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In three month's time I've come to understand a few things about being a full fledged omega wolf.
First of all, the ridiculous amount of time I want to spend with Jungkook, as compared to the time I actually spend with him, is too drastic. And not in a good way. I’ve hardly had any time with him at all.
I’m way too busy, and that's my new normal. Nearly every day is filled with some type of training, or job, or responsibility I've gained since becoming a wolf. I’m learning something new all the time. Even on my days off I seem to be kept busy with some task, or I'm too tired that I stay in bed and sleep. It's been nonstop since my awakening and I wasn't prepared.
Honestly, I think this whole wolf thing is a lot harder than I expected. I never thought I'd be this busy.
And on top of all that, I still have Goddess Selene’s warning constantly in the back of my mind:
If we aren't careful, history will repeat itself. Dangerous and painful history. When everything was falling apart I didn't have the power inside of me to stay and take care of my family. I wasn't able to be there for them when others brought along destruction. But you can. You can be there for my family.
As something as vague as that, what’s a young wolf like myself supposed to do? I tried the whole constant vigilance thing, but I wore myself out so fast. I slept through not one, but two of our dates. I felt so bad. That convinced me I wasn’t going about it the right way. So naturally I tried not caring as much and told myself not to worry. But in the end it just made me more stressed.
Thankfully, I have a night off and so does Jungkook. So there’s no way I’m going to miss this opportunity. Because I think it’s time I confess exactly what Goddess Selene showed me in my vision and hopefully get his help. This has become too hard for me to handle alone. But I also don’t want to freak him out. I’d hate to think that he’d be bothered or scared by it, although I wouldn't blame him if he was.
Regardless, I’m exhilarated I get to see him.
Just fifteen minutes early to our meet up spot on the north side of the mountain, and he’s already here. My heart is fluttering in my chest and I feel tingly. Especially when he looks up and meets my eyes. He smiles so wide that I’m convinced I’m the only person lucky enough to see him as such. He’s breathtaking.
His hair is longer than ever, as it rests curly around his cheek bones. And his eyes reflect stars as he speaks. “You’re early.”
“I should be saying that to you,” I respond with a slight giggle in my voice.
The moment we’re close enough, he reaches around with both of his hands and pulls me in close. One hand drags its way up and holds the back of my neck. I reach around his waist and naturally return the hug. The heat that surrounds us is full of want, connection, and peace.
“Missed you.”
“I’ve missed you too,” he whispers in my ear, just before giving it a sweet kiss.
He pulls away slightly, and carefully looks deep into my eyes. Right away he can tell there’s something on my mind. “What’s wrong?”
I ducked my head and hugged him some more, wanting to have just a little bit more time with him before I tell him everything. “Just… I’m happy to see you.”
He can’t help but smile and hug me again. “I’m happy too. I swear they’re keeping us busy on purpose.”
“Ah!” My face lights up as I pull away, “You’ve thought so too?!”
“I wouldn’t put it past them,” he answers while scratching the back of his neck.
I cross my arms over my chest and pout a little, “Where’s the trust, huh? What are they expecting to happen?” I keep mumbling and complaining, “It’s not like we can’t control ourselves. Tsk.”
But the moment I say it, I catch Jungkook staring at me and openly checking me out. I’m instantly red. It’s embarrassing, but also really flattering.
“I’m not so sure… sometimes…” he trailed off and let the sentence hang in the air, still staring.
With just his eyes alone, I’m sucked in. I put my hands on his chest and leaned in close as he started bending over. Our eyes shut at the same time as we shared a kiss. At first, it’s gentle and sweet. It’s full of love and familiarity. But the longer we kiss- the longer we stay glued to each other, the more passionate he gets. Bold. His hands squeeze my hips and my waist, just itching to go lower and grab my butt and my thighs. Instead, he concentrates on making me melt with just his tongue. One lick to my lips and I opened my mouth to deepen the kiss. Which leads to muffled and drowned out little moans.
“Y/N…”
I pulled away for air, only because he finally let my lips go, moving to my jawline and down my neck. Every kiss and nibble is making my head dizzy. And sparks a certain feeling through my omega blood. Like an itch I can't scratch. I'm not sure what it is I'm feeling, but it's a lot like a beast trying to get out.
It’s overwhelming, his love and mine. But I don’t want it any other way.
“Jungkook…w-wait...”
“......” I can feel him hesitate; lips just below my ear. “....don’t want to.”
A smile spreads on my lips, “There’s something important I need to tell you.” I feel him give me one last nibble before I pull away, but I decided to keep him close by intertwining my hands with his. “If we keep doing this… I’ll never tell you.”
