Chapter 1: Cage and Iron Will
Notes:
The following (still non-existent) chapters are to be uploaded once I’m almost done with Contractual Obligations. For now, here is chapter 1. Treat this as a prologue lol
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The air in the Wu Kingdom’s central palace was thick with the cloying scent of peonies and honeyed wine, a perfume designed to mask the scent of decay that Prince Chi Cheng could smell in every carved eave and painted pillar.
He stood, a statue of obsidian in a sea of gaudy silks, his posture rigidly correct, his face a mask of impassive courtesy.
To the courtiers swirling around him, he was merely Chi Cheng, a newly appointed personal knight to the imperial family, a man of modest background but impressive martial bearing who had caught the Emperor’s eye.
They saw a handsome, coldly efficient weapon. They did not see the ghost of a prince, the last scion of a kingdom they had ground into dust.
His kingdom, the Chi, had not been wealthy or vast, but it had been proud. Nestled in the northern mountains, its people were hardy, its warriors renowned.
He remembered the banners of the Chi serpent snapping in the crisp, thin air. He remembered his father’s laugh, a sound like rolling thunder, and his mother’s gentle hands, teaching him the strategic principles of Go on a board of polished jade.
That memory was always followed by others.
The smell of smoke, thick and black, blotting out the sun. The screams that were not of battle, but of slaughter. The Wu armies, under the command of the old Emperor—Wu Suowei’s grandfather—had not come for conquest alone. They had come for eradication.
The Chi were declared rebellious, their independence an insult to the Wu hegemony. The mountains ran red, the phoenix banner was burned, and the royal palace was put to the torch. Chi Cheng, a boy of fourteen, had been smuggled out by a loyal guard, his own clothes swapped with those of a dead servant boy.
He had watched from a hidden crevice in the rocks as his father’s head was mounted on a pike.
The guard, Old Man Huan, had gotten him to a distant, sympathetic relative, and then he too had died, from wounds and grief. Chi Cheng’s life since had been a single, focused purpose: revenge.
For years, he had trained his body into a perfect weapon. He had studied strategy, economics, and the bitter art of patience. He had gathered allies in the shadows, the disaffected and the wronged, building a network of whispers and blades.
His most trusted, Guo Chengyu, was a master of charm and infiltration, a fox who could talk his way into any court and learn any secret.
But how to exact his revenge?
A direct assault was suicide. The Wu military was too vast. Assassination of the Emperor was possible, but it would be a pinprick. The old tyrant would die, another would take his place, and the Wu Kingdom would continue, its foundations unshaken.
No, Chi Cheng wanted what they had taken from him. He wanted their legacy erased. He wanted their bloodline ended. He wanted them to feel the same utter, hopeless desolation that had been his constant companion for over a decade.
The answer came in the form of court gossip, whispered between bored ladies-in-waiting.
“Have you seen the Young Prince today? He broke another vase in the western pavilion in a fit of pique.”
“Oh, His Highness Wu Suowei? Such a temper. But the Emperor dotes on him so, he’ll just have another, more expensive one brought in.”
“He’s so beautiful, though. It’s hard to stay cross with him for long. Like a spoiled kitten.”
“A kitten with very sharp claws. Did you hear he dismissed his entire personal guard yesterday? Said their uniforms were ‘aesthetically offensive’.”
Wu Suowei. The beloved grandson. The apple of the old Emperor’s eye. The heir to the very throne built upon the bones of Chi Cheng’s family.
A plan, cold and cruel in its perfection, began to form in Chi Cheng’s mind.
He would not attack the fortress walls; he would poison the well within. He would target the heart of the Wu family’s affection. He would become Wu Suowei’s most loyal knight, his closest confidant. He would make this spoiled, bratty prince fall in love with him.
And through that love, he would gain access to every secret, every weakness. He would learn the layout of the palace, the schedules of the guards, the political vulnerabilities. He would use Suowei’s affection as a key to unlock the kingdom’s doom.
And when the time was right, when the Wu family was at its most vulnerable, he would reveal his true self and watch the light die in Suowei’s eyes before he delivered the final blow.
It was a despicable plan. It made his skin crawl. But the ghost of his father, the memory of his mother’s still form, demanded it. Hatred was a stronger master than morality.
Guo Chengyu, ever the pragmatist, had merely raised an eyebrow when Chi Cheng laid out the scheme. They were in a sparse room in the capital’s outer ring, the sounds of the bustling city a stark contrast to the silence between them.
“So, you’ll seduce the little prince?” Guo Chengyu had said, a sly smile playing on his lips. “A bold strategy. I’ve heard he’s… spirited. And notoriously difficult to please.”
“I do not need to please him,” Chi Cheng had replied, his voice like ice. “I need to own him.”
“And what of the prince’s shadow? The one they call Jiang Xiaoshuai? He’s said to be observant. Smart. Not one to be charmed by a pretty uniform.”
“That,” Chi Cheng had said, fixing his friend with a look, “is where you come in. Distract him. Befriend him. Learn what he knows. Ensure he sees nothing he shouldn’t.”
A glint of interest had sparked in Guo Chengyu’s eyes. “Jiang Xiaoshuai… I’ve seen him. He has a clever face. It could be an entertaining challenge.”
And so, the stage was set. Through a series of carefully orchestrated events—a foiled “robbery” in a market street that the prince just happened to be traversing, a stunning display of martial prowess during a palace tournament—Chi Cheng had placed himself directly in the Wu Emperor’s line of sight.
The old man, impressed by the young knight’s cold efficiency and apparent lack of political ambition, had deemed him the perfect candidate to manage his unruly grandson’s security.
Which was how Chi Cheng found himself on this particular morning, standing outside the ornate doors to Prince Wu Suowei’s personal chambers, the Rising Sun Pavilion.
He took a slow, measured breath, burying the seething hatred under a layer of glacial calm. He was no longer Prince Chi Cheng of a fallen kingdom. He was Knight Chi Cheng, a servant. For now.
He knocked, the sound firm and respectful.
A moment of silence, then a petulant voice from within. “Enter! And if you’re the new maid with the jasmine tea, it had better not be steeped a second too long this time!”
Chi Cheng pushed the door open and stepped inside.
The room was a testament to excessive privilege. Sunlight streamed through latticed windows, glinting off gold leaf and mother-of-pearl inlay. Silks of every color were draped over furniture, and precious artifacts from across the empire cluttered every surface. It was beautiful, in a chaotic, overwhelming way.
And in the center of it all, lounging on a divan like a disgruntled deity, was Wu Suowei.
He was, as the gossip had claimed, breathtakingly beautiful. His features were delicate yet sharp, with large, luminous eyes that currently held a stormy expression. His lips were full and currently set in a pout. He was dressed in layers of fine, sky-blue silk, his hair styled intricately and held with jade pins. He looked like a painting come to life, a creature of pure, untouchable elegance.
And he was currently glaring at a small, shattered porcelain cup on the floor.
“You,” Suowei said, not even looking at Chi Cheng properly. “You’re the new one, aren’t you? The one Grandfather says is so impressive.” His tone was dripping with disdain. “Well, don’t just stand there. This mess is offending me. Have it cleaned up.”
Chi Cheng felt a spike of pure, unadulterated contempt. This was the symbol of his enemy’s line. This spoiled, selfish child who worried about the steeping time of his tea while the blood of thousands stained his family’s hands.
It took every ounce of his willpower not to backhand the prince across the room.
Instead, he bowed, a precise, shallow movement. “As Your Highness commands.”
He did not call for a servant. He walked to a side cabinet, found a brush and pan, and knelt. He began to sweep the shards with a methodical, unhurried grace. He could feel Suowei’s eyes on him, the prince’s petulance shifting to curiosity. This was not the reaction he was used to. Most new guards would stammer, or rush, or call frantically for a maid.
This man was… quiet. Unnervingly so.
“You’re not very talkative,” Suowei observed, swinging his legs off the divan and walking over. He stopped a few feet away, looking down at Chi Cheng’s kneeling form.
“My duty is to protect and serve, Your Highness, not to provide conversation,” Chi Cheng replied, his voice level, not looking up from his task.
“How boring.” Suowei circled him slowly. “What’s your name?”
“Chi Cheng.”
“Chi Cheng,” Suowei repeated, testing the name on his tongue. “A strong name. It doesn’t suit you. You look more like a ‘Feng’ or a ‘Li’ to me. Something prettier.”
Chi Cheng’s jaw tightened imperceptibly. This was the game. The brat testing his boundaries, trying to provoke a reaction. He remained silent, finishing his task and standing to dispose of the shards.
“I’ve decided I don’t like you,” Suowei announced, planting his hands on his hips. “You’re too stiff. And your eyes are too cold. You look at me like I’m a problem to be solved, not a prince to be adored.”
For the first time, Chi Cheng lifted his gaze and met Suowei’s eyes directly. The prince’s were a warm brown, flecked with gold. They were far more expressive than he had anticipated, holding not just petulance, but a quick, sharp intelligence. It was a disconcerting discovery.
“Adoration is not part of my training regimen, Your Highness,” Chi Cheng said, his tone perfectly neutral. “Vigilance is. Your safety is my only concern.”
Suowei blinked, seemingly taken aback by the directness. A faint flush touched his cheeks, whether from anger or something else, Chi Cheng couldn’t tell.
“My safety,” Suowei scoffed, turning away and flouncing back to his divan. “I’m perfectly safe. This is the most heavily guarded palace in the world. Your presence is redundant. You’re just one of Grandfather’s attempts to control me.”
“Then it seems we are both burdened with duties we did not choose,” Chi Cheng said, the words slipping out before he could stop them. It was a risk, a hint of a personality beneath the knightly facade.
Suowei turned his head, looking at Chi Cheng over his shoulder. The storm in his eyes had cleared, replaced by a flicker of genuine curiosity. “Oh? And what duty did you choose, Knight Chi Cheng?”
To see your family in ruins. The thought was a venomous whisper in his mind.
“To serve the empire to the best of my ability,” Chi Cheng answered smoothly. “This posting is an honor.”
Suowei studied him for a long moment, then sighed dramatically, the tension leaving his shoulders. “Fine. You can stay. For now. But if you bore me, I’ll have you reassigned to latrine duty. Understood?”
A faint, almost imperceptible smile touched Chi Cheng’s lips. It was a calculated expression, designed to be just elusive enough to be intriguing. “I will endeavor to be… less boring, Your Highness.”
The rest of the day was a masterclass in patience and observation. Chi Cheng followed Suowei at a respectful distance as the prince went about his routine.
He attended a tedious poetry recital where Suowei fidgeted relentlessly and made sarcastic comments under his breath. He accompanied him to a luncheon with his mother, the gentle Consort Zhang Li Ya, who clearly adored her son but seemed weary.
Chi Cheng noted the way Suowei’s brattiness melted away around his mother, replaced by a softer, more genuine affection. It was a vulnerability he filed away for later use.
He also met Jiang Xiaoshuai. The prince’s best friend was exactly as Guo Chengyu had described: observant and smart. He had sharp, watchful eyes that missed nothing, and he greeted Chi Cheng with a polite but probing curiosity.
“A new knight,” Jiang Xiaoshuai had said, his tone light but his gaze intense. “His Highness goes through them so quickly. What makes you think you’ll last, Sir Chi?”
“I am difficult to dismiss,” Chi Cheng had replied, meeting his gaze steadily.
“I can see that,” Jiang Xiaoshuai had murmured, a thoughtful look on his face.
The true test came in the afternoon. Suowei, restless and bored, decided to go hawking in the imperial hunting grounds. It was a sport Chi Cheng was intimately familiar with; he had flown hawks in the northern mountains as a boy. He remained silent as the handlers brought out the prince’s favorite bird, a magnificent Northern Goshawk. Suowei, for all his posturing, clearly had a bond with the creature, stroking its feathers with a surprising tenderness.
The hunt began, and the goshawk took to the skies.
For a while, all was well. The bird was skilled, diving after pheasants with lethal grace. But then, a sudden, freak gust of wind from the mountains threw the hawk off course. It veered wildly, its line tangling in the high branches of an ancient pine tree at the edge of the forest.
It let out a series of distressed shrieks, flapping wildly, trapped.
Suowei’s face, which had been alight with excitement, crumpled into genuine panic. “Xiao Feng!” he cried out, the bird’s name. “He’s stuck! Someone get him down!”
The handlers and other guards looked nervously at the tree. It was tall, the branches thin and precarious. A fall from that height could be fatal.
“Your Highness, it’s too dangerous,” one of the older guards said. “We will send for a climber from the city.”
“By the time they get here, he could be strangled or break a wing!” Suowei’s voice was tight with fear and frustration. He looked genuinely distraught, his earlier brattiness completely forgotten. This was not a prince angry about a broken vase; this was someone terrified for a creature he loved.
Chi Cheng saw his opportunity. A calculated risk, a display of competence and apparent selflessness.
“I will retrieve him, Your Highness,” he said, stepping forward.
Suowei whirled around, his eyes wide. “You? Can you climb?”
“I can,” Chi Cheng said simply. He stripped off his outer tunic and sword, handing them to a stunned guard. In his simple undershirt and trousers, he approached the tree. It was a type of pine common in the north, its bark familiar under his fingers. For a moment, he was a boy again, climbing the trees around his lost home.
He moved with a fluid, powerful grace, his muscles coiling and releasing as he ascended. He didn’t rush, testing each branch before putting his full weight on it. He could hear the murmurs from below, Suowei’s frantic, “Be careful!” ringing clearly above the rest.
He reached the bird, which was flapping in a panic. He spoke to it in a low, calm voice, the same tone he’d used with his own hawks years ago. “Easy now. Easy.” His hands were sure and gentle as he worked to untangle the leather jesses from the snagging branches. The goshawk, perhaps soothed by his tone, stilled its frantic movements. After a tense minute, it was free.
Chi Cheng carefully placed the bird on his leather-guarded forearm and began the slow, careful descent. When his feet finally touched the ground, a collective sigh of relief went through the party.
Suowei rushed forward, his face pale. He didn’t even look at Chi Cheng; his eyes were only for the bird. He took Xiao Feng onto his own arm, checking him over with frantic, gentle hands.
“He’s alright,” Chi Cheng said, his voice slightly breathless from the exertion. “Just frightened.”
Only then did Suowei look up at him. The fear in his eyes had been replaced by something else entirely: a dawning, profound gratitude. The haughty prince was gone, and in his place was a young man, vulnerable and relieved. His gaze swept over Chi Cheng, taking in his disheveled state, the pine sap on his hands, the sheen of sweat on his brow.
“You…” Suowei’s voice was soft, almost a whisper. “You saved him.”
“I performed my duty, Your Highness,” Chi Cheng replied, his tone carefully modulated to sound humble. He bowed his head.
“No,” Suowei said, his voice gaining strength. He took a step closer. “That was more than duty. That was… that was bravery.” He reached out, and before Chi Cheng could react, he used the sleeve of his own priceless silk robe to wipe a smudge of dirt from Chi Cheng’s cheek.
The gesture was intimate, shockingly so. The touch of the silk was soft, but it felt like a brand. Chi Cheng’s breath hitched. He had to force himself not to flinch away from the hand of his enemy. He held himself perfectly still, meeting Suowei’s gaze.
The prince’s eyes were wide, the gold flecks in them seeming to glow in the afternoon light. There was an openness there, a trust that was being offered so freely, so foolishly.
In that moment, the plan felt more real, and more vile, than ever before. He was a serpent, coiling himself around this golden, unsuspecting bird.
“Thank you, Chi Cheng,” Suowei said, his name on the prince’s lips sounding like a caress.
Chi Cheng bowed again, deeper this time, to hide the conflict that must surely be showing in his eyes. “There is no need for thanks, Your Highness.”
As they rode back to the palace, the atmosphere had shifted. Suowei was quieter, more thoughtful. He kept glancing at Chi Cheng, a small, unreadable smile playing on his lips. The wall of petulant hostility had been breached.
That evening, as Chi Cheng stood guard outside Suowei’s chambers, the prince did not dismiss him immediately. He stood in the doorway, bathed in the soft light of the lanterns within.
“Knight Chi Cheng,” he said, his voice no longer bratty, but contemplative. “I’ve decided I was wrong. I do like you. You may stay.”
“I am honored, Your Highness,” Chi Cheng said, his voice a low rumble.
Suowei smiled, a genuine, breathtaking smile that transformed his entire face. It was a smile that could launch ships and topple kingdoms. It was a smile that, for a terrifying second, made Chi Cheng’s cold, calculated heart stutter in his chest.
“Good,” Suowei said softly. “Then from now on, you will be my knight.”
He closed the door, leaving Chi Cheng alone in the torch-lit corridor. The silence echoed around him. The first part of his plan had been a resounding success. He had gained the prince’s favor. He had planted the first seed.
So why did he feel a chill that had nothing to do with the night air? Why did the image of Suowei’s grateful, trusting eyes haunt him more than the ghosts of his past?
He looked down at his hands, the hands that had comforted the enemy’s hawk and that would one day wield the blade that ended the enemy’s line. He clenched them into fists, the knuckles white.
It is for Chi, he told himself, the old mantra a shield against the unwelcome feelings. It is all for Chi.
But as he stood his watch, the shield felt thinner, more fragile, than it ever had before. The game had begun, and he was no longer sure who was the hunter, and who was truly being ensnared.
Chapter 2: Cracks in Mask
Notes:
Who am I kidding? I can’t sit still.
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The days following the incident with the goshawk settled into a new, precarious rhythm. The invisible barrier of princely disdain that Wu Suowei had erected around himself now had a deliberate crack in it, and through that crack, he focused a disconcerting amount of his attention on Chi Cheng.
He was no longer merely the bratty prince issuing commands. He was a curious, capricious force, and Chi Cheng was his new subject of study. The initial, impulsive gratitude had cooled into a more sustained, probing interest.
“Tell me about the northern mountains,” Suowei demanded one afternoon. He was practicing calligraphy, his brush moving with a lazy, unpracticed grace that still produced elegantly formed characters. Chi Cheng stood at his post by the door, a statue of vigilance.
“The mountains are high, Your Highness, and the air is cold,” Chi Cheng replied, his voice devoid of inflection. “The pines are sturdy, and the hawks fly higher than anywhere else.”
Suowei made a sound of frustration, dropping his brush. The ink splattered, ruining the scroll. “Useless! That’s what the travel logs say. I’m not asking a cartographer. I’m asking you. Did you climb trees as a boy? Did you ever fall? What does the first snow taste like there?”
The questions were like little darts, each one aimed at a memory Chi Cheng kept locked in an iron chest deep within his soul. The taste of the first snow? It tasted of purity, of quiet joy, of his mother catching flakes on her tongue and laughing. Now, the memory tasted of ash.
“I climbed trees, Your Highness,” he conceded, the admission feeling like a betrayal. “All boys do. I did not fall often.”
“And the snow?” Suowei pressed, leaning forward, his chin propped on his hands. His eyes were alight with a genuine curiosity that was far more dangerous than his petulance.
Chi Cheng chose his words with the care of a man defusing a trap. “It tastes… clean, Your Highness. Unlike the wet snows of the capital.”
Suowei considered this, a faint, thoughtful smile playing on his lips. “Clean,” he repeated softly. “I should like to taste clean snow one day. Everything here is so… perfumed.” He gestured vaguely at the opulent room, his expression momentarily wistful. It was a flash of something deeper, a dissatisfaction that went beyond boredom, and Chi Cheng filed it away meticulously. A discontented prince was a vulnerable prince.
This became their new dynamic. Suowei would probe, and Chi Cheng would parry, offering just enough personal, seemingly reluctant detail to foster a sense of growing intimacy without ever revealing the chasm of truth beneath. He was crafting a persona: the strong, silent type from a harsh but honorable background, a man of few words but profound loyalty. It was a character designed to be irresistibly intriguing to a spoiled prince surrounded by sycophants.
He began to learn the true nuances of Wu Suowei. The prince’s brattiness was a performance, a shield. It flared up most strongly when he felt cornered, embarrassed, or when faced with the sycophantic nobles he despised.
But Chi Cheng observed the smaller, truer moments.
The way his voice softened when he spoke to his mother, Consort Zhang Li Ya. The genuine delight he took in a well-executed line of poetry, his eyes losing their cynical gleam. The secret, guilty pleasure he derived from the cheap, sugary pastries sold in the commoners' market, which Jiang Xiaoshuai would sometimes smuggle in for him.
He was a boy trapped in a gilded cage, performing the role of a prince, and the strain of the performance was beginning to show to Chi Cheng’s observant eyes.
Meanwhile, in the shadows, Guo Chengyu was weaving his own web.
His opportunity came during the weekly archery tournament in the military grounds. While the princes and nobles competed, their attendants and guards mingled on the sidelines. Guo Chengyu, having used his considerable charm to secure a minor post in the Ministry of Rites that granted him access to such events, made his move.
He spotted Jiang Xiaoshuai standing slightly apart from the main crowd, his sharp eyes not on the competition, but on the people watching it. He was analyzing alliances, noting slights, observing who cheered for whom. A smart one, indeed.
Guo Chengyu sidled up to him, holding two cups of cool, honeyed wine. “A tedious spectacle, is it not?” he said, offering one cup to Jiang Xiaoshuai. “All that posturing. One would think they were aiming for the throne itself, not a straw target.”
Jiang Xiaoshuai accepted the cup with a polite nod, his gaze assessing Guo Chengyu. “Guo Chengyu, from the Ministry of Rites. I’ve heard your name. They say you have a talent for resolving… delicate disputes.”
Guo Chengyu gave a self-deprecating smile. “I have a talent for listening and for finding solutions that leave everyone’s pride intact. It’s a simple skill, really.”
“A rare one, in this court,” Jiang Xiaoshuai replied, taking a sip. His eyes drifted back to the field, where Wu Suowei was lining up a shot. The prince was surprisingly competent, his form elegant. “His Highness seems in better spirits lately.”
“Ah, the benefits of a competent guard,” Guo Chengyu said smoothly. “My friend, Chi Cheng, takes his duties very seriously. It must be a relief to have someone so… unshakable watching over the prince.”
“Unshakable is one word for it,” Jiang Xiaoshuai murmured. “He is like a block of ice. I find it difficult to read him.”
“That is his nature,” Guo Chengyu laughed, a warm, friendly sound. “He was never one for frivolity. But his loyalty is absolute. I’ve known him since we were boys. He once took a beating from a gang of older youths for a friend who couldn’t pay a ‘street tax.’ Never said a word about it afterward.” The story was a complete fabrication, designed to paint Chi Cheng as stoically heroic.
Jiang Xiaoshuai’s eyebrows rose slightly. “Is that so?” He looked at Guo Chengyu with renewed interest. “You’ve known him a long time, then. You must find this posting quite a change from his previous life.”
And so the dance began. Guo Chengyu, the charming fox, began feeding Jiang Xiaoshuai, the observant owl, a carefully constructed narrative. He spoke of a fictional past where Chi Cheng was a righteous, if poor, minor noble from a remote region, a man of principle who had come to the capital to make an honest living. He spoke of their shared, invented adventures, always highlighting Chi Cheng’s reliability and silent strength.
In turn, Jiang Xiaoshuai, while guarded, offered snippets about Suowei. He spoke of the prince’s deep-seated kindness beneath the brattiness, his frustration with the corruption and sycophancy of the court, and his complicated relationship with his grandfather’s legacy.
“He knows, you see,” Jiang Xiaoshuai said one evening as they walked through the palace gardens after a poetry reading. “He knows the old Emperor’s reign was built on blood and conquest. He’s not a fool. He just feels… trapped by it. Powerless to change it, and guilty by association.”
This was invaluable intelligence. Chi Cheng had assumed Suowei was blissfully ignorant, a gilded fool. The knowledge that the prince was aware, and carried a burden of guilt, added a new, potent layer to the manipulation. It was a lever, and Chi Cheng now knew exactly where to place it.
The first true test of this new understanding came during a grand banquet to celebrate the anniversary of a long-ago Wu military victory. The hall was deafeningly loud, filled with boasting generals and fawning officials. Chi Cheng stood behind Suowei’s seat, his presence a silent, dark pillar amidst the gaudy celebration. The very victory they were toasting was one of the campaigns that had crushed a neighboring state, a precursor to the annihilation of the Chi.
He watched the old Emperor, a withered but sharp-eyed man, holding court. He watched Suowei, who was picking at his food, a tense, unhappy set to his shoulders. The prince was drinking more than usual, his laughter at the jokes of courtiers sounding forced.
During a particularly raucous toast led by a general recounting the "glorious subjugation of the barbarian Chi," Chi Cheng felt his blood turn to ice. His hand, resting on the pommel of his sword, clenched so hard the leather of his glove creaked. He kept his face a mask, but his eyes, for a fleeting second, must have betrayed the inferno within.
Suowei, perhaps sensing the shift in the air behind him, glanced back. He saw the rigid line of Chi Cheng’s jaw, the unnatural stillness. He didn’t say anything, but a flicker of confusion crossed his face.
Later, as the banquet wound down, Suowei was unsteady on his feet, his mood visibly darkened. “I need air,” he mumbled to Jiang Xiaoshuai, who immediately moved to assist him.
“I will see to His Highness,” Chi Cheng said, stepping forward. His voice brooked no argument. Jiang Xiaoshuai looked at him, then at the prince, and nodded reluctantly.
Chi Cheng took Suowei’s arm, his grip firm but not ungentle, and guided him out of the stifling hall onto a secluded balcony overlooking the moonlit gardens. The cool night air was a relief. The sounds of the feast faded into a distant hum.
Suowei leaned heavily against the balustrade, his head bowed. “All that noise,” he whispered, his voice thick with wine and disgust. “All that… pride. For what? For killing people? For burning lands?” He looked up at Chi Cheng, his eyes glassy. “You were so quiet during the toast for the Chi. Why? Did the great, unshakeable Knight Chi Cheng find the topic distasteful?”
The question was a challenge, laced with the prince’s own self-loathing. It was not the vulnerable opening from the previous draft, but a defensive, almost aggressive probe.
Chi Cheng met his gaze steadily, using the prince’s own guilt as a weapon. “I find little glory in the slaughter of a defeated people, Your Highness,” he said, his voice low and deliberate. “A warrior’s honor lies in protecting the innocent, not in reveling in the ashes of their homes.”
It was the perfect thing to say. It did not confirm or deny anything about his past, but it aligned him perfectly with Suowei’s own hidden sentiments.
Suowei’s defensive posture slackened. He stared at Chi Cheng, the aggression in his eyes melting into something more complex—a dawning, shocked recognition. Here, in this man of few words, was an echo of his own silent protests. He had expected a platitude or a rigidly loyalist response. He had not expected this quiet, profound condemnation.
He looked away, back over the dark gardens. “You are a strange man, Chi Cheng,” he murmured. “You say things no one else dares to say to me. You see things… others choose to ignore.”
“I see my charge, Your Highness,” Chi Cheng replied, his tone carefully neutral. “And I see that the festivities weigh heavily upon him tonight.”
Suowei let out a bitter, hollow laugh. “You have a talent for understatement.” He pushed himself away from the balustrade, suddenly looking tired and very young. “Take me back to my chambers. I am done with this… celebration.”
As they walked back through the quiet corridors, the space between them was charged with a new understanding. There had been no tearful confession, no intimate touch. Instead, there had been a meeting of minds in a shared space of quiet condemnation. It was a far stronger bond than a moment of drunken vulnerability. It was a conspiracy of silence against the world.
When they reached the door to the Rising Sun Pavilion, Suowei paused. He didn’t look at Chi Cheng, but stared at the intricate carvings on the door.
“Tomorrow,” he said, his voice quiet but clear. “I am visiting the Temple of Azure Clouds on the outskirts of the city. You will accompany me. Just you.”
It was not a request. It was a command, but one that signified a new level of trust. He was seeking an escape from the palace, and he was choosing Chi Cheng as his sole companion.
“As you wish, Your Highness,” Chi Cheng bowed.
As the door closed, leaving Chi Cheng alone in the corridor, he felt a cold sense of triumph that was far more satisfying than the fleeting heat of a would-be kiss. He had not captured the prince’s heart; he had infiltrated his conscience. He had become a silent ally in Suowei’s internal rebellion.
The hook was not set with a violent jerk, but with a slow, patient, and excruciatingly precise turn. The serpent was not striking; it was coiling, one deliberate, invisible loop at a time. And within the gilded cage, the songbird was beginning to sing a tune only the serpent could hear. The game was afoot, and every move was a masterpiece of calculated patience.
The betrayal, when it finally came, would be so much sweeter for the foundation of absolute trust it was built upon.
Chapter 3: Temple of Azure Clouds
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The journey to the Temple of Azure Clouds was a deliberate departure from royal protocol. There was no gilded palanquin, no procession of guards, no heralds clearing the way. At Wu Suowei’s insistence, they traveled on horseback, accompanied only by a single, closed carriage for Jiang Xiaoshuai, who had insisted on coming, citing the prince’s safety. Chi Cheng knew it was more about Xiaoshuai’s watchful eyes than any real threat.
Suowei, for his part, seemed to shed layers of his princely persona with each mile they put between themselves and the palace walls. Dressed in unadorned but exquisitely tailored riding clothes of deep grey, he sat straight in the saddle, the morning sun catching the eager light in his eyes. He was a competent rider, his posture natural and unforced, a stark contrast to the foppish image he often projected at court.
“The air is different out here, isn’t it?” Suowei called back to Chi Cheng, who rode a respectful half-length behind. “It doesn’t smell of incense and politics.”
“It smells of earth and pine, Your Highness,” Chi Cheng replied, his gaze constantly scanning their surroundings—the dense foliage lining the road, the distant figures of farmers in the fields. It was an old habit, born from a lifetime of watching for threats. Today, the habit served a dual purpose: protecting his asset and gathering tactical information on the terrain surrounding the capital.
“Earth and pine,” Suowei repeated, a genuine smile gracing his features. It was a transformative expression, stripping away the practiced petulance and revealing the young man beneath. It was dangerously appealing. “A vast improvement.”
From the carriage window, Jiang Xiaoshuai observed the exchange, his expression unreadable but his mind whirring. He saw the way Suowei’s shoulders relaxed, the ease with which he spoke to the silent knight. He saw the way Chi Cheng’s vigilant posture never slackened, yet his attention seemed uniquely focused on the prince. It was a dynamic that both comforted and unsettled him.
The Temple of Azure Clouds was nestled high in the forested hills, a series of elegant pavilions clinging to the mountainside, connected by covered walkways that seemed to float amidst the mist. It was a place of quiet contemplation, far from the ostentatious gold and jade of the imperial temples. As they dismounted, an elderly abbot, his head shaved and his robes faded, greeted them with a deep, serene bow.
“Your Highness does us a great honor,” the abbot said, his voice as calm as the surrounding forest.
“The honor is mine, Venerable One,” Suowei replied, his tone uncharacteristically humble. “I come only for a moment of quiet.”
“Then quiet you shall find. The eastern pavilion overlooking the waterfall is vacant. Please, refresh yourself.”
While Jiang Xiaoshuai engaged the abbot in polite conversation about temple history—a transparent ploy to give the prince space—Suowei led the way to the pavilion. Chi Cheng followed, his boots silent on the worn wooden planks. The pavilion was as promised, open on three sides to a breathtaking view of a cascading waterfall that filled the air with a cool, negative-ion mist and a constant, soothing roar.
Suowei leaned against the railing, closing his eyes and breathing deeply. The tension that usually held his frame seemed to dissolve into the mist. For a long time, he was silent, simply existing in the moment.
Chi Cheng stood guard at the entrance to the pavilion, giving the prince the illusion of privacy while missing nothing. He watched the play of light through the mist on Suowei’s profile, the way a stray lock of hair clung to his damp temple. The scene was one of perfect peace, a stark contrast to the turmoil in Chi Cheng’s own heart. This beauty, this tranquility, was all built on a foundation of stolen land and spilled blood. This temple, this very view, belonged to the world the Wu had plundered.
“Do you ever pray, Chi Cheng?” Suowei asked suddenly, without opening his eyes.
“I have found the gods to be silent spectators, Your Highness,” Chi Cheng replied, the truth of the statement sharp in his mouth.
A small, understanding smile touched Suowei’s lips. “I agree. I don’t come here to pray to them. I come here to escape the sound of my own name.” He finally turned, leaning his back against the railing, facing Chi Cheng. “When they call me ‘Your Highness’ here, it sounds like an echo from another life. Out here, I can almost pretend I’m just… someone else.”
You are, Chi Cheng thought, the hatred a cold, hard stone in his gut. You are the grandson of a monster. You are living in a stolen palace, breathing air that belongs to my dead.
But aloud, he said, “It is a heavy title to bear.”
“You have no idea,” Suowei sighed, pushing off the railing and beginning to pace slowly around the pavilion. “It’s a cage. Every smile is calculated, every word is measured. Even with Xiaoshuai, though he is a true friend, there is always the unspoken truth of who I am. He can walk away from this. I cannot.” He stopped his pacing and looked directly at Chi Cheng. “But you… you are different. You see the cage, don’t you? You’ve seen it from the first day.”
This was the opening. The vulnerability was not drunken or tearful, but philosophical and weary. It was an invitation to a deeper level of confidence.
Chi Cheng met his gaze, allowing a fraction of the understanding he had carefully constructed to show in his eyes. “I see the person inside the cage, Your Highness. My duty is to him.”
The words were a masterstroke. They bypassed the title and went straight to the core of Suowei’s loneliness. They acknowledged his personhood, not his position.
Suowei’s breath caught slightly. He looked away, a faint flush on his cheeks, as if unaccustomed to being seen so directly. “You are… unlike anyone I have ever met, Chi Cheng.”
Before Chi Cheng could formulate a reply, a commotion erupted at the temple’s main courtyard below. Raised voices, the sound of scuffling. Chi Cheng was instantly in motion, stepping in front of Suowei, his hand on his sword hilt, his body a shield between the prince and the unknown threat.
“Stay behind me, Your Highness,” he commanded, his voice low and sharp.
A moment later, Jiang Xiaoshuai appeared at the walkway, his face a mask of controlled anger. Behind him, two temple novices were restraining a man in travel-stained robes, while Guo Chengyu stood to the side, looking on with an expression of amused detachment.
“What is the meaning of this?” Suowei demanded, his princely authority snapping back into place.
“A petitioner, Your Highness,” Jiang Xiaoshuai said, his voice tight. “He pushed past the novices, demanding an audience with you. He claims a grievance against the local magistrate.”
The man, seeing the prince, threw himself to his knees. “Your Highness! I beg you! Please, hear my case! The magistrate has seized my land, my ancestral home! He says it is for the crown, but it is for his own coffers! My family has nowhere to go!”
Suowei’s face hardened. This was the reality of his grandfather’s rule, the corruption that festered beneath the surface of the “Great Unification.” He took a step forward, but Chi Cheng shifted subtly, blocking his path.
“Your Highness, it could be a ruse,” Chi Cheng murmured, his eyes never leaving the petitioner. “An assassin’s ploy.”
“He is unarmed and desperate,” Suowei countered, his voice low. “I can see it in his eyes.”
“Desperate men make the most effective weapons,” Chi Cheng replied, the lesson from his own past echoing in his words.
It was Guo Chengyu who stepped in, his voice smooth and conciliatory. “Your Highness, if I may? This is a delicate matter. For the prince to personally intervene in a local dispute would be… politically unwise. It would undermine the magistrate’s authority and set a dangerous precedent. However,” he added, seeing the protest form on Suowei’s lips, “to ignore the plea of a subject would be a failure of imperial benevolence.”
He turned to the petitioner. “Your name, sir?”
“L-Lin, Your Honor,” the man stammered.
“Master Lin,” Guo Chengyu said, his tone kind yet firm. “His Highness has heard your plea. He cannot adjudicate this himself, but he will ensure your case is reviewed by the proper provincial authorities, with a directive for fairness. You have the word of the crown prince. Is that not sufficient?”
The man looked from Guo Chengyu’s charming smile to Suowei’s conflicted face. He kowtowed again, tears of relief mingling with the dirt on his face. “Thank you, Your Highness! Thank you!”
As the novices led the man away, Suowei stood rigid, his fists clenched. He felt impotent. Guo Chengyu’s solution was politically astute, but it felt like a betrayal of the man’s raw desperation.
“You handled that efficiently, Guo Chengyu,” Jiang Xiaoshuai said, his tone implying it was not entirely a compliment.
“One does what one can to shield His Highness from the uglier aspects of governance,” Guo Chengyu said with a slight bow, his eyes flicking towards Chi Cheng for a fraction of a second. The message was clear: I am managing the periphery. You focus on the target.
