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Bakugou Katsuki didn't have a quirk yet and he was getting impatient, since already five months have passed since his fourth birthday.
Most kids in his kindergarten already had their quirks manifest. Katsuki thought that most of them were really lame, like some boy could make his hair longer. What usage was of it, he just looked like a little girl.
He knew his quirk wouldn't be that weak and useless.
And of course he was going to have a quirk, unlike stupid Deku who was quirkless according to a doctor he visited few weeks ago. Ever since, he would just sit in a corner by himself and cry.
Pathetic.
"My quirk is gonna be the best since I have to wait for it so long!" He would often say to his parents throughout the day.
"It sure will be, buddy." His dad would usually answer while patting his head.
"Of course, sweetheart." His mom always said. "Maybe you'll get something similar to your dad's quirk, that would be pretty cool, right?" She once added with a smile and a wink directed at her husband.
Katsuki then looked at his dad who, when noticed his son was staring at him, clapped his hands together and started rubbing them against each other. The effect was that he created small explosion with even smaller sparks around it. Boy's eyes lit up with amazement at the sight of it.
"My quirk will be even cooler!" He said excited and started jumping in place, his parents laughing a little at his motions.
His quirk will be so much stronger. He'll be able to send big, loud fireworks from his hands, not some little sparks. He'll have amazing power and will become the greatest hero.
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Katsuki was getting ready for a day. He was unusually excited about going to kindergarten, for his mom decided to let him go there all by himself. It cost him a lot of convincing, pleading and reassurance from his dad but she finally, finally agreed.
Although she still had to remind him about some stupid stuff.
"Remember to wait for a green light when you cross a road." Mom told him for the fifth time this morning while zipping up his red jacket.
What's a big deal, they live like two streets away from the kindergarten.
"Don't talk with strangers" she added while standing up. "And if someone tries to grab you, start screaming like you do when dad tries to force you to eat your vegetables." She added jokingly, although Katsuki could sense that this wasn't really a joke.
"You're worrying too much, mom." He took his backpack and put it on. "I'm strong! I can handle a stranger!" He added and mimicked All Might's (his favorite hero) pose, when he was showing off his muscles on TV program they watched the day before, while his mom tried to adjust the straps on his shoulders.
"I know, honey, but you still shouldn't talk to anyone you don't know." She finished struggling with his backpack, put her hand on his hair and looked at him intensely. "My strong, little boy." She smiled and hugged him with a little too much force. "Please, be careful."
"Mooooom," Katsuki whined while trying to get away from her. "I can't be careful if you snuggle me to death." He started pushing away from her. "Also I'm too old for hugs." He added as she finally let him go. "I'm gonna be late because of your stupid affection!". Before she could answer he turned around, put on his shoes and ran out the door.
"Katsuki, language!" He could hear her from behind. "And be careful, don't run so fast!"
Jeez, what's the big deal.
Katsuki slowed down after all, and when he looked back he saw his mom still standing in a doorway.
She smiled at him and waved, at what he rolled his eyes but returned the gesture. His mom sighed and finally closed the door, Katsuki's excitement rose anew and he started running once again.
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It happened too fast.
He was so close to his destination.
He was sure the light was green.
He noticed the car and was almost able to move out from its way.
The driver was able to turn the car but it still knocked Katsuki down from his feet.
Instincts forced him to cover his head while falling down.
Then he heard something like a loud explosion right next to his right ear, saw huge, bright sparks and smelled burnt hair.
His vision got blurred and there was annoying, long-lasting ringing in his ears that blocked out all the other sounds.
He saw his red jacket right next to his head, but why his jacket would suddenly be there and not on his body?
His head hurt him badly, the red was spreading slowly and the realization hit him.
It wasn't his jacket.
He tried to stand up but his aching body refused to listen to him.
Then he heard some screaming in the distance and a panicked, yet somehow gentle voice right above him.
"Come on, Katsuki-kun, don't fall asleep." Someone with a blurred face was talking to him and patting his cheek. "Look at me, focus!" The person shouted desperately and pressed some clothing to the right side of his head. "Talk to me, can you hear me, honey?" He could hear the signal of an ambulance in the distance.
"Mom..." Talking was extremely hard at the moment.
"What is it? You know where Mitsuki-san is?" This person was keep asking questions and Katsuki's head was pounding more and more, both from pain and growing annoyance.
He wanted to scream, just like his mom told him to, but his voice wouldn't leave his throat.
"Katsuki-kun?"
Just leave him alone.
"... said not to talk" he managed to say before he saw an ambulance stop short distance from them. "... strangers"
The person seemed to be taken aback by his words, they laughed nervously and pressed the piece of clothing even firmer to his head. "Honey, you know me! You've been friends with Izuku for ages now!" Panic in their voice now evident.
Stupid Deku's mother? But the person didn't even look like her.
Katsuki tried to focus but everything was a blur and his vision was slowly darkening.
He could hear more people approaching and more distorted voices.
"Are you the boy's mother?" Asked one person while kneeling down at his side.
"Ah- no, no... I'm a close family friend." She moved her bloodied hands away to make more space for the new person.
"You'll come with us, madam." The woman just nodded at that.
Head hurts so badly now and someone else is keep talking above him.
The person claiming to be aunt Inko was taken back as this other person shut a strange collar around his neck. He's seen it on TV some time ago while he was watching news with his parents. Dad told him what the collars were called but he was unable to repeat the word back then, so now he couldn't recall the proper name.
When people in dark blue uniforms, paramedics maybe, carried him into an ambulance, woman with bloodied hands right behind, his vision darkened even more.
Only one of the paramedics and the woman stayed in the back with him, the other two were nowhere to be seen from where he was lying on some strange, uncomfortable bed.
The headache got so much worse in the meantime and he was getting sleepy.
He drifted away.
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Mitsuki barged into the hospital, Masaru few steps behind her, and practically screamed into nurse's face who happened to be at the reception desk.
"What happened to my son, where is he?!"
"Please calm down, madam, I'll need your-"
Mitsuki slammed her hands on the countertop, startling the nurse at the motion.
"How the fuck am I supposed to calm down when my son was ran over by some imbecile?!" High on adrenaline and anger, she was unable to control the volume of her voice, she suddenly felt a small hand on her shoulder and as she was about to target this person, she realized who it was. "Inko!" She fully turned to her. "Where is he? Do you know where my Katsuki is?" She clutched her shoulders a little too harshly but she couldn't bring herself to care right now.
"Katsuki has been taken to the emergency room." She didn't seem to care about her arms too. "One of the nurses told me a doctor is examining him."
That was enough for Mitsuki to let go of Inko's shoulders and start running where the sign with "Emergency room" pointed. Masaru, who was hurriedly filling out some papers that the nurse gave him, left behind.
As soon as she received a phone call from Inko, she left the house in a hurry. She called her husband while starting the car and so was on her way to the hospital that Katsuki was taken to. She met with Masaru, right outside the building.
As she was desperately trying to find her way to the emergency room in the unfamiliar place, she felt a strong hand on her arm that forced her to turn around.
"Let me go, Masaru!" She yelled at him while trying to break out of his grip.
"You have to calm down first!" His hold tightened. "They won't even let you in, especially in this state!"
He was right. She knew damn well that he was right and yet, right now she couldn't afford to calm down.
"Let me go!" Once again she tried to shove his hand off hers. "You convinced me to let him go on his own," she continued, words escaping her mouth before she could process them. "It's all your fault!" She turned to him and hit him on the chest. He let out a surprised yelp and tried to stop her hands from further hitting him.
"I wasn't the one to let him out of the house!" He yelled back as he held her hands away from him. "You can't blame me for something I didn't even witness!"
"Bullshit, I was against it from the start and just because you weren't there doesn't exclude you from the fault!" She managed to tear her hands away from his.
"You know damn well that this was a mutual decision!" His hands started sending off little sparks, as usual when he would get too emotional and start gesturing wildly.
"If you didn't press so much on this, it wouldn't have happened!" She screamed directly into his face.
"I didn't force you to do anything, you stubborn woman!" He threw his hands in the air, more of loud sparks escaping.
They had attention of half the people in the corridor but none of them dared to come up to them, between Mitsuki's screaming and Masaru's explosions (which weren't actually threatening, mind you), no one wanted to get involved.
She was so done with this shit.
"How could you make me do this?!" She grabbed him by the collar of his shirt. "How could..." Her voice died in her throat and breathing was suddenly very hard for her. Masaru's face turned into pained expression, he closed the remaining distance between them and circled his arms around her shoulders.
“Easy, now…” Masaru’s voice was almost a whisper.
"How could I do this..." She asked herself and tears started streaming down her face, which she hid in Masaru's collarbone. "Why did I let him go?" She felt her husband's hand find its way to her hair.
"It's nobody's fault, Mitsuki." She heard his quiet, calmer voice. "No one could predict what would happen."
She took a few shaky breaths and pulled away from Masaru. In the meantime, Inko caught up to them. She kindly put a hand on Mitsuki's shoulder and gave her a small pack of tissues.
"There's a cafeteria, we should wait there, Mitsuki-san." She offered with reassuring smile.
"You two go." Masaru said and sat down on one of the chairs in the corridor. "I'll call you as soon as I find out anything about Katsuki." He crossed his hands on his chest as if he wanted to say 'you'll have to use force to move me from there'.
Mitsuki just nodded while wiping tears with one of the tissues and let Inko lead her to the cafeteria.
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Luckily, they were able to find unoccupied table. While Mitsuki sat down, Inko went and bought them both cups of coffee for which she was very grateful.
"Thank you." She said quietly as she took one of the cups from her hand.
Inko sat down next to her with another cup in hand and offered her a sugar sachet. She shook her head and just took a sip of still too hot coffee, which caused her to burn the roof of her mouth.
Not that she cared right now.
"How-" she started hesitantly, actually unsure of what she wanted to ask. ... If she wanted to ask, really. After all, did she really want to know what happened and if the brown stains on Inko's sleeves' tips were some sauce from dinner or...
She shook her head quickly and tried not to think about the worst possible scenarios.
But to not think about them she had to know the truth.
"Could you tell me what happened?" Her face in painful grimace, almost breaking into tears again.
She watched Inko fiddle with her still full cup, avoiding her gaze.
“I need to know, Inko.” She sounded more desperate now, other woman shuddered slightly and took few deeper breaths. “Please.”
"I... I wasn't there when- " She started hesitantly." ...I wasn't there from the beginning... I heard tires screeching, then someone's scream and I ran towards the little crowd of people. A man said there was an accident, someone else was already calling for an ambulance. And then I- I saw Katsuki-kun, lying on the ground and-" She was on the edge of crying and at the end her voice was almost like a whisper, like she was scared of saying those words.
Like only now she was realizing that yes, all of this really happened and all of this was real.
Mitsuki offered her back the tissues, which she took with a nod.
"And now I can't help but think about Izuku... What if it was him, would anyone try to help? What if I helped only because I knew it was Katsuki-kun, lying there? God, he looked so tiny…" She started shaking slightly. Mitsuki put a hand on hers that was clutching onto the small packet of tissues and smiled genuinely. At that, Inko seemed to cheer up a little bit. "What am I doing..." She let out a sad chuckle and wiped a tear from the corner of her eye. "I was supposed to make you feel better, not the other way around..."
“It’s alright.” Mitsuki squeezed her hand softly. “It’s a lot to bear. For both of us.” She added while smiling reassuringly. “And… I really hope you’ll never have to deal with something like this.” She said finally.
It seemed like Inko wanted to answer with something to her words, but a ring of Mitsuki’s phone interrupted her. She immediately let go of other woman’s hand and picked up the phone, without even looking at caller’s ID.
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“Your son’s state is stable, we had to give him few stitches where the head was injured, and as strange as it is,” giant doctor, who introduced herself as Katame Iryo and had only one eye in the centre of her face, with iris that looked like a clock, shrugged slightly amused, “roentgen didn’t show us anything out of ordinary. Even though, we’ll still have to keep him here for few days to monitor him.” She was explaining everything in as simple way as possible.
Inko couldn’t stay for long, after Masaru called with news that he spoke with a nurse, she had to leave, as there was nobody else to pick Izuku up from the kindergarten.
But all in all, what was most important for Mitsuki now, who was sitting in a chair beside bed in which Katsuki was asleep, was that he was fine. Fine and alive and in one piece and, while not taking to account that half of his head and hands were covered in bandages, he apparently got out of it without any serious consequences.
“Right now he’s asleep, no wonder really, after all the anesthetics we gave him.” Doctor checked the machinery showing Katsuki’s heart rate and few other that Mitsuki didn’t really know much about. “Upon arriving here, he woke up for a second. Tried to blow up a face of one of the nurses, poor thing.” Some strands of her short, orange hair fell onto her face and she put them impatiently behind her ear.
Mitsuki blinked at her statement, confused. Now, she didn’t really pay attention to everything the woman was saying, but…
“What do you mean by that?” Masaru was faster than her in asking the question, his voice surprised and head tilted to the side.
Katame blinked slowly, surprised and seemed to be taken aback by the question.
“… I guessed your son must have been scared.” She started writing something down in Katsuki’s papers. “Suddenly waking up in a foreign place, after quite traumatic event. I assumed he used his quirk instinctively.” She shrugged slightly while keep writing and keeping her eye on the machinery.
Both Masaru and Mitsuki were quietly looking back and forth between Katsuki, themselves and the doctor who was too occupied with writing to notice their shared puzzlement. Finally, after a minute or two of silence, Mitsuki spoke.
“…Katsuki doesn’t have a quirk, yet…” She said but raised her eyebrows in surprise when she heard a quiet chuckle from the one-eyed woman. “… Does he?” Perplexed, she looked at her husband who only shrugged and seemed to be as lost in the situation as she was.
“…I see.” Doctor must have realized something, as she put down the papers and a pen on a nightstand beside the bed and walked around it, so now she stood on the other side of it, facing the couple. “My quirk allows me to look few hours into the past of a human, I’m also able to share what I see with one other person at the time.” After that, her eye opened widely, now taking more than half of the space of her face. The clock iris got bigger and the time it shown changed from 6:00 o'clock to the current one. “Usually, I use it in more serious cases, but I can see how the confusion will only grow if we don’t find out what exactly happened there, so.” Her eye was going back and forth between them. “Would you be alright with me doing this?” Slightly, she leaned forward so she wasn’t looking at them from above anymore.
“Yes.” Mitsuki agreed immediately without even sparing a look at her husband who let out a quiet sigh. “But I want to see it too.” She said as she stood up.
“Of course,” Katame smiled, “what sense would my doings have if I kept it all to myself?” She took off her white rubber gloves and extended her right hand towards Mitsuki, while putting her left one on Katsuki’s right cheek. “Please, grab my hand and don’t let go.” She said with more serious tone.
Mitsuki hesitated for few seconds but obliged and put her hand on the one that was twice the size of her own. Cyclops then grabbed it fiercely and leaned towards Katsuki’s small figure. She ended up so close to him that their foreheads were almost touching.
Her enormous eye was staring unblinkingly at boy’s still face. She used the thumb and forefinger of her hand that was resting on his cheek, to carefully force one of his eyes to open. Then, she locked her gaze on it, and the iris of her own eye started to get bigger and bigger with each passing second.
Mitsuki couldn’t help but flinch a bit at her doings.
She watched as the hands of the clock in doctor’s big iris started moving backwards, faster and faster, until they suddenly stopped and showed the time which Mitsuki remembered to be of the moment when Katsuki left the house.
Then everything went in a blink.
Images of Katsuki leaving the house, crossing the street, green light somewhere in the corner of her vision, car approaching quickly, covering head and then-
Loud explosion rang in her ears, sudden sound almost making her let go of Katame’s hand.
Both of them inhaled sharply, like when waking up from a dream.
Or rather a nightmare.
In the end it was the doctor who let go, both of her hand and Katsuki’s face. The clock in her eye firstly going to the current time, then back to 6:00 o’clock. Her whole eye resized back into its normal state.
“His quirk…” Mitsuki whispered as she sat down on the chair, shocked. “Masaru-“ She felt his hand on her shoulder. “Masaru he- he has your quirk but…” She couldn’t make up her mind as she struggled to explain what she just saw. “But it’s somehow so much more powerful.” She started massaging her temple with one hand. “I don’t understand… How?” She asked but didn’t really expect any answers from anyone.
That’s why she was surprised to hear doctor’s quiet voice.
“May I ask about your quirk, Bakugou-san?” She asked from where she was now sitting, her figure seemingly more tired.
“Ah, of course.” She straightened her back. “It’s not powerful in any way. Honestly, for some time I even thought I was quirkless.” She laughed a little at the memory. “I just have glycerin sweat.”
Woman looked at her with a tilted brow as if she was expecting something and as Mitsuki was about to ask her about it, she heard her husband’s audible gasp and sudden realization hit her as well.
Her glycerin.
Masaru’s sparks.
Glycerin.
Sparks.
Explosions.
“Holy fuck.” She said and then covered her mouth, sending an apologetic look towards the doctor who actually didn’t look like she cared that much.
“Indeed.” Katame raised from her seat. “Quite perfect combination of both of your quirks, in my opinion. With that kind of power he could become a great hero.”
At that, she looked at Masaru who now had a little, fond smile on his face.
When he was younger, he had a dream of becoming a hero, but in the end his quirk alone was too weak for that so he pursued a career as a designer. At least, thanks to that, they had a chance to meet.
It seemed like the doctor wanted to say more about all this but weak groan interrupted her.
Mitsuki, once again, stood up quickly from her seat and looked at Katsuki who was finally waking up.
“Please, refrain from any sudden movements and give him some space.” Doctor’s voice reached her and she took a small step back. “Keep calm, I’m pretty sure he won’t run away.” She joked and walked up to Katsuki who opened his eyes just to shut them back a second later, lights of the room too bright for him. “Katsuki-kun, I need you to open your eyes slowly.” As soon as he opened them again, she fished out a little flashlight from her apron’s pocket and flashed both of his eyes. “Response to light… Alright, blink a few times, dear.” She said as she put the flashlight back in her pocket, reached for Katsuki’s papers and wrote something down.
“Is he alri-“ Mitsuki was immediately silenced by the woman who just raised her hand.
She was getting more and more impatient as doctor introduced herself to Katsuki and started checking on him, asking him all sorts of questions, checking his reactions to the external stimuli and writing down everything that seemed to be more important.
“You made your parents worry quite a bit.” She told him in a cheerful tone of voice. Katsuki frowned a little at that.
“Where’s my mom?” He asked weakly while looking around the room, his gaze stopping on Mitsuki and Masaru for a second, then again wandering around the room.
Well that was… Strange? To say at least…
“Honey, I’m right here.” She moved closer to him and carefully grabbed his hand.
Katsuki jumped a bit at sudden touch and seemed confused. As he looked down at their joined hands and then at her face, he didn’t say a word. That was so unusual of her loud and energetic boy, she couldn’t help but look worriedly back at her husband, who seemed to share her concerns, then at the Cyclops in a search for any explanations. Doctor herself furrowed her eyebrow, but otherwise she couldn’t say what she was thinking about.
“… He’s probably still under the effects of the anesthesia.” Or this is actually some after-effect of the accident, went untold. … Or maybe Mitsuki was just paranoid.
Katame once again, started asking him various questions, only this time they weren’t about his well-being, but rather informational like if he remembers his birthday, what day it is or his parents’ names. He answered all of them without much trouble.
“He’s not amnesiac, that’s for sure.” She said as she asked him last question and wrote something down in the papers. “We’ll keep observing him and for now,” she turned to both of them. “I assume one of you probably wants to stay here with him, at the hospital?” Mitsuki nodded at her question as she kept her gaze on her son’s still confused frown.
“My wife will stay here.” Masaru cut in and then spoke directly to her. “I’ll go home and get some stuff for Katsuki and you, alright?” He removed his hand that until now was still resting on her shoulder and moved to the door. “It won’t take long, I’ll be back soon. Behave, young man.” He winked at the boy and left the room.
“Alright, if that’s settled, I’ll go get the form for you to fill out so you can stay here without any issues after visiting hours, Bakugou-san.” Doctor left the room as well and closed the door behind her quietly.
Mitsuki stared for few seconds at the closed door, but when she felt her son’s tiny hand squeeze around hers, she immediately turned her whole attention back to him.
“What’s wrong, honey?” She stood up and sat on the edge of the bed to be closer to him. “Does your head hurt?” She asked with concern in her voice and carefully put a hand on the left side of his head, that wasn’t bandaged. “Maybe you’re thirsty? Or hungry?”
“… No?” He more of asked than stated and looked around the room again, with some kind of curiosity.
“Ah, you’ve never been to the hospital before, right, Katsuki?” She tried to use a cheerful tone but she could hear that she failed, even if her boy didn’t seem to notice that. “See? This machine shows how your heart beats,” she gestured at the mentioned machine “and this one-“
“Hey…” Katsuki interrupted her. “Was this older man-“ he seemed puzzled and was keep avoiding her gaze, something so unusual for him to do. “Dad?”
“Katsuki…” She raised her eyebrows in surprise and moved away slightly. “Honey, yes, of course that was him! Who else-“
“I-“ He started, shaken and even more confused. “… I don’t know how dad looks like.”
Notes:
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Up next; Stranger Danger
Chapter 2: Don't talk with Strangers
Summary:
Why children are so scared of visiting doctors, anyway?
Notes:
Thank you everyone who left comments and kudos on the first chapter, this really means a lot to me and encourages to keep writing this thing <3
I just want to apologize in advance if any medical stuff in this chapter is wrong, I tried my best while doing research for it but internet can't tell you everything :v
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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“My son doesn’t recognize me when I re-enter the room after being gone for five minutes, and you’re telling me that you have no fucking clue as to what’s wrong and to calm down?” Mitsuki was visiting the third doctor in two weeks since Katsuki’s accident and it was the third one who told her he couldn’t find a solution to fix her son’s ‘strange behavior’, as they liked to call it.
As if all of what was happening was her imagination, some whim of small, paranoid woman who’s kid was just bad at recognizing people, as if it wasn’t caused by that freaking accident.
The first doctor said that it’s just trauma from the accident, that it will pass. When she returned to him after six days with Katsuki, who didn’t even recognize him, the man said he can’t do much about it anyway and sent them away with a contact to another doctor.
The second doctor said that Katsuki is maybe not trying hard enough, judging by his antisocial behavior. She basically sent them off with a prescription, probably for some placebo, and a contact to her friend who deals with that kind of stuff.
Now, the third doctor, the friend of that amateur who dared to call herself a doctor-
“Bakugou-san, I’m sorry but I truly don’t know.” At least this one was more polite, despite Mitsuki’s outrage just few seconds ago. “I understand that you are upset but-“
“Upset?” She interrupted him and laughed, but there was not a single ounce of humor in her. “I’m fucking furious is what I am.” She slammed her hands on his desk, making him jump a little. He coughed awkwardly to cover up his embarrassing movements but Mitsuki knew better and she fought the urge to laugh at him, but still smirked when doctor wasn’t looking. She still had it in her- intimidating people that is. “Counting you, I’ve already visited three so-called specialists and none of you, bastards, could tell me what’s wrong with my son!” She knew she shouldn’t pick on someone like that but at this point she didn’t care.
She just wanted to finally get some answers.
“Yes, I understand, but please, at least restrain yourself from screaming, there are other people outside and-“
“I don’t care!” Once again, she cut short meek man’s attempts of shutting her up. “Let them know how incompetent their doctor is.” She stood up from her chair quickly, almost kicking it over.
She was done here.
“Bakugou-san, please wait-“
“No. Good day to you, sir.” She said that without turning to him, reached for the door and left his little office.
As expected, when she entered the corridor all other patients were pretending that they didn’t hear anything, but she didn’t have time to ponder about them. She quickly moved towards where Masaru was sitting with their son.
“Hey, Katsuki.” Masaru nudged him lightly when he noticed Mitsuki approaching. “Look who’s back.”
She watched as her son raised his head to look at her. He stared for few seconds, furrowed his brows and looked back at his father.
“It’s mom!” Her husband said with fake cheerfulness and Katsuki’s eyes lit up. They both got up from their chairs and walked up to her. “I guess it didn’t go well, huh?” He smiled sheepishly while awkwardly scratching the back of his neck.
“You say that as if you didn’t hear all that.” She snarked, still annoyed at the doctor and rolled her eyes at Masaru’s weak laugh.
She took a deep breath to calm herself down, then kneeled in front of Katsuki and put a hand on his head, finally free from the bandages.
“Does your head still hurt, dear?” Just this morning he woke up with a headache again, usual occurrence for the past few days. She smiled at him when he shook his head.
“Your eyes are strange.” He said bluntly and took few steps back, so he was out of her reach.
Mitsuki slowly dropped her hand to her side and confused expression appeared on her face.
“… How are they strange?” She asked carefully, as to not let him know that it was quite weird thing to say.
“... I don’t know.” He shrugged, his lips forming a pout.
“How they usually look like?”
Katsuki seemed to ponder a little about her question, as his gaze lingered on her eyes for almost a minute.
Finally, he spoke.
“I don’t know.” Shrug, again.
Mitsuki’s face was now decorated by a faint smile, as she rose to her feet and took her son’s hand into hers. She looked at Masaru and gestured towards the exit of the clinic, she didn’t want to speak, as she believed her voice would betray how she really felt at this moment. Her husband seemed to pick up on it, as he reassuringly squeezed her other hand and all three of them left the building.
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Masaru and Mitsuki were taking care of the dishes after dinner when Masaru’s phone called from another room. He sent an apologetic smile to her at which she only rolled her eyes and continued on her own. As he picked up the phone in the living room, she could only hear every two words over running water, but then his voice became clearer and louder as he came back to the kitchen, phone still next to his ear.
“Yes, she’s right there.” Masaru said as he grabbed a dishcloth, gave it to Mitsuki and gestured for her to wipe off her hands. “I’m giving her the phone right now.” He extended his hand that held the phone towards her. “It’s that Cyclops doctor.” He whispered as she took the phone from his hand.
“… Hello?” She spoke with a tilted brow.
“Ah, Bakugou-san, hello again, Katame Iryo from the hospital, it’s been a while.” Doctor’s kind of enthusiastic voice surprised her even more and she looked at Masaru for any explanation. He just shrugged and shook his head with confused expression. “I’m aware that you’re probably surprised to hear me.”
“Yes, I… Honestly didn’t expect to actually speak with you in the near future, Katame-san.” Or ever again, she thought to herself.
“I would have directly contacted you, but had to call your husband as he was the one to fill out the papers the nurse gave him, when the two of you arrived at the hospital.” She explained quickly. “Although, I need to ask you to tell him to work on his handwriting, I accidentally called two other people before I finally reached him.” She let out a short laugh, Mitsuki also laughed but it was more of an awkward, slightly panicked sound as she remembered that Masaru had to fill out the form quickly in favor of chasing her down the corridors of the hospital.
“Yes, yes. Of course.” She coughed, embarrassed. “So… To what do I owe the pleasure..?”
“Ah, right.” Katame sounded as if she just remembered why she called. “I’ll be honest with you, Bakugou-san. Some of my colleagues started recently complaining about mad woman with a traumatized son, who was going everywhere, screaming at them for not knowing what’s wrong with her boy. … Rings a bell?” She waited for a few seconds for a reaction from now annoyed Mitsuki.
“… Yes.” That came out more rudely than she wanted to. “That might have been me.”
“Oh, I know that tone. Don’t worry, I perfectly understand.” At Katame's honest answer, Mitsuki’s anger was gone in a second and her eyebrows raised in surprise. “It might sound like I’m bragging, but I’m actually trying to help people, whether they are still my patients or not.” Her words made Mitsuki realize something.
“I didn’t thank you properly!” Her voice a bit too loud, and as she was about to actually express her gratitude, she was interrupted.
“Don’t mention it.” Katame said in a firm voice. “Now, onto why I called. Other doctors, in their complaining, made me realize something about your son’s condition. This isn’t my field of work, so I can’t be sure about my predictions, but I know someone who might actually be able to help.”
Mitsuki’s eyes widened even more, and a small, hopeful smile appeared on her face. She looked at slightly confused Masaru who was still standing awkwardly in front of her, listening to everything she was saying. She pointed at the phone and nodded a few times, smile widening. Masaru seemed to understand, as he took a step towards her and she turned the speaker on so he could hear everything as well.
“He’s the best neurologist that I know, both personally and from all the work he's done.” The doctor continued. “His appearance and methods are rather- specific, to put it lightly, but I can assure you that if anyone can help, it’ll be him. I already spoke with him and, as he owes me a favor, he agreed to come to Musutafu from Tokyo, where his office is. All he requested was that I confirm the visit with you and make sure that we’ll have proper radiographs of Katsuki-kun’s brain.” She fell silent, expecting an answer from Mitsuki.
She looked at her husband, silent. This was a great opportunity, kind of too good to be true, but she had a feeling that this was their only chance to understand what was happening with their son, and after visiting all of the previous doctors who didn’t help in the slightest, her faith was slowly burning out. Masaru put a hand on her shoulder, squeezed lightly and nodded with determined expression on his face. Of course, after all, it hurt both of them when Katsuki couldn’t recognize either of them, they both wanted this to end or at least know what ‘this’ exactly was.
She took a deep breath and exhaled slowly.
“Alright.”
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Mitsuki was called in to the office with Katsuki by a nurse. They really were lucky that doctor Katame wanted to help them and specifically contacted this doctor who apparently was well-known as the best specialist among all the other neurologists in the country.
When they went inside, first thing she noticed was slender, tall man standing in the middle of the room. His arms were extremely long and lanky, hands with bony fingers reaching almost to his knees. The head, on stretched out neck, was free of any hair, including eyebrows, but his bones were structured in such specific way that made him look like he was frowning all the time. To add to that, man didn't have ears, just strange holes in a place of them.
Despite all that, the most noticeable feature of his whole face was his drawn-out mouth that didn't fully close, showing off his sharp teeth.
This image reminded her of those of goblin sharks.
Said man was looking at radiographs of brains that were hung on the illuminated board, but when he heard the door close, he turned to them and only then she noticed the red pupils of his eyes.
When the man walked up to them, Katsuki clenched his hand around hers, it hurt a little, but she really couldn't blame him. The man, just as Katame described him, was indeed... specific.
"You must be Bakugou Mitsuki-san." His voice, rough and mildly pitched, made her feel a little bit uneasy. "Doctor Akura Mizuo. It is a pleasure to meet you." He said and extended his hand towards her. She shook it a little unsure, and upon closer inspection she realized that his greenish skin wasn't the play of the lights.
Don't judge a book by its cover. She told herself.
"Yes," she bowed a little with respect, "thank you so much for your time, it's extremely important for us." At that he let out a low laugh.
"As soon as my colleague called and told me about your son's strange behavior, I knew I had to come here. After all, it's not often that I find out about a child with acquired prosopagnosia." Surprised, she blinked few times.
Prospo-what now?
Doctor Akura walked up even closer to her, put a cold hand between her shoulder blades and firmly led her to one of the chairs. She sat down and Katsuki followed suit, sitting down on a smaller chair right next to her. Doctor moved his office chair to sit both nearer them and the illuminated board.
"I apologize for the dimmed lights, my eyes are rather sensitive." He explained as he put on his glasses that darkened a little from the light of the bright board.
"Oh, don't worry about it..." She waved her hand and smiled a little. "Um, about that... thing you just said?" She continued awkwardly.
"I see that the term caused some confusion, and I am ready to clear everything out for you." At Akura's promise she just nodded. After all, she came for explanations which he apparently had. "Now, the reason why you couldn’t get the answer to what is wrong with your boy is because not all doctors heard about prosopagnosia. Such a shame, considering it’s more common than it is estimated.” He reached for his pen.
His whole attention focused on radiographs of Katsuki's brain that were requested by himself and taken few days prior to the visit, under Katame's supervision. It took awhile to take them, as Katsuki didn’t want to lie still for too long in the MRI scanner alone.
“The injury caused damage in fusiform gyrus, which is in the bottom of both sides of the brain." He pointed the pen at the pictures. "This area handles things like visual word recognition, color and sound processing and, most important, face and body cognition and recognition. The moment your son's head was injured, he acquired prosopagnosia." He put the pen back down and looked first at her, then at her son.
Katsuki looked a little startled, with a frown and resentful posture. He obviously didn’t want to talk to the shark-looking man.
"To put it in a simpler way," he leaned down a little towards her son, "this area allows you to distinguish and recall faces of other people. Yours was badly damaged and that caused face blindness. Some are born with this condition and some, like you Katsuki-kun, get it from an injury." Doctor patted his shoulder at which Katsuki's frown deepened and he quickly turned his head towards the pictures. The man sighed and turned his attention back to Mitsuki. "Unfortunately, there's no remedy for it but if we keep control him and you help him train, he'll be able to recognize people by other things, like their voices or some features that stand out."
Mitsuki thought about his explanations with a worried expression for a few seconds, while her son started asking questions about the pictures of his brain and practically demanded for them to be shown to him. He still had a frown on his face, but other than that his posture was saying that he was bored by the whole situation and wanted some kind of distraction.
Of course. He's just a child, he doesn't fully understand yet.
While Mitsuki was deep in her thoughts, the doctor, who thank to his long hands didn't have to stand up from his seat, reached out and handed one of the radiographs to Katsuki who started rotating it curiously in his hands.
Akura once again turned to her and spoke as if he just remembered something important.
"Right now, we don't know yet how advanced Katsuki-kun's condition is." His words startled her a little.
"What do you mean by 'how advanced'?" She asked with more aggressiveness than she intended to. At doctor's narrowed eyes she apologized quietly while looking down.
"It's alright." Reassurance with a bit of annoyance were obvious in his voice. "By that, I meant that we already know he doesn't recognize faces, but we don't know to what extent." His words only caused more confusion within her and he seemed to pick up on it because he opened his laptop, that was placed on the desk on his right, and showed her a picture of some stranger. "Now, I’ll show you something. This is how we normally see another human, right?"
Mitsuki nodded at simple question, doctor then clicked and another picture showed up that depicted an upside down head of a different person.
"Is this someone else or the same person?" She tilted her head a little to have a better look at the picture. "Please restrain yourself from that and just look at it normally." He said sharply and she glanced at him quickly, shocked, and then once again stared at the photo.
"I think it's different." She said unsure of her words.
At that, doctor chuckled and showed her the two pictures side by side.
"How about now?" Before she had a chance to confirm that yes, these are different people, the upside down picture changed back to the right side up and she gasped audibly.
Pictures were showing the exact same person.
"Basically, that's how it feels for people with face blindness to look at someone." Doctor explained and then opened another set of pictures with, presumably, different people. "Sometimes prosopagnosiacs don't even see faces," he pointed at the image of head that had blank space instead of a real face "and other times they might not see the eyes, which are most distinguishable features of our faces." He added as he pointed at the person who's eyes were blurred. "We'll have to run some examinations on your son to see how advanced his disease is. We can start with a quick test right now." He finished and turned his attention to Katsuki who was still occupied with studying the radiograph and not paying attention to doctor's speech.
"Katsuki." She called out to him and watched as slight confusion rose on his face when he looked up at her. Both she and the doctor looked at her son for few seconds in silence. Katsuki was switching between the two of them with worried frown. He finally locked his eyes with hers and spoke.
"...Mom?" He asked unsure and the question, just like every time before, broke her heart a little. Just like this morning when she woke him up and he panicked, not realizing it was her.
"Yes, sweetheart, it's me." She smiled sadly then took his small hand into hers and breathed deeply. "Doctor Akura is going to ask you some questions, alright?" Katsuki nodded and looked at the man who was once again fiddling with his laptop.
"Alright, Katsuki-kun." He spoke and turned the device towards little boy. "Can you describe this person to me?"
Mitsuki also looked at the photo which depicted a plain looking woman, with dark hair and equally dark eyes. The only feature standing out was her, almost comically, big nose.
"She has really big, ugly nose." She heard Katsuki's blunt comment and her shoulders moved a little in a silent chuckle.
Like mother, like son, apparently.
"How about this person?" Doctor moved on to the next picture. This time it was a man with no ears and the extra pair of eyes. To add to that, he was bald.
"Where are his ears?" Katsuki asked, not looking away from the image.
"Honey, it's probably a part of this person's quirk." She explained patiently and heard a quiet 'oh' from him. "Be careful with these questions, sometimes people don't like to talk about their looks, alright?"
"Uhm... Yea, sure..." Uncertainty apparent in his quiet voice. "He has... four eyes and no hair." He finished a little louder and glanced at the doctor.
"Alright, and have you seen this person before?" Akura asked as he switched back to the first picture.
She stared at the big-nosed woman who reappeared on the screen.
"I..." Katsuki started hesitantly and she squeezed his hand, encouraging him to speak. "No, I haven't."
She closed her eyes and exhaled longingly, as she tried not to show any signs that his answer bothered her in any way.
"Do you see her nose?" She heard the question from the doctor and looked back at her son.
"Yes, it's big and ugly." He practically repeated his own words from before but it didn't look like he had realized that.
"Do you remember saying the same thing about another person, few minutes ago?"
Katsuki seemed surprised by the question, but actually looked like he was giving it some thought. He frowned and finally spoke again.
"I think... I do?"
"It's because that's the same person, young boy." Doctor stated and they both looked as Katsuki's eyes lowered to the tiled floor.
"Oh." A disappointed gasp escaped his mouth. "So I've seen her before... I'm sorry-"
"Honey, it's not your fault." She was quick to interrupt him. "We'll work on it, alright?" Once again, she squeezed his hand reassuringly and he nodded while keeping his head down.
"Now," doctor started talking again, "tell me if you've seen this person before." Once again he moved on to the next photo and Mitsuki's eyes widened at what she saw.
"Akura-san, is this really-"
"Yes." He interrupted her rather harshly and she looked back at the picture that was showing her own son. "So, Katsuki-kun, do you know this boy?"
Katsuki's head turned back to the screen and Mitsuki couldn't help but hold her breath nervously as she watched her son's expression change from focused frown to confusion.
Please, there's no way it's this bad. She thought desperately.
"No." Katsuki looked up at the doctor and she let out a shaky breath. She accidentally squeezed her son's hand too hard, and that made him look at her. "What's wrong, mom?"
"Nothing, honey." Mitsuki lied. "I'm sorry, I need- I have to go to the restroom." She stood up, letting go of her son's hand. "Please stay with the doctor and let him ask you other questions, alright?" When he nodded, she excused herself and left the office hurriedly, sudden change of lighting causing her to blink rapidly.
She quickly walked down the corridor, where she earlier saw the restrooms, and when she found them, she immediately entered and locked the door behind her.
Mitsuki walked up to the sink, rested her hands against its edges and tried to calm herself down by taking deep, shaky breaths.
In and out.. Slowly...
...
Why couldn't he recognize himself?
She felt tears coming up to her eyes.
Why did she let him go on his own that day?
Her shoulders were shaking and a quiet sob escaped her mouth. She pressed her lips together into the thin line and when more sobs were about to leave her mouth, she covered it with her hand.
She raised her head and started blinking quickly in an attempt to stop the tears from spilling down her face, hand still firmly pressed to her mouth.
She has to be strong for her son.
After few minutes, when her breathing was more stable and tears were no longer threatening to ruin her mascara, she looked down and stared at her reflection in a mirror.
She looked at her blonde hair that was sticking in all directions, her slightly puffy eyes and reddened cheeks, then her thin lips and small nose.
Mitsuki touched the mirror's surface where her face was reflecting.
She was already 27 years old, 28 almost, but she realized that her quirk have let her stay almost the same as she was when she was just a teenager. She had a high probability of keeping her youthful looks for a long time and if she would keep her hair in the same style then maybe...
She made up her mind, quickly touched up on her make-up and finally left the restroom with newfound determination.
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Katsuki was tired of answering all of strange doctor's questions.
No, he doesn't remember some man with blurry eyes.
No, he doesn't know this woman with big nose.
Yes, he's sure that he doesn't recognize the boy with blond hair and red eyes.
After a while, all the pictures were altering the longer he looked at them. They looked familiar yet alien. He had strange feeling that he was supposed to know these people but at the same time, they were total strangers that looked almost the same.
"Can you describe to me the last person you've seen?" Shark doctor was writing down everything he would say.
"No." Katsuki said with annoyance in his voice. "I want to go home." He got up from his chair. "Where's my mom?" He asked with anger and crossed arms on his chest.
Doctor stared at him with a twitching eye, like for a second he didn't know what to say to him. In the end, he reached for his shoulder with that scary, slender hand.
"Don't worry, boy, she'll be back soon." He gestured at the chair that Katsuki was occupying few seconds ago. "Why won't you take a sit and I'll ask you-"
"No!" Katsuki pushed doctor's hand away from his shoulder. "I don't want any more of your stupid questions!" He took a few steps back. "I don't want to look at those stupid people, I want to go home!" He screamed and stomped his foot.
Doctor, perhaps angry, stood up from his chair, Katsuki watched him approach and stand in front of him, his unusually tall figure towering scarily over him. He then leaned down and put both of his terrifying hands on his shoulders and gripped them painfully.
Fear paralyzed Katsuki's small form.
"Listen here, you little brat." Horrific whisper found its way to his ears. "Your brain is unlike the others, such advanced condition like yours is unusual and whether you want it or not, I will find a way to run more tests on you." Venom was pouring from every single one of his words and hands on his shoulders were keep painfully pressing onto him and Katsuki realized that he couldn’t breathe properly.
Suddenly, he remembered his mom's words.
"And if someone tries to grab you-"
"Don't.." he said quietly while purposely not looking at the doctor.
"What was that?" Doctor leaned even closer towards him.
"Don't."
Katsuki raised his hands.
"Fucking."
He looked him straight in the eyes.
"TOUCH ME!"
"-start screaming."
Katsuki blasted bright explosions from his hands directly onto man's face. Doctor let out a surprised scream and let go of Katsuki's shoulders to cover both his injured face and sensitive eyes from sudden light. Katsuki used this as an opportunity to run out from the office.
He heard doctor yell after him, but he wasn't about to stop. He ran as fast as his short legs allowed him, passing the hospital staff and other patients. He looked back to see if the man was following him and then forcefully bumped into someone.
"Katsuki?" Some woman grabbed him by his hand. "What are you doing running arou- AH!" The woman let out a surprised yelp as he pushed her away with small explosion and continued to run.
He just wants to go home.
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Mitsuki stood up quickly and watched in shock as her son ran away and around the corner of the corridor. As she was about to run after him, she felt cold hand on her elbow. She turned around and saw doctor Akura, panting and holding a small towel onto his face.
"I was gone for few minutes! What the hell happened?!" She screamed at him, doing so caused other people around to stare at them.
"Your boy got bored and wanted to run away." Doctor practically hissed through clenched teeth. "As you are already aware, he succeeded." He finally let go of her hand and pulled out a phone from his pocket. "I'll call the security, they'll find him in no time."
"Well, I intend to find him right now." She stated and started running in the same direction Katsuki went earlier, leaving behind the doctor who was already talking with someone on the phone.
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Masaru opened the door for Mitsuki who was tightly holding their sleeping son in her arms.
In the end, it was one of the security guards who found him in a storeroom, hiding behind a shelf stand. Katsuki tried to attack him with explosions, but the man had some sleep inducing quirk, so he just used that and brought passed out boy back to his mother.
It was then, while she was waiting for her husband to arrive and drive them home, that doctor Akura walked up to her.
He was wearing sunglasses and had a small gauze on his left cheek. She quickly realized that it was because of her son's doings.
"I- I deeply apologize." She said and bowed, Katsuki still asleep in her arms and her hold on him tightened to not let him slip out accidentally. "I didn't realize my son would act like that. If there's anything-"
"No need for that." Akura interrupted her. "I don't exactly look charming for a bra- for a child." Doctor corrected himself quickly. He was clearly pretending that the whole situation didn't bother him, but she wasn't about to argue about that.
"As you wait for your spouse, why won't we talk about your son's... state? Since he's unconscious there won't be any interruptions this time." He gestured to the waiting room which was unusually empty. Mitsuki nodded and they made their way into the room.
Now, with better understanding of the whole situation, she brought Katsuki up to his room, put him in a bed and tucked him under the covers. She sat for few moments on the edge of it while gently stroking his hair. She looked at his sleeping face, so unusually calm and soft for him, even if he was still just four years old. Mitsuki leaned down and kissed him on the forehead, then stood up and left the room quietly.
When she walked down the stairs, Masaru was already waiting for her in the living room with a mug of tea which she gratefully accepted. She sat down next to him on the couch and for few minutes there was only silence between them. She knew he wanted to ask about the visit but wouldn't force her to say anything.
She took a sip of her tea and sighed.
"Doctor said that he has prosopagnosia." The word still sounded strange and peculiar in her mouth. She saw confusion in Masaru's expression. "Face blindness." She used an easier term that she learned earlier that day and he nodded. "He won't be able to memorize faces and won't be able to recognize the ones he already knew and-" her voice broke and turned into a sob. She put down the mug and hid her face in her hands. "He didn't recognize me today so many times... This morning, then at the hospital…" Tears were now streaming down her face and between the fingers and she couldn't stop from shaking. "Why did I let him go?" She felt strong arms wrapping around her shoulders. "It's all my fault, what kind of a brainless mother am I?"
"It's not your fault." Masaru whispered and hugged her tightly. "We couldn't have predicted something like that would happen."
"He said that he has huge trouble recalling faces, that it might get worse, and he's not sure if he's even processing them properly." She said all that fast, on one breath while her husband tried to sooth her at least a little bit. “I thought that this was temporary, or… or something that can be cured but knowing that this is an actual thing that doesn’t even have a remedy for it and that he’ll have to live with it his whole life, I-“
“Come on.” He moved away and softly cupped her face in his hands. “Surely there’s something we can do to make it easier for him, eh?” An honest smile appeared on his face. “Now that we know exactly what the problem is, it can’t be that hard to find something that can help us, right?”
She looked at him for few seconds without saying anything. She raised her hand and put it on one of his that were still resting on her cheeks. His smile widened and she couldn’t help but return the gesture.
“… Right.” Her voice was a bit rough after crying, she coughed a little. “He said that he’ll probably be able to recognize people by stuff like voices or hairstyles…” She said as she moved away and wiped the dried tears from her face.
“Yes, great!” Masaru stood up and walked up to a dresser that was standing on the opposite side of the room. “I know I’m a plain looking guy-“
“You’re not that plain, Masaru.” He just looked at her, unimpressed with a tilted brow. “… Alright, maybe you are.” She laughed a little bit at the face he made.
“Yes, thank you, my dearest wife.” He didn’t even try to hide a sarcasm in his voice as he was going through the drawers, clearly searching for something. “Anyway, as I was saying- I’m a plain looking guy, so what if I started wearing my glasses again, instead of contact lenses?” He asked, proud of his idea, while finally fishing out his old case with glasses inside it from the drawer.
“And you wanted to throw them out.” She grinned and proudly crossed her arms on her chest.
“… I’m pretty sure you’re the one who wanted me to get rid of them.” He muttered while sitting down beside her on the couch. He carefully opened the case and took out his old glasses that he hasn’t wear in almost three years. It looked like he wanted to try them on, but remembered he still had his contacts on and settled on putting them down on the coffee table.
“I’ll keep my hair the same.” She said suddenly.
“… For the rest of your life?” He sounded scandalized, but his smile betrayed that he was just teasing her. She just rolled her eyes at his question and elbowed him lightly in the arm, making him laugh even more at her childish behavior.
Silence filled the air once again, as they sat motionlessly on the couch. Finally, after two weeks of going from one ‘specialist’ to another, they had their answers and a moment to breathe.
“Have you ever thought that this would happen?” She asked quietly, not wanting to disturb the comfortable silence. “Because they sure as hell didn’t warn me about this during maternity course.” Masaru laughed at the statement and circled her waist with his arm.
“Also, I’m pretty sure no one said that parenthood would be easy.” He seemed satisfied that this made her laugh as well. “You can say that we have some kind of a bonus.” He kissed her on the top of her head.
“An extra dosage of experience, huh?” She smirked and rested her head against his shoulder.
“Seems like it.”
She thought for few seconds about that. Who knows, maybe this really was a way of gaining some better understanding of how world really works, that in some cases you couldn’t count on heroes to step in and help you. Maybe this will teach her how to be more patient and humble, especially with a boy like Katsuki, who clearly inherited her character.
She smiled softly to herself, closed her eyes and took a deep breath.
“Yes… Seems like it.”
Chapter 3: Go off the Deep End
Summary:
Katsuki loses his chill that was non-existent to begin with.
Notes:
Thank you, guys for 100 kudos <3 I can't believe it like holy shit haha
I totally ignored the fact that they are wearing uniforms in kindergartens as well in Japan lmao
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Mitsuki had no choice. At some point, Katsuki had to go back to the kindergarten and as much as she’d rather it happened later than sooner, she had to let him go. She made sure to inform the caregivers through the phone call and then in person when she walked Katsuki there (no way she’s letting him go on his own in the near future) about both the accident and about his condition. They told her they already spoke to other children about Katsuki’s accident so there wouldn’t be any problems or misunderstandings between them. She warned them about his quirk and possible outbursts. They assured her everything would be just fine.
But maybe, after all, she really shouldn’t have been so shocked to receive that phone call.
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“If something happens, please inform me immediately.” His mom, after long explanations, finally said to a woman (who, as mom told him earlier, was his teacher) who just nodded with a smile, and then she spoke to him. “Katsuki, remember to not cause any trouble, if you don’t remember someone, just ask about their name, it’ll be okay.” She looked at him for few seconds then kneeled down and hugged him. “Everything will be alright.” She tried to sound reassuringly.
“Mom, stop hugging me all the time.” Katsuki said as he tried to push her away. “Let me go, I’m already late.”
“Bakugou-san, you can always go inside with him for a moment.” The woman offered and that seemed to work as his mom let go of him and stood up quickly
“No, no, there’s no need for that.” She said as she waved her hands awkwardly. “If I come in, I’ll never leave!” Even more awkward laughter escaped her mouth and she moved towards the exit. “I’ll go now. Katsuki, remember my hair, honey! I’ll be back for you in few hours.” She finally left through the door.
“Alright, Katsuki-kun.” Teacher kneeled in front of him. “Are you ready?”
“Of course I am!” Katsuki answered, loud and proud. His teacher smiled at him, stood up and started walking towards the room where all the children were already playing and running around.
“Everyone, pay attention, please!” She clapped twice. “Look who finally came back to us!” Her cheerful voice made all the kids in the room stop doing whatever they were doing and look at them both.
In a second, all of them ran towards him, screaming in excitement and asking all kinds of annoying questions.
“Katsuki-kun, you had an accident?” Some girl with ponytails asked, he didn’t know who she was and before he had a chance to ask anything, another kid cut in.
“What’s your new quirk?” Kid with wings asked and as he was about to answer, yet another one interrupted him.
“Is it true that you’re blind now?” Katsuki frowned at that, he wasn’t blind, you idiot, where did you even-
“He’s not blind, he can’t see faces!” That’s not true either, what’s going on.
“Did it hurt when that car hit you?”
“Of course it hurt, dummy, it hurts when you fall down, it must hurt when a car hits you!”
“You don’t know that!”
“Did you have your brain cut out?”
“Did you have your eyes cut out??”
“Please, everyone, calm down!”
It was too crowded for him. Too many faces and too many voices of people he was unable to recognize. Almost all of them were screaming stupid questions which he couldn’t answer as never given a chance. He was on the edge of bursting when he felt someone grab his hand and heard a softer voice that somehow made its way through all the noise in the room.
“Are you okay, Kacchan?” When he opened his eyes, at first, this was just another stranger in front of him. But then he noticed mess of green hair and realized what the stranger had called him. He knew only one person who would fit with both of those things.
“Don’t touch me, Deku!” He said angrily as he smacked boy’s hand away from his own. “All of you, shut up!” He screamed and everyone went silent, except this one little shitface in front of him.
“Kacchan! You recognize me?” Deku’s voice was full of surprise and happiness as he took a step towards Katsuki who just glared at him. “When mom told me about what happened with your quirk I was so worried that I won’t see you again!” He was keep talking, his voice so high and annoying.
Few kids agreed with Deku, murmurs of ‘it must have been scary for you’ and ‘you were badly hurt’ and ‘that quirk must be scary’ travelled around. Katsuki grit his teeth, and glared around, furious.
“Don’t pity me.” He hissed through his teeth.
“Now, Katsuki-kun, they’re not pitying you.” Teacher’s clear voice reached him. “They were just worried.” Her words caused a little wave of nods throughout the kids.
“They shouldn’t have been.” He crossed arms on his chest. “I managed just fine!”
Teacher sighed at his words, few kids said something about Katsuki being mean and then they were off to playing once again. Katsuki stood alone for few minutes, not knowing where to go as others were already in small groups and he couldn’t find his own friends. Then, of course, he spotted Deku who was still standing close while staring at him.
“What do you want, Deku?” He glared at him and other boy jumped a little at Katsuki’s angry tone.
“It’s just… My mom said that you hurt your head very badly.” He fiddled with the hem of his shirt. “And that you wouldn’t be able to recognize me, but-“
“It’s your stupid hair.” Katsuki quickly interrupted him as he didn’t want to listen to kid’s endless mumbling that would start if he didn’t cut in. He decided he didn’t want to spend any more time in his annoying presence so he walked past him, purposefully pushing him out of the way.
“I’ll keep it like that!” He heard a weak yelp behind him. “I’ll keep my hair like that so you’ll be able to always recognize me without worrying about it!”
Katsuki turned around with widened eyes and furrowed brows, already angry and shocked at what he heard. But when he saw Deku’s gaze, the same one he gave him few weeks ago, under the bridge where he fell, the one with those big eyes full of pity, he got furious.
Now, maybe he meant to use his quirk when he tackled Deku down, maybe he didn’t. But it happened. And as smell of burnt hair filled the air in the room and the teacher tried to separate them, he heard other kids scream something about a villain and a scary quirk.
___
Deku was picked up by his mother and quickly taken home, before Katsuki’s own mom arrived. Not that anything serious happened, he just burnt some of his hair and this stupid kid got scared and started crying. Before he left, he told Katsuki something about it all being alright, to not worry about him.
As if.
And so, Katsuki’s mom arrived shortly after and now he was sitting outside a room in which she and his teacher were talking about his behavior. They weren’t aware that he could hear almost every word, as the door didn’t fully close behind them.
He heard his mom apologize hundreds of times.
He heard when the teacher said they need to be more careful around him.
That he needs to be protected.
That his quirk is dangerous.
He muted out the rest of the conversation as realization slowly sunk in. Realization of what actually happened to him and what other people thought about it and about him. The kids, the teacher, all the doctors with that creepy one, fucking Deku, his parents- they all thought less of him, now. They thought he was damaged, that he was wrong, that his quirk was villainous.
They thought that he was weak because of how powerful his quirk was in the first place.
His train of thoughts was interrupted by his mom who left the room with a deep frown on her face. She slammed the door furiously behind her and looked at Katsuki who had equally angry expression, and at that, her eyebrows shot up in a surprise and her face softened as she kneeled in front of him.
She looked at him for a solid minute, trying to find something in his expression, trying to read it and find answers for questions she couldn’t ask. Katsuki stared too, for few moments, but her gaze was so intense, he turned his head to the right, breaking an eye contact and making her snap out from her state.
She sighed softly.
“Did you realize it was Izuku-kun?” She asked, her voice calm and yet it was clear for Katsuki that she was demanding an answer.
“… Does it matter?” He said while still purposely not looking at her.
Mitsuki raised her hand, carefully grabbed his chin and turned his head to make him look her in the eyes.
“You know it matters.” Her hand was now on his cheek. “Did you realize it was him?”
Katsuki pressed his lips into a thin line and lowered his eyes. He started wondering what she was thinking right now. Would she scream at him for doing something like that to his ‘friend’, even if said person wasn’t even his friend but rather a little annoyance in his life? If he tells her that he didn’t realize it was him, would she think of him even less?
Her intense eyes seemed to penetrate his mind and he decided that there was actually no point in lying to her.
Katsuki felt like she’d realize anyway, somehow.
“I did.” He raised his eyes to look at her directly. “I knew it was him because of his stupid hair.” He explained quickly as he saw her open her mouth to ask how did he know. “And he looked at me like I was an idiot. I’m not an idiot and I don’t need someone like him to look down on me.”
“Katsuki… Darling, I- I’m sure that wasn’t his intention, it’s not-“ She seemingly tried hard to find proper words.
“How would you know?” Katsuki snapped and jumped off the chair he was sitting on. “You weren’t even there.” He crossed his arms on his chest.
He glared at his mom who was still kneeling on the floor in front of him. She seemed… puzzled. Like she knew she had to say or do something but wasn’t quite sure what this thing was. In the end, she just shook her head a little, defeated and lost, maybe a bit disappointed but Katsuki couldn’t tell if she was disappointed with her or… With him.
“You’ll apologize to him.” She stood up, grabbed his hand and started walking with him towards the exit.
No fucking way. Katsuki furrowed his brows, angry. Why is he the one who has to apologize? It was Deku who was looking down on him, it was his damn fault.
“Also, before I forget, we’re going to visit doctor Akura tomorrow. He’s going back to Tokyo in few days and he wanted to-” Katsuki stopped suddenly and as his mom was still holding his hand, it made her pause too. “What’s wrong?” She asked concerned without finishing her previous sentence.
“I don’t want to!” He pulled his hand away from hers. “I don’t want to go to any doctors! They are all terrible!” He sounded desperate, he knew, but he didn’t care as long as his mom wouldn’t bring him to that terrifying person, even if he didn’t remember how the man looked like, he wasn’t fond of the idea of finding out.
He already knew all he needed to know.
Mitsuki looked at her son, surprised. She knew that his last encounter with doctor Akura wasn’t one of the most pleasant ones but she couldn’t figure out why exactly Katsuki didn’t want to visit any doctors whenever she mentioned one.
“I managed to recognize stupid Deku!” Katsuki screamed defensively. “I don’t need doctors!” To tell me that I’m damaged, went untold.
His mom looked like she was pondering over his words, puzzled and confused expression on her face.
“… Alright.” She finally said and once again grabbed his hand. “We won’t go, for now.” She put an emphasis on the last two words, as she wanted to make sure that he knew the visit was inevitable.
Katsuki, for once, felt somehow thankful for the decision his mom made. They finally left the kindergarten and got into their car and he couldn’t be more happy to be leaving this place and to go home.
___
He tried, at first.
As he wouldn't go to any doctors anymore (no way he’d go to any of these useless, creepy fuckers), he often would practice recognizing people with his parents.
Just like his mother told him to, he tried to remember the faces, hairstyles, clothes and other stuff like accessories. He managed to memorize his mother’s blonde hair and red eyes that are just like his. He memorized that his father is wearing glasses and that mother calls him jokingly four-eyes because of that, this helps too, the nickname.
But he couldn’t remember people by their clothes, as far as his parents would always dress up in pretty similar styles every day, and he managed to memorize a handful of heroes, thanks to their individual and often flashy attires, he couldn’t remember people from his school, as they all were always wearing the same fucking uniforms.
Not that it made that much of a difference, as back in the kindergarten he still couldn’t figure out who was who. After the incident with Deku, other kids were too scared to play with him. The fact that he didn’t know who he was talking to at almost all the times didn’t help either. Kids would get annoyed or joke about how he keep messing up their names or didn’t recognize their teacher. He would often outburst with his quirk and kids would ran away, so he spent rest of the remaining time in the kindergarten either alone or ‘gently’ telling Deku and his hair to fuck off.
Now, being halfway through the elementary school, his situation wasn’t any better. His parents insisted on him trying to remember people, but it would take him few months to memorize some of his classmates, just for all of his effort to go to waste whenever new school year would start, as most of his classmates would be replaced by other people and, once again, he would be left with strangers.
His mother gave him a tip to try and remember others by their quirks. It was a good idea, he thought at first. But when he actually tried to focus on any of people’s quirks, he realized that most of his classmates were not only plain looking, with no distinguishable features, but most of them had emitter type of quirks or (to his anguish) transformation type with only few being mutants.
What are the fucking odds.
And then there’s Deku, of course.
Always finding his way into Katsuki’s life. Always in the same class with the same fucking hair and same terrible, red shoes. Always trying to follow him around, because as quirkless nerd he’s practically alone all the time as well. Katsuki was aware that it might be partially his fault, as he often bursts out and most of the time his explosions are directed at Deku, so people rather not spend their time with a guy who can’t even defend himself.
But it’s not his problem.
And not his fault the nerd’s scared of him, just like everyone else.
“Go away, stupid Deku.” He was forced to repeat for what seemed like a hundredth time this day.
“But Kacchan, I just wanted to-“ He was unable to finish the sentence as Bakugou shoved him against a wall in the corridor.
“What the fuck did I just say? GO. AWAY.” He took few steps away but stopped and turned around to face Deku once again. “And change your fucking hair, it’s annoying and disgusting.” Only then he left for good.
Katsuki truly hates remembering this bastard. Out of all people it just had to be him, the most plain looking nerd to exist. He tried to forget him.
At some point he started focusing more on that than on trying to memorize the others.
He stopped practicing with his parents.
And he didn’t try anymore.
___
Of course, at the beginning of middle school his mother made sure that both the principal and homeroom teacher knew, just like back when the elementary school have started. Despite Katsuki asking almost nicely his new teacher to not tell anyone in his class, he went and did that anyway.
The worst part was that teachers either cared too much or just pretended to care. They would announce it at the beginning of the year, like it was that big of a deal and then proceed to pity him and make an idiot out of him in front of the whole fucking class.
Not that it would change anything if they didn’t, as apparently there were people who went with him to the elementary school, not that he remembered any of them.
He just heard all the not-so-subtle whispers and rumors going around.
“I went with him to the elementary school, we were in the same class for two years, he doesn’t even remember me.”
That just means you’re not important enough.
“He lashes out with his quirk a lot, sometimes I wonder if he can even control it.”
Better than you yours, that’s for sure.
“His parents must be so disappointed...”
How would you know?
“I don’t know what’s worse, that quirkless guy becoming a hero or him.”
Don’t compare him to that useless nerd.
“Poor guy, he must have been so scared back then.”
Stop with the pity, you piece of shit.
“Well, that explains why he’s always alone, people are too scared to hang out with him.”
… Shut the fuck up.
“I wonder how he wants to be a hero with that quirk and attitude?”
That’s fucking enough.
He turned around, few explosions already going off, to face a guy who was talking shit and walked up to him. Saw him smirk before realizing that Katsuki heard everything and as his face turned white and he looked ready to run away, Katsuki was still faster than him.
He grabbed him by a collar and first head-butted him then kicked him twice with his knee right in the guts.
He heard someone scream for a teacher.
The guy wrapped his arms around his stomach and as Katsuki let go of his shirt and pushed him with an explosion, he lost balance and collapsed onto the floor. Katsuki kicked the guy few times while he lied on the ground, in the stomach and ribs, and in the end in his face so he ended up lying on his back and Katsuki kneeled above him and punched him in this stupid face that he knew he wouldn’t even remember in few minutes.
He lost track on how many punches he threw but he’s pretty sure that he used his quirk with at least half of them and before he knew it, he felt someone forcibly remove him from the guy. He tried to break away from them, but the grip of the two people on him was too strong and that’s when he noticed the crowd that gathered around them.
Bakugou Katsuki lost his ability to recognize faces, so he didn’t know any of the people who stared at him, but he knew what dread looks like when he sees it, and as he looked around the crowd, every single person had exactly that written all over their face.
He looked down at the guy who was still on the ground, part of his uniform’s shirt burnt, his wounded face covered by his hands and his hair smoking slightly.
Katsuki glanced at his hands and finally realized something.
___
“What the fuck, Katsuki?” Mitsuki was furious as she drove back home after the principal called her about what Katsuki did. “Not even two months into the school year and you do that? What were you thinking?! You’re lucky they only suspended you for two weeks and you weren’t expelled altogether! And you’re certainly lucky that they called me and not your father.” … Actually, she was pretty sure that Katsuki would argue with her about that last bit, but as silence stretched and she stopped the car on the red light, she glanced at him.
He was looking at his hands as he mindlessly clenched them into fists a couple of times, while keeping unusually quiet.
“Katsuki?” She started, a bit calmer and a little worried. “What’s wrong?” As he kept his mouth shut and head lowered, the light changed back to green and she decided to park in the near parking lot next to some store. “Talk to me.” She demanded as she turned off the car and looked at him.
At first, Katsuki didn’t even react to her words, he’s just keep staring at his hands. This was so weird, seeing him like that. So quiet and uncertain.
“… Mom…” Something clenched inside her stomach. It’s been ages since he called her ‘mom’, usually it was just ‘mother’ or simple ‘hey’ to get her attention. “I just- hit him. So many times… And he couldn’t even defend himself." Katsuki released a shaky breath. "He couldn’t defend himself from my quirk and I- They were so scared of it.“ He finally looked at her, his face twisted in a way like he was about to start crying. “They were all afraid of me. And I-” He took a deep breath. “-I have all this power in my hands… What if they are right? What if I grow to like hurting people like that with it and become a villain?” His voice was shaking a bit as he talked. It looked like he wanted to add something, but Mitsuki was quick to interrupt him.
“Honey, no.” She put a hand on his shoulder and squeezed it lightly. “You wanted to become a hero ever since you first discovered they existed! And if people think you can’t be one?” She put her other hand on his still tightly clenched fist. “You’ll just have to prove them wrong. You’ll get into UA and become the best fucking hero. You just have to stay out of trouble.“ She winked at him and put few reassuring pats on his back.
He stared at her for few seconds, mulling over her words. He looked back down at his hands, raising one to cover his eyes and turned his head away from her sight.
“… Thanks, mom.” He said quietly while still purposefully not looking at her.
But that was enough. Mitsuki sighed relieved.
She started the car and once again they were on their way back home.
When Katsuki came back to school, he didn’t hear any whispers behind his back anymore. People were even more careful around him.
___
Katsuki desperately tried to catch his breath, but the Sludge villain blocked both his mouth and nostrils while using Katsuki’s quirk against his will. Everything around them was on fire and pro heroes had no way of coming closer.
As he tried his best to not lose consciousness and everything slowly became a blur, he saw someone running full speed towards them. Person threw their backpack into villain’s eyes and that was enough for the sludge to remove from his face. He took a deep, desperate breath and coughed a few times. He tried to identify the person who saved him, but his vision was still blurred, all he recognized was a black school uniform, same as his own.
“Kacchan! It’s me, Izuku!” High pitched voice reached him and that was enough for Katsuki to fully get a hold of himself and entirely focus his vision.
Go away, why it had to be this little piece of shit?
“What the hell, why are you here!?” He screamed as he tried to free himself from the sludge.
“I don’t know, my legs just started moving!” Deku screamed back as he attempted to take him out of the mud, big tears in his eyes. “Kacchan… You really looked like you needed help!” He added with strange, crooked smile that pissed Katsuki off even more.
He tried to scream but the sludge was already back on his mouth.
Get the hell off me!
He wasn't sure if the furious thought was directed towards Deku or the Sludge villain.
As he was about to pass out, between him and Deku suddenly landed another person- hero, it seemed from nerd’s reaction but he was unable to recognize the tall man.
Next time he opened his eyes, the Sludge villain was nowhere to be seen, and there were paramedics checking on him and Deku, who as soon as noticed that Katsuki’s awake, started gushing to him about how All Might saved them both.
So that was All Might. Katsuki couldn't tell if he was angry at himself because he didn’t recognize his favorite hero, or because they ‘met’ in this kind of situation when he was at his weakest.
After paramedics let him go, some pro heroes approached him.
“Amazing quirk you’ve got there but you should stay away from villains.”
Yes, because he specifically went to this guy to get himself caught.
“You have to be careful with that quirk of yours.”
You know nothing, shut up.
“Maybe it’ll be better for you to stay low for a while.”
Fuck off.
He noticed some journalists with cameras and realized what they wanted to do as soon as they begun to move closer to him. As heroes keep reprimanding him, and cameras were pointed at them all, he stayed quiet with penitent frown.
Before he decided to head back home, he caught Deku and gave him a piece of his mind, telling him to not dare to look down on him and making sure he knew that he didn’t actually do anything helpful.
Throughout next few weeks, there were people who dared to approach him and ask if he’s that kid that was captured and show him some pictures on their phones. Every time he'd scoff and say ‘no’. Even if they were most possibly talking about him, he wasn't about to waste any time to actually stop and try to recognize himself in the pictures.
___
After the whole villain incident, he spent the rest of the last year of middle school to prepare for entrance exam to UA. That’s his only choice of high school, no backups, no second-guessing, he couldn't afford to not get into this school. That was his one way ticket to becoming a hero.
As he approached the UA’s gate, he saw all too familiar tuft of green hair accompanied by distasteful, red shoes. Deku was muttering something to himself as always.
“Stupid Deku.” He said more on reflex but this was enough to get nerd’s attention.
“Kacchan…” He turned around and said quietly, probably more to himself than to actually answer Katsuki.
“Get out of my way or I’ll set you on fire.” He continued walking in straight line as panicked Deku moved quickly to the side and started to babble uncontrollably. “Change your fucking hair.” Katsuki added, not even listening to what the other was saying. He didn’t even spare him another look and just continued walking towards an entrance to the school.
He heard some guys recognize him as the victim of the sludge villain. He frowned, loosened the scarf around his neck that was already barely tied around it, and just quickened his pace.
When he was finally inside, unfortunately seated next to Deku and having to silence him few times, and as he listened to the loud guy’s explanations about the practical exam, he couldn’t help but think that this was going to be so fucking easy.
And it was, in all honesty the test couldn’t have been easier and Katsuki smirked triumphantly to himself, surrounded by remnants of robots, as he passed the exam without any difficulties, destroying one machine after another, not looking back on other students and only thing he regretted was that he wasn’t given a chance to crush Deku, who he was certain didn’t even pass, quirkless weakling he was.
He got a letter from UA a week later. Short video in which some strange mouse, that introduced itself as Principal Nezu, was confirming the most obvious thing to him.
Bakugou Katsuki was officially a student of UA Hero Academy’s hero course.
…
Now to convince his mother to not contact the principal.
___
But of fucking course she would contact him anyway. Katsuki thought with his arms crossed on his chest as he was sitting next to his mother on a couch in principal’s office.
“Indeed, Bakugou-kun’s condition is something I’ve never heard of before.” Mouse-like principal, Nezu, spoke from his seat on the couch. Right beside him was sitting black haired man with some sort of bandages loosely tied around his neck. It seemed like it was man’s typical accessory so if Katsuki was lucky, he’d remember him by those. After all, he had to at least remember his homeroom teacher, who right now looked like he didn’t even care about the whole conversation and it actually seemed like he was dozing off. “But, thanks to you informing me about it beforehand Bakugou-san, we could gather information and prepare something for your son. Aizawa?”
The previously mentioned homeroom teacher opened his eyes and leaned forward lazily towards little coffee table that was between them. He put his hand on a folder that had written on top of it ‘Class 1-A’ and slid it towards his mother.
“This contains copies of the pictures we took of the students for their school IDs.” The teacher explained as his mother took the folder and opened it, her eyes widening and excited smile appearing on her face. “It’s the least we can do.” He added as he settled back into more comfortable position, as if he was planning on going back to sleep.
Katsuki stared at them both, shocked and with mixed emotions.
“The names of all of your classmates are on the back of each picture.” Principal Nezu spoke again.
“This is-“ His mother seemed to be at a loss of words. “This is amazing, I don’t know what to say.” She looked at the back of one of the pictures, studying the name and switching it back to look at the student. “Thank you so much, this will help a lot.” She packed the image safely with the rest and closed the folder. “Honestly, this is so great, we often try and do some exercises with Katsuki with pictures and stuff but he’s so stubborn, you have no idea-“
“They don’t need to know that, you hag!” Katsuki cut in before she could tell them the whole story of his fucking life.
“Shut up, you brat.” She said with annoyance in her voice as she smacked him lightly on a shoulder and he could swear that he heard a very quiet snort from presumably sleeping teacher.
“As Aizawa-sensei said, that’s the least we can do.” Principal interrupted their bickering and smiled, possibly amused by them. Katsuki didn’t realize how strange a mouse (or rat or whatever animal he was supposed to be) would look like while smiling. “If needed,” Nezu continued “we can provide pictures of the teachers too.”
“Yes, that would be-“
“No.” Katsuki interrupted before his mother had a chance to finish. All the attention turned to him, even Aizawa opened his eyes and looked at him with neutral expression. “I don’t need all these stuff.”
“Katsuki, you know that-“
“No. I don’t need any pictures of students or teachers or whatever. I don’t even know why we came here in the first place.” He turned to his mother. “I don’t need anyone to know, I can manage just fine on my own.” He wanted to stand up, but the teacher’s voice stopped him from doing so.
“If you don’t want, no one will know.” He straightened in his seat and looked at Katsuki with the same neutral expression as before. “I don’t really care, if I have to be honest.” Principal sighed at his words, and both Katsuki and his mother raised their eyebrows in surprise. “As long as you attend classes and do your homework and don’t turn evil all of a sudden, do whatever you want. But just so you know, all heroes at some point need allies and need to know how to cooperate with them. And this requires trust.” He finished and this time Nezu nodded with approval.
They all now waited patiently for Katsuki’s response. He looked at them with a frown on his face, as he didn’t really know what they were expecting from him, not that he cared. He wasn’t going to thank them, that’s for sure.
“…Whatever.” He stood up and started heading towards the exit from the office.
“Katsuki!” His mother called out to him and stood up as well. “I’m so sorry.” She said to the two men.
“… It’s alright, if you’ll think about anything else that could help Bakugou-kun, please contact me or Aizawa-sensei.” Principal said calmly. “Remember to take the folder, Bakugou-san.”
“I don’t need it!” Katsuki said and left the room hurriedly.
He managed to almost get to the school’s gate when his mother finally caught up to him, the damn folder in her hand.
“That was very rude and disrespectful, Katsuki.” She said, clearly angry. He rolled his eyes and grit his teeth.
“Whatever, it’s not like they can kick me out before school year even starts.” He scoffed and quickened his pace, mother barely keeping up.
“Katsuki, you have to at least accept the fact that it was very thoughtful of them to provide these pictures and you know they will help you!” She continued while they both got to their parked car. “At least try to remember some of them.” Both of them sat in the car, Katsuki in the backseat just to make a point of not wanting to talk to her anymore.
“No fucking way.” He muttered, more to himself than to answer her.
“What was that?” She asked as she adjusted the car mirror and through it looked him straight in the eyes. He just shrugged and looked out the window. He could hear her sigh hopelessly.
She started the car and so they were on their way home.
The ride was unusually prolonging for Katsuki, so unfortunately he had a lot of time to think both about his new teacher’s and his mother’s words.
Fuck cooperating and allies. There were badass heroes who worked on their own almost all the time, like Endeavor or Miruko. Damn it, even All Might worked alone most of the time due to his overwhelming power.
…
It wasn’t entirely true, but fuck it, some random teacher wasn’t gonna tell him how to work when he becomes a hero.
His train of thoughts came back to his mother and… Fuck, yes, he had to admit that, after all, none of the previous teachers ever thought about giving him the opportunity to know his classmates beforehand.
But now it was too late.
After all, he didn’t try anymore.
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Chapter 4: First impressions
Summary:
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Notes:
Who's ready for our favourite quirk assessment test?
I wasn't.
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Chapter Text
Katsuki was quickly going towards an entrance of UA. It’s not like he was late, he’d always make sure a few times that his alarm was set, but he made a point of coming to class before everyone else. This way he never had to greet anyone upon entering the classroom and make a fool out of himself by greeting a wrong person.
The homeroom teacher, Aizawa-sensei, told him he didn’t care so maybe, just fucking maybe for once he wouldn’t have to deal with any strange looks or stupid questions about him, as there wouldn’t be anyone to tell his new classmates about-
… Wait a fucking minute.
Katsuki stopped suddenly, right before he found his locker, and realized something.
Aizawa might have promised (in his own, strange way) that he won’t tell the class about it, but then there was one particular shit head who also knew. And maybe Katsuki didn’t know if that asshole was in his class, but it didn’t change the fact that if he started spreading the information, sooner or later it would reach his classmates.
“Son of a-” Katsuki quickly looked around in search of Deku’s locker. Luckily, he didn’t have much trouble finding it and he hurriedly opened it. The locker still had school shoes in it instead of those terrible red of his.
So Katsuki had to wait for him. Of course.
He found himself outside the school gate, if he was gonna force this nerd to keep his mouth shut, he’d rather no one from school faculty sees that. He leaned against the gate and watched the students who were passing by, while searching for a tuft of green hair. He saw few people stare at him but as soon as he glared at them, they would carry on without sparing him another look.
…
This was getting more and more ridiculous, why this fucker always had to be late? Maybe he realized this wasn’t a place for him and decided not to come? That would be the best choice for him, in all honesty.
As he was keep cursing in his mind, he noticed someone staring at him in the corner of his eye. He momentarily straightened his posture and as he did so, the person flinched a little, as if ready to run. Katsuki scanned them as quickly as he could.
Green hair; check.
Disgusting red shoes; check.
Flinching upon eye contact; fucking check.
He made sure no one else was around and quickly moved towards Deku, and before he could even make a sound, he was pinned against the wall.
“Kaccha-“
“Don’t you Kacchan me, stupid Deku.” Katsuki hissed and hardened his grip on Deku’s tie. He tried to say something else, but Katsuki wasn’t about to let him do that. “Not a god damn word, don’t you dare even breathe.” Deku tensed and locked his lips in a thin line. “Now, listen, you piece of shit. If you tell anyone, if you even think about telling anyone, I will fucking end you. No one will save you. Not a teacher, not a hero. Fucking no one will be there to save you from me. And believe me when I say that I won’t be the only person who doesn’t recognize you by your stupid, plain face.” He let go of his tie and took a step back.
Deku raised his trembling hands and started fixing the tie clumsily.
“Are we clear?” Katsuki hissed, a short explosion going off from his palm. Deku kept quiet, he had a grimace on his face and avoided any eye contact, but then he finally nodded. “And change your fucking hair.” Katsuki added and stormed away, back to school.
By now, class was probably full.
___
Eijirou couldn’t have been happier. He got into UA, his moms were hella proud of him and he was rocking bright, red hair.
Now, what could be manlier than becoming a real hero like your idol?
…
Apparently kicking ass of some dickhead on the first day of school, he thought to himself as he saw some blond guy who’s hand was firing up, towering over dark haired one, who was fixing his tie, obviously shaken.
“WOW, Kirishima, what the heck is that hair!?” Before he could move, he heard familiar voice of Ashido and he turned around to face her. “It’s a horn! You’ve got a horn just like me!” She laughed and approached as she seemingly wanted to mess up his hair.
“Hey, don’t mess with it!” He took a step back, avoiding her hand. “Wait, no, that’s not important, there’s this guy-“ He was facing the school gate again but dark haired guy, still leaning against the wall, was alone, blond one nowhere to be found. “… shit.”
“What’s up? A friend of yours?” Ashido stood next to him and also looked at the other guy. “Something wrong?”
Eijirou didn’t answer her, instead just ran towards the guy who was about to enter through the gate.
“Hey, wait for me!” He heard Ashido’s voice behind him.
“Yo, dude!” The guy flinched and looked back at him. Eijirou stopped few steps in front of him, and upon closer look, he noticed that his hair was actually green. “Are you okay?”
“Uh- Yea! Completely fine, thanks!” He said panicked and an obvious lie kind of stung Kirishima. “That was just- my… old friend.” He sounded like he didn’t believe in his own words.
“Didn’t look that friendly.” Eijirou muttered, but both green haired guy and Ashido, who just caught up, heard him.
“Who didn’t look friendly?” She asked with honest curiosity and scanned the teen in front of her.
Right, she didn’t see what happened.
“No! Seriously, there’s nothing to worry about!” The guy waved his hands around and laughed nervously.
“… Alright.” Eijirou decided not to push, after all, he didn’t even know the guy’s name.
… Oh shoot, that’s right.
“Ah, by the way. I’m Kirishima Eijirou.” He finally introduced himself.
“Ashido Mina!” She joined in quickly and excitedly raised her hand.
“Oh! Right!” Another awkward waves. “Midoriya Izuku!” He quickly bowed a few times and both Eijirou and Ashido giggled at that.
“Come on, bro!” Eijirou walked up to him and put an arm around his shoulders. “There’s no need for such formalities!” He smiled brightly, showing off his sharp teeth.
“Exactly!” Ashido agreed with him. “I’m pretty sure we’re in the same year, so which class are you in?”
“… Class 1-A.” He answered quietly, like he still couldn’t believe he actually made it. Eijirou kind of understood that.
“Hey, the same as we!” Ashido seemed happy to meet a fellow future hero and new classmate. “We can go together, the class is starting soon.” She said as she looked at the time on her phone.
All three of them finally entered the building, changed their shoes and headed towards their classroom, but Midoriya stopped when they were passing the restrooms.
“Actually, you two go ahead, I’ll just make sure my tie is intact and stuff.” He went in without waiting for any sort of reaction from them.
“So…” Ashido started while they continued their walk to the classroom. “Why did you run up to him?” She tilted her eyebrow and eyed him suspiciously.
“Before you arrived, there was this other guy who was-“ … Right, what he was doing exactly? It’s not like he saw him beating Midoriya up or anything, but judging by his state he might have as well, before Eijirou noticed them.
“What?” Ashido was expecting answers.
“… No, nothing.” He said after another few seconds of thinking. “Probably just some jerk from another year and we won’t see him again.”
Kind of unmanly of him, to leave it at that, but he couldn’t do anything about it right now, especially after Midoriya tried to assure him few times that everything was alright.
Ashido seemed unconvinced but decided to leave it at that, as they approached a huge door to their classroom and entered. It was already mostly filled with various students, judging by the seats, only few of his new classmates were missing and Eijirou looked around curiously as he headed to his seat. He passed a guy with a tail and another one with bright, yellow hair with black strand in a shape of a lightning. Before he sat down, he looked at the back of the classroom, taking notice of a guy with half red, half white hair and in front of him-
Holy shit, is that a bird?!
He stifled a laugh and thanked the universe that the bird guy wasn’t looking at him.
Come on, dude, that would be so rude if you laughed at him. Not cool, not cool at all. Eijirou scolded himself and finally sat down in surprisingly comfortable chair. Ashido did the same and he was happy to notice that she was almost right in front of him, being only one sit to the right.
Once again, Eijirou looked around. He noticed huge guy with six arms right in the front row of the class and much smaller girl with short, purplish hair behind him.
I wonder if she’ll be able to see the board. He thought and moved on to the next person.
… Or he would if there actually was someone to look at, instead he just stared for few seconds at a school uniform sitting in a chair. He shook his head and glanced at next guy, who seemed too comfortable, as one of his legs was on his desk.
Why don’t you put it on a ceiling?
Then he noticed guy’s blond hair that was somehow familiar.
Eijirou squinted while trying to remember if he saw this mess of blond hair earlier. He stared at the back of his head for few moments, but the blond must have realized something as he turned around and their eyes locked for a second, before he glared at him and Eijirou couldn’t help but quickly lower his head.
What’s up with him? When he took a risk of glancing back at the guy, he was once again looking straight ahead and ignoring everyone else, except for few snarky comments towards a guy wearing glasses that was telling him to put his leg down
___
When Katsuki opened a door to Class 1-A, he frowned as it was already mostly full of other students.
Fucking Deku, coming in so late.
Katsuki didn’t even spare a look at all the people, even the ones sitting in front row when he was passing them, they didn’t matter.
He sat down and put one of his legs on his desk. He kept his gaze locked on a blackboard and ignored any new students that were entering the room.
That was until he felt someone’s gaze on him. He looked a little to his right and his eyes met an only person that had their head turned towards him. Apparently, his brain decided to fuck with him this day, as the guy’s eyes were completely distorted and Katsuki couldn’t really tell if he was actually staring at him, but he decided to glare at him anyway. Just for a good measure.
As he thought about it, maybe that’s how this dude actually looked like, but he didn’t care and it didn’t matter as the guy quickly lowered his head.
Katsuki returned to his previous task of ignoring everyone but someone else decided to annoy him.
“Take your leg off that desk, right now!” Some guy demanded, to which Katsuki smirked and snorted, not even rising his gaze. “It’s your first day and you’re already disrespecting this academy by-“
“Who fucking cares, your old school put a stick up your ass?” He interrupted, while still smirking, only slightly amused and more annoyed. “Or were you born with it?” He still purposefully wasn’t looking at him. Why would he waste his time on that anyway?
The guy shut up for few seconds and Katsuki was hoping that he’d be finally left alone.
“Let’s start over.” … Wishful thinking. “I’m Iida Tenya from the Soumei private academy.”
“Soumei, huh?” Yes, that’s exactly what Katsuki needed. Some uptight guy from school for rich kids looking down on him. “You must think you’re better than me. I’m gonna have fun crushing you.” Loud guy gasped, and Katsuki almost laughed at his reaction.
Almost.
“Are you threatening me?!” He sounded scandalized. “Your own classmate!? Are you sure you’re in the right place?” At that, Katsuki grit his teeth, all amusement gone.
What the fuck is that supposed to mean, you piece of shit?
As he was about to stand up and show the guy his place, he heard him say ‘it’s him’ towards the entrance of the class and everyone else looked over there as well.
The guy was already marching off to the person who was standing in a doorway and it took Katsuki few seconds to realize who exactly was standing there.
That’s his fucking luck, to have this piece of shit in his class yet again. He thought, furious, as he watched Deku and the guy who was bothering him earlier exchange an awkward conversation. At some point, Deku turned around to talk to someone in the corridor, but that person was out of his sight, though he could hear a girly voice.
Not that he cared how she looked like, he wouldn’t remember anyway.
Katsuki couldn’t help but remember when few weeks ago, a principal of his old school called him and Deku to his office to congratulate them both for making it in to such prestigious school.
Later that day he pinned that little shit to the wall behind school, being sure that he must have cheated somehow during the exam. Asshole had the audacity to tell him that someone told him that he could become a hero, and Katsuki can’t stop him, whether he liked it or not.
He scowled at the memory.
I’m going to figure out how that stupid weakling did it. Then I’ll destroy him.
Katsuki didn’t have any more time to curse at annoying people as fuss at the door caught his attention. Some man entered the classroom and Katsuki immediately noticed the bandages he focused on upon their first meeting.
“Welcome, I’m Aizawa Shouta. Your homeroom teacher.” His voice showed clearly that he was bored and unimpressed by the students who all gasped at his words. Katsuki smirked to himself. Such idiots. “Alright, let’s get to it.” The teacher reached to his sleeping bag and pulled out something that looked like a gym uniform. “Put these on and head outside.”
___
The whole class joined their teacher right outside the school’s gym and the man finally explained to them what they were going to do. Katsuki actually enjoyed the idea of a quirk assessment test, he could finally show all these extras what a real power looks like.
“But- the orientation! We’re gonna miss it!” Some girl yelped and Katsuki rolled his eyes. Doesn’t she know what she came here for?
“If you want to become heroes, you can’t waste time on pointless ceremonies.” Aizawa answered, not even looking at her, as he was standing with his back to everyone and some people gasped at his words. “Here at UA we don’t follow traditions and teachers are free to run their classes however they want to.” He peered at the students and finally faced them again. “You had typical physical tests in middle school, right?” He took out from his pocket a small device that showed a list of said tests. “Assessments during which using your quirks was prohibited.” His voice, although steady had a slight note of annoyance in it.
As he continued trash talking the system for not letting people use their quirks, Katsuki tried to remember his own results from middle school. Thanks to his individual training, his achievements were already impressive.
They’ll be fucking amazing with his quirk.
“Bakugou.” He heard his name and immediately looked at the teacher, slight panic in the back of his mind that he was gonna said something about their first meeting, but he kept his face the same and waited to hear what Aizawa had to say. “You were at the top after the entrance exam.” Katsuki tried to ignore the feeling of relief, but was also surprised at the new information.
He knew that both his quirk and strategy during the exam were perfect but actually hearing he was the best was something… new.
“Ball throw. What was your result in the middle school?” Aizawa continued with his monotone voice.
“67 meters.” He answered quickly, without missing a beat.
“Alright, now try with your quirk.” He said and threw him a soft ball, which he caught with one hand without any trouble and moved towards the field designed specifically for this test. “Everything’s allowed, just stay in the circle. Hurry, use all you’ve got.” He took a few steps away and stood beside the rest of the students.
“Alright then…” Katsuki muttered to himself and did a quick warm-up.
I’ll send it with a heat and they’ll all see.
“DIE.” He screamed (because why the fuck not) as he threw the ball with as much force as he could manage to use without straining his muscles and the ball quickly flew with smoke and fire. It landed a few seconds later, a huge distance from them.
“First, you’ll find your maximum capabilities.” Aizawa spoke and checked the device in his hand which showed him Katsuki’s result. “This is the most rational way of figuring out your potential as a pro hero.” He showed everyone Katsuki’s score and most of the students gasped in amazement.
“705.2 meters? Are you kidding me?” Some guy with yellow hair said and Katsuki smirked to himself.
There you have it.
He could finally show everyone how truly amazing his quirk is.
Other students continued to talk with excitement about how they wanted to try too and how amazing this was going to be, but Katsuki focused his attention on their teacher who was just staring at everyone, obviously not sharing their enthusiasm.
“So you think this is a game?” His cold voice momentarily silenced everyone. “You have three years to become heroes and that’s how you see all this? Alright.” He said and smiled strangely. “You’ll compete in 8 tests, the one with the worst result will be immediately expelled.” Screams of shock went through the little crowd and Katsuki had to stop himself from laughing at these idiots.
He was so obviously lying. And even if he was telling the truth, Katsuki was sure of two things.
Once again, he’ll have a secure place at the top and quirkless Deku will be expelled.
“As I said. We can do whatever we want in our classes.” His creepy smile widened. “Welcome to the UA’s Hero Course!”
Katsuki couldn’t help but grin with wild satisfaction.
___
Throughout all the tests Katsuki was using his quirk to almost its full potential and thanks to that, didn’t have to worry about his place in the class.
On the other hand, there was Deku who was struggling with every single task, being weak and quirkless. Katsuki would look at him from time to time to be 100% that little shit was failing everything.
Until they came back to ball throwing.
As Katsuki already completed his deed, all he had to do was stand and look at the failure that was about to happen after Deku stepped into the circle.
“If Midoriya-kun doesn’t use his quirk, he’ll be the one going home.” Said some guy who was standing next to Katsuki.
“Tsk, of course he will.” He couldn’t stop himself from commenting. “He’s a quirkless piece of shit.” Katsuki glared at the guy while pointing at Deku, but otherwise didn’t pay much attention to him.
“Wha- He has a quirk! Didn’t you hear about what he did at the entrance exam?”
“Huh?” He looked back at Deku who seemed like he was about to shit his pants.
There’s just no fucking way.
He watched as Deku’s hand lit up in a strange way as he was getting ready to throw the ball.
Wait-
In a split second, his hand was once again normal, and a ball he threw landed only at 42 meters.
Then what was that, just before?
He noticed that the bandages that were previously around teacher’s neck were now floating and he couldn’t believe when he heard him say that he erased Deku’s quirk and told him he’d be useless during the real battle if he pulled something like that during it.
“You are Eraser Head!” He heard Deku exclaim in shock. Some student said that they heard about him, that he works as the underground hero.
Aizawa Shouta.
Eraser Head.
He’ll have to check him out later, after all, hero names and pseudonyms were easier to remember than actual names, but now wasn’t the time for trying to memorize anything.
What the fuck was up with Deku.
“Midoriya Izuku. You can’t become a hero with your power.”
WHAT FUCKING POWER?
Once again, Deku took a swing, little amount of light appeared for split second and he threw the ball.
Everything slowed down and Katsuki stood there, jaw dropped and eyes widened.
The ball landed practically in the same place as when he himself threw it. He heard Deku say to Aizawa that he could still move.
Katsuki muted out all the comments from other students.
How?
What the hell was that?! He was QUIRKLESS.
This is impossible!
Before he could think, he charged at Deku, all flared up.
“DEKU, YOU BASTARD, HOW THE FUCK DID YOU-“ Deku screamed and before Katsuki had a chance to reach him, he was stopped by Aizawa, his arms and waist tangled up in bandages and with his quirk erased. “What the- how are these bandages so stiff?” He said more to himself than to actually ask, while trying to move, to no use.
Aizawa started explaining how the bandages work, but Katsuki was too furious to actually listen.
After few moments he was released, his quirk back as well.
“We’re wasting time. Just carry on.” The teacher said annoyed.
Katsuki just stood in his place, gritting his teeth painfully and glaring at Deku who walked around him carefully and only then Katsuki noticed his broken finger.
All of a sudden, he remembered their little exchange shortly after the accident.
“I wish I had a quirk like you, Kacchan.”
“Well, you don’t. Good news is, you won’t be in trouble as long as there’s someone with one to protect you. Someone like me!”
“But your quirk is kind of scary, don’t you think? Since it hurt you and all…”
… Fucking hypocrite with self destructive quirk.
___
In the end, Aizawa was indeed lying about expelling the worst student. Katsuki really hoped that idiot would be kicked out on the first day, but at least he was assured that Deku was still the weakest thing he knew and he himself had a chance to show off his own quirk.
Sensei finished their classes earlier and Katsuki quickly changed back into school uniform while not participating in any ‘friendly banter’ with other guys in the locker room. He went to the classroom to pick up his stuff and the curriculum sheets that the teacher mentioned and off he was to his home.
___
Katsuki stopped before the front gate to his house and took a deep breath. From where he stood, he tried looking through the windows, wondering in which room his mother was in.
He knew that as soon as he'd come inside she'd start asking him about his first day at the new school. Stupid farce that was supposed to get out of him some information if he managed to befriend at least one fucking person.
"As if." He muttered to himself and quietly opened the gate and once again moved towards the front door. He hesitated for a second before he opened it and slipped inside.
Feeling relieved that his mother was nowhere to be seen, he managed to kick off his shoes quickly and started moving towards the stairs to get to his room. He just wanted to rest after today.
"Katsuki." He heard a voice and stopped dead in his tracks.
Of course she would be there, you idiot.
Bakugou sighed and with a frown he turned towards the kitchen where the voice came from. There he saw a woman with blonde hair (like his) that was stylized in very familiar way. She was sitting at the dining table, cup of tea in one hand and stack of some papers in the other. He dropped his bag at the entrance to the room, walked up to one of the chairs and sat down.
"How was your first day?" Mother asked while keeping her attention on the papers in her hand. "You know," she continued without waiting for his answer. "I met with Inko at the store today, she said that her son made it to the UA." She finally looked up from the papers and stared at him. "Did you know he’d also be here?"
Katsuki glared at her and shrugged. Before he could react she reached out and poked his forehead with her finger.
“I knew it, you little brat!” He smacked her hand away. “That’s why you were so pissed off few weeks ago! That’s when you found out!” Her voice was somehow triumphant, as if she discovered an answer for one of those more philosophical questions about life.
"Who the fuck cares about him, it's not like we're friends." He muttered angrily and looked away, pretending there was something really interesting on the other side of the window. "Also, I don't want to talk about this piece of useless shit." He added after few seconds of silence.
"For fuck’s sake, Katsuki!" His mother raised her voice again and put the papers back on the table with some force. He looked at them without much thought, but he quickly regretted doing so, as they turned out to be pictures of some people and at that his frown deepened and anger rose. "First of all, control what comes out of your mouth. Second of all, stop treating your friend like that and-"
"He's not my fucking friend, he's an annoyance." Katsuki snarked. At that his mother sighed and rubbed her eyes tiredly. She looked like she was collecting her thoughts and then she spoke again.
"Is he in your class?" Her voice was calmer.
Yes and you are already aware of that, aren't you?
"Fuck if I know." He shrugged and looked away again, but of course his mother picked up on his obvious lie.
"Honey, try to be more friendly towards him. You know he's keeping his hair the same for you, right?" Once again, she reached out to him and tried to put a hand on his cheek but he pushed it away before she could even touch him. He made a point by moving away with his chair a little bit.
"It's his choice and it's not like I want to remember him in particular. Especially his stupid hair and stupid shoes." He still wasn't looking at his mother but he could hear her take deep breath which she held for few seconds.
"Could you look at these pictures for me?"
He hated this question wholeheartedly. Not only it was like a punch in the gut, but he always felt like a moron after each set of pictures his mother would show him.
Katsuki could hear her sliding the photographs on the table towards him and he forced himself to look at them.
There were three, small-scaled pictures of three, rather different, people. They were all head-shots, but he could see them wearing the same uniforms, the ones they were wearing at the UA and the one he was actually still wearing right now.
So, they're some extras from my school. Katsuki thought while moving in his chair to take a closer look at them.
First one was of a guy with red hair sticking up, barely fitting into the frame. On his face cheerful eyes and a smile that seemed like he was restraining himself from laughing.
Shitty hair you’ve got there, idiot.
Second picture showed a guy with his mouth and nose covered by a fitted mask. One of his eyes was hidden behind bangs of white hair.
Who wears a mask for a picture for their ID?
The last one was of a pink-skinned girl with strange eyes and small horns pointing out from her wild, also pink, hair. In contrast to the guy on the first picture, she wasn’t restraining herself from showing a big, bright smile.
What's with all of this pink.
"Do you know any of them?" He heard his mother ask calmly. Question annoyed him, but he was keep staring at the pictures not daring to look up.
The moment he looks up, he'll forget.
He took a deep breath in an attempt to not get angry again and looked over the three photographs. He tried to remember if he saw this mask today anywhere at the school.
Some kind of feeling rose in his stomach every time his mother would show him pictures of strangers and ask the damned question.
Do you know any of them?
...
No. He doesn't.
Katsuki, for once, really tried to think about strangers in front of him, but nothing came to his mind. He finally exhaled, raised his hand and rubbed his eyes slowly.
"I don't." He said with false confidence and looked her straight in the eyes.
She stared at him for few seconds and as he was about to open his mouth, she broke the silence.
"Katsuki..." His mother started unsure of her words. "They are your classmates." She finally said with a worried frown and he felt the knot in his stomach get bigger. "You didn't even try to memorize them today, did you?" She took the middle picture and looked at it. "If this boy is wearing his mask all the time you should be able to remember it..." She said that last bit more to herself, though she sounded unconvinced of her own words.
"I don't see the point in memorizing some shitty extras." He raised his voice and saw her flinch a little in a surprise at his words and tone. "I don't need them in my life." He stood up with force that made his chair almost fall over. "And I surely don't need these fucking pictures!" He released few sparks from his hand, which he slammed on the table between the two remaining pictures and send them flying with an explosion.
His mother, startled with a curse forming on her lips, stood up quickly from the table and took few hurried steps back.
Both pictures fell to the floor, and the energy of the blast scattered the stock of the rest of the photographs all over the table, half of them joining the first two on the kitchen boards.
He looked at the pictures near his feet, at slightly burnt table from where his hand slammed and back at his mother who had a mix of shock and anger on her face. It was obvious she tried to say something but she was too lost in her thoughts.
Or maybe she didn't want to say something that she would regret later...
Katsuki decided not to wait for her to collect herself and stormed out of the kitchen, he heard her call after him but he ignored her and just ran upstairs to his room and slammed the door behind him. He tried to calm down, but the thought of these useless pictures only made him more furious.
He walked up to his desk and sat down, face in his hands, and tried to recall the look of at least one person from his class.
Come on, just one. He thought desperately. Just one of these unimportant, little shit heads.
…
All that came to his mind was a mess of green hair and red shoes. He opened his eyes enraged.
"FUCK!" He screamed and slammed his head on the desk, a foolish attempt to remove the image from his mind.
He didn't feel like moving from his place.
___
When Katsuki, lost in his thoughts, heard the door to his room open quietly, he raised his head and noticed that it was completely dark outside, the only source of light being the small lamp on his desk.
He totally lost the track of time.
He turned in the chair to look at the person who entered the room; a woman, familiar blonde hairstyle.
Mother.
He took a deep breath, turned his back to her and covered his face between his arms which he lied down on his desk. He hoped that this was enough of a signal to her, that if she wanted to talk to him, he wasn't willing to do so and she'd let go of this stupid idea and just leave him alone.
"You forgot your bag from the kitchen." There goes leaving him alone part. "I brought some food here for you, too." She said, her voice strangely neutral, and put the plate with sandwiches on the desk within his reach. She was standing next to him, awkward silence between them.
Katsuki heard her walk around him and sit down on the edge of the bed.
"Katsuki, I know this is hard for you," she stroked his hair with care and kept her hand in it despite his angry groan, "but you have to let other people into your life. You can't keep everyone at such distance." He felt her put his school bag next to his foot. "You don't have to be ashamed to be in need of help. … And most of all, you should stop being such stubborn little shit." She finished on a lighter note while patting his head a few times, for a good measure. She stood up and moved to the door. Katsuki raised his head and looked at her back. He tried to say something but words died in his throat. His mother opened the door and left as quietly as she entered.
Katsuki stared at the plate his mother brought and couldn't help but feel the knot in his stomach growing once again. That was enough for him to lose all the appetite.
Stupid, old woman, why do you care so much. He thought as he pushed the plate all the way to the edge of the desk and turned away from it with his chair. He kicked something on the floor while doing so. He looked down at his bag and noticed that the zipper was not fully closed. He reached down and opened it, inside were some of his books, notebooks and a pencil case.
But there was also a folder which he was pretty sure he didn't pack himself.
He grabbed the thin folder and put it on his desk. Despite hesitation he opened it fast but as soon as he saw what it was containing he closed it immediately.
Fucking pictures.
Just now he noticed what was written on top of the folder.
‘Class 1-A’
He scrunched his nose and once again opened it, much slower this time.
Some serious guy with the glasses was staring at him from the top of the stock. He took the picture of him and turned it around and, as principal said few days ago, there was guy's name on the back.
‘Iida Tenya’ – didn’t he hear this name somewhere today?
He looked again at the guy's face.
Glasses.
Damned glasses that were almost the same as his father's. One four-eyes in his life was fucking enough.
He put the picture back at the top and reached somewhere to the middle of the pile and pulled out the random image.
Katsuki immediately regretted even opening the folder as he stared blankly at the photograph and gritted his teeth painfully. Soon he was squeezing the picture with so much force, that it started to tear off more and more. He mindlessly let the few sparks go off and watched as small flames ate the picture slowly, as they were not strong enough to burn it all at once.
Weak flame eventually went out, not finishing the job. There was still more than half of the picture left and Katsuki stared at the mess of all too familiar green hair that seemed to be making fun of him.
He put his elbow on the desk and covered his eyes with one hand, while the other was still clutching the remnants of the burnt picture.
"... Fuck...." He muttered helplessly, his voice trembling.
He stayed like that for a while, trying to think about strangers he was about to meet once again the next day.
Notes:
I had these last few scenes when Katsuki gets home written before I even finished chapter one and back then I was so sure that this would be the last scene of chapter two? But here we are, haha!
Thank you guys for reading and leaving comments!
Next updates might come a little slower as I'm starting my summer job and probably won't have as much time to write as before.
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Up next; Angst.
Chapter 5: Through the Fire
Summary:
The whole load of whoopass
Notes:
I love badass Uraraka, ok?
Few changes in the battle trial because I can :vAlso thank you all for the comments and hits and kudos and all that, I hope it was worth it waiting a bit longer for new chapter <3
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Katsuki woke up suddenly with sore neck, still sitting at his desk. He blinked few times to adjust his eyes to dimmed light in his room and he reached for his phone to check the time.
1:27am
… Fucking perfect.
He rubbed one of his eyes tiredly and looked around. The folder with pictures was still lying on his desk, along with the plate with untouched sandwiches his mother made him. Katsuki frowned at them and decided that he can at least put them in a fridge, so they don’t go to waste. Only when he stood up, he realized he was still wearing his school uniform and cursed at himself. He grabbed a plate and with still sleepy, unstable steps left his room.
He started walking down the stairs, but stopped in the middle as he saw a light coming from the kitchen. This couldn’t be his mother, he heard her snoring when he was passing his parents’ bedroom and his father wasn't supposed to come back from business trip until the next day.
… Or today, considering it was almost 2am.
He slowly approached an entrance to the kitchen and first thing he noticed was that the fridge was open and someone was going through its contents. He wanted to take a better look at the person, but his tired mind made him accidentally hit the door-frame with his shoulder. He let out a short hiss but that was enough to make his presence known.
A stranger, with slice of cheese hanging from his mouth, peeked out from the fridge and looked at Katsuki who immediately sobered up and tensed, plate in one hand, the other ready to let out an explosion any time.
“Oh, Katsuki.” Man’s voice was muffled by the cheese that was still in his mouth. Katsuki let out few warning sparks and the man immediately straightened up, hands raised in the air and cheese falling out from his mouth. “It’s me! It’s me, it’s dad!” The man said quickly in half-panicked whisper and while still turned towards Katsuki, reached to the top of the fridge for his glasses and put them on.
Glasses, four-eyes, father.
“Fucking…” Katsuki sighed and let his guard down, hand back at his side.
“Sorry, sorry. My eyes were tired and I didn’t expect you to be awake at this hour.” His father closed the fridge and picked up wasted cheese to throw it out. “Didn’t mean to scare you.” He said with low chuckle and walked up to Katsuki.
“I wasn’t fucking scared.” Katsuki hissed and stomped past him. He put the plate with sandwiches on the counter and started looking for a food wrap. “What the hell are you doing here this early, anyway?”
“I did my job and decided to take an evening train, instead of wasting time in a hotel and waiting for the train in the morning.” He leaned against the counter and looked at the plate Katsuki just put there. “What are those?”
“… That old hag made them, but I wasn’t hungry.” He briefly recalled what she said to him upon bringing him food. Katsuki shook his head and pushed the plate towards his father. “You can eat them, I don’t care.” He was about to leave the kitchen, but was stopped by the hand on his shoulder. Katsuki let out exasperated sigh and glared at the unfazed old man.
“She called me after your little outburst.” He said suddenly and Katsuki’s eyes widened. He frowned and lowered his head.
“… Shit.”
“Shit indeed, my dear son. Papa is not proud of you.” He crossed his arms on his chest with a sly smile and Katsuki couldn’t help but look at him unimpressed and kind of grossed out.
How am I supposed to take this man seriously?
“Don’t call yourself that, it’s fucking stupid.” Katsuki snarked and once again turned around.
“I’ll stop it when you stop cursing so much.” Old man mocked him and Katsuki stopped halfway through and looked at him again.
“I’ll stop it when you stop to forget to put on your damn glasses all the time.” A short pause from his father and then-
“I’ll stop it when you stop with your outbursts.” Triumphant smile appeared on his face, as if this was his ultimate argument and Katsuki rolled his eyes.
“I’ll stop it when people stop being annoying dumbasses.” He stated shortly and mirrored his father’s stance.
“… Alright, we could go on,” Katsuki smirked to himself at the sight of his father raising his hands in defeat. “But, that’s not the point of this conversation.” He reached for one of the sandwiches. “You should befriend someone from your class, maybe that boy who already knows, what was his name-“ He bit into his food and searched his memory for few seconds. He snapped his fingers. “Izuku! The two of you used to be friends, why not go back to good old times?”
Katsuki grit his teeth.
“Can you all stop fucking bringing him up? Damn shithead is not my friend!” He threw his hands up in the air in anger, few sparks going off.
“Keep doing that and you’ll wake up your mother.” Masaru told him, well used to the situation, while still munching on a sandwich. That was all that took for Katsuki to calm down a bit. Dealing with his mother was the last thing he wanted to do, especially at this hour. “Also, you’ll ruin your new school uniform.” He added and finished his food.
Katsuki looked at himself and realized that, yes, he was still wearing the clothes he spent almost whole day in and let out an angry groan. Once again this night, he was about to leave the kitchen to finally change and go to sleep but was stopped by his persisting father’s voice.
“Seriously, Katsuki. Give your classmates a chance, talk to them, get to know them and you’ll see that not all people think the same about you.” He didn’t have to look at him to know he had reassuring smile plastered onto his face.
Katsuki stood in a door-frame for few moments, silently looking down at his hands.
Was it possible that there might be someone who doesn’t think he’s a villain? That he’s dangerous and scary?
He felt a heavy hand on his head.
“Don’t think too much about it, son. Go change and to your bed or you’ll oversleep. We both know how much you hate it.” Few pats landed on his head and then he felt light push on his back that caused him to entirely step out from the kitchen.
He lingered for few seconds but moved upstairs without looking back at his father. When he entered his room to finally change from his uniform, he noticed a half burnt piece of paper on the floor. He didn’t have to pick it up to know that it was actually a picture. He put his foot on it and slid it across the floor until it ended up somewhere under the bed, finally out of his sight.
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When Katsuki entered the class, he was relieved to see that he was the only one to be there more than half an hour before the actual lesson would start. He quickly took his place and considered putting his legs on the desk, but then he remembered this one guy who wouldn’t leave him alone and decided against it, instead just leaning into the chair and looking around the classroom, the thing he didn’t get to do during the first day here.
All in all, the class was quite typical, like in any other school, maybe a bit bigger than usually. Chairs were more comfortable and there’s more space between the desks, but that’s obvious since less students got into the UA than to other schools, and extra space and largeness of the school altogether was just some way of showing off how much better this place is or to compensate for something.
Katsuki snorted to himself when he remembered that the principal is a freaking mouse.
His good mood was interrupted by the door opening and he glanced at the clock above the board.
Twenty eight minutes until the lesson starts, who the fuck is this?
He looked back at the door and saw a man with bored expression.
“… What are you doing here so early?” Man asked with one brow raised, slight annoyance in his voice. Only now Katsuki noticed the signature bandages around his neck.
“… Sensei.” He nodded slightly towards him in a way of greeting. He didn’t add his surname on purpose, just in case he was wrong, but the teacher seemed to notice that slight uncertainty in his voice.
“Maybe we should start wearing badges…” He murmured, more to himself than to Katsuki, as he walked up to the desk in front of the classroom and left there a small box of white chalk.
Katsuki‘s face turned into an angry grimace.
“There’s no fucking need for that.” He said that a bit too loud while crossing arms on his chest. Aizawa looked at him, his expression never changing and sighed.
“Don’t think I didn’t notice the face you made when I called you yesterday.” Instead of reprimanding him for screaming or cursing he said that and Katsuki couldn’t help but think that he would prefer a lecture about not swearing in presence of a teacher.
Katsuki didn’t answer him, but his scowl deepened and he sank deeper into the chair in hope of disappearing from this fucking world or at least from the classroom.
He heard a tired sigh from the man.
“Don’t worry, I still have no intentions of telling anyone.” The teacher was still standing at the front but was looking at him intensively, probably awaiting some kind of answer.
Katsuki still had no intentions of thanking him.
“I’m not worrying about anything.” He snarked instead and looked somewhere to the left, avoiding that strange gaze.
“Whatever pleases you, kid.” He just said and started heading towards the door.
Katsuki was about to yell after him to not call him a kid, but before he had a chance to even inhale the needed air, the door slid open and some tall dude was standing on the other side. Katsuki settled down and watched as the guy greeted their teacher and moved out of his way. He heard Aizawa mutter something about kids coming so damn early to school and then he was gone, leaving him and the random guy alone.
“Ah, it is good to see that I am not the only one who is excited for yet another day of learning!” He practically shouted and Katsuki rolled his eyes. He’d rather die than talk to this guy.
Once again, he looked at the clock.
Nineteen minutes. He read an hour while ignoring the guy who just didn’t want to shut up.
Katsuki hoped that someone else would arrive soon so this shithead would leave him alone and stop talking to him. At least he wasn’t standing anywhere near him, instead taking his place somewhere in the back of the classroom.
As minutes passed, other students were slowly coming in and to avoid making any contact with them, he was pretending to be occupied with his notebook. Lucky for him, the dude was greeting everyone that was coming in so all their attention was focusing on him.
The only useful thing about this guy.
___
First few periods before lunch were just… boring.
Katsuki couldn’t find any better word to describe it. They had English class with pro hero he didn’t recognize but subtly, making sure no one was paying attention to him, wrote down his hero name at the end of his notebook for the subject – Present Mic – when he loudly introduced himself.
Just in case. These are easier to remember anyway.
Then, after some other equally boring lessons, it was time for lunch.
Katsuki quickly left the classroom before anyone else and headed to the cafeteria where he got his food and found unoccupied table somewhere in the back of the big hall that soon was full of other students and possibly few teachers.
He’ll probably start bringing his own food to avoid this stupid crowd.
And then, it was finally time.
All Might himself barged through the door with one of his signature lines of “Here I am!” that the whole class could hear before he even entered the room and everything was recognizable about him.
His costume with a cape, right out of the silver age, his huge, contagious smile, his loud voice, one of the few that didn’t annoy Katsuki, his blond hair with two strands pointing up and eyes that seemed a bit strange but he ignored that thought and just looked at the hero with awe like everyone else.
“Foundational Hero Studies!” He struck one of his typical poses. “Here, we will be building up your hero foundation through various trials! AND you’ll get tons of credit for it!” All Might quickly explained with cheerfulness echoing through him. “So let’s jump right into it-“ He shown them a card with word ‘BATTLE’ on it and said even louder than before “THE TRIAL OF BATTLE!!” and Katsuki smiled to himself when he heard a weak whimper behind him.
All Might, after the introduction, finally gave them access to their costumes that were specifically designed for them, but his words still lingered in Katsuki’s mind.
“And don’t forget! From here on out, you’re all officially HEROES!”
___
Izuku, in his green costume that his mom made for him, caught up to the group that already made its way out of the tunnel leading to grounds beta where they met with All Might, who complimented them on their attire. He stood between Kacchan and a guy in full armor and couldn’t help but wonder who hid behind that heavy looking helmet.
He noticed that Kacchan glanced at him with a frown, which he knew as his neutral face, and Izuku was slightly shocked that he didn’t tell him to go away.
Maybe he’s giving it a rest for now, during the lesson.
“Ah, Deku-kun!” He heard a cheerful voice somewhere behind him and turned around to see Uraraka who was putting on her helmet that slightly reminded him of the one pro hero Thirteen wore. “Cool costume! Looks very practical!”
Before he had a chance to answer, he noticed movement at his side and glanced at Kacchan.
Besides the usual frown, there was almost unnoticeable confusion on his face. Izuku saw his eyes searching for something on his head and then dart towards the ground, and as he looked down as well and his gaze fell on his red shoes, he realized what was happening.
He had almost his whole head covered by the hood, his hair completely hidden under it, so it was obvious that Kacchan wouldn’t recognize him. He looked back up just to meet a pair of angry red eyes and- yes, here was the typical disgust that Kacchan always looked at him with, and he took a step back, out of the line of his old friend’s sight.
___
If Katsuki could, he would strangle Deku right here, right now, but he couldn’t as the lesson continued and All Might explained the rules of their battle training trial.
“For this test, you’ll be separated into ‘villain’ and ‘hero’ groups! For a two-on-two team battle!” Fucking great, as if Katsuki needed any ballast that would only slow him down.
“Can we just blow them away?” Katsuki asked and then heard other students ask their questions as well and it was obvious that All Might was unable to answer all of them at once as he let out a frustrated groan.
“I can’t hear you if you speak all at once!!” He said and it’s all it takes to shut them all up. None of the students wanted to disrespect the number one hero.
All Might reached into his pocket and took out a thin book that looked comically small in his massive hands and started reading all of the needed information about the trial from it.
A cheat sheet. Katsuki bit an inside of his cheek to stop himself from chuckling at that.
Then the teams were assigned and he ended up with some guy in stupid armor.
“And the first two pairs to do combat will be the following! Pair A will be heroes!” He heard Deku gasp behind his mask. “Pair D will be villains!”
Blood boiled in his body.
“Why the fuck are we the villains?” He asked offended with a spite in his voice before he could stop himself, and he almost regretted it as all eyes focused on him.
“Ah, young Bakugou! I heard that you were at the top during the exam, congratulations!” All Might said that instead of answering the question. “Do not fret, young man! It is only an exercise and as you saw, it was a random selection! Next time you and your teammate will be a part of the hero group!” He laughed in his typical way and continued to explain their task.
Katsuki’s frown only deepened.
Why was he the one to be a villain of all people?
___
When he and armored guy were inside the building and next to the fake bomb, he couldn’t help but stare at him, wondering who the fuck he was paired with. The ‘knight’ after examining the bomb turned to him and noticed the way Katsuki was looking at him, but misinterpreted it and started talking about forming the plan.
Katsuki couldn’t take it.
“Who the fuck are you anyway?” He said bluntly and when he heard a gasp from the other one, he rolled his eyes. “You’re wearing this stupid armor, how do you expect anyone to recognize you?” A lie. Katsuki wouldn’t recognize him even without it and even if he wanted to, but the half-assed explanation seemed to work, as the guy reached and took off his helmet, then tucked it under his arm.
“My apologies, Bakugou-kun.” He said without introducing himself, because why would he, he probably already did that at some point.
And he knows my name. Fucking perfect. Katsuki turned his back to him and didn’t say anything else, on the contrary to this asshole who kept talking about how hard it is to think like a villain.
“Hey!” Katsuki interrupted him. “So, this nerd has a quirk?” He couldn’t help but ask, while managing to keep his voice steady and almost calm.
“You saw for yourself, yesterday.” The voice reached him from behind. “It seems pretty high-risk to approach Midoriya-kun, considering his strength but- You’ll just charge at him anyway, won’t you?” His tone indicated that he was slightly annoyed at Katsuki’s obvious plan but he didn’t give a fuck.
“That fucking nerd!” He charged out from the room, not waiting for the signal from All Might.
___
Izuku really tried to study the map of the building but he couldn’t help but shiver at the thought of facing Kacchan in just few minutes.
But maybe he can somehow avoid him. Maybe if he takes off his shoes and tries to sneak around- no no, Kacchan already knows how his costume looks like, he’ll target him anyway. But if Uraraka-san will use her quirk on him then maybe he can float above him, unnoticed, but that would require her to be using it all the time while not being able to release him and that’s bad for her health, also she’d have to be the one to distract Kacchan and he doesn’t want to leave her to his non-existent mercy-
“Deku-kun, calm down!” Voice of his companion distracted him from his muttering and he realized that he was shivering slightly the entire time.
“Oh, no- sorry.” He said sheepishly while trying to calm down. “It’s just… Our opponents are Kacchan and Iida-kun, too… I guess I’m just really tense.” To put it lightly.
“I see.” Uraraka gave him a worried look. “Bakugou-kun keeps taunting you, right?” Her voice was full of compassion.
“I hate his guts, but I can’t help but admire him.” Some kind of melancholy grew inside him when he thought about what he wanted to say. “His ambition, strength, quirk… He’s better than me in a hundred different ways. And, unlike me, has tons of confidence, despite being-“ His eyes widened and he managed to bit his tongue before he finished the sentence.
Kacchan would burn me to death, then revive me and feed me with my own ashes. Then kill me again.
“Despite being..?” Uraraka asked innocently and Izuku looked carefully at her. Her face was showing nothing but pure curiosity, so she didn’t realize anything.
Good.
“Ah, no, nothing!” He said quickly while waving his hands around awkwardly. “Just- Let’s make sure that we win!” With newfound determination, he put his mask on and smiled when Uraraka cheered on them and they both moved towards the building after they heard the signal from All Might.
___
Eijirou wanted to have a good view at what was happening during the trial, so he stood with Ashido almost the closest to the huge screen that was showing different rooms and camera angles of the inside of the building. He saw that serious guy, Iida he thought was his name, standing next to the probably fake bomb, but he wouldn’t be surprised if the UA put there a real one.
He chuckled to himself and shared his thoughts with Ashido who looked at him curiously upon hearing his quiet laugh. She giggled too and agreed with Eijirou. He heard another quiet snort somewhere behind him and when they both turned around, the yellow haired guy who’s sitting in front of him in the class – Kaminari, was his name? – was smiling towards them, also appreciating the joke.
He looked back at the screens and noticed Midoriya and Uraraka entering the building through one of the windows. He saw them talking to each other, but didn’t hear anything.
“Sensei, wouldn’t it be better if we heard them?” He asked and the strange feeling of absurdity from calling All Might their teacher didn’t want to leave his mind.
Get a hold of yourself, he is your teacher, after all.
“Don’t worry, young Kirishima!” Eijirou was barely able to stop himself from screeching happily, because holy shit, All Might already memorized their names, this day couldn’t get any better. “You just need to watch, on the other hand, I can hear everything thanks to the speakers they were given along with capture tapes and maps!” The hero flashed a smile towards him and Eijirou decided that yes, this day actually just got better.
When he looked back at the screen, he realized that he hasn’t seen any signs of that Bakugou guy, and after yesterday’s performance during Aizawa’s test, he honestly didn’t know what to expect from him, but soon found answers to all his questions when he suddenly appeared from behind a corner and attacked the hero team, obviously aiming to hit Midoriya’s head.
“A sudden ambush?!” Screamed short guy with something that looked like grapes on his head. Eijirou had a displeasure of listening in on what he had to say about girls while they were all changing in the locker room into their costumes, but right now couldn’t help but unwillingly agree with him that this was a dirty trick.
“That Bakugou’s a cheater! An ambush is so unmanly!” He voiced his opinion.
“Ambushes are good strategy!” All Might was quick to correct his students. “They are in the heat of a battle, after all!”
“Midori actually ducked away pretty well!” Ashido’s excited remark made him feel a bit better about the whole situation, but he still couldn’t help but observe Bakugou intensively with crossed arms over his chest.
___
Of course Kacchan would aim for my head. Izuku thought to himself after just barely dodging a sudden attack.
“Are you okay, Uraraka-san?” He asked with concern while not daring to look away from Kacchan.
“Yeah, thanks…” Her raspy voice concerned him a bit, but he couldn’t let himself to worry about that right now.
“Come on, Deku!” Kacchan yelled while shoving away the smoke he produced after hitting a wall with his quirk. “Don’t fucking dodge me, I can see you anyway!” Izuku recognized the double meaning behind his words and realized he had to act quickly, it was obvious that his angry ‘friend’ would be attacking only him and not Uraraka. “I’ll keep the damage down so they don’t interrupt us but don’t think I won’t try to blow you away!” He started running towards them and Izuku rushed forward as well.
He barely dodged his right hand but quickly managed to grab it and threw Kacchan down onto the floor, a surprised yelp escaping his opponent’s mouth and a cheer from Uraraka reached his ears somewhere from behind them. He took few steps back, to get away from slowly rising Kacchan.
“You always lead with a big right swing!” Izuku screamed to Kacchan’s back in a way of explaining.
He’s been watching him, even if Kacchan would often tell him to fuck off, he was still silently observing and gathering information, like he did with everyone noteworthy.
“I can’t count how many times I’ve seen you do it!” Maybe he should’ve counted, that would be something. But it’s not what’s important right now.
Izuku straightened his posture and clenched his fists, getting ready for an attack that might have come any second now.
“I’m no longer Deku who can’t do anything!” His voice cracked a little and Kacchan glared at him. “I AM DEKU WHO’S NEVER GIVING UP!” He heard Uraraka’s happy gasp at his words but didn’t dare to look away from Kacchan. Despite his declaration, he still didn’t have a plan as to how to win this trial and he just had to win this time.
“You say that…” Kacchan growled and few smaller explosions went off from his palms and Izuku flinched against his will, despite trying his best to not do that. “You dare to say that while you’re still shaking and are fucking scared!? Just like everyone else!?” Izuku just now noticed that he was still slightly trembling and it took everything from him to take a deep breath and stop. But Kacchan’s words helped him realize something, both about himself and his old friend.
He wanted to stop being afraid and Kacchan didn’t want to come off as scary, even if his temperament and fiery character wouldn’t allow him to act differently.
Once again, he breathed in as calmly as he could and looked Kacchan straight in the eyes, a gesture that probably surprised both of them.
“I’m not scared of you!” Izuku yelled with a firm, confident voice that surprised even him. He glanced at Uraraka, who was still awaiting for his instructions, her face full of shock, but small smile was forming on her lips.
Then he looked back at Kacchan and a wave of shock drowned him.
Kacchan’s eyes were widened, eyebrows no longer knitted in an angry, eternal frown, mouth hanging slightly open. His hands slowly relaxed and fell to his sides and his whole posture was suddenly free of any tension.
Izuku and Katsuki involuntarily spent most of their lives together, but throughout the years of knowing him, Izuku could count on his single hand the times when Kacchan was showing any other emotion on his face than anger, disgust or annoyance, all of these practically always directed at Izuku.
But now… He couldn’t quite figure out what the other’s face was supposed to be showing, as he was not at all used to this kind of emotion on Kacchan, but if he had to guess-
It was pure relief.
But as he was about to say something, he saw movement behind Kacchan and was too slow to react.
___
Katsuki couldn’t stop staring at Deku.
He analyzed the tone of his voice, his posture, everything.
And everything pointed towards one result; Deku was being honest.
His words ‘I’m not scared of you!’ wouldn’t stop echoing in his mind.
He’s not afraid of me… How is he not afraid, everyone is- how-
When Katsuki tried to say something, he saw Deku suddenly widen his eyes and then he felt a light tap on his left shoulder.
“Uraraka-san, wait-“ Katsuki heard him say quickly, but before he could turn around, he felt that he lost the ground underneath his feet. His eyes darted towards the floor and he realized he was floating already few meters above it.
All of the rage he felt before came back immediately with doubled force.
“DEKU, YOU FUCKER, YOU THINK YOU CAN TRICK ME?!” He tried to hold onto something, anything that would keep him in place.
“Shit, shit, shit, shit-“ He heard Deku’s panicked muttering. “Uraraka-san, let’s go!” He grabbed her by the elbow and sprinted towards the stairs that he knew were nearby.
“DON’T IGNORE ME YOU PIECE OF SHIT, I’M GONNA SKIN YOU ALIVE- COME BACK HERE, COWARD.” He considered firing to at least start moving forward, after these shits, but he didn’t want to risk it. As far as he could easily manipulate through air with his blasts, never before had he do this while floating uncontrollably.
Who the fuck was this girl?
“Bakugou-kun, what’s going on!?” He heard a voice from a speaker, probably of his teammate, in his ear and spat angrily.
“Shut the fuck up, I’m not in the fucking mood right now!” Katsuki disconnected him before he could answer anything.
And then one of his gauntlets lightened up and made a sound.
Katsuki smirked to himself.
“You wanna play dirty?” With some effort, he grabbed onto the corner of the nearest wall and flew over so he had it behind his back. He looked behind, making sure that there were at least two other walls behind him. Katsuki was currently hitting his head against the ceiling so he strategically, slowly, turned himself upside down so he could use his legs to stabilize himself and stay in one place.
Katsuki aimed, first towards the stairs but he quickly realized they both were probably far away from them already. He recalled the map All Might gave them at the beginning of the trial. He was currently on the fourth floor, all of them looked practically the same. Fake bomb was on the fifth floor, somewhere nearby and in all honesty, really easy to find, they were probably close to it, if not already in the same room, and if stairs were on his left then-
He aimed his arm straight ahead of him, right where he believed was the room with the bomb and then moved his hand slightly to the left, where they would probably come from and to not destroy the bomb.
“I’ll play dirty.”
“Young Bakugou, if you’re about to do what I think you’re about to do, I must ask you to stop!” He heard All Might’s stern voice through the speaker in his ear and he scowled.
“It’s not a direct hit, they’ll be fine!” He yelled at the hero and focused on aiming.
“You might hurt your teammate!”
“Who gives a shit about the knight guy-“
“Bakugou-kun,” speak of the devil. “I can hear distant footsteps, I believe our opponents are heading towards me, where are you right now?”
“Oh, you’re about to find out.” He smirked to himself and ignored All Might’s objections.
He fired.
The powerful blast forced him through the thin wall, the second one barely managed to stop him and after split second he found himself on the ground, the effects of the girl’s quirk disappearing. He stood up, as quickly as his sore body allowed him to, and brushed off some of the dust from his costume. He left the room and his eyes widened when he saw the damage he was able to do with this single blast.
Katsuki ran towards the stairs and tried his best to ignore a strange knot in his stomach.
___
Eijirou stared at the aftermath of Bakugou’s powerful attack with mouth opened wide while people around him were saying things like ‘this is terrifying’ and ‘he’s scary with that quirk’. He heard someone ask if he is really in the right place. Eijirou looked at the screens to assess the damage Bakugou did.
The wall he stabilized himself against had a huge hole in it, but it was nothing compared to what he did with the ceiling. The blast went right through it, destroyed the wall of the room with a freaking bomb in it and barely missed Midoriya and Uraraka that were hiding near the entrance, discussing a plan.
“Holy shit, that dude is crazy.” He caught himself say before he could think about his words.
“Young Midoriya, can you hear me?!” All Might’s voice caught him off guard. Right, this was supposed to be a lesson, after all. “Young Uraraka?!”
On the screen, he saw both of them get out from underneath some rubble, Midoriya helped Uraraka stand up and judging by a little nod from her, he also asked her if she was all right. He heard All Might sigh in relief, both of them probably confirmed that they were okay.
“Sensei, shouldn’t you stop this?” Eijirou didn’t want to disrespect the hero, but he still was concerned about what was happening there. All Might didn’t answer him, instead started reprimanding Bakugou about his reckless actions and told him that if he did something like this again, his team would lose.
Eijirou looked at the time and frowned a bit.
Five minutes left.
Everything else happened so quickly after that, he was barely able to keep up. Uraraka ran off somewhere, probably did that because Midoriya told her to, but didn’t enter the room with bomb and then Bakugou came running from the stairs and stopped right in front of his opponent. They were screaming at each other and once again, Kirishima wished they had access to the audio.
Then suddenly, Bakugou charged forward and fired from his palm, right at Midoriya’s face but he redirected the worst of it with his quirk, that he finally used after all this time, towards the ceiling and he caught the glimpse of all the windows breaking from the blast joined with amazing strength from Midoriya on the camera view that was showing the outside of the building.
Bakugou stood there, shocked, Midoriya told him something while holding onto his now reddish and probably completely broken arm and then Uraraka darted from the right corridor behind Bakugou, slid clumsily on the floor and in unexpectedly smooth way, wrapped his leg with a white tape, that Midoriya probably gave her earlier, and stood up hurriedly. By doing so she made Bakugou, who didn’t even realize she was there in the first place, fall to the ground. Before he could react, she once again tapped his shoulder and while he float up, she wrapped him all around with the tape.
He looked like an angry balloon, floating under the mostly destroyed ceiling, probably cursing at her loudly.
Eijirou would laugh if he wasn’t in awe after witnessing Uraraka’s unexpected manliness.
In the meantime, Iida ran up to them and, instead of still playing the role of a villain, he looked with concern at Midoriya’s broken arm who used this as an opportunity and raised his good hand just to put a tiny piece of white tape, that at some point he kept for himself, on Iida’s chest plate.
Eijirou was pretty sure that he could hear armored guy’s scream of defeat all the way from there.
And then, Midoriya passed out.
“HERO TEAM WINS!” Loudly resounding voice of All Might announced but no one was cheering. No one knew how to react to the events that they just witnessed.
Notes:
As I said, I love badass Uraraka.
Next chapter will be up in around 2 weeks, maybe earlier maybe later, my schedule at work is kinda strange so I don't have that much time D:<
As always, here's my tumblr if anyone cares lmao
Up next; Liar liar, pants on fire
EDIT: When I was re-watching this episode, at some point Deku actually tells Kacchan that he's not afraid of him, but does so in a different context. Where I was going with it? Idk but here we are (jk, I just trust you guys that you know what I mesn here)
Chapter 6: Fallout
Summary:
I ain’t calling you a liar.
Notes:
Sorry for the long wait, it's because of my work and I always want to be at least two chapters ahead before I post a new one (and right now I'm writing the USJ arc of which I'm not the biggest fan of :v )
Also, Kiri is apparently more observant than one might think, but not t h a t observant lmao
Thank you for the kudos and comments guys, you have no idea how much they mean to me <3
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Ochako released Bakugou from her quirk, making him land heavily on the ground and causing him to let out even more curses that were directed towards her and Deku. She ignored him and instead of helping him unwrap from the white tape, she ran up to Iida who was holding unconscious Deku.
“Uraraka-kun, that was very clever of you and Midoriya-kun to use the tape like that. Despite my team’s failure, I am very impressed with what both of you did.” Iida said, his voice was almost comically serious and Ochako couldn’t help but let out a soft chuckle, which he didn’t even notice.
“It was all Deku-kun’s plan, in all honesty.” She said while rubbing the back of her head awkwardly. “All I did was causing Bakugou-kun to use that terrifying attack.” Her voice turned into a whisper, so only Iida could hear. She had no intentions of taking the risk of the furious teen hearing her.
“What do you mean?” Iida asked, seemingly confused. “What happened?” He tilted his head and frowned a bit.
Before she had a chance to respond, a loud ‘I AM HERE’ distracted both of them and they turned around to see All Might come up the stairs, accompanied by two small robots carrying stretchers, probably for their still unconscious classmate.
The two small robots approached them with a mechanical chant of ‘to the nurse’ repeated over and over again. Iida slowly and carefully, with Ochako’s help, laid Deku down on the stretchers and the robots drove away, chant still coming from their speakers.
In the meantime, All Might leaned a little above Bakugou and asked still struggling teen if he needed help, but he of course refused, with surprisingly calm voice that still somehow managed to have lots of spite in it, and the hero just shrugged, his smile never leaving his face, then he finally walked up to them.
“Great job with that ambush, young Uraraka!” He clasped his hand against her back and she stumbled a little forward but smiled as well, proud of herself and happy about the approval from the hero. “Young Iida, I saw that you had a great plan in case young Uraraka was to come to the room with the bomb. Quite unfortunate that you didn’t get to face her!” He said just as cheerfully as when he praised her. She heard a quiet sniffle from her friend.
“Thank you, sir!” He said with a lot of gratefulness and bowed few times, almost violently if someone were to ask her. Ochako chuckled to herself when she thought what would happen if Iida was still holding Deku.
“All right then!” All Might laughed and turned around. “Join me and the rest of the class in the monitoring room, so we can discuss what happened there!” He left them to themselves.
“So…” Ochako started only to be interrupted by Iida’s voice.
“Forgive me, but I left my helmet in a room with the bomb, I must return for it.” And just like that, she was on her own.
… Almost.
Ochako looked back at Bakugou, who almost managed to unwrap himself from all the tape, no longer cursing at everyone and everything around him and actually looking like he was deep in his thoughts, with focused, yet still angry scowl.
She didn’t see his face when Deku screamed that he wasn’t scared of him, she could only speculate that he was angry or even shocked, but her decision to make him float was something she didn’t really expect herself to do.
And while Ochako couldn’t have been happier to receive praise from All Might, she felt as if she ruined the moment in that quick decision to do something on her own.
___
Katsuki unwrapped himself from all the tape and left the building without even looking at the two classmates that were short distance behind him. If he could, he would just straight up leave the rest of the lessons but he had to attend them. Whether he liked it or not.
“Why the fuck won’t you use it, huh?! Still looking down on me, lying bastard?!”
“That’s not it!”
“Always looking down on me while being scared shitless, you fucking coward!”
“I didn’t lie when I said that I’m not scared of you!”
Katsuki frowned at the memory of their little chat right after he blew up half of the fucking floor. Frustrated, he bit his tongue in an attempt to not lose control over his mind and breathing.
He held his breath for few seconds while still moving forward.
Don’t show any weakness, don’t give them any reason to pity you.
The worst of it all was that the words Deku spoke, after he finally used his fucking quirk and before passing out, were twisting in his guts like a drill.
“I didn’t want to use it, because my body isn’t able to take a strain from this quirk… But facing you… I couldn’t think of anything else… And I didn’t lie before!…”
How this bastard defeated him just like that? Katsuki was trying so hard to show everyone how amazing his quirk was, but as always, he just had to choose the worst possible way to do so, with too much power and too much of aggressiveness.
At this point everyone is probably convinced that he’s crazy.
He finally released the air from his lungs and took few deeper breaths.
Don’t lose your shit. Not right now.
When he entered the monitoring room, all eyes immediately focused on him and he had to use all of his willpower to stop himself from firing any explosions. Instead, he looked around the crowd of his classmates and tried his best to glare at all of them at once. Some turned away, few were whispering between each other. He noticed some that were blatantly staring at him.
A guy with half of his body frozen.
A girl with a ponytail.
Then another guy with a bare chest.
There were few others, but Katsuki frowned again, as all of their faces were slightly distorted and he couldn’t focus on a single one. He blinked few times in hope that it would fix this shit, but as always, it didn’t work. He focused on searching the only person he knew among this crowd, which luckily wasn’t that hard, as All Might was the tallest individual in the room.
When Katsuki located him, he heard a quiet chatter behind his back and he turned around to see the armored guy and Deku’s sidekick enter the room. Upon noticing him, the girl stopped and quickly looked down startled, as to avoid his gaze.
Katsuki swallowed a lump in his throat.
Another one.
He turned back to face forward and lowered his head to keep his eyes on the floor, as he couldn’t stand looking at any faces right now.
“Young gentlemen and ladies!” All Might’s loud voice travelled throughout the whole room when the other two stood next to him. “Our first trial, as great as it was, wasn’t entirely perfect! Does anyone want to share their thoughts?” He encouraged other students to speak their mind.
“Yes, All might-sensei.” Mature voice of some girl reached Katsuki’s ears and he glanced at the source of it. He saw the ponytail girl with her hand raised up, but he couldn’t find the strength inside of him to look around the crowd to make sure she was the only one with this hairstyle.
Once again, he locked his gaze on the floor.
“Iida-san, despite thoughtfully adapting his surroundings to his enemy’s quirk, at the end, forgot about his task and rushed right into the center of the battle and got captured by trying to help his opponent. It could have been easily avoided if he had a chance of communicating better with his teammate, Bakugou-san,” Katsuki tensed and bit his lip at the mention of his name ”who was obviously driven by some personal grudge. Furthermore, just like you told him earlier, sensei, such large-range attack in an indoor area is just idiotic.” She paused for a second and Katsuki hoped that she was done.
But of course she wasn’t.
“The bomb was supposed to be treated like a real one, and his reckless attack that caused the destruction of part of the room with it, in a real battle, would have caused it to go off, and I am most certain there would be no survivors.”
Katsuki scowled at her words and grit his teeth with such force that his jaw started hurting.
She was right. He knew she was right, but her words still stung him like little needles and all he wanted was for her to just shut up.
“The same goes for Midoriya-san who’s plan, although well thought and he himself was great with his cooperation with Uraraka-san, was still underdeveloped and caused him to injure himself severely. And then there is of course Uraraka-san who, despite using the situation to her advantage, made an impulsive decision that caused panic within her own team.” She coughed a little. “But I guess she redeemed herself at the end by capturing Bakugou-san.” The ponytail girl was finally done and silence stretched throughout the room.
Katsuki still didn’t dare to look up.
“W-well!” All Might’s voice was surprisingly sheepish. “Great answer, young Yaoyorozu!”
… Even if Katsuki could remember the ponytail, he was most certain he wouldn’t be able to repeat that name.
After that, All Might announced the next two teams that were to go through the trial and four students left the room to prepare themselves.
Katsuki stood still in his place in the back of the monitoring room and after taking few deeper breaths to try and keep himself moderately calm, peered at the screens to see how those two other teams were doing.
He just wanted to know if anyone else will fuck up as badly as he did, but what he saw caused him to believe that all the color drained from his face and he thanked himself for staying far in the back of the room.
The half-frozen guy from earlier covered the entire building in ice, before that, he made sure that his teammate was safe outside and then calmly walked into the room where his opponents- or rather one opponent was, some guy with a tail, he noticed slightly surprised. Katsuki assumed that his teammate was somewhere else in the building, but that wasn’t most important thing right now.
Right now, Katsuki couldn’t get his eyes off the frozen-guy. With how much confidence he used his quirk and yet with so much carefulness and awareness of his surroundings, even going as far as telling his opponent not to move, as All Might pointed out, and Katsuki was once again cruelly reminded of his own flaws.
There were people with powerful quirks.
Like him.
But those people knew how to use their quirks safely.
Unlike him.
There were people so much better than him, who didn’t make others flinch or stare with fear at them because of their quirks.
Katsuki didn’t pay attention to any other trials.
___
“Good work, everyone!” All Might spoke as they all gathered near the exit tunnel from the area. “For your first full training exercise, you all did wonderfully! Apart from young Midoriya, there were no big injuries!” Katsuki had a feeling that the hero didn’t say anything more about those injuries on purpose.
Apart from that, while Katsuki kept his gaze lowered, he couldn’t shake off the feeling that someone was observing him, but had to do so with caution, as whenever he’d quickly look around, no one was looking back at him, but he just knew. Because so many people always stared at him, that at this point he could easily tell that he was being watched.
If it was All Might, likely not as he was keep summarizing their lesson, but if so, could he really blame him? He was just doing his job, observing the bad guy.
And if it was another student? Then, as much as he hated it, Katsuki was more than used to it.
After that, they all went back to the locker rooms to change and go back for the last periods. While changing, Katsuki mute out all the conversations, lost in his thoughts and it took him few minutes to realize he was the only one left in the room.
There goes his ‘arriving in class before anyone else.’
In moments like this, he regretted that his quirk wasn’t teleportation or some other, less dangerous shit.
But he wouldn’t even be here if it wasn’t for his quirk.
Katsuki fought off the urge to punch his locker and instead run his hands through his hair in frustrated manner. He felt his fingers brush against a scar that was on the lower back of his head, the one from the accident, the one he made himself and didn’t even remember it. The hair growing out from the ticker skin was stiff and so much rougher than on the rest of his head.
He took few deeper breaths.
It’s not dangerous. Don’t think like that, you weak fucker! He harshly scolded himself and left the locker room.
When he entered the classroom, some people looked at him, but otherwise didn’t pay much attention to what he was doing and he quickly sat down at his desk, maybe with too much force.
There were few conversations going on, mainly about All Might and the trials. Some were talking about Deku and Katsuki furrowed his eyebrows at the mention of their fight, even if no one said anything about him, Katsuki knew they would have if he wasn’t present in the classroom.
Unintentionally, his thoughts suddenly wandered to the only trial he watched.
The frozen guy.
He kind of stood out, so maybe he could look for him…
Katsuki took a deep breath and with a frown, subtly glanced at all the people presented in the classroom and only now noticed that the girls haven’t arrived yet.
They are probably taking too long in the locker room, maybe it’ll make it easier for him.
Katsuki looked around and for the first time actually took a look at his classmates, even if he did so only vaguely, to find that one covered in ice.
His gaze quickly jumped from one guy to another.
Blond guy, tall guy, black hair, another blond hair, another tall guy, or was it the same one?
Red hair, tall with bluish hair, another blond hair? Or did he look there already?
White-red hair, white hai- six arms? Fucking bird?!
With widened eyes, he turned back to face the front of the class.
How the fuck did I not realize there was a fucking bird in here?
… But of course he didn’t see any ice.
For fucking- what is he doing? Of course, if this was emitter type of quirk then it’s fucking obvious this guy wouldn’t have frozen body all the time, you imbecile. Why are you even trying to find him? Katsuki scolded himself and stopped looking around for anyone else.
Don’t try. There’s no use for it.
Few minutes passed and the girls entered the classroom, happy chatter between them all and for a split second, Katsuki even considered looking for that ponytail girl, but then remembered her harsh, yet truthful words. He pinched the bridge of his nose.
Just… stop.
For the rest of the day not only had he trouble focusing on the lessons, but he also couldn’t shake off the feeling that someone was keep staring at him all the fucking time.
___
Eijirou, ever since the end of the first trial, couldn’t help but stare at this Bakugou guy. He knew it was rude but there was something in the way he acted and carried himself that made Eijirou’s eyes follow him from time to time, to the point that at few moments he was almost caught staring by the always angry teen, like when All Might was summarizing their lesson.
Or maybe this was just his neutral face, that everlasting frown of his, it was hard to tell.
Eijirou, while talking with Kaminari, saw Bakugou look around the classroom, rather hurriedly.
Maybe he’s looking for Midoriya? Went through his mind, but what he saw next made him snort out loud, slightly startling Kaminari with the gesture.
“Dude, I haven’t finished yet, what are you laughing at?” He furrowed his eyebrows slightly and a pout formed on his lips. Right, he was in the middle of telling him about something that happened in his middle school.
“Sorry, sorry!” Eijirou smiled apologetically. “Your story just reminded me of something funny, come on, continue.” That wasn’t entirely true, but he had no intentions of telling him that Bakugou just had the same reaction to seeing the bird guy as he had the previous day.
After that, the girls finally came back and few minutes later, the teacher entered the classroom and they all took their seats.
The lesson was once again, one of the normal subjects – math, with Ectoplasm, kind of ominously looking hero, who he didn’t hear about before, but he’s pretty sure that he’d get used to him in no time. He hated this subject wholeheartedly, but lucky for him, they were repeating some basic stuff from middle school so he could look around a little.
Almost everyone was mindfully taking notes while glancing at the board from time to time. He noticed Kaminari scratching his head with a pen and the short girl with purplish hair scooting a bit to the right to see the board better, as the guy with six arms was blocking her view.
That’s when he noticed Bakugou. His eyes were glued to his notebook and the pen was moving ever so slightly, clearly not writing anything.
Eijirou couldn’t help but wonder if he was angry about his trial or maybe worried about Midoriya. Or maybe both of these things? In all honesty, he could only speculate.
“Kirishima, are you taking notes?” He heard a voice at his right and he quickly looked there to see the tall teacher towering above him. He glanced to the front of the class where the same teacher was writing something on the board.
So that’s his quirk.
“Y-yes! Sorry! Of course!” He said with obvious panic in his voice as few people around him laughed and he himself smiled sheepishly. The clone of their teacher went to stand at the end of the class, probably to keep observing students, and Eijirou decided that it wasn’t a good time to ponder about the classmate he didn’t really know.
___
The end of their school day came, but no one was really willing to pack their stuff just yet, both keep talking about today's events and some worried about Midoriya, who was absent, yet his backpack was still laying at his desk.
… Everyone except Bakugou, apparently.
“Come on, man!” Kaminari nudged him in the shoulder while standing between him and his only way out. “It’s only fair for him!”
“Don’t fucking touch me.” Bakugou snarked at him. “I don’t give a shit about what’s fair for him, I’m going home.” He was ready to shove Kaminari away when frog-like girl (Asui, he thinks was her name), who was the only person brave enough to intervene, cut in.
“Bakugou-chan,” he rolled his eyes in disgust and Eijirou barely stiffened a laugh, as he remembered that Asui have told all of them to call her Tsuyu-chan. “In all honesty and no offence to you, but you were part of the reason why Midoriya-chan hurt himself in the first place.” She explained bluntly with sure voice and with her index finger touching her chin.
“Well, offence taken.” He glared at her and started moving again. “I don’t fucking care, the nerd hurt himself with his stupid quirk, it’s his own fault.” Bakugou said and left the classroom for good.
He heard a quiet sigh from Uraraka and some comments following the lines of ‘can you believe this dude?’ from Sero and few other people. Some just looked worried while others like they didn’t really care.
And then, Eijirou decided to do something really stupid.
“I’ll stop him!” He said, only a bit too loudly, with too much excitement and, to everyone’s surprise, rushed after Bakugou.
He caught him halfway through, while he was going down the stairs.
“Wait, bro!” He yelled after him and breathed in heavily after a short sprint. Lucky for him, Bakugou actually stopped.
“… The fuck do you want, extra?” He asked, clearly annoyed but with slight suspicion in his voice.
… Yes, what did Eijirou want? He just rushed in without any plan, only with intentions of trying to make him go back to the class.
“I, uh…” He rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly, not really knowing what to say. Bakugou’s eyes narrowed at him, like he tried to make sense of something and it hit Eijirou. “Right! We- we weren’t introduced properly! To each other!” He laughed awkwardly while pointing between the two of them and noticed that the other’s posture just slightly relaxed. “I mean, I know your name, like, All Might said it today few times and then the others in class and-“
“Get to the fucking point, I don’t want to be late for the damn train.” Bakugou cut in before Eijirou would start babbling uncontrollably.
“Yes! Sorry! I’m Kirishima! Kirishima Eijirou!” He said quickly and bumped his fists together in front of his chest, a gesture he hoped would be signature for him one day, when he’ll finally become a pro hero.
“And? You’re gonna waste my damn time just to introduce yourself?” Bakugou looked unimpressed and even angrier at Eijirou for apparently wasting his time.
Eijirou quickly thought of an excuse as to why he came after him.
“Actually!” He took few steps down the stairs and Bakugou moved away slightly. Eijirou took it as a sign to not come any closer, so he stopped. “I kinda noticed you zoning out during our lessons?” His eyebrows shot up in surprise for split second just to turn into a furious frown. Eijirou decided to ignore it for now. “And I thought that maybe you need notes? Like, I know it’s just the beginning of the year, but everything is important and-“
“What, you think I can’t take care of my fucking studies?!” Bakugou raised his voice and took a step up, towards him and Eijirou gulped.
“N-no?! That’s not- I didn’t mean to-“ He didn’t really know how to react to that.
“Maybe you should care more about your own fucking notes, huh?”
Is he referring to their math lesson?
“Yeah, I know, but today it was easy so-“
“Oh, it was ‘easy’, huh? I fucking know how it’s gonna end. Don’t you dare come to me for help when you won’t be able to understand anything, shitty hair.” He turned away and stormed down the stairs, leaving dumbstruck Eijirou on his own.
“… Jeez…” Resigned, he went back to the classroom and the moment he stepped in, he was surrounded by his curious classmates.
“Did he try to kill you?” Sero asked, obviously only half joking.
“Pfff- no?” Eijirou laughed at his question but the tone of his voice didn’t convince anyone. “Okay, maybe he was this close to doing so.” He said and in a comedic manner, almost let his thumb and index finger touch, leaving barely a millimetre between them, a gesture that got a laugh out of the few people.
After all laughter died out, he heard the door slide open and Midoriya with his hand in a cast stepped inside.
“Oh! Midoriya’s back!” Eijirou couldn’t stop himself from announcing and ran up to his surprised classmate, the other few people following right after him. “Great job out there, bro!”
“Ah, Kirishima-kun…” Midoriya gave a little smile. “I really wouldn’t call it that great.” He said while looking a bit to the side.
“Are you kidding?! You dodged Bakugou’s attack like a champ!” Ashido jumped in and smacked Midoriya’s left shoulder few times, who looked thankful for the fact that she didn’t choose his broken arm to do so.
“He was at the top during the entrance exam, but you still managed to defeat him!” He heard Sero’s excited voice behind him.
“Yea, we couldn’t hear what the two of you were talking about, but that was some heated stand-off, man!” Midoriya’s eyebrows raised slightly at Kirishima’s words.
“You didn’t?” He asked, clearly shocked.
“Yeah, I mean- The audio was available only for All Might, all we saw was that the two of you argued about something, I guess?“ He said while trying to recall their fight. Eijirou looked at Midoriya and his wounds and was surprised to discover that he seemed almost relieved.
“Ah, Deku-kun, your arm!” Uraraka, who just came back to the classroom with a stock of books in her arms, ran up to both of them. “Oh no, your wounds weren’t healed?” She looked at his arm, clearly worried.
“Oh, yes… Recovery Girl said that I’m too worn out after the fight to get it healed immediately.” He shrugged a little, as if having broken arm in few places wasn’t that big of a deal and then he looked around the class. “By the way… Do you know where Kacchan is?”
Silence fell around them.
“Oh, we tried to stop him but he just left…” Uraraka was the only one willing to answer.
Right, she was the only one to actually witness at least half of their argument, as she was Midoriya’s teammate.
“… Sorry guys, I have to catch him!” Midoriya said suddenly and off he was, just like that.
“Man, he just got back from the nurse.” Kaminari didn’t hesitate to comment.
“Yeah, seems like he really wants to go back there, going off to face Bakugou again.” Sero added and they both snorted loudly.
“Guys, come on… Don’t be rude!” Ashido nudged Sero with her elbow but couldn’t stop herself from snickering as well. Eijirou sighed, barely stopping himself from laughing too.
But aside all the joking, he couldn’t help but wonder about their fight, especially after seeing how Bakugou acted throughout the whole day.
He’ll have to ask Midoriya about it.
___
“Kacchan!” Izuku screamed after his old friend who was halfway through to the school gate. Kacchan stopped at the sound of the hated nickname and Izuku did the same, just few meters behind. Izuku still gulped when he saw Kacchan’s glare when he peered at him over his shoulder.
Izuku slouched a bit. It’s not like he could tell him about All Might and his borrowed quirk, so why did he even go after him? He glanced quickly at Kacchan, despite his usual frown, it was pretty obvious that he was giving him a chance to speak.
“My quirk- it was... dormant!” He blurted in panic, as that was the first thing that came to his mind.
“… huh?!” Kacchan turned all the way to face him properly and clearly expected answers.
It was too late to back out from this lie now, wasn’t it? Izuku took a deep breath.
“It- it awakened during the entrance exam! I didn’t have a single point and I was panicking and then there was this huge zero-pointer and Uraraka-san couldn’t move out of its way and- my body just… moved on its own…” He looked him straight in the eyes. “That’s when I used it for the first time!” It wasn’t technically a lie, since he actually did use it for the first time during the exam. “It was so powerful that three of my limbs broke and I couldn’t move…” He finished a bit quieter.
Kacchan was silent and Izuku couldn’t read his face. He decided to push it a bit further.
“So our quirks- they are kinda similar, aren’t they? Destructive, kind of dangerous for our own bodies and stuff…” He let out a weak laugh and patted his right arm that was secured in a cast.
Izuku jumped, surprised, when he saw Kacchan wobble a bit, his head lowered.
“What the fuck.” His voice was like a snarl. “So you got fucking lucky and got a quirk, you bastard? And the irony, it’s just as fucked up as mine, huh? You fucking hypocrite?! Telling me my quirk is ‘scary’ while having one on your own, that is just as out of control as mine, you piece of shit?!” Kacchan raised his tense hands a bit and Izuku braced himself for an attack that never came.
“You haven’t seen this icy asshole all collected and shit! And what that fucking ponytail girl said-“ He put one of his hands onto his face. “Fuck!”
Izuku was ready to sprint towards him in a moment, as he was sure that he was going to blow up his own face, but when nothing like that happened he loosened up a bit and noticed that Kacchan was trembling.
Or maybe it’s just his imagination?
And then, they finally locked their eyes together and his own eyes widened in shock when he saw tears in Kacchan’s.
“I’ll prove to you and every single fucker out there that my quirk is great! Just you wait, bastard!”
Kacchan was still shaking but Izuku had no intentions on pointing it out, instead he nodded with determined expression and watched as his old friend turned around and started walking away.
“Don’t think you’ll ever be able to beat me with that shitty quirk of yours ever again!” Kacchan screamed while still moving forward.
“Yep, there he is…” Izuku whispered to himself with worried frown and an awkward smile. He was about to go back to school but suddenly, All Might sprinted past him.
“YOUNG BAKUGOU!” He put a hand on Kacchan’s shoulder, making him stop. “Don’t you worry! Without a doubt, you’ve got what it takes to be a pro! From here on out, you just have to-“
“Get off me, All Might.” Izuku caught Kacchan peer at the hero before he said his name. “I can’t walk.” He said with spite and All Might let go of his shoulder. “I’ll become a hero who will surpass you, even with my quirk!” He finished and started moving away, leaving dumbstruck All Might behind. “And change your fucking hair!” He quickened his pace and disappeared behind the gate.
“My hair..?” All Might tilted his head, clearly confused as he brought his hand up to touch his hair.
“Ah, he meant mine!” Izuku stepped in before the hero would jump to the wrong conclusions. “He just- really hates it…” He didn’t know if All Might was informed about Kacchan’s condition, but if he wasn’t, then he hoped that this would be enough of an explanation for him.
“… Your hair is quite simple, I have to admit.” All Might told him bluntly with hand on his chin.
“I- what?!” Izuku looked at the hero, startled by his sudden declaration.
Should he change his hairstyle after all? Was it actually that terrible?! What All Might meant by that?!
The hero laughed at Izuku’s panicked face.
“I’m just joking, young Midoriya, do not worry!” He patted his head with huge smile and Izuku could finally relax after all what happened this day.
___
There were few things Mitsuki never expected to see in the kitchen in her house.
Her rather tall husband using a stool to reach something on the top shelf in the cupboard.
Her bratty son crying over some mundane thing while lying on the floor.
Herself, roasting her son for crying, as there was enough of burnt chicken in the history of this kitchen.
But when she saw her son, angrily stabbing some meat while cursing, she could tell with all honesty in the world that this was exactly what she would expect to see.
“What are you doing?” She walked up to Katsuki, but kept the safe distance, as there was no way she’d come anywhere near him while he was holding a knife.
“What the fuck does it look like?” He snarked while still stabbing the meat.
“You do realize that you have to actually cut it and not stab it, right?” She moved to the stove to get a kettle to make herself some tea.
“Yeah, no fucking shit.” He said but actually started cutting it properly like a normal human being.
“Stop cursing so much, for fuck’s sake.” Mitsuki filled the kettle with water and put it on the stove. “Damn, who fucking raised you?” She said that more to herself, while being more than aware of the irony of her own words.
“Oh, I wonder who?!” He yelled, his words filled with sarcasm, and threw the knife into the sink, then started looking for spices.
“You want some tea? Herbs for relaxation would be good for you!” She laughed at his angry scowl. “Anyway, why are you preparing food? I thought I left you something to eat after school in a fridge? Didn’t you check?” She moved towards the refrigerator in intentions of seeing if she actually forgot to do so.
“… It’s for tomorrow.” His words stopped her from opening the fridge and she looked at him with raised eyebrow.
“Don’t you have a cafeteria in there?” She was pretty sure that a school like UA would have something like that in the building.
Katsuki seemed reluctant to answer.
“… Do you not want to eat there?” She nudged him in the shoulder to which he just scowled and took out a frying pan from one of the cupboards. “Katsuki.” She wanted to nudge him again but boiling water in the kettle stopped her and she moved to remove it from the stove.
“There’s too many people in there.” He said quietly, keeping his eyes lowered.
Oh.
Right, as far as her son was the last person to be described as shy or timid, he didn’t really like to be in the middle of huge crowds for obvious reasons.
This reasoning she could understand.
But she couldn’t understand why wouldn’t he stick to at least one group of people from his class.
Speaking of-
“Do you remember anyone?” She asked and poured the water into her mug. She changed the subject on purpose but she wasn’t able to tell if Katsuki was thankful for dropping the first one or pissed at the new one.
Probably both.
“… There’s a bird in my class.” Mitsuki laughed at his statement and continued to do so, even as he glared at her. “And some guy with ice powers. Couldn’t find him, tho.” Katsuki shrugged and put all the meat onto the pan.
“… Alright, anyone else?” She asked and didn’t even try to hide hope in her voice.
Katsuki kept quiet for few moments and then-
“No.” Mitsuki was quite sure that he didn’t want to tell her something but she decided not to press. She took her tea and headed to leave the kitchen.
“I’ll find out anyway, you brat!” She laughed at Katsuki’s cursing and left the room for good.
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“… Alright anyone else?” Katsuki didn’t fail to notice the hopeful tone in his mother’s voice.
He actually thought about it for few seconds. There was no sense in telling her about that annoying armored guy or smartass ponytail girl or that guy who went after him.
… Especially not the last two. That would require explaining all the shit that went down today.
He thought about someone else but quickly scratched the idea of telling her about that.
“No.” He settled on saying in the end, because he had absolutely no intentions of telling her about the bare chest of some stupid guy. She’d jump to the wrong fucking conclusions but really, who could blame him? It was just the fact that his costume was fucking ridiculous.
That’s it.
He noticed that she finally decided to leave him alone.
“I’ll find out anyway, you brat!” That old hag yelled on her way out.
“Fucking piece of shit!” He cursed and started looking for something to throw, meanwhile he could hear his mother laugh at his words. “Damn it!” He settled on releasing few explosions from his palms. “God damn it…”
He took a deep breath and got onto finishing his lunch for tomorrow.
Katsuki just hoped that the next day wouldn’t be just as fucked.
Notes:
Yes, Izuku didn’t tell Katsuki the truth about his quirk, but that is because it’s not important for my storyline, just trust me on this one, ok? Ok.
Come join me on tumblr in crying about bnha lmao
Up next; Wild chat fic appears
Chapter 7: Thin fucking ice
Summary:
Bnha but it's normal school stuff for once.
Notes:
Hhhhhhhh sorry for the long wait, it's because it took me a freaking month to write the next chapter (not this one, the cursed USJ one lol), but now I'm basically done with my summer job and once again, I can stay up until 4am to write stuff, fuck yea
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
When Katsuki left his house he really hoped this day would be at least a little bit less fucked, but as he approached his school and saw a crowd of reporters with cameras and microphones, he thought that he should’ve expected something like that from UA, even if he didn’t know what all the fuss was about at the time.
He quickly realized that this morning he read on hero news site that it was just announced that All Might closed his agency for some time, as he became a teacher at UA.
Right, that’s why they’re here.
A little bit too early for that, if he had to be honest. There were only few students coming to school at this hour, Katsuki included with this bunch, for obvious reasons, but he wasn’t about to explain himself to anyone.
He saw some woman approach a fellow student and Katsuki stopped a short distance away, as he didn’t want to be in frame of the camera that woman’s colleague held in his arms and didn’t waste any time to turn it on and pointed it towards surprised girl with blond hair so light it was almost white.
“Can you tell us what’s it like to have number one hero as a teacher?!” The woman almost shoved a microphone she held into girl’s face.
“Oh- I don’t really have classes with him?” The girl laughed awkwardly. “I’m in general studies class so-“ She slowly backed away just to quickly turn and sprint through the gate towards the school, leaving disappointed reporters.
Katsuki realized that instead of staring like an idiot he could’ve used the girl as a distraction to sneak into the school unnoticed, but maybe it wouldn’t work anyway, since there were actually a lot of journalists.
He looked around in hope that some other student would be around, but of course he was on his own.
… Fucking shit, gotta get in at some point, right? He sighed, annoyed.
Katsuki quickly started moving towards the crowd and the gate, unfortunately, as he passed the crowd, one of the journalists rushed after him.
“Excuse me!” He couldn’t help but wonder, just how one’s voice could be this annoying? “Could you tell us about All Mi- wait, aren’t you the kid who got caught by the Sludge villain?”
Katsuki stopped and grit his teeth.
Don’t fucking curse at her.
“I’m not!” That probably didn’t convince anyone. “Just buzz off!” He yelled while glaring at her over his shoulder (why all annoying people have ponytails?) and quickly went through the gate, not reacting to any other calls after him.
___
Katsuki was lucky enough to get to class without any further interruptions and even when other students were entering the room, no one really bothered him. Then, when Aizawa entered the classroom, Katsuki didn’t fail to notice that he surprisingly came here without his sleeping bag. After few seconds, all of the talking between others shut down. Their teacher always looked like he was in a bad mood and no one wanted to risk their luck by interrupting him from speaking.
He put some papers on his desk and looked around the class.
“All in all,” he started, sounding as unimpressed as always, “good work with yesterday’s battle training. I’ve looked through your grades and evaluations. Bakugou.” Aizawa’s eyes fell on Katsuki and he felt a cold shiver run through his spine and he scowled. “You’re acting like a kid, grow up and stop wasting your talent.”
“… Got it already.” He muttered and looked to the side. He heard Aizawa reprimand Deku for breaking his hand.
At least someone acknowledged it wasn’t his fault.
“Now, onto homeroom business…” He started a bit reluctant. “Sorry for the sudden announcement, but today…” Strange feeling went through the whole class like they expected a pop quiz from him or some other shit, like he would actually do something like this during freaking homeroom.
“You will pick a class president.” He stated and looked around the class that went absolutely nuts.
Everyone started screaming to pick them, but Katsuki had no interest in such thing. He was aware that in the hero course at UA this position would mean leading a group and it would be well suited for a top hero in the making, but it would also require him to remember all the names of all his classmates and probably more than two teachers and a principal.
The position itself would be annoying anyway, besides all the memorizing, he’d have to take into account all of the boring, mundane tasks like attending some meetings for class representatives. He’d rather eat shit than interact with some extras, he had enough of them in his class already.
Everyone went silent when some guy started yelling for them to quiet down.
Katsuki looked over to see what the fuss was all about and saw that despite the guy’s little speech about democracy and leading everyone being a heavy responsibility, he had his hand raised the highest among the whole crowd.
Katsuki rolled his eyes and sunk deeper into his chair.
Just get it over with.
In the meantime, he saw Aizawa-sensei pull out his sleeping bag from under the desk (so that’s where he kept it), wrap himself in it and lie down in the corner of the classroom.
Katsuki kind of wished he could do that too, sometimes.
“Alright, everyone will vote then!”
Oh for fuck’s sake-
Who was he even supposed to vote for, he didn’t know any of these assholes.
Katsuki took out a piece of paper anyway and stared at it for few moments. He knew only two names, his own and Deku’s and there was no way he’d vote for this fucking nerd. But then again, so far technically two other guys introduced themselves properly, but at first one he didn’t really look at and the second one came up with some shit about him not being able to take fucking notes.
Anyway, both of them were fucking annoying.
… But what were their names? Katsuki scowled and started lightly tapping his pen against the piece of paper. He couldn’t be sure, but he thought that that one guy from yesterday, who introduced himself, had really terrible hair.
He couldn’t recall his name, but for a second he thought it started with an ‘i’, only to remind himself that this was maybe the first guy’s name that started with that letter.
So what about this shitty hair one?
Kari-something...?
…
Yeah, whatever. He didn’t remember their names at all so there was no fucking use in voting for these two anyway.
Katsuki wrote down his own name in hopes that this one vote wouldn’t change anything.
___
“What the- Who the hell voted for Deku!?” He heard himself shout before he could think about his words.
“Guess we know it wasn’t you!” Someone behind him commented, but he still stared in disbelief at the board with votes written out on it.
There was one vote for him, just like he predicted and hoped for, but then Deku had three fucking votes and that was enough for him to become their class representative, which was both ridiculous and was pissing him off. The nerd himself didn’t look that much happy about it either.
At least he won’t have to waste time on memorizing someone new. The unwanted thought went through his mind and he frowned at it.
“Alright, if that’s settled we can continue with our normal lesson.” Aizawa came out of his sleeping bag and stood next to the two new class representatives. “Everyone sit down. Just because we wasted half of our time, that doesn’t mean we have to waste the rest of it as well.”
___
“Kirishima, you going to the cafeteria?” Kaminari asked and leaned against his desk. It was already time for lunch and the class was almost empty, only few people still inside, either slowly leaving the room or waiting for someone. He noticed Ashido leaving the class with few other girls.
“Yeah, I wanted to check out what’s the big deal about.” Eijirou stood up from his seat and moved with Kaminari towards the door. “That one hero is the chef here, right? What was his name..?” He wondered and suddenly stopped when he noticed Bakugou still sitting at his desk, going through things in his bag.
“Lunch Rush, I heard that even his rice is-“ Kaminari stopped, already outside the classroom, when he noticed that Eijirou wasn’t anywhere near him and he peered back inside. “Kirishima, what are you waiting for?” He followed his line of sight and his gaze fell on Bakugou as well. “… Dude, no-“ He whispered, more than aware of what Eijirou wanted to do.
“Oh, come on. What’s the worst that can happen?” He smiled and started moving towards the always angry looking guy.
Maybe he could make a good second impression.
He didn’t get far, as he felt a hand on his wrist. Eijirou looked back at Kaminari who was acting way too dramatic for this kind of situation in his opinion.
‘You’ll die’ He mouthed and quickly opened his other hand at the side of his face, probably in intention of mimicking an explosion going off from a palm.
“… Bro.” Eijirou managed to get out in ironic voice and forced Kaminari to let go of his wrist. Before he could stop him again, he was already at Bakugou’s side. “Hey, dude!” Eijirou put his hand on the corner of his desk and smiled as friendly as he could manage.
“The fuck do you want?” Bakugou didn’t seem impressed with his smile and just glared at him, turning his attention back to his bag. “Get off my space.” He added and pulled out a lunchbox.
Eijirou didn’t want to test his luck and took a step back.
Maybe he’s still angry about their last encounter?
“Hey, listen, about yesterday-“ Bakugou stopped focusing on unwrapping his food, his whole body suddenly tense, and actually looked at Eijirou.
“… What about it?” He asked slowly with suspicion and Eijirou panicked for a second, as his face looked like he had no idea what Eijirou was talking about, or at least like he was trying to figure out what he meant.
Shit, did he forget?
“You know…” Eijirou shrugged awkwardly. In the corner of his eye he noticed Kaminari who was not so subtly waving and mouthing ‘abort’ over and over again towards him. Eijirou sighed and coughed awkwardly into his hand. “After last lesson ended, when I went after you and kinda-“ he searched for the right word. “-implied? That you don’t take notes and stuff and-“
“Oh, so it’s you.” Eijirou was interrupted by Bakugou’s sudden angry muttering.
“W-what?” He wasn’t sure if he heard that correctly, as the other said that more to himself.
“What, want to add something to that? Wanna die so badly, Shitty hair?” The other one stood up from his seat, his voice full of spite. Eijirou instinctively took a step back and bumped into another desk.
“Now, no need to get angry!” Kaminari swiftly stepped in between them, his right hand on Bakugou’s shoulder and the other waving awkwardly. “We just wanted to- uhh…“ He quickly glanced at the forgotten lunchbox. “-ask you if you want to go with us to the cafeteria!” He said quickly on one breath.
“Yeah! Totally!” Eijirou immediately caught on to Kaminari’s plan, only to realize that was actually good idea. After all, what’s the better way to bond with new people than over good food? “You wanna come!?” He said that with more excitement than necessary and he didn’t fail to notice Kaminari’s face when he realized that his question was an honest one.
“Dude-“ He’ll really have to tell Kaminari the description of the word ‘subtle’.
Bakugou narrowed his eyes at them and his frown only deepened.
“I have my own fucking food.” He said after few awkward seconds passed and he smacked Kaminari’s hand away from him who laughed awkwardly.
“Yeah, you look like someone who would buy food in advance!” He took few steps away while holding Eijirou’s forearm to make him follow him out of the room, in which they were the only ones left.
“I make my own fucking food, who do you think I am?!” Bakugou yelled at them which only made them move towards the door at quicker pace (or rather made Kaminari do so, as Eijirou didn’t have much of a choice if he didn’t want to trip over by not following the speed).
“Wow, that’s so cool!” Eijirou answered him with an honest amazement and at this point he didn’t even have to look at Kaminari to know he was making that stupid face again.
“YES, THAT’S REALLY GREAT.” Kaminari, a bit panicked, slid the door open and was one foot out the class. “Enjoy your meal!” He yelled as he forced Eijirou out of the room and closed the door with more force than he actually needed to apply. “Dude.” He breathed out as he let go of Eijirou and leaned against a wall. “Shit, I thought he was going to kill you.” Short pause during which he made sure that Bakugou didn’t happen to decide to follow them. “Or worse-” his eyes widened dramatically “-kill us, because of your stupid stunt!” He added with a little bit of spite mixed with irony and nudged Eijirou lightly on the shoulder.
“Aren’t you being a bit too dramatic?” Eijirou started walking down the corridor towards the cafeteria, Kaminari short distance behind him. “I think he was just still angry because of yesterday.” He pondered for few seconds, both about the battle trial and their short exchange at the end of the day.
“He looks like someone who’s angry all the damn time.” Kaminari caught up to him and nudged him with his elbow. Eijirou couldn’t help but snicker at the comment.
___
Katsuki stared at the door which just closed behind those two idiots and sat back down to finally eat his lunch.
What was these assholes’ fucking deal, anyway?
Katsuki could once again focus on unwrapping his lunchbox and opening it, but of course the thoughts of these idiots still haunted him at the back of his mind.
He had no clue as to who was that yellow haired guy, but at least he knew that Shitty hair was actually the same bastard from yesterday.
It’s not like he tried to memorize him.
Katsuki sighed, slightly resigned and before he could finally bite into his food, a loud alarm blared through the speakers in the class and probably on a corridor.
“For fucking shit, what now?!” An annoyed yell escaped his mouth, while Katsuki himself hoped that this wasn’t some useless practice in case of an actual, serious alarm.
“Security level 3 has been broken. All students, please evacuate in orderly fashion.” A mechanical voice answered through speakers and Katsuki let out exasperated groan.
Level 3 means that someone’s trespassed the school’s grounds. Katsuki recalled quickly from one of the school’s leaflets, then stood up from his seat and headed towards the door. When he slid it open, he saw some alarmed students sprint through the corridor and decided that before he’d join in with the panic-fest, he’ll at least try and see what‘s the big deal first.
He didn’t have to search for too long, as all he had to do was to walk up to one of the glass walls to see what was going on.
Katsuki had a good view at the school’s gate that seemed like it had its entrance destroyed and saw rather big group of people gathered right outside the door leading to the main building of the school.
Upon closer inspection, he saw that some of them had cameras in their hands and others probably microphones. Katsuki sighed as he realized that these annoying journalists, perhaps the same from this morning, somehow found their way through the gate, probably thanks to one of their quirks.
He walked up closer to the window to have a better look at the entrance and saw that two people stopped the journalists from entering. Katsuki narrowed his eyes and noticed that one of them had familiar bandages around his neck.
Probably Aizawa-sensei. He thought and looked at the other person who, he assumed, was possibly another teacher and hero.
Katsuki looked around to check if anybody was in the corridor to make him join other students and as he didn’t see a single soul, he went back to the class and sat down at his desk, once again.
If no one was actually able to enter the school, then there was no reason for such panic, especially if the situation was under control.
Katsuki was finally able to eat his lunch in peace.
___
“I believe… Iida-kun is better suited to be the class president!” Deku said while standing in front of the class and then kept explaining why he thought that this guy was better for the position, some people agreeing with him
Just how fucking dares he to withdraw from the position and who the fuck is that ‘Iida’ dude!?
Not that Katsuki wanted Deku to be the class rep, but it was easier for him to remember that damn nerd than whoever he just called out.
Some of the other students actually seemed to like the idea of the other random guy suddenly becoming the new class president, as they listed some reasons and mentioned something about this dude giving a good performance during the alarm.
Maybe, after all, he should have gone and join the others.
Katsuki caught Deku’s gaze and looked at him with all the hatred he could gather. Deku tensed and looked to the side, and as he walked past him to take the seat, he purposefully avoided looking at Katsuki, knowing all too well that he was still trying to kill him with his glare.
“If that’s finally settled-“ Aizawa stood up from his place in the corner. “-I want to tell you to mentally prepare yourselves during weekend. Sometime, at the end of the next week, you’ll have another advanced exercise in one of our training facilities.” Excited whispers went through the entire class. “Don’t waste time, do your homework and whatever other stuff teenagers do these days.” He mumbled and left the room, class apparently dismissed.
After few other lessons, everyone packed up their stuff and were slowly leaving the classroom, Katsuki shoving Deku with his shoulder as he walked past him and glaring one last time at him, the nerd lowering his gaze at the motion.
___
Eijirou didn’t fail to notice how Bakugou was looking at Midoriya after he announced his decision to make Iida the new class president. As far as he was concerned, both of them weren’t too fond of each other in a slightest and as they didn’t seem to interact that much, besides the battle training with All Might and then all the angry glaring going on from Bakugou’s side, they must have known each other from middle school or something along those lines.
Eijirou couldn’t help, but be a little bit curious, that’s why instead of immediately going home, he watched as Bakugou shoved Midoriya and glared at him, as if this was Midoriya’s fault. Eijirou walked up to him after Bakugou left the class and patted him on the shoulder, making him jump a bit, surprised at the sudden presence at his side.
“Are you alright?” He asked while pointedly looking towards the door where Bakugou disappeared few seconds ago.
“Ah, yes.” He said after he realized what Eijirou meant. “I’m kind of used to Kacchan’s moods.” Midoriya let out an awkward cough and started moving towards the corridor, Eijirou following right beside him.
“…So,” he started after a short moment of silence, “this dude has no chill?” To put it lightly, Eijirou thought and while he didn’t say it out loud, he was pretty sure that he didn’t really have to.
“Yeah…” Midoriya looked to the side, clearly not being the biggest fan of talking about Bakugou. “You could say that…” He said and they began walking down the stairs.
“What’s his deal, really?” Eijirou asked suddenly, no malice in his voice, just pure curiosity.
“… What do you mean?” He decided to ignore the fact how Midoriya tensed all over for a split second before he asked this question carefully, like he was buying himself more time.
“You know-“ he shrugged, not sure how to proceed. “-he’s angry all the time? And I wouldn’t really describe him as approachable.” This statement got a low chuckle from Midoriya. Eijirou looked at him, expecting some explanations, but when none came, he decided to push a bit further. “You two know each other, right? Like from middle school or something?”
They got to the lockers and stopped short distance before Midoriya’s.
“Our moms are friends.” Midoriya smiled to himself. “We’ve basically known each other since diapers.” He laughed, probably at some memories from his childhood. “We went together to the same schools, we used to be friends back in the kindergarten, but then he-“ Midoriya cut himself off, before he could finish the sentence, paling a bit and quickly looking away. “I- I mean, we just aren’t friends anymore and there’s really nothing more to it!” He waved around awkwardly. “I need to go, the train leaves soon!” He rushed to his locker to change his shoes quickly.
“Wait, Midoriya, what’s this about?” Eijirou walked up to him.
“NOTHING.” He yelled quickly, loud enough that it made few people around turn their heads towards them. “Kacchan’s just kind of antisocial, that’s it!” Midoriya laughed nervously while rapidly wrestling with his shoes and keep avoiding looking at Eijirou.
“You do realize that your behavior kinda denies that, right?” He realized too late that maybe he should not have said that, as Midoriya quickly stood up without tying his shoelaces.
“That’s.” He looked him straight in the eyes, brows furrowed in somehow troubled frown. “It.” He said through clenched teeth and ran out through the exit, leaving dumbstruck Eijirou alone.
“Was that Deku-kun?” He quickly looked around to see the familiar faces of Uraraka and Tsuyu who just arrived. “What happened?” She tilted her head a bit and looked at him with raised eyebrow.
“I-“ he started, unsure of what he was supposed to say. “-I might have overstepped with my questions. Kinda… I guess…” He looked down sheepishly. It hasn’t even been a week since they all met and he had no right on pressing for any information regarding Bakugou’s and Midoriya’s relationship. He sighed and looked at the girls who didn’t seem like they got what he was talking about and then it hit him.
The battle trial.
“Uraraka!” She jumped a bit at the sudden attention directed at her and Eijirou took a mental note to maybe start approaching people more gently, as she was the second person who reacted like that to him in a span of fifteen minutes. “Do you know what Bakugou and Midoriya were talking about during your battle?” She blinked a few times, confused.
“Ochako-chan.” Tsuyu cut in, putting a hand on other girl’s shoulder. “He means yesterday’s lesson with All Might.” A short ‘ah’ escaped Uraraka’s mouth.
“It was mostly screaming and arguing.” She said and crossed her arms on her chest, shifting a weight of her body to one of her legs. “You didn’t hear it, but right before I sent Bakugou-kun flying for the first time, Deku-kun told him that…” She looked to the side, apparently not sure if she should actually say anything about it.
“You don’t have to talk about it, if you don’t want to!” Eijirou assured her quickly and she smiled a bit.
“He... Deku-kun said that he wasn’t scared of him.” Eijirou’s eyebrows shot up in surprise. He didn’t know what he was expecting of the girl to say, but he was pretty sure it wasn’t that.
“What did Bakugou-chan say to that?” Tsuyu asked with never changing expression, yet with the voice indicating that she was curious about this as much as Eijirou.
“Yeah, did he say anything?” He took a step towards Uraraka. “None of the cameras caught his face when this was happening.” She quickly looked at him after this statement.
“They didn’t?”
“No,” Tsuyu was quick to explain.”All we saw was that Bakugou-chan just stood there for few moments.” She finished and looked at Eijirou who nodded with confirmation.
“I actually wanted to ask someone about his reaction.” She looked back and forth between them and started fiddling with her fingers in a nervous manner. “Because he just… stood there,” she straightened her hands “not doing or saying anything and Deku-kun was just looking at him too, all shocked and stuff and I thought that he was just angry and shocked at what Deku-kun said, and this was a good moment to do something so I tapped his shoulder, but maybe I shouldn’t have and-“ she was cut off by Tsuyu, who once again put a hand on her shoulder.
“It’s alright, Ochako-chan.” She smiled reassuringly. “You just used the situation to your advantage.”
“Yeah!” Eijirou was more than willing to agree with her. “That was very manly! And you surprised everyone!” He pumped his fists together.
“But because of that he used that attack and-“
“Come on, even All Might didn’t see that coming.” He shrugged and put his hand on her other shoulder.
“But Yaoyorozu-san said-“
“As Kirishima-chan said, you couldn’t have predicted what would happen.” Tsuyu interrupted her. “And I am almost certain that Yaoyorozu-chan wouldn’t be able to expect that either.”
“Yeah, we all saw that Bakugou is kind of unpredictable!” He added and laughed a bit when he remembered both of his encounters with him.
“… Thank you, guys.” Uraraka seemed relieved and visibly relaxed, all tension gone from her body.
“At your service, my lady.” He bowed dramatically, almost tripping over but otherwise was pleased with himself when he heard a quiet giggles from both girls.
“Kirishima-chan, shouldn’t you be heading to the train station, already?” Tsuyu asked as they finally moved to their lockers, which surprisingly were pretty close to each other.
“What?” Eijirou started looking for his phone in his bag. “How do you know?”
“You’re usually going on the train that arrives before mine.” She explained simply and soft 'ribbit' escaped her mouth.
Eijirou finally pulled out his phone and checked the time. When he realized that his train leaves in eight minutes, he changed his shoes in the record time and dashed through the door, quickly apologizing to the girls for leaving them like that.
___
It was pretty late when annoying, non stopping buzzing woke Katsuki up. Tired and irritated, he reached for his phone, that was charging on his desk and squinted at the bright screen, checking the time.
11:23pm
He groaned into his pillow, but unlocked his phone anyway, while still lying down. He blinked few times and changed the brightness of the screen. When that was done, he finally checked what woke him up.
There were two notifications from the hero news websites from almost an hour ago and one e-mail from twenty minutes ago, but neither of these things woke him up.
The things that woke him up were over hundred notifications from some chat room that he wasn’t even aware he was a part of. Katsuki pushed himself up on his elbow and sat cross legged on his bed, trying to make sense of this stupid situation.
The notifications were keep coming up and he finally looked properly at the chat’s name.
Class 1-A
… What in the everlasting fuck-
Few more messages popped up, he finally tapped on the chat’s little icon at the top of phone’s screen and read a few of the last ones.
Kaminari Denki: and that’s why I hate when people don’t put milk back in the fridge
Jirou Kyoka: that is… more thought through than I’d expect it to be
Midoriya Izuku: Quite impressive analysis, Kaminari-kun!
Kirishima Eijirou: I agree with u bro
Kirishima Eijirou: like srsly who does that??/
Kaminari Denki: RIGHT?! LIKE WHO RAISED YOU, FREAKING WOLVES?
Katsuki frowned at the messages and names, from which only one he could say he knew and then a new message popped up.
Kirishima Eijirou: oh Bakugou’s finally here!
Ashido Mina: yo bakugou, do you have any ideas what we’ll gonna do next week?
Who are these people?!
He scrolled all the way up to the beginning of the chat and read quickly over first few notifications and messages.
Iida Tenya created the chat room
Iida Tenya changed the name of the chat room to Class 1-A
Iida Tenya added Aoyama Yuga, Ashido Mina, Asui Tsuyu, Bakugou Katsuki and 14 other people to the Class 1-A
Iida Tenya: As class president, I have decided that it would be convenient for us, as a class, to create one chat room where we could exchange the information and help each other out with our studies.
Yaoyorozu Momo: That is a splendid idea, Iida-san.
Midoriya Izuku: Great idea, Iida-kun!
Todoroki Shouto: convenient
Sero Hanta: ayy nice thinking
Kirishima Eijirou: that’s our class rep!!
Ashido Mina: neato
Iida Tenya: I trust that you all will treat this chat room with upmost respect.
Tokoyami Fumikage: Of course, we shall not disturb the peace in here.
Iida Tenya: Unfortunately I must leave, but please feel free to participate in a conversation. Goodnight everyone.
Koda Koji: Goodnight, Iida-kun. Thank you for creating the chat
Uraraka Ochako: ooooh good thinking Iida-kun! goodnight!
Iida Tenya is offline
Asui Tsuyu: … I have a feeling that it won’t end well.
Ashido Mina: anyway, you guys like pineapple on pizza?
Asui Tsuyu: And I was right.
Shoji Mezo: …
Koda Koji: Are we sure this is alright?
Shoji Mezo: Technically, we are exchanging information.
Ojirou Mashirao: … people eat pizza with pineapples?
Aoyama Yuga: That’s distasteful
Ashido Mina: your distasteful
Yaoyorozu Momo: Ashido-san, I believe it’s supposed to be “you’re”.
Ashido Mina: ……… >:C
Jirou Kyoka: heeeeeheheh
Satou Rikido: I like chocolate pizza the most
And that’s where more of the senseless messages started coming in, each new topic had nothing to do with the previous one and Katsuki went all the way back down to the most recent messages.
Ashido Mina: yo bakugou, do you have any ideas what we’ll gonna do next week?
Ashido Mina: with all what Aizawa-sensei said and stuff
Ashido Mina: baaaaakugou
Jirou Kyoka: chill Ashido, he’s probably catching up
Yaoyorozu Momo: Bakugou-san, you don’t have to read everything, it was not as important as the beginning of the chat.
Kaminari Denki: uM? excuse mE?? My hatred for warm milk is important, thank you very much
Ojirou Mashirao: I believe that most people just silenced the chat at some point, why won’t you do that too, Yaoyorozu?
Hagakure Toru: yeah, i just came back and turned it back on from silence mode :O im gonna catch up with everything tho! <3
Kaminari Denki: at least one person cares
Kaminari Denki: bless u
Hagakure Toru: of course! I want to get to know you guys better <3 ;>
Yaoyorozu Momo: As the vice president, I feel compelled to keep up with everything that is going on in this chat when Iida-san is not present.
Ojirou Mashirao: … I guess that makes sense
Kaminari Denki: hey @Bakugou Katsuki do you have an answer for task 4 for our English homework?
Katsuki frowned, annoyed even more than before, and after few moments of going through chat's settings, removed himself from the chat altogether. He didn’t have time for some stupid chats with some fuckers, especially when he didn’t know almost any of them. He put his phone on a silence mode, just in case of someone adding him back, and tried to fall asleep once again, trying not to think about some strangers who tried to make him participate in their stupid activities.
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Eijirou stared at the notification under Kaminari’s last message.
Bakugou Katsuki left the chat
He already gathered that Bakugou wasn’t the biggest fan of socializing, but as Ojirou pointed out, he could have just put the chat on silence mode. New messages caught his attention and he turned it back to the chat.
Kaminari Denki: ??????//
Ashido Mina: lol??
Yaoyorozu Momo: … That wasn’t very nice.
Jirou Kyoka: Rude
Ashido Mina: R U D E
Midoriya Izuku: That’s just Kacchan…
Kaminari Denki: well kacchan is rude
Midoriya Izuku: sorry about him, guys, he’s not the biggest fan of group chats
Fumikage Tokoyami: Is he a fan of anything, really?
Eijirou looked over the last few messages, he stopped at Midoriya’s short explanation and realized that after their earlier talk, he didn’t have a chance or even tried to apologize to him about their less than pleasant exchange.
He quickly opened the separate chat with Midoriya and started typing.
Kirishima Eijirou: hey, Midoriya
Midoriya Izuku: oh, hello Kirishima-kun
Midoriya Izuku: did something happen?
Kirishima Eijirou: not really
Kirishima Eijirou: I just wanted to apologize
Midoriya Izuku: for what??
Eijirou laughed quietly to himself at his oblivious question, but quickly regained himself. Now wasn’t the time for laughing.
Kirishima Eijirou: for pushing too far about Bakugou
Kirishima Eijirou: you clearly didn’t want to talk about him
Kirishima Eijirou: or whatever his deal is
Kirishima Eijirou: and I was kind of a dick
Kirishima Eijirou: so
Kirishima Eijirou: I’m sorry
He watched for few seconds as the three dots were keep appearing and disappearing a couple of times, indicating that Midoriya wasn’t sure what he should answer with.
Midoriya Izuku: I wasn’t very nice during this conversation either, running off and yelling at you and stuff…
Midoriya Izuku: But seriously, don’t worry about this. There’s nothing wrong with Kacchan! He just doesn’t like interacting with people.
Midoriya Izuku: That’s it.
It looked like the last two messages were supposed to convince both Eijirou and Midoriya himself, but as he was already on a thin ice in this situation, he decided to let it go and finish on a friendly note, rather than pushing too far once again.
Kirishima Eijirou: If you say so then I’ll drop it!
Kirishima Eijirou: sorry once again
Midoriya Izuku: It’s fine! I’m sorry too
Kirishima Eijirou: no need to be! I gtg so goodnight, Midoriya!
Midoriya Izuku: Me too, goodnight, Kirishima-kun
Midoriya Izuku is offline
Eijirou finally relaxed and lied down on his bed. He really shouldn’t snoop around like that and maybe Midoriya was actually telling the truth. Maybe Bakugou was just really antisocial and there wasn’t anything deeper to it all.
He decided to call it a night and put his phone beside his pillow to make sure that the alarm would wake him up for his morning training.
Notes:
Let me know if this 'chat' format is alright.
Like I said, now I'll have so much more time to write stuff <3 (speaking of writing stuff, to get free from USJ, I wrote a Tododeku oneshot, you can read it, my darlings, here )
Scream about stuff with me on my tumblr
Up next; USJ but I'm the one dying instead of All Might
Chapter 8: Defusing attempt
Summary:
Self care is shortening as much stuff in hated arc as you can manage.
Notes:
I have to be honest, I’m not a fan of the USJ arc so you guys had no idea how relieved I was to discover that Kacchan is like- in 5 scenes total so I was able to fit the whole arc in one (‘slightly’ longer) chapter.
... Lmao?
Fun fact: back in high school I had a friend who didn’t know how to silence our group chat and she’d just leave it when she didn’t want to be bothered and then write to one of us to add her back. So yeah, keep that in mind or sth
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
It’s kind of a battle, over the weekend. Katsuki’s classmates were persistent on keep adding him back to the group chat for some reason, that he wasn’t aware of. He would be less mad if they actually talked about important school stuff, but whenever he'd checked what they were going on about, he got annoyed to see that it’s a debate about fucking memes, or something along those lines, and then there were the notifications that were keep coming up. All this irritated him to the point where he'd just leave the chat.
Half of the Sunday was calm, no one added him back for most of the day, he got to train and check if he did all of the homework without being bothered by any of those idiots.
But then he of course got to stare at the couple of new notifications and glared at the direct mentions of him.
Kaminari Denki added Bakugou Katsuki to the Class 1-A
Kaminari Denki: aight, if we spam him, he’ll come here sooner
Kaminari Denki: @Bakugou Katsuki
Ashido Mina: @Bakugou Katsuki
Asui Tsuyu: @Bakugou Katsuki
Ashido Mina: aw Tsuyu-chan is participating too <3
Asui Tsuyu: Of course, Mina-chan, I’m curious as well
Hagakure Toru: me too!!! @Bakugou Katsuki
Iida Tenya: Is this really necessary, Kaminari-kun? If Bakugou-kun doesn’t want to be bothered then we shouldn’t do so. Especially if the topics we’ve discussed so far aren’t related to our academics.
Asui Tsuyu: Iida-chan, we just want to check something, don’t worry.
Kirishima Eijirou: @Bakugou Katsuki !!!!!11
Katsuki didn’t know why they added him again, as he couldn’t read any of the messages between the moment when he left the chat the previous evening and the moment when he was added back, just now, but he did know this shit was pissing him off. He wanted to leave again, but as soon as they noticed him, they started spamming again and one of the messages actually got his attention.
Kaminari Denki: WAIT BAKUGOUT
Ashido Mina: lol bakugOUT
Sero Hanta: that’s basically what he’s been doing all weekend
Kaminari Denki: lmao ye im taking all the credit for this joke
Kaminari Denki: BUT THAT’S NOT IMPORTANT R/N
Kaminari Denki: Bakugou, bro, my man
Asui Tsuyu: Kaminari-chan, get to the point or he’ll just leave again.
Kaminari Denki: yes, shit, right
Kaminari Denki: do you
Kaminari Denki: by any chance
Kaminari Denki: not know how to silence the chat?
Katsuki stared at the question and felt the blood boil inside him.
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Eijirou looked at the question Kaminari asked just now and couldn’t help but hope that Bakugou would finally participate in the chat. Whenever someone would add him, it usually took few dozen messages for him to notice and much less for a notification of him leaving to appear. None of them knew why he would do that, probably besides Midoriya, but he would go silent whenever Bakugou appeared for those few minutes.
Then again, finally, Midoriya wrote something this noon about ‘Kacchan not participating in any chats ever’ and so they started wondering if Bakugou actually knew how these worked.
And here they were now.
Kaminari Denki: not know how to silence the chat?
The suspense was killing him. At this point he was really curious, others were too, apparently, as no one was typing anything after Kaminari finally asked the question, being the one to volunteer to do so.
(He didn’t. It was a lottery.)
The little notification under Kaminari’s message said that Bakugou was one of the people who read the text and then-
Bakugou Katsuki is typing.
The three dots next to Bakugou’s name were keep disappearing and Eijirou held his breath. Of all things he expected to be doing with his new classmates, waiting for a reply from the most antisocial one wasn’t really one of them.
Eijirou was expecting to see a chain of curses to appear any second, but after few moments-
Bakugou Katsuki left the chat
Kaminari Denki: HOLY SHIT
Ashido Mina: HE DOESNT???
He was quite shocked at the discovery. Because, seriously, who at that age doesn’t know how to silence a chat?
Kirishima Eijirou: @Midoriya Izuku dude is this for real??
Midoriya Izuku: WHy AFRE YU ASKIN ME
Uraraka Ochako: its because you’ve known him since elementary school, Deku-kun
Ashido Mina: lmao a misyakes
Yaoyorozu Momo: the mistakes*
Ashido Mina: >:CCC
Kirishima Eijirou: kindergarten, actually
Hagakure Toru: how do YOU know that, Kirishima-kun? >:O
Kirishima Eijirou: … that’s not important right now
Uraraka Ochako: suspicious
Aoyama Yuga: you are right, mon cheri, that’s very suspicious
Kaminari Denki: WHO CARES IT DOESN’T MATTER
Eijirou took a mental note to thank Kaminari someday for his obliviousness.
Kaminari Denki: HE DOESN’T KNOW VFSGNJNJHDTHJD
Kaminari Denki: WHO DOESN’T KNOW THAT, I THOUGHT HE WAS, LIKE, IN TOP THREE IN OUR CLASS OR SOMETHING
Yaoyorozu Momo: Intelligence and academic knowledge don’t really have to do anything with… silencing a chat.
Ashido Mina: do u know how to do this?
Yaoyorozu Momo: Well, of course.
Sero Hanta: @Todoroki Shouto @Iida Tenya do you guys know how to do that?
Iida Tenya: It would become highly inconvenient at some point if I wasn’t able to silence the chat.
Todoroki Shouto: same
Todoroki Shouto: which I’ll do right now, I’m busy
Kaminari Denki: SEE!? BUT ALSO R UD E, TODOROKI
From this point, it was mainly Kaminari and Ashido screaming about their newfound knowledge, while most people probably simply decided it would be the best to just ignore them.
Eijirou realized that he never really had to silence any chats he’s been in, but how hard could it be? He tapped on the settings icon in the top right corner of the chat. One of the first few options read “Leave the chat”.
This one was pretty easy to find.
He scrolled down a little and discovered that he himself couldn’t find the option to silence the conversation. Eijirou scrunched his eyebrows and went back to the main chat and looked at the icons on top.
From right to left; the settings one, then a little phone icon, that no one would ever dare to tap on, as this would start the actual conversation between them all, the next looked like a camera, and tapping on this one would be even worse. But then, finally at the end, a tiny speaker.
Eijirou tapped on it and a notification popped out, the question read ‘Do you want to silence Class 1-A?’
That easy, huh?
He tapped on ‘no’, then took a few screenshots and checked if Bakugou was still online, frowning a bit when he saw a gray dot next to his profile picture.
He’ll take care of it some other time.
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They were all packed into a bus, Katsuki sat at the window and kept his gaze locked on the moving scenery, only glancing at some girl who sat down next to him, probably because of the lack of any other free sits. They were going to one of the many UA’s facilities to, according to Aizawa-sensei, do some rescue training. When the teacher advised them that it would be better for them to leave behind some elements of their costumes, as they could sometimes limit their movements, Katsuki decided on wearing only one of his gauntlets and on leaving his mask as well.
He didn’t pay much attention to any conversations, that was until he heard his name. Someone was commenting on quirks in their class and mentioned him.
“It’s Bakugou and Todoroki, if we’re talking strong and cool.” Said a guy with red, spiky hair while looking at him and smiling in what was probably a friendly manner.
Katsuki’s eyes widened slightly when he realized that it was supposed to be a compliment, and about his quirk, of all things. He didn’t really know how to react to it so he just looked away with short huff and a scowl.
“But Bakugou-chan is so unhinged and harsh, he’d never be popular.” His head turned back quickly towards the girl who dared to say that.
She looked like a fucking frog?
“THE FUCK DID YOU JUST SAY, AMPHIBIAN!?” He yelled and saw her stick out her long tongue and shrug with short ‘see?’ coming out from her mouth. He was about to share a piece of his mind when someone else also joined in- a yellow haired guy in leather jacket.
“We’ve only barely began to know each other and already you’ve made it so clear for us to see the unpleasantness of your steamed turd of a personality!” He pointed at him and started laughing mockingly.
“Yeah, okay, mister vocabulary, how about I pound you, huh?!” Few people started laughing.
Katsuki thought about how bizarre it was, to be mocked by someone, but it being about his personality instead of his quirk or… this thing.
As he was about to say something else, Aizawa announced that they arrived at their destination and they all had to leave the bus.
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Katsuki listened carefully to what the new, astronaut-like hero had to say about the facility they were all in (or USJ, as they called it), as he didn’t want to fuck up any other tasks.
But he already made the bad first impression, so what was the point?
After the basic introduction of what the USJ had to offer, he heard Deku announce, in very excited manner, the hero’s name – Thirteen – and few other stuff about all of their rescue job. If reluctantly, he had to admit it, sometimes this asshole’s nerdiness would come in handy when it came to heroes Katsuki didn’t know. The bastard was always so hyped about them, that he would just talk and talk about them, sometimes explaining in great detail what kind of hero work they were doing on daily basis.
Then, Thirteen started explaining the way their quirk works. This time, Bakugou didn’t really care, all the information about it not that important to him, but what they said in the end, really hit him in the right place.
“My power could easily kill.” When those words fell from behind their helmet, mood around all the students immediately changed and air became somehow colder. “I have no doubt there are some among you with similar abilities.” Katsuki’s shoulders tensed and for a split second he couldn’t breathe. He knew that they didn’t mean him specifically but damn, if that didn’t hit close to home…
Katsuki realized too late that the hero was still talking and quickly focused on what else they had to say.
“This class will show you a new perspective. You will learn how to utilize your quirks to save lives.” Thirteen looked around and seemed pleased that everyone was paying close attention. “I hope that after this lesson, you’ll leave with the understanding that you’re meant to help people. Your powers are not meant to inflict harm.”
Katsuki’s breath once again got stuck in his throat and he was thankful that people around him were too busy cheering after Thirteen’s speech to notice his lips that he bit into to stop himself from releasing a happy sigh after he heard their last words.
Maybe, there is still a chance for him.
When all the ruckus after hero’s speech calmed down, Aizawa spoke out.
“Great. So, first off-“ He was interrupted by sudden movement and noise in the center of the facility. Katsuki saw a strange, purple vortex appear near the fountain and, once it got bigger, some people started coming out of it. Everyone tried to step closer to have a better look at what was going on and Katsuki wondered if this was supposed to be a part of their training. “HUDDLE UP AND DON’T MOVE.” Alright, that definitely wasn’t the part of their training.
Some students actually took few steps backwards, while other stood their ground, Katsuki being one of them.
“Thirteen, protect the students!” Aizawa commanded and put on his gold goggles, the bandages around his neck already moving around slightly. “Don’t move!” He yelled as one of the guys was about to ask what was going on. “Those are villains!”
Katsuki was sure that he wasn’t the only one who felt a cold chill run through his spine. He frowned and tried to take a better look at what was happening in the center.
After some more arguing, Aizawa told Thirteen to take care of them all and leaped from the top of the stairs to face the villains on his own. Thirteen told them to start running towards the exit, but half way through, the same purple twirl appeared on the ground right in front of them, cutting off their way to safety.
“I cannot allow it.” A huge, smoky figure, with what seemed like yellowish, squinted, glowing eyes, emerged from the vortex and loomed above them. Thirteen raised their hands in protective manner to cover few of the nearest students.
The villain introduced their group as The League of villains.
“We came here to end the life of All Might, the symbol of peace.” When he said that, Katsuki heard few shocked gasps, but all he could do was clench his jaw to stop himself from cursing at the wavering mass of smoke.
How fucking dare they.
He continued his little speech, but Katsuki already wasn’t paying attention.
All in all, the villain tried to sound polite and almost gentleman like, but considering the situation and the fact that he just threatened to kill All Might, it sounded sick and twisted. Katsuki frowned in disgust and anger. He glanced to the side to see if anyone else had a similar reaction.
One person, right next to Katsuki, looked back at him. The guy with stupid, almost familiar hairstyle stared at him with intense eyes and subtly raised his right hand which hardened in a second.
Katsuki squinted his eyes at him, a gesture that might have been perceived as showing suspicion, but he was simply trying to figure out if this particular guy was actually the same, annoying Shitty hair he somewhat interacted with before.
Katsuki slightly tilted his head towards the villain and saw the red head nod quickly, taking on a battle stance.
They both attacked in the next second; Katsuki released huge explosion with the use of his single gauntlet, the Shitty hair hardened his whole arms and tried to hit the smoke repetitively, causing it to disperse around. Katsuki caught a glimpse of something metallic in the center of all the mist.
“Not if we end you first! I bet you didn’t see that coming!” Red head yelled after their little ambush and smiled triumphantly for a second, before he saw all the smoke come back together, yellow eyes glinting ominously.
“Ahh, that was quite dangerous…” The villain said more to himself than to them, sounding quite angry. “Even if you all are just students…” His form started getting bigger and began to surround them. “You are still best of the best…”
“Get back! Both of you!” Katsuki heard their teacher’s desperate voice. He looked back at them and that’s when he realized that they all were already mostly surrounded by the purple mist. Before he could react in any way, it started swirling around them and he had to cover his eyes.
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When Katsuki opened his eyes, and the purplish, smoke-like thing that surrounded him disappeared, he looked around and realized he was in some sort of old building, with plaster falling off the walls and almost all the windows with broken or none glass. He looked out the nearest window and saw more destroyed buildings.
Some sort of teleportation quirk. He thought in a way of explaining to himself what happened.
For a second, Katsuki thought that the Warp guy teleported him somewhere outside the campus or even the city, as he didn’t remember any disasters on that huge scale to happen in Musutafu recently. That was when he noticed some sort of lake with an artificial waterfall and a boat near it.
Katsuki was still in the USJ.
He was about to turn around to check the area to which he was sent, but then he felt someone put a hand on his shoulder and he quickly turned around, grabbed the person by the wrist with his gauntlet-less hand, the other, with smoke already emarging from his palm, grabbing his red haired opponent by the face and pushing him to the ground, onto his back.
“Holy fuck, Bakugou!” Panicked yelp reached his ears and when he felt soft flesh turn into hard, rock-like material, he loosened his grip unwillingly, the guy looking up at him. “What the hell, I’m not a villain! I’m your classmate!” Accusing voice caused Katsuki to panic for a split second, but he didn’t let it show on his face. He didn’t stand up immediately, instead took a closer look at the guy.
He had something resembling a muzzle on his face and when he looked further down, he saw a bare chest.
That’s just fucking impractical.
Katsuki carefully raised his hand from the guy’s hardened face and his gaze fell onto his strange, red hairstyle.
… Shitty hair? He quickly took kind of a wild guess while keep squinting at his hair, he was prolonging it, to the point it was getting kind of awkward, but just this time he wanted to be sure that this person wasn’t a villain.
But the villain would already start attacking, wouldn’t he?
“Can you cut this out, bro?” Red hair’s eyes were darting back and forth between Katsuki’s own eyes and his gauntlet, that was still dangerously close to the face of his apparently not-opponent. “I’m all down for a spar session anytime you want, but like, not right now, maybe?” Katsuki just rolled his eyes, and yes, that stupid way of talking was enough of a proof that it was Shitty hair.
He got up and took few steps backwards, watching the other one raise quickly to his feet and dust off his bare arms and chest. Only now, the skin on his face turned back into soft flesh, and Katsuki realized that if this guy would actually wear something to cover his chest and arms, it would probably rip.
Katsuki blinked a few times and shook his head.
“Come on dude, what was that all about?” He waved his hands around, seemingly confused and probably angry at Katsuki’s doings.
Katsuki put his gauntlet free hand on his hip and turned his head away, to stare at some wall.
“Don’t fucking sneak behind other people like that.” He muttered with a growl and frowned. How else was he supposed to explain himself?
“You were ready to blow up my face! I know we, like, just met and don’t really know each other that well, but come on!” He sounded almost hurt and Katsuki had to swallow down all the guilt along with the curses he wanted to shout at him. “You can’t just attack people who approach you from behind!?”
“We were just attacked by villains, what did you expect me to do!? Welcome you with open arms, you idiot?” This just had to work as an explanation, right?
“Yeah, but still, you didn’t have to pin me down to the ground!” Katsuki grit his teeth. Seriously, what else was he supposed to do, not knowing who was behind him and then not recognizing the person, once he turned to them? He could keep this argument going, but they really needed to keep moving and he didn’t have any ideas for more excuses that would prevent him from mentioning the real reason he attacked his classmate.
“Can you shut up? You’re wasting our time.” He said, instead of keep arguing, and started moving towards the stairs leading to a lower floor. He stopped when he heard someone coming up them.
“We are totally not leaving this conversa-“ Katsuki stopped Shitty hair from finishing his sentence by silencing him with raised hand and pointing towards the stairs. He seemed to understand, as he raised both of his arms and hardened them in front of his chest. Katsuki himself took a battle stance as well. “Can you hear them?” Red head asked in a whisper, getting ready.
Before Katsuki had a chance to answer, a handful of villains jumped into the room through windows and a few more ran up the stairs, one already charging at Katsuki who, thanks to his quick reflexes, immediately shoved him aside with his just a bit too powerful blast.
“Guess it’s you and me against them, Blasty.” Katsuki frowned at the sudden nickname, but didn’t look back to glare at his temporary partner, instead keeping his eyes on the villains and trying to take a mental note to remember not to attack anyone with spiky, red hair.
“Try to keep up, Shitty hair.” The latter let out a short laugh and jumped into action, attacking villains in front of him, Katsuki following right after, blasting explosions at anyone who would try to attack him.
___
“Is that all of them?” Katsuki asked rhetorically, while breathing heavily after sending off the last two villains with bigger explosion. “Fucking lame ass weaklings…” He sighed and wiped off the sweat from his cheek.
“Alright-“ Katsuki turned around to once again stand face to face with his only ally in this situation, whether he liked it or not. “-let’s move on to help the others.” Shitty hair finished with heavy breathing, while deactivating his quirk. He looked around, as if making sure that there were no other villains hiding in the room. “If we’re still here, the others must be somewhere in the USJ too. I’m kind of worried about the people who don’t really have the ways to attack.” He looked back at Katsuki and when once he realized that Katsuki had no intentions of participating in the conversation, he continued. “If it wasn’t for us jumping so suddenly, Thirteen would have sucked in that mist guy… As men, it’s our duty to take responsibility!” The guilt in his voice was obvious, despite him trying to hide it with his determination.
Katsuki felt a knot in his stomach at the mention of their little stunt and only now he realized that it actually might have been kind of stupid to do, but he still didn’t need anyone to remind him about the fact that it was partly his fault that the whole class got scattered all over the fucking place.
At least it wasn’t only his fault…
But Bakugou wasn’t about to waste time on trying to find some randoms, especially if he didn’t really know who he would look for.
“If that’s what you want-“ he moved towards the stairs and noticed slight movement on the ceiling “-then go on alone. I’m gonna kill that Warp guy!” He said and got ready to fire off an explosion.
If he wouldn’t be able to beat up some weakling villain, then how on Earth could he see himself as a real hero?! If he could find the Warp guy, this time he actually would be able to beat him, since he might have discovered his weakness…
Shitty hair let out a surprised sound.
“You’re still acting immature! Like when Aizawa-sensei said!” Katsuki clenched his jaw and fought off the urge to knock out some of the guy’s sharp teeth. “Besides, normal attacks don’t seem to work on him…” Shitty hair finished with a bit calmer voice.
“You’re an idiot.” Katsuki said bluntly, the other guy looking up at him with surprise. “He’s how these punks get around. Take him down? They’ll have no way to run away!” He watched the realization sunk onto him.
After that, the last villain decided to show himself and attack from behind, while loudly announcing his presence, like an idiot that he was. Katsuki turned around quickly and grabbed guy’s rather small head. He knocked him out with more precise explosion.
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“If they’re sending such idiots against us,” the smoke from the blast of Bakugou’s explosion and dust of the floor dispersed slowly as he turned back to face dumbstruck Eijirou, “we should be fine.” The knocked out villain fell to the ground, unconscious.
Eijirou gulped and for a second couldn’t get over the amazing reflexes of his classmate.
“You-“ he started unsure, while turning off his quirk, which he activated on instincts when the last villain suddenly appeared out of nowhere “-you sure are calm all of a sudden… I thought you were more like, you know…” Eijirou motioned with his hands awkwardly, mimicking the way Bakugou sends off his explosions. “DIE! DIE! DIE!” The last word was disturbed by his own laughter.
“I’M ALWAYS CALM AND RATIONAL, YOU FUCKING SHITTY HAIR!” Bakugou screamed at him in his usual manner.
“Ha, there it is, exactly like that!” Eijirou was about to laugh even more at his reaction, but he realized that Bakugou was ready to leave this place.
“Whatever, you do you, I don’t give a shit.” He already turned away and started walking.
“Wait, wait-“ Eijirou managed to get his attention. “You believe in others! Like a true man, Bakugou!” He hardened his hands and forearms, and clasped his fists together in front of his chest. “You’ve convinced me, I’m coming with you!” Even if Bakugou didn’t look impressed by his declaration, keep staring at him with the same frown, Eijirou was already pumped and ready for more action.
“… Whatever.” Was all he said after few seconds. He turned away and was on his way on leaving the building.
Eijirou stood in his place, his hands still in front of his chest, not sure how to react. But at least Bakugou didn’t tell him to fuck off, or something, so he followed right after.
They managed to leave the building without encountering any other villains and quickly ran through the Collapsed Zone and in the direction of the centre of the USJ, where villains appeared in the first place.
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“Get out of my way, Deku!” Katsuki screamed as he jumped and blasted the purple mist that was closing on his useless, old friend.
He was still running with Shitty hair from the Collapsed Zone when he realized what was going on in the distance in front of them. At first, all he saw was someone being sucked into the, at this point familiar, purple vortex while being held by strange monster, that’s when he sprinted ahead and saw someone else running up to him at his left. He was ready to attack, but the half frozen guy nodded at him and Katsuki realized it was the same one from the trial battle. They got close enough for him to notice yet another person running towards the whole scene and he almost immediately recognized green hair and red shoes, that were about to be surrounded by the smoke.
He quickly grabbed the metallic collar, that right now was the only physical thing on this villain, and threw him onto the ground, while still holding onto it. In the meantime, Frozen guy used his quirk to cover in ice half of the monster that was holding onto a man in a suit, with yellow hair and sunken, black eyes-
… All Might? Katsuki wanted to take a better look at the supposed hero, without his flashy costume it was hard to tell immediately, but the Warp guy started moving.
“Don’t try anything, you fucking Warp piece of shit.” He said while pushing the strange collar onto the ground with more force. When he glanced around quickly to check on his surroundings, he noticed that red head (Shitty hair?) tried to jump at some guy with hands plastered all over him, but failed, and then All Might managed to free himself from the grasp of the creature.
The Warp guy tried to move again and Katsuki released short explosion from his hand.
“I figured that you actually aren’t made of this fucking mist when you started going on about my attack being dangerous, so you use all of it to hide your real body, huh!?” Katsuki smiled to himself when his opponent’s strange eyes widened and a sound of surprise escaped him. He, once again, tried to move but Katsuki quickly released yet another, bigger, explosion, making him stop immediately. “Don’t move!” He leaned closer to him. “If I see you doing something fishy, I’ll fucking murder you.”
“That’s not very hero-like, bro…” He heard someone’s voice and pressed even harder onto the collar to stop himself from lashing at this person.
Fuck off, asshole, he’s saying it so the guy doesn’t try anything.
Suddenly, the Handy guy gave an order to the creature for it to retrieve their way back, and before Katsuki realized what was going on, he blinked and suddenly was sitting on the ground, few dozen meters away from all the villains (Warp guy somehow in one of the hands of the monster), Deku and two other guys standing around him, just as confused as he was.
“Kacchan!” Deku’s worried voice reached him. “You dodged that?! Amazing!” He sounded surprised, which only pissed Katsuki even more.
“Shut the fuck up, I didn’t.” He answered, still in shock, while keeping his eyes on the villains.
Apparently, All Might saved him in a blink of an eye, when Noumu (as Handy guy called him) rushed at him.
“This guy just doesn’t know how to hold back, eh?” The hero asked while still keeping his battle stance after the creature's attack.
“Oh, you forced me to! I was just defending my comrades.” He shrugged and shook his head. “But earlier that plain looking guy attacked me too!” Handy guy gestured towards their group, and Katsuki glanced at Deku who let out a short, surprised gasp. “He wanted to use everything he had!” His voice was full of accusation, as if this whole situation was Deku’s fault.
Katsuki would agree in any other circumstances, but right now wasn’t the time.
“Ah, but I guess when you use violence to protect others, that makes you admirable, huh..?” He said with hatred. “Is that right, hero?” Last word was full of revulsion, as if even the sound of it was disgusting for him. All Might frowned at him. “You know what? That pisses me off! Both heroes and villains thrive off violence but we are still categorized! ‘You’re good, you’re evil’! Symbol of peace? Ha! In the end, you’re just a tool to keep us down!” He glared at All Might from behind the hand on his face. “Violence breeds more violence. I’ll show the world that by killing you.”
Katsuki frowned and the need to wipe this guy off the Earth only grew stronger. He wanted to try and attack him, but All Might’s reasonable voice stopped him.
“What a nonsense.” He said almost calmly but seemingly angry. “If what you said was true, your eyes would glisten with fire, just like other idealistic villains I’ve encountered.” Katsuki wasn’t sure what All Might meant by that before he finished. “But you’re just enjoying yourself, you big liar.” The villain sneered at hero’s accusatory tone of voice.
“You got me…” Suddenly there was some kind of amusement coming from him. “Saw right through me!” He laughed in disgusting way.
This was getting more and more annoying and apparently, Katsuki wasn’t the only one to think so.
“It’s three on five.” Said the Frozen guy, and just now Katsuki realized that half of his head wasn’t covered in ice anymore and he could finally see that his hair wasn’t completely white, instead being partly red, and that he actually had a big scar on the left side of his face and around his eye.
Quite the discovery. Katsuki mocked himself and took a mental note of the only half face around.
“Kacchan already discovered Warp guy’s weakness!” Deku’s voice brought him back to reality and he couldn’t help but wonder if Deku had called the villain by that nickname on purpose, after Katsuki himself said it earlier.
“These are some messed up guys-“ Shitty hair on his right got ready to attack any second. “-but with us supporting All Might… We can beat them back!” Determined, he hardened both of his arms.
“No!” The hero seemingly wasn’t about to let them fight. “Get out of here!” He sounded both angry and as if he wouldn’t take a ‘no’ for an answer.
“If I hadn’t stepped in with my ice, things wouldn’t go so well.” Half face cut in and took a step forward, covering half of his right arm with frost.
Show off.
“But All Might, you’re bleeding!” Deku, as always, looked as if he was about to start crying.
“Fear not!” Hero wasn’t looking at them anymore, getting ready for the real battle. “Sit back and watch the pro get serious!”
“Noumu. Kurogiri.” They heard Handy guy’s voice. “Take him. I’ll handle the kids.” He said and rushed forward, towards them. They all got ready to fight back.
He was getting closer, but then, sudden blow from All Might’s movements made him stop dead. Hero and monster ran at each other and the impact from when their fists clashed was so powerful that they all had trouble standing still on the ground, Deku actually falling to one of his knees, being unable to stand still, Katsuki soon joining him when All Might repetitively hit the creature, the wind from attacks being too strong for anyone to not have trouble standing and keeping everyone from getting closer, even the Warp guy.
In the end, All Might threw him onto the ground, and when monster tried to stand up, the hero got rid of him with the last final blow.
“PLUS ULTRA!” All Might screamed and sent him off with such power that he went right through the ceiling of the USJ, as if it was just a thin sheet of paper, the whole place shaking like after an explosion.
So that’s the world of pros.
“I’m really out of shape. In my heyday, five of those punches would have been enough!” All Might, after all that, stood his ground, looking down at the shocked opponents. “But that was over 300 just now!” He moved his arm around as if to loosen some strained muscles. “Well, villains-” He took few slow steps towards them. “-how about we hurry up and finish this?” His voice was almost mocking.
“… You cheated…” Handy guy started scratching his neck for some reason. “What’s going on… He’s not weaker at all….” The scratching got much more intense, the sight of it making Katsuki scrunch his nose in disgust. “Did she mess up her report...? Did they lie to me?!” What he was saying didn’t make any sense and it seemed that All Might thought so too as he spoke again in rougher tone.
“What’s wrong? Weren’t you the one who wanted to finish it? If you can take me, then bring it on!” The unbeatable hero challenged and glared at the shocked villain who finally stopped scratching his neck.
Both criminals stood in their places, apparently too afraid to move after what they witnessed and after All Might’s threatening words.
Handy guy let out something like a yelp, like he was afraid and Katsuki couldn’t really blame him. Even if he swore to surpass the number one hero some day, he never would have wanted to face All Might like that.
“Right… That’s a whole new level…” Half face seemed to realize something as well and started backing off.
“Midoriya!” Shitty hair was next to speak. “Let’s get out of here! I’m really not looking forward to becoming a hostage!” He said half jokingly and started walking in the direction of the tall stairs, meanwhile, Katsuki thought that becoming a hostage to villains wasn’t something people should joke about, but that wasn’t the thing to be worried about right now. After all, what are the odds?
Both villains were quickly discussing something between themselves, as all the weaker ones, of whom Aizawa-sensei earlier took care, started raising.
“All Might will take care of these two!” He heard and glanced to see Shitty hair at his side. “We’ll have to deal with those guys!”
Katsuki quickly looked around, other villains were quick to surround them and he got ready to fight back at any second.
“Midoriya!” Red head yelled after Deku who, after staring at All Might for stupidly long amount of time, decided to throw himself between him and the Handy guy who started running towards the hero along with the Warp guy.
He saw everything in slow motion, as Deku tried to hit the metallic collar in the center of the mist, then a hand going through it and right at his old friend’s face.
Now, Katsuki might not have known what his quirk was, but hearing his creepy giggling, he got a strange feeling in his guts and immediately jerked forward towards them, but then someone literally shot the hand. He looked and saw a person holding the freaking guns at the top of the stairs, surrounded by more people, probably pro heroes and their teachers, he realized as he managed to notice the mouse principal sitting on a shoulder of some hero in red costume.
Weaker villains started attacking, after few seconds it all became a blur of who was on which side, but luckily, Katsuki didn’t have to worry about this, as no one was paying any attention to them anymore, especially that the Handy guy retreated with the use of Warp guy’s quirk, with the last words of threat towards All Might.
“If so many of pro heroes came to USJ,” Half face said while looking around, “that means the villains were only there…” He pointed out, in the meantime, Shitty hair ran off towards Deku.
“Yeah, no shit.” Katsuki answered him with spite in his voice, while keep looking at the pro heroes who were busy taking care of fallen villains. “They came after All Might who was supposed to be here, that was pretty obvious to begin with.”
Before Halfie had a chance to answer him, they heard someone’s voice shouting at them.
“Hey, guys!” Katsuki turned around and stared at the person running towards them. “Cementoss said that we need to get to the exit and join the others!” The one with spiky red hair exclaimed while joining them.
“What about Midoriya?” Katsuki rolled his eyes at the question that came out of the guy with a scar. “Is he alright?” He asked, even if the tone of his voice didn’t have any ounce of concern in it.
“Who fucking gives a shit?” Katsuki cut in before Shitty hair could answer. “Probably broke something again with that ‘great’ fucking quirk of his.” He started walking, not waiting for any reaction from the two.
“Dude, it’s not his fault!” Red head appeared at his side and lightly nudged his shoulder. “You shouldn’t say these kind of stuff about other people’s quirks!” Katsuki grit his teeth at his words. Who was he to tell him about quirk discrimination?!
“Especially considering what you can do with your power.” Bakugou stopped when the snarky comment reached him.
How fucking dare they.
He turned around and saw the same guy with a scar over his left eye, half of his body still frozen, spare the head, looking at him unimpressed. Katsuki walked up to him angrily, probably invading his personal space, being only few inches from him.
“What the fuck did you say, you fucking Half face!?” Bakugou was pleased to notice a slight twitch of his eye and slowly raising hand, but before he could do anything, Shitty hair cut in between them.
“Woah, there-“ he forced them to take few steps from each other by putting his hands of each of their shoulders and pushing away. “-that’s really not a time for something like this, guys.” He looked at the scarred guy and then back at Katsuki. “Also, isn’t that a bit too much?” It was obvious what his question was about, as he subtly tilted his head towards the other teen, so Katsuki decided not to comment on it. Instead, he just rolled his eyes and shoved his hand away, then once again started walking towards the stairs, the two guys right behind him. There, at the top, was waiting some woman with long, dark hair and white bodysuit who started waving at them with a whip in her hand when she noticed they were approaching.
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Eijirou shifted uncomfortably the weight of his body from one leg to another, before he decided to just sit down on the ground near the door leading to one of the rooms, which principal lend to the police investigators so they could interrogate all the students in peace. He was waiting for his turn patiently, even if he looked at any person, who would pass by, with jealousy when they told him they were already free to go home, as they were done with their testimonies.
He looked at the clock hanging on the far end of the corridor and realized that almost half an hour already passed.
Why Bakugou’s interrogation was taking so long? Eijirou sighed and wished that he could at least go and get changed from his hero costume.
He thought that maybe it was because he was in the middle of the action with All Might, but then Todoroki walked past him quite some time ago, already done with everything and barely sparing Eijirou a glance, even after he tried to start some sort of a small talk with him.
At this point, Eijirou was simply bored.
“Kirishima-kun.” Squeaky voice reached him and he looked in the direction which it came from, his sight immediately falling on the small figure of principal Nezu. “You’re still waiting for your turn, I see.” Eijirou wanted to stand up, but then the principal joined him on the ground, so he just straightened his back to look more presentable next to him. “No need to be so uptight.” Nezu sent him a smile and Eijirou chuckled at his comment nervously while loosening up a bit.
“Yeah,” he fiddled with the hem of the ripped material wrapped around his hips. “Bakugou is taking kinda long with his interrogation. I wonder what kind of questions they're asking him...” He noticed that the small smile disappeared from principal’s face and took it as a sign that he might have said something wrong. “I mean! I don’t blame him or anything, of course! It’s probably the police officers asking him about all sorts of strange stuff!” He quickly explained himself but the smile didn’t return to mouse’s face.
“Don’t worry, Kirishima-kun.” He stood up and patted Eijirou’s shoulder few times in a reassuring manner. “We just have to-“ Before he could finish, the door violently sliding open interrupted him.
“I’m not answering any other fucking questions!” Bakugou came out of the room and yelled at the two police officers who tried to ask him to come back.
“We just need you to confirm if you saw these few villains in the collapsed zone!” Short woman with a tail and claws said as she tried to convince Bakugou to go back inside.
“Get someone else to confirm this useless shit, I already told you everything about All Might and the fights!” That’s when Bakugou noticed Eijirou with Nezu and froze on the spot. He was glancing between them with surprise and slight panic obvious on his face.
Eijirou quickly stood up and Bakugou’s eyes fell on him, then moved slightly up to his hair and then scanned over his whole posture, strange silence stretching awkwardly between them.
“Bakugou, are you alright?” Eijirou took a step closer towards Bakugou, who started glaring at him for some reason.
Before he could answer, principal walked up to the woman and stood between her and his angry classmate, who was now focused on the mouse.
“I think that’s enough for interrogating this particular student.” He said calmly, yet with stern voice that wouldn’t take a ‘no’ for an answer.
“But we’re not done yet!” The other officer, man with gray skin and small horns pointing out from his bald head, said impatiently. “I’m sorry, Nezu-san, I know it’s taking too long, but he just won’t answer our simplest questions!” He waved around a pile of some documents in his hand. “We just need him to confirm the identities of some of the villains, I don’t think that’s too much to ask for!” He crossed his arms on his chest, furrowing his eyebrows at Bakugou’s scoff.
If Eijirou had to be honest, the policeman was actually right. That wasn’t too much to ask for, especially that he could easily recall some of the villains he fought with Bakugou on the spot.
“I have to disagree.” But apparently, the principal didn’t think so.
“We just need him to recognize few of them from their mug shots from the past!” The woman’s tail moved around impatiently. “It wouldn’t take so long if the boy was more cooperative.” She put her hand on her hip, while the other officer nodded quickly at her words.
Eijirou muted out the rest of the arguing between the principal and police officers and glanced at Bakugou. He was shocked to see that his whole body was incredibly tense and expression wasn’t entirely twisted in an angry scowl. His eyebrows were still furrowed but his widened eyes were glued to the floor, as if trying to avoid any eye contact at all cost. His lips were pressed into a slim line, jaw clenched, and Eijirou couldn’t help but think he was somehow distressed or even ashamed of something, but he couldn’t think of anything he could be ashamed of.
After all, they did a pretty good job in the collapsed zone, with all the villains attacking them, and then Bakugou even managed to pin down that Warp guy, which helped All Might plenty.
“Kirishima-kun.” Eijirou snapped out from his thoughts and looked down at the principal who called out to him. “You were there with Bakugou-kun the whole time, am I correct?” His tail wiggled a bit, in some kind of fidgety way.
“Uh-“ He glanced at Bakugou who still wasn’t looking at anyone, his expression changed only slightly, he bit into his lower lip, like he wanted to stop himself from commenting on the situation. “Yeah… I was.” He noticed Nezu nodding encouragingly, while Bakugou lowered his head even more. “We fought off the villains together and moved to where we thought that one with a teleportation quirk was.” He anxiously looked at the two officers and back at the principal. He didn’t dare checking what expression his classmate was wearing right now.
“See, officers?” Nezu turned to them and smiled in his usual way. “He can give you all the details about the villains presented there that you might need.”
Eijirou didn’t know about all the details, but he was pretty sure that if they were going to really show him the pictures of these villains, he wouldn’t have any trouble with pointing out which of them were there.
But why Bakugou would have any?
“… Alright.” Horned man finally said after few seconds of exchanging looks with his partner. “Go sit inside so we can get this over with.” He gestured towards the room and took a step back, giving Eijirou some space to enter it freely.
Eijirou looked at Bakugou, one last time as he walked past him, giving him a quick nod and small smile to give him some kind of reassurance, even if he didn’t know the reason behind his behaviour, he could at least give him that. Bakugou looked at him with knitted eyebrows, in some kind of puzzled or even almost worried manner, but it was hard to tell with him.
Before the door closed behind him, he saw Nezu turn to Bakugou and tell him something so quietly, that he couldn’t make anything out of it.
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“Good thing I came. It would be unfortunate if some outing happened here.” Nezu smiled to himself and looked at the student, who was still standing in the middle of the corridor with somewhat angry and slightly ashamed expression. His smile disappeared when he noticed boy’s tense shoulders. “Bakugou-kun,” he finally looked at him, “you are free to go home. No need to worry about anything. Kirishima-kun and I will take care of this.”
The student glanced at the door that closed few moments ago behind his confused, yet willing to help, classmate and then back to the principal. He looked like he wanted to say something, but the words just wouldn’t leave him, apparently.
“If he asks, I won’t say anything.” Nezu tried saying the last bit in reassuring voice, but it only caused his young student to scowl furiously.
“… Goodbye, principal.” Bakugou bowed slightly after few seconds of glaring angrily and turned around without waiting for any kind of response.
Nezu sighed and decided to wait for the officers to finish interrogating Kirishima.
This one will be a handful. He thought and sat back down in the same spot next to the door as before.
Notes:
FUCKING MONTH. WHOLE MONTH IT TOOK ME TO WRITE THIS THING. NEXT CHAPTER IS 7K LONG AND IT TOOK ME ONLY 8 DAYS, IT'S LIKE 'when you do an assignment for school vs. when you do something for yourself' JESUS CHRIST.
I basically wrote this whole chapter for that one scene when Bakugou throws Kiri down to the ground lmao
Anyway, I want to thank that one anon who actually came to my inbox and screamed l m a o love ya dude
AND AGAIN; if you want to scream with me (literally or not), go to my tumblr, right here <3
Up next; Bnha but it's Boys Love sports anime.
Chapter 9: Not yet
Summary:
Panic! At The Academia
Notes:
Attention please~ I added some tags so check that out!!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Eijirou, tired after this crazy day, didn’t even make it to his bedroom, just fell onto a couch and a thought crossed his mind, that maybe he should call his moms, but he realized that ma' was in a different time-zone at the moment, while mom was probably working on some case.
He groaned into one of the pillows, tired and annoyed.
Who would have thought they would be attacked by the villains at school?
After they were safe and back at school, principal Nezu made them all stay there longer, so the police could interrogate each and every one of them individually and write down their testimonies. The whole ordeal was pretty stressful (not as stressful as the attack itself, of course) and time consuming, as Eijirou didn’t want to mess anything up, by confusing the right order of the events or describing the villains incorrectly.
… Describing the villains. Eijirou opened his eyes when he remembered the strange situation with Bakugou from few hours earlier. He reached lazily for his bag, that he threw next to the couch, and searched blindly for his phone.
As soon as Eijirou managed to find it, he noticed few notifications in the class’ group chat and he decided that since there weren’t that many of them, he could check some of the latest ones quickly.
Yaoyorozu Momo: Hagakure-san, you were with Todoroki-san, right?
Hagakure Toru: yeah!! Even tho I was some distance away I saw how cool he was with his ice and stuff!!! :O
Todoroki Shouto: you should’ve given me some signal, I could’ve hurt you unintentionally
Hagakure Toru: aw <3 r u worried about me, Todoroki-kun? ;3
Todoroki Shouto: not really
Kaminari Denki: lol
Todoroki Shouto: as a future hero I can’t afford myself to hurt other people who are not villains
Hagakure Toru: you can’t toy with girl’s feelings like that! :<
Kaminari Denki: Todoroki, that’s COLD
Kaminari Denki: lmao get it? c o l d
Sero Hanta: ... dude.
Yaoyorozu Momo: Yes, Kaminari-san. We get it.
Jirou Kyoka: hah
Jirou Kyoka: cold
Kaminari Denki: <3
Eijirou chuckled at the shenanigans and closed the chat to see if Bakugou was online.
Luckily, he actually was.
He opened a chat with him and realized they haven’t even talked there before, and thus he had trouble coming up with an ice breaker that wouldn’t piss off his always angry classmate.
He started typing.
‘what was up with those police officers?’ Eijirou frowned and erased the message. If anything, this would probably get him straight to being blocked permanently by him. He had enough brain cells to know that this was probably some kind of a touchy subject.
Maybe he should start with simple ‘hello’ or something like that.
‘hey Blasty!’ He stared at the nickname for few seconds, just to delete it. Bakugou didn’t look like a fan of those- more like a fan of insults.
After few moments, Eijirou realized that Bakugou will be angry anyway, no matter what he’d write to him.
Kirishima Eijirou: hey Bakugou!! good job today, it was really tough fight!
That should do it, right? Eijirou thought and started tapping anxiously the back of his phone, waiting for any kind of a reaction.
Bakugou Katsuki read the message
“Holy shit-“ Eijirou, surprised, sat up straight and held his breath in a wait for an actual answer.
Which, even after few minutes, didn’t come.
Eijirou scratched his head and when he wanted to check his internet connection, he saw that Bakugou was finally typing.
Bakugou Katsuki: It wasn’t, those villains were fucking weak.
Eijirou couldn’t help, but smile to himself. It was some kind of an achievement, to get Bakugou to participate in a conversation, even if it wasn’t their group chat.
Kirishima Eijirou: yeah, but those three later!! Shigaraki one and that warp guy and Noumu monster?
Bakugou Katsuki: Who the fuck is Shigaraki?
Eijirou blinked few times at the question. Wasn’t it the name he was called by another villain?
Kirishima Eijirou: you know! this guy with hands all over his body and on his face?
Bakugou Katsuki: Fucking handy guy
Bakugou Katsuki: I don’t give a shit about their names.
Kirishima Eijirou: aw man, you should tho! like, we need to know more dangerous villains, like we know more popular heroes?
Bakugou Katsuki: whatever
Eijirou chuckled at quickly written answer, Bakugou probably didn’t want to admit that he was in the wrong in this situation.
… Speaking of-
Kirishima Eijirou: hey can I ask you something?
Bakugou Katsuki: Depends.
Kirishima Eijirou: Please don’t block me for this.
Kirishima Eijirou: but do you actually not know how to silence a chat?
Bakugou Katsuki: You can’t.
Kirishima Eijirou: what?
Bakugou Katsuki: You asked if you can ask me something. Here’s your answer; you can’t ask me anything.
Kirishima Eijirou: … that’s not how it works!!! D:
Bakugou Katsuki: whatfuckingever
Kirishima Eijirou: aw come on man
Kirishima Eijirou: ok let’s say you know how to do that
Kirishima Eijirou: but I’ll leave those screenshots here anyway!
Eijirou searched for few seconds for the screenshots he took few days earlier and forgot about up until now. After successful hunt, he quickly edited one of them by circling the little speaker icon, then made sure that the pictures with easy instructions were in the right order and sent them to Bakugou.
And then he waited.
And waited.
And managed to change from his uniform to his more comfortable tracksuit trousers and Fat Gum t-shirt.
He was about to reheat his dinner when sudden sound of an incoming message almost caused him to drop his plate with food on it. Eijirou quickly put it in a microwave and reached for his phone, which was lying on the small dining table, and checked who sent him a message, happy to discover that it actually was Bakugou.
Bakugou Katsuki: Let’s say I know how to block people.
Eijirou snorted loudly at that. Who would have thought that it’d take them to fight villains together to finally manage to have a somehow civil conversation?
Kirishima Eijirou: are you going to block me?
Bakugou Katsuki: Probably.
Kirishima Eijirou: bro… :C
Kirishima Eijirou: I’m out there helping u fight villains in some ruins and figure out the chat and then there you are giving me a cold shoulder >:C
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So that’s who Katsuki has been talking to; Shitty hair, who was with him in the collapsed zone and probably later, when principal practically saved his ass by forcing the red head to talk to those asshole police officers instead of him.
At least Shitty hair didn’t mention anything about this situation…
Not that big of an idiot, after all.
But then Katsuki thought ‘what if it wasn’t him?’ and there was someone out there, just walking around, telling people about his idiotic behavior? But then again, the guy had the same stupid hair and bare chest with those useless gears on his shoulders, so everything matched with the dude he was fighting alongside during the attack.
He looked at Shitty hair’s messages.
Kirishima Eijirou.
So that was his name.
Katsuki put his phone on the nightstand, stood up lazily, from where he was lying on his bed, and walked over to his desk. He started searching through the drawers and finally found the hated folder that he put inside the bottom one. He glared at the words ‘Class 1-A’ on top of it and cursed few times while opening it.
First face that stared back at him was of some plain looking guy with black hair.
Definitely not him.
Katsuki sat down on the floor and took out all of the photographs, and turned them in his hand, so he could see the back of each one, as he was shuffling through them, looking for one particular name.
Shoji, Jirou, Uraraka, Asui, Sero, Bakugou-
Why the fuck was his own picture among these? Katsuki quickly looked at it, even tho he needed few moments to make sure it was actually him, recognizing his own red eyes and ash blond hair, and put it away from the others.
He sighed, slightly annoyed, and continued looking through the names, then after few more unfamiliar ones- Kirishima Eijirou.
Katsuki swiftly turned it around and looked at kind of familiar shitty hairstyle, and then realized that the edges were slightly burnt. He quickly recalled the situation from the beginning of the school year, when his mother tried to make him recognize some people and, apparently, that Kirishima guy was one of them.
He threw the rest of the pictures onto the floor, and as he tried to take a better look at the face of Shitty hair, he heard few quick knocks on his door, but before he could answer or hide the pictures, someone entered his room.
“Katsuki-“ woman’s voice, his mother “-do you want to go with us-“ she stopped and scanned first him, sitting on the floor with a photo in his hand, then his surroundings, the folder and all the other pictures he scattered around. She looked back at him with confusion on her face. “… What are you doing?” She asked carefully and took few slow steps towards him.
“Can’t you fucking knock?!” He yelled at her and quickly tried to get all the pictures back into the folder.
“I fucking knocked, you brat!” She stopped and stared at the pictures that Katsuki, at this point, desperately tried to hide from her curious gaze. Her eyes widened in surprise. “… Holy shit, are you-“
“I’M NOT.” He managed to close the folder and immediately threw it back into one of the drawers of his desk, then proceeded to sit cross legged in front of said desk, as to stop his mother from getting to it.
“… Alright, let’s start over.” She said carefully, took few steps back and cleared her throat. “Katsuki, darling-“ he rolled his eyes at the endearment, spoken in slightly sarcastic manner. “-just now, were you actually looking through the pictures of your classmates?” Katsuki finally looked up at her, and when he didn’t see any mockery on her face, he sighed and stood up from his place.
“I was just looking for one guy…” He said with calmer voice, while putting hands in the pockets of his sweatpants, and looked to the side with a frown. He noticed that, in a hurry, he forgot to collect two last pictures.
For few lingering moments, his mother was silent, and when he finally decided to glance at her, surprisingly, she was smiling softly.
“Do you want to go out with us for dinner?” She approached him slowly and put a hand on his cheek, smile never leaving her face.
Katsuki was thankful for the change of a subject.
“… Yeah.” He answered after few more seconds and looked back at the forgotten pictures. “I’ll just clean this shit up and join you downstairs.” He took a step back and reached for both photos.
“Alright.” Katsuki heard behind his back and then the soft sound of the door opening reached him as well. “But-“ he turned around to see his mother linger between his room and the corridor. “-even if it was just ‘one guy’, I’m still proud of you, you little brat.” She winked and left the room before he could say anything.
Katsuki felt a warm feeling in his chest, he looked down at both of the pictures and decided that he didn’t want to deal with any more ‘recognizing’ today, so without looking at them, he put them in the drawer with the others and left his room, his phone forgotten on the nightstand.
___
Katsuki hated wasting time at his house, so he was more than happy to return to school after those few days when it was shut down.
That was until some idiot approached him, while he was sitting at his desk with phone in his hand, clearly giving off signals to not fucking bother him.
“Bro, you left me hanging for these few days.” Some guy with red hair squatted next to his desk and put his crossed arms on it, for the support.
“No clue what you’re talking about.” Katsuki answered, without sparing him a single glance, and continued to scroll through some website he wasn’t really interested in.
“Aw, come on man!” He poked Katsuki lightly on the shoulder, who’s eyebrow twitched in annoyance. “You never answered me after I helped you with the chat and stuff!” This got Katsuki’s attention.
He glared at the guy, who was smiling like an idiot and clearly waiting for an answer. Katsuki then glanced at his hair and realized that he was talking to Shitty hair.
What was his name?
…
Kirishima.
He quickly looked around to see if anyone heard what he said, but everyone was busy talking to each other.
“Fuck off, you didn’t help me with anything.” He said and redirected his attention back to his mobile. “Also, I’m not hanging on my phone all the damn time, Shitty hair.”
Few seconds passed and from the lack of any answer, Katsuki looked back at him; Kirishima was staring at him silently, then his gaze moved to the phone in his hand and back to him, as if to make a point.
Katsuki grit his teeth and slammed the phone on his desk, then crossed his arms.
“Shut up! I’m not talking about this fucking moment, you hair for brains!” He looked towards the door in hope that the teacher would appear at some point, saving him from this situation.
“I didn’t say anything!” Shitty hair said defensively and chuckled as he stood up. “Come on, Blasty-“ why that stupid nickname? “-nothing to be ashamed of!” He patted his shoulder, but before Katsuki could push him away or react somehow, the door to their class opened and a woman with long, dark hair entered the room.
“All right, first of all-” she moved to the front and put some papers on the teacher’s desk, and waited a few moments as students, including Kirishima, took their sits. “-if anyone finds a quirk-repressing collar, forward it to me or nearest teacher, whatever.” She said, clearly annoyed. ”Some police officer lost one after the USJ incident, but don’t worry, it’s not like these cost us an arm and a leg!” She laughed at her own joke, while Katsuki rolled his eyes. “Anyway,” the teacher finally composed herself after few seconds. “I know it’s been a while, but I hope everyone completed their assignments.” Few students groaned tiredly at the mention of homework. “Come on kids, you had plenty of time to finish it!” She laughed again, and the lesson with Midnight finally began.
___
When the time for homeroom came, students wondered who would come as a replacement for Aizawa-sensei, as he was probably still in the hospital after the USJ incident.
Katsuki couldn’t help, but feel a bit uneasy about it. If they were to have new homeroom teacher for the time being, would they be informed about his condition? Would they randomly decide to confront him about it?
Would they inform the whole class about it?
Katsuki glanced with worried frown towards the door that was staying shut, despite that homeroom was supposed to start over ten minutes ago.
He took a deep breath.
Maybe he was overreacting. After all, the principal already saved his ass once and he promised not to tell anyone few times already.
But did it include the teachers?
Katsuki tried to recall if any member of the faculty ever said something or stared at him in a strange way, but then again, he couldn’t even remember how any of them looked like in the first place, not to mention their expressions, so what use it was? By now, there were plenty of people looking at him in one way or another, already entitled to their opinions.
Before he could spiral even deeper into his thoughts, the door slid open and good amount of people started yelling at the person that it was far too early for him to leave the hospital.
Katsuki watched as the man, almost completely covered in bandages, closed the door behind him and walked up to the front desk. It took him few seconds to recognize their teacher in this strange person, but when he did, he was more than happy to feel relieved.
Bandages all over the body.
At least he won’t have any trouble recognizing Aizawa-sensei, for the time being.
“If you all are done yelling-“ the class went silent the same moment the teacher raised his voice “-then I have an announcement for you.”
___
All the ruckus at the door was already annoying for Katsuki, after all, he just wanted to go home and start training for the sports festival. But of course he wouldn’t be able to do that, because some randoms decided to block the exit from their classroom, taking the space of half of the corridor.
“Ahh, there’s no way out!” Some girl with short brown hair said with panic in her voice. “What are they here for?” She turned to Deku who shrugged with worried expression and looked with slight concern at the people, who gathered outside.
Katsuki just walked past these two.
“They’re just scoping the competition.” He said and gave unimpressed look to the students who were nearest the exit. “We are the ones who were attacked by the villains, makes sense they’d want a look before the festival.” When none of them made any move that would indicate they’d go away, he got even more annoyed. “Move aside, fucking extras.”
“Can we please not resort to calling people we don’t know ‘extras’?!” He heard someone behind yell at him and oh the fucking irony, considering Katsuki never actually knew anyone.
He couldn’t care less.
“It’s true.” Someone said in the crowd, which slightly calmed down at this point. “We came to get a look, but you sure are modest.” Katsuki didn’t fail to notice the sarcastic tone of the voice. “Is everyone in the hero course like that?” He grit his teeth and glared at the guy who finally emerged from the crowd.
Mess of purple hair only brought out dark circles under his eyes.
“Gotta say, I’m a bit disappointed if this is what you’re offering.” He took out his hand from a pocket of his trousers and scratched the back of his head.
Yes, some cheeky asshole was what Katsuki needed right now.
He continued to explain how the sports festival worked for people outside the hero course, as if Katsuki wasn’t already aware of that. Not that he cared if any of the peeps from general studies transferred to the hero course, as long as his position was secure, he didn’t give a shit.
“Consider this a declaration of war.” Katsuki had to stop himself from snorting, instead he settled on a frown and a glare at the guy’s last words as he turned around and walked away.
When Katsuki was ready to get moving as well, another person decided to share their opinion on class 1-A.
“HEY!” Guy with grey hair yelled while trying to get through the crowd. “I’M FROM CLASS 1-B, NEXT DOOR!” Katsuki looked at him, unimpressed, and noticed that whoever was behind him earlier, was suddenly quiet. He dared glancing back and saw Deku and few other people silently staring at the guy as well, with mixed emotions.
What’s with annoying assholes today?
“We heard that you guys fought some villains, wanted to find out more, but-“ He eyed them all and his gaze stopped on Katsuki himself. “-all I’m seeing is this arrogant bastard! You better not make fools out of the whole hero course at the festival!” After that, the grey haired guy retreated to the back of the crowd and probably to his class.
… Who the fuck do you call an arrogant bastard!?
Katsuki bit his tongue to stop himself from yelling after the guy and took a deep breath, as he didn’t want deal with more people, who wouldn’t like his honest opinions. He moved to another door, where he noticed were fewer people blocking it.
“Bakugou!” He glanced at the red haired person who called out to him. “You made people from other classes hate us!” Accusation that came from the guy didn’t really bother him and thus, he decided that he could as well say as much.
“I don’t give a crap.” Katsuki scanned quickly all the people he thought were his classmates, who let out shocked yelps after his declaration, and then glared at those who were still lingering outside the class. “I’m heading for the top.” He was going to win this thing and prove to these assholes what he can do with his quirk. “Why should I care?” Katsuki said in the end, and once again, moved towards the door.
“That was so simple, yet so manly-!” Katsuki spared one last glance at the person who said that. Red hair, stylized in shitty way.
Apparently Kirishima was an emotional guy who often would say what he had on his mind.
Katsuki finally left the classroom, trying his best to ignore the words of these idiots from earlier.
He swallowed a lump in his throat.
Ah yes. Katsuki thought as he walked down the stairs. The good old feeling of a need to punch an asshole who’s talking shit, but then I already forget how the asshole looks like.
He grit his teeth.
Fucking perfect.
___
Two weeks to prepare for the festival; besides the time they were given to practice their skills on their own, Aizawa-sensei made sure that all of them would get an extra training at school, either in groups or individually.
Katsuki, even tho he knew that it was a common pattern for the famous sports festival to, at some point, involve a task requiring cooperation between the students, still couldn’t care less about others’ training and decided to focus on exploring and controlling his own quirk, by releasing as big explosions as he could manage without straining his muscles, behind one of the gyms, as far away from the others as sensei allowed him to go.
That’s why sudden presence in his vicinity pissed him off.
“Yo! Bakugou!” Someone with yellow hair in the distance yelled while waving at him with too much excitement. “Chill for a second, we’re coming!” Katsuki rolled his eyes and just now noticed two other guys with him- one tall with straight, black hair, the other with stupid, red hairstyle. Then, few meters behind them, some girl with pink skin talking excitedly to a man covered in bandages (Aizawa-sensei?).
“The fuck do you want?” Katsuki asked while trying to figure out just who exactly decided to bother him and why.
“Bakugou!” The one with red hair jogged up to him, while the other two stopped few steps away. “Sensei wanted us all to train together!” He put one of his hands on Katsuki’s shoulder while half of his other arm hardened. “He said that if we get the chance, we should try to team up again, like during the attack.” He smiled and then pointed at the two other guys. “I thought it’d be funnier to train in bigger group, so I brought Kaminari, Sero and Ashido as well!” His arm turned back into soft flesh.
Right, Shitty hair. Katsuki realized and shoved his hand away.
“I don’t need any ballast during my training.” He turned around in intentions of walking further away, but then felt all too familiar material around his arm.
“You’re not going anywhere.” Muffled voice of their teacher, coming from behind bandages covering his face, reached him. “You all need to learn to cooperate, so you stay there and you all will train together.” His voice indicated that he wouldn’t let Katsuki go until he’d agree to this stupid ordeal.
He stared at them all, at Shitty hair who was staring back with friendly smile, at the two other guys who were snickering between each other about something, then at the pink girl who’s eyes were either completely black, or just strangely distorted.
Katsuki furrowed his eyebrows and looked to the side.
“… Fucking fine, jeez.” He muttered angrily and Aizawa let go of him, then started walking away.
“I’ll be in a short distance, try to not kill each other.” He told them in the end and off he was.
“That one’s for Bakugou!” The yellow head yelled after their teacher and started laughing at his own joke with the tall guy, pink girl elbowing him in the ribs. “Ouch- Ashido, come on!”
“You ‘come on’, Kaminari. Blasty’s not that bad!” Shitty hair said and while Katsuki didn’t like the stupid nickname, maybe he could remember that only this particular guy was calling him that.
“Blasty doesn’t care!” Never-fucking-mind. “Do you?” Yellow haired dude looked at him with a grin, which Katsuki had no intentions of returning.
“Don’t fucking call me that.” The guy just shrugged, smile still present on his stupid face. “Why the fuck you all came here? I was busy.” He looked at them and crossed arms on his chest.
“Come on, Baku, Kirishima already told you!” Pink girl stepped closer to him, with just too much excitement for him to bear. “There’s only so much you can do on your own!” She said and started mimicking the way he releases his explosions. “Aizawa-sensei agreed for us to go and make you join us!” She ended with a jump and looked at him with those strange, huge, black eyes, like she was waiting for his answer.
Wait- make him?
“Yeah, also, no one else would be stupid enough to ask you to join their group…” The yellow head commented, at what he got another hit in the ribs, but that wasn’t enough.
“The fuck do you mean by that, you piece of yellow shit?!” Katsuki walked up closer to him and few explosions went off from his palms.
“Alright, that’s it.” Black haired guy grabbed the shorter one by his elbow and started walking away with him. “Ashido, give us the signal and we’ll start attacking or something, explain everything to him! Kaminari, when will you learn to shut up?” Katsuki managed to hear him ask and they finally left.
“So-” Kirishima put an arm around his shoulders, but Katsuki immediately pushed him away.
“Don’t fucking touch me.” He crossed his arms on his chest once again and glared at him.
