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What We Leave Behind by hope_is_a_quiet_and_desperate_thing
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
08 Nov 2025
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Neil Josten has spent years trying to outrun his past, but the ghosts never stopped chasing him. Just when he starts to believe he’s carved out a place for himself—with the Foxes, with Andrew—someone from the life he buried shows up, dragging old wounds back into the light.
She says she’s not here to cause trouble.
She says she just wants to talk.As secrets unravel, Neil's world and beliefs are shaken to their core. Only time will tell if the new life Neil has built can withstand the one he left behind.
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Hitman's Bodyguard by hope_is_a_quiet_and_desperate_thing
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic, The Hitman's Bodyguard (Movies)
31 Oct 2025
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Based on the film "the Hitman's Bodyguard"
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Body Count by hope_is_a_quiet_and_desperate_thing
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
03 Oct 2025
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Based on a tumblr post I saw a while ago: Neil misunderstands the question "What's your body count?"
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- Part 2 of Curious Foxes
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A Mind Divided by hope_is_a_quiet_and_desperate_thing
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe
20 Jun 2025
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He doesn’t remember who he is—but she’s always there.
A ghost. A tether. A presence no one else sees.
Long before he hears the name “Bucky,” she’s been watching. Waiting.
As the cracks in his programming deepen and fragments of himself bleed through, the Soldier begins to question everything—his past, his purpose, and the woman who’s haunted him across decades.
Maybe she’s a hallucination.
Maybe she’s real.
But she’s the only thing Hydra couldn’t erase.
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Twins dating... twins? by hope_is_a_quiet_and_desperate_thing
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
21 Apr 2025
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Nicky: Hey have you guys ever noticed how Aaron and Andrew have the same type?
or Twinyards bonding cause there's not enough fics about them being friends (or becoming friends)
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- Part 1 of Twinyards Bonding
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Curious Foxes by hope_is_a_quiet_and_desperate_thing
Fandom: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
03 Oct 2025
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Twinyards Bonding by hope_is_a_quiet_and_desperate_thing
Fandom: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
21 Apr 2025
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Hitman's Bodyguard by hope_is_a_quiet_and_desperate_thing
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic, The Hitman's Bodyguard (Movies)
31 Oct 2025
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Based on the film "the Hitman's Bodyguard"
You don't need to have watched the film to enjoy the fic :)Bookmarked by hope_is_a_quiet_and_desperate_thing
31 Oct 2025
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When Neil wakes up in a very familiar car sitting next to a ghost, a little more than 7 years younger, he was more than a little freaked out. Last thing he remembered was going out for Andrew's 25th birthday.
He hadn’t been sure what to expect. He hadn’t even been sure why he’d done it. He was left adrift in too tight skin, sitting for hours next to the ghost of his mother in what was apparently a jaunt into the past, but it was ingrained in him to run back to Andrew. Always he orbited around the man who stood between him and any threat. Always he found his way to the man’s side. Now was no exception.
He hadn’t really expected for Andrew to know who he was though.
As he heard Andrew’s voice say his name, he realized that he’d been expecting a ‘Who is this?’, not a ‘Neil?’. Somehow, the relief he’d felt at hearing it though, was short lived. He was panicking.
“Where the fuck are you. I woke up six hours ago in the house in Colombia with Nicky and Aaron. It’s fucking April 22nd, 2003 Neil.”
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Bookmarked by hope_is_a_quiet_and_desperate_thing
09 Jul 2025
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Every hair on his new body stood on end as he quickly patted himself down, finding a wallet in his back pocket but nothing else until his shoe caught on the strap of a duffle bag, half buried in the sand under his bench. He yanked the bag up beside him, giving it a quick shake to loosen the sand clinging to the canvas fabric, before turning his attention to stripping the wallet bare.
He decided quite quickly that his other half was an asshole.
There was plenty of loose cash in his wallet, but not a single personal item of any manner. No ID. No bank card. No pictures of girlfriends or family. Not even an old receipt stuffed in the bottom.
At the very least, life hadn’t disappointed him with how shitty things could get.
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Bookmarked by hope_is_a_quiet_and_desperate_thing
21 Jan 2025
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None of this mattered right now. Not when he hadn’t felt his fingers or his feet in hours. He wore every jumper he possessed, and his hands were buried inside the pockets, but it did nothing to stop the icy winds tearing through his clothes and chilling him to the core. He needed to find somewhere out of the elements to sleep for the night.
He hated suburbia for this very reason. Plenty of nice homes, all occupied with people who were far to concerned about strangers camping in their woodsheds or breaking into their cars. He had to find something soon though, he knew he wouldn’t make it back to the interstate like this. He turned his eye’s back to the rows and rows of neatly manicured near identical houses. Looking for anything that might stand out as uninhabited or dark enough that the owners would miss his shadow slipping into their garage for the night.
Too many lights shining brightly out of windows drew his attention at last to a dark spot in the street 20minutes later than he would like. His teeth were chattering, and he was getting desperate enough to risk slipping into an occupied house. The darkened house down the street looked like heaven wrapped in a bow tie just in time for Christmas.
Bookmarked by hope_is_a_quiet_and_desperate_thing
02 Jul 2025
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What We Leave Behind by hope_is_a_quiet_and_desperate_thing
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
08 Nov 2025
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Neil Josten has spent years trying to outrun his past, but the ghosts never stopped chasing him. Just when he starts to believe he’s carved out a place for himself—with the Foxes, with Andrew—someone from the life he buried shows up, dragging old wounds back into the light.
She says she’s not here to cause trouble.
She says she just wants to talk.As secrets unravel, Neil's world and beliefs are shaken to their core. Only time will tell if the new life Neil has built can withstand the one he left behind.
Bookmarked by hope_is_a_quiet_and_desperate_thing
15 Apr 2025