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    Right now I'm being beaten up by Teru Minamoto, not unusual, but he's being  something else today. I was just doing my usual duties, school, council, clock keeper. It was the last period of the day I was walking down the hall planning to sign some club papers for the day. But then he cornered me before starting to fight. I fought back to my confusion. I understand that I'm snappy and rude to him and sometimes I'm getting what I'm asking for but I didn't do anything today. What's gotten into him? Eventually he gets the upper hand on me and hits me badly causing me to try and fall back. But I should've known he wouldn't give up. He continues to fight me, and it gets harder and harder to block his attacks, which leads to now.

Right now I was panting trying my best to keep myself from passing out. 'Should I run away? No he would just use his beads. Damn it" I think while leaning against a wall 'I can't move, I can't scream, I didn't do anything to him. It hurts.' I look up to see his eyes, almost soulless. 'Why? I can't do anything. Is he finally gonna kill me?.' I think with the pain in my chest hurting my every breath. I bite my lip, almost breaking the skin, while trying to keep my balance. He starts walking slowly to me. I keep my head down, preparing for the next blow. Before I know it I'm kneed in the gut, I cough violently while thinking 'damn it! Why am I being toyed with? I didn't ask for this!' I drop to the floor with my whole body weight, my lip continuing to be bitten starts to tremble 'shit.shit.shit. no don't start to cry god damnit.' I try to get up just to fall on myself hitting the cold floor again. 'I didn't ask what I am. I didn't know what it was gonna be like to be a supernatural..' I move my arms achingly to cover up my head. 'I hate this..' my body starts trembling more and more. I bite my lip harder trying my best not to cry. Teru walks towards me once again "aoi." He says coldly, almost distant, 'I hate that voice.' I think yet it still makes my whole body shake. "Get up." He continues, I say nothing. 'I know if I respond my voice will crack. I'd rather die, I'm gonna die to this man aren't I?' I think. He steps on my hand harshly, I bite my lip slightly breaking the skin causing my lip to bleed lightly. Some tears start to well up in my eyes 'shit.' I think "aoi. get up." He says rubbing the heel of the shoe into my hand. 'Stop it, I hate this.' I think but keep quiet. Yet tears start to flow down. All of a sudden he yanks me by the arm 'it's hurts..' I keep my head lowered for him not to see the tears in my eyes 'I hate his touch.' I think before he says "What happened to being strong? You're weak. Always trying to impress Aoi-Chan to no avail, you do so much yet can't ever satisfy people, Aoi Just how long are you planning on being useless?" That was the last straw. My wall of held back tears came flooding out. 'I hate his touch.' "Hick..hick.." Minamoto raises an eyebrow, he tries to get me to lead my head to his direction with his hand on my chin, but I refuse to let him see any more than what he already has. 'I'm done.' I think. Then he grabs my face with his hand forcing me to face him. I see his eyes, they're as cold as ever yet a little different I can't and don't care to place. 'I hate his eyes.' I think while trying to get my tears to stop, they won't. Minamoto's eyes widened to the sight of the constantly tough and persistent Aoi Akane, with puffy eyes, a slightly bled lip and a flush and wet face. And most of all crying. He was crying. no, sobbing, pitifully. I looked away as much as I could with my eyes to refuse anymore eye contact. "Sniff,.. stop.." I whisper for some reason almost like I was scared.