The incident had shattered the peaceful atmosphere. The brief escape was over. The cage, as Suowei had called it, had found him even here.
The ride back to the palace was subdued. Suowei was lost in thought, his earlier lightness gone. The encounter with the petitioner had been a stark reminder of the system he was a part of, a system he felt powerless to change.
As they approached the palace gates, the setting sun casting long shadows, Suowei slowed his horse until he was riding abreast with Chi Cheng.
“You were right,” Suowei said quietly, so only Chi Cheng could hear. “To be cautious. But it feels… cowardly.”
“Caution is not cowardice, Your Highness,” Chi Cheng responded, his gaze fixed ahead on the looming palace walls. “It is the discipline that keeps a ruler alive to fight another day. A dead prince cannot help anyone.”
Suowei considered this. It was a practical, cold-blooded perspective, but one that held the ring of truth. It was the perspective of a warrior, a survivor. In Chi Cheng’s unwavering, pragmatic strength, he found a strange comfort. Here was someone who wouldn’t flinch from the world’s harsh realities, but would instead stand as a bulwark against them.
“Will you accompany me to the library tonight?” Suowei asked as they dismounted in the inner courtyard. “I find I am not yet ready for the silence of my chambers.”
It was not a command. It was a request. An invitation.
Chi Cheng bowed. “As you wish, Your Highness.”
Later, in the vast, silent imperial library, surrounded by scrolls that documented the very history Chi Cheng sought to avenge, they sat. Suowei did not read. He simply sat at a large table, staring at the flickering flame of an oil lamp.
Chi Cheng stood by the door, as always. The silence between them was no longer empty; it was filled with the unspoken understanding from the temple, the shared frustration of the petitioner’s plight, and the quiet intimacy of the night.
Suowei finally spoke, his voice barely a whisper in the cavernous room. “Thank you, Chi Cheng.”
“For what, Your Highness?”
“For seeing the cage,” he said. “And for standing guard outside it.”
The words struck Chi Cheng with a physical force. He looked at the prince, bathed in the soft, golden light, his beauty ethereal and profoundly lonely. The cold stone of hatred in his gut shifted, a hairline fracture appearing under the pressure of a terrifying, burgeoning empathy.
The plan was working perfectly. He was gaining unprecedented trust, weaving himself into the very fabric of the prince’s lonely existence. He was becoming his confidant, his protector, the one person who seemed to see the real Wu Suowei.
But as he watched the lamplight dance in Suowei’s eyes, Chi Cheng felt a chill that had nothing to do with the night. The serpent was not just coiling around its prey; it was beginning to understand its song. And the song was a lament, so hauntingly familiar it threatened to drown out the drumbeat of revenge in his own heart. The most dangerous trap was not the one he was setting for the prince, but the one the prince, in his innocent vulnerability, was unknowingly laying for him.
Chapter 4: Weave of Trust
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The imperial library became their sanctuary. In the weeks that followed the trip to the temple, it became a nightly ritual. After the evening court sessions, after the stifling formal dinners, Wu Suowei would retreat to the cavernous, scroll-lined hall, and Chi Cheng would follow. The prince no longer had to issue the invitation; it was an unspoken understanding.
Suowei did not spend these hours in idle leisure. He began pulling scrolls—not of poetry or philosophy, but of law, of agriculture, of provincial tax records. He would spread them across the vast table of fragrant sandalwood, his brow furrowed in concentration, his fingers tracing columns of figures and edicts with a focus Chi Cheng had never seen in him before.
It was a side of the prince that complicated things immensely.
“Look at this,” Suowei said one night, his voice tight with frustration. He pointed to a tax record from the southern province of Ling. “The reported grain yield is down fifteen percent from last year, yet the tax collected in silver is up by twenty. How does that work? Unless the tax collectors are setting their own exchange rates, bleeding the farmers dry.”
Chi Cheng, who had been standing by a bookshelf, ostensibly examining the spines but in reality memorizing the library’s layout and potential hiding places, moved closer. He looked at the scroll. The discrepancy was glaring, a testament to the systemic corruption the petitioner at the temple had spoken of.
“It would seem the arithmetic of power differs from that of common logic, Your Highness,” Chi Cheng said, his voice a low rumble in the quiet room.
Suowei let out a short, bitter laugh. “The arithmetic of power. A fitting term for it.” He leaned back, rubbing his temples. “I showed this to my father yesterday. Do you know what he said? He said, ‘The provinces are complex. Do not trouble your pretty head with such matters. Leave it to the ministers.’” He mimicked his father’s condescending tone with startling accuracy, a flash of the old petulance returning to his eyes. “My pretty head,” he repeated, the words dripping with venom.
He looked up at Chi Cheng, his gaze searching. “You don’t think my head is just ‘pretty,’ do you, Chi Cheng?”
The question was a test, a plea for validation. Chi Cheng felt the familiar internal schism. The part of him that was Prince Chi Cheng of a fallen kingdom wanted to sneer, to tell this gilded child that his problems were a luxury, a trivial annoyance compared to the absolute annihilation his own people had suffered.
But the part of him that was playing the role of the loyal knight, the part that was becoming disturbingly comfortable in the skin of Suowei’s confidant, saw the genuine pain of a intelligent mind being stifled.
“I have seen the sharpness of Your Highness’s mind,” Chi Cheng answered, choosing his words with the precision of a surgeon’s scalpel. “In the way you navigate court intrigues, in the questions you ask. A ‘pretty head’ does not see the cracks in the foundation of an empire.”
The words were true, in their own twisted way. He was seeing the prince’s intelligence, and it was making him a more dangerous, more valuable target. It was also making him harder to despise.
A slow, genuine smile spread across Suowei’s face, erasing the bitterness. It was a smile of pure, unadulterated relief, as if Chi Cheng had just thrown him a lifeline in a sea of condescension. “Thank you,” he said softly, the words laden with more meaning than a simple acknowledgment.
He returned to his scrolls with renewed vigor, but now he began to talk through his thoughts aloud, using Chi Cheng as a sounding board.
“If I were to draft an edict reforming the tax collection process in Ling, how would I structure it? The magistrates will resist… I would need to create a new oversight office, staffed not by court-appointed nobles, but by officials selected through examination…”
Chi Cheng listened, occasionally offering a grunt of acknowledgment or a short, pragmatic question. “And how would you prevent this new oversight office from becoming corrupt itself, Your Highness?” or “The cost of such an office would need to be justified against the recovered revenue.”
He was careful to never offer a direct solution. His role was to be the steadfast listener, the sharpening stone for Suowei’s ideas. But in doing so, he was gaining an intimate understanding of the Wu Kingdom’s administrative weaknesses, its financial pressures, and the prince’s own nascent, reformist philosophies. It was intelligence more valuable than any stolen battle plan. He was learning how to break the empire from the inside, by exploiting the very desire of its heir to fix it.
One evening, the dynamic shifted again. Suowei was unusually quiet, having abandoned his scrolls to stare into the flickering lamp. The silence stretched, thick and heavy.
“My grandfather summoned me today,” he said finally, his voice hollow. “He wanted to review the lineage of noble families eligible for marriage alliances.”
Chi Cheng went very still. This was expected, of course. A prince of marriageable age was a political tool. But the news sent an inexplicable, cold jolt through him.
“He has settled on the daughter of the General of the Western Armies,” Suowei continued, his tone flat. “A strategic match, he called it. To secure the loyalty of the military faction before the planned campaigns in the west.” He looked up, and his eyes were filled with a bleak despair that was far more profound than any tantrum.
“He showed me her portrait. She has kind eyes. I suppose I should be grateful for that.”
He was waiting for a reaction. A congratulations. A piece of political advice. Something.
Chi Cheng said nothing. The mask of the impassive knight felt like it was cracking under the pressure. The thought of Suowei being married off, of this intimate, nightly ritual ending, of another person claiming his attention and his… loyalty… it felt like a disruption to the plan. A personal one. The realization was alarming.
“Do you have nothing to say?” Suowei asked, a trace of his old sharpness returning.
“What would you have me say, Your Highness?” Chi Cheng’s voice was tighter than he intended. “It is the way of courts and kingdoms.”
“Is it?” Suowei pushed back from the table, standing up and pacing. “Is it the way for a person to be bartered like a prize stallion? To have their entire life, their… their affections… decided by a map and a military ledger?” He stopped directly in front of Chi Cheng, forcing the knight to look down at him. The difference in their height was suddenly very apparent, but Suowei’s presence was commanding.
“You, who speak of a warrior’s true honor. Do you find honor in this?”
The challenge was direct. It was no longer about the kingdom; it was about the prince’s heart. And Chi Cheng, the master manipulator, found himself dangerously close to the truth.
“I find no honor in a life without choice,” Chi Cheng said, the words escaping him before he could cage them. It was not Prince Chi Cheng speaking, nor was it the loyal knight. It was some raw, unvarnished part of himself that understood captivity all too well.
Suowei’s defiant posture softened. The anger in his eyes melted into something vulnerable and stunned. He searched Chi Cheng’s face, looking for the lie, the platitude, and finding neither.
“No,” he whispered. “Neither do I.”
He didn’t move away. They stood there, in the circle of lamplight, surrounded by the silent history of the Wu, so close that Chi Cheng could feel the warmth radiating from Suowei’s body, could see the rapid flutter of his pulse at the base of his throat. The air was charged with everything they were not saying. With the shared understanding of their respective cages.
Suowei’s gaze dropped to Chi Cheng’s mouth for a fleeting, heart-stopping second.
Then, the moment shattered. The great door of the library creaked open, and Jiang Xiaoshuai entered, his footsteps echoing in the silence.
“Your Highness,” he said, his eyes taking in the scene with unnerving swiftness—the proximity, the tense atmosphere, the abandoned scrolls. “Consort Zhang Li Ya sent me. She was concerned you were working too late again.”
Suowei took a quick step back, putting a respectable distance between himself and his knight. The prince’s mask slid back into place, but it was less sure than before. “Tell my mother I am well, Xiaoshuai. I was just… discussing provincial affairs with Knight Chi Cheng.”
Jiang Xiaoshuai’s expression was unreadable. “Of course. Shall I escort you back to your chambers?”
“Yes,” Suowei said, his voice regaining its princely composure. He turned to Chi Cheng. “That will be all for tonight, Knight Chi Cheng. Your… counsel… has been, as always, invaluable.”
Chi Cheng bowed deeply, hiding the turmoil in his eyes. “Your Highness.”
As the two friends left the library, Chi Cheng was left alone in the profound silence. He walked to the table and looked down at the scroll Suowei had been studying. The figures and edicts were a blur. All he could see was the despair in Suowei’s eyes when he spoke of his betrothal, the startling vulnerability in his question about honor.
He extinguished the lamp, plunging the room into darkness. The plan was advancing perfectly. He had cemented his position as the prince’s most trusted confidant. He was learning state secrets from the heir’s own lips. The prince was clearly developing feelings that went beyond professional trust.
It was a resounding success.
So why did he feel as though he was the one being dismantled? Why did the prince’s despair over a political marriage feel like a personal affront? The carefully constructed walls around his heart, built over a decade of hatred, were showing cracks, and through them seeped a dangerous, unwelcome empathy.
The serpent was not just coiling around its prey; it was starting to feel the songbird’s heartbeat as its own, and the rhythm was becoming a maddening, addictive drum that threatened to drown out the symphony of his revenge.
Chapter 5: Whispers of Conscience
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The announcement of Prince Wu Suowei’s betrothal to General Zhao’s daughter sent ripples through the court, each wave a different shade of calculation and gossip. For the old guard and the military faction, it was a masterstroke, a binding of the imperial family to the sword arm of the kingdom. For the civil officials, it was a worrying shift in the balance of power. For the myriad of courtiers with daughters of their own, it was a disappointment.
For Chi Cheng, it was a variable that required immediate analysis and adjustment.
He observed the court’s reaction with detached precision, standing at his post behind Suowei’s seat during the formal announcement banquet. The prince himself was a masterpiece of performative compliance. He smiled when appropriate, accepted toasts with graceful nods, and even exchanged a few polite, scripted words with his betrothed, Lady Zhao Meiling, who was indeed as kind-eyed as her portrait suggested, with a quiet dignity that seemed out of place amidst the gaudy celebration.
But Chi Cheng, who had spent weeks studying the subtle language of Suowei’s body, saw the fissures in the facade. The tension in the prince’s shoulders was a fraction too pronounced. The smile that reached his eyes was a beat too slow. His laughter, when it came, was a hollow echo. He was playing his part, but the role was costing him.
After the banquet, the atmosphere in the Rising Sun Pavilion was thick with unspoken words. Suowei dismissed his other attendants with a wave of his hand, leaving only Chi Cheng in the antechamber. He stood by the window, his back turned, silhouetted against the moonlit gardens.
“She seems… pleasant,” Suowei said, his voice flat.
“Yes, Your Highness,” Chi Cheng replied from his station by the door.
“My grandfather is pleased. My father is pleased. The entire court is pleased.” He turned around, and his face was a mask of weary cynicism. “A successful day for the Wu dynasty, would you not agree, Chi Cheng?”
“The strategic objective appears to have been met, Your Highness.”
Suowei let out a sharp, humorless laugh. “The strategic objective. Always with you, it comes down to strategy and objectives.” He began to pace, a caged predator. “Did you know she likes poetry? Actual poetry, not the sycophantic drivel they compose here. She quoted a line from the ‘Ballad of the Western Fields’ tonight. It’s a poem about longing for home. I wonder if she is already longing for hers, knowing she is to be trapped in this gilded prison for the rest of her days.”
He stopped his pacing and looked directly at Chi Cheng, his eyes blazing with a frustrated passion. “We are to be two caged birds, trilling a duet written by our handlers. A pretty song for a powerful audience.”
The metaphor was too apt. It mirrored Chi Cheng’s own perception of their dynamic too closely for comfort. He was the handler, and Suowei was the bird. The realization was a sour taste in his mouth.
“You have a voice, Your Highness,” Chi Cheng said, the words feeling like a betrayal of his own mission. “You can choose the song, in time.”
“Can I?” Suowei challenged, taking a step closer. The scent of wine and imperial incense clung to him. “Can I, when every note is dictated by ‘strategic objectives’? When my life is not my own?” His voice dropped to a raw whisper. “You told me you found no honor in a life without choice. Where is the honor in this?”
He was using Chi Cheng’s own words as a weapon, and they struck with unerring accuracy. Chi Cheng had no answer that wouldn’t unravel the careful fiction he had built. To agree would be to validate the prince’s rebellion, to fuel a fire that could complicate his plans. To dismiss it would be to shatter the trust he had so painstakingly cultivated.
He remained silent, holding Suowei’s intense gaze, allowing the prince to see the conflict in his own eyes—a conflict that was becoming terrifyingly real.
The silence stretched, charged and heavy. Suowei’s defiant posture slowly deflated. The fire in his eyes banked, replaced by a profound weariness. He seemed to remember who he was, and who Chi Cheng was supposed to be.
“Leave me,” he said softly, turning back to the window, his voice drained of all emotion. “I wish to be alone.”
It was the first time he had ever dismissed Chi Cheng from his presence without a lingering question, a final barb, or a quiet request for his company later in the library. The dismissal felt like a door slamming shut.
“As you wish, Your Highness,” Chi Cheng bowed and retreated, the sound of his own footsteps echoing his isolation.
He did not return to his sparse quarters in the guards’ barracks. Instead, he found himself on a high, isolated walkway of the palace, overlooking the sprawling, sleeping city. The lights of the capital twinkled like a field of fallen stars, a kingdom of blissful ignorance built upon a foundation of bones. His bones.
He needed clarity. He needed to remember the taste of ash, the sound of screaming, the cold weight of his father’s signet ring, now hidden in a secret compartment of his travel chest—the only tangible remnant of the Chi Kingdom.
“The little prince seems to be causing you some trouble,” a familiar, smooth voice said from the shadows.
Guo Chengyu emerged from behind a pillar, leaning against it with his characteristic casual elegance. He held out a small ceramic flask. “Spirit wine from the far south. It burns away confusion.”
Chi Cheng took the flask and drank deeply. The liquor was indeed fiery, a welcome pain that grounded him. “He is not a trouble. He is a tool. Tools can be temperamental.”
“Some tools have hearts and minds, my friend,” Guo Chengyu said, his tone light but his eyes sharp. “And hearts are messy. They bleed. They get attached. I hear he’s been sharing his late-night studies with you. Quite the intellectual intimacy.”
“He provides invaluable intelligence,” Chi Cheng stated, his voice hardening. “His thoughts on tax reform, military logistics, court factions… it is more than I could have hoped for.”
“Of course. Intelligence,” Guo Chengyu nodded, a sly smile playing on his lips. “And the betrothal? Is that also just… intelligence?”
Chi Cheng’s grip on the flask tightened. “It is a political event. It changes nothing.”
“Does it not?” Guo Chengyu pushed off the pillar and stood beside him, looking out at the city. “It changes everything. It solidifies the Wu military alliance. It provides the potential for an heir, securing their bloodline. And it…” he paused, glancing sideways at Chi Cheng, “…it emotionally compromises our primary asset. And perhaps,” he added softly, “the handler.”
“I am not compromised,” Chi Cheng growled, the denial coming too quickly.
“I have known you since we were boys scrapping in the dirt, Chi Cheng. I have seen you mourn, I have seen you rage, I have seen you plan with a mind of pure ice. But I have never seen you… unsettled. Not like this.” Guo Chengyu’s voice lost its playful edge. “The prince is a means to an end. A path to your revenge. Do not start building a home on the path you intend to burn.”
The words were a bucket of cold water. They were the truth, the brutal, unvarnished purpose that had driven him for over a decade. Guo Chengyu was right. The flicker of empathy, the unwelcome protectiveness, the sharp, personal sting of the betrothal—they were weaknesses. They were cracks in his armor that the enemy could exploit, even if the enemy was an unwitting, golden-eyed prince.
“The path will be burned,” Chi Cheng said, his voice returning to its familiar, glacial calm. He handed the flask back to Guo Chengyu. “Every last inch of it.”
“Good,” Guo Chengyu nodded, satisfied. “Then let’s talk practicalities. The betrothal means the western campaign is likely to move forward sooner. General Zhao will want a swift victory to celebrate his new familial connection. Our networks in the west need to be ready. The prince’s access to his father’s war council will be crucial. You need to get back in his good graces. This… coldness between you serves no one.”
The following day, Chi Cheng resumed his duties with renewed detachment. He was the perfect knight: silent, efficient, invisible. He anticipated Suowei’s needs before the prince could voice them. He was a shadow, a presence that was felt but not acknowledged.
Suowei, for his part, was cool and distant. He held court, attended his lessons, and spent time with Lady Zhao Meiling in carefully chaperoned settings. He was playing the part of the dutiful heir. But the light that had begun to spark in him during their library sessions was gone, extinguished under the weight of his predetermined future.
The stalemate lasted for three days. It was broken not by words, but by action.
Suowei was taking a walk through the Palace of a Thousand Blossoms with Jiang Xiaoshuai and Lady Zhao. Chi Cheng followed at a distance. A group of young, boisterous nobles from the military faction approached, their laughter too loud, their bows to the prince just a shade too shallow. Their leader, the son of a prominent general, was showing off a new, ornately carved dagger.
In his clumsy enthusiasm, the young noble tripped on a loose stone. The dagger flew from his hand, a silver flash spinning through the air directly towards Lady Zhao.
There was a collective gasp. Jiang Xiaoshuai moved, but he was a step too far.
Chi Cheng moved faster than thought. He didn’t push the prince aside, as his primary duty dictated. Instead, in a blur of motion, he stepped in front of Lady Zhao, his arm coming up to deflect the spinning blade. The sharp edge sliced a deep gash along his forearm before clattering to the ground.
Silence descended.
Blood, dark and red, welled up instantly, soaking through the dark fabric of his uniform sleeve.
Suowei was at his side in an instant, his face pale. “Chi Cheng! You’re hurt!”
The young noble was stammering apologies, kowtowing repeatedly. Lady Zhao looked shaken, her hand pressed to her heart. “You… you saved me,” she whispered to Chi Cheng, her eyes wide with shock and gratitude.
“It is my duty to protect all members of the imperial family, My Lady,” Chi Cheng said, his voice even, though the pain was a bright, sharp fire in his arm. He kept his gaze forward, not looking at Suowei.
But Suowei was looking at him. All the coldness, the distance, had vanished from his face, replaced by a storm of concern and something else—something awed and fiercely possessive.
“Your duty,” Suowei repeated, his voice low and intense. He ripped a strip of silk from the hem of his own expensive under-robe, ignoring the scandalized looks from the other nobles. “Your duty,” he said again, as he began to bind the wound himself, his fingers surprisingly deft and gentle against Chi Cheng’s skin. The intimacy of the act, a prince tending to a knight’s injury in public, was a shocking breach of protocol.
Their eyes met. The silent standoff was over. In that moment, the betrothal, the strategic objectives, the entire court—it all faded away. There was only the prince, the knight, and the blood that bound them in a new, unbreakable covenant of trust.
Chi Cheng had not planned the incident. But he had seized the opportunity with instinctual brilliance. He had protected the prince’s betrothed, earning the gratitude of the powerful Zhao family and, more importantly, he had shattered the wall Suowei had built between them. He had reminded the prince, in the most visceral way possible, of his unwavering loyalty, his absolute value.
As Suowei finished tying the bandage, his fingers lingered for a moment on Chi Cheng’s wrist, a touch that was both a thank you and a claim.
“Come,” Suowei said, his voice firm, his princely authority restored but now directed solely towards Chi Cheng’s well-being. “We are going to the physician. Now.”
As he let the prince lead him away, Chi Cheng caught a glimpse of Jiang Xiaoshuai’s face. The observer was not looking at the blood or the grateful lady. He was watching Suowei’s hand on Chi Cheng’s arm, and his expression was not one of relief, but of deep, profound worry.
The crack in Chi Cheng’s armor had been patched, not with ice, but with the prince’s own hands. And the serpent, feeling the warmth of that touch, knew the most dangerous part of the game was just beginning. He had not just regained the prince’s trust; he had cemented his place as the most important person in Wu Suowei’s gilded world.
And that was a power more intoxicating, and more terrifying, than any battlefield victory.
Chapter 6: Pain and Devotion
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The physician’s chambers were a world of pungent herbs and quiet efficiency. Suowei ignored all protocol, standing over the elderly physician as he cleaned and stitched the gash on Chi Cheng’s forearm. The prince’s presence was a palpable force, making the physician’s hands tremble slightly.
“Be careful,” Suowei snapped, his voice tight as the needle pierced skin.
“Your Highness, it is a clean wound. It will heal well,” the physician soothed, but his eyes flickered nervously to the prince’s stormy expression.
Chi Cheng sat in stoic silence, enduring the pain with the same impassivity he showed the world. But his mind was racing, calculating. The cut was a minor inconvenience, a strategic expenditure of a few ounces of blood for a massive return on investment. He watched Suowei from beneath his lashes. The prince’s concern was a tangible thing, a feverish energy that filled the small room. It was more than gratitude for saving his betrothed; it was a personal, visceral reaction to his pain.
This was the vulnerability he needed to exploit. This was the lever.
Once the bandage was securely in place, Suowei dismissed the physician with a curt nod. The moment the door closed, the formal atmosphere evaporated. Suowei dragged a stool over and sat in front of Chi Cheng, his gaze fixed on the white bandage stark against Chi Cheng’s tanned skin.
“Why did you do that?” Suowei asked, his voice low and intent.
“It was my duty, Your Highness,” Chi Cheng repeated his line from the garden, his tone carefully neutral.
“No,” Suowei cut him off, his eyes flashing. “Do not give me that. You could have pushed her aside. You could have simply knocked the dagger away with your sword. You chose to put your own body in its path. Why?”
The prince was sharper than he pretended to be. He had seen the calculation behind the instinct.
Chi Cheng allowed a long silence to stretch, letting the prince’s imagination fill the void. He looked down at his bandaged arm, then slowly back up to meet Suowei’s intense gaze. He let a flicker of something raw—something that was not entirely an act—show in his eyes.
“A push could have caused her to fall, to be injured,” he said, his voice dropping to a near-whisper. “A deflected blade could have flown elsewhere, toward you. This was the most direct path. The most certain way to ensure no harm came to… the imperial party.”
He had almost said “to you.” He had let the sentence hang, allowing Suowei to hear the unspoken words.
Suowei’s breath hitched. He leaned forward, his voice barely audible. “You were protecting me.”
It wasn’t a question. It was a revelation.
Chi Cheng did not confirm or deny. He simply held the prince’s gaze, letting the silent admission hang in the air between them, more potent than any spoken declaration.
The last of the walls Suowei had built crumbled to dust. The cool distance of the past few days was incinerated in the heat of this new understanding. His knight, his silent, unshakeable Chi Cheng, had prioritized his safety above all else, even above his own well-being. In a world of sycophants and political schemers, this was a devotion so absolute it was almost frightening.
“You are a fool,” Suowei whispered, but there was no anger in it, only a bewildered, overwhelming fondness. His hand lifted, as if to touch the bandage again, but he hesitated, his fingers curling in mid-air before falling back to his lap. The restraint was itself a form of intimacy. “A brave, impossible fool.”
From that moment, the dynamic between them shifted irrevocably. The betrothal was not forgotten, but it was relegated to a distant, abstract reality, a script they were forced to perform for the outside world. In the private sphere they now inhabited—the Rising Sun Pavilion, the late-night library, the secluded garden paths—a new world was being built.
Suowei’s trust became absolute. He no longer just shared his frustrations; he shared his hopes, his fragmented dreams for a different kind of kingdom. He began to include Chi Cheng in more sensitive matters.
“My father is reviewing the supply lines for the western campaign,” he mentioned casually one evening in the library, unrolling a map. “The proposed route through the Serpent’s Pass is a death trap. Ambushes are guaranteed. But General Zhao insists it’s the fastest way.” He pointed to an alternative, longer route through a valley. “This is safer, but it adds five days to the march. My father will side with speed. He always does.”
Chi Cheng looked at the map, his heart beating a steady, cold rhythm. This was it. This was the kind of tactical intelligence that could win a war—or lose one. The route through the Serpent’s Pass was indeed a deathtrap. For the Wu army.
“Speed is of the essence in a surprise attack,” Chi Cheng commented, his voice carefully neutral. “But a surprised army is also a vulnerable one. A slower, secure advance might guarantee the supply chain, which is the lifeblood of any prolonged campaign.”
Suowei looked at him, a spark of excitement in his eyes. “Exactly! That is exactly what I tried to tell them! But they just see a prince playing at war.” He looked down at the map, his finger tracing the valley route. “If only I had someone on the council to argue the point…”
Chi Cheng said nothing. He didn’t need to. The seed was planted. Suowei now saw him not just as a confidant, but as a strategic ally. The information flowed more freely after that. Chi Cheng learned of troop numbers, of disagreements between generals, of the Emperor’s failing health and his increasing reliance on his warmongering son.
He relayed everything to Guo Chengyu during their clandestine meetings. The information was transmitted through their network, finding its way to the disaffected lords and hidden resistance cells in the western territories, who were now prepared to become a much more organized and deadly threat.
One night, as a summer storm raged outside, lashing the palace walls with rain, Suowei couldn’t sleep. He sat in his chambers, a single lamp fighting back the darkness, and summoned Chi Cheng inside. The prince was dressed only in a thin, silk sleeping robe, his hair loose around his shoulders. He looked young and vulnerable.
“I had a dream,” Suowei said, his voice quiet against the drumming of the rain. “I dreamed the palace was empty. Everyone was gone. And I was walking through the halls, and they were all… stained. The walls, the floors. Red.” He wrapped his arms around himself. “It felt so real.”
Chi Cheng stood by the door, the storm outside mirroring the one in his soul. This was the guilt, the subconscious knowledge of his family’s legacy, haunting him. It was the perfect opening to subtly reinforce that guilt, to twist the knife.
“Sometimes, the stones remember what people choose to forget, Your Highness,” Chi Cheng said, his voice a low rumble. “Blood, once spilled, soaks deep into the foundations.”
Suowei flinched as if struck. He looked up at Chi Cheng, his eyes wide and haunted. “Do you believe that? Do you believe places can hold… memories of pain?”
“I do,” Chi Cheng said, and in that moment, he was not lying. He could feel the memories in the very air of the Wu palace. The ghosts of his people were his constant companions.
Suowei stared at him, and in the prince’s face, Chi Cheng saw not just fear, but a dawning, horrified comprehension. It was as if Chi Cheng’s simple, stark statement had given form to a formless dread he had carried his whole life.
He didn’t ask whose blood Chi Cheng thought stained the foundations. He seemed afraid of the answer.
Instead, he said, “Stay. Until the storm passes. I… I do not wish to be alone with these thoughts.”
It was the most vulnerable request he had ever made. Chi Cheng gave a single, sharp nod. He did not sit. He remained standing at his post by the door, a sentinel in the dim light, while the prince eventually drifted into a fitful sleep.
Chi Cheng watched him sleep, the lamplight softening his features. The rain poured down, a symphony of chaos, but in the room, there was a fragile, terrifying peace. The algebra of his mission was clear: every moment of trust, every shared secret, every protected sleep, was a variable being solved for X, where X was the total destruction of the Wu dynasty.
But as he watched the steady rise and fall of Suowei’s chest, a new, treacherous variable inserted itself into the equation. A variable he had not accounted for. A variable that felt suspiciously like care.
The calculus of pain was simple. The algebra of devotion was proving to be infinitely more complex. The serpent was deep in the songbird’s nest now, and the song was no longer a lament, but a lullaby. And the most dangerous thing of all was that a part of him was starting to find comfort in its melody.
Chapter 7: Masquerade of Fidelity
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The incident with the dagger and the storm-bound vigil forged a new, unbreakable bond in Suowei’s eyes.
Chi Cheng was no longer just his knight or his confidant; he had become his sanctuary. In return, Suowei’s devotion took on a new, almost desperate quality. He sought Chi Cheng’s opinion on everything, from the most trivial to the profoundly consequential, his world narrowing to the axis of his knight’s silent, steadfast presence.
This presented Chi Cheng with both unparalleled opportunity and excruciating psychological strain. The intelligence flowing from the prince was a river of gold.
He learned of the exact date the western campaign was slated to begin, of a secret cache of imperial reserves meant to fund it, and of the deep-seated paranoia the Emperor now felt toward his own court, trusting only a shrinking circle of hardliners.
Yet, each piece of information was a stone added to the burden on his conscience. He would deliver these secrets to Guo Chengyu in terse, nighttime meetings, watching as his friend’s clever, fox-like face would light up with grim satisfaction.
“The Serpent’s Pass, you say?” Guo Chengyu had murmured, memorizing the troop movements Chi Cheng had sketched in the dirt. “Oh, this is perfect. General Zhao’s ambition will be his undoing. And ours, his deliverance.”
Chi Cheng had merely grunted in response, the image of Suowei’s earnest face as he’d shared his “insight” about the supply lines flashing in his mind.
“The prince grows more attached,” Guo Chengyu observed, not looking up from the dirt map. “He looks at you as if you hung the moon and stars.”
“It serves the plan,” Chi Cheng replied, his voice flat.
“Does it?” Guo Chengyu finally looked at him, his gaze piercing. “Just ensure it is you using the attachment, and not the other way around. Sentiment is a luxury our people could not afford, remember?”
The reminder was a lash. Chi Cheng would return to the palace, the ghosts of his past howling in one ear, and the trusting, melodic voice of his enemy’s grandson whispering in the other.
The external pressure on their private world intensified with the announcement of the betrothal ceremonies. A series of lavish, public events was planned, culminating in a grand festival.
For Suowei, it was a torturous parade.
He was required to be constantly at Lady Zhao Meiling’s side, a smiling, attentive partner under the watchful eyes of the court, his family, and the empire.
Chi Cheng was always there, a shadow a few paces behind. He watched the perfect, public picture they made: the beautiful prince and the dignified lady. He saw the court’s approval, the Emperor’s satisfied nod. And he saw the deadness in Suowei’s eyes the moment the crowd looked away.
During a lantern-lit evening festival in the main courtyard, the pressure reached its peak. Suowei and Lady Zhao were seated on a raised dais, accepting gifts and well-wishes. The air was thick with music, laughter, and the cloying scent of thousands of flowers. Chi Cheng stood at the base of the dais, his posture rigid.
He saw Suowei’s hand, resting on his knee, clench into a white-knuckled fist. He saw the slight tremble in his smile as another dignitary droned on about the “auspicious union.” The prince’s gaze, desperate and seeking, scanned the crowd until it found Chi Cheng. It was a silent scream for rescue.
In that moment, something reckless and unplanned stirred in Chi Cheng. The careful calculus of his revenge was overshadowed by a raw, protective urge. He gave a barely perceptible nod, a silent message: I am here. I see you.
It was enough. Suowei’s shoulders relaxed a fraction. The mask of the happy bridegroom settled back into place, but now it was a shared performance, a secret he shared only with his knight.
Later, as the festivities wound down, Suowei managed to extricate himself under the pretext of fatigue. He didn’t return to his chambers. Instead, he led Chi Cheng on a winding path to the most secluded part of the imperial gardens, a small, walled orchard of plum trees, their branches heavy with unripe fruit. The sounds of the festival were a distant murmur here.
The moment they were shrouded by the trees, Suowei’s composure shattered. He leaned against the rough bark of an ancient tree, his breath coming in ragged gasps, as if he’d been holding it for hours.
“I cannot do this,” he whispered, his voice raw. “I cannot, Chi Cheng. Every smile feels like a lie. Every word tastes like ash. I am being buried alive in their expectations, in this… this farce!” He slammed his palm against the tree trunk, a shocking display of unfiltered emotion.
Chi Cheng stood before him, the moonlight dappling through the leaves. The plan dictated he should offer calming, pragmatic words. He should reinforce the prince’s duty. But the sight of Suowei’s unraveling, the raw, honest pain of it, silenced the strategist in him.
“Then do not smile,” Chi Cheng said, his voice low and intense. “Do not speak. For this moment, here, just… be.”
Suowei looked up, his eyes glittering with unshed tears in the moonlight. “Just be?” he echoed, a broken laugh escaping him. “And what am I, Chi Cheng? Who am I, outside of a prince? I don’t even know anymore.”
“You are the one who worries for desperate petitioners,” Chi Cheng found himself saying, the words coming from a place deeper than his fabricated persona. “You are the one who finds solace in clean snow and the roar of a waterfall. You are the mind that sees the cracks others ignore.” He took a step closer, his own heart hammering against his ribs. “That is who you are.”
The words hung in the fragrant night air, too honest, too revealing. They were not the words of a loyal knight. They were the words of a man who had been watching, truly seeing, and had been profoundly moved by what he saw.
Suowei stared at him, his breath catching. The anger and despair on his face melted away, replaced by a look of stunned wonder. The space between them, always carefully maintained, suddenly felt infinitesimal. The air crackled with the tension of everything that had remained unspoken for weeks.
Slowly, as if moving through deep water, Suowei pushed himself away from the tree. He stood before Chi Cheng, so close that Chi Cheng could see the individual lashes framing his luminous eyes, could feel the heat of his body.
“You see me,” Suowei breathed, the words a reverent whisper. “You are the only one who has ever truly seen me.”
His gaze dropped to Chi Cheng’s lips.
Time seemed to stop. The distant music faded. The world narrowed to this moonlit orchard, to the scent of plum blossoms and damp earth, to the devastating proximity of the man who was his sworn enemy and the only source of solace he had ever known.
Chi Cheng’s mind screamed in warning. This was the point of no return. To cross this line was to bind himself to Suowei in a way that would make the eventual betrayal a thousand times more cruel—and a thousand times more dangerous to his own fractured soul.
But his body, his treacherous, yearning heart, betrayed him. He didn’t pull away.
Suowei leaned in.
It was not a forceful kiss, but a question. A soft, tentative brush of his lips against Chi Cheng’s. A silent plea for confirmation, for reciprocation, for salvation.
For a single, heart-stopping second, Chi Cheng remained frozen, the war within him reaching a fever pitch. Then, with a low, gut-wrenching sound that was half surrender, half despair, he responded.
It was a kiss born of shared loneliness, of desperate secrets, of a connection forged in lies that had somehow become the truest thing in either of their lives. It was gentle and searching at first, then deepened with a sudden, shocking intensity, a dam breaking after months of tension. Chi Cheng’s hands came up, one cupping the back of Suowei’s neck, the other splaying against the small of his back, pulling him flush against his own rigid body. The bandage on his arm was a stark white reminder between them.
