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    nemesism (n.): frustration, anger, or aggression directed inward toward oneself and one's way of living
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    Spencer Reid has never had it easy. He struggles with obsessive-compulsive disorder and autism on a daily basis, masking at work so his colleagues don't see him as weak. It seemed like a highly necessary plan; pretend at work, never let them see who he really was.

    But after years of bottling up emotions, he picked up several unhealthy coping mechanisms. Not long after he managed to kick his dug addiction, he returned to his oldest-learned mechanism: self-harm.

    After several weeks of worrying behavior and an especially triggering case, Derek Morgan asks to stay the night to make sure his friend was okay, and Spencer regrettably agrees. And then his whole world is turned upside-down.
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    This was created after I realized how unrealistically these topics are portrayed in many other fics. There is a dire need for a realistic explanation of addiction, recovery, and the ups and downs of real life, and I decided to give that to the AO3 world. That being said, keep in mind: it is hard, gritty, and painful. But, just like life, things do get better in the end.

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