Chapter 1
Summary:
the kids join the server
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# welcome!
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# intros
artjinnie
thanks 
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# welcome!
New
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# intros
New
iyennie :D
agi bbang 
HAN
CUUUUUTE 
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Chapter 2
Summary:
idk what im doing so here's some unseriousness lol
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# general
2024.02.19
HAN
iyennie :D
artjinnie
THAT DOESN'T EVEN LOOK LIKE ME I JUST ALSO HAVE DARK HAIR AND GLASSES 
♡ lixie! ♡
HAN
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Chapter 3
Summary:
here's some more of this fic, sorry these chapters are so short lol
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
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# general
2024.02.22 New
HAN
man i got opps everywhere
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@ artjinnie
♡ lixie! ♡
idk it's so scary how do you do this
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THEY'RE MEETING IRL :D also yes i made lix and seungmin linguistics and language students bc i am a linguistics and language student and i think more people should be obsessed with language and how it works bc its fun
Chapter 4
Summary:
the girls get coffee and have a chat (ft a surprise jeongin)
Notes:
i am not a good descriptive writer. i wrote this fic in a group chat style so i could avoid that, but also i do want to show these in-person scenes happening, so. this is going to be not that well written, and very dialogue heavy. sorry lol 😅
also, cw: accidental misgendering. only very briefly in one line but i still feel like i should add a cw here just in case
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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Lix arrived early, getting a strawberry lemonade at the counter and finding a couch in the furthest possible corner she could find. She sat alone for a while, scrolling absent-mindedly on her phone, until she saw someone open the door in the corner of her eye.
Hyunjin was tall, and her hair was dyed a pale purple, tied in a low ponytail. She was dressed in all-black in a t-shirt, wool coat, skinny jeans and boots with a slight heel, and unexpectedly for Lix, she had an eyebrow piercing. Lix waved her over.
"Hi, sorry I'm a bit late! I'm gonna go order, do you want me to get you anything else?" Hyunjin asked, dropping her coat and bag onto the arm of the couch.
"No, I'm good for now."
As Hyunjin went up to the counter to order, Lix couldn't help but start to worry. What if she didn't pass well enough to Hyunjin? Lix had taken her profile photo at home in her room, on one of the few occasions she had been able to try out makeup and a more feminine outfit with her sister - what if Hyunjin had only seen her as a girl because of the picture she'd seen? What if now she saw her in person, in a plain white t-shirt and jeans, without makeup, she changed her mind? What if Hyunjin hadn't ever seen her as a girl, she was just playing along? What if she decided Lix wasn't "trans enough" to be friends with her? What if-
"So. What's up with you?" Hyunjin's voice cut through Lix's thoughts as the taller woman sat down onto the couch next to her.
"Um. Not much," she replied, a little startled. "What did you order?"
"Americano and a croissant. The barista's bringing it over in a sec." She looked over at Lix's drink on the table. "Not a coffee fan?"
Lix looked down at her drink, then back at Hyunjin. "Oh," she laughed awkwardly, "No, not really. I've never really liked the taste. Like, I'll drink it when I'm really tired? But not if I can help it."
"Maybe I shouldn't have suggested a coffee shop, sorry."
"No, it's fine, they have other drinks that I do like! And this place is nice." She gestured over to the thrift store side of the room. "The clothes there seem cute too."
As the two sat in slightly awkward silence, a barista appeared with Hyunjin's coffee and croissant.
"Anything else I can get you, young lady?"
"No, this is fine, thanks!" Hyunjin smiled at the man, as he turned to Lix.
"Or for you, sir?"
Lix felt her ears go bright red. "Uhhh, no. I'm fine. Thanks." As the man left, her shoulders shrank in at the embarrassment of being misgendered in front of Hyunjin, and she looked down at the ground as her cheeks burned in an attempt to avoid the pitying look she knew she was getting from the other girl. "So, um. Anything specific you want to talk about?"
