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in the eye of the beholder by selfetish
Fandoms: SPY x FAMILY (Manga), SPY x FAMILY (Anime)
15 Jul 2024
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“Did you read the onboarding papers?” You didn’t, did you?
“Yes, sir.” No.
Yor is hopeless. If a small insignificant lie such as this is enough to make her sweat and squirm in humiliation, Twilight surmises, just imagine the fumbles during fieldwork. What was Handler thinking when she recruited Yor? Surely, it wasn’t for her acting, nor her attention span. He had heard it a dozen times from Handler’s mouth—“She knows what it means to survive, Twilight”—and by now, one would think he’d gotten the memo with how much she was drilling it into his head.
Twilight, though normally a quick learner, could not fathom Handler’s words as he scrutinized Yor’s face. Brows plucked. Mascara smudged under her waterline. Lips pink and glossed. When he thinks about those fifteen minutes wasted on personal vanity, an irrational rage overtakes him.
Lessons in drama, empathy, and upper-class conditioning taught by a jaded spy.
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show me your chest on mine by selfetish
Fandoms: SPY x FAMILY (Manga), SPY x FAMILY (Anime)
20 Jun 2024
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“I haven’t made some terrible mistake, have I?” she laments, voice nearly breaking as he lays her down on the mattress, head supported by his open hand.
Silver tears spill and pool at her clavicles. And maybe he understands. She is twenty-eight and she will never be soft. She is still grieving the woman she should have been just as Rowan is sixteen—will be sixteen forever—and Twilight grieves a childhood so short-lived.
An active imagination and late night contemplations.
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Ash closes his eyes. Years of waiting culminate in weightless dust, soon to be swept away by the living. This earthen smell will fade. It will be overtaken by home-cooked meals and citron peels. Silence will forsake to Sunday radio static and the slow turnings of a page. Behind curtains, it’ll be the push and pull of their noses as they love each other sore, cutting into the pristine sheet of white starlight.
Slowly, they’ll imprint this house until it has become theirs. Ash waits for that day.
Or, the steps to remedy a fragile soul.
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Twilight called to her softly, called again to stir her. She could only sigh.
A hand slid from her back, up to her side, trailing to trace the curve of her face. Twilight hesitated. Yor pushed herself against him as if to feel for pressure, for validation that this warmth was his. The grip on his shirt loosened when she was sure that she had made it home. After a deep breath, Twilight stroked her jaw, coaxing her to spare him a look—just one—to know that all was right.
All was not right.
A wife in tatters.
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“Yor.” She screwed her eyes shut and gripped the lapels of his suit jacket tight. Yor would be good. She resisted that primal urge to jerk her arm, kick her leg. “Yor?” She would be good.
Yor craned her head upward and peered through a kaleidoscope. One Loid, three Loids, five—every single one of them peering at her, into her, beyond her. Her lips parted as she traced the movement of Loid’s hand on her back, brazenly turning skin into gilt down the bend of her spine. She tried her very hardest not to gasp.
“It’d be best if you turned around,” he started, cool as ever, “so I can zip your dress up.”
A girl in waiting finally in motion.
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to last through forever (and another day) by selfetish
Fandom: Banana Fish (Anime & Manga)
20 Apr 2024
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Post-canon fluff set in Japan after the events of Banana Fish.
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Stop Crying Your Heart Out by astrangerenters
Fandoms: Final Fantasy VII Remake and Rebirth (Video Games 2020-2024), Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children
14 Sep 2025
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It’s something that challenges her, over and over, having to live in the present. To acknowledge the past, acknowledge the pain she’s both endured and caused, but also to keep moving forward despite it. Neither of them are particularly adept at articulating their feelings. Neither of them are particularly adept at believing they’re worthy of a brighter future, a happier tomorrow. They’ll simply have to keep working on that.
Together.
Bookmarked by selfetish
22 Sep 2025
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Lessons For Life With You by Janeite_of_the_slums
Fandoms: Final Fantasy VII (Video Game 1997), Compilation of Final Fantasy VII, On The Way To A Smile: Final Fantasy VII, Final Fantasy VII Remake (Video Game 2020), Trace of Two Pasts: Final Fantasy VII, Final Fantasy VII Remake and Rebirth (Video Games 2020-2024)
10 Apr 2025
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Maybe one day the guilt would finally catch up to him, but for now, Cloud just wanted to be happy—and at this particular time in his life, his happiness was entirely wrapped up in the person of Tifa Lockhart.
Gazing at her, as he’d done so many times before, his chest swelled with the thought that he now knew what it was to slip his fingers beneath that tight tank top and move his hands over soft, supple skin, and to explore the enticing regions that lay beyond the tops of her black, thigh-high stockings. Only one thing was lacking.
He had never seen her without her clothes on.
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As they adjust to sharing a home together after Meteorfall, Cloud learns some new life lessons from Tifa, both in and out of the bedroom. Follows early events in On The Way To A Smile, Episode: Tifa.
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- Part 2 of A New Life
Bookmarked by selfetish
05 Apr 2025
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burst out laughing reading this fic. they're such dorks :')
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Men That Cook by smiledarnyou for selfetish
Fandoms: SPY x FAMILY (Manga), SPY x FAMILY (Anime)
18 Jul 2024
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There are five sensory components to enhance any meal.
Taste. Aroma. Sound. Sight. Touch.
It was only a matter of time for Westalis’ best intelligence agent, Twilight, to master all five of these components.
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- Part 1 of Sensory Series
Bookmarked by selfetish
18 Jul 2024
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the kind of fic that sizzles and crackles on your tongue
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Another Man's Son by Umbralpilot for Petronia
Fandoms: JoJo no Kimyouna Bouken | JoJo's Bizarre Adventure
22 Dec 2011
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Dio has a run-in with destiny in Naples.
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Bookmarked by selfetish
21 Aug 2022
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A face can lie, but blood never lies.
There cannot be two gods, and there cannot be two Dios.
Saturn’s face floats back into his mind’s eye. He imagines drinking the blood of this boy still hot and bright with the moment after killing. Destinies converge, he knows, and blood runs a course as sure as the currents. He will consume this child as the sea consumes a river.
the fic of all time.
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apple koi; the story that almost (and we’re here, now we’ll hold on) by orphan_account
Fandoms: Banana Fish (Anime & Manga)
26 Dec 2019
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“A koi fish,” her teacher once read out loud from a well-worn storybook, “means tenacity. Perseverance. It is said that they fight against waterfalls, always swimming against the stream’s current so that when they one day reach the top of those waterfalls, they can shed their scales and become dragons.”
Thunder cracked in the doorway of the Okumura household, and from its light, her brother stood half-drowned in the doorway. Eiji was never the talkative type, but as he let the water drip from the floor into pools on the carpet without saying a word, thunder rumbling in the backdrop of Izumo, she knew that any words would have been choked out of him.
Eiji spared one small smile at her, dropped his suitcase by the shoe cupboard, and walked through the house with squeaking wet shoes. Kaori watched, frowned, and decided not to press.
He didn’t talk much about America.
(Or, a year from the finale, Kaori Okumura watches her brother struggle with the grief of his time in America, and not all is at it seems surrounding Ash Lynx.)
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- Part 1 of Apple Koi