It was Suowei who broke the kiss, pulling back just enough to rest his forehead against Chi Cheng’s, his breath coming in ragged, shaky pants. His eyes were wide, dazed, filled with a mixture of awe and terror.
“Chi Cheng…” he whispered, his name a prayer on the prince’s lips.
That single whisper was like a bucket of ice water. The reality of what he had just done—kissing the grandson of the man who had murdered his family, betraying his revenge for a moment of fleeting, stolen comfort—crashed down upon Chi Cheng.
He released Suowei as if burned, taking a sharp step back. The cold, calculating mask slammed back into place, but it was fractured, and behind it, a storm of panic and self-loathing raged.
“Your Highness,” he said, his voice hoarse, stripped of all the intimacy of moments before. “This is… unwise.”
The change was jarring. Suowei flinched, the warmth in his eyes freezing into confusion and hurt. “Unwise?” he repeated, his voice small.
“We have overstepped,” Chi Cheng continued, forcing the words out. He gestured stiffly towards the distant sounds of the palace. “Your betrothed, your position… my duty. This cannot happen.”
He was pushing him away. He was re-establishing the boundaries, not for the sake of the plan, but for the sake of his own crumbling sanity. The kiss had been a catastrophic miscalculation, a moment of weakness that had revealed the depth of his own entanglement.
Suowei stared at him, the hurt in his eyes hardening into something else—a sharp, perceptive clarity. He took a slow step back, wrapping his arms around himself.
“Your duty,” he said softly, the words laced with a new, painful understanding. “Always, your duty.” He gave a slow, sad nod. “Very well, Knight Chi Cheng. We shall return to our roles.”
He turned and walked out of the orchard, his posture once again that of the Crown Prince, proud and untouchable. But his footsteps were heavy, and the set of his shoulders spoke of a fresh, deeper wound.
Chi Cheng stood alone in the moonlight, the ghost of Suowei’s lips still burning on his own. The taste of plum blossoms and betrayal was bitter on his tongue. He had gained the prince’s heart, the ultimate prize in his seduction.
But as he looked down at his hands—the hands that had held his enemy, that had comforted him, that had betrayed his own people for a moment of false intimacy—he knew with terrifying certainty that he had lost something far more critical.
He had lost his way. The path of revenge was now shrouded in the fog of a love that was never meant to be, and the serpent, for the first time, feared the venom was turning inward. The unraveling had begun, not with a shout, but with a kiss.
Chapter 8: Ghost in Machine
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The morning after the kiss in the plum orchard dawned with a brutal, crystalline clarity. For Chi Cheng, the world had shifted on its axis. The carefully constructed fiction of his mission was now stained with the undeniable truth of his own treacherous feelings.
The kiss was not a strategic move; it had been a catastrophic failure of will, a mutiny of the heart against the cold command of his mind.
He reported for duty at the Rising Sun Pavilion as the sun crested the palace walls, his face a mask of impenetrable ice.
He was Knight Chi Cheng, the embodiment of duty, nothing more.
When Suowei emerged from his bedchamber, his own face was carefully composed into an expression of detached regality. The raw vulnerability of the previous night was locked away behind a wall more formidable than any in the palace.
“Your Highness,” Chi Cheng bowed, his voice devoid of any inflection that could betray the storm within.
“Knight Chi Cheng,” Suowei acknowledged, his tone cool and formal. “We will be attending a review of the city guards with my father this morning. Ensure the escort is prepared.”
“It is done, Your Highness.”
And so it began. A new, painful architecture of distance was erected between them. The easy silences were now filled with a deafening tension.
The shared glances became averted eyes. The library remained empty at night. Suowei threw himself into the public performance of his betrothal with a renewed, almost frantic energy, as if trying to prove—to Chi Cheng, to himself, to the world—that he could be the prince he was destined to be.
He spent more time with Lady Zhao Meiling. They walked in the gardens, attended concerts, and he listened with polite interest as she spoke of her home in the west. Chi Cheng watched it all from his designated distance, a ghost at the feast.
He saw the genuine kindness in Lady Zhao’s eyes and felt a pang of something ugly and unwelcome—a twist of guilt on behalf of the prince who was being so callously used, and on behalf of the lady who was an innocent pawn in a game she knew nothing about.
The intelligence, however, did not stop. It became more transactional, filtered through the new layer of frost. Suowei would deliver information not as a shared confidence, but as a royal command.
“My father is concerned about unrest in the southern provinces following the new tax edicts,” he stated one afternoon, not looking up from a game of Go he was playing against himself.
“He is diverting the Fifth Battalion from the western border to quell it. You will ensure my personal guard is aware of the increased movement of troops in the capital.”
It was a vital piece of information. The Fifth Battalion was a key defensive force. Its diversion would leave a flank vulnerable in the west. Chi Cheng stored the information away, a piece of gold mined from a vein of pain.
“Understood, Your Highness,” he replied.
This was the new pattern. Suowei, in his hurt and pride, was still unconsciously relying on Chi Cheng, still feeding him the secrets of the empire, even as he built walls between them. It was a testament to how deeply the trust had been woven that even in his anger, Suowei could not conceive of Chi Cheng as anything other than his ultimate protector.
The strain was taking its toll on both of them. Suowei’s brattiness returned, sharper and more brittle than before. He was quick to anger, dismissing servants for minor infractions and snapping at even Jiang Xiaoshuai, who watched the proceedings with a deepening frown.
One evening, Guo Chengyu managed to corner Chi Cheng in the armory, under the pretense of inspecting new shipments of blades.
“The prince is a storm cloud,” Guo Chengyu murmured, running a finger along the edge of a newly forged sword. “And you, my friend, look like you haven’t slept in a week. Did the seduction part of the plan become… too convincing?”
Chi Cheng’s jaw tightened. “The plan proceeds. The western front is weakening. The Fifth Battalion is being diverted south.”
Guo Chengyu’s eyes lit up with predatory glee. “Is that so? Excellent. Our friends in the south will be pleased to keep the Fifth Battalion… occupied.” He set the sword down and turned to face Chi Cheng, his expression turning serious.
“But the prince’s state of mind is a variable. A heartbroken, volatile heir is unpredictable. He could do something foolish, draw attention. You need to stabilize him. Reel him back in, but carefully. No more… orchard incidents.”
The advice was sound, but it felt like being asked to re-bait a trap after having been caught in it himself. How could he reel Suowei back in without losing more of himself in the process?
The opportunity to try came during a state hunting expedition. The entire court traveled to the imperial hunting grounds, a vast forest teeming with game. It was a display of Wu power and masculinity. The Emperor, too frail to ride, watched from a pavilion while his son, his generals, and the nobles competed for the largest kill.
Suowei, a skilled hunter, was riding with grim determination, as if he could outrun his own turmoil. He pushed his horse hard, leaving most of his entourage behind, with only Chi Cheng and a few other guards struggling to keep pace. He was heading deep into the woods, towards the rugged foothills.
The sky, which had been clear, began to darken with alarming speed. A summer squall was brewing. The wind picked up, whipping the trees into a frenzy.
“Your Highness!” Chi Cheng called out, urging his horse forward. “We should turn back! The storm!”
Suowei either didn’t hear or chose to ignore him. He was fixated on a large stag he had spotted, a magnificent creature that bounded ahead of them, leading them deeper into the ravine.
The first crack of thunder was like the sky splitting open. It was followed instantly by a torrential downpour. Visibility dropped to nothing. The world became a cacophony of wind, rain, and the terrified whinnies of horses.
In the chaos, Suowei’s horse spooked, rearing up. Suowei, caught off guard, was thrown from the saddle. He hit the muddy ground with a sickening thud and slid several feet down a steep, rocky incline before coming to a stop against a fallen log.
Chi Cheng’s heart stopped. He was off his horse in an instant, sliding down the muddy slope, his own safety irrelevant.
“Your Highness!”
Suowei was conscious, but dazed, clutching his ankle, his face contorted in pain. His fine hunting robes were torn and covered in mud. He looked up as Chi Cheng skidded to his knees beside him, and for a fleeting second, the cold prince was gone, replaced by a frightened young man in pain.
“Chi Cheng…” he gasped.
The other guards had been left behind in the storm. They were alone.
“Where are you hurt?” Chi Cheng’s voice was rough with a fear that was entirely real.
“My ankle,” Suowei hissed. “I think it’s… I can’t stand.”
The rain lashed down, soaking them both to the skin. The ravine was quickly turning into a river of mud. They needed shelter. Chi Cheng scanned the area, his warrior’s eyes picking out a dark crevice in the rock face nearby—the entrance to a small cave.
Without a word, and without asking for permission, he slid one arm under Suowei’s shoulders and the other under his knees, lifting him effortlessly. Suowei cried out in pain, his hands flying to clutch at Chi Cheng’s sodden tunic.
“What are you—?”
“We need shelter,” Chi Cheng said shortly, his voice brooking no argument. He carried the prince, his precious, infuriating, heartbreaking burden, through the driving rain and into the narrow mouth of the cave.
It was small, damp, and dark, but it was out of the storm. Chi Cheng set Suowei down gently against the driest part of the wall, then immediately turned to gather what dry twigs and moss he could find from just inside the entrance.
With practiced efficiency, he used his flint and steel to spark a small, struggling fire. The flickering flames pushed back the darkness, illuminating the intimate, confined space.
For a long moment, the only sounds were the roar of the storm outside and the crackle of the fire. Suowei sat huddled, shivering, his arms wrapped around himself. He wouldn’t look at Chi Cheng.
Chi Cheng knelt in front of him. “Your ankle. I need to see it.”
Suowei hesitated, then gave a tight, reluctant nod.
Chi Cheng carefully removed the prince’s boot, his movements clinical yet gentle. The ankle was already swollen and beginning to bruise, a vivid, ugly purple against his pale skin. It was a bad sprain, but not broken.
“This will hurt,” Chi Cheng warned. He took a strip of cloth from his own pack and, with firm, sure hands, began to bind the ankle, providing support. Suowei bit his lip, stifling a whimper, his eyes screwed shut against the pain.
When it was done, Chi Cheng sat back on his heels. The fire cast dancing shadows on their faces. The forced proximity, the shared peril, the raw vulnerability of the injury—it had shattered the architecture of distance as if it were made of glass.
Suowei finally opened his eyes and looked at Chi Cheng. The formal prince was gone. The angry, hurt young man was gone. In the flickering firelight, he just looked exhausted and lost.
“Why?” Suowei whispered, his voice hoarse. “Why do you pull me close only to push me away? Why did you kiss me if it was just a… a breach of duty?”
The question hung in the damp air, direct and unanswerable. Chi Cheng could not tell the truth. He could not say, I pushed you away because I am your ruin, and kissing you felt more like salvation than revenge.
He looked into Suowei’s eyes, and for the first time, he did not hide the war within his own. He let the prince see the conflict, the pain, the desperate, impossible struggle.
“Some duties,” Chi Cheng said, his voice low and ragged, each word a confession he could never fully make, “are a cage. And some feelings… are a fire that threatens to burn it down. I pushed you away not because the kiss was unwise, but because it was… everything.”
It was the most honest thing he had ever said to him. It was not the whole truth, but it was a truth. His truth.
Suowei stared at him, the confusion in his eyes slowly clearing, replaced by a dawning, awe-struck understanding. He had seen the ghost in the machine—the real man trapped inside the unshakeable knight. He had seen that Chi Cheng was fighting his own battle, trapped in his own cage of duty and honor.
He didn’t speak. Instead, he slowly, tentatively, reached out his hand. His fingers, cold from the rain, brushed against Chi Cheng’s, which were resting on his own knee.
Chi Cheng flinched, but he did not pull away.
Their fingers intertwined, there in the dim cave, with the storm raging outside.
It was not a kiss. It was not a declaration. It was something quieter, more profound. A silent pact in the darkness. An acknowledgment that they were both trapped, both fighting, both drawn to a fire that could indeed consume them.
The distance was gone. In its place was a new, terrifying intimacy, forged in shared vulnerability and a love that dared not speak its name. As Chi Cheng felt the cool weight of Suowei’s hand in his, he knew the architecture of his revenge was crumbling. The ghost had been seen, and it could never go back into the machine. The path ahead was shrouded in a mist more impenetrable than the storm, and he was no longer sure which direction led to vengeance, and which led to his own heart’s destruction.
Chapter 9: Interlude of a Wounded Sparrow
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My headache is killing me
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The storm eventually subsided, its fury spent, leaving behind a world washed clean and dripping. The search party, led by a frantic Jiang Xiaoshuai and a grim-faced Guo Chengyu, found them just as the first rays of the evening sun pierced the clouds.
They discovered the prince seated on a rock outside the cave, his ankle expertly bound, and his knight standing guard a few feet away, his posture as rigid as if they were in the throne room, not a muddy ravine.
The return to the palace was a silent, tense affair. Suowei, pale and in pain, was placed in a litter. He said nothing, his gaze distant, but his fingers occasionally brushed against the strip of cloth still tied around his ankle—Chi Cheng’s cloth.
Chi Cheng rode beside the litter, his face a mask of stone, but his mind was a churning sea. The fragile connection re-forged in the cave felt both like a lifeline and a noose.
The physician was summoned again, this time for the prince. A severe sprain, bed rest ordered for at least a week. The Emperor was furious, not at the accident, but at the perceived recklessness. The betrothal ceremonies were temporarily postponed. The public spectacle was put on hold.
For Chi Cheng, it meant his world shrank to the four walls of the Rising Sun Pavilion. With Suowei confined to his chambers, his knight’s duties became intensely domestic, profoundly intimate.
He was no longer just a guard at the door; he was a constant presence in the prince’s private sphere.
The first day was stilted, awkward. Suowei was propped up on a mountain of silk pillows, his injured foot elevated. He pretended to read, but his eyes kept drifting to where Chi Cheng stood by the window.
“The physician left a tonic,” Chi Cheng said eventually, his voice cutting through the heavy silence. He poured the dark, pungent liquid into a jade cup and brought it to the bedside.
Suowei made a face. “It smells like boiled weeds and regret.”
“It will reduce the swelling,” Chi Cheng stated, holding out the cup.
Suowei looked from the cup to Chi Cheng’s impassive face. A flicker of his old defiance returned. “And if I refuse?”
“Then the pain will persist, and your recovery will be delayed,” Chi Cheng replied, his tone utterly factual. He did not move, the cup held steady.
They were at an impasse. It was a tiny, ridiculous power struggle in the grand scheme of their tangled lives, but it was about so much more than medicine. It was about the push and pull between them, about who yielded.
Finally, with a sigh of surrender that was not entirely about the tonic, Suowei took the cup. His fingers brushed against Chi Cheng’s as he did so, a deliberate touch this time. He drank the concoction in one swift, grimacing gulp, handing the empty cup back.
“Satisfied?” he asked, his voice slightly hoarse from the bitter brew.
“My satisfaction is irrelevant, Your Highness,” Chi Cheng said, turning to place the cup back on the tray. “Your health is my concern.”
“Is it?” Suowei murmured, so quietly Chi Cheng almost didn’t hear it.
The second day, the barriers lowered another degree. Boredom and discomfort made Suowei restless. He tried to get out of bed, insisting he could hop to his writing desk. Chi Cheng, without a word, simply walked over, slid an arm around his waist, and half-carried, half-supported him to the desk, ignoring the prince’s startled gasp.
“I could have called a servant,” Suowei said, his face flushed as he settled into the chair.
“I am here,” was Chi Cheng’s simple, unanswerable reply.
He stood nearby as Suowei attempted to write letters, his presence a silent, solid anchor. When Suowei grew frustrated and crumpled a piece of paper, it was Chi Cheng who smoothly provided a new sheet. When his brush ran dry, Chi Cheng was there to grind fresh ink.
They didn’t speak of the cave, or the kiss, or the storm of emotions between them. They existed in a fragile, wordless truce, built on the mundane necessities of care.
On the third day, Suowei was in significant pain, the initial shock having worn off. He was pale, with dark circles under his eyes, and he shifted constantly, trying to find a comfortable position. Chi Cheng watched this silent suffering for an hour before he finally spoke.
“The physician left a salve for the pain. It needs to be applied and massaged into the muscle.”
Suowei looked at him, a complex mix of hope and embarrassment in his eyes. “You… you don’t have to.”
“It will help you sleep,” Chi Cheng said. His voice was low, leaving no room for argument. He fetched the small ceramic jar of salve.
This was a new level of intimacy, far beyond carrying him or handing him a cup. Chi Cheng knelt by the bed. He carefully unwrapped the bandage, his movements slow and deliberate. Suowei’s breath hitched as his swollen, discolored ankle was exposed to the cool air.
Chi Cheng’s hands were swordsman’s hands, calloused and strong. But as he scooped out the green, herb-scented salve and began to massage it into Suowei’s foot and ankle, his touch was unexpectedly gentle.
It was a practiced, methodical pressure, working the tight, pained muscles, careful to avoid causing more hurt.
Suowei let out a soft, involuntary sigh, his head falling back against the pillows. His eyes drifted shut. The tension slowly seeped out of his body under the relentless, soothing rhythm of Chi Cheng’s hands.
Chi Cheng focused on his task, on the anatomy of the foot, on the feel of bone and sinew under his fingers. It was a way to distance himself from the reality of what he was doing: tenderly caring for the body of the man whose family he had sworn to destroy. He could feel the trust radiating from Suowei, a trust so complete it was like a physical weight.
He worked in silence for a long time, the only sounds being the crackle of the fire in the hearth and Suowei’s gradually deepening breaths. When he finally finished and began to re-wrap the ankle with a fresh bandage, Suowei spoke, his voice drowsy and thick with impending sleep.
“When I was a child,” he murmured, his eyes still closed, “I fell from a tree in this very courtyard. I broke my arm. My grandfather was furious. He said a prince should not be climbing trees. My father was disappointed. The physicians were rough, efficient.” He paused, swallowing. “My mother… she was the only one who held my hand. Her touch was the only thing that didn’t hurt.”
He opened his eyes then, and looked directly at Chi Cheng, his gaze clear and unbearably soft.
“Your touch doesn’t hurt either, Chi Cheng.”
The words landed in the center of Chi Cheng’s chest, piercing through all his defenses. He finished tying the bandage, his movements slowing to a stop. His hand rested on Suowei’s calf, just above the injured ankle. He could feel the warmth of the prince’s skin through the thin silk of his sleeping trousers.
He looked up and met Suowei’s gaze. There were no masks left. No prince, no knight. Just two young men in a quiet room, one wounded in body and spirit, the other wounded in soul.
“Sleep, Your Highness,” Chi Cheng said, his voice rough with an emotion he could no longer name. “I will be here.”
He did not move from his spot on the floor beside the bed. He remained there, a silent sentinel, as Suowei finally drifted into a deep, peaceful sleep, the first real rest he’d had since his fall. The lines of pain had smoothed from his face, replaced by an expression of profound trust.
Chi Cheng watched him sleep, the firelight playing over his features. The plan, the revenge, the fallen kingdom of Chi—it all felt like a distant, fading dream. This, the warmth of the room, the steady rhythm of Suowei’s breathing, the memory of his touch on the prince’s skin—this felt terrifyingly, undeniably real.
He had entered this room as a predator tending to his captured prey. But somewhere in the quiet ritual of tonic and salve, in the unspoken understanding and the devastating trust, the roles had blurred beyond recognition.
The wounded sparrow had, with its innocent vulnerability, tamed the serpent. And the serpent, for the first time, did not mind the captivity.
The outside world, with its betrothals and wars and vengeance, was waiting. But for now, in this interlude of convalescence, there was only this fragile peace. And Chi Cheng knew, with a certainty that chilled him to his core, that when the time came to shatter it, it would not just be the prince’s world that broke.
His own would fracture along with it.
The salve on his hands could soothe a sprained ankle, but it could never heal the mortal wound he was destined to inflict.
Chapter 10: Key of Deceit
Notes:
I gotta update now. I’ll have no time later (i think so?) since we will be in the church for a school activity (i’m not religious)
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The week of convalescence passed in a strange, suspended reality. Within the sun-drenched confines of the Rising Sun Pavilion, a world built on quiet routines and unspoken understandings had taken root.
Chi Cheng was now a constant, silent pillar around which Suowei’s diminished existence now revolved. He brought meals, ensured the prince took his bitter tonics, and applied the healing salve with those same, surprisingly gentle hands.
The initial awkwardness had melted away, replaced by a comfortable, domestic quiet. They spoke little, but the silence was no longer heavy, filled instead with the rustle of turning pages and the simple, profound comfort of shared presence.
Suowei, freed from the exhausting performance of his public life, began to bloom in this protected space. The brittle, sharp-edged prince was replaced by a more thoughtful, softer version of himself.
He talked, not of court politics or his betrothal, but of the books he was reading. He shared his love for epic poems about faraway lands and heroes who fought for justice, his voice animated in a way Chi Cheng had never heard.
"It's the simplicity of it," Suowei said one afternoon, his injured ankle propped up as he gestured with a scroll.
"The hero knows his enemy. His cause is pure. There are no sycophants whispering lies, no duties that strangle the heart. He draws his sword for what is right, and the world is better for it." He sighed, the animation fading. "It must be a comforting fiction."
"Perhaps not entirely fiction," Chi Cheng found himself saying from his post by the window. He kept his gaze on the courtyard below, watching the palace guards change their shifts.
"The world has injustices. There are always those who fight them. The stories merely… simplify the cost."
"The cost," Suowei repeated softly. He was quiet for a long moment. "What would you fight for, Chi Cheng? If you were free to choose anything. Not duty, not command. What cause would be worth the cost?"
The question was a lance aimed at the most guarded part of his soul.
The annihilation of your bloodline. The restoration of my own.
The truth was a poison on his tongue.
He turned his head slightly, meeting Suowei's curious, earnest gaze. The prince was leaning forward, utterly captivated, waiting for an answer from the depths of a man he believed was defined by honor.
"I would fight for a world where a boy could climb a tree without being told it was beneath him," Chi Cheng said, his voice low and rough. It was not the whole truth, but it was a truth, one that resonated with the memory Suowei had shared. "I would fight for clean snow."
Suowei's breath caught. His eyes widened, shimmering with a sudden, profound emotion. It was as if Chi Cheng had not just given an answer, but had handed him a key to a secret chamber of his heart.
He looked away, a faint, beautiful blush coloring his cheeks. "Yes," he whispered. "That… that would be a cause worth any cost."
The trust in that moment was a physical, warming force in the room. It was also a shackle, tightening around Chi Cheng's heart.
This newfound intimacy did not go unnoticed. Jiang Xiaoshuai visited daily, his sharp eyes missing nothing. He saw the way Suowei's posture relaxed when Chi Cheng was in the room. He saw the casual way the prince now accepted the knight's help, the small, almost unconscious smiles he directed at the stoic guard.
"You seem… improved," Jiang Xiaoshuai commented carefully on the fifth day, as he and Suowei played a game of Go. Chi Cheng was across the room, polishing a piece of armor.
"The rest has been beneficial," Suowei replied, placing a stone with a confident click. He did not look at his friend, his attention subtly tuned to the soft, rhythmic sound of cloth on metal.
"Indeed," Jiang Xiaoshuai said, his tone neutral. "It is good that Knight Chi Cheng is so… attentive." He paused, then added, "He is a man of few words. I find I still know very little about him, despite his constant presence."
Suowei finally looked up, a defensive glint in his eyes. "His actions speak for him, Xiaoshuai. Loudly and clearly. That is all I need to know."
Jiang Xiaoshuai merely nodded, but the worry in his eyes deepened. He saw the absolute, unshakeable faith, and it terrified him. A wall that high could only cause a devastating fall.
Guo Chengyu, on the other hand, was delighted. During a brief, hushed exchange near the palace stables, he clapped Chi Cheng on his good shoulder.
"A week alone, playing nursemaid? Brilliant. You've woven yourself into the very fabric of his daily life. He'll be lost without you now. The information about the Fifth Battalion was a masterstroke. Our allies in the south are already creating… distractions. The western front is practically begging for us to walk in."
Chi Cheng merely grunted, the memory of Suowei's trusting smile as he drank his tonic a stark contrast to Guo Chengyu's predatory glee. "He is still confined. The information flow is slower."
"Patience, little prince," Guo Chengyu chided, his smile never fading. "A trapped animal is a desperate animal. And a desperate animal will eventually show you all its weaknesses. Just be ready to note them all down."
The final day of Suowei's confinement arrived. The physician pronounced the ankle healed enough for careful movement. The world outside, with all its pressures, was waiting to rush back in.
A summons had already arrived: the Prince was to dine with his father, the Emperor, and General Zhao that evening to "discuss the resumption of betrothal festivities."
The air in the pavilion grew thick with the impending return to reality. Suowei was quiet, pensive. He stood by the window, testing his weight on the healed ankle, his expression clouded.
"They will want to set a date for the wedding," he said, his voice flat. "They will talk of troop movements and supply lines as if discussing the weather. They will expect me to smile and agree."
Chi Cheng stood behind him, the familiar, rigid posture of the knight feeling like a costume he had to forcibly put back on. "It is your duty to lead, Your Highness." The words tasted like ash.
Suowei turned around, his eyes searching Chi Cheng's face. "Is it? To lead, or to be led?" He took a limping step closer. "This week… it has felt like the only real leadership I've ever exercised was over my own time. My own thoughts." He was close now, close enough for Chi Cheng to see the flecks of gold in his worried eyes. "I don't want it to end."
"It must," Chi Cheng said, his voice harder than he intended. The walls had to go back up. The performance had to resume. For the plan. For Chi. The mantra felt hollow.
Suowei's face fell, the hope in his eyes dimming. He nodded slowly, the prince's mask descending once more. "Of course. You are right. Duty calls."
He moved to walk past Chi Cheng, back towards the center of the room, but his step was still unsteady. His injured ankle turned slightly on the rug, and he stumbled.
It was a small misstep, inconsequential. But Chi Cheng's body moved before his mind could command it. His hand shot out, gripping Suowei's elbow firmly, steadying him. The touch was electric, a jolt that shattered the cool distance they had just tried to re-establish.
Suowei froze, his head bowed. He didn't pull away. His free hand came up, covering Chi Cheng's where it held his arm. His touch was warm, his fingers pressing down, as if trying to imprint the feeling.
"Thank you," Suowei whispered, his voice thick. "For this week. For… everything."
He didn't wait for a response. He straightened his shoulders, released Chi Cheng's hand, and walked out of the pavilion to prepare for his dinner, his steps slow but sure.
Chi Cheng stood alone in the suddenly vast and empty room. The ghost of Suowei's touch burned on his hand. The scent of the prince's sandalwood soap still lingered in the air.
He had successfully used the week to deepen the prince's dependence, to solidify his trust. He had the information he needed. The path to revenge was clearer than ever.
But as he looked around at the room that had felt, for a fleeting moment, like a home, he knew with a sickening certainty that he had also lost ground. The key of deceit had unlocked Suowei's heart, but it had also, irrevocably, turned in the lock of his own.
The gilded cage was about to be reopened, but the serpent was no longer sure it wanted to leave. The most dangerous part of the trap was now the intoxicating, terrible comfort of the cage itself.
Chapter 11: An Orchestra of Doom
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The resumption of Suowei’s public life was a violent return to a script Chi Cheng had grown to despise. The intimate quiet of the pavilion was shattered by the gilded cacophony of the court. The dinner with the Emperor and General Zhao was not a meal but a war council draped in silk, a strategic dissection of his future, and Chi Cheng was its silent, omniscient archivist.
He stood at his post, a statue of obsidian in the flickering torchlight, his gaze missing nothing. He watched Suowei, seated between his father and his future father-in-law, perform his role with a polished, detached grace that was a masterpiece of repression.
The soft, thoughtful young man from the pavilion had been locked away, replaced by the empire’s Prince, a hollow effigy.
General Zhao, a bull of a man whose voice echoed with the ghosts of countless battles, raised his cup. “The diversion of the Fifth Battalion to the south has proven… instructive,” he declared, a predator’s smile on his lips.
“It has drawn the dissidents into the open. Once they are crushed, the battalion will pivot west. The campaign will proceed with overwhelming force.”
The Emperor, a withered raptor on his throne, nodded his approval. “The Chi remnants in the west grow bold, thinking our gaze is averted.” His eyes, still sharp with a cruel intelligence, slid to his grandson. “You see? War is a game of Go on a continental scale. Patience. Deception.”
Suowei took a deliberate sip of wine. “A game with a high cost for the pieces being moved, Grandfather.”
General Zhao’s laugh was the sound of grinding stone. “A necessary cost! The strong dictate the rules. The weak suffer them. It is the natural order.”
From the shadows, Chi Cheng’s hatred was a cold, focused flame. Dictate the rules. He committed the general’s face to memory, every line of hubris. This man was the blunt instrument of the Wu, and Chi Cheng was the hand that would soon guide that instrument to shatter against the anvil he had prepared.
“The wedding,” the Emperor continued, as if scheduling a grain shipment. “It will follow the autumn harvest. A public celebration of the union between the throne and the sword. It will cement morale for the final push.”
Suowei’s knuckles whitened around his jade cup, but his voice was a placid lake. “As you wish.”
Chi Cheng absorbed it all—the timeline, the justification, the casual cruelty. The autumn harvest. The deadline was set. He had months to complete his masterpiece of betrayal.
After the dinner, Suowei walked to the gardens, with Chi Cheng a silent, inevitable presence behind him. He stopped at the koi pond, his shoulders slumped, the performance finally over.
“A game of Go,” Suowei whispered to the dark water. “He sees people as pieces. And I am the royal prize, to be placed for the greatest advantage.” He turned, his eyes seeking Chi Cheng’s in the moonlight, desperate for an echo of the understanding they had shared. “Is that all there is?”
The prince was pleading for a conspirator, for the man who spoke of clean snow.
But the architect of ruin could not afford to comfort his primary target. The plan required a pliable, trusting prince, one who would not suspect the serpent coiled around his heart.
“The board is the reality,” Chi Cheng stated, his voice devoid of warmth, a strategist stating a fact. “To win, one must first master all its rules.”
He saw the light in Suowei’s eyes gutter and die, replaced by the bleak acceptance of a prisoner. He had offered a lesson in power when Suowei had begged for a fragment of his soul.
“Of course. The rules,” Suowei echoed, his voice flat. He turned away. “I am retiring. Ensure I am not disturbed.”
The dismissal was noted, and dismissed in turn by Chi Cheng. He was not a servant to be sent away; he was a force of nature, and his purpose was unwavering.
Later, in the dead of night, it was Guo Chengyu who came to him. He found Chi Cheng in the palace armory, not polishing armor, but methodically inspecting a shipment of newly tempered blades, testing their balance with a critical eye.
“The little prince is building walls,” Guo Chengyu murmured, leaning against a rack of spears. “He’s attending briefings, reviewing logistics. The flow of information has slowed to a drip. He’s closing himself off.”
Chi Cheng did not look up from the sword in his hand. “His spirit is being broken by the weight of his destiny. It is a predictable reaction.” He set the blade down with a definitive click. “The pressure will force a fracture. He will seek escape, or he will shatter. We will be there when he does.”
“We need those deployment schedules,” Guo Chengyu pressed, his tone losing its playful edge, becoming that of a subordinate reporting a tactical concern. “If they discover our cells within the western merchant guilds before we are ready…”
“They will not,” Chi Cheng interrupted, his voice low and absolute. He finally turned his head, his gaze pinning Guo Chengyu in place. The full force of his authority, cold and domineering, filled the space between them.
“The dissidents in the south will keep the Fifth Battalion occupied. The western commanders are overconfident and blind. The prince’s emotional state is my concern to manage. Your concern is to ensure the network is ready to move when I give the command.”
Guo Chengyu straightened slightly, the fox recognizing the wolf. “Understood.”
“The prince is a tool,” Chi Cheng said, turning back to the swords, his voice dropping to a whisper that was more threat than statement.
“A delicate, complex, and necessary tool. I will wield him. You will ensure the rest of the machinery is oiled and sharp. Do not question my handling of the primary instrument again.”
There was no argument. There was only the silent acknowledgment of the chain of command. Guo Chengyu bowed his head slightly and melted back into the shadows, his task clear.
Chi Cheng stood alone in the silent armory, the scent of oil and metal in his nostrils. He had asserted his dominance, reminded his most useful tool of his place. The plan was on track.
But as he looked at his reflection, distorted and grim, in the polished surface of a blade, the face of a haunted man stared back. The maestro was in control. The instrument was ready.
But the face in the sword was not that of a victorious prince. It was the face of a man who had just coldly sentenced the one person who looked at him not as a prince or a weapon, but as a man, to a fate worse than death. And for the first time, the taste of his own absolute authority was ashen and bitter.
Chapter 12: The Deliberate Fracture
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
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Chi Cheng’s calculated coldness achieved its desired effect, but the result was more devastating than even he had anticipated.
Suowei did not shatter; he petrified.
The lively, curious intelligence that had begun to emerge during his convalescence was snuffed out, replaced by a hollow-eyed automaton who performed his duties with flawless, soulless precision.
He was the perfect Prince, and the sight of it filled Chi Cheng with a cold, sick dread. A broken tool was useless. A soul-dead prince would not seek confidences or share secrets.
The river of intelligence had not just slowed; it had frozen solid.
This would not do.
The plan required a prince who felt, who struggled, who needed. Chi Cheng had to deliberately fracture that icy shell, not with kindness, but with a controlled, precise strike. He had to remind Suowei of the connection that existed between them, to make the prince crave it again, to become dependent on it to breathe.
The Mid-Autumn Festival provided the stage. The palace was a dreamscape of floating lanterns and laughter, a cruel parody of the joy Suowei did not feel. Chi Cheng watched from the shadows as the prince stood beside Lady Zhao on the central balcony, a beautiful, silent statue. His gaze was not on the lanterns staining the sky with color, but on some distant, internal pain.
Later, as the festivities died down, Chi Cheng did not wait. He went to the one place that had been theirs: the library. He lit a single lamp at their usual table, a beacon in the vast, dark silence, and he waited.
He was not a supplicant hoping for an audience. He was a hunter at his blind, patient and certain of his prey.
Nearly an hour passed before the door creaked open. Suowei stood there, still in his formal robes, looking like a ghost haunting his own life. He saw Chi Cheng, saw the single, defiant lamp, and a war waged on his face. Longing, sharp and immediate, battled with the deep, resentful hurt Chi Cheng had instilled.
“What are you doing here?” Suowei’s voice was scraped raw.
“The noise of the celebration was excessive,” Chi Cheng stated, his own voice calm, offering no apology, no explanation. He gestured to the scrolls on the table. “I sought quiet. I assumed you would as well.”
It was a challenge and an invitation wrapped in one. He was not asking for forgiveness; he was re-establishing a shared truth: that they were both aliens in this gilded world, and this library was their refuge.
Suowei hovered at the threshold, torn. The part of him that had been nurtured here, that had felt seen here, warred with the part that had been so coldly rebuffed. The silence stretched, taut and fragile.
Chi Cheng decided to apply more pressure. He picked up a scroll—a military treatise on logistics, one he knew Suowei had been struggling with before his injury.
“The argument for decentralized supply depots is flawed,” he said, as if they were in the middle of a conversation from a week ago. “It assumes loyal local governance. A fatal assumption in contested territory.”
It was the perfect bait. An intellectual challenge that spoke directly to Suowei’s current duties and his hidden frustrations.
Suowei took a hesitant step into the room, then another. The need to engage, to be seen as a mind and not just a prize, was too strong. “The text argues that speed of resupply is paramount,” he countered, his voice gaining a sliver of its old energy.
“Speed is irrelevant if the supplies are intercepted or poisoned,” Chi Cheng rebutted, his gaze intense.
“A centralized, heavily guarded supply line, though slower, is the only path that guarantees an army reaches the battlefield intact. It is the difference between a flash of lightning and a steady, unquenchable fire.”
He was not just talking about military strategy. He was talking about them. His own presence in Suowei’s life was not a flash of lightning; it was that steady, relentless fire, one that could not be so easily extinguished by a few cold words.
Suowei stopped at the opposite side of the table, his hands resting on the polished wood. He was breathing slightly faster. “A steady fire can still be smothered.”
“Only if one provides it no air,” Chi Cheng replied, holding his gaze. “And only a fool would try to smother the one source of heat in a frozen world.”
The metaphor hung in the air, too direct to be misinterpreted. He was calling Suowei a fool for pushing him away. He was asserting that he, Chi Cheng, was the only real thing in the prince’s gilded prison.