He chuckles and tries to joke, “Maybe I don't need to know.”
My smile slowly goes away the longer I have to think about what I’m about to tell him. And he can see my worry and hesitation. So he gently tugs me along and sits at the base of a big old tree. He easily pulls me down and had me sit on the ground in between his legs. Very playfully he wraps not just his arms, but also his legs around my body. It’s his way of cheering me up and silently telling me that it’s going to be ok.
I snuggle in against him, and rest my head back on his shoulder, “I um… I’ve been doing my best since my awakening.”
“I’ve seen it. You’re doing great,” he compliments me so easily.
“Thanks,” I chuckle a little. “But um, you may have noticed that I was acting a little weird on more than one occasion.”
“Not just a little weird,” he laughed. “I literally saw you throw out your hands at one point- like you were going to karate chop someone- and it was just the wind.”
“Hey! Don’t laugh,” I complain and purposely thump my head back against his shoulder to quiet him down. “I’ve only been trying to protect you.”
“Protect me?” He can’t help but laugh again, “I think I can protect myself. Just look at me.” He flexes his arms and squeezes them tight around my body to prove his point. “I think I’ll be fine.”
“Goddess Selene doesn’t think you’ll be fine.”
His arms loosen and he goes quiet. I take the opportunity to turn in between his legs and face him. I see the concern in his eyes, and it hurts me.
“I’m sorry, I thought I could do this on my own, but I can’t. With work and training and everything else, I'm just at my limit."
“What's going on?”
I reach up to cup his cheek, then slowly comb part of his bangs back. I watch as his long fluffy hair just falls back in place. My heart is racing. “Goddess Selene… your ancestor…” I take a deep breath and let it out slowly. “She told me she wasn’t able to be there for her family; to protect them. She made it sound like people came to hurt them, but I’m not entirely sure.” I finally looked down and started picking at my nails; I’m still a little nervous. “I think… I think what she was trying to tell me is that something bad will happen to you, and I’m supposed to be there to protect you. So um, I’ve been trying to stay as vigilant as I can be, but… I’m not strong enough.”
He’s quiet, but he looks calm. Even as I comb my fingers through his hair and let my hands rest on his chest, he stays quiet.
“Jungkook?”
“....I love you.”
I’m completely caught off guard; eyes wide like an owl. “What…”
His eyes are shining nothing but love. “I didn’t know you were trying to do all this on your own. But now that you’ve told me, I realize how lucky I am.” His smile makes me melt into a pile of goo. “So I just had to say it. I love you, Y/N.”
“I love you too Jungkook.” I feel so elated and full of joy; I’m blushing so hard. “I’m glad I decided to tell you.”
“I’m glad too.” He leans his head back against the tree and gently guides my head to rest on his chest. I followed his lead and once again cuddled against him. “From now on, we’ll do this together.”
“But what do you think she’s fearful of?”
“I don’t know… either way, we have each other. And we have our families. There isn’t anything we can’t handle,” he says with confidence.
“You’re not scared?”
“Maybe a little,” he confesses with a child-like innocence. “But you’ll protect me right?”
I can hear the slight teasing in his voice, but I decide to just go with it. “That’s right!” I sit up once again and do my best to mimic him earlier. I flex my arms as best I can, “Just look at these guys. Watch out!”
Of course he starts laughing hysterically, but I don’t mind. I really like his laugh. I could listen to it all day.
“Hey,” he lowers his voice to a calm tone, “Just promise me something, ok?”
“Mm,” I smile and stare into his eyes, “What?”
“That no matter what, you’ll never put yourself in harm's way for my sake.”
My forehead creases and I shake my head no, “I can’t promise you that.”
“Y/N…”
“No. That’s not how this is going to work,” I frown and push him away a little. “You just said we would do this together. But if I make a promise like that, then it’s no longer ‘us,’ but you. So no, I’m not going to promise you that.” I cross my arms across my chest and squint my eyes seriously.
He cracks a smile and sighs, completely at my mercy, “You’ll make a great leader one day babe.”
My squinting comes to a quick stop, and is replaced with mushy eyes. I love it when he calls me by pet names. “We’ll be leaders together.”
Without anything else to say, he leans in to close the gap between us with a sweet kiss. Peck. Peck. Peck. And then a smooch to my forehead. Each kiss sends butterflies loose in my tummy.
“Together.”
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One of my new favorite things to do since gaining more responsibility, is to work with Hoseok. Or Hobi, as he prefers it.
Hobi is so sweet and energetic, I love spending time with him. He’s become a great friend and mentor. I look up to him. He’s taught me a lot about being an omega, dealing with the changes, as well as helped me with my confidence.