“… Anyway!” He composed himself surprisingly quickly. “We wanted to try managing training on our own and needed a higher difficulty level and-“ he took a step back that probably was supposed to be subtle “-well… you are kind of the most difficult one to train here with. No offence!”Shitty hair rised his hands in front of him in some kind of defensive manner and sheepish smile appeared on his face.
“How the fuck am I not supposed to take any offence, you-“
“Kaminari and Sero are the two with long-range attacks so the three of us will have to come close to them, while trying to avoid getting hit!” He interrupted him quickly and hardened both of his forearms and hands.
“Yeah!” Pink girl yelled. ”And before that, I’ll give them the signal, something-“ She jumped few times and started waving around. “-like this, and then they’ll start attacking!” She finished and finally stopped moving.
Katsuki glared at them for few moments. It wasn’t that bad of an idea, but what use it was right before a literal competition, where the element of surprise would be essential in many cases?
“… That’s fucking stupid.” He said and turned to go away, as he realized that without Aizawa, there was no one else to stop him.
“LOOK OUT!” Someone screamed, but before Katsuki had a chance to react, something sticky wrapped around his eyes and neck, and pulled back with enough force, that he fell to the ground, without a chance to somehow make a fall easier on his body. Luckily he didn’t hit his head too badly, but the feeling of something on his neck made him suffocate, even if the material wasn’t even pulling that hard.
“Sero!” He heard girl’s accusing yell. “That wasn’t the signal!”
Katsuki, panicked, tear off the tape-like material from his neck and only when he was sure that the air wasn’t blocked by any sludge, but actually made it into his lungs upon breathing, he took off the one from his eyes as well.
What’s with people wrapping me in fucking stuff!? He thought as he tried to calm his heavy breathing and slightly shaking hands.
“You didn’t specify what was the exact signal!” Another yell, some distance away, but clearly getting closer. “Shit-” Before Katsuki could get up, the guy who ran up to him extended his hand towards him. “-dude, I’m so, so sorry, are you okay?” Katsuki looked up at the stranger and realized how pitifully he must have looked in his eyes at this moment.
He smacked the guy's hand away and got up on his own, pretending he was perfectly fine.
“Who the fuck are you, so I can kill you later without witnesses?!” He screamed in a moment of panic, with slightly quivering voice and realized that his filter might not have been all that fine.
“Ahhh- shit.” The dude said and looked somewhere behind him. “SENSEI!” He screamed in the direction where their teacher apparently was. “BAKUGOU HAS A CONCUSSION!”
“I don’t have anything, you asshole, leave me alone!” He got ready to leave them and find somewhere else to calm down completely, but Aizawa-sensei suddenly appeared in front of him.
“What happened here?” He asked, clearly annoyed for being disturbed while taking a nap, as his sleeping bag was still in his hand.
“Sero accidentally made Bakugou fall and he kinda didn’t recognize him? I think he probably hit his head too hard, against the ground.” Kirishima explained while eyeing Katsuki in concerned, yet slightly suspicious manner.
Meanwhile, Katsuki saw Aizawa’s eyes narrow for a split second at the guy’s short explanation. The teacher looked at the three other students and at the yellow haired one, who just ran up to them, and Katsuki tried his best to ignore the feeling of panic that crept its way into the back of his head.
Aizawa sighed heavily, then looked back at Katsuki.
“Alright, give him some space.” Others took few unsure steps back, while sensei leaned a bit closer to him and spoke in half whisper. “Is this the fall thing or your thing?” Katsuki's frown deepened at that and he glanced at the others who looked curiously at them, but didn’t seem to hear his question.
“… My thing.” He whispered back and looked to the side, angry that he had to admit to all that bullshit. Aizawa stared at him for few more seconds, then put a heavy hand on his shoulder.
“You kids go and join the others, I’ll take him to Recovery Girl.” He said suddenly and started slowly walking away.
“What!?” Katsuki realized that the same moment he asked, someone else also yelled with him. He looked over his shoulder and saw that the guy with red hair was few steps closer than everyone else.
“Your head hurts?” Kirishima continued with concern.
“It fucking doesn’t, get off my back!” He’d rather go to that nurse if that meant he wouldn’t have to explain himself to anyone right now.
“But the nurse-“
“He’s going just to make sure.” Aizawa cut in. “Don’t worry, Kirishima, he’ll be back before you know it.” He said, clearly annoyed, as he adjusted bandages on his hands and turned around.
Katsuki spared one last look at Kirishima and followed their teacher.
They got to the main entrance of the gym and when Katsuki wanted to ask if he really had to go to Recovery Girl, he was interrupted by Aizawa, who up until this point was quiet.
“Tell me, Bakugou-“ he turned around and peered down at Katsuki from behind the bandages. “-when the time comes-“ Katsuki frowned at the tone of his voice “-how will you be able to tell who’s your ally-“ he really didn’t like where this was going “-and who’s a foe?”
Silence fell between them. Katsuki's eyes widened and he swallowed a lump that suddenly appeared in his throat. He tried to ignore a knot in his stomach. Arms that were crossed on his chest, fell down to his sides, fists clenched. He looked down with shocked frown on his face.
It’s not like Katsuki never thought about this, it just never really kicked in.
Until now, that is.
Just few moments ago, he slipped and almost blew up his cover by asking this dude who he was, like some kind of an idiot, to which he obviously didn’t get an answer for, and he was almost hundred percent sure that a villain wouldn’t even think of answering that for him, especially during the fight. Then again, he somehow managed to not attack Kirishima during the USJ attack, by remembering his stupid hair, but he was his only ally in this situation, later on he knew damn well that he was confused by the amount of heroes and villains in one place.
Not to mention that before all that he pinned Shitty hair to the ground.
“We both know that you’re not stupid,” Aizawa continued from lack of an answer. “But you are too stubborn for your own good.” Katsuki glared at him. “I said that before, heroes need allies who they can trust, and trust goes both ways.” He pointed somewhere in the direction of the training fields and Katsuki looked over there to see some students exercising in small groups. “Those are your classmates, in case you were wondering.” Sensei added in somehow amused voice and Katsuki shot him another glare.
“… Fucking whatever, I don’t need them.” He finally snarked and tried to ignore the way his teacher sighed, probably in resignation. “I’m done here, I’m going to train on my own.” Katsuki added, but when he was about to leave, Aizawa put a hand on his shoulder.
“They can always help you at the support department.” He said with surprisingly calm voice, while Katsuki looked at him with angry and confused frown.
“Why the fuck would I go there?” The question escaped his mouth before he could process it. He watched as the teacher sighed once again, but in a strange way, that Katsuki couldn’t decipher in that moment, it was even harder considering his whole face was hidden behind the bandages.
“… Guess you’re not quite there yet.” Aizawa muttered to himself after few seconds of silence and let go of his shoulder. “You can go train on your own.” Before Katsuki could understand what he meant, the teacher turned around and left him alone.
Katsuki stared at his back before he disappeared behind the corner of the building, and then he looked down at his hands.
Why would he do anything with the support department?
He shook his head and turned around to head back to where he was training earlier, hoping that no one else would be there to see his angry and probably pained expression, he couldn't get rid of.
___
"Aw man- I didn't think that of all people I'd be the one to send someone to the nurse..." Sero said while examining his elbows. "And Bakugou of all people..." He added and sighed. "I'm so fucked."
"I'm pretty sure that both of you are going to be fine." Kaminari patted him on a shoulder. "After all, he still had it in him to threaten you!" Sero actually snickered at the mention of it.
"And he was busy being mean to us, so it's not like he saw that coming!" Ashido cut in between them and grabbed Sero's elbow. "Can you like-" She rotated it slightly, as to not hurt her friend. "-wrap my hand in it later? I wanna see if I can do something to it with my acid." She looked up at him with excitement.
"Sure!" Sero smiled at her and then looked at Eijirou who was strangely quiet the whole way back to the gym, so they could join the rest of the class. "Hey, are you okay?" He looked up at Sero, surprised by the sudden attention.
"Ah, yeah, just thinking about this whole situation." He scratched the back of his head and smiled awkwardly.
"You don't have to worry about anything, Kiri! He looks like he has a tough head!" Ashido, who was still examining Sero's elbow for some reason, turned slightly and smiled at Eijirou reassuringly.
"Yeah, I'll just ask him later... To make sure." The others looked at him strangely.
"Do you really want to walk up to him, ask that and still plan to survive?" Kaminari asked bluntly and crossed his arms on his chest.
"... I'll just text him then." This got even stronger reaction from his classmates, as they immediately stopped walking and stared at him for uncomfortably long amount of time. "... what?"
"Text him." Kaminari stated. "Text." He gestured in a way like he was mimicking holding a phone. "Him." He opened his arms dramatically.
"I don't think calling him out in the group chat is the smartest idea, man." Sero frowned, slightly concerned.
"Is he even in our group chat?" Ashido looked up at Sero who just shrugged. "He left it so many times at this point, I lost count."
"Oh, he's not." Once again, they looked at Eijirou. "I'll text him directly!" He put his fists on his hips and smiled proudly.
"... You what." Eijirou opened one of his eyes and saw Kaminari looking at him as if he just saw a ghost.
"Yeah, I already did it once!" A shocked gasp escaped from Ashido and Kaminari, meanwhile, Sero just looked at him with raised eyebrows, not saying anything. "After USJ..." He added with less excitement. "Come on guys, it's not that big of a deal!" He yelled defensively, but he could understand their reactions, yet, he wasn't about to admit that he himself thought of it as some kind of an achievement.
"... I guess..." Kaminari was the first one to start moving again, the others soon joining.
Suddenly, Eijirou saw movement in the corner of his eye and turned to see Bakugou walking on his own, back to where he was training all alone before. He wanted to wave and call out to him, but he noticed the way his fists were clenched angrily and realized that he was wearing the same expression, mix of frustration and some kind of shamefulness, when the principal was arguing with the police officers, just few days ago.
Eijirou looked at him for few seconds before deciding it would be the best to leave him alone for now, he was pretty sure that Bakugou wouldn't like to be seen like that by anyone.
___
Kirishima Eijirou: Bakugou!!!!
Bakugou Katsuki: The fuck do you want, I’m busy.
Kirishima Eijirou: Are you okay??
Kirishima Eijirou: ???
Kirishima Eijirou: come on, don’t leave me hanging like last time
Kirishima Eijirou: Bakubroooo
Kirishima Eijirou: …...
Kirishima Eijirou: I’ll show you how to block people? and change someone's name?
Bakugou Katsuki: I’m fucking fine.
Kirishima Eijirou: :DD !!!
Bakugou Katsuki: now show me how to do that, Shitty hair
Kirishima Eijirou: but could you promise not to block me afterwards?
Bakugou Katsuki: You’re useful, so it’ll depend on a situation.
Kirishima Eijirou: aw thanks bro!!
Bakugou Katsuki: and I’m going to block deku and that other asshole who talked shit today
Kirishima Eijirou: … Kaminari??
Bakugou Katsuki: yeah whatever his name is
Kirishima Eijirou: hey, since you now know how to silence the chat, do you want me to add you back to our class’ one? It calmed down in the past few days since the USJ!
Kirishima Eijirou: Yaoyorozu and Iida make sure that people don’t spam as much as before
Bakugou Katsuki: You assholes act like it would someday save someone’s life.
Kirishima Eijirou: … is that a yes?
Bakugou Katsuki: ...
Bakugou Katsuki: Yes.
___
The day has come.
Katsuki with his classmates were stuck in the prep room that was assigned for them. He could hear some of the conversations, some girl complained that she wished they’d allowed them to wear their hero costumes and while Katsuki could agree with her, he still knew that the rule was in the interest of fairness.
Not that it made that much of a difference, he’ll crash these assholes even without his costume. He sighed and realized that all of a sudden it was too quiet in the room. He looked over his shoulder and saw that someone was talking to Deku.
“Objectively speaking, I’m stronger than you.” The guy with dual colored hair had some nerve, but he was probably right. Judging by Deku’s reaction, he possibly thought so too. “And I will beat you.” Katsuki frowned at that.
If anyone were to beat that damn nerd today, it was going to be him.
“Oooh! A declaration of war from the strongest in the class?!” Some guy with yellow hair, sitting next to Katsuki, exclaimed with enthusiasm. In the meantime, Shitty hair got up from his seat and walked up to them.
“Come on, man! We’re about to go on, why pick a fight now…” It seemed like he wanted to put a hand on his back, but the guy glared at him over his shoulder. That’s when Katsuki saw a scar over his left eye and realized who that was.
Half face.
“I’m not here to make friends.” Bakugou almost snorted at that, but he managed to collect himself before anyone noticed.
“Todoroki-kun, I’m not sure why you felt the need to tell me that…” Everyone looked back at Deku. “You are clearly stronger and I can’t measure up to most of the others in skill…” He muttered quietly and lowered his head.
“Don’t be so negative, Midoriya!” Apparently, Kirishima wanted to make him feel better for some fucking reason. “There’s no need-“
“But everyone!” Green head interrupted him, before he could finish. “Even people with weaker or slightly dangerous quirks-“ he subtly glanced at Katsuki who’s eyes widened in surprise, just to be replaced by an angry glare not even a second later. “-and everyone from the other courses are aiming for the top!” He looked Half face straight in the eyes. “I’m going for it too. With everything I’ve got!”
It’ll be fun to crash this little nerd.
___
“THE FIRST YEARS OF THE HERO COURSE-“ Katsuki could hear the deafening voice of Present Mic even inside the tunnel they were walking through. “-HERE COMES CLASS 1-A!” They all came out of the tunnel, and the voice of the hero died in the screams of the huge crowd surrounding the stadium.
“Wow-“ Shitty hair, who was walking right next to him, said nervously. “-they’re really praising us… I’m getting kind of nervous! How about you, Bakugou?” He looked at him expectantly.
“No way I’m nervous. This is just getting me pumped up!” Katsuki answered with fake smile and furrowed eyebrows. He might be aiming for the victory, but his statement was partly a lie- he still wasn’t a fan of huge crowds of people, all of the faces blending in one huge mess.
Present Mic kept introducing other classes and after that, they all gathered at the center where some heroine already stood.
“Ah, Midnight is our referee! Good thing I finished all of the assignments!” Kirishima whispered jokingly with excitement.
Right, the one with strange costume is Midnight.
“Now!” She swung around her whip and everything went silent. “For the first year’s oath!”
Murmurs went through the crowd of students and Katsuki realized something.
“Your student representative is-“ Fuck. “-Bakugou Katsuki of class 1-A!” Shit.
He put on a neutral mask and slowly walked up to the little podium she was standing on, trying his best to ignore his classmates’ shocked whispers. He took a deep breath as he stood in front of the microphone with hands in his pockets. Katsuki had all intentions to win this thing and prove to everyone how great his quirk is.
“I pledge-“ It was funny to him how they all went silent in anticipation. “-I’m gonna place first.”
The crowd went nuts, but Katsuki decided to ignore all of them, right now wasn’t the time to scream back at some angry strangers.
And that’s just it.
He might not remember their faces or names, but they’ll sure as hell remember his.
Notes:
I probably wanted to write something here but don't remember.
Eh.
I started uni again and I want to die. This fic is one of the few things keeping me alive lol
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Chapter 10: Start with a Bang
Summary:
Midoriya @himself: is this still strategy or a dick-move already?
Notes:
Time for that one scene which sparked my Fic. :>
I apologize in advance to all chemists out there, I did my best while researching this shit for that one scene, so please don’t kill me.
But also WOOOO 10 CHAPTERS AYYY
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Bakugou leaped and flew above all the other students who were trying to pass the second obstacle in the race by actually using the ropes, that were stretched out between the cliffs. He had no time to play an acrobat, he had to catch up to that fucking Half face.
Lucky for him, he didn’t actually have to recognize him, all he had to do was to follow his ice and with this, he found himself right next to him on a mine field. Katsuki released an explosion to blind him, but bastard used his quirk to cover his hand in ice, that ended up clogging up his sweat glands, thus preventing him from using his right hand for a short while.
That’s when he heard an explosion, strangely, one that wasn’t his own. He looked up to see someone flying above him and Half face, surpassing both of them at the same time. The person landed heavily at least couple dozen meters away from them. Bakugou sped up, leaving Half face behind, and grit his teeth as he felt slight stinging, after he released blasts too powerful for his own arms, to shorten the distance between him and-
His anger rose when he saw red shoes and the mess of green hair few meters ahead of him.
Fucking piece of shit-
“Deku, you useless rat!” Bakugou screamed after him, doing his best to ignore the growing pain in his forearms, as he released more and more explosions to keep up the pace.
As he almost closed in to Deku in the corridor, which was the final part of the race, he saw icy path forming right next to him, and some asshole sliding swiftly on it. Bakugou instinctively grabbed him by the shoulder, when he was a little bit ahead, causing him to stumble slightly, and ultimately made both of them slow down enough for Deku to finish first.
Icy bastard, once again, froze Bakugou’s hand and ran off, meanwhile Katsuki had to blast yet another huge explosion, just to finish right after him.
“FUCK.” He couldn’t help, but scream while he tried his best to keep his breath calm. That’s when he realized that the adrenaline slowly drained from his body.
Katsuki held onto his forearm that was pulsing from pain.
At this moment, he wanted to kill whoever came up with the rule that they couldn’t have their costumes during the tournament. The bracers would protect him from the recoil and would let him do so much more, he knew he would win without hurting his arms.
“Fucking quirk-” He muttered under his breath. “Fucking rules, fucking unfair fairness, fucking-“
“Hey, Bakugou! Congrats on third place!” He heard behind his back and tensed, he glared at some two guys over his shoulder, but before he could recognize them or at least collect himself, one of them continued talking. “I was ninth, Sero got ahead of me last second with his tape!” The red head actually laughed, as he patted the guy next to him on the shoulder. Before Katsuki could comment on his reaction to such low place, another wave of pain came over him and he breathed in through clenched teeth. “Woah, dude, are you okay?”
He finally peered at them, but their eyes were so disgustingly distorted at the moment, that he couldn’t even bear to keep looking, yet alone read their expressions properly. He lowered his gaze again and hardened the grip on his arm.
“Bakugou?” Suddenly, the guy with red hair was only few steps from him. “What’s wrong with your arm?” He reached out, but Katsuki took one step back from him with a glare.
“Everything’s fucking great…” Bakugou growled and after taking a closer look, he realized that Shitty hair stood in front of him, then some taller guy with black hair walked up to them as well. “None of your business, anyway.” He started walking with full intentions of ignoring them.
“Did you overuse your quirk or something? This must suck…” The black haired guy commented and Bakugou stopped moving.
“Oh, if your own quirk hurts you- that’s kinda problematic?” Shitty hair voiced his opinion as well and at this point, Bakugou forgot about the pain in his arm, both panic and anger mixing in him.
“My quirk is fucking perfect you pieces of shit.” He said that surprisingly calmly, but the face he made must have been rather strange, as it made the taller teen take half a step back. “What’s your problem, huh?!” Again, Bakugou raised his voice at him.
“Nothing! Sorry!” He lifted up his hands in defensive manner. “Listen, if this is about last week, I really didn’t mean to-“
“I don’t give a shit, fuck off already.” Bakugou interrupted him and walked away for good, pain finally disappearing.
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Katsuki ended up with 200 points, after he won third place and all, but now was the time to finally choose his team for cavalry battle and thus, his problem was born.
“Yo! Team up with me!” Some tall guy with spiked, black hair yelled towards him while pointing at himself.
“Hey, Bakugou!” A girl, who’s skin color looked like it was straight up taken from bubblegum, took a step closer towards him. “Pick me!!” She jumped a bit in place while staring at him with big, black eyes.
“Of course he’ll choose me!” Another guy with blond hair, who held onto his stomach for some reason, said as well.
Few more people surrounded him, people he had no idea who they were, people who wanted to team up with him, for his points, people who yelled over each other and their voices and faces were mixing in one big, ugly mess.
Was he supposed to know them? Who were they actually; his classmates? Some other extras from school? How would they know him? But then again, just few minutes ago his picture was on the screens, along with the announcement of him getting third place, and even earlier he was the one to get called out to the podium by Midnight, so at this point, unfortunately, everyone knew who he was.
And he still couldn’t figure out who were the students surrounding him.
“Wait-“ he started and everyone silenced down. “-what the fuck are your quirks?” Katsuki could feel he stared shaking slightly and hoped that no one would notice how his voice cracked, when he asked the damn question.
Everyone surrounding him stared at him for uncomfortably long amount of time, and at this point he could admit he was panicking.
“How can you not know that at this point!” Bubblegum girl yelled, while making strange face.
Katsuki tried his best to get a hold of his breathing, praying no one would notice that he was on the edge of hyperventilating.
“Forget class B-” The guy with black hair sounded at least offended. “-he’s too self-absorbed to even notice his own classmates!” He declared and started moving away.
Wait, that’s not- it felt like he was about to jump off a cliff, he didn’t expect for this kind of situation to happen again, since no one knew the truth, but this was somehow even worse, nothing was explaining his behavior, he couldn’t explain himself, he couldn’t-
“Bakugou!” The familiar voice stopped him from spiraling deeper into his thoughts and he panicky looked at the direction it came from. “Let’s team up!!!” Red haired guy waved around with his arms with so much excitement, it almost affected Katsuki’s mood.
Katsuki used the distraction, that red head provided for a moment, took a few deeper breaths, and then took a better look at him as he approached in half jog, with wide smile, showing off his sharp teeth. Bakugou’s eyes shot up at his hair and, for the first time in a while, he was somehow happy to actually know who was talking to him.
Kirishima.
“Shitty hair.” He said instead and watched as a little bit of excitement died in his classmate.
“It’s Kirishima! Come on, remember my name at least!” He wanted to sound serious, but the amused smirk on his face betrayed him. “Also, your hair’s not that different from mine!” He added with a little laugh, but then continued. “It’s obvious you wanna be the rider!”
“No shit.” Red head ignored his comment and continued to talk.
“Your front horse has to be someone who can withstand your explosions, right? So-“ he put his fists on his hips. “-who might that be?!” Katsuki stared at his proud smile for few seconds.
“… Someone not afraid to die?” He asked bluntly, which made few of the people still surrounding them take a step or two back. Meanwhile, Kirishima just laughed loudly.
“Nope!” He pointed at himself. “It’s me with my hardening!” His whole arm turned into a stone-like material on command. “This way we won’t break and we’ll be able to get the ten million points from Midoriya!” Shitty hair finished his explanations with wide smirk.
Finally someone who gets it.
“Alright, you hair for brains.” Katsuki sneered at him and nodded.
“Now we need more people.” His smile got a bit smaller, yet no less excited. As he looked around, his gaze fell somewhere behind Bakugou. “Ashido!” He waved at someone and walked past Katsuki, who followed Shitty hair with his eyes. “My skin will also be immune to your quirk!” The pink girl smiled at his words and jumped few times with excitement.
“Sero too!” She pointed somewhere, and as Katsuki followed the direction, his eyes fell on some guy with black, straight hair. “We checked and it takes a while before my acid starts dissolving his tape!” She looked up at the guy who walked up to them and released some tape from his elbow, which she grabbed and started covering it in some strange, slimy substance that she emitted from her palms.
“Ohh, that’s a perfect team!” Shitty hair pumped his fists together in front of his chest. “Right, Bakugou?” He turned to him with a smile.
Katsuki looked at the two strangers, who were staring at him expectantly, waiting for his final decision, while he was trying to remember which had what quirk.
Acid and tape. Bubblegum and- … and what?
“Dude, I know I knocked you down last week, but can we leave this behind and just form a strong team?” The same guy with black hair smiled widely, revealing his huge teeth. “What do you say?”
Bakugou realized that he might have made a strange face at him while he tried to come up with some temporary name, for the time they’d be in a team. He also got reminded of the fucked up situation when he almost spilled the beans about his problem, yet decided to not address it, as the time to form the teams was running out.
“Uh… Bakugou?” Black haired guy reminded of his existence and Katsuki scanned him. “Come on, the suspense is killing me!” He laughed in slightly panicked way, once again showing off his huge teeth.
Bakugou smirked.
“Alright. Shitty hair, Bubblegum and Horse smile. Let’s show those assholes who’s the best.” He ignored the complaining caused by sudden nicknames, yet didn’t fail to notice the amused chuckling that came from Kirishima.
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Izuku looked over at where Kacchan stood with his own team and quickly realized that with his character, he’ll force them to make him the rider and thus will give all the commands where and when to go.
It was pretty obvious that Bakugou would target him, just like the most of the rest of the groups were probably planning to do.
“I know how we can get at least one team off our backs.” He frowned slightly; this was going to be a dick move, but as the saying goes ‘all is fair in love and war’. “Do any of you have any hair ties?” Izuku looked around at his teammates, at Tokoyami and Uraraka who stared at him confused, then at Hatsume who was fiddling with one of her ‘babies’, probably not even listening. “Or a hair band or anything that will get my hair a little bit more… Tamed?” He asked slowly and once again looked at everyone.
“I have some hair ties in my bag?” Uraraka wondered for few seconds with a hand on her chin. “But it’s in the prep-room so we can’t get them now.” She once again looked at him, still puzzled, but all Izuku could do right now is nod with understanding.
“Tokoyami-kun?” When his bird headed friend stared at him for solid half a minute, and he saw Dark Shadow behind him, pointing at the feathers on Tokoyami’s head, Izuku finally realized that his classmate didn’t even have hair to begin with, to have anything to tie it with. “Right, sorry, forget I asked.” He heard a low chuckle from him and turned to his last hope.
“Hatsume-san?” Just now, she finally stopped tinkering with some sort of a pilot in her hand and let out a short ‘ah?’. “Do you have anything to put my hair down with?” Izuku watched as she stared at him for few seconds, and then just reached to one of the pockets attached to her belt and fished out some kind of a small bottle. To his surprise, she threw it at him, and as he barely caught it, she went back to her previous task.
Midoriya examined the bottle and it didn’t take him long to realize what was inside it.
“… Oil?” Uraraka asked as she took the bottle from Deku’s hands. “How is he supposed to-“ She didn’t get to finish as the realization hit her and she snorted loudly.
“Hatsume-san, do you really not have anything else?” Izuku was desperate to get his hair to look different but not that desperate.
“Nope!” She stated with a smile that was never leaving her face. “No clue why you need it, but that’s all I have!” Once again, Hatsume reached to her pocket and shown them the second bottle. “You can use as much as you want, I have back up.” She said finally and turned all of her attention back to the little device.
Izuku sighed heavily and checked his pockets, one last time, in hopes that in the end, he had at least a rubber band, but all he found was some sand from when he fell few times during the race and an old candy from Recovery Girl.
“Alright.” He looked with pained expression at Uraraka. “Will you help me with this?” He pinched the bridge of his nose when she snorted again, while nodding quickly.
“Midoriya.” Sudden voice coming from his side startled him slightly and he turned to look at Tokoyami, who had his arms crossed on his chest and was looking at him intently. “Why do you need to put your hair down?” The question made Uraraka stop laughing and got Hatsume to curiously look up at them.
“Uh-“ Izuku glanced, panicked, at the strange boots which Hatsume provided, and both her and Uraraka had on their feet, and quickly thought of an excuse. “-AERODYNIMCS!” He basically screamed, startling his friends a bit, who didn’t look like he convinced them with his ‘explanation’.
“Oh!” Hatsume suddenly perked up and put the pilot and a screwdriver back in her pockets. “That’s actually- yes!” It seemed like she, on the contrary to his classmates, took a bait, as she took the bottle from Uraraka, opened it and poured half of it’s contents onto Midoriya’s head, who yelped at the sudden strange feel of the oil. She started talking excitedly about some mechanical stuff while slicking his hair back and down. Once she was done, she pulled out a handkerchief from her back pocket and wiped off the leftover oil from her gloved hands, all of this while she was laughing triumphantly at her job.
“… How do I look?” Izuku turned to his classmates and tensed slightly at Uraraka’s outburst of laughter. “Careful or you’ll choke…” This got her to snort even louder. Midoriya saw in the corner of his eye that Tokoyami covered his beak with one hand and slightly turned away, as to not to be seen laughing at his teammate.
“You look like-“ Uraraka at this point was basically interrupting herself with all the snorting. “-like dark haired Aoyama-kun! Like a complete stranger! Not Deku-like at all!” She grabbed her stomach and wiped off a single tear.
Good. Izuku smiled to himself.
“Now to put on the band with the points!” Hatsume said suddenly and everyone stared at her in shock.
“The what now.” Was all Deku could manage to utter, as another salve of laughter escaped from Uraraka and he could swear he heard an actual snort from Tokoyami. Izuku looked down at the long, white band that had their points written on it, which Hatsume held in her hand, and paled. “WHY DIDN’T YOU SAY ANYTHING?!” Only slightly he was regretting yelling at her.
“I was busy with my baby!” She stated, as if that was the most obvious thing in the entire world. Izuku just stared at her for few moments before he rubbed his eyes tiredly and actually reached for the band to put it on.
In all fairness, Midnight actually told them about the headbands while explaining the rules, but he was just too busy freaking out over his ten million points and now, all he had left was to hope that at least he’ll have a way to somehow wash out all the oil before the next round. … If they’ll manage to make it, that is.
“Alright.” He said as he tied the band around his oily head. “We can do this!”
His teammates cheered with him and they got ready for the start.
He noticed few people staring at him, some questioning looks or amused smirks among them. At one point, even Hagakure approached him with a question if he tried to disappear like her, while she was giggling with a top of her gym uniform already left somewhere behind.
One last time, he glanced at Kacchan who was looking around angrily, probably searching for him, from where he was already standing above his own teammates, being held up by them. Izuku breathed in to calm his nerves and tried to ignore the slight feeling of guilt at the back of his head.
Just because he had no intentions of telling anybody, didn’t mean he couldn’t use it to his advantage.
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“Five!”
Where’s Deku?
“Four!”
Where the fuck is Deku?!
“Three!”
Green mess of hair-
“TWO!”
I can’t-
“ONE!”
Where-
“START!” The roar of the crowd snapped Katsuki out of his thoughts and he realized that his team already moved forward in some direction.
“Midoriya’s right there!” Shitty hair yelled and hardened his upper body as they all kept moving. Bakugou looked up and tried to see where that damned nerd is, but he still couldn’t find the mess of his green hair.
“Where the fuck-“ He muttered to himself and in frustration let out few explosions, as he grit his teeth and kept looking between all the teams in front of them.
___
Kirishima couldn’t think of the reason as to why Bakugou wasn’t trying to direct them towards Midoriya, or why their target had his hair slicked down in this strange way, but if that for some reason was the case, he could at least tell Bakugou what to look for, as maybe in all the chaos he just didn’t think of it.
“Bakugou, the headband!” He screamed and tried to point towards Midoriya’s team. “The ten million points headband, right there!” Eijirou could hear short gasp escaping Bakugou, as if he just realized something, and after few more seconds of silence-
“I know, I’m not fucking blind!” He shouted with few explosions going off near Kirishima’s head, who just rolled his eyes.
“Yeah, of course, let’s just-“ The sudden move behind them and the stumbling of Bakugou made him stop and he tried to look back.
“Instead of hanging around, maybe you should start moving!” Some guy with blond hair laughed as he waved around the headband with their points.
“He got us!” Ashido exclaimed shortly.
“GIVE THAT BACK, I’LL FUCKING MURDER YOU!” Bakugou screamed as they turned to face the guy and his team.
“Come on, it was pretty obvious that they’ll be shortening our numbers as much as possible, and it was perfect opportunity to observe our opponents’ quirks and behavior!” He tied the headband around his neck, along with other ones his team already had and smirked at Bakugou. “Instead of aiming for some fleeting first place, like a donkey going for a dangling carrot.” He eyed them all and, once again, turned to angry blond with sly smile. “Ah, but you are already a celebrity, aren’t you? Next time, do tell me how it feels like to get attacked by villains on annual basis.” His team got ready to flee.
Wait, annual? Eijirou thought, but then realized that Bakugou was strangely silent after the mention of the villain attacks.
“Bakugou are you-“
“Keep moving, Kirishima…” Eijirou gasped embarrassingly loud and despite the situation they were in, he couldn’t help but smile over his shoulder at Bakugou, who had his eyes locked on their opponent. “Plan’s changed, before we look for Deku, I’ve gotta murder every last one of them.” Few bigger blasts went off from his palms.
He actually remembers my name! Eijirou beamed even more, turned his head back and started running towards their opponents with newfound determination.
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As Bakugou tried to reach for at least one of the headbands, which were around this asshole’s neck, he suddenly got pushed away by an explosion, just like one of his own.
“That’s one flashy quirk-“ he heard blond guy’s mocking voice “-must be hard on your arms, huh?” He said as he slightly waved his hand around, probably to loosen up muscles that weren’t adjusted to the recoil.
“He has the same quirk as you, Bakugou?!” Katsuki barely registered Kirishima’s surprised voice, as he was busy already swinging at the dick who dared to offend his quirk.
“Fucking bastard!” He hit something hard, and when smoke from his explosion dispersed, he saw that the blond was covering his face with hardened hands, just like Kirishima’s were whenever he’d use his quirk.
Ah, so that’s it.
“What- MY QUIRK?!” Kirishima yelled, clearly shocked.
“Not really.” Bakugou said in voice as calm as he could manage at this moment. “This jerk is just a copycat.” He furrowed his eyebrows at the blond’s chuckling.
“Well, any idiot would figure it out at this point.” Amusement was pouring out of him, and Bakugou wanted to wipe that smirk off his face.
… Or his whole face altogether.
Suddenly, there was a wave of some strange slime coming at them, but Bakugou refused to flinch at it, waving his one arm and dispersing it slightly with explosion. He kept his eyes on their opponent, who slowly started to back off.
Katsuki couldn’t lose the sight of him.
“Damn it, it’s all hard, we can’t move!” Panicked voice of Kirishima reached him, but he still kept his eyes locked on that blond jerk.
“My quirk should be able to melt this!” Bubblegum exclaimed and probably got to work.
“Aw, don’t be mad!” The blond waved at Bakugou while sending off a few sparks from his palm, obviously mocking him. “Now that you think of it, that pledge of yours from earlier-“ Bakugou grit his teeth “-seems kind of embarrassing right now! Anyway, thanks for the points, not for the quirk tho.” He added with a chuckle and his team carried him away.
“Hurry the fuck up!” Bakugou screamed at his teammates, while now keeping his eyes on the back of the blond jerk.
“Almost-“ He could feel them jerking almost violently to the side as they freed their legs from strange substance. “-there!” Bubblegum yelled and they all started running again.
Bakugou waited until they were close enough and jumped off with powerful blasts, straight at the same blond jerk. He could hear Kirishima yell after him, but he didn’t care, he kept his eyes on the same person, even when he hit some kind of a barrier, right before reaching. Bakugou quickly realized that the partly invisible blockade was thin and harmless for him, and so, as his target turned around, he blasted through the barrier, grabbed two headbands that were around his neck and tore them away with force big enough to start falling down. He felt something wrap around his waist and pull him back.
“Give us some warning before you jump!” Horse smile yelled as he withdrew his tape from Bakugou, who landed safely on their arms.
Katsuki wrapped both straps around his head, doing his best to ignore little voice, somewhere in the back of his mind, telling him that it'd be safer to put them around his neck.
“But now we’ll sure make it to the next round!” Shitty hair sounded like he wanted to defend Bakugou’s reckless actions, but now wasn’t the time.
“I’M NOT FUCKING DONE!” He screamed and locked his eyes yet again on their opponent who was still standing in the same place, looking back at him with shock. “No way I’m settling on half-assed first place!” He hit Kirishima couple of times on the head, but it probably hurt him more than Shitty hair, as his head was completely hardened. “I can’t do this shit on my own, so fucking move!” He smirked as they actually started moving. “We’re taking our points back-“ he glanced at the board with points and noticed that Deku didn’t have the ten million points anymore, but who had them now? “-then we’ll get the ten million from that other bastard!”
His team started sprinting towards the blond jerk’s team.
“Horse smile, tape!”
“My name’s Sero!” He yelled, but did as he was told and released long stripe of tape which got locked onto the ground few meters in front of their opponents.
“Bubblegum, melt a path for us with that shit of yours!”
“It’s ASHIDO MINA!” The girl sounded annoyed, but Bakugou didn’t care. He just raised his leg so she could freely release her acid in front of them.
“HOLD ON, EXTRAS!” Bakugou yelled at them and let out big blasts from his hands, this made them slide on the acidic path, while tape helped them keep balance. They quickly caught up to their target and as they were about to pass them, he broke through another barrier, aggressively grabbed the last headband and tore it away as they slid past their opponents.
Now was the time to look for that useless, green bastard.
Even if I can’t see you- Bakugou thought to himself. –I’ll take those fucking points from you.
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Eijirou, through all the yelling and the rest of the noise from whole stadium, heard the final countdown.
20 seconds.
“WHERE THE FUCK IS DEKU?!” Kirishima hardened his head again at the repetitive explosions going off from furious Bakugou.
“Dude, he’s right there in front of us!” He yelled, confused as to why he’d ask this, and pointed with his chin in the direction where Midoriya was probably getting ready to get back his headband from Todoroki. Then he felt some more blasts on his head. “BAKUGOU CALM DOWN, HE’S RIGHT THERE!” He screamed and then he felt the weight of angry teen leave him, and all he saw was the back of Bakugou, leaping, once again with the use of his explosions, towards two opponent teams, but just as he was about to reach them, Present Mic announced the end of the battle.
Bakugou face planted onto the ground.
“Ahhh, I used too much acid!” Ashido said in complaining manner as she waved around her sore hands.
“Hey, we got the second place!” Sero put both of his hands on Kirishima’s and Ashido’s shoulders. “We’re all going to the third round!” He announced happily and looked at Bakugou, still lying on the ground. “… Is he okay?” One of his eyebrows was raised, but Eijirou couldn’t tell if it was concern on his face or amusement.
Eijirou waited few seconds before he decided to check on him.
“Hey, Bakugou?” He kneeled down next to him. “Are you-“
“Fucking bastard with his piece of shit rotten hair and fucking bastard with his stupid ice-“ Bakugou’s angry muttering made Kirishima chuckle a bit. At least he’s fine. Eijirou nudged him lightly on a shoulder. “Who the fuck-“ Bakugou finally looked up and glared at him.
“Hope I’m not interrupting anything!” Eijirou joked, but didn’t fail to notice how Bakugou’s eyes darted to his hair for a split second.
“The fuck do you want, Shitty hair?”
Guess that first ‘Kirishima’ was also the last one. Eijirou thought to himself and pointed at the score board.
“We made it to the next round, we placed-“
“IN SECOND PLACE; TEAM BAKUGOU!” Present Mic’s announcement and the cheers of the crowd interrupted him.
“Yeah, that.” He smiled and extended his hand towards Bakugou, but backed away when the other started screaming again furiously.
“FUCKING USELESS BASTARD WITH HIS HAIR!!!”
Kirishima had no idea what he had against everyone’s hairstyles, but decided to leave Bakugou to his own doings for now.
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Izuku quickly moved away from where Kacchan was screaming curses at him and Todoroki. He could finally relax and take a deep breath after the battle. Thanks to Tokoyami, they had secure place in the final round of the festival, yet one thing still bothered him.
“Midoriya-san.” He turned to see Yaoyorozu, who was staring at his oily hair. He laughed awkwardly.
“I- I can explain, Yaoyorozu-san… Just-” He muttered and wanted to cover himself behind his arms, as he had in habit to do, but quickly remembered that he had all this oil on his head and really didn’t want to get it anywhere else.
“It was for aerodynamics, right?” She thoughtfully put a hand on her chin and looked at him intensely.
“YES!” Yaoyorozu jumped a bit at the sudden volume and Izuku coughed awkwardly. “Sorry, yes. Exactly that. Now I have to find a way to get if off my hair, so I’ll go and try to get it off with some water and-“
“Water can’t dissolve oil, Midoriya-san.” She stated and extended her arm, which started glowing slightly, as usual when she would use her quirk.
“Right…” Izuku scratched his neck and realized that some oil slid down it. “Forgot about that fact…” Resigned, he wiped off the liquid on his already dirty trousers.
“It would be easiest to use supercritical water or benzene, but one is obviously too hot for you and the other is too toxic to be used without proper equipment.” She explained and a bottle popped out from her arm, at which Izuku winced. He was done with mysterious bottles for a while. “Calm down, Midoriya-san!” Yaoyorozu chuckled and passed him the bottle.
“What is that…” He suspiciously rotated the bottle in his hands, too afraid to open it, and furrowed his eyebrows at the strangely moving, gel-like substance.
“Nonpolar solvent!” She answered proudly, but when she noticed Izuku’s puzzled expression, she coughed and quickly corrected herself. “Safe for skin gel that dissolves oil. You can use it without water. Also, I added orange scent to it too…” She looked to the side with shy smile, as if slightly embarrassed.
“Amazing, Yaoyorozu-san!” Izuku smiled widely and bowed at her a couple of times while thanking her frantically, which only caused her to act even more sheepishly.
After few more seconds, Izuku thanked her one last time and quickly ran to the prep-room.
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Bakugou was heading towards the cafeteria, when he noticed Deku, curse his hair being back to normal, and Half face, lingering on the opposite side of the corridor. He wanted to yell at them, one for taking first place from him, the other for changing his hair at the worst fucking time, but he realized that they started moving away.
Together.
No way he would let those bastards plot behind his back.
___
Katsuki kind of regretted eavesdropping on Deku and that Half bastard.
Even if he didn’t quite catch the beginning of their conversation, what he heard about Endeavor was more than enough. And even tho he didn’t know what he expected at the moment he decided to go after them, the terrible speech about Flame hero and what he did-
Katsuki swallowed a lump in his throat.
Bakugou’s own mother, back when he was little, would smack him on the butt with her hand or do some other, not that harmful stuff, when he was misbehaving, but that was only in extreme cases, even now, she would sometimes smack him on the head or slightly nudge his shoulder, but it was nothing for Bakugou and even less compared to what Half face just-
Katsuki frowned at the nickname he came up with few weeks earlier. Actually knowing the story behind the guy’s scar would make him look even more like an asshole, if he continued calling him that.
I’ll have to think of something else. He thought and wanted to look over the corner, but heard footsteps and quickly walked away, to avoid any confrontation, ignoring the fact that Deku started talking to the other once again.
As he walked, the thoughts of him being an actual fan of Endeavor started to disgust him. He even thought of him as an example. Someone to look up to, someone who tried his best to achieve his goal of becoming number one by surpassing others and working hard to be the best of the best.
Sometimes he was even glad that their quirks were slightly similar. Katsuki stopped for a second and spat with disgust and thus, he decided to personally burn the one poster he had of him.
At least he won’t have any problems with forgetting how this piece of shit looks like.
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As it was still break-time before the third round, Bakugou entered the crowded hall, which was temporarily changed into some kind of a cafeteria for the students, and took one of the trays with a bowl of rice on it a searched for a free sit. He found one at the table already occupied by some students he didn’t recognize, but as they didn’t pay much attention to him as he sat down, he decided to ignore them as well and eat his meal.
He munched lazily on the rice, swallowed and rubbed his face, clearly annoyed. Despite his best efforts, he couldn’t forget about all the stuff that the guy said about his family and his own quirk. He seemed to hate his own power, and even if Katsuki wouldn’t admit to it out loud, he could say that he sometimes wished his quirk was something different.
But not to the extent of not using it at all, you fucking Half fa-
Katsuki shook his head.
Don’t call him that, you asshole. He frowned and stared down at almost full bowl.
The more he thought about it, the more he cursed at himself for not paying closer attention to his classmates after all. Now that he knew that frozen bastard could also use fire, he could come up with something that could match that, but then again, what use was it now, after all this time? It’s not like he’d interact with him outside the training or during classes or-
“Hey, Bakugou!” His thoughts were interrupted by familiar voice and he saw someone with red hair sit down in front of him, across the table, and just now he realized that whoever was sitting there before, was already gone.
Katsuki glared at the stranger who was staring at him, as if he was expecting something. He glanced at his hair and his frown deepened.
“You seem to be interested in my hair.” Katsuki almost dropped his chopsticks and his eyes darted back to Kirishima’s. They stared at each other for few seconds, unblinking, both of them holding their breaths in, not sure what the other will do. After what seemed like eternity, the red head slowly released the air from his lungs and leaned a bit forward. “What’s about it that you’re keep looking?” He asked in hushed voice, that barely made it through all the noise in the hall, as he rested his elbows on the table and his chin on hands, his expression curious and expecting, yet with a mix of something that Bakugou couldn’t figure out.
Did he know?
But how would he realize?
There’s no way-
“So?” Shitty hair straightened slightly and moved to the edge of his seat to be even closer.
He swallowed the lump in his throat and quickly glanced around, trying his best to not show the panic on his face, but luckily, no one was paying any attention to them.
“… It’s shitty.” Katsuki stated carefully, trying to sound confident, and continued to eat, while attempting to ignore Kirishima who was still staring at him.
Bakugou sighed, put down the chopsticks and stared back at him.
“The fuck is your problem, Shitty hair?” He glared at Kirishima in an attempt to intimidate him, but surprisingly, it wasn’t working on this one for some reason. Bakugou got just angrier from the lack of any answer, he stood up and slammed his hand on the table, finally getting a reaction in form of a little jump. “I fucking asked you-“
“What’s with you and people’s hairstyles?” He quickly cut in and stood up as well, making his way around the table to stare back at Bakugou. “Why you had so much trouble to chase after Midoriya while he was right in front of us?” Katsuki grit his teeth and took half a step back. “Why do you always stare at my hair whenever I approach you?” His intense gaze was too much and Katsuki realized he was holding in his breath.
He doesn’t know, don’t freak out, you idiot.
“Listen, you-“
“Attention please; third round of the tournament is about to begin. Please proceed to the stadium in orderly manner and enjoy the show!”
Katsuki never thought he’d be this relieved to hear the annoying robotic voice, and yet here he was. He pushed surprised Kirishima out of his way and tried to walk past him, but he grabbed his wrist and practically forced him to pause.
“Wait, Baku-“
“Don’t ever-“ Bakugou glared at him over his shoulder “-ever, ask me something this bullshit again, if you want to live.” He tore his arm away from the other’s grip, with too much force for such simple task, and quickly stomped away with hands in his pockets.
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Ochako searched for her name on the board, and as soon as she found it and her eyes fell on her opponent’s name, she felt cold shiver run down her spine.
“Uraraka?” An accidental yelp escaped her mouth when she heard her name fall from Bakugou and she watched as he slowly turned around and scanned her with his eyes.
Panic froze her in place and she hid half of her face behind the pompoms she was holding. She didn’t know what to expect from Bakugou; would he use this as an opportunity to take revenge for what she did at the beginning of the school year? If so, what will he do? Will he blow up her hands, so she can’t use her quirk anymore?
… Straight up kill her?
Ochako shook her head slightly.
He wouldn’t- … right?
She realized that Bakugou was still staring at her with frowned eyebrows, but otherwise his expression wasn’t that angry. He looked at her in quite- questionable way? With a mix of indifference.
Was it possible that he forgot about what she did? There’s no way, with how he reacted back then.
Somehow, the lack of reaction from Bakugou was even more menacing than if he were to attack her right here, right now.
She watched as he turned on his heel and walked away, probably to prepare himself for their fight.
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As Bakugou’s fight was to be the last of this round, he decided that he might as well watch some of the others, since he didn’t have anything better to do. He sat down, further in the back with crossed arms. Someone walked past him, but stopped and just stood there for few seconds, and Bakugou looked up at the red haired guy, who was staring at him. He glared and flipped him off, to which the guy reacted with a sigh and sat down some distance away.
The fights finally started.
The first one was between Deku and some guy who almost forced him out of the ring with his quirk. Bakugou would be pissed if this fucking nerd, after all the shit he pulled off so far, lost just like this. Katsuki wanted to be the one to kick him out of the tournament, not some guy with forgettable quirk.
Now, in the second one he wanted to be more invested in, but it ended before it even began, as Icy-Hot Bastard just froze the other guy with massive ice wall, which took a while to melt away, even tho he actually used the warmer side of his body to dissolve it.
After that, during third fight between some yellow haired guy and a girl with plants in place of actual hair, Bakugou decided to go back to one of the prep-rooms and do last few stretches, as no one else was interesting enough to watch.
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Ochako tried her best to calm her nerves. Her leg was bouncing under the table and she accidentally sent the table flying once or twice, so now she just sat with her clenched fists resting on her knees.
She heard the door opening and in came Iida, probably done with his fight.
“Great job, Iida-kun!” Despite her efforts, her voice was shaking ever so slightly.
“Uraraka-kun, you don’t look like yourself!” He yelled, clearly surprised, and only now did she realize that her nervousness might have been showing on her whole face. “Right… You’re fighting against Bakugou…” She only sighed at his words and looked down at her hands.
“I’m… Really scared…” She confessed quietly, with sad smile. “But you know, Iida-kun, when I saw other fights I-“ She didn’t get to finish her thought, as the door opened suddenly and in came Deku.
“Uraraka-san!” Both her and Iida looked at him surprised, as so far, he was more than excited to watch and write down notes about all of the fights. He quickly explained how the situation looked right now and mentioned that Kirishima was fighting with someone from class B.
“Oh, so it’s almost time…” Ochako squeezed her hands and took a deep breath.
“Well! I don’t think Bakugou would use such brute force against a girl!” Iida’s words gave her hope for few seconds.
“He would, he will.” Just for all of it to be crushed by Deku’s blunt statement. “If anyone wants to prove something here, it’s Kacchan.” He said kinda ominously as he looked down at his hero analysis notes. “You helped me plenty before, Uraraka-san, so let me return the favor!” She caught up on what he wanted to offer and shook her head.
“I know you want to help, Deku-kun, and thank you for that.” She stood up and walked over to the door. “But I’ll do my best, I can’t expect you to come in with a plan all the time!” She laughed a bit and put a hand on a doorknob. “After all, we’re rivals now!” She gave him a thumb up and left with a little bit wobbly walk.
“At least-“ Ochako stopped midway through the corridor when she heard Deku’s voice behind her. “-let me tell you one thing.” His serious face shocked her to the point that she just nodded and blinked few times surprised as he walked over to her. She noticed that he left his notebook behind. “Kacchan doesn’t care about others.” His voice was now lowered to a whisper, like he was telling her some big secret. “Present Mic doesn’t specify what quirks the opponents have.” Deku looked at her more intensely, like he was expecting her to react in some way.
“Deku-kun, what are you-“
“You have the element of surprise.” He put the hand on her shoulder. “Use your knowledge against him.”
She swallowed, even more nervous than before, but nodded anyway. Deku let go and she walked down the corridor and headed straight to the stadium.
Ochako took a calming breath, as Present Mic loudly announced her name.
To be so self-absorbed, she thought to herself as she saw Bakugou slowly emerge from the tunnel on the other side of the stadium, to not even remember own classmate’s quirk.
Notes:
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Up next; *tekken voice* Fight-
Chapter 11: Leap in the Dark
Summary:
Defying Gravity (but I lie about the summary)
Chapter Text
Aizawa listened to Present Mic's introductions of Bakugou and Uraraka. He looked at the huge screens on the sides of the stadium and at the faces of his two students; Uraraka's full of determination, yet with a slightly furrowed brows, probably in some kind of concern for herself.
He couldn't blame her, really, but it seemed like she actually came up with some kind of a plan, as she took one final, deeper breath and took on a battle stance, ready for a signal.
Then Bakugou.
Aizawa watched on the screen as the teen unzipped his uniform, making it more loose on him, and stretched his arms. Then glanced at his neutral mask and the hero immediately knew that Bakugou had no idea who he's up against. If it wasn't for Hizashi loudly announcing her name, and knowing this stubborn kid, he wouldn't even know that, not to mention her quirk, which wasn't revealed at all.
... It wouldn't hurt to subtly hint at it, but how?
"-but can she stand against this brute power?!" He caught the end of Mic's question and if his face wasn't covered in bandages, he'd smile smugly to himself. His coworker could sometimes unintentionally make things easier for him.
"We have to remember that Uraraka isn't helpless." He ignored the way Hizashi turned to him, obviously surprised at sudden commentary. "One touch from her and it’s over.” He cursed in his head at the cameraman who didn’t catch blond teen’s reaction to his words.
"Aren't you talkative all of a sudden?!" Mic yelled, seemingly amused and somehow pleased that Aizawa finally decided to participate more. "Are you playing favorites?!" He laughed and slammed his hand on Aizawa's shoulder couple of times.
"No." He said just too quickly, at which his friend just chuckled, but didn’t add anything.
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“One touch from her and it’s over.” Katsuki's eyes widened at the teacher's words and his guard immediately went all the way up. He watched his opponent look up, probably in the direction where the booth with both teachers was, then her gaze moved to some seats at the top of the stadium. Before he could react in any way, the signal for their match to start went off and the girl charged at him, while keeping her stance close to the ground.
He was yet to discover what her quirk was, but he wasn't about to ignore sensei's words, so when she got close enough, he fired off a huge explosions from both of his hands, sending her away, while recoil made himself take half a step back.
Don't let her touch you.
She moved again, slightly circling him around, as if she tried to flank him, and once again, he sent her off with a blast with big amount of smoke.
But why?
His own smoke made it hard to spot the girl immediately, but the moment he saw her among it, he jumped in intention of flooring her. His eyes widened in surprise when he realized it was just her jacket.
A trick?
“SHE THREW HER JACKET OVER AND SENT IT FLOATING, ALL ON THE FLY!” Katsuki heard the loud commentary from Present Mic while he started analyzing the situation, strange feeling twisting his guts and he froze.
Floating.
Katsuki felt the lightest tug on the sleeve of his own jacket and instantly used his free hand to release an explosion, the result immediate, as he heard a yelp and after smoke screen slightly disappeared, he noticed that the girl fell to the ground. The jacket was suddenly all too light on him and he took it off with slight panic, while the crowd around him cheered loudly. He watched the clothing levitate a bit and thanked himself for unzipping it earlier. Since it was more loose, it slipped a bit from his arm with all the movement and the girl touched the material instead of his skin.
Then their eyes finally met.
“So you're Deku's sidekick, huh?” She seemed to be taken aback by his words. “The floaty one.” He said with mockery in his voice, while trying to cover the fact he was breathing heavily. “You want to pull off the same shit as before, Round face?”
In short moment, he recalled the battle trial with All Might and how she managed to send him flying twice, because he was busy running after that fucking nerd.
“Deku won't come up with a plan for you this time!” He stopped himself from smirking when he saw her stand up with some trouble. She obviously tried to ignore his words, while she charged again, a bit slower this time, as she was seemingly more tired. “Too slow.” He commented as he sent her away, once again.
Then again.
And again.
Again.
It was obvious she was getting more and more desperate to touch him, but both of them were getting tired. Round face didn't seem to be willing to give up just yet.
“I'M NOT DONE!!!” She screamed as she bolted at him furiously.
“She keeps charging but… This is…” Both, less excited voice of Present Mic and growing pain in his arms made Katsuki release slightly smaller explosion, but it was still enough to send weakened girl flying backwards. She managed to stand up with heavy breath, but kept her stance low, while leaning her hands against her knees.
“Hey!” Someone screamed from the stands and Katsuki glanced in the direction where the sound came from. “Shouldn’t you stop the match?! This is getting painful!” The same person yelled at the referee standing nearest him.
Katsuki swallowed and once again used a blast against the girl.
“THAT IS NOT THE WAY SOMEONE WHO WANTS TO BE A HERO ACTS!” His hands twitched at the voice that made its way through the crowd and he froze in place.
“JUST THROW HER OUT OF THE RING IF YOU’RE THAT MUCH STRONGER!”
“STOP TOYING WITH THE POOR GIRL!”
Katsuki didn’t mean to toy with her. He wanted to win. He wanted to show off his quirk while being careful to not get caught off guard again, especially that the girl seemed to be determined as much as him, to the extent of attacking him blindly for another chance to touch him and use her own quirk.
He looked at her; she was breathing heavily while holding onto her stomach. She raised her eyes and glared back at him with determination and fury.
No way she didn’t have a plan.
Meanwhile, part of the audience was booing at him, as if he was tormenting her. It was degrading not only for him, but also for the girl who, like him, was probably putting her own health at risk, while repetitively charging at him.
Not an ounce of fear in her.
She wasn’t afraid of him or his quirk. But he was doing it again. Using his quirk and making people fear what he could do with it. He could as well burn everything down and it’d have the same effect.
They’re afraid of your power and you know it-
“Is the one who said he’s toying with her a pro?” Suddenly, familiar voice of Aizawa-sensei came through the speakers, snapping him out of his intrusive thoughts, and the whole stadium fell silent. “If that’s what you’re taking from this, then you can leave and start looking for a new job. She’s come this far and he knows her strength. His caution shows that he recognizes her as a worthy opponent.” Murmurs went through the crowd at the teacher’s words and Katsuki glanced at his opponent, who looked just as thankful at Aizawa’s words as he was. “Both of them want to win so badly, that there is no room for holding back.”
“Thanks, Bakugou-kun.” His eyes widened and confusion rose in him, as she raised her hands and put all her fingers together. “For your respect.” She looked up and he followed her gaze and realized what her real intentions were all this time.
He knew it; the strategy to fuck him over with the use of his own quirk.
“I’M GONNA WIN!” She screamed and all the rubble started falling down at him.
No way to dodge.
Without much thought, Katsuki raised his left arm, clenched his right hand around the forearm and released huge explosion, so loud his ears started ringing and so bright, that he had to squint his eyes. He bit his lower lip to stop himself from letting out a scream he felt was threatening to come out of his throat, as the pain of something blowing up underneath his skin flooded him. After all was done, he was too afraid to move his whole arm, in case there was actually something wrong with it.
He took in a shaky breath and slowly moved his fingers, testing the waters.
“So Deku did come up with a plan for you after all…” He murmured and felt anger rose in his chest at his old friend, as he lowered his arm carefully and examined it in search of any visible damage to it. “Close one…” Katsuki shook his hand a bit and clenched it into a fist a few times.
“URARAKA’S SECRET PLAN JUST WENT UP IN SMOKE!” He stopped moving at the sound of his opponent’s name and looked back at her.
Katsuki watched as she rose to her feet, barely catching her breath and glaring at him.
Uraraka has some fucking guts.
“Alright, time to get serious-“ both of them started running at each other “-Uraraka.”
But before he could get any closer to her, she fell down to the ground and he stopped abruptly, surprised. The referee, Midnight he assumed, jogged up to her and kneeled down next to her, giving him a signal to wait. He watched as Uraraka tried crawling towards him while murmuring something, just to be finally stopped by Midnight’s hand on her back.
“Uraraka is unable to continue.” She looked at Katsuki and nodded. “Bakugou moves on to the next round!” Her announcement made the stadium go wild, both in excitement and some kind of discontent.
The blond took a deep breath and turned around to leave the arena, but he noticed his long forgotten jacket on the ground. He picked it up and discovered that besides being dirty, it miraculously survived in all the ruckus of the battle.
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Katsuki went to the part of the stands that was dedicated for his class and noticed that his old seat was taken, and thus he was forced to sit down next to some girl with purple hair in the first row.
“Dude, you really didn’t have to go at her like that!” He turned to see some guy with yellow hair and stupid grin talking to him. “Blowing up a frail girl like her.” Yellow head tilted his head and Katsuki rolled his eyes while crossing arms on his chest. “Not like me, I held back against mine!” He added proudly, and Katsuki stopped listening at this point.
“Nothing frail about her…” Blond muttered more to himself, than to answer anyone, so that’s why he tensed a bit when he felt a poke on his shoulder. He looked to his left and narrowed his eyes at the purple haired girl, who was resting her hands on her knees. Katsuki noticed that what poked him, was a strange, plug-like thing going from her ear. “What?” She looked to the side at his harsh tone.
“You did go hard at her.” The girl stated and Katsuki glared at her, tired of the same shit being repeated over and over again. “But you saw the real opponent in her.” She continued with a smirk and he tilted one of his eyebrows at her.
“Why the fuck wouldn’t I?” He looked back at the arena, where few people gathered in the center.
“Aizawa-sensei was right.” Katsuki glanced back at her, but she was staring at the arena, not paying much attention to him. “And she did put up a fight, almost catching you off-guard out there.” She added with a chuckle while playing with the end of one of her plugs, and almost snorted at his grunting.
Katsuki decided to ignore the girl and he focused on one of the huge screens, which was showing some two guys, getting ready for an arm wrestling match. Upon closer inspection, he realized that one of them was Shitty hair and he furrowed his eyebrows at the memory of their little talk.
“You’ll go against whoever wins the rematch.” Purple haired girl commented in a tone that suggested she didn’t expect him to answer her, so Katsuki just shrugged.
Now that she said it, he actually wanted Kirishima to win. Not only because he had no idea who the other guy was, but it’d be great to kick his nosy ass and be justified by the tournament. He could give him a lesson, to not think too much about others’ business. He already had Deku butting in all the time, and pulling off shit like the one during cavalry battle and then with his sidekick, that Uraraka-
Katsuki’s eyes widened with the sudden thought.
… Did he tell her?
He didn’t have more time to think about it, as the loud signal of the rematch starting made the thought slip away from him. He focused on a red head shown on the huge screen and watched as both of his arms, one arm struggling to win against the quirk of the another guy, while his other hand was holding onto a block of cement. At some point, he dug his sharp fingers into the supposedly firm surface and Katsuki slightly leaned forward to see the whole action better.
Katsuki knew Kirishima was strong, after all, he managed to keep up with him during the USJ incident and then today shown that he was mostly resistant to blond’s explosives. If they were to meet in a duel, he’d have to come up with some kind of a strategy against red head’s natural shield.
After few more seconds, Shitty hair managed to defeat the other guy, his hand slamming his opponent’s one into the surface of a cement block, almost breaking it in a result.
Strong motherfucker. Katsuki thought as a smirk spread across his face.
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Eijirou, still high on adrenaline with huge grin on his face, left the arena after his victory and wanted to quickly get some water and then head straight to the stands to watch next match, but he stumbled upon Uraraka leaving one of the prep-rooms.
“Hey, how did your fight go?” He asked and watched as she turned to him slowly with a questioning look. “I was unconscious after mine, so I couldn’t watch it.” Eijirou closed the distance between them and only now noticed her puffy eyes.
“I lost…” She said and lowered her head, before he could ask if she had cried. “Against Bakugou…” The girl added and looked to the side, while Eijirou’s eyes widened. He didn’t know they were put against each other, too occupied with his own match.
“Wow, that must have been-“ he looked for the right thing to say and scratched his neck. He didn’t want to offend her with the poor wording.
Or offend Bakugou.
“It’s okay, Kirishima-kun!” Uraraka tried to assure him. “It was challenging, but Bakugou-kun didn’t look down on me! I think he was even wary for some time!” She added with small, yet proud smile, but Eijirou tilted his head, slightly confounded.
“… Wary?” He slowly repeated after her with a questioning look.
“Ah, it might have something to do with what Deku-kun said?” She put her hand on her chin and looked up at the ceiling. “That Bakugou-kun doesn’t really remember other people’s quirks? Or that he doesn’t care..?” She wondered and moved her hand around as if she was writing Midoriya’s words in the air.
Eijirou didn’t know what to say to that. He still remembered his exchange with shorter teen from the beginning of the school year and how he felt like an asshole after, but now that he thought about it, there actually had to be something that Midoriya knew about Bakugou, and it wasn’t just Eijirou’s imagination at this point. Even blond’s reaction to his questions earlier was strange, to say the least.
“Kirishima-kun?” Uraraka’s voice brought him back to reality and he blinked few times, the thought getting lost in the back of his head. “Is there something wrong?” She took half a step in his direction.
“It’s nothing!” He smiled and put a hand on her shoulder. “My moms are recording the whole thing so I’ll definitely watch it!” Uraraka gasped softly at his words then, covered her face sheepishly.
“Ahhh, Kirishima-kun, you don’t have to!”
“This is my mission at this point. You can’t stop me.” He put on the most serious face he could manage, but he broke into laughter upon hearing shorter girl’s giggling.
“How is it that you always make people laugh?” Eijirou just shrugged with a smile. He didn’t feel like it was the right moment to go into how he didn’t want people to think they were alone or helpless all the time, like he used to.
Uraraka left after few moments, as she didn’t want to be late for Midoriya’s match, and Eijirou entered their class’ prep-room. He got to his locker and quickly found a bottle of water, which he drank while going through different messages on his phone.
Mama: KICK THEIR ASSES EICHAN
Mom: Good luck, honey!
Eijirou smiled at the first messages from his moms. He knew that both of them were busy with their schedules, but still managed to find a time to watch the tournament for him.
Mom: You have a strong team, but I don’t want this explodo boy to blow up your head.
Mom: Congratulations!!! I’M PROUD OF YOU
Mom: I hope your head won’t hurt after this!
The last one must have been sent after he and Tetsutetsu head-butted each other.
Mom: I’m proud of you, baby! Good luck during next match!
Eijirou smiled to himself and sent her a quick ‘thanks’, new message from his ma’ incoming in the meantime. He hurriedly opened it in hope for exchanging at least few texts with her, since she was overseas right now because of her job, and since they were in different time zones, they didn’t have that many chances to talk.
Mama: I can’t watch anymore bUT YOU FIGHT AGAINST THAT BLOND EXPLODO KID NEXT, SO KICK HIS ASS FOR ME, EICHAN!!!
He laughed loudly, but as he wanted to reply he realized what she wrote.
Blond explodo kid.
Eijirou paled slightly, threw his phone into the locker, closed it and ran out of the room to try and find at least one screen with a chart of fights. Luckily, one was right outside the room and he quickly found his name.
And indeed, as he won against Tetsutetsu, and Bakugou won against Uraraka, they were to meet in a short time on the arena. So far they only worked together, so going against Bakugou’s quirk would be an interesting experience. One could say that their quirks were a perfect match and it was true so far, so what would happen if they were to go against each other?
What happens when unstoppable force meets immovable object?
Eijirou took a deep breath and finally moved to the stands, while wondering if Bakugou would go extra hard at him for what he did during the lunch break. He couldn’t help but feel a bit guilty. Seeing Bakugou all alone at that table for the hundredth time, along with his own stupid curiosity, made him act without a plan.
He finally found the right stairs leading to the seats and walked up them, quickening his pace when he realized that the match had already began. He made it in time to see Midoriya break his third finger and cold shiver ran down his spine.
Poor guy. Eijirou thought and turned at someone calling out to him.
“Nice job getting to the second round, Kirishima!” Kaminari waved at him from where he was sitting in the middle of the first row and Eijirou shot him a grin, but as he was about to answer, he glanced around and saw that he was standing only a meter away from Bakugou, who stopped staring at his hair (there it is again) as soon as he realized that the red head noticed him, and started glaring at him from his seat, with eyes that could probably kill, and Eijirou forgot how to breathe for a second.
“Y-yeah!” He started and tried his best to sound confident. “I’m up against you next, Bakugou!” The smile returned to his face, but blond’s frown only deepened.
“I’ll kill you.” Bakugou said slowly with venom in his voice and turned back to watching the match.
Eijirou felt like this time he really was going to pay for his nosiness, and yet-
“I’d like to see you try!” He laughed and noticed how the angry blond glanced at him quickly. It’s not like Eijirou had anything else to lose. He might as well give it all.
Earlier he just jumped into conclusion without taking the time to think more about it, and now that he actually thought about it, he didn’t even know what this ‘conclusion’ was. He was sure there really was something about Bakugou he didn’t want to share with anyone, judging by his reaction alone, but he wasn’t sure what this something was.
Maybe there’s something wrong with his head? Eijirou smirked at the thought, but then paled slightly at his own joke, his eyes widening. His eyes shot to Bakugou, somehow afraid he’d read his thoughts, but the blond was keep watching the match and the thought slipped away when Present Mic announced that Midoriya broke more of his fingers.
The paradox.
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Katsuki watched Deku break his fingers, one after another and couldn’t help but grit his teeth. This fucking shrimp comparing their quirks was one thing, but him going out of his way to break them on purpose? For what? To prove a point to this bastard?
Meanwhile, he also noticed that Icy-Hot started moving at much slower pace than before and Katsuki turned his attention to him. From what he gathered, his right side was partially covered in thin layer of frost, because of him refusing to use his father’s fire.
Of course. After all, quirks are physical abilities. If someone runs for too long, they’ll eventually run out of breath. A quirk is just another function of the body, not a limitless power and Katsuki was more than well aware of that, as he subconsciously clenched his fists, still feeling a shadow of the pain from the fight with Round face.
They were keep jumping at each other, Deku going all out, probably numb to the pain because of the adrenaline and convinced he’d get healed later by the nurse. But if he won now, he wouldn’t be able to fight in the next match and Katsuki didn’t want some half-assed victory against that useless fucker.
And no way he’ll ever lose against him again.
Katsuki straightened his back when he saw Deku raise his hand to his mouth and put his thumb in it, to create another wave against his opponent, as he was probably unable to clench his fingers anymore.
Why the fuck are you doing this?
Deku was keep screaming something at him and managed to get close enough to push the other two times in a row, as if Icy-Hot was frozen in place.
Fucking irony.
But something must have gotten into that frozen brain, as Deku once again screamed at him, while he was on the ground, barely able to prop himself on his knees, he rose slowly to his feet and suddenly, burning flames erupted from him, the heat reaching the stands, and his words rang in Katsuki’s brain.
‘I’ll never use my father’s quirk.’ So what the fuck happened out there.
“SHOUTO!!!” A roar went through the stadium. Katsuki looked in the direction where it came from and frowned at some man who was literally burning, too far away to get any more details of his looks.
Whomst the fuck-
“Holy shit, that’s Endeavor…” Someone whispered behind him and Katsuki’s face turned into a disgusted grimace, especially when the ‘hero’ started going on about fulfilling his sick ambitions.
Luckily, it didn’t take him long to shut up and all the attention was back on Deku and flaming bastard.
Icy-Hot sent a giant ice wave at Deku, which the latter avoided by jumping over it with his quirk. Green head dived at the other teen, who heat up the air and melted all the ice in preparation for a giant flame attack, that began with his hand visibly flaring up with heat. Deku seemingly wanted to counter it with some kind of a smash attack, using one of his broken arms, but before the attacks could fully collide, the ground rose between them and everything blew up, the recoil and heat so much bigger than before.
When the smoke from the explosion cleared, Katsuki quickly leaned forward to check who won and saw Deku collapsing outside the ring. After few seconds of silence, Midnight announced that the Icy-Hot bastard was the victor.
You better go all out with that fucking fire at me. Katsuki thought and as he didn’t care about other fights, he moved to prepare for his own battle against Kirishima.
___
Katsuki stood in the middle of the arena, Kirishima dozen meters away. They both were waiting for the signal to start the match and while Katsuki was glaring, Kirishima seemed unbothered by it, determination and small smirk present on his face.
Close range combat. Katsuki furrowed his eyebrows and with last stretch of his arms took on a battle stance. Since this time he knew his opponent, there wouldn’t be any surprises and so he got ready to keep Shitty hair from getting too close.
The signal went off and Kirishima immediately rushed at him, his skin already hardened and Katsuki wondered if the other could keep this up for the whole fight.
“Hey-“ Kirishima spoke as he closed in, Katsuki dodging a punch from the left and flaring at him with an explosion, but that didn’t reach the red head as he jumped away in time. “Maybe if I win, you can actually tell me what’s up with you and my hairstyle?”
His blood boiled with anger.
“I’ll fucking murder you.” Katsuki grit his teeth and released bigger explosions at him, Kirishima running backwards with his arms crossed in front of him. “Stop with this bullshit and fight, you asshole!” He got closer again, but as Katsuki was about to send him away, he spoke again.
“Is it really bullshit when it comes to your head?!” This made him stop and he barely dodged as Kirishima cut his cheek open with a punch, he countered without thinking much about it and Shitty hair backed away with a smirk.
Was that just a joke?
When smoke disappeared, Katsuki saw that he managed to make a hole in Kirishima’s uniform, revealing hardened skin, and the asshole started laughing.
“That won’t work on me, Blasty!”
Strong, annoying motherfucker.
As Kirishima rushed at him with multiple punches again, Katsuki couldn’t do more than dodge while backing away, slowly losing ground. He didn’t have much of a choice than to wear him off, so he stood his ground and released few explosions at him. There was no way this idiot could keep this up for much longer.
After exchanging few more dodges and explosions, he finally managed to land a hit strong enough to make another hole in other’s uniform and get a reaction out of him. Kirishima grit his teeth and backed away slightly, holding onto his side and Katsuki smirked.
“Looks like you can’t stand more rapid attacks.” He said mockingly and when Shitty hair tried to get closer again, he raised both of his hands and let out multiple blasts, right at him, one after another. “You’re falling apart.” Katsuki added upon noticing that his skin softened slightly, and of course didn’t give him a chance to collect himself.
He raised both of his arms and released one final explosion, making Kirishima fall backwards and onto the ground.
“Mind your own fucking business, Kirishima.” Katsuki said as red head lost consciousness, his head falling unwittingly.
At least he won’t have to worry about him for the time being.
___
“Bakugou, wait!” Before Katsuki got a chance to even head towards the stands, someone’s voice from behind made him stop. He slowly peered over his shoulder and first thing he saw was red headed student, leaning against his own knees and panting slightly. “I thought I won’t catch you in time!” The student straightened his back and Katsuki recognized that terrible hairstyle. He rolled his eyes and grit his teeth.
“Didn’t I knock you out?” He hissed with a frown and turned to go away.
“Recovery Girl was surprised too… But you know, I’m more resistant, thanks to my quirk!” Kirishima laughed a bit, yet awkwardness was apparent in his voice.
But his words made Katsuki stop.
Strong, annoying, unyielding motherfucker.
Katsuki’s frown deepened even more when he realized that Shitty hair decided to approach him.
“The fuck do you want, anyway!?” He raised his voice, as he wanted to sound threatening.
He really didn’t want to talk to him, especially after he mentioned their less than enjoyable talk during freaking battle! Didn’t he have more important things to think about during the tournament?! Katsuki thought that him knocking Kirishima out and winning would be enough for the red head to stop tailing after him and stop snooping around, but apparently, that was just his wishful thinking.
“I wanted to talk to you.”
Katsuki couldn’t figure out what was the exact tone of his voice and he swallowed a lump forming in his throat.
Was that it? Did he somehow figure it out?
He grit his teeth and tried to take a calming breath as he slowly turned to fully face him and narrowed his eyes. Kirishima was standing few meters away from him, his eyebrows slightly upturned, in kind of a worried manner.
Or rather fucking pity. Because of course that’s something he’d get.
What did he expect, if not that?
Did he expect Kirishima to be any different from others?
Did he expect him to act neutral about his discovery?
… Maybe he could still ask him to not tell anyone?
God fucking damn it, what if he already did that!?
“… Bakugou?” Kirishima’s worried tone made him snap out from his panic and he glared at him, and to his surprise, the other actually lowered his gaze, as if he was ashamed.
“Yeah? And about what?!” The blond aggressively snarked at him, trying to cover the fact that he was almost afraid of this confrontation, small part of his mind hoping for it to be about something else, anything else.
Kirishima’s next words only confirmed his fears, to which he’d never admit.
“About… What I said during the lunch break.”
… Fuck.
Notes:
Who likes cliffhangers? :)
Yeah, you can expect more of them from me.
I'm so happy tho cuz I commissioned one of my fave artists to draw a scene from the USJ chapter and I already saw the rough sketch and it's amazing??? I can't wait, it already looks amazing *cries*
Anyway, scream with me on tumblr here <3
Up next; The actual end of the Sports Festival, but God, at what cost?
Chapter 12: Catalyst
Summary:
Sadness without summertime
Notes:
Tonight on Engraved in your Mind; who cares about fights when there are panic attacks and angsty plot to have. In other words, yes, I did not write any of the remaining fights haha
But it was either that, or you guys would have to wait more than a month for an update ljlfkhjgkufAnyway! Time for a visit in good ol' Angstville.
But like seriously tho, I'm pretty sure this chapter is one of the heaviest that were and will be there.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Maybe it was the way Bakugou reacted during their fight, freezing for a split second, or how Eijirou was kicking himself for even jokingly thinking that there was something wrong with Bakugou’s head, but he just wanted to come clean with him at this point, and dancing around the topic wouldn’t be a good idea, so he decided to get straight to the point after seeing his classmate pale slightly at his words.
“About… What I said during the lunch break.” He looked up at the sound of air being sharply inhaled and noticed that Bakugou’s jaw was clenched so tightly, it probably hurt.
Was he this angry about that? Eijirou took a deep breath.
“Dude, I’m uh- sorry. For kind of attacking you like that…” He looked down and grimaced a bit. “Like, I honestly don’t know what I was thinking… I just-“
“For fucking shit, you bitch face!” Eijirou’s eyes shot up at Bakugou.
“Huh-"
“Why wouldn't you just fucking start with that?! The fuck’s with all the God damn suspense bullshit?!” He yelled at Eijirou and moved towards him.
“I’m sorry!” He took half a step back on instinct while Bakugou approached him and stood at arm's length from him. “Seriously, I-“ The other raised his fist and Eijirou tensed.
He really didn’t want it to end in another fight, but if that’s what it’d take for Bakugou to forgive him then be it.
Eijirou closed his eyes, held his breath and braced for a hit but then felt a shove on his shoulder. A shove that was too light to be meant to be harmful, yet too hard to be perceived as a friendly one, so what was that?
“Next time get to the fucking point, you ass!” He opened his eyes to see a pout and slightly furrowed eyebrows on Bakugou’s face.
“R-right! Sorry, man!” Eijirou didn’t really know how to react. “I won’t do that again!” He tried to assure him with a small smile, at which Bakugou’s frown only deepened, yet he didn’t look like he was actually that angry. There was a short sigh from him, as if he was relieved .
“Whatever.” Bakugou repeated the motion of hitting his shoulder and put both of his hands in the pockets of his pants.
Wait, so that was supposed to be a friendly nudge after all? Was Bakugou just socially awkward and didn’t know how to calculate something as easy as a nudge? Eijirou couldn’t help but smile brightly, at which Bakugou only rolled his eyes and turned around.
“Just don’t stick your nose in other’s business, Kirishima.” He said almost calmly as he started walking, yet he stopped and peered at him over his shoulder. “… Especially if there’s no business.” Bakugou added kind of ominously and continued on his own.
Eijirou’s smile only widened after being called by his actual name and he laughed a bit. He jogged up to Bakugou and put his arm around his shoulders.
“Aw, Blasty! You have my word!”
“Don’t touch me.” Bakugou grumbled and quickly pushed him away, yet with much less force than the last time Eijirou did that, when they were to train together. “And don’t call me that!” He glared at him and quickened his pace.
“Sure, Blasty!” His laughter echoed in the corridor, accompanied by a chain of curses.
___
Katsuki pushed Shitty hair away and quickened his pace while yelling at him to stop calling him ‘Blasty'. What kind of a nickname even was that?
“Sure, Blasty!”
“The fuck did I just tell you, Shitty hair?” He said with spite and rolled his eyes at the chuckle from Kirishima. They finally got to the stands and Katsuki let him sit down next to him in the back.
… But if he had to be honest, Kirishima would probably sit next to him anyway, for some fucking reason.
Katsuki wasn’t really interested in the next fight and so, he could finally analyze what happened.
And the longer he thought about it, the more he felt like a fucking moron.
Even if he didn't want to admit it, he assumed the worst and let all those shitty emotions flood him at once, while Kirishima didn't even fucking know. He didn't know and Katsuki almost shot himself in the knee with his stupid overreacting.
“I wonder if he'll use his fire again…” Kirishima's voice brought him back to Earth and Katsuki turned to him with a frown. Shitty hair realized he was looking at him and straightened his back with slight panic on his face. “You know! Since he didn't want to use it before for some reason and all that stuff?” He laughed awkwardly and gestured vaguely towards the arena.
Katsuki raised his eyebrow and turned his gaze to one of the screens. He saw two guys fighting, one with some kind of tubes coming out from his freaking calves and with glasses on his face (how the fuck did they not fall off by now?), the other with evenly split, red-white hair. The camera focused on his face for a moment and Katsuki noticed that nasty scar on it. The guy used an ice wall to not fall out of the arena.
Right. Ice.
“He better fucking use it.” He said with malice and stood up, ready to leave to get ready for his own fight and vaguely wondered why he had come to sit there in the first place. Without putting too much thought into it, he decided to blame Kirishima for distracting him.
“Where are you going?” Kirishima jumped a bit in his seat when Katsuki rose to his feet, but as he was about to answer, Shitty hair spoke again, with more confidence. “Oh right! You fight against Tokoyami next!” He smiled brightly and raised his thumbs up. “Good luck, man!”
Katsuki peered at him over his shoulder and frowned. Who the fuck was Tokoyami?
“You know! The guy with a bird head?” Katsuki froze for a second, but Kirishima's tone was so oblivious that he quickly ignored any panic in his head.
“I know who that is, why the fuck wouldn't I?” Kirishima's smile flattened, but as he was about to say something-
“Oh, but you didn't remember our names before the cavalry battle!” He heard a girly voice, but when he turned to its source, there was only a school gym uniform sitting nearby.
Invisibility? Since fucking when? He didn't remember any floating clothes when he was choosing his team, but then again, he didn't remember much from that moment until Kirishima appeared out of nowhere and practically stopped him from his stupid panicking.
“Do you have trouble remembering names, Bakugou-kun?” From the movements of the uniform, he assumed that the girl leaned forward to be closer to him.
Now that he thought about it, there often was an empty seat in front of him in the class. Maybe it was just there was no head to peek out from that seat in the first place?
“Oh yeah!” Another voice, Katsuki turned and some guy with yellow hair was sitting backwards in his seat, just so he could talk to them. “You're more into rude nicknames, right? Blasty?” He asked with a smirk and Katsuki grit his teeth, his frown deepening.
“What is it to you two, you useless extras?” Yellow head gasped dramatically while Kirishima chuckled not-so-subtly. “Hey, Shitty hair, that wasn’t a joke, so don’t la-“
“But you sometimes call Kirishima-kun by his name!” The girl called out with some amusement in her voice and sleeves of her uniform raised up and Katsuki narrowed his eyes at her.
How the fuck-
“Bro, how did you do that?!” Yellow haired one turned to Kirishima who just shrugged with stupid smile, seemingly having no answer for him, but Katsuki was more than happy to provide one.
“I don’t give a shit about some weaklings who lost in the first round.”
“Excuse me?!” The guy turned back to him with a scowl.
“We both were there during cavalry battle!” The girl spoke up defensively, right after the first idiot.
“And I made it to the last round!”
Fuck, did he? Katsuki clicked his tongue and glared at him and then tried at the invisible girl but it was hard from the lack of face he could look at.
All better for him.
“But you lost.” He said coldly and turned around. “So it doesn’t even matter.” While walking away, Katsuki heard Kirishima call out to him, but ignored it entirely.
He had more important things to attend to.
___
Defeating that Bird guy was easier than it seemed at first. All he had to do was use brighter blasts against that shadow of his and that was it.
But that wasn't important anymore. He won, and the Birdy (whatever his name was) lost. And now he was to stand against that Icy-hot bastard who after his fight with Deku refused to use his fire again, like the stubborn asshole he was.
Katsuki went to one of the prep-rooms, but when he kicked the door open, he found himself face to face with some guy, who was sitting at the table.
“What the-“
The guy turned to him and Katsuki realized he had dually colored hair and a scar over his left eye.
That bastard.
“Why the fuck are you here?” Katsuki asked, not really expecting an answer, and looked over his shoulder to check the room’s number. “Ah, wrong one-“ He noticed with annoyance that only rose when he realized that Icy-Hot completely ignored him and looked down at his hands, which were resting on the table. “Hey, dipshit, I get that I walked into the wrong room-“ he approached him slowly and yet was still being ignored “-but why the fuck are you giving your final opponent a cold shoulder, hah?” Katsuki raised his hand, and when he still didn’t get any reaction from him, he slammed it against the table with an explosion. “DON’T IGNORE ME!”
Finally, he got some kind of a response, even if it was just short, stupid ‘ah’ .
“Midoriya…” The bastard still wasn’t looking at him, but slowly raised his left hand and stared at it. “…he went out of his way to literally smash what was holding me back.” Katsuki had no idea why this asshole would start talking about that damned nerd all of a sudden, but as he was about to open his mouth, Icy-hot spoke again. “You two are childhood friends, right? Was he always like that?”
Katsuki grit his teeth and anger boiled in him at the memories of Deku’s stupid doings.
‘I’ll keep my hair like that so you’ll be able to always recognize me without worrying about it!’
‘You really looked like you needed help!’
‘I’m not scared of you!’
“That fucking hypocrite…” Katsuki clenched his fists. “WHO THE FUCK CARES?! ” He yelled and kicked the table with enough force that caused it to fall over. “Who cares about his useless speeches?!” The bastard finally looked up at him and it was obvious he wanted to say something. “And you! Your fucking family!” His eyes widened and a frown appeared on his face.
“How did-“
“No one gives a shit!” Katsuki immediately interrupted him. “No one gives a shit about your tragic backstory, just like no one gives a shit about mine!” Icy-hot seemed to be taken aback by it and closed his mouth, confused frown appearing on his face. Katsuki mentally kicked himself and tried to ignore the feeling of regret after saying too much. He put both of his hands in the pockets of his pants, while looming over that bastard. “So come at me with your fucking fire.” He glared at him one last time and turned around. “I’ll crush those flames, just like everything else.” Katsuki finally said and left the room for good.
___
The signal to start their fight went off and before Katsuki knew what had happened, it was over.
He stared at his unconscious opponent, lying on ice outside the ring and everything about their fight changed into a blur as rage flooded him.
How dare you.
Katsuki raised to his feet, while ignoring the pain in his arms after his last powerful blow, and almost stumbled a few times as he sprinted towards that bastard.
“HOW DARE YOU HOLD BACK!?” He grabbed him by the collar of his shirt and violently shook his limp body. “DID DEKU TELL YOU?! IS THAT WHY!? ANSWER ME, YOU HALF-FACED BASTARD, HE FUCKING TOLD YOU, DIDN’T HE!? ”
Katsuki couldn’t think straight, blinded by his rage, and before he knew it, a sweet scent reached his nostrils and he felt his body get too heavy and fell down to the ground. Like through the fog, he heard someone announce him as the victor of the tournament.
Not like this…
___
In one second he was yelling and firing off explosions at people who wanted to force him to accept this worthless victory, in another he was screaming and fighting for the air, his face covered behind a muzzle and his hands tied.
He tried to breathe, tried to blast off the restraints, but they were too tight on his hands and he'd risk hurting himself. The panic rose in his mind as his chest tightened from the lack of air. The horrifying familiarity of this situation and a feeling of helplessness were humiliating and there was no one to help him.
No Deku to come running out of nowhere.
No All Might to blow the sludge away with one punch.
No one.
Only now he realized that he was already on the podium, out in the open and felt tears well up in his eyes. Katsuki blinked rapidly to stop them, he couldn’t afford to show any weakness, especially in the situation like this.
When he was exposed to the whole fucking country, if not more.
Finally, fucking finally, someone removed the muzzle from his face and Katsuki took in a couple of deep, desperate breaths. His lungs hurt from the amount of air he took in, but God did it feel good to finally be able to breathe again.
"You lived up to your promise, young Bakugou." Deep voice grounded him and Katsuki realized he was shaking, almost violently, no longer fighting for air, but the panic still made his heart race and sweat run from his forehead.
He looked up and saw an enormous figure right in front of him.
Katsuki’s chest tightened again as his eyes darted from head to toes of the tall man.
Blond hair with two bangs sticking out, wide smile on his face with strange, black, sunken eyes, retro hero costume, calling him ‘young Bakugou’-
… No.
Please, no-
Everyone but him, everyone but All Might.
He can’t see you like that, not again-
“… Are you alright, my boy?” Worry in his suddenly quieter voice was degrading and Katsuki noticed the medal in his hands. “Young-“
“THIS VICTORY DOESN’T MEAN SHIT!” All Might seemed to be taken aback by his sudden outburst, but after a few seconds, he walked up closer to him anyway, extending his arms towards him, the band with a medal being all too close to Katsuki for his liking.
“Accept this, young boy! As a wound even-“
“I DON’T WANT YOUR GARBAGE MEDAL!” He hated how strained his voice was and how desperate he sounded, but it seemed to work, as All Might stopped moving.
And then he saw it.
Fucking pity on hero’s face.
___
The boy screamed again.
Toshinori's hands stopped moving towards him and clenched on the band with a heavy medal hanging from it. It was obvious to him that the boy was yelling furiously to cover for something, and just before he repeated his profanities, Toshinori realized that young Bakugou was highly distressed by this situation, as the look on his face was nearly the same as when he was held by that sludge villain, almost a whole year ago. He considered backing off, to fulfill his wish and not give him the medal at all, but then he heard a quiet voice of Midnight behind him, telling him to hurry, because the audience was getting impatient.
Toshinori took a deep breath and looked at the student apologetically.
I'm sorry, young Bakugou. He thought and moved towards him once again, to put the medal on him.
___
Masaru stared at the screen of their TV with shock and disbelief. He clenched his hands into fists, nails digging into his palms, while trying his best to remain calm.
Good thing Mitsuki went to the kitchen. He thought and almost prayed for her to stay there long enough, so she wouldn't see their son being restrained like that. She left the room after they saw the referee use her quirk to put to sleep rightfully (in Mitsuki’s opinion) angry Katsuki, and as she didn’t want to get more angry, she decided to go and make herself some tea.
And of course, that's when he heard something hit the floor. Masaru immediately turned around and saw Mitsuki standing in the doorway, mug (which miraculously didn’t break) was on the floor with hot tea spilled around it. She was staring at the screen with furrowed eyebrows and clenched teeth.
“Are you oka-“
"How much for me to sue this fucking school?" She asked, her eyes never dropping from the screen.
"Mitsuki-" he stood up from the couch and slowly approached her "-I don't think this will be-"
"You know what?" She walked past him while still staring at the TV. "It doesn't matter." Mitsuki finally looked at him over her shoulder. "I'll fucking destroy them, no matter the costs." She stated flatly with daggers in her eyes.
They watched for a few seconds how someone took off a muzzle from Katsuki’s face and caught how he took few quick, deeper breaths, before screaming something at All Might, who tried to put a medal on him
"They could have simply said that he was still asleep after that bitch used her quirk!" She pointed at the mentioned referee who stood in the corner of the screen.
"You know..." He coughed awkwardly. "Katsuki sometimes overreacts to things..." Masaru tried to calm the situation, even though his wife had a point. Yet, he quickly learnt that he might have made a mistake by saying that.
"Are you fucking kidding me right now?!" Mitsuki screamed at him and hit the screen with her palm. "Do you see what I see!? They restrained him like some kind of a wild animal!" Her clenched fist returned to her side. "LIKE A FUCKING VILLAIN!"
If Masaru wanted to say anything, he momentarily forgot what it was. This statement actually got to him. Masaru knew how delicate of a subject 'villainy' was in their household, with how Katsuki dealt with his anger and how people often talked behind his back.
Mitsuki apparently couldn’t bear to watch this anymore, as she took a remote, turned off the TV and sat down on the edge of a couch.
"God, he was already claustrophobic after that fucking sludge piece of shit... Now what..?" She asked herself and rubbed her face, still clearly mad.
"Come on now, he didn't have that much trouble with-"
"Don't you fucking dare finish that sentence." If she had a quirk of murdering people with her eyes, Masaru would already be dead a few times. "You know damn well why he refuses to wear ties."
Realization flooded him like a cold wave.
Now that she said it, Masaru thought that he might have gotten too used to his son not wearing ties or anything too tight around his neck. He might have also repressed that one memory, back when Katsuki was in middle school, how right after the incident with the sludge villain, he stopped buttoning all the way up his school uniform. Neither of them paid it too much mind, probably not even Katsuki himself, until a few weeks later, when they were going out for dinner to some fancy restaurant and Masaru wanted to help his son with a tie. He accidentally fastened it far too tight and suddenly, Katsuki started hyperventilating, and they were unable to calm him down for far too long for anyone's liking.
The fear, panic and helplessness on Katsuki's face were so unnatural and shocking for both of them at that moment, neither of them knew how to handle this situation. When he was at the end of what was probably a panic attack, he couldn't even recognize them. He was staring with widened and panicked eyes, which were darting back and forth between them, while breathing heavily, not letting them get closer and firing off explosions at them.
The mere memory of it made a cold shiver run down Masaru's spine.
___
Katsuki managed to get to the locker room by the time other guys from his class (as this time he double checked he went to the right room, just to be sure) were getting out of the showers. Happy banter between all of them stopped the moment they noticed him and turned into half whispers as he glared at them and clenched his hand around the meaningless medal.
He threw that piece of garbage onto the bench between the lockers, some guy with blond hair jumping with short yelp at the sudden sound. Katsuki ignored him, he turned to his own locker to get some stuff and headed straight to the showers, his frown deepening when the conversations went back to normal as soon as he was out of sight. He didn't stay under the water for too long, not wanting to think about what had happened, almost afraid of staying with his thoughts alone.
As soon as he came back to the room he noticed that most of the guys were gone, only few still there, already in their school uniforms. Katsuki just moved to his locker and started putting on his own as well, not sparing a glance at them or at the medal which seemed to be making fun of him from where it was still on the bench.
“Dude, it’s so strange to see you with your hair down.” Katsuki rolled his eyes at the words of one of the guys from a group standing near him.
Who cares about that stuff, just go to fucking class.
“Yeah, I don’t think I’ve ever seen you with it like that outside the locker rooms!” The other added with short laugh.
“I want it to be my signature! Just like Crimson Riot!” The third one provided with more enthusiasm than necessary and he heard some shuffling. Katsuki glanced subtly at them and noticed that the one with red hair was going through his bag, then spoke again after taking out some tube, probably with a gel. “It doesn’t take long for me to style it, but you two go ahead, I’ll catch up in a moment!” He finished and the other two left the room.
That’s when the redhead looked back at him and Katsuki quickly turned to face his locker again. Finally, he put on the jacket of his uniform and slammed the locker shut, but as he was about to leave the place, he felt a hand on his shoulder.
“Hey, Bakugou-“
“The fuck do you want!?” He shoved the hand away and turned to the guy with a glare. He tried to figure out who the fuck that was, but to no avail, as he couldn’t recall anyone with that kind of hair.
“You- uh” Redhead pulled away and raised his other hand. Katsuki’s frown only deepened when he realized what that jerk was holding. “You left your medal on the bench?” He offered with a small smile and waved the medal a bit.
“Fucking keep it if you care about it so much!” Katsuki snapped and turned around but stopped dead in his tracks when he found himself face to face with all too familiar person still dressed in a gym uniform, with bandaged one arm, another in a casket, with green hair and disgusting red shoes. “… You little piece of-“
“K-Kacchan!” Deku’s voice was already full of panic and Katsuki took a step towards him. “Ah, congratulations? On the-“ He didn’t get to finish, as Katsuki pushed him.
“Bakugou, stop it, he’s injured!”
Katsuki didn’t care so far, but now that the red head mentioned it, he recalled that Deku basically broke both of his arms during his fight with Icy-Hot and that only made him angrier.
So Katsuki pushed Deku again, and he hit the wall behind him with a short yelp.
“Dude, stop it!”
Katsuki felt a grip on his shoulder but managed to push the guy away and turned back to Deku.
“You enjoyed the show, you useless fuck?!” He screamed in his face while towering over him. “Had your fun, telling everyone and looking down on me?!”
“I didn’t tell-“
“Fucking cavalry battle, your fucking side-kick, then that Half-faced bastard!? All that talk about not being scared while you’re still shaking, you little hypocrite?! HAH!? YOU FUCKING SNAKE, GOT ANYTHING ELSE TO SAY?!”
“Bakugou-“ again, the voice from behind “-I don’t know what this is about but you need to calm down!” Katsuki turned and walked up to him.
“That’s none of your fucking business.” He hissed and shoved him in the shoulder, then noticed that he was still holding onto that fucking medal. Katsuki grit his teeth, reached and snapped the medal out of the guy’s hand just to blindly throw it across the room. “AND JUST FORGET ABOUT THIS PIECE OF GARBAGE!”
“I knew that all this noise would come out from you , of all people.” Another, different voice suddenly reached him and Katsuki turned around to see some guy with wild, purple hair, standing in the doorway. “I figured you were a dick after meeting you in class and with what you did during the tournament, but damn , now I’m even more sure.”
“What the fuck, you rotten plum, no one asked you.” Katsuki fully turned to him and took a few steps forward.
“Very creative.” He said mockingly with a smirk. “But what did I expect from someone who complains about winning?” Katsuki didn’t know it was possible, but even more anger rose in him.
“Who do you think you are? Who the fuck are you!?”
“Who the fuck are you?”
“I ASKED YOU FIR-“
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Before Eijirou knew it, Bakugou stopped screaming and his face wore blank expression with unseeing eyes, while Midoriya let out a panicked noise and Shinsou laughed.
“And just like that, number one of the entrance exam and the winner of the tournament gets defeated!” Shinsou announced and walked up to Bakugou who was standing still.
“Dude, come on, it’s not funny-“ Eijirou walked up to his side. “Not to mention it’s kind of a dick move to-"
“You know what’s a real dick move?” Shinsou stopped smiling and turned to him with a frown. “Acting like an actual dick throughout the whole festival and then acting even more like one after winning. ” He took a step back and gestured towards Midoriya who was still leaning against the wall. “And towards someone who he didn’t even fight with in the first place, don’t you think!?”
Eijirou knew better than to answer him, and he didn’t want to agree with him, but he was kinda right. The way Bakugou lashed at Midoriya for no apparent reason was indeed, well, a dick move.
But, it wasn’t a reason to use his quirk on him.
Eijirou still waited a few more seconds before answering.
“… I get it, but that’s just wrong, man.” He made to snap Bakugou out of it, as he saw how it worked during the festival, but Shinsou stood in his way and Eijirou frowned at him. “Come on-“
“Don’t you want to see him apologize?” He said while keeping the eye contact with Eijirou, who once again bit his tongue to make sure he wouldn't answer. He didn’t have any way of knowing if Shinsou wanted to use his quirk on him.
“N-no! You can’t!” They both looked at Midoriya who moved towards them with desperation on his face. “It’s not-“
“If you don’t want him to apologize, then snap him out of it yourself.” Shinsou said almost mockingly and shrugged when Midoriya’s eyes wandered for a second to Bakugou who was completely out of it, and then lowered to the floor. “I thought so.” Shinsou looked back at Eijirou. “He’ll just apologize, no harm done.” He shrugged again with a smirk.
“Shinsou, seriously-“ Eijirou didn’t know what to say. On one hand he had a feeling that Midoriya deserved some apologies, but on the other, he believed that those should always come out naturally and not forced.
“Bakugou, go to Midoriya and bow.” Before Eijirou could react, Bakugou did as he was told. He moved and stopped two meters from Midoriya who started muttering something in panic, once Bakugou actually bowed to him.
“Alright, you had your fun, it’s over.” Once again, he moved towards Bakugou but stopped at Shinsou's next words.
“Now, kneel and bow.” Shinsou stated while keeping the eye contact with Eijirou, as if challenging him.
“Wait, that’s-“
“Shinsou-kun, please-“
Neither Eijirou’s objection or Midoriya’s pleading stopped Bakugou from kneeling down and putting his hands and head on the ground in front Midoriya. The sight was more disturbing to Eijirou than he thought it would be, even more when he noticed that Midoriya turned his eyes away from Bakugou.
“See? It’s not that hard. Now, Bakugou stand up and bow to Kirishima, you were a dick to him as well.” Eijirou’s eyes darted to Shinsou and now he was actually angry at the guy.
“No, that’s enough-“
“What the hell?” Shinsou whispered suddenly with a frown and Eijirou stopped mid step. He looked questionably at him then followed his gaze to find out that Bakugou was indeed standing, but he wasn’t moving.
“Bakugou?” Eijirou slowly walked up to him with a hope that maybe he snapped out of it himself, like Midoriya earlier, while confused Shinsou stayed in the back. He waved his hand in front of his face and when nothing happened, he turned back to Shinsou. “What did you do?!” He jumped a bit at the volume of Eijirou’s voice and his eyes darted between him and Bakugou.
“I- Bakugou, smile.” He insisted and Eijirou sighed. He looked back at Bakugou just to see the corners of his lips raise a bit. It looked creepy at least, and unnatural with his currently blank eyes. “Bow to Kirishima!” The smile disappeared and then-
Nothing.
“Asshole, are you so entitled that you don’t even remember other’s names?!” Shinsou yelled, clearly frustrated.
There was a heavy silence in the room and Eijirou had a feeling that all of them were equally confused as to why Bakugou wouldn’t do as he was told while under the effect of Shinsou’s quirk.
That was until Midoriya spoke up.
“Shinsou-kun please, he-“ His voice was trembling as he slowly moved towards him. It was obvious from his face that he was desperate and panicked. “That’s enough, please, he can’t- I can’t-“
“BOW TO SHITTY HAIR!” Shinsou’s frustrated yell startled both of them and a short wave of panic washed over Eijirou. He and Midoriya slowly turned to Bakugou just to see him standing still, but then something happened.
Bakugou, while still under control, started shaking slightly, his mouth moving as if he wanted to say something and unseeing eyes darting back and forth between nothing.
“What the fuck-“ He heard Shinsou’s angry and confused whisper and grit his teeth in anger.
Enough is enough.
“Shinsou…“ Eijirou started coldly, not turning away from still shaking Bakugou. “I don’t know what the fuck you’re doing, but if you don’t want to get burnt once I snap him out of it, then you better get out of this room, this instant.” He glared at Shinsou over his shoulder, who took a step back, obviously taken off guard by Eijirou's uncharacteristic sinister tone. His eyes darted between the three of them, he seemed to think about something for a short second before he let out a short scoff and quickly left the locker room.
Eijirou momentarily relaxed and turned to Midoriya who looked like he was ready to run.
“Are you-“
“Just please, snap him out of it…” He said quietly while avoiding eye contact.
Eijirou sighed and walked up to Bakugou. Without any unnecessary hesitating, but not without guilt, he smacked him on the head and he inhaled sharply as his eyes came back to normal.
“Hey man, you kinda zoned out there for a second, are you okay?” Eijirou had no idea why he was basically saving Shinsou from Bakugou’s rage right now, but he needed to know if Bakugou somehow was conscious while under the effects of the quirk.
But then again, why would he bow to Midoriya?
Bakugou stared at him for a few seconds with unusual confusion in his eyes that changed back to rage as soon as Midoriya approached them.
“Kacchan-“ His quiet voice was shaking “-I swear, I didn’t-“
"Shut up!" Bakugou screamed at Midoriya suddenly and shoved him out of the way. "Just shut your fucking mouth and change your hair!" He added, grabbed his bag and hurriedly left the room, while Midoriya was still looking at his back.
What the fuck is going on.
"Hey..." Eijirou managed to say after a few moments of silence. The other tensed suddenly and looked back at him with shock and surprise, as if only now he remembered that Eijirou was still there. "What-" he wasn't sure what he wanted to ask and he swallowed a lump in his throat. "… What just happened?"
Midoriya just stared at him for a long amount of time, to the point it was getting uncomfortable. He still had the same scared and panicked expression when he saw Bakugou kneel in front of him and when he later begged Shinsou to let him go.
"Kirishima-kun..." He finally uttered after another few seconds. "Please." He took a step closer towards him. "I beg you- "
"Midoriya, what's this about-"
"I beg you Kirishima! " He was so distressed he forgot about any formalities and actual tears appeared in his eyes. "Please, just forget about this!"
"What? No, I can't just leave it like that-"
“No! Seriously, there's nothing to worry about! ” His fake, nervous laughter was full of panic and the strangest feeling of déjà vu dawned on Eijirou.
Except that it wasn’t déjà vu. Midoriya already said these exact words to him once.
“… It was Bakugou.” He said after a few seconds to himself while Midoriya’s eyebrows scrunched in confusion.
“Wha-"
“Back on the first day! Holy shit, it was him who had you all messed up in front of the school!” Eijirou felt like an idiot for not connecting the dots sooner.
Old friend, blond hair, the hand that was firing up, Midoriya's reactions-
God, I'm so fucking stupid. Eijirou scolded himself and rubbed his eyes with one hand.
“No, please, Kirishima-kun it wasn't-"
“Now -“ Eijirou interrupted him and took a step towards him, but before he could add anything else, the door opened and in came Todoroki.
“Midoriya, I was looking for you, I need to-" He stopped mid sentence when his eyes fell on Eijirou. “Am I interrupting?” Todoroki asked slowly with a tone that indicated he didn't actually care.
“We were-"
“NOT AT ALL, TODOROKI-KUN!” Midoriya cut in and used the situation to step away from Eijirou. “D-did you need me for something!?” It was pretty obvious that he was using Todoroki as a distraction and an escape route and Eijirou wondered if their classmate was oblivious to it or if he simply didn't care.
“I need to talk to you. About- you know.” He stated at which Midoriya nodded almost aggressively, then Todoroki glanced at Eijirou. “In private.” He added while keeping the eye contact with him.
“Of course! Sorry, Kirishima-kun…” Midoriya was more than happy to agree and after quickly excusing themselves, they were gone and Eijirou stood alone in the room, confused and lost.
With furrowed eyebrows, he turned to collect his stuff and as he was about to leave the room, he noticed Bakugou’s medal still on the floor, under the bench. Eijirou pondered for a few seconds then moved and reached for it.
It was heavier than he anticipated and he squeezed it in his hand before putting it safely in his bag.
Even if before he promised Bakugou to stop butting in, at this point he was more than sure that both him and Midoriya were hiding something.
With newfound determination, Eijirou finally left the locker room.
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Masaru heard the door slam open then back close and stomping with familiar cursing coming from his son. He quickly got up from the couch and went to the corridor, where he met face to face with Katsuki and stood in his way.
“I’M NOT IN THE FUCKING MOOD!” Katsuki screamed at him and Masaru thanked whatever force was out there that kept his wife on the other side of the house, where she was trying to calm down.
“Katsuki, I know that you’re upset-“
“I’m not upset , I’m pissed off, now move out of the fucking way, I don’t want to talk with anyone!” He interrupted quickly and moved to go past Masaru, who stopped him by putting a hand on his shoulder. “For fuck’s sake, WHAT?!” Katsuki glared at him.
He was panting slightly, obviously still shaken after what happened at the end of the festival.
“It’s okay, Katsuki.” Masaru approached him slowly and put one hand on his head, the other on his shoulder. Katsuki seemingly wanted to pull away, but he wasn’t about to just let him go like that.
“I DON’T NEED YOU PITY, I-“
“You know it’s not pity.” Masaru closed the distance between them and hugged him tightly. “It’s okay, you’re safe here.”
Katsuki was quiet, his shoulders tense and he was obviously holding his breath in. Masaru could tell he was about to relax, but-
“WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT?!” At Mitsuki’s yell, Katsuki immediately pulled away and glared at his mother.
“WHAT DO YOU THINK IT WAS, OLD HAG!?”
God, there they are again.
Masaru as always tried to mute out most their arguing, while making sure that they wouldn’t destroy anything in the house. He sighed deeply at raising voices and thanked whatever force was out there that their neighbors never complained about the noise.
Endure it.
Suddenly, Katsuki walked quickly past him and Mitsuki and sprinted up the stairs.
“Don’t walk away from me, brat!” His wife went right after him and Masaru followed quickly. “That’s the only solution if they pull off shit like that again!” Masaru furrowed his eyebrows and some kind of regret for not listening flooded over him.
“Wait, what are you-“
“Fuck no!” Katsuki completely ignored him. “UA is the best, I’m not gonna go to Shitketsu or some other bullshit school, just because of your stupid whim!” He opened the door to his room, but as he wanted to enter, Mitsuki grabbed his shoulder.
“We’re not done here!”
“What, am I supposed to learn all those assholes again?!” Katsuki made her let go after releasing few explosions from his palms and quickly stepped into his room.
“Don’t lie to me, unless you’ve learnt more than one name!” Masaru didn’t want to admit that loudly, but she was probably right. And sudden silence from Katsuki only confirmed that.
“I-“ Katsuki stuttered and grit his teeth. “Shitty hair and Round face have nothing to do with it.” He looked down and clenched his fists.
“This only convinces me that you don’t even remember their names!” Mitsuki seemed ready to step into the room after him, but Masaru put a hand on her shoulder and she snapped at him instead. “WHAT, LIKE I’M WRONG?!” But before he had a chance to answer-
“FUCK YOU, YOU DON’T KNOW SHIT!” Katsuki’s voice was strained, he took another step back and put a hand on the door. For a few seconds, there was silence between them before Mitsuki growled.
“Go to your fucking room.”
“I’m already in my stupid room, you blind bat!” He yelled back at her and Masaru held onto her shoulder.
“THEN STAY HERE AND ROT.”
“GLADLY!” He slammed the door in their faces and Mitsuki threw her hands up in the air with short, frustrated yell.
“Fucking school and fucking brat!” She turned on her heel and stomped away. It’s been a while since the two of them had an argument like that.
Masaru sighed and wanted to knock on Katsuki’s door, but a loud curse reached him from the inside and he resigned this idea. He vaguely thought about going to Mitsuki and check on her, but decided against it as well.
After all, neither of them wanted to be bothered at the moment.
___
Katsuki slammed the door practically in his mother’s face.
Loud curse escaped his mouth and he turned around to sit down at his desk, all while little explosions were going off from his hands and Katsuki stared at them.
He stared at them and felt the rage still boil in him. But there was something else. Beyond that, he felt humiliated. Maybe even scared, but he’d never admit that.
His hands started shaking and he clenched them into fists. Katsuki circled his arms around his chest and stomach and curled up on himself, while squeezing his eyes shut.
You’re pathetic. Stop being so weak all the time.
Katsuki inhaled sharply through his clenched teeth and held his breath.
You wasted your chance.
He rocked his body back and forth a little bit and moved his right hand to touch the scar on the back of his head.
Everyone knows your quirk is terrible.
He released a shaky breath and pulled on his hair in frustration.
You’re on your own, you’re a fuck up, you’re-
Buzzing of his phone made him jump. He raised his head and searched for the device and pulled it out from his bag with still shaking hand. Katsuki furrowed his eyebrows when he saw a nickname he changed Kirishima’s name to, just a few days earlier, a revenge for Kirishima changing his to ‘Blasty’ .
Shitty hair: hey Bakugou, are you okay?
Katsuki clenched his hand around the phone and stared blankly at the message.
What was he even supposed to answer? ‘Thanks for asking but it’s none of your fucking business’? Straight up tell him to fuck off? And why was he even wondering about that, he should just simply ignore him.
…But at this point, Katsuki knew that Kirishima wasn’t the kind of a guy to let something go just like that.
Shitty hair: I know it’s none of my business but you just looked kinda bad!
Shitty hair: not as in you look bad, more like in a bad shape?
Shitty hair: NOT THAT YOU ARE IN A BAD SHAPE ALL THE TME JUST TJIS TIEM AND NOT LIKE YOUER WEAK OR NYTHING?
Shitty hair: shit, sorry, probably shouldn’t bother you after all that……
Shitty hair: I just hope everything's alright? :D
Katsuki was more than aware that Kirishima could see that he read the messages, yet he still couldn’t bring himself to answer. Even if Kirishima’s panicked texts made him snort for a split second and he was glad to notice that his hands stopped shaking, he still just couldn’t.
And after all, there was no reason for him to answer.
Notes:
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Chapter 13: Curiosity killed the Cat
Summary:
Detective Kirishima
Notes:
Exams killed me but I'm back to fuck shit up.
Not really.
But yeah.
apwmdfsagsdbjsslkfbbkwfoengnnjkfjshbgljrab forgive me and enjoy
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Why am I so stupid-
Eijirou rubbed at his face in embarrassment after sending all those idiotic messages, though his hand quickly returned to one of the handles when train stopped on a station, few people coming in. He gripped his phone and when the ride started again, he looked back at his chat with Bakugou.
Blasty read the message
Eijirou swallowed, uncertainty and even more embarrassment flooding him. He wasn't asking anything strange, right?
Even though he wanted to ask something entirely different, he knew he couldn't do that. So he just settled on asking about Bakugou's well being, after all the shit that went down at the festival. Eijirou didn't fail to notice how panicked his eyes were when he first appeared on the podium, before they took off that muzzle from his face and once it was removed, how desperately he took in the air-
Eijirou shook his head, he really didn't want to think about that.
What concerned him more, was how Bakugou acted after arriving in the locker room. He never was a type to make small talk there in the first place, but this time he was also strangely… tense? Kaminari teased Eijirou about staring at Bakugou, after the latter went to take a shower, but he just couldn’t help but be simply worried.
He could only imagine just how furious Bakugou must have been to get restrained like that, and later to just disregard his victory, for which a lot of students would do literally anything to get.
Eijirou glanced at his bag where he knew the medal, that he picked up from the floor, still was and vaguely wondered if Bakugou would ever accept it back.
He looked back at his phone in hopes that there would finally be some kind of an answer but still nothing, and if he had to be honest, even straight up ‘fuck off’ would be fine by him.
At this point, Eijirou didn’t know how long has he been staring at his phone, waiting for an answer that he was pretty sure wouldn’t come. He almost missed his stop, getting off the train at the last second and gaining few judgmental looks from people on the station.
Eijirou quickly moved through the city and to his home, and once he opened the front door, he was greeted by a confetti, from some mini cannon, that mostly landed on his head.
“Congratulations, Eijirou!” His mom exclaimed happily and leaned down to hug him tightly. “I’m so proud of you!” She stepped away but kept her hands on his shoulders.
“I didn’t win so-“ He started, disappointed in himself, but was quickly interrupted.
“Oh, shut it. Being in top eight during the first year is magnificent and you know it. I’m very proud of you!” She moved one of her hands to pat his head and then started getting the confetti out of his hair. “Why’s your hair down, baby?” The question reminded him of the exact reason why he didn’t have time to style it, something that made his stomach clench.
“I just..” Eijirou glanced to the side, thinking about good enough excuse. “I didn’t have time?” He smiled awkwardly and looked back up at her. “After the tournament we had to go back to class immediately?” She narrowed her eyes at him and the long pause made him sweat.
“Just so you know, I’m choosing to believe you right now.” Her red eyes flickered, she poked Eijirou's nose and let go of his shoulder. “Anyway, before you came in, I poured some sauce on myself on accident, I have to change.” She laughed and turned around, probably to her room. Eijirou looked down and- yep, the jacket of his uniform was now dirty as well. “I just wonder when the two of you will learn that lying to me won’t ever work!” Eijirou heard her yell from her room and sighed.
Damn her investigator skills.
It’s not like he was trying to hide anything from her, especially that he wasn’t even sure what he was supposed to tell her.
‘My friend’s brain had some kind of a reboot while he was under control of another guy’s quirk?’ Yeah, sure.
Eijirou finally took off his shoes and headed to his room. He put his bag on the floor, hesitantly took out the medal and sat down at a desk.
He weighed it in his hand, noticed it was heavier than anyone would expect it to be and Eijirou wondered how it would feel if he put it around his neck, but he quickly disregarded that idea. He’d wear one once he’d earn it, not to mention that this one didn’t belong to him, even if the owner didn’t see it as his own.
After few more moments of staring at it, he decided to put it safely into one of the drawers. Once that was done, he stood up, stretched his arms above his head a bit and decided to finally change out of his uniform. He settled on some red sweatpants he found on the floor and orange t-shirt with pineapple print. Eijirou decided that he might as well style his hair, even if he knew that in few hours he’d have to wash the gel off, he didn’t really care.
Eijirou grabbed his uniform to put it in the laundry basket, left his room and headed to the bathroom, but before he got far, his mom left her room as well and they both stopped, staring at each other. He looked over her clothes and couldn’t help but laugh and soon she joined him. She was wearing similar red sweatpants, as well as an orange t-shirt, minus the pineapple print, but with something that looked like a bootleg Pikachu on front.
“God…” She managed to say between wheezes. “Saki would kill us if she saw us like that…”
“Nah, ma’ loves us too much!” Eijirou answered, to which she only chuckled and walked past him, seemingly heading to the kitchen. “… Are you gonna burn something again?” He barely contained his smile when she turned and glared at him.
“You don’t have to eat!” She scoffed at Eijirou’s snort and left him alone in the corridor. He knew his mom wasn’t really mad about his comment, although he was surprised that she was actually going to cook, instead of reheating something his ma’ left in the freezer.
He chuckled when he heard her curse at something that she dropped in the kitchen and finally went to the bathroom.
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Since they had two days off school, Eijirou would have plenty of time to figure out answers to some questions he was sure Bakugou wouldn’t be willing to answer in a slightest. Mainly; why was it that he couldn’t figure out where was Midoriya during the cavalry battle, why he was always staring at Eijirou’s hair, why he couldn’t fulfill Shinsou’s order, even though it was clear that he was able to do all of them besides the one involving Eijirou himself.
All in all, during the festival, he noticed how often Bakugou would actually stare at his hair. The glances were mostly subtle, but once Eijirou caught up on the fact that he would purposefully look at it, before responding in any way, he truly realized how painfully obvious the gesture was.
The more he thought about it, the more his head hurt and at this point he just wanted to freaking Google it.
… Wait.
Eijirou almost ripped off the monitor from his laptop with how fast he opened it. He stared blankly at the open tab for few seconds. He leaned back in his chair and crossed his arms on his chest.
What was he even supposed to look for?
He could always start with something basic, not like someone would check what he was looking for, and yet, he kind of hesitantly typed in;
‘My friend stares at my hair’
First result was a video about what it meant when guy was staring deeply into girl’s eyes and seriously, what did he expect? If Eijirou had to be honest, he really didn’t expect any dating advices.
Alright, maybe he should rephrase it? Be more specific?
‘What does it mean when my friend recognizes me by my hair?’
Upon looking at first result, Eijirou just wanted to close his laptop. He just began his search and he already felt tired. Eijirou sighed and glared at the first result.
‘What does it mean if a girl touches my hair and plays with it?’ and just… no. Maybe he should just leave the hair topic altogether? Yeah, that was a good idea. But then he had no starting point, unless-
‘My friend doesn’t remember people’
Was that a reach? Eijirou wasn’t sure, but he knew that three time’s a charm so he tapped enter anyway just to glare at the results again.
‘6 Signs You Need Better Friends’
’11 Signs You’re Hanging Out With A Fake Friend’
“Wow, fuck you too, Google!” He yelled, very much annoyed.
“Language, Eijirou!” His head shot at the door, his mom apparently on the other side.
“S-sorry!” He smiled apologetically when she opened the door and stared at him with slightly exasperated look.
“Dinner will be ready in around 20 minutes. I’m not sure if the rice cooker is actually working…” She muttered and rolled her eyes at Eijirou’s chuckle. “And yes, I plugged it in this time.” Her addition only made Eijirou openly laugh at her, at which she scoffed and finally left him on his own again.
He looked again at his laptop, all annoyance coming back. Maybe, again, he should rephrase it?
‘My friend takes a really long time to recognize me’
Eijirou covered his face and let out a long groan, even if ‘my friend takes ages to reply’ actually applied to his situation (with Bakugou leaving more than half of his messages on read), it still wasn’t exactly what he was looking for, especially that he already knew that, for Christ’s sake.
Wait, what were the other things that he knew about Bakugou?
Eijirou’s eyes widened slightly at his new idea, some kind of strange sadness creeping into his mind, along with compassion.
‘My friend is always alone’
What he found, were some articles on how to make friends or help them, and Eijirou felt some kind of relief that Google wasn’t trying to tell him that Bakugou’s an asshole again.
But that was it.
All internet was telling him was that Bakugou was either;
A) An asshole (which Eijirou was maybe, kind of, aware of) or
B) He had a crush on Eijirou (which just- Ha ha, no way.)
… Not that Eijirou would mind, but that was impossible, right?
Right?!
“Eijirou!” His mom’s voice brought him back to earth. “Food’s ready, help me with the plates, will you?” She called out from the kitchen and he closed his laptop to join her, since he didn’t really have anything else to do at this moment as the internet, of all things, turned out to be useless in this situation.
Maybe he’s really reading too much into it?
Eijirou entered the kitchen and first thing he noticed was his mom, standing with her back to him, reaching for glasses from the top shelf without any trouble, so he just moved to one of the cupboards to take out the plates. He put them down on the table and decided he might as well get the chopsticks.
Maybe Bakugou really just wanted to be left alone?
He sat down at the table and stared at his plate, meanwhile, his mom put down the food within his reach and joined him at his right.
Maybe Bakugou really was just an asshole?
Eijirou had hard time believing in this part. Not that Bakugou wasn’t kind of rude half the time, but all in all he just seemed lonely. Walking home all alone, eating lunch in a classroom all alone, training all alone whenever he had a chance.
Maybe he’d become like that because he was lonely?
“I know it’s not perfect, but you don’t have to make this face. I didn’t burn anything this time.” Mom’s joke interrupted his thoughts and he realized he’s been staring at his empty plate this whole time. He looked up, his eyes meeting with her worried ones. “Or are you actually still upset about the festival?”
“Yes? I mean- no!” Eijirou quickly reached for the food and put it on his plate. “I was just thinking about something else, sorry…” He looked back down and started eating all too quickly. “It’s great!” His mouth full of food, that was too salty if he had to be honest, didn’t let him smile, but he guessed that it was enough for his mom to stop worrying for now.
As they finished eating, she grabbed his plate and stood up to take care of the dishes, but Eijirou couldn’t help but wonder if maybe she could help him, even if he didn’t know what the actual problem was, he trusted that his mom could give him some insight with her rich knowledge that she gained over the years, and after all, she was one of the smartest people he knew.
“Hey, mom?”
“What is it?” She asked, her back turned to him, as she was putting her long, dark blue hair into a messy bun.
“Can I talk to you about something?” Like a spell, her motions stopped and she immediately turned to him. She abandoned the dishes and sat back down at his side.
He didn’t really know how to explain that situation. Or Bakugou’s behavior. Or if he was even allowed to do that. After all, there technically wasn’t anything wrong with him? Maybe he really just wanted to be left alone?
“Eijirou, if this is still about the festival, then I already told you, you were magnificent!” She put her hand on his knee and smiled, he returned the grin, which flattened anyway after few seconds.
“No, it isn’t… It’s like-“ he could simply explain it as it was, couldn’t he? “I have a friend-“ Sudden laughter interrupted him. “Wha-“
“Honey, the ‘I have a friend who’ never worked and never will.” She laughed again, showing off the sharp teeth in her mouth. “I thought you’d know it by now.”
“No, it’s not like with the guy I liked! I mean-“ Eijirou coughed awkwardly and avoided her eyes. “Who my friend liked.” Another salve of laughter made him pout, slightly annoyed. “Mom, come on!”
“I’m sorry, baby.” She coughed and leaned a bit towards him. “So-“ she wiggled her eyebrows “-does this friend have a crush on someone again?” A low, mocking hum could be heard from her. Eijirou crossed his arms on his chest and sank into the chair.
“Fine, I’ll just ask ma’ when she’s back home.” He had to bit the inside of his cheek to not smirk at his mom’s short gasp.
“Betrayal!” That’s the only warning he got before she started pinching his cheeks, and after few seconds of his muffled laughter and her still pinching him, she let go and sighed. “Alright, tell me all about it.” The smile was still present on her face and she rested her cheek against the back of her hand.
“Okay, so… I have this friend-“ Eijirou rolled his eyes and nudged her with his leg at the low, slightly sarcastic sound of acknowledgement from her. “Real friend- and he’s kinda… antisocial? I’m not sure if he even considers me his friend, to be honest…” He looked down sheepishly while the smile on his mom’s face flattened. “He’s always alone and it’s kinda like he purposefully pushes others away?” Their eyes met again and he swallowed at her focused frown. “And I know it’s strange, but he tends not to look at my face as well?”
“That’s… Something.” It was obvious that she didn’t really know how to react, so she waited for further explanations.
“He mostly looks at my hair.” Eijirou stated and vaguely gestured at his head, at which his mom raised one of her eyebrows. “And then- you saw that- we were in a team together in a cavalry battle, and a guy he knew since they were kids, he was in the enemy team and he changed his hair? And my friend… It was like he couldn’t seem to recognize him?” Eijirou chuckled. “I’m probably reading too much into it, I-“
“What else?”
“Eh?”
“What else?” She repeated in a serious tone he heard only when a client would call her. “Those are only your observations, right?” Eijirou nodded, dumbfounded. “Have you asked your classmates if they noticed anything like this? Or that childhood friend?” Her eyes were focused and Eijirou felt like they were piercing right through him, trying to read his mind.
“Uh, kinda?” Eijirou shrugged and looked to the side. “I tried talking to his friend once but… It didn’t end well… But I apologized!” He added quickly when she opened her mouth to say something. “And I tried to kiiinda confront my friend about it as well but… This also-“
“Did you apologize to him as well?” Again, Eijirou nodded quickly, at which she smiled at him and patted his head few times. “You get your curiosity after me. Although your mama would call it ‘butting in’.” She said with irony as she took her hand back and they both laughed at her words. “Before you talk to that boy again-“ the tone of her voice became serious again. “-you should ask around in your class, if others noticed anything. But without exposing him of course, in case it’s actually something serious.”
“… Mom, are you seriously suggesting that I go and talk behind his back?” He was skeptical, to say the least. Even if he was curious, he didn’t want to go around asking others about Bakugou and his problem (whether there was one or not).
“Psh, of course not, honey.” She snorted and waved her hand. “I suggest that you do a little bit of… Investigating.” A mischievous smile appeared on her face as she winked at him.
“… Ma’ was right. You are addicted to your job.” Eijirou deadpanned with an unimpressed look while his mom’s cheeks turned red.
“You-! ... As a future hero, you should know how to investigate undercover!” She crossed her arms on her chest. “Also, from what you say, would this boy recognize you with your hair down?”
Eijirou’s eyes widened.
Oh.
Holy shit.
Is that why he didn’t do what Shinsou told him to? Because Eijirou’s hair wasn’t stylized? Is that why he’s always staring at it at first? To recognize him?
But why?
“Eijirou?”
“Holy shit, mom!” He couldn’t contain his excitement, he stood up and clenched his fists. “Holy shit!”
“Language.” Her eyebrows furrowed slightly in annoyance.
“I think he recognizes me by my hair!? I- oh… I- I shouldn’t have said that, he wouldn’t like me telling others, would he?” All excitement deflated from him and he sat back down. Eijirou looked at his hands, which hardened slightly from all the emotions he felt just a moment ago, and slowly released his quirk.
There was long silence between them, Eijirou couldn’t bring himself to look at his mom, almost afraid of what he might see on her face.
“… Eijirou.” She gently took his chin into her hand and guided his face, so he would look at her. “This might be a reach but…” She looked to the side for a second and slightly furrowed her eyebrows. “And I don’t remember the proper name for it right now, but… I had a witness in one of my cases, he had a- damn, what was it- a disorder or a disease? Where he was unable to recognize others by their faces.” She finally finished, leaned back in her chair and looked at Eijirou expectantly, clearly waiting for his reaction.
But if he had to be honest, he never heard of something like that.
“… What was it like? Working with him, I mean?” He asked carefully, not sure if she could tell him anything more.
“Kind of a pain in the ass, but in the hindsight, it wasn’t his fault.” Eijirou chuckled while she shrugged and pulled away some hair that landed on her face. “He was very nervous, didn’t want to look us in the eyes, dodged some questions… We even thought he might be involved in the crime.”
That was… Almost fitting if Eijirou had to be honest. Maybe Bakugou wasn’t really nervous while talking to others, but he was tense and suspicious, always glaring at whoever he was talking with.
“At some point we’ve shown him pictures of the suspects and at first, he straight up refused to even look at them.” Eijirou’s head shot up, eyes wide when he remembered the situation right after the USJ incident. “Once he actually looked at them, he would mess them up all the time.”
It was so clear now. Maybe not crystal clear, but if he was right…
Probably, that’s why Bakugou refused to help the officers.
That’s why principal was so set on not letting them further question him.
That’s why Eijirou had to take his place.
Could that really be the reason?
“Eijirou?”
It would be so easy now that he had something to start with. All he was missing was a name.
“So is it like- Alzheimer? Or dementia?” Eijirou questioned, tilted his head in confusion and frowned at his mom’s sigh.
“No, I told you, I don’t remember what it’s called, but I’m sure that wasn’t it.” She seemed to ponder about something for few seconds. “He did remember what the suspect did, just not their face. Google it or something.” She shrugged in the end and stood up to finally take care of the dishes.
“Yeah, because that was very helpful before…”
“What was that?” She turned her head at his muttering.
“Nothing!” His too quick answer only made her squint at him.
“You know what, baby? You can do the dishes. Mom’s tired.” She winked at him and left the kitchen.
Eijirou sighed but did as he was told, after all, the sooner he’d be done here, the sooner he could do some more research.
___
‘Disease that makes you forget faces’
It took him few times to say the word that popped up as the first result, without his tongue breaking in the process, but he managed. Especially when he dived deeper and found far way easier alternative.
He spent the rest of the day and most of the next one on reading more about the topic. Then, countless of articles and some documentaries later, he could say he definitely knew more than his mom, but also wondered if he ever spent as much time on preparing for any exam.
Eijirou didn’t even want to think about the instance where he was wrong this entire time.
At some point, he stopped to think if he was doing the right thing, but it wasn’t like he was going to expose Bakugou to the whole class, he just wanted to know if there was more to his classmate than just being rude for no reason.
Now, he’d just have to listen to his mom and investigate a little bit.
___
First thing Eijirou noticed, upon arriving in the class ten minutes before the lesson was supposed to start, was that Bakugou, who was sitting with his back to the rest of the class, upgraded his earphones to rather bulky headphones. Before that, he gave a signal of not wanting to be bothered, but now it was clear to everyone that he really didn’t want to talk to any of them, but honestly, could Eijirou even blame him?
He sat down at his desk and wondered who he could start with. His eyes automatically wandered to where Midoriya was sitting, talking with Todoroki and Uraraka. Eijirou furrowed his eyebrows; it was obvious that Midoriya knew. Otherwise he wouldn’t react so strongly to Eijirou’s questions and to what Shinsou did. He’d just have to leave him for the last, when he was sure.
“Yo, Kirishima, what’s up with that face?” Eijirou’s thoughts were interrupted by Kaminari’s voice. “Something wrong?” Kaminari glanced where he was previously looking, but when nothing caught his attention, he just shrugged and looked back at Eijirou. “What did you do during the break?”
“It was just two days, so… Nothing much?” Eijirou dismissed his question with a sheepish smile. He couldn’t really tell him what he actually spent these days on.
“Eh, you’re no fun.” Kaminari shrugged, turned around to play with Ojirou’s tail and talk to Jirou.
Eijirou sighed, but before he could go back to his thoughts, he noticed Sero enter the classroom and an idea struck him. He glanced at the nearby desk to make sure Ashido was present and decided that he might as well start with those, who were nearest Bakugou during cavalry battle.
___
The perfect opportunity to talk to these two happened only after the third period. Ashido was excitedly explaining something to Sero, while Kaminari ran out of the class to go to the restroom. Perfect, he wouldn’t have to explain anything to him.
“Hey, guys-“ Eijirou scooted closer to them with his chair “-sorry to interrupt, but I kinda wanted to ask you something.” Ashido tilted her head a bit with curiosity, while Sero replied with short ‘shoot’. Eijirou glanced at where Bakugou was sitting, his back once again turned to the class, bulky headphones on. Alright. “So. Did you notice something about Bakugou during cavalry battle?”
He was met with silence and confusion. Ashido looked over her shoulder at Bakugou, then back to Eijirou, while Sero just stared at him with raised eyebrow.
“Uhh, what do you mean?” Ashido asked slowly and crossed her arms on her chest.
“Yeah, you’re gonna have to be more specific.” Sero added and leaned back in his chair. Eijirou blinked few times. He really should have thought this through, huh?
“It’s just-“ he scratched the back of his neck. What to ask without exposing Bakugou to them? He went through his mental checklist of stuff he read online and an idea struck him again. “Nicknames!” Sero and Ashido jumped a little at the volume of his voice. “You guys noticed how he used nicknames, right?”
“Oh!” Ashido’s face lightened up as she clasped her hands together. “Yeah! Even though it was kinda annoying he didn’t bother to remember my name, the nickname he gave me was kinda cute actually? Bubblegum?” She smiled and pointed at her cheek. “It’s fitting!”
“Well, at least one of us appreciated the nickname they were given…” Sero muttered and Eijirou couldn’t help but chuckle when he remembered what Bakugou had called him.
“Aw, come on, Horse smile-“ Ashido teased him and joined Eijirou in laughing.
“Shut up, I don’t get it!” Sero grumbled and waved his hands around in annoyance. “My name is shorter than that! What’s the point! And you-“ He pointed at Eijirou, who’s laughter died in his throat “-yours is even worse! He’s constantly offending your hair!”
“Eh, it’s not that bad.” Eijirou shrugged while Sero furrowed his eyebrows and Ashido continued laughing. “At least I know he remembers my actual name.” He added and was found with silent stare from Ashido. “What? You were there when he called me by it during the tournament!” Eijirou was quick to explain.
“Listen-“ She leaned against Sero’s desk “-it was loud all around us already, and if you add Baku’s explosions right above me, you really can’t blame me for not hearing that.” Well, Eijirou really couldn’t argue with her.
Wait, but did it mean-
“So you didn’t hear him when he asked where was Midoriya?” His voice went down to a whisper, as mentioned guy was right next to them, even if he was preoccupied with looking for something in his backpack with worried expression. Sero and Ashido stared at Eijirou, looked at each other then back at him. “During last few seconds?”
“No?” Ashido said, clearly confused. “I mean, I did hear you yelling something to Bakugou about calming down and I guessed you told him where to go when he jumped off again? But uh-“ she looked at Sero, as if asking to back her up.
“Yeah, no, this was the most stressful half a minute of my life so far. I don’t remember shit.” He said with a shrug. “Anyway, why all the questions?” Sero put his chin on his hand, his expression slightly suspicious.
“Oh, Kiri, could it be?” Ashido leaned towards Eijirou to look him deep in the eyes.
“W-what are you talking about?” He was almost afraid to ask, but maybe she figured something out about Bakugou as well.
“Do you have a crush?” She asked with sly smile, her eyebrows wiggling, while Sero let out a tired sigh.
“I wasn’t going there-“
“TELL ME EVERYTHING, KIRI!” Ashido completely ignored Sero and put her hands on Eijirou’s shoulders. “Are you jealous about Midoriya?” She asked in a hushed voice of someone who believes in conspiracy theories would talk in.
“Wh- why would I be?! They hate each other! And there’s nothing to tell!” Their yelling caught the attention of some of their classmates and he could feel his cheeks get warm, and he just knew that his panicked voice didn’t make his situation any better. He quickly glanced at Bakugou to make sure that he still had his headphones on.
“Then why all the questions!?”
“Ashido, come on, stop yelling…” Unfortunately, Sero’s words meant nothing to her and in the end, Eijirou was saved by the break finally ending, as they all had to go back to their seats.
“We’re not done here.” Ashido whispered to him as she walked past him.
“Yes, we are.” Eijirou whispered back and rolled his eyes at her giggling.
___
After that, he didn’t have any good chances to talk to anyone, Jirou at some point mentioned talking with Bakugou after his fight with Uraraka, but there wasn’t anything out of ordinary, just that she was impressed he actually took his opponent seriously, then there was a pop quiz from Present Mic and that was what everyone was talking about.
Now, at the end of the day, they were finally done with their hero training, changing in the locker room and Eijirou knew his little investigation was going… bad.
He sighed as he fixed his tie and glanced over his shoulder at Bakugou who had his back to the rest of them, as always, but even despite that, Eijirou noticed some stuff in his hands.
A pocket mirror and-
“Eh, don’t bother Kirishima.” He turned his head to see Kaminari leaning against one of the lockers, looking at Bakugou. “I once asked him to show me how to apply eyeliner this fast but he just said- and I quote!- ‘fuck off you bland extra, google is free’.”
Eijirou needed a few solid seconds to grasp what the hell Kaminari was talking about, he looked back at Bakugou who was currently closing his locker, seemingly ready to leave the room. As he turned and walked past them, Eijirou noticed the thin lines on his eyelids.
Oh. This actually looked pretty good-
“-then it turned out that this was just an aftereffect of his sleep deprivation.” Right. Kaminari was still talking.
Shit, what the hell was wrong with him?
“Sorry, what was that?” Eijirou asked with apologetic smile and Kaminari blinked few times with a slight frown.
“I said-“ Kaminari picked up his bag and they both moved to leave the locker room as well. “-that after the festival I went to talk to that Shinsou guy,” that piqued Eijirou’s interest “because ya’ know, I thought he had this unbelievable eye shadow game going on!” He vaguely pointed at his own eyes. “So I asked what’s his secret and he said that he just hasn’t slept since he was six.” He finished with a sigh and Eijirou chuckled a bit at his friend’s misery.
... Shinsou.
“Oh, he's the guy from general course with brainwashing quirk?” Eijirou tried his best to sound nonchalantly, that seemed to work as he got a quick few nods from Kaminari. They headed to where Kaminari had his bike parked, near school’s gate. “Say, Kaminari. Do you know if they still have classes?”
“Who?”
“Class C.” Eijirou was somehow nervous as he watched Kaminari raise an eyebrow at him, but felt relieved when he noticed he actually seemed to think a few seconds about his question.
“I don’t think so? They don’t have hero studies or anything, so I’m pretty sure they’re long gone.” He got on his bike, seemingly ready to leave.
“Okay, thanks man.” Eijirou smiled at him and moved out of his way, with short wave, Kaminari slowly drove away, having no idea how much he helped.
Eijirou decided that he’d have to look for Shinsou the next day.
Notes:
OH WOW FUCKING FINALLY EIJIROU, WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THAT GOOGLE CAN BE SOMEHOW HELPFUL-
At first, this chapter was 10.5k, but as I don't want to overwhelm y'all and don't want you to focus on only one thing, I decided to split it, but ch14 is finished and will be up in like 7-9 days. I swear it's worth the wait ksdfahazjargnsf
Fun fact; every single research and result were real ones that I've found.
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Chapter 14: Satisfaction brought It back
Summary:
Aizawa doesn't get paid enough for this
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Eijirou couldn’t get a hold of Shinsou for half the day, and he started wondering if the guy was even at school. He had a feeling that he caught the sight of him in the corner of his eye a couple of times, but as soon as he turned, Shinsou was nowhere to be seen.
Eijirou started wondering if maybe he was just hiding during breaks from everyone, who knows. … Or just from him, for obvious reasons, not that Eijirou would do anything, he wasn’t that kind of a person.
Finally, he caught him in the middle of the lunch break.
“Shinsou!” Eijirou tried to sound cheerful, despite that he still felt some kind of a grudge towards him, tough it seemed like Shinsou saw right through his façade, as he took a step back with a frown. “Got a minute?”
“… Not really.” He answered carefully and seemed ready to walk away.
“Oh, but you do!” Eijirou stepped in his path. “Just like you had a minute or two to use your quirk on Bakugou.” His voice lowered a bit, to make sure no one else would hear.
Shinsou glanced around and let out an exasperated sigh.
“Listen, I get it, ok? What I did was shitty, but he deserved it.” They both glared at each other. “I know I’m not in a place to ask for anything, but… You didn’t tell your homeroom teacher, right?”
Eijirou needed a second to connect the dots.
Right, even if he wasn’t sure why he specifically mentioned Aizawa-sensei, he knew that Shinsou wanted to make it into the hero course, and if someone were to find out that he used his quirk on another student, any chances he’d have to get into one would be completely gone, and thus, an idea came to Eijirou’s mind.
“I didn’t.” He said and there was a sigh of relief from Shinsou. “But I will.” His face paled even more than it normally was, eyes widening.
“You-“ Shinsou seemed to be at a loss of words and Eijirou thanked whatever force was out there that he didn’t know him well enough to realize it was a bluff.
“Unless.” He looked around to make sure no one was around. He might, or might not have also took some pleasure in how Shinsou seemed to suffer in this moment.
This is what you get for messing with my kinda friend.
“Tell me how your quirk works.”
“… What?” Shinsou looked stunned, his eyes now narrowed and he furrowed his eyebrows. “Why?”
“That’s none of your business.” Eijirou wasn’t sure how long he could keep up this game and somehow, his mom gained a whole lot of more respect from him.
Shinsou stared at him with clenched jaw and Eijirou could practically cut the tension between them.
“I control people who verbally respond to me.” He finally said, but continued when he saw a frown on Eijirou’s face, silent way of telling him that this bit was obvious. “I can brainwash multiple people at once, but I rather not, I’d probably fall unconscious.” He looked to the side, seemingly uncomfortable with sharing too much information. “It won’t work if I say something through a megaphone. And-“ He hesitated for some reason, avoided eye contact again.
“And?” Eijirou urged him to answer.
“Fuck, give me a minute, it’s not that easy to explain, okay?” He raised his voice a bit and crossed his arms on his chest. “I’m… unable to have people do things that require some kind of advanced brain function, like writing a name from their memory.”
Eijirou’s eyes widened.
Memory.
If Eijirou was right, back when Shinsou gave his order, Bakugou probably needed more than his name to find him. He’d probably need much more than a name to recognize him in the first place. And now, with knowing how Shinsou’s quirk worked-
Holy fuck.
“Is that enough?” Shinsou’s impatient voice brought him back to earth and Eijirou could finally smile in his typical way.
“Yeah! Thanks man!” He patted his shoulder a few times and confusion only rose in Shinsou’s eyes. “Also, I wouldn’t tell anyone!” Eijirou shrugged and turned around to jog away from stunned Shinsou. “Good luck with getting into the hero course!” He gave him a thumbs up as he quickly went up the stairs.
___
“Have you guys seen my notebook anywhere?” As soon as Eijirou stepped into the class, he heard Midoriya’s worried voice and looked over to find him talking to Kaminari and Ojirou. “I can’t find it ever since the festival…”
“Oh, the one with your hero notes?” Ojirou wondered out loud while Kaminari shook his head, at which Midoriya only sighed, clearly resigned, and thanked them as he started walking back to his desk.
Eijirou quickly checked if Bakugou was sitting at his desk, but as he was nowhere to be seen, Eijirou quickly approached Midoriya.
“Hey! you got a minute?”
“I-“ He looked over to the clock on the wall, clearly checking how long it was until the break would end, then at the desks where his friends usually sat, then back at Eijirou, and it was as if he knew what Eijirou wanted to ask about. “I guess I do.. got… a minute….” He muttered in the end and Eijirou smiled at him brightly.
“Great! Then come with me.” Eijirou turned around to step out to the corridor. “So!” Once they were alone, he put his hands on his hips and looked at Midoriya who obviously didn’t want to be here. “What’s up with Bakugou?” Midoriya stared at him for few moments, seemingly taken aback by his strangely normal tone of voice.
“… I already told you, there’s nothing-“
“What, you think he’ll kill you if you say something?”
“I don’t think he’ll kill me! I know he’ll kill me if I say something-!” Midoriya clasped his hand against his mouth and looked around, as if Bakugou would come out from behind a corner and blow him up right here and there, meanwhile, Eijirou took his words as a battle won and he couldn’t help the triumphant laugh.
“SO THERE REALLY IS SOMETHING UP WITH-“ He didn’t get to finish, as now it was his mouth that was covered behind a hand, but one that wasn’t his. Eijirou took a step back from Midoriya and breathed in.
“Ah! Sorry, Kirishima-kun, I just-“
“Yeah, I get it, I shouldn’t have shouted anyway…” Eijirou dismissed his apologies and looked at him expectantly. “So, care to explain?”
“… You already know, don’t you?” Midoriya said instead and looked at the ground after Eijirou nodded hesitantly. He covered his face with his hands and sighed deeply. “Kacchan, he… Damn it, it’s not my place to say anything- I can’t just- I already screwed up during cavalry battle and later with Shinsou, even though I didn’t really say anything but-“ He finally looked him back in the eyes. “Just don’t make me spell it out to you.” Midoriya pleaded with tears in his eyes.
“And that’s what he wanted from you, back on the first day?” Eijirou wanted to be sure, and even though he already knew the answer, his breath still hitched when Midoriya nodded.
“He… ‘insisted’ on not telling anyone.” There was a grimace on his face as he looked to the side and fiddled with his tie, probably recalling those exact events.
“… Did you want to tell?” Eijirou was met with furrowed eyebrows and uncharacteristically angry glare. “Okay, sorry, that was-“ Midoriya just sighed, his face going back to worried expression.
“… I admit, I gave Uraraka-san kind of a hint, that Kacchan won’t know what her quirk is, but after her fight she was disappointed in herself, she was too preoccupied with her own doubts and feelings to get anything out of it when it comes to Kacchan. She was confused at most. Probably thought Kacchan is too self-absorbed to remember...” There was a pause, as if Midoriya was collecting his thoughts. He continued after few moments in quiet tone. “And I didn’t tell Todoroki-kun. I… I can’t tell you why he didn’t want to fight back Kacchan, but- I really didn’t tell anyone…” He locked his eyes on the floor and shivered slightly.
Well, now Eijirou felt like an asshole.
“Listen, the one thing I don’t understand is why he’d keep it completely to himself, but-“ Eijirou shrugged, he kind of figured out why, but he didn’t want to assume anything. And he was pretty sure that at this point, Midoriya wouldn’t tell him. “At least tell me how to approach him with this.”
“… Make sure you two are alone. You need an immediate proof, he might deny everything otherwise. You could-“
“Can’t I just ask him after school?” Eijirou interrupted and was met with knitted eyebrows.
“Do you really think he’ll just tell you if you ask nicely? He’ll just yell at you, release some explosions or straight up blow something up and then leave immediately without giving you a chance to talk or ask anything else.”
“… You’re speaking from experience, right?” Eijirou sighed at Midoriya’s hesitant nod. “But the difference between the two of us is that you’ve known him your whole life, how many times did you approach him about it?” Silence was his answer. And he guessed that was enough.
People began going back to classes, the break almost over, and Eijirou knew that was the end of their conversation, but as he was about to go back to the classroom, he felt a light tug on his sleeve and looked back at Midoriya.
“He always arrives very early before the lessons start, probably before anyone else.” He whispered and Eijirou’s eyes widened. That was one of the things he read about, so Midoriya’s words were just another proof for him. “Be there with your hair down. He won’t have a way to walk out on you at this time.” Midoriya let go and hurriedly went back to class.
How did Eijirou not think about his hair?
Now, he needed to figure out just how much earlier than Bakugou he should arrive.
Once Eijirou stepped back into the class, he looked around and his eyes fell on Ashido who was talking with Hagakure and he quickly walked up to them.
“Hey, do you happen to know who comes to school, like, earliest?”
Ashido looked at him strangely and he was slightly distraught that he couldn’t tell the same about Hagakure.
“Earliest?” Ashido tilted her head a bit.
“Yeah, like- who comes unnecessarily early to class?” Eijirou shrugged, not sure if that was enough of an explanation.
“Maybe if you weren’t late all the time, you’d know!” Ashido laughed at him with Hagakure and Eijirou frowned.
“I’m never late!” Eijirou’s pout caused the girls to laugh even more at him. “Can’t you just tell me?”
There was a pause between them, then Ashido finally spoke.
“I don’t know why’d you ask me, we pretty much come here at the same time,” she giggled at him rolling his eyes, even though she was right. “But I’m pretty sure that Iida is here first!” She pointed at Iida, who was seemingly lost in his thoughts while sitting at his desk, then Hagakure let out a thoughtful hum.
“Oh, but Bakugou-kun comes in even earlier than him!” Hagakure said and they both looked at her surprised. Or rather tried to, because damn, even if Eijirou really didn’t want to think this way, he preferred to look people in the eyes when he spoke to them, but with Hagakure… It was completely impossible.
“How do you know?” Eijirou asked anyway, actually curious, while trying his best to ignore the unnerving feeling in the back of his head.
“I have to visit Recovery Girl pretty often, since my eyelids are invisible I get a lot of headaches, so I go to her earlier, given that there aren’t any students around at this hour!” She explained happily and continued. “Also, I’m working with the support department on better costume for me!” She jumped a bit, clearly excited, Ashido cheering a bit with her. “Anyway, one time, back when those journalists were occupying the entrance gate, I saw Bakugou-kun come at around-“ it looked like she put her hand on her chin, but still, Eijirou could never be sure “-like, at least half an hour before classes?”
“Oh! I remember those journalists!” Ashido leaned against her desk tiredly. “I’ve almost came late to class because of them a few times!”
“Yeah! One time I even had to lie to them that I don’t have any lessons with All Might so they would let me go!” Hagakure sounded really annoyed by them, but Eijirou was almost sure he could hear a note of pride.
He decided to leave the girls alone, so he thanked them and went back to his desk, his eyes wandering to Bakugou who just sat back down at his desk as well.
Tomorrow.
___
Two days later, he still couldn’t catch him.
Eijirou’s first try ended poorly; he overslept his earliest alarm and came to see that Iida and Yaoyorozu were already present, with Bakugou with his back to them, and Hagakure coming in right after Eijirou. He got few questioning looks from Aizawa, while Kaminari laughed at him that he came so early, but didn’t style his hair.
Ashido ended up borrowing him a pink hair tie that he kept.
The second try was better, but Iida was there with them, Bakugou with headphones, so he still couldn’t do anything.
He got lucky though, he almost got a second with Bakugou, but they weren’t alone in the corridor, so he still couldn’t do anything. Eijirou was going to a restroom during a break, while Bakugou was just coming back from it. As Eijirou stopped walking right in front of him, he was forced to do so too, and they just stared at each other for few very awkward seconds, even after Eijirou greeted him quietly, the other just asked with spite ‘the fuck you staring at?’. In the end, Bakugou clicked his tongue and walked past him with a glare.
And as Eijirou’s hair was once again tied into a ponytail, Bakugou did all this so without calling him Shitty Hair.
This might have been enough of a proof, but to get to the bottom of it, he had to come before Bakugou to see his reaction and to have time to talk to him.
“Kirishima.” Eijirou’s eyes immediately turned from Bakugou to Aizawa. “Are you listening?” He felt a little bit of regret that he tied his hair, as now he couldn’t hid behind his bangs from teacher’s intense gaze.
“Y-yeah, I’m sorry…”
“… Stay here for few minutes after the lesson ends.” He said and turned back to the blackboard, as if nothing happened. Eijirou just sat there, shocked, while Kaminari turned to him with slightly dreadful expression.
‘What the hell?’ Kaminari mouthed at him, at which Eijirou only shrugged, very confused.
Maybe a bit scared.
As the last period ended and everyone packed their things and left, Eijirou was left alone with their homeroom teacher.
“Did I… do? Something?” Eijirou asked after long seconds of silence and Aizawa stared him down.
“What’s with sudden interest in Bakugou.” He asked sternly and narrowed his eyes. Eijirou felt cold sweat run down his spine, but as he opened his mouth to object, his teacher spoke again. “Nothing you say will change the fact that you’re trying to uncover something that you shouldn’t.”
“I just-!” Eijirou cut himself off as he realized something. What did he want anyway? What would he do with this knowledge?
Then a thought crossed his mind.
“I want to be his friend.” He said honestly. “I want him to trust me with his secret. This might be a wrong approach, I know but… I have a feeling that he won’t say anything about it and it’ll just destroy him from the inside! All the suspicion and mistrust towards others! I just- I want him to open up to people…” Eijirou looked down at his fists and unclenched them slowly. He took a deep breath. “I don’t want him to be alone with this…” He finally said without looking up and bit his lower lip at Aizawa’s long sigh.
“His friend, huh?” The teacher muttered, which caused Eijirou to look up at him. “Gain his trust first, then do stupid things.” He said shortly and left him alone with his thoughts.
What he said was true, he actually wanted to get closer to Bakugou, but Aizawa was probably right. Eijirou couldn’t just break through Bakugou’s wall, he’d have to slowly climb over it or wait until he would let him in.
But how?
“Oh! You’re still here?” Eijirou raised his head to see- no one. Oh wait, there was a floating uniform.
“Hagakure?”
“I forgot my notebook.” Hagakure explained and hurriedly collected it from under her desk so Eijirou didn’t even have a chance to see the cover, then she probably looked at him. “Are you in detention?” She giggled and walked up to him.
“Ah, no, no!” Eijirou stood up and quickly collected his stuff as well. “Sensei just wanted to talk about Bakugou!” He blurted before he could stop himself. “I mean- it’s just that I… Kind of wanted to become friends with him? I guess?” There was strange silence between them, Eijirou couldn’t even tell if she was actually listening to him. “Please don’t make me remind you that you’re invisible.” She finally laughed at that and Eijirou sighed a little.
“And for that you started coming to school earlier?” She asked, still giggling. She was probably covering her mouth with her hand, not that it would do anything.
“Yeah, but I think I’ll stop. All this didn’t really work…” Eijirou was simply resigned at this point, with his plan not working and then Aizawa himself reprimanding him…
“So it’ll just be him and Midoriya again?” Hagakure wondered out loud and his eyes widened. “Although I wouldn’t call them friends…”
That’s right.
Midoriya, the childhood friend of Bakugou himself, wanted Eijirou to know. To talk to Bakugou about it, to get to him.
No one had to know.
Perfect.
“Yeah, I guess.” Eijirou shrugged and chuckled at her. “There’s no way I’d get along with Bakugou!” Hagakure laughed with him.
“Right? He’s kinda villainous with that attitude and quirk! No way someone could befriend him!”
Try me.
___
Eijirou took a deep breath and quickly opened the door to class with closed eyes. Slowly, he cracked one eye open, then the other and he just couldn’t contain his happiness. He stepped inside and looked around to make sure and yes.
The class was completely empty.
He just knew that coming in almost fifty minutes before the first period was a good idea, even if he had to skip his morning training and step around the flat quietly, as to not wake up his mom. Eijirou quickly sat down at his desk.
Now to wait for Bakugou and pray that he’d actually come first and not Iida or someone else.
So he waited.
Forty five minutes until first period; Eijirou stared out the window, counted the birds flying by.
Forty minutes until first period; Eijirou’s leg started bouncing nervously.
Thirty five minutes until first period; Eijirou stilled and locked his eyes on the door as he heard very distant, slow footsteps.
Thirty four minutes until first period; Eijirou almost stood up and ran out the class to meet the person who was approaching.
Thirty three minutes until first period; Eijirou held his breath as after what felt like eternity, the door slowly slid open and none other than Bakugou stepped inside.
Eijirou watched silently as Bakugou’s eyes, earlier locked on his desk, wandered to him and then widened, like he’s never seen before on him. He stopped mid step, still right by the door, as if struck by lightning and stared at Eijirou with confused frown. Bakugou blinked, something that Eijirou currently forgot to do, and slowly took off his headphones. He saw him glance around the classroom, as if he was searching for something. Bakugou’s eyes landed on their class’ schedule, that was pinned right next to the blackboard and Eijirou realized he was probably confirming that he’s in the right room.
Bakugou looked back at him with a glare, that held much less power than usual, and slowly but surely moved towards his desk, while glancing at Eijirou from time to time. Once he sat down, it was obvious that he was more than aware that Eijirou was still staring at him, and with that, it wasn’t hard to notice that Bakugou’s whole body was tense.
Eijirou wasn’t sure how to proceed.
At this point, it was crystal clear that Bakugou had no idea who he was, but if Eijirou just called out to him, he could simply ignore that, besides, Eijirou didn’t know if he’d recognize him by his voice.
So he stood up and made his way to Bakugou’s desk. He stood right in front of him, forcing Bakugou to look up. They stared at each other for few seconds, Eijirou with neutral expression, while Bakugou was glaring at him.
Finally, Bakugou opened his mouth, but Eijirou cut in and spoke first in a lower tone.
“Why wouldn’t you greet me?” A simple question. One at which Bakugou’s eyes narrowed and Eijirou was pretty sure he heard some quiet crackles from his palms.
“… Why would I?” He said slowly and somehow with less spite than usual. “It’s not like we’re friends or shit, you fucking extra.” Bakugou added and glanced at the door.
Yeah, no way Eijirou would let him walk out, so he moved slightly to the side and stood in his line of sight.
“Well, it’s been a while since you called me an ‘extra’.” Eijirou said calmly and watched as his eyes widened again. For a moment, it seemed like Bakugou had forgotten how to breathe, and after few more seconds, Eijirou decided to take a leap. “Let me ask you… Have you ever heard about face blindness?”
Before Eijirou could react, Bakugou stood up, closed the distance between them and grabbed Eijirou by the collar of his shirt.
“Wait, Baku-“ Eijirou couldn’t finish, as Bakugou pushed him against another desk and grabbed his collar again, tighter this time, while his other hand was suddenly right next to Eijirou’s face and he got some serious flashbacks to the USJ…
“Listen, you fucking prick-“ Bakugou hissed, his eyes burning with anger. “-if you ever talk about this again, I will murder you.” Smoke started emerging from his palm and Eijirou got ready to harden his face at any moment. “And don’t think of hiding, I will go through every person with same shitty red hair like… yours…” His eyes widened as he loosened his grip and took half a step back.
Eijirou looked him straight in the eyes and hardened his face, at which Bakugou held his breath and completely let go of his shirt, as if he was burnt. Bakugou’s eyes followed his movements as Eijirou raised his hands and, without a word, bumped his fists together in front of his chest.
If that wasn’t enough, Eijirou put his hands in his hair and awkwardly raised the front bangs.
Bakugou sat down heavily in his chair.
“… Kirishima?” And his voice was so unusually quiet that Eijirou suddenly hated himself for doing all this. The betrayal in Bakugou’s eyes didn’t help either, it was like a kick in the gut.
Well deserved one.
But before Eijirou knew it, any distress disappeared from Bakugou’s face, replaced by a shadow of realization that turned back to anger. He stood up and walked past Eijirou.
“Wait, where are you-“
“I’m going to murder Deku.” Bakugou’s cold tone made him shiver, and before Eijirou could stop himself, he grabbed his shoulder, just to be pushed away. “THAT’S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!”
“Yes, it is now! Besides-“ Eijirou managed to stop him this time, grabbing his wrist. “-he didn’t tell me that you have face blindness!”
“Shut up!” He yelled, without turning to Eijirou.
“I figured it out! Midoriya has nothing to do with it! He didn’t-”
“I TOLD YOU TO SHUT UP-“ Bakugou turned to him with raised hand, explosion already going off, but as Eijirou wanted to harden his skin, he realized he couldn’t for some reason and closed his eyes, ready for a hit.
One that never came.
Eijirou slowly opened his eyes to see Bakugou staring at his own hand in confusion.
“I think that’s enough.” They both looked towards the open door to see Aizawa standing there, his hair and binding cloth floating slightly. Once Eijirou and Bakugou were away from each other, their teacher released his quirk and pulled out eye drops from his pocket. “What did I tell you, Kirishima?” He asked as he applied the eye drops and Eijirou lowered his head.
“I-“
“Don’t bother.” Aizawa cut him off and Eijirou swallowed a knot in his throat. “And you-” He turned to Bakugou, although he didn’t get to say what he wanted.
“Greetings, Aizawa-sensei!” Familiar voice of Iida reached them and soon enough, their classmate stood right next to still angry teacher. His eyes quickly landed on Eijirou and Bakugou. “Kirishima-kun, it’s good to see that you’re keep coming earlier to school, your dedication is admirable.” As he talked, Eijirou noticed he was talking somehow less enthusiastically, then he realized what he read in the news about Iida’s brother.
“… Kirishima, Bakugou, come with me.” Aizawa turned around without waiting for them and any thought Eijirou had about Iida immediately disappeared. Reluctantly, he moved after he realized that Bakugou went after their teacher almost right away.
___
They found themselves in principal’s office, once Aizawa realized that teacher’s lounge wouldn’t allow them any privacy, and just now Eijirou finally understood how serious this situation actually was. Unfortunately, the principal decided to give Aizawa free hand in this and Eijirou was a bit scared about his position in the class.
Maybe more than a little bit.
“Kirishima, even though I know you wanted to help, your approach was wrong.” The teacher said coldly from where he sat on a couch on the other side of the coffee table, Eijirou and Bakugou on the second couch, in front of him.
“I know, I just-“
“Do you?” Aizawa glared at him and Eijirou clenched his fists. “You should have respected his privacy and wait until he’d tell you on his own terms-”
“I wasn’t planning on telling any of those extras!” Bakugou cut in with hatred in his eyes. “I don’t need any assholes looking down on me!”
Now, Eijirou didn’t understand what all the talk with looking down was about, but he was sure about one thing.
“Never in a slightest I was gonna look down on you!” He said and hoped that Bakugou would understand his honest tone, but Eijirou knew that wasn’t the case when he saw his eyes narrow at him, his teeth bared.
“Then why the fuck did you want to figure it out so badly, Shitty Hair?!”
“I want to help you!”
“Oh I fucking wonder how!” He laughed, but there wasn’t any ounce of humor in there. “There’s nothing to help with! I can manage just fine on my own!” Few explosions went off from his palms.
“Enough!” Aizawa slammed his hand on the table, bringing their attention back to him. “Bakugou. We already talked about this. Kirishima’s not a person to just talk about it, you have to trust that-“
“How the fuck am I supposed to trust this asshole if he goes and spies on me?!” Bakugou stood up, gesturing with his hand accusingly at Eijirou, who decided it was the best for them all if he didn’t mention how Bakugou’s voice cracked slightly. “Going around and talking behind my fucking back with useless Deku?!” He finished and started breathing heavily, clutching his chest. “Fucking…” He squeezed his eyes shut and held in his breath.
“Bakugou-“ Eijirou stood up and stopped himself from touching him in any way at the last second, well aware of how Bakugou would often react to unwanted physical contact. “I’m… really sorry, seriously. What I did wasn’t manly and I know I’m in no place to ask you to trust me, but if you don’t want to, a-and I’m sure you really don’t, I won’t tell anybody!” Bakugou’s shoulders relaxed slightly, but he still wasn’t looking at Eijirou. He decided to be honest with him. “I’m not the smartest person out there and I don’t understand how me knowing would be looking down on you, but that’s not the case! Midoriya didn’t tell me… And he didn’t even want to talk about it in the first place and I…” Eijirou remembered Bakugou’s words when he lashed at his old friend. “I know that’s partly because he’s just so- terrified of the consequences. … But I’m not.”
Bakugou finally opened his eyes and looked at Eijirou with something that he just couldn’t figure out, so he simply decided to continue.
“It’s now my responsibility as a man to keep your secret and since you clearly don’t want anyone to know, I’m not gonna tell them!” Eijirou paused, collecting his thoughts. “And not because I’m afraid of you or your quirk.” He smiled and reached out his hand towards Bakugou, in hopes that he would take it as a peace offering. “Trust me, Bakugou.”
There was tension weighing between them, so heavy, that Eijirou had trouble breathing, even more when Bakugou looked at his hand and just furrowed his eyebrows. After few more seconds, he looked away with a grimace and Eijirou lowered his hand back to his side, a little bit disappointed but not surprised, because honestly, what did he expect?
“Whatever…” Bakugou muttered, and even if it wasn’t clear acceptance, it wasn’t a refusal either, and at this very moment, that was more than enough for Eijirou.
Aizawa’s cough brought him back to reality.
“Lessons start soon. If you two aren’t gonna cause any more trouble, you may leave.” He stood up as well and both Eijirou and Bakugou followed after him, yet before their teacher let them out, he had one more thing to say. “Kirishima, if you tell anyone, you can say goodbye to the UA.” Eijirou paled and heard a short snort from Bakugou. “And same goes to you-“ his smirk immediately disappeared “-if you try to 'kill' him or Midoriya, even outside the school grounds, you’re out. Are we clear?” He glared at them both. Eijirou nodded quickly while Bakugou just grunted something under his breath and with that, they were free to go.
They awkwardly stood outside the office for few seconds before Bakugou started walking rather quickly down the hall, leaving Eijirou few steps behind.
“Move your ass, Shitty hair.” Bakugou said, breaking the silence to Eijirou’s surprise, although he complied and soon was walking right beside him.
“Say…” Eijirou wanted to ask about it, wanted to know more, like if he had it since he was born or not. He wasn’t sure how to approach the topic, but they were kind of already here, so... “How did you-“
“Don’t fucking talk about it.” Bakugou almost whispered, something Eijirou thought he was incapable of.
“What? But-“
“Just because I’m fine with this whole face blindness bullshit, doesn’t mean I want to answer any of your stupid questions or talk about it.” Bakugou explained in his own strange way, in still surprisingly quiet voice, as they got to the class. “Google is free.” With one last glare, he entered the room, leaving stunned Eijirou outside.
Okay.
Yeah.
This didn’t go as well as Eijirou thought it would, but he was still alive, and maybe, just maybe, he could still develop a proper relationship with Bakugou.
Once he stepped inside, he saw that Iida was already joined by Yaoyorozu and Hagakure, as well as Tokoyami and Kouda. He waved to them, struggling to not show how nervous he still was after his little talk with Bakugou and Aizawa. This, and he tried to ignore Bakugou’s piercing eyes.
After all that, developing any kind of relationship with Bakugou was probably going to be really hard.
Notes:
O o f
I am? So?? Happy??? To finally reach this moment of the story????
Like seriously, the 'confrontation' scene was so long planned that I'm just afbkdhidfsdk FINALLYTalk to me about this on tumblr here if ya want (I need validation aifgsuf)
Anyway, I'm dying, I'm going to sleep, bye
Up next; I spy with my little eye
Chapter 15: Friends close, Enemies closer
Summary:
Catching some gay, but there's miscommunication
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
“Man, what the hell did you do?” Eijirou jumped at Sero’s question and his head snapped at him from where Eijirou was staring at his notebook, pretending to go over their assignment and totally not ignoring Bakugou’s continuous angry glare.
“What do you mean?” Eijirou laughed nervously, trying his best to sound nonchalant, but judging by Sero’s expression, that didn’t really work.
“Why’s Bakugou been glaring at you for two periods now? It’s almost scary, you know?” Sero glanced at their classmate who despite all of their attention being on him, didn’t stop staring at Eijirou. “He keeps doing that even during the lessons! I’m right between the two of you!” He gestured between Eijirou and Bakugou, then at himself. “I mean, maybe he needs glasses, since he’s squinting at you like that all the time, but-“
“I say it’s bloodlust.” They both turned to see Kaminari leaning on Eijirou’s desk. “Kirishima definitely did something to make our dear Kacchan furious!” He snorted at Eijirou’s offended look.
“I totally didn’t!” He absolutely did. And he was more than aware of that.
And Eijirou of course knew why exactly Bakugou was angrily staring at him like that, but he wasn’t about to explain the situation to any of his friends. He promised, after all.
“I say it’s just lust.” Ashido whispered as she joined them, her comment making Eijirou choke on his own saliva, while she and Kaminari laughed.
“ASHIDO-!” He managed to utter between coughs.
“Okay, okay, I’m sorry!” Despite her words, she was keep giggling and still didn’t stop when Eijirou put his forehead on his desk and, resigned, let out a heavy sigh. “Aw, come on, Kiri!” He felt few pats on the back of his head, to which he only let out a tired groan.
Once his friends realized he wasn’t going to be as talkative as usual, they got into some discussion between themselves, leaving Eijirou alone with his thoughts. He sighed as Bakugou’s words from just this morning were still ringing in his head.
‘Don't fucking talk about it.', huh? Simple enough. Eijirou could totally do that.
He was pretty sure that Bakugou not only meant it as not talking about it with other people, but also not talking about it at all, even with him. He even said that he didn’t want to answer any questions about this. It probably annoyed him. Probably happened a lot of times before; people approaching him, asking all sorts of questions and treating him like he was a walking encyclopedia on that matter.
Eijirou straightened in his seat. As he tugged the bangs of his still loose hair behind his ears, for a second his eyes met Bakugou’s, until they wandered to Midoriya. Eijirou realized that this might have been one of the reasons why Bakugou hated the guy so much. With how often Midoriya would ask questions about others' quirks, it was obvious that he'd probably want to investigate Bakugou's condition like that as well...
‘Don't fucking talk about it.’
His head turned slowly back to Bakugou and their eyes met again. Eijirou gave him a little wave, for which he got himself a middle finger. He couldn’t help a little snort.
Of course he got even angrier look after that.
As long as Eijirou wouldn’t start the topic, as long as he showed him that he just wanted to be friends, that he had no intentions of spilling his secret to anyone or treating him like some sort of scary monster, he was sure that they could still talk like normal classmates. Maybe then Bakugou would talk about it to him one day.
And maybe he would finally see him as someone trustworthy.
___
To say that Katsuki was angry was an understatement.
No.
He was furious, barely containing his quirk from going off. He couldn’t even recall the last time when he wanted to murder someone that wasn’t Deku. If it wasn't for Aizawa threatening to expel him, Shitty hair would be long dead. Deku with him. But of course he wasn't allowed to do anything. Not that he actually wanted to.
… Alright he absolutely did want to, but for beating Shitty hair's ass he'd have to wait until hero training or something. For now, all Katsuki had left was making sure that Kirishima wouldn't spill the beans to one of these randoms, thus why he decided to keep an eye on the guy all the time. It was less awkward than he expected it to be, considering that Kirishima probably caught up on what Katsuki was doing, avoiding eye contact and not talking to his friends during breaks.
Meanwhile, during classes it was harder. He still had to focus on his studies, but how was he supposed to know if Shitty hair wouldn't write to someone on a piece of paper about this?
Katsuki was being paranoid, he knew, but fuck he wasn't about to let anything like that happen.
He didn't trust Kirishima.
The time for lunch break had come and Katsuki, as always, wanted to stay in class but… What about Shitty hair then? He wouldn’t be able to make sure he won’t say anything to anyone. True, he could just go to the cafeteria, where he assumed Kirishima ate, but he’d probably be with his ragtag group of friends. Not that Katsuki knew if he had a group like that, but just by observing him today, there were often people around him. He didn’t care enough to make sure it was always the same group though.
Not to add that he really didn’t want to go to such crowded place and sit between some randoms.
Katsuki got his bento box out of his bag and stared at it. Somehow, he wasn’t that hungry, but he knew better than to skip meals just because he was nervous over some guy and the probability of him telling others about his condition.
… Wait no- He wasn’t fucking nervous! He was angry at Kirishima for butting into his business.
He looked around, noticed few people leaving the class, Deku among them with some girl, probably his sidekick, and two guys, making the room almost empty, spare for two other guys who looked like they were silently arguing at the door. Katsuki glanced at them suspiciously. One had black hair and was keep glancing back at Katsuki, which only made him more cautious and pissed about the situation. He looked at the other one, who was shorter than the first, with red hair- Ah.
That’s right. Kirishima didn’t have his shitty hairstyle today.
Katsuki looked back down at his bento box, squeezing it lightly in his hands, a small frown present on his face. … Was that him? Katsuki still wasn’t sure if Kirishima was the only redhead in the class. The annoying voice in his head, that sounded a lot like his mother’s, was telling him that he should know this by now.
The sound of the door sliding open and closing caught his attention and Katsuki turned to see that the tall guy with black hair left the class, leaving him with the redhead. Katsuki frowned when he slowly walked up to him, seemingly nervous and shyly waved with one hand.
“Uhh, hi? It's me?”
“Oh for fuck's sake…” Katsuki rolled his eyes. Yeah, that for sure was that fucking idiot, walking up to him and starting the conversation like that. If that wasn't enough, Katsuki was collected enough to even recognise this moron's voice.
“Ah- Sorry!” Kirishima took a step back. “It's just that I have my hair down and-”
“Yeah, I can fucking see that.” Katsuki stated, throwing one of his hands up in the air in annoyed gesture and sighed tiredly when Kirishima started fiddling with his fingers, avoiding eye contact. “You had to have it down so your little detective play pretend would work out!” He finished with spite in his voice and crossed his arms on his chest, glaring at Kirishima.
“Yeah… I guess… Sorry about that...”
Katsuki just snorted with no humour. What was he supposed to do with some stupid little ‘sorry’?
Kirishima sighed, seemingly contemplating something.
“But still, I wanted…” He took a deep breath and finally looked at Katsuki. “I wanted to ask you something?” He gave him a little, unsure smile and Katsuki felt few sparks go off in his clenched fists, too small to be heard by him or Kirishima.
‘He's so terrified… But I'm not.’ His words from this morning were still clear and loud in Katsuki's mind. ‘Trust me, Bakugou.’
Surprisingly, he really wanted to believe that Kirishima wasn't afraid of him. That his nervousness at this very moment wasn't coming from the fear of Katsuki using his quirk. And maybe he really wouldn’t say anything, especially that he was threatened with expulsion as well. But was he, after all, stupid enough to ask about it anyway? Despite being specifically told not to? Was his whole talk about not being scared and trusting him and not talking about it just some bullshit he came up with in a second?
Of course it was.
Just some fucking bullshit to gain his trust.
Katsuki was already mad about this whole situation, the last thing he needed was for Kirishima to join in on the ride of asking him all sorts of useless, annoying questions and-
"Do you want to eat lunch with us?" Kirishima asked with a sheepish smile and stared at him expectantly, while Katsuki's eyebrows raised slightly in surprise, his eyes widening unconsciously.
... Well, that's not what he expected.
When was the last time someone offered to eat lunch with him? First grade of middle school?
… No. Just at the beginning of high school, someone invited him as well. Something was telling him that it was Kirishima back then as well, the foggy memory of someone with red hair somewhere in the back of his mind. Still, Katsuki didn't want to and had no intentions of socializing with anyone, even if he did want to keep an eye on him and-
Wait a fucking second.
"...Us?" Katsuki frowned. The last thing he wanted to do was eating lunch while surrounded by some randoms.
"Yeah! Me, Ashido, Sero-" Kirishima started counting out on his fingers, but when he saw how Katsuki narrowed his eyes, his shoulders dropped a bit. "-and... Kaminari..." He finished slower, with less confidence. "Uh..."
Katsuki looked to the side, well aware that Kirishima must have realized that Katsuki had no idea who he was talking about.
"Oh, I know!" At Kirishima's sudden exclaim, Katsuki's head shot back to him and he glared when he saw a strange smile on his face. "Ashido and Sero were on our team during cavalry battle!" Kirishima jumped a bit in a place with too much enthusiasm. "Bubblegum and Horse smile!"
Katsuki blinked few times.
This… actually rang a bell, if he had to be honest. Bubblegum was all pink and shit. Probably. She was on his right during cavalry battle. Then Horse smile- well. He couldn't say he remembered anything that stood out about this guy. Besides that hugeass smile, obviously.
… It's not like Katsuki had to talk to them, right? He just had to make sure that Kirishima wouldn't say anything. He'd just have to stay focused on those two randoms and maybe, just maybe, his brain would forget about every other person around and let him stay calm and collected.
Without a word, Katsuki stood up and grabbed his bento box. He watched as baffled Kirishima stared at him as he walked past him and towards the door.
“You fucking coming or what?” Katsuki peered at him over his shoulder, his one hand already on the door.
Kirishima blinked a few times, then smiled and quickly joined Katsuki without commenting on his decision.
___
Once they got to the cafeteria, Katsuki stopped right in front of the entrance, already aware of the huge crowd of people inside. Fuck. His breathing slightly sped up and he already missed the empty class. Maybe he could still go back? Maybe Kirishima actually wouldn't say anything, even if Katsuki won't be there to make sure of it?
“Hey, you're coming?” He blinked, his panicked thoughts slipping away, and looked at the source of voice. Katsuki saw Kirishima waiting for him, already on the other side of the big entrance. He quickly took a deeper breath and went after him, rolling his eyes at the smile that Shitty hair shot him.
Katsuki looked around. He was there only once before, and if he had to be honest, it seemed like right now there were a lot of more people than the first time he had visited this place. Or maybe it was just that that back then he didn't look around properly? Either way, he'd still rather be alone, especially that he already had to look away from some people, their faces becoming gross mush.
He followed after Kirishima until they both stopped few steps away from the queue for food.
“Go look for them while I get my lunch, okay?” Kirishima took half a step away, but still was looking at Katsuki, obviously waiting for his answer.
Katsuki just stared at him.
Did he just-
No...
No fucking way.
Did Kirishima seriously just tell him to go and find those idiots on his own? Katsuki had hard time believing that this was his reality right now. That it wasn't just some fucked up dream, where one of his classmates discovered the truth about him and yet was keep mocking him, acting as if he didn't know.
So he kept staring at him, not even sure what to say, since he didn't want to snap at him and cause a scene.
“Uhh… you okay?” Kirishima tilted his head and slightly knitted his eyebrows.
“... Holy shit.” Katsuki said, more to himself than anything, but his unusually flat voice made Kirishima's shoulders visibly tense. “You are an asshole.” He finally stated with more disbelief showing on his face than he'd normally let.
Then something must have clicked for Shitty hair.
His eyes widened and face paled, his mouth was opening and closing, no words coming out, until he finally clasped a hand over his lips and kept staring at Katsuki, looking as if he just saw a ghost.
Finally, after few more seconds of Katsuki glaring at him, Kirishima spoke in careful tone.
“Dude... I'm just- I'm so sorry, I-” He covered his face in embarrassment “-I forgot, shit, sorry-”
He was keep apologising with his face still hidden behind his hands and Katsuki barely stopped himself from openly snickering at that.
Kirishima wasn't mocking him.
Kirishima just forgot.
He was so fucking sure of himself this morning, just to fucking forget that Katsuki literally couldn't just go and look for someone. This was both hilarious and annoying and Katsuki didn't really know how to react, besides trying to keep his face straight, once Kirishima finally looked back at him.
“Seriously, I don't know how! I just-”
“Just shut up.” Katsuki cut him off, rising his hand. He turned slightly, just so Kirishima wouldn't see his smirk. “Where the fuck are they?” He asked quickly, still not looking at him.
As silence stretched, Katsuki glanced at Kirishima subtly and saw him looking around, standing on top of his shoes. He looked kind of funny, his eyes squinted and lips in a small pout, as if he was trying really hard to find his group. Kirishima's hair fell onto his face and he quickly tugged the bangs behind his ear and just now, Katsuki noticed a small scar on his right eyelid.
… Huh.
Katsuki didn't have that much time to ponder about it, as Kirishima must have found who he was looking for, a toothy smile appearing on his face as he waved to someone.
“Come on, man!” Kirishima said and moved towards wherever his friends were, Katsuki right after him. Something about walking behind others would always irk him, but for some reason, following Kirishima wasn't that bad.
Wait, what the shit. Katsuki frowned at his own thoughts. He wasn't the one to follow people, so why the fuck he wasn't bothered by Kirishima walking in front of him? Literally leading him to where they were supposed to go? Yeah, he was more mad about this not making him mad than anything. Still, he quickened his pace to walk right beside Kirishima.
Just before they got to the right table, Kirishima leaned towards him a little bit.
“By the way, the one with yellow hair is Kaminari.” He whispered while keep walking and Katsuki almost stopped as shock dawned on him. “You were arguing with him right before your fight with Tokoyami.” Kirishima then straightened again and kept walking towards the table where his friends were apparently sitting.
What the fuck.
What the fuck.
Kirishima just informed him of who else would be at that table. And he did it so naturally, as if it was the most normal thing to do. Was he mocking him, after all? It didn't sound like it. And there weren't any people to witness his ‘wonderful’ joke, if it was one. Did he genuinely try to help?
… No way.
Katsuki realised that he stayed a bit behind and moved quickly, as to not lose sight of Kirishima's bright hair.
“Sorry for being late!” Kirishima waved to three people who were sitting at the table.
And yes, there was the Bubblegum girl, some guy with yellow hair who Kirishima mentioned (the fuck was his name again?) and some plain one with black hair. Was that Horse smile? He wasn't smiling once he noticed Katsuki. The other two also looked at him strangely, visibly surprised to see him, and Katsuki felt his stomach clench.
… Shit. Right. No one probably wanted him here, with everything he had done so far. Still, he wasn't about to let that get to him.
“The fuck you staring at?” Katsuki snapped at the one with yellow hair, causing him to jump slightly in his seat.
“Oh! Uhh…. It's just… abrupt? To see you here?” He laughed awkwardly, looked away and shoved some food into his mouth.
“Oi, Bakugou, come on, don't be like that!” Kirishima nudged him with his elbow and gave a toothy smile. “Just sit down, okay? I'll be right back, guys!”
“Don't tell me what to do-” Katsuki frowned, but Kirishima was already gone, leaving him with those extras. He clenched his teeth. Great.
Katsuki looked back at them, the one with yellow hair was keep shoving food into his mouth, while the one who Katsuki was pretty sure was Horse smile, was staring back at him. Katsuki frowned and finally sat down beside the pink girl, not breaking eye contact with that plain asshole.
Finally, the guy gave up and started eating with a little frown. Katsuki smirked to himself, opened his bento box and followed suit.
Even if he was keeping his eyes on the food, he still felt as if people were keep glancing at him. It was as if they were making sure he wouldn't outburst all of a sudden.
The silence was also unbearable. Something was telling Katsuki that those guys were usually talkative and loud, being friends with Kirishima and all that, but now… There was just this awkward silence at their table, while every student in the crowd around them was practically yelling in happy banter. At this point, it was more than obvious for Katsuki that his classmates just didn't know what to talk about around him.
Fuck. Fucking shit, why the fuck was Kirishima taking so damn long?!
“Hey, Baku!” Bubblegum called out to him all of a sudden, so he was forced to look at her and fuck her eyes were all black and distorted, he barely stopped himself from looking away. “Aw don't look at me like that!” She giggled while pointing at him with a spoon. “I just wanted to ask you something, no need for glaring!” She put down her spoon and reached for a cup of water, drank a bit from it.
“... And the fuck do you want?” Katsuki urged her. He didn't have time for some stupid games.
“Oh, nothing much-” she shrugged while putting down the cup “-just curious why you decided to join us!”
“Yeah, generally you just sit and eat in the class, isolated and detached!” Yellow haired guy finally spoke again in overly dramatic way, and while waving his chopsticks around, some of his food landed on the black haired guy's cheek. “Oh shit, sorry-”
“And what is it to you, hah?” Katsuki cut in, completely ignoring the yellow idiot who was fussing over the other guy, and glared at Bubblegum who shot him a smile and clasped her hands together.
“Exactly that!”
“Hah?”
“Kiri was often going on about how you just sit in a class alone and eat there, while even Todoroki-kun would eat here with everyone else!” She explained quickly and tapped her hands on a table rhythmically, clearly waiting for his answer.
Who in the everlasting fuck was Todoroki?
And wait-
“Shitty hair was talking about me?” Katsuki said before he could stop himself and cursed his suddenly loose tongue. Even more when she covered a sly smile behind her hand. But he couldn't help but wonder why Kirishima would talk about him before he knew about Katsuki's condition.
“Hey guys-” before she could say anything, someone sat in front of Katsuki and he looked at them to see a mess of red hair and an apologetic smile that let him see sharp teeth. “The queue was kinda long!” Kirishima ran his hand through his hair and Katsuki once again noticed that small scar. “What's going on?”
“Flying food-”
“Ah, the usual!” Kirishima smirked and was about to start eating but-
“And I was just telling Baku how often you like to talk about him!” Bubblegum added quickly and Kirishima's eyes widened as he looked back and forth between her and Katsuki.
“Wh- NO I DON'T!” He yelled at her, catching attention of few students from the nearby tables. “Don't listen to her, I don't!” Kirishima turned to Katsuki who just stared at him with tilted eyebrow.
“I don't listen to others.” Katsuki said shortly with a shrug. As long as Kirishima didn't try to say anything about this morning, he didn't care about whatever all those randoms were talking about.
He started eating again, but then he saw movements in the corner of his eye. Katsuki glanced at Bubblegum and caught her sending some strange gestures to Shitty hair, so he glanced at him as well, just to see somehow displeased frown. He looked back at the pink girl, but as soon as she noticed him staring, she stopped and smiled at him, almost innocently.
Katsuki squinted at her, just for her to ignore him and continue eating, so then he looked at Shitty hair. Their eyes met for a split second before Kirishima turned quickly to the guy next to him and started a conversation which Katsuki had no interest in.
Once again, Katsuki's attention was caught by a scar on Kirishima's eyelid. He made a mental note on that.
___
Eijirou low-key wanted to hide.
And by hide, he meant that he wanted to harden his skin, break through the wall and just run away, because if Bakugou were to continue staring at him like that, he had a feeling that he'd die under that pressure sooner or later.
He felt his gaze all the time throughout the lunch. At first Eijirou thought that maybe he got some sauce on his face so he subtly tried to wipe it off, but that apparently wasn't the case. All he knew that it was somehow getting harder and harder to ignore those intense eyes.
Then he realised; Bakugou was probably staring at his scar. Was he staring because it was strange? Or maybe he thought it was small and unmanly? Eijirou really didn't want someone like Bakugou to think that he was unmanly. Or was he just staring because… Because he was interested?
Eijirou quickly pushed that ridiculous thought to the back of his head.
Nope. No way!!
He tried his best to engage in a conversation with Sero and Kaminari, but the feeling of Bakugou's eyes on him and the kisses and hearts that Ashido was mockingly sending towards him whenever Bakugou wasn't looking, certainly weren't helping him in keeping a straight face.
After few more minutes of fighting off a blush and avoiding looking at both Bakugou and Ashido, he finally finished eating. It wasn't long until others were done as well and they could leave the cafeteria.
All in all, Eijirou was glad that Bakugou decided to join them, even if he wasn't sure why he exactly agreed, but in the end, Eijirou could mark this one as a small achievement; keeping Bakugou from eating alone.
… Next goals were to make him talk more and stop him from keep staring at Eijirou's scar, because he was beginning to feel a bit awkward about it. At first, Eijirou knew he was glaring because he was angry, but now? What was so interesting about his face that-
Oh.
Wait.
The scar was one of Eijirou's distinctive features. Since he didn't have his usual hairstyle, next best things were his teeth and that scar. It suddenly made more sense as to why Bakugou was keep staring and Eijirou felt a bit stupid for letting this get to him like that.
It was so obvious! Bakugou was just making an effort to remember him!
…
Bakugou was making an effort to remember him.
Oh shit-
“Kiri what's with that face?” Ashido nudged him in the side and Eijirou jumped a bit with a yelp.
“Dude, chill.” He heard Sero's voice at his side. “You're so jumpy today, does this have something to do with Bakugou?”
“Not really!?” Eijirou answered too quickly, at which Sero raised an eyebrow at him and he heard Ashido hum. He quickly looked ahead where Kaminari was bothering Bakugou and sighed in relief when neither of them seemed to pay them much mind. “I just… Thought he'd be more talkative, you know?” Eijirou shrugged, still looking at Bakugou's back. “He usually has no trouble with talking.”
“... Did we have lunch with the same Bakugou?” Sero glanced between him and Eijirou. “Because I wouldn't call snapping and yelling at everyone ‘no trouble with talking’.”
“Hey, that's not-”
“Sero's right, Kiri, don't let your hopeless crush fool you!” Ashido cut in with a giggle.
“I DON'T-” He started too loud, causing her and Sero to openly laugh at him. “I don't have a crush, just drop it!” Eijirou said quietly with annoyance, at which Ashido sighed and patted him on his shoulder.
“Yes yes, just so you know, someday you'll owe me.”
“I give him two weeks to realize.” Ashido laughed again at Sero's retort and Eijirou threw his hands up in the air.
“You guys are the worst!” He said shortly and quickened his steps to join Bakugou and Kaminari, ignoring quiet snorts from the two of his asshole friends.
___
Katsuki went back home, ignored his mother when he walked past her in the corridor, since they still weren't talking to each other since their fight, and locked himself in his room.
Some kind of a new habit developed in him, ever since that fucking festival. Whenever he'd come back home, he'd always make sure that the window was open, as he somehow felt cramped in his own room. Just like now, so he reached over his desk and opened the window, just a bit, to let the fresh air in. Lucky for him, it was almost summer, so the cold wasn't bothering him.
Now what.
Throughout the whole day Kirishima didn't mention it once; didn't ask stupid questions, didn't look at him in a strange way, didn't avoid him or anything. It also didn't seem like he told anyone.
The question was why? Because Katsuki had hard time believing that this guy just wanted to be friends and shit. At least he had no way of telling others when outside of school-
… Wait a fucking second.
Katsuki quickly pulled his phone out of his bag and opened the godforsaken chat he had on silence mode ever since Kirishima added him back, before the festival.
Regret flooded him as he read few of the messages on his screen.
Todoroki: in conclusion, if you want my father's credit card info, just say a word, Uraraka
Uraraka: TODOROKI-KUN, YOU'RE SO NICE
Yaomomo: Todoroki-san, are you sure about this?
Todoroki: do you want a short answer or more elaborated and tiresome one
Toru: I kinda want to hear both :o
Kaminari: SHORT ONE
Todoroki: Yes.
Kaminari: AHAH
Yaomomo: Of course…. I respect your decision, Todoroki-san.
Toru: and the long one?? :O
Todoroki: i have to find one of his cards, maybe I'll tell you later after I send Uraraka the info
Uraraka: o m g ellen u didn't
Todoroki: who's Ellen
Yaomomo: Oh, Todoroki-san…
That… was something that Katsuki didn't expect. Still, he wasn't the one to just lurk in the chat like a coward, in case Kirishima was to come.
Bakugou Katsuki: is that what you idiots talk about all the time?
Kaminari: !!!!!!!!!!!
Tsuyu: That's a surprise
Ashido: he can tALK
Yaomomo: Oh! Hello, Bakugou-san! It's nice to see you've finally decided to join us!
Bakugou Katsuki: whatever
Tsuyu: what's the reason for your sudden visit, Bakugou-chan?
Bakugou Katsuki: the fuck is it to you?
Bakugou Katsuki: and don't call me ‘-chan’ that's gross
Tokoyami: If you stare into the abyss, the abyss stares back at you.
Bakugou Katsuki: AND THE FUCK IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN
Sero: more like the abyss screams at you....
Bakugou Katsuki: oi watch it, asshole
Sero: or what, you’ll keysmash me through the chat?? Chill out dude
Kaminari: hey at least he didn’t call u ‘horse smile’
Horse smile: don’t remind him
Horse smile: HEY, WHO DID THAT
Ashido: ;P
Horse smile: WHY
Ashido: it’s funny!
Bubblegum: look! me too!!
Yaomomo: Ashido-san, that’s actually adorable!
Bubblegum: see? thank you Yaomomo <3
Horse smile: yours is fine! mine is offensive!
Kaminari: but did you d i e???
Toru: ohhh! Hello! Bakugou-kun!!! :D What are you doing here? :0
Kirishima: oooOOOOOOO DO I SEE BAKUGOU
Bakugou Katsuki: Shitty hair.
Kirishima: …. ahahaha, yes. hello.
Kaminari: are you guys certain that Todoroki's not here? It's suddenly really freezing
Tokoyami: The coldness unbearable, just like darkness in our hearts.
Horse smile: I'd say ‘chill’ but.....
Then a couple more messages from other people appeared. Katsuki couldn't say he knew any of them, besides that he knew Deku's sidekick's name. Then Bubblegum, who for some reason liked that he had called her that in the first place. Kirishima wasn't talking in the chat, even though he was online and reading all the messages as well.
Katsuki wondered vaguely if he could somehow make it so he'd get notifications only from Kirishima, so that he wouldn't have to check his phone all the damn time.
Then, for some reason, Kirishima decided to message him.
Shitty hair: heeeey bakubro
Blasty: the fuck do you want
Shitty hair: uhh I just
Shitty hair: wanted to say that I'm glad? that you wanted to join us during lunch break?? Haha
Katsuki was kind of surprised that Kirishima didn't immediately start talking about the situation from this morning.
Not that he wanted him to.
Blasty: I didn't want to. I had my own reasons to accept and none of it had to do with befriending you or your fucking extras.
For few minutes Katsuki waited for an answer, but in the end decided he didn't owe Kirishima shit. He changed from his uniform and went to the bathroom to wash off his eyeliner, but as he was going back to his room, he was stopped by his dad.
“Katsuki! How was your day?” He asked as he ruffled his hair and just smiled wider when Katsuki frowned at him.
“Fucking great.” Katsuki hissed through his teeth with no intentions of telling this old man about what happened. He'd make too big of a deal out of it and tell Old hag all about it.
“... Did something happen?”
Oh for fuck's sake-
“Nothing, and if it did, it's none of your business, old man.”
His dad tilted his head, that stupid smile still on his face.
“Ah, alright!” He scratched his chin, as if he wanted Katsuki to notice that he let his stupid moustache regrow again. “But I moustache you a question.”
Katsuki hated that his words made him snort like an idiot. He bit his lower lip as to stop himself from smiling, but it was too late, his dad already proud of himself for making Katsuki laugh at his terrible joke.
Stupid fucking puns.
"I'm going out to get groceries.” Proud smile was still on his face. “You keep making your own lunches, right? Do you need something?” His dad took a step towards stairs.
“Not really…” Katsuki muttered. He made food for two days so he still had something for tomorrow. “I have everything.”
“... Maybe after you run out, you could try to go to the cafeteria again? With your classmates maybe?” He offered carefully with encouraging smile.
“I was there once already. I don't need to go again to know that the food is shit.” It was a blatant lie on Katsuki's part. That one time he went, the food was pretty decent, even if it wasn't spicy enough for him.
“Well, maybe it got better since that time?”
“It didn't look any better today so-”
“Today?”
SHIT.
Katsuki bit his tongue. He didn't dare look at his dad, knowing well that he'd either see a stupidly satisfied smile or a very questionable look.
“... I just wanna know-” his dad started carefully and Katsuki looked at him with a frown “-did you perhaps get invited by some friends you made?”
There was an annoyingly obvious note of hope in his voice. Katsuki just put his hands in the pockets of his pants and stared at the floor.
“I won't tell your mom, I just want to know.” There was a hand on Katsuki's shoulder, yet he still refused to look at this persistent old man.
“... I didn't make shit.” Katsuki decided to ignore his quiet, disappointed sigh. “ Someone fucking invited me and I went with them just because I had to check something, not to ‘enjoy’ my time with those fucking extras.” He took a step away just so his dad would have to let go of his shoulder.
“Katsuki, just… maybe try to be nicer to them, eh?” Dad nudged him lightly on the shoulder. “Even if you're not enjoying yourself while in their company, your words might hurt them, especially since they invited you! That means they actually wanted to spend this time with you.”
Katsuki finally looked back at his dad and a ridiculous thought came to him.
Kirishima apparently wanted his company. For some reason.
“Just think about it, son.” After a few pats on his head, Katsuki was left alone.
He went back to his room and sat down heavily on his bed. He checked his phone and, yes, Kirishima still hadn't replied and Katsuki realised that maybe, just maybe, his answer was actually too mean. Especially that he'd have to be on Kirishima's good side if he really didn't want him to tell anyone out of spite.
Fuck.
Was he doing it right now?
With pounding heart, Katsuki quickly checked the group chat but- no. Kirishima wasn't there as well.
Katsuki stared at their private chat for few more seconds and finally typed out;
Blasty: But it's not like it was shit.
Shitty hair: Oh!!
Shitty hair: I'm happy you enjoyed it then!!! :D
Katsuki barely stopped himself from answering ‘I didn't enjoy shit, your friends are fucking awkward and boring’. He took a deep breath. He needed to stay calm. Katsuki was going to be nice to Kirishima and in exchange, Kirishima wouldn't say anything to anyone.
Yes. That was a good plan.
He'd just have to stick to it for the rest of their years at UA.
Shitty hair: do you maaaybe want to eat with us tomorrow as well? :>
… Kirishima wanted his company, huh?
Blasty: whatever
Shitty hair: :D!!
Blasty: I didn't say yes, shitty hair
Shitty hair: but you didn't say no!
Blasty: No.
Shitty hair: see you at school C:
Just those three fucking years.
Notes:
Y’all thought I forgot about the group chat? Ha. Sike.
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Up next; Kaminari fucking dies
Chapter 16: Apples and Oranges
Summary:
Taking names and kicking ass
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Eijirou almost couldn't believe it when at the beginning of a lunch break Bakugou was already standing next to his desk with his own bento box, looking at him with a frown.
“The hell you're staring at like that?” Bakugou asked him and lightly kicked his chair, as to urge him to move. “You fucking coming or what? Move your ass, Shitty hair.”
Eijirou finally stood up with a smile, at which Bakugou rolled his eyes.
“You know that Ashido, Kaminari and Sero will probably be there as well?” Eijirou asked in half whisper and looked at his group of mentioned friends who were already talking at the door. “Bubblegum, Horse smile and uhhhh the one… with yellow hair?” He added quickly, when he saw that Bakugou narrowed his eyes, and kept a smile of satisfaction to himself when he saw a shadow of realisation on Bakugou's face that was immediately replaced by an annoyed eye roll.
“You don't have to specify that every time…” He muttered and glanced at the group at the door.
Before, Eijirou would just assume that Bakugou simply hated the idea of spending this time with others. Now it was obvious for him that Bakugou just didn't know who he was talking about.
… This, and he probably still didn't really like to be with too many people at once. Eijirou read somewhere about it, but he wouldn't ask until Bakugou would bring this up himself.
Bakugou was still staring at him, one hand in a pocket of his pants, the other holding the box too tightly, as if he was nervous about something.
Eijirou vaguely wondered what he could be nervous about as he stood up and headed towards the door, Bakugou right beside him.
___
“So-” Katsuki looked up from his food to see the yellow haired guy pointing at him with chopsticks “-you enjoy cooking?”
Katsuki blinked, unimpressed. Was this idiot trying to make a small talk with him?
He noticed that Kirishima was glancing at the two of them, trying to be subtle, while Bubblegum and Horse smile lowered the volume of their conversation. Katsuki sighed, annoyed by nosiness of all those extras. He leaned back in his chair and crossed his arms on his chest.
“What if I do?” Katsuki asked and glared at the guy who only leaned forward and scanned his food.
“Is it tasty?”
Katsuki frowned and vaguely wondered how much someone paid him to try and talk to him.
“It is.” He answered shortly, because what else was he supposed to say?
The guy let out a low hum.
“Is it delectable?” He asked with strange, mischievous smile and Katsuki blinked few times, slightly surprised. “Or even exquisitely appetizing?”
Didn't he hear that stupid way of talking before?
“Okay,” Horse smile interrupted him with a frown of his own, “we get it, Mister Dictionary, you know a lot of words. Get to the point.”
Kirishima and Bubblegum snickered at the comment, while walking Dictionary huffed, yet a smile quickly reappeared on his face.
“Anyway!” He reached across the table to snatch some meat from Katsuki's bento.
“You're gonna fucking die.” Katsuki said almost calmly, as he made no move to try and stop him, which only caused that stupid walking Dictionary to stop for a second and stare at him. Katsuki was well aware that the lack of more explosive reaction surprised him, but he knew what was coming so he just glared at the guy.
This and the fact that Kirishima was there. He didn't want for his reason to tell others to be him yelling at his stupid friends. Didn't mean he couldn't have a little bit of fun.
Katsuki narrowed his eyes, almost with anticipation. In the corner of his eye, he saw Kirishima tilt an eyebrow at his behaviour, then he looked at the Dictionary guy as well, who opened his mouth, put the whole piece inside and started munching slowly. Then he stopped, his eyes widened and tears appeared in the corners of his eyes.
“WHAT THE HELL IS THAT-” He yelled and opened his mouth while Katsuki smirked.
“Ew, Kami no-” Bubblegum grabbed her food tray and moved it away from ‘Kami’, as he spat out all the meat he had in his mouth onto the table.
“Bakugou, what the hell is that? Poison?” Kirishima tried his best to not laugh at his friend who desperately tried to wipe all the spices from his tongue.
“Just some precautions for food thieves.” Katsuki shrugged and started eating again, ignoring the pleading eyes of the Dictionary guy.
“HOT- Milk- I beg-” He started coughing in a dramatic manner, his face going red.
“Serves you right.” Horse smile teased while not trying at all to hide his amusement.
“Traitor-”
“Oh gosh, what's going on?”
Katsuki looked up at the girls who stopped by their table, the invisible one who just spoke and the frog-like one. It seemed like both of them were done eating.
“Nothing much, just our resident idiot stealing food from the wrong people.” Horse smile snickered and continued eating, ignoring the continuous whining from mentioned idiot. “Apparently Bakugou here eats fire for lunch.”
“Hey, it's not my fault that this asshole steals food.” Katsuki flipped him off and reached for his glass of water, ignoring the slight fear in Horse smile's eyes.
Right, apparently drinking water with spicy food was something fucking strange.
Asshole.
“Well, Bakugou's right” Kirishima started slowly, staring at Katsuki's food thief with a grin. “Since no one forced you to steal from him, you had it cumin.”
Katsuki barely contained his snort. He had to hide his grin behind the glass, thanking all the forces out there that whatever sound he made drowned in the noise of the cafeteria and Bubblegum’s and invisible girl's laughter.
“Kirishima-chan, that was really bad.” The frog girl said with a finger on her chin while Bubblegum hit the table few times with her palm.
“So bad!!” And yet, she was still laughing.
“Mina-chan, we're on our way to the support department.” Frog girl said after the laughter died but before she could continue, the invisible one cut in.
“Yeah! For me! They made me the first prototype of the protective goggles and I want to try them out as soon as possible!” She jumped in place.
Katsuki didn't need to see her face to know she was clearly excited, though he did wonder about that whole deal with support gear. She apparently needed it for her eyes and he noticed Deku's sidekick using some bracelets as well. His mind went back to his talk with Aizawa, that he should visit the support department.
… should he? He knew all too well that there wasn't any real cure for his disorder, but maybe they could help?
“Ooooh! Right, for your hero costume!” Bubblegum’s voice disturbed his thoughts. “Sure, I'm coming!” She quickly ate the rest of her food and, while still munching on it, stood up and all three of them walked away.
Katsuki bit his tongue, too hard this time and his eyebrow twitched.
He didn't need any fucking support gear. He could do just fine.
“Guys please, I'm dying-”
“Dude, in this time you could have gone and get some milk twice already. At this point you're just being dramatic.” Horse smile cut in and he and Kirishima laughed again.
Katsuki took a deeper breath, glad no one was focusing on him at the moment, and proceeded to eat and ignore most of their further making fun of that idiot.
After all, he really had it-
Katsuki cleared his throat and bit the inside of his cheek to cover the stupid smile that threatened to appear on his face.
___
“As you already know-” Aizawa started as soon as he entered the class and everyone went silent “-next week you'll all start your internships. Unfortunately, you all already experienced the world of pros.” A murmur went through class and Katsuki recalled the USJ incident. “But of course actually working with heroes will be a more fruitful training. And now, not only will you need hero names, you'll need them to be appropriate-”
“Because if not, it'll be hell from here!” Woman's voice interrupted him. “The names you pick now-” Katsuki scanned the woman who walked into the class. Judging by the costume and her hair, it was Midnight. “In many cases, they stay that way after becoming pros!”
As if Katsuki didn't know that already.
Even though they were given fifteen minutes to think about their names, Katsuki knew exactly what he wanted.
No way there would be something wrong with his choice.
___
Katsuki almost couldn’t understand what was wrong with his choices. Sure, maybe the murder part was too much, but the play of words was fucking great! It wasn’t his fault that Midnight found it ‘inappropriate’ or some shit.
Still, he glared at his internship form that was only missing a hero name.
‘Something appropriate or nothing.’ She said as she left him alone in the class after the lesson ended.
“Oh, you're still thinking about that?” Katsuki heard a familiar voice. He turned and first thing he noticed was that wild shitty hairstyle.
“The fuck is it to you?” He frowned at Kirishima's snort.
“Aw, come on man-” He took a chair from a nearby desk and sat down next to him, resting one of his elbows on Katsuki's desk, cheek on his hand. “I know my other suggestion before wasn't that great…” Kirishima shrugged while looking to the side. “But uh- I could help you? If you want?” He still wasn't looking at Katsuki, but an awkward smile appeared on his face.
Other suggestion? Katsuki tried to recall if Kirishima said something earlier.
“Ah, when I yelled ‘Blasty McSplode’ and stuff…” Kirishima let out a nervous laughter and finally looked back at Katsuki.
Right. That was him.
Katsuki sighed and tapped his pen against that damn form.
‘Something appropriate or nothing.’
Fucking bullshit, what was it to her what kind of name he wanted to choose!? And she of all people was the one to talk; R-Rated Hero: Midnight for fuck's sake.
Still, they wouldn't approve of his form if he put in his first two choices so what the fuck he could do!?
“Soooo you like puns, right?” Kirishima said suddenly and smiled when Katsuki narrowed his eyes at him, sending a questioning look. “Your first choices for hero names are puns around your name, yeah?” Katsuki just stared at him. There was no way he’d admit to that. “And you totally laughed at my pun during lunch break!” He pointed at him, almost in an accusatory way.
“I FUCKING DIDN'T!” Katsuki yelled at him, few sparks going off from his hands, but Kirishima only leaned back in his chair, laughing himself.
“Alright! Sure, you didn't!” He waved off some smoke, toothy smile still on his face. “Then maybe something to do with bombs?” Kirishima said out of the blue while Katsuki was calming down.
“Hah?”
“You know, since you can't make a pun around your name, then maybe around your quirk!” He jumped with a bit of excitement, clearly proud of his idea.
“... I didn't ask for your fucking suggestion.” Katsuki said with a frown and looked back down at the form that was clearly mocking him.
“Ah, but listen! I have an idea!” Shitty hair nudged him in a shoulder and Katsuki clicked his tongue.
“Will you leave me the fuck alone if I let you tell me?” He sent him a glare and put his pen down when Kirishima nodded.
“Okay, so you know when there's like, some kind of a disaster site or an area of the aftermath of an explosion?” He mimicked the way Katsuki would release his quirk. Katsuki just continued to stare at him with blank expression. “Uh, there was a name for this! You could use it as your hero name!” Katsuki still just stared at him, biting his tongue to stop himself from smirking in amusement when he noticed how nervous Kirishima was getting. “I- uhh just wait a second, okay?” He pulled the phone out of his bag and started tapping hurriedly, clearly looking for something.
Katsuki of course knew exactly what Kirishima had in mind while trying to desperately explain what he meant. Didn't mean that it wasn't amusing to see him struggle and then give him an unimpressed look.
Still, Kirishima's idea was actually good, if Katsuki had to be honest. His pen hovered over the paper, so close to putting down that hero name his classmate came up with.
But that's when he stopped himself.
Right.
Since when did he care about ideas of some randoms? It was his future and there was no way he was going to give Shitty hair that satisfaction of somehow being a part of it.
“Ah, damn it!” Kirishima let out a frustrated groan as he put his phone down. “Kaminari would help, he knows all those words and terms.” He frowned and crossed his arms on his chest and Katsuki realised something.
Kaminari. Bubblegum calling the yellow haired guy ‘Kami’ during lunch break that talked as if reciting the whole-
“That walking dictionary guy?” Katsuki asked before he could stop himself.
He cursed in his head when Kirishima looked at him with widened eyes and slightly parted lips that stretched into a smile after few seconds passed.
“Yeah! Kaminari is the dictionary of our class! The one who almost died after trying your food!” He rised his open hand towards Katsuki. “Nice, Bakugou!”
Katsuki stared at him with a frown. Then his eyes wandered to the hand, still waiting for him, and back to Kirishima. He looked genuinely happy that Katsuki connected the dots and realised who he was talking about. As seconds passed, Kirishima's face still was happily excited, not knowing what awkwardness is, while still waiting for Katsuki to high five him.
Katsuki rolled his eyes, and as quick as he could, he did as Kirishima wanted.
Before Shitty hair could react more than just smiling happily at the returned gesture, he got distracted by a text message on his phone and got visibly more excited at whatever it said.
“Sorry, Bakubro.” He started as he put his phone in his bag and raised to his feet. “I need to go, my moms are here!” Kirishima was way more excited than anyone ever who was about to be picked up by their parents.
“... Whatever.” Katsuki said shortly and frowned when Kirishima only smiled more, not even trying to hide his happiness.
What the fuck was his deal?
“Good luck with your hero name!” Kirishima waved and practically sprinted out of the class. Katsuki heard someone reprimand him for running on the corridors and in few moments, the door slid open again.
“You're still here?”
Katsuki recognised his homeroom teacher with his binding cloth, unimpressed tone of voice and a tired frown.
Aizawa walked up to him and eyed his still incomplete form.
“So you didn't come up with anything better?”
Katsuki looked back down at the form with a frown on his own. Technically he did come up with something more ‘appropriate’. Except that he didn't. It wasn't his idea and he wasn't about to use it. So he stood up, picked up his bag, handed the form over to his teacher and left the class without a word.
As he was about to head towards the stairs, through one of the windows he saw some guy with red hair (Kirishima?) running through the gate, where right outside it two women were waiting for him. He picked up the one his height, who shared his hair colour, and spun around happily.
Huh.
If that was how he greets his mother, no wonder he was so stupidly excited about the text message. Katsuki clenched the hand that touched Kirishima's into a tight fist and frowned as he went down the stairs.
Once he managed to walk out of the school as well, there was no sign of Kirishima.
___
As Katsuki walked through the gate and towards his house, he stopped when he noticed a car driving up their driveway. His dad's car. Great. He was really hoping he wouldn't have to tell anyone about his amazing day. Still, he was a better option than that old hag who started showing signs of wanting to go back to bothering Katsuki after those silent days.
“Hey!” His dad greeted him as he got out of the car. “Can you help me with this?” He walked around the car and opened the trunk, taking out some big box. What it contained, Katsuki wasn't sure. And he didn't really care. “Material samples came, I had to go to the post office, those two were too big to deliver in person.”
“I didn't ask.” Katsuki rolled his eyes at his dad's short chuckle, put down his school bag at the front door as he opened it and walked up to the car. He picked up the bigger box with ease and immediately turned back towards the door, hearing old man's footsteps right behind him.
They headed upstairs, to the office and Katsuki had to put down the box to open the door for his dad, frowning at his thankful smile as he held the door open. He picked up the box again and entered the room as well.
“Put that on the desk, I'll go through it later.”
Katsuki did as he was asked, hoping that their interaction would end on that and he could lock himself in his room to pack some stuff for his internship.
Except that the old man had different plans, as he was going through the list to make sure all the right samples were in the first box.
“How was your day, Katsuki?” Shit. “You chose your internship today, right?” For fuck's sake. “Any lunches with extras?”
The word made Katsuki actually snort. He tried his best to ignore his dad's pleased smile as he checked off another thing on the list.
“My day was normal.” He said shortly, after successfully getting rid of his smile.
“That's good.” Short nod, as to encourage him to continue.
“I'm going to Best Jeanist's office.”
“Ohh, number 4 hero!” His dad sounded impressed. Good.
“And a guy died after stealing my food.” Katsuki finished with a sly grin that appeared at the memory of that idiot.
“That's go- wait.” Dad cut himself short, as if he just realised what Katsuki said.
Katsuki watched as his eyes widened, pen hovering over the list. He could almost hear the gears turning in his head when he glanced at Katsuki's now neutral face.
The fuck was his problem?
“OH!”
Katsuki almost jumped at sudden exclaim.
“You mean, your spicy food ‘killed him’.” A sigh of relief. “For a second I-”
“What, you thought I fucking beat up a guy!?” Katsuki felt angry all of a sudden. "Over fucking food!?"
“No, Katsuki, that's not what I meant-”
“Then what did you mean!?”
Silence.
That annoying, old man avoided his eyes and sighed, as in a form of apology.
“Wow dad, thank you very fucking much.”
“Katsuki, no I didn't-”
He didn't wait for him to finish. Katsuki turned and slammed the door behind him. Quick run down the stairs to get his bag and then back to his room.
… Of course everyone would expect him to ‘kill' a guy for something so stupid as stealing his food. Even earlier during that fucking lunch, he didn't fail to notice the slight shock on people's faces when he didn't outburst immediately after that fucking Dictionary stole his food.
Was Kirishima surprised just as much as the others?
Katsuki blinked, surprised.
Why the fuck did he think specifically about that shitty haired bastard?
After few moments, he realised that the answer was simpler than Katsuki thought it would be; obviously he had to make sure that Kirishima didn't have a reason to tell others. Simple as that.
But did it mean that even if Katsuki tried to not give Kirishima any reasons, he'd still find one thing or another about him that would make him tell anyway?
Katsuki rubbed his eyes tiredly and sighed, more than annoyed when he realised he probably smudged his stupid eyeliner. He was about to wash it off anyway in few moments, but it didn't change the fact that it was fucking annoying.
He went to the bathroom to get changed and wash off the mess he made on his eyelids.
___
As Katsuki was making a list of things to pack for the next week, he heard his phone buzz. He picked it up, already aware that it was probably that annoying group chat.
Bubblegum: hey hey what if we change our names here to our hero names??
Bubblegum: *wink wink*
Uraraka: oh! To get into the spirit of internships?
Bubblegum: yeah!
Horse smile: oh thank god yes please
For fuck's sake no-
Ojirou: Sero, why didn't you just change your name back?
Shoji: I was wondering too
Ojirou: Yeah like… you know you can change your own nickname in the chat, right?
Kaminari: L M A O
Yaomomo: Sero-san…
Ellen: I still don't know who Ellen is, the change would be nice
Bubblegum: … I honestly don't remember changing your name to ellen nksvldflsfjd
Yaomomo: This is getting out of hand...
Horse smile: …..
Horse smile: Yaoyorozu I beg you, take away the admin privileges from that madwoman
Too much. That was already too fucking much for Katsuki. As stupid as it sounded, he'd prefer if they stayed with their names, at least he'd learn them at some point. … Probably not, he still didn't care. But then at least two of them had the nicknames he came up with but now-
Pinky: THERE <3
Tailman: I feel like I'm already at the internship!
Cellophane: Finally…
Creati: Very nice idea, Ashido-san.
Creati: Ah, I mean Pinky
Pinky: <3 <3 <3
Very shit idea-
Wait. What about Katsuki, he didn't choose his name.
Blasty McSplode: …
Tsukuyomi: Ah, the screaming abyss.
Chargebolt: CNDKFKSKJFKE AHAHAHAHAHHA
Cellophane: I DIDN'T EXPECT YOU TO SAY THAT
Blasty McSplode: Are you fucking kidding me?
Pinky: Baku, Kiri's suggestion was great! I thought you'd use that!
Blasty McSplode: WHO IN THEIR RIGHT FUCKING MIND WOULD USE THAT SHIT
Pinky: @Red Riot look!
Red Riot: oooh hero names!! Cool!!!
Red Riot: …. pfffff Blasty, I thought you didn't like this one
Blasty McSplode: Kirishima, you fucking bastard, it wasn't me
Red Riot: oh
Red Riot: …OH HEY I SWEAR I DIDN'T KNOW SHE'D DO THAT
Red Riot: ASHIDO PLEASE
Pinky: COME ON, RIOT, IT'S PINKY NOW
Froppy: Getting into internships spirit, I see
Bakugou: fucking whatever assholes
Pinky: awww why'd u change it back
Invisible Girl: yeah it was cute :(
Shouto: at least it wasn't a real name
Chargebolt: a real name you say….
Shouto: what
Chargebolt: …. aiduiefjjdafiks nothing
… Fucking entitled assholes with their hero names and stupid group chat and fucking Midnight who makes a problem out of nothing and his fucking dad who-
Katsuki heard a knock on his door and he realised there was a bit of smoke coming out of his clenched fists. He tried to relax and disperse the smoke before opening the door, but whoever it was that knocked, spoke to him through it first.
“Katsuki-” his dad's voice “-I need to talk to you.”
He took a deep breath and walked up to the door, just to lock it in as loud and obvious way as he possibly could.
“... Alright, I deserve it.” Dad stated with heavy sigh. “Can you at least listen to me?”
“No.” Katsuki said shortly, walked back to his desk and put on his All Might themed headphones that he'd only use at home. He turned on some loud music, no care if his dad was actually talking from the other side or not.
He had better things to do.
___
Between checking the stupid chat for Kirishima’s messages and avoiding both of his parents while packing for the internship, Katsuki didn't have much time during the weekend for anything else than that. He had to admit, he was kind of surprised to notice that Kirishima wasn’t as active as usual during the weekend and didn't even text him once. He picked up this stupid habit, after the USJ, to text him multiple times a day, even if Katsuki would often ‘leave him on read’, as he had called it.
… Did he get bored?
Katsuki was annoyed at himself that this thought somehow bothered him. He tried to explain to himself that Kirishima was probably just as busy getting ready for his internship, but since almost everyone else was active in this fucking chat then… What if he was planning on telling someone?
“Hey, Bakugou! You ready man?” Someone greeted him just as he was about to enter a train station.
Katsuki looked at the guy, scanning him and his stupid red hair and a scar on his eye, as well as his sharp teeth.
___
“Shitty hair.” Bakugou greeted him in his own way after Eijirou gave him few seconds to recognize him and he couldn't help but smile more at that.
He was in a great mood. He got to spend a weekend with both of his moms and he was about to go on the week long internship with a manly hero who specifically sent an offer for him.
It was going to be perfect!
“Who did you choose for your internship?” Eijirou asked as he and Bakugou entered the train station. He noticed Aizawa with few students already.
“Best Jeanist.” Bakugou said with no enthusiasm in his voice.
“Woah, you got an offer from number 4 hero!? That's so cool!” Eijirou patted his shoulder and realised his mistake as soon as Bakugou glared at him. “Sorry-”
“Whatever.” He cut him short. He seemed to notice their group as well and quickened his pace, Eijirou right behind him.
While Bakugou stood slightly in the back, Eijirou caught up with his friends, yet still noticed how Bakugou was piercing him with his eyes.
“I tell you, it's lust.” Ashido whispered subtly and Eijirou's cheeks turned red.
“Stop it.”
“Two weeks.” She shrugged and walked to the front to other girls, leaving frustrated Eijirou alone.
Why.
Eijirou sighed, but he wasn't about to let it ruin his good mood. He straightened his back and listened to their teacher's short speech about safety and their hero costumes. His hand squeezed around the handle of his case where his costume was and Eijirou smiled to himself.
He was about to officially enter the world of pros for the first time.
After Aizawa was done talking, they all went to their platforms and waited for trains. Eijirou found himself with Bakugou, although he most possibly was waiting for a different train. He could see Todoroki few metres away from them, going to his father's agency, but it was obvious he didn't want any company at the moment.
Eijirou didn't really know what to talk about. Bakugou didn't seem too eager to talk about internships and now that Eijirou thought about it…
Was it because he didn't choose a hero name, even after having the whole weekend?
“Hey Bakugou-” he spared Eijirou a glance “-did you choose a hero name after all?”
“... No.” There was a frown on Bakugou's face, yet it wasn't angry. It was more like he was almost disappointed in himself.
“... What about Blasty?” Eijirou snickered when Bakugou's expression changed into a surprised one and he turned to him with his usual frown.
“The fuck?”
“For your hero name!”
“Only if you'll start using ‘Shitty hair’.”
Eijirou couldn't help but let out a laugh at that.
“Yeah, that's not gonna happen man..”
“Fucking exactly.” Bakugou fixed a grip on his bag and looked at the upcoming train, still not his or Eijirou's, and sighed annoyed.
“... Trash bomb?” Eijirou stiffened a laugh when he heard a small explosion go off from his hand.
“Fuck you.”
“TNT LIKE THE SONG!” He laughed and expected another outburst, but instead Bakugou opened his mouth, closed it and looked like he was seriously considering it. “... Wait, you actually like it?”
“NO.” He said too quickly and Eijirou got himself an elbow to the side.
Somehow, it made him even happier, his smile getting bigger.
He noticed Todoroki staring at the two of them and waved. Bakugou's head shot towards him as well and he quickly moved away from Eijirou. He vaguely wondered if Bakugou knew who was looking at them just now.
“... That's Half face.” Eijirou whispered and felt a bit of discomfort while saying this nickname. He'd have to convince Bakugou to change it to something else…
“... Whatever.” Bakugou muttered without looking at him.
They stayed in awkward silence until there was a signal for an incoming train. Eijirou's train.
“I guess we'll see again in a week?” Eijirou offered as a way of saying his goodbyes. Bakugou just glanced at him, that unsure frown on his face again. He almost looked like he wanted to say something.
The train stopped, people slowly coming out and those on the platform going inside.
Eijirou knew he was supposed to move, but something about Bakugou's expression after he told him it was Todoroki earlier made him stay in place. He took a step towards the train, he still had few seconds, people still going in.
Was this actually about Bakugou's thing? Did he think he was gonna tell someone?
“Hey.” Eijirou wanted his attention and luckily, Bakugou actually looked at him with deepened frown. “Trust me, Bakugou.”
He got onto the train, and right before the doors closed behind him, he turned and saw Bakugou's surprised expression.
Eijirou smiled and waved with wide grin.
He really hoped that Bakugou would have as much fun as Eijirou was going to have.
Notes:
Yes, I know Kiri's hair is not naturally red, let me live, I have plans for this~
Bit more fluff before all the shitstorm that is about to come ;3c
Look at beautiful art by Spvce I commissioned for ch15!!! HHHHHHHH MINA IS MY QUEEN
Here's my tumblr, come scream with me about these idiot boys
Up next; Not as much fun after all
Chapter 17: Not his element
Summary:
I hate Tetsu's name
Notes:
Warning: in this story, starting from this chapter, I will be portraying Best Jeanist as behaving like an emotionally abusive mother figure (specifically; Mother Knows Best). Please proceed with caution.
On the side note, Idk where the kids slept during internships, let's just say that some of them were close enough to go back homes, the rest were put in some hotel rooms or shit, ok thank, enjoy
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
“I'll be honest. I don't like you.” Best Jeanist, who was standing with his back to Katsuki, greeted him with those words the moment he stepped into the hero's office at his agency.
“... huh?” That was all Katsuki could utter at the moment. He was used to people not liking him, but a pro hero who's never met him before?
“And I know for sure that you chose my agency only because I'm one of the top five heroes. Is that correct?”
Katsuki clenched his hands.
“You're the one who sent an offer in the first place!”
“Indeed.” He finally turned to face Katsuki. “So far I've had no trouble with my interns and sidekicks, all of them are well-behaved and great examples of heroes-” and they all fucking look the same , Katsuki added in his head “-so you're the first one in a while to be a bit more…” Best Jeanist eyed him as he fixed the bangs of his hair in front of his face. “Ferocious.”
Katsuki's eye twitched in rising annoyance.
“I watched you during the sports festival.” He continued, ignoring Katsuki's angry glare. “You have no trouble controlling your quirk and you could make a good sidekick. But despite all of that you have one fatal flaw. You believe that you're the strongest person out there and because of that...” The hero scanned Katsuki again and looked him in the eyes. “You're just too brutal.”
Katsuki painfully clenched his teeth. He tried his best not to snap on the spot, well aware it would just prove his point but-
“Don't tell me…” He started as he walked towards Best Jeanist. “Did you draft me just to give me a fucking lecture or-”
Katsuki suddenly couldn't move, his legs, arms, almost whole body restrained by something and his mind screaming immediately.
Breathe. Katsuki reminded himself when he gathered that there wasn't anything around his neck. Deep breath, you can still breathe, don't panic, idiot. Stop shaking-
“My job as a hero is reforming people like you.” Best Jeanist said before Katsuki could fully calm down.
Don't show him your weakness.
Katsuki tried to struggle against the fibers Best Jeanist was using, to no use. All he could do was glare at the hero.
“Heroes and villains are two sides of the same coin, and you…” Hero pulled slightly on the fibers, fastening them more on Katsuki's body.
Katsuki forced himself to stay still. Tried his best to breathe steadily and to not start shaking all over again. He held the gaze with Best Jeanist’s.
Don't let him win.
“You are dangerously close to falling on the wrong side.”
Katsuki stopped moving, all thoughts in his head going silent. All he could do was stare blankly at the hero.
“Your brutal and violent behaviour is villainous.”
Katsuki bit the inside of his cheek.
“You're like an animal, a wild beast, and I intend to tame you, even if it means breaking you. I swear that it's all for the best.”
Katsuki tasted some blood on his tongue.
“After all, you're supposed to cut off the bruised and rotten parts of a fruit. The spirit of a youth is no different."
Katsuki felt sick.
“I'll teach you what it really means to be a proper hero.”
Katsuki wanted to ask what he wanted to do and how exactly, but any sounds died in his throat. Best Jeanist's words were ringing too loud in his head to allow him to think about anything else. He just wanted to escape this situation.
By sheer willpower, he forced himself to relax enough so that Best Jeanist would think he calmed down. The plan worked, as Katsuki felt the fibers loosening up and then fully retreat.
He swallowed a knot in his throat as he straightened his back, barely stopping himself from rubbing the places that fibers clenched on too tightly.
“We'll have a really busy week.”
Something about those words, made Katsuki sweat.
___
After this seemingly never ending day, wasted on Best Jeanist giving him useless lectures about proper behaviour and attire, Katsuki finally got back to his room in some small hotel that UA was paying for. He kicked off his shoes and left his bag on the only chair that was in the room. He grabbed a towel that was lying on a pillow, went to the bathroom and walked up to a sink.
As Katsuki was washing his hands, he looked up and stared at the guy in front of him.
Light blond hair, pale skin, furrowed eyebrows, red eyes and leftover, smudged eyeshadow after wearing his mask for most of the day.
Yep. That's still you and that's a mirror, not a stranger in your bathroom. Katsuki snorted, then scoffed with humorless grin and sighed as he turned off the water and wiped his hands dry.
He reluctantly looked back into the mirror and stared into his own eyes.
‘You are dangerously close to falling on the wrong side.’
Katsuki's breath hitched the moment he remembered those words.
Maybe… Best Jeanist was right.
They've never met before, but just by observing Katsuki, he immediately saw a villain in him. Like most of the people around him.
… If not everyone.
Katsuki realized he's been glaring at his own reflection. His eyes widened, he loosened his frowned eyebrows and looked at his now softer features.
‘You're supposed to cut off the bruised and rotten parts of a fruit.’
Among many others, his glare was one of those parts, probably.
Katsuki wasn't the biggest fan of staring at himself in the mirror, examining his reflection and all the features of his face. There was no real point in it after all, since he wouldn't remember them anyway, but once he got closer to the mirror, he examined his forehead. Once he noticed a very faint line between his eyebrows, most possibly from frowning all the time, he bit his lower lip, anger rising in him, and raised his fist to the mirror.
‘Your brutal and violent behaviour is villainous.’
He stopped himself from hitting the mirror at the last second, suddenly aware of what he was doing, but having no idea as to why.
His legs gave up and he sat down heavily on the tiles. Katsuki remembered the feeling of fibers around his legs and arms and it was almost like they were there again. Trying his best to keep his breathing levelled, he touched the scar on the back of his head.
You're villainous.
Katsuki stared at his hand and flinched when few sparks went off.
Fuck.
Why the fuck would he flinch? His quirk wasn't scary, at least not to him, so why?
Katsuki tried to convince himself that it was this damned hero's fault. Planting those thoughts into his brain, making Katsuki think of himself as a villain, but-
He was already aware of that, wasn't he?
Those thoughts weren't new. They were always somewhere in the back of his head, taunting him and waiting to come up again to the surface at the worst times.
Katsuki pulled his knees to his chest and tried to hide his face between them, tried to hide from the world. At least he was alone in the first place. No one could see him in this pathetic state-
Sound of a text message from the other room made him freeze in place. He ignored it, choosing to just stay in the bathroom like pathetic idiot that he was. There was another one after few minutes and Katsuki frowned.
Get lost.
But just as his thoughts, whoever was texting him wouldn't get lost as well.
Katsuki took a deep breath and slowly got up to his feet to leave the bathroom and without even looking who sent him the messages, he silenced his phone.
He didn't have time or energy for talking.
___
Katsuki came to the agency early, so he had plenty of time to change into his hero costume and actually check all the messages he didn't bother to look at the night before.
There were several texts in the group chat from various people. He still had no clue as to who was who, besides fucking Deku and knowing that Kirishima was ‘Red Riot’.
… And well, he wasn't gonna lie about the Invisible Girl, since she was pretty transparent.
Katsuki snorted and continued going through his phone. He tilted his eyebrow when he noticed there were also a few messages from Kirishima, directly to him. Katsuki's finger hovered above the notification for few seconds before he tapped on it to see what he had sent.
Shitty hair: how was your first day bro!
Shitty hair: ah I guess with #4 it was pretty exhausting, you must be asleep already
Shitty hair: but mine was pretty cool! aND I'M NOT ALONE!!! LOOK WHO'S WITH MEE
Shitty hair: [file attached]
Katsuki frowned and opened the picture. He stared at the ‘selfie’ for few solid seconds, trying to analyse it.
It showed two people, guys. One had familiarly styled red hair, as well as a scar on his right eyelid and a bright smile, wide enough to show off those ridiculously sharp teeth. Obviously Kirishima. But the other.. Katsuki honestly had no idea who the fuck was that supposed to be. He had similar sharp teeth to Kirishima's so what, his cousin or some shit?
… Could it be that Kirishima was mocking him?
Katsuki honestly didn't like that thought, something clenching in his throat the longer he stared at the picture.
Blasty: You honestly expect me to know who the fuck that is?
“I appreciate you coming early, but I'd rather you didn't text your girlfriend while at my office.”
Katsuki turned quickly and recognised Best Jeanist, thanks to him already being in his full hero attire, obviously judging him and staring pointedly at his phone.
Only after few seconds did Katsuki realise what the hell did he just say.
“I'M NOT TEXTING MY GIRLFRIEND!” He yelled and threw his phone into his locker, slamming it immediately and staring at the pro, just waiting for another lecture about screaming.
“This applies to boyfriends too.” He said as he put what seemed like a folded pair of light blue jeans on a bench. “Put these on. You're one of my interns and you are not only to act properly, but look so as well.” Best Jeanist eyed Katsuki's baggy pants and turned, closing the door as he left the room.
Again, Katsuki needed few moments to realise what he implied.
He wanted to yell again, that he wasn't texting a fucking boyfriend either, but that would just bring the attention of the whole fucking agency.
… And would probably make him look guilty as charged.
Instead, he looked at the folded jeans on the bench as if he was about to get attacked by them. Katsuki slowly grabbed them and stared them down, grimacing once he noticed how tight those fucking jeans probably were going to be on his legs.
Great.
Tight clothes, last thing he fucking needed, but at least it wasn't a scarf or some shit.
He took a deep breath and quickly changed into the damn jeans.
And of course he was right. They were tight and once he tried to stretch in them, Katsuki realized he probably wasn't going to jump around as quickly and freely with the use of his quirk.
Katsuki sighed. He could just blow this thing up and pretend it was an accident, but that would probably end with Best Jeanist giving him another lecture and Katsuki being restrained again and-
Unpleasant shiver went down his spine at the thought of that.
He settled on slamming the door as he left the locker room as well, glaring at Best Jeanist's clones as he walked past them in the corridors. Katsuki slightly hoped that one of them was actually the hero himself, but he knew that the actual man was much taller than his sidekicks, and his clothes were completely made of that jeans material.
The moment he stepped into Best Jeanist's office, judging by the look he got from him, Katsuki knew that the hero was about to complain about him yelling before again and glaring at his little clone army.
He'd just have to handle another few hours of being called a villain to his face.
___
Katsuki wholeheartedly hated that he was right about basically being called a villain, wild animal and several other things numerous times for most of the day. One could argue that Best Jeanist didn't straight up say anything offensive to him, but the fact that it was just said in more elaborate way, didn't change anything.
Technically, it was nothing compared to hearing it multiple times throughout his life behind his back but…
Katsuki's hands clenched.
Don't think about this now. Not here.
He took a deep breath, opened his locker and grabbed his phone. Up until now, Katsuki didn't have a moment to check and he honestly hoped that Kirishima answered his message from this morning. Those texts were the only normal thing for him at the moment and-
Wait, fuck no! He didn't hope for any messages from anyone! Why the fuck- Where the fuck did that thought even come from!?
He was about to put his phone back down, but at the same time he got a message. Katsuki ignored how stupid he felt about how eager he was to check who it was from.
Shitty hair: ITS TETSU, HES FROM CLASS B
Shitty hair: IM SORY I FORFOTAGAIN DUDE IT WASN'T ON PURSPOSE I SWEAD
And Katsuki snorted. Then covered his grin behind his hand. Because even though that idiot was apparently with someone from their school, he forgot again and Katsuki wouldn't have to worry about him telling anyone.
… He forgot again.
Katsuki couldn't help that stupid smile that stretched widely on his face.
“I told you, no texting with boyfriends while you're here.”
Katsuki's head snapped to the entrance and, once again, he recognised Best Jeanist's hero costume and his stupid hair.
Then he realised what he said again.
“I DON'T HAVE A BOYFRIEND!”
“No surprise, with that attitude.”
Katsuki clicked his tongue at the tone of hero's voice.
‘That attitude.’ What fucking attitude!? He could get a fucking boyfriend if he wanted to!
… Could he?
“Tomorrow I want to see you in those jeans,” he put a new, darker pair on a bench, despite Katsuki already wearing one. “These are a better fit for you and maybe having a choice more suiting your... unfortunate taste will inspire you to be more polite.” Best Jeanist turned and was about to leave when something struck Katsuki.
“You sure like to talk about proper manners for someone who hasn't got any.”
“Excuse me?” Best Jeanist turned back to him with raised eyebrow, as if he wanted to ask Katsuki how dare you speak to me like that.
“You heard me. You talk my ear off with your little lectures about manners, and despite that, you don't know how to knock?” Katsuki barely contained his smirk when he noticed hero's eye twitch. “Isn't it polite to knock and wait for a permission to enter?”
For a split second, seeing the look in Best Jeanist's eyes, Katsuki honestly thought he was going to get restrained again. He braced for the attack, his shoulders tense and teeth clenched.
Then Best Jeanist simply coughed and turned away while straightening his too high collar.
“I'll keep your preference in mind for the future.” As he slowly walked back to the door, he continued, “but remember that I do know what's best in terms of your behavior, and I do want the best for you Bakugou. That is why I'm so hard on you." With those words, he finally left.
Katsuki waited for few seconds before he let himself relax, and even after that time he had some trouble with it. More on instinct than anything, he grabbed his wrist where there were fibers the day before and rubbed slow circles with his thumb, trying to get rid of that strange phantom feeling.
Deep breath.
Just few more days.
___
Shitty hair: Bakugou, for real, that wasn't on purpose! D:
Katsuki, at the door to his room, smirked as he quickly realised that Kirishima meant his earlier message and a picture he sent.
The thought of messing with Kirishima some more was a tempting one, but Katsuki was aware that it could just make Kirishima want to actually spill the tea. He decided to let it slide.
Kind of.
Blasty: Are you always like that?
Shitty hair: like what??
Blasty: Brainless idiot?
Shitty hair: SNKCKFFNKD NO???
Blasty: seriously, sometimes it's like you have hair for brains
Shitty hair: djfkffgndkdndknf come on man, that wasn't on purpose! DD:<
Blasty: One day, something you'll do ‘not on purpose’ is gonna get yourself killed
Shitty hair: :C
Blasty: Don't fucking :C me, I'm right
Shitty hair: !!!!! yoU USED AN EMOJI :D!
Blasty: I WAS QUOTING YOU, YOU FUCK
Shitty hair: too late for any excuses, I already have it saved! >:D
Blasty: Fuck you
Shitty hair: no way of denying it~
Shitty hair: ah sorry, I don't have time to talk more, we have an evening patrol! Until later! :D
Oh for fuck's sake… Everyone except for Katsuki had patrols. Of course. Because Best Jeanist wouldn't let Katsuki go out if he wasn't ‘presentable’ for the outside world.
Or rather for any press, because it seemed like that was all Best Jeanist cared about. Public opinion.
Katsuki ended up not even answering to Kirishima, who probably already went on that patrol, thus the lack of any more messages from him. That was to be expected. And that was why Katsuki was surprised to hear his phone again after few hours, while he was already lying in bed, ready to sleep.
He grimaced at the bright screen of his phone and cursed himself for forgetting to silence it in the first place. Katsuki didn't even register the time once he saw who exactly sent him the message.
Deku.
What in the everlasting fuck did he want at this hour and why from Katsuki of all people!?
From Katsuki!
He fully intended on just ignoring the message, but in the end, curiosity won and he opened it to see that Deku… sent him his location? What?
Not even a second later and another notification popped up, this time from the group chat.
Katsuki tapped on it, seeing it was from Kirishima.
Red Riot: [location attached]
Red Riot: guys, it's from Midoriya! I don't know what's this about but uhh maybe it's important??
Sugarman: I hope it's nothing serious, I'm too far away to help
Cellophane: he sent it to me too??
Creati: @Midoriya Izuku are you alright? Do you need help?
Shouto: pN MU WSY
Pinky: whaaa
Chargebolt: I shall translate
Chargebolt: *coughs*
Earphone Jack: “On my gay”
Chargebolt: OH COME ON, THAT WAS MY LINE
Earphone Jack: You're taking too long.
Pinky: on one hand, I know that's not what he said, on the other…
Earphone Jack: tis boy gay
Pinky: tis boy very gay
Invisible Girl: *nods* ;>
Cellophane: we're all forgetting about Midoriya…..
Invisible Girl: Oh! :o Umm… maybe he sent it by accident? ;s
Sugarman: I hope that's the case
Earphone Jack: he'll probably just end up with broken arm again or sth
Creati: Jirou-san…
Katsuki snorted at Jirou's comment and finally silenced the chat, the talk seemingly heading to more Deku-centered, which just no thanks.
Before he fell asleep, he did wonder what the fuck that broccoli was doing. And where , since Katsuki remembered that he was one of those who didn't get any internships offered to them.
He grimaced.
Fucking Deku, he'd rather think about Shitty hair than that useless bastard.
… No.
Fuck this.
It was too fucking late to have these strange, stupid thoughts anyway, so Katsuki rolled onto his side and tried his best to fall asleep. He really hoped that the next day would be better.
___
Katsuki wanted to go home.
He could accept partial change of his hero costume; Best Jeanist gave him those stupidly tight jeans, took away his mask (“It only brings out your angry glare.” ) and forbid him from bringing his gauntlets (“Those are too dangerous and make you look even more brutal.” ).
But change of his hair, that he kept the same on purpose for years?
“Sit still.” Best Jeanist commanded when Katsuki tried to move away from a comb in his hand.
Fuck you. Katsuki wanted to say, but of course that wouldn't end well for him. He didn't have much choice, but to bite his tongue, clench his hands and try to control rising panic over being held from behind by his head, as Best Jeanist continued to comb his hair.
Katsuki hoped that they'd finally leave this fucking agency and go on a patrol, especially after Best Jeanist addressed his concerns about the whole Hosu mess, but no. Because when he could send his sidekicks on patrols, he could take care of more important matters. And what was more important for great Fiber Hero Best Jeanist was that Katsuki had his hair styled ‘properly’.
And what fucking choice did Katsuki have if not sit and wait until this hell was over?
All of a sudden, Best Jeanist forced his head forward so he'd have better access to hair on the back.
“For fuck's sake-”
“Language. When will you learn-” Best Jeanist went to reprimand him, but that's when the combing halted and Katsuki's eyes widened as he held his breath.
He noticed it.
“... Did you have some kind of an accident?” Best Jeanist let go of his head and Katsuki immediately used the moment to stand up and turn to face the hero.
“... That's-” Katsuki didn't expect to have this conversation with anyone. Ever.
He glanced at the few of Best Jeanist's little clones.
Especially not in front of an audience.
“I-” Katsuki found himself at a loss of words. “This isn't-” A knot in his throat made it hard to breathe.
Fuck, why was talking so hard all of a sudden?!
“It looks like your scar is from some kind of an explosion, am I correct?”
Katsuki just knew that this was one of those rhetorical questions, well aware that the hero in front of him probably provided the answer for himself already.
“Care to elaborate on that matter, Bakugou?”
Best Jeanist eyed him and Katsuki could swear he heard a snicker from someone. He barely stopped himself from glaring again, instead, Katsuki settled on clenching his jaw.
“It's a private matter.” He hissed, managing not to curse. “So no.” Katsuki held his breath, somehow afraid of the kind of the reaction he might meet with.
“... I see.” Something in Best Jeanist's tone threw Katsuki off. He expected to be called out on his behaviour at least and get restrained at most, but the hero just walked over to his desk and put down the damn comb. “We're done for now, I must take care of something. Ask my assistant if he needs help organising paperwork, I will send someone for you after I'm done so we can fight that terrible hair of yours again.” He didn't spare him a single glance as he sat down at his desk and picked up a phone. Katsuki just hurriedly left the room.
As he made his way through corridors, he stopped and touched his scar.
Was it that noticeable? He didn't really have a way to look at it himself, but for years he was sure that it wasn't visible under his hair. But again, Best Jeanist got uncomfortably close, it was only a matter of time before he noticed it.
And now Katsuki had to go and help someone with fucking paperwork. Because what, he didn't want to talk about an accident with his own fucking quirk?
He knew exactly how this would end; with Best Jeanist telling him how he should be more careful with that kind of quirk.
Like everyone else.
Katsuki really wanted to go home.
___
Shouta stared at his phone and at the unknown number that was trying to get him to pick up for the fourth time in a row.
Persistent, he had to admit.
He had full intentions of ignoring the caller until they'd get bored, but a text message from Hizashi that simply said ‘ pls pick up man’ made him reconsider. Foolishly, it also made him believe that it was the loud, annoying man himself calling from different number for some reason. And of course he was wrong, because once he picked up, familiar yet rather unwelcome voice greeted him;
“Eraserhead.”
“Best Jeanist.” Shouta answered in a cold tone. Talking to number 4 hero was the last thing he wanted to do at this moment. “Where'd you get my private number from.” Despite asking, he already knew that Hizashi probably was at fault.
“Present Mic was kind enough to forward it to me.”
Of course.
Shouta frowned. He was going to have to change his number again.
“And to what do I owe the honour?”
“Please, there's no need for such tone.” There was shuffling of some papers on the other end. “I'm not calling to remind you that you should show up in the magazines more often and work on your overall appearance.”
“And yet, you just did exactly that.” Shouta pointed out and didn't miss the slightly annoyed cough from Best Jeanist.
“Anyway-” he started in a tone that indicated he didn't want to continue this topic. Not that Shouta would be sad about it. “It's about my intern, Bakugou Katsuki, no alias.”
Shouta blinked, and to his own surprise, the fact that Best Jeanist realised that Bakugou was hiding something didn't shock him in a slightest.
“Is there something I should know?” Number 4's voice was impatient. The hero himself probably already figured from Shouta's too long silence that there was something he should have been told about. “Or did principal Nezu decide not to mention anything for the sake of the boy?”
From the tone of his voice, Shouta could tell that Best Jeanist didn't actually know what was it that Nezu hid from him about Bakugou.
Subtly, he took a deep breath.
“Why would there be anything in the first place?” He said in his usual, steady voice.
“Well, since you did ask-” Oh, Shouta was going to regret it. “I believe that his behaviour didn't come from nowhere. I noticed him calling my sidekicks ‘clones’, although they are rather distinctive from one another and I can't help but wonder if this has something to do with his strange reaction upon me asking about his scar.”
Wait-
“What scar?” Shouta asked, actually surprised, as he didn't know anything about that.
“... I see.” Though Best Jeanist must have thought it was him lying about the matter, judging by his strangely stoical reaction.
There was another long pause that tempted Shouta to just hang up, but he stopped himself, well aware that if he were to meet with Best Jeanist in the near future, he wouldn't hear the end of it.
“I invited Bakugou to try and reform him, but if I don't know what the real problem is and he's obviously too proud to say anything, I'm afraid I won't be able to do much. To be frank, I'd preferably sent him home already, but it wouldn't look good in the eyes of the public. For now, duty calls. Until next time, Eraserhead.” Best Jeanist hung up without giving him a chance to say anything.
Shouta put his phone down and sighed heavily, rubbing his tired eyes.
It was obvious that Bakugou wasn't really ready to accept any kind of support gear, but if his case was this serious and he were to continue acting like a stubborn kid about it, then Shouta had no choice. Even if he didn't want to do this… He'd have to force Bakugou to face the fact that he actually needed some help.
He decided that he might as well get a move on with his plan.
___
Back in his room, Katsuki grimaced at the sight of his slightly flattened hair. It wasn't anywhere near the effect Best Jeanist wanted to achieve, but it was already… different. Strange and somehow alien to Katsuki. He tried to mess it up but to no avail.
Katsuki closed his eyes and rested his forehead against the cold surface of a mirror.
Fuck, did he want this week to be over already, but there were still those few days left… Few days he'd have to spend alone.
Katsuki opened his eyes, backed away from the mirror and frowned at his reflection. There was no need for him to sulk in this stupid bathroom, not like he could do anything about his hair at the moment. He walked back to his room and glared at the pair of jeans he left on a chair. If he could, he would burn them, but that was out of the question. Instead, he sat down heavily on a bed just to fall onto his back and mindlessly stare at the ceiling.
After few moments, Katsuki reached and touched his scar. He couldn't help but wonder if Best Jeanist figured something out, even if he knew that was ridiculous. Who would make a connection between his scar and… anything really? Then again, he did suddenly say he had to ‘take care of something’. Did that something was about Katsuki? Did he call someone? His parents? Someone from school? Aizawa or Nezu? Did he ask about him? Did they tell him all about-
Katsuki gasped in surprise when a sound of a new message disturbed his thoughts. One last time, he tucked at his hair and rolled onto his side to reach for his phone that was resting on a nightstand.
Dad: Hey Katsuki, how's your internship? You were supposed to call us! We heard about Hosu, good thing you were far away from that mess!
Katsuki: it's shit
Katsuki frowned. He really didn't want to talk to his parents.
Then another message came in and Katsuki rolled his eyes, but bit back a sigh of relief when he saw it was just Kirishima this time.
Shitty hair: heeeey Baaaakugou :>
Blasty: get to the point, I'm not in the mood
Shitty hair: aw why bro
Was Kirishima seriously expecting an answer?
Yeah, fuck that, he wasn't gonna complain about his shitty internship to Shitty hair, of all people.
He noticed a notification of another message, again from his father.
Dad: It can't be that bad!
Katsuki rubbed his eyes tiredly. Can't be that bad his ass.
Blasty: I want to go home
He typed back and buried his face in a pillow. Fuck, was he tired. At this point he just hoped that his dad wouldn't ask too many annoying questions and just assume that he was being sarcastic.
Another message came and Katsuki blinked few times in slight confusion when he saw it wasn't from the old man.
Shitty hair: wow dude, are you okay? Something wrong??
What.
Why?
…. Wait-
Katsuki's heart stopped as he realised he sent his miserable message to Kirishima.
Fuck.
Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fucking shit FUCK-
“FUCK!”
He immediately sat up on the bed, trying to figure out what to answer, million thoughts at the time. His fucking pride was on the line and Katsuki felt that no matter what excuse he'd come up with, Kirishima wouldn't believe him.
But did he really have to come up with an excuse? After all, it was just Kirishima.
Kirishima who already knew his biggest secret and so far didn't say anything to anyone and Katsuki almost wanted to just finally talk to someone about how big of an asshole Best Jeanist was but…
Katsuki stared at his phone, saw Kirishima was typing but after few long minutes passed, he ended up not sending anything. It was like he was giving Katsuki a signal that he wasn't gonna push.
But if he had to be honest, he'd really appreciate that push. That little signal that Kirishima was willing to listen and not make fun of him. That he wouldn't agree with the things Best Jeanist said about Katsuki. But that was the thing. For some real comfort, Katsuki would have to tell Kirishima all the stuff he's been through these last few days. The things he's been called on a daily basis now. How terrible he felt when Best Jeanist restrained him. When he forced him to change his appearance.
Katsuki clenched his phone in his hand and tried to even out his breathing.
Fuck. Why are you so pathetic!?
He couldn't say any of that stuff! That would show Kirishima how weak he was, how easy it was for that damn hero to break him!
… But he's been so fucking lonely. He didn't remember the last time he felt like that and it felt… bad. He was used to being alone, but this-
Another message came and Katsuki ignored the feeling of shame when he almost dropped his phone, with how fast he tried to check who it was from.
Shitty hair: Maybe it's not my place to say that… But you can trust me, Bakugou. You don't have to say anything, but if you do, I won't judge and won't tell anyone!
Trust him.
Katsuki actually started to, even if only a little bit. Because really, what other choice he had back then, but now…
… Fuck it.
Blasty: number 4 is being a fucking dick, acting like some kind of a pageant mom
If he spilled, Katsuki could always take him in a fight.
Shitty hair: what's he doing?
What isn't he doing?
Katsuki sighed and started typing.
How Best Jeanist greeted him, telling Katsuki how much he despised him. How he compared him to a rotten fruit. To a feral animal. To a villain. How he forced him to change his hero costume and was trying his best to change Katsuki's appearance altogether. How he restrained him and how hard it was to breathe back then. How sometimes it was hard to breathe in his presence in general and-
Katsuki realized what he's been writing. How desperate and weak he sounded.
How pathetic.
Before he would accidentally send that message to Kirishima, he quickly erased it. There was no way he would let anyone see him like that. Even if the actual seeing wasn't involved.
He could just.. tell him the shorter version of all of that. The one that didn't involve shame eating Katsuki from the inside.
Shitty hair: wait a sec
Kirishima: here! Serious talks demand serious setting!!
Kirishima: is that alright..?
Katsuki chuckled at how, well, serious Kirishima was taking it and found himself being more than alright with that little change. Not that Kirishima had to know this.
Bakugou: whatever, it doesn't matter
Kirishima: haha well.. anyway! You got some dirt on those jeans? ,’:D
Katsuki was really glad that Kirishima couldn't see him snort at that.
Alright. Short version. He could do this.
Bakugou: he's dressing me up like a doll and snapping at my ‘bad manners’ and it's getting on my fucking nerves
Bakugou: and he always makes sure I'm not alone in his stupid agency, as if he expects me to blow something up otherwise
Kirishima: yeah that sounds annoying…
Bakugou: I've been stuck with him for 3 fucking days.
Kirishima: … wish you'd picked someone else?
Bakugou: Fuck that, there's no going back anyway, I might as well get the best out of it, even if #4 is annoying
Kirishima: Gonna wring Best Jeanist out for all he's worth, eh? :>
And Katsuki openly laughed. And almost hated himself for that. Because that was another terrible fucking joke and he hated that it was that funny to him.
Fuck you and your puns Kirishima.
He almost typed that, but Kirishima was faster.
Kirishima: but.. if you need a breather I've got my switch set up? You're more than welcome to come over and hang out with me and Tetsu!
Katsuki was honestly fully on board until he read “and Tetsu”.
Whomst the fuck even-
Ah. Right. The not-cousin of Kirishima. Guy from 1B. Fuck. If he had to choose, he'd really rather spend that time alone with Kirishima. Not with some other randoms. He didn't have much choice but to quickly come up with something.
Bakugou: yeah, like I can't handle some annoying old guy
Kirishima: hey, I never said you couldn't handle it bro!
Kirishima: you're just welcome if you want to have some fun for a change of pace! Toughing it out is manly, but knowing when to take a break is manly too!
What was his deal with this whole manliness thing?
