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“Hello jim!” why are you in a bush dale said confused “oh sorry i said” slightly embarrassed “its ok i guess” dale said with a smirk that could wash away all your worries “um anyways i was wondering since this whole encounter happened you wanna get coffee” i said in a weary voice “SURE! I would love to get coffee with you” dale said in an ecstatic voice “ ok then let’s go 

As we walked on the sidewalk we talked about how our families had been me and dale had been friends ever since childhood so this is kinda normal although i hadn’t talked to him in over 3 months so this is some good catching up i thought to myself  

As we reached the coffee shop we found our seats “ so jim what have you been doing lately i'm sure you know my mother has fallen ill so i've been taking care of her more lately” dale said with a tired face “hey tonight do you wanna go to my apartment” i said “ sorry i can’t i have to babysit today maybe another time though” he said with a wholesome voice “ oh your doing babysitting?” i said “yea i babysit for money to help my mom with rent it's good pay too!” he said  happily “hey it's getting late i should probably get going know” dale said “oh yea ok bye i guess” i said as he walked out  

Its raining well this is great as i started walking home i felt the rain stop “huh?” i said confused “jim where you really just gonna walk home in the rain you're going to get sick you dummy” dale  said concerned “come know i'll walk you home” dale said softly “thank you” i said 

As we walked home together i felt something inside me that i've never felt before “what is this feeling i thought? As i walked in my door i thanked dale again and went to sleep. 

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“Okay bye kids!” i said as i walked out the door i thought i wonder if mom is ok 

*ping* huh a text i thought confused as i read the text “hey dale whats up am at the club right now come please~” the text read i thought god he's probably doing something stupid i responded “where are you right now?” he texted back “am at the ******** bar on gay street i'm on my way i replied.  

As i slowly started walking towards the bar as i showed the guard my id as i walked into the bar a found jim slumped over in a seat with some alcohol “hey dale~ Oh i missed you *hiccup!?* ahhhhh~~~ “oh god come on let’s go i said slightly angry 

As i grabbed jim and put him on my back we both went to my home 

“ stay here am going to make dinner and check  on my mother alright?” a spoke softly “yeahhh *hiccup!?* 

As i walked into my mothers dark room i thought to myself “why did she have to get sick why not me she's the nicest women in the world. As i approached her room and opened the door i asked “ hello mother what would you like to eat today “just some..soba h-honey” she spoke within a scratchy voice “sure mother” “how was work today honey” she said struggling to speak “good mother” i spoke as i walked out i had some tears in my eyes i thought to myself don’t cry i just need to make 40 thousand for her treatment i can do it as i went to the kitchen and made some  soba.

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“Sobas ready!” i yelled to jim and my mother “yay~~haha” jim said well still being drunk  after he ate the soba i said “ok lets get you into bed” as grabbed the mattress for myself i thought to myself what im i going to do know? As i heard a loud scream. “Jagah?!” as i went to check on my mother i witnessed something horrible there i stood looking above the stairs was my mothers bloody body the stains are very high around 69 steeps and i screamed “mother?!” i grabbed my phone and dialed 911 “hello please help my mother has fallen down the stairs! And shes bleeding very bad her hold head is bashed up i don’t know what to do!?” i said whimpering to the man “p-please help my mother” as i rushed with my mother to the hospital she was put in an icu as i sat in the waiting room for what felt like forever then

The doctor walked in “is she going be ok doc?!” i said frantically almost in tears “well no she fell down the stairs which were wooden her ribs broke and impaled her lungs it's very unlikely that she will survive” the doctor said as i looked down at my hand i started to sob “i will leave you be” “why mom why…¨ as a familiar face walked in the door 

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Jim had walked into the room standing over him pity fills the room watching as dales tears flow leaving a hot sensation on his cheeks “love is never a waste dale just know that…I care for you deeply” jim said while cupping his cheek with a smile dales eyes looked hazy like he wasn't there dissociation  jim came to the conclusion “come on let’s go..” jim said while pulling him up grabbing his hand pulling him into a tight embrace “your crying dale” he wipes his tears taking a handkerchief out of his coat pocket dale isn’t disotating that much anymore somewhat aware of his surroundings “ah..” dale grumbled into his chest clutching his coat mumbling sorrowful ples for jim to make the pain end and help him forget dale kissed him gripping his hair gently as jim fell into the kiss “i love you” it sounded hollow with n emotion it was fake.  it hurt that in the end jim was only a distraction to his suffering he could be that distraction to a certain degree but he wouldn’t let dale delude himself with the thought that he actually liked jim it hurt to much. “pourquoi sommes-nous comme ce Jim…” “your beautiful dale wipe your tears” jim grabbed his hand twirling him around him putting his hands on the waist he looked so frail he wanted to protect him. “Come on let’s go” they left the building and left on jims motorcycle the moon shining on their skin wind flowing through their hair as dales head sat limply on his shoulder caressing his waist “hey jim will you kiss me?..” dale said his voice small nothing like the man he once knew an hour ago ji was taken aback by the question he can’t kiss him not now not like this… “i’m tired why don’t we get home and go to sleep hm?”. “Yes that would be nice” they both smiled at each other riding home.

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When we arrived at my apartment the lobby was playing samba music “what fun music hey dale”
“Ah what..?” he looks so mentally frail i need to protect him..jim trails off in his head “what did you say jim sorry im sorta..umh..upset” “i mean it’s perfectly normal to be upset in your situation i mean what happened to your mother was terrible i’m sure she will get well soon” my lips trembled saying it i know she has such a slim chance there's no way she can survive but dale already had problems with addictions when they were 14 dale was addicted to opioids because his dad got him addicted he remembers when dale was so drugged up he couldn't even move he had to track him down from a party and basically save him from getting used by disgusting people i don't know why he took opioids what i did know was that dales dad would isolate him and hurt him superbad leaving him not able to move no food making dale rely on him and his dad being his bowlder he was so messed up he couldn't move because he wanted to please his dad dale had said when ever he was nice he would make him food and give him a bubble bath apparently he was more motherly than fatherly he is still a horrible man manipulative narcissistic misogynistic sad truth is that dale was to rapped around his finger to see that it was abuse even know he dosnt know and breaks down whenever i mention his father dale murdered him he dosnt rember it though i think the trauma blocked it out. He thinks his dad walked out on them i got him out on bail he was 18 even if i did tell him how would i he would probably go manic try to find a way to ease the pain..with stuff like drugs..sex..alcohol god thinking about it makes me feel ill i cant i won't let that happen no way not ever
Dale realizes there in his apartment had he really unlocked his door simoltainsy maybe he was a robot he joked to himself rest here dale tomorrow we can get milkshakes “thank you jim..can you sing me a lullaby my mom always used to..” … “sure dale” i start singing as i see him falling asleep “know over and over i keep going over the world we knew.. When you used to love me~”i stop he’s asleep “bonne nuit Jim, rêve bien” it’s just like seeing him for the first time again “tant que tu es à côté de moi, Jim, juste nous deux” i say quietly to not wake him up as i leave the room.