He runs the very popular boutique Hope World in the Market that imports clothes from a few human cities. Not that they sell more than his own custom pieces. But either way, he’s shown me the value of material, threads, and craftsmanship. He’s a real artist with fabric and fashion. And he inspires me.
I work diligently under the sewing machine and listen as he gossips.
“I swear that Jennie is going to be the death of me. She was late again yesterday, and I just know she’s sneaking around with that punk Kai,” he huffs and swung his leg over the other as he sits on top of the shop’s counter. “They should just tell everyone that they’re together already. It's not like we don't know.”
“Maybe they’re just not ready to share it. At least they look happy,” I give my input, still focused on the sewing machine.
He cups his own cheek and looked on fondly, “Oh sweet Y/N, have I ever told you how much I adore you?”
“Every time we work together actually,” I smile wide. “Ah! Finished!” I lift up the dress and marvel at my progress. "Just have to do the pattern on the sleeves and then I'm done!" I bounce around in the chair happily, "I can't wait to give this to Mama."
"You're doing great Y/N! Seriously, you should consider being my apprentice full time." He smiles coyly, "I can take you to the human cities you know."
I smile shyly, "There's still a lot I want to do, but I'll definitely think about it."
"The apprenticeship or seeing the humans," he asks, lowering his fabulous thick white framed sunglasses.
I laugh, "The apprenticeship. I don't really care to see the humans and the cities."
He shrugs, "I don't blame you. It's just concrete and bad food. But at least their fashion is really impeccable."
"Good business for you then Hobi," I smile.
He hops down from the counter and walks over so he can cup my cheek, staring down with tender eyes, "You're a blessing."
I blush so hard. "Hobi stop~ but thank you."
"That Jungkook of ours is one lucky wolf." He spins on his heel and lifts up his sunglasses to rest up top his bright red head. "You're sure you're going to wait for pups? They're going to be the cutest!"
I'm not sure if it's possible to be any redder. "No, no, no, no! Not yet! No way!" I cover my face with my hands and squeal, "We haven't even gotten to second base yet."
"Wait, what are they again?" He taps his finger on his chin, "First base is kissing? Holding hands? Second base is-"
I groan from embarrassment. Thinking about being intimate with Jungkook makes my brain want to explode. "We've only kissed so far…"
"That's it?!" His voice is so loud I'm sure people outside the shop can hear him. "It's been three months!"
I groan some more, "I know…"
He chuckles happily, "There's nothing wrong with it Y/N. But if you want to talk about it, I'm here."
"I guess I just don't know what to do…"
"What do you mean?"
"I told him from the beginning that I wanted to take things slow. And we've definitely taken it slow… just…" I feel really shy, but I trust Hoseok. "I'm worried about the process of it all…"
He tilts his head and puckers out his lips in confusion, "The process? What do you mean? Like how sex works?"
I hide my face in my hands again, "I know how it works Hobi!"
He giggles at my embarrassment, "Then what?"
"What if I lose control? What if he loses control?" I frown as I keep talking. "It's so intense- the feelings I have for him. Like every time we kiss and it starts getting heavy, I feel something switch on. It's like a tiger behind a cage, and the cage is slowly getting weaker and weaker. I don't know what to name it, but..." I sigh; full of worry. "It kind of scares me…"
"The bonds between wolves is definitely no joke. It's good that you're aware of it. Actually, you're one of the lucky ones, seeing as you've already found your soulmate so early in life." He carries so much tenderness in his eyes as he speaks, "But listen, I guarantee you those intense feelings- as uncontrollable as you think they are, they aren't. Losing control, or having it, your instincts won't let you down. If you think you're not ready yet, then you're not ready. If you are, then it must mean it's right. Just let it happen naturally and you'll see there's nothing to be scared of."
"Thanks Hobi," I reach out and grab his hand with a smile.
"And I know for a fact Jungkook will understand." He squeezes my hand in return, smiling as he does. "So really Y/N, you have nothing to worry about. Take it at your own pace."
Just then, the bell above the door dings as someone walks in. Hobi has to turn around to see who it is. But I on the other hand only need to use my nose; the scent of the beach hits me instantly and my heart begins to race.
'Jungkook .'
Hobi starts laughing, "And look who it is~ What perfect timing! We were just talking about you."
"Good things, or bad things," he asks playfully with a chuckle in his voice.
Jungkook takes a curious glance at me, but I just shrug with a smirk before cleaning up. There's no way I'm telling him what we were just talking about. Thankfully Hobi starts chatting off his ear and distracts him as I finish up cleaning my small station and putting everything back where it should be.
"Thanks for waiting." I walk out from the back and go to the front of the store where they're chatting.