Suowei’s defenses crumbled. The resentment bled away, leaving behind a naked, aching need. The icy shell fractured with an almost audible crack.
He sank into the chair opposite Chi Cheng, his shoulders slumping in defeat. “I cannot do this,” he whispered, the words a confession of surrender. “I cannot sit in those rooms and listen to them plan… everything. My life. This war. I feel like I am drowning.”
This was the opening. The controlled fracture had worked.
“Then stop listening to them,” Chi Cheng said, his voice dropping to a compelling, intimate murmur. He leaned forward, the lamp casting his face in sharp relief.
“Listen to yourself. What do you see? What are your thoughts on the western campaign? The generals see only lines on a map. You see the people who live there. Use that.”
He was not offering comfort. He was offering a partnership in rebellion. He was validating Suowei’s perspective and, in doing so, guiding him to the very information he needed.
A spark ignited in Suowei’s eyes, a desperate, hungry light. “They are so blind,” he said, his voice gaining strength. “They think the western lords will capitulate easily because their forces are scattered. But my father’s own spies report…” He stopped, a flicker of caution returning.
Chi Cheng did not press. He simply waited, his expression one of unwavering attention, a sharpening stone ready for the blade.
The trust, so recently wounded, proved stronger than the caution. The need to share, to be understood, was too great.
“The reports suggest the western resistance is more organized than we thought,” Suowei confessed, the words tumbling out in a hushed, fervent stream.
“They’re not just scattered bands. They have a leader. Someone unifying them. Someone with resources. My father thinks it’s a minor noble with a grudge, but the coordination… it’s too precise. It feels like something else.”
It is me, Chi Cheng thought, a thrill of dark triumph coursing through him. It is my will, my resources, my vengeance.
“A unified enemy is a more dangerous one,” Chi Cheng commented, his tone gravely serious. “But also a more predictable one. They will have a center. A head. Cut it off, and the body dies.”
“That’s what General Zhao wants to do,” Suowei said, leaning forward now, caught in the thrill of this clandestine council. “He wants to commit the entire Iron Cavalry to a decapitation strike as soon as the Fifth Battalion returns from the south. He’s drawn up the plans. He presented them today.”
This was it. The golden intelligence. The exact strategy of the Wu’s premier attacking force.
“The Iron Cavalry is a sledgehammer,” Chi Cheng mused, feigning strategic analysis. “Effective, but obvious. A decapitation strike relies on surprise. If the enemy has the intelligence network you suspect, they will see the hammer coming.”
“Exactly!” Suowei exclaimed, his eyes alight. For a moment, he was not a trapped prince, but a strategist, and Chi Cheng was his most valued general. “They would be walking into a trap! But my father and the General will not listen to me. They see hesitation. Weakness.”
“It is not weakness to refuse to charge off a cliff simply because others are too blind to see the drop,” Chi Cheng said. He reached across the table, not to touch Suowei, but to tap a finger on the military treatise. “It is wisdom. Hold to it.”
The gesture, the words, the intense, focused attention—it was a balm and a drug. Suowei soaked it in, the color returning to his cheeks, the life flooding back into his eyes. The fracture had been expertly made, and now Chi Cheng was filling the crack with a new, stronger alloy of dependence and shared purpose.
They talked for another hour, the prince pouring out his fears and frustrations, the knight offering steady, "loyal" counsel that subtly reinforced every doubt and strategically extracted every piece of useful information.
When Suowei finally retired for the night, he was a different man from the one who had entered the library. The hollow automaton was gone, replaced by a prince with a secret ally, a renewed, if misguided, sense of agency.
Chi Cheng extinguished the lamp and stood in the returning darkness. The flow of intelligence was restored. The plan was advancing. He had successfully manipulated the prince's emotional state to serve his ends.
He had won.
But as he left the library, the ghost of Suowei’s grateful, revitalized expression haunted him. The deliberate fracture had worked too well. He had not just retrieved a tool; he had reminded himself of its delicate beauty, and the terrible, coming sound of its breaking now echoed in his soul, a premonition of a shatter that would, this time, be final.
Notes:
For every lie that Chi Cheng spits, my heart breaks piece by piece
Chapter 13: Forge of Dependency
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The clandestine library council became their new normal. In the wake of the Mid-Autumn Festival, a fragile, powerful understanding settled between them.
The coldness was gone, replaced by a charged alliance, a conspiracy of two against the gilded world that sought to cage them both. Suowei, buoyed by Chi Cheng’s unwavering, if stoic, support, began to change.
The bratty prince was a discarded skin; in his place emerged a more serious, observant heir, one who now viewed his duties not as a burden, but as a source of intelligence to be shared with his most trusted ally.
Their late-night sessions were no longer just about shared solace. They were war rooms. Suowei would arrive, often still in his formal robes from some tedious state function, a scroll or a memory tucked under his arm.
“The Minister of Revenue is skimming from the northern grain shipments,” he would state, unrolling a ledger on their table. “He’s using the funds to buy favor with General Zhao’s faction. See here, the discrepancies in the tally from the last three shipments?”
Chi Cheng would lean over, his shoulder brushing Suowei’s, the contact now a familiar, unremarked-upon occurrence. He would trace a calloused finger down the columns of figures. “A predictable pattern. Greed makes men careless. This could be used to weaken the General’s support in the court.”
“I’ve already drafted a memo to the Censorate,” Suowei would say, a flicker of grim satisfaction in his eyes. “Anonymous, of course. Let them tear each other apart.”
It was a beautiful, terrible dance. Chi Cheng, the master strategist, fed Suowei’s nascent political instincts, guiding him to undermine the very structures that propped up his own family’s rule. He was teaching the songbird to chew through the bars of its own cage, all while knowing the cage was destined for the furnace.
The information was a torrent now. Suowei, feeling empowered and finally effective, held nothing back. He shared everything: the deployment schedules for the Iron Cavalry, the weaknesses in the coastal defenses, the names of corrupt officials whose loyalties could be swayed.
Chi Cheng was a perfect vault, absorbing it all, his mind a dark ledger where every secret was a debit against the Wu dynasty.
One evening, Suowei arrived looking more agitated than usual. He paced before the fireplace, his movements sharp with a restless energy.
“My father,” he began, his voice tight. “He is… unwell. The physicians whisper of a failing heart. He grows more paranoid by the day. Today, he spoke of purging the court of ‘disloyal elements.’ He has a list.” Suowei stopped his pacing and looked at Chi Cheng, his face pale.
“Jiang Xiaoshuai’s uncle is on it. He’s a good man, just outspoken. He’s no traitor.”
This was a new level of trust. This was not state secrets; this was a deeply personal, dangerous fear.
“A purge based on paranoia weakens the kingdom from within,” Chi Cheng said, his voice a low, steadying rumble. He rose from his chair and stood before Suowei, blocking his frantic pacing. “It creates enemies where there were none and sows fear in your allies.”
“What can I do?” Suowei whispered, his eyes desperate. “I cannot openly defy him. Not yet.”
Chi Cheng looked down at him, at the prince who was trusting him with the safety of his best friend’s family. The weight of the coming betrayal felt like a physical stone in his gut. He pushed the feeling down, locking it away in the same vault that held his past.
“You can warn him,” Chi Cheng said. “Discreetly. Through channels that cannot be traced back to you. Give him a chance to leave the capital, to take a ‘sudden pilgrimage’ to a distant temple. A prince has resources even his father does not know about.”
Suowei’s eyes widened, then narrowed in thought. The idea of having his own network, his own power separate from the throne, was intoxicating. “You’re right. I can… I can do that.” He looked up at Chi Cheng, a profound gratitude softening his features.
“You always know what to do. I don’t know what I would do without you.”
The words were a dagger. Chi Cheng’s hand, almost of its own volition, came up and rested on Suowei’s shoulder. The silk of his robe was cool under his palm. “You would endure,” he said, the words tasting like a lie. “But you do not have to.”
Suowei leaned into the touch, his eyes fluttering closed for a brief second. The trust was absolute. The dependency was complete. He was clay in Chi Cheng’s hands, being shaped for a purpose he could never imagine.
The following day, Chi Cheng met Guo Chengyu in their usual spot. He relayed the information about the impending purge.
Guo Chengyu’s fox-like smile was wide. “A purge? Wonderful! Nothing creates willing allies like a healthy dose of imperial persecution. I will ensure Jiang Xiaoshuai’s uncle receives a ‘warning’ from a sympathetic source. He will flee, and his resentment will be a seed we can cultivate.” He studied Chi Cheng’s impassive face. “And the prince? He is giving you everything.”
“He is,” Chi Cheng confirmed, his voice flat. “He trusts me implicitly.”
“Good,” Guo Chengyu said, his eyes glinting. “Keep him close. The closer he is, the harder the fall. Remember the objective.”
The objective. The utter destruction of the Wu. The death of the old Emperor. The fall of Suowei’s father. The erasure of their legacy. The image of Suowei’s grateful, trusting face flashed in his mind, superimposed over the memory of his own father’s head on a pike.
“The objective is all that matters,” Chi Cheng replied, his tone leaving no room for doubt. He was the architect. He would not falter.
A week later, the court was thrown into uproar. Jiang Xiaoshuai’s uncle had indeed vanished overnight, leaving only a note about a spiritual crisis requiring immediate solitude.
The Emperor was furious, his paranoia confirmed. Suowei played his part perfectly, expressing shock and concern to his father, while secretly radiating a triumphant, fierce joy that he shared only with Chi Cheng in the privacy of the library.
“It worked,” he breathed, his eyes shining. “He’s safe. Because of you.”
He looked at Chi Cheng not as a knight, but as a partner. The distance between them had evaporated entirely. They were conspirators, allies, the only two people in the world who understood the rotten core of the Wu empire and were, in their own ways, working against it.
It was the most perfect, most devastating form of manipulation. Chi Cheng had not just gained Suowei’s trust; he had made the prince an unwitting accomplice in his own downfall. He had forged a dependency so profound that when the final blow came, it would not just be a betrayal from a trusted knight; it would be the annihilation of Suowei’s entire sense of self, his belief in his own judgment, his very will to fight back.
That night, as they stood together on the balcony outside the library, looking down at the sleeping palace, Suowei was quiet.
“When all of this is over,” he said softly, his gaze distant. “When I am Emperor… things will be different. There will be justice. There will be no more purges, no more wars of conquest.” He turned to Chi Cheng, his expression heartbreakingly earnest. “You will be by my side then. Not as my knight. As my… advisor. My foundation.”
The promise of a future. A future built on the very lies that were designed to ensure it would never come to pass.
Chi Cheng looked at him, at the starlight caught in his eyes, at the hopeful curve of his mouth. The cold, calculating part of his mind noted that this was the ultimate success. The prince was already planning a future that included him in a position of supreme power and intimacy.
But another part, a part that was growing louder and more desperate, screamed in silent agony.
He did not answer. He simply reached out and, with a feather-light touch, brushed a stray strand of hair from Suowei’s forehead. The gesture was so tender, so intimate, it was more telling than any words could ever be.
Suowei’s breath hitched. He captured Chi Cheng’s hand, holding it against his cheek for a moment, his eyes wide and full of a love that dared not speak its name.
In that silence, under the indifferent stars, the forge of dependency glowed white-hot. Chi Cheng had shaped his tool to perfection. But as he felt the warm, living skin beneath his fingers, he knew with a terrifying certainty that he had also tempered his own heart in the same fire.
The path to vengeance was paved with the prince’s unwavering trust, and every step forward felt like walking on shards of his own soul.
Chapter 14: Serpent’s Feast
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The success of the "pilgrimage" operation marked a turning point. Suowei was no longer a passive recipient of Chi Cheng's influence; he was an active, eager participant. He had tasted the heady wine of his own agency, of wielding power from the shadows to subvert his grandfather's tyranny, and he was intoxicated by it. Chi Cheng, in turn, refined his methods.
He became less a director and more a curator, presenting Suowei with problems and guiding him, with subtle questions and strategic silences, to the solutions that best served the Chi cause.
The library became the true seat of power in the Wu kingdom, though only two people knew it. Scrolls of tax records, military deployments, and personnel dossiers replaced poetry. Their conversations were hushed, intense affairs.
"They're planning to raise a 'loyalty levy' on the southern merchants," Suowei reported one night, his finger jabbing at a financial edict bearing his grandfather's seal. "It's blatant extortion. It will crush them and drive them straight into rebellion."
"A predictable outcome for short-sighted greed," Chi Cheng commented, his arms crossed as he leaned against the bookshelf. "But rebellion needs more than desperation. It needs leadership. Coordination."
Suowei's eyes lit up with that familiar, fierce light. "What if… what if the merchants had a warning? What if they were advised to… delay their payments? To plead poor harvests and bandit raids? To tie the tax collectors up in endless negotiations?"
"An effective stalling tactic," Chi Cheng acknowledged, a ghost of approval in his tone. "It would strain the imperial coffers, delay military pay, and foster unity among the merchants. It would make them ripe for… organization."
"Exactly!" Suowei said, already reaching for a blank scroll to draft his anonymous "suggestion." He was becoming a revolutionary, and his chief revolutionary was the very embodiment of the regime he sought to undermine.
Chi Cheng watched him, a complex mix of pride and self-loathing churning in his gut. He was a master sculptor, and the living marble was yielding beautifully to his touch. He relayed these developments to Guo Chengyu, who orchestrated the real-world consequences.
The southern merchants, guided by whispers from the shadows, began their coordinated resistance. The imperial coffers felt the pinch. General Zhao's demands for funds for his western campaign grew more strident, creating friction with the civil officials.
The noose was tightening, strand by invisible strand.
The strain was showing on the old Emperor. His paranoia, fed by the successful flight of Jiang Xiaoshuai's uncle and now the merchant resistance, curdled into something darker. He saw conspiracies in every shadow. The court held its breath, waiting for the next purge.
He focused his ire on his grandson, the Crown Prince. He saw Suowei's perceived "softness" as a direct threat to his legacy of iron-fisted rule.
This presented Chi Cheng with a unique opportunity. The Emperor was the ultimate target, but turning his wrath upon his chosen heir would cause catastrophic instability, a chaos the Chi resistance could exploit.
The chance came during a military briefing Chi Cheng attended. The Emperor himself was present, his voice a dry rasp that still commanded terror. He was reviewing plans for the Iron Cavalry's decapitation strike.
"The intelligence is clear," the Emperor declared, a bony finger stabbing a map. "The Chi leadership is hiding here, in the Valley of the Fallen Moon. We will sweep in at dawn, crush them, and hang their heads from the gates as a lesson."
Suowei, standing beside the throne, went very still. The Valley of the Fallen Moon was not the Chi headquarters. It was a neutral area, home to several peaceful villages and a monastery.
The "intelligence" was a plant, one of Guo Chengyu's finest deceptions. A strike there would be a massacre of innocents, a monstrous war crime that would turn the entire western region irrevocably against the Wu.
"Grandfather," Suowei began, his voice strained with respect. "The sources on that location are… unverified. Would it not be wiser to—"
"Wiser?" the old man croaked, turning his venomous gaze on his grandson. "You speak to me of wisdom? Your 'wisdom' has seen courtiers flee and merchants defy us! Your weakness is a cancer in this court! This is not a debate. The strike will proceed."
The humiliation was profound and public. Suowei's face paled, but he held his tongue. The briefing concluded. As they left, Chi Cheng saw the look in Suowei's eyes—not just hurt, but a cold, simmering fury. The dutiful grandson was being pushed to his breaking point.
That night in the library, the fury was still there, a banked fire in Suowei's gaze. "He would slaughter a valley of innocents for a phantom. For a lesson. He is a monster."
"He is the Emperor," Chi Cheng said, his voice neutral. "His word is law. The cavalry will ride, and the valley will burn."
"Unless they are stopped," Suowei whispered, the words hanging in the air like a confession of treason.
Chi Cheng remained silent, letting the idea take root. He was not suggesting it; he was merely stating the inevitable outcome of inaction.
"How?" Suowei asked, his eyes desperate, seeking the solution from his only guide.
"There is a narrow pass on the route to the valley," Chi Cheng said slowly, as if piecing it together himself. "The Serpent's Tongue. Prone to rockslides, especially after rain. The weather sages predict heavy storms in that region in two days' time."
Understanding dawned on Suowei's face, followed by a wave of horror. "A rockslide… it would block the pass. Delay them for days, maybe weeks."
"Long enough for the 'intelligence' to be re-evaluated. Long enough to save the valley," Chi Cheng finished.
It was a direct, actionable act of sabotage against the Wu military. It was treason of the highest order.
Suowei paced, his internal struggle a visible storm. To betray his grandfather, his kingdom, for the sake of innocent lives. It was the ultimate test of the principles Chi Cheng had so carefully nurtured in him.
"He leaves me no choice," Suowei finally said, his voice quiet but resolute. "I cannot stand by and let that happen."
The decision was made. The Crown Prince had chosen the path of the rebel. Chi Cheng's manipulation was complete.
The plan was set into motion with chilling efficiency. Suowei, using the clandestine channels Chi Cheng had helped him establish, sent a coded message to a "loyal" frontier officer—a man secretly in Guo Chengyu's pocket.
The message contained a forged order, citing "new intelligence," for a team of engineers to "stabilize" the Serpent's Tongue pass, using controlled explosives that would, "unfortunately," trigger a catastrophic rockslide at the precise moment the Iron Vanguard was passing through.
Two days later, the news reached the capital. A tragic, unforeseen natural disaster had befallen the Iron Cavalry's route. The pass was utterly blocked. Dozens of soldiers were dead, hundreds more trapped. The decapitation strike was impossible.
The court was in an uproar. The Emperor was apoplectic with rage, his plans in ruins. He ranted about sabotage, but the weather sages and the "loyal" officer's report pointed overwhelmingly to a tragic accident.
Only two people in the entire empire knew the truth.
That night, Suowei was trembling when he entered the library. He looked pale, haunted. "It's done," he whispered, sinking into a chair. "They're saying… they're saying dozens are dead."
"Those deaths are on your grandfather's hands, not yours," Chi Cheng said, his voice firm, absolving. He poured a cup of strong wine and handed it to the prince. "He chose the path of slaughter. You chose the path of mercy. You saved a valley."
Suowei took the cup with shaking hands and drank deeply. "It doesn't feel like mercy. It feels… monstrous."
"Power often does," Chi Cheng said. He knelt before Suowei's chair, forcing the prince to look at him. It was a deliberately dominant, grounding posture. "You stared into the abyss of your family's power and you said 'no.' That is not monstrous. That is the first, true act of an emperor."
The words were a balm and a coronation. Suowei's eyes welled with tears, not of sadness, but of profound, overwhelming emotion. He was being validated in his treason, christened a true ruler by the man he revered above all others.
He reached out, his hand cupping Chi Cheng's jaw. The touch was desperate, seeking anchor. "I could not have done this without you. You are my strength. My conscience."
Chi Cheng held his gaze, allowing the moment to stretch, allowing the dependency to cement into something unbreakable. He had just guided the Crown Prince to cripple his own kingdom's military and emotionally break from his grandfather. It was his greatest victory.
But as he looked into Suowei's tear-filled, grateful eyes, the victory felt hollow. He had feasted on the prince's trust, devoured his loyalty, and consumed his innocence. The serpent had been given a seat at the table, and it had gorged itself on everything the songbird held dear.
He had won the battle, but the war for his own soul was slipping through his fingers. The taste of this feast was ash, and the hunger that remained was a yawning chasm of self-disgust.
The stage was set for the final act, and Chi Cheng, the master playwright, was beginning to dread the curtain's fall.
Chapter 15: The Weight of the Crown
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The rockslide at Serpent's Tongue Pass was a seismic event, its tremors felt far beyond the blocked mountain path. In the Wu court, the fissures that Chi Cheng had been meticulously exploiting were now gaping chasms.
The Emperor’s rage was a physical force, a storm that shook the palace’s very foundations. He saw not a tragic accident, but a deliberate, cosmic insult to his authority. His paranoia, once a simmering pot, now boiled over, scalding everyone in its vicinity.
Suowei became the primary target of this scorching suspicion. The Emperor’s formerly doting, if demanding, gaze was now a constant, accusatory glare. Every word the Crown Prince uttered was scrutinized for hidden dissent, every action for signs of treachery.
“He watches me,” Suowei confessed in the library, his voice hollow. He stood by the window, not seeing the gardens below, but feeling the weight of his grandfather’s eyes from across the palace. “During the morning audience, he asked me to justify the tax delays in the south. As if I control the weather and bandits. As if I… orchestrated it.”
Chi Cheng stood silently, a pillar of calm in the prince’s storm. “He is an old man, clutching at power as it slips through his fingers like sand. He sees shadows because his own light is dying. Your competence is a mirror showing him his own decay. He cannot break it, so he seeks to shatter you.”
The analysis was cold, clinical, and devastatingly accurate. It reframed the Emperor’s abuse not as a personal failure of Suowei’s, but as the death throes of a tyrant. It was a masterstroke of psychological manipulation, designed to further alienate the prince from his own bloodline.
“He is isolating me from everyone,” Suowei continued, wrapping his arms around himself. “He’s reassigned ministers I trusted to distant posts. He even questioned my mother’s loyalty, suggesting her family has… sympathies.” The pain in his voice was fresh and raw. His mother, Consort Zhang Li Ya, was his last bastion of unconditional love.
This was a new, volatile element. Chi Cheng’s mind, ever the strategist, immediately calculated the risks and opportunities. An attack on the Consort could push Suowei into a reckless, emotional act. Or, it could make him cling even more desperately to his sole remaining pillar of support: Chi Cheng himself.
“Your mother’s virtue is beyond question,” Chi Cheng stated, his tone leaving no room for doubt. “His words are a weapon, not a truth. Do not let him turn her into a blade to wound you. Your strength is your clarity. Your resolve.”
He was building a fortress around Suowei, with himself as its foundation and only gatekeeper. Every external support was being systematically portrayed as unreliable or under threat, leaving only Chi Cheng’s unwavering presence as a safe harbor.
The external pressure began to warp Suowei’s behavior in court. The thoughtful, rebellious strategist of their library sessions was forced into a shell of defensive silence. He spoke less, his answers becoming non-committal and vague, a desperate attempt to offer no purchase for his grandfather’s barbs.
The courtiers, sensing the shift in the wind, grew cautious around him. The Crown Prince was becoming untouchable, a prince of ice and silence.
Only with Chi Cheng did the ice melt. Their library sessions became more intense, more desperate. Suowei was like a man gasping for air, and Chi Cheng was his only source of oxygen.
“I need you to be my eyes and ears,” Suowei pleaded one night, his usual poise gone, replaced by a frantic urgency. “I cannot trust anyone else. The guards, the servants… he could have bought any of them. You must tell me what is being said in the corridors. What the generals truly think. I am blind.”
This was a pivotal moment. Suowei was not just sharing information; he was officially tasking Chi Cheng with espionage within his own household. He was making his knight the head of his personal, secret intelligence network.
Chi Cheng inclined his head, the perfect image of loyal efficiency. “It will be done, Your Highness.”
And so, Chi Cheng’s position was formalized and empowered. He now moved through the palace with a dual purpose: the visible duty of protection, and the invisible mandate of spy. He listened to the gossip of the guards, noted the worried whispers of the ministers, and reported it all back to Suowei, carefully curating the information to heighten the prince’s sense of isolation and impending doom.
He reported to Guo Chengyu as well, of course. The web of the Chi rebellion grew stronger with every secret passed from the Crown Prince’s lips to the resistance’s ears.
“The Prince is a fraying rope,” Guo Chengyu observed with grim satisfaction. “The more he depends on you, the tighter you can pull until he snaps. The old man is doing our work for us.”
“He is becoming unstable,” Chi Cheng corrected, his voice devoid of its usual cold certainty. He was watching Suowei crumble under the pressure, and the sight was… unsettling. “An unstable heir is a liability. We need him functional until the moment we no longer do.”
“You are the one keeping him functional, are you not?” Guo Chengyu’s question was pointed. “Just ensure you are the one who decides when that functionality ends.”
The strain culminated during a brutal public audience. The Emperor, in a fit of pique over another minor setback, publicly blamed Suowei for the “lax discipline” and “festering weakness” that had led to the rockslide “disaster.” The vitriol was shocking, a deliberate and cruel attempt to humiliate his heir before the entire court.
Suowei took it. He stood motionless, his face a pale, beautiful mask, his hands clenched so tightly at his sides that his nails drew blood from his palms. He did not flinch, he did not reply. He simply absorbed the hatred.
But when he returned to the Rising Sun Pavilion, the mask shattered. He did not make it to his chambers. He collapsed to his knees in the antechamber, his body wracked with silent, violent sobs that seemed to tear him apart from the inside.
Chi Cheng was there in an instant. He did not speak. Words were useless. He simply knelt, gathering the trembling prince into his arms. He pulled Suowei against his chest, one hand cradling the back of his head, the other a firm, steady band across his back, holding the broken pieces of him together.
Suowei clung to him, his fists gripping the fabric of Chi Cheng’s tunic, his tears soaking into the dark cloth. It was a complete surrender, a total breakdown. The weight of the crown, the burden of his name, the hatred of his grandfather—it was too much.
“I can’t… I can’t do this alone,” Suowei choked out between sobs, his voice muffled against Chi Cheng’s shoulder.
“You are not alone,” Chi Cheng murmured into his hair, the words a low, resonant vow in the quiet room. “I am here. I will always be here.”
It was the truth, and it was the most terrible lie he had ever told.
He held the Crown Prince of the Wu as he wept, the architect of his ruin offering the only comfort that could destroy him. In that moment, Chi Cheng was no longer just a spy or a strategist.
He was the sole pillar of a collapsing world, and the crushing weight of that responsibility settled deep into his bones.
The prince’s dependency was now absolute. He had entrusted Chi Cheng not just with his secrets, but with his broken spirit.
The final stage was set.
All that remained was for Chi Cheng to choose the moment to knock the pillar away and watch the entire world he had helped Suowei build come crashing down.
But as he felt the prince’s heartbeat slowly steady against his own, a terrifying question began to form in the depths of his soul: when the world falls, would he be standing in the ruins, or buried beneath them?
Chapter 16: The Gathering Storm
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The Emperor’s public humiliation of Suowei had an unintended consequence. While it shattered the prince’s public composure, it forged a new, desperate intimacy between him and Chi Cheng. The knight’s silent, solid presence during his breakdown had crossed a final threshold.
His touches became more frequent, more lingering—a hand on Chi Cheng’s arm to emphasize a point, his shoulder brushing against him as they looked over a scroll. It was a language of unspoken need, and Chi Cheng, trapped in his role, had to allow it.
This new closeness was about to be tested in a way Chi Cheng had not anticipated.
A royal hunt was announced, a grand affair meant to project an image of strength and unity after the recent "misfortunes." The Emperor, too frail to participate, would observe from a pavilion. The entire court, including General Zhao and his daughter, Lady Zhao Meiling, would attend.
For Suowei, it was another performance. But for Chi Cheng, it became a peculiar form of torture.
He stood at his usual distance as the hunting party assembled. Suowei was in high spirits, the forced gaiety a stark contrast to the broken man of days before. He was playing his part, laughing with the nobles, and—as protocol demanded—paying particular attention to his betrothed.
Lady Zhao Meiling, for her part, was blossoming away from the stifling formality of the palace. On horseback, she was confident and graceful. She and Suowei rode side-by-side, and to any observer, they made a stunning picture: the handsome Crown Prince and the elegant daughter of the most powerful general.
Chi Cheng watched them. He watched Suowei lean close to point out a bird of prey circling overhead, his head inclined toward hers. He watched Lady Zhao smile, a genuine, unguarded expression that transformed her face, and say something that made Suowei laugh—a real, unforced sound that Chi Cheng realized he hadn't heard in weeks.
A hot, sharp, and entirely irrational spike of something vile lanced through Chi Cheng’s chest. It was so sudden and so powerful it stole his breath. It was jealousy.
The emotion was so foreign, so at odds with his mission, that his mind immediately rejected it. This is part of the performance, he told himself, his jaw tightening. It is necessary. It serves the plan. He was the architect of this entire farce. He was the one who needed this alliance to keep Suowei complacent and the Wu military predictable.
But the cold logic of his revenge did nothing to quell the heat coiling in his gut. His fingers curled into fists at his sides. His mask of impassivity remained flawless, but beneath it, a storm was raging. He found his gaze fixated on the space between Suowei and Lady Zhao, on the easy familiarity that was developing between them.
It was a familiarity he had cultivated, a trust he had built, and now it was being offered to another.
When Suowei dismounted to help Lady Zhao over a small stream, his hand holding hers for a moment too long, Chi Cheng had to consciously force himself to unclench his jaw. The sight was a physical ache.
He is your enemy, he reminded himself, the old mantra a weak shield against this new, bewildering pain. His happiness is your failure. His connection to her strengthens the Wu. You should be pleased.
He was not pleased. He was furious. A dark, possessive urge rose in him, a primal need to stride over, to pull Suowei away, to mark him as his. The intensity of the feeling horrified him.
This was not part of the plan. This was a catastrophic loss of control.
The hunt culminated in a feast in a large hunting lodge. Suowei was seated at the head table with Lady Zhao and her father. Chi Cheng stood guard against the wall, a specter in the firelit hall.
He watched as toasts were made to the happy couple, to the future of the Wu. He watched Suowei play his part, his smile never reaching the eyes that occasionally, fleetingly, sought out Chi Cheng’s in the crowd, as if checking his anchor was still there.
Each time their eyes met, Chi Cheng felt a jolt, a possessive satisfaction that was immediately followed by a wave of self-disgust. He was becoming what he despised: a slave to his own emotions, a victim of the very attachment he was supposed to be engineering.
During a lull, Suowei excused himself and walked toward the balcony for air. Chi Cheng, as ever, followed. As Suowei leaned on the railing, looking out at the dark forest, Chi Cheng stood behind him, the silence between them thick with everything that had happened that day.
“She is not what I expected,” Suowei said softly, not turning around.
Chi Cheng’s entire body went rigid. Was he about to confess a growing affection? The green-eyed monster roared back to life. “Oh?” he managed, his voice dangerously flat.
“She is clever,” Suowei continued, oblivious to the tempest he was stirring. “She sees the court for the den of snakes it is. She… understands the pressure.” He sighed. “It is a pity.”
“A pity?” Chi Cheng’s voice was a low rasp.
“That it cannot be real,” Suowei said, finally turning to face him. His expression was not one of fondness for his betrothed, but one of profound sadness. “That the one person who feels real to me must always stand in the shadows.”
The words disarmed Chi Cheng completely. The jealousy vanished, replaced by a staggering, gut-wrenching wave of guilt. Suowei wasn’t falling for Lady Zhao; he was pitying her, and himself, for being trapped in a lie. And he was confessing that Chi Cheng was the only "real" thing in his life.
The architect had built his trap so well he was now the only thing holding his prey together. The realization was terrifying.
Before Chi Cheng could form a response, a commotion erupted inside. A mud-splattered courier, looking half-dead with exhaustion, was kneeling before General Zhao, handing him a sealed dispatch. The General’s face, moments ago flushed with wine and bonhomie, drained of all color as he read it.
He strode onto the balcony, his eyes wild. “Your Highness,” he barked, his voice cutting through the night. “We must return to the capital. Immediately.”
“What has happened?” Suowei asked, his princely demeanor snapping back into place.
“The Chi rebels,” General Zhao spat the name like a curse. “They didn’t just get lucky with a rockslide. They’ve overrun the garrison at Blackwater Fort. They’re organized. They’re armed with better steel than our own troops. And they’re flying a banner.”
Suowei’s breath caught. “What banner?”
General Zhao’s eyes, full of a confused, furious fear, met Suowei’s. “A Serpent. A red Serpent, slithering from ashes.”
The world stopped.
For Chi Cheng, it was as if the floor had fallen away. The Serpent. The symbol of the Chi royal family. His symbol. It was the signal he and Guo Chengyu had planned for—the moment the hidden resistance would openly declare itself, a direct challenge to the Wu throne. It was happening. The endgame was beginning.
But hearing it here, now, in this context, felt like a physical blow. He saw the shock and dawning horror on Suowei’s face. This was no longer a distant rebellion; it was a personal, symbolic threat to his very lineage.
Suowei turned, his gaze instinctively finding Chi Cheng’s. In his eyes was not suspicion, but a desperate need for guidance. “A Serpent? But… the Chi line was extinguished.”
Chi Cheng held his gaze, his own heart hammering against his ribs like a war drum. He was looking into the eyes of the man he loved—the admission finally, silently, screaming in his mind—and seeing the first cracks of a betrayal that would soon be absolute.
“It would seem the reports of its extinction were… premature, Your Highness,” Chi Cheng said, his voice the only calm thing in the suddenly chaotic night.
The words were a death knell. For the Wu. For Suowei. And, Chi Cheng feared, for himself. The jealousy, the possessiveness, the love—it was all a catastrophic distraction. The storm was no longer gathering; it had made landfall, and he was standing directly in its path, holding the hand of the person it was destined to destroy.
Chapter 17: Impending Loom
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The return to the capital was a grim, silent procession. The festive atmosphere of the hunt had been annihilated, replaced by a palpable tension that clung to the air like the scent of ozone before a lightning strike.
Inside his carriage, Suowei was silent, his face pale as he stared unseeingly at the passing landscape.
The Serpent banner was not just a rebel standard; it was a ghost, a direct challenge to the foundational myth of the Wu dynasty—that they had completely and utterly erased the Chi.
Chi Cheng rode beside the carriage, his mind a fortress under siege. The planned revelation of the Phoenix banner was supposed to be a moment of triumph, a declaration of his people’s unbroken will. Instead, he had witnessed its impact on Suowei’s face, and it had felt like a betrayal.
The cold, calculating part of his mind screamed that this was the point, that the prince’s pain was the fuel for his revenge. But the other part, the part that had held a sobbing Suowei in his arms, recoiled in horror.
The palace, upon their return, was a hive of frantic activity. Couriers sprinted through corridors, and the faces of ministers were etched with a fear they could no longer conceal.
The "festering weakness" the Emperor had railed about was now a gangrenous limb threatening the whole body.
Suowei was immediately summoned to the war council. Chi Cheng, as his personal knight, took his place standing guard at the back of the throne room, which had been converted into a strategic command center. Maps of the western provinces were spread across tables, marked with alarming red arrows indicating the rebels’ advances.
The Emperor, looking more skeletal than ever, presided over the chaos with a terrifying, quiet fury. “A Serpent,” he rasped, the word a poison on his tongue. “Some upstart dares to fly a dead kingdom’s banner. General Zhao. Explain this.”
General Zhao, his confidence shaken, could only report the facts. “The attack was coordinated, Your Majesty. They knew our patrol schedules, our weak points. They didn’t just overrun Blackwater Fort; they knew where to find the reserve weapon caches. It was… efficient.”
“Efficient?” the Emperor’s voice rose to a screech. “They are rats! And you let them chew through our walls! This is your failure!” His accusing gaze swept over his grandson.
“And yours! Your softness has emboldened them!”
Suowei stood tall under the assault, but Chi Cheng could see the fine tremor in his hands. “Grandfather, we must respond with strength, but also with intelligence. We need to understand who leads them. A mere ‘upstart’ could not have achieved this.”
“I know who leads them!” the Emperor shrieked, slamming a frail hand on the table.
“The ghost of every Chi whelp I put to the sword! They seek to haunt me from their graves! Well, I will dig up every grave in the west and salt the earth!” His paranoia had fully consumed him. He saw specters, not strategy.
It was a disastrous approach. A campaign of pure terror would only galvanize the western population against them. Chi Cheng watched, a silent predator, as the Wu leadership tore itself apart with fear and blame.
This was better than he had hoped.
But then Suowei spoke again, his voice cutting through the hysteria with a surprising, sharp clarity. “Terror will not win this war. It will only create more rebels. We need to cut off the head. We need to find their leader, their supply lines, their source of intelligence.”
He turned to General Zhao. “The reports mentioned better steel. Where is it coming from? Who is funding them? We have been fighting shadows. We must shine a light.”
Chi Cheng felt a cold knot tighten in his stomach. Suowei was thinking like a true commander. He was asking the right, dangerous questions.
The council devolved into arguments, with the Emperor demanding immediate, overwhelming force and Suowei and a few cooler-headed ministers advocating for a more surgical, investigative approach.
No clear decision was made, but a new, dangerous energy was born in that room: Suowei, the Crown Prince, was publicly positioning himself as the voice of reason against his grandfather’s deranged bloodlust.
