to keep chugging, and so he did.

Pugsley watched as Eugene drank so much he nearly vomited on one of the girls that came up to talk to him. Alcohol didn't really affect Pugsley, he had developed quite a high tolerance.

After a while of partying with the people who once bullied him, Eugene collapsed outside the bathroom door. Pugsley decided it was finally time to intervene.

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Eugene felt a hand on his shoulder. He looked up to see Pugsley rubbing soft circles into Eugene's back with his callus covered hand. "Do you need to vomit already?" Pugsley asks.

"y-yeah" Eugene's eye twitches and he lets his head fall slightly.

Pugsley gently lifted Eugene and let Eugene lean on his shoulder.

*He's so light...* Pugsley smiles softly, making sure Eugene can't see. "you're lucky we're right next to the bathroom”

"...oh." Eugene hadn't even noticed, he barely knew where he was.*damn I must be drunk as hell… this can't end well, but...*

Pugsley practically dragged Eugene into the bathroom, making sure to lock the door. Eugene pushes himself off Pugsley and makes it all of two steps before collapsing next to the toilet.

Pugsley cringes and mumbles softly. "...sorry."

Eugene looks up, half sick, half confused. "for what?"

"I should have been paying attention stopped you." Pugsley rests his head in his hands as he sinks down to sit next to Eugene on the bathroom floor.

Eugene is practically draped acrods the toilet "...it's fine, it... it felt nice."

Eugene felt bad? Maybe not bad, just slightly remorsefull, yeah that's a good word. He was completely aware of how quickly he was falling into a dependency on alcohol but it didn't matter. He needed an escape, or at least a way to hide his problems away, so no one could see them.

Pugsley nearly melted, he wanted to scream at Eugene and tell him he knew exactly how he felt, even if they self with it differently, ultimately it was all the same; cutting yourself, drowning your sorrows, smoking your lungs out, it doesn't matter what you call it it's all destructive, and it's all oh so perfect to him. "oh"

Eugene suddenly starts projectile vomiting again. mostly, into the toilet. Some splatters on to the side, and a bit lands on Pugsley.

Pugsley stares at the drops of vomit on his shirt and smiles, he adores everything about Eugene, even if it's his vomit Pugsley will have to clean out of clothing or off the floor.

Pugsley shakes away his slightly creepy thoughts before turning back to Eugene. "are you feeling okay?"

Eugene glares at Pugsley. "obviously no- oh fuck." He dry heaves into the toilet again. He loves being drunk, but hates the aftermath.

*I guess the best solution is to just never stop drinking* He laughs softly. His hand slides to his face as he grabs his glasses and throws them on the floor next to himself.

Pugsley quickly snatches them up, placing them with extreme care in his pocket for later. "you probably shouldn't drink again, your gonna be pretty hungover."

"No!" Eugene whips around, the sudden movement making his head throb.

"Ow.. fuck- oh god..." he grabs his head.

"Don't make me stop, I'm not even that sick okay?" As Eugene desperately begs Pugsley looks genuinely worried, something that doesn't often happen.

*I want more alcohol... Maybe I should go back out. hmm no I don't really like any of these people. I need to get my own.* Eugene thought to himself.

Eugene steadied himself on the sides of the toilet bowl, his vision was blurry. It usually wasn't, right?

"I gotta go" Eugene pushed himself to his feet, swaying slightly.

Pugsley looked at Eugene confused. "why? Are you going back out there? you totally have alcohol poisoning, look at yourself!.. Jesus"

Eugene stares at Pugsley "whatever" he mumbled.

Eugene pushed himself out of the bathroom, his head was spinning but he was determined to fuel his desire, and newly added alcoholism. He looked around, everything was still a bit fuzzy but he managed to lock onto someone who looked douchy enough to probably have something Eugene wanted.

Eugene sauntered over to the guy he couldn't recognize. Eugene didn't care all too much about the gender of whoever he was talking to but he wasn't looking for anything resembling love tonight, he was just near desperate for some alcohol.

Eugene smiled at the guy "heyyy how are ya liking the party?" Eugene snakes his arm onto the guy. the guy stares at Eugene's hand and smirks.

"You seem pretty fun, why are you messing with a guy like me?" the jock cocks his head and leans against the wall, putting his hands in his pockets.

 

"Hmmm you look like you have something I might want." Eugene was so much more bold when alcohol was coursing through his body and probably making up a great percentage of his blood stream, so he leaned in closer.

*~~~~~*

Pugsley is stuck staring from across the room again, he watches Eugene and *that sad sack of shit* get a little too close. He shoves his hands into his pockets, his fingers brush over cool glass. *hm I forgot I had these...*

Pugsley sucks in a breath and starts to storm towards Eugene. People fall into his way, he quickly shoves them aside, he's solely focused on Eugene.

Pugsley appears next to Eugene, his eyes look almost soulless but neither Eugene or that *bastard son of a bitch* pay him much mind.

"ahem, Eugene." Pugsley’s eyes bore into Eugene.

"*Hic*- oh hey Pugsley what's up?" Eugene seems so much more relaxed, usually he's stressing out or going crazy, maybe both.

Pugsley shifts from looking at his beloved Eugene to looking at the man he most definitely wants to rip to shreds right now. "your glasses."

Pugsley shoves the glasses into Eugene's hand while still looking at the jock. Pugsley rips his gaze from the man and leans towards Eugene "why the hell are you being so touchy with him? is this cause you want alcohol that fucking badly?"