'I was scared wasn't I? God I'm so pathetic' I think. "What?" Minamoto replies trying to process the tears in the other boys eyes. I shut my eyes before facing him with eyes once again, eyes still watery, eyebrows knitted together tightly yet still trembling. "Just stop." I say voice gentle but firm like a plea "please..?" My voice cracks while my expression softens. 'Why? Why?! I didn't ask for me to be this way? Why?..' I think as Minamoto's eyes widen even more if possible, "Akane" he says with a voice I can't describe, I squish my eyes closed and pull away as much I can with his hand still on my face and arm. 'I hate this, I hate him!' I say as I brace for pain of another punch or kick, with tears starting to gush out once again. Suddenly his hold loosens I pull back immediately and shoot my eyes open as I hit the ground once again. I hurriedly scoot myself away from him until I hit the school hallway wall. He walks closer, slowly, almost like a hunter and its prey. 'God I feel weak' I can't meet his eyes too afraid to see what expression he will make this time. I shiver before closing my eyes once again tears falling down like rain from a cloud. 'I hate this, you think I wanted this? No! I. I just wanted to be able to love another day. You think I wanted to be a supernatural? To be hurt and forced with every constant pressure? I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.' I think bringing my hands to my face trying to wipe away the tears that never seem to end. "Akane aoi.." he whispers, I shiver at it. 'Oh no.' I think. I don't bother trying to prepare for any pain or hit coming my way all to fed up and tired of it. But instead I feel warm, Minamoto kneeled to the floor, his arms around me his face nestled to my neck. My eyes widen, my tears stop. Frozen in place. He whispers "Akane, I'm sorry.." so gently if he wasn't so close I wouldn't be able to hear it. My body stiffens. "What?.." I respond 'did I hear that right?..' I think, he repeats again a little more clear still holding onto me his breath on my ear. "I'm sorry Akane, I've hurt you so bad." He tightens his grip a little it almost hurts, yet all I think is 'he said it. Really? He said it after all this time? After all this pain? Sorry?' I can't tell if it makes me happy or mad. 'I hate it. I hate him damn it.' I take a breath before starting with little to no voice.  "I hate you."

"What?" He responds curiously with slight worry. My face, which was finally dry, starts to gain a wet friend as I start to tear up again. A single tear runs down my face and I scream "I HATE YOU!" Clenching his shirt tight. "i hate you! I hate you! I hate you!" I scream I yell tears falling down one by one continuously, "you think I wanted to become a supernatural?! You think I like supernaturals?! I hate them! I hate you!" I cry out louder, removing my hands from his shirt to slam my fists into his chest repeatedly, weakly but still enough to make a soft thump. "I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you!" I say matching each hit to his chest which was growing weaker. My tears never stopped, if not getting worse, " I hate!-" I stop inhaling shakily. I sigh, with a few more tears running down my now glossy skin. "Myself.." I say stopping mid hit. 'I give up..' I think putting my head on his chest where I once was hitting non stop on. 'What do I get from hating anymore?..' I think. He slowly tightens his hold on me. 'He's warm..' I think to myself while subconsciously leaning into it, not caring about how Teru gets warmer by the movement. I then released a breath I didn't know I was holding with more choking sobs. We sit there for a few minutes with him tracing circles on my back, trying to smooth my heavy breathing, till I start to speak once again "I hate." I breathe in trying to keep myself from starting to cry again before continuing. "I hate myself for not being able to hate you.." I bit my lip, which was puffy and had a small amount of blood on it from past biting, face probably flush like a tomato. I was so frustrated. 'Damn it..I hate him!' I think while contradicting myself with the blush on my face. 'Right?..' The president who was continuing the soft circles along my back was now being stopped, frozen mid circle, before his hands fell off of my back. I shivered at the loss of warmth and comfort but pushed it to the back of my mind. 'God, how did I get here? I'm pathetic.' I chuckle at the thought, even though my voice was horse and my whole body is somehow having the strength to still tremble.