After the exhausting, fruitless council, Suowei retreated to the library, Chi Cheng a step behind. The moment the doors closed, the prince’s composure broke. He leaned heavily on their usual table, his head bowed.
“He’s lost his mind,” Suowei whispered, his voice thick with despair. “He would burn the entire west to the ground and call it victory. He doesn’t see people; he sees insects to be crushed.”
Chi Cheng remained silent, his role now more complex than ever. He had to support Suowei’s rational stance—it was causing dissension in the enemy ranks—while ensuring the prince’s investigations did not lead back to him.
“We need our own light,” Suowei said, straightening up, a determined fire in his eyes. “You were right. We cannot trust the official channels. My grandfather’s spies are looking for phantoms. I need you to find the truth.”
He walked to a locked cabinet and produced a small, plain jade token. “This will grant you access to the Office of Imperial Records. The unedited reports from the western frontier are there. I want you to go. Now. Look for patterns he is missing. Find the source of their steel. Find their funding. Find the man behind the Phoenix.”
Chi Cheng took the token. It was cold and heavy in his palm. This was an unprecedented level of trust. He was being sent to the very heart of the Wu intelligence apparatus to investigate himself.
“I will find what others cannot see, Your Highness,” Chi Cheng vowed. It was not a lie.
He went to the Office of Imperial Records, a vast, dusty hall filled with towering shelves of scrolls. The token worked like a charm. The clerks, seeing the Crown Prince’s personal seal, gave him wide berth. For hours, he pored over the raw, unfiltered dispatches from Blackwater Fort and other recent skirmishes.
He read the terrified accounts of garrison commanders describing the rebels’ discipline, their superior swords that shattered Wu blades. He saw the first, confused mentions of the Phoenix banner.
And he saw something else, something that made his blood run cold: a footnote from a sharp-eyed quartermaster. The rebels’ new swords… their metallurgy was consistent with a rare ore found only in the northern mountains.
In the former Chi territories.
It was a thread. A thin, fragile one, but a thread that, if pulled, could lead all the way back to the secret forges he and Guo Chengyu had established in the ruins of his homeland.
He could not destroy the report—its absence would be noted. Instead, he carefully re-shelved it, making a mental note to have Guo Chengyu’s agents “lose” the next shipment of such reports.
He then compiled a separate, curated set of documents for Suowei, focusing on the rebels’ tactical coordination and hypothesizing about disgruntled Wu generals as a possible source of funding and arms—a red herring that would send the court hunting its own tail.
When he returned to the library deep into the night, Suowei was still awake, waiting for him anxiously.
“Well?” the prince asked, his eyes wide.
Chi Cheng laid out the selected scrolls. “The coordination is indeed military-grade. The source of their arms is unclear, but the patterns suggest they may have sympathizers within our own ranks. Perhaps a general seeking to leverage the chaos for his own advancement.” He subtly gestured toward the scrolls implicating General Zhao’s rivals.
Suowei’s face hardened. “I knew it. It’s not just a rebellion; it’s a coup from within.” He began to pace. “This changes everything. We can use this. We can turn the factions against each other, let them weaken themselves while we focus on the true threat.”
He was brilliant. He was taking Chi Cheng’s planted misinformation and building a brilliant, and utterly wrong, counter-strategy. The guilt was a live wire in Chi Cheng’s chest.
Suowei stopped his pacing and looked at Chi Cheng, his expression one of absolute, unwavering faith. “You see? This is why I need you. You see the truth in the chaos. You are the only one.”
He stepped forward, closing the distance between them. The air crackled. The events of the day—the fear, the pressure, the relief of having Chi Cheng as his anchor—had stripped away all pretense.
“Chi Cheng,” he whispered, his voice raw with emotion. “When this is over… when I am Emperor… things will be different. I promise you.”
He reached out, his hand coming to rest on Chi Cheng’s chest, over his heart. The touch was electric, a claim.
Chi Cheng stood frozen, his own heart hammering against the prince’s palm. The conflict within him was a maelstrom. Love, hatred, duty, desire—they warred, threatening to tear him apart. He should step back. He should reaffirm the boundary of knight and prince.
But he didn’t.
He covered Suowei’s hand with his own, pressing it more firmly against his chest, as if to say, This is yours. It has always been yours.
It was the truth, and it was the final, irrevocable step into the abyss.
He was no longer just manipulating the Crown Prince. He was loving him. And in loving him, he was ensuring his destruction would be absolute. The unraveling was no longer just of the Wu dynasty, but of Chi Cheng’s own soul.
He had become the most dangerous weapon in his own arsenal, a blade now pointed directly at his own heart.
Notes:
i actually gotta rush since finals are coming, lol. author-nim needs to study hard so that she’ll become an actually reliable nurse in the future.
Chapter 18: Whispers and Roars
Notes:
My heart hurts for you.
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The touch in the library became the new axis upon which their world spun.
It remained unspoken, a sacred, silent understanding that charged the air between them. Suowei carried himself with a new, quiet fortitude.
The frantic energy of before was now a focused, steady flame.
He had a partner in the shadows, an unwavering hand on his back. He navigated the court’s intrigues with a sharper, more discerning eye, his moves a blend of his own sharpening political instinct and the subtle, unseen guidance Chi Cheng provided.
For Chi Cheng, the labyrinth of his own making grew ever more complex. His reports to Guo Chengyu became masterpieces of omission and misdirection. He was still the chief engineer of the Wu's ruin, but he had also appointed himself the sole guardian of the prince who stood at the epicenter of the coming cataclysm.
He existed in a state of perpetual, silent war with himself. He would spend the morning deftly steering Suowei’s scrutiny toward a corrupt official whose downfall would cripple a Wu supply line, and then spend the evening standing silent vigil as the prince weathered another torrent of abuse from his grandfather, his own heart aching with a protectiveness that felt terrifyingly genuine.
The Emperor was dying.
The shock of the Serpent banner and the ensuing chaos of his court had fractured his tenuous grip on both power and sanity. Confined to his bed, he became a malevolent oracle, spewing orders and accusations from the darkness of his chambers.
His paranoia, once a diffuse cloud, now focused into a laser of hatred aimed directly at his grandson.
He interpreted Suowei’s growing assurance not as the maturation of an heir, but as the boldness of a usurper.
“He is convinced I am preparing to seize the throne,” Suowei said one evening, his voice weary. He pushed a scroll across the table—a transfer order for a company of the Imperial Guard, loyal men who had served his personal security for years, reassigned to a remote frontier post.
It was a deliberate, calculated weakening of his defenses. “He is stripping me bare, piece by piece.”
Chi Cheng looked at the order, his mind coldly calculating the tactical advantage this presented for his own forces. Yet, the primary emotion that rose was a fierce, possessive anger on Suowei’s behalf.
“It is the act of a frightened old man,” he said, his voice low and steady. “He fears your strength because he has none left. These games only reveal his weakness.”
It was then that Suowei looked up, a strange, contemplative expression on his face. “It’s just… sometimes the timing is uncanny.”
Chi Cheng’s blood ran cold, but his face remained an impassive mask. “Your Highness?”
Suowei gestured vaguely. “The rebel attack on the granary at White River. It happened the day after my grandfather diverted the garrison there to ‘investigate’ a phantom rebel camp I had pointed out as a false lead. Or the way the western lords have become so… uncooperative, just as I was beginning to win their favor. It’s as if… as if the rebels have a mirror held up to our every council. As if they know our every move almost before we make it.”
The air in the library grew still. Chi Cheng could feel the weight of the prince’s gaze, not accusatory, but deeply thoughtful.
This was the moment he had long anticipated and dreaded. The first flicker of doubt.
He met Suowei’s eyes, allowing no hint of guile to show. “It is the nature of a competent enemy, Your Highness. They study patterns. They exploit divisions. The chaos your grandfather sows creates a thousand openings. It is not magic; it is strategy.” He paused, then delivered the line with perfect, calculated timing.
“And you have been correct in your assessments. The phantom camp was a false lead. The western lords were wavering. The enemy is simply using the chaos he creates. They are not omniscient; they are opportunistic.”
He watched the logic settle over Suowei’s suspicion, smothering it. The prince’s brow furrowed, and then he nodded slowly, a sigh escaping him.
“You’re right. Of course, you’re right. I’m looking for phantoms in the dark, just as he does. It’s this constant tension. It makes me see shadows where there are only shifting shapes.”
The dismissal of his own instinct was a victory more profound than any battlefield triumph. Chi Cheng had not just deflected suspicion; he had reinforced Suowei’s dependency on his judgment. The prince trusted Chi Cheng’s calm analysis more than his own gut feeling.
“The shadows are real, Your Highness,” Chi Cheng said, his voice dropping to an intimate murmur. He took a step closer, invading the prince’s personal space not as a subject, but as a confidant. “But you must know which ones to watch. Your grandfather is the greatest shadow of all. Focus there. The rest are merely echoes.”
Suowei looked up at him, the last of his suspicion melting away under the intensity of Chi Cheng’s gaze.
In the face of such unwavering certainty, how could he doubt? This man had been his rock, his protector, the only source of truth in a palace of lies. To suspect him was to suspect the very ground beneath his feet.
“I would be lost in these shadows without you,” Suowei whispered, the admission one of absolute surrender.
Later, Chi Cheng relayed the incident to Guo Chengyu. “He is beginning to see the pattern.”
Guo Chengyu’s smile was all sharp edges. “And you guided his eyes away. Perfect. The fish is nibbling at the hook, but you’ve convinced him it’s a floating leaf. The moment of the strike will be that much more devastating.”
The words were like shards of glass. Chi Cheng said nothing, the memory of Suowei’s trusting, relieved face burning behind his eyes.
The following week, the Emperor’s condition deteriorated sharply. The court physicians spoke in hushed tones of a final, swift decline. The air in the palace grew thick with a morbid anticipation. Vultures in silk robes began to circle, their allegiances shifting with the changing winds.
It was during this tense vigil that the Emperor issued his most cruel command yet. In a moment of lucid malice, he declared that the Crown Prince’s betrothal to Lady Zhao Meiling would be celebrated immediately, a week hence.
It was to be a grand, hurried spectacle, a final act of imperial will, a desperate attempt to secure the Zhao alliance and bind his heir to the old order before he died.
The announcement struck Suowei like a physical blow. It was a sentence. The last vestige of his future was being publicly auctioned off on his grandfather’s deathbed.
He received the news in stony silence, then retreated to the one place he could breathe. He didn’t go to the library. He went to the isolated plum orchard, the site of their first, shattered kiss.
Chi Cheng found him there hours later, standing in the same spot, his shoulders slumped, the moonlight painting him in shades of silver and despair.
“He would chain me to my own throne,” Suowei said, his voice hollow, not turning around. “He knows it is the one thing I dread more than his hatred. So he gives it to me as a parting gift.”
Chi Cheng stood behind him, the urge to reach out, to pull him back from the edge, was a physical ache. “It is a ceremony. A pageant. It changes nothing of the truth.” The words felt feeble, meaningless.
“Doesn’t it?” Suowei finally turned. His eyes were dry, but filled with a hopelessness more profound than any tears. “It changes everything. It makes the lie official. It makes her my wife. It makes any future I dared to dream of… a sin.” His gaze was piercing, searching Chi Cheng’s face for a denial, for a miracle.
And in that moment, Chi Cheng made a choice. It was reckless. It was against every tenet of his plan. It was for himself.
He closed the distance between them. He didn’t speak. He framed Suowei’s face with his hands, his touch firm and undeniable. He saw the prince’s eyes widen in shock, then darken with a desperate, answering need.
Then, he kissed him.
It was not like the first, tentative kiss. This was a claiming. It was a promise and a rebellion fused together. It was a silent roar against the world that sought to tear them apart. It was the truth, finally, devastatingly, expressed without a single lie.
When they broke apart, both were breathing heavily. The hopelessness in Suowei’s eyes had been scorched away, replaced by a blazing, terrified hope.
“What does this mean?” Suowei breathed, his hands clutching at Chi Cheng’s robes.
Chi Cheng rested his forehead against Suowei’s, his own resolve, his revenge, his very identity, crumbling to dust around him. “It means,” he whispered, the words a vow torn from the depths of his soul, “that when the time comes, you will not face your fate alone.”
It was an oath.
But like everything between them, it was forged in a lie.
For Chi Cheng knew the fate that was coming, and he was its architect. In kissing the prince, in making this promise, he had not offered salvation. He had only made the inevitable betrayal infinitely more cruel.
The whisper of suspicion had been silenced, but in its place, a roar of doomed love was rising, a roar that Chi Cheng knew would soon be drowned out by the sound of a kingdom falling.
Chapter 19: The Conflagration
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The kiss in the plum orchard was not an end, but a detonation. The carefully maintained barriers between prince and knight, between duty and desire, shattered into a million iridescent shards, leaving behind a raw, terrifying landscape of truth.
For a long moment, they simply stood there, foreheads pressed together, breathing each other’s air, the world having narrowed to the space where their bodies almost touched.
Suowei was the first to move, his hands sliding from Chi Cheng’s robes to cup his face, his thumbs stroking the high, sharp planes of his cheekbones as if memorizing them. “Don’t let this be a dream,” he whispered, his voice ragged with a hope so fragile it threatened to break. “Don’t let me wake up.”
In answer, Chi Cheng captured his mouth again, this kiss slower, deeper, a deliberate and devastating exploration. It was an answer and a surrender. All the cold calculation, the rehearsed lies, the iron control—it all melted under the searing heat of Suowei’s touch.
The plan, the revenge, the ghost of the Chi Kingdom—they were distant, fading echoes.
There was only this. Only the taste of Suowei, the feel of his slender body pressed against his, the soft, desperate sounds he made in the back of his throat.
When they broke apart, the world rushed back in, but it was a different world. The moonlit orchard was no longer a place of secret meetings and painful goodbyes; it was a sanctuary, a world of their own making.
“Come with me,” Suowei said, his voice firm, his eyes holding a new, regal command that brooked no argument. He took Chi Cheng’s hand, his fingers lacing tightly with his, and led him not toward the main palace, but along a series of hidden, covered walkways used by servants.
They moved like ghosts through the sleeping palace, their footsteps silent on the cold stone.
The few night guards they passed were Suowei’s own, men whose loyalty Chi Cheng had personally vetted and, unbeknownst to the prince, subtly ensured. They saw their Crown Prince leading his knight by the hand, and they averted their eyes, offering silent, unquestioning deference.
They did not go to the grand, opulent main chamber of the Rising Sun Pavilion. Suowei led him to a smaller, more private antechamber, a room Chi Cheng had never entered. It was sparser than the prince’s public rooms, but infinitely more personal.
The air smelled of Suowei’s sandalwood soap and the faint, clean scent of ink. Scrolls of poetry lay on a small desk next to a half-finished sketch of a bird in flight.
This was the true Suowei, the man behind the crown prince.
The moment the door closed behind them, the last vestiges of pretense fell away. They came together in the center of the room like two stars colliding, all frantic hands and hungry mouths.
It was not a gentle seduction; it was a conflagration, a desperate attempt to burn away the outside world, to sear their truth into each other’s skin so it could never be denied again.
Suowei’s fingers fumbled with the fastenings of Chi Cheng’s uniform, his usual grace deserting him in his urgency. “I need to feel you,” he breathed against Chi Cheng’s neck, his lips tracing a hot path along his jaw. “No armor. No lies. Just you.”
Chi Cheng helped him, his own hands surprisingly unsteady as he divested the prince of his layers of fine silk.
Each revealed patch of skin was a revelation. The smooth, pale plane of his back, the delicate line of his collarbone, the frantic beat of his heart under Chi Cheng’s palm. He was so beautiful it was a physical pain.
When they were both bare, standing skin to skin in the moonlight filtering through the window, a sudden, profound stillness descended. The frantic energy subsided, replaced by a heavy, aching reverence.
Chi Cheng looked his fill, his gaze tracing the lines of the body he was sworn to protect and destined to destroy.
He saw not the Crown Prince of Wu, but Wu Suowei, the man he had come to love with a ferocity that terrified him.
Suowei looked back, his eyes wide and dark, filled with a trust so absolute it was like stepping to the edge of a precipice. He reached out, his hand trembling slightly as he traced the old, silvery scars that marred Chi Cheng’s torso—the history of a life of violence the prince knew nothing about. “You are real,” he murmured, as if confirming it to himself.
Then he guided Chi Cheng back toward the bed, a simple platform of dark wood piled with furs and linen. They fell onto it together, a tangle of limbs and desperate need. There were no more words. Language was too clumsy, too full of deception. They spoke with their bodies.
Chi Cheng worshipped him with his hands and his mouth, learning the map of his body, discovering the places that made him gasp and arch and cry out.
He was meticulous, thorough, as if committing every sigh, every tremor to an eternal memory. He poured every ounce of the love he could never speak, every bit of the agony of his deception, into his touch.
It was an apology and a confession, a prayer and a dirge, all at once.
When he finally sheathed himself inside Suowei, it was with a slow, deliberate care that bordered on agony. Suowei’s eyes fluttered shut, a single tear tracing a path from the corner of his eye into his hairline.
His body accepted Chi Cheng’s with a tight, hot welcome, his legs wrapping around his waist, pulling him deeper, closer.
“Look at me,” Chi Cheng commanded, his voice a raw, guttural whisper, the domineering prince surfacing through the lover.
Suowei’s eyes opened, hazy with pleasure and emotion. He held Chi Cheng’s gaze as they began to move, a slow, building rhythm that was less about friction and more about fusion. It was a desperate attempt to crawl inside each other, to become one entity so they could never be torn apart.
The world outside ceased to exist. There was no dying emperor, no political marriage, no rebellion, no revenge. There was only the slide of skin on skin, the hitch of breath, the whispered name— “Chi Cheng…”—that was both a plea and a benediction from Suowei’s lips.
For Chi Cheng, it was the most profound and most harrowing experience of his life. With every thrust, he was both building a paradise and digging its grave. He was making love to the man he adored, and he was betraying him in the most intimate way possible.
The pleasure was so intense it was a kind of pain, a searing brand of guilt and ecstasy that he knew would mark him forever.
When Suowei climaxed, it was with a broken, sobbing cry, his body convulsing around Chi Cheng’s, his fingers digging into his back as if he could physically fuse them together.
The sight, the feel, the sound of it shattered Chi Cheng’s last vestige of control. He followed him over the edge with a low, wounded groan, pouring his seed, his soul, his entire fractured being into the prince, his own release feeling like a death and a rebirth.
In the aftermath, they lay entangled, limbs heavy, hearts pounding a slowing, synchronized rhythm. The room was filled with the sound of their ragged breathing and the scent of their joining. Suowei curled into Chi Cheng’s side, his head on his chest, his hand splayed over his heart.
He was asleep in moments, a look of profound, untroubled peace on his face that Chi Cheng had never seen before.
Chi Cheng did not sleep.
He lay awake, holding the sleeping prince, and watched the moon trace its path across the floor. He memorized the weight of Suowei’s head on his shoulder, the soft puff of his breath against his skin, the absolute trust in the lax, comfortable way his body was draped over his.
This was it. The point of no return had not been the kiss, or the confession, or the shared treason. It was this. This quiet, devastating intimacy. He had taken everything Suowei had to offer—his trust, his body, his heart. And he had given of himself in return, more truly than he had ever given to anyone.
The cold, vengeful prince from the fallen kingdom was gone. In his place was a man hopelessly, irrevocably in love with his intended victim.
As the first hints of dawn painted the sky grey outside the window, Chi Cheng pressed a kiss to Suowei’s temple. The prince stirred slightly, a soft, contented sigh escaping his lips.
Chi Cheng closed his eyes, the weight of what was to come settling on him like a shroud. He had planned for war, for assassination, for a grand, theatrical downfall. He had never planned for this.
The conflagration of their passion had burned away the lies, but it had also illuminated the horrifying truth of the path ahead. He had won the ultimate prize in his seduction, but in doing so, he had ensured that his victory would feel like the most utter and complete defeat.
He held the man he adored in his arms, and he knew, with a certainty that chilled him to the bone, that he was now the greatest threat to Suowei’s happiness, his safety, his very life.
Chapter 20: The Illusion of Dawn
Notes:
It is, unfortunately, Monday again. I want to go home already (not yet at school lol). Anywaysss, being active on twitter was the most fun thing ive ever done in a while (aside from making fics ofc)
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The first light of dawn found Chi Cheng still awake, his body a rigid cradle for the sleeping prince. Suowei’s warmth was a brand against his side, his breathing a soft, steady rhythm that seemed to be the only real thing in a world tilting on its axis.
The physical evidence of their night together was a scent on their skin, a tenderness between them, a profound, unsettling peace in the room.
It was the most beautiful and terrifying thing Chi Cheng had ever experienced.
He had crossed a line from which there was no return. The cold architect of revenge was gone, consumed in the fire of their joining.
What remained was a man split in two: one half a lovesick fool drowning in the scent of sandalwood and the memory of whispered sighs, the other a horrified spectator watching the final act of a tragedy he himself had written.
As the grey light strengthened, Suowei began to stir. Chi Cheng felt the exact moment consciousness returned. The prince’s body, lax and trusting in sleep, tensed for a fraction of a second before melting back against him with a deep, contented sigh.
He didn’t open his eyes. Instead, he nuzzled closer, his lips brushing a feather-light kiss against Chi Cheng’s collarbone.
“So it wasn’t a dream,” Suowei murmured, his voice husky with sleep and wonder.
Chi Cheng’s arm tightened around him, a purely instinctive, possessive gesture. “No,” he said, his own voice rough from disuse and a night of unshed tears. “It was not a dream.”
That was the problem. It was devastatingly real.
Suowei finally lifted his head, his hair delightfully mussed, his eyes soft and unguarded. The look he gave Chi Cheng was one of such pure, unadulterated adoration that it felt like a physical blow. There was no prince, no knight in this room. There were only two young men who had, against all odds, found each other.
“I feel… new,” Suowei whispered, his fingers tracing idle patterns on Chi Cheng’s chest. “As if the world has been washed clean.”
Chi Cheng captured his wandering hand, bringing it to his lips and pressing a kiss to his palm. The gesture was tender, but his mind was screaming. I have to tell him. I have to end this charade now. Before it destroys us both.
But looking into Suowei’s eyes, seeing the nascent hope there, the words turned to ash in his throat. To speak his truth now would be to watch that light die, to see that trust shatter into a million bitter pieces. It would be an act of cruelty so profound he could not bring himself to commit it. The serpent, now hopelessly in love with the songbird, could no longer bear the thought of its song being silenced.
So, he said nothing. He let the silence stretch, a complicit, loving silence that was just another layer of the lie.
The illusion held throughout the day. It was a day stolen from time. Suowei, for the first time in his life, dismissed all his duties, claiming a sudden, debilitating megrim. He sent his attendants away, and he and Chi Cheng remained barricaded in his private chambers.
They did not speak of the rebellion, or the Emperor, or the impending wedding.
They existed in a bubble.
They shared a simple breakfast brought by a single, trusted servant. They talked of inconsequential things—childhood memories (Chi Cheng offering carefully crafted half-truths), favorite foods, the way the light fell through the window. Suowei showed Chi Cheng his sketchbook, filled with surprisingly deft drawings of birds, flowers, and once, a profile of a stern-faced guard that Chi Cheng recognized as himself, drawn weeks ago.
“I didn’t know you saw me that way,” Chi Cheng said, his finger tracing the lines of his own jaw on the paper.
“I’ve always seen you that way,” Suowei replied softly, leaning his head against Chi Cheng’s shoulder. “From the very beginning.”
The words were a sweet, piercing agony.
In the afternoon, they simply lay together on the divan, Suowei reading aloud from a book of poetry while Chi Cheng listened, his eyes closed, memorizing the cadence of his voice. It was a picture of domestic bliss, a perfect, beautiful lie. Chi Cheng allowed himself to sink into it, to pretend, for a few stolen hours, that this was his life.
That he was just a man, in love with another man, and the world outside their door did not exist.
But the world outside was relentless.
As evening approached, a firm, familiar knock came at the door. Jiang Xiaoshuai.
The bubble shattered.
Suowei tensed, a flicker of the Crown Prince returning to his eyes. He looked at Chi Cheng, a silent question hanging between them.
“You should see him,” Chi Cheng said, his voice low. He moved to rise, to resume his position as the guard, but Suowei’s hand on his arm stopped him.
“Stay,” Suowei said, his tone leaving no room for argument. It was not a request from a lover, but a command from a prince to his equal. He was making a statement, to Xiaoshuai and to the world.
He called for his friend to enter.
Jiang Xiaoshuai stepped inside, his sharp eyes taking in the scene with unnerving swiftness. He saw the rumpled bed, the two discarded cups of tea, the intimate proximity of the prince and his knight who was seated not at a respectful distance, but right beside him on the divan. He saw the new, unbreakable bond that hummed in the air between them.
His face, for a moment, was a mask of stunned comprehension, followed by a deep, profound worry.
“Your Highness,” Xiaoshuai began, his voice carefully neutral. “The Emperor’s condition worsens. The physicians do not think he will last the night. The court… they are gathering. And General Zhao is demanding an audience regarding the… the wedding preparations.”
His gaze flickered to Chi Cheng and then back to Suowei, the unspoken question clear: What is this? What are you doing?
Suowei’s face hardened. The loving young man from moments before was receding, the weight of his crown descending once more. “Tell General Zhao the wedding will proceed as my grandfather commands. And tell the court I will be at my grandfather’s side shortly.”
Xiaoshuai bowed. “As you wish.” He hesitated, his eyes lingering on Chi Cheng for a moment longer, a silent warning, a plea for caution, before he turned and left.
The silence he left behind was heavy, charged with the return of reality.
Suowei turned to Chi Cheng, his expression a mixture of defiance and fear. “I will not hide this,” he said, his voice firm. “I cannot. You are not my secret. You are my truth.”
It was a declaration of war against the very world Chi Cheng was about to unleash upon him. The irony was so bitter it threatened to choke him.
“Suowei…” Chi Cheng began, the name feeling both foreign and more natural than anything on his tongue. He had to stop this. He had to warn him.
But Suowei misinterpreted his hesitation. He leaned forward, capturing Chi Cheng’s face in his hands. “I am not afraid. Not with you. Whatever comes, we face it together. You promised.”
I promised you would not face your fate alone, Chi Cheng thought, the memory of his own words a fresh wound. I did not promise to save you from it. I am your fate.
He looked into Suowei’s determined, trusting eyes, and the confession died once more. He could not do it. He was a coward, trapped by his own love.
He simply nodded, pulling Suowei into a fierce, desperate embrace. “Together,” he whispered into his hair, the word the most profound lie he had ever told.
That night, as Suowei sat vigil at his grandfather’s bedside, Chi Cheng stood guard outside the Imperial chambers. The contrast was jarring. Inside, a tyrant was drawing his last, ragged breaths. Outside, his knight, the instrument of his dynasty’s destruction, was silently breaking apart.
Guo Chengyu found him there. He didn’t need to ask what had happened; he could see it in the shattered look in Chi Cheng’s eyes, in the new, protective way he held his body, as if still feeling the ghost of the prince against him.
“The Serpent takes flight at dawn,” Guo Chengyu murmured, his voice barely audible. “Our forces are in position. The signal will be given the moment the old man breathes his last. The capital will fall within a day.”
Chi Cheng did not look at him. His gaze was fixed on the door behind which Suowei sat, holding the hand of the man who had destroyed his family. “The Prince…” he started, his voice thick.
“Is the key,” Guo Chengyu finished, his tone losing all its playful charm, becoming cold and hard. “His capture will break the final resistance. You have done your part, my friend. You have made him pliable. You have made him love you. Now, we reap the reward.”
The words were like a physical assault. You have made him love you. He had. And in doing so, he had doomed them both.
“I will handle the Prince,” Chi Cheng said, his voice dropping to a low, dangerous register that brooked no argument. It was the voice of Prince Chi Cheng of the fallen kingdom, a voice Guo Chengyu had not heard in a long time. “He is mine. You will not touch him until I give the order. Is that clear?”
Guo Chengyu studied him for a long moment, a flicker of unease in his fox-like eyes. He saw not a manipulated pawn, but a resurgent king, one whose motives were now dangerously unclear. “As you command,” he said slowly, with a slight, wary bow. “He is yours.”
Alone again, Chi Cheng leaned his head back against the cold stone wall, closing his eyes. The illusion of dawn was over. The night had truly begun. He had just claimed possession of the man he loved, not as a treasure, but as a prize of war. He had ensured he would be the one to personally shatter Suowei’s world.
He could feel the threads of his plan, once so taut and clear, tangling around him, binding him to the very ruin he had orchestrated. The conflagration of their passion had not burned away the path of revenge; it had only illuminated its horrifying destination. And he was now marching toward it, hand in hand with the man he was leading to the gallows.
The dawn was coming, but it would not bring light. It would bring the storm.
Chapter 21: The Poison and The Throne
Notes:
ahhhh i love ziyu’s performance yesterdayyyyy
Chapter Text
The vigil was a silent, suffocating blanket over the imperial chambers. The only sound was the Emperor’s labored breathing, a rattling, wet draw that seemed to scrape the air raw. Chi Cheng stood at his post inside the room, a shadow among the shadows cast by the single, guttering lamp.
He was not merely a guard; he was the final instrument of a long-awaited justice.
Suowei sat at his grandfather’s bedside, his posture a portrait of conflicted grief. He held the old man’s frail, spotted hand in his own. His face was pale, his eyes hollowed by exhaustion and a pain that went deeper than fatigue.
He hated the tyrant, the conqueror, the man whose legacy was written in the blood of countless innocents.
But this was also the grandfather who had, in his own twisted way, doted on him.
The man who had let him sit on the Dragon Throne as a child, who had praised his cleverness, who had, in rare unguarded moments, shown him a flicker of something resembling affection.
The love was tangled with thorns, but it was real.
“He was not always a monster,” Suowei whispered, his voice cracking. He wasn’t speaking to anyone in particular, perhaps just to the oppressive silence. “When I was small… he would tell me stories. Before the world made him hard.”
Chi Cheng said nothing. He watched, his heart a block of ice and fire. He saw the genuine tears welling in Suowei’s eyes, the way his thumb stroked the paper-thin skin of his grandfather’s hand.
It made what he had to do both easier and infinitely harder.
Easier, because the old man deserved this end. Harder, because he would be inflicting this fresh, complicated wound directly onto the man he loved.
The head physician approached with a cup of the Emperor’s medicine, a thick, dark concoction meant to ease the passage. It was a nightly ritual.
“I will do it,” Chi Cheng said, his voice cutting through the quiet. He stepped forward, taking the cup from the surprised physician. His movement was smooth, authoritative, leaving no room for protest.
As the head of the Emperor’s personal guard, it was within his purview.
The physician bowed and retreated, grateful to be relieved of the somber duty.
Chi Cheng stood over the bed. The Emperor’s eyes were closed, his breathing a desperate, shallow fight. Suowei looked up at Chi Cheng, his expression one of profound gratitude.
He saw this as an act of kindness, a sharing of his burden.
“Thank you,” Suowei mouthed silently.
The words were a dagger in Chi Cheng’s soul. He gave a slight, stiff nod.
With one hand, he gently supported the Emperor’s head. With the other, he brought the cup to his lips. But as he did, his thumb, shielded from view by the cup’s rim, pressed a hidden catch on a ring he wore. A minuscule amount of a clear, odorless liquid—a distillation of a rare, fast-acting poison from the northern mountains—dripped into the medicine.
It was done. The act was so small, so swift, it was as if it had never happened.
He tipped the cup, helping the old man swallow the tainted draught.
He then stepped back, resuming his position as the silent sentinel.
For a few moments, nothing changed. Then, the Emperor’s breathing hitched. His eyes flew open, wide and unseeing, fixing for a terrifying second on Chi Cheng’s face. There was a flash of something there—not recognition, but a primal, final understanding. A knowledge of the hand that was delivering him to his end.
He tried to speak, to point, but only a choked gurgle escaped his lips. His body gave one violent, convulsive shudder.
And then, stillness.
The ragged breathing stopped.
The silence that followed was absolute, heavier than any sound.
Suowei stared, frozen. He had known death was coming, but the suddenness, the finality of it, stole the air from his lungs. He watched the life leave his grandfather’s eyes, saw the last, aborted gesture towards Chi Cheng.
“Grandfather?” he whispered, his voice small and lost.
There was no answer.
A single, crystalline tear traced a path down Suowei’s cheek, followed by another.
He wasn’t weeping for the tyrant. He was weeping for the old man who told stories. He was weeping for the complicated, painful love that had just been severed forever. He bowed his head, his shoulders slumping as the weight of a thousand conflicting emotions crashed down upon him.
The head physician rushed forward, felt for a pulse, and then sank to his knees, kowtowing. “The Emperor… has ascended to the heavens! The reign of the Radiant Wu is ended!”
The formal announcement triggered the prescribed chaos. Bells began to toll. Ministers appeared at the door. But Chi Cheng’s world had narrowed to the figure of the young man weeping by the bed.
He moved then. He crossed the room and placed a firm, steadying hand on Suowei’s shoulder.
Suowei flinched at the touch, his head snapping up. His tear-filled eyes met Chi Cheng’s. And in that moment, a horrifying, fragmented thought seemed to flicker in their depths. The choked gurgle. The aborted gesture. The suddenness. It was too quick. It was… wrong.
He searched Chi Cheng’s face, looking for an answer, for reassurance.
Chi Cheng’s expression was a mask of carved stone, offering nothing but stoic support. He saw the dawning suspicion in Suowei’s eyes and willed it away with the sheer force of his gaze. Trust me, his eyes screamed. Even now, trust me.
The suspicion, fragile and born of grief, could not stand against the bedrock of trust Chi Cheng had spent months building. It crumbled. Suowei’s face crumpled, and he turned into Chi Cheng’s embrace, seeking solace from the very man who had just orchestrated the source of his pain.
“He’s gone,” Suowei sobbed into his chest, his body trembling. “He’s really gone.”
Chi Cheng held him, his arms a cage of love and lies. He looked over Suowei’s head at the dead Emperor, and felt a cold, quiet finality. The first and greatest target of his vengeance was dead by his own hand. It was a victory. But the taste of it was the salt of Suowei’s tears.
It was in this moment of raw, public vulnerability that General Zhao and his faction entered. They saw the new Emperor not standing tall to claim his throne, but weeping in the arms of his guard. They saw the intimacy, the shocking breach of imperial decorum.
General Zhao’s face contorted with disdain. “Your Majesty,” he said, the title sounding like an insult. “The empire is leaderless. The court awaits. There are protocols.”
The words ‘Your Majesty’ jolted Suowei. He pulled back, wiping his face with a trembling hand. The mantle of authority, heavy and unwanted, settled on his shoulders. He straightened his spine, and when he spoke, his voice, though thick with emotion, was clear.
“The protocols will be observed, General,” Suowei said, his gaze sweeping the room. He found his anchor in Chi Cheng’s unwavering presence. “Summon the court to the Hall of Celestial Harmony at dawn.”
It was a command. The ministers bowed and retreated. General Zhao lingered, his eyes boring into Chi Cheng with naked hostility.
“Your security, Your Majesty,” Zhao said, his voice a low threat. “In these uncertain times, my personal guard should be stationed here.”
Before Suowei could respond, Chi Cheng took a subtle, deliberate step forward, placing his body as a shield between the new Emperor and the General.
“The Emperor’s security is my responsibility,” Chi Cheng stated, his voice flat and absolute, leaving no room for debate. “It is in capable hands.”
The silent challenge hung in the air. General Zhao’s jaw tightened. He saw it clearly now: this knight was not just a guard; he was the power behind a fragile throne. With a final, contemptuous glare, he turned and left.
The chamber emptied, leaving only the new Emperor, his knight, and the body of the old tyrant.
Suowei looked from his grandfather’s still form to the man who now stood as his sole protector. Grief, suspicion, relief, and a terrifying, overwhelming dependence warred within him. The world had been ripped out from under him, and the only solid ground left was the man named Chi Cheng.
He reached out, his fingers finding Chi Cheng’s. “Don’t leave me,” he whispered, the words a plea from the deepest, most frightened part of his soul.
Chi Cheng tightened his grip, his heart a ruin of triumph and despair. The tyrant was dead. The throne was vulnerable. His revenge was proceeding perfectly.
But as he looked into the eyes of the young Emperor who loved and trusted him, he knew he had not just killed a king. He had murdered a part of Suowei’s soul, and in doing so, had doomed his own. The path to the throne was paved with the poison of his deceit, and he was leading Suowei down it, hand in bloodstained hand.