Bakugou: You're weird, you know that?
Kirishima: I'll admit that I am if you agree to come :D
___
Bakugou: No
Eijirou deflated at that short answer that came after several minutes of waiting. After all, it was foolish to believe that he and Bakugou were getting closer.
“So?” Eijirou looked over his shoulder to look at Tetsutetsu who entered his room. They were lucky enough to have their rooms next to each other. “Will the explosion dude honour us with his presence?” He asked with a smirk, obvious joke, but Eijirou was sure that Bakugou would let out few sparks at that. The thought somehow made him chuckle.
“He's not coming…” Eijirou's smile flattened and he looked down at his phone.
“Well, at least we won't lose our hearing with all the explosions and shouting he's always doing.”
“Yeah…” Eijirou stared at his chat with Bakugou in hopes to see a message from him, that he changed his mind and is actually coming. His smile completely disappeared, replaced by concerned frown.
Bakugou sounded lonely, even through these texts. Eijirou had a feeling that Bakugou gave him a really shortened version of whatever Best Jeanist was doing and found himself almost afraid of the truth. He had no idea how the hero would act towards others, but just from Bakugou's messages, the idea he got in his mind wasn't that positive...
“Oh god, I'd rather third wheel for you two, than look at your moping face.” Tetsutetsu groaned and Eijirou looked back at him, taken aback by sudden comment.
“What do you mean, bro?” Eijirou put down his phone and fully turned to face Tetsutetsu.
“That you looked like a kicked puppy just now. All sad about Bakugou not wanting to come over!” He crossed his arms on his chest and leaned back on the chair.
“I don't look like a puppy!” Eijirou threw a pillow at him, hitting his face and leaving him speechless for a second. “And what do you mean by ‘third wheeling’?”
Tetsutetsu gave him unimpressed look. A long, unimpressed look.
“... What?” Eijirou urged him after long silence.
“Dude, you got hit several times already by Fourth Kind for checking your phone all the time in case ‘Bakugou texts you’.” He picked up the pillow and put it on a desk near him. “It's obvious that you want something from this. I have no idea about Bakugou, but you-” Tetsutetsu scanned Eijirou's tense face then pointed a finger at him. “You're already over the moon.”
“WH- NO I'M NOT, WHY'S EVERYBODY SAYING THAT!?” Eijirou was done with those accusations. He just wanted Bakugou to be his friend and to trust him!
“Then what's with the constant messages and looking like a sad dog when he doesn't answer?!” This time, it was Tetsutetsu to throw the pillow at Eijirou's face.
The pillow already in his hand, Eijirou wanted to return the favor but he stopped himself from throwing it at the last second. He took it into both of his hands and stared at it with small frown.
“I'm just… worried about him... That's it.” Eijirou didn't look up at Tetsutetsu, even when he heard him chuckle.
“Worried he'll get with someone else?”
“NO, STOP IT!”
This time, there wasn't anything to stop Eijirou from throwing the pillow back at him.
___
Bakugou: We finally went on a patrol.
Kirishima: Ooooooo! That's great!
Bakugou: No.
Kirishima: no..?
Bakugou: Best Jeanist was busy with his fangirls while I had to deal with fucking kids :)
Kirishima: … ok, please don't ever use any emojis ever again
Bakugou: What's wrong, Shitty hair?
Bakugou: I thought you wanted me to use them? : )
Kirishima: OKAY, SORRY JUST STOP
Bakugou: That's what I fucking thought.
Kirishima: and uh that's… I didn't expect it from Best Jeanist?
Kirishima: since he's #4 and all… I'd expect him to be more into looking for crime and stuff…. I don't know, here with Tetsu and Fourth Kind we were both patrolling the streets and sometimes cleaning them?
Kirishima: Manly hero isn't scared of some trash!
Bakugou: I'd rather pick up trash than hear another kid talk about that sludge shit again
Kirishima: … uuh
Kirishima: is there a joke I'm missing?
Kirishima: because I'm kiiiinda confused.. What sludge shit??
Kirishima: Bakugou?
Kirishima: you didn't die, did you????
Kirishima: I will send you pics of the saddest cats out there, don't test me!
Kirishima: … come on man, did I say something? :((
Bakugou: no, you didn't…
Kirishima: oh!
Kirishima: Sooooo what sludge shit?
Bakugou: Just fucking drop it.
Kirishima: … Okay, I'm sorry
Bakugou: Whatever, it's not your fault
Kirishima: :D!
Kirishima: Well! Good thing there are only 2 days left!
Bakugou: can't fucking wait
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“I hope that despite our differences, you managed to learn something, Bakugou.” Best Jeanist stared down at Katsuki.
They stood at the exit from the hero's agency, Katsuki more than eager to leave.
“You can keep the jeans. A sort of memorabilia from your time here. You are free to wear them as part of your hero costume of course.”
He was so gonna burn them.
But Katsuki learned that it'd be best for him to just keep his mouth shut for now. So he bit his tongue, nodded and bowed slightly, trying not to show his true feelings.
Best Jeanist sighed heavily.
“I was hoping that we'd at least get rid of that glare of yours. I suppose I was wrong.”
Katsuki's eyebrows twitched and annoyance raised in him when he realised his own eyes betrayed him.
“Well, at least you look better with your hair like that.” Best Jeanist reached towards Katsuki's head, probably to touch up his hair one last time, but Katsuki was quicker. He swiftly stepped away, closer to the exit.
Best Jeanist froze in place for few second as he seemingly tried to analyse what just happened.
“I'm not your intern anymore.” Katsuki finally spoke and moved closer to the door. “You can't do anything about my problematic behaviour anymore.” He gave Best Jeanist a cold look and glanced at his assistant. He nodded politely and looked back at the hero with a smirk. “Goodbye, Hakamata-sama.”
Katsuki took pleasure from the way Best Jeanist's eyes squinted at his sarcastic farewell.
There was nothing else to say, so Katsuki turned around, opened the door and left the agency. For the first time in a week he felt the tension lift off from his shoulders.
All that was left to do was to get on the train, go home and try to fix his hair.
All this while hoping that no one who knew him would see him and try to approach him. Katsuki just didn't want to deal with any annoying shit.
At this point, he was just tired.
Notes:
There's nothing much to say this time, besides that this fic will soon be one year old? Amazing, can y'all believe it??
Anyway, here's my tumblr, come scream with me! <3
Up next; It only goes downhill
Chapter 18: Seeing red
Summary:
We've come full circle
Chapter Text
By the time Katsuki walked through the front door of his house, the sun almost set and cold air made him even more tired.
He just really wanted to rest.
Once Katsuki closed the door and took off his shoes, as quickly and quietly as he could, he made his way through the corridor and up the stairs. He wanted to go to his room, hide from the outside world and try to somehow fix his hair. He managed to make it halfway through to his room.
“Won't you even say ‘hello’ to-”
Old hag.
Fuck.
“.... What in the holy fuck happened to you?” The tone of her voice was a mix of shocked and amused.
“That's none of your business!” Katsuki yelled as he glared at her over his shoulder.
Something clenched in his stomach when he saw her covering a smirk behind her hand. Somehow, it hurt. Especially when she started laughing. Openly. As if she didn't care if Katsuki was still there or not. As if she wasn't aware how much that change was affecting him.
Without a word, Katsuki dropped his bag onto the floor and, as it was closer than his room, he went and locked himself in a bathroom.
“Katsuki, come on!” He heard his mother still laughing as she knocked on the door and he leaned against it. “I just didn't expect it! Don't act like a child- oh, Masaru!”
Old man.
Great.
He could hear their conversation through the door.
“What's going on?”
“The brat is back and didn't even greet me! Can you believe it?”
Oh, I wonder why.
“Katsuki?” Dad lightly knocked on the door. “Is something wrong?”
“He's mad because I laughed at his hair.” That annoying woman explained in surprisingly calmer tone. “Katsuki, come on, you know I didn't mean it! Don't overreact!”
“You didn't have to laugh, I already knew it was shit, okay?!” Katsuki yelled and was met with silence. “It's not my fucking fault!” After making sure the door is locked, he walked up to the sink and looked into the mirror.
“Katsuki…” His dad knocked again.
“Leave me alone!” He threw a towel at the door.
“Don't throw stuff around like a little brat, you brat!” His mom tried to enter the bathroom, but the locked door stopped her. “Come on, we don't have any hair gel or shit but I can try and help you!”
“I don't need your fucking help, I can manage!” Katsuki turned on a shower, just to make it look like he wasn't just sulking in a bathroom. Seemed to work, because after a few seconds of muffled conversation, both of his parents left him alone.
Finally.
Katsuki looked at the running water and since he fully intended to try and fix his hair before he had to go to school and face everyone, he turned it off.
After stepping away from the shower, he opened their bathroom closet and his eyes scanned the shelves, looking for anything that would help him. Old hag was right, they didn't have anything even resembling hair gel, but Katsuki noticed a lot of hair sprays on her shelf. With no difficulty, he reached for one of them and read the vague instructions on how to use this shit.
Right.
Because it was obvious for everyone how to use it.
Katsuki took off his uniform jacket as he walked to the mirror and grabbed a comb, frowning again at the spray in his hand. It couldn't be that hard, right?
In a really awkward manner, Katsuki combed his hair up and held it in place as he closed his eyes and used the hair spray.
Then started coughing. A lot. And couldn't stop for a solid minute.
"What the fuck-" Katsuki wheezed out, trying his best to stop coughing as he tried to wave away the spray.
Did he use too much? Probably.
Did it work? Of course not.
Katsuki glared at his front bangs to see them ridiculously hover at his forehead, not exactly falling onto it, like that fucker Best Jeanist had styled them, but also not how they would normally frame his eyes.
Maybe he could still fix it. But did he really want to risk another coughing attack? Besides, it was getting late. Even if he left his phone in his bag, Katsuki felt himself getting tired.
Resigned, he put the hair spray back on the shelf and took a quick shower. When Katsuki left the bathroom, already in his pyjamas, he noticed that his bag was nowhere to be seen and he realised that one of his parents probably put it in his room.
Once he stepped into his own space, he saw his bag on the desk, but that wasn't what concerned him at the moment. Katsuki quickly realised, judging by uncomfortably stuffy air, that his parents forgot to open the window in his room at least once during the week he was gone.
With clenched jaw, he rushed to the window and opened it wide, taking in the cold yet fresh air.
He could take it, as long as he wouldn't have to feel trapped in his own room.
___
Of course Katsuki's bad luck would continue.
Right after he woke up, he tried to fix his hair, he really did. But again, he only ended up running late since he tried to wash it three times, all while wondering just what the fuck did that asshole use on his hair for it to stay like that.
After Katsuki ignored his father ("Oh, I don't remember the last time you overslept!") when he was leaving, he found himself on a later train. One that was more packed than his usual, early ride and he just thanked all the forces that he was able to find an empty seat and didn't have to stand and suffocate between some extras.
Finally, he got to school, late of course.
Well, not late late, he got there several minutes before the first period, but that was exactly it. The school was full and Katsuki wondered why all those assholes weren't in their classes already.
Katsuki took in a calming breath, quickly headed towards his class, ignoring some students staring at him, and as soon as he was in front of it, he just entered. The want to get away from the prying eyes of strangers was so strong, that Katsuki completely failed to realise that his classmates would probably stare at him too.
And of course he was right. Even if some of them were busy talking between each other, there were several pairs of eyes staring at him.
Then he heard mocking laughter and froze at the door.
"What the hell, Bakugou!?" Two voices, mixing together, yelled at the same time.
Katsuki stared at two guys who most possibly were laughing at his hair, but he couldn't even focus to understand what exactly they were saying. His eyes were focused on the red hair of one of them.
Kirishima was laughing at him.
Right. What the fuck did he expect from him? From anyone? This was just a fucking joke to everyone there and Katsuki just had to deal with it. Deal with being alone with this.
His eyes met with Kirishima's for a split second and even though Katsuki noticed him elbowing the other guy, as if to stop him from further joking, he still had no other choice than to cover up how shameful he felt.
"SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH, IT'S NOT MY FAULT!"
"SORRY MAN-" That other asshole was still laughing and Katsuki was too frustrated to try to focus and figure out who the fuck that was. "IT'S JUST HELLA HILARIOUS!"
Katsuki grabbed the collar of his shirt and pushed, but he still just wouldn't. Shut. Up.
At least Kirishima knew when to do that.
"Fuck you!" Few of Katsuki's explosions went off and he quickly stomped towards his desk, trying his best to calm down.
To do that, he tried to focus on other conversations going on, but that only turned his pathetically miserable feelings into annoyance and anger as he heard what the main topic in the class was.
Deku.
Deku and oh how heroic he was along with fucking- What's his name? Half face, rushing right into action in Hosu and right into the trap of this fucker Hero Killer.
Because that's what heroes in training do! Spend their internships trying to get killed.
… But if Katsuki had to be honest, he'd rather face a murderer and gain some actual experience, than waste another minute at Best Jeanist's agency.
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As soon as Eijirou saw the change from annoyance and anger to something resembling shame on Bakugou's face, even if it was just a split second, he realised that the hair change was probably bigger of a deal to him. To some extent, Eijirou could relate. Even if for entirely different reasons, he also rather his hair stayed as he had it at the moment.
But this made him wonder why Bakugou had different hairstyle if it was that big of a deal for him in the first place?
Eijirou didn't have much time to ponder about it, as the bell rang, signalling the start of their first period, along with Aizawa coming through the door. Everyone quickly took their seats and the lesson summarising their internships began.
Not that his teacher's lecture spoken in monotone voice wasn't interesting, but Eijirou couldn't help but glance at Bakugou from time to time. He looked angry, as usual. But the longer Eijirou was staring, it became more than obvious that Bakugou, all in all, looked very very uncomfortable. With tense shoulders and his hand clenching on a pen so hard that his knuckles were white. They didn't even have to take notes during homeroom, so him holding this pen was probably only for the sole purpose of almost breaking it.
Out of annoyance? Was Bakugou really bothered by his hair that much? Or was it just that it looked kind of… bad? In general. Especially on him. Because, if Eijirou had to be honest, he preferred Bakugou's usual, explosion-like, chaotic hair. He liked to think that it was actually fluffy and vaguely wondered how soft it would be upon touch.
… Wait-
Eijirou jumped in his seat when he realised that everyone around him started their happy banter. Once he looked back to the front of the class, he noticed the absence of their homeroom teacher, meaning that the break started and he missed the whole lecture because… because he was busy staring at Bakugou.
What the hell, Eijirou, get a hold of yourself!
Even though he scolded himself, he could still feel his cheeks get warm, for what reason, he didn't know.
Or maybe he did know and just didn't want to admit. Didn't matter, especially when Eijirou saw Bakugou pulling out his phone from his bag and stare at it for a few moments, without unlocking it.
Ah. He was staring at his hair.
Something struck Eijirou when he remembered what he had with him at all times. Without a second thought, he picked up his bag, made sure no one was paying him much attention and walked up to Bakugou.
"Hey, Bakubro-" Eijirou ignored how quickly Bakugou put his phone screen down on his desk. "Listen, I know I kinda laughed at your hair before-"
"Kinda?" Bakugou asked with a frown as he crossed his arms on his chest.
"Yeah…" Awkward chuckle escaped Eijirou's mouth. "Sorry about that, it wasn't manly of me…" Even though he said that, Eijirou seriously couldn't stop thinking how Bakugou really looked strange with his hair like this, no matter the angle.
"It's whatever…" Bakugou muttered as his gaze travelled to Eijirou's bag. "The fuck you need your bag for? The day barely started."
Eijirou smiled once he remembered why exactly did he take his bag.
"Listen, dude." He leaned down, towards sitting Bakugou who's frown deepened as he moved away from Eijirou. Right, he should have expected that. "No no, seriously, please listen for a second." Half whispered pleading seemed to convince Bakugou to actually move a bit towards him. "I can help you with your hair." Just for him to immediately back off with clear disbelief on his face.
At least it wasn't murderous intention...
"You want to help me."
Bakugou's quiet and almost uncertain voice had Eijirou slightly nervous.
"Yeah!" He nodded eagerly, smiling.
Bakugou was still staring at him.
Did Eijirou overstep?
"... why?" At this point, Bakugou sounded more confused than anything, as to why, Eijirou didn't know.
"Because… we're bros?"
He was met with silence and puzzled expression. And with that, Eijirou found it slightly… disturbing? Upsetting?? That Bakugou would have such a hard time believing that someone wanted to help him just because.
Eijirou coughed awkwardly and reached to his bag to pull out his hair gel.
"Look, I have my stuff I use to style my hair with. If we go now, it won't take long to fix yours!"
Bakugou glanced at the clock above the blackboard, obviously checking how much time they had left. Even though Eijirou was sure that Bakugou actually pondered about his offer for a moment, he turned back to him with a frown and a glare.
"I don't need anyone's fucking help."
And Eijirou couldn't help but sigh, because honestly… What did he expect?
"Bakugou, dude," Eijirou lowered the tone of his voice. "It's fine, I won't make fun of you for needing help, I-"
"Listen, bastard, I don't need-"
"Yo, Bakugou!" They both turned in the direction where the voice came from. Sero was approaching them. "Don't move for a second, I wanna commemorate this moment!" He grinned with a phone in his hand.
As Eijirou saw Bakugou already stand up with fury clear on his face, he stood between the two of them.
"Dude, come on." Eijirou put his hand in front of the phone's camera lens, shielding Bakugou from it.
"Do you have a death wish, Horse smile!?"
Ah, Bakugou recognised him. No surprise, considering that Sero was smiling widely, clearly amused by this situation. Eijirou sent him a pleading look, something he probably didn't expect as he slowly lowered his phone and his gaze went to angry Bakugou.
"One picture never hurt anyone!" With a shrug, he put his phone back in his pocket.
"Oh, I'll fucking show you how one picture can-"
"Bakugou, just come with me." Eijirou cut in and grabbed Bakugou's wrist, already leading him outside the class.
As soon as they were on the corridor though, Bakugou snatched away his hand and glared at Eijirou.
"Don't do that, asshole." He put his clenched fists into the pockets of his pants.
"Right, sorry." Eijirou chuckled awkwardly and then pointed in the direction where the restrooms were. "Since we're already here, wanna try fix your hair?" He hoped that an encouraging smile on his face would somehow convince Bakugou to go with him.
Bakugou glanced down and was staring at the floor with deep frown for several seconds, until he finally sighed and looked back at Eijirou.
"... whatever." With that, he turned towards restrooms and started walking. "You better hurry, we don't have that much time."
Eijirou smiled at Bakugou's muttering and quickly followed.
"Present Mic is always late for our lessons anyway!" He answered as they entered the restroom and stopped himself from commenting upon noticing Bakugou looking at the stalls, probably checking if anyone's there with them.
He really didn't want people see him getting any kind of help, did he?
"So!" Bakugou's eyes went back to Eijirou when he put his bag near one of the sinks. "We better hurry, if you want your hair fixed?" He pulled out his hair gel as well as hair spray and noticed Bakugou grimacing at the latter for some reason. "It takes me around three minutes to do it on myself-" A thought occurred to him when he saw Bakugou carefully take the gel and examine it with a frown. "Hey, bro…" He started with unsure voice. "Do you know how to use all this?"
Once Eijirou saw how Bakugou clenched his jaw, he tried his best to keep a neutral expression, but on the inside he was practically begging; please, man, just admit it, I won't judge you, please, it'll be easier for both of us and it'll be over sooner, please please please-
"... I don't."
HELL YES!
"Do you want me to help you?" If someone pointed out that Eijirou's voice was almost embarrassingly hopeful, he wouldn't even try to argue.
And he was well aware that Bakugou really had no choice if he wanted it done in time and fast.
"... You better fucking hurry." Bakugou muttered as he put the gel back down near the sink, his hands quickly in pockets of his pants.
"Yes, sir!" Eijirou let out a chuckle at Bakugou rolling his eyes.
As he took off his jacket and rolled up the sleeves of his shirt, he didn't fail to notice how Bakugou's shoulders were strangely tense. Eijirou also saw how he kept glancing at the hair products so he just brushed it off as him being annoyed that he didn't know how to use them.
Eijirou turned on the water and quickly washed his hands, then made sure they were still wet as he brought them up to Bakugou's hair to make it a bit damp. But as Eijirou's hands got closer to his hair, Bakugou's shoulders tensed even more and it was obvious he was holding his breath in. His eyes were glued to some point on the floor, unblinking. That's when he realised.
It wasn't that Bakugou was annoyed by people touching him. Bakugou actually didn't like anything this close to him. Whatever the reason for this was, Eijirou knew he'd have to make this situation at least a little bit better for him.
And what's the better way to distract someone than talk their ear off?
"I gotta make your hair a bit wet so the gel sticks better to it!" He let himself smile innocently when Bakugou's eyes shot up to his face. But since he didn't say anything, Eijirou just continued. "Then I'll use hair gel. Your hair is shorter than mine so it shouldn't take that long for it all to get done."
"... uhuh." Progress.
"So you never used anything like that before?" Eijirou already knew the answer, but that was just to keep Bakugou distracted as he was touching his head.
"Obviously not." He muttered and Eijirou nodded with a hum, then reached for the gel.
"I do it every morning." With the gel on his hands, he reached for Bakugou's hair again. "This how I learned to do it so quickly!"
"... Do you also talk so much while doing it every morning?"
Eijirou snorted at the retort.
"Not really, but sometimes I sing! Drives my mom crazy, especially after she had an all nighter at her job. Even more when ma' joins in."
This time it was Bakugou who snorted, his shoulders finally relaxing and Eijirou smiled with satisfaction. He added this to the growing list of his little achievements of his strange relationship with Bakugou.
"... So you have two mothers?" Bakugou asked after a few seconds in a surprisingly careful tone, as if Eijirou would get offended by that somehow.
"Yeah!" Eijirou couldn't help but smile. Bakugou was actually interested!
"... Are you adopted or…"
"No- I mean- uhh, partly? My mom gave birth to me and my mama adopted me so…"
"I get it. Whatever..."
"Sometimes I'm stuck in a constant loop of 'go ask your mom.'" Eijirou finished with a chuckle and decided not to comment on how Bakugou cleared his throat, similarly to the way when he pretended that he wasn't laughing at Eijirou's puns.
They stayed silent after that.
Few times, Eijirou felt a rougher patch of skin, on the lower right side of Bakugou's head, but didn't pay much mind to it, focusing on styling the hair in the Bakugou way.
After another minute or so, Eijirou almost let go of Bakugou’s hair, almost said that he was done, but while he was entirely focused on his hair before, just now he looked at his face and noticed the lack of any makeup on his eyes. He realized that his eyelashes weren't black, but actually darker shade of blond.
Right, since he came later than usual to school, he probably didn't have any time to put on make up.
Then, Bakugou looked up at him and Eijirou's breath hitched, the lack of a frown slightly surprising him. Bakugou looked… calm. No anger, no hatred, no annoyance. Nothing. Just neutral face and Eijirou realised that this was the first time for Bakugou to look at him without a single trace of a negative emotion in his eyes.
Speaking of which… So far Eijirou thought that their eyes were the same shade of red, but no. While Eijirou was more than aware that his red was darker, as if slightly tainted with blue, Bakugou's eyes were brighter, more on an orange side. They reminded him of a setting sun.
They were beautiful.
Eijirou's hands were still in Bakugou's hair while they stared at each other like that. Eijirou had no idea how much time had passed. All he knew was that at that moment, he just wanted to stay there and just explore those eyes a bit more.
“You done or what?” Bakugou frowned and the moment was over, time moving again.
Eijirou could feel his cheeks get warmer in embarrassment. As fast as he could, he finally let go of Bakugou's head.
“Yep!” He quickly moved to wash off the gel from his hands. “All done with that part!” He knew that if he tried to talk less enthusiastically, Bakugou would hear how much he was frustrated at the moment.
Eijirou grabbed the hair spray and while shaking it, he finally looked back at Bakugou who was staring at the spray with narrowed eyes.
"Alright man, hold your breath, close your eyes."
"What, why?" Bakugou's fiery eyes wandered to Eijirou's.
"Uhhh, so you don't start choking on it? Have you never used this before as well?" The question might have had an obvious answer, considering that Bakugou already admitted to never using hair gel, but the way he paused before answering;
"No."
Had Eijirou wondering. He still smiled to himself when Bakugou held his breath and closed his eyes as he sprayed his hair, shielding his eyes anyway with his other hand.
Eijirou made sure that all the spray dispersed in the air before he told Bakugou he could open his eyes again. After that, he immediately looked into the mirror and examined his fixed hair, all while Eijirou prayed that he wouldn't ask how he was able to recreate his usual hairstyle with such accuracy.
Right. Eijirou just recreated it. Fixed it. But why did he have to do it in the first place?
… Could he push his luck a bit more?
"Bakugou?" Once Eijirou got his attention, he continued. "Why was your hair like that in the first place anyway?"
___
Katsuki felt his stomach sink at the question. Not because he didn't want to tell Kirishima, but rather because of what exactly he'd have to tell him. What he avoided telling him when he first accidentally texted him and said too much anyway.
And… Right… Kirishima already knew most of it, so was there really any harm in telling him that it was Best Jeanist who fucked with his hair like that? After what he was already told and after what he just did for Katsuki?
He swallowed the remnants of his pride and finally spoke.
"You remember how I- told you, how that asshole was acting like a fucking pageant mom?" Katsuki crossed his arms on his chest and continued when Kirishima nodded with serious yet curious expression. "He grabbed-" No, there was no way Katsuki would go into detail. "That-" he gestured vaguely at his now normal looking hair "-was his doing." Crossing his arms again, he glanced at Kirishima to see him with his eyebrows furrowed in.. annoyance? Confusion? What??
"How-" Kirishima started, obviously not sure what to even ask. "... But you told me you didn't use any of these stuff before?"
Katsuki chuckled at his words. But it was a bitter laugh.
"Because I fucking didn't." At his words, Kirishima's face was a mix of confusion and disbelief.
"Then how-"
"For fuck's sake- he forced this onto me, okay?" Admitting it out loud only made him only more ashamed and angry. Mostly at himself, that he let it happen in the first place. "With his own fucking hands and his own fucking comb, grabbed my head and held it in place, while I couldn't do anything! Otherwise I wouldn't be able to move like with that sludge shit! He'd restrain my arms and legs and whole body with those fucking fibers of his again-"
"Again!?" Kirishima's raised voice finally made him get a grip of himself.
Fuck.
Shit.
Katsuki was angry and just so fucking ashamed of it all, and talked too fast and didn't manage to stop himself before all those shameful things left his mouth.
After moments of silence passed, he finally gathered up the courage to look at strangely silent Kirishima. He truly expected some kind of mocking or even pitying expression but… Instead, he needed a few extra seconds to recognize that emotion on his face, because...
Kirishima was angry.
Kirishima was absolutely fuming, with furrowed eyebrows and eyes like some wild animal's. The skin hardened on his forehead, sharp teeth bared and clenched along with his hands.
And Katsuki was so surprised by that, he forgot about his shame.
"... Oi, Kirishima-"
"What else did he do?"
Cold tone of his voice made Katsuki pause for another second.
"Kirishima, it doesn't fucking matter anymore, it's-"
"What else did he-" Kirishima didn't get to finish as the bell rang and they both realised that if they didn't hurry, they'd be late, even for Present Mic's standards.
Katsuki grabbed the hair gel and spray, put it in Kirishima's bag then picked it up and pushed it against Kirishima's chest.
"Let's go, you overreacting jackass." Once Katsuki made sure that Kirishima actually got a hold of his bag and grabbed his jacket, he stepped out of the restroom and quickly went down the corridor towards their classroom.
Sure enough, they found themselves at the door. Kirishima pointed out that Present Mic was talking to someone at the stairs, not even looking at their direction and they quickly went inside the class.
Luckily, most people weren't even sitting at their desks yet, still chatting in their little groups and Katsuki hoped that no one would make a big deal out of his hair being back to normal, but he noticed few heads taking a double take at him. Bastards.
But if they weren't going to ask about it, he wasn't about to acknowledge them. Maybe he glared at a person or two as he went to take his seat, but that didn't matter. Especially that their teacher finally entered the class and the lesson started, although Katsuki's mind was occupied by something else.
Particularly, by wondering what the fuck was Kirishima's reaction?
People were usually getting angry at him. Not angry on his behalf.
The only person who ever got angry on his behalf was his annoying mother, maybe sometimes his dad.
But…
Katsuki glanced at the direction where he knew Kirishima's desk was and, yes, there sat the only guy with disgustingly red hair in their class. He was staring at his notes with ridiculous amount of focus. Katsuki's eyes wandered back to that crazy hair and he realised that… he didn't thank him.
Not that there was anything to be thankful for.
…. Maybe except for the fact that Katsuki could better recognise himself in a fucking mirror.
And that he talked him down from acting like a fucking weirdo when he was trying to fix his hair.
Katsuki didn't get to think about another reason to thank him for, as Kirishima looked up from his notebook and right at him.
Their eyes met, just like before in that restroom when Kirishima was holding him and Katsuki clenched his teeth at how his guts twisted in a way he couldn't understand. All he knew was that it was fucking annoying, so he just frowned and turned away before Kirishima managed to send him some stupid smile.
___
Eijirou sat down heavily with his lunch tray, next to Ashido, who was already eating her food happily, no care in the world.
"Where's Bakugou?" Sero asked as he and Kaminari joined their table, sitting down in front of them.
"He's still standing in the line." Eijirou was quick to explain. "Said something about wanting to see if chili curry was actually spicy here, for a change."
What he didn't say, was how he hoped that Bakugou wouldn't have any trouble finding them. Even if he told him to just 'fucking go', Eijirou still straightened his back to be more noticeable in the crowd.
"Right, because he's only capable of consuming stuff straight from hell…" His attention was back on Kaminari who shivered at the memory of trying Bakugou's food, while Ashido didn't even try to hide her amusement.
"Enough about Bakugou." Sero spoke all of a sudden, even though he was the one to start this conversation. "What about you, Kirishima?" With tilted eyebrow, he leaned towards Eijirou.
"Eh? Me?"
"No, that other, invisible Kirishima next to you." Sero rolled his eyes while Kaminari snickered. "Of course you. We didn't really have a chance to talk during or after your internship." He finished and leaned back in his chair.
"Yeah! That!" Ashido exclaimed all of a sudden and slammed her open palms on the table. "I know we were all pretty busy-"
"Eh, my internship was pretty chill." Kaminari cut in, but quickly shut up upon Ashido's glare.
"As I said…" She squinted at Kaminari who started digging in his food, before she continued. "I know we were all-" Ashido sent him another look "-busy, but you talked in the group chat like… once." Eijirou met with her single finger right in front of his eyes. "And it was about Mido sending his location." She finished with her arms crossed on her chest and a little frown.
Ah, shit… he really didn't talk to anyone else than Bakugou, did he? Although, they didn't need to know that…
"You're spending too much time with Bakugou." With full mouth, Kaminari spoke as if he was reading Eijirou's mind. "He's rubbing off of you, you already stopped texting people."
"Hey, that's not true! We were texting plenty!"
At the shocked expressions of all three of his friends, Eijirou realised what he had just admitted to.
… Shit.
"... wow." That was all Sero could utter with offended expression.
"I thought we were friends, Kiri." Ashido said dramatically and wiped off an invisible tear.
"Of course he'd choose his boyfriend over his friends." Kaminari shrugged.
"He's not my boyfriend." Eijirou hissed quietly.
"Holy shit, this morning!" Kaminari seemed like he just discovered the Atlantis. "You absolutely dragged him to one of the stalls to make out after such long separation."
"LIKE I'D TAKE HIM TO A TOILET-"
"HOLY SHIT, SO YOU WERE MAKING OUT."
"I DID NOT SAY THAT!"
Ashido and Sero didn't even try to contain their laughing, Ashido to the point that she actually had tears in her eyes.
"I can't believe I wasn't there to witness it!" She wheezed out between holding her stomach and wiping off the tears.
"There wasn't anything to witness!" Eijirou tried to defend the remnants of his dignity.
"So what were you doing, huh?" Kaminari continued with a sly grin, clearly having the time of his life.
"I was just-!" No. Eijirou couldn't really say anything, even if it was pretty obvious, the official version was that Bakugou fixed his hair. By himself. "I was just… helping him out a little…" Glancing to the side, Eijirou could feel his cheeks get warmer at the still fresh memory.
"... Wow." He looked back at Kaminari who's eyes were widened. "Kirishima, during school hours? That's bold."
It took him all two seconds and another salve of laughter from Ashido to realise what Kaminari meant by that.
"I SWEAR TO GOD KAMINARI, I'LL KILL YOU-"
"So we're in agreement that Dictionary has to die?"
Immediately, all sounds died and all of them looked at the source of the voice. They saw Bakugou standing with lunch tray in his hands, clearly judging them.
"I swear to God, you're all so fucking loud it's almost impossible to miss you." Bakugou muttered, more to himself, and took a seat next to Eijirou.
Ashido nudged him in the arm and once she had Eijirou's attention, she winked at him at which he could only sigh. Then Kaminari kicked his shin under the table and also winked. Eijirou ignored Sero throwing a crumpled tissue at him.
Soon enough, they returned to their normal talks and eating, but as Eijirou felt another nudge, he turned to Bakugou, everyone else too occupied to pay any attention to them.
"It's easy to spot you." Bakugou muttered while focusing on his food and Eijirou had to stop himself from smiling widely.
"Yeah?" His voice was equally quiet.
"Mhm.. you and your terrible hair."
Eijirou chuckled at that. His little plan worked.
"But-" To his surprise, Bakugou continued "-you didn't do a terrible job with my hair." He glanced at Eijirou then continued eating, as if nothing happened.
Eijirou shifted in his seat and once he processed Bakugou's words, he barely contained the surprise on his face.
Was that… Bakugou thanking him?
Bakugou… actually thanked him! In a strange, roundabout way- but he did.
He had to hide his smile behind the glass of water, because damn, he didn't expect that at all...
With no more surprises (or teasing towards Eijirou), they finished eating and slowly headed back to the class. After all, they had to get ready for their hero training and show off what they learned during their internships.
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Katsuki still couldn't believe it. While he only wasted his time, that fucker- that useless bastard actually learned something during his internship. And that something was copying Katsuki's moves. And he still was praised for that, meanwhile Katsuki got reprimanded just few weeks earlier for those exact moves.
Deku this, Deku that, Deku made use of his fucking internship and learned how to copy others, Deku wanted to help his classmate and almost fucking died from the hands of that fucking hero killer, but what a great hero he is already, fucking piece of shit-
"Bakugou." Slightly familiar, tired voice stopped him, although all he wanted was to go to the locker room, change clothes and go back home.
Katsuki turned and saw a man with black hair and binding cloth around his neck and shoulders-
"Sensei." Despite actually trying to sound polite, his anger still was high and rather clear in his voice, since his teacher let out a long sigh.
"Best Jeanist called me during your internship."
Katsuki momentarily felt all the colour fade from his face, his stomach clenching.
"And the fuck did he want?" Ignoring Aizawa's another sigh, he forced his hand to stay at his side, instead of reaching up for his scar.
"I'm sure you don't want to talk about this here, where anyone could hear us?" Aizawa's voice was annoyingly calm, but Katsuki knew he was right, considering that few guys already lingered near them instead of just going into the locker room.
With a nod, he followed after his teacher all the way to the main building (as if he couldn't wait for Katsuki to change from his costume, for fuck's sake…) and to teachers' lounge, which was empty, no surprise, considering the hour. Aizawa sat down at his desk and gestured for Katsuki to sit down as well.
"I'm pretty sure you know why you're here." He started as Katsuki took his seat. "But I have to tell you anyway, so-"
"Does he know?" Katsuki cut in, ignoring the annoyed expression on his teacher's face.
He just needed to know.
"He does not."
Those three words actually calmed Katsuki down. Knowledge that Best Jeanist didn't realise was fucking great, but that didn't change the fact that Aizawa got him there for some reason.
"I wanted to give you more time to make up your mind-" Aizawa continued as he looked at some documents "-but considering your actions and the… lengthy report about your internship at Best Jeanist's agency..."
Katsuki watched as his teacher went through at least a dozen pages of that stupid report and felt that the worst was yet to come.
"You need to visit the support department."
Those words sounded like a death sentence.
"No, I-"
"I don't want to hear it."
Katsuki was taken aback by those words.
"You will visit the support department, you will tell the teacher who's gonna be there, what you're coming with and you will face the fact that support gear will be actually helpful in your case."
Katsuki's voice was stuck in his throat while Aizawa reached into his pocket and pulled out his eye drops.
"... and what if I refuse?" He managed to utter after few moments.
Instead of answering right away, Aizawa just applied the eye drops.
"But you won't." Sensei stared him down. "You are well aware that as a pro hero you'll need this support gear to quickly recognise your allies and foes. Not to mention all the civilians."
Katsuki couldn't argue with that, but…
"I don't want to be fixed. I'm…" Fuck, this was hard. "I'm fine with how things are now, it's not my fault that those assholes think that-"
"It's not about fixing you or what other people think about you. We're not fixing you, we're helping you. That's what this school is for, that's what the support department is for." He took a deep breath and glanced at a yellow sleeping bag under the desk. "As for your reputation, you have to work on it yourself." With that, Aizawa motioned for him to go and Katsuki stood up without a word.
But as he was about to leave the teachers' lounge..
"One more thing." Upon hearing Aizawa's voice, Katsuki turned again towards him, just to see his teacher already on the floor in that fucking sleeping bag. "You're expected there within a week."
Katsuki clicked his tongue and left with a short 'goodbye'. Immediately, he headed back towards the locker rooms, contemplating whether he'd have enough time for a shower or not.
As he finally approached, he could hear a few voices coming from the inside of the locker room and wondered why those guys were still there. He tried to figure out who was in there, but the only voice that Katsuki could recognise through the door was… Kirishima's. And that made Katsuki wonder.
…. What if he'd ask Kirishima to go with him to that fucking support department?
Kirishima… he already proved to Katsuki that he can be trusted. Didn't tell anyone. Didn't make fun of him when they talked about Best Jeanist. Helped him with his hair. Got so fucking furious on his behalf and Katsuki still wondered why?
But all in all… Kirishima was actually trustworthy, so having him there-
Katsuki frowned.
There was still that feeling of uncertainty. That it was just a game for Kirishima. A facade of niceness and when the time would come, once Katsuki would fully trust him, he'd take it off and tell everyone his secret and everything he worked for would be ruined.
What was he thinking?
Finally, he entered the room and glared at three guys that were still there, already in their uniforms.
"Oh, Bakugou!" Red headed one walked up to him. Kirishima, obviously. "Where did you disappear so suddenly? Horse smile said-"
"COME ON, NOT YOU TOO, KIRISHIMA!" Horse smile yelled while throwing his hands up in the air, clearly frustrated, while another guy with yellow hair had to lean against the lockers, laughing too much.
"Sorry man!" Kirishima looked at him apologetically and turned back to Katsuki. "He said that you went with Aizawa? What for?"
Katsuki glanced at him with squinted eyes and then at the other two guys.
There was no way he would start explaining this situation in front of them.
"None of your damn business." He cut the conversation short and took off both of his gauntlets then braces and mask. "The fuck are you still doing here anyway?" Not that Katsuki wanted to know, but he couldn't take the constant yapping behind his back while he was trying to collect his thoughts after his conversation with Aizawa.
"I wanted to wait for you!" Kirishima appeared out of nowhere next to him and Katsuki froze, with his top halfway off.
"... what fucking for?"
"I-"
"He couldn't bare the longing he feels whenever you're away."
"KAMINARI." Kirishima's face turned red while Katsuki didn't really know how to react to his guts twisting again in that annoying way.
Was he sick?
"Dude no, that's not- I didn't-!" Kirishima was as red as his hair right then and Katsuki couldn't help but snort. "I swear! I just wanted to give you-"
"Chill dude, or you'll die from all that embarrassment." Horse smile commented as he walked up to them and nudged Kirishima on the shoulder. "We just talked about our little tournament during training and ended up staying here longer than intended, right?" The last word was strangely punctuated as he looked directly at Kirishima, who's eyes widened for a split second, as if he understood something.
"Yep! That's right!" With a quick nod and stupid smile, Kirishima shifted nervously from one leg to another.
… Didn't he just say he was waiting specifically for Katsuki?
"... whatever." Even though Katsuki was annoyed by that strange change of mind, he decided to let it go.
"So! Continuing our subject-" Katsuki rolled his eyes at Horse smile's voice and just continued changing out from his hero costume. "I probably wouldn't have won, if Midoriya didn't trip on something out there!"
Katsuki slammed his locker shut with too much force, but that didn't seem enough to make that asshole stop talking about that useless asshole.
"Totally!" 'Kaminari' provided, completely oblivious to Katsuki getting more and more angry. "Despite that situation with Stain, he still made the best out of his internship." He finally noticed that Katsuki was done changing and stood up, stretching a bit. "Speaking of which… dude, just what the hell did you do during yours?"
The other two stared at him, although Kirishima's eyebrows were knitted together, as if he was concerned about something.
"Bunch of useless fucking shit." Katsuki answered with a bite and moved towards the door, the others following.
They went outside and started walking to the gate, Katsuki not at all surprised that they were pretty much the only people there at this hour.
"You know, I thought that you would have had more to say, considering your unfortunate hairstyle from the morning." That idiot continued despite Katsuki obviously not wanting to get into details. "Like, listen-" for some reason, he snorted "-I could barely recognize you with it!"
"Bet even Bakugou couldn't recognise himself!"
Katsuki stopped dead in his tracks at those words and the sound of all too familiar laughter.
What-
What the fuck.
Slowly, he turned and saw the exact moment Kirishima realized what he actually said. And about who exactly.
The other two looked between them, luckily completely unaware of the true meaning behind those words.
What the fuck, Kirishima.
"What the fuck, Kirishima." Katsuki hissed through clenched teeth, several explosions going off. "You fucking-"
"Dude, what's your problem?"
Katsuki didn't even look at whoever said that.
"Yeah, calm down, it was just a joke-"
Kirishima was as pale as a ghost as he spoke slowly, "just go, guys, I'll handle this."
"... Are you sure?"
Katsuki already took a step towards that bastard.
"Yep."
After that, he heard quickened footsteps, clearly walking away and finally, finally, Kirishima spoke in a careful tone, raising his hands a bit in front of him.
"Bakugou, I didn't- Sorry, I-"
"What the fuck, you piece of shit!?" Katsuki could barely control the volume of his voice.
“It was just a joke!” Defensive tone of Kirishima's words, those words themselves, only made Katsuki more furious.
“So that what it is to you!? A fucking joke?!” Oh, was he ready to kill. "My whole life, past, present and the future as a pro is a fucking joke to you!?"
“No, I didn't say that!" This time, Kirishima himself raised his voice. "You should know by now that I wouldn't tell anyone!”
What did he actually know about Kirishima?
That his quirk was badass? That he had two moms? That his hair wasn't naturally spiky?
Nothing else?
“But that's it!" Katsuki walked up closer to him. "I don't know that!" Just so he could push him, Kirishima stumbling a bit with a surprised expression. "I don't know shit about you! For all I know, you could just go out there and tell everyone!”
At that, Kirishima visibly deflated, hand on his chest where Katsuki pushed him.
“You- you really think I would do something so unmanly?” His voice was quiet and defeated, but Katsuki refused to believe Kirishima was actually hurt by those words.
What the fuck did he even mean by that anyway?
“You and your fucking manliness-"
“Answer me, Bakugou!" His voice picked up in a volume again, but sounded more desperate. "You have no reason to think I would go and tell people!”
You fucking-
“No reason? NO REASON!?" Katsuki yelled and bigger explosions went off from his hands. "You with your little investigation behind my back is not enough of a reason!? You joking about it with those fucking extras is not enough of a reason!?"
“They didn't get the joke! And I already apologised!" There was a short pause while he clearly tried to collect his thoughts. "Both for that… investigation and the joke! What do you want from me?!"
Katsuki clenched his teeth and fists as he stared at the ground, breathing heavily.
What did he want?
He wanted his secret to stay a secret.
He wanted the reassurance of it being safe.
...
He wanted to trust Kirishima.
But at this point, it was impossible.
“... You're keep talking about trusting you, like some kind of a broken record." Katsuki slowly raised his gaze and looked into those familiar red eyes. "But you know what? Fuck you, Kirishima."
"Bakugou-"
"Fuck. You."
With that, Katsuki turned around and quickly walked away.
And he was alone again.
Notes:
ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY, WE DID IT.
Sorry to those who've been here since the beginning, I'm sorry those boys haven't kissed yet I'M SORRY IT'S A SLOW BURN. But I'm genuinely grateful that you all are here and still reading this story <3I decided to not work during this summer to GIVE YOU ALL MORE UPDATES, so if any of you want support me, head to my tumblr and look at my bio *wink wink nudge nudge*
Once again, thank you all, old faces, new faces. Everyone.
And I swear that this boy will be happy one day.
As for now;
Up next; The sting of lonliness
Chapter 19: Solitude
Summary:
Angsty break up song from the 2000s
Notes:
Fair warning, Katsuki has a panic attack at the beginning
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Katsuki's palms were sweaty, his hands shaking uncontrollably. He tried to run at some point, to get home quicker, to be away from the world, but his legs were weak and he just couldn't breathe. He couldn't breathe and god fucking damn it, what has he done?!
But he already knew all too well.
Halfway home, still on the train, he realised what he'd done. That he told Kirishima what he really thought about him. Told him that he didn't trust him. Told him to fuck off.
From this point, his thoughts were a spiralling mess.
Katsuki gave Kirishima the reason to actually tell everyone. And he would do exactly that and all he worked for would be over.
One sentence, one text message, one whisper, only that and it would be over for Katsuki, just like that. It would be kindergarten, elementary school, middle school all over again. People would start pitying him, laughing at him, talking behind his back or become scared of his quirk and he wouldn't be able to do anything about it, otherwise he'd get expelled. His career as a pro-hero would be over.
Oh God, it was already over.
Kirishima already told someone. It wouldn't be long until the news spread and who would trust a hero who's quirk is that dangerous?
No one will trust him, no one will even want this rotten, wild beast as a sidekick, no one will let him help people, no one will even want his help, he will never be able to open his own agency, he will never become a number one hero, he will never be able to surpass All Might, he will forever stay behind Deku, he will always be alone-
"Katsuki!"
Katsuki's breath caught in his throat.
A voice.
Focus on the voice.
Someone was holding his face, but he couldn't see them, couldn't recognise them.
"Katsuki, breathe."
Man's voice.
"Breathe and focus, son."
Son?
Katsuki finally let out the air, just to take it back in, trying his best to do it slower and longer than before.
"That's it, in and out..."
He really didn't like being ordered something he was already doing, but the presence of someone was calming.
Couple more of deep, slow breaths, and Katsuki was finally able to focus properly. His eyes immediately went to look at the man before him.
Brown hair, glasses, moustache, father-
Katsuki pushed him away.
"What the fuck, old man!?" He yelled with a glare directed at his dad, whose face was a pure image of concern.
"Katsuki, you came home and-" closing his eyes, he took a deep breath, as if his dad was trying to calm himself down. "You were just out of it." He looked back at Katsuki with just so much worry in his eyes. "It was just like with that tie and-"
"DON'T TALK ABOUT IT!" Katsuki shouted at him, his body tense. He really didn't want to talk or even think about that time.
"Katsuki, please, what happened-"
"THAT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!" Katsuki was well aware that his father wanted to help, but he didn't need that. Didn't need someone's pitying looks as he'd explain how he and Kirishima-
Few sparks fired off, smoke emerging from Katsuki's palms. All over again, he felt the air get stuck in his lungs, his shoulders tensed, making his body shake uncontrollably.
Don't think about it, don't think about it, don't think-
There were hands on his shoulders.
"Katsuki please, talk to me-" His father didn't get to finish as Katsuki aggressively swatted his hands away, more smoke around both of them. His dad was so surprised, he stumbled backwards and stopped on the wall. For a few seconds, everything was quiet as he stared at his hands then at Katsuki in disbelief and shock.
The air was still between them.
Katsuki's throat clenched on itself. He really didn't mean to do that, but it was too late to fix anything.
Not able to utter an apology or even look his dad in the eyes, he ran past him, up the stairs and locked himself in his room. He threw his bag onto the floor, some stuff falling out of it, but he didn't care. Slumping against the door with closed eyes, Katsuki pulled his legs close to his chest. With hands pulling his hair and brushing against his scar, he reminded himself to breathe.
Don't think about it all. Distract yourself. He tried to tell himself and slowly opened his eyes.
Birds outside the window. Four of them flew by, all black.
Some stuff on his desk. His phone charger, laptop, small lamp, two mugs, one All Might themed.
His bed. Earphones tangled on the pillow, light blue covers.
Floor in front of him. His bag, few textbooks, headphones, hair gel-
… Hair gel?
Katsuki frowned in confusion and awkwardly moved towards the mess he made then grabbed the tube of gel. The one he knew Kirishima used on his hair several hours ago. Why the hell was it in his bag?
… Was there anything else?
Katsuki put the gel on the floor and searched through his bag. Not a minute passed when in the inside pocket, he found a carefully folded page from a notebook with 'To Bakubro' written on it in messy handwriting.
With a bit of hesitation, Katsuki unfolded the paper as he sat cross legged on the floor and stared at what was written on it in disbelief.
'Dear Hey Bakugou! Kirishima here! I'm pretty sure you're wondering like 'what the fuck is this note??' and well! This note is kind of an instruction? To help you To make sure you figure it out know how to use the gel without my help! I mean, I know you can just check on the intern Sorry for the smudge, Sero Horse Smile just nudged me saying that I take too long. But I just wanted to let you know what this is all about hah! So! There are few things you need to remember; first of all, a bit damp hair! Then you gotta start from roots…'
The note went on with the instructions and Katsuki couldn't believe that Kirishima did this. And what, he even gave him his gel.
Katsuki glanced at the tube and took it to check how much of the gel was still in there and- yes. Of course it would be almost full. Kirishima must have bought it only two or three days earlier.
Fuck.
Once again, he looked over the note. Kirishima did a shitty job crossing his mistakes out.
Like a kid. Katsuki chuckled but the smile immediately dropped from his face.
He read the last lines of the note again.
'Don't worry about returning it, use as much as you need until your hair is back to normal! Just consider it a gift, okay? < :D Good luck!!!'
… God fucking damn it, Kirishima…
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Eijirou spent the whole ride home cursing himself.
'Bet Bakugou couldn't even recognise himself!'
God, what was he thinking!
… He wasn't, that was the answer.
But it wasn't like he wanted to be an ass to Bakugou or tell Kaminari about his face blindness. It was just… a joke.
… Stupid joke that completely ruined what he managed to built with Bakugou.
Bakugou who entrusted him with styling his hair, with touching him, with what happened with it in the first place and what happened during his internship and what Best Jeanist- Damn it, even thinking about this 'hero' made Eijirou angry.
He took a calming breath in and sighed as he stepped off the train. Seriously, it wasn't like he could do anything about all this bullcrap. He couldn't just go and find Best Jeanist and tell him off.
That didn't stop him from wishful thinking though.
Hello sir, did you know that you're a terrible human being and shouldn't be a hero-
No. No no no no no. No matter how much Eijirou found he now hated the man, he couldn't just walk up to him and tell him he fucked up a perfectly normal guy-
Alright, maybe Bakugou wasn't perfectly normal and Eijirou was just biased. Still, that didn't give Best Jeanist the right to treat him like… like some kind of an animal. Not even that, but like some kind of a doll to dress up and play with while it can’t do anything about it.
Eijirou took another deep breath and ran a hand through his hair, which reminded him that he had to go and buy new gel. He headed to a store in search of his favourite brand and tried not to think about how the idea of sneaking his almost new gel into Bakugou's bag seemed kind of awkward now. And stupid. And oh God, his note-
"You paying or not?" Impatient cashier asked when Eijirou just stared at his wallet instead of paying.
"Ah- yeah! Sorry-" Eijirou tried to ignore the looks from the other people in line behind him. After quickly paying, he snatched the gel, put it in his bag along with the wallet and ran out of the store.
Trying not to think about the Bakugou situation, Eijirou ran all the way home.
Right as he walked through the door, Eijirou already heard his ma'. Something on TV probably made her laugh, since he knew that his mom was still at work.
Eijirou took off his shoes and went straight to the living room, without changing from his uniform. He just wanted to see a friendly face.
"Eichan!" His mama greeted him as soon as he stepped inside the room. "You won't believe what the pilot on this stupid tv drama just- what's wrong?" The smile was still on her face, yet it changed from amused to compassionate. She tapped a free space on the sofa next to her as she put away a bowl with some salad. "Come here, talk to your mama."
Eijirou wasn't sure if he wanted to talk about what happened. She must have noticed, because before he even moved, she spoke again, turning back to the TV.
"Or don't!" She shrugged. "But remember, for any serious talks, we only have until tomorrow afternoon." She then pretended to refocus on that 'stupid tv drama'.
Eijirou lingered at the entrance. They really didn't have much time, with her having another flight just the next day and then being gone for a few days, maybe a whole week. Maybe more.
Slowly, he left his bag at the entrance then moved towards the couch and plopped down, right next to her. She finally looked at him again and smiled, reaching to ruffle his hair.
"Your roots are showing." She pointed out and tilted her head for him to check as well.
"Yours too." Eijirou confirmed upon noticing her natural blonde colour in the mess of bright, red hair. He was kind of jealous of that, since she didn't have to bleach her hair to get that shade.
"I'll do yours if you do mine?" His mama smiled at him, patting his hair a few times.
"Of course!" Eijirou moved away, which only caused her to chase after him and further ruin his carefully styled hair. "Aw, mama, come on!" Like a kid, he whined.
"What's the matter, Eichan?" She teased and finally moved away. "It's not like you're going out!" As she was done ruining his hair, she laid down on the couch, her legs on Eijirou's. "So what was it that you wanted to talk about?" Smile was still present on her face while she basically trapped Eijirou there.
Of course. It wasn't like Eijirou wouldn't be able to push her away, but he didn't really mind. So he sighed and leaned on the back of the couch.
"It's kind of a lot and-"
"This bullshit is inaccurate anyway." She interrupted while turning off the TV and nudged him encouragingly.
"Language-"
"Pfff, don't you language me. You’re not your mom." With a snort, she nudged him on the shoulder again and waited.
To be honest… Eijirou wanted to talk about it. Needed even.
With slight hesitation, he told her everything. From the beginning of the school year, through he USJ incident and the sports festival, to his and Bakugou's confrontation and finally, today's argument. The only thing he kept for himself was what kind of disorder Bakugou had.
By the end of it, he wasn't looking at her, slightly afraid of her reaction. And she stayed silent throughout the whole time as he told his story.
"Let me get this straight, Eichan." Her voice was strangely stoic. "Just by the sheer suspicions, you decided to investigate your classmate's supposed medical condition that he didn't want to talk about with anyone?"
"Uh… well, when you put it that way-" At this point, it wasn't the fact that Eijirou couldn't look at her. He didn't want to, not sure what kind of expression he should expect from her.
"And Iwachan even advised you to 'investigate'?"
"Mom told me to just ask around and-"
"Holy fucking shit." She sounded both disappointed and tired. "Two most important people in my life are idiots."
"Hey-" Eijirou made to argue, but… she was kind of right. Seriously, when she put it this way… Damn it, even Aizawa told him not to put his nose into Bakugou's business! And now it was too late… Bakugou hated him and Eijirou will have to watch him be alone again, bottling everything up. He won't have any way to gain his trust again but now that he thought about it he probably didn't have it in the first place and-
He blinked when his vision got blurry and then sniffled.
"Eichan… Hey, no.." His mama shifted from her lying position then moved to hug him. "Don't cry…" She softly stroked his hair, putting her chin on top of his head.
"Crying-" another sniffle "-is manly too…" He managed to utter while burying his face in her shoulder.
"Yes, it is, but your mama can't watch you weep like this…" She cooed and continued to stroke his hair.
"But I messed up…"
"Yes, you did. Big time, but it's good that you see it now." Her hug got a bit tighter and she started humming, activating her quirk and helping Eijirou calm down with her soft voice, notes of the melody comforting him.
It took a few minutes, but once he calmed down, she moved away and took his face in her hands.
"It's not too late, Eichan." His mama frowned a little. "You can still fix it, you just have to do something to prove that he can trust you. Maybe let him know you better?"
Eijirou just nodded, not trusting his voice yet.
"But you'll need to figure this one out yourself." She kissed his forehead and completely moved away, reaching for her phone on the coffee table. "I need to call my other favourite idiot." With a frown, she left the room, although Eijirou could still hear her yell 'what the hell, Iwachan!?'
Eijirou sighed and lied down on the couch, staring up at the ceiling. For now, he had no idea as to what he could do or say to get Bakugou to trust him again.
… Or rather, to actually start trusting him.
"Eichan!" His ma's voice called to him from another room and Eijirou propped himself on an elbow.
"Yeah!?"
"Could you start preparing the hair dye and bleach? I won't take much longer!" Then he heard a door shutting.
Eijirou sat up on the couch. That's right, there wasn't any sense in wasting time… Really, he had other things to do than ponder and cry about his mistakes. After a few more seconds, he finally stood up and first went to his room to change into something that he could get dirty with hair dye, and then finally to the bathroom.
Right away, Eijirou prepared the bleach for himself, but when he checked how much hair dye they still had, he cursed himself, because there was only a bit left. Maybe enough for one and a half head and damn it, he could have bought the dye along with the hair gel! But he was thinking about-
Bakugou. How Eijirou without hesitation put that gel in his bag, because he had a feeling that Bakugou would be too proud to go and buy it himself, even though he needed it. And he needed it because someone decided he wasn't good enough like he was normally and forced that change without thinking about what that would cause and how Bakugou would feel about it and how he didn't even want this change but he was probably scared of being restrained by that fucking excuse of a hero-
"Eichan, holy shit, calm down!"
Eijirou felt small hands on his own that were hardened, squeezing the tube of dye that luckily ended up in a little bowl he prepared.
He looked at his mama and tried to calm down, but he was just so angry and frustrated, because he couldn't do anything for Bakugou, either when he confided in Eijirou through text messages or now, because Eijirou fucked up and ruined everything and-
"Eichan." Soft voice sang. "Calm down and take a deep breath~"
Mama's humming and few deeper breaths helped him enough to relax and release his quirk from his hands.
"... what happened? I thought you were sad, not angry?" She put a hand on his cheek and he looked into her yellow eyes. Sometimes it was hard to focus on them, considering the lack of irises and pupils, but right then, it was a nice distraction.
"... Mama, do you know how to file a formal complaint about a hero?"
At first she chuckled, but when she saw Eijirou’s serious expression, she blinked, confused and probably taken aback.
"A hero made you this angry?" With raised eyebrows, she looked at the amount of hair dye that they had.
"He- he was an asshole to my-" could Eijirou still call Bakugou a friend? "... He was an asshole to Bakugou…" He muttered finally and waited for her reaction.
"Well, you could always say that to this hero's face." She turned back to him and stared into his eyes, some kind of a challenge there. "Sir, you are an asshole." She mimicked Eijirou's voice.
"Oh my God, mama, NO!" The thought of walking up to Best Jeanist and telling him that , no matter how tempting, was still terrifying. "I absolutely could not do that!" He couldn't help but cover his face in some kind of embarrassment.
"Do as you please, Eichan." With a shrug and a sly smile, she patted his shoulder. "Anyway, I'll just do your hair and after I come back, you'll do mine okay?"
Right, the little amount of hair dye.
"Mama-"
"Oh, don't you mama me right now. The whole crew knows I'm a natural blonde, and the passengers care more about the plane not crashing, not the roots of some flight attendant. You, on the other hand-" she put a finger on his forehead "-have an image that you need to keep, Eichan!" She gave him a warm smile and Eijirou sighed, accepting the situation. She was right after all.
"Alright." He returned the smile and turned towards the shower to wash off his hair gel.
"You'll feel better too after this!"
Ah, he really hoped so...
___
Katsuki was sitting on his bed, in the dark, past midnight, with his hair once again in that sorry state and felt absolutely pathetic and miserable. The window was wide open, but he couldn't find it in himself to go and close it, even though it was getting colder and colder by every minute. He had more important things to do. For example, he practiced styling his hair with that cursed gel and then spent the last two hours staring at the chats on his phone, keep checking if Kirishima would say anything.
But one of those things wasn't blaming himself for what happened. Because he absolutely wasn't at fault.
Kirishima was the one at fault. Kirishima was the one who dared to say that stupid fucking joke. Kirishima was the one who sneakily found out the truth about him. Kirishima was the one who helped him-
No.
No no no, fucking no.
Fuck. No.
Katsuki held his breath as he barely stopped himself from throwing his phone across the room.
Kirishima didn't do shit. All he did was that he pissed Katsuki off. With his fucking joke and bullshit about trusting him. Damn it, Katsuki only recently learned his stupid name, how was he supposed to trust him!?
He looked at the chats again, staring at the class' one and then at his private one with Kirishima. Temptation to just delete the whole conversation and then block this idiot was high, but then he wouldn't see his messages in the group chat, which was unusually quiet that night.
Katsuki's finger hovered over Kirishima's name for a few seconds before he thought fuck it, and just tapped it, their conversation immediately opening.
The latest exchange was from the last day of their internships and Katsuki almost couldn't believe how… natural talking with Kirishima felt back then. How calming it was, considering he had to deal with that fucker Best Jeanist.
Kirishima congratulated him on, as he put it, roasting the hero and, well, Katsuki liked the praise.
… Maybe he could just text him?
Katsuki almost started typing, but he realised that he had no idea what he was supposed to say. He was still angry and if anything, he wanted to call Kirishima out on his shitty behaviour-
Kirishima is typing…
Katsuki dropped his phone. With eyes wide and a pounding heart, he stared at the device that was now lying on the bed, screen down, and wondered if he saw that right. Or if he started seeing things.
Then he realised that if Kirishima did send something, he'd immediately see that Katsuki read it and somehow, this time Katsuki really didn't want him to know that he saw the message. Before it didn't bother him, leaving Kirishima on read, but now-
Katsuki snatched his phone from the bed and hurriedly tapped on the homescreen button, but even if just for a split second, he still saw that Kirishima was still fucking typing.
Then a minute passed.
Then another one.
Then more.
And before Katsuki knew it, he's been waiting for the notification for half an hour, his leg bouncing nervously.
Fuck it, he thought and before he could stop himself, Katsuki went and opened that chat just to see that Kirishima was offline.
Somehow, this only made him angry. This time at himself, because of course Kirishima wouldn't message him after all that, what the fuck did he expect?!
… What did he expect?
That Kirishima would actually text him? What was he supposed to say? Apologise? Call Katsuki names? Laugh at him? Tell him that the whole school would know by tomorrow?
Something clenched in Katsuki's stomach.
He was really tired. Those thoughts would only keep him awake for longer and again… He had better things to do than wondering about asshole Shitty hair.
Ah...
When was the last time he used that nickname?
At that moment, Katsuki honestly didn't remember… He was too tired.
___
Katsuki tried to listen to every single conversation in the morning. At first it was easy, only a few people in the class, but as more of his classmates arrived, there were more voices and more noise and it was harder to actually hear what was being said and by who. Everything was a mess and Katsuki practically heard his brain screaming in panic. Especially when someone would laugh.
If that wasn't enough, Kirishima wasn't in class yet. That should have calmed him down, but only made him more nervous, uneasy. Where was this asshole?
Katsuki was staring at the door when a guy with all too familiar hairstyle walked through. Finally, Shitty hair arrived. Just five minutes before the first period and the second their eyes met, Katsuki subconsciously glared at him, to which Kirishima quickly averted his eyes and hurriedly moved to his desk.
Staring at this bastard was one of the options Katsuki thought about, just to be sure that he didn't tell anyone, but he just couldn't stand looking at him.
This was going to be a long fucking day.
___
Eijirou knew few things.
First, Ashido and Kaminari immediately realised that something was off, because Eijirou didn't greet them or Bakugou. Just hurriedly sat at his desk and kept his eyes down, even when they started teasing him about trouble in paradise and even got Sero's attention.
The second thing he knew was that Bakugou started ignoring him. When he first arrived in class, Eijirou wanted to try and talk to him, but the moment he saw the way Bakugou looked at him, with so much anger and hatred that he hasn't seen directed at him in a few weeks, made him chicken out and just go straight to his desk. And now, Bakugou wouldn't even glance at him, even though half a lesson passed.
Which led to the third and last thing he knew. That he was screwed. Utterly fucked. Because Aizawa announced that their exams were coming and Eijirou was in the bottom four that so far either had the worst results or didn't pass some of the previous trial exams. And another one of those was coming.
Eijirou lowkey hated his life at the moment.
Who needed math and biology as a pro hero?!
But all this continued.
Up until the lunch break, every teacher would remind them of upcoming exams, his friends' questions were more and more persistent, even though Kaminari and Sero probably had a slight idea that he and Bakugou had some kind of an argument, and then-
Bakugou's back was all Eijirou saw during this time. There weren't any people around him. He didn't try to talk or even look at anyone. He was just sitting there, probably staring at the blackboard and just… being alone. Like before.
"Hey, Kiri…" Ashido's surprisingly gentle voice brought him back to reality. "It's lunchtime." Her smile was a bit flat when she pointed at Sero and Kaminari who were standing at the door, glancing between him and Ashido.
"Ah, yeah, of course-" Eijirou muttered and stood up, then his gaze locked on Bakugou again.
Eijirou watched as he reached for his bag and pulled out a lunch box which he immediately put on his desk.
Of course. Bakugou was going to eat there.
Alone.
For some reason, Eijirou couldn't bear seeing him like this, but he knew that his presence wasn't welcome. So he just clenched his fists and rushed out of the class, his confused friends tailing behind. He was somehow thankful that they didn't say anything throughout the whole way to the cafeteria, even though Eijirou was sure that they were wondering why he didn't walk up to Bakugou to invite him to spend the lunch break together.
The silence ended when they all sat at a table.
"Alright, I can't take it-" Kaminari put his hands on the table and leaned towards Eijirou who was sitting in front of him. "What happened yesterday?" With a frown on his face, he asked in a serious tone. "Was it me? Too much blabbing about the internships?"
"No, no, it wasn't you…" Eijirou glanced to the side while his hand clenched around a fork. If he had to be honest, he didn't really want to talk about it.
"Dude, seriously-" Sero started in a careful tone "-I ran through this conversation a few times in my head and I couldn't find anything that would trigger Bakugou like that!" He finished and Kaminari nodded..
"Me too! When he was all 'what the fuck, Kirishima' I honestly thought he confused our names!" Kaminari crossed his arms on his chest, his shoulders a bit tense when he leaned back in his chair, while Eijirou felt a bit of weight lift off his shoulders.
They didn’t realize after all.
"No, it's-"
"Okay, stop." All three of them turned to Ashido. "What am I missing?" She was pouting, her eyebrows scrunched in confusion.
"Bakugou and Kirishima had- uhhh…" Sero scratched his neck and looked to the side as if searching for the right words in a crowd of students. "An argument? I guess?" He glanced at Kaminari who just shrugged.
"I mean… We kinda… left Kirishima alone…" Kaminari dipped his chin towards his chest, clearly apologetic for his actions.
"Ah, shit. Yeah." Sero finally turned to Eijirou. "Sorry about that, we thought-"
"No! No, don't apologise!" Eijirou quickly interrupted. Because seriously, the fact that they left when they did spared both him and Bakugou some explaining. "We just…" He looked at Ashido who seemed as if she was trying to put all the puzzle pieces together. "Yeah, I guess we had an argument."
"What!?" Ashido yelled as she stood up, bringing the attention of some of the other students to them. She sent a few of them an awkward, apologetic smile and once they all were ignoring them again, she sat down and continued, quieter this time. "Why? What happened?" To Eijirou's surprise, she actually seemed more concerned about the situation than he'd expected her to be. Especially when she grabbed his hand into her two and squeezed lightly.
"I… kind of don't want to talk about it…" He didn't lie, but he didn't tell the whole truth. Because in reality, Eijirou also couldn't talk about it, not that he wanted to. But if he told his friends- told anyone anything, Bakugou would never trust him again. Or anyone.
… Oh. That's right. For a reason not known to Eijirou, Bakugou probably never trusted anyone. Did someone before told his secret? Broke his trust? If Bakugou was so careful about it all, keeping everyone at the same distance, not trusting people, treating everyone with similar dose of hostility… He had to have a reason, right?
"You two were supposed to confess your eternal love in two weeks! Not destroy your relationship altogether!" Ashido's voice brought him back to earth.
Eijirou looked back down at his food.
This was just teasing. Jokes. She just wanted to cheer him up like this, because he probably looked miserable, and he knew that very well, but...
"I'm sorry, Ashido, but I.. I'm not exactly in the mood for those jokes right now." Eijirou sent her a smile, but was well aware that she saw right through it.
"Ah… No, Kiri, I-" Glancing between Sero and Kaminari, she seemingly searched for the right words, but neither of them knew how to help. "Don't apologize… I'm sorry, I should have read the mood better." Ashido looked back at him and squeezed his hand once again.
"Thanks…" Eijirou smiled again, a bit more honestly this time.
"But just so you know, once you two make up, my silence will be over!" With a wink, she smiled and poked his forehead with a single finger.
"Oh, yeah!" Kaminari provided with a grin, lightly kicking Eijirou under the table. "There's no escaping the teasing, dude!"
"You guys never know when to quit, huh?" Sero asked and leaned tiredly on his hand when both Ashido and Kaminari shook their heads. "... That being said, we're going to tease the shit out of you, just you wait." He finished and all three of them laughed.
Eijirou couldn't help but chuckle at that as well.
"Can't wait for that." And he honestly couldn't wait for that teasing to come back.
For Bakugou to come back.
___
After the last lesson, Eijirou was stopped by Aizawa before he could leave the class.
"Sensei, if it's about the exams, I swear I'll study more and-"
"Your little investigation finally backfired?" Aizawa interrupted him as he collected some papers and Eijirou felt his throat clench on itself.
He honestly didn't know what to say. Not that he even could, as the air wasn't exactly making it to his lungs. So Eijirou just stared blankly at his teacher, unable to move as cold sweat ran down his back.
"I'll be honest with you." Aizawa gave him a tired look and then slowly moved towards the door, Eijirou a bit behind. "I was surprised to see that Bakugou actually went out of his way to spend time with you and others." Both of them left the class and Aizawa locked the door behind them, while Eijirou didn't know what to say.
To his surprise, they didn't head to teachers' lounge or even the principal's office.
"If your goal is still to be his friend, by now you should know what he needs." His eyes were locked on something and when Eijirou followed the teacher's gaze, he was surprised to see Bakugou, apparently heading towards support department's wing.
But why?
"Support gear is not the only kind of support this kid needs in his life."
Eijirou's eyes widened at those words. Support gear?
"But he won't accept it just from anyone." Aizawa finished shortly and left to head to the teachers' lounge, leaving Eijirou alone to wonder just what kind of support gear Bakugou needed.
Few moments passed, and even though he already lost the sight of Bakugou, Eijirou still didn't want to get caught by him, in case he would turn back here and accuse Eijirou of investigating him again. So as quickly as he could, he left the school building.
Eijirou's mood lifted a little bit when he saw his moms waiting for him, since they were to drive his ma' to the airport in Tokyo.
___
Katsuki stood some distance away from the one corridor he never thought he'd find his way into. Glaring at the plate above it that read 'Support department', he tried his best to pretend before anyone who'd come by, even though it was after all lessons have ended and he was one of the few students still there, that he was just waiting for somebody. Or even just hanging around and not fighting with himself over going there and talking to some random fucking teacher about his problem, that wasn't even there. What Aizawa said was total bullshit, he absolutely did not have any trouble with telling villains and heroes apart.
Except that it was a lie.
Because there were several occasions for him to really realise that he did have a problem with it and that his teacher was right. As usual. Not that Katsuki would tell him that.
What would they even do to him? Give him some stupid glasses that would stand out too much?
Katsuki immediately thought about that annoying guy that would always arrive some time after him in the class. And his stupid glasses. And wondered what did he do with them upon changing into his hero costume and now that he actually thought about it, he realised that he's never seen anyone with glasses during their hero training. Right. Because like a stubborn idiot he didn't care enough to actually take a note of that.
Maybe he should have…
Should have paid more attention to his classmates at least. And maybe some more teachers. But no. Because instead, like an moron, he chose to ignore everyone and because of that Aizawa wanted him to get some fucking support gear like some sort of weakling and-
Katsuki felt eyes on him.
Quickly, he turned around and there was nobody there, but he just knew. Ages and ages of people staring at his back, whispering between each other, thinking they were being subtle, made him hyper aware of that.
Katsuki always knew when someone was staring at him.
"Where the fuck are you!?" Looking around, he yelled, trying to sound confident.
But everything was still and quiet. The corridor was empty and after a few seconds passed, Katsuki released the air he was holding in and cursed how paranoid he'd become. Idiotic coward, thinking that the fucking air was staring at him.
God, how pathetic he felt when he rubbed at his scar in an effort to comfort himself, but it only made him feel like even bigger of an idiot.
Katsuki took in a deep breath and looked over his shoulder. The plate above the corridor was still there, mocking him and making him sick all over again. With a sigh he decided to go back home. After all, there wasn't really anything he could do this day.
___
"If you tell him to do something so stupid again, I'm divorcing you." Mama hugged his mom while saying that and Eijirou wanted to go and hide somewhere.
"We're not married, honey." His mom answered flatly as she kissed her not-wife goodbye.
"I know, and I wouldn't actually divorce you, Iwachan." She giggled as she got kissed on the cheek several times.
"Kirishima-san!" Someone from the crew called out to his mama, but-
"Yes?" Both of them asked at the same time and Eijirou bit back a chuckle while the crewmate laughed.
"I meant Saki-san." He smiled and pointed at a watch on his wrist, signalling that the time for the departure was coming. "We need to hurry."
"Ah, yes, of course! Thank you!" Ma' nodded at him and hugged both of them. "You-" she turned to his mom and pointed at her "-don't burn anything and no stupid advices." Without waiting for an answer, she turned to Eijirou. "And you-" she stopped herself and looked him in the eyes. "... just try and let him know you better." She put a hand on his cheek. "Can you do that, Eichan?"
Eijirou only nodded as an answer, smiling as widely as his still kind of bad mood let him.
"I love you both so much, take care of yourselves, you fucking disasters." She hugged them tightly, first Eijirou with no trouble, and then his mom, reaching up to circle her arms around her neck.
“Language.” Mom muttered as she returned the hug.
"Kirishima-san!" Different crewmate called out again.
"Oh, I'm coming!" She yelled back frustrated and then, one last time, kissed his mom. And off she was.
"And then there were two." Mom put a hand on her hip as she looked down at Eijirou. "Are you hungry?" She turned around and started walking towards the exit from the airport.
Eijirou thought about it and immediately knew that he had no appetite whatsoever, but actually was hungry so he simply nodded in response.
"Do you want McDonald's?" At her question, Eijirou snorted. "Oh so you do still know how to laugh!" She snickered and pushed him lightly.
"Mama told you not to burn anything, that didn't mean buying me junk food!" He couldn't help but continue laughing, something he didn't have a reason to do since this whole… argument.
"What Saki doesn't see, won't hurt her!" They approached the car and got in.
"But will hurt my diet." Eijirou did need shitton of calories with his every day training, but those calories were supposed to come from healthy food.
His mom stopped at that.
"You're right, baby." She sighed and started the car after she glanced at Eijirou to make sure he had his seatbelt on. "... But since McDonald's is a no no-" she continued after a few minutes of silent driving through the city "-maybe some ramen?" They stopped at the traffic lights.
Eijirou stared out the window as they waited for the green light, his eyes wandering after teenagers who for some reason were running in one direction all of a sudden.
"Sure, sounds-" the words died in his throat when he realized what those people were running after in the first place.
"Darling? Something wrong?"
He could barely process her question as rage filled his whole body, his hardened hands ripping the seatbelt and without thinking, he got out of the car.
"Eijirou!?"
Completely ignoring his mom, he made his way around a car that was waiting next to theirs and ran towards a hero he spotted.
It didn't take long, honestly Eijirou took longer getting through the little crowd of fangirls, but then-
"Would you like an autograph as well, young man?"
Eijirou found himself face to face with Best Jeanist.
Notes:
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Up next; Less angst for a change
Chapter 20: Whatever it takes
Summary:
Baby Come Back
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Tsunagu's day started fairly normal.
He came to his office, changed into his hero costume that was freshly washed, his assistant delivered him his morning tea and ran with him through the day's schedule.
Despite his tea being a bit too sweet, for which his assistant apologised, and Tsunagu's dinner with one of the sponsors being rescheduled, he found his day rather pleasant, especially that he could go on a patrol in the late hours of the afternoon, show his face in public and share some time with his adoring fans.
Speaking of which, he got surrounded by them. All of them were keeping a respectful distance of course, this he couldn't complain about. Yet…
There was a boy in front of him. Two meters away at most. And at first, Tsunagu didn't pay much mind to him, too busy with other fans, but that was until he turned to the boy and asked if he wished for an autograph as well.
Now that he actually looked at him… Tsunagu couldn't even focus on the appearance of the young boy. His cold, red eyes were piercing right through him with seething fury and Tsunagu took half a step back, his guard up. The longer the boy looked at him, the angrier he appeared to get, his sharp teeth bared and claws instead of normal fingers on his hands.
To put it simply, that boy looked as if he was out for blood.
Similar to the infamous Hero Killer.
But the man was imprisoned, so it obviously wasn't him, especially that Stain certainly wasn't a young boy. Around fifteen, maybe sixteen years old.
Maybe a copycat? But would he be stupid enough to attack a hero in the middle of the day, while surrounded by civilians?
Tsunagu would have to act quickly if he were to attack-
"You're a fucking bastard." The boy practically growled at him.
Tsunagu blinked.
Excuse me? He wanted to ask, but before Tsunagu could even open his mouth-
"Look at you, thinking you're the pinnacle of humanity!"
The crowd around them fell silent, spare for few murmurs, and Tsunagu noticed some people take out their phones.
"Letting these people think that of you too, thinking you're more worthwhile and better than others just because you try and make yourself look like a pretty little doll and talk nice?! You treat those who don't appeal to your standards like shit, while you're the biggest piece of shit around here! Fuck you!"
Tsunagu was simply stunned, his eyes widened and staring at the boy who's face, neck and arms seemed to be completely hardened now. The way he spoke, roughly and loudly, sounded awfully similar to the way a certain intern of his spoke.
Were they connected in some manner, perhaps?
They did share the uniform of UA-
"What?" The boy disturbed his thoughts. "Too high and mighty to speak to someone who isn't licking your boots?! Or maybe it's because you can't restrain me in public, huh?!"
Tsunagu's eyes widened even more at that.
"Maybe it's because you can't even try to break me down, because even if you did I'd make you swallow your own fucking teeth!"
With that, the boy suddenly moved towards him, someone in the crowd screaming in panic, some people running away, and Tsunagu instinctively used his quirk, fibers quickly around the boy's wrists and knees, keeping him in place. His whole arms and hands were still hardened, yet something changed. As the boy breathed heavily, his arms and face became more rugged, turning into something resembling a wild stone monster rather than a high school student. He was completely hardened, with terrifyingly sharp teeth and furious expression and red eyes. Whenever he moved, there was this unpleasant grating sound.
Seemingly with no trouble, he brought the restrained wrists to his teeth and shred the fibers, making few more people yell in panic.
Tsunagu almost made the next move, the boy as well but-
There stood a rather tall woman between them. She was panting, as if she just sprinted there, her upper body hardened in a similar manner to this boy's, although she was more human looking than him. Her hands, with slightly more delicate claws, were on the boy's shoulders, keeping him in place.
"What are you doing?!" She yelled, still facing the boy.
"HE MADE IT PHYSICAL, I'M LEGALLY ALLOWED TO KICK HIS ASS!" The boy's features softened, yet he refused to release his quirk completely, his skin still hardened, as if he wanted to be ready for the fight.
"EIJIROU, YOU STUPID BABY, THAT'S NOT HOW THE LAW WORKS!"
The law.
Tsunagu remembered who he was and what his job was.
His guard still up, he finally spoke to them, trying his best to sound confident in this strange situation.
"Civilians aren't allowed to use their quirks-"
"Ah, I'm sorry-" his eye twitched in annoyance when the woman interrupted him, but then she turned and Tsunagu noticed the resemblance between her and the boy, with the same eyes and teeth.
One hand still on the angry boy's shoulder, she reached to the inside pocket of her jacket and pulled out a badge.
"Detective Kirishima, at your service Best Jeanist. I have a permit to use my quirk in my wallet which I left in my car when this one here-" she sent the boy a glare "-jumped out of it."
Ah, so they are related. Tsunagu thought and continued.
"That still doesn't justify the boy using his quirk in public space." Tsunagu didn't miss how the boy glared at him, the acquaintance with Bakugou almost unquestionable at this point. "And against a hero." He squinted his eyes when he heard a muttering of 'hero my ass' from the boy.
Detective sent the boy another glare before turning to Tsunagu again, her eyes almost pleading.
"Best Jeanist, I can promise that I'll take care of it and that he is sorry about-"
"I'm not! He's a bully, not a hero!" The boy yelled again, staring Tsunagu in the eyes as if challenging him to react. "He's not manly like real heroes are!"
"I said-" she put a hand on the back of boy's head and made him bow a little. "That he is sorry."
Tsunagu was aware of the situation he was in. And that in some way, he might have brought it upon himself. But this boy… was just that. A boy. Even if his quirk was powerful, he still did no harm or didn't attack another civilian. If Tsunagu were to push charges against him, or anything in this manner, for the public it'd look like he felt threatened by a mere high schooler who had a tantrum.
And that wouldn't do.
"Apologies accepted." He settled on saying to that detective Kirishima and observed as the tension disappeared from her shoulders.
"Thank you. And I apologise as well." She bowed her head and after making sure that the boy wouldn't say or do anything else, she rushed away with him.
The boy sent him one last angry glare over his shoulder.
Like on a signal, some journalist, that seemingly appeared out of nowhere, approached him with several questions about that boy, the crowd of fans staring at him expectantly.
"... No comment." Tsunagu cut shortly and excused himself, as he decided it was the best time to head back to his agency.
___
Katsuki walked down the stairs and wanted to head to the kitchen and eat something before his evening shower, but his dad's voice from the living room stopped him.
"Katsuki, the hero you had an internship with is on the news!"
Fuck him. Katsuki thought to himself. He had way better things to do than watching anything related to that fucking asshole who made his hair look fucking terrible, even if it was slowly turning back to normal, with Kirishima's help-
"Hey brat!" This time it was his mother.
"Fucking WHAT!" He yelled from the kitchen and opened the fridge. Maybe he could eat fucking cereal, who would stop him?
"I think someone from your school was arguing with him!" Katsuki's movements halted at her amused voice which sounded almost like she was sure that her words would get Katsuki interested enough to come and watch the news with them.
"Good for them!" Katsuki yelled again with some spite, yet actually satisfied that someone was brave (or rather stupid) enough to argue with Best Jeanist in public, and grabbed a carton of milk.
His mother continued to yell something about the news, his father trying to shush her, but Katsuki tuned them out.
That sorry excuse of a hero had enough fucking fangirls to watch him.
___
As usual, Katsuki was sitting at his desk, waiting for the lessons to start with his headphones on. This way no one would bother him, not even one of those extras who sat with Kirishima and him during lunch. For some reason, they tried to talk to Katsuki behind Shitty hair's back the day before. What about? Katsuki had no idea because he was in a hurry to that fucking support department and completely ignored them after realising who in the damn world were they.
So now he was glad that no one was bothering him. For the most part, Katsuki only stared at the blackboard and glanced at the door from time to time, waiting for that asshole to walk through it.
Katsuki was kind of relieved that he didn't tell anyone so far, at least it seemed like that, considering no one approached Katsuki about his 'problem'. But it also made him wonder, since Kirishima now had a reason to tell everyone, he still didn't. Even if Katsuki didn't want to believe it, a voice in the back of his head told him that Kirishima was too scared to tell. Like Deku. Like everyone.
Then it finally happened. As Katsuki expected, Shitty hair walked through the door.
But what Katsuki didn't expect was that he'd immediately get crowded by half of his classmates, each one of them talking to him at the same time.
Katsuki quickly took off his headphones and listened, because what if-
"Was that really you, man?!" Guy with black hair asked, judging by the hairstyle and his height, it might have been Horse smile.
"I heard that was police involved!"
"No way, this guy on the tv was swearing too much!"
"But the hair! The hair matched, dude!"
Katsuki couldn't place every single voice, but all that was enough to actually make him wonder what the fuck they were talking about.
"Huh, I wonder what's going on.."
He heard a familiar muttering behind him. Katsuki didn't have to turn to figure out it was Deku. Of all the people he should have known what was going on, so why the fuck-
"Midoriya." Stoic, kind of bored voice but not in the same way as Aizawa's. Katsuki glanced at the guy and saw the red-white hair and a scar, distinguishable features of Half face.
"Ah, Todoroki-kun!" Deku sounded too cheerful all of a sudden. "You know what's up with Kirishima-kun?"
Instead of the loud crowd, Katsuki focused on that conversation behind him.
"... You don't know?" Half face was obviously surprised. At least Katsuki wasn't the only one who had no clue what was happening, but the idea that the only other person was fucking Deku-
"I was busy studying!" Of fucking course. "Then the training and then I had to help my mom with some groceries, then I thought that I might as well study more before supper, and after eating I wanted to go for a jog and-"
"Midoriya, you're rambling again." Half face cut in and Katsuki was actually fucking thankful for that, because at this point, he just wanted to slam his head on his desk, that would save him from listening to that bastard's annoying voice...
"Right! Sorry!" Deku's stupid, panicked tone only made him want to do that even more. "So, what happened?"
"The UA student told Best Jeanist to fuck off. And almost attacked him."
What.
"WHAT!?"
Katsuki turned at the volume of Deku's voice to see him standing with shocked expression.
"And that student looked awfully similar to Kirishima." Half face looked over his shoulder at the little crowd, acting as if he wasn't moved by Deku's reaction. "From the clip they showed, I also noticed the hardened skin so..." He shrugged and turned his eyes back to Deku while Katsuki straightened in his seat, staring down at his desk.
Kirishima told Best Jeanist to fuck off and almost fought him on the street.
Kirishima who he never even heard say 'fuck' before.
Kirishima who would rather talk first, before trying to fight with someone.
That Kirishima?
But… Kirishima did look like a wild, angry animal when he heard what Best Jeanist did to Katsuki, so maybe...
But holy fuck, didn't someone say there was police involved?
"Are you sure!?" Deku continued, his voice only slightly lowered.
"Hard to tell. I only saw the guy from behind and it wasn't the best video quality." He sounded mildly bored at this point, but for the first time ever, Katsuki was actually curious about what he had to say.
"Oh God, Kirishima-kun could be in trouble! The school might-"
"Best Jeanist looked more surprised than angry. He didn't even want to give an interview afterwards."
Best Jeanist didn't want to give an interview. What the fuck was even happening. Did Katsuki actually slam his head against his desk and travelled to some sort of alternate universe?
"But he-"
"Alright, that's enough gossip for today."
Katsuki turned to the door to see Aizawa come through, the small crowd immediately dispersing, every student in their seat.
"I know the news yesterday were quite interesting and will probably get our school more attention than necessary-" his eyes were locked on one point in front if him and Katsuki followed his gaze to see Kirishima who tried to hide his head between his shoulders. "But you need to focus on what's important right now and that is your studies."
Some people groaned tiredly, yet Katsuki was still focused on Kirishima.
Did he actually do that? What for? Was he actually that angry at this whole situation?
Kirishima sighed and when it seemed like he was about to look up, Katsuki turned away. No way he'd get caught staring at him.
He just hoped this day wouldn't get any weirder.
___
"Kiri!"
Eijirou looked up from where he was staring at his shoes while waiting for the train to move and saw Ashido.
"I thought you and Kami went to the arcade?" She asked as Eijirou scooted to the side so she could sit next to him. Ashido sat down, put her backpack on her legs and stared at him, waiting for an answer.
"He invited me, yeah…" Eijirou had a feeling that Kaminari also wanted to get him to talk about the Best Jeanist situation. "But I kind of have a house arrest?" He shot her an awkward smile which dropped after a second.
"I thought it was your mom in that clip." Ashido stated and crossed her arms over her chest, meanwhile the train finally started.
Ah. So she knew that it was him on the news. Eijirou couldn't help but rub his eyes tiredly, he had a hard time sleeping that night, worrying about Bakugou and then thinking about Best Jeanist. Not that he regretted doing it all, that asshole was lucky his mom got there when she did. Some people would argue. They'd tell Eijirou that he was the lucky one that he didn't actually have to fight the pro. But in all seriousness, given a chance, he'd gladly send him to hell and-
"Kiri, you're gonna rip your pants." Ashido's voice brought him back to earth and Eijirou realised his hands were hardened where they were clutching at the material of his uniform pants. "Seriously, what happened out there?" She lowered her voice, unusually worried look on her face.
Eijirou released his quirk and sighed with a frown.
"I almost threw hands with Best Jeanist."
"Pft, yeah-" she chuckled "-this I gathered." She nudged him with her elbow and continued. "I just don't know why! You were all sad and miserable yesterday about Baku basically ignoring you and then I see you on the news with rabies." She leaned towards him and whispered. "Did you get rabies from making out with him?"
Eijirou pushed her away as she laughed loudly.
"Can. You. Not." He pleaded as he felt his face get hotter.
"Sorry, sorry-" despite her words, she was still laughing, yet it turned into more of a giggle after a few seconds. In the end, she took a deep breath and looked back at him. "So?"
Eijirou wondered what he could really tell her. Even though in middle school they didn't talk that much, they got much closer now that they were in the same class and he knew he could trust her, but…
He didn’t have to give her any details, right?
"During internships, Best Jeanist, he… He was just terrible to Bakugou. And when I saw him out there I just… got angry, I guess..." Eijirou stared at his clenched fists that were shaking slightly. "I guess I just wanted to actually do something, not just stand and stare like a coward, prove to myself that I'm manly enough to deserve to be Bakugou's friend, because if it wasn't for Best Jeanist's doings and me being a fucking moron-" he felt a hand on his tense shoulder. Ashido smiled at him kindly once he looked at her.
"Do you want to know something?" Her question surprised him to the point that he could only nod. "When I saw you with that wild, bright, red hair on the first day, I thought 'he's just hiding behind a mask'."
Eijirou's eyes widened in surprise, but when he wanted to say something, she shushed him by raising her other hand.
"I thought 'this guy was only talk, how did he make it to the UA?' but then you like, totally ignored me making fun of your hair and rushed to help a guy you thought was being bullied and I thought 'oh I guess he actually changed!' and I was really excited!" She jumped a little in her seat, smiling brightly and clasping her hands together. "I couldn't wait to get to know The New Kiri! And this new Kiri was doing amazing during all hero exercises! His quirk got stronger and he was amazing during sports festival! He even managed to befriend someone who I used to think of as a dangerous jerk and now he's telling me that he was ready to fight Best Jeanist, number four in all of Japan, just because he was an ass to his friend? That new Kiri is super manly."
Eijirou was baffled. Couldn't move and didn't know what to say or how to react to her words.
"You're manly, Kirishima Eijirou." She finished and hugged him tightly, her words finally settling in his mind.
She is... a really good friend. Eijirou thought to himself and returned the hug, an honest smile finally on his face.
"Thanks, Ashido…" He said softly and then settled on staying silent, not sure what else he could add.
"Of course! And you more than deserve Baku's friendship!" Ashido continued once she pulled away. "And if he doesn't see it? Then he just has to get to know you better." One last time, she nudged him on a shoulder and winked at him. It seemed like she wanted to add something else, but her phone rang. "Sorry- Dad?" She picked up and Eijirou tuned her out.
'He just has to get to know you better.' Her words were echoing in his head. His ma' told him something similar. Maybe he should just throw all the information about him at Bakugou, then he'll be sure to get to know him better-
Wait.
That was exactly what he needed!
Bakugou needed to get to know him and what was the better way than the information dump!
All Eijirou had to do was to somehow get Bakugou to talk to him again!
But how?
Next to him, Ashido sighed.
"My dad saw my grades." She groaned as she threw her phone back into her backpack. "He's kinda mad that my worst subject is chemistry."
"But he's a chemist, how-"
"Can you fly a plane?" She frowned at him with a pout.
"Okay, first of all, my mama's a flight attendant, not a pilot-"
"Doesn't matter, I'm screwed." Ashido cut in and slumped down a bit with a frown, then sighed tiredly. "So-" she looked up at him "-what are you gonna do with Baku?" Her frown changed back into a worried expression.
"I guess I'll wait for the right moment to get him to talk to me and uh.. I'll throw at him a bunch of facts about me?" Eijirou shrugged and then covered his face with his hands when Ashido started laughing.
"Oh gosh… Kiri!" She continued laughing, even when they got to their station and had to step off the train. "Let me know how that works out for you!" She patted him on the back and headed in the opposite direction, towards her home.
Despite still feeling unsure about Bakugou, Eijirou smiled to himself. He could totally get Bakugou to trust him again!
Eijirou quickly headed home, already thinking about what he could share with his friend.
___
"Katsuki!"
Right when he stepped into the house, he heard a woman's voice. His mother's voice.
"There's a letter for you!"
The fuck.
Katsuki left his shoes at the entrance and moved to the living room where his mom was lying on a couch, watching some show on TV. Upon seeing him, she pointed at an envelope on the coffee table. He immediately walked up to it and picked up the envelope, didn't miss his mother's curious side glances when he examined it.
His nose scrunched when he saw who the letter was from.
Best fucking Jeanist.
"It's not every day that you receive a letter from a pro hero." It was painfully obvious that she was curious about that letter, although Katsuki was grateful that she didn't open it before him.
"I don't want it." Katsuki threw it back onto the coffee table and decided to go to his room. He didn't want to touch it or look at it. "You can read it, I don't give a shit."
His mom immediately sat up on the couch, reached for the envelope and opened it using her nails.
"Ohhh, it's handwritten!" She exclaimed enthusiastically while Katsuki rolled his eyes and made to leave the room, but- "Katsuki…" The changed tone of her voice made him stop and turn back to her to see a confused expression. "It's… an apology letter." She looked up at him with a frown.
"... what?" Was all Katsuki could utter.
Apology letter. From Best Jeanist.
Before Katsuki could stop himself, he reached for the letter, took it from his mom's hand and skimmed over it.
The words 'I sincerely apologise' stood out the most in the wall of text and Katsuki almost didn't believe his eyes.
"Katsuki, what is this about?"
He looked up from the letter to look at his mom, not entirely sure what was he supposed to tell her.
"I- I need to go." Katsuki ignored her yelling after him when he turned and rushed to his room where he immediately sat at his desk.
He stared at the folded letter in his hand, almost too scared to read it but it wasn't like Best Jeanist would know whether Katsuki read it or not.
So in the end, Katsuki read it.
To my former intern, Bakugou Katsuki.
Although I wish I could deliver this letter to you personally, I am afraid that as a busy professional hero I am unable to do so. We could of course schedule a meeting, as to have a conversation face to face, but as I already stated, I am a busy man. Besides, if I have to be frank, I believe that you would not be pleased with the idea of speaking to me or even seeing me, considering how our relationship looked like so far and how we parted ways. This brings me to your internship and to the real reason I am writing this letter to you, Bakugou.
I became aware of my mishandling of you during your internship when a certain friend of yours (I believe his name was Kirishima) came to me to complain about my behavior and mistreatment of you. Although I was quite surprised that your pride actually let you tell any living soul about what you went through, and that the boy you told would go out of his way to voice his rather critical opinion of me publicly, it all made me realise that the way I treated you was not at all heroic. I was so blinded by the goal of creating a perfect hero, that I did not consider that your image of such hero might be different, even if the image you see is crooked.
That being said, I sincerely apologise for my behaviour and the unruly punishments you went through from my hands.
The last thing you will maybe let me teach you is that I would advise you to surround yourself with more positive influences, young man. Your friend was, to put it mildly, rude and vicious, I believe he assumed I would not be open to a conversation. I must warn you that it might end poorly for you, if the only people you allow into your inner circle are exactly like you. You may never grow.
Best regards,
Hakamata Tsunagu, Best Jeanist
P.S. For my last piece of advice, I would suggest that you do something about whatever the source of your more eccentric tendencies is.
"... Holy fucking shit." Katsuki whispered to himself in a state of shock as he leaned back in his chair.
Just to make sure it all was real, he pinched his thigh and yeah it was all real.
Best Jeanist, Best fucking Jeanist, wrote him a letter, and even though the asshole had to brag about him being a hero and shit, he actually apologised to Katsuki. And why? Because his supposed friend was ready to fight the hero.
Wait, was he?
Now that Katsuki thought about it, he had no idea if that was actually Kirishima, even if almost everyone around him was telling him that yes, it was him, even though the same people weren't sure themselves.
Katsuki glanced at his laptop. If he focused on Kirishima's hair then maybe he had an actual chance of recognising him.
He put the letter away and opened the laptop. After few seconds, Katsuki was already on one of many hero news websites, typing in Best Jeanist into the search bar and- sure enough, the first result was an article with a caption 'UA student attacks Best Jeanist'. Katsuki scoffed at the stupid clickbait, since he was already aware that there was no actual fighting involved. He clicked on the article anyway and scrolled down to the video clip.
Katsuki took a deep breath. Just from the thumbnail, he could see Best Jeanist's hero costume and- yeah, there was obviously a UA student, standing with his back to the camera, but… the angle was kind of unfortunate. Katsuki couldn't see his hair. Of course, because that would be too easy. But he played the clip anyway and right from the start-
'-you try and make yourself look like a pretty little doll and talk nice?! You treat those who don't appeal to your standards like shit, while you're the biggest piece of shit around here! Fuck you!'
Katsuki paused the video.
Oh. Wow.
Okay.
That just couldn't be Kirishima.
He decided to watch more and listened breathlessly as this guy continued to call out Best Jeanist and then, finally the angle was fixed. Just in time for Kirishima to fucking shred Best Jeanist's fibers with his fucking teeth, what the fuck-
The clip ended there, right after the person holding the phone turned and started running away.
Useless. Katsuki frowned and wondered if he could look for a different clip, but then again, what was the point? Seeing his face wouldn't change anything, especially that he already figured out it was Kirishima. With the hair and his quirk. Maybe even his voice. Katsuki wanted to make sure and rewound the video to the moment where Kirishma's hair was shown. That was when Katsuki realised that Best Jeanist and Kirishima were surrounded by what seemed like a little army of the hero's fangirls and suddenly, this whole situation was almost hilarious.
Because Kirishima shittalked Best Jeanist in front of his fans. And it was all over the internet at this point. And wait holy fuck- Katsuki snatched the letter from his desk and read one part again. Particularly, the p. s. part.
'I would suggest that you do something about whatever the source of your more eccentric tendencies is.'
Even though Kirishima was so furious that people who weren't affected by face blindness had hard time recognising him, he still didn't say anything.
He didn't say anything before their argument or after it. Never mentioned it to any of their classmates or teachers and then… Even though he was clearly blinded by rage when shouting at Best Jeanist… He still didn't say anything.
Kirishima never told anyone and seemingly wasn't planning to.
Katsuki realised that it meant that… he could…
Damn it. Katsuki reached to the back of his head and touched his scar, stroking it lightly.
He took a deep breath and finally let himself think that he could trust Kirishima.
___
Katsuki needed half of the day to convince himself to just talk to Kirishima and now he needed to find the right moment.
Yep. Nothing difficult about that.
Besides the fact that there was always one of those extras with him and Katsuki couldn't get rid of a feeling that they were talking about him. Although if he had to be honest, it wasn't just a feeling at this point. Whenever he'd look in Kirishima's direction, he and whoever he was talking to were staring at him. And the moment they realised Katsuki was staring too, they'd turn away.
Damn it. Was he even allowed to just walk up to Kirishima and talk to him? The whole argument was Kirishima's fault in the first place, not his- Alright, maybe a little bit. Katsuki knew he wasn't exactly the best friend material, that he probably should have handled their stupid relationship differently and maybe just talk about the whole investigation bullshit instead of… not doing that. But he also knew he was shit at talking altogether. It wasn't his thing. Katsuki never had to talk out any bullshit with anyone.
… Not that he ever had anyone to talk to about anything, maybe besides his parents.
Katsuki sighed and peered over his shoulder just to catch Kirishima staring at him again. Both of them quickly looked away, but then Katsuki realised.
Kirishima was alone.
It was time for a break between their hero studies lessons so why wasn't he surrounded by his extras?
Katsuki looked around the class and counted his classmates. Out of nineteen students, only two were missing and he did notice Bubblegum talking to that invisible girl and then he was sure that the Dictionary guy was bothering the one with a tail so why weren't they with Kirishima? Did he tell them to leave him alone?
Katsuki didn't have more time to ponder about it because he noticed that Kirishima stood up and made to leave the class. Without much thought, he quickly followed after him.
He walked past some two extras reentering the class and the moment he left the room, he saw Kirishima leaning against window railing, staring at something outside. Alone.
… Now or never. Katsuki thought and after taking a deep, calming breath, he walked up to him.
"Hey." He hoped he sounded as confident as he intended to, but that didn't matter, because Kirishima jumped a little, clearly startled, and looked over his shoulder right at Katsuki, his eyes wide in a state of shock.
Kirishima didn't look like he was going to say anything so Katsuki just leaned with his back against the railing, folding his arms over his chest.
They stayed silent for a few seconds, Katsuki staring at the class' door while Kirishima stopped looking at him and his gaze went back to something outside.
God, this was so stupid, Katsuki didn't even plan what to say! Was he supposed to thank Kirishima for making Best Jeanist apologise to him?
He could but… Fuck.
"... Standing up to Best Jeanist was pretty fucking badass." Katsuki stated and Kirishima's eyes shot back at him. He really hoped that Kirishima got what he really meant.
Several seconds passed and Katsuki started to think about what else to say, but-
"My name is Kirishima Eijirou." Kirishima told him and Katsuki was now the one to look at him with confusion and shock.
"What-"
"I was born on October 16th and I'm a libra." Kirishima leaned a bit closer to him.
"Wh-"
"My mothers' names are Iwaishi and Saki Kirishima. Police investigator and flight attendant respectively!" Even closer. "My favourite things are tough guys and meat." Closer. "My quirk developed in the middle of the night when I was 3 and a half." Their faces were only a few centimetres apart. "At first I hated it because I hurt my eyelid and that's how I got my scar." Their noses almost touched. "I had my first serious crush during second year of middle school." They couldn't get any closer and Katsuki was barely grasping what was happening. "I'm ga-" Katsuki clasped a hand over Kirishima's mouth.
"What are you on about!?" Katsuki asked, yet waited a few moments before he pulled his hand away.
Kirishima bit his lower lip and took two steps back, looking away.
"I uh…" He started with unsure voice. "You told me that you didn't really know anything about me, so I thought..." Kirishima glanced back at Katsuki, his eyebrows knitted together. He took a deep breath. "I thought I could tell you some stuff? About me?"
___
Bakugou stared at him for a few long moments, yet before Eijirou could get any more anxious, Bakugou snorted and then openly laughed.
He laughed, but Eijirou expected for this laughter to be a mocking one, not so honest and clear, as if he told him the funniest pun in existence. It was the first time that Eijirou saw and heard Bakugou act like that and he couldn't help but stare at Bakugou's slightly wrinkled nose and wide smile as he continued to laugh.
Eijirou found himself wishing that Bakugou would never stop so that he could continue to listen to his new favourite sound.
But of course it couldn't last forever. Because Bakugou calmed down and finally looked at Eijirou again, a smile still present on his face, yet that slight mockery was back there.
"The hell you're staring at?" Bakugou asked, tilting an eyebrow at him.
"You have a really nice laugh." Eijirou blurted truthfully without thinking and immediately cursed himself when Bakugou's smile disappeared, shocked expression replacing it. Then more than familiar frown returned to his face.
"... So now what?" Bakugou muttered as he crossed his arms over his chest again and turned to lean against the window railing.
Eijirou realised he was changing the subject. Probably to make things less awkward, so Eijirou couldn't really complain.
"... I don't know, to be honest." He answered with a shrug and mirrored Bakugou's stance. "... Do you want to talk it all out?" Eijirou proposed awkwardly and tilted his head to look at Bakugou.
"... I hate talking." He said with a grimace, not sparing Eijirou a glance.
Eijirou had reasons to believe that Bakugou meant that he hated communication. And honestly, he wasn't surprised. At this point Eijirou knew that Bakugou wasn't the one to talk, that he was a man of action, not a debate.
… Maybe Eijirou could somehow combine those things?
"How about a spar?"
This got Bakugou's attention, as he finally looked at Eijirou, some spark of interest visible in his eyes.
"A spar?" Bakugou asked as if he wanted to make sure that he heard correctly.
"Yep! Nothing like a sparring session between two bros!" Eijirou pumped his fists together in front of his chest. "We can talk while kicking each other's butts!" He added, which got him a snort from Bakugou and a feral smirk.
"Alright, libra boy." Bakugou's mocking tone was back. "See you after classes." He nudged Eijirou's shoulder and walked away to enter their classroom. Right as Bakugou closed the door behind him, a bell rang, signalling the start of this period.
Yet Eijirou didn't move. Couldn't really. He stood still on the corridor and put a hand on his shoulder where Bakugou nudged him, with a bit too much force, but they could work on it.
They could work on it because they made up and could actually try to become friends.
Eijirou couldn't help a smile that stretched on his face to the point that his cheeks hurt.
"Kirishima, what are you still doing here?"
Aizawa's voice interrupted his happiness and without answering his teacher, Eijirou sprinted to the class, the annoyed words of 'no running' right behind him.
___
Eijirou and Bakugou stepped into one of the smaller training rooms, already in their gym uniforms. All the bigger gyms were already taken or reserved, usually by older students, so they had to take one that unfortunately didn't allow them to use quirks.
Not that Eijirou was complaining, he was sure he could take Bakugou in a fight, even though he lost against him during sports festival. But again. Back then they were using their quirks, so maybe he actually had a chance this time.
"Need I remind you that we only have an hour or are you done wasting our time?"
Eijirou turned with apologetic smile to Bakugou who was already standing on the training mats, hands in the pockets of his pants.
"Sorry, sorry-" Eijirou put down his water bottle on a bench and joined Bakugou, stretching his arms above his head. "So how do we do this, we go on until we're both too exhausted or-"
Eijirou had to dodge and block Bakugou's fist from hitting him right in the face.
"You talk too much." Bakugou smirked, satisfied that they were finally doing what they came there for.
"But isn't it-" Eijirou pushed away Bakugou's fist, trying but failing to break his balance, and threw two punches himself, Bakugou stepping to the side, shielding his face and dodging both of them "-why we came here? You agreed to talking!"
"The fuck do you even want to-" Bakugou dodged a hit to his stomach "-talk about!?"
The question made Eijirou stop for a split second, which allowed Bakugou to grab his wrist and kick him in the side. Even though Eijirou lost his balance, he managed to grab Bakugou's leg and pull him along to the ground. Both of them quickly rose to their feet, now circling each other, ready for everything.
"I don't really know. About trust, maybe?" Eijirou finally answered and smiled at Bakugou's eye roll. Then immediately used the moment to charge at him, yet it still wasn't enough to win this match. Bakugou dodged and hit Eijirou's chest, hard enough to make him cough as he retreated.
"I still don't know-" Bakugou started, yet didn't let Eijirou rest, trying to throw a punch at his face, and failing when Eijirou blocked him "-why should I trust you." He took a step back, putting some distance between them.
"Because-" Eijirou quickly decided for a series of punches, and continued between the blows "-I'm truly sorry and I've never felt so bad for something I did in my entire life-" Bakugou managed to grab both of his wrists and kick him in the stomach.
"Wow, you're sorry." Bakugou mocked as Eijirou toppled onto his back, trying to catch his breath, yet Bakugou wasn't about to give him a break and Eijirou had to kick at him as to not let him pin him to the ground.
As soon as he caught his breath, Eijirou kicked blindly and stood back up.
"I truly am!"
Bakugou charged at him aggressively with several punches, Eijirou struggling to dodge or block every single one as he was stepping to the sides, not wanting to get cornered.
"And honestly I-" Eijirou dodged down "-want to be your friend!" Then shot at him, hooking his own arms over both Bakugou's biceps and held him in place like that for a second, to make sure that no, Bakugou couldn't free himself that easily, then looked into his eyes. "And it's unmanly to betray your friend's trust!" Then, Eijirou kicked Bakugou's knee and used all his weight to make sure Bakugou would fall onto his back.
Successfully.
And Eijirou held him by the elbows, his shin pressed against Bakugou's chest and finally, Bakugou was pinned under him. And his face was priceless, a beautiful mix of surprise and confusion. After few seconds, Bakugou tried to kick him and squirm away, yet to no avail, as Eijirou pressed more of his weight onto him. In the end, Eijirou heard three taps on the mat, a sound that announced his victory.
With a satisfied smile, he got off Bakugou and sat down next to him, breathing heavily. Few seconds passed and Bakugou still haven't moved, just laid there with closed eyes, taking deep breaths.
"Bakugou?" Eijirou moved towards him. "Are you okay?" Upon touching his shoulder, Bakugou's eyes snapped open and Eijirou backed away in surprise, falling onto his butt.
Bakugou quickly sat up with his legs crossed, avoiding looking at Eijirou.
"Of course I'm fine. Just chilling." There was a slight frown on his face. "Fucking congrats I guess." He muttered, almost inaudibly while still avoiding any eye contact and Eijirou smiled widely.
"Thanks bro!" He exclaimed louder than necessary and moved closer to Bakugou to throw an arm over his shoulders, which tensed upon that contact, Bakugou's widened eyes shooting back to Eijirou. "Shit, sorry-" Eijirou backed away once again.
Damn it! He already ruined everything!
"It's fucking fine." Bakugou muttered as the tension from his shoulders slowly disappeared.
"No, I'm sorry, I know you don't like touching and stuff, I-"
"I said it's fine." Bakugou raised his voice.
Eijirou bit his lower lip and stared at Bakugou who looked like he wanted to say something else. Maybe justify himself.
"It's fine, I just…" Bakugou rubbed his shoulder, then that hand slowly moved to his neck and stayed there when he continued. "As long as I see it coming, it's fine..." He muttered and crossed his arms over his chest, glancing at Eijirou.
Oh.
Could he ask about it? Or was it too personal?
"... Is there a reason for it or…" Eijirou wanted to know the answer, yet didn't really expect one. That didn't change the fact that he felt a slight sting of disappointment when Bakugou looked away once again. "It's okay, man! We don't have to talk about it!"
Bakugou muttered something that Eijirou didn't catch.
"What was that?" He leaned towards Bakugou, curiosity clear in his voice.
"In middle school. That sludge-" he stopped when someone opened the door.
"Hour up! Hour up!" It was one of those small UA robots.
Eijirou sighed and stood up to look at the timer on the robot's head and frowned.
"Oi, we still have five minutes, bro!" He tapped its head, yet the only answer he got was another chant of 'hour up!' and the robot left the two of them alone. Eijirou turned back to Bakugou who was already standing. "Guess that's it for today?"
To be honest, Eijirou wanted to stay there longer. Talk more to Bakugou and find out more about him.
"... we can always extend our time." Bakugou looked to the side.
Oh? Bakugou wanted to spend more time with Eijirou?
Oh shit, oh shit, oh shit, hell yeah-
Wait.
"Ah, sorry man, I-" Eijirou scratched his neck awkwardly. "I'm kind of under house arrest."
Bakugou's eyes widened.
"You're grounded?" He asked, seemingly having a hard time believing Eijirou's words. "You?"
"Yeah… ironically, for uhhh… attacking Best Jeanist?" Eijirou smiled sheepishly then coughed. "My mom said that if I explain to her why I did all that, she won't ground me." Bakugou froze, his eyes widened in panic. "No! No no no! Don't worry! I didn't tell anything so- yeah. For that I'm grounded."
Eijirou finished with an awkward shrug then jumped in place when he heard Bakugou snicker.
"Your mom's a cop and you're under arrest!" He smirked at Eijirou as he walked past him and towards locker room, Eijirou right after.
"Oh my God, how did I not think about this before."
Bakugou snorted at Eijirou's realisation.
They entered the locker room and started changing.
"Besides," Eijirou picked up on the conversation as he put on his collar shirt. "She told me I'll have more time to study, you know with the exams coming and stuff." Eijirou noticed how Bakugou's movements halted for a short moment, yet didn't comment on it. "I'm barely passing right now…" He added at the end.
It felt kind of pathetic, if he had to be honest. Eijirou knew all too well that Bakugou had almost perfect grades and at this point he wasn't even sure why he started this subject.
But as Bakugou stayed silent, Eijirou took it as a quiet permission to continue. After all, Eijirou knew that Bakugou would tell him if he didn't want to hear about it.
"Yaomomo- that's ponytail girl- offered to tutor a few people, so maybe I'll join them-"
"You already have trouble focusing in class with eighteen other people, right?" Bakugou cut in, staring at Eijirou.
"Uh, y-yeah?"
"Do you really think that joining a study group will make a difference?" He then finished putting on his shoes and pulled out a small mirror out of his bag.
"... I guess not…" Eijirou muttered as he fixed his tie.
Bakugou was right. What Eijirou needed was a tutor or something like that, not a whole group.
As he watched Bakugou wipe off some smudged eyeliner, an idea struck him.
Bakugou was super smart. Not only with school stuff, but in general. Maybe he could ask him, but…
"Hey, Bakugou?" Eijirou took a step towards him, yet kept his distance. And once Bakugou grunted, still focused on his task, Eijirou took a deep breath. "I know you once told me to not come to you for help when I'm not able to understand something, but-"
“Wait, what?" Bakugou looked up at him with furrowed brow and slight confusion.
"You know, at the beginning of the school year?" Eijirou provided and watched as Bakugou squinted his eyes, trying to recall that moment.
"Oh right." He put the mirror back in his bag. "That was you."
Eijirou laughed awkwardly, too loud.
Of course.
"Anyway, the fuck are you getting at?" Bakugou asked and turned to the door.
"Oh, um- couldyoututorme?" Eijirou blurted on one breath and held it when Bakugou stopped walking.
"... Do you even realise what you're signing up for?" He turned slowly and bared his teeth while smirking at Eijirou.
"P-" Eijirou shook his head. Then bowed a bit. "Please take care of me!"
"... You know what?" Bakugou asked after a few seconds of silence in surprisingly normal tone and Eijirou looked up at him. "Let's make a deal." Eh? What? "I'll tutor you and you'll go with me to the support department. No questions."
Eijirou's eyes widened as he straightened his back.
"Support-"
"No questions." Bakugou interrupted with a frown.
Eijirou remembered how Aizawa told him something about Bakugou needing some support gear. … And support in general.
Eijirou knew Bakugou wouldn't ask for it in any normal way, and he knew that they both needed each other in one sense or another so...
"Deal!" Eijirou settled on saying and walked up to Bakugou to put an arm around his shoulders. Even though he gave him a moment to realise what was happening, Bakugou still tensed, yet this time, it didn't last long. "Thanks bro!" Eijirou smiled and laughed when Bakugou elbowed him in the ribs with no strength, whatsoever.
___
Eijirou lay in his bed, somehow unable to fall asleep. He tried to explain to himself that it was still the adrenaline from his sparring with Bakugou, but that was hours ago, so why? Maybe it wasn't the adrenaline, but all the things combined that happened that day, still fresh in his memory.
How they were finally able to talk. How Bakugou decided to forgive and trust Eijirou, how he gave him a second chance, despite everything that happened between them. How Bakugou let him touch him again. How Eijirou actually somehow did what he was planning to, even if it just made Bakugou laugh.
And God that laughter. He didn’t expect to hear it when he walked out of the class to think in silence about how he could approach Bakugou.
Eijirou smiled to himself when he remembered the sound of it, clear as day and loud as thunder. He couldn't help but wonder if Bakugou laughed like that often. If he ever had someone made him laugh like that, because if not, then it would mean that Eijirou was the first person, or one of the few, to actually manage to do that. And witnesses that.
Did it mean that Bakugou was comfortable enough in Eijirou's presence to act like that? Because if so, then it felt special. Eijirou felt special.
And it just made him so so happy, he rolled onto his stomach and hid his face in a pillow as to muffle his giddy giggle. Eijirou could feel his face get hotter and probably redder, yet he just knew it wasn't just from him hiding it in a warm pillow, no. It was thinking about Bakugou and-
Wait.
Eijirou turned his head to lie on his cheek and stilled, thinking how ridiculous it was because pff, of course he didn't like Bakugou like that. They just made up after that argument and it wasn't like Eijirou ever laid awake in the middle of the night, thinking about Bakugou's nice laughter or those beautiful, piercing eyes, and how strong of a fighter he was or his determination or- oh no. Oh no.
"OH NO!" Eijirou sat up on his bed, realisation of actually lying awake at night and thinking about all this dawning on him.
No, this couldn't be happening. Nope, just-
"No…." Eijirou covered his face with his hands, his happiness turning into embarrassment and self pity.
Seriously, what was he on about?! Ah, Bakugou asked him the same question earlier-
NO!
"Stop. Thinking. About. Him." Each word was punctuated by a light slap of his hands against his cheeks. "Haven't you had enough..?" Eijirou asked himself, remembering his unfortunate crush from middle school.
Eijirou really had enough, so he just sighed then yawned tiredly, rubbing his eyes. After a few more seconds, he lay back down on his side and slowly fell asleep with a thought that maybe, just maybe, he was in trouble.
Notes:
Ahhh look at our Eijirou, finally realising he's in love in chapter fucking 20 f u c k.
Also oh wow, 20 chapters, can you believe?
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Up next; That sweet, sweet, sweet support.
Chapter 21: A step in the right direction
Summary:
Blooming Bromance(s)
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Ashido Mina created a group
Ashido Mina added Kaminari Denki and Sero Hanta
Ashido: DID YOU SEE THAT
Ashido: GUYS PLEASE
Ashido: G Y U S COME PN ANSWER
Sero: we were biking home
Sero: see what?
Kaminari: hwee??
Ashido: oh god you didn't im gonna cry i thought i would have witnesses
Sero: I think like I'm missing something
Ashido: KIRI
Ashido: BAKU
Kaminari: oh fuck did Bakugou kill our boy??
Ashido: wh- NO
Ashido: GOD
Kaminari: THEN GET TO THE POINT
Sero: Please
Kaminari: PLEASE
Ashido: THEY WERE HEADING TOWARDS THE GYMS
Ashido: TOGETHER
Sero: they're gonna fight to the death
Ashido: DKNT SAY THAT
Kaminari: you didn't go after them?????
Ashido: I was in a hurry to go to the cafe with Tsuyu-chan and Toru! AND THEY ALSO DIDN'T SEE ANYTHING
Kaminari: hmmmmmm maybe it wasn't them??
Ashido: me and Kiri are horn buddies, I'll recognise him everywhere!!1
Sero: text him maybe??
Ashido: ….. Iiiiii didn't think about that…
Ashido: BUT what if they're having a heart to heart and I'll interrupt???
Ashido: KIRI WILL FINALKY MAKE UP WITH THE.LOVE OF HIS LIFE
Kaminari: I'll be honest, at this point I'm not sure if it's bromance or romance
Sero: dude…
Kaminari: what! They might as well be going through their first argument as a couple!!
Ashido: Kami, my dearest not-horn-buddy, they are not together
Kaminari: hmmmmMMMMMMMMM
Ashido: its just teasing, they're friends who are going through some trouble
Ashido: BUT NOW IM SURE THEY'RE MAKING UP RIGHT NOW IM SO HAPPY FOR THEM BOTH AAA
Ashido: I'll text Kiri later
Sero: let us know too
Kaminari: yeah!!
Ashido: of course <3
Kaminari: <3 <3 <3
Sero: Don't forget
Ashido: </3
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Mina was pretty sure she's forgotten about something. What was it, she wasn't sure. She paid for her cake at the cafe, she remembered to buy milk and she tried to study on her own for exams.
What was it? She asked herself as she sat down at her desk in the class.
"Ashido." Kaminari turned to her in his chair. "So what's with you know who?" He whispered, shielding his mouth from others.
"Who what now?" Mina tilted her head, confused and a bit lost.
"I knew you'd forget." Sero suddenly appeared at her desk with that typical smile of his.
Mina just stared at them, then Sero pointed somewhere behind him and once she looked over-
He was pointing at Bakugou who for the first time in a few days didn't have his headphones on, his eyes locked on one point, and once she followed his line of sight, she looked at the door at the exact moment when Kirishima was stepping into the class. Then stopped abruptly and waved very awkwardly at Bakugou. Mina's eyes quickly shot back to Bakugou to see that he rolled his eyes, but waved back and then looked down at his notebook.
Oh.
"OH SHOOT!" She yelled and her friends started laughing at her, meanwhile Kirishima walked up to them.
"What's going on?" He asked, and now that he was closer, Mina noticed that he was slightly blushing.
Oh?
___
Eijirou stood in front of the door to his class for a few minutes now, actually nervous about stepping in. Because he knew that Bakugou would be there.
Obviously, it's a classroom! Eijirou rubbed at his face, slightly annoyed at himself. What was even his problem, it's not like he'd have to walk up to Bakugou and talk to him!
… Except that he really, really, really wanted to. Even if it would be just those few minutes before the first period. Damn, even if he could just say hi to him and get an answer, although it probably would just be a grunt… Or a smirk if he was lucky enough. Eijirou, to his horror, realised that he actually looked forward to that smirk, even if he wasn't sure he'd get it.
…
No, he absolutely did not look forward to anything related to Bakugou.
Not at all.
Not a smirk, not a glance, not a talk with him, not those amazing eyes or determined expression during training-
Damn it!
"Are you okay, Kirishima-kun?" Someone's voice made Eijirou jump, the person behind him yelping in panic.
Eijirou turned and saw Midoriya.
"Sorry, dude! That was unmanly of me!" He wanted to apologise again, but Midoriya interrupted him.
"No no, it's okay!" He waved around in his usual, awkward manner. "You just looked super stressed, is all!"
"Ah, did I now…" Eijirou glanced to the side. God, how could this happen to him… "I uh- I'm just stressed about school and stuff!"
It wasn't exactly a lie, but it wasn't the whole truth either, but Eijirou wasn't about to tell anyone (especially someone who Bakugou openly hated) that he was in the middle of a gay crisis over his friend, who he absolutely did not have a crush on.
Lucky for him, Midoriya seemed to accept that explanation, thank the universe for his obliviousness, and went inside the class, leaving Eijirou with his stupid, hopeless thoughts.
Although, Midoriya stayed on his mind. Maybe he could ask him what was Bakugou's type-
No. Eijirou shook his head. He did enough snooping around behind Bakugou's back. They just made up and he wasn't about to repeat his stupid mistakes.
Besides, he didn't need to know Bakugou's type. If he even had one. And if it happened to be other guys.
Eijirou sighed and decided that it was about time for him to enter the class. And it wasn't like Bakugou would be right there staring at him-
The moment Eijirou entered the class, the first thing he saw was Bakugou who was staring at him and Eijirou found himself unable to move.
It felt like Eijirou saw his eyes for the first time, and even from the distance between them he could still see how intensely Bakugou was looking at him, and that gaze made Eijirou's heart speed up.
Quiet voice reminded Eijirou to move and do something, so he raised his a bit too stiff hand and waved. Freaking waved, but then again, what else was he supposed to do?
Bakugou rolled his eyes, of course he did, because what Eijirou was doing was stupid and awkward and- Holy shit, Bakugou waved back. Then nonchalantly turned to his notebook.
So manly. Eijirou thought as he clenched his fist and bit back a smile.
"OH SHOOT!"
Eijirou heard all of a sudden and turned to see Sero and Kaminari laughing at Ashido.
"What's going on?" He asked as soon as he walked up to them, but instead of giving him an answer, Ashido stood up and squished Eijirou's cheeks.
"Were the two of you yesterday at the gym?" She asked and Eijirou felt his cheeks get warmer than they already were. She must have noticed, but didn't say anything.
And instead of answering right away, Eijirou lightly grabbed her wrists and pulled her hands away from his face and nodded.
"We had a manly spar and talked it all out!" He couldn't help a wide smile that spread across his face.
Before he knew it, Ashido was hugging him, arms tight around his neck and he didn't know what to do with his own arms so he just put his hands on her shoulder blades.
"Kiri!" Was she crying!? "I'm so happy for you!" Her grip tightened and Eijirou just patted her back, not sure what else to do.
"I-" He glanced at Kaminari who just shrugged with a smile and sent him a thumbs up. "I'm happy too…" Eijirou smiled and actually returned the hug.
"Damn, I love happy endings." Sero commented and patted Eijirou's shoulder.
"That's not the end!" Ashido pulled away and put a finger on Sero's chest. "Not until they're happily together and have a bunch of gay little babies!"
Ah, right. The teasing was back.
But as Eijirou was about to say something, he felt a buzzing in his pocket and pulled out his phone.
Bakugou: the fuck are you all yelling so much about
Eijirou looked over his shoulder, ignoring Kaminari's retort about how he couldn't keep his eyes off Bakugou, and saw him with a phone in his hand, yet intentionally not looking in Eijirou and his friends' direction.
And Eijirou smiled to himself, because even if the message could seem hostile and accusatory to others, he just knew that Bakugou wanted to be involved. Even if he probably wouldn't admit it.
Putting his feelings aside, and ignoring the excited pounding in his chest, Eijirou typed back his response.
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Kirishima: you could just join us :3c
Katsuki stared at the answer he got, fighting off the urge to look over his shoulder, pretty sure that Kirishima was looking in his direction.
Join them.
That was something he could do. Katsuki realised that he came to that conclusion before and that Kirishima's intentions were always clear and honest. Because Kirishima wanted to be his friend and wanted him there with his friends.
They wouldn't mind him, right? Whenever Katsuki was there during lunch, despite him not wanting to talk to them, they always tried to include him. And no matter how irritating that was, it felt…
Katsuki glanced over his shoulder, his gaze fell on Kirishima, who's cheeks were being pinched by Bubblegum and… Kaminari? That was the same idiot who tried his food, right? Then there was Horse smile, of course grinning at something Kirishima was saying.
Those happy-go-lucky idiots actually wanted him with them. For some absurd reason Katsuki wasn't aware of but…
It felt nice.
But before Katsuki could stand up and walk up to them, the bell rang, announcing the start of their lessons.
Fuck. Should have made up his mind sooner, instead of sitting there like an anxious idiot.
Katsuki ignored the teacher who stepped inside the class, instead, one last time, he looked over to Kirishima. Just now he noticed how close that little group was, with how their desks were all basically in one place.
It was as if the universe wanted the four of them to be close, and then there was Katsuki, at the edge. And despite that, it seemed as if they were trying their best to get him off it, to get him to be closer to them.
He turned back to focus on the blackboard.
Katsuki was going to have plenty of time during lunch to further ponder about his feelings towards those… people.
___
Katsuki joined Kirishima and his friends for lunch, trying his best to ignore the nervousness clenching his insides and side glances and little smiles that Bubblegum, who sat in front of him, kept sending him for some reason.
They all were chatting about one thing or another, although Katsuki had a feeling that they were purposefully avoiding talking about his and Kirishima's quiet days. And it wasn't just a feeling once Kaminari almost asked them what it was all about, but Bubblegum literally screeched and stole his rice. That shut him up, and even though the whole situation was painfully obvious, Katsuki was honestly grateful for that stupid behaviour. Explaining what happened between him and Kirishima was one of the last things he wanted to tell them.
For the most part, Katsuki wasn't listening, more interested in his own food rather than another thing that Kaminari was complaining about, but then he proposed that they all go to some newly opened arcade after school.
"We went there the other day," he pointed at Horse smile who nodded with a too big grin. "There was a lot of people but damn I can't blame them." He finished selling the place and looked between them.
"Oh, I can't wait to destroy you all on DDR!" Bubblegum seemed like someone hyperactive who could spend hours on dancing and jumping around and never get tired.
"Kirishima, you just have to join us!" Kaminari added and the three of them waited for his response.
Katsuki stared at Kirishima, also waiting for his more than obvious answer, but still hoping that he'd remember what they were supposed to do.
"Yeah! I'm totally gonna join you guys!" Kirishima exclaimed happily, but as he was about to high five Kaminari, Katsuki grabbed his wrist mid air.
"No, you're not." Katsuki cut in with a frown, causing the whole group to stare at him in shock, since that was pretty much the first thing he said and did until that moment.
Kirishima was so stunned, he didn't say anything. Didn't even try to get his wrist out of Katsuki's grip.
"... Dude, the invitation is for you as well!" Kaminari added nervously after few seconds passed. Katsuki didn't spare him a glance.
"As far as I'm aware-" Katsuki let go of Kirishima's wrist "-you're still grounded."
"Ah… y-yeah…" Kirishima didn't look at him as he muttered. Just kept his eyes on his wrist as he wrapped his other hand around it.
Did I hurt him? Katsuki thought but quickly dismissed it. Kirishima was too fucking strong for something like this to hurt him, even if he still held onto his wrist.
But Katsuki didn't have time to ponder about it any longer.
"Also you wanted me to tutor you." He stated and continued eating, Kirishima finally looking up at him. "We had a fucking deal." Katsuki really hoped that this would be enough for that idiot.
"Yeah, but I-"
"No buts." Katsuki sent a glare towards Kaminari who snickered at his words. "The sooner we start, the better."
"... Kiri, you didn't say anything about private tutoring sessions with our Baku here." The tone of Bubblegum's voice was weirdly suggestive, even if Katsuki couldn't figure it out.
Was it still about their argument? Was it strange that they went straight to helping each other after that? Or was it that Katsuki was the one to remind Kirishima about their deal?
"Oh because we agreed on it just yesterday!" Kirishima was happy to provide, even if he sounded kind of sheepish.
Bubblegum just hummed, moving her fucked up eyes between them slowly. Katsuki had a feeling he'd never get used to how her eyes were one of those that would look wrong for him at all times.
Katsuki decided to ignore her once he realised something.
"Shouldn't you all be studying too?" He asked and glared at Kaminari who let out a loud 'awww'. "The fuck is your problem, Dictionary?"
"It's Kaminari." Knew it. "And I don't have a problem!" He shrugged and leaned towards Katsuki. "Are you concerned about us, Kacchan?"
Katsuki wanted to explode that annoying smirk off his face, but his question actually made him wonder.
Was he actually concerned about them?
He didn't give a shit about their grades. Besides, Kirishima told him that Ponytail was going to tutor them, so what business did he have in it?
It must have been the fact that they were Kirishima's stupid friends, and if they didn't pass he'd be upset or whatever, but then why would Katsuki care about this?
It wasn't like he considered them his own friends, right?
Katsuki realised that Kaminari was still waiting for his answer.
"I don't give a shit." He frowned, feeling the sting of an obvious lie in the back of his head. "So shut your fucking mouth and eat."
But instead of backing off, Kaminari's smirk widened.
"How am I supposed to eat if my mouth's closed?"
"I will murder you." Even though Katsuki said that, he had trouble keeping a smile off his face. "I fucking saw you snort noodles the other day so you can do that and grace us with silence." Katsuki felt a light kick under the table, but before he could tell Kirishima to fuck off, Kaminari spoke again.
"Excuse me, that was Sero!"
Fuck.
"Hey, don't involve me in that!" Sero finally reacted more than just snickering on the side to their bickering.
"It was about you, how is that not involving already?!" Kaminari's attention went to Sero and Katsuki could relax from his one second of pathetic panic.
Then once again, he felt a kick under the table and looked at Kirishima who was smiling at him for some reason. Katsuki wanted to ignore him, but the moment he looked away, his gaze met with Bubblegum's. Who was also smiling in that strange way that Katsuki couldn't figure out, yet before he could react, she turned to Kaminari and Sero who were still arguing.
"Guys, come on, don't fight!" Both of them turned to her. "You're two halves of the same idiot, no wonder Baku confused you!"
Katsuki snorted, which got her attention back to him.
Fuck, shit-
Kirishima next to him openly laughed, especially when those two idiots started arguing with Bubblegum, although she was mostly ignoring them, focused on her food.
Katsuki realised that those idiots weren't that annoying after all.
___
Finally, after classes, Katsuki stood in front of one of the support department's offices, Kirishima right next to him.
"... Aizawa-sensei told you you have until the end of the week, huh?" Kirishima asked quietly and nudged Katsuki lightly with his elbow. He probably grew impatient, with how long they've been standing in front of that office.
"... Yeah." Katsuki muttered and swallowed a lump in his throat. Just how much did that teacher knew? He never really told anyone about his face blindness, it has always been his mother or other teachers or, in Kirishima's case, fucking internet he guessed.
But now? How was he even supposed to start this conversation?
"Hey-"
Katsuki felt a hand on his shoulder and tensed slightly.
"It's okay, man."
Katsuki glanced at Kirishima and his stupid supportive smile, then his gaze fell on that hand. It was heavy and warm and grounding. It kept Katsuki's stupid thoughts at bay, gave him something to focus on. But still, he took a step forward, forcing Kirishima to let go.
He didn't want to allow himself such closeness to anybody, it was enough that he even asked Kirishima to come there with him.
Then Katsuki realised. He actually wasn't sure why he made Kirishima come with him. He was sure he didn't need a fucking nanny or a guide, and he especially didn't want to rely on somebody, so why-
The door opened and a woman stared up at them.
"Are you two going to just keep standing there annoyingly or will you do me a favor, stop distracting me and finally come in?"
Right away, the first thing Katsuki noticed, besides her acting like she owned the fucking corridor, was that her ponytail was floating. If that wasn't enough, her hair would already be easy to memorise, with golden roots that then shifted to green and finally to blue at the ends. Slightly reminded Katsuki of a mood ring he had when he was a kid.
Without waiting for either of them to answer, she turned and stepped inside her office. With a frown, Katsuki glanced at Kirishima who just shrugged and followed after the teacher, Katsuki right after.
"Eraserhead told me that this case was confidential, so-" she closed the door behind them and tapped some code on a panel next to the door, locking it. "This way no one will enter or eavesdrop on us." When she was done, she moved to sit at her desk, without sparing the two of them a single glance, just moving past them as quickly as she could.
If Katsuki were to be honest, it was irritating, with how she was acting as if she was talking to walls.
"Let's not waste time, my name is Kazewaki Emiri and to put it simply, I specialise in biological and neurological type of support gear. You're Bakugou Katsuki, right?" Kazewaki (Katsuki would have to remember that) finally addressed him, but right after he nodded, her gaze went to Kirishima. "And you are..?"
"Oh! I uh-" Kirishima seemed to be taken aback by her attention being suddenly on him. "Kirishima Eijirou..?"
Katsuki rolled his eyes at this idiot's questioning tone.
"Why are you here, Eraserhead told me that this was something between him, me and Bakugou." She asked, clearly impatient, as if she wanted to get to work right away.
Did she already know what was the problem? Did Aizawa tell her? Honestly, Katsuki would rather that his teacher did so, it would save him a lot of explaining, but then again, he promised that he wouldn't tell anyone-
"Kirishima is-" again, Katsuki realised that he didn't know why Kirishima was there with him.
"I know the situation and I'm here for moral support for my bro!" Kirishima quickly provided as he put his elbow on Katsuki's shoulder, leaning on him.
Although, what Katsuki knew, was that he absolutely did not need any stupid support. From anyone. No matter how nervous he felt about this whole fucking situation and how long it took him to actually come there.
Besides, he could always say it was Kirishima who needed some extra gear.
A perfect plan.
Meanwhile, Kazewaki just raised an eyebrow at Kirishima, but seemed to accept his words as an explanation.
"Just be quiet and stay out of the way." She said and looked back at Katsuki. "Eraserhead already explained to me why you'll need my help, but I still need to ask you a few questions." Without waiting for his reaction, she typed something on her keyboard, eyes locked on the computer's screen. "Eraserhead couldn't provide me with information about how long you've been suffering from face blindness."
Katsuki's eyebrows knitted slightly, he could feel the cold sweat on his back. If that wasn't enough, few sparks went off from his palms. Kazewaki didn't seem bothered by that, just kept her eyes on the screen, ignoring everything that wasn't Katsuki's voice.
Katsuki found himself regretting his choices, bringing Kirishima, who was staring at him yet Katsuki couldn't bring himself to look back at him, coming there in the first place…
"I can leave if you want?" Kirishima's whisper finally convinced Katsuki to look at him. "I'll wait outside." He added with a smile and another light nudge to Katsuki's shoulder.
I don't need your pity. Katsuki wanted to say, but then realised that Kirishima was probably one of the few people who didn't pity him. Considering he had no trouble kicking his ass and seemed honestly sorry for spying on him and then for this stupid joke.
So Katsuki shook his head. Then frowned at Kazewaki's impatient cough.
"Around twelve years." Katsuki kept his eyes on Kirishima as he broke the news and didn't miss how his eyebrows raised in surprise.
"Ah, so an accident…" She muttered to herself. "Honestly, that's definitely a problem for an aspiring hero. I'm surprised you didn't come here sooner."
Katsuki was almost amused by the way Kirishima frowned at the same moment as he did, glaring at the teacher.
"I'll need your medical records, such as MRI scans and a doctor's diagnosis." Although she didn't seem bothered by them. "Do you have them or do I have to give you a referral?"
Once again, Katsuki felt sick. The thought of lying in that fucking tube, waiting who knows how long for them to make a scan of his brain. That was one of the few memories that stuck with him from that period of time. Somehow, Katsuki had a feeling that now repeating this would be a much worse experience. Alone in that small space…
Then Katsuki remembered.
"My mother has copies of those somewhere..." He'd just have to somehow take them without her knowledge.
"Do you remember the doctor's name who diagnosed you?" Kazewaki finally looked at him, and for the first time actually seemed curious.
His body tensed, jaw clenching. Katsuki felt like a little boy again.
He didn't remember. He didn't want to. Sickening voice, strong hold on his small shoulders and looming figure. That was all he needed to remember to know he didn't want to remember anything else.
"I don't." He managed to sound normal, even if he still looked down at the floor, nails digging into his palms.
"Well, I'll find out from the documents. I'll give you my personal email so you can just take pictures and sent them to me to make it all quicker, I already have a plan for your gear so-" she stepped away from her computer and walked up to the other desk that seemed like a workstation.
If Katsuki had to be honest, it looked like a mess, several tools and documents there, as well as few blueprints and two pairs of safety goggles. Six drawers out of which four were opened, more tools that Katsuki couldn't name, filling them, along with several more papers and who knew what else. Everything seemed out of place and yet she knew exactly which drawer she had to open to get what she needed.
"I'll need your parents' signatures there." She handed him a piece of paper and walked back to her computer.
Katsuki scanned the paper and felt himself pale. He didn't even react when Kirishima looked over his shoulder.
"Parental permission..?" Kirishima muttered to himself as he read.
"Why do you need my parents' permission?"
Kazewaki sighed and turned to him again, she was obviously annoyed by Katsuki keeping her from doing more important things.
"First of all," she raised her finger, "you're a child who cannot consent to something as serious as the support gear that will be attached to your head. Second, your parents might know of some predispositions that would make you unfit for that gear-"
"And if they don't sign it?" Katsuki interrupted, his mother's firm 'no' already echoing in his head.
"... Isn't it obvious?" Kazewaki asked and turned away again, this time to write something on a notepad.
Right. Very obvious. What was it all for then? Aizawa practically forced him to come there, mostly because of fucking Jeanist's call, just for Katsuki to be humiliated and not even get that fucking gear?
"Here-" Kazewaki spoke again as she tore off a page from the notepad and handed it over to Katsuki. "That's my email, send me these documents as soon as you can."
Katsuki glanced at the page before folding it and putting it inside one of the books, along with that fucking parental permission.
Then, just as quickly as before, she walked past them, put in a code and opened the door.
"Now please, leave." Kazewaki vaguely waved at the corridor and stepped back to her desk, acting as if they had already left.
Katsuki rolled his eyes and clicked his tongue. Apparently there was no need to even say goodbye, so he just turned around and left the office. He could hear Kirishima quietly thanking Kazewaki for her time, although he didn't get any answer. Soon enough, he stood next to Katsuki after closing the door quietly.
"... So how do you feel about all this?" Kirishima asked after a few seconds of silence passed.
Katsuki turned to him, for a moment glancing at the closed door, then back to Kirishima.
How was he supposed to feel?
"I don't think that my mother will be willing to give me my medical records." Katsuki not-so-subtly evaded the question. "Once I tell her that the school wants to help me." His face turned into a grimace. Admitting he needed that help was fucking degrading.
"Why would she be against it?" Kirishima seemed genuinely confused and Katsuki chuckled as he fixed a grip on his bag and started walking towards library.
"Sports festival." Katsuki answered shortly, hoping that Kirishima would get the meaning behind it. Going into detail, how his mother would force him to change schools if this backfired, was one of the last things Katsuki wanted to do. Judging by Kirishima's silence, he got the message.
"... Does she know about what Best Jeanist did?"
This question made Katsuki stop.
"Ah, sorry, I didn't mean to-"
"I got a letter." Katsuki interrupted Kirishima's panicked apologies. "From Best Jeanist, that's kind of how I found out about your stunt." He turned to face Kirishima who's eyes were wide in surprise. "She was the one to open it but she didn't realise what it was that this fucker was apologising for."
"He apologised!?" Kirishima yelled with disbelief.
"I wouldn't really call it an apology…" Katsuki muttered as he reached into his bag. "But that was enough for my parents to get suspicious." He pulled out an envelope and extended the hand holding it towards Kirishima. "I'm pretty sure she's trying to find it in my room right now."
Kirishima, to Katsuki's annoyance, kept staring at the letter instead of just taking it and reading, so Katsuki grabbed his wrist and forced the envelope into his hand.
Katsuki stared at Kirishima as he nervously opened the envelope and pulled out the letter. As soon as he started reading, his face changed from frustrated to angry, to the point of his skin hardening on his forehead and fingers holding the letter, tearing it slightly. Since Kirishima was entirely focused on reading, Katsuki didn't bother covering his smirk. It was kind of amazing how that one fucking hero could make Kirishima, Kirishima of all people, so furious.
"That's not even a proper apology!" Kirishima finally looked up from the letter. "I never really say that I hate people but- Ugh! This guy!" He threw the letter onto the floor just to pick it up after a few seconds and hand it back to Katsuki, still staring at it with all the hatred he could gather.
Katsuki didn't even try to hide his amusement when he took the letter from him and put it back in his bag. They started walking again, Kirishima's steps loud and angry, as if he and Katsuki switched personalities at that moment.
"... Are you going to respond to him?" Kirishima asked in lowered tone after they finally entered the library.
Katsuki turned to him with a sinister smile.
"I already did." He answered as he slammed his bag onto the table.
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Tsunagu stared in disbelief at his computer's screen. There was an email. Ordinary email, not even a letter, from none other than Bakugou Katsuki. Although he wasn't sure what was more disrespectful, the form of his answer or the answer itself.
To my former boss; suck ass.
Kirishima is an absolute delight that is apparently braver than you or any of your pissass sidekicks who are too scared to stand up to you. The best thing about him? I didn't even ask him to do this. I found out from the fucking news. Besides, he's so stupidly kind it makes me wanna barf, so I can't even imagine how utterly pissed he must have been to go and do something like that.
Now piece of advice for you, from me; Get better at treating people.
Bakugou
Tsunagu took in a deep breath and sipped his tea, trying his best to keep his emotions at bay.
Definitely the answer.
When it came to this… crude email, Tsunagu now knew two things.
First, Bakugou Katsuki would stay his rotten self, no matter the outside influence.
Second, he lied about the lack of significant other. Although if Tsunagu had any say in that, he wouldn't approve of this Kirishima.
Tsunagu realised that he should have trusted his guts since the beginning. That Bakugou was unredeemable and now, with all of his new experience, Tsunagu was convinced of that. That, and the fact that Bakugou was completely incapable of having a good relationship with a normal person.
___
"... Can I see your message?"
Katsuki glanced at Kirishima's curious expression and for a second, he really wanted to show him what kind of an answer Jeanist received.
But he was all too aware of how he described Kirishima in that email. Even if he didn't exactly mean all of it, Katsuki knew that this idiot would take it in a wrong way.
"No, you have better things to focus on." Katsuki opened the first textbook that was on a little pile of books next to him.
Math.
"So uh-" Kirishima glanced at that book as if it was going to kill him. "What now?" His eyes went up and met with Katsuki's.
"What happens now, is that I'm going to tutor you until your eyes bleed." He answered with a sneer, expecting even more of a frightened expression, yet all he got was a laugh.
For some reason, Katsuki's words made Kirishima relax, as if this was some kind of normalcy in the stressful situation as well as the funniest shit he's ever heard.
Then there was this stupid, honest laugh that made Katsuki's insides turn into warm, disgusting mush, and he was annoyed at how he was unable to identify the exact cause of it. It was just laughter. Kirishima laughed a lot, every single day, so why Katsuki was suddenly hyper aware of it? Was it because it was quiet around them and several people were already glaring at them? Or was it because Kirishima was laughing at something that Katsuki said?
Finally, after someone threatened Kirishima with getting the librarian, he stopped laughing and Katsuki found himself wishing that Kirishima never stopped.
What the fuck is wrong with me? Katsuki's insides clenched again as he glared at the book in his hand then at Kirishima.
"Ah, sorry-" Kirishima hurriedly opened his notebook, probably searching for the things he had the most trouble with. He must have thought that Katsuki got annoyed by his doings.
It wasn't true, but it was better for him to think that, than for Katsuki to explain that he wasn't annoyed but-
But what? Could he really explain his reaction, even though he had no clue as to what it actually was in the first place? Katsuki took a deep breath and just kept his eyes on Kirishima while he searched for the right things.
Katsuki had a feeling that this tutoring session won't be either short or the last one for them.
Notes:
Kazewaki is supposedly autistic, her owner, who shall not be named, said so so I'm putting that fact here. In different circumstances, she and Katsuki would be great friends since she's a "straight to the point" kind of person, but oh well ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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Chapter 22: Caught unawares
Summary:
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Chapter Text
Katsuki already knew that Kirishima wasn't stupid. After all, he was the only person who figured out why Katsuki didn't bother with names or quirks and then, true to his word, didn't tell anyone. That proved that Katsuki could trust Kirishima and that he wasn't that stupid.
So why in the goddamn fuck was he stupid enough to ignore everything Katsuki was trying to teach him?
At first, Katsuki didn't notice anything. Kirishima would nod and make a note of something that Katsuki just explained to him and he would go onto another thing, taking a mental note to test him on that later and hoping that Kirishima actually understood. But soon enough, Katsuki realised that stupid Shitty hair wasn't listening at all.
Because he was busy staring at Katsuki.
And once again, at first Katsuki thought that this was his way of paying attention. That he needed to stare and listen to fully understand, but when he stopped reacting altogether to any of Katsuki's words, and just kept his eyes on Katsuki's face, he grew irritated.
Especially when Kirishima didn't react when Katsuki stared right back at him and stopped talking.
Katsuki wasn't even trying to focus on anything in particular, but he still noticed Kirishima's small smile, as if he was thinking about something pleasant. Then he blinked slowly, as if only half awake, all this while leaning lazily on his hand.
The longer he stared, the more Katsuki felt irritated and somehow frustrated, even more when he couldn't quite figure out why there was something flipping around in his stomach.
That made him angry enough to loudly slam the textbook shut.
Kirishima jumped while Katsuki ignored someone shushing him.
"What-"
"You're not paying fucking attention, jackass." Katsuki whispered angrily as he put his notebook in his bag.
"I am!" Kirishima yelled and flinched slightly when someone tried to shush him. "I am." This time he whispered as he leaned towards Katsuki.
"Bullshit." Katsuki whispered back and collected his pens. "Do you even know what I was explaining to you for the past forty minutes?!" Katsuki flipped off some girl who told him to shut up.
"Yeah! It was- uh..." Kirishima glanced at the textbook that was still laid down between them. "Math!"
"YOU DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WHICH SUBJECT WE STARTED WITH?!" Katsuki stood up and his chair rattled.
"I KNEW, I JUST WASN'T SURE!" Kirishima joined him and at this point was ignoring everyone else, like Katsuki.
"NOT SURE MY ASS, WE'RE JUST WASTING TIME-"
"Gentlemen." Cold voice made them shut up and they both turned to see some old guy. "I see that you don't know what a library is for, so I must ask you to leave and preferably not come back." He whispered with a hint of venom in his voice and glared at them from behind his glasses.
"S-sorry…" Kirishima tried to hide his head between his shoulders as he and Katsuki quickly gathered their stuff and left the library.
Katsuki glared at Kirishima who chuckled awkwardly.
"I uh… Sorry for yelling and not listening…" He looked to the side while his face slightly reddened. "I don't know why I spaced out like that…"
"Oh, so you admit that you weren't listening." Katsuki deadpanned, unimpressed with those apologies. But then he sighed, knowing perfectly well that this was his fault as well that they were kicked out. "It's whatever. I need to go back home anyway to find those stupid medical records and shit." He muttered as he fixed his grip on his bag and started walking away.
"Wait, but-"
"Just text me if you don't understand something." Katsuki cut in and glanced at Kirishima over his shoulder, catching him red faced once again.
"O-okay!" Kirishima stuttered and Katsuki smirked at him as a way of saying goodbye.
___
Katsuki stepped into the house already with a mission. He just hoped that finding his stupid medical records would go quick and no one would suspect a thing. All he needed was to figure out the right time-
"Katsuki!" His dad called out to him from the stairs as he made his way down. "We'll be going out for dinner, do you want to join us?" He asked with an honest smile.
Perfect.
"Oh, is Katsuki joining us?" His mother's head popped out from the living room. She's been almost nicer to him recently for some reason.
Maybe he could actually ask her what she thought about any eventual support gear?
"I'm not." Katsuki shrugged and rolled his eyes at dad's short 'boo', but then he walked away to the kitchen without further comments.
Katsuki's eyes wandered towards the living room, his mother already back inside, probably watching something, but once he made his way there, he saw her going through some documents.
"We'll be out of the city next Monday." She told him when she noticed him staring. "We need to meet with a designer and he can't travel here so we'll go to Osaka for a few days. Do you want to come with us?" She looked back down at something that seemed like material samples, but Katsuki focused on a document that had her signature on it.
"Exams are coming." Katsuki answered shortly and sat down on an armchair. His mother needed only a second to realise he did that before she looked back at him.
"... Did something happen at school?" She asked calmly as she tilted her eyebrow at him, yet there was this feral spark in her eye. As if she was just waiting for his school to fuck up again.
Katsuki took a deep breath and decided to just go for it.
"What if there was some sort of... support gear? That school could make to help me?" Katsuki clenched his teeth in anticipation when all he got were wide eyes. Then a frown. And a scoff.
"No fucking way." It seemed like she fully intended to cut the conversation short, with how her head turned to all the papers on the table.
Katsuki vaguely wondered what his father would say, but judging by the sound of steps going up the stairs, he had no interest in their conversation.
"But this is-"
"No." She cut him off. "I'm not about to let the school that treated you like a wild animal mess with your head." With a frown, she leaned back on the couch with her arms crossed over her chest. "And that sent you off to a hero who had to apologise to you for some reason." She obviously wanted Katsuki to tell her what happened during his internship, why Best Jeanist sent that letter.
And of course, she was blaming the school for whatever Best Jeanist did.
Honestly, Katsuki couldn't even argue with her about that. He fucking hated all that public humiliation and it still made him sick to think about those restraints. How he couldn't breathe. How he didn't remember anything between Deku's arrival in the locker room and then he himself leaving it. How his mother reacted.
But still-
"It's a chance for me to actually know who I'm talking to-"
"We both know that if you try hard enough and get over your stupid stubbornness, you'll be able to recognize people without trouble." She snapped her fingers for exaggeration. "Just like that!"
"This isn't just about people, it's about villains and allies and-"
"Do you even know what exactly that gear will be?" She interrupted him again and they glared at each other for a few seconds as Katsuki cursed himself in his mind for not asking, like a fucking idiot. "Your silence is all I need." She stood up and slightly loomed over him. "I'm going to make myself tea and when I come back, I don't want to hear another word about any sort of support gear." With that, she walked out of the room and Katsuki was left alone.
But he didn't have time to think about her words.
His eyes wandered to all the documents and Katsuki immediately spotted the one with her signature. Quicker than ever before, he took a picture of it, made sure it wasn't blurry and left the room, fully intending on forging the signature.
Katsuki wasn't a fucking baby, he could decide on stuff like that by himself.
Once he was back in his room, he just had to wait until his parents were out of the house. Luckily, it didn't take long and before he knew it, his dad knocked on the door to tell him they were leaving.
Katsuki waited another fifteen minutes to make sure they wouldn't unexpectedly come back, and quickly went to their room. He knew exactly where were all the medical records for their family, in the bottom drawer of a dresser that was standing next to a window. His parents showed him, just in case. Besides, neither of them really expected Katsuki to look for them without their knowledge.
Katsuki smirked to himself when he found the documents labeled with his name and oh, lucky him, everything was there. Once again, he pulled out his phone and took pictures of everything he thought might have been important, he even took all of the old x-rays and brought them up to the light so they would be easier to read. He noticed the name of that fucking doctor on one of the documents and grimaced how it even sounded bad.
Akura Mizuo.
Katsuki didn't even want to remember it.
When he was done, he put everything back as it was before and left the room hurriedly, already emailing all the pictures to Kazewaki.
And when he felt his phone buzz right after, he was surprised that she would answer this fast.
Yet, to even bigger surprise...
Kirishima: bro I'm really sorry about today!
Bakugou: Whatever, it's not like you were the only one shouting.
Kirishima: :D
Kirishima: do you think we could..
Kirishima: you know >->
Bakugou: no I fucking don't
Kirishima: Could we meet tomorrow…? To actually study? I know it's weekend and you have your own stuff but I could REALLY use some help…. I don't want to spam you with messages throughout the whole weekend and I promise I will actually pay attention so...
Kirishima: Please?
How Katsuki could say no to this fucking idiot? Besides, they still had their deal.
Bakugou: I'll kill you if you don't pay attention.
Kirishima: !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Kirishima: B R O THANK YOU SO MUCH
Bakugou: you're too loud
Kirishima: I'm not anywhere near you!
Bakugou: yeah but I can almost hear the way you'd fucking scream it idiot, at this point your stupid voice is forever stuck in my brain
When Kirishima didn't answer right away, Katsuki opened the picture of the signature he took and started practicing it on a separate piece of paper. It wasn't that hard, honestly from what he knew, his dad's was way more complicated so he got lucky that Kazewaki didn't need both of them.
… Did she?
Before Katsuki could think longer about it, he got a notification for an email.
Speak of the devil. Katsuki thought as he saw it was Kazewaki herself who answered.
'The scans are a bit old, but I can work with them, I'll start working on the gear and now I just need you to bring me the parental permission.
Don't worry, you're in good hands, Bakugou-kun. Especially that doctor Akura was my mentor for a few years.
Kazewaki Emiri'
Katsuki felt himself pale, something clenching around his throat.
But… how? She didn't seem to be as fucked up as him so how? Maybe it was because Kirishima was there? Back then, that sick fucker didn't do anything until his mom left, so if he just kept Kirishima around then maybe it all would be just fine?
Fuck, but being dependant on someone was the last thing he wanted to do, what the hell was he supposed to-
Another buzz.
Katsuki would never admit how fast he read the message from Kirishima.
Kirishima: so uhh we can meet at this one diner? The staff is kinda questionable but lets you sit there however long you want to 'cause there aren't many people anyway?
Right. Katsuki wasn't dependant on Kirishima. They had a deal. They equally needed each other.
And it all would be alright as long as this idiot would be there with him.
Bakugou: Send me the address, we'll meet at 1pm.
Kirishima shared a location
Kirishima: (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*.✧°
Katsuki rolled his eyes at a new, strangely cute emoticon but didn't answer anything, just took a calming breath and went downstairs to make himself something to eat.
Maybe later he could think of what to wear.
And somehow, meeting up with Kirishima wasn't that bad of an idea anymore.
___
Eijirou stood anxiously in front of the diner and waited for Bakugou, looking around to make sure he wouldn't miss him.
To say that he was nervous was an understatement. He was going to spend few hours with Bakugou, with only strangers around that wouldn't bother them. So, Eijirou was frustrated, agitated, but most of all, excited. After all, this would be the first time he'd see Bakugou outside of school. Dressed in something that wasn't a school uniform or a hero costume.
Eijirou looked over his own clothes and hoped that Bakugou wouldn't be one of the people who would judge him by those. Not that he was ashamed by his bright orange tank top with matching trainers (even if the shades were slightly off) and black shorts, but with Bakugou it was… different.
Damn it, he should have known better!
But the whole morning, and even now, he couldn't stop thinking about how they got kicked out from the library, how he didn't want it to happen again and how the whole situation was undeniably his fault. But he couldn't stop himself from staring at Bakugou's face when he was so focused on explaining some math problems to him.
It was just perfect.
How his eyebrows were scrunched slightly, yet not in that typical angry way, but rather in concentration. How his eyes would go up for a second or two when he tried to find the right words to explain something, and then light up when he found them. How he'd smirk to himself when he solved something on the first try.
Eijirou sighed as he leaned against the wall.
If only he could focus on his studies the way he focused on Bakugou...
"Shit..." Eijirou muttered to himself as he realised that he indeed was in trouble.
"Oi."
His shoulders tensed for a second when he heard the familiar voice of Bakugou's. Once he turned, he had to clench his teeth, as to stop his mouth from opening widely.
Bakugou was dressed in black for the most part, spare for a dark orange v-neck under unbuttoned shirt.
Although his well fitting jeans, offensively well fitting jeans held up by a belt on his hips, were what caught most of Eijirou's attention. It wasn't like they were super tight, but compared to how his school uniform's trousers were so baggy, it was just enough for Eijirou to finally realise how lean his legs actually were. Lean and long and oh, Bakugou walked up closer and he had more eyeliner than usual-
"The fuck are you staring at?" He asked with a bite as he put his hands in the pockets of those perfect jeans that were going to haunt Eijirou.
You look amazing. Eijirou almost blurted but managed to bite his tongue. And just now he realised how he looked like compared to Bakugou.
Kind of underdressed, but the plus of the situation was that if he squinted, their colours kind of matched. Almost as if they planned this but Eijirou knew he was overthinking it and then he realised that Bakugou was staring him down.
"... Your shoes are shitty, like your hair." He smirked and for some stupid reason, Eijirou felt as if he received a compliment, because he knew that Bakugou thought that his hair was noticeable and this was all Eijirou wanted. To be someone noticeable and he was aware that he was reading too much into it but hey, who was gonna stop him?
"At least I didn't wear my crocs!" Eijirou smiled and snorted when he saw mortified look on Bakugou's face.
"... Disgusting." Bakugou muttered as he walked past Eijirou who laughed openly and followed after him into the mostly empty diner, spare for a waiter cleaning a table and an old lady in the back of the room.
They sat in one of the booths, next to a window, and Eijirou immediately pulled out a few of his notebooks.
He noticed some two guys enter the diner who stopped as soon as they saw him and Bakugou. They kept glancing at them as they sat down at a nearby table, but when they realised that Eijirou was looking at them, they immediately turned away.
Weird...
"Oi, focus." Bakugou snapped his fingers to get Eijirou's attention. "What do you have the most trouble with, besides math?" Bakugou asked as he glanced over the notebooks.
"Science in general I guess… You know, biology and chemistry… Plus history! All the dates are hard to memorize, you know?" Eijirou chuckled awkwardly with a shrug, then bit his lower lip when Bakugou looked up at him.
"Anything you're good at?"
Oh.
Eijirou didn't expect him to care.
"Uhhh- PE?" Eijirou answered quickly then wanted to run out of the diner when Bakugou rolled his eyes.
"Yeah, obviously. You fucking pinned me to the floor." Bakugou sounded almost impressed and Eijirou let himself smile proudly. "Don't let it get into your head." He frowned when Eijirou chuckled.
"I think I'm pretty good at art and English." He finally said after another few seconds of a pause and Bakugou nodded.
"My art is-" He glanced to the side. "Not great."
Eijirou stopped himself from laughing, yet still a small chuckle escaped him.
"Fuck off, Kirishima. Now-" Bakugou reached for a first notebook but a waiter approached them.
"What will it be for the two of you?" He asked in a bored voice with tired expression.
Eijirou noticed that Bakugou was about to open his mouth, but then he decided to cut in.
"Get whatever you want, you're helping me so I'll treat you." Eijirou hoped that it sounded natural and Bakugou didn't catch how nervous he felt while offering that.
But Bakugou just raised an eyebrow at him then chuckled and looked back at the waiter.
They both ordered some fries with drinks and finally focused on studying, Eijirou's eyes glued to his notebook to avoid any distractions, even if Bakugou's face was tempting to look at, and then the snickering of the two guys was getting louder and louder with each passing minute.
After some time, Eijirou could finally say with confidence that he actually understood most of their math curriculum.
At least those parts that they were pretty sure will be on the exam.
Surprisingly, Bakugou was amazing at teaching. Even if it was in an angry and loud way for the most part, he managed to explain to Eijirou the most complicated tasks and once Eijirou actually focused, he finally saw that.
"Keep it down, guys." The waiter approached them again with a glare.
"No one gives a shit." Bakugou answered with an equal glare.
Eijirou almost told him that this wasn't the way to treat the staff, but when the waiter walked away while telling them to 'be fucking quiet', he decided against it.
Once again, Eijirou noticed the two guys who were still there, now openly staring at Bakugou.
But maybe it's because of what just happened. Eijirou explained to himself and turned back to Bakugou.
"Alright-" he actually started quieter this time and Eijirou was glad he was busy looking at another notebook, this way missing the way Eijirou smiled at that. "Biology next?" Bakugou asked as he flipped through Eijirou's notes.
"Sounds good, we can-"
"Bakugou Katsuki?"
Bakugou froze for a split second before looking in the direction which the mocking voice came from. Eijirou followed his line of sight and his eyes fell on those two guys from earlier.
They looked at each other, stood up and walked up to their table, the one with strangely long fingers leaning against it.
"You're Bakugou Katsuki, right?" He asked with a smirk that Eijirou didn't like at all, especially when he noticed how tense Bakugou's shoulders got. "You are!" For a reason not known to Eijirou, he laughed with the second guy with black, short hair.
"And what fucking business do you have with me?" Bakugou asked with a clear threat in his voice, yet Eijirou noticed how his hands clenched on the notebook.
Although he wasn't sure if it was from nervousness or anger or maybe something entirely else.
"Aw, come on! We were your classmates, don't you remember us?"
"Oh! Classmates? Were you friends?" Despite everything, Eijirou couldn't help but get excited. "Do you want to catch up?" Eijirou smiled at them, but then noticed how taken aback they were by his words.
Strange.
They glanced at each other then at the notebooks on the table, seemingly trying to analyse the situation, then back to Bakugou.
"I'd never take you for a teaching type! What, UA's tuition is too expensive, huh?"
Why would they ignore him like that?
"I'm not paying him." Eijirou answered in place of Bakugou, who didn't look like he wanted to talk to them at all, the two guys looking back at him in surprise. "He's just doing me a friendly favour." Eijirou explained as he leaned on his hand.
The smile disappeared from his face when they snickered again and the one with black hair spoke.
"Him? Friendly? You think you're friends with Bakugou?"
Eijirou frowned. He didn't like this conversation at all.
"That's none of your business who I'm friends with or not, you fucking extras." Bakugou finally spoke in a low tone.
"What, meaning you actually care enough to remember?!"
They both laughed again and Bakugou stood up, Eijirou right with him.
"Hey, easy, we're just joking! You don't want trouble with your school, right?" The one with black hair snickered and put a hand on Bakugou's shoulder who immediately smacked it away.
"Fuck. Off." Bakugou growled as small explosion went off from his palm.
"Be careful, or he'll get you with that messed up quirk of his."
Both of them laughed again and Eijirou felt sick when he noticed how Bakugou paled and took a step back.
That uncharacteristic behaviour only made Eijirou angry.
"Oi, cut it out guys!" Both of them looked at him surprised, as if they weren't expecting him to cut in like that. "Who do you think you are?!" Eijirou could barely control the volume of his voice.
"Right, since he never cared-" one of them pointed at Bakugou with that way too long finger "-he can't tell you that we've known each other since kindergarten."
Eijirou glanced at Bakugou in time to see him looking right back at him, eyes widened in a similar way when he was confronted about his face blindness by Eijirou himself.
"Right? And he would suddenly make a friend?" Black haired one joined back in, walking up to Eijirou. "Does he even recognise you, huh?"
Eijirou's hands hardened at those questions.
"For your information, yes. To both of these." Eijirou hissed but the guy who asked in the first place didn't seem threatened at all.
“Bet he can’t even tell who you are half the time!” He laughed in a sick way and black haired guy immediately took it even further.
"That means he can recognise him half the time? That's generous!" He nudged his buddy in the side while keep laughing.
"Will you assholes CUT IT OUT?!" Eijirou shouted and slammed his palm against the table, barely remembering to make his skin soft again. "People like you don't deserve to be remembered in the first place! Especially by someone as great and manly as Bakugou!"
They fell silent, smirks finally gone from their faces.
"You-" the one with long fingers stuttered "-you haven't even known him for that long! He was-"
"I'm more than sure that Bakugou isn't the person you knew a few months ago." Eijirou interrupted, taking a step towards him. "Although from what you're saying, I don't think you knew him at all."
___
Before Kirishima blew up, Katsuki wanted to kill those two bastards and run out, his heart racing with anger and panic. But now…
Katsuki's heart was pounding from the excitement of the whole scene.
Because right next to him was the same person who made Best Jeanist apologise to him, but seeing what that hero saw in person was almost terrifying.
Almost.
Katsuki couldn't stop staring at Kirishima, his mostly hardened face and furious, burning eyes, teeth bared and what Katsuki felt wasn't fear, it was awe and satisfaction that those bastards started backing off.
"Oh fuck-" one of those assholes whispered with fear. "It's that guy who attacked Best Jeanist!"
The other one's eyes widened in realisation and Katsuki smirked as he thought of something.
"You think UA will care if a student breaks some plain nobody's bone or two?" Katsuki took a few steps towards them, Kirishima right with him, seemingly catching on. "Think about it-" he leaned closer "-if they didn't do anything when he attacked the number four hero, do you really think he'll be in trouble for attacking you?"
Next to him, Kirishima hardened both of his arms and bared his teeth with a wild smirk.
They didn't answer, just turned around and ran out of the diner.
Katsuki laughed mockingly as the door slammed behind them, but it didn't last long as the waiter approached them.
"Just... leave." He deadpanned, completely done with everything, and when Katsuki wanted to share a piece of his mind, Kirishima stepped in.
"Sure, we're sorry!" He apologized with an awkward smile as he put a hand on Katsuki's shoulder. "Let's just go, okay?"
Katsuki wanted to argue, but they caused enough of a scene already so he just scoffed. They collected their things and went outside, Kirishima shortly after Katsuki once he paid. Lucky for them, no one was waiting there.
"So…" Kirishima started and Katsuki immediately knew he wanted to ask- "Are you okay?" exactly that.
"I'm fucking great." Katsuki glared at him and Kirishima just looked to the side. Katsuki really hoped that he'll drop this subject.
"They were just assholes-"
"I know, for fuck's sake." Katsuki turned to him. "They're gone, you're feral, end of the conversation."
"... Feral?"
Katsuki snorted at his confused face.
Then anger flooded him when he realised that they were kicked out. Again.
"Is there no fucking place where people can study without extras interrupting them!?" Katsuki kicked a rock with too much force and aggression, but he didn't care. He just wanted some peace.
"Uh-"
Katsuki peered over his shoulder at Kirishima who clearly wanted to say something.
"Spit it out, Shitty hair." He frowned and kicked another rock that hit Kirishima on the shin.
"Oi." Kirishima seemed like he wanted to return the favor, but decided against it, sighed and finally spoke. "Alright, what if we…" he glanced to the side. "What if we go over to my place?" Still avoiding eye contact, he missed how Katsuki's eyes widened.
He needed half a second to compose himself and actually think about this.
This would be convenient. They'd be left alone and no asshole would tell them to be quiet.
"Where do you live?" Katsuki almost snickered at the way Kirishima's eyes shot back to him, wide in shock.
"Chiba!" Kirishima yelled, as if panicked and bit his lower lip.
"That's too fucking far away." Katsuki frowned again. They didn't have time to waste on fucking travelling.
"... Well, uh-" there was that uncertainty again.
Katsuki almost kicked another rock at him, but-
"What if we go to your house?" Kirishima asked quickly on one breath, not looking at Katsuki who's eyes were even wider than before.
To his house.
What the fuck.
When was the last time anyone visited him? Katsuki didn't need to answer that, he knew exactly how many years have passed since then, and he felt his stomach clench on itself.
What people do in those situations?
Once again, it was a good idea, but Kirishima coming over to Katsuki's house? Sitting in his room? Would his parents be mad he invited someone without notice? Was his room clean enough? Was he supposed to show him around the house?
Sure, his parents' friends or coworkers would sometimes come over so he kind of knew what to do when someone visited, but Katsuki never cared about them, always locked in his room to avoid listening to shitty questions like 'how's school' or 'do you have a girlfriend' as if they cared. Besides, those weren't his friends.
"Bakugou?" Kirishima stepped closer to him. "It's totally fine if I can't, don't worry about it!" He smiled honestly and shrugged like it really wasn't that big of a deal.
"Fuck, no, it's just-" that I never had a friend over- "-that I'm not sure what my parents will say..." Katsuki muttered under his nose, almost inaudible to the point that Kirishima leaned a bit closer to him. "... And we probably don't have any snacks…" That was what you were supposed to do, right? Provide some fucking food for a guest, this much Katsuki knew.
But what else?
"It's fine, dude! I don't really care about snacks or anything, I just want to pass the exams and go on that training camp with you- you all." Kirishima coughed awkwardly then smiled while Katsuki's eyebrows knitted slightly.
Why would he be so nervous about something like that? Was it because he didn't want Kirishima to know about him never having any friends over?
"Bakugou-" Kirishima slowly put his hand on Katsuki's shoulder "-trust me when I say it'll be fine if I can't come over. You don't have to explain yourself." With another smile, Kirishima squeezed lightly, then patiently waited for Katsuki's decision.
Katsuki sighed. They were just wasting time like that and he knew his hesitation wasn't even about Kirishima coming over, but more about the reaction of his parents.
Maybe if he was lucky, they wouldn't even be in the house?
"... fucking fine, Jesus-" Katsuki didn't know why he felt so frustrated when he saw Kirishima's smile widen and why his insides flipped around.
Not that he would admit it, but this was definitely him being nervous about his friend seeing his house or something like that.
Definitely.
"Dude! I'm so excited!" Kirishima jumped, startling some stray cat, and quickly joined Katsuki who already started walking. "Last time I visited someone was in middle school!"
Oh.
Then maybe his expectations weren't that high?
Katsuki felt slightly relieved, although that annoying uncertainty was still settled in his stomach.
___
Katsuki cursed under his breath when he saw both of his parents' cars on the parking as he and Kirishima approached his house.
"Wow, you really live here?" Kirishima sounded genuinely impressed as he looked over Katsuki's house.
"No, I brought you over to my neighbour's place." Katsuki muttered but smirked when Kirishima chuckled at that.
They quickly made their way to the front door and stepped inside.
The moment he gave Kirishima white slippers to wear, who was looking around seemingly excited, a familiar voice reached his ears.
"Katsuki, why didn't you tell me you were going out, you-"
Then silence and Katsuki just knew that his mother saw Kirishima.
"... hello?" She uttered with confusion.
"Hi!" Kirishima answered her cheerfully and walked up to her. "I'm sorry for coming without notice, my name is Kirishima Eijirou, I'm Bakugou's classmate!" He bowed a bit.
Katsuki held his breath, praying that his mother wouldn't make a huge deal out of it, at least not right in front of Kirishima. But then he realised she just kept staring at Kirishima who shifted his weight from one leg to another, probably panicking in his head.
Katsuki coughed as he stood next to him and that seemed to snap her out of whatever she was thinking about.
"Yes! Hi! Hello!" Her voice was way higher than usual and Katsuki just wanted to go to his room. "I- I'm Bakugou Mitsuki. Katsuki's mom. … Obviously." She smiled in a way Katsuki's never seen her and that only made him want to run away even more. "I'm happy to meet his-" she glanced at Katsuki who tried to tell her with his eyes to get over it. "Friend."
Katsuki covered his face with one hand, but when Kirishima spoke again, from his tone, Katsuki knew that he didn't catch up on how she exaggerated that word.
"And I'm happy to meet you-" Kirishima thought about something for a second then continued with a bigger smile. "Bakugou-san!"
"You can call me Mitsuki!" She quickly offered and Katsuki was more than aware that she just panicked.
"Oh, okay! Nice to meet you, Mitsuki-san." Kirishima sounded a bit awkward but still happy with this stupid situation.
"Likewise, Eijirou-kun!" She clasped her hands together, looking genuinely excited about the whole situation.
Katsuki decided it was time to stop.
"Okay, great, let's fucking go." With a light push on the back, he made Kirishima head towards the stairs. "Don't bother us, I'm tutoring him." He tried to calmly explain to his mother who just nodded without a single word.
"Your mom seems nice." Kirishima commented as they walked through the corridor, his eyes on various family pictures on the walls.
"She's a nag." Katsuki stated while Kirishima chuckled.
"... There's a lot of pictures." He pointed out after a few seconds.
"And?" Katsuki never really thought about it. Was it unusual?
"Nothing, it looks nice." Kirishima shrugged then stopped and pointed at Katsuki's graduation photo from middle school. "Is that your dad?"
"Who else?" He snapped. What was the big deal about those fucking pictures, there were always there!
"You're like a copy of your mom."
Katsuki stopped right at the entrance to his room.
"... I guess." He muttered and opened the door, sighing in relief when he saw it was cleaner than he remembered.
Kirishima must have realised what he said because he seemingly made to apologise, but once he saw Katsuki's room, he shut up.
"Wow, you have All Might headphones?" He asked with slight amusement as he walked up to Katsuki's desk. "That's so cool, why don't you wear those to school?" Kirishima turned to Katsuki, holding the headphones carefully and looking at the details.
"I don't want them to get ruined." Katsuki answered with half truth. Because the main reason for that was that he didn't want All Might himself to make a big deal out of it, like he did the other day with stupid Deku's pen.
"Oh, I get it." Kirishima put the headphones down carefully and looked around again. "Your room is really cool." He finally said as he put his bag on the floor.
Katsuki just shrugged and decided they should get started.
"Good that you like it, because you won't leave until you're able to explain to me what exactly is our DNA."
Katsuki snickered at Kirishima's scared face.
___
Masaru decided to take a short break from all the paperwork when his wife suddenly burst through the door, slamming it violently against the wall, that already had marks from the very same thing.
“Masaru, holy fuck!” Mitsuki yelled while running into the room and slamming her hands on his desk, the mug with coffee rattling dangerously.
“Mitsuki… I told you not to do that…” He pleaded with slight annoyance in his voice as he got up from his seat to check how much damage to the wall was done.
“Actually, you told me I can do that in extreme cases!” Mitsuki put her hands on her hips and smiled triumphantly.
“And that case is..?” Masaru wasn’t looking at her, instead just checking the wall and sighing in relief when there wasn't an actual hole in the there. He took a mental note to put some rubber on the handle. And the wall.
“You wouldn’t believe me if I told you, so just come with me!” Not waiting for an answer, she grabbed him by his elbow and pulled him towards the corridor. Masaru barely dodged the doorframe, but managed to follow her quick steps downstairs.
“Mitsuki, I’m kind of busy, is it really that ur-“
“Shut up, you ass!” She cut him off and Masaru sighed, resigned. Once she would decide on something, there was no turning back.
“Can you at least tell me where-“ Before he could finish, they stopped at the shoe cabinet, next to the exit from their house. She looked at it with strange excitement written all over her face and nudged him to look too. He didn’t really see anything out of the ordinary. “… We’re going out?" Masaru asked finally and his wife groaned, apparently annoyed at his words.
“Are you really not seeing it?” Mitsuki poked him in a shoulder and pointed at the shoe cabinet with her chin. Masaru looked at it once again and scanned it more precisely. There were a few pairs of his shoes on two top shelves, then Mitsuki’s on the next two and Katsuki’s on the bottom ones, nothing out of the ordinary or strange.
Mitsuki, seeing the puzzlement on his face, groaned and kneeled down, motioning for him to follow her lead.
Masaru sighed but obliged to her request and once he was on her level, she pointed at the lowest shelf that technically belonged to Katsuki. He looked over the four pairs of shoes that were there. One pair of sport shoes that he would jog in, another pair of winter shoes that he was supposed to put in the closet months ago, some black sneakers and then, he finally noticed a pair of obnoxiously orange trainers.
“… Alright, our son buying this kind of shoes is an extreme case, but not so much as to slam the door like that.” He said a little worried over his son’s sudden change in fashion taste and got up, steadying himself against one of the shelves.
“Jesus fucking Christ, Masaru, these are not Katsuki’s.” She got up as well and glared at him. “I would burn them already and you know that!” She shrugged and looked at him like she was expecting something from him.
Masaru looked at the shoes again, not sure what to do or say.
“I’m afraid you just lost me.” He settled on saying. “Can I go back to work now?” He asked and started turning away from her but then she reached and clasped her hands on his cheeks, forcing him to pout. “Mishuki, pleashe…” Masaru managed to say and knitted his eyebrows, his irritation slowly raising.
“Listen to me, darling.” Mitsuki looked him right in the eyes, which was enough to get his full attention. “These are not our son’s, right?” He nodded as much as her hold on him let and she continued. “So, that means these belong to..?” His wife stretched the last vowel, as if she wanted Masaru to finish her sentence, but if he had to be honest, he still had no idea who these awful shoes belonged to. Mitsuki, seeing him sighing and shrugging lightly, let go of his face and crossed her arms over her chest. “These belong to a classmate.” She put an emphasis on the last word and Masaru scrunched his eyebrows even more in confusion.
“… What, he stole them? Should I be concerned? Oh wait, I’m his father, I really should be. Why would he steal from a classmate? Why would he steal at all! What was he-“
“For fuck’s sake, Masaru, you dumbass.” Mitsuki interrupted him with her blunt comment and nudged him on the shoulder. “His classmate came over. These terrible shoes belong to him.” She finally explained.
Masaru blinked a few times, even more confused.
And then he started laughing, loud and long, to the point that his stomach hurt. He had to, once again, steady himself against the shoe cabinet.
“That’s actually well thought through joke, dear.” He wiped off the tear from the corner of his eye and looked back at the shoes. “Seriously, where did you get these from?” He reached for the shoes, but was stopped by Mitsuki’s hand on his own, laughter immediately dying in his throat when he saw her serious face. “… Wait-“ he straightened his back and looked towards the stairs “-are you actually telling me that-“
“Our son, Katsuki, has a friend over for a study session before the exams.” She stated and it was obvious to him that she didn’t quite believe what she was saying.
“… A friend over.” Masaru whispered to himself and blinked a few times in disbelief. “Does he know about-“
“I don’t know.” Mitsuki shrugged and followed his gaze towards upstairs. “I didn’t really know what to say to him to be honest, the only friend he ever invited over was Izuku-kun, and that was back in a fucking kindergarten!” Exasperated, she threw her hands up in the air. “I’m pretty sure I wasn’t supposed to start with ‘oh, hello, do you know that my son doesn’t even remember how you look like’!? Would that be fucked up or what?” Her voice was full of sarcasm and it was obvious she wasn’t sure what to do in this situation.
“What’s his name?” Masaru asked with curiosity and tilted his head a bit.
“Kirishima Eijirou.” Mitsuki didn’t miss a beat and Masaru was fully aware that she intended to remember possibly the first friend Katsuki made since forever. “I didn’t ask, but I’m pretty sure that Katsuki fought against him in the final rounds in that fucking sports festival.”
Masaru closed his eyes and thought about their son’s battles during the festival they both watched.
“Is it that bird guy?” He asked and Mitsuki snorted.
“No, the one with spiky red hair.” She explained after an awkward cough.
Masaru managed to recall Katsuki’s fight against the boy with bright, red hair and nodded to himself a few times.
“And he’s really there?”
“Yes.”
“In Katsuki’s room?”
“Indeed.”
He looked at the stairs then back at her and didn’t fail to notice her mischievous smile.
“Mitsuki…” He started with a pleading note in his voice but he knew it was already too late.
“You just go and tell Katsuki that I need his help with the tea for them and you’ll see for yourself that the Eijirou boy is real! … And after you'll go get some snacks for them.” She patted his shoulder and hit him with her hip as she walked past him towards the kitchen.
Masaru stared after her for a few seconds before looking at the stairs and sighing. What else was there to do than go and see for himself?
So he walked up the stairs and down the corridor to Katsuki's room. For a moment, he listened, but all he heard was Katsuki's muffled voice. Unusually calm voice. Then a different one, one that must have definitely belonged to the Kirishima boy.
With a smile, Masaru knocked and after the voices silenced down, he opened the door. He tried his best not to stare at the boy with bright red hair who was sitting on the floor in front of his son, a folding table with a bunch of notebooks on it between them.
"Ah, you must be Kirishima." Masaru wanted to sound casual, but judging by his son's frown, it was more than obvious that Katsuki figured out how excited and surprised Masaru actually was.
"Yeah!" Kirishima stood up from his place and walked up to Masaru. "Kirishima Eijirou, nice to meet you!" He bowed a little and smiled, his sharp teeth catching Masaru's attention.
"Nice to meet you too." Masaru extended his hand towards him, shaking slightly when Kirishima grabbed it.
"The hell do you want, old man?" Katsuki finally spoke, clearly annoyed that their study session got interrupted.
Masaru almost answered truthfully, that he was just surprised that Katsuki actually brought someone over and that he had slight trouble believing that. But he managed to bite his tongue and settled on;
"Your mom wanted some help with tea for the two of you." He smiled as innocently as he could and waited for Katsuki to stand up as well.
"Read the notes and write down what you don't understand." Katsuki told Kirishima, who saluted him with a grin and sat back down at the table.
Masaru watched silently as Katsuki's eyes followed Kirishima's movements up until he reached for his pen, and then they both left the room.
"... So you're tutoring him?" He couldn't help but ask as they made their way down the stairs.
"He's shit at math, biology, chemistry and history." Katsuki deadpanned. "So yeah, I'm fucking tutoring him."
"... Is he paying you?"
Masaru just wanted to know if it was genuine helping on his son's part, but Katsuki stopped at that and looked at him with confusion and something else that Masaru couldn't pinpoint. Something was telling him that Katsuki was offended by his question.
"Why the fuck would he?" Katsuki didn't even wait for an answer, just headed straight to the kitchen, leaving Masaru alone.
But he didn't feel ignored. He felt happy. Because his son found a friend who he wanted to help.
Without further ado, Masaru just quickly messaged Mitsuki with 'Katsuki's not taking money from him!' and left the house to buy the boys some snacks.
Because that was what parents did when their child's friend would come over, right?
___
Eijirou sighed after he wrote down yet another thing he didn't understand and realised that at this point, he was probably going to rewrite the entire notebook.
After putting his pen away, he hit his head against the table and groaned in annoyance.
Why was it all so hard?!
He wanted to stretch but of course he accidentally hit the small table, causing his pen to fall off and roll under Bakugou's bed.
Of course. Eijirou thought as he moved around the table and closer to the bed. He peered under it, lighting everything up with his phone's flashlight.
Mainly there was a lot of dust, something typical, then some forgotten shoebox, a picture, then his pen.
Eijirou happily reached for it when he realised what he had just noticed.
A picture?
He shone a light at the picture once again and grabbed it as well. Sitting up right next to the bed, Eijirou dusted off the partly burned photograph and stared at strangely familiar green tuft of hair.
Notes:
Be honest, who actually remembered the picture that Katsuki burned in chapter 4 and slid under his bed in chapter fucking 5? lmao
The chapter got too long so I had to cut it, the good news is that I might release the next one a bit sooner (but no promises!)
You have no idea how long ago I thought about these study dates (also Masaru's pov has been sitting in my docs for literally a YEAR)
Anyway, here's my tumblr, yell with me, cry about chapters and bnha, watch me becoming a minecraft blog jhgbksjhdfgbsh
Up next; Communication kink
Chapter 23: Some closure
Summary:
Idk what to tell you, they're just talking for 8k
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Mitsuki turned to see Katsuki as soon as she heard him enter the kitchen.
Katsuki himself looked slightly nervous, already having a conversation with his dad, but Mitsuki couldn't help but also ask him a few questions.
"Is he your friend?"
Katsuki frowned and looked to the side, his ears and cheeks turning pink and Mitsuki couldn't keep a smile off her face.
He has a friend! She thought as she reached for two mugs while Katsuki put a kettle with water on a stove, a frown still present on his face. It was more than obvious that he didn't really want to talk about this whole situation but they had to address the elephant in the room.
"... Does he know?" She asked carefully. This time she really hoped that this conversation wouldn't turn into another argument. That for once Katsuki would be willing to talk.
"... Yeah." Katsuki's voice was almost inaudible but still enough for her to hear, causing her smile to widen. "But… He just knows that I don't remember faces… Nothing else..." He still wasn't looking at her, especially when the water started boiling and Katsuki used it as an excuse to stop talking altogether.
"... Did you tell him?"
His movements halted for a split second, yet it was long enough for her to notice. She noticed how he stopped breathing for a short moment, his shoulders tensed and his movements became mechanical. And he still didn't answer and Mitsuki had no idea what to make of it. She would be delighted if Katsuki actually told someone on his own terms, especially that now he actually had a chance to do so, with that strange teacher's promise and all but…
"Katsuki, I'm proud of you." She put a hand on his shoulder which tensed even more. Mitsuki really hated it and wished that he at least didn't react to her touch like that. And then he still wasn't looking at her, eyes focused on the mugs. This hurt just a bit more. "I just… In the future, could you tell me- tell us, that you actually have someone you can trust like that?"
Mitsuki hoped that this wasn't too much. She had no idea how long these two have been friends, but they already seemed close. Especially that Eijirou knew.
When Katsuki still didn't answer, just reached for sugar and spoons, she spoke again.
"I know I don't often show it, or at least not in the right way but-" she moved so she stood in front of him and put a hand on his cheek, their eyes finally meeting and Mitsuki saw how much uncertainty was in them. How his eyebrows were scrunched in worry. "I'm worried about you." His eyes widened slightly and she stroked his hair with a soft touch. "I want you to be happy and have friends and God, Katsuki… My baby… You have no idea how happy it makes me that this boy is in my house right now!"
She couldn't help but hug him tightly. She wasn't surprised when he didn't return the gesture, but she wished that he would have at least reacted somehow. Anyhow. Instead, when she pulled away, Katsuki just glanced at her for a second, his face slightly frustrated.
Then he put the mugs, teaspoons and sugar on a tray and made to leave the kitchen, Mitsuki's eyes following him. She really hoped that she didn't say something wrong. That she didn't overstep and ruined that little friendship in Katsuki's mind.
But he stopped for a moment, his back still turned to her.
"... He's a cool guy." Katsuki muttered and left her alone.
Mitsuki couldn't help but smile as she wiped away a tear.
___
Katsuki slowly walked up the stairs with the tray and thought about his mother's words.
'You actually have someone you can trust like that.'
So it wasn't just Katsuki's imagination.
Katsuki said it himself, Kirishima didn't know the whole story, but he trusted him. So maybe, just maybe, Katsuki could tell him? At least how he ended up with face blindness in the first place, not his whole fucking life story, he had no business with the lack of Katsuki's social life for all the years he's spent in school and how everyone around him would always compare him to a villain and-
Katsuki stopped in the middle of the corridor and took a deep breath.
Don't think about it. He told himself as he slowly shook his head and started walking again.
He didn't like thinking about those years. He wasn't the biggest fan of them…
With a heavy sigh, Katsuki held the tray in his one hand and finally entered the room to see Kirishima kneeling next to his bed, staring at something in his hand.
"The fuck are you doing?"
Kirishima jumped at his voice, his eyes shooting at Katsuki who closed the door behind him and fixed his grip on the tray.
"I-" He looked down at a piece of paper in his hands and held it up for Katsuki to see. "... What is this?"
The paper turned out to be a partly burned picture and Katsuki only needed a second to realise what, or rather who was supposed to be in it. He was more than glad that his first instinct was to clench his hands on the tray, instead of letting it go.
"Where did you-" Katsuki glanced at his bed, already knowing the answer. He forgot about it. That was the whole point, but he realised that he should have just thrown this fucking picture away. "Why?" His voice was colder than he intended it to be.
Kirishima scrambled to his feet.
"I didn't- the pen fell and rolled under your bed and I- I swear I wasn't snooping around, I just-"
"Shut up." Katsuki needed to think so he walked past panicked Kirishima and up to his desk, put the tray with tea on it and leaned against it, his back turned to Kirishima.
Katsuki was fully aware that Kirishima didn't specifically search for it. He didn't know. But Katsuki also knew that he wouldn't just let it go.
"... It's Midoriya right?" Kirishima asked quietly and Katsuki heard him step closer. "Why…" He sounded like he didn't know what exactly he wanted to ask.
Katsuki didn't really know how to explain why he had mostly burned picture of his childhood friend under his bed.
Or why he burned it.
Or why he had it in the first place.
… Except that maybe he could.
So without saying anything, Katsuki reached for one of the drawers in his desk and pulled out the damned folder with all the other pictures. Katsuki stared at it for a few seconds, weighing his options, before he sighed and turned to face silent Kirishima.
"Here." Katsuki handed him the folder and sat down on his bed while Kirishima opened it, his eyes widening slightly in surprise. "... Aizawa-sensei and principal Nezu gave those to me before the school year started so I could prepare or some shit. None of the teachers before did that."
Katsuki watched as Kirishima went through the first few pictures then stopped and sat down next to Katsuki.
"Prepare…" Kirishima repeated to himself as their eyes met. "To try and memorise everyone?"
Katsuki nodded.
"... Why's my picture also burned?" Kirishima asked with an awkward chuckle as he held up what was apparently a photo of him.
Ah. Right.
"I got… mad." Katsuki looked to the side, not willing to explain himself.
Kirishima must have picked up on it because he just put the picture away without further questions, but frowned at the next one.
"You can throw this one out, he got expelled after a week."
Katsuki raised an eyebrow as he took the picture of some guy with strange purple orbs instead of hair.
"Why the fuck?"
"He was a gross perv." Kirishima grimaced then snorted when Katsuki crumpled the picture and threw it into a trash can under his desk. "So…" He continued as Katsuki sat back down, legs crossed. "I guess you didn't really want these?" The question had an obvious answer, yet Kirishima still asked as he closed the folder and put it on the small table.
Katsuki noticed that the picture with Deku was still on the bed, next to Kirishima.
"No, and I still don't want them. Don't need them." Katsuki frowned as he crossed his arms over his chest, almost challenging Kirishima with his eyes.
"... You said none other teacher ever gave you the pictures of your classmates before so… they didn't know?" Kirishima put his elbow on his knee as he leaned on his hand, pure curiosity on his face.
Katsuki let out a bitter laugh.
"Oh, they knew. And those assholes made sure that everyone in the class always knew as well. Fuckers." Katsuki shrugged, pretending that he wasn't affected by all of that.
"So Aizawa-"
"Sensei was the first teacher to respect my decision to not fucking tell anyone." Katsuki didn't really mean to sound accusatory, but the shadows of that grudge against Kirishima's doings were still somewhere in the back of his head, even if he got over his anger already.
"... I'm… really sorry, Bakugou..." Kirishima looked down and fiddled with his fingers. "I know I already apologised, but I didn't know the whole story… I-" he took a deep breath, as if he was trying to calm himself down. "This was your chance and I really screwed it all up."
Katsuki saw that Kirishima genuinely felt like shit, rightfully so, he really should have in Katsuki's opinion, but if he had to be honest...
"... Of all the people that could find out, I'm gl- I'm fine with the fact that it was you."
Kirishima's wide eyes shot back to him, lips parted as his cheeks reddened slightly.
"Besides… you didn't tell anyone… So technically you didn't screw up that much." Katsuki finished and felt his own cheeks get warmer.
This was fucking embarrassing, he hated talking about- about what exactly? What they were talking about right now, how Katsuki didn't hold a grudge anymore? That he honestly trusted Kirishima and was willing to tell him more?
Katsuki's frustration deepened when Kirishima smiled toothily, genuinely happy, and his eyes sparkling. Katsuki's breath hitched at the sight, his cheeks feeling even hotter.
What the fuck?
"Really!?" He leaned in closer and Katsuki held his breath.
"Y-yeah, whatever, fuck off." He hated how frustrated he sounded, especially that he couldn't place where all this fucking embarrassment was coming from.
Was it that he practically admitted that he was glad that Kirishima found out?
No, no way.
There had to be another reason, right? Something like…
"It's better if you know than some kind of an asshole."
Kirishima's smile flattened, he seemed to be thinking about something, and then his smile disappeared completely.
"... Like these guys from before?" He asked as he backed away, putting some distance between them and letting Katsuki breathe freely again.
That was until he gave more thought about the situation at the diner.
Katsuki looked down at his hands and clenched them into fists.
"Situations like this one… No one really ever said anything about it. Not to my face at least… And it was always more about my quirk than the fact that I don't remember faces, so those idiots... I think..." He kept his eyes down as he shrugged, not sure how to continue.
But Kirishima moved towards him again. Even closer than before, their knees bumping lightly and once Katsuki glanced up at him, he saw an understanding and encouraging smile.
Somehow, that was enough for him to continue.
"I think those idiots got cocky because we were in a public space or some shit? Thought I wouldn't do anything with my quirk. Or maybe they thought that now that I'm in UA, I won't do anything 'illegal'... Or something…" He looked to the side again when he noticed Kirishima's confused face. "... Fucking ridiculous…"
"What's supposed to be up with your quirk? Even those assholes mocked you about it…" His voice was careful, as if he didn't want to force Katsuki to tell him everything.
"... It's because it was-" fucking shit "-my quirk, it-" how was he supposed to say that "I don't- remember what exactly happened, but-" Katsuki bit his tongue.
Was it really okay to tell him?
This was just Kirishima, he already knew a lot of stuff, but damn. That was it, he knew a lot of stuff, while Katsuki didn't learn that much since he decided to info dump him and-
"I used to hate my quirk." Kirishima suddenly spoke and Katsuki blinked in confusion.
"What?" He asked, feeling slightly like an idiot.
"Remember how I told you that I hurt my eye when I first got my quirk and then hated it?" Kirishima waited for a reaction, and when Katsuki nodded, still baffled, he continued. "Well, from this point on, I had kind of mixed feelings about it… Sometimes I thought it was great, other times I thought it was pretty weak and then-" Kirishima took a deep breath. "Then I… I started really hating it… and myself…" His shaking hands clenched tightly and Katsuki noticed how they were hardened.
Something in Katsuki's stomach twisted. Seeing Kirishima in this state, looking strangely small and self conscious wasn't right.
"My moms always tried to assure me that I'm great and all that stuff, but… after the second year, when the guy I-" he stopped, lips pressed into a tight line, as if he realised what he was saying and got scared that he'd say too much.
Katsuki, having no idea what he could say to him, moved closer and bumped his knee against Kirishima's, copying his gesture from before.
A little smile appeared on Kirishima's face and after he took a deep breath, he finally continued.
"Basically… my confidence was pretty nonexistent. I tried to tell myself that I was manly and all but that was just a mask. I was well aware that I was pathetic and that my quirk was pathetic… My classmate even threw a rock at me once and I was so weak I couldn't stop it from hurting me." Despite the smile, it was more than obvious that Kirishima just hated talking about it, but Katsuki couldn't find it in himself to stop him. "I almost didn't even apply to UA…"
Katsuki's mind went blank at that.
The thought of Kirishima not being in this class with him, not bothering him during breaks and after school with text messages, made him realise that he actually enjoyed his company. Probably more than he was already aware, judging by the way his heart sank.
The longer he thought about it, the bigger trouble Katsuki had imagining this stupidly cheerful guy with impossible strength, that he had whether he was using his quirk or not, being so insecure that he wouldn't go to UA.
"... You're an idiot." Katsuki summarised.
Slowly, Kirishima raised his eyes and stared at Katsuki, confusion with that annoying insecurity mixed on his face.
"Do you really think someone weak would be sitting right there, getting to listen to my stupid backstory and sharing theirs?" Even though Katsuki technically asked, he wasn't about to let Kirishima answer. "Fuck no. You and your quirk are stupidly strong and you refuse to give up. Those are not qualities of someone weak and pathetic."
___
Eijirou's heart stopped beating, he was sure of that.
He couldn't breathe or even think straight.
Because Bakugou, the strongest and manliest guy he knew, thought that Eijirou was strong.
He could cry or hug Bakugou or anything, if it wasn't for the fact that he couldn't do anything at all, his body frozen as his mind was occupied with echoing the words Bakugou so effortlessly told him to his face.
Even after all of his wrongdoings, Bakugou didn't think he was weak or pathetic.
He thought that Eijirou was strong and wasn't afraid to say so.
Eijirou could kiss him. He really wanted to, almost too much.
But he knew he couldn't.
He knew Bakugou would never let him.
Knew that their relationship would never be more than whatever they had at the moment.
And he knew that at this point, he has fallen so deep, there was no way out.
Somehow, it made his chest hurt.
___
Katsuki was taken aback when Kirishima clutched his chest and his eyes shut tightly.
What the hell, what did I do?!
"Oi-"
Kirishima stilled when Katsuki's voice reached him.
"You're not gonna cry, are you?" Katsuki had no idea what he was supposed to do in case Kirishima were to actually cry, so of course there was this slight panic in his voice.
"N-no!" Kirishima's eyes snapped open as he straightened his posture, one hand still clutching at his chest. "I just-" his cheeks turned slightly pink "-not many people ever told me that…" Kirishima smiled to himself as he looked down. "My moms, sure, it's kind of their job to be supportive… Ashido, that's Bubblegum, recently… I know she meant it and I'm happy, but it was just that the situation required that…" After taking a deep breath, he looked back at Katsuki with a warm smile on his face. "But you just- say stuff like that. Like it's not a big deal."
"I'm just stating the fucking facts." Katsuki frowned as he rolled his eyes and Kirishima laughed.
Katsuki was done with all of that self deprecating. But after hearing Kirishima's little story… He could really appreciate him opening up like that…
"I never hated my quirk." Katsuki stated and Kirishima chuckled.
"That's great, man..." Kirishima said softly with a little smile.
And Katsuki hated how that smile didn't quite reach his eyes.
"But a lot of people around wanted me to hate it." He finished the thought and glanced to the side when Kirishima's eyes widened. "It's just… I don't exactly remember how it happened, only from what my parents and some doctors have told me, but-" Katsuki clenched his hands and felt few pops in his palms. "But I kind of… my quirk caused my face blindness."
Once Katsuki heard Kirishima's gasp, he really didn't want to look at his face, almost afraid of the expression he might see.
"... Well…" Kirishima started after several seconds of silence. "Quirks can be dangerous when they're first coming in."
This wasn't the same as the typical 'wow, your quirk is dangerous', but it still somehow hurt. Especially coming from Kirishima, but before Katsuki could react in any way-
"But-"
Katsuki glanced up at him.
"Just look at me!" He pointed at his scar with a reassuring smile. "I'm lucky I just ended up with a scar and still have both of my eyes!" Kirishima's smile widened and Katsuki couldn't help but chuckle.
If Katsuki wasn't sure before, after all that he could say with confidence that this idiot was definitely different from anyone he has ever met before.
"Too bad we don't have two brains." Katsuki chuckled to himself. "My one got fucked." Out of habit, he reached to touch the back of his head.
"... You have a scar there, right?" Kirishima asked as he changed his position so he was fully facing Katsuki. The tone of his voice was careful, as if he wanted to tell Katsuki that he could refuse to answer if he wanted to.
But somehow, he didn't want that.
So Katsuki nodded as he rested his hand back on the bed, close to his thigh.
"Strangely precise explosion, considering the whole situation…"
"What was the situation?" Kirishima tilted his head, his whole being practically glowing with curiosity.
"... I don't remember." Katsuki raised his hand and stared at it as he let out a few small sparks. "My mother told me later that it was a car accident and my quirk manifested for the first time as I covered my head. Once I thought more about it, I figured my hands must have been very sweaty, thus the big enough explosion to leave the scar and cause brain damage. Not that it matters anymore..." With a shrug he finished and looked at Kirishima, waiting for him to say something.
Katsuki had no idea what he expected for Kirishima's reaction to be, but considering everything so far, he wouldn't make a big deal out of it. His reaction wouldn't be anything strange.
And soon enough, Kirishima nodded as he seemed to be thinking about something.
Then he raised his hand and slowly moved it towards Katsuki's face.
"May I..?" Kirishima asked when his hand stopped only a few inches away from touching him.
Katsuki felt his cheeks warm up and something tightened in his chest. For some reason, he couldn't even open his mouth to answer, so with a nod and a tilt of his head, he braced for what was coming.
Kirishima leaned in closer as he reached to put his hand on the back of Katsuki's head. He seemed to be completely unaware of Katsuki's wide eyes and hot face as he focused on carefully placing his hand on the scar.
Speaking of, his hand was warm, almost too much. And surprisingly gentle when he moved it along the rough patch of skin, as if he was scared of hurting Katsuki, as if that scar was a fresh wound. Katsuki's skin tingled wherever Kirishima's fingers brushed against it.
And their faces were so close, enough for Katsuki to take a better look at his little scar and long, dark eyelashes. He vaguely wondered if Kirishima also used mascara.
Then Kirishima said something.
And Katsuki didn't register what it was, but he did register the way his lips moved and how soft they looked.
His heart started pounding loudly when he realised just how much he wanted to know if those lips were just as soft to the touch as they looked like.
With that, Katsuki wanted to get even closer.
But Katsuki wanted to run away too.
And in the end, Katsuki didn't know what to do.
So without thinking about his actions, he planted his hands on Kirishima's shoulders and pushed him away.
Katsuki avoided looking at him as he kept his hands on his shoulders, his hold probably too strong, but he couldn't find it in himself to care about that.
All he cared about was if his face wasn't too red, or if Kirishima could hear the way his heart was still pounding, way too fast to be healthy.
"Baku-"
"Bathroom." Katsuki muttered breathlessly.
"What?"
"I need to use the bathroom." This time his voice was more stable and louder as he quickly stood up and left the room, letting himself take a deep breath only when he was locked alone in the bathroom.
Katsuki walked up to the sink, leaned against it and stared at his reflection in the mirror.
"What the fuck was that?" Katsuki asked, no idea who this question was even directed at.
He clenched his hands into tight fists, only to realise how sweaty and gross they were, and Katsuki felt few pops of his quirk.
As quickly as he could, he washed his hands under ice cold water, he didn't want to risk blowing something up. And if he had to be honest, he was surprised when he didn't do anything like that right there in his room, with how close Kirishima was.
Katsuki reached to his scar and couldn't figure out if it was burning with heat because of his own hand and suddenly higher body temperature, or because Kirishima's hand was so warm. He didn't expect it to be this warm. He didn't expect to want this hand back in his hair, stroking lightly. He had no idea why he wanted this. Never before had he felt like that. And never before had he been in a situation like that. Never this close to anyone. Not even when Kirishima was styling his hair and-
Katsuki pulled his hair, hard. And tried to ignore his heart that started pounding even faster than before, when he realised that they indeed were close that day. Maybe not as close as Kirishima was just now, but the ridiculousness of this situation dawned on him, especially when Katsuki remembered that he didn't feel like this back then.
Didn't give a shit about Kirishima's hands tangled in his hair or his face being so close.
But then it was… different. Katsuki was more focused on not going into his pathetic panic mode and then on Kirishima's stupid voice that would just keep blab on until Katsuki wasn't calm enough to let him do his job.
So what changed?
They spent a few minutes there, in that restroom. Most of this time Kirishima spent on touching him. Compared to that, those few seconds in his own room were almost nothing.
So what changed!?
Katsuki looked back into the mirror and saw that thankfully his face wasn't all that red as he thought it would be. Although to his annoyance, he noticed that his stupid ears were bright red. God, this was so embarrassing, why was he so worked up over something as simple as a touch!?
… What was all this? He wasn't sure how friendship felt, but something was telling him that whatever he was feeling at that moment, wasn't exactly that. And he was pretty sure that he wouldn't find any answers in the mirror or somewhere on the shelves in this stupid bathroom.
Besides, knowing Kirishima, he was probably freaking out, with how Katsuki reacted and left so suddenly.
Katsuki took a deep breath, checked if his ears were still red, they weren't thank fuck, and left the bathroom just to run into someone.
"Oh, Katsuki-" dad "-I bought you two some snacks!" He announced happily as he raised a hand clutching a too big bag.
"... Took you long enough." Katsuki frowned but took it from him anyway. His frown only deepened when he saw just how much stuff his dad got. From jelly beans, through chocolate bars to pretzels and chips and more. "What the hell, I have one guy in there, not a whole fucking class."
It wasn't like Katsuki was ungrateful. It was just that his dad obviously went overboard, and he seemed to know that as well, judging by a nervous chuckle he let out.
"You can always take something and leave the rest? For the future, you know…" In case you invite someone again went untold. Somehow Katsuki feared that there wouldn't be any more visits from Kirishima, if they were to make a big deal out of the situation from several minutes ago.
Katsuki sighed and took the jelly beans and two packs of some chips out of the bag, which he handed back to his dad.
"... Are you alright, Katsuki?" He seemed to notice that something was wrong, even if he definitely had no idea what it was.
Not that Katsuki knew any better.
"Whatever it is, I'm sure it'll all be fine. Me and mom are here if you need anything." Dad ruffled his hair, but before he walked away- "and that new friend of yours, I'm sure." And with that, he turned around before Katsuki could react.
With another sigh, Katsuki headed back to his room and opened the door at the same moment when Kirishima apparently wanted to, as Katsuki saw him with stretched out arm and a stunned expression when he realised the situation they were in.
"Bakugou! I just-" He glanced down at the snacks Katsuki had. "Oh, cool, jelly beans."
Katsuki snorted at his short attention span, although that was enough to bring him back to his original train of thought.
"Right! You were just gone for a while, I was worried that I did something-"
"It's fine." Katsuki cut in, put the little bag of jelly beans in his hand and walked past him, threw the chips onto his desk, realizing that the tea that was still there probably was cold at this point, and sat back down on the bed. "My dad stopped me on the way back." It wasn't exactly a lie, but Katsuki really didn't want to get into what took him so long.
"Oh, so…" Kirishima started in a small voice while he avoided Katsuki's gaze, still standing at the closed door.
He noticed him clenching his hands on the bag. Katsuki's eyes focused on the one that touched his scar and all of a sudden, the tingling of his skin returned.
He really didn't want to think about it.
Distraction, distraction… Distraction for both of them-
His eyes landed on that cursed, burned picture of Deku, that was still on the bed, and he barely stifled a groan as he reached for it.
"This fucker is one of the few people I can recognize immediately."
Kirishima's eyes shot back to him, then at the picture in his hand, blinking in confusion and then widening once he understood what was going on. Without a word, he joined Katsuki back on the bed.
"He's so fucking plain and yet I look at him and immediately recognize this fucking bastard. His face is always intact and his stupid shoes are always fucking red and his terrible hair hasn't changed since fucking kindergarten, and all it just so I wouldn't forget him, while that's all I fucking want, but I can't and he made a point to stay like that and-"
There was a hand on his wrist and Katsuki inhaled sharply. He realised that he crumpled the picture in his clenched fist.
"Jelly bean?" Kirishima asked as he waved the bag in front of Katsuki's face.
And Katsuki couldn't help but crack a smile, followed by a barely stifled snort. As he turned his head to the side, he covered his smirk, hoping that Kirishima wouldn't call him out on it.
God, what an ass-
"You don't have to explain to me what's up with you and Midoriya."
Oh.
To his surprise, Kirishima spoke in a levelled tone as he opened the bag of those stupid jelly beans and moved it towards Katsuki, so he could take a few first.
"I get that you two uh… hate each other, but if you're not comfortable with unpacking all of that, then I'm cool with it." He shrugged, keeping his expression serious, even as he spilled a few beans onto his own hand and ate them in one go. "Besides," he continued after he swallowed, "you already told me a lot of stuff today." Their eyes finally met. "Thank you for trusting me with them." Kirishima's honest smile returned to his face.
Once again, Katsuki's face grew warmer and he felt… something. He wasn't sure what that was. All he knew was that it was a warm and pleasant feeling inside his chest that made him calmer.
"... It's whatever…" Katsuki muttered as he lowered his gaze, but judging by Kirishima's chuckle, he knew that they both were aware that it wasn't just whatever for him.
For a few moments, they stayed silent. Kirishima continued to munch on the jelly beans, while Katsuki threw out, at this point completely ruined, picture of Deku. But as he was about to say that they better go back to studying, Kirishima spoke.
"Can I ask you something?"
Katsuki turned to him with a raised eyebrow.
"About… ya' know-" he waved his hand in front of his face and Katsuki rolled his eyes.
"You can just say face blindness, it won't hurt anyone." He crossed his arms over his chest as he leaned against the desk.
"Face blindness…" Kirishima tested the name before he looked back at Katsuki. "Can I ask you more about your face blindness?"
Katsuki smirked at the way Kirishima's voice was still unsure around those two words, but nodded anyway, actually curious about what he wanted to know and couldn't google or something.
"You said something about Midoriya's face always being… intact?" With tilted head, his eyes travelled up to the ceiling, as if the answer to his question would be written up there. "What's up with that?" Once he heard Katsuki sigh, he looked back at him.
Katsuki didn't really need that much time to come up with an answer.
"Sometimes faces are just… distorted, in a way. Like, I know for sure that someone's face is usually perfectly normal, but when my brain decides 'fuck you', the eyes might suddenly become either a blurry mess, or they can kind of... slide down the cheeks…" He grimaced at the thought of that, not sure if he was happy or annoyed with the fact that he couldn't even picture it in his mind.
"... It doesn't sound pleasant." Kirishima muttered as he put the half empty bag on the folding table, next to the bed.
"It's really not. It's bullshit but I'm kind of used to it… Besides, it doesn't happen that often. Only when I'm… stressed or some shit..." Last sentence was almost inaudible, yet Kirishima seemed to hear it, because he nodded, staring at Katsuki with understanding eyes.
"Are there people that always look… uh, bad to you? Since Midoriya always looks fine..."
Somehow Katsuki knew that Kirishima wanted to know if he looked fucked up to Katsuki at all times.
"Don't worry, you're not on the list." Katsuki smirked as Kirishima bit his lower lip. "Bubblegum though…"
"What's wrong with her?" Kirishima seemed genuinely concerned at the mention of one of his friends.
"Her fucking eyes." Katsuki grimaced when he remembered many times he looked into them and they always were fucking black.
"Oh yeah, they used to freak me out too, a little bit." Kirishima's casual tone was what made Katsuki stop.
What.
"The hell do you mean?"
All he got was a silent stare, until Kirishima tilted his head in confusion.
"What do you mean, man?" Kirishima asked and they stared at each other for a few long seconds.
"Her eyes are always fucking black." Katsuki finally explained as he moved closer to the bed. "It never happens with anyone else, I'd say the same about All Might, but my dad told me his eyes are actually like that, so-"
Katsuki stopped talking when he realised what he just said. Even more when he noticed Kirishima's small, way too amused, smile.
"Don't fucking tell me-"
"Dude, her eyes are just like that." He snickered a bit, probably more at the face that Katsuki made, than the fact that he didn't realise her eyes were always black.
"You-" Katsuki's voice died in his throat, so instead, he grabbed his pillow and threw it at Kirishima who started laughing openly. "Shut up! How was I supposed to know!?"
"You could have asked me!" He continued to laugh as Katsuki hit him with the pillow. "Ow, dude- come on!" Kirishima grabbed the pillow and Katsuki noticed his hardened fingers.
"Oi-" he stopped trying to get the pillow out of his hands "-you rip it, you're buying a new one." His eye twitched in annoyance when he heard Kirishima chuckle.
"You're the one who attacked me first!"
Katsuki scoffed and let go of a pillow, then sat down on the bed next to Kirishima, who threw the pillow over Katsuki's head. It landed almost perfectly in its rightful place.
"Score." Kirishima whispered triumphantly to himself, clenching his fist while Katsuki rolled his eyes and scoffed. "... Wait, is it bad that I laughed?" His tone changed from happy to concerned in such a short time, that Katsuki needed a second to realise what he meant.
"No, it's-" Katsuki thought for a bit about it. Kirishima didn't laugh at him, he laughed with him, even if Katsuki didn't laugh out loud. "It's okay." He gave a small shrug, hoping that Kirishima would get the message and judging by his smile, he did.
"What do you think about me then?" He asked suddenly, once again catching Katsuki off guard.
"What?"
"You said that I'm not on the list-" he mimicked Katsuki's voice "-so I was just wondering… What do you think about… me?" By the way Kirishima started, it was almost hilarious how his voice became sheepish at the end.
But Katsuki didn't laugh. In all honesty, he wasn't even sure how to react or what to tell him. Sure, his eyes would sometimes get fucked, but to Katsuki's knowledge, it didn't happen that often.
So Katsuki ended up staring at Kirishima silently for a few moments, and the best thing was that the longer Katsuki stared, the more Kirishima seemed to get frustrated, his eyes glancing to the sides of the room and cheeks slightly reddened. It was kind of funny, although Katsuki couldn't figure out why Kirishima was acting like that.
"I know when someone is somehow good looking, but I don't really have a comparison, since I can't picture a face in my head like you can." Katsuki answered with a shrug. Sure, he was aware that Kirishima wasn't ugly, but without any other image in his brain, he couldn't really tell exactly what he thought about him.
Although Kirishima looked like he was expecting something different, even if Katsuki had no idea what else was he supposed to say.
But he was still curious.
"So, how are you, compared to others?" Katsuki asked and a smirk appeared on his face when Kirishima looked at him like a deer caught in the headlights.
"What?" His voice broke on this one word, which only caused Katsuki's smirk to widen.
"You heard me, are you good looking, compared to other people?" Katsuki repeated his question as he leaned back on both of his hands, scanning Kirishima's red face.
"I uh-" awkward laugh escaped from him "-I'm average?" He asked, avoiding eye contact. "Like, I wish I was handsome but I'm more uh- I guess I got gruff and manly instead!" He laughed again as he flexed his arm.
Katsuki decided not to point out how unnatural it sounded and nothing like many other times when Kirishima laughed. How his smile, once again, didn't reach his eyes. Besides, somehow he had a feeling that Kirishima was selling himself short, even if he had no way of checking that.
"You don't need to force a smile with me, no one can keep one up all the time, not you, not me, probably not even All Might."
To Katsuki's satisfaction, Kirishima's fake smile dropped.
"And cut it out with the self deprecating bullshit, I already told you, I don't hang out with weak people." With that, Katsuki moved and poked Kirishima on the forehead and he finally smiled in his typical, honest way and Katsuki thought how he kind of wanted to get used to that stupid, toothy smile.
"Thank you, Bakugou."
Kirishima, still with a grin on his face, reached out his arm towards Katsuki. He needed just a split second to realise what was going on, so he let Kirishima put his arm around his shoulders in a warm, half hug.
Katsuki was almost proud of himself, for not tensing up, but it also made him wonder why this wasn't his reaction in the first place. Especially when instead of that, he leaned in just a tad, letting Kirishima squeeze his shoulders a little bit more and oh. This was… nice. Nicer than his dad's awkward hugs, or his mom's too tight ones. Even if Katsuki didn't return Kirishima's gesture, even if his face was getting hotter and hotter, even if Katsuki's skin was tingling wherever he felt Kirishima's touch through his clothes… Katsuki still wanted it to last a bit longer.
Still, he ignored the sting of disappointment in the back of his head when Kirishima pulled away, that damn smile still there.
"Seriously, I hope that one day I can have as much confidence as you do." One last time, he lightly nudged his shoulder and seemingly waited for Katsuki's reaction. He looked almost nervous after that stupid hug.
Katsuki clenched his teeth for a second, successfully stopping himself from smiling back at him, and rolled his eyes instead.
"You can start with studying more, because seriously," Katsuki mocked, "if you'd put as much effort into school work as you put into all that self deprecating bullshit, you'd be one of the best in our class."
Katsuki couldn't bring himself to hate the way Kirishima laughed at his words.
"Yeah, I-" he snorted "-I really need to work on a lot of stuff, huh?" Kirishima's eyes were practically sparkling with happiness, as if talking about all this brought him some sort of joy.
This time, and for a reason he didn't understand, Katsuki smiled as well. It was only for a short moment, but enough for Kirishima to notice, and his eyes immediately widened.
Katsuki cursed himself. He didn't want Kirishima to address it like last fucking time-
'You have a really nice laugh.' Kirishima's words from a few days earlier rang in his head and Katsuki felt his face burn all over again. He almost didn't want him to comment on his stupid smile as well, so he quickly got up and decided it was time for their too long conversation to finally end.
"Speaking of studying, time to go back to fucking work." Katsuki announced, without turning to face Kirishima who groaned tiredly.
"Come on, man!" He tried to plead. "Can't we like, talk more? You know, two bros, being open with each other, bonding-"
"First of all, we already fucking talked. Too much for anybody's liking. Second-" Katsuki glared at him over his shoulder. "As far as I know, you're still technically grounded and you're here only because you told your mom we'll be studying." His words seemed to work, because Kirishima paled slightly, jumped off the bed and sat down at the little table, opening his chemistry notebook.
"Ready whenever you are!" He almost yelled as he stared at Katsuki and then followed him with his eyes as he joined him at the table, this time sitting down next to him, instead of on the opposite side. "Uh-"
"What?" Katsuki asked with a bit of a bite in his voice. Sure, he didn't really know why he sat down next to Kirishima, but for some reason, he wanted to be a bit closer to him.
… Was it strange?
"Nothing!" Kirishima answered, a bit too quickly to be natural, before Katsuki could panic.
… Alright.
Everything was alright.
Everything was great, especially when Kirishima, with cleaner air between them, seemed to get everything Katsuki was explaining to him a lot quicker than before.
___
"It was so nice to meet you, Eijirou-kun."
Katsuki rolled his eyes for the hundredth time this day at his mother's way too sweet voice, so out of character.
"You should visit again soon, maybe for dinner?" She beamed at Kirishima who seemed way too happy about this whole situation.
"If Bakugou's alright with it-"
"Katsuki doesn't have a say in it." She interrupted him with an even bigger smile.
What the-
"The fuck is that supposed to mean?! Stop laughing, Shitty hair!"
Kirishima did not stop laughing, but at least had the decency to try and muffle the sound behind his hand.
"That means, if I were to leave that decision to you, I'd probably never see your new friend again!" She was quick to explain and Katsuki realised that she actually had a point.
"I'd be doing him a fucking favour, he wouldn't have to listen to your constant nagging." Katsuki put on his shoes and waited for Kirishima to do the same, hoping they could leave as quickly as possible.
"He got used to you, I'm sure he'd be able to handle me!" His mom immediately swat back at him, Kirishima snickering under his nose.
"Oh, so you finally admit that you talk too much?"
"I didn't say that, you brat!" She pinched his cheek and that was the point when Kirishima lost it, laughing so much that both of them stared at him, baffled.
"I'm sorry-" Kirishima barely wheezed out "-it's just- oh God- I can't, I'm sorry-" he had to turn away from them then lean against the wall for support. "I'm sorry, Bakugou, Mitsuki-san, it's like one person arguing with a mirror!"
"Oh, believe me, it's not usually that funny."
Katsuki looked away from Kirishima to glare at his dad who just joined them, amused smile on his face.
"Usually it's hard to get them to stop, you did amazing by just straight up laughing. Maybe you have more influence on Katsu-"
"Alright, that's fucking it." Katsuki quickly interrupted and grabbed Kirishima's elbow, already dragging him to the door. "You're gonna be late for your train."
Kirishima was still giggling like an idiot, even when they were at the gate.
"Walk him to the station, don't leave half way there!" He heard his mom's voice and barely stopped himself from going right back home, just out of spite.
"I fucking know!" Katsuki settled on yelling.
"It was nice to meet you!" Kirishima waved to his parents who eagerly returned the gesture.
Katsuki just rolled his eyes and continued to drag Kirishima by the elbow until they were completely out of sight.
"Fuck, they're annoying." Katsuki muttered to himself as he let go of Kirishima and started walking in the right direction.
"I dunno, your family's pretty funny." Kirishima shrugged with a smile as he joined him at his side.
"Wanna trade?" Katsuki used his mocking voice, although Kirishima either didn't realise or just decided to ignore it. Or maybe he took it as a joke, as he chuckled without another word.
They continued their walk to the station in silence. Not that Katsuki was complaining, he liked the silence between them, but for a moment, he thought that it was somehow awkward, that Kirishima didn't know what to talk about or didn't want to talk to Katsuki. But when Katsuki glanced at him and saw a little smile, he knew that Kirishima was just as comfortable with this situation as he was.
And Katsuki could admit, at least to himself, that he was glad that he could spend time with him both while talking and in silence.
Finally, after around fifteen minutes, they reached the station and made their way to the right platform. When they checked, Kirishima's train was supposed to arrive in three minutes.
"... Do you know how you look like?" Kirishima asked suddenly, the question quiet, but after several minutes of silence between them, it rang loudly in Katsuki's head.
"Red eyes, blond hair, eternal frown. Good enough for me." He shrugged and frowned at Kirishima, to make a point rather than to actually act like an ass. Kirishima seemed to get it, because he chuckled and nodded, satisfied with the answer.
They continued to stand in silence, although Kirishima started fidgeting slightly, shifting his weight from one leg to another and fiddling with his fingers. Katsuki wondered if he was getting impatient or if he was nervous about something, yet before he could question it, the train arrived and people started stepping in and out of it.
Katsuki looked at Kirishima and noticed that his face was red for some reason.
"Oi, what's wrong-"
"If you were ever wondering, you're really good looking!" Kirishima blurted, nudged him on the shoulder and hurriedly got on the train. "See you on Monday!" He waved as the door closed and the train moved, quickly driving away.
Katsuki stared at the point where Kirishima stood just a few seconds ago.
He stared and tried to analyse his words and the longer he thought about them, the more he felt… Embarrassed? Frustrated? Confused?
What was it?
He didn't care what people thought about his appearance, especially that it was the last thing he would ever care about, so why Kirishima's opinion made him want to hear more? But only if it would be from him?
Katsuki didn't like those strange, confusing feelings. They made his stomach flip and heart pound too quickly, his face hot.
The only way he could deal with them was if he'd completely ignored them, like every other problematic emotions and feelings.
Ignore and bury and never think about them.
That was his plan.
Notes:
//dances
The boys are in love, but one is an idiot that bottles up emotions hahaAlso can y'all tell that I want them to kiss already?? But that's not coming for a loooong time. Unfortunately. Both for me and you. HHH
Come and scream with me on tumblr uwu
Up next; Something y'all will like
Chapter 24: Pictures of You, Pictures of Me
Summary:
Just kiss already ffs
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Kiri: Ashido?
Ashido: Me!!!
Ashido: to what do I owe the honor, my dearest horn buddy? Weren't u supposed to study with your boyfriend?
Kiri: so uhh
Ashido: Did something happen?
Ashido: DID YOU ACTUALLY BECOME BOYFRIENDS???????
Kiri: No!
Kiri: No it's just..
Kiri: You were right…
Ashido: of course I was!!!
Ashido: … about what
Kiri: I uhhhh
Kiri: might actually..
Kiri: like Bakugou?
Kiri: More than a friend…
Kiri: ... Ashido?
Kiri: … Please answer, it's been 5 minutes and Im freaking out on a train…
Ashido: IM SORRY IM JUST ????
Ashido: I WAS JUST TEASING OH MY G O SH REALLY?? YOU LIKE B A K U?????
Kiri: YOU'RE ACTUALLY SURPRISED????
Ashido: I D K
Kiri: Ashido…
Kiri: I'm serious..
Ashido: Sorry…
Kiri: I realised today that I really like him… way too much
Ashido: Did something happen?
Kiri: we spent almost the whole day together so a lot… and just… I kinda figured I might like him already, but today… damn it...
Ashido: … Is that bad? I mean, you're already friends with him, obviously… I don't know how close you two are but Baku is way calmer with you around and now that I think about it, you are way happier around h i m
Kiri: I don't know… I just don't want to ruin anything... or for Bakugou to find out...
Ashido: Aw Kiri…
Ashido: I'll be honest with you, okay?
Kiri: Okay..?
Ashido: I heard… rumors, you know? During our second year…
Kiri: … oh
Ashido: No no, honey, don't worry!
Ashido: But I think that I know enough to figure out that you may be afraid that Baku will start acting similar to this asshole once he finds out
Ashido: I see you typing, shut up for a second
Ashido: Anyway
Ashido: I may not know Baku that well, especially not as well as you, but I'm pretty sure he's not that sort of a person
Ashido: Like seriously, Baku is completely incapable of pretending to like someone. You know that if he hates a person he does so openly
Kiri: … you're right, I guess..
Ashido: I know, I'm amazing
Ashido: I can talk to him!
Kiri: N O
Ashido: I WON'T TELL HIM, JEEZ
Ashido: BUT JUST SO YOU KNOW, DIBS ON OFFICIATING YOUR WEDDING ALSO I'LL BE THE GODMOTHER OF YOUR FUTURE DAUGHTER
Kiri: Ashido….
Ashido: ah
Ashido: Would you like me to kinda… chill with the teasing?
Kiri: yeah… I'd appreciate that…
Ashido: Okay, I'll tell Sero and Kami to chill as well, without telling them about your crush <3
Kiri: hah
Kiri: Thank you
Ashido: Horns up, Kiri! You can count on me!! ღゝ◡╹)ノ♡
Kiri: wh- horns…??
Ashido: COME ON, JUST PLAY ALONG, HORN BUDDY
Kiri: O H!!!
Kiri: HORNS UP!!! ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ
Ashido: \( * > ᗜ < * )ゝ
___
Kirishima: heyyyyy
Bakugou: We've just seen each other
Kirishima: I know! But I just uhh
Kirishima: I was wondering if we could also meet up tomorrow? Or something…
Bakugou: No
Kirishima: Oh
Kirishima: That's fine! Totally!!
Bakugou: Your brain will fry from too much studying, take a break tomorrow.
Kirishima: oh
Kirishima: O H, BAKUGOU-SENSEI, YOU'RE GIVING ME A DAY OFF???
Bakugou: gross, don't call me that
Kirishima: jskfjwkfjrk sorry, I'm just kinda surprised
Bakugou: whatever, we'll study throughout the week after classes end and since we're basically banned from the fucking library, we'll do it in our classroom
Kirishima: Okay!!!! Thank you!!!
Bakugou: Whatever.
Kirishima: hehe ;D
Bakugou: :)
Kirishima: STO P
Bakugou: : )
Kirishima: GOD
___
"Baku~!"
Katsuki looked up from his phone, his eyebrow tilted in annoyance from the moment he heard that high and too sweet voice, although it changed into a slight shock as he realised that it wasn't Kirishima bothering him first thing in the morning, but rather one of his friends.
Bubblegum.
And yes, her eyes as always were black.
Just like that, huh?
"Black eyes." Katsuki answered and bit his tongue to stop himself from laughing at her offended gasp.
"Nooo! What happened to 'Bubblegum'?!" She whined and leaned towards him. "Come on, it was so cute!" She grabbed the end of his sleeve and tugged at it slightly in a childlike manner. This time her doings made him smirk.
"I can always call you a Raccoon." Katsuki, glad that she didn't notice his amusement, moved his arm away from her and went back to scrolling through some site with hero merch on his phone.
"No… Baku why…" She continued her clearly fake wailing and Katsuki vaguely wondered where the fuck was Kirishima and why wasn't she bothering him.
Katsuki peered over his shoulder, his eyes immediately finding Kirishima's hair and thus Katsuki saw him staring at them, leaning on his hand and seemingly having too much fun. Normally, Katsuki would call him out or flip him off, but before he could raise his hand, Kirishima smiled widely at him and of course Katsuki's stomach did a few flips.
What the fuck, calm down-
"Do you need something?" Katsuki looked for a distraction in Bubblegum and whatever reason she approached him for in the first place.
"Ah! Right!" She clasped her hands together and Katsuki rolled his eyes at the immediate change in her attitude. "I just wanted to ask you a simple question!"
Katsuki squinted at her, already aware that this question would be anything but simple.
"What makes you think I'll answer?" Crossing his arms over his chest, he leaned back in his chair.
"Because it's about our favourite Kirishima Eijirou!" She winked at him and Katsuki barely stopped the explosion in his hand.
Of course, that was just his luck.
Did the whole fucking world circle about this idiot? Like he was some kind of a fucking sun?
"What about him?" Katsuki tried his best to sound pissed off, hoping it would scare her off, but it was just wishful thinking at this point.
"I just wanted to know what you think about him? Since you help him a lot with studying and stuff." She smiled in a way that Katsuki couldn't figure out.
"... What kind of a question is that?" Katsuki asked back, a bit confused and already angry that his brain provided an answer of 'he's amazing'.
"An easy one." Her smile only widened, but this time Katsuki could describe it as sly.
"... He's tolerable, unlike you."
Katsuki ignored his brain when it once again provided him with 'Kirishima's the best person I've ever met' and frowned at Bubblegum.
"Aw, cute!" She clasped her hands again. "But that's not enough, surely there's something more?" Her smile didn't falter in the slightest, even when Katsuki glared at her with all the hatred he could gather.
Just two days earlier, Katsuki decided to shove down whatever he felt about Kirishima, and suddenly someone was asking him what he thought about him.
What are the odds? Katsuki thought to himself and thanked the universe when he heard the ring of a school bell.
"Guess that conversation is over." He smirked at Bubblegum who pouted with squinted eyes.
"It is not." She whispered, trying to sound threatening, and walked away to her desk, holding eye contact with unimpressed Katsuki and bumping into one of the desks, causing him to snort.
"Huh, so you are approachable."
Katsuki heard another voice and turned to his right, his eyes falling on the short girl with purple hair and strange cables going from her ears.
Right.
"The fuck do you mean, Earphones?" Katsuki's frown returned to his face, even more when she chuckled.
"Very creative, Blasty."
Katsuki rolled his eyes, which only caused her to chuckle again and Katsuki wondered where the fuck was their teacher.
"So you're helping Kirishima study, huh?"
For fuck's sake, what was it about Kirishima?!
"Is it 'bother Bakugou' day?" Katsuki asked and opened his notebook, hoping that it'll make her leave him alone.
"No, but it's certainly 'Bakugou is nice for a change' day. Seriously, it's amazing how you didn't blow up at Ashido just now." She answered with a shrug and a smirk.
Ashido. Right.
Wait, what did she just-
"I'm plenty fucking nice!" Katsuki yelled, louder than necessary, causing a few people to turn to them.
"Oh, he's back!" She announced and a guy in front of her, fucking Octopus, chuckled loud enough for him to hear.
"Come on, Blasty can be super nice!" More people laughed when Kirishima yelled from the other side of the class and Katsuki just knew that his ears turned pink.
"Shut your mouth, Shitty hair, I'll fucking-"
"Alright, that's enough, everyone calm down."
Katsuki looked at the door and saw their math teacher, whatever his hero name was, and already felt grateful for his presence.
Everything calmed down and Katsuki, after flipping off the Earphones girl when she stuck her tongue out at him, could finally focus on something else than Kirishima thinking he's nice.
Because honestly, no one ever thought that.
Not his classmates, teachers, probably not even his parents.
Not even Katsuki himself.
Then there was Kirishima.
And a math lesson to focus on, so Katsuki ignored all of his unwanted thoughts.
After all, he had to understand all this shit to help Kirishima.
___
"So just to Kazewaki-sensei and we can go back to studying?" Kirishima asked as he and Katsuki made their way towards the support department.
"Yeah, I just need to drop off that fucking parental permission." Katsuki muttered, staring at the paper in his hand.
"You know," Kirishima started as he leaned closer and looked at it as well, "I'm kind of surprised that your mom signed it, with how you reacted and stuff."
Katsuki clenched his teeth, the paper with a forged signature suddenly burning his hand.
Fuck.
"I'm glad though!" Kirishima continued, oblivious to Katsuki's guilt. "That gear will be awesome, I just know it!" He nudged him with his elbow and after Katsuki grunted as an answer, that was the end of their conversation until they made their way to Kazewaki's office.
Katsuki knocked and the door opened after a few seconds, Kazewaki with goggles placed on her head like a hairband.
"Permission?" She asked shortly and then looked down to Katsuki's hand as he raised it a bit.
"Yeah, but only with my mother's signa-" He didn't get to finish as she snatched the paper from his hand.
For a few seconds, she just stared at it with neutral expression and Katsuki felt himself panic, his hands all sweaty when he clenched them. But to his relief, Kazewaki nodded, folded the paper and put it in a pocket of her lab coat.
"It'll be ready in a week-" she started and was ready to close the door. "Come here next Monday and-"
"Oi, wait a second." Katsuki interrupted as he put his hand on the door to make sure that she wouldn't just close it. "Don't I have a right to know what that gear is gonna be?"
"... Yes, of course." She stopped for a second and pulled off her goggles, her bangs floating with her ponytail, no longer kept in place. "My apologies..." Surprisingly, she actually looked sorry when she stepped aside and invited them in, locking the door behind them like the last time. "Well," Kazewaki continued as she walked up to her workstation. "I figured that the most efficient and fastest way to help you would be an implant that would send a signal to the FFA part of your brain that was damaged."
Katsuki read about it a bit, back when he was still trying to memorise people. Fusiform Face Area, in other words, area responsible for recognising faces.
He glanced at Kirishima, wondering if he knew what this was all about, but when Katsuki saw confusion on his face, he had his answer.
"Part of that implant-" she put on a glove and, with a pair of tweezers, picked up from her workstation some sort of a little chip, not bigger than a thumbnail "-will be under your skin, the rest hidden in your hair."
Katsuki squinted his eyes as he leaned forward to take a better look, but Kazewaki immediately pulled away with a little frown.
"It's delicate." She turned away and put the small device down. "You've seen it, now you can leave so I can work in peace. Come here next Monday before classes, preferably half an hour." Walking past them, she opened the door and gestured at the corridor.
But as they made their way out, Kirishima turned to her one last time.
"Can I ask something-"
"No." Kazewaki cut him short and looked at Katsuki. "Come alone next time." And she closed the door.
"... Okay. That happened..." Kirishima nodded to himself while scratching his neck.
But Katsuki only cared about her last words.
Come alone.
That was the last thing he wanted to do with the apprentice of that fucking doctor.
"Are you nervous?"
He heard Kirishima ask in quiet tone and only then did Katsuki realise that he was biting on his lower lip, fists clenched. Before he answered, he took a deep breath and started walking.
"I'm not." It was a lie and something told Katsuki that Kirishima was aware of it, especially when he put his warm hand on Katsuki's shoulder. He tensed for a split second, but to his relief, that didn't scare Kirishima off.
"I'd be nervous too." He squeezed lightly and let go. "So uh, what's that FFA thing?"
Katsuki scoffed.
"Google it."
"Aw, come on man! Aren't you supposed to tutor me?"
Even if Katsuki wasn't looking at him, he could hear a smile in his voice.
"Today it's history, not biology." Katsuki smirked at him and put his hands in the pockets of his pants. "And we don't cover parts of the brain anyway so still-" he opened the door to their class "-google it."
Kirishima sighed as he followed him inside.
"Oh, hey guys!"
Katsuki looked towards the source of girly voice and saw the floating uniform, so the Invisible girl, and the Octopus guy next to her.
"What are you still doing here?" She asked as she put down a trash can, few trash bags already on the floor. Right, cleaning duty.
"We were kicked out of the library so we'll be studying here for the exams!" Kirishima was quick to answer as Katsuki sat down at his desk.
"You're the one studying, I already know all that shit." Katsuki commented without looking at anyone.
"You can just say you're tutoring him." Another voice provided with slight amusement, probably that Octopus. "No need to be all snappy about it."
"I can show you how snappy-"
"Okay!" Kirishima stood next to Katsuki. "Bakubro, don't be mean, Shouji is right, you can just admit that you love helping me!"
"It's a pain in the ass."
Kirishima, and surprisingly the other two, laughed.
"Of course it is." Kirishima said as he moved a nearby desk to Katsuki's so they would have more space. "Don't worry, guys, we'll clean everything up after we're done." He turned to them with a blinding smile and Katsuki wished that it was directed at him.
Shut up-
"Thank you, Kirishima-kun!" Invisible girl, apparently done with everything, left the class.
"See you tomorrow, Kirishima, Bakugou." Octopus nodded at each of them and left as well, with four trash bags in his hands.
"Alright!" Kirishima pumped his fists together in front of his chest. "Are you ready?"
And when Kirishima turned back to him, Katsuki found himself regretting his earlier wish of getting that stupid smile, his chest filling with almost uncomfortable warmth.
Fuck, shit, stop, just fucking stop-
"I'm the one waiting for you." Katsuki retorted as he looked down at his own notes, hoping that Kirishima wouldn't notice his red ears.
Soon enough, Kirishima joined him and they finally started studying.
___
As Eijirou woke up in the morning, his afternoon study session with Bakugou was already on his mind.
Few days have already passed, but for him it felt like just a few hours at most, Thursday coming before he knew it. Even if those days weren't exactly repetitive, Eijirou still felt like they all somehow blended together, similar enough.
On Monday he was nervous. That Bakugou would try and question him either about Eijirou's embarrassing compliment or about Ashido talking to him all of a sudden, even if Eijirou wasn't sure what she had asked him about. But apparently, Bakugou had no intentions of talking about anything that wasn't related to their exams. Maybe that was for the best. After all, they already talked a lot about the matters Eijirou was curious about, even if he still wanted to know more, even if he wasn't sure what that more was in the first place. This evening he received some teasing from Kaminari and Sero in their little group chat, seperate from their class' one, and for the first time, he was unable to fight it back.
Tuesday came, and Ashido must have told their friends to cut it out, because even when during lunch break Eijirou asked them to go ahead to the cafeteria, as he waited for Bakugou to come back from the restroom, there were no comments, just a knowing smile from Kaminari and a nod from Sero. And again, when he and Bakugou studied together in the empty classroom, there were no distractions. Just studying, and several stolen glances at Bakugou's calm expression that Eijirou wanted to treasure and keep in his mind forever.
Then on Wednesday, Ashido approached him and as delicately as she could manage, asked him if Bakugou knew that Eijirou was gay. Despite the sting in his guts, Eijirou smiled at her and truthfully told her that he never actually got to tell him. Then she asked, or rather wondered out loud, if Bakugou was gay, and if Eijirou knew anything about it and for some strange reason, Eijirou wasn't even that afraid of the answer. After all, he didn't have a chance either way. Still, he was a bit more distracted during their study session later, thinking too much about it all and Bakugou of course noticed. But to Eijirou's surprise, he wasn't angry. He seemed slightly tired and as he slowly packed his things, only half an hour into their little meeting, announced that they'd take a break the next day.
Ah.
All the excitement about today's study session immediately died and Eijirou stared at his reflection as he stopped brushing his teeth.
Right.
He acted like a distracted idiot and Bakugou made them take a day off.
… Did it mean that Bakugou was worried about him?
No, he was just tired of your bullshit, you dumbass. Eijirou frowned at himself.
Stop with that self deprecating bullshit. Bakugou's voice rang in his head and Eijirou's expression relaxed, just for his eyebrows to scrunch up in frustration.
He needed to stop thinking about Bakugou first thing in the morning.
But then again, when Eijirou didn't think about him these days?
Eijirou sighed and tried his best to completely focus on his morning routine and then on a ride to school, which was surprisingly easy because of the unusually big crowd on the train and there was always someone either accidentally hitting him with an elbow or a bag or who knows what else.
Maybe a villain attack? Eijirou wondered and wanted to check the news on his phone, yet he couldn't reach his bag without moving too much, and annoying the strangers on the train was the last thing he wanted to do.
So he listened to other conversations, not to pry but rather just to occupy himself with different things.
Someone talked too loud, on the phone, complaining about the crowd and a villain attack that closed the road and Eijirou realised that he was right before.
Few girls gushed about a sleepover and Eijirou thought that it would be nice to have one with his new high school friends one day.
Some guy, who wore a uniform from his middle school, talked with his friend about an essay that was due for the next day.
Eijirou spent the whole ride like that and after he finally got off the train, for a reason he was all too aware of, he rushed to school and before he knew it, he was in the class, waving at Bakugou and smiling when the gesture was returned.
Even though they wouldn't spend as much time together as during the previous days, Eijirou still was happy to see him. Besides, he could always bother Bakugou with text messages, right?
___
Eijirou fully intended to text Bakugou first thing when he'd get home, but what he didn't expect-
Bakugou: We need to figure out where we can study during the weekend and not get kicked out.
Kirishima: YOU MESSAGED ME FIRST????
Bakugou: It'll be the last one and I'll block you if you try to make a big deal out of it.
Kirishima: You know, I kinda regret showing you how to do that
Bakugou: : )
Kirishima: OKAY IM SORRY
Kirishima: Can't we go to your house again?
Was it too bold of Eijirou? It felt to him like it was…
Kirishima: If that's okay..
Bakugou: Not really, my parents are getting ready for some business trip and they make shitton of unnecessary noise packing and all that
Kirishima: huh
Kirishima: Maybe the public library? Or a different diner??
Bakugou: Fucking extras will interrupt us again
Eijirou thought for a bit before he answered.
Some place where it would be quiet and they wouldn't be interrupted or kicked out…
"Baby?"
Eijirou looked up from his phone and realised he didn't hear his mom come through the door.
"You're early!" He pointed out with a smile, it was unusual for her to come home right after him.
"Yeah, they let me go because tomorrow I'm working the night shift." She walked up to him and leaned down to kiss his forehead. "You didn't have your study session today with that boy? Bakugou?" She asked but moved past him and to the kitchen.
"No, we took a break today…" Eijirou fought off any sadness that could creep into his voice. "So I won't see you tomorrow?" Change of topic, great strategy.
"I'm afraid not…" She muttered, going through the contents of their fridge. "And I'll probably stay a bit longer on Saturday, this way I'll have the next day off for when your ma' will be back." His mom smiled, Eijirou with her. Right, he almost forgot. "You'll take care of yourself, righ-" She didn't get to finish as her phone rang. "Ughh- hello?" She picked up and left the kitchen.
Eijirou sighed and, since his mom forgot to do that, closed the fridge. Now he could go back to thinking about a quiet place where he and Bakugou could-
Wait.
Kirishima: COME OVER
Bakugou: what
Kirishima: I HAVE MY HOME TO MYSELF FOR HALF THE WEEKEND, YOU CAN COME OVER TOMORROW AND WE CAN STUDY
Bakugou: Oh
Bakugou: I guess I could...
Eijirou almost jumped in triumph but then he thought how they'll ride a train together and because he remembered those few conversations he listened to-
Kirishima: BRO, A SLEEPOVER
Bakugou: What in the fuck are you on about all of a sudden
Kirishima: COME ON, WE CAN CHILL AND STUDY AND BE LOUD AND IT'LL BE GREAT
Bakugou: Absolutely not
Kirishima: Bakubro!!! Come on!!!!!
Bakugou: No, I'mmfkflwkqbxjfkls
Kirishima: uhhhhh bro??
Bakugou: Eijirou-kun!
Kirishima: uh
Bakugou: This is Katsuki's mom!
Kirishima: OH! Hi, Mitsuki-san!!!
Bakugou: Hello! ^^
What was happening?
Bakugou: I couldn't help but notice your wonderful invitation and I need you to know that Katsuki is actually very shy with people, so please forgive him.
Kirishima: I wouldn't call him shy, but okay! :o
Bakugou: He will be more than happy to come over and spend the night! You see, we're very busy at the moment and we don't want him to get lonely ^^
Kirishima: Of course! He can come here right after classes tomorrow!
Bakugou: Wonderful! Thank you so much, Eijirou-kun ^^
Bakugou: …. Fucking shit, she grabbed my fucking phone
Kirishima: … wow uhhh
Bakugou: I didn't realise she was looking over my shoulder while I was on the couch
Kirishima: huh
Kirishima: You know… If you really don't want, you don't have to come here!
Bakugou: No, I…
Bakugou: … fuck it, I'm coming over
Kirishima: !!!! bROOO
Bakugou: … Don't make a huge deal out of it..
Kirishima: I won't! :D See you tomorrow?
Bakugou: … See you.
Kirishima: ヾ(≧∇≦*)ゝ
Wait, shit, Eijirou didn't ask-
"Hey, mom?!" He yelled as he turned towards the corridor.
"Yeah!?" She yelled back from one of the rooms.
"Can I invite Bakugou for a sleepover tomorrow?!"
"... Will you burn anything?" She asked as her head popped into the kitchen.
"Wh- no?"
"Will you clean your room?"
"Duh!"
"You can!" She smiled and once again left him alone.
"YES!" This time, Eijirou jumped with excitement.
This will be great!
Then Eijirou realised how big of a mistake he made.
Shit.
___
Eijirou took a deep breath and entered the classroom, his eyes falling on Bakugou. He was looking down at his notebook, tapping a pen against it. Eijirou's eyes moved down to the floor and he noticed, besides his school bag, a small backpack at his desk, probably with the things for a sleepover.
Yes. Right.
Before Bakugou could notice him, Eijirou moved to put his bag on his own desk and wanted to go to Bakugou, but a hand on his shoulder stopped him.
"Yo, Kirishima!" Kaminari greeted him with a smile. "You wanna go out with me and Sero after classes?" He put his arm around his shoulder.
"Oh uh-" Eijirou glanced at Bakugou, who still was focused on whatever he was writing down, then back at Kaminari. "I'm… busy? Yeah, busy."
Kaminari looked taken aback and he pulled away, putting one hand on his hip.
"Busy? On Friday after school?" He tilted his eyebrow.
"I mean, I really need to study, you know?" Eijirou chuckled awkwardly and too loud, so that finally caught Bakugou's attention, who looked over his shoulder and stared at him.
Shit.
Quick-
Eijirou waved at him with hopefully friendly smile, but Bakugou just looked to the side, avoiding eye contact, and turned back to his notebook.
Huh?
Kaminari looked at Bakugou as well, then back at Eijirou.
"... Are you busy with him?" He whispered with a smirk and leaned in closer.
"Wh- no! I mean- yes-" Was he allowed to tell other people about it? Not like it was a secret, but… "I mean, kinda?"
"Dude, chill, it's not like you have to tell me everything." Kaminari shrugged, but the sly smile on his face seemed like he thought he already knew everything. "But if you're not busy together, then I'll ask him!" He turned, but before he could start walking, Eijirou grabbed his elbow.
"We're busy together." Eijirou was surprised at his own firm voice, as well as how tight he held onto Kaminari. "Sorry-" he quickly let go. "Sorry, I'm just… nervous." Fiddling with his hands, he looked down sheepishly.
"... It's okay." Kaminari's voice was slightly stunned. "... Is it like a date or-?"
Eijirou's wide eyes shot up at him, Kaminari seemingly panicking.
"You don't have to tell me! Sorry, I'm-"
"No, no, it's okay." Eijirou was quick to assure. "It's nothing like that, but basically, we needed a good place to study together and I offered that we'll go to my home? And he's… stayingthenight." Last bit he whispered quickly, hoping that Kaminari wouldn't catch it, but judging by his surprised expression, he understood it perfectly fine.
"Well aren't you a beast-" He didn't get to finish as Ashido hit him with a notebook. "HEY-"
"Shut your mouth." She frowned at him and turned to Eijirou. "Will you be alright?"
Eijirou understood right away what she meant. Or at least he hoped that she meant both Kaminari's teasing and then the fact that he'll be alone with Bakugou for a bit of time.
"Yeah, I'm-" then it hit him. "You heard all that?"
"... I'm sitting right here." She deadpanned as she pointed at her desk and Eijirou chuckled nervously. "Oh, don't worry, you two just happened to be close enough for me to hear you." Ashido patted him on the back and when Kaminari started complaining to Sero, who just arrived, she whispered; "Are you sure you're okay?"
Eijirou smiled.
She really worried about him, huh?
"Yeah, thank you."
She smiled back at him then turned to Kaminari to tell him she didn't even hit that hard.
Eijirou looked at Bakugou again, who once again was staring at him, yet it didn't seem like he heard anything. Eijirou tilted his head to the side, mouthing slowly 'everything's fine?' and smiled when Bakugou nodded.
Maybe this wasn't that bad of an idea after all?
___
With the last ring of the bell, Eijirou packed his books and quickly walked up to Bakugou, who was packing slower than usual. Normally, he would be the one waiting for Eijirou and something in the back of his head, told him that Bakugou was stalling.
"... If you really don't want to, you don't have to." Eijirou said softly. He fought off the need to lean in closer, fully aware that Bakugou needed his space at the moment.
His suspicions were confirmed when Bakugou stopped moving and glanced down at his backpack.
"I'm serious." Eijirou continued. "I know that moms can be kinda overbearing and there's often no room for discussion, but I won't be upset or anything-"
"Shut up," Bakugou cut in. "I already told you, I'm coming over." And finally looked back at Eijirou, who noticed a slight frown of uncertainty. Bakugou must have realised that his words didn't convince Eijirou, so his unsure expression was quickly masked by a smirk. "What, you think you can get rid of me?"
Eijirou snorted.
"Pft, of course, I was hoping I wouldn't have to study after all!" With a grin, he nudged Bakugou on the side, for which he got lightly shoved away.
"You fucking wish." Bakugou, still with that smirk of his, picked up his bag and backpack and moved towards the corridor. "Move, Shitty hair, it's not like I know the way." He said over his shoulder, yet didn't wait for Eijirou, just continued down the corridor.
With a happy sigh, Eijirou rushed after him.
___
They stood on the platform, waiting for a train, bigger crowd of people around them.
"The road is still closed…" Eijirou muttered to himself, but when he noticed Bakugou staring at him, he was quick to explain. "Yesterday, in the early morning there was a villain attack, the road has been closed ever since."
Bakugou didn't say anything, just took off his backpack and held it in hands as he glanced around the crowd with a strange expression, one that Eijirou couldn't figure out.
"We'll probably have to stand during the ride." He tried to continue the conversation, but all he got from Bakugou was a stern, slightly annoyed grunt. "... Bro?" Bakugou looked back at him with a very weak glare. "You can still go back-"
The incoming train interrupted him and Eijirou gave Bakugou a nod that this was the one they had to get on. They waited a few seconds for people to get off, then they followed the crowd and, just as Eijirou predicted, had to stand between other people almost in the middle of the train car. Luckily, there was still enough space so no one had to be pressed against another person.