I sigh 'have I done anything useful in my life?' I think, remembering what Teru had said. 'Aoi will never love me let alone acknowledge me. That's my fault, I keep pushing her to accept my feelings, pitiful. My grades are futile, people always want something from me, that's my fault for trying to be something great, stupid. I can't even do anything. I'm never strong enough to protect people, that's my fault as well for thinking I could help others as I already am, weak. Now crying to the one who's inflicted the most harm on you. Helpless.'  Then it snapped in my head. I tilt my head up to see the other's face which was still looking like paused in time, eyes wide but also with a wide abyss of blue in them. A few strangled tears filled with numb emotion slip down my face, I try to wipe them off even though I really pay no mind to what my face may look like. I start to say "you were right, president. I am pretty useless." I say with a painful smile "but that's not your priority anymore." His face grimaces but I pay no attention, trying to reach for his sword. "because we can end this right here." I say shakily. 'It would be better if someone else had this job, it would be better if I wasn't here.' I think before gripping the sword out of its sheath. Teru who was still frozen still had started shaking at a loss for words, I handed him his sword. "Don't pity me." I say while making him close his hands around the sword, "don't say sorry." I looked back up at him who was looking with something in his eyes I couldn't tell. He whispers with a low voice,"what are you on about?" I look at him with a bit of surprise, I gulp, then speak trying to sound cheerful as possible even though it was a facade "i know you hate supernaturals! And you've been wanting to end the seven school mysteries, well I'm turning myself in! I.." I couldn't finish the sentence 'I hate myself,' and 'I don't want to exist' or even say 'I'm tired' so I just continue by moving his hands with the sword to my neck, I put just enough pressure on it to slightly bleed, to which the student council president next to me swallowed. eyes probably dry from the refraining of blinking. I opened my eyes 'when were they closed?' I think to myself. "How about we just do ourselves a favor? Yeah?" I say, 'I'm scared, I should be scared. Is this really the end of me? I really am pathetic.' I think while keeping my hands on the dull end of the blade to push onto my neck more, it bleeds a crimson red. 'It hurts, was I always so weak? Was I always so full of myself? Geez' I chuckle before flinching in pain from the blade. I squeezed my eyes once again, more tears running down my cheeks but before I could push the blade any further.

It got pulled back, my eyes shot open and moved just in time to see the sword fly across the hall with a "clank" . I quickly look back to see Teru trembling slightly, now my eyes are widening 'what's happening? I thought he wanted me dead? He hates supernaturals.' I think rapidly, not even really thinking before trying to say "hey! What are you doing?!-" I stop, for a split second I see Minamoto's eyes, slightly watery. But by the time I saw a glimpse my eyes were shut by my face getting held by rough but soft, scared hands and the impact of lips on mine, "nmh" I muffle with the lips still on me. 'WHATS GOING ON?! And gosh it's so weird how all my worries and pain went away! God..' I think with a freshly flushed face but for other reasons. I squirm a little trying to get out of whatever this was only to get pinned with one of his hands now on my hips. I eventually give in, maybe a little too easily. He pulled away for a breath, but just as fast as he pulled away he was back on my lips once more but with a little more confidence, he suddenly kitten-licked my bottom lip. I shiver. My brain was a little fuzzy. 'What's gotten into him?..what's he want.?' I think. I assume I was taking too long to give him whatever he wanted because next thing I know he lightly bit my bottom lip where he once had licked, "mn!" I yelp opening my mouth just enough for his tongue to enter my mouth, slowly rolling, tasting every part of the inside of my mouth, I lean into it with a low "hm" while he tilts his head to deepen the kiss. His hands which were on my waist goes to my thighs, slightly rubbing them soothingly. My heart won't stop beating and my body is burning with a burning hot feeling but it doesn't hurt. It's good. Really good. 'What's happening?..what's happening to me?..' I think but it barely registers in my head from the haziness. The kiss continues with our tongues exploring every inch of each other's mouths. I move my legs so I'm almost in his lap with my arms around his neck so our chests are touching while he steadily keeps his hands on my thighs. 'Why is this happening?' I think when we break for breath once again but this time he starts with my neck licking it and peppering small kisses on it that almost tickled, I didn't say anything too much of a mess to retort any complaint or comment on it. He then nips near my collarbone causing me to make a small noise "ngh" which causes him to go back to our kiss before tightening his grip on my thighs causing me to groan into the kiss.