Chapter 22: Cage of Thorn
Notes:
im hungry af, weve got clearance signing to do but i still havent memorized yet our longass mission and vision
Chapter Text
Dawn broke over the Wu capital not with hope, but with a brittle, fearful tension. The death bells had tolled through the night, their mournful clangor a soundtrack to the frantic, hushed conspiracies taking root in every shadowed corridor of the palace.
The old dragon was dead. A new, untested one had taken the throne, and the vultures were already circling, testing the air for weakness.
In the Hall of Celestial Harmony, the full court assembled. The air was thick with the scent of old incense and fresh ambition. The ministers and nobles stood in rigid rows, their faces masks of performative grief and sharp-eyed calculation. At the far end, atop the towering Dragon Throne, sat Wu Suowei.
He was a vision of tragic youth, dwarfed by the ornate, intimidating seat of power. He wore the heavy, ceremonial robes of the Emperor, their gold embroidery seeming to weigh him down.
His face was pale, the shadows under his eyes a stark testament to his sleepless, grief-stricken night.
But his jaw was set, and his back was straight. He held himself with a dignity that was both heartbreaking and awe-inspiring.
And always, just a step behind and to the right of the throne, stood Chi Cheng. He was a pillar of black in the sea of colorful silks, his presence a silent, menacing declaration.
He was no longer just the personal knight; he was the Regent-Killer, the Shadow Emperor, the unspoken power that every person in the hall now recognized. His cold, sweeping gaze dared anyone to challenge the new order.
The formal ceremonies were a blur of chanted prayers, prostrations, and the accepting of the Imperial Seal. Suowei performed each ritual with a numb, automated precision.
His mind was not on the throne or the seal; it was in his grandfather’s death chamber, on the final, choked breath, on the feeling of Chi Cheng’s arms around him as his world fell apart.
As the initial ceremonies concluded, the real battle began. General Zhao stepped forward, his armor clinking.
“Your Majesty,” he began, his voice echoing in the vast hall. “The empire mourns, but it cannot be leaderless. The Chi rebels, emboldened by this transition, press their advantage. My armies stand ready, but they require a firm hand to guide them. I propose the immediate formation of a War Council, with myself as its head, to oversee all military operations until the crisis is past.”
It was a blatant power grab. To grant him that would be to hand over the military, and thus the empire, to the Zhao faction.
Suowei’s fingers tightened on the arms of the throne. He felt the eyes of the entire court upon him, waiting for him to stumble. He felt the overwhelming weight of the decision. He glanced back, a barely perceptible movement, seeking the anchor he had come to depend on.
Chi Cheng gave a single, almost imperceptible nod.
Suowei took a breath, and when he spoke, his voice, though young, carried a newfound steel. “The empire thanks General Zhao for his vigilance. However, the military will remain under the direct command of the throne. I will be advised by a council of all my generals, not led by one. The chain of command remains as it was.”
A ripple of shock went through the court. The young Emperor had just publicly refused the most powerful man in the military.
General Zhao’s face flushed a dark red. His eyes flickered to Chi Cheng, understanding dawning. This was not the boy’s decision. This was the knight’s. He bowed, a stiff, angry motion. “As Your Majesty commands.”
But the assaults kept coming. The Minister of Revenue stepped forward, speaking of empty coffers, of the need for emergency taxes, of funds that suspiciously seemed to benefit Zhao-aligned provinces. The Minister of Rites questioned the speed of the coronation, implying illegitimacy.
Each time, Suowei would falter for a second, overwhelmed by the complexity of the political web being woven around him. And each time, his eyes would dart back to Chi Cheng. A slight shake of the head. A subtle gesture of the hand. A cold, steadying gaze.
And each time, Suowei would find his voice, delivering a rebuttal or a command that was shrewd, decisive, and perfectly tailored to undermine his opponents while appearing perfectly reasonable.
He was brilliant. He was a natural. And he was a puppet, his strings pulled by the man who loved him and was destroying him.
The court watched, mesmerized and horrified. They saw a young emperor being expertly guided, but by whom?
The silent knight was a phantom, his influence palpable but unprovable. With every correct decision Suowei made, Chi Cheng’s invisible grip on the throne tightened.
After hours of this grueling political warfare, the court was dismissed. The moment the great doors closed, Suowei’s composure shattered. He slumped forward on the throne, his head in his hands, his body trembling with adrenaline and exhaustion.
“I can’t,” he gasped, his voice muffled. “I can’t do this, Chi Cheng. It’s a nest of vipers. They all want a piece of me.”
Chi Cheng was at his side in an instant. He didn’t kneel. He stood over him, a dominant, protective presence. He placed a hand on Suowei’s shoulder, the touch both comforting and possessive.
“You can,” Chi Cheng said, his voice low and intense. “You are. You were magnificent. You denied Zhao without provoking a mutiny. You exposed the corruption in the revenue ministry without naming names. You are playing them against each other, just as we planned.”
We. The word was a brand. He was binding Suowei to him in this, making them co-conspirators in the governance of the very kingdom Chi Cheng was working to topple.
Suowei looked up, his eyes desperate. “But it’s you. It’s all you. I just… I just say what you tell me to.”
“You trust my counsel,” Chi Cheng corrected, his thumb stroking the tense muscle of Suowei’s neck. “And your trust is well-placed. I see the patterns they hide. I see the threats you cannot. Together, we are stronger than they are.”
He was building a cage around Suowei, a gilded cage of absolute dependency. The Emperor of the Wu was now utterly reliant on his personal knight for every breath of political air, for every decision that kept him on his throne.
He led the exhausted young emperor back to the private chambers—their chambers, now. He dismissed the servants and personally helped Suowei out of the crushing weight of the ceremonial robes. His hands were gentle, intimate, a lover’s touch in the heart of the empire.
He poured wine—not the ceremonial vintage, but the strong, southern spirit Guo Chengyu provided. He made Suowei drink, watching as the alcohol brought a flush of color back to his pale cheeks and a glassy sheen to his tormented eyes.
“They hate me,” Suowei slurred, leaning against Chi Cheng’s chest on the divan. “They all hate me. They see a child. A puppet.”
“Let them see what they want,” Chi Cheng murmured, running his fingers through Suowei’s hair. “While we move the strings. Your grandfather ruled through fear. You will rule through wisdom. My wisdom.”
“Your wisdom,” Suowei echoed, his voice drowsy and trusting. He looked up, his expression vulnerable. “That… that moment with my grandfather. At the end. It was so… sudden.”
The suspicion, never fully extinguished, flickered again in the wine-hazed depths of his eyes.
Chi Cheng’s heart froze, but his face remained a placid mask. He cupped Suowei’s cheek, his touch firm, anchoring him in the present, pulling him away from the dangerous past.
“Death is often sudden for the old and sick, my heart,” he said, using the endearment for the first time. It fell from his lips with a shocking, natural ease. “It is a mercy his suffering ended. Do not torment yourself with the details. He is at peace. And you are here, with me.”
The combination of the intimate endearment, the logical explanation, and the physical comfort was a potent drug. Suowei’s eyes fluttered closed, the suspicion smothered once more under the blanket of Chi Cheng’s affection. He nuzzled into the touch. “Stay with me,” he whispered. “Don’t ever leave me alone in this cage.”
“I am the lock and the key to your cage,” Chi Cheng promised, his voice a dark velvet whisper. “I will never leave you.”
As Suowei drifted into an uneasy, wine-fueled sleep in his arms, Chi Cheng held him, the new Emperor of the Wu, his body warm and pliant.
The pain was brewing perfectly.
He had isolated Suowei from his court, made him dependent on his enemy for survival, and was now systematically dismantling the support structures of the Wu empire from the inside, using the Emperor’s own voice.
He had never felt more like a monster.
Looking down at Suowei’s peaceful, trusting face, Chi Cheng knew the greatest cruelty was yet to come.
He was making Suowei fall in love with his own executioner.
He was making the Emperor complicit in his own downfall.
And when the final betrayal came, it wouldn’t just be the loss of a throne or a kingdom. It would be the annihilation of every truth Suowei had left to cling to.
The gilded cage was complete, and Chi Cheng had just woven the final, beautiful, poisonous thorn into its bars.
Chapter 23: The Serpent’s Counsel
Notes:
so for clearance signing, we were required to recite either of these: mission, vision, or hymn. For today’s video, I sang and boom, clearance 3/4 done
Chapter Text
The days that followed the coronation were a masterclass in psychological manipulation. Chi Cheng became the silent architect of the Wu Empire's final days, and Emperor Wu Suowei was his unwitting, and increasingly desperate, foreman.
The court sessions were a daily trial by fire. Suowei, draped in robes that felt like a shroud, would sit upon the Dragon Throne, a beautiful, fragile figurehead.
And behind him, Chi Cheng stood—a statue of implacable will, his eyes scanning the crowd of ministers and generals like a hawk searching for prey.
The challenges came relentlessly. Reports of rebel advances, always just a little too accurate, a little too damaging.
Petitions from provinces on the brink of famine, their granaries mysteriously emptied.
Accusations of treason flying between rival factions, each piece of evidence conveniently provided by Chi Cheng’s clandestine network, expertly fed to Suowei in their private councils.
And each time Suowei faltered, overwhelmed by the tidal wave of crises, his eyes would find Chi Cheng’s. A silent plea for salvation.
And salvation Chi Cheng would provide.
“The rebel advance in the west is troubling, Your Majesty,” an elderly general would report, his voice trembling. “They seem to anticipate our every move.”
Suowei would freeze, the memory of the Phoenix banner a fresh wound. He would look back at Chi Cheng.
A almost imperceptible nod.
Suowei would straighten. “Then we must change the moves they anticipate, General. Pull the Third Legion back from the front. Let them think we are weak. When they advance into the valley, the Fourth Legion will descend from the northern passes and crush them.”
The general would stare, stunned. It was a brilliant, unorthodox tactic. One that Chi Cheng had devised days ago, and one that Guo Chengyu’s rebels were already prepared to counter, turning the trap into a slaughter for the Wu forces.
“Your Majesty is… most wise,” the general would stammer, bowing deeply.
But it was in the quiet of the imperial library, now their true seat of power, that the most devastating work was done. Suowei, stripped of his heavy robes, would pace like a caged animal.
“They are all against me,” he would seethe, his voice raw. “Even ministers my grandfather trusted. They smile to my face and plot behind my back.”
“Power is a mirror, Suowei,” Chi Cheng would say, using his name in private, a deliberate intimacy. “It shows you the true face of everyone who approaches. Their loyalty is to their own ambition, not to you.”
He would then present his “findings”—a curated selection of scrolls and reports that “proved” the duplicity of this lord or that minister. He never outright accused; he merely laid out the evidence and let Suowei’s own fear and insecurity connect the dots.
“Look at the grain shipments to Lord Feng’s province,” Chi Cheng would murmur, pointing to a column of figures. “Diverted, just before the tax collectors arrived. And see how he argued most vehemently against the emergency levies? He weakens the crown to line his own pockets.”
Suowei’s face would harden. “He was at my grandfather’s deathbed, swearing fealty.”
“The most venomous snakes often hide in the warmest hands,” Chi Cheng would reply, his voice a soothing, poisonous balm.
And Suowei, in his desperate need for a fixed point in his collapsing world, would believe him. He would sign the order for Lord Feng’s arrest, stripping a loyal, if greedy, noble of his power and creating another enemy, all while believing he was acting with strength and wisdom.
Chi Cheng was systematically isolating him, turning him against his own support structure, one whispered suspicion at a time.
The young Emperor was becoming a paranoid, lonely ruler, whose only confidant was the viper coiled around his heart.
The emotional toll was excruciating. At night, Suowei would often wake from nightmares, sweating and trembling. Sometimes he dreamed of his grandfather’s accusing, dead eyes. Other times, he dreamed of faceless rebels storming the palace, of his courtiers laughing as he fell from the throne.
And always, Chi Cheng was there. He would hold him, rock him, whisper assurances into his hair until the tremors subsided. He was the source of the poison and the only antidote. He was the nightmare and the comfort from the nightmare.
One such night, after a particularly brutal day where Suowei had been forced to condemn a childhood tutor for “sedition,” he broke down completely.
“I’m becoming him,” Suowei sobbed, clinging to Chi Cheng. “I’m signing orders, ruining lives, seeing traitors in every shadow. I’m becoming my grandfather.”
Chi Cheng held him tight, his own heart a writhing knot of guilt and a terrible, possessive love. “No,” he said fiercely. “You are nothing like him. He ruled for himself. You are trying to save your people from the wolves that surround them. The choices are hard because the situation is dire. But you are making them. You are strong.”
He was reframing Suowei’s descent into paranoia and authoritarianism as strength, as necessary ruthlessness. He was molding him into the perfect tragic figure: an emperor who believed he was doing good, while being expertly guided toward ruin.
“I couldn’t do any of it without you,” Suowei whispered, his face buried in Chi Cheng’s neck. “You are my strength. You are the only good thing left in this world.”
The words were a brand, searing Chi Cheng’s soul. He kissed Suowei’s forehead, his lips lingering on the damp skin. “Then I will always be here.”
The next morning, the most audacious piece of Chi Cheng’s plan fell into place. General Zhao, his power being subtly eroded by Suowei’s “shrewd” decisions, made a final, desperate play.
During court, he presented a scroll. “Your Majesty! I have received intelligence—irrefutable proof—that the source of the rebels’ funding and arms is none other than the merchant guild of Linhai! They must be made an example of! I request permission to march on the city, seize their assets, and execute the guild leaders publicly!”
The court held its breath. Linhai was a prosperous, mostly peaceful city. Such an action would be seen as a tyrannical massacre, turning the entire merchant class against the throne.
Suowei looked horrified. He turned to Chi Cheng, his eyes pleading. What do I do?
This was the moment. Chi Cheng gave a slight, almost imperceptible shake of his head. No.
Suowei took a deep breath. “Your evidence, General?”
Zhao spluttered. “It is from a trusted source!”
“A source you will not name?” Suowei’s voice was cold. “You ask me to slaughter a city on an anonymous tip? To make orphans and widows for a rumor? No, General. The answer is no. We will not become the monsters they accuse us of being.”
It was a magnificent speech. A declaration of principle from a moral emperor. The court murmured in approval. General Zhao was humiliated, his power broken.
But as Suowei sat back, a flush of proud relief on his cheeks, he didn’t know the truth. The “intelligence” was another of Guo Chengyu’s forgeries, designed to push Zhao into a move that would discredit him. And Chi Cheng had just guided Suowei into delivering the killing blow to his own most powerful military commander.
That night, celebrating what he saw as a great victory for justice, Suowei was radiant. He poured wine for them both, his eyes shining.
“We did it,” he said, his smile genuine for the first time in weeks. “We stood against the darkness. Together.”
He kissed Chi Cheng, the taste of wine and victory on his lips. It was a kiss of equals, of partners. He believed, with his whole heart, that they were building a better future.
And as Chi Cheng kissed him back, pouring all the twisted, genuine love in his shattered soul into it, he knew the cruelest cut was yet to come. He had made Suowei complicit in his own destruction. He had made him fall in love with his ruin. He had positioned himself as the only light in the Emperor’s life, so that when he finally snuffed it out, the darkness would be absolute.
The serpent’s counsel was complete. The Wu Empire was now bleeding from a thousand self-inflicted wounds, all administered by the Emperor’s own hand, guided by the loving hand of his destroyer. The stage was set for the final, devastating act.
Chapter 24: The Calm Before Storm
Notes:
Was Chi Cheng an absolute red flag? yes. Would I let myself be manipulated by him? yes, also.
Chapter Text
A fragile, deceptive peace settled over the Wu capital. With General Zhao's influence broken after the Linhai debacle, the open challenges in court ceased.
The remaining ministers, cowed and bewildered by the new Emperor's seemingly prescient and unshakeable judgment, offered only placid agreement.
For the first time since his coronation, Wu Suowei could breathe without feeling a knife at his throat.
He attributed it all to Chi Cheng.
In the sunlit privacy of their chambers, Suowei was a man transformed. The constant tension had eased from his shoulders. He laughed more freely, the sound a melody that both enchanted and lacerated Chi Cheng’s soul. He began to speak not just of survival, but of the future.
“When the rebellion is quelled,” he said one morning, tracing the line of Chi Cheng’s jaw as they lay entangled in bed, “we will reform the tax codes. Properly this time. And the judicial system. We’ll root out the corruption you’ve helped me see.” His eyes were alight with a hopeful, determined fire. “We can build something good, Chi Cheng. Something lasting. A kingdom worthy of its people.”
Each word was a shard of glass in Chi Cheng’s heart. He would listen, his expression a mask of quiet support, while inside, the ghosts of his family screamed in silent protest. A kingdom built on our bones will never be good.
“It will be a kingdom worthy of you,” Chi Cheng would reply, his voice rough with a love that felt like a terminal illness. It was the truth, and it was the greatest lie he had ever told.
This period of calm was the most excruciating part of Chi Cheng’s plan. He had won. Suowei was his, utterly and completely. The trust was absolute, the dependency total. The Emperor of the Wu loved his personal knight with a fervent, desperate passion that was both his salvation and his doom. To maintain the charade now, to kiss those hopeful lips and whisper promises of a future he was about to annihilate, was a torture worse than any his enemies could have devised.
He continued his work, of course. The meetings with Guo Chengyu grew more frequent, their plans reaching a fever pitch.
“The western armies are in disarray, just as you predicted,” Guo Chengyu reported, his fox-like face gleeful. “With Zhao neutered, there is no unified command. Our forces have taken three more key passes. The road to the capital is all but open.”
“And the signal?” Chi Cheng’s voice was flat, devoid of emotion.
“The night of the wedding,” Guo Chengyu confirmed. “The distraction will be maximal. The court will be drunk on ceremony and wine. Our men are already inside the city walls, posing as merchants and laborers. When the Phoenix banner is lit over the palace, they will strike.”
The wedding. The final, grotesque piece of theater. The Emperor’s public union with Lady Zhao Meiling, a political anchor that would now serve as the perfect backdrop for a coup.
The palace began to prepare for the grand event. It was a frantic, colorful whirlwind that stood in stark contrast to the grim political maneuvering of the previous weeks. Silks and jewels were brought in, banquets were planned, and the air grew thick with the cloying scent of festive flowers.
For Suowei, it was a waking nightmare draped in gold leaf. The calm he had felt began to crack under the renewed pressure. The wedding was a collar being tightened around his neck, a permanent, public renunciation of the life he truly wanted with Chi Cheng.
He grew quiet again, his moments of happiness becoming shorter, more fleeting. He would often find Chi Cheng and simply hold him, his face buried in his chest, as if trying to store up enough of his presence to survive the coming ordeal.
“It means nothing,” Suowei whispered one night, his voice tight with despair as he watched servants hang red lanterns outside their window. “You know that, don’t you? It’s a piece of paper. A ceremony. It changes nothing between us.”
Chi Cheng held him, his arms a prison of love. “I know,” he said, the words ash in his mouth. “It changes nothing.”
But it changed everything. It was the deadline. The point of no return.
Two nights before the wedding, Suowei could not sleep. He paced the room, a restless spirit in his own home.
“I keep thinking about my grandfather,” he confessed, his voice haunted. “That last moment. The way he looked at you.”
Chi Cheng went very still. “He was a dying man, Suowei. His mind was gone.”
“Was it?” Suowei stopped and turned to him, his eyes searching Chi Cheng’s face in the dim light. “Sometimes… sometimes I wonder if he saw something. Something I was too blind to see.”
The suspicion, never fully dead, was rising again, fed by the stress of the wedding and the ghost of his grandfather’s final gaze.
This was dangerous. Chi Cheng could not allow doubt to take root now. He crossed the room in three swift strides and captured Suowei’s face in his hands, his grip firm, forcing the prince to look at him.
“What do you see when you look at me?” Chi Cheng demanded, his voice low and intense, his dark eyes boring into Suowei’s.
Suowei’s breath hitched. The intensity was overwhelming. “I see… I see the man I love,” he stammered. “My protector. My only truth.”
“Then trust what you see,” Chi Cheng commanded, his thumb stroking Suowei’s cheekbone. “Not the ghost of a tyrant. Not the whispers of a court that wants you weak. Trust me. As I have trusted you with my life, with my loyalty, with my very heart.”
It was a masterstroke. He was reframing his own deception as unwavering loyalty, making Suowei feel guilty for his own, perfectly rational, suspicion.
Tears welled in Suowei’s eyes. The doubt crumbled, replaced by a wave of shame and renewed devotion. “I’m sorry,” he whispered, leaning into Chi Cheng’s touch. “I’m so sorry. Forgive me.”
“There is nothing to forgive,” Chi Cheng murmured, pulling him into a crushing embrace. He held the trembling Emperor, his own heart a cold, dead weight in his chest. He had won again. He had preserved the trust that would be the weapon of the final, killing blow.
The day before the wedding, Suowei was required to participate in a series of rituals at the Imperial Temple. It was a long, exhausting process, and he returned to their chambers looking pale and drained.
Chi Cheng had prepared a bath for him, scented with calming herbs. He helped him undress and guided him into the steaming water. He knelt beside the tub, washing Suowei’s back with a slow, methodical tenderness that made the Emperor sigh and lean back against his hands.
“After tomorrow,” Suowei said, his eyes closed, “it will be done. The alliance will be sealed. And then… then we can begin. Our future.”
Chi Cheng’s hands stilled for a moment on Suowei’s shoulders. He looked down at the beautiful, trusting face, the smooth skin glistening with water and steam. This was the last night. The last hours of the world they had built together.
He leaned forward, his lips brushing the shell of Suowei’s ear. “Our future,” he repeated, his voice a husky promise.
That night, their lovemaking was different. It was not a frantic conflagration or a desperate comfort. It was slow, deep, and unbearably sad. It was a goodbye. Chi Cheng poured every ounce of his fractured love, every shred of his agonizing regret, into every touch, every kiss. He worshipped Suowei’s body as if it were a holy relic, memorizing the feel of him, the taste of him, the sounds he made.
Suowei, lost in the intensity of it, sensed only a profound, overwhelming passion. He clung to Chi Cheng, his tears mingling with the sweat on their skin, believing it was the stress of the morrow, the weight of the crown, that made his lover’s embrace feel so much like a requiem.
Later, as Suowei slept, curled against him, his breathing even and deep, Chi Cheng did not sleep. He watched the moon through the window, its cold light illuminating the face of the man he had been sent to destroy, and whom he had instead learned to love more than life itself.
He had brewed the pain to perfection. He had isolated Suowei, made him dependent, made him complicit in his own ruin, and made him love his executioner. The calm was over. The storm was here.
As the first hints of dawn tinged the sky—the dawn of the wedding day, the dawn of the end—Chi Cheng pressed one last, lingering kiss to Suowei’s temple.
“I am sorry,” he whispered into the silence, the words meant for the sleeping prince, for his own dead family, for his own damned soul. “For everything.”
Then, he carefully extracted himself from Suowei’s embrace, dressed in silence, and went to give the final orders that would shatter the world. The stage was set, the players were in place, and the tragedy was about to begin its final, devastating act.
Chapter 25: The Serpent’s Price
Notes:
i feel like doing this today. i thought i’ll also not get my period this month. Im so wrong(being irregular is hard)
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The day of the wedding dawned with a cruel, pristine clarity. The sky was a brilliant, untroubled blue, a stark contrast to the storm raging within the palace walls.
For Wu Suowei, the morning was a blur of suffocating ritual.
He was dressed in layers of heavy, crimson and gold brocade, the imperial wedding robes a gilded cage more constricting than any he had ever known. Each pin placed in his hair, each fold of silk arranged by silent, efficient attendants, felt like another chain being locked into place.
Throughout the ordeal, his eyes constantly sought Chi Cheng. The knight stood in the corner of the chamber, a statue of obsidian amidst the vibrant chaos.
He was already in his formal armor, polished to a mirror shine, his face an impenetrable mask of duty. But whenever Suowei’s panicked gaze found him, Chi Cheng would give a slight, almost imperceptible nod.
A steadying look. A silent promise.
I am here. We will get through this.
It was the only thing keeping Suowei from crumbling.
The ceremony itself was a breathtaking spectacle of imperial power and pageantry. The Grand Temple was filled to capacity with every noble, general, and official of consequence. Incense smoke coiled towards the vaulted ceiling, and the air thrummed with the sound of ancient chants.
Suowei stood at the center of it all, a beautiful, isolated figure on the raised dais. Across from him, Lady Zhao Meiling was a vision of serene elegance, her face hidden beneath a beaded veil. She looked every inch an Empress, and the sight filled Suowei with a profound, gut-wrenching guilt.
He felt like a fraud. A blasphemer.
He was standing before heaven and his ancestors, swearing vows to a woman while his heart, his soul, every fiber of his being, belonged to the man standing guard a few paces behind him.
As he recited the traditional vows, his voice flat and automated, his mind was screaming. This is for the kingdom. This is for stability. This changes nothing of the truth. Chi Cheng is my truth.
The ceremony proceeded with agonizing slowness. Prayers were offered to the ancestors for blessings of fertility and a long lineage.
The exchange of ceremonial gifts between the Zhao and Wu families was conducted with meticulous precision. Suowei moved through it like a sleepwalker, his body present but his spirit tethered to the dark, silent presence at his back.
He could feel Chi Cheng’s gaze like a physical touch, a brand of possession amidst the public performance.
Finally, the moment arrived for the final, binding vow, the sip of wine from the shared nuptial cup that would seal the union before heaven. The High Priest presented the ornate jade cup to Suowei. His fingers trembled as he took it. The wine within was a dark, bloody red.
He looked at Lady Zhao, at her kind, expectant eyes beneath the veil, and his stomach turned. He couldn't do it. He couldn't make this final, heavenly vow a lie.
His eyes snapped back to Chi Cheng, a silent, desperate plea for rescue.
And in that frozen moment, as the entire court held its breath, the world exploded.
It did not start with a shout, but with a sound. A deep, resonant thrum that vibrated through the very stones of the temple, followed by a distant, muffled boom.
Then, screams.
They started from outside, then ripped through the temple doors as they were flung open. Not by guards, but by men in the uniforms of imperial soldiers, their swords already drawn and bloody. But they were not protecting the Emperor. They were cutting down the Wu loyalists at the entrance.
Chaos erupted. Nobles scrambled over each other, tripping on their fine robes. Women screamed. The harmonious chants were replaced by the shrieks of the dying and the clang of steel.
"Rebels! The Chi are inside the city!" someone shrieked, a voice shredded by terror.
Suowei stood frozen on the dais, the nuptial cup falling from his nerveless fingers and shattering on the marble floor, the red wine spreading like a bloodstain. His mind refused to process the scene. It was impossible. The capital was impregnable. The rebels were days away.
His instincts, honed by months of Chi Cheng’s tutelage, finally kicked in. Protect the throne. Maintain order. He turned, his voice tearing from his throat, raw and authoritative. "Chi Cheng! To me! Secure the—"
The command died in his throat.
Chi Cheng had not moved to protect him. He had not drawn his sword to defend the temple.
He was simply standing there, watching the carnage unfold with an expression of calm, chilling detachment.
And then, he moved. But not towards Suowei. He walked, with deliberate, unhurried steps, to the center of the dais, past a terrified and confused Lady Zhao, to stand before the great statue of the Wu dynasty's founding emperor. He turned his back on Suowei, facing the panicking crowd.
And he drew his sword.
A surge of relief, brief and blinding, flooded Suowei. He is going to rally them. He is going to lead the defense.
But Chi Cheng did not raise his sword against the rebels pouring into the temple. Instead, he lifted the gleaming blade high above his head, a silent, commanding gesture that cut through the chaos.
The rebel soldiers, who had been cutting down Wu loyalists, stopped. They fell into a disciplined formation, their eyes fixed on Chi Cheng with a fervent, terrifying loyalty.
The temple fell into a sudden, hushed, and horrifying silence. The only sounds were the moans of the wounded and the ragged breathing of the terrified nobility, now realizing they were trapped.
Suowei felt the world tilt on its axis. "Chi Cheng?" he whispered, the name a question, a prayer, a plea for this nightmare to make sense.
Chi Cheng slowly turned to face him. The mask of the loyal knight was gone. In its place was the face of a stranger—cold, hard, and etched with a hatred so deep it seemed to suck the light from the room. The love, the protectiveness, the quiet understanding—all of it had been erased, leaving behind a chilling void.
"Your Majesty," Chi Cheng said, and the title was no longer a term of respect, but the most vicious of insults. His voice, once a low rumble of comfort, was now the grating of stone on stone. "Or should I say… Wu Suowei. Grandson of the butcher. Heir to a throne of blood and ashes."
Each word was a physical blow. Suowei stumbled back a step, his mind reeling. This wasn't happening. This was a fever dream, a hallucination born of stress.
"What… what are you saying?" Suowei stammered, his voice trembling. "Chi Cheng, the rebels—"
"I am the rebels!" Chi Cheng’s voice cracked through the temple like a whip. The sound echoed, and in its wake, the final, horrifying truth began to dawn on the assembled court. "There is no mysterious leader in the west. There is only me. Prince Chi Cheng. The last son of the kingdom your grandfather burned to the ground. The people your family slaughtered like cattle? They were my people. The blood that stains your foundations? It is my family's blood."
The world stopped. The air was sucked from Suowei’s lungs. He felt as if a giant, invisible hand had reached into his chest and seized his heart, squeezing until he thought it would burst. He couldn't breathe. He couldn't think. The foundation upon which he had built his entire world for the past months—his trust, his love, his very sanity—had not just crumbled; it had revealed itself to be a bottomless pit of lies.
"No," Suowei breathed, the word a mere puff of air. "No, that's not… you saved me. You protected me…" The memories flashed, bright and agonizing: Chi Cheng deflecting the dagger, tending his wounded ankle, holding him through his nightmares, guiding him through the court, kissing him in the orchard, loving him in the dark. "You love me."
The last words were a desperate, broken sound.
A flicker of something—pain, regret, fury—crossed Chi Cheng's face, so fast Suowei almost missed it. But it was gone, replaced by a sneer of pure contempt. "Love? You are a Wu. Your name is a poison. Your touch is a defilement. Every word from your mouth, every tear you shed, was a weapon in my arsenal. You were never my love. You were my revenge."
The words were meticulously chosen, sharpened to a razor's edge to inflict maximum damage. They carved out Suowei’s soul, leaving him hollow.
He felt the eyes of the court upon him—pitying, horrified, disgusted.
He saw Lady Zhao staring at him, her hand over her mouth, her eyes wide with a dawning understanding of his betrayal.
He saw Jiang Xiaoshuai, held back by rebel soldiers, his face a mask of furious, helpless grief.
He was utterly, completely alone.
Exposed. The foolish, lovesick boy who had let the wolf into the henhouse and crowned it his king.
The pain was not a sharp sting, but a vast, crushing weight. It was the extinguishing of light. It was the death of hope. It was the utter and complete annihilation of Wu Suowei.
He felt himself fracturing from the inside, his mind unable to hold the colossal truth of the betrayal.
The man he had trusted with his life, his heart, his kingdom, had been meticulously dismantling him all along. Every tender moment, every whispered confidence, every act of protection—all of it had been a lie, a calculated step in a dance of destruction.
His knees gave way.
He didn't crumple dramatically; he simply folded, sinking to the dais amidst the shattered jade and spilled wine, the magnificent wedding robes pooling around him like a mockery. He couldn't look away from Chi Cheng’s face, from the cold, hateful stranger who had worn the face of his beloved.
"Was any of it real?" The question was torn from the deepest, most broken part of him. His voice was a raw whisper, stripped of all pride, all authority. It was the plea of a child who had just watched his entire world burn.
"The library… the storm… the nights… was any of it real?"
He was begging. Begging for a single shred of the reality he had known to be true. One fragment to hold onto in the freefall of his ruin.
Chi Cheng looked down at him, his expression unreadable. The silence stretched, each second a fresh torment. For a heart-stopping moment, Suowei saw a crack in the icy facade, a glimpse of the man who had held him, the man whose heart had beat in time with his own.
But then Chi Cheng’s lips curled. "The only real thing," he said, his voice cold and clear, echoing in the deathly quiet of the temple, "was my hatred for your bloodline. And the only real pleasure was watching you fall in love with your own ruin."
The final blow. The last light was snuffed out. Suowei felt something in his chest break.
Not his heart—that was already dust.
Something deeper. His will. His spirit.
The part of him that had dared to hope, to love, to believe in a future. It shattered.
He didn't make a sound. He just knelt there, empty, his eyes wide and unseeing, fixed on the man who had been his everything and was now his end. The world had not just dawned on him; it had collapsed upon him, and he was buried in the rubble.
Chi Cheng watched him for a moment longer, the fallen Emperor kneeling in the ruins of his own wedding, his spirit broken. A perfect, pristine victory. The ultimate revenge.
Then, he turned his back on Suowei, as if he were nothing more than discarded refuse.
"Take the Wu family," Chi Cheng commanded his soldiers, his voice once more that of a cold, commanding prince. "All of them. To the dungeons. The Emperor is to have… special quarters."
As rough hands grabbed Suowei’s arms, hauling him to his feet, he didn't struggle. He was a doll, a shell. He was led away, past the terrified courtiers, past the body of the High Priest who had been cut down, past Jiang Xiaoshuai’s agonized face.
His last sight, as he was dragged from the temple, was of Chi Cheng’s back—the broad, strong back he had clung to for comfort, the back he had traced with loving fingers in the dark. Now, it was the back of the man who had destroyed him, standing tall amidst the chaos he had wrought, the Phoenix of Chi finally risen from the ashes of the Wu.
The light was gone. The world was darkness. And the only thing left was the echo of a single, devastating truth: he had loved his executioner, and had handed him the blade himself.
Chapter 26: Anatomy of Ruin
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Time became a meaningless concept in the clean, cold room. The only measures were the tray of bland food and fresh water slid through a slot at irregular intervals, and the slow, inexorable crumbling of Wu Suowei’s soul. He did not eat. He did not drink.
He sat on the edge of the narrow cot, his back against the stone wall, and stared at the opposite wall until his eyes burned, seeing nothing but the ghost of Chi Cheng’s face in the temple.
The betrayal was not a single wound but a thousand.
Each memory, once a treasured jewel, had been revealed to be a shard of glass, and now they turned inside him, shredding him from the inside out. He dissected every moment with a brutal, unforgiving clarity that was his mind’s last, cruel function.
The rescue from the "robbers" that had first brought Chi Cheng to his attention.
A staged event.
The cool competence that had so impressed his grandfather. A performance.
The saved hawk, the steadying hand during storms, the patient listening in the library—all of it, a long, deliberate seduction. A predator tenderly fattening its prey.
And the intimacy… the kisses, the touches, the nights where he had whispered his deepest fears and wildest hopes into the ear of his destroyer. That was the deepest cut.
He had offered his heart, and Chi Cheng had taken it not as a gift, but as a trophy of war.
A dry, rasping sound that might have been a laugh escaped his chapped lips. He had been such a fool. A proud, bratty, lovesick fool. He had believed himself clever, navigating the court with his new knight’s counsel, little realizing he was a puppet, and the strings were held by the one person he thought saw the real him.
He understood the hate. Lying there in the silence, he truly did. If his grandfather had done to the Chi what was done—the slaughter, the erasure—then this revenge, this exquisite, personal destruction, was almost poetically just. He was the heir. The symbol. He deserved this. The weight of his family’s sins was a mantle he had always felt but never understood until now. It was a crushing, deserved burden.
He heard sounds from beyond his door. Muffled shouts, the tramp of boots, the occasional, sickening finality of a scream that was abruptly cut short. The purge. His uncles, his aunts, his cousins. The Wu bloodline was being systematically pruned from the tree of history. He curled tighter into himself, each distant sound a nail in the coffin of his old life.
He was the last one. The prize captive. Kept in this clean, isolated room while his family was fed to the darkness. Why? To prolong the agony? To make a final, public example?
Once, he heard a familiar, furious voice echoing down the stone corridor. "Your victory is built on deceit! He trusted you! Let me see him!"
Jiang Xiaoshuai.
A flicker of something—warmth, concern—stirred in the frozen tundra of his heart. Then, guilt extinguished it. Xiaoshuai had warned him, in his own subtle way. He had been observant, smart, and Suowei had dismissed his concerns, blinded by his infatuation.
He heard a calm, smoother voice answer, one he recognized as Guo Chengyu’s. "Your loyalty is touching, but misplaced. The Prince has decided you are more useful alive. Your spirit amuses him. Do not waste the opportunity."