Eijirou glanced at Bakugou.
Now it was too late for him to head back home, so there was no need for Eijirou to continue the conversation, especially that Bakugou didn't even look like he wanted to talk. He simply stood with tilted head, probably just staring at the floor, and even if Eijirou was close to him, he still couldn't see his eyes behind his hair.
Eijirou decided to occupy himself with staring out the window. Not that he had to keep track of the stops, he knew the road well enough, but since Bakugou didn't look like he was willing to talk about anything, and they'd have plenty of time for that once they'd be at Eijirou's home, he didn't have anything better to do.
With each stop, there were more and more passengers and with more people surrounding him, pressing against him, Eijirou found himself closer and closer to Bakugou, feeling slightly frustrated, even if he knew that it wasn't even his fault to begin with.
When Eijirou realised that there was only one stop left before their station, he turned his head to face Bakugou.
"Hey, we have just-" Eijirou started but then saw what state Bakugou was in, with people pressing against his back and sides as well.
His shoulders were visibly tense, as if he was holding in his breath, then Eijirou noticed how tightly he was clutching the strap of his bag and his backpack, to the point that his knuckles were white. He wanted to ask if something's wrong, but then someone bumped into Bakugou and for the first time during their ride, Eijirou saw his face.
And if someone asked him to describe panic or anxiety or maybe even fear, Eijirou would just point at Bakugou's face at that moment. Because with wide, unblinking eyes and knitted eyebrows, clenched teeth and drops of sweat on his forehead, that was definitely it.
And it hit Eijirou.
People.
Touching.
Small space.
He should have known! They could have taken the later train, but Eijirou was stupid and excited and now his friend was suffering and it was all his fault-
Fix it! Something screamed in his head when he saw Bakugou flinch slightly when someone pressed closer to him.
Damn it, would Bakugou be mad if he knew that Eijirou realised and wanted to help? But then there was still that one stop and another six minutes of the possible panic attack before they could get off-
The earlier stop.
It wouldn't be that far away from his home and Bakugou wouldn't even know that Eijirou wanted to help him in this way.
The train started slowing down and Eijirou quickly made up his mind.
He reached for Bakugou's hand, but at the last second he realised that it probably wasn't the best idea to try and hold it, so with only his fingers brushing against clenched fist, he grabbed his wrist. Bakugou's eyes shot up to him, but it was as if he didn't even see Eijirou, then the train stopped and the door opened so he quickly rushed to the closest exit, pulling Bakugou outside.
Eijirou bit back a smile when he heard him take a deep breath as soon as they were out.
Good.
Still holding his wrist, Eijirou faced Bakugou and waited until he would make a first move to pull away. Because maybe, just maybe, the fact that Eijirou was still holding on, somehow helped Bakugou calm down, his whole posture already more relaxed.
Eijirou wasn't sure if he should say something, like tell him to take deep breaths, although it seemed like Bakugou had that under control, or that it was alright or that he wouldn't tell anyone.
So instead, he squeezed lightly where he was still holding Bakugou's wrist, hoping that it would get the message across, but then Bakugou blinked a few times and finally looked back at him. For Eijirou it seemed like he was going through several emotions at once; confusion, panic, anger, then maybe slight frustration and in the end, something neutral. That was when Bakugou's usual frown returned to his face and he quickly pulled away and turned so that Eijirou only saw his profile.
"... Are we going or what?" Bakugou asked as he put his backpack back on and put his hands in the pockets of his pants.
Eijirou immediately understood that Bakugou did not want to talk about what happened, that he was probably embarrassed, even if in Eijirou's opinion he shouldn't have been.
And Eijirou could work with that.
"Yeah, just around 20 minutes from here." He answered with what he hoped was an understanding smile and started walking, Bakugou quickly following.
Eijirou wasn't surprised, and even expected that, when Bakugou didn't talk during their walk, only grunted or muttered something under his breath when Eijirou tried to chat with him. Still, he hoped that the whole 'don't talk to me' aura would disappear once they'd be in private again.
Soon, Eijirou was opening the front door and as he let Bakugou in, he felt his heart pound nervously, because God, Bakugou Katsuki, his hopeless crush and the manliest and smartest guy he ever personally knew was about to see his home. Bakugou Katsuki, who was amazing and confident and a perfectionist and- damn it, was Eijirou's room clean enough? Was the whole flat clean enough?
Bakugou's room was all nice and everything seemed to be organized, same with the rest of the house- or at least what Eijirou had seen of it, which wasn't much, but still... That only made him more nervous since he didn't have the comparison, especially when he noticed Bakugou looking around with narrowed eyes. And he kept silent, even when Eijirou handed him a pair of slippers.
"You don't keep pictures on the walls?"
"You're welco-" wait what? "What?" Eijirou stared at clearly taken aback Bakugou, his hand with slippers still extended towards him. "Pictures..?" He asked, because maybe he heard wrong?
But Bakugou's eyes slightly widened, then he quickly snatched the slippers and put them on.
"Where's the bathroom?" Bakugou muttered with a frown, avoiding eye contact.
"Uhh, down the corridor, last door to the left…" Eijirou answered, slightly unsure of the whole situation. "Why do you-"
"What, you expect me to spend the whole time here in my fucking uniform?" Bakugou didn't wait for an answer, just stormed off where Eijirou told him.
Right…
When Eijirou heard the bathroom door open and close, he finally moved and went to his room to change as well, while wondering why Bakugou would ask about pictures.
He put on some red sweat pants and a gray t-shirt, thanking himself that he actually did the laundry the day before.
When he heard the bathroom door reopen, he glanced around his room to make sure that it was clean, and opened the door to look out to the corridor. He chuckled when he saw Bakugou kind of awkwardly standing in the middle of it, no idea where to go, but still glancing at the walls.
"Here, man!" Eijirou got his attention and went back to his room. Once he turned, Bakugou was already inside, looking around with a little frown. "You can leave your stuff here!" Pointing around vaguely, Eijirou really hoped that Bakugou couldn't tell how nervous he was.
Because he was all too aware of his sweaty hands and awkward smile.
Luckily, Bakugou didn't spare him a glance as he put his bag and backpack next to Eijirou's desk.
He did glance around the room though. And his gaze stopped on the walls again for a few seconds.
Was it still about- Oh.
Oh!
"We don't really have many family pictures printed out, but my mama did insist on 'Eijirou's life' album."
Truth be told, Eijirou was surprised to see that anyone still had printed out pictures these days. Or at least that many of them in the whole house, but after he gave it more thought, he understood it was probably Bakugou's parents' doings.
"I-"
"I can show you, since I've seen lots of pictures in your house." Eijirou interrupted on purpose and with a smile, then gestured for Bakugou to follow him and was on his way to the living room.
Bakugou sat down on a couch, surprisingly quiet, while Eijirou looked for the album and pulled it out of one of the drawers with a satisfied smile.
The smile that disappeared the second he turned to see Bakugou staring right at that album. Because Eijirou realised that Bakugou was gonna see both his embarrassing baby pictures and then him with his natural, terrible hair.
Maybe he could still change his mind-
No. Be brave. Bakugou's your friend! You accepted everything he told you about him, he's gonna do the same for you! Eijirou encouraged himself as he sat down next to Bakugou and handed him the album with pounding heart.
Eijirou watched as he opened it and right away, a loose picture, the graduation photo from middle school, greeted them.
"Oh, mama must have forgotten to put it in place." Eijirou took it and stared at it for a few seconds before he noticed Bakugou leaning closer to take a better look. "Here." Eijirou gave it to him and Bakugou frowned.
"Who the fuck is that?" He looked up from the picture, his frown deepening.
Eijirou blinked a few times, confused, and then realised that this was the reaction he was so scared of just a few moments ago.
Of course he didn't recognize him.
God, Eijirou felt like an idiot.
And he laughed at himself, for which Bakugou kicked him.
"Oi, asshole-"
"No no, sorry, I-" he snorted as he took the picture back, holding it so Bakugou could see. "That's me!" He pointed at himself in the picture, just from a few months ago.
Bakugou blinked. Then his eyes moved between the picture and Eijirou.
"... You dye your hair?" He asked with confusion and amusement mixed.
Eijirou felt a slight sting in his stomach. No one besides Ashido knew…
"I… Yeah, I…" He looked away, not sure how to react to Bakugou's questioning look.
"Thank fuck, you stand out way more like that, no way I'd have ever memorised you back then."
Just for Eijirou's eyes to shoot back to Bakugou, who was already looking at the first page in the album, completely unaware of the warmth and happiness that bloomed in Eijirou's chest.
"So I can assume every kid with black hair and pointy ass teeth is you, huh?" Bakugou asked before Eijirou could say anything.
"Actually, my baby teeth were normal." Eijirou smiled, showing off his now pointy teeth.
Bakugou's movements halted.
"... So you've changed a lot, huh?"
It sounded like a loaded question. Especially that Bakugou stopped on just the second page, few pictures showing little Eijirou, sometimes with one or both of his moms, with captions like 'Eijirou's first steps' or 'Eijirou says moma'.
For Eijirou, it almost sounded like Bakugou wanted to say 'and you'll continue to change.'
Then he remembered looking at the pictures in Bakugou's house, how he noticed that his mom almost didn't change at all, that his dad, from some point, had glasses in all of the photos and then there was Bakugou.
With the same hair and almost the same angry expression. He grew, of course, but when Eijirou looked at the picture of him from elementary school, he could immediately tell it was Bakugou. And when Eijirou looked at his own pictures from childhood, he always needed a split second to realise that it was him.
And Bakugou?
"You know, I'm very happy with the way I look right now." Eijirou moved closer to him, bumping his knee against Bakugou's. "I told you, I was… miserable with myself back then, part of it was the way I looked… Sure, I'm a different person, both inside and outside, but as my character might still change and grow, I want to keep my hair like that. I'm happier with it this way and, you know-" he nudged Bakugou with an elbow "-I definitely intend to keep all my teeth as well." He winked, feeling his face get warmer, while Bakugou snorted and then tried to hide his smile while shoving Eijirou away.
Eijirou could swear he was dreaming. Because that smile was everything he'd ever wanted. Warm and happy and Eijirou wanted to keep it to himself.
… But he knew he couldn't.
So he quickly composed himself, straightening in his seat and, while he kept his distance from Bakugou, he pointed at a picture where he was held by his mom who's hand was hardened as she seemed to be showing him her own quirk. There was a gauze on his right eye, his expression scrunched, as if he was about to cry.
"This is right after my quirk manifested."
"How old were you?" Bakugou asked with narrowed eyes. Right, some people were competitive when it came to quirk manifestation.
Honestly, he should have expected that from Bakugou.
"Three and a half." Eijirou answered truthfully and chuckled at Bakugou's scoff. "And you?" Eijirou leaned closer towards him, but remembered about composing himself and backed away, still smiling.
"... Four and a half." He muttered, avoiding eye contact.
"Ah, late bloomer!" Eijirou laughed, even louder when Bakugou shoved him again.
"Shut up, it's whatever."
They continued to go through various stages of Eijirou's life; his first pointy tooth, him meeting his grandparents, that time when he tried to cut his hair by himself and ended up with a bald patch, his first flight, the first and last day of kindergarten, same with elementary school and middle school (Eijirou placed the graduation photo in its rightful place), along the way his first aced test, and finally, there was a picture from the day before he started high school, his and his ma's hair red, him in the UA uniform and standing proudly between his moms.
Bakugou, who stayed silent for the most part, let out a low hum as he switched between two pages and Eijirou realised he was comparing his moms on different pictures.
"... Wanna guess which one is my birth mom?" Eijirou asked as he pointed at them.
"Very funny." Bakugou rolled his eyes but focused on the picture anyway. "Now that I know your hair is naturally black it's obvious it's not the one with red hair." He shrugged while Eijirou nodded. "But… did she also dye her hair? There's a blonde woman in all the other pictures and then that tall one with dark blue hair and your eyes and teeth." He pointed at his mom.
"Yeah, mama dyed hers in solidarity!" Eijirou smiled at the memory. "I wanted to be like my hero, Crimson Riot, but I wasn't sure about the hair, so she was all like 'we'll be manly together!' and we both dyed our hair on the same day." Eijirou finished and waited for Bakugou's reaction.
He blinked a few times in surprise when Bakugou laughed.
"Your mom-"
"Mama." Eijirou corrected, it was kind of important for him to distinguish that.
"Your ma," Bakugou repeated with no spite or sarcasm, "changed for you, while mine stayed the same for me." There was this almost melancholic smile on his face as he kept his eyes on the last picture in the album.
Eijirou could understand this.
The contrast and differences between them were almost terrifying.
But it didn't matter.
Eijirou didn't care about their differences.
"It's really cool of your mom to do that for you." Eijirou said slowly and Bakugou finally looked back at him.
"It's really cool of your ma' to do that for you, too." Bakugou repeated, yet his words were spoken with so much more confidence, that it only reminded Eijirou one more time just how different they were.
And he still didn't care.
"... Are you hungry?" Eijirou asked while he watched Bakugou close the album.
"A bit, yeah." He said shortly then they both stood up and headed to the kitchen.
___
Eijirou thought that Bakugou would give them more time to waste, especially when they were eating with some show playing on TV, but apparently that wasn't the case.
"Come on, man! It's Friday!" He complained when Bakugou forced him to sit at a coffee table in his own living room while he put a- single page in front of him? "What-"
"I don't give a shit that it's Friday, you've had your rest, now it's time to see if I actually taught you anything." Bakugou handed him a pen and held up his phone to show Eijirou a timer on it. "You have an hour." The timer started going down before Eijirou could react in any way.
He quickly looked down at a freaking test, that Bakugou apparently came up with by himself and- Math.
Shit.
___
"Not bad." Bakugou muttered after a few minutes of checking Eijirou's test.
Eijirou let out the air he was holding in nervously. He didn't get to finish the last two tasks on this test, that Bakugou apparently specifically made so that there were only things Eijirou had the most trouble with.
"You passed, but there are still some mistakes that we need to work on." Bakugou wrote something on the paper, probably marking those mistakes and was seemingly ready to continue their study session.
Even if it was originally the reason they met up for, Eijirou still wanted to just have some fun with his friend. Especially that they still had the next day to study as well.
Distraction that would work on Bakugou…
Eijirou's eyes stopped on his console and an almost sly smile appeared on his face, which he quickly bit back, so Bakugou wouldn't notice.
"Hey, Bakubro~"
Bakugou looked up from the test with narrowed eyes, probably already expecting Eijirou to say something he wouldn't like.
"How about we play for a bit?" He pointed at the console, and the moment Bakugou's eyes fell on it, he said;
"No." And seemed ready to explain to Eijirou all the mistakes he had made.
But Eijirou already knew how to trick Bakugou into this.
"I mean, I didn't think you'd be scared of losing…" Eijirou mentally high-fived himself for keeping his voice nonchalant as he leaned back on his hands and noticed Bakugou's eye twitch.
"I am not." He practically hissed as he put down the pen and the test.
"No no, I get it." Eijirou fought off his smile. "I totally have more experience with it, no wonder you don't want to-"
Bakugou slammed his hand on the table and leaned towards him.
"You're fucking on."
Eijirou laughed triumphantly as he reached for the pads.
___
"Stop cheating!" Eijirou yelled as his character got kicked out of the ring for the seventh time in a row, making Bakugou the winner once again.
"It's called strategy." Bakugou answered with all too satisfied smirk.
"You're literally kicking me!" Eijirou yelled again as he tried to scoot away from Bakugou's range, to no avail. "I didn't trick you into playing just so you would act like a five year old!"
"I fucking KNEW IT!" Bakugou put down his pad and before Eijirou knew it, he was in a chokehold. "WHAT, YOU THOUGHT YOU COULD JUST SAY 'OH YOU'RE TOO SCARED TO LOSE' AND IT WOULD WORK, SHITTY HAIR?!"
Bakugou sounded like he had too much fun with that, especially considering that Eijirou tried to push him away with hardened hands.
Despite the situation he was in, he still had a good time, especially that Bakugou seemed to be actually happy.
And hey, it was almost like a hug! Kinda forceful and murderous in a way and oh wait, Eijirou actually couldn't breathe-
"Okay! I'm sorry!" He managed to choke out as he tapped Bakugou's arm a few times.
He took a deep breath when Bakugou let go and returned to his place from a few moments ago. And of course, while Eijirou was trying to compose himself, Bakugou defeated him for the eighth time.
"... Really?" Eijirou asked as he stared at the screen with a frown and a pout.
He heard Bakugou chuckle and Eijirou smiled.
Both of them had a really great time.
He couldn't wish for more.
"Alright."
Eijirou turned to Bakugou again when he heard him speak.
"We need to study some more and you know it." Bakugou nodded at the coffee table with that damn test waiting for them and mocking Eijirou.
"Yeah… You're right…" With a sigh, Eijirou turned off the console and joined Bakugou at the table.
They spent around another hour and a half on this damn math test, and honestly? Eijirou couldn't be more impressed. Because Bakugou not only gave him a custom test, something no school would do, he was also ready to explain how to fix his mistakes and if Bakugou ever thought about retiring from being a pro hero, he'd probably be welcome as a teacher. A terrifying, demanding and distractingly handsome teacher.
… On a second thought, Eijirou would prefer if Bakugou just stayed his tutor. Not that he wanted to keep him only to himself, but-
"Oi, Kirishima." Bakugou pressed a pen to Eijirou's cheek, his tired glare holding almost no power. "Focus." He blinked slowly and Eijirou noticed that his eyeliner was a little smudged from where he rubbed his eye and he felt a mighty need to wipe it off.
Yeah, Eijirou definitely wanted to keep him only to himself.
He fully intended to refocus, but then he heard a yawn.
Glancing at his phone, he saw it was only 9:05pm.
Huh.
"Are you... tired?" Eijirou asked and stared at Bakugou who blinked quickly, as if he wanted to get rid of any sleepiness.
"I'm fine, focus on-"
"You often stop replying to my messages around this time." Eijirou pointed out and watched Bakugou roll his eyes and sigh.
"I wake up earlier than necessary to get to school before everyone else and I get tired around 8pm, there." He leaned on his hand with a grimace. "Happy now?"
Huh. This made sense.
"... We can go to sleep already." Eijirou offered and Bakugou's eyebrows shot up in surprise.
If he had to be honest, he barely got any sleep, as he was nervous about Bakugou coming over, and could feel himself getting tired as well.
Yet Bakugou didn't say anything, just blinked slowly and looked to the side.
Eijirou smiled to himself when he noticed the lack of a frown.
Maybe Bakugou's mom was right. Maybe he really was shy with people. At least sometimes.
"Alright!" Eijirou stood up, and Bakugou looked up at him, kind of startled by sudden movements. "Let me go shower first and then I'll take care of a futon for you!" Not even waiting for an answer, Eijirou quickly went to his room, grabbed his pyjamas and then straight to the bathroom.
He was done in five minutes, his hair free of gel and teeth clean.
Once he reentered his room, he saw that Bakugou was already there, looking through one of Eijirou's Crimson Riot fan books.
"Bakubro, bathroom's free!"
Bakugou looked over his shoulder, scanned Eijirou then put back the book with a barely audible sigh. He grabbed his backpack and was about to leave when he looked at something behind Eijirou and;
"Can you open the window? For a bit at least..." He muttered, looking to the side.
"Sure!" Eijirou was slightly confused by a request, especially that he knew for sure that his room didn't smell badly, thank you very much.
Bakugou just nodded and left the room.
Eijirou hummed before he cracked open the window, then went to his moms' bedroom for the futon from the back of the closet, and back to his room.
Few minutes passed, and he managed to lay it down neatly close to his own bed.
… Maybe too close. He thought and moved it more to the middle of the room, but then it was too close to his punching bag. Why was it so hard to find a perfect place-
Bit frustrated, he moved the futon back where it was before and sighed.
"Hey, Kirishima-"
Eijirou jumped, startled.
"... What the fuck, Shitty hair?"
"Sorry! Just didn't hear you!" He laughed awkwardly and saw that Bakugou was actually already in his own pyjamas, simple black t-shirt and black sweatpants.
"Do you have an extra charger?" Bakugou asked, holding his phone up.
"Oh, yeah! Wait a second-" Eijirou walked up to his desk and opened one of the drawers, just to immediately shut it in panic. "WRONG ONE!" He laughed, too loud and too awkward and thanked all the forces in the universe that Bakugou didn't decide to walk up to him. Because otherwise he'd see his own medal from the Sports festival. Right there, forgotten in Eijirou's bottom drawer.
He sighed and opened another one, and sure enough, his extra charger was there.
Eijirou handed it to Bakugou, who gave him a quick nod and went to plug his phone in. Meanwhile, Eijirou turned on a small lamp on his nightstand and turned off the main light and a few seconds later, both of them were lying under the covers.
"Goodnight, Bakugou." Eijirou whispered as he turned off the lamp and lay on his side, facing Bakugou, yet unable to see him in the darkness.
"Mhm… night." Bakugou muttered and Eijirou was pretty sure that he turned away from him.
Not like he expected for him to do otherwise, but still…
Eijirou tucked himself more under the covers. Despite it being almost summer, the night air was still cold, but something was telling him that Bakugou felt more comfortable with the window open.
But why was that..? Now that he thought about it, the window in Bakugou's room was open as well, even if it was bigger than Eijirou's…
Wait… Was that also the part of a reason Bakugou almost had a panic attack on that train? Not only touching thing, but maybe small space thing as well?
"Bakugou?" Eijirou whispered, he felt like this could be his chance to find out a bit more about him…
"... The fuck do you want?" Bakugou muttered in tired and angry tone.
"I was just wondering about-"
"If you ask me about my face blindness or anything related to what happened earlier, I will murder you and go back home."
His words sent Eijirou into a slight panic.
"N-no! Of course not!" He forced a laugh. "I was just wondering about-" QUICK "-about what you think about girls!"
What the fuck, Eijirou.
"... They make up over 50% of the population?" Bakugou sounded very confused, and Eijirou couldn't even blame him, although he was surprised, that he wasn't angry or annoyed. "Kirishima, what the fuck?" Ah, there it was.
But shit, now he had to think of something!
"No uhhh I meant- do you think that the girls in our class are cute?"
Jesus Christ, just shut up already.
"... Kirishima, I have no fucking clue how any of them looks like."
Oh God, he was so dead.
"I- I KNOW THAT! AHAHAHAH." Eijirou couldn't made this more awkward if he wanted to. Which he did not want.
"Kirishima, I don't like people because they're cute or some shit. I literally never liked anyone." Bakugou sounded annoyed, and by the shuffling, Eijirou figured out that he sat up on the futon.
Eijirou sat up as well, but thanks to the darkness, neither of them could see one another.
But he also realised something.
"Wait, you mean you've never had a crush because someone was good looking, or you never had a crush… in general?"
Silence was his answer, and if he didn't know any better, he'd assume that Bakugou just fell asleep. Yet at this point, Eijirou's eyes almost got used to the dark room and he could see Bakugou's silhouette, slightly hunched.
"... Bakugou?"
"I…" He started, voice unsure, yet before Eijirou could say something- "No, never. … Don't you fall for the looks first or something..?" His voice was barely a mutter, but Eijirou could still figure out he was annoyed.
But it wasn't because of Eijirou himself.
And he couldn't do much, except maybe talk about his own experience.
"... It depends…" He whispered and could see Bakugou's figure moving slightly to face him, even if they still couldn't see each other at all. For a second Eijirou thought about turning on the lamp, but he wasn't sure if he would be able to bear whatever expression Bakugou had, especially if he were to told him that-
"So you've had crushes before?"
Surprisingly, Bakugou sounded genuinely curious.
"I- yeah. I had… a few…"
"You said you had a first serious one in middle school, right?"
Eijirou swallowed and just now became aware of his dry throat.
"Yeah, on a classmate…" God, why was it so hot all of a sudden? Maybe because he didn't really have to come out to anyone before.
His moms basically knew since he was nine.
Ashido figured it out, especially with some rumours from middle school.
Sero realised on his own, although he didn't really ask for confirmation.
Kaminari was the only one to actually ask, casually, some time before the sports festival.
And it wasn't like he was ashamed of it, there was nothing to be ashamed of but-
"So what, she was cute or something? Manly? Since that seems to be your thing." Bakugou snorted.
"Well, uh, manly is a better word considering…" He took a deep breath. "Considering that it was… a guy…"
There. He said it.
"Huh."
Eijirou clenched his teeth.
Shit, what if he made things awkward-
"Do you only like guys?"
Why he'd ask that?
Could it be-
No, it couldn't!
Unless-
Shit, he's waiting for an answer!
"... Yeah."
"... Okay. Was he cute?"
Oh.
That was it?
Eijirou laughed awkwardly, both from relief and the fact he was asked about his old crush.
"He uhh..." Eijirou scratched his neck, not sure how was he supposed to explain all that. "He was. He was nice too, for some time…"
"Some time?" Bakugou, for some reason, didn't like this answer. On the other hand, maybe he figured it out and- "You told me that something had happened during your second year of middle school, and that you had your first serious crush back then." Holy shit? "So. Was he cute and an asshole?"
Did Eijirou imagine it or did Bakugou actually sound angry?
"He…" Eijirou wasn't sure how to start. "He changed schools at the beginning of middle school for some reason, but we became classmates only during the second year. He was kind of a first person in middle school to treat me nicer? Like, my other classmates would make fun of my quirk and that I wanted to be a hero, but he didn't…" He clenched his fists at the next few memories. "We started hanging out more and more and before I knew it, I started liking him, more than I should have… And he figured it out."
Eijirou looked up when Bakugou let out a hum, yet in the darkness, he still couldn't see his expression.
But at the same time, Bakugou couldn't see him as well. And maybe that was for the best? Eijirou probably looked pathetic, biting anxiously on his lip, hands sweaty and clenched, his shoulders hunched and hair falling onto his face… But he couldn't help it… He just never talked about it before, and even if the memory didn't hurt like before, it was still there…
"He confronted me about it and I neither confirmed nor denied it but still… he kinda started leading me on…"
"What the fuck." Bakugou muttered, but when he didn't add anything else for a few seconds, Eijirou took it as a sign to continue.
"Sometimes I thought he was openly flirting with me, but then he'd just act like nothing happened and when I tried to ask him if he's being serious, he'd say that he hasn't figured out his feelings towards anyone… And it kinda turned out that he was hanging out with another guy as well? But… you know… He'd sometimes touch me like, my hand or shoulders but when I tried to do the same he'd push me away and-"
"What the fuck, fucking piece of shit?"
"Wh- me?" Eijirou had no idea how to react, why would Bakugou call him-
"Not you, him! I'm gonna say that once, so you better listen! That bastard is not fucking worth being so worked up over, especially by you!"
"Wh-"
"Shut up! You're better than that! Fucking Bubblegum asked me what I think about you, and you know what I think?"
"I-"
"I'm not fucking done!" Bakugou was almost yelling at this point and Eijirou wasn't sure if he was glad or not that he couldn't see his face. "You're the least annoying and most understanding person I've ever fucking met and you shouldn't care about some shitbag not reciprocating your feelings! If someone leads other people on like that, they don't deserve to be loved! Even I know that and I'm an asshole, so fucking trust me on that one, alright!?"
And God, did Eijirou trust him… But still, he had no idea how to react, especially that he could hear Bakugou panting slightly, meaning he got seriously worked up over this…
Meaning he was angry on Eijirou's behalf…
Holy shit…
But…
Why?
And why did it feel so nice? Not that Eijirou wanted him to be angry but it still felt amazing to know he had someone who would be so worked up over something that happened to him of all people.
But something didn't feel right about it… Something that Bakugou said-
Ah.
"... You're not an asshole. At least… not to me…" Eijirou smiled, more to himself since they still couldn't see each other.
But that was for the best, because otherwise Bakugou would see how red Eijirou's face was.
"... Whatever." Bakugou muttered suddenly and Eijirou could see him lie back down. "At least I'm less of an asshole than that dipshit, I wouldn't lead anyone on if I knew they fucking liked me, honestly I'd be sorry for them." Then there were a couple more of curses under his breath and Eijirou couldn't help but let out a chuckle.
Chuckle that turned into a yawn and Eijirou realised how tired he actually was. He lay back down, under the covers and tried to relax but there was this one last thing he needed to know… He wasn't sure if he could even ask that, but the most awkward questions were already behind him so…
"What about you?" His voice was quieter than he intended it to be, to the point he wasn't sure if Bakugou even heard him, but then;
"Hah?" He was annoyed. And tired. And Eijirou knew that if he wouldn't use this chance, the second one was in the far future.
"What about you," Eijirou managed to sound more confident this time. "Do you like girls or guys or both..?" But he ended up more shyly. Of course.
Bakugou was silent and Eijirou almost started panicking that he overstepped or something and-
"I don't know." Was all Bakugou said.
Eijirou blinked, surprised, but the longer silence stretched between them, and the longer he thought about it, the more logical Bakugou's answer was.
To even bigger surprise, Bakugou continued;
"Like I told you, I've never had a crush. I don't know who I'd like, I don't-" he stopped for a second, obviously thinking about something. "I don't even know how crush is supposed to feel like…" He almost sounded shy. Almost like he wanted to ask Eijirou about it, but he knew that Bakugou wouldn't do it.
"... You like making them happy and seeing them laugh and you want them to smile at you all the time. You like looking at this person and being close to them, even if it makes you feel kinda funny, like… You might feel sick but in a good way… Your skin might get hot and tingle if you touch them accidentally… And sometimes you want to keep them for yourself and protect them even if you know they're perfectly capable of protecting themselves and-" and damn it, Eijirou was practically describing how he felt about Bakugou.
He couldn't help it… He just liked him so much… Too much and there was no way he could do anything about it… But maybe he could help him figure himself out. Yes, at least that.
"And you… and you just like them a little bit more, in a slightly different way than anyone else…"
Eijirou had no idea what to expect from Bakugou now. If he'd say all those stuff was stupid or unrealistic or maybe a sign of weakness… Or if he was still awake at this point-
"Oh."
Eijirou's eyes widened at this quiet sound.
What?
"... You get it?" He asked carefully, maybe with a bit of hope.
Did… did Bakugou realise something? It sounded like that!
"... I don't." Bakugou muttered in a strange tone and moved on the futon. "But it's a pain in the ass." His voice was louder so Eijirou assumed he was now facing him. "I mean- It sounds like a pain in the ass."
"... Yeah, it sometimes is… Especially when your feelings aren't returned, then it changes into a real pain."
Okay, Eijirou didn't intend for it to sound so gloomy, yet this was reality.
… His reality.
Whether he liked it or not.
"... Are we done here?" Bakugou spoke, clearly annoyed, after a few moments of silence. "I fucking hate talking about shit like this." Once again, Bakugou turned away, his voice slightly muffled as if he was trying to hide and Eijirou couldn't blame him.
"Yeah, sorry for keeping you up…" He turned away as well. He didn't want to think about all this anymore...
And after a few minutes, Eijirou slowly felt himself drift away…
"Goodnight, Kirishima."
Just to be kicked back into consciousness by those two words, spoken so softly, Eijirou could swear that it wasn't even Bakugou's voice.
Just when he thought that Bakugou was annoyed with him...
"Goodnight, Bakugou." Eijirou smiled into his pillow.
He couldn't have been happier.
Notes:
You: Bakugou finally realised he has a crush!
Me: Nope! :D
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Chapter 25: The Man in the Mirror
Summary:
All's Gucci
Notes:
Y'all can try and pinpoint the exact word I choked on while writing this chapter.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Eijirou woke up with a soft gasp and squinted his eyes at the light coming through the curtains. He rubbed his face tiredly with one hand and looked over to a clock on the wall to see that he still had about two or even maybe three hours of sleep, but the sudden need to use the toilet made it impossible for him to relax again. With a heavy sigh, he propped himself up on an elbow, moved and sat on the edge of the bed.
Although, he didn't get to stand up, as his eyes found a person lying on the futon on the floor of his room.
Bakugou was sleeping on his back, yet face turned towards Eijirou. The duvet, almost completely kicked off of him, covered only part of his legs. His shirt slid up and slightly revealed his soft skin and muscles on-
Eijirou shook his head, embarrassed for staring at his sleeping friend, and stood up quietly. As he took a first step, he realized how cold it actually was in the room, the morning air coming in freely, and remembered that Bakugou had asked him to open the window the day before, and Eijirou decided to leave it for the night. For Bakugou.
So, instead of going to the bathroom, first he tiptoed to the window and closed it as slowly as he could, to not disturb Bakugou.
Eijirou looked back at his friend and thought that it wouldn't hurt anyone to cover him back with the duvet. He had a slight idea of how he probably didn't like the cold, considering that his quirk depended on his sweat. With that reasoning, Eijirou moved towards Bakugou, kneeled beside him and slowly untangled his legs and covered him wholly, shoulders to feet, but as he wanted to stand up, he noticed how calm Bakugou's face was.
It was similar to when Eijirou fixed his hair, but even more soft and relaxed, no furrowed eyebrows or scrunched nose. Eijirou wanted to move his blond bangs from his face, but stopped himself from doing so, remembering how uncomfortable Bakugou would often get upon unwanted touch. Instead, he moved a bit closer to him, to look at those long, light eyelashes that he simply adored. Was it possible that Bakugou always put mascara on because he was insecure about them? They were barely visible from a distance after all… But still looked beautiful.
Eijirou's eyes glanced over his cheeks, pale and soft, then moved and stopped at his lips that were usually formed into a line or a smirk, but now were slightly parted as he breathed rhythmically. When he wasn't screaming or pouting, they seemed to be really soft and Eijirou wondered how would they feel against his own, that were usually chapped because of his quirk and-
Wait.
No.
No no no no no no no.
Shit.
Eijirou's eyes widened as he caught his breath and rose quickly to his feet. He almost stumbled over, while trying to quietly run out of the room and to the bathroom. He entered and immediately washed his face with ice cold water, then proceeded to lean against the sink and slowly raised his eyes to look into the mirror. Bangs of his hair were sticking to his forehead and cheeks, which right now were embarrassingly tinted with red.
"Dude, what the hell!?" He asked his reflection, as if he was gonna get an actual answer.
Staring at his sleeping friend and thinking about kissing him wasn't the manliest thing he could do, but there he was! Like an absolute creep!
Eijirou pressed his forehead against the mirror and closed his eyes.
After yesterday's night talk he maybe kind of hoped that he had a slight chance with Bakugou.
Maybe.
Somehow.
… Yeah, definitely not.
Why was he such an idiot..?
At least, since he knew that he wouldn't be able to go back to sleep, he could as well go and eat something.
___
Katsuki frowned as he tried to stay asleep, but hearing quickened footsteps and the door open and close, he couldn't help but open his still sleepy eyes. He glanced around, at unfamiliar room and an empty bed, and slowly remembered that he was at Kirishima's place.
That they spent so much time together and Katsuki not even for a second wanted to go back home, like he thought he would.
Because the time he spent with Kirishima was… nice. More than nice and he found himself hoping that they could repeat that in the near future.
Maybe besides their night talk because that was-
What even was that?
Katsuki knew that he still wanted to rearrange this one guy's face, even if he didn't know what he looked like, lucky bastard… But then Katsuki wasn't even sure why he reacted to Kirishima's story about him the way he did.
Except that maybe he knew. Because Kirishima told him.
Kind of.
How one wants to protect the person they... like.
But wasn't it just the way heroes acted? They wanted to protect people, but even if Katsuki tried to explain his train of thoughts in this way, he still wasn't fully convinced. Then again, even if he wouldn't admit it out loud, he was never this close to anyone. And maybe it was just him wanting to defend his first real friend?
Katsuki knew that the only way to figure out how he actually felt about Kirishima was to make friends with other extras- other people. Other students. Yeah. Along the way he came to the conclusion that he shouldn't call Kirishima's friends 'extras' if he wanted Kirishima to still talk to him.
And he wanted that way too much.
Was it normal?
He never cared about talking to people or spending time with them, not to mention having a fucking sleepover… Fuck, the last year of middle school he spent completely alone, even Deku wasn't following him around back then, being apparently busy training for the UA entrance exam, just like Katsuki, not that he cared about that useless bastard.
But after all this time alone, suddenly having Kirishima constantly by his side was…
Pretty fucking great.
And he wanted to keep him there, for some time at least…
Katsuki tensed slightly when he heard footsteps in the corridor, most possibly Kirishima's. He thought that Kirishima would come back inside, but the footsteps continued down the hall, before they faded completely and Katsuki realised that he probably went to eat breakfast.
Maybe he could already join him?
Glancing at the clock on the wall, with ridiculous flexing arms on the sides of it, he considered going back to sleep, but Katsuki didn't want to waste any time. Especially that he could spend it with Kirishima-
To study.
That was it, since Kirishima was already up, they could spend some extra time on studying before Katsuki would have to go back home.
Yes, that was the only reason.
Not at all did he want to just spend time with Kirishima just because it was Kirishima. He didn't want to have a chance to look at his smile and maybe try to cause it or maybe even make him laugh.
Not at all.
Katsuki frowned as he looked up at the ceiling.
What were those idiotic thoughts?
He rubbed away the remnants of tiredness from his eyes, and with a heavy sigh, he sat up on the futon.
How was he supposed to face Kirishima after their night talk? Should he pretend that it didn't happen? Thank fuck the light was off, at least Kirishima didn't see his probably red face and ears while Katsuki had told him what he thought about him, even if it wasn't the full extent of what he actually thought about Kirishima.
How Katsuki thought that he was too kind for his own good, how Kirishima should have talked about that asshole with more hatred, not gut clenching sadness.
Did he even get an apology?
Didn't sound like it.
And all the more Katsuki hated that bastard.
He tried to take a deep breath to calm down. It wasn't his fight, but he still wanted to do something for Kirishima about it.
… Maybe he could just be… nicer?
How the fuck was he even supposed to do that?!
… Could Kirishima help? Show him how to treat people better, even if Katsuki really didn't care about them?
Ah. Kirishima would probably say something like 'bro, it's unmanly to tell people that you don't care about them!' or something along those lines, if he heard Katsuki's thoughts.
Not that it mattered.
With a sigh, Katsuki finally stood up and left the room. He could hear someone, Kirishima, in the kitchen, but he headed to the bathroom first to wash his face and hands.
Then slowly, he approached the kitchen. There at the sink, pouring water into a kettle, stood Kirishima, with his hair still down and still in his pyjamas.
Katsuki wasn't sure how to talk to him, after all that stupid crap about crushes and… whether Katsuki was gay or straight or whatever else was out there, and the fact that he couldn't figure out the answer only pissed him off. This and that he couldn't find it in him to walk in, like a normal person.
Yet before he could do anything, Kirishima suddenly turned and their eyes met.
There were a few seconds of silence, Katsuki still not sure what to say, and then Kirishima- whatever was going through his head.
"Good morning!" Kirishima smiled at him and Katsuki cursed himself for not thinking about something as easy as this. "Did you sleep well?" Still smiling, Kirishima turned to the stove to put the kettle there.
Katsuki nodded and then realised that Kirishima was still turned away, reaching for two mugs.
What is wrong with you today?! He thought and finally entered the kitchen.
"Good enough." He said shortly and stood there awkwardly, hands in his pockets.
Was he supposed to help with something?
When they ate yesterday, Kirishima just reheated something his- mom? Mama? Prepared. Apparently one of them was a terrible cook, but which one was it, Katsuki couldn't recall.
"I just wanted to eat some toast." Kirishima spoke again and pointed at a toaster with two pieces of bread already heating up in it. "Do you want some too?" He finally turned back to Katsuki and practically blinded him with that stupid smile.
"Yeah, whatever." Was all Katsuki could utter and Kirishima nodded, reaching for more bread.
"Could you get another plate from the cupboard?" Kirishima asked as he opened the fridge, looking for something.
Without a word, Katsuki opened the one he thought Kirishima got his plate from, yet there were just two shelves full of- protein powders, what the fuck?
Every single one had a different flavour and Katsuki didn't even know there was an algae one, and yet right there, on this shelf, between marshmallow and a… Bone broth.
Alright then.
Slowly, Katsuki closed the cupboard.
He really didn't want to ask.
So he opened the next one, only a little bit afraid that there would be more protein powders. Lucky for him, there were only bowls and plates. Katsuki took one and after closing the cupboard, he put the plate on the counter, next to Kirishima's.
"Are you fine with jam on the toast or do you want something else?" Kirishima asked as he put two different jars on the counter. One probably peach or something, the other strawberry.
Katsuki grabbed the strawberry jam.
"It's fine."
Kirishima smiled at him and when the two toast popped up from the toaster, he grabbed them and put them on Katsuki's plate.
"You can start eating, enjoy."
Katsuki stared at his plate with the two toast, and before he could protest and say that those were Kirishima's in the first place, he stopped himself.
Maybe this was a trick?
"... If you think you can avoid more studying, then you're wrong. We have plenty of time before I'm supposed to go back home." Katsuki said with a smirk which flattened when Kirishima's smile disappeared for a moment, replaced by something that Katsuki couldn't figure out.
"Oh! Hah, yeah! You've got me!" Kirishima chuckled, then turned away to get his own toast.
… Katsuki was pretty sure he fucked up.
Not sure what exactly, but something for sure.
Right, they were past the tricks phase so-
The boiling water interrupted his thoughts and without hesitation, he took the kettle off the stove and poured the water into the mugs with tea bags already in them.
"Ah, thank you!" The usual smile was back on Kirishima's face and everything was back to normal.
___
"You know-" Kirishima started, playing with his pen, instead of solving a math problem "-I just thought about nicknames."
"Don't you have better things to do right now?" Katsuki didn't even look up from his own homework, tapping a pen against his notebook.
"Aw, come on, we've been at it for like, two hours now!" He complained as he stretched his arms above his head.
"Just an hour and 20 minutes." Katsuki rolled his eyes.
"Come oooon, let's take a break and talk!" Kirishima whined.
Katsuki sighed and glared at Kirishima who rested his forehead against the coffee table they were sitting at.
"Why nicknames?" Katsuki asked and almost regretted continuing this subject as Kirishima immediately straightened his back with a wide smile.
"I just thought that you give everyone nicknames, but no one calls you anything specific! And maybe if I call you something specific, you'll immediately know it's me!"
Katsuki couldn't argue with this reasoning, yet still…
"I don't give everyone nicknames." He muttered, leaning on his hand. "It's just you, Bubblegum-"
"Ashido." Kirishima cut in as if it were the most normal thing in the world.
"... Dictionary-"
"Kaminari, besides, Pikachu would fit him better, considering his quirk and all!" Kirishima smiled as Katsuki's eyebrow twitched.
Alright, he did not know about that.
Not that he cared.
"Horse smile-"
"Sero."
"... And some others." Katsuki finished with a frown while Kirishima laughed.
"Sure, Blasty!"
"See? You have a shitty nickname for me, are we done here?"
"Aw, but that doesn't count! I barely call you this! Nothing compared to how you always call Midoriya Deku, or how he calls you Kacchan." He seemed to be thinking about something for a second, then smiled slyly. "What if I call you Kacchan, too?" That smile turned into something challenging.
"What if I murder you in cold blood?" Katsuki gave him the same exact smile, yet Kirishima just laughed at it.
"Yeah, no, this wouldn't work…" He looked to the side, eyes slightly squinted as he thought about his options, then back at Katsuki. "Blasty, after all?"
"You want to call me that all the time?" Katsuki asked, unimpressed, and continued his homework. Multitasking was never something he had trouble with.
"Alright…" Kirishima was silent for a few seconds. "Sparky-sparky boom man?"
"Is that a reference?"
"... Maybe."
Katsuki smirked.
"Uhhh, okay, give me a second…" Kirishima started tapping his pen against the table. Katsuki vaguely wondered if he started doing this because of him. "Maybe something from your name?"
"Good luck coming up with something that isn't fucking Kacchan."
It wasn't like Katsuki hated this nickname. At this point he was more than used to it, being called it for what, twelve years? Thirteen?
"... Suki?"
Katsuki's eyes shot up from his homework.
"How the fuck did you even make that sound?" He had no idea how he managed to sound so disgusted, but he couldn't help it. "Doesn't matter, you know that's not how Japanese works, right?"
"God, I know." At least Kirishima seemed to be just as distraught by his own offer as Katsuki was.
"Seriously, am I supposed to tutor you in Japanese as well?" He didn't even try to sound like he was joking. That was just… bad.
"I get it, it was terrible, I'm sorry!" Kirishima threw his hands up in frustration, accidentally throwing his pen across the room.
While Kirishima collected his pen, Katsuki tried to bury that word deep in his mind. Preferably forget about it.
Kirishima sat back down and Katsuki, seeing how he was staring at his homework, thought that he could go back to his own, and so he did.
Several minutes passed in silence, but just as he was about to finish the last task, Kirishima spoke in a soft, unsure voice.
"How about Katsuki?"
He stopped, the pen hovering above his textbook, eyes widened, glued to the letters on paper.
Katsuki.
The way his name sounded in Kirishima's voice made his heart speed up.
Or stop.
He had no idea.
Yet he knew that for some reason, he wanted to hear it again.
Katsuki.
Thank fuck he could remember the way Kirishima said it. That he remembered the sound of his voice, the exact tone.
And finally, he slowly looked up and saw Kirishima's red face and panicked eyes.
Don't panic, idiot. Katsuki tried to say, but nothing came out of his mouth.
"B-Bakugou, I'm sorry, that was too bold, I-"
No, say that again! Katsuki still was unable to do anything.
Kirishima wanted to say something again, but the sound of the front door loudly opening made them both freeze.
"EICHAN, I'M HOME!" Someone yelled and Katsuki blinked a few times in confusion while Kirishima's eyes widened and then he absolutely beamed.
"Mama!" He yelled, although not as loud and immediately stood up and ran out of the living room.
What the hell.
Katsuki slowly stood up and made his way to the corridor where at the door he saw Kirishima hugging some woman with hair like his. She was dressed like a flight attendant and there were three suitcases on the floor.
"What are you doing here so early!?" Kirishima asked as he pulled away. Katsuki just now noticed she was a bit shorter than him.
"Oh, I can always go and take another flight or two-"
"No no no no no, absolutely not!" Kirishima interrupted with a laugh and went right back in for another hug.
"I wanted to surprise you and Iwa-" Her strange, all yellow eyes fell on Katsuki who immediately froze. "Who are you?" She asked with a smile, stepped away from Kirishima and towards Katsuki. She strongly smelled of coffee.
"Bakugou." He answered more awkwardly than he'd like to admit, nervous for a reason he didn't know. "Bakugou Katsuki. I'm Kirishima's-" friend, just say friend, Kirishima will be stupidly happy "-classmate." He settled on and cursed himself.
Her eyes widened and she glanced at Kirishima for a second, then back at Katsuki with a smile.
"Right! The explodo kid from the festival." She clasped her hands together then stepped closer to him. "Eichan told me about you, but he forgot to mention how adorable you are-" she reached out, as if she wanted to touch him.
Katsuki tensed slightly, bracing for that touch, but before anything could happen, she seemed to notice and took a step back.
"Now, what are you doing here?" She asked, cupping her cheek, and looked between him and Kirishima.
"Oh, Bakugou's helping me get ready for the exams!" Kirishima provided and joined them, two suitcases in his hands. "Bakugou, you probably gathered that much, but that's my mama, Kirishima Saki." He explained happily and Katsuki nodded.
"Nice to meet you, Kirishima-san…" He muttered and frowned upon her chuckle.
"What should I call you?" She scanned him, head to toes then smiled triumphantly. "Kaccha-"
"Nope! Haha! Absolutely not!" Kirishima cut in and Katsuki took a deep breath to calm down.
Don't scream at your friend's mother. He told himself.
"Alright, Katsu-chan it is then!" She shrugged and turned to grab the last suitcase from the floor. "Now excuse me, but I spent twelve hours on the plane and I really need a nap. It was so nice to meet you, Katsu-chan, thank you so much for taking care of Eichan!" She smiled and walked away, humming something.
"... Katsu-chan..?" With scrunched face, Katsuki turned to Kirishima who was seemingly stopping himself from laughing loudly.
"Yeah, uh-" he coughed to cover up the amusement in his voice "-it's her thing. She calls me Eichan, calls my mom Iwachan, and all that." Kirishima explained and was about to follow his mother down the corridor when something struck him. "By the way, her eyes are like that." He whispered, winked and off he was.
Huh.
Big, with no pupil or iris, all yellow. Then the woman herself was rather touchy, kind of like Kirishima himself. Right, since she fucking raised him, duh. But she was also observant like Kirishima and Katsuki wasn't sure if he liked that or not.
But then again, even if they didn't really talk that much, he was sure that by not yelling at her or cursing in front of her, he made a pretty good first impression.
Alright then.
Katsuki, not sure what else to do, went back to the living room and sat down at the coffee table. He reached for Kirishima's notebook and just from the first glance, he knew that most of the tasks were done correctly. With a satisfied smile, Katsuki put the notebook back down, then looked up when he heard footsteps.
"Dude, I'm so happy, you can't even imagine." Kirishima joined him at the table, a huge smile decorating his face. Katsuki noticed his hair was a bit ruffled. "She asked me not to call mom, so she has a surprise too!" He continued as he leaned back on his hands. "I'll get to spend the better half of a weekend with both of them!"
Katsuki thought it was impossible to smile even wider than that, but Kirishima proved him wrong.
Then he realized something that made him a bit nervous to ask.
"... So should I leave now or-" Katsuki was supposed to stay for lunch, then Kirishima would walk him to the station. That was what they agreed on, but now…
"Oh! No, don't worry, bro!" He was quick to reassure. "Mama's gonna sleep for a few hours at least. She's always super tired when she gets back from the work, so we just need to be quiet and you can stay as long as you want." Kirishima explained and took a look at his history textbook. "So uh, shall we continue?" With a sheepish chuckle, he waved his book around.
"... Are you sure you don't want me to teach you basic Japanese?" Katsuki smirked, then grinned and stifled a laugh when Kirishima groaned and face planted on to the table.
"Let it go, man! I know it was terrible!" He sounded almost annoyed, which only made Katsuki snort.
When he glanced at Kirishima, he saw him lying with his head tilted to the side, so that he was looking directly at Katsuki with a small smile that he couldn't quite figure out.
Immediately, Katsuki frowned and took the history book.
"Alright, let's see how many dates you remember." Katsuki smirked again when Kirishima let out another tired groan.
___
When it was time for him to go back home, Katsuki wasn't sure if he was all that happy about leaving. He even found himself wishing he could spend more time there, but he knew that Kirishima had his own life, even if he told Katsuki that he could stay longer. But then again, he wasn't sure if he'd be able to not curse or call Kirishima an idiot once his mother would wake up.
Probably for the first time in his life, he really hoped he made a good first impression.
Now that Kirishima was walking him to the train station, Katsuki had a feeling that he should say something about her. Like Kirishima did about his parents…
"Your mo- mama was… cool?" Katsuki felt his cheeks get warmer in slight embarrassment, even more when Kirishima chuckled.
For fuck's sake, why complimenting people had to be so hard?
"Yeah, she's pretty great!" Kirishima smiled, bumping lightly Katsuki's shoulder. "She has a quirk that helps you calm down when she sings, it's super useful on the planes when people are nervous during the flight or when they're scared of planes and flying in general and all that, so she's become pretty amazing at noticing the smallest signs of anxiety!" He gave Katsuki a pointed look.
Ah, so Kirishima definitely noticed.
Still, Katsuki was somehow glad that she realised and backed away.
"She's super smart too, she basically taught me English!" At this point, Kirishima was advertising his mama and Katsuki barely contained a smile. "Don't tell anyone I said that, but she's way better at solving problems than my mom." He whispered in the end and laughed to himself.
"Wait, isn't your other mom a police investigator?" Katsuki quirked an eyebrow.
"Oh yeah, she's super smart and hyper focused on her job, going undercover is basically her hobby, like a whole other person, but when she gets back home she, as mama says, leaves her brain at work."
Katsuki snorted, Kirishima quickly bursting into loud laughter on his own.
"Her quirk is like yours, right?" Katsuki recalled the picture of a woman showing her quirk to little Kirishima. Obviously her.
"Yeah, but she mostly trained to be able to keep her upper body hardened for longer times than legs. It's like she's wearing a bulletproof vest at all times, her quirk always ready during some interventions and stuff." Kirishima's smile flattened a bit. "Makes it safer… You know?" He glanced at Katsuki, his gaze unsure, as if he thought that Katsuki would make fun of him for worrying about his mom.
"Yeah… I…" Katsuki wasn't sure what to say. "... From what you've told me, I know she's great. And totally safe." He nudged Kirishima with his elbow and cursed himself for not being better at basic human interactions.
But it seemed to be enough, as Kirishima's usual smile returned to his face.
Oh fuck, he smiled like that because of Katsuki's words.
Could he be able to do that more?
He wanted to.
No clue how but… he really wanted to.
Did he want to do that because he thought of Kirishima as his friend or… something else?
Wait, shit, was Kirishima still talking?
"-so mama banned mom from baking anything." He finished some story, but didn't seem like he expected Katsuki to react. Still, he nodded, as if he was listening for the entire time. Fuck.
They spent the rest of the walk to the station in silence in which Katsuki would prefer to stay if it meant that Kirishima wouldn't have asked his question;
"Are you nervous?"
Katsuki blinked in confusion.
"About what?"
"About Monday." He provided quietly, shrugging lightly. "I know I already asked, but here it's just us."
"Yes, us and the whole ass crowd waiting for the train." Katsuki retorted with a roll of his eyes, ignoring Kirishima's snort, but when he continued to stare expectantly at Katsuki, he actually continued with a resigned sigh. "Seriously, I'm not. It's just-" he fixed a grip on his bag, buying himself some time "-it's been years. I don't even remember what it was like to tell the faces apart or even just picture one in my head. Fuck, the only way for me to 'remember' a face is to learn a fucking description and now I'm gonna have an actual image!" He didn't mean to raise his voice.
Maybe he was nervous after all.
"So that's how it is? You have a book and I have a movie?" Kirishima asked and Katsuki immediately stopped being nervous, Kirishima's words striking him like lightning. "And now you'll actually be able to watch the movie?" He continued with an excited smile, almost vibrating, like he actually realised something while Katsuki…
Katsuki himself realised that he had never thought about it in this way.
Holy shit.
Kirishima really was smart. Katsuki already knew that, he's proven himself a lot of times, but it always managed to take him by surprise just how much brain was actually under all this hair.
And something flooded him. Some kind of a feeling or emotion that he didn't know how to describe but he wanted to, needed even, to do something with it…
He just had no idea what.
Someone normal, like Kirishima, would probably know.
Instead of finding out what was it that he wanted to do, he just nodded and spoke quietly;
"Yeah, I guess that's it…"
And Kirishima beamed at him, clearly proud of himself and that strange, warm feeling in Katsuki's chest only grew.
He didn't have much more time to think about it, as the train slowly approached the platform and it was time for them to part their ways.
Katsuki still would rather spend more time with him than go back home.
"Hey-" Kirishima got his attention and Katsuki noticed him slowly rise his arm.
Kirishima stepped closer and put that arm around Katsuki's shoulders, half hugging him, just like a week before in his bedroom, and something felt so right about it. Like this was exactly what he wanted to do just a few moments ago, but since Katsuki was apparently incapable of processing basic human emotions, he didn't realise that this was something he could have done. And it was just so natural for Kirishima…
… Would it be strange if, in the future, Katsuki suddenly initiated something like that?
"Thank you, Bakugou."
Katsuki froze as Kirishima pulled away, one hand still on his shoulder.
What?
"You really don't have to do all this, yet… here you are!" He chuckled awkwardly, lightly squeezing Katsuki's shoulder. "So thank you, for helping me so much." Then he of course smiled, in a way that made Katsuki once again feel overwhelmed by those feelings.
As the train's doors were about to close, Katsuki quickly stepped away and into the car, trying to fight off the guilt that stung him when he saw Kirishima's disappointed look. Yet before he could say something, anything, the doors were closed and he could only see Kirishima through the glass, waving at Katsuki with rather miserable smile.
Fuck, why am I such an idiot?! He thought as he pulled out his phone from a pocket of his pants.
Bakugou: You're welcome or whatever…
Katsuki took a deep breath.
This was better than nothing, right? He really hoped that this would make Kirishima smile and-
Why the fuck did he even want to make Kirishima smile?!
He almost dropped his phone when the new message appeared on his screen.
Kirishima: !!!! ᕙ(≧▽≦)ᕗ
This was… something.
This meant that he was okay, right?
… Katsuki wanted Kirishima to be okay.
___
He came back home to his mother arguing with someone on the phone. Then his dad hunched over some documents in the living room, surrounded by boxes of materials and who knows what else. Honestly, the whole mess looked more like they were planning a whole fashion show, not going on a short trip.
"The hell's old hag yelling about?" Katsuki asked and his dad looked up at him, finally aware that he came back home.
"Oh, Katsuki! Did you have fun with that Kirishima boy?" He smiled, yet Katsuki noticed him glancing impatiently back at his work.
"We were just studying, there's nothing exciting about it." He answered, even though he knew that wasn't all they did.
And that made him think.
Maybe he could ask his dad about all the… feelings and shit. After all, he's been married to the same woman for what, twenty years? Katsuki wasn't sure, he just knew that they didn't have him right away. And maybe his dad could tell him how he knew that he was in love.
Would he make a big deal out of it? Both that Katsuki asked without him probing first or that he was considering liking someone? Would he find it strange that Katsuki was considering liking another guy?
"Hey, dad-"
"No, yesterday you told me that there wasn't any problem with us coming a day earlier!" His mother's yelling interrupted him, she walked past the living room and up the stairs.
"Ah, she's arguing with a receptionist from the hotel we'll be staying at." Dad provided, looking through some accessories. "We're going tomorrow morning instead of Monday and when she first called yesterday they said there wasn't any problem, but now, as you can hear-"
"Yeah, I get it." Katsuki interrupted. He didn't have time for this. Quick, before he'd change his mind. "Dad, listen, I-"
"Katsuki, I'm sorry, but I'm really busy right now." He cut in with an apologetic smile as he picked up his ringing phone. "Sorry, it's important… We'll talk later, okay?" Then he picked up.
Ah. Right.
He had to deal with this one on his own.
Not that he'd have trouble figuring out some stupid emotions which he never had to deal with before.
Katsuki turned away and went to his room, something clenching on his throat.
Somehow, he honestly thought that he could at least reach out to his father.
But then again, what did he expect from his parents? From anyone?
___
The next day, Katsuki didn't see his parents off.
___
Monday came and if anyone asked, Katsuki would never admit how nervous he was.
He woke up to a message that Kirishima sent him in the middle of the night.
'SEE you tomorrow ;DD' it read and Katsuki tried his best to fight off the pleasant warmness in his chest and a snort caused by this terrible joke.
The ride to school was uneventful and calm, but by the time Katsuki had made it to school and headed to Kazewaki's office, he had to wipe the sweat off of his hands several times. He was glad that they already switched to summer uniforms, otherwise he would be swimming in his sweat at this point… And if that wasn't enough to spark his annoyance, Kazewaki telling him to go to Recovery Girl instead did the job. Was it too much to ask for it all to be over already?
Kazewaki explained quickly, not even looking at him, that it was for his skin to heal quickly after the procedure was done. She were to join them in a few minutes.
Alright then.
With a heavy sigh, Katsuki knocked on the door to the nurse's office and entered.
The small, old woman was sitting at her desk, characteristic bun on top of her head with a syringe and a strange, pink headpiece with purple visor were enough for him to recognize her. Besides, it wasn't like there were any other nurses in this school.
"Hello, Bakugou-kun." She greeted him with a nod and he answered her in the same way. He didn't really trust his voice at that moment. "Come on, sit down, don't be nervous." She patted a stool with her walking stick, another syringe, an inviting smile on her face.
Katsuki didn't have any reason to dislike her, but he always had trouble trusting any doctors or nurses or whatever. Slowly, he moved to the stool and sat down, his bag at his feet.
"Here, have some candies." She handed him gummy bears, but as soon as she turned away to look at her notepad, he put them in his pocket. "Kazewaki-sensei and Aizawa-sensei explained everything to me. Don't worry, with me you'll heal quickly and there won't even be any need for stitches." She chuckled and Katsuki frowned. He didn't like the idea of more people knowing, but it was just an unfortunate necessity in this case.
There was a knock on the door, and just when Katsuki thought it would finally be Kazewaki, he recognised his homeroom teacher in the man that came in.
"I'll be honest, Bakugou." He turned to Katsuki after greeting Recovery Girl. "I didn't expect your mother to agree to this."
Fuck, shit, damn it-
"But I'm glad she got over her hatred towards us all, especially after her phone calls."
What.
"What phone calls?" Katsuki frowned and ignored Recovery Girl's chuckle of 'oh that was something.'
Aizawa gave him a levelled look, probably assessing if Katsuki was being serious or not, which only made him even more nervous.
"So you don't know." His teacher sighed and then went into detail how right after the final ceremony was over, his mother called Aizawa, the principal, and then somehow got Midnight's number and called her as well, to curse them all and scream about the whole situation.
Katsuki wanted to disappear.
From further explanations, that he did not want to hear, finally saved him Kazewaki.
"It won't take long just-" she looked around, her eyes falling on tired Aizawa, amused Recovery Girl and then finally on Katsuki, who could only imagine how uncomfortable and embarrassed he must have looked. "Did I interrupt?"
"Not at all, dearie." Recovery Girl assured her then gestured at Katsuki. "He seems ready."
The attention of all three focused back on him and Katsuki found himself wishing that Kirishima was there as well.
"Are you, Bakugou?" Aizawa asked as he blinked slowly and leaned against the wall.
Katsuki nodded and stood up when Kazewaki called him over to one of the beds as she opened a little case, which he just noticed she had with her. She put on her rubber gloves and prepared the small implant that Katsuki's seen before, then applicator that looked similar enough to a piercing gun.
"This little thing-" she held up the implant and pointed at a slightly crooked part of it, almost like a ticker needle "-will go under your skin. There's an electrode in this anchor that will activate as soon as it connects with your nerves and will start sending signals to your brain." Then she turned it and pointed at the flat, square part at the end of the 'needle'. "And this will keep it in place and help us take the anchor out if there's ever a need for it." She finished with almost satisfied smile, clearly proud of her work.
Katsuki swallowed nervously as he clenched his fists.
"So I won't be able to take it out?" He glanced between her and Aizawa with unsure frown. The fact that his teacher just stared back at Kazewaki didn't help the situation.
"Like I said-" Kazewaki stepped into his line of sight "-there won't be a need for that." She put the implant into the applicator. "You can think of it as a support gear in your hero work and your everyday life."
"And no need to worry about the wound." Recovery Girl spoke again. "Little kiss and it'll be alright." She nodded with everlasting smile.
Katsuki rolled his eyes. Right, he forgot how her quirk worked.
"And it'll start working right away?" He still asked, even though Kazewaki just explained that. Was he just stalling?
She just stared at him for a few seconds and seemingly tried to analyse the situation.
"He's just nervous, dearie, no need to overthink it." Recovery Girl's words seemed to work, as Kazewaki just nodded.
She took a gauze to soak it slightly in rubbing alcohol.
"Do you prefer to sit or lie down?" She asked and Katsuki just tilted his head wordlessly, sitting in his place. "Alright."
Katsuki tensed when she held his head to the side, made some space in his hair and disinfected the skin where he knew the middle of his scar was.
"The little square will be hidden in your hair, no one will notice it unless they know what to look for." Kazewaki added as she moved next to Katsuki.
He couldn't really see what she was doing, since she still held him in place, but he could assume that she took the applicator and probably checked if everything was alright.
Taking a deep breath, Katsuki tried to relax his shoulders and ignore the pounding of his heart.
After another few seconds, he felt the cold applicator press against his skin, then unpleasant, yet not painful, longing sting and then the metal was gone, as well as Kazewaki's hand. He blinked a few times, then frowned when he felt a wet kiss on his cheek after which the stinging disappeared.
Slowly, he brought his hand up to feel at his scar and sure enough, there he could feel where exactly the implant was.
"Please, take look at that."
He heard Kazewaki, but before he could look up at her, there was a tablet in front of his face with a picture of someone.
"This isn't anyone you know personally." She said as she let Katsuki take the tablet into his hands.
A man with a scar under his right eye was staring back at him. Despite what Kazewaki told him, the man had strangely similar dark hair and tired expression. Slowly, Katsuki looked up at his homeroom teacher and realized he could picture that photo in his head and that it was indeed the same person.
"It's you." Katsuki stated in awe and for the second time this year, he saw Aizawa smirk with satisfaction.
"Could you look at me?"
Katsuki turned his head to Kazewaki and- holy shit, she was so different.
Well, obviously she was, but… Literally everything about her face was different from Aizawa's. The shape of her jawline, her cheeks, nose, lips, even eyes which he had always most trouble with, they were so, so different that Katsuki started wondering how in the fuck he's ever had trouble telling them apart.
But he could see those differences now and actually compare them in his head.
He could actually picture another face besides the one he was currently looking at!
"Holy fuck." Was all he ended up saying and heard a chuckle. He turned to its source, saw Recovery Girl and once again- "Holy fuck."
"Alright, Bakugou."
Katsuki turned to Aizawa.
"I know it's a lot, so if you need, you can go home and see your parents." He said slowly, as if he was giving Katsuki time to process everything.
Oh shit. His parents.
Oh shit.
He didn't have any pictures of them with him, shit-
"Bakugou?" Kazewaki put a hand on his shoulder that disappeared immediately when he tensed up. "Ah, I-" she took a step back "-are you alright? This might be a lot."
No, he was fine.
He was great actually.
He could handle everything.
Besides-
"My parents are out on a business trip in Osaka." Katsuki recalled a text his dad sent him around noon the day before, letting him know that they've arrived safely. "And I'm fine." He looked down at the tablet, immediately recognising sensei, and smirked. "I'm more than fine." Glancing at his teacher, he knew that Aizawa would preferably sent him home.
But if he had to be honest, for the first time since his accident, he actually wanted to see more people.
Katsuki vaguely wondered how plain Deku actually was and then realised he didn't give a shit.
He was more interested in seeing Kirishima, although he quickly threw that thought away.
"Okay then." With a sigh, Aizawa opened the door to the corridor. "Classes start in ten minutes, don't be late." And after nodding to the two women, he left.
"Now," Kazewaki took the tablet from him, "there aren't supposed to be any complications, but if you feel there's something wrong, if you get a headache or your vision gets blurry, immediately come to my office." She glanced at Recovery Girl. "Or here." She finished and started collecting her things.
"Let's hope everything's alright." Recovery Girl smiled one last time and turned to write something in her notepad.
Katsuki guessed that this was his cue to leave and so he did.
Even if he started walking through the corridors slowly, after not even a minute he found himself quickening his pace. The unfamiliar path from the nurse's office to his class seemed to be endless, and students he didn't even try to look at countless, but he finally found himself on familiar corridor, the '1A' sign right next to the doors in short distance.
And he stopped, not sure if he was ready. Where did uncertainty come from, all of a sudden? He was so sure just a second ago-
"Oi, Bakugou!"
Katsuki froze, hearing a familiar voice. Slowly, he turned to see two guys and out of reflex, he first looked at their hair; yellow and then black on the taller one.
"Dude, did you oversleep? That's unusual." Black haired one smiled and Katsuki recognized Horse smile.
Sero.
Then the other one, always with him-
"Kaminari." Katsuki blurted before he could think about it and Kaminari gaped at him.
"BRO, YOU KNOW MY NAME!?" He laughed in shock, but Katsuki didn't care.
Holy shit.
His eyes were yellow, big, while Sero's were black and a bit smaller and Katsuki didn't need to look back at him to confirm that, because he could see it in his mind.
Holy shit.
Then he finally took notice of several other students walking through the corridor, not paying much mind to the three of them, meaning that they weren't from Katsuki's class. But still, he couldn't help but stare at their faces and they all were so different from one another and he finally could compare which he found more attractive and-
"Hey, Bakugou, you alright man?" Sero waved his hand in front of Katsuki's face. "You just kind of zoned out?"
"I bet that his brain couldn't handle remembering my name." Kaminari nudged Sero with his elbow who returned the favor with that huge smile that Katsuki could clearly remember at this point. "But in all seriousness, you okay, bro?" He asked with something like an actual worry in his voice.
It made Katsuki wonder if he could count Kaminari as one of his friends. If what he felt towards Kirishima was similar to how he felt when he talked to Kaminari, even more now that he knew what he actually looked like.
But it didn't matter at the moment.
"I'm fine." He frowned in his typical manner. "I just- I need a minute, okay?" He tried to stay calm and not curse unnecessarily at them.
Sero and Kaminari exchanged confused looks then stared back at Katsuki.
"Alright man…" Sero shrugged and walked off towards the entrance to their classroom.
Kaminari stayed behind for a second longer, yet in the end just jogged after Sero without a word.
Katsuki could still remember their faces.
The exact shapes of their noses and eyes and everything and could even compare them to a few no-names from the crowd.
Holy shit, this was surreal.
He was so gonna rub this in his mother's face.
Katsuki smirked to himself and slowly headed towards the door, his eyes longing on the students' faces that weren't distorting or becoming a one huge blur, like usually.
Fucking amazing.
Still in some kind of awe, Katsuki finally opened the door to the classroom which was almost full at this point. He stood in the entrance, hoping no one would notice him as he'd look around and holy fuck, those fuckers weren't that plain.
He recognised Frog girl, who looked more like a girl now that he could actually compare, talking to the Invisible girl and Bubblegum. Ashido. Holy shit, Ashido with her black eyes. Katsuki really should have named her a Raccoon, but looking at her, jumping, clearly excited about something, and at her rounder face, Bubblegum suited her better. Besides, she was mostly pink.
Then there was something red and white in the corner of his eye and Katsuki glanced to see Half face. He somehow could see why during their lunches Bubblegum would often gush about how handsome he was, but not to the point of her to go into ten minute long speech about comparing him to other not that handsome guys, as he noticed when his eyes wandered around a little and stopped on that fucking Bird head.
Yep.
Still a bird.
Then there was Round face, Uraraka. Her face was even more… bubbly than Ashido's and Katsuki congratulated himself on that stupid nickname. She was talking to Deku and-
Jesus fucking Christ, how plain someone can be? Katsuki rolled his eyes then heard a laughter and froze.
He knew that one. Knew it so well, he'd recognize it everywhere.
His heart started pounding as he stepped inside the room to take a better look at a guy sitting on his desk, someone he had no trouble recognising for some time now.
Spiked red hair, those sharp teeth, visible thanks to him laughing at something that either Sero or Kaminari said, his little scar on his right eyelid and…
Katsuki's breath hitched as he unconsciously stepped closer, eyes never leaving Kirishima's beautiful features.
Then, as if someone told him to, Kirishima looked at him. Their eyes met and oh. Katsuki forgot how to breathe altogether. Kirishima's long lashes were perfectly framing his big, soft eyes. Were they always this deep colour? Or did he just notice it?
Kirishima's eyes widened for a split second and he looked away, seemingly frustrated with how he brought his hand up to cover his smile that turned shy, and Katsuki wanted to yell at him to stop covering his face because finally, finally he could actually see it.
He could see how beautiful Kirishima was. He could compare how he looked like with other people Katsuki's seen today.
And he remembered what Kirishima told him.
That he was average.
That he didn't mention at all how gorgeous he actually was.
He didn't say anything about being the most handsome guy and probably softest person in this room if not the entire school.
"Fucking liar…" Katsuki heard himself whisper.
He wanted to step closer.
To have a chance to see the exact colour of Kirishima's eyes.
To pull that hand away and take a better look at that face.
To see the subtle angle of his jaw and the soft curve of his cheek and the joy in his smile.
That smile. That fucking smile.
How many times had he seen that smile already? How soon could he see it again?
If he pulled that hand away and saw Kirishima’s face in full...
He distantly wondered what color Kirishima’s lips were, and how long would it take to memorize it.
He… he didn't want to see anyone's face as much as Kirishima's… Not any other classmate or teacher, or hero… Maybe his parents but this want was different and he'd have a lot of time for that.
Kirishima was… entirely something else. Katsuki felt differently about him.
Why was it? They were just friends, right?
He could admit that much, but…
Katsuki heard the school bell and quickly made it to his seat, yet his eyes were still on Kirishima who, almost as if on purpose, avoided Katsuki's gaze. He sat down, still observing Kirishima and the small changes on his face; knitted eyebrows, his lips in a tight line.
Was he nervous?
Did he know Katsuki was still staring at him?
Was it strange for him to stare like that?
Fuck, it probably was, but what if once Katsuki looked away, he'd forget all those details about Kirishima's face? He still could recall how Kazewaki or Recovery Girl look like, so why was he so paranoid about forgetting Kirishima?
Slowly, Katsuki turned away and closed his eyes.
Then he smiled slightly to himself with satisfaction, because he could picture Kirishima's face so clearly.
His happiness didn't last for long, as someone came through the door and when Katsuki looked up, he immediately recognised Aizawa. They shared a meaningful look before his teacher asked them all to take a piece of paper and a pen, because he decided to give them a quick test.
Some people let out the tired groans but since they didn't have a choice, proceeded as they were told and the teacher quickly dictated the questions.
"Collect the tests, just forward them to the person in front of you." Aizawa said tiredly once they were done.
After a few seconds, Katsuki turned to Deku and took the tests from his hand, glaring at him just for a good measure and still wondering why he remembered him of all people before he got his gear, while Octopus or even Half face were right fucking there.
Katsuki was about to forward them to Invisible girl, but something caught his attention.
The letters on his test.
They were incorrect? How? He was more than sure that he wrote everything perfectly, as always…
No, it wasn't that the letters were different, they changed.
They looked like-
"Bakugou?"
Kasuki looked up when he heard his name and was met with Aizawa's gaze. He quickly realised that some other people were also starting at him.
"Are you okay, Bakugou-kun?" Invisible girl asked, the sleeve of her uniform extended towards the tests.
Glancing back at Aizawa, Katsuki saw slight suspicion in his expression and he quickly collected himself. He gave the tests to the girl in front of him, stealing quick look at his own to see that all the letters were perfectly normal.
Of course.
Everything was fine.
___
Right after the first period, Kirishima approached Katsuki as soon as he had a chance.
And how fucking splendid, because Katsuki could really look at him now, but Kirishima apparently wanted to fucking talk, so it would be strange if he just stared at him the entire time, no matter how much he wanted to.
"So uh…" Kirishima leaned against Katsuki's desk awkwardly.
It was more than obvious that he wanted to ask about the support gear, but couldn't, considering they were surrounded by classmates.
"How's your headache?" He asked and gave Katsuki a pointed look.
Ah, so that was how he wanted to play it?
"Gone and forgotten." Katsuki answered with a sly smile. "Even without it everyone looks stupid and annoying in their own way." He shrugged, trying to make it look nonchalant, but he was still freaking out if he had to be honest.
The most gorgeous person he has seen so far was standing next to him.
And now this person was smiling with too much excitement, genuinely happy for him and that only made something flutter in Katsuki's stomach.
He wanted to punch himself.
"Bro, I'm so happy for you." Kirishima sighed, as in relief, but then something changed on his face, as his eyes widened slightly and then averted Katsuki's gaze. "So, um…"
Katsuki didn't want to see him nervous or worried. He wanted to see his normal smile.
"Come on, spit it out." He rolled his eyes and kicked lightly Kirishima's shin, which made him let out an awkward chuckle.
"Okay, so…" He took a deep breath and finally, without looking at Katsuki, he asked in a whisper; "What do you think about me?"
You're a fucking liar, you're gorgeous and I want to frame a picture of you and stare at your soft face.
Katsuki mentally slapped himself.
That was not something he could tell Kirishima.
"You were right." He started instead and stared into those red eyes once they met with his own. "You're average." Katsuki shrugged, the want to slap himself even bigger than before, especially when he noticed some sort of disappointment cross Kirishima's face for a split second.
Katsuki felt a sting in his chest.
Was his answer… bad? Did it affect Kirishima in a wrong way?
But what else was he supposed to say? He was pretty damn sure those things his stupid brain supplied him with weren't something he could say to a friend.
He'd just make things stupidly awkward and scare Kirishima away.
For some reason, that had become the last thing he wanted to happen.
No matter how excited he was to talk to Kirishima everyday, or how much he wanted to see him, they were supposed to be friends. There was no way that he saw him as something else.
Kirishima's chuckle snapped him out of his thoughts.
"Yeah, I knew it!" He crossed his arms over his chest, his posture very unlike himself. Almost like he was forcing himself to stand still. "Told you myself, after all!" He continued laughing, yet that wasn't Kirishima's joyful laughter.
Katsuki hated it.
He wanted to see his honest smile again. Even if he could picture it perfectly fine in his mind, he still craved to see it.
… Did he want to see the smiles of other people he tolerated?
His… friends? Could he call them that if he didn't feel about them the same way he felt about Kirishima? He could admit that he maybe liked them, but definitely not in the same way he liked Kirishima.
Was this still friendship or-
"Ah, see you in an hour!" Kirishima smiled at him and went back to his desk.
Katsuki, slightly confused, looked around and realised that the bell must have rang, because everyone was sitting at their desks, ready for the teacher to come.
Why knowing how everyone looked like made him so fucking stupid all of a sudden?
___
The lunch break came and Katsuki was slightly nervous. Damn, he was almost afraid that the implant wouldn't work on that big of a crowd and everything would become one, big, disgusting piece of shit, yet-
Nothing like that happened.
He entered the cafeteria with Kirishima and could clearly see every single face. No distortions, no eyes sliding down some faces or disappearing noses.
Nothing.
Kirishima nudged him lightly with an elbow and gave him a huge smile once Katsuki nodded at him.
Everything was fine.
They sat down at the table and soon were joined by the other three.
Katsuki looked up at each of them.
Bubblegum, Ashido, she was loud and way too excited about stuff most of the time. She was kinda cute, in her own way.
Dictionary (or Pikachu, as Kirishima suggested), Kaminari, he knew so many words and yet still was a dumbass. Typically good looking guy.
Horse smile, Sero, was rather chill and seemingly didn't like his friends fighting, didn't stop him from teasing Kaminari and Kirishima. He was rather plain.
And Katsuki?
Somehow, he could honestly admit to himself that he enjoyed the company of those idiots. Not that he would ever tell them.
Still, he found himself wishing that he could spend at least one lunch break with Kirishima alone.
"Bro, you gonna eat this or not?" He heard Kaminari and congratulated himself that he could picture his face in his head before he looked at him. "Because, you know, I wouldn't disdain some homemade meal, if you don't want it!" He leaned on his hand and glanced between Katsuki and his bento box.
He heard Kirishima chuckle next to him.
He could picture that amused grin in his mind.
He couldn't have been happier, but at the moment he had this dumbass to deal with.
"Of course." Katsuki rolled his eyes as he opened the box. "As if you can handle-" he looked down and forgot what he wanted to say, because somehow his food was staring… back… at him..?
That was… clearly a face. With lips and a pair of eyes and-
"Yo, Kacchan, you alright?"
Katsuki looked up and saw all four of his classmates staring at him.
"Baku? Did you forget something?" Ashido asked with tilted head, holding her chopsticks with rice above her plate.
"Bakugou?" Kirishima looked worried for some reason.
Katsuki glanced back down at his food and everything seemed perfectly normal.
What the fuck?
Shit, they were all still staring-
"Don't fucking call me that or I'll shove this food down your throat." He threatened quickly and the atmosphere immediately lifted.
"I mean, isn't this kinda his goal?" Sero asked and then snickered when Katsuki threw some napkins at him, while the rest of them laughed openly.
Everything was fine.
___
Katsuki opened the door to his house, avoiding looking at the walls on purpose. Just for now, he wanted to avoid all the pictures, just until he could get to the most recent one.
Hurriedly, he walked up the stairs and with closed eyes, he took the framed picture from the wall. He took a deep breath and finally looked at his graduation photo.
He… really was a copy of his mom, wasn't he?
They were so similar… Their eyes, not just the colour but the shape as well, same with their noses, at least from the front. Cheeks a little bit… But damn, even the shape of their eyebrows was similar… Not to mention hair. If he were to grow out his, would it look the same?
Then his dad… they had similar face shapes. Even though Katsuki was still growing, he could already tell that his jawline would look like his dad's.
Katsuki looked at their smiles and since he wasn't smiling on this picture, some kind of regret flooded him. He wondered who's smile he had before he realised he could just go and look into the mirror, so as quickly as possible, he went to the bathroom and stared at himself.
Shit.
Looking at the picture and looking at the living thing- at himself in the mirror was… so different.
He touched his face, his reflection of course did the same.
He compared himself to everyone he's seen today and with confidence, he could tell he was fine. Not that he cared, but it was nice to know that he wasn't as plain as fucking Deku.
Still nothing compared to Kirishima but-
Katsuki shook his head.
That wasn't what he came there for.
After taking a deep breath, he glanced at his parents' smiles again then at the mirror and smiled at himself.
He probably looked like an idiot, smiling at the mirror, but he had this stupid need to know. And after a few moments of comparing, he laughed at himself because even with this implant, he still couldn't tell.
Then a thought occurred to him.
Maybe… he could call them? Somehow tell them what he had done. They weren't supposed to come back until Thursday so if they were to be angry at him, both would calm down by then, right?
Katsuki reached into his pocket and pulled out his phone, then before he could change his mind, he dialled his dad's number.
The first signal and Katsuki squeezed the framed picture in his hand.
Second and he bit his lip.
Third and he stared anxiously at his reflection.
Fourth and his eyes returned to his mom's smile.
Fifth and-
"Please leave a message after the signal." A mechanical voice told him and Katsuki hung up with disappointment.
With more hesitation, he tried to call his mom but…
They were both busy.
Right.
Katsuki sighed as he put down his phone on the counter and held the picture in both hands, staring at his parents.
He could wait a bit longer.
He could use this time to actually think of what he wanted to say.
How to explain what he did and why…
… Would they be angry?
They couldn't be.
After all…
Everything was fine.
Notes:
I kinda miss all the angst tbh, can't wait for the next two chapters ahahaahahahahahahahahahaha But seriously, I have such great plans for those chapters, it'll be fucking beautiful.
For me.
Cuz I'm a sadistic monster.
I'm joking, I love my boys but there wasn't that much of any pain lately.
Fun fact, my google doc app crashed when I wrote "Suki".
Anyway, those who answered 'yes' on the poll under the last chapter might want to check out links on my Tumblr
Uhhhh I guess that's it for now? I already started ch26 and it's beautiful so far lmao
Love y'all! Thanks for reading!!!
Up next; I fucking snap
Chapter 26: Old faces, New faces
Summary:
Walmart Bakugou rip-off
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Katsuki was in the classroom with Kirishima. Alone. Not that he was complaining, but for some reason he decided to spend the lunch with Katsuki here, rather than in the cafeteria. He even brought his own food and sat down right next to Katsuki. Not even in front of him, which was strange, considering that there wasn't that much space, but it wasn't unwelcome. He didn't feel uncomfortable in this situation.
Then once Katsuki finished eating, he leaned on his hand and, despite better judgement, he focused entirely on Kirishima's face and just like the day before, he couldn't help but curse him for lying about being average.
Average my ass. Katsuki thought and before he even processed his doings, he reached and wiped off some rice from Kirishima's cheek.
Kirishima immediately stopped eating and looked at him, eyes wide, and Katsuki felt his face get hotter as he quickly pulled his hand away and straightened in his seat.
"You know…" Kirishima started as he put down his lunch box on the desk and wiped off his lips. "You never answered me."
"Hah?" Katsuki said, very eloquently.
Kirishima scooted a bit closer, yet Katsuki didn't feel crowded, even if he did wonder why Kirishima was being so bold all of a sudden.
"About calling you Katsuki."
Suddenly, Katsuki felt like he was on fire, not sure if embarrassed or excited or what.
Because his name on Kirishima's lips was doing something to him and he wanted this to continue.
"You-" his voice came out high and obviously nervous and Kirishima chuckled as he leaned in even closer. "You… can…" Katsuki looked to the side, for some reason unable to stare back at Kirishima.
"... Katsuki." He said softly and put his hand on Katsuki's that was resting on his knee.
Katsuki swallowed his embarrassment.
"Yeah?" He asked weakly.
Why was he acting like that!?
"You can call me Eijirou." Kirishima offered as he leaned in even closer, their noses almost touching.
Katsuki nervously bit his lower lip.
"Ei-" he took a deep breath to calm down and level his voice. "Eijirou…" His hands fired off a few sparks, but neither of them seemed to mind.
Fuck, Kirishima's given name sounded very fucking good in his voice.
The same with Katsuki's own name in Eijirou's voice.
He wanted to hear that again.
"... Eijirou?"
"Yes, Katsuki?"
Fuck. He closed his eyes and bit into his lip again but then felt Eijirou's hand on his cheek.
His eyes snapped open and stayed wide as Eijirou moved his thumb along Katsuki's lower lip.
"You shouldn't do that, your lips are too pretty." He smiled and Katsuki had no idea what to say. "I can think of something else that we can do with them." Their noses touched and Katsuki could feel Eijirou's warm breath on his lips.
Slowly, he put his hand on Eijirou's shoulder and held onto the material of his shirt. Then he tilted his head a little bit. That was what he was supposed to do, right? That was how… how kissing worked, right? That was what Eijirou meant…
Right?
Eijirou closed the distance between them, their lips lightly pressed together and Katsuki felt like he was melting. He closed his eyes and moved his hand to the back of Eijirou's neck as they deepened their kiss.
Eijirou cupped his face with both of his hands and they parted for a second, looking into each other's eyes and God Eijirou's eyes were so beautiful… Katsuki could finally clearly picture them in his mind, but he still wanted to stare at them as much as possible.
He wrapped both of his arms around Eijirou's back, while he put his hands on Katsuki's waist. Eijirou kissed the corner of his mouth then lightly sucked on his lower lip, before Katsuki moved to kiss him harder this time, breaths exchanging and he was sure that Eijirou's teeth would at some point catch on his lips, but he didn't care.
Then Eijirou moved and started kissing his jaw, then down his neck, nipping lightly at the skin and Katsuki shivered.
It felt like the best dream he's ever had and he didn't want it to end-
An alarm blared through the speaker above the blackboard and Eijirou moved away, while Katsuki tried to keep him close.
"What's happening-" Eijirou let go of his waist and was ready to step away, but Katsuki grabbed him by his shirt.
"I don't care, come back here-"
"No, it doesn't sound like the normal alarm." Eijirou stated and looked around.
Now that he mentioned it, this really didn't sound like their school's alarm. It sounded more like-
Katsuki woke up to his morning alarm. Breathing heavily, he looked around.
He wasn't at the school. He was in his room.
Eijirou was nowhere to be seen. Katsuki was alone.
Still in his bed, blanket somehow tangled around his waist and him holding onto a slightly burned pillow.
Holy shit.
Holy fuck.
Holy whatever, because what in the fuck just happened-
He lay on his back and hugged the pillow close to his chest, trying to calm his breathing.
What the hell.
Did he just-
No.
But it was-
Katsuki slowly sat up and stared at the wall, then touched his neck where Eijirou from his dream kissed and lightly bit him. There was no evidence of it. Of course there wasn't, it was just a dream and Eijirou-
Don't think of him like that. Katsuki scolded himself as he sighed and stood up.
Kirishima would never do this.
And to think that Katsuki would let him take control like that…
No way.
At this point it was best if Katsuki ignored this dream, as well as the rapid pounding of his heart and the general hotness of his face, and move on with his day.
Preferably without looking Kirishima in the eyes.
Katsuki wanted to leave his room, but in the corner of his eye he saw a pair of eyes staring at him, yet when he looked, the only thing there was a small pile of dirty clothes.
With a heavy sigh he shook his head, picked up the clothes and left his room to go to the bathroom.
___
Katsuki stood on the train station, staring at his phone with a frown where he tried to search what it meant if someone dreamed about kissing a friend.
'A dream like that indicates that you simply adore this friend. It can also mean that you're in love with that friend, but in most cases there is no romantic meaning of such dream.'
"Then which is it, you useless fuck?" He whispered angrily, tightening the grip on his phone.
His mood was getting worse and worse, first with that confusing dream, then his parents not even trying to contact him back and now the internet was giving him a headache.
Luckily, at least the train arrived on time and Katsuki stepped into the almost empty car, quickly finding a seat, since at this hour there weren't that many people going in this direction. He was about to put on his headphones when he heard surprisingly loud and quickened footsteps, and just as the doors were about to close, someone jumped in.
As Katsuki got over his initial shock, he was flooded by annoyance when he recognised fucking Deku.
Why the fuck?
"Kacchan!" Deku turned to him, breathing heavily, and walked up to him. "Can I-"
"No." Katsuki cut in when Deku pointed at the seat next to his and put his bag on that seat. He glared at Deku when he just sat down next to his bag.
"So, Kacchan-"
"Shut your fucking mouth, I go to school this early so I don't have to deal with you or other people more than necessary." He cut in again, picked up his bag and was ready to go to another car, yet he was forced to stop when Deku grabbed his bag. "What the fuck, you piece of-"
"Aizawa-sensei told me." Deku's words and serious expression made Katsuki's eyes widen. "And I wanted to talk to you about this."
Katsuki didn't need to hear anything else, he immediately knew what he meant and could understand why Aizawa told Deku, since he already was aware of his face blindness and all, yet couldn't help the anger that grew in him.
"There's nothing to talk about." Katsuki stepped away, forcing Deku to let go of his bag. "That's none of your business."
"Kacchan, I just wanted to know if you're alright and-"
"That's none of your business." Katsuki repeated, looming over still sitting Deku.
He didn't have any right to ask about Katsuki's well being. They weren't friends. And since Katsuki didn't want to make a scene, with some people already staring, he quickly made his way to the next car, Deku staying behind with that disgustingly worried face of his that Katsuki unfortunately could clearly picture in his head.
___
Katsuki honestly thought that at least on the way to school he'd be left alone, but since it was the same way, he could practically feel Deku's breath on his neck.
"Stop following me!" Katsuki looked over his shoulder to see Deku five metres away.
Still six too close.
"I'm just going to school!" He yelled back in panicked voice yet Katsuki could hear slight annoyance in there.
Fucking Deku, finding confidence with his new fucking quirk yet still being the same coward.
Katsuki continued walking, with Deku a short distance behind, but when he stopped at the red light and Deku stood right next to him, Katsuki almost snapped at him again. Almost. Because as he turned to him, a short distance away, up in a tree, he saw several eyes staring back at him, from the shadows.
Or maybe those eyes were the shadows?
He couldn't figure it out. He just knew that no matter how many times he blinked, they wouldn't disappear and before he could move on his own, Deku waved his hand right in front of his face.
"Kacchan are you alright?" He asked with that gross, pitying expression.
Katsuki swatted at his hand and quickly moved.
"Shut up, everything is fine!" He crossed the street with hands in his pockets, anger boiling in him when Deku caught up without any trouble.
"Kacchan, if there's something wrong you should tell Aizawa!" He dared to grab Katsuki by the elbow. "I just want to help-"
That was it.
Katsuki pushed him away, no care that someone could see them.
"Nothing is fucking wrong." He hissed, few explosions going off. "And even if there was, I don't need help from a fucking nobody like you." Katsuki pushed him again. "Everything is great, and-"
"If that's the case, then I'm happy for you…" Deku mumbled, clutching his shirt where Katsuki pushed.
Happy?
"Oh no, you useless crap, you don't get to be happy for me." Katsuki's voice was cold. The levels of his irritation and anger rose higher and higher, especially that Deku was still too big of a coward to look at him properly. "We are not friends, get that into your broccoli head." Pushing Deku one last time, Katsuki turned away and quickly headed to school.
If Deku wanted something done about the implant, he’d have to rip it out himself.
___
Katsuki sat at his desk in the classroom, still annoyed at Deku's stupid stunt. Being forced to see him first thing in the morning wasn't one of his favourite things, yet there he was. Still remembering that stupid face.
That was one of the implant's downsides. That even when he didn't want to, he could still picture fucking Deku in his head, while he'd prefer literally anyone else over him. Damn, even that annoying Half face or some no-name from the train.
But his brain wasn't about to cooperate with him. Because the first person that immediately came to his mind was Kirishima. And his soft smile and happy eyes. The gentle touch and the way he kissed him-
"Fuck!" Katsuki slammed his hand against the desk, barely avoiding firing off an explosion.
"Oh, what's wrong, Bakugou-kun?"
Katsuki quickly raised his eyes and saw floating uniform at the desk in front of his.
"Invisible girl." He frowned. Right, she was one of the people who would come earlier, although usually after the loud, tall guy.
Maybe he was stopped by Deku who stayed outside the class?
"Aw, come on, you don't have to call me my hero name!" She chipped with her too high and too sweet voice, interrupting his thoughts. From the movements of the uniform, Katsuki figured she probably put her hands on her cheeks.
Before he was almost thankful that she didn't have a face to remember, but now it was just unsettling. Looking at something that basically wasn't even there and at this point he'd rather she actually had a face.
"Yeah, I had no fucking idea this was your hero name." Katsuki rolled his eyes at how generic it was.
It was the same league if the Tail guy called himself the Tail-man, but something was telling him that this was actually his hero name. Katsuki figured this was one of those things he could put under his 'don't do this' list, along with punching people for whispering behind his back and eating spicy food right before training.
"It's easy to remember!" She argued and it seemed like she put her hands on her hips.
"Yeah, but it's a stupid hero name." Katsuki retorted as he stood up, already done with the conversation.
"Well, at least I'm not the one who still doesn't have one!" She yelled after him and sat down at her desk.
This made Katsuki stop.
How the fuck did she know that?
Sure, they made fun of Kirishima's choice at some point in that stupid group chat, but since then he might've gotten one without anyone, besides Aizawa probably, knowing.
Or maybe it was just that obvious to everyone that he still didn't have one?
Katsuki glared at her, but it seemed like she turned away from him, ignoring him and that only pissed him off. He took a step closer, but the way shadows formed themselves inside her uniform, he could see something resembling a very distorted face.
With a curse under his breath, he quickly left the class and headed to the restroom, ignoring Deku who was talking to their class president, as Kirishima pointed out the day before, who called out after him, greeting him and for the hundredth time congratulating him on coming so early to the school.
He found his way to the restroom and leaned against the sink, trying to keep his breath calm and even.
Maybe there was something wrong about that fucking implant?
Maybe he should really go and see Kazewaki? Or at least tell Aizawa?
Slowly, Katsuki reached to his scar, but besides the usual rough patch of skin, he could feel the small part of the implant. He tugged at it lightly, yet it was firmly sitting in its place. At least he knew that it'd take a bit of strength to get it out by himself, not that he'd need to do that.
He looked around, no clue why he even went to the restroom in the first place. Maybe he wanted to be alone? Yeah, that was it.
Having to deal with Deku and then that fucking nosey Invisible girl wasn't something he enjoyed doing first thing in the morning. He'd much rather it was Kirishima there instead-
Nope.
Katsuki clasped his hands against his cheeks and just now noticed how funny it looked in the mirror. Right, besides normal faces he could now remember those unusual ones, whenever someone would make a funny, ridiculous or grossed out expression. He realised he didn't even need to see them first, he could imagine someone smiling or frowning and once again, it was Kirishima he pictured smiling at him.
"Oh for fuck's sake!" Katsuki slapped his reflection, as if that would help him with anything, and left the restroom.
Yet another downside to the implant.
He approached his classroom and noticed that class president and Deku weren't outside anymore, meaning that he'd have to deal with them talking inside.
Katsuki groaned and walked past the doors. Maybe he could use this time to actually go and ask Kazewaki about all the shit he's been seeing?
With that thought, he started his walk down the stairs, yet stopped midway when he saw all too familiar red hair.
"Oh! Bakugou!" Kirishima smiled at him, genuinely excited to see him and Katsuki felt hot, the memories of his dream returning quickly. "What are you doing here, bro?" He asked as he approached, still two steps below Katsuki who couldn't bear looking at him.
Fuck fuck fuck fuck-
"I-" he coughed and in the corner of his eye, saw Kirishima tilt his head slightly in confusion.
"You okay, bro?" He asked, concerned. Of course he was concerned. Fucking Kirishima with his fucking compassion. He even walked up to the same step Katsuki was on, making his heart pound quickly in his chest.
Shut up!
"I'm fine." He assured and shot Kirishima a weak glare as he crossed his arms over his chest. "What are you doing here this early anyway?" Katsuki changed the subject, yet it didn't seem like Kirishima was happy about it, but didn't try to call Katsuki out.
It seemed more like he was caught red handed doing something.
"I uh-" he averted Katsuki's gaze. "I-" he looked down at his bag. "I didn't know how to do my homework!" He blurted out, cheeks reddened. "I was hoping you'd help me!" Kirishima continued as he quickly made his way up the stairs, still avoiding Katsuki's eyes.
"Didn't I fucking explain it to you?" Katsuki found himself slightly annoyed. He didn't spend over a week on tutoring Kirishima just for him to not do his homework.
"I mean- I did it!" Kirishima waved his hands around awkwardly. "I just- I wanted you to check it! Just in case it was wrong!" This time he laughed, and even though it was an awkward sound, Katsuki still preferred it from Kirishima's panicked expression from a few seconds ago. "So… will you check it… for me?" Shyly, Kirishima finally looked at Katsuki who's guts clenched slightly.
Fuck, calm down.
"Whatever." Katsuki said shortly and bit back a grin when Kirishima jumped in place triumphantly and then started walking towards their classroom. Yet Katsuki was still standing in the middle of the stairs, pondering whether he should go see Kazewaki or not.
"Something's wrong?" Kirishima's worried tone brought him back to earth.
At this point, Katsuki knew he could tell Kirishima almost everything, so he walked up the stairs and stood a bit closer to him.
"It's just…" he started in a whisper. "I wanted to go to Kazewaki…" Kirishima looked at him confused and concerned. "I think there's something wrong with that implant?" He tilted his head, kind of showing off the side of his head.
Kirishima's confusion turned into a serious expression.
"Why? Is it not working, or-"
"I think it's working too well…" Katsuki interrupted. He wanted to get it over with, even if Kirishima was his friend, it was still stupid to show any weaknesses like that, even in front of him.
"What do you mean?" Kirishima was seemingly worried and Katsuki started hating himself for even starting this conversation. He didn't need anyone to be worried about him. First Deku, now Kirishima… "Bakugou?"
"Fuck, it's-" he looked to the side and when his eyes wandered a bit higher, he noticed something in a cloud outside the window. "This!" He pointed at the cloud, feeling kind of like a kid. "I see faces in places where they shouldn't be and-"
Kirishima's chuckle interrupted him.
"The fuck you're laughing at?" Katsuki glared at him, his hand still stretched out towards the windows.
"Sorry, sorry, I just didn't realise how many things you wouldn't be aware of!" Kirishima smiled apologetically, yet that didn't make Katsuki less annoyed at his reaction. "I see it too!"
What?
"What?" Katsuki asked and his expression must have been ridiculous, because Kirishima only snorted at his reaction.
"It's normal to see faces in different things." He explained and looked up at that damn cloud. "It's kind of messy and rather non-human, but it's there! You can see a face in a cloud, in wrinkled material, even on a toast!" Still with that amused smile, Kirishima took his phone out of his bag and tapped something in it quickly. "Here-" he showed the screen to Katsuki and sure enough, there was something resembling a face in a fucking toast. "You just get used to it!" Kirishima shrugged as he put his phone back in the bag.
Katsuki thought about the new information. No one ever told him that before and he thought that someone should have explained to him that he might start seeing faces in the strangest fucking places.
"What about the trees?" He still asked and frowned slightly when Kirishima nodded.
"Yeah, it happens."
"And shadows?"
"Pretty normal, have you seen the earliest pictures of Mars?"
"… So there's nothing wrong?" Katsuki pressed, as if Kirishima was some kind of an expert on the subject. "Just gotta get used to it?"
"Yeah! Don't worry and just trust me, okay?" Kirishima patted him on the back, clearly satisfied when Katsuki nodded and they both started walking towards the class. "How did your parents react?"
"... They're busy in Osaka…" Katsuki muttered, looking to the side and ignoring a shadow staring back at him. "Didn't have a chance to talk to them." He put his hands in the pockets of his pants, frowning slightly. God, he was so nervous about them finding out…
"Ah, right… So you're all alone?"
Katsuki looked back at Kirishima, wondering if there was some intent behind the question.
"Yeah."
"... Do you wanna go out after school?"
The question made Katsuki stop and he stared at Kirishima with squinted eyes.
"Why?"
"Oh, you know…" Kirishima scratched the back of his head. "Just to relax before the exams? We both spent a lot of time on studying and I figured we could… I don't know, go to the arcade? Or something? … Please don't just stare at me like that…" With an awkward smile, he avoided eye contact.
"But don't you want to spend more time with your moms?" Katsuki asked before he could think about it, then was slightly taken aback by the surprised expression on Kirishima's face. "Since… they're both there."
"Wow, you remembered!" His lips upturned in a happy, honest smile, expression excited. "I do, but they're going on a date! They deserve some time alone."
Katsuki nodded with some understanding, although instead of going out, he'd rather stay home whenever his parents wanted to go on dates. Maybe not exactly dates, since they tried to invite Katsuki along each time, but since after the festival, he kind of stopped wanting to spend too much time with them. Not that he was going out with them that often before…
But Kirishima was different. His family was different. And apparently he didn't want to stay home while his moms were out. Kirishima wanted to go out. With Katsuki.
… Just with Katsuki?
"... With others?" He asked slowly, still staring at Kirishima.
"What?" His eyes darted back to Katsuki's.
"Bubblegum and the rest." Katsuki frowned at Kirishima's question. Wasn't it obvious who he was talking about? He assumed that Kirishima would want to bring them along, with how he always insisted that Katsuki should spend more time with their classmates.
"... Do you want to bring them along?" Kirishima asked carefully after a few more seconds of tense silence between them.
No. Katsuki's brain immediately provided.
But somehow he started wondering why Kirishima wouldn't get excited about the prospect of spending time after school with the whole group.
"Depends." He answered instead and moved again, Kirishima quickly following. "If they want to come." He finished as he saw Kirishima open his mouth, most definitely to ask on what it depended.
"... Oh."
Was it just him, or did Kirishima sound almost disappointed?
Sure, Katsuki would rather spend any time with Kirishima alone, he was the least annoying person in this class, but the moment he thought about his dream… How they were alone in it and how he feared that somehow it would become reality…
Wait.
They wouldn't be alone in some arcade, the place would be filled with stupid teenagers and running kids with their parents.
"But-" Katsuki almost laughed at the way Kirishima immediately perked up at this one word. Like a cute puppy. … No, just a puppy. Nothing cute here, don't be an idiot. "But I'm pretty sure they still have their study sessions with Ponytail so it'll be just the two of us." He finished and his heart squeezed on itself at the way Kirishima beamed at him.
"Then it's a d-" Kirishima's excited voice cracked before he could finish the sentence and he started coughing. "DEAL. It's a deal!" He said loudly and laughed even louder as he quickened his pace, leaving Katsuki slightly behind.
Katsuki stared at his back for a second before he rolled his eyes and joined him at the door.
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The rest of the day went rather smoothly, now that Katsuki knew that seeing faces and eyes in random places was apparently normal and he'd just have to get used to it. In hindsight, he should have just check this on the internet instead of googling his stupid dream, but it didn't matter at this point. What mattered was that he was ready to get used to some side effects if it meant that he could remember what Kirishima looked like.
And others too, of course.
He'd be lying if he said that he didn't like remembering how his parents look like. Damn, even the fact that he could recognize fucking Kaminari, Ashido or Sero made him somehow happier.
With all that, Katsuki could handle a few extra faces, even if he felt like he was being watched wherever he went. Like at the arcade, as soon as he and Kirishima stepped inside. With so many people and posters and who knows what else, Katsuki could feel himself get uncomfortable very quickly.
Maybe this wasn't the best idea after all?
"You okay, man?" And of course Kirishima immediately noticed. It seemed like he kept a close eye on Katsuki recently. Probably because of the implant, because he couldn't think of any other explanation.
"Yeah, I'm… great." His eyes wandered around the dimmed room with blinding neon lights and loud music, but that wasn't what was bothering him.
Even if the implant was helping him with seeing people normally, without their faces becoming blurs or merging together, Katsuki came to realise that he simply hated bigger crowds of strangers, no matter if he could recognize them or not. Besides that, they were UA students. People knew them. He already noticed a kid pointing at the two of them, saying something to his mom who looked up at them, back at the kid with a smile and a nod. Then some blond guy with yellow headphones staring at them with wide eyes, some distance away, as if trying to hide.
Why did he agree to come again?
"Hey, we can leave if it's too much..?" Kirishima put an unsure hand on his shoulder and Katsuki remembered that he came here because it meant he could be alone with Kirishima without a risk of his dream becoming a ridiculous reality.
"No, it's fine. Besides, you fucking deserve this after all that studying or whatever…" Katsuki ended up muttering the last few words, but Kirishima still beamed at him, all excited.
Then before Katsuki knew it, he was being dragged by his wrist through the corridors of machines and between all the other people, until they found themselves in the back where Kirishima stopped in front of a bigger machine, hidden behind a curtain so that only legs below the knees of two people who were already playing were visible.
"It's a shooting game." Kirishima was quick to explain, bouncing slightly on his legs. "Nothing brutal, just ducks!"
"... You brought me here to shoot ducks?" Katsuki eyed him then the curtain when he heard strangely excited yelling from behind it.
"Well, it can get pretty challenging because those ducks-" he stepped closer with a sly smile "-can duck."
Katsuki snorted and bit his lip, but it was too late, he was already smiling like an idiot and covering his lips, turning away from Kirishima who was way too pleased with his joke.
"Besides!" He continued, stepping back into Katsuki's view despite his best efforts to not be seen laughing. "There's a bit of privacy?" He pointed at the curtain as if Katsuki haven't noticed it already. "No big crowd or people staring at your hands while you play. And we can choose to play together or against each other." With a proud smile, Kirishima waited for Katsuki's decision.
"Fine." He answered once he finally stopped grinning after that terrible joke. "And you know what?" Crossing arms over his chest, Katsuki leaned a bit towards Kirishima who's eyes widened slightly. "You better not drag me down."
"Yes!" Kirishima pumped his fists together in front of his chest. "The manliest team!"
Katsuki rolled his eyes and then smirked when it was finally their turn, as two girls stepped outside. One of them gasped and tapped the other on the shoulder, pointedly looking at Kirishima, so Katsuki just quickly pushed him inside before the whole 'it's a UA student!' shitshow would start.
"We can share the points after we win!" Kirishima announced happily as he quickly put in a few coins into the machine, before Katsuki could do that.
"The points?" Katsuki raised an eyebrow, picking up a plastic gun and examining it, then slowly entered his name, at least what the game would let him, which was just 'Baku'.
"For the reward! We walked past a store where you can exchange point tickets that you get for winning the games, we can split ours after this one!" Kirishima explained and reached for the second plastic gun and entered part of his name, 'Kiri'. "If we were to play against each other, the winner would get all of them so…" His hand hovered over the button confirming their choice to play as a team. "Do you still wanna share?"
Katsuki just rolled his eyes, then lightly swat away Kirishima's hand and pressed the button.
"Who cares about some stupid tickets, we have a fucking score to beat." The high score belonging to some other team popped up on the screen and right at that moment it became Katsuki's priority to beat it.
"Alright! Team Kiribaku, incoming! Prepare yourselves, ducks!" Kirishima announced as he pressed start.
"Oi, why the fuck's your name first-"
"It's starting!"
They spent around forty minutes shooting stupid, ducking ducks and if anybody asked, Katsuki would never admit that this was the most fun he's had since… since he spent the night over Kirishima's. And before that? Probably never.
No one was there to tell him he was being too loud. Kirishima was just as loud, maybe even louder, getting way too excited about every single point and laughing with satisfaction whenever they got a bonus.
The whole thing was stupid. And simple. And yet it gave him so much of simple joy. For once just being a stupid teenager, not even beating the highest score, but spending time with his equally stupid friend, made him feel like he was having the time of his life. Screw being competitive, Katsuki could spend all day just doing whatever with Kirishima, he would probably feel the same way.
Surprisingly, waving around a plastic gun could be considered a workout, because when they were finally done and moved away from the machine, ignoring the glares of the next pair that was waiting for their turn, they were panting slightly, a wide smile on Kirishima's face and a satisfied smirk on Katsuki's.
"Bro!" Apparently that was all Kirishima could utter as he held up all the ticket points they've managed to gain.
Katsuki wasn't sure how that worked, but from Kirishima's excitement it seemed like they could get one of the better prizes. That was if they weren't going to split the points, but that didn't seem to bother Kirishima all that much, even as he gave Katsuki his half.
"Yeah, yeah." Katsuki patted his shoulder and put his tickets inside his bag, Kirishima still beaming and practically vibrating from excitement. "Wanna play something else?"
Once Kirishima nodded, they headed towards the slightly more crowded area of the arcade. At first, Katsuki was nervous, that this would again cause him to freak out or whatever, but he was surprisingly calm. There weren't any eyes staring at him out of the shadows or faces on the floor. Everything was fine.
Besides that he still felt like he was being watched.
As Kirishima stopped at a pinball machine, Katsuki subtly looked over his shoulder to notice a blond guy lurking short distance away. Was that the same one? What was the use of this fucking implant if Katsuki couldn't tell immediately?! But then he noticed yellow headphones around his neck and was pretty sure it was the same one, so he turned and tried to focus on Kirishima.
Yet, he could still feel the piercing eyes on him. Maybe on both of them.
Was that a fanboy on the same level as Deku? Katsuki could barely handle stupid brats yelling at him on the street, but a stalker? Or maybe it was just a coincidence? Maybe he was just being paranoid?
"Hey, are you alright?" Kirishima touched the wrist of Katsuki's hand that he wasn't aware was gripping the edge of the machine.
Katsuki bit his tongue, because of fucking course Kirishima noticed again that something was going on and his touch was so warm, almost burning Katsuki's skin, but in a way that he wanted to last forever.
"I- Fuck…" Katsuki breathed out and once again looked over his shoulder, but the guy was gone.
"Maybe focus just on me..?"
Katsuki's eyes shot back to Kirishima's face. His smile was shy and eyes soft and inviting and honestly? Katsuki really wanted to just stare into them for eternity.
He could absolutely do that. Just focusing on Kirishima and ignoring everyone else around them.
"Or on the game!" Kirishima let go of his wrist, his skin still tingling, as he pointed at the machine and tilted his head towards it with a wink, but despite the dimmed lighting, Katsuki could almost swear that his cheeks were red.
Katsuki rolled his eyes, pretending that the whole situation didn't affect him in any way, yet he was still screaming inside. For Kirishima to touch him again, to smile at him again and just look at him again.
Fuck.
Why was this happening?
He didn't have much time to think about it, as Kirishima lightly nudged his shoulder with a fist and laughed at the grunt Katsuki let out.
"Just play the fucking game." Katsuki frowned and lightly pushed him, causing him to chuckle yet to finally start playing.
They spent another half an hour, switching between rounds and having almost as much fun as with those stupid ducks. Almost, because Katsuki was distracted by ignoring the eyes drilling his back.
"Ha! I win!" Kirishima jumped in place and Katsuki refocused on the game, suddenly aware that they were playing against each other in the first place.
"Psh, whatever." Crossing his arms, Katsuki stepped back from the machine while Kirishima grabbed the tickets that it printed out for him.
"Hey, I'm kind of hungry, wanna go exchange the tickets and go somewhere else to eat?" Kirishima asked as he checked the amount of his points.
"Sure." Katsuki wasn't that hungry, but the annoyance and maybe some anxiety, which grew due to the feeling of being constantly observed, were enough of a motivation to get out of this place.
So they moved to a little room, next to the exit, which was separated from the rest of the arcade by glass walls, so that the rewards inside were clearly visible. Despite that he didn't actually want anything out of the stock, Katsuki still looked around, but none of the prizes really caught his eye. None, but a pencil case in the shape of a plush shark. Red plush shark. Of course, because what else would get his attention?
"Aw, I don't have enough points."
Katsuki heard Kirishima say to himself in a disappointed tone and once he followed his line of sight, he realized that Kirishima was looking at the same stupidly adorable pencil case. Biting the inside of his cheek, Katsuki glanced at the amount of points needed for the shark, then what Kirishima held in his hand and after doing quick math in his head-
"Here." He forced his own ticket points into Kirishima's hand.
"Wait, Bakugou-" of course Kirishima would try to object. "I can just get something else or quickly go and get more-"
"Those are only worth something the day you gain them, right?" Putting his hands in his pockets, he glanced to the side, pointedly avoiding eye contact. "I don't want anything so just get the fucking shark, okay?" He frowned and finally looked at Kirishima once he knew that he moved to ask the guy behind the counter for the pencil case.
And when Kirishima turned to him with a smile like he won a fortune, Katsuki felt his heart grow.
"Thank you, Bakugou!"
Barely stopping himself from smiling back, Katsuki just gave him a shrug and slowly turned to the exit. He could hear Kirishima hurriedly follow after.
They barely left the room when Katsuki felt a tug on his bag and he turned to face Kirishima.
"Here." Still with the same smile, Kirishima handed him a single ticket. "Got one left, keep it as a souvenir!"
Katsuki stared for a second at the ticket before he sighed and grabbed it, then with surprising carefulness, put it in his wallet.
"Alright then!" Kirishima put his fists on his hips. "Where do you want to-" his eyes widened for some reason "-eat… I-" he stuttered, focusing on something behind Katsuki who frowned and was about to turn around when Kirishima grabbed him by the elbow.
"What the-"
"Come with me, I-" he glanced nervously at the exit and started dragging Katsuki in the opposite direction.
"Shitty hair, what are you-"
"Photo booth! Let's take some pictures!" Kirishima laughed in an awkward manner, the grip on Katsuki's arm very uncomfortable and strong, so by the time Katsuki managed to free himself, they were already next to the booth. "Come on, get inside-" Kirishima almost pushed him inside and that was enough.
"No, I fucking hate taking pictures, what the fuck has gotten into you?!" Katsuki tried not to make a scene so he didn't yell, but Kirishima's face turned into a grimace anyway. "What is going on-"
"Ei?" Some guy was standing short distance behind Kirishima and the moment he spoke, Kirishima's shoulders tensed.
Upon closer inspection, Katsuki realised it was the same guy with yellow headphones from before.
___
"Ei?" The voice Eijirou haven't heard in months confirmed everything.
At first, Eijirou wasn't really sure when he saw his profile at the exit. He didn't want to be sure, because even the slightest thought of being so close to him made his stomach drop and heart pound. It wasn't the same excited pounding that he used to feel over a year ago in his presence. This one was dreadful. Nervous. Full of panic. Eijirou knew it was ridiculous because nothing bad would happen to him, he wasn't in any danger but he wasn't ready for that confrontation either.
Still, after taking a deep, calming breath and forcing a pained expression away, he turned away from confused and clearly annoyed Bakugou to face him.
"Hey, Keiichi…" His name still sounded natural on his tongue. Somehow, Eijirou didn't like this. "... Been a while." What else was he supposed to say when desperately trying to keep his voice from cracking.
"Yeah, I… I wasn't sure if it was you." Keiichi smiled at him in all too familiar way. "You dyed your hair!" He pointed out while running a hand through his own hair, as if he wanted Eijirou to focus on it.
And so Eijirou took a better look at the boy he used to love.
Keiichi was still taller by half a head, still wearing the same yellow headphones, the tiniest bit of eyeliner around his eyes, still deep blue and still blinking at him with second, half sheer eyelids. The only thing that changed was, well, his hair.
"You did too…" Eijirou finally answered and Keiichi once again ran a hand through it.
His hair, once pale blond, was now a warmer shade of yellow, almost orange, but it was hard to tell in the bad lighting in the arcade. Eijirou found himself missing the actual shade of blond Keiichi's hair used to be in. He spent a lot of time admiring it and dreaming of touching it, after all. But then it hit him just how similar it was to-
"Oi, the hell's going on?" Behind him, Bakugou reminded of his presence and Eijirou swallowed nervously.
Oh God.
Bakugou already hated Keiichi's guts. Even if he wasn't aware of that. Neither of them was aware of that and if something were to go wrong, Bakugou would probably be at Keiichi's throat in a few moments.
Somehow, Eijirou felt sick. He felt guilty, no idea what about, and stressed and somehow dirty. He never imagined these two would meet and he hated the idea of being forced to be himself from the past and himself from the present at the same time. He resented that younger Eijirou. That weak version of himself that Keiichi knew and which he hoped Bakugou would never have to see and yet…
With a painful, forced smile, Eijirou stepped aside so that Bakugou and Keiichi were facing each other.
"This is Nogashira Keiichi." Eijirou gestured at him. "I… went with him to middle school." He finished, but when he wanted to introduce his friend-
"Bakugou." Keiichi spoke in a tone that Eijirou couldn't figure out and he looked quickly between them.
Bakugou's eyebrow twitched as he squinted his eyes at Keiichi who was staring at him as if he saw a ghost, even to the point of taking half a step back.
"You two know each other?" Eijirou asked before he could stop himself. What the hell, what were the odds?!
"No." They answered at the same time, Bakugou firmly, angry almost, his eyes squinted in a way that Eijirou learned was a sign that he was assessing if he ever met the person he was talking to before. Meanwhile, Keiichi spoke with clear panic in his voice, both eyelids blinking rapidly in the same way when Eijirou asked him how he actually felt about him.
What is happening?! Eijirou was confused and in some way maybe scared of the situation.
"I uh…" Keiichi uttered, glancing around and nervously at Bakugou. "I saw him during sports festival…"
Unfortunately, Eijirou knew Keiichi well enough to know that he was lying.
But it seemed like Bakugou bought this lie, as he just rolled his eyes and muttered a few curses. Then his eyes widened and he looked back at Keiichi.
"Is that why you kept following us around? Wanted to catch up or some shit?" Bakugou took a step closer to Keiichi, his expression angry but this time Eijirou could justify it.
After all, he knew that Bakugou was sensitive to people observing him. Following him. Somehow he always knew when Eijirou was staring at him for longer than a minute, which made daydreaming kind of hard, but that wasn't the point at the moment. The point was that apparently, Keiichi has been in this arcade for longer amount of time already. With them. Maybe observing them for some time and if that wasn't enough, he already knew who Bakugou was.
"Yeah, I… I wanted to say hi or something…" Keiichi muttered, avoiding eye contact and taking a step back.
"Well, you already did and Kirishima isn't happy about it."
Of course Bakugou noticed how awkward Eijirou was acting. He usually didn't care about how people were acting, but for some reason he learned to read Eijirou. A little bit.
"So see you never." Bakugou then nudged Eijirou and nodded towards the exit, completely ignoring Keiichi's offended expression.
As Bakugou hastily started his walk, Eijirou spared one last look at Keiichi. He was staring at Bakugou's back with deep frown and clenched fists, completely ignoring Eijirou. Well, not like he wasn't used to the lack of attention when Keiichi didn't need something.
So he followed after Bakugou.
At least he wanted to, but felt a hand on his shoulder, his movements halting and body tensing.
"Wait-" Keiichi croaked out and Bakugou immediately turned to him, glaring at him with hatred. "I-" he pulled his hand away, as if Eijirou burned him. "I just…" Taking a deep breath, the next time Keiichi looked him in the eyes, it was in a pleading way. "Can we talk real quick, Ei? Please?" He sounded desperate and Eijirou could hear Bakugou scoff behind him. "In private?" He added with a small frown which Eijirou didn't like at all, but the way he sounded, so genuine, made Eijirou want to comfort him in some way.
And he hated this. His moms would often say that he was compassionate and forgiving. Sometimes too much. Sure, Eijirou stopped holding it all against him, but that didn't mean he wanted to do anything with Keiichi.
"Kirishima." Bakugou spoke in a lower tone and Eijirou peered over his shoulder to look him in the eyes. He didn't say anything else, but Eijirou knew that he was giving him a chance to walk away right at this moment.
"I-" Eijirou bit his tongue as he glanced back at Keiichi's pleading eyes. Oh, he was going to regret this. "Could you give us a moment, please?" He turned to Bakugou again, who just stared at him and Keiichi for a few seconds before he nodded with a frown and hesitantly walked away and stood next to the exit, then started scrolling through his phone.
Alright.
Eijirou took a deep breath and finally faced Keiichi.
But Keiichi wasn't looking at him. His eyes were locked on Bakugou, his expression full of disbelief.
And when he finally spoke, Eijirou had to take a double take.
"How the hell someone like you is friends with someone like him?" His voice was full of hatred while he still wasn't even looking at Eijirou who felt like he was in middle school again.
You're not the same person. He tried to reassure himself.
"... How do you know him?" Eijirou asked, his voice finally back to normal.
Keiichi's eyes shot back to him.
"I don't know-"
"Stop lying to me." Eijirou clenched his hands which hardened slightly. He didn't mean to sound so impatient and rude, but he couldn't control himself with Keiichi, didn't know how to talk with him anymore.
Besides, there was more to Eijirou's words and they both knew it.
As Keiichi stayed silent, clearly mulling over his words, choosing what to say, Eijirou pondered about leaving. He didn't owe him anything, but something about Keiichi was different. They both changed, and while Eijirou knew perfectly well how he himself has changed, he had no clue when it came to Keiichi.
"... You know how I changed schools right at the beginning of the first year?" Keiichi finally spoke in a quiet voice and Eijirou nodded with an uncertain frown. "It-" he took a deep breath "-it was because of Bakugou."
Eijirou blinked, confused and unsure if he heard correctly.
"What?" He whispered, glancing over his shoulder at Bakugou then quickly back at Keiichi when he heard him continue;
"He beat me up, used his quirk even and you know I don't have any way to protect myself!" As if to make a point, he blinked with his second eyelids. "I had to go to the hospital and my parents decided that I must move to a different school! He burned my hair! He freaking-" Keiichi put a hand on his stomach, as if it still hurt in some way. "This was seriously messed up, Ei…" He finished with a grimace.
Eijirou… had no idea how to react. This wasn't something he expected Bakugou to do. He was fully aware about his harsh and often aggressive personality. His outbursts and how his quirk would often go off when he was angry or even just frustrated, but Eijirou knew that he wouldn't direct it at anyone during those instances. Eijirou knew that Bakugou was easy to anger but he wouldn't attack anyone unprovoked, at least not physically and-
Wait.
That was it.
Bakugou would curse and yell and fire off his quirk, but not beat someone up like that without a reason.
It wasn't alright by any means but-
"What did you do?" Eijirou asked, his tone colder than he intended and Keiichi gaped at him.
"Excuse me?"
"What did you do, Keiichi?" Eijirou repeated but this time calmer, letting him know that he just wanted to understand the situation.
"You-" Keiichi took half a step back as if he got slapped. "This asshole doesn't even remember me and you're asking what I did?! Unbelievable!" He ran a hand through his hair, clearly frustrated and staring at the floor.
Eijirou just stared at him, having nothing else to say, he could just walk away and ask Bakugou what happened back then. There was enough trust between them now that Eijirou honestly believed that Bakugou would tell him. Truth be told, Keiichi was right to some extent. This was messed up, no denying here. But the only person he saw Bakugou be physically aggressive with was Midoriya, at the beginning of the school year and then after the festival, and then only during training battles. Even then, he still had his reasons. Pretty messed up ones, but those were issues Eijirou wanted to help him with.
He could as well tell him that.
"Keiichi, I don't want you to think I'm… blaming you for what happened. That would be unmanly." That got a humourless chuckle out of Keiichi.
"Of course you're still into all that manliness stuff…" Despite a smile, his eyes were still locked on the floor, refusing to look at Eijirou who only sighed. That wasn't exactly what he wanted Keiichi to get out of his words…
"Yeah. Can you just… focus on what's important?" Eijirou frowned lightly. He just wanted an explanation and once Keiichi finally looked at him, he continued. "I know Bakugou well enough to know that something must have provoked him-"
"It's not my fault that he can't handle a few rumours!" Keiichi cut in and then bit his lip, as if he didn't mean to say that. "Shit."
"Wow." Was all Eijirou could utter. He gave Keiichi a pointed look to continue.
"I- I didn't- it was-" Keiichi stuttered then bit his lip again before taking a deep breath. "Alright. There were these… rumours about him, okay? Most of the school was going on about how he's aggressive and doesn't care about anybody's names, doesn't bother to remember the faces and yet he's still aspiring to be a hero? And he didn't do anything to prove otherwise so I-"
"Do you know why he was acting this way in the first place?" Eijirou needed to know if Keiichi was aware of Bakugou's face blindness. If he were, this would make the whole situation worse.
"Because he was an asshole who only cared about himself?"
Eijirou wasn't sure if his answer made him feel better or worse about the whole situation.
"Let me get this straight-" Eijirou raised his hand when Keiichi tried to cut in again "-after having a lot of people talk about him behind his back, he heard you and that was what finally made him snap?" Keiichi nodded, avoiding eye contact. "What did you say?" He was met with silence. "Keiichi."
"... I said that… I wonder how he wants to be a hero with that quirk and attitude… And…" Clearly uncomfortable, he shifted his weight from one leg to another.
"And?" Eijirou pressed further.
"And… that people are too scared to hang out with him." Since then, he must have realised that it was a shitty thing to say, because he had the decency to look ashamed of that. "But that doesn't change anything! Who reacts like that?!" But he still had trouble to see just how shitty this was.
"Are you really that surprised?" Eijirou started calmly, looking over his shoulder. Bakugou was staring at them, his leg bouncing slightly with impatience and Eijirou couldn't help but give him a little smile. He didn't get to see his reaction as he turned back to Keiichi. "If he was constantly hearing people saying stuff like that, then him eventually snapping was bound to happen. The fact that it did happen shows how much it affected him."
Keiichi glanced at Bakugou with uncertain look on his face.
"But people were scared." He insisted as he crossed his arms.
Eijirou could only shake his head with disapproval.
"They weren't scared, Keiichi. They were assholes." To Eijirou, it seemed like Keiichi wanted to retort so he quickly continued. "Unfortunately, Bakugou reacted by being an even bigger asshole, but that's the way he is. Still it doesn't make it right. His actions aren't justifiable, but neither is starting rumours and making him feel like he's under constant radar." Especially that you don't know the entire story. Eijirou added in his mind.
"But he still doesn't even remember me! He hasn't changed and you're being all friendly with him!" Keiichi tried to argue, throwing his hands up in the air.
"... Bakugou started working on himself since he left that clearly toxic environment. He has improved and calmed down a lot." Eijirou spoke slowly, hopeful that each word would get into Keiichi's brain. "And you know what?" At this point, he just wanted to be done with this situation. "You should have done the same."
Keiichi's eyes widened as both of his arms sagged to his sides.
"I-" His voice cracked and he clenched his hands. "You got it wrong, I just-"
"Sorry, Keiichi, but did you want to speak with me just so you could talk even more behind Bakugou's back?" Eijirou couldn't help himself anymore. Couldn't pretend that everything was fine. It wasn't. He didn't hate Keiichi, but he didn't really want to continue this conversation. Then, when Keiichi just stayed silent, all Eijirou could do was sigh. "I guess that's it then…"
He was about to turn around when he felt a hand on his wrist.
"Please, wait-"
"Don't touch me." Eijirou hissed quickly but then realized what happened. Slowly, probably with more pained expression than he meant to show, he looked up at Keiichi. "Please, just… don't touch me."
Keiichi's eyebrows knitted together and he let go. Eijirou just lightly massaged his wrist.
"... I'm sorry." Keiichi whispered after a few more seconds and Eijirou held his breath, holding his gaze on that wrist. "Really, I meant to talk to you about… about middle school, but then I saw Bakugou and it spiralled and just-" he rubbed at his neck with rather pathetic look on his face. "Can you still hear me out? Please?"
About middle school, huh? Did Eijirou even want to talk about it? The only time he mentioned it to anyone was with Bakugou. His moms knew something was wrong but he refused to talk about it with them countless of times… So why should he let Keiichi talk to him about it?
But then, Eijirou glanced up and saw how desperately Keiichi stared at him, anxiously waiting for an answer, just like Eijirou, over a year ago, when he asked Keiichi if he was serious about their 'relationship.' Back then, Eijirou felt small, insignificant, irrelevant, unmanly.
Honestly, Eijirou didn't want anyone to feel like that.
So he nodded, letting Keiichi know he could speak and the way he smiled, relieved, somehow warmed Eijirou's heart.
"Okay. Yeah." Keiichi clutched his chest. He took a deep breath and looked Eijirou in the eyes. "What I did to you was… fucked up. There's no denying that and I needed time to understand this. And it happened because-" his voice got stuck in his throat for a second and he shook his head. "Because I couldn't deal with the feelings you gave me… And the ones I had about you and… other boys in general." Sheepish, he glanced to the side but then his eyes widened and he looked back at Eijirou. "That doesn't make it right, of course! But maybe… if I…" He took another deep breath and bowed slightly, keeping his head low. "I've wanted to apologize to you properly for a while now. I didn't want to force you to talk to me or anything, but I also wanted to give you the chance to hear it from me." Still bowing, he looked up at shocked Eijirou. "I'm sorry. I'm so, so, so sorry, and if I could take it all back I would."
This… felt good. The awareness that it wasn't just him overreacting or reading too much into things. The fact that Keiichi actually took this whole time and reevaluated his doings. This was the proof that Eijirou needed to get convinced that Keiichi actually changed. By no means was he perfect, but… no one ever was.
"Apologising doesn't make it right." Eijirou finally spoke and a face Keiichi made was as if he hit him. "But I'm glad I've got to hear it. Since then I've changed a lot and, more or less, I've moved on." He smiled with a little shrug, then Keiichi let out a relieved sigh and straightened his back. "I'm happy that, at the very least, both of us understand ourselves better." This time he was the one to put a hand on Keiichi's shoulder.
And Keiichi didn't brush it off, like he used to do a lot. He just nodded with slightly unsure smile.
___
The longer Kirishima and that suspicious guy were talking, the more impatient Katsuki grew. Maybe he should have paid closer attention to when Kirishima introduced him, but Katsuki was too focused on his fucking eyelids to think about his name. Besides, if he caused Kirishima of all people to be that nervous the second he saw him, then he didn't deserve to be remembered.
A few times Katsuki wanted to walk up there, grab Kirishima and just leave, because their conversation didn't look like the most pleasant one Kirishima's ever had with anyone, but when he turned to Katsuki that one time and smiled, Katsuki somehow knew that he would manage perfectly well on his own. Besides, through the general noise he couldn't even figure out what they were talking about, so the fact that Eyelids bowed to Kirishima at some point only confused and further convinced Katsuki that he wasn't particularly a friend. Especially that a few moments earlier Kirishima seemed to have snapped at him.
But it didn't seem to matter anymore, as it looked like they exchanged numbers and before Katsuki knew it, Kirishima was right next to him.
"Sorry it took so long." Putting his phone back in his bag, Kirishima gave him a little smile. "We can go now."
It was more than obvious to Katsuki that Kirishima wanted to avoid talking about the whole situation. He looked in the direction of that photo booth and Eyelids was still standing there, staring back at him. Katsuki sent him a glare and was met with a frown. After a few seconds, Eyelids looked to the side, put on his headphones and walked away, disappearing between the people and all the machines.
"Who the fuck was that?" Katsuki asked Kirishima, his good mood gone at this point.
"... Can we leave first?" Kirishima tilted his head towards the exit and looked at Katsuki with those big eyes.
For fuck's sake.
Katsuki groaned while Kirishima chuckled and they finally left the arcade, the wave of fresh air a pleasant change from the stuffy air inside. Kirishima pointed in the direction where he wanted to go, since they still haven't eaten and Katsuki actually started to feel hungry at this point, and they began walking slowly.
"That was…" Kirishima started after a few minutes of silence. "That was Keiichi…"
Right, they were on a first name basis. Somehow it really irritated Katsuki, although he couldn't quite place it.
"Yeah, you already introduced him. Now, care to tell me why the fuck did you act like that?" The moment Katsuki asked, Kirishima stopped walking and stared at the ground.
Well, quiet Kirishima was never a good sign.
"Do you…" Kirishima looked back at Katsuki but quickly avoided his gaze again. "Do you remember how I told you about my-" he stopped again and took a deep breath, then finally looked him in the eyes. "My middle school crush?" He finally finished and clenched his jaw.
"Yeah, what about-" and it struck Katsuki. His eyes momentarily widened and he looked over his shoulder at the arcade in the far distance. "Motherfucker-"
"Bakugou!" Kirishima grabbed his wrist before he could even try to run back there.
"Don't Bakugou me! This fucking turd doesn't get to talk to you like nothing happened!" Katsuki tried to pull his wrist back, yet to no avail, Kirishima holding it with both of his hands. "He doesn't get to call you by your name!"
Why did he have this privilege and Katsuki didn't!?
"Bakugou, calm down and listen to me!"
Katsuki saw the determination in Kirishima's eyes, and after sending one last hateful look towards the arcade, he stopped trying to rip his hand away from Kirishima. With a relieved sigh, Kirishima let go.
"He apologised."
This short statement only made Katsuki more angry.
"Well woo-fucking-hoo! Hallelujah and all that shit! Eyelids has some decency!" Katsuki couldn't help himself, yet he smirked satisfied when Kirishima snorted at the nickname.
"Come on, man." Kirishima nudged him in the shoulder. "He actually meant it." He fiddled with his fingers with a little smile and Katsuki frowned.
He didn't like the thought of this smile appearing because of that piece of crap.
"Wonderful." Katsuki muttered, crossing his arms and starting their walk again.
"Yeah, I uh… I want to give him a second chance."
Katsuki almost stopped walking at that.
Second chance? What kind of a second chance? And why his stomach twisted at the thought that Kirishima wanted to be with this fucker?
"Yeah, he asked if we could at least try to be friends again and I agreed."
Oh, thank fuck. Katsuki immediately felt lighter after this.
"Whatever, he doesn't deserve you anyway." He still had a need to add.
Kirishima just gave him a weak chuckle.
"So uh… yeah, that's what he wanted to talk about."
"If that's all then why was he acting like I'd done something to him?" Fucking bastard, giving him glares and shit when for once in his life he wasn't the one at fault-
"Well…" Kirishima started with unsure voice. "You kind of... did? Something?" He finished with another weak and humourless chuckle.
"... The fuck do you mean?" Katsuki stopped walking and turned to fully face Kirishima who took a deep breath.
"... Do you happen to remember the beginning of middle school and... maybe… beating... someone up..?"
The time stopped for Katsuki. His whole body tensed and he wanted to run but he was stuck there, in front of Kirishima whose face he couldn't read.
'That explains why he’s always alone, people are too scared to hang out with him.'
Everything went back to him in an instant. The smell of burnt hair and clothes, yelling of some students, him being held back-
Katsuki repressed that.
He didn't want to remember how he finally snapped, like some kind of a weak branch. How he snapped after years of enduring the whispers and rumours and being told that his quirk is dangerous.
Back then, he only proved them all right.
And he just wanted to forget.
Forget the yelling, forget the smell, forget the looks of dread, everything from that day, even if it meant forgetting about one of the few calmer conversations he's ever had with his mom.
And now Kirishima somehow knew.
Kirishima knew and he was going to see him as a villain, just like he's always been seen as one and-
"Bakugou."
Katsuki realised he wasn't breathing so he let himself take a few quick breaths when he heard Kirishima's calming voice and felt a hand holding his.
"Hey, no, it's okay." Kirishima squeezed lightly and Katsuki, despite better judgement, squeezed back. "Listen to me, okay?"
Katsuki could only nod, locking his eyes on Kirishima's loosened tie.
"You shouldn't have reacted in that way, true, but that doesn't mean they all had a right to treat you this way! And just because you didn't remember them and they didn't try to understand why!" Kirishima squeezed his hand tighter, but that wasn't something Katsuki cared about at the moment.
Because Kirishima wasn't aware of the whole picture. He didn't know that it has been like that for ages and that they were calling him and his quirk dangerous and villainous and at some point he almost believed it.
Kirishima didn't know how they stared at him in fear after that. That while he was a loner before, then after that no one even tried to stand close to him. All he had left was his own company and Deku sometimes following him out of pity.
"Bakugou..?" Kirishima said softly, leaning towards him a little bit. Katsuki glanced up at him. "I need you to know that my opinion of you didn't change, okay?" Then he held Katsuki's hand in both of his and looked down at them. "I could say that… it helped me understand you a bit more, if that makes sense…" He chuckled a bit as he looked back at Katsuki.
Of course Kirishima would look at both sides of the coin.
"... It does." His voice was rough but Kirishima still smiled at him.
"We don't even have to talk any more about this. I get that this isn't the best thing to remember."
Katsuki nodded.
"I'd rather not…" He answered honestly.
Maybe someday he could tell Kirishima more.
Maybe.
Now wasn't that day, especially when they heard Kirishima's stomach rumble and they both snorted, the heavy atmosphere cleared.
"Alright!" Kirishima suddenly let go and hid his hands behind his back. "Coco Curry?" He asked as he hurriedly started walking.
"Sure." Once he was sure that Kirishima wouldn't see, Katsuki smiled and he looked down at his hand. The warmness from Kirishima was slowly fading from it, but he could still feel it inside of his chest.
Despite the whole situation, he was glad of the outcome.
It made him even more assured of Kirishima being trustworthy.
___
Katsuki really wished they could spend more time together, especially that now he'd have to head back to an empty house. True, he ignored a call from his dad, but then he'd have missed out on Kirishima acting like a kid, getting all excited about curry of all things. And honestly, he just wanted this to last.
But disappointingly, it was time for them to part ways, with sun almost set and tomorrow being a normal school day.
Their trains were to arrive at similar times, but Katsuki walked Kirishima to his platform anyway. Just to be with him for a little bit longer.
He was happy to listen to Kirishima ramble about how long it took him to bleach and dye his hair, so that he wouldn't end up bald. Even if the topic was trivial, Katsuki knew it was something important to Kirishima. He deserved that much and so much more.
Deserved the truth about Katsuki's past, but he wasn't ready to share it just yet. Probably neither of them was.
Slowly, Katsuki touched the scar and then the implant on the back of his head.
Maybe, at least, he could give him a different truth?
“... Hey, Kirishima.” Katsuki spoke quietly when Kirishima was done talking.
“Yeah?” He smiled, his eyes shining happily in the sun.
“I lied.” Katsuki stated as he put his hand back in the pocket of his pants and grinned when Kirishima tilted his head in confusion.
“What—?”
“You’re a bit better than average.” With that, Katsuki turned and quickly started walking to his platform, completely missing the wide eyed and red faced expression he left Kirishima with.
Notes:
I snapped. Eijirou snapped. Keiichi kinda too. A lot of people snapped, but my snapping was tHAT I JUST WANTED THEM TO KISS THIS ONCE, AFTER 25 CHAPTERS WE ALL DESERVE IT, OKAY??? Also we're not getting any more kisses for another.. fucking.... idk 11 chapters? 12?? Yeah, we're in for a ride. There are gonna be almost kisses, or at least one of those but bear with me, alright?
About Keiichi - he's not entirely bad and not entirely good. He falls in the middle, slightly like Katsuki and- oh my god, I just realised even their fucking names start with the same letter, wow. But yeah, y'all noticed, that our dear Kirishima Eijirou has a TypeTM? Haha. Keiichi's last name comes from Nogasu, meaning "to miss a chance" or "to let something get away", so that's fun.
Btw, quick note, this chapter was available earlier somewhere else, if you know what I mean, anyway, here's my tumblr, pls support me :v
That's it for now! Thank you for reading! <3
Up next; Oops, I did it a g a i n
Chapter 27: Everything is fine
Summary:
That escalated quickly
Notes:
[[DON'T READ THE CW IF YOU WANT A TOTAL SURPRISE]]
Content warnings: panic attack, paranoia, hallucinations, blood, self harm (not explicitly described)
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Kiri: A
Kami: … B?
Sero: C
Mina: D!
Kami: F
Sero: OH MY G O D
Kami: WAIT NO
Mina: K A M I
Kami: NOOOO S T O P I PRESSED THE WRONG LETTED
Sero: S U R E
Mina: I'm sending it to your crush
Kami: which one
Mina: ……
Kami: LISTEN, NOT MY FAULT THAT SO MANY PEOPLE IN OUR SCHOOL ARE PRETTY
Sero: Just send it to Jirou
Mina: Wait, I thought he was into Shinsou?
Kiri: … not Tetsu??
Kami: STOP CALLING ME OUT
Mina: YOU'RE A BI DISASTER
Kami: THEY'RE ALL PRETTY
Mina: WE'LL TAKE CARE OF THIS LATER- KIRI!!!
Kiri: …. Me
Mina: Soooooooo what's up :3c
Kiri: uhhhh
Kami: Oh right, you were out on not-a-date with Kacchan :3c
Sero: Everyone's a disaster in this chat
Sero: (Besides me, romance is e h)
Mina: Valid
Mina: ANYWAY, KIRI, HOW DID IT GO
Kiri: He told me I look a bit better than average?
Kami: From Bakugou that's basically a confession, brb, need to find wedding rings
Kiri: ST OP
Sero: …. Why did he say that in the first place??
Kiri: Okay uhh some time ago I kinda told him that I look average to which he was like 'oh yeah you're right, you're average'
Mina: hOW CAN HE LIE LIKE THAT
Mina: AND HOW CAN YOU THINK THAT YOU'RE AVERAGE, GOD, I LIVE AMONG BLIND IDIOTS
Kiri: OKAY LISTEN, BUT TODAY HE WALKED ME TO MY PLATFORM AND WAITED WITH ME FOR MY TRAIN EVEN THO I TOLD HIM HE CAN GO BECAUSE HIS OWN TRAIN WAS GOING TO ARRIVE SOON??? BUT HE JUST STOOD THERE AND LISTENED TO ME GOING ON AND ON ABOUT MY HAIR, AND NOW IM DYING BECAUSE JUST AS MY TRAIN ARRIVED HE WAS ALL SMOOTH LIKE 'hey I lied, you're a bit better than average ;)' AND HE QUICKLY WALKED AWAY AND IM JUST STANDING ON MY PLATFORM NOW BECAUSE I MISSED THE TRAIN OUT OF SHOCK
Mina: …… wow
Kami: That's gay
Sero: Okay uhh hate to be That person, but maybe he was just trying to be nice? You know, like a normal human being for a change? I'm not saying there's no chance for something more, but we don't even know if he's gay or bi or if he's even interested in a romantic relationship with anyone.
Mina: Oh, like maybe he's ace? Or aro?? Which one is it-
Kiri: … I don't have anything against it, I'll support my bro, buT GOD PLEASE, I WANT TO HAVE AT LEAST A TINIEST CHANCE
Mina: <god voice> yOU AGAIN???
Kiri: ASHIDO P LE. A SE
Sero: If he's demi, then you have that minimal chance
Kami: I just googled all this, I'm the one who's supposed to be a dictionary here, what the heck guys
Kiri: I HAVE THE MINIMAL CHANCE
Sero: You don't know that, dude
Kiri: …. Right, can't get my hopes up
Kami: You know what? I think you should ask him
Mina: Yeah! You're his friend, he'll tell you
Kiri: You're right, I- oh wait
Kiri: I already did..
Mina: AKDKWOKDLWKXK I FELL OFF MY CHAIR
Kami: Oh my god, bro, what did he say??
Kiri: That… he doesn't really know. That he's never liked anyone before… I don't want to repeat everything, I'm pretty sure he wouldn't like me going into details of our conversation… Sorry, guys…
Sero: Nah man, that's chill
Mina: Yeah! You're protecting his privacy! That's manly!
Kiri: Ah, thank you (。•́ ◡ •̀。)♡
Mina: (๑≧▽≦๑)/♡♡♡
Kami: Soooo maybe one of us will talk to him? He didn't blow up at Ashido that one time and he totally loves me
Sero: yes, blowing up half of your jacket during the training after you called his collar a toaster is a sign of pure love
Kami: I know, right? ;) I'm irresistible
Kiri: Kaminari PLEASE
Kami: I know, you called dibs ;( not my fault that everyone's pretty
Kiri: …
Kami: Oh like IM WRONG
Kiri: He's SO pretty…..
Kami: HA
Mina: ANYWAY. Kiri, want me to talk to him? Like never-been-in-love-gal to her never-been-in-love-pal?
Kiri: … Let me think about this, okay? I don't want to ruin what we already have and he definitely doesn't like me like that. We're friends and I don't want to assume anything just because he was nice to me a few times.
Mina: BABYYYYY
Sero: … I wanted to give a snarky comment about people with crushes, but damn dude, I think you're the only person I'll never make fun of again for having a crush
Kiri: Pf, thanks dude
Kami: …. I hope you'll get your man, bro
Kiri: Thank you, bro
Kiri: … I love you, guys
Mina: KIRIIIIIII, I LOVE YOU TOO, I'M SO GLAD WE BECAME FRIENDS
Kiri: ME TOO
Kami: No homo, I love u too bro
Sero: You're bi
Kami: JUST SAY IT, DUDE
Sero: …. No romo, I love you too
Kiri: AWWWw oh shit gonna miss another train
Kami: fnekwokelflekdk GO
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Katsuki sat on the couch with an old yearbook on his lap. As much as he didn't want to do this, he had to. To make sure that Eyelids actually attended his school, that he was the same guy that he- yeah. It happened shortly after their pictures were taken, so his should still have been added in there.
After he took a deep breath, Katsuki opened the book and skipped through all the essays in it, and all the way to the end where the pictures of all the students from his first year were. He noticed himself and frowned at how much of a baby he looked like. Right, being straight out of elementary school does that to you, huh? Katsuki rolled his eyes and continued looking for Eyelids, frowning again when he saw Deku and realised that this bastard still looked like a fucking baby.
For a second he was tempted to take that picture and throw it out, but on the rare occasion his mother would go through the yearbook, she'd definitely notice and he wouldn't hear the end of it.
So he continued looking through the pictures of people he didn't remember, and after looking for a guy with bright yellow hair, Katsuki realised that Kirishima said something about him dying his hair as well.
Katsuki sighed and needed a solid minute to recall his fucking name. No-something Keiichi.
He didn't have much trouble finding the name after that, but once he looked at the picture-
"What the fuck."
In the terrible lighting at the arcade he couldn't really tell, he even had trouble with this fucker's hair color in the first place, but…
The guy was basically a copy of him.
Maybe after three years it wasn't the case anymore, with different hair colours as well as hairstyles, and Katsuki's way better eyeliner, thank you very fucking much, and the lack of that baby fat and that asshole being taller…
But looking at their pictures side to side, from back then… It was like playing "find five differences." And the only ones he could point out were that Eyelids had blue eyes and a very stupid side shave.
At least Katsuki knew he'd look bad with one-
"Fuck!"
That wasn't the fucking case!
He read somewhere that there were at least six or seven other people on Earth who could look exactly like him, but this was ridiculous.
Did… did Kirishima have a fucking type?!
Was Katsuki that type?!
"Hoooly shit." Katsuki needed a second. "Okay, calm down, jackass." Lightly, he tapped his cheeks while biting on his lips.
There was no way that he was Kirishima's type.
And what that type even would be?!
Blond and being an absolute piece of shit-
… Oh.
That was it, wasn't it?
The similarities between Katsuki and Keiichi could have been purely coincidental, but it didn't change the fact that Katsuki was an asshole. No matter what Kirishima told him, deep down they both knew that he was just rude, aggressive, insufferable jerk. Just like Keiichi back then, so there was no way that Kirishima would be interested in Katsuki in any way, because even if he liked his looks, it would be completely absurd for him to fall for such an asshole again.
… Why did Katsuki even care?
Kirishima didn't like him romantically, so fucking what? Katsuki didn't like him in that way either, so why the hell was there this uncomfortable lump forming in his throat at the thought of this?
Katsuki shook his head.
I don't care. He thought to himself, swallowing and taking a deep breath.
He wasn't affected by Kirishima and he wasn't… in love.
Anything romantic he'd imagine doing with Kirishima wouldn't make him feel anything.
So, just to prove that to himself, Katsuki imagined Kirishima smiling at him, calling him by his name. He imagined them holding hands, because that was what couples did, right? And ah, Kirishima's hand holding his, earlier that day, was really nice. It was big and warm, warmer than Katsuki thought it would be, but everything about Kirishima screamed warmness. From that smile to his hands and those few awkward hugs they shared.
Would his lips be this warm too?
Katsuki imagined that they would be.
Imagined being held in those strong, warm arms and being kissed oh so softly and-
… Oh.
Oh.
"FUCK!" He threw the yearbook across the room, panting slightly.
No.
Absolutely not, he wasn't in love with Kirishima.
Katsuki didn't need anyone. Especially some stupid romantic partner. Especially that he was just fucking confused and his brain was mixing up friendship with whatever it wanted to believe his feelings were.
And platonic was what they were.
Kirishima was a friend. His best friend. And that was it.
With a heavy sigh, Katsuki stood up from the couch and picked up the yearbook. He straightened a page with some essay, closed it and put it back, pretending that he didn't see a distorted face in a text.
All this overthinking caused him a massive headache, so Katsuki decided to ignore the world as he'd go and take a shower.
___
Katsuki woke up with a raging headache, before his morning alarm. It felt like someone punched him while he was still sleeping and the pain just wouldn't disappear. He curled up on himself and really tried to ignore it, but every move he made caused the pain to get even more intense, more unbearable.
For a few moments he stayed still, hoping that the pain would go away on its own, but that was a fool's wish as the pounding of his head continued.
Taking a few deep, shaky breaths, Katsuki clutched his pillow and slowly tried to sit up on the bed, enduring the ache that grew at agonisingly fast rate with each smallest move.
"Fuck…" Eyes squeezed shut, he hissed through clenched teeth as he finally found himself in the sitting position. Until the pain disappeared, there was no way he could even think of standing up.
Katsuki's hands rose to his temples as he tried to lightly massage there, but there was no relief from his movements. He took a deep, long breath then tried to calm down and focus on the source of his pain.
The back of his head.
He moved his right hand there, finding his scar and he massaged there, slowly moving down, down, down, until he accidentally tugged at his implant.
His eyes cracked open when he felt the slight release of the pain.
Katsuki blinked a few times then tugged at the implant again, satisfied when the pain faded even further.
Huh.
A few more tugs and he was free from any ache, Katsuki could even finally move to the edge of the bed and stand up.
"Thank fuck…" He whispered to himself, and just when he was about to go back to bed, his morning alarm went off.
With slight annoyance, he sighed and turned it off.
___
To Katsuki's irritation, the pain returned while he was eating breakfast. Nothing compared to what it was when he had woken up, but the pounding in the back of his head was annoying, to say the least. It even intensified as he munched on his cereal, which lead him to just staring at his shitty breakfast as he absentmindedly tugged at the implant.
Ever so slightly, the pain disappeared but Katsuki's eyes widened in surprise when he saw a face in the bowl and he accidentally knocked it over when he tried to push it away.
"Fuck!" He stood up quickly when milk landed on his sweatpants and thanked himself that he hasn't changed into his uniform yet. Dirtying it with any fluids was the last thing he wanted to do.
Katsuki stared at the bowl that landed upside down on the table and the mess he made.
"What the fuck is wrong with you?" Rubbing at his face, he picked up the bowl and put it into the sink with too much force. "Fuck you, you deserve it."
The bowl didn't answer, but it sure as hell blinked at him.
Katsuki grimaced and grabbed the paper towels to clean up the whole mess.
___
Katsuki sat in the train, for the first time in ages without his headphones, because the pain just wouldn't stop. Of course he tried to endure it at first, he wasn't some kind of a weakling to complain about a stupid headache, especially that it would weaken whenever he tugged at his implant.
So in the end, there wasn't anything to complain about.
After sighing deeply, he focused on the buildings outside the window. He did want to check the hero news, but staring at his phone was, again, a pain, even if he lowered the brightness of the screen.
Stupid weather. Katsuki thought as he noticed dark, heavy clouds in the distance. That must have been the cause of this whole uncomfortably painful mess, right? Pressure in the air, or whatever.
When the train entered a tunnel, Katsuki sighed and reached for the implant again. His fingers brushed against it and then the rough patch of skin it was in the middle of. He kind of wondered how exactly it looked like and if it were to be on full display, would people ask about his scar. Before he could think more about this, the train stopped abruptly and Katsuki accidentally tugged at the implant again, a bit harder this time.
The lights went out and a voice from a speaker announced apologetically that there was a villain attack and before the fight would move farther away, they couldn't move.
So Katsuki sat there in the darkness, a few strangers around him talking in whispers. It was completely fine, if not extremely annoying, until he felt eyes on him after a few minutes.
He glanced around hurriedly.
No one's staring. Katsuki tried to reason with himself.
No one could stare anyway, it was dark and he could only figure out the silhouettes of the five other people in the car.
Still, someone was definitely starting.
Katsuki looked around again, searching for that pair of eyes, even as much as looking behind him, although there was only a window and nothing to look at on the other side.
His chest tightened and Katsuki felt sweat on his temple, he wasn't afraid of darkness, so why the sudden panic? Why the sudden feeling of being stared at?
He tried to take a deep breath, when he realised that he couldn't. He couldn't breathe and he couldn't move and he couldn't locate those fucking eyes that were still staring-
The lights came back and Katsuki straightened in his seat, his shoulders tense. He quickly looked around, but no one was paying any attention to him. Everyone else was either staring at the now working lights or sighing in relief as they looked at their watches.
Another apology for the inconvenience came through the speaker and the train moved again.
Katsuki took a deep breath and tried to relax, finally shaking off the uncomfortable feelings, yet still feeling sick.
Everything is fine. Katsuki told himself as he closed his eyes with a frown of worry.
___
Sitting at his desk and, as usual, not paying any attention to anyone coming to class, Katsuki found himself ignoring the pain at the back of his head yet again. His teeth were tightly clenched as he tried to endure a strange ringing in his ears. As subtle as he could, he reached and tugged a few times on the implant. Bit by bit, the pain disappeared and he relaxed his tense muscles.
Katsuki glanced around the classroom, mostly filled with students at this point, and sighed, slightly annoyed when he didn't notice Kirishima. Then bit his lower lip to stop himself from smiling at the thought of him.
I don't care about Shitty hair. He forced the thought into his stupid brain as he locked his eyes on his desk. Then frowned. He was well aware that he just lied to himself. Even if it wasn't in some ridiculous, romantic way, he still cared about Kirishima.
Deeply.
For whatever reason.
He closed his eyes, scoffing at his absurd thoughts.
Katsuki heard another person enter the class, so of course he wanted to check if it was Kirishima, but just as he reopened his eyes, he couldn't tear them away from his desk.
Slowly, a distorted image of a face formed on it, strange patterns swirling across it. It wasn't staring at him, the eyes empty shadows. It opened its mouth. Wider and wider in a silent scream, the face winced in pain as its mouth and skin stretched impossibly. No matter how hard he tried, Katsuki couldn't look away from it.
He flinched when he felt a hand, that at the same moment quickly disappeared from his shoulder and Katsuki realised he wasn't breathing, painfully digging his nails into the palms of his hands.
Katsuki's eyes shot up to see Kirishima standing next to him, looking at him in worry.
"Bakugou, are you okay?" He asked in a hushed tone.
Katsuki blinked a few times, trying to figure out what the hell happened. Glancing at his desk, he was relieved to see the face was gone.
"I'm… fine." Katsuki muttered, straightening his back.
Kirishima's eyebrows knitted slightly, worry still clear on his face.
Katsuki couldn't help but sigh.
"I just have a headache that keeps coming back. Nothing serious." Trying to calm Kirishima, Katsuki shrugged nonchalantly.
"Are you sure?" Kirishima leaned closer to Katsuki, his voice even quieter. "It looked like something serious, man…" His eyes glanced slightly away from Katsuki's. "Is it… your other headache?"
Katsuki snorted, which seemed to calm Kirishima a bit more than his earlier words.
"No, it's not." He leaned back in his chair, crossing his arms and kicking Kirishima lightly in the knee.
Kirishima kicked him back before he continued, voice still lowered.
"Maybe you should visit Recovery girl? At least, if it's not a headache…"
"Which one?" Katsuki asked with tilted eyebrow, not even trying to hide his amusement that only grew when Kirishima groaned.
"I don't know, man!" He threw his hands up in frustration. "You're the one with a headache!"
"Ohh, Baku, you have a headache?" Ashido walked up to them out of nowhere. "Are you alright? Are you sick? Or just tired?" For some reason, she sounded genuinely concerned, which was… almost nice.
"Yeah, tired of idiots talking to me first thing in the morning."
"Hey!" They yelled in unison, Katsuki's smirk turning into mocking laughter.
"Aw, Bakugou-kun, why are you so mean?" Invisible girl probably faced them, since her whole chair and clothes were turned to the three of them. "They're just concerned!"
"Oh, don't worry, Hagakure!" Kirishima smiled at her. "Blasty doesn't really mean it!" As if to make a point, he put his warm hand on Katsuki's shoulder.
"Touch me again and I'll blow your entire arm off." Katsuki glared at him, no actual meaning behind his words.
"See? He adores me!" Kirishima laughed and patted his shoulder lightly before pulling away.
Yes, I adore you very fucking much, why did you take your hand away, touch me all you want and what the FUCK am I thinking? Katsuki bit the inside of his cheek. Indeed, what the fuck was he thinking?
"Baku adores me too, he just won't admit it." Ashido framed her face with her hands, as if posing for a picture, and fluttered her eyelashes at him.
"Gross." Was all Katsuki said before snorting at her offended gasp.
"Aww, you all seem so close! That's so cute!" Invisible girl, Hagasomething, exclaimed as she clasped her hands together with an audible sound.
"Yes, Baku loves us and we," Ashido nudged Kirishima with her elbow, "absolutely love Baku!" Then she winked at Katsuki.
"... What." He deadpanned with confusion and glanced at Kirishima who was really nervous all of a sudden.
His squinted eyes went back to Ashido and by her panicked face, Katsuki figured out that there definitely was some strange meaning behind her words.
"Uhh-" Kirishima coughed awkwardly then released his breath in relief when the bell rang. "Nothing, man! See you next break!" Then he grabbed Ashido by the elbow and practically ran away.
"What the fuck." Katsuki frowned upon their antics.
"Huh, any idea what this was about?" Invisible girl asked with amusement that Katsuki had no idea where it came from in the first place.
"Would I be confused if I knew?" He asked with a bite. She just stared at him. Or at least he assumed she was staring at him, since her clothes were still and she didn't make a sound.
Fuck, this was uncomfortable. Practically the same feeling he had throughout the last two days, that inability to locate the source of intense staring.
Then she giggled.
"Right? Silly me! I'll have to ask Mina-chan about it later!" She shrugged, still giggling slightly. "I hope she tells me!" She sounded way too excited for something stupid like this.
"I don't give a shit." Katsuki stated and thanked all the forces in the universe when Ectoplasm finally walked through the door and the girl turned back to face the front of the class.
Katsuki frowned when he felt a faint pain in the back of his head.
___
Eijirou stopped at his desk, still holding Ashido's elbow.
"Why would you say that?" He whispered desperately, leaning in closer to her.
"What did I miss?" Kaminari appeared, seemingly out of breath as he barely made it to class before Ectoplasm would enter.
"Kiri is angry about me blabbing." Ashido answered as she pulled her elbow away from Eijirou and crossed her arms.
"Kirishima? Angry?" With tilted eyebrow, Kaminari sat down at his desk.
"I'm not angry, I'm worried! Why would you say that to him?" Eijirou raised his voice a little bit, but not enough for anyone else to hear.
"I don't know, I was in the moment!" At least her voice was equally panicked as his own. "He didn't get it anyway, look, he's talking to Toru-chan!" She pointed at them and Eijirou glanced in their direction.
Bakugou looked annoyed by Hagakure still talking to him, so maybe he wasn't even thinking about Ashido's words.
Eijirou sighed and sat down heavily.
"Please, don't do that again…" He hid his face in his hands. "Seriously, he can't know."
"... I'm sorry. I guess I just wanted to see if there would be any reaction to that…" Ashido put a hand on his shoulder and Eijirou looked at her, still leaning against his hands, elbows propped up on the desk.
"He looked confused…" Eijirou muttered.
"See? A good thing!" She jumped a bit and gave him the thumbs up.
Eijirou noticed Kaminari's questioning look, but whatever he wanted to ask, not that Eijirou didn't know already, he didn't get to, as Ectoplasm entered their classroom and everyone silenced down as the lesson began.
'A good thing!' Ashido's words still in his head, Eijirou couldn't help but wonder if it actually was a good thing. One thing was that Bakugou admitted to never having a crush, but the other? He didn't even know what his sexuality was. Or at least, if he figured it out, didn't tell Eijirou.
What if after he got that implant he realised he's only attracted to girls and that was why he got so confused by Ashido's implication? Because he couldn't even imagine liking a guy?
But… he would tell him then, right? If Eijirou were to explain, Bakugou would just say that he's not gay and wouldn't lead him on, right?
He couldn't get rid of this uncomfortable stinging in his stomach.
Bakugou's not like Keiichi once was. Eijirou told himself, even wrote it down in his notebook, just to erase it quickly in case someone were to see.
Taking a calming breath in, Eijirou glanced at Bakugou.
For a few seconds he was just sitting there, unmoving. From his seat Eijirou couldn't even see his face, which was a shame, because then maybe he'd be able to figure out what was happening in his head.
Right, as if anyone could do that. Eijirou rolled his eyes then locked them on Bakugou again, who moved his hand and reached to the back of his head. Eijirou wasn't sure, but it seemed like Bakugou scratched there a few times, then put his hand back on his desk and as he straightened his back, he took a deep breath as well.
"Kirishima Eijirou." Ectoplasm read his name from the attendance list and Eijirou quickly raised his hand to make sure that the teacher saw.
One good thing about his crush was that Eijirou learned to pay attention both to Bakugou and everything else happening around him. He smiled to himself with satisfaction. He wasn't that big of a gay distaster after all!
"Bakugou Katsuki." Ectoplasm eventually read as well, but there was just silence. "Bakugou?" He looked up from the list and over to Bakugou, Eijirou's eyes wandered to him too, as well as the rest of the class'.
Eijirou was really tempted to stand up and see Bakugou's expression, from there he could only see his tense, hunched shoulders.
Ectoplasm slowly approached Bakugou and waved his hand in front of him in a slightly awkward manner.
"Bakugou, are you-"
"Yes!" Bakugou's voice was rough and had a tint of panic in it as he straightened suddenly.
"... Do you need to visit the nurse?" Ectoplasm's eyes already started searching for someone to walk him there.
"Everything is fine." Bakugou insisted.
Eijirou could only imagine that he was glaring at the hero with a challenge in his eyes, but Ectoplasm only let out a tired sigh.
"If you feel sick, just say so and you'll be allowed to leave." With that, the teacher walked away from Bakugou, reading out loud the rest of the names from the list.
Eijirou sent a worried look towards Bakugou, hoping he would turn to him but nothing like that happened. Instead, he noticed Sero waving at him and once he focused on him, Sero held up his notebook where on the page he wrote 'what's wrong with him??' . Eijirou shrugged, but quickly wrote down an answer of 'a headache, I guess' and Sero nodded, yet it didn't look like he was fully satisfied with that.
The rest of the lesson went on without any other… incidents, if that was the word Eijirou could use to describe what happened. He checked on Bakugou from time to time, but besides taking notes and scratching the back of his head two or three more times, nothing seemed out of the ordinary.
Once the first period was over, Eijirou hesitated with going to him.
He already asked about his headache so what if Bakugou would just get annoyed with constant questions? That was the last thing Eijirou wanted…
"Come on, just go talk to him." Kaminari leaned with one hand on Eijirou's desk. "We can even join you, you know, for moral support."
"... I don't think it's a good idea." Eijirou muttered, looking to the side.
"What, you jealous?" Kaminari was obviously joking, but it still made Eijirou frown.
"I meant talking to him right now. I already asked and he said that he's fine…"
"And you believed him?" Sero joined in with a tilted brow.
Of course not. Eijirou thought as his frown deepened and he crossed his arms over his chest.
"Come on, Sero, we'll ask him then-"
"Guys, please-"
"What's the worst that can happen?" Kaminari sounded somehow amused, with a little smirk.
"You're really asking that?!" Eijirou stood up.
"I mean-"
"Children, please!" Ashido stood between them. "Let mom resolve this!"
"Did you seriously call yourself-" Sero got interrupted by Ashido's hand in front of his face.
"Hush, my child!"
Eijirou couldn't help but snort at her doings, while Kaminari laughed, which must have been her goal the entire time, because she smiled triumphantly.
"Kiri, seriously, we can all go and ask him how he's doing, since he's clearly doing bad." She tilted her head towards Bakugou's desk. "I care about all my children equally."
"And who cares for you, the biggest child?" Kaminari snorted and got elbowed to the ribs. "But mom!"
"... Okay, this sounds weird, don't call me that."
This only caused Eijirou and Sero to start laughing while Kaminari complained about his ribs being in pain.
"Anyway!" Ashido clasped her hands together. "Kiri, we're going to-"
"I'm sorry, but…" Eijirou glanced at Bakugou who was sitting with his eyes closed and brows furrowed in a way that Eijirou learned meant that he was uncomfortable. "I don't think all of us crowding him would be a good idea, especially if there's actually something wrong." He smiled at his friends when they nodded with understanding.
"Alright, but keep me updated!" Ashido winked at him.
"Hey, what about us?" Kaminari poked her in a shoulder.
"Naughty children don't have rights and Sero will get the news from me!" She shrugged then swatted at Kaminari's finger that was still poking her.
"But you're all here, how does this make any sense if I only tell you?" Eijirou asked, tilting his head.
Ashido stared off into the distance for a few seconds.
"Just go to him before the break ends, jeez!" She turned around and went to talk to Tsuyu and Hagakure, completely ignoring Kaminari and Sero's snickering.
Eijirou just snorted and quickly made his way to Bakugou's desk, where he cleared his throat to get Bakugou's attention.
Bakugou slowly opened his eyes and looked up at Eijirou. They widened slightly for a split second.
"... What?" He asked, guard up. Of course Bakugou would immediately know why Eijirou would approach him.
"Please, tell me what's wrong?" Eijirou decided not to beat around the bush as he smiled weakly.
"I already told you, I just have a headache." Bakugou rolled his eyes, annoyed just like Eijirou predicted.
With a sigh, Eijirou leaned in a bit closer so that Bakugou would hear his whispers.
"Even if you don't want to tell me, could you at least go to Recovery girl with it after the classes end? Or to Kazewaki-sensei if it's… the other headache?" Eijirou gave him a pleading look.
Bakugou stared at him for a few moments, brow furrowed and lips in a pout. If it wasn't for the seriousness of the situation, Eijirou would allow himself to think he looked cute.
"... Fine, Jesus, just don't stare at me like that." Bakugou looked away, his ears tinted with pink.
Huh.
Eijirou wondered what was the reason for that kind of a reaction. And why he thought it was adorable. Well, he was perfectly aware of the answer to the second question, but that didn't mean he would do anything about it. Couldn't even, no matter how much he wanted to stare and touch.
Yep, still a gay disaster! Eijirou thought as he smiled awkwardly to himself, thankful that Bakugou still wasn't looking at him, and then for the bell. With a short 'bye', Eijirou returned to his desk, yet before he could sit down, he felt his phone vibrating in his pocket.
Ashido: So?
Eijirou sighed and walked up to Ashido's desk to lean closer to her.
"Ashido," she jumped in her seat, "did you seriously just text me so you would be the first one to know?"
"... No?" She smiled at him innocently and Eijirou heard Kaminari snort next to them.
Eijirou just sighed again.
"Everything is alright." He answered her anyway, yet before he could say anything else, Present Mic arrived in class.
___
"Even if you don't want to tell me, could you at least go to Recovery girl with it after the classes end? Or to Kazewaki-sensei if it's… the other headache?" Kirishima gave him a pleading look, with eyebrows knitted together and a subtle smile.
Then there were those big, puppy like eyes that Katsuki just couldn't handle for too long.
"... Fine, Jesus, just don't stare at me like that." Katsuki quickly looked away, his face and ears embarrassingly hot.
After few seconds the bell rang and Kirishima went back to his desk, Katsuki glancing at his back a few times.
But then he realised what he agreed to.
Go to Kazewaki, huh? Katsuki furrowed his brow.
What if it was actually his implant's fault and she would take it away?
He was more than sure that he could handle some pain if it meant that he could picture Kirishima and his parents in his mind whenever he wanted.
… But when did Kirishima become his priority?
And why?
Would he miss just his face? What about his parents'? And other people? Katsuki enjoyed remembering them all, but he'd give up any of them if he could recall Kirishima's face whenever he wanted, because…
Because Kirishima was special.
In some way.
Katsuki sighed.
He was probably just overthinking this whole situation. It was definitely just a normal headache and everyone around was overreacting. Including Katsuki himself, because he was an idiot. But, no matter how much he didn't want to go, he already promised Kirishima to do so.
Because apparently he would do shit Kirishima asked him to do.
And this made Katsuki wonder just why the fuck was he willing to do as Kirishima said, why was he willing to show him vulnerabilities that no one else was allowed to see? And just how much exactly was Katsuki willing to show him?
All those questions made him think about Kirishima's relationship with that fucking Keiichi, if it was the same but he was quick to realise that while his and Kirishima's relationship changed in that way, stupid Eyelids threw away his shot.
He didn't respect Kirishima, like Katsuki at the beginning, he didn't want to touch him, like Katsuki at the beginning, he didn't want to talk about his true feelings, like Katsuki… at the beginning…
… Were they actually that different like Katsuki wanted to think?
Kirishima was willing to start talking to Keiichi again, so maybe he actually changed? Again, like Katsuki?
Jesus fucking Christ, at least they weren't literal clones… anymore…
Katsuki blinked a few times then closed his eyes, brow furrowed.
Why couldn't he picture this fucker's face? He knew what he looked like, so why-
Katsuki's eyes snapped open, his breath hitching when the image in his head appeared distorted.
What the fuck.
He tried to think of any other faces, but the sudden return of pain, that knocked the breath out of him, made it impossible to focus. As quickly as he could, Katsuki tugged at the implant several times while taking deep breaths and praying for no one to notice anything.
After around a minute of definitely too hard tugging, the pain only dulled a bit, but enough for Katsuki to start breathing normally. Slowly, he glanced around to check if anyone realised what was going on with him, but he only paled upon facing several disgustingly formed shadows, in a way that they looked like mangled faces and eyes.
And they were everywhere; on every flat surface, every wrinkle on the clothes, walls, the floor and- was someone actually staring at him?
Earphones, sitting at the desk next to his, tilted her head and asked in a whisper if he needed something. Katsuki just scoffed and looked down at his notebook, noticing her shrug and then return to her own work.
Katsuki didn’t dare look up again, simply deciding to ignore the faces that were probably still all around him, as well as some eyes that were glued to his back, hoping they would miraculously disappear at some point.
___
The lesson was almost over and nothing changed. If anything, the sensation of being observed only intensified and Katsuki felt crowded. And at this point afraid to look up from his notebook, not sure what he'd see around him, especially that there was something in the corner of his eye. Still, he couldn't bring himself to look and check if it was just his classmate staring or something entirely else.
In the end he had to look up, to check what kind of stupid assignment they had that Present Mic wrote on the blackboard instead of just fucking telling them.
Katsuki clenched his teeth and glanced up, but his gaze stopped on the Octopus guy. Or rather on his arms. Because they had eyeballs. A lot of them. Staring at nothing and blinking and Katsuki couldn't tell if it was this guy's quirk or if he was going crazy, but the grip on his pencil was so tight that he broke it in half and at the sound, one of those fucking eyes looked at him. Katsuki had to cover his mouth so the surprised yelp wouldn't escape him.
The bell rang and Katsuki almost jumped in his seat from the loud sound.
Calm down and breathe, idiot.
His head started pounding again for some reason and, at this point on reflex, Katsuki reached and tugged at his implant.
Just for the sense of overwhelming panic to increase even more, weighing down on his shoulders like an anchor, pressing on his chest so that it was hard to breathe.
Katsuki looked down at his hands that were shaking, several sparks going off that he couldn't control.
Even when he tried to keep his eyes down, he still couldn't brush off that feeling of being stared at.
Maybe one of his classmates was actually staring? If only Katsuki could look take a quick look around, he'd know then and everything would be fine.
He took a deep, shaky breath and glanced up.
That was a mistake.
Because no one was looking at him. No one of the actual people in the room.
But the eyes and faces and mouths forming on several surfaces, walls, clothes, doors, even trees outside, everything was crowding him-
Katsuki needed to be alone.
He stood up, barely controlling his shaking legs, and as he clutched at his chest, he started walking towards the door.
"Bakugou? Are you okay?" Familiar voice in front of him and Katsuki dared to look and a bit of relief came over him when he saw Kirishima.
"I'm fine." Katsuki breathed out, but Kirishima's eyebrows only knitted slightly together.
"You sure? You're kinda pale…" He reached out to him, but Katsuki swatted weakly at his hand.
"Restroom." He muttered as he pushed past Kirishima and finally managed to leave the class and quickly moved down the corridor, breath hitching in his throat as he saw more and more faces following him.
Katsuki hurriedly entered the restroom, sweating and panting heavily, his shoulders painfully tensed up, yet he was still conscious enough to notice that no one else was there. Lucky him, he wasn't hyperventilating, so he took a few quick, deeper breaths before looking up into the mirror.
I'm alone. He tried to tell himself, but there was still this overwhelming feeling of eyes observing him, staring, piercing right through his skin-
"Stop it, stop it, stop it-"
Breathe.
But it was hard. Hard to stop, hard to breathe, hard to ignore the pain.
Katsuki pulled at his hair harshly, clenched his teeth to the point it was painful and clutched the edge of the sink. His tense body started shaking and he began curling in on himself, trembling legs and the hand on the sink the only support he had.
One thing in his mind was an echoing question of why was this happening?
Why, why, why-
Each pull of hair was more painful than the last one, until Katsuki went to grab more of his strands and his fingers brushed against something.
The implant.
Pulling at it worked before, so why wouldn't it work again?
So Katsuki tugged at it.
Then again.
And again.
Again.
Again.
Again, again, again, again, again, again, again again again again again again again again again-
Katsuki clawed at his skin, close to the device itself, dug in a few times where the flesh met with its edge and continued even once he heard a crack and felt something wet.
___
Shouta glanced up at the clock above the blackboard. It has been six minutes since Kirishima left to look for Bakugou, knowing him, he definitely already found him, especially that he probably knew where to look.
So why was it taking so long for the two of them to come back?
As he turned from the blackboard to face the class, he realized that he wasn't the only one wondering about the pair's whereabouts. It wouldn't bother him that much, if it wasn't for the fact that he was trying to explain how the results of their exams will affect the decision of them going to the training camp, but it obviously wasn't of interest to any of his students. Especially when he noticed Ashido trying to sneak a look at her phone.
"No phones in the class." He spoke with annoyance and she jumped in her seat. Normally, he would just confiscate it, but she was probably trying to contact Kirishima, so Shouta decided to let it go this time.
Another glance at the clock and ten minutes have passed.
He sighed heavily.
"Iida." As soon as he called out that name, the boy stood up. "Go look for them." He would be an idiot to send one of Kirishima's closer friends.
"I won't let you down, sensei!" Iida raised his hand and then quickly left the class.
Maybe Shouta should have given him permission to use his quirk, for it to be quicker, but it wasn't as if it was a life or death situation.
Damn teenagers. Shouta took another deep breath. Then another when he realised that by sending Iida off, he caused even bigger of a commotion between the rest of those kids, a lot of whispers and some concerned looks.
"Be quiet, or you're all taking the exams today." He didn't even have to raise his voice, everyone immediately silenced down, but his words didn't stop some of them from keep glancing at Kirishima and Bakugou's empty seats.
After an annoyed cough from him, Shouta managed to get their attention, but just as he wanted to go back to his lecture, in the distance he heard the characteristic sound of Iida running with his quirk activated. And since it was Iida, who wouldn't use his quirk without permission, Shouta immediately knew that something was wrong. The class must have been under the same impression as the whispers picked up again.
The sound got louder, yet before Shouta could reach the door, it opened violently, a serious and concerned look on Iida's face.
"Something's wrong with Bakugou, Kirishima couldn't leave him, he said it was some kind of a quirk accident-"
"Where are they?" Shouta cut in quickly. He had a strange feeling that it wasn't exactly some quirk's fault.
"Restroom on our floor."
"Stay here, make sure no one leaves-"
"Sensei, I'm sorry but-" Iida glanced at his classmates and leaned in a bit towards Shouta to whisper. "There was some blood, I think I really should get Recovery girl."
Shouta's eyes widened, but he just nodded and Iida immediately left, his quirk activated.
"Yaoyorozu." He turned to look at the girl who stood up. "No one leaves, stay calm, I'll try to send another teacher here to check on you all."
Without waiting for an answer, he ran out of the classroom and down the corridor. On the run, he sent a quick message to Hizashi to check on his students then before he knew it, he found himself in front of the restrooms.
___
Eijirou looked nervously at the door to their class. Aizawa was going to arrive any second now and it was highly unlike Bakugou to be late like that after the break, even if it was just three minutes.
Maybe he actually went to Kazewaki? Or he's with Aizawa? Eijirou tried to reason.
There was no need for him to worry so much, but the way Bakugou's eyes lingered so long on some objects, how he looked as if he was under constant stress, how he complained about his headache and how he flinched when Eijirou touched him, something he hasn't really done before…
Well, Eijirou was really worried. He couldn't help it.
Then the door opened and he ignored the pain in his neck at how fast he turned his head to look. The worry stung him when he saw Aizawa enter the room instead of Bakugou.
"Alright," he started as tiredly as always, "you have only four more days to prepare for your exams, and if you haven't done anything yet in this direction, then give up, it's too late. Now, about your training camp-"
"Sensei!"
Eijirou heard Iida's voice and he glanced over his shoulder to see him standing with his hand up.
"What is it?" Aizawa sounded annoyed, since he hated when any of them would interrupt him.
"Bakugou-kun failed to return on time."
Aizawa glanced at Bakugou's desk and sighed with a frown, but then that annoyed expression crossed a shadow of concern and realisation. They all knew it was completely unlike Bakugou to be late like that.
"Alright, go look for-"
"I'll go!" Eijirou quickly exclaimed as he stood up before he could think of his actions.
Aizawa eyed him for a split second before nodding.
"Don't take long." Was all he said before Eijirou left the class and headed down the corridor.
Earlier Bakugou muttered something about the restroom, so that was the best place to start with and then he could check Kazewaki's office or with Recovery girl.
And sure, as soon as Eijirou entered the restroom, he saw Bakugou hunched over one of the sinks. Eijirou smiled and was about to tell him that Aizawa sent him, but then he became aware of more details.
How Bakugou's breathing sounded as if his throat was clogged up, how he was shaking and clutching the edge of the sink in the way that looked painful.
And finally…
Blood.
Enough to make Eijirou panic.
Blood in the sink, on Bakugou's uniform, neck and hand. Then most of it was in his hair.
A choked sound that escaped Bakugou's mouth made Eijirou snap out of his thoughts and he almost tripped over his own feet because of how fast he went to Bakugou's side.
"Bakugou-" He tried, but Bakugou was almost in a trance, whispering something to himself and tugging at his bloodied hair- "Oh God, no-"
He wasn't tugging, he was scratching.
Bakugou scratched so much that he started bleeding and he wouldn't stop-
"Stop it!" He grabbed Bakugou's wrist, his eyes finally snapping up to look into Eijirou's.
Eijirou winced at his face.
Panic, fear, then sweat mixed with some blood. His eyes were widened, tears welled up in them.
"Bakugou, what-" Eijirou didn't get to finish as Bakugou tried to tear his wrist away from his grasp, probably to scratch again. "Stop, no!" He hardened his hand a little bit, just for this to be easier.
Oh God, what do I do?
Bakugou choked out something unintelligible.
"W-what was that?" Eijirou tried to sound confident.
"Everywhere-" He started shaking, his eyes darting around the restroom.
Eijirou looked around in panic.
Everywhere?
Bakugou, using the moment of distraction, snatched his wrist away and tried to scratch again, but Eijirou moved before he could think.
He grabbed Bakugou's wrist and shoulder, forcing him to face him, but that was a mistake, because Bakugou let go of the sink and his shaking legs collapsed underneath him. Eijirou wasn't able to give him proper support in time, so he ended up on the floor, curled in on himself and choking out words that didn't make any sense.
Eijirou quickly kneeled down and before Bakugou could reach to the back of his head, Eijirou put his hand there, slightly grimacing at the feeling of blood, both fresh and some already dried.
"Bakugou, please, what's wrong?" He pleaded desperately, putting his other hand on Bakugou's shoulder.
"Implant." Bakugou blindly grabbed Eijirou's shirt, leaving blood prints all over it.
"Implant..?" Eijirou furrowed his eyebrows that shot up the moment he realised what Bakugou must have done.
As carefully as he could, he tried to feel out the implant where he was sure it was supposed to be, but the part that he knew was hidden in Bakugou's hair was…
Gone.
Eijirou's eyes widened, his mind going blank with panic.
Bakugou broke it, he tried to take it out, why, why, why, oh God it was the implant-
"Eyes, stop, make it stop-" Bakugou started hyperventilating, trembling on the floor and choking on his own words.
Without much thought, Eijirou quickly sat down and pulled Bakugou's tense body towards him, placing him between his legs and close to his chest.
"Breathe, Bakugou." His voice was calmer than he thought it was supposed to be.
When Bakugou didn't react, except for more pleading of 'take it out' Eijirou moved his hand to the back of Bakugou's head and lightly pressed his face against his chest.
"Don't look anywhere, just breathe. Breathe with me, okay?" Eijirou started breathing, deep and slow, glad that Bakugou was somehow following, while wondering how he managed to stay calm in this situation. Maybe it was adrenaline or the hero training or the fact that his friend was in a state he's never seen him in, but it didn't matter to him. He had to focus on Bakugou. "In… slowly, it's okay… Now out."
First few breaths were rushed and shaky, but as few moments passed, Bakugou's breathing almost evened out, with only a few raspy breaths.
"Hurts…" Bakugou whimpered against Eijirou's shirt, clenching his hands on the material. "They're staring…"
"I know…" Despite his words, Eijirou wasn't sure what Bakugou meant by that. "Just don't move, alright? It's gonna be okay…" Holding him closer, he hated that he couldn't do more, couldn't stop Bakugou from that overwhelming panic. "It's just us here, no one's staring." Eijirou stroked his back.
"Make it stop…" Bakugou sounded desperate, pressing his face, his eyes, against Eijirou's shoulder as much as he could while shaking the entire time.
Eijirou's eyebrows knitted together as he held him even closer, embracing him and ignoring the intense smell of blood in his nostrils.
"It's gonna be okay." He wished he had brought his phone with him.
"Please…"
"Just…" Eijirou took a deep breath. Something to ground him. "Trust me, Katsuki." Bakugou tensed for a moment so Eijirou started rocking them slowly back and forth. "I'm here for you. Everything will be fine, I promise." God, did he hope that it was going to be.
Bakugou let out another shaky breath.
Just when Eijirou started considering calling out for help, he heard someone enter the restroom and while still holding Bakugou, he looked over his shoulder, his neck hurting from an awkward angle.
"Kirishima-kun, this is not appropriate to-"
"Iida!" Eijirou couldn't help but smile with relief.
Aizawa must have sent him.
Iida's steps halted and eyes widened as he took in the image in front of him.
"What-" it was probably the first time Eijirou has seen Iida at a complete loss of words. "What's wrong-"
"Bakugou, he-" Eijirou bit his tongue just in time. "He got hit with some quirk, please get Aizawa-sensei!"
Iida just nodded and after activating his quirk, he ran off.
Eijirou let out a sigh, feeling the panic finally leave his body, but he couldn't allow himself to relax just yet.
"It's okay, Katsuki." He stroked his hair with his clean hand. "It's alright…"
One good thing at that moment was that Bakugou calmed down enough to stop shaking, but his body was still tense and the hold on Eijirou's shirt was desperate, as if he was afraid that he'd go away at any given second.
"I'm here, help is coming." He lightly patted Bakugou on the back. "Does it still hurt?"
Bakugou only nodded against his chest.
"... Do you still feel like someone's staring?"
There was a short pause before Bakugou slowly shook his head.
"That's good!" Eijirou smiled honestly, even if Bakugou couldn't see. "Told you it'll be okay." He tried his best to keep the lighthearted tone.
Eijirou really didn't want to see Bakugou in this state any time soon. Or ever. True, he was glad that Bakugou trusted him enough to let himself be held like that, but… this was a desperate situation.
"Kirishima!" Aizawa's voice reached him and Eijirou looked over his shoulder again. "What happened, what quirk-"
"No quirk, he broke his implant, I think it started causing some hallucinations, he had a panic attack and tried to…" Eijirou swallowed. "To take it out…" He explained it as quickly as he could, without actually being sure of anything.
Aizawa glanced around the sink, his eyes squinting for a moment before he moved and kneeled down next to them.
"Bakugou, can you stand up?" He asked, his tone surprisingly calm, almost soft.
Bakugou just tensed up in Eijirou's arms.
"He couldn't stand straight when I came here." Eijirou whispered, looking at their teacher as he stroked Bakugou's back, hoping it would make him relax again. "Then he collapsed and… here we are." An awkward chuckle escaped him.
"Do you know anything about those hallucinations?" Aizawa asked, voice still calm as he stood up and walked up to the sink.
"No, I-"
"Faces everywhere." Bakugou whispered and Eijirou's eyes widened. Aizawa probably didn’t hear, as there was no reaction from him, just kept looking around the sink, as if searching for something. "Staring, screaming…"
Eijirou swallowed a lump in his throat.
He told Bakugou that faces were normal.
"Oh God." Eijirou's voice cracked, which caused Aizawa to look back at him. "It's my fault, I-"
"No." Aizawa immediately interrupted as he kneeled down again and put a hand on Eijirou's shoulder. "Do not blame yourself, Kirishima. If anyone, you should blame me. I should have noticed sooner that something was going on." His tone was the one that wouldn't take a 'no' for an answer, so Eijirou just nodded, slightly baffled.
Before Aizawa could say anything else, Iida with Recovery girl on his back, and two robots with stretcher shortly behind them, arrived.
"Iida, go back to class, try not to cause any panic." Aizawa said shortly.
Iida hesitated for a moment and left only when Eijirou gave him a small nod and a silent 'thank you.'
"Now, what is happening here." Recovery girl asked as she walked up to Eijirou and tried to look at Bakugou's injury.
"We'll have to remove the rest of the implant." Aizawa showed her what Eijirou assumed was the part of the device that Bakugou broke off.
"... I see." She must have quickly realized that she couldn't heal Bakugou's injury at that moment, as it would just make everything more difficult.
Recovery girl pressed something on her pad and the robots moved with the stretcher right next to Eijirou and Bakugou.
"We'll get him to the infirmary." She said and waited for them to move.
"Bakugou? Come on, we gotta move." Eijirou made to help him stand up, but he just tensed up again, clutching to Eijirou's shirt. "Please, Katsuki…" Gently holding one of of his wrists, Eijirou whispered. "Everything will be over soon, just trust me, okay, Katsuki?"
"Faces…" Bakugou rasped.
"Just keep your eyes closed, okay? It'll be alright." Carefully, Eijirou managed to pry Bakugou's hands away from his shirt.
His eyebrows were scrunched up, lips pressed into thin line and eyes tightly shut. Generally speaking, Bakugou looked like he was in pain and Eijirou hated that all he could do in this situation was to awkwardly help him make it to the stretcher.
"It'll be over soon and I'll be here then." Eijirou promised after Aizawa gave him a nod.
Taking a deep breath, he let go of Bakugou's shoulder and hand and watched as he covered his eyes with one of his own, bloodied one.
Eijirou hoped that it all would be quick as he made to leave the restroom right behind the robots, fully intending on going after them, but a hand on his shoulder stopped him.
"We need to go back to class first and you need to clean up and change." Aizawa told him and stared down at him.
Eijirou blinked a few times, confused, but once he looked over himself-
There was blood on his left hand, as well as on his white shirt, all over the front of it. A bit on his upper arms. Then some on his pants, although he had no idea how the blood got there. He grimaced at the thought of having Bakugou's blood on him.
And it was partly his fault that he ended up like that. Because he told Bakugou that it was normal to see faces in shadows, God, he encouraged Bakugou to get that implant in the first place, it was all him, his fault, he-
"Kirishima." Aizawa put both of his hands on Eijirou's shoulders in surprisingly gentle manner. "I told you, don't blame yourself. If it wasn't for you, there would probably be a lot more blood than just this. You didn't panic, you helped him, that's extra credit."
Eijirou stood there, shocked.
Was that supposed to be a joke? From Aizawa?
He chuckled weakly and Aizawa sighed, letting go.
"I need to go to Kazewaki-sensei with that." He said as he held up that little part of the implant he found earlier. "At least wash your arms here, then go to class, get and change into your sports wear and you can go to the infirmary." And with that, Aizawa quickly left.
Staring at his hands, Eijirou stood there awkwardly for a few moments.
Did he… did he really help Bakugou just now? He was in the middle of a pretty violent panic attack. Were they a normal occurrence? Bakugou didn't look like a type to harm himself like that so it must have been that implant to force him to do that, right? Since it was causing him to see stuff that weren't there…
Another two robots entering the restroom disrupted his thoughts.
Cleaning robots.
Eijirou swallowed and headed to another sink, not being able to bear looking at the bloody mess in and around the first one. Then, while cleaning his arms, he tried not to think about how it was his best friend's blood going down the drain.
Once he was done, he hurriedly left the restroom and headed to his class and as soon as he opened the door all eyes were on him.
"Oh my God, is that BLOOD?!" Kaminari screamed in panic and Present Mic tried to calm everyone else who either started loudly questioning what happened or straight up jumped at Eijirou.
"What happened!?" Ashido yelled in his face, looking in panic at his bloodied uniform. "Who's blood is that?!"
"It's-"
"Where's Bakugou-kun?" Uraraka asked, surprisingly concerned but then again, everyone looked concerned to some extent.
"He's at the infirmary, he-"
"Is he okay?" Hagakure cut in before Eijirou could try and come up with something.
"Everyone, calm down!" Present Mic tried, to no avail.
In the corner of his eye, Eijirou saw Vlad peek out of his class at the sudden volume.
Oh God, come up with something-
"Bakugou got hit by a quirk by one of the third years who weren't careful enough."
Eijirou looked over his shoulder to see Aizawa who caused everyone to shut up immediately.
"It made him hypersensitive to light and he had to be escorted to the infirmary." He explained shortly, as if he was going to completely avoid the topic of-
"But what about the blood?" Sero asked and most of the class looked at Eijirou's uniform with obvious concern.
"Think about it and tell me if you really want to know." Aizawa stated, his hair and binding cloth floating slightly. When Sero and a few others shook their heads, he turned to Present Mic. "Take over for the rest of the lesson-" then to Eijirou "-get changed and come." Finally, he left.
No one dared to make a sound, so Eijirou quickly grabbed his sports uniform and after sharing a few looks with his friends, he left the class to change in the restroom that he grew to hate.
___
Kazewaki arrived within a minute at the infirmary and got the rest of that damn implant out in the next six.
And the pain was finally gone.
It was gone and Katsuki could take a deep, calming breath.
"Can you open your eyes, dear?" Recovery girl asked quietly.
Right. Katsuki didn't dare to do that up until this moment. Too scared of seeing yet another distorted face in a completely flat space.
At least the feeling of being constantly observed was gone as well…
Katsuki took a deep breath then slowly opened his eyes, frowning and blinking a few times at the bright lights.
His gaze fell on a woman. The only familiar thing about her was her floating, colourful hair, but besides that…
Right.
The implant was gone as well.
Katsuki sighed and the woman, who he assumed was Kazewaki, took a step closer to where he was sitting on a bed.
"Bakugou, I'm…" She started but then avoided his gaze. "I'm terribly sorry. I don't know-"
The door opened and all three of them looked over to see a tall man with binding cloth around his neck and shoulders, Aizawa, and a guy in a sports uniform with shitty, red-
"Kirishima." Katsuki gasped, his mood lifted immediately.
Kirishima quickly moved to his side and seemed like he wanted to hold him again, but decided against it at the last second, settling on putting a hand on Katsuki's shoulder. "Are you okay, Bakugou?"
Katsuki nodded and found himself missing Kirishima saying his given name.
"I removed the implant." Tone still apologetic, Kazewaki spoke behind Kirishima who frowned slightly for some reason. "But we can improve it!" Katsuki felt himself pale, something squeezing on his throat. "I'll contact my-"
"No." Surprisingly, Aizawa and Kirishima said that at the same time.
Quite shocked and slightly panicked, Kazewaki looked between them.
"I understand your reactions, but-"
"Kazewaki-sensei, I'm sorry for this but no matter what Bakugou or anyone says, I can't let that happen." Kirishima turned to her with determined expression. "All due respect, you weren't there. You didn't see the state Katsu- Bakugou was in." He squeezed Katsuki's shoulder. "It would be extremely unmanly of me to let him get another implant."
With that, Kirishima turned back to Katsuki with a strange expression. As if he wanted to apologise, but also tell him that he wouldn't even let him consider another implant. Not that Katsuki wanted one.
He gave Kirishima a little smile of gratitude that was met with a wider, relieved one.
Their little moment was interrupted by Aizawa's cough and Katsuki frowned.
"Unfortunately, Kirishima's right." He ignored Kirishima's surprised gasp. "I can't let anything like that happen again."
"... I understand." Kazewaki looked down at the floor.
"Besides that, Nezu wished to speak to you."
Her eyes shot up at him in visible panic and Recovery girl walked up to her.
"Don't worry, child, it'll all be alright." She patted Kazewaki's shoulder with her cane. Her eyes met with Aizawa's and after a short exchange of silent nods, she pushed her lightly towards the door. "Come now, let's give them all some privacy, shall we?"
"I'm really sorry, Bakugou." Kazewaki apologized one last time in a desperate tone before the door closed behind the two of them.
Aizawa picked up two chairs, put them near Katsuki's bed and sat down, gesturing for Kirishima to do the same. Reluctantly, Kirishima let go of Katsuki's shoulder and sat down next to their teacher.
"First things first, how are you feeling?" Aizawa asked as he crossed his arms.
"... Everything is fine." Katsuki muttered and for the first time in a few days he actually meant those words. There was no pain, no faces and no paranoid feelings.
"Are you alright with Kirishima being here?"
At that, Kirishima visibly tensed up, glancing between Aizawa and Katsuki with worry and uncertainty.
"He can stay." Katsuki stopped himself from smiling at Kirishima's relieved sigh.
As if he would ever want him away after what happened.
"Alright then," Aizawa shifted in his seat "tell us what happened and what lead to all… this."
And Katsuki did.
Everything from the pain that started last evening, through all the eyes and distorted faces, and ending on how he didn't register anything that was happening since he entered the restroom until Kirishima held him close and helped him calm down.
"I see." Aizawa sighed, but it didn't seem like he wanted to add anything else.
"... Did someone else see me like.. that?" Katsuki didn't want to straight up admit that he went through a panic attack.
"Just me and Iida- ah, our class president with glasses, but I told him you were hit by some quirk." Kirishima quickly provided and Katsuki nodded slowly. He vaguely remembered hearing something like that while they were still in that restroom. "Then Aizawa-sensei told everyone else that some third year hit you with their quirk that made you hypersensitive to light." He added and glanced at Aizawa.
Katsuki looked at their teacher as well who just sighed again, then pulled out his phone and a slight frown formed on his face.
"We'll have to call your parents." With that, he stood up and was ready to leave.
"NO!" But Katsuki's yell stopped him.
"... Bakugou I'm aware of your mother's resentment towards us, but since she agreed to all this, she has to know what happened."
Katsuki's stomach clenched on itself and he felt like he could throw up at any second. He looked between Aizawa's frown and Kirishima's confused face.
There was no hiding it now, huh?
"She didn't…" He whispered, eyes locking on the floor in shame.
"What?" Aizawa's short, stunned question sent a cold shiver down his spine.
"She didn't agree to it. I-" Katsuki swallowed and clenched his hands. "I forged her signature. She didn't want me to get the implant."
There. The truth was out.
But once that was done, the silence after was way harder to handle than saying all that.
"Bakugou-"
"WHAT THE FUCK, BAKUGOU!?"
Katsuki's eyes shot up to see Kirishima standing, his chair knocked over and him seething with anger.
Aizawa seemed equally shocked.
"How could you do this?! And then LIE about it to Aizawa-sensei, to Kazewaki, Recovery girl, to ME!" Kirishima gestured widely, his hands and face hardened. "I thought we were over this, I thought you trusted me!"
"I do-" Katsuki barely managed to choke out, still shocked.
"No! Shit, this is NOT the point!" It seemed like Kirishima yelled that more at himself before stepping as close to Katsuki as he could, grabbing the front of his uniform. "It's your brain, Bakugou! Who knows what could have happened?! You said it yourself! We only have one, why would you try to fuck it up?! WHY WOULD YOU DO SOMETHING SO FUCKING STUPID!? WHY DO YOU THINK YOU NEEDED THAT SIGNATURE IN THE FIRST PLACE?! EXACTLY IN CASE OF SOMETHING LIKE THAT, YOU'RE SUPER FUCKING SMART, WHY WOULD YOU DO SUCH STUPID THING-" He stopped when Aizawa grabbed his shoulder and just now they realised that Kirishima tore Katsuki's uniform and the mattress where he leaned against the bed. "Shit-" Kirishima quickly let go and took a step back, avoiding eye contact.
Holy fuck. Katsuki grabbed his torn collar. Holy. Fuck, what just happened.
He stared at Kirishima who was panting slightly, gaze locked on the floor as if he was ashamed of his outburst.
"I'm sorry…" Kirishima whispered, his shoulders hunched.
"No, you're right." Aizawa finally spoke, hand still on Kirishima's shoulder, then sent a pointed look towards Katsuki.
"... You're right, Kirishima." He said quietly, but still loud enough for Kirishima to hear and look up at him. "It was fucking stupid and I knew that the entire time…"
Kirishima gave him a nod and a weak smile, then it seemed as if he wanted to say something, but the door opened loudly and they saw three students enter the room, pushing at each other.
"Baku, are you okay?!" Some girl yelled as she made it to his bed in a record time.
"I-" Katsuki needed a second, but as he took a better look at her pink skin and hair, strange black eyes and little yellow horns, he knew who it was. "I'm fucking fine, Bubblegum." He muttered, pretending to be annoyed, while he was actually surprised to see her there.
"Bakugou, dude, you gave us a scare." Tall guy with plain black hair smiled widely at him.
"Not my fault you get scared so fucking easily, Horse smile."
Sero's smile only widened as he snickered.
"Bro, I was frightened for your life." A guy with yellow hair with that characteristic lightning leaned on Sero dramatically.
"Waste of time, Pikachu, I can handle some fucking light quirk." He shrugged nonchalantly as Kaminari chuckled.
"Oh of course, you're all tough!" Ashido rolled her eyes that then landed on Katsuki's torn up uniform and blood on it, her expression shifting to a worried one. "But… I'm glad you're alright now, Baku." She fiddled with her tie, staring at it. "Like, I know you have that pride of yours-" she snorted at Katsuki's scoff "-shut up." Her hands went to rest on her hips. "But just so you know, I was worried but I knew you could handle it!" She winked at him, then Sero and Kaminari nodded along and Katsuki understood why they came here, running and out of breath.
They came to see him.
Because they were worried about him.
And it wasn't pity. They were worried because they were his… friends.
"... It's fucking whatever." He ended up saying and Kaminari booed at him.
"That means 'thank you' in Bakugou!" Kirishima provided with a smile and a wink that caused Katsuki's face to heat up.
What the fuck-
"Alright, that's enough." Aizawa finally stepped in. "I didn't hear a bell, what are you all doing here?" He glared at them.
"Uhhh, Present Mic was kind enough to let us go?" Kaminari smiled innocently while Sero and Ashido nodded eagerly.
"Try again." Aizawa's tone was cold and unimpressed.
"... We snuck out while he was explaining something to Koda."
"Of course." Aizawa pinched the bridge of his nose. "Out, all of you."
They all groaned and slowly made to leave the room under Aizawa's glare.
Katsuki had to bite back a smile that Kirishima didn't point out. Just grinned at him then mouthed 'it's alright'. And that was enough for Katsuki to know that he wasn't angry at him.
"Kirishima, you too." Aizawa interrupted their moment again.
"What? No…" Kirishima whined, but let himself be dragged along by Ashido. He ended up waving at Katsuki as long as he could and that was until Aizawa closed the door behind the four of them.
"I need to make sure they actually get to class, then I'll call your parents."
Katsuki felt sick again, but he knew this was inevitable.
"You need to stay here until they come." Aizawa reopened the door.
"They're in Osaka." Katsuki informed him quickly, hoping that would let him get out of school and just go back home. Maybe plan an escape to some bunker where his mother wouldn't find him.
"Then you'll wait here." With that, Aizawa left and quietly closed the door behind him.
___
Eventually, Recovery girl returned and told Katsuki that he could go and clean himself from all the blood and change into his sports uniform, and after that, there wasn't much to do.
He knew that Aizawa had already called his parents and that his mother was on her way back, taking the first flight she could find. What made him anxious was that she didn't call him. Didn't even send him a message.
Nothing.
Silence.
That was the worst.
He could handle her screaming, but not that silence before the storm.
Luckily, he had Kirishima who visited him during each break. He brought him his bag, and even lunch at some point. Ashido, Sero and Kaminari even joined him two times, which was… nice.
Then Kirishima had the decency to not ask about his panic attack or his mother or anything while they were alone, it just seemed like he tried his best to keep Katsuki's mind off of all that stuff, talking about what happened during classes and showing him his absolutely terrible notes.
But it was wonderful.
Katsuki couldn't have been more grateful for that time. How special he felt, maybe even adored.
Would Kirishima do the same for his other friends? Most definitely, but it was nice to think otherwise.
Almost too nice, because all the bigger the disappointment was when Recovery girl kicked Kirishima out, as it was way after school hours, not to mention that Kirishima got a call from one of his moms anyway…
Still, Katsuki knew that there was something missing. That he never expressed just how grateful he was for that special treatment.
He was aware of it the entire time they were talking about everything and anything throughout the day and the guilt stung him in the guts once he was alone, so Katsuki did the next best thing.
Bakugou: Thank you, Kirishima
He still couldn't say it to his face, not yet, but this would have to do… at least for now.
Kirishima: That's what friends are for, Bakugou. I would do it for any of our friends and I'd do it again for you, you can trust me with that.
… Right.
Katsuki wasn't special.
He was just one of Kirishima's many friends.
But, God, he wanted to be more.
But why?
Why did he want to be more than a friend to Kirishima so badly that it physically pained him to think how he couldn't be?
It wasn't as if he was… in…
Katsuki took a deep, shaky breath.
Clenching his fist on his chest, he became aware of one thing.
He was in love with Kirishima Eijirou.
Kirishima Eijirou who wasn't afraid to touch him, to laugh with him and at him, to scream at him when he fucked up.
Kirishima Eijirou who was considerate, loyal, cheerful and brave.
Kirishima Eijirou whose face he couldn't recall anymore, but knew it was the most handsome and beautiful one he's ever had the luck to see.
Kirishima Eijirou who was the only person that Katsuki would let see himself in that pathetic state and hold him so close and help him with kind words.
And…
'Trust me, Katsuki.'
He bit his lower lip at the memory of those three little words, heart pounding painfully in his chest and insides fluttering.
Katsuki trusted him so much and that was because he fell in love with Kirishima Eijirou.
And it hurt.
Because Katsuki knew he was too big of a fuck up to deserve to be loved by someone like him.
Notes:
//Leans on hand
That's a lot of words, eh?I just hope I didn't scare anyone away with all... that lmao, but it needed to happen. We don't just go and heal someone's disability.
I guess that along with ch12 this one is another heavy one, huh, but don't worry, I can only go so far with angst.
... Or can I? : )I have a question, which ones of y'all have been there since the first chapter? Was it worth the wait for Bakugou to finally realize he caught those freaking feelings? I hope so.
Anyway, here's my tumblr!
Up next; Lots of screaming
Chapter Text
Silence.
Silence when his mother opened the door with a cold expression and just stood there, ignoring the invitation to step inside from Recovery Girl and Aizawa.
Silence when Katsuki, somehow unable to speak up to her for the first time in his life, picked up his stuff, bag and just the pants of his uniform since the shirt got ruined, and left the infirmary after her.
Silence when Nezu tried to talk to her, but she just walked past him, as if she didn't even notice him, and Kazewaki. She just sent the woman a disgusted look.
Silence as she opened the backdoor of the car for Katsuki and got in and drove so so slowly, as if she knew that if she was going to drive any faster, she'd cause an accident.
When they finally arrived at their house and the car stopped, she didn't even look at him to check if he was following her to the house after she grabbed her suitcase and went ahead.
Maybe he could run away for now? Stay at Kirishima's or even under some bridge, just so he wouldn't have to deal with her?
No. Katsuki slowly shook his head. I'm not a coward.
He could face that damn old hag! Even if at this point he had no idea what to expect from her.
… Fuck, was it strange to see her silent like that.
Katsuki figured she wanted him to follow her, as instead of upstairs to put away her suitcase, she went straight to the living room and tilted her head towards the couch. She glared at him when he just frowned. He didn't want to look up at her while being... reprimanded? Yelled at?
Who the fuck knew.
But to be honest, Katsuki didn't expect her to grab him by the shoulder and force him to sit down. Maybe that was why he let her? Didn't fight her off out of shock? Probably that and because he tensed up again, breath caught in his throat. He locked his eyes on his fists clenched on the material of his pants, trying to get over the panic that raised in him.
"Care to explain?"
Katsuki felt a shiver go down his spine at her calm voice and desperately tried to figure out what game she was playing, while also trying to level his breathing.
"Did you really think I wouldn't find out?" She paced back and forth in front of him, her voice steady.
No, I wanted to tell you, tried to call you. Was what Katsuki tried to say, but no sound left his mouth when he opened it.
"You disrespectful little…" She groaned and Katsuki could tell she was on the edge. "You go against my word and ridicule me in front of your teachers and principal!"
I didn't mean to- Katsuki clenched his teeth, his tense shoulders shaking slightly as he held his breath.
"SAY SOMETHING!" She hit the couch, almost right next to his head and Katsuki's chest tightened.
He felt small.
He hated it.
And he knew that if he didn't say anything, she wouldn't let him go.
So he spoke, as much as his state would let him.
"You… you didn't agree…" He uttered pathetically with choked voice, biting his lip. "I needed-"
"Of course I didn't agree to it and this whole fucking situation was exactly the reason!" She interrupted him with more shouting, standing right in front of him, caging him. "You knew perfectly well! And I can't even completely blame that fucking school, because it's your fault as well!"
Katsuki tried to focus on his breathing instead of the small space she created between them.
"You think I didn't agree just because I wanted to make your life harder?!" She continued, as if oblivious to his state. "I want the best for you and doing… stunts like this isn't going to help me, you or how people perceive you!" She grabbed his chin, as if she wanted to force him to look up, but he tensed up even more. "You're my son, Katsuki, I want the best for you and for that you need to start listening to me and for once do what I tell you to-"
"Just because I have your face, doesn't mean I have to do what you want me to." Katsuki hissed as his eyes, full of sudden fury, snapped up and finally met with hers.
"What-" she uttered as she let go of his face and took a few steps back, her voice much quieter in a state of shock. "How did you-"
"You heard me!" He screamed at her, his voice back as he stood up on shaking legs.
Oh, Katsuki was more than willing to explain.
"Did it even occur to you that maybe I wanted to know how you and dad fucking looked like!?"
She was stunned, unmoving, her eyes wide and locked on him, so Katsuki just continued, his voice louder with each sentence.
"You never told me that I'm your fucking clone! You never told me that I have dad's jaw! You never told me that my stupid smile is unique!" Katsuki clenched his hands when explosions went off, his mother still staring at him. "YOU ALWAYS WENT ON AND ON ABOUT HOW MUCH YOU WANT ME TO REMEMBER ALL THOSE DIFFERENT PEOPLE, BUT NEVER THOUGHT THAT I ONLY CARED ABOUT MY FUCKING PARENTS?!" Katsuki panted heavily, swallowing and taking a deep breath, then he continued with quiet and cold tone. "For those three days I managed to realise a lot of stuff. Mainly that I still don't give a shit about how others look unless I actually want to be fucking friends with them I guess."
"Katsuki-"
"I won't fucking miss that implant. Even if it helped me with recalling some faces, I really hated the bonuses it came with." Katsuki frowned at the thought of never being able to see Kirishima's or his parents' faces in his mind.
"You should have explained this to me!" His mother yelled suddenly and his anger rose again.
"I LITERALLY TRIED, YOU FUCKING HAG!"
She took a step back, glaring at him.
"What do you think I've tried to tell you when I told you about the school wanting to give me the support gear?! Before you said that you don't want to hear another word about it!? Did it occur to you that I actually had a fucking reason!?"
"It doesn't matter!" She clenched her fists, her voice loud again. "It went so fucking bad that you had to scratch it out and it's YOUR fault because you lied to me and your teachers and-"
"So fucking WHAT?!" Katsuki interrupted her, ignoring his sore throat and rough voice. "Sure, it turned out all fucked up and I don't want it anymore but you're right! That's on me!" He laughed mockingly. "And because of that you can't even make me change the schools!" Katsuki sneered at her.
"... But I can make you not attend one for the rest of the week." She said, surprisingly calm, yet there was something in her posture that just screamed of satisfaction.
Katsuki recoiled at that, almost sitting back down, but he knew this would mean defeat.
"You must be fucking joking, I have exams next week-"
"Exactly! Next week." She shrugged and gave him an unimpressed look. "You can take notes from your friend Kirishima, if he still hasn't gotten tired of your bullshit."
Katsuki wondered if she was aware of how much this one stung.
"... Fuck you." He just muttered as he picked up his things and made to leave the room.
"One more thing like that, no matter if it'll be your fault or the school's, you're transferring to Shiketsu." She called out after him, making him stop for a split second before he clicked his tongue and quickly went to his room.
He closed the door behind him quietly, just so his mother wouldn't have a reason to go after him again, and he slumped down to the floor against it, hiding his face in his hands.
"Fuck…" Katsuki breathed out, shaking slightly, and found himself wishing that Kirishima was there to embrace him again, to help him calm down and make his body stop shaking.
Katsuki wanted to be angry or at least wonder why he wasn't about wishing for Kirishima to be there.
But he knew.
And maybe this wasn't the best thing to think about in his state, but he didn't want to keep thinking about his fucking mother so he decided to go to his safe place…
Where he could think about Kirishima and how he realised he fell in love with that idiot.
… Was it love, though?
How could he know if he's never been in love before? Never had a crush or a friend in the first place?
But… whenever he interacted with Kirishima… it was different.
Katsuki could always feel the warmth and comfort from being near him, and recently found himself craving his touch.
Just today, when they were alone at the infirmary, Katsuki had hoped for Kirishima to get closer and hardly resisted the need to just lean towards him.
Over all, everything Kirishima did, from smiling to sighing and shouting about manliness… Every little thing always brought Katsuki's attention, the rest of the world non-existent and he was well aware that it wasn't something he did with any of his other friends.
Still… could he be sure that this was love and not a baby's first crush? Something trivial and childish?
Katsuki frowned at the thought. He's never taken anything lightly so why should he think of his own feelings less, just because it was the first time he was experiencing something of that sort?
He blinked in surprise when he felt his phone vibrate in his pocket and he pulled it out to see a message from Kirishima, an involuntary smile spreading across his face, yet he didn't try to fight it off since he was alone and no one could see him.
Kirishima: How are you? Did you talk to your mom? How'd it go?
Bakugou: Fucking terrible. She's making me stay home for the rest of the week.
Kirishima: … I'm sorry
Bakugou: Literally not your fault, besides, I don't want to talk about this.
Kirishima: … do you want to study together? You know, a bit of a revision of what you missed today and all that?
Bakugou: how the fuck do you want to study through text messages?
Katsuki didn't have to wait long for an answer that came in the form of a phone call.
Of course he panicked and almost dropped his phone, but he managed to pick up and with a leveled voice he asked;
"What the fuck?"
"Oh! I uh-" Kirishima laughed awkwardly on the other side and the sound made Katsuki's heart burn.
Shit.
"I figured that this would be the best way to like… study? Just exchange our great knowledge and all that!"
Katsuki heard footsteps on the other side and assumed that Kirishima was probably pacing around in his room.
"Or just… talk about… stuff?" Kirishima provided a bit awkwardly, a smile obvious in his voice.
"Stuff, huh?" Katsuki smirked as he stood up and walked to his bed to lie down. "Like what, heroes and shit?"
"If you want to!"
"What if we run out of topics to talk about and it gets fucking awkward, you thought about that?" Katsuki teased because he honestly doubted that it could get awkward with Kirishima.
"Then you can hang up!" He chuckled and Katsuki thought he heard him sit down somewhere.
"Well then, goodbye, Shitty hair." Katsuki deadpanned with a smirk on his face.
"Oh, come on!" That made Kirishima laugh.
Then they proceeded to talk for three hours.
And even if it wasn't actually love, Katsuki decided to think that it was.
___
It continued for the rest of the week.
As much as Katsuki ignored his mother, refusing to talk to her or even to his dad who gave him a slightly worried and disappointed look when he came back, he spent just as much time talking with Kirishima, who would always text him first, then send him pictures of his notes and then proceed to call him. At first, they would focus on school and then spend two or three hours talking about some trivial shit, even if it was usually Kirishima talking and Katsuki listening and getting wrapped up in that wonderful voice.
Even on the fucking weekend, Kirishima tried to justify himself that he called out of a habit but Katsuki started making fun of him and they spent half an hour exchanging insults which mostly consisted of terrible puns that almost made Katsuki cry from laughter. Then he went on a rant how puns were the best form of comedy that Kirishima listened to for an hour and even agreed with all of Katsuki's points, providing his own.
Then it was Sunday and apparently the last day of their phone calls.
"So I guess I'll see you tomorrow?" Kirishima asked, his voice tired, as it was way past 11pm.
"Well, duh, fucking exams and shit." Katsuki answered, barely containing a yawn, and wondered how the fuck did he stay up so late and didn't pass out.
"Hah, right." Kirishima chuckled weakly and then there were several moments of silence that made Katsuki wonder if he had fallen asleep. "Hey, Bakugou?"
"Hm?"
"... Do you really think I'll pass?" He asked, voice quiet and serious.
"Of course." Katsuki stated, no need to wonder about it. "I helped you and you've seriously improved, besides if you fail I'm gonna beat you dead for wasting my time."
Kirishima snorted and then yawned.
"Don't be an ass you…" He needed several seconds to come up with something- "ass."
And Katsuki was the one to snort this time.
"Wow, that's creative." Katsuki smiled into the phone. "Trust me, you're gonna be fine."
"... Okay… Thank you."
"You'll thank me after you pass everything. Goodnight." Katsuki made to hang up.
"Wait-" Kirishima's voice raised a bit in volume, making Katsuki stop. "Do you think we could-" he coughed awkwardly.
"What?" Katsuki ushered, probably sounding meaner than he intended to.
"I just… I was wondering if I could still call you, sometimes…"
If Katsuki felt tired, he definitely wasn't now as his eyes widened.
"It's just that… It's… nice to talk to you like that." Kirishima said shyly and Katsuki imagined that if they were face to face, they both would avoid eye contact.
"... I guess…" He muttered carefully, trying to calm his pounding heart.
Kirishima sighed, clearly relieved.
"I'm glad." There were a few more moments of silence before Kirishima spoke again. "Goodnight, Bakugou."
"... Goodnight, Kirishima."
Even though he said that, Katsuki couldn't fall asleep for a long time.
__
Katsuki had a strange fear that those phone calls would make their actual conversations awkward, that was why he was glad to discover that Kirishima was going to treat him the same way as before, maybe a bit more friendlier and bolder, since he put his arm around Katsuki's shoulders as soon as he saw him, completely ignoring his empty threats, and smiled widely at him as they entered the class together.
___
It was five minutes before their first exam was supposed to start when Eijirou realised he had forgotten to put his phone on silent mode, so he quickly pulled it out of his backpack, just to see a message from Keiichi.
Keiichi: Good luck with your exams, Ei!!!!
Eijirou smiled a bit to himself.
This was… alright.
He could do this sort of thing and he made to send a quick 'thanks', before someone approached his desk.
"The fuck you're smiling about?"
Eijirou looked up from his phone and saw Bakugou standing at his desk.
"Oh! I um-" he looked down at his phone, the text message still open, and showed it to Bakugou. "Keiichi texted and wished me good luck!"
Despite a smile, he still wasn't sure about him and Keiichi doing the whole… friendship thing again. Sure, after their little exchange he apologised a few more times through text messages, but Eijirou was still wary of it all. He really didn't want to give Keiichi any false hope or anything like that…
Especially that he currently was maybe a little bit crazy about Bakugou.
"Luck?" Bakugou sounded offended, his eye twitching, and Eijirou had to fight off a stupid smile when he leaned on his desk and closer to him. "I tutored you, you don't need fucking luck!" He scoffed and Eijirou wished that the little bit of jealousy he heard was actually there.
But this was Bakugou, he wouldn't get jealous over his relationship with Keiichi.
"Of course not!" Eijirou leaned towards him as well, his smile faltering when Bakugou immediately took half a step back, but Eijirou knew he couldn't show any disappointment, so he continued as if nothing had happened. "You were a great teacher, I don't need luck!" He laughed as Bakugou rolled his eyes, yet there was this smirk of satisfaction.
Ah, Bakugou liked to be praised, huh? Maybe Eijirou could use it to his advantage in the future, not that he had any actual chance.
"... Kirishima?" Bakugou's tone quieted down a bit, giving the situation more seriousness.
"Yes?" Eijirou straightened in his seat.
"... For what it's worth, good luck." And with that, Bakugou turned and walked back to his desk.
Eijirou felt like throwing up butterflies.
Now he just had to pass.
___
Katsuki figured the written exams would be easy, but he still worried about Kirishima. Their first subject was math, Kirishima's worst one, and sure, just the day before, the two of them revised some stuff, didn't change his feelings about the situation, but he believed in his friend.
During the exam, Katsuki risked a glance towards him and saw Kirishima quickly writing something down with determined expression on his face and Katsuki smiled to himself before he turned back to his almost finished test.
Right after it, he didn't really expect Kirishima to walk up to him.
"Bakugou!" His smile was blinding and seemingly relieved as he leaned against Katsuki's desk. "Bro, I only skipped two questions! I'm totally gonna pass this one! Thank you!"
Fuck, did Katsuki enjoy seeing him so happy.
"I already told you, don't thank me just yet." Katsuki shrugged, but couldn't help a satisfied smirk creeping onto his face.
"Aw, are you proud of me?" Kirishima leaned in closer and Katsuki felt his face warm up.
He planted a hand on Kirishima's face and pushed away, feeling the hardened skin under his palm.
"In your dreams, Shitty hair. Pass all your exams and then I can pretend to be proud." Katsuki smirked before his eyes widened and he took his hand away with disgust on his face. "Did you just fucking lick me?!" He wiped his palm on his pants. "What the fuck-"
"I'll pass everything and you'll have to admit that you're actually proud of me!" Kirishima interrupted with a grin and poked Katsuki's forehead, then quickly left before he could analyse what the hell happened.
With squinted eyes, Katsuki stared after Kirishima and watched for a moment as he high fived- Kaminari. Ah, maybe he also made progress and his study sessions with Ponytail actually helped somehow.
Not that Katsuki cared, he only worried about Kirishima and whether he wasted time teaching him or not. But… it would be nice to have the rest of those idiots at that camp as well, otherwise he'd be forced to spend his time with those he didn't care about in the slightest.
___
Once Eijirou came back home after the first day of exams, immediately he wanted to call Bakugou.
But what if he would be bothering him?
They've seen each other the entire day, so what was the point?
… The point was that Eijirou just really wanted to call him. Maybe to compare their answers on the test, maybe to complain about stepping into a muddy puddle some little girl, who had trouble controlling her quirk, left in the middle of the pavement. Didn't matter, he just wanted to-
He received a text message.
Bakugou: Call me.
Eijirou called after half a minute of shrieking into a pillow.
___
The writing exams over, Kirishima thanking him after almost each one of them, even the subjects Katsuki didn't help him with, it was finally the day of the practical one.
The whole class stood near the school's parking lot, where ten buses waited for them.
Katsuki frowned.
If it wasn't a group exam and not individual, then it meant that they were going to be paired up.
Was someone going to be alone, since there were nineteen of them?
In all honesty, Katsuki would prefer to work on his own, but if he had to choose…
He glanced at Kirishima who stood next to him, hoping that he could be with the one person he knew how to cooperate with, but then he realised that Kirishima's eyes were locked on something in front of him, a slight frown on his face. Katsuki followed his gaze and saw Aizawa talking to a student with messy purple hair, dressed in a sports uniform with similar to their teacher's binding cloth around his neck and shoulders, as well as strange mask over his mouth and nose.
Katsuki leaned towards Kirishima a little bit.
"Who the fuck is that?" He whispered and Kirishima's shoulders tensed up, before he relaxed and looked at Katsuki.
"That's… Shinsou." The tone of his voice indicated that Katsuki have met him before, but he had no idea where and when. "I'll… I'll tell you more later, okay?" Kirishima looked at him apologetically. It seemed as if he wanted to say something else, but as more teachers arrived, he shut his mouth and straightened his back.
"Some of you," Aizawa started as he stood in front of the other teachers, "probably think they have a slight idea as to how the exam is going to look like. I want you to know, that there will be no robot fighting."
Katsuki heard a few disappointed groans or shocked gasps behind him.
"There was a revision!" Their principal jumped out of Aizawa's binding cloth, Aizawa himself looking like he didn't mind that at all. "You students, will be pairing up and fighting one of the teachers you see here!" Nezu finished as he gestured around.
So Katsuki was right, but he only saw nine teachers so who was the last-
"I'm sorry, sensei!" Deku spoke up, causing Katsuki to bite his tongue as he almost yelled at him to shut up on reflex. "But there are only nineteen of us, someone will be left without a pair, unless there's one three-"
"Sero." Aizawa interrupted and Katsuki heard a quiet yelp somewhere behind him. "You'll be paired with Shinsou here, who's trying to get into the hero course." He gestured at the guy who avoided eye contact as soon as Katsuki looked at him. "This is going to be the first of his few tests to get in."
With that, the purple guy quickly walked to the back and stood next to Sero, some whispers following him.
"Now, the pairings and assigned teacher have already been decided." Aizawa continued. "We took everything into consideration, from your battle moves, through friendships to the grades."
Ah, so maybe Katsuki would actually be with Kirishima? Since their quirks were perfect together and they were friends.
"So without further ado…"
Wait. Katsuki realised that this was exactly the point.
"First are Todoroki and Yaoyorozu against me." Aizawa announced with an ominous smirk, but Katsuki didn't care. "Next, Bakugou-" the worst match for him would be- "with Midoriya."
Fuck.
"Kacchan-" Deku immediately shut up when Katsuki glared at him.
"And your opponent-"
Heavy footsteps approached, and as Katsuki and Deku looked up-
"Will be me." All Might was looming over them. "You'll have to work together to win, so come at me!"
Shit.
___
They arrived at one of the UA's training grounds, some city that looked freshly built, and right away, All Might began to explain the terms of passing the exam.
The time limit, the compressed weights All Might was going to wear, which was just fucking insulting, and then the actual advice from him to just run away.
Fucking joke.
Then they were sent to start from somewhere at the end of that city, while All Might was probably still at the gate they were supposed to escape through.
Fucking. Joke.
Katsuki frowned with disgust and started walking towards the gate as soon as the signal to start went off, ready to take All Might head on.
There was just one fucking inconvenience.
"Wait, Kacchan!"
"Stop following me!" Katsuki yelled at Deku over his shoulder. "Beating him is the best fucking option!"
"We're better off avoiding the battle against him!"
Katsuki clenched his teeth, barely controlling the urge to punch Deku into that cowardly face.
"We'll let him attack us until the very end and then when he's exhausted, I'll finish him." The plan was fucking easy enough to understand, even All Might would eventually get tired of Katsuki's blasts and Deku's annoyingly powerful quirk.
"But even with that handicap-" Deku got closer behind him "-there's no way you can beat him, Kacchan!"
That was fucking enough.
Katsuki turned and swat at Deku's face with his gauntlet, Deku immediately falling to the ground, probably more out of surprise than anything.
"Stop talking, you coward." Katsuki hissed.
He was tired of Deku acting all big while still being scared little mouse, not even trying to physically stop Katsuki.
"If we wanna pass-" Deku's voice was trembling and Katsuki gave him a disgusted look "-you have to listen to what I'm saying!" He tried to raise his voice, but with how he was still on the ground, holding his cheek that Katsuki hit, it was just pathetic.
And he was the one to beat him during their first lesson with All Might!?
"YOU THINK I NEED YOUR STINKING POWER TO PASS?!" Katsuki fully turned to him. "FORGET IT!"
"STOP YELLING FOR ONCE!" Deku finally screamed back, which made Katsuki's eyes widen for a split second before his glare returned, because how fucking dared he!? "THIS IS WHY WE CAN NEVER ACTUALLY TALK-"
Powerful wind, that destroyed the street, almost knocked Katsuki off his feet and made Deku fall back to the ground, interrupted him, and All Might's loud voice reached them.
"GET READY TO HAVE A REALLY BAD TIME!" Behind the wall of smoke and dust, there was a tall, intimidating silhouette of All Might's. "WHO CARES ABOUT KEEPING THIS TOWN INTACT!?" His powerful figure emerged. "I'm a villain. So give me your best shot."
He really got into his role, huh? Katsuki sneered before Deku scrambled up to his feet and stood closer to him.
"We can't fight him head on, let's just run!" He pleaded while getting ready to actually run.
Pathetic.
"You're not my fucking boss!" Katsuki yelled as he ran towards All Might, who already rushed at the two of them, and immediately used is stun grenade against him.
Katsuki used the split second he had while the hero tried to regain his eyesight and was ready to jump at him, but before he could do anything, there was a giant hand on his face, blocking his sight and preventing him from breathing.
All Might sounded like he was still having fun, playing the villain, while Katsuki couldn't catch his breath. But between his freeze and fight responses, half choking, he managed to raise his hands and focus to start setting off hopefully powerful and precise enough explosions to hurt the pro.
Must have worked, because before Katsuki knew it, he was thrown onto the ground, the last bits of air in his lungs being violently knocked out of him.
As he choked on his own spit, he realized that All Might must have turned to look for Deku, since he didn't try to finish Katsuki for good.
Underestimating me, huh? Katsuki thought as he finally took a deep breath and managed to turn onto his stomach to stand up.
He saw All Might's back and without a second thought, he tried to jump at him, yet to his surprise, Deku jumped at the same moment, to escape, and they clashed, pathetically crashing onto the ground.
Ignoring the pain in his jaw, where Deku's head hit him, he stood up and started walking towards All Might again, who was just standing there, looking at them with slight worry.
What a fucking joke!
"You'll never win facing him head-on!" He heard Deku's yell behind him and his steps halted.
"I'll win." He said through gritted teeth. "That's..." Katsuki wasn't a villain with a dangerous quirk or a little student to be underestimated or Deku's sidekick. "What heroes do."
"Okay! Sure!" Deku grabbed him by the elbow. "But fighting here isn't-"
"Hands off me, you little-"
"IN THE MEANTIME!"
They both looked up, but before either of them could react, All Might already trapped Deku under a guardrail.
"A little gift for you!" He stood up and as Katsuki was about to jump away with explosion- "and for you!" All Might punched him in the guts, forcing him to throw up and knocking him several meters away.
Katsuki felt pathetic when he continued to throw up as he tried to prop himself up on his trembling arms. Even more when he tried to catch his breath and crawl away as All Might slowly approached him.
"Young Bakugou, this is about young Midoriya, right?" The hero spoke loudly, as if he wanted Deku to hear him too. "You see, there's no shame in using his advice! No matter how much power you have…"
Katsuki managed to stand up, even as he was swaying on his legs and holding onto his stomach.
"You need to accept the fact that you need his help to win this fight!"
All Might's words almost made him throw up again.
Katsuki always wanted to be a hero. Always wanted to surpass All Might, but it didn't mean fighting him. Because deep down he knew that he wouldn't be able to defeat the number one hero in a fight. At least not in his current state or at this level. And in the future, he could only surpass him by being a better hero.
He could only do so on his own.
But this-
"If you're saying…" His voice was hoarse and he barely stood his ground. "I gotta… rely on his help… Then…" Katsuki managed to look All Might into those distorted, black eyes. "I'd rather lose."
"... That so?" All Might took a step closer, his intimidating figure looming over Katsuki's weakened posture. "Well," hero raised his hand, ready to throw another punch, probably the final one. "As long as you have no regrets."
"Asshole-" Katsuki uttered before he felt a punch to his face and he flew a few metres away, yet to his surprise, he was still conscious.
"YOU'D RATHER LOSE!?"
Katsuki heard Deku's deafening scream and realised he was the one to punch him.
What the-
"THAT DOESN'T SOUND LIKE YOU!"
Before Katsuki knew what was happening, Deku grabbed him and quickly jumped away from equally shocked All Might, hiding the two of them in some alley and ignoring Katsuki's protests.
"Calm down!"
"FUCK YOU-"
"Whether we try to beat him or run away, I can't think of a single plan!" Deku continued to run as Katsuki finally shut his mouth, now even more surprised than before. "But if you don't want to use my help, then just use me, before you give up!" He finally stopped and put Katsuki down.
He still didn't feel like he could stand up, so he let Deku stare down at him, still too shocked to actually say anything.
"You're always so stubborn, why give up now!?" Deku actually yelled at him while staring him in the eyes. "You have no idea how much I hate you, but I also admire you! When are you gonna understand that?! If I were afraid of you, like you still probably think, I'd just run away, but I can't! Because I freaking respect you and I want to deserve the place I'll earn one day as the number one hero! Because despite everything you never gave up and if you do that now, who am I gonna surpass in the future!? I'm begging you, Kacchan! Just like always, don't give up!" Deku finally finished, panting slightly.
Katsuki stared at him for a few moments, dumbfounded and probably wasting their time but…
That fucker punched him.
That fucker was talking back to him.
That fucker wasn't trembling anymore.
That fucker… actually wasn't afraid of him.
Katsuki sneered as he slowly stood up.
As much as it stung his pride, as much as he didn't want to do that-
"Alright, Deku." He took off one of his gauntlets and handed it to surprised Deku. "Here's the fucking plan."
___
Katsuki grimaced from pain and slowly blinked his eyes open, squinting at the light in the infirmary.
"Fuck-" he hissed when he tried to move and felt his arms throbbing, probably still from that attack on All Might.
"Hey, don't move yet."
Katsuki stilled and his eyes went to the source of the quiet voice.
He'd recognize that shitty hairstyle anywhere.
"Kirishima?" His voice was hoarse and he realised how thirsty he was.
"Hold on." Kirishima picked up his backpack and pulled something out of it before he stood up and made to hand Katsuki bottle of water before he realised that Katsuki still couldn't really move. "Ah, do you need help-"
"I don't need your fucking help-" Katsuki bit his tongue. "Shit, I-"
"No, it's…" Kirishima sat back down with a little frown. "Alright.."
"It's fucking not…" Katsuki muttered, staring up at the ceiling. "I'm just tired." And done accepting help from anyone that day.
Even if it was Kirishima, no matter how usually he'd be the only person Katsuki would accept that help from.
So he propped himself up on an elbow, like a stubborn mule that he was, and grabbed the bottle just to down half of it in a few seconds. Then lay right back down, because losing consciousness from All Might's punch was actually a valid reason to just lie in bed for an hour or so, fucking sue him-
Wait.
"How long I've been here?" Katsuki raised his head with some difficulty.
Where was Recovery girl when he needed her?!
"Just an hour, don't worry, the teachers are still discussing the results and all that." Kirishima waved his hand with a smile while Katsuki realised something.
"Shit, the results-"
"You passed!" Kirishima quickly provided, stopping Katsuki from standing up. "I met with Midoriya after everything, you both passed." He smiled, but Katsuki still caught that little sting of disappointment.
"What about-"
"I'm not sure about Sero over here." He pointed somewhere and once Katsuki turned his head to the bed next to his, he saw Sero, sleeping with a strange smile on his face. "I guess he got kinda high on Midnight's quirk and then passed out, I didn't get to talk to Shinsou so… yeah…" Kirishima scratched the back of his head, avoiding eye contact.
"Whatever," Katsuki rolled his eyes, "what about you-"
"Can you tell me how'd it go with yours, though? Midoriya didn't say much." Kirishima cut in with something that was supposed to be a nonchalant shrug and Katsuki's eye twitched.
"I used Deku-" no way he'd admit to accepting his help "-and managed to blast All Might's face a few times before he fucking stepped on or punched me a few times more, I lost my gauntlets, fucked with my arms and then he knocked me out so I don't fucking know how I managed to fucking pass-"
"Ah, Midoriya said something about carrying you out?" Kirishima provided with way too amused smile that turned into a chuckle once Katsuki covered his face with one hand.
"Fucking shit…"
Well that was humiliating.
At least Katsuki saved this little turd's ass, not the other way around. Technically.
And he passed. In more than one way, but that wasn't important at the moment.
"... What about you?" Katsuki finally asked as he peeked through his fingers, in time to see Kirishima's face drop as he looked away, clearly ashamed of something.
"I failed. I…" His face turned into a grimace as he clenched his hands and Katsuki's stomach dropped. "I'm probably not allowed to go to the training camp…" He let out a pathetic chuckle. "Once again, I was too weak to do anything right.."
"No, shut up." Katsuki cut in, absolutely fed up with this self deprecating bullshit and Kirishima looked up at him, surprised, even more when Katsuki propped himself up on his elbows again, groaning from pain.
"What-"
"Kirishima, I literally passed out during my exam. Fucking Deku had to carry me out and after I fucking saved his ass-"
"Exactly!" This time it was Kirishima's turn to interrupt with a frown on his face. "You saved someone while I was there, stuck behind a wall that I couldn't tear down! I was too weak and my quirk was-"
"Did you think about giving up, even for a second?" Katsuki stared at him with the best glare he could manage in his state.
"What- no!" Kirishima's frown deepened. "Of course not! What kind of a-"
"What kind of a hero and a man you would be if you thought about giving up, fucking exactly." When Kirishima didn't answer, clearly baffled, Katsuki scoffed and, even though it took him embarrassingly long time, he sat up on the edge of the bed and continued with crossed arms. "You didn't think of giving up. You never do, whether it's a real villain attack, sports festival, a stupid exam or trying to befriend me of all people. You always try and try and try, until you either win or fail, but you don't give up." Katsuki put his hands on his knees and sighed deeply, steadying himself for the next part that he was not proud of.
Actually, he'd prefer to not share it, but it was just Kirishima.
And Sero, but upon checking, he was still knocked out cold, and Katsuki still had a damn point to make so fuck it-
"Meanwhile I was more than ready to fail this fucking exam just because I was paired up with Deku and didn't want his help."
Kirishima blinked, surprised. He seemed to be ready to say something, but Katsuki just raised his hand and that was enough to stop him.
"You're… You're a great hero material, Kirishima." He looked him in the eyes, trying his best to get rid of any sign of anger and annoyance that could have still lingered on his face. "Just because you failed one stupid exam during your first year of high school, doesn't mean you'll fail your entire hero career."
"Bakugou…" Kirishima's voice was quiet, as if he was afraid of ruining the moment, he made to stand up, but Katsuki had one more thing to say.
"If you refuse to go down, it means you're stupidly strong." With that, he was done.
And now Katsuki wasn't sure if he was expecting an answer from Kirishima, in all honesty he didn't plan on giving him that kind of speech, but it all just came out of his mouth before he could really think about it.
Katsuki just couldn't let someone he cared so deeply about berate himself.
"Shit…" Kirishima sighed as he hid his face in his hands. "How do you always know what to say…" He muttered with a smile in his voice. "How did you never befriend anyone before?"
Did he seriously just ask that?!
"Kirishima, you dick, you're the one who befriended me."
Their eyes met, Kirishima's slightly widened.
"What? But I-"
"I don't know what made you decide to try and become my friend, but…" Katsuki sighed. "But you didn't give up on that too until you've succeeded."
"I've succeeded…" A little smile appeared on his face, eyes full of hope and something Katsuki couldn't figure out, he just knew he couldn't bear looking at that face, especially considering what he was about to say, so he looked down at his hands.
"... You're my best friend, Kirishima." Once the words were out, he realized he's never had a chance to say that to anyone before. It somehow stung, but not because Kirishima was his first real friend.
It stung because he was only a friend.
At least, Katsuki could have that. As long as he had Kirishima by his side, that was more than enough, no matter how much it hurt.
As Kirishima stayed silent, Katsuki gathered the courage to look back at him, and when he did, his breath got knocked out of his lungs.
Kirishima was smiling at him, tears slowly falling from his eyes and Katsuki didn't know what to do but stare at that beautiful, honest smile, just for him. Then, Kirishima stood up and walked up to him so that Katsuki had to slightly tilt up his chin. His eyes widened when Kirishima spread his arms, still smiling, still crying.
"May I?" He asked, voice soft and wet.
Katsuki just nodded, raising his arms, and then he was embraced by Kirishima's warm body, arms under his own and hands between shoulder blades and in the middle of his back, squeezing him but not to the point of it being uncomfortable. To be honest, this was way better than those side hugs when Kirishima only put an arm over his shoulders.
So so much better.
He swallowed when Kirishima hid his face in the crook of his neck, then Katsuki decided to make a move as well. Carefully, as to not startle him, he wrapped his arms around Kirishima's neck and took a deep breath.
Was anyone supposed to smell that good?
Was it strange or creepy that he thought so?
At least Kirishima was already wearing his uniform and Katsuki didn't have to worry about skin to skin contact…
Katsuki felt Kirishima nuzzle into his neck, and he just answered by squeezing a bit more, hoping that he wouldn't strangle him.
… Was he taking advantage of Kirishima at that moment? It was him who initiated that hug, but he had no idea about Katsuki's feelings towards him. Would he stop touching him at all if he knew?
Somehow that thought hurt more than any injury All Might has left on his body that day.
All the hurt disappeared quickly when he felt Kirishima's hand slowly stroke his back.
Fuck, did he want to stay like that for as long as he could...
"Shit-"
They heard and Katsuki immediately pulled away, his eyes darting to the now open door where a guy in sports uniform and wild purple hair stood.
How the hell did he not hear him enter!?
"I uh-" he took a step back, avoiding eye contact. "Shit."
"Ah, sorry we just-" Kirishima stepped back, taking away all of that warmth Katsuki was craving so much. "Uh- Shinsou! Good job out there!" He laughed awkwardly, face red.
Shinsou, huh?
"Yeah, I-" he coughed, looking between them. "Did I interrupt something-"
"Not at all!" Kirishima quickly provided while Katsuki glared at that Shinsou guy.
"I just wanted to check on Sero, but since he's still asleep-" he took another step back, now out in the corridor.
"Yep! Still out cold!" Kirishima laughed again. Katsuki honestly forgot about him even being there in the first place. "But uhh, could you get Recovery girl? For Bakugou!" He pointed at Katsuki, as if there was another Bakugou in the room. "Since he's awake!" He added, like it wasn't already obvious.
"Yeah, sure…" Shinsou muttered in a tone that clearly indicated he did not want to do that and Katsuki scoffed.
Finally, Shinsou made to leave, and just when Katsuki hoped he maybe had a chance of another hug from Kirishima, he turned back and looked Katsuki right in the eyes.
"... The fuck do you want?" Katsuki asked with a glare, Shinsou's eyes squinting in annoyance for a split second just for him to sigh.
"I know, I deserve this." He said suddenly, looking to the side.
What.
With confusion, Katsuki glanced at Kirishima who gave him a nod and a pointed look.
Ah, so they met before?
"Listen, what I did after the sports festival…"
Katsuki had to bite his tongue to stop himself from asking just what the fuck did this guy do, but he knew that Kirishima was going to explain later.
At least he hoped so.
"I know it was fucked up, but I just couldn't stand you going at Midoriya like that…" He finally looked back at Katsuki. "Still, I'm sorry and-" he glanced at Kirishima then quickly back at Katsuki. "Thank you, I guess, for not telling any of the teachers…" Shinsou muttered at the end, clearly uncomfortable, then anxiously waited for Katsuki's answer.
It would be way fucking easier to provide one if he knew what he was apologising for in the first place, but just a few minutes ago he was convinced that he's never seen the guy before today.
"Fucking whatever, asshole." Katsuki settled on and heard Kirishima's very quiet, yet clearly relieved sigh. "Just don't fucking talk about this shit again."
"... Sure." Shinsou frowned slightly, yet his posture seemingly relaxed. "I… I'll go get Recovery girl." And finally, he left, closing the door behind him.
"What the fuck!?" Katsuki immediately turned to Kirishima who jumped at the sudden loud volume and a smack on his shoulder.
They both turned to check on Sero who must have been in Midnight's grasp for longer than any of them before, because he was still passed out.
Still, Kirishima spoke in a hushed tone;
"I'll explain, just please don't run out after him, okay?" He begged with his eyes and Katsuki cursed under his breath, realising just how fucking well those big eyes worked on him.
"Fucking fine." Katsuki crossed his arms and listened to Kirishima's hurried explanations.
And the longer he listened, the more pissed off he was, his teeth clenched and whole posture tense from anger.
So because of that asshole, Shinsou, Kirishima finally decided to investigate back then, but at least, from the entire story, it was obvious that Shinsou didn't know about Katsuki's condition.
And then there was the problem of Katsuki technically apologising to Deku.
Which was more humiliating than him accepting his fucking help today.
At least, apparently no one else knew about this.
Katsuki took a deep breath and held it for a few moments. He promised Kirishima not to run out after this guy.
Not to mention that in a state he was in, his arms and entire body still throbbing from pain, even a guy from general studies course would fucking beat him down.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner, I just…" Kirishima fiddled with his fingers. "I guess I never found the right moment…"
Katsuki was angry. He had a right to be but…
Looking at the bright side… They finally became friends because of that fucked up situation.
And he technically just forgave this guy, so there was no sense going after him now since he'd have to explain how he didn't even realise that they've met before.
The only thing left for Katsuki was to swallow his pride and fucking…
"It's fine…" He muttered, not looking at Kirishima.
"... Are you sure?" Kirishima asked quietly. He kept his distance, even if Katsuki noticed that he wanted to put a hand on his shoulder in the first second.
Was he sure, though?
He might have been biased but…
"I'm sure." He nodded and gave Kirishima a smirk.
Damn, just a few months ago he'd go and hunt down the guy anyway.
But when he looked at Kirishima, who just gave him a warm smile, somehow that was enough to soothe any leftover anger that Katsuki felt at that moment.
___
Relief flooded Katsuki when Aizawa announced that those who failed the practical exam still could go to the camp, then wild satisfaction when he heard that everyone cleared the written exams.
This meant the people he somehow tolerated were all going to be there.
That Kirishima was going to be there, even if he'd have to spend some time at those supplemental lessons.
Katsuki had to lean on his hand to hide his stupid smile.
"Here are your camp manuals, take one and pass them back." Aizawa handed the sheets to each person in the first row and went back to his desk. "And here-" he raised one of the several papers from the stack lying on it "-are your written exams results. If you want to know your exact points, suit yourselves." After that, he went to a corner and wrapped himself in his sleeping bag.
Before anyone could react, their class rep stood up and walked up to the desk to personally hand out everyone their results, not that Katsuki needed to see his, considering how it went so far with his exams, he probably maintained his number three rank.
Now, he was way more interested in Kirishima's results.
Katsuki looked over his shoulder and watched how Kirishima, with eyes closed, braced himself to look at the paper in his hands. Taking a deep breath, he cracked one eye open and as he read, he opened both of his eyes that widened more and more as he hunched over the paper before suddenly straightening up in his seat, eyes locked on something in front of him.
But then, Katsuki saw tears well up in his eyes.
What the fuck, Aizawa said all of them passed-
Kirishima turned to him, a wide smile on his face and Katsuki's heart swelled.
Oh?
The entire class started talking loudly, he noticed that others were walking around, showing each other their results, but Katsuki and Kirishima just continued to stare at each other.
Kirishima still smiling warmly, with so much gratitude and happiness, Katsuki wondered just how good he did, but also found himself not caring if it meant he could keep looking back at those beautiful eyes he wished he could recall at any living second.
But then Kirishima stood up and Katsuki, on reflex, rose to his feet as well, but while Kirishima quickly made his way towards him, he found himself frozen in place.
Before he knew it, Kirishima was embracing him, arms around his waist and back, chin on his shoulder. With the general chaos in the classroom, no one seemed to notice, especially that Kirishima pulled away before Katsuki could even react, besides staring at him wide-eyed, lips parted slightly and something like an electric shock going through his body.
"Bakugou, I've never had over 80 points average!" He said loudly, pushing the paper into Katsuki's hands, completely oblivious to his current state.
Katsuki mentally slapped himself and barely stopped any explosions from going off as he held up the paper close to his face, mostly to cover a blush he was more than sure was there.
He looked over Kirishima's results, at first focusing on the subjects he had helped him with and then the others Kirishima didn't need this help, all summed up to 83/100 total.
Katsuki almost smiled up at him, but his mind went blank when Kirishima grabbed his wrist and moved it so that the paper was out of the way.
"Thank you so much!" Kirishima, still oblivious to everything, held onto Katsuki's wrist, his skin tingling and heart squeezing.
Was he really not aware of what he was doing?!
"Kiri! I've got 76!"
Katsuki needed a second to recognize the voice and the girl behind it who jumped at Kirishima's back.
Ashido and Kaminari joined them.
"83!" Kirishima let go of Katsuki's wrist to wrap his arms around Ashido and hug her tightly as she laughed triumphantly.
"76 as well!" Kaminari announced and squeezed in between Ashido and Kirishima, they both seemingly having no issues with letting him in.
"And we're all going to the camp!" Sero appeared out of nowhere, clear relief on his face, and used his long arms to wrap all three of them in a tight hug.
And Katsuki realised that the hugging wasn't just for him.
Kirishima liked hugging all of his friends if his honest smile was anything to go by.
"Bakugou, come on!" Kaminari reached out to him and Katsuki took a step back, causing him to roll his eyes in more of an amusement than irritation. "Embrace the magic of friendship, dude!"
"Fuck off, we're not friends." Katsuki felt a sting in his stomach as soon as the words left his lips, especially when all of their enthusiasm faltered for a short second before Kirishima, because of course it would be Kirishima, laughed and stepped away from their group hug to put a hand on Katsuki's shoulder and squeezed lightly.
"Just admit that you're proud of us!"
No, just proud of you. Katsuki thought.
Even if he was indeed happy for those idiots, he only helped Kirishima.
Kirishima was his responsibility when it came to those damn exams and now he could honestly say that he was proud of him.
Just not in front of the others.
So Katsuki rolled his shoulder, forcing Kirishima to let go, and sat down at his desk, pretending to check his paper he had no actual interest in.
"Next time we're aiming for 97 total." Katsuki announced as he glanced at his own 98 points.
He kept his rank, good.
"Eh-"
"Don't eh me, Shitty hair." Katsuki frowned up at him, almost smirking at his shocked expression and then at the rest of their little squad listening with amusement. "You're getting number four rank in our class, even if it kills me."
"But-" Kirishima gawked at him. "It'll take me my entire life to get to that level!"
"Then I'll fucking tutor you for our entire lives." It was supposed to be a threat of some sort, but Katsuki's eye twitched when Kaminari snickered behind stunned Kirishima. "The fuck's your problem?"
"It sounds like a very roundabout way to propose, dude." He chuckled with a smirk while Sero rolled his eyes and Ashido's eyes widened, it seemed like she wasn't sure how to react as her eyes jumped between him, Kirishima and Kaminari.
As for Katsuki, his breath hitched for a moment before he stood up, trying to fight off a blush.
"What the fuck are you even talking about, you-"
"Dude! Come on!" Kirishima jumped in between him and Kaminari, just before Katsuki released any explosions, and laughed in a way that definitely was fake. "Don't joke like that!" He nudged Kaminari who only whispered short 'oh shit' before turning to Katsuki.
"Sorry! Just a stupid joke!" He scratched the back of his neck while Ashido smacked him on the head, but the only reaction she got was a whine. "I knooooow, I'm sorry!" This time he looked directly at Kirishima for some reason, yet Katsuki didn't have time to question it-
"Hey, since we're off tomorrow, maybe we'll all go shopping together? Class A!"
Katsuki turned and saw- nothing. And then the floating uniform and realised it was the fucking invisible girl.
"Oh, good idea!" Someone else provided but Katsuki was busy wondering what the fuck this was about-
"Right, the camp manuals!" Ashido perked up. "We were basically given a shopping list!" She snatched Katsuki's copy from his desk and glanced over it. "Great idea, Toru-chan!"
In a few seconds, most of the class declared that they were willing to go, as if no one had anything better to do on a day off.
"Bakugou, you should come too!" Kirishima nudged him with his elbow and smiled at him.
"Whatever, not like I'm fucking busy." Katsuki muttered and Kirishima let out a triumphant cheer before Katsuki realised what he had just agreed to.
What has love done to him?
___
Kiyashi ward.
Probably the biggest fucking shopping centre in the entire prefecture, full of extras that made it look like one of the smallest ones with how cramped it was in there.
And still, there was Katsuki. Waiting for Kirishima to approach him first in a few minutes so they could join the rest of their classmates.
Fuck, why did he agree to this, he didn't even had anything to buy!
"Ohhh, the winner from UA!" Someone whispered behind him and Katsuki shot some girls a glare over his shoulder.
How people still remembered that shit, he had no idea, because he for sure wanted to forget, yet all he was left with was hope that people just remembered that he won, not the entire muzzling and 'toying' with 'poor Uraraka'.
Katsuki scoffed as he leaned against a column with his arms crossed.
"Wow, Bakugou Katsuki, amazing!"
Unimpressed, he glanced at a guy in a black hoodie, hands in the pockets of it. Katsuki couldn't see his entire face from behind the hood, only his lips that looked like they've never even heard of a chapstick.
Then Katsuki's attention brought the guy's stupid red shoes that immediately made him think about Deku.
"Congratulations with the festival! You've shown everyone what a powerful hero you'll become some day!" He continued with way too enthusiastic voice, even when Katsuki tried to ignore him.
Where the fuck was Kirishima-
"Although…" His tone changed to quieter and somehow ominous one as he took a step closer, Katsuki stepping away from the column and shooting him a glare he wasn't sure if the guy could even see from behind the bangs of his dirty looking light blue hair. "Some would say that you're more of a villain material…" He muttered, and just as Katsuki's eyes widened and anger rose in him, he heard a familiar voice.
