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🎼 𝓢𝓹𝓪𝓻𝓴𝓼 -- 𝒞ℴ𝓁𝒹𝓅𝓁𝒶𝓎
The last 3 years of college were for Y/n L/n the happiest she had ever been. She was finishing her Masters in her dream school, living with her boyfriend of 5 years with whom she could already picture herself at the altar. No really, life was great and she found herself surrounded with people she loved all the time. One of her best friends was even getting married soon in her fiancé's home in Brazil, and all of the friend group was helping her plan it. So when she got that phone call, Y/n couldn't have in a million years thought that anything could have wrong. In fact, she thought her life had just reached a new height of happiness.This was her milestone of the decade. She had landed her dream job as an assistant diplomat in her home embassy. Only one small detail, the future she had dreamed of happened to be miles away, in Argentina, a country she had never been to before.
As soon as she stepped inside, she dropped her keys on the shelf, letting out a big sigh. She checked her watch, it was around 8pm, he should be home already. Suga, short for Sugawara, was her other half in the good and the bad. He was there for her in senior year when she got rejected from her dream school, and stuck by her side until she finally got in 3 years later. She had to tell him, after all he was here for her in all of her other accomplishments, she wanted him to be here for this one as well.
Y/n stepped in deeper in the apartment and could now finally hear the sound of oil sizzling. Sugawara was by the kitchen aisle cooking tonight's dinner when she entered. His face lit up in a smile when he saw her enter.
- "Hey babe, I tried to call as soon as I saw your message. Everything alright ?"
She gave a small nod while taking off her coat.
- "Suga, there's something I need to tell you. Nothing bad so don't freak out ok ? It's good news actually. You remember that job placement I applied for ? "
- "Yeah! That one assistant position right ? I'm so proud of you babe, this is big news! I mean I didn't doubt you for a second."
He turned off the stove, stepping toward her. "Now is probably the time to look at cars right ? With you commuting and stuff... But that's ok let's celebrate first! I was thinking we could check out that one place downtown, they have..."
She cut him off with a small, nervous laugh.
- "Suga... that's not all there is. This position, like the phone call I mean, they want me to move to Argentina. It's pretty normal considering they only had an opening because the previous assistant had another assignment but still. I know it's a lot to take in at once but hey, I'm sure we can still make it work right ? It's gonna be like that time you were in Italy for a semester and..."
She stopped herself in her pace at the sight of the shock on his face.
-"Y/n, I mean... a part of me wants you to go for it, you know? It's all you've ever dreamed of. But as your partner, it's just hard to hear this. And don't compared this to Italy ?! Babe Argentina's like the other side of the world and we're not talking about 6 months, but potentially years. I just... I don't know how this works."
She felt tears rushing to her eyes. She imagined dozens of scenarios on her way here and this was by far way worst. Her voice was raising a little as she was starting to get frustrated.
-"What do you mean? We can't throw away all of this for some stupid distance! We're both adults. We have video calls, flights, everything—we can make it work I'm sure."
He sighed, stepping back and dragging a finger over his brow, eyes avoiding hers.
-"That's just a lot to process right now. I need some time to make a decision. Maybe we need to take a step back. Just for a while. You know, to figure something out and give each other space..."
She started at him, mouth wide open, completely in disbelief of the last few words he had just uttered. Seing the shock on her face, his eyes widened and he tried to correct himself.
-"No, y/n I didn't mean it that way... I just think we should talk about this more and maybe right now is not the moment for that. Maybe after dinner we-.."
-"You're right," she cuts him off. "Now isn't a good time. Let's just...sit down and eat. How was your day ?" The words tasted bitter in her mouth, but she forced them out anyway.
He stared at her then with a small nod answered her question. Dinner went without any other major events and after washing the dishes, they sat down as usual to watch an episode of their favorite sitcom. They had just finished getting ready for bed and as Sugawara was still brushing his teeth, Y/n sat on the edge of the bed wondering what to do now. When he came out of the bathroom, he sat down on the other edge and let out a big sigh. The silence was heavy and awkward, something they haven't experienced in years. She decided to break the tension.
-"About what you said earlier, the break or whatever. I'm not sure how to feel about it. And don't get me wrong, I hate the idea. But I also love you so much and I can't see us breaking up for something this stupid."
-"So you're saying yes ?"
- "What do you mean ? Nothing is final yet." She looked at him visibly confused.
-"I meant Argentina. You're going for sure ?"
-"Suga... I just can't let this opportunity slip away. I would hate myself for it so much you could not even imagine. And you know how much it means to me."
-"Well then I'm not sure what there is to talk about." Hearing those words come out of his mouth made her swallow hard. "Y/n, I love you so much. And I also don't want this to end. But I feel worried about long distance and the challenges it's going to bring. I don't want to break up, but I want to have some space, at least for a month or two I don't know."She didn't know what to say. "When do you need to leave ?"
- "In 3 weeks. My place and everything else is already figured out I just need to give the greenlight." Tears started running down her face, there was nothing holding them back now.
-"Hey, hey don't cry please," he said hugging her tightly. "I don't want you to think I've given up on us Y/n, I just need some time to figure stuff out"
She sniffled hard and mumbled in his neck. "I know, but it stills hurts." The both of them stayed put, enjoying the tight and warm embrace while it lasted.
Sugawara finally got up and headed for the living room. Y/n pulled the covers over herself in silence. He didn't ask to go there. And she didn't stop him. He slept on the couch and she shaked from her uncontrollable sobs on their cold and empty bed. Tonight was supposed to be joyful and yet, she found a way to ruin it. Again.