"Not really. You?"
"To be honest, I didn't really think this through much outside of us just getting to meet in person. I kind of... didn't really meet a lot of people in my first year? So I just wanted to make friends. That's why I joined the server, I guess."
"No, I get it. I don't really talk to anyone on my course, so Minho's sort of the only friend I have at uni. They had to force me to join the server with them so I would find other people to hang out with, rather than just spending all my time either painting or in the dance studio."
"Wait, I did want to ask - do you think I could join the dance club this year?"
"Sure, Minho would definitely be happy to have you! You can come along to a meeting once the semester starts if you wanna try it out?"
"Okay," Lix nodded, taking a sip of her drink. "I don't really have any dance experience though. Unless you count dancing at home in my room. I did do taekwondo to a high level as a kid though, and I heard that can be helpful for dance?"
"Yeah, Minho did a bunch of different martial arts as a kid and they're an incredible dancer, so it probably helps!"
"To be honest, I wish I'd got to do dance lessons instead as a kid. My sisters did, but my parents never let me. They probably thought it would make me too feminine or whatever. They're weird about me doing anything that isn't 'masculine enough', or whatever."
Hyunjin took a bite of her pastry. "That sucks."
"Yeah, when I was back home for the holidays my mum kept nagging me to cut my hair. They said I looked too much like a girl. I don't even think it's that long, I wanna grow it past my shoulders."
"I guess that's part of the problem you talked about before, right? That middle ground."
"Yeah, like I know I still look like a guy like this," she gestured to herself, "but to a lot of people having long hair is just too much. God forbid I start wearing anything feminine in any way outside the safety of my room."
"I mean, you don't look like a guy to me. I don't see you like that."
"Yeah, but. You know what I mean. Like, that barista just called me 'sir'. I don't really get seen as a woman by anyone. Just a feminine man. Not like you, you're just naturally feminine. I bet you get gendered right however you dress." Lix's gaze drifted back down to the floor.
Hyunjin put down her drink, turning to look Lix in the eyes. "Hey, don't start comparing yourself like that. I've been out for like four years and I'm on estrogen. You literally just came out and you're balancing trying to present how you want with staying closeted. That's a difficult thing to do."
Lix brought her legs up onto the couch so her knees were up against her chest, and threw her head back in frustration. Why did everything have to be difficult?
"Figuring yourself out is hard, Lix. Cut yourself some slack."
"I wish I could just press a button and look exactly how I want, and have everyone perceive me as a woman with no questions or judgment. Is that an option? That should be an option. Gender clinics should make that an option."
"God, I wish. Talking to my family would be so much easier," Hyunjin sighed, sipping her coffee.
"Wait, you said four years before. You were out as trans in high school?" Lix stared at Hyunjin in disbelief. "How. That sounds like hell. I can't imagine anyone from my school knowing now, and definitely not back then."
"I mean, out is a stretch. My friends all knew, but I didn't tell the staff or anything, and my family didn't know until last year. And my family doesn't really talk about it. Like, they know, but they sort of pretend they don't. Everything's just kind of awkward. It's weird. Families are weird."
"Honestly for me, my parents pretending I never told them is probably the best case scenario. Worst case scenario I get kicked out. Or maybe I just get yelled at a lot. There's a few possibilities. But I don't think any of them are good."
"That's fucked. Really. I'm sorry."
"I mean, at least I have my sisters. My older sister Rachel knows, and she's been really sweet, and I'm sure Olivia would also be nice about it. And I'm an adult now, right? I just have to put up with my parents until I leave uni and then as soon as I get a decent-paying job, I don't have to deal with them anymore."
"Still fucked."
Lix nodded in agreement. "Still fucked."
"Wanna go check out some of the clothes?"
"Sure." The pair stood up and began to walk towards the racks of clothing. "It feels silly to buy a ton of feminine stuff though if I'm not even going to wear it outside..."