"Bakugou!"
Katsuki peered over his shoulder and quickly spotted the characteristic red hair, but when he wanted to look back at the guy-
He was already gone.
What the fuck was that?
"Bakugou?" Kirishima stood next to him. "Something's wrong?"
Katsuki looked between him and the crowd, trying to pinpoint that black hoodie but it was nowhere to be seen.
"No just… just some asshole being a dick." Katsuki muttered as he crossed his arms.
"Wow, that's a specific description." Kirishima chuckled and avoided Katsuki's elbow that tried to go for his ribs. "Everyone else should be already here so…" He tilted his head towards the larger crowd and Katsuki sighed deeply, psyching himself up for all the distorted faces that were to come throughout the entire day.
___
Villain attack.
Of course.
Where UA students were, there must have been a villain attack and just within eight fucking minutes since they got there and Katsuki managed to get rid of all the other people to be with Kirishima alone.
No one knew any details, but apparently it was one villain that caused all the panic and the whole centre got shut down as civilians were slowly released.
Then Katsuki found out that Deku was in the middle of this and he just got pissed off even more, because why anyone else would get a villain's attention?
… Well, true, Katsuki rather not be the target of that attention, but still, maybe he'd have a chance to further show everyone how good of a hero material he was if he were to be a target but managed to deal with them with no damage or help.
But then his anger doubled again when the police advised everyone to go back homes.
So this was a waste of fucking time.
But if it wasn't for him going home earlier than planned, he wouldn't have caught his mother red handed in the middle of opening a letter that was addressed to him, which only caused another argument and ended with him storming off to the bathroom to take a long shower he fucking deserved.
___
Katsuki stared at the half opened letter addressed to him as he sat on his bed and couldn't help but wonder for a second if Best Jeanist finally constructed an answer to his less than nice email, and if he decided to straight up sue Katsuki for it.
He snorted as he opened the letter then gawked at the invitation to fucking I-island and early access to the I-Expo.
"Holy fuck, what the-" Katsuki whispered to himself as he read the letter attached to the invitation.
It was an award for winning that damn sports festival so he wasn't even sure if he wanted to accept it. He refused the medal, threw it away and wasn't even sure where it currently was, then why would he accept this part of the award?
Sure, it was the world-class exposition and great opportunity to show off his skills in a fair way, instead of whatever his fight against Half face was. Maybe even meet some heroes during the formal event. Damn, he would even have a room in a fancy hotel, so maybe this whole trip wouldn't be that big of a disaster?
But there was just one problem.
A plus one.
… Would it be strange of him to arrive alone?
Would they judge him there?
With what happened at the shopping centre today, people still remembered the sports festival perfectly well, they wanted to remember him as hostile and arriving completely alone…
Would it look like he was completely alienated from everyone?
Besides… did he even want to be alone in a place full of strangers?
"Katsuki!" His mother barged in through the door. "I've been yelling for you to come down and-" her eyes fell on the envelope and the invitation in his hands and she frowned. "Will you finally show me what this is?"
"No." Katsuki frowned back at her. He still didn't want to talk to her, especially when it came to school or explaining to her what he was holding.
"Give it to me." She walked up to him, hand extended expectantly.
Katsuki just glared at her as he put the invitation and the letter at his side, far from her.
"Katsuki." Her tone was cold. "Don't make me repeat myself, I am not leaving until you show me what this is."
For fuck's sake.
Alright, what was the worst that could fucking happen?
With as little amount of want as he could manage, he slowly handed her the invitation which she snatched from his hand and read quickly.
Then horror grew in him when he saw her smile.
"Wonderful! I'm coming with you!" Without giving him the invitation back, she turned and walked up to the door.
"No!" Katsuki jumped off the bed.
"It's not like you have anyone to go with." She peered at him over her shoulder with a tilted eyebrow, her words almost making him shut up completely, but then Katsuki came up with a solution.
"I already-" his voice cracked and he cleared his throat "-I already invited… Kirishima." He uttered through clenched teeth.
Fuck, did he hope Kirishima would actually agree to go with him…
Her eyes widened, unimpressed look replaced with surprise before she fully turned to him and then smiled in a way Katsuki hasn't seen in weeks.
"Oh, right! Eijirou-kun!" Her tone changed to this sweet one that Katsuki could bet was fake. "You two are still friends, how lovely!" His little lie must have worked, as she handed him back the invitation. "He should spend the night here so I can drive you two to the airport the next day!" She clasped her hands together and waited for Katsuki's answer.
Just go away so he can actually fucking ask!
"This is… still up for debate." He muttered, avoiding eye contact. No way was he going to invite Kirishima to spend the night in this fucking place.
"Nonsense, your friend is more than welcome here!" With that, she patted him on the head and finally left.
Katsuki released his breath and crouched on the floor.
Fucking shit, he couldn't believe that this worked! And the way her attitude changed 180 degrees as soon as he mentioned Kirishima…
With a worried look, he glanced over to where his phone was lying on the desk.
Would Kirishima even agree?
This was the best exposition in the whole country, if not the entire world. He'd have to be an idiot to refuse…
Without a second thought, Katsuki stood up and walked up to his desk to snatch his phone up.
For a moment he pondered about calling him, but then came to the conclusion that he wouldn't be able to invite him with his awkward and nervous voice, so instead he just texted Kirishima.
Bakugou: Are you busy during the first week of summer break?
Kirishima: Hello to you too!! ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ
Kirishima: My ma has all three weeks packed while mom couldn't really take the first week off, so we're spending the second one together before the summer camp
Bakugou: I didn't ask for your entire schedule
Kirishima: Right! Haha, I don't think so? I was just going to chill I guess! :'D
Kirishima: Why? Do you wanna hang out? Another sleepover maybe? ;3c
Kirishima: cjksnxksjfj I'm just joking
Bakugou: Actually, yeah
Kirishima: wh
Kirishima: WA I T REALLY???
Bakugou: I mean, it's more like.. fuck
Bakugou: just fucking look at this, okay??
Katsuki took a picture of the invitation and the letter then sent it to Kirishima, his guts clenching because technically Kirishima was the one to offer a meet up first, right? Right?
But there was a fucking difference between random hanging out and spending almost three entire days together.
Kirishima: You
Kirishima: You want me as your plus one? At I-island? For the whole thing?? To that formal event too??? For real??????
Bakugou: I don't want to go to that stupid event but otherwise would I fucking offer??
Kirishima: No, of course not, I know you're not the type to joke like that but… wow
Kirishima: Wow.
Bakugou: Ffs do you want to come with me or not?
Kirishima: Holy shit, of course I want to!
Katsuki took a deep breath before he slowly answered with shaking fingers.
Bakugou: Fucking great. I'll call you later to talk about the details, I'm busy right now.
Kirishima: Okay! Wow. Holy shit, thank you so much, Bakugou! <3
Katsuki's heart swelled at that stupid little emoji and he threw his phone onto the bed as he curled in on himself on the floor beside his desk.
He actually invited Kirishima to spend with him those three days on I-island with no stupid classmates. Just the two of them. They were probably going to share a room.
An embarrassing giggle escaped his lips.
"Holy shit, calm down, idiot." Katsuki covered his face as stupid smile spread on it.
How the hell the thought of being with someone alone for that long could make him that damn happy!?
This was either going to end amazingly or really fucking poorly.
Katsuki decided to ignore any worst case scenarios and continued to freak out in his room like a love struck idiot that he could openly be only while locked alone in his room.
Fuck, he couldn't wait.
___
Holding his breath, Eijirou put his phone down and walked up to his bed to pick up a pillow, then buried his face in it and screamed into it for a few seconds.
"HOLY SHIT!" He yelled after he pulled away to take a deep breath, tearing up the pillow as his hands hardened.
Bakugou invited me as his plus one.
He turned to his punching bag and hit it several times, barely containing more screams and keeping his hands soft.
Bakugou invited me as his plus one.
Eijirou grabbed the bag and smacked his forehead against it.
Bakugou invited me as his plus one.
From his desk, he picked up the red shark pencil case that he got from the arcade.
"Bakugou invited me as his plus one." He whispered while staring into its little eyes and smooched its nose.
Then there were definitely tears in his eyes when he picked up his phone again, just to make sure he didn't hallucinate the whole conversation, and once he checked and it was still here, Bakugou asking, the picture of the invitation, everything-
"HOLY FUCKING SHIT!!!"
"Eijirou, language!"
He turned his head towards his door where his mom's voice came from the outside and he rushed to open it.
"MOM!"
"I wasn't spying on you, I was going back from the bathroom-"
"DOESN'T MATTER!" Eijirou cut in, making her blink at him with surprise. "YOU KNOW HOW YESTERDAY WAS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!?"
"Please stop screaming, baby." She patted his head.
"Sorry!" He still said loudly, even as he tried to contain his voice, his body was practically vibrating at this point at which his mom chuckled.
"What got you so excited?"
"I've peaked." Was all he managed to say.
"What?" She blinked at him again, with more confusion, eyes widening when he grabbed her shoulders.
"Yesterday was the best day and now I'm even happier which means it only goes downhill from here and-"
"Okay, breathe baby, and honestly you're lucky we have the same quirk, otherwise-" she glanced at his hardened hands on her shoulders where she activated her quirk as well.
"Sorry!" Eijirou quickly let go, turning red.
"Is going to the camp really that exciting?" She smiled as she released her quirk and put her hands on her hips.
"There's been a development!" He quickly provided, jumping in place and she just tilted her head with curiosity, yet with clear amusement at his excitement. "BAKUGOU INVITED ME TO I-ISLAND!!!" Eijirou just couldn't contain his voice anymore.
This was real, he was going and-
His mom stared at him, baffled.
"With others or…"
"NO, JUST ME AS HIS PLUS. ONE." He ran back into his room to grab his phone and shoved it into her hands. "Look!"
She read the messages he exchanged with Bakugou just a few minutes ago and once she looked back at him, her eyes were sparkling with excitement.
"Eijirou, you've been talking about him for weeks and I don't care what this boy says-" she grabbed his wrist and dragged him along as she made her way through the corridor, clearly heading towards the door out of their apartment. "I'm getting you both the new suits, you are taking him to that formal party and you're wooing him there and I'm getting a son-in-law." She stated as she grabbed her shoes while Eijirou was way too excited to be embarrassed about her words.
"Excuse me!"
They both froze at his ma's voice and slowly turned to her.
"What is it about new suits and a son-in-law?" She stood in the middle of the corridor with her arms crossed.
"Uh-" Eijirou glanced at his mom who already had one shoe on and decided to calmly explain everything to his mama.
"... Iwachan."
"... Yes, my dearest darling?" She smiled sweetly, leaning awkwardly against a wall.
Ma just took a deep breath, walked up to her and took her hands into hers.
"Can you please use your brain and remember that; One: you two have terrible fashion tastes and I will not let you go out alone and get those suits, and two: you don't have Katsu-chan's measurements." She stated as she squeezed mom's hands and Eijirou realised how right she actually was.
"... Eijirou." Mom suddenly turned to him, surprising both of them.
"Y-yes?"
"Do you know which company made Bakugou-kun's costume?" She had that serious look that sometimes lingered on her face when she'd come back from work.
"... Yes." Eijirou admitted, hoping that neither of them would ask why he knew that.
"Great, I'm going to get a warrant, call them and they'll have to give me his measurements-"
"Oh my God, Iwachan!" Ma raised her voice, shaking his mom's hands. "This isn't going to work!"
"Give me five minutes." She pulled away her hands and ran wherever she left her phone, leaving Eijirou alone with his mama.
"So uh…"
"Eichan, you do realise you don't need to take him to that event to woo him, right?" She asked with tilted eyebrow. "Besides, from what you said today, and for the last few weeks about him, I'm sure he's already wooed." She winked and Eijirou felt his face heat up.
"No, it's… He only sees me as a friend…" He chuckled weakly.
Sure, Bakugou invited him, but maybe it was because he had to bring someone?
Ma held his face in her hands.
"You're not in his head, maybe he invited you because he genuinely wanted to spend that time with you?" She smiled, even more so when Eijirou giggled from that thought.
Of Bakugou actually wanting him there as his plus one.
As his partner.
"Yeah, who knows what he-"
"I'VE GOT THEM!" Mom rushed to them and waved a piece of paper with some numbers written on it in front of their faces.
"... WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU'VE GOT THEM?!" Ma screamed after a few moments of shocked silence.
But Eijirou was busy staring at the numbers and thinking how slim Bakugou's waist and hips were.
"Holy shit." He whispered to himself.
"I know, I'm great." Although, lucky for him, his mom mistook it for amazement at her actually getting those.
"What the-" ma grabbed the note and stared at it in shock. "HOW?!"
"I just introduced myself, said it's for the formal event at I-island and they gave those to me, didn't even need a warrant or to pull out my detective Kirishima card, so WE'RE GOING SHOPPING, BABY!" With that, she put on her other shoe and grabbed her purse while ma still stared at her.
"How..." Even though she still seemed to be in a state of shock, she put on her shoes and jacket. "I love you so much, what the hell..."
Eijirou didn't even try to hide his amusement at this point and let himself be dragged out of the apartment and into the car.
Those next few days of waiting for the trip were going to be a torture, but something was telling him that this will be worth everything.
Notes:
There's no ShinSero, I just needed to replace m*neta with SOMEONE jdrfgesjkhreg
If anyone wants to complain about me cutting the All Might exam in half, just a gentle reminder that I’m writing this for free and for fun and this arc is boring so I just didn’t :v Besides, the most important thing (Deku not actually being scared of Katsuki) got resolved so there was really no need to write the second half of this fight l m a o
Anyway, the next two chapters are almost free of angst it's just... Boys being frustratingly in love with each other while being oblivious to all signals.
Also as I'm posting this chapter I'm working on my homework at the same time, jesus christ I hate going to uni.
The chapter was available around a week ago somewhere you can find the link to on my tumblr :')
I hope y'all had wonderful holidays! Bye for now, I love you, guys <3
Up next; The KrBk Movie
Chapter 29: So close
Summary:
There needs to be some angst, otherwise I will die
Notes:
Me: I'll fit the whole movie in just one chapter!
Also me: -writes 11.6k of non-canon interactions and is forced to split the movie into two chapters-
Me: ... welp, no one will complain
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
"They need our school IDs for the entry inspection so send me a picture of yours and I'll forward it." Katsuki spoke as he packed his clothes.
"Anything else?" Kirishima asked, his voice coming from the phone's speaker.
"Just remember to pack your toothbrush." Katsuki snorted, grabbed his phone from the floor and turned off the speaker as he headed to the bathroom.
"Dude!" Kirishima yelled into his ear and Katsuki frowned, slightly pulling away. "I need to take two of them because of my teeth! It would be a nightmare if I forgot even one!"
Katsuki just hummed with slight amusement as he looked for his eyeliner and wondered who the fuck dared to misplace it.
"Besides, I still have the entirety of tomorrow to pack, what's the rush?"
"Ooh, what's the rush!" Katsuki mocked as he crouched down and reached for the lowest drawer.
"I do not sound like that!" Despite slight annoyance in his voice, Kirishima still laughed, which caused Katsuki to smile to himself since this was his goal in the first place.
"The rush-" he finally found his eyeliner in the drawer and made to leave the bathroom but his eyes fell on the hair gel that Kirishima gave him after their internships, somehow forgotten in the same drawer.
He grabbed it and stared at it, fully aware that he should have given it back when he didn't need it anymore, but at this point it was almost all out, since each time Katsuki used way more than required.
Maybe he could just buy a new one? Although Kirishima did say it was a gift or whatever…
"Bakugou? You still there?" Kirishima's voice brought him back to Earth and Katsuki remembered what he was going to say.
"The rush is that this way you don't forget anything. You can always check the next day instead of rushing through shit the same morning we leave." He explained as he stood up and decided to bring the gel with him, because maybe, just maybe, it would be of some use.
Kirishima groaned.
"I'm right and you know it." Stepping out of the bathroom, Katsuki found himself face to face with his mother. She opened her mouth to say something, but he just frowned, pointed at his phone and rushed back to his room, slamming the door behind him. "So you better get to fucking work." He finished and stood near his almost fully packed suitcase which was custom made for him, with a big orange 'X' on top of it and dark green accents on the sides.
"Alright then." Kirishima sighed. Katsuki heard him stand up. "I'll talk to you later!" There was a smile in his voice and Katsuki had to bite back one of his own at the thought of speaking with that idiot later again.
"Whatever." He spoke quickly with faked indifference and hung up as soon as Kirishima said his goodbyes.
Katsuki glanced at the calendar on his desk with a circled date when he was going to leave with Kirishima for the I-Island and smiled to himself, unusual happiness filling him.
2 days.
___
After Bakugou hung up, Eijirou stared at his phone for a few moments, hopeless smile on his face that only got bigger when he glanced up at the two suits hanging on the door of his wardrobe. He almost couldn't believe how fast they got made and how elegant they were. Eijirou really hoped that Bakugou would be actually willing to wear his, with the white roses embroidered onto the vest. Honestly, he wasn't surprised when his mom suggested them, he's been eyeing the pattern almost from the moment they entered the store, but he was definitely taken aback when his mama approved.
Not that Eijirou was going to complain, he couldn't wait to see Bakugou in that suit, but for now, he just had to put both of them in a separate suitcase, just to be sure they wouldn't get crumpled.
Once he carefully put them in his red suitcase, he made to get the second one, for his clothes and everything, but the signal of an incoming message had him quickly check his phone, thoughts immediately filled with hope that it was Bakugou.
But it was their class' group chat.
Eijirou chuckled at his reaction and tapped the notification to see the messages.
Toru: Is anyone else going to I-island for I-expo? OvO besides Mina-chan and Tsuyu-chan, we're going together <3
Tsuyu: It'll be fun!
Mina: AHHHH I CAN'T WAIT
Jirou: Ochako-chan and me, we're going with Yaomomo, tho you knew that already hah
Kaminari: YOOOO I'M GONNA WORK IN ONE OF THE CAFES HERE
Mina: BROOOOO (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ
Kaminari: SISSSSS (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ
Tsuyu: That's admirable, Kaminari-chan!
Kaminari: aw, thank you :'>
Shouji: Tokoyami and I are coming as well.
Satou: Gonna be here too!
Sero: yeeeee, same here
Ojirou: seems like it's going to be a class gathering!
Todoroki: Ah, at least there are going to be some friendly faces.
Yaomomo: That's right! Todoroki-san, you have an invitation to the opening party as well, right?
Todoroki: Old bastard insisted on me going. Honestly that's better than spending time with him.
Ochako: Does anyone know if Deku-kun's coming?
Todoroki: No idea
Ochako: Hm, he's not online..
The conversation continued on, with no one really noticing the lack of an answer from him or Bakugou, although Eijirou would be lying if he'd say that he didn't wonder why Bakugou wasn't answering, wasn't even reading the messages.
Eijirou didn't need long to realise that Bakugou probably silenced the chat and didn't care to check on it every once in a while. Maybe that was for the best, this way he didn't know that their classmates were going to be there as well. Especially since it seemed like several people were coming earlier, for the formal party; Yaomomo, Todoroki, Jirou, Uraraka… maybe even more and Eijirou didn't know just yet?
How would Bakugou feel about all this?
Did he hope, just like Eijirou, that they would spend those three days alone?
Would he feel the same sting of disappointment?
Eijirou frowned at himself. At his thoughts.
No, this wasn't right. He wasn't disappointed. Eijirou adored his friends, all of them, and was genuinely excited to spend some time with them on the island, outside school, but the thing was that he loved Bakugou and maybe just hoped-
He gasped, eyes widening at the thought.
Love?
He… loved Bakugou?
Eijirou's shoulders slumped down a bit, his phone almost falling to the ground.
Love?
One time before, Eijirou told himself that he was in love with Keiichi, just for this love to turn into resentment and he didn't want the same to happen with Bakugou.
His eyebrows knitted together, he bit down on his lower lip, teeth puncturing the delicate skin, but not enough to draw any blood.
Eijirou could honestly admit that it was love that he felt towards Bakugou, but he was just… scared. Scared that Bakugou would use that feeling against him. Scared that he'd grow to hate him one day for that. Scared that they would never speak to each other, their relationship scarred forever. Scared that-
Shaking his head, Eijirou took a deep breath.
"No spiralling." He told himself and tried to feel out if there was any blood on his sore lips, signing in relief when he didn't taste any.
Eijirou glanced down at his phone, his friends still excitedly exchanging messages, and smiled as he decided that, for now, he wouldn't tell anyone.
Truly, he loved his friends, he'd do anything for them and he loved spending time with them, but just this once, Eijirou wanted to be selfish and spend as much time with Bakugou as he could get. He was fully aware that even though the island was big, they would still run into each other at some point, but that didn't mean he had to actively seek out all his friends. At least not before the I-Expo would officially start.
Before that, he and Bakugou were going to have at least a day and a half, just for each other.
And for the time being, Bakugou didn't need to know about their entire class coming to the I-Island.
___
Katsuki paid the taxi driver, grabbed his suitcase and backpack and quickly stepped out of the car, just to find himself in front of the huge airport. Most definitely with a huge crowd inside. Tightening the grip on the suitcase, he took a deep breath as he told himself that it all would be worth it.
3 days just with Kirishima. He had to bite back a smile and then decided to wait inside until Kirishima would arrive.
Before going through the entrance, Katsuki remembered about his gloves, that were more like mittens, specifically designed so that it was impossible for his explosions to go off. They made it hard for him to grab stuff or use his phone, but it was that or taking quirk nullifying pills that worked more like a numbing drug than anything and he'd rather stay conscious throughout the whole flight. So just that no one would bother him with questions about his quirk the moment he'd enter, he took out the gloves out of his backpack and quickly put them on.
"Oh, what are these for?"
Katsuki tensed, his eyes shooting to a guy next to him.
Red loose hair, the same height as himself, red eyes, shocked face, sharp teeth-
"Shit, sorry!" He closed his right eye so that the scar on the eyelid was easier to notice. "It's me-"
"I fucking know." Katsuki frowned and lightly pushed Kirishima, no actual malicious intent behind the gesture.
He let out a sigh and cursed himself for not recognising Kirishima's voice, trying to justify it with that he was nervous about the flight.
"Didn't mean to startle you…" Kirishima sounded genuinely sorry and Katsuki mentally kicked himself.
What a great fucking start of their trip.
"It's fine." Katsuki shrugged and just then noticed Kirishima's two suitcases and a bag. "It's just three days, why the fuck did you bring so much stuff?"
"Oh! I uh-" he glanced between his and Katsuki's luggage. "IIIII just… wanted to be ready for the unpredictable weather?" He shot Katsuki a wide smile.
"... Sure." Katsuki rolled his eyes and just then realised that this was it.
The actual start of their trip.
Just the two of them.
Sudden nervousness mixed with excitement and pure happiness and he realised he was just a little bit glad that he had already put on those gloves, otherwise his explosions would definitely start going off, with how much he was sweating.
"So what's with the gloves?" Kirishima pointed at them and Katsuki felt a bit of relief that he remained oblivious to Katsuki's emotions.
"For my quirk. You know, explosions and airplanes don't exactly go together." Katsuki explained and tilted his head towards the entrance. "My father has to wear those too," he continued as they made their way inside and went to check in their luggage. "Theoretically I should be taking pills since my whole body releases nitroglycerin-like sweat but apparently that doesn't bother anyone as much as the explosions so I just don't."
Kirishima chuckled behind him and Katsuki looked over his shoulder to see him slightly struggling with two suitcases and the bag.
"... Give me one of those." Katsuki commanded, already reaching out for one of the suitcases.
"What? No, I'm fine, just-" Kirishima tried to get a better hold of them, but then his bag slipped down from his shoulder.
"Give me one of those." Katsuki repeated as he took a step closer towards Kirishima who sighed after a few seconds of staring at him.
"... Thank you…" Kirishima muttered with a surprisingly shy smile as he handed Katsuki the slightly smaller suitcase, the red one.
"Whatever." Katsuki hurriedly turned and started walking, his ears and face burning because their hands touched and this time he wished he didn't have to wear those stupid gloves.
They quickly checked in their luggage and went on to go through the security checkpoint, where Katsuki got pulled aside to make sure that his gloves weren't just for show and that he indeed could not use his quirk. After that, since they still had an hour and a half until their flight, they slowly headed to the general area of gate seven, just to be near it.
"Are you hungry?" Kirishima asked as they walked by one of the many restaurants.
Katsuki's eyes wandered to the smaller mart where he knew were one of his favourite spicy pork buns.
"Not really, I already ate before leaving." He shrugged, actually not feeling any hunger. Besides, he didn't feel like spending money on an overpriced bun.
"If you're worried about the price, then don't, they know my mama and we both have a discount!" Kirishima explained, a proud smile spreading on his face.
Ah, that explained why that one security guard talked so casually with Kirishima while Katsuki's gloves were being checked.
"Still, not hungry." Katsuki answered and Kirishima just shrugged, smile still present.
Eventually, they were close enough to their gate to later walk to it without stressing about being late. Lucky for them, the lounge area was also nearby and they managed to find two comfortable seats. Kirishima dropped his bag at his feet and plopped down onto the armchair, stretching slightly.
"Ahh, man, I was so excited, I couldn't sleep last night." Propping up his legs, Kirishima leaned against the back of his armchair. "Could use a nap." He mumbled, eyes already closed and Katsuki chuckled quietly to himself, some hopeful part of his brain telling him that Kirishima was excited about spending time with him.
"Can't you sleep later, on the plane?" Katsuki asked with an amused smile.
"Mmm uncomfortable..." He mumbled again.
"Baby." Katsuki said shortly, rolling his eyes. "I'll wake you up in, let's say," looking down at his phone, he set up the alarm, "fifty minutes?" That would give them around forty left before the takeoff, plenty to get to the gate and onto the plane.
"Yeah, thanks." Kirishima smiled before relaxing and Katsuki let himself stare a bit at that smile until it faded, as Kirishima shortly fell asleep.
Must have been really tired, huh? Katsuki leaned on his hand, his eyes still locked on Kirishima's resting face.
There wasn't much to do. He didn't want to waste his phone's battery and didn't feel like reading one of the magazines he brought with him for the flight, so all he had left was to just admire Kirishima's face and ignore the annoying voice in the back of his head that was telling him that he was being a creep.
Maybe it was right, to some extent, but Katsuki couldn't help himself. He loved Kirishima so much and sometimes wished he could just recall his face whenever he wanted, but since that was impossible, all Katsuki had left was to look at it whenever he had the opportunity.
Just like at that moment.
After the implant, he knew he couldn't recall that handsome face anymore so he decided that whenever the opportunity would come, he would try and memorize the description of Kirishima's face, how every little detail looked just so at least he could have that.
The long, dark lashes, about which Katsuki still wondered if they were natural or if Kirishima was also using make-up. The soft curve of his cheeks, always a bit tinted with subtle pink. The nice jawline that he wanted to cup in his hands and stroke the skin with his fingers. The scar that was currently covered behind the bangs of red hair and Katsuki wished he could reach out and brush them away. Then those slightly chapped lips, parted as Kirishima was breathing through his mouth.
Looking at those lips reminded Katsuki of his dream. How he got the opportunity to kiss them and how much he wanted to do that again. And not only that, he wished he could run his hands through those red bangs while sharing that kiss. In general, he recently found himself craving that warmth and touch Kirishima shared with him so effortlessly, hand on his shoulder or arm around them. Maybe a hug. Katsuki found himself waiting for the next hug, just like the one they shared after the exam. He wondered if Kirishima would want that hug, too?
He probably would want it. Kirishima was a touchy guy, liked being hugged and hugging others.
Would he like being hugged by Katsuki? Kissed by him? By another guy? Well, he was gay so kissing another boy wouldn't be a problem, the problem would be Katsuki being the one-
Wait.
Katsuki blinked a few times then stared at the floor.
Wait, wait, wait-
He straightened in his seat, eyes wandering to still soundly sleeping Kirishima just to snap away from him, Katsuki's cheeks and ears burning.
Could it be that Katsuki thinking about kissing Kirishima made him gay as well?
"... I'm gay..." He whispered to himself and frowned slightly. "No, I'm not." He said a bit louder but…
… Damn it, was he though?
He did fall in love with Kirishima.
Kirishima, another boy.
Which Katsuki also was.
And he's never been attracted to anyone else, besides this one boy right in front of him.
Did that make him gay?
Katsuki ran a hand through his hair.
Did it even matter?
He loved Kirishima and wanted to kiss him and hold him and be held by him, memorise the way he smelled and look at his face whenever he wished to, but did it mean he had to label himself as gay? Would Kirishima have an answer to that question? Could Katsuki even ask him?
Fuck, why is it so hard?! Katsuki yelled in his head, frustrated and annoyed that he couldn't let off any explosions to release the tension that appeared in his hands, arms and shoulders. He settled on a sigh and a crack of his knuckles.
Lucky for him, he didn't have to think much about it anymore, as the alarm he set up earlier went off and with a deep sigh, Katsuki stood up and walked up to Kirishima just to crouch down in front of him.
"Oi, Shitty hair." Katsuki patted his knee and rolled his eyes when Kirishima groaned. "We missed our flight."
Kirishima's eyes shot open.
"WHAT?!" He stood up, causing Katsuki to fall onto his butt and this was enough for him to lose it, a mocking laugh escaping him. "Oh my God, you're an asshole." Kirishima rubbed his eye and then reached out his hand towards Katsuki.
"Your fucking face." Still chuckling, he accepted the hand, letting himself be lifted up to his feet without trouble and, once again, Katsuki cursed the thick gloves on his hands. "We still have those forty minutes, don't worry, hair-for-brains."
"You are cruel." Kirishima smiled and, to Katsuki's disappointment, let go of his hand. "So, are we ready?" He asked as he picked up his bag.
"I guess so." With a shrug, Katsuki put on his backpack and they made their way towards the gate where they could already see more people gather. Since Katsuki didn't want to wait too unnecessarily long in the line, he picked up his pace. "Come on, less extras the better-" he started as he peeked over his shoulder, but before he knew it, someone bumped into him. "Shit-" Katsuki looked up at a guy with a glare and was met with stunned expression. "Look where you're going-"
"Keiichi!" Kirishima appeared right next to him.
Keiichi? As in Eyelids? Katsuki focused on the guy's eyes, just for them to blink with their second eyelid. Yep. Katsuki's frown deepened.
"Ei!" Right, Eyelids still dared to call Kirishima by his given name. "... Bakugou." He gave Katsuki a short nod and that was enough for him to realise that he intended to keep this civil, considering their fucked up past.
"Nogashira." Katsuki crossed his arms over his chest, hoping this was the right name.
Kirishima coughed awkwardly and their eyes finally landed on their mutual friend and somehow Katsuki stopped registering their conversation. He heard Kirishima's question of 'wow what are you doing here', but didn't care about this asshole's answer, something about family vacations or whatever. All he cared about was Kirishima's visibly tense body. Awkward hand movements. Forced laughter. And fucking Eyelids didn't seem to care. Or maybe he did care, thus why he didn't dare touch Kirishima at all. Katsuki wondered if Kirishima noticed those few times Eyelids tried to reach out to him.
"It was.. nice to see you here, Keiichi!" Kirishima smiled in his more usual way this time and Katsuki felt like gagging on the words that weren't his.
Keiichi. Why did this asshole have the privilege of being called by his given name by someone as wonderful as Kirishima? And again, how dared he still call Kirishima by his name?!
Why wasn't Katsuki allowed to do that!?
Before he could blow up, there was a hand on his shoulder.
"Bakugou and I are kind of in a rush, so-"
Katsuki swatted at that hand and glared at Eyelids.
"So good-fucking-bye." He hissed and walked away towards the line.
___
Eijirou's eyes widened at Bakugou's aggressive gesture and followed after him as he walked away, not sparing a single glance towards him or Keiichi.
What.. what was that for?
Was it because of Keiichi? Sure, Eijirou hadn't expected him either, but that didn't mean he would just ignore him and go on with his day, no matter how much the two of them hated each other.
"So, is he the new me, then?" Keiichi's question made Eijirou's eyes widen and shot back to him, a sudden lump in his throat making it impossible to speak. "You've got bad taste in men, Ei." He looked over his shoulder, probably at Bakugou, then back at Eijirou, his face somehow both unimpressed and disappointed. "You did in middle school and you do now."
"I-" Eijirou swallowed and clenched his hands as he looked down. "This isn't any of your business."
"Ei, can't you see that he's like me?" He put a hand on Eijirou's shoulder. "You're not subtle at all, he probably already knows and-"
"Stop it. Just-" Eijirou stared at him with a frown. He took a breath, and opened his mouth, not sure what he’d say. “Are you trying to be an asshole?”
Keiichi's eyes widened and he took a step back.
"No, I-" he stuttered, looking for the right words. "I didn't mean to, just now I- shit, I'm sorry, Ei."
Eijirou frowned.
It was always the same.
Apologies only after he got called out on his shitty behaviour, and even those were rare. But honestly? Eijirou couldn't recall when was the last time that Keiichi actually apologised, besides that one at the arcade. Was it just for him? To feel better about what he had done in the past?
"I can tell you're overthinking everything-"
"Am I?" Eijirou cut in, taking a step closer. "Or am I right when thinking that you only ever apologise to make yourself feel better?" Clenching his teeth, he could feel his face harden.
"... You-" Keiichi bit his lip, his second eyelids blinking rapidly. He took a deep breath after a few seconds. "No, I'm really sorry, I do feel shitty but that's not why I'm apologising, it's-"
“Do you actually give a shit if he hurts me or do you only care about telling me now so you can be right if he pulls the same shit you did, Nogashira?”
"KIRISHIMA!"
Keiichi, startled, looked over his shoulder while Eijirou's face softened as he stepped to the side to see Bakugou's angry glare, clear even from that distance.
"You don't know him as well as I do." Eijirou spoke quietly after waving to Bakugou, signaling he was coming.
"I-" Keiichi closed his mouth when Eijirou raised his hand to silence him.
"I know what he did. And… believe me, I see the similarities…" He looked to the side, sighing. "We can… I guess we can continue this conversation some other time." Fixing the grip on the strap of his bag, Eijirou took a few steps towards the line. "So… Text me. Or something."
"... Alright. Bye, Ei."
Eijirou didn't look at him when he waved over his shoulder, just went straight to Bakugou who only glanced at him without a word then put his hands in the pockets of his pants, locking his eyes on some point in front of him, as if ignoring Eijirou.
… What if Keiichi- What if Nogashira was right? After all, Eijirou really could see those similarities, both in appearance and character, even in the way he thought about them. He knew Bakugou was a good guy but he thought the same about Nogashira, back then. What if Bakugou, even unintentionally, was going to hurt him someday, too? This was a small thing, but the way he swatted at Eijirou's hand just a few minutes ago did sting a bit, not physically but...
Shit, why was he so worked up over this? It wasn't like he didn't already know that Bakugou didn't like to be touched! True, it wasn't the usual flinch and panic, instead clear aggression and malice but Eijirou still wasn't expecting an apology for something trivial like that, even if it would be nice and would prove that-
"Oi, Kirishima…" The voice next to him was so quiet that only when Eijirou noticed Bakugou looking at him did he realise that he said something in the first place.
"Yeah?"
Bakugou shuffled a bit on his feet, staring at Eijirou from behind his bangs.
"I'm... Sorry about reacting like that." He muttered, glancing to the side and missing the way Eijirou's eyes widened.
"I've already forgotten about it!" He was quick to tell a small lie with a huge smile and warmth blooming in his chest. "So don't sweat it!"
"... I literally can't sweat right now." Bakugou answered with a smirk as he raised his gloved hands and Eijirou just laughed, insecurities forgotten.
___
Once onboard and in their seats, that Eijirou was surprised to see they had in business class, he was quick to notice Bakugou's suddenly tense posture, how he clenched his hands on the armrests and kept his eyes shut.
Was he scared of planes? Flying? No, Eijirou has seen him basically fly with the use of his quirk several times-
Oh.
Claustrophobia.
Even if they had more space there than if they were to have their seats in the economy class, Eijirou couldn't blame him for still being uncomfortable, especially if he wasn't used to planes like Eijirou and then if he was right about him being claustrophobic.
"Hey, bro?" Eijirou's eyebrows scrunched up in worry when Bakugou tensed up even more, frown deepening.
"What do you want?" Bakugou barked weakly, trying to glare at Eijirou.
"Do you need something? I can ask one of the flight attendants for some meds or-"
"I don't want any fucking pills." Bakugou closed his eyes again, trying to level his breathing. "Just leave me alone."
Yeah, not doing that. Eijirou thought as he glanced at Bakugou's open backpack, his headphones in there, and he quickly decided to make some use of them.
"Bakugou." Eijirou said softly, putting a careful hand on his wrist.
"I fucking told you-"
"Focus on the music." Eijirou put the headphones on Bakugou's lap.
In the first second Bakugou just blinked, confused, but then visibly swallowed, quickly took the headphones and put them on.
Distractions in those situations were important, Eijirou knew that perfectly well and he was more than ready to provide those best to his ability.
"I can hold your hand if you want." He tried to joke, but it came out sincere, and he was met with Bakugou's wide eyes, his own cheeks burning, insides turning upside down.
Shit. Shit shit shit shit-
"... Don't get ahead of yourself." Bakugou frowned with barely noticeable blush on his cheeks as he adjusted his headphones and plugged them into his phone.
Crisis averted… Eijirou sighed subtly with relief.
"In all seriousness, I'm here if you need anything. We can talk about whatever you want." Eijirou smiled at him in what he hoped was an inviting way. "Oh, also-" reaching to the pocket of his hoodie, he pulled out chewing gum. "Here, for the takeoff." He offered it to Bakugou who accepted it with a bit of hesitancy.
Eijirou took one strap and put it in his mouth, Bakugou quickly following.
"Just… don't look at me for now…" Bakugou muttered finally, avoiding eye contact.
After that, Eijirou watched for a moment as Bakugou used a pen to choose a playlist then could hear the faint sounds of some song he didn't recognize and just as Bakugou asked him to, he looked away to stare out the window. He didn't need to look or listen to any of the flight attendant's instructions as at this point he practically knew them by heart, and if Bakugou needed that sort of privacy to calm down, be it.
Then it was time for the takeoff and Eijirou's eyes widened, he almost swallowed the gum as his mind went blank when he felt a shy touch on his left hand.
He wouldn't look. He was asked not to.
But he did move his hand so that it was resting with its palm up, and felt Bakugou's gloved fingers intertwine with his own.
Eijirou bit on his lower lip as slight nervousness flooded him. It didn't mean anything. It couldn't mean anything. Bakugou was just… anxious. And they weren't actually touching, considering the thick material of the glove. Besides, it didn't exactly feel romantic, Bakugou's hold was tight, slightly uncomfortable, but Eijirou didn't dare to complain. He just squeezed back, well aware that it was something that Bakugou needed but would never actually ask for with his words.
Each time Bakugou's grip loosened or tightened again, Eijirou wanted to look at him, try to talk to him, anything, but something was telling him that this time it would only make things worse.
When they were finally up in the air, after the signal to undo their seatbelts, Eijirou thought that Bakugou would immediately let go, but to his surprise that wasn't the case. Bakugou kept his fingers intertwined with Eijirou's for several minutes after that, the hold loosened. Eijirou wondered if he was allowed to look, but without any signal from him, he didn't dare to.
Bakugou would take it as a personal offense, to be seen like that, even if Eijirou had already seen him at his worst… At least he thought so. And even if Bakugou wasn't comfortable enough to let himself be seen in his current state, he still trusted Eijirou enough to take his hand in the first place.
And that was enough.
Few more minutes passed when Bakugou pulled away, leaving Eijirou's hand cold and him slightly disappointed, even if he was expecting that and even if he was glad that Bakugou had calmed down enough to let go.
… Was he allowed to turn now? Eijirou didn't want to risk it, but he also wanted to check on Bakugou. No matter what, he was just worried-
"Hey, Kirishima…" Bakugou spoke suddenly in a quiet voice, disturbing Eijirou's thoughts.
He quickly turned from the window to see Bakugou looking down at the headphones in his gloved hands.
"Yeah?" He asked, too eager.
Bakugou glanced up at him for a moment before avoiding eye contact again.
"You said we could talk about… whatever, right?" Slowly, he put the headphones back in his backpack and slumped down in his seat.
"Of course!" Eijirou smiled. It wasn't just about distracting Bakugou, he just loved talking with him.
"You're gay, right?" He muttered and Eijirou blinked, surprised by this sudden.. question? Statement?
"Yeah? I told you, haven't I?" Eijirou tilted his head and shifted in his seat to fully face Bakugou.
"You have, it's just…" Crossing arms on his chest, Bakugou slumped farther down in his seat, brow furrowed as he glanced nervously at Eijirou. "I'm kinda…" He muttered something under his breath.
"What?" Eijirou leaned in closer to hear better.
"I-" Bakugou seemed almost like an angry turtle, hiding his head between his shoulders. "I guess I want to ask you some stuff because I'm… trying to figure out if I… you know."
Eijirou's eyes widened when he realised what this was about.
Bakugou was trying to figure out his sexuality and trusted Eijirou to help him.
Holy shit.
"Dude! Ask away!" He said a bit too loudly, but he couldn't help it, he was excited all the while trying to stomp on the hope that ignited within him.
Bakugou's brows furrowed as he seemingly mulled over his thoughts. Eijirou could swear that he's never seen him so unsure about something.
"How did you… know?" First question finally asked, Eijirou smiled at Bakugou when he glanced at him.
"For me it wasn't any sort of a big revelation." Eijirou shrugged and leaned on an armrest. "I don't really remember that, but apparently when I was four I asked why I had two moms and my ma said that's because they were gay and then explained to me what being gay means." He chuckled as he looked back at seemingly amused Bakugou. "And I decided then that I'm gay."
Bakugou snorted.
"What, just like that?" He smirked with a tilted brow.
"Well, you know, I only ever wanted to hold hands with other boys when kissing was still 'gross' for a little me, so when I grew up and still wanted to hold hands just with boys and, surprise, kiss them as well, I guess it all worked out." Eijirou shrugged with a nostalgic smile as he explained.
"... So you never wanted to hold hands-" Bakugou made air quotes with his fingers "-with any girl?"
Eijirou hummed.
"I mean.. girls are cute, but just not for me, you know? Ashido is pretty, but I don't want to kiss her." He smiled sheepishly, then that smile faltered when he saw a smirk on Bakugou's face.
"So you just want to kiss boys?" This time it was pure teasing on Bakugou's part, didn't stop Eijirou from going red and straightening in his seat.
"I-I mean…" He coughed awkwardly, hoping that Bakugou didn't notice Eijirou glancing at his lips. "Not all the boys just… just one boy at a time…" Fiddling with the hem of his shirt, he muttered awkwardly, face burning.
Don't ask if there's a boy, don't ask if there's a boy, don't ask if there's a boy-
"But what if you do want to be with a woman someday?" Bakugou asked instead and Eijirou breathed out in relief. "I mean, shit, not that I don't believe that you're gay, just-"
"Hey, it's alright." Eijirou put a supportive hand on his shoulder. "You're not asking to invalidate me, you just want help to figure yourself out!"
"... Yeah…" Bakugou looked to the side again. "I'm just… not sure…"
"Okay, give me a second."
Bakugou nodded and Eijirou closed his eyes for a moment to think about his answer, for it to be clear enough to understand for both of them. Feeling Bakugou's eyes on him, Eijirou stopped himself from smiling at the thought of how he basically just became Bakugou's tutor, just not for math but rather for being gay.
How the tables have turned.
Finally, Eijirou coughed and turned to visibly tense Bakugou.
"Alright-" he couldn't help but chuckle at what he came up with. "This will sound like some sort of PSA, but you don't need to label yourself as anything. Like.. look, even if I've always liked only boys, doesn't mean I'll be some sort of a fake or a traitor if I fall for a girl. This will just mean that I wasn't done exploring myself and it's okay!"
Bakugou stared at him for a few long moments before he snorted and turned away, covering his lips, his shoulders shaking slightly.
"Oi!" Eijirou poked his arm. "Why are you laughing?"
"It's just-" Bakugou uttered between snorts. "You seriously just sounded like a motivational speaker- Be gay or not, it's okay either way!" He openly laughed before covering back the wide smile that Eijirou wished he could fully see.
"You literally asked me, dude!" Despite shoving him, Eijirou also laughed.
"Excuse me."
They stopped laughing and shoving each other when they noticed a woman in neat uniform smiling politely at them.
Flight attendant. Eijirou quickly realized and straightened in his seat, Bakugou quickly following.
"On behalf of your fellow passengers, I need to ask you to quiet down a bit." She gestured at the seats in front of them.
"Oh, we're sorry." Eijirou was quick to apologise and he nudged Bakugou with his elbow to do the same.
"Sorry…" Bakugou muttered after rolling his eyes.
The flight attendant nodded and smiled.
"Do you need anything, young gentlemen?"
Eijirou glanced at Bakugou, thinking again about some calming pills, but he quickly disregarded that thought.
"No, thank you!" He answered with a smile on his own. "We're sorry, again."
"Just press the button if you need anything." She bowed her head a little and went on with her business.
Eijirou let out his breath and then heard a snort next to him, which was enough to send him into a giggling fit, although he was quick to cover his mouth to not let out any sounds. Bakugou did the same, his shoulders shaking uncontrollably as he put a hand on Eijirou's shoulder.
God, the air pressure was getting into their heads.
Literally.
He managed to tell that Bakugou, which only made him cover his entire face, some wheezes escaping him.
Eijirou had tears in his eyes when he managed to look apologetically at another flight attendant who tilted a brow at their doings.
This was going to be the best trip of his life.
___
During the landing, Bakugou held onto his hand again. Eijirou didn't look.
___
Katsuki took off his gloves and threw them onto the ground.
"Fucking FINALLY!" He yelled as he released multiple explosions, just outside the airport.
Thank fuck everyone could use their quirks on this island, he wasn't sure if he could handle the tension in his arms until they'd reach their hotel room.
"Don't throw stuff around." Kirishima reprimanded him as he picked up the godforsaken gloves, yet there was an amused smile on his face.
"You're not my dad!" Katsuki laughed in a way that could only be described as maniacal as he released bigger and louder explosions. With satisfied smirk and a crack of his knuckles, he stopped and turned to Kirishima to take his gloves from him. "I fucking hate those." He frowned as he put them in his backpack.
"Yeah, they felt really thick, like mittens." Kirishima nodded as he looked at Katsuki's hands, then quickly glanced away. "A-anyway," suddenly frustrated, Kirishima started walking, those two damn suitcases in hand.
Katsuki didn't need long to understand why he got frustrated, though. He himself was a bit, since he didn't exactly imagine the first time they'd hold hands to be with him having some kind of a pathetic anxiety attack, but… maybe it didn't count? But what if Katsuki wanted it to count? Would Kirishima want it to count? Would it mean he liked him back?
Fuck, all this made his cheeks burn.
"Where's our hotel?" Kirishima asked as he looked around, luckily not paying attention to Katsuki's red face and ears.
With a calming breath, Katsuki pulled out his phone to check the map of the island.
"This way." He said after a few moments and led them in the right direction.
___
"Oh… Oh no…" The receptionist whispered to herself as she quickly typed something on her computer.
"Is there a problem?" Katsuki asked, getting impatient from standing at the reception for several minutes already.
"Maybe we're at the wrong hotel?" Kirishima whispered to him, which only made him more irritated.
He wouldn't confuse fucking hotels!
"We're not at the wrong fucking-"
"No no, you're at the right one!" Receptionist was quick to reassure them, still typing away.
Katsuki clicked his tongue. Of course she heard them with her fucking rabbit ears.
"Then what's the fu-" he felt a hand on his shoulder and Kirishima's drilling eyes on him. "Then what's the problem?" Katsuki corrected himself as he glared at Kirishima who just smiled at him, almost proudly.
"It's um…" She glanced between them nervously, her ears twitching, before standing up and taking one of the key-cards from the display behind her. "There's been a small… mistake." Avoiding eye contact, she put the card on the counter, her ears flattened back.
"Mistake?" Kirishima asked as he picked up the card, which was pink. "Huh."
"You were placed in a…" she cleared her throat "honeymoon suite…" She finally finished, nervously glancing between the two of them.
"Honey-" Katsuki's voice got stuck in his throat, explosions almost going off, his face burning.
Kirishima and his eyes met, just for them to shoot away to avoid looking at each other. At least now Katsuki knew that Kirishima was just as red as he was.
"Is-" Kirishima's voice cracked on this one word and in normal circumstances Katsuki would snort at his frustration. "Is there a way for us to switch rooms?" He asked quickly, in one breath.
"I'm sorry, but everything is completely packed for I-Expo." Receptionist answered, lowering her head and ears.
Katsuki swallowed and gathered the courage to look at Kirishima, just for their eyes to meet again, yet this time, neither of them looked away.
Even though Katsuki knew the answer perfectly well, he still had to ask;
"Are there two beds?"
The short hiss and slow shake of her head was enough of an answer.
"Fuck…" Katsuki rubbed at his face, trying to cover his embarrassment.
"I uh.." Kirishima started, fiddling with the key-card in his hand and Katsuki glanced at him again. "I can sleep on the couch?" With an awkward smile, he shrugged.
Katsuki fought off the sting of disappointment.
You're not disappointed over this! He told himself as he pinched his thigh.
"I'm afraid that it's not entirely possible…" Receptionist spoke up, head lowered once again.
It seemed like both of them were too afraid to ask what exactly did she mean by that.
"Let's just… go." Katsuki finally muttered and moved to go towards the elevator.
"Right…" Kirishima mumbled, then spoke a bit louder to the receptionist; "Thank you, though!"
"Of course. I deeply apologise for the mistake and I hope your time here will be pleasant despite it." She said quickly, bowing a few times.
Katsuki just took a deep breath, trying not to think about sharing a room- sharing a fucking bed- with Kirishima.
God, he should have expected all this to go south.
They moved towards the elevator where Katsuki's legs suddenly refused to move, just before he could step in.
"Bakugou?" Kirishima, already inside, looked at him with a puzzled expression. "Something's wrong?"
Katsuki's eyes wandered around the elevator, and only after he realised it was pretty big, was he comfortable enough to go inside.
"Nothing." He finally answered. "Just thought for a moment that I left my phone at the reception." He lied and hoped that Kirishima didn't realise.
The elevator moved and Katsuki's chest tightened.
What the fuck- He thought as he clenched his fist on his shirt.
"I can always sleep on the floor…" Kirishima spoke quietly, staring at the changing numbers of the floors as the elevator rode up.
"Don't be stupid." Katsuki frowned, tightening the grip on his suitcase.
"I'm serious… If you're uncomfortable with sharing a bed with me…" Kirishima sounded like a kicked puppy and Katsuki absolutely hated that. "I can just… sleep on the floor or- or! I'll ask for a futon at the reception! Or-"
"Jesus fucking Christ, Kirishima, if I had to share a damn honeymoon suite with anyone, it would be with your stupid ass!" He yelled as the elevator's door slid open, and they were met with a surprised expression of some kid.
The kid blinked at them, then stepped to the side to let them out, still staring.
Without a word, Katsuki walked out, Kirishima quickly following after. They moved down the corridor to their room when the kid yelled innocently; "Congrats on the marriage!" Before disappearing behind the elevator's door.
Katsuki froze, breath catching.
Then he turned around when he heard Kirishima fucking laugh.
"WHAT ARE YOU LAUGHING AT, YOU DICK!?" Katsuki yelled, red and embarrassed, as he shoved Kirishima and almost made him lose balance.
"I'm so-sorry!" He wheezed out, holding his stomach. "I just- this whole situation!" He gestured between them with the pink card, "I can't-" then just continued laughing.
Alright, this was a bit ridiculous. Katsuki couldn't help but grin and bite back a laugh of his own.
Maybe he got worked up over nothing?
"Alright, dumbass, let's go." He said with a smile and lightly kicked Kirishima in the shin.
Finally, they reached their room.
Kirishima used the key-card and as Katsuki grabbed the handle, they glanced at each other.
"... No matter what's in there, don't make this more awkward than necessary." He said, and after Kirishima's stiff nod, opened the door and they both took in the sight in front of them. "... I'm out."
"YOU SAID NOT TO MAKE THIS MORE AWKWARD THAN NECESSARY!" Kirishima yelled at him, grabbing him by the backpack.
"THAT'S WHY I'M OUT!" Katsuki yelled back, gesturing at the terrible room; with mint walls, white-red furniture, pink bed covers and rugs. "This is a disaster, not a place to sleep in!" He stepped inside anyway, throwing his backpack onto the bed. "Disgusting." He wrinkled his nose at the kitsch roses on the headboard. "No one would make a conscious decision to spend their actual honeymoon here."
"I don't know, it could be kinda romantic-"
"What the fuck did I say about making this awkward?" Katsuki interrupted and squinted at Kirishima who was nonchalantly looking around.
"I mean-" he pointed at the wardrobe handles which were shaped like candies "-it's kinda cute?" Kirishima's shy smile was doing its job of softening Katsuki's expression.
"... Whatever." Katsuki turned around to check the bathroom and to make sure that Kirishima didn't see his blush.
He opened the door to the bathroom and immediately closed it.
"What's wro-"
"We will not acknowledge this space." Katsuki stated as he walked back to the bed to take his phone out of the backpack as Kirishima checked the bathroom as well.
"... Anyway!" He turned back to Katsuki with fists on his hips and a stunned expression.
Katsuki was more than happy that he didn't say anything about the entirely pink bathroom with a heart-shaped bathtub.
"Do you want to order something here or go out?" Kirishima asked, more relaxed as he sat down on the bed.
"I want to spend as little time in this godforsaken room as possible-" ringing of his phone interrupted him. "Wait a moment- what?" He asked as he picked up.
"Where are you?!" His mother asked loud enough for Kirishima to hear.
"I-Island." Katsuki answered shortly and shrugged at Kirishima's widened eyes and silent question 'she didn't know?'.
There was a few seconds long pause and Katsuki hoped she just hung up but-
"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN, I-ISLAND?!" She screamed into his ear and Katsuki grimaced.
"You want me to go fucking deaf?"
"THE INVITATION SAID THE EVENT IS TOMORROW-"
"The event. But it also said that I can arrive a day earlier if I so desire." Katsuki answered with wild satisfaction.
"WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL US YOU'RE GOING EARLIER-"
"Figure it out."
"STOP INTERRUPTING ME, YOU UNGRATEFUL BRAT! WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL US YOU'RE GOING EARLIER!?"
"BECAUSE THERE WAS A RISK OF YOU NOT LETTING ME GO, NOW LEAVE ME BE, I'M BUSY HERE!" He finally screamed back and hung up. "Fucking bullshit."
"... So uhh-" Kirishima reminded Katsuki of his presence. "What was that all about?"
Katsuki crossed his arms over his chest and looked to the side.
"My relationship with my parents is… complicated. Okay?" He said with a grimace on his face as he threw his phone onto the bed.
"But when I visited-"
"You got lucky. Besides, they were excited over my first fucking friend ever visiting." It sucked to admit that, but he had to. He didn't really care about what other people thought of his attitude towards his parents.
"... Okay…" Kirishima glanced at the phone. "I uh… I hope you won't get in trouble when you get back?" He gave him a smile that soothed his lingering anger.
"Don't wanna think about it." Katsuki shrugged and rolled his eyes when his phone started ringing again. "Let's go."
"Huh?"
"Let's go out and eat." Katsuki was already at the door. "I saw a cafe with crepes on the way here and it's been ages since I've had one."
Kirishima's face brightened with a wide smile.
"Alright!" Kirishima stood up, but then he put a hand on his hair. "Uhh, can you give me five minutes?"
Katsuki shrugged and watched Kirishima rummage through his suitcase with focused expression that turned into a worried one.
"Ah, damn it…" He muttered to himself and sighed.
"What?"
"I can't believe this…" Kirishima ran a hand through his loose hair with frustration. "I forgot my hair gel!"
Katsuki's eyes widened and, without thinking, he opened his own suitcase and after a short search, he handed Kirishima the hair gel he had packed for some reason.
"That's-" eyes widened, Kirishima looked between Katsuki's face and extended hand with his own gel.
"Don't say anything. Just take it." Katsuki told him, trying to ignore his pounding heart.
Without a word, Kirishima took the tube from his hand and quickly went to the bathroom, just to step out of it three minutes later with his shitty hairstyle.
Katsuki immediately felt better about being able to recognize him that much quicker and before he knew it, he smiled.
"Looks good." He heard himself say before he could bite his tongue.
Shit.
Kirishima's eyes widened and he looked away with a smile of his own.
"Thank you…" He whispered, fiddling with the hem of his shirt.
They stood like that for a few moments, Katsuki fighting off the need to walk up to Kirishima and touch his hair or his face or hands. Anything, as long as he could be closer to him.
Instead, he just coughed and walked up to the door.
"Ready?" Katsuki looked over his shoulder at happy Kirishima.
"Ready!"
___
They sat at one of the tables outside the cafe and waited for the waiter.
"Ohh what should I get!" Eijirou practically vibrated with excitement. "Chocolate? Jam? Which jam then, peach or strawberry or blueberry or- OH I definitely have to get like, double portion of whipped cream-"
"You're like a kid." Bakugou interrupted his rambling with tilted brow and a smile. "At least wait for the damn menu."
"Right! Right." Eijirou nodded, still excited. He just couldn't help it, he was so damn happy!
Everything was great so far, maybe except their room situation, but that was future Eijirou's problem, for now he just wanted to get crepes with Bakugou and spend some wonderful time alone-
His eyes widened when he spotted a familiar hairstyle with black lightning.
Oh God.
Oh shit.
"Oi, the hell's your problem?" Bakugou asked as he poked his shoulder.
"Bathroom!" Eijirou yelled as he stood up, his eyes meeting with Kaminari's at the exact same second.
"Uh-"
"I'll order for us on the way, what do you want!?" He asked quickly glancing between Bakugou's questioning look and Kaminari who was approaching them with a smile.
"Chilli chocolate, I fucking guess-"
"GREAT!" And Eijirou ran off, grabbed Kaminari's wrist on the way and dragged him inside the cafe.
"Kirishima what the-" Kaminari started, stunned. "What are you two doing here!?" He asked, looking out the window at Bakugou who busied himself with checking out the table's decoration. "You didn't say anything about coming!" He looked back at Eijirou with mixed emotions.
"Okay just.." Eijirou glanced out the window to see Bakugou looking around. "Come here-" he grabbed Kaminari's wrist again and they walked farther inside the cafe. "Bakugou won the school festival, apparently part of the award was getting an invitation to I-Expo and all that and he could bring a plus-one and-"
"Holy shit, you're his date?" Kaminari asked with widened eyes.
"No! Of course not! I mean- I don't know!" Eijirou spread his arms in frustration.
He honestly didn't know what to think of it all. He wanted to think that he wasn't just a plus one, he wanted to be the date, but he wasn't sure if he was allowed to think that. If Bakugou wanted him to think that…
"Bro!" Although Kaminari seemed genuinely happy for him. "That's great! Others are gonna lose their shit-" phone already out, Eijirou had to put a hand over its screen.
"Please, don't." He sounded desperate, he knew, and he already felt bad about the situation and Kaminari's surprised expression didn't help him feel any better, so Eijirou looked away, just so he wouldn't have to look at it. "It's just… he doesn't know that everyone else is gonna be here tomorrow and he doesn't know that you're here and just… I just… I don't really want him to know, for now…" This sounded awfully selfish and he was painfully aware of that.
"... He's more relaxed when it's just you." Kaminari explained for him and when Eijirou found the courage to look back at him, he saw understanding on his face. "Don't worry, I won't tell anyone, although I'm pretty sure Bakugou will be livid once he finds out about everyone else." He shrugged with a pat on Eijirou's shoulder.
"I know… wait, is anyone-"
"Nah, just me, since I had to get a grasp of things here before the real crowd comes for the I-Expo." Kaminari explained with a shrug. "I'm pretty sure a lot of our classmates will come tomorrow, though? So use that time wisely." He winked and Eijirou covered his red face.
"Dude we'll probably have to like… share a bed."
"... You mean share a room?" Kaminari asked carefully with a tilted brow.
"No. There was a mistake and they gave us a freaking honeymoon suite." Eijirou told him and watched as his eyes widened. "And the couch is too small to sleep on! Can you believe it?!"
"Holy fuck, Kirishima. I-" glancing at the window, he seemed at a loss of words. "I don't think I can, but seeing you two here… wow." Expression stunned, he finally finished.
"It's okay, I can't believe it myself…" Eijirou slowly shook his head. "Just, I beg you, have someone else bring us our order?" He looked at him with pleading eyes.
Eijirou knew he could have just asked Kaminari to put on a hat, or even tie his hair into a ponytail and Bakugou would have no idea it was him, but he didn't feel like exposing him.
"Yeah, don't worry about that." With an understanding smile, he pocketed his phone and pulled out a notepad with a pen. "What do you want?"
With relieved sigh, Eijirou quickly told him their order and didn't realise he paid a bit too much before Kaminari pointed it out;
"... Is that a bribe to keep me quiet?" He tilted his brow as he eyed the money.
"Uh-"
"I'm just teasing man, here's your change." He winked again and they both snickered. "Go get your man!" With a light shove to Eijirou's shoulder, Kaminari went to the kitchen, probably to place their order.
Eijirou sighed with relief and quickly returned to Bakugou.
"Sorry to keep you waiting!" He sat down with a smile that, to his surprise, Bakugou returned.
"Whatever." He shrugged, still smiling, and Eijirou found himself wishing he'd never stop. He just wanted to always see that smile, not only in his memories.
"... Bakugou? Can I ask you something?" Once Eijirou got a nod, he continued. "Do you… remember other people's smiles?"
Bakugou's smile faltered and he leaned on his hand as he glanced at the crowd of people walking around.
"Sorry, I-"
"It's fine." Bakugou interrupted and Eijirou was glad to see that he wasn't angry or annoyed. "I can imagine a smile but not directly on a face since I can't see those in my head." He shrugged, as if that was the most normal thing in the world, but Eijirou felt some kind of sadness because of it.
He wasn't sure how he'd feel about not being able to recall his moms' smiles or his friends' or… Bakugou's. So rare, but so beautiful once it was there.
"But it's just life for me so.." Bakugou shrugged nonchalantly and some of Eijirou's sadness disappeared.
Before either of them could say anything else, their crepes were delivered by another waiter and Eijirou's eyes sparkled with excitement.
"Yesss!" He took his crepe, with strawberries, chocolate and lots of whipped cream on top and took a huge bite. "SO GOOD!" He exclaimed as he took another two bites.
He went in for a third when he heard Bakugou chuckle next to him.
"Shomfin' w'ong?" Eijirou asked through the mouthful of food and watched as Bakugou reached for a napkin.
"Honestly, just like a kid who's never had whipped cream before." He said with an amused smile and wiped off the cream from Eijirou's cheek that started burning from that contact. "Behave." Bakugou muttered as he crumbled the napkin and put it on his plate.
Eijirou wanted to believe that Bakugou's ears were red because he was affected by this gesture just as much as he was.
Oh God, his heart didn't want to stop pounding. He almost felt like he wouldn't be able to continue his food, from how much his insides squeezed on themselves.
But Bakugou's frustrated glance was enough to force himself to bring back some normalcy to this unusual situation.
"Thanks! Sorry, those are just so good!" He said then took another bite, considering whether he should or shouldn't purposefully put more whipped cream on his cheeks, but before he could make a really stupid decision, he felt his phone buzz with an incoming message.
Kaminari: [image attached]
Kaminari: Just a little souvenir ;)
Eijirou tilted his head and tapped to open the picture and he almost choked on his food.
It was a picture of the exact moment when Bakugou reached, face and smile all ridiculously soft, and wiped off the whipped cream.
Holy shit-
Eijirou looked around, but he couldn't see Kaminari anywhere.
Holy shit, I'll thank him later. He thought as he downloaded the picture and pocketed his phone.
"What are you smiling about?" Bakugou asked and their eyes met.
"... Nothing in particular just… happy to be here, I guess." Happy to be here with you, was what he actually wanted to say. "It's nice. Thank you again, for inviting me, it means a lot." Eijirou bit back a chuckle when he saw Bakugou's eyes widen for a split second before he glanced away, as if flustered or embarrassed.
"It's not like I had anyone else to invite…" Bakugou muttered then took a bite of his crepe, and if Eijirou didn't know better, this answer would have gotten into his head.
Yet at this point, he was perfectly aware that the plus one was optional.
And that was enough to make him feel special, that despite that, Bakugou still wanted him here.
"I'm still happy." Eijirou stated and noticed Bakugou's ears turn red.
Adorable. He smiled at the thought, and the fact that Bakugou would probably start screaming at him for saying something like that about him.
"... I'm happy too." Bakugou said quietly as he glanced at Eijirou who felt his own cheeks warm up. They smiled at each other just to continue eating in silence after that.
During that time, Eijirou wondered if Bakugou would be so honest and open about everything if he knew that one of their classmates was around, even if that classmate couldn't even hear any of their conversations from that day.
Ah, what they talked about during the flight…
"Bakugou?" Eijirou started shyly and once he got his friend's attention, he continued before he could stop himself. "Do you like anyone?"
Eijirou watched as Bakugou's eyes widened, his face suddenly pale. He could hear a few pops go off from his palms.
"I-" Bakugou started, his ears and face blushing intensely.
Did he- did he actually like someone?
"You do…" Eijirou asked, but it came out as a statement.
Who was it? He asked about being gay, so another guy? Who Bakugou was close enough with to fall for? Midoriya? No, definitely not. Sero? No, they talked only when their whole group was together… Kaminari? Bakugou sometimes seemed to be impressed by his actual knowledge…
Eijirou's heart started pounding in his chest.
… Him?
Was it possible?
All the questions, all the trust, all the little gestures, all the words spoken between the two of them…
Eijirou couldn't understand how he was feeling at that moment.
Happy? Hopeful? Like he was about to cry? Nervous? Nauseous?
Everything at once.
"I don't." Bakugou finally said with his natural frown.
Eijirou really couldn't figure out if it was a lie or not, all he knew was that he felt as if he was being choked.
"Not anyone from our class?" He still asked, holding onto that hope which quickly disappeared when Bakugou's frown deepened and he looked to the side, crossing his arms.
"No."
Eijirou laughed, causing Bakugou's eyes to dart back to him.
"God, I'm so stupid." He said while smiling, not an ounce of honesty in that smile.
"What?" Bakugou looked at him with puzzled expression.
"Nothing! I was just… you know, overthinking some things!" Eijirou laughed again, running a hand through his hair.
"Pft, yeah, you're good at that." Rolling his eyes, Bakugou smirked and leaned on his hand.
"Right? There's no way you'd like anyone from our class!" His laughter was a bit more honest now. How could he think that someone like Bakugou would like any of the 'extras' from their class!
"As if any of those other extras deserve to be liked by me, I deserve the best." Bakugou stated, crossing arms over his chest as he leaned back in his chair.
And Eijirou could only laugh off the uncomfortable sting he felt.
At least he knew that Bakugou wouldn't lead him on, that he didn't have any feelings towards anyone. That was enough. That pain would be unbearable. Besides, he already knew his own feelings weren't mutual.
He was already Bakugou's friend.
Best friend.
Bakugou said that himself, unprompted.
That had to be enough for Eijirou.
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Katsuki thought he was going to combust the moment Kirishima asked if he liked anyone. For a second he panicked, that Kirishima figured it out and he was about to be gently rejected, because how else Kirishima would do it, if not gently? If Katsuki were to tell him about his feelings, he would be risking their entire friendship and everything they managed to build together.
No way was he going to make things awkward, especially that they were basically stuck together on the island, in one room and soon in one fucking bed.
"I uhh.." Kirishima scratched his neck. "I can seriously sleep on the floor." Like a broken record, he offered again that day as they stood at the foot of the bed.
Katsuki gave him an unimpressed look.
"Alright, I'm going to sleep on the floor." He stated and watched as Kirishima pouted.
"No way!"
"See? That's how I feel about you offering to sleep on the damn floor." Crossing his arms, he walked around the bed and stood next to its side. "So, we'll just keep to the edges and it'll be fucking alright, no need to make this more complicated than that." Katsuki finished but didn't move, waiting for Kirishima's decision.
In all honesty, if Kirishima agreed to him sleeping on the floor, Katsuki would do it without any second thought.
After a few long moments, Kirishima sighed and moved to the other side of the bed with a flushed face that he was trying to hide behind his loose hair. He reached for the duvet and slowly went under it.
"Oh, it's comfy!" He chuckled as he tucked himself in and looked up at Katsuki with a stupidly happy smile, somehow all the frustration gone.
Fuck, adorable… Katsuki clenched his teeth at the thought and got under the covers as well.
"Don't hog it to yourself." He muttered as he pulled on the duvet and lay on his side, away from Kirishima.
"I would never!" With a laugh, Kirishima turned off the lamp on the nightstand, and settled down, silence stretching between them- "I can't sleep."
"IT'S BEEN FIVE SECONDS!" Katsuki yelled over his shoulder, his irritation growing when he heard Kirishima snort with amusement.
"I meant like… I'm not tired?" Kirishima moved and Katsuki could only assume that he was facing him, his voice a bit louder. "Are you tired?"
"I'm in bed, clearly ready to sleep, what do you think?" Katsuki made sure to be extra sarcastic about it, but Kirishima only chuckled at his words.
"I think that we should talk for a bit! It's like we're having a sleepover again!" He was way too amused by this situation.
And Katsuki was pretty sure that he knew just a way to make him shut up.
"Have you ever kissed anyone?" He asked and immediately regretted it, especially after hearing a sharp intake of air and especially that he felt himself immediately sweating.
"W-what was that?" Kirishima asked, clearly stunned.
Holy fuck, why would I ask that!? Katsuki screamed internally.
Quick, think of something-
"During our flight you mentioned something about wanting to kiss just one guy at a time." Nailed it. "So, have you ever actually kissed anyone?" And if that anyone happened to be that piece of shit Keiichi.
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"So, have you ever actually kissed anyone?" Bakugou's voice was demanding although Eijirou was convinced that he heard it crack a bit at the end.
Why would he ask that?! Okay, he already said why, but just… WHY?!
Eijirou knew the answer, but he felt that saying it out loud would be somehow embarrassing…
"Oh, did you fall asleep?" Bakugou barked out a laugh and Eijirou knew he was just as embarrassed.
"Never." He answered honestly and was met with silence.
"... You mean sleeping or-"
It was Eijirou's turn to laugh now.
"No, I never… I never kissed anyone…" Voice quiet, he turned away from Bakugou, feeling like creating this extra barrier between them, even if they couldn't even see each other in the dark room, would help carry out the conversation.
The silence stretched and Eijirou listened to Bakugou's breathing before he started again, quietly this time;
"Not even-"
"No." He didn't need to hear the rest. He knew Bakugou wanted to ask about Kei- Nogashira. "We almost did but… I chickened out." Letting out an humourless chuckle, Eijirou realised he was actually happy that Nogashira didn't get to be his first kiss. In hindsight, it was probably another one of many ways to lead him on.
"Good, he doesn't deserve that." Bakugou muttered tiredly, shifting under the covers. "And he doesn't deserve to be called by his given name by you, by the way."
Eijirou's eyebrows raised and he barely fought off the urge to turn back towards Bakugou.
"Do you deserve that?" The question was out before he could think about it.
He was met with silence so long that he thought Bakugou had fallen asleep already.
"... It doesn't matter." Bakugou sighed and Eijirou heard him fix his pillow. "I'm going to sleep." He announced and stopped moving.
"Oh.. okay. Goodnight…" Eijirou whispered but didn't get any answer.
… Did it really not matter to Bakugou? It was the second time that he mentioned him and Nogashira calling each other by their given names, which wasn't even the case anymore, at least on Eijirou's part. He wanted this habit of his to quickly die out, and hoped that Nogashira would catch up on his intentions.
… Did Bakugou want to be called Katsuki?
Just the thought of it made Eijirou's heart flutter with excitement.
He already called him that a few times, but back then…
Eijirou took a deep breath, trying not to think about those terrifying moments.
He wanted to try it out, in this peaceful moment where he was alone with Bakugou. Maybe just whisper it, more to himself than anything, but he was risking Bakugou hearing him…
Would it be that bad, if he actually heard it?
He didn't have a problem with Midoriya calling him Kacchan, and then Kaminari joining in on that, getting used to it rather quickly. Then being called Baku by Ashido, although that wasn't exactly a nickname or his actual name…
And Eijirou really wanted to call him by his name.
Because while Bakugou was strong, badass, simply amazing, it was a name that everyone got to call him by. Meanwhile, Katsuki was… Sweet. Gentle. Manly.
But most importantly…
It was special.
Only special people were allowed to call him that.
And Eijirou wished nothing more than to be special enough to say Katsuki whenever he wanted to.
So maybe… Just this once…
"Goodnight, Katsuki." Eijirou said softly and smiled to himself as he slowly fell asleep.
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Katsuki's eyes shot wide open at those two words.
What the fuck.
Notes:
"Stupid disaster gays, I fucking hate them. She thought as she purposefully wrote them this way."
Not sure what to say here except that uhhh yeah, they were so gay I had to split this thing :'D
Anyway, I'm probably going to skip lots of fight scenes in the next chapter lol no one cares about them hfkdkuyfhgku
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Up next; Some actual canon, jfc
Chapter 30: Yet so far
Summary:
Every single one of you will lowkey hate me after this
Notes:
Liberty with canon dialogues because I only had access to Polish subtitles and had to translate them myself (the sense is the same, unless I deliberately change the canon lol)
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Eijirou slowly blinked his eyes open, frowning slightly at the early morning light coming in through the window.
Why couldn't they put the bed in a different place? He thought as he rubbed his eye with the palm of his hand and propped himself up on his elbow to check the time on his phone and-
Oh.
Eijirou swallowed, suddenly aware of his dry throat, when he realised how much closer to Bakugou he woke up. While Bakugou stayed on his side, Eijirou unconsciously moved to the middle of the bed. He didn't even want to think how close he was before he moved.
Good thing Bakugou didn't move at all. Eijirou thought as he slowly and carefully got out of bed, grabbed his phone from the nightstand, some clothes to change into, and went to the bathroom, trying his best to ignore the embarrassment flooding him. Once locked inside, he leaned against the door and sighed deeply, unlocking his phone.
He saw a few message notifications, most from the class' group chat, his friends excited about arriving at I-Island later that day and Eijirou took a deep breath as he wondered how Bakugou would react once he'd realise they're not alone on the island anymore. Noticing one particular notification stopped him from further worrying about it the moment he saw who sent him the next few messages.
Keiichi: You're probably asleep, but I landed and we already booked in a hotel and I just really wanted to say again that I'm really sorry
Keiichi: Seriously Ei, you don't need to answer right away when you see it, just know that I didn't say all that just to be right later! I was seriously worried!
Keiichi: For real, I'm sorry… I hope you're having fun out there, despite everything…
Right… Nogashira did tell him that he was going to Europe with his family for the summer break, although Eijirou didn't really register, maybe didn't even care to some extent, where they were going. At least, thanks to the timezones, he didn't have to answer right away.
Or at all.
… Eijirou probably should have changed his contact name at this point, but he'd get the notification of that.
But then, Eijirou thought as he glanced over the messages again, maybe he'd finally get a hint to stop calling me that. His finger hovered over the conversation's settings as he bit into his lower lip.
Would that be too petty?
Something was telling him that in this particular situation, he was allowed to be. Just as he was allowed to be a bit selfish with his time on the I-Island, he was allowed to be petty about Nogashira being a straight up asshole… Right?
Without changing anything in the chat, Eijirou furrowed his brows and sighed as he locked his phone. He decided that while here, on this island with Bakugou and later probably with his classmates, he would focus on himself.
As he put his phone on one of the shelves, he decided to take a quick shower during which he heard Bakugou's alarm go off and after few minutes;
"Kirishima!" Came through the door with a few knocks.
"Yeah?" Eijirou peeked around the shower curtain to hear better through the water.
"I'm gonna order breakfast here, what do you want?"
For some reason, the image of eating breakfast with Bakugou there in their room, instead at the hotel's restaurant, made him ridiculously happy.
"Unless you want to go to the hotel's-"
"Nope!" Eijirou quickly interrupted, barely managing to sound nonchalant about the situation. Eating there meant a few more alone moments with Bakugou before the entire day. "Here's fine! I just want an omelette with fried rice!"
"Sure." Bakugou answered shortly and Eijirou once again could only hear the running water.
God.
Eijirou really shouldn't have been affected that much over a simple, and perfectly normal, breakfast offer. Especially that they didn't even have to pay for it, since it was offered by the receptionist who stopped them as they came back to the hotel last evening. She explained that, as a recompense for the room mixup, they wouldn't have to pay for the room delivery, even though that wasn't part of Bakugou's prize.
And now, standing under the shower, Eijirou couldn't help but wonder, if he had stayed in the bed longer, would Bakugou offer him breakfast there? Could they sit on the bed and eat together like a happy couple and-
Another loud knock interrupted his fantasies and Eijirou almost slipped on the wet tiles.
"And wrap it up, I want to use the bathroom before breakfast arrives!" Bakugou yelled and Eijirou chuckled to himself.
"Easy, you won't die if you eat breakfast before that!" Eijirou openly laughed when Bakugou just slammed his fist against the door. "Give me five minutes!"
"I'm counting the fucking seconds!" Bakugou yelled again, although Eijirou could hear a smile in his voice.
With that, Eijirou spent a minute more under the shower, quickly put on his clothes and gelled up his hair. Even though he usually would do that after eating breakfast, this time he just wanted to be sure that Bakugou was comfortable with him.
Another bang on the door.
"Time's up, Shitty hair!"
Eijirou just laughed then opened the door to the bathroom and was met face to face with Bakugou's adorable half-hearted glare.
"What about the magic word?" Leaning against the door frame, Eijirou sent him a mischievous smile, for which he got a roll of eyes and a shove to the shoulder as Bakugou made his way inside the bathroom.
"Here's your magic word." Bakugou flipped him off and slammed the door.
"Rude!" Eijirou snickered then noticed that Bakugou moved the coffee table a bit closer to the couch, probably so they could eat more comfortably. Despite that, he sat down on the edge of the bed (which Bakugou already neatly made, holy shit) where he'd have quicker access to the door, since if the food was going to be delivered, he didn't want to make anyone wait for too long.
Eijirou glanced over his shoulder, at the way Bakugou arranged the pillows with ridiculous heart patterns, and smiled to himself.
Did Bakugou try to occupy himself while Eijirou was in the bathroom? Or did he actually want the room to look clean and not as if two messy teenagers were living in it?
___
Katsuki just wanted to do anything to stop thinking about Kirishima saying his name. Because of that little thing, it took him an hour to finally fall asleep, hoping that once he'd wake up he'd forget about the whole thing, but there he was, arranging and rearranging those shitty pillows, moving the table and placing an order for their breakfast and now shivering under cold water.
Anything, just to get the softly sounding voice of Kirishima saying his name so freely, so casually, so affectionately.
Was it even affectionate?
Did Katsuki even know what something affectionate actually sounded like?
It was completely different from the desperate way, which Katsuki clearly remembered as it was something that grounded him back then, Kirishima said it when he was having a panic attack in a freaking bathroom, so maybe this was actually it.
Goodnight, Katsuki.
He could still hear it so clearly and he fucking wished he could eventually hear Good morning, Katsuki in that soft, tired voice.
Splashing his face with cold water one last time, Katsuki turned the shower off and stepped out, trying to ignore the ridiculous bathtub that his mother would definitely burn on sight. Maybe he could just focus on the terrible interior design of this place? This way he would stop thinking about Kirishima and wanting to call him Eijirou while holding his hand and-
Katsuki smacked himself on the face.
"Get your shit together, you fucking gay idiot." He whispered angrily and started putting on his clothes.
After their conversation on the plane it was clear to Katsuki that he was gay, especially after Kirishima's 'wanting to kiss one boy at a time' thing, but it also made him wonder; Kirishima was the only boy and person in general he has ever had any interest in, the only one he saw as an equal and not a goal, the only one he trusted so much he'd reach out to in the time of need. Then, of course, Kirishima was also the only one Katsuki wanted to kiss.
Maybe there was yet another name for what he was feeling? He would have to do some research on his own, Kirishima definitely didn't have all the answers, even if his mothers probably explained everything to him, thus all that knowledge.
Strange feeling of jealousy rushed through him for a split second, but as Katsuki heard a knock on the door to their room and then Kirishima loudly thank someone, he didn't have time to try and understand why he would be jealous over something.
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"What do you wanna do today?" Kirishima asked after they were done eating. "Before the formal-"
"I ain't going to that fucking formal, I already told you." Katsuki interrupted with a frown as he stood up and picked up one of the brochures laid down on the side table. "There's a bunch of competitions where we can show off our quirks. That's what I want to do." After handing Kirishima the brochure, he walked up to the wardrobe to get his hero costume out.
"Oh! This sounds fun!" Kirishima chirped behind him and Katsuki bit back a smile.
This was a good way to fully show off in a fair way; no teachers telling him to keep it down and no opponents treating him with no respect.
And an opportunity to impress Kirishima…
"Although you should still consider going to the event!"
Katsuki's smile disappeared and he glared over his shoulder.
"I don't want to play dress up and be presentable for a bunch of stuck up heroes and journalists." He was done with that after his time with Best Jeanist.
"But isn't it a normal part of being a hero?" Kirishima argued, putting the brochure down and leaning back on the couch. "Once we're pros, we'll have to attend this kind of parties and-"
"Do you want to go?" Katsuki fully turned to him, arms crossed. He didn't miss the way Kirishima's shoulders tensed.
Going to that stupid event was one of the last things that Katsuki wanted to do during I-Expo, but if Kirishima wanted to go… then maybe… just fucking maybe, Katsuki could agree to this shitshow. Just for Kirishima's enjoyment, since that idiot deserved something for putting up with him.
But Kirishima just looked down, eyes fixated on his fingers he was fiddling with. Katsuki watched him for a moment before he sighed and joined him on the couch, Kirishima's eyes immediately on him.
"If you want to… just- just fucking say it, okay?" Katsuki muttered, averting eye contact. "I won't fucking bite you…"
He could do this one stupid thing for him.
"... I do want to." Kirishima answered quietly after a few more seconds of heavy silence. "I actually really want to. I know you don't like being among so many people, but… I'll be there, too!" With a smile in his voice, he nudged Katsuki to the side which finally made him look back at Kirishima. "And… we don't have to stay for the entire event. We can even arrive fashionably late." The fucker winked, and Katsuki felt his face heat up a bit.
He had to take a deep breath as he thought about Kirishima's offer.
And how considerate he was about this.
Damn it, what's the worst that could happen?
"Fuck…" Katsuki sighed with resignation as he slowly ran his hand down his face. "Alright." He finally said with a subtle smile.
"REALLY!?" Kirishima yelled right in his face as he leaned closer, his smile wide and bright. "WE'RE GOING?!" He practically jumped on the couch from excitement.
"Fuck, yes, I already told you- wait." Katsuki realised something and Kirishima's smile flattened. "I didn't take any formal clothes-"
Kirishima's nervous laughter interrupted him.
"... Don't fucking tell me-"
"Alright!" He stood up. "I won't tell you, I'll show you!" Strangely excited smile on his face, Kirishima walked up to the wardrobe and pulled out his red suitcase, put it on a bed, opened it and-
"... How the fuck-" Katsuki stood up, dumbfounded, and walked up to Kirishima who was holding up two suits. "When even-" he reached for the gray one, with black collar shirt, but Kirishima handed him the one with red collar shirt and a dark vest with… were those white fucking roses?!
___
Bakugou stood there, quiet, teeth clenched and eyes wide, focused on the suit hanging from the hook he was holding, and Eijirou was beginning to panic.
"Is… is that too much?" Eijirou asked carefully. "You can leave the vest out, it's alright-"
"Fuck, it looks like it'll fit me, how the fuck did you know what would fit me?" Their eyes finally met again and Eijirou felt cold from panic. "No, you know what? I don't fucking want to know, why would you get me a suit if you weren't sure if I was going?!" Carefully, Bakugou put the suit down on the bed and crossed his arms over his chest, still staring at the suit. "Well?" He demanded and Eijirou couldn't tell if Bakugou was angry or not.
"Uh… I was just… hoping?" Eijirou shrugged with a smile that disappeared when Bakugou's eyes snapped back to him, squinted in a strange mix of confusion and annoyance.
"... You spent who knows how much on hope that I would agree to go to this fucking party?"
Now that Bakugou put it this way, Eijirou didn't even know what to say. He got so mixed in between his own happiness and his moms' excitement that he didn't stop to think that Bakugou might actually not agree to put on the suit and go with him…
"I… don't know…" Eijirou looked down, not sure how he was even feeling at the moment.
"How much." Bakugou's firm voice made Eijirou look back at him, eyes wide with surprise.
"Wh-"
"How much for my suit." Bakugou insisted, glaring at Eijirou with so much anger and demand, that would force anyone else to just give him the information without second thought, but him…
Eijirou smiled, which caused Bakugou's eyes to squint in suspicion.
"Go to the party with me." Still smiling, Eijirou reached for Bakugou's suit and made to hand it to him. "That's my price."
Then he waited a few moments as Bakugou silently glanced between him and the suit, but finally, with a heavy sigh, he accepted it.
"You're a fucking idiot." Bakugou muttered as he turned around, but Eijirou still managed to catch the little smile and pink tinted ears. "Now, let's get fucking ready for all those competitions!" Ah, and he was back. "Show those extras who's the best!"
"YEAH!" Eijirou cheered with honest enthusiasm.
He just hoped they would have more time for each other before any of their classmates would arrive.
___
Katsuki watched as Kirishima destroyed one robot after another, strange pride growing in his chest whenever the audience cheered or the announcer said something in awe, and then even stranger want to point at him and scream at everyone present THAT'S MY FUCKING MAN, but of course he couldn't. So when Kirishima was done, landing in 8th place after destroying the robots in 33 seconds, he just smirked at him and told him to watch how it's really done.
Kirishima's enthusiastic SHOW THEM, BRO! only added to Katsuki's determination and just in 15 seconds, he was done.
First place.
Triumphant, he turned with a sneer towards Kirishima who wasn't paying any attention to him, and when Katsuki's eyes followed his line of sight-
Anger instantly boiled in him.
Before he knew it, he used his quirk to jump up to the railing and held onto it as he screamed at Deku.
"WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU HERE, YOU TURD?!"
"Co-come on, Kacchan!" Deku started, taking a few steps back with his hands raised defensively. "People are staring-"
"I DON'T GIVE A SHIT-"
"Stop it, Bakugou!" Some guy in a knight armor and glasses on his face stood between him and Deku.
___
Eijirou sighed with slight disappointment.
Well, it wasn't like he hadn't been expecting some of his classmates to arrive at one point or another, but for the first person for Bakugou to notice to be Midoriya… And then for Iida to step in between them… Eijirou vaguely wondered if Bakugou recognized him as well, although it didn't seem to matter as he just continued yelling profanities at Midoriya, mainly asking who even allowed him there. Through the general noise, Eijirou couldn't hear anything that Midoriya was saying.
"Kirishima-san!"
Eijirou looked to the side to see Yaomomo leaning on the railing, then next to her were standing Jirou, Uraraka and some blonde girl with glasses.
"Did the two of you also get the invitations for the I-Expo?" She asked, genuine curiosity on her face and Eijirou put on his honest smile.
"No, it was just Bakugou, for winning the sports festival!" He answered, and after another second he decided to add; "I came as his plus one!" As soon as he noticed her straighten her back, a sort of surprise on her face, Eijirou was quick to distract her and everyone else from what he just said. "You all wanna try?" He gestured behind his back at the arena that was already being filled with new robots to destroy.
"THEY'LL FAIL ANYWAY!" Although a bit calmer, Bakugou still yelled with a rough voice. "No one will beat my time!"
Even if Eijirou couldn't see his face, he knew it was one of pure anger and competitiveness. He sighed again, knowing that Bakugou was back to his I hate everything and everyone self.
___
"Mhm, yeah! You're the best!" Deku was quick to agree with him, his entire posture dripping with docility, and Katsuki only felt more fury.
"What, you're still fucking scared?" Katsuki taunted him and sneered when he saw Deku's awkward smile twitch. "Thought you wanted to fucking catch up?! HAH?! YOU WANT TO SURPASS ME WITH AN ATTITUDE OF A FUCKING COWARD?!"
"I'M NOT- I WILL SURPASS YOU!" Although panic was still in his voice, Deku looked like he was taking this seriously.
Fucking finally.
Katsuki jumped over the railing and pushed away the guy who talked in suspiciously similar manner to their annoying class president. As he stood on his feet, he noticed a girl with- ah. Deku's sidekick, Uraraka. Didn't matter.
He loomed over Deku.
"Then move your ass and show what you've got, you little shit!"
"Y-YES!"
Deku ran down the stairs where Katsuki noticed a familiar hero costume and even more familiar shitty hairstyle. He leaned back against the railing, trying to keep his anger down at least in front of Kirishima who greeted Deku's sidekicks, since that definitely must have been their class rep, then walked up to him.
"You didn't have to react like that…" Kirishima whispered as he leaned on his elbows on the railing. Katsuki scoffed.
"Well, they didn't have to come and yet here they are." He whispered back with more malice than necessary and felt a sting in his chest at Kirishima's tired sigh.
"Bakugou… Them all being here doesn't mean that you'll have a bad time, we can still-"
"WE HAVE A NEW COMPETITOR!" The announcer interrupted and Katsuki glared at Deku over his shoulder. "LET'S SEE WHAT HE CAN ACHIEVE!" Her loud voice echoed around the arena as Deku slowly activated his quirk.
Yeah, let's fucking see. Katsuki thought and actively ignored Kirishima's eyes, still on him.
Then, with 16 seconds and a second place, Deku was done. Too close for Katsuki's liking, especially when he noticed Kirishima, among all the other people from the audience, look at this green fucker with awe.
Where were you looking when I got the first place? Katsuki thought, snapping his eyes away as soon as Kirishima turned to him.
Once that rotten broccoli came back, his sidekicks walked up to him, saying how close he was which only made Katsuki more furious.
"WHO GIVES A SHIT?!" Katsuki heard himself screech before he could think about it. "I'LL TAKE YOU DOWN IN THE NEXT ROUND AND-"
"OHHHH NICE, NICE, NICE!!!" Announcer's high pitched and overly excited yelling brought their attention to the arena where Katsuki saw someone using ice to freeze the entirety of it. "14 SECONDS, JUMPING RIGHT TO THE FIRST PLACE!"
Katsuki's eyes darted to the screen where the competitor was shown and when he realised he was looking at half red half white hair and a scar-
"Ohhh! It's Todoroki-kun!" Someone exclaimed behind him and Katsuki's blood boiled.
Why did every annoying person in his life decide to come and ruin everything!?
___
Eijirou heard a loud explosion and didn't even need to look to know that Bakugou jumped over him and their classmates and down to the arena just to start screaming at Todoroki, even more when he seemed to be completely unimpressed by Bakugou being practically in his face.
Maybe he should have actually told Bakugou… This way he'd maybe prepare for this.
Before he knew it, Iida was in the arena, yelling about protecting UA's embarrassing secrets and Eijirou jumped down along with Midoriya.
"Bakugou, calm down!" Eijirou grabbed his elbow, which was a mistake because he almost got hit with one of the heavy gauntlets.
"LIKE FUCK I WILL!" Several explosions went off and Eijirou had to harden his skin then take a step back.
His eyes met with Midoriya's, who was standing between angry Bakugou and surprisingly annoyed Todoroki, if the frost going up his arm was anything to go by, while Iida was trying to patronize them all, gesturing wildly.
Suddenly, more explosions went off and smoke surrounded them as Bakugou yelled for Todoroki to stop ignoring him. He seemed to be ready to attack, so as fast as he could, Eijirou wrapped his arms around Bakugou's torso and lifted him up a bit.
"Listen, I know you're mad-!"
"LET ME GO!" Bakugou trashed around, kicking and squirming. "LET ME GO SO I CAN KILL THOSE FUCKERS FOR RUINING EVERYTHING-"
"Stop with the killing thing, it's unmanly!" Eijirou yelled back and fixed his hold as Bakugou continued to move aggressively. "Besides- stop it- isn't this what you wanted!? He took this competition seriously and won! Fair and square!" At that, Bakugou stopped squirming, heavy silence surrounding them all.
"I fucking hate when you're right…" Bakugou muttered angrily, eyes hidden behind the bangs of his hair, and after pushing Eijirou away, quickly made his way towards the exit of the arena, but not without punching Midoriya's shoulder along the way.
God…
"Um-" Midoriya started, probably unsure of what to say anyway.
"Our reputation…" Iida whispered to himself with disbelief. "How many times will Bakugou be the one to disgrace it…"
"Kacchan can be a bit much, huh…" Midoriya provided with a nervous smile, as if he was testing the waters in front of Eijirou.
"Kirishima, how do you handle him and manage to stay alive?" Todoroki asked flatly, which caused Midoriya to cough in an attempt to cover his chuckle.
Eijirou thought it was kind of rich, coming from them, considering that Iida went after the Hero Killer to get revenge for what the villain had done to his brother, but then had to be rescued by Endeavour, along with Midoriya and Todoroki.
But he didn't mention it.
Didn't want to start anything, even if it seemed unfair to him that for all the scrutiny UA was facing, Bakugou seemed to be the only one to blame.
So Eijirou just smiled at them.
"I guess I'm special!" He shrugged and laughed at their puzzled expressions, but didn't miss how Midoriya looked to the side and Eijirou could only guess that he assumed it was because he also knew about Bakugou's face blindness.
Maybe that was the case, at first, but now…
"Nah, we're just friends." Eijirou shrugged again and waved his hand nonchalantly, ignoring a little sting in his chest. "Honestly, it just takes a bit of time to tear down his walls!"
"Tell me about it, it's been fifteen years and I feel like I've been using a plastic spoon…" Midoriya muttered and Eijirou laughed, almost hysterically.
"Well, I had an advantage!" To make a point, Eijirou hardened his forearms.
Midoriya blinked at him, then chuckled, but only after Todoroki's quiet oh.
"Because of your quirk! Right!" He laughed a bit louder as Eijirou's enthusiasm died a bit.
He wouldn't have to explain this to Bakugou, who would just laugh while trying to cover his brilliant smile. It was a bit disappointing, that his joke was wasted like this, but some satisfaction was in there too. That he was closer to Bakugou than Midoriya who has known him since diapers, and yet… It seemed like Midoriya didn't actually know him at all.
___
Eijirou finally spotted Bakugou as he was about to leave the stadium.
"Bakugou!" He yelled after him and saw as he stopped and turned, squinted eyes scanning the small crowd of people going in and out. "Here!" Eijirou waved to him, jumping a bit and once he was spotted, he jogged up to him. "You okay, man?"
"... Fucking splendid." Bakugou frowned and turned towards the exit.
"Bakugou, wait-"
"For what, Kirishima?" The way Bakugou asked, full of spite and anger, made Eijirou realise how much he's gotten used to the little smiles and soft expressions.
Eijirou swallowed, a bit nervous and not sure how to continue this conversation to make it better. He could only imagine how mad Bakugou was at the rest of the class for being here, even if it was just a smaller portion of it.
"If you've got nothing to say then I'm going back to the fucking hotel." Bakugou stomped away before Eijirou could realise what happened and he was forced to run up to him again, catching him a few meters outside the exit.
"But we've got a lot of things to do!" Eijirou defended, since he didn't want to spend the rest of the day in their room.
"You can go, I’ve got nothing to do." Bakugou wouldn't even look at him as he continued his fast pace.
"You're just gonna sit alone until the party-"
"Kirishima," he stopped abruptly and finally looked at Eijirou, glaring. "I would be lying if I said that I still want to go to that party with those fucking extras!" He gestured at the stadium. "Especially with Deku and his sidekicks, and fucking- FUCK! Who else was there?!"
"Uhh… Yaomomo-"
"Ponytail?" Bakugou cut in and Eijirou decided it wasn't the best time to point out he remembered her name.
"Yeah… and uh.. Jirou… Earphones you called her a few times, I think?" Eijirou shrugged and sighed at Bakugou's angry, short nod.
"See? Fucking extras, not even our extras-" This time Bakugou cut himself off, eyes widening with some sort of realisation that was yet to occur to Eijirou.
"What do you mean our-" his eyes widened and a smile spread on his face. "WAIT A SECOND! YOU MEAN-"
"FUCK OFF, I DIDN'T MEAN ANYTHING!" Bakugou's face turned deep red as he quickly turned around and started walking away, but no way was Eijirou going to let it slide.
"DUDE, THAT'S ADORABLE! YOU ACTUALLY LIKE THEM-"
"FUCK YOU!" Bakugou stopped once again and swatted with his gauntlet, a bit too close to Eijirou who realised that Bakugou wasn't in the mood for teasing. "THAT'S NOT THE POINT! BESIDES, WHAT ARE YOU STILL DOING HERE, GO TO THE REST OF THE FUCKING CLASS!"
Eijirou blinked at him, genuinely surprised at the outburst and his words.
"... I- I didn't come here for them, you know that, right?"
Bakugou's angry scowl was immediately replaced by surprised, wide eyes.
"... No?"
Eijirou slowly shook his head.
"Then why were you so willing to talk to them?" Bakugou's shoulders slumped a bit and Eijirou had to bite the inside of his cheek to stop a smile from stretching his face.
"Dude, that's like… being friendly." He explained as he took a step closer, then to brace for what he was about to say, Eijirou took a deep breath. "But I came here for you. As your plus one." Eijirou's heart was thumping in his chest, his face definitely some shade of red. "And I want to spend that time with you." If Eijirou was brave enough, he'd confess his true feelings right then and there, the moment more than ideal. But since he already knew that Bakugou didn't like him in that way, there was no point in ruining everything.
"You-" Bakugou looked to the side, fists and teeth clenched. "How can you just say shit like that?" He finished through gritted teeth. "Fuck…"
"It's true." Eijirou walked up to him. "Usually you're the one saying things out loud because they're true."
"Oh, fuck you." Bakugou smiled. He finally smiled and in the same way he's been smiling almost the entire time that they've been here.
But that wonderful smile quickly disappeared, replaced by a glare and a frown, when Bakugou spotted someone behind Eijirou. Once he glanced over his shoulder, a short distance behind, he noticed Midoriya with Uraraka.
"Fucking Deku…"
Eijirou heard him grumble and looked back at Bakugou who was already walking away.
"What is he doing here, anyway?" Eijirou asked. "How'd he get the invitation? And from whom?" He continued wondering before he saw Bakugou roll his eyes.
"Fucking nerd won some competition about pro heroes or whatever. I don't give a shit."
Eijirou chuckled at his typical answer and they continued to walk around, seemingly without a purpose as Bakugou wasn't walking towards their hotel anymore. From time to time, Eijirou would glance at Bakugou's profile where a slight frown was still present, but was slowly easing the farther away from the stadium they were. To test his luck, he lightly bumped Bakugou's shoulder with his own, and smiled at him when he glared. Eijirou just held his smile before Bakugou's lips twitched and he had to turn away in a poor attempt to hide one of his own.
They still had the chance to spend time alone with one another, and now that Eijirou was convinced that this was something Bakugou wanted as well, all insecurities were gone.
And if Eijirou happened to spot a familiar face before Bakugou would have a chance to recognize it, and he'd guide them somewhere else, that was only for him to know.
___
There were still forty minutes until the official start of the opening party and Katsuki was fully dressed; red collar shirt and black pants were perfectly fitted and even if the vest was clinging to him a bit, if he had to be honest, it was nicely accentuating his waist and he still had plenty of room to breath. So, with nothing to complain about, and with his eyeliner perfectly done, he was ready to go.
Almost.
Katsuki grimaced at a tie in his hand.
Was Kirishima really expecting him to put this thing on? Even though he didn't even want to? Not to mention he didn't know how in the first place since-
Katsuki clenched his hand around the soft material and took a deep breath.
Kirishima didn't know. And probably didn't really expect him to wear it.
Probably.
Fuck.
"Bakugou!" Kirishima knocked on the bathroom door. "We still gotta walk to the venue!" Ah, so it seemed Kirishima was all dressed up as well, since he was ready to go.
"What about being fashionably late, huh?" Katsuki yelled back and as Kirishima laughed, he made his way out of the bathroom.
And he stopped as soon as he opened the door.
Fucking Kirishima in his fucking suit looking absolutely fucking perfect.
"You uhh…" Kirishima started fiddling with his sleeves and openly staring at Katsuki's suit. "You look… great." He finally breathed out, still focused on the suit.
Katsuki thought it was hilarious how his voice cracked on the words, like he was frustrated, if it wasn't for the fact that Katsuki completely lost his own voice, eyeing Kirishima as well.
The dark suit was perfect for Kirishima, although not as tightly fitted as Katsuki's was, it still accentuated his figure in all the right places from which Katsuki couldn't take his eyes off. He kind of wished that Kirishima wasn't wearing his jacket, but then the whole image would be that much more distracting… Then there was the red tie, matching his hair that Katsuki could tell he took extra time to style.
"Oh, your tie-" Kirishima taking a step closer to him made Katsuki come back to his senses.
Right. The fucking tie.
"Do you need help putting it on?" He asked as he took the tie from Katsuki, their hands brushing.
"I don't know if I-" Katsuki started, crossing arms over his chest, but then it occurred to him that he wasn't even sure how to explain his aversion to ties or anything that could potentially cut off his air source.
But this was Kirishima.
Kirishima always understood.
"... I guess you… noticed that I don't really wear ties, right? And how- how I don't like being touched all of a sudden?" Katsuki gestured at his shoulders as he glanced at Kirishima who just nodded, allowing him to continue. "I don't fucking know if you remember but… I might have mentioned something about… sludge?"
Kirishima's eyebrows raised a bit before he glanced to the side, seemingly trying to recall the moment. Or two? Katsuki was almost sure he mentioned that more than once, each time feeling way too vulnerable to his liking, but again, this was just Kirishima.
And he trusted him.
"Oh! Yeah, I do!" Kirishima nodded with a serious expression.
"Okay, it's-" voice got stuck in his throat. He really wasn't ready to talk about this with someone, was he? "Fuck it, just give me your phone." Katsuki demanded instead as he noticed the phone in Kirishima's pant pocket.
Kirishima blinked at him but complied and Katsuki quickly opened the internet app.
Maybe he could have looked up a video, but watching what happened back then, from the outside perspective especially, was the last thing he wanted to do, so he went for an article. Didn't even need that much, his fucking last name was enough for google to fill in the rest and then provide a few more options;
Bakugou Katsuki sports festival
Bakugou Katsuki muzzled
Bakugou Katsuki vs Todoroki Shouto
Bakugou Katsuki vs Kirishima Eijirou
At least one of the results was his parents' fashion company…
But then there it was, second to last…
Bakugou Katsuki Sludge villain
He took a deep breath and tapped on it, several articles and videos appeared on the screen. Katsuki opened the first article and grimaced at the picture of him at the top, one where he was surrounded by sludge and smoke from his own hands. He quickly pushed the phone back into Kirishima's hand.
Then waited.
And watched as Kirishima's eyes went along the lines, following the text and then widening.
"... Oh." Was what he breathed out as he kept his eyes on the phone.
Katsuki wasn't sure if that oh meant 'oh, I'm so sorry' or 'oh, that was you' or even 'oh, that's why you act like a freak when someone touches you'.
… He didn't like the last option.
Slowly, Kirishima put his phone on the dresser then looked down at the tie and stared at it.
"You don't have to wear it…" He said quietly after a few more seconds while kept avoiding looking at Katsuki, which was slightly annoying, but he could understand. Maybe it was for the best after all. "But… if you want to, I can help you put it on?" Kirishima asked shyly, fiddling nervously with the tie and Katsuki couldn't help a little smile that he quickly bit back when Kirishima glanced up at him with unsure eyes. "I'll be careful, I promise." He smiled and Katsuki felt something flutter in his stomach.
"... Do it quickly." Katsuki muttered without giving himself time to think about this, probably because he knew it would make Kirishima happy, for Katsuki to wear the tie that he got him, as if the whole suit wasn't enough already.
"Bro, I can do it quickly or carefully." Kirishima chuckled and Katsuki clenched his teeth.
"Fuck just- just be careful, okay?" He breathed out, clenching his fists and avoiding eye contact.
"Okay… Yeah, okay. I'm on it!"
Before Katsuki knew it, Kirishima put the tie around his neck, holding it by both ends, and he couldn't help but squeeze his eyes shut and hold his breath as the feeling of panic tightened his chest.
"Oi, Bakugou… No, no no no no, man, come on, breathe." Kirishima whispered as he let go of the tie and put careful hands on Katsuki's forearms. "Come on, breathe, it's alright, you don't have to…"
Katsuki gave a stiff nod and took in a shaky breath, then proceeded to turn away from Kirishima, clutching at his chest.
"Fuck, it's just so pathetic…" His voice was weak, breathless. Katsuki felt like a little kid and didn't entirely enjoy Kirishima seeing him like this.
"No, it's not…" One of Kirishima's hands was still carefully placed on Katsuki's forearm as he spoke in a soft voice. "With that Sludge guy and then what happened at the festival? And Best Jeanist? Bakugou, your reaction is almost expected and- shit, you really don't have to wear this tie!"
"But I can't let them win!" Unintentionally, Katsuki swatted at Kirishima's hand, releasing a few explosions. "Fuck, I didn't-"
"Don't worry!" Kirishima was quick to assure. "If you don't wear this tie, it won't mean that you've lost." He reached out and put a careful hand on Katsuki's shoulder.
Katsuki took a deep breath.
"I... need to wear it." He was being stubborn. He knew. He fucking knew, okay? But he just couldn't lose to a piece of fabric.
Couldn't lose to all those assholes who had a problem with him or his quirk.
"... What if I show you how to do it and you'll just copy my movements?" Kirishima offered with a smile and a light squeeze.
"That's-" Katsuki made to argue, but when he actually stopped to think about it… "That's… actually a good idea…" He finished a bit quieter, not used to accepting people's help.
"Hell yeah!" Kirishima smiled widely at him as he let go of his shoulder and quickly undid his own tie. "Just follow my lead, alright?"
It took a bit of time and explaining on Kirishima's part, but after two tries, Katsuki finally ended up with decently looking, as well as loose enough, tie.
"Seems good!" As Kirishima tightened his own tie around his neck, his smile stayed on, as if he was proud of both himself and Katsuki. "Oh, just-" he pointed at Katsuki's tie "-it's a bit crooked, so may I..?" He asked and waited for permission.
Katsuki felt a few pops on his palms as he clenched his fists and tried to tell himself it wasn't the same as tying this tie. It was just fixing. Touching up.
So he gave a stiff nod and then watched Kirishima's hands as they slowly reached for his tie. Gritting his teeth, Katsuki reminded himself to breathe as he felt a few tugs and the ribbon move along the back of his neck, then he finally glanced up and realised Kirishima was right in front of him, his face several inches away. Since his eyes were locked on the tie, eyebrows adorably pinched in a focused expression, he didn't notice Katsuki staring until he was finished and their eyes met, locking for a moment. God, how much he wanted to get closer. To touch and kiss and smile with him. So close, yet so far, all Katsuki would have to do was reach out and cup Kirishima's soft looking cheek, but he felt a hand on his chest and he looked down, the spell broken.
"All done!" Kirishima's voice was a tone higher than usual as he patted Katsuki's chest and stepped away. "Looking great!" He laughed, nervousness obvious in his voice as much as the blush on his face, while Katsuki lightly touched the now perfectly done tie. "Oh shit, we're gonna be late!" Kirishima exclaimed as he noticed the time on the wall clock.
Katsuki quickly collected himself and made his way towards the door.
"Then let's fucking go." He spoke in a low tone, trying to keep his usual frown on his face and fighting off a stupid smile.
Kirishima stared at him for a moment before his usual grin returned and he joined Katsuki at the door.
___
"Oi, are you sure this is the right way?" Bakugou asked again, more and more impatient, as they made their way through the 76th floor.
"Well, I think so!" Eijirou answered, fully aware that this was not the right way.
"You think so?!" Bakugou yelled behind him and Eijirou turned to him with a sheepish smile.
"Ah, you know, I left my phone in our room!" He shrugged nonchalantly as Bakugou rolled his eyes with a mutter of 'at least there are no extras'.
Truth be told, Eijirou knew where they were. He might have not forgotten his phone on purpose, but he got them 'lost' so that they could be actually late and thanks to that Bakugou, despite his complaining, was obviously happy about the whole situation, because otherwise they'd be listening to some boring speeches by now before some real fun would begin. His little stunt would also give them time to check out the plant factory on the 80th floor, where quirk influence on the flora was being researched at and Eijirou could bet his own quirk that Bakugou would absolutely love to try and blow up the plants that were supposedly immune to fire.
Yes, Eijirou did his research. Sue him. He just wanted to make sure that Bakugou actually had some fun before they'd go to the party where it would be Eijirou's turn to have fun, even among other classmates and some pro heroes.
Not like spending any time with Bakugou wasn't fun.
"Just admit that you're lost!"
Eijirou chuckled before stumbling slightly after Bakugou pushed him.
"I am not!" He answered with a grin and jogged ahead when he noticed Bakugou going in for another strike. "Race you to the next floor!" Eijirou yelled, his chest swelling with happiness when he saw Bakugou smirk and pick up his pace.
___
"Well, that's…" Eijirou started, not sure how to feel about the situation. "Something?" He glanced at Bakugou with a tilted brow.
"Something? Getting locked for no reason from both sides of the corridor is just something to you?" Bakugou barked as he kicked the metal-like wall cutting off their way back.
"How am I supposed to react!?" Eijirou hardened his hand and punched the wall. "I can't get through it!" Not wanting to ruin his suit, he released his quirk. "Maybe it's some sort of a drill?" He looked over his shoulder to see Bakugou at the door to the plant factory, locked as well.
"Then where's the alarm?" Bakugou mused as he put his hand against the door before banging on it. "Hit it with your quirk."
"What!?"
"Are you deaf? This is the only way out since neither of us can get through- all that." He waved around with an annoyed expression and stepped away from the door. "Besides, we've been here for ten minutes already and there are fucking speakers," he gestured at one above the door, "so something's definetely up and I don't fucking like it."
Eijirou sighed, fully aware that Bakugou was right, especially that they did try pressing the emergency button next to the door, which didn't work. So as he walked up to him, he took off his jacket and started rolling up his sleeve with one hand while trying to hand the jacket to Bakugou.
"Bro? A little help?" Eijirou asked, slightly impatient, but Bakugou was just staring at him, eyes glancing between his arms. "... Bakugou?" He leaned into his line of sight and only then did Bakugou's eyes finally met his.
"What?"
"Could you hold my jacket? I don't want to ruin my suit while using my quirk."
"Uh- fuck." one last time, Bakugou quickly glanced between Eijirou's arms and finally took the jacket from him. "Yeah, just get it over with."
Slightly confused, Eijirou observed him for a second, Bakugou's eyes now locked on the jacket, ears red for some reason. Eijirou just shrugged and faced the door to try and feel out how thick it was and figured he didn't have to harden his entire forearms to get through. And so, after several hits he landed the last one, creating an opening big enough for both of them.
"Woo! That was manly!" Eijirou bumped his fists in front of his chest then released his quirk as he turned to Bakugou. "I did it!"
"It'd be fucking strange if you didn't, with how stupidly strong you are." Bakugou rolled his eyes but Eijirou could tell he did so with some sort of fondness. "Now put this thing on and let's go." He pushed the jacket into Eijirou's chest and turned away.
Eijirou chuckled as he rolled his sleeves down and put his jacket back on. They headed inside, taking in the sight of a huge hall, going several floors up with various plants everywhere they looked, most of which Eijirou couldn't name or haven't even seen before.
"Wow…"
"We don't have time for sightseeing." Bakugou spoke up as he picked up his pace. "We need to see if all the doors are locked."
"Right…" Eijirou muttered, still looking around with awe as he followed after Bakugou.
This could have been so romantic if it wasn't for the sudden lockdown. Maybe after Bakugou will have had his fun with fireproof trees, they could sit under a tree and just talk, the party forgotten, even if Eijirou still wanted to go. Still wanted to try and convince Bakugou to dance with him. Maybe this could give him a chance-
"Oi, someone's at the elevator." Bakugou nudged him with his elbow and Eijirou snapped out of his thoughts to see two men in black combat suits; one tall with a head shaped similar to a goat's, the other short with stern face. They were some distance away, but before either could do anything, the men spotted them.
"We've found you, damn brats!" The taller one yelled at them and Eijirou's eyes widened.
What?
"The fuck did you just say, asshole?!" Bakugou growled back, Eijirou's eyes snapping to him, hoping he'd look back and understand his 'don't get us in trouble' look.
"What are you doing here?" This time the shorter one spoke in a demanding tone. Neither of them moved yet and Eijirou somehow didn't like that, especially when he noticed Bakugou's eye twitch and him make a step forward.
"That's my line you-"
"Bakugou." Eijirou whispered as he reached and put his hands on Bakugou's shoulder and chest, tapping lightly with a forced smile as he felt the other tense under his hands. "I'll take care of it, okay?"
Bakugou just gave him a questionable look and didn't say anything, but that was enough for Eijirou to take the wheel.
"So uh-" he stepped forward with an awkward smile and a hand on the back of his head. "We just got lost! And we'd appreciate it if you could point the way back to the party?" Still smiling, he watched as the two men exchanged angered looks and Eijirou realised how unrealistic it sounded that they got lost on the 80th floor.
"I can tell you're trying to fool us!" The taller one yelled, his hand enlarging into webbed claws and before Eijirou could react, there was some sort of a wave of energy coming his way.
The attack got stopped by a wall of ice that trapped the two men inside, and out of shock Eijirou tripped over his own foot as he tried to get away and fell onto his butt instead.
"That quirk…" Bakugou whispered when he ran up to stand next to him.
Eijirou looked to the side from where the attack came, his eyes widening when he spotted-
"Todoroki!?" He exclaimed as he stood up, but then loud noises started coming from the inside of the ice and Todoroki clicked his tongue, annoyed.
"We'll buy you some time!" Todoroki said as he created more ice and once Eijirou followed the path-
"Everyone's here…" He quickly whispered to Bakugou as they watched the columns of ice rise up to the bridge above them, their classmates they've met with before on top, plus the blonde girl with glasses, and- "wow, Kaminari too!? Oi, what's going on here?" He asked louder as they walked up to focused Todoroki.
"Didn't you hear the alarm?" He asked with a tilted brow and continued when Eijirou gave him a questioning look. "The whole tower was overtaken by the villains."
"What?!"
"The hell did you say?!" Bakugou growled behind him.
"I'll explain later, first those two-"
As soon as Todoroki finished, both villains made it out of the ice trap and were quick to strike back, the shorter one turning into a huge purple beast. Todoroki created more ice, but the beast destroyed it like it was just a bit of glass and charged at them. They all dodged him, jumping away, but Bakugou had to strike back, sending a huge explosion to the villain's back. He produced so much smoke, that he didn't realise the villain was now behind him.
Eijirou reacted before he could think about it.
___
"EIJIROU!" Katsuki screamed after the beast sent Kirishima flying through Half face's ice and into the wall, yet he didn't have the time to go and check on him.
Still, the fight after that was a blur; dodge, curse the villains, sent explosions, create smoke, leave Goat guy to Half face, attack the beast from the top, jump back, more explosions, dodge-
Howitzer Impact.
Beast defeated, now ignore the pain, jump away from Goat guy before his attack reaches you-
Katsuki's sleeve was shredded and some of his sweat landed on the villain's huge webbed claws.
"The hell's that?" Villain, like an absolute idiot, stopped to look at what was on his hand and Katsuki sneered at him.
"Just my sweat! Like nitroglycerin."
Half face caught up and sent a wall of fire towards the villain. They didn't need to wait long for the huge explosion that sent the man into unconsciousness, and Katsuki could finally run up to Kirishima, still in the wall.
"Kirishima!" Katsuki stopped a few steps away, not sure what to do especially when Kirishima only grimaced.
Fuck, fuck, fuck, why would he push him away?! That hit was for Katsuki!
"You alright?" Half face asked as he ran up to them.
"I can't move, help me!" Kirishima croaked out, awkwardly trying to free his arms and Katsuki sighed with relief.
He must have hardened all over. He's okay. Katsuki bit back a smile, not wanting Half face to see it.
"Are you stupid or something? Just release your quirk." He rolled his eyes and put his hands in the pockets of his pants.
"Oh! That's right!" Kirishima chuckled awkwardly as his forearms softened and he stepped away from the wall, staring at his hands with relief. "Damn, I was a bit scared…"
"The most important thing is that you're alright." Half face spoke up and Katsuki rolled his eyes.
Just shut up and give us some space.
"You guys are okay, too, I see!" Kirishima smiled at the two of them, his eyes lingering on Katsuki as he stood up.
Katsuki bit his tongue to keep a straight face.
Fuck.
Kirishima didn't hesitate to jump in and protect him from the villain and Katsuki had nothing against that. If it was anyone else, he'd be genuinely angry, but him… If Katsuki were to be on the receiving end of that hit, no hardening quirk to protect him-
God damn it. He clicked his tongue and turned his back to Kirishima.
"Thanks…" He muttered, barely audible and almost ashamed that he still couldn't say that to Kirishima's face.
"Aw, Bakugou! That's unlike you!" Kirishima laughed behind. "Don't worry about it!"
"WHO'S WORRYING?!" Katsuki shrieked awkwardly as Kirishima smiled at him.
"Alright, let's join Midoriya and the others." Half face cut in again and for the first time, Katsuki was almost grateful for the interruption.
Almost.
"Don't tell me what to do!" Katsuki yelled at him as they started running towards the huge elevator.
"Todoroki, can you fill us in?" Kirishima asked, but before he could get an answer, a crowd of robots surrounded them. "... Seems like we pissed them off."
___
It didn't take long for them to destroy the hostile robots, and once they were done, Todoroki explained what was going on, that all the guests at the party were taken hostage, while heroes, even All Might, were immobilised. The entire island was under lockdown, the rogue robots attacking everyone on sight and their classmates, as well as the girl, Melissa, were the only people who could do something about it.
"Is it just me or whenever we go somewhere, there's a villain attack?" Eijirou asked as they ran through countless staircases, searching for their classmates. "I mean, at least they're not after us this time…"
"They might as well be, we're ruining their stupid plans! Serves them right, for ruining our plans." Using his quirk, Bakugou jumped over the stairs. "I hear more of those robots, I'll go ahead and see what's happening."
"Wait, Bakugou-"
"No time!" With that, he was gone, only smoke trailing behind.
"What plans did you have?" Todoroki asked out of nowhere as they tried to catch up to Bakugou.
"Wh-" Eijirou's eyes widened as his steps halted for a split second.
"It seems like he's pissed off about this situation, more than usual at least." He added, panting slightly, while Eijirou was genuinely surprised that Todoroki would notice something like that.
"I uh-" Eijirou started eloquently.
Truth be told, he already knew that their classmates being on the island made Bakugou mad, and to add to that a villain attack that completely ruined their chances of having some fun?
Yeah. Eijirou definitely knew.
"I guess, for once, he just wanted to relax?" Eijirou gave a toothy and a bit awkward grin while Todoroki glanced at him, his expression unreadable.
"With you?" He asked bluntly, not slowing down, as Eijirou felt himself blush.
"I-" Eijirou chuckled awkwardly, looking for words. "It seems so?" He settled on, praying that Todoroki would end the subject on this note.
"Ah, so you two are together." This time, Todoroki's words made Eijirou stop dead in his tracks. "Come on, we don't have time for breaks." He stared down at Eijirou from the top of the staircase, still jogging in place.
"We're WHAT NOW?!" How could Todoroki expect him to keep moving after that? "We're not- how did you- WHERE DID THAT COME FROM!?" He exclaimed, embarrassed and red as his hair.
Was that how their relationship looked like to someone who didn't know the entire context?
"You're not?" Todoroki finally stopped moving and stared blankly at Eijirou before putting a hand on his chin, as if deep in thought. "Was I really wrong about that?" He muttered to himself, oblivious to the fact that Eijirou could hear him perfectly well.
"We are definitely not together!" Eijirou barely fought off the urge to hide his face. Or disappear completely.
"But earlier, he called you…" Todoroki trailed off, glancing to the side with a thoughtful frown while Eijirou tilted his head in an unspoken question. "No, nevermind. Sorry for assuming."
"It's- alright?" Still not sure how to feel about the situation, Eijirou just ran up the stairs. "Let's just go, okay? Bakugou's probably waiting a few floors up and from what you've said, we have a long way ahead of us." He said, glancing at the number telling them they were on the 130th floor.
Todoroki nodded and they started running again, catching up to Bakugou five floors later where he was surrounded by three broken robots, giving the fourth one a finishing blow.
"The fuck took you so long?" Bakugou greeted them as the robot fell to the ground.
"You're just fast, dude!" Eijirou answered with a smile as he quickly glanced at Todoroki, hoping that he wouldn't tell Bakugou about their little exchange.
"I think they're heading to the higher floors." Oblivious, Bakugou just started running again, Eijirou and Todoroki right behind and as they made their way to the 138th floor, they saw a destroyed door which created an opening to the wind power plant on the outside.
They hid behind a corner when they saw a huge crowd of robots on the other side of that area.
"Maybe we can go around and flank them." Todoroki suggested quietly, since none of them were sure if the robots had sound sensors.
"How the hell are you planning to do that, they're all over the place." Bakugou whispered angrily.
Eijirou was about to say something when he noticed that the robots were actually heading towards a person-
"That's Uraraka!" He yelled and before he knew it, Bakugou was already there, a huge explosion destroying and pushing robots away from Uraraka and off the edge, while Todoroki sent a wall of ice towards others that were close.
"Kacchan!"
Eijirou looked up and saw Midoriya with that girl, Melissa, floating up to a bridge high above them all, yet he didn't have time to ponder longer about it, robots attacking them. The three of them continued to fight and protect Uraraka until Midoriya and Melissa made it to the bridge and she could release her quirk. Right after that, she joined them.
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Eijirou had no idea how much time had passed and how many robots they destroyed as more and more of them kept appearing, seemingly out of nowhere.
"There's no end to them!" Uraraka panted as she released her quirk, few robots falling down onto others that were about to attack her.
She seemed exhausted and Eijirou couldn't even blame her since he felt the same, his joints getting stiff and skin dry. From time to time, he noticed that Bakugou would stop using his explosions in favor of just dodging the robots, often causing them to crash into one another. Then Todoroki's right side of the body was covered in frost, even when he was using his fire.
Eijirou really hoped that that Melissa girl actually knew how to reset the security systems of the island.
"FUCKING DIE ALREADY YOU PIECE OF METAL SHIT-" Bakugou exploded the nearest robot before he was forced to back off, as more robots started surrounding them.
He stood next to Eijirou and soon Uraraka and Todoroki were backed up to them as well.
"Uh soo…" Eijirou glanced over to his friends. "We each take a hundred?"
"Assuming there aren't more…" Uraraka said, exhaustion and worry clear in her voice. "God, I think I'm gonna throw up…" She added, holding her stomach.
"One of us should have come with Midoriya…" Todoroki muttered as he tried to create the wall of ice between them and the robots, to no avail.
"Wow, great fucking suggestion, too bad you didn't think of it sooner!" Bakugou barked at him, holding onto his forearm.
"I certainly didn't hear you get that idea before." Todoroki answered with a frown.
"Guys, now is not the time for arguing!" Eijirou took on a fighting stance, grimacing slightly at the sting in his elbows.
Come on, Midoriya… He pleaded, taking in a deep breath and bracing for the first wave of the robots.
But one by one, they deactivated.
"The hell?" Bakugou growled, still ready to jump at the enemy at any second.
"They stopped?" Uraraka breathed out and relaxed next to him and sure enough, the robots completely shut down.
"No time to rest." Todoroki spoke up and got ready to run, even though it was clear he was tired as well. "We need to find the others and then Midoriya to make sure he's safe." And off he was.
"Don't tell me what to do, Half face!" Bakugou was quick to snap at him and started running while Eijirou and Uraraka sighed at his aggressive reaction.
"Will you be alright?" Eijirou asked her when he noticed she was holding onto her stomach again.
"I might have reached my limit…" She sighed, seemingly disappointed in herself.
"I can carry you, if you want." He offered with a smile and a chuckle when she blushed.
"No no no no! No need for that!" Still red, she started jogging where Bakugou and Todoroki ran off to, Eijirou right behind.
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It wasn't long before they found Yaomomo, Jirou, Iida and Kaminari then headed to the elevator and the highest floor. Instantly, they saw a villain on top of what looked like a monster made out of a tangled mess of metal and All Might trying to defeat it. Bakugou and Todoroki immediately joined the fight, Eijirou and Iida right after, and even if they all were exhausted, they were still giving all they could, before All Might, surprisingly with Midoriya's help who had some sort of support gear from Melissa, ultimately defeated the villain.
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"All this time wasted because of some fucking professor's obsession with his own tech, just like fucking Deku with heroes." Katsuki barely stopped himself from kicking the door open, instead waited patiently until Kirishima opened it.
"At least we're all okay." Kirishima, ever so positive, finally opened the door and Katsuki immediately walked in. "Are your arms alright?"
Of course he noticed.
Katsuki let out a few experimental explosions.
"Yeah, but my damn sleeping schedule is officially fucked." Katsuki pointed at the rising Sun, the light coming in through the window. Was this suite placed here because of the 'romantic sunrise'? He actually didn't care. "Not to mention our fucking suits getting ruined as well!" He gestured at his torn off sleeve before angrily taking the tie off and throwing it to the ground. "This whole fucking trip sucks." Katsuki aggressively grabbed the curtains and closed them.
"All of it..?" Kirishima asked quietly behind him and when Katsuki turned to him, he looked like a kicked puppy.
"No- fuck, not all of it, that's not what I meant." Katsuki quickly walked up to where Kirishima was standing next to the bed. "Time with you was fucking great, alright?" Awkwardly, he put his hand on Kirishima's shoulder and squeezed lightly, his insides twisting when he smiled at him. "And even if our dumbass classmates would be there, that party would be bearable with you." He added as he glanced to the side, feeling himself blush.
"Aw, thanks bro." It was clear that Kirishima was smiling at him, but all Katsuki could do was take away his hand and cross his arms over his chest.
"But then we'd get fucking captured like all those other people so…" Katsuki shrugged, his eyes meeting with Kirishima's again. "Guess fighting was better than being stuck in one place."
"Good then that I got us lost!" Kirishima chuckled, Katsuki joining him in that. "Although I kinda hoped we could dance together at some point!" As soon as Kirishima finished his sentence, he visibly paled and it was more than obvious for Katsuki that he certainly did not mean to say that. "I-I mean!" Kirishima waved around awkwardly. "Not like- together together! I meant like- with you and others! You know! Like a group of friends?!" He laughed nervously, refusing to look Katsuki in the eyes.
Ah. As a group of friends... Katsuki quickly pushed away any sting of disappointment. Kirishima didn't mean it in that way, they were just friends for fuck's sake, any romantic and hopeful feelings could get lost. Still, Katsuki found himself baffled, not sure how to answer as the awkward silence stretched between them.
"... This-" Katsuki wasn't sure what he wanted to say, but when he saw that Kirishima opened his mouth with knitted eyebrows, probably to apologize, he was quick to come up with something "-this probably wasn't even that kind of a party..." He muttered and looked to the side. "It was some stupid, uptight party for rich assholes who don't have anything better to do than stare at heroes." Still not looking at Kirishima, he put his hands inside his pockets, clenching them.
"Y-yeah... you're right, I guess.." Kirishima's voice was full of disappointment. Barely a whisper, yet in a silent room, it was loud enough for Katsuki. "I don't know what I was thinking!" Awkward laughter escaped him and Katsuki finally looked at him to see a sheepish smile and a hand going through his wild hair. "Still-" Kirishima stared back at him "-it'd be kinda nice to dance?"
Katsuki stared at Kirishima for a few moments. Caught himself on not being sure what to say, again. After a few more seconds he found himself liking the idea of dancing with Kirishima.
Even if it would be with those other idiots from their class, even if he wouldn't be able to entirely relax with them there, even if he wouldn't be alone with Kirishima-
But wait.
Right now, they were alone. Even if Kirishima said he wanted to dance with everyone, he still wanted to, right now in their room where he was alone with Katsuki.
He took a deep breath. He was reading too much into it. He knew. Yet still, if he had to be honest, the thought of Kirishima wanting to dance with him made his stomach flutter in this disgusting way it always did when he thought too long about how much he loved his stupid friend.
"It would be." Katsuki breathed out before he could think of a way to reject that idea, feeling multiple pops in his clenched fists.
"... What?" Kirishima's eyes widened as he seemed to stop breathing.
"It would be…" Katsuki stared at the floor, licking his suddenly dry lips. "It would be nice to dance… together." Head still down, he looked up at Kirishima who completely stopped moving.
Shit, too much? Katsuki thought, already mentally slapping himself in the face, but before he could take all that he said back, Kirishima sprinted to his phone, still on the dresser, then back to Katsuki and after few seconds of furious typing, he heard a slow song he didn't recognize.
Kirishima put the phone on the bed, took a deep breath then straightened his back and extended his hand towards Katsuki.
"May I have this dance?" His voice cracked, twice, but Katsuki didn't have it in him to make fun of that, too shocked about what was happening and unable to speak anyway.
So Katsuki held his breath as he slowly reached out and took Kirishima's warm hand. Their eyes met, but neither of them dared to speak as Kirishima audibly swallowed and put his hand on Katsuki's back, just below the shoulder blade, while Katsuki rested his hand on his shoulder and fought off the urge to step closer to him, so that their chests would be pressed together. They stood like that for a few seconds as music played, like awkward kids at a school dance in middle school, before Kirishima smiled shyly and took the first step, Katsuki following his lead, letting himself be guided throughout their dance.
As they slowly circled in place, Katsuki kept his eyes down, watching their shoes as he tried to not burn Kirishima's hand or his suit where he was clenching the material. He was hyper aware of Kirishima's hand on his back and found himself embarrassed and frustrated when he realised he wanted it to be on his waist.
Fuck, what was happening to him?
He didn't have time to answer, as he felt Kirishima's hand lightly squeeze his and Katsuki finally looked up, his face hotter when he saw the way Kirishima was smiling at him, almost as if he was that much happier about the situation than Katsuki already was. And he wasn't able to bite back his own smile anymore. This seemed to only fill Kirishima with more joy as he giggled and before Katsuki knew it, their joined hands were above his head and he was spun twice in place. He gasped when he realised his back was now pressed against Kirishima's chest, both of his hands held by him.
Wide eyed, Katsuki looked to the side at Kirishima, who was still grinning and resting his chin on Katsuki's shoulder as he still rocked them in place, and he couldn't help but laugh, leaning against his partner. He was so damn happy, he felt like he was floating. He never wanted this to end, this closeness and warmth and Kirishima completely focused on him with nothing but music surrounding them.
Kirishima let go of his hand and stepped back, spinning him again and this time, their chests were pressed together, his arm around Katsuki's back, and their faces so close, so so close, that all Katsuki would have to do was move an inch and their lips would be pressed together in a soft kiss, but before he could make up his mind, he felt himself be tilted backwards as Kirishima held him up by his waist, his world upside down as he hooked his leg around Kirishima's and Katsuki just laughed again, Kirishima with him.
They lost balance.
Of course they did, because Katsuki put a hand on Kirishima's cheek and since he didn't expect that, he tripped over nothing and here they were, on the floor next to the bed, Katsuki on the ground and Kirishima on him.
After a second, Kirishima groaned as he propped himself up on his elbow and stopped moving once he realised the position they were in, legs tangled, his arm still under Katsuki whose hands were on his chest and shoulder, their faces inches apart. Katsuki held his breath, waiting for what Kirishima would do and oh how much he hoped he'd just lean down and-
"Uh- hi?" Was what he said, and since the song was over, it was the only sound in the room.
Katsuki snorted before completely losing it and laughing uncontrollably. He put a hand on Kirishima's face and pushed him away, which forced him to roll off of Katsuki's body.
Still wheezing, Katsuki slowly pulled himself up and sat, leaning against the bed as he clutched at his stomach. He had no idea why this made him laugh so much, all he knew was that his jaw never before hurt from smiling.
He turned to Kirishima who must have been infected by his mood, since he was laughing too as he desperately tried to sit up, so Katsuki reached to him and helped him. Kirishima finally sat next to him, still giggling like an idiot as he put his forehead on Katsuki's shoulder.
Katsuki tried to calm down, but with each one of Kirishima's snorts or giggles, he was losing it again. He had no idea how long they sat like that but he knew he didn't want to get up.
Finally, after a few longer moments of quiet chuckles, Katsuki turned his head at the same time Kirishima lifted his own and their eyes met. Kirishima was smiling, his perfect eyes focused on Katsuki's before they glanced at his lips for a split second.
His lips..?
… Oh.
Carefully, just to see his reaction, Katsuki let his eyes linger on Kirishima's lips before he leaned a bit closer to him. Kirishima gasped softly before swallowing nervously and chuckling quietly as he leaned closer as well. Katsuki felt his breath on his lips and fingertips shyly brushing against his jawline, leaving goosebumps on his skin, before warm hand cupped his cheek.
Was that going to be his first kiss?
Their first kiss?
Could there be more?
Did it mean Kirishima liked him as well?
Loved him back?
All Katsuki could hear at that moment was the racing of his own heart.
This was happening, all he had to do was close the gap and-
Loud ringing from the bed made them jerk away from one another, suddenly aware of the situation.
Wide eyed, they stared at each other with shock and uncertainty, breathing heavily as Kirishima's phone continued to ring.
Katsuki swallowed and filled his lungs with air until they hurt.
"Pick up." He breathed out, trying to calm down as he held Kirishima's gaze.
"What-?" Kirishima blinked at him, dumbfounded.
"Your phone." Katsuki finally broke eye contact, glancing towards the bed. "Pick up." He repeated.
"Y-yeah. Right-" On all fours, Kirishima stumbled towards the bed and grabbed his phone. "Hello? … Ashido? No, I'm fine-"
The conversation trailed off as Katsuki used the moment of distraction to pull himself off the floor and quickly go to the bathroom. Once he locked the door, he leaned heavily against it and clutched at his chest, other hand covering his mouth.
For reasons unknown to him, Katsuki started trembling and he wrapped his arms around himself.
What have I done? He thought as he walked up to the sink, and on the way noticed he left his pyjamas there, but it didn't matter at the moment.
Katsuki looked at himself in the mirror; his wide eyes and knitted brows as well as the deep blush that still decorated his entire face, and he couldn't help but grimace at the sight.
Was that how Kirishima's face looked like, too?
When they pulled away from each other, Katsuki recognized shock on his face but what else was there? Fear? Disgust? There was something but without being able to recall his face at all Katsuki couldn't figure it out and God, he felt like he was about to throw up.
Kirishima hated him now. He must have. Katsuki just lost his best friend because he tried to kiss him on a whim and an off chance that Kirishima actually wanted to be kissed.
Katsuki reached to the back of his head and felt out his scar before painfully pulling on his hair.
Focus, just focus, it's not completely lost. Just go out there and pretend that nothing happened.
He stopped moving, stopped pulling on his hair and stopped breathing.
Nothing happened.
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Ashido called to make sure that Eijirou was alright, once she found out from Kaminari that they both were in the middle of that whole action and now that Eijirou was in a silent room again, he wanted to rewind the time.
What was he thinking..?
Bakugou was probably mad at him, even if Eijirou could hear him showering in the bathroom, he knew that once Bakugou was done, he'd be met with his rage.
Eijirou decided to once in his life not give into his insecurities and just wait for how the situation would unwind once Bakugou would step out.
He didn't need to wait long.
Bakugou, in his black pyjamas, walked through the door refreshed, with his usual, neutral frown and Eijirou immediately stood up.
"Baku-"
"You should shower too." Bakugou cut in as he walked up to his side of the bed without sparing Eijirou a single glance. "I'm going to sleep."
Eijirou swallowed nervously as he glanced at his phone. Right, even though the Sun was already up, it was still just 5am…
Still, Eijirou turned towards him.
"But-"
"Something you need? I'm tired." Bakugou's eyes were unreadable, almost cold.
Was he mad? Even if he was, Eijirou actually needed something.
Eijirou needed to talk about what just happened.
Apologise.
For whining so much that Bakugou agreed to dance with him, probably out of pity. For reading the signals wrong. For forcing himself on Bakugou…
"So?"
"... No." Eijirou said, looking down at the floor.
Like a coward.
Eijirou heard Bakugou get under the covers and still without looking at him, he stepped into the bathroom.
He felt tears in his eyes and he quickly wiped them away.
Bakugou was either mad at him or decided that it would be best to pretend nothing happened.
… Would it be?
Eijirou stared down at his hand, the same that just a few moments ago was touching Bakugou's soft skin. The same that would never get a chance to touch it again. Because if Eijirou wanted to keep this friendship, he would make sure he won't touch him like that ever again. He would follow Bakugou's example and pretend that none of this had happened.
After calming himself down, he took a quick shower then awkwardly stood in front of the door, the only barrier between him and Bakugou. Could anyone blame him for being nervous about returning to their room? To their bed?
Maybe Bakugou was already asleep?
With that thought, Eijirou braced himself and quietly opened the door.
"... Bakugou?" He whispered and sighed with relief when he didn't hear anything.
Slowly, Eijirou walked to the bed and lay down under the covers, taking a mental note to stay on his side as Bakugou was closer to the middle of the bed than the night before. Eijirou settled with his back to Bakugou, staring at the wardrobe on the other side of the room.
Apologising wouldn't make sense, since Bakugou wanted to pretend that nothing happened, but at least…
"Goodnight, Bakugou." Eijirou said quietly as he closed his eyes.
"… We’re friends, aren’t we?” The sudden whisper made Eijirou tense up.
“What?” Was all he could utter.
"... We're friends, right?" Bakugou asked, his voice unusually small and uncertain and Eijirou realised that he was making sure.
"Of course, Bakugou." He reassured, because if Eijirou couldn't have his love, he'd at least have his friendship.
"So since we're friends…" Bakugou started, his voice even quieter than before. "You can call me Katsuki."
Eijirou's eyes widened, his heart racing in his chest.
"Oh- oh…" Eijirou breathed out, clutching the material of his duvet in both of his hands. "You can-" his voice was trembling so he took a deep breath before he continued. "You can call me Eijirou…"
"... Okay." Bakugou whispered and Eijirou bit his lower lip.
"Okay." He whispered back, his face hot.
"... So could you try that again..?" Bakugou asked after a few more moments of silence.
Eijirou didn't need long to realise what he was asking of him, so he took a deep breath before he whispered shyly;
“Goodnight, Katsuki.” Eijirou heard a slow intake of breath behind him.
"Say that again.”
Eijirou's eyes widened.
"What-"
"I-" his quiet voice cracked and he cleared his throat "I didn't hear you… So say that again."
Eijirou swallowed and after taking a deeper breath to calm himself, he turned so he was facing Bakugou's back and finally, just a little bit louder, he said;
"Goodnight, Katsuki."
"Goodnight, Eijirou."
His heart swelled with happiness.
Notes:
I swear that they'll kiss some day.... Maybe in like..... 7 chapters? 8? ...9?
//coughs
Anyway......I didn't think there was a need to address this (since the rating of this fic is right there at the top), but I want to take this moment to announce that there will be NO SEX in this fic. No boners, no morning woods, no blowjobs, NOTHING. Making out? Yes, at some point. But KrBk having awkward teenage sex in my fic would bring nothing to the plot, not to mention that 1. I am not so great with writing and sharing smut and 2. Personally I would be uncomfortable with writing about 16yo and 15yo having sex. Nothing wrong with people who do write about that, I just don't wanna do that. Peace and love guys, if there's discourse in the comments about this, I will delete them <3
That being said, how stupid it would be to catch a cold in those trying times? Asking for a friend.
... That friend is me lmao fucking pray for meFun fact, out of 13.2k words, only 2.5k is ACTUAL canon from the movie.
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Chapter 31: Calm
Summary:
Horse whisperer but Kacchan is the horse
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Warm.
Katsuki felt warm.
Where was he anyway?
Was he dreaming?
It would be a nice dream… That warmth pressed against him and him pressing back into it, wanting to surround himself in it. That was until he felt light tingling on his nape, something heavy on his waist and he frowned, trying to figure out what was happening.
Katsuki needed a moment to realise he wasn't actually sleeping and to slowly blink his eyes open, squinting at the too thin curtains which let in a bit of light, enough to be too bright for him. He tried to turn around, but realised he couldn't for some reason, then he felt that tingling on his neck again and his eyes snapped wide open with realisation.
Eijirou was pressed against him.
He held his breath as more things finally became clear to him; that Eijirou (holy fuck he got to call him that now) and his legs were tangled together, that Eijirou's heavy arm was awkwardly thrown over his waist, and finally, that Eijirou's face was right behind his head.
"... Eijirou?" Katsuki said quietly, only slightly frustrated with using the name since he had bigger concerns at the moment, and clenched his teeth when there was no answer, just more of that warm breath, still tingling his neck.
How did this even happen? Sure, he lay down closer to the middle of the bed, but for it to turn out like this?
He had to fix it. He had to fix it before Eijirou woke up and started panicking and apologising and Katsuki just knew it would be awkward and they wouldn't be able to face each other and-
Keep it together. He told himself. No time for panicking.
Holding his breath, Katsuki slowly reached for Eijirou's wrist where it was resting near his stomach then grabbed it with utmost carefulness and inch by inch, started lifting it off the bed and the arm off him. Eijirou grunted in his sleep and Katsuki froze.
Shit shit shit shit shit- he tried to move away while still holding onto the wrist, but Eijirou just grunted again, muttering something illegible and Katsuki froze again as Eijirou moved and locked both of his arms around Katsuki's body, one of Eijirou's legs suddenly over both of his and that was how Katsuki found himself being cuddled.
Katsuki realised he was still holding his breath and he released it as he slowly managed to relax into the touch.
He's never allowed anyone to get that close to him without going away with a blow to their face, always found the concept of someone being that close highly uncomfortable and yet… He was enjoying his current situation.
Even if he was embarrassed, even if he slightly felt like he was using Eijirou at that moment, even if any other person tried to hold him like that he'd for sure panic and snap at them…
Katsuki felt safe.
He felt safe and warm and he didn't want this to get ruined by accidentally waking Eijirou up and making him uncomfortable and embarrassed about this whole situation.
So the decision was made, that he'd try his best to fall back asleep and let Eijirou deal with this when he would later wake up. This way, they both could pretend that this didn't happen.
Katsuki fully relaxed as he calmed himself down. He wished he could take Eijirou's hand into his, but that would be too much. This way he was the innocent one, not interacting with Eijirou who wasn't even aware of what he was doing, even if he didn't try to stop this anymore.
This way was better.
For both of their sakes.
He breathed slowly as he closed his eyes, smiling slightly to himself at the way Eijirou nuzzled his face into his nape.
I love you. Katsuki thought the words he'd never be able to say as he fell back into his sleep, wishing he could wake up like this every morning.
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Slowly, Katsuki blinked his eyes open and, to his displeasure, realized that the pleasant warmth was gone.
Meaning Eijirou was gone.
Meaning he woke up while cuddling Katsuki and was careful enough to not wake him up while getting away.
Well, Katsuki couldn't complain. After all, this was his own plan, for Eijirou to wake up and leave so that neither of them would feel bad but some part of Katsuki still wished he could see his embarrassed face.
Katsuki sighed and just as he sat up on the bed, the bathroom door opened, revealing Eijirou who stopped moving as soon as he realised that Katsuki was awake.
They stared at each other, Eijirou's lips pressed together. It seemed like he was holding his breath in suspense, as if he was waiting for Katsuki's first move and probably trying to figure out if Katsuki knew what happened when they were both asleep.
But instead of saying anything, Katsuki made sure that his face was neutral as he raised a brow at Eijirou's strange behaviour, which seemed to work as he blinked a few times and smiled awkwardly.
"Good morning!" He said louder than necessary.
"Good morning." Katsuki glanced to the side for a second of hesitation but quickly made up his mind to add; "Eijirou."
"Oh my-" Eijirou's breath hitched, eyes widening as he put a hand on the wall, as if to support himself and if Katsuki had to be honest, that reaction slightly made him panic.
Fuck, did he dream all that!?
"The hell's your problem!?" Katsuki yelled defensively, even if he didn't mean to, but that only caused Eijirou to laugh awkwardly.
"Nothing! Oh my God- nothing, it's just-" he took a deep breath before he straightened his back and a more natural smile appeared on his face. "Good morning, Katsuki!"
Katsuki's heart started pounding in his chest.
That's what he wanted to hear and now that he got to hear it, he had no idea how to proceed, besides clenching his fists on the sheets and frowning.
"You already said that…" He muttered as he tried to ignore Eijirou's cuteass giggle.
"Just wanted to say it right." Eijirou shrugged with a smile and walked away from the bathroom door, which Katsuki used as the opportunity to go there himself and hopefully get over his frustration.
This was ridiculous, Eijirou was supposed to be the frustrated one! Not him!
"Ah wait," Eijirou called out before Katsuki could close the door behind him. "Do you want to eat something here or wait for the barbecue?" He asked, glancing at the clock on the wall. "Just an hour until that."
"... What fucking barbecue?" Katsuki frowned, genuinely confused.
"... Right, I forgot you just woke up." Eijirou chuckled as he grabbed his phone from the nightstand, seemingly reading something off of its screen. "Since everyone's on the island we decided to have one last gathering before we see each other again for the camp. The whole class plus All Might! Exciting, right?" His smile didn't falter even when Katsuki rolled his eyes.
So instead of spending those last few hours before the flight home together, Eijirou wanted to go and waste that time with their entire class.
"You.. do you not want to go?" Eijirou's smile dropped after several moments of silence and Katsuki realised that since they didn't have a chance to go to that stupid opening party, Eijirou pretty much did everything Katsuki wanted to throughout the time they've been on the island.
"Stop with that pathetic face, we're going." Katsuki stated shortly and quickly locked the door before Eijirou could say anything.
___
Right after Katsuki (he got to call him that!) locked himself in the bathroom, Eijirou waited before he heard the shower running, grabbed his pillow and screamed into it. He meant to do it for the last half an hour ever since he woke up spooning Katsuki.
Spooning. Katsuki.
Katsuki who was asleep and so so warm. After waking up, just before Eijirou realised what exactly was happening, he could smell Katsuki's shampoo, pleasant scent making him smile in his half awake state, feel him breathing steadily, his back pressing against his chest and for just a moment, Eijirou let himself enjoy the situation and how right it felt to hold him like he did.
How the hell did he manage to do all that and how much luck did he have that Katsuki didn't wake up when he finally moved away in panic? He had no idea, but he was thankful for it. Eijirou could only imagine how mad Katsuki would be if he knew.
Or maybe, to his horror, Katsuki would pretend that nothing happened?
Just like with their almost-kiss?
Eijirou screamed into the pillow again.
He had to get a grip of himself before Katsuki would leave the bathroom and they'd have to go to that little barbecue party.
___
After they arrived, most of their classmates were already there, most of the work done, and Eijirou didn't even have time to worry about anyone's reaction to him calling Katsuki by his name, as his friend just walked away and sat at one of the lunch tables, giving off his natural don't talk to me aura. Before Eijirou had a chance to convince him to maybe spend some time with others, All Might asked him to watch the grill for a moment and Eijirou found himself staring at it rather absentmindedly, thinking about all the things that happened between him and Katsuki.
He wondered if everything would go back to normal after they'd go back home, if Katsuki would stop smiling almost all the time, would stop walking so close to him. Eijirou would dearly miss it even though he knew it didn't mean anything on Katsuki's part, besides that it was his way of showing he trusted him.
Kind of like a cat. Eijirou chuckled when he remembered how Katsuki would sometimes bump their shoulders together, whether they were walking beside each other, sitting or just standing.
"Whatcha smiling about?" Ashido leaned into his view, making him jump in surprise.
"Oh! Uh-" Eijirou gasped and glanced at the meat on the grill. "Just excited about food?" He shrugged and knew his lie didn't work when Ashido just rolled her eyes at him and straightened her back, waiting for him to speak with tilted brow. Eijirou sighed and glanced around to make sure no one was near them. "Okay, so… don't freak out."
Ashido's eyes immediately widened as she gasped.
"Oh shit, did you kiss Baku?" She clutched to his sleeve as she whispered dramatically and Eijirou's face simply burnt.
"No! Oh my God, no! Well, almost but-" he blurted and immediately regretted his words.
"WHAT!?" She screamed, catching the attention of some of their classmates.
Eijirou mentally slapped himself.
Why, just why did he say that?
"Is everything alright, young Ashido?" All Might spoke, suddenly next to Eijirou, as he towered over them.
"Everything's fine!" Eijirou yelled with panic and hurriedly started pushing Ashido, trying to get her away from All Might.
"AH! YEAH! EVERYTHING'S GREAT!" Ashido suddenly grabbed his wrist and ran away from the confused hero. She stopped only when they were away from the curious eyes of some of their classmates, hidden behind some trees and bushes. "What do you mean you almost kissed!?" She half yelled as she grabbed the collar of his shirt.
Eijirou grimaced and gently took her hands so she would let go.
He took a deep breath as he started fiddling with his fingers, gaze locked on the ground.
Ashido already knew they were sharing a room, Eijirou told her when she called the night before with worry that changed into playful annoyance that he didn't tell her earlier, but he was too overwhelmed to pay too much mind to what she was saying back then.
"We were… um… After we came back to our room, we were… dancing. Together." He looked back at her and when she nodded, he continued, thankful that she didn't comment on this. "And… God, I can't believe it…" With a bitter chuckle, he hid his face in his hands.
"Hey, you don't have to tell me-"
"We were so close! So close, Ashido, but then you called and it was like he realized what was happening and he jumped away and he looked so shocked and so sca-"
"Wait, stop, rewind." Ashido took his hands to pry them away from his face and looked at him with horror. "I was the one to interrupt your kiss?"
Eijirou blinked at her, suddenly aware that he started spiraling just a second ago.
"Uh- yeah, I guess?"
"... Aight." She patted his cheek and turned around.
"Where are you going?" Eijirou asked as he started following her.
"To drown myself or jump off of something, whatever I find first." She just continued walking with a blank expression, but Eijirou grabbed her and forced her to turn back to him.
"Not funny!" He frowned, but his expression turned into a surprised one when he noticed her lip wobbling. "Oh my God, don't-"
"But I ruined your chance at getting a boyfriend!" There were tears in her eyes. Actual tears and Eijirou found himself slightly panicking at her reaction.
"No, Ashido, oh jeez… no, it was a misunderstanding anyway! We were both caught up in a moment and he didn't even want this in the first place!" He explained quickly, ignoring the lingering pain in his chest as he put his hands on her shoulders.
"But-"
"Believe me, Katsuki's not interested in me in that way. It was just… an accident." Eijirou shrugged with a sad smile.
"... 'Katsuki'?" Ashido asked, her eyes wide, no trace of tears in them.
"Oh… yeah, there's- that." He chuckled, looking to the side and feeling his cheeks get warm. "He uh.. he offered to start calling him by his given name and we basically exchanged them…"
"And you dare to say he's not interested?!" Now she seemed annoyed as she swat at his hands so he was forced to let go of her. "After you two almost kissed and him being the one to offer that?!" She put her hands on her hips.
"Ashido, please, not so loud…" Looking around, Eijirou pleaded. "Don't make a big deal out of this…"
"But-!"
"Please… and don't tell anyone about the kiss…" Eijirou muttered as he glanced over his shoulder.
Katsuki was now sitting with Kaminari and Sero, then he noticed Hagakure, or rather her clothes, and Tsuyu standing at their table, but when Katsuki stood up and yelled something at them, they hurried away. Kaminari laughed, probably at whatever Katsuki yelled, and Eijirou realised that with Ashido, it'd be two of his friends keeping secrets from the rest of the group for him…
He sighed as he looked back at Ashido who was frowning at him before she sighed too.
"Alright." She crossed her arms. "But you two should really talk about your feelings towards each other." With a shrug, she started heading where Tsuyu and Hagakure were now standing, talking to All Might.
"There are no feelings on his part." Eijirou muttered to himself, but it made her stop and stare at him for a moment before her expression softened.
"Kiri… even if it is just you, it'll be easier to get it off your chest. … Easier to get over it." She gave him a little reassuring smile.
It was true.
Eijirou knew.
But at the same time he feared that Katsuki would refuse to honestly tell him how he feels about him.
Just like Nogashira... and just like with him, he'd be stuck in this endless cycle of uncertainty and-
"Shit, damn him…" Eijirou whispered angrily, frowning. Ashido tilted her head in confusion. "... I might need advice from you." He was ready to tell someone else.
And he needed advice from someone whose first instinct wouldn't be to say 'kill him'.
___
Katsuki watched as Eijirou pushed Bubblegum away from All Might, but before he could give it more thought, someone sat down next to him at the table.
"Heeey Kacchan, how are you after yesterday?"
Katsuki scrunched his nose at the nickname spoke in a voice that wasn't Deku's. Looking at the person next to him, he noticed the black lightning-like streak of hair among the bright yellow and realised that it was Kaminari grinning at him.
"Fucking tired." He muttered and noticed someone else sitting in front of him.
"You guys had it harder… Actually fighting for the entire night." The guy with black hair shrugged and smiled widely, showing off his huge teeth.
Ah, Sero.
Both of them must have just arrived, otherwise Eijirou would have told him they were here.
"Someone had to do something, I wasn't going to just sit on my fucking ass, like some people." Katsuki retorted.
"Hey, what was I supposed to do?" Sero frowned at him. "Leave my room and get myself beaten up by the robots as I tried to make it to the other side of the island?" He threw his hands up in the air.
"Better than just waiting around. Even Pikachu here did something until he fucked himself up with his own quirk."
"Hey, I was already inside the tower!" Kaminari defended Sero as he nudged Katsuki's shoulder with his fist, for which Katsuki glared at him but he didn't seem bothered as he continued. "Besides, not my fault that my quirk comes with that kind of a disadvantage." Leaning on one hand, he muttered as he started playing with a napkin that was on the table.
"Then you gotta fucking work on it, build up endurance." Katsuki stated, rolling his eyes. "Almost every quirk comes with some stupid flaw."
"Yours too?" Sero spoke up, a teasing smirk clear on his face.
"I said almost." Katsuki answered as he clenched his fists.
"Come on," Kaminari leaned slightly towards him with a smirk similar to Sero's. "There's definitely something!"
"There fucking isn't, shut your fucking mouth."
"Oh, can your own explosion hurt you? Or are you immune?" Kaminari prodded further and Katsuki froze, eyes full of anger locked on Kaminari whose smile disappeared and he started scooting away. "I uh-" he swallowed, glancing nervously at Sero.
"The skin on my elbows gets super dry!" Sero blurted out as he raised both of his elbows as if to make a point. "And my joints hurt when I release too much tape at once!"
Kaminari laughed awkwardly, saying something about lotion, while Katsuki slowly breathed out.
The insinuation… the fact that he could get hurt by his own fucking quirk… He didn't want anyone to know, to be aware of that, to talk about that. If they knew he could hurt himself with it, they'd be that much more afraid of what he could do to others, and after he miraculously managed to build some actual positive relationships after all this time…
"Oh, you guys are talking about quirks?" High pitched voice chimed behind Katsuki and he peered over his shoulder to see floating clothes and a frog-like girl next to them.
Invisible girl and Frog face.
"Yeah, we were wondering what kind of weaknesses can come with them!" Kaminari immediately answered and Katsuki rolled his eyes at his eagerness to invite other people into their conversation, even though he wanted it to be over.
"Oooh! Well, I can't turn off my quirk so that's pretty much it I think?" Invisible girl chimed in with a shrug.
"I get cold really quick." Frog face tilted her head, finger on her chin. "To the point of hibernating if it's really bad."
"And why would you tell anyone about such a weakness?" Katsuki spat.
"Aw, come on, Kacchan! We're all friends here!" Kaminari chuckled as Sero nodded.
Katsuki stopped for a second at that.
Right.
Those two idiots were supposed to be his friends.
"Is there some flaw to your quirk, Bakugou-chan?" Frog spoke up and Katsuki's anger came back.
"There isn't, why is everyone fucking asking that-"
"Oh, but your arms start hurting after a while, don't they?" Invisible girl mused and everyone got silent as Katsuki's blood boiled.
"What the fuck-"
"Ochako-chan said that she noticed something during your fight at the sports festival, so is that right? Is it?" She jumped slightly in place, completely oblivious to his reaction, her voice way too sweet for his liking.
"Ah, I noticed it too, when I was rewatching the fights." Frog spoke up again and turned towards that invisible bitch as if she could see where her face was.
"THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH MY FUCKING QUIRK, GET LOST!" Katsuki stood up, several explosions going off as the two girls quickly walked away.
Behind him, Kaminari laughed and Katsuki glared at him over his shoulder.
"Dude, chill, no one's going to hate you and your quirk if it causes you pain." He waved his hand around, still chuckling.
"Yeah, if anything, they'd be sympathetic." Sero added with a shrug.
Katsuki frowned as he fought off an urge to reach back to his scar.
That would be worse than hate. He thought as he sat back down and decided to not indulge in that stupid topic anymore.
"I wonder what kind of a flaw Kirishima's quirk has." Sero continued.
Ah. This he could talk about.
Katsuki wanted to know what kind of a weakness Eijirou's quirk had, to help him improve. Wanted to know so that he could keep him safe and make sure he wouldn't ever get hurt.
"Speaking of, Kacchan, do you know where he is?"
"I'm not his fucking nanny." Katsuki answered shortly, but he couldn't help but actually wonder where Eijirou was. Last time he saw him he was with Ashido, and they were practically running away from All Might for whatever reason.
"Well, you two seem pretty close… And all that business with coming here together and stuff…" Kaminari mused, his voice tinted with some sort of strange insinuation.
"Wait, what? What did I miss?" Sero asked with confusion and Katsuki rolled his eyes.
"I had an extra invitation. End of the conversation." Katsuki cut in before Kaminari could explain anything else. At least the fucker didn't know that they arrived a day earlier…
"Still! You invited him of all people." Kaminari pressed with a strange expression.
"It was Eijirou or my mother, take a fucking guess why I didn't want to bring her." Katsuki crossed his arms as he stared at the table with a frown, thinking about several messages and missed calls from her, the only one he actually answered being when he's coming back.
Besides, he didn't need to mention that one of the main reasons he invited Eijirou was because he was in love with the idiot.
Katsuki shifted uncomfortably, suddenly aware that he was being stared at in complete silence, and looked up to see Sero and Kaminari's eyes locked on him.
"... The hell's your problem?" Glaring at them, Katsuki straightened in his seat.
"What did you just call him?" Sero uttered with a stunned expression.
"Called who what now?"
"You just-" Kaminari spoke up, equally shocked, but after a second, a small grin appeared on his face. "You used Kirishima's given name!" Shock gone, completely replaced with some sort of a strange excitement, Kaminari fully turned to face Katsuki who suddenly felt sick.
"I didn't fucking use anything!" Ears burning, he argued even though he knew there was no point to it. He said what he said and they both heard him, loud and clear.
"You said it! You absolutely said his name!" Kaminari actually stood up, looming slightly over Katsuki who found it more annoying than uncomfortable as he usually would.
Why was he denying it anyway? As much as he was still a bit flustered by saying Eijirou, he was damn proud that he had the privilege to do so.
Was it because he didn't want other people to think they could do that too? Knowing Eijirou, if asked, he'd let them call him by his given name as well.
That would make Katsuki less special, and even if he was just a friend, he enjoyed this status. He'd take it over being completely rejected.
"What I call him is none of your business." Katsuki settled on as he stood up and leveled Kaminari with his eyes.
"Hey, come on, no need to kill poor Kaminari with your eyes!" Sero finally spoke and when Katsuki glared at him, he saw a sly grin. "It's not that big of a deal, dude!"
"Then why make it a big deal?" Katsuki hissed as his angry gaze returned to now silent Kaminari, even if he was still smiling, he at least seemed a bit intimidated. "Fucking whatever." He huffed and turned to go and find another table to sit at on his own.
Even if he somehow liked those two idiots, he wasn't obligated to spend time with them.
"Katsuki, wait!"
He heard the well known voice behind him and something bloomed in his chest at the sound of his name.
Biting down his stupid smile, he turned back and saw the familiar tuft of red hair some distance away, its owner enthusiastically waving at him.
Eijirou.
"Oh, someone's happy." Kaminari commented but innocently looked away with a poorly hidden smile when Katsuki glared at him again.
Shit, was it that obvious? He thought no one could really read him, besides maybe his mother or Eijirou and even they didn't have him completely figured out. Damn, his mother wasn't even half as good as Eijirou was at it, and how fucking Kaminari compared to that?
"-while you stay here?" Eijirou's voice was suddenly close and Katsuki realized he was already at their table, staring at him. "... Katsuki?" His voice was a bit shy as he tilted his head with a smile to die for.
"What?" Katsuki blinked at him, his eye twitching when he heard a snort from Sero.
"I was asking if you'll hold the table for us as we go get food. All Might said it's ready." Eijirou pointed behind him while Sero stood up and slowly started heading to All Might along with Kaminari.
"Uh, ye- yeah, fuck, not like I have anything better to do." Katsuki stuttered, happy that Kaminari and Sero weren't here to witness it, before he rolled his eyes and sat down, resting his chin on his palm.
"Thanks, Katsuki. Be right back!" Eijirou beamed at him and turned to run up to the other two.
Katsuki stared after him for a moment, his face flushed as he wondered, but definitely didn't complain, why Eijirou was using his given name so much.
Maybe he was just getting used to it? Or maybe he caught up on the fact that it made Katsuki the happiest man on earth, even if he was flustered by it? Maybe he did so so Katsuki would get used to it? Did it mean he should be using Eijirou's name just as much? Because damn, he was more than willing to do so. He could even ignore the stupid teasing from Kaminari, or anyone for that matter, if it meant he could just repeat Eijirou's name over and over again and holy fuck, how did this simple thing made him so happy.
Stupid love. Katsuki thought as he once again fought off his hopeless smile when he recognized that Eijirou was coming back, laughing and talking to Sero and Kaminari.
He looked happy among their classmates, their friends, and Katsuki realized that he didn't mind spending this time with a few extra people if it meant that Eijirou would shine like that.
Besides, maybe Katsuki didn't mind that strange friendly teasing as much as he initially thought and let other people think. He'd just have to endure it for a few more hours before they'd have to go to the airport, their trip over.
___
They were about to go through the security gate when they got approached by two police officers.
"Before you go, the two of you were involved in yesterday's incident, right?" Rather plain looking officer spoke in less than a friendly tone.
"Yeah…" Eijirou confirmed and noticed Katsuki tense up next to him.
"Kirishima Eijirou and Bakugou Katsuki, correct?" The same officer tapped something on his tablet and turned it to them, their school IDs on the screen.
Right, everyone on the island has to go through the identification process. Eijirou thought as he remembered that Katsuki had to send the pictures of their IDs.
"We already talked to the security about it." Katsuki frowned next to him, his shoulders tense and gloved hands clenched.
"Yes, but we need to ask you a few questions." This time the tall woman with three eyes and light green skin spoke. "Like what the two of you were doing all the way up on the 80th floor?" She asked with tilted brow, her partner sighing with impatience.
"Oh, I just-" Eijirou started but then realized he'd have to admit in front of Katsuki that he got them lost on purpose. "I mean.. we just… got lost." He smiled awkwardly, feeling bad for lying to the police officers. It kind of felt like lying to his mom, especially that the woman was similar to her with her height.
"Considering the certain… reputation you've got-" the man pointed to Katsuki who glared at him "we just find it suspicious that of all people you were the one to be there accidentally."
"The hell is that supposed to-"
"Katsuki… Come on…" Eijirou cut in, fully aware that Katsuki was righteously angry.
"We'll just quickly ask you some questions and you can be on your way." The woman spoke again in a nicer tone than her partner. "Kirishima-kun, please come with me."
"But-"
"The sooner we go, the sooner it'll be over." She insisted, putting a hand on his shoulder as she started walking away from her partner, now left with Katsuki alone.
Shit.
Eijirou was quick to realize that that man wasn't the biggest fan of Katsuki so he hoped that he'd be left with the woman, but now he was just worried and couldn't help but keep glancing back at the two of them as he stood several meters away, out of earshot.
"Kirishima-kun."
Eijirou jumped.
"Y-yes?"
"I see you're worried about your friend," she smiled at him, "but if the two of you were there actually just by accident, then it'll all be alright." She reached to her bag for her own tablet, smaller than the other officer's, and typed something out on it.
Just now Eijirou decided to glance at her badge where he could see her name, Amagashi.
"So, were the two of you actually lost or did the two future heroes decide to conspire with the villains?" Amagashi's voice had a note of playfulness to it, but Eijirou knew there was no point in lying to her.
"Actually…" He glanced over his shoulder and noticed how much tenser Katsuki was, head between his shoulders. "Katsuki thinks we were lost, but…" Eijirou trailed off as he noticed her type something in quickly. "I got us there because I wanted to surprise him with the factory plant. To have some nice time before the opening party to which he didn't really want to go!" He blurted out in one breath, feeling his cheeks getting hot.
Eijirou hadn't realized that he squeezed his eyes shut before he heard a chuckle and they snapped back open, Amagashi hiding a smile behind her hand.
"Ohh, teenagers." She sighed as she put her tablet back into her bag and smiled at him. "You should have started with that."
Eijirou chuckled awkwardly.
"Well, like I said… Katsuki didn't know…" He repeated, fiddling with his fingers. It seemed like she wanted to say something, but her phone rang and she quickly excused herself after telling him to stay right there.
But, of course, Eijirou wanted to go to Katsuki.
That want only grew when he turned and saw that now Katsuki's hand was on the back of his head, a gesture Eijirou learned was some kind of comfort for Katsuki. He wasn't entirely sure from this distance, but he thought he saw him shaking and absolutely hated he couldn't help him out of this stressful situation.
Hated that out of uncertainty of the consequences he couldn't bring himself to just walk up there and tell the officer off. He was so worried and he didn't know what to do. It would have been easier if he were angry. He could act in anger but worry? Worry for Katsuki and himself? Maybe if he got angry-
"Sorry, Kirishima-kun." Amagashi put a hand on his shoulder. "I'll go explain to my partner and you'll be free to go! And don't worry," she winked at him with two out of three eyes, "your boyfriend won't know anything." And Eijirou was too frustrated to correct her.
He watched as she walked up to the other officer and leaned down to him to probably whisper what was going on and after a roll of eyes, which annoyed Eijirou, both officers nodded at Katsuki and headed to the exit.
Eijirou quickly made his way to Katsuki who stood there, posture tense and angry eyes locked on the floor.
"Hey, you okay?" Eijirou asked as he carefully reached and brushed his fingers against Katsuki's wrist, just above where the glove was ending.
"Do we have time to go outside so I can blow something up?" Katsuki said quietly but still managed to sound angry.
"Ah… no, I don't think so…" Eijirou chuckled without any ounce of humor.
Katsuki's frown deepened and he took a deep breath.
"Of course that's how this fucking trip would end…" He spat as he cracked his knuckles and headed towards security gates, Eijirou right after him.
"We can still have some fun on the plane!" With a nudge to Katsuki's shoulder, Eijirou smiled after they were checked and free to go.
"... Right." Katsuki grimaced as he put on his backpack. "Fucking plane."
Eijirou remembered how their takeoff and the landing looked like and decided to be a bit bolder about that situation. Maybe it would help Katsuki.
"... I can hold your ha-"
"Shut up!" Katsuki cut in, his ears immediately reddening. "Shut up, I don't know what you're talking about!" He yelled as he quickly stomped away and Eijirou couldn't help but laugh at his reaction.
Well, if he wanted to hold Eijirou's hand, he would do it.
After all, Eijirou wouldn't mind.
___
Katsuki was relieved when Eijirou didn't comment on him reaching out and joining their hands.
___
Mitsuki stood near the exit from the airport, her arms crossed over her chest and foot tapping against the floor impatiently. She just couldn't wait for her brat to finally walk through the gate. Masaru had to talk her down from going to the island herself on the same day they found out Katsuki just went there earlier without telling the two of them.
Fucking audacity. Mitsuki frowned when she thought about all the calls Katsuki ignored during those few days. Could he not understand that she was fucking worried? Especially when she found out that the island was under attack?!
She tried to calm down and relax after some kid looked at her and almost started crying.
Then she saw Katsuki and her blood started boiling before she realized…
Katsuki was smiling.
It was a subtle barely visible smile, but it was there. Directed at Eijirou, the boy talking about something with excitement.
Mitsuki tried to think if Katsuki ever smiled like that before and realized she's never actually seen him like that. Relaxed. At ease. In a public space with a lot of people, something that always made him uncomfortable. She knew Katsuki's never had a true friend before so Eijirou must have been that much more important to him, to the point that the outside factors didn't matter to her usually guarded boy.
Ah… And she wondered if Eijirou got tired of Katsuki's attitude…
Before she knew it, they were a few meters away from her, Katsuki even glanced at her and she felt a bit of a sting when he didn't react at all and it took Eijirou to recognize her and stop walking for her son to stop as well.
"Mitsuki-san!" Eijirou exclaimed, clearly surprised and that was when Katsuki really looked at her and his eyes widened ever so slightly, like each time he was recognizing someone.
She vaguely wondered if he was even aware of that little gesture of his.
"Hello, boys." She spoke in a quiet tone as she walked up to them.
Katsuki straightened his posture as he frowned, but didn't say anything and she was well aware that he was getting ready to argue with her.
"Do you need a lift home, Eijirou-kun?" She smiled at him.
"Oh, no, thank you, my mom will pick me up in a few minutes…" Eijirou smiled back at her, although she could say he was nervous by the way he was fiddling with his fingers and glancing at tense Katsuki.
"Well then, I hope you two had fun, let's go home now, Katsuki." She turned around and slowly headed to the exit, giving them time to say their goodbyes.
She heard Eijirou say that he'll call Katsuki later and she smiled under her nose.
Once they were in the car, Mitsuki didn't immediately start, but stared at Katsuki until he finally looked back at her, frown still present.
"What do you want?" He asked with spite and she had to gather all of her patience to not snap at him.
But she needed to know one thing to fully calm herself down.
"Did you have fun?" That simple question made Katsuki's eyes go wide before his ears turned pink and he slumped down in his seat.
"... Yes…" He finally answered in a surprisingly shy tone as he took off his gloves without looking at her. "Lots of fun…"
"... Alright." She patted him on his head and started the car. "You're still grounded, though."
"Oh for fuck's sake…" Katsuki muttered as he crossed his arms and she smirked.
That was enough to calm her anger.
___
Ashido: So?
Kiri: … so?
Ashido: Did you talk to Nogashira??
Kiri: oh my god, no, when even, we just got back yesterday
Ashido: well you've had plenty of time >:(
Kiri: I messaged him tho, told him I wanna talk…
Ashido: and?
Kiri: he's away until the end of the week and then we have our training camp so I guess I'll talk to him after that…
Ashido: You could always just call him!
Kiri: It'd be unmanly to deal with things this way!
Ashido: alright >:(((
Ashido: And what about Baku? You gonna hang out with him and… you know?
Kiri: Katsuki's… uh… grounded…
Ashido: WHY DOES THE UNIVERSE HATE LOVE?!
Kiri: At least I can still talk to him on the phone! But besides, my mom took this week off so we can spend time together so I wouldn't have time to hang out anyway..
Ashido: ლ(ಠ益ಠ)ლ
Ashido: I'm happy for u of course bUT DAMN IT, JUST CONFESS OVER THE PHONE OR SOMETHING PL E S A
Kiri: THAT WOULD BE UNMANLY!!!
Ashido: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Kiri: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Kiri: ….
Kiri: I'll confess at the end of the camp…
Ashido: !!!!!!!!!!
Ashido: Why not at the beginning??
Kiri: So we can have some time away from each other when it goes badly and before school starts
Ashido: IF it goes badly, come on! Horns up, horn buddy!! Be positive!
Kiri: yeah…
___
Katsuki really had hoped that he could sit next to Eijirou on their way to the camp, but before he knew it, Kaminari started yelling something about being car sick, then in the rush he was pushed to the back of the bus and before he knew it, he was sitting next to the Bird head.
Well, at least it was more quiet than at the front of the bus, if he wasn't going to count Sero loudly talking to- whoever the fuck was sitting across him.
With a slight frown, Katsuki glanced over his shoulder and at a guy with messy purple hair.
He was yet to memorise all the names of his classmates, but he was pretty sure he got the nicknames down, and this guy definitely didn't have one. Besides, when he counted everyone in the bus, this one was an extra.
Their eyes met for a second and Katsuki's frown deepened when the guy immediately looked away, but he didn't have a chance to ponder more about it as he felt his phone buzz in his pocket. With Eijirou's name on the screen, Katsuki had to bite down the smile tugging at his lips.
Eijirou: I noticed you wondering so I'm gonna tell you that it's Shinsou! The one that uhh… after Sports festival… ya know.
Katsuki glanced again at the purple haired guy with slight anger before leaning slightly out of his seat to try and catch Eijirou's gaze and soon enough his favorite Shitty hair was waving at him with a smile, catching his attention with ease. After waving back, Katsuki settled in his seat and messaged him.
Katsuki: The hell is he doing here
Eijirou: Bro, weren't you listening to Aizawa-sensei?
Katsuki blinked at that before he realized that he was too busy trying not to freak out over Eijirou leaning on him as they stood in front of the bus while Aizawa talked in a tired, monotonous tone.
Eijirou: He said Shinsou will be joining the hero course so he's here to catch up on some studies!
Katsuki: Whatever
Eijirou: come on, that's a new potential classmate!
Katsuki: another name to learn! Yay! :)
Eijirou: I'm BEGGING you to STOP using thAT EMOJI
Katsuki: :^)
Eijirou: That's even worse, Katsuki. >:(
Katsuki: Oh, come on Eijirou :o)
Eijirou: WQKDJFNWKBFX BLOCKED
Katsuki: h a h
An hour passed on them exchanging senseless messages like this before the bus stopped for a break in the middle of nowhere where Katsuki immediately thought something was wrong.
"What kind of rest stop is this…" Someone muttered next to him but he didn't care enough to check, too busy looking for Eijirou.
As he spotted the gelled up red hair, he made to walk up to him, but that was when the sudden excited cheers of 'We're the Wild Wild Pussycats!!' forced him to stop and take in two women in flashy hero costumes with cat paws and tails, posing some distance away from where they gathered near the bus.
"What the fuck." Katsuki let out while grimacing, even more when Deku started going off about the pair that was apparently a part of a four member hero team.
Then one of the heroines explained that their lodging was at the foot of a far away mountain and-
Wait.
Then why would they stop here of all places, while still having over an hour of the bus drive-
… Shit. Katsuki thought as she told them they should get to the facility by noon before the other one used her quirk to terraform the terrain and throw them off the cliff.
"This is a private territory, so feel free to use your quirks!" She yelled after them and before Katsuki could wonder a second longer why they would need to do so, beasts made of earth and stone began attacking them.
By noon, huh? Katsuki sneered to himself as he charged at the one nearest him. Fine.
___
Eight hours.
Eight fucking hours of running around and using their quirks to their limit.
Katsuki's arms were throbbing from pain even as he tried to massage them since trying to endure the sting of his muscles wasn't working in the slightest.
Although it was worth it in some way, since the blonde heroine, Katsuki assumed it was the same one who used her quirk on them since she was still wearing the strange hero costume, complimented him and few others about them acting quickly, as if that was something she wasn't expecting from the first years.
Before he could give it more thought, there was a commotion and Katsuki turned just in time to see Deku being punched in the junk by a boy.
"Nice kid." He huffed with a smirk.
"You two are a lot alike."
Katsuki heard and turned around, already mad but getting even angrier once he realized who exactly dared to say that.
"A lot alike!? Fuck off! I don't want to hear anything from you, mr. Threw-the-match!" Katsuki yelled with a glare, rolling his eyes at the half assed 'sorry' from Todoroki.
Todoroki? Katsuki wondered for a split second. Yeah, fucking Todoroki. He nodded to himself while ignoring the confused tilt of a brow from fucking Half face.
"Enough of fooling around," Aizawa gestured at the building and started heading inside. "Drop your things off in your rooms then come to dinner in the mess hall."
"Wait wait wait!" The blonde heroine jumped in front of Aizawa. "You need to take a class photo!"
Katsuki grimaced.
"We don't need one." Aizawa answered flatly to Katsuki's relief as he tried to walk around the woman.
"Did you even take one at the beginning of the year?" The one with short brown hair asked with an amused smile.
"We didn't!" Someone chimed in with excitement and Katsuki looked over his shoulder to recognize Uraraka.
"It's unnecessary for your hero studies-"
"Don't be so strict, Eraserhead!" The blonde one pushed him away from the entrance while the other one yelled something about getting the camera from inside. "Come on, kids! Gather here!" She smiled, gesturing for them to form a group.
Katsuki stood his ground as everyone, some more excitedly than others, slowly started heading over to her.
"Katsuki?"
His head shot to the right where he heard the familiar voice.
"... Eijirou." He spoke quietly, his expression softening before he noticed someone else behind him. "Pikachu." Katsuki frowned after a short second of staring at him.
"Oh, come on! You definitely know my name by now!" Kaminari pouted, leaning on Eijirou's shoulder. "Use it once in a while!"
"It just means you're not important enough." Katsuki shrugged.
"Hey, don't say stuff like that, that's unmanly!" Eijirou, despite the disapproving tone of his voice, grinned at him at which Katsuki just rolled his eyes.
Yeah, maybe that was a bit too harsh.
"Whatever."
"That means 'sorry' in the Katsuki speech." Eijirou informed Kaminari who snorted and started laughing.
"As if! Stop laughing, Pikachu!" Katsuki shoved him which only caused him to laugh even more and for Eijirou to snicker next to him. "Shut up!"
"I'm not saying anything!" Eijirou raised his hands with a beaming smile on his face. "Anyway! Let's go and take that picture!"
Katsuki's annoyance turned into slight discomfort.
"I hate taking fucking pictures." Katsuki was pretty sure he told that to Eijirou before.
"Aw, are you camera shy, Kacchan?" Kaminari leaned towards him with a smirk.
"Fuck off." Katsuki shoved him again.
"Kaminari…" Eijirou nudged him with his elbow. "Come on, man…"
"... Okay, okay. Convince him on your own, dear Kacchan whisperer." Kaminari bowed to Eijirou before he walked away, shooting finger guns towards them.
"Kacchan whisperer?" Katsuki asked with a scrunched up face in confusion, not sure if he should be offended.
"Oh, it's uh.." Eijirou chuckled with a shrug. "I guess the way you actually listen to what I have to say? As opposed to other people?" He vaguely gestured where Kaminari was now hanging on one of Octopus' arms.
"... It's because you listen to me." Katsuki muttered, crossing his arms as he glanced down at his shoes. "Sometimes it's like you can hear me even when I don't say anything." He huffed with half a smile before realising what he said. "I mean-" he made to correct himself but stopped when he saw Eijirou's expression changing from stunned to something akin to fucking affection.
No, no no no, that wasn't it.
"Well, then I really must be some kind of a whisperer." He chuckled while Katsuki felt his heart squeeze at the way Eijirou's eyes sparkled with pure happiness.
I'll burn this place down for you. He thought, gritting his teeth so that he wouldn't say those words out loud.
"So uh… wanna head over there?" Eijirou, that dreamy smile still on his face, took a step towards the forming group of their classmates.
Katsuki only stared at them all.
It was just a single picture. There were several dozens of them in his house, so why did he feel so much discomfort over one class photo?
"... Wanna take one together before the class one?" Eijirou asked all of a sudden, taking his phone out of his pocket. "As a… uh.. warm up?" He gave a shy smile while Katsuki blinked at him.
"You had your phone on you the entire time we were out there?"
"Yeah, it even fell out of my pocket at some point." Eijirou chuckled awkwardly as he pointed at the cracked screen and Katsuki couldn't help but snort at it. "Hey! How was I supposed to know they were going to literally throw us into the forest for several hours!" He argued with a pout which only caused Katsuki to cover his face as he laughed. "At least it's still working!"
"Fucking alright." He agreed as he slowly calmed down.
"Really!?" Eijirou practically teleported next to him, excitement pouring out of him.
Katsuki cleared his throat as he took half a step back, his heart pounding.
"Yeah… let's take a fucking picture."
Eijirou opened his camera app and turned it so it was facing them, then he looked at Katsuki and stopped, his smile flattening.
"... What?" Katsuki raised a brow at him.
"Can I just-" Eijirou approached him and positioned his arm just above his shoulders. "Is that okay?" He asked quietly while Katsuki felt his insides twisting.
Holy shit.
Katsuki nodded stiffly as he crossed his arms, his heart doing around ten fucking backflips in his chest. He really hoped that Eijirou couldn't feel or hear it, now that his arm was properly around Katsuki's shoulders, him leaning that much closer to him, their cheeks almost touching.
"Smile at the camera!"
Katsuki felt himself blush when he felt Eijirou's hand squeeze his shoulder.
"No way." He said instead, trying to keep his voice steady after he swallowed a lump that formed in his throat.
"Then at least look at it!" Eijirou lightly bumped his head against Katsuki's, and if he didn't move it back, neither of them mentioned anything.
After a short second, the picture had been taken and Eijirou, arm still around Katsuki's shoulders, looked at it happily.
"Nice! Want me to send it to you?" He asked as he moved the phone so that Katsuki could see the screen.
Katsuki almost grimaced when he saw but didn't recognize himself, out of habit more than anything, but Eijirou of course noticed his weird reaction.
"Something's wrong, Katsuki?" Eijirou's voice was full of concern. "Want me to delete it?" And fuck if he didn't sound like the saddest person in the world.
"No- no, shit, of course not. Just- send it to me, okay?" Katsuki wanted a picture of Eijirou on his phone, even if he was in it too.
"Okay!" Eijirou backed away to send the picture and Katsuki felt somehow colder without that arm around him.
"Oh, you two are still here? Go join the others, I brought the camera!" Some woman stood next to them.
"Yeah! Of course, sorry!" Eijirou grabbed his wrist and quickly headed towards their class. "That was Mandalay, by the way. One of the Pussycats from earlier." He whispered with a wink before they joined the others.
Katsuki loved how genuine Eijirou was, how thoughtful. Katsuki was also surprised at how easy for Eijirou was to read him and be able to figure out what he was feeling. It scared him a bit, too. That Eijirou might figure out that Katsuki was in love with him, but he would just have to make sure that he didn't get too comfortable.
As they joined their class to pose for the picture, he fully intended to stay in the back, behind Ashido and Uraraka, but then Eijirou gestured for him to take place next to him, in the front row and the smile he gave was just simply irresistible...
Seriously. He thought as he squatted down on the ground, next to Eijirou, as they got ready for 'Mandalay' to take the photo. Like a fucking whisperer.
___
They've set down their bags in the boys' shared room and while most of the others already went to the mess hall, Katsuki stayed behind for a moment, looking for his phone in his bag, rejoicing when he finally fished it out and opened the message from Eijirou that was the picture of the two of them.
He smiled a little to himself as he saved it then stared at Eijirou's toothy smile and thought about his arm over his shoulder, their cheeks touching. If he squinted he could see a small blush on Eijirou's face, not that he was any better, but despite his presence ruining the picture, there was still this strange temptation inside of him, to set it as his home screen. He could even crop himself out of it just for it to be of Eijirou, but he wasn't sure if it would come off as strange or even creepy. It was something that friends did, right? Setting up their selfies together as home screens or whatever, but was it something he could do too?
Katsuki stared at the picture on his phone.
It wasn't like anyone would know, right? No one was even supposed to go through another person's phone, right? And he could just set the picture up as it was, without cropping himself out no matter how much he wanted to, this way he could just say that Eijirou was his fucking friend, right?
"Oh, Bakugou-san, what are you still doing here?"
Katsuki heard behind him and quickly pocketed his phone before turning to see the girls from his class, Ponytail being the one who spoke.
"All on your own? That's unusual." Earphones joked, Uraraka chuckling next to her and just now did Katsuki realize that he was completely alone in the room.
"Baku!" Ashido stepped in. "Ooooh! Yours is so much bigger!" She clasped her hands together as she looked around, bouncing on her feet.
"Fucking obviously, there's like five of you or whatever." He retorted, rolling his eyes as he walked past her and out of the room.
"Hey! Six!" Floating clothes jogged up to him, the sleeves crossed over the chest.
"Not my fault you're forgettable." Katsuki shrugged with a smirk.
"So harsh, Bakugou-san." Ponytail commented next to him, Frog face nodding along.
"You get used to it, Yaomomo!" Ashido smiled as she nudged him with her elbow.
Right, Yaomomo.
"Don't get too friendly." Katsuki frowned slightly as he fastened his pace but then stopped dead in his tracks, causing the girls to stop as well, as a strange idea occurred to him.
"Something's wrong, Bakugou-chan?" Frog face tilted her head.
Katsuki decided to ignore the ridiculous honorific in favor of swallowing down his pride to ask;
"You guys take pictures with each other all the time, right?" He asked with the most neutral face he could utter and he really hoped none of them realized how his voice almost cracked on the question.
But they just blinked at him before silently glancing at each other.
"Jesus fucking- you all are friends or whatever, right? That's something you do, right?" Embarrassment creeping up on him, he tried his best to urge them without being an ass.
"No no, we get it!" Ashido took a step towards him. "I guess it just comes off as… surprising?" She glanced at the others and continued after she received a few nods. "That you'd ask us about anything." She chuckled as she took out her phone.
"Whatever, just answer the question, we don't have the entire day." He frowned at her, trying to not curse her out.
"Well, we definitely do that, look!" She unlocked her phone with a smile and as she turned it towards Katsuki, right there on the home screen was her with the Invisible girl and Frog face.
Well, that answered his next question and he didn't have to further embarrass himself.
"Fucking perfect." He cut the conversation short and turned around to walk away, his thoughts already on the picture in his phone. "Thanks."
"WHAT!?" Ashido practically screamed as she jumped in front of him, almost grabbing his shoulders but he quickly stepped away, tensing up, but she didn't seem to notice or care. "YOU GUYS HEARD THAT TOO, RIGHT?!" She continued to scream as she looked behind him.
"Bakugou-kun… thanking someone…" Uraraka whispered in shock to herself.
"I-" Katsuki stuttered. Did he? "I DIDN'T FUCKING THANK ANYONE!"
"Wow, Bakugou, I didn't think you've had it in you." Earphones tilted her brow at him with an amused grin as she walked past him with Yaomomo who purposely covered her lips behind her hand.
"FUCK OFF!"
"It seems like Bakugou-chan's changed a bit." Frog face commented, bluntly staring at him before nonchalantly walking away, accompanied by poorly hidden giggles from the rest of the group.
"I'M RIGHT HERE, YOU ASSHOLES!" Explosions went off from his hands and it seemed like Ashido wanted to say something, a sly grin already on her face, but someone else's arrival interrupted her.
"What's going on here, why aren't you in the mess hall?" It was Aizawa who stared them down with a disapproving look. "Bakugou, calm down."
"Like hell." Katsuki muttered, crossing his arms over his chest and avoiding Aizawa's stern look.
"Just join the others." The teacher said tiredly in the end before going back the way he came from, the girls following him quickly except for one.
"The hell do you want, Bubblegum?" Katsuki glared at her.
"... You're welcome!" She winked at him before running off while laughing.
Katsuki groaned as he tiredly rubbed at his face.
What a shitshow. He thought as he took his phone out of his pocket, the picture greeting him once again.
And if he smiled like a fool while setting it as his home screen, no one was there to mock him about it.
___
Eijirou was being bold. He knew. With calling Katsuki out by his name whenever he could, taking that picture with him while putting his arm around his shoulders and leaning on him… But it was simply because he wanted to use the time he had left of being allowed to be overly friendly with Katsuki before he would inevitably get rejected at the end of the camp.
True, he was a bit embarrassed over his doings but he could handle that.
But this.
Sitting in the hot springs, surrounded by everyone else and Katsuki right next to him…
He tried his best not to stare. Didn't want to come off as creepy, but still couldn't help but let his eyes linger for a few moments when he had a chance before he realized what he was doing and started actively avoiding looking at Katsuki altogether.
But… it was normal to look, right? It didn't even mean he wanted to do.. anything. Didn't mean he was being gross or creepy… Right?
Katsuki was just… attractive. That was a simple fact and Eijirou was, well, attracted to him, after all…
He glanced at him at the same moment Katsuki was looking at him and Eijirou quickly turned away, fully aware how suspicious this must have seemed.
Don't look at him. Avoid eye contact. Don't come off as creepy. Perfect. Eijirou congratulated himself but still groaned in frustration as he covered his face after a second.
God, what was wrong with him?
___
Katsuki noticed that Eijirou was acting… strange, to say the least. Avoiding eye contact and being unusually quiet. He expected for him to talk his ear off, as usual, but this.
… Was he embarrassed about something? The picture they've taken together earlier?
No, he was acting normal just before entering the hot springs so- wait.
Katsuki tilted a brow and when he noticed a faint blush on Eijirou's cheeks, he could only wonder if he was hot because of the water or if he was flustered over everyone being naked?
Was that him being a 'gay disaster'?
The thought made Katsuki snort quietly to himself. He learned that phrase from his little research he did to try and figure himself out a bit more.
He bit down his smirk as he glanced around at everyone either relaxing by themselves or splashing water around like kids, then back at Eijirou and realized he didn't really care about all those bodies, at least probably not in the same way Eijirou did. True, Eijirou's back, currently turned to him, was nice, chest as well if his memory served him right, but then Katsuki thought back to when Eijirou wore a suit and how that made him more flustered than any naked body he's ever seen.
Was it that he was just more than used to him running around half naked, with his hero costume and all? Or that he was just more into 'fully dressed in an elegant suit Eijirou' than into a 'practically naked Eijirou'?
Well, he kind of knew the answer since he read about asexuality and demisexuality during the week that he was grounded, but he still wasn't 100% sure which one applied to him more and then he didn't have more time to ponder further about it as Eijirou glanced at him and immediately turned away when their eyes met.
Jesus, calm down. Katsuki chuckled to himself before he patted Eijirou's shoulder.
"Oi, you alright? You haven't said anything in a while."
"Fine! Perfectly fine!" He yelled in a very awkward manner, not looking at him as his shoulders got tense.
"... Are you, really?" Slight annoyance raised within him.
"Yep."
Still not looking.
"For fuck's sake, Eijirou, look at-"
"Hello comrades."
Katsuki glared at Kaminari who swam up to them with a grin.
"Just say friends, you're talking, not writing a fucking essay." Katsuki rolled his eyes as he leaned against the warm stones.
"Aww, so you finally admit that we're friends?" Kaminari grinned at him, splashing some water in his direction, and usually Katsuki would be more annoyed at him if it wasn't for the fact that he did consider them friends or whatever and that his arrival finally made Eijirou slightly relax for some reason.
"No. The hell do you want?" Katsuki splashed him back and rejoiced when Eijirou chuckled next to him.
"Nothing much, just wondering if you guys think there are any bears in this forest?" Kaminari shrugged, looking between the two of them and Katsuki just blinked at him in confusion.
"We've fought beasts made from dirt and you're concerned about bears?" He asked, not sure if Kaminari was actually being serious.
"I mean," Eijirou finally spoke up, turning to the two of them with a smile, "if along those beasts there were bears as well, it would be…" he stared directly at Katsuki. "Unbearable!"
Katsuki couldn't help but snort and cover his mouth as he laughed while Kaminari groaned at the pun and said something about their terrible taste in jokes. But honestly? Katsuki didn't even mind fucking Pikachu seeing him laugh at the joke if it meant Eijirou would start acting like his normal self again.
___
As Katsuki laughed, Eijirou quickly turned to Kaminari.
"Thanks." He whispered and Kaminari only patted him on the head with a knowing nod before he smiled devilishly and splashed Katsuki in the face, getting himself into trouble.
Eijirou breathed out, far more relaxed, before he rushed to Kaminari's aid as he was held underwater by Katsuki.
___
"Alright, go to beds and sleep." Aizawa glared at them all despite a tired look on his face. "We start your training in the early morning hours so I don't want to hear any complaints, understood?"
Katsuki rolled his eyes but nodded with everyone else. Honestly, it was past his usual bedtime anyway and he just wanted to sleep and hoped that all those idiots wouldn't make too much noise.
They steadily shuffled to their rooms and Katsuki immediately went to lie down on his futon, next to Octopus.
"Goodnight, Katsuki." Eijirou smiled at him as he walked by, quickly distracted by someone on the other side of the room before Katsuki could say anything back.
There was some regret that he wasn't going to sleep next to Eijirou, but he had a feeling that they'd somehow end up cuddling in their sleep again, so he'd rather that no one would see that. It wasn't even that he was embarrassed about it, he just wanted to keep a moment like that to himself…
With a sigh, Katsuki lay down and was glad to notice that it seemed like everyone silently agreed to just simply go to sleep, as someone turned off the light and they all stayed silent-
"... Do you guys think worms have feelings?"
"I swear to God, Kaminari, if you don't shut up I'll fucking choke you to death." Katsuki answered immediately, his words followed by a few giggles from others.
"So harsh, Kacchan…" Deku whispered somewhere.
"Shut the fuck up!"
"You're being the loudest one…" Octopus commented next to him.
"Seriously, second time you call me by my name and it's a threat?" Kaminari complained, which only caused more laughs to go around the room.
… Oh, holy shit, Katsuki did call him by his name, didn't he?
In the dark, Katsuki proudly smiled to himself and something was telling him that Eijirou was doing the same, because he recognized this fucker's voice!
"Refrain yourselves from disturbing the curfew!" Now this voice he didn't care to recognize, but at least it caused everyone to actually shut up.
Although one last time, Katsuki quickly unlocked his phone to glance at the picture of him and Eijirou.
Maybe he could tell him…
He'd get rejected, of course, but Eijirou would do it gently…
Katsuki put down his phone and rolled to his side, closing his eyes.
At the end of the camp, maybe… By then he'd figure out how to tell him.
Notes:
CHAPTER FOR MY BIRTHDAY YEEEEE
Having quarantine birthday isn't as fun as some might think cries jkhjcxfdxHonestly, idk what to write here, online classes suck, writing my thesis sucks, only this fic and my friends are keeping me sane :v
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I hope you enjoyed last few angst free moments.
Up next; You know exactly what's next.
Chapter Text
Eijirou took a deep calming breath as he closed his eyes.
"Katsuki," he started, eyes still shut, "I like you. I really like you. More than a friend." He ignored the uncomfortable churning of his stomach and took another deep breath. "I really like you and I just wanted to be honest with you, because that's what you deserve, to be told the truth… If there's a chance that you'd want to, I'd like to go out with you… Like, on a date I mean. I know I don't deserve you, but-"
"Stop!" Kaminari yelled and Eijirou opened his eyes in time to see him hop off of the table he was sitting on top of, between Ashido and Sero. "You can't say that!" He poked Eijirou's chest with his finger.
"But I don't-"
"You do deserve him!" Kaminari interrupted, then walked away to sit back on the table. "Jesus, if anything, he's the one undeserving of your sunshine ass." He muttered, rolling his eyes and crossing his arms. Sero snorted next to him.
"Hey!"
"It's true, though." Ashido provided with a shrug, but there was a teasing smile on her face that only widened when Eijirou frowned at her. "I meant that you shouldn't say that you don't deserve him, not him not deserving you!"
"... Sure." Eijirou looked down at the ground, but before he could give in to his thoughts, a stick was thrown at him. "Oh, come on!"
"Don't get all sad on us!" Kaminari threw another stick, one of which they'd collected earlier to add to the fires and cook dinner with the rest of the class. "Come on, start from the beginning!"
Eijirou sighed.
Ashido had come up with the idea that he should practice, so that he wouldn't get too nervous during the actual confession, but so far all he’d gotten was criticism on his choice of words. Each time, he somehow managed to screw up, at least according to his friends, and that was either because saying 'I love you' was way too much for the first confession, or because 'you're the light of my life' was too cheesy and overwhelming. He even got scolded for adding in 'you're so manly' , which caused a few minutes of arguing between his friends; Ashido saying he was being himself, while Kaminari argued that it was supposed to be romantic.
Sero just looked tired throughout the whole thing.
"Why am I here, again?" Sero asked, as if he read Eijirou's thoughts.
"For moral support and to give Kiri some advice!" Ashido provided, swinging her legs above the ground.
"I don't care about love, I'm the worst person who might try to give any advice on confessing!" He groaned, leaning back on his hands.
"You're still here, though." Kaminari chuckled as he nudged Sero's side with his elbow.
"Yeah, because I care about Kirishima, even if I don't understand at all what he sees in Bakugou." Sero looked Eijirou straight in the eyes. "Like, sure, he's easier to get along with than at the beginning of the year but sorry, dude, your taste in guys is kinda bad."
"Oh, come on, Sero, don't be a dick!" Ashido yelled at him, aware of just how much this comment stung Eijirou, who grimaced slightly, holding his breath.
He knew.
He knew his type wasn't exactly the easiest to get along with or the nicest kind.
He knew, and tried his best to ignore still stinging similarities between Katsuki and Nogashira, especially since he was going to cut ties with the latter after coming back home, and tried to focus on how much Katsuki had changed - how he'd become so much different from Nogashira, instead.
His sigh made his friends refocus on him and stop the arguing that Eijirou had accidentally tuned out.
"... Sorry, Kirishima." Sero was first to break the silence and Eijirou just gave him a little smile.
"Although he does have a point!" Kaminari spoke up suddenly. "I mean, even the way he laughs is, I dunno, kind of strange?"
"Hey! His laughter is beautiful!" Eijirou defended with a blush.
"Dude,” Kaminari started with amusement and mockery on his face, “he laughs like a gremlin."
"He does not!"
“Does too!”
“Does not!”
"You're biased." Sero cut in with a smirk of his own.
"Am not!"
"Gremlin!" His friends yelled at the same time.
"Stop!"
"Sweaty gremlin!" Ashido snorted.
"Not you too-"
"What are you doing here, slacking off?"
They all jumped, startled at Aizawa's sudden presence and angry tone of voice.
"Sensei, we-"
"Were supposed to bring more wood for the fire." Aizawa interrupted with irritation clear in his eyes, the binding cloth floating around his neck, threatening them. "Or do you all want to starve?"
As quickly as they could, they picked up all the sticks and hurried to where everyone else was busy preparing the meal, though Eijirou stopped when he spotted Katsuki in the distance, chopping some vegetables with precision and skill too high for a high schooler.
"Don't worry, Kirishima," Kaminari stopped next to him, "even if you don't confess by the end of the camp, you'll still have plenty of time later."
"Yeah!" Ashido joined them. "It's not like he's gonna disappear or something." She chuckled, Sero snorting next to her.
"Do I need to repeat myself?" Aizawa once again materialized next to them, and while Eijirou's friends ran off in panic, he jumped and dropped the sticks he was holding. "... Did you get enough sleep?" The teacher asked with a tilted brow and the tiniest hint of concern in his voice.
"Y-yeah, just uh.. thinking about a lot of stuff..." Eijirou stuttered as he quickly crouched down to pick up the wood, his teacher standing for a moment in silence, as if assessing the situation. Then, Aizawa walked past him, heading to where the Pussycats were sitting at their table. Eijirou's eyes once more found Katsuki in the distance. What if... "Wait-" Eijirou spoke before he could think about his decision, and Aizawa immediately looked over his shoulder and at him. "Do you happen to have any advice on relation-"
"No." Aizawa quickly interrupted.
"But-"
"Kirishima, I am your teacher." His voice was calm but stern as he fully turned to face him, and Eijirou stood up, waiting for him to continue. "It would be highly inappropriate for me to get involved with my students' relationships, whether the nature of them is romantic or not, not to mention that I honestly do not care, as long as said relationship doesn't negatively affect your progress, do you understand?"
Eijirou blinked at him, baffled, before he sighed and looked down.
"Yes, of course… I'm sorry." He answered, already moving to finally join his classmates, but then he felt a hand on his shoulder and looked up at his teacher.
"If anything, your relationship with Bakugou, whatever the nature of it is, has helped you both improve. This only proves my point." With that, Aizawa walked away, leaving Eijirou with his thoughts.
Maybe he was just overthinking everything, as usual?
Maybe he should just walk up to Katsuki and straight up tell him; You're tough and manly and I like you! Go out with me!
That would be a manly thing to do.
To be bold and brave.
And the quicker he did it, the quicker he'd get over the heartbreak.
But now wasn't the right time. So Eijirou took a deep breath and just as he had decided to casually go up to Katsuki and ask if he wanted company, someone else approached him, Satou, probably tasked with helping cut all the vegetables. Though it didn't look like Katsuki needed help at all, even more so when their classmate quickly walked away, followed by threats and yelled claims of not needing any extras.
Eijirou couldn't help but chuckle, but then he sighed in defeat and simply walked up to one of the secluded bonfires, where he tossed the branches he had collected earlier, and wondered what kind of training they were going to be subjected to after they'd eaten. Even if it was only their second day, the morning training was already exhausting. Some of his joints still burned, and his skin felt drier than usual. Despite that, he knew it was all to build up stamina, and he knew he'd eventually thank Aizawa and the Pussycats for all the work they've put them through and would continue to put them through for the rest of the week.
But for now…
Eijirou looked over his shoulder, his eyes immediately wandering to Katsuki, and he smiled, watching his back as he cut the vegetables. With a quiet grunt, he stood up and slowly approached him.
"Hey, Katsuki." He greeted, unable to keep his happiness to himself.
"Eijirou." Katsuki said back, without even glancing at him and Eijirou's eyes widened slightly.
"You didn't even look at me…" He stated quietly, in some kind of wonder, and watched as Katsuki's movements faltered for a short moment.
"First of all," he started as he resumed cutting a carrot, "you're the only one here who calls me 'Katsuki'." He grumbled, and Eijirou dared to think it was almost shyly.
"... And second?" Eijirou prodded as he leaned against the table while Katsuki stopped moving once again, and finally looked at him, even if just for a short second.
"You…" Katsuki glanced to the side, his brows pinched slightly as he visibly pondered about his next words. "Your voice… I guess…" He whispered as he looked down, ears dusted with pink and movements awkward as he continued cutting.
Oh.
Eijirou's face heated up, heart pounding in his chest.
I love you so much. Biting his tongue, as to not let those words slip out, Eijirou took a deep breath.
"Wow, haha, I'm honored!" Eijirou let out a short laugh, trying his best for it to not sound awkward, because he had no idea how to react in a way that wouldn't expose how much those words meant to him. How much it meant that Katsuki remembered things about him, things he knew were hard for him to memorise.
"Bakugou!" Jirou walked up to them with an empty bowl in her hands, interrupting Eijirou's thoughts and dispersing the awkwardness that hung in the air. "Are you done?" She asked as she took a look at all the carrots and potatoes Katsuki had perfectly cut.
"Of course I'm done, I'm not like those other slowpokes." He grunted as he helped her gather all the vegetables into the bowl. "Are the Octopus and Horse Smile done with the base for the sauce?"
"Nope!" She shrugged nonchalantly, eating one of the carrots and ignoring Katsuki's glare.
"Jesus, what the fuck is taking them so long?" Katsuki complained, crossing his arms.
"Chatting, having fun." She smirked at him. "You could try that, once in a while."
Eijirou snorted at her teasing. Recently, he had noticed that the girls had warmed up to Katsuki, and even if he didn't know the exact reason for that, he kind of suspected that Ashido might have had something to do with it. Or Katsuki had simply done something for them to see him in a different light.
"Oi, don't laugh, Shitty Hair." Katsuki elbowed him, Eijirou quickly paying him back with the same treatment.
"Besides," Jirou didn't address their antics, but there was still a smile on her face, "if you're gonna complain about the food being prepared slowly, you can do it all by yourself tomorrow!" She turned and started walking away.
"YOU FUCKING BET I WILL!" Katsuki yelled after her, then turned to Eijirou, as if he had challenged his words without even saying anything. "I fucking will!"
"Uh- of course, dude!" Eijirou wasn't sure where that came from, but if it meant he was going to get to try Katsuki's cooking, he was more than willing to let him do as he wished.
"I'll make the best fucking curry tomorrow, and they all better FUCKING PREPARE!" He yelled at nobody in particular this time.
"You better not add any spice!" Sero yelled from the other side of the field, where he was preparing the sauce with Shouji, few laughs accompanying his words.
"Fuck you!" Katsuki's angry reaction only caused more of their classmates to laugh, which in turn made him groan in annoyance.
Eijirou chuckled quietly.
He couldn't wait for the meal prepared by Katsuki, though it would probably be the last he'd be allowed to try.
___
"Come on, Eraserhead, don't be like that!" Mandalay nudged their teacher with her elbow. "Give them that extra half an hour." She smiled at Eijirou, Ashido, Sero, Kaminari, Satou, Shinsou and Monoma, their little group about to miss out on the marshmallows and the bonfire, since they were all due to go to their remedial classes with Aizawa after failing the practical exam.
"They won't have that extra half an hour on the battlefield-"
"They're not on the battlefield, though!" Pixie-Bob interrupted with a heavy slap to Aizawa's back, the teacher letting out a short cough. "I know they screwed up with their exam, sorry kids, but that half an hour won't hurt anyone!" She almost smacked him again, but he stepped to the side, then leveled the seven of them with his eyes.
"Half an hour. And tomorrow you're starting on time. No matter what." He stated and walked away to sit down on a log by the fire with everyone else.
"You're welcome, kids!" Mandalay winked at them and, along with Pixie-Bob, joined Aizawa to further annoy him.
It took half a second for it to settle, but then Ashido and Kaminari jumped, fists high in the air as they yelled happily and quickly headed to the bonfire to get a chance at eating the marshmallows. Sero sighed in relief and followed after, Eijirou with him, as they left Shinsou behind with Monoma, who had started talking in that irritable way as always, and honestly, at this point Eijirou was just muting him out. He had more important matters to think about.
Such as: how to convince Yaomomo to let him sit down next to Katsuki.
He must have been staring for a bit, because he felt a tap on his shoulder and he looked to the side, then down, at Jirou.
"Just- just say I wanted her to… sit. Next to me, I mean." She said quietly, nervously playing with the plugs of her cables, as she avoided eye contact.
"Oh- Oh!" Eijirou understood after a split second and smiled brightly. "Of course! Thank you!" He nodded at her and hurriedly walked up to Yaomomo and quickly whispered Jirou’s request to her.
"With pleasure!" She answered and stood up, dusting off her dress before she headed to Jirou with a smile. He immediately sat down next to Katsuki, who was too occupied with putting marshmallows on a stick to pay attention to anything else.
So Eijirou put his elbows on his knees, chin on hands, and took those few moments to admire him. He truly loved how much Katsuki was always focusing on the task at hand, even if it was something as trivial as this. His eyebrows were adorably pinched in a softer kind of frown, lips in a pout, eyes focused before he blinked, and finally glanced at Eijirou after he realised he was being watched.
"Ah…" Katsuki breathed out, his eyes widening for a short moment as he recognized Eijirou, fire beautifully reflecting in those perfect eyes that were framed by pale eyelashes. Eijirou just knew he could stare into them for hours, especially since it seemed like Katsuki didn't mind, for some reason, looking back at him and blinking slowly, the smallest, most subtle of smiles forming on his lips, lips that Eijirou wished he could kiss.
Katsuki's lips parted, yet Eijirou didn't get to know the reason for it, as they heard someone laughing. The spell was broken, and they both remembered that they weren't alone at the bonfire.
Noticing movement behind Katsuki, Eijirou glanced over the other’s shoulder to see Kaminari wiggling his eyebrows at him and Ashido sending kisses towards them.
"What are you doing here?" Katsuki's question made Eijirou focus on him again, and he couldn't help but smile.
"What, you don't want me here?" He teased and watched Katsuki roll his eyes with something he wanted to think was fondness.
"You know what I mean." Katsuki bumped their shoulders together, and when he lingered there, glued to Eijirou, neither of them addressed it.
"The Pussycats bargained half an hour for us to get to have a bit of fun before our remedial class." He explained and stopped himself from whining when Katsuki pulled away. "... How are your arms?" He asked after a moment of silence, not giving his actions any thought, as he reached out to touch Katsuki's forearm, and, to his surprise, Katsuki didn't tense up, nor did he try to push him away.
Though he also refused to look at him.
"They're fine now." He answered shortly, sticking out the marshmallows towards the fire, without moving his arm where Eijirou's hand was still resting.
"I can't believe they made you stick them in boiling water for the entire day." He chuckled awkwardly as he carefully squeezed Katsuki's wrist, rubbing slow circles on the soft skin with his thumb. The only response he received was a grunt. Katsuki didn't even spare him a glance and Eijirou realized he was being too bold, too touchy and probably too annoying, and for some reason Katsuki wasn't telling him so.
So he let go, and Katsuki finally looked at him again, glanced down at his hand, and then back at the bonfire, without saying anything.
God, he was screwing up the little amount of time he had left with Katsuki.
"Sorry-"
"Hand me the crackers and chocolate." Katsuki interrupted and Eijirou blinked at him, dumbfounded. "I'm making you a fucking s'more, be grateful."
"Oh!" Eijirou looked around and noticed the crackers and chocolate on a log right next to the one they were sitting on. He handed them to Katsuki, glad that because of the fire he wouldn't be able to tell that Eijirou was blushing, and then watched as he quickly made a s'more and gave it to him. "Thanks." He accepted and took a bite, and immediately groaned because of how good it was.
God, how was it possible for Katsuki to make s'mores that were pure perfection?
"You're seriously a child when it comes to food." Katsuki chuckled next to him, and before he knew it, Katsuki wiped something off of Eijirou's cheek and quickly licked it off his finger before making a s'more for himself.
And Eijirou froze. And blushed, hard. Because it was so casual, so natural on Katsuki's part, as if it was the most normal thing to do, as if Eijirou's gay little heart was supposed to handle it, instead of doing backflips in his chest and almost causing him to hyperventilate.
All that he was able to do in this situation, was cover his face and groan quietly.
___
Next to him, Eijirou groaned, and Katsuki turned from his task to see him covering his face behind his hands.
"The hell are you doing?" Katsuki asked, already reaching out to pry one of the hands away, but stopping himself when he heard incomprehensible mumbling. "Hah?" Leaning closer to Eijirou, he tilted his head and tried to understand what he was saying.
"IthinkI'minlove-" the rest was too quiet, but Katsuki still jerked back, eyes wide.
"W-what did you-"
Did he hear that right?
"IT'S UH-" Eijirou yelled suddenly, uncovering his face and bringing attention to the two of them. "Um-" frantically looking around, he smiled apologetically to a few people and slightly curled in on himself. "I uh… I said that… I think I'm in love with your cooking skills?" The tone was questioning as Eijirou stared at him with an awkward smile and uncertainty, as if he wanted to make sure that Katsuki believed him.
And what choice did Katsuki have, other than to believe him and turn his own embarrassment into a mocking smirk and an elbow to Eijirou's side.
"If a fucking s'more is that impressive to you, just wait for when you try my actual cooking." He barked with a laugh, yet that embarrassment was still lingering at the back of his head.
'I think I'm in love with you.'
Katsuki bit his tongue.
There was no way that Eijirou had actually spoken those words.
How could he have been so stupid to think so? Was he losing his mind, because he was trying to convince himself that they still could be friends after his planned confession in a few days? Because, deep down, he was hoping that Eijirou felt the same and he had just heard what he wanted to at that moment?
Katsuki sighed quietly and then realized that at some point he had squished a marshmallow in his hand, which was now all sticky and gross.
"God fucking damn it…" He mumbled to himself as he stood up, intending to go and wash it, and he told Eijirou so.
"Oh, I'll go with-"
"Alright, party's over, remedial class kids, come with me."
Katsuki looked in the direction where the voice came from and saw Aizawa with Bubblegum and Pikachu already with him, their faces less than excited. Next to him, Eijirou sighed and stood up as well.
"See you later, Katsuki." He gave a little smile as he and three other students joined Aizawa, and they all walked away in the direction of the main building.
He watched for a few moments, kind of awkwardly standing and staring at the familiar tuft of red hair, until the light of the fire couldn't reach it anymore and it disappeared in the dark.
"Oh, Bakugou-kun, do you need something?"
Katsuki looked where the voice came from, it was one of the heroines, the one with wide eyes and green hair, both features that reminded him of Frog Girl, but thanks to the specific make up and costume, he knew she was one of the Pussycats, even if he couldn't recall her name.
"Need to wash my hands." He grumbled, not really in the mood to talk to anyone.
"Remember about the buddy system!" She gave him a wide smile.
Right.
Even though they were in the middle of nowhere, and in the company of several pro heroes, they still had to go everywhere in pairs, especially during the night, as if they were kids and there was an actual danger awaiting them in the forests.
"I don't need a fucking-"
"I'll go with him." A neutral voice came from behind and Katsuki whipped his head around to see a guy with red and white hair, split on both sides of his head.
"For fuck's sake, not you-"
"Thank you, Todoroki-kun!" The heroine called out and returned to the conversation with her teammates.
Katsuki made a few gagging noises, then, ignoring the rolling of the eyes of Half Face, he quickly headed to the border of the field they were on, where the dense forest started again and where the bottles of fresh water were placed on the plastic tables. It wasn't that far, but far enough that no one would see or hear something happening, especially not over the general noise of so many people talking at once.
Still, Katsuki thought that this whole buddy system was ridiculous, especially when it didn't serve as an excuse to drag Eijirou with him around.
"Hey, Bakugou." Half Face started after a moment, and Katsuki frowned without sparing him a look, deliberately avoiding eye contact by trying to find a bottle that was already open.
"The hell do you want?" Katsuki barked, and rolled his eyes when his buddy activated his fire quirk, probably so they could see better.
"About the sports festival-"
"Oh my fucking God, why would you bring that up?!" Katsuki yelled as he finally found a half empty bottle of water and opened it to pour some onto his sticky hand.
"You're the one still holding the grudge." Todoroki pointed out and Katsuki's movements halted. "Yesterday you called me 'Mr. Threw-The-Match'."
"… So fucking what? It's what you are, and if it bothers you, then it's a you problem." He spat and finally got to clean his hand.
Seriously, where the fuck was this coming from? True, Katsuki hated Half Face for throwing that match, for making him look like a joke and ridiculing him in front of most of the fucking country, but why would he suddenly bring up something like this? Something he just wanted to forget about, because every time he thought about it, his throat would squeeze on itself, and it'd be hard to breathe, and-
"You don't like me." The statement made Katsuki snort mockingly, the memory of choking pushed back again.
"Yeah, no shit." Katsuki crossed his arms.
"And you don't like Midoriya." The fire in Todoroki's hand flickered, reflecting in his eyes and somehow making him look more serious than neutral about the entire situation.
"Jesus fucking christ, what are you on about?" At this point, Katsuki was having a genuinely hard time following his thought process.
Half Face sighed, which further annoyed Katsuki, but just as he was about to tell him off and go back to the group, Todoroki spoke; "I don't want you to think that I threw the match because of you, that I lost on purpose because I didn't want to fight you, or that I wasn't taking you seriously, or that I was scared." It was clear that Deku had told this bastard about their fight against All Might, about screaming at Katsuki about not being afraid, and that that had inspired him to come clean as well, or whatever. "So, in a way," he continued, "it was a… me problem, as you put it." He finished calmly.
Katsuki stared at him with a frown, the ridiculous want to ask, why did you throw the match then, growing in him as the seconds passed, but he wasn't sure if he wanted to know. Wasn't sure if he'd even believe him.
"I guess I did it to shove my second place in my father's face." Todoroki wondered out loud and Katsuki couldn't help but snort.
Yeah, that… that did make him feel better about winning without any effort. Even if it was the tiniest bit, knowing that it made that bastard of a hero angry? He could work with that. Especially since it wasn't exactly Todoroki who tied him up and muzzled him for the whole country to see, after all.
"You still suck." Katsuki smirked, because he wasn't about to let it go that easily.
"You still have rabies." Todoroki countered with his irritatingly blank expression and Katsuki had to stop himself from punching him.
"You're not making the situation better for yourself." Katsuki turned away and started heading back, picking up his pace when he heard that Half Face was right behind him.
"I'll take it that that's your way of agreeing to be friends."
"Ew, what?" Katsuki glared at him over his shoulder. "The fuck, no! Your brain is fucking rotten, leave me alone, Half Face." At this point he was half jogging, just to get away from Todoroki and his delusions.
"You can start by giving me a different nickname."
"Fuck off!"
"That's not a nickname."
Katsuki stopped, doing his best to stay relatively calm.
"Is this some kind of joke? Did Deku put you up to this?" He tried, hoping that that was all it was, just a stupid joke that served to annoy the shit out of him.
"No, it's me trying to be civil with you." Todoroki finally dropped the 'friends' bullshit. "But you're being difficult." He finished.
Katsuki rolled his eyes. "Well, maybe I don't want to be fucking civil with everyone around me." He spat. He already had Eijirou and the stupid friends that came with him and he had only that much patience.
"And here I was, protecting you from the dangers of the forest…" This was pure sarcasm on Todoroki's part, at least that was clear, and Katsuki scoffed.
"I'd rather be taken by them than spend another second with you."
"That isn't something you'd want, young man." Someone spoke behind him and they both tensed up, quickly turning to see the only male member of the Wild Wild Pussycats staring down at them, face stern. "Now go back to the bonfire." He ordered, waiting for them to move before following after.
"We're not fucking friends." Katsuki hissed as he went to sit back at his still-vacant spot, Todoroki rolling his eyes at him, though not sparing him a single word.
At this point, Katsuki wished he hadn't passed that practical exam, at least he'd be with his actual friends right now.
___
It wasn't often that Katsuki would wake up in the middle of the night, especially when he’d had an entire day of training behind him. Yet there he was, lying on his back, and as hard as he tried to fall asleep, it was even harder, not to mention incredibly annoying, to ignore his dry throat. So after another minute of internal screaming, he quietly stood up and headed out into the corridor, then straight to the cafeteria to find some water, cursing at the corner of the wall when he bumped into it on his way there.
"Motherfucker…" Katsuki muttered when he opened the doors and was instantly blinded by the bright lights that someone apparently forgot to turn off. "Think of your fucking bills…" He turned them off. It took him a minute to readjust to the dark, but then he finally walked into the kitchen where he grabbed a glass and filled it with tap water.
He quickly chugged the water, faucet running the entire time so that he could quickly refill it and drain another full glass, before he washed it and put it on the drying rack. Already turning, he was ready to leave the kitchen when he heard someone talking outside, very quietly. If it hadn’t been for the open window, he wouldn't have heard it in the first place, especially over the running faucet.
Katsuki didn't really care who it was, or what they were doing outside at almost two in the morning, so he wasn't entirely sure why he decided to walk up to that window as quietly as he could, or why he leaned up against the wall, with his ear close to the window.
But even as close as he was then, he couldn't understand a single word of what the girl was saying, and the voice was high enough for him to know that it was a girl who was talking, but she was just so so quiet. And something felt wrong about it. It felt wrong, because, somehow, Katsuki was convinced he was supposed to know that voice, but the whispered tone in which the words were spoken was too rushed for him to try and distinguish it in any way.
So he peeled himself off the wall, leaning out of the window to see the girl, dressed in dark sweats and a hoodie, her back turned to him as she continued to talk quietly, seemingly into her phone, but that wasn't what he focused on.
Instead, what he focused on was that despite darkness around them, with nothing but the moon illuminating their surroundings, her hair still looked bright. It was light blond, but not like Katsuki's, no, it was so light, it almost looked white, as if it was a tone away from glowing, the light already reflecting on it in a strange way, as if it was holding onto it.
"Who the hell-" he didn't get to finish, words failing him as she snapped her head around to face him. Katsuki blinked his eyes in shock when he saw her skin glisten like some kind of opal, reflecting the moonlight like someone had thrown glitter onto a mirror as she moved. His gaze snapped up to her distorted eyes as they widened.
" Shit-" she whispered, pulling up the hood and already sprinting into the dark woods.
"Oi!" Katsuki yelled after her. "Come back, you creep!"
But she was long gone.
"What the fuck…" He pulled away from the window.
Who the hell was that?
As far as he knew, none of the girls from his class had hair or skin like that, so what, was it someone from class B? What she was doing here then? Trying to pull some stupid prank?
Katsuki looked around, hoping for a small chance that someone had heard him yelling and was coming to check what was happening, but of course, he had no luck. And since there was no reason for him to stay there, especially since he couldn't just go and run after her, he decided to go back to the shared room.
He would just have to ask Eijirou about this the next morning.
___
They had had their remedial lesson with Aizawa until 2am, and Eijirou was simply exhausted. He was at the point that he could think of only one thing at a time, and at the moment it was pouring himself some tea. And yawning.
He felt something heavy on his shoulder, and as he slowly blinked and looked down, he saw Ashido, half asleep and leaning on him as if he was a pillow.
"Hey…" He lightly poked her forehead, stifling yet another yawn.
"I'd kill for coffee…" She frowned as she blindly reached for one of the cups placed on the table.
"You don't like coffee." Eijirou reminded her with a tired, yet amused smile. "Here." He guided her hand so that she'd grab his cup full of tea. "Just take mine."
"Aw, Kiri…" Ashido smiled tiredly as she stood on her own and took a sip, then sighed happily.
Eijirou just returned the smile, before he yawned again and reached for another cup.
"Oi, Eijirou." Hm, that was a nice, familiar voice, even if it was slightly demanding.
"Morning, Katsuki." Eijirou grabbed two cups. "Tea?"
Katsuki glanced between his face and the cups he was holding, before he sighed and took them from Eijirou's hands.
"You're gonna end up spilling this shit all over yourself." Katsuki muttered, filling both of the cups himself.
"Aw, Baku, you're so sweet." Ashido spoke up in her still tired and quiet voice, yet it was more than enough to startle Katsuki, who apparently hadn't noticed her, and cause him to spill the hot tea on both himself and the table.
"Shit-"
"Are you okay?!" Eijirou took Katsuki's hand into both of his in panic.
"I literally spent the entire day yesterday dipping my arms in boiling water, some lukewarm tea won't do shit to me." Katsuki answered, avoiding eye contact as he snatched his hand away to wipe it off on his pants.
"R-right…" Eijirou felt stupid. And tired.
God, this day was going to be terrible, he just knew it.
"I'm sorry, Baku…" Ashido walked up to him, and it looked like she was ready to lean on him, still half asleep, but Katsuki's eyes just widened as she approached and he took a step back, causing her to stumble slightly. "Ah, right… You don't like that…"
Katsuki seemed uncomfortable, posture tense and his eyes scanning her every move, before Eijirou cleared his throat and they both looked at him. Ugh, what was he supposed to say? He was too tired to think… "So uh…"
"I need to ask you something." Katsuki interrupted, and something about his expression was telling him it wasn't a nice kind of thing. That, and he clearly wanted to be alone with Eijirou, glancing between him and Ashido, who yawned blearily before sipping her tea.
"Um… here or..?"
"Just… come with me." Katsuki said quickly and walked away to one of the tables in the cafeteria. Eijirou sent Ashido an apologetic smile before following after him.
They both sat down next to each other, their table secluded away from the few classmates that were there, as well as some people Eijirou didn't remember the names of from class B.
"So, what's up?" Eijirou asked after Katsuki handed him his cup of tea.
"It's just…" Katsuki started, then looked around as if to ensure that no one was close enough to hear, before he continued in a whisper. "Are there any girls here with blonde hair? Like, almost white?"
Eijirou tilted his head to the side, brow arching. "Whaaat?"
"I-" Katsuki swallowed, and Eijirou realized he was nervous, but before he could do or say something, Katsuki hurriedly continued; "In the middle of the night, I saw some girl with this- fucking- with almost white hair and I think she had this strange skin, like an opal or some shit and-"
"Wait, Katsuki, slow down." This was too much for Eijirou's brain at the moment. "First of all, you sure this wasn't a dream?" This earned him a frown and a glare.
"I'm fucking sure." Katsuki hissed at him before taking a surprisingly aggressive sip of his tea.
"Okay…" Eijirou continued carefully, "so who was it?"
Katsuki blinked at him, seemingly offended, before he brought his hand up and waved it in front of his own face.
Shit.
"Right, sorry, I'm just tired…" Eijirou muttered, rubbing his eyes. "But considering… you know what." He gave him a pointed look, at which Katsuki just huffed. "And I'm sorry, but I have to ask… Are you sure she had that strange skin and hair, or was it just your brain screwing with you?"
___
Katsuki blinked at Eijirou, whose eyes were a bit distorted at the moment, something that hadn't happened in quite a while until now, and it made him think.
Her eyes were distorted, after all. He couldn't remember what they were like, obviously, and it was dark and he was tired, having just woken up, and he knew that those were some of the factors which worked into the favor of his face blindness acting up. Who was to say that somehow his brain didn't make up her skin being this strange, glitter like surface when she moved?
"Katsuki..?" Eijirou's shy voice brought him back to earth. "I'm sorry, I just thought that… I dunno…" He looked down, as if ashamed and Katsuki's throat squeezed.
"No, you're right… it was probably just someone from class B, trying to pull some shit or whatever…" Katsuki muttered quietly, trying to convince both of them.
"Maybe tell Aizawa? Just in case?" Eijirou carefully touched Katsuki's wrist, just a brush of fingers, but it was enough to soothe his nerves.
"No, it's not that big of a deal…" He said after a moment and ignored a few people passing by, while Eijirou greeted them with a smile and small wave.
Then it occurred to him that they weren't as alone as they had been at the beginning of their conversation, the cafeteria having filled with more people, most of whom Katsuki was too tired to even try to recognize. He kind of wanted to laugh at himself, for being so focused on Eijirou that he hadn’t even cared to pay attention to his surroundings, but who could blame him? He only had so much time left with him before he will have ruined everything with his confession in a few days. Even if that time was spent worrying about whether he had seen some stranger, or someone that he actually knew out there in the middle of the night; if he was with Eijirou, he could deal with that.
With Eijirou, he could deal with everything.
"Listen everyone!"
Katsuki looked up towards the voice and saw two members of the Wild Wild Pussycats standing at the door, one in blue costume, the other in yellow.
"Before we begin today's training, we have something for you all!" The one in blue costume smiled as she pointed at the box the other one was holding. "Your class photos!" She exclaimed, and that was when Katsuki lost interest.
After everyone had gathered in the cafeteria for breakfast and started eating, the heroines walked around, handing everyone a copy of their own class photo.
Katsuki just put it back down, no intentions of looking at it.
"Aw, bro, why did you frown." Eijirou nudged him lightly as he stared down at the picture in his hands with a smile.
"I'm always frowning." Katsuki rolled his eyes, which then involuntarily wandered to the picture. "... Who the hell is that?" Before he could think about what he was doing, he leaned on Eijirou's shoulder and pointed at a blond guy standing right behind Deku and Earphones.
"Oh! Um-" Eijirou stuttered as he tensed up. Katsuki realized how close he had gotten and, despite wanting to maintain the closeness to the warm body, he pulled away a bit. "It's uh…"
"Don't tell me you don't know." Katsuki teased, trying to get rid of the awkward tension between them. Luckily it seemed to work, and Eijirou snorted and grinned at him.
"That's Aoyama." He said quietly, with a soft smile still on his face. "I don't think you've ever actually spoken to him for more than five seconds. His quirk is a navel laser."
Katsuki hummed at the information. True, he didn't really remember talking to any blond guys other than Kaminari, maybe that one guy with a tail once or twice.
And himself if he needed to talk to someone intelligent for a change.
"Is there anyone else you want to know about?" Eijirou asked quietly as he moved the picture so Katsuki could see it better.
"... Not really." Katsuki answered after a moment of silence, during which he was more focused on the Eijirou looking up at him from the photo than anyone else. "Not now, at least." He shrugged, and they both returned to eating in comfortable silence. Katsuki thought that maybe later he could try to see how many people he was able to recognize from the photo.
Maybe Eijirou would even help him.
___
"This smells great." Eijirou commented for the hundredth time, hovering while Katsuki stirred the sauce.
He really couldn't believe that Katsuki, with very little help from the others, was making curry for the entire class. All he demanded was that they 'leave him the fuck alone', though Eijirou was still allowed near him, for some reason.
"Of course it does." Katsuki shrugged, like it was no big deal, though there was still a self-satisfied smirk on his face. "YOU ALL BETTER FUCKING APPRECIATE IT!" He screamed in the direction of their classmates, most of them ignoring him, busy with putting plates on the tables.
"Yes, chef, thank you, chef!" Kaminari yelled back at him with a wide grin.
Next to him, Sero teased as well. "Careful or he'll actually make it inedible with all the spices he can still add!"
"Not my fault you have a mouth of a baby!" Katsuki yelled with anger and annoyance, though his body remained still as he continued to carefully stir the sauce.
"Wow, it's gonna be the first time I actually get to eat something that Kacchan made." Midoriya walked up closer to the two of them, maintaining a safe distance.
"Fuck, I forgot about him…" Katsuki muttered, though judging by Midoriya's oblivious smile, he didn't hear. "YOU'RE NOT GETTING ANY." He snapped, to which Midoriya just turned and ran away.
"Come on, Katsuki." Eijirou chuckled. "What else is he gonna eat?"
"Dry bread and water." Katsuki deadpanned before turning his head to not-so-subtly sneer in Midoriya's direction.
"Katsuki!" Eijirou shoved him in the arm, trying, and failing, to keep himself from laughing.
"Careful, or you're fucking next." Was the answer from Katsuki, accompanied by a glare and an aggressive wave of the ladle. "You're lucky I'm letting you stand this close while I'm cooking, don't ruin this."
"Aw, I'm that special?" Eijirou joked in a high-pitched voice, fluttering his eyes.
Katsuki cleared his throat as he looked to the side, continuing his stirring and adding some more pepper. With that, Eijirou assumed he wasn't getting his answer, he hadn’t even expected one anyways, but then he heard a really soft and almost shy "you kinda are…".
Eijirou's eyes widened as his legs almost gave out.
What? He thought. What does that mean?
"A-anyway." Katsuki cleared his throat again, still avoiding eye contact. He said something else, but Eijirou couldn't hear him.
What does that mean? Was all he could think about.
Was it just the fact that Katsuki thought of him as his best friend? Or maybe, maybe, was there something more to it?
Eijirou blinked when he heard a pleased hum from beside him, and finally focused enough to see Katsuki currently tasting the sauce off of the little saucer.
"Here, try this." The shy Katsuki from a mere second ago had disappeared, and Eijirou realized he was supposed to lean towards him to try the food he had made.
Ah. Eijirou felt his cheeks heat up as Katsuki tilted the saucer so that he could taste it. An indirect kiss.
"It's great, right?" Katsuki asked, more than a little self-assured, yet Eijirou could still hear the excitement in his voice.
"It's amazing…" He said quietly with a smile as he carefully touched his lips.
"I know, right?" Katsuki smirked, taking one more sip of the sauce before adding a handful of flour and resuming his stirring. "By the way, you like beef, right? When we get back I'll make you something better. None of this curry bullshit."
What does that mean?
"... I can't." Eijirou muttered, more to himself, but Katsuki still looked over to him, brow quirked.
"Hah?"
"I-" Eijirou clenched his fists.
He couldn't do this anymore.
He had to tell him.
Because all the nice words, all the little gestures from Katsuki? They were all too much for him, and he wouldn't be able to keep up like this for much longer. It was beginning to feel as if he was using Katsuki, using that rare kindness of his, as well as their unusual friendship, as an excuse to be able to be so close to him. Closer than anyone had ever been allowed to.
That's why he couldn't do this anymore.
That's why he had to tell him.
"Eijirou..?" Katsuki reached out to put a hand on his shoulder, his eyes widening as Eijirou evaded, moving back barely half a step that left him feeling miles away. "Did I say-"
"I have to tell you something."
Katsuki blinked in surprise, his concerned expression quickly turning into a confused one. "I- Okay?"
"Not- not now." Eijirou uttered, glancing frantically around. Most of their classmates had gathered into little groups, and he pushed down the pounding of his heart for long enough to focus on finding his friends in the crowd.
He saw Ashido with Tsuyu and Hagakure, Sero with Todoroki and Shouji, and lastly, Kaminari with Shinsou. All of them happy and oblivious to Eijirou - who was currently panicking - focused on their own conversations. And he realized that in the end, it wasn't any of their business when or how he confessed. They had their own lives and friendships, and Eijirou and Katsuki's relationship wasn't the center of the universe.
"Okay?" Katsuki's voice was quiet, yet it still rang loudly in his ears.
"It's- it's important." Eijirou heard himself say, not daring to meet Katsuki's gaze, afraid he'd just spill everything right then and there.
"I-" Katsuki was clearly confused. "How important? What happened?"
"I just-" Eijirou finally tore his eyes away from Ashido when he saw her beginning to turn towards him, but he still couldn’t bring himself to look at Katsuki, and instead he just locked his eyes on his shoes. "I just need to find the right words, okay?" He fiddled with his hardened fingers. When had he activated his quirk?
"... You do realize you already came out to me, right?" Katsuki snorted, and whether it was intentional or not, Katsuki had eased the tension that Eijirou had created between them, and caused him to laugh in both panic and relief.
God, he loved him so much.
And finally, after he'd collected his thoughts, he was going to tell him.
Tomorrow.
___
Katsuki panted as he took a short break between firing off as big of the explosions as he could. This type of training was great, he could focus on developing his quirk, on the way every part of his arms and shoulders were stinging, and on the slight ringing in his ears.
And most importantly, he was too occupied to think about Eijirou.
"Fuck." He breathed out, bracing to release another explosion.
He really couldn't help but think about him all the time, huh? But what was he supposed to do when Eijirou pulled shit like he did before dinner?
'I have to tell you something.' His words rang in Katsuki's ears, louder than any explosion. 'It's important.'
"FOR FUCK'S SAKE!" Katsuki's scream of frustration was drowned out by the loudness of his quirk.
What is it, Eijirou? Katsuki had wanted to ask back then. Still wanted to. Because what was so important that he needed until tomorrow to find the right words? And now he'd been avoiding him since dinner, like he didn't want to be alone together until the afternoon training was supposed to begin?
Fuck, Eijirou wouldn't even talk to him most of the time, just some brief, meaningless shit, that was directed more at whoever was with them at the moment, rather than at Katsuki.
He tried to recall their entire conversation, if there was something he'd done or said to-
'Aw, I'm that special?'
'You kinda are…'
His movements halted, the large explosion that he'd been going for fizzling out as scattered sparks from his palms.
Was-
Was that it?
Had he realized what Katsuki meant?
Did it mean he was trying to find the right words to gently reject him? Why the hell did he even say that in the first place? What did he expect, for Eijirou to not catch up? He wasn't a fucking idiot.
"Shit…" Katsuki breathed out in defeat, resuming his stance so as to not bring any unnecessary attention to himself.
Slowly, as he refocused on the heat of the explosions and the stinging of his arms, Katsuki tried his best to come to terms with the imminent heartbreak.
___
"Alright! It's time for your test of courage!" Pixie Bob happily announced as dusk fell upon the forest. Ashido and Kaminari excitedly jumped in place next to Eijirou and Sero.
They had mentioned it earlier, before dinner and the afternoon training, describing it as a 'stick and carrot' approach where this game was supposed to be their carrot.
"We're gonna pair you up!" The heroine continued and Eijirou's heart skipped a beat. He both wanted to end up being paired with Katsuki, but he also wanted to stay as far away from him as possible.
He knew it was kind of shitty of him to keep avoiding Katsuki throughout the day after what had happened before dinner. Though he wasn’t entirely avoiding him, just… making sure that they wouldn't find themselves alone together for too long. Because he did not trust himself to be able to hold back his confession at the first opportunity.
"Sorry to break it to you, remedial group," Aizawa approached the four of them, Shinsou and Satou right behind him, "but you've got your extra lessons with me now."
Eijirou froze in place as reality dawned on him, while Ashido stomped her foot, literally screaming her frustration up at the sky.
"Oh, come on, Eraserhead! Let the kids-" Mandalay tried, but Aizawa's glare interrupted her.
"They had their fun yesterday."
Right. Eijirou thought. The bonfire. He blushed when he remembered those few precious moments with Katsuki.
He glanced over his shoulder to realize that Katsuki was staring at him, standing not that far away. To everyone else, his expression might have appeared to be the one of annoyance and, to some extent, that typical ever-present anger.
But to Eijirou?
Somehow, he could tell that Katsuki was worried. The slight crease of his brows was obvious to him, and the way he just stood there, without acknowledging Midoriya and Todoroki next to him?
Yeah.
It was obvious.
Eijirou looked back at Aizawa to determine if he could sneak away for one second to at least say goodnight to Katsuki, as they probably wouldn't be able to talk until tomorrow morning. Their teacher was preoccupied, arguing with Mandalay, so Eijirou took a few steps towards Katsuki, who immediately mirrored him, eyes a bit wider and focused entirely on him. Eijirou felt like he could tell him he loved him right then and there.
That was, he really could have, but then there was something tightening around him.
"You have your remedial lesson right now." Aizawa spoke in a dark tone behind him and Eijirou realized he had been restrained by a loop of the infamous binding cloth, and was now being dragged away by his teacher.
While he still had the chance, he quickly met Katsuki's disappointed gaze.
See you tomorrow. Eijirou thought as he smiled at him, waving awkwardly as best as he could while being all tied up by the cloth around his arms.
___
See you tomorrow. Katsuki thought as he waved back, trying to not show just how disappointed he was that he wouldn't have the chance to spend any more time with Eijirou that night.
"You and Kirishima-kun seem to be good friends."
"The fuck is it to you?" Katsuki snapped without sparing Deku a single glance, then shoved his hands into the pockets of his pants.
"I, uh, I mean-" Deku stuttered as Katsuki glared at him. "Considering how your… friendship started?" He laughed nervously, waving his hands around in an awkward manner and avoiding eye contact.
"That's none of your fucking business." Katsuki hissed, punctuating each word with an aggressive jab to Deku's chest.
"Ah yes, my two best friends." Someone deadpanned behind Katsuki. He jerked towards the sound, only to see the familiar scar and hair.
"Jesus fucking Christ, not you, too." Katsuki pinched the bridge of his nose.
Just give him a fucking break.
"Friends..?" Deku's confusion was obvious in his voice as he tilted his head. "When did that happen?"
"We had a really heartwarming moment yesterday and-"
"We fucking didn't!" Katsuki screamed in his face, a few sparks popping off in his palms. "And we're not friends, let alone best friends, for fuck's sake. Leave me alone." He scoffed and was about to walk away when Todoroki's words reached his ears;
"True, I don't think anybody could put up with your attitude long enough to be your best friend."
Katsuki's eye twitched.
"T-Todoroki-kun, that's-" Deku started, but Katsuki cut him off, focused only on the sound of his blood boiling in his ears, a glare that could kill directed at Half Face.
"Eijirou happens to be my best friend, so you can go and choke on those fucking words!" Katsuki shoved him, causing Todoroki to stumble a bit.
"Calm down, Bakugou-"
"Alright, boys." One of the Pussycats, the one with blonde hair, got between them. "Seeing as how the two of you need to work on your teamwork, you're going to be paired up!" She announced happily.
"... Can't wait to spend more time with my best. Friend." Todoroki said as he stared right at Katsuki.
"Todoroki-kun… Don't rub it in…" Deku tried, while the heroine nodded with satisfaction.
"You're gonna do great!" She smiled at them and walked away to pair up other students.
"I'm going to murder you out there." Katsuki hissed.
Todoroki rolled his eyes. "Can't wait to leave you to the wolves."
God, did Katsuki regret passing that fucking exam.
___
Surprisingly, the test of courage wasn't taking that long, nor was it as scary as some of the distant screaming from the woods indicated. It was almost peaceful and, aside from the presence of that asshole Todoroki next to him, Katsuki almost enjoyed it. He especially enjoyed that it was going to end soon, since they had passed the midpoint a few minutes ago, the Pussycat with green hair congratulating them with a bit too much excitement.
"It's quiet." Todoroki stated.
"It was quiet, before you opened your damn mouth." Katsuki scoffed, slightly picking up his pace.
"I meant it's too quiet."
Katsuki frowned as he sensed an unspoken insult somewhere in there, nonetheless, he stopped to listen and… yeah. It was way too quiet, especially in comparison to the constant screaming in the distance during the first half of this so-called test of courage.
"How many people were ahead of us?"
"Two groups, I think… so four? Plus the heroes and other students..." Todoroki stood next to him, narrowed eyes searching the woods. "Do you think that class B is plotting something bigger?"
"Fuck if I know…" Katsuki muttered, looking over his shoulder to see if there was someone behind them. Squinting to see better in the dark, he saw a figure in a distance, stumbling out of some bushes. "What the-"
Next to him, Todoroki turned, seemingly calculating whether it was one of the pranks or someone actually in need of help.
The figure, a person, most likely another student, tried to stand up, but instead fell to the ground once more; that was enough for the two of them to run over to help.
"Is he-" Katsuki bit his tongue before he could ask if the guy on the ground was one of their classmates.
"He's not dead." Todoroki assured, and even if it wasn't what Katsuki was asking about, it still brought some calmness to him.
"The… gas…" The guy managed to wheeze out before giving into sleep.
"Gas..?" Todoroki looked over his shoulder at Katsuki, who just shrugged, but then both of their eyes widened as they noticed the strange smell lingering in the air. "Quick, help me pick him up!"
"Don't order me around." Katsuki snapped, but still moved to help him get the guy off of the ground. Both of them held him up, one of his arms around each of their shoulders.
"It seems like the closer we get to the midpoint, the more intense the gas is." Todoroki pointed out as they started walking quickly in the opposite direction, towards the main facility.
"Makes you wonder if it's one of class B's shitheads who lost control of their quirk." Katsuki rolled his eyes, though there was still an unnerving feeling crawling just under his skin.
"That's not actually impossible-"
"Everyone!"
They both froze in place as a woman's voice reverberated through their heads.
"What the-"
"Mandalay's quirk…" Todoroki closed his eyes as he focused on the next words, while Katsuki just stared at the ground.
"We're under attack by two villains! There might be more out there!"
Katsuki's eyes widened, his body tensing up.
"All students, please head to the facility at once, if you encounter an enemy, DO NOT ENGAGE! JUST RETREAT!!!"
Katsuki and Todoroki stared at each in shock for a total of five seconds before they rushed forward as fast as they could while dragging along the unconscious student.
___
Eijirou's eyes widened.
Villains?
"How did they know…" Monoma asked Vlad, while Aizawa rushed to the door.
"Vlad!" Aizawa looked over his shoulder at the other hero. "I'm leaving the kids with you, I'm heading out!" With that, he was gone.
"I- we should-" Eijirou uttered, not sure what he even wanted to say. What were they supposed to do? Just stand there, in safety, while who knows how many enemies were out there? "We should go-!"
"No." Vlad quickly dismissed him. "You've all heard Mandalay, and I agree with her. You are safest here, and soon Aizawa will bring back other students."
Other students. Eijirou thought. Katsuki with them. He clenched his fists.
He wanted to go out there, but the teachers, the actual pro heroes said no.
He was helpless in this situation.
Like he's always been.
"Kirishima…" Kaminari put a hand on his shoulder, snapping Eijirou out of his thoughts. "You're breaking the desk."
Eijirou gasped as he let go of the now ruined corner of the desk.
"Shit…"
"Aizawa-sensei and the Pussycats will take care of this." Sero assured, but it sounded more like he was talking to himself, his hands shaking slightly.
Eijirou could only nod as he glanced around the class; at Satou in the back - his leg bouncing nervously, at Shinsou who was standing by the door - looking through the glass out into the corridor. In his seat, Monoma was being uncharacteristically quiet and still, and close to Eijirou, Ashido was equally muted - her arms tightly wrapped around herself.
And all they could do, all he could do, was stand there, and worry.
More than a couple minutes had stretched by before the door finally opened again. Ojirou, followed by Iida and Kouda, entered without Aizawa. They relayed a message of some villain, his body covered in scars, who had turned into a strange goop when Aizawa had attempted to detain him, and that their teacher had continued towards the forest in hopes of locating more students.
It's okay. Eijirou swallowed a lump in his throat. It's okay, those three made it back, Katsuki will come soon as well.
"Attention, students!" Mandalay's voice rang in his head once again and something clenched in his stomach. "Pro hero Eraserhead says it's okay to fight back!"
Was it that bad out there?
Eijirou shook his head, trying to clear his head.
No, it's okay.
"One of the villains' targets has been identified!"
His breath caught in his throat, and a wave of cold ran through his whole body.
"It's the student known as 'Kacchan'!"
Eijirou didn't listen to the rest of the message, all he could hear in his head was the high-pitched ringing of fear, his breath coming out in short, quick bursts, his whole body feeling simultaneously frozen and numb as he mindlessly stumbled towards the door.
"Kiri!"
"Oi, Kirishima!"
"What are you doing?" Vlad put a hand on his shoulder but Eijirou just shoved it off.
"Katsuki-"
"Kirishima!" Someone said behind him, probably Sero, but Eijirou didn't care to check, his vision tunneling until all he could focus on was the door that he was slowly getting closer to.
"Kirishima, stop and go sit down-"
There was that fucking hand on his shoulder again and Eijirou hardened his own to shove Vlad away.
"Kirishima-"
"KATSUKI'S IN DANGER!" He screamed at the pro hero before he tried to rush out the door, but was stopped by multiple hands this time, and then there was tape around his torso. "LET ME GO-"
"Kirishima!" Someone stood in front of him, someone with wild purple hair and tired eyes.
Shinsou.
Of course Shinsou wouldn't want him to save Katsuki.
"LET ME GO, COWARDS!" He didn't mean it, but he couldn't think straight, and even if he never wanted to hurt his friends, he still hardened his body, forcing them to let go, leaving only Sero's tape to try and hold him back. "GET OUT OF THE WAY!" He roared at Shinsou, trying to tear through several layers of the sticky material at once.
"Kirishima, who are you going after?" Shinsou asked, and both the question and his calmness made Eijirou's blood boil.
"WHO DO YOU THINK I'M-" He stopped moving, all thoughts leaving his head.
"Sit down."
The simple command resonated through his body, quickly becoming the only thought in his empty mind.
So Eijirou did.
___
Katsuki felt a gentle tap on his shoulder.
Despite the tingle of warning in the back of his skull, he turned, already frowning at Bird Head for bothering him when they were clearly in a hurry.
"The hell do you-" his eyes widened when instead of black feathers and a beak, he saw a strange, white mask.
___
Mitsuki blinked her eyes open, vision blurry as she slowly realized that she and Masaru had fallen asleep on the couch while watching a movie, though it wasn't the sound of the TV that had woken her up.
"Masaru… phone…" She nudged her husband, keeping her eyes closed and frowning at the annoying ringtone. "Turn it off…" He just groaned at her, so she shoved him off of her in retaliation, reaching blindly for a blanket to cover herself and go back to sleep.
The ringing stopped, and she smiled to herself, waiting for Masaru to join her again.
"Hello..?" His voice sounded just as tired as she felt, but it still didn't stop her from getting riled up.
"Oh my God, why the hell would you answer?!" She covered her head with the blanket and felt him hit her with a pillow while trying to talk to whatever asshole dared to wake them up at this hour.
"... What?" The alarm in the tone of his voice made her sit up, suddenly very awake, and she pushed the blanket down to look at him with a frown. "How did this-'' Masaru was probably interrupted by the person on the other side. He quickly raised to his feet, fully awake. "What the fuck do you mean it's confidential, that's my son you're talking about!"
If Mitsuki had been half asleep before, his angry yell and swearing woke her up for good.
She sat up straight, staring at Masaru's back as the call continued for a few more minutes, with her husband eerily silent, frozen in place.
Finally, the person on the other side must have hung up, as Masaru had pulled the phone away from his ear, and was now standing in place, staring silently at the device in his hand.
"Masaru?" She asked, her concern only growing when he tensed up at her quiet voice and looked at her with a pained expression, turning away with clenched teeth. "What's going on?" She got up from the couch, walking up to him and placing a careful hand over his, his knuckles whitened from the intensity with which he was gripping the phone.
"It's-" he still wouldn't look up at her for some reason.
"Masaru, who called you?" She insisted, grabbing him by the shoulder to force him to turn to her. "Answer me, for fuck-"
"Katsuki."
Her eyebrows shot up in surprise.
"... What the fuck did he do now?" She crossed her arms over her chest, concern turning into annoyance. "I swear to God, if he blew up the entire camp I am not paying for-"
"No, Mitsuki, he-" Masaru interrupted her and put both of his hands on her cheeks, phone falling onto the carpet. "They-" he drew in a deep, shaky breath. "... They kidnapped him." He whispered, his voice breaking.
Short gasp escaped her mouth as she stared at Masaru's pained face.
"Is this-" she wanted to ask if this was a joke, a sick joke, but as tears began to well up in his eyes, the weight of the situation began to creep in, cemented even further as her husband shook his head, hands moving shakily to grip her shoulders. "No…" This simple word was all she could manage to utter at that moment.
"They kidnapped him." Masaru repeated, as if it was the only thing he could process at the moment.
"No, that's not-" her own voice broke and she realized tears were running down her face, her body shaking as Masaru's hands squeezed her shoulders painfully.
"Ki-kidnapped…" Masaru cried, hiding his face in the crook of her neck as his body shook with the force of his sobs, and yet she still couldn't move.
"How?" Her voice quivered and she could feel her guts twisting as she tried to breathe.
"Villains." He barely got the word out between sobs. "God, our baby…"
Their baby…
Her baby.
Her baby boy.
Her little Katsuki.
Taken by strangers.
No… By villains.
___
Eijirou drew in a quick breath as he blinked his eyes wide open.
What-
He slowly looked around, not sure what was happening, the world swimming as he moved his head before his eyes finally focused on Kaminari and Ashido, sitting on the floor on both of his sides.
"Kiri…" Her voice wavered as she tightened her hold on his shoulder, tears welling up in her eyes as she looked at him.
"Kirishima…" Glancing up, Eijirou saw Shinsou standing in front of him. "I'm sorry, I- I just wanted to protect you." His tone was unsure, though he offered a steady hand to Eijirou to help him stand up.
About to accept, Eijirou reached out as well, but before he could grab onto Shinsou's hand, memories hit him like cold waves.
Something clenched in his stomach as he scrambled to his feet on his own, running out the door and completely ignoring Ashido yelling after him. He dismissed Sero as he sprinted past him in the corridor and before he knew it, Eijirou was outside. Flashing lights of several ambulances and police cars blinded him for a short moment. He heard a loud noise just above him and as he stared up at the sky, he saw firefighting planes, diving low and dumping what looked like red paint onto the burning forest before angling sharply upwards and circling back towards the city.