This continues until we finally stop for air. I wanted to whine a little at the loss of touch though I never showed it. I at last got some of my conscience back, still breathing heavily. It was all we could hear, but if you listen just hard enough you could also hear the beating of our hearts. 'Our hearts?.' I think while my panting slows a tiny bit. His heart beat was just as fast as mine if not faster and I don't think it was just the lack of oxygen. I look up at him, half lidded eyes and a little bit of sweat paints his beautiful face. 'Beautiful?' I think. He removes his hands from my thighs for a hug closing any remaining distance between us. My heart feels like it leaps through the air. 'Oh' I think as my breath catches in my throat, even though I am still panting. 'I love him' It finally clicks and I can't help but smile a bit at it even though it makes me feel a little silly blushing with no shame at it at the moment. He eventually loosens the hug putting his hands back on my hips. To place a quick kiss on my lips before putting his forehead on mine. 'god I'm a mess' I think before he says "hah,.. never.. say that again.." he speaks in parts trying to sound as cold as possible but I find no bite to it, almost pleading. I can't help but nod at his almost pitiful face. 'I don't think I've ever seen him look like that.' I think. 'I might hold that over him someday in the future, even though he has plenty to use against me,' I chuckle a little, foreheads still touching. He looks into my eyes with a confused look, "what?" I immediately stop my giggling a little to respond, "nothing." He sighs with a smile but it turns sullen looking down at one of his hands, taking it off my hip to hold my hand which I apply the same care into holding his. "I'm sorry Akane, I really am." He says before looking up with a smile almost sheepish. "I'm pretty scary, aren't I?" He says it like a joke. I removed my forehead from his to flick his forehead with my hand that wasn't being held at the moment. "Damn right you're scary." I say with a stern tone, which just receives a sad puppy eyes look. I gave him a blank unamused look in return but I couldn't hide the slightest faintest blush on my face forcing me to look away which of course the president took as a win, starting to smile giddily, 'Don't look at me like that, you angelic tyrant!' I huff a sigh, before forming a soft smile looking back with my eyes while keeping my head in the same position, which he reciprocates with a light kiss on my cheek. 'My heart feels on fire, this is nothing compared to what I felt with aoi. My pains they're, they're just gone, I don't know when they'll come back but I hope he's by my side' I think the I start to speak "hey Teru-" we get cut off by the sound of the last bell telling everyone the schools are about to lock up for the day.

We sit in comfortable silence before Minamoto speaks, breaking it. "We should get home." He gets up and starts to go for his tossed weapon from earlier "yea we should." I respond trying to get up only to feel a spike of pain come through every nerve in my body "oww.." I say under my breath, doing my best to keep my balance. 'I forgot about everything, damn it Minamoto Teru.' I think, then I hear footsteps already knowing who it is, I look up to see the president's almost pitiful face just for it to quickly change back to normal. "I'm fine! Jeez! Who do you take me for-" Teru curiously pokes my stomach where he kneed me in the gut earlier. I hunch over in pain "ah fu-" but my words get cut off by the feeling of my feet not being on the ground anymore, I open my eyes which were previously closed with the pain I was hit with. "hhhuuuUUUHHH?!" I was now being carried bridle style by none other than president Minamoto himself. 'What has gotten into him?! Has he not embarrassed me enough? Gosh.' I think huffing and trying to get him to let me down which only results in him tightening the grip without hurting me, "how long are you going to do this anyway? We walk different ways," I speak while crossing my arms, ultimately giving up on escaping. He ponders the question before saying "you're going to my house!" He smiles at me continuing to walk down the hall turning when necessary. 'Huh?' I think absentmindedly in astonishment. My face goes blank before giving him to most 'are you serious?' Look I could give. "what? Why??? What would your brother think? I know he's nice but I'm not sure I'm exactly welcome" I say trying to get out of whatever the other teen was thinking. 'I know I've been there before but never with some alternative motive.'
I think. This causes me to swallow though there was nothing to gulp down but the nervousness of whatever Minamoto may be thinking in that stupid head of his. He takes the silence to elaborate with a calm tone "do you really want to go home to your family, with a bunch of wounds on your body? Plus Kou said that he was making stew tonight!" He smiles at me continuing to walk down the stairs almost at the end of them. I wonder 'what's his alternative motive behind this?..' I tried to rack my head but I was too light headed by the fight, blood loss, and umm emotional stuff to think of anything but the stew he talked about. He started to chuckle to which I rolled my eyes furrowing my brows and turned my head away from him a little, which meant really. embarrassed. 'I swear if I was drooling.' Suddenly I hear the faintest sound.