Jungkook smiles wide, "Hey babe. Ready to go?"
He holds out his hand for me, so I walk over and lace mine with his. "Ready," I smile.
"You two are just the cutest couple," Hobi sighs enviously. "Well! Y'all have a goodnight. And let me know if you ever need to talk some more, ok Y/N?"
I blush as he ushers us out, "Ok, Hobi. Thank you."
He waves cheerfully from the door, "I'll see you next week! Good work today!"
"Thank you! Bye bye," I wave back.
"Oh and Jungkook?" We both look back, curious as to what he could say to him. Hobi's eyes look serious, but he clearly has a smirk on his lips. "Stay patient with her! You got this!"
My eyes go wide as Hobi snickers his way back into Hope World. Jungkook is laughing at the shock on my face. He's so confused, "What does that mean?"
"Nothing," I answer, and quickly tug him by his hand. "He's just being crazy."
"Hmm~ is that so? It's just nothing~?"
He sidesteps and slides his way directly behind me. He wraps his arms around my waist, walks in sync with me, while also putting his chin on my shoulder. Needless to say, walking is super difficult, but I can't help but feel really loved when he acts like this. I feel loved and special.
"Yes, yes, yes," I giggle as I stumble about with koala Jungkook attached to me. "It's nothing baby."
I'm still not used to calling him babe or baby, so my face flushes up almost instantaneously. He clearly isn’t used to hearing it either, because he suddenly stopped moving. And because he's stopped moving, I've stopped.
"Jungkook?"
He quickly grabs my hand and pulls me off to the side from the main footpath. The trees and bushes are thick down on the southeast side of the mountain. So he doesn't have to pull me far before no one can see us. The seclusion makes me nervous, but I also feel really enthralled. It's dark out, and it's quiet. It almost feels like we're sneaking around.
"What are you doing?"
His back is facing me, but what’s strange is the way he has his hands up by his ears. ‘Or is it his temples?’ I walk around to get a look at his face and see something unexpected. He’s smiling really wide and he’s blushing. Cheeks red. And eyes shining stars.
“I’m going crazy here,” he said in total embarrassment, but undeniably happy. He dropped his arms and couldn’t stop smiling. “I’m definitely at your mercy.”
My eyes widened from the sudden confession. Now I’m getting embarrassed. “W-What?”
“Yup,” he chuckled and closed the small gap between us with a hug. “I’m all yours and I’m not going anywhere.”
I feel like I’m about to burst at the seams with love and affection. He makes me feel like I’m in a dream. Like I’m a princess in some fantastical fairy tale, ready to be whisked away to a ball. And live happily ever after.
“Why did you just- that's so sudden. I mean, I’m glad. You’re the sweetest guy I've ever- well, you're the only guy I've been with, but-”
Before I could continue rambling he pushed his lips into mine with a laugh. “You’re rambling, baby.” He chuckled as he kissed me again.
Our lips peeled apart, and I feel so tingly. “...why did you suddenly…” I’m so flustered I can’t even correctly ask my question.
With another kiss, he answered, “Sometimes there are moments when I feel like I’m a balloon and I’m going to pop.”
I giggled.
“It’s true,” he smiled. Kiss . “You’ll say something, or maybe do a certain action or whatever, and I just…”
“Yes,” I ask as more of a whisper than I meant it to be. But he has this effect on me.
“I just want to kiss you...” Kiss . “And mark you…” His voice dropped and he slowly nibbled and kissed his way down my neck. “And never let you go.”
I felt his lips lingering below my ear and on my neck. The spot, as told to me by Shin-hye, he’ll bite in the future when we’re ready to consummate our bond. It’s driving me absolutely insane and sending my body into shock. I’m red from his love.
“....mark me….”
“But-”
I reach around, move the rest of my hair out of the way, and tilt my head more to make it easier for him. “Not bite,” I say shyly, “Just… kiss me there.”
It kinda feels like I can hear his rapidly beating heart. But I can’t tell for sure if it’s his, or mine.
With no delay, he closed his eyes as he pressed his lips to my neck. I closed my eyes as well, already lost to the sensations. Soft lips sucking at my skin. The salty sweet beach scent that’s so uniquely his covers me the longer he lingers.
However, the sound of a whistle snaps us out of our hazy bubble.
He pulled away slowly and blushed. “Wow.”
“How does it look,” I ask with my eyes still closed. Still too lost to my omega feelings flushing adrenaline through my body.
He reaches up and touches his mark with his fingertips, "Can I be honest?"
"Always," I say dreamily, finally opening my eyes to meet his.
"It's sexy," he grins.