He hadn't even known there was a fire.
Eijirou looked around frantically in hopes of seeing that familiar tuft of blond hair, yet to no avail. Instead, he saw Tsuyu hugging Uraraka, who was covering her face as she sat on the ground. When he tried to approach, Tsuyu just blinked up at him and slowly shook her head, mouthing 'I'm sorry', before tightening her arms around Uraraka, pulling her closer and smoothing down her hair.
For what? Eijirou wanted to ask as the bile in his stomach traveled up into his throat. He forced himself to swallow it down and continue moving.
Once again, his eyes scanned the crowd before finally falling on Todoroki, who was wrapped up in a blanket and seated in the back of the ambulance, frost sticking to his cheek and hair, his expression somber as he stared down at the ground.
"Todoroki!" He called out, startling his classmate into looking up, though as soon as his eyes met Eijirou's, Todoroki quickly looked away in… shame?
What?
Why?
Eijirou clenched his shaking hands as his legs carried him to Todoroki on their own.
"Where is-" he started, but the fear that was deeply rooted in his body prevented him from finishing.
"I-" Todoroki tried to look up at him, but he squeezed his eyes shut as he bit down on his lip and hung his head low.
No.
No no no no-
This wasn't-
No!
"Todoroki?" Eijirou urged, desperate for any information.
"Kirishima…" Kaminari's quiet voice sounded behind him, but Eijirou didn't even try to acknowledge him.
"Todoroki, please."
"It's-" He started once again, but just shook his head and covered his face in an uncharacteristically shameful manner.
"Kiri…" Ashido appeared next to him, hands gently taking his clenched one.
"Please…" Eijirou ignored her, his focus entirely on the one person who seemed to know everything.
Todoroki drew in a deep breath and finally, finally, he slowly stood up, the blanket slipping from his shoulders and falling uselessly to the ground. A cold shiver ran down Eijirou's body as Todoroki put a frost-covered hand on his shoulder.
"I'm…" He clenched his jaw for a moment as he took another deep breath. "I'm so so sorry, Kirishima." His expression was pained as he squeezed his shoulder and bowed his head down.
Eijirou felt as if someone had punched the air out of his lungs.
Todoroki rushed through his next words, babbling and stuttering; "It- it happened so quickly, and I was- I was so close! So close, Kirishima, and yet I couldn't- I didn't mean-"
Eijirou took a step back as his vision blurred.
"It's my fault, they grabbed him and took him and-"
Eijirou fell to his knees, feeling as if someone had stabbed and punched him at the same time.
He started shaking, violently.
Some people - his friends? - crouched down, surrounding him, one of them telling him to breathe, but he couldn't. He clutched at his chest and had his mouth open, but he just couldn't.
His vision blurred and darkened as the thought of his Katsuki being taken away by the villains overwhelmed him, making him sick to his stomach.
My fault. Todoroki's words were ringing in Eijirou's head, and the other's guilt quickly became his own. My fault they took him.
He curled in on himself, and as his forehead touched the ground, he sobbed, finally catching his breath, which quickly turned into a scream of anguish as he tried to exhale.
Why?
For what?
It hurt so much.
He wanted to stop, but was unable to, all the pain he felt inside him coming out in a form of a deafening scream that lasted for so long that his throat hurt from the roughness of it, going painfully dry as hot, wet tears were falling to the ground, mixing into the dirt.
My fault. He thought again, sobbing into his hands when his throat became too raw for his screams to force through.
If only he had tried harder to get out of the classroom. If only he had been a better friend, a better man, a better hero.
If only he had been more useful.
But he hadn't been, and now Katsuki was gone, and it was entirely his fault.
Notes:
*leans into the mic* I'm not sorry.
Those of you who follow me on tumblr know why it took me half a fucking year to update, those who don't; why aren't you following me on tumblr?
Lmfao, no, I'm joking. It's just that my BA thesis killed any and all the enthusiasm I had for writing, but I guess I'm back? :v
If anyone wants to support me, again, head to my tumblr and look at the links :V
And that's it for now, folks, see y'all sooner than in half a year jkxfhskjjrhtj
Up next; Unfortunately, no Katsuki
Chapter 33: Visible pain
Summary:
Suffering (feat. Todoroki)
Notes:
Uhh idk if y'all want a warning so I'll just say that there's a lot of Eijirou having intrusive thoughts and being depressed in general
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Eijirou had a lot of trouble registering what was happening around him, the world seeming to fade into vague shapes and shadows, edges dark and conversations muffled like everyone was underwater.
Sure, technically he was there. He was still in front of the facility where, just an hour earlier, he was about to start his remedial lessons. He was still surrounded by his classmates; Ashido was still clutching his hand, her sobs having turned to quiet sniffles. Kaminari was still somewhere to the side, along with Sero, both shielding him from the worried glances of others. Aizawa was telling them about Midoriya, Jirou, Yaomomo and a few students from Class B being injured and currently unconscious, and about Hagakure having gone missing as well, but he couldn't bring himself to care.
He just stared at the ground, throat sore and eyes stinging, shaking slightly as the voice in his head kept repeating that it was on him, he was to blame, this was all his fault.
"Kirishima?"
Eijirou remained still as his reddened eyes shot towards Kaminari who grimaced slightly at the unnerving reaction.
"We need to-" he cleared his throat, glancing at someone behind Eijirou, "we need to go collect our stuff. The bus is on the way to pick us all up."
Not all of us. Eijirou thought, still unable to speak.
He felt Ashido let go of his hand, his gaze automatically following her movement to see that she was being pulled into a hug by both Tsuyu and Uraraka, the three of them holding on tightly to each other before pulling apart and heading inside, hands still gripping tightly onto each other as if to assure themselves that their friends were still there, still safe.
Eijirou immediately clenched his hardened hands.
"Kirishima, come on…" Sero nudged him with his elbow carefully, "there's no point in standing around…" Eijirou knew that Sero was right, so even though all he wanted was to lie down and scream, he forced his legs to move.
Sero and Kaminari walked with him slowly, the latter with his hand on Eijirou's back, guiding him, as if he was going to get lost in the corridors, and honestly? At this point he wasn't entirely sure he would be able to actually make it there on his own.
They were the last ones to enter the room, everyone already packed or in the process of packing. Eijirou slowly walked by Shouji, his legs carrying him forward without much thought, only to find himself frozen in place, staring at the futon on the floor.
Katsuki's futon.
His throat tightened, and though someone next to him was trying to get his attention, he was already kneeling on the futon, reaching for the phone that had been left behind on the pillow.
Eijirou stared at it for a few long seconds, completely ignoring the careful hand placed on his shoulder, and for reasons unknown to him, he unlocked it.
Tears welled up in his eyes, his despair building up and twisting in his gut, the feeling working its way up into his chest and creating an unbearable pressure that finally tore out in an agonized sound that felt too big to be forced out of his still-too-tight-to-breathe throat. The sound barely registered as he tried to breathe in the lost air; it was a pitiful sounding sob that was rapidly rebuilding as he stared down at the picture of him and Katsuki from their first day here.
The tears fell down onto the screen, right on Katsuki's face, and another sob escaped him.
"Why…" Eijirou whimpered, voice rough as he curled in on himself, holding the phone tightly in his hands and shaking.
"Why…" He repeated pathetically, but no one answered.
No one could help him, and he felt like he deserved it.
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The ride back home felt longer than he thought it should have been; when he wasn't falling in and out of consciousness, he was trying to make himself as unnoticeable as possible, curled up in his seat in the back of the bus, face hidden between his knees, arms covering his head.
Eijirou felt terrible.
Like a failure.
A nobody.
And he seemed to be unable to stop causing fucking scenes every time he got too upset. Too worked up and self-absorbed to even consider the people around him. First when he tried to run out to try and save Katsuki, then when he found Katsuki's phone, which he was still clutching in one of his hands, and especially after Katsuki was…
Eijirou barely held back the tears, digging nails into his skin in a sorry attempt to distract himself.
But did he even deserve this small distraction?
It was all his fault, after all. He didn't have any right to try and make himself feel better.
Not after he'd done absolutely nothing to help.
Despite his best efforts, hot tears streamed down his face, and he found himself slightly surprised that he still had enough of them to cry.
So pathetic.
He allowed himself to cry in silence for a few minutes, the tears eventually stopping, the streaks of water slowly drying and leaving his cheeks raw and reddened. He had just started to drift off once more when, seemingly out of nowhere, a hand appeared on his knee. He jumped in his seat, eyes shooting up in a startled surprise to find Aizawa standing over him.
"May I?" The teacher asked as he pointed at one of the empty seats.
Eijirou rubbed at his nose with the back of his hand as he sniffled and nodded, still no energy to speak.
Aizawa sat down in an awkward position, sideways so that he could look at Eijirou.
God, he was going to blame him for everything-
"First of all," Aizawa started as he reached into his pocket and pulled out a pack of tissues. "You'll need them more than me."
Eijirou just nodded again in a weak attempt to show gratitude as he grabbed the pack and opened it to blow his nose, carefully placing Katsuki's phone on the empty seat between him and Aizawa.
"Second, I'll need that."
Eijirou drew his eyebrows in confusion before he realized what the teacher had meant.
For a few moments, which Aizawa allowed him to have, he just stared at the phone, twisting the used tissue in his hands. He was somewhat grateful that his teacher didn't just snatch the phone away from him, that he was given a warning, even if he didn't deserve it in the first place.
With a heavy sigh, Eijirou picked it up and handed it over to Aizawa, barely able to stop himself from unlocking it one more time.
"Have you had any water?" The teacher asked after pocketing the phone.
Eijirou needed a moment to remember. Drinking water was the last thing on his mind for the last… Damn it, how much time has passed, anyway? He had no idea so he just slowly shook his head.
"... How are you feeling?"
At the question, Eijirou just tried to hide his head between his shoulders, avoiding eye contact.
Aizawa sighed. "Listen, as harsh as it sounds, things like this happen when you're a hero. You need to be ready for them, because you don't know when or how your… partner might be taken from you."
For a moment, Eijirou had a strange feeling that his teacher was speaking from experience, although considering how many years he's been a hero already, Eijirou really shouldn't have been so surprised.
"... I'm not a hero, though." Eijirou whispered with a raspy voice.
He wasn't a hero, he was a coward.
But it seemed like Aizawa misunderstood him, with the next words of; "You're right, not yet. That's why we are to blame. That's why I am to blame. You kids were under my protection and I failed you."
Eijirou's eyes were wide as he slowly looked up at his teacher.
"I'm aware that you've been blaming yourself. That's one of the things you need to work on." Aizawa stated in his typical tone, lecturing and tired, yet still somewhat softer than normal, as he stood up, putting a hand on the back of one of the seats for better balance. "It wasn't your fault, Kirishima. I'll bring you some water." With that, the hero slowly headed to the front of the bus, checking on the other students on his way.
Eijirou bit his lower lip, nails once again digging into the skin of his palms.
It wasn't your fault.
God, he wished that was true.
___
Finally back in town, they stopped in front of the school gates and got off the bus. Police officers, and even a few pro heros who Eijirou couldn’t be bothered to recognize at the moment, formed a barricade around the area, creating checkpoints and only allowing small groups of parents in at a time. One by one, his classmates were picked up by their parents and taken home.
Ashido's dad arrived as one of the first, proving his identity so that they would let him in. He immediately approached his daughter, hugging her tightly before draping his jacket over her shoulders and leading her away to his car. Once he made sure she was secure inside, he went to collect her suitcase from the bus. As he was about to go back, Aizawa, Vlad, and principal Nezu, whom Eijirou didn't notice earlier, all bowed to him. They were saying something, something that made Ashido's dad sigh and shake his head silently. He didn't say anything, just walked back to the car and drove away.
The case was similar with all the other parents that had arrived, some did talk to the principal, some didn't, some even straight up ignored him and the heroes.
Sero's parents stayed long enough for Aizawa to run through the events of the whole evening with them. They didn't seem pleased, but it also looked like they were one of the few who didn't hold it against the school.
After all, their child was safe.
Eijirou clenched his fists as he locked his eyes on the ground.
How dare you? He wanted to ask, but he bit his tongue as they finally left.
Kaminari nudged Eijirou in the side, wearing a worried expression. It seemed as if he wanted to say something, but someone who looked like a slightly older version of him, perhaps his brother, approached with a sympathetic smile.
And then he was alone.
And he was already getting anxious, worried that his mom had forgotten about him, that she hadn't been informed, that something terrible had happened, but then Eijirou saw her familiar tall figure and he couldn't help but ignore everyone and everything as tears filled his eyes and he ran towards her.
She opened her arms for him and he threw himself at her, almost causing them to trip, but she stood her ground and just held him, the wonderful scent of home calming his thoughts for those few moments of security that his mom's arms around him provided.
But just as quickly as it had started, it ended even sooner.
A speeding car came to a screeching halt not far away from them, and before Eijirou could figure out where he'd seen it before, Katsuki's mother stepped out of it.
His stomach dropped, all the guilt he had momentarily forgotten about flooding his thoughts all over again, bringing his earlier despair back tenfold and leaving him fighting for air all over again.
"YOU CALL YOURSELVES HEROES!?" Mitsuki screamed, leaving the car running at the curbside as she stormed towards Aizawa, two police officers immediately moving forward to stop her. "YOU'RE SHIT!" She tried to tear through the two men, but they just grabbed her arms and held her back, telling her to calm down. It was as though she didn't even see them. "YOU'RE NOTHING!" This time her voice was more of a deafening screech that hurt Eijirou's ears.
"Come on, baby…" His mom spoke softly, trying to take his attention away from the furious Mitsuki, who was crying through her screams, her face twisted up in rage. His mom moved, putting herself in front of him, but Eijirou wasn't sure if she was shielding him or Katsuki's mom.
"YOU ALL SHOULD BE IN HIS PLACE!"
Eijirou couldn't see, but he could hear.
And her words made him think that she was right, it should have been someone else.
Should have been him. It could have been him.
"IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT!"
He already knew that. He knew it was all his fault. If only-
"YOU'RE FUCKING NOTHING!"
Eijirou felt like nothing.
Even as his mom wiped away his fresh tears and led him to the car, all Eijirou could think about was the display of pure misery and anger on Mitsuki's face.
___
"Do you want some tea?" His mom asked as they made their way inside their apartment.
Eijirou just shook his head as he took his shoes off.
"Hungry?" She smiled at him as she put a hand on his cheek. "When's the last time you've eaten anything, baby?" Her tone was mostly sympathetic but he could clearly hear the heavy amount of worry in there as well.
And he hated himself for that.
For making his mom worry, when he wasn't the one who had been kidnapped by villains. When he hadn't even been hurt, at least not physically, because he hadn't even done anything.
Eijirou bit his lip to stop himself from crying again and just shrugged, because he honestly had no idea when the last meal he had was.
"I know I'm not the best cook, but I can still manage to fix you some cereal with milk? I promise not to burn the milk this time!" She joked, trying to lighten up the mood, and Eijirou forced a smile in an attempt to make her feel better.
But of course, she noticed.
"Oh, baby…" She hugged him tightly while his arms stayed limply at his sides.
He was just so tired.
"What can I do for you, honey?" His mom slowly stroked his hair, at this point ruined, most of it falling onto his face.
Eijirou just shrugged awkwardly. "I just want to sleep…" He whispered in a raspy voice.
His mom pulled away, hands on his shoulders as she stared at him in that analytical way that moms do for a few moments, looking for something, probably seeing it. But for all that he wanted to reassure her, Eijirou was too tired to try and figure out what it was.
She sighed and finally let go, and without another word, Eijirou headed to his bedroom and locked himself inside.
He decided to turn on just his desk lamp, and after he blindly reached it, his eyes immediately fell on the little red shark pencil case. His throat squeezed in on itself and he grabbed the pencil case and put it in one of the drawers.
After taking a few deep, shaky breaths, Eijirou pulled his phone out of his pocket, only to realize it had run out of battery. He clicked his tongue when he remembered he had left his backpack, and by extension, his charger, by the entrance, and judging by the footsteps and the muffled conversation, his mom was pacing through the apartment while on the phone, probably with his mama.
Eijirou really didn't want to worry her any further, and as much as he wanted to assure his mama that he was alright, he really didn't have the energy for a full conversation, so he decided to use one of his old ones.
He avoided the drawer with the pencil case in it, and searched through the second one, to no avail, then finally, he opened the third one, instantly freezing, his hand hardening and effectively ruining the handle of the drawer.
The medal.
Katsuki's medal.
Eijirou swallowed the lump in his throat and ignored the pounding pain in his chest and head as he reached into the drawer and carefully grabbed the medal.
Even in the poor lighting of the lamp the golden medal was still shining, heavy in his hand, heavier than he remembered, the weight more prominent for the memory attached to it, mocking him from its very existence.
Why did he have so much stuff that reminded him of Katsuki. Why did he keep getting reminded of him when all he wanted was to stop thinking about him? It hurt too much and made his mom and friends worry.
Damn it, even Aizawa of all people was worried.
He didn't want to be angry.
He had no reason to be angry, especially not at something that reminded him of Katsuki, and yet before he knew it, he was mindlessly clenching his hardened hand around the medal.
"Shit-!" Eijirou gasped, dropping the ruined award, now looking like a piece of crumpled paper.
What the hell was he doing?
Eijirou lay down on the bed, immediately covering himself with one of his blankets, face hidden in his pillow in a strange mix of anger and shame.
Exhaustion finally catching up to him, he fell asleep as soon as he stopped moving.
___
Eijirou’s hunger woke him up, his stomach hurting and throat uncomfortably dry as he tried to swallow some saliva. He rubbed at his face as he pulled away the blanket he was still under and blinked a few times at the brightness of his room, trying to focus his vision on the clock on his wall.
Already past 1pm.
With a heavy sigh, he tried to get up. It took him several minutes to force his body into a sitting position, every inch of him felt too heavy to move, too sore to want to, and the pounding in his head wasn't helping.
He managed to sit down on the edge of the bed, and that was when he noticed a glass full of water on his nightstand, a note placed next to it.
Honey, I decided to let you sleep in. You deserve it, drink up and come out when you're ready. I took the day off, so if you need me, I'll be here for you.
I love you!
-Mom (:
If he could, Eijirou would smile as he read it, but the guilt of his mom taking a day off just because he wasn't feeling well quickly built up, making his chest hurt and his throat seize up again.
Even as he stared at the written words, you deserve it, he still felt like he didn't.
He crumpled the note and downed the glass of water, forcing himself to stand up, and sitting back down just as fast after his foot bumped against something on the floor.
"... Fuck." Eijirou stared at the basically unrecognizable medal.
He took a deep breath.
Then another.
He needed to stay calm, otherwise he'd just lose his mind again.
With his eyes closed, Eijirou snatched the medal off of the floor and threw it into the small trash can under his desk, along with the note from his mom.
Trying his best to ignore the sting of guilt over throwing both of those away, Eijirou made his way to the bathroom and took a long shower, washing away the gel, still in his hair from yesterday, and the unpleasant smell of burning forest that somehow still lingered on his skin.
Once he was done, he stepped out of the shower and put on clean clothes, already feeling better, even more so once he styled his hair. It gave him some sense of normalcy after everything that happened. Some sort of calmness.
Eijirou left the bathroom in time to see his mom with her hand hovering over his door, probably pondering whether she should knock or not, so he decided to spare her.
"Hey, mom." He tried his best for his smile to look sincere.
"Eijirou!" She turned to him, her own smile wide and honest and full of relief at seeing him. "Are you hungry, baby?"
"Yeah, actually…" His stomach still hurt. He could use some food, even if it was burnt or too salty.
"Don't worry, I ordered some take out." His mom snickered at the face he made, as if she could read his thoughts. "Come on, it's already here." She threw over her shoulder as she had already started heading to the living room.
Eijirou dragged his feet on the floor as he slowly followed her. She was already sitting on the couch, the take out curry on the coffee table in front of her.
He didn't mean to, but he grimaced.
"Honey?" His mom tilted her head to the side, confused and worried about his reaction.
Eijirou swallowed the lump in his throat.
"It's nothing…" He lied.
Because how was he supposed to explain that this was the last meal he had before-
"Eijirou, darling…" She was in front of him, hands cupping his cheeks. "Please, tell me what's on your mind."
"I-" His voice cracked, and he barely stopped himself from shaking.
It's just stupid curry, get a hold of yourself.
"Eijirou…" She hugged him, almost desperately, similarly to how she had done yesterday, but what was supposed to comfort him, only made him feel sick.
"I'm okay, mom, I'm sorry…" He forced out, patting her on the back.
"Don't apologize."
"Mom-"
"Don't."
"... Okay." Eijirou let her hold him for another minute before he pulled away. "Can we eat?" Even if he didn't want to, he still had to.
"Of course, God, you must be starving." She chuckled sadly, trying to subtly wipe away her tears.
They sat down, and Eijirou took the first bite.
It was the worst curry he'd had in his life.
___
They ate in silence, his mom sneaking not-so-subtle glances at him occasionally, while he kept his gaze resolutely pinned down, watching his food and trying not to taste it. Once they were done eating, he leaned forward to gather up the food containers for the trash, but was stopped by his mom's hand on his knee.
He looked down at the hand, then his unsure eyes met with her worried ones.
"Eijirou, I know this isn't easy…" She started, drawing her hand away and straightening in her seat, bringing some seriousness to the situation that Eijirou didn't want to be in. "But I want to make this easier for you."
Eijirou didn't move, didn't make a sound, just stared at her with a blank expression, not sure what to expect.
"I can't help you, but…" She took a deep breath after her voice wavered for a moment. "But I know people who can. I can arrange for you to talk about what happened with a professional and-"
"I'm not the one who needs help." Eijirou didn't mean to, but he snapped at her.
"Baby-"
"No." He stood up, turned around and walked out of the living room, already headed towards the front door.
"Eijirou!" But of course his mom was right after him. "Where are you going?" She hovered near him, watching as he put on his shoes.
"For a walk." Eijirou answered without looking at her.
"Baby, you know I mean well!"
He knew she meant well, and was probably right, but he couldn't help but get even angrier.
He wasn't the one who needed that sort of help, or any sort of help even.
He wasn't the one who got kidnapped and was who knows where.
He wasn't the one in direct danger.
"... I'm sorry." He said flatly, without meaning it, and without looking at his mom as he left, closing the door behind him.
___
Once Eijirou left the apartment, he just ran, letting his legs carry him anywhere, as long as it was away, until he was completely out of breath and found himself at a nearby train station.
And now that he had stopped running, and found himself somewhere that could take him even further away, he had no idea what to do or where else to go.
So he made his way through the stream of people exiting the station and over to the short brick wall near the doors, hopping up backwards to sit with his feet dangling about a foot off the ground, watching people hurriedly walking in and out of the building.
At some point, he started feeling ridiculous, because he wasn't doing anything. Just staring at people who had their own problems and didn't care about him or about what happened last night. Eijirou was just wasting time, even if he had no idea what he could do in this situation. What he was supposed to do in a situation like this.
He stared up at the sky, annoyingly bright and perfect, as if in direct opposition to his current mood.
Why did he even come outside in the first place? And why here?
Eijirou blinked in surprise when something started buzzing near him, and it took him several seconds to realize it was his phone.
Damn, he thought, I brought it with me?
He pulled it out of his pocket to see his mom calling him. The sting of guilt built up in his guts as he tapped the screen to ignore the call, but that was when he saw a notification of a text message.
Thinking it was from his mom as well, he was about to dismiss it, but then he saw the all too familiar name.
Keiichi.
… Nogashira.
How could he forget? They were supposed to meet up after the camp, but since it ended prematurely and in the way that it did…
Eijirou swallowed nervously as he fidgeted with the phone for a few moments, pondering whether he should open the message or not, but another one incoming forced him to make up his mind and he tapped on it.
Keiichi: Ei, I read about what happened, are you alright?
Keiichi: I know you wanted to talk after I'd be back but this looks too serious, please text me when you can
He took a deep breath.
Eijirou: I'm fine
Keiichi: Ei!
Keiichi: Holy shit man, I was sweating here
Keiichi: I read that there were several students injured, and I had no clue if you were one of them
Eijirou: I was safe the entire time
Admitting this hurt to the point that he felt the stinging in his eyes, returning guilt making him sick, but after several more deep breaths and clenching his hardened hand, he managed to ignore his loud thoughts and focus back on Nogashira.
Keiichi: That's good!
Keiichi: But uh… that invisible girl, Hagakure? She got kidnapped, right?
Right… Another student had been missing the entire time as well, but all Eijirou could think about was…
Keiichi: And Bakugou…
A few tears threatened to spill down his face, but Eijirou quickly blinked them away and hurried inside the train station and into a smelly restroom. He felt his phone buzzing again, but only when he was locked in one of the stalls, did he look at it.
Keiichi: This guy has a lot of bad luck when it comes to villains…
Eijirou: it's not funny
Keiichi: Shit, im sorry, that came out wrong
Keiichi: … Do you have any clue what's happening? With them, I mean
It hurt to admit.
It felt like he was supposed to know.
Eijirou: no
Keiichi: … I'm sorry
Keiichi: maybe it's a reach but… maybe one of your classmates will know something?
Eijirou squinted his eyes in confusion as he tried to understand what Nogashira meant by that. How the hell were any of them supposed to know anything?
Keiichi: I mean one of the injured ones? I can only guess they're all in some hospital but since they were closer to the whole… you know…
Keiichi: Maybe they know more? You could find out, if they're conscious enough…
Holy shit, Eijirou was an idiot.
He sprinted out of the stall and straight to the train timetables, then before he knew it, he was on the train.
He could ask Midoriya! Or some hero even! Maybe Aizawa himself would be there!
Eijirou: You're a genius
Keiichi: oh!
Keiichi: huh… I'm glad I could help?
Nogashira texted him some more but Eijirou just ignored it, pocketing his phone and willing the train to go faster.
Of all people, he really wasn't expecting Nogashira to be the one to help him.
___
By the time he was in front of the hospital, he was out of breath, hunched over while resting his hands against his knees and hoping that no one would call security on him.
God, what the hell was he doing?
Eijirou stood for a few minutes in front of the huge building, wondering whether he really should have come. After all, Nogashira wasn't the best person to listen to. But he would be lying if he said he didn't wish that at least one of his classmates knew something, anything, to help him find Katsuki.
He froze in place.
Was that…
Was that why he came here? To look for clues that would help him find and rescue Katsuki?
But that was impossible, right?
He didn't even know how many villains were out there during that night, how many were captured and how many were left.
And yet he still wanted to go and save Katsuki?
"Kirishima?"
Startled out of his thoughts, Eijirou yelped awkwardly before looking over his shoulder.
"Todoroki?!" He yelled, surprised at the sight of his classmate. "Why are you here?!"
"... Why are you?"
"I-" Eijirou looked awkwardly to the side. What was he supposed to say to that? "Well… I guess I just couldn't sit still… Back at home…" That part was kind of true, he couldn't bear staying at home at the moment, but Eijirou himself wasn't sure if it was because he wanted to prove to himself that he could still do something or if he just couldn't bear seeing his mom worry about him.
"I get it."
Eijirou's wide eyes shot back to Todoroki, who had a surprisingly open expression, showing that he cared about this situation almost the same amount as Eijirou, if not just as much.
He swallowed nervously before speaking up again. "I just… I wanted to see if someone could tell us anything…"
"Yeah…" Todoroki was the one to look down this time. "There's nothing on the news, so I figured the same…"
Eijirou didn't actually know how much the public knew about the incident. He could only assume that they knew that two students and a pro heroine were kidnapped, but otherwise?
"Do you want to go inside?" Todoroki asked after a few awkward seconds of silence, tilting his head towards the entrance.
"... Do you think Midoriya is awake?" Eijirou asked once they were inside and checked out at the front desk.
For some reason, he assumed that Katsuki's childhood friend would know the most, or at least would be just as determined to find out the whereabouts of their classmates.
"I was with him, he knows just as much as I do." Todoroki pointed out, heading down the corridors as if he knew the place by heart. “I can share that with you later.”
"So what are we going to-"
"Holy shit." Todoroki's steps halted, and since Eijirou was right behind him, he almost collided with his back.
"Hey, be careful bro-"
"Look." He pointed ahead and once Eijirou followed, his eyes fell on All Might's large figure going inside one of the rooms.
"Holy shit." Eijirou whispered to himself before he felt Todoroki tug on his arm and they quietly made their way to the still open door.
They peeked inside and saw All Might with some dark haired man, talking to-
"Yaomomo…" Eijirou breathed out with relief.
She was sitting up straight and seemed perfectly fine, aside from the bandage around her forehead. She was holding some device in her hand.
"What's that-"
"Shh, listen…"
"...Awase from class B helped me do it," Yaomomo was explaining something with determined expression. "He stuck the transceiver onto one of the villains."
Eijirou's eyes widened, and once he glanced at Todoroki, he saw the same mix of understanding and shock.
"I managed to create this device to receive the tracking signal, please use it in your investigation."
All Might began to speak, but before Eijirou knew it, he was being dragged away by Todoroki. Still, he couldn't bring himself to care. He was too amazed by Yaomomo's actions. At how much she's done while being in so much danger. Probably while being injured.
And then Eijirou was there, unharmed and useless.
"We can save him." Eijirou heard himself say after they hid behind a corner in case All Might was about to come out with that other man.
"... Yeah." Todoroki agreed.
He agreed with Eijirou, he heard him agree.
But that still didn't stop Eijirou from asking. "You agree?"
Todoroki nodded, expression determined and serious. "We'll need Yaoyorozu's help, of course. She can make another device for us."
Eijirou took in a shaky breath.
God, he actually had a chance to save Katsuki.
And there was already one person on his side.
"Midoriya- Midoriya will want to help!" Eijirou yelled then quickly covered his mouth. Being found out by All Might was the last thing they probably wanted right now.
"We need to check if he's awake." Todoroki said, the most excited Eijirou had ever seen him, and was already on his way back to the reception, but Eijirou quickly grabbed him by the elbow. "What-"
"First, we need to ask Yaomomo if she'll be willing to help us."
Todoroki's shoulders slumped a bit before he frowned and nodded sternly.
They had to wait another few, painfully long minutes before All Might and the other man finally left, but then they immediately rushed back to Yaomomo's room, startling her as they loudly slid the door open.
"T-Todoroki-san?!" She exclaimed, startled out of her thoughts by their sudden presence. "Kirishima-san, too?!"
"Yaomomo, sorry for barging in without notice!" Eijirou bowed quickly before walking up closer to her bed, Todoroki right behind.
"We heard your conversation with All Might."
Eijirou sighed at the direct approach.
"Oh, I see…" Yaomomo looked down at her hands that were fiddling with a blanket her legs were covered by, as if she was ashamed of something. "I really wish I could have done more…"
"Are you kidding?!" Eijirou didn't mean to yell as he leaned on her bed and got closer to her. "You've done so much more than the two of us combined!"
"Exactly, and that's why we need your help." Todoroki stated and began explaining.
Eijirou bit his tongue as his eyes were locked on Yaomomo's face, looking for every and any indication that she would agree to help them, maybe even go with them.
"That's…" Yaomomo stared at her left arm, the one that Eijirou knew was her go-to space for creating smaller things, once Todoroki was done explaining. "That's quite dangerous, don't you think?" She glanced between them, worried and unsure.
"We know." Eijirou finally spoke. "But if I'm ever to forgive myself for not being enough of a man to help Katsuki when he needed me most, then I have to take that risk."
"And I was the one who was right there, perfectly able to help, but still lost him." Todoroki shared as well.
"... And now that you have a chance to help…"
"We must take it. No matter the risk." Eijirou finished, determined and hopeful that she would agree to help them.
At this point, she was the crucial part of their nonexistent plan, but Eijirou didn't care.
"We have to act quickly." Eijirou ushered her, trying to be gentle.
His heart started racing when she released a long breath and stared directly at him.
"I promise to think about it and give you my answer tomorrow. " She spoke in a leveled tone, and even if Eijirou wanted to scream that there was no time for thinking, he understood.
So he nodded, along with Todoroki, and they left her alone.
"... Midoriya?" Todoroki asked, body already leaning towards the reception, ready to go at any second.
"Midoriya."
___
They entered the room with Midoriya's name on it, and even if the nurse at the reception informed them that their classmate was still unconscious and feverish, Eijirou couldn't help but be disappointed.
Midoriya was… a sight, that's for sure. Both of his arms in casts, bandages all over his body and dark circles under his eyes, as if he hasn't been asleep since yesterday.
"... We can come by tomorrow." Eijirou said quietly, ready to leave, but Todoroki was already by Midoriya's side. "What are you-"
"Midoriya." Todoroki clasped his hands roughly against Midoriya's cheeks.
"DUDE?!"
"Mi-do-ri-ya." Todoroki called out to him again, punctuating each syllable with a slap of his hands.
"What are you doing, stop!" Eijirou grabbed his wrists and tried to pry him away from still unconscious Midoriya, and just as he was about to succeed, Midoriya let out a long, pained groan. "What the-"
"Kacchan…." He started, but drifted back into incomprehensible mumbling.
Todoroki and Eijirou stared at each other for a moment, not sure what to do.
"Heeeeelpp…… Kacchaaaan…" Midoriya continued his half-conscious muttering, eyes opening and closing out of synch.
"Yeah, we need to help Kacchan!" Todoroki yelled right into his face before he shivered in disgust and both of them grimaced at the way the nickname sounded coming from him. "... Don't mention this to anyone."
"Never."
"Auntie…" Midoriya mumbled as he seemingly started drifting back into sleep.
"Auntie?" Eijirou asked, as if Todoroki would have an answer.
"Midoriya." Todoroki just clasped his hands on the others face once again. "Help. Kacchan. Auntie." He repeated as soon as one of Midoriya's eyes opened again.
Just for it to fill with tears that quickly spilled down the side of his face.
"Auntie…" He sobbed, awkwardly flailing his arms.
"What auntie?" Eijirou joined in.
"I'm sorryyyy…." Midoriya whimpered. "Auntie Mitsu…" And he was out cold.
"Mitsu?" Todoroki quirked a brow at Eijirou, but he was just as lost. "... Kacchan."
"Auntie."
"Auntie Mitsu…"
Eijirou's eyes widened, chest uncontrollably tight as the realization hit him.
"Katsuki's mom."
___
The fact that Midoriya was trying to apologize to Mitsuki was like a bucket full of ice cold water thrown at him. Her son was missing, and Eijirou didn't even think about her feelings. He couldn't believe that he was so selfish, only thinking of himself and his own feelings about this entire mess. Especially after having been a witness to Mitsuki's anger and grief just the night before.
He breathed in the fresh air as he stepped out of the train station.
"Where to now?" Todoroki asked, right behind him.
Somehow, Todoroki had convinced Eijirou to let him come along, stating, without leaving room for argument, that he had to apologize as well, even if he had never even met Katsuki's mother.
"This way, I think…" Eijirou pointed in the most recognizable direction and they began their quiet walk down the streets.
He's only ever visited Katsuki once, and so he really hoped that he actually remembered how to get there. At worst, they'd have to bring attention to themselves by asking for directions.
They walked in silence for a solid five minutes before the calmness of the afternoon commute began to grate on Eijirou's nerves.
Keeping an eye on the street signs, and scanning the area for recognizable landmarks, he tried his best to sound casual as he asked, "how are you supposed to apologize properly for allowing someone's kid to get kidnapped? Are you supposed to buy them an apology gift? Flowers?" To say he felt awkward after those questions he shouldn’t have asked would be an understatement, especially when for a split second he felt Todoroki’s judgmental stare.
"Maybe a card that says ‘sorry for your loss’ would do." Todoroki said dryly, also looking at street signs and landmarks, though Eijirou was pretty sure that it was more to distract himself or maybe avoid further conversation than anything.
In the end, Eijirou just laughed uncomfortably at the (he hoped) sarcastic answer, not sure what else to say. Everything that he could say felt too forced, too awkward in his current company, and in their current situation.
A few moments passed, their shoes not even making enough sound against the pavement to provide enough distraction for Eijirou's busy mind. Fortunately, his eyes landed on a street sign with a familiar name. "Oh! I think we need to turn here!" Their pace picked up briefly, only for it to slow back down almost immediately. None of these houses looked right. Was it because they had made a wrong turn, or was it because he'd been too busy staring at Katsuki the first and only time he had come this way?
He took a quick glance at Todoroki, who didn't seem to mind that their walk was taking longer than expected, or maybe that was his 'bored and annoyed' face? Either way, it couldn't hurt to walk to the end of the street. Hopefully the next block would have something else that he recognized.
Unfortunately, the next row of houses looked just as unfamiliar as the last. On the other hand, there was a car parked awkwardly at the end of the next street down, the tinted windows giving off a very I'm-not-an-undercover-cop-car-don't-look-at-me vibe. It was a pretty solid lead, in Eijirou's opinion. Maybe he'd be able to get them to Katsuki's house without looking like he was winging it the whole time.
"That car is an undercover police officer." Todoroki remarked, eradicating Eijirou's hopes of him not noticing how lost he'd been for the majority of the walk. "We're either on the right street, or we need to head to the next one down." He met Eijirou's eyes then, and he could have sworn he saw the hint of a teasing smirk before Todoroki added, "you seemed a little lost, so I thought I'd pitch in."
"...Yeah, that street looks like the right one." Eijirou gestured vaguely ahead, looking away from his classmate and nodding, mostly to himself.
They turned at the next corner, crossing to the other side of the street in order to avoid getting too close to the not-an-undercover-police-car-nosirree, but still getting close enough to see that the man inside had fallen asleep.
Eijirou wondered vaguely if his mom had ever fallen asleep on the job, but the thought was gone in the next second as he realized that the houses around them still didn't look familiar, though they could see another car with tinted windows parked awkwardly at the other end of the street, so it had to be the right one…
Or they were severely lost and about to be caught in the middle of a drug bust or something.
But Eijirou was trying to think positively, even if everything seemed to be stacking up against him.
This was the right street.
They would find the right house.
Katsuki's mom wouldn't verbally abuse them and forbid Eijirou from ever seeing her son again if he came home from the villains alive…
Eijirou grit his teeth at the thought, hardening rippling through his arms, clawed hands shaking.
When.
When he came home from the villains alive.
He managed to calm himself before Todoroki noticed anything, shaking off the uncomfortable stiffness of his hands and focusing on their surroundings.
Right! Eijirou realized, eyes widening. Mailboxes! There were mailboxes in front of the houses, and most of them had the family name printed on the sides! He just had to find the one that said- "THERE!"
Todoroki jumped at the sudden volume and, oops, he had yelled that out loud, hadn't he? But there it was!
The simple black mailbox had, in a light baby blue, 'Bakugou' calligraphed across the side, surrounded by mint green vines and delicate blossoms in yellow and purple pastels. It was... definitely not what either of them had expected of a mailbox belonging to the Bakugou household to look like, and honestly, Eijirou wondered how he did not notice it the first time he was here.
But it was definitely the right house. Eijirou might not have recognized any of the ones around it, but this one was absolutely the right one.
They stepped forward at the same time, Todoroki shortening his strides so that Eijirou would be the first one to reach the little gated pathway that lead to the front door, so that Eijirou could be the one to open it, lifting the little latch on the inside and pushing gently inward.
The gate opened without a sound, and it seemed like the whole world was holding its breath, waiting for them to make the first sound and break the oppressive silence.
Nodding at each other in solidarity, they took their first steps forward at the same time, disrupting the stillness of the world with the quiet scuffing of their shoes.
As they walked through the gate in front of Katsuki's house, Eijirou glanced up at Todoroki. He was still genuinely shocked that his classmate was right there next to him, even knowing that he felt almost just as much guilt as Eijirou about the whole situation. It was still hard to comprehend.
They quickly found themselves at the front door and exchanged uneasy glances. Eijirou decided to be the one to ring the bell.
He was mentally prepared to be immediately kicked out of the front yard by Katsuki's mom, because he honestly wouldn’t be surprised if she blamed him, or even both of them, for her son’s kidnapping.
But instead, they waited.
Todoroki awkwardly shifted the weight of his body from one foot to another, while Eijirou adjusted the grip on his bag and looked anxiously over his shoulder.
Seconds turned into minutes, and both of them reached for the doorbell at the same time, Eijirou backing off at the last second, before their hands clashed. Todoroki rang a few times, but there was still no answer.
“Maybe they’re not home…” Eijirou offered without an ounce of confidence. He took a step back to check if both of the cars that he knew the Bakugous owned were in the driveway. Meanwhile, Todoroki knocked on the door a few times.
They waited another few seconds, and as Eijirou reached out to knock as well, a loud voice came from the inside of the house.
“FOR FUCK’S SAKE, I FUCKING TOLD YOU, WE WON’T ANSWER ANY OF YOUR QUESTIONS!” The loud shouting of Bakugou Mitsuki reached them, and both of them stepped away from the door, just in time for it to violently swing open. “FUCKING JOURNALISTS, I’LL SUE EVERY LAST- Oh.” Her surprised gaze fell first on Todoroki, right in front of her, then moved to Eijirou, her eyes widening in recognition. “Eijirou-kun, what are you doing here?” The tone of her voice changed drastically, her posture relaxing slightly as her gaze fell back on Todoroki. “And you are…“ She scanned him curiously, head to toes with narrowed eyes.
“Todoroki Shouto.” He paused for a moment, as if choosing the correct words for his introduction before setting on a simple; “Bakugou’s classmate.” He finished and bowed a little, causing Mitsuki to raise her eyebrows a bit in surprise.
“Oh right, the Threw-The-Match boy.” Her expression changed to a displeased one, one hand on her hip, the other kept resting on a doorknob.
Eijirou's eyes widened while Todoroki seemed to be taken aback by her words.
"I-" Todoroki glanced at him, but all Eijirou could do was shrug with an apologetic expression.
Mitsuki sighed, getting their attention back. "No, don't worry, I'm not blaming you for anything." She waved her hand, a gesture that was supposed to be nonchalant, but instead was made awkward with the tension between the three of them and the way that her hands shook. She quickly crossed her arms over her chest and looked between the two of them. "So, what are you doing here?” She repeated her question, this time addressing both of them.
The mood between them changed at once, suddenly charged with tension that only Eijirou and Todoroki seemed to notice as they exchanged guilty looks. They stared at confused Mitsuki for a few moments before bowing to her at the same time.
“We wanted to apologize!” Todoroki and Eijirou said almost in unison, eyes locked on the ground even as they heard her gasp.
“If it wasn’t for me failing my exam, I would have been there for K- for Bakugou!” Eijirou yelled and felt guilt twist his guts.
“And if it wasn’t for me being too slow, I would have saved him.” Todoroki added a bit quieter, yet still with a voice full of shame.
"Shit…" She cursed quietly. "Boys, no, please." Eijirou felt a hand on his shoulder and could only assume there was one on Todoroki's one as well. "It's not your fault, it's-" the hand was gone and- "GET OFF MY PROPERTY!"
Eijirou straightened his back so quickly it hurt, but when he realized she was screaming at someone behind him, he turned and saw a few journalists just outside the gate.
"Ma'am, we just need a statement for-" one of them started, but Mitsuki wasn't about to let him finish.
"Here's my statement!" She flipped them off before grabbing both Eijirou and Todoroki by their hands and dragging them inside the house. "Fucking assholes, what use are the cops outside if they're not gonna be of any help…" She cursed, mumbled tone filled with venom, more than a few colourful words stringing after she slammed the door behind them. After taking a deep breath, Mitsuki finally faced them. "... Tea?"
___
Eijirou's leg was bouncing nervously while he and Todoroki sat on a couch in a huge living room, waiting for Mitsuki to come back from the kitchen. At first, he tried to busy himself with glancing around the room, but the amount of pictures on the walls, pictures of Katsuki who in most cases was staring back at him with displeased expression, only made him feel sick, so he decided that the rug under his feet was all that much interesting to look at.
"Sorry for the wait, Eijirou-kun, Todoroki-kun." Mitsuki came back with a smile glued to her face and a tray with three mugs filled with what he assumed was tea.
Somehow Eijirou knew this smile was fake, considering that the whole way from the front door to the living room she was unnervingly quiet, and then left the two of them alone without a word, other than her polite permission for them to make themselves comfortable. It was similar to the way Katsuki would stay quiet at certain times; when he was nervous about something or just deep in thought.
For a short moment, a smile appeared on his face at the thought that it was more likely that Katsuki got it after his mom, rather than the other way around.
Todoroki nodded in thanks while Eijirou made to stand up and help her, only to halt his motions when she gave a small shake of her head. She leaned down and set the wooden tray gently on the coffee table in front of them before straightening back up to look at them properly.
"Would you like something to eat, too? I.. I made too much." She stood there awkwardly, not seeming to know what to do with her hands, finally settling on crossing her arms in front of herself, hands gripping tightly where they rested at her elbows.
He and Todoroki glanced at each other before Eijirou smiled up at her. "No, thank you." He reached for the mugs, but seeing that one of them, the black one with cartoonish flames at the bottom, was the same one Katsuki was drinking his tea from the last time he was here, he immediately redirected to grab the other mug, white with some colorful bubbles.
How the hell did this tiny detail stay with him this entire time? Especially considering everything that had happened between them that day. Something had changed between them, drawing them closer as friends, and unlocking hidden feelings that he was still trying to sort through...
"It's great, thank you." Todoroki spoke up and, after a moment of confusion, Eijirou realized that he was answering Mitsuki, who had finally sat down in the armchair and was now looking at him expectantly.
Without much thought, he took a quick sip "GAH-" just to burn his tongue.
Eijirou started frantically fanning his tongue with his hand, quickly realizing that Todoroki probably used his quirk to make his own tea drinkable.
"Careful, dear." Mitsuki stared at him with a teasing grin that never actually reached her eyes.
"Sorry, I should have warned you." Todoroki offered quietly but Eijirou just waved, dismissing his apologies with a pained smile.
A few minutes passed before Eijirou's tongue stopped hurting, and with the temporary distraction gone, they were all now sitting in overwhelming silence.
He wasn't sure what was on his mind when he asked, "Is Bakugou's dad around?" Maybe it was honest curiosity, or the fact that he'd seen what he assumed was the man's car but not the man himself, either yesterday evening or today, but when he saw Mitsuki's pained expression, even if it was just a split second, he immediately regretted asking.
"He's…" She started quietly, as if she wasn't sure whether she should say anything or not. "He's in his office." Mitsuki settled on. "Burying himself in work." There was a faint chuckle accompanied by a wave of her hand.
Wow, I'm stupid. Eijirou thought, hiding behind his mug as the silence settled in once again.
Eijirou then focused on his mug for a bit, eyes wandering to Todoroki to see him staring at his own mug, probably to avoid looking at Mitsuki just like him.
Another few awkward moments passed before Eijirou dared to finally look up from his mug to Mitsuki, who was now leaning on her hand, propped up on the armrest. It seemed like she was lost in her own thoughts, half lidded eyes locked on the wall just out of his immediate vision, and when Eijirou followed her line of sight, he almost immediately looked away, eyes once again meeting with the intense gaze of Katsuki from one of the pictures.
God, this was terrible… He really needed to apologize. Even if he had already done so, even if Mitsuki probably didn't want to hear those apologies, he still needed to.
Right?
Eijirou sighed quietly before straightening his back, but just when he was about to make up his mind about whether to apologize again or not, Todoroki finally broke the silence. "Um… Bakugou-san..?" He sounded surprisingly nervous.
Mitsuki didn't even flinch, and the only indicator that she was listening was that she blinked slowly.
"I…" Todoroki glanced at Eijirou before making up his mind about something. "We really meant it. The apologies, I mean."
Eijirou immediately perked up. "Yeah!"
Mitsuki took a deep breath and released it for a long time before she finally looked at them again.
"You're not the ones who should apologize. You had nothing to do with this." She smiled, but this time it seemed like she was just… tired. But whether it was the situation she was in or their presence here, Eijirou wasn't sure.
"But we-" Todoroki started, but Mitsuki just raised her hand, effectively stopping him.
"You say you weren't quick enough to help?" She quirked a brow at him, and Todoroki was only able to nod stiffly. "Well, I say the actual pro heroes weren't quick enough to help you." Todoroki's eyes widened, as if that wasn't something he considered in the first place. "And you." Mitsuki leaned forward a bit in her seat, staring directly at Eijirou who felt frozen in place. "You're just a kid who failed a test. Big deal."
Eijirou should have expected the same kind of bluntness from her as he heard so often from Katsuki. Still, he couldn't help but stare at her dumbfounded and speechless.
"You feel guilty, I understand. This isn't something that just goes away overnight." She continued, and Eijirou had to lower his eyes, her gaze too intense. "If you're gonna be so hung up on mistakes like that when you're not even proper pros, then you won't go far, kids. This fucking school wants you to grow up too fast, constantly failing in keeping you all safe, intentionally putting the future generation of heroes in danger without having even a hint of an emergency plan." She stood up, her posture the most confident he's seen her today, yet he still didn't dare meet her eyes. "That's on them. It's their fault my son is missing. Not yours. At this point I'd trust the two of you to save my son more than I’d trust those fucking heroes."
Eijirou's eyes shot up and met with hers, her expression showing her surprise at the suddenness of his reaction.
"We could-"
"Eijirou-kun," Mitsuki interrupted immediately. "Could you come with me for a second?" She tilted her head towards the corridor before turning to Todoroki. "Do you mind being alone for a few minutes?"
"Not at all." Todoroki answered, voice neutral as always, though Eijirou could almost hear the tiny hint of confusion.
"Thank you." She smiled at him before gesturing for Eijirou to follow her.
He stood up, glancing at Todoroki who just shrugged with a blank expression and started reheating his own tea.
By the time Eijirou caught up to Mitsuki, she was halfway through the corridor, leading him, as it turned out, to a big kitchen, where they sat down at a table across from each other. Eijirou was tense under her gaze, back straight and eyes firmly set downward, staring at his own intertwined hands under the table. He felt like a little kid about to be scolded for sneaking treats before bed.
What did she want from him? Did she realize that they were going to try and rescue Katsuki? Was she going to stop them? Encourage them?
Mitsuki's long sigh convinced him to finally dare to glance up at her, and when he did, Eijirou felt the sting of guilt returning to his stomach. From this distance, he could see how bloodshot her eyes were. How there were dark circles under them, poorly hidden by smudged makeup, and red around the waterline from wiping away tears.
Now that he was this close to her, he could see how tired she looked. And he could only imagine how mad and worried she was, but most of all, she just seemed tired.
"I understand you want to believe in your teachers and heroes. I'm sorry for suggesting that you go and save Katsuki yourself." She chuckled humorlessly.
Ah.
That's what she thought his reaction was about.
"To be honest…" Eijirou started, unsure whether he should share this with her or not, "I feel like I'd deserve to stop blaming myself if only I could just go and save Bakugou right now." The name felt strange on his tongue, even if he hadn't been using Katsuki's given name for that long. Still, he looked up at her, waiting for her reaction while wondering if she would actually want him to go.
Mitsuki let out another sigh before leaning forward in her seat, her voice quiet and steady when she finally spoke again; "I understand that you feel guilty, I really do. There were many situations in my life where I thought I had no choice but to blame myself." She took a deep breath. "I shouldn't be telling you this, you're just a teenager, but… but when Katsuki was in that accident…" She trailed off, looking to the side with a frown. "I blamed myself for a long, long time, before I understood that there was nothing I could do to change what happened, but that I could still try and help him improve his life."
Eijirou nodded and finally understood why she wanted to speak to him alone.
"Not like I've succeeded, he's still stubborn and refuses to learn any names or memorise anyone…" She added with an affectionate roll of her eyes and a subtle smile.
And Eijirou knew she meant it as a joke, that he was supposed to laugh or something, but he realized that Katsuki never told her that he's been actually learning his classmates' names, even if he's been mostly using nicknames.
"... Does he…" Eijirou swallowed nervously. He knew he was probably crossing the line here, but he couldn't help but ask; "Does he talk to you? About what he does at school, or about himself?"
Cold sweat ran down his spine when she frowned and squinted her eyes at him, the similarity between her and Katsuki that much more striking and, frankly, terrifying.
"I know you two are very close friends, and I appreciate you being here and worrying about Katsuki and his well being," her tone changed to a colder one, but it was obvious to him that she was trying her best to not blow up at him. "But certain things are best kept between the family members."
"... I'm sorry. That was unmanly of me." Eijirou hung his head in a bow as he clenched his hardened hands. "It's just… I'm really worried about him. Maybe I'm being selfish in this worry, but I just want to help him…" He looked up at her, and judging by her features softening, he must have looked pitiful. "I just want him to be safe." He finished and wrapped his arms around himself, quickly blinking away his tears.
"... You're a good kid, Eijirou-kun." Mitsuki spoke again in a much gentler tone. She even reached across the table to put a hand on his forearm. "I have no idea how my son managed to get and keep such a good friend, and I'm being honest when I say that I don't blame you, and you shouldn't either. All you need to do is think about how you can improve the situation instead of worrying about it." She gave him a warm smile. And for the first time today, Eijirou could say with confidence that it was an honest one.
"Thank you…" Eijirou smiled back at her, having made up his mind.
___
They left the house after finishing their tea and politely thanking Mitsuki again, offering to help clean up, but being sent on their way. They began walking back in the direction of the train station, and Todoroki stared intensely at Eijirou for a good block and a half before he finally broke the silence to ask; "What did the two of you talk about? … If it's okay for me to know."
Eijirou glanced at him for a moment before he stretched his arms above his head, taking a deep breath.
"She's given us her blessing to save Katsuki."
___
At first, Eijirou was glad that all of his classmates had shown up at the hospital the next day to visit Midoriya, who had finally regained consciousness. But now that he knew they were all against his idea, he regretted saying anything in the first place.
"It's not our place to interfere, idiot!" Iida, the one who almost got himself killed by going on a revenge-fueled quest to bring down Stain, screamed at him.
"Calm down, Kirishima." Kaminari, someone who was supposed to be one of his closest friends, tried to silence him.
"This is no time to let our emotions get the better of us." Shouji, another person who had been so close to saving Katsuki, tried to reason.
"Let's just leave it all to the pros." Aoyama, who Eijirou knew from others was hiding most of the time in some bushes, spoke shakily.
"If we break the law, we're no better than the villains!" Tsuyu, another one that had been closer to Katsuki than Eijirou, more able to protect him, threw the last stone at him.
The worst thing was that Midoriya, to his surprise, stayed silent the entire time.
Eijirou glanced at Ashido, truly hoping she'd at least say something encouraging, but she just quickly avoided his eyes. He tried with Sero, but he just slowly shook his head.
It was disappointment after disappointment, and each one hurt more than the previous one.
Eijirou grit his teeth, hard enough that it was surprising they didn't crack under the pressure, his fully hardened hands clenched into tight fists.
What now? He wondered before his eyes found Todoroki's determined ones and he knew the answer.
They go anyway. Even without the help of others.
"Sorry to interrupt." A voice came from the door, and when he looked over his shoulder, he saw a man in a white lab coat. "It's time for Midoriya's examination." Right. The doctor.
Everyone started slowly shuffling out of the room, including Todoroki, but Eijirou stayed behind, Midoriya staring at him with big unsure eyes.
"I talked to Yaomomo yesterday." He spoke in a quiet tone. "If we're going, it has to be tonight."
Midoriya's eyes widened before he looked down with a frown at his injured body.
Seeing his doubts, Eijirou quickly continued. "I'm not sure if you can even move in your condition, but you're still welcome to join us…"
He knew that Midoriya failed to help when it mattered the most because of his quirk. He knew that, despite all the spoiled blood between them, Midoriya still cared about Katsuki. Certainly in a different way than Eijirou, but still…
"I'm sure this is hurting you just as much as it's hurting me."
It seemed like Midoriya wanted to say something, his lips parting as he looked up at Eijirou, but quickly closing back as he bit his lower lip, eyes filling with tears.
"... We'll be waiting outside the hospital. Tonight."
With those last words, and a faint hope that Midoriya would actually come with them, Eijirou finally turned and left the room.
Todoroki was waiting for him just outside, the rest of the class nowhere to be seen, aside from Iida who was staring at them from down the hallway, his posture and intense eyes screaming of rage and fury.
And Eijirou himself felt the anger boil his blood.
He was ready to go up to Iida, ask him what the hell was his problem and if he didn't see how much hypocrisy was he currently displaying, but the sound of an incoming message to his phone distracted him.
All the more so when, at the same time, Todoroki and Iida's phones sounded off as well.
They shared concerned looks before reaching for their phones.
Eijirou stared at the screen, where a notification from their group chat was right on top of it. He couldn't explain it, but something twisted in his stomach. A strange and gut-wrenching feeling overwhelmed him as he tapped on the notification and opened the chat.
He needed a solid five seconds to fully grasp what he was looking at, and when he did, he barely managed not to drop his phone.
Eijirou couldn't breathe.
There, in the picture on the screen, was a strange girl.
Next to her, Katsuki.
Restrained Katsuki. Strapped to a chair, with his arms locked in some sort of metal cage, furiously glaring at that girl.
That strange girl who was sticking out her tongue in a playful manner and winking at the camera she was holding, the other hand held up in a peace sign. Her blonde hair, so light it was almost white, was cut short, and her skin looked like it was made of some sort of opalescent stone.
Eijirou was struck by the memory of one of the last conversations he'd had with Katsuki.
'I saw some girl with this- fucking- with almost white hair and I think she had this strange skin, like an opal or some shit and-'
Eijirou felt like he was about to throw up when he realized that, once again, he had carelessly dismissed Katsuki's concerns.
Just as he was about to check who sent the picture, another message popped up right underneath it.
Toru: Wish you were here, guys ;^)
Eijirou crushed the phone in his hand.
Notes:
Dun dun duuuuuuun
2018.
September 2018.
That's when I came up with "Wish you were here guys" moment. I've waited over 2 years to reveal Hagakure as the traitor, preceding this reveal with subtle or not-at-all subtle foreshadowing, if you noticed, good for you, if not, that's alright and don't worry, don't berate yourself <3If you're curious as to when the "hints" start, go to chapter 7 lmfao
If you're curious "why Hagakure", even if she turns out not to be the traitor in canon, I still think that there were a lot of hints towards her in the earlier chapters to which I mainly stick to with my own canon (that will completely go on its own way after they move into dorms).Also...
Mitsuki: improve your current situation
Kirishima: so you're saying I should go save my crush
Mitsuki: wh-
Kirishima: ok, omwAnyway! Support me, follow me on tumblr, and please talk to me about your feelings towards this chapter, whether in the comments or on tumblr (I love getting asks, pls interact with me)
Up next; More trauma!
Chapter 34: Hidden tears
Summary:
Magne deserved better
Notes:
Listen, because that's the last time I will talk about this; there wasn't, isn't and won't be any sexual harassment or any sort of explicitly sexual content in this entire fic, stop asking and read my notes after the chapters and don't say shit about my fic like "it's sfw unfortunately" ❤
CW: self harm, force feeding I guess, mentions of drug use, panic attacks, some sort of torture idk what to call it without spoilers lol, uhhhh idk what else, have fun
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
One second, Katsuki was walking through the woods, surrounded by his so-called bodyguards, the next he was being grabbed by the back of his neck and yanked through a warp. The force of it hurled him backwards, making him fall and his back hit the floor. His vision went dark as the air left his lungs in a rush and refused to go back in.
Panic overwhelmed all of his senses, even as he fought to regain control of his breathing, his thoughts, his actions. There was too much going on, too much noise, too much movement, too much, too much.
His legs kicked out as he tried desperately to stand up, his quirk crackling to life, the heat flaring from his palms as he blindly fired out in defense, only to be pushed down again, too many hands pushing down too hard, shoving him to the floor.
One of the people holding him hissed when Katsuki just barely missed them with an explosion, his arms quickly being pressed down as more hands held him.
There had only been a few instances that he could remember his instincts screaming at him to run and hide, but he was unable to. For for the second time in his life, he was vulnerable, and unable to do anything about it.
All he could do was kick and push and punch and scream, his palms burning painfully from the amount of explosions he was desperately firing off, probably burning the floor underneath him. He suddenly felt some of the pressure on his shoulders release, only to be replaced by a cold pressure around his neck. His whole body went still as that thing clicked into place, his eyes going wide even though he still couldn't see, and he gasped for air that wouldn't come as the panic took hold of him entirely.
His mouth went slack in a desperate attempt to take a breath, to no avail. He was unable to grasp what was happening around him, the only thought of can't breathe can't breathe god I can't breathe clouding all reason in his mind.
Fight. Was another desperate thought, but his quirk just wouldn't work. Instead it felt as if whatever was on his neck was tightening even more.
They had thought that once they nullified his quirk, it'd be easy to move him around, that they would just have to ignore him screaming and cursing at them. What they hadn’t accounted for was for him to start choking on nothing and for his body to completely freeze where he was lying on the floor.
Can't breathe God can't breathe can't breathe can't
He was aware that he was thrashing blindly, and though he couldn't see or breathe or focus, he knew that the hands were still shoving and grabbing and pushing. They pulled his arms, forcing them forward and locking them into something. More hands grabbed at his torso, or were they the same hands?
He couldn't breathe, couldn't focus, couldn't breathe.
The hands forced him up, trying to carry him, and his whole body seized, bending backwards, thrashing and gasping desperately.
Don't touch don't touch don't touch fuck don't touch
"Is he dying?"
"He's just overdramatic."
Fuck you fuck you fuck fuck fuck FUCK
Katsuki was on the verge of blacking out when he finally managed to take a breath, immediately followed by a fit of coughing. There was saliva going down his chin and he grimaced at the feeling, but just when he was about to reach and wipe it off, he realized his arms were locked in some sort of a metal cage, eerily similar to the one from the sports festival.
Cold sweat ran down his spine when his still panicked mind let him finally realize the position he was in; arms restrained, his whole body strapped to a chair, in an unknown… bar?
And… surrounded by strangers.
Or not strangers.
Those were villains.
Had he seen those villains before?
He was trying to keep himself grounded by biting on his tongue, just enough to better assess the situation and his surroundings.
The group of villains stared at him; some with smirks, some with indifference, and while Katsuki tried to hide his panic of not knowing if he'd met any of them before, the one with… a severed fucking hand covering his face spoke from his seat at the bar.
Is that… Katsuki frowned, glaring at the Handy guy, who he recognized from the USJ incident.
At least he hoped it was him, then again, how many villains walked around with severed hands all over their bodies?
"Didn't realize you would be that sensitive about this little thing." His tone had a hint of mockingness to it as he lifted up a metal, circular device and tilted his head towards it. Katsuki's eyes widened as he realized what it was, because...
He'd seen those before.
Mostly on TV, in the news, in movies, and only ever once in person.
A quirk nullifying collar.
Fuck.
"At least we know how to shut him up." Someone commented, and Katsuki's gaze shot up to see a black haired guy leaning against the wall. Most of his body was scarred, deep gross purple all over it.
"The fuck do you want from me?" Katsuki was proud of himself for keeping his voice steady, trying to subtly feel out if he'd be able to use his quirk without blowing up his own hands. "Where am I?"
"So many questions…" The Handy guy hummed as he handed the collar over to a girl in a school uniform, her hair tied up into a pair of messy buns. She giggled in a way that made Katsuki feel disgusted for some reason, and suddenly the guy was right in front of him. "Welcome to the League of Villains." He spread his arms, showing off the frankly unimpressive group of people.
"Psh, you call yourself a league?" Katsuki smirked at him before looking around, quickly catching the most memorable features of each person in the room. “You're a handful of misfits. You've got the fucking Warp dude from your first attack, so congrats on getting someone to stick around. Then there's Scars over there, who probably has a really tragic backstory, boohoo. And then... what? A Crazy Schoolgirl? Mr. I’m wearing Sunglasses indoors ‘cause I’m an asshole? A guy in spandex, paired up with a fucking Lizard, The Mask, and… You. A guy with a hand fetish.” Katsuki levelled their supposed leader with an unimpressed look before smirking. “That’s a fucking circus full of freaks.”
“That’s Mrs. Sunglasses!” The Lizard defended, gesturing aggressively at the man- the woman next to him who adjusted her sunglasses.
“Asshole is gender neutral.” Katsuki deadpanned before his eyes widened ever so slightly when Mrs. Sunglasses chuckled quietly to herself.
"Hey, that was funny- RUDE!" The man in the embarrassingly tight spandex suit yelled out, flailing his arms around.
"Of course you would forget about me."
Katsuki barely stopped himself from jumping in his seat when he heard a high pitched voice right next to him, but when he turned his head, there was nothing.
Nothing, until he noticed floating clothes.
His eyes widened, maybe in shock, maybe in anger, he wasn't sure, but he cursed out loud when the nothingness was replaced by a girl with glimmering, opalescent skin, almost white hair, and mirror-like eyes.
"You-" you were at the camp. Was what he wanted to say before realization hit him.
"Who would have thought that UA, the supposed best hero school, would have such an outdated security system?" She twirled in place, her skin and hair reflecting all the lights in the room and forcing Katsuki to squint. "I mean," her voice changed from the high pitched tone to a deeper, more mature one, "does nobody do background checks these days?"
That invisible- what even was her name?
"I know you don't care about learning names, so don't worry about mine, it wasn't real in the first place." She shrugged before she turned and walked up to the bar. The Warp Guy standing behind it handed her a notebook and she quickly opened it to the marked page. "That's one of the first things everybody learns about you, it even says so right here!" She smiled widely as she turned the notebook and Katsuki felt sick to his stomach when he realized it was one of Deku's. "Aw, don't make that face…"
She continued on, saying something about how no one noticed her even taking it, but Katsuki stopped listening.
Because he should have seen this coming.
There was always something unnerving about her.
Something about never knowing where to look while speaking to her.
Something about her, in hindsight fake, high, cheery voice.
Something about her curiosity about Katsuki, and her bizarre interest in his group of friends.
He's never given it much thought, but he should have.
He never should have put his guard down, it was so unlike him and yet-
"So." Katsuki interrupted her little monologue and her face froze in a slightly amused expression.
Katsuki drew in a deep breath through his nose before he sneered, making her tilt her head to the side, expression never changing, as if she already forgot that she was visible, and there was no need for her to care about such nuisances.
"You have freaks and traitors in here?" Katsuki turned to look at The Hand Fucker. "Makes you wonder how loyal your little minions actually are."
"Shigaraki, he's being mean." That fucking traitor pouted, again using that high pitched, overly cute voice, as she crossed her arms over her chest.
Shigaraki shrugged.
"Collar him." The short command made Katsuki's heart stop, the self-assured smirk gone in a second.
"What the fuck is your problem-"
"Don't move, Bakugou~!" The Schoolgirl singsang with a wicked grin as she approached him, collar in both hands.
Katsuki desperately tried to lean away, to no avail, and even if he saw it coming, it didn't make things easier for him; his vision, despite widened eyes, still darkened with panic, his throat still clogged up, leaving him unable to breathe again, the collar cold and tight around his neck.
He wanted to scream, but his voice was gone. His heart was beating fast and hard, and it quickly became the only thing he could hear. He couldn't see anything but vague shapes, and even those were disappearing as his vision blackened
It felt like hours had passed before Katsuki realized that the collar had been removed, though he still felt his chest heaving, his heart still jackhammering while the rest of his body was tense, pulling at the restraints so hard that they dug painfully into his skin. He heard that sickening giggle again and he blinked the tears that welled up in his eyes away, hoping no one would notice.
"Well, this circus did manage to capture you, didn't it?" That Hand Fucker was in front of him again, the smirk barely visible from behind that gross hand on his face.
Katsuki stayed silent as it dawned on him that the man was right.
He got captured.
And he was completely alone, completely at mercy of those villains.
___
Everyone had left, except for the Warp guy, who the Hand- who Shigaraki had told to stay behind and make sure Katsuki didn't go anywhere. Yeah right. As if he could go anywhere in the first fucking place. Though, from the smirk that that Hand Fucker had given him as he said it, he was well aware of the fact.
Asshole.
Katsuki could hear their voices in the room above the bar, the ceiling thin, but not enough to understand any words. He could only assume they were discussing whatever they were going to do with him.
His gaze wandered to the villain behind the bar; his eyes, as far as yellowish slits go, were closed, so Katsuki used the moment to better analyze his surroundings.
Windows were completely covered, the cloth along with wooden boards tacked in place with purpose, and Katsuki knew that it had been done intentionally. To disorient him, to put him on edge. To make it so that he wouldn't be able to tell the time of day, or even if it was daytime. Even if he couldn't turn around, he knew there were doors behind him. He knew because every villain, single file, walked past him and into a… corridor? Maybe just a small hallway? And up some stairs. There was a TV on the opposite side of the room; if Katsuki was placed just a bit more to the right, he'd be able to see his reflection, not that it mattered.
Once again, he glanced at the villain to see him staring back at him.
Katsuki knew he couldn't show more weaknesses than he already had, so he glared at him.
But instead of any sort of a verbal answer, the man just hovered his hand over the collar that was left behind on the counter.
Behave. He didn't have to say it out loud for Katsuki to understand.
Katsuki swallowed as he looked away with a frown.
His neck still ached from the phantom pain of the collar closing around his throat, from the feeling of it getting tighter and tighter, and his mind was quickly filling up with panic even at the mere thought of having it put on him again.
He'd just have to wait and hope that they were stupid enough to take off his restraints at some point.
___
The voices finally quieted down after some time. Maybe an hour, maybe two, Katsuki had no idea, since there was no clock in the room. All he knew was that The Warp Guy was still standing behind the bar, unbothered by anything.
"Oi." His voice was rough and Katsuki realized he was thirsty, but that didn't stop him, and when the man didn't react, Katsuki moved his arms so that the metal cage collided with the chair between his legs. "Oi, asshole. Any clue why I'm here in the first fucking place?" Katsuki asked, hoping that The Warp Guy would actually answer, but all he got was silence. "For fuck's sake, what, you keeping me to make some sort of point? Just to show you can? For ransom!? Sure, my parents have money, but I guarantee that they're enjoying not having to fucking put up with me-"
"So loud." There was a whisper right in his ear and Katsuki's shoulders tensed up as he tried to get away from the source of it.
Once again, there was nothing but thin air before The Invisible Bitch turned visible, this time dressed in some sort of a gray bodysuit.
"Pretty, isn't it?" She turned in place, showing off the suit with a smile. "From our dear support department! They helped make it from my DNA so that I wouldn't have to run around naked during hero training, bleh."
Katsuki frowned, realizing how much the school had helped a literal fucking villain.
"Too bad it doesn't help with the durability of my quirk…" She sighed, smoothing out the thin material on her hip.
Katsuki squinted his eyes with confusion at her words before sighing at his own obliviousness.
Right, at this point it should have been obvious to him that she couldn't use her invisibility all the time.
"You know how tiring it is to be invisible for 7, sometimes 8 or 9 hours? More, if I'm with my classmates after school?" She put her hands on her knees, leaning towards him with a strange smile. "Thank god for the pills, am I right?"
What?
"Hagakure Tooru," The Warp Guy spoke for the first time since Katsuki was left alone with him. "I don't think it's wise to overshare like that."
That was the name! Katsuki thought, making a mental note of it, even if it was supposedly a fake one.
"Aw, Kurogiri," Kurogiri! Katsuki mentally rejoiced as she made her way to the man. "Don't worry! Thanks to Midoriya's notebook, we know lots about Bakugou's quirk! It's only fair he learns something too!"
Katsuki's already low excitement over learning something about the League completely disappeared.
The fucking notebook.
How much did Deku write about him? Did he know about his panic attacks? That he hated touching? Small spaces?
Was there anything about his face blindness?
No one mentioned it so-
"These quirk amplifiers are amazing." She walked back to him, a small and half empty bottle of pills in her hand.
"... You take drugs to stay invisible?" He couldn't believe it. He knew villains were crazy, sometimes straight up stupid, but this?
"Don't say it like that!" Hagakure frowned, holding the bottle close to her chest, almost defensively, before some sort of realization hit her and her anger turned into an amused and wicked smile. "Unless… are you jealous? Want some?" She brought the bottle close to his face, at which Katsuki clenched his jaw, making her laugh at his reaction. "Please, they're too expensive to waste on an already powerful quirk like yours." She patted him on the head, at which Katsuki bared his teeth at her. Hagakure shrugged and walked to the bar to put back the pills before she leaned with her back against it.
She turned invisible and Katsuki's eyes widened.
What game are you playing? He thought and focused on the all too familiar feeling of being observed.
"The fuck you staring at, traitor?" Katsuki glared around the room, locking down and glaring harder at the empty spot right in front of him where the itch in the back of his head was strongest. There was no way he was gonna lose a staring contest to some lying bitch, even if she was invisible.
"It also said in the notebook you can tell when someone's looking at you." She reappeared in front of him, gaining herself another hateful glare. "When you were visiting the support department yourself, a few weeks ago, I tried to follow you, you know?"
Katsuki vaguely remembered feeling someone's eyes on him that one time, when he was trying to convince himself to actually visit that department. Back then, he dismissed it as being paranoid but now…
"What did you need from the support department, Bakugou?" She leaned uncomfortably close to him, eyes unblinking and reflecting his disgusted expression back at him. It didn't help that she put a hand on his shoulder and squeezed, making his skin crawl.
Stay calm. Katsuki thought to himself as he bit his tongue again.
"Maybe something with your mask? Needed protective goggles against your own quirk? Midoriya has written something about goggles, but then there was just half a page missing, torn out. I'm not sure why…" She stared for a moment, as if waiting for him to provide an answer, as if he knew what fucking Deku was scribbling about him all the time. "Or did you also need a costume update? See, mine was just amazing and-"
"I don't give a shit about your costume or your stupid drug addiction, why the fuck are you-"
"Why am I here? With the villains? It's simple and similar to-"
"Don't interrupt me. I don't give a shit about your tragic backstory." Katsuki rolled his eyes and almost laughed at her shocked expression. "What I wanted to know is why the fuck are you keeping me here?"
"... You don't care? You really don't care why I betrayed our classmates? Our school? The heroes?" She took a step back, finally giving him enough space to breathe more comfortably.
"No, I really don't give a shit." Katsuki sneered at her.
He was curious. He did give a shit.
But Aizawa told them that this was the best way to get a villain to monologue and spill everything about their plans that much quicker; to rile them up by pretending you don't care, that you don't want to know anything, that you have no interest in their motives.
Katsuki had checked the statistics himself, and it was supposed to work 97% of the time.
Supposed to.
Because suddenly she was holding his jaw in a painful grip, forcing him to look into her eyes where he saw his own distorted reflection.
"You're an absolute asshole." She hissed at him and his eyes rolled back to the back of his head, air stuck in his throat where the collar clicked in place out of nowhere.
___
Katsuki swallowed a bitter bile that came up his throat after the collar was finally taken off.
Was this going to be like that every time he talked?
He managed to blink away the tears that were threatening to spill from his eyes before he looked up at the angry girl in front of him.
Who was that, again? His mind was blank for some reason, and all Katsuki could think about was how his mother told him, oh-so-many times when he was a child, to never ever talk to strangers.
Katsuki chuckled to himself, making the girl in front of him raise her brows in surprise.
Alright, mom. Just this once, have it your way.
___
After a while, Hagakure either left or turned invisible and Katsuki was too tired to figure out where she was, but honestly, he didn't care either way. Maybe she was playing tricks on him or simply got bored once she realized he wouldn't speak to her. As long as he didn't talk, he would be that much safer in this situation, not that there was anything safe about it.
The Warp Guy, Kurogiri, left as well, for some reason, but Katsuki knew he still couldn't allow himself to lower his guard, since there was no way of predicting what they would do to him.
He couldn't allow himself to sleep, no matter how heavy his eyelids were.
He couldn't allow himself to spiral into panic, they'd take advantage of it.
… Could he allow himself to ask for food? For water?
He wasn't sure how much he had before hunger would come, especially since he was already thirsty, his throat uncomfortably dry. Not to mention that he wouldn't be able to use his quirk if he wasn't properly hydrated and-
Wait… Katsuki slowly realized. Was that their intention? To make him weak-
"Bakugou Katsuki." A mocking voice from behind immediately made him tense up.
He reminded himself that he wasn't supposed to talk to any of them, so he painfully clenched his jaw, and as Shigaraki slowly walked into his line of sight, he followed him with his eyes. As always, there was a hand decorating his face.
"Heard that you finally decided to calm down. Did the shock therapy work?" He asked with a disgusting smirk, leaning against one of the armrests of the chair Katsuki was stuck on and taking off the hand from his face. "You could of course try asking nicely why are you here in the first place."
Katsuki swallowed nervously, but before he slipped and asked, he got a grip of himself and just looked down with a frown. That was when he noticed that all but one of Shigaraki's fingers were touching the armrest and realized he had forgotten what the man's quirk was in the first place.
Suddenly something twisted in his guts, something he hadn't felt in a long time.
Shigaraki raised his hand and slowly moved it towards Katsuki's face.
Fear.
The man's hand was getting closer and closer to Katsuki's face and through sheer willpower, he forced his instincts - screaming at him to flinch, to run, to bite - to completely shut up.
Don't show any more weaknesses. Katsuki told himself, staring at the hand without blinking, feeling the sweat go down from his brow to his cheek.
Finally, after a few seconds, the man gave up and left Katsuki's personal space.
"You're kinda boring when you're not throwing a tantrum." Shigaraki chuckled creepily. "At some point you'll have to talk to us again." He said ominously and left the room.
Several long seconds passed as Katsuki listened to the slowly fading sound of steps, waiting to make sure that the villain wouldn't come back, and eventually he was able to release the air from his lungs that he wasn't aware he was keeping in.
"Fuck." He whispered with a trembling, pathetic voice. "Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck-" It was hard for him to breathe, even harder to not start screaming at the top of his lungs.
Katsuki would never admit out loud that he was terrified by this situation, and no matter what he said, he wasn't going to fall for another trap.
He had to remind himself that Shigaraki was an asshole, and from the looks of it, a fucking man-child who liked to play with his victims.
But there was still one thing that sadistic asshole was right about.
Katsuki still had no idea why they kidnapped him in the first place, nor if anyone was even looking for him.
Where would they even start?
Katsuki himself had no clue where he was and for some reason, a memory came to him; the single time he got lost in a supermarket, when he was five, maybe six.
He vaguely remembered looking frantically around for any familiar face, but they were all blurring together, the crowd too big, too loud, too overwhelming.
He had no idea where to even start looking for his parents.
Then, as he was on the verge of crying, there was a calming voice, belonging to a tall woman in front of him, towering even when she sat on her heels. She smiled, showing him her police badge, that she's given to him to earn his trust. He still refused to take her hand, but he did go with her to the security office, and after a while his mother barged in, with tears in her eyes and yelling about how worried she was.
… Was she worried right now?
Honestly, he wouldn't be surprised if she wasn't, considering how much worse their relationship had gotten in the past few weeks, maybe months.
What was the last thing he said to her?
'Just leave me alone and don't fucking call me!' As he slammed the front door and left for the camp.
Yeah, she definitely isn't worried. Katsuki chuckled humorlessly to himself.
His father, though… He was… probably worried. Probably whining and not doing anything. Most likely though, he was calming down his mother, who was definitely more angry than worried.
Katsuki wondered if this time she was actually going to forcefully remove him from the school… but that wasn't something he wanted to give much thought. When he thought of school, he immediately thought of…
Eijirou.
He took a deep breath, eyebrows pinched together as he leaned his head back on the chair.
God, Eijirou.
Katsuki closed his eyes. He was too tired to fight it off at this point.
What was it that you wanted to say? Katsuki wondered. He didn't want to think about the rejection. The awkwardness that would definitely follow after. The pain in his chest, eating at him from the inside.
So, just this once, Katsuki allowed his mind to wander, to imagine that Eijirou would take his hand, squeeze it lightly and look him in the eye, and say 'you're important to me, I want to be more than friends'.
Yeah… That was… nice.
He could think about that. Just today, just for the slightest comfort for his mind.
He could imagine that his mother was actually worried, that his father screamed at someone for once in his life, that Eijirou missed him as much as he missed him.
Just this once, he could pretend that he was loved.
___
A loud crashing sound startled him awake and he looked around frantically, eyes locking on the man in the spandex suit and then down on a broken plate on the floor, something that looked like burnt meat splattered around.
Fuck, shit, how long was he out-
"Ohhhh~ you're finally awake!" The girl with messy buns jumped in front of him, putting her hands on his knees and leaning in too close for comfort. "You were out for hours!" She giggled for no reason. "Or maybe a few minutes…" The Schoolgirl wondered as she placed a finger on her chin and hummed.
And Katsuki knew she was fucking with him on purpose.
"Either way!" She jumped back and clasped her hands together. "You must be starving! Hey, Twice!" She addressed the man in spandex, waving him over. "Get that meat and come here!"
Katsuki's eyes widened, blood turning cold as he watched the man pick up the meat and place it on the biggest shard of the broken plate.
No way-
"Dabi made it!" The man - what was it, Twice? - announced excitedly before his surprisingly expressive mask frowned. "It's all burnt."
Who the fuck is Dabi?
"Well, Katsuki here can't complain!" Schoolgirl laughed as she picked up one of the cut pieces and examined it. "He's gotta eat something."
"Don't call me that." Katsuki spoke in a rough, raspy voice before he could stop himself, his heart beating rapidly.
"Do you prefer 'Kacchan'?" She giggled as she picked a small piece of glass out of the piece of meat she was holding and Katsuki felt himself panic. "Izuku calls you that in his notebook!"
"That's pretty cute actually! NO! GROSS!"
Katsuki was too occupied by clenching his jaw to pay attention to whatever was wrong with the man, and as The Schoolgirl brought the black burnt meat closer to his face, he did his best to get as far away as he could.
"Why do you need to be so difficult all the time?!" She whined and gestured for the man to do something.
And what he did only made Katsuki panic even more; he was grabbed by the back of his head and jaw, and his mouth was forced open, before she put the meat in and it was forced to close back.
Katsuki immediately felt the overwhelming taste of burnt meat in his whole mouth. He tried to desperately spit it out, but the hold on his jaw was strong and didn't allow him any movement.
"Come onnnn, start chewing, Kacchan!" The girl's voice was too high, too excited, too loud, just too much. "He'll let go, once you eat this piece!"
Maybe it won't be that bad. A fleeting thought came and went as soon as Katsuki barely managed to move his jaw enough to chew the disgusting piece of meat and he realized it was completely raw on the inside, with a faint taste of mold lingering on his tongue.
He opened his eyes in shock, trying to plead with them, for her to tell the man to let go, but when he tried to focus on her, her face was completely distorted; eyes deep shadows, mouth contorted in a too wide grin, no distinguishable features to be seen.
"Chew, chew, chew!" Her chant echoed through his mind and he closed his eyes again, trying his best not to throw up right then and there. "Swallow and he'll let go!"
Just endure it, Katsuki thought desperately, they're doing it to break you, endure it.
Katsuki's eyes shot wide open when he felt glass between his teeth. He stopped moving, probably to their surprise, but he was still sober enough to pretend to swallow and he felt the man let go of his head.
Immediately, he spit everything out, and as he tried to get rid of the rest of the food and make sure there was no glass in his mouth, he heard the girl scream in disgust.
"WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?!" Spandex guy yelled right in his ear, and Katsuki's head pounded uncomfortably.
"Alright, I'll handle feeding him." A new, deeper voice spoke from behind him and Katsuki froze.
God, who was that, now?
"Big sis!" The Schoolgirl whined, pointing at Katsuki accusatory. "He's being mean!" She pouted and that was when that Sunglasses Asshole appeared in Katsuki's line of sight.
"I know, I'll handle feeding him, okay, Toga-chan?" She patted the girl- Toga with a smile, and if Katsuki didn't know any better, he'd think it was genuine. "You go too, Twice."
Twice just saluted and off he was, Toga shortly behind him.
Each and every one of them was crazy, and Katsuki just couldn't wait to find out what kind of crazy this one was.
"Okay, listen, Bakugou." She turned to him and took off her glasses for some reason.
Was she trying to appear as sincere to him? Was that some sort of a cheap trick to make him trust her?
"You can call me Magne." She introduced herself, the only one who did that so far, but Katsuki didn't care and refused to acknowledge her, aside from glaring at her for several long seconds before she sighed. "... Fair. You don't have to talk to me, but you still need to eat."
Only then did Katsuki realize that she was holding a food container with rice balls in one hand, and a glass of water in the other.
"They think it's for me, but I don't wanna see you starving or eating something like… that." She eyed the meat still splattered on the filthy floor.
That was… nice. Too nice, and Katsuki wasn't about to fall into any sort of trap. The food was probably poisoned, drugged or there were fucking needles inside. There was no way he was gonna touch that.
So he just glared at her, setting his jaw and leaning away. When she sighed, it took him a lot to not show any surprise on his face.
"At least drink some water." Magne moved the glass closer to Katsuki, the edge an inch away from his lips, but he just turned his head to the side.
Once again, she sighed, and Katsuki glanced at her to see that she walked up to the bar, where the collar was still resting and he knew what was about to happen.
He squeezed his eyes shut, trying to ready himself for the collar.
He heard her heavy steps approaching, closer and closer and all he could do was hold his breath.
"Here."
Katsuki's racing mind stilled.
What?
Slowly, he opened his eyes and was met with a still-sealed bottle of water. His gaze shot between the bottle and the villain in front of him.
"Look, it's new, I'll open it in front of you." She did as she said and Katsuki was presented with the bottle like he was earlier with the glass.
What if it was still a trick?
He swallowed and became aware of how dry his throat was.
Whether he wanted to or not, he had to drink something. He still had no idea how long he'd been here already, and when was the next time any of the villains was going to realize that he needed water to survive?
Then there was the problem of his quirk.
Katsuki drew in a slow calming breath and leaned forward and, to his relief, Magne actually helped him and tilted the bottle so that he could drink as much as he wanted.
"Better?" She asked after he leaned back and sighed. He'd never realised how good water could taste.
He looked up at her, a slight frown forming on his face.
"What's the catch?" His voice was still a little raspy and he cleared his throat.
"No catch, I just…" She put the bottle on the floor, and as she was standing back up, slid the sunglasses back on. "... I didn't sign up for torturing a kid." She whispered, as if actually ashamed of her actions, as if she didn't want anyone but him to hear, and Katsuki had to bite his tongue to not laugh.
"But you signed up for kidnapping one?" He still spat back, ignoring the fear of being collared again.
She just stared at him from behind her sunglasses, apparently having no answers for him.
"Why am I even here in the first place, huh?" Katsuki pushed, hoping for some answers, but there was nothing. He was met with silence and anger simmered in his blood. "Is there an actual reason for me to be here? Or did you kidnap me on a fucking whim?" Katsuki barely managed to stop his quirk from going off, already feeling sparks popping in his palms, the tingling sensation shooting through them like needles on a dead arm- painful, and throbbing static after each flash.
"It was planned." She finally spoke without looking at him.
Planned? He squinted at her with growing confusion as she continued.
"Listen, you're a smart kid, at this point you should at least suspect-"
"Oi, Magne." A rough voice came from behind, and Katsuki froze as he waited to see who it was this time.
"Dabi." Magne nodded and Katsuki's eyes widened as he recognized the name he had heard just a few minutes ago. "Something up?" She sounded nonchalant, as if the conversation she'd just had with Katsuki didn't happen.
"Shigaraki sent me to check what's taking so long and-" Dabi stopped talking abruptly, and Katsuki heard footsteps coming closer before, finally, Scars appeared into his line of sight. "Well, that's disgusting." He snickered as he kicked some of the meat still lying on the floor. "I see you didn't eat anything, huh?" Dabi fully faced him and walked up to him. "Such a waste…"
"He almost threw up." Magne chuckled with a shrug, confirming to Katsuki that she didn't care about him at all, that she was just tricking him.
"Scared of a little bit of burned old meat? That's ironic, with your quirk and all." Dabi said quietly, with his permanent smirk widening maliciously before he reached and pressed his hand just below Katsuki's jaw, making him tense up and swallow in panic, eyes squeezing shut.
Breathe, breathe, breathe, just breathe, it's okay. Katsuki reminded himself before his eyes shot open at the sensation of building heat and he jerked away, skin burning where Dabi touched him.
"Oh, but you are a bit fireproof, it usually takes way less for people to try and get away." Dabi laughed as he released Katsuki's throat and straightened, turning to casually walk out of the room, hands already tucked into his pant pockets like nothing had happened. "Hagakure's gonna come here in a few to keep an eye on the brat."
"... Hey, breathe, kid." Magne whispered and Katsuki realized he was trembling, mind focused on the pain on his neck.
She reached out to him, but he flinched, trying to get farther away, to no avail of course, since he was locked in place. All he could do was try and hide his face in his shoulder.
"I'll try and get some cream for this, okay? Don't panic."
"Stop pretending." Katsuki's voice was hoarse and breathless.
"... You don't have to trust or even like me, just breathe, okay?"
Katsuki did as he was told; focused on evening out his breathing, while stubbornly ignoring the burning pain on his neck.
"It doesn't look bad, probably won't even leave a mark." She tried to reassure him, but Katsuki only scowled.
How could he let his guard down again?
"Fuck you, all of you." Katsuki hissed through his teeth. "Kidnapping me just to play with me, what a fucking joke." He just laughed quietly at the hopelessness of this situation.
"... Sorry, kid." Her apology just made him angrier.
"Fuck off."
She sighed, clearly tired of his attitude, and Katsuki didn't have a chance to find out whether that was a bad thing or a good one, as she made her way to leave the room.
"Perhaps you should know, it's just past 2pm." Magne said as he heard her hurriedly walk away and his eyes widened.
Past 2pm.
He's been here for the entire night and most of the day.
And for what?
Magne almost told him, maybe he could wait for her to come back, but she might have been lying throughout their entire interaction, so what reason did Katsuki actually have to trust her?
Couldn't they just tell him?
What were they playing at?
If anything they've done was supposed to warm him up to them, they did a terrible job…
Out of nowhere, Katsuki felt eyes on him, although he couldn't quite place where the person, most definitely that fucking Invisible bitch, was standing. Even though it was uncomfortable, the prickling sensation of being silently stared at by someone he couldn't see, he decided to ignore her for now.
___
Why is it so cold? Katsuki thought as he tried to suppress another shiver from jolting through his body.
At first it was something he didn't notice, but as more and more hours passed, it was getting more and more unbearable, especially when he was completely left alone and had no distractions.
Well, not exactly alone.
That bitch was still there, somewhere, and Katsuki was ready to blame her for the sudden drop of the temperature, even if he couldn't spot where the thermostat was.
He knew this was yet another trick to force him into some sort of submission, to fuck with him, force him to talk, just like he tried to force her to talk before, but he refused to break. Too stubborn, and considering his situation, maybe a bit stupid.
Katsuki knew that would have been a better tactic - faking cooperation - but that had gotten him collared before, so silence was the best choice at the moment.
"Aww, are you cold?" A high pitched voice from nowhere caused Katsuki to tense up again, and instead of answering, he looked to the side with a frown. "Don't be so loud or I'll go deaf," she said, her voice going mockingly deep, though there was annoyance mixed in with her tone, and he wondered if keeping silent all the time was that good of an idea.
"Speaking of!” Her voice pitched back up into her annoyingly false happy tone, “I always wondered how you're not at least a little hard of hearing, with all the explosions and stuff. Luckily, Midoriya was quick to come up with a hypothesis that you developed some sort of immunity to your own quirk! Strange, considering how easy it is for your arms to start hurting when you overdo it…" She giggled, but Katsuki didn't care.
All he could think about was how he was going to murder Deku for writing anything about him.
"You can thank him for the tip that your quirk works slower in the winter," fucking Deku and his fucking notebook "that is, if you ever actually see him again."
… What?
Katsuki slowly raised his gaze to see that Hagakure had actually become visible again, and was currently sitting on a barstool, with that damn notebook in her hand.
"... The hell do you mean?" Katsuki asked carefully, voice hoarse.
She smiled at him and something crawled under his skin.
"You see, it's simple, Shigaraki wants you to join us." She closed the notebook with a loud smack and jumped off of the barstool.
Join them? Katsuki felt sick.
Why the hell would he join them?
"You must be thinking oh, why would I join them!" Hagakure stepped closer to him. "Well, considering how easy it is for you to go feral on your classmates and how aggressive you were during the festival… you know." She winked at him, as if he was actually supposed to know.
But… he knew. He's always known.
He's always known how everyone looked at him throughout the years; the teachers, the pro-heroes, the classmates, his parents.
But for actual villains to take interest in him? And act on it?
Katsuki couldn't breathe.
He felt tears well up in his eyes but he squeezed them shut and scowled as hard as he could, feigning anger.
Maybe he was angry, but most of all, at that moment he was…
Miserable.
Heartbroken.
Disappointed.
"Aw, don't be mad, you see, we will actually appreciate your talents without taunting you all the time for being too aggressive!"
Just fucking sad.
___
Katsuki was left alone again, when Hagakure realized he wasn't going to give her an answer as to whether he'd join or not, as if it wasn't obvious already.
As if he was about to prove any of those extras right.
As if he was going to disappoint-
-Who… who exactly would he be disappointing?
His teachers… They most definitely will have seen it coming.
Pro heroes… None of them really knew him, the only thing they saw was the wild animal at the festival.
His parents… Katsuki had a feeling they were going to accept this turn of events rather quickly, despite always telling him he was going to be a hero, throughout the years it started sounding more like a learned line, rather than an assured statement…
His classmates… Even if he had started to get along with some of them, even if he did manage to learn some names… They wouldn't care enough about that to keep them from fighting him.
Deku… Considering the way Katsuki has been treating him their whole lives, he wouldn't be surprised.
Eijirou…
Katsuki felt a knot in his stomach, and if it wasn't for the restraints, he would have tried to curl in on himself.
God, Eijirou would be fucking devastated.
He wanted to reach and touch his scar, pull his hair until it stung, but he couldn't . Instead, he bit his tongue to keep himself grounded, the thought more upsetting than he could ever predict it to be. He squeezed his eyes shut, preventing the tears from spilling.
He couldn't let himself cry over this and yet-
Katsuki shook his head as he thought of a different type of distraction, and biting down on his lower lip, he activated his quirk in his left hand. Despite the small size of the sparks, it was still painful.
But it kept him grounded.
Kept him from spiraling.
It wasn't the best way of coping, but if it meant not losing it…
He hissed at another flash of sharp pain, one that helped him clear his mind.
What am I doing? Katsuki thought to himself, realizing how far he had spiraled, having gotten so lost in thought, so worked up in his head that he had forgotten about the low temperature in the room. The sparks abruptly stopped, and his whole body shook briefly with the sudden shock of the cold coming back at him tenfold, but it only solidified his new mental resolve.
The whole world wasn't against him.
The teachers- Aizawa helped him a lot, he wouldn't want him to turn to villainy.
His parents- Katsuki knew that at least his dad would be devastated.
Heroes- All Might.
He's always wanted to be like All Might, better than All Might, and suddenly going evil, turning villain, would most definitely prevent him from surpassing All Might and becoming number one.
Katsuki's been determined to do just that since he was able to comprehend what heroes are, no way he was going to change his mind just because some fucking lowlives had kidnapped him.
Besides, there were definitely people looking for him.
He couldn't just waste their time and effort, could he?
Katsuki smiled to himself, mouth stretching wide and displaying his determination, just like All Might.
He could handle this.
___
Katsuki didn't dare question why they started treating him… better, for the rest of that day, at least.
In no way was it a nice sort of treatment, but at least more civilized; they stopped collaring him, for starters. Then the temperature of the room, although still cold, was raised to a more bearable degree. When he refused to eat, despite the hunger pains beginning to claw at his insides, they didn't try to force the food down his throat; though that may have just been because it was Magne who was now in charge of feeding him. He still begrudgingly accepted water from her, even though he needed help to drink it.
Fucking humiliating…
But considering everything, he had no trouble realizing what the reason for the sudden 180 was.
Since they wanted him to join them, they must have realized that scare tactics weren't exactly working, fucking idiots…
Katsuki stifled a yawn.
Several hours had passed since that 2pm, if that was even the actual time in the first place, and, if his body wasn't fucking with him, it must have been late by now. Around 9pm. Maybe 10pm.
He blinked lazily before raising his eyes and settling them on the Lizard behind the bar, leaning on the counter and seemingly dozing off.
Maybe even later. Katsuki thought with annoyance.
Perhaps Magne would tell him, if he asked nicely. Then again, he had no way of knowing when he'd see her again. There seemed to be no pattern when it came to whose turn it was to be keeping an eye on him. It pissed him off, because it only showed that they had no actual action plan.
It made it that much more humiliating, that he got himself kidnapped in the first place.
Katsuki stifled another yawn, forcing his eyes to stay open.
The Lizard got here just a few minutes ago, fifteen at most, and even if it was always just one person staying here with him and he knew for certain that no one else would come for quite some time, he still couldn't allow himself to sleep. Couldn't allow himself to be surprised like earlier today.
Fuck, he was so tired...
Katsuki looked around with a frown, hoping for any sort of distraction that would help him stay awake, but all he could do was sigh with resignation as he found nothing.
The least he could do was to force his brain to stay awake.
"One thousand," he started in a whisper, "minus seven equals nine hundred and ninety three. Nine hundred and ninety three minus seven equals nine hundred eighty six…"
Katsuki shifted so he was sitting up straight, eyes focused on the moth flying around the lamp.
"Nine hundred eighty six minus seven equals… nine hundred seventy nine…"
How the hell did he get himself into this mess?
"Nine hundred seventy nine minus seven equals nine hundred seventy two…"
He wanted to reach and rub at his tired eyes.
"Nine hundred seventy two minus seven equals… nine hundred sixty five…"
Katsuki smirked to himself when he realized it was working.
Barely, but still working.
"Nine hundred sixty five minus seven equals nine hundred fifty eight."
"You're so boring, God."
Katsuki's eyes widened, body tensing up as he tried to turn to the source of the voice but then there was something being pressed to his face and he reflexively gasped, struggling against the hold before he felt himself slipping into unconsciousness and everything went dark.
___
He woke up with a desperate gasp, a strange feeling startling him awake, and his eyes shot wide, his mind finally fully aware of his surroundings when he saw someone staring at him, face a few inches from his own.
His head jerked back, only to painfully meet with the back of the chair, making him curse.
"Good morning, Kacchan! Did you know you're kinda cute when you're asleep?" The girl in front of him cooed with a wide smile.
Katsuki ignored the pain and focused on her, noticing the messy hair buns and a uniform, realizing that it was that crazy Schoolgirl, Toga, and his guard went all the way up.
Why did she have to be the one who he'd always wake up to?
"We should get to know each other better, since you'll be joining us soon." She straightened, giving Katsuki more space to breathe. "What's your favorite color? Is it black?" Toga walked to his right before she leaned on the armrest and her face was back again just a few inches away from his.
Just fuck off. Katsuki bit his tongue in order to stop himself from saying that out loud, and leaned as far away as he could.
Wait… The cold realization slowly flooded him. Morning?
There was no way he slept through the night, that they'd let him sleep through the night, how did he even-
Cold sweat ran down his back as he remembered what caused him to fall asleep in the first place.
Fuck, who did that to him?
"Hey, are you listening?"
Katsuki felt a too-rough poke of a finger on his cheek and he glared at the girl.
"I was asking how long have you known Izuku-kun!" She grabbed his shoulder which caused him to tense up involuntarily, his instincts telling him to flinch away. "I wanna know alllll about him, too! He's so cute and I wanna kissy-kiss his bloodied face!" She giggled as she pressed her cheek against Katsuki's, and he forced his body to be still when he wanted to shiver. "Ahhh I hope I get to see him soon, you're so lucky, you know? Even though he said in his notebook he doesn't like you that much anymore, you're definitely someone he looks up to! I mean, to write five whole pages just about you? That's devotion!"
Katsuki was going to tear off that little fucker's hands.
"I love Izuku-kun soooo much!" Toga snuck an arm around his shoulders, trying to hug him, and Katsuki found it hard to breathe. "Do you have someone you love?"
Katsuki completely stilled at the question and the moment she leaned back to stare at him with wide eyes and wider grin, he knew that he made a mistake.
"OHHH WHO IS IT!?" She clasped her hands on his cheeks and squeezed. "You can tell me! I'll understand!"
Katsuki had no intentions of answering her, knowing damn well that that would put Eijirou in danger.
"Tell me, tell me, tell me!!!" She pinched his cheeks, and since he couldn't kick- "HE JUST TRIED TO BITE ME!" She jumped away, keeping her hands close to her chest.
"You, of all people, shouldn't have any problem with that." Someone laughed behind Katsuki, and when they walked into his line of sight, it was that Lizard from yesterday.
"When I do it, it's different!" She pouted, clearly offended, before she walked over to the bar. "Since you act like an animal, you're gonna be treated like one!" With that, she grabbed the collar and headed back towards Katsuki.
He already clenched his jaw, mentally getting ready for what was to come, realizing how much of a fucking idiot he was to think they wouldn't use the collar again-
"Big sis said not to use it anymore." The Lizard stopped her, causing her to groan in annoyance and Katsuki to breathe out in relief.
Big sis? Katsuki wondered as his muscles relaxed.
"Ugh, I don't recognize her anymore! Just a few days ago Magne was excited about the plan and now she doesn't seem to be having any fun!" Toga complained as she slammed the collar back on the counter.
Magne.
"It's not her, something about Shigaraki changing his mind." The Lizard shrugged.
"But just a few hours ago he was up for it!"
"You know how he is…" He shrugged again before he walked over to her and leaned against the counter. "By the way, do you know where Magne went?"
"That too! She's been absent whenever she doesn't watch Kacchan, I hate it, I wanna spend time with her!"
They continued to complain, completely ignoring Katsuki who intended to keep listening in, hoping to find out more about all of them, if it wasn't for the uncomfortable feeling that caused him to mute them out completely.
It was for the best, because then he felt a warm breath against his ear and a barely audible whisper; "you know I'm here, don't you?" There was a smile in Hagakure's voice and Katsuki swallowed.
He glanced at Toga and the Lizard but they seemed oblivious to the presence of another member of their group.
"There's a press conference tonight." She continued quietly. "Your teachers and principal are going to try and smooth things out."
Katsuki's eyes widened ever so slightly.
Smooth things out?
"Funny how instead of looking for you, they're trying to save their faces and reputation, isn't it?"
She's just mocking you. Katsuki thought to himself. She's lying. He tried to convince himself, but there was a tiny part of his mind that was screaming at him that they were nowhere near finding out where he was.
"Seems like you're gonna be here for a while." Hagakure giggled and placed her invisible hand on his head to ruffle his hair. "It's gonna be fun, converting you." She stopped and Katsuki felt her hand slide down to his nape and squeeze, his panicked mind forcing him to hold his breath. "There's just one thing." Her voice changed again from that overly sweet to a deep, clearly annoyed one. "Sleep during the night, okay? Listening to you count down from a thousand got boring real fast, not gonna lie."
Katsuki's face paled when he realized it was her who, in hindsight, probably used fucking chloroform to knock him out.
He felt sick.
"Alright guys!" Hagakure yelled suddenly, turning herself visible and causing the other two to jump, startled. "How about we eat and think about all the fun stuff we can do with Bakugou here?" Her smile widened when the other two agreed and headed out the room. "Just one more thing, since no one's coming for either of us…"
Katsuki watched as she pulled out a phone out of one of the pouches at her belt and walked to his side. She made a peace sign with her left hand as she raised her phone and Katsuki realized she was taking a fucking picture.
"Say cheese." She stuck out her tongue as she took the picture before straightening her back. "Did you really have to glare like that?" She frowned at him as she almost hit him in the face with her phone, showing the picture to him. "How's everyone gonna react when they see you having a bad time, huh?" Hagakure's words made Katsuki's eyes go wide.
"Everyone..?" He let slip out quietly, but she just grinned at him, tapping quickly on her phone before she walked away, leaving him on his own. "Hey!" Katsuki yelled after her, trying to turn, to no avail. "The hell do you mean by everyone!?"
He just heard her laugh before it was silent again.
Who did she send it to?
Who was everyone?
The news? Did she somehow get in contact with some station, and was going to send the picture so that they would broadcast it during that press conference for all those people, and all the heroes to see?
Katsuki frowned as he thought about various conversations he was unlucky to have had with her.
She… she did mention that the school security sucked… Maybe she got a hold of the all the faculty's contact information and in order to mock them she sent it in a mass message through some sort of group chat or-
Katsuki's back straightened as a sudden jolt of realization shot through his body.
The group chat.
She sent it to their classmates.
Eijirou was going to see, and so was fucking Deku.
And knowing the two of them, knowing how big of a hero complex Deku has, and knowing how much Eijirou always degrades himself, they were going to try and save him.
Katsuki came to the realization that he had to get the fuck out of here, and soon, before guilt-ridden Eijirou would hurt himself following stupid Deku.
Besides, being saved by Deku was the last thing he wanted.
___
Katsuki felt growing uneasiness as every single member of the League slowly gathered in the room where he was being held, trying his best to keep track of everyone around him, mentally checking if he could recall any names.
The Mask was in the back, then the Lizard by the wall. He couldn't recall their names, wasn't sure if he even interacted that much with the Mask, but Katsuki still knew that he was the one who caught him by surprise in the first place, back in the forest. Knew he'd have to be especially careful with that one.
In the middle of the room, Twice, standing with his arms crossed.
Then, behind the bar… Kurogiri and Toga. It seemed that the craziest one gravitated towards the calmest one.
Katsuki glanced at the man standing right next to him, Dabi, but quickly turned his gaze down at the floor when the villain looked back at him.
So, if Katsuki was correct, three people were missing.
Shigaraki, Magne and Hagakure.
"Big Sis!" Toga exclaimed with excitement all of a sudden, looking somewhere behind Katsuki.
"Where have you been all day?" Dabi asked, feigning interest.
"Ah, just scouting the area, the usual." Magne answered nonchalantly as she entered Katsuki's line of vision.
If Katsuki squinted, he could see that she was… Nervous… For some reason. And his suspicions were confirmed when he glanced at Dabi once again and the man gave her a doubtful look, yet didn't comment.
"Magne, I need to talk to you-" A voice suddenly came out of nowhere, making Twice jump, startled. "Ah, sorry! I forgot!" Then Hagakure materialized between him and Dabi.
"You really need to work on forgetting about whether you're invisible or not." The guy with the mask commented and she glared at him.
"I forgot twice!"
"Me?" Twice pointed at himself and Katsuki had to take a deep breath not to laugh at the ridiculousness of the situation.
"No, luv." Hagakure patted him on the back. "I was just-"
"You forgot three times, Hagakure Tooru." Kurogiri spoke calmly without moving. "That is why you had to come back here instead of staying with the class."
Katsuki narrowed his eyes.
There was no way they were talking about the moment he saw her in the middle of the night, so what-
"Yeah, and what about that time at school in front of the cameras?" Dabi smirked at her.
"THEY WEREN'T ROLLING!" She screamed at him, half of her arm and both legs turning invisible.
"Take your pills, Hagakure." Another voice that sent shivers down Katsuki's spine and Shigaraki walked past him and sat down at the bar. "You mess up without them."
"Later." She hissed at him, getting a hold of her quirk and making her limbs reappear.
How did they manage to catch him? Katsuki thought, more annoyed than disappointed with himself.
"Well, Bakugou Katsuki." Shigaraki sat down at the bar and Katsuki could only assume he was staring at him, from behind that hand plastered on his face. "It may be sudden, but won't you become one of my comrades?"
Ah, there it was.
The official invitation.
Ignoring the all-too-familiar fear, and the feeling of sweat running down his forehead, Katsuki answered with a sneer; "Spare me your shit and die."
It didn't seem to make an impression on any of them. Shigaraki stayed silent while Toga giggled, then there was Magne, slowly shaking her head, telling him something with her eyes, barely visible as she looked at him over the rim of her sunglasses.
Was she trying to tell him something? What was it supposed to be then? Cooperate? Play along? If so, why?
Katsuki didn't have time to give it any more thought as he noticed Shigaraki motion at the television.
"Why don't we watch something then?" He asked with a self-assured tone.
Magne was the one to turn on the TV, and as soon as the old screen came to focus, Katsuki realized that the press conference- that hadn't been a lie, evidently- was already being aired.
The focus was on three men behind the table, with microphones in front of them. Katsuki recognized his mouse-like principal, though he didn't care about the one with white hair, he could easily assume that it was one of his teachers, but the one in the middle…
Black, slicked back hair, clean-shaven face and a scar under his right eye… who the hell was that?
Katsuki's eyes shot to the name tag in front of him; Eraserhead.
That was his homeroom teacher? Where was his scarf?
Through all this, Katsuki didn't realize that the man who was apparently his teacher was speaking the entire time, and just barely managed to focus enough to understand that it was a public apology.
He swallowed nervously when it was his principal's turn to speak about the new security system.
Somehow, it felt like he was at fault for those new measures.
One of the reporters dared to call out that they needed specifics to know if the school was actually doing anything.
"It's quite curious, isn't it?" Shigaraki interrupted his train of thought. "The smallest misstep causes the mighty heroes to be instantly criticized!"
Shigaraki went on a tangent about what heroes and justice really were, but Katsuki didn't care for this philosophical bullshit. He already knew that heroes were always under the radar of those who hated them, that of course the villains had the most to say about the matter, ready to justify themselves in the most ridiculous ways.
So he simply let the words go in one ear and out the other.
That was, until Shigaraki told Dabi to remove Katsuki's bindings, and he couldn't help but perk up.
There was no way he was that stupid.
"Are you stupid?" Hagakure yelled at him.
"Yeah, no way, he's going to go ballistic, you know?" Dabi commented, taking a step away from Katsuki.
Katsuki had to control his breath as his mind was coming up with more and more plans on how to get out as soon as the restraints were removed.
He'd first have to make sure that his quirk was working.
"It's okay, we need to treat him as an equal!" Shigaraki laughed, spreading his arms in what was probably supposed to be an inviting gesture.
"Yeah, that's crazy, even for me. I'm gonna go over there." Hagakure walked over to the farthest wall from Katsuki and turned invisible. "I've seen him in action, good luck handling that."
"Calm down, Hagakure, Dabi. He should be aware of his current situation." Shigaraki continued, still full of himself. "He knows that he has no chance of winning if he goes off here."
I'm gonna go off so hard your fucking pubes will burn. Katsuki thought, grinding his teeth.
"Twice," Dabi turned to the other villain, "free him."
"WHAT!? NO!" Twice yelled, but immediately approached Katsuki anyway.
"I apologize for taking such a forceful approach with you before." The Mask spoke carefully and continued but Katsuki wasn't listening.
He focused entirely on the bindings loosening and falling off of his arms, legs, shoulders and finally his hands. God, he could see and feel his hands and he immediately went to check the state of his left palm. It was reddened, but otherwise didn't seem to be damaged.
Shigaraki started approaching him when Twice stepped away, and Katsuki used the moment of distraction to crack his stiff knuckles. "We, the so-called villains, are constantly being shackled by society and the heroes. You too, so you should understand that-"
Katsuki released an explosion near Shigaraki's face, the hand falling off of it and to the floor.
Truth be told, he was aiming directly at his face, but the lack of usage throughout the last few days made the explosion smaller than he intended.
Oh well.
"You idiots really don't know how to get to the point, huh?" Katsuki asked, using the moment of panic between the villains to further warm up his arms. "Basically 'we want to cause trouble, join us', huh!? It's fucking pointless." Katsuki glared at Shigaraki.
He's been watching and admiring the heroes since he could remember.
He's been admiring All Might for just as long.
He could recognize his voice, his posture, his smile, his hero costume, his powers, everything was recognizable about this man.
And Katsuki wanted to be just as recognizable.
"I've been won over by the way All Might looks when he wins. Nothing can change my mind about that, no matter what you say." He smiled, in the same way All Might always would do.
But to his surprise, Shigaraki didn't say anything. Just stayed perfectly still as he stared at the hand on the floor, and Katsuki quickly looked around, noting that everyone else was waiting for Shigaraki's reaction.
That was when he heard Aizawa's voice on the TV; "... what happened at the sports festival, that points to the strength of his ideals." Was he talking about- "There is no one else more in pursuit of becoming the top hero, and if the villains perceived it as a weakness to exploit, then I would say they are being just stupid."
Aizawa's words dawned on Katsuki.
Was that really what his teacher thought about him? He actually saw Katsuki's true intentions, unlike those stupid idiots who kidnapped him.
… Wait.
They kidnapped just him. A single person, despite the scale of the attack. They kidnapped him because they completely misunderstood the kind of person he was. Despite everything, they weren't going to kill him, he was too important and they invested too much, and so, before they would change their minds…
Katsuki sneered.
"Should I remind you that my combat authorizations haven't been revoked?!" He laughed challengingly.
He was ready to fight. Even more so when he heard his principal say that they were actively looking for him.
"You could have at least pretended to be on our side." The Mask spoke with disappointment. "Now you messed up."
"Ha! I'm not the type to lie about shit I don't want to do." Katsuki smirked, further stretching his arms. "Besides, I have no desire to stick around in this shithole."
"... Father…" Shigaraki's creepy little voice made Katsuki immediately refocus on the man in front of him. That was when their eyes met and a cold jolt of fear shot through Katsuki's body, but he stood his ground, staring right back at Shigaraki.
But, slowly, the villain bent down and reached for the hand.
"That's an important piece…" He said, more to himself than to anyone in the room, before he addressed Katsuki again. "I thought that maybe you could understand-"
"Fuck you." Katsuki cut him off. He was done listening. Now was time for him to come up with an escape plan, especially now that his words seemed to have finally pissed Shigaraki off.
"Well… since the heroes are looking for you, we don't have any more time. Teacher, lend me your strength."
"Teacher?!" Katsuki just laughed. This was so ridiculous. "You're not even the boss, just a fucking pawn?!"
"... Kurogiri, Compress, put him down. Toga, the collar." Shigaraki ordered.
Fuck.
Katsuki reminded himself to breathe and that he had to come up with a plan and quickly.
Blow up the wall? What if it's too thick?
Attack Shigaraki? No, Kurogiri will catch him.
… Magne?
Katsuki's eyes met with Magne's across the room.
She moved her mouth, don’t worry, and Katsuki frowned with confusion.
There were two knocks at the door.
Notes:
If you can read 11.9k words of a chapter, you can read additional few of the End notes.
1. I'm leaving canon behind after they move into dorms, so I am NOT doing provisional license arc, nor will Bakugou meet Camie or Inasa (rip)
2. THE CONTENT RATING IS RIGHT HERE, SO FOR THE LAST TIME, THERE IS NO! SEX!! IN THIS FIC!!!
3. I'm literally begging for comments because this chapter sucked to write and I am TIREDReducing Shigaraki's word vomit to a few words was so fun btw khjgvcfkhgf
Idk what else, I wanna start writing "10 things I hate about you" krbk AU, would y'all be interested in that?
Anyway, here's my tumblr, bye, hope you enjoyed this depressing chapter lmfao
Up next; Take my hand, take my whole life, too.
Chapter 35: Most familiar sound
Summary:
... faith, and trust, and pixie dust.
Notes:
CW for Eijirou being a bit of an ass, but he's totally justified lol
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Eijirou's eyes were locked on his hardened hands. Ever since he'd seen that damn picture, his quirk wouldn't deactivate.
But he just couldn't help it.
Eijirou felt himself moving, his legs shuffling forward numbly in the direction that the pressure on his upper arm was pulling. With a glance upward that took more effort than it should have, his eyes focused on Todoroki leading him away, out of the way of the doctors and nurses trying to go about doing their jobs, and of course he was getting in everyone's way again. Of course someone else needed to step in and drag him out of sight.
"Kirishima."
He knows he's making a scene, and he needs to snap out of it already, but he can't.
"Kirishima, you need to hide your hands; a kid is staring at you, and we're in public." Todoroki placed himself between Eijirou and the little girl sitting at a nearby table, and suddenly Eijirou's surroundings snapped into focus. They were in the cafeteria, which wasn't busy at this hour, but still had some employees and visitors alike wandering through.
He sat down, feeling on edge and drained all at once, and nodded a silent confirmation that he had calmed down, allowing Todoroki to leave for a few minutes. He returned with some individually wrapped rice balls, and set two of them on the table in front of Eijirou.
He had no idea how he was going to grab them without shredding them apart, much less eat one of them, but he thanked his classmate anyway.
"Let me pay you back-"
"No need." Todoroki interrupted, unwrapping one of his own rice balls. "Besides, my father's paying." He shrugged as he reached over the table and unwrapped one for Eijirou as well.
Eijirou nodded with an awkward chuckle, not sure what sort of a reaction was expected from him, nor if his classmate was even joking. He knew that Todoroki's relationship with his father wasn't of good nature, but he didn't know any details regarding it. All he knew was that at this point it was some sort of a weird inside joke in their class.
One that he didn't understand-
"By the way, do you have a spare phone?" Todoroki asked, pointing at the broken device sitting on the table between them and Eijirou couldn't help but snort.
"Dude, if I had a spare phone lying around, I wouldn't use the one that already had a cracked screen." Eijirou sighed. His moms just got him this phone at the beginning of the school year and he really didn't want to hear anything about him losing control of his quirk, just like when he was a little kid, when he wasn't allowed to even touch glasses or the TV remote until he got ahold of it.
"Can I check if your card's still intact?" Todoroki didn't wait for an answer, just reached over and picked the phone off of the table.
Slowly and carefully, Todoroki managed to pry away what was left of the case (his Crimson Riot case, it took him ages to find one that wasn't a bootleg...) and somehow open the side of the phone.
"It's good." Todoroki announced with little to no enthusiasm, showing the card to Eijirou who sighed in relief. At least he didn't lose all of his contacts.
Ah, but when was the last time he transferred all his pictures from the phone to the memory card?
He knew this wasn't the right time to be sad about it, but he already missed that picture he'd taken with Katsuki.
"Thanks." Eijirou finally spoke and reached out to take the card, but realized his mistake when Todoroki pointedly stared at the still-present claws. "Right." He muttered, annoyed at himself.
"I can lend you my second phone." Todoroki offered, already reaching for his bag, and Eijirou found himself unfazed by the fact that Todoroki just had a spare phone on him at all times. "Well, my third phone. I gave Uraraka my second one…" He added with a tiny hint of embarrassment. Huh.
"... Thank you." Eijirou smiled at him as he decided not to question it. "I'll uhh.. give it back when I manage to get a new one on my own."
"Don't worry about it." Todoroki put Eijirou's memory card into the phone before placing it in front of him. "... Worry more about your hands, because if someone from the staff sees them like that, they might kick you out."
Eijirou swallowed nervously as he tried to relax his hands, to no avail of course.
Because how exactly was he supposed to relax when all he could think about was how he failed Katsuki, how he treated his mom, how the success of the rescue depended on Yaomomo, not even himself, because he was useless and he could have done so much more to prevent all this from happening and-
"Kirishima, I can't keep up."
And shit, he's been saying all this out loud.
"Sorry, I'm sorry, I just- I just don't know how to calm down and I can't think straight and-"
"GET A GRIP, SHITTY HAIR!" Todoroki screamed at him as he slammed his fist on the table.
Eijirou jumped in his seat, startled.
"Boys, please, this might be a cafeteria, but you're still in a hospital, have some respect." A nurse hissed at them as he walked by, but Eijirou was stunned into silence, staring at Todoroki who nodded apologetically at the nurse.
"Sorry." He faced Eijirou again. "To you as well, but I figured that since you're friends with Bakugou, that's how he would try and calm you down."
And all Eijirou could do was burst out laughing, panic and amusement mixing and confusing him, making him laugh even more. "Oh my God, I-" he put a hand over his mouth as he swallowed down another wave of laughter. "Holy shit-"
"Your hand." Todoroki pointed out, and Eijirou gasped, realizing with panic that he had definitely cut his face, but to his surprise, his hand appeared soft before his eyes.
"My hand!" He exclaimed with relief and excitement, smiling triumphantly and waving both of his hands in front of Todoroki's face, who, after a few seconds, gently pushed them away. "Right, sorry-"
"It worked."
"Yeah! I mean- it was more like…" Eijirou stared at his hands, the lingering stiffness that came with using his quirk for too long out of his fingers. "I dunno, how funny it was? And that you thought that's how Katsuki would try and calm me down."
"Well, it worked and that's all that matters." Todoroki shrugged without asking for clarification, finally biting into his rice ball while Eijirou just stared at his own, realizing he didn't have any appetite.
The silence stretched out between them, with Todoroki eating silently and Eijirou wondering how he could be so calm in a situation like this. With Katsuki being held captive and having just found out that one of their classmates was in on it, probably since the beginning.
God, that damn picture…
He kind of wished he could look at it again. At Katsuki. To see him again, to see if he had been hurt by the villains... And even though he knew that he wasn't able to do that in person, at least he would be able to see Katsuki in the picture. To check for himself. But, having destroyed his phone, and the loaner that Todoroki had given him not being set up with his accounts yet...
"... Hey, Todoroki?" Eijirou started quietly and continued when the other raised his eyes at him, "can I see that picture? On your phone, I mean."
"I don't trust that you won't break it." Todoroki stated bluntly, making Eijirou feel like he had just been punched in the stomach.
"Bro, that's harsh…"
"Am I wrong?"
Eijirou found himself unsure of the answer, looking down at his hands with shame. "Could you-" he swallowed a lump and took a deep breath. "Could you at least tell me if he's hurt..?"
He dared a glance at Todoroki who was just staring at him, and Eijirou found it slightly irritating that he couldn't figure out what was going through his classmate's head. Not only that, he found it ironic, considering he was so close with Katsuki, who was supposedly the hardest person to understand in their class.
Well, for others at least.
"Okay." Todoroki said suddenly, making Eijirou blink in surprise. "Just don't freak out, okay?"
Eijirou nodded as he watched Todoroki reach for his phone and tap the screen a few times. He knew exactly when he found the picture, his brows furrowing and shoulders tensing ever so slightly.
"The picture isn't of the best quality, to be honest." Todoroki started, probably zooming in on Katsuki and squinting his eyes. "He seems mostly angry. Maybe tired, I'm not sure, but I don't see any visible wounds."
Breathing out in relief, Eijirou felt some of the weight lift off of his shoulders. "... Thank you." Eijirou gave him a genuine smile.
"It's nothing." Todoroki put his phone on the table, facing down. "I meant to check anyway. Despite our rocky relationship, I don't want him to get hurt."
"That's the job of a hero." Eijirou commented, crossing his arms as he leaned back in his seat before he noticed slight confusion in Todoroki's eyes. "I mean… you know. You can dislike someone but you're still gonna save them, especially if you're a pro-hero, right?" He explained best to his ability and, for some reason, thought about Nogashira. And for a sliver of a second wondered if he would have saved him when it came to it, before quickly dismissing his intrusive thought, especially when Todoroki nodded in understanding.
"You're right." He put it simply and the silence filled the air once again.
Damn, they had a lot of time before they were supposed to head out. And, damn, they didn't even know where they were supposed to head out to, with Yaomomo never giving them an actual confirmation that she was going to go with them, and with Iida on their tails, and-
Wait...
"Where's Iida?" In the rush of the situation, Eijirou has completely forgotten about Iida being with them on that corridor.
"He yelled something about immediately informing Aizawa-sensei." As soon as Todoroki finished the sentence, his phone chimed with an incoming message.
Eijirou watched as Todoroki picked it up.
"Speak of the devil…" Todoroki muttered to himself, eyes scanning the screen, before he turned the phone towards Eijirou who leaned forward to see a brand new group chat, with a message from Iida on top.
Iida: As the class president, I ask you all to immediately leave our previous group and don't comment on any of the last messages that have appeared there. I have informed Aizawa-sensei of everything, and from here on out, he shall take proper actions towards the issue.
The issue. Eijirou frowned, leaning away from the phone. That's what he thought of Katsuki being held in captivity? About that sick picture?
Now that he thought about it, Katsuki had told him once that he hates taking pictures…
"I don't know what Iida's gonna do." Todoroki's voice interrupted his thoughts. "About us going after Bakugou, I mean." He clarified. "He might try and stop us, or maybe he'll try to go with us, I don't know."
"Stop us?" Eijirou felt something bitter gathering in his mouth. "Like you had to stop him from going after Stain? Oh wait! He did go!" He snapped, hardening rippling through his hands and arms once again.
"That's why he wants to stop us before we go." Todoroki stayed calm, but there was still a frown on his face.
"That's his problem!" Eijirou hissed, barely stopping himself from slamming his hardened hand on the table. "He got to play a hero and fail and there were no consequences! He put you and Midoriya in danger and your father had to save you all!"
"That's not what-" Todoroki stopped mid-sentence, but Eijirou still heard the unspoken words.
That's not what happened.
"What happened, then?" He heard himself ask, his body trembling with anger.
"Kirishima, I'm… I'm sorry, but I can't tell you." Todoroki bowed his head, eyes squeezed shut.
Eijirou locked his jaw, trying to take deep breaths through his nose.
"Just…" Todoroki looked at him again. "Because of what really happened, he doesn't want us to act just on our emotions alone." He explained with a surprisingly earnest expression. "At least I think that's the case…" He added at the end, voice quite unsure.
Having finally managed to release the quirk from his hands once more, Eijirou slumped down in his seat with a frown.
We'll have to see. He thought, eyes locked on the ceiling.
Now they just had to wait until nightfall.
Easier said than done. What was he supposed to do in the meantime?
Todoroki cleared his throat, and Eijirou snapped his gaze back down, probably a bit too fast, if his classmate’s look of mild shock was anything to go by.
“About tonight…”
“Yes! I mean- yeah. What about it?” He tried to sound like he wasn’t too excited to be able to actually talk about it.
“Is your father not expecting you to be home this evening?” Todoroki asked, the question seeming to come out of nowhere.
"Sorry, my what now?" Eijirou squinted at Todoroki before realizing how stupid of a question that was. "Wait, no, sorry-" he waved his hands awkwardly before covering his face in pure embarrassment. "I have two moms and I sometimes forget that the 'default' is… not.. that." He explained his reaction, even more embarrassed as he chuckled humorlessly.
"God, I wish that were me…" Todoroki sighed, and Eijirou genuinely had no idea if he was joking or was completely serious, so he chuckled again, with more amusement than embarrassment this time.
"But uh… " Eijirou put his hands on his knees, under the table. "Yeah, both of them would try to stop me. They're both away though…" He finally finished, and now that he said it out loud, he realized he wasn't that excited about his moms not being there, at home. "But anyway!” He had said that a bit too loudly, so he readjusted his volume before continuing, “your dad’s a pro, and number two for that matter, do you think he's gonna try and stop you from going?"
"Bold of you to assume my father cares." Todoroki grimaced, genuinely looking like the insinuation that his dad cared about his whereabouts was sickening to him. "Besides, even if he did try to stop me, I'd find a way to go anyway." He shrugged as though that were something normal, and Eijirou nodded, more to himself than anything.
He thought about how his mom would have definitely stopped him, if she wasn't going to be at work tonight. Eijirou made sure of that, checking her schedule the day before and discovering with relief that she had a twelve-hour night shift. And even though he was feeling sad about her not being there to wait up for him, this time her absence was needed, since Eijirou wasn't going to be coming back at the expected time. If he were lucky, she'd never find out about him leaving.
Besides, thanks to her leaving over two hours earlier than she was supposed to, he had the perfect opportunity to take her night-vision goggles.
“We need to come up with a plan!” Eijirou shook off the melancholy feeling lingering from thinking about an empty house that he might not be coming back to at all, instead flashing Todoroki a bright smile and striking his signature pose.
And if Todoroki's quirked brow was anything to go by, the sudden change of the subject wasn't subtle in the slightest. "... Okay. We'll need a few different ideas, just to be prepared." Todoroki still went along with the new topic, and to Eijirou's relief, that's what they ended up talking about for the entire time they had left before they'd have to finally go.
___
Well.
If Iida punching Midoriya in the face was anything to go by, Eijirou could say with confidence that Todoroki was right.
And now, Eijirou finally understood that Iida was simply worried.
Worried about them going off to fight with the villains.
Worried about them hurting themselves, possibly dying, a thought which Eijirou had successfully blocked out so far.
But, most importantly, Iida was worried about Katsuki, almost just as much as Eijirou was.
And yet, he still didn't want to let them thoughtlessly rush into action.
But what Iida didn't know was that Eijirou and Todoroki, whilst waiting for the evening to come, had come up with a different plan.
"We're going to rescue him without combat." Todoroki explained to shocked Iida.
"We're gonna fight without breaking the rules!" Eijirou was quick to provide.
He wanted to start explaining their plan before Iida would try and negate it all anyway, but Yaomomo finally spoke up; "I came with the intention of accompanying you all as a failsafe." She stated with determination. "Should the unthinkable happen, I will prevent combat."
Eijirou smiled triumphantly, all while being genuinely relieved that she decided to join them after all.
And to be perfectly honest, all this time he expected her to refuse. He and Todoroki even came up with a backup plan, one that didn't rely on Yaomomo and her quirk.
He'd have to apologize later.
But for now, they had a train to catch.
___
After a two hour ride to Yokohama, Eijirou felt restless. He wanted to make it to the Kamino Ward as fast as possible, since that was where the tracking device pointed them to, but everyone else in their small rescue group seemed to want to be careful, especially since there were more people around than they thought there would be at this hour.
"Don't forget that the villains know our faces." Yaomomo reminded him gently after stopping him from running off.
Eijirou's chest was tight with anxiety and uneasiness, and with too much excitement for his liking, Yaomomo spoke again, pointing at one of the many stores. "We need disguises."
And Eijirou froze.
"No!" He heard himself yell at her before he could bite his tongue, all eyes immediately on him.
"Kirishima-kun," Iida started with the voice that Eijirou often heard from his teachers, reprimanding and demanding, "Yaoyorozu-kun is right, we need disguises. Not only because of the villains, but there are still people who recognize us from the sports festival." Iida provided as he adjusted his glasses, eyes wandering around the passersby.
As if to prove his point, a few people stopped for a short moment and stared at them, some sort of recognition painting their faces before they moved on with their lives.
"But- no, it's not-" Eijirou stammered, his throat dry. "But Katsuki-"
"Kirishima-kun." Midoriya put a hand on his shoulder and squeezed, speaking quickly over him. "We have to."
"But-!"
"I know." Midoriya insisted, unspoken words weighing heavily between them and probably confusing the other three.
Eijirou clenched his trembling hands, trying to calm himself enough to not activate his quirk by accident, because then people would definitely recognize them. Especially him, since the video of him throwing himself at Best Jeanist was still circulating around the internet.
"I don't know what's happening," Todoroki's voice made both Eijirou and Midoriya tense up, the two of them even more aware of the fact that using disguises was a brilliant idea, but also absolutely terrible, and the others had no clue why, "but I also agree with Yaoyorozu, since we're in the night shopping district, a bunch of high-schoolers would bring attention to themselves."
"And if they recognize us as UA students," Midoriya squeezed his shoulder once again, and Eijirou realized his hand was trembling, "we won't get far."
Eijirou took a deep breath before nodding stiffly, Midoriya smiling at him with relief immediately.
"Alright!" Yaomomo clapped her hands. "Let's go shopping!" She turned gracefully on her heel and jogged towards the nearest store, some sort of donki, the skip in her steps containing enough excitement to irritate Eijirou, even more when Iida and Todoroki followed right after her without a word.
He didn't want to be angry at his classmates, his friends, but even knowing all three of them came here for a reason, because they wanted to, Eijirou couldn't help but think how lightly they were treating the situation.
"Kirishima-kun…" Midoriya approached him again, and just when he was about to reach out, Eijirou took a few steps towards the store before he stopped moving again.
"We need those disguises." He stated flatly without sparing him a look, and headed to the store.
Once he stepped in, he was blinded by the too bright LED lights on the ceiling, the contrast from coming from the outside too much to handle for a few seconds as he blinked rapidly, fighting off a headache.
Why was the entire universe against him?
He heard someone greet him, and having assumed it was one of the employees, he nodded politely, not sure where the person was exactly. Not that it mattered, since he had to focus on finding his classmates, to make sure that they wouldn't lose each other as well as to make sure that they weren't wasting too much of their precious time.
"Which one, Todoroki-san?" Yaomomo's voice could be heard all the way from the other side of the store and Eijirou sighed, his shoulders slumping in resignation before he headed towards the back.
On the way there he grabbed a pair of maroon jeans and a plain white t-shirt, hoping that both items were at least somewhere near his size.
To be honest, he didn't care about walking around in too tight or too loose pants if it meant he didn't waste time that could be spent looking for Katsuki.
But it didn't seem to be the case with Iida, who he came across rummaging through a pile of suit pants in various colors, muttering something about all of them being too big in the waistband or something.
Eijirou fought off the urge to roll his eyes before he glanced around, quickly walked up to a nearby shelf to grab a belt and suspenders, and handed them to Iida without a word, completely ignoring his thanks as he moved to where he hoped Yaomomo still was.
Luckily enough, he found her holding wigs out for Todoroki, probably to choose from.
"Which one, which one?" Yaomomo bounced on her feet, shaking the wigs like pom poms, up and down.
"I'd rather not stand out more than with my natural hair." Todoroki summed up as he reached for the black one with longer strands of hair, completely dismissing the other that was bright pink.
"Ah, that's right…" Yaomomo sighed to herself, clearly disappointed in his choice and Eijirou had to remind himself to stay calm, and that telling her off would just cost them more time. "Kirishima-san!" She finally noticed him, her excitement back, and Eijirou quickly turned his frown into one of his more natural expressions. "What do you think about my dress?!"
Just then, Eijirou realized that she changed into a pink dress, and was happy to notice that it wasn't a bright enough shade to bring unwanted attention to her.
"Looks nice." Eijirou smiled, trying his best for the grin to seem genuine. "I'm gonna quickly change into these now, if you don't mind." He said, and left for the changing rooms before anyone could answer him.
On the way, he noticed Midoriya staring at the shelves full of fake facial hair. Their eyes met for a moment, and when it seemed that Midoriya wanted to call him over, Eijirou just quickened his pace.
When he finally entered the changing room, he couldn't help but groan into his hands.
God, he knew they all were right about disguises but he still couldn't help feeling like this was going to end in a disaster.
Because what if Katsuki doesn’t recognize them? Doesn’t recognize him? He was going on looks alone, so what if it came to some sort of confrontation, to choosing where to go, with whom? He definitely wouldn't go with them, with strangers. What if, by now, Katsuki was in some sort of state of panic? Or what if they did something to make him distrust everyone even more?
Eijirou felt like he was going to throw up. His anxiety was building up rapidly, spiraling around in his gut. He felt light headed, and it seemed like the small dressing room was spinning just as fast as the whirlwind of panic that had infiltrated his mind. He leaned against the wall and tried to take a deep breath, but his chest hurt so much, he felt like he didn't deserve to even breathe.
How could he ever think he was strong enough to find and rescue Katsuki, when it was so easy for him to fall into this pathetic state?
He didn't want to let himself cry, despite knowing well enough that it was a normal reaction to what was happening, but now wasn't the damn time!
"Fuck…" Eijirou whispered before he covered his mouth, in case any sound was to get out and bring attention to him.
He blinked away the tears as he tried to remember what his ma' told him about calming down, and so Eijirou inhaled and held his breath for a few seconds, counting each one, before he exhaled slowly and repeated the process a few more times.
Eijirou straightened his back and stepped away from the wall. Having finally calmed down enough, he just now noticed a jacket hanging on a hook - another customer must have left it there. He compared it to the pair of jeans he still had in his hand and decided they seemed nice enough together, matching even.
He quickly changed into his frankly half-assed disguise and left the changing room to look for others, hoping that by now they were all ready to leave the store.
First person he found was Iida, about to glue on the mustache to his face, Midoriya next to him, already with a goatee on his chin and combing his hair back.
"Have you guys seen Todoroki and Yaomomo anywhere?" Eijirou asked as soon as he approached them.
"Oh, you look cool, Kirishima-kun!" Midoriya said instead of answering him.
Eijirou just clenched his jaw, trying not to snap at him.
"They're approaching." Iida provided, thank God, and once Eijirou followed his line of sight, he saw their two missing classmates walking towards them; Yaomomo in her new pink dress, bold jewelry and sunglasses, and Todoroki in a collar shirt and dark blue vest, with his scar hidden by the wig he had chosen earlier.
"Kirishima-san, you look very nice!" Yaomomo commented with excitement equal to Midoriya's and Eijirou had to fight off the urge to scream that he wasn't trying to look nice, didn't care about looking nice. "But you really need to do something with your hair."
The need to throw up came back to him within the five seconds it took Yaomomo to find and give him a brush to brush out the gel from his hair.
Eijirou instinctively took a step back, realizing that each one of his classmates had their hair styled differently than how it was normally at school, and how Katsuki remembered them.
"I can't-" he choked out and realized he had trouble breathing.
"Kirishima-kun," Iida put a hand on his shoulder. "This is your most distinguishable feature, if someone recognizes you, it'll be because of your hair."
"I know that!" Eijirou didn't mean to yell, and he didn't mean to push Iida's hand away so harshly. "But that's the point, it's-" he swallowed the words and covered his face with his hands, breathing heavily.
"Kirishima." Todoroki appeared right next to him, but Eijirou didn't have enough courage to actually look at him. "You need to either explain why you're acting like that, or just do what you need. We've already wasted time, we can't afford more."
It was soothing to know that at least Todoroki thought it was a waste of time as well, even if it still didn't help calm him down.
"I'll talk to him." Midoriya spoke up and Eijirou felt both relieved and nervous about talking to him of all people here.
But he still let Midoriya lead him to the back of the store, where various items on the shelves were covered in dust and there were unopened boxes labeled To Send Back on the floor, dated a few months back.
"I know you're worried about Kacchan not recognizing you," Midoriya started in a whisper as he put his hands on Eijirou's shoulders, "but you need to get a hold of yourself. Back at the hospital you convinced me that we can do this, no matter what. So if you, out of everyone, think we can't, then there's no hope left for the rest of us."
Eijirou felt cold sweat running down his back.
"But what if he doesn't recognize me?" He asked, his voice barely there, small and scared, and he felt awful for thinking only about himself right now. "He doesn't- doesn't recognize me with m-my hair down." Eijirou hiccuped, tears falling from his eyes before he could realize they were even there.
"Kirishima-kun…" Midoriya spoke with concern and sympathy as he rubbed Eijirou's arm, trying to show understanding. "Please calm down and listen, okay?" He asked softly and waited a few moments for Eijirou to take a deep breath before he continued; "I'm worried too; that this whole thing will fail, that we won't find him, that he will get injured, or we will, or all of us will end up-" he took a deep breath and a moment to stop himself from his typical rambling. "So… Kirishima-kun. We won't be able to get anywhere near Kacchan if we get compromised. And then it won't matter if he recognizes you or not."
He was right, and Eijirou knew it. They didn't know how many allies the villains actually had. They could be anywhere, scouting, making sure no one was coming, ready to report immediately whoever it was trying to approach, be it pro heroes or just them, some ordinary students.
"... Okay." Eijirou finally whispered, more to tell himself that it was going to be alright, rather than to agree with Midoriya, but either way, he wiped away the tears from his eyes and cheeks, and without another word went back to where Yaomomo was still standing with a brush in her hand.
He took it from her and walked over to the mirror to get rid of his signature spikes.
___
On top of everything, Eijirou ended up with ridiculously fake-looking horns stuck on his head as well. Or maybe they were supposed to resemble ears? Either way, he had no idea how they were supposed to help him blend in with the crowd, but he decided to just go with everything his classmates were telling him to do, if only for the sole purpose of not causing any more scenes and, hopefully, not wasting any more time.
Thankfully, they had finally left the store and made their way down the streets, taking the paths the tracking device was pointing them towards. They found themselves on a huge plaza, and just when they were about to make their way into a more secluded alleyway, they heard someone from the crowd yell;
"Hey, it's UA!"
They froze, and Eijirou was already thinking how it was all for nothing, but as he slowly looked over his shoulder, he realized that no one was even looking at them. Instead, the crowd gathering around them was all focused on the screen at the side of the building, and once Eijirou looked up, he was shocked to see his principal and teachers bowing to the audience made up entirely of reporters.
Huh?
"Ehh? They've got time for press conferences?" Someone from the crowd mocked and Eijirou couldn't help but agree.
Weren't they supposed to be looking for Katsuki?
"This isn't right…" Iida whispered next to him, and Eijirou remembered that he talked to Aizawa before all this.
Did it mean that no one was actively searching for Katsuki? Were they too busy saving their faces, instead?
Even if he didn't want to believe it, the thought made him furious.
"Calm down." Todoroki lightly nudged him in the side with a pointed look and Eijirou realized his tightened fists were hardened. "They're not the only ones on the case." He continued and Eijirou calmed down a little bit, enough to hear Aizawa's public apology.
They listened as principal Nezu began to speak about some new security systems, but when someone from the crowd said it was that kidnapped kid's fault, Iida had to grab Eijirou by his shoulder, as he was ready to go find and beat some sense into the guy.
"-the kidnapped student, Bakugou?"
Eijirou was about to shove Iida's hand off of him when he froze at the journalist's mention of Katsuki. All five of them focused on the man on the screen, and Eijirou's blood pressure rose as the joke of a reporter started talking about Katsuki's mental instability, and how the kidnapping was meant to exploit his aggressive behaviors.
How dare he question Katsuki's future?
"This shouldn't be allowed…" Yaomomo spoke quietly with disgust on her face, Midoriya nodding angrily next to her.
Eijirou just hoped that Katsuki would never hear the words spoken by this damn journalist.
After a few more seconds, Iida gave the signal that they should keep going, so they made their way through the crowd and away from it, right into some alleyways that the tracking device was leading them through.
At this point there were almost no people around. It made sense, the villains definitely would want their hideout to be in a more secluded area.
Eventually, the tracking device let them know that they were at their destination.
"So this is their hideout…" Eijirou tried to take in the warehouse they were standing near. "Sure looks like it."
"It's a bit strange, though." Yaomomo mused as she looked between her device and the building. "It seems as if the villains haven't moved from here the entire day, and…" She glanced at Eijirou, almost nervously. "Just because they are here, doesn't necessarily mean Bakugou-san is here as well, so we can't rush into action just yet."
"Yaoyorozu-kun is right," Iida chimed in, looking sternly over the rest of them, "if I sense the slightest bit of danger, I'm stopping the operation. Even if you're my friends- no, because you're my friends, I won't hesitate to even go to the police, if that means stopping you all from doing something dangerous."
Damn. Eijirou thought as he heard Midoriya thank Iida for his speech, before he started mumbling about all the different plans, and he couldn't help but chuckle.
"It's been a while since I've heard him mumble like that." Eijirou could already imagine Katsuki screaming at him for letting Midoriya go off like that.
"Maybe we should just start by going around the building? Try and see through the windows what's happening inside?" Yaomomo offered as she took a few steps towards the corner of the street.
They quickly followed and Eijirou felt uneasy as he realized something. "All the lights are off." He slid his hands into the pockets of his jeans, clenching them. "It doesn't seem like anybody's inside…"
He didn't want to think about worst case scenarios anymore, but what if the villains realized they were being tracked and ditched the device in an abandoned warehouse?
It did seem abandoned, at least, with weeds everywhere and some windows covered with planks and whatnot…
"One way or another, we still need to make sure that this place isn't being used by villains, even if they recently abandoned it." Midoriya mumbled. Eijirou only nodded as they continued their careful approach to the back of the building.
"We'll have to squeeze through, but that's the only way around." Todoroki said quietly as he pointed at the narrow space between two high cement walls.
"Alright, remember to stay quiet and don't make any sudden movements." Iida instructed before they moved in.
It took a while, but as they slowly managed to reach the middle point, Midoriya noticed a window with bars on the outside. "We might be able to see what's inside from that height!" He stated with relief that Eijirou shared, as this meant they wouldn't have to break in and bring unnecessary attention to themselves.
"Isn't it too dark to see anything?" Todoroki asked, squinting a bit as he stared at the window above them.
"I can make night-vision-"
"I've got something!" Eijirou felt only a little bit bad about interrupting Yaomomo, but excitement over the fact that he didn't steal his mom's goggles for nothing was overpowering that feeling.
It was nice to finally be useful, until he used the goggles and saw a warehouse full of noumu, and he felt nothing but dread again, similarly to his classmates, once they realized what they were facing.
Oh God, what if they made a noumu out of Katsuki?
The dark thought was enough to fill his eyes with tears of panic, his breathing quickening, but before he could share his concerns with anyone, seemingly out of nowhere, the walls began tumbling down, hit with a brutal force that knocked off their feet, and it took Eijirou a solid moment to realize that Mt. Lady herself was standing over the ruins, holding noumus in each of her hands.
Iida helped him stand up, and just then did they realize that not only Mt. Lady was there, but also Mister Tiger, and most of the heroes from the top ten as well, including Best Jeanist, which Eijirou wasn't thrilled about, but he wasn't going to complain at the moment.
"They were planning this long before us…" Eijirou breathed out.
"Let's get out of here, then." Iida quickly commanded, clearly relieved as much as Eijirou was at that moment. "There's nothing for us to do here."
"God, they all look so gross…" They could hear Mt. Lady's complaining as they started retreating as quietly as possible, so that none of the heroes would notice them. "This job is way too easy, we should have gone with All Might!"
This made Midoriya halt his steps, "... he might be where Kacchan is." He whispered, glancing back at Eijirou, who couldn't help but send him a little smile of relief.
"If All Might is involved, that's all the more reason for us to get out of here." Yaomomo pushed for them to hurry up, taking the lead before Iida, who willingly followed right after her.
Eijirou didn't have any more reasons to stay, as the heroes seemed to have everything under control, and so he went along, more than ready to leave at this point. True, he certainly wanted to be the one to find and rescue Katsuki, but something was telling him right from the beginning that there was no way he would actually be capable of something like this.
Well, at least he knew he didn't fail completely-
"DON'T LET THE VILLAIN DO ANYTHING!"
Jeanist's loud voice was the only warning he got before some sort of powerful attack destroyed a part of the wall just above Eijirou's head, effectively knocking the air out of his lungs.
What the-
"If possible…" A deep voice that made his skin crawl spoke in a disturbingly calm manner. "I'd like for you all to stop interfering."
I can't move. Eijirou thought, terrified for his life, even more so when he realized that the whole warehouse was wiped out in a blink.
Eijirou found himself hyperventilating, and just now noticed his arms hardened instinctively, as if his body was determined to fight for its life, whether Eijirou's mind was up to it or not.
He was shaking when he gathered up the courage to look up at Iida who was standing next to him, staring with wide eyes at the ground, clenching his fists on his chest as he seemed out of breath, and he didn't even need to see the others to know that they were all in the same state.
Frozen in place, afraid they were going to die.
Eijirou was too overwhelmed to even start wondering who the terrifying villain was.
He didn't have time to process anything, because just as he regained a little bit of feeling in his legs, just as he was about to grab whoever was nearest to him and just run for his life, he heard it.
"What the hell is this!?"
Once again, he was frozen in place when he recognized that raspy, characteristic voice.
"I'm sorry, Bakugou." The villain spoke again, which only confirmed that it really was Katsuki.
Eijirou immediately wanted to turn around to see him, to confirm that he was really there, that it wasn't some sick trick or a dying man's wishful hallucination, even when he realized that the villain somehow teleported the rest of the League that was responsible for kidnapping Katsuki in the first place, he still wanted to do something.
Yet, before he could make a move, Iida was in front of him, grabbing onto Todoroki and Midoriya. Eijirou didn't need long to realize that Iida was protecting them. Just like he said before that he would.
But did it really mean stopping them from saving Katsuki?
Once again, there was no time to think, when another powerful blow almost knocked them off their feet.
"I'LL MAKE YOU GIVE EVERYTHING BACK, ALL FOR ONE!!!"
All Might's booming voice resounded, immediately bringing that tiny piece of hope back into Eijirou's mind.
The villain, All For One, and All Might began exchanging blows, and Eijirou couldn't help but wonder how it was possible that this villain was just as powerful as the number one hero.
All Might screamed at him, that he was going to lock the man away for good, right after he would save Katsuki, but that was before All For One hit him with a forceful blast, sending him off of the battlefield.
"Get out of here, Tomura." The horrifying villain was closer to them than before, they could hear him all too clear for comfort. "Bring the kid with you."
"No-" Eijirou choked out, looking frantically between Iida and the ruined wall separating them from All For One.
"Kirishima…" Iida whispered, and his own name sounded more like an apology.
Once again, the battle between All Might and All For One picked up, and Eijirou couldn't help but think how hopeless the situation was.
All Might couldn't save Katsuki, as the villain was in the way. And All Might couldn't defeat the villain, because Katsuki was in the way. That was a terribly ironic situation in which they weren't allowed to do anything while Katsuki was fighting for his life out there on his own, with no way to escape.
"Iida." Midoriya's shaking voice cut through the air, everyone's eyes snapping right to him.
"Don't even think about it-"
"There's a way!" Midoriya interrupted Iida's protest. "There's a way for us to avoid fighting and get out of here with Kacchan." He took a deep breath as he stared at his own hand, bandages peeking from underneath his jacket.
"What's the plan?" Todoroki was first to ask, clearly ignoring Iida's stern gaze.
Midoriya closed his eyes for a moment, clearly deep in thought, before they snapped open and went straight to Eijirou, startling him slightly.
"Whether or not it succeeds… that all depends on Kacchan, and if it's me executing the plan, it's sure to fail." Midoriya fully turned to Eijirou who was suddenly aware of everyone's eyes being locked on his person. "It's gotta be you, Kirishima-kun."
What?
"You are the key to success."
Midoriya went on with explanations of his plan, but Eijirou was still stuck on the part when he was supposed to be the damn key to saving Katsuki.
How was that even going to work?
His mind started racing as Eijirou thought about how he looked nothing like himself, and Katsuki was definitely too distressed and tired to recognize him by his loose hair.
Not to mention the distance-
"Kirishima-kun." Midoriya's hand was on his shoulder, his eyes determined that his plan would work. "It can't be Iida. Or Todoroki, or Yaoyorozu. No one else will be able to get through to him."
"But he-" Eijirou stopped himself. They'd been in this situation earlier, but now his worst fear was about to become reality and Midoriya had way too much faith in him. "He always-" he closed his eyes, panic overwhelming, even more so when he realized he was wasting their time, and then he felt it.
Arms wrapped around him, and when Eijirou opened his eyes, he realized it was Midoriya. "Listen…" He spoke in a murmur so quiet that Eijirou could hear only thanks to the fact that Midoriya was whispering right into his ear. "I know he always recognizes me, but that's only one of the millions of reasons he'll never accept my help." Even though Eijirou couldn't see his face, he knew that Midoriya was sure of his words. "I've never seen him build a relationship with anyone before you. Kacchan knows you, and whether you two realize it or not, he's definitely made an effort to always be able to recognize you."
For the first time in what felt like a century, Eijirou's chest filled up with happiness. But it didn't last for long, because he knew this was going to fail miserably. "I can't think of anything that would make him realize it's me in a situation like this."
It was impossible and hopeless and Midoriya must have known that, right?
"There has to be something." Midoriya pressed, squeezing him uncomfortably. "There definitely is, and you need to think, quickly."
God, what was Midoriya thinking, this was crazy-
"It has to be you." Midoriya finally stepped back, seemingly dead set on his plan.
It has to be me, Eijirou thought, his stomach churning with dread and anxiety. It has to be me, and I don't know Katsuki well enough to know why he would choose me-
"He trusts you more than anyone."
Something clicked in Eijirou's head.
He trusts me.
He gasped loudly with realization, startling Midoriya along with their classmates who had no clue what sort of conversation the two of them just had.
"I know- holy shit, I know, let's go!"
___
As All Might fought against All For One, Katsuki was trying not to get caught by the League. He was enough of a burden to the hero, the least he could do was not to get kidnapped again, but fuck if it wasn't getting harder and harder… Even knowing that he had to avoid the Mask by all means, he still had to be careful with the rest of them, especially with the heat and pace of the battle preventing him from focusing enough to figure out who he was fighting against at certain times.
A girl with a knife rushed at him, and as soon as he dodged her attack, there was already someone else coming from behind, but there just wasn't any time to figure out who. At least it was clear that his opponents were panicking, trying to catch him as quickly as possible, just to fulfill their boss' order.
He had to find an opening, and fast, because he was getting tired, his arms hurting from overusing his quirk after days of dormancy.
Dodge.
An opening-
Jump back.
Any sort of escape-
Avoid being stabbed to death.
God, anything, anything that would make him less of a failure and a burden-
All of a sudden, everyone stopped when a giant ramp made of ice appeared over the battlefield.
What the hell-
"KATSUKI!"
His breath was taken away. There was absolutely no way, this must have been a dream-
"TRUST ME!"
And he did. Without a doubt in his mind.
___
Katsuki grabbed Eijirou's hand.
___
The landing was harsh.
So much so that it forced Katsuki to let go of Eijirou's hand as they hit the ground and rolled on the dirt. It hurt like hell, but Katsuki didn't care; full of panic, he scrambled to his feet, eyes searching for Eijirou's red hair, but before he could even turn around, there was someone barreling right into him, almost knocking him off his feet.
"Katsuki!" The familiar voice yelled, filled with relief and wet with what Katsuki could assume were tears, and soon enough he heard a quiet sniffle. "You grabbed my hand…" Eijirou whispered, squeezing him in a tight hug, and part of his brain, the one still full of adrenaline and panic, screamed at him to get away, that this could be a villain, but Katsuki ignored it.
Katsuki ignored it because he knew that right then, right there, he was with Eijirou and he was safe.
There was no need for fighting anymore.
So he took a deep breath and forced himself to relax. He circled his arms around Eijirou, resting his cheek on Eijirou's shoulder so that he could take a better look at that beautiful bright red hair.
"You recognized me…" There was that relieved whisper again and something squeezed in Katsuki's stomach. "Thank God, you recognized me." Eijirou repeated and Katsuki nodded against his shoulder before burying his face in the crook of Eijirou's neck.
Even though Katsuki knew that they were still too close to the villains to be fully safe, he still wanted to stay in Eijirou's arms, the boy he trusted the most, holding him close and hiccuping quietly. He closed his eyes and relaxed, melting in a warm embrace he wasn't aware he needed so desperately.
"God…" Eijirou sighed with clear relief, tightening his arms more around him. "I could kiss you right now."
Katsuki heard the barely audible words and quickly pulled away from Eijirou, eyes wide, his hands now clutching Eijirou's shoulders.
They stared at each other and Katsuki wondered if he heard that right, or if he had finally lost his mind, but as Eijirou's expression changed from the one of a deer caught in the headlights to soft sincerity, Katsuki's heart swelled up.
"Please-"
"I'm sorry to interrupt the reunion-"
Katsuki reacted instinctively; as soon as the strange guy with a mustache put a hand on his shoulder, Katsuki turned and swung at his face, quirk activated. Yet before he made contact with the stranger's face, his hand was caught by Eijirou's hardened one mid air.
"I'm-" the guy quickly stepped back, hands up to show that he meant no harm. "I apologize, I shouldn't have approached you out of nowhere, considering all that... happened to you." He bowed slightly, his mechanical movements reminding Katsuki of someone.
Then, Eijirou whispered as he lowered their joined hands, "that's Iida, our class president."
And only then did Katsuki lower his guard, letting go of Eijirou's hand just so he could cross his arms over his chest.
"The hell did you expect?" Katsuki didn't realize how rough his voice was up until now, how dry his throat was, and considering the state everyone was in, he doubted any of them had any water.
"Kacchan!" Someone who sounded like Deku ran up to them. "We need to get out of here, the villains might still find us."
Katsuki stared at him with a glare, and as if on command, Deku messed up his hair that was slicked back until now.
"... As if I don't know." Katsuki said, angry that Deku was one of the people who rescued him.
"Let's go back to the station, Yaoyorozu-kun and Todoroki-kun should already be there." Iida commanded, and he and Deku started walking away.
So there were more people from his class.
Katsuki could lie to himself that he just used them as an easy escape route, but he knew that the truth was that they saved him.
He looked over his shoulder and his eyes met with Eijirou's.
Eijirou saved him.
"... Let's get going." Katsuki muttered, but as he was about to take a step forward, he felt a hand on his wrist.
Slowly, he turned to face Eijirou who refused to look up from the ground.
"I'm sorry." Eijirou whispered, gripping his wrist painfully, but Katsuki did not dare to say a word. "This- this isn't about me, I know, but…" He finally faced him with a pitiful expression and Katsuki noticed his eyes were rimmed with red. "Can I hold your hand? Please… I…" His hand slowly moved down and took a loose hold of Katsuki's hand. "I really need this." Eijirou once again looked away with shame.
Katsuki was more than aware that he needed this just as much as Eijirou. The only difference was that he wasn't brave enough to admit it out loud.
With a pounding heart, he took a proper grip of Eijirou's hand and lightly pulled him closer.
"I told you already, let's get going." Katsuki muttered without sparing him a single look and quickly started walking towards Deku and Iida who were waiting for them.
Deku's eyes widened once he noticed their joined hands, but upon seeing Katsuki's glare, he didn't dare say a word.
"We're closer to the station than I thought, so we're fairly safe here." Iida announced, yet all of them still had their guards up.
Eventually, they found themselves among more and more people, civilians. Meaning, they were safer, so why did the lump in his stomach only grow larger with each step?
They met up with their classmates, Eijirou even whispered to him that those were Todoroki and Yaomomo, and Katsuki gave his hand a light squeeze as a way to thank him.
They were in the middle of the street when they realized that All Might's fight against All For One was being broadcasted, and just as Katsuki looked up at the screen, he found himself unable to move a single muscle.
Katsuki stared at a shadow of a man.
He stared at the man's torn costume, so iconic that anyone on the planet could recognize it in a heartbeat, now hanging off of a living skeleton's shoulders, so large that it would have almost been funny if not for the somber look on the man's gaunt face. There was no smile, no shout of success, only a cold blue gaze watching the villain mocking him. The scrap of fabric that was left of a once brilliant cape fluttered pathetically, as though it remembered that it was supposed to billow majestically, but couldn't bring itself to do so on the shoulders of the husk that was wearing All Might's costume.
Because that was All Might's costume. It had to be. No other hero wore a costume that looked like that. But Katsuki couldn't find a single recognizable thing about the man himself.
He looked nothing like All Might.
And even when the stranger eventually stood triumphantly after defeating All For One, and everyone around cheered for their number one hero, Katsuki knew he was at fault for this man's downfall, whoever he was.
___
"Katsuki…?" Eijirou whispered and gave Katsuki's hand a light squeeze. "Are you okay?"
They were walking slightly behind their classmates, all of them making their way to the closest police station.
Katsuki's been strangely quiet after they saw All Might's… true form? Eijirou wasn't sure what it was exactly, but he thought that Katsuki would still be excited about his favorite hero being victorious over the people who kidnapped him.
"I'm fine." Katsuki said without any emotion on his face.
Eijirou decided not to push. After all, Katsuki's been through so much already, he didn't need a nagging friend. And before he knew it, they were right outside a police station.
Midoriya went inside with Iida, and Eijirou knew he should have been happy that they were leaving Katsuki somewhere safe, but he was still filled with dread, that there were villains following them or some double agents inside the station. On top of that, they didn't even know how many of the villains from the league were apprehended, or how many were out for revenge.
"You're crushing my hand." Katsuki's dry comment made him jump and Eijirou immediately loosened his grip, still refusing to completely let go.
"I'm sorry!"
"It's nothing." Katsuki gave him a surprisingly gentle look. "Stop worrying so much. Everything's fine."
Everything's not fine. Eijirou thought.
Katsuki just got his freedom back, true, but Eijirou was more than convinced that he wasn't fine, so why was he acting like this?
"Katsuki-"
"That's him." Iida appeared seemingly out of nowhere, Midoriya and three police officers with him.
"Well I be damned… Bakugou Katsuki himself." One of the officers walked up to the two of them, his attention on Katsuki who just nodded. "We need you to come with us."
"Don't worry, though, you're not under arrest." The other one joked with a smile and Eijirou felt like throwing up.
"... Okay." Katsuki sighed, as if that was an inconvenience for him, and Eijirou wondered, hoped even, that it was because he wanted to stay there. "Could I have a few moments?" Katsuki asked to everyone's surprise. "With him, I mean." He clarified, pointing with his chin and Eijirou stared at him, genuinely surprised that he was right.
"Well.." The first policeman looked between his coworkers. One of them shrugged, the other sighed before nodding in agreement. "Okay, just make it quick. As for the rest of you," he looked at his classmates, "we need your names and a quick rundown of how the hell you got him here."
They all went with two officers, the third one staying behind to keep an eye on the two of them, but leaving enough space to give them some privacy.
"... I'm not sure what's going to happen," Katsuki started quietly, facing him, "but… you know." He awkwardly kicked a rock. "I just wanted to… for fuck's sake..." Katsuki refused to meet his eyes, instead he stared angrily at the pavement, rubbing angrily at his temple.
"Don't mention it." He decided to spare him, and when Katsuki glanced up at him, Eijirou gave him a genuine smile. "I was in the area, thought I'd stop by." He shrugged nonchalantly and heard Katsuki snort.
Ah, he missed this.
…
"I missed you." Eijirou blurted out before he could stop himself, but he didn't regret it.
"... Shut up." Katsuki looked away, his ears turning deep red and he knew it meant I missed you, too, especially when he felt Katsuki slowly rub his thumb against Eijirou's skin.
"Bakugou-kun," the officer walked up to them. "It's still dangerous for you to be staying out in the open." He explained gently, gesturing at the station. "You should come with me, now."
Katsuki glared at the officer before he sighed and took a step towards the station, as if he forgot that they were still holding hands.
"... You need to let go." Katsuki whispered but made no move to pull away, and still gently held Eijirou's hand, making him think that it wasn't that Katsuki forgot, but simply didn't want to.
As if to prove his point, Katsuki slowly looked over his shoulder and Eijirou saw how much he didn't want to actually leave.
And Eijirou knew he had to force himself to be the one to let go first.
"... I know." Eijirou whispered back and squeezed his eyes shut as he released Katsuki's hand that kept holding onto his. "You.. you need to let go." He didn't have it in him to look at Katsuki. He was scared that if he were to open his eyes, Katsuki would be gone again.
"I know." Katsuki sighed, but instead of letting go, Eijirou sensed him getting closer, and just as he gathered the courage to open his eyes, Katsuki put his free hand on Eijirou's back, forehead on his shoulder.
Eijirou didn't need anyone to tell him to return the gesture, and one last time, he hugged Katsuki back, squeezing his hand and inhaling the all-too-familiar smell of smoke. If it wasn't for the fear of losing him again, he would laugh at himself, at his desperation to feel Katsuki's presence near him, to know that he was safe at all times.
But nothing lasts forever, and after a few more seconds, Katsuki released his hand and pulled away. Eijirou followed his movements, but still stood as closely as possible, one hand gently placed on his shoulder.
"I'll let you know when I get home." Katsuki told him with a barely-there smile.
Eijirou just nodded, throat squeezed tight, and completely stepped away from Katsuki, who slowly turned to the officer and started walking away with him towards the station.
His friends came back, offering their support.
"It's gonna be okay, Kirishima." Of all people, it was Todoroki who assured him.
"That's right, Kirishima-kun!" Iida smacked him on the back with a heavy hand. "The operation was successful, Bakugou-kun is safe and we can go home."
Eijirou's eyes were locked on Katsuki's back, and only when he glanced back at him over his shoulder, right before entering the building, Eijirou finally felt a weight lift off of his shoulders.
He felt himself collapse in relief, Midoriya catching him so he wouldn't fall to the ground. "K-kirishima-kun, are you okay?!" There was panic painted all over his face as he helped him sit down.
"I'm okay! I'm… I'm okay…" Eijirou reassured before Midoriya would go off with worry. "Just-" he took a deep breath, "I'm just so relaxed right now that I could melt." He chuckled to himself, then smiled apologetically when he saw Yaomomo sigh in relief.
Still, as Eijirou sat with his face in his hands, he couldn't help but laugh to himself. At himself, how for the first time in days he was finally able to breathe without the heavy weight on his heart.
How the hell was he able to pull this off?
How did Katsuki, for some reason, decide to trust him at that moment?
How were they still alive?
Eijirou was too overwhelmed to think of any sort of an answer.
And so, he started sobbing into his hands.
Everything that he was holding in for the last few days - the dread, the anger, the hopelessness and heartbreak - they all finally got out of his system and disappeared, completely replaced with pure relief and happiness.
___
They sat Katsuki in what seemed like a small interrogation room, and even if they gave him a glass of water and didn't cuff him to the table, he still felt like a criminal.
"We're arranging a transport for you to get to the nearest hospital." Some officer stated as soon as he walked into the room.
Katsuki had no clue if he'd seen him before.
"Hospital..?" He asked carefully, just now noticing that the man was holding a phone.
"Yes, despite that we'd like to ask you some questions first, we can only imagine what you've been through, and even though I'm not a doctor, I can clearly see that you were hurt." The policeman sat down in front of him. "Have you eaten anything in the last three days?"
Katsuki swallowed a lump in his throat, suddenly aware of his empty stomach. "No, I refused to eat anything they gave me." He felt sick at the thought of that raw meat with glass.
"Smart move." The man praised with a firm nod, but before he could say anything else, the phone in his hand started ringing. "Ah, you're gonna be happy about this." He said with a smile as he accepted the call. "Yes, he's right here." He handed the phone to Katsuki before standing up. "You've got 15 minutes."
For what? Katsuki wondered, but decided there was no other option than to speak to whoever was on the other side of the line.
"... Hello?"
"Oh my God, my baby."
He heard his mother on the phone and his eyes widened in surprise.
"Mom." He wasn't sure why his voice was shaking so much, or why his mom was currently sobbing into his ear, but he quickly realized he didn't care, he was just happy to hear her again.
"Katsuki!" His dad was there too, and that was enough to fill his eyes with tears.
"Dad…" He whispered, because he didn't want them to realize he was crying out of relief.
It finally came to him that he was free, and hearing his parents made him all the more aware of that.
"Katsuki, my baby, are you okay? We'll see you at the hospital, do you hear me?" His mom's voice was shaking as she spoke to him, and he could hear the rustling on the other side and could only assume they were hurrying to get going.
"Y-yeah, I'm okay. I'm fine." He choked out covering his face with one hand so that no one would see him in this state.
"Katsuki," his dad was on the phone, "were you hurt?"
Katsuki was painfully aware of the light burn on his neck, as well as the ones on his hands that he inflicted on himself.
"No…" He lied. He didn't want to burden his parents with the truth. "I'm okay…"
"You have no idea how good it is to hear that…" His dad sighed in relief. "I'll be driving, talk to your mom, okay?"
"Y-yeah, okay." Katsuki was shocked at his own behavior, because he didn't remember the last time he actually wanted to hear his mom's voice.
"Katsuki, I'm so glad you're safe now." Her voice was still wet with tears, but there was a more serious note to it now, the one that he was very familiar with. "I'm getting you out of this damn school, you hear me?"
"... Huh?"
There must have been something wrong with his hearing.
"We're transferring you to Shiketsu."
Just like that, Katsuki's world fell apart.
Notes:
I thought of the title 3 years ago when planning this arc lmfao
Anyway, for those who don't follow me on tumblr; my long absence was due to my dad passing away, but please don't send me condolences or whatever, I've heard enough of them and I'm much better now <3
In chapter and a half we'll finally say Bye to canon, I couldn't be happier.
Quick question tho, probably a bit ridiculous, but did someone find my fic through TikTok? Like, I saw a comment that basically talked about the plot of EiYM, but I accidentally closed the app and never found the tiktok or the comment again iflkgjhlfgkjh
ANYWAY, hopefully y'all won't have to wait so long for the next chapter smh
Also everyone say Thank you to Ao3 user BabyTheLady for leaving a comment that single-handedly gave me motivation to write again, I don't know you personally, but I love you bro.
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Up next; Summer depression
Chapter 36: A Look to the past
Summary:
Heteros get One good rep. As a treat.
Notes:
CW for panic attacks, graphic description of a wound and medical ramblings
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The ringing in his ears was unbearable. Loud and distracting, it was the only thing he could focus on. It took him a long time to realize he was walking, his legs feeling like they were made out of cotton. Where was he going? And God, why were his hands shaking so much? It was impossible for him to keep his quirk under control - someone handed him gloves and he clumsily put them on. Just then he realized he was being lead outside-
Outside of what?
Where was he just now?
When did he get into a car?
Where was he being transported?
No, transferred?
Ah.
That's right.
Damn Shiketsu.
He didn't realize it would happen so quickly. He thought he still had time to at least apologize to All Might, for destroying his life. To punch Deku for giving the villains his damn notebook. To tell Eijirou how he felt.
Well, this was his life now.
And he was going to be alone again, as he was always destined to be.
The car Katsuki was in drove over a hole in the road, making it jump and startling him back to reality.
He blinked, realizing he wasn't going to Shiketsu yet. He wasn’t even in his parents’ car. It was the police car, and he was going to the hospital he had been told about.
"Careful with the car." The officer sitting in the passenger seat snapped at his coworker behind the wheel.
"Sorry about that!" The driver looked at him apologetically through the rear view mirror, but Katsuki just shrugged. He wasn't in the mood for talking to anyone. He was so tired that even keeping his eyes focused was a chore, forget trying to hold a conversation.
The adrenaline he'd been filled with for the past few days had worn off completely, leaving him with only a deep-set exhaustion and the cold dread of what was to come after he'd be out of the hospital.
After he would be able to talk to his parents again.
And maybe after he had more than a few hours of uninterrupted sleep.
In the meantime, he could think of what to say to his mother to change her mind, but God, was it fucking hard to think.
The car stopped at a red light and Katsuki stared out the window, and as if the universe had something against him, his eyes immediately fell on a huge screen on the side of the building across the road, big letters screaming at him: THE END OF SYMBOL OF PEACE?
There was a picture of that skeleton-like man who everyone called All Might.
But that couldn't be him, right?
Maybe the real All Might went into hiding? Or maybe this was an undercover mission? And this was some kind of a big, elaborate plan, for the villains to think he was gone, and then he would reappear, stronger than ever?
The thought brought Katsuki little to no comfort, but it was still something to hold onto in the meantime.
Katsuki closed his eyes, taking a deep breath.
He felt the car move and was more than happy to find that when he opened his eyes again, he didn’t have to look at that screen anymore.
Unfortunately, his happiness didn't last long, because as they approached the hospital, Katsuki noticed that the entrance gate was surrounded by a bunch of reporters.
"God damn it," the driving officer said as soon as he saw them, "who tipped them off?"
"Probably Akasaka, he has a loose tongue." The other one sighed, clearly annoyed, and quickly typed something on his phone.
Now, Katsuki had no idea who Akasaka was, but he already wanted to punch the man.
"Put this over your head."
Katsuki blinked, surprised that someone addressed him, and he quickly realized that the officer was handing him his jacket, and with no other choice, Katsuki grabbed it and did as he was told.
As soon as they parked, the journalists swarmed to the car, and the fact that they were so close to the entrance didn't help. Katsuki didn't even manage to fully get out of the car after the officer opened the door for him, and the questions were being thrown at him at the speed of light.
"Did you know your classmate was a traitor?"
"Did Shigaraki try to get you on their side?"
"Do you think your performance at the sports festival influenced the League's decision to kidnap you?"
"Are you aware you slowed down All Might during his fight?"
"Do you feel guilty about All Might losing his power?"
"Who helped you escape? Was it one of the villains?"
"Are you afraid that those who managed to escape will come after you?"
"Will your family file a lawsuit against UA?"
"That's enough!" The officers managed to push through the crowd, trying their best to hide Katsuki between the two of them.
It didn't actually do much.
They could hide him from the cameras, but not from the questions, each and every one of them another punch to Katsuki's gut.
I want to go home, he wanted to answer each question, but was unable to even open his mouth.
Once they finally stepped inside, the hospital security locked the doors behind them and he was quickly taken to a seemingly isolated room by some nurse.
"Hospital pajamas are in the bathroom, along with a towel." He informed Katsuki when they stepped inside. "I'll be back in fifteen minutes with your doctor." The man smiled at him sympathetically.
Katsuki nodded without looking at him. All the faces he gazed upon today were disturbingly crooked, and he didn't want to accidentally grimace at someone offering him kindness for the first time in those few days.
Well, not counting Magne.
He vaguely wondered if she managed to escape, but then the question from the nurse - "is there anything else you need?" - distracted him from that train of thought.
"No." Katsuki said shortly, before adding in a calmer voice, "Thank you."
"All right, I'll be right back, and we'll run some tests." With one last smile, Katsuki was left alone. He’s read in the past that the nurses would often help the patients wash themselves, so he was glad that he wasn't subjected to that embarrassment, especially after being forced to sit in place for the past few days, unable to even stand up. Restrained. Not able to move away from anyone who grabbed him. Not able to bend far enough away from the-
Katsuki closed his eyes and took a deep breath, and decided not to waste time looking around the room when he opened them again. He located the door to the bathroom, and walked straight to it. It wasn't anything special, just a typical plain bathroom in a hospital, with a shower cabin, toilet, two cabinets and a sink with a mirror above it. The latter was what Katsuki immediately approached and, despite high hopes, didn't recognize himself.
The boy in the mirror looked thinner, paler. He had deep bags under his bloodshot eyes and dirty, messy hair.
What can three days do to someone?
Apparently a lot.
Katsuki's eyes slowly traveled down to his neck and widened once he managed to comprehend what he was looking at.
The print of Dabi's hand was clear on Katsuki's neck. The scar- no. The wound was dark brown, with skin peeling off where Dabi placed his palm, uncovering angry red underneath, and of course there had to be a few blisters there as well.
She said it didn't look that bad. Katsuki thought with dread as his hand slowly reached for the wound. It didn't feel that bad. He touched it, as lightly as possible, and winced. Why had no one said anything about it?
But what did he expect when he refused to get it treated in any way by any of them? Even Magne?
The longer he stared at the wound, the harder it was to breathe, even more so when just then it started burning, as if it had remembered it was supposed to hurt.
Katsuki reached to the back of his head, for the old, familiar scar, if only to be able to ground himself with the knowledge that it was there. He felt the tug of his fingers through his hair, but it wasn't until he couldn't feel out the rough patch of skin that he remembered that he still had those damn Anti-Quirk gloves on. And as if to put a special emphasis on how pathetic he was, his hands started shaking so badly that he couldn't even manage to take the gloves off.
A knock brought him back to Earth, and his eyes snapped to the bathroom door as he clutched his hands close to his chest, both of them still trembling.
"Bakugou-kun?" He could only assume it was the same nurse as before.
"Y-yeah?" He rasped and quickly cleared his throat.
"I forgot to mention, but there should be a comb and a toothbrush in one of the cabinets, feel free to use them, alright?"
"Okay!" Katsuki didn't dare move before he heard the nurse leave once again.
When he was sure that he was on his own, he took slow, deep breaths, until his hands finally stopped trembling. As soon as he had control of them again, he scrambled to get the gloves off, hissing in pain when the rough fabric of the first glove pulled at the burn on his hand. When had his hand been-
Oh.
Right.
He had done that to himself.
“Fuck…” Katsuki breathed out as he slowly opened his eyes and sighed in relief once he saw that his left hand didn’t look that bad, it just stung like hell. He took off the other glove with much more carefulness.
He’d never admit it to anyone, but at this point he was actually nervous about touching anything. He was afraid of pain, probably for the first time in his life.
But of course, Katsuki was forced to deal with it, because that forgettable nurse would come back any minute now, with some doctor who Katsuki just knew was going to be another crazy person, because that was just his luck when it came to medical professionals.
Katsuki held his breath as he slowly started taking off his dirty clothes, his left hand stinging more and more after coming in contact with the material, and even though those were one of his favourite pairs of jeans, he couldn’t stand looking at them anymore, and forced himself to just throw his clothes straight into a trashcan.
Since he didn’t want to waste any more time, he bid them a cold goodbye and quickly stepped into the shower cabin, hissing when water made contact with his wounds, but at the same time, he couldn't recall a single time he was so happy about taking a shower, being able to wash his hair, and scrub off days worth of dirt and sweat off of his body.
And if he happened to be too forceful with the sponge, especially in places they had touched, no one was there to stop or judge him.
After stepping out of the shower and carefully toweling off the water, he put on the surprisingly soft pajamas and brushed his teeth. Then he found the comb and did his best to untangle some strands of his hair, and for a second, he almost laughed at how mundane it all felt.
If Katsuki tried hard enough, he could pretend that he was never kidnapped. That it was just a strange fever dream, and he was getting ready to go to bed at his own house.
He could pretend that his phone was in his room, Eijirou back at his own home, patiently waiting for his call.
… Stupid Eijirou, risking his life like that, and for what?
Katsuki stopped his movements, eyes slowly wandering up from the sink to the mirror.
… For you, you absolute idiot. To save your worthless life. Katsuki thought, wondering if Eijirou would have done the same for their other classmates.
But of course he would, what kind of question was that?
Katsuki sighed, knowing damn well it was just hopeful thinking, and since he didn’t have anything else to do in the bathroom, he stepped through the door and looked around.
A closet, a small table with a single chair, a window with a bed and a nightstand right next to it, a heart rate monitor, and a hook for an IV drip.
Were they going to use that on him? He wasn’t scared of needles, but he wasn’t sure if he trusted that thing.
Or anything, or anyone here.
A knock on the door, as gentle as it was, startled him enough to tense up, panic raising.
What kind of a reaction was that? Katsuki thought to himself, disappointed in his own actions.
“May I come in, Katsuki?”
Katsuki? He grimaced at the sound of his given name in the voice of a stranger.
“Yeah.” He said as he turned to face the door which opened, and slowly, a tall cyclops with a clock instead of an iris approached him, the nurse right behind.
“I know you don’t remember me,” the woman with orange hair and skin towered over him, “but it’s very nice to see you again.” She smiled at him, like she’s known him her whole life.
___
Katame Iryo was the name of the doctor who was carefully taking care of Katsuki’s wounds.
First was the quick cleaning and bandaging of his hand, gentle, but thorough in making sure that infection hadn't set in. His arms were checked for minor lacerations and any defensive bruising that might need attention. Katame noticed an incision mark after a needle, but since Katsuki didn't remember anyone injecting him with anything, she assured him there probably wasn't anything to worry about. After that, his torso was given a once-over, a bruise on his side that he didn't remember getting was poked at briefly, and it was determined that nothing was broken.
The whole time she was doing this, Doctor Katame explained that she was initially the doctor who treated him after his accident as a child, and the one who suggested he might have prosopagnosia.
Katsuki knew that his neck would be the next item on the doctor's checklist, and even though he felt like he could trust her - hell, she was already leagues above the last supposedly decent medical professional he had seen - well… She was right about him not remembering her.
He told her as much as she gently tilted his chin upward, and she seemed to pick up on the nervousness in his eyes.
“You were just four, after all...” Her eye narrowed as the tone in her voice changed ever so slightly towards the end of her statement. To his displeasure, Katsuki knew that she likely recognized the shape of the mark. "I'm going to have to clean this, Katsuki. Is that alright, or should I walk you through how to do it yourself?"
"I was four and a half then." He responded, and he knew he sounded like a petulant child. Probably looked like one, too, when he turned his head so that he wouldn't have to look her in the eye, crossing his arms and grumbling. "I'm not anymore. Just get it done with."
Doctor Katame hummed in what sounded suspiciously like amusement, and prepared a new disinfectant-soaked cloth. Katsuki tensed as her large hand got closer to his neck, and he could feel his breathing quicken despite how hard he tried to control it.
So pathetic...
Thankfully, the cyclops didn't address it, at least, not verbally. Her hand went to his shoulder, rather than his neck, and she tilted her own head, as though analysing the severity of the wound.
"I'm going to start at the side of your neck, just under your left ear, and then I'm going to move towards the center, under your chin.” She started explaining, and Katsuki was mildly grateful for that. “I'll move slowly to make sure I don't aggravate the wound further or cause any additional tearing. Let me know if I'm causing any discomfort or using too much pressure, alright?" Her voice was patient, and kind, though it took on an almost playful tone when he sneered, and she interrupted his snappish reply, "I'd ask the same of any of my patients, even the Pro-Heroes. The neck is a very sensitive area, and with a wound like this one, it can be very easy to cause damage." She turned his head gently so that he was looking at her again. "I do not wish to cause you harm, Katsuki, I only want to make sure that this injury of yours can heal as quickly as possible, and with as little scarring as possible. But I need your help to do that. Can you help me make sure I'm not hurting you?"
Katsuki took a deep breath, and Doctor Katame waited patiently as he took a few seconds to even out his breathing, then he nodded and closed his eyes. The cloth was cold, and the disinfectant stung a bit at first, but it must have had something in it to negate that, because not even a full second later, it was just a soothing coolness.
As promised, the swipes of the cloth were slow and deliberate. The hands holding it were practiced enough in their carefulness that Katsuki believed that the doctor had been telling the truth when she had said that he wasn't getting special treatment just because he was acting like a stupid scared little kid.
The cloth moved closer to his Adam's apple, and he tensed instinctively, but then the cloth was gone entirely. He dared a glance at Doctor Katame who was just humming innocently as she prepared a new cloth. His muscles had relaxed by the time she finished prepping it, and if her movements seemed gentler than before, well, that was just because she was cleaning the patch he had picked at earlier, right?
When the cleaning was done, she had him tilt his head back to look at the ceiling while she sprayed something on the wound out of a small, blue bottle.
"This will keep the outer layer of skin from drying out and cracking or causing bleeding, as well as helping to keep bad bacteria from getting in," she explained as she sprayed, using one of her large hands to keep the liquid from getting on his actual face. "Okay. Now we have to apply a bandage. Do you think you're-"
"Cut the crap and just get it over with," he snapped, in place of saying 'Thank you for letting me take all of this at my own pace' . Doctor Katame seemed to understand what he meant, though.
Or maybe she was just sick of his crap and wanted this over with as quickly as she could, so she could drop the 'I care about this shitty kid' act and move on with her life.
The bandaging… actually went really well. Maybe it was thanks to the carefulness of the doctor, or the softness of the bandages themselves, or maybe that disinfectant stuff had something in it to slightly numb the area. Either way, he barely even tensed up with the first pass of the gauze, and the second and third were a piece of cake.
After everything was securely in place, Doctor Katame walked Katsuki through the process of getting his blood drawn for testing as she tied a length of latex around his bicep and wiped his forearm down with an alcohol wipe.
It only took a couple seconds, and when she was done, she straightened her back and carefully placed the syringe on the tray that the nurse was holding.
Katsuki glanced warily at the man, knowing that Doctor Katame was likely going to want to discuss his… condition now that he'd been patched up, but it wasn't like he could tell anybody about it, right? Confidentiality and all that.
His gaze was drawn away as the doctor instructed him to hold a patch of gauze over the spot where the needle had been, and she chuckled in amusement as she cleared off the little cart she had wheeled over, throwing open items away into a red box on the wall and putting unopened items back where they belonged in the little drawers.
"What's so funny?" He demanded, his tone unintentionally aggressive.
"Oh, nothing," she mused, "I just recalled that you had called me 'Clock Doc' at one point. It was rather cute."
Katsuki clenched his jaw, quickly drawing air in through his nose as he tried his best not to start laughing, his face turning red from embarrassment, even if he didn’t remember that at all. It seemed that she purposely turned to the nurse who didn’t even try to hide his amusement, and told him to run some tests on the blood sample.
By the time she turned to Katsuki, he had managed to get rid of the stupid smile trying to force its way onto his face.
“How are you feeling?” She fished something out of her pocket, then took the gauze away and placed a Miruko themed band aid where she drew the blood from.
Katsuki looked to the side, at the nurse in the corner of the room, standing by some strange machine that he could only assume was just there to test his blood.
"Physically, I mean." Katame specified before leaning down towards him and whispering, "Don't worry about him, that's my personal assistant nurse and my husband."
Katsuki blinked, surprised. He glanced at the nurse and back at Katame.
How could someone as normal as that guy score someone like her?
… Did it mean he had a chance with Eijirou?
No, stop, focus. Don’t waste her time!
At least it looked like he was thinking about the answer to her question, instead of wondering about his nonexistent love life.
But when it came to his physical state… There wasn’t much to hide.
“Tired, hungry, weak.” Stupid for letting them get to me.
“You didn’t eat anything they tried to give you, correct?” She asked as she turned on the heart rate monitor.
“No... “
“Understandable, really.” Katame disinfected the chest straps before turning to him. “Lower your collar a bit, please.”
Katsuki hesitated long enough for her to notice.
“Don’t worry, those are just for today, maybe the night, too. We just want to be sure we keep an eye on you at all times.” She blinked, but Katsuki was 100% sure it was supposed to be a wink and that made him snort, the stupid joke helping him relax.
With a little bit of hesitation, he slowly lowered the collar of his shirt and tensed up when the doctor’s cold, gloved hand touched his skin, putting the two chest straps in their place.
Funny how he always imagined that there would be wires, but no. Just the straps and a monitor that any second now would start showing his heart rate.
“... Are you going to check if they injected something?” Katsuki asked, searching for a distraction he could focus on instead.
“You mean the blood sample? Yes, that, and some other tests; sugar level, amount of white blood cells, blood ketone. It’ll also help me determine what to put in your IV and what sort of food you should be consuming for the next few days, so that your stomach doesn’t get overwhelmed.” She explained, and to Katsuki’s relief, it sounded like she was being completely honest. “Now, you need to know something.” Katame’s tone became serious all of a sudden and Katsuki didn’t like it in the slightest.
The heart rate monitor immediately picked up on his anxiety. Even if it was only a slight change, it started beeping faster, and Katsuki glared at it, making Katame giggle.
“Anyway…” The doctor cleared her throat, bringing Katsuki’s attention back to her. “The truth is, it’s no coincidence that I’m here.”
Katsuki squinted at her, while she moved the chair that was near the table closer to his bed and sat down on it.
“I have my private clinic, back in Musutafu, but I do get called a lot to bigger hospitals in order to tend to patients who go there after something… unusual happened to them.” Her eye opened wide, taking more than half the space of her face, the clock in it getting larger and the time changing to what Katsuki could only assume was the current one. “My quirk allows me to look into the last several hours of such patient’s past.” She explained, blinking her eye back into normalcy while relaxing in her seat.
“... You’re gonna use it on me?” Katsuki asked, feeling like an idiot the second that question left his mouth, because why else would she be called here?
“Yes, but only with your consent.”
Katsuki fiddled with the hem of his shirt, wondering if he wanted this sort of quirk to be used on him, while Katame stood up and walked over to the nurse who called her over.
Why did she even need to use it on him?
Who called her here to do it?
“Alright, just as I was thinking,” Katame came back to him, her husband looking tiny when he stood right next to her. He was holding an IV bag with some fluid and Katsuki quickly realized it was for him. “Your glucose is too low, ketone too high, I won’t bore you with details, but the most important thing,” she secured the bag on the IV pole, “you weren’t drugged with anything.”
Katsuki nodded, realizing that too much time had probably passed since Hagakure made him inhale chloroform, thus why the test didn’t detect it. For a second he wondered whether he should tell her about that or not, but before he could make up his mind, the IV needle was inserted into his arm. Honestly, it amazed him that someone with hands that huge could be so precise and delicate that he almost didn’t feel a thing.
“There, hydration and nutrition.” Katame announced, again with a blink of an eye that was probably a wink. “Today you need to stick to bland foods, so we’ll probably feed you some toast, noodles with broth and lots of water.” As she was speaking, the nurse wrote everything down.
“Why do you need to know what happened there?” Katsuki blurted out before she could say anything else, causing them all to tense up for a moment.
“Well…” She sat down on the chair once again, glancing once at the nurse who seemingly understood the signal as his cue to leave, as he quickly turned and went out the door.
Well, that was concerning. Katsuki thought and immediately wanted to punch the heart rate monitor.
“I personally have no interest in what happened there... Maybe aside from knowing how to help you.” She crossed her arms over her chest as she leaned on the back of the chair, making it creak under her. “There’s this detective, Tsukauchi. He wants to know first hand what kind of an enemy All For One is, and while All Might and other heroes are right there-” For a split second it seemed like she was about to lose her cool, her fists clenching, but she quickly took a deep breath and relaxed enough to continue. “He seems adamant on getting your statement. Both on the whole kidnapping, what happened there to you, any and all information on the League, and the fight between All Might and All For One.”
Katsuki clenched his fists on the duvet as he frowned at the thought of having to tell someone about all that happened.
“Then why does he need to know about all this?” Katsuki asked with more spite than was necessary.
“To press more charges, depending on what they did? Maybe to confirm the identities of the kidnappers, or maybe to know more about their quirks, you name it.” Katame shrugged, clearly unhappy about the situation. “He’s one of the regulars who call me to the various victims. I only agree on a condition that I get to give them proper medical treatment first.”
“So he needs you specifically to see the fight himself?”
“Yes,” Katame nodded, “but he will definitely see some things that happened before and after that.”
Something buzzed in her pocket and she pulled out a pager and frowned at the message.
“My husband says that Tsukauchi is here.” She stood up, muttering quiet curses to herself.
“... You don’t seem to like him that much.” Katsuki commented, a little bit afraid of what the man was like if he was able to push the doctor’s buttons like that.
“What? No, I like him.” She stated honestly, and to his surprise, she seemed shocked that Katsuki would assume such a thing. “I just don’t want things to get out of hand because of his devotion to finishing this case as quickly as possible, and honestly, thank God my quirk doesn’t work on those who passed away, because I would not catch a break from this man.” She rolled her eye and quickly walked over to the door, as if getting ready to open it as soon as there was a knock. “Not to mention the damn trauma of going through those final moments...” Katame sighed as she leaned towards the door, listening for the footsteps.
“... Did you tell him about my face blindness?” Katsuki asked nervously after a few seconds of silence.
“No, and I won’t.” She quickly assured, sending him a smile over her shoulder. “If there’s a need for explanations, I’ll think of something.”
Katsuki sighed with relief, and then right on cue, someone knocked a few times, Katame immediately opening the door and greeting the man who Katsuki assumed was the expected detective.
And God, if he didn’t look like the most basic extra character.
The man couldn’t be more plain, even if he tried, and there was no way Katsuki would ever recognize him on the street.
“Good to see you, Katame.” He greeted, taking off his hat.
“Doctor Katame, my dear detective.” She answered with a sly smile as they exchanged a handshake.
“Of course!” The man laughed, as if a slightly threatening tone meant nothing to him. “And nice to finally meet you personally, Bakugou. My name is Tsukauchi Naomasa.” The detective introduced himself as he approached and let himself sit down on the chair.
Katsuki glanced at Katame, who seemed slightly annoyed at the man taking her seat without asking first.
“As Doctor Katame probably already told you-”
“Of course I told him.” She cut in, rolling her eye. “We’ve had this conversation before, I never did and I will not keep my patients in the dark.”
“I know, I know.”
“Ever.”
“... I know.” Tsukauchi cleared his throat before he placed his briefcase on the small table. “Anyway, as you are already aware,” he sent a glare towards Katame who just squinted at him with a pout, “I’m here to get your statement regarding your kidnapping and to see the last few hours of the events you went through.” He finished as he took out a thick folder and a simple voice recorder.
With one press of a button, he turned on the recorder and placed it on the table.
“Detective Tsukauchi Naomasa, case 21-19-20-1-11. About to see the memories of the rescued victim, Bakugou Katsuki, with assistance of the registered case consultant, Doctor Katame Iryo.”
Katsuki’s chest tightened with anxiety, his heart beating fast, which didn’t go unnoticed by the heart rate monitor. Katame was quickly at his side, saying that he won’t even feel a thing.
“You won’t be reliving those memories.” She assured, but it wasn’t nearly enough to help him calm down.
“But it’s all- what about my thoughts?” He whispered, not wanting the recorder to pick up on his question. “What I felt, the pain-”
“No thoughts, no pain. Only what you’ve seen and heard.” Once again, she tried to calm him down. “The memories we’ll see will be the time period from the moment you see me activate my quirk, and then five, up to twelve hours back in time.
“I’m sorry to interrupt... but time is of the essence.” Tsukauchi said as delicately as he could, yet it still annoyed Katame.
“Few seconds won’t cost you anything.” She snapped and towered over him before she aggressively took his hand into her large one.
At this point, Katsuki had a really hard time believing that Katame actually liked this man at all.
“Do you agree for my quirk to be used on you?” She turned to him with a softer expression.
He won’t feel anything.
He won’t see anything.
He won’t be reliving anything.
And aside from a few embarrassing moments he shared with Eijirou, he had nothing to hide.
“... Yes.” Katsuki finally agreed.
“Alright, I’m gonna place my hand on your cheek, okay?” Katame asked and Katsuki nodded.
Her hand was as big as his head, but it didn’t make her touch any less delicate and careful.
“Try not to blink, and look into my eye, it’ll only take a few seconds.” She smiled one last time before her eye widened and the time on the clock in her eye changed.
He stared back at it, watching with amazement as the arms of the clock jumped rapidly back and forth, and before he knew it, both Katame and Tsukauchi gasped for air as if they had been holding their breaths for a long time.
“Jesus Christ…” Tsukauchi breathed out as he picked up the recorder and quickly went and locked himself in the bathroom, his faint voice coming out of there indicating that he was quickly recording what he’d just seen.
“It’s over?” Katsuki asked, just to be sure, and only then did he notice how tired Katame had suddenly become. “... Are you.. Okay?”
“Yes, it is.” She chuckled quietly as she sat down heavily on the chair. “And I’m fine. Thank you, Katsuki. Using it is just exhausting.” Katame took a few deep breaths before she straightened in her seat and her tired expression changed into one of worry. “I’m sorry for what happened to you.”
Katsuki’s eyes widened as he found himself dumbfounded at the sympathy the doctor was offering.
“It’s.. not a big deal…” Katsuki muttered as he looked away from her, knowing it was a lie.
“There are some therapists available here, if you have a need to speak to a professional.” As she said that in all seriousness, Katsuki’s eyes darted right back to her.
He was ready to argue, that he didn’t need to talk to anyone, what the hell are you thinking woman? Yet before he could even open his mouth, the bathroom door opened and Tsukauchi came out with a stern look.
“Bakugou…” He started, seemingly unsure what to begin with. “Listen, I trust that the answer is no, just as I saw, but,” Tsukauchi extended the hand with the recorder towards him, “Bakugou Katsuki, had you considered joining the League of Villains whilst in captivity?”
Katsuki looked at the detective with bewilderment, soul leaving his body as his chest tightened painfully.
“Why would you ask something like that?” Katsuki choked out, his voice uncharastically small and terrified. He felt like a child, but he found himself not caring. “Why would I ever do that?” He couldn’t believe what was happening, after all that, after he managed to escape-
His eyes filled with tears but he quickly blinked them away. “Fuck…”
“Tsukauchi... “ Katame sighed quietly, clearly disappointed in her friend.
“... Bakugou, I’m genuinely sorry, but I need an answer.” The man pushed.
Katsuki’s whole body tensed up as he took a deep breath through clenched teeth, holding it in for several seconds as his lungs hurt from the amount of air.
“I didn’t consider a fucking thing.” Katsuki stared at him with all the hatred his tired body could gather.
“... Of course. I’m sorry.”
If Katsuki wasn’t sitting right next to Katame, he wouldn’t hear her hateful snark of “you better be.”
“I still have another question about what I’ve seen, before I can ask for the official statement, Bakugou.” Tsukauchi added warily. Katsuki squinted at him with a frown but nodded in agreement. “The faces looked rather strange, I’m not even sure how to describe them.” He glanced at Katame for a second. “It’s never been like that when she used her quirk, so it’s not on her.”
“A lot was happening, Tsukauchi.” Katame immediately spoke up. “You can’t blame him for not caring about the faces of other people when the boy was fighting for his life.” She waved her hand dismissively as she rolled her eye.
“... Sure, let’s go with that.” It was clear that Tsukauchi still had a lot of doubts about her justification, but there wasn’t much he could do, so he turned off the voice recorder before walking up to the table and opening the thick folder. Unfortunately, the angle didn’t allow Katsuki to see what was inside. “Alright, are you ready to give your statement?” He addressed Katsuki once again, who looked at Katame.
“Can she stay?” Katsuki pointed at the doctor with his chin. She snorted, covering her mouth with her hand, while Tsukachi sighed, clearly resigned.
“Only because she already knows too much.”
“You’re the one who keeps inviting me to share people’s memories with you.” Katame argued back at him with a shrug.
The detective didn’t say anything, just sighed before he turned the voice recorder back on, introducing himself once again.
“Please, state your name.” Tsukauchi said as he held out the recorder closer to Katsuki.
“... My name is Bakugou Katsuki.”
“Are you ready to give your statement about the three nights and two days that you were being held captive?”
“I-” Katsuki hesitated.
Was he?
“Katsuki..?” Katame whispered as she looked at him with worry, but Katsuki just quickly shook his head.
“Yeah. I’m ready.”
It wasn’t like he had anything to hide.
“Could you tell me what happened during that night?”
“Which one?” The question was out before he could process it, but so much had happened every night that he had to ask.
“Let’s start with the one you were kidnapped on.”
Katsuki’s breathing quickened, the heart monitor picking up on his state immediately, that little snitch.
“We were… We were in the forest, playing a game, a courage test, I guess?” He started, not sure how important this information really was, but the detective just nodded, waiting patiently for him to continue, so Katsuki took a deep breath before he spoke again. “I was with Half- with Todoroki, and... someone from class B, but he was unconscious because of the gas, then we heard the voice of that one heroine from the Pussycats in our heads, the one with telepathy quirk-”
“Mandalay?” The detective prodded.
“Yeah…” Not that Katsuki was 100% sure, but who else could have been there with that kind of power? “She sent out the message that-” Out of nowhere, there was a lump in his throat, making him unable to talk, and the heart rate monitor started beeping rapidly.
“Take a deep breath.” Katame told him and Katsuki listened to her. “Are you sure you can continue?” She asked, but sent a glare towards the detective.
Katsuki nodded after he managed to calm down, the beeping going back to a more static rhythm.
“She sent out the message that you were the target, is that correct?” Tsukauchi provided and Katsuki couldn’t decide if he was thankful or mad about that, so he just nodded again, the detective quickly writing something down in his notebook.
“I… I got mad that she said I’m not supposed to fight and just need to go to safety, and then we encountered the first villain who was attacking us with his fucking teeth.” Katsuki grimaced as he gestured at his own jaw, remembering how he was almost impaled by the man’s teeth.
“Is that him?” Tsukauchi opened the folder and just then Katsuki realized it was full of pictures, maybe evidence documentation too. “Well?”
Katsuki stared at the picture of a man with crooked teeth, most of his face covered by a weird mask, and all he could do was nod, unsure if this actually was the same villain.
“I need a verbal confirmation.”
“... That’s him.” Katsuki decided on his answer.
“Alright, you may proceed.”
Is this really relevant?
“Then Deku-”
“Please state his name.”
“... Midoriya with- I think one of my other classmates, I don’t remember which one-” Katsuki lied, fully aware that was a terrible thing to do at the moment, but saying Octopus would just make Tsukauchi more annoyed with him. “They saved me and Todoroki by sending that Bird’s shadowy quirk after that toothy villain-”
“I need names, Bakugou, not nicknames you give each other.” The detective reminded him in a more stern tone, the beeping of the heart rate monitor picking up once again.
“Tsukauchi.” Katame warned him. “I believe we’re both fully aware which boy he’s talking about.”
“... Please, proceed.” He said as he reluctantly wrote something down.
Katsuki had to take a few deep breaths before he was able to speak again.
“They knocked the villain out and then came up with the plan on how to get me back to the campsite, and we walked together through the forest. I was in the middle of the circle they formed to.. protect me, I guess, but then there was a tap on my shoulder and I saw this- this mask. And then everything went dark.”
It was pathetic how helpless he felt at that moment. How he practically allowed this villain to capture him by taking him by surprise. What in hell made Katsuki so relaxed back then?
“Do you remember which villain it was?”
“Huh?” Katsuki blinked, suddenly brought back to reality.
“The one that made you pass out?” Tsukauchi specified.
“I wasn’t passed out, I don’t know what he did, I just know that while I was at the bar, he always had that weird mask on for some reason. Everyone there called him Mr. Compress. … I guess he compressed me?” Katsuki held his breath as Tsukauchi searched for something in the folder and wrote a note on whatever he'd found without any further question about the villain.
“Okay, what next?”
“When everything came back to normal, I was pulled through the warp before I could try and escape and then I was on the floor and-” His hand hovered over his neck.
“And?”
“There was this…” His fingertips brushed over something squeezed around his throat, hand trembling. “This... collar-” Katsuki’s voice cracked.
He had it on again.
He could feel it, and he started desperately pulling and scratching at it, trying to take it off.
How did it get there? Did they find him again? Why did he let his guard down once again?
They got to him.
They would never leave him alone now.
He would die here, choking on air and his own spit.
If he could only take off the collar, he could use his quirk and somehow make it out, just like before.
He just had to-
“Katsuki, breathe!”
Someone was holding him by his wrists, and when he finally took a deep breath, he realized he was still in the hospital room, with Katame and that detective, the rapid beeping of the heart rate monitor deafening.
He looked at his hands, both still trembling. The bandage that Katame so carefully put on his neck earlier was in one of them, clutched so tightly, his knuckles were white.
“Bakugou-”
“Out, Tsukauchi.” Katame spoke in a cold tone without sparing him a glance as she loosened her grip on Katsuki’s wrists, once she was sure he wouldn’t hurt himself.
Without a word, the detective left after collecting his things.
“Are you okay, Katsuki?” Katame asked as she gently pried his hand open to take the bandage away.
“I- I don’t know what happened.” He looked away, wiping off the tears that streamed down his face.
To say that he was embarrassed by his reaction would be an understatement.
“It’s okay. He won’t bother you for now.” She threw away the torn bandage and reached towards him. “Please, tilt your head back.”
Katsuki’s heart started beating faster, his body tensing up, but he did as he was told.
“You scratched your neck a bit, I’ll go grab some fresh gauze, bandages and hydrogen dioxide.” She commented, more to herself, than to him and went out the door, as if she couldn’t just send a message to the nurse. Or use the stuff from the first aid kit that was on the wall.
She must have thought that he was crazy, for acting like that because of a simple question.
Katsuki swallowed a lump in his throat, before he went to touch his neck, at least tried to, because his hand froze half way there.
What was stopping him?
Was he afraid of pain? Maybe he just simply didn’t want to make things worse than they already were?
He didn’t get much time to wonder about it, as he heard arguing outside the door. Not being able to understand much, he slowly got out of bed, but half way through the room he realized that the IV pole was locked in place.
Katsuki made a mental note to later ask Katame how to unsecure it, so he’d be able to walk around.
“Tell me how that was really necessary?!” Katame’s voice, even though muffled through the door, was still loud enough for Katsuki to hear clearly.
“Without his testimony, we can’t press charges for the kidnapping!” The detective, Katsuki assumed, yelled back at Katame.
“Those are villains! Straight up murderers, do you really think a kidnapping charge will make a huge difference in their sentence?”
“Katame-”
“It’s Doctor Katame to you!”
“... Doctor, listen. The press…” The rest was too quiet, and since Katsuki was practically bound to his corner of the room, he couldn’t walk up to the door to make out the words.
What about the press?
Were they still waiting outside?
For all he knew, they still wanted to ask their stupid inquieries, and somehow his testimony was of interest to them.
Well, he could easily assume that it would answer a lot of their questions.
The thing was, Katsuki wanted to be left alone. He didn’t want to answer any questions, didn’t want to talk to anyone about it all.
He just wanted to forget everything that happened, but no matter how hard he’d try to, he just knew there would always be something reminding him of the events: a pitiful look from someone, scars and wounds on his own body, stupid questions from people, and then… All Might himself.
A wave of an uncomfortable feeling that Katsuki was unable to name went through his body, making his chest ache, thousands of tiny needles stinging his heart.
… He really needed to stop thinking about it, otherwise he'd eventually lose his mind, and he wasn’t sure what would happen with him then.
Of course, it wasn’t exactly easy when he wasn’t sure if Tsukauchi would leave without getting the statement-
“Leave already, you good-for-nothing detective!” The door swung open, Katame making her way inside and immediately slamming the door behind her. “He won’t bother you, for now at least.” She stated, clearly angered, but not taking it out on him.
Well, that was his question answered.
“Why are you standing here, anyway?” She asked, crossing her arms over her chest.
Katsuki shrugged, before he made his way back to sit on his bed, “Wanted to know what you’re saying about me. Didn’t hear much, though…” He answered honestly, seeing no point in lying to her. “So, I guess he’s gone, now?”
“Yes. I think I made it pretty clear that we don’t want him here anymore.” Katame didn’t move from where she was standing near the door. “... I’m sorry for how it turned out.”
“It’s whatever.” Katsuki shrugged again, because what else was he supposed to do?
Scream at her that he felt like he was still in hell?
Katame cleared her throat and Katsuki realized she walked up closer to him.
“My husband will bring the fresh bandages and all, but for now... There’s one more thing I owe you an apology for.” She sat down on the chair to be at his eye level. “I’m sorry I recommended Doctor Akura to your parents.”
The words seemingly came out of nowhere, and Katsuki needed a solid moment to realize who she was even talking about, and since he was keeping silent, Katame must have taken it as a sign that she should continue.
“A lot of things came out, a few weeks after you ran out of his office.”
Well, he remembered that all too well.
How terrified he was of the man, how trapped he felt in that room, how painful was the hand on his shoulder, how he begged his mother not to visit him again.
“Several patients came forward and pressed charges. It turned out he was treating them more like experiments than people, especially kids.” She sighed, rubbing at her temple. “I connected the dots but never got the chance to contact your mom again, so.. I’m really sorry that you met him.”
She bowed her head, strands of hair falling onto her face.
Katsuki was unable to speak, too shocked to even move a muscle.
Someone was apologizing to him? For something that happened over a decade ago? And for something they had no control over?
“I mean, you can look into the past, not the future…” Katsuki said, chuckling awkwardly, twisting the blanket in his fist.
What the hell did he just say?
It didn’t matter, because it made her laugh.
“Oh, Katsuki…” The doctor seemingly breathed out in relief. “And, well, you’ll be happy to know that he got his medical license revoked."
Huh. That did make him happy.
Katsuki even smiled to himself. It was a barely present, small grin, but it still made him feel a bit lighter.
“Now, who’s Eijirou?”
“NO ONE?!” He yelled, straightening his back. He didn’t fail to notice her sly smile before she covered it behind her hand.
“Of course, of course... “ She nodded, but it sounded more like she was making fun of him.
Katsuki wanted to defend himself, even though he wasn’t sure from what exactly, but as he opened his mouth, the door creaked open.
A very distressed woman stood there, with her hand on the handle and an equally upset man behind her. Both of them looked like they haven't slept in several days.
Katame stood up and said something, but Katsuki didn’t dare get his eyes off of the woman, with eyes and hair so similar to his own.
“Mom…” Katsuki whispered, almost afraid that he was wrong or that this was just a dream or hallucination.
His mother didn’t say anything, just slowly walked inside, the man - his dad - right behind.
It took some effort, but Katsuki stood up as well, never breaking eye contact.
He held his breath as his mom slowly walked up to him, her face decorated by uncertain grimace.
What do I do now? Was the question Katsuki was asking himself, and could only assume his mother wondered about the same thing, as her mouth opened and closed immediately, hands awkwardly raising for a moment.
“For fuck’s sake!” His father yelled, startling both of them. “Usually neither of you shut your mouth so just- god, come here.” He moved to stand between them and wrapped them both in his arms, tears streaming from his eyes, and then onto Katsuki’s hair when he decided to bring Katsuki closer to him and bury his face there.
Katsuki’s eyes were opened wide as he stood there, speechless.
Then his mother placed her hand on his cheek, and the tenderness was unreal.
This whole situation was unreal.
And for the first time in years, Katsuki cried in front of his parents and let them embrace him.
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“There were so many damn reporters outside, the security had to let us in through the staff entrance.” His mother complained, while Katame was once again taking care of his neck.
He wasn’t really listening to his mother’s words, too overwhelmed by someone touching him again, no matter how careful that touch was. Katsuki knew that despite his instincts screaming at him to take it off right this instant, he wasn’t allowed to complain.
“What even happened to your hand, Katsuki?” Her question brought him back to earth and he went to hide his hand underneath the blanket, but she was faster, grabbing his wrist. “Damn monsters…” She cursed under her nose, rotating his hand to take a better look at it, before he snatched it away.
I’m not a monster. Katsuki thought, knowing that saying this out loud would cause her to ask unnecessary questions.
“Good thing Doctor Katame is taking care of you again.” She smiled at the woman after rolling her eyes at Katsuki’s behavior.
“It’s a pleasure.” Katame said, turning away from Katsuki as she finished the whole process.
“Did you get any sleep when you were there? You look like a corpse.” His mother commented again, as if oblivious that he wasn’t in a mood to go back to their usual bickering already.
“I wasn’t exactly on a damn vacation.” Katsuki muttered, rubbing at his tired eyes.
“Oh, for the love of-”
“We were just worried, Katsuki.” His father interjected before their argument would escalate. “Still are. I think it’d be easier for us to help you deal with everything if you could tell us what happened.” He set down a pen after signing some documents that the nurse handed him and sat down next to his wife, on a chair that was brought for him earlier.
Katsuki glanced between the two of them before he looked down at his clenched fists. He was fully aware that they were both staring at him, waiting for his little story, but all he could do was wonder what made them think that it would be easy to tell them in the first place, when he couldn’t utter a word to a fucking detective.
“If I may…” Katame towered over his parents, her smile genuine, yet her entire posture was more than intimidating. “I suggest that you avoid asking questions about what happened. Not until Katsuki is willing to speak about it at least.” Katame glanced at him, as if she wanted to add that she doubted that he’s changed his mind in the last half an hour.
His tense shoulders relaxed when his mother sighed in defeat, his father nodding apologetically to the doctor, instead of him but it had to do. And Katsuki would lie if he said that he didn’t find comfort in knowing that this meant they would leave the topic alone, for now at least.
Maybe, eventually they’d forget altogether and Katsuki would happily live his life, ignoring that anything ever happened.
“Well, then. I believe it’s time for me to leave you three alone. I’ll check on you later, Katsuki.” Katame smiled at him one last time, before bowing her head slightly towards his parents and finally leaving, her husband right behind her.
“... Are you hungry, Katsuki?” His father asked after a few moments of awkward silence, filled only with a steady beeping of the heart rate monitor.
“I’m not supposed to eat too much.” He answered shortly, which made his father leave the subject altogether, even though the answer was yes, very much, since he hadn’t eaten anything in a while.
Not that he wanted to eat.
Or deserved to.
“Maybe you’d like to drink something warm?” His mother offered with an unusually soft smile. “I saw a vending machine with hot soups.”
Was he allowed that?
Katame did say he could use more hydration.
“... Sure.” He finally gave his answer begrudgingly.
“I’ll go get it.” His father stood up, eager to get out of the room. “What do you want? Pumpkin soup, tomato?”
“... Chicken soup.” Katsuki wanted something simple, something that he wouldn’t have to overthink.
His father nodded, and after his mother said she didn’t want anything, he left.
“I was-” She started, but held her breath as she seemingly made up her mind about what to say. “I didn’t know if you were coming back.” She breathed out and Katsuki stared at her with a frown while she avoided eye contact.
What was he supposed to say to that?
‘Thanks, same.’???
And what was he getting worked up over, if he wasn’t even sure what he wanted to hear from her in the first place?
I was worried about you.
I missed you.
I love you.
I’m sorry.
It was as simple as that, and yet so difficult for either of them to say.
“It doesn’t matter anymore. I’m back.” Katsuki settled on, even though the pain in his chest only increased tenfold.
“No thanks to UA, though.” She muttered with anger, crossing her arms over her chest.
“They have nothing to do with it!” Katsuki defended immediately, even though he was painfully aware that it was because of the sports festival that the villains took notice of him.
“They’ve got more than enough! And I already talked to the principal of Shiketsu, so whether you like it or not, you’re going.” There was something akin to tribute in her voice, which only made Katsuki furious, his heart rate rising rapidly.
“You can’t do that!” His voice was weak when he tried to scream at her.
“You’re my child, of course I can!” She stood up, effectively causing Katsuki to be more distressed than he’d like to admit, but the sound of the machine he was still bound to was doing the job for him.
“What about dad?!”
“He has no say in the matter!”
“Oh, so you’re doing whatever you want?! Even though literally everyone around you wants something different?!” Katsuki wasn’t sure if he should cry or laugh, so he went for a shouting match.
Because fuck everyone else at the hospital, right?
“I’m doing this for your own safety!” She screamed right back at him. “CAN YOU TURN THIS FUCKING THING OFF!?” She slammed her hand on the heart rate monitor.
“I CAN DIE, THEN IT’LL TURN ITSELF OFF!”
Before he could process anything, Katsuki grabbed the straps on his chest and forcefully pulled them off, wincing at the stinging, even more so when he realised that his doings caused the flatline to appear and a high pitched sound resonated through the room.
“Fuck…” Katsuki sighed, realizing that this was even worse than the everpresent beeping.
He glanced at his stunned mother before he clumsily tried to put the straps back in place, to no avail.
“Could you go grab a nurse or something?” He asked, glaring at her.
“... Why would you say something like that?” His mother whispered without moving a muscle.
“What, ask for help? Fucking sorry that I can’t-”
“Not that, you stupid… God....” She sat down heavily, face in hands.
What the hell was happening?
“Oi, the hell’s wrong with you, old hag?” Katsuki reached out, but then the door swung open and four people barged in.
“Prepare the-” the tallest one, well, Doctor Katame as Katsuki quickly recognized, froze in place, the three nurses behind right with her. “What the hell happened?!” She was breathing heavily, as if she’d just ran a marathon, and Katsuki finally realized what he had done.
“... Shit.”
“Yeah, shit indeed, Katsuki!” She quickly walked up to him and carefully put the straps back on his chest with ease, the haunting pitch returning back to steady beeping, now that Katsuki had calmed down. “Care to explain why you did that?” Katame sent off the nurses and put a hand on her hip.
Katsuki stared at his mother who was looking at the doctor with a surprisingly apologetic expression.
“... It was annoyingly loud.” He settled on, clenching his fists and refusing to meet the doctor’s eye.
He could feel her questioning gaze on him, and he just knew she didn’t believe him, but then she sighed, clearly deciding to just drop the topic.
“You could have muted it, you silly goose.” She stated and pressed something on the screen, the monitor going silent.
“Goose?” Katsuki blinked at her with confusion, but she just winked at him, then smiled when his mother giggled once the joke settled.
“Oh, doctor!” Someone walked in, and Katsuki quickly realized it was his father. “What are you doing here, did I miss something?” He asked, oblivious and handed Katsuki a small warm can with chicken soup.
“Nothing important, I just forgot my pager.” Katame tapped her pocket with a smile. “Already found it, so…” She shrugged nonchalantly.
Katsuki wasn’t sure why she decided not to tell his father about what just happened, but what would she even say, if she didn’t know in the first place?
“My favorite.” She pointed at Katsuki’s lap, and once he followed he realized she meant the chicken soup. “Good for heart and stomach.” Katame nodded with a smile, already heading towards the door. “Oh, by the way,” she turned towards them, hand already on the handle. “There’s someone who wants to speak with the three of you.”
Eijirou? Katsuki almost blurted out, but then realized that he definitely wouldn’t have anything to talk about with his parents.
“Introduced himself as your homeroom teacher-”
“No way!” His mother immediately opposed, voice raised. “Absolutely no way in hell am I allowing this man anywhere near-”
“Let him in!” Katsuki yelled over her.
“No! You won’t be-”
“It’s my hospital room and I want him as my visitor!” He quickly argued, staring at his mother challengingly before looking back at Katame. “Let him in.” He repeated in all seriousness.
If there was someone who could persuade his mother, it had to be Aizawa.
“... Alright, I’ll tell him he can come here.” Katame didn’t seem fully convinced, but Katsuki’s pleading eyes must have worked, because she sighed and left the room.
“I don’t like this.” His mother spoke in a lower tone, as if she didn’t want anyone to hear her for the first time in her life.
“You don’t like a lot of things.” Katsuki rolled his eyes.
“Be nice, Katsuki.” His father reprimanded before turning to his wife, “I can’t say I’m a fan either but we can at least listen to what he has to say.”
“I didn’t care before, and I don’t care now!”
There was a knock on the door, and Katsuki hurried to let the person on the other side know that they could come in.
To his relief, it was Aizawa.
Even if he had shaved off his stubble, Katsuki quickly recognized him by his usual hero costume and the binding cloth around his neck.
That, and by the everpresent tired expression.
“Bakugou, I’m glad to see you in one piece.” Aizawa said and smiled.
Katsuki couldn’t recall a single time he’s seen his teacher smile in a way that wasn’t mocking or straight up sadistic.
Yet there it was, an image of relief.
And all it took was Katsuki getting kidnapped.
“Aizawa-sensei, I-”
“What are you doing here?” His mother interrupted as she moved to stand between the hero and Katsuki, as if she had to shield him from his own teacher.
“... First of all, I sincerely apologize for my incompetence.” Aizawa bowed. In the exact way he did when he was apologizing to that stupid crowd of journalists on TV.
And for once, Katsuki’s mother seemed at a loss of words.
“I know you want to withdraw your son from UA,” Aizawa continued, head still low, Katsuki’s parents still silent, “but even as we speak, we are doing everything we can to increase the security levels of the school. Cameras, robots put to use, Pro Heroes patrolling the grounds, day and night. And most importantly,” he finally straightened his back, “mandatory dormitories for all students.”
Katsuki’s eyes widened.
“I could move out?” He blurted out without much thought.
“What do you mean could?” His mother turned to him, eyes filled with anger. “What, is it so bad with us?”
“That’s not what I meant!”
Katsuki was planning on moving out as soon as his career as a Pro would kick off, but if he got a chance to do it sooner...
Aizawa cleared his throat, bringing their attention back to him. “All Might and I will be visiting the parents of all the students in my class tomorrow, so if you’d allow, we could then discuss Bakugou’s status at the school and the dorms-”
“Is All Might well enough to travel around like that?” His father voiced his concern, while Katsuki wanted to ask if it was necessary for the hero (retired hero?) to even be there.
“What does it matter?!” His mother raised her voice before facing the teacher once again. “You’re not coming anywhere near my house, and my son isn’t going to move into your damn dorms!”
“But I want to move to the dorms! And I still want to attend UA!”
“You’re just a child, you don’t know what you want!”
“I knew what I wanted enough to decide to be a Pro-Hero!” He spat right back at her, clenching his fists to muffle the small sparks crackling in his palms. “And I’m not a child that needs to be coddled anymore! Especially not by you!”
“What the hell is that supposed to mean?!”
“You know damn well what it means!”
“Hey now-” his father tried to interject, but it was too late, his mother was fully facing him now, shoulders tense. In the back of his mind, Katsuki came across the thought that maybe it wasn’t a great idea to have yet another screaming match in the hospital, especially with how poorly the last one went. But it was too late for him to back down without looking like a coward.
“You encouraged me to be a hero,” he had lowered his voice a little to avoid nurses running in, but his tone was still ice cold and full of malice. “You told me that I could make it if I worked hard at it. You were supposed to be supportive. No matter what! That’s what a parent should be!” He could feel tears in his eyes and his voice was shaking, but he didn’t care, he was still stubbornly going at it.
“Don’t you dare try to tell me-”
“WELL GUESS WHAT, MOM?!” He powered through, slamming his fist against the nightstand, knowing that he wouldn’t be able to make his point if she started talking over him again. “This shit happens to Pros! Being a hero isn’t about sitting around and waiting for the dangerous shit to pass, it’s about being in the middle of the dangerous shit so that you can save people who can’t save themselves!”
His mother stared him down, and Katsuki stared right back, neither of them willing to be the one to blink first. Mitsuki then took a deep breath, closed her eyes, and when she opened them, her entire posture had changed.
“You are not going to UA. As your parent I am telling you that you’ll be lucky if I enroll you in another hero school at all. And until you are an adult, that’s how it will be. End of discussion.” She turned to Aizawa, who seemed to be doing his best to not look like he had heard that entire argument. “You can leave now. I don’t know why you even bothered coming when I made it perfectly clear the last time we spoke that we didn’t have any more to say to you, but you are no longer welcome here.”
Katsuki had hoped that his teacher would defend him, would say something, anything, that would somehow magically convince his mother to let him return to UA, but to his dismay, the man simply bowed again, and turned to exit the room.
“Ah, almost forgot.” Aizawa stopped, and the hand that was reaching for the handle went into his pocket. “I believe this belongs to you.” He walked back up to Katski and handed him something.
“My phone...” Honestly, he’d forgotten all about it.
“How come you didn’t give it to us?” His mother asked, tone seething with anger and accusations.
“You wouldn’t let me speak to you.” Aizawa answered and Katsuki bit his lip in order not to start laughing at the face his mother made.
“... Thanks.” Katsuki said quietly, checking for any damage and the battery.
“Kirishima found it and gave it over to me for safekeeping.” Aizawa’s words made Katsuki’s heart skip a beat, because God damn it, what if Eijirou saw his wallpaper?
Katsuki just nodded, too embarrassed to speak, since Aizawa could have seen it as well.
“Well then.. I hope to see you again soon, Bakugou.” His teacher said, once again taking his leave.
“Don’t count on it.” His mother hissed with her arms crossed over her chest.
Katsuki sometimes wondered who was the actual child here.
Either way, Aizawa bowed to his parents one last time and left for good.
“... We should go, the visiting hours are almost over.” His father spoke, disturbing the awkward silence.
“Unless you want us to stay longer, Katsuki?” His mother asked, a complete 180 from her earlier behaviour. She even reached and placed her hand on top of his, smiling at him.
Katsuki didn’t want to be alone, but he couldn’t imagine a scenario where his parents would stay and he wouldn’t have gotten into another argument with his mother over nothing.
“You can go, I’ll manage.” It came out surprisingly calm as opposed to snappy, and thank God, because he just knew his mother would throw another tantrum over his tone or whatever.
Instead, she squeezed his hand lightly before standing up.
“We’ll pick you up tomorrow morning.” His father said with a smile and waved goodbye before he left, leaving the door ajar.
His mother stood there, staring at him as if she wanted to say something, but as she opened her mouth, she seemingly changed her mind. “See you tomorrow, baby.” She settled on, and before he could answer, she was gone.
For the first time in three days, Katsuki was finally alone.
___
Later that day, Katsuki sent a short message to his teacher, having remembered that he gave his number to all his students in case of emergencies.
Bakugou Katsuki: Visit tomorrow anyway.
Bakugou Katsuki: Please.
… This was enough of an emergency, right?
___
Katsuki was turning in the uncomfortable hospital bed, exhausted yet unable to fall asleep. He knew he was safe, knew the door was locked. After all, Katame herself had given him permission to lock it from the inside, just so he’d feel safe, but it didn’t help at all.
Whenever he would close his eyes, every little sound coming from the corridor would make them snap open right away, and he would focus on recognizing the source of any noise he would hear, vigilant, unable to relax until he determined what it was and how far away.
Just now, he concluded that someone (possibly the janitor) tripped over a bucket (hopefully filled with water).
And, well, it wasn’t like he’s had a proper sleeping schedule during those last few days.
… God, why did they make him stay the night here?
Katsuki’s sigh turned into a yawn, but he knew he wouldn’t fall asleep any time soon, so he decided to occupy himself with something, but there’s only so much one can do in a hospital room.
He looked around, eyes landing on a TV screen on a wall in a corner, but he didn’t want to risk watching some late night news, in case they were talking about All Might again.
… Or was it the time for the evening news?
What time is it, anyway? Katsuki frowned and remembered his phone on the nightstand.
Katsuki sat up on the bed as he reached for his phone, the brightness of the screen blinding him for a moment, but once he lowered it and looked at the screen once again, his heart positively melted when he saw a picture of him and Eijirou together.
Everything was so different just a few days ago…
Katsuki sighed, pressing the phone to his chest for a few moments before he finally checked what time it was: just a few minutes after 8pm.
… Eijirou would be awake, right?
He pressed his lips into a thin line as he looked for Eijirou’s contact on his phone, thumb hovering over the call button for a few moments as Katsuki wondered if it would be weird for him to call for no reason at all.
… Fuck it. He decided in an instant and tapped his screen. He barely managed to press the phone to his ear when Eijirou picked up, as if he was waiting with the phone in his hand.
“Katsuki!” There was pure excitement and happiness pouring from Eijirou’s voice and Katsuki couldn’t help but smile to himself.
“Hi, Eijirou.” Katsuki greeted, not even trying to fight the grin spreading on his face or the delight in his voice.
When was the last time he smiled like that?
“They gave you your phone back!” Eijirou exclaimed cheerfully.
“Yeah, Aizawa brought it here for me.”
“To your house?”
"No, I'm at the hospital." Katsuki corrected and took a deep breath. “He said you found it?” He asked, hoping that somehow he’d be able to figure out if Eijirou had seen his home screen or not.
“I wouldn’t say I found it, it was just lying on your futon.” Eijirou chuckled to himself, but the tone of his voice gave Katsuki no clues whatsoever. “Are you staying just until tomorrow, or longer?”
“Ah.. just until tomorrow, I hope…”
“That’s good! Otherwise you’d miss Aizawa’s home visits, though maybe that would be for the best…”
Katsuki chuckled, ignoring the tightening knot in his stomach. “Why?”
“Dunno, I feel like he’d grade me on how my room looks…” Eijirou sounded genuinely concerned.
“Your room’s great.” Katsuki said without giving his words much thought and immediately turned red. “Anyway-” he cleared his throat after his voice cracked. “The dorms, huh?”
“Oh my god, yeah!!” The enthusiasm was back, to Katsuki’s surprise. “I know it’s for our safety and all that but I am SO excited! Are you excited?”
“... Yeah…”
“... Are you?”
Yes, I just don’t know if I’m actually moving in with everyone else.
… There was no way Katsuki could tell him that.
Even though he knew Eijirou wasn’t in love with him, they were still close friends, and he was sure Eijirou wouldn’t want to hear such news, especially after a day he had.
“Yeah, I just… I’m not used to living with so many people.” He answered honestly.
“Dude, I don’t think anyone from our school is.” Eijirou laughed. “But seriously, it’ll be great to always have someone to talk to…” He sounded melancholic all of a sudden, to the point that Katsuki was genuinely worried before he remembered that Eijirou had told him a lot of times that his moms were often absent.
“Yeah, I guess.. My mother works from home while dad mostly drives to their agency, but we’re not that close anyway, so… it gets lonely, too, unless I keep myself busy.” The atmosphere between them shifted, a mutual understanding of each other’s situations obvious between them without the need to spell it out.
“Besides,” Katsuki added after a few moments of pleasant silence, “I don’t know what the living situation there will be, but I’ll take several roommates over the empty hospital room.” He chuckled over his situation.
“... You’re alone?” But Eijirou was obviously not amused by it.
“...Yeah. Safety reasons, or whatever.” Katsuki muttered before he continued in an almost embarrassed tone. "I just… I guess that’s why I called... I didn't want to be alone." He finished in a whisper as he lay back down on the bed, covering himself with the duvet, up to his chest.
"Aw man…" Eijirou sounded apologetic. "If I could, I'd go visit you right now." He said, tone just a bit shy.
"... That'd be… nice." Katsuki admitted softly. He could feel his ears turning red.
"I'm serious." Eijirou insisted, but Katsuki just knew there was a smile on his face. "I don't know if you heard, but the police officers who were… on the case, said that it'll be the safest for everyone to stay at their homes for now."
Katsuki closed his eyes as he frowned.
So now everyone was on house arrest because of him?
"Well, it’s not like my mother would have let me out anyway…" He joked, disregarding the feeling of guilt clawing at his insides, and then was happy to hear Eijirou giggle at that.
"Man, my mom was so angry at me… She was super worried, too, but I don't think I've ever seen her that mad. I kind of argued with her about me going out to… You know... " Eijirou chuckled, but there was no warmth to it that Katsuki loved so much.
I'm so sorry. I never wanted to be the cause of you arguing with your mom. He wanted to say, "I can't blame her," he stated instead.
"Yeah… you're right, I guess…" There was clear sadness in his voice and Katsuki fucking hated being the cause of it. "Especially because I broke her night-vision goggles."
Wait, what?
"What goggles?" Katsuki asked, propping himself up on his elbow.
"Ah- shit."
Katsuki blinked, dumbfounded at Eijirou's reaction.
"I mean-" Eijirou stuttered before continuing quickly in one breath, "I took her goggles that she had from work actually and sometime somewhere during all the chaos and stuff I dropped them and they broke…" He finished, laughing awkwardly.
You broke those because of me.
"But don't worry about it!"
How the hell am I not supposed to worry?
“... I’m not worried.”
Why would you bullshit him like that?
“Good!” There was this strange strain to Eijirou’s voice, like he was trying his best to sound cheerful and failing miserably. “Great even!”
Stupid piece of shit, why do you have to ruin everything?
There was a long pause, awkward in a way that they hadn't experienced in a while, and Katsuki couldn't help but feel like it was just one more thing he had broken.
There was a rustling sound on Eijirou's end, most likely him moving to get more comfortable on his bed, and the sound alone made Katsuki's legs feel restless. He needed to say something.
Anything.
He needed to tell Eijirou that he wasn't going to be joining everyone in the dorms.
Just say it and be done with.
Rip it off, like a Band-Aid, and just. be. done. with. it.
"I need-"
"I wanted to-"
They laughed awkwardly after starting at the same time.
"You can go first." Eijirou said with a smile in his voice.
"Okay." Katsuki said, but as soon as the word left his mouth, everything else he wanted to say got stuck in his throat. "My-" My parents are transferring me to Shiketsu. "I mean…" Just say it. "The thing is that-" that I love you. I love you and I'm leaving and I should have told you sooner. I’m sorry.
"... Katsuki?"
God fucking damn it.
Katsuki covered his mouth as a sob threatened to leave, tears welling up in his eyes.
Eijirou saying his name with such worry and care, just because he stammered over some words, was too much, way too much. Because if he was already worried about something like that, how would he even react to Katsuki leaving?
"Are you there?" Once again, Eijirou sounded worried and Katsuki bit his tongue in order to collect his thoughts.
He quickly wiped away his tears and cleared his throat to make sure his voice wouldn't break.
"Yeah, don't worry. I just wanted to say that I need to go… to sleep, I mean." Katsuki finished awkwardly, thankful that Eijirou couldn't see his face.
"Ah, okay then..." He didn’t sound convinced.
"But before that, you can tell me what it was you wanted to say." He quickly added, just to have Eijirou with him for a few more minutes.
"Oh! Yeah, uh-" There was a prolonged silence on the other end, to the point that Katsuki could think he hung up, if it wasn't for Eijirou's breathing. "Listen, about the camp, when I told you-"
"No."
There was the deafening silence again, and Katsuki's eyes widened when he realized that he said that out loud, in less than a friendly tone.
Fuck, shit, fucking God, WHY was this his reaction?
"Ah… I'm- I’m sorry." Eijirou sounded as if he was punched and Katsuki hurried to reassure him that everything was okay.
"Eijirou, no, I'm- fuck, it's alright, I’m just-" I’m just tired of people talking about the camp and kidnapping and I just wouldn’t be able to handle you talking about the rejection right now-
"No no," Eijirou interrupted immediately. "It was- it was nothing! I'm sorry, I shouldn't have mentioned the camp, you probably never want to hear about it ever again!" He laughed, but it was an empty and forced sound, and Katsuki wanted to jump off the cliff.
"Eijirou…"
"Seriously, man! Don't worry!"
I wouldn't worry if you didn't sound so miserable. Katsuki was painfully aware that he was just as miserable as Eijirou, but what was he supposed to do?
Eijirou had enough on his plate already.
Katsuki telling him at this point would be way too much.
Not to mention pointless.
"Okay..” Katsuki breathed out. “Well… Goodnight, Eijirou."
"Goodnight, Katsuki." Eijirou whispered and just like that, Katsuki was alone again.
It was better this way.
He stared at his right hand, the same that Eijirou grabbed when he needed him most.
Just had to be.
… Right?
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Chapter 37: A gaze into the future
Summary:
Gaslight. Gatekeep. Girlboss.
Notes:
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Chapter Text
Eijirou knew he was in big trouble when he saw his mom’s car in its parking spot. This, of course, only meant one thing - she had come back earlier than expected and was fully aware of his absence.
With a pounding heart, he climbed up the stairs and straight to the door of their apartment. Just as he began to reach for the handle, the door swung open, his mom standing in the doorframe staring down at him, her tight expression a mix of anger, worry, and relief.
Eijirou swallowed nervously.
"Mom-"
"Get inside." She commanded and disappeared inside the apartment.
Eijirou took a deep breath, bracing himself for the inevitable conversation, and walked through the door. He took his time taking his shoes off and making his way down the corridor, looking for his mom. He found her sitting at the kitchen table, facing him with an angry frown. Eijirou quickly realized that she wanted him to sit down in front of her and he did so without a word.
"I'll ask just once," She started, voice cold like never before, "where the hell have you been?"
There was no way he could lie to her, he already felt like a criminal for stealing from her and sneaking out without telling anyone where he was going..
So he told her everything - from the very beginning, when he came up with the idea of rescuing Katsuki at the hospital, through stealing her night-vision goggles, launching himself and his classmates over the most dangerous villain in the country, all the way up to walking Katsuki to the closest police station.
He did his best to just stick to the facts, to not talk about how scared he was the entire time, how relieved he was that it was over.
His mom leaned back in her chair, staring up at the ceiling as she stayed silent for several moments, probably collecting her thoughts. Eijirou opened his mouth to try and explain that he just wanted to help his friend, but before any sound could come out, she looked back at him.
"How can you be so amazingly heroic yet still act like an irresponsible child?" She asked, tone resigned and tired.
"I-" Eijirou blinked at her, surprised by her words. "What do you mean-"
"Eijirou," she interrupted sternly, and a cold shiver went down his spine, "Do you have any idea what I’ve been through?"
"But I just-"
"You sneak out when I'm at work," she stood up and started pacing around the kitchen, "you steal and destroy police equipment that has to be checked out and returned- by the way, do you have any idea how much night-vision goggles cost!?" She raised her voice, throwing her hands up in the air, clearly frustrated.
Unfortunately, Eijirou knew exactly how much. He checked on the way home.
And even though Todoroki offered to pay with his father's credit card, since Eijirou couldn't tell if his friend was serious or not, he just laughed it off.
Maybe he should have accepted the offer after all.
"I can pay you back, get a part-time job…" Eijirou whispered, looking down and clenching his fists.
At least she was focusing on the goggles, and not-
"It's not about the damn goggles!" She yelled and slammed her hands on the table.
Ah.
"I'm not calling you irresponsible because of the goggles, I'm calling you irresponsible because you are a child! And you risked your life to- to what? To play a hero? It's not your time yet!" The last sentence came out sounding like a plea, rather than a demand, and when he looked up, Eijirou noticed tears welling up in her eyes. He couldn’t find it in himself to apologize again, not this time, not for this..
"But that's why I'm in UA! To be a hero, and to be a hero is to act when needed most!" Eijirou defended, angry that his mom couldn't see that. "I couldn't just stand around and do nothing!"
Not again.
"You're not a hero yet." She walked around the table and placed her hands on his cheeks. "Not yet, Eijirou, you’re still learning, you’re not there yet, and I know that when your time comes, you'll be a truly amazing hero just- just not yet, baby."
"Mom-"
"So please, no matter your intentions, or your feelings, no matter how few pro heroes are around, please don't do that ever again. I can't lose you." She whispered in the end, but when she tried to hug him, he pulled away from her and stood up.
"I- mom, I can't just stand back when someone I care about, when anyone is in danger!" Eijirou couldn't grasp why she was trying to stop him from doing something that was going to be his literal job in a few years.
He really thought that she, of all people, would understand.
"Honey, you're just fifteen." She reached out to him again, but he just stepped farther away from her.
"So what?!" Eijirou yelled and immediately regretted it, with the way his mom's eyes saddened in an instant.
She took a deep breath before she sat back down at the table and spoke again, "You'll have your entire life to be a hero." She started in a leveled tone. "It's wonderful that you saved your friend. I've told you before, you have all the best qualities to become a hero, you're smart and brave and manly," she smiled up at him, but it didn't reach her eyes, and while Eijirou knew that she was just trying to clear some of the tension in the air, he couldn't bring himself to return the gesture, "but you're just beginning to develop the skills you need to do the job right. So don't rush into this world. Not when you haven't properly started your journey."
Eijirou's eyes widened as he found himself speechless.
Her words made him realize; this entire time he was right about not being a hero, but not in the way he thought.
He wasn’t a hero, he was a hero in training.
Eijirou was still learning, that was a fact.
Everyone had to start somewhere.
His mom didn’t start out as a detective, she had to go through special training just to even be considered, and even now she still had to go through yearly classes and evaluations to continue being a detective.
His ma’ still had to watch monthly training videos and do yearly computer courses in order to make sure she knew what to do in an emergency, even if Pro Heroes were on board.
Doctors and nurses have to go through years of schooling before they can start working in a hospital, and medical technology changes so often that they probably have to learn how new things work even more often than other people.
That training and dedication made it possible for them to do what they did today. They haven’t forgotten or discarded their past selves, they’ve learned from them and used their past knowledge and experiences as the foundation to build upwards off of.
Everyone had to start somewhere, and while he wanted to think that his journey started in UA, he knew that wasn’t the case. He’d probably still be learning new things and doing new training courses long after he graduated and became a Pro.
All that made him finally realize… He shouldn’t be ashamed of who he was in middle school.
He shouldn’t hate that person.
He shouldn’t separate himself from that person.
He should treat his past self as a root to grow from and help develop his new self.
He should be… kinder to that person.
Kinder to himself.
… And while that meant accepting that he isn’t a Pro yet, and that he still needs to learn so much more before he can even make the first step towards that goal, Eijirou knew that it also meant being true to himself, and not losing any of the values that make him who he is. Even if he’s the only person who is standing up and fighting for what is right, he needs to do so for those who aren’t brave enough or strong enough to do it for themselves.
His mom was right. It was dangerous and stupid for him to have risked his life, his classmates' lives, especially without telling anyone. He had dragged them into the fight, blind and without backup, and it could have gone so, so much worse than it had. But, even though the Pros showed up despite everyone thinking they wouldn’t, no one was expecting All For One, no one was prepared for that. If they, if he hadn’t made the decision to rescue Katsuki, a lot more lives might have been lost.
"I-" Eijirou finally spoke, eyes locked on the floor. "I still think it's good that I went."
"It is." His mom agreed with him and Eijirou looked up at her, with uncertainty in his eyes. "But it was still foolish to rush into action like that." She smiled, and this time, when he saw the attempt at diffusion, he took it.
"Bet you rush into action, too…" He said with a pout, crossing his arms.
"Honey, it might be shocking, but I'm forty three." She stated with a laugh and Eijirou couldn't help but snort at that. "And I finished school ages ago."
Eijirou sighed, knowing she had a point there.
"Okay… So uhh... Don't tell ma?" He pleaded carefully, face purposely decorated by the most innocent grin he could muster.
"... Stop trying to be cute." His mom pinched his cheek before sighing, defeated. "I won't. Yet. Maybe. Just to avoid her trying to rush here from the other side of the world, since you're actually safe and back home."
"... I'm sorry." He was apologizing for making her worry more than for what he had done, but she didn't seem to think otherwise, a soft smile still present.
“We’re okay.” She assured as she reached across the table to touch his face, but before her hand reached him, their landline rang. “I wonder who that could be,” she mused as she got up to answer it.
Eijirou leaned his head back, staring up at the ceiling, but not really seeing it. Everything was okay. Katsuki was safe, the villains had been either captured or scared off, and as soon as school started up again, he could put everything he had into building himself up. He didn’t need to bury the past, he could use the lessons he had learned to be even better, for himself, and maybe even for Ka-
“Eijirou, honey, it’s for you,” his mom called out, “One of your school friends?”
Friend? Eijirou thought, confused as he made his way through the apartment. Maybe Ashido? She'd probably seen the news by now, and knowing her, she probably wanted to make a point to be the first to yell at him for going after Katsuki.
Well, he dealt with his mom, he could handle an angry classmate. He quietly thanked his mom and put the phone to his ear, ready for the worst.
"Eijirou, hi!"
He felt his whole body go cold as he recognized the voice. He was not ready for this. Not ready for him.
“No- uh, Keiichi. Uh. Hi. … Aren’t you in Europe?”
“Yeah, but your school is all over the news, man. There was some crazy fight? With a big explosion down in Kamino? I’ve been trying to call you for hours. I talked to my family, and we’re cutting the trip short. Everyone’s packed up, and we’re getting on the next available flight. I was so worried about you, Eijirou.” There was a rustling noise on the other end, and some muffled talking. It gave Eijirou’s mind a chance to catch up with everything.
Nogashira and his family were cutting their vacation short because he was worried? About him? Eijirou wasn’t sure whether to feel grateful that Nogashira cared so much, or uncomfortable that they had likely had to spend a lot of money on cancellation fees, not to mention the last minute plane tickets.
“Uh, yeah, sorry,” his mouth had finally gotten the memo that he was supposed to be having a conversation, though it still felt like his brain was made of molasses, and his mouth was full of cotton, “it’s been a really… crazy week for me. I haven’t really been paying attention to my notifications…” He pulled his phone out of his pocket and glanced down at the dark screen, “I guess I must have just turned it off at some point and forgot to turn it back on.”
“That’s fine, Eijirou. I was just really worried when I couldn’t get ahold of you. Are you able to turn it back on now? I want to see you, to see that you’re alright, could we maybe do a video call?”
Numbly, Eijirou agreed, but after a solid minute of frustratedly pressing down on the button, then checking to make sure it was the right button and holding it down again, he realized that it had died at some point.
Why did he feel relieved about that?
“Sorry, Keiichi, it looks like I need to charge it. We’ll have to video call some other time.”
“Oh, you can use my laptop, Eijirou,” his mom called over as she walked past, “You should still have your Skype profile on it.”
He thanked his mom, holding back the groan of frustration that he wanted very much to let out. It probably wasn’t because of Nogashira, it was probably just because he was feeling burnt out from the events of the evening. He could handle a quick video call with an old friend. Especially one that was worried about his well being.
With a quick goodbye and a promise to Skype him as soon as he got logged in to the laptop, he placed the home phone back into its cradle, next to the answering machine on the kitchen counter. Eijirou grabbed his mom’s laptop, booting it up and logging in as he walked to his bedroom. Nogashira must have been waiting for him to come online, because he hadn’t even made it out of the living room before the incoming video call was filling up his screen.
He still wasn’t sure that he actually wanted to see Nogashira, or anyone really, right now, but he had already agreed, and it would be rude to just not answer. Besides, if the conversation got too uncomfortable for him, he could always just make up an excuse and hang up.
He answered the call.
"Good to see you!" Nogashira smiled at him from the screen. He looked like he was alone in a hotel room, sitting with his back against the headboard. “We haven’t talked in a while. I mean, I know that you said it’s been a rough week, but still.”
"Yeah, I uh… I've been busy…" Eijirou chuckled and glanced at his mom who was looking at him with a raised eyebrow and making a shooing motion with her hands, a small teasing smile on her face. He sighed, knowing that it was rude to both parties to be on a video call with someone else in the room, even though he suddenly didn’t really feel like being alone… “Uh, wait a sec.” He made his way into his bedroom, his heart pounding just as hard as it was before he had launched himself into the sky earlier that night, except he knew that there wasn’t going to be that wave of cool relief flooding through him this time, like he had felt when Katsuki had grabbed his hand.
As he settled down onto his bed, Nogashira barked out a laugh.
“God, I can’t believe you still have that,” he laughed, looking past Eijirou at something he was seeing on his screen, "I thought you would have grown out of that phase by now." Eijirou glanced around to see what he could possibly be talking about, and his gaze landed on the Crimson Riot fanbook sitting on his side table.
"... Phase?"
"You know, fanboying over pro heroes that have been retired for ages?" Nogashira waved his hand nonchalantly, "come on, man, I'm just teasing." He amended when he saw the displeasure on Eijirou’s face.
Why was he acting so friendly?
And why was Eijirou so sure he was just acting?
Probably because he’s always treated you like a joke, and your emotions like a toy, supplied the unhelpful, overdramatic part of his brain.
"It seems like your room still looks the same, from what I can see, though.” Nogashira drew Eijirou's attention back to him, “it's like nothing's changed, you big child."
It was said teasingly, like they were still good enough friends for that kind of joking.
Maybe… Maybe it felt like Nogashira was acting because he was, but maybe it wasn’t for the reasons Eijirou thought… Maybe Nogashira really did just want to start over fresh, and this was him trying his best to get them back to being good enough friends for that to be okay.
“Yeah,” Eijirou forced a laugh, rubbing the back of his head, “The punching bag is new though, or, at least, new to you.”
“Yeah, it is.” He agreed as Eijirou turned the laptop awkwardly to give a quick show of his room before turning it back to face himself, “But it’s all still so…” He waved his hand in a vague way that Eijirou wasn’t sure how to take, “Dorky.”
Eijirou forced another laugh, but it came out even worse than the first one, and he restrained himself from agreeing.
His stuff wasn’t dorky.
It was his.
Maybe Nogashira really was just trying to force the friendship back into place, or maybe he was trying to manipulate Eijirou all over again.
"Jokes aside.. you wanted to talk?" Nogashira’s smile softened, and he seemed to sit up a bit straighter, like he needed Eijirou to know that he had his undivided attention.
Manipulation or no, he needed to get this out. They needed to have this talk.
He swallowed the lump that had formed in his throat. "Yeah.. I uh… I guess I wanted to, uh," he chuckled nervously.
Come on, Eijirou thought to himself, tell him what Ashido helped you come up with.
"With all that happened… you know…"
"Yeah?"
Okay. Good start.
Eijirou jumped a bit as he realized that the hand he had bunched up in the fabric of those ridiculous pants, why was he still wearing those, had hardened, the sharp claws that his fingers had become shredding through the fabric and digging into his leg. He forced himself to take a deep breath, taking a moment to lean over, out of sight of the camera, and plug in the phone that Todoroki had given him before straightening back up to look at Nogashira.
"It's just that, what happened between-" God, why was he so nervous?
He knew what he wanted to say; that just Nogashira's presence was a painful reminder of his weakest moments, that he needed space, that he couldn’t handle being around him, even if it was as just friends.
"Hey…" Nogashira’s voice pulled him out of the impending spiral, and he felt himself freeze at the words that came out of the laptop’s speaker next, "are you alright?"
God, nobody asked him.
Not even his mom.
And Eijirou couldn't help but shake his head as he hid his face in the hand that wasn’t still clutching at torn fabric like it was an anchor.
“No, no I’m not. I’m sorry, N- Keiichi, I don’t think-”
“Hey, hey, it’s okay,” Nogashira was looking at him with sympathy written clearly on his face, and how could something so sincere be faked? “Listen, if you want to talk it out, I’m here, but I think maybe you just need to get some sleep, yeah? I’ll be on the first plane out of here, and we can talk about whatever you needed to talk about in person tomorrow,” he laughed again, and grinned widely up at Eijirou through the screen, “I won’t even change or unpack or anything! I’ll head right to your house, and everything will be alright, you’ll see.”
They said their goodbyes and hung up, and as Eijirou closed the laptop and placed it on his side table, right next to his Crimson Riot fanbook, he wondered if maybe everything would be alright. He had cleared the air with his mom, Katsuki was safe, his classmates were safe, school would be back in session soon, and hadn’t he just decided not to cut ties with his past self?
Nogashira was a part of that past. He needed to use this opportunity to rebuild himself as a better person, to get over his past insecurities and allow Nogashira to have the same chance as he was giving himself. The chance to be a better person, and even though it might hurt at first, so did weight lifting, and running, and math. This could help him become a stronger person, emotionally.
Eijirou leaned back, laying on his bed and contemplating the patterns in his ceiling. When he sat up again, it was not only because his stomach had reminded him that he hadn’t eaten anything since last night, or because he felt like he desperately needed a shower, it was because he had made a decision.
Nogashira had one more chance.
He could prove that he was a better person than he used to be, or he could be nothing more than a lesson learned and filed away with the rest of Eijirou’s past mistakes. He wasn’t burying his past anymore, but he wasn’t going to be walked over either.
No regrets.
Not anymore.
His stomach made a rude noise at him, and he once again remembered that he really wanted to eat something, especially now that he knew Katsuki was safe, and food would have flavor in it again. Then again, as he opened his bedroom door and the smell of smoke and sweat that was clinging to him blew back into his face with the small breeze that was created, a shower was also desperately needed.
Eijirou took the first step towards the bathroom, but he knew that if he didn't at least check up on his mom, guilt would eat him from the inside, so he headed towards her bedroom.
The bedroom door was closed, but Eijirou could hear his mom talking, probably to someone on the phone on the other side. For a second, his stomach twisted with anxiety, that she broke her promise and called his ma' right away, but then he heard her formal tone, the same kind of tone that she would use whenever someone called from work. That calmed him down enough to actually knock on the door, which opened almost immediately. His mom was talking on the phone and she gestured for him to come inside.
Eijirou made his way in and sat down on the bed, one foot under him, the other hanging just over the floor.
She sent him a look that definitely was supposed to mean something, but before Eijirou could decipher it, his mom said; "You're very welcome to visit, Aizawa-sensei."
Eijirou felt himself pale as the want to disappear into the ground, never to be found grew stronger than ever.
Aizawa?
Visiting?
Oh God, was he gonna personally expel Eijirou?
He would never see his friends again.
He would never see Katsuki again.
He knew he could convince his mom that what he did was necessary, but Aizawa?
The man who expelled an entire class before, with no trouble?
"Oh my God, baby, breathe." His mom laughed as she placed a careful hand on his cheek.
Eijirou realized that she had ended the call and was sitting next to him.
"Ye-yeah, okay, I'm breathing." Eijirou stuttered as he took a few quick breaths.
"Listen, your teacher didn't say anything but I'm sure he knows about your little adventure." His mom said in all seriousness and he just knew this was over- "don't panic, honey."
"I'm not!" Eijirou yelled defensively, very much panicked.
His mom sighed as she pulled him into a hug.
"Mom-"
"He won't be expelling you." She interrupted, gently petting his hair. "He said he'd like to visit in the afternoon to discuss the new UA dormitories, or the Heights Alliance, which is apparently what they’ve decided to call it, for whatever reason, and-"
"Wait, wait, no, wait-" Eijirou quickly pulled away with wide eyes. "Dorms?"
"Yes, they're-"
"I would live with my classmates?" He interrupted again, excitement slowly replacing all the fears he had.
"I don't-"
"WILL I HAVE A ROOMMATE?!"
"I DON'T KNOW!" His mom finally got through to him, seemingly fighting off a grin and trying to stay serious. "Aizawa will explain it all when he visits us tomorrow."
Eijirou was practically vibrating from excitement, and even though he was terrified by the idea of his potentially angered teacher visiting, he still couldn't wait to find out more.