"Who cares? Buy clothes for you, and you can wear them out whenever you feel ready. And there's plenty of cute stuff here that probably wouldn't read too 'girl'."
Lix smiled a little. "Yeah, I'll take a look."
Hyunjin picked a black skirt from the rack. "And hey, if we meet up again, or get the whole group to meet up, we don't have to always meet in public. We can go to someone's house and you can bring along something to change into, if you'd be comfortable with that?"
"I guess, yeah." Lix selected a pale blue and pink knitted sweater. "Would this suit me? I want to try cuter styles, it might make me feel less insanely dysphoric."
Hyunjin glanced over. "Yeah, that's cute! The color choice is a bit obvious though," she laughed.
Lix looked back at the sweater in confusion, then realized. Ah. Trans colors. "Maybe not that then." She pouted a little.
Hyunjin laughed again. "No, I'm kidding. Nobody's outing you based on that. Buy the sweater, it's pretty." She shot Lix a smile, and held up a black and white bomber jacket. "Do you think this jacket would look good on me?"
"Oh, that's cute!" another voice answered from behind them.
Lix panicked and stiffened a little. Fuck. Someone heard all that. Someone heard her talking to Hyunjin. Someone heard her talking about her dysphoria. She felt her breath catch in her throat as she pushed the sweater she was holding back into the rack in an attempt to hide it, before turning round, and seeing-
"JEONGIN?" Hyunjin exclaimed, "Fucking hell, that scared me for a second."
"Hi," Jeongin grinned. "Did I surprise you?"
Lix exhaled. "You nearly gave me a damn heart attack, idiot. Why are you here?"
"This place is right by my dorm. I came in for a coffee and saw you two over here, and couldn't resist surprising you," they replied, joining the girls in looking through clothes.
Hyunjin laughed. "Tiny menace."
"Well, you two are the ones who met up without telling the rest of us." They pouted cutely. "Rude."
"It was sort of a spur of the moment thing. We definitely should organize something as a group before classes start and everyone gets busy with work though." replied Hyunjin. "Let's ask the others!"
Notes:
i feel like i’ve definitely been focusing on the same characters for a while, so i wanna maybe also do some 3racha plot and stuff with other characters soon? i'll see what i come up with :)
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# general
2024.02.24 New
♡ lixie! ♡
iyennie :D
iyennie :D
am i the only person from more than like 25 miles away
iyennie :D
jealous? 
HAN
artjinnie
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Notes:
sorry i haven't updated in so long! i've been dealing with some things in my personal life and just haven't had the motivation to write at all 😭 i'll hopefully have another shorter chapter or two that i can add within the next few weeks or so and i'll try and write more and get some actual plot going in the new year! also we might get another in-person chapter in a couple of chapters time, but that might take a little longer to write bc as i said before, i am not that good at descriptive writing lol
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# general
2024.02.24 New
iyennie :D
not a problem for me 
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# general
2024.02.29
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Notes:
user femlix learn how to end a conversation in this fic without han doing a silly thing challenge - failed twice in one chapter lol 😭
so next chapter will be in person! initially i was gonna just have it skipped over and described in the chat after but i decided i have some things i wanna write out fully, so we're getting another attempt by me to try actual writing despite not knowing how to do that lol. sorry in advance haha.
i have a couple plot elements i wanna start including, mainly involving seungmin and hyunlix as of rn, and i might have some 3racha stuff later? once the plot gets going it might have a tad more angst and hurt/comfort type stuff, since that's what i tend to mostly read on here, so sorry for that in advance if you wanted solely fluff and fun times lol. there will still hopefully be a decent amount of that amongst the other stuff!
i started this fic without much of a plan for what the actual plot would be, it was just me wanting to try using this work skin bc it looked cool, so i'm mostly thinking up stuff as i go and i only really have plans for the next few chapters for now, but i'll try and add in more as i go! and feel free to suggest stuff if there's any characters or dynamics you wanna see explored more as things come up :)
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