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Is controlling his darling important? Or does he want his darling to love him willingly?
Both? Both. Both is good.
Julian wants you to love and appreciate everything he does for you- do you even realize how hard it is to carry an unconscious body back to his house from the rowdy raven? How stressed he was in making sure everything was perfect for you? He just wants you to be safe, and while he does go about it in an extreme way, you have to understand two things about Julian: He’s seen some shit and doesn’t want you to suffer… But he also has a compulsive need to make things harder for himself, which of course makes him hate himself.
So he does both: He controls your environment- what you eat and when, how often you exercise, and he “sacrifices” his own sleep in exchange for making sure you get the recommended amount (in reality, he’s always had trouble sleeping without the help of a bottle, but he can't set a bad example for you! It's something he can only give you once a week at best- lately, you don’t even seem to be in a good enough mood for golden goose). All in the hopes you realize how hard and stressful it is for him to support two people on his own, taking care of everything for two people is so exhausting. And although he's lucid about how he’s the one who made an irreversible bad move, he hopes you’ll end up truly loving him, even if it's sparked from pity by all the whining he does about his self-made predicament.
But outside of his occasional snaps for you to hug him and run your fingers through his hair after a stressful day, he’s fine if you hate him. The first few times you attack him, he won't even be mad. But be warned: bites, punches, and kicks are gonna rile him up (how sweet of you to mark him! You must have come around quick!) and thus he sees no reason to hold back his… Desires until he gets it out of his system. Or rather, out of both your systems. It's only healthy to let lovers indulge in passions, even if it is a lesser passion like hate sex.