"He also said that it'll be safest for you to stay at home for the next few days, apparently the police investigators suggested that all UA students might be targeted, both by villains and the damn paparazzi." She rolled her eyes, clearly annoyed.
Yeah… Eijirou could understand that.
"So.." He started quietly, "What happened to them? The villains who kidnapped Katsuki, I mean." It was still strange to say it out loud, kidnapped. It didn’t seem real, but that’s exactly what had happened. He never would have imagined that it could happen to someone so close to him.
"Most were captured, I'm not sure which ones though." She answered simply, and Eijirou was more than sure that she had no intention of checking at all, at least not right now.
He'd have to check later himself.
"... So you'd be okay with me moving to a dorm room?" Eijirou wanted to talk about something that was currently the highlight of his week.
Not including the knowledge that Katsuki was safe and sound, of course.
"Absolutely." She smiled warmly at him as she pushed a few loose strands of his hair away from his face. "Aside from here, that would be the safest place for you to be at. And I think your grades will improve. Additionally, you won't have to travel by train every day."
"I like trains."
This made her genuinely laugh. "Well, I guess that's one downside then." She hugged him tightly, to the point that it was sort of hard to breathe, but he didn't dare to complain. "Alright, baby." She stood up, hand lightly squeezing his shoulder. "I'm gonna order us pizza, you okay with that?"
"Absolutely." He agreed immediately. "With-"
"Cheese, pepperoni, chicken and bacon. " She already knew their order by heart. The same order ma' would kill them for, because of how greasy it was, but what she doesn't see…
"Thanks, mom." Eijirou smiled at her, truly grateful that she didn't seem to be mad at him anymore.
"Of course, baby."
"... I love you." He said quietly and was greeted with an even warmer smile from her.
"I love you so much more!" She leaned down and kissed him on the forehead.
After that, Eijirou was left alone, and since he didn't have any business in his moms' bedroom, he left and headed towards the bathroom and his desperately needed shower.
Once he had scrubbed his skin raw, getting the feeling of invisible grime off of himself, he quickly redressed in some comfortable lounge clothes, and checked on the progress of his phone.
Thank god my old charger was compatible, he thought as he unplugged it and held down the power button. 46% wasn’t great, but it would be nice to be able to contact his friends and- Oh no.
He stared down in horror at the screen as countless notifications loaded, and he saw exactly how many times his mom had tried calling and texting him, a notification from Ashido catching his eye before it was quickly buried, ‘Why’s your mom asking me if I know where you are???’
Once the phone stopped buzzing and the notifications settled into little icons at the top of the screen, he was able to see that they seemed to start just an hour before he came back home and.. Damn... She was angry in some of the messages, threatening him with house arrest and calling his ma', but most of them were just her asking him to call her, or at least let her know he was safe.
The last one was just 5 minutes before he arrived home; if you don’t come back in 10 minutes, I'm filing a missing child report.
Damn it… Eijirou sighed, once again disappointed in himself, but he knew it was pointless to mention those messages to her at this point. She was in a better mood now - at least he hoped so - and he didn't want to ruin it yet again. And if she decided to bring up the messages, then he would apologize.
Again.
Yes.
This was a good solution.
Eijirou smiled pitifully at his own reasoning and thought how Katsuki would probably make fun of him for that.
Oh, I could call him and- ah.
Right.
It was sort of a habit at this point, the want to call Katsuki for no reason other than to share a stupid thought and to hear his wonderfully rough voice. He'd love to call him, to talk about the Heights Alliance and wonder if they could share a room, or at least be neighbors.
But… he was probably still at that police station… Maybe he was being interrogated or finally reuniting with his parents or something entirely else…
Eijirou flopped down on his bed.
He was quick to realize that above all, Katsuki most definitely wasn't in the mood to talk at the moment. After all that he went through, Eijirou couldn't blame him. Didn't dare to. Eijirou didn't want to cause even more problems than he already had.
Well.. since he didn't have anything else to do at the moment, Eijirou decided not to waste another second on self-pity and rushed to finally set up his accounts.
As soon as he logged into the app used for the school chat, he saw a lot of messages; personal ones, from Ashido, Sero, and Kaminari, all seemingly about how worried they were, then a growing number of messages incoming in their little group chat, as well as a few from Iida and Yaomomo, informing him that they made it home.
Then there was one from Todoroki as well, which was a surprise, and since it was just one message, Eijirou decided it'd be the best one to start with.
But of course, nothing's ever easy in his life.
Immediately after having opened the message, Eijirou choked on air when he saw a picture of Todoroki's hand holding a card that said 'Sorry for your loss' with a message underneath "it exists, we should send it to Bakugou's mom the next time something like this happens.", and Eijirou just couldn't figure out if he should laugh or cry.
Kirishima Eijirou: Todoroki, my friend, I have no idea if you're joking but if you are PLS STOP IM GONNA LOSE IT
Todoroki Shouto: gasp
Todoroki Shouto: I have another best friend
Kirishima Eijirou: B R O, NOT THE POINT!!!
Todoroki Shouto: Let's make friendship bracelets.
Yeah, he had an even harder time figuring out if Todoroki was joking through text.
Eijirou sighed with resignation. Well, it wasn't like he didn't consider Todoroki a friend, especially after what they went through together.
Kirishima Eijirou: Sure man, let's make them ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ
Todoroki Shouto: …
Todoroki Shouto: I don't actually know how to make those, I didn't think I'd get that far
Eijirou covered his mouth so as to not alarm his mom with hysterical laughter that came out of him.
Kirishima Eijirou: We'll figure something out!
Honestly, Eijirou could see himself being friends with Todoroki, even if he couldn't understand him most of the time.
In the meantime… Eijirou knew he had to talk to his close friends, but he would be lying if he said he wasn't nervous. He wasn't sure if they were going to be angry, or reprimand him, or straight up stop talking to him for doing something so dangerous.
He shook his head, trying to not let the panic get into his head.
Eijirou took a moment to collect his thoughts and tapped on the group chat with Kaminari, Sero and Ashido.
He scrolled up a bit and saw they were excitedly talking about the dorms, meaning that Aizawa had probably called their parents already.
Ah, he wanted to join in on the fun…
Was he allowed to..?
Don't doubt yourself. Eijirou quickly told himself and hurriedly tapped down the message.
Kiri: Hey guys! :'D
The chat went dead silent and Eijirou felt sick to his stomach.
He could feel the cold sweat on his back whenever he saw that one of them had started typing, only to quickly stop moments later.
But finally, after five long minutes…
Kami: dude I'm so glad you're okay
Ashido: ME TOO!!!
Ashido: gosh what were you THINKING?!
Kami: he wasn't ;;
Sero: This was too wild, even for you, man.
Kami: For real tho, I NEED to know what happened.
And Eijirou could feel the weight lift off of his heart, the wonderful relief replacing it while he started typing out everything that happened tonight.
Well, almost. He wasn't sure how he felt about telling them about how desperate he was to hold Katsuki's hand the whole time after they miraculously rescued him.
Or about the part when he had several panic attacks because he wasn't sure if Katsuki would recognize him.
Yeah, he could skip all that.
Sero: so… long story short, you're all lucky to still be alive?
Kiri: haha yeah, I guess…
Kami: bro I swear, next time I'm joining you
Kami: As stupid as it was, I'm sorry for not coming with
Sero: Kaminari…
Kami: I'm serious!
Ashido: we know
Ashido: Kirishima, I'm sorry as well
Damn, she used his full name…
Kiri: Guys, it's okay! It was your choice!
Kami: bro you were furiously seething, sorta like Bakugou
Sero: here comes the dictionary
Kami: (╯°Д°)╯︵ ┸┸
Sero: but for real, I can't say I'm as sorry as these two are, I like being alive, but I was still hella worried
Sero: I'm glad you and Bakugou are safe now
Kiri: thanks man :')
Ashido: Okay, now, the most important question
Kiri: ???
Ashido: HAVE YOU HEARD ABOUT THE DORMS????
Eijirou honestly wasn't angry at them. Maybe he was initially, but after the night he's had, he was glad that they were safe at their homes, with their families. And as he started to talk about the dorms with his friends, it almost felt like nothing happened.
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Eijirou spent the rest of his day hanging out with his mom and chatting with his friends, and being more than appreciative that they didn’t ask any questions about the night’s events. If he were to be honest, he never wanted to talk about this time ever again. He knew that at some point he’d probably have to, but for now he just wanted to rest from it all.
After a while, though, the messages in the group chat started to become less frequent, and with more time in between. Sero was the first to declare exhaustion and say goodnight, accompanied by an emoji face with z’s above it, a house emoji, and a… meter stick emoji? Oh! Probably because there wasn’t a tape dispenser one!
Ashido said she was heading to bed next, at about the same time Kaminari said that they were all old people for going to bed so early, and that they could sleep when they were dead. There was an uncomfortable period of silence in the group chat, and then his message was deleted, replaced by one stating that he was actually feeling a bit tired himself, and for everyone to have a good night in the retirement home.
Eijirou puttered around listlessly, feeling exhausted but also still pent up from the excitement of the dorm news. He found himself scrolling through articles targeted towards University students about making a limited dorm space still feel ‘yours’ and ‘like home’, and advice columns about sharing space with roommates. He also scrolled through a few of his shopping apps for things he kept seeing pop up in the articles, like desktop organizers, a label maker, and masking tape… then again, he had no idea what the living situation was going to be like in the dorms. Was he going to be sharing one big space with the whole class, or a smaller space with just a couple classmates?
Despite his eagerness to learn as much as he could about how to be a good roommate, he found that every time he switched between apps and tabs, his thumb would briefly hover over the messaging app again. A couple times, he got as far as tapping on it and pulling up his chat with Katsuki before swiping away and moving on to the next article about ‘ Number One Most Annoying Things Roommates Do That They Don’t Even Think About!!! ’.
…
He missed Katsuki.
It wouldn’t be too clingy for him to just send him a quick message, right? A quick check in to make sure he had gotten to… wherever he was going was normal, even expected! He was probably being really rude by not sending a quick, friendly message of, ‘Hey, man, how are you holding up, bro?’ ... Right?
He jumped when his phone started ringing in his hand, and answered it as soon as he saw the caller ID.
“Katsuki!” He sounded way too excited, but he was so happy about Katsuki calling him that he couldn’t bring himself to feel embarrassed about it.
“Hi, Eijirou.” Katsuki greeted, and right away Eijirou was able to tell that he was just as happy to be talking to him.
God, he couldn’t stop smiling.
“They gave you your phone back!” Eijirou exclaimed cheerfully, glad that it had made its way back to Katsuki.
“Yeah, Aizawa brought it here for me.” Katsuki explained, to no surprise.
“To your house?” Eijirou asked as a way of figuring out where Katsuki was at the moment.
"No, I'm at the hospital." Katsuki corrected and took a deep breath, “He said you found it?” He asked and a subtle blush bloomed on Eijirou’s face as he remembered that Katsuki had their picture together set as his home screen.
“I wouldn’t say I found it, it was just lying on your futon.” Eijirou chuckled to himself, hoping that his voice didn’t reveal how affected he was by it, trying to make it seem like it didn’t mean anything. “Are you staying just until tomorrow, or longer?” Maybe there was a chance for Eijirou to visit him?
“Ah.. just until tomorrow, I hope…”
Oh well, it wasn’t like he wanted Katsuki to stay at the hospital for who-knows how long.
“That’s good! Otherwise you’d miss Aizawa’s home visits, though maybe that would be for the best…”
Eijirou heard Katsuki chuckling before asking, “Why?”
“Dunno, I feel like he’d grade me on how my room looks…” Now, Eijirou wasn’t sure if Aizawa would even go to his room, but it still made him that much more nervous about the whole visit, especially with Nogashira’s comments from earlier-
“Your room’s great.” Katsuki said without missing a beat.
Eijirou’s eyes widened before a silly grin spread on his face, butterflies fluttering in his stomach.
“Anyway-” Katsuki started again before Eijirou could say anything, his voice cracking a bit. “The dorms, huh?”
“Oh my god, yeah!!” Now at least he had an excuse for acting so cheerful all of a sudden. “I know it’s for our safety and all that but I am SO excited! Are you excited?”
“... Yeah…” Katsuki breathed out after a second too long.
“... Are you?” He didn’t mean to sound so depressing out of the blue, but what was the point of it all if not for everyone to be happy about this?
The longer pause only made him that much more anxious, but at the same time Eijirou knew that Katsuki often needed a bit of time to collect his thoughts.
“Yeah, I just… I’m not used to living with so many people.” Katsuki finally answered, and Eijirou believed him.
“Dude, I don’t think anyone from our school is.” He couldn’t help but laugh. “But seriously, it’ll be great to always have someone to talk to…” Once again, his words came out more depressing than he had intended, but sometimes it would get… really lonely at this flat without his moms.
“Yeah, I guess.. My mother works from home while dad mostly drives to their agency, but we’re not that close anyway, so… it gets lonely, too, unless I keep myself busy.” The atmosphere between them shifted, a mutual understanding of each other’s situations obvious between them without the need to spell it out.
“Besides,” Katsuki added after a few moments of pleasant silence, “I don’t know what the living situation there will be, but I’ll take several roommates over the empty hospital room.” It sounded like he was amused by his situation.
“... You’re alone?” As soon as the question left his mouth, Eijirou realized how obvious the answer was.
“...Yeah. Safety reasons, or whatever.” Katsuki muttered and Eijirou’s blush returned when he heard Katsuki’s embarrassed yet soft whispering, “I just… I guess that’s why I called... I didn't want to be alone.”
Eijirou covered his red face, biting his lip to prevent a giggle from escaping his mouth. He could hear Katsuki moving on the other side, probably in the bed, and that’s why the other didn’t question his silence.
He took a second to collect himself, because despite him being ridiculously happy that Katsuki called him, it was still because Katsuki was lonely that he called in the first place.
"Aw man…" He almost apologized for the reaction that Katsuki didn’t even see. "If I could, I'd go visit you right now." Eijirou admitted shyly, fingers fiddling with the hem of his shirt.
"... That'd be… nice." Katsuki said softly, but Eijirou could tell that he wasn’t really reading into it as Eijirou would like him to.
"I'm serious." Eijirou insisted with a hopeless smile. Stupidly enough, he still hoped that Katsuki would realize what he really meant, but to no avail. "I don't know if you heard, but the police officers who were… on the case, said that it'll be the safest for everyone to stay at their homes for now."
"Well, it’s not like my mother would have let me out anyway…" Katsuki deadpanned, making Eijirou giggle.
Right. He couldn’t imagine Katsuki’s or his mom letting them out into the world right away after what happened.
"Man, my mom was so angry at me… She was super worried, too, but I don't think I've ever seen her that mad.” He was doing his best to keep the lighthearted mood. “I kind of argued with her about me going out to… You know... " Eijirou chuckled humorlessly in the end.
Why the hell did he tell Katsuki all that?
"I can't blame her," Katsuki stated without any emotion in his voice.
"Yeah… you're right, I guess…" He couldn’t keep the hurt away from his tone. What did he even expect Katsuki to say? "Especially because I broke her night-vision goggles." Eijirou added absentmindedly.
"What goggles?" Katsuki asked, more alarmed than Eijirou liked.
"Ah- shit." Now he had to explain his stupidity. "I mean-" Eijirou stuttered before continuing quickly in one breath, "I took her goggles that she had from work actually and sometime somewhere during all the chaos and stuff I dropped them and they broke…" He finished, laughing awkwardly. "But don't worry about it!" He assured, trying to convince himself that Katsuki really wouldn’t care about Eijirou’s argument with his mom, that it didn’t matter to him whether Katsuki cared-
“... I’m not worried.”
But it did matter to Eijirou and it hurt.
“Good!” Eijirou forced out and was painfully aware that his cheerful voice was strained and fake like never before. “Great even!”
Katsuki didn’t say anything, and it felt like adding salt to the injury.
Eijirou couldn’t remember the last time the atmosphere of their conversation was so… stifling.
Was it because of him?
Obviously. Provided a voice that sounded uncomfortably close to Nogashira’s.
But he just wanted Katsuki to care about him in the same way Eijirou did about him.
God, why won’t you just tell him, then? Eijirou thought as he moved on his bed to lean against the wall, legs pressed to his chest.
He needed to be honest.
Needed to finally tell Katsuki how much he loved him and then apologize for caring too much.
It was going to hurt.
And it was going to be pathetic.
But it was a fair thing to do.
He needed to tell him.
"I need-"
"I wanted to-"
They laughed awkwardly after starting at the same time.
"You can go first." Eijirou said with a smile in his voice.
"Okay." Katsuki said, confidence clear in his voice, but to Eijirou’s surprise, he quickly started stammering. "My- I mean… The thing is that-"
A long pause that came seemingly out of nowhere made him worry, especially when he heard Katsuki’s quickened breathing.
"... Katsuki?" Eijirou asked and heard a sharp intake of air that was enough to alarm him even more. "Are you there?"
On the other side, Katsuki cleared his throat and spoke up again as if nothing happened, "Yeah, don't worry. I just wanted to say that I need to go… to sleep, I mean." Katsuki finished and Eijirou wished he could see him. Just to be able to tell if he was truly fine, that there was nothing to worry about and that Eijirou was just being paranoid.
"Ah, okay then..." He was disappointed in himself for dropping the topic so quickly.
"But before that, you can tell me what it was you wanted to say." Katsuki added hurriedly, and what was probably an attempt to make Eijirou feel better, instead felt like a punch to his gut.
"Oh! Yeah, uh-"
His voice got stuck in his throat.
What was he supposed to say?
How was he supposed to even start this pointless confession?
He didn’t even manage to put his feelings into words when he wanted to tell him everything during the camp and now-
Ah .
That’s right.
He could start there.
"Listen, about the camp, when I told you-"
"No." Katsuki’s voice cut through him like a sharp blade.
The last time Katsuki used that tone was when they had their argument, shortly after Eijirou discovered that Katsuki had face blindness.
Oh god, he fucked up.
"Ah… I'm- I’m sorry." Eijirou felt himself panic, hands trembling and clammy with sweat.
"Eijirou, no, I'm- fuck, it's alright, I’m just-"
"No no," Eijirou interrupted immediately. "It was- it was nothing! I'm sorry, I shouldn't have mentioned the camp, you probably never want to hear about it ever again!" He forced out an empty laugh.
He just wanted to disappear.
"Eijirou…" Katsuki sounded apologetic and that only made him want to crawl under the surface of the earth and disappear forever that much more.
"Seriously, man! Don't worry!" God, he already sounded so miserable and pathetic and he hadn’t even managed to say anything.
All he’d done was make Katsuki worry, as if he hadn’t had enough on his plate already.
Confessing at this point would be pointless, pathetic.
Maybe even cruel, because what Katsuki needed right now was a friend, not a lovestruck idiot, and Eijirou couldn’t bear to betray him like that.
"Okay..” Katsuki breathed out. “Well… Goodnight, Eijirou." He said quietly in the end.
"Goodnight, Katsuki." Eijirou whispered and just like that, Katsuki was gone.
Eijirou put the phone down on the nightstand, just in time before his hands started shaking anew and hardening rippled through his skin.
… Did Katsuki realize what Eijirou wanted to tell him? Was this his way of rejecting him?
No. Eijirou thought, slowly shaking his head. Katsuki would tell him, in a painfully honest and direct way.
Maybe… Maybe Katsuki didn’t want anything to do with him because they saved him?
No, he wouldn’t have called in the first place…
Eijirou fiddled with his clawed fingers, slowly willing his quirk away until he could feel the soft skin again.
Maybe this really was just about the camp..?
After all, who would want to hear about a place where something so traumatizing happened to them?
Eijirou took a deep breath and reached for the phone again to message Katsuki.
Eijirou: I just wanted to apologize again for mentioning the camp
Eijirou: shit I just mentioned it again
Eijirou: I’m sorry, really
Eijirou: text me whenever!
Eijirou: only if you want to, of course
Eijirou: if not, see you at school :’)
Eijirou groaned, annoyed at his own stupidity.
He wouldn’t be surprised if he wasn’t getting any sort of answer to that, which is why he almost dropped his phone when it buzzed in his hand.
With lightning speed, Eijirou unlocked the phone, only to see that Nogashira had just messaged him.
Any and all excitement left his body.
Keiichi: we’re about to board the plane, can’t wait to see you tomorrow! <3
Eijirou grimaced before he caught himself and shook his head, probably more aggressively than he should have.
Don’t be like that. He scolded himself.
Eijirou: Great, see you tomorrow!
… He didn’t feel great.
___
“Baby, I keep telling you, you look okay!" His mom said about the fifth shirt he tried on to see if it was nice enough for Aizawa's visit.
"I can't look okay by your standards! Or mine!" Eijirou took off the black t-shirt with flame print on the sleeves and around the torso. "I have to look okay by his standards! Or- or ma's!" He was panicking at this point, he could admit that much, but as the time of Aizawa's visit was quickly approaching, and with the very real possibility of getting expelled still looming over him, despite his mom's reassurances, he couldn't calm down at all.
"Well, you could have started with that." His mom said with a roll of her eyes as she swiftly stood up from his computer chair and walked up to the open drawer where his nicer shirts were neatly folded. "Here." She turned to him and handed him a dark red polo shirt, "Not too formal, but still looks nice."
Eijirou hurriedly put it on and stood in front of a mirror.
Huh.
Yeah, this looked good enough; the dark red didn't clash with his hair, and matched nicely with his light shorts.
"Yeah… Yeah, thank you." Eijirou smiled as he grabbed his phone and headed to the bathroom. "Gonna style my hair real quick."
"Alright, baby. Do you think you could ask your friends if your teachers prefer coffee or tea?"
"Sure thing." Eijirou sent the question to the class' new group chat as he entered the bathroom.
He read the messages as they appeared while he brushed and styled his hair.
Jirou: Sensei looked like he was gonna barf the next time someone offers him something to drink
Kaminari: Someone should offer him a visit to the bathroom instead
Jirou: KFJGLIGKFNDJFJJD
Shoji: So that's why he looked more annoyed than usual when my mom gave him a cup of tea.
Uraraka: OH NOOO, SENSEI╭(;A;)╮
Ashido: Jirou, my sweetest darling, give ME the tea
Jirou: We're getting individual rooms, each dorm building will house one class
Ashido: OH MY GOSHH, AMAZING!!!!
Kami: spoilers much???
Yaomomo: Didn't Aizawa-sensei already visit you, Kaminari-san?
Kami: Well, yeah, but let the people discover this on their own ;//
Sero: we're getting our own kitchen in the Heights Alliance building (¬v¬)
Kami: HOW DARE YOUUU
Eijirou smiled at the banter.
He really missed this.
Things were really awkward at first, at least in this chat. He knew that it was because of the whole deal with Hagakure, and that no one really wanted to start a conversation about everything that happened, but then Satou had sent a picture of a cake that he baked, then Uraraka asked for the recipe and Yaomomo recommended a type of tea that she thought would go great with it, and the atmosphere improved immediately.
And no one asked about the rescue, so that was yet another plus.
The only thing Eijirou was worried about was that Katsuki didn't even open the chat, even though he knew that Aizawa had given him his phone back. He knew that Katsuki wasn't a huge fan of group chats, but before he'd at least open them, and here it was… nothing. He didn't even see Iida's first message, and Eijirou did check to make sure Katsuki was added in the first place, so it wasn't like he was being excluded or anything.
It seemed more like Katsuki was purposely avoiding the chat without being obvious about it…
Could Eijirou really blame him?
He sighed with resignation before checking his hair in the mirror.
Perfect as always, he thought, full of newfound confidence that disappeared as soon as he heard the doorbell.
Yep, gonna throw up. Eijirou was exaggerating, he knew, but the feeling only rooted itself deeper in his guts the closer he got to his mom standing by the door.
___
Eijirou got over the initial shock of seeing All Might in his… skinny version up close quicker than he anticipated. Maybe it was because he didn't really care what the hero looked like, or because he had seen it before, but he quickly realized it was more due to the fact that Aizawa-sensei had been staring daggers into him since the door opened and his mom had let both Pros inside.
Now that he was sitting opposite of them, Aizawa and All Might on the couch while Eijirou perched on a chair he had brought in from the kitchen, that gaze was even more unbearable.
"Would you like some tea? Or coffee? Maybe water?" His mom asked with a smile that Eijirou knew she was forcing to stay wide and friendly. Having known her his entire life, he could tell she was actually nervous and he couldn't blame her.
Still, he had to harden half of his face in order to keep himself from laughing when his mom offered drinks, and it actually looked like part of Aizawa's soul left his body.
"Oh, I'd love a glass of water, thank you." All Might was the one to speak up while Aizawa just sighed and nodded, agreeing to yet another drink that day.
Yes, it was very much hilarious, until Eijirou realized that he was now completely alone with the two Pros.
He swallowed nervously, gaze locked on the table. Yet again, he felt Aizawa's angry stare boring holes in him.
"Young Kirishima." But once again, All Might was the one to speak, in a serious yet gentle way.
"Yes!" Eijirou straightened up in his seat.
"Ah, no need to be so nervous!" He waved his bony hand. "I'm certain that seeing me like this will take some time to get used to, but I assure you that I'm fine, and you needn't worry about me." He said with an encouraging smile, clearly expecting Eijirou to say something.
"Yeah, well, I uh.." He trailed off. He really didn't know what to say, and it only made him look and feel that much more agitated. "I just.. I guess I hope you're not in pain? That fight looked rough, I mean…" Eijirou chuckled nervously, refusing to meet his eyes.
"Not at all, but thank you for your concern." The hero smiled once again.
And if it wasn't for Aizawa's worried glance towards All Might that lasted just half a second, Eijirou wouldn't think to doubt All Might's words.
Before he could find the courage to question the Symbol of Peace, his mom returned, carrying a tray with four glasses of water placed on it.
"Sorry for the wait!" She rushed with that too-wide smile as she placed the glasses in front of everyone.
"Thank you, Kirishima-san." Aizawa finally spoke as he reached for the glass and, without a shadow of a doubt, definitely pretended to take a sip. He sighed deeply before placing the glass down and finally addressing Eijirou. "I have no clue what made you think that going after Bakugou was a responsible or safe thing to do," ah, straight to the point, "but I want you to know that the sole fact of you surviving the whole ordeal is the only thing stopping me from expelling you on the spot."
Eijirou shivered at the thought.
"I'm- aware." He choked out, bowing his head before his teacher. "Thank you, Aizawa-sensei."
"I must say," All Might chimed in, hand on his chin in wonder, "I was pretty amazed when I saw you fly over the battlefield. And I was truly relieved when young Bakugou accepted your help." He finished with a proud smile while Aizawa sent him an unnoticed glare.
Clearly, All Might wasn't supposed to applaud them for this stunt.
Still, it felt nice to be praised by the number one hero, no matter the state he was currently in.
"If I may," his mom sounded more than serious, especially with the smile gone from her face. "Even if you did expel my son, I wouldn't blame you for it."
"Mom!?" Eijirou's head whipped towards her, hurt and disbelief mixed on his face.
"What he did," she ignored him, "despite being heroic in its own way, was still highly irresponsible, and I hope he appreciates the chance to continue his studies in UA." She stood up and bowed deeply to Aizawa and All Might. "Please, take care of him."
Eijirou stumbled to his feet and bowed as well before yelling quickly in one breath, "Yes, I'm sorry! Please, take care of me!"
"Oh no, please sit down." All Might said, surprised and slightly worried, almost apologetic in the way he raised his hands.
"Well, about the Heights Alliance." Aizawa leaned forward in his seat once they sat back down, and Eijirou was ready to hear all about his new living situation.
And Aizawa explained everything: the rooms, which they would have to themselves, and would be welcome to decorate however they wished. In addition to the school's cafeteria, there would be a kitchen for the students in each Heights Alliance building, with necessary groceries supplied by the school. The dorms were just five minutes away from the main building, and they had installed a new security system, and even an on-campus konbini for the students.
"The teachers will have their own on-campus living space as well." Aizawa finally finished his monologue, then actually took a few sips of water.
Honestly, Eijirou couldn't imagine Aizawa willingly going anywhere near their building, considering how much chaos they were constantly causing.
"Any questions?" Aizawa added, putting the glass down.
"Um.. so is it like… a long corridor with rooms on each side or..?" Eijirou asked, trying to figure out how far away his and Katsuki's rooms were going to be from each other.
"There will be a few floors, eight rooms on each one, minus the ground floor. I'm personally assigning the rooms and no," Aizawa said as soon as Eijirou opened his mouth, "I don't know who your neighbors will be, yet."
Well, if assigning rooms would look the same as assigning partners for their practical exam, Eijirou could already imagine how far away from Katsuki he was going to be.
"... Thank you, Aizawa-sensei."
"What about visiting days?" His mom asked.
"Due to safety reasons, there will be no visits allowed for the first few weeks." The teacher answered, in a surprisingly considerate tone.
"However!" All Might was quick to reassure, "Once we're sure that it's safe for everyone, the students will be allowed home visits on the weekends, same goes for all the parents visiting their children in the dormitories." He finished with a nod and a wide grin.
His mom only nodded, deep in thought as she reached to place a hand on Eijirou's shoulder.
"I'll be fine." Eijirou smiled at her as he gave her hand a reassuring squeeze.
"... I know." She smiled back before turning to Aizawa again. "Is there anything else I need to know?"
"If something new comes up, I will contact you as soon as possible." Aizawa answered simply before standing up, All Might with him. "Thank you for having us, Kirishima-san." He nodded politely. “Shall we go?” He turned to All Might who just gave him a nod.
“I’ll walk you to the door.” Eijirou offered, giving his mom a look that he hoped conveyed that he wanted to talk to his teacher alone.
“I’ll go call my partner and tell her all about the Heights Alliance, then.” She smiled at him before turning to Aizawa and All Might with a polite bow. “Thank you, once again, have a good day.”
“Goodbye, Kirishima-san.” All Might said with a wide smile and they started their short walk towards the main door.
“... Thank you for not expelling me.” Eijirou spoke quietly, fiddling with his hands as Aizawa and All Might put on their shoes.
Aizawa let out a heavy sigh. “You were really lucky.”
“I know.” Eijirou felt like throwing up.
“Don’t rush into this life, kid.” Aizawa put a hand on Eijirou’s shoulder.
“Is it okay if I…” Eijirou started when the teacher let go. “Have you visited Katsuki yet?” He asked, and he knew that the question hadn’t been expected when Aizawa’s brow raised slightly in a subtle expression of surprise.
Or maybe it was suspicion? Eijirou couldn’t tell.
“We haven’t had the chance to meet with him yet.” Aizawa answered simply and Eijirou could only nod before he composed himself and finally opened the door to let the two men out.
“Eijirou!”
He felt his whole body go cold as his eyes darted towards the sound, and he was met with the sight of Nogashira grinning at him from the stairwell.
Oh.
Right.
Nogashira had said he was going to visit today.
Eijirou tried to reign in his expression and force a smile back, but he must have taken half a second too long, because Aizawa was staring at him expectantly.
What he was expecting, Eijirou had no idea.
“Ah, hello, young man!” All Might called out with his wide smile, “You must be a friend of young Kirishima’s?”
Aizawa rolled his eyes and muttered something under his breath that sounded suspiciously like ‘ nosy bastard’ and began the trek back to the car that the two Pros had arrived in.
Nogashira had jogged over to the door by now, and was bowing politely to All Might, although it didn’t seem that he realized he was speaking to the Symbol of Peace himself, “Yes, sir! Eijirou and I go way back. We made plans for me to visit last night, if that’s still alright, Ei?”
“Yeah, absolutely!” No, please leave, I’m not ready for this after all, “If we’re all done, of course?” He turned to face the hero, silently hoping that the skeletal man would feel a sudden need to enforce a ‘no visitors’ rule.
“Yes, yes, we’ll get out of your hair now. See you at school, young Kirishima.” All Might said and without sparing Eijirou another glance, he walked away to join Aizawa.
… Well. This was awkward.
Nogashira was still standing next to him, watching his teachers get into their car and drive away, probably waiting to be invited inside, which was the last thing Eijirou realized he wanted to do.
He’d rather get on the bus and take a trip out to Kamino- Okay. Wow. Where the hell did that come from? What happened to second chances? What happened to no regrets?
“Come on in, man.” He grinned at Nogashira. “Sorry, it’s been a long week. Guess I zoned out a bit, but there’s no reason for us to be standing around out here.”
“No, not really.” His guest laughed as they headed into the apartment, “thanks for letting me come over. I was really worried about you. The flight was torture." He must have noticed Eijirou’s wince at that, because as soon as he had slipped his shoes off he was hugging Eijirou.
Which was precisely the moment that his mom walked in and Eijirou stepped away from Nogashira as if he was burned.
“Oh! Hello… Nogashira-kun, was it?” She asked and continued once Nogashira nodded, “I didn’t know you were going to be visiting today, it’s been a while since I’ve seen you around! Will you be staying long? I can make up some snacks.”
“That’d be great, mom!” Eijirou blurted out, fueled by a sudden adrenaline rush that he couldn’t explain. “We’re probably just going to be hanging out in my room for a bit…” He said with a subtle hint of disappointment in his voice, which Nogashira didn’t pick up on, yet was enough for his mom to raise a suspicious brow at him.
“Yes, thank you, Kirishima-san,” Nogashira did a polite bow before they both headed to Eijirou’s bedroom.
Nogashira walked in like he owned the place, and did a half turn to look at Eijirou’s comic shelves and the posters tacked up on his walls, letting out a low whistle and a quiet chuckle, “Wow. I know I just saw it last night, but you really haven’t changed at all, have you?”
“Sure I have, man,” Eijirou leaned into the (hopefully) playful, friendly banter, “I’m way more confident now. And I’m pretty sure I’ve changed my sheets at least once since you were last here.”
Nogashira chuckled once again, “you sure, though? A confident person wouldn’t need to constantly prove that they’re actually confident.” He mused, and Eijirou felt the all too familiar sting in his stomach.
“I’m-” Eijirou cleared his throat before forcing out a laugh. “Yeah, I’m sure, bro.”
His mom came in, then, with a plate with a few sandwich triangles on it, and a couple cans of juice for them, which they both thanked her for before she headed back out to the living room, presumably. The plate was set on his side table, and Eijirou sat on the edge of his bed, grabbing a sandwich before settling back a bit more. When he looked up, though, Nogashira wasn’t smiling anymore.
“Don’t you think it’s about time you stopped acting like a little kid?”
That cold, sinking feeling came back tenfold.
“What do you mean?” He tried to laugh it off again, tried to assume the best even as warning bells rang in the back of his mind, louder than ever before, “The sandwiches have crusts and everything!”
“You know exactly what I mean, Eijirou.” And wow, that tone got condescending real quick, didn’t it? Nogashira gestured to the room around them, “all of this… this crap. It’s kid’s stuff. A fantasy, a little kid’s dream! Do you know how few people actually have what it takes to be a Pro? Are you really still so delusional that you think you can be one of those lucky few? That’s like saying you still believe in the tooth fairy, or that the Queen of England is still alive!”
“Woah, Nogashira, slow down…” Eijirou tried to placate, “what are you talking about? I’m attending UA. I passed the entrance exams in second place, I- damn it, I’m in the top class!”
“The top class of a school that keeps getting attacked! At this rate, that school will get you killed before they realize that you aren’t hero material! Cut the crap and drop out already! Enroll in a school that will actually teach you something useful before you waste your life reaching for a goal you’ll never be able to get to!”
Eijirou didn’t respond right away. He didn’t even look up at Nogashira, keeping his gaze turned down instead, focused on not letting his hardening ripple violently through his arms like it was threatening to do.
So much for wanting to be friends again.
A gentle hand was placed on his shoulder.
“I know this is hard to hear, Eijirou, I know how long you’ve wanted this, but you’re too old to be making stupid decisions like this now.”
Yeah. He is.
“I’m just trying to help you see what’s right. It might hurt, but I’m telling you this because-”
“Don’t-” Eijirou uttered through clenched teeth.
“Because you’re my friend-” Don’t you DARE fucking say it- “and I love you.”
Eijirou’s head snapped up, hardening ripping through his body with such force that the action sounded like someone trying to bend concrete.
“Get. Out.” He glared with so much venom that it would have brought a proud tear to Katsuki’s eye.
Nogashira stumbled backwards, clearly startled, and if Eijirou’s face looked anything like how it felt, he could probably guess the cause of the flash of fear in the other boy’s eye.
“What? No, Eijirou, you’re just-”
“Do not call me that and get. OUT!” He repeated, standing up and clenching his hands into fists so that he wouldn’t be tempted to lash out physically.
“No! I’m not going to leave until you come to your senses! I know what’s best for you, Eijirou, I always have! You just need to do what I tell you!”
Eijirou was about to repeat his demand for Nogashira to leave, probably a bit louder and with considerably more swearing involved this time, when the sound of someone clearing their throat came from behind him. Both boys turned to face the door, where his mom was standing with her arms crossed in front of her.
“My son doesn’t want you here. If you don’t leave in the next ten seconds, I will arrest you for trespassing.” His mom smiled at Nogashira, a tight-lipped smile that looked more like a threat than a reassurance, and, faced with two furious Kirishimas, the boy hurried to the front door, slipped his shoes on without bothering to tie them, and left without another word.
Good riddance.
Eijirou breathed out, trying to deactivate his quirk, but he knew that until he had managed to calm down, he was stuck with a stone-hard body and claws on his hands. And yet, despite the state he was in, his mom still walked up to him and hugged him, her own arms hardened as they circled around him and Eijirou allowed himself to lean into her touch.
“... Are you okay?” She asked quietly, rocking them in a slow rhythm.
“Not really.” Eijirou answered truthfully, trying to relax enough to at least return the hug, to no avail.
“... Is this why you stopped hanging out with this boy?” She didn’t specify what she meant.
She didn’t have to, and Eijirou nodded.
“If you want to talk-”
“I know.” Eijirou interrupted, his arms finally relaxing enough to hug her back, “Thank you…”
“Of course, honey.”
Eijirou breathed out as he reminded himself that he was supposed to treat himself with more kindness, to live without regrets; and if that meant blowing up at one of the most manipulative people he’s ever had to deal with, he was more than willing to comply.
___
Eijirou was lying in his bed, relaxed after he was able to finally get rid of Nogashira, because he couldn’t find another name for what he did, as it wasn’t as gentle as letting him go like he initially intended, and not as brutal as.. well… punching him in the face.
His mom was worried, of course, but he didn’t need to say much for her to fully understand how hurt he was, back in middle school and even just a few hours ago when Nogashira arrived, and then how relieved he was when Nogashira finally left for good.
Ah, right.
Eijirou still needed to block his number.
He reached for his phone, which was charging on the nightstand, and noticed that Katsuki had sent him a message a few minutes ago.
How did I not hear it? Eijirou wondered as he tapped on the message.
It was an answer to his text from last night…
Katsuki: see you at school
The simple sentence filled Eijioru with immense joy.
Notes:
Keiichi girlbossed a little too close to the sun so fuck him :)
I REALLY thought this chapter will be 10k at most, huh? Lmfao.
I passed all my exams so I finally had time to actually work on this chapter <3 I hope that y'all enjoyed my interpretation of Eijirou's arc? I know that I always disliked it whenever people would say that Kiri hates himself from middle school kljghkldfjgh
As I said before, I'm begging for more engagement lmao
Y'all can find me here on tumblr <3
Up next; Mitsuki makes a discovery
Chapter 38: Silver lining
Summary:
It gets better before it gets worse (yes, you read that right)
Notes:
Thank you all so much for so many comments under last chapter!!! Today's chapter is shorter compared to the several previous ones, but I hope you'll enjoy it nonetheless and will share your thoughts with me after reading it anyway 💖
TW for self-harm ideation and depressive thoughts
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
There was a split second of panic when Katsuki woke up, not recognizing his surroundings - the white walls around him, the window on the opposite side of the room than he was used to seeing back at home - but after the sleep grogginess passed, he looked around and realized that he was still in the hospital room.
He rubbed his tired eyes as he slowly sat up on the bed, noticing he had kicked the duvet off of himself in his sleep. Katsuki sighed with a frown before reaching for his phone to check the time, but to his surprise, he was greeted with a few texts from Eijirou.
Right, he had muted his phone last night…
Now the question was whether or not Katsuki really wanted to read them just after waking up, because what if Eijirou was dumping him in those?
Well, friend dumping, at least.
Only one way to find out, you stupid head, Katsuki thought, and reluctantly tapped on the notification.
Eijirou: I just wanted to apologize again for mentioning the camp
Eijirou: shit I just mentioned it again
Eijirou: I’m sorry, really
Eijirou: text me whenever!
Eijirou: only if you want to, of course
Eijirou: if not, see you at school :’)
Sent just after their call.
A knot formed in Katsuki’s stomach as he remembered all the events of yesterday. He read the messages again, feeling like an idiot because of course Eijirou wanted to apologize.
He put down his phone, feeling sick all over again, not wanting to think about never seeing Eijirou, his classmates, his friends ever again, and his salvation came in the form of a knock on the door.
“Katsuki?” A familiar voice called out. “It’s Doctor Katame, are you awake?”
More than eager to occupy himself with something other than thinking, Katsuki got out of bed and hurried to unlock the door, annoyed that he had to grab the stupid IV pole and pull it along.
“Good morning,” Katsuki greeted once he saw the doctor smiling down at him.
“Hello, Katsuki. May I come in?” She asked, and made her way in only after Katsuki had stepped aside. “Did you sleep well?”
“... Good enough.” Katsuki muttered, eyeing the nurse coming in right behind her and pushing the same medical cart from yesterday.
“Are you ready for your check up?” Katame asked, playfully tapping the top of the cart.
Katsuki, hoping to be able to leave the hospital before noon, and finally go back home, nodded eagerly.
___
“Don’t skip any meals, stay hydrated, and remember to visit your school nurse regularly so that she can check on your neck and hand,” Doctor Katame said as Katsuki stood in the corridor with his father, just outside the room he’d spent the night in. He still had the bandages around his neck and hand, but while he was allowed to take the one on his hand off for good in a few hours, the one on his neck needed to stay for a while longer, and be changed regularly. Thankfully, he had been shown how to do it himself, so he didn’t need to rely on anyone else for help, or worry about them securing it too tightly. "And don’t use your quirk with your left hand for the next couple of days."
He really wasn't excited about that, changing the bandages on his own and not using his quirk to its full ability, but at least he was finally allowed to leave the hospital.
As soon as his parents got the news, they practically teleported there with a change of clothes and a large hoodie for him, so that he could leave the hospital without any journalists seeing him, since a few of them were still camping out in the front and around the facility’s other entrances and exits. They made the strategic decision for his mom to stay in the car, running and ready to go, and since his father was far less recognizable, he was the one to get Katsuki.
“Thank you for taking such good care of him, Doctor.” His father spoke with a smile, keeping a hand on Katsuki’s shoulder.
Katsuki had to fight off the urge to swat it away.
“Of course. I’m always happy to see my patient going home in better shape.” She smiled then began explaining something else to his father but Katsuki stopped listening as he realized that he was really going home.
He was going home, and was going to face the reality of being transferred to Shiketsu unless a miracle happened and Aizawa showed up and somehow convinced his mother to let him stay in this god damned school-
“Katsuki.” His father poked him on the cheek and Katsuki’s eyes snapped up to glare at him.
“What?” He hissed, probably with more venom than necessary, considering his dad’s defeated sigh.
“Doctor Katame asked you something.” He gestured with his hand at the woman who was patiently waiting for Katsuki to acknowledge her.
“It’s okay,” She assured with a nonchalant wave of her hand. “I was asking if you’d like the number of a therapist I know?”
Katsuki was, once again, taken aback by the question, because how many times was she going to suggest he needed a damn therapist? Then again, he didn’t want to be rude to her, considering that she’d done so much for him in just one day.
So, to avoid disappointing her by saying no, and to avoid ridiculing himself by saying yes, Katsuki shrugged, refusing to meet her gaze.
“If you make up your mind, just make a call.” Doctor Katame handed him her business card and without looking at it, Katsuki slipped it into the pocket of his hoodie.
Even though he had no intention of asking for more help than he had already received, he still muttered a quiet thank you, then stared at the floor for a few moments before he gathered up the courage to finally look her in the eye.
But while he was fearing judgment, he was met only with kindness, in the form of a sympathetic smile.
“I promise, she will be much better than my last recommendation.” Katame winked at him with a grin and Katsuki couldn’t help but let out a chuckle.
“Alright, are you ready?” His father didn’t acknowledge the exchange between Katsuki and the doctor, instead opting to have taken a few steps down the corridor already, and something about it rubbed Katsuki the wrong way.
“Yeah..” Katsuki breathed out and took a step towards his father before turning to face Doctor Katame one last time. “Thank you, honestly.” He forced out, and nodded as politely as he could.
“Just do one thing for me,” she approached him again and put a careful hand on his shoulder, the gesture surprisingly comforting. “Please take good care of yourself, no matter what, okay?” The request was weirdly sincere, and Katsuki found himself unable to make his usual empty shrugs and muttered whatevers.
“... I’ll try.” Katsuki forced himself to meet her eye.
In the end, she just nodded and lightly squeezed his shoulder in a reassuring way before they finally parted ways.
___
All his mother talked about on the way home was Shiketsu.
How they were going to visit the school on Monday and meet the principal. How nice Katsuki was going to look in that stupid hat that was part of the uniform. How safe it was there.
… She didn't even ask if he was alright.
But then again, even Katsuki himself didn't know the answer. All he knew was that he didn't want to go to fucking Shiketsu.
Katsuki’s stomach hurt and he wasn't sure if it was because he had only pretended to eat his breakfast at the hospital, or if it was something else entirely.
___
"Detective Naomasa got in contact with me," His mother said as she pulled into the driveway of their house, and Katsuki frowned at the mention of the man. "He said you shouldn't leave the house at all, for now at least."
Katsuki just nodded, already aware that everyone else from his class, maybe even the entire school, was on house arrest, and that it was entirely his fault.
"Are you hungry?" His father asked as they went through the door, and Katsuki inhaled the familiar smell of home, feeling like it had been ages since he’d last stepped inside.
"No, I ate something at the hospital before you arrived." Katsuki lied. He didn't have an appetite right now, feeling like he might throw up just at the thought of eating anything.
He ignored the sting of guilt he felt in the back of his mind when he thought about how he was already breaking the promise he had made to Doctor Katame.
"Do you want to watch something with us? Or just… hang out? Maybe play a boardgame?" His father offered awkwardly as he placed a hand on his back, and Katsuki noticed his mother staring at him expectantly.
Yeah, he was not in the mood for her to throw a tantrum over a +4 card.
"No, I'm tired." Katsuki answered shortly as he stepped out of his father's reach, doing his best not to blow up at his mother's disappointed sigh. "I'm going to my room…" He muttered and, without waiting for an answer from them, did just that.
Katsuki closed the door behind him and leaned against it, sighing heavily before pulling his phone out of the pocket of his hoodie to see if he’d gotten any new messages.
He frowned, disappointed, when he just saw several notifications from the class group chat. From the preview of the chat, Katsuki could see that they were talking about dorms, probably excited that they were going to live there, and he just couldn’t force himself to participate in the conversation. Aizawa’s name flashed in one of the notifications before quickly disappearing, and Katsuki wished that the teacher would at least confirm he was actually going to visit, instead of leaving him on read.
Well, it wasn't like he could actually see if the teacher had read his pathetically desperate message.
In the meantime, Katsuki checked to see if Eijirou had messaged him again, but no. He was clearly giving Katsuki space that he wasn't sure he needed, at least not from Eijirou. On the other hand, maybe it was for the best if he went no contact, without explanation? Maybe it was a dick move, to leave Eijirou in the dark like that, but Katsuki was still holding onto the sliver of hope that Aizawa would stop by and miraculously convince his mother to let him stay at UA.
Then he wouldn't have to explain himself at all.
He inhaled and exhaled slowly, trying to stay calm, before finally deciding to lying down on his bed. He noticed that one of his parents must have changed his sheets, and he wondered if they’d changed them into his favorite soft orange ones on purpose for when he came back. He could appreciate that, even if his mother was about to make every other aspect of his life miserable.
Katsuki allowed himself to ponder the idea of moving to the dorms, wondering how much freedom they would have in there, if they'd be allowed to visit their parents and vice-versa. In all honesty, he could see himself not visiting at all, but maybe if he and his mother had spent more time apart, then their reunions every once in a while would be peaceful, instead of full of yelling and snapping at each other.
When did his relationship with her turn so sour? Was it when he started attending UA, or was it bad even before that, and he just didn't notice? They weren't necessarily besties, but he felt like recently she's been out to get him in ways that would hurt the most.
Getting mad at him for not wanting to learn his classmates' names, screaming at him after that stupid fucking festival, not allowing him to go to school after that damn support gear situation, implying that Eijirou wouldn't last long as his friend, forcing him to change schools…
What did he do to deserve this?
Katsuki covered his face with his hands, but then felt the bandage rub against his skin and he frowned, annoyed. He stared at his left hand, at the fresh bandages.
Right, he was born with a ticking time bomb of a quirk.
Despite what everyone would always say, he refused to hate his quirk, but he couldn't ignore that all his problems always seemed to come down to it being as volatile as it was.
He couldn’t ignore that they all seemed to have started when it manifested and it became clear to everyone around him just how dangerously unstable it could be.
He then found himself staring at his right hand, the one that had practically caused his face blindness.
…What if he got rid of one of them?
After all, one hand gone, that's half the damage he can cause, also gone, right?
One was already damaged, the other was the cause of how his life had gone to shit along the years, and he could always learn to do stuff with just one hand, or get a prosthetic made by the Support Department. He could just tear off the bandages and use his howitzer impact. The pain would be excruciating, but that was something he deserved. He deserved the pain, and deserved to lose his quirk like that.
Maybe his life would get better, easier.
Maybe he could tell people he had lost it due to injuries that Shigaraki and the rest caused him, then no one would dare suggest that he was part of their team, that All Might was the only one who got hurt during all of this, and maybe he would be more bearable if he didn't have that much destructive power, literally at his fingertips and.. And jesus fucking christ, what was he even thinking?
Katsuki felt his breathing pick up, confusion as to where thoughts like those came from overwhelming him and causing his hands to start trembling, even more so when he realized he was still considering fucking his hand up further, using his own quirk to do so, despite knowing how crazy that was.
Was that why Katame suggested he needed to talk to a therapist? Because she somehow knew just how fucked in the brain he actually was?
He- he needed to call her.
Katsuki hastily sat up and reached into the pocket of his hoodie and pulled out the business card that Katame had given him, then grabbed his phone, ready to put in her number, but where he expected to see her contact info, he saw something entirely else.
His eyes widened as he froze and stared at the card with disbelief.
It wasn’t Katame’s business card.
It belonged to someone named Sakamoto Naomi.
What the fuck.
Katsuki stared at a finely designed card in his hand and hated himself for not checking what was on it earlier, not noticing that it didn’t belong to Katame, but some Sakamoto lady. Aside from the name, there was of course an address, a phone number and an e-mail. Katsuki slowly turned the card and finally saw who she actually was, because underneath her name was written Individual Counseling.
So she was a damn therapist.
Whatever drove him to try and reach out to Katame was gone in an instant, and left him wondering why he even wanted to call her in the first place.
Katsuki felt his anger grow, replacing the earlier anxiety as he realized she didn’t say to call her, just to ‘make a call’.
Why would Katame do that? She slipped him a business card of a fucking therapist instead of hers and Katsuki couldn't tell if it was "you're on your own" type of message, or "learn to ask for help", and he wasn’t sure which one he hated more, especially since she obviously expected him to call someone he didn’t fucking know and entrust them with his… issues or whatever.
He stood up and aggressively chucked the business card into the small trash can underneath his desk, set on forgetting about this whole ordeal, but then he remembered the promise he made.
Take care of yourself. A quiet voice murmured in the back of his mind and Katsuki groaned with annoyance. “Fucking bullshit…” He muttered under his nose and fished the card back out of the trash can, glaring at it as if it was the cause of all of his problems.
With an exasperated sigh, he placed the card between the pages of one of his notebooks.
Maybe he’d call some day, but for now, he had to wait for his teacher.
___
Two hours had passed since Katsuki had returned home, and just when he had started to worry that his teacher wouldn't come at all, as if on cue, he heard the doorbell all the way from his room, and he stumbled out the door in hopes to reach the entrance to their house before his mother. But of course, his hope was shattered as soon as he found himself at the top of the stairs and heard his mother's screech; "THE FUCK DID YOU COME HERE FOR?!" The harsh sound in the otherwise quiet house had Katsuki sprinting down the stairs, almost tripping on the way to the main door.
There was a man in a suit, shaved clean with a scar under his right eye and only thanks to the binding cloth around his neck that Katsuki was able to recognize him as Aizawa. Did he wear it on purpose? Katsuki didn’t have time to wonder about it as he had to quickly grab the door and forcefully keep it open while his mother tried to slam it in the face of his teacher.
“GO TO YOUR ROOM!” She screamed at him, then faced the hero again. “AND YOU CAN GO TO HELL!”
“NO!” Katsuki yelled over her, finally getting between her and the door so that she physically couldn’t close it anymore. “I don’t want to go to Shiketsu! Can’t you understand that I won’t be any safer there than I am in UA?!” He had actually checked, Shiketsu had about the same level of security as UA, and while he was almost certain that there wouldn’t be any traitors in there-
“What’s the difference to you, anyway?!” His mother slammed her hand against the door and behind her, Katsuki saw his father finally emerging from around the corner of the corridor, seemingly concerned by all the screaming.
“Mitsuki,” he started as he approached his wife, placing a careful hand on her shoulder. “Maybe calm down and think about-”
“Stay out of this, Masaru!” She swatted at the hand, forcing him to take a step back.
“Bakugou-san,” Aizawa finally spoke up from behind Katsuki. “I understand your concerns, but as I told you before, we’re putting every bit of care and consideration into the new security system-”
“You should have thought of that before my son was kidnapped!” She interrupted and tried to grab Katsuki by the elbow, probably to forcefully remove him from the threshold, but he was quicker and gripped at her wrist. “Let go, you damn brat-!”
“Please, listen to me!” He choked out, barely aware of the way his voice broke, more focused on his mother’s shocked face when he actually started begging. “I can’t-”
I can’t lose my friends. I can’t lose Eijirou.
But he couldn’t say that. Not to her, not to his teacher.
“I don’t-” Katsuki took in a shaky breath. “I don’t want to be in a new school, surrounded by complete strangers again!” He stared at the floor, ashamed of using his disability as an excuse like that, but it actually was something he was… afraid of. He wasn’t just scared of losing every person he’d miraculously managed to become friends with, he was scared of the new people who wouldn’t be willing to give his asshole personality the same chance that Eijirou and the others had given him. “So please, mom. Don’t make me go-”
"It's not like you remember anyone from this class anyway." She interrupted, her words harsh enough to make Katsuki let go of her wrist as his stomach dropped.
She doesn’t know. He realized as the new idea sparked hope in him.
“I remember!” Katsuki argued, but before he could utter a single name of one of his classmates, he found himself at a loss of words when he realized his mother was looking at him with disappointment and doubt.
“You don’t. You never bothered to learn them and now you won’t have to. Shiketsu it is.”
Katsuki was speechless as he finally understood that his mother had never truly believed in him.
“Bakugou.” Familiar voice called out to him and Katsuki tensed up when he felt a gentle hand on his shoulder.
Slowly, he peered over his shoulder and at the person behind him.
Right.
Aizawa.
“Before I go, I need the folder back.”
“Huh?” Katsuki’s eyes widened. He must have looked stupid, because then Aizawa sighed and leaned a bit towards him.
“The folder,” He put emphasis on the word, as if that was supposed to clear things up. “The one with the pictures of all your classmates.” Aizawa sent him a subtle yet meaningful look as he spoke.
And holy shit did Katsuki realize what he meant.
“R-right away.” He said and ran off to his room.
___
Mitsuki watched with slight suspicion as her son ran off with a slightly manic look on his face that she couldn’t quite place, before glancing back at the teacher who stood in her doorway with an unreadable expression. He dared open his mouth but Mitsuki shut him down with a simple raise of her hand, ignoring Masaru’s tired sigh behind her at the same time.
A few seconds passed before Mitsuki heard her son sprinting back with that useless folder that Katsuki had opened maybe twice.
“Finally, now give it back to him so we can get rid of-”
“This is Uraraka.” Katsuki, out of breath, interrupted her as soon as he took out a picture of some girl with brown hair and chubby cheeks. He shoved it in her hands and gave her a look of expectation, breathing heavily and waiting for her reaction.
“What..” She started, so dumbfounded that she barely registered when Masaru took the picture out of her hands and turned it to see what it said on the back.
“Uraraka Ochako.” He read out loud with a look of bewilderment.
Katsuki nodded so violently it made her wonder how his head didn’t fall off, before he reached for the next picture. “Iida, he’s our class president.” He handed her the picture with shaking hands. She felt her heart beat faster as she turned it and saw that Katsuki was right, once again.
“And this is Todoroki, the-”
“Threw-the-match kid.” She finished for him, staring at the picture of the boy who had apologized to her and helped save Katsuki later on.
“YES!” Katsuki yelled with a relieved smile before he reached for yet another picture, still breathing heavily. ”I- I don’t remember his name, but he always wears this mask and he has six arms and- and I call him Octopus but this-” he hastily took another picture out, dropping the folder in the process, “-this is the bitch that betrayed us, Hagakure.”
There was a bright flash as Katsuki blew up the picture in his right hand, which seemed to be of an invisible student, based on the fact that it was just the top half of the school uniform in the shape of a torso. The loud popping noise of his quirk startled everyone, but Katsuki had already moved on, dropping to his knees to reach for another one, and Mitsuki’s eyes widened in shock as she realized that there were more.
“Kaminari.” He showed her the picture without standing up, and she wondered if this was his way of begging her to let him stay at this fucking school. “Sero, Ashido-” he took a deep breath as he frantically looked between the pictures left on the floor before picking up one with a girl with a ponytail. “Yaomomo, her full name is too hard to memorize but I- I can still learn it! And this-” He grabbed another picture and fell silent all of a sudden, his shoulders dropping.
“... Katsuki?” She prodded carefully, and she took a step back when he stood up while still staring at the picture, like he was holding the most important picture in the world.
“And this-'' He turned the picture so she could see the person in it, “This is Kirishima Eijirou and I’m in-” Katsuki cut himself off, took a deep breath, and then slowly turned the picture to stare at it again. “He’s- … He’s my best friend.” He looked up at her. “And I can't imagine leaving him behind- leaving any of my.. my friends behind- and having to start all over again somewhere new."
Mitsuki stood there, speechless.
That was.. Nine names he knew from his class. Ten, if she counted Izuku.
He knew over half of his classmates.
And she didn’t realize.
Didn’t know.
Why didn’t he tell her sooner?
"Please, mom." Katsuki stared at her with watery eyes, desperately clutching the picture of Eijirou in his trembling hands.
What was she supposed to do?
"I-"
"Mitsuki." Masaru whispered as he put a hand on her shoulder. "We can't do this to him."
She turned her head to the side to look at her husband, and out of nowhere she realized where Katsuki got his almost-but-not-really-crying face from. Same watery eyes, same tilt of brows.
She then looked over at Aizawa, the teacher she spent so much time hating that she didn't realize that maybe, just maybe, he was helping her son. After all, when she watched the press conference and heard what he had to say about Katsuki, she couldn't help but think that this man was a good teacher who had somehow understood Katsuki like no one ever before.
Aizawa just stood there silently and they stared at each other for a few seconds before he smiled and shook his head as if he wanted to say 'It's all him, I didn't do anything'.
It was all Katsuki.
Mitsuki finally looked back at her son. She could practically see anxiety oozing out of him, how he was trying so damn hard to not let himself cry.
She swallowed a lump in her throat and coughed a bit awkwardly, to hide how she was affected by what had just happened, before she fully turned to the teacher and, with a confident hand on her hip asked him, "What does he need to pack for your stupid dorms?"
Mitsuki almost fell over when Katsuki threw himself at her, squeezing the breath out of her in a desperate hug.
"Jesus fucking-"
"Thank you." He whispered, so quietly that only she could hear him.
Her breath wavered and she quickly blinked away any tears that had appeared out of nowhere as she gave Katsuki a quick squeeze. "... Alright, that's enough." She patted him on the head before stepping away. "Clean this up," she gestured at the scattered photographs, "and you." She looked at Aizawa whose smile had disappeared by then, "Come inside. You're going to tell me all about your brand new security system." She mocked, but what she was trying to joke about, was the one thing that gave her the most anxiety at the moment, now that she knew Katsuki was going back to UA.
"Of course, just let me get All Might from the car."
"All Might's here?" Katsuki asked, weirdly unenthusiastic as he stopped gathering all the pictures in his hands.
"Yes, he wanted to make sure one of his best students would actually come back to school." Aizawa explained as a matter of fact and turned around to go to the car.
Mitsuki glanced at her son who was now frozen in place for some reason.
"Hey, brat, where did your excitement go?" She nudged him with her elbow, causing him to tense up and her own good mood quickly went to hell.
"I-” Katsuki started, glancing at her before he locked his eyes on the floor. “Could you.. could you tell me if it's really him?" Katsuki asked without looking at her, his hands clenched on the folder he managed to pick up.
His question, in that uncharacteristically small voice, made her stomach drop.
Right. His favorite hero, the same one that Katsuki had learned to recognize in an instant, was now a completely different person to him, more akin to an oversized skeleton, rather than the Symbol of Peace he’d grown up with.
"Of course, baby."
___
Katsuki would be lying if he said he was paying any attention to Aizawa's explanations of the new security systems. He was too busy stealing glances at the man that was supposed to be All Might, but wasn't.
Or was he?
His mother had confirmed for him, in a surprisingly subtle manner, that it really was All Might.
But even while sitting opposite of him, looking at him, hearing him speak, Katsuki still wasn't convinced.
There was just no way he was responsible for making him look like this.
“That works for you?" Aizawa's question, directed at Katsuki, brought him down back to Earth.
"Uh.." Katsuki blinked, taken by surprise. He vaguely wondered if it was about the folder, now placed between them on the table.
"You weren't listening, were you?" His mother asked him with a roll of her eyes. "For safety reasons, your teacher will pick you up and take you to the school." She explained as she nudged Katsuki with her elbow.
Huh. Katsuki blinked in surprise. "Uh.. how early can you be here?" He asked carefully.
"Everyone else will start gathering at the Heights Alliance around 8am, but I can pick you up as early as 6:30am." Aizawa explained and patiently waited for Katsuki to make up his mind.
Katsuki knew that he wanted to visit Recovery Girl, to hopefully get rid of the wound on his neck, or at least heal it enough to get rid of the large bandage, and hopefully avoid the pitiful stares and invasive questions from his classmates.
"Then 7am, if it's alright…" Katsuki trailed off, but Aizawa was already nodding as he tapped something into his phone.
"Then Monday at 7am, you'll be officially moving to the dorms." All Might chimed in with a smile that was more creepy than reassuring at this point.
Katsuki nodded before he addressed Aizawa again, unwilling to keep talking to the shadow of a hero, despite how guilty that fact made him feel, "What about my stuff?"
"The moving truck will be here on Sunday at 6pm, so have everything you need packed into boxes by then."
Katsuki sighed, already feeling overwhelmed by the amount of stuff he'd have to pack, yet more than willing to start as soon as possible. If only they would leave already so Katsuki wouldn't have to look at the version of All Might that wasn't really All Might.
"Are the dorms separated by gender?" His father asked, and the question made Katsuki glance up at him in confusion.
Why would that matter?
"Not exactly. Each class has its own building, but the rooms of girls and boys are located on different wings. Boys will not be allowed in the girls' rooms after curfew and vice-versa." Aizawa answered, looking pointedly at Katsuki, who looked blankly back at him, still not sure why it mattered.
But not guys in other guys' rooms. Katsuki thought, barely stopping himself from grinning at the idea of being able to have a sleepover with Eijirou. If they were quiet enough, and he brought his game system, they could probably stay up late and play video games the night before their day off. Sure, it was a bummer that the girls wouldn’t be able to join in, but he didn’t really know any of them well enough to know if they’d want to play video games with him anyway. Besides, his main goal was spending more time with Eijirou, anyways. For the time being, he had little interest in trying to include the girls from his class.
He might have considered Ashido a friend and had some respect for Uraraka, but otherwise wasn’t sure about the rest of them, or if any of them considered him a friend.
Not that his parents or teachers had to know that.
"Are there any other questions?" Aizawa asked, looking between Katsuki and his parents.
Katsuki glanced at ‘All Might’ for a split second but that was enough to get his attention. “Young Bakugou, I can assure you that I’m fine.” He sent him a genuine smile that did nothing to convince Katsuki that the man was fine or that he was actually All Might, but all Katsuki could do was look away and nod.
“I don’t have any…” Katsuki muttered in the end, feeling everyone’s eyes on him. Aizawa had pretty much explained everything there was to explain about the new dormitory system, and even though Katsuki still wanted to know how close his room would be to Eijirou’s, he kept his mouth shut.
“Alright then,” Aizawa said as he stood up, the other hero with him. “You might want to keep this.” He picked the folder up from the table and handed it to Katsuki before heading out of the living room. “I’ll see you on Monday.” He added once Katsuki and his parents walked them to the door.
Katsuki nodded and silently watched the taller blond man closely as he walked through the door behind Aizawa, still trying to determine if it was All Might or not, still wondering how much of how he looked like right now was his fault (all of it, how dare you ask).
The door almost closed behind the two heroes when Katsuki pushed the folder into his mother’s hands and ran out after them, ignoring her yells that he was supposed to stay inside.
"Young Bakugou?" The tall, seemingly malnourished man glanced at him over his shoulder upon hearing the commotion.
Katsuki looked at him intensely for a few seconds, scanned him head to toe, trying almost desperately to find something, anything, that would remind him of the hero that shaped and inspired Katsuki as he grew up.
"Are you alright..?"
"... Are you really All Might?" Katsuki asked with a bated breath as he stared at the man.
He didn't know if All Might was told about his face blindness, and for the first time in his life, Katsuki found himself not caring whether someone knew or not. Even if that someone was supposedly the greatest hero in all of Japan.
The man fully turned to him, and with the most genuine tone Katsuki’s ever heard from anyone, he said; "I'm sorry to have disappointed you." His sunken face formed a sad, apologetic smile that failed to make Katsuki feel any better.
If anything, it made his insides churn with more anxiety and uneasiness than before.
He didn't have it in him to tell All Might (it really was him) that he wasn't disappointed, or to say anything at all, because in reality he didn't know how he felt about this... person actually being All Might.
He didn't know how to feel at all.
So Katsuki nodded with a frown, ignoring Aizawa's piercing stare as he turned away from All Might and walked back home, quietly closing the door behind him.
"The hell was that?" His mother asked with arms crossed over her chest.
Katsuki sighed as he slumped and put his hands into the pockets of his sweats, wishing for five seconds of peace. "I dunno." He simply shrugged as he stared at her.
She returned his intense gaze and Katsuki was mildly aware of his father idling near them, waiting to step in in case they were to start arguing about whatever.
His mother sighed after a few more seconds and reached out to him, making him tense up in an instant. "... I'm proud of you." She placed a hand on his cheek, the other one holding the folder.
His eyes widened. He expected more yelling, not… whatever this was.
Neither did his father, considering a not-so-subtle gasp.
"... Whatever." Katsuki looked away to the side before he stepped away and took the folder back from her. "I.. I need to start packing." He announced and headed upstairs, pushing any thoughts that made him wonder if his dad was proud of him as well far away into the back of his mind.
He finally made it inside his room and placed the folder on his desk before opening his wardrobe. And only when Katsuki started wondering whether he should pack shirts or pants first, it finally hit him that he was going back to UA.
A smile stretched across his face as he reached for his shirts.
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Katsuki still felt euphoric over his mother’s decision, to the point that even several hours later, while packing his belongings into the moving boxes, he couldn’t stop grinning. It made half of his face hurt, not being used to smiling so much, but he hadn’t felt so light and happy in what seemed like ages and he wasn’t quite ready to let go of this amazing yet unfamiliar feeling. He wanted to share his newfound happiness with the whole damn world, even if he didn’t exactly know how to put it into words.
Not to mention that he’d have to explain why he was feeling so happy all of a sudden in the first place.
His smile faltered when just then he realized he couldn’t share the news with Eijirou, since he never told him that he wasn’t supposed to come back to UA. It was to spare him the pain, to spare both of them the pain, but now that Katsuki was going back to UA, he couldn’t share his joy with the only person who made him equally, if not more, happy.
How could he share the news without explaining the whole situation?
He didn’t have to think about the answer for too long when he remembered Eijirou’s texts from last night. Katsuki looked up from the books he was packing, scanning the room for his phone, and stood up when he noticed it on his desk.
Katsuki smiled to himself once again when he realized the phone was resting on the folder that had practically saved him, then unlocked the phone and quickly found the messages, biting on his lip as he wondered what would be appropriate to text back.
Apologize, for not getting back to him sooner?
No no no, that would require explaining why he had taken so long to answer.
Maybe… maybe he could just ignore those?
Fuck, no, the thought of Eijirou feeling ignored by him made him wanna punch himself.
Katsuki exhaled slowly through his nose, knowing damn well that he was overthinking the simplest of tasks.
Reading through the clearly panicked messages yet again, finally let him come up with with an answer;
Katsuki: see you at school
There.
Plain and simple.
Katsuki giggled like an idiot when Eijirou immediately answered with a string of happy emojis and little hearts. He couldn’t help but cover his blushing face as he crouched down on the floor, finally realizing that he would be living so close to Eijirou.
Maybe they’d even be neighbors?
The thought alone made him quickly grab the pillow and scream into it.
Katsuki took a deep breath as he leaned against his bed and hugged the pillow. “This is so stupid.” He whispered to himself yet did nothing to force back the smile.
It took him several minutes to collect himself enough to be able to focus on packing his stuff once again.
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Another hour passed, and Katsuki had gotten most of his bookshelves cleared off, though his bed was now covered in action figures, baubles, and novelty plushes based on various heroes, all of which needed to be carefully wrapped in protective packing sheets and put into the box with “FRAGILE- DO NOT DROP” written on every side, including the bottom, and twice on the top. His excitement hadn’t wavered even slightly, but the fact that he had skipped both breakfast and lunch was beginning to catch up on him. Without the stress of being transferred looming over him, he felt he could stomach an actual meal now, and he should probably use the opportunity to remove the bandage on his hand and change the one on his neck.
Stepping carefully around a pile of clothes and a few stacks of book boxes that hadn’t made their way to the hallway quite yet, Katsuki headed for the bathroom, figuring that it would be easier to make himself a snack if he didn’t have to worry about a bandage dragging through everything.
Unsurprisingly, changing the one on his neck by himself didn’t bring about any amount of panic. Probably because he was in full control of the wrapping, and he could avoid it being too tight altogether, rather than having to fend off a panic attack and direct someone else to do it differently. Even when Katame had changed the bandage for him, she couldn’t feel what he felt, and she wasn’t a mind reader. After throwing the old bandages in the small trash can in the bathroom and double checking that the ends of the one on his neck were secured properly, Katsuki turned the light off and made his way downstairs.
“I still don’t like the idea of him going back there, and living in dorms.”
Katsuki froze mid-step just outside the kitchen when he heard his mother’s quiet voice.
“Honey,” his father spoke, equally soft, “you heard it yourself, he’s gotten better with names.”
Yeah, what else do you want from me? Katsuki thought with a frown.
“It’s just…” She sighed, and Katsuki could hear her sit down in a chair. “He might have gotten better with names, but I feel like he’s gotten worse in all other fields…”
… Huh?
“Mitsuki…”
“He’s more aggressive towards the both of us. We argue almost all the time! Then there’s that whole thing with All Might… Someone asked me on the street today how I felt about my son being the reason that damn hero lost his powers, can you imagine?! I had to pretend they had the wrong person.”
Katsuki felt his stomach churn at the thought of his mom pretending she didn’t know him.
“You know it wasn’t his fault…” His dad defended for once.
“Yes, but I was just… speechless.” She sighed heavily. “I just think… I think that he would be safer at Shiketsu, in another prefecture and all… That maybe less people would know about this whole mess.”
“Mitsuki, we both know that the principal of Shiketsu wasn’t… entirely convinced about Katsuki transferring there.”
“Please, that bitch straight up told me he was afraid that Katsuki would attract villains to the school.”
Katsuki felt his legs go numb and he managed to quietly crouch down on the floor before he collapsed, not wanting to bring attention to himself.
Afraid. Fucking afraid.
His eyes watered and he wiped away the tears with frustration and anger.
He wanted to scream, he wanted to get rid of his quirk, he wanted to go back in time, he wanted to die.
Katsuki didn’t hear the rest of the conversation. He couldn’t.
Not only did his mother not really believe in his ability to learn anyone’s name, not only did she blame him for getting kidnapped, but she was so ashamed of him that she pretended to not even know him. The principal of Shiketsu was too afraid of him to even consider letting him attend his school.
It always came down to that one thing: people were afraid of him. They had been ever since his quirk manifested, and thanks to the League of Villains, they always would be.
So much for being a hero.
Katsuki, having lost his appetite, quietly went back to his room.
Notes:
I could have continued with the move in to the dorms but come on. Come on... This was such a good note to end this chapter on, don't y'all agree? 👀
With shorter chapters I HOPE to be able to get them published sooner?? But I don't wanna promise anything.Anyway, from this point onward canon isn't a thing. It goes out the window. Bye, bitch, no more canon scenes to deal with (maybe one lol).
Here’s a doc comparing both of the POVs of the KrBk phone call from chapters 36 and 37, if anyone wants to check them out 😂
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1vVGpqTbF6IgHeggWEta8RW41gOrN5Zt8AoVYDwbXDB0/edit?usp=sharingAs always, you can find me here on tumblr~
Thank you so much for reading, please leave a comment if you enjoyed!
Up next; That one line of dialogue no one noticed was missing
Chapter 39: The good old Ways
Summary:
This line is kinda worse in this context
Notes:
According to the manga, if a girl student happens to visit a boy student on the fifth floor, even though her room is on the fifth floor as well, she would have to go all the way down to the first floor first in order to go back to her room, I say fuck that.
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Also I’m really sorry, genuinely. This is the last time when a chapter ends on a depressing note, I promise.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The weekend was uneventful, thankfully. Katsuki wasn’t sure if he’d be able to handle more unpleasant events, and even though his mother had picked up on his sudden aversion towards her, she didn’t try to question or argue with him, for once. Maybe she realised that Katsuki had heard her talk about how big of a disappointment he was and she didn’t want to make things worse.
As he laid in his bed, trying to force himself to sleep before the next day’s move, Katsuki sighed in frustration, knowing that this was just wishful thinking.
He knew he was a disappointment. Not just to her, but to the entire country, and that was the exact reason why Katsuki had so far avoided watching the TV or reading any of his bookmarked news sites; in case someone wrote an article about how he ruined the life of the world’s most beloved hero. Instead, throughout the weekend he busied himself with making sure he had packed everything. Sometime on Saturday his parents had been adamant on helping him, but after he firmly told them to not touch his fucking shit, they left him alone. After he had packed all his clothes and whatnot, all that was left was to decide just how much of his hero merch he actually wanted to bring to the dorms.
He spent quite a bit of time carefully considering each figure, poster, and collectable, though, if he was being honest, for most of that time, Katsuki was wondering if he wanted to bring any of his All Might merch at all. He kept putting the posters and figurines in boxes, only to take them out after an hour, and then put them right back in again ten minutes later, trying to make up his mind about it, all the way up to the very last second. When the moving track arrived, 6pm sharp on Sunday, he just shoved everything into his closet to be forgotten about, and hopefully eaten by dust.
To his surprise, there wasn’t a whole party of movers, instead it was just one of the heroes teaching at UA who arrived to collect his things. Ectoplasm, Katsuki realised when the man multiplied himself and made his clones carry the boxes with Katsuki’s belongings. The clones quickly finished their tasks without speaking much to anyone, aside from one of them- or was it the original? It was hard to tell- giving a quick glad you’re still with us, directed at Katsuki, who wasn’t sure if he himself was glad to still be around.
Everyone is so glad to see that you survived something, but no one wonders if you're actually okay after.
He frowned at the thought and rolled from his back to face his room. Even in the dark he could see how empty it now was, with shelves and walls cleared off of any and all decorations or personal stuff. Despite Aizawa telling him that he could bring whatever he wanted, even a wholeass bed if he wished so, Katsuki settled on just his computer desk and a few shelves to be sent to the dormitory, everything else staying behind. He couldn’t help but wonder what he was going to do with his new room. He wasn’t sure if he wanted to make it similar to his own bedroom, or turn it into an entirely new scene, to further distance himself from this place.
Katsuki let out another heavy sigh and sat up on his bed. If he weren’t so tired, he’d laugh at the irony of the situation, considering that in the past few days, he'd found it hard to even get out of bed at all, for some reason.
Deciding to ignore that annoying thought, he reached for his phone to not only discover that it was a little before midnight, but that he evidently wasn't the only one having trouble falling asleep, as shown by the activity in the class' group chat.
Reluctantly, he tapped on the notification, knowing that whoever was online would notice him lurking, but it didn't matter to him at the moment, especially when he saw that Eijirou was active, along with Kaminari, Todoroki and Uraraka.
Uraraka: I just can't believe it!!! We'll have AC in our own rooms!!!!
Todoroki: Is that not normal??
Kirishima: if you have to ask that, it's not ngnxjxkdbfj
Todoroki: Hm. Noted.
Todoroki: Uraraka I can get you one for when you go back to your home on weekends or something
Uraraka: TODOROKIIIII 😭😭😭
Todoroki: 💸💸💸
Kirishima: NFKXKKDNFKSNFKD
Kaminari: he's learned to use emojis, it's over for you bitches
Todoroki: what's over??
Uraraka: it's a meme!
Todoroki: who are the bitches
Kaminari: don't think too hard about it
Kirishima: you're doing great, don't worry
Katsuki couldn't help but quietly chuckle at the weird conversation. It was kind of amazing that they were able to just talk like this. About trivial shit that somehow made him laugh, when nothing else would. There was a little smile on his face that only widened when a new message came in, from Eijirou, in their private chat. Katsuki felt stupid butterflies in his stomach as he opened the message.
Eijirou: Did we wake you up with notifications?
Katsuki covered his face from the embarrassment mixed with happiness he hadn't felt in a while, because Eijirou had noticed him in the group chat and went out of his way to check on him, and Katsuki was not able to handle that. He was amazed that Eijirou could make him feel so happy with a single message.
Okay, keep it cool.
Katsuki: Not really
Eijirou: can't sleep, then?
Katsuki: I guess
Three little dots kept appearing and disappearing for the next few seconds, and Katsuki felt like he had somehow fucked up with the tone in his messages.
Only one way to fix that.
Katsuki: I'm excited for tomorrow.
Eijirou: AHHHH ME TOO!!!
Eijirou: WE COULD HAVE SLEEPOVERS EVERY OTHER NIGHT!!!
Katsuki: does it still count as a sleepover if we're in the same building?
Eijirou: since we're still in separate rooms, I say yes
Eijirou: and especially if we end up on different sides of the dorm building :((
Katsuki: I hope we're neighbours
He sent that message before his tired brain could fully process it, and the longer Eijirou took to answer, the faster Katsuki’s heart was beating. He couldn't have the only good thing in his life become awkward and distant because of some weird clinginess that pretty much came out of nowhere.
Eijirou: Me too!! :D
Katsuki almost threw his phone across the room, but instead he just sent a pathetic thumbs up emoji and put the phone down on his bed before covering his reddening face.
Why couldn't he have a normal fucking conversation with him? Especially when Eijirou was supposed to be his best friend, and acted like one, so why couldn't Katsuki do that as well?
He glanced down at his phone as it buzzed with more messages, probably from the group chat, and frowned, knowing the answer.
Because you're in love with him. Every time he admitted that to himself, it made his heart speed up, feeling as if it was going to jump out of his chest and punch him, and while Eijirou was treating him how he would treat every other friend, Katsuki treated him like nothing more than an object of affection. Even now, after everything that had happened. In all honesty, Katsuki had thought that their relationship would change significantly after camp and the following fiasco, in one way or another, but it had stayed the same.
Eijirou was acting.. Normally. Almost too normally, and Katsuki started to wonder, why? Was it because he didn’t want Katsuki to think it was a big deal? Maybe he wanted to pretend that nothing happened, like Katsuki? Maybe Eijirou was silently waiting for Katsuki to mention this whole mess first? Or maybe this was sort of an eye for an eye deal, where Eijirou would collect the metaphorical debt that he was rightfully owed at a later date.
Katsuki did not want to be indebted to anyone. Even Eijirou. And he needed to find a way to get even as soon as possible, without hurting himself in the process.
___
Half an hour and a Google search later, Katsuki found out that the goggles Eijirou broke because of him were worth around 50,000¥. Even if they were Eijirou’s mother’s, and thus probably insured by the police department, he still thought it was the best way to pay him back, even if something in the back of his mind was telling him that Eijirou wouldn't want any money from him. But by giving him this money, maybe, just maybe, Katsuki would be able to get rid of the feeling that he didn't deserve to have been rescued, even if only a little bit.
With a deep frown, Katsuki fished out his money can, which he intended to hide somewhere in his dorm room just as it was hidden here, from the bottom of his school bag, and tried to count the money in it. Emphasis on tried, because he found himself unable to focus, as he clenched his trembling hands on the wrinkled bills.
It just seemed like he would never be able to get rid of the consequences of getting himself kidnapped. For that to happen, he would have to pay the price, literally and figuratively, by dealing with the fact that everyone was afraid of him, definitely thinking he'd be better off dead or still with the villains, and by paying Eijirou for those goddamn-
He took a deep breath.
It was part of the process.
He'd be forgiven once he atoned for everything he'd done, and he could start by giving Eijirou most of the money he'd managed to save up. He could always save more money, but if he didn't do this, he might not be able to save his friendship.
___
Katsuki was woken up by his alarm, feeling like shit from the very little amount of sleep he’d gotten. But as much as lying in bed for an additional few hours sounded wonderful, he forced himself to slowly get out of bed and walk to the bathroom, taking off the bandages from his neck and frowning at the still-red scabs and discoloration of his skin. He knew he wasn’t supposed to expect much after.. what? Four days? Five? When did that asshole even burn him, exactly?
“It doesn't matter.” Katsuki muttered to his reflection with a grimace before he carefully applied the clean bandages. He almost didn’t want to apply them, since there was a good chance that Recovery Girl would be able to completely heal his wound with her quirk, even if it meant her kissing him on the cheek.
Katsuki grimaced at the thought as he secured the bandage and left the bathroom to get ready for Aizawa’s arrival, and to double check for anything that he might have missed while packing, even though he had already checked several times before Ectoplasm arrived.
He just wanted to make sure that he wouldn’t have any reason to call his parents at all.
___
Dressed in his uniform and not at all ready for the day awaiting him, Katsuki stepped out of his room and headed down the corridor. As he walked past the many pictures on the walls, one of them caught his eye, and he stopped to stare at it for a moment. It was his graduation photo from middle school. The one he’d taken with his parents at the school gate, and the most recent one where it came to any family pictures.
His mom was leaning over him with a genuine smile, both of her hands placed on his shoulders, and he briefly recalled how unusually delicate that touch was. His dad on the other hand was doing a stupidly awkward pose, all tense with both of his thumbs up and a too wide smile. Then Katsuki himself was holding his rolled diploma, frowning and waiting for this to end, more than happy to not be made fun of behind his back because he didn’t bother to learn any of the names. To not be treated like a ticking bomb. To never see anyone from his middle school ever again.
Except Deku.
Deku with his green hair and red shoes and that fucking notebook that Katsuki should have burned when he had the chance-
“Katsuki?”
He whipped his head to the side and his eyes fell on his mother’s figure, still in her pyjamas, as she stepped out of her bedroom.
“I was hoping to catch you before you left.” She smiled after she quietly closed the door and walked up to him. “You’re heading out?”
Katsuki nodded, leaning away from her when she reached out to pet his hair, which caused her to frown, but she didn’t comment on it. “Aizawa’s going to be here soon,” he muttered, fixing the grip on his bag. “What do you want?”
“Really?” Her frown deepened. “I don’t know, maybe I want to see my only son before he leaves and I won’t see him again for who knows how long?” She put a hand on her hip.
“You’ve seen me,” Katsuki deadpanned. “Now what?”
His mother sighed heavily and then, without any warning, she spread her arms and locked him in a tight hug, ignoring Katsuki’s grimace and the way he tensed up and didn’t even try to return the gesture that made it feel like maggots were crawling under his skin.
“I hate that you’ll be living there.” She whispered, tightening her grip. Katsuki just clenched his jaw and fists to stop himself from violently pushing her away. “Are you sure you-”
“Yes.” Katsuki interrupted with a stern voice.
When will this end? He thought, her touch making him sick.
“But what if the villains attack again? Or-”
“Or I get even worse than I am now?” He blurted out with spite, and felt her freeze up against him.
His mother slowly pulled away with shock painted over her face as realisation washed over her. “Katsuki, I… I didn’t mean-”
“Spare me the excuses.” Katsuki grabbed her wrists and fully pushed her hands away from him. He took a step back just for good measure. “Old man’s asleep, I guess?” He asked, hoping, just a little bit, that his father cared enough about him to at least move his ass in the morning and say goodbye.
Still shaken by the realisation that Katsuki heard her the other night, his mother only nodded.
Figures. He shouldn’t have been disappointed, he knew not to expect anything different.
“I’m leaving.” He said coldly, and walked past her, heading for the stairs once again, when she stopped him with a hand on his wrist. “What?” He glared at her over his shoulder.
“Just..” She let go of him and looked around before she hastily took the graduation photo off the wall. “Just take this, to remember us?”
What makes you think I want to remember? Katsuki stopped himself from saying, fully aware that this would cause an argument, and just snatched the picture from her hands before finally headed down the stairs, towards freedom.
“Text me?” His mother asked from the top of the stairs. “When you’ve settled?”
He didn’t acknowledge her. Just continued down the stairs and then to the front door, where he quickly put on his shoes and finally, finally stepped out of the house and shoved the family picture in his bag, shaking the gross feeling off of his skin.
At least this is the last time he would have to endure her touch, he thought while squinting at the early morning sun. At least he didn’t have to sit in front of his front door and wait for the car to arrive- it was already parked in front of his gate, and he quickly made his way towards it.
The rear door opened and Aizawa stepped out, seemingly both ready for the day and too tired to function at the same time. “Ready?” The teacher asked when Katsuki stood next to the car.
Katsuki looked over his shoulder at his childhood home. At some point between the vague memories that he had of his early childhood and now, it had stopped feeling like a home, and had started feeling like a cage.. He vaguely wondered when he would next set foot inside, or if he even wanted to come back in the first place. He was well aware that he’d have to, at some point, but for now he knew that they wouldn’t be allowed to leave the school premises for the next few weeks, maybe months, and Katsuki found himself relieved that he wouldn’t have to deal with his parents during that time.
That was when he noticed his mother staring at him from the window upstairs, waving to him. He wasn’t sure if she was smiling at him or not. Not that he cared. Katsuki forced himself to raise his hand and wave back, the gesture lacking in enthusiasm, and without a word, he walked around the car and got in, Aizawa doing the same and sitting next to him in the back.
He glanced at the teacher, then at the driver. Or at least, in the direction of the diver, because there was a tinted screen separating them from whoever was at the wheel, giving them some privacy.
“I thought you would be driving.” Katsuki said once the car started.
“I don’t have a licence.” Aizawa stated, bluntly and without any emotion that would give away whether he was embarrassed about it or not.
“At your age?” Katsuki blurted out before he could bite his tongue. The look Aizawa gave him only further cemented in his regret over asking the question.
“How old do you think I am?” His teacher, a Pro-Hero, asked him, and Katsuki only felt like he was being handed a shovel to help him in digging his own grave.
“I don’t fucking know, forty?” Katsuki said, going all in with the first number that came to his mind. Aizawa’s glare only made him sweat.
“I’m thirty.” He deadpanned, before he sighed heavily and rubbed the bridge of his nose. “It’s too early for this…” Aizawa muttered. They quickly seemed to have come to mutual agreement that it would be best if they spent the rest of the drive in silence, and Katsuki realised that while he would finally be free from his parents, he would now have to deal with his teachers almost constantly.
___
They arrived at school before 7:30am, and as Katsuki stepped out of the car, he was hit with a wave of unexpected relief upon seeing the large building. It was real. He was still here.
He was startled out of his stunned silence when Aizawa got out of the car and asked Katsuki if he wanted to head to the dorms right away.
"I need to see Recovery Girl." Katsuki stated, adding, "My doctor's orders," when the teacher sent him a questioning look.
"Alright. Be at the 1A Heights Alliance building’s gates before 8am. It's hard to miss." Aizawa pointed vaguely at the park that was close to the main building and sure enough, above the trees, Katsuki could see the new buildings within a five minute walk distance.
He just nodded before heading inside the school and towards the nurse's office. The last time he had visited was when he fucked up and broke his support gear. It was also the same day that Katsuki had realised that he was in love with Eijirou.
Katsuki allowed himself to smile at the memory of Eijirou absolutely fuming, screaming at him like there was no tomorrow.
Stupid manly guy with no fear. Katsuki thought and hid his smile behind his hand while some other two students walked past him. Ah shit, I’m stupid. He let out a tired sigh when he realised he could have asked Aizawa if Eijirou would be his neighbour in the dorms.
“Is that-”
“Yeah.”
The two students whispered behind him and Katsuki looked over his shoulder. They immediately turned and quickly walked away.
The hell?
With a slightly concerned frown, he pulled out his phone from the pocket of his pants and checked to see if he had something on his face, but no, he looked the same as always, so what was that?
Katsuki decided to shrug it off and continued his walk, cursing whoever it was that decided it was a good idea to put the nurse’s office on the opposite side of the building, so far away from the entrance.
He turned the corner and saw two students at the vending machines.
“Fucking Bakugou Katsuki!” One of them exclaimed while kicking the vending machine and Katsuki froze mid-step before quickly making his way back around the corner, out of sight, and leaning against the wall. Since when did he hide from people offending him? "This is our last year here, why the hell put us in the dorms now?"
"Exactly,” the other one said, “we're not even in the hero course, there's no need for us to be here 24/7!"
Katsuki peeked around the corner. They both now had sodas in their hands, their expressions less than pleased.
“It’s not us the villains are after!” The first one yelled in frustration again as he struggled to open the can in his hand, before his buddy took it from him.
“What’s your mom gonna do on her own?” He asked as he opened the can and handed it back.
“I don’t know. My aunt said that she’ll try to help her as much as she can, but she can’t move in with her just yet.” The older student sighed heavily and took a sip. “When the principal said that the move in was mandatory if I wanted to graduate, I nearly lost my mind.”
“It’s gonna be okay.” The other one placed a hand on his shoulder. “Come on, we need to find Inui-sensei.” They started walking in the opposite direction, away from Katsuki, their conversation trailing off.
Right.
He should have figured that some of the other students would hate him for this situation, and it hadn’t even occurred to him that some of the extras would have their own lives. It made him realise that whatever was wrong with this guy’s mom, she probably needed him at home, not stuck in the damn dorms.
Katsuki stepped away from the wall, sighing heavily, not sure what to do with this information other than feel even more guilty for having gotten kidnapped. To feel guilty for having survived. Was he supposed to apologise publicly? Maybe that was the first step towards fixing how others felt about him. How he felt about himself.
He scoffed, fully aware that that was bullshit.
No one was going to forgive him, they had no reason to do so.
After another minute or so, he was finally at the nurse's office, and he reached out to knock on the door, entering when he heard the quiet permission to do so.
“How can I help you, Bakugou-kun?” Recovery Girl greeted him the moment he stepped inside her office.
Katsuki pointed at his bandages on his neck. "My doctor said I should check in with you about this…" He sat down on a stool next to her after she gestured at it.
"Do you prefer to take it off by yourself?" She asked and Katsuki nodded, already on the task, carefully peeling off the still fresh bandages.
"I was actually wondering if you could.. heal this? With your quirk, I mean." Katsuki asked while she examined the wound.
Recovery Girl looked up at him, then back at the burn on his neck. "Small areas where the burn was less severe have already healed. I can't do anything about those, but the rest, of course, dearie." She smiled and Katsuki breathed out in relief. “I just need to ask you some questions, first.”
He frowned at that, but having no other choice, Katsuki nodded. “Sure, I guess…”
“Any flare ups?” She asked the first question as she lifted his chin with a pen.
“No.” A lie.
Saturday night he couldn’t fall asleep from the pain. It felt like it was choking him. It made him feel like Dabi was right there, pressing down on his throat, and there was nothing he could do about it.
“Are you getting enough sleep?”
“Yeah.” Who cares that he fell asleep around 2am last night?
“Alright, dearie, here we go.”
Katsuki grimaced when he felt her wet lips on his cheek, and there was a light but pleasant tingling in his neck, after which he stifled a yawn when the usual tiredness came, a sign of her quirk working on him.
"Take a look, Bakugou-kun." She handed him a pocket mirror and he quickly accepted it, eager to see how big of a difference it made.
His wound was healed. A tiniest bit of scarred tissue was visible here and there, but there were no more scabs or reddened areas. And most importantly, the shape of the hand was completely gone.
"Healed up nicely, if I do say so myself." Recovery Girl said with a genuine smile, but Katsuki only nodded as he handed her the mirror back.
"I should go to the Heights Alliance now." Katsuki muttered, getting up from his seat and fighting off any and all tiredness.
"Of course." The nurse gave him a nod before she reached inside her pocket and handed him a few candies. "For better health."
Katsuki threw the candies into his bag and turned without a word, wanting to leave as quickly as possible.
"Bakugou-kun." Her voice was gentle but there was still something that made him stop in his tracks. "If you have a need to talk to someone, we have a really nice psychologist here at school, he's available on Tuesdays and-"
"I'm fine." He cut in without turning towards her. "I don't need to talk to anyone."
"Dearie, it's okay to admit-"
"I said I'm fine!" He yelled as he glared at her over his shoulder and noticed how her brows shot up in surprise.
Shit.
"I-I need-" He stuttered, trying to calm down. "I need to go." Katsuki managed to say, and hurriedly went out the door, shutting it just a bit too hard behind him before rushing down the corridors.
God, he was such a fuckup.
___
Katsuki looked up at the dormitory building, supposedly belonging to his class, going by the large, bold '1A' over the entrance. He wasn't the first one to arrive, Iida, as always, was already at the gate when Katsuki arrived. He ignored the obnoxious greeting, mostly because he didn’t recognize his class president at first. There were also Yaomomo and Earphones, the latter refusing to look him in the eye, for whatever reason.
Then, Katsuki had to hold himself back when he recognized Deku walking through the gate. He simply looked away and kept a good distance between them, and Deku seemed to understand that Katsuki absolutely did not want to talk to him, considering the lack of annoying ‘hi, Kacchan’ from him.
Slowly, the rest of his classmates arrived. None of them tried to talk to him, thank fuck, because Katsuki really didn’t want to hear any empty words or see any fake sympathetic expressions.
He was fine. And he didn't want to talk to anyone.
Except Eijirou, who arrived a little before 8am, and Katsuki's mood instantly improved, the heavy weight lifting off of his shoulders, even though he knew he had to find the right moment to give him the money and do so quickly, so no one would notice anything.
Eijirou glanced around before his eyes met with Katsuki’s, who barely stopped himself from smiling, but of course, Eijirou was grinning enough for both of them, his smile as bright as the sun as he quickly made his way towards him.
"Katsuki!" Eijirou greeted him, unashamed of his happiness.
Shit, I love you so much. Katsuki thought for the millionth time upon hearing Eijirou say his name, the sound warming his heart.
"Hi, Eijirou." Katsuki said simply, doing his best not to melt then and there, raising his hand in an awkward wave.
"Can I.." Eijirou trailed off with a hopeful expression, raising his arms.
Oh damn, a hug. Katsuki realised in an instant, fighting off a blush and nodding a bit too eagerly.
Eijirou didn't need anything more and immediately threw his arms around Katsuki's frame and squeezed for a few, precious seconds before stepping away.
No, stay longer. Katsuki thought as the feeling of comfort that had washed over him slowly faded, but he knew it was necessary if he didn't want to bring any unwanted attention to both of them. Speaking of which, Katsuki glanced around, and, upon confirming that no one was looking at them, he reached into his bag for the money.
"Eijirou, listen-"
"KIRISHIMA!!!" Someone yelled from the gate, making Katsuki halt his actions and taking Eijirou's attention away from him.
"Kaminari!" Eijirou fully turned towards their friend with a wide smile, showing off his sharp teeth, and Katsuki felt a sting of jealousy.
"Kacchan, stop frowning so much or your face is gonna stay like that forever." Kaminari teased him as soon as he got close enough, Sero suddenly right behind him, both of them fistbumping Eijirou.
"Hey, guys." Sero waved weakly with a yawn. "I'm gonna miss summer vacation."
"What, you messed up your sleeping schedule playing video games all night?" Kaminari laughed as he nudged him with an elbow.
Katsuki wished it were video games that had messed up his sleeping schedule.
"Yeah, I could use some more hours of rest." Sero chuckled to himself and Katsuki never thought he'd find himself agreeing with Sero out of all his classmates. "Good thing we don't have any classes for the next two weeks, still."
Kaminari nodded next to him with an unnecessarily serious expression. "Yeah, we should technically still be at home, it being summer break and all."
Katsuki felt like it was an indirect way of saying that it was his fault that they had to be here. Just another thing to blame him for, spending part of the summer break at school.
He must have made a weird face, because Eijirou cleared his throat next to him in a not at all subtle manner. "We'll have plenty of time to decorate our rooms!" He changed the subject, smiling as if nothing happened.
"I brought so much stuff with me," Kaminari took the bait, "My brother laughed that this was the first time that my room at home was so clean." He rolled his eyes, crossing his arms on his chest.
"Right, because you've moved out." Sero commented with a smug face. "Must be a relief to everyone."
"Okay, it's not that funny-"
"Guyssss!!!!" A high pitched voice reached them and Katsuki immediately recognized the pink bubbly girl waving at them.
Ashido ran up to them and greeted them with a smile that began to fade when she turned to Katsuki. “Ah, Baku…” She glanced to the side for a second before she looked at him again and opened her mouth to say something but seemingly changed her mind as she closed it back. She repeated the motion two more times before Katsuki lost his patience.
“Just spit it out!” He barked, more aggressively than he intended to and he froze when she jolted with a quiet yelp.
Fuck. He scared someone again. Of course he did.
“Sorry, Bakugou!” She released a humourless chuckle as she took a step back. “It’s just… good to see you…” Ashido looked away and Katsuki heard Eijirou sighing next to him.
He swallowed the knot that had formed in his throat and clenched his hand around the strap of his bag.
He could feel the judgmental stares of Kaminari and Sero, probably some other classmates too, and he was suddenly glad that he couldn't imagine what Eijirou's expression even looked like.
As if that wasn't enough, Aizawa showed up, and evidently felt that he just had to go off on a tangent about how dangerous their little rescue mission was. How he wanted to expel everyone except for Katsuki and Jirou. How they were lucky to be here. To be alive at all.
The teacher's cold words just further convinced Katsuki that everything that had happened was his fault, and he found himself unable to do or say anything in his or his classmates' defence. In Eijirou's defence. He just followed a little bit behind the now gloomy class as their teacher led them inside the building, only half listening to what he was telling them.
"And here's where each of you has their room. Find out, take the key from the box on the table and use the rest of today to unpack and get settled." Aizawa gestured vaguely at the board with the floor plans and their names, and the moment he walked away, the board was swarmed by half the class.
Katsuki opted to stay back for a bit, both to avoid getting pushed by someone, and to avoid inevitable disappointment upon finding out that Eijirou would be nowhere near him. It wasn't like he deserved to be put next to him in the first place, but the longer he avoided looking at that board, the longer he could pretend that-
"Katsuki!" A warm, familiar voice called out to him. "We're on the same floor!"
"Eh?" Katsuki, suddenly brought back to Earth from his stupid thoughts, needed a moment to realize it was Eijirou's happy face staring at him, mere inches away.
Katsuki’s cheeks turned red when Eijirou unceremoniously grabbed his hand and dragged him to the board, to see the floor map. Most of their classmates had already grabbed their keys and left, only a few stragglers sticking around to check out the first floor more thoroughly before they headed to their rooms. Before Katsuki could even begin to process that Eijirou was holding his hand, the other boy had let go and was pointing excitedly at the labelled map.
"And we're neighbours!" Eijirou's smile was wide and bright as he pointed out their names so close together on the fourth floor plan, genuine happiness and excitement contagious, as Katsuki quickly found himself unable to stop the smile spreading on his face when he finally saw that he indeed had a room next to Eijirou's, with another one next to him unassigned to anyone.
"We're neighbours." Katsuki whispered to himself. He just couldn't believe his luck.
He glanced over his shoulder only to find Aizawa leaning against the wall. Half of his face was hidden behind the binding cloth, but even despite that, it was clear that the teacher was very pleased with himself, seeing the reactions of everyone.
"We're neighbours!" Eijirou almost screamed next to him, practically vibrating and barely stopping himself from exploding from excitement, and Katsuki was impressed that Eijirou wasn't ashamed to show how happy he was about this arrangement, especially when Uraraka giggled at him as she walked past.
"I'm glad…" Katsuki settled on smiling at his beloved friend, a little gesture that was just for him and disappeared the very next second when he felt someone's eyes on him. “The fuck do you want?” Katsuki barked when he turned and realised it was Todoroki staring at the two of them.
Todoroki didn't seem intimidated or bothered by Katsuki’s yelling, and while he did find that comforting in a strange way, it didn't mean that he wanted to be stared at.
"Kirishima." Todoroki ignored Katsuki, much to his annoyance, and walked up to Eijirou. "How's the phone serving you?"
The fuck?
"Oh! It's great, thank you!" Eijirou answered, pulling out his(?) phone, Katsuki quickly noticed that it was a different model than the one he'd seen him with before. "Didn't take long to get used to it, I can give it back in a few weeks-"
"No need," Todoroki interrupted, "Told my father I need another one so I've got two again." He held up both of his phones in his hands, making Eijirou laugh and Katsuki all the more confused.
"Why do you have his phone?" Katsuki asked Eijirou, and when he noticed Todoroki opening his mouth, he was quick to shut him up; "Didn't ask you."
"It's uh.. it's a long story. I'll tell you later, okay?" Eijirou said, as if he was ashamed of something, and Katsuki didn't like that in the slightest.
"Speaking of my father-"
"Literally no one was talking about him." Katsuki glared at Todoroki, who didn't seem to care.
"He was very displeased with me moving here." That damn Half-Face spoke with a blank expression, staring pointedly at Katsuki, who found himself at a loss of words, frozen in place as his thoughts started racing.
Was it.. was it a good thing that Endeavour was displeased with Todoroki moving into the Heights Alliance? Or did it just make him more unbearable for Todoroki? Not that Katsuki cared, but was this just another thing that he had to carry with him until the end of his sorry life? That the hero, who he knew for a fact was an abusive fuck, was worse than he normally was to his son because Katsuki got kidnapped, and it was his fault that they had to live in the dorms now? Was he supposed to apologise? Or maybe pay him back, too? Beg for forgiveness? Plead with Endeavor and somehow convince him to leave his son alone? How was he supposed to do that?
"Katsuki?"
He tensed up, sharply inhaling the air and he stared at the gentle hand on his shoulder.
"Are you okay? You look kinda pale…" Eijirou's voice was calm, quiet, and his expression concerned.
"I'm fine." Katsuki quickly dismissed Eijirou's worries, stepping away and putting his clenched hands in the pockets of his pants. That was when he realised that Todoroki was gone.
"He walked away." Eijirou pointed in a direction where Todoroki must have gone, not that Katsuki cared.
"Good, more fresh air for us." Then what the fuck was up with what he said?
"Bro, come on." Eijirou snorted as he nudged him with his elbow. "He seemed happy, though." He added, and headed to one of the dining tables to get the key to his room, Katsuki quickly following.
Happy?
He almost asked 'how so?', but bit his tongue and just shrugged instead, because he was either happy about Endeavour being, well, unhappy, or Katsuki getting all worked up over one simple sentence, and he did not want to know the answer.
“Here, your key.” Eijirou handed Katsuki the key to his room, their fingers brushing for a moment. Katsuki thanked him with a nod and a faint smile and they headed towards the elevators once Eijirou had found his key as well. “I’m gonna add a Crimson Riot keychain to it.”
Cute. Katsuki wanted to say, but stopped himself from doing so. “That’s cool.” He said instead as they stopped before the two elevators, waiting for their turn to enter behind their classmates, as one of the elevators was somewhere on the fifth floor.
“Come on in,” Yaomomo motioned for them from the inside, Frog girl next to her, along with Earphones who turned her head when Katsuki looked at her, “plenty of room for all of us.”
Eijirou took a few steps towards them, and when Katsuki tried to do the same, it was like some invisible force had stopped him in his tracks.
The hell?
He wanted to go inside, but a strange feeling in his gut made it impossible for him to even move a muscle. For some reason, the idea of being in such a small space with several people was making his whole body tense up.
“Katsuki?” Eijirou stared at him with a tilted brow, probably trying to figure out why he had stopped out of nowhere, and damn if Katsuki didn’t want to know himself.
“... I’m gonna take the stairs.” Katsuki announced, and turned to find said stairs without waiting for Eijirou to react.
He was halfway up the first flight of stairs when someone called out to him, Katsuki immediately recognizing the voice. “Hey, wait up!”
Katsuki stopped and looked down at Eijirou. “You could have taken the elevator.” He said with a frown, not wanting to have to explain himself or for Eijirou to worry about him.
“Nah, I’d rather be with my bro, besides it’s just..” Eijirou sighed tiredly, looking up the stairs and leaning on his knees. “Just.. the fourth floor… Damn it.” He chuckled to himself, probably just now realising the elevator would have been more efficient.
“Stupid.” Katsuki couldn’t help but snicker at him.
“No, you.” Eijirou pointed at him in an accusatory way, laughing at himself.
“Damn, how am I gonna pull myself together after such a comeback?” Katsuki teased as he continued his way up, Eijirou right next to him, nudging him in the side with his elbow.
They were almost up to the third floor when Eijirou spoke up again, “Can’t believe we’re all here. I’m kind of wondering how much actual privacy we’ll be getting, with everyone from our class around and all that.” He wondered and that made Katsuki realise that he had been so focused on Eijirou, and his own inner panic about whether or not they’d be neighbours, that he had forgotten all about everyone else.
Because what was stopping literally anyone from barging into his room, aside from the door that he intended to keep locked at all times? He could ignore their messages, but he couldn’t leave someone on Read in a face to face conversation.
How much alone time would he be able to actually get with Eijirou, now that they would have their classmates and friends around 24/7, not just during school hours?
When was he supposed to give him all this fucking money without anyone seeing?
“Something wrong?” Eijirou asked from the top of the current flight of stairs, looking down at him with a quirked brow.
Katsuki looked up at Eijirou and it occurred to him that they were alone on the stairs. This was the perfect opportunity to give Eijirou the money, so he reached inside his bag, "Eijirou-" Someone laughing and yelling ran past the two of them, followed closely by another, equally oblivious someone.
"Race you to the fifth floor!" The blond guy yelled, taking the stairs two at a time to gain more speed.
"You don't even live on the fifth floor!" The one with black hair yelled back, and before Katsuki could recognize either of them, they were gone.
"Who were those fucking idiots?" Katsuki looked up at Eijirou with a frown.
"Kaminari and Sero." Eijirou said simply with an amused smile.
Of course. Their idiots.
Katsuki exhaled slowly, realising that the stairs probably weren't the best place for private conversations, considering that he could hear some of the girls approaching at a much more leisurely pace from another floor, and he quickly continued the trek up the stairs to the fourth floor, Eijirou following closely behind him.
"This is amazing." Eijirou sighed with a smile once they reached their rooms. There were silver placards on the wall, next to their respective rooms, with their full names carved into them, and Eijirou placed his hand on the one with his name. He then put a key in the keyhole and his smile widened when it unlocked the door for him. "This is amazing!" Eijirou repeated, now looking at Katsuki.
"It is." He muttered, successfully unlocking the door to his own dorm room.
He hesitated for a moment, as he slowly placed his hand on the handle.
It was just a stupid room, why was he so nervous?
“Why am I so nervous?” Eijirou laughed awkwardly next to him, as if reading Katsuki’s thoughts.
“The last time we were opening a door to an unfamiliar room, we were welcomed by fucking unicorn vomit and a heart-shaped bathtub.” Katsuki reminded him, and even though it definitely wasn’t the source of their nervousness, the memory of that fucking room on I-Island made Eijirou burst out in laughter, making Katsuki very pleased with himself.
“Oh God, that room!” Eijirou hollered, leaning against the door. “I can’t believe we almost-” He froze, cutting himself off abruptly, his face turning into a panicked expression as he started laughing nervously, much to Katsuki’s confusion.
“Almost what?” He asked carefully, honestly not sure what made Eijirou act this way out of the blue.
“Almost- almooooost uhh…” More nervous laughter as he glanced around, as if he was looking for answers on the walls. “Almost got killed by that villain there, eh?” He smiled awkwardly, visibly sweating as he waited for Katsuki’s answer.
“I… Yeah, I guess.” Katsuki blinked at him, still confused. “What-”
“Anyway, wonderful talking to you, gotta unpack now!” Eijirou opened the door to his room and went inside, immediately closing the door behind him, giving Katsuki no chance to utter another word.
What was that supposed to be?
“... Weirdo.” Katsuki muttered to himself with annoyance as he finally opened the door to his room, choosing to let the strange situation go, rather than try to press for answers.
Katsuki stepped inside his brand new room and locked the door behind him. He looked around, taking everything in.
The room was plain, with light walls and simple wood flooring. Everything was well lit, thanks to the sliding glass doors leading out to the small balcony. Aside from his moving boxes placed in the far corner of the room, there were also a few pieces of furniture already; a computer desk with a chair and a few shelves, which he had brought from his old room, as well as a bed with a bare mattress, and dresser, courtesy of UA, he assumed. Plus, there was also a built-in closet with just enough space to hang some clothes and possibly put some spare boxes in.
He could work with this.
Katsuki dropped his bag onto the floor and went to check the tiny bathroom. Nothing exciting, just a toilet, a shower, and a rather small sink with a mirror. It reminded him too much of the hospital bathroom, so he closed the door and looked around his new room again, his eyes immediately falling on the moving boxes.
Well, better get to work.
___
Around two hours later, he was nowhere near being done unpacking or organising his new room. At first he had moved the furniture around to resemble his old bedroom, probably out of habit, or maybe because part of him wanted to see some familiarity in this new place. Then he rearranged it all to have more space in the middle of the room, even moving his bed to be against the opposite wall, rather than the one he shared with Eijirou, before his stupid, lovestruck brain forced him to move the bed back to the shared wall.
Maybe he’d feel less lonely that way.
He shook off the embarrassment before glaring at the small dresser, the doors to the built-in closet, and then at all of his clothes, mostly still in boxes, before he groaned in frustration and forced himself to start putting them away. He was that much more annoyed because he had to refold most of them, and he refused to halfass even a task this mundane, so it was going to take a while.
Finally, after all of his clothes were in their proper place, Katsuki decided to take a break, since he still had an entire day to deal with the rest of his belongings that he wouldn’t need immediate access to. With that in mind, he slid the balcony door open and stepped out, looking around. There was just enough space on it to put out a chair and relax if he wished to do so.
“Hey, neighbour!” He heard to his right and turned his head to see smiling Eijirou leaning against the railing of his own balcony.
“Hi.” Katsuki answered with a chuckle and walked over to his own railing. There was about one metre of distance between them. “Taking a break?”
“Yeah, I never realised that moving some furniture around would be so exhausting.” Eijirou complained, stretching his arms over his head. “You’re probably done by now?” He asked with a teasing grin.
Katsuki chuckled, “not at all. I think I brought too many things.” He rolled his eyes, putting his elbow on the railing and resting his cheek on his hand. “Wasn’t sure how much I should bring.”
“I figured that if I didn’t bring something, I could always call my mom to send it to me, and she even said she’d drive here for me, but I don’t wanna bother her with something like that.” Eijirou shrugged, reminding Katsuki how much better Eijirou’s relationship with his mom was in comparison to his own.
Katsuki nodded, not sure how to respond without oversharing awkwardly.
“Good thing these rooms are bigger than I thought they’d be, otherwise I don’t know what I would do with my punching bag.” Eijirou said out of nowhere, and Katsuki couldn’t help the ugly snort that escaped him. He had to turn away and cover his mouth as he laughed more. “What!?” Eijirou yelled, laughing as well.
“Of course- of course you would bring a punching bag!” Katsuki wheezed, clutching at his stomach. “You’re fucking amazing.” He didn’t mean to say this, but there wasn’t an ounce of regret in him for doing so, especially when he looked at Eijirou again and he was grinning like an idiot with a blush.
“Sh-shut up, dude..” Eijirou muttered, avoiding eye contact and half-turning away from Katsuki.
He was so goddamn pretty.
Katsuki’s heart fluttered as he cleared his throat and moved closer to his railing and stared at Eijirou as he tried to regain his composure. He was so grateful to have a friend like that, someone who he could joke with and to be so close with, no matter what.
Someone who would try to save him without a second thought. Maybe… Maybe Eijirou didn’t expect anything in return. Katsuki wouldn’t want to be paid for saving his friend, he would just want his friend to be safe, so maybe Eijirou wouldn’t want to be paid either.
Without even really thinking about it, Katsuki reached out, and Eijirou followed his movements, reaching back slowly, carefully. Just as their hands were about to touch, someone yelled at them from above.
"HEYYY!!!"
Katsuki withdrew his hand immediately and leaned over the railing to look up with a glare, Eijirou doing the same, and they saw two guys leaning over the railing, staring down at them from the balcony above Katsuki’s. "Oh, Bakugou’s here, too!" One of them grinned, waving with both of his hands.
"Hey, Kaminari! Todoroki!" Eijirou quickly informed, before Katsuki could even try and focus on them enough to recognize them, not that he wanted to.
"Bakugou, you live right below me." Todoroki spoke up and Katsuki wasn’t sure if he was stating a fact, complaining or asking a question with a ridiculously obvious answer. "I'm so glad to see my best friend will be so close to me."
"I'm gonna throw up." Katsuki grimaced while Eijirou and Kaminari started laughing.
"Kaminari, what are you doing with Todoroki up there?" Eijirou asked after he had calmed down.
"I wanted to see what the view was like from up here, but Sero decided he wanted to finish unpacking first. He didn’t even let me in, for some reason." Kaminari complained and rolled his eyes. "But Todoroki here!" He smacked him on the back, "was kind enough to let me in!"
"Great story. Can't imagine why Horse Smile wouldn’t want you in his room." Katsuki deadpanned with a roll of his eyes and went back into his room, sliding the door shut before Kaminari could say anything.
He sighed heavily as he sat on the bare mattress of his new bed. He just wanted to have a nice moment with Eijirou, but the universe was making it very clear that he didn't deserve nice moments. Katsuki should have realised sooner that he’d also not have so.. desirable neighbours, but once again, he was too focused on Eijirou for this fact to even cross his mind.
At least all the walls were thick enough for him to not worry about Todoroki stomping in his room, probably keeping Katsuki up all night just because.
Katsuki glanced over his shoulder at the wall separating him from Eijirou and moved towards it on his bed. He pressed his ear against the wall and, just as he expected, couldn't hear whatever Eijirou was doing on the other side. At least, that was until he dropped something heavy and there was a very faint yelp that made Katsuki chuckle.
He took a deep breath before he decided that there was no point reminiscing on Eijirou’s doings, and got back to work.
___
Around 3pm Katsuki was almost done making the bed when there was a knock on his door. He sighed, setting down his pillow, then stepped between now empty boxes and unlocked the door, cracking it open just slightly. He peeked at the person on the other side with a frown.
“May I come in, Katsuki?”
The moment he recognized Eijirou, he was happy to let him in, fully opening his door and letting him step inside with a pounding heart, because what would Eijirou think about his room?
“Have you finished everything?” Katsuki asked nonchalantly and walked back to his bed to finish putting the fresh cover on the pillow.
“Kind of, it’s still messy with all the boxes and some clothes around, but I can at least sleep in peace. I even managed to find space for my protein shakes and the mini mixer my ma’ got for me!” Eijirou answered proudly, looking around and checking out some of the hero merch on shelves.
For a moment, his eyes locked on Katsuki’s family picture, placed face down on his desk, since he wasn’t sure where, or even if he wanted to place it anywhere in his room, but before Eijirou could ask about it, he tripped over the only box that was still full of stuff. “What the-”
“My hiking gear.” Katsuki explained simply, finally satisfied with how his bed looked and that Eijirou had gotten distracted.
“You hike?” Eijirou asked, his eyes shining with excitement as he plopped down on the floor and looked inside the box. “I always wanted to try!” He pulled a folded trekking pole out of the box. “Will you take me with you next time you go?” Eijirou looked up at him with pleading puppy eyes.
Katsuki took a deep breath as he stopped himself from squishing his cheeks in his hands.
“Sure, I’ll even choose an easier path for a novice like you.” Katsuki teased as he sat down on the floor next to Eijirou, allowing him to go through the box and look at anything that seemed at least a little interesting to him.
“Come on, we know I’m stronger than you.” Eijirou joked as he struggled to put a headlight on.
“Strength has nothing to do with it.” Katsuki chuckled, helping him with the apparently complicated process of correctly strapping the headlight on.
“Oh, so you’re not denying it?” Eijirou wiggled his brows, leaning closer to Katsuki who just rolled his eyes with a smile.
“No.” He stated, lightly pushing his face away from him in a lighthearted way. “I guess I’m just glad you’re finally recognizing your own strength in a casual way.”
Eijirou’s smile dropped as his eyes widened. “I- well.. Shit, I guess you’re right.” He chuckled awkwardly, bringing his knees to his chest. “I kind of had to, if I wanted to help anyone…” He looked to the side as he said that, and Katsuki knew exactly what he meant.
___
Eijirou hoped his face wasn’t as red as it felt. He just couldn’t believe that Katsuki was able to say something like this so casually, even though it happened so many times before.
He wanted to scream into a pillow, but in order to do that, he would have to leave and he didn’t want to leave Katsuki’s room just yet.
“Speaking of… helping.” Katsuki started quietly, eyes glued to the floor. “Why do you have Todoroki’s phone? Did something happen to yours when… you know…”
It was clear that Katsuki just wasn’t ready to openly talk about his kidnapping, to even call it by name, and Eijirou couldn’t blame him.
“It.. happened earlier than that but… I was just… very mad. Not at you!” He clarified immediately, seeing Katsuki’s betrayed expression. He just couldn’t stand seeing him like that, even for a second. “It was the picture.” Eijirou explained finally and held his breath as Katsuki seemingly realised what he’d meant.
"So you’ve seen it?" Katsuki asked quietly, staring down at his hands.
"Yes. For a short moment, before I broke my phone, and then Todoroki didn’t let me look at it again and loaned me one of his and-"
"You broke your phone?" Katsuki’s eyes shot up to him, staring with disbelief. “With your quirk?”
Eijirou nodded. "Yeah... I got very angry when I saw it." He chuckled humorlessly.
"... I'm so-."
"Hey, no, it's not your fault." Eijirou was quick to reassure and he placed his hand on Katsuki’s knee. “I should work more on controlling my quirk in situations like this!” He assured, pulling his hand back when he noticed Katsuki staring at it. “I’ve been breaking a lot of stuff lately…” He chuckled at the end with a shrug.
“Including your mom’s goggles?”
“How do you- ah…” Eijirou remembered that he had accidentally told Katsuki before he even finished the question. “Yeah… That’s on me, too…”
Luckily for him, she had just reported the goggles as damaged in action or something like that, she didn’t really bother him with details, and he was just glad neither of them had to pay for them.
“I want to finish cleaning here.” Katsuki stood up all of a sudden and Eijirou blinked at him, surprised.
Did he say something? He thought anxiously and stood up as well, taking this as his cue to leave. “I’ll be going down later to make some food, will you come with me?” He asked as he took off the headlight and gently put it back in the box, then stared at Katsuki who was occupied with going through his bag before he stopped and gave a firm nod. Okay then, Eijirou thought with an assured smile and walked to the door.
He pressed the handle and cracked the door open when he felt a hand on his shoulder and turned to face Katsuki, who had a weirdly unsure expression.
“Eijirou.” He stared at him for a moment, eyes serious and sharp.
“K-Katsuki?” He blushed for a reason unknown to him, but then he knew his face turned deep red when Katsuki embraced him, burying his face in the crook of Eijioru’s neck.
Holy shit holy shit holy shit- Eijirou’s helpful brain provided as he stood there in shock, because Katsuki. Hugged. Him. And not during a life threatening situation or in the aftermath of that. And all Eijirou could do was hold his breath, and before he could make up his mind and return the damn hug, Katsuki exhaled slowly, a warm breath tingling his skin.
“Thank you.” Katsuki whispered as he put something in Eijirou’s hand, then promptly pushed him out of the room and closed the door before Eijirou could even react.
Eijirou stood there for a few seconds, bewildered at what just happened, before he shook himself out of the shock and looked at what Katsuki had given him.
50,000¥ in cash.
What???
Was that.. Was that for the goggles? Was this some sort of pay back in Katsuki’s eyes for saving his life?
“Oi, Katsuki!” Eijirou slammed his hand on the door. “I can’t take all this!” Your life is worth more than that! He wanted to add, but stopped himself, thinking it would sound too sappy.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about!” Katsuki screamed through the door. “Go away!”
“FINE! But I’m treating you and our friends to a barbecue!” There was no way he was keeping all this cash to himself.
“WHATEVER!” Katsuki banged on the door from his side before going completely silent.
Eijirou was about to yell something back when he heard another door opening and he looked over there to see Shoji peeking out of his room.
“Everything okay?” He asked, fully stepping out.
“Oh… Uh- yeah! Sorry!” Eijirou quickly answered, a bit embarrassed that he was so occupied with Katsuki living next to him that he had completely missed the fact Shoji was his neighbour as well.
“It’s alright. The walls are thick, but I can hear everything happening in the corridor.” Shoji explained calmly, turning one of his limbs into an ear as if to prove a point, then without waiting for Eijirou to say anything else, he went back into his room.
Eijirou glanced at Katsuki’s door, still closed, still no sound coming from the other side, and he figured there was no point in starting an argument with him, so he went to his room, sighing when he closed the door behind him.
He decided to put the money in his piggy bank, designed to look like Fat Gum was swallowing the bills.
Then he looked around his new room, almost fully satisfied with how it looked, with all the motivational posters and some of his training equipment, as well as the window drapes with flames and camo duvet cover. It was manly as hell.
Now he just had to clean up the empty boxes and finish folding all his clothes.
He couldn’t wait to finally be done.
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“Katsuki?” Eijirou knocked on his neighbour's door. It was a few minutes after 6pm and he was starving, the few protein shakes he’d had during the day simply not enough for him.
He heard footsteps on the other side before the door opened, Katsuki greeting him with a suspicious squint.
“Wanna go to the kitchen and eat something?” Eijirou offered with a grin, knowing that Katsuki was currently trying to figure out whether Eijirou would mention the money or not, but after a few more seconds of what was undoubtedly a very complex thought process, Katsuki gave him a short ‘fine’, accompanied with an eye-roll as he locked his door behind him.
“Should I lock mine, too?” Eijirou asked, genuinely wondering.
“Do what you want, I’m just making sure nothing gets in or out.” Katsuki shrugged as he walked down the corridor, leaving Eijirou behind.
After initial confusion, and leaving his door unlocked, Eijirou caught up to him. “What do you mean, nothing gets out?” He asked bewildered.
Katsuki just snorted, lightly shoving him to the side.
“Alright, geez, keep your secrets.” Eijirou rolled his eyes, but he couldn’t help the playful grin spreading on his face as he smacked Katsuki on the back.
Eijirou’s smile then disappeared, because as soon as he did that, Katsuki tensed up, just as he used to do before they got closer, yet as fast as that happened, Katsuki composed himself, quickening his pace just a little bit so that Eijirou couldn’t see his expression.
… Huh?
Eijirou stayed behind for a moment, long enough to witness Katsuki stand in front of an open elevator, staring at it for an uncomfortably long time just to dismiss it at the end and head towards the stairs.
“Katsuki, are you..” Eijirou caught up to him on the first flight of stairs down. Katsuki looked up at him over his shoulder with an unreadable expression. “Are you okay?”
In an instant, his eyes were full of anger as he turned to face Eijirou, as if challenging him. “The fuck kind of question is that?”
“Wh-” Eijirou was speechless, blinking in confusion at a sudden 180.
Katsuki seemed to have realised what he was doing, slowly releasing the tension from his body but still glaring, his new target being the carpeted stairs. “Fuck...”
“Dude, I was just.. Checking up on you.” He said, for a lack of a better explanation, because he knew that if he said he was worried about Katsuki, his friend would blow up at him, literally and figuratively. “You can’t blow up at me like that for asking if you’re okay.” Eijirou continued when Katsuki kept staring at the floor with a deep frown.
“I know, alright?” Katsuki finally spoke up, shifting his weight from one leg to another. “I’m an asshole and I blow up at people that I- at my best friend.” He shrugged with a defeated expression.
It wasn’t what Eijirou wanted to hear; it wasn’t an apology, and he didn’t like that Katsuki was resolving to calling himself an asshole, not to mention the weird slip up just now, whatever that was about. But Eijirou could only sigh. He was too hungry and too tired after unpacking for the whole day to stay mad at Katsuki.
“Don’t call yourself an asshole.” Eijirou settled on as he stepped down the few stairs to be on Katsuki’s level. “Let’s just go eat, okay?” He gave Katsuki a reassuring smile when it seemed like he wanted to say something, but just settled on a firm nod.
They walked down to the first floor in silence, with Eijirou greeting Tokoyami as he walked up the stairs and past them, and Eijirou had to stifle a laugh when Katsuki whispered to him that he just couldn’t get over the fucking bird being in their class, the rest of the lingering tension between them finally fully dispersing.
“What do you want to eat?” Katsuki asked as they approached the kitchen area, then frowned when he realised the stove was currently occupied by Jirou, Ashido and Kaminari, something burning in the pan. “The fuck’s going on here?”
Jirou turned, mouth already opened as if she wanted to say something, but her jaw snapped shut when she realised it was Katsuki asking the question. She looked mildly uncomfortable in his company, a total opposite from their banter back at the camp, and Eijirou couldn’t help but wonder, what had changed?
But then again, what hasn't changed since that damn camp?
“Jirou was trying to help me salvage the bacon I burnt.” Kaminari complained while Ashido laughed and Jirou stayed uncharastically silent.
“Salvage something you fucked up? Impossible.” Katsuki smirked as he walked up to them, either not aware of Jirou slowly stepping away from him or simply not caring about her.
“That’s what I said!” Ashido nudged Katsuki with her elbow and he just rolled his eyes, taking a step away from her. “Psh, whatever, I know you love me!” She poked him with her finger, smiling at him and Eijirou noticed how Katsuki bit back an amused smile.
He was glad that Ashido had gotten over the situation from this morning so quickly.
“I’m sure it’s still edible!” Kaminari argued and somehow managed to stick the fork in the mostly burnt meat. “Look!” He shoved it in Katsuki’s face, right under his nose and Katsuki recoiled.
He put a hand over his mouth as he gagged on nothing.
“Okay, don’t be such a drama queen.” Kaminari rolled his eyes, making Ashido chuckle. Eijirou was about to laugh when he realised how sickly-pale Katsuki’s face had turned in a split second, his eyes wide with panic, watering as he started shaking. “Uh.. Kacchan?”
“Bakugou?” Jirou perked up, seemingly concerned by Katsuki’s change in behaviour.
“Hey, Baku…” Ashido reached towards him, but he just took a few quick steps back, away from her, away from anyone.
To say Eijirou was worried was an understatement. He had no idea what caused this sort of a reaction, or how to even begin helping Katsuki.
“Come on, sit down?” Eijirou spoke softly as he slowly approached, but Katsuki just shook his head. “Take deep breaths then, okay? Please…”
It took a minute for Katsuki to level out his breathing with Eijirou’s help. He even allowed Eijirou to put a careful hand on his back as the others stared with disbelief and worry. He knew that Katsuki didn’t like being exposed like that to anyone, even him, so Eijioru did his best to shield him from their eyes, and in the end Katsuki released a shaky breath through his nose, and slowly pulled his hand away from his mouth, as if making sure that he wouldn't actually throw up.
“Baku?” Ashido was first to be at their side when Katsuki composed himself, seemingly mad and anxious that the others had seen him like this.
“Don’t.” He choked out before clearing his throat and pushed away Eijirou’s hand in a surprisingly gentle way. “Don’t fucking mention this. To anyone.” He glared at their three friends and then at Eijirou himself, lowering his voice to a whisper. “Thank-”
“It’s amazing that you’ve filled it out so much already, Deku-kun!” Uraraka’s voice came from around the corner and Eijirou watched Katsuki tense up all over again.
“Yeah, ever since I’ve lost the other one I was worried I wouldn’t be able to rewrite all of my research.” Midoriya laughed awkwardly and came into Eijirou’s view with Uraraka. He was holding his hero research notebook, flipping through the pages, each one filled out.
Oblivious, they walked just behind Katsuki, and by the time Eijirou noticed his downright murderous expression, it was too late to react.
Katsuki turned and grabbed Midoriya by the shoulder, forcing him to take a step back and stumble backwards. Midoriya activated his quirk on instinct, green lightning surrounding his legs as he managed to stop himself from falling to the floor, but being focused on keeping his balance, he didn’t react in time to get out of the way of Katsuki’s explosion that pushed him into the wall.
“What the-” He coughed, confused. “Kacchan?” He squinted at Katsuki, whose eyes were full of blind rage.
Katsuki took a step towards him, and when Eijirou was about to step in, afraid both for Midoriya and Katsuki’s safety, Katsuki simply picked up the notebook that had fallen to the ground in the chaos.
Everyone stared in disbelief at Katsuki as he ripped the notebook in half, before using his quirk to burn it.
“Dude, what’s your damage?!” Kaminari asked from somewhere behind Eijirou, but he was too occupied by the slow heavy breaths from Katsuki, as if he was barely stopping himself from launching at Midoriya.
“Do you have any idea what happened to the previous one?” Katsuki addressed him and his tone was cold, voice shaking ever so slightly.
Midoriya, as confused as everyone else, glanced between the burnt notebook and Katsuki. “What are you-”
“DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT THEY DID WITH IT?!” Katsuki screamed, throwing the burnt notebook at Midoriya, uncaring that there were more people than just the two of them. “DO YOU HAVE ANY FUCKING IDEA WHAT SHIGARAKI AND HAGAKURE DID WITH THE KNOWLEDGE FROM YOUR FUCKING NOTES?!”
Eijirou’s eyes widened, and everyone at once seemed to have realised the same thing: Midoriya’s notebooks weren’t just a harmless hobby.
And Midoriya himself must have understood what he’d unintentionally contributed to, as he released a shaky breath, eyes filled with tears and voice wavering as he spoke, "I-I'm sorry-"
"Sorry?” But it seemed to have only agitated Katsuki further. “Fucking sorry?” His quirk went off, loudly, making Midoriya wince. “You think sorry is going to fix everything? That after all that happened because of your stupid obsession, I'm gonna forgive you, just like that?!”
“Kacchan, I didn’t mean for this-”
“If you want forgiveness, then go and take a swan dive off the roof!"
Everything went silent.
Eijirou refused to believe that Katsuki, his Katsuki, his best friend, the same person who laughed at his stupid puns and gave amazing hugs despite not being a fan of them, would say something like that.
That he would tell Midoriya to kill himself.
And it seemed that Katsuki was the first one to fully comprehend what he had said, because he inhaled sharply before slowly turning his head to look at Eijirou’s hurt expression. Katsuki then looked past him, probably at their friends standing behind him.
Katsuki took a deep breath before hanging his head low and hurriedly walking away without a word, leaving everyone in a state of shock.
Eijirou glanced at Uraraka who seemed both angry and terrified, then at Midoriya who kneeled down on the floor and tried to pick up the pieces of burnt pages.
“What was in that notebook?” Kaminari asked as he slowly approached and stood over Midoriya, who glanced up at him before looking back down at the remnants of the notebook on the floor with a deep frown. “Listen, I’m sorry about what Bakugou-”
“Don’t apologise for him…” Midoriya muttered as he collected some of the loose pages, and for once, Eijirou agreed with him.
“... Sure, but uhh..” Kaminari scratched the back of his neck, glancing at Eijirou for support that he wasn’t sure how to provide. “I just… You can’t… I don’t really want you to write anything about me, okay?” He sounded apologetic as he asked for the most reasonable thing.
Midoriya glanced up at him, then looked between the rest of them surrounding him before standing up. “I won’t. I’m… sorry you had to see all that.” He smiled and Eijirou couldn’t help but grimace at how fake that smile looked. “I’m gonna clean this up, don’t worry about it.”
“Are you going to tell Aizawa-sensei?” Uraraka asked with a worried expression.
Eijirou’s blood turned cold as he stared at Midoriya with unsure eyes.
“I’ll.. I’ll take care of it. Don’t worry. You can go now, I’m okay.” He assured everyone with a nonchalant wave of his hand. “Really, you can go.” He smiled as he threw away some of the pages.
Kaminari quickly nodded before disposing of the burnt food and going to the elevator with Jirou and Ashido, the latter sending Eijirou a worried glance over her shoulder before she left as well. Uraraka hesitated, especially when she realised that Eijirou wasn’t planning on leaving, but a simple ‘please’ mouthed by him was enough to convince her, even if she didn’t look happy to leave things like that.
Midoriya must have been so lost in his thoughts that he didn’t notice that Eijirou had stayed behind, because when he went to the supply closet and came back with a brush and dustpan, he gasped at his presence that he then tried to ignore as he crouched and started cleaning up the burnt mess that was still left on the floor.
Eijirou crouched next to him and held the dustpan as Midoriya gathered everything onto it.
“I’m not gonna tell on him.” Midoriya interrupted the tense silence as he stood up and Eijirou’s eyes widened.
“I wasn’t gonna-”
“I know but..” Midoriya took a deep breath, then took a few uncomfortable moments to think about what he wanted to say before settling on a simple, “It’s okay. Really.”
“Has he…” Eijirou started as he slowly stood up, not sure if he wanted to know the answer but he knew he needed to find out. “Has he said something like that before, to you?”
Midoriya slowly shook his head and Eijirou could breathe out with relief. “Never something like that, no.” He chuckled humorlessly as he took the dustpan out of Eijirou’s hand. “There was other stuff, but I guess I kind of deserve-”
“No, you don’t.” Eijirou interrupted. “No one deserves that.”
It seemed like Midoriya wanted to say something, to argue at worst and agree at best, but then a few of their classmates walked past them, Kouda with Ojiro and Satou heading towards the sofas and TVs, then Todoroki stepping into the kitchen area.
Right. Dorms. No privacy outside the rooms.
“Something wrong?” Todoroki asked as he stared intensely at the dustpan in Midoriya’s hand.
“No no no, not at all!” Midoriya rambled nervously, probably only making Todoroki more suspicious than anything.
“Hm,” Todoroki blinked expressionlessly, looking from the dustpan to Midoriya, then from Midoriya to Eijirou, then back to the dustpan, “Sounds fake, but okay,” and with that, he walked over to the fridge, grabbed a covered bowl of what looked like noodles, and headed towards the dining tables.
“Well, uhh… Thank you.” Midoriya nodded before throwing away the contents of the dustpan and rushing to sit down next to Todoroki.
Eijirou could tell he didn’t want to continue their conversation, so for the time being, Eijirou decided to clean up the kitchen, even going so far as to wipe down the stove and give the pan that Kaminari had been using a quick scrub before setting it to soak in the sink. He knew that he was just using cleaning up as an excuse to buy himself time to calm down and think, and he quickly ran out of things to scrub without breaking out the heavy duty cleaners.
After half an hour, he took the elevator up to his floor, almost running into Shouji as soon as he stepped out. He gave him a forced smile as Shouji walked past him and into the elevator, and once the doors closed, he made a beeline straight to Katsuki’s door and knocked with a bit too much force.
“Katsuki!” He yelled, slamming his hand on the door once more when there was no answer. He knew Katsuki was inside because he could see the light was on, thanks to a small gap between the door and the floor.
Why did he let him leave in the first place?
Why did Katsuki refuse to look him, of all people, in the eyes?
Eijirou couldn’t even tell if he was mad or disappointed or just simply sad that Katsuki refused to acknowledge him at that moment. He just wanted to talk to him, have him explain the situation from his perspective, cheer him up, damn, even try to help him apologise to Midoriya if he couldn’t do it by himself, but no.
He was being ignored, as if he didn’t matter.
As if their friendship didn’t matter.
"I know you're in there!" Eijirou kicked the door in annoyance, but when another minute passed and Katsuki didn't give a sign of life, Eijirou sighed with resignation and walked to his room.
There were still a few empty boxes he needed to get rid of, but for now he was simply too exhausted.
He decided to take a quick shower and put on his pyjamas, even if it was still early in the evening. That seemed to be the best course of action to take in order to calm down, for now at least.
After all was done, Eijirou's mood not improving in the slightest, he decided to get a bit of fresh air before going to bed. He slid open the door and stepped out into the small balcony.
It was a warm, summer night, perfect for a walk or going camping, and oh how he'd love to go camping with his friends someday, especially with Katsuki. If he were lucky, Katsuki would eventually take him on that hike, and it would be just the two of them.
But first, Katsuki would have to stop being a stubborn mule and actually talk about what happened.
Eijirou groaned, his frustration growing.
And that was when he heard the door on Katsuki’s balcony sliding open. He whipped his head to the left so fast it hurt and he ran up to the railing before Katsuki had a chance to even notice him.
"Katsuki!!!" He yelled, frankly unintentionally, as he barely stopped himself from jumping over the railing.
Katsuki stared at him for a good ten seconds before he looked away with a hard to read expression. He even made to go back inside his room, but Eijirou was having none of it.
"Don't." Eijirou said firmly, noticing how Katsuki’s eyes widened at the tone. "Listen, what you said-"
"I know." Katsuki interrupted as he hung his head low, hiding behind his hair.
"It was really fucked up." Eijirou finished anyway, causing Katsuki to finally look up at him with a shocked expression.
"I didn't.. I didn't mean it." Katsuki tried to explain himself, looking away with clear shame and clenching his hand on the glass door.
"But that doesn't mean it didn't hurt him, or others." And God it hurt so badly - to hear Katsuki say something like that, while in a state of fury Eijirou had never seen before, even when he went behind his back and found out about his face blindness.
"I fucking know. I'm sor-"
"Don't apologise to me!" It was Eijirou's turn to interrupt.
He didn't want to be angry at Katsuki. He knew he went through hell out there, and knowing that part of this was because Hagakure had stolen Midoriya's notebook, he knew that Katsuki’s fury was justified.
But not enough to tell someone to kill themselves. A voice in his head provided and Eijirou took a deep breath.
“Why did you say that..?” He asked in a calmer tone once he was sure Katsuki wouldn’t run back to his room.
“I…” Katsuki started. His shoulders were tense as he stared at the tiles on his balcony, once again refusing to meet Eijirou’s gaze. “I don’t know.”
“But you do know! There must be a reason!” Eijirou was aware he was trying to justify Katsuki in some way, even if he wasn’t sure how he would come around to accomplishing that.
“But there isn’t!” Katsuki yelled and Eijirou could hear the quiet popping of his quirk. “I’m an asshole and everyone’s scared of me and of what I say, deal with it!”
“That’s bullshit!”
“You’re bullshit.” Katsuki then stared at him with a challenge in his eyes and Eijirou did not enjoy being treated like that.
“Rude.” He snapped with a glare of his own. “What I am though, is trying to be helpful.”
“Well, I didn’t ask for that help! I don’t need help. I’m fine.” Katsuki barked at him, walking up to his railing, finally face to face with Eijirou.
“If you don’t need help then at least explain yourself!” He tried to reach across the railing to poke Katsuki in the chest, but he was just a bit too far away and Katsuki just swatted at his hand, both of them glaring at each other at this point.
“What's there to explain!? I said what I said, there’s no explaining that!”
“It’s not a normal thing to say to someone, no matter what!” Eijirou slammed his fist on the railing, denting it a bit as he had accidentally activated his quirk. “So fucking explain yourself so I can stop being mad.”
Eijirou was fuming, and he didn’t mean to swear or raise his voice, but he didn’t take his words back, even when Katsuki stared at him with shocked eyes and mouth slightly agape, his angry scowl gone. Katsuki blinked a few times before looking away as if he was embarrassed, and despite having the option to just walk away and close the door, he didn’t, so Eijirou’s outburst seemed to have worked in a strange way.
"He’s just..” Katsuki started quietly, clenching his hands on the railing. “He was just always like this. An obsessive… creep."
Eijirou frowned but didn’t say anything. They were finally getting somewhere and he could feel himself calming down as Katsuki took deep breaths.
“I was-” Katsuki stuttered one last time before going off like a machine gun, “I wasn’t liked, okay? But him being a late fucking bloomer without a quirk made him a straight up outcast, and he was always trying to stick with me of all people and he would always be asking me questions, about my face blindness, my quirk, my everything and he was always drilling his creepy big eyes into my back or staring at me with pity whenever a teacher would say something about me and, and, and-” he stopped, taking in quick shallow breathes.
Eijirou stayed silent. He felt like if he even tried to open his mouth, this moment would be ruined and Katsuki wouldn’t say anything else.
“And then.” Katsuki slammed his fist on the railing, causing Eijirou’s shoulders to jolt up. “Then his stupid quirk manifested, and he got into UA, and even though he constantly destroys himself with it, everyone still praises him over being a fucking amazing hero, even All Might loves the little bitch, while I-” he stopped and took a shaky breath. He covered his face with his hands and turned around, leaning back on the railing.
Eijirou swallowed the lump in his throat, feeling his eyes watering. He really wanted to reach out and comfort Katsuki, but he wasn’t sure if that would help at all, knowing that he didn’t even want to be looked at while in a state like this.
There was still a bit of anger left in him, knowing that there were plenty of layers to Katsuki’s behaviour and that he wasn’t going to get an entire story out of him tonight, maybe ever, and that none of that still would justify what Katsuki told Midoriya, but all of that was replaced by worry when he noticed that Katsuki’s shoulders started shaking ever so slightly.
Oh God, no.
“Katsu-”
"Why did I have to go through that?" Katsuki whispered, his voice small, broken as he struggled to breathe.
Eijirou didn’t know the answer.
"... Can I come over?” He offered quietly. “We can talk and.. Dunno…" He shrugged, even though Katsuki couldn’t see him.
In the ideal world, Katsuki would turn to face him again. He would let Eijirou see his crying face and would let him come into his room and they would talk and figure this all out.
But they didn’t live in an ideal world.
Because Katsuki froze, going dead silent as he held his breath, as if he had just realised what he said and he choked out a firm "No.”
“Katsuki…” Eijirou pleaded, reaching out to him once again.
“I’m fine… I just need to be left alone." Katsuki spoke in a levelled tone, sniffling quietly and still hiding his face.
"But-"
"I said I'm fine, okay? I'm fucking fine, for once listen to what I have to say and leave me alone!" With those hurtful words, Katsuki went back to his room, locking the balcony door behind him.
Eijirou frowned and sat down on the cold tile, leaning against the railing.
He just wanted to help, why would Katsuki push him away like that? Weren’t they past this? Has he gotten used to being an exception in Katsuki’s book?
Didn’t Katsuki trust him?
Frustrated with himself and Katsuki, he ran his fingers through his hair before forcing himself to stand up and walk back into his room. If it was a movie, Katsuki would be knocking on his door, asking for a conversation, or maybe he would try and call him if he didn’t want to be seen, but it was just stupid wishful thinking that only made Eijirou hate himself even more.
He knew he’s grown as a person, and wasn't afraid to take matters in his own hands when someone needed him, but why was it that when he wanted to help, he was being pushed away?
Was it wrong that Eijirou wanted to help? That’s what heroes do, right? It’s the manly thing to do.
Eijirou looked down at his shaking hands and realised he was on the verge of crying, from anger, from sadness, from frustration, for Katsuki.
Katsuki, his stupid, prideful, stubborn, wonderful friend that he couldn’t get through to.
“Shit…” Eijirou sobbed as tears streamed down his cheeks.
He wanted to lay down on his bed and just ignore the whole world, but his damn phone had different plans for him as it started ringing loudly in his quiet room.
Eijirou grabbed it from his desk, anxiety freezing the blood in his veins when he saw it was his mom calling, and he quickly wiped away his tears and blew his nose in a tissue.
He cleared his throat before he picked up. “Hello?”
“Ei-chan.” It was his ma’, calling from mom’s phone.
“Mama?” He asked, genuinely confused. He was convinced she wouldn’t be back until this Friday.
“I’m calling from Iwa-chan’s phone, mine’s charging.” She didn’t sound cheerful, or tired as usual after a flight back home. “She’s here too and you’re on speaker.”
“Hello, baby. Did you unpack everything?” His mom asked with a smile in her voice.
“I.. yeah… Ma’, why are you back?”
“There was a villain attack at the airport where we were supposed to land and we had to take a detour mid-flight, doesn’t matter.” She didn’t sound mad but there was still something off about her voice.
“Mama, are you okay?” Eijirou asked as he sat down on his bed.
“Ei-chan, your mom told me everything.”
He froze, cold sweat running down his spine as he immediately realised what she meant, but he decided to stand his ground.
“I-I’m not sorry.” He stated, barely controlling his voice from breaking.
“I know. I’m not mad at you, I’m just glad you’re okay.” And she didn’t sound mad, not at all, she genuinely seemed to be relieved that her son was in one piece and safe at the dorms, so why did the hot tears flood his eyes again?
“I’m.. not.” His breathing was shaky as he choked out.
“What?”
“I’m not okay, mama.” He whimpered into the phone, wiping away the tears that were quickly replaced by new ones.
“Oh… Ei-chan…”
“Eijirou, honey? Talk to us…”
Great, now they were both worried about him.
“I don’t- I don’t know what to do, ma’.” He completely broke down, sobbing uncontrollably as his moms tried to console him.
“Take deep breaths, baby, it’s alright.”
“You can tell us everything, Ei-chan, we can help you and we’ll deal with this together, okay?”
“O-okay…”
And Eijirou cried. He cried and cried and cried, and then he finally talked with his moms for what seemed like hours.
Notes:
I love you guys so much and you're all so amazing for sticking with me like this. Next chapter will have a way more hopeful and happy ending after the initial 'breakdown', so for the last time, please, be patient with me.
Also just a reminder, no provisional licence exam arc, so no Camie and Inasa, sorry 😔
Btw, now THIS chapter is the longest one, with 15.1k words jghlkdlckgjhgkh
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Up next; wrapping up the depressed Baku arc
Chapter 40: All Eyes on Me
Summary:
One last time, let’s get through this angst
Chapter Text
Katsuki woke up late.
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Waking up, Eijirou felt better than he anticipated he would after the evening he had. He was still a little bit embarrassed with himself over weeping into his moms’ ears for almost two hours as he explained what happened, but in the end he knew they’d already seen him at his worst. And besides, they’d always been good about reassuring him that it was manly to cry, and had done so multiple times during the phone call.
Eijirou smiled to himself as he finished spiking up his hair in front of his bathroom mirror. He was getting ready for the day, even though he wasn’t sure what he would do after the class meeting with Aizawa, where he would give them the class schedules for the new semester. He could probably check out his friends’ rooms, spend time with them. Maybe he could go and train a bit, to make sure he stays in good form.
Maybe he could convince Katsuki to spar with him.
You can’t save everyone, Ei-chan.
Eijirou stared at the sink as his ma’s words rang in his ears.
She was right. He knew she was, but he still wanted to go to Katsuki and somehow help him. That was his goddamn nature, and fighting those instincts to help people was against everything he stood for.
Eijirou took a deep breath.
Katsuki just… needed space. For now. No matter how much Eijirou wanted to help him, to talk to him, he had to step aside for the time being and simply observe, even though it hurt.
Maybe Katsuki’s pride was hurt, after all, and he had to come to terms with the fact that he had had to be rescued.
Eijirou stepped out of the bathroom and glanced at his desk, where the red shark pencil case was sitting. He’d gotten it at the arcade, thanks to Katsuki, but it felt like that had happened years ago, not just a few months, and Eijirou found himself sighing heavily. He really wanted to see how Katsuki was doing.
Eijirou looked up at his clock with flexing arms and figured it was about time for him to leave if he didn't want to be scolded by Aizawa, so he grabbed his phone, just in case, and walked out of his room, but stopped just outside after locking it.
Did Katsuki already leave?
Hesitantly, Eijirou knocked on Katsuki’s door.
After several seconds of waiting, he finally heard quiet footsteps approaching.
“What?” A strained voice came from inside, muffled by the door.
“It’s me, Eijirou.” He smiled at the door, hoping that Katsuki would open, but when nothing happened, he simply decided to continue. “Yesterday Aizawa told us to gather on the first floor, so he can give us new class schedules and talk about dorm chores and stuff…” Eijirou spoke quietly, close to the door.
"... He did?" Katsuki’s barely audible question made Eijirou raise a confused brow.
"Yeah, before he showed us the floor maps." He reminded. Was Katsuki not listening?
“I’m not going, I'm sick.” Katsuki said abruptly, and Eijirou’s eyes widened at the words, eyebrows shooting up.
“What? Why? You-” you were fine yesterday, Eijirou wanted to say but he bit his tongue, fully aware that Katsuki was not fine yesterday, no matter what he said. “Are you… okay?” He knew that this question was a lot, as harmless as it seemed, but maybe, in this situation-
“I caught a cold.”
Eijirou felt his stomach turn, a sour feeling making it turn unpleasantly, and he just barely refrained himself from cursing out loud when Katsuki started coughing almost immediately after his words, as if to prove that he was sick. And of course, Eijirou knew that he was faking it; the situation would have been comical if it wasn’t for the fact that Katsuki was lying to him.
“... May I come in?” He asked, mentally begging for Katsuki to agree, and hoping that this wouldn't be a repeat of the situation from last night.
“I don’t want you to get sick, too.” There was silence for a few seconds, and just when Eijirou wanted to open his mouth and call him out on his bullshit, Katsuki spoke up again. “Tell Aizawa I’m sick… Just… Tell me what he said. Or something. Okay?”
Katsuki needs help, but this isn’t a task for you, even if you’re his closest friend.
“... Of course.” Eijirou promised with a frown on his face.
“Great.” It was in a tone of now fuck off, and Eijirou just couldn’t handle that.
“Katsuki!” Eijirou heard himself yell before he could stop.
“What?” Katsuki sounded annoyed, but Eijirou found himself uncaring of that.
“No one..” He started hestitanly, then raised his voice a bit to make sure Katsuki could hear him, “No one’s gonna mention what happened last night.” He tried to assure, and when he was met with dead silence, he continued. “I won't even mention it, so…” He pressed his hand against the door. “So if you’re worried about that, don’t be… Just, please, come out.”
At that moment, he really wished he was born with a mind reading quirk or something, because Katsuki was still silent, still locked inside his room and still refusing to acknowledge the elephant in the room.
“Katsuki?” Eijirou was about to press down on the handle, hoping that the door was actually unlocked, when he stopped himself, fully aware this would only worsen the situation.
“I can’t.” Was Katsuki’s quiet answer and Eijirou felt like he was stabbed in the stomach.
“... Okay.” He whispered before he remembered he was still talking to the damn door. “Okay! I- I’ll be going now! See you later, Katsuki…” It felt wrong to leave, but maybe Katsuki really needed that space, after all.
“See ya.” It was an angry snap that felt like another stab to his guts.
He wanted to cry.
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“Where’s Bakugou?” Aizawa asked with a tiniest hint of alarm in his voice during attendance, and every single pair of eyes turned to stare at Eijirou.
He swallowed a lump in his throat before speaking. “He caught a cold.” He murmured, looking up at his teacher who did not seem convinced.
“In summer.” Aizawa squinted at him and Eijirou could only shrug, fiddling with his fingers.
After a few moments of heavy silence, Aizawa sighed with exasperation. “Grab the schedule for him."
Eijirou nodded, genuinely terrified.
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"Kirishima." Aizawa called out to Eijirou after dismissing everyone else, once again causing those who had lingered behind to look at him with either concerned or questioning glances. All Eijirou could do was clench his hands and wait for his doom.
Midoriya looked mildly terrified as he walked by Eijirou, as if he wanted to say that he hadn't said anything to Aizawa.
Kaminari and Ashido did walk away, but instead of going to their rooms, they hung around in the kitchen area, not so subtly looking at Eijirou and Aizawa on the other side of the common area. Sero even stayed with them, clearly suspicious of their behaviour, or maybe even he was concerned for Eijirou.
"What's actually happening with Bakugou?" Aizawa asked after they were completely alone.
Eijirou was tense as he fiddled with his fingers, cold sweat running down his spine as Aizawa stared at him with a questioning look, hands in the pockets of his pants.
"He's.. tired, I think." It wasn't the truth but it wasn't really a lie either. Eijirou could only imagine how Katsuki felt after all that's happened.
Aizawa sighed. "I understand that you might be thinking that you're protecting him, or that he might think he's too 'tough' to ask for help from a teacher, but he won't cope with whatever he's dealing with alone. Even you can't help him on your own."
You won’t accomplish anything by yourself.
Once again, his ma's words rang in his ears. She was right. Aizawa was right. But how was he supposed to say anything when he didn't even know what was going on?
"I just… Don't have anything to say, I guess…" Eijirou shrugged awkwardly as he refused to meet the teacher's stern gaze.
And there was no way he was going to say anything about last night.
Aizawa sighed again. "For what it's worth, I'm your homeroom teacher, and you can come to me with any issues you might have. Even after your curfew." There was a moment of unusual hesitation before Aizawa cleared his throat and added, "Just don't try to ask me for relationship advice."
Eijirou couldn't help the snort that escaped his nose before he covered his mouth with his hand. "Th-thank you, sensei…" His voice was muffled but the hero understood as he nodded and headed to the exit, leaving Eijirou alone.
"Kiri!" Ashido called out, waving for him to come over. "Did he ask about last night?" She asked with a worried expression once he joined them.
Eijirou shook his head. "He doesn't know."
"And how's Kacchan?" Kaminari asked with crossed arms. "I uh.. still think what he said was… shitty, but he didn't really seem like himself." He shrugged with a small frown, clearly not sure how to feel.
"He's…" Eijirou wanted to say a lot of things.
He's dealing with it. (He's depressed.)
He's alright. (He's miserable.)
He's fine. (He's not.)
"I'm not sure." Was what he settled on at the end, unsatisfied with his words just as much as Kaminari.
"What happened anyway?" Sero spoke up as he leaned against the counter. He was the only one out of the loop, and Eijirou tensed up.
"Last night Baku was… upset." Ashido explained, rather poorly, as she glanced between Sero and Eijirou.
"Yeah, I think he hasn't properly dealt with everything that happened…" Kaminari mused, kicking at the floor absentmindedly.
"Alright…" Sero seemed to understand the seriousness of the situation without having it fully spelled out to him.
Eijirou found himself appreciative of the fact that Sero wasn't trying to force the full story out of them, probably seeing that it was something hurtful to even recall.
"Do you guys need help, or…" Sero trailed off, glancing between the three of them. "Kirishima?"
"I think it's Katsuki who needs help right now." Eijirou released a humourless chuckle. "Not that he'll accept it." He added with resignation.
"Even from you?" Ashido looked at him with concern, and Eijirou could only shrug again.
"I mean," Kaminari walked up to him. "We can always storm his room." He nudged Eijirou with his elbow as he wiggled his brows. "Get him to talk about his feelings and such."
"That would definitely give us an opposite result of what you're expecting." Sero poked him on the forehead and Kaminari simply returned the favour. "Anyway," he swatted at the hand still near his face, "if you need me to tape his room and refuse to clean it until he talks about his feelings…"
Eijirou laughed, Kaminari and Ashido with him, which must have been Sero's intention as he looked very pleased with himself.
God, he loved his friends.
He loved that he could count on them like this. That if Katsuki expressed the need, he could count on them as well.
Eijirou just needed to give him some space, for the time being, maybe then he'd understand and come forward.
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"I've got a new class schedule for you!" Eijirou did his best to sound cheerful as he knocked on Katsuki’s door. "... It's uh.. not that bad!" He added after a few moments passed and Katsuki hadn't answered him.
He knocked again, and just as he started wondering if Katsuki was actually sick and couldn't get out of bed, he heard footsteps on the other side of the door.
"Just slip it under." Came Katsuki’s tired voice.
Eijirou felt his stomach sink when, once again, Katsuki didn't open the door.
But he had to give him space, so he simply crouched down and slipped the schedule through the gap between the door and the floor.
"... Are you hungry?" Eijirou offered, still crouching as he leaned against the door. "I can make you something to eat."
"No." Katsuki answered shortly and Eijirou wondered what sort of an expression he was wearing.
"Okay… You know where I am, if you need anything…" Eijirou stood up and went to his room, barely stopping himself from just tearing down Katsuki’s door.
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08:35:
Bubblegum: Baku!!
Bubblegum: last night was a bit wild but if you wanna talk about it, I'm here!
Seen: 08:38
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11:03:
Bubblegum: Baku?
Seen: 11:07
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14:48:
Bubblegum: heyyyy just wondering if you could teach me how to make curry hehe >:3
Delivered
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Eijirou was making himself some instant Ramen for a quick lunch when Jirou carefully approached him.
"Kirishima?" Her voice was quiet and unsure as she fiddled with her earphone jacks. "Is he.. okay?" She asked, and Eijirou didn't need her to specify who she was talking about.
"I'm not sure." He stated with a small frown as he stirred the noodles in the pot.
"Have you talked to him?"
Eijirou swallowed, clenching his hand on the chopsticks.
"... He just needs some space."
"... Okay, if you say so…" She turned away and walked towards one of the dining tables where Yaomomo and Uraraka were waiting for her.
Looking around, Eijirou realised that most of the class was there, eating or chatting or just watching TV.
And Katsuki was alone in his room.
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10:25:
Dictionary: you certainly don’t wanna talk about what happened
Dictionary: but
Dictionary: I’m totally here for you, dude
Seen: 10:26
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10:50:
Dictionary: Okay, but if you don’t wanna talk to me, at least talk to Kirishima :((
Delivered
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"Weird question." Eijirou leaned on the back of the couch Shouji was sitting on, going through the TV channels, probably checking what was on.
"What is it?" Shouji asked as he muted the TV and put down the remote, turning in his seat to better meet Eijirou’s eyes.
He was aware that asking this would make anyone slightly suspicious of his intentions, but he needed to know. "... Did you happen to hear Katsuki leave his room today?" Eijirou spoke quietly, even if their classmates gathered around the other TV were too occupied by one another to even notice Eijirou was there.
"Bakugou?" Shouji tilted his head, and when Eijirou nodded, he hummed to himself and closed his eyes. "I don't think I did."
"Have you seen him around, at all?" Eijirou pressed further, knowing damn well how weird he sounded, and probably causing alarm when there was no need for it.
"No… Why? Did something happen?"
Eijirou sighed as he straightened his back. "No… Don't worry about it. Sorry."
Did Katsuki really not leave his room today at all?
Eijirou must have looked miserable, because Shouji was quick to provide explanations as to why he might not have seen Katsuki around. "For the record, after Aizawa let us go, I went with Tokoyami to his room and we spent half the day there, before we came here to eat and check out the TV. We might have simply missed him."
As if on cue, Tokoyami appeared and sat down next to Shouji on the couch with a small bowl of sunflower seeds that he started feeding to Dark Shadow.
Eijirou decided not to comment on it, barely holding back a chuckle at the view.
"Did you want to join us, Kirishima?" Tokoyami asked, gesturing at the empty space on the couch.
"No, thank you." Eijirou sent him a smile before he sighed and decided to check with the person he knew had a similar sleeping schedule to Katsuki’s.
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He knocked on Iida's door, which opened almost immediately.
"Kirishima-kun! What can I do for you?" Iida asked with his usual eagerness and robotic hand movements.
"So… Umm.. I have a.. strange question." Eijirou started, not sure how to approach the topic with him. There was no way Eijirou would know how Iida would react, considering his history with rash decisions.
"Is it about the new class schedule? Don't worry, Kaminari-kun and Uraraka-kun had questions, too, and as the class president I-"
"No, no, no." Eijirou interrupted with an awkward chuckle. "No, it's uh…" He scratched the back of his neck.
"... Would you prefer to talk inside?" Iida offered, a bit more serious as he stepped aside and opened the door wider.
"No, thank you." Eijirou just smiled, a little surprised by Iida's genuine demeanour. "Okay, shit, uh… what time do you wake up?"
Iida blinked at him, clearly surprised by the question. "5:30am, why?"
"And what's your morning routine?"
"If it's about the dishes in the kitchen, then I can assure you that I cleaned after myself this morning and-"
“No, gosh, no!" Eijirou couldn't help but laugh.
It was amazing that Iida's current concern was the dishes, while Eijirou was worried whether his best friend was eating or leaving his room at all.
"Okay, did you see Katsuki around? Downstairs I mean, in the morning, or even later?" Eijirou finally asked, his heart pounding as his classmate put a hand on his chin, deep in thought.
"Can't say that I did." Iida answered, sounding almost apologetic as he noticed Eijirou’s shoulders dropping. "I woke up, went on a jog around campus, and then ate breakfast. Midoriya joined me for a moment as I started eating but he went to train on his own and then I walked by Tsuyu-chan-kun and Uraraka-kun, as I was going back to my room around 7am. Then we all met at 9am with Aizawa."
"I see…" Eijirou muttered.
So Katsuki wasn't there in the early morning either.
He wasn't there for lunch, and Eijirou didn’t hear him when he came back upstairs and stayed in his room for a while, and now that the time for dinner was approaching, Eijirou was almost sure that Katsuki hadn't left his room at all.
"Is everything alright with him?" Iida's question brought him back to earth, and Eijirou ran his fingers through his hair as he took a deep breath.
"I don't know." Eijirou said honestly. He was just tired of Katsuki’s stubbornness. Tired of not being able to help.
"... It might not be my place to say anything," Iida started as he put a hand on Eijirou's shoulder, "but with everything that happened to him, whatever the details, he might need some rescuing once again." Iida's face was as serious as when he held onto Midoriya and Todoroki, when All For One appeared and they wanted to rush into action.
Eijirou closed his eyes as he took in a deep breath and then slowly released it, trying to keep his emotions at bay.
"We can tell Aizawa or Nezu-"
"NO!" Eijirou didn't mean to swat at Iida's hand like he did. "Shit, sorry, I just-"
"I'm worried, too." Iida said in a kinder tone. "I almost lost my brother to a villain, and then I rushed after him without thinking. That almost cost me my life, and the life of my closest friends." He clenched his hands and took a deep breath as he visibly tried to hold back that he was still upset over the memory. "And.. even though it all ended well, my brother is still suffering the consequences, the trauma… But he doesn't let it show. I'm just his younger brother, after all. He doesn't want to worry me." Iida scoffed, crossing his arms, before he sighed. "What I’m trying to say is… I might not have a close relationship with Bakugou-kun, but I think he might be hiding from you, from everyone, on purpose. I understand how frustrating it is that he won’t simply accept the help that he needs, despite the two of you sharing such a close relationship. And I understand that you still wish to help him, at all costs." Iida ended with a reassuring smile, and Eijirou found himself speechless.
Iida… understood.
Of all people, Iida, who Eijirou had developed a slight aversion towards, understood how he felt.
And he was right.
Eijirou was painfully aware that Katsuki just didn't want to worry him further. That he was probably ashamed of how he had reacted last night, and that he was fucking miserable because of whatever he went through after getting kidnapped. And that he just didn't want to look weak in front of anyone.
Even Eijirou.
Maybe Iida wasn't as big of a hypocrite as Eijirou took him for.
"... I'm sorry." Eijirou finally spoke, eyes locked on the floor. "And thank you, I… really appreciate it." He smiled up at him.
"Of course." Iida nodded. "As the class president, it's my duty to make sure everyone's alright!" There was that dedication and almost violent hand movements again, although it seemed like he was just joking around this time.
Eijirou allowed himself to chuckle before he sighed. "I think.. I think I'm gonna give him some more space and try to talk to him tomorrow." Eijirou decided with newfound determination. "Thank you, Iida."
"Thank you for trusting me with this problem. I promise not to tell anyone, even Aizawa-sensei if he asks me!" Iida put his fists on his hips, as if trying to pose like a pro and Eijirou grinned at him.
He felt like he could trust Iida with this one thing.
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Eijirou had to refrain himself from knocking on Katsuki’s door as he walked by and went to his own, locking himself in with a heavy sigh.
He really hoped Katsuki would get better by tomorrow.
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Katsuki couldn’t sleep.
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As weird as it might have seemed, the next day Eijirou decided to camp out in the common area, just to see if Katsuki came down at all. He even made sure to wake up earlier than usual, which reminded him of the time when he spent the entire week coming to school early, just to catch Katsuki alone. To confront him about his strange behaviour and confirm that he had face blindness.
… Huh.
Eijirou sat down at the dining table with a bowl of fried rice that he had made for himself for breakfast, facing the stairs and elevators.
Back then, it had seemed like the only logical thing to do; confront Katsuki head on, don't let him come up with excuses, don't let him escape the situation. And aside from the part where he had essentially spied on his classmate, which admittedly was an asshole move, the head on approach seemed to be the best one.
Maybe it was still something he needed to do, if Katsuki wasn't going to come to him? To anyone?
Maybe he needed to straight up tell him that he wasn't alone. That he needed help. That it was okay to cry in front of other people…
Eijirou sighed and poked at the rice in his bowl.
He still had some time to decide.
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After a few hours, Eijirou started to feel really stupid. Every time he heard the elevator, or even just footsteps, he would stare with anticipation and a pounding heart, before sighing with defeat whenever it was anyone but Katsuki.
Yeah. He felt stupid.
Especially when Sero compared him to a dog, waiting for his master.
“I’m not a dog.” Eijirou muttered, slightly offended, as he fiddled with a remote. He wasn’t paying any attention to what was going on on the TV, he just wanted some background noise to distract him from his thoughts, and Sero’s attitude wasn’t helping.
“You almost threw the remote in frustration when you saw it was me approaching and not Bakugou.” Sero rolled his eyes as he called him out. “He’s not coming down here, man, you can’t fix whatever happened by just sitting here and waiting for him to come to you.” He placed his hand on Eijirou’s shoulder, his tone a bit more sympathetic as he continued. "I know he likes his space, but we both know he's got enough of it already…"
Eijirou sighed, dragging his hands down his face. “I know. I just- I’m gonna talk to him later, okay?” He looked up at him, and saw genuine worry painted on Sero’s face.
“If you say so…” Sero turned to walk away, tapping something on his phone.
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14:08:
Horse Smile: dunno what happened but don’t shut yourself away from everyone
Delivered
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14:30:
Horse Smile: bro, come on, Kirishima’s looking like a sad puppy with his stupid big eyes
Delivered
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“Maybe just act normal?” Kaminari asked as he played tetris on his phone, brows furrowed in focus.
“Huh?” Eijirou snapped out of his thoughts, trying to fix the remote that he had dropped when he’d thought Katsuki was coming, causing some of the buttons to fall out.
(No, he did not throw it, shut up, Sero.)
Why was this remote so poor quality, anyway??
“With Kacchan, I mean. Maybe just… don’t talk to him about what happened.” He shrugged, pouting when he messed up one of the rows.
They were sitting alone on one of the couches, with Midoriya, Uraraka and Todoroki messing around in the kitchen area, too far to hear anything they were talking about.
“I already told him that no one would try talking to him about what happened.” Eijirou slumped down in his seat with a frown, giving up on fixing the remote.
“I mean, don’t acknowledge it at all.” Kaminari put his phone on the coffee table and faced Eijirou. “Like, just invite him to hang out with us in the evening, no mention of the.. You know.” He tilted his head towards the kitchen where Midoriya just got flour all over his shirt.
“... That’s not gonna help him in the long run.” Eijirou muttered and let his quirk ripple through his fingers, the feeling of it strangely comforting. He really appreciated Kaminari’s efforts to help him and Katsuki, but he couldn’t shake off the feeling that it would only make things worse.
“But it might help him relax right now.” Kaminari gave him a reassuring smile. “Not to mention, this guy needs to learn to ask for support.”
At most, you need to communicate to him that it’s okay to ask for someone’s help.
He’s too stubborn for that, Eijirou had said to his mom during their long phone call, and he still thought it was true at that moment.
"Come on, it'll be fun to play some games." Kaminari poked him in the cheek, causing Eijirou to smile involuntarily.
Eijirou leaned away, falling on his side before he took a deep breath. “... Alright.”
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Eijirou finally began to make his way upstairs later in the evening, while his friends set up Kaminari’s console so they all could play together downstairs. Sero and Ashido were more than supportive of Kaminari’s idea, worried about Katsuki and simply wanting to spend time with their friend.
He smiled to himself, thinking of how lucky he was to have the friends that he did as he came to the top of the second set of steps; he wasn’t in bad shape, but he definitely wasn’t used to walking up so many stairs every day, and he wanted to make sure that Katsuki wouldn’t have to stop and wait for him to catch his breath at every floor. Once he decided to finally come out of his room, that is.
Eijirou thought back on the past two days, of how supportive and concerned his friends had been, both for his own well being, as well as Katsuki’s. He knew that he certainly wouldn’t be where he was now if it hadn’t been for the overwhelming support of his moms and his new friends. Maybe Katsuki just needed to be reminded that he didn’t have to be alone, that he never had to be alone, but also that it was okay if he needed a little bit of space to sort himself out, as long as he wasn’t hurting himself by-
Oh god.
The fond smile fell from Eijirou’s face, and he felt dizzy with panic as the blood drained from his face, his whole body feeling cold as the intrusive thoughts came forward and didn’t stop.
Katsuki hasn’t eaten in two days.
No one has seen Katsuki for two days.
No one has heard Katsuki for… for how long?
Did I check on him this morning?
No, I was waiting for him to come downstairs and eat.
What if he couldn’t come downstairs?
What if he couldn’t eat?
What if he had-
What if he was-
No.
No, no, no, no, no, no-
Eijirou broke into a sprint, taking the stairs two at a time. At one point he felt something give underneath his foot with a crack, but he barely heard it over the sound of his blood rushing through his head and the desperate mantra of no, no, no, no, no, please, no racing through his mind. He threw himself up the last few steps, the momentum carrying him through the door to his floor, and he didn’t even bother to stop and see if he’d knocked it off of its hinges, instead racing to Katsuki’s door and banging his fist against it in a blind panic.
“Katsuki?! KATSUKI!!! Open the door!!” He didn’t stop knocking, he wasn’t sure he could, and he was pretty sure from the tightness in his chest that he was on the verge of sobbing. “Please, Katsuki!!! PLEASE open the door!!”
The door finally opened, and Eijirou had barely let out a sigh of relief when he was faced with a very tired looking Katsuki, so tired that he didn’t even try to glare at him, and any relief he felt was quickly replaced by worry.
“The hell are you screaming for?” Katsuki asked, voice raspy.
Aside from looking tired, Katsuki seemed… bad. Just generally really fucking bad, with deep bags under his eyes, his skin was weirdly pale, face sallow, his hair very obviously tangled and unkempt. His shirt and sweats had definitely seen better days as well, not to mention the very distinct smell of Katsuki’s quirk, stronger on his person than usual.
Are you okay? Eijirou almost asked before he remembered what Kaminari had told him. “Wanna join us for a game tournament?” Eijirou smiled at him, forcing himself to sound calm and cheerful while his heart rate slowly returned to normal. He noticed that it seemed like Katsuki had been sitting in the dark, and he wondered whether he was asleep or just.. didn’t care about the lack of light.
“... Why?” Katsuki squinted at him, his hand tightening on the handle.
“Bro, to hang out?” Eijirou chuckled, not sure what Katsuki meant by his question. “Dunno, we just wanna spend time together. It’s just gonna be us, Kaminari, Ashido and Sero. And I think I saw Kouda at the other TV, but he was watching some documentary and didn’t really seem interested in playing with us.”
“Who..?” Katsuki tilted his brows in confusion.
Ah, right. “One of the taller guys? He's really shy, doesn’t talk much, looks a bit like a tree..?” Eijirou explained, to the best of his ability, but it didn’t look like Katsuki knew who he was talking about. “A-anyway, please join us? It’ll be fun to have you there!” Eijirou assured with a wide grin.
Katsuki stared at the floor for a few moments, visibly pondering Eijirou’s offer, and just as he was going to assure him that, again, no one would say anything about the other night, Katsuki finally looked up at him.
“I’ll come. Later.” And he closed the door without waiting for Eijirou’s reaction.
“Oh! Okay!” Eijirou couldn’t help the happy giggle that escaped him, still a bit jittery from his previous panic as he leaned against the door, so that Katsuki could hear him better. “We’ll be waiting! Prepare to have your ass kicked!” There was a slam on the other side and Eijirou just laughed, stepping away and heading straight to the elevator. He had gotten plenty of steps today.
As soon as the elevator doors slid closed, his smile disappeared. He was genuinely happy that Katsuki would join them, but there was this sour feeling in his stomach that made him painfully aware that something was very wrong. He knew that Katsuki would obviously rather bottle everything up than just share his problems with anyone, no matter how much he wished he could change that.
He sighed, a bit tiredly, then promptly flinched when the door opened and he was faced with his friends, all three of them eagerly awaiting the news.
“So?” Ashido ushered him out of the elevator, pulling him by the wrist.
“Uh.. He said he’ll join us later.” Eijirou explained, unable to hide the hopeful smile spreading on his face.
“Woo!” Ashido and Kaminari high fived while Sero sighed with relief.
“Honestly? For a moment I thought he’d died up there.” Sero tried to joke, but Eijirou must have pulled a face because after the initial chuckle, Ashido smacked Sero on the shoulder, hard, judging by the way he jolted away from her. “Okay, sorry, jeez!”
“Alright, let’s go play!” Kaminari was already on his way, Ashido right behind him, the two of them loudly arguing which one of them would get to play as Princess Peach.
“... Did he look alright?” Sero asked as they slowly walked to the couch.
“Not at all.” Eijirou said with a grimace. Sero patted him on the back.
___
Eijirou had successfully managed to distract himself by kicking Kaminari’s ass with Wario for half an hour, when Ashido began rapidly patting him on the shoulder. He turned to her, ready to accuse her of cheating, when she just pointed towards the kitchen area, and Eijirou turned his head so fast it hurt.
Katsuki was there.
Without thinking, he got up from the couch, ignoring Kaminari yelling from his place on the floor about losing, and basically sprinted to where Katsuki was standing at the open fridge.
“Hey!” Eijirou exclaimed, probably with a bit too much volume, based on how Katsuki tensed up as he glanced over his shoulder.
His eyes widened for a moment as he recognized Eijirou, then visibly relaxed and just nodded at him before going back to looking through the contents of the fridge. Eijirou then noticed that Katsuki had brushed his hair and changed his clothes.
“Hungry?” Eijirou asked, knowing the answer already, because unless Katsuki had a stash of food in his room, he knew he hadn’t eaten anything since at least last night.
“Not really…” Katsuki muttered with a frown but reached for one of the vanilla yoghurts anyway. It wasn’t a proper meal, but Eijirou decided not to comment on that. Katsuki silently closed the fridge then reached for a spoon and slowly moved towards the couch where their friends were sitting and yelling about the game, Eijirou right next to him.
He wasn’t used to Katsuki being so quiet. It was almost eerie.
“There’s no pressure to play, if you don’t want to.” Eijirou assured him, dancing around the subject of Katsuki’s well-being.
Katsuki scoffed, “I’ll do what I want, I don’t need your pity.”
Eijirou decided to keep his mouth shut, even though he wanted to scream that it wasn’t pity and that he was just worried and wanted Katsuki to simply ask for help.
“Kacchan! Hey!” Kaminari’s cheery voice resounded, snapping Eijirou out of his thoughts and making Katsuki mutter some swears under his breath.
“Ready to have your ass kicked?” Sero asked with a mischievous grin as he raised his pad. He moved from the couch to the floor, next to Kaminari, as if he wanted to make space for Katsuki.
“I’m busy.” Katsuki deadpanned, raising the yoghurt in his hand before he plopped down on the couch, as far away from Ashido as possible, who just pouted at him.
Eijirou sent her an apologetic look but she just waved her hand, as if she wanted to say that it was all okay and he had nothing to worry about. Eijirou smiled at her before sitting down between them, a little bit closer to Katsuki than necessary, but his friend didn’t seem to mind, even when he moved his leg so that their knees were brushing, not that it was intentional, but it still made Eijirou blush a little.
They continued racing, with Eijirou losing more as he was distracted by Katsuki, constantly checking if he was actually eating the damn yoghurt (he was, just barely), and making sure he wasn’t showing any signs of being uncomfortable.
They barely finished another race when Iida appeared at their spot, glancing at an oddly oblivious Katsuki with a faint smile before he spoke to them as a group.
“Excuse me for disturbing you,” he started, looking between them while Sero paused the game, “but I had unfortunately missed the news at 6pm, and there is a similar segment on a different channel that starts in ten minutes; since you can pause your game, I decided not to disturb Kouda-kun, as he is watching a very informative documentary about insects, which might help improve his quirk, so I kindly ask-"
“Dude, breathe!” Sero laughed, Kaminari with him. “Yeah, of course you can watch the news, right guys?” They all nodded, but Eijirou didn’t fail to notice how Katsuki tensed up at the mention of the news.
“Thank you!” Iida bowed stiffly before sitting down between Ashido and Eijirou, forcing him to scoot closer to Katsuki who luckily didn’t seem to mind. Honestly, Eijirou would prefer that he complained, instead of just sitting there silently. He did move, though, to put the barely touched yoghurt on the coffee table, before sitting back down.
"Where's the remote?" Iida asked and raised a brow when snickering Kaminari handed him the remote with two missing buttons and some of them pressed in. "What-"
"Don't ask." Sero warned, glancing at embarrassed Eijirou and slowly shaking his head.
They spent two solid minutes trying to switch between the console and the cable TV with the faulty remote, but after forcefully pressing the buttons, Iida was finally able to switch the channels.
“-few of them were caught, but Shigaraki and the UA Traitor are still at large.” Came from the TV and Eijirou froze in his seat. It was some sort of a late-evening debate show, before the last news segment. "And what if they're planning something?" Some man with pale blue skin turned to the other, important-looking guy who was apparently a so-called expert on the matter.
"Well, that's obvious. Since their leader, All For One, had been caught, they'll be seeking revenge."
"Turn it off." Katsuki whispered and Eijirou looked at him to see his face had turned sickly pale, his quirk popping in his hands as they trembled in his lap.
“And that Magne?" The first man spoke up again. "How do we know he’s really helping the police and not just buying himself some time?"
"She's not-" Katsuki clenched his jaw, hanging his head low.
"Iida, turn it off." Eijirou demanded as he stood up to shield Katsuki from the TV.
"I'm trying-"
"It's hard to say, his intentions seem genuine, but unless Bakugou Katsuki speaks up about what happened, we have no proof that Magne was actually helping the boy."
"Turn it off!" Ashido yelled as she snatched the remote from shocked Iida, hitting it against her palm a few times, trying to get it to work.
"Ah, the same Bakugou Katsuki who refused to speak to the police! Maybe he and Magne are in cahoots?" The man laughed, the other one just chuckled, waving his hand nonchalantly.
"You're not the only one thinking that, actually! Those questions are on everyone's minds; How do we know he's not a double agent? Maybe he was planted there, at the Kamino Ward, to hold All Might back so that All For One could defeat him more easily and take his quirk away? Maybe that's not even the real Bakugou Katsuki! But we'll never know for sure!"
A picture of Katsuki taken from behind some bushes, as he was leaving the hospital building with his dad, appeared on the screen behind them. Eijirou felt his blood boil.
"Are they even allowed to say that shit!?" Sero yelled, already grabbing the remote from angry Ashido and trying to make it work, to no avail. "Fuck, damn it!"
"You said they might be seeking revenge, on whom?"
"All Might would be at the top of the list, but seeing the state he is currently in, he might not be the priority. Of course, someone might strike from the inside again, and Shigaraki wouldn’t need to even do anything."
"Someone like Bakugou-"
In a split second, Kaminari jumped over the coffee table and overcharged himself while touching the TV, completely destroying it in the process.
A few seconds filled with tense silence passed before Kaminari turned to them with thumbs up and absent gaze, drooling a bit as he made weird noises in his short circuited state. Ashido sighed before she walked up to him and helped him sit down on the floor so that he wouldn't hurt himself.
Despite Kaminari’s meaningless babbling, they all heard a quiet yet heartbreaking sob.
The air was still, everyone holding their breath as they slowly turned to look at Katsuki, his head still hung low as he covered his mouth with his hand, body shaking.
"Katsuki…" Eijirou started quietly as he crouched down in front of him, but before he could catch a glimpse of Katsuki’s expression, he shot up to his feet and turned his back to them.
"Baku, those guys were just idiots…" Ashido tried as she stepped closer to him.
"No one takes those programs seriously!" Sero spoke up as well.
"Bakugou-kun, I can assure you that I didn't know such program would be airing-"
Iida's rambling became background noise as Eijirou watched Katsuki shake his head, his body still shaking, hand covering his mouth, and he couldn't help but wonder why hasn't he left yet. Then Katsuki took a stiff step forward, just for his knees to almost give up underneath him.
Eijirou was painfully aware that with whatever was going on in Katsuki's head, he definitely didn't want to be seen like this.
He stepped closer to him and put a hand on his shoulder, "Katsu-"
An explosion went off and Eijirou hardened his hand on instinct in time for Katsuki to turn with his quirk activated and Eijirou stumbled back as he was hit, his skin unharmed, but he still yelped awkwardly with surprise anyway.
He quickly collected himself and looked back at Katsuki with slight shock, but when their eyes met, Katsuki’s were full of fear and panic, like a wild animal that's been caught and beaten.
"No, Katsuki, it's alright-!"
"STAY BACK!" Katsuki screeched at him, making Eijirou flinch at the volume, then Katsuki froze as he looked between everyone present, all of them quiet behind Eijirou, before he turned and all but ran to get away.
They stood there, completely frozen even when Katsuki had disappeared from their sight.
Ashido broke the silence with her quiet question, “Should we tell Aizawa..?”
“No.” Eijirou said firmly as he turned to her. “At least- at least not for now…” He added in a calmer tone.
Iida coughed into his hand. “But how are we gonna explain the TV-”
“Dude, priorities.” Sero interrupted with a deep frown.
“... Right. Apologies.”
Eijirou wasn’t sure what to do. He wanted to go after Katsuki but, at the same time, he knew he wouldn’t be able to do anything to really help him, not to mention Katsuki was too prideful to allow anyone to get close at a moment like this-
Although, he’s probably the type of person who needs things like this to be forced down his throat.
Eijirou's mom had had a point with the comment she’d intended to be a joke.
“... I’m going to him.” He announced and hurried towards the elevator, ignoring anyone calling out to him.
No more space.
___
Eijirou caught up to Katsuki just in time to stick his foot between the frame and the door as he was closing it.
“What the-”
“I’m coming in!” Eijirou forcefully pulled the door open. Katsuki stumbled back with a shocked expression and Eijirou used this moment to get inside and close the door behind him. “Don’t you dare try to tell me everything’s fine! You’re not fine! Nothing’s fine!” He raised his voice as he walked up to him, Katsuki’s expression changing from one of shock into anger.
“Get the hell out of-”
“No!” Eijirou yelled in his face. “Get this into your stubborn head, you don’t need to be alone!”
Katsuki took in a sharp breath, his eyes filling up with tears before he turned his back to Eijirou, his shoulders shaking as he forced himself to not make a single sound.
“Katsuki, please, tell me what’s happening.” Eijirou spoke quietly, keeping his distance so as to not scare him away again. “I might not be able to help, but you can’t bottle everything up like this.”
Katsuki didn’t answer, instead he furiously wiped at his face as he tried to take in deep breaths.
"Please, everyone’s worried…” Eijirou said and didn’t miss how Katsuki tensed up. “Our classmates ask me if you're okay and I can't answer them, because I don't know."
“Don’t fucking lie to me.” Katsuki’s trembling voice was cold as he clenched his fists at his sides.
“Wh- why would I lie about something like this?” Eijirou really wanted to reach out and force Katsuki to face him. Maybe then he’d be able to tell what was going on in his mind.
Katsuki laughed. “They don’t want me here, why the fuck would anyone be worried?” He laughed and it was terrifying and Eijirou was at a loss of words, even more so when Katsuki continued in a levelled tone. “My mother doesn’t want me. UA students hate me. Even the fucking principal of Shiketsu didn’t want me around, what makes you think anyone would be worried?”
“What? Shiketsu? What are you talking about?” Eijirou took a careful step closer.
“My parents wanted to transfer me!” Katsuki finally turned to him, face furious and eyes red from crying. “And surprise, I was too much of a risk, too dangerous to have around!”
Eijirou was stuck on the fact that he wasn’t aware of that at all. Katsuki didn’t tell him anything. Aizawa didn’t mention it at all.
When did that even happen? Who made that decision? How did he miss something so important?
“... You were going to get transferred?” He finally breathed out, realising that Katsuki would have been gone and he’d probably never know why.
“Yes!” Katsuki yelled, explosions going off. “Get it through your stupid head! I barely convinced my mother to let me stay here, and for what?! For everyone at school to hate me? For my classmates, my fucking friends to treat me like I’m made of glass?! For you to look at me with fear?!” Katsuki’s voice trembled at the end, tears finally streaming down his face. “It’s a-always been like thi-this!” He sobbed, covering his face with clenched fists. "No m-atter what I did, I-I was always the bad ki-kid with a dangerous quirk! Everyone’s always been scared of me! And they were RIGHT, BECAUSE IN THE END I WAS THE VILLAIN WHO WOUND UP BEING THE END OF ALL MIGHT!" He took in a few quick shallow breaths, choking on one and coughing, but when Eijirou tried to reach out to him, his hand was slapped away.
“Katsu-!”
"AND NOW I'M ACTING LIKE A FUCKING WEAKLING, BECAUSE I WASN'T STRONG ENOUGH TO FIGHT OFF THOSE VILLAINS. BECAUSE I GOT CAPTURED. IT'S ALL MY FAULT AND I CAN'T- I can't even- I can't let them defeat me after all this... I can't let them win, I can't show anyone any weakness because then they'll win and everyone will see how pathetic I actually am…" Katsuki rasped breathlessly, finally looking up and Eijirou’s heart broke.
His face was red, eyes bloodshot and already swollen from crying so much, there was snot coming out of his nose and getting everywhere as he hyperventilated, curling in on himself but refusing to fall to his knees. It seemed like he wanted to say something, maybe even scream, but he just couldn’t force himself to release a single sound as he struggled to breathe.
Eijirou had never wanted to see him like this.
He slowly approached, “I’m going to touch your shoulder.” He warned, his voice shaking as he did his best not to break down crying himself, and carefully put his hand on Katsuki’s shoulder, then slowly, carefully, moving the other and grabbing Katsuki’s clenched hand. He didn’t even react, still struggling to breathe.
“Follow my lead, okay?” Eijirou placed Katsuki’s hand on his chest and started taking deep, slow breaths, Katsuki struggling to follow him. “Slow down… in-” he inhaled deeply, “-and out… In… Out…” He didn’t notice when they both sat down on the floor, Katsuki curled in on himself, trying to hide, and Eijirou hunched over him.
He wasn’t sure how long it took for Katsuki to get the control of his breathing back, but he didn’t care. If needed, he’d stay here with him the entire night.
“... All I do is hurt people with my quirk.” Katsuki spoke suddenly, his voice shaky and muffled. “I even permanently crippled myself with it.”
Eijirou clenched his jaw, still doing everything in his power to stop himself from crying.
“I almost hurt you.” Katsuki whispered and a few tears dripped down Eijirou’s face as he clenched his hand on Katsuki’s shirt. “You need to leave, so I don’t actually hurt you.”
Eijirou shook his head. “No…”
“Just leave.” Katsuki tried to sound aggressive, but his voice was too weak for that. “Don’t look at me anymore, just fucking leave.” There was a quiet hiccup as Katsuki's body started trembling again and Eijirou couldn’t take this anymore.
Without wasting another second, he stood up, pulling Katsuki with him and quickly locking him in a tight hug. “I won’t.”
Katsuki tensed up, but he didn’t last long in his state of shock, as he started to try and force Eijirou away, pushing at his shoulder. “Let me fucking-”
“It’s not pathetic to cry over being kidnapped and some assholes saying you’re a villain.” Eijirou stated firmly and Katsuki stilled, falling silent.
“I’ll leave if you tell me again, I promise, but this-” Eijirou squeezed his eyes shut, tightening his grip on Katsuki even more, “I can’t leave you alone! I gave you space, tons of it, I knew you needed it, but this is too much, Katsuki! You’re not okay and you won’t admit it!”
“I’m-” Katsuki tried to argue but his voice got stuck in his throat.
They both knew Katsuki hated lying, and doing it to everyone as well as himself for the last few days was finally catching up to him.
“You’re not okay and- and that’s okay.” Eijirou put his hand on the back of Katsuki’s head. “You can cry, crying is manly! And if you don’t want to be seen when you’re like that then that’s also okay! I’ll stop talking and I- I won’t even look at you, but… but let me do this for you and just… let me hold you… Because even though you’re so stupidly stubborn and won’t admit it, you need- I don’t know, a shoulder to cry on! And you’re allowed that!” Eijirou loosened his grip and continued in a whisper, “I can’t leave you… I just can’t, I will if you tell me to but please, please, let me stay.”
Eijirou held his breath while Katsuki stayed silent, unmoving. For a moment he even considered just letting go and leaving, but then Katsuki placed one of his hands on Eijirou’s back.
“I-” Katsuki finally spoke, and it was a sad little sound. “I want you to stay…” The whisper was barely audible, but despite the situation, it filled Eijirou with a kind of joy and relief that he hadn’t felt in a while.
“Okay.” He answered with relief. “Okay. Do you… do you want to get more comfortable..?” Eijirou asked, and once he felt a nod, he did his best not to spare Katsuki a single glance as he stepped away and took his hand before leading them to Katsuki’s bed.
It was an awkward process, but Eijirou didn’t care. He just wanted Katsuki to be comfortable and finally, he sat up against a pillow, holding Katsuki close to him.
“Is this okay?” He asked, staring up at the ceiling, and smiled to himself when he felt another nod, even though Katsuki was limply lying on top of him, once again unmoving.
After that, Eijirou wasn’t sure how much time had passed. He didn’t even try to turn his head to check the clock, not to mention the phone in his pocket. Honestly, he was sure that Katsuki had fallen asleep, especially when there was no reaction when he moved his hand to gently caress Katsuki’s hair. He was sad to confirm that Katsuki hadn't been taking care of it properly; tangles here and there, the softness gone.
How could he let this go on for so long?
What he was doing right now.. Was this enough? Was it too much? He really wanted to ask Katsuki if he needed something else, anything else. Eijirou would do everything for him, and just when he was about to open his mouth and declare that, he felt Katsuki shifting.
He froze when Katsuki’s arms wrapped around him, face getting buried in Eijirou’s shoulder as he moved impossibly closer.
“I’m-” Katsuki started, voice muffled by Eijirou’s clothes. “I’m not fine.”
It was like a dam breaking when Katsuki began sobbing into Eijirou’s shoulder, holding onto him and shaking violently.
Eijirou felt tears welling up in his eyes and he let them fall down his face, though he didn’t dare make a sound. He just hugged Katsuki tighter, uncaring that his hoodie was getting wet or that Katsuki was crushing the breath out of him.
It didn’t matter.
All that mattered was that Katsuki had finally opened up, and even though Eijirou didn’t know how to help him, he was still content that he could at least be there with him.
___
Eijirou wasn’t sure what had woken him up, or even when he had fallen asleep, but everything around him was swimming with his sleepiness as he slowly blinked his eyes open and stifled a yawn. He wanted to turn and check the time, but that was when he realised his arms were still circled around Katsuki’s sleeping frame as they laid on their sides, facing each other, the memories of the last night flooding his tired brain all at once and causing him to frown and desperately squeeze his arms around Katsuki a little bit tighter as he buried his nose in his hair.
I’m sorry, he thought, gently petting Katsuki’s hair and knowing Katsuki wouldn’t want to hear any of that.
After a few more seconds, he loosened his grip and slowly pulled away, glancing around, taking in the sight of Katsuki’s quiet room. He looked at the glass doors and noticed that the sky was grey and pale, so it must have been around 4am, at most. Way too early for either of them to be up, yet.
He adjusted himself, still holding Katsuki, but creating enough of a distance to look at his sleeping face. His eyes were still swollen from crying last night, but he looked so much calmer like this, at peace almost. Gone were the glare, the angry tears and sharp turn of eyebrows, it was just softness and stillness as Katsuki breathed slowly.
Eijirou moved his hand and carefully cupped Katsuki’s cheek, stroking his skin with his thumb. He could say he was… happy to realise that this was probably the first time since they’ve all moved here that Katsuki looked so relaxed.
You didn’t have to suffer alone. Eijirou thought, blinking away the tears that started welling up in his eyes, and he decided to blame them on his sleepiness.
You could have just talked to me. He thought as he brushed Katsuki’s hair away to reveal his forehead.
Eijirou leaned towards Katsuki, slowly and carefully, as quietly as possible, before he gently pressed his lips against Katsuki's forehead in a soft kiss. “... I’m sorry you had to go through this.” He whispered against his skin before he moved away with a blush and looked at Katsuki's unmoving face, still sound asleep.
For now, they could stay like this.
___
The next time Eijirou woke up was because of the sound of a door opening and closing. He rubbed at his eye before realising that, one; he was alone in the bed, and two; the door that closed was the one to the bathroom, judging by the running water, so that must have been where Katsuki went.
Frankly, he was shocked he didn’t wake up when Katsuki was getting up.
Eijirou sat up on the bed and stretched with a yawn before looking around for something to drink. His eyes fell on the half full water bottle on the desk so he stood up and invited himself to drink some before sitting back down on the bed, bottle still in hand.
He stared as the water swirled in the bottle and wondered if Katsuki would kick him out the moment he would come out of the bathroom. If he would try and avoid the conversation or pretend that the last night didn’t happen.
Eijirou took a deep breath that he held when he heard the door slowly opening, his eyes slowly moving towards Katsuki’s figure stepping into the room.
Katsuki quietly closed the bathroom door then froze when he realised Eijirou was awake.
“Morning.” Eijirou gave him a sleepy smile, to which Katsuki just frowned and made a point of staring intently at some point on the wall, adamant on avoiding eye contact.
Eijirou sighed quietly, knowing he had to take the matters into his own hands.
“Listen,” he put the bottle on the floor next to the bed, “I won’t force you to talk about last night, I promise, just…” He tapped the bed in what was hopefully an inviting gesture. “Sit down and listen to me?”
Katsuki crossed his arms over his chest as he seemingly pondered the situation with a deep frown.
Don’t be embarrassed about what happened. Eijirou almost said but bit his tongue.
After a few more seconds that felt like hours, Katsuki moved towards him and hesitantly sat down on the edge of the bed, still refusing to face Eijirou.
“You’re not scary.” He started and watched as Katsuki’s eyes widened, hands clenching into tight fists in his lap. “Your quirk is strong. It’s manly and beautiful, but it’s not scary. Anyone who thinks so doesn’t know you well enough.” Eijirou had a point to make, and no matter how embarrassed he felt, he knew that he still needed to say all this, for both of them. “I want to think that I know you. At least well enough to know you’re not a villain with a dangerous quirk.” He chuckled quietly.
Katsuki glanced at him, his eyebrows pinched together with anxiety before he turned to properly face Eijirou. “You..” He started before he looked down at his hands. “You’re the only person here who really knows me.”
Love bloomed in Eijirou’s chest and he didn’t even try to stop himself as he reached out and took Katsuki’s hand. He pressed it against his cheek, vulnerable to the quirk he knew wouldn’t hurt him and smiled at Katsuki’s wide eyes and reddening ears. “I’m not afraid of you.” He stated with what he hoped was adoration in his eyes. “I never was, even before I got to find out how… amazing of a person you are.” He closed his eyes and nuzzled into Katsuki’s calloused hand.
Katsuki released a shaky breath, and when Eijirou opened his eyes, Katsuki was looking away, his face red and eyes squeezed shut.
Eijirou just smiled. “I’m not afraid of your quirk.” He said softly and pressed his lips against Katsuki’s warm palm. “You’re my dearest friend…" and I love you, got stuck in his throat.
He couldn't do this to him. He couldn’t betray his friendship like that, couldn't burden him with something so selfish when he was at his most vulnerable.
He had to bury those feelings for now, for the near future, forever if needed.
So for now, he had to settle on something else that he knew was more important for Katsuki to hear.
“... But I can’t help you.” Eijirou pulled away and held Katsuki’s hand in both of his own. “I can listen to you, and be here for you, but I know I can’t help you with all of the things that are hurting you, and I’m sorry-”
“Don’t apologise.” Katsuki finally spoke again, and it was a barely audible whisper.
God, Eijirou hated when he was so quiet.
“Sor-” Eijirou stopped and chuckled when Katsuki glared at him. “Um.. What I’m trying to say… Maybe you should talk to someone? Like.. just Aizawa or… or a therapist or-”
In an instant, Katsuki pulled his hand away.
“Katsu-”
“I don’t need to talk to anyone.”
“But last night-”
“Eijirou, please.” Katsuki interrupted again then hid his face in his hands. “It was a moment of weakness and.. We can fucking talk about it another day, but I don’t even want to think about it right now… Please.” He spoke in one breath, and even though he said that they could talk about all this another day, Eijirou knew in Katsuki’s language it meant Never Again.
“We will talk about it.” Eijirou stated firmly.
“Another-”
“We. Will.” Eijirou leaned towards him, close enough that when Katsuki eventually uncovered his face, he had to look at a very determined Eijirou.
“Fuck- okay.” He sputtered, scooting away and avoiding eye contact.
“Great!” Eijirou smiled at him. “What do you want for breakfast?” He asked as a way of quickly changing the subject.
“I’m not hu-” He didn’t get to finish that sentence when his stomach growled loudly. “Shut the fuck up!” Katsuki yelled, holding his stomach when Eijirou started laughing. “Whatever’s fine! Now just- just go!”
“Okay, okay!” Eijirou quickly got up with a smile. He wanted to hug Katsuki one more time but stopped himself, yet as he walked past him, he grabbed the sleeve of his hoodie.
“Don’t look.” Katsuki warned when Eijirou tried to turn to him. “Just... Thank you.”
Eijirou finally felt like he had done something good, and even though he was still worried about Katsuki, he just nodded with a smile and left his room. He stepped inside the elevator and went down to the first floor, more than happy to prepare something for Katsuki, but as he headed to the kitchen, he noticed a commotion on the other side of the common area.
His stomach sank when he realised it was Kaminari and Iida getting interviewed by Aizawa.
Knowing what was up, he hurried to them in time to hear Aizawa's exasperated sigh.
"Kaminari, for the last time, a broken remote is not enough of an excuse to electrocute the TV." Aizawa pinched the bridge of his nose then addressed Iida. "What happened here?"
Iida hesitated. Having witnessed what happened last night, Eijirou was surprised that he didn't explain everything to their teacher right away.
"Sensei, I can assure that the reason was.. enough." Iida muttered, rubbing the back of his neck.
He was really keeping his promise, wasn’t he?
"Great." The hero deadpanned. "Then what was it, so I can report this as an accident and not an act of vandalism. Because if I can’t report it as an accident, you will be suspended." He frowned at Kaminari, who seemed to get smaller under their teacher's stern glare.
And if things get out of hand, if you’re overwhelmed, and we can’t be here for you, reach out to someone you trust. Someone who will know what to do.
Katsuki didn't want help, didn’t ask for it, but he needed it. And since Eijirou knew he couldn't provide it himself…
"I know what happened." The words left his mouth before he could properly think of what he was going to say.
His classmates and teacher turned to him, suddenly aware of his presence.
Iida just stared at him, visibly wondering what he was going to tell their teacher.
"Kirishima, are you sure?" Kaminari asked quietly, earning another glare from Aizawa that this time was ignored.
Eijirou smiled reassuringly and nodded. "Yeah, thank you."
"You two, go to your rooms " Aizawa ordered then looked Eijirou in the eyes once they were alone. "Speak."
And Eijirou did.
He told Aizawa about Katsuki's poor mental health. How he hasn't been eating or leaving his room. How he's been avoiding everyone. How there was this terrible panic in his eyes whenever someone would try to touch him. How he reacted last night to the program on TV and that Kaminari electrocuted it because the remote was broken and they all saw how badly Katsuki was reacting to it.
How Katsuki blamed himself for what happened with All Might.
Eijirou failed at stopping the tears from streaming down his face after he finished his messy explanations.
"And I-I can't help him. He n-needs help but won't accept it from me b-but you, maybe-"
Aizawa put a hand on his shoulder, successfully grounding him.
"You did well, Kirishima. A good hero knows when to let someone else take over."
Eijirou sobbed into his hands.
___
Aizawa instructed him to just act like nothing's happened, to keep Katsuki calm and next time just stand up and turn the TV off manually, damn it.
"And don't worry," he said as he handed him a tissue, "I'll take care of everything."
Eijirou sniffled as he put the omelette he had made for Katsuki on a plate. He didn't feel great about going behind Katsuki’s back and telling the teacher everything, but… Aizawa did say he had done a good thing. Now it was just a matter of time to see what their teacher had in mind.
Eijirou made sure the pan had cooled before he put it in the dishwasher, then grabbed the plates with omelettes he had made for himself and Katsuki and hurried to his room.
He didn't even get a chance to knock when Katsuki opened the door, as if he was waiting on the other side.
"Hope you like it!" Eijirou said cheerfully, raising the plates a bit as Katsuki nodded silently and stepped aside to let him in. "Do you wanna watch a movie or something?" He offered as he handed Katsuki one of the plates, placing the other one on the desk where Katsuki’s laptop lay.
Katsuki just shrugged as he sat down on the edge of his bed, poking at the omelette, before he spoke quietly. “I don’t really watch movies... All the actors look the same.” He frowned at the plate in his hand, and Eijirou felt a pang of guilt over not realising something as obvious as that.
“Well! Um.. How about some cartoons, then?” He offered, a bit awkwardly, and waited for an answer while Katsuki took a bite of the omelette.
He chewed slowly, frown still present, and Eijirou started to worry he had somehow screwed it up, but then he swallowed and nodded. “Whatever.”
Eijirou knew this was as close to a Yes as he would get.
Katsuki silently pointed to the built-in closet when Eijirou asked if he had a folding table somewhere, and got it out without mentioning the Bakugou family picture that he noticed, stashed between folded boxes. He quickly put the small table next to the bed, placed the laptop on it and grabbed his plate.
“There’s a really old Crimson Riot cartoon I loved to watch as a kid,” he started excitedly as he sat down next to Katsuki, ignoring their touching knees. “There’s no actual plot, and most of the episodes aren’t available anymore, but I think there’s enough of them to kill some time.”
As he opened the laptop, he noticed that the browser was open on some news site reporting on All Might’s early retirement. Eijirou promptly closed it without a comment, and instead looked for and turned on the first episode of Crimson’s Adventures . The nostalgic music of the intro made him smile as he settled down and dug into his food.
___
Eijirou was almost done eating when he noticed that Katsuki had barely eaten half of his omelette.
“Does it taste weird?” He asked over the fighting noises in the cartoon that he barely paid any attention to anymore.
“It’s good, I just..” Katsuki poked at his food. “I guess I don’t have much of an appetite…” He finished with furrowed brows, lowering the chopsticks.
Eijirou looked down at his own omelette, about three bites left of it and he thought of something that would either get him a laugh or an explosion to the face. He decided to take the risk and took a generous portion with his chopsticks and, while imitating plane sounds, he slowly moved them towards Katsuki’s face.
“... The fuck are you doing?” Katsuki frowned at him, leaning away, but Eijirou didn’t waver, just made the imaginary plane make an additional turn and go back to Katsuki who looked more and more flustered. “Stop that-”
“Permission to land~ nnneeaoowww~”
“Oh my fucking God, stop that, it’s stupid!” Katsuki leaned further away. He was glaring, but there was a grin visibly tugging at the corners of his lips.
This was the closest resemblance of a smile Eijirou had seen on Katsuki in what felt like ages and he couldn’t have been happier about it, even if he was acting so silly. “Tower? Permission to land?” The food was just an inch away from Katsuki’s lips and Eijirou stared at him with a wide smile, almost vibrating in his seat as he tried not to burst out laughing.
Katsuki sighed and opened his mouth. Eijirou was delighted to carefully feed him. “Ish sho shtupid.” Katsuki muttered behind his hand, covering his mouth as he chewed. “You’re an idiot.” He said with a smile he failed to hide. “Don’t.” He objected when Eijirou reached for more omelette. “I’ve got my own.” He said and ate a few bites of his omelette in one go, as if Eijirou had challenged him, and honestly, if it meant Katsuki would actually eat the whole thing, he was happy with that.
They finished eating and Eijirou put the plates on the desk before he sat back on the bed, scooting a bit to lean against the wall, Katsuki right next to him, their arms touching as they watched the cartoon still playing.
Eijirou was focused on the third episode when his eyes went wide as Katsuki shifted and rested his head on Eijirou’s shoulder.
“Can I stay like this for a bit..?” Katsuki asked quietly, hooking their arms together.
“Of course.” Eijirou said without hesitation, a blush glowing on his face as he allowed himself to lean his own head against Katsuki’s, smiling to himself when the cartoon version of his favourite hero spoke about living with no regrets.
___
An hour or so later, Eijirou found himself dozing off when gentle knocking on the door woke him up. Or rather, Katsuki getting up to open it with a displeased grunt woke him up. He quickly stood up as well, lingering a bit behind as Katsuki unlocked the door and peeked outside where Aizawa was standing, a wave of dread and anxiety drowning Eijirou in an instant.
“We need to talk, Bakugou.” Was how Aizawa greeted him.
Katsuki glanced at Eijirou over his shoulder, then looked back at their teacher. “About what?” He asked suspiciously with a bite of anger and Eijirou could only imagine how hard he was glaring at Aizawa.
“Your classmates confided in me that they’re worried about you.” Aizawa spoke calmly, and Eijirou didn’t miss how he said classmates, instead of listing him as the sole culprit.
He watched in silence as Katsuki’s frame became tense. “That’s none of their business…” He muttered, hanging his head low.
“It is, if they believe your well-being and mental stability are at risk.” Aizawa said without hesitation, as if he was ready for that. “Not to mention your strong reaction to last night’s program on TV that was clearly triggering for you.”
Katsuki snapped his head to glare at Eijirou, who could have easily shown him that he had nothing to do with it, that he didn’t say anything to their teacher and that he was a loyal friend, but instead of doing any of that…
“You just looked so.. Sad…” Eijirou whispered with tears in his eyes at the memory. “I didn’t know what else to do-”
“You told on me, you fucking asshole!?” Katsuki screamed in his face, slamming his hand against Eijirou’s shoulder. “How fucking DARE YOU?!” His quirk went off, but Aizawa grabbed his wrist, making him freeze.
“That’s enough.” Aizawa didn’t sound angry or alarmed. He let go of Katsuki and faced Eijirou. “Go to your room. Bakugou, get ready.”
“For what?” They asked in unison and Eijirou earned another glare from Katsuki.
“That depends. We have a long conversation ahead of us, so you might as well be comfortable. Kirishima, out.” Aizawa tilted his head towards the corridor and waited for Eijirou to leave.
“Asshole.” Katsuki muttered behind him, and Eijirou just frowned as he stepped out of the room.
“You have ten minutes.” Aizawa told Katsuki and joined Eijirou in the corridor. “It’s going to be okay.” He said in a surprisingly calming tone as he placed a gentle hand on Eijirou’s shoulder.
“... Doesn’t feel like it.”
Aizawa sighed. “Spend some time with your friends, try not to think about this for now.”
Eijirou nodded before he went to his room. He finally looked at his phone and saw tons of messages, from Ashido and Sero last night, and then from Kaminari this morning, all of them questioning how Katsuki was holding up, if he needed help, if either of them were in trouble because of the TV and all that stuff.
Eijirou decided to invite them to his room, to ‘spend time with them and try not to think about all that happened’. He even asked them not to bring up Katsuki, that he was in good hands at the moment and that it wasn’t his place to talk about what happened.
They arrived quickly, respecting his wishes, and spending most of the day with him.
___
It was early evening when Eijirou was once again alone in his room and he heard a knock on his door. He got up, thinking it was Kaminari who forgot his charger, but instead was faced with a very tired, yet finally relaxed, Katsuki.
“I’m gonna win at therapy.” Was what Katsuki said when Eijirou opened his mouth, ready to apologise.
Eijirou blinked at him before he let out a surprised laugh. “O-of course you will!” And he was just about to lose his mind at the implications of this sentence.
He had no idea what Aizawa did to convince Katsuki to even think about therapy, not to mention attending a session, but he wasn’t about to question his teacher’s methods.
“Wow, I’m… really happy for you.” Eijirou let out a genuine chuckle. “Do you wanna come in?” He stepped to the side, inviting Katsuki but he just slowly shook his head.
“I need to be alone for now, the… the therapist assigned me homework.” Katsuki chuckled to himself, visibly embarrassed over the mention of a therapist. “Just, listen, I’m...” Katsuki reached out and took a gentle hold of Eijirou’s hand, looking him in the eyes. “I’m sorry for calling you an asshole. And for blowing up at you yesterday. And for being shitty for the last few days.” He squeezed Eijirou’s hand.
“No worries…” Eijirou managed to say as he squeezed back.
They stared at each other for a few seconds before Katsuki let go and wrapped his arms around Eijirou’s frame, holding him tightly. “You’re.. You’re an amazing friend, Eijirou.”
He didn’t get to say anything, or even return the gesture before Katsuki stepped away, face red, and hurried to his room.
Eijirou felt an indescribable lightness in his chest, finally at ease as he later called his moms to share good news.
Notes:
The Breakdown Scene had its first draft written all the way back on May 3 2019, and last week I spent a total of like... 8 hours writing and rewriting it over and over again. I hope it was worth it.
My tumblr is here as always✌️
Up next; [Bo Burnham's voice] 🎵Book a therapy session, talk about your depression~🎵
Chapter 41: New lease on life
Summary:
Katsuki gets called out
Notes:
Yeah, I have no excuses 🤪🤙
(I do,I'll just keep them for the end notes lmfao)
Also Inu means Dog in Japanese. It’ll make sense in a few minutes.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Katsuki was fuming as he put on some clean clothes. Aizawa had told him to change but didn’t care to provide any details as to where they were going, so Katsuki was left wondering if it was fine for him to wear dark sweats and a random t-shirt, which only made him more angry and annoyed.
He took a deep breath as he ran his fingers through his hair, not caring enough for its state to brush.
There was a knock on the door, “Bakugou?” Aizawa’s voice called out.
“Give me a damn minute!” Katsuki barked before his eyes fell on his still open laptop.
He walked up to it and glared at the cartoon version of Crimson Riot, frozen in a triumphant pose, the episode paused. Katsuki stared at him and wondered if that was how Eijirou felt right now. Triumphant.
Katsuki scoffed and closed the tab with that damn cartoon before he turned off his laptop. He looked over at his bed, at the space where he was just sitting with Eijirou, cuddled up to him and dozing off when Aizawa knocked on the door.
… Why did Eijirou tell on him? And what did he tell their teacher, exactly?
And after everything… After all that he said, after holding him, after those damn kisses-
Katsuki held his breath as he stared at the palm Eijirou had kissed. He felt so damn loved and adored and safe at that moment, like he hadn’t in what felt like years.
Then there was the vague memory of Eijirou’s lips on his forehead. He was half asleep at that moment but he knew it wasn’t a dream. Couldn’t have been.
He slowly reached for his forehead when another, sharper knock brought him back to reality, “Bakugou, you can’t wait me out, I’m not moving from here.”
“Shit, fucking damn it-” Katsuki went and opened the door, a bit too aggressively as he caught his teacher taking a quick step back. “HERE!” He was unnecessarily loud but he kind of didn’t give a shit at the moment. He just wanted to figure out how to be left alone again. “Happy?!”
“Are you?” Aizawa’s question made him shut up, eyebrows rising in surprise. The fuck was that supposed to mean, was a question he didn’t get a chance to utter as his teacher spoke again. “You’re coming with me to the teachers’ dorm.”
There is a teachers’ dorm? Katsuki almost asked, but already having the answer, he just sighed with annoyance before he stepped out of his room, locked the door and followed Aizawa without a word.
Something was telling him this was going to be a long day.
___
Katsuki was seated on the corner couch after they entered Aizawa's dorm, although it was more like a small apartment than just a simple room. He was in a living room, an open plan with a kitchen where his teacher was making tea, and two closed doors which Katsuki assumed led to a bedroom and a bathroom.
"Sugar?" Aizawa asked, his back still turned to Katsuki.
"One spoon." Katsuki’s eyes were wandering around the room as he sat stiffly.
There was a pile of papers and a few pens on the coffee table, the carpet could use some vacuuming, and the kitchen sink was full, but other than that, the place was actually well kept. Then Katsuki noticed some weird toys scattered in one of the corners of the room, and upon taking a closer look, he realised one of them was a toy mouse. The second he tried to open his mouth and ask about it, something rubbed against his leg and he looked down to see a hairless cat.
What the hell. Katsuki thought with widened eyes, afraid to move a muscle so as to not startle the pet. After a few seconds it stopped rubbing against his leg and sat down in front of him, green owlish eyes blinking slowly up at him.
"That's Inu." Aizawa said as he placed a mug of tea on the table then sat down with his own in hand on the side seat of the couch, facing Katsuki who blinked with confusion.
"You named your cat Inu?" He asked, not sure if he was more bewildered or amused.
"Present Mic's idea. I was against it but it stuck." He explained, sighing tiredly into the mug before he took a sip and grimaced, either from bad taste or high heat.
Katsuki wanted to comment that it was a weird name, but the cat jumped up on the couch and started purring pretty loudly while trying to rub against his side.
"The hell does this stupid cat want from me?" He snapped, scooting away as the cat kept purring and approaching him.
"That stupid cat," Aizawa started, clearly offended on behalf of his pet, before he cleared his throat, "is a therapy animal and he's reacting to you." He explained before extending his hand towards it. "Inu, come." The cat stopped purring and walked over to sit next to Aizawa who started petting him along its back.
Therapy animal? Katsuki eyed his teacher, not sure what to think of the fact that the pro hero next to him needed a cat like that in the first place.
And what did it mean that this bald thing was reacting to him?
And why was he being so rude to some animal he’s just met?
"You're upset, to put it lightly, that's why he's reacting to you, if you were wondering." Aizawa spoke up after a few moments of silence before taking another sip of his tea.
Little snitch. Katsuki squinted his eyes at the cat that just slowly blinked at him again.
"I'm not upset." He muttered before he reached for the mug.
"You couldn't fool a ’stupid cat’, do you really think you can fool me?" Aizawa asked in a surprisingly calm tone, and Katsuki froze, his palms heating up.
He realised that no matter what he said, because of that damn cat and damn Eijirou, he wasn't getting out of here until… until what exactly?
"So what, you're gonna keep me hostage until I admit I'm a little sad? Is that it?!" Katsuki barked as he slammed the mug on the coffee table, spilling some of the tea.
His teacher didn't react to his outburst, just gently put down his own mug and took a deep breath before speaking with genuine concern. "You don't leave your room, you barely eat, you don't talk to your friends and you went through a severe mental breakdown.” Aizawa listed slowly and Katsuki saw a whole new side of his teacher, yet another one he never expected to see, even after the man bowed to him and his parents.
“Bakugou, you're not just a little sad. You're depressed."
Katsuki's chest tightened and he clenched his hands on his knees, locking his eyes on the floor. He could feel himself get more and more tense.
Fuck. Shit. Damn it.
"Just- just because Eijirou-"
"Kirishima wasn't the only one to come to me with his concerns." Aizawa’s statement made Katsuki’s stomach sink with a dreadful feeling, that more people went out of their way to fuck with his private life. "You might not think that's the case, but you have other friends who are genuinely worried about you, and avoiding them only solidifies the fact that you're unwell."
What, because he didn’t bother to spend time with anyone in the common area? Because he almost threw up over some burnt meat? Because he didn't answer a few texts? Because he cried like an idiot over some TV program in front of other people?
Katsuki frowned at the increasing fiery sensation in his palms, willing his traitorous quirk to calm down. Too bad the muted explosions were definitely loud enough for his teacher to notice
"Bakugou, you went through something unimaginable and you need help dealing with it.”
“I don’t-”
“I know you’re too prideful to admit you need that help. I'm not surprised you don't want to talk about whatever is going on in your head, especially with your teacher, but you don’t have to talk about this with me.”
Katsuki finally looked up at him, his interest piqued. Maybe this meant he would be finally left alone-
“There are a few counsellors available at school for students like you.”
Katsuki grimaced, the fuck was that supposed to mean?
“Why would I talk to any of them if I don’t want to talk to you?” Katsuki scoffed, then rolled his eyes when that damn cat approached him again, purring loudly even though Katsuki was trying to push it away.
"Sometimes it's easier to talk to a stranger about your problems." Aizawa simply stated, leaning on his knees and staring at his cat. "And if that stranger happens to be a trained professional, then all the better."
"But-"
"If it helps, think of it as entrusting a pro hero." The teacher looked up at him. "A trained professional who is a stranger, yet you trust that they’ll help when you're attacked in the streets."
Katsuki stopped trying to push Inu away as Aizawa’s words shook him to his core.
He trusted them, once, but that wasn't the case anymore. Not since it was Eijirou and the others who saved his life in the end.
Not since All Might let him be taken away again when he was supposed to save him at that bar. Not since Kazewaki gave him that damn faulty support gear. Not since Best Jeanist treated him like an animal. Not since Midnight ordered to tie him up and paraded him like that in front of the whole country. Not since the Sludge villain attack. Not since no one asked him why he didn't want to go back to see Akura.
How was he supposed to trust anyone at this point?
Katsuki swallowed a lump in his throat and blinked away a few tears that appeared out of nowhere. That was when he realised the stupid cat was sitting in his lap and rubbing against his chest.
"Damn you…" He whispered before placing a hand on Inu's wrinkly head and he couldn't help but chuckle at the texture. "Who gets a hairless cat and makes it a fucking therapy animal?" Katsuki asked in a pained voice, petting the cat along its back while refusing to meet his teacher’s eye.
"Me, apparently." Aizawa sighed but there was some humour in his voice that further calmed Katsuki down.
They spent a few moments in silence before the teacher spoke up again. "I won't force you to go and talk to someone, but in all fairness, I must tell you that if your state worsens, I'll have to call your parents."
Katsuki froze as his heart beat rapidly. The cat in his lap started butting its head against Katsuki’s hand.
"It's not a threat."
"Sure feels like one." Katsuki forced through gritted teeth, a frown deepening on his forehead.
He couldn't trust his parents to handle this.
And he sure as hell couldn't trust some random counsellor to actually care about his problems, especially since they were being paid to even listen to people in the first place.
Fucking hell, what was he supposed to do?
"... I don't know what to do." Katsuki stated, avoiding his teacher's gaze, instead choosing to stare back at the cat in his lap.
"We don't always know what to do." Aizawa said as he leaned back on the couch and Katsuki couldn’t help but to scoff.
Who were we? Aizawa and him? Heroes? People in general? Stupid supportive teacher talk, he'd much preferred it when Aizawa didn't give a shit about teaching them at all.
"Bakugou," the hero started again and Katsuki glanced at him, "just one hour with the counsellor. If it's not helpful, we'll think of something else."
"... Will you call my parents, if it doesn't work out?" Katsuki asked, nervously digging his nails into his palms.
"I can't promise that I won't inform them about your state." Aizawa leaned forward, his expression genuine.
Between a call to his parents and talking to a total stranger about his issues, the stranger seemed like a better option. Especially after the last conversation he had with his mother.
"Fine," Katsuki agreed, gently pushing the cat off his lap before he stood up. "Let's go."
Aizawa nodded, standing up as well then leading them both out of his dorm.
___
“I’ll wait here.” Aizawa said as he sat down on one of the seats lined at the door to the counsellor's office.
Katsuki wasn’t happy about his presence here, then again, he couldn’t complain, especially that his teacher closed his eyes and seemingly started dozing off right away. Katsuki rolled his eyes before he sighed heavily and hesitantly knocked on the door.
“Come in,” he heard and opened the door with knots in his stomach.
“Bakugou-kun, welcome.” A man behind a desk smiled at him and gestured at the chair opposite of him. “Kousuke Atsushi, pleasure to finally meet you.”
Katsuki quietly swallowed nervously before he walked over to the chair and sat down without a word.
“I expected that you might come here,” Kousuke started and Katsuki bit his tongue before he could snap at the man. “I can imagine what you went through was terrifying.” The counsellor sounded sympathetic and Katsuki took a moment to take a better look at him.
Kousuke was rather bland in appearance, and aside from a few bright blue streaks in his brown hair, there was nothing note-worthy of him.
“I assume your kidnapping is what you came here to talk about, right?” The counsellor offered after a minute of silence and Katsuki clenched his fists, feeling his palms heat up while cold sweat started running down his spine.
Why is this guy so direct? Katsuki thought with a grimace and nodded stiffly.
“There’s no rush, of course, you can collect your thoughts before you start talking about anything.”
Katsuki glanced up at Kousuke in time to see him slightly relax in his chair, leaning back on it and still smiling at him. Katsuki’s eyes then fell on the notepad and a pen, both abandoned on the desk between them, out of reach for the counsellor if he wanted to take notes on anything that Katsuki would say.
Wasn't that their thing? Writing down what people say, to help them or whatever?
“Don’t worry, this is a safe space, everything you say stays in this room.” Kousuke assured but Katsuki was still focused on the notepad where he noticed his name written at the top of the first page and he felt sick to his stomach.
He hated it.
He hated that his name was written down before he even walked through the door. He hated that he could just look at that damn notepad. He hated how nonchalant the counsellor was. He hated that huge desk between them. He hated that he felt like he was in the principal's office, in trouble for feeling bad.
“There’s nothing to be ashamed of,” Kousuke spoke up again, interrupting Katsuki’s racing thoughts, “some of your classmates have visited me, too, so you’re not the only one who’s ever needed my help.”
Katsuki’s eyes widened, his whole body tense.
His classmates? Katsuki swallowed a bile that came up his throat.
Which classmates? He thought with a pounding heart. Ashido? Sero? Kaminari? For what reason then? And if they didn’t have any reasons to come here then who had them? Todoroki, because of his father? Eijirou, because of Kamino? Deku, because of Katsuki?
“I can’t-” Katsuki choked out as he stood up on shaky legs.
“Bakugou-kun, I can assure you that-”
“I-” His voice got stuck in his throat. He tried to move, tried to leave this fucking office, but his legs refused to listen.
He felt sick to his stomach as he started shaking as if it was cold, even though he felt like melting from the sudden wave of heat that hit his body, his quirk going off instinctively even though he didn't have a target. This made him feel even more panicked and angry because he had an excellent control of his quirk, so why the fuck-
The man in front of him stood up as well and yelled but Katsuki couldn't figure out the words, something ringing loudly in his ears.
He almost managed to take a step back when someone placed a hand on his shoulder.
“Bakugou.”
Katsuki flinched before he took on a fighting stance, facing whoever came up behind him, still shaking even though his whole body was tense.
“Just breathe, kid.” Aizawa had his hands raised, showing that he meant no harm. Katsuki was too panicked to figure out whether his face always had been so contorted or if it was another sign that he was losing it. "Breathe." Aizawa pointedly took a deep breath, gesturing along and encouraging Katsuki to join him. "You’re safe here."
Katsuki shook his head, panicked eyes looking between his teacher and the damn counsellor he's already forgotten the name of.
“I can’t talk to him.” Katsuki whispered pathetically, still trying to level out his breathing while explosions went off in his shaking hands.
“It’s okay, you don’t have to right now.”
Right now. The words rang loudly in Katsuki’s head. He didn’t want to talk to that man at all but what other choice did he have?
"Bakugou-kun, I'm sure we can get to the bottom of it all, starting at what triggered such a reaction-" The counsellor shut his mouth when Aizawa gave him a stern look.
Katsuki stared at Aizawa with pleading eyes, knowing well that it has never worked before and probably wouldn't now, yet before he knew it, Aizawa tilted his head towards the door and Katsuki followed him out of the office.
All he needed was a second outside of there to start breathing more freely.
They left the main building and the heavy weight lifted off of Katsuki’s chest.
Aizawa stopped in front of him after a few more steps. "Let's talk-"
"I don't want to talk to him." Katsuki blurted out, his voice strained, though he didn't give a shit about what he sounded like, as long as he wasn't anywhere near that office.
"-in the teachers' dormitory." Aizawa finished with a sigh and Katsuki held his breath in anticipation.
"You won't have to go back to him, it's alright." Aizawa assured him and Katsuki actually felt grateful, even though he knew the worst was yet to come. “Let’s go.” He said and started walking, but as Katsuki followed his teacher, a new fear started clouding his head; Aizawa would contact his parents.
___
"Do you want to tell me what happened?" Aizawa asked in a quiet tone as he placed another cup of warm tea in front of frowning Katsuki, his lap once again occupied by the hairless alien of a cat. "You don't have to, of course, it might just help us figure out what to do next." The teacher said as he sat down on the couch, seeing Katsuki open his mouth, but the statement shut him down pretty quick.
He took a deep breath, collecting his thoughts and petting Inu's wrinkly back. It kind of annoyed him how soothing the motion actually was.
Even though the teacher has proven himself trustworthy, Katsuki still hesitated when it came to answering him, especially since Katsuki could only hope that the whole figuring out what to do next meant they wouldn't involve his parents.
"He said.." Katsuki started slowly, feeling like a stupid kid for reacting this way to some guy's words. "Fucking hell, this is ridiculous…" He muttered as he fiddled with the material of his sweatpants.
"Nothing that causes such a reaction can be ridiculous." Aizawa commented in his dry tone as he crossed his arms over his chest.
Katsuki glanced at the teacher whose face was back to normal after Katsuki finally calmed down. Aizawa’s expression was calm, no sight of annoyance about being stuck here with Katsuki.
"He said that others have visited him before." Katsuki said quietly, eyes fixated on Inu's weird bald tail.
"He is a school counsellor, after all." Aizawa gave him the most obvious answer that Katsuki was already aware of. "He's not exclusive to anyone."
Now Katsuki felt like Aizawa was treating him like an idiot.
"I meant my fucking classmates." Katsuki finally managed to say, and Inu started purring loudly again for whatever reason. “I can’t talk to him about my..” He paused, unsure what to call it; Issues? Feelings? Whatever. “About my problems when I know that my classmates might have talked to him about me.”
“Why would they talk about you?” Aizawa asked and Katsuki realised what was happening.
“You’re not gonna get anything out of me, this isn’t fucking therapy.” Katsuki snapped. He wanted to release the tension in his hands with explosions but at the same time, he didn’t want to scare Inu off, so he just settled on stretching out his fingers.
He didn’t fucking want to tell his teacher about all the reasons why Eijirou or Deku would want to talk about him with the counsellor.
Or any of his classmates, really.
After all, the dorm situation was his damn fault-
“So you are willing to go to therapy.”
Aizawa was starting to piss him off.
“I’m fucking not!” He stood up with frustration, all care for the cat gone. “Because then we’d have to find a therapist outside the school! And you’d need to fucking- contact my parents, not to mention that I don’t need fucking therapy, I don’t know why everyone keeps saying that-”
“You know why.” Aizawa said, still seated with a blank expression.
Of course Katsuki knew. He knew perfectly well, especially after his pathetic meltdown in front of Eijirou.
But he just wanted to forget.
He didn't want to talk about all that happened.
"To some extent," Aizawa spoke up again as he leaned forward, "I understand why you don't want to involve your parents."
"Uhuh, sure." Katsuki muttered, crossing his arms over his chest, but his teacher didn't seem to be bothered by his shitty attitude. Even when he gestured for Katsuki to sit back down and Katsuki just stared at him, the teacher just continued speaking in a calm tone.
"But look at it this way; if you got into an accident and Recovery Girl wouldn't be able to help, we'd have to send you to a hospital and contact your parents and inform them of your state and whereabouts, correct?"
Katsuki grimaced but still nodded.
"If you break a leg, you take time to recover, correct?"
Katsuki looked down, he didn't like where this was going.
"Pro heroes, no matter how good, can't protect civilians and those they care about when they're severely injured."
"... Recovery Girl healed my injuries already." He said quietly, fingers ghosting over his neck.
"You and I both know you're too smart to not understand what I'm trying to say here."
If he were to ignore this injury - this traumatic experience - he wouldn't be the good hero he knew he was capable of being.
Even though he was healed physically, he knew he was still far from being alright in the head.
Push comes to shove, he wouldn't be able to protect those most important to him.
His parents, his annoying friends…
…
Eijirou…
Katsuki sat down.
"Fucking hell, since when are you a good therapist?” He asked and squinted his eyes when he caught a glimpse of a small smile on Aizawa’s face.
“I’m not a therapist, let alone a good one, but I can still recognize your struggles.”
Katsuki felt like there was something else Aizawa wanted to say, with the way he paused and locked his eyes on the floor. Then Inu jumped onto the sofa and started rubbing his head against his owner’s shoulder. Aizawa looked at his cat and scratched him behind his ear, which caused it to start purring loudly.
Aizawa sighed, “just like you can’t heal a physical injury all on your own, you can’t deal with a mental one alone either.”
Katsuki couldn’t argue with that. He wouldn’t have survived the accident with his quirk if it weren’t for Doctor Katame and all the other doctors and nurses who came after her. Damn, even that damn Akura helped by giving him an actual diagnosis.
Could it be applied to his… mental issues?
Especially since he already had his proof that it would work; ever since he’s met the right people and actually put effort into remembering them, he’s gotten much better at recognizing others. His own mother was unable to convince him to do so, but once people like Eijirou and Aizawa came into his life… Damn, Todoroki left an impactful enough impression on Katsuki, and even though it wasn’t a good one, it sure made him remember him.
And if dealing with his mental struggles was too much for those people, then maybe if he met the right therapist, they would be able to help him as well?
His mind went to the business card he had put in one of his notebooks.
Maybe he could get in contact with that therapist? After all, Katame herself recommended her…
“... You really have to call my parents, don’t you?” Katsuki asked as he met his teacher’s gaze.
Aizawa simply nodded.
“But what if they don’t..” Don’t what? What was he so afraid of? That they wouldn’t want Katsuki to get better?
Or maybe they had their own idea of his potential recovery, like they did with Shiketsu?
“You’re not alone, Bakugou.” Aizawa stated and Katsuki realised just how often his teacher would help him, like when he tried to deter Eijirou from discovering Katsuki’s face blindness, or how he helped him realise he actually remembered so many of his classmates. Even when he failed, like when he convinced Katsuki to get that support gear, he never blamed him for anything that had happened.
Damn it, even now he was trying to help.
Katsuki took a deep breath as he clenched his fits.
“Call them.”
___
Aizawa had left the room to call Katsuki’s parents and was gone for almost half an hour.
It felt like an eternity, but once Aizawa returned with “they're on their way”, Katsuki could tell from his tone that that was good news.
He didn’t share with Katsuki what their initial reaction was, and why their conversation had taken so long, and so Katsuki wasn’t sure what to expect from his parents once they’d come through the door to Aizawa’s dorm, but getting a hug from his mother wasn’t one of them.
“I’m so sorry, baby…” She whispered, voice wet and hoarse as if she’d been crying for a while.
“I'm sorry, Katsuki.” His father joined the hug without a word and Katsuki found himself in a state of shock, both by the way they were acting, and by the fact he didn’t feel like screaming at them for touching him.
He glanced at his teacher and wondered just what the fuck did he tell them.
“We got in contact with a few therapists already, you can choose whoever you like best.” His mother pulled away and held his face in her hands. “You don’t have to explain yourself in any way to us, not until you’re ready, I promise.”
His father put a careful hand on Katsuki’s shoulder. “You have our support, son.”
What the fuck did Aizawa tell them???
They were so weirdly sincere, Katsuki was speechless.
He couldn’t break it to them that he already had someone in mind. What’s more, he was actually willing to see the people they’ve found, maybe the right therapist for him would be someone among them? Despite that, he still wanted to go back to his dorm room and find the business card, he just needed a good excuse.
“Maybe go change and we’ll wait for you here?” His father unknowingly came up with one for him and Katsuki uttered a quiet okay, before he reached for the door’s handle.
He looked at his teacher one last time and bowed his head, hoping that the gesture was enough to show his gratitude. Aizawa gave him a quick smirk and Katsuki rushed to the Heights Alliance, careful not to be seen by anyone.
Honestly, it was surprising how he didn’t encounter any of his classmates once he made it to the dorm building and took the stairs up to his floor. He hesitated as he took the last few steps, listening for any noises, but once he confirmed that there was no one in the halls, he hurried to his room.
There was this anxious pain in Katsuki’s chest as he eyed the door to Eijirou's room. He couldn’t tell whether he felt relief or disappointment that Eijirou didn't happen to be leaving his room at that moment.
Quickly and quietly, Katsuki unlocked his dorm room and slipped inside, locking the door behind him again.
It didn't happen often, but Katsuki wanted to make a good first impression on his potential therapist so he changed into a nicer pair of black jeans and a dark orange t-shirt. Damn, he even made an effort to brush out the knots in his hair. He couldn't believe he'd allowed himself such laziness.
He went to the bathroom to make sure he actually looked decent.
Katsuki gazed into the mirror.
He could do this.
He quickly located his school bag and had no trouble finding the business card that he stashed between the pages of his English notebook.
He read the name on the card, Sakamoto Naomi. Just then did he realise that her given name wasn't even Japanese, and he couldn't help but wonder what type of person she was. Maybe he could look her up once he was in the car with his parents? That is, if he was even going to need to call, since apparently his parents already had a list of therapists to visit with him.
Honestly, Katsuki was genuinely surprised that they were able to find even one person on such short notice, let alone several people. He wondered how many of them were actually good if they had spots available just like that. Maybe his parents just offered extra money or something?
Katsuki sighed, there was no point wondering about that, he was going to find out soon enough.
He grabbed his light jacket and slowly stepped out of his room, once again careful to not run into anyone, yet he couldn’t stop himself from approaching Eijirou’s door. Quietly, Katsuki pressed his ear against it and listened; he heard someone’s laughter but it wasn’t Eijirou’s. He was quick to realise that their friends were probably in there with him, definitely Kaminari and Sero. Maybe Ashido as well. Maybe they were there to cheer Eijirou up? After all, Katsuki wasn’t exactly nice to him. But he also didn’t ask Eijirou to fucking tell on him-
Katsuki took a deep breath as he turned to walk away from the door before someone would catch him there.
True, Eijirou went out of his way to tell Aizawa who-knows-what about his pathetic little breakdown, but without it Katsuki wasn’t sure when or if he would actually try and talk to his teacher, let alone his parents or a fucking therapist.
Yeah, Katsuki could admit he was an ass for the way he reacted, but there was still some anger simmering in him. Eijirou could've warned him at least, damnit.
But that was something he could think about later, for now, he had to get back to Aizawa’s dorm before he’d run into someone.
___
When his parents declared that they got in contact with a few therapists, Katsuki didn’t anticipate that there would be a whole-ass list of them.
Sure, Aizawa said that he’d come with them as security, since none of the students were supposed to be leaving school grounds in the first place, but he definitely didn’t anticipate this whole ordeal taking more than two hours. Yet here they were; stuck in traffic after Katsuki dismissed the therapist number four of the day.
He felt stupid for wasting everyone’s time like this, but there was constantly something wrong with the therapists he spoke with.
There was a younger woman, fresh out of university, who would look through her notes constantly and insisted on starting with some sort of questionnaire. Sure, he read that it was something a lot of therapists did but it made him feel like he was solving a test that he had to ace at all costs.
There was also an older man who kept saying that Katsuki was probably melancholic, and it took Katsuki a good fifteen minutes to realise he meant to say that Katsuki was depressed. Katsuki wasn’t sure if the guy was using the outdated term because he himself was old or because he was scared to call things as they were.
Then there was a guy who, similarly to the school counsellor, was talking constantly and even interrupted Katsuki a few times. Katsuki barely stopped himself from blowing up at him, literally.
The last therapist he met had a weird rule about not bringing any magnetic objects into her office because of her quirk. Truth be told, she didn’t do anything particularly upsetting but she had Katsuki empty his pockets before entering and made sure that the buttons in his jacket were plastic and not metal. She just had a weird vibe, as Kaminari would say.
But the worst of all, each one of them let him know right away that they knew exactly what he was there for. Or at least they seemed to think so, because in all honesty he didn’t really know that himself.
Sure, he was kidnapped. That fucking elephant was always in the room. And sure, he was the reason All Might retired. And sure, he had a mental breakdown over it, but that didn’t mean he had to get into all this shit right during his first session, did it?
Katsuki took a deep breath before he glanced around the car. He wasn’t sure if he was supposed to apologise to everyone or not. His mother was focused on driving, cursing out anyone who didn’t use their turn-signal. His father was talking on the phone, probably to one of his employees, considering the topic of fabric textures constantly coming up. Then there was Aizawa, seated next to him with his eyes closed. Katsuki genuinely couldn’t tell whether he was asleep or not.
He then looked down at the search result on his phone, it said that a therapist is supposed to be a partner. Someone who will help him reach his goals.
What goals?
He wanted to forget and move on, but everyone around him was telling him that he was supposed to talk about his stupid little problems.
“We’re going home for now,” his mother spoke up in that weirdly sympathetic voice, “we’ll have a nice dinner and then try with the next one, okay?” She glanced at him for a quick second then refocused on the road.
“Aizawa-sensei, how’s your spice tolerance?” His father asked, trying to lighten up the mood but his own little chuckle quickly turned into an awkward cough when Aizawa looked at him and muttered “Poor.”
Dinner with his teacher who didn’t even want to be there. Great.
___
Katsuki wasn’t thrilled about being back home.
Damn, he didn’t think he’d be back so soon (or at all), yet there he was, forcing himself to eat his mother's spicy miso soup while sitting next to his teacher. His parents were trying to keep up a conversation, but with Aizawa’s tired demeanour and Katsuki’s unwillingness to talk, it was clear that his father was uncomfortable and his mother was seconds away from losing her temper.
This was ridiculous.
Katsuki excused himself, feeling only a little bit guilty about leaving his teacher alone with his parents, and went to the bathroom. He decided this was as good a time as any to call Sakamoto, and thus he took out her business card and before he could change his mind, he dialled the number that was on it.
Now that he thought about it, maybe he should have looked her up first-
“Sakamoto Naomi’s office, her assistant speaking, how may I help you today?” A cheerful voice greeted him through the speaker and Katsuki froze up.
Of course she has an assistant.
“How may I help you today?” The person on the other side repeated their question but Katsuki didn’t hear impatience in their voice.
“Right. … Hi.” Fucking hell, he’s never had any trouble calling people before, why now?
“Hello there! Are you calling about scheduling a session?” They asked and Katsuki heard a soft tapping on a keyboard.
“I guess-” He cleared his throat. “Yeah, sure.” He felt like an idiot.
“Seems we have a spot available next week on Wednesday at 5pm, does that work for you?”
Katsuki clenched his hand around his phone. Right. The good therapists didn’t have spots available right away.
“I’m kind of in a hurry..?” He cringed at his own words and sat down on the closed toilet.
“I could put you on the waiting list and we’ll call you if a spot opens, would that work for you?” The assistant asked, their voice filled with kindness that Katsuki was surprised to hear from a total stranger.
…
“I don’t know.” He breathed out after several awkward seconds. He felt like an idiot for having called unprepared. For having to call at all.
“If you’re comfortable sharing, would you like to tell me why you called us today?”
Oh. That’s right. They couldn’t see him over the phone. They had no way of knowing who he was or why he was calling in the first place. For them he was just another potential patient.
It made him feel good. Like he was in control of his life for the first time in ages.
But then again, he didn’t want to share that with some assistant, even though they sounded like a fucking saint over the phone.
“Some.. stuff happened.” Wow. Great start. Katsuki sighed before he stood up and started pacing around the bathroom. “And apparently it was traumatic! I guess.” He laughed awkwardly and felt some sort of weird satisfaction when the assistant chuckled. “And uh- my Doctor recommended this whole Sakamoto person and I- fuck, I don’t know what I was expecting and I’ve been meeting with a bunch of other therapists all day and they all sucked so I figured that someone recommended by Katame wouldn’t suck so-”
“Doctor Katame Iryo?” The assistant interrupted his ramblings and Katsuki froze again.
“... Yeah?” He blinked in surprise.
“Please, hold.” They said and soft music started playing through the speaker, leaving Katsuki dumbfounded.
What the hell?
Katsuki sat down on the toilet again, staring at the phone in his hand that kept playing the relaxing music. A minute passed before he heard a different, more mature voice through the speaker and he almost dropped his phone, “Is this Katsuki?”
He stared in shock, unable to speak.
Was that Sakamoto?
Did Katame tell her he was going to call?
Suddenly all those good feelings about being in control again disappeared. In a strange way, he felt betrayed.
“It's… yeah, my name's Katsuki.” He said, defeated. Honestly, at this point he wanted to hang up and go back to the dorms.
“Excuse the familiarity but Doctor Katame only provided your given name.” Sakamoto continued and he could almost hear a smile in her voice. “I have a spot available for you today in about an hour, Katsuki.”
He sighed quietly with relief. He was going to get some sort of fucking aneurysm one of these days.
“... It's fine.” Katsuki finally uttered. She didn't know he was Bakugou Katsuki. “... What did Katame tell you?”
“Just that a certain boy named Katsuki might call soon.” She said without hesitation.
Somehow, Katsuki knew she wasn't telling him everything. After all, he wasn't the only Katsuki in all of Japan. Then again, he could ask her about this once they'd meet.
“Alright. Sure. See you in an hour.” Katsuki confirmed once he checked her business card again and realised she had her office about half an hour away.
Plenty of time to convince his parents to actually let him go to her.
“Wonderful! See you later.”
“... See you.” Katsuki hung up and took a deep breath, closing his eyes.
It was just another therapist. Just like those others his parents chose.
But this one was different, because Katsuki chose to call her. He actually made a fucking effort yet he wasn't sure if he was supposed to be proud of himself, because he still didn't fully believe that he needed a therapist in the first place. Even if he did, he felt like he was only coming across the shitty ones because he just didn't deserve better.
Maybe this was another part of his punishment from the universe for existing?
For getting his quirk and fucking up his brain and scaring everyone and getting himself kidnapped and ruining All Might’s life and fuck, his chest hurt. He felt like he was about to throw up the little bit of the soup he had managed to eat.
Katsuki took a deep breath as he leaned against the sink with his eyes squeezed shut.
He felt pathetic. He was pathetic. He deserved all this and worse, he deserved to be treated like a villain and deserved to be restrained and displayed to the world-
There was a knock on the door and for a split second he was back at that bar, but then he heard his mother’s voice, a concerned “Are you okay in there, Katsuki?” and he held his breath, trying to calm down.
What the hell was he thinking about, he just made an appointment with a therapist, all by him-fucking-self, where were all those thoughts coming from? Stupid fucking brain- “Katsuki?”
“I'm fine!” Katsuki yelled in a hoarse voice. He put the business card that he’s been crumpling the entire time in his pocket then turned on the faucet and washed his hands before splashing his face. That helped a little bit, at least enough to face his mother.
“You have another session scheduled in an hour, we better get ready.” She continued on the other side, oblivious to his pitiful state.
Katsuki wiped his hands on a towel before he straightened his shirt and moved to finally open the door where his mother waited for him with one hand on her hip.
“Finish up eating and we’ll get going, your dad will run out of the topics for the one-sided conversation with your teacher any second now.”
Katsuki once again felt like he was going to throw up, so he just stood there, staring at his mother, probably making a face that showed something akin to annoyance, because she rolled her eyes before reaching out towards him. He tensed up, but she just picked something off his shirt, probably a hair, then she smoothed the material before squeezing his shoulder lightly. “I'm sure this will be the one-”
“I don't want to meet anyone else from your list.” He interrupted and the hand on his shoulder tightened. Katsuki grimaced and stepped out of his mother's reach.
“Then what's the point-” She started with her voice raised before she bit her lower lip and slowly breathed out through her nose. “Katsuki. You know we're doing this for you, and I know you need support but you have to cooperate when we’re trying to help.”
Well, at least Katsuki was right, his mother was close to losing her cool.
“I know, okay? It's just…” He avoided looking at her. Fuck, he was so damn nervous and for what? It was just his mom. His mom, who cried a few hours ago because he was a little upset, and who had a short temper that he was more than used to, and who allowed him to continue attending UA after he proved he actually made progress with recognizing others.
At least his quirk was under control, even though his hands were uncomfortably sweaty.
“Katsuki..?” Now she sounded concerned again and Katsuki just wished she'd choose just one fucking emotion to stick to.
“I called a therapist.” He blurted out as he stared at the floor. “Apparently she's good, Katame said so. She had a spot available in an hour and I took it.” Katsuki swallowed nervously then took Sakamoto's card, that looked like trash at this point, out of his pocket and held it out for his mother. “That's her. Her business card, I mean.”
He didn’t dare feel any bit of relief when she actually took the card from his hand.
As he kept refusing to meet her eyes, his heart was pounding rapidly in his chest, then it felt as if it had stopped completely when she lightly patted him on the head a few times.
“Stupid boy, why didn't you say you already had someone in mind?” Her voice was weirdly soft, and once Katsuki looked up at her, she had a little smile on her face.
“... I thought I would get along with someone you chose.” He answered honestly, crossing his arms over his chest.
“When was the last time we agreed on something?” She raised a brow at him with a smirk.
Katsuki would laugh if her words didn't cause a painful sting in his chest.
He dismissed the feeling, though, and instead just stared at her, trying to look unimpressed with her joke. She rolled her eyes before she told him to finish eating while she'd make the calls to cancel his other therapy sessions she had lined up.
Katsuki was almost impressed that she managed so many in that short of a notice. Almost, because he realised that she just grabbed what was available and didn't stop to think about the type of person he actually really needed to meet with.
He just hoped that Sakamoto was that person.
___
Katsuki stood in front of a small building, to which the entrance was currently locked. He noticed a panel with buttons on it and he read through the little plaques that were next to each button; he quickly realised that a few different people had their offices in that building. Among others, there was a notary, a sworn Polish translator and, weirdly enough, a nail artist. And there at the end, was Sakamoto's name.
Katsuki pressed a button and didn't have to wait long to be let inside. He made his way to the second floor and looked between the doors there. Sure enough, there was the translator’s office and the other door…
The door opened to reveal a person with purple hair and rainbow framed glasses. They smiled at him, “You must be Katsuki.”
He felt stupid for freezing up over the damn door opening, even more so when he could only nod in response to the person who opened it, because who the fuck did they think they were-
“Come on in, Sakamoto will be all yours in a second!”
Ah, the assistant. Definitely the same one he talked to on the phone and made an absolute idiot out of himself.
Katsuki bit his tongue to stop a curse from slipping out and made his way inside. The assistant gestured for him to sit down on the couch. They asked if he wanted to drink some water, and when he refused, they sat down behind their desk and started tapping away on a keyboard.
He looked around and realised that this was a really small flat repurposed into a two-room office space. He was currently in the waiting room that also must have been a registration. There were also three doors, the one he just came through, the other marked as the restroom, so the last one must have led to Sakamoto's office.
“Pardon, I should have asked earlier, but do you have a permission slip from your legal guardians?” The assistant asked in a friendly tone and Katsuki got up from the couch and walked up to their desk.
His parents had given him the note to show every therapist he was supposed to meet that day, something about a minor not being allowed to go to therapy by themselves, which he found fucking ridiculous considering he was technically allowed to drive a motorcycle or go play a hero at school. Then again, he appreciated that they gave him privacy when he was meeting with the therapists, choosing to stay in the car or go to a cafe, like in this instance. On the other hand, he was aware that Aizawa was somewhere close, patrolling the area.
Katsuki did his best not to look amused, imagining his teacher hiding in a tree, while he handed the parental permission to Hizoku, as he read on their name tag pinned to their shirt. Next to it was a pin in the shape of a heart which had yellow, white, purple, and black horizontal stripes. Katsuki vaguely wondered if it meant something specific but then one of the doors opened and a dark skinned woman stepped out. She had intricate braids all over her head and goddamn spiral-shaped goat horns.
The assistant, Hizoku, bowed slightly to the woman, and Katsuki knew that she was the therapist he was going to spend the next hour with, Sakamoto. And wow. He really should have looked her up on his phone before coming in. Maybe then he wouldn't be staring at her without a single word.
But how couldn’t he when she had tattoos all over her arms and piercings on her nose?
Sure, he was classmates with a half frog and a bird, but he never expected a therapist to look like this-
“Katsuki?” She tilted her head, a gentle smile appearing on her face when he nodded. “Come on in.” Sakamoto stepped to the side and Katsuki’s eyes widened when he noticed her goat-like legs.
Mutation type quirk. He could deal with that. He could remember that. She kind of looked like a mythical being from the books he read when he was a kid, a faun or something.
He glanced at Hizoku who just gave him an encouraging smile and a thumbs up, then walked past Sakamoto and into her office. Katsuki quickly noticed that it really was a repurposed flat. The office didn’t really look like one, instead it felt like a nice, well-lit living room.
“Take a seat, I’ll be right with you.” She told him and went to her desk on the other side of the room.
Katsuki stared at the two big comfortable looking armchairs and at a coffee table moved a bit to the side so that it wasn’t in the way. There were water bottles on it, along with a tissue box. Everything was placed in the middle so that there was no indication as to where Katsuki was supposed to actually sit.
Was this some sort of test? Was she already psychoanalysing him? Would choosing the right chair over the left one have an impact on how she perceived him? Maybe she was timing him on how long it would take him to choose a seat-
“Katsuki?” Sakamoto was suddenly right next to him and he flinched awkwardly, but before she could comment on his behaviour, he sat down on the left chair. She smiled at him and sat down with a notepad and a pen in her hands. “You already know that, but my name is Sakamoto Naomi, it's a pleasure to meet you.” She placed the notepad on her thighs and rested her hands over it. Katsuki noticed there wasn't anything written on it yet.