Eugene glares at Pugsley. "yeah I want alcohol so what, you aren't my mother and you're certainly not my boyfriend so you can't tell me what I can and can't do."

Pugsley looks hurt, he knew they weren't exactly dating per se but he thought Eugene would be more considerate, it was such a small ask... Eugene was just being selfish. *I'll have to fix that later...*

Pugsley stares into Eugene's eyes then promptly turns on his heel and leaves. *if Eugene wants to ruin his life then fine I'll show him, he fucking needs me, I'm always there for him. This is so unfair…*

Pugsley storms back to their dorm, looking around. Everything reeks of Eugene, he needs some quiet.

Pugsley looks towards the bathroom and a smirk spreads across his face. He throws open the door and slams it closed making sure to lock it. He snatches the blade from its hiding spot. Usually he would take his time, savor the pain, cutting was supposed to be a sacred kind of ritual for him, but Pugsley was too angry to think straight. He looks at the small blade he got from his pencil sharpener.

He stares down at the meek blade he had unscrewed from a pencil sharpener years ago. *This isn't won't be enough tonight...* Pugsley sets the blade on the sink and walks back out to the room, he goes to Eugene's desk and grabs a box cutter.

"I don't want to kill myself..." Pugsley mutters.

He walks back to the bathroom and runs the bath, as the tub slowly fills with water Pugsley slowly strips down. He steps into the lukewarm water, blade in hand. The water engulfes him and sloshes out of the sides.

Pugsley drags the blade underwater and stabs it into his thigh. The blood mixes with the water in a beautiful explosion. Pugsley smiled and bit his lip trying not to groan in ecstasy, he glided the blade across his pale skin. The blood blooms in beautiful swirls making it hard to see where he's pointing his blade.

After a few minutes of soaking in his own blood Pugsley stepped out of the bath, small watery droplets of blood still running down his legs, he grabs the gauze under the sink and wraps up his legs tightly before drying himself off and pulling his pj's on. It/Everything feels so soft and cozy god he wishes this is how he felt all the time.

He wipes down any excess blood in the tub and cleans off Eugene's blade before setting it back on his desk. Pugsley walks to his bed and settles into his covers. Today was hard but the... bath had really helped clear his head. *I'll apologize and talk this out with Eug-bee tomorrow.* His eyes blinked shut and he fell into a peaceful sleep.

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The sun rose and morning rays slowly filled Eugene and Pugsley's dorm. Pugsley blinks open his eyes. He looks around for the calming presence of Eugene and sees a mountain of covers on Eugene's bed. Pugsley stands up and walks to Eugene's cozy bed.

"good morning cara mia~" he gently shakes the covers

Eugene wakes up and glares at Pugsley.

"Morning." He says curtly and pushes himself out of bed. Eugene starts to gather what he needs for a normal school day at nevermore. All while Pugsley looks at him like his heart is bleeding out.

Pugsley stares blankly, almost forgetting the previous night's incidents. *Oh right he's mad. god I feel horrible I need to make this right immediately."

Pugsley looks down, defeated "Eugene I'm so sorry about last night... I was drunk and I should have just shut up and let you do what you want.." He looks back at Eugene, the yearning is disgustingly evident but Eugene doesn't budge and continues averting his gaze.

"Eugene... please... I'm so sorry" Pugsley is just about on his knees pleading for Eugene.

Eugene snubs Pugsley and storms out the door. Pugsley stumbles after him, still pulling his arm through his uniform jacket.

"Cara mia, please just tell me what i can do to make this up to you." His eyes are almost watering

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Eugene gnaws on his cheek anxiously like he hadn't eaten in days, and looks back at Pugsley. He wants to stay mad at Pugsley, he really does but some weird impulse inside him wants nothing more than to see just how far Pugsley would ruin himself for Eugene. However his rationality wins and he snaps his head back and continues walking to class.

Unluckily Eugene and Pugsleys share their first and last classes, so as Eugene pushes open the wood door to the science class as Pugsley scampers in after him like a lost puppy.

Eugene looks at Pugsley "don't sit by me." His voice is steady, and far meaner than Pugsley had ever heard before.

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*The only thing eug-bee has said to me all day is "dont sit by me"... Fuck... i didnt even fucking do anything to him!* Pugsley stares at Eugene from across the class. Eugene is still laser focused on the board; he barely even talks to Agnes.

"Uh Pugs?... you good?" Enid waves a hand in front of Pugsley.

Pugsley snaps back to enid "Huh oh.. yeah sorry what were you saying?"

"...Is there a reason you and angels switched today?... Did something happen between you and Eugene?" enid cocks her head at Pugsley, her brows furrowed puzzledly.

Pugsley looks at Enid and nearly breaks into tears as his eye twitches. "...Maybe."

Enid grimaces and pats pugsleys back. "That's rough buddy, relationships are hard..."

Pugsley looks at her for beat. "Thats the worst part we aren't even in a real relationship!" he yells, the action practically subconscious.

The teacher looked at him and Enid "Quiet in the back, please."

Pugsley slaps a hand over his mouth. God he hoped Eugene didn't notice that. *Maybe Agnes was distracting him.* he mentally sobs.

Enid grimaces "Uh, maybe we should talk about this later... in private... wanna come to my dorm later? Wednesday’s gone off, probably getting in trouble." She laughs.

Pugsley looks at her hopefully "Yes please…" he whimpers pleadingly.

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Pugsley knocks on Enid's door and she swings it open excitedly "hi hi, Pugs!" She holds up a tube of nail polish.

She pulls Pugsley into the dorm. "So, pink or black?"