Eh, I try not to think about how purely written works are a dying art form. It's fine, it's mostly practice for the book series I've got planned and that one I plan to make into an audio book, and maybe adapt to a comic if I can find an artist, or I might draw it myself haha-
Plus, it's not like my fic is going to expire or anything, it'll be here for people to eventually stumble upon some day. If even ten people enjoy the story and find the lessons in it meaningful in any way, that's enough for me ^_^
Huh, I never considered that having a child might not be too different from the feeling I have for my cats. Perhaps I've been underestimating the grief and loss I experienced when the twin kittens that I played midwife delivering passed away.
I'd rescued a pregnant cat and didn't realise she was pregnant until I had a bloody blob on my floor. God, that was terrifying, I rushed to get a towel, soak it in warm water and massage the little lump till it started breathing, (the mom was searching for a place to nest, since I hadn't known to prepare one.)
Got a blanket for the mom and helped deliver the second kitten. I'll never forget the feeling of holding the small things, I was so scared the mom would reject the first after I touched her, but she was surprisingly okay with me handling them. Unfortunately, I didn't realise the mother had FeLV. Her kittens inherited it, and the second kitten passed away after a year, then the mother, then the first kitten.
I think I cried for weeks after each loss. Still can't think of them without crying heh. I always assumed that a kid would be a hundred times worse, I still think it would be, but maybe it's not so strange to have been so upset.
Yeesh, that got depressing, sorry bout that, thanks for the advice, I do try not to simulate negative possibilities, but it's something I've always struggled with but I appreciate it, it's always good and kind to share advice and suggestions ❤️
And although I don't plan to have kids, even if I did I'd never lock a kid up, mine or otherwise. Like I said, I'd just go into autistic shutdown while the kid's doing what they need to off in school or hanging out with their friends, getting the bumps they need and all.
I'd probably just collapse from the anxiety when they're not looking or something and maybe script scenarios in case they came home crying or something. Kids are scary man, it's so easy to fuck up without even noticing... *shudders* ha ha nope, yeah, definitely not gonna do that. Cats are more than enough. My partner and I can barely take care of each other's autistic arses, we've got tons of generational trauma too x'D
Hehe, I've heard the video you linked before too, sadly doesn't quite seem to do much for me, but thanks for the suggestion! I think it's kinda funny that the devs didn't give Seb proximity lines but asked the voice actor to snore a bunch for them xP
cheeky_idler (Guest)
on Chapter 7
Thu 16
May 202407:55PM UTC
The story with the cats is sad indeed, I’m sorry for your loss. I’ve already lost count on the pets I’ve lost since I remember myself, because we always tended to rescue animals from the streets and not all of them survive, sadly. It’s normal to cry for weeks, especially when you look after them long enough to form a strong bond. It always hurts no matter if they die young or naturally after they lived more than average. I really hope to never get to compare if losing a child feels the same as losing a pet, though. But anxiety when they are ill or in another type of danger is definitely about the same for me.
I understand your reservations about having kids. To be honest, I think from time to time that I shouldn’t have had them too, because I suck as a parent. I suck a bit less than my own parents did, and significantly less than my DH’s parents, but I’ll never be able to be the parent I wanted to be. Because well yes, I can barely get my stuff done, and now I have to teach my kids to take care of themselves but instead I keep giving them bad examples. But if everyone thinks like us, humanity might go extinct.
About the videos - you may want to check what else there is. The boys can read you to sleep, for example. Or there are ambiences that are not about any particular game or series. Also I found meditation led by Sebastian, which once knocked me out in less than five minutes at 11 a.m. xD
It looks like they made all the actors make all sorts of sounds just in case, probably. But for Ominis it really makes sense. I once caught him snoring on a carpet in the hall during History of Magic class xD
Thanks ❤️ and I'm sorry for your losses too. Yeah, my cats are all rescues too, I'm really not looking forward to the next time I feel that pain again... I guess I'm a bit like an astrologer rather than an astronaut when it comes to raising kids. I'm more into the theory rather than practical, and I already have a hard time saying no to my friends, a kid would walk all over me x'D
Oh, I have seen that exact video haha! I like the Hansel & Gretel and Snow White reads. Once, I listened to a Sebastian sleeping ambience with storm shower and I got so confused when it actually started raining (wow, that's some good rain audio... hang on... oh, it's actually raining, lol).
I even have several really good AI songs that were Thanos snapped away, this is why I download anything I like, mwahahaha- like Ominis singing Can't help falling in love by Elvis, which has clocked me a record time of '1hr to fall asleep' on average, it's my most effective lullaby at the moment. (I take anywhere from 1hr to 4hrs to fall asleep normally ha ha ha...)
I swear Ominis is such a cat, I love that toxic little thing so much- I have a comic strip living rent free in my brain involving cat Ominis perched on a wall while a tiny puppy Sebastian tries to get up to join him, failing spectacularly, and then the Keeper, a bigger wolf pup, lets Seb climb up their back so he can sit beside Ominis but he trips in his enthusiasm and knocks Ominis down with him. The Keeper ends up catching both of them (read; gets squashed by them) and the three take a nap together under a tree.
I will draw that one day. When I have time. Maybe. Hopefully. Eventually. Why am I so busy...
cheeky_idler (Guest)
on Chapter 7
Fri 17
May 202409:20PM UTC
Yeah, I'm also good in theory and frequently fail to follow my own advice in practice, whether its about raising kids, healthy lifestyle or whatever.
I saw Can't help falling in love today and totally melted. Here is another nice one https://youtu.be/qWiOxRybBWo?si=4PvrmnDwc4iyydnF which was originally a part of a story. He has such a sweet voice.
I'll look forward to see the comic, when(if) you get to draw it. In my story Ominis' animagus form is a cat xD
Oh her videos are back? Niiiice! She's got several other great songs too, kinda hilarious that they came back right after I mentioned them lol 10/10 timing, and here I was considering sending my files to you so you could enjoy them too- x'D
Oh, that just gave me an idea for a group bonding project, thanks! I'd been looking for a reason our trio would continue hanging out with Natty and the others on a regular basis xP
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