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1. the hardest part is living (with it) by unidentified_oblivion

   Fandoms: Spider-Man - All Media Types, Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Iron Man (Movies), The Avengers (Marvel) - All Media Types, Deadpool - All Media Types, Daredevil (TV)  

   • Mature
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con
   • No category
   • Work in Progress

   24 Aug 2023

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Rape/Non-Con
   • Peter Parker & Tony Stark
   • Peter Parker & Wade Wilson
   • Matt Murdock & Peter Parker
   • Michelle Jones & Ned Leeds & Peter Parker
   • Peter Parker & Steve Rogers
   • Matt Murdock & Peter Parker & Wade Wilson
   • Matt Murdock & Wade Wilson
   • Michelle Jones & Peter Parker
   • Ned Leeds & Peter Parker
   • mild michelle jones/peter parker
   • Peter Parker
   • Tony Stark
   • Steve Rogers
   • Wade Wilson
   • Matt Murdock
   • Michelle Jones
   • Ned Leeds
   • Skip Westcott
   • Team Red (Marvel)
   • Found Family
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Angst
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism
   • Rape/Non-con Elements
   • May Parker (Spider-Man) Dies
   • Dead May Parker (Spider-Man)
   • Dead Dove: Do Not Eat
   • Homelessness
   • Homeless Peter Parker
   • Tony Stark Acting as Peter Parker's Parental Figure
   • Tony Stark Has a Heart
   • Legal Inaccuracies
   • Depression
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Anxiety Attacks
   • anger issues
   • Past Sexual Abuse
   • Not Avengers: Endgame (Movie) Compliant
   • Peter Parker's Field Trip to Stark Industries
   • Field Trip
   • Peter Parker Whump
   • IronDad and SpiderSon
   • Sokovia Accords
   • Alternate Universe - Renegotiated Sokovia Accords
   • Escapism
   • Grief/Mourning
   • Alternate Universe - College/University
   • Only Briefly - Freeform
   • minor eating disorders
   • Childhood Sexual Abuse

   Summary

   Peter couldn’t remember the last time he could just… breathe.

   Instead, he sits on the edge of an apartment building’s roof and rolls up the bottom of his mask, gulps in burning lungfuls of the unforgiving night air, and tugs his mask back on. Crime stops for no one, not even Spiderman.

   Or: May dies, and Peter devolves into homelessness and isolation. Past demons reappear, old wars are waged, and it feels like Peter has no one to turn to, not even Mr. Stark. Like always, Peter’s life gets better before it gets worse, and it gets worse before it gets better.

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   Nominated in the Best Multi-chapter Category in the Irondad Creator Awards 2023 :)

   Series

   • Part 1 of and to begin again

   Language:

   English

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