"Chu" I feel a faint brush of soft lips on my left cheek. A pink blush covers me head to toe probably making it look as though steam were coming out from atop my head. I rapidly turn my head about to give him a stern talking to about surprising me like this but all I see is cold blue eyes, a faint blush and a sheepish smile that caused him to squish his eyes a little. 'Oh boy, what am I gonna do with him?' I sigh before giving him the same treatment of a kiss on his forehead to which his face turns to surprise then back to his annoying ass smile again. I huff turning my head again, seeing that we had reached the lockers. he sets me down on a bench to grab our shoes, he puts his on before handing me mine. I put them on before trying to quickly get up and walk away to avoid having to be carried the whole way in case he was planning to pick me up again. "Eep-" I didn't walk in time because next thing I know I'm pulled back by the back of my uniform collar. "Where do you think you're going?" He says with a deadly cold voice. I shiver. 'Shit shit shit' I think. "Huh? Oh yea! Sorry I forgot! Heheh.." I say trying my best to sound like I didn't remember. "Mhm." He says smiling but with no real warmth. But he eventually lets go of my collar, before picking me up once more. I sigh, 'whew I'm gonna live' I think. He continues to carry me out. We, more like I, ignore the few stares we get from passers by. 'So much happened in such a short time.' I think before saying the next part out loud. "Scary" I say under my breath before chuckling. He turns his head tilting it like a puppy, "what?" I just smile softly, quieting down on my giggling, he eventually gives up on asking, and he walks while carrying me in his arms. 'It's scary you know?' I think. putting my hand to my chest. 'How much I seem to hate,' I stop what I was thinking, looking up to a preoccupied man before continuing, 'how I can't hate you.' I close my eyes and just for a moment I lean into the warmth surrounding me. 'I'm gonna regret this in the morning aren't I?'

I wake up to the sound of birds tweeting and the feeling of arms around me and the pain spiraling throughout my body. I groan and try to get up to rub the sleepiness out of my eyes, "mhm..?!" I suddenly get pulled back down, my brain now on full alert, shooting adrenaline through my still sore body. I look around to see none other than Minamoto asleep like, sleeping beauty herself. My mind goes blank for a second short circuiting, 'what's he doing in my bed?! Wait, this isn't my bed!' Then I remembered everything. The adrenaline spiked down. 'Ugh how did I let myself get into this position?' I think, annoyed but really just still waking up. I look back at Teru who sleeps, snoring slightly, peacefully. Really peaceful. I looked around although I knew no one was there, I leaned into his touch, putting my face to his chest, which was firm but soft and warm. I start to dose off again, before feeling someone play with my hair. 'It feels good.' I close my eyes, slightly humming into the touch. 'Wait he's awake?' My eyes shoot open and I look up "when did you wake up?.." I say. He looks at me thinking before smiling and says "an hour ago. My brain short circuits before causing me to blush. "You Baka!" I push myself off of him to which he whines, "akaneee." He try's pulling me down to which I resist but he has the upper hand, "nooo!" I say trying to escape, eventually getting pulled down into a hug. "Dont leave, it's still morning." He says while tightening his grip, "no! It's time to get up!" I respond struggling but giving in with the exhaustion sinking in. "Akane's so cute." Minamoto mumbles, "what?" I say annoyed. Instead of responding he just beams into a smile. It blinds me "ugh." I close my eyes. And though I couldn't see it I feel as though the president's eyes soften just like his tone. "Hey aka-" he started but was interrupted by the knock on the door outside "hey Nii-San! Aoi senpai! Breakfast is ready." Terus younger brother say cheerfully."Ok! We'll come out in just a second!" Minamoto responds sweetly though being so close I could tell his annoyment. We get up and start towards the door. I steal a glance or two from the guy next to me who seemed a little irritated, I sigh before saying "pres." he stops his light glare towards nothing but air, to look at me, i use my finger to signal him to get closer, he does so and I give him a light kiss on the lips. His eyes widen and his face turn bright pink before turning into a small smile. We go back to walking but now we're holding hands and he's ranting about everything and anything, 'hm it's not so bad.' I think while he opens the door to the dinner room, my heart feels different, light. 'Not bad at all.'

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