The sounds of a struggle, then fading footsteps. Xiaoshuai was alive. Spared. Suowei didn't know if that was a mercy or a more refined form of cruelty.
Later, a different voice, serene and dignified despite the circumstances. "I ask for no special treatment. Only tell me if my son lives."
His mother. Zhang Li Ya.
Tears he didn't know he still possessed welled in his eyes, hot and shameful. Her love was the only pure thing left in his world, a world he had failed to protect.
"He lives, Consort Zhang," Guo Chengyu’s voice replied, with a surprising lack of mockery. "You have Prince Chi Cheng's word. You will be moved to quarters befitting your status. The sins of the father, and the grandfather, are not yours to bear."
His mother was safe. Spared. A sob racked Suowei’s frame, a harsh, ugly sound in the quiet room. He was glad. He was so glad. But the knowledge also isolated him further. He was alone in his punishment, as was fitting.
The guilty son, paying for the crimes of his house.
The days bled together. The untouched trays of food were collected and replaced. His body grew weaker, a hollow shell for his ravaged spirit. He stopped shivering, the cold seeping into his bones until it felt normal. He was fading, and a part of him welcomed it. There was no reason to fight, no reason to live. The person he was had been a lie, and the world that remained was a monument to his own gullibility.
He dreamed of Chi Cheng. Not the cold prince in the temple, but the man from the library, the man who had held him during the storm. In his dreams, that man would look at him with soft eyes, his touch gentle, his words a balm. And every time, Suowei would lean into the dream, desperate for its comfort, only to have it dissolve at the last second, leaving him alone in the dark, the echo of "my revenge" ringing in his ears.
It was during one of these waking nightmares, as he stared listlessly at the door, that the bolt shot back with a deafening crack.
The door swung open.
Chi Cheng stood on the threshold.
He was dressed not as a knight, but as a ruler. Dark, elegant robes embroidered with the Chi Phoenix. He was power and victory made flesh. He filled the doorway, and his presence was a violent shock to the stagnant air of the cell. His eyes, those same dark eyes that had once gazed at him with love and desire, now scanned the room with detached calculation before landing on him.
Suowei didn't move. He didn't have the strength to flinch, to cry, to plead. He just looked back, his own eyes empty windows into a house that had burned down.
Chi Cheng stepped inside, the door closing behind him with a final thud that sealed them in this new, terrible intimacy—the conqueror and his ruined prize.
He didn't speak immediately. He simply looked at Suowei, taking in his disheveled state, the untouched food, the profound stillness of despair. A muscle twitched in Chi Cheng's jaw.
Suowei finally found his voice, a raw, broken whisper that barely disturbed the silence. "Have you come to watch me die?" He asked the question not with fear, but with a flat curiosity. "Or to do it yourself?"
Chi Cheng’s gaze hardened, but Suowei saw something flicker in its depths—something that wasn't hatred. It looked almost like… frustration. "Death is a release," Chi Cheng said, his voice cold, though it lacked the venom from the temple. "You have not yet begun to pay your debt."
The words should have hurt. But they just… were. Suowei let out a slow breath, his gaze drifting away from Chi Cheng’s face back to the blank wall. There was nothing left to pay with. He was bankrupt.
"Then take whatever is left," he murmured. "There is nothing of value."
He heard Chi Cheng take a sharp, almost imperceptible breath. The silence that followed was heavier, charged with something Suowei was too broken to name. The anatomy of his ruin was complete. He was a dissected specimen, and the man who had wielded the knife was now standing over him, staring at the empty cavity where a heart used to be.
Chapter 27: Echoes in the Hollow
Notes:
And if i tell that i still have to memorize the 206 bones in the body?
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Chi Cheng stood over the ruin of Wu Suowei, and for the first time in a decade, his meticulously ordered world felt unstable. The victory, which should have been a symphony of triumph, rang hollow in the silent, sterile room. He had expected fury. He had expected tears, curses, the desperate bargaining of a cornered prince. He had prepared for a fight, for the final breaking of the Wu spirit.
He had not prepared for… this.
This absolute, utter surrender. This quiet, terrifying dissolution.
Suowei was not looking at him anymore. His gaze had drifted back to the wall, empty and unfocused, as if Chi Cheng were merely a piece of furniture. The vibrant, bratty, charming prince was gone. The determined, hopeful young emperor was gone. What remained was a shell, already half-retreated from the world. The fire had been extinguished so completely that not even smoke remained.
“Look at me,” Chi Cheng commanded, his voice sharper than he intended, the domineering prince reflexively asserting control.
Suowei’s eyelids fluttered, but he did not obey. His attention remained inward, on the desolate landscape of his own betrayal. A faint, almost serene smile touched his bloodless lips. “Why?” he whispered. “There is nothing left for you to see. You have already taken it all.”
The words, spoken without a trace of accusation, were more damning than any scream. They were a simple statement of fact. He had taken it all. And the prize was worthless.
Chi Cheng’s hand, resting at his side, clenched into a fist. This was not part of the plan. The plan was revenge, a clean, righteous fury. This… this felt like desecration. The ghost of Suowei’s touch, his laughter, the absolute trust in his eyes—all the weapons Chi Cheng had so skillfully used—now turned inward, accusing him.
“Your family is gone,” Chi Cheng said, forcing his voice to remain cold, trying to provoke a reaction, to find the familiar terrain of hatred. “The Wu name is ash. Your throne is mine. Everything your grandfather built is dust.”
Suowei gave a slow, slight nod, as if receiving mundane news. “I know. I can hear them.” He meant the screams from the dungeons. “It is what we deserved.”
We. He included himself in the condemnation. He had accepted his role as the final, atoning sacrifice.
Frustration, hot and unfamiliar, boiled in Chi Cheng’s chest. “Do not pretend to understand my pain. Your comfortable guilt is an insult.”
Finally, Suowei looked at him. His eyes were pools of such profound sorrow that Chi Cheng felt his breath catch. There was no comfort in them. Only a bottomless grief.
“I don’t understand your pain,” Suowei agreed softly. “How could I? I lived in a gilded cage, fed lies about my family’s glory. But I understand the consequence of it. I am the consequence.” He shifted slightly, a wince of pain crossing his features.
“You made me see the cracks in my world, Chi Cheng. You showed me the blood on our hands. And then you proved that the only person I thought was real… was the deepest crack of all. The punishment fits the crime.”
He was using Chi Cheng’s own lessons, the shared language of their late-night councils, to articulate his own death sentence. It was the most brilliant, devastating defense possible: complete and total agreement with the prosecution.
Chi Cheng took an involuntary step forward. “You will not find absolution in self-pity.”
“I am not seeking absolution,” Suowei replied, his voice fading, his energy spent. “I am waiting for the end. It is the only thing left that you haven’t orchestrated.” His eyes closed, a clear dismissal. The audience was over.
A cold spike of fear, sharp and entirely unexpected, lanced through Chi Cheng. Waiting for the end. He looked at the untouched tray of food, the pallor of Suowei’s skin, the fragile prominence of his collarbones above the neckline of his robe. This wasn’t just despair. It was a choice. A slow, passive suicide.
The thought was intolerable.
He had wanted to break Suowei, to see the Wu pride humbled. He had not wanted to erase him from existence. The hollow where Suowei’s vibrant spirit had been was a void that threatened to consume Chi Cheng’s own victory.
“You will eat,” Chi Cheng heard himself say, the command ringing with a desperation he despised.
Suowei didn’t respond. He had retreated back into his inner silence.
Enraged—at Suowei, at himself, at this entire unforeseen outcome—Chi Cheng turned on his heel and stormed out of the room, the door slamming shut behind him with a force that echoed down the empty corridor. He stood there for a moment, his chest heaving, the image of Suowei’s broken form burned into his mind.
Guo Chengyu was waiting for him, leaning against the wall a discreet distance away, his expression unreadable.
“The little songbird has stopped singing, I see,” Guo Chengyu remarked, his tone light but his eyes sharp.
“He is being stubborn,” Chi Cheng snapped, striding past him.
“Is that what it is?” Guo Chengyu fell into step beside him. “It looked less like stubbornness and more like… expiration. A pity. He was a useful tool to the end. His compliance made the transition remarkably smooth.”
Tool. The word was a gut punch. That’s what Suowei had been. A tool. So why did the thought of that tool breaking fill him with this blinding, panicked fury?
“He will not be permitted to die,” Chi Cheng stated, his voice low and deadly. “Not by his own hand. Not until I permit it.”
“And how do you propose to stop him, my friend?” Guo Chengyu asked, a knowing glint in his eye. “You cannot force a man to live. You have taken every reason he had to do so.”
Chi Cheng stopped walking, turning to face his oldest companion. The truth of Guo Chengyu’s words was a cold splash of water. He had systematically dismantled every pillar of Suowei’s life—his family, his throne, his trust, his love. He had left him with nothing but the crushing weight of his name and the memory of a beautiful, perfect lie.
What was left to threaten him with?
More pain? He was already drowning in it.
Death? He was welcoming it.
For the first time, Chi Cheng, the master strategist, had no move to make. He was checkmated by the complete and total surrender of his opponent.
“I will find a way,” Chi Cheng growled, but the words lacked conviction.
He spent the rest of the day in a black mood, his mind churning. The reports of a stabilized capital, of surrendering Wu loyalists, of the Phoenix banner flying over a pacified empire—all of it felt like ash. The victory was his. The kingdom was his. But the cost was staring back at him with empty, hopeless eyes from a clean, cold room.
That night, he did not sleep. He stood at the window of his new chambers—the Emperor’s chambers—looking out over the city he now ruled. The city Suowei had loved and had wanted to rule with justice.
The ghost of the prince was everywhere.
In the silence of the room, he could almost hear his laughter, his earnest debates about tax reform, his sleepy, trusting sighs.
He had wanted to make Suowei feel a fraction of the loss he had felt. But this… this was a different kind of loss. This was a void. An absence. And to his horror, Chi Cheng realized the void was inside himself, too.
The echo in the hollow was deafening. It was the sound of his own heart, beating a frantic, terrified rhythm against the realization that in destroying Wu Suowei, he might have destroyed the only thing that had ever made him feel truly, devastatingly alive.
Revenge was supposed to fill the emptiness left by his family. Instead, it had carved out a new, Suowei-shaped chasm that threatened to swallow him whole.
The hunter had caught his prey, only to find he could not live without it.
Chapter 28: Tether of A Memory
Notes:
i’m taking a shit rn with my heavy flow menstruation and life is fucking terrible
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The pristine order of Chi Cheng’s new reign was a lie. He sat on the Dragon Throne, heard the petitions of cowed ministers, and issued decrees that solidified his power, but his mind was a thousand li away, trapped in a small, clean room at the heart of the palace. The hollow victory of the temple had curdled into a gnawing, constant dread.
He had sent physicians. Suowei had refused to speak to them, turning his face to the wall. He had sent servants with broths and delicacies. The trays returned untouched. The only sign of life was the shallow rise and fall of his chest, a fragile rhythm that seemed to grow fainter each day.
Chi Cheng’s commands, which had once moved armies and toppled dynasties, were useless against this silent, passive resistance. He was the most powerful man in the empire, and he was utterly powerless.
Frustration festered into a cold, sharp fear. He found himself taking long, circuitous routes through the palace just to pass the corridor that led to Suowei’s cell, as if his mere presence could somehow will life back into him. He would stand outside the door for minutes at a time, listening to the crushing silence, his hand hovering near the bolt, before striding away, his expression darker than before.
Guo Chengyu watched it all with an infuriating, knowing calm. “The heart is a stubborn organ, Prince Chi,” he said one evening, as they reviewed troop deployments. “It clings to life even when the mind has given up. But even the heart needs a reason.”
“He has no reason,” Chi Cheng snapped, slamming a scroll onto the table. “I took them all.”
“Did you?” Guo Chengyu mused, tapping his chin. “Or did you merely bury them under a mountain of pain? A mountain you yourself built.”
Chi Cheng glared at him, but the words struck a chord. He had been so focused on inflicting pain, on showcasing the totality of his revenge, that he had forgotten the complex, multifaceted person Suowei was beneath the title of ‘Crown Prince’. He had reduced him to a symbol, and in doing so, had missed the one thing that might still hold him to this world.
That night, plagued by a restlessness that felt like madness, Chi Cheng went to the one place he had avoided since the coup: the imperial library. It was exactly as they had left it. Scrolls from their last strategy session were still unfurled on the table. A half-finished cup of tea, long cold, sat where Suowei had left it. The air still held the faint, ghostly scent of his sandalwood soap.
It felt like a tomb.
His eyes scanned the shelves, over the treatises on law and warfare, and then fell upon a smaller, less ostentatious cabinet. Suowei’s private collection. With a sense of trespassing on a sacred grave, Chi Cheng opened it.
Inside were not state documents, but scrolls of poetry. Sketches on loose parchment. And tucked in the back, a simple, wooden box. His fingers, usually so steady, trembled as he lifted the lid.
Inside, nestled on a bed of dark silk, was a hawk’s feather, sleek and grey. The feather from the goshawk, Xiao Feng, that he had rescued from the tree. Beneath it was a small, smooth stone from the stream near the Temple of Azure Clouds. And there, carefully folded, was a strip of dark cloth, stained with a faint, rusty brown—the bandage from his own arm, the one Suowei had torn from his robe to bind the wound from the dagger.
Chi Cheng stared at the objects, his breath catching in his throat. These were not the treasures of an emperor. They were the treasures of a young man in love. They were touchstones of the moments that had defined their story, the story he had told Suowei was a lie. But the feeling in which these objects were kept… that had been real. For Suowei, it had all been devastatingly, heartbreakingly real.
He had not buried Suowei’s reasons for living. He had simply convinced him that those reasons were fraudulent.
A plan, desperate and reckless, began to form in his mind. It was a gamble, a violation of every cold, calculating principle he lived by. It was emotional, messy, and dangerous. It was everything he had taught himself not to be.
The next day, he did not go to the throne room. He went to the dungeons. He ignored the pleas and curses from the other cells and went straight to the isolated corridor. He carried nothing but the small wooden box.
The guard unlocked the door. Chi Cheng stepped inside.
Suowei was in the same position as before, a listless form on the cot. He didn’t stir at the sound of the door.
Chi Cheng did not speak. He walked to the small wooden table and set the box down with a soft thud. The sound, small as it was, seemed to reverberate in the silent room.
Slowly, Suowei’s head turned. His eyes, dull and sunken, landed on the box. A flicker of confusion, then a dawning, horrified recognition. He knew that box.
Chi Cheng opened the lid.
He saw the exact moment Suowei registered the contents. A tremor went through his body. His breath hitched, a ragged, painful sound. The emptiness in his eyes was suddenly flooded with a torrent of raw, agonizing memory. The carefully constructed wall of numb acceptance cracked.
“Why?” Suowei whispered, his voice a torn shred of parchment. He dragged his gaze from the box to Chi Cheng’s face, and for the first time since the temple, there was emotion there—a blazing, wounded fury. “Why would you bring that here? To mock me further? To show me the props from your performance?”
“No.” The word was ripped from Chi Cheng. It was not the voice of the cold conqueror. It was raw, stripped bare.
He reached into the box and picked up the strip of cloth, the one Suowei had used to bind his wound. He held it out, his own composure fracturing. “You tore this from your own robe. The finest silk. For a knight’s bleeding arm.” He pointed to the feather. “You kept this. A token from a day you said you felt… clean.” His finger then hovered over the stone. “You picked this up by the waterfall, where you said you could breathe. You told me that.”
He was laying his own soul bare, admitting to the intimacy he had weaponized.
Suowei stared at him, the fury warring with a devastating confusion. “It was all a lie. You said so yourself.”
“The reason was a lie,” Chi Cheng admitted, the confession feeling like a physical wound. He took a step closer, the cloth still clutched in his hand. “But the moments… the hawk was truly stuck. The blade would have truly struck Lady Zhao. The waterfall truly roared. And you…” His voice broke. “You truly tore your robe. You truly looked at me with gratitude. You truly trusted me. That was not my lie, Suowei. That was you.”
He was offering a twisted, impossible truth: that while his intentions were false, the experiences themselves, and Suowei’s genuine reactions to them, had been real.
Suowei shook his head, a frantic, denying motion. “Stop it. Stop twisting the knife. You have won. Just let me go.”
“I can’t.” The words were a desperate, helpless admission. Chi Cheng sank to one knee beside the cot, bringing himself to Suowei’s eye level. It was a posture of submission, of supplication. The domineering prince was gone. “I thought I could. I thought your death would be the final, satisfying note. But it is not. The thought of you gone… it feels like losing everything all over again.”
Suowei recoiled as if struck. “You are a monster. You killed my family. You destroyed my life. Do not speak to me of loss.”
“I know!” Chi Cheng’s control finally shattered. His voice was a raw, guttural thing, filled with a decade of pain and the fresh, terrifying agony of the present. “I am a monster! I have done monstrous things! And I would do them all again for my people, for my family’s memory! But this… watching you fade away… this is a punishment I did not foresee. A punishment for me.”
He was breathing heavily, his knuckles white where he gripped the strip of cloth. The carefully constructed wall between Prince Chi Cheng and the man who had loved Wu Suowei had crumbled to dust, leaving a raw, conflicted, and terrified human being in its place.
“You are my prisoner,” Chi Cheng said, his voice dropping to a tortured whisper. “But I am the one in chains. Your absence… this silence… it is an emptiness I cannot bear.”
He reached out, his movements hesitant, and his fingers brushed against the cold, limp hand that rested on the cot. The touch was electric, a jolt of memory and unbearable pain for both of them.
Suowei flinched, but he did not pull away. He was staring at Chi Cheng, his eyes wide, his mind trying to process this impossible shift. The unshakable, hateful conqueror was kneeling before him, undone. The narrative of pure, righteous revenge was collapsing under the weight of a love that had become terrifyingly real.
“Eat,” Chi Cheng pleaded, the command now a ragged request. “Please. Do not leave me alone in this victory. It is… hollow.”
He stood up abruptly, unable to bear the intensity of the moment any longer. He turned and left the room, the door closing softly behind him, leaving Suowei alone with the box of memories and the echoing, devastating confession.
Suowei remained on the cot, trembling. The numb void was gone, replaced by a maelstrom of conflicting emotions—fury, grief, a shocking, unwelcome flicker of something that felt dangerously like pity. Chi Cheng’s pain had been real. The torment in his eyes, the raw break in his voice… that had not been an act.
He looked at the box. The feather, the stone, the cloth. Tokens of a love he had believed in. Chi Cheng had just admitted that while the foundation was rotten, the moments themselves had been built with the genuine materials of his own heart.
It was a tether. A fragile, painful, maddening tether to a world he had been ready to leave.
Slowly, shakily, he pushed himself upright. His body was weak, his head spinning. He looked at the tray of food by the door. The gruel was cold, unappetizing.
But for the first time in days, the thought of it didn’t make him nauseous.
He didn’t move towards it. Not yet. But the absolute, final ‘no’ that had been his only companion had been replaced by a trembling, uncertain question.
The world was still a nightmare. His family was still dead. The betrayal was still a gaping wound.
But the man who had inflicted it all was now kneeling in the ruins alongside him, chained by the same memories, and begging him not to let go.
And that changed everything.
Chapter 29: Weight of Whispers
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The tether of memory, so painfully established, was frayed by the coarse hands of reality. Chi Cheng, in a fit of misguided and desperate concern, had ordered that Suowei’s cell be properly maintained. He could not bear the thought of the man he… the man he cared for… living in squalor. It was a sentiment that warred violently with the part of him that still screamed for Wu blood, a conflict that left him volatile and unpredictable.
Thus, two maids were sent. They were young, low-ranking girls from the palace staff, nervous and awed by their proximity to the infamous fallen Emperor. Their instructions were simple: clean the room, change the linens, leave the food.
The first time they entered, Suowei had recoiled, pressing himself into the far corner of his cot, turning his face to the wall. Their presence was an intrusion, a reminder of the world outside his prison of grief. They worked in terrified silence, their movements quick and efficient, their eyes wide as they stole glances at the spectral figure of the once-glorious Emperor.
But familiarity, as it often does, bred carelessness. On their third visit, emboldened by Suowei’s passive silence and the whispered gossip of the court, they forgot their fear.
“Hurry up with the linens,” one maid, a girl with a sharp chin named Fen, muttered to the other, Ling. “The air in here is foul. Stinks of betrayal.”
Ling, a rounder, softer-faced girl, giggled nervously. “Shh! He can hear you.”
“So what?” Fen sniffed, casting a disdainful look at Suowei’s hunched form. “It’s the truth, isn’t it? My aunt, she was from the northern provinces. She told me stories. What the old Wu Emperor did to the Chi people… whole villages, burned. Children….” She trailed off, her voice dropping to a dramatic, horrified whisper. “They say the Chi Prince is just giving them what they deserve. A blood debt paid in blood.”
Suowei flinched as if struck. He squeezed his eyes shut, but he could not block out their voices. They were merely vocalizing the chorus that had been screaming in his own head.
“Do you think it’s true,” Ling whispered, her voice trembling with a morbid curiosity, “that he… the fallen Emperor… that he loved Prince Chi? That he was… you know… his…”
“His catamite?” Fen finished, her tone dripping with scorn. “Of course he was. How else do you think the Prince got so close? They say he was a spoiled, stupid brat. Probably spread his legs for a pretty face and a few sweet words while his family’s kingdom was sold out from under him. Serves him right. A fitting end for a traitorous whore.”
The words were like acid, etching themselves into Suowei’s soul. Spoiled. Stupid. Traitorous whore. They were the fears he had harbored in his darkest moments, given voice by strangers. They were the judgment of the common people, the very ones he had once, in his naivety, believed he could rule with compassion. They saw not a complex tragedy, but a simple, deserved fall. A foolish prince who had lusted after his own executioner.
A low, wounded sound escaped him, a whimper of pure, unadulterated agony. He curled tighter, his arms wrapping around his head as if to physically shield himself from the verbal blows.
The maids fell silent, finally noticing his reaction. A flicker of fear returned to Fen’s eyes, but it was quickly replaced by a defiant smirk. “See? He hears. He knows what he is.”
They finished their work quickly and left, the bolt sliding home with a sound that felt like a seal of condemnation.
The fragile, tentative will that Chi Cheng’s raw confession had sparked was extinguished. The maids’ gossip was a cold, hard truth that his tortured mind was all too ready to accept. He was the foolish, complicit heir. The traitor. The whore. His love had not been a beautiful, tragic mistake; it was a character flaw, a moral failing that had led to the destruction of his line.
The tether of memory now felt like a noose. The hawk’s feather was a symbol of his gullibility. The stone from the waterfall was a reminder of a peace he had no right to. The strip of cloth was a testament to a loyalty he had been too blind to see was false.
He did not touch the fresh food and water that had been left. The will to live, so tenuously grasped, evaporated. The darkness closed in again, thicker and more final than before. This time, there was no anger, no fight. Only a profound, soul-crushing shame. He deserved this silence. He deserved this end.
When Chi Cheng visited later that day, he felt the shift immediately. The room was cleaner, yes, but the air was colder, the despair somehow deeper and more resigned than before. Suowei was back in the depths, but this time, he had dragged the anchors of public scorn with him.
“The maids came,” Chi Cheng stated, a statement meant to be neutral, but it came out as an accusation.
Suowei did not respond. He didn’t even look at him.
A cold dread trickled down Chi Cheng’s spine. He saw the untouched tray. He saw the absolute stillness. The progress he had clawed back with his own painful vulnerability had been erased.
He left the cell, his mood blacker than the dungeon’s shadows. He found Guo Chengyu in the strategy room.
“The maids who cleaned the prisoner’s cell today,” Chi Cheng said, his voice dangerously quiet. “Find them.”
Guo Chengyu raised an eyebrow but asked no questions. He dispatched a guard. Within the hour, the two girls, Fen and Ling, were brought before Chi Cheng in a small antechamber. They were trembling, their earlier bravado completely gone, replaced by the primal fear of being in the presence of absolute power.
Chi Cheng did not sit. He stood over them, his presence filling the room. “You cleaned the prisoner’s cell today,” he said, his tone flat.
“Y-yes, Your Highness,” Fen stammered, kowtowing. “We did as we were told.”
“What did you speak of?” The question was a whiplash.
The girls exchanged panicked looks. “N-nothing, Your Highness! We just… we did our work.”
Chi Cheng took a slow step forward. The air grew cold. “I will ask you only once more. What. Did. You. Speak of?”
The pressure was too much. Ling, the softer one, broke into terrified sobs. “It was nothing! We just… we talked about… about the north… and the stories… and… and the fallen Emperor…”
Fen shot her a furious look, but it was too late.
Chi Cheng’s face was a mask of icy fury. He had spent days fighting a desperate, internal war to keep a flicker of light alive in Suowei, to find some way to bear the weight of what he had done. And these insignificant, chattering insects had, in a few careless minutes, undone it all. They had reinforced every one of Suowei’s deepest shames, poisoning the well he was trying, so clumsily, to clean.
Their words were not just gossip. They were a direct attack on the fragile, impossible thing he was trying to protect. The thing that was, to his horror, more important to him than his own righteous victory.
“You spoke of things beyond your station,” Chi Cheng’s voice was lethally soft. “You inflicted wounds upon a prisoner under my protection. You interfered in the affairs of your Prince.”
“Mercy, Your Highness!” Fen cried, finally understanding the gravity of her situation. “We meant no harm! We were just talking!”
“Talking,” Chi Cheng repeated, the word a death sentence. He looked at them, these two foolish girls, and saw not individuals, but an embodiment of the thoughtless cruelty of the world. A cruelty that had just been visited upon the one person he could no longer bear to see hurt.
He turned to the captain of the guard. “Execute them.”
The words were uttered with no more emotion than one would use to order a meal. “Publicly. In the courtyard. Let every servant in this palace know the price of wagging their tongues about matters that do not concern them.”
Guo Chengyu, who had been observing silently, let out a low whistle. “A bit extreme for a bit of gossip, don’t you think, my friend? They are just foolish girls.”
Chi Cheng turned his glacial gaze on him. “They are a lesson. No one touches what is mine. No one. Not with words. Not with looks. No one.”
The final two words were a snarl, filled with a possessive fury that was as shocking as it was absolute. It was no longer about the Wu or the Chi. It was about Suowei.
Guo Chengyu said nothing more, his face thoughtful as he watched Chi Cheng stride from the room.
The executions were carried out within the hour. The terrified screams of the two maids echoed through the servant quarters, a brutal, terrifying reminder of the new ruler’s wrath. The message was received: the fallen Emperor was not to be discussed. He was under the personal, and violently protective, custody of Prince Chi Cheng.
Back in his chambers, Chi Cheng stood by the window, his hands clenched behind his back. The cold satisfaction of delivering justice was absent. All he felt was a hollow, ringing emptiness. He had silenced the gossips, but he could not silence the voices in Suowei’s head. He had committed another act of cruelty to protect the victim of his first, greater cruelty.
He was building his new kingdom on a foundation of blood and fear, all to preserve a single, broken man who wished for nothing but death. The weight of the whispers was gone, but the price of his cruelty was a stain on his soul that he knew would never wash out. And the silence from the clean room at the end of the dungeon corridor was now louder than any scream.
Notes:
prepare for the next chapter.
Chapter 30: A Villain’s Rightful Duty
Notes:
This chapter deals with the sensitive topic of suicide attempt. If this is a difficult subject for you, please feel free to skip this chapter or ensure you are in a safe headspace to read.
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The silence after the maids’ execution was a living entity in Wu Suowei’s cell, a thick, suffocating blanket woven from shame and despair.
He had not moved since the sound of their final cries had faded beyond the stone. He was a fossil, preserved in the amber of his own ruin. Their voices, their sharp, contemptuous words, were etched into the inside of his skull, a perpetual, whispering chorus.
Spoiled. Stupid. Traitorous whore.
They were not wrong. They were merely the echo of a truth he had been too blind, too arrogant, to see. He had played at being a prince, at being a reformer, all while the foundation of his privilege was a mountain of skulls—skulls his grandfather had piled high with genocidal efficiency, skulls that now, justly, demanded his own.
He was the heir. The symbol. The bloodline.
The sins of the father, and the grandfather, were not abstract concepts from philosophical texts; they were a genetic inheritance, a curse written in his very bones, passed down through the royal blood like a disease.
Every moment of comfort he had ever known, every bite of exquisite food, every stitch of the finest silk against his skin, was paid for with the blood of the innocent. The Chi people. Their children. Their burned villages and desecrated temples. The stories Chi Cheng had thrown in his face like acid were not just stories; they were the itemized, hidden cost of his gilded life, a bill that had now come due.
And Chi Cheng… the memory of his face, contorted in the temple with a hatred so pure it was almost beautiful, was a brand on his soul. The only real thing was my hatred. He had been a sublime fool to think the love was real.
How could it be? How could anyone look at him, a Wu, and feel anything but revulsion?
Every touch, every whispered endearment in the dark, every moment of vulnerability he had shared, must have been a fresh layer of torture for Chi Cheng. To have to pretend affection, to offer counsel and comfort, to the grandson of the man who had murdered his entire family… it was a violation worse than any physical pain. Suowei’s very love, his trusting heart, was a pollutant, tainting the purity of Chi Cheng’s righteous cause.
He remembered the early days. Chi Cheng’s coldness, his stoic silence. He had mistaken it for strength, for a noble, quiet honor. Now he saw it for what it was: a monumental, almost superhuman effort of will, a man forcing himself to endure the presence of his greatest enemy. He must have been screaming inside every time Suowei smiled at him, every time he sought his counsel on matters of state, every time he leaned into his touch seeking reassurance.
The disgust must have been a constant, acrid taste in his mouth, a poison he swallowed daily to maintain the charade.
And the revenge… it was so perfect. So complete. It wasn't just the loss of the throne or the death of his family. It was the psychological evisceration. Chi Cheng had made him fall in love with his own executioner. He had made him an accomplice in his downfall, guiding him with a lover's hand to the precipice. He had taken his heart, his trust, his body, and had used them as the very tools to break him, turning his own affection into the weapon that dealt the final, mortal blow.
Wasn't that enough? a small, broken part of his mind, the last remnant of the boy he had been, whispered. The kingdom is yours. My family is ash. My spirit is dust. Isn't that enough revenge for a lifetime of pain?
But the answer came immediately, cold and certain, silencing the whimper. No. Never.
Because as long as he drew breath, he was a reminder. A walking, talking monument to Chi Cheng’s own moral compromise. His continued existence forced Chi Cheng to play the role of caretaker to his family’s murderer, to live a lie that was surely eating him alive from the inside out. He saw it now, in the new, grim set of Chi Cheng’s mouth, in the shadows that lived under his eyes, in the way he sometimes looked at him with an emotion that was no longer simple hatred, but a weary, complicated torment. He was Chi Cheng’s final, lingering wound. A wound that would never heal as long as it was kept open and festering.
This, then, was his last act of love. The only pure thing he had left to offer. It would not be an act of spite. It would not be a cry for attention. It would be a gift. A final, definitive solution to the unsolvable equation of their shared misery. He would erase the variable. He would remove the living, breathing problem of Wu Suowei from Chi Cheng’s world.
He would give him peace.
The thought brought a wave of calm so profound it felt like a religious grace. This was not surrender. This was agency. This was him, for the first time since his cursed birth, doing something truly, selflessly right.
Slowly, with a ceremonial solemnity, he pushed himself up from the cold floor. His body felt distant, a poorly made puppet he was finally setting aside. He looked at the cot, at the thin, coarse sheet. It was fitting. No silk. No gold. Just a simple, utilitarian end for a life that had been built on a gilded lie.
He gripped the hem of the sheet, his fingers trembling not with fear, but with the sheer weight of the moment. He took a breath, and pulled.
The fabric barely strained.
A frustrated sound, half-sob, half-groan, escaped him. "Why can't I tear it…?" he whispered to the empty, judging walls, his voice cracking. "Why…?"
He tried again, his arms shaking with the effort. The weeks of starvation, of despair, had hollowed him out. There was no strength left in his limbs. The sheet, this simple, stupid piece of cloth, was defying him. Just like everything else in his life.
"Come on…" he pleaded, his vision blurring with hot, angry tears of utter humiliation. "Now don't… don't you fail me too…"
He repositioned his hands, his knuckles bleaching white with the strain, and pulled with every ounce of will he possessed. A tiny, mocking rip appeared, then held fast.
"Why…" he choked out, the tears now flowing freely, scalding paths of shame down his cheeks. "Why are you not strong enough even for this? What good are you? What use is a prince who can't even command a piece of cloth?"
The self-loathing rose in him like a tide, bitter and suffocating. He was a failure. A comprehensive failure as a prince, a failure as a son, a failure as a man. He couldn't save his kingdom, he couldn't see through the lies of the man he loved, and now he couldn't even manage to end his own worthless life with a shred of dignity.
"You useless trash…" he snarled at his own hands, at his weak, pathetic body. "Break!"
With a final, guttural cry that tore from the very depths of his being, he wrenched his hands apart, putting the last dregs of his physical strength, all his fury, all his shame, all his twisted, enduring love, into one violent, desperate motion.
The sound of tearing fabric was shockingly loud in the silence, a brutal applause for his one success.
He stared, panting, chest heaving, at the long, ragged strip in his hands. He had done it. He released a strained laugh through the tears and the weakness and the overwhelming sense of his own inadequacy, he had done it.
He stood on the cot, the world tilting slightly. He focused on the beam. It was sturdy. It would hold. He looped the fabric, his movements slow, deliberate, the ragged edges of the cloth a testament to his struggle. He was an artist preparing his final, most important canvas. The void.
He tied the knot. It was not elegant, but it was strong. It was a promise.
He placed the noose around his neck. The coarse, torn weave was a cold, honest pressure against his skin. There was no fear. There was only a vast, welcoming stillness. He was so tired. Tired of the pain, tired of the guilt, tired of the love that felt like a shard of glass permanently lodged in his heart. He was tired of being a burden, a curse, a living reminder of atrocities he had not committed but would forever embody.
This was the ultimate apology. To Chi Cheng. To the Chi people. To the world.
He closed his eyes. He did not pray for forgiveness. He did not hope for an afterlife. He hoped for nothingness.
He took a final, deep breath, filling his lungs with the stale air of his prison, and prepared to step off the edge of the cot, into the silence he had chosen, into the final, loving gift of his own absence.
Wu Suowei was scared.
A cold, primal terror seized his limbs, locking his joints. His heart hammered against his ribs like a trapped bird, a frantic, desperate rhythm of pure animal instinct. Every fiber of his being screamed at him to live, to survive, to step back from the edge.
But why would he hesitate for something that was rightfully his duty?
This fear was just the last, pathetic gasp of the selfish, spoiled prince he had always been. The part of him that still clung to the gilded cage, that still whimpered for the warmth of the sun, for the taste of food, for the sound of a voice—even a lying one. It was the same weakness that had allowed him to be seduced, to be used, to become the author of his own ruin. This fear was the final enemy he had to conquer.
He embraced the fear. He let it wash over him, a cold wave of pure sensation. He acknowledged its power, and then he dismissed it. It was irrelevant. It was the last vestige of a self that needed to die.
The coarse rope was a brutal kiss against his throat. It was the most honest touch he had felt in months. Not the false tenderness of a liar’s hand, not the clinical efficiency of a physician’s, but the stark, unforgiving embrace of the end he deserved. It was the truth he had been running from his entire life. It was justice.
And with that thought, the fear did not vanish, but it was transformed. It became the fuel for his resolve. His body trembled violently, but his will was a diamond, hard and clear.
He could feel the ghost of every lie Chi Cheng had ever told him, like a layer of filth beneath his skin. The memory of Chi Cheng’s voice, low and reassuring in the library, felt like a physical violation. Every word had been a calculated step, every glance a measured manipulation. He had been a puppet, and he had loved the hands that held his strings. The shame of that love was a fire in his veins, hotter than any hatred.
He thought of Chi Cheng’s suffering. The boy who had watched his world burn. The prince who had crawled from the ashes with nothing but a cold, burning need for retribution. And he, Wu Suowei, had been the ultimate prize. The living, breathing symbol of everything Chi Cheng had lost.
To have to serve that symbol, to protect it, to pretend to cherish it… the sheer, gut-wrenching disgust Chi Cheng must have felt every single day was a punishment Suowei could scarcely comprehend. His very existence was a continuous act of torture upon the man he loved.
