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living between divine forgiveness and your own torment by paradisl0st
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies)
05 Jun 2024
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“They took this from me.”
He had whispered it, the words forcing themselves out from behind gritted teeth, carving a place for themselves in the oppressive silence of the bedroom
“They fucking stole– All of this. My– my fucking life. "
“I never cared before, before this” He waved the notebook around manically. “I mean fuck, I was a weapon, weapons didn’t have words but when there’s no language given to you, to– to describe what happens to your body there's just this gaping fucking silence. And it wasn’t the torture or the chair or any of that other bullshit that broke me, it was the silence. That was the real terror of it, that my words weren’t mine anymore.”
“I want them back now. My words, my fucking memories, I want them back.”
or; the one where bucky and steve travel the world to get bucky's words back
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you're all i ever wanted (and worth dying for too) by paradisl0st
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies)
09 Apr 2023
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“Happy Birthday Stevie.” He smiled at him, feeling braver than he had before, Steve’s knowing gaze flicked over to him, a smile forming on his lips.
“Thanks Buck” And in that moment he was Icarus, flying too close to the sun, drunk on a good thing and listing towards oblivion. But he catches himself before he does something irredeemable and stupid, like blurt out those god forsaken words that are branded onto the inside of his skull, I love you, you prickly bastard, his traitorous mind whispers, I love you so much it makes me sick, it makes me burn up and sweat and it makes my palms clammy and my breathing shallow.
or; the one where they love eachother and the fire escape is mentioned far too often