There was absolutely no way she didn’t know.
Either way, this was the part where he was supposed to introduce himself, right? If she hadn't recognized him yet, then his name would finally do the trick.
“... Bakugou Katsuki.” He said quietly and stared at the water bottles on the table.
“Would you like to tell me a little bit about yourself?” Sakamoto asked and Katsuki looked back at her with a raised brow.
“The fu-” he cleared his throat, “what do you mean?” He squinted at her.
She didn't seem to care about his slip and just explained simply, “Well, how about how old you are, what your quirk is? Maybe your favourite colour or your hobbies? Some likes, dislikes? The school you're attending?”
Katsuki stared at her, a bit dumbfounded.
Wasn't she going to start with his fucking kidnapping that she definitely knew about?
He wasn't sure whether he was irritated or relieved that she didn’t jump straight to that.
Katsuki thought that his silence would make her annoyed with him, or make her talk by herself again but she just watched him closely. There was no judgement in her eyes, only patience as she waited for Katsuki to answer.
“... Fine. I'm sixteen, I can set off explosions from my hands, I'm attending U.A. Highschool, and I like hiking.” He said as he slumped in the chair with his arms crossed.
“That's a nice hobby! I personally like boxing.” She flexed her arm and just then did Katsuki notice that she actually had quite toned muscles. “And well, you can already see what my quirk is.” Sakamoto grinned as she poked her own dark purple horn.
Katsuki bit down a smile. This wasn't so bad, especially compared to the other guys who were jumping straight to his kidnapping.
She had a calm yet confident demeanour about her that somehow made Katsuki want to be more open with her, if only a little bit.
“I like honesty, but I don't like talking about my… issues.” Katsuki cringed at the word. “Especially with people I don't know.”
“A lot of people find it hard to share their thoughts, some more than others, but I can assure you that whatever you say here, stays between you and me.”
It was a pretty basic answer, but Katsuki appreciated the reassurance.
“I read that a therapist is supposed to be a partner who helps me with my goals, but I don't know what they are and I don't fucking know how to find out.” He said with a shrug. He also added the curse on purpose, just to see if she would say anything about it but once again, she didn’t seem fazed by it.
“If you allow it, I can help with that. That's what I'm here for, we can get to know each other a little bit more and if you're willing to open up, then we can start looking for your goals.” Sakamoto explained and Katsuki liked that her tone wasn't condescending. “Is there anything you'd like to know about me?” She leaned back in her chair, her ankles crossed together.
Katsuki vaguely wondered if she could sit in any other way on a chair with her goat legs before he gave some thought to her question and just shrugged.
He's never been good with people, he told her so and she just wrote something down. Katsuki stole a glimpse and saw ⅓ of the page was already filled with notes.
Huh, he hadn't even realised that she was writing until now. Was he allowed to ask what she was writing about? Did he even want to know?
“Are there people in your life you're comfortable with?” Sakamoto asked and Katsuki snorted.
“Is that your way of asking if I have friends?” He rolled his eyes. He noticed that this weird, ambiguous way of speaking was common between therapists, like they didn’t want to assume anything. She opened her mouth, but he was quicker with his answer, “I have maybe four friends, at most. But I'm not comfortable sharing shit about myself with them. Well, except one, but he's an asshole and I'm mad at him right now.” Katsuki frowned as he remembered his morning with Eijirou.
“Oh? What did he do?”
“He went behind my back and told our homeroom teacher about my stupid breakdown- Ah. Fuck.” Katsuki slumped down even further in his chair, almost lying in it as he realised Sakamoto was able to get this information out of him so easily.
To be fair, he actually wanted to bitch about Eijirou, sue him, but that didn’t mean he wanted to tell her all about the most pathetic moment of his life.
“Do you have some sort of a hidden quirk that makes people talk?” Katsuki muttered, annoyed.
Sakamoto laughed, it was a booming sound that took Katsuki by surprise, and she shook her head. “Fuck no, I would tell you right away.”
Katsuki straightened in his chair, eyes wide as he released a shocked cackle because what the fuck, was she even allowed to curse?
“Dare I say, you sound frustrated while talking about this friend.” Sakamoto pointed out and Katsuki huffed.
“Yeah! Because it’s not the first time he pulled something like this!” He stood up and a few sparks went off in his hands as he paced around. “And the worst thing is that it's working out in his fucking favor, because I'm here! Talking to you!” He pointed at Sakamoto in an accusatory way.
She raised a brow at him. “No one is forcing you to be here, Katsuki.” She told him, and Katsuki was actually relieved to not hear a single trace of annoyance or anger. It was just plain truth.
Katsuki realised what he was doing and sat his stupid ass back down.
She was right. At the end of the day, it was his choice to call her and tell his mother about it. Damn, he was almost proud of himself for doing so.
“I'm just mad that he was right.”
“And you're allowed to be mad at him, especially that it's not the first time he's done something like this, correct?”
“... Yeah.” Katsuki fiddled with his thumbs. Did he want to share with her what Eijirou had done before? It didn't seem like she was going to ask, judging by the way she was allowing him to just sit there and collect his thoughts.
He'd have to tell her about his face blindness, and he's never done so before, that was always his mother’s job to tell people and she wasn't there to-
… Wait.
Katsuki felt himself pale as he realised that neither Sakamoto nor her assistant ever mentioned anything about payment for this fucking session, and neither of them questioned why his parents weren't there with him, Hizoku just asked for the permission slip but how would they know about it if it wasn't for her.
“Katsuki?” Sakamoto finally addressed him, understandable, since he's been quiet for over a minute now.
“... She called you.” Katsuki said with a glare that didn't seem to have any effect on her.
“If you mean your mom, then yes, she called me a few minutes after our conversation.” Sakamoto confirmed without even trying to hide the truth. Katsuki could appreciate that but fuck.
“So she already told you everything.” Katsuki felt resigned as he leaned forward and hid his face in his hands.
This was so fucking unfair.
He held his breath and closed his eyes tightly when he felt tears well up in them.
This was his fucking chance to take initiative and share his issues with someone on his own accord, but she just went and ruined it for him.
As she always did.
“She did try to tell me some things about you, but I respectfully told her not to, that this was something you needed to do on your own.”
Katsuki released the air from his lungs but still refused to look up at her when he spoke, “I hate when people lie to me.”
“What makes you think I'm lying?”
“Because you still haven't asked why I'm here!” Katsuki stood up once again and walked up to her. He towered over Sakamoto who looked surprised at his outburst. “That means you fucking know and you're playing your weird therapist games with me!” He turned away when he realised she could see his pathetic looking face.
“I don't usually ask about my patient's trauma as soon as they walk into my office, but if it's something you want-”
“I don't, and that's the weirdest fucking thing!” Katsuki stepped away but refused to face her again or sit back down. “I’m right here! I’m supposed to talk about this one fucking thing that everyone expects me to talk about but I just don’t fucking want to!”
“Do you not want to, or are you not ready?”
Katsuki froze at her question, his shoulders sagged and hands fell to his sides.
Oh.
“Maybe that’s why you haven’t really brought it up on your own, yet?” Sakamoto’s tone was self-assured and he almost wanted for her to say gotcha, just to be justified in staying mad at her but he couldn’t. Because she was right.
But Katsuki wasn’t going to tell her that.
“Okay, but you’re the one acting like you don’t know why I’m here.” Katsuki rubbed at his eyes then glanced at her over his shoulder.
“I really don’t.” She assured with a serious face.
“But you still haven’t asked me!” He pointed at her once again, voice louder than necessary.
“Alright, what brings you here today?” Sakamoto finally asked and Katsuki scoffed.
“See? You're still pretending! Everyone watches the fucking news!” He finally sat back down and leaned in the chair, staring at her with a challenge in his eyes.
“You're right, I do watch the news, but I doubt you're here to talk about the rising gas prices.”
Katsuki bit the inside of his cheek to stop himself from laughing at the shitty joke.
He took a second to take a deep breath before he spoke again, “Sure, let's pretend you didn’t know prior to me calling. That Katame didn't say anything, but you already told me you talked to my mother as well and she definitely told you.” He accused as he leaned towards her, although he wasn't sure if he was accusatory towards his mother or the therapist. Probably both.
“Why would she tell me anything?” Sakamoto asked with a raised brow and her question made Katsuki’s eye twitch.
“Because she always tells extras everything about my business!” He raised his voice again but Sakamoto didn't seem bothered by it. “She always tells people about my- my thing, and I wouldn't be surprised if she told you what I was here for!” Katsuki sighed heavily, clenching his fists, trying his best not to set off any explosions.
“Katsuki, I already told you that she tried to tell me something, but I didn’t let her. Besides that, it's not my place to assume what you're here for.” Sakamoto rested the notepad with the pen on the table. “There are infinite reasons for someone to seek therapy; their dog passing away, failing at school, parents’ divorce. I'm not here to guess or judge, I'm here to guide you towards your goals.” She explained in a comforting voice.
Katsuki found it annoying that her explanation didn't make him more mad, that it made perfect fucking sense. Damn, it kind of made him want to share the reason he was there, or at least what everyone thought was the reason he sought therapy in the first place, but as they continued to stare at each other in silence, Katsuki finally gave up and looked down at the floor.
He closed his eyes, braced himself, and finally admitted in a small, quiet voice.
“I was kidnapped and it messed up my head.”
He felt ashamed.
“I don't want to talk about it,” he continued in a hushed tone. “Thinking too much about it makes me sick and I just want to forget it ever happened.” He took a deep breath. “... And the worst thing is that you’re right. I’m not ready to talk about it.”
Katsuki didn’t even try looking at Sakamoto when she asked, “How do you feel about that?”
Stupid. Childish. Worthless.
“... Weak.” Was what Katsuki settled on. “I went through hell and I’m not even able to talk about it, just thinking about it makes me sick.” He set off a few sparks in his right hand, the quiet popping comforting him in a way.
Katsuki felt pathetic, especially telling all this to a complete stranger, but when he finally gathered up the courage to look back at Sakamoto, where he expected pity, he saw understanding and compassion, and some part of him felt lighter. Like with this small confession a very heavy weight was lifted off his shoulders.
“Inability to talk about trauma isn’t a show of weakness. From our conversation so far, I can tell that you’re a very proud person.” Katsuki scoffed, crossing his arms, but she paid no mind to his shitty attitude. “Avoiding talking about what you went through is your defence mechanism and it allows you to function-”
“Poorly.” Katsuki remarked and smirked when she actually chuckled.
Did making a therapist laugh count as being good at therapy?
“But function nonetheless, yet in the long run, it’ll start eating you from the inside until confronted.”
“And that’s where you come in?” Katsuki asked with a sigh. Sakamoto confirmed with a single nod. “So what the hell am I supposed to do now?”
“First step is behind you, admitting why you’ve decided to come here in the first place.” Sakamoto wrote something down before shifting in her seat. Katsuki hadn’t even noticed when she grabbed her notepad again. “Unless that’s not the only thing you’d like to talk about during future sessions, assuming you want to continue meeting with me.” She spoke with an inviting smile.
“I’ll admit, you’re actually the first person in ages who’s shown any sort of respect towards me.” Katsuki said as he relaxed in the chair. Now that the cat was out of the bag, he felt more comfortable in Sakamoto’s company. “And, well.. I talked to my homeroom teacher today and some stuff he said made me realise that there’s a fucking shitton of things that I have to… I don’t know…” He trailed off, staring at his shoes.
“Process?” Sakamoto provided and Katsuki gave her an attentive look. “How about some homework then?” She suggested and Katsuki looked up at her, a bit confused. “You can make a list of topics that you’d like to discuss with me, whether it’s an event that happened in your early life, or just the recent ones, or maybe something that happened just a day before our session.” She handed him a paper sheet that had ‘Topics to discuss’ printed on top of it.
“So what, every session we’re gonna go through one thing at a time?” Katsuki stared at the sheet, already thinking about what he was supposed to put at the top.
“Not necessarily, but if you like planning ahead like that, then it’s a good foundation for our future meetings. And don’t worry, you won’t have to show me the list if you choose to make one, we’ll just go through the topic of your choosing each time.”
“So there’s no correct way to do this?” He felt silly asking, being well aware that it wasn’t a school assignment, just therapy homework that was supposed to help him.
Then again, he didn’t want to fail at yet another thing in his life.
“There’s certainly no wrong way to do it. I’m not grading you in therapy.” Sakamoto laughed, a sound that quieted down when she noticed his displeased expression. “What’s going through your head?” She tilted her head, a few of her braids falling over her shoulder.
Katsuki stared at the paper with a grimace. “What about..” He swallowed around his dry throat and glanced at the water bottles. “Can I…” He took one when Sakamoto gestured encouragingly towards it and gulped down half of it in one go before he spoke again. “What about the kidnapping?” He finally asked, rolling the bottle in his hands.
“I suggest that we build up to it slowly.”
Katsuki looked up at her in time to see she finished writing something. He was genuinely impressed that she was writing so quickly and quietly.
“But I need to talk about it, sooner or later.” He pointed out and put the bottle back on the table.
“So how about this; since you’re not ready to talk about it, you could try writing it out. Not today, maybe tomorrow, because you’ve obviously had an eventful last couple of days.” Once again, where Katsuki expected her to be judgmental, she was only genuine. “But once you get to it, write in as much detail as you can, but-” she leaned towards him, “-as soon as you feel like you can’t continue, you stop for the day and you think about a safe space. Once you’re ready to speak about those events with me, not just write about them, we can then process them together, is that okay with you?”
Katsuki was more than okay with that. He could handle writing, yet he still asked, a bit confused. “What do you mean by a ‘safe space’?”
Sakamoto sat up straight as she thought about an explanation, “Well, it’s different for everyone. And it doesn’t have to be a literal place, it can be a person. For example, I think about my girlfriend, we’re swimming in a lake and the water is warm. I’ve never swam in a lake, but it’s certainly a nice thought to distract me from unhappy thoughts.” She finished with a wide smile.
Oh.
So Katsuki could think about Eijirou-
He felt himself blush and he shook his head in order to clear it. Sakamoto seemed a bit amused, clearly wanting to ask what Katsuki was thinking about but she didn’t. Not that Katsuki would share.
“So it can be a made-up scenario?” Katsuki asked, just to be sure and once Sakamoto confirmed, he made a mental note of that. Cool. He could think about Eijirou, once he stopped being mad at him.
“We’re getting close to the end of our session.” Sakamoto stated in a gentle tone. There was no rush in her voice, and once Katsuki looked up at the clock on the wall, he saw that they had about 15 minutes left. “Is there anything else you’d like to discuss with me?”
Katsuki shrugged. He had no idea what the proper procedure of a therapy session was, let alone ending one. “I assumed you’d be asking me a lot of stuff, I didn’t exactly come prepared.” Katsuki chuckled humorlessly.
“So may I ask you about something you said earlier?” Sakamoto tilted her head once again, patiently waiting for him to answer.
Katsuki tensed up, not sure what she could be so curious about. “I.. guess you may?”
“What did you mean by the ‘thing’?” She asked as she circled something in her notes.
He blinked, completely lost. “What?”
“You said that your mom always tells people about your thing, and I can't help but wonder what that is?”
Katsuki was impressed that she picked up on that, but also found himself speechless, because not only did his mother not tell Sakamoto that he was kidnapped, she also didn't mention his face blindness. Probably for the first time in his life, and definitely because Sakamoto didn’t let her.
“You don’t have to answer of course.” She assured him with a wave of her hand.
He’s.. never told anyone. He was never given a choice, and just now, he finally had it.
And he felt like he could trust her.
“... I have prosopagnosia. Face blindness.” His heart was beating rapidly.
Holy shit.
It felt so good, empowering even, to finally tell someone on his own accord.
A smile spread on his face, it was out of his control and he quickly covered his mouth before a stupid laugh would escape it.
“I see,” Sakamoto said with a smile of her own, clearly happy about Katsuki’s reaction. “Do you need any accommodations from me in order for you to recognize me more easily?”
Katsuki shook his head, still unable to swallow down his silly grin, because fuck, he told someone! And they knew what he was talking about!
“You’re really easy to remember.” Katsuki mumbled from behind his hand, barely stopping a chuckle from escaping.
Sakamoto’s grin widened, “Thank you so much!” She tucked her braids behind her ear before she wrote something down.
Katsuki was even happier now that he knew she took it as a compliment, similar to how Eijirou reacted all those months ago when Katsuki told him his hair was easy to recognize.
Fuck, he couldn't stop smiling.
“Are you alright, Katsuki?” Sakamoto seemed pleased with his new attitude.
“Yeah,” Katsuki cleared his throat, still unable to fight off his smile. “I've just never told anyone before and it's a weird feeling, a good one.”
“Your mom always beat you to it?” Sakamoto’s question was more of a statement and Katsuki’s smile faltered.
“If it were my choice, I'd probably never tell anyone.” He admitted, thoughts going back to Eijirou, how he found out on his own and now went and stabbed him in the back again. “My… friend, the one I mentioned earlier, he discovered on his own.”
“You didn't like that, did you?”
“I wanted to blow up his face.” Katsuki smirked, but his face quickly turned sour. “I don't like being mad at him, but it pisses me off that he went behind my back and told our teacher about my state, and right after I promised him I'd eventually go and talk to him myself.” He started tapping his foot against the floor. “I wasn't going to, though.”
“You two are classmates, correct?” Sakamoto asked and Katsuki stopped the movement of his foot. He raised a curious brow at her, urging her to continue with his stare. “So you're both learning to be heroes.”
Katsuki had a strong feeling he knew where she was going with this.
“Maybe he felt like he needed another hero, your teacher, to help you? You said you had a mental breakdown, was it in front of him?”
He was too ashamed of it to admit to it out loud and refused to even meet her eyes.
Now that he thought about it, it probably wasn't hard to go through just for him. Eijirou, being a fucking empath, probably felt Katsuki’s emotions almost as much as Katsuki had felt them.
“I called him an asshole this morning and pushed him.” He admitted as he tried to hide his head between his shoulders. “And all that after he- he fucking held me as I cried into his stupid shoulder for half the night.”
“Like I said, you had the right to be mad at him, but even when you're mad, your first reaction shouldn't be to call someone names and physically abuse them.”
“He’s a strong fucker, he didn’t even budge…” Katsuki commented but judging by her displeased expression, that didn’t matter.
Damn, she was going to have a damn field day once she'd heard about what he said to Deku.
But for now… “So what do I do?”
“Apologise.” She said plainly.
“... What, just like that?!” Katsuki raised his voice as he straightened in his chair.
“Yes.” Sakamoto said with a firm nod. “He's a close friend of yours, right?”
Even though Katsuki wanted them to be more than that, all he could do was confirm with a simple yet quiet “Yeah.”
“Then it should be easy!” She gave him a wide smile once again.
“Easy…” Katsuki repeated, and even though he was still unsure about this, he knew she was right. Eijirou wasn't the one to hold a grudge against his friends. “But what about the whole ‘going behind my back’ thing? Sure, at this point I don't care about the first time he'd done that, but this…” He reached for the scar on the back of his head, more out of habit than anything, but it still brought him some comfort.
“You can always talk to him about it once you're both in better spirits.”
Katsuki knew that Eijirou, even though he had good intentions, was feeling pretty shitty for what he'd done, and because of how Katsuki reacted to it. And then, Katsuki was feeling just as bad, for the exact same reasons.
Katsuki also knew that neither of them would even come close to being in ‘better spirits’ until one would come to the other first and apologise.
… Katsuki knew he had to be that person. He owed it to Eijirou.
He decided to go to Eijirou as soon as he'd be back in the dorms. He was going to apologise, and tell him he got a fucking therapist.
Then, he'd be able to do his therapy homework.
And he was going to be the best at this whole therapy thing, starting with the list of shit that happened to him and then- Wait. Could he even be the best at therapy?
“Alright, Katsuki, we're almost out of time, if there’s anything else you'd like to ask me-”
“So how do I win at therapy?” He interrupted and leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees, his expression serious.
Sakamoto raised a brow at his question, “Do you mean, when will you be done with it?”
Katsuki thought for a second. If being done with therapy equaled winning at it… “Sure, let’s go with that.”
“Well, for starters,” she tapped her pen against the notepad, “we’ll need to set your goals, this is your homework as we established already, then I'll help you reach those goals.”
Katsuki squinted at her. “And how long does that take?”
“It depends on a lot of factors, you need to mentally prepare to not always leave my office in a good mood. You need to feel worse before you can feel better. It takes time to produce results, just like with hiking!” She raised her finger and Katsuki straightened in his seat. “You weren’t able to hike up the highest mountain right during your first trip, correct?”
Katsuki thought back to when he was five. It wasn’t his first hiking trip with his parents, but it was the first one he remembered after his accident. They chose one of the easiest local routes for him, and he remembered how mad he was at them for underestimating him, but then he was unable to even finish the trail and his dad carried him the rest of the way. Katsuki remembered how angry he was at his parents and himself.
“So I might end up being mad at you as well, at some points.”
Sakamoto chuckled. “Yes, you probably will.”
“And I might need lots of sessions to get better.”
“Exactly.”
“And that can take..?” Katsuki trailed off, hoping that she would say a few weeks at most.
“Anywhere between a few months and several years.” She answered honestly but Katsuki still couldn't believe it.
“Years?!” Smoke started coming out of his hand and he quickly waved around to get rid of it. “What the fuck, so what, I might still not be able to get over this whole bullshit in fucking- three years? Five?!”
“Trauma has its way of sneaking up on you when you least expect it.”
“But it was just- just a few fucking days, why would I be hung up on them in five years?!” His voice cracked when the thought of still feeling Dabi's hand on his throat five years down the line crossed his mind. “I don't want to have a goddamn panic attack each time I'm alone in my room and hear a knock on my door! I don't- I can't-”
He couldn't speak as his breathing quickened.
Fuck.
Fuck, shit, fucking hell, goddamn it-
Would he still have a reaction like that in several months? Would he still be making an idiot out of himself in front of everyone? Would he still-
“Katsuki, deep breaths, think of your safe space.” A disembodied voice told him. It sounded familiar, had a calming yet commanding tone to it and Katsuki listened.
He took a few deep breaths, something that was a difficult task at first, but once he thought about a sparring session with Eijirou, he was surprised at how fast he was able to come back to his senses. He blinked a few times, slowly relaxing his tense muscles, before he realised he was curling in on himself, and he forced his body to fully let him straighten up.
That was when he noticed that Sakamoto was right in front of him, crouching on the floor.
Katsuki felt ashamed that she had to help him through a panic attack, to the point that he didn't even want to begin to decipher her expression, let alone look her in the eyes. He awkwardly wiped his hands on his pants while his eyes wandered and just so happened to land on the clock. With a mix of embarrassment and anxiety, he realised he overstayed his welcome by six minutes already. “Shit, I didn't notice, sorry, I- I have to go-” He stood up on his shaky legs.
Sakamoto was quick to calm him down as she stood up with him. “You can stay here for a bit longer if you need.” She offered and Katsuki was more than relieved that she didn't sound like she was mad at him. “Take your time.”
“No, I'm- I'm okay…” Katsuki said quietly, still avoiding eye contact. Fuck, he was about to go and that was the impression he was leaving her with?
The least he could do was show her that he actually wanted to improve and continue their sessions.
“When's the next time we can… talk?” Katsuki felt like an idiot, even though he was aware it was a completely normal thing to ask about.
But when Sakamoto didn’t insist on talking about his state from a few seconds ago, and instead went to her desk and started scheduling their next sessions, he knew he was in good hands.
They settled on one more session this week and another two in the next. Katsuki would have to let her know if he’d be allowed to leave the dorms so often or if they would have to do video calls. He was fine with either, but he would be lying if he said he didn’t want to get out of the Heights Alliance while he had a chance to do so, since once summer holidays were over, he was sure it would be more convenient to just have their sessions via video calls.
“Remember that showing and expressing your emotions isn’t a sign of weakness.” Sakamoto told him before he left her office. “I look forward to hearing about your homework assignment at our next session.”
Katsuki stood at the door, awkwardly staring at the floor. He wasn’t sure if he was supposed to say anything else to her. As far as he was aware, that was the end of their session, even though he still had many things to say and even more questions to ask.
He settled on one thing, though. One that he wanted to know if he could at least joke about, if it wasn’t something he could realistically do.
“But once I don’t need therapy, it means I’ve won, right?”
Sakamoto chuckled as she shook her head. “We’re gonna talk about your competitive spirit at some point.” She noted something down.
Katsuki laughed. An honest, hearty laugh, the first one in what felt like a year. He could barely contain it as he left her office and just then remembered that her assistant, Hizoku, was still there. Katsuki cleared his throat, more than appreciative of the fact that they didn’t comment on his very obviously improved mood, and bowed slightly before heading out.
He was still giddy as he quickly made his way down the stairs and outside, eager to let his parents and Aizawa know that this was his therapist. That he was happy with her and wanted to actually talk more with her.
But as Katsuki approached the car, his pace slowed down. He furrowed his brow as doubts crept into his mind, because what if everyone would be disappointed that he didn't actually talk about the kidnapping with Sakamoto? He didn't want to share with anyone what he had discussed during this or future sessions, nor did he want to listen to his mother complain about the wasted time.
In the end, Katsuki told them the session went fine, that he would meet with her again and Aizawa assured him he'd be able to organise a ride for him.
Katsuki could see it in his mother’s eyes that she wanted to ask about his session with Sakamoto, and Katsuki was more than ready to hit her with ‘you wanted to tell her everything on the phone’, but lucky for everyone in the car, he didn't need to resolve to such thing.
Not only did she not ask anything, she told him she was glad it went well. His father said that he was happy for him, and even though Aizawa stayed silent, Katsuki still appreciated the approving look the teacher gave him.
He was going to be alright.
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Katsuki’s parents didn't say anything worth mentioning to him as they parked in front of the school gate and he got out of the car, Aizawa right after him. His father once again repeated how happy he was for Katsuki, while his mother smiled and told him to call her if he needed anything. Katsuki just nodded and off they were, leaving him and his teacher alone.
“Go rest, you deserve it.” Aizawa told him and started a slow walk to the teacher's dorms.
Katsuki stared at his back for a few seconds before he set his pride aside.
“Thank you.” Katsuki said in a confident voice.
Aizawa paused, and when Katsuki thought he was going to turn to him and say something, the hero only raised his hand in a casual wave and continued on his way.
Katsuki smiled to himself before he hurried back towards his class’ dormitory. He ignored the Bird guy and Octopus in the kitchen, then paid no mind to Ashido and Earphones as they stepped out of the elevator, even though they both stared at him as if they'd seen a ghost.
He jumped the stairs two at a time to his floor and levelled his breathing while approaching Eijirou’s door.
Now or never.
He knocked in the most non-threatening way he could muster before he realised he didn't really think of what he was going to say, but that wasn't going to stop him from fucking apologizing.
The door opened and there he was, his best friend, his safe space, his Eijirou.
Katsuki watched for a second as Eijirou’s eyes widened in realisation, his mouth opening to say something, but Katsuki was quicker.
“I’m gonna win at therapy.” He said before Eijirou could utter a single word.
Eijirou blinked at him, clearly shocked at the revelation, then let out a surprised laugh. “O-of course you will!” A confused yet genuine smile spread on his face, showing off those sharp teeth Katsuki adored. “Wow, I’m… really happy for you.” Eijirou let out another chuckle. “Do you wanna come in?” He stepped to the side, inviting Katsuki who slowly shook his head.
He wanted to go in, very much so, but he had very important things to do.
“I need to be alone for now, the… the therapist assigned me homework.” Katsuki chuckled to himself.
He wondered when he'd be able to completely get over that feeling of shame for needing a therapist and others knowing he had one.
“Just, listen, I’m...” Katsuki hesitated for a second, but then decided, fuck it, and reached out and took a gentle hold of Eijirou’s hand, finally gathering up the courage to meet his eyes. “I’m sorry for calling you an asshole. And for blowing up at you yesterday. And for being shitty for the last few days.” He squeezed Eijirou’s warm hand.
“No worries…” Eijirou whispered as he squeezed back.
They stared at each other for a few seconds, and even though Katsuki didn't want to, he let go, but only to wrap his arms around Eijirou’s frame.
He inhaled the familiar and comforting scent, holding him tightly.
He wanted to tell him all about how therapy went, how much Aizawa helped him, damn, he even wanted to tell Eijirou about Aizawa’s bald cat, but in the end, he was too tired for any more interactions.
“You’re.. You’re an amazing friend, Eijirou.” Was what he settled on.
Maybe at some point Sakamoto could help him with his pathetic crush.
Katsuki felt his face turn hot, so he didn't let Eijirou react in any way and just hurried to his room.
Once inside, he opened the balcony door to let in some fresh air. He knew he'd be able to focus better on his therapy homework this way.
He quickly changed into his most comfortable sweats and hoodie and got right to it.
Katsuki wrote down everything he deemed was worth mentioning to Sakamoto, from the way he acquired his face blindness, through the encounter with the Sludge villain, the sports festival, Best Jeanist, and up to the faulty support gear.
He did his best to stick to short bullet points, a simple list. He didn't want to waste time reminiscing about each event, well aware that it was something he was going to do with Sakamoto, and he just didn't want to accidentally spark another panic attack by thinking about all those things.
Katsuki thought he was done when he heard a muffled thud behind him. He looked over his shoulder, at the wall he was sharing with Eijirou, and chuckled to himself.
At the very bottom of the list, he wrote down a single word - Eijirou.
And with that, he was done.
Well, there was also the looming trauma of getting kidnapped but Katsuki wasn't ready to poke that bear just yet.
… Or was he?
Even though Sakamoto advised against doing this today, he grabbed one of his extra notebooks that weren't filled with any notes and opened it on the first page.
For a second he wanted to title it “trauma shit” but decided against it, rolling his eyes and setting his pen on the blank page, ready to write down what he could remember.
But as he thought about the first few seconds of being in that bar, how he was held down and how the quirk-suppressing collar squeezed his throat, he felt sick.
He closed his eyes and held his breath, thinking about grabbing Eijirou’s hand as they flew over the villains who kidnapped him.
Katsuki put down the pen and leaned back in his chair, staring up at the ceiling.
Sakamoto was right.
For once, Katsuki had to take things slow.
He wasn’t ready, but that didn’t mean he was weak.
He wasn’t ready, and that was okay.
Notes:
Hello babes, it's been a while!
So! I dropped out of my last year at uni, got severely depressed (unrelated to uni lol), ended two friendships, went to therapy, fixed my relationship with my mom, got a job (which was hard to get used to), went on a trip to London and met with wonderful babes who I proudly call my friends, and got addicted to playing Baldur's Gate 3. That's pretty much it, I think.
Sakamoto is one of the OCs that were submitted through a google back in November 2021. Her owner wished to be credited as Makugen, and that's what I'm doing. Their OC seemed just prefect for this role and I'm absolutely gay for Sakamoto so. Yeah. Perfection.
This chapter was beta read by my amazing friends Lion and Horror.
ALSO Lion made this beautiful animatic for one of the Kiribaku scenes from the last chapter, so please go and give it all the love it deservers, here's the link!I also want to thank everyone who kept commenting and sending asks about this fic. It meant so much to know that people still cared and I am so so SO grateful for all my wonderful readers. I hope you've enjoyed this chapter.
As always, you can find me on tumblr <3
Up next; More therapy and making friends
Chapter 42: Drop a Bombshell
Summary:
Girls’ night in
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
The morning after his session with Sakamoto, Katsuki went downstairs to make himself breakfast.
Making himself get up at his usual time had its perks, since interacting with others wasn’t an issue as he was the only person on the ground floor at 6am. Katsuki wasn’t sure how he was supposed to act around others once they'd start gathering there, but he knew he’d have to face them at some point.
He was slowly eating some fried rice with vegetables when he tensed up at the sound of somebody approaching. Katsuki looked up from his food and his eyes met with ones behind glasses.
… Iida, Katsuki recognized after a second. He was one of the people who rescued him, and the ones who were witness to his reaction to that cursed TV interview. Honestly, Katsuki wasn’t sure how to behave around him at this point, especially that he was Deku’s friend and he had no idea whether he told anyone who wasn’t present about their… exchange.
They stared at each other for a few moments before Iida fucking smiled and greeted Katsuki like nothing ever happened. Relieved, Katsuki just gave him a nod of acknowledgement and went back to picking at his food.
It was similar with others who would come down, but since no one except Eijirou knew about his breakdown and first therapy session, they didn't really acknowledge him.
That was, until Kaminari walked in; half asleep and still dressed in what looked to be his pyjamas, with an oversized Ectoplasm-themed t-shirt and washed out boxers. He glanced at Katsuki, then turned towards the kitchen before freezing and looking back with wide eyes. He made a weird sound, a mix of surprise and excitement as he pointed at Katsuki who raised a brow at him.
“Kacchan, holy shit!” Kaminari quickly joined him. “You're here!” He waved his arms in Katsuki’s direction before slamming them on the table.
Katsuki didn't like how Kaminari was approaching this topic. Preferably, he’d rather it wasn't acknowledged at all, just like Iida and others did, although the latter did so unintentionally.
“Yeah, and?” Katsuki's tone was cold as he leaned back in his chair and stared at Kaminari.
The other stuttered a bit, “Uh- nothing? I guess?” He laughed awkwardly. “Just… Happy to see you?” Kaminari smiled in a genuine way and Katsuki sighed.
He's just glad you're okay. Katsuki told himself, knowing damn well that his friend didn't mean anything bad, just that he wasn't the best at approaching stuff like this.
Not that Katsuki was any better.
“Whatever.” He said quietly without looking at Kaminari and focusing back on his food.
“Awww, thanks Kacchan!” Kaminari poked him on the forehead and Katsuki swatted at his hand.
“The hell's your deal?!” He yelled but Kaminari just laughed.
“We all know that your whatever,” he mocked Katsuki’s voice, “is a show of your most sincere gratitude and happiness!” Kaminari pressed his hand to his chest and fluttered his eyelashes at Katsuki, who just stared at him, trying his best to look unimpressed because while Kaminari wasn't right, he also wasn't exactly wrong, and they both knew it.
Every one of the people he considered friends knew that he had a shit way of using his words, and he could appreciate that they were willing to actually give his attitude a chance.
He was also well aware that it was mostly thanks to Eijirou. Speaking of, Katsuki wondered when he was going to come down.
“By the way,” Kaminari started again as he reached towards Katsuki’s food, before he seemed to remember what kind of spices Katsuki would use and he quickly withdrew his hand to Katsuki’s amusement. “Have you talked to Kirishima?”
Katsuki grimaced. “About?”
This time Kaminari was the one to raise a brow at him, before he sighed heavily. “Okay, I know, I suck at this-”
“You don’t say.” Katsuki started chewing on his rice.
“But have the two of you.. Dunno…” Kaminari shrugged as he averted Katsuki’s eyes.
Wow, he really was shit at this. It was almost surprising.
“We talked last evening, everything’s fine.” Katsuki decided to spare Kaminari this one time if it meant he’d finally let that topic go, even if Katsuki’s short meeting with Eijirou wouldn’t exactly classify as talking.
Not to mention that Katsuki still wanted to discuss the whole thing about going behind his back with Eijirou, again.
“Oh! Great!” Kaminari smiled again, straightening in his seat. “Marvellous even!” His grin stretched even wider when Katsuki rolled his eyes. “I’m gonna go grab some food and I’ll be right back, just so you don’t miss me too much.” He just laughed at the disgusted sound Katsuki made as he walked away.
Katsuki, finally left alone, stared down at his half empty bowl of rice and vegetables and scrunched his eyebrows. He wasn’t hungry anymore, but he also didn’t want to waste food-
“Morning, Kirishima!” Someone said excitedly and Katsuki’s eyes shot up to see the familiar shade of red on hair that was let loose.
Eijirou was entering the kitchen area, his expression strangely worried before he turned his head and his eyes met with Katsuki’s, that was when Eijirou visibly elated, straightening his slouched posture and allowing a smile to spread on his face.
Cute. Katsuki bit back a wide smile of his own and instead waved to his friend who quickly made his way to sit down next to Katsuki, Kaminari forgotten.
“Hi!” Eijirou said, and Katsuki could swear he was a second away from bursting from excitement.
He wasn’t going to lie, he was a bit nervous about meeting Eijirou this morning. This was part of the reason why Katsuki went straight downstairs instead of waking his neighbour up, but seeing him so gleeful in the morning, and upon seeing Katsuki of all reasons, was enough to calm his anxiety.
“What’s with the mood?” Katsuki asked with a smirk as he rested his chin on his hand.
Eijirou leaned towards Katsuki. “I just feel great today!” He let their shoulders bump against each other before he moved back. “How about you?” His grin was still present as he asked in a lowered tone.
Katsuki knew there was more to this question than either of them wanted to admit, but he was all the more appreciative of Eijirou’s subtlety.
“I’m good.” He answered simply, because he did feel good, especially once he saw how happy Eijirou was just because Katsuki came downstairs.
Had he been an idiot, he would have allowed himself to think that it meant Eijirou cared about him more than just a friend.
“Do you want to go to the gym with-” Eijirou started, his face turning red when his stomach rumbled suddenly and Katsuki snorted before he slid the bowl with rice and veggies towards him. Despite what Kaminari believed, his breakfast wasn’t spicy at all.
It took Eijirou a second to register what was going on, but then he reached for Katsuki’s chopsticks and started eating with a content look. “Is’ sho good!”
“Don’t talk with your mouth full.” Katsuki chuckled, very pleased with himself that something he made, even if it was as simple as fried rice, made Eijirou so happy. “And yeah, sure.”
Eijirou stopped eating and gave him a confused look before he realised Katsuki was saying yes to going to the gym together.
Even though Katsuki thought it was impossible, Eijirou looked even happier than before.
___
They spent a good two hours at their dorm’s gym, and honestly, Katsuki felt much better than before.
Some of their classmates came in and out during that time, but luckily none of the annoying ones. Katsuki shared those thoughts with Eijirou when they were on the treadmills, pace that of a steady jog, and Eijirou told him to stop being rude, although it was clear he wanted to laugh at the comment.
At some point, when Katsuki was spotting Eijirou while he was lifting weights, Earphones came in. Katsuki looked up at the sound of footsteps, and when their eyes met she inhaled sharply and quickly left. He only recognized her because she was fiddling with one of her cables while stepping in.
Katsuki grimaced, well aware that she was one of the people who weren’t afraid to make snide jokes at him before his kidnapping.
He looked over his shoulder at Uraraka on the treadmill on the other side of the room before he looked down at Eijirou who was counting his reps. Katsuki wanted to just stare at his focused, stupidly attractive face, to memorise every characteristic, but he had other things to think about at the moment.
“... Do you know what her deal is?” Katsuki asked in half a whisper, even though Uraraka was wearing headphones that were blaring music so loudly Katsuki could hear it.
“Huh?” Eijirou’s movements halted as he blinked up at Katsuki. “Uraraka’s?” He asked as he glanced at the still running girl.
“No, Earphones’.” Katsuki provided, taking hold of the weights next to Eijirou’s hands to make sure he wouldn’t accidentally get hurt. “I’m sure she’s avoiding me.”
“Oh, you mean Jirou?” Eijirou’s smile was short of sly, teasing even, and Katsuki rolled his eyes. Right, that was her name.
“You still have 30 reps.” Katsuki said as he let him know he was going to let go so that Eijirou could continue. “So, what’s Jirou’s deal?”
“Uhhh.. I dunno?” Eijirou breathed out heavily but his movements didn’t waver and Katsuki couldn’t be more proud. “She’s been a bit weird lately- uh- how many left?”
Katsuki chuckled, well aware Eijirou wasn’t as good at multitasking as he was at the strength based exercises. “Twenty one.”
Eijirou nodded and kept going, “She was at the hospital for a few days after.. the camp.” He glanced up at Katsuki who averted his gaze.
“Right…” Katsuki said quietly.
He could only assume she was blaming him for what happened to her. She wouldn’t be the first person to do so-
The sound of weights being put up in their place stopped him from spiralling and made him look back at Eijirou, who sat up on the bench and turned to face Katsuki.
“Do you want me to ask her about it?” Eijirou offered as he leaned back on his hands. He looked at Katsuki with big, genuine eyes and Katsuki had to look away, fighting off a blush. “To be honest, I noticed it as well, but I wasn’t sure if it was just in my head or what.” He finished with a tilt of his head.
Katsuki shook his head, “No, if she doesn’t stop acting like a weirdo, I’ll just ask her myself.” He crossed his arms over his chest, because what else was he supposed to do about this situation? He wasn’t even that close to her.
“Alright.” Eijirou smiled as he stood up and stretched his arms over his head. “Showers?” He asked.
“Sure.” There was no point getting all worked up over this again.
Katsuki stayed by Eijirou’s side in the common area for the rest of the day, but since Eijirou was a goddamned social butterfly and actually liked being around others, this only meant Katsuki had to deal with them as well.
Still, Katsuki couldn’t complain. Eijirou was a great shield against social interactions, and if Katsuki didn’t have to actually talk to anyone and still got to listen to Eijirou’s voice the entire time? He was more than happy to be there.
___
The next two days were pretty much uneventful for Katsuki. All he did was occupy his mind with everything that wasn’t self-loathing.
And if Eijirou makes for most of that, it’s his fucking business isn’t it? Katsuki huffed to himself as he took out a popcorn packet out of a kitchen cabinet. Normally, junk food wasn’t something he’d opt for, but Eijirou had convinced him to spend their evening watching movies and since he did well on his summer homework, Katsuki agreed.
Now that he thought about it, he hadn’t seen Eijirou’s room yet.
He smiled to himself as he put the popcorn into a microwave, thinking about how nervous Eijirou looked when he said he wanted to clean up first, fiddling with his fingers and avoiding eye contact, as if Katsuki had never seen a mess before.
It didn’t take long before he was standing with a big bowl of popcorn and knocking on Eijirou’s door, waiting patiently.
“Hi! Yes! Come in!” Eijirou said a tad too loudly as he opened the door, but it only made Katsuki chuckle before he stepped inside.
He was half expecting for Kaminari, Sero and Ashido to be here as well, and he would lie if he said he wasn’t relieved to see an empty room, his shoulders quickly relaxing.
“It’s loud.” Katsuki stated as he looked around; The punching bag, the weights, the motivational posters, the Crimson Riot figurines, the clock with flexing arms, the night-light shaped like a flame, the fire-patterned curtain and camo sheets.
All of it was just so… Eijirou.
Every single thing about this room was so fucking endearing and Katsuki was glad he had his back turned towards Eijirou because he couldn’t stop smiling like an idiot.
Then he noticed the red shark pencil case. The exact one that he helped Eijirou get at the arcade they went to together and his heart positively melted, because holy fuck, he actually kept it.
He placed the bowl on Eijirou’s desk and forced his face back into its neutral state before he finally faced Eijirou, who was still standing by the door, awkwardly fiddling with his fingers.
“I just wanted it to feel like home…” Eijirou explained sheepishly, staring at the floor as he swayed on his feet, and Katsuki wanted to slap that nervous look off of his face.
“And you’ve succeeded, it’s manly.” Katsuki told him with what he hoped was a nonchalant shrug and watched as Eijirou’s shoulders immediately straightened proudly and he seemed a second away from exploding with joy. Just looking at him made Katsuki feel all fluttery inside. “What are we watching?” He asked before he could say something stupid.
Such as ‘your room is the most ridiculous and the best thing I’ve ever seen’.
“Oh, right!” Eijirou sat down on his bed and opened his laptop, Katsuki grabbed the popcorn then took a seat next to him. “I was thinking something about All Might? Since we watched that Crimson Riot cartoon the other day.”
Katsuki’s stomach sank.
He didn’t want to even think about All Might, let alone watch one of the many movies that were about him.
“But they never made any cartoons with him and I know you don't really watch movies…” Eijirou trailed off and just kept on going through a selection of all the different All Might movies and documentaries, oblivious to Katsuki's stiff posture. “This one looks cool-”
“Actually,” Katsuki cut in, making sure to keep his voice steady, “I wouldn't mind watching something you like?” He gave Eijirou's shoulder a squeeze. “Even if it's a movie.”
Eijirou stayed silent for a few seconds. He closed his eyes and seemed to give it a lot of thought before an almost mischievous grin spread on his face and he looked back at Katsuki.
“Have you ever heard of Robin Hood?”
___
“See, Robin's the only one with a moustache, everyone else has either a beard or a clean face.” Eijirou pointed at the screen. “He's also the only one always with a bow and arrows. He's super easy to recognize.” He finished and shoved some popcorn into his mouth.
Katsuki nodded, even though Eijirou was so focused on the movie he didn't even notice. Katsuki himself wasn't that interested in an old movie about a group of quirkless vigilantes, but at the same time he was more than happy to see something Eijirou was so excited about.
Besides that, Katsuki couldn't help but smile.
It was a small one, barely there, but a smile nonetheless. After all, how could he not allow himself one when Eijirou was being so considerate? And he was so damn casual about it, Katsuki couldn’t hear a single hint of condescension in his voice, only pure enthusiasm over sharing something with Katsuki.
“Oh oh oh!” Eijirou nudged him several times with his elbow and Katsuki bit back a laugh. “This is Lady Marion, blue is her signature colour!”
I adore you, Katsuki thought, absolutely delighted that he agreed to the movie night.
___
They were in the middle of the third movie, something about a woman obsessed with the fashion industry but also not? Katsuki wasn't sure. It was way past his bedtime and the fact that Eijirou had turned off the light during the second movie didn't help his case.
Katsuki wanted to sleep.
He glanced at Eijirou, whose eyes were half-lidded as he looked at the screen. He was obviously tired as well - his head leaning against the wall, shoulders slumped - but it was as if he wanted to finish the movie out of sheer stubbornness.
Katsuki found himself feeling similar, yet only because if they were to stop now, he would have to go back to his room.
And he wanted to stay with Eijirou as long as possible.
There was an empty bowl between them and Katsuki wanted to put it away, closing that distance between them.
He wanted to be closer to him. To touch him, to lean on him. To put his head on his shoulder and link their arms once again, just like he did a few days ago. He wanted to feel Eijirou’s natural warmth again.
But back then, he was justified in doing so. He had a hard several days behind him, not to mention he was exhausted. Honestly, he didn’t fully comprehend what he was doing until Eijirou rested his head on Katsuki’s, that was on Eijirou’s shoulder.
Fuck, he felt so good in that moment.
He felt safe.
But he didn't want to force himself on Eijirou like that again.
It would be… unfair.
He didn't want to take advantage of Eijirou’s kindness.
He went back to watching the movie but he was completely lost at this point.
Was that the new love interest or the ex-boyfriend guy? Maybe the boss? Katsuki frowned. He was too tired to try and differentiate them, and just when he was about to ask Eijirou about it, something heavy hit his shoulder.
Eyes widening, Katsuki looked to his right and realised that Eijirou had fallen asleep. With Katsuki’s own shoulder serving as a pillow, nonetheless.
Katsuki blinked a few times, the tiredness he felt a few seconds ago disappearing, and he swallowed nervously, “Eijirou?” He poked him lightly on the head and allowed himself to chuckle when the other didn’t react, just snored quietly and continued to breathe rhythmically.
He looked so calm like this, there wasn't a sign of discomfort on his face, just pure ease. Katsuki wanted to memorise every single detail of Eijirou’s sleeping face, so even if he could never recall it in his mind, he could still think about how peaceful it looked.
… Did it mean Eijirou felt safe with him as well?
Katsuki hoped so.
He wanted to be special like that. Wanted to know he was the only one who got to see him like this, the only one Eijirou wanted to keep so close.
At the same time, he knew this was just wishful thinking.
Katsuki was just one of many Eijirou’s friends, and in order to keep being one, he would have to either get over his ridiculous feelings or confess and deal with the consequences of losing Eijirou’s trust forever.
He felt like he was lying to Eijirou by not telling him about his feelings, but at the same time, keeping them secret was a safe bet.
Katsuki could keep Eijirou in his life this way.
All he needed to do was stay silent.
… And he needed to keep his distance.
No matter how much he wanted to settle into Eijirou’s warmth, to embrace him and sleep next to him, as gently as he could, he manoeuvred both Eijirou and himself until Eijirou’s head was safe on his actual pillow.
He stared at him for a few precious moments, somehow stopping himself from leaning down and kissing Eijirou on his forehead.
Katsuki forced himself to look away. He took a grip of himself before standing up. He covered Eijirou with a blanket and turned off his laptop, then grabbed the empty bowl and quietly left his room.
He didn't enjoy distancing himself like this from Eijirou, but he had no choice.
___
“Just wake me up next timeee…” Eijirou wailed jokingly as he leaned on Katsuki who did his best not to tense up.
Katsuki ignored the feelings of guilt when Eijirou complained to him about allowing him to fall asleep and then leaving, even though he knew it was meant to be lighthearted.
“Do you want to hit the gym with me after breakfast?” Eijirou asked, accepting a mug of tea that Katsuki prepared for him.
Fuck yes, Katsuki wanted to answer immediately, but then he glanced at the clock on the wall and realised he only had two hours before his session with Sakamoto.
“I can’t. I need to..” he lowered his voice, “I have therapy today.” Katsuki stared at Eijirou, he wasn’t sure why he was so nervous all of a sudden, especially since Eijirou knew he had already attended one session, so what was the big deal?
“Oh! Okay, cool!” Eijirou bounced slightly in place, careful not to spill his tea. “So we’ll talk later, yeah?” He asked.
Katsuki hid a smile behind his own mug before he answered, “Of course.”
It wasn't until Eijirou had turned his back to him, walking away, that Katsuki realised he was supposed to be keeping his distance.
“Ah, fuck…”
___
Katsuki sat in one of the chairs in Sakamoto’s office, waiting for her to sit in the one in front of him. He was yet to discover if choosing the right chair over the left one had any significance, and just because Sakamoto didn’t seem to remember (or care) which one he chose last time, didn’t mean Katsuki was going to give up trying to find that out.
“How’ve you been the last few days, Katsuki?” Sakamoto asked as she sat down, ankles crossed together, pen and notepad in her hands.
“I’ve been.. Good, I think.” Katsuki’s eyes were locked on his hands, resting in his lap. He wondered how many of the things he’d done in those three days were significant enough to tell her about. “I did my homework. The therapy one, I mean.” He explained quickly as he fished out a neatly folded note out of his hoodie’s pocket and put it on the table beside him. “Well, the summer homework, too.” He added with a shrug, not sure if that even mattered.
He looked up at Sakamoto and, judging by the pleased turn of her lips, it did. “You’ve kept yourself busy, hm?” She asked, tilting her head. Once Katsuki nodded, she looked at the note on the table. “Would you like to share the list with me?”
Katsuki glanced at the note, then back at her. She was looking at him once again, but it was obvious she wasn’t demanding that he show her the list, she was waiting for him to make that decision.
“... What was the point of me writing it if I wasn’t going to show it to you?” He asked as he grabbed the paper off the table and stared at it.
“It’s just a foundation, you might as well write a different list for each of our meetings and never show me a single one.” Sakamoto explained patiently, and after another few seconds, Katsuki put the list back in his pocket.
He was surprised to find himself trusting her so easily, yet not enough to touch any of those topics.
“I don’t really want to talk about any of the things I’ve written down, yet.” Katsuki told her.
He was half-expecting her to demand that he explain himself, but nothing like that happened. Instead, she asked, “Is there something else you’d like to talk about today?”
Katsuki’s answer was an awkward shrug, his lips pressed in a tight line.
Nothing of notice really happened in those few days, and he told her so.
Sakamoto smiled at him, “Don’t tell me that all you did was stay in your room and do your homework.”
Katsuki was almost offended. “No? I didn’t want to wallow in my own fucking thoughts, all on my own again.” He glared at her, something that never seemed to have affected her in a slightest.
“I was hoping you’d say that, we both don’t want you to be isolating yourself.” She smiled as she pointed at him with a pen. “Because you’re not, right?” Sakamoto managed to keep the tone of her voice light, although Katsuki could sense that it was a serious question.
“No, I was with.. My friend.” Katsuki wasn’t sure whether Eijirou would be okay with using his actual name or not. Or even if Katsuki wanted to use it, because, what if by some weird, one-in-a-million chance, Sakamoto knew him? “The one, uh.. The one I was supposed to apologise to...”
“You can use a nickname.” Sakamoto offered, seeing him struggle, and Katsuki looked to the side, thinking about it.
Shitty hair was what his brain provided at first, but at this point he felt like it was a disservice to Eijirou’s character. Not to mention that it would get ridiculous real quick, since Katsuki wanted to discuss the feelings he had towards Eijirou at some point in the future. Besides, Katsuki grew to adore his hair - how easy it was to recognize, how it would shine with scarlet and cherry hues depending on the lighting, how it framed his face in the most adoring way when he let it loose and how threatening and badass it looked when he would use his quirk.
Sudden memory struck Katsuki, of how nervous Eijirou was to admit that his natural hair colour was black, and how dyeing it gave him so much more confidence.
Katsuki couldn’t agree more, the new colour properly showed how brave and passionate Eijirou was. It made him stand out, made him more recognizable.
Black didn’t suit him at all.
“Red.” Katsuki said confidently and Sakamoto wrote the name down.
She smiled as she looked back at him, “That’s nice.”
Katsuki fought off the urge to roll his eyes because nice didn’t even begin to cover how fucking great Eijirou was. Nice would never be good enough of a word to describe him.
“I fucking guess…” He muttered before clearing his throat. “So.. yeah, I apologised to him.”
“And how did he react?” She asked, even though she clearly knew the answer.
“He immediately accepted the apology and wanted to hang out with me like nothing ever happened.” Katsuki smiled to himself but that smile quickly disappeared, being replaced by a more sour expression. “I didn’t get to talk to him about the whole going behind my back thing, though.” He added as a way to explain the sudden change in his behaviour.
“Maybe you’ve kept yourself a little too busy?” She teased.
Katsuki actually snorted at that. “It’s not like I didn’t have time, he was literally the only person I was hanging out with,” he tried to justify. “I guess I just… didn’t know how to approach it. And the longer I wait, the less sense it makes to even talk about it with him.” He rolled his eyes as he leaned back in his chair, squeezing one of his hands with the other.
“Is it okay if we put a pin on this topic?” She asked while writing something down, an impressive feat, considering she was still looking Katsuki in the eyes.
“I- sure?” He stared at her, confused.
Was she supposed to be changing a subject like that?
“Could you tell me about your friends, other than Red, that is?”
Well, this came out of the blue.
Katsuki squinted his eyes at his therapist, trying to figure out why his other friends mattered all of a sudden. “What about them?” He didn’t mean to sound so suspicious of her but, as always, she just continued on without acknowledging him being an ass.
“You've said during our first session that along with Red you had maybe four friends, but you don't share shit about yourself with them.” Sakamoto looked through her notes while Katsuki barely stopped himself from laughing at her cursing.
He cleared his throat, “well, yeah, I guess I know they like me, or whatever, but that doesn't mean I have to talk to them all the time.” Katsuki reasoned, crossing his arms. “And it's not like I actually have something to say that they would give a shit about.”
If Katsuki were to be honest, he was being harsh. He was perfectly aware that they would give a shit, he just… “I don’t want to look weak in front of them.” He kept his eyes fixated on the water bottles on the table.
“Is that why you avoid them?” Sakamoto asked in a neutral voice but Katsuki still refused to look at her.
He took a moment to collect his thoughts, then took a deep breath. “I don’t want my.. Friends to think I’m back to being pathetic, so I didn’t avoid them. I hung out a bit with them in the common area, during meals and shit,” Katsuki’s eyes travelled up to the ceiling. “I uh.. I didn’t talk to them too much though, I was keeping close to Red.” He bit back a smile that tugged at his lips as he thought about Eijirou. “He’s always the centre of attention, and it’s not like he’s even trying! And he can derail any conversation to a topic of his choosing, so… no one really bothered me.” Katsuki shifted in his seat, now at the edge of it. “I also went to the gym and on a few runs. With him.” He finished, thinking he did well, but Sakamoto’s serious face and a slight turn of a brow made him reconsider.
“Let me rephrase myself; so you isolate yourself from them?” Sakamoto asked and Katsuki’s eyes widened.
“I don’t- What-” He sputtered, confused. “The hell do you mean, I just said I was with them-”
“But Red was the only person you’ve actually spent time with and talked to in the last few days, right?” She leaned towards him.
Ah. He’s been isolating himself from others with Eijirou.
“I don't need anyone else.” Katsuki fired, staying stubborn as he crossed his arms over his chest.
“But Red does.”
Katsuki’s breath hitched.
… Oh.
“And so do you.” Sakamoto stated as she leaned back in her chair.
They've been over this before, kind of. Eijirou was unable to help him on his own, that's why he reached out to Aizawa.
“I understand that the two of you share a close friendship and that you trust him the most, but it can be unhealthy to the relationship if he’s the only person you rely on.” Sakamoto explained patiently, her brows were drawn together, as if she couldn’t hide the worry she felt for him. “People need more than one person to depend on during hard times, it's called a support circle. If you don't consider the people you're already friends with as part of that circle, then maybe you need to look for new friends?” She asked in the end and allowed him to mull over it.
Katsuki stared at the floor, thinking about what she said.
Driving Eijirou away because of his own trauma was the last thing he wanted, but at the same time, did he actually have to tell his friends all about what happened to him, since he didn’t even tell Eijirou or his parents?
He asked Sakamoto, and she said, as if it was the simplest of solutions, that the presence of other people alone could improve his mood, without having to share his trauma.
“People in your support circle won’t think you’re pathetic for attending therapy or expressing your emotions.” She added with so much confidence that Katsuki was ready to believe her.
But, could he really consider Ashido, Kaminari and Sero a part of his support circle? Could he trust them the same way he trusted Eijirou? Did any of them actually consider him their friend?
What were the facts?
For starters, they actually cared about him; they proved so by going to Aizawa and even before that, trying to talk to Katsuki when he was shutting himself out in his room.
Another thing was that they didn’t pity him; when he was dealing with the aftermath of that faulty support gear, they would come to the infirmary and spend time with him, not out of pity but out of worry and compassion.
Not to mention Katsuki was pretty sure they weren't scared of him; they were more than willing to tease him, whether it was about his attitude or even his quirk. And he was sure that that was long before even they would call him his friend.
He found himself thinking that, given a chance, he wouldn't mind getting teased by them about his face blindness, a surprising realisation, considering he didn't even want to tell them about it in the first place.
“... Would it be normal to walk up to them and straight up ask if they consider me a friend?” Katsuki felt like an idiot for asking that, but his doubts were gone as soon as he saw Sakamoto’s satisfied smile.
“Absolutely.”
Now, this was another thing. He didn’t want to just gather all three of them and announce he considered them friends.
Damn, he wasn’t even sure who he was supposed to start with.
Kaminari, who wasn’t afraid to approach and tease Katsuki whenever he felt like it?
Sero, who was always honest and laid back?
Ashido, who was the most emotionally mature person out of their little group?
“How do I… Who should I approach first?” His voice was quiet as he once again felt rather uncertain about asking something like this.
Sakamoto thought of it for a second before she gave him an encouraging answer. “Just a suggestion, but you can start with the one you think you’d be most comfortable telling that you attend therapy.”
Well, Katsuki had a plan then.
___
Katsuki changed his shoes and walked into the common area, already looking around and searching for his friends whom he could consider being a part of his support circle.
A few people were playing some RPG on the console, and he recognized Yaomomo, who was educating Tsuyu, Uraraka and some girl with orange hair about the importance of clerics, or whatever the hell. He tried to figure out who the other girl was, but all he could think of was that she must have been from class B. It didn't really matter who was sitting there, since he didn't really consider them his friends.
He respected Uraraka, true, but she definitely didn't want to talk to him after the notebook incident.
He sighed before he looked at the other couch, where he had his pathetic panic attack-
Katsuki shook his head.
Sakamoto would say that it wasn't pathetic. Alright. Yeah. He got this. He was winning.
Anyway.
Katsuki stared at the people there, Kaminari and Sero, his friends, he recognized quickly. He took a step towards them, before stopping himself.
Even though they've shown in the past that they… liked him, cared for him even, that they weren't scared of him and for sure would be more than happy to hear him out, he still wasn't sure about approaching them at the moment.
A few days ago, Kaminari showed that while he was relieved Katsuki was feeling better, he wasn't exactly the most subtle person.
Then Sero… Katsuki wouldn't say he knew that much about him. He was straightforward, sure, and he did worry about Katsuki as well but who fucking didn't at this point?
Not to mention that Katsuki was painfully aware that they were much closer to Eijirou than they were to him.
Because of that, he feared that they would talk to Eijirou about whatever Katsuki was going to share with them. Maybe it was just him, but Katsuki had a weird feeling that they saw Eijirou as some sort of a weird keeper who had to know about everything Katsuki was doing at all times.
That was when Kaminari glanced over his shoulder and waved to him enthusiastically, and while Katsuki rolled his eyes, he still returned the gesture. Kaminari smiled before returning his attention back to some show they were watching.
So Katsuki continued his slow journey down the common room, walking past the tables where some of his other classmates were; Octopus with the Bird guy and some other one with short blond hair. Upon closer inspection, Katsuki realised that the latter had a tail. Then there was Todoroki eating soba noodles on his own and Katsuki vaguely wondered where Deku was but he quickly dismissed that thought with a scowl.
“Kirishima went to the class B’s dorm.” Todoroki said right as Katsuki was walking past him.
“Hah?” Katsuki halted and stared down at him.
Todoroki slurped on the noodles, making Katsuki grimace at the sound. “You seemed to be looking for someone.”
“Yeah, guess what, my world doesn’t revolve around Eijirou.” It was only partially true but Katsuki walked away before that half-faced bastard would have a chance to answer him.
At least Katsuki knew who he wasn’t going to consider part of his stupid circle.
Okay, fucking breathe. He thought as he approached the kitchen.
“Hi Baku!”
Katsuki stopped and looked towards the voice. After a second, he was glad to recognize the owner as Ashido. She waved at him before she returned to her task of taking a few puddings out of the fridge.
Katsuki knew he thought of her as a friend by this point but could he really talk to her about things he talked with Eijirou?
He glanced around, making sure that no one was staring at him, then slowly took a few steps towards her.
Katsuki hovered nearby, awkwardly shifting his weight from leg to leg as he watched her for a few moments.
Ashido was opening the drawers, one after another, clearly looking for something judging by her scrunched brows and mildly annoyed look. It was a little bit amusing, but before Katsuki would laugh at her annoyed groan, he cleared his throat. She looked up at him, and while barely stopping a smirk, Katsuki pointed at the drawer closest to the sink.
“Oh my gosh, I still can't find my way around.” She chuckled at herself as she finally found where the teaspoons were being kept. “Thank you~!”
Katsuki just nodded stiffly.
Ashido was about to walk away when she must have noticed Katsuki’s weird face because she stopped in front of him. “Are you doing alright?” She asked with a tilted brow as she fully faced him.
Katsuki just stared at her like an idiot.
Sure, Sakamoto told him he could simply ask, but how the hell was he supposed to even begin?
Hey, Bubblegum! Are we friends? Because I have an emotional maturity of fucking toddler and I can't tell if you actually enjoy my shitty company!
Katsuki sighed.
“... This is so stupid.” Katsuki said quietly, frustration bubbling in him. He awkwardly clenched and unclenched his hands a couple of times.
“What is?” Ashido stepped closer to him, and while Katsuki wanted nothing more than to meet her eyes, to see whether they were genuine or full of pity, his anxiety took over, making his prosopagnosia flare up.
He avoided the completely blacked out eyes and crooked lips, did his best not to make a disgusted face at her as he turned his head away.
“... Do you want to hang out in my room?” Ashido asked and Katsuki's shoulders flinched.
What, it was that easy to hang out with someone who wasn't Eijirou?
Katsuki risked a glance at her; her lips were back to normal but the yellow of her eyes was still missing. Unintentionally, Katsuki’s nose scrunched up and she pouted at him.
“Come on, you haven't even seen it yet!” Ashido poked him on the shoulder. “Grab a spoon and follow me, you'll teach me how to do eyeliner!” She threw over her shoulder, already walking towards the stairs.
Katsuki was slightly dumbfounded, but he still did what he was told to, then went with her to the fourth floor. He didn't even realise they lived on the same floor in the first place.
Ashido went inside her room, at the end of the corridor, Katsuki right behind her and fucking hell, his eyes hurt.
If he thought Eijirou’s room was loud, then this one was a screaming banshee.
A pink screaming banshee, with a strange obsession with clashing zebra and polka-dot prints.
“What the fuck.” Katsuki whispered, narrowing his eyes, as he closed the door behind him.
“Sit down, I need to find my eyeliner.” She waved her hand towards the few cushions at a purple coffee table then went to her bathroom.
Katsuki could swear he caught a glimpse of a magenta bathroom rug.
He glanced around, saw a lamp in the corner with a cheetah-print on its shade and decided he had enough of this room already. It was like he was back in that hotel room he shared with Eijirou, except now there was no Eijirou to laugh with at the terrible decor.
With a heavy sigh, Katsuki sat down on a heart-shaped purple cushion. It was a different shade than the coffee table, because of course it was.
Then on that table was a small mirror protected by a pink faux-fur case.
What the hell is this room?
“Uh- the best?”
Katsuki heard and looked up to see Ashido, standing over him with her arms crossed and oops. Did he say it out loud?
“It's terrible.” Katsuki stood by his word, ready to be kicked out, but then Ashido laughed.
“Bet your room is full of fanboy stuff, like Pro-Hero posters and figurines!” She sat down on a pink pillow next to him.
Katsuki opened his mouth to argue but genuinely couldn't. Because while his room wasn't full of things like that, they were definitely there.
His silence only made Ashido laugh even more and she slammed the table with her hand a few times.
“It's not that funny.” Katsuki muttered, slouching his back.
“It's hella funny.” She put the eyeliner on the table in front of Katsuki, along with one of the puddings. “Eat up, then you can teach me the secret ways of makeup.”
Katsuki didn't remember agreeing to such a thing, but it occurred to him that Ashido was just treating him like a friend.
That, or she was just using his skills.
After all, why would anyone willingly want to spend time with him?
His brows furrowed at the thought.
Katsuki really wanted to believe that he had friends who actually liked having him around. It was just.. hard.
“If you don't like chocolate, I brought vanilla, too.” Ashido spoke up and Katsuki realised he was making a face at the pudding in front of him the entire time.
Right.
Now or never.
Katsuki straightened his posture and turned slightly to face her properly before he asked, “Are we friends?”
Ashido halted her movements, a spoonful of strawberry pudding right at her opened mouth. She lowered the spoon and blinked at Katsuki a few times.
“... Imma level with you, that's the last thing I thought you were going to say.” She tried to joke, but her stiff posture was telling Katsuki that he somehow screwed this up.
“Fuck- I didn't mean- fucking hell, I'll just-” he made to stand up but Ashido grabbed his wrist.
He drilled holes into her hand with his eyes for a few tense seconds before he finally gathered the courage to look at her.
“Baku, that's not what I meant.” She chuckled, the sound allowing Katsuki’s shoulders to relax. “Like, look at this from my perspective - you stare very intensely at the pudding I gave you for a solid two minutes and then you ask me if we're friends?”
Katsuki stared at her for a moment before he covered half of his face with his hand.
Fucking hell, he was shit at talking.
“For the record, we are friends. Obviously.” She squeezed his wrist lightly before letting go. “Would I invite you over and demand you do my make-up if we weren't?” She leaned on the table.
“... I don't know.” Katsuki told her honestly, shoulders slumping.
Once again, he was staring at that fucking pudding in front of him, just to avoid looking at her.
“... What brought this up?” Ashido asked quietly.
Katsuki clenched his fists and took a moment to take a few deep breaths before he finally admitted; “My therapist said I needed to establish a support circle. Or something.” He risked a glance at Ashido, and her eyes were wide with shock.
Yeah, she definitely didn't expect him to tell her that.
He looked away, unable to handle the bubbling shame in him.
God, he was going to throw up-
“My therapist said something similar yesterday.” Ashido admitted and Katsuki’s eyes shot back to her.
___
Katsuki was surprised by her confession, but the more they talked about it, the more sense it made.
Okay. Ashido talked. Katsuki was still shit at sharing things about himself. Damn, he even told her he was unable to talk about what happened to him with his own therapist, and he was equally surprised and relieved by how understanding she was.
Still, he was more than willing to listen to her. And hell, Ashido had every right to get traumatised by this damn night. It didn't occur to Katsuki before, but Hagakure was pretending to be Ashido's best friend. He didn't even want to imagine what it would be like with Eijirou, so if anyone were to develop trust issues after something like this, Ashido would be a good bet.
“Tsuyu-chan and I had a bit of a falling out because of all that as well…” She stared at her half eaten pudding on the table. “We’re still friends, don’t get me wrong, but she said some things about… about Kiri’s rescue plan. I didn’t agree with them and now there’s this gap between us that we can’t close...”
Katsuki didn’t ask. Something was telling him he didn’t want to know what the Frog Girl said, and Ashido didn’t seem like she wanted to share that anyway.
She sighed heavily, then, to Katsuki’s confusion, she smiled. “I did get closer with Jirou, though.” Her posture relaxed and she leaned back on her hands.
“Ah, she’s been avoiding me.” Katsuki muttered before he could think about what was leaving his mouth, but considering Ashido’s lack of shock, she must have known something about the way Earphones has been acting.
“I think you two would get along.” She nudged him on the shoulder and Katsuki wasn’t sure if she meant that Jirou had no actual bad feelings towards him or not.
Either way, after everything they’ve talked about already, he wasn’t willing to ask.
Katsuki shrugged nonchalantly then reached for the long forgotten eyeliner on the coffee table. “You better take fucking notes because I’m not repeating myself.”
Ashido squealed happily and scooted closer to him, her face inches away from his.
He leaned back, “The hell are you-”
“You do one eye, and then I repeat the process on the other.” She explained, clasping her hands together. “Chop chop, make-up boy!” She closed her eyes while Katsuki swallowed down an ugly snort.
“Call me that again and I’m leaving.” His voice held no pretence, especially when he got right to work.
Katsuki raised his hand to cup her face with it, he didn’t even think much of it before she giggled and opened her eyes. “You’re so gentle.” She sounded almost surprised.
“... Shut up.” Was all he said, not sure if he was more embarrassed by her words or relieved that she didn’t flinch when he touched her.
She just chuckled at him and closed her eyes again. All Katsuki could think of was her being the second person who was willing to be so close to him, without being scared of his quirk.
God damn it, he really had to get to work before he’d spiral into those stupid thoughts again.
“Alright, when I was first learning how to do eyeliner, I would make tiny-ass dots where I wanted the wing to begin and end.” Katsuki explained as he put the dots close to Ashido's eye's corner.
She leaned back, looked into the mirror on her coffee table and copied the dots on her other eye, biting down on her lip in focus.
They spent some time like that. Unsurprisingly, Ashido needed to go grab several make-up wipes because she kept screwing up the lines. It was a long process, but if Katsuki had to be honest, he wouldn’t spend that time any other way.
“Okay! How do I look?” She fluttered her eyelashes at him a few times while cupping her face with her hands.
Her eyes were huge like that.
Taking a deep breath, Katsuki tried not to laugh as he realised he had no way of comparing this to how she typically looked.
“Yeah, I see no difference.” He deadpanned, a joke only he understood.
“Now you’re being difficult on purpose.” She poked him on the shoulder a few times as she pouted.
“Although, maybe you should use a colourful eyeliner, instead of a regular black one.” Katsuki leaned on the coffee table. “Like purple or yellow?” He started rolling the eyeliner back and forth as he thought about it. “Few greens would look good with pink skin...” He added quietly, more to himself, as he remembered all the fabric swatches in his father’s office that he’s seen over the years.
“THAT’S SUCH A COOL IDEA!” Ashido screamed suddenly, making Katsuki jump. “You’re so smart, Baku, holy shit! I’m gonna order some right now.” She shook his arm then stood up, probably to grab her laptop, but then a gentle knock on her door stopped her in her tracks.
Katsuki watched as she made her way to the door and opened it.
He didn't recognize the girl on the other side at first, but then Ashido looked over her shoulder with an excited “the more the merrier, come on in”, and he noticed her earphone jacks.
“Oh, I.. I don't want to interrupt.” Jirou’s eyes flickered to Katsuki before she started to turn away.
“Nonsense!” Ashido grabbed her hand then pulled her inside her room. She quickly closed the door and gently pushed Jirou towards the coffee table. “Sit down, I have an extra pudding.” She grabbed the pudding from her desk and held it out to Jirou as they both sat down.
“Thank you…” Jirou accepted the pudding but she just held it in her hands, never looking in Katsuki’s direction.
Katsuki could feel the tension between them. He had no idea why Ashido would invite Jirou in, and right after he told her that the girl was actively avoiding him.
“Funny how the universe works!” Ashido clapped her hands and glanced between the two of them.
What the fuck.
“The hell are you on about, Bubblegum?” Katsuki asked, utterly confused.
“Jirou, we both know you've meant to talk to him.” Ashido ignored him, and instead scooted closer to Jirou who looked like a deer caught in the headlights. “Unless you're really not ready-”
“It's as good of a time as any!” Earphones interrupted.
Katsuki felt mildly annoyed, “can you at least pretend that you know that I'm here?”
They finally acknowledged him.
And the silence stretched between them for even longer.
Katsuki stared at Ashido, but after sending him a smile that he couldn't decipher, she focused on Jirou again and took her hand. He then looked back at Jirou, but she was averting his gaze, staring at the floor instead and fiddling with her earphone jack with her free hand.
Honestly, Katsuki was losing his patience, but something was telling him to shut up and wait for once.
“I just-” She broke the silence after another eternity and Katsuki held his breath.
Jirou glanced up at him then back at the floor.
“It's okay.” Ashido said softly, moving her hand to Jirou’s back.
What the hell was happening-
“I'm so sorry.” Jirou was now shaking and Katsuki got even more confused. Once again he glanced at Ashido, hoping she'd be able to provide assistance, but she wasn't even looking at him, instead rubbing Jirou’s back with a concerned face. “If I had been faster and didn’t just stand there, staring at her then you- you wouldn’t have been-” She covered her lips as she squeezed her eyes shut.
What the hell was she on about?
Katsuki had a feeling that asking her this would only make her angry, or worse, make her cry.
So he stayed silent, giving her time to calm down.
Jirou took several deep breaths before she built up the courage to finally meet Katsuki’s eyes.
“I saw Hagakure.” She admitted, clenching her fists. “I was paired up with her during the game at the camp and I saw her turn visible.”
Ah. That's what Kurogiri was talking about when he said Hagakure had to go back, having turned visible in front of someone.
And Jirou was blaming herself for freezing up.
“And I just- I couldn’t understand what I was looking at- who I was looking at and I-” her breath hitched and she covered her face. Ashido circled her arms around her in a hug, gently shushing her.
It took Jirou another minute to calm down, and when she did, she either didn’t want to or simply couldn’t look at Katsuki again. Either way, he couldn’t blame her.
“I remember saying her name, then that strong gas hits me right in the face and next thing I know, it’s four days later and I’m waking up in a hospital room with my parents sobbing all over me.” Jirou sniffled and wiped her nose with her sleeve. “What kind of hero fails so miserably?” She stared at her shaking hands.
Once more, heavy silence filled the room. Ashido was still hugging Jirou when she opened her eyes and looked at Katsuki.
Did she want him to say something?
Was there something they both expected from him?
Was Jirou acting so strange around him because she was scared he’d blame her for everything? That he’d blow up at her? He wasn’t going to, that’s for sure.
There was only one thing he could think of.
“It wasn’t your fault.” Katsuki said without hesitation.
He didn’t intend to make her feel better, nor did he expect her to look at him and start openly crying with relief, thanking him, but all Katsuki could think of was how ridiculous it was that she was blaming herself this whole time.
It wasn’t her fault that he got kidnapped.
No one was at fault, not Eijirou, just because he was stuck at the remedial course, or Todoroki, because he didn’t catch Katsuki in time… Even fucking Deku wasn’t at fault.
It wasn’t anybody’s fault, except those fucking bastard villains and-
Oh.
It wasn’t even Katsuki’s fault.
Katsuki closed his eyes.
It wasn’t his fault.
Some heavy weight lifted off his shoulders, tension releasing and allowing him to inhale deeply.
He bit his lower lip as a smile threatened to spread on his face, the idea that he came to this realisation on his own so weird yet so elating.
It was right there. Katsuki thought as his heart raced.
He could do anything, without that strain constantly on his mind.
He was pretty sure he could at least try writing down what happened when he was at that fucking bar.
“Baku, are you okay?” Ashido brought him back to reality and Katsuki just stood up.
“Yeah, I’m pretty great actually.” He said with newfound confidence. “I need to do something, though, if you don’t need me anymore.” Katsuki crossed his arms over his chest and looked between Ashido and Jirou.
They stared up at him, one more confused than the other, neither aware of the revelation he just had.
“Bakugou,” Jirou started, rubbing at her red eyes, “if I offended you-”
“Next time you think you have a problem with me just say so.” Katsuki interrupted with a smirk.
She stared at him for a few seconds, searching for something in his expression, but then she laughed. “Thank you, Bakugou.”
“It’s whatever, Earphones.” He shrugged, because even though she actually helped him come to this huge realisation, it didn’t mean she had to know about everything that was going on through his head.
“Ah, back to the very original nicknames I see, Blasty.” Jirou spoke with a teasing smile.
Katsuki decided not to comment on how unsure her voice still sounded. He was just glad that she wasn’t scared to joke with him anymore.
“I’ll walk you to your room, Baku!” Ashido finally spoke up, having been observing Katsuki for the last few minutes. “Don’t want you getting lost.” She grinned at him as she stood up.
Katsuki just rolled his eyes at the lack of subtlety on her part, because even he wasn’t that dense not to know when someone wanted to talk to him.
“Yeah, yeah, whatever.” He headed out of her room, Ashido quickly following after she told Jirou to make herself at home.
For a few moments, they were silent as they walked through the corridor to reach the boys’ wing. They were about halfway-through when Ashido took a loose hold of Katsuki’s hand.
He froze up for a second as he stared at her hand, then slowly, his eyes moved to meet with hers.
“... What?” Katsuki asked with a knitted brow.
“I’m glad we had this conversation.” She positively glowed, to the point that Katsuki felt her happiness creep into him, warmth filling his chest.
“... Me too.” He admitted quietly. He really felt like he could trust her.
He could see himself telling her more about Sakamoto or his therapy homework, damn maybe someday he could tell her about his face blindness.
… Maybe he could tell her about his feelings towards Eijirou.
Ashido had shown interest in his relationship with Eijirou in the past, and although he had no idea why she was so curious about Katsuki’s opinion on him, he hoped that she was still curious enough to help him with his struggles, or at least to hear him out.
“There’s something-” He started, voice unnecessarily loud before he cleared his throat.
She looked at him expectantly, yet didn’t say anything.
Katsuki swallowed down his nerves as he rolled his head on his shoulders.
“I’ve never- I don’t fucking know how to start this-” He was slowly getting mad at himself for being unable to simply say this.
To someone who wasn’t even Eijirou at that!
“Fucking hell.” He groaned, rubbing the bridge of his nose.
“How about this,” Ashido squeezed his hand in a reassuring way. “Whenever you're ready to talk about whatever's bothering you, you're more than welcome to come by.” She gave him an understanding smile.
Katsuki looked between her and their joined hands.
He thought about how she didn't flinch when he touched her face, how quick she was to invite him over, how she's shown that she cared about him time and time again.
He had good taste in friends.
“Thank you, Ashido.”
“Pleasure’s all mine, Bakugou.”
___
They went their separate ways and upon entering his room, Katsuki decided to immediately sit down at his desk and start writing. That was a solid plan, yet he barely got a chance to close the door behind him when he heard a text notification. He wanted nothing more than to ignore it, but he still reached into his pocket and took out his phone.
Mother: Hello, Katsuki :) how was your day?
He stared at the message - grimacing at the emoticon - and wondered how long it took her to come up with such a simple question. He knew one thing, though; she was actually asking about his session with Sakamoto.
He wasn’t exactly in the mood to talk to his mother, but at the same time he knew that she was worried about him. There were certain things he wasn’t sure how to talk about with her. Damn, he didn’t want to talk about them with her.
And yet…
Katsuki: it was good
He didn’t want to make her mad or cause her to contact Aizawa.
And honestly, Katsuki really thought that both his session and the day in general were good. After all, he now had another person he could call his friend and not think twice about it.
It took her several minutes to answer, and the message made Katsuki sigh as he leaned against the door.
Mother: You can talk to me about anything, Katsuki
What was he supposed to say? Lie and answer I know? Cause an argument by answering you've proven before that I can't?
Mother: It’s late, baby, you need a lot of rest
Katsuki was 100% sure she was giving him a way out, especially that it was barely 6pm, but he was glad he didn't have to continue this conversation.
And even though a tiny part of him wanted to ask about his dad, to know if he was worried too, he settled on sending a quick Goodbye text to her. He put his phone on his desk and sat down, determined to write at least a few sentences of what had happened.
With the mantra of ‘It’s not my fault’ repeating over and over in his head, he wrote down the first thing he remembered, how he was grabbed by the neck and pulled through the warp. How the last person he saw was Deku, how-
There was a knock on the door, and at first Katsuki stopped moving, trying to calm his racing mind, telling himself that there was no Dabi burning his neck or Toga putting glass in his mouth.
Katsuki stilled his mind.
He wasn’t in an old dark bar, surrounded by villains.
He was alone in his well lit room.
Another, gentler knock, and Katsuki wanted to scream because he was finally getting somewhere. He wanted to finally get through this fucking homework, despite being unable to even write down the word collar.
He considered pretending to be asleep for a second, but then reconsidered because again, what if this was another worried friend who would go to Aizawa because Katsuki was isolating himself.
He was starting to feel like having friends was more hassle than it was worth it but quickly dismissed the thought when the person behind the door knocked yet again.
Katsuki took a deep breath in order to calm his rage before he stood up and walked to open the door.
He immediately recognized Eijirou on the other side. His annoyance disappeared in an instant, replaced by that stupid fluttering in his stomach.
“Do you want to hang out with us?” Eijirou asked, pointing at someone behind him and Katsuki just now realised that Kaminari and Sero were right there. “I finally set up my switch and we’re going to play, I dunno what yet but we thought it'd be fun for you to join and-”
“What he’s trying to say,” Sero interjected, “is that he wouldn’t shut up about you so we wanted you to join.”
“Sero!” Eijirou elbowed him in the side.
“We just don’t want you to be forlorn.” Kaminari leaned on the doorframe like he was in some drama. “And yeah, Kirishima here was dying to see you.” He laughed when he also got an elbow to the ribs.
Katsuki found himself surprised at how funny he found that interaction, not that he would show it.
But he also found himself.. Happy? Relieved? Because Sero said that they wanted him to join, not just Eijirou alone. And even though he was tired and just a moment ago he meant to do his damn therapy homework, something was telling him that this was better.
“I’m gonna kick your asses.” Katsuki declared as he stepped out of his room and locked it.
Kaminari cheered while Sero laughed at his declaration, claiming no one could beat him on the Rainbow Road, whatever that meant.
Then there was Eijirou, looking as if he was over the fucking moon at the notion of Katsuki joining them.
___
Katsuki’s third session with Sakamoto rolled around before he knew it, time passing quickly hanging out with his friends.
He gave her a rundown of those few days; about his conversation with Bubblegum (he was not risking it with names) and how casually he told Horse Smile and Dictionary that he was attending therapy.
Kaminari wanted to cheat and push Eijirou off his own bed, but he missed spectacularly and ended up falling off it himself. On the way down, he tried to hold onto anything, grabbed the fucking popcorn bowl and sent the kernels flying everywhere. Katsuki just stared at him like he was an absolute disappointment for a solid minute until Kaminari looked up at him, that was when Katsuki declared; “Just you wait ‘til my therapist hears about this.”
Kaminari sputtered at him from the floor, for the first time since they’ve known each other he was actually speechless, while Sero started wheezing uncontrollably.
Sakamoto burst out in laughter (winning, winning) and applauded him for his casualness.
The mood of their session changed when he told her about the sort of revelation he came to, how he finally realised none of what happened was his fault, yet he was still unable to process all the things that happened at that bar.
“No need to rush.” Sakamoto assured him. “Would you like to share what you were able to process?”
Reluctantly, Katsuki started talking.
And he wouldn’t admit it, but he wanted to cry.
Maybe he did.
That wasn’t something he was going to share with anyone.
___
Katsuki came back to the dorms after 7pm, his session with Sakamoto later in the day than usual, not to mention that it stretched out for longer than it was supposed to.
The thing was, he didn't even share half of what happened in that damn bar. Nevertheless, the session still exhausted him.
He avoided whoever was in the common area and headed right to his room.
He locked the door, then went to the bathroom and stared at himself in the mirror for a few seconds, grimacing at his smudged makeup and red-rimmed eyes.
Note to self; Don't put on eyeliner before therapy.
He wondered if on the way back Aizawa - still acting as his guardian - didn't notice or just decided not to mention Katsuki's state.
Didn't matter, Katsuki had had enough of thinking and wondering for the day, so he took a quick shower then put on his softer t-shirt and sweats. He was about to get under his covers when he got a message.
Holding his breath, he took a moment to calm down, before he reached for his phone. He expected the message to come from his mother, another nonchalant “how was your day?” but instead was pleasantly surprised to see Eijirou’s name on his screen.
Eijirou: I dunno if you’re already asleep, if you are then just ignore this message but I could really use more help with chemistry since school starts again next week and all that, sorry if I woke you up :(
Katsuki sighed, because while he wanted to be alone, he wanted to see Eijirou even more.
And once he actually thought about it, focusing on his best friend and school homework was better than wallowing about his therapy session all on his own.
Katsuki: come over
Before he knew it, there was a knock on his door and he hurried to open it.
On the other side, Eijirou looked genuinely apologetic. “I’m really sorry, I just still don’t fully get this stuff.” Eijirou raised a notebook that was in his hands. “I know it’s almost 8pm and you’ve already explained the pH calculations to me but-”
“Come in.” Katsuki interrupted, more than delighted to see Eijirou’s grateful grin as he stepped inside.
But ever so caring Eijirou still had to ask, “Are you sure? You seem tired and I don't want to-”
“Just therapy tiredness, I'm not sleepy so just grab the table.” Katsuki told him, hoping that Eijirou wouldn't press further.
Eijirou nodded and took the folding table out of Katsuki's closet and they sat on the floor.
Katsuki started his tutoring right away, Eijirou listening intently and following Katsuki’s pencil as he circled different things in the notebook.
“Alright, now explain it back to me.” Katsuki said eventually as he placed his elbow on the table and rested his chin in his hand.
Eijirou took a deep breath, readying himself, then slowly but surely started explaining the calculations in his own words.
Katsuki, only half focused on what Eijioru was saying, stared at his friend’s hands. Eijirou apparently had a habit of drawing shapes in the air with his fingers while studying. Katsuki noticed it only the other day when he was helping him with homework, and wondered if he did that during tests as well. He held back a laugh when Eijirou’s fingertips hardened and he started tapping them against each other.
He wanted to reach out and take Eijirou’s hand into his, to feel the ridges on his hardened skin as he caressed it.
He shook his head.
No, this wasn’t something he could do.
Not now, not ever.
Something like this wasn’t allowed.
But for the time being…
Katsuki held his breath as he scooted towards Eijirou. Their shoulders weren't touching but were still close enough for Katsuki to feel the warmth of Eijirou’s skin, always naturally radiating off of him.
Eijirou had stopped talking and Katsuki could see him tense up for a second before relaxing again.
“Katsuki?”
Eijirou looked at him and there were those big eyes again. The very same ones Katsuki learned to recognize in an instant. Katsuki wished they would only ever be focused on him.
He wanted to lean forward and kiss Eijirou.
For a split second, he could swear he saw Eijirou’s eyes glancing down at his lips, but the moment was so fleeting, Katsuki didn't have time to react before Eijirou looked back at his notebook.
“Did I mess up?” Eijirou turned the pages, then looked up at Katsuki. He seemed genuinely worried, with brows drawn together and tilted head. There was a faint blush on his cheeks and Katsuki wished he could hold his face.
I'm in love with you, would be so easy to say at that moment, yet Katsuki kept silent as he simply shook his head.
He then looked down at Eijirou’s homework and, as if nothing happened, started asking him about weak acids and bases.
Katsuki didn't want to destroy their friendship. Despite that, he knew that the sooner he'd confess, the sooner he'd be able to get over his feelings. At least he hoped that this would be the case. That Eijirou wouldn’t grow to hate him, that they could stay friends. He would do anything to keep him in his life.
Maybe he could ask Sakamoto for advice next time he'd meet her…
In the meantime, he was going to enjoy the company of his best friend. After all, how long did he have before their relationship would take a different course?
Notes:
Hello once again <3
Meant to post a week ago but I kept adding more and more stuff and I just couldn't see the end of it LMFAOI want to post chapter 43 on EiyM's 6th anniversary even if it kills me.
4+3=7 which is a lucky number as my friend pointed out and that is something to keep in mind.
Chapter was beta read by Lion and Horror.You can find me on tumblr <3
Up next; Something abt the moon, idk, I'm not an astronomer
Chapter 43: Soon to be
Summary:
The boys are getting a bit smarter (not really)
Notes:
This chapter is the first half of a 17.3k monster I wrote for EiyM's 6th anniversary. As you can guess, the second part will be posted in just a few days, on June 18.
Happy Pride Month 💖
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
When Katsuki came back from his first therapy session, Eijirou was over the moon. He could barely function because holy shit, Katsuki looked so much happier already. And it only got better with each session. It was like watching a heavy weight being lifted off of Katsuki’s shoulders; his rare smiles returned, his posture was more relaxed.
Most importantly, he wasn't isolating himself anymore.
Eijirou looked over his shoulder to where Katsuki was laying on the bed - Eijirou’s bed - reading a book. Meanwhile, Eijirou himself was sitting at his desk, back hunched as he was doing some extra studies. Katsuki insisted he needed to before the new semester would start in just a few days. The thing was, Eijirou would do just fine studying on his own, there was no need for Katsuki to be here with him, he could just read in his own room - yet there he was, fully relaxed.
He couldn’t help but smile fondly, because just a little over a week ago there was no chance of that ever happening and Eijirou couldn’t have been happier for him.
“What?” Katsuki raised a brow at him and Eijirou blinked a few times. He didn’t realise Katsuki was looking back at him.
“Nothing, just wondering if I’m ever getting my bed back, seeing how comfortable you are.” Eijirou chuckled while Katsuki huffed, but he could see a smile tugging at his lips as he further relaxed into the bed.
He turned back to his biology textbook before he’d forget himself again.
Yes, Eijirou was happy for his best friend.
At the same time, Eijirou was slowly reaching his limits.
The rational part of his brain knew that Katsuki wasn't in love with him, that the willingness to spend time with Eijirou was based on the grounds of them being best friends; Katsuki sharing food with him, watching movies with him, making him tea unprompted, training with him, staying up late, helping him study when it was clear that he was exhausted after his therapy sessions… All of this was because Katsuki considered him his closest friend.
Not to mention that Katsuki also started spending more time with the rest of their little group, especially Ashido. And just the other night, Katsuki was more than willing to hang out and play on switch with him, Sero and Kaminari.
One thing that Eijirou hung onto from that evening was that Katsuki didn’t look weirded out when the other two said Eijirou was dying to see him. Instead, he seemed… amused? Pleased, even. Eijirou wanted to believe Katsuki was happy at the notion of Eijirou talking about him, keeping him in his mind. At the same time, he was painfully aware that was what he wanted from Katsuki; he wanted to be constantly on his mind, because that would mean Katsuki felt the same way, that Katsuki loved him, too.
But that was just the hopeless romantic in him.
The same hopeless romantic who would over-analyze every little gesture, the warmer smiles, the lingering glances, the way Katsuki would lean towards him as if he wanted to be as close as possible-
“Okay,” Katsuki was suddenly next to him and Eijirou flinched, “You haven’t turned a page in the last twenty minutes, even you don’t read that slowly.” He put a hand on Eijirou’s shoulder and leaned over him to better see the text, oblivious to Eijirou’s red face.
“Sorry, I uh-” Eijirou glanced over the page quickly, trying to figure out what was even on it. He pointed at some random sentence. “I’m just having trouble with all the difficult words ahahahah…” Wow, that sounded so natural. Eijirou wanted to punch himself.
“Mitochondria? Really?” Katsuki squinted at him as Eijirou laughed even more awkwardly. “... If you need help, just say so, I’m not gonna judge you too hard.”
Eijirou let out a more genuine laugh, “Too hard, you say?”
Katsuki nodded with a serious face before he snorted, “Yeah, sorry, I judge everyone, you’re not that special.”
Eijirou kept up his smile, even though Katsuki’s words stung a little bit.
He wasn’t special to him.
___
“I’m in love with Red.” Katsuki blurted out before Sakamoto even got a chance to fully sit down.
His face was hot in an instant, the statement spoken into the universe for the first time since he became fully aware of his feelings. It became all the more real and Katsuki had no idea what to do with it.
“Hello to you, too, Katsuki.” Sakamoto answered with a teasing tone and a tilted brow as she settled in her chair.
Katsuki just knew his ears were bright pink. “Yeah, hi! Whatever!” He waved his hands awkwardly, feeling them itch with unreleased sparks from his quirk. “Aren't you going to say anything?”
Why was she being so calm and casual about it?!
This was literally the first time he's said it out loud, he's never even admitted it to himself, and Sakamoto didn't even seem surprised.
Was it obvious? If she noticed, what was stopping Eijirou from noticing? But he hasn't been acting differently around Katsuki-
“Katsuki, breathe with me.” Sakamoto’s calm voice reached him and he realised he'd been staring at his shaking hands, breathing shallow and quick.
He took several deep breaths, following Sakamoto’s hand movements.
Inhale and exhale.
Calm the fuck down.
His heart was still pounding in his chest when he asked; “Aren't you surprised?” His tone was sheepish, like a child that wasn't sure if they were going to be punished for something they did.
Katsuki could only guess that his expression looked strained. He felt uncomfortable in his seat and he vaguely wondered if he'd gotten used to the other chair, having chosen a different one this time.
He dismissed the thought, especially that Sakamoto still didn't seem to care about his sitting choices, and stood up, his legs restless.
“I told you before, Katsuki, it’s not my place to assume.” She explained with a genuine expression, her eyes following him as he circled the coffee table. “But in hindsight, the way you’ve spoken about Red… It seems only natural that you like him.”
Katsuki halted his movements.
Like him.
Katsuki barely stopped himself from pouting like a child. Like him didn't even begin to describe the way he felt about Eijirou.
“Red sounds like a really good person, it's no surprise that you've developed deeper feelings for him.” She smiled at him, tilting her head enough for a few braids to fall over her shoulder. There was something else about her expression that Katsuki couldn’t decipher so he stared at the table, flustered.
“So what do I do with it?” He muttered while he fiddled with the water bottles on the table, unwilling to look at Sakamoto.
“Does he know?” Sakamoto asked and Katsuki laughed mockingly, letting one of the bottles fall over.
“Fuck no.” He leaned on the table and towards her with a challenge in his eyes.
“We're having a conversation, Katsuki, I don't appreciate you making a mess.” She raised a brow at him as she placed her hands on her notepad, clearly unimpressed by his behaviour.
She didn't say anything else, didn't yell at him, like Katsuki expected for a moment, she just stared at him. After a few more seconds of this, Katsuki’s face went red as he picked up the bottle and put it up next to the others.
“... Sorry.” He said quietly, yet still refused to sit back down, he just crossed his arms over his chest and kicked at nothing on the floor.
But that seemed like enough to get Sakamoto back on his side as she thanked him. She then asked in her usual inquisitive tone, “So what do you want to do with it?”
Katsuki glanced at her before he closed his eyes and sighed.
He shrugged.
“I just… I want to be his friend.” Katsuki admitted, because the friendship he had with Eijirou was more important than his own feelings. “And.. and I'm- afraid that once he finds out that I love him, he'll push me away completely.”
Katsuki squeezed his hands around his arms, hugging himself. He felt weird admitting this out loud, vulnerable. It was different from talking about his kidnapping; he had a hard time talking about the traumatic events that already happened. This time, he was against the unknown and his imagination was running wild with different possibilities that he was too afraid to even voice.
“What's the middle case scenario?” Sakamoto asked out of nowhere and Katsuki looked at her with confusion.
“What?”
“You seem to be focusing on the worst case scenario.” Sakamoto stated and continued when Katsuki nodded. “The best case scenario is that he has feelings for you as well, and the two of you form a new relationship.” She linked her pinkies together, to Katsuki’s slight amusement. “The worst case, the one I suspect you're more than familiar with, is that Red will hate you and will end your friendship.” She moved her hands far away from each other.
Now that Sakamoto had piqued his interest, Katsuki sat back down on the chair across her.
“So, what's the middle case scenario?” She asked again, her hands back in her lap.
Katsuki stared at her, then at her notes, page halfway filled, and finally at his own hands as he mulled over it.
Of all things, Nogashira - that bitch - came to his mind. How Eijirou was willing to give him another chance to be friends again. What was stopping Eijirou from giving Katsuki the same chance after the initial rejection?
And Eijirou would be so kind about it. So gentle. He would probably smile and hug Katsuki and fucking apologise even if he had nothing to apologise for.
“... He doesn't love me back, but he stays my friend and I… I eventually get over my feelings.”
It wasn't the best scenario, but it also wasn't the worst.
Just as Sakamoto said…
“That's a middle case scenario if I ever heard one.” Her grin was encouraging and somehow made Katsuki feel all the more confident about the conclusion he came to.
“So… should I tell him?” Katsuki asked carefully, yet hopefully.
“That's not my decision.” Sakamoto stated, straightening her back. Her tone was calm yet self-assured, and even though Katsuki knew there was no point arguing with her…
“But I don't know what to tell him- and how?” He stubbornly tried.
Sakamoto shifted in her seat, her hooves clicking against the wooden floor.
“I can help you process your decision, Katsuki, but I can't tell you what to do. That is entirely up to you.” She pointed at him with her pen.
“Okay. Let's say I never tell him. How do I process bottling up all my feelings while I want nothing more than to hold his stupid hand whenever he's near me?” Katsuki sneered and slumped in his seat, his face warming up as he continued to glare at her.
As always, she didn't seem bothered by his words. Hell, Katsuki was pretty sure she almost laughed there for a second, yet quickly collected herself.
“First thing I'd suggest is identifying your emotions, but you seem to have that covered already, that’s very good.” Sakamoto complimented and Katsuki felt weirdly proud of himself. He even straightened in his seat as she continued, “Discussion can also help, so you could talk about your feelings with a friend you trust.”
“Bubblegum?” Katsuki blurted out, yet he didn't regret it, especially when Sakamoto nodded.
In the past few days, he's spent more time with Ashido. At some point, she gushed about some Shiketsu girl whom she met during I-Expo and apparently was crushing hard on, as she put it. She even showed him a picture of her, but Katsuki was too shocked at how easy it was for her to talk about feelings and shit for him to even try to memorise the girl.
What was her name? Katsuki couldn’t recall. Nevertheless, if Ashido was comfortable enough to talk about her crush with him, what was stopping Katsuki from doing the same?
“If she's willing to hear you out, go for it.” Sakamoto’s reassuring words brought back his wandering mind. “You can get a new perspective on things, once you talk about them.”
Katsuki gave her a slow, single nod, weighing his options. He could definitely go to Ashido. If not to immediately tell her how he felt about Eijirou, then at least to see if she'd be willing to hear him out.
“And what could I tell him if I decide to confess?” He asked, glancing between Sakamoto and her notepad.
“Let him know beforehand that nothing about your relationship needs to change. That his friendship is important to you.” Sakamoto told him, as if it was that easy.
“And how do I..” Katsuki started as he leaned on his knees. “How do I deal with his rejection?” Once again, he stared at the floor, feeling vulnerable.
He's never cared about having friends before, let alone a romantic partner. He’s always been rejected by everyone, always on his own, but now that he's learned what real friendship, what love felt like, he was afraid of losing it.
“Whether you tell him or not, you can always distract yourself with activities you enjoy, maybe hiking?” Sakamoto suggested, and while at first Katsuki got excited over the idea, his shoulders quickly slumped.
He didn't see the point in explaining that they still weren't allowed to leave the school grounds, that him meeting her was an exception.
“Yeah, maybe…” Katsuki said quietly.
“The world doesn’t end on one relationship, Katsuki.” Sakamoto assured him.
“... I just don't want to lose him.” He hated going in circles like that, but in that moment, this was his greatest fear.
“If he's really the kind of person you’ve been describing, you won't lose him.”
Katsuki fiddled with a loose thread coming off his t-shirt, pondering her words. She was so sure of herself...
“No matter your decision, whether you tell him or not, whether he feels the same way or not, it's important you keep your own self-worth in mind.” Sakamoto leaned towards him, with a gentle smile decorating her face. Without a hint of deceit or sarcasm, she added, “You're an amazing, handsome, talented young boy, and you deserve happiness like everyone else.”
And Katsuki believed her.
___
Eijirou was exceptionally bored. With Katsuki away for another therapy session, Sero busy doing summer homework last minute and Kaminari hanging out with Shinsou, he decided that it was as good of a time as any that he finally did some laundry. Sure, he could always check if Ashido was busy, but the basket in his bathroom was overfilling, not to mention he was running out of clean clothes.
So, laundry day it was.
He made sure his white uniform shirt didn’t somehow make it into the colourful pile of his clothes and headed to the ground floor where the laundry room was. As he stepped inside, he noticed Uraraka was unloading one of the washing machines. Eijirou wanted to greet her but noticed her knitted brows and absent gaze. She then turned to him, froze for a moment and immediately smiled at him.
“Kirishima-kun! Good timing, I just unloaded my laundry so the washer’s all yours!” Uraraka said as she quickly walked past him with a basket full of her clean clothes.
“Ah- okay, thank you!” Eijirou yelled after her, but she was long gone.
For a moment he considered going after her and asking what was wrong, but considering the way she was acting, she clearly didn’t want to talk about whatever was bothering her.
Eijirou sighed and looked around. He’s been to the laundry room before just once, touring the dorm building, but didn’t pay much attention to what exactly was in the room.
Four washing machines, of which three were already in use and Eijirou realised with a chuckle that he wasn’t the only one in need of clean clothes. There were also drying racks, laundry detergents, fabric softeners and more. Everything one would need for a good laundry day.
He didn’t want to waste any more time so he put his clothes into the only empty washer before someone else would come and claim it. Upon closer inspection, Eijirou noticed that there was a setting for drying the clothes, but it was such a nice day that he decided he would hang his clothes out on his balcony.
Once he loaded up the washer and turned it on, he just lounged around the laundry room. Sometimes his classmates would come, collecting their own laundry or starting another cycle and he’d talk with them for a bit before they’d leave.
The washing cycle ended after forty long minutes and Eijirou was throwing his clothes into his basket when he got a message from Ashido.
Ashido: is Baku with u?
Kiri: Nope! Therapy :D
Ashido: Ahh I assumed he came back already cuz he messaged me asking to hang out
Eijirou didn’t answer her. Instead, just pocketed his phone as he felt a weird sting in his chest at the new piece of information. He’s always assumed that between Katsuki and Ashido, it was always her who initiated their hangouts, just as it was the case whenever Eijirou wanted to spend time with him.
Was Katsuki more willing to spend time with her than him? Just how close of a relationship-
No no no. Eijirou shook his head, resuming his task of taking his clean clothes out of the washing machine.
Ashido would never do something like this. And Katsuki would tell him. Besides, she wasn’t even his type.
… What was Katsuki’s type?
“You’re very slow.”
Eijirou dropped his shirt, startled as his head shot to the side.
Todoroki was standing next to him, holding a basket full of his clothes. “I need the washing machine, the other ones are occupied.” He declared, pointedly staring at Eijirou’s clothes still inside.
“Right, of course!” Eijirou hurriedly took out the rest of his clothes and stepped aside, giving Todoroki space.
Eijirou wasn't sure where this weird possessiveness came from. He didn't own Katsuki and was more than happy to know Katsuki had other people he trusted and would call his friends.
Hell, Eijirou was positively delighted when Katsuki so casually told Kaminari and Sero about attending therapy, and when he later admitted he has confided in Ashido as well.
And it wasn't like Eijirou himself didn't have other friends. Damn, one of them was even right there, trying to turn on the washing machine.
Eijirou chuckled to himself as he realised Todoroki had no idea which buttons to press to turn it on.
“Did you put the detergent in?” Eijirou asked as he walked over to him.
Todoroki nodded with a serious face, “Yes, I remembered to do it this time.”
Eijirou wanted to laugh, and while he really wanted to know more, it didn't look like Todoroki was going to elaborate, so Eijirou didn't ask. He just showed him how to choose the correct program and turned the washer on for him.
He could assume that the Todorokis had people taking care of things like that for them.
“Thank you, Kirishima.” Todoroki was leaning on his knees, watching the laundry turn inside the drum.
“Of course, let me know if you need anything else!” Eijirou grabbed his basket and headed out of the laundry room and towards the elevator. He would have to come back for the drying rack later.
On the way to his room, he tried to remember if he set the washer to dry Todoroki’s clothes as well but the thought quickly vanished when he saw Katsuki leaving his own room.
“Katsuki!” Eijirou ran up to him, feeling like an excited puppy.
He saw the exact moment Katsuki recognized him; his eyes widened ever so slightly then softened, his posture relaxing. It was so brief, anyone else would miss it.
“Hi, Eijirou.” Katsuki greeted him, and while there was a pleased smile on his face, Eijirou caught a certain strain in his voice.
Eijirou had a pretty good idea as to why; Katsuki just came back from his therapy session. While Eijirou wanted to ask him how it went, maybe to learn the details, he also knew he wasn't supposed to ask about things like that.
“Do you want to hang out?” He asked instead and pointed with the whole laundry basket at his door.
Katsuki’s chest raised as his lips’ corners turned slightly upwards in an almost smile, but that expression quickly disappeared.
“I- Maybe later? I need to- Ashido wanted to talk about something.” He shrugged as he put his hands in the pockets of his pants.
Eijirou blinked at him.
Didn’t she say that Katsuki was the one who messaged her?
Was he trying to hide something from him?
“So…” Katsuki took a step towards the girls' wing.
“Oh, sure! Yeah, no big deal!” Eijirou tried his best to sound casual, kicking himself mentally for his thoughts.
Maybe he was remembering wrong…
Katsuki turned with a quiet “See you later, Eijirou.” And walked away without waiting for an answer.
Eijirou watched Katsuki's back for a moment, not sure what for, but then Katsuki looked over his shoulder and waved at him. Eijirou almost dropped his basket, trying to wave back, his mood immediately improved.
He went inside his room and out to the balcony where he placed the laundry basket. Now, he just needed to go back for the drying rack.
As Eijirou walked back into the laundry room, he was met with Midoriya’s awkward laughter as he bumped into Eijirou on his way out, almost dropping his clothes. Midoriya apologised quietly and hurried away.
“It’s fine..?” Eijirou said, looking after Midoriya, even though he was too far away to hear.
He shrugged and went to finally grab the drying rack. As he walked in, he noticed Todoroki was still standing at the washing machine. He was staring at the entrance, only catching Eijirou’s eyes when he took another step forward.
“He’s been really awkward around me lately.” Todoroki said, confusing Eijirou for a second.
“Who- oh!” He glanced at the doorway where Midoriya was just a few moments ago then back at Todoroki. “Why?” Eijirou made his way towards his friend.
“He rejected me.” Todoroki told him so casually that Eijirou didn’t even react at first beyond a simple huh.
But then, the gravity of Todoroki’s statement hit him and his eyes widened as he sputtered. He had no idea what to say, especially since Todoroki had never said anything before.
“I thought Ashido would've told you already.” Todoroki continued in his neutral tone as he turned to the washing machine and checked the timer.
“I- what? Why does she know? And why would she tell me?” Eijirou was beyond confused.
Todoroki shrugged then crouched down on the floor. “We kinda bumped into each other after I confessed to Midoriya. She didn’t really seem like she wanted to tell anyone, but I told her I don’t really mind people knowing, now that Midoriya’s aware of it.”
Eijirou blinked at him a few times, unsure what to do with all this new information. He scratched the back of his neck before he decided to sit down on the floor next to Todoroki. Though he was surprised by Todoroki’s sudden openness, he wasn’t about to leave without at least trying to comfort him.
Especially that he was brave enough to confess, unlike Eijirou himself.
“It- it was really manly of you to express your feelings like that!” Eijirou put a hand on Todoroki’s shoulder and squeezed lightly. “And I’m sorry he rejected you.” He added more awkwardly. “Do you want to talk about it..?”
Todoroki shrugged once more, keeping his eyes on the washer as he spoke, “Midoriya said that while he treasures our friendship and cares about me, he’s not looking for a relationship. He wants to focus on becoming a stronger hero.”
“I see.. At least he was honest with you and didn’t try to lead you on.”
“Midoriya wouldn’t do that.” Todoroki finally turned to Eijirou, but only to send him a very irritated look before he sighed, face relaxing. “Sorry.”
“It's okay, I'm sorry as well.” Eijirou assured him and they both stared at the laundry turning in the drum. “... So how are you feeling?” He asked quietly without looking at Todoroki.
He took a while to answer. Eijirou wasn't sure if Todoroki was even going to share any more information as the silence stretched between them, but then his friend took a deep breath and fully sat down on the floor. He spoke with the same stoicism as always, “I'm relieved.”
Eijirou shifted in his spot on the floor and faced Todoroki.
“It's like..” Todoroki continued, “This weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I don't have to constantly worry about him finding out or wonder about different bad scenarios, you know?”
Eijirou nodded. He knew all too well, except that weight was still heavy on his heart, the worry constantly on his mind.
Maybe he could follow Todoroki’s example and confess to Katsuki? If anything, at least he'd be finally free from all the uncertainty.
“And Uraraka got the same answer from him.” Todoroki added nonchalantly while Eijirou’s brows shot up in surprise, because wow, Midoriya sure was popular. It explained her behaviour from earlier.
Todoroki continued, “While I feel for her, I’m still relieved. Now I know he didn't say those things just to let me down gently, but that he really isn’t looking for a relationship. Of course, I believed him in the first place, but now I have more affirmation that it wasn't specifically a me thing.”
Todoroki finished, and he seemed genuinely at ease. There was no pain or regret on his face, his body relaxed as he sat cross legged on the floor and kept staring at the laundry.
“I’m glad you’re okay.” Eijirou smiled at him before getting lost in his own thoughts.
He would lie if he said he didn’t find this conversation at least a little bit weird. Not only was this the first time Eijirou heard Todoroki talk so much, he also didn’t expect such openness about what happened. True, they’ve gotten closer since their little stunt with Katsuki’s rescue, and Eijirou genuinely considered Todoroki his friend… Maybe Todoroki felt more comfortable with him than Eijirou initially assumed?
Then again, he did tell Ashido by chance.
Eijirou chuckled to himself.
Maybe he could confide in Todoroki as well? He just didn’t want to constantly bother Kaminari, Sero or Ashido about this whole mess…
Plus, their advice was usually something along the lines of just tell him already.
“Must be nice to be in a relationship.” Todoroki spoke up.
“Yeah...” Eijirou sighed before Todoroki’s words fully hit him.
He looked up from the floor and realised Todoroki was staring at him, as if he was expecting something.
“Eh?” Eijirou pointed at himself.
“Bakugou?” Todoroki tilted his head, expression neutral.
Eijirou’s eyes widened, face feeling hot. He found himself unable to breathe. “Wh- I’m not- we’re not-”
“I understand you’re keeping it a secret but you’re not really subtle, especially if I can figure it out.” Todoroki explained as he stood up.
Eijirou could swear there was a hint of a teasing smile on his lips but Eijirou was still stuck on the part where he supposedly had a secret relationship with Katsuki, but before he got a chance to explain himself, Yaomomo stepped into the room.
“Ohhh, I see everyone’s having a laundry day?” She smiled at them, holding a basket full of her clothes.
“Hi Todoroki, Kirishima.” Jirou was right behind her with a basket of her own.
Todoroki casually greeted them and they all started talking about laundry and whatnot, while Eijirou continued to panic internally.
Why was Todoroki so sure about this, since they've already had a similar conversation at I-Island? Did anyone else think Eijirou was in a relationship with Katsuki? If so, why? Was he so obvious about his feelings? So casual about them that everyone noticed and just assumed they were mutual?
Did Katsuki realise and just never said anything?
“Are you okay, Kirishima?” Jirou approached, fiddling with her earphone jacks.
Oh, he must have looked like an idiot, just standing there.
“Yep! Never better!” He laughed awkwardly and sent her finger guns.
“Uh.. okay?” She glanced to the side, clearly unsure of what to say to that and Eijirou internally slapped himself. “Are you sure you’re alright?”
He avoided her squinted eyes, looking at Todoroki’s wet laundry when he suddenly remembered what he came here for in the first place. “Drying rack!” He yelled, making Jirou jump. “Sorry, guys, my laundry’s all wet in my room, so I’m just gonna..” He shuffled towards where the drying rack was propped against the wall, grabbed it and turned around without waiting for anyone’s reaction.
Part of him wanted to ask Yaomomo and Jirou if they also thought he was in a secret relationship with Katsuki, but in the end he just quickly left and almost ran to the elevator.
Eijirou walked through the corridor and entered his room in a hurry, struggling with the drying rack more than he was willing to admit, and finally made it out to the balcony.
As he tried to put up the rack, he couldn’t help but to think about Todoroki's words once again, wondering just what Eijirou did to make it seem like he was with Katsuki… Some part of him wanted to believe it wasn't him, that it was something Katsuki was doing and sure, Katsuki was more open towards him than the others, and much more willing to spend time with him, so maybe, just maybe-
He groaned with annoyance, basically wrestling with the rack, distracted as he was by his thoughts, and then he heard his most favourite sound in the whole world.
Katsuki’s laughter.
Eijirou turned slowly and saw Katsuki leaning against the railing of his balcony, looking at Eijirou with a teasing smile.
The wind was gentle as it moved Katsuki’s hair, brilliant red eyes shining in the sun, and Eijirou couldn’t help but to think how beautiful he was.
___
Katsuki was quite nervous to see Eijirou right after his therapy session, as if his friend would suddenly develop a mind reading quirk and find out he was the main subject of it. Of course, the fear was unfounded; as soon as he recognized Eijirou, his anxieties disappeared, replaced by warmth blooming in his chest. Eijirou was so fucking endearing, running up to Katsuki like that, so happy to see him, quick to invite him over and almost dropping the basket he was holding just to wave back to Katsuki.
It would be so easy to believe that his feelings were requited.
Katsuki sighed heavily before he knocked on Ashido's door and entered when he heard an excited “come in”.
“Baku! Hi!” She greeted him from where she was painting her nails at her awful coffee table. “Come in, sit down.” She invited him.
Katsuki once again sat on the heart-shaped purple cushion. He would never admit it out loud, but it was actually very comfortable.
Ashido was painting her nails a very light shade of yellow, similar to the colour of his hair. She had a bunch of nail sticker sheets scattered around on the table and Katsuki grabbed one of them, raising a brow at the colourful neon triangles on it.
“I can't decide which ones I should use.” Ashido commented, painting her middle fingernail.
“None, for once don't overdo it.” Katsuki answered as he put down the sheet and squinted at the cheetah-print one.
“You know nothing, Mister Allergic-To-Colours.” She stuck her tongue out at him and Katsuki rolled his eyes with a huff.
They stayed in silence for a few moments as she continued to paint her nails. Katsuki just looked through the other sticker sheets and wondered if he could actually confide in Ashido with the feelings he had for Eijirou.
Sure, he came to her for that specific reason, but he found himself unsure of how to approach the topic. It was clear from the way he just blurted out his question about whether or not they were friends that he never truly understood how to ask a question like a normal fucking person.
Maybe he could ask if Eijirou was talking about him often? Would it be too obvious? Maybe he could ask her if she’s ever noticed Eijirou acting differently around him compared to others? Or would that be even more obvious?
Although, it would be nice to know if Eijirou was treating him differently; if his smiles were brighter around Katsuki, his voice warmer…
Katsuki wanted to know if he was special to him.
“Oh, you like those?” Ashido asked him and Katsuki blinked at her, confused, before he realised he was smiling like an idiot at a sheet of strawberry stickers. Red strawberry stickers. Obviously. But this particular shade was quite familiar and Katsuki got annoyed at how his mind worked.
“No.” He stayed stubborn as he quickly put them down.
Ashido laughed at him and opened her mouth to say something, when they heard a notification coming from her phone.
“Ohhh, could you check who it is?” She asked and pointed with her chin towards her desk.
Katsuki got up and picked up her phone, unlocking it. Sometime in the last few days, Ashido gave him her passcode for whatever reason, since Katsuki didn't even want to learn it in the first place. Before looking at the notification, he noticed that her home screen’s wallpaper has changed, no longer was it a picture of her, Frog Girl and that invisible traitor, but instead a picture of some pink crystals.
“Baku?” Ashido turned to him with a raised brow and Katsuki quickly checked the notification.
“Uhhh… you got a message from someone saved as Cutie?” He felt weird saying it out loud.
“OH MY GOSH, OPEN IT!” She screeched, flapping her hands, and Katsuki grimaced at the volume. Still, he sat back down and obliged.
He looked at the message with Ashido; it was a picture of a girl with big brown eyes and long hair, a darker shade of blond. She was holding a pink panda plushie while giving it a kiss on the cheek.
Below the picture a message read “It's totally you!(*^3^)/~☆”
Next to him, Ashido squealed, “She’s just too cute!” She covered her blushing face and huh, her blush was purple. Funny how many new things he was learning about her.
“A panda? Really?” Katsuki raised a brow at the picture then looked at Ashido, unimpressed.
“Don't ruin this for me!” She poked him on the shoulder and Katsuki brushed her hand away. “Look at her!” She grabbed her phone and shoved it in Katsuki’s face. “That panda is totally me!”
“You ruined your nails.” Was all Katsuki had to say, smirking at Ashido when she realised just how much she smudged the nail polish.
She got up with a groan to get a nail polish remover and Katsuki looked at the picture again.
He had to admit, the panda did remind him of Ashido. The fur was the exact colour of her skin, the spots around the little yellow eyes traditionally black.
Maybe instead of Bubblegum or Racoon Eyes he should have called her Panda?
Katsuki rolled his eyes, locking the phone. There was no point pondering that since he started calling her by her actual name anyway.
“Camie is too cute, too cute, I tell you!” Ashido yelled at no one in particular as she walked back to her seat.
Ah, that was her name.
Again, he was almost impressed at how easy it was for her to talk about things like that. He wondered if his other classmates were similar. If Eijirou was similar.
“You're very casual about sharing your… feelings.” Katsuki approached the topic carefully, but still hated how he sounded and scrunched up his nose.
“Talking about feelings can be fun!” Ashido declared with a wide smile as she quickly texted Camie back. “Also I just love people's expressions when they talk about their crushes.” She put her phone down and finally started cleaning up the mess she made on her nails.
“... So people just simply… talk about them?” Katsuki muttered with a scowl. He felt awkward and he could feel his hands sweating so he wiped them on his pants.
He wasn't about to risk any explosions with the nail polish remover right in front of him.
Ashido stopped moving, then slowly looked up at him from her nails. She stared at him for an uncomfortable amount of time and Katsuki stared right back at her, challenging her with his eyes to just try and say something he didn't like.
“... Yeah. I know about a lot of our classmates’ crushes.” Ashido answered, and the apparent carefulness in her tone was starting to annoy him. “I guess my personal charm and wonderful personality is what causes others to open up to me.” She fluttered her eyelashes at him and Katsuki rolled his eyes. “But don't ask, my lips are sealed!” She declared and went back to cleaning her nails.
Katsuki bit his tongue before he would ask if she knew whether Eijirou had a crush on someone or not.
“Well, I could talk about Todo's crush, since he said he doesn't care about other people knowing he likes Mido-”
“First of all, ew. Second, I literally don't give a shit about them.” Katsuki cut in. As long as he didn't have feelings for Eijirou, he didn't care about Todoroki's shitty taste, because Deku? Really?
“It's cute!” She laughed at his displeased face. “Unfortunately, he got rejected.” She examined her clean nails while Katsuki stared at her, something about her words driving him mad.
“He confessed?” Katsuki spat and Ashido’s eyes widened at his tone.
“Yeah? I just told you.” She raised a brow at him then grabbed her yellow nail polish. “I don't know the details but he didn't look sad or discouraged after. He seemed kind of.. Relieved? I’m not sure how to describe it.”
Although he was learning all of this involuntarily, she somehow managed to make him both curious and angry, because why should he be so affected by a hypothetical rejection when fucking Half-face didn't seem to give a shit about an actual one? And the fact that he had the guts to confess in the first place?
Katsuki was better than that.
“Whatever, I don't care.” He crossed his arms, but a sly smile Ashido sent him made him less confident about his statement.
“So why are you asking?” She leaned on her hand, still grinning at him like a fox.
“I'm not- I wasn't asking about- shut up!” He got up, his face getting hotter by the minute. “I'm leaving.”
“Aw, come on, Baku, you can stay and help me choose the stickers!” Ashido laughed at his outburst which only annoyed him more.
“Fuck off!” He yelled over his shoulder as he reached the door and left her room.
He quickly went to his room and locked himself inside, he was flooded by regret. He didn't mean to curse at her, even if she seemed to find it amusing.
Katsuki ran his fingers through his hair. “Fucking hell, what's wrong with me…”
It was one thing to decide on talking about his feelings versus actually doing it. Katsuki was all the more irritated with himself because he could do fucking anything, so why was this one thing so hard?
He needed air.
Katsuki stepped out onto his balcony and right away was distracted from his thoughts by a weird noise from the neighbouring balcony. He turned and smiled to himself when he saw Eijirou struggling with a drying rack.
Katsuki walked up to the railing and leaned on it, watching Eijirou.
His face was so focused and serious, as if he was working on some very complicated machine instead of putting up a stupid rack. It was so weird and silly, Katsuki couldn’t help but to laugh.
Eijirou looked up at him, eyes wide. His face turned a shade of red, probably from embarrassment, before he stood up.
“Having trouble?” Katsuki asked with a teasing smirk as he placed his chin in his hand.
Eijirou chuckled, “A little bit, yeah.” He flexed his arms, “But there's nothing I can't do!” He declared, finally securing the drying rack in place.
Katsuki laughed again because God, he loved him so much.
“I thought you were with Ashido?” Eijirou asked out of the blue as he started hanging his wet clothes.
Katsuki frowned and straightened his posture, slightly uncomfortable at the mention of her. He very much did not want to think about his storming off like a spoiled brat.
Eijirou, ever so observant, looked at him with knitted brows, yet Katsuki didn't give him a chance to say anything as he spoke quickly, “And now I'm here. What, my company bothers you?” He asked with a tilted brow and a smirk.
He could swear there was a faint blush on Eijirou’s cheeks before he walked up to his own railing, smiling at Katsuki.
“Not at all, would love for you to come over.” Eijirou leaned on the railing, mirroring Katsuki’s stance.
Katsuki's heart started beating faster. He wanted to reach out and hold Eijirou’s stupidly adorable face.
“Well, if you're so desperate-”
“Yooo! Hey guys!!” Came from somewhere beneath them and Katsuki blinked, very much confused as he leaned over the railing and looked down, Eijirou with him.
Some guy was leaning over his balcony and waving up at them with no regards to his own safety.
“Kaminari!” Eijirou exclaimed happily, informing Katsuki who that even was, and while Katsuki rolled his eyes, he couldn’t complain.
Kaminari had his hair pulled back into a tiny ponytail, loose strands pinned by various hairpins. What’s more, his signature black lighting bolt was nowhere in sight. So, yes, Katsuki was very much appreciative of Eijirou subtly informing him about who that was. It also made him realise that maybe he should learn what his friends’ voices sound like.
“What do you say?” Eijirou asked, looking at him expectantly.
“What?” Katsuki asked, glaring at Kaminari who started laughing at him.
“Kaminari asked if we wanted to hang out in the common room in a bit?” Eijirou provided, poorly hiding his own amusement
Katsuki didn’t really have anything to lose, so he shrugged, “Yeah, whatever.”
“Love you, too, Kacchan!” Kaminari yelled, laughing loudly as he disappeared inside his room and Katsuki was just about ready to jump down to that idiot’s balcony.
“Come on, you like hanging out with us!” Eijirou nudged him on the shoulder, smiling in a teasing way. “I still need to finish this up, so see you downstairs!” He said as he turned to his laundry once again.
Katsuki stared at him for a few seconds before he retreated to his room and headed out to the common room.
Eijirou was right, he did like hanging out with them. His mind was distracted from darker thoughts by their banter. Oftentimes he had an opportunity to show off his skills, whether by cooking or playing competitive games with them. Not to mention Eijirou was always there, right next to him.
Katsuki stopped in the middle of the stairs.
Eijirou was always there, right next to him.
He had a choice, and it was always Katsuki. As if it had to be him.
How has he never thought of this before?
Well, he knew the answer; Sakamoto was right.
He only ever focused on the worst case scenario. And while he didn't want to allow himself any foolish hope, maybe he could immerse himself with the best case scenario for a change. He could let himself read into things and observe how Eijirou would treat him in the presence of their other friends.
Just for one evening, he could entertain the idea of Eijirou loving him back.
___
Katsuki had to tell someone. Not just anyone, obviously, he was going to talk to Ashido, but he felt like he was going crazy. There was no way Eijirou didn't feel the same way, right?
He's made a point of observing his best friend for the entire evening they've spent together while also hanging out with Kaminari, Sero joining them later.
Even though Katsuki made a choice to keep a slight distance between them, it seemed that Eijirou was trying his hardest to always be in his orbit, without crossing the lines.
Whether Katsuki was preparing food and Eijirou was hovering over his shoulder, or leaning towards him when they were just standing in the common room, waiting for Kaminari. And then, then, Katsuki purposely sat in the armchair as opposed to the sofa when they were playing some fighting game. Despite there being a lot of space on that damn sofa, Eijirou sat on the carpet, back against Katsuki’s armchair.
Not to mention the countless stares and smiles from Eijirou.
On second thought, he was definitely going crazy. There was no way all this meant anything, Eijirou was just being affectionate, like any good friend.
Then again, he didn't act like this towards anyone else.
Katsuki cursed quietly before he knocked on Ashido's door. As always, he heard an enthusiastic “come in”, and so he did.
“Baku! Are you going to storm out like yesterday?” Ashido teased him from where she was laying on her bed with some manga in her hands.
Katsuki stopped at the door and took a deep breath, “I get it, okay?” He bit the inside of his cheek and glanced to the side before he walked through her room and stood above her. “I'm- I'm sorry.” He ran his hand through his hair before he crossed his arms.
She stared at him for a few seconds before she chuckled and sat up, closing her book. “All's good.” She gestured at the computer chair and Katsuki noticed she chose the strawberry stickers to put on her nails.
He felt his face go a little red as he sat down, arms still crossed as he sank into the seat.
“Okay, what's bothering you? I promise not to tease too much.” Ashido winked at him. She definitely noticed his flushed face but thankfully decided not to comment on it.
A good minute of silence passed before Katsuki finally declared, “I'm shit at talking about feelings.” He glared at Ashido when she covered up her laughter with a cough.
“Sorry, sorry-” she raised her hands defensively yet she was still grinning.
“I'm really trying not to leave right now.” Katsuki spoke as calmly as he could manage, covering his face. He wasn't sure if he was doing so out of embarrassment or annoyance, either way, he just wanted to get this feelings-talk over with.
“Alright, sorry, serious times.”
Katsuki peeked through his fingers to see Ashido scooting closer to the edge of her bed, placing her feet on the ground as she properly faced him. “Please, continue.”
Here goes nothing. Katsuki thought, heart squeezing in his chest. He took a few calming breaths and straightened in his seat.
“I'm in love.” He said quietly, clenching his fists. “... With someone.” He added, feeling like an idiot. Ashido opened her mouth, but Katsuki was quick to talk over her, “We both- definitely know who that is, so just-” he stared at the floor, “Just.. yeah.” He shrugged, not sure what else he was supposed to do while waiting for her reaction.
Bearing himself like that in front of someone who wasn't Sakamoto was strange, although in a weirdly positive way. And it was completely different from admitting to Ashido he was attending therapy…
The worst thing was that he had no idea what kind of a reaction to expect from her.
After a minute or so of silence, Katsuki finally decided to look up at Ashido.
Her eyes were wide open and she was covering her mouth with her hands, frozen where she was sitting.
“Say something.” Katsuki demanded. His hands were uncomfortably clammy.
Ashido stayed silent as she stood up and started pacing around her room. She was biting on her lower lip and kept bringing up her hands to cover her face. Katsuki could swear she was close to silently screaming a few times and he went from confusion to annoyance real quick.
She leaned against the wall on the other side of the room and hit it with her fist a couple of times. Katsuki was considering just leaving at that point because what the fuck.
“Okay, I expected a lot of reactions but this is fucking-”
“His hair is red, right?” Ashido turned to him with a serious expression.
Katsuki’s face immediately heated back up, “I SAID WE BOTH KNOW WHO THAT IS!” He screamed defensively, shoulders tensing up.
“I'm just making sure!” Ashido yelled as she threw a pillow at him, then squatted on the floor, covering her face again. “I can't believe this is happening.” She muttered and she sounded like she was annoyed by this situation.
Katsuki wasn’t even going to react to the damn pillow, he just wanted to know what her fucking deal was, because he was getting embarrassed and annoyed and he was losing his patience real quick.
“Ashido, I didn’t come here for you to act like a lunatic.” Katsuki stood up, tossing the pillow onto her bed.
Suddenly, Ashido raised to her feet and walked up to him, getting all up in his personal space.
“Bakugou.” She said with a determined face, voice more serious than he's ever heard before.
“... What?” Even though he was taller, he felt weirdly small at that moment. Despite that, he refused to break eye contact.
“Tell him.”
He took a step back, “Are you crazy? I can't just-”
She grabbed his collar, “Tell. Him.”
What the fuck was happening?
They stared at each other for a few more seconds before Katsuki took her hand and pulled it off his shirt. She allowed him to do so, then proceeded to cross her arms over her chest. Her expression turned from borderline anger to resignation as she sighed.
“Bakugou, I’m serious. Tell him. I can see this is a lot for you, and even if he rejects you, you’ll feel better after.” She patted him on the shoulder with an encouraging smile.
Sakamoto said she couldn’t make the decision for him, but Ashido wasn’t Sakamoto, and she seemed like she really knew what she was talking about.
“Think about it.” Ashido squeezed his hand. “If not today, then tomorrow. Or the day after..” She trailed off before she shook her head, “The point is, you won’t regret it.” She winked at him with a wide grin.
Katsuki wanted to think this was ridiculous, that she was basically advising him to ruin his friendship with Eijirou. At the same time… he had a feeling that she knew something Katsuki didn’t. That he could trust her.
Yet he still couldn’t shake off the feeling that she wasn’t being completely honest with him.
Worst case scenario, it was a cruel joke on her part.
Katsuki stared at the floor as he said quietly, “I don’t want to lose his friendship.”
Ashido hugged him.
Katsuki’s eyes widened at the gesture and he tensed up.
“I know you don’t like hugs, at least not from someone who’s not- you know,” she chuckled, “but you really looked like you needed one.”
Katsuki didn’t say anything, just slowly relaxed, second by second, and allowed his head to fall to her shoulder. It was uncomfortable, with her being shorter than him, and the hug was lacking Eijirou’s warmth, but it was still... nice.
“I promise you, you won’t lose anything.” Ashido assured him once again and Katsuki knew exactly what she was trying to tell him.
She knew.
Notes:
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Chapter 44: The moon is beautiful
Summary:
If you know you know
Notes:
Happy EiyM 6th anniversary!!!
AND HAPPY PRIDE MONTH
Also I want you to know that my hands are literally shaking as I'm posting.
CW for miscommunication that lasts for about 4k, just bear with me, pls-
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
“Remind me why I’m here?” Kaminari asked, tapping his foot impatiently as they stood in an elevator.
“To tell Todoroki that I’m very much not in a relationship with Katsuki.” Eijirou answered as he pressed a button with the number five on it.
“Even though you sooooo long to be with our dear Kacchan?” Kaminari leaned on him and poked his cheek with a teasing smile.
Eijirou gently pushed him away, “Yes, exactly.” He confirmed with a fond roll of his eyes.
They stepped out of the elevator once they reached the fifth floor and headed straight towards Todoroki’s room. Kaminari knocked a few times and after a few seconds, Todoroki opened the door for them.
“What is it that you wanted to talk about?” Todoroki asked as soon as he closed the door.
Eijirou opened his mouth to answer, but Kaminari was quick to cut in, “As a sworn witness to Kirishima's sad pining-”
“Hey-”
“-I can 100% assure you that, unfortunately, he is not in a relationship with our beloved Bakugou Katsuki.” Kaminari took a bow and, whether sarcastically or genuinely, Todoroki clapped for him a few times.
“Yeah, thanks for that.” Eijirou said with an unimpressed look.
Kaminari just patted him on the back, while Todoroki placed a hand on his chin, thinking hard about the situation.
“But it seemed so obvious…” Todoroki muttered, and Eijirou once again thought back to their I-Island conversation.
“Actually, I wanted to ask what made you think that we're in a relationship?” Eijirou asked with a shy smile. “Like.. is it me-”
“It's both of you.” Todoroki stated flatly, making Kaminari laugh, then went to sit at the small traditional table in the middle of his room. “Well, mostly Bakugou.”
Kaminari casually joined him while Eijirou stood still, too dumbfounded to move.
So it wasn’t the way Eijirou was acting around Katsuki that made Todoroki think they were in a relationship… but the other way around?
“No, because you thought we were together before, at I-Island-”
“Dude, you cannot blame him for I-Island.” Kaminari spoke up as he looked up something on his phone. “Not only did he bring you as his plus one, you two were literally sharing a bed and he smiled at you while wiping the whipped cream off your face.” He turned the phone to Eijirou and there it was, the picture of him and Katsuki with the crepes.
“Oh, I lost that picture when- wait a second, why do you still have it?!” Eijirou was right next to Kaminari in two steps, trying to grab his phone, but failed when Kaminari kicked at him.
“For a powerpoint presentation at your wedding.” Kaminari deadpanned as he handed his phone to Todoroki.
“See, I didn’t know about this and I still thought you two were together.” Todoroki said as he studied the picture. “He called out to you by your given name when he thought you got hurt during the fight.” He added casually as he gave Kaminari his phone back.
Eijirou’s face grew warmer, “Oh…”
“Speaking of,” Kaminari raised to his knees, pointing at Eijirou, “You guys are the only ones in the whole class who call each other by their given names and I’d love to know the story behind that.”
Eijirou thought back to the evening at I-Island, when they danced alone in the room and almost-
He covered his red face and finally sat down.
“Wow, you’re gay.” Kaminari cackled and Eijirou sent him a glare. “Anyway, Todoroki, share with the class what you’ve noticed about Bakugou that made you think he’s into Kirishima.” Kaminari raised a brow as he sent Eijirou a sly smile.
Todoroki stared at the table, intertwining his fingers as he carefully thought about his answer. “Well,” he looked up at Eijirou, “He and I… We’re both emotionally stunted, so it’s easier for me to notice when Bakugou acts affectionately towards you.”
Eijirou and Kaminari stared at him for a few seconds before Kaminari started wheezing uncontrollably, falling backwards onto the floor, and while Eijirou didn’t find it funny, he knew he had no choice but to agree.
He hung his head low as he sighed. “You know, I was hoping to get actual examples, not for you to go for his kneecaps.” That made Kaminari laugh even harder, so Eijirou scooted closer to Todoroki.
“You two looked like a reunited couple at Kamino.” Todoroki said flatly, and Eijirou’s jaw dropped as he found himself speechless.
The statement made Kaminari shut up as he gathered himself up. He moved on all fours towards Todoroki in record time, getting all up in his face, “Tell me more, I’m begging.”
And to Eijirou’s horror, Todoroki did. In great detail.
He explained how Katsuki showed his trust in Eijirou by grabbing his hand and how they held onto each other while All Might was fighting All For One. How Katsuki requested to have a few minutes alone with Eijirou specifically once they got to the police station, how they couldn’t stay away from each other.
Though part of him wanted Todoroki to stop talking, it was so surreal to listen to this story from someone else’s perspective.
They really did sound like some sort of reunited partners.
“Wow.” Kaminari breathed out at the end and slowly turned his head to Eijirou, “You didn’t share all that with us.” His tone was mildly accusatory and Eijirou avoided eye contact, feeling just enough shame for omitting this piece of information from his closest friends.
“It still doesn’t prove anything..” Eijirou muttered. He shifted and sat on his calves. “It was a traumatic situation and he was just relieved to recog- reconcile with the people he knows…”
“You mean, to reconcile with you.” Todoroki raised a brow at him as he leaned back on his hand. “I thought he was going to kill me and Midoriya with his glares. It was like he only wanted you to be there.”
“I- that’s not-”
Kaminari raised his hand, silencing Eijirou and looked at Todoroki as he asked, “Anything else Kirishima here failed to mention that makes it painfully obvious that Bakugou’s into him?”
“Don’t say it like that!” Eijirou finally managed, slamming his hands on the table. “Todoroki, come on, no way there's more!”
Todoroki ignored him and glanced at Kaminari’s phone again before he spoke, “The amount of times I've seen him share his food with Kirishima is ridiculous.” Todoroki furrowed his brows, as if the idea alone made him feel weird, maybe even grossed out, Kaminari snorted.
“He’s right, last week he was just about to kill me with his eyes for just reaching for his food, and then he straight up gave you the full bowl.” Kaminari tilted his head as he pointed at a pouting Eijirou.
“It wasn’t full…” Eijirou fiddled with his fingers.
Todoroki spoke up again, turning his head to Eijirou, “And he always looks very pleased whenever you’re close. For Bakugou standards, I mean.”
“Ha! I noticed that, too!” Kaminari perked up. “Just yesterday evening, I thought he was gonna combust from satisfaction when you sat at his feet instead on the sofa, you damn dog.” He teased, and Eijirou believed he was supposed to take offence to that, but now that Kaminari had mentioned it…
Up until this moment, he wasn’t sure what to make of Katsuki’s behaviour from yesterday, when he was so weirdly distant. At the time, Eijirou chalked it up to Kaminari and Sero also being present, but then, Katsuki seemed very pleased whenever Eijirou would be close to him. Especially when he chose to sit with his back to the armchair Katsuki was sitting in. That was when he seemed the happiest; his shoulders were fully relaxed, and there was a little smile that he was trying to hide behind his hand as he leaned on his side. Eijirou still noticed it, of course.
But maybe, just maybe, Katsuki was testing what Eijirou would do in a situation like that?
He shared his thought process with his friends and Kaminari was quick to point out, “He's totally trying to figure out if you're into him.” He said and Eijirou once again felt his face getting hotter.
“I must agree.” Todoroki said as he nodded and straightened his posture, face serious as ever. “Despite his attitude, he's very analytical. I don't think he'd approach you about his own feelings if he wasn't going to be 100% sure of the answer. That's why he's being weirdly distant, as you put it.” He explained, as if it was that obvious and that simple.
“You know what,” Kaminari poked Eijirou on the shoulder, “I say you kiss him. That'll make everything clear.”
Eijirou stared at him like he was the most insane person alive. “I am not kissing him without conse-”
“Then ask him first, jeez.” Kaminari rolled his eyes while waving his hand.
“I'm not doing that either!” Eijirou's voice sounded weak and panicked as he rose to his knees.
“It's really not that hard.” Kaminari then turned to Todoroki, “Hey, can I kiss you?” He wiggled his eyebrows while Todoroki blinked slowly at him.
“No, thank you.” He answered with a barely there grimace.
“See? Easy.” He shrugged then patted Eijirou on the shoulder, still with that annoying, all-knowing smile on his face.
“That is so different!” Eijirou snapped and moved out of Kaminari’s reach.
“It would work on him.” Kaminari didn't seem bothered as he leaned on his hand.
“This is ridiculous and you know it.” Eijirou crossed his arms. “Tell him, Todoroki!”
“Actually, he has a point.” Todoroki said, scooting a little to make some distance between them, “Bakugou is an ‘actions speak louder than words’ kind of person.”
Are you serious? Eijirou wanted to ask, but instead groaned as he dragged his hands along his face with frustration.
“Bro, listen to me.” Kaminari shuffled towards Eijirou and placed his hands on his shoulders. “If one of the smartest guys in our class thinks that you and your crush are together, and then says it's a good idea to ask him to make out-”
“I didn't say that.”
“-Then it's a clear sign that Bakugou actually has feelings for you. Freaking, I dunno, it's a bet.” He actually took Eijirou’s hand and shook it.
Eijirou held Kaminari’s hand and just stared at it with a sour face. “... I just don't want to break his trust.”
“Kirishima,” Todoroki put a hand on Eijirou’s back and Eijirou glanced up at him. “Even if you're not sure, confessing will make you feel better. And Bakugou isn't the kind of person to hate someone just because they have feelings for him, especially when that person is the one who literally saved his life.”
“I'm not pressuring him into a relationship because I just so happened to rescue him!” Eijirou raised his voice.
“I-” Todoroki pulled his hand back, “I apologise, that's not what I meant.”
“No, it's fine.” Eijirou ran his hand through his hair as he looked to the side. “I'm sorry, I didn't mean to yell at you.”
“Well… Is it really pressure if he actually wants that?” Kaminari chimed in carefully.
From the lack of ideas what to do with himself, Eijirou lay down on the floor and covered his face.
“You don’t know what he wants… No one does…” He said quietly, resigned.
Katsuki already felt like he owed him, that was a fact, because Eijirou still had those 50,000 yen Katsuki forced him to accept.
“If it's of any consolation, another person who thought you two were in a relationship was Midoriya, and he’s known Bakugou since they were children. If anyone, he might know a thing or two.” Todoroki said and Eijirou couldn’t help but snort at the statement.
He felt bad for laughing for about half a second when Kaminari spoke up with amusement, “I get what you mean, but Midoriya isn't really the authority figure on the subject. Seriously, if there is someone who knows anything about Bakugou, it's Kirishima.”
Eijirou uncovered his face and stared up at the ceiling as he processed Kaminari’s words, wondering what they reminded him of-
You're the only person here who really knows me.
Katsuki said those words without a shadow of a doubt.
Eijirou slowly sat up, wide eyes locked on the floor as he realised something.
“He's always so… sincere with me.” Eijirou said quietly, clenching his fists.
Todoroki and Kaminari shared a look, but didn't say anything.
“He’s so relaxed and open, but in the last few weeks there’s been something.. Off.” Eijirou stared at his hands. “I don’t think there has ever been a misunderstanding between us, he’s always honest with me, but recently it’s like he’s holding himself back, even when it’s just the two of us.” Eijirou swallowed nervously before he looked up at his friends. “Would it be too bold of me to assume that he.. likes me?”
He felt tears gather in his eyes and he wiped them away, anxiously waiting for a reaction.
Eijirou watched as Kaminari and Todoroki exchanged another meaningful look, before Kaminari spoke, “Kirishima, listen to me.” He started in a serious tone as he straightened his back.
Eijirou felt small under his unusually intense gaze. “... What?”
“Bakugou’s in love with you.”
Eijirou’s shoulders went up, face turning red as he kept opening and closing his mouth, unable to make any sort of compelling argument. It was hard to catch his breath and he clutched to his chest.
“Don’t try to argue with me.” Kaminari stood up. “Don’t get me wrong, but everyone’s done with your clearly unjustified dread of unrequited love. Even Todoroki here, and five minutes ago he was convinced that you were in a relationship already!”
“That’s true. You two could have been together since before I-Island.” Todoroki agreed, staring at Eijirou with an unimpressed tilt of his brow.
“But- but there’s no way-”
“Kirishima!” Kaminari squished his face. “I’m taking you to Bakugou and you’re confessing. And then he accepts your feelings and then you’re having an autumn wedding.” With that, he grabbed Eijirou by the arms and forced him up to his feet.
“I’m not-”
“Yes, you are.” Todoroki was the one to say as he leaned back on his hands. “I want my room back, I’m tired.” He said in a tone that didn’t take a no for the answer. “Congratulations on your new relationship.” He added with a wave while Kaminari dragged Eijirou toward the door.
“Wait- that’s not-”
“I will electrocute you.” Kaminari threatened as they made their way out to the corridor. “Thanks for the gossip, Todoroki!” He sang in a much sweeter tone, waving back to him, then closed the door behind the two of them.
“What the hell, dude- OUCH!” Eijirou yelped, jumping away from Kaminari who actually electrocuted him.
“Don’t be a baby, that was just a little spark.” Kaminari put his hand on his hip.
Eijirou took a step back, “When did you get so mean?!”
“When it turned out my pining friend’s feelings were requited this entire time and he was being an imbecile.” Kaminari squinted at him.
“First of all, rude. Second, you don’t know that!” He accentuated each word with a clap of his hands.
“You mean I didn’t, until half an hour ago! You’ve omitted so many details I was genuinely wondering why you’re still holding onto him!” Kaminari jabbed Eijirou right in the chest then grabbed his shirt and dragged him along towards the stairs.
“Okay, jeez, I’m sorry, stop- you’re stretching it!”
Kaminari finally stopped at the stairs and sighed heavily before he turned to Eijirou again. “You’re manly.”
Eijirou’s eyebrows shot up, “I’m- I’m manly.” He repeated, and Kaminari grinned at him.
“You’re determined.” Kaminari grabbed his shoulders.
“I’m determined!”
“You understand him!” Kaminari yelled excitedly, bouncing in place.
“I understand him.” While equally excited, Eijirou whispered to himself.
Kamianari nodded with a huge, satisfied smile. “Come on.”
Eijirou nodded back and they quickly went down to the fourth floor.
They approached Katsuki’s room, adrenaline driving Eijirou when he reached the door and wanted to knock-
“Eijirou.” Came from behind and he froze.
All courage and determination fled his body as he turned to face Katsuki.
___
Katsuki left Ashido’s room before he would further embarrass himself. That, and he really needed to talk to Eijirou.
He wasn’t sure how he was supposed to start this conversation, but he knew he had to check if his suspicions were true, that Ashido didn’t secretly hate him and wasn’t making a fool out of him behind his back-
He stopped in his tracks and shook his head. She wouldn’t.
Katsuki took a deep breath and continued to his room, but when he turned the corner, he saw two people approaching his door.
It didn’t take long to recognize Kaminari with Eijirou, and his heartbeat quickened in an instant.
Okay, he could do it.
Sure, Katsuki was absolute shit at feelings, but once he’d look into Eijirou’s eyes, he was sure the right words would come.
He approached them, and just before Eijirou was about to knock on his door, Katsuki spoke up, “Eijirou.”
Slowly, like a deer caught in the headlights, Eijirou looked over his shoulder and stared at him.
“Well!” Kaminari patted Eijirou on the back, “I’ll leave you two, my comrades!” He announced and took a few quick steps, skillfully avoiding Eijirou’s hand that tried to grab him.
“Wait-”
“Good luck~!” Kaminari winked at him and hurried away.
They stared after him for a few moments until he disappeared behind the elevator doors, then their eyes finally met.
Eijirou swallowed visibly while Katsuki clenched and unclenched his clammy hands.
“I wanted-” “You know-”
They started at the same time and Eijirou chuckled awkwardly, fiddling with his hardened fingers as he stayed silent, but Katsuki’s mind was too loud to focus on a single comprehensible thought.
“Go on.” Katsuki demanded, a bit harsher than he intended and he immediately felt bad, seeing Eijirou’s shoulders jolt up.
Eijirou sighed heavily, shoulders still tense. “I wanted to... Talk to you?” He released another awkward chuckle. “Or- I guess- I dunno-” He laughed again, the sound strained.
Eijirou’s brows were drawn together and he was biting on his lower lip, trying to relax his hardened hands as he stayed silent and Katsuki really didn’t know what to make of it.
All he knew was that this uncertainty would drive him crazy because what if-
What if Ashido lied?
What if his suspicions were wrong?
… What if Eijirou realised how Katsuki felt and wanted to let him down gently?
Fuck.
Katsuki ran his hand along his face with a heavy sigh, which caused Eijirou to tense up even more as he observed his doings.
Well, if he was going to be let down, they might as well get it over with.
He made sure his voice would be steady and self-assured as he simply said, “Eijirou.”
“Yes!”
Katsuki stared at him for a moment, examining his anxious expression.
“You’re my best friend.” Katsuki declared, then crossed his arms and added, “You know I can take anything.”
Eijirou’s eyes widened and his shoulders finally relaxed.
“Of course.” His voice was quiet but at the same time so sincere that Katsuki felt all the more dread for what was to come.
But he had to be strong.
He took half a step towards Eijirou when out of the blue there were hands on the sides of his head. Katsuki froze, when he realised Eijirou’s face was mere inches away from his.
Katsuki was confused for all of two seconds when Eijirou leaned back then made a sudden move towards him, almost crashing their heads together. Katsuki’s arm shot forward, stopping painfully on Eijirou’s chest and keeping him at that length.
Time stopped, and they stared at each other. Eijirou’s eyes slowly travelled down to Katsuki’s hand, flat on his chest. They both could smell the smoke coming off of the singed fabric of Eijirou’s shirt.
Katsuki was the first one to snap out of his shock, “What the fuck kind of stupid joke is this?!” He yelled, pushing Eijirou with just enough force to make him finally let go of his head.
Eijirou stood there silently for another five seconds before he laughed.
He laughed, but it was an alien sound.
Katsuki’s never heard him make this sort of noise before and he was too perplexed to even question it because what the hell was happening?
“Right! A joke!” Eijirou continued to make strange sounds that were nothing like his brilliant laughter. He reached up to his hair and messed it up, just enough for several strands to fall loosely to his face. “Sorry, Kaminari said you would let me do it and I said you wouldn’t so we had a bet and- haha yep!” There was this strain in Eijirou’s voice that he was desperately trying to hide as he started walking backwards. “See ya!” He ran off towards the elevator before Katsuki even had a chance to react.
He stood there for a few moments with a deep frown before he rolled his eyes.
Figures Kaminari would come up with some stupid joke, Katsuki thought and went to his room.
Once he closed the door, he realised he had missed his chance to talk to him.
Well, it wasn’t like Katsuki wouldn’t get another one.
___
Eijirou was shaking as he knocked on Kaminari’s door.
“Dude!” Kaminari said as he opened, his excited face dropped when he saw the state Eijirou was in. “Woah, what’s wrong, Kirishima?”
“Hey, so uh-” Eijirou let out a strained laugh, “you lost the bet!” He raised his hands with a shrug and sniffled, his fake smile crumbling as he pressed his lips into a thin line, trying not to sob.
Kaminari’s expression saddened once he understood, yet he didn’t say anything. He just pulled Eijirou into a tight hug before he let him inside his room.
___
Eijirou was avoiding him.
Ever since that weird-ass joke, and throughout all Sunday, Katsuki hasn’t had a chance to spend even five minutes with Eijirou.
At first he thought it was just a coincidence that Eijirou would leave the kitchen as soon as Katsuki came in. Then when Katsuki offered to go to the gym together, Eijirou muttered something about Kaminari needing help. For the whole Sunday, Eijirou was just gone.
Katsuki could swear that at some point the bastard was sitting in the common room with his fucking hood on, completely covering his hair just so Katsuki wouldn’t recognize him. Well, it sucked to be him, because Katsuki had no trouble recognizing his stupid eyes and the scar.
But if he was going to be a fucking weirdo, then Katsuki wasn’t going to chase after him.
That was, until the morning of the first day of the new semester, when Eijirou almost ran to the elevator when he saw Katsuki leaving his room.
Well, he was pissed. And had a feeling that someone blabbed.
He went to the girls’ wing and lucky him, Ashido happened to be at her door, struggling with the keys.
“Bubblegum.” Katsuki put a hand on her shoulder and she yelped, surprised at his sudden presence. But Katsuki didn’t have time for her theatrics. “Did you tell him?” He asked in an angry whisper.
“Who what now?” She looked at him with confusion.
“Don’t play dumb.” Katsuki pointed at her as he squinted. “He’s been avoiding me all day yesterday and just now he fucking ran from me.”
Ashido took a moment to gather her thoughts and then gasped, “How dare you accuse me of such a thing!” She seemed genuinely offended and she unlocked her door then almost pushed Katsuki inside. “You’re basically telling me that I’m being a bad friend!” She yelled as she slammed the door shut and damn Katsuki sure touched a nerve. “So, full offence, if he’s avoiding you it’s your fault, Bakugou Katsuki.” She finished with a huff and stared at him, waiting for his response.
“I didn’t do shit! We literally haven’t interacted since Saturday when he tried to fucking headbutt me!” Katsuki yelled defensively, spreading his arms in frustration.
She blinked at him, “What.”
“Exactly.” He raised his arms with annoyance. “Said it was some weird bet with Kaminari and he’s been avoiding me since!” Just the memory alone infuriated Katsuki.
Ashido stared at him with a strange mix of confusion and irritation on her face.
“You know, I did notice that the two of them were acting weird yesterday…” She put her hand on her chin, staring at the floor. “Okay, I’m gonna talk to them both after classes today. Or maybe during lunch..?” She closed her eyes, shifting her weight from one leg to the other. “Yeah, lunch.” She looked up at him, “So don't worry, I'm sure it's just a stupid misunderstanding.”
“I just…” Katsuki ran his hand through his hair, “What if he figured it out and he's avoiding-”
“Nope! No no no no no.” She placed her hands on his cheeks, squishing his face and Katsuki jerked his head back. Ashido didn’t seem bothered though, just crossed her arms as she spoke with confidence, “He would never do that. Believe me.”
Katsuki took a step away, out of her reach, “Okay. Fine.” He crossed his arms, “So what, I’m supposed to act like nothing's wrong?”
“For now, yeah. There's nothing you can do until we learn why he's being a total weirdo.” Ashido shrugged and rolled her eyes.
Well, Katsuki couldn't say he was a fan of this plan. Then again, a normal conversation seemed impossible. For a moment, Katsuki considered just pinning Eijirou against a wall to force him to talk to him, or something, but decided against it.
“Alright, let's go.” Katsuki opened the door and stepped out of Ashido's room, the girl right behind him.
Unless an opportunity would present itself, Katsuki decided that waiting until the end of the day was the best course of action.
___
When Eijirou went to Kaminari that day, he was an absolute mess - sobbing and heaving in Kaminari’s room for half the night. He was ashamed of himself, his reaction and for ever thinking that he had the slightest chance with Katsuki.
Eijirou felt bad for avoiding him and literally hiding his hair from him. Then again, he had no idea how to act around him. Sure, Katsuki was acting like nothing happened, and it was clear that he had given Eijirou an easy way out by asking if the kiss was a joke, but he still felt so so so stupid for panicking and trying that in the first place.
Kaminari had apologised profusely, saying that he was so sure that Katsuki had liked him back. He even wanted to gather their other friends for support, but Eijirou quite literally begged him not to.
He wouldn’t be able to stand their kind words, not when he did this to himself.
“How are you holding up?” Kaminari asked on their way to class.
Eijirou clenched the straps of his backpack, “I’ll be okay.” He tried to assure, yet his voice came out weak and he sighed heavily.
Kaminari wanted to say something else, but that’s when Sero ran up to them so Eijirou glued a fake smile to his face and they continued walking to their class, joking about some trivial things.
Once again, he felt bad for not even acknowledging Katsuki as he stepped into the classroom with Ashido. Eijirou just sank into his chair as they both drilled holes into him.
Aizawa’s arrival saved him from being approached by the two.
Even though it was 8am, he would be lying if he said that he wasn’t glad that the teacher announced that their first period was going to be hero training, instead of regular homeroom. Something about wanting to check if they weren’t slacking through all summer vacation, and making sure they stayed in shape. Eijirou was just glad to escape Ashido’s questioning looks.
In record time, he made it to the locker room and changed into his hero costume. He wanted to start training as soon as possible, hoping to occupy his mind with anything that wasn’t Katsuki.
Once they were on the training grounds, Aizawa said something about picking pairs, and Eijirou quickly asked Oijirou, standing right next to him, whether he wanted to train together. He felt a sting of guilt when in the corner of his eye he could see Katsuki turn to him at the same moment.
They were sent to a makeshift ring and stood opposite of each other. Oijirou took on a fighting stance, tail raised, reminding Eijirou that he was supposed to prepare as well. Aizawa was explaining the rules, yet no matter how hard Eijirou was trying to focus, his thoughts were ringing loudly in his head, distracting him from everything around.
He glanced at his classmates; everyone was focused on the two of them, but it seemed like Katsuki had eyes on only Eijirou.
How the hell was he supposed to focus if Katsuki rejected him like that?
Was he even allowed to call him Katsuki after all this?
He felt stupid for thinking he had a chance to begin with.
It was so obvious - Katsuki- Bakugou never had feelings for him. Whatever.
He could live with that. He was going to get over it, sooner or later.
Whatever.
It fucking hurt. Like hell.
But whatever.
Eijirou swallowed a sob forming in his throat.
God damn it, he was in the middle of a fight, why the hell was he thinking about this?
He squeezed his eyes shut, feeling the tears well-up in them.
He was so stupid to think-
The hit came out of nowhere. All Eijirou could do was take it, distracted as he was.
He fell backwards onto the ground, his face burning from pain.
Eijirou covered his face, both to try and soothe the stinging as well as to hide the fact that there were tears streaming from his eyes.
“Kirishima-! Shit, I’m sorry, did I break your nose?” Oijirou hovered over him, trying to gently pry Eijirou’s hands away from his face, to no avail. “I thought you were going to harden your face, I'm so sorry!”
“He was supposed to.” Aizawa’s unimpressed voice reached him and Eijirou couldn’t stop the sob that escaped him. At least it was muffled, so maybe- “... Kirishima?” The teacher’s voice became slightly alarmed and Eijirou peeked through his fingers, just to realise that Aizawa was kneeling next to him.
This was pathetic.
Eijirou was pathetic.
He got hit in the face and was crying like a little kid in front of his teacher and classmates who all gathered around.
“Kirishima, let me see your face.” Aizawa commanded and Eijirou swallowed another sob.
Slowly, he raised his hands, barely above his face, only for Aizawa’s eyes to widen. Eijirou was confused for about two seconds before he glanced at his hands and saw blood mixed with his tears.
As if this wasn’t embarrassing enough, he had a nosebleed. Great.
He released a shaky breath then tried to stand up, but Aizawa’s hand on his shoulder stopped him.
“Careful, you might have a concussion.” Aizawa helped him stand up, along with Ojirou who kept apologising.
“It’s okay, I was distracted…” Eijirou assured him quietly. He didn’t trust his voice enough to speak louder.
Aizawa handed him some tissues as he instructed Eijirou to keep his head low.
“Does your head hurt?” Aizawa asked and Eijirou took a second to assess his state.
“No, just my face.” He answered, the pain pulsating from his nose to eyes.
At least he wasn’t crying anymore.
“Someone take him to Recovery Girl.”
Eijirou glanced up and waited with a baited breath for a volunteer. He watched with relief as Iida slowly raised his hand, but the feeling was short-lived as a rough, familiar voice spoke up; “I’ll do it.”
Bakugou stepped out of the little circle that formed around them. He casually took off his gauntlets and put them on the ground, then walked up to Eijirou who just wanted to scream.
“Alright, make sure he keeps his head down.” With those parting words, Aizawa told everyone else to get back to training, leaving Eijirou alone with Bakugou.
“Come on, Eijirou.”
It was like a punch to his gut, because why did Bakugou keep calling him by his given name?
The gentle hand placed on his back didn’t help and Eijirou found himself regretting the choices he made when designing his hero costume.
Eijirou picked up his pace, making it out of the training grounds, but Bakugou was quick to grab his shoulder - in a surprisingly careful manner - and scold him for his sudden movements.
“I’m not carrying you all the way to the nurse’s office if you trip and pass out.” There was a certain teasingness to his tone, but instead of making Eijirou smile, it only made him want to run away even more.
He grimaced from the pain as he tried to furrow his brows, then he stepped out of Bakugou’s reach.
“Careful-” Bakugou almost grabbed him again, but Eijirou took another step back just to collide his shoulder with a goddamned tree. “Eijirou, I’m really trying to help you here-”
“I’m fine!” He yelled. He didn’t mean to, but he did, and the surprise on Bakugou’s face, the same expression he made two days prior, only made him want to cry again. “Sorry- sorry, I’m just-” Eijirou hung his head low again. He tried squeezing his eyes shut but the pain was unbearable. He was forced to keep them open and allow the tears to fall freely.
“Eijirou…” Bakugou’s tone was so worried and so gentle, Eijirou was going to be sick.
Why was he acting like nothing happened between them?
Then Bakugou leaned down a bit and tilted his head, trying to take a better look at Eijirou’s face probably, his eyebrows knitted together with worry.
“Does it hurt that badly?”
You have no idea, Eijirou wanted to say, but instead just nodded.
Bakugou reached out with his gloved hand towards Eijirou’s face who just turned his head.
“... Let’s just go, okay?” Eijirou whispered, trying to sniffle, something he quickly regretted as more pain shot through half of his face and he tensed up.
“Alright…” Bakugou said and they walked in silence to the nurse’s office.
On the way there, Bakugou was nice enough to switch out Eijirou’s bloody tissue with a fresh one, a gesture that a few days ago would fill Eijirou’s chest with warmth and gratefulness, yet today just made him want to cry more, because why was Bakugou being so nice?
Because he’s your friend. Eijirou explained, angry at himself. Just your friend.
Bakugou knocked a few times on the door to the nurse’s office and let himself in when it kept silent on the other side. “She’s not here.” He announced, then took off his gloves and started washing his hands.
“What are you doing?” Eijirou asked as he reluctantly stepped inside.
“I’m gonna clean your face.” He said casually and opened a few cabinets, looking for something, while Eijirou’s face heated up.
“But- but Recovery Girl’s not here-”
“I know red’s your signature colour, but all that blood? Too much.” Bakugou cackled at his own joke and Eijirou had to admit it was funny. And cute, because he knew Bakugou was worried about him and wanted to lighten the mood and make him feel better and god damn it, he doesn’t like you this way. “Sit down, Eijirou.”
Reluctantly, he obliged. Bakugou even helped him down on the hospital cot.
“I'll take off your face guard, okay?” He asked, and Eijirou just closed his eyes.
He tensed up when he felt Bakugou’s hands on the buckles of his guard, fingers brushing against his skin. He heard the buckles click as Bakugou unlocked them and slowly released Eijirou’s jaw, then took off the guard entirely. Usually Eijirou would stretch his jaw joints, but at the moment he didn't want to risk feeling more pain by doing so.
Eijirou opened his eyes as Bakugou put the guard down on the cot.
His friend- ex-friend..? then turned around, quickly washed his hands again and prepared the gauze. Before Eijirou knew it, Bakugou was right in front of him with everything he needed.
“It’s cold.” He warned as he pressed the gauze soaked in something that made Eijirou flinch at first. “Oh, don’t be a baby, it’s just water.” Bakugou teased, making Eijirou chuckle and relax.
Eijirou closed his eyes again, relaxing into Bakugou’s gentle touch as he cupped Eijirou’s cheek and cleaned his face. He allowed himself those few minutes of calmness and warmth. Allowed himself to think that things were as they’ve always been, that Katsuki didn't reject him and they were still close friends.
“Alright.” Bakugou said eventually. “Your nose stopped bleeding and you're all clean.” He sounded proud of his work.
Eijirou opened his eyes, face warming up when he realised how close they were.
“I’m not a medical professional but I’m pretty sure it’s not broken. Your weird face guard finally proved itself useful.” He teased with a smirk as he lifted Eijirou’s chin, making him gasp.
“Thank you…” Eijirou said quietly, staring at Bakugou whose eyes widened and he took a step back, clearing his throat.
Eijirou swallowed nervously before he slowly stood up.
Bakugou’s hands hovered over his shoulders. “Careful-”
“You can go back,” Eijirou avoided eye contact. “I’ll wait for Recovery Girl.” He crossed his arms over his chest, staring at the used up gauze in a bin next to the bed.
They stood in silence for a few uncomfortable seconds, with Eijirou wishing that Bakugou would just leave already. He really couldn't stand being alone with him for so long, he didn't trust himself not to start crying.
“... Why’ve you been avoiding me?” Bakugou asked quietly and Eijirou’s breathing hitched, his stomach churning with a sickening feeling.
He clenched his hands, “I haven’t-”
“Eijirou.” Bakugou insisted and took a step towards him, crowding him against the cot.
He had that certain look in his eyes. A mix of worry and something that Eijirou once believed to be deep care.
Bakugou pulled up his mask, pushing his hair out of his forehead. “Ever since that stupid joke-”
“Forget about it.” Eijirou’s voice cracked and he half turned from Bakugou, trying to create some distance between them because being so close only made the pain worse.
“How can I forget about it if you’re acting so weird?” Bakugou sounded almost desperate as he grabbed Eijirou’s elbow who quickly tore his arm away from his grasp. “Ei-”
Eijirou stepped back and bumped into the cot, his knees buckling and causing him to start falling backwards. Bakugou tried to grab him but ended up losing balance as well, barely managing to land on his hands, hovering over Eijirou who had crashed onto the cot with a huff.
“Are you okay?” Those worried eyes were on him again, scanning for any sign of hurt, but once Eijirou nodded, that worry turned into something akin to irritation. “Why are you acting so fucking weird?! I-” Bakugou stopped, closing his eyes. He was obviously trying to stay calm. He breathed out as he clenched his hand that was next to Eijirou’s head. “Please. I'm trying to understand.”
Eijirou stared into his sincere eyes, breathing hastened. “I just-” what was he supposed to say that wasn't already obvious?
He was unable to think with Bakugou so close, trapped underneath him as he was.
There was only one thing he could say.
Eijirou released a shaky breath, “It wasn't a joke…” His voice was barely above a whisper as he made a pained expression.
Bakugou’s eyes widened in some sort of understanding, then hurt flashed across his face. His shoulders visibly slumped as he spoke. “You realised how I feel about you.”
It wasn't a question.
Eijirou swallowed a lump in his throat and ignored the stinging pain as he covered his face, tears filling up his eyes. He just couldn't force himself to look at Bakugou’s expression, and didn't want to try and decipher every detail of it.
“I'm sorry.” Eijirou whispered. He wanted to stop shaking, to no avail.
He heard shuffling and Bakugou’s weight was removed from the cot.
“Why didn't you say anything sooner?” His voice was so cold and distant, Eijirou didn't want to believe it belonged to his best friend.
Oh. Wait.
He couldn't call him that anymore, either.
Eijirou sniffled and tried to wipe his face clean.
Bakugou stayed silent as Eijirou slowly propped himself up on the cot and stood up.
He looked at Bakugou; his eyes were glued to the floor as he stood motionless, jaw set and hands clenched in tight fists. His shoulders were shaking.
“I didn't want to break your trust.” Eijirou finally answered in a wet voice.
Bakugou didn't react. Didn't even glance in his direction. Then, he pressed his hand to his eyes and took in a shaky breath. “So what now?” He asked, but what was supposed to be a demanding tone came out as desperate.
Eijirou felt a deep pain grow in his chest.
He wanted to walk up to him and hold him.
“I'm so sorry-”
“I asked-” Bakugou raised his trembling voice, eyes still covered, “What now?”
Eijirou swallowed. He wasn't sure what to do with his shaking hands; he kind of regretted not adding pockets to his pants so he started fiddling with the material.
A quiet, shaky hiccup interrupted his thoughts, the sound causing more pain to pulse through his chest.
He knew he owed Bakugou some sort of answer, even though he didn't know what he was supposed to say. It was clear that his actions deeply hurt him, more than Eijirou imagined they would. He broke Bakugou’s trust and he had no way of knowing if he'd ever be able to rebuild it again.
All he could do was assure him of their friendship, that it meant more to him than a possible romantic relationship.
“You're my dearest friend.” But I'm in love with you, he didn't add. He didn't want to rub it in any more. “And I don't want to lose you.” His voice was strained as he tried not to sob.
Bakugou faced the wall and wiped at his eyes. He never wanted to be seen like that so Eijirou turned his head to stare at the bin again.
“... I don't want to lose you either.” Bakugou’s voice was hoarse and quiet when he spoke after another minute passed.
Eijirou waited a few more seconds before he looked up. Bakugou was facing him, but his eyes were glued to the floor. He had his mask back on and he stood with his arms crossed.
“Maybe..” Eijirou started, unsure of what he even wanted to say, “Maybe we need some time apart…” He suggested, even though it was the last thing he wanted.
He could swear he heard the popping of Bakugou’s quirk, but when he didn't even move an inch, Eijirou figured it was just his imagination.
Eijirou stared at him expectantly, but when Bakugou stayed silent, Eijirou understood he had to be the one to set the boundaries he didn't want.
“And, well…” Eijirou fiddled with his fingers. There were so many things they always did together, he didn't know where to begin. “I will find another tutor…”
He watched Bakugou for his reaction and his chest hurt when he stayed silent.
“Maybe we shouldn't-”
“Just say you don't want to fucking see me and be done with it.” Bakugou snapped, then walked past a frozen Eijirou, towards the door.
“I do want to see you.” Eijirou corrected quickly, looking at Bakugou over his shoulder.
Bakugou stood at the door, hand on the handle. “So what, we just forget this ever happened?” He asked, still refusing to face Eijirou.
He swallowed a lump, ignoring the screaming voice in his head telling him that it wasn’t the best or even a good way to deal with things, “Yeah…” Eijirou confirmed quietly.
“Alright then.” Bakugou said, his tone cold. His expression was uncharacteristically neutral and calm as he faced Eijirou again. “So I guess it’s Kirishima, now?”
Eijirou squeezed his eyes shut and took a deep breath. He already missed the sound of his name in that rough voice.
“Y-yeah. It is, Bakugou.”
God, it hurt so badly.
“Okay. I’m gonna go look for Recovery Girl, let her know you’re waiting for her.” Bakugou said and turned to the door. He cracked it open, yet just before he was about to step out, he looked over his shoulder at Eijirou, “For the record, trying to headbutt me was a stupid fucking way to deal with all this shit.” Bakugou muttered with slight amusement, clearly trying to lighten the mood.
“Yeah…” Eijirou let out a strained laugh before he blinked with confusion and looked up at him. “Wait, what?”
“What?”
They looked at each other, trying to figure out what the other meant.
“... What are you talking about?” Eijirou faced him, trying to decipher his expression but it was just a mirrored image of Eijirou’s own puzzlement.
Bakugou stared at him for an uncomfortable amount of time and Eijirou vaguely wondered how come Recovery Girl hadn't returned yet.
“You can’t be serious!” Bakugou raised his voice, closing the door. He walked up to Eijirou and stuck up two fingers at him, “Two days ago!” He said with clear frustration, as if whatever he was talking about was that obvious and Eijirou's confusion was annoying him.
“What- I wasn't trying to headbutt you, why would I want to do that!?” Now it was Eijirou’s turn to raise his voice.
“Then what were you trying to do, because I'm fucking lost at this point!” Bakugou poked him on the shoulder and kept his finger there.
Eijirou pushed his hand away, offended at the suggestion that he was trying to hurt his Katsuki. “I was trying to kiss you, you stupid-”
“You what?” Bakugou snapped, and Eijirou froze.
Oh.
Oh.
Oh no.
Eijirou took a step back
“Kirishima, what do you mean?” Bakugou raised his hand towards him, his expression unreadable.
Eijirou took another step back, realisation hitting him all at once; he completely misunderstood the situation. He had such an easy way out and he utterly screwed it up.
Now Bakugou would actually end their friendship.
His vision got blurry. Eijirou quickly covered his face before the tears would stream down his cheeks.
“How could I-” Eijirou whispered.
Bakugou placed his hands on Eijirou’s forearms, “What are you saying?” His voice was so gentle and so sincere, it filled him with false hope, making him feel worse and worse.
God, he was so stupid.
“Kirishima, please-”
“I like you.” Eijirou said, trembling. Bakugou’s hands tightened on his arms. “More th-than I should and I k-know we’re friends- but I- I want more-” He was barely able to say, hiccuping as he cried like a stupid kid that he was.
Bakugou stayed silent as Eijirou continued to cry; he felt nauseous, like he was about to throw up all of his bloody organs. He had no idea how Bakugou was going to react and the stretching silence only made him more and more distraught.
Finally, Bakugou whispered, “... Holy shit, you idiot.” It felt like a punch to his face.
Eijirou started heaving. He wanted to curl up and disappear, the only reason he didn’t collapse to the floor was Bakugou’s iron-clad hold on him.
He was an idiot.
“I- I know-” He let out between hastened breaths.
It was over.
“No! Not you- I’m the one- fucking hell, look at me!” Bakugou demanded in a frustrated tone.
Eijirou was unable to speak, throat closed up, so he just shook his head, refusing to uncover his face.
“Look at me.” Bakugou grabbed his wrists and shook them lightly. “Eijirou.”
Eijirou’s breaths were shallow and quick. He shook his head again.
“Please.” Bakugou’s voice was desperate, and while Eijirou wanted to stay hidden, maybe even disappear completely, he still forced his hands away from his face.
Bakugou was staring at him, face scrunched up as he painfully gripped Eijirou’s wrists.
Eijirou hiccuped, “I’m sorry.” His voice was shaky and pathetic.
Bakugou was searching for something in Eijirou’s face. It took him so long, Eijirou almost managed to calm down. As his breaths evened out, his panic was replaced with uncertainty, because this weird silence was the last thing he expected and at this point he didn’t even know what to expect.
At last, Bakugou closed his eyes and took a few deep breaths, as if bracing for something. The last was a long release of air, and when Bakugou opened his eyes, there was nothing but determination in them.
He let go of Eijirou’s wrists and pulled up his mask again. His eyeliner was all messed up, but Eijirou didn’t get a chance to admire how it looked before Bakugou cupped Eijirou’s cheeks, wiping off the dried tears with his thumbs.
“You’re denser than I am, you know?” He laughed and Eijirou furrowed his brows in confusion.
“Bakugou, what-”
“Eijirou, I love you.”
Everything stopped as those words echoed in his mind, making him deaf and blind to the rest of the world.
There was only Katsuki and I love you, I love you, I love you.
Eijirou felt his heart swell with the warmth of those three words and the beauty of Katsuki’s smile. Mindlessly, he placed his hands on his, still holding his face.
Love?
No.. He must have heard wrong.
Doubt crept its way into his mind.
What was happening?
I love you?
Why would he say that?
Why would he joke about this?
“No- Bakugou, you don't mean it.” Eijirou was going to cry again. Or throw up. Probably both. “You’re lying.”
Bakugou looked mildly offended, nevertheless, he still smiled as he said “Eijirou, you know I don’t say shit I don't mean.”
Eijirou laughed. Then he made a pained sound. Then tears appeared in his eyes again because there was absolutely no way that this amazing, powerful, manly, beautiful person thought that someone like Eijirou was the right choice for him.
Oh, he knew what was going on. He actually did get that concussion! Yes!
“You don't have a concussion.” Bakugou sighed in a way that Eijirou knew meant he was getting tired of the situation.
“How is this…” Eijirou whispered, closing his eyes.
He didn’t know what to do or how to feel.
Eijirou heard a sigh.
Did Bakugou get bored of the joke already?
“Eijirou, come on.” Bakugou moved his hand to take a hold of one of Eijirou’s.
He swallowed another sob and gathered enough courage to open his eyes.
He gasped, because Bakugou’s face was much closer than before. Intense eyes seemed to be staring right into his soul and Eijirou didn’t dare move when Bakugou leaned forward and whispered, warm breath dancing on his lips, “Never call me Bakugou again.” He said and closed the distance between them.
Eijirou squeezed his eyes shut as he felt a featherlight touch on his lips, so soft, so careful. It was warm and so tender it sent his heartbeat racing, filled with a feeling that Eijirou wanted to believe was love.
It was over all too quick; the touch disappeared and he opened his eyes.
What just happened?
Eijirou gasped quietly as he looked at his beloved friend, looking back at him with a shy yet happy and adoring expression.
Oh.
Oh.
It was simple, really.
Katsuki kissed him.
Notes:
HAPPY EIYM ANNIVERSARY AND HAPPY PRIDE MONTH, WE DID IT, LOVE WINS, GG ENBYS!!!!!
It only took 6 years and 400k words but here we are, Krbk kissed. HOW ARE WE FEELING?
I feel weird. Those are my boys and they can finally kiss and hug and hold hands whenever they want and I love them so much.And guys... beloved readers... I can't believe how patient you are with this story, with me. I can't express how much I appreciate everyone who ever read, commented and left kudos. You all are so precious to me and your constant support inspires me to write.
I need to wrap this up before I start crying lmaoooooooChapter was beta read by Lion and Horror who both cried reading it lmfao (I cried too)
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Chapter 45: Us and This
Summary:
Is it gay if we- yes, it is.
Notes:
Katsuki thinks he's smooth, but he's just a cringe teenager and we love him for it.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
He kissed Eijirou.
Katsuki’s lips were warm, still tingling from the feeling of his first kiss, so quick and gentle. They stretched into a wide grin and he felt lightheaded, thinking about all that had happened.
Just a few moments ago, Katsuki felt like the world had ended. He had gone through what felt like all stages of grief, about to go back to the training grounds and strangle Ashido and anyone who would try to stop him. Only thanks to his pride and pettiness did he stop to tell Eijirou how stupid of an idea it was to try and headbutt- kiss him, like that.
It felt like the ground was about to swallow him down into an endless darkest pit, then Eijirou pulled him up at the last second and Katsuki was freed from pain and anxieties.
And now, his entire being was filled with completely different emotions.
It was all so... surreal. Maybe he could call this feeling happiness. Contentment? But there was so much more to it.
There were thousands of sparks exploding in Katsuki’s veins, all at once filling his whole body with a blazing intensity- Adrenaline? He could swear this was the same type of feeling as whenever he would use his Howitzer Impact, maybe even better, because he kissed Eijirou.
His equal, his best friend, his safe space, his Eijirou.
He couldn't believe it.
It seemed that Eijirou couldn't believe it either, because he was just staring at Katsuki for the past minute with a frozen expression.
Maybe he should have asked before kissing him…
“Eijirou, come on.” Katsuki didn't even try to stop himself from chuckling, nor to hide his happiness. He didn't have to anymore, because Eijirou felt the same way about him and there was nothing to hide.
“You kissed me.” Eijirou breathed out, his face still an image of starstruck shock as his shaking hand found its way to Katsuki’s waist.
“Yes.” Katsuki confirmed, smiling as warmth continued to fill his chest. He decided to take a hold of Eijirou’s hand. For a moment he wasn't sure if it was actually something he was allowed to do, but when Eijirou intertwined their fingers, the doubt disappeared.
… Fucking hell.
A genuine smile spread on his face, and once again, he didn’t bother hiding it.
He did it. He kissed Eijirou and told him how he felt.
“You like me.” A loopy smile adorned Eijirou’s face as he swayed slightly on his legs and held onto the material of Katsuki’s costume at his waist.
“I love you.” Katsuki corrected and squeezed Eijirou’s hand, keeping him steady, as he took a step closer.
“Oh. Huh.” Eijirou chuckled and blinked a few times as his eyes filled with tears. He sniffled and swayed on his feet again, tightening his grip on Katsuki’s hand. “Um- I feel dizzy…” He said quietly, and Katsuki laughed softly. He was about to make a joke about sweeping Eijirou off his feet when he realised that his friend’s face had paled, wearing a look of discomfort.
“Eijirou?” Katsuki’s brows knit together as he moved a hand to rest against the other's back, keeping him in place. “Do you want to sit down-”
“Oh my…” An amused voice came from the door and Katsuki’s head whipped to the side.
He had no trouble recognizing Recovery Girl at the door, her hand barely covering her wide smile. Katsuki just knew his ears were turning bright pink, especially when he noticed there was also some guy with purple hair and tired eyes right beside her; his brows were furrowed, lips curling into a snarl. The guy was clearly displeased to see him and Eijirou, and Katsuki was just about to tell him to fuck off, if it wasn't for Eijirou's barely audible, “I think I'm gonna throw up…”
“Tail guy hit him with his tail!” Katsuki yelled quickly, cringing internally at the choice of words and how desperate he sounded as he carefully helped Eijirou sit down.
Recovery Girl’s eyebrows shot up and she hurried towards Eijirou.
After a few questions and a quick check up, she had an actual diagnosis to share with them, “Just a mild concussion, nothing a little kiss won't fix.” She declared, to Katsuki’s horror.
Concussion.
It was so obvious. The stumbling, issues with volume regulation, the swaying- They literally learned about this in the Hero course!
Katsuki’s head slowly turned towards Eijirou, and he could pinpoint the exact moment the gears in his head clicked in place as his eyes widened with realisation.
Eijirou looked up at Katsuki, his mouth opening to say something, yet a wet kiss to his cheek from Recovery Girl interrupted him. Eijirou grimaced slightly, then yawned.
“All fixed. You can go back to class, although don't strain yourself physically for the rest of the day.” The nurse smiled at Eijirou as she patted his arm.
Eijirou stood up carefully, sniffling and grimacing a bit, as if he wanted to check if the pain was actually gone.
“Thank y-” he barely got out before Katsuki grabbed his hand, his own gloves, and all but ran outside, barely giving Eijirou a chance to grab his face guard off the cot.
“If I had a nickel…” The purple haired guy muttered as they walked past him and Katsuki could swear Eijirou snorted before muttering a hurried apology.
Katsuki didn't care about who he was, or what the fuck did that even mean, he just wanted to find a secluded place for him and Eijirou-
“Hey, Ba- Katsuki?” Eijirou started, and his voice was so careful and shy that Katsuki immediately stopped in the middle of one of many U.A. corridors.
Katsuki turned to him, still holding his hand, “What?”
“I-” Eijirou looked down at their joined hands, squeezing lightly while he visibly swallowed. “Did all that really just happen? Or was it my concu-”
Katsuki didn't let him finish. He dropped his gloves then held Eijirou’s face in his hands.
“I love you.” Katsuki stated, looking right into his eyes. There was absolutely no way they'd have another misunderstanding after all this.
Eijirou’s eyes widened along with his smile, showing off his sharp teeth right before going in for a bone crushing hug.
“Ei- ah!” he barely got out before he was picked up and Eijirou spun them twice in place, laughing loudly. Katsuki couldn’t help but laugh with him. “Holy fuck, stop, someone’s gonna hear us!”
With one last squeeze, Eijirou put him down.
“I love you, too!” He declared, loud and proud as he held onto Katsuki’s shoulders.
Katsuki, even though he bit down on his lip out of habit, still smiled. He was shaking slightly, warm emotions overwhelming him.
“You’re so manly and handsome and you have the most beautiful laugh and-”
Katsuki threw his arms around Eijirou’s neck, hugging him tightly.
“You're gonna give me a fucking heart attack.” Katsuki mumbled into his neck.
Eijirou let out a breathy chuckle as he circled his arms around Katsuki. “Says you.”
They stayed like that for a couple of minutes; Eijirou started rocking them in place a little bit, while Katsuki was revelling in the feeling of Eijirou’s pounding heart against his own chest, and he knew that they were both equally affected by the situation.
Nevertheless, Katsuki didn’t feel the need to comment on it. At that moment, he just wanted to melt in Eijirou’s affection and warmth.
“Your heart is so loud, bro.”
Katsuki rolled his eyes and pulled back. “Okay, first of all, do not call me ‘bro’ right after you confessed to me. Second, you’re literally having heart palpitations as we speak.” He poked Eijirou’s chest a few times.
Eijirou’s eyes softened. “... I can't believe we had our first kiss while I was concussed.” He said out of nowhere and Katsuki groaned.
“Well,” he placed a finger on Eijirou’s cheek, “If you hadn't tried to headbutt me-”
“I already told you!” Eijirou sounded defensive as he grabbed Katsuki’s hand, “I was trying to kiss you!” His eyebrows were pinched together, his lips in a pout and Katsuki wasn't sure if he wanted to kiss that stupid face or punch it.
He sighed tiredly as he took a step back.
“Alright, let me put it this way.” Katsuki pressed his hands together, leaning towards Eijirou, “You grabbed someone’s head, knowing that person has fucking PTSD and trauma around being touched without warning.”
Yes, he learned to talk like that from Sakamoto. And yes, he still had trouble using first person in those statements, sue him.
“And then, you made yet another sudden movement towards that person- and you're surprised that they reacted this way?!” Katsuki finished more aggressively than he intended to, with his arms thrown to sides and sparks going off, but he had a fucking point to make.
Which he quickly regretted when Eijirou looked down at the floor with an ashamed expression.
“... I'm so sorry…” He whispered, fiddling with the face guard in his hands. “I- I panicked. I guess I didn't really expect you to be there, and I didn't know what to say and… Yeah…” Eijirou shrugged awkwardly, refusing to meet Katsuki’s eyes.
Well, now Katsuki felt like an asshole.
He sighed again and approached Eijirou. He took the face guard from him and positioned it in front of his face, “May I?” Katsuki asked, and once Eijirou nodded and closed his eyes, Katsuki gently put it on his face.
The buckles clicked in place, the guard secured. Katsuki delicately pulled out the hair strands that Eijirou always styled to look like little horns on top of his forehead, even though they were a bit dishevelled at this point. Eijirou hummed happily.
Katsuki, pleased with his work, didn't remove his hands from Eijioru’s face. He looked at him for a few moments, admiring his flushed cheeks and shy smile. A grin of his own adorned his face when Eijirou nuzzled into the touch.
Katsuki carefully caressed his skin, slowly moving his hands to the back of Eijirou’s head, and running his fingers through red hair.
After a few precious moments of silence, Eijirou opened his eyes and took a step closer to Katsuki. “I uh..” He chuckled as his hands hovered awkwardly at Katsuki’s waist, “Is this okay..?”
Katsuki bit his lip, stopping himself from laughing at the question, because wasn't it obvious?
But he still nodded, giving Eijirou a silent permission. He could only imagine how bright his face and ears were as Eijirou placed careful hands on his waist. Katsuki could feel how warm they were, even through the thick material of his hero costume. He breathed slowly, fearing that he would collapse from the overwhelming sensation of Eijirou’s touch on him.
Eijirou seemed to be holding his own breath before he exhaled, “This is surreal.” he said giddily, squeezing Katsuki’s waist lightly.
Katsuki wasn't sure what to say to that.
After months of craving, it really did feel surreal to finally be able to be so close to Eijirou, without worrying about him finding out about his feelings, about crossing the lines and ridiculing himself.
This was surreal.
“This is… good.” Katsuki settled on, moving his hands to rest on Eijirou’s shoulders. He looked to the side as he continued, “Damn surreal. But good. Really good.” He nodded to himself while Eijirou chuckled.
“Smooth.” Eijirou grinned and poked him in the side.
Katsuki looked at him again, eyes lit up with challenge, “To finally be able to touch you, and to be touched by you, is a better feeling than using my Howitzer Impact.”
Eijirou’s eyes slowly widened as the grip on Katsuki’s waist tightened. Eijirou’s chest raised as he took a shaky breath, clearly trying to come up with something to say back, but as he opened his mouth, no sound came out.
“Smooth enough for you, Red?” Katsuki smirked, tugging lightly on Eijirou’s hair.
Eijirou just bit his lip and hugged him, hiding his face in the crook of Katsuki’s neck.
“You can't just say stuff like that.” Eijirou mumbled, making Katsuki bark out a satisfied laugh.
He was about to place his hands on Eijirou’s back when he remembered what his hero costume lacked. Katsuki cleared his throat awkwardly, then tapped his shoulder blade, “Um- You’re not wearing-” Eijirou took several steps back with a quiet yelp, hands raised in front of him, before Katsuki could finish.
They stared at each other for a few seconds, Eijirou’s face growing redder by the minute, and Katsuki knew he was in the same state.
Eijirou started rambling, doing a piss-poor job trying to cover himself with his half-cape, “I-I'm so sorry- God, this is embarrassing, I don't know what I was thinking, you obviously don't want to touch my naked-”
“It's fine.” Katsuki interrupted as he stopped Eijirou before he'd rip the material with his hardened fingers. “I don't care about- that.” He vaguely gestured at Eijirou’s chest. “I just… I just don't know if you, uh… Fucking hell- if you want to be touched and.. stuff.” He ended, feeling uncomfortable and self-conscious as he stared at the wall.
“... Oh.” Eijirou let out, and Katsuki had no idea what to make of it until Eijirou snorted. He looked back at his friend to see him shaking with amusement, “Bro, you just kissed me!” Eijirou ran his hand through his hair.
“Stop it with the bro thing!” Katsuki’s shoulders tensed up as he felt his face get warm, but all frustrations disappeared when he realised Eijirou’s grin wasn't a mocking one, but rather an image of endearment and joy.
“And here I was,” Eijirou continued as he took a step towards Katsuki, “All sad over a rejection that didn't even happen!” He took Katsuki’s hands into his, but where Katsuki was supposed to find reassurance, he was instead hit with a cold realisation.
For two days, Eijirou was convinced that Katsuki had rejected him. Probably in one of the worst ways possible. Those few minutes of heartbreak when he thought Eijirou rejected him were agonising. He couldn't- didn't want to imagine how Eijirou felt for two fucking days.
Katsuki must have pulled some sort of face, because Eijirou’s hands were on his cheeks in an instant, something that made him tense up again, but he managed to keep himself from jerking his head back.
Still, Eijirou's eyes widened and he pulled away, stepping back.
Once again, they stood in an awkward silence; Eijirou fiddling with the hem of his half-cape, Katsuki stretching out his stiff fingers, and both refusing to make eye contact.
Katsuki swallowed around his dry throat, “We've got a lot to talk about.” He said, crossing his arms.
“Yeah…” Eijirou whispered as he tried to relax his now hardened fingers. “I guess we need to get back before Aizawa sends someone to- Oh shit.”
Katsuki looked up from where he was staring at his gloves, still abandoned on the floor, and Eijirou’s face had paled significantly as he stood frozen in place. Katsuki approached him slowly, confusion only growing when Eijirou said with horror, “Kaminari.”
Katsuki furrowed his brows, trying to figure out what that guy had anything to do with anything, when he realised that he was there with Eijirou when he met them at his dorm door.
“He knew?!” Katsuki yelled with frustration, mad that someone who wasn't him found out first, but then, “... Fucking hell, figured Ashido knew as well…” He ran his fingers through his hair, sighing heavily.
“SHE KNEW?!” Eijirou was the one to yell this time, genuine irritation, maybe even anger, crossing his face as he bared his teeth, but it only took Katsuki's brows shooting up for Eijirou to calm down. “Shit- sorry, I'm just-”
“Mad that she didn't say you have feelings for me as well?” Katsuki provided as he walked closer to him. “Don't worry, she’s known about mine just for two fucking days.”
This seemed to ease Eijirou’s anger, but he still looked down, ashamed of his reaction, “... She's a good friend.” He muttered, and Katsuki smiled to himself, remembering her reaction when he suggested she told Eijirou about their conversation.
“So.. what do we say when we head back?” Eijirou asked, glancing up at Katsuki. “I uh.. I barely convinced Kaminari not to tell anyone you ‘rejected’ me…” He made exaggerated air quotes with his fingers, trying to lighten the mood, even though his brows were still drawn together with worry.
“God damn it…” Katsuki sighed, rubbing the bridge of his nose as he thought about what sort of a reaction everyone would have to them becoming… What, exactly? Were they boyfriends now? Partners? Lovers?
Katsuki grimaced slightly, crossing his arms. He looked at Eijirou, searching for something that would help him think, but that stupid, puppy-like worried expression was just distracting him instead.
“... Ashido wanted to talk to you during lunch period, she also thinks you tried to headbutt me.” He said, turning to the side. “I'll just tell her we agreed to talk tonight at the dorms.”
“Oh.” Eijirou let out, and Katsuki raised his brow at the disappointed tone.
“What?” He demanded, tilting his head as he put his hand on his hip.
“I thought we were gonna tell them right away?” Eijirou provided, unwavering under Katsuki’s glare.
“About what, Eijirou? We haven't exactly agreed on anything-” Katsuki bit his tongue when he saw the hurt on the other's face. “Fuck, no, that's not what I- Eijirou, that's why I wanted to talk about all this first.” He took Eijirou’s hands. “I'm.. I'm sorry.”
“No no, I'm sorry, I know you're a private person, but they've worried for me for so long, I just… God damn it, why is this so hard?” Eijirou leaned forward and rested his forehead against Katsuki’s.
He was so warm.
“We'll talk about us after school, okay? In my room?” Katsuki asked, squeezing Eijirou’s hands reassuringly.
“Us.” Eijirou’s whisper was filled with giddiness, and Katsuki fondly rolled his eyes.
“Eijirou.”
“Right. Yes. Your room, after school.” Eijirou straightened his back, but his happy flushed face once again took on a more worried look, “Wait, so do I still act like you rejected me?”
Katsuki clicked his tongue. He shifted his weight from one leg to another as he thought about it, staring at their joined hands. He swallowed an uncomfortable knot in his throat before he looked back at Eijirou, “I guess?” Katsuki shrugged.
It was obvious that Eijirou didn't like it. Katsuki wasn't a fan either, but he just needed a few days to get comfortable.
Oh, right. He could just say it. That's what Sakamoto would want him to do, to communicate.
“I don't want to listen to their teasing and jokes and other shit before we figure out the details of.. this.” He gestured awkwardly between them, his hand stiff, the other one tightened on Eijirou’s hand.
“Us and this.” Eijirou snorted, smiling wide as he swayed their joined hands.
Katsuki squinted his eyes as he pried his hand away and crossed his arms.
“I'm gonna give you another concussion-”
“I get it!” Eijirou was quick to assure, still grinning while he picked up Katsuki’s gloves from the floor. “Really, I get it. I'm so nervous right now, you have no idea.”
Katsuki allowed him to unfold his arms and watched as Eijirou put the gloves on his hands for him with ease, as if it wasn't the very first time he was doing this.
“I can't wait for the end of the classes.” Eijirou held Katsuki’s gloved hands as they locked gazes again.
“... We should seriously get going.” Katsuki spoke quietly, yet he didn't make a move.
“Would you-” Eijirou’s voice cracked and he cleared his throat, ”Before that… Iiiiii wouldn't mind getting a non-concussed… kiss..?” Eijirou's eyes flickered shyly to the side before he looked at Katsuki again, “Please?” He added in a whisper, his lips curling into a little smile that grew wider when Katsuki nodded, bit too eager as his stomach flipped thousand times per second.
Holy shit. He thought when Eijirou leaned forward, but as Katsuki was about to meet him halfway through, they heard approaching footsteps.
Katsuki took several steps back, almost colliding with a wall when one of the teachers came from around a corner. He felt bad, especially when he noticed how defeated Eijirou looked when he realised what happened, but Katsuki was not about to get caught being affectionate by some random-
“Midnight-Sensei! Hi! Hello!” Eijirou greeted awkwardly, arms stiff as he bowed to her politely.
Katsuki barely stopped himself from making a disgusted face at her presence; He absolutely despised this woman for what she'd done to him, and he was not about to have any sort of conversation with her.
Especially since she’s just interrupted their kiss.
“Oh, what are you boys doing here?” She asked with a wide smile and a curious tilt of her brow. “There's still a lot of time before this period ends.” Midnight cocked her hip to the side, her strained posture making Katsuki uncomfortable. He took several steps away from her, pulling his mask down while Eijirou explained what happened during their training.
“My, what is Eraserhead doing, making you guys train first thing after summer vacation.” She rolled her eyes fondly. “Well, be on your way, no slacking for young heroes, especially with Aizawa as their homeroom teacher.” She winked at Eijirou and Katsuki was ready to blow up her eyelids.
“Of course! Thank you!” Eijirou said unnecessarily loudly as he grabbed Katsuki’s hand and pulled him along through U.A. corridors.
They quickly made their way outside without another word. Truth be told, Katsuki wanted another chance at kissing Eijirou, but now they were out in the open, the windows of several classrooms overlooking their way to the training grounds. Anyone could see them, and so Katsuki pulled his hand back. Eijirou stopped walking and stared at Katsuki with a questioning expression.
Katsuki just shrugged and pointed with his chin at the school building, and Eijirou understood in an instant, sighing with defeat and resuming their quick walk.
They eventually made it to their destination of the mountain-like training grounds, huge doors to the building being the only thing separating the two of them from their classmates and teacher.
Katsuki took a deep breath before he faced Eijirou, “My room, after school.”
Eijirou nodded, then took a quick look around, and grabbed Katsuki’s hand. He gave it a reassuring squeeze, “See you later.” His smile faltered as he let go to open the heavy doors and slowly walked inside, Katsuki right behind him, his usual frown already plastered onto his face. He really hoped no one would notice how red it was.
The Bird Guy and Ashido were stepping out of the makeshift ring, probably done with their exercise, when Ashido noticed the two of them and pointed with a yelp that startled half of their classmates. She ignored them, though, and ran up to Eijirou, asking if he was okay, while stealing glances at Katsuki.
Aizawa slowly approached, asking Eijirou about his state, and while the rest of the class joined as well, worried and curious about their friend, Katsuki subtly started retreating. He leaned against a wall some distance away from the group, and watched Eijirou’s awkward smile and apologetic gestures. After a short lecture about focus, Aizawa sent Eijirou away to change into his uniform, telling him to sit out the rest of this period.
Katsuki’s eyes followed after Eijirou, and he had to bite back a smile when his friend glanced over his shoulder to steal a look at him. Katsuki really wished he could wave to him, smile at him… Stand up and go with him, but the doors closed behind Eijirou, and he was approached by Ashido. She was holding his gauntlets, one in each hand.
“Did you get a chance to talk?” She carefully placed the gauntlets down on the ground and sat down next to him.
Katsuki crossed his arms and glared down at her, “He had a fucking concussion, even if we did, we wouldn't get much out of that conversation.” Technically, it wasn't a lie. They still had to talk about the state of their relationship, but there was still a slight sting of guilt he felt over his words.
Ashido pouted, “Yeah, but you were gone for quite some time.” She pointed out, jabbing him in the side of his thigh.
He swatted at her hand, still glaring at her and then rolling his eyes when she stuck her tongue out at him.
Katsuki crouched down next to her with a huff, and after a quick look around to make sure everyone was focused on the pair currently in the ring, he turned to her, “You don't have to talk to him or Kaminari.” He announced, hoping that the statement was vague enough for her to not draw any conclusions from it.
Ashido leaned closer to him, pursing her lips as she squinted. “So you did talk about something.” She pointed at him, her finger closer to his face than he'd like.
It took everything to stop himself from swatting at her again, instead, he just sighed and fully sat down on the ground. “Yeah, and I'm going to figure that something out when I get a chance to talk to him after school. I don't need anyone butting in.” He stared at her pointedly, and while it seemed she wanted to say something at first, in a split second her expression changed into one of understanding.
“Alright.” Ashido nodded and then stood up, patting the material of her hero costume to get rid of dirt. “I'll leave you to it.” She smiled at him and walked off to join Jirou and Ponytail on the stands.
Katsuki wondered what kind of conclusion she came to. There were two options; Either she thought Katsuki still hadn't figured out Eijirou’s feelings and decided to confront him after classes himself, or that the two of them did figure each other out and needed time to talk privately.
Either way, he trusted her not to say anything to anyone.
Now, Katsuki just had to make sure not to combust until the end of the day.
___
Eijirou walked into the locker room and stood there, motionless, until a wobbly smile stretched his lips and tears filled his eyes. He crouched down, covering his face.
“Katsuki loves me.” He whispered to himself and laughed between hiccups and sniffles.
He was so stupid.
His fingers ghosted over his chapped lips.
As brief as their kiss was, Eijirou could still remember how soft Katsuki’s lips were, so much more than he could have ever imagined.
…
They kissed.
How long has Katsuki been in love with him? Why him, of all people? When did he realise he liked him? Would he be allowed to kiss him whenever? Hold his hand every day?
Eijirou had so many questions. Katsuki was right, they did have to talk about this before announcing anything to anyone.
Eijirou’s face hurt as his grin stretched even more. He finally stood up and walked up to his locker, and even though he was trying to focus on taking off his costume, he was still shaking with the overwhelming feelings of excitement and happiness.
Us and this, Katsuki said.
And Eijirou barely stopped himself from saying how cute he found it.
Damn, he barely stopped himself from just picking Katsuki up again and ditching classes.
“Ahhhh- calm down, calm down.” He fanned his burning face with both of his hands.
How the hell was he going to make it until the end of the day without spilling the beans to anyone, when he wanted to scream from the rooftops?
Eijirou noticed his phone in the locker.
A simple thought crossed his mind as he reached towards it; He could call his moms. Tell them what happened. They could give him some advice, maybe even encouragement…
No. Eijirou shook his head and reached for his white-collar uniform shirt instead. He was going to respect Katsuki’s wishes, they were going to talk first, and then-
Eijirou stilled, his arms raised with the shirt halfway down on his head.
Then what? He put on his shirt, smoothing down the material as he wondered about their future.
He figured it all depended on how the conversation would go, but would he be allowed to share the good news with his moms? With their friends? He didn't want to keep their relationship a secret, not in the long run…
Was there going to be a long run?
Eijirou dared to imagine them staying in a relationship throughout high school, then maybe they could move in together, then they could open a Hero Agency together, then Eijirou could propose, maybe on a hiking trip, and maybe-
“Okay. Breathe, Kirishima Eijirou.” He told himself and took several deep breaths. They just had their first kiss, and he was spiralling. In the weirdest, gayest way possible, and he wasn't sure if Katsuki even wanted to be called his boyfriend.
…
“Boyfriend.” Eijirou let out a silly giggle. He jumped in place several times and punched the air. He wanted to shake off the giddiness that made it impossible to function. To no avail, because how was he supposed to calm down when their feelings were mutual?
He wasn't unlovable, he didn't have terrible taste in men, and he was special.
He was so damn happy, he could cry.
At least, if he were to start crying, Kaminari would just assume he was still heartbroken.
Right, Kaminari.
Eijirou was against a very hard task of looking miserable while feeling the best he’s had in a while.
He has always worn his emotions on his sleeve, how was he supposed to just hide them? And from one of his best friends too? Not to mention that he would have to keep Kaminari from interacting with Ashido, who thought that Eijirou was trying to headbutt Katsuki.
Eijirou groaned at the memory and decided it'd be best to finish changing and go back.
He put on his uniform pants and shoes, carefully packed his hero costume, and quickly headed back to rejoin his class. He stepped through the door of the building and noticed Katsuki was in the ring, fighting against Shouji.
Eijirou tried his damn hardest to hide his joy; He clenched his fists, digging his hardened fingertips into his skin, and bit into his lip.
There was no way anyone could figure out what happened between them-
“Kirishima, you're staring at him…”
Eijirou flinched, and just then noticed Kaminari had walked up to him, expression contorted with worry and compassion.
“I uh-” Eijirou started, looking everywhere but at Katsuki or Kaminari. “Right. Sorry.”
“Hey, it's alright.” Kaminari assured him with a sympathetic smile and put a hand on his shoulder. “And I'm sorry, I wanted to go with you to Recovery Girl, but Bakugou kind of pushed me to the side when he volunteered.” He rolled his eyes, and Eijirou decided it was best to just stare at the ground.
He had to bite the insides of his cheeks to stop himself from laughing at the mental image of Katsuki shoving Kaminari aside.
Not to mention his blush, because Katsuki wanted to be the one to help him.
Kaminari cleared his throat and asked quietly, “Did you guys.. talk? Or something?” He kicked at the ground awkwardly, glancing between Eijirou and Katsuki.
Eijirou set his jaw and furrowed his brows, trying to come up with a lie, but Kaminari seemed to have taken this the wrong way because he was quick to put his hands on Eijirou’s shoulders, “I swear to God, if he gave you shit for-”
“No! No no no no no, absolutely not-” Eijirou half whispered and forced a laugh, “He uh, he just waited outside while I was with Recovery Girl!”
Eijirou hated lying to Kaminari like this, but he promised-
“Ah. I see.” Kaminari seemed both relieved and disappointed, his expression relaxed but there was still a certain strain to his posture.
Did he actually want to deck Katsuki? The idea alone made Eijirou snort. Kaminari raised a brow at him before crossing his arms. “... Are you sure nothing happened?”
“I- Not at all- like, dude, what do you want from me?” Eijirou stuttered and raised his hands, not sure what to do with them. He made what he hoped was a confused and just-enough-miserable face to get Kaminari off his case.
“It’s just- I don’t know! You’re just acting way different than before and maybe something did happen and you’re not telling me because you don’t want to bother me more, but I’m your friend and I’m just worried about you!” Kaminari flailed his hands around, and little sparks of electricity danced on his fingertips and hair.
Kaminari really was concerned about him, huh?
…
God damn it.
Eijirou set his jaw and straightened his back.
“I could burst into tears at any second, I really don’t want to talk about my interactions with Bakugou.” He spoke in a levelled tone without breaking eye-contact.
It wasn’t exactly a lie, he did feel like crying, but if it was from happiness, that was just for him to know.
His statement seemed to have worked though, because Kaminari visibly tensed up and muttered a quick apology.
“It’s okay…” Eijirou answered, equally quiet.
He was going to apologise after he and Katsuki had their little date.
Eijirou closed his eyes and held his breath.
Little date.
He couldn’t control the way he started shaking slightly, but thank God, Kaminari just took it as if Eijirou was really about to start crying.
“Do you need to step outside..?” Kaminari asked quietly, but Eijirou barely got a chance to shake his head when Aizawa called out that it was his friend’s turn in the ring.
Kaminari, panicked, took a step towards Aizawa but his eyes were still locked on Eijirou.
“I'm fine, go.” Eijirou gave him the best sad smile he could muster. He waited with bated breath as Kaminari kept looking at him, but then Aizawa called out once more and Kaminari hurried towards the ring.
That was when Eijirou realised that Katsuki was stepping out of said ring. Him and Kaminari exchanged looks as they walked past each other, and while Eijirou couldn't see Kaminari’s face, he noticed Katsuki raising a brow at him before frowning and looking away.
Eijirou knew he shouldn't, but he kept staring at Katsuki, who pointedly ignored him and just went to sit away from everyone else.
Eijirou sighed with disappointment. Sure, they were supposed to pretend Katsuki rejected him, but only Kaminari was convinced of that, everyone else still thought they were friends, no rejection, no kiss, no complicated things to be talked about.
He looked around and noticed Todoroki was staring at him. Eijirou really wanted to know what was going on through this guy’s head, considering the last time they talked, Eijirou was on his way to Katsuki’s room, and then just avoided everyone for the next two days.
It seemed like Todoroki was about to raise his hand, but whether it was to invite Eijirou over or to just wave at him, he wouldn't find out because Midoriya sat down next to him. In an instant, all of Todoroki’s attention was on him, and Eijirou was forgotten about.
Eijirou watched the pair as he slowly approached the stands; It seemed like Midoriya had gotten over his prior awkwardness, gesturing with his usual excitement as he talked about something, while Todoroki nodded along, his face adorned by a little smile. Eijirou couldn't help but feel happy for him.
As he sat down, Eijirou decided it'd be best to focus on his initial plan; pretending he was perfectly fine in front of his friends while avoiding Katsuki.
He just hoped he wouldn't combust by the end of the day.
___
Eijirou wanted nothing more than for the day to just end already.
Yet there he was, stuck in class, only half way through this never ending day.
Maybe all this would be easier if he wasn't sitting in a perfect spot to look at Katsuki all the time, constantly distracted as he kept staring at his best friend-maybe-boyfriend?
He pretended to write in his notebook just in time for Ectoplasm to walk past him talking about the new material they'd need to cover. All teachers seemed to be focusing on the organisational stuff for the new semester, which was a relief, as Eijirou was unable to focus on anything that wasn't Katsuki.
He couldn't understand how Katsuki was able to keep himself together like this. He hasn't acknowledged Eijirou a single time since this morning or shown any of that adorable awkwardness as when he talked about their relationship. No. To Eijirou’s frustration, Katsuki was just on his phone the entire time whenever he didn't have to focus on the lectures.
Eijirou sighed with relief when the bell rang, announcing lunch period. He was about to stand up when his phone buzzed in his pocket.
He took it out and bit his lower lip to stop himself from gasping out loud.
Katsuki: Are you the one staring at me??
Eijirou glanced up at Katsuki, hoping he would finally look his way, but he was stubbornly staring at the phone in his hand.
Eijirou: … yeah
Katsuki: stop that
Why was he acting so unbothered?
Eijirou was tired of hiding his happiness, and feeling like he was the only one who was overwhelmed by feelings, so he typed out a response. Even though it made him feel corny, he actually stood by it.
And maybe, just maybe, he wanted to mess with Katsuki.
Eijirou made sure no one was paying any attention to him and looked up as he hit send, not wanting to miss even a second of Katsuki’s reaction.
___
Katsuki sucked in a breath as the answer from Eijirou appeared on his screen.
Eijirou: but you're so pretty :((((
His shoulders immediately went up to his ears, which he knew had turned a deep shade of pink.
What the fuck what the fuck what the fuck-
He had to calm down, or he'd be in need of a new phone.
While trying to stop shaking, he put down the phone and wiped his sweaty palms on his pants. He really didn't want to draw any attention to himself.
What the fuck was Eijirou thinking? Sending him a message like that while they're both in a classroom, surrounded by people??
And fucking-
Katsuki clenched his teeth.
Pretty???
He wasn't pretty.
Was Eijirou trying to mess with him?
Or did he actually think Katsuki was-
“Baku~!”
Katsuki flinched and froze. He hadn't realised that Ashido walked up to him.
“What?” He hissed, staring daggers up at her.
“What gotcha’ all tense?” She raised a brow at him, hand on a hip.
“Fucking nothing.” Katsuki hissed once again as he tried and failed to relax in his seat.
“Suuuure, sure.” She nodded slowly before she leaned down towards him and simply asked, “Want to grab lunch with me, Jirou and Momo?”
Who the fuck is Momo? Katsuki almost asked, but then followed where Ashido pointed and noticed Jirou standing with Ponytail. He was quick to connect the dots that Momo was Yaomomo.
She was talking to Jirou, hiding her laughter behind her hand, then she looked at him for a moment, all smiles and waves, before returning to her conversation.
“Baku?” Ashido tilted her head and Katsuki blinked at her a few times, thoughts disturbed. “I can always tell them I've changed my mind.” She provided in a lowered tone.
Katsuki was about to agree, when he remembered that he'd be surrounded by a lot of people in the cafeteria.
A lot of people who still blamed him for moving into the dorms, people who blamed him for All Might losing his quirk.
While Katsuki knew it wasn't actually his fault, he wasn't quite ready to face all those people. Not like this.
"I'll pass." Katsuki stated, looking off to the side with furrowed brows.
"Oh.. Are you sure?" Ashido looked at him with concern.
Katsuki looked over her shoulder, at the doors to their classroom that were slid open. There were already plenty of students out there, heading to the cafeteria, and he could only imagine the sea of extras he'd have to face once he'd get there.
"I'm sure. I'll just go and make myself something in the dorm’s kitchen." He shrugged and leaned on his hand.
Ashido stared at him for a few more seconds before she sighed quietly, “You know where to find us.” She gave him another smile and went to join Jirou and Ponytail, the three of them quickly leaving the classroom.
Katsuki took a deep breath, then allowed himself to subtly look in Eijirou’s direction, but his friend was already gone from his seat. Upon further inspection he noted Kaminari and Sero were gone as well. He was quick to realise that they must have gone to have lunch in the cafeteria themselves.
Almost all of his classmates left the room, aside from the Bird Guy and Octopus and two others he didn't really even have nicknames for.
Katsuki decided to wait a few more minutes until the corridors would empty up a bit more and leaned back in his seat. He poked at his phone and the thoughts of Eijirou’s message came back. He could feel his heart speeding up.
Pretending that nothing was happening was one of his stupidest ideas, but at the same time, he knew it was the best course of action. For the moment, at least.
Just until the end of the day.
___
Katsuki thought he was pretty lucky when he didn’t encounter anyone on his way to the dorms, as well as when he found himself alone in the common area and the kitchen or on his way back.
But of course his luck would run out just as he was about to enter his classroom. Because some annoying blond guy approached him, yelling obnoxiously about the camp and Class B’s superiority.
Katsuki squinted at him, because didn’t most of that class get knocked out by the gas? He genuinely tried to remember, tuning the guy out, until one particular comment made his blood boil.
“-AND you got yourself kidnapped? Seriously, just how inferior this class of yours can get?”
Katsuki’s palms heated up and he took a step towards him, “You fucking bitch-”
“Monoma! Stop that right now.” A girl with orange hair ran up to them. She grabbed the asshole’s shoulder, but just as she was about to pull him away, something slammed into the wall between his and Katsuki’s faces.
Katsuki froze, blinking in shock. The blond guy fell onto his ass, staring up with fear and Katsuki took several steps back to better analyse what had happened.
He slowly took in the sight in front of him; There was a hand stuck in the wall, splintered with hardening, as pieces of plaster fell to the floor. Katsuki’s gaze followed up the hardened arm, and up to Eijirou’s face and hair, quirk activated while he panted heavily, looking back at Katsuki.
“Are you… okay?” Eijirou’s words were just clear enough to understand as he spoke through hardened lips.
Katsuki swallowed and nodded. He barely contained a smirk because holy fuck, he loved this badass idiot so much.
What’s-his-name gasped and scrambled to his feet, creating a safe distance between them. “ARE YOU INSANE?!” He screamed before the girl slapped him on the back of head with her suddenly large hand, causing him to pass out.
“I’m so sorry about him.” She bowed and picked him up by his shirt as if he were a cat.
What the fuck-
“Kirishima, are you crazy?! Aizawa’s gonna kill you!” Kaminari ran up to them, out of breath.
“Ah.” Eijirou’s face unhardened, and he stared at his hand, still stuck in the wall, as if confused how it got there in the first place.
“Don’t ah me!” Kaminari punched him in the shoulder.
Katsuki was still trying not to grin at Eijirou’s actions.
Usually, he would get mad at anyone trying to ‘defend’ him. But this was Eijirou. And seeing him get so worked up over a few words of some idiotic extra made him excited and all fluttery inside.
Not to mention he couldn't have possibly heard too much of the bullshit the guy was spewing.
“And what are you so happy about?!” Kaminari addressed Katsuki who felt like a deer caught in the headlights.
Shit, did he actually smile?
“Five seconds to explain.” Aizawa appeared out of nowhere, right behind Eijirou, who yelped and yanked his hardened hand out of the wall.
More plaster fell to the floor.
“... Principal’s office. Now.”
___
Eijirou got detention.
Well, technically. He was to vacuum and mop the entire common area of their Height’s Alliance, as well as clean the kitchen after classes, which meant that his and Katsuki’s talk was postponed until Eijirou would finish.
The only bright side was that that asshole, whose name Katsuki had already forgotten, was to do the same in Class B’s dormitory.
Katsuki opened a fridge and took out a pudding that Ashido got for him from the cafeteria. He opened the lid and started eating, closing the fridge with his hip, as he observed Eijirou. He was all the way on the other side of the common area, vacuuming like a madman, at an almost impossible pace.
Something was telling him that he should just go to his room and wait for Eijirou there, that he shouldn't stare at him like this. But since neither Ashido nor Kaminari were present in the common area, he decided he could indulge himself for a moment. After all, no one else really knew about Eijirou’s failed attempt at confessing, or their stupid misunderstanding that lasted two days too long.
Or weeks.
… Months?
Katsuki leaned against the kitchen island. He knew exactly when he realised how he felt, yet had no idea what was the case for Eijirou.
Someone tripped over the vacuum’s cable and accidentally turned it off. Eijirou’s yell of frustration was accompanied by Sero's mocking laugh.
Katsuki ate some pudding in order to cover up his smile.
He couldn't wait to find out.
But he didn't have time to ponder more about it. He could feel someone's eyes on him, and when he turned, he glared at Todoroki.
“The fuck you're looking at?” Katsuki snapped at him, shoving his spoon into the cup.
Todoroki just continued staring at him, to Katsuki’s rising irritation.
“... The chocolate one was for me.” Katsuki tried through clenched teeth. Ashido did say something about getting puddings for a few other people as well.
Todoroki took a step closer and squinted at him.
Katsuki’s annoyance quickly turned into uncomfortable confusion and he picked his pudding up defensively.
“Okay, what the hell-”
“I don't know what I can say.” Todoroki declared, still squinting as he put his hand against his chin.
Katsuki blinked at him, eyebrows drawn in confusion. “I… What?” He put down the cup.
Todoroki squinted even more.
Then he turned his head and stared for a few seconds, right at Eijirou.
There was no fucking way-
Todoroki looked back at him, eyed him from head to toes, closed his eyes and nodded slowly.
Katsuki took a step back as realisation hit him.
Todoroki somehow knew about them.
Katsuki’s irritation returned tenfold when Todoroki opened his eyes and gave him a thumbs up.
“You're such a fucking weirdo.” Katsuki grabbed his half empty pudding and walked past Todoroki, who was following him with his eyes but didn't say nor do anything.
Katsuki quickly headed up the stairs.
This was just another thing on the long list of stuff he would have to talk about with Eijirou.
___
Katsuki was pacing around his room anxiously. It's been over an hour at this point, and he was running out of things to do. He cleaned about every corner in his room, did his homework, rearranged his books… Anything to keep himself busy and not think about his upcoming conversation with Eijirou.
Damn, he even scheduled his next therapy session.
Hizoku, Sakamoto’s assistant, e-mailed him asking about his availability, and whether he'd prefer to meet in person or through a video call. He chose video call, of course, with the new semester and all that.
He'd be lying if he said he wasn't excited about sharing the news with his therapist, but first he wanted to actually have news to share.
Katsuki groaned with frustration before he unfolded and folded back a few of his shirts.
How long does it take to clean a fucking kitchen-
There were very loud, very quick footsteps coming from the corridor, and then several knocks resounded on his door. Katsuki didn't freeze from panic for once, knowing damn well who that was.
Katsuki hurried to open the door, and there he was.
Eijirou.
There were water stains on his shirt, he even had some foam from dish-soap on it. But there he was. Shaking with anticipation, out of breath, red in the face.
Eijirou swallowed and smiled so wide, Katsuki wondered how his face hadn't cracked already.
Still smiling, he opened his mouth, but before he could utter a word, Katsuki grabbed his hand and pulled him inside his room. Eijirou was the one to lock the door behind him with his free hand.
Then it was silent.
Eijirou slowly turned to him, squeezing his hand. He was still out of breath, although it seemed like he was calming down, the raise of his chest slower and slower.
His face was illuminated by Katsuki’s night lamp, the warm light complimenting his red hair.
Katsuki noticed that some bubbles of soapy water were stuck in his mostly loose hair, and wondered how the hell did they stay on if Eijirou ran all the way to Katsuki’s room.
“There's some..” Katsuki swallowed and reached up with his free hand. He brushed lightly at the tiny bubbles, making them pop, and when he was about to lower his hand, Eijirou leaned into the touch.
Eijirou smiled as he looked into Katsuki’s eyes, “Hi,” he whispered.
Katsuki brushed away some loose strands from Eijioru’s face. “Hi…”
He drew a quick breath when he realised what he was doing and pulled back his hand.
Eijirou leaned forward as he tried to follow Katsuki’s hand, “Wha-”
“My hands are sweaty. And gross.” He said, yet made no move to let go of Eijirou’s hand. “And we should.. talk.” Katsuki’s chest felt tight, his head empty. He knew he should move to sit down somewhere, to have a proper conversation with Eijirou, but his feet were glued to the floor.
Katsuki stared at their joined hands, trying to come up with a single coherent thought. He noticed that Eijirou's wrist was hardened, and wondered if he was trying his best to stop his quirk from activating in his hands as well.
“I don't think they're gross…” Eijirou whispered and intertwined their fingers. “I.. um… where should we start?”
… God damn it, Katsuki should have come up with the conversation plan instead of organising his stupid books from biggest to smallest.
How come everything seemed so easy this morning? It felt so natural to touch Eijirou, to be touched by him, to hug him, to smile at him and look him in the eyes.
“Katsuki, if you need time-”
“No!” Katsuki snapped and glared at Eijirou. “Shit, sorry, I mean- I want to talk now.” He looked away and took a step back.
Eijirou let go of his hand and started fiddling with his own fingers.
“If it helps…” Eijirou said just above a whisper, “I'm also not sure where to start.” He shrugged with a sheepish smile. “There's so much going through my head, I can't focus on one thing.”
Katsuki actually snorted at that, “Well, lucky you! My head is completely empty.”
“Oh, usually I'm the one with no clever ideas.” Eijirou teased with a smile, making Katsuki laugh and relax.
What was he so worried about?
This was Eijirou.
His best friend who loved him back.
Katsuki inhaled shakily and braced himself. He took a few steps towards Eijirou, who was staring at him with anticipation, and just allowed himself to walk into his personal bubble.
He rested his head on Eijirou’s shoulder as he linked their fingers once again. He felt Eijirou nuzzle into his hair, then his free hand gently brushed Katsuki’s back, a slow up and down that sent goosebumps through his body. With a light push, Eijirou encouraged Katsuki to press into him more. With hesitation, Katsuki circled his arms around Eijirou’s back, pressing their bodies together as much as he could while clutching the material of the other's shirt.
He felt almost desperate, almost pathetic with how much he craved this closeness, but, as always, Eijirou was quick to make him feel better.
“I like this...” Eijirou whispered into his ear as he returned the tight hug, enveloping Katsuki in that pleasant warmness of his.
Katsuki only hummed in response.
“... Makes me feel special.” Eijirou admitted with a shy chuckle that Katsuki felt in his chest.
“... You are.” Katsuki said quietly and Eijirou gasped. “After all, I deserve the best.”
Eijirou stayed silent, but Katsuki still caught an almost silent sniffle.
“Eijirou.. come on…” Katsuki smiled, rubbing his back.
“You just say stuff like that…” Eijirou wiped his face.
“Yeah, I… I almost can't believe I'm able to say this to you at all.”
“Right? Because you’re emotionally stunted, as Todoroki put it.” Eijirou chuckled, but Katsuki frowned.
___
Eijirou chuckled at the memory, but the way Katsuki straightened his back and pulled away was enough to make him realise he has somehow screwed up.
“... Right. Todoroki.” Katsuki’s voice turned sour. “I guess.. I guess we can start with that.” He said as he walked to his bed. He sat down at the edge and patted the empty space next to him.
Eijirou wasn’t going to argue and he quickly found himself sitting next to Katsuki. He made sure to keep some distance between them as he pulled one of his legs underneath him, facing Katsuki who sat with both of his feet on the floor.
Maybe he shouldn't have said that? After all, calling your almost-boyfriend emotionally stunted-
“I don't like you going behind my back.” Katsuki declared, staring right at him.
Oh. That's where he screwed up. Right.
“Like when you investigated my face blindness and then the whole thing with Aizawa…” Katsuki continued, “And now it turns out everyone knew about your feelings towards me, but me.”
“Oh, no, no no no no-” Eijirou was more than eager to explain. “The only people I actually told were Kaminari, Ashido and Sero. Others kinda already thought we were… Together…” Eijirou focused his eyes on the wrinkles on Katsuki’s blanket. “Um.. Todoroki was convinced we're keeping our relationship a secret, and I think other people might think so, too? I'm not sure.” He wasn't about to mention Midoriya.
“I see…”
Eijirou looked up at Katsuki. He was staring at his hands, clenching and unclenching them slowly.
“... I don't want to keep our relationship secret.” Katsuki raised his gaze. “But I want to get used to it, first. If that's okay?”
Eijirou smiled with a nod. “Yeah, of course.”
He knew damn well Katsuki was being honest with him, that he wasn't ashamed of him or some other ridiculous reason.
“But if we're going to be… partners. Or boyfriends or whatever-” Katsuki drew in a sharp breath. “I don't want you going behind my back. About anything. Ever.”
Eijirou nodded, meeting Katsuki’s eyes, unwavering under intense gaze.
“It's frustrating. Because both times it turned that you were fucking right to do so.” Katsuki moved closer to him.
“Just because it turned out okay, doesn't mean it was right to do.” Eijirou's brows knitted together as he reached for Katsuki’s hand.
Katsuki was right. Especially that both Aizawa and his ma’ reprimanded him about investigating Katsuki’s face blindness.
“I don't regret it, though.” He admitted, brushing Katsuki’s skin with his thumb. “It kind of got us here, right?” He let out a quiet laugh.
Katsuki hummed and leaned closer. “Yeah…” He breathed out, and then flicked Eijirou’s nose.
“Hey-”
“Never do that again.” Katsuki drilled his finger into Eijirou’s ribs.
“Ouch, okay, I promise!” Eijirou laughed with a shriek, unable to keep a straight face. “Please stop-”
Katsuki actually listened. He pulled his hand back and crossed his arms over his chest.
Eijirou took a moment to collect himself, taking deep breaths, then slowly raised his eyes to look at Katsuki.
He was looking at him with the softest smile Eijirou has ever seen on him. Katsuki’s eyes were gentle, half-lidded as he watched Eijirou.
Ah. He loved him so much.
“So.. um…” This question has been on his mind for the entire day.
It made the butterflies in his stomach act up.
It made him embarrassed and excited, given that he knew the answer.
“Would you like to be my boyfriend?”
Katsuki’s grin widened and he laughed, the giddy sound was like heaven for Eijirou’s ears. Katsuki covered his mouth with one hand after he snorted, seemingly unable to stop laughing.
But he nodded.
It took Eijirou an embarrassingly long moment to realise what the gesture meant, still distracted by Katsuki’s hearty laughter.
Then it dawned on him.
“Y-yeah?” His eyes widened and he placed his hand on Katsuki’s knee.
Katsuki nodded again.
“Yes?” Eijirou wanted to cry.
Katsuki finally uncovered his face. “Yes, fuck yes, obviously.” He laughed again, placing his hand on Eijirou's chest, and Eijirou smiled impossibly wide, his face hurting.
“I want to be your boyfriend, too!” Eijirou yelled, unable to control the volume of his voice as he squeezed Katsuki’s hand.
Katsuki smirked, “Again, obviously.” He teased, but it was so clear that he was just as excited about the development of their relationship as Eijirou. “Otherwise it would be very awkward since I told you I’m in love with you.” He rolled his eyes, but again, he had that wonderful, pleased smile stretching across his lips.
Eijirou felt so lucky and so in love.
“So when did you realise you're madly in love with me?” Katsuki asked, grinning slyly like a fox.
Eijirou tensed up at that.
“Ah.. that…” He coughed awkwardly and stared down at their joined hands with heat growing on his face. He didn't need long to recall the memory.
“Do you remember when we had that argument? When I made that stupid joke about your face blindness?” He still felt bad about it. “And after you finally approached me again I started infodumping about myself to you?” Eijirou intertwined their fingers.
He swallowed nervously when Katsuki smirked, “Of course, Libra boy.”
Eijirou chuckled at that, then continued, “You laughed at my reasoning. And it was the first time I heard you laugh so honestly, and I wanted nothing more than to listen to that sound every day for the rest of my life.” He squeezed Katsuki’s hand and smiled warmly.
Katsuki’s smirk disappeared, replaced by a baffled expression, wide eyed with parted lips.
“That- there's no fucking way- you did not.” Katsuki poked Eijirou on the forehead with his free hand, causing him to chuckle.
“Well, yeah, not immediately.” Eijirou scooted closer to Katsuki and placed his face in the crook of his neck, embarrassed by what he was about to say. “But at night I found myself unable to sleep. All I could think about was you and how wonderful your laughter was, loud as thunder, clear as day… I felt so special for being allowed to hear it because it meant you were comfortable with me. Enough to let me hear it and enough to let me touch you and to talk to you... It meant you trusted me. And I realised I liked you, a lot, and I was still hurting after Nogashira so it wasn't the happiest of realisations I've ever had…”
Eijirou felt Katsuki’s arms close around him and he realised he'd done the same at some point during his speech.
They stayed like that for a few silent minutes. Katsuki moved his hand and was running his fingers through Eijirou’s hair, causing pleasant shivers to go down his spine.
“I realised I was in love with you after you screamed bloody murder at me.” Katsuki declared and Eijirou had to pull away to see his expression, to make sure he was actually serious.
“What?” He chuckled, but the smile disappeared from his face when he saw just how nervous Katsuki got over this confession. “When- after the Midoriya thing..?” Eijirou tensed up when Katsuki sent him a glare, but it only made him all the more confused, because when-
“After the support gear fiasco.” Katsuki reminded him and Eijirou’s brows shot up.
“Wait- when I screamed at you and tore your uniform??” He couldn't believe it.
And then he still couldn't believe it when Katsuki nodded, avoiding eye contact.
“I've been having a lot of thoughts about you- about us already, but I didn't really believe what I was feeling until I realised you weren't scared of me and that you really cared about me.” Katsuki held Eijirou’s hands, eyes fixated on them. “I like that you're not afraid to scream at me like that, to call me out on my bullshit.” There was that strange fondness in Katsuki’s expression. “I guess I like it when you show how assertive you can be.” Katsuki snorted and nudged his shoulder with his fist.
“It took me a lot to become like that.” Eijirou admitted quietly as he looked down.
“And here you are, unwavering and manly.”
Eijirou bit down on his lower lip that threatened to wobble.
He was not going to cry-
“But you're also a liar, you know that, right?” Katsuki added suddenly.
Eijirou looked up at him with confusion, one eyebrow raised.
Katsuki leaned closer to him, and spoke softly, slowly. “You said you're average, but you're the most beautiful and handsome person I've ever seen.” Piercing eyes were staring right into Eijirou’s soul. “I still remember thinking about how fucking gorgeous you are, how I wanted to just constantly stare at your face and just ignore everyone else, and how glad I was to be able to recall it whenever I wanted. After everything, I just memorised every detail of your stupidly attractive face.”
Eijirou released a shaky breath.
Katsuki closed his eyes, “I know that your scar stops exactly half-way to your eyebrow, that your nose wrinkles when you smile just wide enough, that your eyelashes are so thick and long, it looks like you're wearing makeup all the time.” Katsuki smiled, eyes still closed. “They frame your big, soft eyes fucking perfectly. Your lips always have tiny cuts from when you're chewing on them, you should start using lip balm, by the way.”
Eijirou choked out a laugh at that.
He was trembling from the overwhelming happiness and embarrassment.
How could Katsuki just say something like this?
Then he realised something.
“Y-you didn't fall for my looks.” He stuttered a bit.
It was so obvious. And yet it didn't occur to him until this very moment.
Katsuki opened his eyes. “Well, it's still good to know that I have the best looking boyfriend.”
Eijirou leaned closer to Katsuki and placed his forehead on his shoulder.
It was so easy for him to say. He was so sure of his words, like it was the only truth that existed.
And it was, to Katsuki.
Eijirou wasn't about to argue with him.
“You're so pretty.” Eijirou said with slight amusement, already knowing the answer.
Katsuki cleared his throat, “If you say so.”
“The prettiest, and the manliest, and the strongest.” Eijirou continued, as he leaned back, observing Katsuki’s embarrassed face as he stared off to the side.
“Damn right I am.” Katsuki declared, even though he still refused to meet Eijirou’s eyes.
It was kind of funny, how Katsuki was able to shove all those compliments down Eijirou's throat, yet whenever he was on the receiving end, he would get all shy. Dismissive even.
Just then, Eijirou remembered what happened during their trip.
“We almost kissed at I-Island, and then acted like nothing happened.” Eijirou wasn't sure if he wanted to cry or laugh at that memory.
“... Yeah…” Katsuki breathed out, rubbing circles with his thumb on Eijirou’s hand. “I'm sorry, we should've had a normal conversation about this. But I was an idiot and wanted to protect our friendship.”
Eijirou sighed with fondness, because he allowed Katsuki to act like nothing happened. After all, he wanted the same thing.
“I get it…” Eijirou gave him an understanding smile.
Katsuki didn't smile, though, and when he spoke again, his voice was strained, “I wanted to tell you how I feel at the end of the camp.”
Eijirou froze, his smile dropping.
Oh.
…
Oh.
His vision got blurry and he sniffled.
He hiccuped, and he felt like a child for having a reaction of this sort but he just couldn’t help it. He squeezed his eyes shut, trying to prevent more tears from falling.
“Ei… no, please…” Katsuki put a hand on his cheek, wiping his tears away. “You too, huh?”
Eijirou nodded, unable to speak.
Katsuki laughed softly, “We're so stupid.” He said quietly.
Eijirou released a wet chuckle and nodded again.
“Sorry, it's just-” he sniffled loudly, “It's been a really long couple of days.” He explained awkwardly in a wobbly voice, tears still falling down his face.
Katsuki slowly stood up, as to not startle Eijirou, grabbed a pack of tissues from his school bag and handed the pack to him. Eijirou accepted it with a grateful smile and cleaned his face as best as he could.
If Katsuki took one tissue for himself, Eijirou wasn't about to comment on it.
Eijirou blew his nose one last time before Katsuki spoke up, “... I'm sorry I reacted like that.”
Eijirou looked up at him, confused.
Katsuki swallowed, crossed his arms and continued while staring at the floor, “When you tried to- kiss me. Even if I didn't realise that, I shouldn't have reacted the way I did. I made-” his voice cracked, and he finished much quieter, “I made you think that I didn't love you.”
Eijirou gently tugged on the hem of Katsuki’s shirt, “It's alright now…”
“I hurt you.” Katsuki insisted with a pained expression, eyes closed. “I don't want to be the reason you're hurting.”
“I promise, you're not.” Eijirou assured him. “It was a stupid misunderstanding.”
Katsuki nodded, then opened his eyes and spoke with sincerity in them. “I really like it when you touch me. I love your hugs, and I love holding your hand. I just need… you know.”
“I do know. That's why I should have talked to you, instead of just grabbing you like that.”
“It's okay, now.” Katsuki took a step closer to Eijirou. He stood between his legs as he cupped Eijirou’s cheeks.
“... I'm sorry for almost head-butting you.” Eijirou added as a joke and he smiled when Katsuki snorted.
“Oh, so you admit you were trying to head-butt me?”
They laughed together, and the tense atmosphere cleared.
All this time, all they needed to do was talk.
Katsuki brushed away some hair strands from Eijioru’s forehead with a warm smile, and God, Eijirou really wanted to kiss that beautiful face.
Right, he could just ask.
“... Is it okay if I kiss you?” He looked up at Katsuki who tensed up.
Slowly, their eyes met, and Eijirou noticed that Katsuki’s jaw was clenched tightly as he withdrew his hand.
Katsuki, after a second of hesitation, sat back on the bed, facing Eijirou.
Eijirou’s chest was tight with anticipation, and he realised he was holding his breath when Katsuki scooted closer with half-lidded eyes.
Katsuki tilted his head, looking at him expectantly.
Oh. Right.
Eijirou swallowed nervously. He raised his hand and carefully touched Katsuki’s jaw, then reluctantly slid his hand up his cheek, feeling butterflies in his stomach when Katsuki touched his hand and nuzzled into his palm.
Right.
Eijirou exhaled through his nose, and when he slowly moved towards Katsuki, who closed his eyes, he planted a kiss on his cheek instead.
It was a small, brief touch of his lips against Katsuki’s warm skin.
Eijirou leaned back, and Katsuki was staring at him, wide-eyed.
“I- You- you missed.” Katsuki stuttered, and the lovely shade of pink went all the way down his neck and disappeared behind the hem of his shirt.
Did he even realise how much he was blushing?
Then again, Eijirou knew for a fact he was in the same state, if not worse.
Eijirou chuckled, then yelped, embarrassingly loud, as Katsuki grabbed him by the back of his neck and brought them closer together.
Their noses were touching when Katsuki spoke in a mildly threatening tone, “Do not fucking tease me.”
Eijirou could only laugh at his reaction, because even though Katsuki wanted to seem intimidating, he instead looked adorable. So determined to be kissed again and so mad that he wasn't.
And Eijirou himself caused that.
Katsuki wanted to be kissed by him.
And who the hell was he to decline?
Eijirou smiled as he gently cupped Katsuki's face. The angry scowl disappeared, and the hand on Eijirou’s nape relaxed.
Katsuki’s eyes grew unsure, “... Is it weird how much I want you to kiss me?”
Eijirou shook his head. “No, I'm pretty sure I'll explode if I don't get to kiss you like, right now.”
What was stopping him, really? Was he waiting for that extra reassurance? Permission?
“Then what are you waiting for, Red?” Katsuki raised a brow at him with a smirk.
Oh. That's what he was waiting for.
___
Katsuki had about half a second to recognize a spark of challenge in Eijirou’s eyes before he was pulled in for a kiss.
At first, it was almost uncomfortable, but when Katsuki lightly tugged on Eijirou’s hair, he relaxed. The hard pressure turned into a careful press of chapped lips. It was awkward, although tender and warm, and Katsuki wouldn't trade it for anything else in the entire world. Eijirou pulled back for a second, to take a breath, and he was immediately kissing him again, deeper this time, longer.
Katsuki’s fingers tangled in Eijirou’s hair, his other hand wrinkling the material of Eijirou’s shirt on his chest.
Eijirou kissed one corner of his lips, then the other, and Katsuki pushed forward, eager for more as he caught Eijirou's bottom lip between his own. Eijirou hummed happily and pulled away, to Katsuki’s irritation.
His face was flushed and eyes unsure. “Was this oka-”
Katsuki pulled him by the collar, chasing his lips, and laying back on the bed their chests were pressed together. Their teeth clashed awkwardly, but that didn't stop Katsuki from enjoying the weight of Eijirou’s warm body on his.
He moved his hands over Eijirou’s collarbones and around his neck, holding him close, and Eijirou didn't waste time either. His hands went down the sides of Katsuki’s body, sending waves of sparks through it. He felt Eijirou’s fingers dig into his waist and hip, pulling him impossibly closer, and Katsuki smiled against Eijirou’s lips at the possessive gesture.
Eijirou’s teeth caught on his bottom lip because of that, and Katsuki hissed, then Eijirou’s tongue lightly lapped over his sensitive skin, as if apologetic.
“You’re so- you’re so sweet.” Eijirou whispered breathlessly against his lips. “How are you so sweet?”
Katsuki kissed him again, “Don’t know,” and again, “Don't care.”
There was definitely an answer to that. It was just that their brains were mush, and neither could focus on a single thing that wasn’t kissing.
Eijirou left a longing kiss on his lips, then traced kisses along his jaw and down his neck, just because he felt like it and Katsuki had no intentions of stopping him.
Katsuki loved the touch of Eijirou’s lips, he loved how his hands were tightened on his waist, he loved the little nibbles of his teeth, he loved the hair tickling his cheek and his earthy smell and warmness and his deep hazy eyes that looked up at him with adoration.
“I love you.” Katsuki’s small words made Eijirou’s breath hitch and they heard material ripping.
Wide-eyed, they looked down and realised that Eijirou had hardened his fingers and tore Katsuki’s shirt on both sides.
Damn. Kissing ruled.
Eijirou started apologising profusely, babbling on and on about getting him a new shirt, but Katsuki just laughed, and Eijirou snapped his mouth shut.
“You're a fucking animal.” Katsuki couldn’t stop laughing as he pushed Eijirou off of him and tried to get up from the bed, to no avail. He snorted and coughed, holding onto his stomach, and he was aware the sounds he was making were gross, to say the least, but he still couldn't get a hold of himself.
The boy he fell in love with felt the same way about him and ripped his shirt while they were kissing.
Katsuki choked on his spit as he finally sat up straight.
He took a few deep breaths, some chuckles escaping him here and there, but with the last deep inhale, he finally calmed down.
Fucking hell.
He looked over his shoulder at Eijirou who was still lying next to him on the bed, his eyes huge as he stared, starstruck, at Katsuki.
“... What?” Katsuki asked, voice hoarse.
Eijirou took a second to respond. He sat up on the bed, tilted his head and with a warm smile said, “I really love your laughter.” Without a shadow of embarrassment.
“... Shut up.” Katsuki turned away, biting back his stupid grin, then finally stood up.
He took off his ruined shirt, and on the way to his wardrobe, threw it into a bin.
Part of him wanted to keep it as a souvenir, a reminder how Eijirou felt about him, but something was telling him there were more ruined shirts to come.
Katsuki grinned to himself at the thought, rummaging through his clothes and looking for a decent shirt. He settled on a dark red t-shirt. He put it on and turned to face Eijirou, smoothing out the material.
Eijirou wasn't looking at him. In fact, Eijirou was looking everywhere but Katsuki.
“What's wrong?” Katsuki asked with a raised brow.
Eijirou tensed up, his face red. “Um.. well.” He coughed awkwardly, still refusing to look at Katsuki who put a hand on his hip and stared at him.
Eijirou glanced at him nervously.
“Well?” Katsuki walked up to the bed and kicked the wooden frame.
His boyfriend took a deep breath. He shifted on the bed so that his legs were tucked underneath him. “Well… You said that you don't care about this… stuff…” Eijirou gestured at Katsuki’s shirt, which caused even more confusion. He frowned, yet before he could open his mouth to ask for clarification, Eijirou’s phone rang.
Eijirou’s shoulders jolted and he scrambled to pick up, seeing as it was his mom calling.
Katsuki stood with his arms crossed, tapping his foot as he listened to Eijirou’s conversation.
“First day was fine! Great even” Eijirou said and pointedly looked at Katsuki with a smile. “Yeah, I've eaten at the cafeteria, miso and some gyoza- yes, I ate the veggies.” Eijirou rolled his eyes after Katsuki snorted. “Oh! I um- I'm with Katsuki. Doing… homework. Yeah. … Mama has time..? Ah… No, sorry. We, uhh, we can do the video call later..?”
Katsuki stopped moving. There was that particular crease in Eijirou’s brow that showed he was hurting in some way.
But why?
Eijirou finished the call with a heavy sigh. He put his phone on Katsuki’s nightstand and took just a second too long to plaster on his smile. “So, where was I-”
“Out with it already.” Katsuki demanded.
“Huh?”
“You got all sad talking to your mom just now, come on, spill.” Katsuki walked up closer and towered over Eijirou.
Eijirou looked down at his fingers which he was fiddling with, skin hardened. He chewed on his lip for a few seconds, then shifted on the bed. He lay down close to the wall and patted the space next to him. At first, Katsuki squinted with suspicion, but Eijirou looked so nervous and genuine that he decided to just lie down next to him.
“So?” Katsuki urged, getting impatient.
“I, well…” Eijirou swallowed. “I want to tell my moms as soon as possible. I mean- when you're comfortable, of course, but I actually want them to be the first ones to know.”
Katsuki stared at him, brows high up on his forehead as his thoughts raced in his head.
His moms?
Was Katsuki supposed to tell his parents as well? He couldn't imagine telling them something like this. Not to mention, the first person who came to his mind was Sakamoto, he didn't even think about his parents until that very moment.
“Katsuki,” Eijirou held his hand, “I know we both need some time to get used to this new relationship, but I can't hide something so important from my moms… Not for this long.” Eijirou looked and sounded apologetic, even though he had nothing to apologise for. He was right.
As opposed to Katsuki, Eijirou’s relationship with his parents was good. He always talked about them with so much love and admiration, Katsuki sometimes felt jealous.
Not to mention that Eijirou’s mothers were goddamn lesbians, and for sure wouldn't have any trouble accepting his new relationship. Meanwhile, Katsuki had no idea what kind of views his parents held. They never talked about it. And even though there were people with bird heads and literal walking washing machines, there were still assholes thinking that two guys dating was unnatural.
But this wasn't something he wanted to think about. At least, not for the time being.
Eijirou was still looking at him expectantly, fingers tight around the material of Katsuki’s blanket.
Katsuki glanced at Eijirou’s phone and made up his mind. “You can tell them now.”
“Wh- now? Like, right now?” Eijirou let out a confused laugh as he raised on his elbow. “Are you sure?”
“Positive.” Katsuki said and grabbed Eijirou’s phone. “I know all this means to you as much as it means to me, so…” He placed the device in Eijirou’s hand, squeezing it lightly. “You can go and tell them.”
Eijirou tightened his fingers around his phone as he stared at it, but then he looked up at Katsuki with the most brilliant smile. He threw the phone onto the bed, “Imma roll onto you.”
“Wha- Agh! You're hea-” Whatever complaint Katsuki had, it was interrupted by a quick peck to his lips.
“Thank you.” Eijirou whispered into Katsuki’s neck as he squeezed him.
“Don’t thank me, you dumb rock…” Katsuki mumbled and squeezed him back, deciding to ignore the muffled snickering. “Just go and call them already.” He gently pushed Eijirou off of him.
Yet Eijirou didn't make a move to stand up, just laid on his back and stared at Katsuki with his big, intense eyes. A soft smile tugged at his lips as he grabbed his phone again without breaking eye contact.
“What?” Katsuki asked, his chest full of contagious happiness.
“Would you like to join me for a video call with my moms?”
Katsuki blinked at him.
“... Why?” He sat up on the bed, Eijirou quickly following.
“So you can officially meet them as my.. boyfriend.” He spoke the word like he still couldn't believe it was real, in half whisper with a red face.
Katsuki stared off to the side.
Boyfriend.
“Unless it's too soon?”
Right. Focus.
Telling Eijirou’s moms first was actually the most logical turn of events Katsuki could imagine. After all, it was only natural he would officially introduce himself as Eijirou’s boyfriend, since he wasn’t about to let go of that relationship ever.
Eijirou was still looking at him expectantly, but when Katsuki met his gaze with a smile, he already knew the answer.
They both sat up against the wall and Eijirou quickly started the video call with his moms.
There was a signal, then another, and Katsuki squeezed Eijirou’s hand right outside the camera's view.
Eijirou squeezed back just as both of his moms picked up.
“Eichan!” The one with all-yellow eyes and red hair greeted, and Katsuki tried really hard to remember what her name was. “Ah! Katsu-chan, it's good to see you again!” She addressed him with an excited smile. “Thank you for helping Eichan with his homework.”
Katsuki swallowed and nodded stiffly.
Well, now he felt even worse about not being able to recall her name. He should have asked Eijirou for the reminder.
“Baby, I'm so glad you could call, after all!” The one with Eijirou’s eyes and teeth said way too loudly, and Katsuki realised the two of them weren't on one call. Damn, they weren't even in the same room- time zone?
“Mama! Where are you right now?” Eijirou asked, clearly excited and his ma' was quick to show off the hotel room in fucking Berlin, and he realised she was the flight attendant one.
That meant, the other one was the cop-
“Wait, you're Katsuki?” Eijirou’s police-officer-mother asked while squinting her red eyes at him.
Katsuki felt cold sweat on the back of his neck. “I- yeah?” He wasn't sure why his own tone was questioning, and he glanced at Eijirou who just shrugged.
“... Have we met before?” She asked, tilting her head, and Katsuki tightened his grip on Eijirou’s hand. He held his breath while panic made his heart rate faster.
Fuck, have they?
“Iwachan, we both watched the Sports Festival.” The redhead chuckled and sat down in a comfortable looking arm chair.
Iwa- Iwaishi. That was it! So the one with yellow eyes-
“I'm sure that's not it, Saki.” Iwaishi raised a brow and leaned on her hand.
Saki! Kirishima Saki!
Katsuki bit back a triumphant smile and repeated both their names in his mind several times before he realised that Iwaishi was still squinting at him.
He cleared his throat, “Saki-san's right, I think…”
God, he wanted to disappear beneath the ground.
Although Iwaishi didn't seem fully convinced, she stopped staring at him, but her next question made him panic even more.
“Eijirou, darling, why's your friend so nervous?” Iwaishi chuckled.
Katsuki realised he was so stressed over this situation that her eyes seemed to melt into her skin.
“Mom, come on!” Eijirou laughed, “You start by cornering him and then wonder why he's nervous?” Eijirou tilted his brow with a teasing smile that disappeared when he noticed the iron-clad grip Katsuki had on his hand.
Saki started teasing Iwaishi about her poor interrogation skills, while Katsuki continued to internally panic over meeting his boyfriend’s mom before, because when would that happen? When he was being interrogated after USJ? After Shigaraki was at the mall? Maybe she was one of the cops who made sure he was safe after Eijirou and others walked him to the police station after Kamino-
“Are you okay?” Eijirou asked quietly while both women laughed at each other.
Katsuki looked at him, then at Saki and Iwaishi, then back at Eijirou.
It was so weird to be meeting Eijirou’s parents like that. Sure, he's talked to Saki before, but their conversation lasted about five seconds before she went to sleep, and then apparently he's met Iwaishi before?
… Maybe he should just reintroduce himself?
Eijirou squeezed his hand reassuringly, “You don't have to-”
“Can I-!” Katsuki started too loudly then took a deep calming breath when both women stopped talking and looked at him expectantly. “I'd actually like to reintroduce myself. To both of you.”
They both stayed silent; Saki smiled at him expectantly, as if she already knew what he was about to say, while Iwaishi raised a curious brow.
“My name is Bakugou Katsuki.” He raised their joined hands. “I'm your son's boyfriend.”
There were several seconds of silence during which Katsuki came up with at least a dozen of worst case scenarios, but then Saki and Iwaishi erupted with excitement. Iwaishi literally jumped out of her seat, while Saki clapped with tears in her eyes.
Eijirou melted against him, smiling beautifully.
“I'm so fucking happy for both of you.” Saki seemed like she wanted to walk through the little screen and hug them both.
“Language!” Iwaishi laughed as she sat back down. “Oh, Katsuki, you have no idea how amazing this is, our boy has talked so much about you.”
“Mom!” Eijirou yelled, face red.
“Has he, now?” Katsuki smirked at him, and all of his insecurities finally disappeared.
“Oh, yes. Especially when you invited him to the I-Expo, he literally said that life cannot get any better-”
“MOM!” Eijirou screeched as he shook his phone. “I DID NOT SAY THAT!”
Katsuki didn't even try to not look satisfied.
Once Eijirou’s moms stopped laughing at him, they asked how the two of them finally got together, and Eijirou groaned, Katsuki with him.
“Oh, now I have to hear this.” Iwaishi demanded as she leaned closer to the screen with a sharp smirk.
In hindsight, neither of them could blame Eijirou’s moms for failing to cover up their amusement once they’ve learned that their son had his first kiss whilst concussed.
They ended the call with an invitation for Katsuki to come over for a weekend at some point, and honestly? Katsuki was more than excited to get to know his boyfriend's parents better.
After all, he was in it for the long run.
Notes:
I love those two idiots so much wtf-
I like to think Kirishima kisses how someone would assume Bakugou kisses, and vice versa...
At the time of posting this, there's 4 days and 20 hours left until Dragon Age The Veilguard comes out, aka the game I've been waiting 10 years for, so don't expect me to be available for the next few months LMFAO
Chapter was beta read by Lion and Horror, my beloveds <3 <3 <3
You can find me on tumblr <3
and apparently on twitter lolUp next; Somehow it gets gayer
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