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07 Jul 2025
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Like You Would Do For One You Love by horrificaesthetic
Fandoms: The Heart Rate of a Mouse Series - Anna Green
07 Apr 2023
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I remember how my girlfriends used to like wearing my clothes in the past, something about feeling like it was a mark of our relationship, a part of me on them. I never got it, but I pretended to like it because that seemed like the right thing to do. I get it now. It feels like a physical manifestation of our relationship on my body. His things are my things, and I am his. His clothes and his smell are all over me. It feels like he wants to mark me, and that makes something warm spread through my chest. It’s like when he comes inside me. I feel claimed. Wanted.
“Are you smelling my fucking shirt right now?”
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Sequel to Lover Lover Lover, technically, and picks up right after that fic, (so, when they’re in Chicago right after the end of Volume 3, before the Chicago 1979 oneshot/dinner party at Jon’s) but can also be read as standalone smut, if you’re so inclined. (Ft. Even more “Ryan has some FEELINGS about bottoming,” because it’s my specialty.)
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Bookmarked by cellabrationofdecay
07 Jul 2025
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“We should have girl talk,” she says, as if she can see the mental images this situation conjures for me.
“I’m not a girl.”
“Oh, I know,” she says with a wink, “but gays get an honorary girl card.”
AKA a little oneshot about old friends and new (ish) relationships. Takes place a couple years after book 3 on some vague tour, because I assume Ryan would continue to tour with His Side at least occasionally due to the fact that these motherfuckers are Clingy and they canonically make everyones lives miserable if they're separated for long periods of time.
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07 Jul 2025
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All The Memories That We Make Will Never Change by violentthingz
Fandoms: Panic! at the Disco
06 Jun 2024
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They get coffee the next morning, him and Jon. It’s a nice place, quiet and decorated in a way that Ryan tries not to let remind him of summer long gone and flowers curled around microphone stands and patterned shirts and tour buses. No one ever seems to recognise him here and Ryan isn’t sure if that’s why he likes it so much.
Jon talks about his cats and music projects he’s been toying with and how he’s been trying to get better at baking. Ryan tells him about hikes and new guitars and the piano in his living room he’s been trying hard to master.
Spencer used to bake. No one could quite master the piano in the way Brendon did, at least not to Ryan. He shoves the thoughts away, deep down where they’ve festered for so, so long, until yesterday seemingly dredged them up.
Neither of them talk about yesterday, about the song or the email or the phone numbers that neither of them can bear to call yet can’t bear to delete either. Until they do.
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Brendon releases Local God. Jon decides Ryan can't just ignore this one. Alternatively, how a song, an email and an encounter at Trader Joes, lead to something Ryan thought could only be a thing of fiction.
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- Part 1 of panic! at the disco reunion au
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07 Jul 2025
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But, if you need to be mean, be mean to me. by tacks4snacks
Fandoms: Panic! at the Disco
23 Jul 2024
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"I don't fucking care, Ryan! Shut up for five god damn seconds!"
His heart dropped.
Brendon huffed before pushing past Ryan towards their shared hotel room for the night.
Ryan stayed still as he pulled the metaphorical knife out of his chest.
He just wanted to tell the singer about the new guitar he had bought while they were out. He was planning on giving it to Brendon. What was his deal?
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Brendon is a dick and sends Ryan into a spiral.
Bookmarked by cellabrationofdecay
07 Jul 2025