I lightly bite my bottom lip as I stare up into his gorgeous eyes, “Jungkook?”
“Yes babe,” he purposely whispered in a husky tone.
With a reach, I place my hands on the back of his neck and play with his hair, “I’m all yours too.”
He mimics my smile with one of his own. And takes extreme pleasure in passionately kissing me once again and claiming my lips all for himself.
But there goes the whistle again.
“I have to go.”
He pressed his forehead to mine and groaned, “I know.”
I put on a pout, and shared his lack of enthusiasm, “Stupid lessons.”
He chuckled before giving me one last peck on the lips and finally pulled away so we could start walking again.
“Man… you’re so bad. Making me get all crazy,” he teased.
I giggled, “Shut up. You do the same to me.”
He grinned, “Really?”
I nod, a little bit shy. “That's um… That’s actually what I was talking to Hobi about."
“You were,” he asked, not expecting to hear that.
“Yeah.” I face forward and see the training field just up ahead. “I told him I’m worried about losing control when you’re around.”
“Well, the feeling is mutual,” he joked, chuckling at himself. “I mean, look at what happened. I totally gave you this obvious hickey. Your brother is going to kill me.”
“Hm…” I tilt my head up and pretend like I’m thinking about it, “Yeah, maybe. If so, then it was nice knowing you.” I turn and hold my hand out for him to shake, completely trying to hold my poker face, and failing.
He suddenly picks me up, wrapping his arms around my middle and lifting me straight up into the air, "Trying to make fun of me?"
I'm laughing so much I can barely speak. "No way! I wouldn't!" But there's no believing my obvious lie.
He's laughing with me as he spins around once before putting me back on my feet. "Brat."
I smack him playfully on the chest, gasping dramatically, "Did you just call me a brat?"
"Maybe…" he looks to the side and tries to play innocently.
"You-"
I'm about to laugh and smack him some more, but the whistle going off and a loud scream catches our attention.
"HEY!"
We snap our heads up and realize its Woobin. He looks pissed off, and more so than usual. His lips are pulled up into a scowl and his forehead is scrunched up. I'm actually really intimidated by him. And have been since I first came to this mountain. Nothing has changed since becoming a full fledged wolf. If anything, my omega heart trembles more easily now than it ever did before.
"You really think you can be late!?" Woobin walks over to us with extreme annoyance in his eyes. "You're at the bottom of this class girl , so quit slacking." He didn't even take the time to use my name, and it actually really hurts.
His angry aura is palpable, and I feel so ashamed. Small. "I-I'm sorry. I won't be late again." I can't even look up at him.
But it's Jungkook who suddenly grabs my attention. He looks and sounds just as angry as Woobin.
"What the hell is your problem?"
"Jungkook, stop. I should have been on time," I try and intervene, but it's no use.
"Ohhh, big man gonna stand up for his tardy ass girlfriend?"
Jungkook steps closer to his brother, naturally stepping in front of me and blocking Woobin from my line of sight. "You don't have to be an asshole all the time, you know that right?"
Woobin scoffs loudly with a forced smile, "I'm an asshole? That's what you think?" He clicks his tongue and stands directly in front of his younger brother.
But Jungkook isn't standing down either. "Yeah. I do. And I think if you talk down to Y/N one more time," Jungkook glares at his brother, "Only Dad is going to be able to rip me off of you."
" Dad , huh…" Woobin's hair falls into his dark and angry eyes as he glares at Jungkook. "Last I checked… he wasn't your dad."
All of Jungkook's attitude and anger suddenly vanishes. His whole body just shrinks, as if all of his energy was swept out from under his feet. He doesn't look like the strong and confident wolf I've come to know him as. Right now, he just looks like a pup holding in his tears. I can just feel his pain.
And I can't stand it.
I rush forward and force my way in between them. I push Woobin as hard as I can manage and glare angrily at him. I may not be intimidating to look at, and I come nowhere close to their strength and power, but defending my Jungkook makes me strong.
"You're the worst person anyone could ever ask for in a brother! How could you say that?!"
Woobin doesn't say anything in return, but his eyes speak volume; he's filled with so much hate and anger.
"Just… just stay the hell away from him." With nothing else to say, I turned around and grabbed Jungkook's hand, "Come on babe, let's go."
Jungkook is quiet, his eyes are cast down, and he looks heartbroken. He doesn't say anything, and simply allows me to pull him along.
"Fuck the both of you..."
I glance back and see Woobin storming off in the opposite direction. He suddenly starts running and yells angrily. Seconds later I see his clothes get torn to shreds and a big black wolf appears.
The last thing we hear before we leave the training grounds are the distant howls from his brother running into the dark and lonely woods.