And he did love him. That was the most exquisite agony of all. The love was a cancer, a sickness that had taken root in the fertile soil of Chi Cheng’s deception and now thrived, unchecked, in the ruins of his soul. He loved the man who had annihilated him. He loved the hands that had built his gallows. It was a monstrous, unforgivable weakness.
"This is for you," he whispered into the stagnant air, the words a final confession. "This is the only thing I have left that is truly mine to give."
He could almost see it—a future without the burden of him. Chi Cheng, free from the shackles of this twisted guardianship. Free from the sight of the face he must loathe. He could rule his hard-won kingdom without the living ghost of the Wu dynasty haunting his halls. He could finally stop pretending. He could, perhaps, one day, find a sliver of peace, untainted by the memory of the spoiled prince he had been forced to cradle and corrupt.
The thought was a bittersweet solace. It was the most selfless act he had ever contemplated. It was an apology for his grandfather's tyranny, for his own naivety, for the unforgivable sin of having been born a Wu.
He leaned forward, letting his weight begin to transfer, the rope tightening its promise. There was no fear now. There was only a profound, devastating relief. The calculations were over. The debt was about to be paid in full.
He was giving Chi Cheng back his world, cleansed of its greatest blight.
He was, finally, doing something right.
Notes:
my classmate lied to the school nurse about her guardian’s signature, telling her that it was her mother’s grandmother’s grandma’s signature lmfao.
Chapter 31: The Only Truth
Notes:
sorry for the late update! I was feeling unwell since ive got low immunity and got sick for just a little drop of rain
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Chi Cheng had made plans that day.
He thought of taking the small, honeyed cakes Suowei loved. A taunt. A peace offering. A plea. He didn't know what it was anymore. All he knew was that he needed to see him, to lay eyes on the only thing that made sense in the wreckage he had created.
The man he had destroyed to avenge his family, and the man he loved to the marrow of his bones. They were the same man. It was his heaven and his hell.
He found himself moving, his feet carrying him back through the cold corridors without any conscious command.
When he finally reached the chamber and opened the door, the universe folded in on itself.
His mind, for a single, merciful second, refused it.
It was a painting.
A nightmare.
A lie.
All he could see was Suowei, up there, hanging. A still, elegant silhouette against the grim stone. His Suowei. His.
He couldn't move. His boots were rooted to the threshold, his limbs locked in place by a paralysis of pure, uncomprehending horror. His mind, his brilliant, strategic mind, short-circuited, reduced to a single, devastating loop.
"...Suowei?"
The name was a breathless fracture in the silence.
Then, the spiral. Short, brutal, and absolute.
Suowei up there… dead. Dead. Dead.
The word was a hammer in his skull, striking the same note again and again and again, each impact driving the reality deeper, shattering him from the inside out.
Dead. The fight was gone from his body, replaced by a weight that promised to crush him into the stone floor.
Dead. His vision tunneled until all that existed was the swinging silhouette and the three-word litany of his own damnation.
The air left his lungs in a silent, devastated rush. The ringing in his ears was not a sound, but the shrieking of his own soul. Every calculated move, every hardened thought, every layer of hatred he had worn as armor vaporized in that single, horrific image.
No.
It was not a thought. It was the very foundation of his being cracking.
Move, Chi Cheng. His body was stone, frozen in the doorway to his own damnation.
MOVE!
The scream broke the paralysis. He was a blur of desperate motion. His dagger—the one he slept with, the one that symbolized his vow of vengeance—was in his hand and flying through the air before he could even form the intent. It was not an act of a general or a avenger, but of a man watching his heart be ripped from his chest. The blade severed the fabric with a final, sickening tear.
He crashed forward as Suowei fell, his body a shield against the cold stone. He caught him, the impact jarring, the weight in his arms terrifyingly light, terrifyingly still. He sank to his knees, cradling the limp form against his chest, a broken sob tearing from his throat.
"Suowei!" The name was a prayer, a curse, a scream. "No, no, no, look at me. Look at me!"
His hands, capable of such violence, trembled as they framed Suowei's face. The skin was cold. The lips were tinged with blue. A brutal, red ring—a brand of finality—marred the pale throat he had once kissed with a reverence that shamed his hatred.
He fumbled for a pulse, his fingers pressing against the terrible mark, begging, bargaining with any god that would listen.
Please. Please. I take it all back. I take it all back. Just let him be alive.
There was nothing. A void. A silence more profound than any he had ever known. It was the end of the world.
Then—a flicker. A thread-thin, faltering beat against his fingertips. It was so weak, a moth's wing against a storm, but it was there. Life. The one thing he had not managed to completely extinguish.
The spiral was not one of cold realization, but of raw, animalistic agony.
What have I done?
This was not the plan. The plan was to keep him. To have him. To force him to live with the consequences, yes, but to live. To be near him. To have the one beautiful, cursed thing his vengeance had afforded him. Suowei was his prisoner, but he was Chi Cheng's anchor.
His reason. The living, breathing proof that amidst all the blood and hatred, something pure and undeniable had taken root.
He loved him. He loved him with a ferocity that terrified him. He loved the way his brow furrowed in thought, the way he trusted so easily, the way he had looked at Chi Cheng as if he hung the stars. He loved him, and he had systematically destroyed every reason for that man to look at him that way ever again.
He had killed the maids for their contempt, not for justice, but from a possessiveness so violent it shocked him.
No one gets to hurt him but me.
And in the end, he had hurt him the most. He had handed him the knife and shown him where to cut.
He gathered Suowei closer, rocking him slightly, his face buried in the cold, silken hair. "You cannot," he whispered, his voice broken. "You cannot do this. You cannot leave me. I forbid it."
The words were a conqueror's command, but they were spoken with the desperation of a beggar.
He saw it now, with terrifying clarity. Suowei hadn't done this to escape pain. He had done it to give Chi Cheng peace. To remove the burden. To offer his own life as the final payment for a debt he never owed. It was the most selfless, devastating act imaginable, and it had shattered Chi Cheng's victory into a million worthless pieces.
He had won his war. He had his throne. He had his vengeance.
And as he felt that faint, fluttering pulse begin to fade under his fingertips, Chi Cheng knew, with a certainty that would haunt him for the rest of his days, that if Suowei died, he would be taking Chi Cheng's entire world with him. The hatred, the love—it was all the same. It was all for this man in his arms.
"Stay," he begged, his tears falling onto Suowei's still face. "Stay with me. I cannot...Suowei, love… I cannot do this without you."
The fragile thread of Suowei’s pulse stuttered against his fingertips—a dying ember in a sudden storm.
Panic, pure and primal, obliterated the last vestiges of Chi Cheng’s control. The cold, calculating ruler was gone, replaced by a single, razor-edged command that screamed through his soul: Live. You will live.
He moved with a frantic, brutal strength, gathering Suowei’s limp form into his arms. The prince’s head lolled back, a sight so profoundly wrong it shattered what was left of his composure. He surged to his feet, kicking the chamber door open with a force that cracked the wooden frame.
“GUARDS!” The roar that ripped from his throat was raw, stripped of all authority, filled only with naked terror.
Two soldiers scrambled forward, their eyes widening in shock at the scene: their formidable king, his face a mask of anguish, clutching the fallen prince as if the world depended on it.
“Your Majesty—!”
“The physician!” Chi Cheng snarled, already striding past them, his hold on Suowei desperately tight. “Fetch him now! If he is not here before my next breath, I will have your heads!”
The men scrambled into a panicked sprint. Chi Cheng did not wait. He carried Suowei through the fortress, a grim, hurried procession. Courtiers and servants froze, then hastily averted their eyes from the cataclysm unfolding before them. He saw none of them. His entire world had narrowed to the cold weight in his arms and the desperate, silent plea. Breathe. Just breathe.
He did not take Suowei to the guest chambers. He stormed into his own royal apartments, the ultimate seat of his power, and laid Suowei down on the vast bed with a jarring gentleness. The silken sheets seemed to mock Suowei’s waxy pallor.
He pressed his ear to Suowei’s chest, his own breath held captive. The heartbeat was a faint, irregular whisper. The shallow rise of his chest was barely perceptible.
The door flew open. The royal physician hurried in, his robe askew, followed by the panting guards.
“Your Majesty, what has happened—?” the physician began, his eyes falling upon the figure on the bed. He paled. “Heavens…”
Chi Cheng was on him in an instant. He grabbed the physician by the front of his robe, pulling him close until they were nose to nose. The grief and terror in his eyes had been forged into a weapon of pure, undiluted menace.
“Him,” Chi Cheng hissed, his voice low and venomous, shaking with a force that was neither cold nor calculated, but wholly, terrifyingly emotional.
He tightened his grip, his knuckles white.
“You will bring him back to me,” he whispered, the words a deadly, desperate promise. “Heal him at all cost.”
He released the physician with a shove, his gaze burning with a frantic, unstable fire.
“Fail me, and your life is forfeit. Your family’s lives are forfeit. I will erase your entire line from this earth.”
The physician, trembling violently, could only nod mutely. He had never seen the king like this—not in his coldest rages, not in the heat of battle. This was something else entirely: a man standing on the precipice of his own ruin.
“I… I understand, Your Majesty,” he stammered, rushing to the bedside, his hands already moving to examine the livid mark on Suowei’s throat.
Chi Cheng stood over them, a statue of storm and fury, his chest heaving. He watched as the physician worked, his own heart hammering in a frantic, syncopated rhythm with Suowei’s weakening one. The war was over. The throne was his. But here, in this room, the only battle that had ever truly mattered was being fought on a field of silk, and he was losing.
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Chapter 32: A Man Who’s Trying to Get Home
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the author is sick.
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Time lost all meaning in the hushed gloom of the chamber. For Chi Cheng, it was measured not in hours, but in the faint, faltering breaths from the bed. The physician had come and gone, his prognosis a grim whisper: "Now, we wait. His body must choose to fight."
And so, Chi Cheng waited. He was a king who commanded armies, but here, he was powerless. He had not slept. He had not moved from the hard wooden chair he'd dragged to the bedside. His knuckles were white where he gripped his own knees, the only outlet for the frantic energy screaming beneath his skin. The cold, domineering ruler was gone, stripped away to reveal a raw nerve of pure, terrified tension.
His gaze was locked on Suowei's face, searching for any flicker of life, any sign of return. Every shallow, hesitant breath from the prince was a reprieve; every moment of stillness that followed was a fresh plunge into dread. The sight of the brutal, purple bruise circling Suowei's throat was a brand of his own failure. He had done this. His vengeance had forged the despair that led to this silence.
A violent tremor ran through him. He leaned forward, elbows on his knees, and pressed the heels of his hands against his eyes until stars burst in the darkness. He was so close to the edge—a breath away from crumbling into the howling void of his own guilt and fear. The urge to shake Suowei, to scream at him to wake up, to live, was a physical pressure in his chest. But he remained still, a statue of storm-suppressed agony, holding a vigil over the life he had so nearly extinguished.
"Chi Cheng." Guo Chengyu's voice was low but firm from the doorway. "You are the king now. The court waits. The petitions gather dust. You cannot let it all fray for one—"
"For what?" Chi Cheng's voice was hollow, his eyes never leaving Suowei's face. "For what have I become king, if I cannot even keep him breathing in this room?" The question was not a challenge to Guo Chengyu, but a raw, broken thing spoken to the universe. It laid bare the terrible truth: his kingdom, his victory, his very identity, were worthless currencies if they could not purchase this one, fragile life.
The confession, stark and simple, laid bare the terrible truth of his entire rebellion. It had never been about the throne. It had always been about the man lying broken upon it.
Guo Chengyu held his gaze, the political arguments dying on his tongue. He saw the white-knuckled grip on the king’s knees, the faint tremor in his hands. This was beyond reason, beyond duty. It was a sickness of the soul. He gave a slow, grim nod. “Then see that he lives,” Chengyu said, his tone shifting from reprimand to a somber, unyielding directive. “A king who starves himself of strength is a poor guardian. And a king cannot rule a ghost.” He did not wait for a reply. Turning on his heel, he left as quietly as he had come, closing the door on the suffocating vigil.
Chi Cheng gave no sign of having heard, his entire being focused on the faint, steadying rhythm of Suowei's chest. The world outside had ceased to exist. There was only the vigil, and the fragile hope that the next breath would come.
The place was a dark, warm sea, and he was sinking. There were no images, only a voice—his own—echoing in the silent depths.
Just let go. It’s easier.
There is no pain here. No shame. Just… nothing.
Isn't that what you wanted? To stop being a problem? To stop being a burden?
To finally give him the peace your absence would bring?
The voice was seductive, a lullaby of oblivion. It promised an end to the ache that had become his entire existence. He felt his spirit loosening its grip, ready to dissolve into the welcoming dark.
Yes. This is right. This is the final calculation. The only answer.
But then, another sensation intruded. A distant, persistent pressure. An anchor in the form of a warmth against his skin. And with it, memories, sharp and unbidden, flared against the back of his eyelids.
Not the cold conqueror. Not the vengeful stranger.
But Chi Cheng, in the library, a small, private smile softening his stern mouth as he listened to Suowei speak. Chi Cheng, his hand briefly covering Suowei’s to steady a trembling scroll, the touch lingering a moment too long to be purely practical. The low timbre of his voice in the quiet of the evening, sharing a thought that felt too unguarded to be a lie.
No. The plea was a silent scream in the void. Let me go. Why won't you let me go? Why do you show me this now?
The warmth and the ghosts of that sincerity persisted, a stubborn counterpoint to the void. They were followed by a new, physical sensation—a deep, throbbing pain that began to pulse in his throat, a brand of his failure.
The pain grew, sharpening from a distant echo into a torment that anchored him firmly back into a body he had tried to discard.
Why does it hurt? It shouldn't hurt anymore. I was free…
A soft, broken sigh escaped him. His lips, chapped and sore, moved barely a whisper, the words meant for the man in the memories who had felt so devastatingly real.
"You won't even let me rest in peace, my love…"
The dream-sea receded, the seductive voice and the beautiful, painful images fading into a murmur. The ache in his throat was now a definitive, brutal fact.
Then came the weight—the crushing heaviness of silken blankets, of his own limbs like lead, of an exhaustion that had seeped into his very bones. It was the weight of being alive, and of a love that refused to die.
.
The world returned to Wu Suowei in fragments.
First, the ache—a deep, throbbing pain in his throat that swallowed was a torment. Then, the weight—of heavy, silken blankets, of his own limbs, of an exhaustion that had seeped into his bones. Finally, the awareness of a presence, a solid warmth beside him, and the gentle, relentless pressure of a damp cloth on his forehead.
He pried his eyes open. The light from a single lantern was soft, but it still stung. The opulent ceiling of the royal chambers swam into view. He was in Chi Cheng’s bed. And Chi Cheng was there, kneeling beside it, his face a grim mask of concentration as he tended to him.
The memory of the torn sheet, the beam, the falling… it crashed into him, not as a shock, but as a profound failure. He had not succeeded. He was still here. The realization was a dull, heavy stone in his chest, heavier than any despair that had come before.
A weak, involuntary sound escaped his bruised throat—a whimper of pure defeat.
Chi Cheng’s hands stilled. His dark eyes, shadowed and weary, lifted to meet his. There was no triumph there. Only a desperate, haunted relief.
Suowei turned his head away on the pillow, the small movement costing him what little strength he had. He could not bear that look. It was worse than hatred.
He felt a hand, impossibly gentle, cup his cheek, trying to turn him back. The tenderness was a violation. It was the final, unendurable weight.
“Let me go,” he whispered. The words were barely audible, scraped raw from his damaged throat. They held no force, only a broken plea.
The hand on his cheek trembled. Chi Cheng said nothing, but his silence was a wall.
Tears, hot and shameful, welled in Suowei’s eyes, tracing paths through the grime on his temples. He lacked the strength to fight, to even pull away. His body was a traitor, a weak, living thing that had failed him twice. “Just… let me go…” he sobbed, the effort making him tremble. “You have… everything… Why won’t you… let me have this? Why can’t you… let me have nothing?”
“Because I can’t.”
The confession was torn from Chi Cheng, low and ragged. He leaned in, his face filling Suowei’s blurred vision. And what Suowei saw there shattered the last of his resolve. It wasn’t the face of a conqueror. It was the face of a man broken.
Chi Cheng’s expression was contorted with a frantic, helpless agony. His eyes, usually so cold and controlled, were wide, glistening with unshed tears. The sight was more terrifying than any fury.
“Do you think…” Chi Cheng’s voice was a raw whisper, cracking under the strain. “Do you think this is what I wanted? This… this silence? This emptiness where you used to be?” His grip on Suowei’s shoulder tightened, not to hurt, but as if he were the one drowning. “I wanted you to feel my pain, yes! But not this… never this…”
He was shaking, his composure utterly gone. “You are not allowed to leave. You do not get to escape what you have made me.”
The words were a chaotic storm of blame and possession, a confession wrapped in an accusation.
Suowei stared back, his own tears falling silently. In his profound weakness, he saw it with perfect, devastating clarity. Chi Cheng was as much a prisoner as he was. Trapped in a gilded cage of his own making, chained to a love he despised but could not live without.
“What…” Suowei’s voice was a thread of sound, exhausted beyond measure. “What do you want from me? You have taken… everything. What is left?”
The question hung between them, stark and unanswerable in the lamplight.
Chi Cheng’s frantic energy seemed to drain from him all at once. The fight left his body, and he slumped forward, his forehead coming to rest against Suowei’s shoulder. His arms came around him, holding him not with the strength of a jailer, but with the desperate cling of a man lost at sea.
“I don’t know,” he murmured into the fabric of Suowei’s robe, the admission a hollow, broken thing. “I don’t know.”
For a long time, they stayed like that. The conqueror and his captive, the destroyer and the destroyed. Both shattered, both lost, bound together on the vast, silent bed by a tragedy with no end in sight. The fracture between them was not healed. It had been ripped open wider, exposing a raw, bleeding truth neither of them had the strength to face.
Suowei lay beneath him, the weight of Chi Cheng's body both a prison and the only anchor in his unraveling world. The heat of Chi Cheng's tears seeped through his thin robe, a scalding contrast to the cold emptiness inside him. The sobs that wracked the powerful frame pressed against his own were a seismic event, shaking the very foundations of the reality Chi Cheng had so meticulously built.
He had wanted a broken prince. He had one now—a man so shattered he could not even muster the strength to die.
But this… this was not the brokenness of submission. This was the brokenness of a shared ruin.
Slowly, as if moving through deep water, Suowei’s hand lifted. It felt like lifting a mountain. His fingers, cold and trembling, brushed against the dark hair at the base of Chi Cheng’s neck. It was not a caress of forgiveness. It was an act of stunned recognition. A confirmation that this was real. The great Chi Cheng, the architect of his hell, was weeping in his arms, undone by the very devastation he had orchestrated.
A fresh, silent wave of tears spilled from Suowei’s eyes. They were not for his lost family, nor for his stolen throne. They were for the two of them, trapped in this beautiful, terrible knot of love and hatred, with no way to sever one without destroying the other.
“You made a mistake,” Suowei whispered, his voice a ghost of sound against Chi Cheng’s ear.
Chi Cheng went still, his own tears ceasing as he listened, his breath held.
“You should have killed me that day in the temple,” Suowei continued, the words flat, devoid of accusation. It was a simple, stark statement of fact. “It would have been cleaner. A story of vengeance, complete. Now…” He drew a shaky, painful breath. “Now there is no story. Only this.”
Only us, hung unspoken in the air. Only this endless, painful existence together.
Chi Cheng finally lifted his head. His face was ravaged, stripped bare of all its cold majesty. He looked at Suowei—truly looked at him—and saw not a symbol of the Wu dynasty, but the man whose absence would have meant his own end.
“I know,” he rasped, his voice raw. The admission was a surrender greater than any lost battle. His vengeance had been a failure. It had not brought peace; it had only created a new, more profound kind of war, one waged within the four walls of this room.
He didn’t try to justify it. He didn’t speak of love, though the word screamed in the space between them. He simply looked at Suowei, allowing him to see the full, unvarnished wreckage he had become.
Suowei held his gaze, his own eyes wide, drowned pools of exhaustion. The fight was gone. Not just the fight to die, but the fight to hate with the same all-consuming fire. It had been extinguished by the salt of their comingled tears.
He was so tired.
His eyelids, heavy as stone, began to flutter closed. The last thing he felt was Chi Cheng’s hand, gentle once more, brushing the hair back from his forehead. The last thing he heard was a whisper, so faint it might have been the wind, or his own dying hope.
“Then we will learn to live with no story.”
When Suowei woke again, the grey light of dawn filtered through the windows. Chi Cheng was still there, but he was no longer in the chair. He was seated on the edge of the bed itself, his back against the headboard, one leg drawn up. He wasn't sleeping. His gaze was fixed on Suowei, intense and unblinking, a silent guardian against the specter of death he had so narrowly thwarted.
The moment Suowei’s breathing hitched, signaling wakefulness, Chi Cheng moved. Not with haste, but with a fluid, absolute purpose. He leaned forward, his hand coming up to cradle Suowei’s jaw, his thumb stroking over the pale, bruised skin of his cheek. The touch was possessive, reverent, and unbearably stifling all at once.
“You’re awake,” Chi Cheng said, his voice low. It was not a question, but a confirmation of a fact he had been monitoring all night.
Suowei did not pull away. He lacked the energy for resistance, and a deeper, more shameful part of him was starved for the proof of care, even from this source. He allowed the touch, his body going pliant. But his gaze slid away from Chi Cheng’s face, focusing on a point somewhere beyond his shoulder—on the intricate carving of a distant cabinet, on the slow drift of dust motes in a sunbeam.
He was present, yet profoundly absent.
Chi Cheng’s thumb stilled on his cheek. He could feel the withdrawal, the part of Suowei that had retreated to a place he could not reach. A flicker of something desperate—fear, frustration—crossed his face before it was schooled back into that mask of protective control.
“You need to drink,” Chi Cheng stated, his tone leaving no room for debate. He reached for a cup of water on the bedside table, his other hand moving to support the back of Suowei’s head, lifting him with meticulous care. He brought the cup to Suowei’s lips himself.
Suowei drank. The water was cool. It soothed his ravaged throat. He obeyed the unspoken command, his body performing the necessary act of survival. But his eyes remained distant, clouded with a turmoil that was entirely his own. It was a silent war between the self-hatred that whispered he deserved none of this care, and the treacherous love that bloomed under the warmth of Chi Cheng’s hand.
He was letting himself be kept. He was accepting the prison of this devotion because the will to break free of it had been exhausted. But in his soul, he was still hanging between the life he’d tried to leave and the life he was now forced to endure, loved by the man who had ruined him.
Chi Cheng watched him, his own heart a constricted, painful thing in his chest. He saw the obedience and the emptiness. He had Suowei back, his body safe, his breath steady. But the luminous spirit that had once looked at him with unguarded trust was gone, leaving behind a beautiful, hollow shell that he would now guard with a ferocity born of utter terror. This was his victory. This fragile, breathing silence. And he would cling to it, and to Suowei, with everything he had left.
The silence in the clean room had become a physical entity, a thick, suffocating fog that Chi Cheng fought with every fiber of his being. He had tried words, clumsy and hollow. He had tried presence, a constant, looming reminder of his own damnation. He had tried small, pathetic gestures, like the peeled pear that now sat untouched, browning on the tray—a sickening symbol of his futile attempts to nurture the life he was systematically extinguishing.
Suowei had retreated further than ever before.
He wasn't just vacant; he was… absent. His body remained, a pale, beautiful shell on the cot, but the vibrant, bratty, hopeful prince was gone. The eyes that had once held storms of emotion—anger, laughter, love—were now twin pools of still, black water, reflecting nothing. He didn't just refuse to eat; he seemed to have forgotten how.
Chi Cheng had to hold his jaw, tilt his head, and trickle broth past his lips, a grotesque parody of feeding a baby bird. Each time, a trickle of shameful relief would mix with his self-loathing when Suowei swallowed reflexively.
He was keeping the body alive, while the soul within withered in a prison of his own making.
The guilt was a cancer. It ate at him day and night. He would look at Suowei’s still form and see not the heir to his enemy, but the young man who had debated tax reform with fierce idealism, who had blushed when complimented, who had clung to him in the library, whispering secrets as if they were the most precious things in the world.
He saw the man he had held through nightmares, the man whose trust had felt like a physical warmth in his own frozen chest.
And he had taken that trust, that warmth, and he had used it as kindling for his pyre of revenge.
The nightmares were his now, too. He dreamed not of his family’s fall, but of Suowei’s eyes in the temple, the moment the light in them had been snuffed out by his words.
He dreamed of the noose. He woke gasping, his hand flying to the other side of the bed, desperate for the reassurance of a warm, breathing body, only to find cold emptiness.
The emptiness was in the room, in the palace, in his own soul.
He was drowning in the consequences of his victory. The throne felt like a spike-lined chair. Every decree he issued, every report of a pacified province, felt like another layer of ash settling over Suowei’s still form.
He had wanted Wu Suowei to feel his pain. He had never imagined his own pain could become this—a constant, screaming agony centered entirely on the well-being of one single, broken man.
The morning of the breaking point dawned grey and cold. The elderly servant had come and gone, leaving the tray. Chi Cheng was attempting his grim ritual with the broth. He had Suowei propped against his chest, one arm supporting his limp weight, the other bringing the spoon to his lips.
“Just a little, Suowei,” he murmured, his voice hoarse with a sleepless night. “Please.”
Suowei’s lips remained sealed. A thin line of broth dripped down his chin.
A wave of helpless, furious despair washed over Chi Cheng. “You have to eat!” he said, his voice rising, sharp with a panic he could no longer contain.
“Do you think this is a game? Do you think your stubbornness changes anything? It doesn’t! It just… it just prolongs this… this hell!”
He shook him slightly, a desperate, foolish gesture. Suowei’s head lolled back, his eyes still empty.
That was the final straw. The last thread of Chi Cheng’s control snapped.
“Look at me!” he roared, his voice cracking through the silent room like thunder. He didn’t just shake him; he hauled him upright, his hands gripping Suowei’s shoulders so tightly he would leave bruises. “Look at what you are doing to me!”
Tears he had been fighting for weeks finally broke free, streaming down his face. “I can’t sleep! I can’t think! All I see is you! Your face when I told you… your face…” His body was wracked with sobs. “I did it! I did all of it! I am the monster you see! But this… this silence… this is worse than any death! You are killing me, Suowei! You are carving out my heart with your silence and I can’t bear it!”
He was screaming, weeping, shaking the man he loved, begging for a reaction, any reaction, even hatred, even a curse. Anything but this terrible, soul-crushing void.
And then, he got it.
A sound. A low, guttural, animalistic sound that started deep in Suowei’s chest and ripped its way out of his throat. It wasn't a word. It was pure, undiluted agony.
His eyes, those empty pools, suddenly ignited with a fire so fierce and so full of pain it stole the air from Chi Cheng’s lungs. The dam had not just broken; it had exploded.
“You want me to look at you?” Suowei shrieked, his voice a raw, torn thing, so loud it seemed to shake the very stones of the room. He shoved against Chi Cheng’s chest with a strength that should have been impossible, breaking his grip and stumbling back, his body trembling violently. “You want to see what you have done?”
He gestured wildly at himself, at the room, at the world. “Then you look! Look at me! I am nothing! I am less than nothing! I am the fool who fell in love with his own executioner! I am the heir who helped dismantle his own kingdom! I trusted you! I gave you everything! My secrets, my fears, my body, my heart!”
He was screaming now, every repressed thought, every ounce of pain, every shred of betrayed will pouring out in a torrent of anguish. “And you took it! You took it all and you used it to destroy everything I was! You made me love you! You made me need you! And then you stood there and you told me it was all a lie! That my love was a weapon! That my trust was a joke!”
Tears streamed down his face, mingling with the spittle of his rage and grief. “And now you have the audacity… the unmitigated gall to stand there and cry? To beg me not to leave you? Where was your mercy when you put a noose around my soul?”
He slammed his fists against his own chest, over and over. “The maids were right! I am a fool! A traitorous, stupid whore! I deserve this! I deserve every second of this hell! But you… you don’t get to play the victim! You don’t get to hold me and whisper apologies as if that erases your betrayal!”
He was gasping for air, his body heaving, the words finally failing him as sobs overtook him. He collapsed to his knees, wrapping his arms around himself, rocking back and forth. “I just wanted it to stop… the pain… the memories… the sound of your voice in my head, lying, lying, always lying… I just wanted it to stop…”
The raw, unfiltered torrent of his pain filled the room, a devastating counterpoint to Chi Cheng’s own breakdown. Chi Cheng stood frozen, his own tears forgotten, utterly eviscerated by the force of Suowei’s anguish. He had wanted to see his pain. Now he was drowning in it.
He stumbled forward and fell to his own knees before Suowei, not in a position of power, but in utter supplication.
“I know,” he whispered, his voice shattered. “I know, my heart. I know.” It was the first time he had used the endearment since his confession, and it felt both foreign and more true than anything he had ever said. “There are no words. There is no excuse. I am a monster. I am everything you say.”
He reached out a trembling hand, but didn’t dare touch him. “But my love for you… it is the one thing that is not a lie. It is the most real, most terrifying thing I have ever felt. It is the punishment for my crimes. To love you so much it feels like my chest is cracking open, and to know that I am the reason you are broken. I would give it all back… the throne, the victory, everything… I would walk into the fires of the deepest hell if it would give you a single moment of peace.”
He was begging now, truly begging, his pride, his vengeance, his very identity stripped away. “Please. Don’t leave me here alone with what I’ve done. Let me bear it with you. Let me try… I don’t know how… but let me try to find a way to carry this weight for you. Please, Suowei. I am on my knees. I have nothing left to offer you but my own shattered soul. But it is yours. It has always been yours.”
He finally dared to reach out, his fingers brushing a tear from Suowei’s cheek. The touch was feather-light, a question.
Suowei flinched, but he didn’t pull away. He looked at Chi Cheng, truly looked at him, seeing not the cold prince or the victorious conqueror, but a man as broken and lost as he was. The fury had burned itself out, leaving behind a vast, exhausted desolation. The will to die was still there, a heavy, familiar cloak. But Chi Cheng’s raw, desperate love was a small, stubborn ember in the freezing dark.
He didn’t speak. He didn’t forgive. He didn’t promise anything.
But slowly, ever so slowly, he leaned forward until his forehead rested against Chi Cheng’s shoulder. It was not an embrace. It was not surrender. It was an exhaustion so profound that even the effort of holding himself upright was too much.
A broken, shuddering sigh escaped Chi Cheng. He wrapped his arms around Suowei, holding him as they knelt together on the cold floor—the destroyer and the destroyed, the liar and the betrayed, bound together not by chains of royalty or revenge, but by the devastating, impossible, and undeniable truth of a love born in hell.
The storm had passed, leaving utter wreckage in its wake. But they were both still breathing.
Chapter 33: The Fox and the Owl
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The fallout from Suowei’s suicide attempt was not contained within the four walls of that cell.
The sound of the splintering door, Chi Cheng’s raw, panicked roar—it echoed through the silent dungeon corridors, a stark contrast to the usual sounds of despair. News traveled fast in a palace fueled by fear, and the message was clear: the fallen Emperor was more than a political prisoner.
He was Prince Chi Cheng’s personal obsession, his greatest vulnerability.
While Chi Cheng remained locked in a silent, desperate vigil by Suowei’s cot—having him moved was unthinkable, leaving him alone even more so—the business of consolidating a new empire continued. And that business fell increasingly to Guo Chengyu.
He proved to be a ruthlessly efficient administrator. Where Chi Cheng had been the symbol of fearsome, retributive power, Guo Chengyu was the charming, cunning architect of the new regime’s day-to-day control. He soothed frightened ministers, integrated cooperative Wu officials, and identified potential resistance with a fox-like smile that never quite reached his eyes.
It was in this capacity that he found himself in the dungeons, though not for Suowei. He stood before a different cell, one that held a prisoner who had been kept isolated, but unharmed.
Jiang Xiaoshuai sat on the floor, his posture rigid with defiance. He looked thinner, his fine robes traded for rough-spun cloth, but his eyes held the same sharp, observant intelligence. He looked up as the door opened, his expression hardening further at the sight of Guo Chengyu.
“Come to gloat?” Xiaoshuai’s voice was hoarse from disuse, but it held its edge. “Or to finally carry out the sentence?”
Guo Chengyu leaned against the doorframe, a picture of casual elegance amidst the grime. “Now, why would I do that? A sharp mind like yours is a terrible thing to waste. Especially when it’s attached to such… spirited loyalty.” His gaze swept over Xiaoshuai with open appreciation. “It’s a rare commodity these days.”
“My loyalty is to the Emperor,” Xiaoshuai spat.
“The former Emperor,” Guo Chengyu corrected gently, though the correction was a blade. “Who, I might add, is currently in a rather precarious state. Thanks, in large part, to the man you so loyally serve.”
Xiaoshuai flinched, the news clearly a fresh wound. He had heard the rumors, the whispers of an attempt. “If you’ve harmed him—”
“Oh, it’s not us harming him anymore,” Guo Chengyu interrupted, his tone turning contemplative. “It’s himself. Or rather, it’s the spectacular mess my dear friend Chi Cheng has made of everything. He wanted to break him, you see. And he succeeded. Perhaps a little too well.”
He pushed off the doorframe and took a step into the cell. “The problem with breaking something so beautiful is that you’re left with the pieces. And our glorious Prince, it turns out, doesn’t know what to do with the pieces. He just… guards them. Fiercely. Irrationally.”
Xiaoshuai watched him, his mind working, analyzing the fox’s words. “What do you want from me?”
“I want you to see reason,” Guo Chengyu said, spreading his hands. “The Wu dynasty is over. The blood debt, for the most part, has been paid. What remains is… a tragedy. A personal one. Your friend is drowning. And the only man who can pull him out is the one who pushed him in, and he’s currently drowning right alongside him.”
He knelt down, bringing himself to Xiaoshuai’s eye level, his playful demeanor gone, replaced by a stark, unsettling seriousness. “Chi Cheng will never let him go. But this… this cannot continue. He will either destroy Suowei completely, or Suowei will succeed in destroying himself, and in the process, destroy the one man who holds this fragile new kingdom together.”
“And that concerns you why?” Xiaoshuai asked, his voice cold. “You got what you wanted. The Chi have their throne.”
“Thrones are boring when the king is a haunted ghost,” Guo Chengyu replied with a wry twist of his lips. “And I have… other interests.” His eyes lingered on Xiaoshuai’s face, a clear, unashamed admission. “I prefer games where the players are alive, not catatonic with grief. This current situation lacks finesse. It’s messy.”
He stood up, brushing non-existent dust from his robes. “I am having you moved. To better quarters. You will have access to books, parchment, ink. You will be treated as the honored guest you are.”
“I am a prisoner,” Xiaoshuai stated flatly.
“You are a resource,” Guo Chengyu countered, his smile returning. “And a potential ally. Your friend needs you. And whether you believe it or not, so does mine. They are trapped in a dance of mutual destruction. Someone needs to change the music.”
He turned to leave, then paused at the door. “Think on it, Jiang Xiaoshuai. The owl who sees everything. What future do you see for your Emperor if this continues? And what future might be possible… if someone were to introduce a new variable into the equation?”
With that, he was gone, the door closing but not bolting shut immediately, a silent promise of the changed conditions to come.
Left alone, Xiaoshuai sank back against the wall, his mind reeling. Guo Chengyu was playing a deep, dangerous game, but his assessment was chillingly accurate. Suowei was lost. And Chi Cheng, for all his power, was clearly spiraling. The fox saw the instability and was maneuvering to secure his own position, and perhaps something more.
Meanwhile, in the clean, cold room, the silence had taken on a new quality. Suowei lay on the cot, his eyes open but unseeing. The physical struggle was over, but a deeper, more profound surrender had taken hold. He had tried to exert his last shred of control, and it had been violently denied.
He was now truly, completely passive.
Chi Cheng sat in a chair he had ordered brought in, a silent sentinel. He didn’t try to speak. He just watched Suowei breathe, each rise and fall of his chest a temporary reprieve from the terror that had gripped him. The love he could not name was a lead weight in his stomach, tangled with the bitter vines of his hatred and the acrid smoke of his fear.
He had won his war. He had his revenge. But as he watched the hollow shell of the man he had once held so close, he knew, with a certainty that chilled him to the bone, that he was living in the ruins of his own victory. And he had no idea how to build anything from the ashes.
The path to any future, let alone one in a faraway land as commoners, was shrouded in a fog of pain, guilt, and a connection that felt more like a shared curse than a bond.

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