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The night was illuminated by the reigning moon; it's silver light transforming everything into a dreamlike landscape. The wind played joyfully with my hair as I stared into the world beyond that little balcony but not really seeing it.
One year.
It had been one year since the last time I was here. No more, no less. One year at this date. The few stars the moonlight allowed me to see seemed to wink at me sarcastically. Now that I was here again none of it seemed real, all that had passed seemed as real as the scenery around me... ethereal and unreachable.
One year.
Just one year. That was all it took for my perfectly engineered life be turned upside down, each carefully planed detail being thrown out the window. If the "me" from back then, I had a look into her own future she would surely never allow it to happen or even begin. The "me" now and the "me" back then are total strangers to each other.
One year.
To be fairly honest I think it took less than a month. Less than a month and all my stone engraved beliefs were shattered. It's the amount of time it took me to realise my life without him is worthless.
– It's time – said a voice from the inside of the room.
I didn't move, this unreal moment had caught me further than I would have want to: – It's been one year since that day. At this very same place I saw him for the first time. What in the world happened to me?
He laughed: – Are you honestly expecting me to answer that?
It was my turn to laugh as I lifted my unwilling body from its support on the balcony: – Not really.
– Love makes you do stupid stuff, I guess. – he said – I'm helping you no matter what but just don't expect me to understand.
– It's not stupid, Jin, it's a mystery... to trust your own heartbeat!
He frowned: – Whatever! That's just stupid reasoning. Let's go.
I followed him into the room and out the door turning back one more time to say goodbye to my past, closing the door on it and steeping into the future. I had started this path alone but I would end it accompanied.
It's was one year ago, that it began... tonight it would end. One year ago was the beginning of my life's... Heartbeat!